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The Ambassadors
by Henry James
New York Edition (1909)
Contents
Volume I |
Preface |
Book First |
Book Second |
Book Third |
Book Fourth |
Book Fifth |
Book Sixth |
Volume II |
Book Seventh |
Book Eighth |
Book Ninth |
Book Tenth |
Book Book Eleventh |
Book Twelfth |
Preface
Nothing is more easy than to state the subject of “The Ambassadors,” which first appeared in twelve numbers of The North American Review (1903) and was published as a whole the same year. The situation involved is gathered up betimes, that is in the second chapter of Book Fifth, for the reader’s benefit, into as few words as possible—planted or “sunk,” stiffly and saliently, in the centre of the current, almost perhaps to the obstruction of traffic. Never can a composition of this sort have sprung straighter from a dropped grain of suggestion, and never can that grain, developed, overgrown and smothered, have yet lurked more in the mass as an independent particle. The whole case, in fine, is in Lambert Strether’s irrepressible outbreak to little Bilham on the Sunday afternoon in Gloriani’s garden, the candour with which he yields, for his young friend’s enlightenment, to the charming admonition of that crisis. The idea of the tale resides indeed in the very fact that an hour of such unprecedented ease should have been felt by him as a crisis, and he is at pains to express it for us as neatly as we could desire. The remarks to which he thus gives utterance contain the essence of “The Ambassadors,” his fingers close, before he has done, round the stem of the full-blown flower; which, after that fashion, he continues officiously to present to us. “Live all you can; it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in particular so long as you have your life. If you haven’t had that what have you had? I’m too old—too old at any rate for what I see. What one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. Still, we have the illusion of freedom; therefore don’t, like me to-day, be without the memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have it, and now I’m a case of reaction against the mistake. Do what you like so long as you don’t make it. For it was a mistake. Live, live!” Such is the gist of Strether’s appeal to the impressed youth, whom he likes and whom he desires to befriend; the word “mistake” occurs several times, it will be seen, in the course of his remarks—which gives the measure of the signal warning he feels attached to his case. He has accordingly missed too much, though perhaps after all constitutionally qualified for a better part, and he wakes up to it in conditions that press the spring of a terrible question. Would there yet perhaps be time for reparation?—reparation, that is, for the injury done his character; for the affront, he is quite ready to say, so stupidly put upon it and in which he has even himself had so clumsy a hand? The answer to which is that he now at all events sees; so that the business of my tale and the march of my action, not to say the precious moral of everything, is just my demonstration of this process of vision.
Nothing is easier than to summarize the subject of “The Ambassadors,” which first appeared in twelve installments of The North American Review (1903) and was published as a complete work the same year. The situation is briefly outlined early on, specifically in the second chapter of Book Fifth, for the reader’s benefit, using as few words as possible—firmly placed right in the middle of the flow, almost blocking the way. This piece of writing has never emerged more directly from a dropped grain of inspiration, and that inspiration, once developed and buried, has never hidden more aptly in the mass as an independent element. Ultimately, the whole situation is captured in Lambert Strether’s spontaneous outburst to little Bilham on a Sunday afternoon in Gloriani’s garden, where he openly shares, for his young friend’s understanding, the delightful wisdom of that moment of crisis. The core of the story lies in the simple fact that such an unusual moment of ease felt to him like a crisis, and he makes an effort to express it for us as clearly as possible. The remarks he makes contain the essence of “The Ambassadors,” as he wraps his fingers around the stem of the fully blossomed flower; in this way, he continues to offer it to us. “Live as much as you can; it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t really matter what you do in particular as long as you’re living. If you haven’t experienced that, what have you truly had? I’m too old—definitely too old for what I see now. What one loses, one loses; don’t be mistaken about that. Still, we have the illusion of freedom; so don’t, like me today, forget that illusion. At the right time, I was either too foolish or too smart to embrace it, and now I’m reacting against that mistake. Do what you want as long as you don’t make that mistake. For it was a mistake. Live, live!” This is the essence of Strether’s appeal to the impressed young man, whom he cares for and wants to help; the word “mistake” appears several times throughout his remarks, highlighting the significant warning he feels connected to his situation. He has certainly missed too much, though he might have been naturally suited for a better role, and he realizes this under circumstances that raise a terrifying question. Is there still time for redemption?—redemption for the harm done to his character; for the insult, which he’s willing to admit was so clumsily inflicted by himself? The answer is that he now, at least, sees; thus the essence of my story and the progression of my actions, not to mention the valuable moral of everything, is simply my demonstration of this process of seeing.
Nothing can exceed the closeness with which the whole fits again into its germ. That had been given me bodily, as usual, by the spoken word, for I was to take the image over exactly as I happened to have met it. A friend had repeated to me, with great appreciation, a thing or two said to him by a man of distinction, much his senior, and to which a sense akin to that of Strether’s melancholy eloquence might be imputed—said as chance would have, and so easily might, in Paris, and in a charming old garden attached to a house of art, and on a Sunday afternoon of summer, many persons of great interest being present. The observation there listened to and gathered up had contained part of the “note” that I was to recognise on the spot as to my purpose—had contained in fact the greater part; the rest was in the place and the time and the scene they sketched: these constituents clustered and combined to give me further support, to give me what I may call the note absolute. There it stands, accordingly, full in the tideway; driven in, with hard taps, like some strong stake for the noose of a cable, the swirl of the current roundabout it. What amplified the hint to more than the bulk of hints in general was the gift with it of the old Paris garden, for in that token were sealed up values infinitely precious. There was of course the seal to break and each item of the packet to count over and handle and estimate; but somehow, in the light of the hint, all the elements of a situation of the sort most to my taste were there. I could even remember no occasion on which, so confronted, I had found it of a livelier interest to take stock, in this fashion, of suggested wealth. For I think, verily, that there are degrees of merit in subjects—in spite of the fact that to treat even one of the most ambiguous with due decency we must for the time, for the feverish and prejudiced hour, at least figure its merit and its dignity as possibly absolute. What it comes to, doubtless, is that even among the supremely good—since with such alone is it one’s theory of one’s honour to be concerned—there is an ideal beauty of goodness the invoked action of which is to raise the artistic faith to its maximum. Then truly, I hold, one’s theme may be said to shine, and that of “The Ambassadors,” I confess, wore this glow for me from beginning to end. Fortunately thus I am able to estimate this as, frankly, quite the best, “all round,” of all my productions; any failure of that justification would have made such an extreme of complacency publicly fatuous.
Nothing can surpass how everything fits back into its origin. I had received this, as usual, through spoken words, since I was meant to take the image exactly as I encountered it. A friend had shared with me, with great appreciation, a few remarks made by a distinguished older man, which could evoke a feeling similar to Strether’s melancholy eloquence—said, as chance would have it, so easily in Paris, in a charming old garden connected to an art house, on a summer Sunday afternoon, with many interesting people present. The comments I listened to and absorbed contained part of the “note” I was to recognize right away as relevant to my purpose—indeed, most of it; the rest was in the place, time, and scenery depicted. These elements came together to provide me with further support, giving me what I might call the absolute note. There it stood, fully present; driven in with firm taps like a strong stake for a cable, with the swirling current around it. What made this hint more substantial than most suggestions was the gift of the old Paris garden, for within that token were sealed values that were infinitely precious. Of course, there was the seal to break and each item to count, handle, and assess; but somehow, in light of the hint, all the elements of a situation I found most appealing were there. I couldn’t even recall a time when, faced with such circumstances, I found it more engaging to inventory suggested riches. For I truly believe there are levels of merit in subjects—despite the fact that to treat even the most ambiguous topics with proper respect, we must, for the moment, during the intense and biased hour, at least view their merit and dignity as possibly absolute. Ultimately, the reality is that even among the supremely good—since that’s what one’s sense of honor is solely concerned with—there exists an ideal beauty of goodness that aims to elevate artistic faith to its utmost. At that point, I believe, one’s theme shines, and “The Ambassadors,” I admit, radiated this glow for me from start to finish. Fortunately, I can view this as, honestly, the best “all around” of all my works; any failure in that regard would have made such an extreme self-satisfaction seem publicly ridiculous.
I recall then in this connexion no moment of subjective intermittence, never one of those alarms as for a suspected hollow beneath one’s feet, a felt ingratitude in the scheme adopted, under which confidence fails and opportunity seems but to mock. If the motive of “The Wings of the Dove,” as I have noted, was to worry me at moments by a sealing-up of its face—though without prejudice to its again, of a sudden, fairly grimacing with expression—so in this other business I had absolute conviction and constant clearness to deal with; it had been a frank proposition, the whole bunch of data, installed on my premises like a monotony of fine weather. (The order of composition, in these things, I may mention, was reversed by the order of publication; the earlier written of the two books having appeared as the later.) Even under the weight of my hero’s years I could feel my postulate firm; even under the strain of the difference between those of Madame de Vionnet and those of Chad Newsome, a difference liable to be denounced as shocking, I could still feel it serene. Nothing resisted, nothing betrayed, I seem to make out, in this full and sound sense of the matter; it shed from any side I could turn it to the same golden glow. I rejoiced in the promise of a hero so mature, who would give me thereby the more to bite into—since it’s only into thickened motive and accumulated character, I think, that the painter of life bites more than a little. My poor friend should have accumulated character, certainly; or rather would be quite naturally and handsomely possessed of it, in the sense that he would have, and would always have felt he had, imagination galore, and that this yet wouldn’t have wrecked him. It was immeasurable, the opportunity to “do” a man of imagination, for if there mightn’t be a chance to “bite,” where in the world might it be? This personage of course, so enriched, wouldn’t give me, for his type, imagination in predominance or as his prime faculty, nor should I, in view of other matters, have found that convenient. So particular a luxury—some occasion, that is, for study of the high gift in supreme command of a case or of a career—would still doubtless come on the day I should be ready to pay for it; and till then might, as from far back, remain hung up well in view and just out of reach. The comparative case meanwhile would serve—it was only on the minor scale that I had treated myself even to comparative cases.
I remember that during this time, I never felt those moments of uncertainty, like the fear of stepping on something empty beneath me or feeling unappreciative of the path I took, where trust falters and chances seem to mock me. If the purpose of “The Wings of the Dove,” as I noted, was to sometimes unsettle me by keeping its true meaning hidden—though it would occasionally reveal its emotions—I had total certainty and clarity in this other situation; it was a straightforward proposition, all the information laid out in front of me like a steady stretch of good weather. (I should mention that the order of writing here was the opposite of the order of publication; the earlier written of the two books came out later.) Even with the burden of my hero's age, I felt my belief was strong; even with the stark differences between Madame de Vionnet and Chad Newsome, which could easily be seen as shocking, I still felt peaceful about it. Nothing resisted or betrayed me, as far as I could see; it radiated a consistent golden light no matter how I looked at it. I was excited about the potential of a hero so mature, as it would give me much more to explore—since, I believe, it's only with a rich motivation and developed character that a storyteller can truly delve deeper. My poor friend should definitely have developed character, or rather, he would naturally and beautifully possess it, in the sense that he would have a wealth of imagination, and yet that wouldn't ruin him. It was an incredible opportunity to portray a man of imagination, because if I couldn’t delve into that, then where could I? This character, of course, wouldn't primarily showcase imagination as his main trait, nor would I find that convenient due to other factors. Such a specific luxury—an opportunity to study someone with supreme control over a case or career—would undoubtedly come in the future when I was ready to invest in it; until then, it could remain just out of reach, hanging in clear view. Meanwhile, I could work with the comparative case—it was only on a smaller scale that I had indulged in such comparisons.
I was to hasten to add however that, happy stopgaps as the minor scale had thus yielded, the instance in hand should enjoy the advantage of the full range of the major; since most immediately to the point was the question of that supplement of situation logically involved in our gentleman’s impulse to deliver himself in the Paris garden on the Sunday afternoon—or if not involved by strict logic then all ideally and enchantingly implied in it. (I say “ideally,” because I need scarce mention that for development, for expression of its maximum, my glimmering story was, at the earliest stage, to have nipped the thread of connexion with the possibilities of the actual reported speaker. He remains but the happiest of accidents; his actualities, all too definite, precluded any range of possibilities; it had only been his charming office to project upon that wide field of the artist’s vision—which hangs there ever in place like the white sheet suspended for the figures of a child’s magic-lantern—a more fantastic and more moveable shadow.) No privilege of the teller of tales and the handler of puppets is more delightful, or has more of the suspense and the thrill of a game of difficulty breathlessly played, than just this business of looking for the unseen and the occult, in a scheme half-grasped, by the light or, so to speak, by the clinging scent, of the gage already in hand. No dreadful old pursuit of the hidden slave with bloodhounds and the rag of association can ever, for “excitement,” I judge, have bettered it at its best. For the dramatist always, by the very law of his genius, believes not only in a possible right issue from the rightly-conceived tight place; he does much more than this—he believes, irresistibly, in the necessary, the precious “tightness” of the place (whatever the issue) on the strength of any respectable hint. It being thus the respectable hint that I had with such avidity picked up, what would be the story to which it would most inevitably form the centre? It is part of the charm attendant on such questions that the “story,” with the omens true, as I say, puts on from this stage the authenticity of concrete existence. It then is, essentially—it begins to be, though it may more or less obscurely lurk, so that the point is not in the least what to make of it, but only, very delightfully and very damnably, where to put one’s hand on it.
I should quickly add, however, that while the minor scale had produced some happy temporary solutions, the situation at hand should benefit from the full range of the major scale. The most relevant point is the question of the supplement of the situation logically involved in our gentleman’s desire to express himself in the Paris garden on Sunday afternoon—or if not logically, then ideally and enchantingly implied in it. (I say “ideally” because I hardly need to mention that for development and maximal expression, my budding story was initially meant to sever the connection with the possibilities of the actual speaker. He remains just the happiest of accidents; his actual circumstances were too definite to allow for any range of possibilities; his charming role had only been to cast a more fantastic and fluid shadow onto the wide field of the artist’s vision—which always hangs there like a white sheet ready for the figures of a child's magic lantern.) No privilege of a storyteller and puppeteer is more delightful or possesses more suspense and the thrill of a challenging game than this task of searching for the unseen and the occult in a scheme half-understood, guided by the light or, so to speak, the lingering scent of the clue already in hand. No dreadful old pursuit of a hidden truth with bloodhounds and scraps of association can ever, I believe, match its excitement at its best. For the dramatist, by the very nature of his genius, not only believes in a possible right outcome from a well-conceived tight situation; he believes, irresistibly, in the necessary, precious “tightness” of that situation (regardless of the outcome) based on any respectable hint. Given that I had eagerly picked up such a respectable hint, what story would it most inevitably center around? There’s a charm to such questions in that the “story,” when the signs align, takes on the authenticity of concrete existence. It essentially is—it begins to be, although it may lurk more or less obscurely, so the point is not at all about what to make of it, but rather, very delightfully and very frustratingly, where to find it.
In which truth resides surely much of the interest of that admirable mixture for salutary application which we know as art. Art deals with what we see, it must first contribute full-handed that ingredient; it plucks its material, otherwise expressed, in the garden of life—which material elsewhere grown is stale and uneatable. But it has no sooner done this than it has to take account of a process—from which only when it’s the basest of the servants of man, incurring ignominious dismissal with no “character,” does it, and whether under some muddled pretext of morality or on any other, pusillanimously edge away. The process, that of the expression, the literal squeezing-out, of value is another affair—with which the happy luck of mere finding has little to do. The joys of finding, at this stage, are pretty well over; that quest of the subject as a whole by “matching,” as the ladies say at the shops, the big piece with the snippet, having ended, we assume, with a capture. The subject is found, and if the problem is then transferred to the ground of what to do with it the field opens out for any amount of doing. This is precisely the infusion that, as I submit, completes the strong mixture. It is on the other hand the part of the business that can least be likened to the chase with horn and hound. It’s all a sedentary part—involves as much ciphering, of sorts, as would merit the highest salary paid to a chief accountant. Not, however, that the chief accountant hasn’t his gleams of bliss; for the felicity, or at least the equilibrium of the artist’s state dwells less, surely, in the further delightful complications he can smuggle in than in those he succeeds in keeping out. He sows his seed at the risk of too thick a crop; wherefore yet again, like the gentlemen who audit ledgers, he must keep his head at any price. In consequence of all which, for the interest of the matter, I might seem here to have my choice of narrating my “hunt” for Lambert Strether, of describing the capture of the shadow projected by my friend’s anecdote, or of reporting on the occurrences subsequent to that triumph. But I had probably best attempt a little to glance in each direction; since it comes to me again and again, over this licentious record, that one’s bag of adventures, conceived or conceivable, has been only half-emptied by the mere telling of one’s story. It depends so on what one means by that equivocal quantity. There is the story of one’s hero, and then, thanks to the intimate connexion of things, the story of one’s story itself. I blush to confess it, but if one’s a dramatist one’s a dramatist, and the latter imbroglio is liable on occasion to strike me as really the more objective of the two.
In truth lies much of the appeal of that remarkable blend for beneficial application that we call art. Art engages with what we observe, and it must first provide that essential ingredient; it gathers its materials, or put another way, from the garden of life—materials that otherwise become stale and inedible. But once it does this, it has to consider a process—and only when it’s the most base servant of humanity, facing disgrace without any "character," does it shy away, whether under some confused moral pretext or otherwise. The process, which is the expression, the literal extraction of value, is a different matter—in which the fortunate coincidence of just finding has little to do. The pleasures of discovery are pretty much done at this stage; that search for the subject as a whole, by “matching,” as the ladies say at the shops, the big piece with the small one, presumably ends with a capture. The subject is found, and if the question then shifts to what to do with it, the possibilities for action expand significantly. This is precisely the infusion that, as I argue, completes the potent mixture. On the other hand, this aspect of the task is the one that resembles the chase with horn and hound the least. It's all a sedentary pursuit—it involves as much calculation, of various kinds, as would justify the highest salary for a chief accountant. Not, however, that the chief accountant doesn’t have his moments of joy; for the happiness, or at least the balance of the artist's state, likely resides less in the delightful complexities he can sneak in than in those he manages to keep out. He plants his seed at the risk of an overly abundant crop; hence, once again, like the gentlemen who audit ledgers, he must keep his composure at any cost. As a result of all this, for the sake of interest, I could seem to choose between narrating my “hunt” for Lambert Strether, describing the capture of the shadow cast by my friend’s story, or reporting on the events that followed that success. But I probably should try to briefly glance in each direction; for it strikes me repeatedly, over this freewheeling account, that one’s collection of adventures, whether imagined or achievable, seems only half-empty with the mere telling of one’s tale. It really depends on what one means by that ambiguous quantity. There is the story of one’s hero, and then, thanks to the close connection of things, the story of one’s own story. I feel embarrassed to admit it, but if one is a dramatist, one is a dramatist, and this latter entanglement sometimes seems to me the more objective of the two.
The philosophy imputed to him in that beautiful outbreak, the hour there, amid such happy provision, striking for him, would have been then, on behalf of my man of imagination, to be logically and, as the artless craft of comedy has it, “led up” to; the probable course to such a goal, the goal of so conscious a predicament, would have in short to be finely calculated. Where has he come from and why has he come, what is he doing (as we Anglo-Saxons, and we only, say, in our foredoomed clutch of exotic aids to expression) in that galère? To answer these questions plausibly, to answer them as under cross-examination in the witness-box by counsel for the prosecution, in other words satisfactorily to account for Strether and for his “peculiar tone,” was to possess myself of the entire fabric. At the same time the clue to its whereabouts would lie in a certain principle of probability: he wouldn’t have indulged in his peculiar tone without a reason; it would take a felt predicament or a false position to give him so ironic an accent. One hadn’t been noting “tones” all one’s life without recognising when one heard it the voice of the false position. The dear man in the Paris garden was then admirably and unmistakeably in one—which was no small point gained; what next accordingly concerned us was the determination of this identity. One could only go by probabilities, but there was the advantage that the most general of the probabilities were virtual certainties. Possessed of our friend’s nationality, to start with, there was a general probability in his narrower localism; which, for that matter, one had really but to keep under the lens for an hour to see it give up its secrets. He would have issued, our rueful worthy, from the very heart of New England—at the heels of which matter of course a perfect train of secrets tumbled for me into the light. They had to be sifted and sorted, and I shall not reproduce the detail of that process; but unmistakeably they were all there, and it was but a question, auspiciously, of picking among them. What the “position” would infallibly be, and why, on his hands, it had turned “false”—these inductive steps could only be as rapid as they were distinct. I accounted for everything—and “everything” had by this time become the most promising quantity—by the view that he had come to Paris in some state of mind which was literally undergoing, as a result of new and unexpected assaults and infusions, a change almost from hour to hour. He had come with a view that might have been figured by a clear green liquid, say, in a neat glass phial; and the liquid, once poured into the open cup of application, once exposed to the action of another air, had begun to turn from green to red, or whatever, and might, for all he knew, be on its way to purple, to black, to yellow. At the still wilder extremes represented perhaps, for all he could say to the contrary, by a variability so violent, he would at first, naturally, but have gazed in surprise and alarm; whereby the situation clearly would spring from the play of wildness and the development of extremes. I saw in a moment that, should this development proceed both with force and logic, my “story” would leave nothing to be desired. There is always, of course, for the story-teller, the irresistible determinant and the incalculable advantage of his interest in the story as such; it is ever, obviously, overwhelmingly, the prime and precious thing (as other than this I have never been able to see it); as to which what makes for it, with whatever headlong energy, may be said to pale before the energy with which it simply makes for itself. It rejoices, none the less, at its best, to seem to offer itself in a light, to seem to know, and with the very last knowledge, what it’s about—liable as it yet is at moments to be caught by us with its tongue in its cheek and absolutely no warrant but its splendid impudence. Let us grant then that the impudence is always there—there, so to speak, for grace and effect and allure; there, above all, because the Story is just the spoiled child of art, and because, as we are always disappointed when the pampered don’t “play up,” we like it, to that extent, to look all its character. It probably does so, in truth, even when we most flatter ourselves that we negotiate with it by treaty.
The philosophy attributed to him in that beautiful moment, there amid such happy arrangements, would have been, for my imaginative guy, something to be logically and, as the straightforward comedy puts it, “led up” to. The likely path to such an outcome, given such a conscious predicament, would have had to be carefully calculated. Where did he come from and why did he come? What is he doing (as us Anglo-Saxons uniquely say, clinging to our exotic aids for expression) in that gallery? To answer these questions convincingly, as if under cross-examination in the witness box by the prosecutor, meant to satisfactorily explain who Strether was and his “peculiar tone.” Doing so would help me grasp the whole picture. At the same time, the key to finding it would lie in a certain principle of probability: he wouldn’t have had his peculiar tone without a reason; it would take a real predicament or an awkward situation to give him such an ironic tone. You don’t go through life noticing “tones” without recognizing the voice of a false position when you hear it. The dear man in the Paris garden was clearly in one—which was a significant point in our favor; what concerned us next was determining this identity. One could only rely on probabilities, but the good thing is that the broadest probabilities were almost certainties. Starting with our friend’s nationality, there was a general probability in his more localized background; in fact, you just had to look closely for an hour to see it reveal its secrets. Our poor fellow would have come from the very heart of New England—after which a perfect chain of secrets came to light for me. They had to be sifted and sorted, and I won't go into the details of that process; but unmistakably, they were all there, and it was merely a matter of picking among them. What the “position” would definitely be, and why it had turned “false” in his case—these inductive steps could only be as quick as they were clear. I accounted for everything—and by this point, “everything” had turned into the most promising quantity—by the belief that he had arrived in Paris in a state of mind that was literally undergoing changes almost by the hour due to new and unexpected influences. He arrived with a mindset that could be pictured as a clear green liquid in a neat glass vial; and once that liquid was poured into the open cup of application, once exposed to another atmosphere, it started changing from green to red, or whatever, and for all he knew, it might be on its way to purple, to black, or to yellow. At first, naturally, he would have stared in surprise and alarm at the potentially wild extremes, which led to the situation arising from this wildness and the development of extremes. I realized in a moment that if this development proceeded with both intensity and clarity, my “story” would be perfect. There’s always, of course, for the storyteller, the irresistible force and the unpredictable advantage of being interested in the story as such; it is overwhelmingly the prime and precious thing (as I’ve never seen it any other way); as for what contributes to it, regardless of whatever forceful energy it may involve, pales in comparison to the energy with which it simply promotes itself. That said, at its best, it enjoys seeming to present itself in a certain light, seeming to know, with the utmost clarity, what it’s about—though it can at times be caught with its tongue in its cheek and absolutely no justification other than its boldness. So, let’s agree that the boldness is always there—there, for grace and effect and allure; there, above all, because the Story is like the spoiled child of art, and because we’re always disappointed when the pampered don’t “play up,” we like it, to that extent, to fully exhibit its character. It probably does so, in truth, even when we most deceive ourselves into thinking we engage with it on a formal basis.
All of which, again, is but to say that the steps, for my fable, placed themselves with a prompt and, as it were, functional assurance—an air quite as of readiness to have dispensed with logic had I been in fact too stupid for my clue. Never, positively, none the less, as the links multiplied, had I felt less stupid than for the determination of poor Strether’s errand and for the apprehension of his issue. These things continued to fall together, as by the neat action of their own weight and form, even while their commentator scratched his head about them; he easily sees now that they were always well in advance of him. As the case completed itself he had in fact, from a good way behind, to catch up with them, breathless and a little flurried, as he best could. The false position, for our belated man of the world—belated because he had endeavoured so long to escape being one, and now at last had really to face his doom—the false position for him, I say, was obviously to have presented himself at the gate of that boundless menagerie primed with a moral scheme of the most approved pattern which was yet framed to break down on any approach to vivid facts; that is to any at all liberal appreciation of them. There would have been of course the case of the Strether prepared, wherever presenting himself, only to judge and to feel meanly; but he would have moved for me, I confess, enveloped in no legend whatever. The actual man’s note, from the first of our seeing it struck, is the note of discrimination, just as his drama is to become, under stress, the drama of discrimination. It would have been his blest imagination, we have seen, that had already helped him to discriminate; the element that was for so much of the pleasure of my cutting thick, as I have intimated, into his intellectual, into his moral substance. Yet here it was, at the same time, just here, that a shade for a moment fell across the scene.
All of this, again, just means that the steps in my story came together with a quick and, you could say, practical certainty—like they were ready to skip logic if I had genuinely been too dense to grasp my clues. Never, really, less than when the connections multiplied, did I feel more clueless about the purpose of poor Strether’s mission and the understanding of its outcome. These elements continued to align, almost effortlessly, even while I puzzled over them; I see now they were always ahead of me. As the situation unfolded, I had to catch up with them, breathless and a little flustered, as best as I could from behind. The false position for our delayed man of the world—delayed because he had tried for so long to avoid being one, and now had to face his reality—was clearly to arrive at the entrance of that vast menagerie loaded with a moral agenda of a well-respected kind that was bound to collapse in the face of real, vivid facts; that is, any truly open-minded appreciation of them. Of course, there would have been the version of Strether who, no matter where he showed up, was only there to judge and feel inferior; but he would have moved for me, I admit, without any backstory at all. The actual man’s voice, from the start when we first encountered it, is one of discernment, just as his story is set to become, under pressure, a story of discernment. It would have been his blessed imagination, as we’ve seen, that already helped him to differentiate; the element that contributed so much to the pleasure of my deep dive into his intellectual and moral essence. Yet here it was, at this very moment, that a shadow briefly cast itself over the scene.
There was the dreadful little old tradition, one of the platitudes of the human comedy, that people’s moral scheme does break down in Paris; that nothing is more frequently observed; that hundreds of thousands of more or less hypocritical or more or less cynical persons annually visit the place for the sake of the probable catastrophe, and that I came late in the day to work myself up about it. There was in fine the trivial association, one of the vulgarest in the world; but which give me pause no longer, I think, simply because its vulgarity is so advertised. The revolution performed by Strether under the influence of the most interesting of great cities was to have nothing to do with any bêtise of the imputably “tempted” state; he was to be thrown forward, rather, thrown quite with violence, upon his lifelong trick of intense reflexion: which friendly test indeed was to bring him out, through winding passages, through alternations of darkness and light, very much in Paris, but with the surrounding scene itself a minor matter, a mere symbol for more things than had been dreamt of in the philosophy of Woollett. Another surrounding scene would have done as well for our show could it have represented a place in which Strether’s errand was likely to lie and his crisis to await him. The likely place had the great merit of sparing me preparations; there would have been too many involved—not at all impossibilities, only rather worrying and delaying difficulties—in positing elsewhere Chad Newsome’s interesting relation, his so interesting complexity of relations. Strether’s appointed stage, in fine, could be but Chad’s most luckily selected one. The young man had gone in, as they say, for circumjacent charm; and where he would have found it, by the turn of his mind, most “authentic,” was where his earnest friend’s analysis would most find him; as well as where, for that matter, the former’s whole analytic faculty would be led such a wonderful dance.
There was this annoying old belief, one of the clichés of human behavior, that people's morals tend to fall apart in Paris; and it's something we see all the time. Hundreds of thousands of somewhat hypocritical or cynical people visit the city each year, drawn by the likelihood of some kind of disaster, and I showed up late to get worked up about it. It was, in short, a pretty trivial association, one of the most basic in the world; but it no longer bothered me, I think, simply because its absurdity is so obvious. The transformation that Strether experienced, influenced by the most captivating of great cities, was to be entirely separate from any foolishness attributed to the supposedly “tempted” state; instead, he was to be thrust forward—almost violently—into his lifelong habit of deep reflection: this challenging process was meant to help him navigate through winding paths, alternating between darkness and light, very much in the heart of Paris, but with the surrounding scene being a minor issue, just a symbol for much more than what had ever been considered in the philosophy of Woollett. Another setting would have worked just as well for our story if it had represented a place where Strether's mission was likely to unfold and where his crisis awaited him. The likely place had the great advantage of saving me from unnecessary preparations; there would have been too many involved—not impossible, just somewhat frustrating and time-consuming complications—in placing Chad Newsome’s intriguing relationship, along with its fascinating complexity, somewhere else. In the end, Strether's designated stage could only be Chad’s most fortuitously chosen one. The young man had sought, as they say, the charm that surrounded him; and where he would have found it, according to his perspective, most “genuine,” was where his earnest friend's analysis would most reveal him; as well as where, for that matter, the former's entire analytical ability would be led on a spectacular journey.
“The Ambassadors” had been, all conveniently, “arranged for”; its first appearance was from month to month, in the North American Review during 1903, and I had been open from far back to any pleasant provocation for ingenuity that might reside in one’s actively adopting—so as to make it, in its way, a small compositional law—recurrent breaks and resumptions. I had made up my mind here regularly to exploit and enjoy these often rather rude jolts—having found, as I believed an admirable way to it; yet every question of form and pressure, I easily remember, paled in the light of the major propriety, recognised as soon as really weighed; that of employing but one centre and keeping it all within my hero’s compass. The thing was to be so much this worthy’s intimate adventure that even the projection of his consciousness upon it from beginning to end without intermission or deviation would probably still leave a part of its value for him, and a fortiori for ourselves, unexpressed. I might, however, express every grain of it that there would be room for—on condition of contriving a splendid particular economy. Other persons in no small number were to people the scene, and each with his or her axe to grind, his or her situation to treat, his or her coherency not to fail of, his or her relation to my leading motive, in a word, to establish and carry on. But Strether’s sense of these things, and Strether’s only, should avail me for showing them; I should know them but through his more or less groping knowledge of them, since his very gropings would figure among his most interesting motions, and a full observance of the rich rigour I speak of would give me more of the effect I should be most “after” than all other possible observances together. It would give me a large unity, and that in turn would crown me with the grace to which the enlightened story-teller will at any time, for his interest, sacrifice if need be all other graces whatever. I refer of course to the grace of intensity, which there are ways of signally achieving and ways of signally missing—as we see it, all round us, helplessly and woefully missed. Not that it isn’t, on the other hand, a virtue eminently subject to appreciation—there being no strict, no absolute measure of it; so that one may hear it acclaimed where it has quite escaped one’s perception, and see it unnoticed where one has gratefully hailed it. After all of which I am not sure, either, that the immense amusement of the whole cluster of difficulties so arrayed may not operate, for the fond fabulist, when judicious not less than fond, as his best of determinants. That charming principle is always there, at all events, to keep interest fresh: it is a principle, we remember, essentially ravenous, without scruple and without mercy, appeased with no cheap nor easy nourishment. It enjoys the costly sacrifice and rejoices thereby in the very odour of difficulty—even as ogres, with their “Fee-faw-fum!” rejoice in the smell of the blood of Englishmen.
"The Ambassadors" had been, conveniently enough, “arranged for”; its first appearance was monthly in the North American Review during 1903, and I had long been open to any pleasant prompts for creativity that could come from actively adopting—so as to make it, effectively, a small compositional rule—recurring breaks and resumptions. I had decided to regularly embrace and enjoy these often quite jarring interruptions—having found, as I believed, an excellent way to do it; yet every question of form and pressure, I easily recall, faded in light of the greater priority, recognized as soon as really contemplated; that of using just one center and keeping everything within my hero’s compass. The goal was to make this character’s personal journey so intimate that even projecting his consciousness throughout, without pause or deviation, would likely leave some value for him, and a fortiori for us, unexpressed. However, I could express every bit of it that would fit—on the condition of crafting a brilliant specific economy. Other characters, in considerable numbers, were to fill the scene, each with their own agenda, situations to address, coherence to maintain, and relations to my main theme to establish and develop. But it was only Strether’s understanding of these matters that should serve me in showing them; I would only know them through his more or less stumbling awareness of them, as his very struggles would be among his most interesting actions, and a complete adherence to the rich rigor I mentioned would provide me with more of the effect I was most "after" than all other potential approaches combined. It would give me a strong unity, which in turn would bestow upon me the grace that a thoughtful storyteller will always, for their interest, sacrifice all other graces if necessary. I’m referring, of course, to the grace of intensity, which can be significantly achieved or glaringly missed—as we witness all around us, helplessly and regrettably overlooked. Not that it isn’t, on the other hand, a quality highly deserving of appreciation—there being no strict, no absolute standard for it; so that one may hear it praised where it has completely eluded one’s perception, and see it ignored where one has enthusiastically acknowledged it. After all this, I’m not certain that the enormous amusement from the whole set of challenges laid out may not serve, for the affectionate storyteller, when both sensible and affectionate, as their best guide. That delightful principle is always there, at any rate, to keep interest vibrant: it is a principle, we remember, essentially insatiable, without scruple and without compassion, satisfied with no cheap or easy fare. It delights in the costly sacrifice and revels in the very scent of difficulty—even as ogres, with their “Fee-faw-fum!” relish the smell of English blood.
Thus it was, at all events, that the ultimate, though after all so speedy, definition of my gentleman’s job—his coming out, all solemnly appointed and deputed, to “save” Chad, and his then finding the young man so disobligingly and, at first, so bewilderingly not lost that a new issue altogether, in the connexion, prodigiously faces them, which has to be dealt with in a new light—promised as many calls on ingenuity and on the higher branches of the compositional art as one could possibly desire. Again and yet again, as, from book to book, I proceed with my survey, I find no source of interest equal to this verification after the fact, as I may call it, and the more in detail the better, of the scheme of consistency “gone in” for. As always—since the charm never fails—the retracing of the process from point to point brings back the old illusion. The old intentions bloom again and flower—in spite of all the blossoms they were to have dropped by the way. This is the charm, as I say, of adventure transposed—the thrilling ups and downs, the intricate ins and outs of the compositional problem, made after such a fashion admirably objective, becoming the question at issue and keeping the author’s heart in his mouth. Such an element, for instance, as his intention that Mrs. Newsome, away off with her finger on the pulse of Massachusetts, should yet be no less intensely than circuitously present through the whole thing, should be no less felt as to be reckoned with than the most direct exhibition, the finest portrayal at first hand could make her, such a sign of artistic good faith, I say, once it’s unmistakeably there, takes on again an actuality not too much impaired by the comparative dimness of the particular success. Cherished intention too inevitably acts and operates, in the book, about fifty times as little as I had fondly dreamt it might; but that scarce spoils for me the pleasure of recognising the fifty ways in which I had sought to provide for it. The mere charm of seeing such an idea constituent, in its degree; the fineness of the measures taken—a real extension, if successful, of the very terms and possibilities of representation and figuration—such things alone were, after this fashion, inspiring, such things alone were a gage of the probable success of that dissimulated calculation with which the whole effort was to square. But oh the cares begotten, none the less, of that same “judicious” sacrifice to a particular form of interest! One’s work should have composition, because composition alone is positive beauty; but all the while—apart from one’s inevitable consciousness too of the dire paucity of readers ever recognising or ever missing positive beauty—how, as to the cheap and easy, at every turn, how, as to immediacy and facility, and even as to the commoner vivacity, positive beauty might have to be sweated for and paid for! Once achieved and installed it may always be trusted to make the poor seeker feel he would have blushed to the roots of his hair for failing of it; yet, how, as its virtue can be essentially but the virtue of the whole, the wayside traps set in the interest of muddlement and pleading but the cause of the moment, of the particular bit in itself, have to be kicked out of the path! All the sophistications in life, for example, might have appeared to muster on behalf of the menace—the menace to a bright variety—involved in Strether’s having all the subjective “say,” as it were, to himself.
So it was, in any case, that the final, although quite swift, definition of my gentleman’s role—his serious assignment to “save” Chad—then discovering that the young man was confusingly not lost at all, presented a completely new issue that they had to tackle in a different way. This promised a wealth of opportunities for creativity and higher-level writing techniques that one could ever wish for. Again and again, as I continue my review from book to book, I find no source of interest that matches this retrospective verification, as I might call it. The more detailed, the better, of the consistency I aimed for. As always—since the appeal never fades—retracing the journey from point to point restores the original illusion. The old intentions reemerge and thrive—despite all the details they were supposed to have lost along the way. This is the allure, as I mentioned, of adventure transposed—the thrilling ups and downs, the complex ins and outs of the writing challenge, made wonderfully objective, centering around the issue and keeping the author on edge. For example, his goal that Mrs. Newsome, far away with her finger on Massachusetts’ pulse, should still be intensely and indirectly present throughout, should feel just as much of a presence to reckon with as the most direct depiction could provide—this sign of artistic integrity, once unmistakably present, returns to an actuality not overly diminished by the relatively muted success. The cherished intention inevitably works and operates about fifty times less than I had hoped it would; but that hardly spoils my enjoyment of recognizing the fifty ways I tried to accommodate it. The simple pleasure of seeing such an idea asserted, in its capacity; the excellence of the measures taken—a genuine expansion, if successful, of the very terms and possibilities of representation and depiction—these things alone were, in this way, inspiring; these things alone were a measure of the likely success of that concealed calculation with which the whole endeavor was meant to align. But oh, the worries birthed, nonetheless, by that same “careful” sacrifice to a specific form of interest! One’s work should have composition because composition alone is true beauty; but all the while—aside from one’s inevitable awareness of the dire shortage of readers ever recognizing or missing true beauty—how difficult it was, at every turn, how challenging it was, in terms of immediacy and ease, and even broader life, to achieve and earn that beauty! Once achieved and settled, it may always be relied upon to make the poor seeker feel he would have blushed with shame for failing to attain it; yet, given that its worth can essentially only be the worth of the whole, the distractions set in the interest of confusion and addressing only the moment, of the specific detail itself, must be removed from the way! All the complexities in life, for instance, might seem to come together in defense of the threat—the threat to a vibrant variety—posed by Strether having all the subjective “say” to himself.
Had I, meanwhile, made him at once hero and historian, endowed him with the romantic privilege of the “first person”—the darkest abyss of romance this, inveterately, when enjoyed on the grand scale—variety, and many other queer matters as well, might have been smuggled in by a back door. Suffice it, to be brief, that the first person, in the long piece, is a form foredoomed to looseness and that looseness, never much my affair, had never been so little so as on this particular occasion. All of which reflexions flocked to the standard from the moment—a very early one—the question of how to keep my form amusing while sticking so close to my central figure and constantly taking its pattern from him had to be faced. He arrives (arrives at Chester) as for the dreadful purpose of giving his creator “no end” to tell about him—before which rigorous mission the serenest of creators might well have quailed. I was far from the serenest; I was more than agitated enough to reflect that, grimly deprived of one alternative or one substitute for “telling,” I must address myself tooth and nail to another. I couldn’t, save by implication, make other persons tell each other about him—blest resource, blest necessity, of the drama, which reaches its effects of unity, all remarkably, by paths absolutely opposite to the paths of the novel: with other persons, save as they were primarily his persons (not he primarily but one of theirs), I had simply nothing to do. I had relations for him none the less, by the mercy of Providence, quite as much as if my exhibition was to be a muddle; if I could only by implication and a show of consequence make other persons tell each other about him, I could at least make him tell them whatever in the world he must; and could so, by the same token—which was a further luxury thrown in—see straight into the deep differences between what that could do for me, or at all events for him, and the large ease of “autobiography.” It may be asked why, if one so keeps to one’s hero, one shouldn’t make a single mouthful of “method,” shouldn’t throw the reins on his neck and, letting them flap there as free as in “Gil Blas” or in “David Copperfield,” equip him with the double privilege of subject and object—a course that has at least the merit of brushing away questions at a sweep. The answer to which is, I think, that one makes that surrender only if one is prepared not to make certain precious discriminations.
Had I, in the meantime, made him both a hero and a historian, giving him the romantic privilege of the “first person”—which is the deepest level of romance when indulged on a grand scale—variety and many other strange details might have slipped in through the back door. To keep it brief, using the first person in a long piece tends to lead to looseness, and that looseness, which has never been my concern, was even less so on this particular occasion. All these reflections came to mind the moment I faced the early challenge of how to keep my narrative entertaining while staying so closely tied to my central character and constantly modeling it after him. He arrives (arrives at Chester) with the daunting task of giving his creator "no end" to talk about him—before which any creator might understandably hesitate. I was far from calm; I was agitated enough to realize that, having been stripped of one option or substitute for “telling,” I had to commit fully to another. I couldn’t, except by implication, have other characters tell each other about him—a blessed relief, a necessary tactic, of the drama, which achieves its unity through entirely different means than those of the novel: with other characters, save as they were primarily his characters (not he primarily but one of theirs), I had absolutely nothing to do. I still had relationships for him though, thanks to Providence, just as much as if my presentation were to be a mess; if I could suggest that other characters tell each other about him, I could at least make him tell them whatever he needed to; and thus, by the same token—another added luxury—I could clearly see the significant differences between what that could do for me, or for him, and the straightforward ease of “autobiography.” It might be questioned why, if you stick so closely to your hero, you shouldn’t create a single cohesive “method,” shouldn’t just give him the reins and let them flap freely like in “Gil Blas” or “David Copperfield,” allowing him the dual role of subject and object—a choice that has the advantage of sweeping away questions. The answer, I think, is that you only make that concession if you're willing not to make certain valuable distinctions.
The “first person” then, so employed, is addressed by the author directly to ourselves, his possible readers, whom he has to reckon with, at the best, by our English tradition, so loosely and vaguely after all, so little respectfully, on so scant a presumption of exposure to criticism. Strether, on the other hand, encaged and provided for as “The Ambassadors” encages and provides, has to keep in view proprieties much stiffer and more salutary than any our straight and credulous gape are likely to bring home to him, has exhibitional conditions to meet, in a word, that forbid the terrible fluidity of self-revelation. I may seem not to better the case for my discrimination if I say that, for my first care, I had thus inevitably to set him up a confidant or two, to wave away with energy the custom of the seated mass of explanation after the fact, the inserted block of merely referential narrative, which flourishes so, to the shame of the modern impatience, on the serried page of Balzac, but which seems simply to appal our actual, our general weaker, digestion. “Harking back to make up” took at any rate more doing, as the phrase is, not only than the reader of to-day demands, but than he will tolerate at any price any call upon him either to understand or remotely to measure; and for the beauty of the thing when done the current editorial mind in particular appears wholly without sense. It is not, however, primarily for either of these reasons, whatever their weight, that Strether’s friend Waymarsh is so keenly clutched at, on the threshold of the book, or that no less a pounce is made on Maria Gostrey—without even the pretext, either, of her being, in essence, Strether’s friend. She is the reader’s friend much rather—in consequence of dispositions that make him so eminently require one; and she acts in that capacity, and really in that capacity alone, with exemplary devotion from beginning to and of the book. She is an enrolled, a direct, aid to lucidity; she is in fine, to tear off her mask, the most unmitigated and abandoned of ficelles. Half the dramatist’s art, as we well know—since if we don’t it’s not the fault of the proofs that lie scattered about us—is in the use of ficelles; by which I mean in a deep dissimulation of his dependence on them. Waymarsh only to a slighter degree belongs, in the whole business, less to my subject than to my treatment of it; the interesting proof, in these connexions, being that one has but to take one’s subject for the stuff of drama to interweave with enthusiasm as many Gostreys as need be.
The “first person” then, as used here, is addressed directly to us, the potential readers, whom the author has to consider, in the loosest and vaguest sense, according to our English tradition, not very respectfully, and with little assumption of exposure to criticism. Strether, on the other hand, confined and outlined by how “The Ambassadors” presents him, has to keep in mind stricter and more beneficial proprieties than our straightforward and naive reactions might suggest. He faces circumstances that require him to avoid the overwhelming fluidity of self-revelation. It might seem that I don't improve the situation for my distinctions if I mention that, for my first concern, I had to inevitably set up a confidant or two, to energetically dismiss the trend of lengthy explanations after the fact, the inserted bits of mere narrative reference that thrive, shamefully, for our modern impatience, on Balzac's crowded pages, but seem simply to horrify our generally weaker digestion today. “Going back to catch up” certainly required more effort, not only than what today’s reader demands but also than what they would tolerate at any cost regarding any expectation to understand or measure the content; and the beauty of the final result seems to be entirely lost on the current editorial mindset. However, it isn’t primarily for either of these reasons, regardless of their significance, that Strether’s friend Waymarsh is immediately grasped at, at the book's threshold, or that a similar seizing occurs with Maria Gostrey—without even the pretense of her being, at heart, Strether’s friend. She is much more the reader’s friend—due to traits that make the reader need one so greatly; she acts in that role, and truly in that role alone, with dedicated support from the beginning to the end of the book. She is a direct, enrolled aid to clarity; she is, to put it plainly, the most obvious and unrestrained of ficelles. Half of a playwright’s skill, as we know well—if we don’t, it’s not the fault of the scattered proofs around us—lies in their use of ficelles; by that, I mean a deep concealment of their reliance on them. Waymarsh, in this context, contributes only in a minor way; he belongs less to my subject than to my treatment of it; the intriguing illustration, in these connections, is that once you treat your subject as the material for drama, you can enthusiastically weave in as many Gostreys as needed.
The material of “The Ambassadors,” conforming in this respect exactly to that of “The Wings of the Dove,” published just before it, is taken absolutely for the stuff of drama; so that, availing myself of the opportunity given me by this edition for some prefatory remarks on the latter work, I had mainly to make on its behalf the point of its scenic consistency. It disguises that virtue, in the oddest way in the world, by just looking, as we turn its pages, as little scenic as possible; but it sharply divides itself, just as the composition before us does, into the parts that prepare, that tend in fact to over-prepare, for scenes, and the parts, or otherwise into the scenes, that justify and crown the preparation. It may definitely be said, I think, that everything in it that is not scene (not, I of course mean, complete and functional scene, treating all the submitted matter, as by logical start, logical turn, and logical finish) is discriminated preparation, is the fusion and synthesis of picture. These alternations propose themselves all recogniseably, I think, from an early stage, as the very form and figure of “The Ambassadors”; so that, to repeat, such an agent as Miss Gostrey pre-engaged at a high salary, but waits in the draughty wing with her shawl and her smelling-salts. Her function speaks at once for itself, and by the time she has dined with Strether in London and gone to a play with him her intervention as a ficelle is, I hold, expertly justified. Thanks to it we have treated scenically, and scenically alone, the whole lumpish question of Strether’s “past,” which has seen us more happily on the way than anything else could have done; we have strained to a high lucidity and vivacity (or at least we hope we have) certain indispensable facts; we have seen our two or three immediate friends all conveniently and profitably in “action”; to say nothing of our beginning to descry others, of a remoter intensity, getting into motion, even if a bit vaguely as yet, for our further enrichment. Let my first point be here that the scene in question, that in which the whole situation at Woollett and the complex forces that have propelled my hero to where this lively extractor of his value and distiller of his essence awaits him, is normal and entire, is really an excellent standard scene; copious, comprehensive, and accordingly never short, but with its office as definite as that of the hammer on the gong of the clock, the office of expressing all that is in the hour.
The material of “The Ambassadors,” like that of “The Wings of the Dove,” which was published just before it, is completely about the stuff of drama. So, taking advantage of the opportunity provided by this edition for some introductory comments on the latter work, I mainly needed to emphasize its scenic consistency. It disguises that quality in the oddest way possible by simply looking as little like a scene as we turn its pages. However, it clearly splits itself, just like the composition in front of us, into parts that prepare, and actually tend to over-prepare, for scenes, and parts, or rather the scenes, that justify and complete the preparation. I think it can definitely be said that everything in it that isn’t a scene (not, of course, complete and functional scene, treating all the presented material with a logical start, logical turn, and logical finish) is specific preparation, a fusion and synthesis of imagery. These variations can all be recognized, I believe, from an early point as the very form and structure of “The Ambassadors”; so, to reiterate, such a character as Miss Gostrey, who is hired at a high salary, is waiting in the drafty wing with her shawl and her smelling salts. Her role clearly speaks for itself, and by the time she has dined with Strether in London and gone to a play with him, her role as a ficelle is, in my opinion, expertly justified. Thanks to this, we have dealt with the entire awkward question of Strether’s “past” through a scenic lens alone, which has helped us more than anything else could have; we have strained to achieve a high level of clarity and liveliness (or at least we hope we have) regarding certain essential facts; we have seen our two or three immediate friends conveniently and effectively in “action”; not to mention that we are starting to glimpse others, of a more distant intensity, beginning to move, even if somewhat vaguely for now, for our further enrichment. Let me point out that the scene in question, where the entire situation at Woollett and the complex forces that have driven my hero to where this lively extractor of his value and distiller of his essence awaits him, is normal and complete, and is truly an excellent standard scene; ample, comprehensive, and thus never short, but with its purpose as clear as the hammer on the gong of the clock, the purpose of expressing all that is in the hour.
The “ficelle” character of the subordinate party is as artfully dissimulated, throughout, as may be, and to that extent that, with the seams or joints of Maria Gostrey’s ostensible connectedness taken particular care of, duly smoothed over, that is, and anxiously kept from showing as “pieced on,” this figure doubtless achieves, after a fashion, something of the dignity of a prime idea: which circumstance but shows us afresh how many quite incalculable but none the less clear sources of enjoyment for the infatuated artist, how many copious springs of our never-to-be-slighted “fun” for the reader and critic susceptible of contagion, may sound their incidental plash as soon as an artistic process begins to enjoy free development. Exquisite—in illustration of this—the mere interest and amusement of such at once “creative” and critical questions as how and where and why to make Miss Gostrey’s false connexion carry itself, under a due high polish, as a real one. Nowhere is it more of an artful expedient for mere consistency of form, to mention a case, than in the last “scene” of the book, where its function is to give or to add nothing whatever, but only to express as vividly as possible certain things quite other than itself and that are of the already fixed and appointed measure. Since, however, all art is expression, and is thereby vividness, one was to find the door open here to any amount of delightful dissimulation. These verily are the refinements and ecstasies of method—amid which, or certainly under the influence of any exhilarated demonstration of which, one must keep one’s head and not lose one’s way. To cultivate an adequate intelligence for them and to make that sense operative is positively to find a charm in any produced ambiguity of appearance that is not by the same stroke, and all helplessly, an ambiguity of sense. To project imaginatively, for my hero, a relation that has nothing to do with the matter (the matter of my subject) but has everything to do with the manner (the manner of my presentation of the same) and yet to treat it, at close quarters and for fully economic expression’s possible sake, as if it were important and essential—to do that sort of thing and yet muddle nothing may easily become, as one goes, a signally attaching proposition; even though it all remains but part and parcel, I hasten to recognise, of the merely general and related question of expressional curiosity and expressional decency.
The “ficelle” role of the subordinate party is cleverly hidden throughout, to the extent that, with the seams of Maria Gostrey's apparent connections carefully managed and smoothed over to avoid looking “pieced together,” this figure achieves, in a way, a certain dignity of a main idea. This situation highlights how many incalculable yet clear sources of enjoyment there are for the obsessed artist and how many abundant springs of our valuable “fun” for readers and critics receptive to inspiration may emerge as soon as an artistic process begins to develop freely. An exquisite illustration of this is the interest and amusement from questions like how and where and why to make Miss Gostrey's false connection hold up, under proper polish, as a real one. Nowhere is it more of an artful strategy for maintaining consistency of form than in the last “scene” of the book, where its role is to add nothing but to express as vividly as possible certain things that are quite different yet already established. Since all art is expression, and thus vividness, this opens the door to delightful dissimulation. These are indeed the refinements and joys of method—amid which, or certainly under the influence of any lively demonstration, one must keep one's wits about them and not lose their way. Cultivating a proper understanding of them and making that sense work is to find charm in any resulting ambiguity of appearance that doesn't simultaneously create a confusion of meaning. To imaginatively project a relationship for my hero that has nothing to do with the subject itself but relates entirely to the manner of presenting it, and yet to treat it as if it were important for the sake of clear expression—doing this without getting muddled may easily become a compelling proposition; even if it all remains just part of the broader question of expressive curiosity and decorum.
I am moved to add after so much insistence on the scenic side of my labour that I have found the steps of re-perusal almost as much waylaid here by quite another style of effort in the same signal interest—or have in other words not failed to note how, even so associated and so discriminated, the finest proprieties and charms of the non-scenic may, under the right hand for them, still keep their intelligibility and assert their office. Infinitely suggestive such an observation as this last on the whole delightful head, where representation is concerned, of possible variety, of effective expressional change and contrast. One would like, at such an hour as this, for critical licence, to go into the matter of the noted inevitable deviation (from too fond an original vision) that the exquisite treachery even of the straightest execution may ever be trusted to inflict even on the most mature plan—the case being that, though one’s last reconsidered production always seems to bristle with that particular evidence, “The Ambassadors” would place a flood of such light at my service. I must attach to my final remark here a different import; noting in the other connexion I just glanced at that such passages as that of my hero’s first encounter with Chad Newsome, absolute attestations of the non-scenic form though they be, yet lay the firmest hand too—so far at least as intention goes—on representational effect. To report at all closely and completely of what “passes” on a given occasion is inevitably to become more or less scenic; and yet in the instance I allude to, with the conveyance, expressional curiosity and expressional decency are sought and arrived at under quite another law. The true inwardness of this may be at bottom but that one of the suffered treacheries has consisted precisely, for Chad’s whole figure and presence, of a direct presentability diminished and compromised—despoiled, that is, of its proportional advantage; so that, in a word, the whole economy of his author’s relation to him has at important points to be redetermined. The book, however, critically viewed, is touchingly full of these disguised and repaired losses, these insidious recoveries, these intensely redemptive consistencies. The pages in which Mamie Pocock gives her appointed and, I can’t but think, duly felt lift to the whole action by the so inscrutably-applied side-stroke or short-cut of our just watching and as quite at an angle of vision as yet untried, her single hour of suspense in the hotel salon, in our partaking of her concentrated study of the sense of matters bearing on her own case, all the bright warm Paris afternoon, from the balcony that overlooks the Tuileries garden—these are as marked an example of the representational virtue that insists here and there on being, for the charm of opposition and renewal, other than the scenic. It wouldn’t take much to make me further argue that from an equal play of such oppositions the book gathers an intensity that fairly adds to the dramatic—though the latter is supposed to be the sum of all intensities; or that has at any rate nothing to fear from juxtaposition with it. I consciously fail to shrink in fact from that extravagance—I risk it rather, for the sake of the moral involved; which is not that the particular production before us exhausts the interesting questions it raises, but that the Novel remains still, under the right persuasion, the most independent, most elastic, most prodigious of literary forms.
I feel compelled to add, after emphasizing the scenic aspects of my work, that going back to review it has been almost as much sidetracked here by a completely different style of effort in the same important interest—or, in other words, I’ve noticed how, even when associated and clearly set apart, the finest qualities and appeals of non-scenic elements can, when expertly handled, still maintain clarity and fulfill their purpose. Such an observation is incredibly suggestive when it comes to representations of potential variety, effective changes in expression, and contrasts. At a moment like this, I would love the freedom to delve into the inevitable divergence (from an original vision that might have been overly idealized) that the exquisite trickiness of even the most straightforward execution can impose on a well-developed plan—the situation being that, although my final re-evaluated work often seems to bristle with that particular evidence, “The Ambassadors” would provide a wealth of illumination. I must give my final comment a different meaning; noting in the other connection I briefly mentioned that passages like my hero’s first encounter with Chad Newsome, while absolute examples of non-scenic form, still firmly establish—at least in terms of intention—representational impact. Reporting closely and completely on what "happens" in a situation inevitably becomes more or less scenic; however, in the case I’m referring to, with the conveyance, both expressive curiosity and expressive decency are pursued and achieved under a different set of principles. The deeper reality of this might essentially be that one of the treacheries experienced has specifically resulted in Chad's entire figure and presence being somewhat diminished and compromised—stripped, that is, of its proportional advantage; thus, the entire relationship that his author has with him must be redefined at significant points. Critically viewed, the book is deeply filled with these hidden and mended losses, these subtle recoveries, these intensely redemptive consistencies. The pages where Mamie Pocock contributes her designated and, I can’t help but think, genuinely felt lift to the whole action through the intriguingly applied sidestep or shortcut of our just observing her at a previously untried angle, during her single hour of tension in the hotel lounge, sharing her focused study on matters relevant to her own situation, all against the backdrop of a warm Paris afternoon from the balcony overlooking the Tuileries garden—these serve as a prime example of the representational quality that insists on showcasing, here and there, for the sake of contrast and renewal, something other than the scenic. It wouldn’t take much to lead me to argue that from an equal interplay of such contrasts, the book gains an intensity that genuinely enhances the dramatic—though the latter is thought to be the peak of all intensities; or that it certainly has nothing to worry about when contrasted with it. I consciously don’t shy away from that boldness—I embrace it for the sake of the moral at play; which is not to say that the particular work before us exhausts the intriguing questions it encourages, but rather that the Novel remains, under the right influence, the most independent, most flexible, most astonishing of literary forms.
HENRY JAMES.
Henry James.
Book First
I
Strether’s first question, when he reached the hotel, was about his friend; yet on his learning that Waymarsh was apparently not to arrive till evening he was not wholly disconcerted. A telegram from him bespeaking a room “only if not noisy,” reply paid, was produced for the enquirer at the office, so that the understanding they should meet at Chester rather than at Liverpool remained to that extent sound. The same secret principle, however, that had prompted Strether not absolutely to desire Waymarsh’s presence at the dock, that had led him thus to postpone for a few hours his enjoyment of it, now operated to make him feel he could still wait without disappointment. They would dine together at the worst, and, with all respect to dear old Waymarsh—if not even, for that matter, to himself—there was little fear that in the sequel they shouldn’t see enough of each other. The principle I have just mentioned as operating had been, with the most newly disembarked of the two men, wholly instinctive—the fruit of a sharp sense that, delightful as it would be to find himself looking, after so much separation, into his comrade’s face, his business would be a trifle bungled should he simply arrange for this countenance to present itself to the nearing steamer as the first “note,” of Europe. Mixed with everything was the apprehension, already, on Strether’s part, that it would, at best, throughout, prove the note of Europe in quite a sufficient degree.
Strether’s first question when he got to the hotel was about his friend; however, when he found out that Waymarsh wasn’t arriving until the evening, he wasn’t completely thrown off. A telegram from him asking for a room “only if not noisy,” with prepaid response, was shown to the inquirer at the desk, confirming that their plan to meet in Chester instead of Liverpool was still on. Still, the same underlying feeling that had made Strether not really want Waymarsh there at the dock, which had led him to delay his enjoyment of that meeting for a few hours, now made him feel like he could wait without any disappointment. They would definitely have dinner together, and, with all respect to dear old Waymarsh—if not even to himself—there was little fear that they wouldn’t see plenty of each other later. The instinctive feeling I just mentioned that was affecting the newly arrived man was a natural reaction—he sensed that, as wonderful as it would be to see his friend’s face again after so long apart, his plans would be slightly off if he just arranged to have that face greet him as the first “note” of Europe. Mixed with everything was the worry, already on Strether’s mind, that, at best, it would, throughout, really be the note of Europe to a large extent.
That note had been meanwhile—since the previous afternoon, thanks to this happier device—such a consciousness of personal freedom as he hadn’t known for years; such a deep taste of change and of having above all for the moment nobody and nothing to consider, as promised already, if headlong hope were not too foolish, to colour his adventure with cool success. There were people on the ship with whom he had easily consorted—so far as ease could up to now be imputed to him—and who for the most part plunged straight into the current that set from the landing-stage to London; there were others who had invited him to a tryst at the inn and had even invoked his aid for a “look round” at the beauties of Liverpool; but he had stolen away from every one alike, had kept no appointment and renewed no acquaintance, had been indifferently aware of the number of persons who esteemed themselves fortunate in being, unlike himself, “met,” and had even independently, unsociably, alone, without encounter or relapse and by mere quiet evasion, given his afternoon and evening to the immediate and the sensible. They formed a qualified draught of Europe, an afternoon and an evening on the banks of the Mersey, but such as it was he took his potion at least undiluted. He winced a little, truly, at the thought that Waymarsh might be already at Chester; he reflected that, should he have to describe himself there as having “got in” so early, it would be difficult to make the interval look particularly eager; but he was like a man who, elatedly finding in his pocket more money than usual, handles it a while and idly and pleasantly chinks it before addressing himself to the business of spending. That he was prepared to be vague to Waymarsh about the hour of the ship’s touching, and that he both wanted extremely to see him and enjoyed extremely the duration of delay—these things, it is to be conceived, were early signs in him that his relation to his actual errand might prove none of the simplest. He was burdened, poor Strether—it had better be confessed at the outset—with the oddity of a double consciousness. There was detachment in his zeal and curiosity in his indifference.
That note had, since the previous afternoon, thanks to this happier turn of events, given him a sense of personal freedom he hadn’t felt in years; a deep feeling of change and, above all, for the moment, no one and nothing to think about. If only his reckless hope wasn’t too naïve, it promised to make his adventure a success. There were people on the ship with whom he easily got along—at least as much ease as he could manage up to now—and most of them jumped straight into the flow that took them from the landing stage to London. Others had invited him to meet at the inn and even asked for his help to check out the sights of Liverpool; but he had slipped away from everyone, kept no appointments, and didn’t reconnect with anyone. He was vaguely aware of how many people considered themselves lucky to be “met,” unlike him, and he had spent his afternoon and evening independently, unsociably, alone, and without encounters or complications, just by quietly avoiding social interaction. They were a representative sample of Europe—a high point of his afternoon and evening along the banks of the Mersey—but at least he was enjoying it straight up. He did wince a little at the thought that Waymarsh might already be in Chester; he realized that if he had to explain himself there as having “arrived” so early, it would be hard to make the time seem particularly exciting. But he felt like a guy who, thrilled to find more money than usual in his pocket, plays with it a bit, happily jingling it before he starts spending. It was clear he was ready to be vague with Waymarsh about when the ship had docked, and he was really eager to see him while also enjoying the delay. These were early signs that his connection to his actual mission might not be straightforward. Poor Strether was, it should be noted right from the start, dealing with a peculiar sense of dual awareness. There was distance in his enthusiasm and curiosity in his indifference.
After the young woman in the glass cage had held up to him across her counter the pale-pink leaflet bearing his friend’s name, which she neatly pronounced, he turned away to find himself, in the hall, facing a lady who met his eyes as with an intention suddenly determined, and whose features—not freshly young, not markedly fine, but on happy terms with each other—came back to him as from a recent vision. For a moment they stood confronted; then the moment placed her: he had noticed her the day before, noticed her at his previous inn, where—again in the hall—she had been briefly engaged with some people of his own ship’s company. Nothing had actually passed between them, and he would as little have been able to say what had been the sign of her face for him on the first occasion as to name the ground of his present recognition. Recognition at any rate appeared to prevail on her own side as well—which would only have added to the mystery. All she now began by saying to him nevertheless was that, having chanced to catch his enquiry, she was moved to ask, by his leave, if it were possibly a question of Mr. Waymarsh of Milrose Connecticut—Mr. Waymarsh the American lawyer.
After the young woman in the glass cage showed him the pale-pink leaflet with his friend’s name on it, which she pronounced clearly, he turned away and found himself in the hall facing a lady who looked at him with a suddenly determined intention. Her features—not particularly young, not especially fine, but comfortably in harmony with each other—felt familiar to him, like they were from a recent memory. They stood facing each other for a moment; then he recognized her: he had seen her the day before at his previous inn, where—again in the hall—she had briefly interacted with some people from his own ship’s crew. Nothing had actually passed between them, and he wouldn’t have been able to describe the expression on her face from their first meeting, just as he couldn’t explain why he recognized her now. Recognition seemed to exist on her side too, which only added to the mystery. Still, the first thing she said to him was that, having overheard his inquiry, she wanted to ask, if it was alright, whether he was referring to Mr. Waymarsh from Milrose, Connecticut—Mr. Waymarsh the American lawyer.
“Oh yes,” he replied, “my very well-known friend. He’s to meet me here, coming up from Malvern, and I supposed he’d already have arrived. But he doesn’t come till later, and I’m relieved not to have kept him. Do you know him?” Strether wound up.
“Oh yes,” he replied, “my very well-known friend. He’s supposed to meet me here, coming up from Malvern, and I thought he’d already arrived. But he won’t be here until later, and I’m glad I didn’t hold him back. Do you know him?” Strether concluded.
It wasn’t till after he had spoken that he became aware of how much there had been in him of response; when the tone of her own rejoinder, as well as the play of something more in her face—something more, that is, than its apparently usual restless light—seemed to notify him. “I’ve met him at Milrose—where I used sometimes, a good while ago, to stay; I had friends there who were friends of his, and I’ve been at his house. I won’t answer for it that he would know me,” Strether’s new acquaintance pursued; “but I should be delighted to see him. Perhaps,” she added, “I shall—for I’m staying over.” She paused while our friend took in these things, and it was as if a good deal of talk had already passed. They even vaguely smiled at it, and Strether presently observed that Mr. Waymarsh would, no doubt, be easily to be seen. This, however, appeared to affect the lady as if she might have advanced too far. She appeared to have no reserves about anything. “Oh,” she said, “he won’t care!”—and she immediately thereupon remarked that she believed Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the people he had seen her with at Liverpool.
It wasn’t until after he spoke that he realized how much he had felt in response; the tone of her reply, along with a hint of something more in her expression—something beyond its usual restless spark—seemed to signal it to him. “I’ve met him at Milrose—where I used to stay sometimes a while ago; I had friends there who were friends of his, and I’ve been to his house. I can’t say for sure that he would recognize me,” Strether’s new acquaintance continued, “but I’d love to see him. Maybe,” she added, “I will—since I’m staying longer.” She paused while our friend took this in, and it felt like a lot of conversation had already happened. They even smiled at the thought, and Strether soon noted that Mr. Waymarsh would probably be easy to find. This seemed to make the lady feel like she might have gone too far. She seemed open about everything. “Oh,” she said, “he won’t mind!”—and she immediately mentioned that she thought Strether knew the Munsters; the Munsters being the people she had been with in Liverpool.
But he didn’t, it happened, know the Munsters well enough to give the case much of a lift; so that they were left together as if over the mere laid table of conversation. Her qualification of the mentioned connexion had rather removed than placed a dish, and there seemed nothing else to serve. Their attitude remained, none the less, that of not forsaking the board; and the effect of this in turn was to give them the appearance of having accepted each other with an absence of preliminaries practically complete. They moved along the hall together, and Strether’s companion threw off that the hotel had the advantage of a garden. He was aware by this time of his strange inconsequence: he had shirked the intimacies of the steamer and had muffled the shock of Waymarsh only to find himself forsaken, in this sudden case, both of avoidance and of caution. He passed, under this unsought protection and before he had so much as gone up to his room, into the garden of the hotel, and at the end of ten minutes had agreed to meet there again, as soon as he should have made himself tidy, the dispenser of such good assurances. He wanted to look at the town, and they would forthwith look together. It was almost as if she had been in possession and received him as a guest. Her acquaintance with the place presented her in a manner as a hostess, and Strether had a rueful glance for the lady in the glass cage. It was as if this personage had seen herself instantly superseded.
But he didn’t really know the Munsters well enough to give the situation much of a boost, so they were left together as if simply at a table for conversation. Her comments about the mentioned connection had taken away a topic instead of adding one, and there didn’t seem to be anything else to discuss. Their demeanor remained, nonetheless, one of not wanting to leave the table; and this, in turn, gave them the appearance of having accepted each other without any formalities at all. They walked down the hall together, and Strether's companion mentioned that the hotel had a garden. By this point, he recognized his odd inconsistency: he had avoided the closeness on the steamer and had downplayed the shock of Waymarsh, only to find himself abandoned now, in this unexpected situation, devoid of both avoidance and caution. He passed into the hotel garden, almost unconsciously protected, and before he even went up to his room, he agreed to meet her there again after he tidied himself up, the one reassuring her. He wanted to check out the town, and they would do that together right away. It was almost as if she had been in charge and welcomed him as a guest. Her familiarity with the place made her seem like a hostess, and Strether cast a wry glance at the woman in the glass enclosure. It was as if that person had seen herself suddenly replaced.
When in a quarter of an hour he came down, what his hostess saw, what she might have taken in with a vision kindly adjusted, was the lean, the slightly loose figure of a man of the middle height and something more perhaps than the middle age—a man of five-and-fifty, whose most immediate signs were a marked bloodless brownness of face, a thick dark moustache, of characteristically American cut, growing strong and falling low, a head of hair still abundant but irregularly streaked with grey, and a nose of bold free prominence, the even line, the high finish, as it might have been called, of which, had a certain effect of mitigation. A perpetual pair of glasses astride of this fine ridge, and a line, unusually deep and drawn, the prolonged pen-stroke of time, accompanying the curve of the moustache from nostril to chin, did something to complete the facial furniture that an attentive observer would have seen catalogued, on the spot, in the vision of the other party to Strether’s appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the other party, drawing on a pair of singularly fresh soft and elastic light gloves and presenting herself with a superficial readiness which, as he approached her over the small smooth lawn and in the watery English sunshine, he might, with his rougher preparation, have marked as the model for such an occasion. She had, this lady, a perfect plain propriety, an expensive subdued suitability, that her companion was not free to analyse, but that struck him, so that his consciousness of it was instantly acute, as a quality quite new to him. Before reaching her he stopped on the grass and went through the form of feeling for something, possibly forgotten, in the light overcoat he carried on his arm; yet the essence of the act was no more than the impulse to gain time. Nothing could have been odder than Strether’s sense of himself as at that moment launched in something of which the sense would be quite disconnected from the sense of his past and which was literally beginning there and then. It had begun in fact already upstairs and before the dressing glass that struck him as blocking further, so strangely, the dimness of the window of his dull bedroom; begun with a sharper survey of the elements of Appearance than he had for a long time been moved to make. He had during those moments felt these elements to be not so much to his hand as he should have liked, and then had fallen back on the thought that they were precisely a matter as to which help was supposed to come from what he was about to do. He was about to go up to London, so that hat and necktie might wait. What had come as straight to him as a ball in a well-played game—and caught moreover not less neatly—was just the air, in the person of his friend, of having seen and chosen, the air of achieved possession of those vague qualities and quantities that collectively figured to him as the advantage snatched from lucky chances. Without pomp or circumstance, certainly, as her original address to him, equally with his own response, had been, he would have sketched to himself his impression of her as: “Well, she’s more thoroughly civilized—!” If “More thoroughly than whom?” would not have been for him a sequel to this remark, that was just by reason of his deep consciousness of the bearing of his comparison.
When he came downstairs a quarter of an hour later, what his hostess noticed, what she might have perceivably taken in with a kindly adjusted eye, was the lean, slightly loose figure of a man of average height and perhaps slightly more than average age—a man of fifty-five, whose most immediate signs were a notable bloodless brownness of his face, a thick dark mustache, characteristically American in style, strong and falling low, a head of hair still full but irregularly streaked with grey, and a boldly prominent nose, the even line, the high finish, which might have been called, giving an impression of gentleness. A constant pair of glasses perched on this fine ridge, along with an unusually deep line, the prolonged mark of time, tracing the curve of the mustache from nostril to chin, helped complete the facial features that a careful observer might have recognized right then in the appearance of the other person in Strether’s appointment. She waited for him in the garden, the other party, putting on a pair of distinctly fresh, soft, and elastic light gloves, presenting herself with a casual readiness which, as he walked toward her over the small smooth lawn under the watery English sunshine, he might have noted, with his rougher preparations, as the ideal for such an occasion. This lady had a perfect plain propriety, an elegantly subdued suitability, that her companion couldn’t quite analyze but that struck him with an instantly acute awareness, as a quality entirely new to him. Before reaching her, he paused on the grass and feigned searching for something, possibly forgotten, in the light coat he held over his arm; yet the essence of this action was merely to buy time. Nothing felt stranger than Strether’s awareness of himself as, at that moment, embarking on something that would be completely disconnected from his past and which was literally starting right there. It had already begun, in fact, upstairs before the dressing mirror, which struck him as oddly blocking the dim view from the window of his dull bedroom; it had started with a sharper examination of the elements of Appearance than he had felt motivated to undertake in a long time. During those moments, he sensed these elements weren’t as accessible to him as he would have preferred, and then he realized that they were exactly a matter for which help was expected to come from what he was about to do. He was about to go to London, so that hat and tie could wait. What struck him as straightforward as a well-placed ball in a game—and caught just as neatly—was simply the air, in the person of his friend, of having seen and chosen, the air of having achieved possession of those vague qualities and quantities that he saw collectively as an advantage drawn from fortunate chances. Without any formality or circumstance, just as her original approach to him, equally with his own reply, had been, he would have sketched his impression of her as: “Well, she’s more thoroughly civilized—!” If “More thoroughly than whom?” had not followed this remark for him, it was because of his strong awareness of the implications of his comparison.
The amusement, at all events, of a civilisation intenser was what—familiar compatriot as she was, with the full tone of the compatriot and the rattling link not with mystery but only with dear dyspeptic Waymarsh—she appeared distinctly to promise. His pause while he felt in his overcoat was positively the pause of confidence, and it enabled his eyes to make out as much of a case for her, in proportion, as her own made out for himself. She affected him as almost insolently young; but an easily carried five-and-thirty could still do that. She was, however, like himself marked and wan; only it naturally couldn’t have been known to him how much a spectator looking from one to the other might have discerned that they had in common. It wouldn’t for such a spectator have been altogether insupposable that, each so finely brown and so sharply spare, each confessing so to dents of surface and aids to sight, to a disproportionate nose and a head delicately or grossly grizzled, they might have been brother and sister. On this ground indeed there would have been a residuum of difference; such a sister having surely known in respect to such a brother the extremity of separation, and such a brother now feeling in respect to such a sister the extremity of surprise. Surprise, it was true, was not on the other hand what the eyes of Strether’s friend most showed him while she gave him, stroking her gloves smoother, the time he appreciated. They had taken hold of him straightway measuring him up and down as if they knew how; as if he were human material they had already in some sort handled. Their possessor was in truth, it may be communicated, the mistress of a hundred cases or categories, receptacles of the mind, subdivisions for convenience, in which, from a full experience, she pigeon-holed her fellow mortals with a hand as free as that of a compositor scattering type. She was as equipped in this particular as Strether was the reverse, and it made an opposition between them which he might well have shrunk from submitting to if he had fully suspected it. So far as he did suspect it he was on the contrary, after a short shake of his consciousness, as pleasantly passive as might be. He really had a sort of sense of what she knew. He had quite the sense that she knew things he didn’t, and though this was a concession that in general he found not easy to make to women, he made it now as good-humouredly as if it lifted a burden. His eyes were so quiet behind his eternal nippers that they might almost have been absent without changing his face, which took its expression mainly, and not least its stamp of sensibility, from other sources, surface and grain and form. He joined his guide in an instant, and then felt she had profited still better than he by his having been for the moments just mentioned, so at the disposal of her intelligence. She knew even intimate things about him that he hadn’t yet told her and perhaps never would. He wasn’t unaware that he had told her rather remarkably many for the time, but these were not the real ones. Some of the real ones, however, precisely, were what she knew.
The excitement of a more intense civilization was what—familiar as she was to him, with the full tone of a close companion and the solid connection not with mystery but merely with the beloved, somewhat cantankerous Waymarsh—she distinctly seemed to promise. His moment of hesitation while he rummaged through his overcoat was definitely a moment of confidence, allowing his eyes to find a valid case for her, proportionally, as much as her own thoughts established for him. She struck him as almost arrogantly young; but someone who was an easily carried thirty-five could still evoke that. However, like him, she showed signs of weariness; only he couldn't have known how much an observer watching them both might have perceived they shared in common. For such a spectator, it wouldn’t have been entirely unbelievable that, both being finely tanned and sharply lean, each revealing physical flaws and visual aids, with a disproportionate nose and a head that was either delicately or coarsely streaked with gray, they might have been mistaken for siblings. Indeed, there would have been a lingering sense of difference; such a sister would surely have known the deep sense of separation from such a brother, while this brother was now feeling the full impact of surprise regarding such a sister. True, surprise was not, on the other hand, what Strether’s friend most conveyed to him while she smoothed her gloves, keeping track of the time. They had immediately assessed him from head to toe as if they understood him; as if he were a type of human material they had somehow already worked with. In reality, it should be noted, she was the master of numerous cases and categories, mental containers, and convenient classifications, into which, from her considerable experience, she categorized her fellow humans with a casualness akin to a typesetter arranging type. She was thoroughly equipped in this regard, unlike Strether, and it created a contrast between them that he would have likely preferred to avoid had he fully realized it. To the extent that he did sense it, however, he was instead, after a brief shake of his awareness, as pleasantly passive as could be. He had a kind of understanding of what she knew. He clearly sensed that she was aware of things he wasn’t, and although he generally found it hard to concede this to women, he did so now with such good humor that it felt liberating. His eyes were so calm behind his usual nippers that they might have seemed almost absent without altering his expression, which primarily, and not least its touch of sensitivity, derived from other sources—surface, texture, and form. He quickly joined his guide, only to realize she had benefited even more than he had from his recently being so open to her insights. She knew even personal things about him that he hadn't yet disclosed and perhaps never would. He was aware that he had shared quite a lot with her for the time being, but those weren’t the important things. Some of the significant ones, however, were exactly what she knew.
They were to pass again through the hall of the inn to get into the street, and it was here she presently checked him with a question. “Have you looked up my name?”
They had to walk through the inn's hall again to get to the street, and it was here that she paused him with a question. “Have you found out my name?”
He could only stop with a laugh. “Have you looked up mine?”
He could only laugh and say, “Have you checked out mine?”
“Oh dear, yes—as soon as you left me. I went to the office and asked. Hadn’t you better do the same?”
“Oh dear, yes—as soon as you left me. I went to the office and asked. Shouldn’t you do the same?”
He wondered. “Find out who you are?—after the uplifted young woman there has seen us thus scrape acquaintance!”
He wondered. “Find out who you are?—after the young woman has seen us getting to know each other like this!”
She laughed on her side now at the shade of alarm in his amusement. “Isn’t it a reason the more? If what you’re afraid of is the injury for me—my being seen to walk off with a gentleman who has to ask who I am—I assure you I don’t in the least mind. Here, however,” she continued, “is my card, and as I find there’s something else again I have to say at the office, you can just study it during the moment I leave you.”
She laughed a little at how alarmed he seemed by her amusement. “Isn't that even more of a reason to worry? If you're worried about me getting hurt—like being seen leaving with a guy who has to ask who I am—I promise it doesn't bother me at all. Anyway,” she went on, “here's my card, and since I have something else to take care of at the office, you can just look it over while I step away.”
She left him after he had taken from her the small pasteboard she had extracted from her pocket-book, and he had extracted another from his own, to exchange with it, before she came back. He read thus the simple designation “Maria Gostrey,” to which was attached, in a corner of the card, with a number, the name of a street, presumably in Paris, without other appreciable identity than its foreignness. He put the card into his waistcoat pocket, keeping his own meanwhile in evidence; and as he leaned against the door-post he met with the smile of a straying thought what the expanse before the hotel offered to his view. It was positively droll to him that he should already have Maria Gostrey, whoever she was—of which he hadn’t really the least idea—in a place of safe keeping. He had somehow an assurance that he should carefully preserve the little token he had just tucked in. He gazed with unseeing lingering eyes as he followed some of the implications of his act, asking himself if he really felt admonished to qualify it as disloyal. It was prompt, it was possibly even premature, and there was little doubt of the expression of face the sight of it would have produced in a certain person. But if it was “wrong”—why then he had better not have come out at all. At this, poor man, had he already—and even before meeting Waymarsh—arrived. He had believed he had a limit, but the limit had been transcended within thirty-six hours. By how long a space on the plane of manners or even of morals, moreover, he felt still more sharply after Maria Gostrey had come back to him and with a gay decisive “So now—!” led him forth into the world. This counted, it struck him as he walked beside her with his overcoat on an arm, his umbrella under another and his personal pasteboard a little stiffly retained between forefinger and thumb, this struck him as really, in comparison his introduction to things. It hadn’t been “Europe” at Liverpool no—not even in the dreadful delightful impressive streets the night before—to the extent his present companion made it so. She hadn’t yet done that so much as when, after their walk had lasted a few minutes and he had had time to wonder if a couple of sidelong glances from her meant that he had best have put on gloves she almost pulled him up with an amused challenge. “But why—fondly as it’s so easy to imagine your clinging to it—don’t you put it away? Or if it’s an inconvenience to you to carry it, one’s often glad to have one’s card back. The fortune one spends in them!”
She left him after he took the small card she had pulled from her wallet, and he had pulled out another from his own to swap with it before she returned. He read the simple name “Maria Gostrey” on the card, with a street name and number in a corner, presumably in Paris, which didn’t offer much more identity than its foreignness. He put the card in his waistcoat pocket while keeping his own card visible, and as he leaned against the doorframe, he smiled at the view in front of the hotel. It struck him as amusing that he already had Maria Gostrey’s information, whoever she was—he honestly had no idea—safely tucked away. He felt somewhat assured that he would take care of this small token he had just put away. He stared blankly as he considered what this meant, wondering if he should really think of it as disloyal. It was quick, possibly even too quick, and there was little doubt about how a certain someone would react to seeing it. But if it was “wrong”—then he probably shouldn’t have come out at all. At that moment, the poor guy realized that even before meeting Waymarsh, he had already crossed a line. He thought he had a limit, but that limit had been surpassed within thirty-six hours. He felt even more acutely aware of how far he had gone in terms of manners and morals after Maria Gostrey returned to him with a cheerful “So now—!” leading him out into the world. As he walked beside her, overcoat on one arm, umbrella under the other, and his card held a bit stiffly between his fingers, it struck him that this was really his introduction to the world. It hadn’t been “Europe” in Liverpool—not even in the dramatically impressive streets the night before—compared to how his current companion made it feel. She had barely started to do that when, after they had walked for a few minutes and he wondered if her sidelong glances meant he should have put on gloves, she almost stopped him with a playful challenge. “But why—given how easy it is to picture you clinging to it—don’t you put it away? Or if it’s a hassle to carry, you can always ask for your card back. The money one spends on them!”
Then he saw both that his way of marching with his own prepared tribute had affected her as a deviation in one of those directions he couldn’t yet measure, and that she supposed this emblem to be still the one he had received from her. He accordingly handed her the card as if in restitution, but as soon as she had it she felt the difference and, with her eyes on it, stopped short for apology. “I like,” she observed, “your name.”
Then he realized that his way of approaching her with his own gift had impacted her in a way he couldn't fully understand yet, and that she believed this token was still the one he had gotten from her. So, he handed her the card as if to make up for it, but as soon as she took it, she sensed the difference and, looking at it, paused to apologize. “I like,” she said, “your name.”
“Oh,” he answered, “you won’t have heard of it!” Yet he had his reasons for not being sure but that she perhaps might.
“Oh,” he replied, “you probably haven’t heard of it!” Still, he had his reasons for being uncertain that she might have.
Ah it was but too visible! She read it over again as one who had never seen it. “‘Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether’”—she sounded it almost as freely as for any stranger. She repeated however that she liked it—“particularly the Lewis Lambert. It’s the name of a novel of Balzac’s.”
Ah, it was way too obvious! She read it again as if she had never seen it before. “‘Mr. Lewis Lambert Strether’”—she pronounced it almost as casually as she would for any stranger. Still, she insisted that she liked it—“especially the Lewis Lambert. It’s the name of a novel by Balzac.”
“Oh I know that!” said Strether.
“Oh, I know that!” said Strether.
“But the novel’s an awfully bad one.”
“But the novel is really terrible.”
“I know that too,” Strether smiled. To which he added with an irrelevance that was only superficial: “I come from Woollett Massachusetts.” It made her for some reason—the irrelevance or whatever—laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but hadn’t described Woollett Massachusetts. “You say that,” she returned, “as if you wanted one immediately to know the worst.”
“I know that too,” Strether smiled. Then he added, somewhat off-topic: “I’m from Woollett, Massachusetts.” For some reason—whether it was the off-topic comment or something else—it made her laugh. Balzac had described many cities, but he hadn’t described Woollett, Massachusetts. “You say that,” she replied, “as if you want me to know the worst right away.”
“Oh I think it’s a thing,” he said, “that you must already have made out. I feel it so that I certainly must look it, speak it, and, as people say there, ‘act’ it. It sticks out of me, and you knew surely for yourself as soon as you looked at me.”
“Oh, I think it’s a thing,” he said, “that you must already have figured out. I feel it so strongly that I definitely must look it, talk about it, and, as people say around here, ‘act’ it. It just shows on me, and you surely knew it for yourself as soon as you looked at me.”
“The worst, you mean?”
"The worst, right?"
“Well, the fact of where I come from. There at any rate it is; so that you won’t be able, if anything happens, to say I’ve not been straight with you.”
“Well, the fact is where I come from. There at least it is; so you won’t be able to say, if anything happens, that I haven’t been honest with you.”
“I see”—and Miss Gostrey looked really interested in the point he had made. “But what do you think of as happening?”
“I see”—and Miss Gostrey looked genuinely interested in the point he had made. “But what do you think is happening?”
Though he wasn’t shy—which was rather anomalous—Strether gazed about without meeting her eyes; a motion that was frequent with him in talk, yet of which his words often seemed not at all the effect. “Why that you should find me too hopeless.” With which they walked on again together while she answered, as they went, that the most “hopeless” of her countryfolk were in general precisely those she liked best. All sorts of other pleasant small things—small things that were yet large for him—flowered in the air of the occasion, but the bearing of the occasion itself on matters still remote concerns us too closely to permit us to multiply our illustrations. Two or three, however, in truth, we should perhaps regret to lose. The tortuous wall—girdle, long since snapped, of the little swollen city, half held in place by careful civic hands—wanders in narrow file between parapets smoothed by peaceful generations, pausing here and there for a dismantled gate or a bridged gap, with rises and drops, steps up and steps down, queer twists, queer contacts, peeps into homely streets and under the brows of gables, views of cathedral tower and waterside fields, of huddled English town and ordered English country. Too deep almost for words was the delight of these things to Strether; yet as deeply mixed with it were certain images of his inward picture. He had trod this walks in the far-off time, at twenty-five; but that, instead of spoiling it, only enriched it for present feeling and marked his renewal as a thing substantial enough to share. It was with Waymarsh he should have shared it, and he was now accordingly taking from him something that was his due. He looked repeatedly at his watch, and when he had done so for the fifth time Miss Gostrey took him up.
Though he wasn’t shy—which was pretty unusual—Strether looked around without meeting her eyes; a habit he had during conversations, yet his words often didn't reflect it at all. “Because you think I’m too hopeless.” With that, they started walking together again, and she replied as they walked that the most “hopeless” people from her country were usually the ones she liked best. All sorts of other pleasant little things—little things that were still significant for him—filled the atmosphere of the moment, but the significance of the situation in connection to issues that were still distant is too relevant for us to detail too much. Still, there are a couple we might regret losing. The winding wall—once a protective circle of the small, swollen city, now mostly held together by careful city planning—snakes in narrow lines between smooth parapets shaped by peaceful generations, pausing occasionally for a broken gate or a bridged gap, with ups and downs, steps up and down, odd twists, odd encounters, glimpses into everyday streets and under the edges of rooftops, views of a cathedral tower and waterside fields, of a crowded English town and a neat English countryside. The joy of these sights was almost beyond words for Strether; yet intertwined with it were certain images from his own memories. He had walked these paths a long time ago, at twenty-five; but instead of ruining it, that only made it richer for his current feelings and highlighted his renewal as something substantial enough to share. It was with Waymarsh that he should have shared it, and he was now taking something from him that he deserved. He glanced at his watch several times, and when he looked for the fifth time, Miss Gostrey called him out on it.
“You’re doing something that you think not right.”
“You’re doing something that you think isn’t right.”
It so touched the place that he quite changed colour and his laugh grew almost awkward. “Am I enjoying it as much as that?”
It affected him so deeply that he changed color completely, and his laugh became nearly uncomfortable. “Am I enjoying it as much as that?”
“You’re not enjoying it, I think, so much as you ought.”
“You're not enjoying it as much as you should.”
“I see”—he appeared thoughtfully to agree. “Great is my privilege.”
"I see," he seemed to agree thoughtfully. "It's a great privilege for me."
“Oh it’s not your privilege! It has nothing to do with me. It has to do with yourself. Your failure’s general.”
“Oh, it's not your privilege! It has nothing to do with me. It's about you. Your failure is universal.”
“Ah there you are!” he laughed. “It’s the failure of Woollett. That’s general.”
“Ah, there you are!” he laughed. “It’s Woollett’s failure. That’s typical.”
“The failure to enjoy,” Miss Gostrey explained, “is what I mean.”
“The failure to enjoy,” Miss Gostrey explained, “is what I mean.”
“Precisely. Woollett isn’t sure it ought to enjoy. If it were it would. But it hasn’t, poor thing,” Strether continued, “any one to show it how. It’s not like me. I have somebody.”
“Exactly. Woollett isn’t sure it should enjoy itself. If it did, it would. But it hasn’t, poor thing,” Strether continued, “because there’s no one to show it how. It’s not like me. I have someone.”
They had stopped, in the afternoon sunshine—constantly pausing, in their stroll, for the sharper sense of what they saw—and Strether rested on one of the high sides of the old stony groove of the little rampart. He leaned back on this support with his face to the tower of the cathedral, now admirably commanded by their station, the high red-brown mass, square and subordinately spired and crocketed, retouched and restored, but charming to his long-sealed eyes and with the first swallows of the year weaving their flight all round it. Miss Gostrey lingered near him, full of an air, to which she more and more justified her right, of understanding the effect of things. She quite concurred. “You’ve indeed somebody.” And she added: “I wish you would let me show you how!”
They had stopped in the afternoon sun—constantly pausing in their walk to take in the details of what they saw—and Strether rested on one of the high edges of the old stone groove of the small rampart. He leaned back on this support, facing the cathedral tower, which was now beautifully framed by their position, the tall, red-brown structure, square and with smaller spires and decorative elements, was touched up and restored, but it was lovely to his long-closed eyes, as the first swallows of the year weaved through the air around it. Miss Gostrey lingered nearby, radiating an understanding of how things affected people, a right she was increasingly justifying. She completely agreed. “You really do have someone.” And she added, “I wish you would let me show you how!”
“Oh I’m afraid of you!” he cheerfully pleaded.
“Oh, I’m scared of you!” he said with a cheerful tone.
She kept on him a moment, through her glasses and through his own, a certain pleasant pointedness. “Ah no, you’re not! You’re not in the least, thank goodness! If you had been we shouldn’t so soon have found ourselves here together. I think,” she comfortably concluded, “you trust me.”
She looked at him for a moment, through her glasses and his, with a certain nice clarity. “Oh no, you’re not! Not at all, thank goodness! If you were, we wouldn’t be here together so soon. I think,” she concluded comfortably, “you trust me.”
“I think I do!—but that’s exactly what I’m afraid of. I shouldn’t mind if I didn’t. It’s falling thus in twenty minutes so utterly into your hands. I dare say,” Strether continued, “it’s a sort of thing you’re thoroughly familiar with; but nothing more extraordinary has ever happened to me.”
“I think I do!—but that’s exactly what I’m afraid of. I wouldn’t mind if I didn’t. It’s completely falling into your hands in just twenty minutes. I guess,” Strether went on, “it’s something you’re totally used to; but nothing more extraordinary has ever happened to me.”
She watched him with all her kindness. “That means simply that you’ve recognised me—which is rather beautiful and rare. You see what I am.” As on this, however, he protested, with a good-humoured headshake, a resignation of any such claim, she had a moment of explanation. “If you’ll only come on further as you have come you’ll at any rate make out. My own fate has been too many for me, and I’ve succumbed to it. I’m a general guide—to ‘Europe,’ don’t you know? I wait for people—I put them through. I pick them up—I set them down. I’m a sort of superior ‘courier-maid.’ I’m a companion at large. I take people, as I’ve told you, about. I never sought it—it has come to me. It has been my fate, and one’s fate one accepts. It’s a dreadful thing to have to say, in so wicked a world, but I verily believe that, such as you see me, there’s nothing I don’t know. I know all the shops and the prices—but I know worse things still. I bear on my back the huge load of our national consciousness, or, in other words—for it comes to that—of our nation itself. Of what is our nation composed but of the men and women individually on my shoulders? I don’t do it, you know, for any particular advantage. I don’t do it, for instance—some people do, you know—for money.”
She watched him with all her kindness. “That just means you’ve recognized me—which is pretty beautiful and rare. You see what I am.” However, when he protested with a friendly headshake, denying any such claim, she took a moment to explain. “If you just keep going as you have been, you’ll figure it out. My own fate has been overwhelming, and I’ve given in to it. I’m a general guide—to ‘Europe,’ you know? I wait for people—I help them navigate. I pick them up—I drop them off. I’m a sort of high-end ‘courier-maid.’ I’m a free-spirited companion. I take people around, as I’ve told you. I never sought this out—it just came to me. It’s been my fate, and you have to accept your fate. It’s a tough thing to admit in such a wicked world, but honestly, I believe that, as you see me, there’s nothing I don’t know. I know all the shops and the prices—but I know even worse things. I carry the heavy burden of our national consciousness, or, put differently—for it comes down to that—of our nation itself. What is our nation made of if not the individuals I carry on my shoulders? I don’t do this for any specific benefit. I’m not doing it, for example—like some people do—for money.”
Strether could only listen and wonder and weigh his chance. “And yet, affected as you are then to so many of your clients, you can scarcely be said to do it for love.” He waited a moment. “How do we reward you?”
Strether could only listen, wonder, and consider his chances. “And yet, since you’re so attached to many of your clients, it’s hard to say you’re doing it for love.” He paused for a moment. “How do we reward you?”
She had her own hesitation, but “You don’t!” she finally returned, setting him again in motion. They went on, but in a few minutes, though while still thinking over what she had said, he once more took out his watch; mechanically, unconsciously and as if made nervous by the mere exhilaration of what struck him as her strange and cynical wit. He looked at the hour without seeing it, and then, on something again said by his companion, had another pause. “You’re really in terror of him.”
She had her own doubts, but “You don’t!” she finally replied, pushing him to move again. They continued walking, but a few minutes later, while still considering what she had said, he pulled out his watch again; it was a reflex, done without thinking, and as if he were anxious from the thrill of her strange and cynical humor. He glanced at the time without really seeing it, and then, in response to something his companion said, he paused again. “You’re actually scared of him.”
He smiled a smile that he almost felt to be sickly. “Now you can see why I’m afraid of you.”
He smiled a smile that he almost thought was unsettling. “Now you can see why I’m scared of you.”
“Because I’ve such illuminations? Why they’re all for your help! It’s what I told you,” she added, “just now. You feel as if this were wrong.”
“Because I have such insights? They’re all for your benefit! It’s what I told you,” she added, “just now. You feel like this is wrong.”
He fell back once more, settling himself against the parapet as if to hear more about it. “Then get me out!”
He leaned back again, resting against the wall as if he wanted to hear more about it. “Then get me out!”
Her face fairly brightened for the joy of the appeal, but, as if it were a question of immediate action, she visibly considered. “Out of waiting for him?—of seeing him at all?”
Her face lit up with joy at the request, but as if it were a matter of urgent action, she paused to think. "Is it about waiting for him?—or seeing him at all?"
“Oh no—not that,” said poor Strether, looking grave. “I’ve got to wait for him—and I want very much to see him. But out of the terror. You did put your finger on it a few minutes ago. It’s general, but it avails itself of particular occasions. That’s what it’s doing for me now. I’m always considering something else; something else, I mean, than the thing of the moment. The obsession of the other thing is the terror. I’m considering at present for instance something else than you.”
“Oh no—not that,” said poor Strether, looking serious. “I have to wait for him—and I really want to see him. But because of the fear. You pointed it out a little while ago. It’s everywhere, but it takes advantage of specific moments. That’s what it’s doing to me right now. I’m always thinking about something other than what’s happening at the moment. The fixation on that other thing is the fear. Right now, for example, I’m thinking about something other than you.”
She listened with charming earnestness. “Oh you oughtn’t to do that!”
She listened with delightful seriousness. “Oh, you really shouldn’t do that!”
“It’s what I admit. Make it then impossible.”
“It’s what I confess. Make it then impossible.”
She continued to think. “Is it really an ‘order’ from you?—that I shall take the job? Will you give yourself up?”
She kept thinking. “Is it really an ‘order’ from you?—that I should take the job? Will you turn yourself in?”
Poor Strether heaved his sigh. “If I only could! But that’s the deuce of it—that I never can. No—I can’t.”
Poor Strether let out a sigh. “If only I could! But that’s the problem—that I never can. No—I can’t.”
She wasn’t, however, discouraged. “But you want to at least?”
She wasn’t, however, discouraged. “But do you want to at least?”
“Oh unspeakably!”
“Oh my gosh!”
“Ah then, if you’ll try!”—and she took over the job, as she had called it, on the spot. “Trust me!” she exclaimed, and the action of this, as they retraced their steps, was presently to make him pass his hand into her arm in the manner of a benign dependent paternal old person who wishes to be “nice” to a younger one. If he drew it out again indeed as they approached the inn this may have been because, after more talk had passed between them, the relation of age, or at least of experience—which, for that matter, had already played to and fro with some freedom—affected him as incurring a readjustment. It was at all events perhaps lucky that they arrived in sufficiently separate fashion within range of the hotel-door. The young lady they had left in the glass cage watched as if she had come to await them on the threshold. At her side stood a person equally interested, by his attitude, in their return, and the effect of the sight of whom was instantly to determine for Strether another of those responsive arrests that we have had so repeatedly to note. He left it to Miss Gostrey to name, with the fine full bravado as it almost struck him, of her “Mr. Waymarsh!” what was to have been, what—he more than ever felt as his short stare of suspended welcome took things in—would have been, but for herself, his doom. It was already upon him even at that distance—Mr. Waymarsh was for his part joyless.
“Okay then, if you’re going to give it a try!”—and she took over the task, as she had put it, right then and there. “Trust me!” she said excitedly, and as they walked back, he ended up slipping his arm into hers like a kind, older person who wants to be “nice” to someone younger. If he pulled it away again as they got closer to the inn, it might have been because, after they talked more, the difference in age, or at least life experience—which, truthfully, had already bounced back and forth with some ease—made him think it needed a shift. It was probably a good thing that they got to the hotel entrance in a fairly distinct manner. The young lady they had left in the glass cage looked as if she had come to meet them at the door. Next to her stood someone equally interested in their return, and seeing him immediately caused Strether another one of those noticeable reactions we’ve seen so many times. He let Miss Gostrey name, with a bold confidence that struck him, “Mr. Waymarsh!” what was supposed to be, what—he felt even more strongly as his brief pause of a welcome took in the scene—would have been, if not for her, his destiny. It was already looming over him even from that distance—Mr. Waymarsh was, for his part, without joy.
II
He had none the less to confess to this friend that evening that he knew almost nothing about her, and it was a deficiency that Waymarsh, even with his memory refreshed by contact, by her own prompt and lucid allusions and enquiries, by their having publicly partaken of dinner in her company, and by another stroll, to which she was not a stranger, out into the town to look at the cathedral by moonlight—it was a blank that the resident of Milrose, though admitting acquaintance with the Munsters, professed himself unable to fill. He had no recollection of Miss Gostrey, and two or three questions that she put to him about those members of his circle had, to Strether’s observation, the same effect he himself had already more directly felt—the effect of appearing to place all knowledge, for the time, on this original woman’s side. It interested him indeed to mark the limits of any such relation for her with his friend as there could possibly be a question of, and it particularly struck him that they were to be marked altogether in Waymarsh’s quarter. This added to his own sense of having gone far with her—gave him an early illustration of a much shorter course. There was a certitude he immediately grasped—a conviction that Waymarsh would quite fail, as it were, and on whatever degree of acquaintances to profit by her.
He still had to admit to his friend that evening that he knew almost nothing about her, and this was a shortcoming that Waymarsh, even with his memory refreshed by their interactions, her clear comments and questions, their shared dinner in her presence, and another walk, which she was also a part of, to check out the cathedral by moonlight—it was a gap that the resident of Milrose, despite knowing the Munsters, said he couldn’t fill. He couldn't remember Miss Gostrey, and two or three questions she asked him about people in his social circle had, as Strether noticed, the same effect he had already felt directly—the effect of making it seem like all the knowledge was on this original woman’s side. He was indeed interested to see the limits of any potential relationship for her with his friend, and it particularly struck him that those limits would be completely in Waymarsh’s territory. This added to his own feeling of having gotten far with her—illustrated to him a much shorter path. There was a certainty he quickly understood—a belief that Waymarsh would totally fail, in a way, regardless of his level of acquaintance, to benefit from her.
There had been after the first interchange among the three a talk of some five minutes in the hall, and then the two men had adjourned to the garden, Miss Gostrey for the time disappearing. Strether in due course accompanied his friend to the room he had bespoken and had, before going out, scrupulously visited; where at the end of another half-hour he had no less discreetly left him. On leaving him he repaired straight to his own room, but with the prompt effect of feeling the compass of that chamber resented by his condition. There he enjoyed at once the first consequence of their reunion. A place was too small for him after it that had seemed large enough before. He had awaited it with something he would have been sorry, have been almost ashamed not to recognise as emotion, yet with a tacit assumption at the same time that emotion would in the event find itself relieved. The actual oddity was that he was only more excited; and his excitement—to which indeed he would have found it difficult instantly to give a name—brought him once more downstairs and caused him for some minutes vaguely to wander. He went once more to the garden; he looked into the public room, found Miss Gostrey writing letters and backed out; he roamed, fidgeted and wasted time; but he was to have his more intimate session with his friend before the evening closed.
After the first conversation among the three, there was a discussion in the hallway for about five minutes, and then the two men went out to the garden, with Miss Gostrey temporarily disappearing. Eventually, Strether accompanied his friend to the room he had reserved and, after a careful inspection, discreetly left him there. Once he exited, he headed straight to his own room but quickly felt uncomfortable in the confined space, a contrast to how it felt before. He had anticipated this moment with an emotion he would have almost been embarrassed not to acknowledge, yet he also assumed that this emotion would eventually ease. The strange part was that he only felt more stirred up; his excitement—though hard to define at that moment—prompted him to head back downstairs and wander around aimlessly for a while. He returned to the garden, peeked into the common room where he saw Miss Gostrey writing letters and then quietly retreated; he roamed around, fidgeted, and killed time, but he knew he'd have a more personal conversation with his friend before the evening ended.
It was late—not till Strether had spent an hour upstairs with him—that this subject consented to betake himself to doubtful rest. Dinner and the subsequent stroll by moonlight—a dream, on Strether’s part, of romantic effects rather prosaically merged in a mere missing of thicker coats—had measurably intervened, and this midnight conference was the result of Waymarsh’s having (when they were free, as he put it, of their fashionable friend) found the smoking-room not quite what he wanted, and yet bed what he wanted less. His most frequent form of words was that he knew himself, and they were applied on this occasion to his certainty of not sleeping. He knew himself well enough to know that he should have a night of prowling unless he should succeed, as a preliminary, in getting prodigiously tired. If the effort directed to this end involved till a late hour the presence of Strether—consisted, that is, in the detention of the latter for full discourse—there was yet an impression of minor discipline involved for our friend in the picture Waymarsh made as he sat in trousers and shirt on the edge of his couch. With his long legs extended and his large back much bent, he nursed alternately, for an almost incredible time, his elbows and his beard. He struck his visitor as extremely, as almost wilfully uncomfortable; yet what had this been for Strether, from that first glimpse of him disconcerted in the porch of the hotel, but the predominant notes. The discomfort was in a manner contagious, as well as also in a manner inconsequent and unfounded; the visitor felt that unless he should get used to it—or unless Waymarsh himself should—it would constitute a menace for his own prepared, his own already confirmed, consciousness of the agreeable. On their first going up together to the room Strether had selected for him Waymarsh had looked it over in silence and with a sigh that represented for his companion, if not the habit of disapprobation, at least the despair of felicity; and this look had recurred to Strether as the key of much he had since observed. “Europe,” he had begun to gather from these things, had up to now rather failed of its message to him; he hadn’t got into tune with it and had at the end of three months almost renounced any such expectation.
It was late—only after Strether had spent an hour upstairs with him did this subject agree to try to get some rest. Dinner and the moonlit walk—a dreamy idea for Strether that was actually just a matter of forgetting their thicker coats—had taken place, and this late-night discussion came about because Waymarsh had found the smoking room not quite what he wanted and bed even less so, at least after they were free from their fashionable friend. His usual phrase was that he knew himself, and he used it to express his certainty that he wouldn’t be able to sleep. He knew himself well enough to realize he’d have a restless night unless he managed to tire himself out first. If achieving this goal required keeping Strether around for a lengthy conversation well into the night, there was still a sense of minor discipline involved for our friend in the sight of Waymarsh sitting on the edge of his couch in pants and a shirt. With his long legs stretched out and his large back hunched, he alternately cradled his elbows and his beard for what seemed like an endlessly long time. He appeared extremely, almost deliberately uncomfortable to his visitor; yet to Strether, from the very first glimpse of him looking unsettled in the hotel porch, this discomfort had been a prominent theme. The awkwardness was somewhat contagious but also seemed inconsequential and unfounded; Strether sensed that unless he got used to it—or unless Waymarsh did—this feeling would threaten his own awareness of the pleasant. When they first went up to the room Strether had picked for Waymarsh, he silently surveyed it with a sigh that suggested to his companion, if not disapproval, at least a resignation to dissatisfaction; and this look had come back to Strether as the key to much of what he had noticed since. “Europe,” he began to gather from these observations, had not really delivered its message to him so far; he hadn’t gotten in sync with it and had nearly given up on that expectation after three months.
He really appeared at present to insist on that by just perching there with the gas in his eyes. This of itself somehow conveyed the futility of single rectifications in a multiform failure. He had a large handsome head and a large sallow seamed face—a striking significant physiognomic total, the upper range of which, the great political brow, the thick loose hair, the dark fuliginous eyes, recalled even to a generation whose standard had dreadfully deviated the impressive image, familiar by engravings and busts, of some great national worthy of the earlier part of the mid-century. He was of the personal type—and it was an element in the power and promise that in their early time Strether had found in him—of the American statesman, the statesman trained in “Congressional halls,” of an elder day. The legend had been in later years that as the lower part of his face, which was weak, and slightly crooked, spoiled the likeness, this was the real reason for the growth of his beard, which might have seemed to spoil it for those not in the secret. He shook his mane; he fixed, with his admirable eyes, his auditor or his observer; he wore no glasses and had a way, partly formidable, yet also partly encouraging, as from a representative to a constituent, of looking very hard at those who approached him. He met you as if you had knocked and he had bidden you enter. Strether, who hadn’t seen him for so long an interval, apprehended him now with a freshness of taste, and had perhaps never done him such ideal justice. The head was bigger, the eyes finer, than they need have been for the career; but that only meant, after all, that the career was itself expressive. What it expressed at midnight in the gas-glaring bedroom at Chester was that the subject of it had, at the end of years, barely escaped, by flight in time, a general nervous collapse. But this very proof of the full life, as the full life was understood at Milrose, would have made to Strether’s imagination an element in which Waymarsh could have floated easily had he only consented to float. Alas nothing so little resembled floating as the rigour with which, on the edge of his bed, he hugged his posture of prolonged impermanence. It suggested to his comrade something that always, when kept up, worried him—a person established in a railway-coach with a forward inclination. It represented the angle at which poor Waymarsh was to sit through the ordeal of Europe.
He really seemed to be insisting on that just by sitting there with the intensity in his eyes. This alone somehow conveyed the futility of trying to fix a single issue in a complex situation. He had a large, handsome head and a sallow, lined face—a striking and significant look, the upper part of which, with its prominent brow, thick, loose hair, and dark, smoky eyes, reminded even a generation whose standards had significantly changed of the impressive image, familiar from engravings and busts, of some great national figure from the earlier mid-century. He embodied the personal type—and it was part of the strength and promise that Strether had seen in him—which represented the American statesman, the kind trained in “Congressional halls,” from an earlier era. The story had been that in later years, his weak and slightly crooked lower face spoiled the likeness, and this was the true reason for the growth of his beard, which might have seemed to ruin it for those who weren’t in the know. He shook his hair and, with his admirable eyes, looked intensely at his listeners or observers; he didn’t wear glasses and had a way, both somewhat intimidating and partially reassuring, like a representative to a constituent, of staring very intently at those who approached him. He met you as if you had knocked and he had invited you in. Strether, who hadn’t seen him for such a long time, perceived him now with fresh appreciation and had perhaps never recognized him so ideally. His head was bigger, and his eyes sharper, than they needed to be for his career; but that only meant, in the end, that the career was itself telling. What it expressed at midnight in the gas-lit bedroom in Chester was that the person at the center of it had, after many years, barely escaped a total nervous breakdown by leaving just in time. But this very proof of a full life, as a full life was understood at Milrose, suggested to Strether’s imagination a context in which Waymarsh could have easily subsided if he had just allowed himself to relax. Unfortunately, nothing seemed less like relaxing than the rigid way he sat at the edge of his bed, holding on to his posture of prolonged uncertainty. It reminded Strether of someone established in a train carriage with a forward lean. It represented the angle at which poor Waymarsh was going to sit through the ordeal of Europe.
Thanks to the stress of occupation, the strain of professions, the absorption and embarrassment of each, they had not, at home, during years before this sudden brief and almost bewildering reign of comparative ease, found so much as a day for a meeting; a fact that was in some degree an explanation of the sharpness with which most of his friend’s features stood out to Strether. Those he had lost sight of since the early time came back to him; others that it was never possible to forget struck him now as sitting, clustered and expectant, like a somewhat defiant family-group, on the doorstep of their residence. The room was narrow for its length, and the occupant of the bed thrust so far a pair of slippered feet that the visitor had almost to step over them in his recurrent rebounds from his chair to fidget back and forth. There were marks the friends made on things to talk about, and on things not to, and one of the latter in particular fell like the tap of chalk on the blackboard. Married at thirty, Waymarsh had not lived with his wife for fifteen years, and it came up vividly between them in the glare of the gas that Strether wasn’t to ask about her. He knew they were still separate and that she lived at hotels, travelled in Europe, painted her face and wrote her husband abusive letters, of not one of which, to a certainty, that sufferer spared himself the perusal; but he respected without difficulty the cold twilight that had settled on this side of his companion’s life. It was a province in which mystery reigned and as to which Waymarsh had never spoken the informing word. Strether, who wanted to do him the highest justice wherever he could do it, singularly admired him for the dignity of this reserve, and even counted it as one of the grounds—grounds all handled and numbered—for ranking him, in the range of their acquaintance, as a success. He was a success, Waymarsh, in spite of overwork, or prostration, of sensible shrinkage, of his wife’s letters and of his not liking Europe. Strether would have reckoned his own career less futile had he been able to put into it anything so handsome as so much fine silence. One might one’s self easily have left Mrs. Waymarsh; and one would assuredly have paid one’s tribute to the ideal in covering with that attitude the derision of having been left by her. Her husband had held his tongue and had made a large income; and these were in especial the achievements as to which Strether envied him. Our friend had had indeed on his side too a subject for silence, which he fully appreciated; but it was a matter of a different sort, and the figure of the income he had arrived at had never been high enough to look any one in the face.
Due to the stress of their jobs and the challenges of everyday life, they hadn't found even a single day to meet at home for years before this sudden and almost overwhelming period of relative ease. This lack of connection explained why most of his friend's features stood out so sharply to Strether. People he hadn't seen in a long time came back to him, and others who were impossible to forget seemed to gather, intentionally or not, like a somewhat defiant family group on their front step. The room was long but narrow, and the person in the bed thrust out a pair of slippered feet so far that the visitor nearly had to step over them every time he bounced back and forth from his chair. There were certain topics that friends could discuss and others that were off-limits, and one of those taboo subjects felt like a chalk tap on a blackboard. Married at thirty, Waymarsh hadn't lived with his wife for fifteen years, and it hung heavily between them in the harsh light of the gas lamps that Strether shouldn’t ask about her. He knew they were still apart, that she stayed in hotels, traveled through Europe, wore makeup, and sent her husband nasty letters—none of which he would be able to avoid reading. However, he respected the cold distance that had settled around this part of his friend’s life. It was an area shrouded in mystery, and Waymarsh had never revealed anything about it. Strether, who wanted to give his friend the highest credit whenever he could, admired him for the dignity of this silence and even considered it one of the reasons—reasons carefully noted and counted—for viewing him as a success within their circle. Waymarsh was indeed successful, despite overwork, fatigue, a reduction in stature, his wife’s letters, and his dislike of Europe. Strether would have seen his own career as less pointless if he could have put something as admirable as this profound silence into it. Anyone could have easily left Mrs. Waymarsh; and one would certainly have acknowledged the ideal of enduring that situation despite the ridicule of being left by her. Her husband had kept quiet and earned a substantial income, and those were particularly the accomplishments that Strether envied. Our friend also had a reason to remain silent, which he fully recognized; however, his own income had never been high enough to allow him to hold his head up.
“I don’t know as I quite see what you require it for. You don’t appear sick to speak of.” It was of Europe Waymarsh thus finally spoke.
“I’m not sure I understand why you need it. You don’t seem sick at all.” This is how Waymarsh finally spoke in Europe.
“Well,” said Strether, who fell as much as possible into step, “I guess I don’t feel sick now that I’ve started. But I had pretty well run down before I did start.”
“Well,” said Strether, matching his pace as much as he could, “I guess I don’t feel sick now that I've begun. But I was pretty worn out before I actually started.”
Waymarsh raised his melancholy look. “Ain’t you about up to your usual average?”
Waymarsh lifted his sad gaze. “Aren’t you close to your usual self?”
It was not quite pointedly sceptical, but it seemed somehow a plea for the purest veracity, and it thereby affected our friend as the very voice of Milrose. He had long since made a mental distinction—though never in truth daring to betray it—between the voice of Milrose and the voice even of Woollett. It was the former he felt, that was most in the real tradition. There had been occasions in his past when the sound of it had reduced him to temporary confusion, and the present, for some reason, suddenly became such another. It was nevertheless no light matter that the very effect of his confusion should be to make him again prevaricate. “That description hardly does justice to a man to whom it has done such a lot of good to see you.”
It wasn't exactly skeptical, but it felt like a plea for pure honesty, and it affected our friend as if it were the very voice of Milrose. He had long created a mental distinction—though he never dared to reveal it—between the voice of Milrose and even that of Woollett. He felt that the former was most aligned with the true tradition. There had been times in his past when the sound of it had left him momentarily confused, and for some reason, the present turned out to be another one of those times. It was, however, no small matter that this confusion led him to once again dodge the truth. “That description hardly does justice to a man who has benefited so much from seeing you.”
Waymarsh fixed on his washing-stand the silent detached stare with which Milrose in person, as it were, might have marked the unexpectedness of a compliment from Woollett, and Strether for his part, felt once more like Woollett in person. “I mean,” his friend presently continued, “that your appearance isn’t as bad as I’ve seen it: it compares favourably with what it was when I last noticed it.” On this appearance Waymarsh’s eyes yet failed to rest; it was almost as if they obeyed an instinct of propriety, and the effect was still stronger when, always considering the basin and jug, he added: “You’ve filled out some since then.”
Waymarsh fixed his gaze on the washstand with the same surprised stare that Milrose would have given a compliment from Woollett, and Strether felt again like Woollett himself. “What I mean,” his friend continued, “is that you don’t look as bad as you used to: you actually look better than when I last saw you.” Waymarsh’s gaze still didn’t settle on his appearance; it was almost as if he was following some unspoken rule of decency, and the effect was even stronger when he, still focusing on the basin and jug, added, “You’ve put on some weight since then.”
“I’m afraid I have,” Strether laughed: “one does fill out some with all one takes in, and I’ve taken in, I dare say, more than I’ve natural room for. I was dog-tired when I sailed.” It had the oddest sound of cheerfulness.
“I’m afraid I have,” Strether laughed. “You do kind of gain a bit from everything you take in, and I've absorbed, I guess, more than I really have room for. I was completely exhausted when I left.” It had the strangest tone of cheerfulness.
“I was dog-tired,” his companion returned, “when I arrived, and it’s this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of me. The fact is, Strether—and it’s a comfort to have you here at last to say it to; though I don’t know, after all, that I’ve really waited; I’ve told it to people I’ve met in the cars—the fact is, such a country as this ain’t my kind of country anyway. There ain’t a country I’ve seen over here that does seem my kind. Oh I don’t say but what there are plenty of pretty places and remarkable old things; but the trouble is that I don’t seem to feel anywhere in tune. That’s one of the reasons why I suppose I’ve gained so little. I haven’t had the first sign of that lift I was led to expect.” With this he broke out more earnestly. “Look here—I want to go back.”
“I was completely exhausted,” his companion replied, “when I got here, and it’s this frantic search for rest that drains all my energy. The truth is, Strether—and it’s good to finally tell you this; though I’m not sure I’ve really waited; I’ve shared it with people I met on the train—the truth is, a place like this isn’t my kind of place at all. There isn’t a place I’ve seen over here that seems like it suits me. Oh, I’m not saying there aren’t lots of beautiful spots and amazing old things; but the problem is, I just don’t feel connected anywhere. That’s one reason I guess I haven’t made much progress. I haven’t had even the slightest hint of the boost I was hoping for.” With that, he became more serious. “Listen—I want to go back.”
His eyes were all attached to Strether’s now, for he was one of the men who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled his friend to look at him hard and immediately to appear to the highest advantage in his eyes by doing so. “That’s a genial thing to say to a fellow who has come out on purpose to meet you!”
His eyes were completely focused on Strether now, since he was one of those guys who look you straight in the eye when talking about themselves. This allowed his friend to study him closely and instantly make a great impression by doing so. “That’s a nice thing to say to someone who came out just to see you!”
Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh’s sombre glow. “Have you come out on purpose?”
Nothing could have been better than Waymarsh’s serious vibe on this. “Did you come out on purpose?”
“Well—very largely.”
“Well—mostly.”
“I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it.”
“I figured from the way you wrote that there was something behind it.”
Strether hesitated. “Back of my desire to be with you?”
Strether paused. “Behind my desire to be with you?”
“Back of your prostration.”
"Behind your prostration."
Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, shook his head. “There are all the causes of it!”
Strether, with a smile that was somewhat faded by self-awareness, shook his head. “There are all the reasons for it!”
“And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?”
"And was there no specific reason that seemed to motivate you the most?"
Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. “Yes. One. There is a matter that has had much to do with my coming out.”
Our friend could finally answer with sincerity. “Yes. One. There is something that has really influenced my decision to come out.”
Waymarsh waited a little. “Too private to mention?”
Waymarsh paused for a moment. “Too personal to bring up?”
“No, not too private—for you. Only rather complicated.”
“No, not too private—for you. Just a bit complicated.”
“Well,” said Waymarsh, who had waited again, “I may lose my mind over here, but I don’t know as I’ve done so yet.”
“Well,” said Waymarsh, who had waited again, “I might lose my mind over here, but I don’t think I’ve done that yet.”
“Oh you shall have the whole thing. But not tonight.”
“Oh, you will get the whole thing. Just not tonight.”
Waymarsh seemed to sit stiffer and to hold his elbows tighter. “Why not—if I can’t sleep?”
Waymarsh appeared to sit more rigidly and to keep his elbows closer in. “Why not—if I can't sleep?”
“Because, my dear man, I can!”
“Because, my dear man, I can!”
“Then where’s your prostration?”
“Then where’s your bow?”
“Just in that—that I can put in eight hours.” And Strether brought it out that if Waymarsh didn’t “gain” it was because he didn’t go to bed: the result of which was, in its order, that, to do the latter justice, he permitted his friend to insist on his really getting settled. Strether, with a kind coercive hand for it, assisted him to this consummation, and again found his own part in their relation auspiciously enlarged by the smaller touches of lowering the lamp and seeing to a sufficiency of blanket. It somehow ministered for him to indulgence to feel Waymarsh, who looked unnaturally big and black in bed, as much tucked in as a patient in a hospital and, with his covering up to his chin, as much simplified by it. He hovered in vague pity, to be brief, while his companion challenged him out of the bedclothes. “Is she really after you? Is that what’s behind?”
“Just in that—that I can put in eight hours.” And Strether pointed out that if Waymarsh didn’t “gain,” it was because he wasn’t going to bed: the result of which was, in turn, that, to do the latter justice, he allowed his friend to insist that he really get settled. Strether, with a kind of persuasive touch, helped him to this conclusion, and once again found his own role in their relationship pleasantly expanded by the small gestures of dimming the lamp and making sure there were enough blankets. It somehow gave him a sense of indulgence to see Waymarsh, who looked unnaturally large and dark in bed, all tucked in like a patient in a hospital, and with his coverings pulled up to his chin, made it all feel simpler. To be brief, he lingered in vague pity while his companion called out to him from under the blankets. “Is she really after you? Is that what’s going on?”
Strether felt an uneasiness at the direction taken by his companion’s insight, but he played a little at uncertainty. “Behind my coming out?”
Strether felt uneasy about where his companion’s insight was headed, but he pretended to be uncertain. “You mean because I came here?”
“Behind your prostration or whatever. It’s generally felt, you know, that she follows you up pretty close.”
“Behind your bowing or whatever. It's commonly thought, you know, that she keeps pretty close to you.”
Strether’s candour was never very far off. “Oh it has occurred to you that I’m literally running away from Mrs. Newsome?”
Strether's honesty was always pretty close to the surface. "Oh, so you've realized that I'm literally escaping from Mrs. Newsome?"
“Well, I haven’t known but what you are. You’re a very attractive man, Strether. You’ve seen for yourself,” said Waymarsh “what that lady downstairs makes of it. Unless indeed,” he rambled on with an effect between the ironic and the anxious, “it’s you who are after her. Is Mrs. Newsome over here?” He spoke as with a droll dread of her.
“Well, I haven’t known anything but what you are. You’re a really attractive guy, Strether. You’ve seen for yourself,” Waymarsh said, “what that lady downstairs thinks about it. Unless, of course,” he continued, mixing irony with a bit of anxiety, “you’re the one after her. Is Mrs. Newsome over here?” He spoke as if he was amusingly afraid of her.
It made his friend—though rather dimly—smile. “Dear no; she’s safe, thank goodness—as I think I more and more feel—at home. She thought of coming, but she gave it up. I’ve come in a manner instead of her; and come to that extent—for you’re right in your inference—on her business. So you see there is plenty of connexion.”
It made his friend smile, albeit faintly. “Oh no; she’s safe, thank goodness—as I increasingly believe—at home. She considered coming, but decided against it. I’ve come in her place, and to that extent—since you’re right about your assumption—on her behalf. So you see, there is plenty of connection.”
Waymarsh continued to see at least all there was. “Involving accordingly the particular one I’ve referred to?”
Waymarsh kept looking for everything there was to see. “Are you talking about the specific one I mentioned?”
Strether took another turn about the room, giving a twitch to his companion’s blanket and finally gaining the door. His feeling was that of a nurse who had earned personal rest by having made everything straight. “Involving more things than I can think of breaking ground on now. But don’t be afraid—you shall have them from me: you’ll probably find yourself having quite as much of them as you can do with. I shall—if we keep together—very much depend on your impression of some of them.”
Strether walked around the room again, adjusting his companion’s blanket before finally heading for the door. He felt like a nurse who had earned a break after getting everything in order. “There are more things to tackle than I can handle right now. But don’t worry—you’ll get them from me: you’ll probably find yourself dealing with quite a bit. I will—if we stick together—rely a lot on your thoughts about some of them.”
Waymarsh’s acknowledgement of this tribute was characteristically indirect. “You mean to say you don’t believe we will keep together?”
Waymarsh's response to this compliment was typically indirect. "Are you saying you don’t believe we will stick together?"
“I only glance at the danger,” Strether paternally said, “because when I hear you wail to go back I seem to see you open up such possibilities of folly.”
“I only take a quick look at the danger,” Strether said in a fatherly way, “because when I hear you cry out to go back, I feel like I’m witnessing you open up so many chances for foolishness.”
Waymarsh took it—silent a little—like a large snubbed child “What are you going to do with me?”
Waymarsh accepted it—quiet for a moment—like a big rejected child. “What are you going to do with me?”
It was the very question Strether himself had put to Miss Gostrey, and he wondered if he had sounded like that. But he at least could be more definite. “I’m going to take you right down to London.”
It was the exact question Strether had asked Miss Gostrey, and he wondered if he had sounded like that. But he could at least be more clear. “I’m going to take you straight to London.”
“Oh I’ve been down to London!” Waymarsh more softly moaned. “I’ve no use, Strether, for anything down there.”
“Oh, I’ve been to London!” Waymarsh sighed quietly. “I don’t have any interest, Strether, in anything down there.”
“Well,” said Strether, good-humouredly, “I guess you’ve some use for me.”
“Well,” said Strether, cheerfully, “I bet you have some use for me.”
“So I’ve got to go?”
"So I have to go?"
“Oh you’ve got to go further yet.”
“Oh, you have to go even farther.”
“Well,” Waymarsh sighed, “do your damnedest! Only you will tell me before you lead me on all the way—?”
“Well,” Waymarsh sighed, “do your best! Just promise you’ll let me know before you string me along completely—?”
Our friend had again so lost himself, both for amusement and for contrition, in the wonder of whether he had made, in his own challenge that afternoon, such another figure, that he for an instant missed the thread. “Tell you—?”
Our friend had once again gotten so caught up, both for fun and out of guilt, in wondering whether he had created such another image in his own challenge that afternoon, that for a moment he lost track of the conversation. “What were we saying—?”
“Why what you’ve got on hand.”
"Why what you have."
Strether hesitated. “Why it’s such a matter as that even if I positively wanted I shouldn’t be able to keep it from you.”
Strether hesitated. “Well, it’s such a big deal that even if I really wanted to, I wouldn’t be able to hide it from you.”
Waymarsh gloomily gazed. “What does that mean then but that your trip is just for her?”
Waymarsh looked on glumly. “What does that mean then but that your trip is just for her?”
“For Mrs. Newsome? Oh it certainly is, as I say. Very much.”
“For Mrs. Newsome? Oh, it definitely is, like I said. A lot.”
“Then why do you also say it’s for me?”
“Then why do you also say it’s for me?”
Strether, in impatience, violently played with his latch. “It’s simple enough. It’s for both of you.”
Strether, feeling impatient, aggressively fiddled with his latch. “It's straightforward. It's for both of you.”
Waymarsh at last turned over with a groan. “Well, I won’t marry you!”
Waymarsh finally rolled over with a groan. “Well, I won’t marry you!”
“Neither, when it comes to that—!” But the visitor had already laughed and escaped.
“Neither, when it comes to that—!” But the visitor had already laughed and left.
III
He had told Miss Gostrey he should probably take, for departure with Waymarsh, some afternoon train, and it thereupon in the morning appeared that this lady had made her own plan for an earlier one. She had breakfasted when Strether came into the coffee-room; but, Waymarsh not having yet emerged, he was in time to recall her to the terms of their understanding and to pronounce her discretion overdone. She was surely not to break away at the very moment she had created a want. He had met her as she rose from her little table in a window, where, with the morning papers beside her, she reminded him, as he let her know, of Major Pendennis breakfasting at his club—a compliment of which she professed a deep appreciation; and he detained her as pleadingly as if he had already—and notably under pressure of the visions of the night—learned to be unable to do without her. She must teach him at all events, before she went, to order breakfast as breakfast was ordered in Europe, and she must especially sustain him in the problem of ordering for Waymarsh. The latter had laid upon his friend, by desperate sounds through the door of his room, dreadful divined responsibilities in respect to beefsteak and oranges—responsibilities which Miss Gostrey took over with an alertness of action that matched her quick intelligence. She had before this weaned the expatriated from traditions compared with which the matutinal beefsteak was but the creature of an hour, and it was not for her, with some of her memories, to falter in the path though she freely enough declared, on reflexion, that there was always in such cases a choice of opposed policies. “There are times when to give them their head, you know—!”
He had told Miss Gostrey that he would probably catch an afternoon train to leave with Waymarsh, but that morning, it turned out that she had made her own plan for an earlier one. She had already had breakfast when Strether walked into the coffee room; however, since Waymarsh hadn't come out yet, he had the chance to remind her of their agreement and told her that she was being too hasty. She definitely shouldn't leave just when she'd created a need. He had encountered her as she was getting up from her small table by the window, where she had the morning papers next to her, and he mentioned that she reminded him of Major Pendennis having breakfast at his club—a compliment she was very pleased to hear. He held her back as if he had already learned, especially under the influence of last night's visions, that he couldn't do without her. She had to teach him, at least before she left, how to order breakfast as it's done in Europe, and she particularly needed to help him figure out how to order for Waymarsh. The latter had placed a heavy, desperate responsibility on his friend through alarming sounds from his room regarding beefsteak and oranges—responsibilities that Miss Gostrey took on with a promptness that matched her quick wit. She had previously helped expatriates adjust to traditions that made the morning beefsteak seem like a fleeting whimsicality, and despite some memories she had, she didn't hesitate to stick to the path, even though she freely admitted, upon reflection, that there was always a choice between conflicting strategies. “There are times when it's best to let them choose freely, you know—!”
They had gone to wait together in the garden for the dressing of the meal, and Strether found her more suggestive than ever “Well, what?”
They had gone to wait together in the garden for the meal to be served, and Strether found her more intriguing than ever. “Well, what?”
“Is to bring about for them such a complexity of relations—unless indeed we call it a simplicity!—that the situation has to wind itself up. They want to go back.”
“Is to create for them such a complex web of relationships—unless we actually call it a simplicity!—that the situation has to resolve itself. They want to return.”
“And you want them to go!” Strether gaily concluded.
“And you want them to go!” Strether cheerfully finished.
“I always want them to go, and I send them as fast as I can.’
“I always want them to leave, and I send them off as quickly as I can.”
“Oh I know—you take them to Liverpool.”
“Oh, I know—you bring them to Liverpool.”
“Any port will serve in a storm. I’m—with all my other functions—an agent for repatriation. I want to re-people our stricken country. What will become of it else? I want to discourage others.”
“Any port will do in a storm. I’m, along with my other roles, an agent for repatriation. I want to help bring people back to our troubled country. What will happen to it otherwise? I want to discourage others.”
The ordered English garden, in the freshness of the day, was delightful to Strether, who liked the sound, under his feet, of the tight fine gravel, packed with the chronic damp, and who had the idlest eye for the deep smoothness of turf and the clean curves of paths. “Other people?”
The well-kept English garden, fresh in the morning, was a pleasure for Strether, who enjoyed the sound of the fine gravel crunching under his feet, damp from the ongoing moisture, and who appreciated the rich smoothness of the grass and the neat curves of the walkways. “Other people?”
“Other countries. Other people—yes. I want to encourage our own.”
“Other countries. Other people—yes. I want to support our own.”
Strether wondered. “Not to come? Why then do you ‘meet’ them—since it doesn’t appear to be to stop them?”
Strether wondered. “Not to show up? Then why do you ‘meet’ them—since it doesn't seem like it's to stop them?”
“Oh that they shouldn’t come is as yet too much to ask. What I attend to is that they come quickly and return still more so. I meet them to help it to be over as soon as possible, and though I don’t stop them I’ve my way of putting them through. That’s my little system; and, if you want to know,” said Maria Gostrey, “it’s my real secret, my innermost mission and use. I only seem, you see, to beguile and approve; but I’ve thought it all out and I’m working all the while underground. I can’t perhaps quite give you my formula, but I think that practically I succeed. I send you back spent. So you stay back. Passed through my hands—”
“Oh, it's asking too much for them not to come. What I'm focused on is that they arrive quickly and leave even faster. I meet them to help get things over with as soon as possible, and while I don’t stop them, I have my own way of getting them through it. That’s my little system; and if you want to know,” said Maria Gostrey, “it’s my real secret, my innermost mission and purpose. I only seem, you know, to charm and approve; but I’ve thought it all out and I’m working all the while behind the scenes. I might not be able to give you my exact formula, but I think I’m practically successful. I send you back exhausted. So you stay back. Passed through my hands—”
“We don’t turn up again?” The further she went the further he always saw himself able to follow. “I don’t want your formula—I feel quite enough, as I hinted yesterday, your abysses. Spent!” he echoed. “If that’s how you’re arranging so subtly to send me I thank you for the warning.”
“We’re not coming back?” The more she went, the more he felt he could follow. “I don’t want your formula—I already feel, as I mentioned yesterday, your depths. Exhausted!” he repeated. “If that’s how you’re cleverly trying to send me away, I appreciate the heads-up.”
For a minute, amid the pleasantness—poetry in tariffed items, but all the more, for guests already convicted, a challenge to consumption—they smiled at each other in confirmed fellowship. “Do you call it subtly? It’s a plain poor tale. Besides, you’re a special case.”
For a moment, in the midst of the enjoyable atmosphere—like poetry in overpriced items, but even more for guests who were already judged, a challenge to indulging—they exchanged smiles in solid camaraderie. “Do you think it’s subtle? It’s just a sad story. Besides, you’re a unique situation.”
“Oh special cases—that’s weak!” She was weak enough, further still, to defer her journey and agree to accompany the gentlemen on their own, might a separate carriage mark her independence; though it was in spite of this to befall after luncheon that she went off alone and that, with a tryst taken for a day of her company in London, they lingered another night. She had, during the morning—spent in a way that he was to remember later on as the very climax of his foretaste, as warm with presentiments, with what he would have called collapses—had all sorts of things out with Strether; and among them the fact that though there was never a moment of her life when she wasn’t “due” somewhere, there was yet scarce a perfidy to others of which she wasn’t capable for his sake. She explained moreover that wherever she happened to be she found a dropped thread to pick up, a ragged edge to repair, some familiar appetite in ambush, jumping out as she approached, yet appeasable with a temporary biscuit. It became, on her taking the risk of the deviation imposed on him by her insidious arrangement of his morning meal, a point of honour for her not to fail with Waymarsh of the larger success too; and her subsequent boast to Strether was that she had made their friend fare—and quite without his knowing what was the matter—as Major Pendennis would have fared at the Megatherium. She had made him breakfast like a gentleman, and it was nothing, she forcibly asserted, to what she would yet make him do. She made him participate in the slow reiterated ramble with which, for Strether, the new day amply filled itself; and it was by her art that he somehow had the air, on the ramparts and in the Rows, of carrying a point of his own.
“Oh, special cases—that’s weak!” She was weak enough, even more so, to put off her journey and agree to go with the gentlemen separately, thinking a different carriage would show her independence; yet surprisingly, after lunch, she ended up going off alone, and since they planned to meet again for a day in London, they stayed another night. Earlier that morning—remembered later by him as the peak of his anticipation, filled with hints of what he would call collapses—she had shared all sorts of things with Strether; among them was the fact that although she was always “due” somewhere, she was still capable of deceiving others for his sake. She also explained that wherever she was, she found a dropped thread to pick up, a ragged edge to fix, some familiar craving hiding, ready to leap out as she got closer, yet easily satisfied with a snack. It became, as she took the risk of altering his morning routine with her clever manipulation of his meal, a matter of pride for her to succeed with Waymarsh too; and she later bragged to Strether that she had managed to feed their friend—without him realizing anything was wrong—just like Major Pendennis would have been fed at the Megatherium. She had given him a gentleman’s breakfast, and she insisted it was nothing compared to what she was capable of making him do. She had him join in the slow, repeated stroll that filled the new day for Strether; thanks to her charm, he somehow appeared, while on the ramparts and in the Rows, to have his own agenda.
The three strolled and stared and gossiped, or at least the two did; the case really yielding for their comrade, if analysed, but the element of stricken silence. This element indeed affected Strether as charged with audible rumblings, but he was conscious of the care of taking it explicitly as a sign of pleasant peace. He wouldn’t appeal too much, for that provoked stiffness; yet he wouldn’t be too freely tacit, for that suggested giving up. Waymarsh himself adhered to an ambiguous dumbness that might have represented either the growth of a perception or the despair of one; and at times and in places—where the low-browed galleries were darkest, the opposite gables queerest, the solicitations of every kind densest—the others caught him fixing hard some object of minor interest, fixing even at moments nothing discernible, as if he were indulging it with a truce. When he met Strether’s eye on such occasions he looked guilty and furtive, fell the next minute into some attitude of retractation. Our friend couldn’t show him the right things for fear of provoking some total renouncement, and was tempted even to show him the wrong in order to make him differ with triumph. There were moments when he himself felt shy of professing the full sweetness of the taste of leisure, and there were others when he found himself feeling as if his passages of interchange with the lady at his side might fall upon the third member of their party very much as Mr. Burchell, at Dr. Primrose’s fireside, was influenced by the high flights of the visitors from London. The smallest things so arrested and amused him that he repeatedly almost apologised—brought up afresh in explanation his plea of a previous grind. He was aware at the same time that his grind had been as nothing to Waymarsh’s, and he repeatedly confessed that, to cover his frivolity, he was doing his best for his previous virtue. Do what he might, in any case, his previous virtue was still there, and it seemed fairly to stare at him out of the windows of shops that were not as the shops of Woollett, fairly to make him want things that he shouldn’t know what to do with. It was by the oddest, the least admissible of laws demoralising him now; and the way it boldly took was to make him want more wants. These first walks in Europe were in fact a kind of finely lurid intimation of what one might find at the end of that process. Had he come back after long years, in something already so like the evening of life, only to be exposed to it? It was at all events over the shop-windows that he made, with Waymarsh, most free; though it would have been easier had not the latter most sensibly yielded to the appeal of the merely useful trades. He pierced with his sombre detachment the plate-glass of ironmongers and saddlers, while Strether flaunted an affinity with the dealers in stamped letter-paper and in smart neckties. Strether was in fact recurrently shameless in the presence of the tailors, though it was just over the heads of the tailors that his countryman most loftily looked. This gave Miss Gostrey a grasped opportunity to back up Waymarsh at his expense. The weary lawyer—it was unmistakeable—had a conception of dress; but that, in view of some of the features of the effect produced, was just what made the danger of insistence on it. Strether wondered if he by this time thought Miss Gostrey less fashionable or Lambert Strether more so; and it appeared probable that most of the remarks exchanged between this latter pair about passers, figures, faces, personal types, exemplified in their degree the disposition to talk as “society” talked.
The three walked, looked around, and chatted, or at least two of them did; the situation really served their friend, if examined closely, but there was a noticeable silence. This silence did affect Strether, who felt it was filled with unspoken tension, but he tried to interpret it as a sign of easy tranquility. He didn’t want to engage too much, as that would lead to awkwardness; yet he also didn’t want to remain completely quiet, as that would seem like giving up. Waymarsh maintained a vague silence that could indicate either growing understanding or deep despair; and occasionally, in darker areas—where the low ceilings were dimmest, the strange rooftops weirdest, and all types of solicitations densest—the others saw him intently focused on something insignificant, or even nothing at all, as if granting a moment's pause. When he caught Strether's gaze during these times, he looked guilty and evasive, quickly falling back into a posture of withdrawal. Our friend couldn’t show him the right things for fear it would lead to a complete rejection, and he felt tempted to present the wrong things just to provoke a strong disagreement. Sometimes, he himself felt hesitant to fully express the joy of leisure, and at other times, he sensed that his conversations with the woman beside him might affect the third member of their group much like how Mr. Burchell at Dr. Primrose’s fireside was impacted by the lofty conversations of the London visitors. The tiniest things captivated and entertained him to the point where he frequently almost apologized—bringing up again his previous struggles. He was aware, however, that his struggles were insignificant compared to Waymarsh's, and he often admitted that, to mask his lightheartedness, he was trying hard to live up to his earlier seriousness. No matter what he did, his previous seriousness was still present, and it seemed to look out at him from shop windows that were nothing like the shops back home, making him desire things he had no idea how to handle. It was by the strangest, most unreasonable of rules that he felt disoriented now; and the bold direction it took was to make him crave even more desires. These initial outings in Europe were, in fact, a sort of vividly ominous hint of what he might discover at the end of that journey. Had he returned after many years, nearing the twilight of life, only to face this? At any rate, it was through the shop windows that he felt most at ease with Waymarsh, although it would have been simpler had the latter not so readily succumbed to the appeal of merely practical businesses. He absorbed the displays of hardware stores and saddlers with his gloomy detachment, while Strether reveled in his interest in shops selling fancy stationery and stylish neckties. Strether was often unabashed around tailors, even though it was just over the heads of the tailors that his fellow countryman looked most disdainfully. This provided Miss Gostrey a chance to support Waymarsh at his expense. The tired lawyer—there was no doubt—had a clear idea of style; but that, given some of the impressions made, was what raised the risk of emphasizing it. Strether wondered if by now he thought Miss Gostrey was less fashionable or Lambert Strether was more so; and it seemed likely that most of the comments exchanged between this latter duo about passersby, figures, faces, and personal styles reflected their inclination to converse as “society” did.
Was what was happening to himself then, was what already had happened, really that a woman of fashion was floating him into society and that an old friend deserted on the brink was watching the force of the current? When the woman of fashion permitted Strether—as she permitted him at the most—the purchase of a pair of gloves, the terms she made about it, the prohibition of neckties and other items till she should be able to guide him through the Burlington Arcade, were such as to fall upon a sensitive ear as a challenge to just imputations. Miss Gostrey was such a woman of fashion as could make without a symptom of vulgar blinking an appointment for the Burlington Arcade. Mere discriminations about a pair of gloves could thus at any rate represent—always for such sensitive ears as were in question—possibilities of something that Strether could make a mark against only as the peril of apparent wantonness. He had quite the consciousness of his new friend, for their companion, that he might have had of a Jesuit in petticoats, a representative of the recruiting interests of the Catholic Church. The Catholic Church, for Waymarsh—that was to say the enemy, the monster of bulging eyes and far-reaching quivering groping tentacles—was exactly society, exactly the multiplication of shibboleths, exactly the discrimination of types and tones, exactly the wicked old Rows of Chester, rank with feudalism; exactly in short Europe.
Was what was happening to him really just a replay of what had already occurred, where a fashionable woman was introducing him to society and an old friend, abandoned at the edge, was observing the strength of the current? When the fashionable woman allowed Strether—at most—to buy a pair of gloves, the conditions she set, like forbidding neckties and other items until she could guide him through the Burlington Arcade, felt like a challenge to his sensibilities. Miss Gostrey was exactly the kind of fashionable woman who could make an appointment for the Burlington Arcade without any hint of crassness. Discussions about a simple pair of gloves could represent—especially for someone as sensitive as he was—potential dilemmas that Strether could only confront as the danger of appearing reckless. He felt a specific awareness of his new friend and their companion, akin to how one might perceive a Jesuit in a dress, someone representing the interests of the Catholic Church. For Waymarsh, the Catholic Church represented the enemy—an overwhelming force with bulging eyes and reaching, grasping tentacles. It was society itself, a complex web of exclusive jargon, the categorization of different types and tones, and the old aristocratic ways of Chester, steeped in feudalism; in short, it was Europe.
There was light for observation, however, in an incident that occurred just before they turned back to luncheon. Waymarsh had been for a quarter of an hour exceptionally mute and distant, and something, or other—Strether was never to make out exactly what—proved, as it were, too much for him after his comrades had stood for three minutes taking in, while they leaned on an old balustrade that guarded the edge of the Row, a particularly crooked and huddled street-view. “He thinks us sophisticated, he thinks us worldly, he thinks us wicked, he thinks us all sorts of queer things,” Strether reflected; for wondrous were the vague quantities our friend had within a couple of short days acquired the habit of conveniently and conclusively lumping together. There seemed moreover a direct connexion between some such inference and a sudden grim dash taken by Waymarsh to the opposite side. This movement was startlingly sudden, and his companions at first supposed him to have espied, to be pursuing, the glimpse of an acquaintance. They next made out, however, that an open door had instantly received him, and they then recognised him as engulfed in the establishment of a jeweller, behind whose glittering front he was lost to view. The fact had somehow the note of a demonstration, and it left each of the others to show a face almost of fear. But Miss Gostrey broke into a laugh. “What’s the matter with him?”
There was a bit of excitement right before they went back for lunch. Waymarsh had been unusually quiet and distant for about fifteen minutes, and something—Strether never figured out exactly what—seemed to overwhelm him after his friends stood for three minutes, leaning on an old railing overlooking a particularly crooked and cramped street view. “He thinks we’re sophisticated, he thinks we’re worldly, he thinks we’re wicked; he thinks all sorts of strange things about us,” Strether mused, since it was amazing how quickly our friend had started to lump these vague ideas together in just a couple of days. There also seemed to be a direct connection between this kind of thinking and a sudden, sharp move by Waymarsh to the other side. It was such an abrupt action that his friends initially thought he spotted someone he knew and was going after them. But then they realized he had dashed through an open door and was now lost inside a jewelry store, behind its sparkling displays. This had the air of a statement, and it left the others looking almost frightened. But Miss Gostrey burst out laughing. “What’s wrong with him?”
“Well,” said Strether, “he can’t stand it.”
“Well,” Strether said, “he can’t handle it.”
“But can’t stand what?”
“But what can’t you stand?”
“Anything. Europe.”
"Anything. Europe."
“Then how will that jeweller help him?”
“Then how will that jeweler help him?”
Strether seemed to make it out, from their position, between the interstices of arrayed watches, of close-hung dangling gewgaws. “You’ll see.”
Strether seemed to figure it out, from their spot, amidst the gaps of lined-up watches, of closely hung dangling trinkets. “You’ll see.”
“Ah that’s just what—if he buys anything—I’m afraid of: that I shall see something rather dreadful.”
“Ah, that’s exactly what I’m worried about—if he buys anything—I’m afraid I’ll see something pretty terrible.”
Strether studied the finer appearances. “He may buy everything.”
Strether examined the details closely. “He could buy anything.”
“Then don’t you think we ought to follow him?”
“Then don’t you think we should follow him?”
“Not for worlds. Besides we can’t. We’re paralysed. We exchange a long scared look, we publicly tremble. The thing is, you see, we ‘realise.’ He has struck for freedom.”
“Not for anything. Besides, we can’t. We’re frozen. We share a long, fearful glance, and we visibly shake. The thing is, you see, we ‘understand.’ He has fought for freedom.”
She wondered but she laughed. “Ah what a price to pay! And I was preparing some for him so cheap.”
She thought about it but laughed. “What a price to pay! And I was getting some for him so cheap.”
“No, no,” Strether went on, frankly amused now; “don’t call it that: the kind of freedom you deal in is dear.” Then as to justify himself: “Am I not in my way trying it? It’s this.”
“No, no,” Strether continued, genuinely amused now; “don’t call it that: the kind of freedom you’re selling is expensive.” Then, to justify himself: “Aren’t I in my own way trying it? It’s this.”
“Being here, you mean, with me?”
“Being here, you’re talking about, with me?”
“Yes, and talking to you as I do. I’ve known you a few hours, and I’ve known him all my life; so that if the ease I thus take with you about him isn’t magnificent”—and the thought of it held him a moment—“why it’s rather base.”
“Yes, and talking to you like this. I’ve known you for a few hours, and I’ve known him my entire life; so if the way I talk about him with you isn’t amazing”—and just thinking about it paused him for a moment—“then it’s pretty low.”
“It’s magnificent!” said Miss Gostrey to make an end of it. “And you should hear,” she added, “the ease I take—and I above all intend to take—with Mr. Waymarsh.”
“It’s amazing!” said Miss Gostrey to wrap things up. “And you should hear,” she continued, “the ease I have—and I definitely plan to have—with Mr. Waymarsh.”
Strether thought. “About me? Ah that’s no equivalent. The equivalent would be Waymarsh’s himself serving me up—his remorseless analysis of me. And he’ll never do that”—he was sadly clear. “He’ll never remorselessly analyse me.” He quite held her with the authority of this. “He’ll never say a word to you about me.”
Strether thought. “About me? Oh, that doesn't even compare. The real comparison would be Waymarsh serving me up—his unyielding analysis of me. And he’s never going to do that”—he was painfully aware. “He’ll never analyze me like that.” He had her attention with the certainty of this. “He’ll never say a word to you about me.”
She took it in; she did it justice; yet after an instant her reason, her restless irony, disposed of it. “Of course he won’t. For what do you take people, that they’re able to say words about anything, able remorselessly to analyse? There are not many like you and me. It will be only because he’s too stupid.”
She absorbed it; she acknowledged its worth; but after a moment, her judgment and her sharp irony dismissed it. “Of course he won’t. What do you think people are, that they can talk about anything and analyze it without any remorse? There aren’t many like you and me. It’s only because he’s too dumb.”
It stirred in her friend a sceptical echo which was at the same time the protest of the faith of years. “Waymarsh stupid?”
It sparked a skeptical response in her friend, which was also a defense of years of belief. “Waymarsh stupid?”
“Compared with you.”
"Compared to you."
Strether had still his eyes on the jeweller’s front, and he waited a moment to answer. “He’s a success of a kind that I haven’t approached.”
Strether was still focused on the jeweller’s storefront, and he paused for a moment before responding. “He’s a success in a way that I haven’t experienced.”
“Do you mean he has made money?”
"Are you saying he has made money?"
“He makes it—to my belief. And I,” said Strether, “though with a back quite as bent, have never made anything. I’m a perfectly equipped failure.”
“He does it, in my opinion. And I,” said Strether, “even though my back is just as bent, have never accomplished anything. I’m a complete failure.”
He feared an instant she’d ask him if he meant he was poor; and he was glad she didn’t, for he really didn’t know to what the truth on this unpleasant point mightn’t have prompted her. She only, however, confirmed his assertion. “Thank goodness you’re a failure—it’s why I so distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too hideous. Look about you—look at the successes. Would you be one, on your honour? Look, moreover,” she continued, “at me.”
He was worried for a moment that she’d ask him if he was poor; and he was relieved she didn’t, because he honestly wasn’t sure what the truth about this awkward topic might have led her to think. Instead, she just backed up his claim. “Thank goodness you’re a failure—it’s why I find you so unique! Everything else today is just too awful. Look around—look at the successful people. Would you really want to be one, honestly? And, by the way,” she continued, “look at me.”
For a little accordingly their eyes met. “I see,” Strether returned. “You too are out of it.”
For a moment, their eyes met. “I get it,” Strether replied. “You’re not part of it either.”
“The superiority you discern in me,” she concurred, “announces my futility. If you knew,” she sighed, “the dreams of my youth! But our realities are what has brought us together. We’re beaten brothers in arms.”
“The superiority you see in me,” she agreed, “shows my uselessness. If you only knew,” she sighed, “the dreams of my youth! But our realities are what brought us together. We’re beaten brothers in arms.”
He smiled at her kindly enough, but he shook his head. “It doesn’t alter the fact that you’re expensive. You’ve cost me already—!”
He smiled at her warmly, but he shook his head. “It doesn’t change the fact that you’re costly. You’ve already set me back—!”
But he had hung fire. “Cost you what?”
But he hesitated. “What will it cost you?”
“Well, my past—in one great lump. But no matter,” he laughed: “I’ll pay with my last penny.”
“Well, my past—all at once. But it doesn’t matter,” he laughed: “I’ll pay with my last penny.”
Her attention had unfortunately now been engaged by their comrade’s return, for Waymarsh met their view as he came out of his shop. “I hope he hasn’t paid,” she said, “with his last; though I’m convinced he has been splendid, and has been so for you.”
Her attention had unfortunately now been caught by their friend's return, as Waymarsh appeared from his shop. "I hope he hasn't paid," she said, "with his last; though I'm sure he's been great, and has been so for you."
“Ah no—not that!”
“Ugh, not that!”
“Then for me?”
"Then what about me?"
“Quite as little.” Waymarsh was by this time near enough to show signs his friend could read, though he seemed to look almost carefully at nothing in particular.
“Not at all.” By this time, Waymarsh was close enough to show signs that his friend could read him, even though he seemed to be looking at nothing in particular very intently.
“Then for himself?”
“Then for himself?”
“For nobody. For nothing. For freedom.”
“For no one. For nothing. For freedom.”
“But what has freedom to do with it?”
“But what does freedom have to do with it?”
Strether’s answer was indirect. “To be as good as you and me. But different.”
Strether's response was vague. "To be as good as you and me. But different."
She had had time to take in their companion’s face; and with it, as such things were easy for her, she took in all. “Different—yes. But better!”
She had time to see her companion's face, and with it, as she often did, she understood everything. “Different—yes. But better!”
If Waymarsh was sombre he was also indeed almost sublime. He told them nothing, left his absence unexplained, and though they were convinced he had made some extraordinary purchase they were never to learn its nature. He only glowered grandly at the tops of the old gables. “It’s the sacred rage,” Strether had had further time to say; and this sacred rage was to become between them, for convenient comprehension, the description of one of his periodical necessities. It was Strether who eventually contended that it did make him better than they. But by that time Miss Gostrey was convinced that she didn’t want to be better than Strether.
If Waymarsh was serious, he was also sort of magnificent. He said nothing to them, left his absence unexplained, and even though they were sure he had bought something remarkable, they would never find out what it was. He just glared grandly at the tops of the old rooftops. “It’s the sacred rage,” Strether had a chance to say; and this sacred rage was going to become, for easier understanding, a term for one of his recurring needs. It was Strether who eventually argued that it made him superior to them. But by that time, Miss Gostrey was sure she didn’t want to be better than Strether.
Book Second
I
Those occasions on which Strether was, in association with the exile from Milrose, to see the sacred rage glimmer through would doubtless have their due periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile to find names for many other matters. On no evening of his life perhaps, as he reflected, had he had to supply so many as on the third of his short stay in London; an evening spent by Miss Gostrey’s side at one of the theatres, to which he had found himself transported, without his own hand raised, on the mere expression of a conscientious wonder. She knew her theatre, she knew her play, as she had triumphantly known, three days running, everything else, and the moment filled to the brim, for her companion, that apprehension of the interesting which, whether or no the interesting happened to filter through his guide, strained now to its limits his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn’t come with them; he had seen plays enough, he signified, before Strether had joined him—an affirmation that had its full force when his friend ascertained by questions that he had seen two and a circus. Questions as to what he had seen had on him indeed an effect only less favourable than questions as to what he hadn’t. He liked the former to be discriminated; but how could it be done, Strether asked of their constant counsellor, without discriminating the latter?
Those times when Strether was with the exile from Milrose and caught a glimpse of the sacred rage would certainly happen regularly; however, our friend had to come up with names for many other things in the meantime. Perhaps on no other evening in his life, he thought, had he been required to come up with so many names as on the third night of his short stay in London; an evening spent by Miss Gostrey’s side at one of the theaters, to which he found himself taken, without lifting a finger, just based on an honest curiosity. She knew her theater and her play, just as she had confidently known, for three days in a row, everything else, and the moment was completely filled for her companion with a sense of the interesting that, whether or not the interesting actually came through his guide, pushed the limits of his brief opportunity. Waymarsh hadn’t joined them; he had seen enough plays, he indicated, before Strether came along—an assertion that held its full weight when his friend learned through questions that he had seen two and a circus. Questions about what he had seen had indeed more of an impact on him than questions about what he hadn’t. He preferred the former to be specific; but how could that be done, Strether asked their constant adviser, without focusing on the latter?
Miss Gostrey had dined with him at his hotel, face to face over a small table on which the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; and the rose-coloured shades and the small table and the soft fragrance of the lady—had anything to his mere sense ever been so soft?—were so many touches in he scarce knew what positive high picture. He had been to the theatre, even to the opera, in Boston, with Mrs. Newsome, more than once acting as her only escort; but there had been no little confronted dinner, no pink lights, no whiff of vague sweetness, as a preliminary: one of the results of which was that at present, mildly rueful, though with a sharpish accent, he actually asked himself why there hadn’t. There was much the same difference in his impression of the noticed state of his companion, whose dress was “cut down,” as he believed the term to be, in respect to shoulders and bosom, in a manner quite other than Mrs. Newsome’s, and who wore round her throat a broad red velvet band with an antique jewel—he was rather complacently sure it was antique—attached to it in front. Mrs. Newsome’s dress was never in any degree “cut down,” and she never wore round her throat a broad red velvet band: if she had, moreover, would it ever have served so to carry on and complicate, as he now almost felt, his vision?
Miss Gostrey had dinner with him at his hotel, sitting face to face at a small table with pink-shaded candles. The pink shades, the small table, and the soft scent of the woman—had anything ever felt so gentle?—created so many details that he barely recognized the overall impact. He had been to the theater, even the opera, in Boston with Mrs. Newsome, often serving as her only companion; but there hadn’t been a quiet dinner like this, no pink lights, no hint of sweet fragrance beforehand. One of the results was that now, a bit regretful but with a sharp edge, he genuinely wondered why there hadn’t been. There was a similar difference in how he perceived the state of his companion, whose dress was “cut down,” as he thought the term applied, at the shoulders and chest, in a way completely different from Mrs. Newsome's, and who wore a broad red velvet band around her neck with what he was quite pleased to think was an antique jewel attached. Mrs. Newsome’s dress was never “cut down” in any way, and she never wore a broad red velvet band around her neck: if she had, would it have added to and complicated, as he now almost felt, his perception?
It would have been absurd of him to trace into ramifications the effect of the ribbon from which Miss Gostrey’s trinket depended, had he not for the hour, at the best, been so given over to uncontrolled perceptions. What was it but an uncontrolled perception that his friend’s velvet band somehow added, in her appearance, to the value of every other item—to that of her smile and of the way she carried her head, to that of her complexion, of her lips, her teeth, her eyes, her hair? What, certainly, had a man conscious of a man’s work in the world to do with red velvet bands? He wouldn’t for anything have so exposed himself as to tell Miss Gostrey how much he liked hers, yet he had none the less not only caught himself in the act—frivolous, no doubt, idiotic, and above all unexpected—of liking it: he had in addition taken it as a starting-point for fresh backward, fresh forward, fresh lateral flights. The manner in which Mrs. Newsome’s throat was encircled suddenly represented for him, in an alien order, almost as many things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey’s was. Mrs. Newsome wore, at operatic hours, a black silk dress—very handsome, he knew it was “handsome”—and an ornament that his memory was able further to identify as a ruche. He had his association indeed with the ruche, but it was rather imperfectly romantic. He had once said to the wearer—and it was as “free” a remark as he had ever made to her—that she looked, with her ruff and other matters, like Queen Elizabeth; and it had after this in truth been his fancy that, as a consequence of that tenderness and an acceptance of the idea, the form of this special tribute to the “frill” had grown slightly more marked. The connexion, as he sat there and let his imagination roam, was to strike him as vaguely pathetic; but there it all was, and pathetic was doubtless in the conditions the best thing it could possibly be. It had assuredly existed at any rate; for it seemed now to come over him that no gentleman of his age at Woollett could ever, to a lady of Mrs. Newsome’s, which was not much less than his, have embarked on such a simile.
It would have been ridiculous for him to consider the implications of the ribbon that held Miss Gostrey’s trinket, if he hadn’t, for at least that hour, been swept up in overwhelming feelings. What else could explain how his friend’s velvet band somehow enhanced the value of everything else about her—her smile, the way she held her head, her skin, her lips, her teeth, her eyes, her hair? What business did a man who understood a man’s work in the world have with red velvet bands? He wouldn’t have dared to tell Miss Gostrey how much he liked hers, yet he found himself, foolishly and unexpectedly, genuinely appreciating it. Moreover, he had used it as a starting point for fresh thoughts and ideas. The way Mrs. Newsome’s neck was framed suddenly seemed to represent, for him, not unlike Miss Gostrey’s, a variety of things in a different context. Mrs. Newsome wore a stunning black silk dress during operas—he knew it was “stunning”—and she had an accessory he could recall as a ruche. He did indeed have an association with the ruche, but it was only vaguely romantic. He had once told her—and it was one of the most “forward” comments he had ever made—that she looked like Queen Elizabeth with her ruff and other elements; and since then, he fancied that, because of that compliment and his acceptance of the idea, the style of this particular tribute to the “frill” had become slightly more pronounced. As he sat there letting his imagination wander, he found the connection to be vaguely poignant; but that was the reality of it, and poignant was likely the best it could be under those circumstances. It certainly existed; for it now struck him that no gentleman of his age in Woollett could ever have compared himself to a lady like Mrs. Newsome, who was hardly younger than he was.
All sorts of things in fact now seemed to come over him, comparatively few of which his chronicler can hope for space to mention. It came over him for instance that Miss Gostrey looked perhaps like Mary Stuart: Lambert Strether had a candour of fancy which could rest for an instant gratified in such an antithesis. It came over him that never before—no, literally never—had a lady dined with him at a public place before going to the play. The publicity of the place was just, in the matter, for Strether, the rare strange thing; it affected him almost as the achievement of privacy might have affected a man of a different experience. He had married, in the far-away years, so young as to have missed the time natural in Boston for taking girls to the Museum; and it was absolutely true of hint that—even after the close of the period of conscious detachment occupying the centre of his life, the grey middle desert of the two deaths, that of his wife and that, ten years later, of his boy—he had never taken any one anywhere. It came over him in especial—though the monition had, as happened, already sounded, fitfully gleamed, in other forms—that the business he had come out on hadn’t yet been so brought home to him as by the sight of the people about him. She gave him the impression, his friend, at first, more straight than he got it for himself—gave it simply by saying with off-hand illumination: “Oh yes, they’re types!”—but after he had taken it he made to the full his own use of it; both while he kept silence for the four acts and while he talked in the intervals. It was an evening, it was a world of types, and this was a connexion above all in which the figures and faces in the stalls were interchangeable with those on the stage.
All kinds of thoughts started to come to him, and there were so many that his chronicler could only hope to mention a few. For instance, he realized that Miss Gostrey looked a bit like Mary Stuart: Lambert Strether had an imagination that could briefly indulge in such a contrast. He also recognized that never before—literally never—had a woman dined with him in a public place before going to the theater. The public nature of the place was, for Strether, something rare and strange; it affected him almost as much as the idea of privacy might have impacted someone with a different background. He had married at such a young age, long ago, that he had missed the usual time in Boston for taking girls to the Museum. It was absolutely true about him that—even after the period of conscious detachment that occupied the center of his life, the long grey stretch marked by the deaths of his wife and, ten years later, his son—he had never taken anyone anywhere. He especially felt, although he had already received hints in different forms, that the purpose of his outing hadn't truly registered for him until he observed the people around him. His friend gave him the impression, more directly than he could grasp himself—simply by saying casually, “Oh yes, they’re types!”—but once he absorbed it, he made full use of it; both during the four acts when he stayed silent and when he chatted in the intervals. It was an evening filled with types, and in this setting, the figures and faces in the audience were interchangeable with those on the stage.
He felt as if the play itself penetrated him with the naked elbow of his neighbour, a great stripped handsome red-haired lady who conversed with a gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables which had for his ear, in the oddest way in the world, so much sound that he wondered they hadn’t more sense; and he recognised by the same law, beyond the footlights, what he was pleased to take for the very flush of English life. He had distracted drops in which he couldn’t have said if it were actors or auditors who were most true, and the upshot of which, each time, was the consciousness of new contacts. However he viewed his job it was “types” he should have to tackle. Those before him and around him were not as the types of Woollett, where, for that matter, it had begun to seem to him that there must only have been the male and the female. These made two exactly, even with the individual varieties. Here, on the other hand, apart from the personal and the sexual range—which might be greater or less—a series of strong stamps had been applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his observation played with as, before a glass case on a table, it might have passed from medal to medal and from copper to gold. It befell that in the drama precisely there was a bad woman in a yellow frock who made a pleasant weak good-looking young man in perpetual evening dress do the most dreadful things. Strether felt himself on the whole not afraid of the yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious over a certain kindness into which he found himself drifting for its victim. He hadn’t come out, he reminded himself, to be too kind, or indeed to be kind at all, to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also be in perpetual evening dress? He somehow rather hoped it—it seemed so to add to this young man’s general amenability; though he wondered too if, to fight him with his own weapons, he himself (a thought almost startling) would have likewise to be. This young man furthermore would have been much more easy to handle—at least for him—than appeared probable in respect to Chad.
He felt like the play itself was pushing in on him with the bare elbow of his neighbor, a strikingly attractive red-haired woman who chatted with a gentleman on her other side in awkward two-syllable phrases that, for some reason, sounded meaningful to him, even though he was surprised they didn’t make more sense. He recognized, in a similar way, beyond the stage lights, what he liked to think of as the true essence of English life. He found himself distracted, uncertain whether it was the actors or the audience who were more genuine, and each time he experienced this, it made him aware of new connections. Whatever way he looked at it, he knew he would have to deal with “types.” The people around him were nothing like the types in Woollett, where he had started to feel there were just the male and female categories. Those made two clear types, even with the individual differences. Here, however, aside from the personal and sexual variety—which could be more or less—there were distinct markings that seemed to come from the outside; marks his observations played with as if he were moving from medal to medal in a display case. In the play, there was a bad woman in a yellow dress who made a charming but weak young man in a perpetual evening suit do terrible things. Strether found that he wasn’t particularly afraid of the yellow dress, but he felt a vague concern for its unfortunate target. He reminded himself that he hadn’t come out to be too kind, or really to be kind at all, to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also be in perpetual evening dress? He kind of hoped so—it seemed to enhance this young man’s overall charm; though he also wondered if, to compete with him on the same level, he’d have to dress up too. This young man would have been much easier to manage—at least for him—than what seemed likely with Chad.
It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things of which she would really perhaps after all have heard, and she admitted when a little pressed that she was never quite sure of what she heard as distinguished from things such as, on occasions like the present, she only extravagantly guessed. “I seem with this freedom, you see, to have guessed Mr. Chad. He’s a young man on whose head high hopes are placed at Woollett; a young man a wicked woman has got hold of and whom his family over there have sent you out to rescue. You’ve accepted the mission of separating him from the wicked woman. Are you quite sure she’s very bad for him?”
It came up for him with Miss Gostrey that there were things she might have actually heard about, and she admitted, when pressed a bit, that she was never completely sure about what she heard versus what she just wildly guessed. “I seem to have guessed Mr. Chad with this freedom, you see. He’s a young man with high hopes resting on him in Woollett; a young man a wicked woman has gotten involved with, and his family sent you out to rescue him. You’ve taken on the mission of separating him from this wicked woman. Are you entirely sure she’s really bad for him?”
Something in his manner showed it as quite pulling him up. “Of course we are. Wouldn’t you be?”
Something in his manner made it clear that it really bothered him. “Of course we are. Wouldn’t you be?”
“Oh I don’t know. One never does—does one?—beforehand. One can only judge on the facts. Yours are quite new to me; I’m really not in the least, as you see, in possession of them: so it will be awfully interesting to have them from you. If you’re satisfied, that’s all that’s required. I mean if you’re sure you are sure: sure it won’t do.”
“Oh, I don’t know. One never really knows, do they?—ahead of time. One can only judge based on the facts. Yours are completely new to me; as you can tell, I don’t have them at all: so it will be really interesting to hear them from you. If you’re happy, that’s all that matters. I mean if you’re sure you are sure: sure it won’t work.”
“That he should lead such a life? Rather!”
"That he should live like that? Absolutely!"
“Oh but I don’t know, you see, about his life; you’ve not told me about his life. She may be charming—his life!”
“Oh, I don’t know, you see, about his life; you haven’t told me about his life. She might be charming—his life!”
“Charming?”—Strether stared before him. “She’s base, venal—out of the streets.”
“Charming?”—Strether stared ahead. “She’s low-class, greedy—straight out of the streets.”
“I see. And he—?”
"I get it. And he—?"
“Chad, wretched boy?”
"Chad, miserable boy?"
“Of what type and temper is he?” she went on as Strether had lapsed.
“What's his personality like?” she continued as Strether had drifted off.
“Well—the obstinate.” It was as if for a moment he had been going to say more and had then controlled himself.
“Well—the stubborn.” It was as if for a moment he had been about to say more and then held himself back.
That was scarce what she wished. “Do you like him?”
That was hardly what she wanted. “Do you like him?”
This time he was prompt. “No. How can I?”
This time he was quick to respond. “No. How can I?”
“Do you mean because of your being so saddled with him?”
"Are you talking about being so burdened by him?"
“I’m thinking of his mother,” said Strether after a moment. “He has darkened her admirable life.” He spoke with austerity. “He has worried her half to death.”
“I’m thinking about his mother,” Strether said after a moment. “He has brought darkness to her wonderful life.” He spoke seriously. “He has worried her to the point of exhaustion.”
“Oh that’s of course odious.” She had a pause as if for renewed emphasis of this truth, but it ended on another note. “Is her life very admirable?”
“Oh, that’s definitely awful.” She paused as if to emphasize this truth, but it shifted to another tone. “Is her life really admirable?”
“Extraordinarily.”
"Exceptional."
There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to devote another pause to the appreciation of it. “And has he only her? I don’t mean the bad woman in Paris,” she quickly added—“for I assure you I shouldn’t even at the best be disposed to allow him more than one. But has he only his mother?”
There was so much in the tone that Miss Gostrey had to take another moment to appreciate it. “And does he only have her? I don't mean the bad woman in Paris,” she quickly added—“because I promise you I wouldn't even in the best situation be inclined to allow him more than one. But does he only have his mother?”
“He has also a sister, older than himself and married; and they’re both remarkably fine women.”
“He also has an older sister who is married, and they’re both really amazing women.”
“Very handsome, you mean?”
"Super handsome, you mean?"
This promptitude—almost, as he might have thought, this precipitation, gave him a brief drop; but he came up again. “Mrs. Newsome, I think, is handsome, though she’s not of course, with a son of twenty-eight and a daughter of thirty, in her very first youth. She married, however, extremely young.”
This quickness—almost, as he might have thought, this rush—gave him a brief pause; but he recovered. “Mrs. Newsome is attractive, even though she doesn’t look like it, with a twenty-eight-year-old son and a thirty-year-old daughter in her youth. But she did get married very young.”
“And is wonderful,” Miss Gostrey asked, “for her age?”
“And it’s wonderful,” Miss Gostrey asked, “for her age?”
Strether seemed to feel with a certain disquiet the pressure of it. “I don’t say she’s wonderful. Or rather,” he went on the next moment, “I do say it. It’s exactly what she is—wonderful. But I wasn’t thinking of her appearance,” he explained—“striking as that doubtless is. I was thinking—well, of many other things.” He seemed to look at these as if to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself up, another turn. “About Mrs. Pocock people may differ.”
Strether seemed to feel, somewhat uneasy, the weight of it. “I don’t say she’s amazing. Or rather,” he continued a moment later, “I do say that. It’s exactly what she is—amazing. But I wasn’t focused on her looks,” he clarified—“impressive as they surely are. I was thinking—well, of many other things.” He seemed to consider these as if he might mention some of them; then, regaining his composure, he shifted gears. “People can have different opinions about Mrs. Pocock.”
“Is that the daughter’s name—‘Pocock’?”
“Is that the daughter’s name—‘Pocock’?”
“That’s the daughter’s name,” Strether sturdily confessed.
"That's the daughter's name," Strether confidently admitted.
“And people may differ, you mean, about her beauty?”
“And people might have different opinions, you mean, about her beauty?”
“About everything.”
"About everything."
“But you admire her?”
“But you like her?”
He gave his friend a glance as to show how he could bear this “I’m perhaps a little afraid of her.”
He gave his friend a look to show that he could handle this "I'm maybe a bit scared of her."
“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “I see her from here! You may say then I see very fast and very far, but I’ve already shown you I do. The young man and the two ladies,” she went on, “are at any rate all the family?”
“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “I can see her from here! You could say I have great eyesight and can see far, and I’ve already proven that I do. The young man and the two women,” she continued, “are at least the entire family?”
“Quite all. His father has been dead ten years, and there’s no brother, nor any other sister. They’d do,” said Strether, “anything in the world for him.”
“That's it. His father has been dead for ten years, and he doesn’t have a brother or any other sister. They would do anything for him,” said Strether.
“And you’d do anything in the world for them?”
“And you’d do anything in the world for them?”
He shifted again; she had made it perhaps just a shade too affirmative for his nerves. “Oh I don’t know!”
He shifted again; she had worded it maybe just a bit too strongly for his nerves. “Oh, I don’t know!”
“You’d do at any rate this, and the ‘anything’ they’d do is represented by their making you do it.”
“You’d definitely do this, and the ‘anything’ they’d do is shown by their making you do it.”
“Ah they couldn’t have come—either of them. They’re very busy people and Mrs. Newsome in particular has a large full life. She’s moreover highly nervous—and not at all strong.”
“Ah, they couldn’t have come—either of them. They’re really busy people, and Mrs. Newsome, in particular, has a full and active life. Additionally, she’s very anxious—and not strong at all.”
“You mean she’s an American invalid?”
"You mean she's a disabled American?"
He carefully distinguished. “There’s nothing she likes less than to be called one, but she would consent to be one of those things, I think,” he laughed, “if it were the only way to be the other.”
He carefully pointed out, “There’s nothing she dislikes more than being called one, but I think she would agree to be one of those things,” he laughed, “if it were the only way to be the other.”
“Consent to be an American in order to be an invalid?”
“Consent to be an American just to be disabled?”
“No,” said Strether, “the other way round. She’s at any rate delicate sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself into everything—”
“No,” said Strether, “the other way around. She’s definitely delicate, sensitive, and high-strung. She invests so much of herself into everything—”
Ah Maria knew these things! “That she has nothing left for anything else? Of course she hasn’t. To whom do you say it? High-strung? Don’t I spend my life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see moreover how it has told on you.”
Ah, Maria knew these things! “That she has nothing left for anything else? Of course she doesn’t. Who are you telling this to? High-strung? Don’t I spend my life, for them, pushing myself to the limit? I see, besides, how it’s affected you.”
Strether took this more lightly. “Oh I jam down the pedal too!”
Strether took this more casually. “Oh, I hit the gas too!”
“Well,” she lucidly returned, “we must from this moment bear on it together with all our might.” And she forged ahead. “Have they money?”
“Well,” she clearly replied, “we need to tackle this together with all our strength from now on.” And she moved forward. “Do they have money?”
But it was as if, while her energetic image still held him, her enquiry fell short. “Mrs. Newsome,” he wished further to explain, “hasn’t moreover your courage on the question of contact. If she had come it would have been to see the person herself.”
But it was as if, while her lively image still captivated him, her question fell flat. “Mrs. Newsome,” he wanted to elaborate, “doesn't your boldness regarding the issue of contact matter? If she had come, it would have been to meet the person herself.”
“The woman? Ah but that’s courage.”
“The woman? Oh, but that's bravery.”
“No—it’s exaltation, which is a very different thing. Courage,” he, however, accommodatingly threw out, “is what you have.”
“No—it’s exhilaration, which is something completely different. Courage,” he added with a hint of friendliness, “is what you have.”
She shook her head. “You say that only to patch me up—to cover the nudity of my want of exaltation. I’ve neither the one nor the other. I’ve mere battered indifference. I see that what you mean,” Miss Gostrey pursued, “is that if your friend had come she would take great views, and the great views, to put it simply, would be too much for her.”
She shook her head. “You’re just saying that to make me feel better—to hide the emptiness of my desire for excitement. I don’t have either. I’m just feeling worn-out indifference. I get what you mean,” Miss Gostrey continued, “is that if your friend had come, she would have grand opinions, and those grand opinions, to put it simply, would be overwhelming for her.”
Strether looked amused at her notion of the simple, but he adopted her formula. “Everything’s too much for her.”
Strether seemed amused by her idea of the simple, but he went along with her way of thinking. “Everything’s too much for her.”
“Ah then such a service as this of yours—”
“Ah, then this service of yours—”
“Is more for her than anything else? Yes—far more. But so long as it isn’t too much for me—!”
“Is it more for her than anything else? Yes—way more. But as long as it’s not too much for me—!”
“Her condition doesn’t matter? Surely not; we leave her condition out; we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as behind and beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as bearing you up.”
“Her condition doesn’t matter? Surely not; we leave her condition out; we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her condition, as behind and beneath you; yet at the same time I see it as supporting you.”
“Oh it does bear me up!” Strether laughed.
“Oh, it really lifts my spirits!” Strether laughed.
“Well then as yours bears me nothing more’s needed.” With which she put again her question. “Has Mrs. Newsome money?”
“Well, since your answer means nothing to me, I don’t need anything else.” With that, she asked her question again. “Does Mrs. Newsome have money?”
This time he heeded. “Oh plenty. That’s the root of the evil. There’s money, to very large amounts, in the concern. Chad has had the free use of a great deal. But if he’ll pull himself together and come home, all the same, he’ll find his account in it.”
This time he listened. “Oh absolutely. That’s the source of the problem. There’s a significant amount of money in the business. Chad has had the freedom to use a lot of it. But if he can get it together and come home, he’ll still benefit from it.”
She had listened with all her interest. “And I hope to goodness you’ll find yours!”
She listened intently. “And I really hope you find yours!”
“He’ll take up his definite material reward,” said Strether without acknowledgement of this. “He’s at the parting of the ways. He can come into the business now—he can’t come later.”
“He’ll accept his definite material reward,” said Strether without acknowledging this. “He’s at a turning point. He can enter the business now—he can’t come in later.”
“Is there a business?”
“Is there a business?”
“Lord, yes—a big brave bouncing business. A roaring trade.”
“Sure, a big, bold, thriving business. A booming trade.”
“A great shop?”
“An awesome store?”
“Yes—a workshop; a great production, a great industry. The concern’s a manufacture—and a manufacture that, if it’s only properly looked after, may well be on the way to become a monopoly. It’s a little thing they make—make better, it appears, than other people can, or than other people, at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of ideas, at least in that particular line,” Strether explained, “put them on it with great effect, and gave the place altogether, in his time, an immense lift.”
“Yes—a workshop; a big production, a huge industry. The company is a manufacturer—and if it’s managed well, it could easily become a monopoly. They create something small—apparently better than anyone else can, or than others, at least, currently do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of ideas, at least in that area,” Strether explained, “brought them on board effectively and really gave the place a significant boost during his time.”
“It’s a place in itself?”
"Is it a place by itself?"
“Well, quite a number of buildings; almost a little industrial colony. But above all it’s a thing. The article produced.”
“Well, there are quite a few buildings; it’s almost like a little industrial colony. But above all, it’s the product. The item that’s made.”
“And what is the article produced?”
"And what is the article produced?"
Strether looked about him as in slight reluctance to say; then the curtain, which he saw about to rise, came to his aid. “I’ll tell you next time.” But when the next time came he only said he’d tell her later on—after they should have left the theatre; for she had immediately reverted to their topic, and even for himself the picture of the stage was now overlaid with another image. His postponements, however, made her wonder—wonder if the article referred to were anything bad. And she explained that she meant improper or ridiculous or wrong. But Strether, so far as that went, could satisfy her. “Unmentionable? Oh no, we constantly talk of it; we are quite familiar and brazen about it. Only, as a small, trivial, rather ridiculous object of the commonest domestic use, it’s just wanting in—what shall I say? Well, dignity, or the least approach to distinction. Right here therefore, with everything about us so grand—!” In short he shrank.
Strether looked around, a bit hesitant to speak; then the curtain, which he saw about to rise, helped him out. “I’ll tell you next time.” But when the next time came, he only said he’d explain later—after they left the theater; because she immediately brought up their topic again, and even for him, the image of the stage was now blurred with another one. His delays, however, made her curious—wondering if what he was talking about was something bad. She clarified that she meant something improper or ridiculous or wrong. But Strether, to that extent, could reassure her. “Unmentionable? Oh no, we talk about it all the time; we’re pretty familiar and bold about it. It’s just that, as a small, trivial, somewhat silly thing for everyday use, it lacks—what should I say? Well, dignity, or any hint of distinction. Right here, then, with everything around us so grand—!” In short, he recoiled.
“It’s a false note?”
“Is it a false note?”
“Sadly. It’s vulgar.”
"Unfortunately, it's inappropriate."
“But surely not vulgarer than this.” Then on his wondering as she herself had done: “Than everything about us.” She seemed a trifle irritated. “What do you take this for?”
“But it's definitely not more vulgar than this.” Then, noticing his amazement just like she had: “More than everything around us.” She appeared a bit irritated. “What do you think this is?”
“Why for—comparatively—divine!”
"Why so—comparatively—divine!"
“This dreadful London theatre? It’s impossible, if you really want to know.”
“This awful London theater? It’s impossible, if you really want to know.”
“Oh then,” laughed Strether, “I don’t really want to know!”
“Oh then,” laughed Strether, “I don’t really want to know!”
It made between them a pause, which she, however, still fascinated by the mystery of the production at Woollett, presently broke. “‘Rather ridiculous’? Clothes-pins? Saleratus? Shoe-polish?”
It created a pause between them, which she, still intrigued by the mystery of the production at Woollett, eventually interrupted. “‘Pretty ridiculous’? Clothes pins? Baking soda? Shoe polish?”
It brought him round. “No—you don’t even ‘burn.’ I don’t think, you know, you’ll guess it.”
It brought him back around. “No—you don’t even ‘burn.’ I don’t think, you know, you’ll figure it out.”
“How then can I judge how vulgar it is?”
“How can I determine how vulgar it is?”
“You’ll judge when I do tell you”—and he persuaded her to patience. But it may even now frankly be mentioned that he in the sequel never was to tell her. He actually never did so, and it moreover oddly occurred that by the law, within her, of the incalculable, her desire for the information dropped and her attitude to the question converted itself into a positive cultivation of ignorance. In ignorance she could humour her fancy, and that proved a useful freedom. She could treat the little nameless object as indeed unnameable—she could make their abstention enormously definite. There might indeed have been for Strether the portent of this in what she next said.
“You’ll know when I tell you”—and he got her to wait. But it can be said now that he ultimately never did tell her. He really never did, and strangely enough, it happened that within her, due to some uncontrollable instinct, her desire for the information faded, and her approach to the question shifted into a deliberate choice to remain ignorant. In ignorance, she could entertain her imagination, which turned out to be a valuable freedom. She could consider the little nameless object as truly unnameable—she could make their choice to stay silent very clear. There might have actually been a sign for Strether in what she said next.
“Is it perhaps then because it’s so bad—because your industry as you call it, is so vulgar—that Mr. Chad won’t come back? Does he feel the taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed up in it?”
“Is it maybe because it’s so terrible—because your so-called industry is so low-class—that Mr. Chad won’t return? Does he sense the stigma? Is he avoiding it to steer clear of being involved?”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “it wouldn’t appear—would it?—that he feels ‘taints’! He’s glad enough of the money from it, and the money’s his whole basis. There’s appreciation in that—I mean as to the allowance his mother has hitherto made him. She has of course the resource of cutting this allowance off; but even then he has unfortunately, and on no small scale, his independent supply—money left him by his grandfather, her own father.”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “it doesn’t seem—does it?—like he feels any ‘taints’! He’s more than happy to take the money from it, and money is what it’s all about for him. There’s appreciation in that—I mean regarding the allowance his mother has given him so far. She could always decide to cut off that allowance; but even then, he unfortunately has, on quite a large scale, his own funds—money left to him by his grandfather, her own father.”
“Wouldn’t the fact you mention then,” Miss Gostrey asked, “make it just more easy for him to be particular? Isn’t he conceivable as fastidious about the source—the apparent and public source—of his income?”
“Don’t you think the point you just made,” Miss Gostrey asked, “would make it easier for him to be picky? Isn’t it possible that he’s particular about where his money comes from—the obvious and public source of his income?”
Strether was able quite good-humouredly to entertain the proposition. “The source of his grandfather’s wealth—and thereby of his own share in it—was not particularly noble.”
Strether was able to good-naturedly consider the idea. “The source of his grandfather’s wealth—and, by extension, his own share of it—wasn't exactly honorable.”
“And what source was it?”
"What's the source?"
Strether cast about. “Well—practices.”
Strether looked around. “Well—practices.”
“In business? Infamies? He was an old swindler?”
“In business? Scandals? He was a seasoned con artist?”
“Oh,” he said with more emphasis than spirit, “I shan’t describe him nor narrate his exploits.”
“Oh,” he said with more emphasis than enthusiasm, “I won’t describe him or recount his adventures.”
“Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome then?”
“Wow, what a mess! And what about the late Mr. Newsome then?”
“Well, what about him?”
"Well, what about him?"
“Was he like the grandfather?”
“Was he like a grandpa?”
“No—he was on the other side of the house. And he was different.”
“No—he was on the other side of the house. And he was different.”
Miss Gostrey kept it up. “Better?”
"Is it better?"
Her friend for a moment hung fire. “No.”
Her friend hesitated for a moment. “No.”
Her comment on his hesitation was scarce the less marked for being mute. “Thank you. Now don’t you see,” she went on, “why the boy doesn’t come home? He’s drowning his shame.”
Her comment on his hesitation was hardly less noticeable for being silent. “Thank you. Now don’t you see,” she continued, “why the boy doesn’t come home? He’s drowning his shame.”
“His shame? What shame?”
"His shame? What shame is that?"
“What shame? Comment donc? The shame.”
“What shame? How so? The shame.”
“But where and when,” Strether asked, “is ‘the shame’—where is any shame—to-day? The men I speak of—they did as every one does; and (besides being ancient history) it was all a matter of appreciation.”
“But where and when,” Strether asked, “is ‘the shame’—where is any shame today? The men I’m talking about—they did what everyone else does; and (besides being ancient history) it was all about perspective.”
She showed how she understood. “Mrs. Newsome has appreciated?”
She showed that she got it. “Has Mrs. Newsome appreciated?”
“Ah I can’t speak for her!”
“Ah, I can’t speak for her!”
“In the midst of such doings—and, as I understand you, profiting by them, she at least has remained exquisite?”
“In the middle of all this—and from what I gather, benefiting from it—she has at least stayed elegant?”
“Oh I can’t talk of her!” Strether said.
“Oh, I can’t talk about her!” Strether said.
“I thought she was just what you could talk of. You don’t trust me,” Miss Gostrey after a moment declared.
“I thought she was exactly what you could talk about. You don’t trust me,” Miss Gostrey said after a moment.
It had its effect. “Well, her money is spent, her life conceived and carried on with a large beneficence—”
It had its impact. “Well, her money is gone, her life imagined and lived with great generosity—”
“That’s a kind of expiation of wrongs? Gracious,” she added before he could speak, “how intensely you make me see her!”
"Is that a way to make up for past mistakes? Wow," she said before he could respond, "you really help me understand her!"
“If you see her,” Strether dropped, “it’s all that’s necessary.”
“If you see her,” Strether said, “that’s all you need.”
She really seemed to have her. “I feel that. She is, in spite of everything, handsome.”
She really seemed to have her. “I feel that. She is, despite everything, attractive.”
This at least enlivened him. “What do you mean by everything?”
This at least sparked his interest. “What do you mean by everything?”
“Well, I mean you.” With which she had one of her swift changes of ground. “You say the concern needs looking after; but doesn’t Mrs. Newsome look after it?”
"Well, I mean you.” With that, she made one of her quick changes of topic. “You say the concern needs attention; but doesn’t Mrs. Newsome take care of it?”
“So far as possible. She’s wonderfully able, but it’s not her affair, and her life’s a good deal overcharged. She has many, many things.”
“So far as possible. She’s incredibly skilled, but it’s not her responsibility, and her life is quite overloaded. She has a lot on her plate.”
“And you also?”
"And you?"
“Oh yes—I’ve many too, if you will.”
“Oh yeah—I have plenty too, if you want.”
“I see. But what I mean is,” Miss Gostrey amended, “do you also look after the business?”
“I see. But what I mean is,” Miss Gostrey corrected, “do you also handle the business?”
“Oh no, I don’t touch the business.”
“Oh no, I don’t get involved in the business.”
“Only everything else?”
“Is it just everything else?”
“Well, yes—some things.”
"Well, yes—certain things."
“As for instance—?”
“As for example—?”
Strether obligingly thought. “Well, the Review.”
Strether nodded thoughtfully. “Well, the Review.”
“The Review?—you have a Review?”
“The Review?—you have a review?”
“Certainly. Woollett has a Review—which Mrs. Newsome, for the most part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all magnificently, edit. My name’s on the cover,” Strether pursued, “and I’m really rather disappointed and hurt that you seem never to have heard of it.”
“Of course. Woollett has a magazine—which Mrs. Newsome mostly pays for in style, and I, not so much, edit. My name’s on the cover,” Strether continued, “and I’m honestly quite disappointed and hurt that you seem to have never heard of it.”
She neglected for a moment this grievance. “And what kind of a Review is it?”
She paused for a moment, setting aside her complaint. “So, what kind of Review is it?”
His serenity was now completely restored. “Well, it’s green.”
His calmness was now fully restored. “Well, it’s green.”
“Do you mean in political colour as they say here—in thought?”
“Are you talking about political views, as they say here—in ideas?”
“No; I mean the cover’s green—of the most lovely shade.”
“No; I mean the cover is green—such a beautiful shade.”
“And with Mrs. Newsome’s name on it too?”
“And Mrs. Newsome's name is on it too?”
He waited a little. “Oh as for that you must judge if she peeps out. She’s behind the whole thing; but she’s of a delicacy and a discretion—!”
He waited a moment. “Well, you’ll have to decide if she shows herself. She’s behind everything; but she has a delicacy and discretion—!”
Miss Gostrey took it all. “I’m sure. She would be. I don’t underrate her. She must be rather a swell.”
Miss Gostrey accepted everything. “I’m sure she would be. I don’t underestimate her. She must be quite impressive.”
“Oh yes, she’s rather a swell!”
“Oh yes, she’s definitely a catch!”
“A Woollett swell—bon! I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And you must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her.”
“A Woollett swell—great! I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And you must be quite a one too, to be so mixed up with her.”
“Ah no,” said Strether, “that’s not the way it works.”
“Ah no,” said Strether, “that’s not how it works.”
But she had already taken him up. “The way it works—you needn’t tell me!—is of course that you efface yourself.”
But she had already accepted him. “The way it works—you don’t have to explain!—is that you erase your own identity.”
“With my name on the cover?” he lucidly objected.
“With my name on the cover?” he clearly protested.
“Ah but you don’t put it on for yourself.”
“Ah, but you don’t do it for yourself.”
“I beg your pardon—that’s exactly what I do put it on for. It’s exactly the thing that I’m reduced to doing for myself. It seems to rescue a little, you see, from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, the refuse-heap of disappointments and failures, my one presentable little scrap of an identity.”
“I’m sorry—that’s precisely why I wear it. It’s the one thing I’ve been left with for myself. It seems to save a bit, you see, from the ruins of hopes and dreams, the pile of disappointments and failures, my one decent little piece of an identity.”
On this she looked at him as to say many things, but what she at last simply said was: “She likes to see it there. You’re the bigger swell of the two,” she immediately continued, “because you think you’re not one. She thinks she is one. However,” Miss Gostrey added, “she thinks you’re one too. You’re at all events the biggest she can get hold of.” She embroidered, she abounded. “I don’t say it to interfere between you, but on the day she gets hold of a bigger one—!” Strether had thrown back his head as in silent mirth over something that struck him in her audacity or felicity, and her flight meanwhile was already higher. “Therefore close with her—!”
At this, she looked at him as if to say a lot of things, but what she finally said was: “She likes having you around. You’re the bigger deal of the two,” she went on, “because you think you aren’t one. She thinks she is one. But,” Miss Gostrey added, “she thinks you’re one too. You’re definitely the biggest she can find.” She went on elaborating, overflowing with thoughts. “I’m not saying this to come between you, but on the day she finds someone bigger—!” Strether had tilted his head back in silent laughter over something that amused him in her boldness or cleverness, and meanwhile, her ideas were climbing even higher. “So go for it with her—!”
“Close with her?” he asked as she seemed to hang poised.
“Get close to her?” he asked as she appeared to be waiting.
“Before you lose your chance.”
“Don’t miss your chance.”
Their eyes met over it. “What do you mean by closing?”
Their eyes met over it. “What do you mean by closing?”
“And what do I mean by your chance? I’ll tell you when you tell me all the things you don’t. Is it her greatest fad?” she briskly pursued.
“And what do I mean by your chance? I’ll tell you when you tell me all the things you don’t. Is it her greatest fad?” she quickly followed up.
“The Review?” He seemed to wonder how he could best describe it. This resulted however but in a sketch. “It’s her tribute to the ideal.”
“The Review?” He seemed to be trying to figure out how to describe it best. This just led to a rough outline. “It’s her tribute to the ideal.”
“I see. You go in for tremendous things.”
"I get it. You're into big things."
“We go in for the unpopular side—that is so far as we dare.”
“We support the unpopular side—that is, as far as we’re willing to.”
“And how far do you dare?”
“And how far do you dare?”
“Well, she very far. I much less. I don’t begin to have her faith. She provides,” said Strether, “three fourths of that. And she provides, as I’ve confided to you, all the money.”
“Well, she's way ahead. I'm much behind. I can't even compare to her faith. She provides,” said Strether, “three-fourths of that. And she provides, as I told you, all the money.”
It evoked somehow a vision of gold that held for a little Miss Gostrey’s eyes, and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars shovelled in. “I hope then you make a good thing—”
It somehow brought to mind a vision of gold that captivated Miss Gostrey’s eyes, and she looked like she could hear the shiny dollars being shoveled in. “I hope you make a good profit then—”
“I never made a good thing!” he at once returned.
“I never did anything good!” he immediately replied.
She just waited. “Don’t you call it a good thing to be loved?”
She just waited. “Don’t you think it's a good thing to be loved?”
“Oh we’re not loved. We’re not even hated. We’re only just sweetly ignored.”
“Oh, we’re not loved. We’re not even hated. We’re just kind of pleasantly ignored.”
She had another pause. “You don’t trust me!” she once more repeated.
She paused again. “You don’t trust me!” she repeated once more.
“Don’t I when I lift the last veil?—tell you the very secret of the prison-house?”
“Don't I reveal the deepest secret of the prison when I lift the last veil?”
Again she met his eyes, but to the result that after an instant her own turned away with impatience. “You don’t sell? Oh I’m glad of that!” After which however, and before he could protest, she was off again. “She’s just a moral swell.”
Again she met his eyes, but after a moment, her own looked away in frustration. “You don’t sell? Oh, I’m glad to hear that!” After which, however, and before he could disagree, she was off again. “She’s just a moral snob.”
He accepted gaily enough the definition. “Yes—I really think that describes her.”
He cheerfully accepted the definition. “Yeah—I really think that sums her up.”
But it had for his friend the oddest connexion. “How does she do her hair?”
But it had the strangest connection for his friend. “How does she style her hair?”
He laughed out. “Beautifully!”
He laughed. “Beautifully!”
“Ah that doesn’t tell me. However, it doesn’t matter—I know. It’s tremendously neat—a real reproach; quite remarkably thick and without, as yet, a single strand of white. There!”
“Ah, that doesn’t tell me anything. But it doesn’t matter—I know. It’s really neat—a true testament; surprisingly thick and, so far, not a single strand of white. There!”
He blushed for her realism, but gaped at her truth. “You’re the very deuce.”
He blushed at her realism, but stared at her truth. “You’re something else.”
“What else should I be? It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. But don’t let it trouble you, for everything but the very deuce—at our age—is a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all, but half a joy.” With which, on a single sweep of her wing, she resumed. “You assist her to expiate—which is rather hard when you’ve yourself not sinned.”
“What else should I be? It was just like the devil when I jumped on you. But don’t worry about it, because everything except for the devil—at our age—is dull and an illusion, and even he himself, after all, is only half a joy.” With that, in a quick flick of her wing, she continued. “You’re helping her make up for her mistakes—which is pretty tough when you haven’t sinned yourself.”
“It’s she who hasn’t sinned,” Strether replied. “I’ve sinned the most.”
“It’s her who hasn’t sinned,” Strether replied. “I’ve sinned the most.”
“Ah,” Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, “what a picture of her! Have you robbed the widow and the orphan?”
“Ah,” Miss Gostrey cynically laughed, “what a picture of her! Did you rob the widow and the orphan?”
“I’ve sinned enough,” said Strether.
“I’ve messed up enough,” said Strether.
“Enough for whom? Enough for what?”
“Enough for who? Enough for what?”
“Well, to be where I am.”
“Well, to be where I am.”
“Thank you!” They were disturbed at this moment by the passage between their knees and the back of the seats before them of a gentleman who had been absent during a part of the performance and who now returned for the close; but the interruption left Miss Gostrey time, before the subsequent hush, to express as a sharp finality her sense of the moral of all their talk. “I knew you had something up your sleeve!” This finality, however, left them in its turn, at the end of the play, as disposed to hang back as if they had still much to say; so that they easily agreed to let every one go before them—they found an interest in waiting. They made out from the lobby that the night had turned to rain; yet Miss Gostrey let her friend know that he wasn’t to see her home. He was simply to put her, by herself, into a four-wheeler; she liked so in London, of wet nights after wild pleasures, thinking things over, on the return, in lonely four-wheelers. This was her great time, she intimated, for pulling herself together. The delays caused by the weather, the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them occasion to subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule and just beyond the reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here Strether’s comrade resumed that free handling of the subject to which his own imagination of it already owed so much. “Does your young friend in Paris like you?”
“Thank you!” They were interrupted at this moment by a man who had been away for part of the performance and was now making his way back to his seat. The interruption gave Miss Gostrey a moment, before the following silence, to firmly express her thoughts on the lesson of their conversation. “I knew you had something planned!” However, this assertion left them hesitant at the end of the play, as if they still had a lot to discuss; so they easily agreed to let everyone leave ahead of them—waiting became interesting for them. They gathered from the lobby that it had started to rain; yet Miss Gostrey informed her friend that he wasn’t going to accompany her home. He was just supposed to help her into a cab by herself; she preferred that in London, on rainy nights after exciting outings, taking the time to reflect alone on the ride back in a lonely cab. This was her best time, she hinted, for getting herself together. The delays caused by the weather and the struggle for cars at the door allowed them to settle on a couch at the back of the foyer, just out of reach of the fresh damp gusts from the street. Here, Strether’s companion resumed the casual discussion of the topic to which his imagination had already contributed so much. “Does your young friend in Paris like you?”
It had almost, after the interval, startled him. “Oh I hope not! Why should he?”
It almost startled him after the break. “Oh, I hope not! Why should he?”
“Why shouldn’t he?” Miss Gostrey asked. “That you’re coming down on him need have nothing to do with it.”
“Why shouldn’t he?” Miss Gostrey asked. “The fact that you’re putting pressure on him doesn’t matter.”
“You see more in it,” he presently returned, “than I.”
"You see more in it," he replied, "than I do."
“Of course I see you in it.”
"Of course I see you in it."
“Well then you see more in ‘me’!”
“Well, then you see more in 'me'!”
“Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That’s always one’s right. What I was thinking of,” she explained, “is the possible particular effect on him of his milieu.”
“Than you see in yourself? Very likely. That’s always one’s right. What I was thinking of,” she explained, “is the possible specific effect on him of his milieu.”
“Oh his milieu—!” Strether really felt he could imagine it better now than three hours before.
“Oh his environment—!” Strether genuinely felt he could picture it more clearly now than three hours earlier.
“Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?”
“Are you saying it could only have been that degrading?”
“Why that’s my very starting-point.”
"That's my starting point."
“Yes, but you start so far back. What do his letters say?”
“Yes, but you begin so far back. What do his letters say?”
“Nothing. He practically ignores us—or spares us. He doesn’t write.”
“Nothing. He pretty much ignores us—or takes pity on us. He doesn’t write.”
“I see. But there are all the same,” she went on, “two quite distinct things that—given the wonderful place he’s in—may have happened to him. One is that he may have got brutalised. The other is that he may have got refined.”
“I understand. But still,” she continued, “there are two completely different things that—considering the amazing situation he’s in—might have happened to him. One is that he could have become brutalized. The other is that he might have become refined.”
Strether stared—this was a novelty. “Refined?”
Strether stared—this was new. “Refined?”
“Oh,” she said quietly, “there are refinements.”
“Oh,” she said quietly, “there are upgrades.”
The way of it made him, after looking at her, break into a laugh. “You have them!”
The way of it made him laugh after looking at her. “You have them!”
“As one of the signs,” she continued in the same tone, “they constitute perhaps the worst.”
“As one of the signs,” she continued in the same tone, “they might be the worst.”
He thought it over and his gravity returned. “Is it a refinement not to answer his mother’s letters?”
He thought about it and became serious again. “Is it a sign of maturity not to respond to his mother’s letters?”
She appeared to have a scruple, but she brought it out. “Oh I should say the greatest of all.”
She seemed to have a hesitation, but she voiced it. “Oh, I should say the greatest of all.”
“Well,” said Strether, “I’m quite content to let it, as one of the signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes he can do what he likes with me.”
“Well,” said Strether, “I’m totally fine with letting it be, as one of the signs, that he truly thinks he can do whatever he wants with me.”
This appeared to strike her. “How do you know it?”
This seemed to surprise her. “How do you know that?”
“Oh I’m sure of it. I feel it in my bones.”
"Oh, I'm certain of it. I can feel it in my bones."
“Feel he can do it?”
“Think he can do it?”
“Feel that he believes he can. It may come to the same thing!” Strether laughed.
“Believe that he thinks he can. It could end up being the same thing!” Strether laughed.
She wouldn’t, however, have this. “Nothing for you will ever come to the same thing as anything else.” And she understood what she meant, it seemed, sufficiently to go straight on. “You say that if he does break he’ll come in for things at home?”
She wouldn't accept that. “Nothing for you will ever mean the same as anything else.” And she seemed to understand what she meant well enough to continue on. “So you're saying that if he does break, he’ll end up dealing with things at home?”
“Quite positively. He’ll come in for a particular chance—a chance that any properly constituted young man would jump at. The business has so developed that an opening scarcely apparent three years ago, but which his father’s will took account of as in certain conditions possible and which, under that will, attaches to Chad’s availing himself of it a large contingent advantage—this opening, the conditions having come about, now simply awaits him. His mother has kept it for him, holding out against strong pressure, till the last possible moment. It requires, naturally, as it carries with it a handsome ‘part,’ a large share in profits, his being on the spot and making a big effort for a big result. That’s what I mean by his chance. If he misses it he comes in, as you say, for nothing. And to see that he doesn’t miss it is, in a word, what I’ve come out for.”
“Absolutely. He’ll have a specific opportunity—one that any well-adjusted young man would jump at. The situation has evolved so that an opening, which wasn’t very clear three years ago but that his father’s will recognized as potentially available under certain conditions, is now right there for him since those conditions have arisen. His mother has kept it for him, resisting strong pressure, until the last possible moment. It requires, of course, since it includes a substantial 'share,' his presence and a significant effort to achieve a big outcome. That’s what I mean by his chance. If he misses it, as you said, he ends up with nothing. And making sure he doesn’t miss it is, in short, why I’ve come here.”
She let it all sink in. “What you’ve come out for then is simply to render him an immense service.”
She took a moment to process everything. “So what you’re here for is just to do him a huge favor.”
Well, poor Strether was willing to take it so. “Ah if you like.”
Well, poor Strether was okay with that. “Sure, if that's what you want.”
“He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain—”
“He stands, as they say, if you succeed with him, to gain—”
“Oh a lot of advantages.” Strether had them clearly at his fingers’ ends.
“Oh, tons of advantages.” Strether knew them all right off the bat.
“By which you mean of course a lot of money.”
“By which you mean, of course, a lot of money.”
“Well, not only. I’m acting with a sense for him of other things too. Consideration and comfort and security—the general safety of being anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see him, to be protected. Protected I mean from life.”
“Well, not just that. I'm thinking about other things for him too. Consideration, comfort, and security—the overall safety that comes from being anchored by a strong chain. He wants, as I see it, to be protected. Protected, I mean, from life.”
“Ah voilà!”—her thought fitted with a click. “From life. What you really want to get him home for is to marry him.”
“Ah, there it is!”—her thought came together perfectly. “What you really want to bring him home for is to marry him.”
“Well, that’s about the size of it.”
"Well, that's basically it."
“Of course,” she said, “it’s rudimentary. But to any one in particular?”
“Of course,” she said, “it's basic. But is it aimed at anyone in particular?”
He smiled at this, looking a little more conscious. “You get everything out.”
He smiled at this, appearing a bit more aware. “You get it all out.”
For a moment again their eyes met. “You put everything in!”
For a moment, their eyes met again. “You put everything in!”
He acknowledged the tribute by telling her. “To Mamie Pocock.”
He acknowledged the tribute by saying to her, “To Mamie Pocock.”
She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely, as if to make the oddity also fit: “His own niece?”
She thought for a moment and then, seriously and almost beautifully, as if to make the strangeness seem right: “His own niece?”
“Oh you must yourself find a name for the relation. His brother-in-law’s sister. Mrs. Jim’s sister-in-law.”
“Oh, you have to come up with a name for the relationship yourself. His brother-in-law’s sister. Mrs. Jim’s sister-in-law.”
It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey a certain hardening effect. “And who in the world’s Mrs. Jim?”
It seemed to have a bit of a toughening effect on Miss Gostrey. “So, who exactly is Mrs. Jim?”
“Chad’s sister—who was Sarah Newsome. She’s married—didn’t I mention it?—to Jim Pocock.”
“Chad’s sister—who is Sarah Newsome. She’s married—didn’t I mention that?—to Jim Pocock.”
“Ah yes,” she tacitly replied; but he had mentioned things—! Then, however, with all the sound it could have, “Who in the world’s Jim Pocock?” she asked.
“Ah yes,” she quietly replied; but he had brought up things—! Then, with all the emphasis possible, “Who in the world is Jim Pocock?” she asked.
“Why Sally’s husband. That’s the only way we distinguish people at Woollett,” he good-humoredly explained.
“Why, that’s Sally’s husband. That’s how we identify people around here in Woollett,” he said with a smile.
“And is it a great distinction—being Sally’s husband?”
“And is it a big deal—being Sally’s husband?”
He considered. “I think there can be scarcely a greater—unless it may become one, in the future, to be Chad’s wife.”
He thought about it. “I don’t think there can be anything greater—unless it might be becoming Chad’s wife in the future.”
“Then how do they distinguish you?”
“Then how do they recognize you?”
“They don’t—except, as I’ve told you, by the green cover.”
“They don’t—except, as I’ve mentioned before, by the green cover.”
Once more their eyes met on it, and she held him an instant. “The green cover won’t—nor will any cover—avail you with me. You’re of a depth of duplicity!” Still, she could in her own large grasp of the real condone it. “Is Mamie a great parti?”
Once again their eyes locked on it, and she held his gaze for a moment. “The green cover won’t—nor will any cover—do you any good with me. You have a depth of deceit!” Still, she could, in her own broad understanding of reality, forgive it. “Is Mamie a big catch?”
“Oh the greatest we have—our prettiest brightest girl.”
“Oh, the best we have—our prettiest, brightest girl.”
Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor child. “I know what they can be. And with money?”
Miss Gostrey seemed to focus on the poor child. “I know what they can be. And with money?”
“Not perhaps with a great deal of that—but with so much of everything else that we don’t miss it. We don’t miss money much, you know,” Strether added, “in general, in America, in pretty girls.”
“Not maybe with a lot of that—but with plenty of everything else that we don’t notice it. We don’t miss money much, you know,” Strether added, “generally, in America, in pretty girls.”
“No,” she conceded; “but I know also what you do sometimes miss. And do you,” she asked, “yourself admire her?”
“No,” she admitted; “but I also know what you sometimes overlook. And do you,” she asked, “actually admire her?”
It was a question, he indicated, that there might be several ways of taking; but he decided after an instant for the humorous. “Haven’t I sufficiently showed you how I admire any pretty girl?”
It was a question, he suggested, that could be interpreted in several ways; but he quickly chose the humorous approach. “Haven’t I already made it clear how much I admire any pretty girl?”
Her interest in his problem was by this time such that it scarce left her freedom, and she kept close to the facts. “I supposed that at Woollett you wanted them—what shall I call it?—blameless. I mean your young men for your pretty girls.”
Her interest in his problem was so strong by this point that it hardly allowed her any freedom, and she focused on the facts. “I thought that at Woollett you wanted them—what should I call it?—without faults. I mean your young men for your pretty girls.”
“So did I!” Strether confessed. “But you strike there a curious fact—the fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit of the age and the increasing mildness of manners. Everything changes, and I hold that our situation precisely marks a date. We should prefer them blameless, but we have to make the best of them as we find them. Since the spirit of the age and the increasing mildness send them so much more to Paris—”
“Me too!” Strether admitted. “But you point out an interesting fact—the fact that Woollett also adapts to the spirit of the times and the growing gentleness of social behavior. Everything changes, and I believe our situation really signifies a moment in time. We would prefer them to be flawless, but we have to make do with them as they are. Since the spirit of the times and the increasing compassion lead them to Paris so much more—”
“You’ve to take them back as they come. When they do come. Bon!” Once more she embraced it all, but she had a moment of thought. “Poor Chad!”
“You have to take them back as they come. When they do come. Great!” Once again she embraced it all, but she had a fleeting thought. “Poor Chad!”
“Ah,” said Strether cheerfully “Mamie will save him!”
“Ah,” said Strether cheerfully, “Mamie will save him!”
She was looking away, still in her vision, and she spoke with impatience and almost as if he hadn’t understood her. “You’ll save him. That’s who’ll save him.”
She was looking away, still in sight, and spoke with frustration, as if he hadn’t grasped what she meant. “You’ll save him. That’s who will save him.”
“Oh but with Mamie’s aid. Unless indeed you mean,” he added, “that I shall effect so much more with yours!”
“Oh, but with Mamie's help. Unless you mean,” he added, “that I’ll achieve even more with yours!”
It made her at last again look at him. “You’ll do more—as you’re so much better—than all of us put together.”
It finally made her look at him again. “You’ll do more—since you’re so much better—than all of us combined.”
“I think I’m only better since I’ve known you!” Strether bravely returned.
"I think I've only gotten better since I met you!" Strether said confidently.
The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd and now comparatively quiet withdrawal of its last elements had already brought them nearer the door and put them in relation with a messenger of whom he bespoke Miss Gostrey’s cab. But this left them a few minutes more, which she was clearly in no mood not to use. “You’ve spoken to me of what—by your success—Mr. Chad stands to gain. But you’ve not spoken to me of what you do.”
The depletion of the place, the shrinkage of the crowd, and now the relatively quiet departure of its last elements had already brought them closer to the door and made them interact with a messenger he had arranged for Miss Gostrey’s cab. But this gave them a few more minutes, which she was clearly not willing to waste. “You’ve told me about what—thanks to your success—Mr. Chad stands to gain. But you haven’t mentioned what you do.”
“Oh I’ve nothing more to gain,” said Strether very simply.
“Oh, I have nothing more to gain,” Strether said straightforwardly.
She took it as even quite too simple. “You mean you’ve got it all ‘down’? You’ve been paid in advance?”
She thought it was way too straightforward. “You mean you have everything figured out? You've been paid upfront?”
“Ah don’t talk about payment!” he groaned.
“Ah, don’t mention payment!” he groaned.
Something in the tone of it pulled her up, but as their messenger still delayed she had another chance and she put it in another way. “What—by failure—do you stand to lose?”
Something in the tone of it caught her attention, but as their messenger continued to delay, she had another opportunity and phrased it differently. “What—by failing—do you stand to lose?”
He still, however, wouldn’t have it. “Nothing!” he exclaimed, and on the messenger’s at this instant reappearing he was able to sink the subject in their responsive advance. When, a few steps up the street, under a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she had asked him if the man had called for him no second conveyance, he replied before the door was closed. “You won’t take me with you?”
He still wouldn’t accept it. “Nothing!” he shouted, and when the messenger reappeared at that moment, he managed to change the topic as they moved forward. A few steps up the street, under a lamp, he helped her into her cab, and as she asked if the man had called for him a second ride, he answered before the door closed. “You’re not taking me with you?”
“Not for the world.”
“Not for anything.”
“Then I shall walk.”
“Then I will walk.”
“In the rain?”
"In the rain?"
“I like the rain,” said Strether. “Good-night!”
“I like the rain,” said Strether. “Goodnight!”
She kept him a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not answering; after which she answered by repeating her question. “What do you stand to lose?”
She held him up for a moment, while his hand was on the door, by not responding; then she replied by repeating her question. “What do you have to lose?”
Why the question now affected him as other he couldn’t have said; he could only this time meet it otherwise. “Everything.”
Why the question affected him now, he couldn’t explain; he could only respond differently this time. “Everything.”
“So I thought. Then you shall succeed. And to that end I’m yours—”
“So I thought. Then you will succeed. And for that reason, I’m yours—”
“Ah, dear lady!” he kindly breathed.
“Ah, dear lady!” he kindly said.
“Till death!” said Maria Gostrey. “Good-night.”
“Till death!” Maria Gostrey said. “Goodnight.”
II
Strether called, his second morning in Paris, on the bankers of the Rue Scribe to whom his letter of credit was addressed, and he made this visit attended by Waymarsh, in whose company he had crossed from London two days before. They had hastened to the Rue Scribe on the morrow of their arrival, but Strether had not then found the letters the hope of which prompted this errand. He had had as yet none at all; hadn’t expected them in London, but had counted on several in Paris, and, disconcerted now, had presently strolled back to the Boulevard with a sense of injury that he felt himself taking for as good a start as any other. It would serve, this spur to his spirit, he reflected, as, pausing at the top of the street, he looked up and down the great foreign avenue, it would serve to begin business with. His idea was to begin business immediately, and it did much for him the rest of his day that the beginning of business awaited him. He did little else till night but ask himself what he should do if he hadn’t fortunately had so much to do; but he put himself the question in many different situations and connexions. What carried him hither and yon was an admirable theory that nothing he could do wouldn’t be in some manner related to what he fundamentally had on hand, or would be—should he happen to have a scruple—wasted for it. He did happen to have a scruple—a scruple about taking no definite step till he should get letters; but this reasoning carried it off. A single day to feel his feet—he had felt them as yet only at Chester and in London—was he could consider, none too much; and having, as he had often privately expressed it, Paris to reckon with, he threw these hours of freshness consciously into the reckoning. They made it continually greater, but that was what it had best be if it was to be anything at all, and he gave himself up till far into the evening, at the theatre and on the return, after the theatre, along the bright congested Boulevard, to feeling it grow. Waymarsh had accompanied him this time to the play, and the two men had walked together, as a first stage, from the Gymnase to the Café Riche, into the crowded “terrace” of which establishment—the night, or rather the morning, for midnight had struck, being bland and populous—they had wedged themselves for refreshment. Waymarsh, as a result of some discussion with his friend, had made a marked virtue of his having now let himself go; and there had been elements of impression in their half-hour over their watered beer-glasses that gave him his occasion for conveying that he held this compromise with his stiffer self to have become extreme. He conveyed it—for it was still, after all, his stiffer self who gloomed out of the glare of the terrace—in solemn silence; and there was indeed a great deal of critical silence, every way, between the companions, even till they gained the Place de l’Opéra, as to the character of their nocturnal progress.
Strether visited the bankers on Rue Scribe the second morning of his stay in Paris, accompanied by Waymarsh, who had traveled from London with him two days earlier. They had rushed to Rue Scribe immediately after arriving, but Strether hadn’t found the letters he was hoping for at that time. He had received no letters at all; he hadn’t expected them in London but had counted on several in Paris. Feeling a bit let down, he wandered back to the Boulevard, taking his disappointment as a solid starting point. He thought this boost to his motivation would be good to kick things off. He wanted to start some business right away, and knowing that this was ahead of him made the rest of his day better. Until night, he kept wondering what he would do if he hadn't luckily had so much to do; he asked himself this question in many different situations. What drove him around was the belief that whatever he did had to connect to what he fundamentally needed to focus on, or would, if he had a moral hesitation, be a waste. He did have a hesitation—a worry about taking any concrete steps until he got his letters—but his reasoning helped him get past it. A single day to get his bearings—he had only felt them so far in Chester and London—was nothing too excessive to consider, and since he had, as he often put it, Paris to deal with, he consciously included those fresh hours in his plans. They made everything feel larger, but that was necessary if it was to mean anything at all, so he allowed himself to embrace this feeling late into the evening, at the theatre and on the way back, along the busy, bright Boulevard. Waymarsh had joined him for the theatre, and the two men had walked together, as a first step, from the Gymnase to the Café Riche, where they squeezed themselves into the bustling outdoor area of the establishment for a drink, as the night—or rather, early morning since midnight had passed—was warm and lively. Due to a conversation with his friend, Waymarsh had emphasized how much he had relaxed, and there were elements of significance in their half-hour over their diluted beer glasses that allowed him to express that he felt this compromise with his more rigid self had become quite significant. He expressed it—for after all, it was still his stiffer self that frowned out from the brightness of the terrace—in a serious silence, and indeed, there was a considerable amount of thoughtful silence between them as they made their way to the Place de l’Opéra, reflecting on the nature of their night out.
This morning there were letters—letters which had reached London, apparently all together, the day of Strether’s journey, and had taken their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled impulse to go into them in the reception-room of the bank, which, reminding him of the post-office at Woollett, affected him as the abutment of some transatlantic bridge, he slipped them into the pocket of his loose grey overcoat with a sense of the felicity of carrying them off. Waymarsh, who had had letters yesterday, had had them again to-day, and Waymarsh suggested in this particular no controlled impulses. The last one he was at all events likely to be observed to struggle with was clearly that of bringing to a premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe. Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to see the papers, and he had spent, by what his friend could make out, a succession of hours with the papers. He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a post of superior observation; just as he spoke generally of his actual damnable doom as a device for hiding from him what was going on. Europe was best described, to his mind, as an elaborate engine for dissociating the confined American from that indispensable knowledge, and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these occasional stations of relief, traps for the arrest of wandering western airs. Strether, on his side, set himself to walk again—he had his relief in his pocket; and indeed, much as he had desired his budget, the growth of restlessness might have been marked in him from the moment he had assured himself of the superscription of most of the missives it contained. This restlessness became therefore his temporary law; he knew he should recognise as soon as see it the best place of all for settling down with his chief correspondent. He had for the next hour an accidental air of looking for it in the windows of shops; he came down the Rue de la Paix in the sun and, passing across the Tuileries and the river, indulged more than once—as if on finding himself determined—in a sudden pause before the book-stalls of the opposite quay. In the garden of the Tuileries he had lingered, on two or three spots, to look; it was as if the wonderful Paris spring had stayed him as he roamed. The prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes—in a soft breeze and a sprinkled smell, in the light flit, over the garden-floor, of bareheaded girls with the buckled strap of oblong boxes, in the type of ancient thrifty persons basking betimes where terrace-walls were warm, in the blue-frocked brass-labelled officialism of humble rakers and scrapers, in the deep references of a straight-pacing priest or the sharp ones of a white-gaitered red-legged soldier. He watched little brisk figures, figures whose movement was as the tick of the great Paris clock, take their smooth diagonal from point to point; the air had a taste as of something mixed with art, something that presented nature as a white-capped master-chef. The palace was gone, Strether remembered the palace; and when he gazed into the irremediable void of its site the historic sense in him might have been freely at play—the play under which in Paris indeed it so often winces like a touched nerve. He filled out spaces with dim symbols of scenes; he caught the gleam of white statues at the base of which, with his letters out, he could tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But his drift was, for reasons, to the other side, and it floated him unspent up the Rue de Seine and as far as the Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg Gardens he pulled up; here at last he found his nook, and here, on a penny chair from which terraces, alleys, vistas, fountains, little trees in green tubs, little women in white caps and shrill little girls at play all sunnily “composed” together, he passed an hour in which the cup of his impressions seemed truly to overflow. But a week had elapsed since he quitted the ship, and there were more things in his mind than so few days could account for. More than once, during the time, he had regarded himself as admonished; but the admonition this morning was formidably sharp. It took as it hadn’t done yet the form of a question—the question of what he was doing with such an extraordinary sense of escape. This sense was sharpest after he had read his letters, but that was also precisely why the question pressed. Four of the letters were from Mrs. Newsome and none of them short; she had lost no time, had followed on his heels while he moved, so expressing herself that he now could measure the probable frequency with which he should hear. They would arrive, it would seem, her communications, at the rate of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even prove, on more than one by each mail. If he had begun yesterday with a small grievance he had therefore an opportunity to begin to-day with its opposite. He read the letters successively and slowly, putting others back into his pocket but keeping these for a long time afterwards gathered in his lap. He held them there, lost in thought, as if to prolong the presence of what they gave him; or as if at the least to assure them their part in the constitution of some lucidity. His friend wrote admirably, and her tone was even more in her style than in her voice—he might almost, for the hour, have had to come this distance to get its full carrying quality; yet the plentitude of his consciousness of difference consorted perfectly with the deepened intensity of the connexion. It was the difference, the difference of being just where he was and as he was, that formed the escape—this difference was so much greater than he had dreamed it would be; and what he finally sat there turning over was the strange logic of his finding himself so free. He felt it in a manner his duty to think out his state, to approve the process, and when he came in fact to trace the steps and add up the items they sufficiently accounted for the sum. He had never expected—that was the truth of it—again to find himself young, and all the years and other things it had taken to make him so were exactly his present arithmetic. He had to make sure of them to put his scruple to rest.
This morning, there were letters—letters that had arrived in London, apparently all at once, on the day of Strether’s journey, and had taken their time to follow him; so that, after a sudden urge to go through them in the reception room of the bank, which reminded him of the post office back home in Woollett and felt like the base of some transatlantic bridge, he slipped them into the pocket of his loose grey overcoat with a sense of satisfaction in carrying them away. Waymarsh, who had received letters yesterday, had gotten more today, and Waymarsh showed no restraint about this. The last thing he was likely to resist was cutting short any visit to Rue Scribe. Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to check the papers, and as far as his friend could tell, he spent hours with them. He talked about the establishment, emphasizing it as a place of superior observation; just as he generally described his actual terrible fate as a means of hiding what was happening. To him, Europe was best described as a complex system for keeping the confined American from that essential understanding, and it was only made bearable by these occasional places of refuge, traps for stopping wandering Western breezes. Strether, on his part, set out to walk again—he had his relief in his pocket; and indeed, as much as he wanted his budget, his growing restlessness could be noticed from the moment he recognized most of the addresses on the letters inside. This restlessness became his temporary rule; he knew he would immediately recognize the best place to settle down with his main correspondent as soon as he saw it. For the next hour, he had an accidental air of searching for it in shop windows; he strolled down Rue de la Paix in the sun, and crossing the Tuileries and the river, allowed himself to pause more than once—almost as if feeling determined—before the book stalls on the opposite bank. In the Tuileries garden, he lingered in two or three spots to look around; it was as if the beautiful Paris spring had captivated him as he walked. The lively Paris morning struck cheerful notes—in a soft breeze and a scattered scent, in the light movement over the garden floor of bareheaded girls with strapped rectangular boxes, in the sight of thrifty old folks lounging in warm spots where the terrace walls absorbed the sun, in the blue-clothed officialdom of humble street cleaners, in the serious demeanor of a straight-walking priest or the sharp looks from a red-legged soldier in white gaiters. He watched little lively figures, whose movements resembled the ticking of the big Paris clock, take smooth diagonals from one point to another; the air had a taste mixed with art, something that presented nature as a master chef wearing a white hat. The palace was gone; Strether remembered it. And when he looked into the empty space where it used to stand, the historical sense in him could have been freely explored—the kind of exploration that in Paris often feels like a sensitive nerve. He filled in the gaps with vague symbols of scenes; he caught a glimpse of white statues at the base of which, with his letters out, he could lean back in a straw-bottomed chair. But he intended, for reasons, to head to the other side, and it swept him effortlessly up Rue de Seine as far as Luxembourg. At Luxembourg Gardens, he stopped; here at last he found his spot, and sitting on a cheap chair from which terraces, paths, vistas, fountains, little trees in green pots, women in white caps, and lively little girls at play all came together in sunny “composition,” he spent an hour during which his impressions seemed to genuinely overflow. But a week had passed since he left the ship, and there were more things on his mind than a few days could account for. More than once during that time, he had felt like he was being warned; but the warning this morning was strikingly sharp. It took, as it hadn’t before, the form of a question—the question of what he was doing with such an incredible feeling of freedom. This feeling was most intense after he read his letters, but that was exactly why the question weighed on him. Four of the letters were from Mrs. Newsome, and none of them were short; she wasted no time and followed closely behind him, making it clear that he could expect to hear from her frequently. It seemed her communications would arrive at the rate of several a week; he should be able to count, it might even turn out, on more than one with each mail. If he started yesterday with a slight grievance, he now had the chance to begin today with the opposite. He read the letters one by one, slowly, putting others back in his pocket but keeping these for a long time gathered in his lap. He held them there, lost in thought, as if to extend the presence of what they brought him; or at least to ensure their role in forming some clarity. His friend wrote beautifully, and her tone was more apparent in her writing than in her voice—he might almost, for the hour, have come this distance just to appreciate its full clarity; yet the abundance of his awareness of difference blended perfectly with the deeper intensity of the connection. It was the difference, the difference of being exactly where he was and as he was, that created the feeling of escape—this difference was so much greater than he had expected; and what he finally sat there contemplating was the odd logic of his feeling so free. He felt it was his duty to think through his situation, to endorse the process, and when he eventually traced the steps and added up the pieces, they sufficiently accounted for the whole. He had never anticipated—that was the truth—finding himself young again, and all the years and experiences it had taken to make him so were precisely his current calculation. He needed to ensure he understood them to quiet his concerns.
It all sprang at bottom from the beauty of Mrs. Newsome’s desire that he should be worried with nothing that was not of the essence of his task; by insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and break she had so provided for his freedom that she would, as it were, have only herself to thank. Strether could not at this point indeed have completed his thought by the image of what she might have to thank herself for: the image, at best, of his own likeness—poor Lambert Strether washed up on the sunny strand by the waves of a single day, poor Lambert Strether thankful for breathing-time and stiffening himself while he gasped. There he was, and with nothing in his aspect or his posture to scandalise: it was only true that if he had seen Mrs. Newsome coming he would instinctively have jumped up to walk away a little. He would have come round and back to her bravely, but he would have had first to pull himself together. She abounded in news of the situation at home, proved to him how perfectly she was arranging for his absence, told him who would take up this and who take up that exactly where he had left it, gave him in fact chapter and verse for the moral that nothing would suffer. It filled for him, this tone of hers, all the air; yet it struck him at the same time as the hum of vain things. This latter effect was what he tried to justify—and with the success that, grave though the appearance, he at last lighted on a form that was happy. He arrived at it by the inevitable recognition of his having been a fortnight before one of the weariest of men. If ever a man had come off tired Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn’t it been distinctly on the ground of his fatigue that his wonderful friend at home had so felt for him and so contrived? It seemed to him somehow at these instants that, could he only maintain with sufficient firmness his grasp of that truth, it might become in a manner his compass and his helm. What he wanted most was some idea that would simplify, and nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was done for and finished. If it had been in such a light that he had just detected in his cup the dregs of youth, that was a mere flaw of the surface of his scheme. He was so distinctly fagged-out that it must serve precisely as his convenience, and if he could but consistently be good for little enough he might do everything he wanted.
It all started from Mrs. Newsome's desire to alleviate any worries that weren't essential to his task; by insisting that he take a complete break, she had set it up so that he would owe his freedom to her, in a way. At that moment, Strether couldn't fully picture what she might have to feel grateful for: the image, at best, was of his own reflection—poor Lambert Strether washed up on the sunny shore by the waves of a single day, poor Lambert Strether thankful for a moment to breathe, trying to steady himself while gasping. There he was, showing nothing in his expression or his posture to cause any scandal; it was simply true that if he had seen Mrs. Newsome approaching, he would have instinctively stood up and walked a little away. He would eventually return to her bravely, but he needed to gather himself first. She had plenty of news about what was happening at home, showed him how perfectly she was organizing things during his absence, told him who would take over this and that right where he had left it, basically providing him the details to reassure him that nothing would go wrong. Her tone filled the air for him; yet at the same time, it felt like the buzz of meaningless things. This last feeling was something he tried to rationalize—and despite its serious nature, he eventually found a conclusion that felt satisfying. He reached it through the unavoidable realization that just a fortnight ago, he had been one of the most exhausted men. If anyone had felt worn out, it was Lambert Strether; and wasn't it precisely because of his fatigue that his wonderful friend at home had shown such concern and made such arrangements? In those moments, it seemed to him that if he could just firmly hold onto that truth, it could serve as his guide. What he wanted most was a perspective that would simplify things, and nothing would do that more than the fact that he was done for and finished. If he had just discovered the remnants of youth at the bottom of his cup, that was merely a superficial flaw in his plan. He felt so utterly drained that it would work to his advantage, and if he could just be consistently unproductive enough, he might be able to achieve everything he wished for.
Everything he wanted was comprised moreover in a single boon—the common unattainable art of taking things as they came. He appeared to himself to have given his best years to an active appreciation of the way they didn’t come; but perhaps—as they would seemingly here be things quite other—this long ache might at last drop to rest. He could easily see that from the moment he should accept the notion of his foredoomed collapse the last thing he would lack would be reasons and memories. Oh if he should do the sum no slate would hold the figures! The fact that he had failed, as he considered, in everything, in each relation and in half a dozen trades, as he liked luxuriously to put it, might have made, might still make, for an empty present; but it stood solidly for a crowded past. It had not been, so much achievement missed, a light yoke nor a short load. It was at present as if the backward picture had hung there, the long crooked course, grey in the shadow of his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful sociable solitude, a solitude of life or choice, of community; but though there had been people enough all round it there had been but three or four persons in it. Waymarsh was one of these, and the fact struck him just now as marking the record. Mrs. Newsome was another, and Miss Gostrey had of a sudden shown signs of becoming a third. Beyond, behind them was the pale figure of his real youth, which held against its breast the two presences paler than itself—the young wife he had early lost and the young son he had stupidly sacrificed. He had again and again made out for himself that he might have kept his little boy, his little dull boy who had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if he had not in those years so insanely given himself to merely missing the mother. It was the soreness of his remorse that the child had in all likelihood not really been dull—had been dull, as he had been banished and neglected, mainly because the father had been unwittingly selfish. This was doubtless but the secret habit of sorrow, which had slowly given way to time; yet there remained an ache sharp enough to make the spirit, at the sight now and again of some fair young man just growing up, wince with the thought of an opportunity lost. Had ever a man, he had finally fallen into the way of asking himself, lost so much and even done so much for so little? There had been particular reasons why all yesterday, beyond other days, he should have had in one ear this cold enquiry. His name on the green cover, where he had put it for Mrs. Newsome, expressed him doubtless just enough to make the world—the world as distinguished, both for more and for less, from Woollett—ask who he was. He had incurred the ridicule of having to have his explanation explained. He was Lambert Strether because he was on the cover, whereas it should have been, for anything like glory, that he was on the cover because he was Lambert Strether. He would have done anything for Mrs. Newsome, have been still more ridiculous—as he might, for that matter, have occasion to be yet; which came to saying that this acceptance of fate was all he had to show at fifty-five.
Everything he wanted came down to one thing—the elusive skill of just taking life as it comes. He felt like he had spent his best years actively noticing how things didn’t work out; but maybe, as it seemed, this ongoing pain might finally ease. He realized that once he accepted the idea of his inevitable decline, he wouldn’t run out of reasons and memories. If he were to tally it all up, no surface would be able to hold the numbers! The fact that he considered himself a failure in everything—in every relationship and in several careers, as he liked to indulge himself in saying—might have contributed to a hollow present; but it represented a rich past. It wasn’t just about missed achievements; it was neither light nor short. Right now, it felt like the past had been on display, the long twisted path cast in the shadow of his loneliness. It had been an oddly cheerful and social solitude, a solitude by choice or by circumstance; yet despite the many people around, only three or four really mattered. Waymarsh was one of them, and underlining this fact felt significant. Mrs. Newsome was another, and Miss Gostrey had suddenly shown signs of becoming a third. Beyond them was the faint figure of his true youth, which held against its chest the two even fainter presences—the young wife he lost too soon and the young son he carelessly sacrificed. Time and again, he convinced himself that he could have kept his little boy, his simple little boy who died at school from rapid diphtheria, if he hadn’t so foolishly focused solely on missing the mother. The sting of his regret came from the likelihood that the child hadn’t actually been dull—he had been dull mainly because the father had unintentionally been selfish. This was likely just the habitual nature of sorrow that had slowly given way to time; yet there remained a pain sharp enough to make him flinch when he occasionally saw some bright young man just coming of age, reminding him of an opportunity lost. Had any man ever lost so much while doing so little? There had been specific reasons why yesterday, more than any other day, this cold question lingered in his mind. His name on the green cover—where he had placed it for Mrs. Newsome—likely conveyed just enough about him for the world—the world distinct from Woollett—to wonder who he was. He had earned the ridicule of needing an explanation of his explanation. He was Lambert Strether because his name was on the cover, when it should have been that he was on the cover because he was Lambert Strether, worthy of some glory. He would have done anything for Mrs. Newsome, could have been even more ridiculous—something he might still have to be; which meant that this acceptance of fate was all he had to show at fifty-five.
He judged the quantity as small because it was small, and all the more egregiously since it couldn’t, as he saw the case, so much as thinkably have been larger. He hadn’t had the gift of making the most of what he tried, and if he had tried and tried again—no one but himself knew how often—it appeared to have been that he might demonstrate what else, in default of that, could be made. Old ghosts of experiments came back to him, old drudgeries and delusions, and disgusts, old recoveries with their relapses, old fevers with their chills, broken moments of good faith, others of still better doubt; adventures, for the most part, of the sort qualified as lessons. The special spring that had constantly played for him the day before was the recognition—frequent enough to surprise him—of the promises to himself that he had after his other visit never kept. The reminiscence to-day most quickened for him was that of the vow taken in the course of the pilgrimage that, newly-married, with the War just over, and helplessly young in spite of it, he had recklessly made with the creature who was so much younger still. It had been a bold dash, for which they had taken money set apart for necessities, but kept sacred at the moment in a hundred ways, and in none more so than by this private pledge of his own to treat the occasion as a relation formed with the higher culture and see that, as they said at Woollett, it should bear a good harvest. He had believed, sailing home again, that he had gained something great, and his theory—with an elaborate innocent plan of reading, digesting, coming back even, every few years—had then been to preserve, cherish and extend it. As such plans as these had come to nothing, however, in respect to acquisitions still more precious, it was doubtless little enough of a marvel that he should have lost account of that handful of seed. Buried for long years in dark corners at any rate these few germs had sprouted again under forty-eight hours of Paris. The process of yesterday had really been the process of feeling the general stirred life of connexions long since individually dropped. Strether had become acquainted even on this ground with short gusts of speculation—sudden flights of fancy in Louvre galleries, hungry gazes through clear plates behind which lemon-coloured volumes were as fresh as fruit on the tree.
He saw the quantity as small because it was small, and even more so since, in his view, it couldn’t have been larger. He didn’t have the knack for making the most of what he attempted, and even if he had tried repeatedly—something only he knew how often—it seemed he could only show what else, in the absence of that, could be achieved. Old memories of experiments returned to him, old hard work and illusions, and feelings of disgust, old recoveries with their setbacks, old fevers with their chills, moments of trust broken, others of still greater doubt; most of these were adventures that could be labeled as lessons. The special drive he had felt just the day before was the realization—common enough to surprise him—of the promises he had never kept after his other visit. The memory that resonated the most today was of the vow he made during the pilgrimage, newly married, with the War just over, and naively young despite it, a reckless promise made with someone who was even younger. It had been a bold move, for which they had used money set aside for necessities, but which at that moment felt sacred in many ways, especially by this private commitment of his to treat the occasion as a relationship formed with higher culture and ensure, as they said in Woollett, that it would yield a good harvest. He had believed, sailing home, that he had gained something significant, and his theory—with a detailed innocent plan of reading, digesting, and coming back every few years—was to preserve, cherish, and extend it. However, since such plans had led to nothing regarding even more precious gains, it was hardly surprising that he had lost track of that handful of seed. Buried for many years in dark corners, these few seeds had sprouted again after just forty-eight hours in Paris. Yesterday’s experience had really been about feeling the zestful life of connections long since lost. Strether had even encountered brief moments of speculation—sudden flights of fancy in the Louvre galleries, eager looks through clear plates behind which lemon-colored volumes were as fresh as fruit on the tree.
There were instants at which he could ask whether, since there had been fundamentally so little question of his keeping anything, the fate after all decreed for him hadn’t been only to be kept. Kept for something, in that event, that he didn’t pretend, didn’t possibly dare as yet to divine; something that made him hover and wonder and laugh and sigh, made him advance and retreat, feeling half ashamed of his impulse to plunge and more than half afraid of his impulse to wait. He remembered for instance how he had gone back in the sixties with lemon-coloured volumes in general on the brain as well as with a dozen—selected for his wife too—in his trunk; and nothing had at the moment shown more confidence than this invocation of the finer taste. They were still somewhere at home, the dozen—stale and soiled and never sent to the binder; but what had become of the sharp initiation they represented? They represented now the mere sallow paint on the door of the temple of taste that he had dreamed of raising up—a structure he had practically never carried further. Strether’s present highest flights were perhaps those in which this particular lapse figured to him as a symbol, a symbol of his long grind and his want of odd moments, his want moreover of money, of opportunity, of positive dignity. That the memory of the vow of his youth should, in order to throb again, have had to wait for this last, as he felt it, of all his accidents—that was surely proof enough of how his conscience had been encumbered. If any further proof were needed it would have been to be found in the fact that, as he perfectly now saw, he had ceased even to measure his meagreness, a meagreness that sprawled, in this retrospect, vague and comprehensive, stretching back like some unmapped Hinterland from a rough coast-settlement. His conscience had been amusing itself for the forty-eight hours by forbidding him the purchase of a book; he held off from that, held off from everything; from the moment he didn’t yet call on Chad he wouldn’t for the world have taken any other step. On this evidence, however, of the way they actually affected him he glared at the lemon-coloured covers in confession of the subconsciousness that, all the same, in the great desert of the years, he must have had of them. The green covers at home comprised, by the law of their purpose, no tribute to letters; it was of a mere rich kernel of economics, politics, ethics that, glazed and, as Mrs. Newsome maintained rather against his view, pre-eminently pleasant to touch, they formed the specious shell. Without therefore any needed instinctive knowledge of what was coming out, in Paris, on the bright highway, he struck himself at present as having more than once flushed with a suspicion: he couldn’t otherwise at present be feeling so many fears confirmed. There were “movements” he was too late for: weren’t they, with the fun of them, already spent? There were sequences he had missed and great gaps in the procession: he might have been watching it all recede in a golden cloud of dust. If the playhouse wasn’t closed his seat had at least fallen to somebody else. He had had an uneasy feeling the night before that if he was at the theatre at all—though he indeed justified the theatre, in the specific sense, and with a grotesqueness to which his imagination did all honour, as something he owed poor Waymarsh—he should have been there with, and as might have been said, for Chad.
There were moments when he could question if, since he really didn’t have much to keep, the fate that had been decided for him was just to be kept. Kept for something, perhaps, that he didn’t pretend to understand, that he didn’t quite dare to guess; something that made him ponder and laugh and sigh, made him move forward and pull back, feeling partly ashamed of his urge to dive in and more than partly afraid of his urge to hold back. He recalled how he had returned in the sixties with yellowish books filling his mind, along with a dozen more—for his wife too—packed in his trunk; at that time, nothing seemed more confident than this display of refined taste. Those dozen books were still somewhere at home, stale and dirty and never sent to be bound; but what had happened to the sharp initiation they symbolized? Now, they represented just the faded paint on the door of the temple of taste he had dreamed of building—a structure he had barely developed further. Strether’s highest aspirations now were perhaps those in which this particular failure appeared to him as a symbol, a symbol of his long struggle and his lack of unexpected moments, his lack of money, opportunity, and true dignity. The fact that the memory of his youthful vow had to wait for this last, as he saw it, of all his circumstances—that was surely proof of how burdened his conscience had been. If any further proof was needed, it was evident in the way he now realized he had stopped even measuring his scarcity, a scarcity that sprawled, in this reflection, vague and all-encompassing, reaching back like some uncharted wilderness from a rough coastal settlement. His conscience had been amusing itself for the past forty-eight hours by preventing him from buying a book; he held off from that, held off from everything; from the moment he hadn’t yet called on Chad, he wouldn’t take any other step for the world. Based on this evidence of how they truly affected him, he glared at the yellow covers, confessing the subconsciousness that, after all, in the vast desert of the years, he must have had about them. The green covers at home, by the very nature of their purpose, held no homage to literature; they were merely a rich core of economics, politics, and ethics, which, as Mrs. Newsome insisted against his view, were particularly pleasant to touch—they formed a deceptive shell. Without needing any instinctual knowledge of what was emerging in Paris along the bright highway, he struck himself as having blushed several times with a suspicion: he couldn’t otherwise currently feel so many fears confirmed. There were “movements” he had missed: weren’t they, along with the enjoyment of them, already over? There were sequences he had skipped and large gaps in the parade: he might have watched it all fade away in a golden cloud of dust. If the theater wasn’t closed, his seat had at least gone to someone else. He had felt uneasy the night before, sensing that if he was at the theater at all—though he truly justified the theater, in a specific sense, and with a peculiarity to which his imagination paid great respect, as something he owed poor Waymarsh—he should have been there with, as could be said, for Chad.
This suggested the question of whether he could properly have taken him to such a play, and what effect—it was a point that suddenly rose—his peculiar responsibility might be held in general to have on his choice of entertainment. It had literally been present to him at the Gymnase—where one was held moreover comparatively safe—that having his young friend at his side would have been an odd feature of the work of redemption; and this quite in spite of the fact that the picture presented might well, confronted with Chad’s own private stage, have seemed the pattern of propriety. He clearly hadn’t come out in the name of propriety but to visit unattended equivocal performances; yet still less had he done so to undermine his authority by sharing them with the graceless youth. Was he to renounce all amusement for the sweet sake of that authority? and would such renouncement give him for Chad a moral glamour? The little problem bristled the more by reason of poor Strether’s fairly open sense of the irony of things. Were there then sides on which his predicament threatened to look rather droll to him? Should he have to pretend to believe—either to himself or the wretched boy—that there was anything that could make the latter worse? Wasn’t some such pretence on the other hand involved in the assumption of possible processes that would make him better? His greatest uneasiness seemed to peep at him out of the imminent impression that almost any acceptance of Paris might give one’s authority away. It hung before him this morning, the vast bright Babylon, like some huge iridescent object, a jewel brilliant and hard, in which parts were not to be discriminated nor differences comfortably marked. It twinkled and trembled and melted together, and what seemed all surface one moment seemed all depth the next. It was a place of which, unmistakeably, Chad was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should like it too much, what on earth, with such a bond, would become of either of them? It all depended of course—which was a gleam of light—on how the “too much” was measured; though indeed our friend fairly felt, while he prolonged the meditation I describe, that for himself even already a certain measure had been reached. It will have been sufficiently seen that he was not a man to neglect any good chance for reflexion. Was it at all possible for instance to like Paris enough without liking it too much? He luckily however hadn’t promised Mrs. Newsome not to like it at all. He was ready to recognise at this stage that such an engagement would have tied his hands. The Luxembourg Gardens were incontestably just so adorable at this hour by reason—in addition to their intrinsic charm—of his not having taken it. The only engagement he had taken, when he looked the thing in the face, was to do what he reasonably could.
This raised the question of whether he should have taken his friend to that play, and what impact—this suddenly came to mind—his unusual responsibility might have on his choice of entertainment. It had clearly been on his mind at the Gymnase—where one felt relatively safe—that having his young friend by his side might have seemed like a strange aspect of his path to redemption; and this was despite the fact that the scene presented might have appeared quite appropriate compared to Chad’s own private life. He clearly hadn’t gone out in the name of propriety but to enjoy some questionable performances on his own; yet even less had he done so to compromise his authority by experiencing them with the unruly youth. Was he supposed to give up all fun just to protect that authority? And would such a sacrifice give him a moral glow in Chad’s eyes? The little dilemma was all the more intense due to poor Strether’s keen awareness of life’s ironies. Were there sides to his situation that made it seem rather amusing to him? Would he have to pretend—either to himself or that poor boy—that anything could actually make things worse for Chad? Wasn’t some kind of pretense involved in assuming there were ways to make him better? His biggest worry seemed to stem from the nagging feeling that almost any acceptance of life in Paris could undermine his authority. This morning, the vast bright city felt like a giant iridescent object, a brilliantly hard jewel where distinctions were unclear, and differences blended together. It sparkled and shifted, and what seemed just surface one moment felt like deep substance the next. It was clear that Chad was fond of this place; if Strether found himself liking it too much, what would that mean for both of them? It all depended, of course—which was a glimmer of hope—on how "too much" was defined; though indeed, as he continued his reflection, he felt he had already reached a certain limit. It should be clear that he wasn’t someone to overlook a good opportunity for reflection. Was it possible, for example, to enjoy Paris enough without enjoying it too much? Fortunately, he hadn’t promised Mrs. Newsome that he wouldn’t like it at all. He was ready to acknowledge that such a promise would have restricted him. The Luxembourg Gardens were undoubtedly just so charming at this hour, not just for their inherent beauty but because he had avoided engaging with them. The only commitment he had made, when he genuinely considered it, was to do what he reasonably could.
It upset him a little none the less and after a while to find himself at last remembering on what current of association he had been floated so far. Old imaginations of the Latin Quarter had played their part for him, and he had duly recalled its having been with this scene of rather ominous legend that, like so many young men in fiction as well as in fact, Chad had begun. He was now quite out of it, with his “home,” as Strether figured the place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, now; which was perhaps why, repairing, not to fail of justice either, to the elder neighbourhood, our friend had felt he could allow for the element of the usual, the immemorial, without courting perturbation. He was not at least in danger of seeing the youth and the particular Person flaunt by together; and yet he was in the very air of which—just to feel what the early natural note must have been—he wished most to take counsel. It became at once vivid to him that he had originally had, for a few days, an almost envious vision of the boy’s romantic privilege. Melancholy Mürger, with Francine and Musette and Rodolphe, at home, was, in the company of the tattered, one—if he not in his single self two or three—of the unbound, the paper-covered dozen on the shelf; and when Chad had written, five years ago, after a sojourn then already prolonged to six months, that he had decided to go in for economy and the real thing, Strether’s fancy had quite fondly accompanied him in this migration, which was to convey him, as they somewhat confusedly learned at Woollett, across the bridges and up the Montagne Sainte-Geneviève. This was the region—Chad had been quite distinct about it—in which the best French, and many other things, were to be learned at least cost, and in which all sorts of clever fellows, compatriots there for a purpose, formed an awfully pleasant set. The clever fellows, the friendly countrymen were mainly young painters, sculptors, architects, medical students; but they were, Chad sagely opined, a much more profitable lot to be with—even on the footing of not being quite one of them—than the “terrible toughs” (Strether remembered the edifying discrimination) of the American bars and banks roundabout the Opéra. Chad had thrown out, in the communications following this one—for at that time he did once in a while communicate—that several members of a band of earnest workers under one of the great artists had taken him right in, making him dine every night, almost for nothing, at their place, and even pressing him not to neglect the hypothesis of there being as much “in him” as in any of them. There had been literally a moment at which it appeared there might be something in him; there had been at any rate a moment at which he had written that he didn’t know but what a month or two more might see him enrolled in some atelier. The season had been one at which Mrs. Newsome was moved to gratitude for small mercies; it had broken on them all as a blessing that their absentee had perhaps a conscience—that he was sated in fine with idleness, was ambitious of variety. The exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant, but Strether himself, even by that time much enlisted and immersed, had determined, on the part of the two ladies, a temperate approval and in fact, as he now recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm.
It bothered him a bit, but after a while, he found himself remembering the thoughts that had led him to this point. Old ideas about the Latin Quarter had contributed to his feelings, and he recalled that this eerie place was where, like many young men in stories and real life, Chad's journey had begun. Now he was completely removed from that scene, living in what Strether considered his “home” on Boulevard Malesherbes. Perhaps that's why, as he returned to the older neighborhood, he felt he could accept the usual and the timeless without feeling uneasy. At least he wasn’t risking the chance of seeing the young man and that particular person together; still, he was in the kind of atmosphere that he wanted to understand better, just to grasp what its early, genuine energy must have been like. It struck him vividly that he had once felt a twinge of envy for the boy's romantic situation. Melancholy Mürger, along with Francine, Musette, and Rodolphe at home, belonged to a group that was part of the tattered collection—if not a couple of them—out of the dozen on the shelf. When Chad had written five years ago, after already having spent six months there, that he had decided to embrace thrift and the real life, Strether had fondly supported him in this move, which was meant to take him, as they somewhat hazily learned in Woollett, across the bridges and up Montagne Sainte-Geneviève. This was the area—Chad had been clear about it—where the best French and many other things could be learned at the lowest cost, and where all sorts of talented guys, compatriots there for a reason, formed a remarkably pleasant group. These talented individuals, the friendly countrymen, were mainly young painters, sculptors, architects, and medical students; but, as Chad wisely noted, they were a much better crowd to hang out with—even if he wasn't fully one of them—than the “terrible toughs” (Strether remembered the insightful comparison) of the American bars and banks around the Opéra. Chad had mentioned, in subsequent messages—since he did sometimes keep in touch—that several earnest members of a group working under a great artist had welcomed him into their circle, inviting him to dinner every night at their place nearly for free and even encouraging him to consider that he had just as much potential as any of them. There had literally been a moment when it seemed like he might have real talent; there had at least been a moment when he had written that he wasn't sure if a month or two more might lead him to enroll in some atelier. That season had been one where Mrs. Newsome felt grateful for small blessings; it had come as a relief to everyone that their absent member perhaps had a conscience—that he was indeed tired of idleness and craved a change. The exhibition may not have been impressive yet, but even by that time, as he became more involved, Strether had sensed, on behalf of the two ladies, a measured approval and, as he now recalled, a certain serious excitement.
But the very next thing that happened had been a dark drop of the curtain. The son and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne Sainte-Geneviève—his effective little use of the name of which, like his allusion to the best French, appeared to have been but one of the notes of his rough cunning. The light refreshment of these vain appearances had not accordingly carried any of them very far. On the other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given him a chance, unchecked, to strike his roots, had paved the way for initiations more direct and more deep. It was Strether’s belief that he had been comparatively innocent before this first migration, and even that the first effects of the migration would not have been, without some particular bad accident, to have been deplored. There had been three months—he had sufficiently figured it out—in which Chad had wanted to try. He had tried, though not very hard—he had had his little hour of good faith. The weakness of this principle in him was that almost any accident attestedly bad enough was stronger. Such had at any rate markedly been the case for the precipitation of a special series of impressions. They had proved, successively, these impressions—all of Musette and Francine, but Musette and Francine vulgarised by the larger evolution of the type—irresistibly sharp: he had “taken up,” by what was at the time to be shrinkingly gathered, as it was scantly mentioned, with one ferociously “interested” little person after another. Strether had read somewhere of a Latin motto, a description of the hours, observed on a clock by a traveller in Spain; and he had been led to apply it in thought to Chad’s number one, number two, number three. Omnes vulnerant, ultima necat—they had all morally wounded, the last had morally killed. The last had been longest in possession—in possession, that is, of whatever was left of the poor boy’s finer mortality. And it hadn’t been she, it had been one of her early predecessors, who had determined the second migration, the expensive return and relapse, the exchange again, as was fairly to be presumed, of the vaunted best French for some special variety of the worst.
But the very next thing that happened was a sudden end to things. The son and brother hadn’t lingered long on Montagne Sainte-Geneviève—his clever use of the name, like his nod to the best French, seemed to be just another sign of his rough cunning. The brief thrill of these shallow experiences hadn’t really taken any of them far. On the flip side, it gave Chad time; it allowed him to settle in without interruption and prepared the way for deeper and more direct experiences. Strether believed he had been relatively innocent before this first shift, and he thought that, without some specific disaster, the initial effects of the change wouldn’t have been regrettable. He had calculated it out—there had been three months in which Chad wanted to try. He had tried, though not very hard—he had his brief moment of good faith. The downside of this principle in him was that almost any sufficiently bad accident was stronger. This had been particularly true for the quick series of strong impressions he had received. They all came one after another, all tied to Musette and Francine, but Musette and Francine made more common and less special by the larger evolution of the type—irresistibly sharp: he had “taken up,” at the time to be carefully gathered, as it was hardly mentioned, with one fiercely “interested” little person after another. Strether had read somewhere about a Latin motto describing the hours, seen on a clock by a traveler in Spain; and he had thought to apply it to Chad’s first, second, and third experiences. Omnes vulnerant, ultima necat—they all had morally wounded, with the last one having morally killed. The last presence had lingered the longest—holding on to whatever remained of the poor boy’s finer spirit. And it hadn’t been her; it had been one of her earlier predecessors who had influenced the second migration, the costly return and setback, the exchange once again, as could be reasonably expected, of the praised best French for some sort of the worst.
He pulled himself then at last together for his own progress back; not with the feeling that he had taken his walk in vain. He prolonged it a little, in the immediate neighbourhood, after he had quitted his chair; and the upshot of the whole morning for him was that his campaign had begun. He had wanted to put himself in relation, and he would be hanged if he were not in relation. He was that at no moment so much as while, under the old arches of the Odéon, he lingered before the charming open-air array of literature classic and casual. He found the effect of tone and tint, in the long charged tables and shelves, delicate and appetising; the impression—substituting one kind of low-priced consommation for another—might have been that of one of the pleasant cafés that overlapped, under an awning, to the pavement; but he edged along, grazing the tables, with his hands firmly behind him. He wasn’t there to dip, to consume—he was there to reconstruct. He wasn’t there for his own profit—not, that is, the direct; he was there on some chance of feeling the brush of the wing of the stray spirit of youth. He felt it in fact, he had it beside him; the old arcade indeed, as his inner sense listened, gave out the faint sound, as from far off, of the wild waving of wings. They were folded now over the breasts of buried generations; but a flutter or two lived again in the turned page of shock-headed slouch-hatted loiterers whose young intensity of type, in the direction of pale acuteness, deepened his vision, and even his appreciation, of racial differences, and whose manipulation of the uncut volume was too often, however, but a listening at closed doors. He reconstructed a possible groping Chad of three or four years before, a Chad who had, after all, simply—for that was the only way to see it—been too vulgar for his privilege. Surely it was a privilege to have been young and happy just there. Well, the best thing Strether knew of him was that he had had such a dream.
He finally got himself together for his own journey back, not feeling like he had taken his walk in vain. He extended it a bit in the nearby area after leaving his chair, and the result of the whole morning for him was that his journey had begun. He wanted to connect with something, and there was no way he was going to miss that chance. He felt this connection the most while lingering under the old arches of the Odéon, looking at the delightful open-air display of classic and casual literature. He found the mix of tones and colors on the long tables and shelves delicate and inviting; the scene could have resembled one of the pleasant cafés that spilled onto the sidewalk under an awning. But he moved along slowly, hands firmly behind him. He wasn’t there just to browse or consume—he was there to create something new. He wasn’t there for his own gain—not directly; he was there hoping to feel the touch of the fleeting spirit of youth. And he did feel it, it was right there beside him; the old arcade, as he listened, seemed to faintly echo the distant flapping of wings. They were now folded over the chests of past generations; but a flutter or two came alive again in the turn of a page by those carefree, casually dressed youths whose sharp intensity deepened his insight and understanding of racial differences, and whose handling of the unopened volumes was often just a way to eavesdrop at closed doors. He imagined a younger Chad from three or four years ago, a Chad who had simply—because that was the only way to see it—been too crass for his own privilege. Surely it was a privilege to have been young and happy right there. Well, the best thing Strether knew about him was that he had once had such a dream.
But his own actual business, half an hour later, was with a third floor on the Boulevard Malesherbes—so much as that was definite; and the fact of the enjoyment by the third-floor windows of a continuous balcony, to which he was helped by this knowledge, had perhaps something to do with his lingering for five minutes on the opposite side of the street. There were points as to which he had quite made up his mind, and one of these bore precisely on the wisdom of the abruptness to which events had finally committed him, a policy that he was pleased to find not at all shaken as he now looked at his watch and wondered. He had announced himself—six months before; had written out at least that Chad wasn’t to be surprised should he see him some day turn up. Chad had thereupon, in a few words of rather carefully colourless answer, offered him a general welcome; and Strether, ruefully reflecting that he might have understood the warning as a hint to hospitality, a bid for an invitation, had fallen back upon silence as the corrective most to his own taste. He had asked Mrs. Newsome moreover not to announce him again; he had so distinct an opinion on his attacking his job, should he attack it at all, in his own way. Not the least of this lady’s high merits for him was that he could absolutely rest on her word. She was the only woman he had known, even at Woollett, as to whom his conviction was positive that to lie was beyond her art. Sarah Pocock, for instance, her own daughter, though with social ideals, as they said, in some respects different—Sarah who was, in her way, æsthetic, had never refused to human commerce that mitigation of rigour; there were occasions when he had distinctly seen her apply it. Since, accordingly, at all events, he had had it from Mrs. Newsome that she had, at whatever cost to her more strenuous view, conformed, in the matter of preparing Chad, wholly to his restrictions, he now looked up at the fine continuous balcony with a safe sense that if the case had been bungled the mistake was at least his property. Was there perhaps just a suspicion of that in his present pause on the edge of the Boulevard and well in the pleasant light?
But his actual business, half an hour later, was with a third floor on the Boulevard Malesherbes—that much was certain; and the fact that the third-floor windows had a continuous balcony, which he appreciated, probably influenced his decision to linger for five minutes on the opposite side of the street. There were things he had clearly decided, and one of these was about the abruptness that events had finally forced on him, a choice he was somewhat pleased to find hadn’t shaken him as he looked at his watch and wondered. He had announced himself—six months earlier; he had made it clear to Chad not to be surprised if he suddenly showed up. Chad had then, with a few rather neutral words, given him a general welcome; and Strether, wryly thinking that he might have taken the hint as an invitation for hospitality, had opted for silence, which he preferred. He had also asked Mrs. Newsome not to announce him again; he had a clear idea about tackling his job, if he decided to take it on, in his own way. One of the lady’s major strengths to him was that he could completely rely on her word. She was the only woman he had known, even back in Woollett, about whom he was sure that lying was beyond her capability. Sarah Pocock, for instance, Mrs. Newsome’s own daughter, even though she had different social ideals—Sarah, who was somewhat aesthetic in her own way—had never completely turned away from human interaction; there were times he had clearly seen her soften her approach. So, since he had heard from Mrs. Newsome that she had, at whatever cost to her more rigorous perspective, completely adhered to his wishes regarding preparing Chad, he now looked up at the nice continuous balcony with the certainty that if things had gone wrong, at least the mistake was his to own. Was there maybe just a hint of that in his current pause on the edge of the Boulevard, standing in the pleasant light?
Many things came over him here, and one of them was that he should doubtless presently know whether he had been shallow or sharp. Another was that the balcony in question didn’t somehow show as a convenience easy to surrender. Poor Strether had at this very moment to recognise the truth that wherever one paused in Paris the imagination reacted before one could stop it. This perpetual reaction put a price, if one would, on pauses; but it piled up consequences till there was scarce room to pick one’s steps among them. What call had he, at such a juncture, for example, to like Chad’s very house? High broad clear—he was expert enough to make out in a moment that it was admirably built—it fairly embarrassed our friend by the quality that, as he would have said, it “sprang” on him. He had struck off the fancy that it might, as a preliminary, be of service to him to be seen, by a happy accident, from the third-story windows, which took all the March sun, but of what service was it to find himself making out after a moment that the quality “sprung,” the quality produced by measure and balance, the fine relation of part to part and space to space, was probably—aided by the presence of ornament as positive as it was discreet, and by the complexion of the stone, a cold fair grey, warmed and polished a little by life—neither more nor less than a case of distinction, such a case as he could only feel unexpectedly as a sort of delivered challenge? Meanwhile, however, the chance he had allowed for—the chance of being seen in time from the balcony—had become a fact. Two or three of the windows stood open to the violet air; and, before Strether had cut the knot by crossing, a young man had come out and looked about him, had lighted a cigarette and tossed the match over, and then, resting on the rail, had given himself up to watching the life below while he smoked. His arrival contributed, in its order, to keeping Strether in position; the result of which in turn was that Strether soon felt himself noticed. The young man began to look at him as in acknowledgement of his being himself in observation.
Many thoughts crossed his mind here, and one was that he would soon find out if he had been naive or sharp. Another was that the balcony in question didn't seem like an easy thing to let go of. Poor Strether had to face the reality that wherever he paused in Paris, his imagination reacted before he could control it. This constant reaction added weight to moments of pause; it piled on consequences until there was hardly any room to navigate among them. What reason did he have, at such a moment, to like Chad’s very house? It was tall, spacious, and clear—he was skilled enough to see right away that it was beautifully constructed—it almost overwhelmed his senses with what he would have called its “surprising” quality. He had imagined that it might help him to be seen, by sheer chance, from the third-floor windows that caught all the March sun, but what good was it to realize, after a moment, that this surprising quality, created by measure and balance, the elegant relationship of part to part and space to space, was probably—enhanced by the presence of ornament that was both noticeable and subtle, and by the stone's color, a cool light grey, slightly warmed and polished by life—nothing less than an expression of distinction, something he could only feel as an unexpected challenge? Meanwhile, the chance he had hoped for—the chance of being spotted in time from the balcony—had become real. Two or three of the windows were open to the fragrant air, and before Strether decided to cross over, a young man appeared, looked around, lit a cigarette, tossed away the match, and then leaned on the railing, immersing himself in watching the life below while he smoked. His arrival, in turn, kept Strether in his spot; as a result, Strether soon felt he was being noticed. The young man began to look at him as if acknowledging that he was aware of being observed.
This was interesting so far as it went, but the interest was affected by the young man’s not being Chad. Strether wondered at first if he were perhaps Chad altered, and then saw that this was asking too much of alteration. The young man was light bright and alert—with an air too pleasant to have been arrived at by patching. Strether had conceived Chad as patched, but not beyond recognition. He was in presence, he felt, of amendments enough as they stood; it was a sufficient amendment that the gentleman up there should be Chad’s friend. He was young too then, the gentleman up there—he was very young; young enough apparently to be amused at an elderly watcher, to be curious even to see what the elderly watcher would do on finding himself watched. There was youth in that, there was youth in the surrender to the balcony, there was youth for Strether at this moment in everything but his own business; and Chad’s thus pronounced association with youth had given the next instant an extraordinary quick lift to the issue. The balcony, the distinguished front, testified suddenly, for Strether’s fancy, to something that was up and up; they placed the whole case materially, and as by an admirable image, on a level that he found himself at the end of another moment rejoicing to think he might reach. The young man looked at him still, he looked at the young man; and the issue, by a rapid process, was that this knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to him the last of luxuries. To him too the perched privacy was open, and he saw it now but in one light—that of the only domicile, the only fireside, in the great ironic city, on which he had the shadow of a claim. Miss Gostrey had a fireside; she had told him of it, and it was something that doubtless awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn’t yet arrived—she mightn’t arrive for days; and the sole attenuation of his excluded state was his vision of the small, the admittedly secondary hotel in the bye-street from the Rue de la Paix, in which her solicitude for his purse had placed him, which affected him somehow as all indoor chill, glass-roofed court and slippery staircase, and which, by the same token, expressed the presence of Waymarsh even at times when Waymarsh might have been certain to be round at the bank. It came to pass before he moved that Waymarsh, and Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not only undiluted but positively strengthened, struck him as the present alternative to the young man in the balcony. When he did move it was fairly to escape that alternative. Taking his way over the street at last and passing through the porte-cochère of the house was like consciously leaving Waymarsh out. However, he would tell him all about it.
This was interesting so far, but the interest was affected by the fact that the young man wasn’t Chad. Strether first wondered if he might be a changed version of Chad, but then realized that was expecting too much from a mere change. The young man was bright, lively, and had a pleasant demeanor that couldn’t have come from just being pieced together. Strether had imagined Chad as pieced together, but not unrecognizable. He felt he was encountering enough improvements as they stood; it was significant enough that the guy up there was Chad’s friend. The guy up there was young too—very young; young enough to be amused by an older observer, even curious to see how the older observer would react to being watched. There was youth in that, there was youth in the openness to the balcony, and for Strether, there was youth in everything at that moment except for his own situation; Chad’s clear link to youth suddenly made the whole situation seem much more promising. The balcony and the impressive front suddenly, in Strether’s imagination, represented something on the rise; they put everything in a context that he found himself happily thinking he could reach in another moment. The young man looked at him still, and he looked back at the young man; quickly, he understood that this sense of a private space felt like the ultimate luxury. This private space was open to him too, and he now saw it in just one way—that it was the only home, the only hearth, in the vast ironic city, to which he felt he had some claim. Miss Gostrey had a hearth; she had mentioned it, and it was something that surely awaited him; but Miss Gostrey hadn’t arrived yet—she might not show up for days; and the only thing that softened his excluded state was his picture of the small, admittedly second-rate hotel in the side street off Rue de la Paix, where her concern for his finances had placed him, affecting him like the indoor chill, glass-roofed courtyard, and slippery staircase, and which, similarly, indicated Waymarsh’s presence even when he probably was at the bank. Before he moved, it occurred to him that Waymarsh, and Waymarsh alone—Waymarsh not diluted at all but rather emphasized—seemed like the present alternative to the young man on the balcony. When he finally moved, it was mainly to escape that alternative. Crossing the street and passing through the porte-cochère of the house felt like consciously leaving Waymarsh behind. Still, he would tell him all about it.
Book Third
I
Strether told Waymarsh all about it that very evening, on their dining together at the hotel; which needn’t have happened, he was all the while aware, hadn’t he chosen to sacrifice to this occasion a rarer opportunity. The mention to his companion of the sacrifice was moreover exactly what introduced his recital—or, as he would have called it with more confidence in his interlocutor, his confession. His confession was that he had been captured and that one of the features of the affair had just failed to be his engaging himself on the spot to dinner. As by such a freedom Waymarsh would have lost him he had obeyed his scruple; and he had likewise obeyed another scruple—which bore on the question of his himself bringing a guest.
Strether filled Waymarsh in on everything that evening while they were having dinner at the hotel; which didn’t necessarily need to happen, he was fully aware, if he hadn’t chosen to give up a more unique opportunity for this. The mention of his sacrifice to his companion was exactly what prompted his story—or, as he would have referred to it with more trust in his listener, his confession. His confession was that he had been taken in and that one key detail of the situation was that he had almost committed to having dinner right then and there. He had held back on that impulse because it would have meant losing Waymarsh, and he had also respected another hesitation—which related to the idea of inviting a guest.
Waymarsh looked gravely ardent, over the finished soup, at this array of scruples; Strether hadn’t yet got quite used to being so unprepared for the consequences of the impression he produced. It was comparatively easy to explain, however, that he hadn’t felt sure his guest would please. The person was a young man whose acquaintance he had made but that afternoon in the course of rather a hindered enquiry for another person—an enquiry his new friend had just prevented in fact from being vain. “Oh,” said Strether, “I’ve all sorts of things to tell you!”—and he put it in a way that was a virtual hint to Waymarsh to help him to enjoy the telling. He waited for his fish, he drank of his wine, he wiped his long moustache, he leaned back in his chair, he took in the two English ladies who had just creaked past them and whom he would even have articulately greeted if they hadn’t rather chilled the impulse; so that all he could do was—by way of doing something—to say “Merci, François!” out quite loud when his fish was brought. Everything was there that he wanted, everything that could make the moment an occasion, that would do beautifully—everything but what Waymarsh might give. The little waxed salle-à-manger was sallow and sociable; François, dancing over it, all smiles, was a man and a brother; the high-shouldered patronne, with her high-held, much-rubbed hands, seemed always assenting exuberantly to something unsaid; the Paris evening in short was, for Strether, in the very taste of the soup, in the goodness, as he was innocently pleased to think it, of the wine, in the pleasant coarse texture of the napkin and the crunch of the thick-crusted bread. These all were things congruous with his confession, and his confession was that he had—it would come out properly just there if Waymarsh would only take it properly—agreed to breakfast out, at twelve literally, the next day. He didn’t quite know where; the delicacy of the case came straight up in the remembrance of his new friend’s “We’ll see; I’ll take you somewhere!”—for it had required little more than that, after all, to let him right in. He was affected after a minute, face to face with his actual comrade, by the impulse to overcolour. There had already been things in respect to which he knew himself tempted by this perversity. If Waymarsh thought them bad he should at least have his reason for his discomfort; so Strether showed them as worse. Still, he was now, in his way, sincerely perplexed.
Waymarsh looked seriously engaged, over the finished soup, at this list of doubts; Strether still hadn’t quite adjusted to being so caught off guard by the impression he was making. It was relatively easy to explain, though, that he wasn’t sure his guest would be pleased. The person was a young man he had met just that afternoon while trying to find another individual—an effort his new friend had just prevented from being pointless. “Oh,” said Strether, “I’ve got all sorts of things to share with you!”—and he said it in a way that practically urged Waymarsh to help him enjoy the conversation. He waited for his fish, sipped his wine, wiped his long mustache, leaned back in his chair, and noticed the two English ladies who just walked past and whom he would have greeted if they hadn’t somewhat dampened the impulse; so all he could do—just to do something—was to say “Merci, François!” quite loudly when his fish arrived. Everything he wanted was there, everything that could make the moment special, that would work beautifully—everything except what Waymarsh might provide. The small, cozy dining room was warm and inviting; François, bustling around with a smile, felt like a friend; the tall owner, with her high-held, well-worn hands, always seemed to be agreeably responding to something unspoken; the Paris evening, for Strether, was captured in the flavor of the soup, in what he cheerfully believed was the quality of the wine, in the pleasant coarse texture of the napkin, and the crunch of the thick-crusted bread. All these were things that matched his confession, and his confession was that he had—it would come out just right if Waymarsh would only receive it properly—agreed to have breakfast out at twelve sharp the next day. He wasn’t exactly sure where; the sensitivity of the situation popped up in the memory of his new friend’s “We’ll see; I’ll take you somewhere!”—because it had taken little more than that, after all, to let him in. He felt a bit overwhelmed after a moment, face to face with his current companion, tempted to embellish. There had already been matters he knew he was tempted to exaggerate. If Waymarsh thought they were bad, at least he should understand why he felt uneasy; so Strether made them sound worse. Still, he was genuinely confused in his own way.
Chad had been absent from the Boulevard Malesherbes—was absent from Paris altogether; he had learned that from the concierge, but had nevertheless gone up, and gone up—there were no two ways about it—from an uncontrollable, a really, if one would, depraved curiosity. The concierge had mentioned to him that a friend of the tenant of the troisième was for the time in possession; and this had been Strether’s pretext for a further enquiry, an experiment carried on, under Chad’s roof, without his knowledge. “I found his friend in fact there keeping the place warm, as he called it, for him; Chad himself being, as appears, in the south. He went a month ago to Cannes and though his return begins to be looked for it can’t be for some days. I might, you see, perfectly have waited a week; might have beaten a retreat as soon as I got this essential knowledge. But I beat no retreat; I did the opposite; I stayed, I dawdled, I trifled; above all I looked round. I saw, in fine; and—I don’t know what to call it—I sniffed. It’s a detail, but it’s as if there were something—something very good—to sniff.”
Chad had been missing from Boulevard Malesherbes—he was missing from Paris completely; he had learned that from the concierge, but he had still gone up, and gone up—there was no denying it—from an uncontrollable, a really, if you will, warped curiosity. The concierge had mentioned that a friend of the tenant on the third floor was temporarily staying there; this had been Strether’s excuse for further inquiry, an experiment happening under Chad’s roof, without his knowledge. “I actually found his friend there, keeping the place warm, as he put it, for him; Chad himself being, it seems, down south. He went to Cannes a month ago and while people expect him back soon, it won’t be for a few days. I could have waited a week, you see; I could have backed off as soon as I got this crucial information. But I did not back off; I did the opposite; I stayed, I lingered, I wasted time; above all, I took a look around. I saw, in short; and—I don’t know how to describe it—I sensed. It’s a small detail, but it’s as if there was something—something really good—to sense.”
Waymarsh’s face had shown his friend an attention apparently so remote that the latter was slightly surprised to find it at this point abreast with him. “Do you mean a smell? What of?”
Waymarsh’s face had shown his friend such distant attention that he was a bit surprised to find it now in sync with him. “Are you talking about a smell? What kind?”
“A charming scent. But I don’t know.”
“A lovely scent. But I'm not sure.”
Waymarsh gave an inferential grunt. “Does he live there with a woman?”
Waymarsh made a thoughtful sound. “Does he live there with a woman?”
“I don’t know.”
"I don't know."
Waymarsh waited an instant for more, then resumed. “Has he taken her off with him?”
Waymarsh paused for a moment, then continued. “Has he taken her with him?”
“And will he bring her back?”—Strether fell into the enquiry. But he wound it up as before. “I don’t know.”
“And will he bring her back?”—Strether asked. But he concluded it the same way as before. “I don’t know.”
The way he wound it up, accompanied as this was with another drop back, another degustation of the Léoville, another wipe of his moustache and another good word for François, seemed to produce in his companion a slight irritation. “Then what the devil do you know?”
The way he wrapped it up, along with another lean back, another taste of the Léoville, another wipe of his mustache, and another compliment for François, seemed to cause a bit of irritation in his companion. “Then what the hell do you know?”
“Well,” said Strether almost gaily, “I guess I don’t know anything!” His gaiety might have been a tribute to the fact that the state he had been reduced to did for him again what had been done by his talk of the matter with Miss Gostrey at the London theatre. It was somehow enlarging; and the air of that amplitude was now doubtless more or less—and all for Waymarsh to feel—in his further response. “That’s what I found out from the young man.”
“Well,” said Strether almost cheerfully, “I guess I don’t know anything!” His cheerfulness could have been a nod to the fact that the state he had been brought to was doing for him once again what his conversation about the issue with Miss Gostrey at the London theater had done. It was somehow uplifting; and the feeling of that expansion was now definitely more or less—and all for Waymarsh to sense—in his further response. “That’s what I found out from the young man.”
“But I thought you said you found out nothing.”
“But I thought you said you didn’t find out anything.”
“Nothing but that—that I don’t know anything.”
“Nothing else but that—that I don’t know anything.”
“And what good does that do you?”
“And what’s the point of that for you?”
“It’s just,” said Strether, “what I’ve come to you to help me to discover. I mean anything about anything over here. I felt that, up there. It regularly rose before me in its might. The young man moreover—Chad’s friend—as good as told me so.”
“It's just,” said Strether, “what I've come to you to help me figure out. I mean anything about anything over here. I felt that, up there. It really stood out to me in its strength. The young man, Chad's friend, practically told me so.”
“As good as told you you know nothing about anything?” Waymarsh appeared to look at some one who might have as good as told him. “How old is he?”
“As good as saying you know nothing about anything?” Waymarsh seemed to look at someone who might have as good as told him. “How old is he?”
“Well, I guess not thirty.”
“Well, I guess not 30.”
“Yet you had to take that from him?”
“Did you really have to take that from him?”
“Oh I took a good deal more—since, as I tell you, I took an invitation to déjeuner.”
“Oh, I had quite a bit more—because, like I said, I accepted an invitation for lunch.”
“And are you going to that unholy meal?”
“And are you going to that awful meal?”
“If you’ll come with me. He wants you too, you know. I told him about you. He gave me his card,” Strether pursued, “and his name’s rather funny. It’s John Little Bilham, and he says his two surnames are, on account of his being small, inevitably used together.”
“If you’ll come with me. He wants you to come too, you know. I told him about you. He gave me his business card,” Strether continued, “and his name is kind of amusing. It’s John Little Bilham, and he says he has to use both surnames together because he’s small.”
“Well,” Waymarsh asked with due detachment from these details, “what’s he doing up there?”
“Well,” Waymarsh asked, maintaining a proper distance from those details, “what’s he doing up there?”
“His account of himself is that he’s ‘only a little artist-man.’ That seemed to me perfectly to describe him. But he’s yet in the phase of study; this, you know, is the great art-school—to pass a certain number of years in which he came over. And he’s a great friend of Chad’s, and occupying Chad’s rooms just now because they’re so pleasant. He’s very pleasant and curious too,” Strether added—“though he’s not from Boston.”
“His description of himself is that he’s ‘just a little artist.’ That seems to sum him up perfectly. But he’s still in the studying phase; this, as you know, is the main art school—spending a number of years here since he arrived. And he’s a close friend of Chad’s, currently staying in Chad’s rooms because they’re so nice. He’s really pleasant and quite curious too,” Strether added—“even though he’s not from Boston.”
Waymarsh looked already rather sick of him. “Where is he from?”
Waymarsh already looked pretty fed up with him. “Where is he from?”
Strether thought. “I don’t know that, either. But he’s ‘notoriously,’ as he put it himself, not from Boston.”
Strether thought. “I don't know that either. But he's 'notoriously,' as he said himself, not from Boston.”
“Well,” Waymarsh moralised from dry depths, “every one can’t notoriously be from Boston. Why,” he continued, “is he curious?”
“Well,” Waymarsh reflected from his dry depths, “not everyone can obviously be from Boston. Why,” he continued, “is he so curious?”
“Perhaps just for that—for one thing! But really,” Strether added, “for everything. When you meet him you’ll see.”
“Maybe just for that—for one thing! But honestly,” Strether added, “for everything. When you meet him, you’ll understand.”
“Oh I don’t want to meet him,” Waymarsh impatiently growled. “Why don’t he go home?”
“Oh, I don’t want to meet him,” Waymarsh said impatiently. “Why doesn’t he just go home?”
Strether hesitated. “Well, because he likes it over here.”
Strether paused. “Well, because he enjoys it here.”
This appeared in particular more than Waymarsh could bear. “He ought then to be ashamed of himself, and, as you admit that you think so too, why drag him in?”
This was more than Waymarsh could handle. “He should be ashamed of himself, and since you say you feel the same way, why bring him into this?”
Strether’s reply again took time. “Perhaps I do think so myself—though I don’t quite yet admit it. I’m not a bit sure—it’s again one of the things I want to find out. I liked him, and can you like people—? But no matter.” He pulled himself up. “There’s no doubt I want you to come down on me and squash me.”
Strether’s answer took a moment. “Maybe I think so too—though I’m not ready to admit it. I’m really not sure—it’s one of the things I want to figure out. I liked him, and can you actually like people—? But it doesn’t matter.” He collected himself. “There’s no doubt I want you to come down on me and crush me.”
Waymarsh helped himself to the next course, which, however proving not the dish he had just noted as supplied to the English ladies, had the effect of causing his imagination temporarily to wander. But it presently broke out at a softer spot. “Have they got a handsome place up there?”
Waymarsh served himself the next dish, which, however, turned out not to be what he had just seen served to the English ladies, causing his mind to momentarily drift. But it soon returned to a more pleasant thought. “Do they have a nice place up there?”
“Oh a charming place; full of beautiful and valuable things. I never saw such a place”—and Strether’s thought went back to it. “For a little artist-man—!” He could in fact scarce express it.
“Oh, what a lovely place; full of beautiful and priceless things. I’ve never seen anywhere like it”—and Strether’s mind drifted back to that moment. “For a small artist-man—!” He could barely put it into words.
But his companion, who appeared now to have a view, insisted. “Well?”
But his companion, who now seemed to have an opinion, insisted. “Well?”
“Well, life can hold nothing better. Besides, they’re things of which he’s in charge.”
“Well, life can't offer anything better. Besides, those are things he's in control of.”
“So that he does doorkeeper for your precious pair? Can life,” Waymarsh enquired, “hold nothing better than that?” Then as Strether, silent, seemed even yet to wonder, “Doesn’t he know what she is?” he went on.
“So is he the doorkeeper for your precious couple? Can life,” Waymarsh asked, “offer anything better than that?” Then, noticing Strether's silence and his lingering confusion, he continued, “Doesn’t he know what she is?”
“I don’t know. I didn’t ask him. I couldn’t. It was impossible. You wouldn’t either. Besides I didn’t want to. No more would you.” Strether in short explained it at a stroke. “You can’t make out over here what people do know.”
“I don’t know. I didn’t ask him. I couldn’t. It was impossible. You wouldn’t either. Besides, I didn’t want to. You wouldn’t want to either.” Strether quickly summed it up. “You can’t figure out what people know over here.”
“Then what did you come over for?”
“Then why did you come over?”
“Well, I suppose exactly to see for myself—without their aid.”
“Well, I guess I just want to see for myself—without their help.”
“Then what do you want mine for?”
“Then what do you want mine for?”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “you’re not one of them! I do know what you know.”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “you’re not one of them! I know what you know.”
As, however, this last assertion caused Waymarsh again to look at him hard—such being the latter’s doubt of its implications—he felt his justification lame. Which was still more the case when Waymarsh presently said: “Look here, Strether. Quit this.”
As this last statement made Waymarsh look at him intently again—due to his uncertainty about what it meant—he felt his defense was weak. This was even more true when Waymarsh soon said, “Listen, Strether. Cut it out.”
Our friend smiled with a doubt of his own. “Do you mean my tone?”
Our friend smiled, a bit uncertain. “Are you talking about my tone?”
“No—damn your tone. I mean your nosing round. Quit the whole job. Let them stew in their juice. You’re being used for a thing you ain’t fit for. People don’t take a fine-tooth comb to groom a horse.”
“No—forget your tone. I mean your snooping around. Just drop the whole thing. Let them figure it out themselves. You’re being used for something you’re not cut out for. People don’t use a fine-tooth comb to groom a horse.”
“Am I a fine-tooth comb?” Strether laughed. “It’s something I never called myself!”
“Am I a fine-tooth comb?” Strether laughed. “That’s something I’ve never called myself!”
“It’s what you are, all the same. You ain’t so young as you were, but you’ve kept your teeth.”
"It's who you are, regardless. You're not as young as you used to be, but you've still got your teeth."
He acknowledged his friend’s humour. “Take care I don’t get them into you! You’d like them, my friends at home, Waymarsh,” he declared; “you’d really particularly like them. And I know”—it was slightly irrelevant, but he gave it sudden and singular force—“I know they’d like you!”
He appreciated his friend's humor. "Just make sure I don't get them into you! You'd really like them, my friends back home, Waymarsh," he said; "you'd definitely enjoy them. And I know"—it was a bit off-topic, but he emphasized it with surprising intensity—"I know they’d like you!"
“Oh don’t work them off on me!” Waymarsh groaned.
“Oh, don’t put them on me!” Waymarsh complained.
Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. “It’s really quite as indispensable as I say that Chad should be got back.”
Yet Strether still lingered with his hands in his pockets. “It’s really just as essential as I say that Chad should be brought back.”
“Indispensable to whom? To you?”
“Essential for whom? For you?”
“Yes,” Strether presently said.
“Yes,” Strether replied.
“Because if you get him you also get Mrs. Newsome?”
"Because if you get him, you also get Mrs. Newsome?"
Strether faced it. “Yes.”
Strether accepted it. “Yes.”
“And if you don’t get him you don’t get her?”
“And if you don’t get him, you don’t get her?”
It might be merciless, but he continued not to flinch. “I think it might have some effect on our personal understanding. Chad’s of real importance—or can easily become so if he will—to the business.”
It might be ruthless, but he kept his cool. “I think it could impact how we understand things personally. Chad really matters—or could easily become important if he wants to—for the business.”
“And the business is of real importance to his mother’s husband?”
“And the business really matters to his mom’s husband?”
“Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And the thing will be much better if we have our own man in it.”
“Well, I naturally want what my future wife wants. And it’ll be so much better if we have our own guy in it.”
“If you have your own man in it, in other words,” Waymarsh said, “you’ll marry—you personally—more money. She’s already rich, as I understand you, but she’ll be richer still if the business can be made to boom on certain lines that you’ve laid down.”
“If you have your own guy in it, in other words,” Waymarsh said, “you’ll personally make more money when you marry. She’s already rich, as I understand it, but she’ll be even richer if the business starts thriving on the specific plans you’ve set out.”
“I haven’t laid them down,” Strether promptly returned. “Mr. Newsome—who knew extraordinarily well what he was about—laid them down ten years ago.”
I haven’t put them away,” Strether quickly replied. “Mr. Newsome—who knew exactly what he was doing—set them aside ten years ago.”
Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his mane, that didn’t matter! “You’re fierce for the boom anyway.”
Oh well, Waymarsh seemed to indicate with a shake of his head, that didn’t matter! “You’re really into the hype anyway.”
His friend weighed a moment in silence the justice of the charge. “I can scarcely be called fierce, I think, when I so freely take my chance of the possibility, the danger, of being influenced in a sense counter to Mrs. Newsome’s own feelings.”
His friend paused for a moment, considering how fair the accusation was. “I wouldn’t say I'm fierce when I'm so openly risking the chance of being swayed in a way that goes against Mrs. Newsome's own feelings.”
Waymarsh gave this proposition a long hard look. “I see. You’re afraid yourself of being squared. But you’re a humbug,” he added, “all the same.”
Waymarsh stared at the proposal for a long time. “I get it. You're worried about getting cornered. But you're being a hypocrite,” he added, “regardless.”
“Oh!” Strether quickly protested.
“Oh!” Strether quickly said.
“Yes, you ask me for protection—which makes you very interesting; and then you won’t take it. You say you want to be squashed—”
“Yes, you ask me for protection—which makes you very intriguing; and then you refuse it. You say you want to be crushed—”
“Ah but not so easily! Don’t you see,” Strether demanded “where my interest, as already shown you, lies? It lies in my not being squared. If I’m squared where’s my marriage? If I miss my errand I miss that; and if I miss that I miss everything—I’m nowhere.”
“Ah, but it’s not that simple! Don’t you see,” Strether insisted, “where my interest, as I’ve already shown you, lies? It lies in not being settled. If I’m settled, where’s my marriage? If I fail in my mission, I lose that; and if I lose that, I lose everything—I’m lost.”
Waymarsh—but all relentlessly—took this in. “What do I care where you are if you’re spoiled?”
Waymarsh—completely—absorbed this. “What do I care where you are if you’re messed up?”
Their eyes met on it an instant. “Thank you awfully,” Strether at last said. “But don’t you think her judgement of that—?”
Their eyes locked for a moment. “Thanks a lot,” Strether finally said. “But don’t you think her judgment on that—?”
“Ought to content me? No.”
"Should satisfy me? No."
It kept them again face to face, and the end of this was that Strether again laughed. “You do her injustice. You really must know her. Good-night.”
It kept them facing each other again, and in the end, Strether laughed again. “You’re misjudging her. You really have to know her. Good night.”
He breakfasted with Mr. Bilham on the morrow, and, as inconsequently befell, with Waymarsh massively of the party. The latter announced, at the eleventh hour and much to his friend’s surprise, that, damn it, he would as soon join him as do anything else; on which they proceeded together, strolling in a state of detachment practically luxurious for them to the Boulevard Malesherbes, a couple engaged that day with the sharp spell of Paris as confessedly, it might have been seen, as any couple among the daily thousands so compromised. They walked, wandered, wondered and, a little, lost themselves; Strether hadn’t had for years so rich a consciousness of time—a bag of gold into which he constantly dipped for a handful. It was present to him that when the little business with Mr. Bilham should be over he would still have shining hours to use absolutely as he liked. There was no great pulse of haste yet in this process of saving Chad; nor was that effect a bit more marked as he sat, half an hour later, with his legs under Chad’s mahogany, with Mr. Bilham on one side, with a friend of Mr. Bilham’s on the other, with Waymarsh stupendously opposite, and with the great hum of Paris coming up in softness, vagueness—for Strether himself indeed already positive sweetness—through the sunny windows toward which, the day before, his curiosity had raised its wings from below. The feeling strongest with him at that moment had borne fruit almost faster than he could taste it, and Strether literally felt at the present hour that there was a precipitation in his fate. He had known nothing and nobody as he stood in the street; but hadn’t his view now taken a bound in the direction of every one and of every thing?
He had breakfast with Mr. Bilham the next morning, and, somewhat unexpectedly, Waymarsh also joined them. At the last minute and to his friend’s surprise, Waymarsh declared that he’d just as soon be with him as do anything else; so they set off together, strolling in a state of relaxed enjoyment that felt luxurious for them to the Boulevard Malesherbes, a couple caught up that day in the captivating charm of Paris, just like any of the countless couples wandering around. They walked, explored, marveled, and a bit lost themselves; Strether hadn’t felt such a rich sense of time in years—a treasure trove he kept dipping into for a little something. He realized that after he wrapped up his business with Mr. Bilham, he would still have plenty of shining hours to spend however he pleased. There wasn’t much urgency in his mission to save Chad yet; that feeling wasn’t any stronger as he sat, half an hour later, with his legs under Chad’s mahogany table, Mr. Bilham on one side, a friend of Mr. Bilham’s on the other, Waymarsh sitting dramatically across from him, and the warm hum of Paris wafting in softly through the sunny windows, the same ones his curiosity had taken flight from just the day before. The sensation that struck him most strongly at that moment seemed to grow faster than he could savor it, and he truly felt at that hour that his fate was shifting. He had known nothing and nobody as he stood on the street; but hadn’t his perspective now broadened to include everyone and everything?
“What’s he up to, what’s he up to?”—something like that was at the back of his head all the while in respect to little Bilham; but meanwhile, till he should make out, every one and every thing were as good as represented for him by the combination of his host and the lady on his left. The lady on his left, the lady thus promptly and ingeniously invited to “meet” Mr. Strether and Mr. Waymarsh—it was the way she herself expressed her case—was a very marked person, a person who had much to do with our friend’s asking himself if the occasion weren’t in its essence the most baited, the most gilded of traps. Baited it could properly be called when the repast was of so wise a savour, and gilded surrounding objects seemed inevitably to need to be when Miss Barrace—which was the lady’s name—looked at them with convex Parisian eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long tortoise-shell handle. Why Miss Barrace, mature meagre erect and eminently gay, highly adorned, perfectly familiar, freely contradictious and reminding him of some last-century portrait of a clever head without powder—why Miss Barrace should have been in particular the note of a “trap” Strether couldn’t on the spot have explained; he blinked in the light of a conviction that he should know later on, and know well—as it came over him, for that matter, with force, that he should need to. He wondered what he was to think exactly of either of his new friends; since the young man, Chad’s intimate and deputy, had, in thus constituting the scene, practised so much more subtly than he had been prepared for, and since in especial Miss Barrace, surrounded clearly by every consideration, hadn’t scrupled to figure as a familiar object. It was interesting to him to feel that he was in the presence of new measures, other standards, a different scale of relations, and that evidently here were a happy pair who didn’t think of things at all as he and Waymarsh thought. Nothing was less to have been calculated in the business than that it should now be for him as if he and Waymarsh were comparatively quite at one.
“What’s he doing, what’s he doing?”—something like that was in the back of his mind all the time about little Bilham; but in the meantime, until he figured everything out, everyone and everything felt represented for him by his host and the lady on his left. The lady on his left, the one who had been cleverly and promptly invited to “meet” Mr. Strether and Mr. Waymarsh—it was how she described her situation—was a very notable person, someone who made our friend question whether the occasion was, at its core, the most tempting and the most luxurious trap. It could properly be called tempting when the meal was so delicious, and the luxurious surroundings seemed necessary when Miss Barrace—which was the lady’s name—looked at them with big, Parisian eyes and through a glass with a remarkably long tortoise-shell handle. Why Miss Barrace, mature, slender, upright, and wonderfully cheerful, highly decorated, perfectly at ease, freely contradicting herself and reminding him of a clever portrait from the last century that didn’t use powder—why she should specifically be the signal of a “trap” Strether couldn’t explain right away; he just felt a strong sense that he would understand it later on, and know it well—as it hit him with force that he would need to. He wondered what he was supposed to think exactly of either of his new friends; since the young man, Chad’s close friend and representative, had set up the scene much more subtly than he had expected, and since especially Miss Barrace, clearly surrounded by every consideration, had not hesitated to present herself as a familiar figure. He found it interesting to realize that he was in the presence of new standards, different measures, and a different scale of relationships, and it was clear that here were a happy couple who didn’t think about things at all the way he and Waymarsh did. Nothing could have been less predictable in the situation than that it would now feel as if he and Waymarsh were somehow very much in agreement.
The latter was magnificent—this at least was an assurance privately given him by Miss Barrace. “Oh your friend’s a type, the grand old American—what shall one call it? The Hebrew prophet, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, who used when I was a little girl in the Rue Montaigne to come to see my father and who was usually the American Minister to the Tuileries or some other court. I haven’t seen one these ever so many years; the sight of it warms my poor old chilled heart; this specimen is wonderful; in the right quarter, you know, he’ll have a succès fou.” Strether hadn’t failed to ask what the right quarter might be, much as he required his presence of mind to meet such a change in their scheme. “Oh the artist-quarter and that kind of thing; here already, for instance, as you see.” He had been on the point of echoing “‘Here’?—is this the artist-quarter?” but she had already disposed of the question with a wave of all her tortoise-shell and an easy “Bring him to me!” He knew on the spot how little he should be able to bring him, for the very air was by this time, to his sense, thick and hot with poor Waymarsh’s judgement of it. He was in the trap still more than his companion and, unlike his companion, not making the best of it; which was precisely what doubtless gave him his admirable sombre glow. Little did Miss Barrace know that what was behind it was his grave estimate of her own laxity. The general assumption with which our two friends had arrived had been that of finding Mr. Bilham ready to conduct them to one or other of those resorts of the earnest, the æsthetic fraternity which were shown among the sights of Paris. In this character it would have justified them in a proper insistence on discharging their score. Waymarsh’s only proviso at the last had been that nobody should pay for him; but he found himself, as the occasion developed, paid for on a scale as to which Strether privately made out that he already nursed retribution. Strether was conscious across the table of what worked in him, conscious when they passed back to the small salon to which, the previous evening, he himself had made so rich a reference; conscious most of all as they stepped out to the balcony in which one would have had to be an ogre not to recognise the perfect place for easy aftertastes. These things were enhanced for Miss Barrace by a succession of excellent cigarettes—acknowledged, acclaimed, as a part of the wonderful supply left behind him by Chad—in an almost equal absorption of which Strether found himself blindly, almost wildly pushing forward. He might perish by the sword as well as by famine, and he knew that his having abetted the lady by an excess that was rare with him would count for little in the sum—as Waymarsh might so easily add it up—of her licence. Waymarsh had smoked of old, smoked hugely; but Waymarsh did nothing now, and that gave him his advantage over people who took things up lightly just when others had laid them heavily down. Strether had never smoked, and he felt as if he flaunted at his friend that this had been only because of a reason. The reason, it now began to appear even to himself, was that he had never had a lady to smoke with.
The latter was impressive—at least that’s what Miss Barrace privately assured him. “Oh, your friend’s a classic, the grand old American—what should I call it? The Hebrew prophet, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, who used to come see my dad when I was a little girl on Rue Montaigne, and was usually the American Minister to the Tuileries or some other court. I haven’t seen one of those in ages; just seeing it warms my poor, old, chilled heart; this one is wonderful; in the right circle, you know, he’ll have a succès fou.” Strether couldn’t help but ask what the right circle might be, as much as he needed his composure to deal with such a shift in their plans. “Oh, the artist district and that kind of thing; here already, for example, as you can see.” He almost echoed, “‘Here’?—is this the artist district?” but she had already brushed the question away with a wave of her tortoise-shell and an easy “Bring him to me!” He understood right away how little he could actually bring him, because the very atmosphere felt, to him, thick and hot with poor Waymarsh’s judgment. He was trapped even more than his companion and, unlike him, not making the best of it; which was probably what gave him his admirable somber glow. Little did Miss Barrace know that what lay beneath it was his serious view of her own laxity. The general expectation with which the two friends had arrived was to find Mr. Bilham ready to guide them to one of the spots the earnest, aesthetic crowd frequented, which were listed among the attractions of Paris. In this role, it would have justified their insistence on settling their bill properly. Waymarsh had only requested at the last that no one should pay for him; but he found himself, as the situation unfolded, covered on a scale for which Strether privately understood he was already nursing a sense of retribution. Strether was aware across the table of what was going on within him, particularly when they returned to the small salon he had enriched with his previous evening’s references; aware most intensely as they stepped out onto the balcony where you’d have to be an ogre not to recognize it as the perfect place for relaxed moments. These things were enhanced for Miss Barrace by a succession of excellent cigarettes—acknowledged and celebrated as part of Chad’s wonderful supply left behind—of which Strether found himself almost blindly, wildly indulging. He could perish both by sword and by famine, and he knew that his indulging the lady with an excess that was rare for him would count for little in terms of what Waymarsh might easily tally as her freedom. Waymarsh had smoked for a long time, and heavily; but now he wasn’t smoking at all, which gave him an advantage over people who picked things up lightly just when others had laid them down heavily. Strether had never smoked, and it felt like he flaunted to his friend that this was only for a reason. The reason, it seemed to begin to reveal even to himself, was that he had never had a lady to smoke with.
It was this lady’s being there at all, however, that was the strange free thing; perhaps, since she was there, her smoking was the least of her freedoms. If Strether had been sure at each juncture of what—with Bilham in especial—she talked about, he might have traced others and winced at them and felt Waymarsh wince; but he was in fact so often at sea that his sense of the range of reference was merely general and that he on several different occasions guessed and interpreted only to doubt. He wondered what they meant, but there were things he scarce thought they could be supposed to mean, and “Oh no—not that!” was at the end of most of his ventures. This was the very beginning with him of a condition as to which, later on, it will be seen, he found cause to pull himself up; and he was to remember the moment duly as the first step in a process. The central fact of the place was neither more nor less, when analysed—and a pressure superficial sufficed—than the fundamental impropriety of Chad’s situation, round about which they thus seemed cynically clustered. Accordingly, since they took it for granted, they took for granted all that was in connexion with it taken for granted at Woollett—matters as to which, verily, he had been reduced with Mrs. Newsome to the last intensity of silence. That was the consequence of their being too bad to be talked about, and was the accompaniment, by the same token, of a deep conception of their badness. It befell therefore that when poor Strether put it to himself that their badness was ultimately, or perhaps even insolently, what such a scene as the one before him was, so to speak, built upon, he could scarce shirk the dilemma of reading a roundabout echo of them into almost anything that came up. This, he was well aware, was a dreadful necessity; but such was the stern logic, he could only gather, of a relation to the irregular life.
It was the fact that this woman was even there that felt so strange and free; maybe, since she was present, her smoking was the least of her freedoms. If Strether had been sure about what she was talking about at each moment, especially with Bilham, he might have picked up on other things, winced at them, and felt Waymarsh wince too. But in reality, he was often lost, so his sense of the context was just general, and several times he guessed and interpreted only to second-guess himself. He wondered what they really meant, but there were things he hardly thought they could possibly mean, and “Oh no—not that!” was the end of most of his attempts. This was the very beginning for him of a state that later, as we’ll see, made him realize he needed to get a grip; he was to remember this moment as the first step in that process. The main issue of the place was, when analyzed—and a superficial examination sufficed—nothing more or less than the fundamental wrongness of Chad’s situation, around which they all seemed to gather cynically. So, since they took it for granted, they also took for granted everything connected to it that was assumed in Woollett—issues about which he had been reduced to the utmost silence with Mrs. Newsome. That was the result of them being too bad to discuss, which also reflected a deep understanding of their badness. Therefore, when poor Strether considered that their badness was ultimately, or perhaps even provocatively, what the scene in front of him was built on, he could hardly avoid the dilemma of finding indirect echoes of them in almost everything that emerged. He knew this was a dreadful necessity, but such was the harsh logic, as he could only conclude, of grappling with an irregular life.
It was the way the irregular life sat upon Bilham and Miss Barrace that was the insidious, the delicate marvel. He was eager to concede that their relation to it was all indirect, for anything else in him would have shown the grossness of bad manners; but the indirectness was none the less consonant—that was striking—with a grateful enjoyment of everything that was Chad’s. They spoke of him repeatedly, invoking his good name and good nature, and the worst confusion of mind for Strether was that all their mention of him was of a kind to do him honour. They commended his munificence and approved his taste, and in doing so sat down, as it seemed to Strether, in the very soil out of which these things flowered. Our friend’s final predicament was that he himself was sitting down, for the time, with them, and there was a supreme moment at which, compared with his collapse, Waymarsh’s erectness affected him as really high. One thing was certain—he saw he must make up his mind. He must approach Chad, must wait for him, deal with him, master him, but he mustn’t dispossess himself of the faculty of seeing things as they were. He must bring him to him—not go himself, as it were, so much of the way. He must at any rate be clearer as to what—should he continue to do that for convenience—he was still condoning. It was on the detail of this quantity—and what could the fact be but mystifying?—that Bilham and Miss Barrace threw so little light. So there they were.
It was how the irregular life affected Bilham and Miss Barrace that was the subtle, delicate wonder. He was eager to admit that their relationship to it was completely indirect, since any other stance he took would have shown a lack of manners; but that indirectness was nonetheless aligned—that was striking—with a thankful enjoyment of everything that was Chad's. They talked about him often, invoking his good name and good nature, and the worst confusion for Strether was that all their mentions of him honored him. They praised his generosity and approved of his taste, seemingly sitting down, as it appeared to Strether, in the very soil out of which these qualities grew. Our friend's ultimate dilemma was that he was, for the time being, with them, and there was a peak moment when, compared to his own collapse, Waymarsh's uprightness struck him as genuinely impressive. One thing was clear—he realized he had to make a decision. He had to approach Chad, wait for him, interact with him, master him, but he couldn’t lose the ability to see things as they truly were. He had to bring Chad to him—not go himself, so to speak, much of the way. He had to be clearer about what—should he continue to do that for convenience—he was still accepting. It was about the specifics of this situation—and what the reality could be but confusing?—that Bilham and Miss Barrace shed so little light. So there they were.
II
When Miss Gostrey arrived, at the end of a week, she made him a sign; he went immediately to see her, and it wasn’t till then that he could again close his grasp on the idea of a corrective. This idea however was luckily all before him again from the moment he crossed the threshold of the little entresol of the Quartier Marbœuf into which she had gathered, as she said, picking them up in a thousand flights and funny little passionate pounces, the makings of a final nest. He recognised in an instant that there really, there only, he should find the boon with the vision of which he had first mounted Chad’s stairs. He might have been a little scared at the picture of how much more, in this place, he should know himself “in” hadn’t his friend been on the spot to measure the amount to his appetite. Her compact and crowded little chambers, almost dusky, as they at first struck him, with accumulations, represented a supreme general adjustment to opportunities and conditions. Wherever he looked he saw an old ivory or an old brocade, and he scarce knew where to sit for fear of a misappliance. The life of the occupant struck him of a sudden as more charged with possession even than Chad’s or than Miss Barrace’s; wide as his glimpse had lately become of the empire of “things,” what was before him still enlarged it; the lust of the eyes and the pride of life had indeed thus their temple. It was the innermost nook of the shrine—as brown as a pirate’s cave. In the brownness were glints of gold; patches of purple were in the gloom; objects all that caught, through the muslin, with their high rarity, the light of the low windows. Nothing was clear about them but that they were precious, and they brushed his ignorance with their contempt as a flower, in a liberty taken with him, might have been whisked under his nose. But after a full look at his hostess he knew none the less what most concerned him. The circle in which they stood together was warm with life, and every question between them would live there as nowhere else. A question came up as soon as they had spoken, for his answer, with a laugh, was quickly: “Well, they’ve got hold of me!” Much of their talk on this first occasion was his development of that truth. He was extraordinarily glad to see her, expressing to her frankly what she most showed him, that one might live for years without a blessing unsuspected, but that to know it at last for no more than three days was to need it or miss it for ever. She was the blessing that had now become his need, and what could prove it better than that without her he had lost himself?
When Miss Gostrey arrived at the end of the week, she signaled to him; he went to see her right away, and it was then that he could once again grasp the idea of a solution. Fortunately, this idea was clear in his mind the moment he stepped into the small mezzanine in the Quartier Marbœuf, where she had gathered, as she put it, the pieces of a final nest from a thousand little flights and playful, passionate pounces. He instantly recognized that it was here, and only here, that he would find the blessing he had first felt when climbing Chad’s stairs. He might have been a bit intimidated by how much more he would understand himself “in” this space, if his friend hadn’t been there to gauge his appetite. Her compact and cluttered little rooms, which initially struck him as almost dim, represented a perfect alignment with possibilities and circumstances. Everywhere he looked, he saw an old ivory piece or an old brocade, and he didn’t quite know where to sit for fear of disturbing something. The presence of the occupant suddenly struck him as more intensely filled with possessions than even Chad’s or Miss Barrace’s; as much as his perspective had recently broadened regarding the realm of “things,” what he saw before him expanded it even more. The lust of the eyes and the pride of life truly had their sanctuary here. It was the innermost corner of the shrine—dark as a pirate’s cave. Among the darkness were glimmers of gold; splashes of purple appeared in the shadows; objects that, through the muslin, caught the light from the low windows with their rare beauty. The only clear thing about them was their value, and they brushed against his ignorance with disdain, like a flower might have flashed under his nose without invitation. But after a good look at his hostess, he nonetheless understood what mattered most to him. The space they stood in together pulsed with life, and every question between them would thrive there like nowhere else. A question arose as soon as they spoke, and he quickly responded with a laugh, “Well, they’ve got hold of me!” Much of their conversation during that first encounter revolved around his understanding of that truth. He was incredibly happy to see her, frankly expressing to her what she highlighted for him: that one might live for years without an unsuspected blessing, but once recognized, knowing it for just three days makes you need it or miss it forever. She was the blessing that had become his necessity, and what could demonstrate this better than the fact that without her, he had lost himself?
“What do you mean?” she asked with an absence of alarm that, correcting him as if he had mistaken the “period” of one of her pieces, gave him afresh a sense of her easy movement through the maze he had but begun to tread. “What in the name of all the Pococks have you managed to do?”
“What do you mean?” she asked, not sounding alarmed at all, correcting him as if he had mixed up the “period” in one of her pieces, giving him a renewed sense of her effortless navigation through the maze he had just started to enter. “What in the world have you managed to do?”
“Why exactly the wrong thing. I’ve made a frantic friend of little Bilham.”
“Why exactly did I choose the wrong thing? I’ve made a desperate friend out of little Bilham.”
“Ah that sort of thing was of the essence of your case and to have been allowed for from the first.” And it was only after this that, quite as a minor matter, she asked who in the world little Bilham might be. When she learned that he was a friend of Chad’s and living for the time in Chad’s rooms in Chad’s absence, quite as if acting in Chad’s spirit and serving Chad’s cause, she showed, however, more interest. “Should you mind my seeing him? Only once, you know,” she added.
“Ah, that kind of thing was essential to your case and should have been considered from the beginning.” It was only after this that, almost as a side note, she asked who little Bilham was. When she found out he was a friend of Chad’s and was temporarily staying in Chad’s room while he was away, almost as if he were representing Chad and supporting his interests, she showed a bit more interest. “Would you mind if I met him? Just once, you know,” she added.
“Oh the oftener the better: he’s amusing—he’s original.”
“Oh, the more often the better: he’s entertaining—he’s unique.”
“He doesn’t shock you?” Miss Gostrey threw out.
“He doesn’t surprise you?” Miss Gostrey asked.
“Never in the world! We escape that with a perfection—! I feel it to be largely, no doubt, because I don’t half-understand him; but our modus vivendi isn’t spoiled even by that. You must dine with me to meet him,” Strether went on. “Then you’ll see.’
“Never in the world! We avoid that so perfectly—! I feel it’s mainly because I don’t fully understand him; but our modus vivendi isn’t affected even by that. You have to have dinner with me to meet him,” Strether continued. “Then you’ll see.”
“Are you giving dinners?”
"Are you hosting dinners?"
“Yes—there I am. That’s what I mean.”
“Yes—there I am. That’s what I mean.”
All her kindness wondered. “That you’re spending too much money?”
All her kindness was surprised. “Are you spending too much money?”
“Dear no—they seem to cost so little. But that I do it to them. I ought to hold off.”
“Absolutely not—they seem so cheap. But I do it to them. I should probably wait.”
She thought again—she laughed. “The money you must be spending to think it cheap! But I must be out of it—to the naked eye.”
She thought about it again and laughed. “You must be spending a lot to think it’s cheap! But I need to stay out of it—to the naked eye.”
He looked for a moment as if she were really failing him. “Then you won’t meet them?” It was almost as if she had developed an unexpected personal prudence.
He looked for a moment as if she was really letting him down. “So you’re not going to meet them?” It felt like she had suddenly become unusually cautious.
She hesitated. “Who are they—first?”
She paused. “Who are they—first?”
“Why little Bilham to begin with.” He kept back for the moment Miss Barrace. “And Chad—when he comes—you must absolutely see.”
“Why start with little Bilham?” He held back Miss Barrace for a moment. “And Chad—when he arrives—you have to see him.”
“When then does he come?”
“When is he coming then?”
“When Bilham has had time to write him, and hear from him about me. Bilham, however,” he pursued, “will report favourably—favourably for Chad. That will make him not afraid to come. I want you the more therefore, you see, for my bluff.”
“When Bilham has had a chance to write to him and hear back about me. Bilham, though,” he continued, “will give a positive report—positive for Chad. That will make him less hesitant to come. I need you even more for my bluff.”
“Oh you’ll do yourself for your bluff.” She was perfectly easy. “At the rate you’ve gone I’m quiet.”
“Oh, you'll get yourself into trouble with your bluff.” She was completely relaxed. “At the pace you're going, I'm just fine.”
“Ah but I haven’t,” said Strether, “made one protest.”
“Ah, but I haven’t,” Strether said, “made a single protest.”
She turned it over. “Haven’t you been seeing what there’s to protest about?”
She flipped it over. “Haven’t you been paying attention to what there is to protest about?”
He let her, with this, however ruefully, have the whole truth. “I haven’t yet found a single thing.”
He reluctantly gave her the whole truth. “I still haven’t found a single thing.”
“Isn’t there any one with him then?”
“Isn’t there anyone with him then?”
“Of the sort I came out about?” Strether took a moment. “How do I know? And what do I care?”
“Of the kind I talked about?” Strether paused for a moment. “How would I know? And why should I care?”
“Oh oh!”—and her laughter spread. He was struck in fact by the effect on her of his joke. He saw now how he meant it as a joke. She saw, however, still other things, though in an instant she had hidden them. “You’ve got at no facts at all?”
“Oh wow!”—and her laughter spread. He was genuinely surprised by the impact his joke had on her. He realized now that he intended it as a joke. She saw, however, other things as well, but she quickly concealed them. “You don’t have any facts at all?”
He tried to muster them. “Well, he has a lovely home.”
He tried to gather his thoughts. “Well, he has a beautiful home.”
“Ah that, in Paris,” she quickly returned, “proves nothing. That is rather it disproves nothing. They may very well, you see, the people your mission is concerned with, have done it for him.”
“Ah that, in Paris,” she quickly replied, “proves nothing. In fact, it really disproves nothing. The people your mission is focused on could very well have done it for him.”
“Exactly. And it was on the scene of their doings then that Waymarsh and I sat guzzling.”
“Exactly. And it was at the place of their actions that Waymarsh and I were sitting and drinking.”
“Oh if you forbore to guzzle here on scenes of doings,” she replied, “you might easily die of starvation.” With which she smiled at him. “You’ve worse before you.”
“Oh, if you held back from indulging in all this chaos,” she replied, “you might just end up starving.” With that, she smiled at him. “You’ve got worse ahead.”
“Ah I’ve everything before me. But on our hypothesis, you know, they must be wonderful.”
“Ah, I have everything in front of me. But based on our assumption, you know, they must be amazing.”
“They are!” said Miss Gostrey. “You’re not therefore, you see,” she added, “wholly without facts. They’ve been, in effect, wonderful.”
“They are!” said Miss Gostrey. “So, you’re not completely lacking facts, you see,” she added, “They’ve been, in reality, amazing.”
To have got at something comparatively definite appeared at last a little to help—a wave by which moreover, the next moment, recollection was washed. “My young man does admit furthermore that they’re our friend’s great interest.”
To have gotten to something fairly definite finally seemed to help a bit—a wave that, in the next moment, washed away my memory. “My young man does admit that they’re our friend’s main concern.”
“Is that the expression he uses?”
“Is that the phrase he uses?”
Strether more exactly recalled. “No—not quite.”
Strether remembered more clearly. “No—not really.”
“Something more vivid? Less?”
"Something more vivid or less?"
He had bent, with neared glasses, over a group of articles on a small stand; and at this he came up. “It was a mere allusion, but, on the lookout as I was, it struck me. ‘Awful, you know, as Chad is’—those were Bilham’s words.”
He had leaned forward, with his glasses nearby, over a collection of articles on a small stand; and at this, he stood up. “It was just a passing reference, but, being attentive as I was, it caught my attention. ‘Awful, you know, as Chad is’—those were Bilham’s words.”
“‘Awful, you know’—? Oh!”—and Miss Gostrey turned them over. She seemed, however, satisfied. “Well, what more do you want?”
“‘Awful, you know’—? Oh!”—and Miss Gostrey flipped them around. She did seem satisfied, though. “Well, what else do you want?”
He glanced once more at a bibelot or two, and everything sent him back. “But it is all the same as if they wished to let me have it between the eyes.”
He took another look at a knick-knack or two, and everything made him remember. “But it is just like they want to hit me right in the face.”
She wondered. “Quoi donc?”
She wondered. “What the heck?”
“Why what I speak of. The amenity. They can stun you with that as well as with anything else.”
“Why, what I'm talking about is the charm. They can impress you with that just as much as anything else.”
“Oh,” she answered, “you’ll come round! I must see them each,” she went on, “for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. Newsome—Mr. Bilham naturally first. Once only—once for each; that will do. But face to face—for half an hour. What’s Mr. Chad,” she immediately pursued, “doing at Cannes? Decent men don’t go to Cannes with the—well, with the kind of ladies you mean.”
“Oh,” she said, “you’ll come around! I need to see them each,” she continued, “for myself. I mean Mr. Bilham and Mr. Newsome—Mr. Bilham first, of course. Just once—once for each; that will be enough. But I want to meet them face to face—for half an hour. What’s Mr. Chad,” she immediately followed up, “doing in Cannes? Respectable men don’t go to Cannes with the—well, with the kind of women you’re talking about.”
“Don’t they?” Strether asked with an interest in decent men that amused her.
“Don’t they?” Strether asked, showing an interest in decent men that she found amusing.
“No, elsewhere, but not to Cannes. Cannes is different. Cannes is better. Cannes is best. I mean it’s all people you know—when you do know them. And if he does, why that’s different too. He must have gone alone. She can’t be with him.”
“No, somewhere else, but not Cannes. Cannes is special. Cannes is the best. I mean, it’s all people you know—when you actually know them. And if he knows them, that’s different too. He must have gone by himself. She can’t be with him.”
“I haven’t,” Strether confessed in his weakness, “the least idea.” There seemed much in what she said, but he was able after a little to help her to a nearer impression. The meeting with little Bilham took place, by easy arrangement, in the great gallery of the Louvre; and when, standing with his fellow visitor before one of the splendid Titians—the overwhelming portrait of the young man with the strangely-shaped glove and the blue-grey eyes—he turned to see the third member of their party advance from the end of the waxed and gilded vista, he had a sense of having at last taken hold. He had agreed with Miss Gostrey—it dated even from Chester—for a morning at the Louvre, and he had embraced independently the same idea as thrown out by little Bilham, whom he had already accompanied to the museum of the Luxembourg. The fusion of these schemes presented no difficulty, and it was to strike him again that in little Bilham’s company contrarieties in general dropped.
“I haven’t,” Strether admitted, feeling weak, “the slightest idea.” There seemed to be a lot in what she said, but after a moment, he was able to help her get a clearer impression. The meeting with little Bilham happened, by simple arrangement, in the grand gallery of the Louvre; and when, standing with his fellow visitor in front of one of the magnificent Titians—the stunning portrait of the young man with the oddly shaped glove and the blue-grey eyes—he turned to see the third member of their group approach from the end of the polished and gilded hallway, he felt like he had finally found his footing. He had made plans with Miss Gostrey—it dated back even to Chester—for a morning at the Louvre, and he had independently embraced the same idea that little Bilham had suggested, whom he had already taken to the museum of the Luxembourg. The combination of these plans posed no problems, and it struck him again that in little Bilham’s company, differences in general just seemed to disappear.
“Oh he’s all right—he’s one of us!” Miss Gostrey, after the first exchange, soon found a chance to murmur to her companion; and Strether, as they proceeded and paused and while a quick unanimity between the two appeared to have phrased itself in half a dozen remarks—Strether knew that he knew almost immediately what she meant, and took it as still another sign that he had got his job in hand. This was the more grateful to him that he could think of the intelligence now serving him as an acquisition positively new. He wouldn’t have known even the day before what she meant—that is if she meant, what he assumed, that they were intense Americans together. He had just worked round—and with a sharper turn of the screw than any yet—to the conception of an American intense as little Bilham was intense. The young man was his first specimen; the specimen had profoundly perplexed him; at present however there was light. It was by little Bilham’s amazing serenity that he had at first been affected, but he had inevitably, in his circumspection, felt it as the trail of the serpent, the corruption, as he might conveniently have said, of Europe; whereas the promptness with which it came up for Miss Gostrey but as a special little form of the oldest thing they knew justified it at once to his own vision as well. He wanted to be able to like his specimen with a clear good conscience, and this fully permitted it. What had muddled him was precisely the small artist-man’s way—it was so complete—of being more American than anybody. But it now for the time put Strether vastly at his ease to have this view of a new way.
“Oh, he’s fine—he’s one of us!” Miss Gostrey, after their initial conversation, soon found an opportunity to whisper to her companion; and Strether, as they continued to walk and stopped along the way while a quick connection between them seemed to have been captured in a few remarks—Strether realized that he immediately understood what she meant and saw it as yet another sign that he was on top of his task. This was particularly reassuring for him since he viewed the insight he was gaining as something completely new. He wouldn’t have grasped even the day before what she was implying—assuming she meant, as he believed, that they were both intense Americans. He had just come around—and with a sharper realization than any before—to the idea of an American being as intense as little Bilham. The young man was his first example; this example had deeply confused him; however, at the moment, clarity had emerged. It was little Bilham’s remarkable calmness that had initially struck him, but he had inevitably, in his caution, perceived it as a kind of deceit, a corruption, as he might have put it, of Europe; yet the way Miss Gostrey referred to it as a specific small form of the oldest thing they knew justified it to him as well. He wanted to be able to like his example without any guilt, and this fully allowed him to do so. What had confused him was precisely the small artist-man’s way—it was so complete—of being more American than anyone else. But now, for the time being, this perspective on a new way greatly eased Strether’s mind.
The amiable youth then looked out, as it had first struck Strether, at a world in respect to which he hadn’t a prejudice. The one our friend most instantly missed was the usual one in favour of an occupation accepted. Little Bilham had an occupation, but it was only an occupation declined; and it was by his general exemption from alarm, anxiety or remorse on this score that the impression of his serenity was made. He had come out to Paris to paint—to fathom, that is, at large, that mystery; but study had been fatal to him so far as anything could be fatal, and his productive power faltered in proportion as his knowledge grew. Strether had gathered from him that at the moment of his finding him in Chad’s rooms he hadn’t saved from his shipwreck a scrap of anything but his beautiful intelligence and his confirmed habit of Paris. He referred to these things with an equal fond familiarity, and it was sufficiently clear that, as an outfit, they still served him. They were charming to Strether through the hour spent at the Louvre, where indeed they figured for him as an unseparated part of the charged iridescent air, the glamour of the name, the splendour of the space, the colour of the masters. Yet they were present too wherever the young man led, and the day after the visit to the Louvre they hung, in a different walk, about the steps of our party. He had invited his companions to cross the river with him, offering to show them his own poor place; and his own poor place, which was very poor, gave to his idiosyncrasies, for Strether—the small sublime indifference and independences that had struck the latter as fresh—an odd and engaging dignity. He lived at the end of an alley that went out of an old short cobbled street, a street that went in turn out of a new long smooth avenue—street and avenue and alley having, however, in common a sort of social shabbiness; and he introduced them to the rather cold and blank little studio which he had lent to a comrade for the term of his elegant absence. The comrade was another ingenuous compatriot, to whom he had wired that tea was to await them “regardless,” and this reckless repast, and the second ingenuous compatriot, and the faraway makeshift life, with its jokes and its gaps, its delicate daubs and its three or four chairs, its overflow of taste and conviction and its lack of nearly all else—these things wove round the occasion a spell to which our hero unreservedly surrendered.
The friendly young man then looked out, as it first struck Strether, at a world he didn’t have any prejudice against. The one our friend instantly noticed was the usual one in favor of an accepted job. Little Bilham had a job, but it was just a job he had turned down; and it was by his general lack of alarm, anxiety, or guilt about it that the impression of his calmness was made. He had come to Paris to paint—to explore, in a general sense, that mystery; but studying had been detrimental to him as far as anything could be detrimental, and his ability to create faltered as his knowledge increased. Strether gathered from him that when he found him in Chad’s rooms, he hadn’t salvaged from his shipwreck anything except his beautiful intelligence and his established habit of Paris. He talked about these things with a familiar fondness, and it was clear they still served him well as an outfit. They were charming to Strether during the hour spent at the Louvre, where they felt to him like an inseparable part of the vibrant air, the allure of the name, the majesty of the space, the colors of the masters. Yet they were also present wherever the young man led, and the day after the visit to the Louvre, they lingered, in a different setting, around the steps of their group. He had invited his friends to cross the river with him, offering to show them his humble place; and his humble place, which was indeed very poor, gave an odd and appealing dignity to his quirks for Strether—the small sublime indifference and independence that struck him as fresh. He lived at the end of an alley that branched off an old short cobblestone street, which in turn connected to a new long smooth avenue—street, avenue, and alley all sharing a sort of social shabby charm; and he took them to the somewhat cold and bare little studio that he had lent to a friend during his stylish absence. The friend was another innocent compatriot, to whom he had messaged that tea would await them “regardless,” and this casual meal, along with the second innocent compatriot, and the distant makeshift life, with its jokes and gaps, its delicate sketches and its three or four chairs, its overflow of taste and conviction and its lack of almost everything else—these elements created a spell around the occasion to which our hero completely surrendered.
He liked the ingenuous compatriots—for two or three others soon gathered; he liked the delicate daubs and the free discriminations—involving references indeed, involving enthusiasms and execrations that made him, as they said, sit up; he liked above all the legend of good-humoured poverty, of mutual accommodation fairly raised to the romantic, that he soon read into the scene. The ingenuous compatriots showed a candour, he thought, surpassing even the candour of Woollett; they were red-haired and long-legged, they were quaint and queer and dear and droll; they made the place resound with the vernacular, which he had never known so marked as when figuring for the chosen language, he must suppose, of contemporary art. They twanged with a vengeance the æsthetic lyre—they drew from it wonderful airs. This aspect of their life had an admirable innocence; and he looked on occasion at Maria Gostrey to see to what extent that element reached her. She gave him however for the hour, as she had given him the previous day, no further sign than to show how she dealt with boys; meeting them with the air of old Parisian practice that she had for every one, for everything, in turn. Wonderful about the delicate daubs, masterful about the way to make tea, trustful about the legs of chairs and familiarly reminiscent of those, in the other time, the named, the numbered or the caricatured, who had flourished or failed, disappeared or arrived, she had accepted with the best grace her second course of little Bilham, and had said to Strether, the previous afternoon on his leaving them, that, since her impression was to be renewed, she would reserve judgement till after the new evidence.
He liked the genuine locals—for two or three others quickly joined; he appreciated the delicate artistic touches and the thoughtful distinctions—complete with references, passions, and criticisms that made him, as they said, pay attention; but above all, he loved the story of cheerful poverty, of a mutual understanding elevated to something romantic that he soon saw in the scene. The genuine locals showed a sincerity that he thought surpassed even that of Woollett; they were red-haired and long-legged, they were quirky and charming and amusing; they filled the place with the local dialect, which he had never heard so prominently as when it appeared to be the chosen language of contemporary art. They passionately played the aesthetic lyre—they produced wonderful melodies. This side of their life had a remarkable innocence; and he occasionally glanced at Maria Gostrey to see how much that quality affected her. However, for that hour, just like the day before, she gave him no further indication other than how she interacted with guys; she approached them with the manner of an experienced Parisian that she had for everyone and everything, in turn. She was wonderful about the delicate artistic touches, skilled in making tea, trusting about the legs of chairs, and fondly nostalgic about those from the past—the named, the numbered, or the caricatured—who had thrived or faltered, vanished or arrived. She accepted her second serving of little Bilham with great grace and had told Strether, the previous afternoon as he left them, that since her impression was to be refreshed, she would hold off on judgment until after the new information.
The new evidence was to come, as it proved, in a day or two. He soon had from Maria a message to the effect that an excellent box at the Français had been lent her for the following night; it seeming on such occasions not the least of her merits that she was subject to such approaches. The sense of how she was always paying for something in advance was equalled on Strether’s part only by the sense of how she was always being paid; all of which made for his consciousness, in the larger air, of a lively bustling traffic, the exchange of such values as were not for him to handle. She hated, he knew, at the French play, anything but a box—just as she hated at the English anything but a stall; and a box was what he was already in this phase girding himself to press upon her. But she had for that matter her community with little Bilham: she too always, on the great issues, showed as having known in time. It made her constantly beforehand with him and gave him mainly the chance to ask himself how on the day of their settlement their account would stand. He endeavoured even now to keep it a little straight by arranging that if he accepted her invitation she should dine with him first; but the upshot of this scruple was that at eight o’clock on the morrow he awaited her with Waymarsh under the pillared portico. She hadn’t dined with him, and it was characteristic of their relation that she had made him embrace her refusal without in the least understanding it. She ever caused her rearrangements to affect him as her tenderest touches. It was on that principle for instance that, giving him the opportunity to be amiable again to little Bilham, she had suggested his offering the young man a seat in their box. Strether had dispatched for this purpose a small blue missive to the Boulevard Malesherbes, but up to the moment of their passing into the theatre he had received no response to his message. He held, however, even after they had been for some time conveniently seated, that their friend, who knew his way about, would come in at his own right moment. His temporary absence moreover seemed, as never yet, to make the right moment for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting till tonight to get back from her in some mirrored form her impressions and conclusions. She had elected, as they said, to see little Bilham once; but now she had seen him twice and had nevertheless not said more than a word.
The new evidence was coming in a day or two. He soon got a message from Maria saying that an excellent box at the Français had been lent to her for the following night; it seemed that one of her qualities was being open to such offers. The awareness of how she was always paying something upfront was matched for Strether only by the awareness of how she was always getting paid; all this made him feel, in the broader scheme of things, a lively bustling exchange, dealing with values that weren’t for him to manage. He knew she hated anything but a box at the French play—just like she hated anything but a stall at the English theater; and a box was what he was already preparing to offer her. But she had her connection with little Bilham: she too always seemed to know what was coming on the big issues. This made her constantly ahead of him and mainly gave him the chance to wonder how their accounts would stand on the day they settled things. He even tried to keep it somewhat clear by planning that if he accepted her invitation, she would dine with him first; but in the end, he found himself waiting for her with Waymarsh under the pillared portico at eight o’clock the next evening. She hadn’t dined with him, and it was typical of their relationship that she made him accept her refusal without really understanding it. She always made her changes feel like her fondest gestures toward him. For instance, giving him the chance to be nice again to little Bilham, she suggested he offer the young man a seat in their box. Strether had sent a small blue note to Boulevard Malesherbes for this purpose, but right up until they entered the theater, he had received no reply to his message. However, even after they had settled in comfortably for some time, he believed their friend, who knew the ropes, would show up at the right moment. Surprisingly, his temporary absence seemed, as never before, to set the stage for Miss Gostrey. Strether had been waiting until tonight to hear her mirrored impressions and conclusions. She had chosen, as they put it, to see little Bilham once; but now she had seen him twice and still hadn’t said more than a word.
Waymarsh meanwhile sat opposite him with their hostess between; and Miss Gostrey spoke of herself as an instructor of youth introducing her little charges to a work that was one of the glories of literature. The glory was happily unobjectionable, and the little charges were candid; for herself she had travelled that road and she merely waited on their innocence. But she referred in due time to their absent friend, whom it was clear they should have to give up. “He either won’t have got your note,” she said, “or you won’t have got his: he has had some kind of hindrance, and, of course, for that matter, you know, a man never writes about coming to a box.” She spoke as if, with her look, it might have been Waymarsh who had written to the youth, and the latter’s face showed a mixture of austerity and anguish. She went on however as if to meet this. “He’s far and away, you know, the best of them.”
Waymarsh sat across from him with their hostess in between, and Miss Gostrey talked about herself as a teacher introducing her young students to a piece that was one of the great works of literature. The piece was, luckily, uncontroversial, and the kids were honest; as for her, she had walked that path herself and was just waiting for their innocence. But she eventually mentioned their missing friend, who it was obvious they would have to let go of. “He either hasn’t received your note,” she said, “or you haven’t gotten his: he’s faced some kind of obstacle, and, of course, you know, a man never writes about coming to a show.” She spoke as if it might have been Waymarsh who had written to the guy, and the latter's face showed a mix of seriousness and pain. Yet she continued as if to counter this. “He’s by far the best of them.”
“The best of whom, ma’am?”
"The best of them, ma'am?"
“Why of all the long procession—the boys, the girls, or the old men and old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one may say, of our country. They’ve all passed, year after year; but there has been no one in particular I’ve ever wanted to stop. I feel—don’t you?—that I want to stop little Bilham; he’s so exactly right as he is.” She continued to talk to Waymarsh. “He’s too delightful. If he’ll only not spoil it! But they always will; they always do; they always have.”
“Why of all the long procession—the boys, the girls, or the old men and old women as they sometimes really are; the hope, as one might say, of our country. They’ve all come and gone year after year; but there’s never been anyone in particular I’ve wanted to stop. I feel—don’t you?—that I want to stop little Bilham; he’s just perfect as he is.” She kept talking to Waymarsh. “He’s too delightful. If only he doesn’t spoil it! But they always will; they always do; they always have.”
“I don’t think Waymarsh knows,” Strether said after a moment, “quite what it’s open to Bilham to spoil.”
“I don’t think Waymarsh understands,” Strether said after a moment, “exactly what Bilham can mess up.”
“It can’t be a good American,” Waymarsh lucidly enough replied; “for it didn’t strike me the young man had developed much in that shape.”
“It can’t be a good American,” Waymarsh clearly replied; “because it didn’t seem to me that the young man had grown much in that way.”
“Ah,” Miss Gostrey sighed, “the name of the good American is as easily given as taken away! What is it, to begin with, to be one, and what’s the extraordinary hurry? Surely nothing that’s so pressing was ever so little defined. It’s such an order, really, that before we cook you the dish we must at least have your receipt. Besides the poor chicks have time! What I’ve seen so often spoiled,” she pursued, “is the happy attitude itself, the state of faith and—what shall I call it?—the sense of beauty. You’re right about him”—she now took in Strether; “little Bilham has them to a charm, we must keep little Bilham along.” Then she was all again for Waymarsh. “The others have all wanted so dreadfully to do something, and they’ve gone and done it in too many cases indeed. It leaves them never the same afterwards; the charm’s always somehow broken. Now he, I think, you know, really won’t. He won’t do the least dreadful little thing. We shall continue to enjoy him just as he is. No—he’s quite beautiful. He sees everything. He isn’t a bit ashamed. He has every scrap of the courage of it that one could ask. Only think what he might do. One wants really—for fear of some accident—to keep him in view. At this very moment perhaps what mayn’t he be up to? I’ve had my disappointments—the poor things are never really safe; or only at least when you have them under your eye. One can never completely trust them. One’s uneasy, and I think that’s why I most miss him now.”
“Ah,” Miss Gostrey sighed, “the name of a good American can be given or taken away just as easily! What does it even mean to be one, and why the rush? Surely, nothing that feels so urgent is really that well-defined. It’s such a situation, honestly, that before we serve you this dish, we need to at least have your recipe. Besides, the poor kids have time! What I’ve often seen ruined,” she continued, “is the joyful attitude itself, the state of faith and—what should I call it?—the sense of beauty. You’re right about him”—she now turned to Strether; “little Bilham has that charm; we must keep little Bilham around.” Then she focused back on Waymarsh. “The others have all been so eager to do something, and in many cases, they’ve gone and done it. It leaves them never quite the same; the charm somehow gets broken. But I think he won’t. He won’t do a single terrible little thing. We’ll keep enjoying him just as he is. No—he’s truly wonderful. He sees everything. He isn’t at all ashamed. He has all the courage one could want. Just think about what he might do. One really wants to keep an eye on him, just to be safe. Right now, who knows what he might be up to? I’ve had my disappointments—the poor things are never really safe; or at least, only when you’re watching them. You can never fully trust them. It makes you uneasy, and I think that’s why I miss him the most right now.”
She had wound up with a laugh of enjoyment over her embroidery of her idea—an enjoyment that her face communicated to Strether, who almost wished none the less at this moment that she would let poor Waymarsh alone. He knew more or less what she meant; but the fact wasn’t a reason for her not pretending to Waymarsh that he didn’t. It was craven of him perhaps, but he would, for the high amenity of the occasion, have liked Waymarsh not to be so sure of his wit. Her recognition of it gave him away and, before she had done with him or with that article, would give him worse. What was he, all the same, to do? He looked across the box at his friend; their eyes met; something queer and stiff, something that bore on the situation but that it was better not to touch, passed in silence between them. Well, the effect of it for Strether was an abrupt reaction, a final impatience of his own tendency to temporise. Where was that taking him anyway? It was one of the quiet instants that sometimes settle more matters than the outbreaks dear to the historic muse. The only qualification of the quietness was the synthetic “Oh hang it!” into which Strether’s share of the silence soundlessly flowered. It represented, this mute ejaculation, a final impulse to burn his ships. These ships, to the historic muse, may seem of course mere cockles, but when he presently spoke to Miss Gostrey it was with the sense at least of applying the torch. “Is it then a conspiracy?”
She ended up laughing with delight over her embroidery of her idea—an enjoyment that her face conveyed to Strether, who, at that moment, wished she would just leave poor Waymarsh alone. He had a rough idea of what she meant; however, that didn’t mean she had to pretend to Waymarsh that he didn’t. It was probably cowardly of him, but he would have preferred, for the sake of the occasion's cordiality, that Waymarsh wasn’t so confident in his cleverness. Her acknowledgment of it gave him away and, before she was finished with him or that subject, it would expose him even more. What was he supposed to do, anyway? He glanced across the box at his friend; their eyes met; something strange and tense, something related to the situation but better left undiscussed, passed silently between them. For Strether, this led to a sudden reaction, a final impatience with his tendency to hesitate. Where was that leading him anyway? It was one of those quiet moments that sometimes resolve more issues than the dramatic outbursts favored by history. The only twist in the silence was the synthetic “Oh, come on!” that silently emerged from Strether. This unvoiced expression represented a final urge to cut ties. To the historical narrative, these ties might seem trivial, but when he finally spoke to Miss Gostrey, it was with the intention of igniting the flame. “Is it really a conspiracy?”
“Between the two young men? Well, I don’t pretend to be a seer or a prophetess,” she presently replied; “but if I’m simply a woman of sense he’s working for you to-night. I don’t quite know how—but it’s in my bones.” And she looked at him at last as if, little material as she yet gave him, he’d really understand. “For an opinion that’s my opinion. He makes you out too well not to.”
“Between those two young men? Well, I’m not trying to be a fortune teller or anything,” she said after a moment. “But if I’m just being sensible, he’s working for you tonight. I can’t explain it, but I just feel it in my bones.” Then she finally looked at him as if, despite how little she was telling him, he would really get it. “For what it’s worth, that’s my opinion. He talks about you too positively not to.”
“Not to work for me to-night?” Strether wondered. “Then I hope he isn’t doing anything very bad.”
“Not going to work for me tonight?” Strether thought. “Then I hope he’s not getting into anything too trouble.”
“They’ve got you,” she portentously answered.
"They've got you," she said ominously.
“Do you mean he is—?”
“Do you mean he is—?”
“They’ve got you,” she merely repeated. Though she disclaimed the prophetic vision she was at this instant the nearest approach he had ever met to the priestess of the oracle. The light was in her eyes. “You must face it now.”
“They’ve got you,” she just repeated. Although she downplayed any prophetic insight, at that moment she was the closest thing he had ever encountered to an oracle. The light was in her eyes. “You have to confront it now.”
He faced it on the spot. “They had arranged—?”
He confronted it right away. “They had arranged—?”
“Every move in the game. And they’ve been arranging ever since. He has had every day his little telegram from Cannes.”
“Every move in the game. And they’ve been planning ever since. He has received his little telegram from Cannes every day.”
It made Strether open his eyes. “Do you know that?”
It made Strether open his eyes. “Do you know that?”
“I do better. I see it. This was, before I met him, what I wondered whether I was to see. But as soon as I met him I ceased to wonder, and our second meeting made me sure. I took him all in. He was acting—he is still—on his daily instructions.”
“I do better. I see it. Before I met him, I was curious about whether I was going to see this. But the moment I met him, I stopped wondering, and our second meeting confirmed it. I took him all in. He was acting—he still is—based on his daily instructions.”
“So that Chad has done the whole thing?”
"So Chad handled everything?"
“Oh no—not the whole. We’ve done some of it. You and I and ‘Europe.’”
“Oh no—not everything. We’ve done part of it. You, me, and ‘Europe.’”
“Europe—yes,” Strether mused.
"Europe—yes," Strether thought.
“Dear old Paris,” she seemed to explain. But there was more, and, with one of her turns, she risked it. “And dear old Waymarsh. You,” she declared, “have been a good bit of it.”
“Dear old Paris,” she seemed to say. But there was more, and, with one of her gestures, she took the chance. “And dear old Waymarsh. You,” she said, “have been a big part of it.”
He sat massive. “A good bit of what, ma’am?”
He sat there, big and imposing. “What do you mean, ma’am?”
“Why of the wonderful consciousness of our friend here. You’ve helped too in your way to float him to where he is.”
“Why, look at the amazing awareness of our friend here. You’ve also played your part in supporting him to get to where he is.”
“And where the devil is he?”
“And where the heck is he?”
She passed it on with a laugh. “Where the devil, Strether, are you?”
She forwarded it with a laugh. “Where on earth, Strether, are you?”
He spoke as if he had just been thinking it out. “Well, quite already in Chad’s hands, it would seem.” And he had had with this another thought. “Will that be—just all through Bilham—the way he’s going to work it? It would be, for him, you know, an idea. And Chad with an idea—!”
He spoke as if he had just figured it out. “Well, it seems like it’s already in Chad’s hands.” And he had another thought with this. “Is that going to be—just throughout Bilham—the way he plans to do it? It would be, for him, you know, a concept. And Chad with a concept—!”
“Well?” she asked while the image held him.
“Well?” she asked as the image captured him.
“Well, is Chad—what shall I say?—monstrous?”
“Well, is Chad—how should I put it?—terrible?”
“Oh as much as you like! But the idea you speak of,” she said, “won’t have been his best. He’ll have a better. It won’t be all through little Bilham that he’ll work it.”
“Oh, as much as you want! But the idea you’re talking about,” she said, “won’t be his best. He’ll come up with something better. It won’t all be through little Bilham that he’ll make it happen.”
This already sounded almost like a hope destroyed. “Through whom else then?”
This already sounded almost like a hope lost. “So who else then?”
“That’s what we shall see!” But quite as she spoke she turned, and Strether turned; for the door of the box had opened, with the click of the ouvreuse, from the lobby, and a gentleman, a stranger to them, had come in with a quick step. The door closed behind him, and, though their faces showed him his mistake, his air, which was striking, was all good confidence. The curtain had just again arisen, and, in the hush of the general attention, Strether’s challenge was tacit, as was also the greeting, with a quickly deprecating hand and smile, of the unannounced visitor. He discreetly signed that he would wait, would stand, and these things and his face, one look from which she had caught, had suddenly worked for Miss Gostrey. She fitted to them all an answer for Strether’s last question. The solid stranger was simply the answer—as she now, turning to her friend, indicated. She brought it straight out for him—it presented the intruder. “Why, through this gentleman!” The gentleman indeed, at the same time, though sounding for Strether a very short name, did practically as much to explain. Strether gasped the name back—then only had he seen Miss Gostrey had said more than she knew. They were in presence of Chad himself.
“That’s what we’ll see!” But just as she said this, she turned, and Strether turned too; the door of the box had opened with the click of the ouvreuse from the lobby, and a man, a stranger to them, came in quickly. The door closed behind him, and even though their expressions indicated his error, he carried himself with such confidence. The curtain had just risen again, and in the silence filled with the attention of the crowd, Strether's challenge was implied, as was the polite wave and smile from the unexpected guest. He discreetly indicated that he would wait, standing there, and this, along with his face—one glance of which she had caught—suddenly made sense to Miss Gostrey. She found the answer to Strether’s last question. The solid stranger was the answer—as she now indicated to her friend. She brought it right out for him—it identified the intruder. “Well, through this gentleman!” The gentleman, indeed, although it sounded like a very short name to Strether, practically did as much to clarify the situation. Strether echoed the name back—only then did he realize Miss Gostrey had said more than she realized. They were in the presence of Chad himself.
Our friend was to go over it afterwards again and again—he was going over it much of the time that they were together, and they were together constantly for three or four days: the note had been so strongly struck during that first half-hour that everything happening since was comparatively a minor development. The fact was that his perception of the young man’s identity—so absolutely checked for a minute—had been quite one of the sensations that count in life; he certainly had never known one that had acted, as he might have said, with more of a crowded rush. And the rush though both vague and multitudinous, had lasted a long time, protected, as it were, yet at the same time aggravated, by the circumstance of its coinciding with a stretch of decorous silence. They couldn’t talk without disturbing the spectators in the part of the balcony just below them; and it, for that matter, came to Strether—being a thing of the sort that did come to him—that these were the accidents of a high civilisation; the imposed tribute to propriety, the frequent exposure to conditions, usually brilliant, in which relief has to await its time. Relief was never quite near at hand for kings, queens, comedians and other such people, and though you might be yourself not exactly one of those, you could yet, in leading the life of high pressure, guess a little how they sometimes felt. It was truly the life of high pressure that Strether had seemed to feel himself lead while he sat there, close to Chad, during the long tension of the act. He was in presence of a fact that occupied his whole mind, that occupied for the half-hour his senses themselves all together; but he couldn’t without inconvenience show anything—which moreover might count really as luck. What he might have shown, had he shown at all, was exactly the kind of emotion—the emotion of bewilderment—that he had proposed to himself from the first, whatever should occur, to show least. The phenomenon that had suddenly sat down there with him was a phenomenon of change so complete that his imagination, which had worked so beforehand, felt itself, in the connexion, without margin or allowance. It had faced every contingency but that Chad should not be Chad, and this was what it now had to face with a mere strained smile and an uncomfortable flush.
Our friend was going to revisit it over and over again—he was thinking about it a lot while they were together, which was basically non-stop for three or four days. The note had been so strongly struck during that first half-hour that everything that happened afterward felt like a minor development. The truth was that his understanding of the young man’s identity—so perfectly clear for that brief moment—had been one of those sensations that really matter in life; he certainly had never experienced one that felt, as he might have put it, like such a rush. And although that rush was both vague and overwhelming, it lasted for a long stretch, protected, in a way, yet also complicated, by the fact that it coincided with a period of proper silence. They couldn’t talk without bothering the spectators in the balcony just below them; and it struck Strether—being the kind of thing that did strike him—that these were the quirks of a high civilization; the necessary homage to propriety, the regular exposure to typically dazzling situations, where relief had to patiently wait. Relief was never really close at hand for kings, queens, comedians, and others like them, and even if you weren’t one of those, you could still imagine how they sometimes felt while living under pressure. It truly was a life of high pressure that Strether seemed to feel he was leading while sitting there, near Chad, during the long tension of the performance. He was confronted with a reality that consumed his entire mind, that engaged his senses completely for half an hour; but he couldn’t comfortably express anything—which, in fact, could be seen as good luck. What he might have shown, had he chosen to show anything at all, was precisely the kind of emotion—the feeling of bewilderment—that he had resolved to reveal the least no matter what happened. The phenomenon that had unexpectedly joined him was a change so total that his imagination, which had worked so hard beforehand, felt completely thrown off. It had anticipated every possibility except for the idea that Chad might not actually be Chad, and this was what it now had to confront with just a strained smile and a discomforting flush.
He asked himself if, by any chance, before he should have in some way to commit himself, he might feel his mind settled to the new vision, might habituate it, so to speak, to the remarkable truth. But oh it was too remarkable, the truth; for what could be more remarkable than this sharp rupture of an identity? You could deal with a man as himself—you couldn’t deal with him as somebody else. It was a small source of peace moreover to be reduced to wondering how little he might know in such an event what a sum he was setting you. He couldn’t absolutely not know, for you couldn’t absolutely not let him. It was a case then simply, a strong case, as people nowadays called such things, a case of transformation unsurpassed, and the hope was but in the general law that strong cases were liable to control from without. Perhaps he, Strether himself, was the only person after all aware of it. Even Miss Gostrey, with all her science, wouldn’t be, would she?—and he had never seen any one less aware of anything than Waymarsh as he glowered at Chad. The social sightlessness of his old friend’s survey marked for him afresh, and almost in an humiliating way, the inevitable limits of direct aid from this source. He was not certain, however, of not drawing a shade of compensation from the privilege, as yet untasted, of knowing more about something in particular than Miss Gostrey did. His situation too was a case, for that matter, and he was now so interested, quite so privately agog, about it, that he had already an eye to the fun it would be to open up to her afterwards. He derived during his half-hour no assistance from her, and just this fact of her not meeting his eyes played a little, it must be confessed, into his predicament.
He wondered if, before he had to commit himself in any way, he could get his mind used to this new perspective, so to speak, and adapt to this astonishing truth. But oh, it was too astonishing; what could be more shocking than this abrupt break in identity? You could engage with a person as themselves—but you couldn’t engage with them as someone else. It was a small comfort, moreover, to realize how little he might truly understand in such a situation, what a challenge he was presenting to you. He couldn’t completely ignore it, because you couldn’t completely let him. It was a case, then, simply put, a strong case, as people today would call it, a transformation like no other, and the hope lay in the general idea that strong cases were likely to be influenced from the outside. Perhaps he, Strether himself, was the only one truly aware of it. Even Miss Gostrey, with all her knowledge, wouldn’t be, would she?—and he had never seen anyone less aware than Waymarsh as he glared at Chad. The social blindness of his old friend’s perspective highlighted for him, almost embarrassingly, the inevitable limits of direct help from this source. However, he wasn’t sure he wouldn't find some satisfaction in the fact that he knew something specific that Miss Gostrey didn’t. His situation was also a case, and he was now so intrigued, quite privately excited about it, that he was already thinking about how fun it would be to share with her later. He gained no support from her during his half-hour, and just the fact that she wouldn’t meet his gaze seemed, it must be admitted, to complicate his predicament a bit.
He had introduced Chad, in the first minutes, under his breath, and there was never the primness in her of the person unacquainted; but she had none the less betrayed at first no vision but of the stage, where she occasionally found a pretext for an appreciative moment that she invited Waymarsh to share. The latter’s faculty of participation had never had, all round, such an assault to meet; the pressure on him being the sharper for this chosen attitude in her, as Strether judged it, of isolating, for their natural intercourse, Chad and himself. This intercourse was meanwhile restricted to a frank friendly look from the young man, something markedly like a smile, but falling far short of a grin, and to the vivacity of Strether’s private speculation as to whether he carried himself like a fool. He didn’t quite see how he could so feel as one without somehow showing as one. The worst of that question moreover was that he knew it as a symptom the sense of which annoyed him. “If I’m going to be odiously conscious of how I may strike the fellow,” he reflected, “it was so little what I came out for that I may as well stop before I begin.” This sage consideration too, distinctly, seemed to leave untouched the fact that he was going to be conscious. He was conscious of everything but of what would have served him.
He had quietly introduced Chad at the beginning, and she never had the stiff demeanor of someone unfamiliar; however, she still initially displayed no vision beyond the stage, where she sometimes found an excuse for a moment of appreciation that she invited Waymarsh to share. This invited participation created a stronger challenge for him, especially since, as Strether saw it, she seemed to be isolating Chad and himself for their natural interaction. In the meantime, this interaction was limited to a friendly glance from the young man, something resembling a smile but definitely not a grin, and to the lively thoughts in Strether’s mind about whether he was acting like a fool. He couldn’t quite understand how he could feel that way without somehow showing it. The worst part of that question was that he recognized it as an annoying symptom. “If I’m going to be painfully aware of how I might come across to him,” he thought, “then it’s clearly not what I came here for, and I might as well stop before I even start.” This wise thought still didn’t change the fact that he was going to be aware. He was aware of everything except what would actually help him.
He was to know afterwards, in the watches of the night, that nothing would have been more open to him than after a minute or two to propose to Chad to seek with him the refuge of the lobby. He hadn’t only not proposed it, but had lacked even the presence of mind to see it as possible. He had stuck there like a schoolboy wishing not to miss a minute of the show; though for that portion of the show then presented he hadn’t had an instant’s real attention. He couldn’t when the curtain fell have given the slightest account of what had happened. He had therefore, further, not at that moment acknowledged the amenity added by this acceptance of his awkwardness to Chad’s general patience. Hadn’t he none the less known at the very time—known it stupidly and without reaction—that the boy was accepting something? He was modestly benevolent, the boy—that was at least what he had been capable of the superiority of making out his chance to be; and one had one’s self literally not had the gumption to get in ahead of him. If we should go into all that occupied our friend in the watches of the night we should have to mend our pen; but an instance or two may mark for us the vividness with which he could remember. He remembered the two absurdities that, if his presence of mind had failed, were the things that had had most to do with it. He had never in his life seen a young man come into a box at ten o’clock at night, and would, if challenged on the question in advance, have scarce been ready to pronounce as to different ways of doing so. But it was in spite of this definite to him that Chad had had a way that was wonderful: a fact carrying with it an implication that, as one might imagine it, he knew, he had learned, how.
He would later realize, during the long hours of the night, that it would have been easy for him to suggest to Chad that they find refuge in the lobby after a minute or two. Not only did he not propose it, but he also didn't have the clarity of thought to even see it as an option. He remained there like a schoolboy, reluctant to miss a moment of the show; although during that part of the performance, he hadn’t truly focused even for a second. When the curtain fell, he couldn’t have given the slightest account of what had just happened. Additionally, he hadn’t at that moment recognized how Chad’s acceptance of his awkwardness actually contributed to Chad’s overall patience. Didn't he know at that very time—though in a foolish, unresponsive way—that Chad was accepting something? The boy was modestly benevolent, or at least that’s how he perceived it; and he simply didn’t have the presence of mind to seize the opportunity first. If we were to delve into everything that occupied our friend during the night hours, we’d need to sharpen our pens; however, a few examples can highlight how vividly he remembered. He recalled two absurd situations that, if he had lost his composure, were largely responsible for it. He had never seen a young man enter a box at ten o’clock at night and, if asked beforehand, would hardly have been able to suggest different ways to do so. Yet, it struck him that Chad had a remarkable way of doing it: a fact that implied he understood, he had learned, how it could be done.
Here already then were abounding results; he had on the spot and without the least trouble of intention taught Strether that even in so small a thing as that there were different ways. He had done in the same line still more than this; had by a mere shake or two of the head made his old friend observe that the change in him was perhaps more than anything else, for the eye, a matter of the marked streaks of grey, extraordinary at his age, in his thick black hair; as well as that this new feature was curiously becoming to him, did something for him, as characterisation, also even—of all things in the world—as refinement, that had been a good deal wanted. Strether felt, however, he would have had to confess, that it wouldn’t have been easy just now, on this and other counts, in the presence of what had been supplied, to be quite clear as to what had been missed. A reflexion a candid critic might have made of old, for instance, was that it would have been happier for the son to look more like the mother; but this was a reflexion that at present would never occur. The ground had quite fallen away from it, yet no resemblance whatever to the mother had supervened. It would have been hard for a young man’s face and air to disconnect themselves more completely than Chad’s at this juncture from any discerned, from any imaginable aspect of a New England female parent. That of course was no more than had been on the cards; but it produced in Strether none the less one of those frequent phenomena of mental reference with which all judgement in him was actually beset.
Here were already abundant results; he had immediately and effortlessly shown Strether that even in something as small as that, there were different approaches. He had done even more in that vein; by just shaking his head a couple of times, he had made his old friend notice that the change in him was perhaps most evident in the unusual streaks of grey in his thick black hair, something remarkable for his age. Not only did this new feature oddly suit him, but it also gave him character and, surprisingly, a touch of refinement that had been quite lacking. However, Strether felt he would have to admit that, considering what had been presented to him, it wouldn’t have been easy right now to clearly identify what had been lacking. A reflection that a candid critic might have made in the past, for instance, was that it would have been better for the son to resemble the mother more; but that thought would never cross anyone's mind now. The basis for that idea had completely vanished, yet there was no resemblance to the mother whatsoever. It would have been difficult for a young man's face and demeanor to be more disconnected than Chad's at this moment from any recognizable or imaginable aspects of a New England mother. That, of course, was always a possibility; but it nonetheless triggered in Strether one of those frequent instances of mental reference that plagued his judgment.
Again and again as the days passed he had had a sense of the pertinence of communicating quickly with Woollett—communicating with a quickness with which telegraphy alone would rhyme; the fruit really of a fine fancy in him for keeping things straight, for the happy forestalment of error. No one could explain better when needful, nor put more conscience into an account or a report; which burden of conscience is perhaps exactly the reason why his heart always sank when the clouds of explanation gathered. His highest ingenuity was in keeping the sky of life clear of them. Whether or no he had a grand idea of the lucid, he held that nothing ever was in fact—for any one else—explained. One went through the vain motions, but it was mostly a waste of life. A personal relation was a relation only so long as people either perfectly understood or, better still, didn’t care if they didn’t. From the moment they cared if they didn’t it was living by the sweat of one’s brow; and the sweat of one’s brow was just what one might buy one’s self off from by keeping the ground free of the wild weed of delusion. It easily grew too fast, and the Atlantic cable now alone could race with it. That agency would each day have testified for him to something that was not what Woollett had argued. He was not at this moment absolutely sure that the effect of the morrow’s—or rather of the night’s—appreciation of the crisis wouldn’t be to determine some brief missive. “Have at last seen him, but oh dear!”—some temporary relief of that sort seemed to hover before him. It hovered somehow as preparing them all—yet preparing them for what? If he might do so more luminously and cheaply he would tick out in four words: “Awfully old—grey hair.” To this particular item in Chad’s appearance he constantly, during their mute half-hour, reverted; as if so very much more than he could have said had been involved in it. The most he could have said would have been: “If he’s going to make me feel young—!” which indeed, however, carried with it quite enough. If Strether was to feel young, that is, it would be because Chad was to feel old; and an aged and hoary sinner had been no part of the scheme.
Day after day, he felt the need to get in touch with Woollett quickly—something that only telegraphy could achieve; it was really just a reflection of his desire to keep things clear and prevent mistakes. No one could explain things better when necessary, nor put as much thought into an account or report; this burden of responsibility was probably why he often felt overwhelmed when it came time to explain. His greatest skill was in keeping life's troubles at bay. He believed that nothing was ever truly explained for anyone else. People went through the motions, but it mostly felt like a waste of time. A personal relationship lasted only as long as people either fully understood each other or, even better, didn’t care if they didn't. Once they started to care, it became a struggle, and that struggle was something you could avoid by keeping reality free from the wild growth of misconceptions. Those misconceptions grew too quickly, and only the Atlantic cable could keep up. That communication would have confirmed something different from what Woollett had argued every day. At that moment, he wasn’t entirely sure whether the next day’s—or actually that night’s—understanding of the situation would prompt him to send a short message. “Finally saw him, but oh dear!”—some temporary relief like that seemed to be on the horizon. It felt like it was preparing them all—preparing them for what? If he could put it more clearly and concisely, he would say: “Awfully old—grey hair.” He kept coming back to that particular detail about Chad's appearance during their silent half-hour, as if there was so much more behind it. The most he could have expressed was: “If he’s going to make me feel young—!” which, in a way, carried quite a bit of weight. If Strether was going to feel young, it would be because Chad felt old; and having an old, weary sinner wasn’t part of the plan.
The question of Chadwick’s true time of life was, doubtless, what came up quickest after the adjournment of the two, when the play was over, to a café in the Avenue de l’Opéra. Miss Gostrey had in due course been perfect for such a step; she had known exactly what they wanted—to go straight somewhere and talk; and Strether had even felt she had known what he wished to say and that he was arranging immediately to begin. She hadn’t pretended this, as she had pretended on the other hand, to have divined Waymarsh’s wish to extend to her an independent protection homeward; but Strether nevertheless found how, after he had Chad opposite to him at a small table in the brilliant halls that his companion straightway selected, sharply and easily discriminated from others, it was quite, to his mind, as if she heard him speak; as if, sitting up, a mile away, in the little apartment he knew, she would listen hard enough to catch. He found too that he liked that idea, and he wished that, by the same token, Mrs. Newsome might have caught as well. For what had above all been determined in him as a necessity of the first order was not to lose another hour, nor a fraction of one; was to advance, to overwhelm, with a rush. This was how he would anticipate—by a night-attack, as might be—any forced maturity that a crammed consciousness of Paris was likely to take upon itself to assert on behalf of the boy. He knew to the full, on what he had just extracted from Miss Gostrey, Chad’s marks of alertness; but they were a reason the more for not dawdling. If he was himself moreover to be treated as young he wouldn’t at all events be so treated before he should have struck out at least once. His arms might be pinioned afterwards, but it would have been left on record that he was fifty. The importance of this he had indeed begun to feel before they left the theatre; it had become a wild unrest, urging him to seize his chance. He could scarcely wait for it as they went; he was on the verge of the indecency of bringing up the question in the street; he fairly caught himself going on—so he afterwards invidiously named it—as if there would be for him no second chance should the present be lost. Not till, on the purple divan before the perfunctory bock, he had brought out the words themselves, was he sure, for that matter, that the present would be saved.
The question of Chadwick’s actual age was likely the first thing that came to mind after the two of them left the theater and headed to a café on the Avenue de l’Opéra. Miss Gostrey was perfect for this moment; she understood exactly what they wanted— to go somewhere and talk. Strether even felt like she knew what he wanted to say and was ready to get the conversation started. She didn’t pretend to know, as she had done with Waymarsh’s desire to walk her home safely; but Strether realized that, sitting opposite Chad at a small table in the vibrant place his companion had chosen, it felt like she could hear him speaking. It was as if she were sitting a mile away in the little apartment he knew, listening intently to catch his words. He also found that he liked that idea and hoped that Mrs. Newsome would have caught on too. What he felt, above all, was a pressing need not to waste another hour, not even a minute; he needed to move forward with urgency. This was how he intended to take on any forced maturity that the overwhelming experience of Paris might try to impose on the boy. He fully recognized, from what he had just learned from Miss Gostrey, Chad’s signs of awareness, but that only meant he should not linger. If he was going to be treated as young, he wouldn’t accept it until he had at least made a move. His hands might be tied afterward, but it would be recorded that he was fifty. The importance of this realization had begun to hit him even before they left the theater; it turned into a restless feeling, pushing him to seize the moment. He could hardly wait as they walked; he was nearly at the point of awkwardly bringing up the topic in the street. He caught himself thinking—what he later referred to enviously—as if there would be no second chance if he let this opportunity slip away. Only when he finally spoke out the words himself, while seated on the purple couch in front of the ordinary bock, was he certain that he had saved the moment.
Book Fourth
I
“I’ve come, you know, to make you break with everything, neither more nor less, and take you straight home; so you’ll be so good as immediately and favourably to consider it!”—Strether, face to face with Chad after the play, had sounded these words almost breathlessly, and with an effect at first positively disconcerting to himself alone. For Chad’s receptive attitude was that of a person who had been gracefully quiet while the messenger at last reaching him has run a mile through the dust. During some seconds after he had spoken Strether felt as if he had made some such exertion; he was not even certain that the perspiration wasn’t on his brow. It was the kind of consciousness for which he had to thank the look that, while the strain lasted, the young man’s eyes gave him. They reflected—and the deuce of the thing was that they reflected really with a sort of shyness of kindness—his momentarily disordered state; which fact brought on in its turn for our friend the dawn of a fear that Chad might simply “take it out”—take everything out—in being sorry for him. Such a fear, any fear, was unpleasant. But everything was unpleasant; it was odd how everything had suddenly turned so. This however was no reason for letting the least thing go. Strether had the next minute proceeded as roundly as if with an advantage to follow up. “Of course I’m a busybody, if you want to fight the case to the death; but after all mainly in the sense of having known you and having given you such attention as you kindly permitted when you were in jackets and knickerbockers. Yes—it was knickerbockers, I’m busybody enough to remember that; and that you had, for your age—I speak of the first far-away time—tremendously stout legs. Well, we want you to break. Your mother’s heart’s passionately set upon it, but she has above and beyond that excellent arguments and reasons. I’ve not put them into her head—I needn’t remind you how little she’s a person who needs that. But they exist—you must take it from me as a friend both of hers and yours—for myself as well. I didn’t invent them, I didn’t originally work them out; but I understand them, I think I can explain them—by which I mean make you actively do them justice; and that’s why you see me here. You had better know the worst at once. It’s a question of an immediate rupture and an immediate return. I’ve been conceited enough to dream I can sugar that pill. I take at any rate the greatest interest in the question. I took it already before I left home, and I don’t mind telling you that, altered as you are, I take it still more now that I’ve seen you. You’re older and—I don’t know what to call it!—more of a handful; but you’re by so much the more, I seem to make out, to our purpose.”
“I’m here to help you break away from everything, nothing more and nothing less, and take you straight home; so please consider it right away!”—Strether, facing Chad after the show, said these words almost breathlessly, and it initially left him feeling quite unsettled. Chad’s calm demeanor was like someone who had been patiently quiet while the messenger finally arrived after running a mile through the dust. For a few seconds after he spoke, Strether felt as if he had done some sort of exhausting effort; he wasn’t even sure if sweat wasn’t on his brow. He owed this awareness to the way the young man’s eyes were looking at him while he was under stress. They showed— and the tricky part was that they showed with a kind of shy kindness—his temporarily chaotic state; which, in turn, made Strether fear that Chad might just feel sorry for him. Such a fear, any fear, was uncomfortable. But everything felt uncomfortable; it was strange how everything had suddenly changed. However, that didn’t mean he should let anything slide. Strether then continued as if he had an advantage to follow up. “Of course, I’m being nosy, if you want to fight this to the end; but mainly, I care because I’ve known you and gave you the attention you kindly allowed when you were in shorts and knickerbockers. Yes—it was knickerbockers, and I remember that; and you had, for your age—I’m talking about that first distant time—really strong legs. Well, we want you to break away. Your mother desperately wants it, but she also has good arguments and reasons beyond that. I didn’t suggest them to her—I don’t need to remind you how little of a person she is who requires that. But they exist—you have to take my word for it as both her friend and yours. I didn’t create them, I didn’t originally figure them out; but I understand them, and I think I can explain them—by which I mean make you truly appreciate them; and that’s why you see me here. You should know the worst right away. It’s a matter of an immediate break and an immediate return. I’ve been arrogant enough to think I can make this difficult situation easier. At any rate, I’m very interested in the matter. I was already before I left home, and I don’t mind telling you that, as different as you are, I’m even more invested now that I’ve seen you. You’re older and—I’m not sure what to say!—more challenging; but you seem to be much more, I think, conducive to our goals.”
“Do I strike you as improved?” Strether was to recall that Chad had at this point enquired.
“Do I seem like I've changed for the better?” Strether would remember that Chad had asked at that moment.
He was likewise to recall—and it had to count for some time as his greatest comfort—that it had been “given” him, as they said at Woollett, to reply with some presence of mind: “I haven’t the least idea.” He was really for a while to like thinking he had been positively hard. On the point of conceding that Chad had improved in appearance, but that to the question of appearance the remark must be confined, he checked even that compromise and left his reservation bare. Not only his moral, but also, as it were, his æsthetic sense had a little to pay for this, Chad being unmistakeably—and wasn’t it a matter of the confounded grey hair again?—handsomer than he had ever promised. That however fell in perfectly with what Strether had said. They had no desire to keep down his proper expansion, and he wouldn’t be less to their purpose for not looking, as he had too often done of old, only bold and wild. There was indeed a signal particular in which he would distinctly be more so. Strether didn’t, as he talked, absolutely follow himself; he only knew he was clutching his thread and that he held it from moment to moment a little tighter; his mere uninterruptedness during the few minutes helped him to do that. He had frequently for a month, turned over what he should say on this very occasion, and he seemed at last to have said nothing he had thought of—everything was so totally different.
He also had to remember—and it had to be for a while his greatest comfort—that it had been “given” to him, as they said in Woollett, to respond with some composure: “I haven’t the slightest idea.” For some time, he actually enjoyed thinking he had been pretty tough. He was about to admit that Chad had improved in looks, but that the comment about looks should be the only point addressed, yet he even pulled back from that concession and left his feelings out in the open. Not only his moral but also, in a way, his aesthetic sense took a hit from this realization, as Chad was undeniably—and wasn’t it again about that annoying grey hair?—better looking than he had ever expected. However, that fit perfectly with what Strether had observed. They didn’t want to hold back his proper growth, and he wouldn’t be less effective for not appearing, as he often had in the past, just bold and reckless. In fact, there was a specific way in which he would clearly be more so. As he spoke, Strether didn’t entirely follow his own thoughts; he just knew he was grasping his point and that he was tightening his grip on it bit by bit; his unbroken flow during those few minutes helped him do that. For a month, he had often considered what he should say on this very occasion, and it seemed he had ended up saying none of what he had thought—everything was so completely different.
But in spite of all he had put the flag at the window. This was what he had done, and there was a minute during which he affected himself as having shaken it hard, flapped it with a mighty flutter, straight in front of his companion’s nose. It gave him really almost the sense of having already acted his part. The momentary relief—as if from the knowledge that nothing of that at least could be undone—sprang from a particular cause, the cause that had flashed into operation, in Miss Gostrey’s box, with direct apprehension, with amazed recognition, and that had been concerned since then in every throb of his consciousness. What it came to was that with an absolutely new quantity to deal with one simply couldn’t know. The new quantity was represented by the fact that Chad had been made over. That was all; whatever it was it was everything. Strether had never seen the thing so done before—it was perhaps a speciality of Paris. If one had been present at the process one might little by little have mastered the result; but he was face to face, as matters stood, with the finished business. It had freely been noted for him that he might be received as a dog among skittles, but that was on the basis of the old quantity. He had originally thought of lines and tones as things to be taken, but these possibilities had now quite melted away. There was no computing at all what the young man before him would think or feel or say on any subject whatever. This intelligence Strether had afterwards, to account for his nervousness, reconstituted as he might, just as he had also reconstituted the promptness with which Chad had corrected his uncertainty. An extraordinarily short time had been required for the correction, and there had ceased to be anything negative in his companion’s face and air as soon as it was made. “Your engagement to my mother has become then what they call here a fait accompli?”—it had consisted, the determinant touch, in nothing more than that.
But despite everything, he had put the flag at the window. That was what he did, and for a moment, he acted as if he had shaken it hard, waving it with a big flutter right in front of his companion’s face. It really gave him almost the feeling of having already played his part. The brief relief—like knowing that at least that part couldn't be undone—came from a specific reason, the one that had kicked into gear in Miss Gostrey’s box, with clear understanding, and that had been involved in every beat of his awareness since then. What it came down to was that with a completely new situation, you just couldn’t know. The new situation was represented by the fact that Chad had been transformed. That was it; whatever it was, it was everything. Strether had never seen anything like it before—it was probably a specialty of Paris. If you had been present during the transformation, you might have gradually understood the outcome; but as things stood, he faced the finished product. It had been pointed out to him that he might be taken like a dog among skittles, but that was based on the old situation. He originally considered lines and tones as things to be taken, but those possibilities had completely disappeared. There was no way to predict what the young man in front of him would think or feel or say about anything at all. This realization, which Strether later tried to understand to explain his nervousness, was reconfigured just like he had also reconfigured the speed with which Chad had resolved his uncertainty. It took an extraordinarily short time to make that correction, and there was no longer anything negative in his companion’s expression or demeanor as soon as it happened. “Your engagement to my mother has become, then, what they call here a fait accompli?”—it was made up, the key detail, of nothing more than that.
Well, that was enough, Strether had felt while his answer hung fire. He had felt at the same time, however, that nothing could less become him than that it should hang fire too long. “Yes,” he said brightly, “it was on the happy settlement of the question that I started. You see therefore to what tune I’m in your family. Moreover,” he added, “I’ve been supposing you’d suppose it.”
Well, that was enough, Strether thought while he delayed his answer. At the same time, he felt that nothing could be less appropriate than for his response to take too long. “Yes,” he said cheerfully, “it was the positive resolution of the question that prompted my visit. So you can see what mood I'm in with your family. Moreover,” he added, “I've been assuming that you would think that.”
“Oh I’ve been supposing it for a long time, and what you tell me helps me to understand that you should want to do something. To do something, I mean,” said Chad, “to commemorate an event so—what do they call it?—so auspicious. I see you make out, and not unnaturally,” he continued, “that bringing me home in triumph as a sort of wedding-present to Mother would commemorate it better than anything else. You want to make a bonfire in fact,” he laughed, “and you pitch me on. Thank you, thank you!” he laughed again.
“Oh, I’ve been thinking about this for a while, and what you're telling me helps me get that you want to do something. Something meaningful, I mean,” said Chad. “To celebrate an event that’s—what’s the word?—so special. I understand why you might think that bringing me home in triumph as a sort of wedding gift for Mom would commemorate it better than anything else. You really want to make a big deal out of it,” he laughed, “and you keep pushing me along. Thank you, thank you!” he laughed again.
He was altogether easy about it, and this made Strether now see how at bottom, and in spite of the shade of shyness that really cost him nothing, he had from the first moment been easy about everything. The shade of shyness was mere good taste. People with manners formed could apparently have, as one of their best cards, the shade of shyness too. He had leaned a little forward to speak; his elbows were on the table; and the inscrutable new face that he had got somewhere and somehow was brought by the movement nearer to his critic’s. There was a fascination for that critic in its not being, this ripe physiognomy, the face that, under observation at least, he had originally carried away from Woollett. Strether found a certain freedom on his own side in defining it as that of a man of the world—a formula that indeed seemed to come now in some degree to his relief; that of a man to whom things had happened and were variously known. In gleams, in glances, the past did perhaps peep out of it; but such lights were faint and instantly merged. Chad was brown and thick and strong, and of old Chad had been rough. Was all the difference therefore that he was actually smooth? Possibly; for that he was smooth was as marked as in the taste of a sauce or in the rub of a hand. The effect of it was general—it had retouched his features, drawn them with a cleaner line. It had cleared his eyes and settled his colour and polished his fine square teeth—the main ornament of his face; and at the same time that it had given him a form and a surface, almost a design, it had toned his voice, established his accent, encouraged his smile to more play and his other motions to less. He had formerly, with a great deal of action, expressed very little; and he now expressed whatever was necessary with almost none at all. It was as if in short he had really, copious perhaps but shapeless, been put into a firm mould and turned successfully out. The phenomenon—Strether kept eyeing it as a phenomenon, an eminent case—was marked enough to be touched by the finger. He finally put his hand across the table and laid it on Chad’s arm. “If you’ll promise me—here on the spot and giving me your word of honour—to break straight off, you’ll make the future the real right thing for all of us alike. You’ll ease off the strain of this decent but none the less acute suspense in which I’ve for so many days been waiting for you, and let me turn in to rest. I shall leave you with my blessing and go to bed in peace.”
He was completely relaxed about it, which made Strether realize that, deep down, despite a hint of shyness that really cost him nothing, he had always been relaxed about everything. That hint of shyness was just a sign of good taste. People with good manners could apparently use a hint of shyness as one of their best traits, too. He leaned a little forward to speak; his elbows were on the table; and the new face he had somehow acquired was brought closer to his critic’s by the movement. The critic found it intriguing that this confident face wasn’t the one he had originally taken away from Woollett. Strether felt a sense of freedom in defining it as that of a sophisticated man—a label that seemed to provide him with some relief; a man who had experienced various things. In flashes and glances, the past might have peeked through it; but those glimpses were faint and quickly faded. Chad was tanned, solid, and strong, and in the past, Chad had been rough. So, was the only difference that he was now smooth? Maybe; the fact that he was smooth was as obvious as the flavor of a sauce or the texture of a hand. The overall effect was striking—it had refined his features, giving them a cleaner line. It had brightened his eyes, settled his skin tone, and polished his fine square teeth—the main feature of his face; and while it gave him form and surface, almost a design, it also softened his voice, defined his accent, and encouraged his smile to be more expressive while making his other movements less intense. He used to convey very little through a lot of motion; now he communicated whatever was needed with almost none at all. It was as if he had been poured into a solid mold and came out successfully shaped. The phenomenon—Strether kept viewing it as a notable case—was distinct enough to touch. He finally reached across the table and placed his hand on Chad’s arm. “If you promise me—right here and giving me your word of honor—that you’ll cut it off right now, you’ll make the future right for all of us. You’ll relieve this decent but still intense tension I’ve been feeling for so many days, and let me rest. I’ll leave you with my blessing and go to bed in peace.”
Chad again fell back at this and, his hands pocketed, settled himself a little; in which posture he looked, though he rather anxiously smiled, only the more earnest. Then Strether seemed to see that he was really nervous, and he took that as what he would have called a wholesome sign. The only mark of it hitherto had been his more than once taking off and putting on his wide-brimmed crush hat. He had at this moment made the motion again to remove it, then had only pushed it back, so that it hung informally on his strong young grizzled crop. It was a touch that gave the note of the familiar—the intimate and the belated—to their quiet colloquy; and it was indeed by some such trivial aid that Strether became aware at the same moment of something else. The observation was at any rate determined in him by some light too fine to distinguish from so many others, but it was none the less sharply determined. Chad looked unmistakeably during these instants—well, as Strether put it to himself, all he was worth. Our friend had a sudden apprehension of what that would on certain sides be. He saw him in a flash as the young man marked out by women; and for a concentrated minute the dignity, the comparative austerity, as he funnily fancied it, of this character affected him almost with awe. There was an experience on his interlocutor’s part that looked out at him from under the displaced hat, and that looked out moreover by a force of its own, the deep fact of its quantity and quality, and not through Chad’s intending bravado or swagger. That was then the way men marked out by women were—and also the men by whom the women were doubtless in turn sufficiently distinguished. It affected Strether for thirty seconds as a relevant truth, a truth which, however, the next minute, had fallen into its relation. “Can’t you imagine there being some questions,” Chad asked, “that a fellow—however much impressed by your charming way of stating things—would like to put to you first?”
Chad stepped back at this and, with his hands in his pockets, got himself comfortable; in this position he looked, although he smiled a bit anxiously, even more serious. Then Strether noticed that he was genuinely nervous, and he took that as what he would have called a positive sign. The only sign of his nerves until now had been his repeatedly taking off and putting on his wide-brimmed hat. At that moment, he reached to take it off again but only pushed it back so it rested loosely on his strong, slightly graying hair. This little gesture added a familiar, intimate vibe to their quiet conversation; it was through such trivial details that Strether became aware of something else at the same time. The realization was definitely sparked in him by something subtle, hard to separate from many other feelings, but it was nonetheless clearly defined. During those moments, Chad looked unmistakably—well, as Strether thought to himself, like all he was worth. Our friend suddenly grasped what that would mean on certain levels. He saw him in an instant as the kind of young man who stood out to women; and for a focused minute, the dignity, the comparative seriousness, which he humorously perceived in this character, almost left him in awe. There was an experience in his conversation partner that shone through from beneath the tilted hat, expressed with its own power, a deep essence of its quantity and quality, not just through Chad's intended bravado or swagger. That was how men stood out to women—and also the men by whom women were surely identified in turn. Strether felt this as a relevant truth for thirty seconds, a truth that, however, fell back into its context the next moment. "Can't you imagine there being some questions," Chad asked, "that a guy—no matter how impressed he is by your charming way of putting things—would want to ask you first?"
“Oh yes—easily. I’m here to answer everything. I think I can even tell you things, of the greatest interest to you, that you won’t know enough to ask me. We’ll take as many days to it as you like. But I want,” Strether wound up, “to go to bed now.”
“Oh yes—definitely. I'm here to answer anything. I think I can even share things that you’ll find really interesting, which you might not even know to ask about. We can take as long as you want. But I want,” Strether concluded, “to go to bed now.”
“Really?”
“Seriously?”
Chad had spoken in such surprise that he was amused. “Can’t you believe it?—with what you put me through?”
Chad was so surprised that it made him laugh. “Can’t you believe it?—after everything you put me through?”
The young man seemed to consider. “Oh I haven’t put you through much—yet.”
The young man appeared to think for a moment. “Oh, I haven’t put you through much—yet.”
“Do you mean there’s so much more to come?” Strether laughed. “All the more reason then that I should gird myself.” And as if to mark what he felt he could by this time count on he was already on his feet.
“Are you saying there’s a lot more ahead?” Strether laughed. “That’s even more reason for me to prepare myself.” And as if to signify that he felt he could rely on this by now, he was already standing up.
Chad, still seated, stayed him, with a hand against him, as he passed between their table and the next. “Oh we shall get on!”
Chad, still sitting down, held him back with a hand as he walked past their table and the next one. “Oh, we’ll get along just fine!”
The tone was, as who should say, everything Strether could have desired; and quite as good the expression of face with which the speaker had looked up at him and kindly held him. All these things lacked was their not showing quite so much as the fruit of experience. Yes, experience was what Chad did play on him, if he didn’t play any grossness of defiance. Of course experience was in a manner defiance; but it wasn’t, at any rate—rather indeed quite the contrary!—grossness; which was so much gained. He fairly grew older, Strether thought, while he himself so reasoned. Then with his mature pat of his visitor’s arm he also got up; and there had been enough of it all by this time to make the visitor feel that something was settled. Wasn’t it settled that he had at least the testimony of Chad’s own belief in a settlement? Strether found himself treating Chad’s profession that they would get on as a sufficient basis for going to bed. He hadn’t nevertheless after this gone to bed directly; for when they had again passed out together into the mild bright night a check had virtually sprung from nothing more than a small circumstance which might have acted only as confirming quiescence. There were people, expressive sound, projected light, still abroad, and after they had taken in for a moment, through everything, the great clear architectural street, they turned off in tacit union to the quarter of Strether’s hotel. “Of course,” Chad here abruptly began, “of course Mother’s making things out with you about me has been natural—and of course also you’ve had a good deal to go upon. Still, you must have filled out.”
The tone was exactly what Strether could have wanted, and the way the speaker looked up at him and kindly held him was just as good. What they lacked was showing too much as just the result of experience. Yes, Chad was definitely using his experience against him, although he wasn’t showing any blatant defiance. Of course, experience can act as defiance, but it wasn’t—actually quite the opposite!—blatant; which was a win. Strether thought he was actually growing older while he reasoned this. Then, with a reassuring pat on his visitor’s arm, he got up; there had been enough discussion to make the visitor feel that something *was* settled. Wasn’t it established that he at least had Chad’s own belief in a resolution? Strether found himself considering Chad’s claim that they would have a good time together as a solid reason to go to bed. However, he didn’t go to bed right away; when they stepped outside into the pleasantly bright night, something seemed to arise from a small detail that could have just as easily confirmed their calm. There were people, sounds, and lights still out, and after they took a moment to take in the impressive, well-lit street, they quietly headed toward the area of Strether’s hotel. “Of course,” Chad suddenly began, “it’s only natural for Mother to be trying to figure things out with you about me—and you’ve probably had quite a bit to go on. Still, you must have filled out.”
He had stopped, leaving his friend to wonder a little what point he wished to make; and this it was that enabled Strether meanwhile to make one. “Oh we’ve never pretended to go into detail. We weren’t in the least bound to that. It was ‘filling out’ enough to miss you as we did.”
He had paused, which left his friend a bit puzzled about the point he was trying to make; and this allowed Strether to make his own. “Oh, we’ve never claimed to go into detail. We weren’t at all obligated to that. It was ‘filling out’ enough to miss you like we did.”
But Chad rather oddly insisted, though under the high lamp at their corner, where they paused, he had at first looked as if touched by Strether’s allusion to the long sense, at home, of his absence. “What I mean is you must have imagined.”
But Chad strangely insisted, even though under the bright lamp at their corner, where they paused, he initially seemed affected by Strether’s mention of the deep feeling, back home, about his absence. “What I mean is you must have imagined.”
“Imagined what?”
"What are you imagining?"
“Well—horrors.”
“Well—what a disaster.”
It affected Strether: horrors were so little—superficially at least—in this robust and reasoning image. But he was none the less there to be veracious. “Yes, I dare say we have imagined horrors. But where’s the harm if we haven’t been wrong?”
It impacted Strether: the horrors were so minimal—at least on the surface—in this strong and logical image. But he was still there to be truthful. “Yes, I can say we have imagined horrors. But what’s the problem if we haven’t been mistaken?”
Chad raised his face to the lamp, and it was one of the moments at which he had, in his extraordinary way, most his air of designedly showing himself. It was as if at these instants he just presented himself, his identity so rounded off, his palpable presence and his massive young manhood, as such a link in the chain as might practically amount to a kind of demonstration. It was as if—and how but anomalously?—he couldn’t after all help thinking sufficiently well of these things to let them go for what they were worth. What could there be in this for Strether but the hint of some self-respect, some sense of power, oddly perverted; something latent and beyond access, ominous and perhaps enviable? The intimation had the next thing, in a flash, taken on a name—a name on which our friend seized as he asked himself if he weren’t perhaps really dealing with an irreducible young Pagan. This description—he quite jumped at it—had a sound that gratified his mental ear, so that of a sudden he had already adopted it. Pagan—yes, that was, wasn’t it? what Chad would logically be. It was what he must be. It was what he was. The idea was a clue and, instead of darkening the prospect, projected a certain clearness. Strether made out in this quick ray that a Pagan was perhaps, at the pass they had come to, the thing most wanted at Woollett. They’d be able to do with one—a good one; he’d find an opening—yes; and Strether’s imagination even now prefigured and accompanied the first appearance there of the rousing personage. He had only the slight discomfort of feeling, as the young man turned away from the lamp, that his thought had in the momentary silence possibly been guessed. “Well, I’ve no doubt,” said Chad, “you’ve come near enough. The details, as you say, don’t matter. It has been generally the case that I’ve let myself go. But I’m coming round—I’m not so bad now.” With which they walked on again to Strether’s hotel.
Chad lifted his face to the lamp, and in that moment, he had, in his unique way, a strong presence that seemed deliberate. It was as if he was just presenting himself, with his identity clearly defined, his tangible presence, and his impressive young masculinity—it felt like a demonstration in itself. It was as if, strangely, he couldn't help but think well of these things enough to accept them for what they were. What could this mean for Strether but a hint of self-respect, a sense of power that was oddly twisted; something hidden and elusive, ominous yet perhaps admirable? Suddenly, this idea took on a name in a flash—a name that Strether grabbed onto as he wondered if he might really be facing an unfiltered young Pagan. He immediately embraced this description; it resonated well with him, so much so that he adopted it on the spot. Pagan—yes, that was, wasn’t it? what Chad would logically be. It was what he had to be. It was who he was. This concept acted as a clue and, instead of obscuring the future, brought a certain clarity. In that quick insight, Strether realized that perhaps a Pagan was just what Woollett needed at this point. They could use one—a good one; he would find a place—yes; and even now, Strether's imagination envisioned the first arrival of this dynamic character. He only felt a slight unease as the young man turned away from the lamp, sensing that his thoughts might have been caught. “Well, I have no doubt,” said Chad, “you’re close enough. The details, as you say, don’t matter. It has usually been the case that I’ve let loose. But I’m changing—I’m not so bad now.” With that, they continued on to Strether's hotel.
“Do you mean,” the latter asked as they approached the door, “that there isn’t any woman with you now?”
“Do you mean,” the latter asked as they approached the door, “that there isn’t any woman with you right now?”
“But pray what has that to do with it?”
“But what does that have to do with it?”
“Why it’s the whole question.”
“Why that’s the real question.”
“Of my going home?” Chad was clearly surprised. “Oh not much! Do you think that when I want to go any one will have any power—”
“Of my going home?” Chad was obviously surprised. “Oh, not much! Do you really think that when I want to go, anyone will have any power—”
“To keep you”—Strether took him straight up—“from carrying out your wish? Well, our idea has been that somebody has hitherto—or a good many persons perhaps—kept you pretty well from ‘wanting.’ That’s what—if you’re in anybody’s hands—may again happen. You don’t answer my question”—he kept it up; “but if you aren’t in anybody’s hands so much the better. There’s nothing then but what makes for your going.”
“To stop you”—Strether said directly—“from fulfilling your wish? Well, our thought has been that someone, or maybe quite a few people, have kept you from feeling ‘want.’ That’s what—if you’re relying on anyone—might happen again. You’re not answering my question”—he continued; “but if you’re not relying on anyone, that’s even better. There’s nothing standing in the way of your progress.”
Chad turned this over. “I don’t answer your question?” He spoke quite without resenting it. “Well, such questions have always a rather exaggerated side. One doesn’t know quite what you mean by being in women’s ‘hands.’ It’s all so vague. One is when one isn’t. One isn’t when one is. And then one can’t quite give people away.” He seemed kindly to explain. “I’ve never got stuck—so very hard; and, as against anything at any time really better, I don’t think I’ve ever been afraid.” There was something in it that held Strether to wonder, and this gave him time to go on. He broke out as with a more helpful thought. “Don’t you know how I like Paris itself?”
Chad thought about it. “I don't answer your question?” He said this without any bitterness. “Well, those kinds of questions often have a bit of an exaggerated angle. It’s unclear what you really mean by being in women’s ‘hands.’ It’s all so ambiguous. You are when you aren’t. You aren’t when you are. And then you can’t quite betray people.” He seemed to kindly clarify. “I’ve never really gotten stuck that much; and compared to anything better at any time, I don’t think I’ve ever been afraid.” There was something in what he said that made Strether curious, which gave him time to continue. He suddenly spoke with a more helpful thought. “Don’t you know how much I like Paris itself?”
The upshot was indeed to make our friend marvel. “Oh if that’s all that’s the matter with you—!” It was he who almost showed resentment.
The result was definitely to make our friend amazed. “Oh if that’s all that’s wrong with you—!” It was he who nearly displayed irritation.
Chad’s smile of a truth more than met it. “But isn’t that enough?”
Chad’s smile truly reflected that. “But isn’t that enough?”
Strether hesitated, but it came out. “Not enough for your mother!” Spoken, however, it sounded a trifle odd—the effect of which was that Chad broke into a laugh. Strether, at this, succumbed as well, though with extreme brevity. “Permit us to have still our theory. But if you are so free and so strong you’re inexcusable. I’ll write in the morning,” he added with decision. “I’ll say I’ve got you.”
Strether hesitated, but it slipped out. “Not enough for your mom!” However, when he said it, it sounded a bit strange—this made Chad burst out laughing. Strether, seeing this, joined in briefly. “Let us keep our theory. But if you’re really so free and so strong, you’re inexcusable. I’ll write in the morning,” he stated firmly. “I’ll say I’ve got you.”
This appeared to open for Chad a new interest. “How often do you write?”
This seemed to spark a new interest for Chad. “How often do you write?”
“Oh perpetually.”
"Oh, forever."
“And at great length?”
"And for a long time?"
Strether had become a little impatient. “I hope it’s not found too great.”
Strether was starting to feel a bit impatient. “I hope it’s not seen as too much.”
“Oh I’m sure not. And you hear as often?”
“Oh, I’m sure not. Do you hear that often?”
Again Strether paused. “As often as I deserve.”
Again, Strether paused. “As often as I deserve.”
“Mother writes,” said Chad, “a lovely letter.”
“Mom wrote,” said Chad, “a nice letter.”
Strether, before the closed porte-cochère, fixed him a moment. “It’s more, my boy, than you do! But our suppositions don’t matter,” he added, “if you’re actually not entangled.”
Strether, standing in front of the closed porte-cochère, focused on him for a moment. “It’s more, my boy, than you do! But our assumptions don’t matter,” he added, “if you’re not actually caught up in it.”
Chad’s pride seemed none the less a little touched. “I never was that—let me insist. I always had my own way.” With which he pursued: “And I have it at present.”
Chad's pride seemed a bit affected. “I never was that—let me be clear. I always did things my own way.” With that, he continued: “And I’m still doing it now.”
“Then what are you here for? What has kept you,” Strether asked, “if you have been able to leave?”
“Then what are you here for? What has kept you,” Strether asked, “if you were able to leave?”
It made Chad, after a stare, throw himself back. “Do you think one’s kept only by women?” His surprise and his verbal emphasis rang out so clear in the still street that Strether winced till he remembered the safety of their English speech. “Is that,” the young man demanded, “what they think at Woollett?” At the good faith in the question Strether had changed colour, feeling that, as he would have said, he had put his foot in it. He had appeared stupidly to misrepresent what they thought at Woollett; but before he had time to rectify Chad again was upon him. “I must say then you show a low mind!”
Chad leaned back in surprise after staring for a moment. “Do you really think only women keep someone like that?” His shock and the way he emphasized his words echoed loudly in the quiet street, making Strether wince until he remembered the safety of their English words. “Is that,” the young man asked, “what they believe at Woollett?” Strether felt a flush of color as he realized he had misrepresented the views from Woollett. Before he could correct himself, Chad was back at it. “I have to say, that shows a pretty narrow mindset!”
It so fell in, unhappily for Strether, with that reflexion of his own prompted in him by the pleasant air of the Boulevard Malesherbes, that its disconcerting force was rather unfairly great. It was a dig that, administered by himself—and administered even to poor Mrs. Newsome—was no more than salutary; but administered by Chad—and quite logically—it came nearer drawing blood. They hadn’t a low mind—nor any approach to one; yet incontestably they had worked, and with a certain smugness, on a basis that might be turned against them. Chad had at any rate pulled his visitor up; he had even pulled up his admirable mother; he had absolutely, by a turn of the wrist and a jerk of the far-flung noose, pulled up, in a bunch, Woollett browsing in its pride. There was no doubt Woollett had insisted on his coarseness; and what he at present stood there for in the sleeping street was, by his manner of striking the other note, to make of such insistence a preoccupation compromising to the insisters. It was exactly as if they had imputed to him a vulgarity that he had by a mere gesture caused to fall from him. The devil of the case was that Strether felt it, by the same stroke, as falling straight upon himself. He had been wondering a minute ago if the boy weren’t a Pagan, and he found himself wondering now if he weren’t by chance a gentleman. It didn’t in the least, on the spot, spring up helpfully for him that a person couldn’t at the same time be both. There was nothing at this moment in the air to challenge the combination; there was everything to give it on the contrary something of a flourish. It struck Strether into the bargain as doing something to meet the most difficult of the questions; though perhaps indeed only by substituting another. Wouldn’t it be precisely by having learned to be a gentleman that he had mastered the consequent trick of looking so well that one could scarce speak to him straight? But what in the world was the clue to such a prime producing cause? There were too many clues then that Strether still lacked, and these clues to clues were among them. What it accordingly amounted to for him was that he had to take full in the face a fresh attribution of ignorance. He had grown used by this time to reminders, especially from his own lips, of what he didn’t know; but he had borne them because in the first place they were private and because in the second they practically conveyed a tribute. He didn’t know what was bad, and—as others didn’t know how little he knew it—he could put up with his state. But if he didn’t know, in so important a particular, what was good, Chad at least was now aware he didn’t; and that, for some reason, affected our friend as curiously public. It was in fact an exposed condition that the young man left him in long enough for him to feel its chill—till he saw fit, in a word, generously again to cover him. This last was in truth what Chad quite gracefully did. But he did it as with a simple thought that met the whole of the case. “Oh I’m all right!” It was what Strether had rather bewilderedly to go to bed on.
It just happened, unfortunately for Strether, that his own thoughts were sparked by the pleasant air of Boulevard Malesherbes, making their unsettling force rather disproportionately strong. It was a jab thrown by him—directed even at poor Mrs. Newsome—that was nothing more than a healthy reality check; but thrown by Chad—and quite logically—it felt much more damaging. They didn’t have a petty mindset—nor anything close to it; yet undeniably, they had operated, with a certain smugness, on a foundation that could easily be used against them. Chad had at least raised his visitor’s spirits; he had even uplifted his remarkable mother; he had absolutely, with a flick of the wrist and a tug of the far-reaching rope, lifted up, all at once, Woollett strutting in its pride. There was no doubt that Woollett had showcased its vulgarity; and the way he currently stood there in the quiet street, by emphasizing a different note, aimed to turn that display into a concern for those who exhibited it. It felt exactly as if they had pinned a crudeness on him that he had, with a mere gesture, caused to fall away. The frustrating thing was that Strether felt, at the same moment, that it had fallen squarely on him. He had been wondering just a moment ago if the boy was somewhat unrefined, and now he found himself questioning if he was inadvertently a gentleman. It didn’t dawn on him at that moment that a person couldn’t be both at the same time. There was nothing in the air at that moment to challenge the idea; everything indicated that it, on the contrary, had a certain flair. It struck Strether as addressing the toughest of questions; though perhaps only by replacing it with another. Wouldn’t it be precisely from having learned to be a gentleman that he had mastered the resulting art of appearing so well that no one could speak to him directly? But what on earth was the key to such a primary cause? There were too many pieces he still didn’t have, and those pieces to the puzzle were among them. What it ultimately came down to for him was that he had to confront a fresh realization of his ignorance head-on. By this point, he had grown accustomed to reminders, especially from his own mouth, of what he didn’t know; but he tolerated them because, firstly, they were private and, secondly, they practically paid him a compliment. He didn’t know what was bad, and—since others didn’t know how little he knew about it—he could cope with his situation. But if he didn’t know, in such an important way, what was good, at least Chad was now aware that he didn’t; and that, for some reason, struck our friend as oddly public. It was indeed a vulnerable state that the young man left him in long enough for him to feel its chill—until he decided, in short, to magnanimously cover him again. This last gesture was, in fact, what Chad quite gracefully did. But he did it with a simple thought that summed up the entire situation. “Oh I’m all right!” It was what Strether had rather bewilderedly to go to bed with.
II
It really looked true moreover from the way Chad was to behave after this. He was full of attentions to his mother’s ambassador; in spite of which, all the while, the latter’s other relations rather remarkably contrived to assert themselves. Strether’s sittings pen in hand with Mrs. Newsome up in his own room were broken, yet they were richer; and they were more than ever interspersed with the hours in which he reported himself, in a different fashion, but with scarce less earnestness and fulness, to Maria Gostrey. Now that, as he would have expressed it, he had really something to talk about he found himself, in respect to any oddity that might reside for him in the double connexion, at once more aware and more indifferent. He had been fine to Mrs. Newsome about his useful friend, but it had begun to haunt his imagination that Chad, taking up again for her benefit a pen too long disused, might possibly be finer. It wouldn’t at all do, he saw, that anything should come up for him at Chad’s hand but what specifically was to have come; the greatest divergence from which would be precisely the element of any lubrication of their intercourse by levity. It was accordingly to forestall such an accident that he frankly put before the young man the several facts, just as they had occurred, of his funny alliance. He spoke of these facts, pleasantly and obligingly, as “the whole story,” and felt that he might qualify the alliance as funny if he remained sufficiently grave about it. He flattered himself that he even exaggerated the wild freedom of his original encounter with the wonderful lady; he was scrupulously definite about the absurd conditions in which they had made acquaintance—their having picked each other up almost in the street; and he had (finest inspiration of all!) a conception of carrying the war into the enemy’s country by showing surprise at the enemy’s ignorance.
It really seemed true, especially from how Chad started to act afterward. He was very attentive to his mother’s representative; despite this, the other connections of the latter managed to assert themselves quite noticeably. Strether’s meetings with Mrs. Newsome in his own room, with a pen in hand, were interrupted, but they felt more meaningful; and they were increasingly mixed with the hours he checked in with Maria Gostrey in a different way, but with just as much seriousness and depth. Now that, as he would say, he actually had something to discuss, he found himself more aware and less concerned about any oddness that might come from his dual connection. He had been careful around Mrs. Newsome about his helpful friend, but the thought began to linger in his mind that Chad, rekindling an old skill for her sake, might potentially be more charming. It wouldn’t be acceptable, he realized, for anything to come to him from Chad other than what was supposed to; any major deviation from that would certainly introduce an element of light-heartedness into their interaction. To prevent such a situation, he openly shared with the young man the various facts of his amusing relationship as they had unfolded. He described these facts in a friendly and accommodating manner as “the whole story,” feeling he could call the relationship amusing as long as he maintained a serious demeanor about it. He even convinced himself that he exaggerated the wild nature of his first encounter with the remarkable lady; he was very specific about the ridiculous circumstances under which they had met—basically running into each other on the street; and he had (the best idea of all!) a plan to surprise the other party by highlighting their lack of knowledge.
He had always had a notion that this last was the grand style of fighting; the greater therefore the reason for it, as he couldn’t remember that he had ever before fought in the grand style. Every one, according to this, knew Miss Gostrey: how came it Chad didn’t know her? The difficulty, the impossibility, was really to escape it; Strether put on him, by what he took for granted, the burden of proof of the contrary. This tone was so far successful as that Chad quite appeared to recognise her as a person whose fame had reached him, but against his acquaintance with whom much mischance had worked. He made the point at the same time that his social relations, such as they could be called, were perhaps not to the extent Strether supposed with the rising flood of their compatriots. He hinted at his having more and more given way to a different principle of selection; the moral of which seemed to be that he went about little in the “colony.” For the moment certainly he had quite another interest. It was deep, what he understood, and Strether, for himself, could only so observe it. He couldn’t see as yet how deep. Might he not all too soon! For there was really too much of their question that Chad had already committed himself to liking. He liked, to begin with, his prospective stepfather; which was distinctly what had not been on the cards. His hating him was the untowardness for which Strether had been best prepared; he hadn’t expected the boy’s actual form to give him more to do than his imputed. It gave him more through suggesting that he must somehow make up to himself for not being sure he was sufficiently disagreeable. That had really been present to him as his only way to be sure he was sufficiently thorough. The point was that if Chad’s tolerance of his thoroughness were insincere, were but the best of devices for gaining time, it none the less did treat everything as tacitly concluded.
He had always thought that this was the ultimate way to fight; therefore, there were even more reasons for it, since he couldn’t remember ever having fought in such a grand manner before. Everyone, based on this, seemed to know Miss Gostrey; so why didn’t Chad know her? The challenge, even the impossibility, was really to avoid it; Strether imposed on Chad, through what he assumed, the burden of proving otherwise. This approach was somewhat effective in that Chad seemed to recognize her as someone whose reputation had reached him, but with whom unfortunate circumstances had kept him from connecting. He pointed out that his social connections, as limited as they might be, perhaps were not as extensive as Strether believed with the increasing number of their fellow countrymen. He suggested that he had increasingly adopted a different principle of selection; the implication being that he didn’t interact much with the “colony.” For the moment, he certainly had a different interest. It was profound, what he understood, and Strether, for his part, could only observe it. He couldn’t yet see how profound it was. Could he not discover that all too soon! Because there was really too much in their discussion that Chad had already committed himself to liking. To start with, he liked his potential stepfather; which was definitely not something that had been expected. His dislike of him was the unfortunate scenario that Strether had been most prepared for; he hadn’t anticipated that the boy’s actual feelings would give him more to contend with than his presumed ones. It did give him more by suggesting that he somehow had to compensate for not being sure he was sufficiently unlikable. That had truly been in his mind as his only way to ensure he was sufficiently thorough. The issue was that if Chad’s acceptance of his thoroughness were insincere, merely a clever tactic to buy time, it nevertheless treated everything as implicitly settled.
That seemed at the end of ten days the upshot of the abundant, the recurrent talk through which Strether poured into him all it concerned him to know, put him in full possession of facts and figures. Never cutting these colloquies short by a minute, Chad behaved, looked and spoke as if he were rather heavily, perhaps even a trifle gloomily, but none the less fundamentally and comfortably free. He made no crude profession of eagerness to yield, but he asked the most intelligent questions, probed, at moments, abruptly, even deeper than his friend’s layer of information, justified by these touches the native estimate of his latent stuff, and had in every way the air of trying to live, reflectively, into the square bright picture. He walked up and down in front of this production, sociably took Strether’s arm at the points at which he stopped, surveyed it repeatedly from the right and from the left, inclined a critical head to either quarter, and, while he puffed a still more critical cigarette, animadverted to his companion on this passage and that. Strether sought relief—there were hours when he required it—in repeating himself; it was in truth not to be blinked that Chad had a way. The main question as yet was of what it was a way to. It made vulgar questions no more easy; but that was unimportant when all questions save those of his own asking had dropped. That he was free was answer enough, and it wasn’t quite ridiculous that this freedom should end by presenting itself as what was difficult to move. His changed state, his lovely home, his beautiful things, his easy talk, his very appetite for Strether, insatiable and, when all was said, flattering—what were such marked matters all but the notes of his freedom? He had the effect of making a sacrifice of it just in these handsome forms to his visitor; which was mainly the reason the visitor was privately, for the time, a little out of countenance. Strether was at this period again and again thrown back on a felt need to remodel somehow his plan. He fairly caught himself shooting rueful glances, shy looks of pursuit, toward the embodied influence, the definite adversary, who had by a stroke of her own failed him and on a fond theory of whose palpable presence he had, under Mrs. Newsome’s inspiration, altogether proceeded. He had once or twice, in secret, literally expressed the irritated wish that she would come out and find her.
That seemed to be the result after ten days of the abundant, ongoing conversations through which Strether shared everything Chad needed to know, giving him full access to facts and figures. Chad, never cutting these discussions short, acted, looked, and spoke as if he were somewhat heavy-hearted, maybe even a bit gloomy, but still fundamentally and comfortably free. He didn't openly show eagerness to give in, but he asked the smartest questions, sometimes probing rather abruptly, even deeper than his friend’s knowledge, which validated the belief in his hidden potential, and he overall seemed to be trying to thoughtfully engage with the clear, bright picture. He walked back and forth in front of this creation, sociably took Strether’s arm at the moments he paused, surveyed it from multiple angles, tilted his head critically to either side, and, while puffing on an even more critical cigarette, discussed aspects of it with his companion. Strether sought relief—there were times when he really needed it—by repeating himself; it was undeniable that Chad had a way about him. The main question still was what this way was leading to. It didn’t make awkward questions any easier; but that didn't matter since all questions except his own had faded away. That he was free was enough of an answer, and it wasn’t entirely ridiculous that this freedom ended up being something difficult to handle. His changed circumstances, his beautiful home, his lovely possessions, his easy conversations, and his insatiable appetite for Strether, which was flattering after all—what were these standout aspects if not evidence of his freedom? He seemed to sacrifice it in these attractive forms for his visitor; which was mostly why the visitor felt a little out of place during that time. At this point, Strether was repeatedly pushed back to a need to somehow rethink his plan. He found himself casting regretful glances, shy looks of pursuit, toward the embodied influence, the clear opponent, who had by her own actions let him down and on whose comforting presence he had, inspired by Mrs. Newsome, totally relied. He had once or twice privately expressed the frustrated wish that she would come out and find her.
He couldn’t quite yet force it upon Woollett that such a career, such a perverted young life, showed after all a certain plausible side, did in the case before them flaunt something like an impunity for the social man; but he could at least treat himself to the statement that would prepare him for the sharpest echo. This echo—as distinct over there in the dry thin air as some shrill “heading” above a column of print—seemed to reach him even as he wrote. “He says there’s no woman,” he could hear Mrs. Newsome report, in capitals almost of newspaper size, to Mrs. Pocock; and he could focus in Mrs. Pocock the response of the reader of the journal. He could see in the younger lady’s face the earnestness of her attention and catch the full scepticism of her but slightly delayed “What is there then?” Just so he could again as little miss the mother’s clear decision: “There’s plenty of disposition, no doubt, to pretend there isn’t.” Strether had, after posting his letter, the whole scene out; and it was a scene during which, coming and going, as befell, he kept his eye not least upon the daughter. He had his fine sense of the conviction Mrs. Pocock would take occasion to reaffirm—a conviction bearing, as he had from the first deeply divined it to bear, on Mr. Strether’s essential inaptitude. She had looked him in his conscious eyes even before he sailed, and that she didn’t believe he would find the woman had been written in her book. Hadn’t she at the best but a scant faith in his ability to find women? It wasn’t even as if he had found her mother—so much more, to her discrimination, had her mother performed the finding. Her mother had, in a case her private judgement of which remained educative of Mrs. Pocock’s critical sense, found the man. The man owed his unchallenged state, in general, to the fact that Mrs. Newsome’s discoveries were accepted at Woollett; but he knew in his bones, our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock would now be moved to show what she thought of his own. Give her a free hand, would be the moral, and the woman would soon be found.
He couldn’t yet convince Woollett that such a career, such a twisted young life, actually had a certain believable side, that it did, in the case before them, showcase something like an immunity for the social man; but he could at least tell himself a statement that would prepare him for the sharpest backlash. This backlash—as clear over there in the dry thin air as a loud “headline” above a column of print—seemed to reach him even as he wrote. “He says there’s no woman,” he could hear Mrs. Newsome reporting, in almost newspaper-sized capitals, to Mrs. Pocock; and he could picture Mrs. Pocock's reaction as a reader of the journal. He could see the earnestness in the younger lady’s face and catch her slightly delayed full skepticism with, “What is there then?” Just as he couldn’t miss the mother’s clear conclusion: “There’s certainly a lot of eagerness to pretend there isn’t.” After posting his letter, Strether had the whole scene in mind; and it was a scene where, coming and going, as it happened, he kept especially focused on the daughter. He had a strong sense of the conviction Mrs. Pocock would take the opportunity to reaffirm—a conviction that, as he had deeply sensed from the beginning, reflected Mr. Strether’s key inability. She had looked him in the eye even before he left, and her lack of belief that he would find the woman was clearly noted in her book. Didn’t she have very little faith in his ability to find women? It wasn’t even as if he had found her mother—rather, her mother had performed that task, much more noticeably to her critical eye. Her mother had, in a situation her private judgment on which shaped Mrs. Pocock’s critical sense, found the man. The man owed his unchallenged status, in general, to the fact that Mrs. Newsome’s findings were accepted at Woollett; but he knew in his bones, our friend did, how almost irresistibly Mrs. Pocock would now feel compelled to show what she thought of his own. Give her a free hand, would be the moral, and the woman would soon be found.
His impression of Miss Gostrey after her introduction to Chad was meanwhile an impression of a person almost unnaturally on her guard. He struck himself as at first unable to extract from her what he wished; though indeed of what he wished at this special juncture he would doubtless have contrived to make but a crude statement. It sifted and settled nothing to put to her, tout bêtement, as she often said, “Do you like him, eh?”—thanks to his feeling it actually the least of his needs to heap up the evidence in the young man’s favour. He repeatedly knocked at her door to let her have it afresh that Chad’s case—whatever else of minor interest it might yield—was first and foremost a miracle almost monstrous. It was the alteration of the entire man, and was so signal an instance that nothing else, for the intelligent observer, could—could it?—signify. “It’s a plot,” he declared—“there’s more in it than meets the eye.” He gave the rein to his fancy. “It’s a plant!”
His impression of Miss Gostrey after she met Chad was that she seemed almost unnaturally guarded. He felt he couldn't initially get what he wanted from her; in fact, what he wanted to know at that moment would probably have come out as a pretty basic question. It didn’t help to bluntly ask her, as she often joked, “Do you like him, huh?”—mainly because he didn’t feel the need to gather evidence in Chad's favor. He kept reaching out to her to emphasize that Chad’s situation—whatever other minor details it might bring—was primarily an almost incredible transformation. It was the total change in the man, and such a remarkable example that for any smart observer, nothing else could—could it?—be more important. “It’s a setup,” he insisted—“there’s more going on here than it looks.” He let his imagination run wild. “It’s a scheme!”
His fancy seemed to please her. “Whose then?”
His charm seemed to make her happy. “Whose then?”
“Well, the party responsible is, I suppose, the fate that waits for one, the dark doom that rides. What I mean is that with such elements one can’t count. I’ve but my poor individual, my modest human means. It isn’t playing the game to turn on the uncanny. All one’s energy goes to facing it, to tracking it. One wants, confound it, don’t you see?” he confessed with a queer face—“one wants to enjoy anything so rare. Call it then life”—he puzzled it out—“call it poor dear old life simply that springs the surprise. Nothing alters the fact that the surprise is paralysing, or at any rate engrossing—all, practically, hang it, that one sees, that one can see.”
“Well, I guess the one to blame is fate that waits for us, the dark doom that looms over us. What I mean is, you can’t rely on such things. I only have my limited self, my humble human capabilities. It’s not really fair to bring in the strange and eerie. All your energy goes into facing it, into trying to understand it. You want, damn it, don’t you see?” he admitted with a strange expression—“you want to enjoy anything so rare. Let’s just call it life”—he thought it through—“let’s just call it poor dear old life that brings the surprises. Nothing changes the fact that the surprise is paralyzing, or at least consuming—all, practically, damn it, that one can see, that one is able to see.”
Her silences were never barren, nor even dull. “Is that what you’ve written home?”
Her silences were never empty, and they definitely weren’t boring. “Is that what you wrote home?”
He tossed it off. “Oh dear, yes!”
He threw it away. “Oh my, yes!”
She had another pause while, across her carpets, he had another walk. “If you don’t look out you’ll have them straight over.”
She paused again while he walked across her carpets. “If you’re not careful, you’ll have them right over.”
“Oh but I’ve said he’ll go back.”
“Oh, but I’ve said he’ll return.”
“And will he?” Miss Gostrey asked.
“And will he?” Miss Gostrey asked.
The special tone of it made him, pulling up, look at her long. “What’s that but just the question I’ve spent treasures of patience and ingenuity in giving you, by the sight of him—after everything had led up—every facility to answer? What is it but just the thing I came here to-day to get out of you? Will he?”
The unique tone of her voice made him pause and look at her for a long time. “What is that but the very question I’ve used so much patience and creativity to ask you, by seeing him—after everything that has led up to this—every chance to answer? What is it but the thing I came here today to get from you? Will he?”
“No—he won’t,” she said at last. “He’s not free.”
“No—he won’t,” she said finally. “He’s not free.”
The air of it held him. “Then you’ve all the while known—?”
The atmosphere surrounded him. “So you've known all along—?”
“I’ve known nothing but what I’ve seen; and I wonder,” she declared with some impatience, “that you didn’t see as much. It was enough to be with him there—”
“I’ve only known what I’ve seen; and I wonder,” she said with some impatience, “how you didn’t see as much. Just being with him there was enough—”
“In the box? Yes,” he rather blankly urged.
“In the box? Yeah,” he said somewhat blankly.
“Well—to feel sure.”
"Well—to be sure."
“Sure of what?”
"Sure about what?"
She got up from her chair, at this, with a nearer approach than she had ever yet shown to dismay at his dimness. She even, fairly pausing for it, spoke with a shade of pity. “Guess!”
She stood up from her chair, showing more dismay at his cluelessness than she ever had before. She even hesitated a moment, speaking with a hint of pity. "Guess!"
It was a shade, fairly, that brought a flush into his face; so that for a moment, as they waited together, their difference was between them. “You mean that just your hour with him told you so much of his story? Very good; I’m not such a fool, on my side, as that I don’t understand you, or as that I didn’t in some degree understand him. That he has done what he liked most isn’t, among any of us, a matter the least in dispute. There’s equally little question at this time of day of what it is he does like most. But I’m not talking,” he reasonably explained, “of any mere wretch he may still pick up. I’m talking of some person who in his present situation may have held her own, may really have counted.”
It was a bit of a shade that made his face flush, so for a moment, as they waited together, their differences felt significant. “You mean that just your hour with him told you so much of his story? Fine; I’m not so naïve as to not understand you or to not have understood him to some extent. The fact that he does what he enjoys the most isn’t disputed among us. There’s also no doubt at this point about what he enjoys most. But I’m not talking,” he explained reasonably, “about any random person he might still meet. I’m talking about someone who, in his current situation, could have held her own, someone who could have really mattered.”
“That’s exactly what I am!” said Miss Gostrey. But she as quickly made her point. “I thought you thought—or that they think at Woollett—that that’s what mere wretches necessarily do. Mere wretches necessarily don’t!” she declared with spirit. “There must, behind every appearance to the contrary, still be somebody—somebody who’s not a mere wretch, since we accept the miracle. What else but such a somebody can such a miracle be?”
“That’s exactly what I am!” said Miss Gostrey. But she quickly made her point. “I thought you thought—or that they think at Woollett—that that’s what mere miserable people necessarily do. Mere miserable people definitely don’t!” she declared passionately. “There must be, behind every appearance to the contrary, still be somebody—somebody who’s not just a miserable person, since we accept the miracle. What else but such a somebody can such a miracle be?”
He took it in. “Because the fact itself is the woman?”
He understood. “Because the fact itself is the woman?”
“A woman. Some woman or other. It’s one of the things that have to be.”
“A woman. Some woman or another. It’s one of those things that have to be.”
“But you mean then at least a good one.”
"But you mean at least a good one, right?"
“A good woman?” She threw up her arms with a laugh. “I should call her excellent!”
“A good woman?” She raised her arms and laughed. “I should call her amazing!”
“Then why does he deny her?”
“Then why does he reject her?”
Miss Gostrey thought a moment. “Because she’s too good to admit! Don’t you see,” she went on, “how she accounts for him?”
Miss Gostrey thought for a moment. “Because she’s too good to admit! Don’t you see,” she continued, “how she explains him?”
Strether clearly, more and more, did see; yet it made him also see other things. “But isn’t what we want that he shall account for her?”
Strether increasingly saw more clearly; however, it also made him see other things. “But isn’t what we want that he should explain her?”
“Well, he does. What you have before you is his way. You must forgive him if it isn’t quite outspoken. In Paris such debts are tacit.”
“Well, he does. What you have in front of you is his way. You must forgive him if it’s not completely direct. In Paris, such debts are understood.”
Strether could imagine; but still—! “Even when the woman’s good?”
Strether could picture it; but still—! “Even when the woman is good?”
Again she laughed out. “Yes, and even when the man is! There’s always a caution in such cases,” she more seriously explained—“for what it may seem to show. There’s nothing that’s taken as showing so much here as sudden unnatural goodness.”
Again she laughed aloud. “Yes, and even when the guy is! There’s always a warning in situations like that,” she explained more seriously—“because of what it may seem to indicate. There’s nothing that’s seen as showing so much here as sudden, unnatural goodness.”
“Ah then you’re speaking now,” Strether said, “of people who are not nice.”
“Ah, so now you’re talking about people who are not nice,” Strether said.
“I delight,” she replied, “in your classifications. But do you want me,” she asked, “to give you in the matter, on this ground, the wisest advice I’m capable of? Don’t consider her, don’t judge her at all in herself. Consider her and judge her only in Chad.”
“I love,” she replied, “your classifications. But do you want me,” she asked, “to give you the best advice I can on this? Don’t think about her, don’t judge her for who she is. Think about her and judge her only in relation to Chad.”
He had the courage at least of his companion’s logic. “Because then I shall like her?” He almost looked, with his quick imagination as if he already did, though seeing at once also the full extent of how little it would suit his book. “But is that what I came out for?”
He had the courage of his companion's reasoning. “So, I’ll end up liking her?” With his vivid imagination, he almost seemed to feel that he already did, even though he immediately recognized how poorly it would fit into his book. “But is that really why I came out here?”
She had to confess indeed that it wasn’t. But there was something else. “Don’t make up your mind. There are all sorts of things. You haven’t seen him all.”
She had to admit that it really wasn't. But there was something else. “Don’t decide just yet. There are all kinds of things. You haven’t seen everything about him.”
This on his side Strether recognised; but his acuteness none the less showed him the danger. “Yes, but if the more I see the better he seems?”
This, on his side, Strether recognized; but his sharpness still revealed the danger. “Yes, but what if the more I see him, the better he seems?”
Well, she found something. “That may be—but his disavowal of her isn’t, all the same, pure consideration. There’s a hitch.” She made it out. “It’s the effort to sink her.”
Well, she found something. “That might be true—but his denial of her isn’t, after all, just out of concern. There's a catch.” She figured it out. “It’s his attempt to bring her down.”
Strether winced at the image. “To ‘sink’—?”
Strether flinched at the thought. “To ‘sink’—?”
“Well, I mean there’s a struggle, and a part of it is just what he hides. Take time—that’s the only way not to make some mistake that you’ll regret. Then you’ll see. He does really want to shake her off.”
“Well, there’s definitely a struggle, and part of it is just what he keeps hidden. Take your time—that’s the only way to avoid making a mistake you’ll regret. Then you’ll understand. He really does want to get away from her.”
Our friend had by this time so got into the vision that he almost gasped. “After all she has done for him?”
Our friend was so absorbed in the scene that he could hardly breathe. “After everything she has done for him?”
Miss Gostrey gave him a look which broke the next moment into a wonderful smile. “He’s not so good as you think!”
Miss Gostrey gave him a glance that immediately turned into a warm smile. “He’s not as great as you think!”
They remained with him, these words, promising him, in their character of warning, considerable help; but the support he tried to draw from them found itself on each renewal of contact with Chad defeated by something else. What could it be, this disconcerting force, he asked himself, but the sense, constantly renewed, that Chad was—quite in fact insisted on being—as good as he thought? It seemed somehow as if he couldn’t but be as good from the moment he wasn’t as bad. There was a succession of days at all events when contact with him—and in its immediate effect, as if it could produce no other—elbowed out of Strether’s consciousness everything but itself. Little Bilham once more pervaded the scene, but little Bilham became even in a higher degree than he had originally been one of the numerous forms of the inclusive relation; a consequence promoted, to our friend’s sense, by two or three incidents with which we have yet to make acquaintance. Waymarsh himself, for the occasion, was drawn into the eddy; it absolutely, though but temporarily, swallowed him down, and there were days when Strether seemed to bump against him as a sinking swimmer might brush a submarine object. The fathomless medium held them—Chad’s manner was the fathomless medium; and our friend felt as if they passed each other, in their deep immersion, with the round impersonal eye of silent fish. It was practically produced between them that Waymarsh was giving him then his chance; and the shade of discomfort that Strether drew from the allowance resembled not a little the embarrassment he had known at school, as a boy, when members of his family had been present at exhibitions. He could perform before strangers, but relatives were fatal, and it was now as if, comparatively, Waymarsh were a relative. He seemed to hear him say “Strike up then!” and to enjoy a foretaste of conscientious domestic criticism. He had struck up, so far as he actually could; Chad knew by this time in profusion what he wanted; and what vulgar violence did his fellow pilgrim expect of him when he had really emptied his mind? It went somehow to and fro that what poor Waymarsh meant was “I told you so—that you’d lose your immortal soul!” but it was also fairly explicit that Strether had his own challenge and that, since they must go to the bottom of things, he wasted no more virtue in watching Chad than Chad wasted in watching him. His dip for duty’s sake—where was it worse than Waymarsh’s own? For he needn’t have stopped resisting and refusing, needn’t have parleyed, at that rate, with the foe.
They stayed with him, these words, offering him significant help in their role as a warning; but whenever he tried to rely on them, he found himself overwhelmed by something else. What could this confusing force be, he wondered, if not the persistent feeling that Chad was—in fact, insisted on being—as good as he believed? It seemed that he couldn’t help but be as good as long as he wasn’t that bad. There were several days, at least, when interacting with Chad—and its immediate effect—pushed everything else out of Strether’s mind. Little Bilham once more filled the scene, but he became, even more than before, one of the many forms of the inclusive relationship; a result, to our friend’s perception, of a few incidents we have yet to learn about. Waymarsh himself got caught up in the swirl; it completely, though temporarily, dragged him under, and there were days when Strether seemed to brush against him just like a drowning swimmer might encounter something hidden below the surface. The deep waters were all around them—Chad’s manner was those deep waters; and our friend felt like they passed by each other, deeply immersed, with the round, impersonal gaze of silent fish. It became clear between them that Waymarsh was giving him his chance; and the discomfort that Strether felt from this acknowledgment was not unlike the embarrassment he had experienced at school, as a boy, when family members attended exhibitions. He could perform well in front of strangers, but family was a disaster, and it felt as if, comparatively, Waymarsh had become like a relative. He could almost hear him say, “Go ahead then!” and he anticipated a taste of responsible family criticism. He had performed as best he could; by now, Chad knew exactly what he wanted; and what sort of crude behavior did his fellow traveler expect from him once he had truly cleared his mind? It somehow went back and forth that what poor Waymarsh meant was “I told you so—that you’d lose your immortal soul!” but it was also clear that Strether had his own challenge and that, since they needed to get to the bottom of things, he wasted no more effort watching Chad than Chad wasted watching him. His effort for duty’s sake—where was it worse than Waymarsh’s own? For he didn’t have to stop resisting and rejecting, didn’t have to negotiate, at that point, with the enemy.
The strolls over Paris to see something or call somewhere were accordingly inevitable and natural, and the late sessions in the wondrous troisième, the lovely home, when men dropped in and the picture composed more suggestively through the haze of tobacco, of music more or less good and of talk more or less polyglot, were on a principle not to be distinguished from that of the mornings and the afternoons. Nothing, Strether had to recognise as he leaned back and smoked, could well less resemble a scene of violence than even the liveliest of these occasions. They were occasions of discussion, none the less, and Strether had never in his life heard so many opinions on so many subjects. There were opinions at Woollett, but only on three or four. The differences were there to match; if they were doubtless deep, though few, they were quiet—they were, as might be said, almost as shy as if people had been ashamed of them. People showed little diffidence about such things, on the other hand, in the Boulevard Malesherbes, and were so far from being ashamed of them—or indeed of anything else—that they often seemed to have invented them to avert those agreements that destroy the taste of talk. No one had ever done that at Woollett, though Strether could remember times when he himself had been tempted to it without quite knowing why. He saw why at present—he had but wanted to promote intercourse.
The walks around Paris to see things or visit places felt completely natural and unavoidable, and the late nights in the amazing third-floor apartment, the beautiful home, when friends dropped by and the atmosphere grew richer with the haze of tobacco, music of varying quality, and conversations in different languages, were based on the same principles as the mornings and afternoons. Nothing, Strether realized as he relaxed and smoked, could be less like a scene of violence than even the most lively of these gatherings. They were definitely opportunities for discussion, and Strether had never heard so many opinions on so many topics in his life. There were opinions in Woollett, but only on three or four subjects. The differences existed to complement one another; while they were certainly deep, though few, they remained subtle—they were, you could say, almost shy as if people were embarrassed by them. On the other hand, people in Boulevard Malesherbes showed no hesitation about such matters and were so far from being ashamed of them—or indeed of anything else—that they often seemed to have invented opinions just to avoid the agreements that ruin the enjoyment of conversation. No one had ever done that in Woollett, although Strether could recall times when he himself had been tempted to do so without fully understanding why. He saw the reason now—he simply wanted to encourage interaction.
These, however, were but parenthetic memories, and the turn taken by his affair on the whole was positively that if his nerves were on the stretch it was because he missed violence. When he asked himself if none would then, in connexion with it, ever come at all, he might almost have passed as wondering how to provoke it. It would be too absurd if such a vision as that should have to be invoked for relief; it was already marked enough as absurd that he should actually have begun with flutters and dignities on the score of a single accepted meal. What sort of a brute had he expected Chad to be, anyway?—Strether had occasion to make the enquiry but was careful to make it in private. He could himself, comparatively recent as it was—it was truly but the fact of a few days since—focus his primal crudity; but he would on the approach of an observer, as if handling an illicit possession, have slipped the reminiscence out of sight. There were echoes of it still in Mrs. Newsome’s letters, and there were moments when these echoes made him exclaim on her want of tact. He blushed of course, at once, still more for the explanation than for the ground of it: it came to him in time to save his manners that she couldn’t at the best become tactful as quickly as he. Her tact had to reckon with the Atlantic Ocean, the General Post-Office and the extravagant curve of the globe. Chad had one day offered tea at the Boulevard Malesherbes to a chosen few, a group again including the unobscured Miss Barrace; and Strether had on coming out walked away with the acquaintance whom in his letters to Mrs. Newsome he always spoke of as the little artist-man. He had had full occasion to mention him as the other party, so oddly, to the only close personal alliance observation had as yet detected in Chad’s existence. Little Bilham’s way this afternoon was not Strether’s, but he had none the less kindly come with him, and it was somehow a part of his kindness that as it had sadly begun to rain they suddenly found themselves seated for conversation at a café in which they had taken refuge. He had passed no more crowded hour in Chad’s society than the one just ended; he had talked with Miss Barrace, who had reproached him with not having come to see her, and he had above all hit on a happy thought for causing Waymarsh’s tension to relax. Something might possibly be extracted for the latter from the idea of his success with that lady, whose quick apprehension of what might amuse her had given Strether a free hand. What had she meant if not to ask whether she couldn’t help him with his splendid encumbrance, and mightn’t the sacred rage at any rate be kept a little in abeyance by thus creating for his comrade’s mind even in a world of irrelevance the possibility of a relation? What was it but a relation to be regarded as so decorative and, in especial, on the strength of it, to be whirled away, amid flounces and feathers, in a coupé lined, by what Strether could make out, with dark blue brocade? He himself had never been whirled away—never at least in a coupé and behind a footman; he had driven with Miss Gostrey in cabs, with Mrs. Pocock, a few times, in an open buggy, with Mrs. Newsome in a four-seated cart and, occasionally up at the mountains, on a buckboard; but his friend’s actual adventure transcended his personal experience. He now showed his companion soon enough indeed how inadequate, as a general monitor, this last queer quantity could once more feel itself.
These were just fleeting memories, and the overall direction of his situation was clearly that if his nerves were frayed, it was because he craved excitement. When he wondered if no one would ever come close to that, he almost seemed to be figuring out how to trigger it. It would be ridiculous for him to have to summon such a vision for relief; it was already absurd that he had gotten worked up over a single shared meal. What kind of animal had he expected Chad to be, anyway? Strether found himself asking this question but made sure to keep it to himself. He could, given how recent it was—just a few days ago—consolidate his original, rough feelings; but when someone else approached, he would hide those memories like a secret stash. There were still echoes of it in Mrs. Newsome’s letters, and sometimes those echoes made him gasp at her lack of finesse. He blushed, of course, more for the reason behind it than for the reality itself: he realized in time to maintain his composure that she couldn’t become tactful as quickly as he could. Her tact had to navigate the Atlantic Ocean, the General Post Office, and the crazy shape of the globe. One day, Chad had invited a select few for tea at Boulevard Malesherbes, among them the unmistakable Miss Barrace; and when Strether left, he walked with the acquaintance he always referred to as the little artist-man in his letters to Mrs. Newsome. He had needed to mention him as the other half, strangely, of the only close personal connection that had been noticed in Chad’s life. This afternoon, Little Bilham’s approach wasn’t the same as Strether’s, but he had still been kind enough to accompany him, and somehow part of his kindness was that as it sadly started to rain, they found themselves taking shelter for a conversation in a café. He hadn't spent a busier hour in Chad's company than the one just finished; he had spoken with Miss Barrace, who had scolded him for not visiting her, and he had stumbled upon a clever idea to ease Waymarsh's tension. Perhaps Waymarsh could find some solace in the thought of his success with that lady, whose quick grasp of what might amuse her had given Strether some freedom. What had she meant if not to suggest that she could help him with his splendid burden, and couldn’t the potential for a connection at least keep the sacred rage somewhat at bay by creating a possibility for his friend’s mind, even in a world of nonsense? What was it but a connection that could be viewed as so charming, especially with the thought that it would sweep him away, amid frills and feathers, in a coach lined, as far as Strether could tell, with dark blue fabric? He had never been swept away himself—at least not in a coach and with a footman; he had ridden with Miss Gostrey in cabs, with Mrs. Pocock a few times in an open carriage, with Mrs. Newsome in a four-seater, and occasionally in the mountains on a flatbed; but his friend’s actual experience went far beyond anything he had encountered. He soon showed his companion just how inadequate, as a general guide, this last strange situation could feel once again.
“What game under the sun is he playing?” He signified the next moment that his allusion was not to the fat gentleman immersed in dominoes on whom his eyes had begun by resting, but to their host of the previous hour, as to whom, there on the velvet bench, with a final collapse of all consistency, he treated himself to the comfort of indiscretion. “Where do you see him come out?”
“What game is he playing?” He indicated a moment later that he wasn't referring to the overweight man focused on dominoes, who he had initially been watching, but rather to their host from the previous hour. There, on the velvet bench, he allowed himself the luxury of being indiscreet with a complete disregard for consistency. “Where do you think he'll show up?”
Little Bilham, in meditation, looked at him with a kindness almost paternal. “Don’t you like it over here?”
Little Bilham, deep in thought, looked at him with a kindness that felt almost fatherly. “Don’t you like it here?”
Strether laughed out—for the tone was indeed droll; he let himself go. “What has that to do with it? The only thing I’ve any business to like is to feel that I’m moving him. That’s why I ask you whether you believe I am? Is the creature”—and he did his best to show that he simply wished to ascertain—“honest?”
Strether laughed out loud—because the tone was really funny; he relaxed. “What does that have to do with anything? The only thing I need to care about is knowing that I’m getting through to him. That’s why I’m asking you if you think I am? Is the guy”—and he tried hard to show that he just wanted to find out—“honest?”
His companion looked responsible, but looked it through a small dim smile. “What creature do you mean?”
His companion appeared responsible, but did so with a faint, dim smile. "What creature are you talking about?"
It was on this that they did have for a little a mute interchange. “Is it untrue that he’s free? How then,” Strether asked wondering “does he arrange his life?”
It was during this time that they shared a brief, silent exchange. “Is it not true that he’s free? Then,” Strether asked, puzzled, “how does he organize his life?”
“Is the creature you mean Chad himself?” little Bilham said.
“Are you talking about Chad himself?” little Bilham said.
Strether here, with a rising hope, just thought, “We must take one of them at a time.” But his coherence lapsed. “Is there some woman? Of whom he’s really afraid of course I mean—or who does with him what she likes.”
Strether, with a growing sense of hope, thought, “We need to deal with one of them at a time.” But he lost his train of thought. “Is there a woman? The one he's really afraid of, I mean—or who gets her way with him?”
“It’s awfully charming of you,” Bilham presently remarked, “not to have asked me that before.”
“It’s really charming of you,” Bilham said, “not to have asked me that before.”
“Oh I’m not fit for my job!”
“Oh, I’m not cut out for my job!”
The exclamation had escaped our friend, but it made little Bilham more deliberate. “Chad’s a rare case!” he luminously observed. “He’s awfully changed,” he added.
The exclamation had slipped out from our friend, but it made little Bilham more thoughtful. “Chad’s a unique case!” he brightly remarked. “He’s really changed,” he added.
“Then you see it too?”
“Do you see it too?”
“The way he has improved? Oh yes—I think every one must see it. But I’m not sure,” said little Bilham, “that I didn’t like him about as well in his other state.”
“The way he has improved? Oh yes—I think everyone can see it. But I’m not sure,” said little Bilham, “that I didn’t like him just as much in his previous state.”
“Then this is really a new state altogether?”
“Then this is really a completely new state?”
“Well,” the young man after a moment returned, “I’m not sure he was really meant by nature to be quite so good. It’s like the new edition of an old book that one has been fond of—revised and amended, brought up to date, but not quite the thing one knew and loved. However that may be at all events,” he pursued, “I don’t think, you know, that he’s really playing, as you call it, any game. I believe he really wants to go back and take up a career. He’s capable of one, you know, that will improve and enlarge him still more. He won’t then,” little Bilham continued to remark, “be my pleasant well-rubbed old-fashioned volume at all. But of course I’m beastly immoral. I’m afraid it would be a funny world altogether—a world with things the way I like them. I ought, I dare say, to go home and go into business myself. Only I’d simply rather die—simply. And I’ve not the least difficulty in making up my mind not to, and in knowing exactly why, and in defending my ground against all comers. All the same,” he wound up, “I assure you I don’t say a word against it—for himself, I mean—to Chad. I seem to see it as much the best thing for him. You see he’s not happy.”
“Well,” the young man replied after a moment, “I’m not sure he was really meant to be this good by nature. It’s like a new edition of an old book that you’ve loved—revised and updated but not quite what you knew and cherished. However that may be," he continued, “I don’t think he’s really playing, as you call it, any game. I believe he genuinely wants to go back and pursue a career. He’s capable of one that will develop and enhance him even more. He won’t then,” little Bilham added, “be my enjoyable, well-worn, old-fashioned book at all. But of course I’m terribly immoral. I’m afraid it would be a strange world altogether—a world with things the way I like them. I should probably go home and start a business myself. But I’d honestly rather die—really. And I have no trouble deciding not to, or knowing exactly why, and defending my stance against anyone who challenges it. Still,” he concluded, “I assure you I’m not saying anything against it—for him, I mean—about Chad. I see it as the best thing for him. You see, he’s not happy.”
“Do I?”—Strether stared. “I’ve been supposing I see just the opposite—an extraordinary case of the equilibrium arrived at and assured.”
“Do I?”—Strether stared. “I thought I saw just the opposite—an amazing example of balance achieved and secured.”
“Oh there’s a lot behind it.”
“Oh, there’s a lot to it.”
“Ah there you are!” Strether exclaimed. “That’s just what I want to get at. You speak of your familiar volume altered out of recognition. Well, who’s the editor?”
“Ah, there you are!” Strether exclaimed. “That’s exactly what I want to get at. You talk about your familiar book being changed beyond recognition. So, who’s the editor?”
Little Bilham looked before him a minute in silence. “He ought to get married. That would do it. And he wants to.”
Little Bilham looked ahead for a moment in silence. “He should get married. That would fix things. And he wants to.”
“Wants to marry her?”
“Wants to marry her?”
Again little Bilham waited, and, with a sense that he had information, Strether scarce knew what was coming. “He wants to be free. He isn’t used, you see,” the young man explained in his lucid way, “to being so good.”
Again, little Bilham waited, and, feeling that he had some important news, Strether hardly knew what to expect. “He wants to be free. He isn’t used, you see,” the young man explained clearly, “to being this good.”
Strether hesitated. “Then I may take it from you that he is good?”
Strether paused. “So, I can take it that he is good?”
His companion matched his pause, but making it up with a quiet fulness. “Do take it from me.”
His companion matched his pause but filled it with a quiet intensity. “Do take it from me.”
“Well then why isn’t he free? He swears to me he is, but meanwhile does nothing—except of course that he’s so kind to me—to prove it; and couldn’t really act much otherwise if he weren’t. My question to you just now was exactly on this queer impression of his diplomacy: as if instead of really giving ground his line were to keep me on here and set me a bad example.”
“Well, then why isn’t he free? He promises me he is, but in the meantime, he does nothing—other than being kind to me, of course—to prove it; and he couldn’t really act much differently if he weren’t. My question to you just now was about this weird sense I have of his diplomacy: as if instead of actually making a concession, his strategy is to keep me here and set a bad example for me.”
As the half-hour meanwhile had ebbed Strether paid his score, and the waiter was presently in the act of counting out change. Our friend pushed back to him a fraction of it, with which, after an emphatic recognition, the personage in question retreated. “You give too much,” little Bilham permitted himself benevolently to observe.
As the half hour went by, Strether settled his bill, and the waiter was soon busy counting out the change. Our friend pushed a bit of it back to him, which the waiter accepted with a grateful nod before he stepped away. "You're too generous," little Bilham kindly pointed out.
“Oh I always give too much!” Strether helplessly sighed. “But you don’t,” he went on as if to get quickly away from the contemplation of that doom, “answer my question. Why isn’t he free?”
“Oh, I always give too much!” Strether sighed helplessly. “But you don’t,” he continued, trying to quickly move past that grim thought, “answer my question. Why isn’t he free?”
Little Bilham had got up as if the transaction with the waiter had been a signal, and had already edged out between the table and the divan. The effect of this was that a minute later they had quitted the place, the gratified waiter alert again at the open door. Strether had found himself deferring to his companion’s abruptness as to a hint that he should be answered as soon as they were more isolated. This happened when after a few steps in the outer air they had turned the next corner. There our friend had kept it up. “Why isn’t he free if he’s good?”
Little Bilham had gotten up as if his interaction with the waiter was a cue, and had already slipped out from between the table and the couch. Because of this, a minute later they had left the place, the satisfied waiter ready again at the open door. Strether found himself responding to his companion's suddenness as a sign that he should be answered as soon as they were more secluded. This happened after they took a few steps into the fresh air and turned the next corner. There, our friend continued. “Why isn’t he free if he’s good?”
Little Bilham looked him full in the face. “Because it’s a virtuous attachment.”
Little Bilham looked him straight in the eye. “Because it’s a virtuous connection.”
This had settled the question so effectually for the time—that is for the next few days—that it had given Strether almost a new lease of life. It must be added however that, thanks to his constant habit of shaking the bottle in which life handed him the wine of experience, he presently found the taste of the lees rising as usual into his draught. His imagination had in other words already dealt with his young friend’s assertion; of which it had made something that sufficiently came out on the very next occasion of his seeing Maria Gostrey. This occasion moreover had been determined promptly by a new circumstance—a circumstance he was the last man to leave her for a day in ignorance of. “When I said to him last night,” he immediately began, “that without some definite word from him now that will enable me to speak to them over there of our sailing—or at least of mine, giving them some sort of date—my responsibility becomes uncomfortable and my situation awkward; when I said that to him what do you think was his reply?” And then as she this time gave it up: “Why that he has two particular friends, two ladies, mother and daughter, about to arrive in Paris—coming back from an absence; and that he wants me so furiously to meet them, know them and like them, that I shall oblige him by kindly not bringing our business to a crisis till he has had a chance to see them again himself. Is that,” Strether enquired, “the way he’s going to try to get off? These are the people,” he explained, “that he must have gone down to see before I arrived. They’re the best friends he has in the world, and they take more interest than any one else in what concerns him. As I’m his next best he sees a thousand reasons why we should comfortably meet. He hasn’t broached the question sooner because their return was uncertain—seemed in fact for the present impossible. But he more than intimates that—if you can believe it—their desire to make my acquaintance has had to do with their surmounting difficulties.”
This had effectively settled the question for a while—that is, for the next few days—and it had given Strether almost a new lease on life. It should be added, however, that because of his habit of shaking the bottle in which life poured him the wine of experience, he soon found the bitter residue rising again in his drink. In other words, his imagination had already processed his young friend’s claim; it had turned it into something that came up right away the next time he saw Maria Gostrey. This meeting had also been prompted by a new development—one he was the last person to leave her unaware of for a day. “When I told him last night,” he began, “that without some firm word from him now, I wouldn’t be able to talk to them over there about our sailing—or at least mine, giving them some sort of date—my responsibility becomes uncomfortable and my situation awkward; when I said that, what do you think he replied?” And then, as she gave up this time: “Well, he said that he has two close friends, a mother and daughter, arriving in Paris—coming back from being away; and that he is so eager for me to meet them, get to know them, and like them, that he wants me to kindly hold off on our business until he’s had a chance to see them again himself. Is that,” Strether asked, “how he’s planning to get out of this? These are the people,” he explained, “he must have gone to see before I got here. They’re his closest friends, and they care more about him than anyone else. Since I’m his next best friend, he sees a thousand reasons why we should meet comfortably. He hasn’t brought it up sooner because their return was uncertain—seemed impossible for now. But he strongly hints that—if you can believe it—their desire to meet me is tied to them overcoming their difficulties.”
“They’re dying to see you?” Miss Gostrey asked.
“They're eager to see you?” Miss Gostrey asked.
“Dying. Of course,” said Strether, “they’re the virtuous attachment.” He had already told her about that—had seen her the day after his talk with little Bilham; and they had then threshed out together the bearing of the revelation. She had helped him to put into it the logic in which little Bilham had left it slightly deficient Strether hadn’t pressed him as to the object of the preference so unexpectedly described; feeling in the presence of it, with one of his irrepressible scruples, a delicacy from which he had in the quest of the quite other article worked himself sufficiently free. He had held off, as on a small principle of pride, from permitting his young friend to mention a name; wishing to make with this the great point that Chad’s virtuous attachments were none of his business. He had wanted from the first not to think too much of his dignity, but that was no reason for not allowing it any little benefit that might turn up. He had often enough wondered to what degree his interference might pass for interested; so that there was no want of luxury in letting it be seen whenever he could that he didn’t interfere. That had of course at the same time not deprived him of the further luxury of much private astonishment; which however he had reduced to some order before communicating his knowledge. When he had done this at last it was with the remark that, surprised as Miss Gostrey might, like himself, at first be, she would probably agree with him on reflexion that such an account of the matter did after all fit the confirmed appearances. Nothing certainly, on all the indications, could have been a greater change for him than a virtuous attachment, and since they had been in search of the “word” as the French called it, of that change, little Bilham’s announcement—though so long and so oddly delayed—would serve as well as another. She had assured Strether in fact after a pause that the more she thought of it the more it did serve; and yet her assurance hadn’t so weighed with him as that before they parted he hadn’t ventured to challenge her sincerity. Didn’t she believe the attachment was virtuous?—he had made sure of her again with the aid of that question. The tidings he brought her on this second occasion were moreover such as would help him to make surer still.
“Dying. Of course,” said Strether, “they’re the virtuous attachment.” He had already told her about that—had seen her the day after his conversation with little Bilham; and they had worked through the implications of the revelation together. She had helped him clarify the logic that little Bilham had slightly missed. Strether hadn’t pressed him about the reasons behind the unexpectedly described preference; feeling in the moment, with one of his unavoidable scruples, a sensitivity that he had managed to shake off while looking for something completely different. He had held back, as a matter of pride, from letting his young friend mention any names; wanting to emphasize that Chad’s virtuous attachments were none of his concern. From the start, he didn’t want to overthink his dignity, but that didn’t mean he wouldn’t allow it to benefit from any small opportunity that came along. He often wondered how much his involvement might appear self-serving; so there was no shortage of luxury in showing whenever he could that he didn’t interfere. This had, of course, not deprived him of the further luxury of much private astonishment; however, he had organized his thoughts a bit before sharing what he knew. When he finally did this, he remarked that, as surprised as Miss Gostrey might be at first, she would probably agree with him upon reflection that such an account of the matter did indeed fit the established appearances. Nothing, certainly, based on all the signs, could have been a bigger change for him than a virtuous attachment, and since they had been looking for the “word,” as the French called it, for that change, little Bilham’s announcement—though delayed and unusual—would serve as well as anything else. She had assured Strether, after a pause, that the more she thought about it, the more it did make sense; and yet her assurance hadn’t been enough to prevent him from challenging her sincerity before they parted. Didn’t she believe the attachment *was* virtuous?—he had made sure of her again with that question. The news he brought her on this second occasion was also something that would help him feel even more certain.
She showed at first none the less as only amused. “You say there are two? An attachment to them both then would, I suppose, almost necessarily be innocent.”
She initially seemed nothing more than amused. “You say there are two? Then having a connection to both would, I guess, almost definitely be innocent.”
Our friend took the point, but he had his clue. “Mayn’t he be still in the stage of not quite knowing which of them, mother or daughter, he likes best?”
Our friend got the hint, but he understood. “Could he still be unsure about which one he likes more, his mother or his daughter?”
She gave it more thought. “Oh it must be the daughter—at his age.”
She thought about it some more. “Oh, it must be the daughter—at his age.”
“Possibly. Yet what do we know,” Strether asked, “about hers? She may be old enough.”
“Maybe. But what do we really know,” Strether asked, “about her? She could be old enough.”
“Old enough for what?”
"Old enough for what, exactly?"
“Why to marry Chad. That may be, you know, what they want. And if Chad wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even we, at a pinch, could do with it—that is if she doesn’t prevent repatriation—why it may be plain sailing yet.”
“Why marry Chad? That might be what they want. And if Chad wants it too, and little Bilham wants it, and even we, if necessary, could go along with it—that is, unless she stops repatriation—then it might actually be smooth sailing after all.”
It was always the case for him in these counsels that each of his remarks, as it came, seemed to drop into a deeper well. He had at all events to wait a moment to hear the slight splash of this one. “I don’t see why if Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady he hasn’t already done it or hasn’t been prepared with some statement to you about it. And if he both wants to marry her and is on good terms with them why isn’t he ‘free’?”
It was always the case for him in these meetings that each of his comments seemed to sink into a deeper hole. He had to pause for a moment to hear the faint splash of this one. “I don’t understand why, if Mr. Newsome wants to marry the young lady, he hasn’t gone ahead and done it or hasn’t prepared some kind of statement for you about it. And if he wants to marry her and gets along with them, why isn’t he ‘free’?”
Strether, responsively, wondered indeed. “Perhaps the girl herself doesn’t like him.”
Strether thought to himself, “Maybe the girl doesn’t like him.”
“Then why does he speak of them to you as he does?”
“Then why does he talk about them to you like that?”
Strether’s mind echoed the question, but also again met it. “Perhaps it’s with the mother he’s on good terms.”
Strether’s mind repeated the question but also confronted it once more. “Maybe he gets along well with his mother.”
“As against the daughter?”
"As opposed to the daughter?"
“Well, if she’s trying to persuade the daughter to consent to him, what could make him like the mother more? Only,” Strether threw out, “why shouldn’t the daughter consent to him?”
“Well, if she’s trying to convince the daughter to agree to him, what could make him like the mother more? Only,” Strether suggested, “why shouldn’t the daughter agree to him?”
“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “mayn’t it be that every one else isn’t quite so struck with him as you?”
“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey, “is it possible that not everyone else is as impressed by him as you are?”
“Doesn’t regard him you mean as such an ‘eligible’ young man? Is that what I’ve come to?” he audibly and rather gravely sought to know. “However,” he went on, “his marriage is what his mother most desires—that is if it will help. And oughtn’t any marriage to help? They must want him”—he had already worked it out—“to be better off. Almost any girl he may marry will have a direct interest in his taking up his chances. It won’t suit her at least that he shall miss them.”
"Don’t you see him as an ‘eligible’ young man? Is that really how far I've fallen?” he asked, sounding serious. “But still,” he continued, “his mother really wants him to get married—if it will make a difference. And shouldn’t any marriage make a difference? They must want him to be better off.” He had already figured it out. “Almost any girl he marries will want him to seize his opportunities. It wouldn’t benefit her if he let them slip away.”
Miss Gostrey cast about. “No—you reason well! But of course on the other hand there’s always dear old Woollett itself.”
Miss Gostrey looked around. “No—you make a good point! But on the other hand, there’s always dear old Woollett itself.”
“Oh yes,” he mused—“there’s always dear old Woollett itself.”
“Oh yes,” he thought—“there’s always good old Woollett itself.”
She waited a moment. “The young lady mayn’t find herself able to swallow that quantity. She may think it’s paying too much; she may weigh one thing against another.”
She waited a moment. “The young lady might not be able to swallow that amount. She might think it’s too expensive; she might compare one thing to another.”
Strether, ever restless in such debates, took a vague turn “It will all depend on who she is. That of course—the proved ability to deal with dear old Woollett, since I’m sure she does deal with it—is what makes so strongly for Mamie.”
Strether, always uneasy in those discussions, replied vaguely, “It all depends on who she is. That, of course—the proven ability to handle good old Woollett, since I’m sure she does manage it—is what really makes a strong case for Mamie.”
“Mamie?”
“Granny?”
He stopped short, at her tone, before her; then, though seeing that it represented not vagueness, but a momentary embarrassed fulness, let his exclamation come. “You surely haven’t forgotten about Mamie!”
He stopped abruptly at her tone, in front of her; then, realizing it wasn’t just uncertainty but a brief moment of awkwardness, he let his exclamation out. “You really haven’t forgotten about Mamie!”
“No, I haven’t forgotten about Mamie,” she smiled. “There’s no doubt whatever that there’s ever so much to be said for her. Mamie’s my girl!” she roundly declared.
“No, I haven’t forgotten about Mamie,” she smiled. “There’s definitely a lot to be said for her. Mamie’s my girl!” she confidently declared.
Strether resumed for a minute his walk. “She’s really perfectly lovely, you know. Far prettier than any girl I’ve seen over here yet.”
Strether continued his walk for a minute. “She’s really absolutely gorgeous, you know. Way prettier than any girl I’ve seen around here so far.”
“That’s precisely on what I perhaps most build.” And she mused a moment in her friend’s way. “I should positively like to take her in hand!”
"That's exactly what I think I focus on the most." And she paused for a moment, reflecting like her friend. "I really would love to take her under my wing!"
He humoured the fancy, though indeed finally to deprecate it. “Oh but don’t, in your zeal, go over to her! I need you most and can’t, you know, be left.”
He entertained the idea, although in the end, he dismissed it. “Oh, but please don’t, in your enthusiasm, go to her! I need you the most and, you know, can’t be left alone.”
But she kept it up. “I wish they’d send her out to me!”
But she continued. “I wish they’d send her out to me!”
“If they knew you,” he returned, “they would.”
“If they knew you,” he replied, “they definitely would.”
“Ah but don’t they?—after all that, as I’ve understood you you’ve told them about me?”
“Ah, but don’t they?—after everything, as I understand it, you’ve told them about me?”
He had paused before her again, but he continued his course “They will—before, as you say, I’ve done.” Then he came out with the point he had wished after all most to make. “It seems to give away now his game. This is what he has been doing—keeping me along for. He has been waiting for them.”
He stopped in front of her again, but he kept going. “They will—before, like you said, I’m done.” Then he finally said the main point he wanted to make. “It looks like this reveals his plan. This is what he’s been doing—keeping me around for this. He’s been waiting for them.”
Miss Gostrey drew in her lips. “You see a good deal in it!”
Miss Gostrey pressed her lips together. “You really see a lot in that!”
“I doubt if I see as much as you. Do you pretend,” he went on, “that you don’t see—?”
“I doubt I see as much as you do. Are you pretending,” he continued, “that you don’t see—?”
“Well, what?”—she pressed him as he paused.
“Well, what?” she urged him as he hesitated.
“Why that there must be a lot between them—and that it has been going on from the first; even from before I came.”
“Why there must be so much going on between them—and that it has been happening from the very beginning; even before I arrived.”
She took a minute to answer. “Who are they then—if it’s so grave?”
She paused for a moment before responding. “Who are they then—if it’s such a big deal?”
“It mayn’t be grave—it may be gay. But at any rate it’s marked. Only I don’t know,” Strether had to confess, “anything about them. Their name for instance was a thing that, after little Bilham’s information, I found it a kind of refreshment not to feel obliged to follow up.”
“It might not be serious—it might be cheerful. But in any case, it’s noticeable. Only I don’t know,” Strether had to admit, “anything about them. Their name, for example, was something that, after little Bilham’s information, I found it kind of refreshing not to have to investigate.”
“Oh,” she returned, “if you think you’ve got off—!”
“Oh,” she replied, “if you think you're getting away—!”
Her laugh produced in him a momentary gloom. “I don’t think I’ve got off. I only think I’m breathing for about five minutes. I dare say I shall have, at the best, still to get on.” A look, over it all, passed between them, and the next minute he had come back to good humour. “I don’t meanwhile take the smallest interest in their name.”
Her laugh brought a brief sadness to him. “I don’t think I’ve escaped. I only feel like I’m surviving for about five minutes. I guess I’ll still have to keep moving forward, at best.” A glance passed between them, and in the next moment, he returned to his good mood. “In the meantime, I don’t care at all about their name.”
“Nor in their nationality?—American, French, English, Polish?”
“Nor in their nationality?—American, French, English, Polish?”
“I don’t care the least little ‘hang,’” he smiled, “for their nationality. It would be nice if they’re Polish!” he almost immediately added.
"I don’t care at all about their nationality," he smiled, "but it would be nice if they’re Polish!" he quickly added.
“Very nice indeed.” The transition kept up her spirits. “So you see you do care.”
“Very nice indeed.” The change kept her spirits up. “So you see, you do care.”
He did this contention a modified justice. “I think I should if they were Polish. Yes,” he thought—“there might be joy in that.”
He did this argument a fair amount of justice. “I think I should if they were Polish. Yes,” he thought—“there might be joy in that.”
“Let us then hope for it.” But she came after this nearer to the question. “If the girl’s of the right age of course the mother can’t be. I mean for the virtuous attachment. If the girl’s twenty—and she can’t be less—the mother must be at least forty. So it puts the mother out. She’s too old for him.”
“Let’s hope for it then.” But she got closer to the question after this. “If the girl is of the right age, then of course the mother can’t be. I mean for the genuine connection. If the girl’s twenty—and she can’t be younger—the mother must be at least forty. So that rules out the mother. She’s too old for him.”
Strether, arrested again, considered and demurred. “Do you think so? Do you think any one would be too old for him? I’m eighty, and I’m too young. But perhaps the girl,” he continued, “isn’t twenty. Perhaps she’s only ten—but such a little dear that Chad finds himself counting her in as an attraction of the acquaintance. Perhaps she’s only five. Perhaps the mother’s but five-and-twenty—a charming young widow.”
Strether, caught up once more, thought it over and hesitated. “Do you really think so? Do you think anyone would be too old for him? I’m eighty, and I feel too young. But maybe the girl,” he went on, “isn't quite twenty. Maybe she’s just ten—but such a sweet little thing that Chad counts her as part of the appeal of their friendship. Maybe she’s only five. Maybe the mother is just twenty-five—a lovely young widow.”
Miss Gostrey entertained the suggestion. “She is a widow then?”
Miss Gostrey considered the suggestion. “So she is a widow then?”
“I haven’t the least idea!” They once more, in spite of this vagueness, exchanged a look—a look that was perhaps the longest yet. It seemed in fact, the next thing, to require to explain itself; which it did as it could. “I only feel what I’ve told you—that he has some reason.”
“I have no idea!” They exchanged another look, and despite the uncertainty, it was possibly the longest one yet. It seemed to need an explanation; which it did in its own way. “I can only say what I’ve told you—that he has some reason.”
Miss Gostrey’s imagination had taken its own flight. “Perhaps she’s not a widow.”
Miss Gostrey’s imagination had soared. “Maybe she’s not a widow.”
Strether seemed to accept the possibility with reserve. Still he accepted it. “Then that’s why the attachment—if it’s to her—is virtuous.”
Strether seemed to acknowledge the possibility with some hesitation. Still, he accepted it. “So that’s why the attachment—if it’s to her—is good.”
But she looked as if she scarce followed. “Why is it virtuous if—since she’s free—there’s nothing to impose on it any condition?”
But she looked like she hardly understood. “Why is it virtuous if—since she’s free—there’s nothing to impose any conditions on it?”
He laughed at her question. “Oh I perhaps don’t mean as virtuous as that! Your idea is that it can be virtuous—in any sense worthy of the name—only if she’s not free? But what does it become then,” he asked, “for her?”
He laughed at her question. “Oh, I maybe don’t mean as virtuous as that! You think it can be virtuous—in any sense worthy of the name—only if she’s not free? But what does it become then,” he asked, “for her?”
“Ah that’s another matter.” He said nothing for a moment, and she soon went on. “I dare say you’re right, at any rate, about Mr. Newsome’s little plan. He has been trying you—has been reporting on you to these friends.”
“Ah, that’s a different story.” He was silent for a moment, and she quickly continued. “I guess you’re right, at least, about Mr. Newsome’s little scheme. He has been testing you—has been reporting on you to his friends.”
Strether meanwhile had had time to think more. “Then where’s his straightness?”
Strether had time to think more. “So where’s his honesty?”
“Well, as we say, it’s struggling up, breaking out, asserting itself as it can. We can be on the side, you see, of his straightness. We can help him. But he has made out,” said Miss Gostrey, “that you’ll do.”
"Well, as we say, it’s struggling up, breaking out, asserting itself as best it can. We can be on his side, you see, supporting his honesty. We can help him. But he has figured out," said Miss Gostrey, "that you’re the one."
“Do for what?”
"Do what for?"
“Why, for them—for ces dames. He has watched you, studied you, liked you—and recognised that they must. It’s a great compliment to you, my dear man; for I’m sure they’re particular. You came out for a success. Well,” she gaily declared, “you’re having it!”
“Why, for them—for ces dames. He has watched you, studied you, liked you—and realized that they must. It’s a great compliment to you, my dear man; because I’m sure they’re picky. You came out for a success. Well,” she cheerfully declared, “you’re getting it!”
He took it from her with momentary patience and then turned abruptly away. It was always convenient to him that there were so many fine things in her room to look at. But the examination of two or three of them appeared soon to have determined a speech that had little to do with them. “You don’t believe in it!”
He took it from her with a quick patience and then turned away suddenly. It was always handy for him that there were so many nice things in her room to look at. But after checking out two or three of them, he seemed ready to say something that had little to do with them. “You don’t believe in it!”
“In what?”
"In what way?"
“In the character of the attachment. In its innocence.”
“In the nature of the attachment. In its purity.”
But she defended herself. “I don’t pretend to know anything about it. Everything’s possible. We must see.”
But she stood her ground. “I’m not claiming to know anything about it. Anything is possible. We’ll have to wait and see.”
“See?” he echoed with a groan. “Haven’t we seen enough?”
“See?” he repeated with a groan. “Haven’t we seen enough?”
“I haven’t,” she smiled.
“I haven't,” she smiled.
“But do you suppose then little Bilham has lied?”
"But do you think little Bilham has lied?"
“You must find out.”
"You need to figure it out."
It made him almost turn pale. “Find out any more?”
It almost made him turn pale. “Find out any more?”
He had dropped on a sofa for dismay; but she seemed, as she stood over him, to have the last word. “Wasn’t what you came out for to find out all?”
He had collapsed onto a sofa in despair; but she seemed, as she stood over him, to have the final say. “Wasn’t what you came out for to find out everything?”
Book Fifth
I
The Sunday of the next week was a wonderful day, and Chad Newsome had let his friend know in advance that he had provided for it. There had already been a question of his taking him to see the great Gloriani, who was at home on Sunday afternoons and at whose house, for the most part, fewer bores were to be met than elsewhere; but the project, through some accident, had not had instant effect, and now revived in happier conditions. Chad had made the point that the celebrated sculptor had a queer old garden, for which the weather—spring at last frank and fair—was propitious; and two or three of his other allusions had confirmed for Strether the expectation of something special. He had by this time, for all introductions and adventures, let himself recklessly go, cherishing the sense that whatever the young man showed him he was showing at least himself. He could have wished indeed, so far as this went, that Chad were less of a mere cicerone; for he was not without the impression—now that the vision of his game, his plan, his deep diplomacy, did recurrently assert itself—of his taking refuge from the realities of their intercourse in profusely dispensing, as our friend mentally phrased it, panem et circenses. Our friend continued to feel rather smothered in flowers, though he made in his other moments the almost angry inference that this was only because of his odious ascetic suspicion of any form of beauty. He periodically assured himself—for his reactions were sharp—that he shouldn’t reach the truth of anything till he had at least got rid of that.
The Sunday of the following week was a beautiful day, and Chad Newsome had already informed his friend that he had planned something special. There was previously a possibility of taking him to see the famous Gloriani, who was usually home on Sunday afternoons, and at whose place, mostly, there were fewer dull people than elsewhere; but the idea, for some reason, hadn’t happened right away and now was coming back with better timing. Chad pointed out that the renowned sculptor had a quirky old garden, and with the weather—spring finally open and pleasant—it was the perfect time for it; and a couple of his other comments had made Strether anticipate something exceptional. At this point, despite all the introductions and experiences, he was allowing himself to be carefree, cherishing the feeling that whatever the young man was showing him was really a reflection of himself. He actually wished that Chad were less just a tour guide; because he couldn’t shake the feeling—now that the vision of his plans, his strategy, his deep understanding kept coming back—that Chad was escaping from the reality of their relationship by lavishly offering, as our friend thought of it, panem et circenses. Our friend still felt a bit overwhelmed by the flowers, though in other moments he almost angrily concluded that this was just due to his annoying ascetic suspicion of any kind of beauty. He repeatedly reassured himself—since his responses were intense—that he wouldn’t get to the truth of anything until he had at least shed that.
He had known beforehand that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter would probably be on view, an intimation to that effect having constituted the only reference again made by Chad to his good friends from the south. The effect of Strether’s talk about them with Miss Gostrey had been quite to consecrate his reluctance to pry; something in the very air of Chad’s silence—judged in the light of that talk—offered it to him as a reserve he could markedly match. It shrouded them about with he scarce knew what, a consideration, a distinction; he was in presence at any rate—so far as it placed him there—of ladies; and the one thing that was definite for him was that they themselves should be, to the extent of his responsibility, in presence of a gentleman. Was it because they were very beautiful, very clever, or even very good—was it for one of these reasons that Chad was, so to speak, nursing his effect? Did he wish to spring them, in the Woollett phrase, with a fuller force—to confound his critic, slight though as yet the criticism, with some form of merit exquisitely incalculable? The most the critic had at all events asked was whether the persons in question were French; and that enquiry had been but a proper comment on the sound of their name. “Yes. That is no!” had been Chad’s reply; but he had immediately added that their English was the most charming in the world, so that if Strether were wanting an excuse for not getting on with them he wouldn’t in the least find one. Never in fact had Strether—in the mood into which the place had quickly launched him—felt, for himself, less the need of an excuse. Those he might have found would have been, at the worst, all for the others, the people before him, in whose liberty to be as they were he was aware that he positively rejoiced. His fellow guests were multiplying, and these things, their liberty, their intensity, their variety, their conditions at large, were in fusion in the admirable medium of the scene.
He had known in advance that Madame de Vionnet and her daughter would probably be around, as Chad had hinted at it when he mentioned his good friends from the south. Strether’s conversations about them with Miss Gostrey had only strengthened his unwillingness to pry; there was something in the very air of Chad's silence—considering that discussion—that made it clear this was a boundary he could respect. It surrounded them with an aura he couldn't quite identify, a sense of consideration and distinction; he was definitely in the presence of women; and the one thing that was clear to him was that they should be, as far as he was concerned, in the presence of a gentleman. Was it because they were exceptionally beautiful, intelligent, or even kind—was it for one of these reasons that Chad was, so to speak, holding back? Did he want to present them, in the Woollett sense, with a greater impact—to impress his critic, however slight that criticism was, with some form of merit that was difficult to define? The most the critic had asked was whether the people in question were French; and that inquiry had simply been a reasonable comment on the sound of their name. “Yes. That is no!” had been Chad’s response; but he had quickly added that their English was the most charming in the world, so if Strether was looking for a reason not to engage with them, he wouldn’t find one at all. In fact, in the mood that the place had quickly put him in, Strether felt less and less the need for any excuse. Any reasons he might have considered would have, at best, been entirely for the other people there, those in front of him, whose freedom to be themselves he genuinely appreciated. His fellow guests were increasing in number, and all those things—their freedom, intensity, variety, and overall energy—were blending together wonderfully in the beautiful atmosphere of the scene.
The place itself was a great impression—a small pavilion, clear-faced and sequestered, an effect of polished parquet, of fine white panel and spare sallow gilt, of decoration delicate and rare, in the heart of the Faubourg Saint-Germain and on the edge of a cluster of gardens attached to old noble houses. Far back from streets and unsuspected by crowds, reached by a long passage and a quiet court, it was as striking to the unprepared mind, he immediately saw, as a treasure dug up; giving him too, more than anything yet, the note of the range of the immeasurable town and sweeping away, as by a last brave brush, his usual landmarks and terms. It was in the garden, a spacious cherished remnant, out of which a dozen persons had already passed, that Chad’s host presently met them while the tall bird-haunted trees, all of a twitter with the spring and the weather, and the high party-walls, on the other side of which grave hôtels stood off for privacy, spoke of survival, transmission, association, a strong indifferent persistent order. The day was so soft that the little party had practically adjourned to the open air but the open air was in such conditions all a chamber of state. Strether had presently the sense of a great convent, a convent of missions, famous for he scarce knew what, a nursery of young priests, of scattered shade, of straight alleys and chapel-bells, that spread its mass in one quarter; he had the sense of names in the air, of ghosts at the windows, of signs and tokens, a whole range of expression, all about him, too thick for prompt discrimination.
The place itself made a huge impression—a small pavilion, bright and secluded, with polished parquet floors, fine white paneling, and subtle touches of pale gold, adorned with delicate and rare decorations, right in the heart of Faubourg Saint-Germain and next to a cluster of gardens belonging to old noble houses. Set far back from the streets and hidden from crowds, accessed by a long passage and a quiet courtyard, it struck him, more than anything before, like a treasure unearthed; it also gave him a deeper sense of the vast city, sweeping away his usual landmarks and familiar terms. It was in the garden, a spacious beloved remnant that had already seen a dozen visitors, where Chad’s host soon met them, while the tall trees, filled with birds and buzzing with the spring weather, and the high party walls, behind which stately hotels offered privacy, spoke of endurance, legacy, and a strong, indifferent, persistent order. The day was so mild that the little group had practically moved outdoors, but the open air felt like an elegant setting. Strether then had the feeling of a grand convent, one known for who knows what, a place nurturing young priests, filled with scattered shade, straight paths, and chapel bells, spreading its presence in one area; he sensed names in the air, ghosts at the windows, signs and symbols, a whole spectrum of expression surrounding him, too dense for quick understanding.
This assault of images became for a moment, in the address of the distinguished sculptor, almost formidable: Gloriani showed him, in such perfect confidence, on Chad’s introduction of him, a fine worn handsome face, a face that was like an open letter in a foreign tongue. With his genius in his eyes, his manners on his lips, his long career behind him and his honours and rewards all round, the great artist, in the course of a single sustained look and a few words of delight at receiving him, affected our friend as a dazzling prodigy of type. Strether had seen in museums—in the Luxembourg as well as, more reverently, later on, in the New York of the billionaires—the work of his hand; knowing too that after an earlier time in his native Rome he had migrated, in mid-career, to Paris, where, with a personal lustre almost violent, he shone in a constellation: all of which was more than enough to crown him, for his guest, with the light, with the romance, of glory. Strether, in contact with that element as he had never yet so intimately been, had the consciousness of opening to it, for the happy instant, all the windows of his mind, of letting this rather grey interior drink in for once the sun of a clime not marked in his old geography. He was to remember again repeatedly the medal-like Italian face, in which every line was an artist’s own, in which time told only as tone and consecration; and he was to recall in especial, as the penetrating radiance, as the communication of the illustrious spirit itself, the manner in which, while they stood briefly, in welcome and response, face to face, he was held by the sculptor’s eyes. He wasn’t soon to forget them, was to think of them, all unconscious, unintending, preoccupied though they were, as the source of the deepest intellectual sounding to which he had ever been exposed. He was in fact quite to cherish his vision of it, to play with it in idle hours; only speaking of it to no one and quite aware he couldn’t have spoken without appearing to talk nonsense. Was what it had told him or what it had asked him the greater of the mysteries? Was it the most special flare, unequalled, supreme, of the æsthetic torch, lighting that wondrous world for ever, or was it above all the long straight shaft sunk by a personal acuteness that life had seasoned to steel? Nothing on earth could have been stranger and no one doubtless more surprised than the artist himself, but it was for all the world to Strether just then as if in the matter of his accepted duty he had positively been on trial. The deep human expertness in Gloriani’s charming smile—oh the terrible life behind it!—was flashed upon him as a test of his stuff.
This flood of images became, for a moment during the distinguished sculptor's speech, almost overwhelming: Gloriani confidently showcased himself to Strether through Chad's introduction, revealing a refined, attractive face that felt like an open letter in a foreign language. With genius in his eyes, charm on his lips, a lengthy career filled with honors and accolades, this great artist captivated Strether with a single, sustained gaze and a few words of welcome. For Strether, he was a dazzling example of his kind. He had previously seen Gloriani’s work in museums—in the Luxembourg and, later on, more reverently in New York among the wealthy. He knew that after starting his career in Rome, Gloriani had moved to Paris mid-career, where he stood out like a shining star in a constellation, qualities that crowned him with the light and romance of glory in Strether’s eyes. Experiencing this level of brilliance for the first time, Strether felt as if, for that brief moment, he opened all the windows of his mind, drinking in the sunlight from a place he had never known. He would often remember Gloriani’s medal-like Italian face—an artist’s own, where time showed only as tone and reverence—and especially the penetrating light in the sculptor's eyes that held him during their brief exchange of greetings. He wouldn't soon forget those eyes, which he would think about unconsciously in moments of reflection, feeling they offered the deepest intellectual insight he had ever encountered. In fact, he would cherish that memory, turning it over during idle moments; yet he never spoke of it to anyone, fully aware that he would sound foolish if he tried. Was what those eyes revealed or prompted in him the greater mystery? Was it the unmatched brilliance of aesthetic wonder, illuminating that incredible world forever, or was it the long, sharp insight honed by life into something unbreakable? Nothing would have been stranger, and no one more surprised than the artist himself, but for Strether, it felt as if, in line with his responsibilities, he was truly being tested. The deep human understanding behind Gloriani’s captivating smile—oh, the heavy life behind it!—struck him as a measure of his own character.
Chad meanwhile, after having easily named his companion, had still more easily turned away and was already greeting other persons present. He was as easy, clever Chad, with the great artist as with his obscure compatriot, and as easy with every one else as with either: this fell into its place for Strether and made almost a new light, giving him, as a concatenation, something more he could enjoy. He liked Gloriani, but should never see him again; of that he was sufficiently sure. Chad accordingly, who was wonderful with both of them, was a kind of link for hopeless fancy, an implication of possibilities—oh if everything had been different! Strether noted at all events that he was thus on terms with illustrious spirits, and also that—yes, distinctly—he hadn’t in the least swaggered about it. Our friend hadn’t come there only for this figure of Abel Newsome’s son, but that presence threatened to affect the observant mind as positively central. Gloriani indeed, remembering something and excusing himself, pursued Chad to speak to him, and Strether was left musing on many things. One of them was the question of whether, since he had been tested, he had passed. Did the artist drop him from having made out that he wouldn’t do? He really felt just to-day that he might do better than usual. Hadn’t he done well enough, so far as that went, in being exactly so dazzled? and in not having too, as he almost believed, wholly hidden from his host that he felt the latter’s plummet? Suddenly, across the garden, he saw little Bilham approach, and it was a part of the fit that was on him that as their eyes met he guessed also his knowledge. If he had said to him on the instant what was uppermost he would have said: “Have I passed?—for of course I know one has to pass here.” Little Bilham would have reassured him, have told him that he exaggerated, and have adduced happily enough the argument of little Bilham’s own very presence; which, in truth, he could see, was as easy a one as Gloriani’s own or as Chad’s. He himself would perhaps then after a while cease to be frightened, would get the point of view for some of the faces—types tremendously alien, alien to Woollett—that he had already begun to take in. Who were they all, the dispersed groups and couples, the ladies even more unlike those of Woollett than the gentlemen?—this was the enquiry that, when his young friend had greeted him, he did find himself making.
Chad, after easily naming his companion, quickly turned away and started greeting other people in the room. He was as relaxed and charming with the famous artist as he was with his unknown countryman, and he interacted with everyone else just as easily. This made things clearer for Strether, casting a sort of new light on the situation, giving him something more to appreciate. He liked Gloriani, but he was sure he wouldn’t see him again. Chad, who handled both of them wonderfully, served as a link to unattainable dreams, hinting at possibilities—oh, if only things had been different! Strether realized that he was mingling with notable people, and yes, he could definitely tell that Chad wasn’t showing off about it at all. Our friend hadn't come there just for Abel Newsome's son, but that presence seemed to profoundly impact his observant mind. Gloriani, remembering something and excusing himself, went after Chad to talk to him, leaving Strether to ponder many things. One of his thoughts was whether, after being tested, he had passed. Did the artist dismiss him after realizing he wouldn’t measure up? He genuinely felt today that he might perform better than usual. Hadn’t he done well enough, given how dazzled he felt? And wasn’t it true that he hadn’t fully hidden from his host the fact that he sensed the latter's scrutiny? Suddenly, across the garden, he spotted little Bilham approaching, and in that moment, their eyes met, and he sensed Bilham’s awareness as well. If he had spoken his mind right then, he would have asked, “Have I passed?—because I know you have to pass here.” Little Bilham would have reassured him, telling him he was overreacting and happily pointing out his own presence as evidence; which, in truth, Strether could see was just as convincing as Gloriani’s or Chad’s. Perhaps after a while, he would stop feeling anxious and start to understand some of the faces—strikingly different, unlike anyone in Woollett—that he had already begun to notice. Who were all these people, the scattered groups and couples, the ladies who seemed even more unlike the women of Woollett than the men?—this was the question that, once his young friend greeted him, he found himself asking.
“Oh they’re every one—all sorts and sizes; of course I mean within limits, though limits down perhaps rather more than limits up. There are always artists—he’s beautiful and inimitable to the cher confrère; and then gros bonnets of many kinds—ambassadors, cabinet ministers, bankers, generals, what do I know? even Jews. Above all always some awfully nice women—and not too many; sometimes an actress, an artist, a great performer—but only when they’re not monsters; and in particular the right femmes du monde. You can fancy his history on that side—I believe it’s fabulous: they never give him up. Yet he keeps them down: no one knows how he manages; it’s too beautiful and bland. Never too many—and a mighty good thing too; just a perfect choice. But there are not in any way many bores; it has always been so; he has some secret. It’s extraordinary. And you don’t find it out. He’s the same to every one. He doesn’t ask questions.’
“Oh, they're all here—every kind and size; I mean, of course, within limits, though it seems there are more lower limits than upper ones. There are always artists—he's stunning and one of a kind to the cher confrère; then there are the bigwigs of various sorts—ambassadors, cabinet ministers, bankers, generals, who knows? even Jews. Above all, there are always some truly lovely women—and not too many; sometimes an actress, an artist, a great performer—but only when they’re not complete disasters; and especially the right femmes du monde. You can imagine the stories he has on that front—I believe they’re incredible: they never let him go. Yet he keeps them in check: no one knows how he does it; it’s too wonderful and smooth. Never too many—and that's a great thing too; just a perfect selection. But there really aren’t many dull people; it’s always been that way; he has some secret. It’s remarkable. And you can’t figure it out. He treats everyone the same. He doesn’t ask questions.”
“Ah doesn’t he?” Strether laughed.
"Doesn't he?" Strether laughed.
Bilham met it with all his candour. “How then should I be here?
Bilham faced it with complete honesty. “How else could I be here?
“Oh for what you tell me. You’re part of the perfect choice.”
“Oh, what you’re telling me. You’re the perfect choice.”
Well, the young man took in the scene. “It seems rather good to-day.”
Well, the young man looked around. “It seems pretty nice today.”
Strether followed the direction of his eyes. “Are they all, this time, femmes du monde?”
Strether looked where he was pointing. “Are they all, this time, women of the world?”
Little Bilham showed his competence. “Pretty well.”
Little Bilham showed he was capable. “Pretty good.”
This was a category our friend had a feeling for; a light, romantic and mysterious, on the feminine element, in which he enjoyed for a little watching it. “Are there any Poles?”
This was a category our friend felt drawn to; it was light, romantic, and mysterious, with a feminine touch that he enjoyed watching for a while. “Are there any Poles?”
His companion considered. “I think I make out a ‘Portuguee.’ But I’ve seen Turks.”
His companion thought for a moment. “I think I can see a ‘Portuguee.’ But I’ve seen Turks.”
Strether wondered, desiring justice. “They seem—all the women—very harmonious.”
Strether pondered, seeking fairness. “All the women seem very in sync.”
“Oh in closer quarters they come out!” And then, while Strether was aware of fearing closer quarters, though giving himself again to the harmonies, “Well,” little Bilham went on, “it is at the worst rather good, you know. If you like it, you feel it, this way, that shows you’re not in the least out. But you always know things,” he handsomely added, “immediately.”
“Oh, they really come out when you're up close!” Then, while Strether felt a bit anxious about being closer, he tried to focus on the good vibes. “Well,” little Bilham continued, “it actually is pretty good, you know, even at its worst. If you enjoy it and feel it this way, that means you’re totally in touch. But you always pick up on things,” he added graciously, “right away.”
Strether liked it and felt it only too much; so “I say, don’t lay traps for me!” he rather helplessly murmured.
Strether liked it and felt it all too much; so “I say, don’t set traps for me!” he said somewhat helplessly.
“Well,” his companion returned, “he’s wonderfully kind to us.”
“Well,” his companion replied, “he’s really kind to us.”
“To us Americans you mean?”
“Are you talking about us Americans?”
“Oh no—he doesn’t know anything about that. That’s half the battle here—that you can never hear politics. We don’t talk them. I mean to poor young wretches of all sorts. And yet it’s always as charming as this; it’s as if, by something in the air, our squalor didn’t show. It puts us all back—into the last century.”
“Oh no—he doesn’t know anything about that. That’s half the battle here—that you can never hear politics. We don’t talk about them. I mean to poor young people of all kinds. And yet it’s always as charming as this; it’s as if, by something in the air, our mess didn’t show. It puts us all back—into the last century.”
“I’m afraid,” Strether said, amused, “that it puts me rather forward: oh ever so far!”
“I’m afraid,” Strether said, amused, “that it puts me quite in the spotlight: oh, much too much!”
“Into the next? But isn’t that only,” little Bilham asked, “because you’re really of the century before?”
“Into the next? But isn’t that just,” little Bilham asked, “because you actually belong to the century before?”
“The century before the last? Thank you!” Strether laughed. “If I ask you about some of the ladies it can’t be then that I may hope, as such a specimen of the rococo, to please them.”
“The century before the last? Thanks!” Strether laughed. “If I ask you about some of the ladies, I can’t hope, as such an example of the rococo, to impress them.”
“On the contrary they adore—we all adore here—the rococo, and where is there a better setting for it than the whole thing, the pavilion and the garden, together? There are lots of people with collections,” little Bilham smiled as he glanced round. “You’ll be secured!”
“On the contrary, we all love—the rococo, and where's a better place for it than the whole setup, the pavilion and the garden, combined? There are plenty of people with collections,” little Bilham smiled as he looked around. “You’ll be covered!”
It made Strether for a moment give himself again to contemplation. There were faces he scarce knew what to make of. Were they charming or were they only strange? He mightn’t talk politics, yet he suspected a Pole or two. The upshot was the question at the back of his head from the moment his friend had joined him. “Have Madame de Vionnet and her daughter arrived?”
It made Strether pause for a moment and reflect again. There were faces he hardly knew how to interpret. Were they captivating or just peculiar? He might not discuss politics, but he suspected there were a couple of Poles around. The result was the question lingering in his mind ever since his friend had joined him. “Have Madame de Vionnet and her daughter arrived?”
“I haven’t seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey has come. She’s in the pavilion looking at objects. One can see she’s a collector,” little Bilham added without offence.
“I haven’t seen them yet, but Miss Gostrey is here. She’s in the pavilion checking out some items. You can tell she’s a collector,” little Bilham added without taking offense.
“Oh yes, she’s a collector, and I knew she was to come. Is Madame de Vionnet a collector?” Strether went on.
“Oh yes, she’s a collector, and I knew she was going to come. Is Madame de Vionnet a collector?” Strether continued.
“Rather, I believe; almost celebrated.” The young man met, on it, a little, his friend’s eyes. “I happen to know—from Chad, whom I saw last night—that they’ve come back; but only yesterday. He wasn’t sure—up to the last. This, accordingly,” little Bilham went on, “will be—if they are here—their first appearance after their return.”
“Actually, I think it’s almost a celebration.” The young man briefly met his friend’s gaze. “I know from Chad, whom I saw last night, that they’ve just gotten back; but only yesterday. He wasn’t sure—right up until the end. So, accordingly,” little Bilham continued, “this will be—if they are here—their first appearance since coming back.”
Strether, very quickly, turned these things over. “Chad told you last night? To me, on our way here, he said nothing about it.”
Strether quickly considered these things. “Chad told you last night? He didn’t mention anything to me on our way here.”
“But did you ask him?”
“But did you ask him yet?”
Strether did him the justice. “I dare say not.”
Strether acknowledged him fairly. “I doubt it.”
“Well,” said little Bilham, “you’re not a person to whom it’s easy to tell things you don’t want to know. Though it is easy, I admit—it’s quite beautiful,” he benevolently added, “when you do want to.”
“Well,” said little Bilham, “you’re not someone it's easy to tell things you don't want to hear. Although it is easy, I admit—it’s quite beautiful,” he kindly added, “when you actually want to.”
Strether looked at him with an indulgence that matched his intelligence. “Is that the deep reasoning on which—about these ladies—you’ve been yourself so silent?”
Strether looked at him with a patience that matched his smarts. “Is that the profound thinking behind—about these women—you’ve been so quiet about?”
Little Bilham considered the depth of his reasoning. “I haven’t been silent. I spoke of them to you the other day, the day we sat together after Chad’s tea-party.”
Little Bilham thought about how deeply he had reasoned. “I haven’t been quiet. I talked about them to you the other day, the day we sat together after Chad’s tea party.”
Strether came round to it. “They then are the virtuous attachment?”
Strether came around to it. “So, that’s the virtuous attachment?”
“I can only tell you that it’s what they pass for. But isn’t that enough? What more than a vain appearance does the wisest of us know? I commend you,” the young man declared with a pleasant emphasis, “the vain appearance.”
“I can only tell you that it’s what they call it. But isn’t that enough? What more than a superficial look does the smartest of us understand? I commend you,” the young man said with a cheerful emphasis, “the superficial look.”
Strether looked more widely round, and what he saw, from face to face, deepened the effect of his young friend’s words. “Is it so good?”
Strether glanced around more broadly, and what he observed, from one face to another, intensified the impact of his young friend's words. “Is it really that good?”
“Magnificent.”
“Awesome.”
Strether had a pause. “The husband’s dead?”
Strether paused. “The husband is dead?”
“Dear no. Alive.”
"Definitely not. I'm alive."
“Oh!” said Strether. After which, as his companion laughed: “How then can it be so good?”
“Oh!” said Strether. After that, when his companion laughed, he asked, “How can it be that good?”
“You’ll see for yourself. One does see.”
"You'll see for yourself. You really do see."
“Chad’s in love with the daughter?”
“Chad's in love with the daughter?”
“That’s what I mean.”
"That's what I mean."
Strether wondered. “Then where’s the difficulty?”
Strether wondered, “So what's the problem?”
“Why, aren’t you and I—with our grander bolder ideas?”
“Why, aren’t you and I—with our bigger, bolder ideas?”
“Oh mine—!” Strether said rather strangely. But then as if to attenuate: “You mean they won’t hear of Woollett?”
“Oh my—!” Strether said rather oddly. But then, as if to soften it: “You mean they won’t hear of Woollett?”
Little Bilham smiled. “Isn’t that just what you must see about?”
Little Bilham smiled. “Isn’t that exactly what you should be concerned about?”
It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into relation with Miss Barrace, whom Strether had already observed—as he had never before seen a lady at a party—moving about alone. Coming within sound of them she had already spoken, and she took again, through her long-handled glass, all her amused and amusing possession. “How much, poor Mr. Strether, you seem to have to see about! But you can’t say,” she gaily declared, “that I don’t do what I can to help you. Mr. Waymarsh is placed. I’ve left him in the house with Miss Gostrey.”
It had brought them, as she caught the last words, into contact with Miss Barrace, whom Strether had already noticed—like he had never seen a woman at a party before—moving around by herself. As she got close enough to hear them, she had already spoken, and she once again took in all her amusing charm through her long-handled glass. “You have so much to deal with, poor Mr. Strether! But you can’t say,” she cheerfully stated, “that I’m not doing what I can to help you. Mr. Waymarsh is all set. I’ve left him in the house with Miss Gostrey.”
“The way,” little Bilham exclaimed, “Mr. Strether gets the ladies to work for him! He’s just preparing to draw in another; to pounce—don’t you see him?—on Madame de Vionnet.”
“The way,” little Bilham exclaimed, “Mr. Strether gets the ladies to work for him! He’s just getting ready to pull in another one; to pounce—don’t you see him?—on Madame de Vionnet.”
“Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!” Miss Barrace cried in a wonderful crescendo. There was more in it, our friend made out, than met the ear. Was it after all a joke that he should be serious about anything? He envied Miss Barrace at any rate her power of not being. She seemed, with little cries and protests and quick recognitions, movements like the darts of some fine high-feathered free-pecking bird, to stand before life as before some full shop-window. You could fairly hear, as she selected and pointed, the tap of her tortoise-shell against the glass. “It’s certain that we do need seeing about; only I’m glad it’s not I who have to do it. One does, no doubt, begin that way; then suddenly one finds that one has given it up. It’s too much, it’s too difficult. You’re wonderful, you people,” she continued to Strether, “for not feeling those things—by which I mean impossibilities. You never feel them. You face them with a fortitude that makes it a lesson to watch you.”
“Madame de Vionnet? Oh, oh, oh!” Miss Barrace exclaimed with an impressive rise in her voice. Our friend realized there was more to it than just the sound. Was it really a joke that he should take anything seriously? He envied Miss Barrace for her ability to be carefree. With her little gasps, protests, and quick acknowledgments, she moved like a bright, feathered bird pecking around, standing in front of life like it was a showcase. You could almost hear the tap of her tortoise-shell on the glass as she picked out what she wanted to highlight. “It’s definitely something we need to look into; I’m just glad it’s not my responsibility. You start out that way, but then suddenly you realize you’ve given up. It’s too overwhelming, it’s too hard. You’re amazing, all of you,” she continued to Strether, “for not feeling those things—what I mean is, the impossibilities. You never seem to feel them. You confront them with a strength that makes it a lesson just to watch you.”
“Ah but”—little Bilham put it with discouragement—“what do we achieve after all? We see about you and report—when we even go so far as reporting. But nothing’s done.”
“Ah, but”—little Bilham said with disappointment—“what do we really accomplish? We check on you and report—if we even bother to report at all. But nothing changes.”
“Oh you, Mr. Bilham,” she replied as with an impatient rap on the glass, “you’re not worth sixpence! You come over to convert the savages—for I know you verily did, I remember you—and the savages simply convert you.”
“Oh you, Mr. Bilham,” she said, tapping the glass impatiently, “you’re not worth a dime! You came here to change the savages—for I know you really did, I remember you—and the savages just change you.”
“Not even!” the young man woefully confessed: “they haven’t gone through that form. They’ve simply—the cannibals!—eaten me; converted me if you like, but converted me into food. I’m but the bleached bones of a Christian.”
“Not even!” the young man sadly admitted: “they haven’t gone through that process. They’ve just—the cannibals!—eaten me; transformed me if you want, but transformed me into food. I’m just the bleached bones of a Christian.”
“Well then there we are! Only”—and Miss Barrace appealed again to Strether—“don’t let it discourage you. You’ll break down soon enough, but you’ll meanwhile have had your moments. Il faut en avoir. I always like to see you while you last. And I’ll tell you who will last.”
“Well then, here we are! Only”—and Miss Barrace turned to Strether again—“don’t let it get you down. You’ll crack soon enough, but in the meantime, you’ll have had your moments. Il faut en avoir. I always enjoy seeing you while you’re around. And I’ll tell you who will be around.”
“Waymarsh?”—he had already taken her up.
“Waymarsh?”—he had already picked her up.
She laughed out as at the alarm of it. “He’ll resist even Miss Gostrey: so grand is it not to understand. He’s wonderful.”
She laughed out loud at the shock of it. “He'll resist even Miss Gostrey: how amazing it is not to understand. He's remarkable.”
“He is indeed,” Strether conceded. “He wouldn’t tell me of this affair—only said he had an engagement; but with such a gloom, you must let me insist, as if it had been an engagement to be hanged. Then silently and secretly he turns up here with you. Do you call that ‘lasting’?”
“He definitely is,” Strether admitted. “He wouldn’t tell me about this situation—just mentioned he had plans; but with such a dark expression, you have to let me insist, it was like he had plans to be executed. Then he shows up here with you quietly and secretly. Do you really call that ‘lasting’?”
“Oh I hope it’s lasting!” Miss Barrace said. “But he only, at the best, bears with me. He doesn’t understand—not one little scrap. He’s delightful. He’s wonderful,” she repeated.
“Oh, I hope it lasts!” Miss Barrace said. “But he only, at best, puts up with me. He doesn’t get it—not one bit. He’s amazing. He’s fantastic,” she repeated.
“Michelangelesque!”—little Bilham completed her meaning. “He is a success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the floor; overwhelming, colossal, but somehow portable.”
“Michelangelesque!”—little Bilham finished her thought. “He is a success. Moses, on the ceiling, brought down to the floor; powerful, gigantic, but somehow manageable.”
“Certainly, if you mean by portable,” she returned, “looking so well in one’s carriage. He’s too funny beside me in his corner; he looks like somebody, somebody foreign and famous, en exil; so that people wonder—it’s very amusing—whom I’m taking about. I show him Paris, show him everything, and he never turns a hair. He’s like the Indian chief one reads about, who, when he comes up to Washington to see the Great Father, stands wrapt in his blanket and gives no sign. I might be the Great Father—from the way he takes everything.” She was delighted at this hit of her identity with that personage—it fitted so her character; she declared it was the title she meant henceforth to adopt. “And the way he sits, too, in the corner of my room, only looking at my visitors very hard and as if he wanted to start something! They wonder what he does want to start. But he’s wonderful,” Miss Barrace once more insisted. “He has never started anything yet.”
“Sure, if you mean by portable,” she replied, “how good he looks in my carriage. He’s so funny sitting next to me in his corner; he looks like someone, someone foreign and famous, en exil; so people wonder—it’s really amusing—who I’m with. I show him Paris, show him everything, and he never flinches. He’s like the Indian chief you read about, who, when he comes to Washington to see the Great Father, stands wrapped in his blanket and doesn’t show any reaction. I might as well be the Great Father—based on how he takes everything.” She was thrilled by this comparison to that figure—it suited her personality perfectly; she announced it was the title she intended to adopt from now on. “And the way he sits in the corner of my room, just staring at my guests as if he wants to stir something up! They wonder what he wants to stir up. But he’s amazing,” Miss Barrace insisted again. “He hasn’t stirred up anything yet.”
It presented him none the less, in truth, to her actual friends, who looked at each other in intelligence, with frank amusement on Bilham’s part and a shade of sadness on Strether’s. Strether’s sadness sprang—for the image had its grandeur—from his thinking how little he himself was wrapt in his blanket, how little, in marble halls, all too oblivious of the Great Father, he resembled a really majestic aboriginal. But he had also another reflexion. “You’ve all of you here so much visual sense that you’ve somehow all ‘run’ to it. There are moments when it strikes one that you haven’t any other.”
It definitely showed him, though, to her real friends, who exchanged knowing looks, with Bilham clearly amused and Strether showing a hint of sadness. Strether’s sadness came from the grandeur of the image, as he thought about how little he himself was wrapped in his own comfort, how little he resembled a truly majestic original in those lavish halls, so unaware of the Great Father. But he also had another thought. “You all have such a strong sense of sight that it seems like you’ve all focused on that. There are times when it seems like you don’t have much else.”
“Any moral,” little Bilham explained, watching serenely, across the garden, the several femmes du monde. “But Miss Barrace has a moral distinction,” he kindly continued; speaking as if for Strether’s benefit not less than for her own.
“Any moral,” little Bilham explained, watching calmly across the garden at the various femmes du monde. “But Miss Barrace has a moral distinction,” he added kindly, speaking as if it were for Strether’s benefit as much as for her own.
“Have you?” Strether, scarce knowing what he was about, asked of her almost eagerly.
“Have you?” Strether, hardly aware of what he was doing, asked her almost eagerly.
“Oh not a distinction”—she was mightily amused at his tone—“Mr. Bilham’s too good. But I think I may say a sufficiency. Yes, a sufficiency. Have you supposed strange things of me?”—and she fixed him again, through all her tortoise-shell, with the droll interest of it. “You are all indeed wonderful. I should awfully disappoint you. I do take my stand on my sufficiency. But I know, I confess,” she went on, “strange people. I don’t know how it happens; I don’t do it on purpose; it seems to be my doom—as if I were always one of their habits: it’s wonderful! I dare say moreover,” she pursued with an interested gravity, “that I do, that we all do here, run too much to mere eye. But how can it be helped? We’re all looking at each other—and in the light of Paris one sees what things resemble. That’s what the light of Paris seems always to show. It’s the fault of the light of Paris—dear old light!”
“Oh, not a big deal”—she was really amused by his tone—“Mr. Bilham’s too nice. But I think I can say I’m good enough. Yes, good enough. Have you thought weird things about me?”—and she looked at him again, through her tortoise-shell glasses, with a playful interest. “You are all truly amazing. I would really disappoint you. I stand by my good enough. But I know, I admit,” she continued, “strange people. I don’t know how it happens; I don’t do it on purpose; it seems to be my fate—as if I were somehow part of their world: it’s amazing! I also think,” she added with genuine seriousness, “that I do, that we all tend to focus too much on appearances here. But how can we avoid it? We’re all watching each other—and in the light of Paris, you see how things are alike. That’s what the light of Paris always reveals. It’s the fault of the light of Paris—good old light!”
“Dear old Paris!” little Bilham echoed.
“Dear old Paris!” little Bilham repeated.
“Everything, every one shows,” Miss Barrace went on.
“Everything, everyone shows,” Miss Barrace continued.
“But for what they really are?” Strether asked.
“But for what they really are?” Strether asked.
“Oh I like your Boston ‘reallys’! But sometimes—yes.”
“Oh, I like your Boston ‘reallys’! But sometimes—yeah.”
“Dear old Paris then!” Strether resignedly sighed while for a moment they looked at each other. Then he broke out: “Does Madame de Vionnet do that? I mean really show for what she is?”
“Dear old Paris then!” Strether sighed resignedly as they looked at each other for a moment. Then he exclaimed, “Does Madame de Vionnet do that? I mean, really show who she is?”
Her answer was prompt. “She’s charming. She’s perfect.”
Her response was quick. “She’s charming. She’s perfect.”
“Then why did you a minute ago say ‘Oh, oh, oh!’ at her name?”
“Then why did you just say ‘Oh, oh, oh!’ when you heard her name?”
She easily remembered. “Why just because—! She’s wonderful.”
She easily remembered. “Why, just because—! She’s amazing.”
“Ah she too?”—Strether had almost a groan.
“Ah, her too?”—Strether nearly groaned.
But Miss Barrace had meanwhile perceived relief. “Why not put your question straight to the person who can answer it best?”
But Miss Barrace had noticed relief in the meantime. “Why not ask your question directly to the person who can answer it best?”
“No,” said little Bilham; “don’t put any question; wait, rather—it will be much more fun—to judge for yourself. He has come to take you to her.”
“No,” said little Bilham; “don’t ask any questions; wait, actually—it’ll be way more fun—to decide for yourself. He’s here to take you to her.”
II
On which Strether saw that Chad was again at hand, and he afterwards scarce knew, absurd as it may seem, what had then quickly occurred. The moment concerned him, he felt, more deeply than he could have explained, and he had a subsequent passage of speculation as to whether, on walking off with Chad, he hadn’t looked either pale or red. The only thing he was clear about was that, luckily, nothing indiscreet had in fact been said and that Chad himself was more than ever, in Miss Barrace’s great sense, wonderful. It was one of the connexions—though really why it should be, after all, was none so apparent—in which the whole change in him came out as most striking. Strether recalled as they approached the house that he had impressed him that first night as knowing how to enter a box. Well, he impressed him scarce less now as knowing how to make a presentation. It did something for Strether’s own quality—marked it as estimated; so that our poor friend, conscious and passive, really seemed to feel himself quite handed over and delivered; absolutely, as he would have said, made a present of, given away. As they reached the house a young woman, about to come forth, appeared, unaccompanied, on the steps; at the exchange with whom of a word on Chad’s part Strether immediately perceived that, obligingly, kindly, she was there to meet them. Chad had left her in the house, but she had afterwards come halfway and then the next moment had joined them in the garden. Her air of youth, for Strether, was at first almost disconcerting, while his second impression was, not less sharply, a degree of relief at there not having just been, with the others, any freedom used about her. It was upon him at a touch that she was no subject for that, and meanwhile, on Chad’s introducing him, she had spoken to him, very simply and gently, in an English clearly of the easiest to her, yet unlike any other he had ever heard. It wasn’t as if she tried; nothing, he could see after they had been a few minutes together, was as if she tried; but her speech, charming correct and odd, was like a precaution against her passing for a Pole. There were precautions, he seemed indeed to see, only when there were really dangers.
Strether noticed that Chad was around again, and afterward, he could hardly recall what had just happened, no matter how absurd that seemed. The moment affected him more deeply than he could explain, and he found himself wondering if he had looked pale or flushed while leaving with Chad. The only thing he was sure about was that, fortunately, nothing embarrassing had actually been said, and that Chad was more impressive than ever, in Miss Barrace's great way of seeing things. It was one of those connections—though it was unclear why—that really highlighted the transformation in Chad. As they got closer to the house, Strether remembered how Chad had struck him that first night as someone who knew how to enter a room with style. Now, he looked just as much like someone who knew how to make a presentation. This somehow enhanced Strether's own presence—made it feel valued; so our poor friend, feeling both self-aware and passive, really felt as if he had been handed over and given away, as he would have described it. When they reached the house, a young woman appeared on the steps, about to come out. Strether quickly saw that she was there to greet them, thanks to a word from Chad. Chad had left her inside, but she had come partway out and then joined them in the garden. At first, Strether found her youthful appearance almost unsettling, but then he felt relieved that no inappropriate remarks had been made about her. It was clear to him that she was not the type for that. Meanwhile, when Chad introduced him, she spoke to him very simply and gently, in an English that seemed really easy for her, yet was unlike any he had ever heard. It wasn’t like she was trying; nothing, he noticed after they had spent a few minutes together, seemed forced; but her speech, charmingly correct and slightly unusual, seemed like a safeguard against her being mistaken for a Pole. He realized that precautions only seemed necessary when there were real dangers.
Later on he was to feel many more of them, but by that time he was to feel other things besides. She was dressed in black, but in black that struck him as light and transparent; she was exceedingly fair, and, though she was as markedly slim, her face had a roundness, with eyes far apart and a little strange. Her smile was natural and dim; her hat not extravagant; he had only perhaps a sense of the clink, beneath her fine black sleeves, of more gold bracelets and bangles than he had ever seen a lady wear. Chad was excellently free and light about their encounter; it was one of the occasions on which Strether most wished he himself might have arrived at such ease and such humour: “Here you are then, face to face at last; you’re made for each other—vous allez voir; and I bless your union.” It was indeed, after he had gone off, as if he had been partly serious too. This latter motion had been determined by an enquiry from him about “Jeanne”; to which her mother had replied that she was probably still in the house with Miss Gostrey, to whom she had lately committed her. “Ah but you know,” the young man had rejoined, “he must see her”; with which, while Strether pricked up his ears, he had started as if to bring her, leaving the other objects of his interest together. Strether wondered to find Miss Gostrey already involved, feeling that he missed a link; but feeling also, with small delay, how much he should like to talk with her of Madame de Vionnet on this basis of evidence.
Later on, he would feel many more of them, but by then he would also feel other things. She was dressed in black, but it was a black that seemed light and transparent; she was very fair, and even though she was distinctly slim, her face had a roundness, with eyes that were wide apart and a little strange. Her smile was natural and faint; her hat wasn’t extravagant; he only got a sense of the clinking, beneath her fine black sleeves, of more gold bracelets and bangles than he had ever seen a woman wear. Chad was easy and relaxed about their meeting; it was one of those times when Strether really wished he could be as comfortable and lighthearted: “Here you are then, face to face at last; you’re perfect for each other—vous allez voir; and I bless your union.” In fact, after he left, it felt like he had been partly serious too. This last part had been prompted by his question about “Jeanne,” to which her mother had replied that she was probably still in the house with Miss Gostrey, to whom she had recently entrusted her. “Ah, but you know,” the young man had responded, “he must see her,” and with that, while Strether perked up his ears, he moved to go get her, leaving the other people of interest together. Strether was surprised to find Miss Gostrey already involved, feeling that he was missing a connection; but feeling also, with little delay, how much he wanted to talk with her about Madame de Vionnet based on what he had just seen.
The evidence as yet in truth was meagre; which, for that matter, was perhaps a little why his expectation had had a drop. There was somehow not quite a wealth in her; and a wealth was all that, in his simplicity, he had definitely prefigured. Still, it was too much to be sure already that there was but a poverty. They moved away from the house, and, with eyes on a bench at some distance, he proposed that they should sit down. “I’ve heard a great deal about you,” she said as they went; but he had an answer to it that made her stop short. “Well, about you, Madame de Vionnet, I’ve heard, I’m bound to say, almost nothing”—those struck him as the only words he himself could utter with any lucidity; conscious as he was, and as with more reason, of the determination to be in respect to the rest of his business perfectly plain and go perfectly straight. It hadn’t at any rate been in the least his idea to spy on Chad’s proper freedom. It was possibly, however, at this very instant and under the impression of Madame de Vionnet’s pause, that going straight began to announce itself as a matter for care. She had only after all to smile at him ever so gently in order to make him ask himself if he weren’t already going crooked. It might be going crooked to find it of a sudden just only clear that she intended very definitely to be what he would have called nice to him. This was what passed between them while, for another instant, they stood still; he couldn’t at least remember afterwards what else it might have been. The thing indeed really unmistakeable was its rolling over him as a wave that he had been, in conditions incalculable and unimaginable, a subject of discussion. He had been, on some ground that concerned her, answered for; which gave her an advantage he should never be able to match.
The evidence so far was pretty thin, which might explain why his expectations had dropped. There was something missing in her, and in his straightforwardness, he had envisioned something richer. Still, it was too early to be certain that there was only emptiness. They moved away from the house, and with his eyes on a bench in the distance, he suggested they sit down. “I’ve heard a lot about you,” she said as they walked, but he had a response that made her stop. “Well, about you, Madame de Vionnet, I’ve heard almost nothing”—those felt like the only words he could say clearly; he was aware of his intention to be completely straightforward and direct regarding the rest of his business. It wasn’t at all his plan to pry into Chad’s freedom. However, it was possibly at that very moment, under the influence of Madame de Vionnet’s pause, that being straightforward began to feel like a concern. All she had to do was smile gently at him for him to wonder if he was already going off track. It might be off track to suddenly realize that she intended to be what he would have called nice to him. This was the exchange that took place while they stood still for another moment; he couldn’t recall afterwards what else it might have been. What was truly unmistakable was the overwhelming sense that, in ways he couldn't comprehend, he had been a topic of discussion. He had been, on some matters concerning her, accounted for; which gave her an advantage he would never be able to match.
“Hasn’t Miss Gostrey,” she asked, “said a good word for me?”
“Hasn’t Miss Gostrey,” she asked, “said something nice about me?”
What had struck him first was the way he was bracketed with that lady; and he wondered what account Chad would have given of their acquaintance. Something not as yet traceable, at all events, had obviously happened. “I didn’t even know of her knowing you.”
What struck him first was how he was connected with that lady; he wondered what Chad would say about their relationship. Clearly, something unexplainable had happened. “I didn’t even know she knew you.”
“Well, now she’ll tell you all. I’m so glad you’re in relation with her.”
“Well, now she’ll share everything with you. I’m really glad you’re connected with her.”
This was one of the things—the “all” Miss Gostrey would now tell him—that, with every deference to present preoccupation, was uppermost for Strether after they had taken their seat. One of the others was, at the end of five minutes, that she—oh incontestably, yes—differed less; differed, that is, scarcely at all—well, superficially speaking, from Mrs. Newsome or even from Mrs. Pocock. She was ever so much younger than the one and not so young as the other; but what was there in her, if anything, that would have made it impossible he should meet her at Woollett? And wherein was her talk during their moments on the bench together not the same as would have been found adequate for a Woollett garden-party?—unless perhaps truly in not being quite so bright. She observed to him that Mr. Newsome had, to her knowledge, taken extraordinary pleasure in his visit; but there was no good lady at Woollett who wouldn’t have been at least up to that. Was there in Chad, by chance, after all, deep down, a principle of aboriginal loyalty that had made him, for sentimental ends, attach himself to elements, happily encountered, that would remind him most of the old air and the old soil? Why accordingly be in a flutter—Strether could even put it that way—about this unfamiliar phenomenon of the femme du monde? On these terms Mrs. Newsome herself was as much of one. Little Bilham verily had testified that they came out, the ladies of the type, in close quarters; but it was just in these quarters—now comparatively close—that he felt Madame de Vionnet’s common humanity. She did come out, and certainly to his relief, but she came out as the usual thing. There might be motives behind, but so could there often be even at Woollett. The only thing was that if she showed him she wished to like him—as the motives behind might conceivably prompt—it would possibly have been more thrilling for him that she should have shown as more vividly alien. Ah she was neither Turk nor Pole!—which would be indeed flat once more for Mrs. Newsome and Mrs. Pocock. A lady and two gentlemen had meanwhile, however, approached their bench, and this accident stayed for the time further developments.
This was one of the things—Miss Gostrey would now say—that, despite their current distractions, was at the forefront of Strether's mind after they took their seats. Another thought he had five minutes later was that she—oh definitely, yes—differed less; in fact, barely at all—well, on the surface at least—compared to Mrs. Newsome or even Mrs. Pocock. She was much younger than one and not quite as young as the other; but what was there in her, if anything, that would make it impossible for him to meet her in Woollett? And how was her conversation during their time together on the bench not the same as what someone would expect at a Woollett garden party?—unless perhaps it was just a little less lively. She mentioned to him that Mr. Newsome, to her knowledge, had taken great pleasure in his visit; but there was no good lady in Woollett who wouldn’t have felt the same way. Was there perhaps in Chad, deep down, a principle of basic loyalty that made him, for sentimental reasons, attach himself to elements he happily encountered that reminded him most of the familiar air and soil? So why be concerned—Strether could even describe it that way—about this unfamiliar phenomenon of the **femme du monde?** On those terms, Mrs. Newsome herself was just as much one. Little Bilham had indeed confirmed that they came out, the ladies of this type, in close quarters; but it was precisely in these quarters—now relatively close—that he sensed Madame de Vionnet’s shared humanity. She did come out, and certainly to his relief, but she came out as is usually expected. There might be motives behind it, just as there often were at Woollett. The only difference was that if she showed him she wanted to like him—as her possible motives might suggest—it would perhaps have been more exciting for him if she had appeared more distinctly foreign. Ah, she was neither Turk nor Pole!—which would indeed seem dull once again for Mrs. Newsome and Mrs. Pocock. In the meantime, however, a lady and two gentlemen had approached their bench, and this unexpected encounter delayed any further developments for now.
They presently addressed his companion, the brilliant strangers; she rose to speak to them, and Strether noted how the escorted lady, though mature and by no means beautiful, had more of the bold high look, the range of expensive reference, that he had, as might have been said, made his plans for. Madame de Vionnet greeted her as “Duchesse” and was greeted in turn, while talk started in French, as “Ma toute-belle”; little facts that had their due, their vivid interest for Strether. Madame de Vionnet didn’t, none the less, introduce him—a note he was conscious of as false to the Woollett scale and the Woollett humanity; though it didn’t prevent the Duchess, who struck him as confident and free, very much what he had obscurely supposed duchesses, from looking at him as straight and as hard—for it was hard—as if she would have liked, all the same, to know him. “Oh yes, my dear, it’s all right, it’s me; and who are you, with your interesting wrinkles and your most effective (is it the handsomest, is it the ugliest?) of noses?”—some such loose handful of bright flowers she seemed, fragrantly enough, to fling at him. Strether almost wondered—at such a pace was he going—if some divination of the influence of either party were what determined Madame de Vionnet’s abstention. One of the gentlemen, in any case, succeeded in placing himself in close relation with our friend’s companion; a gentleman rather stout and importantly short, in a hat with a wonderful wide curl to its brim and a frock coat buttoned with an effect of superlative decision. His French had quickly turned to equal English, and it occurred to Strether that he might well be one of the ambassadors. His design was evidently to assert a claim to Madame de Vionnet’s undivided countenance, and he made it good in the course of a minute—led her away with a trick of three words; a trick played with a social art of which Strether, looking after them as the four, whose backs were now all turned, moved off, felt himself no master.
They were now addressing his companion, the intriguing strangers; she stood up to talk to them, and Strether noticed how the escorted lady, despite being older and not conventionally beautiful, had a bold and confident demeanor, a sense of sophistication that he had, one might say, planned for. Madame de Vionnet greeted her as “Duchesse” and received a similar greeting in return, while the conversation began in French, with “Ma toute-belle”; little details that were very significant and interesting to Strether. Nevertheless, Madame de Vionnet didn’t introduce him—a point that struck him as inconsistent with the values of Woollett and its inhabitants; however, it didn’t stop the Duchess, who appeared self-assured and at ease, very much like how he had vaguely envisioned duchesses, from looking at him directly and intently—as if she would have liked to know him better. “Oh yes, my dear, it’s all good, it’s me; and who are you, with your intriguing wrinkles and your most striking (is it the most handsome, is it the ugliest?) of noses?”—some such casual bunch of bright compliments she seemed to toss at him cheerfully. Strether almost wondered—given how fast things were moving—if some intuition about the dynamics of both parties was what led to Madame de Vionnet’s silence. In any case, one of the gentlemen managed to get close to Strether's companion; he was somewhat stout and notably short, wearing a hat with a wonderfully wide curl in its brim and a frock coat buttoned with an air of utmost decisiveness. His French quickly switched to fluent English, and it occurred to Strether that he could well be one of the ambassadors. His goal was clearly to claim Madame de Vionnet’s full attention, and he succeeded in doing so within a minute—leading her away with just three words; a social maneuver of a skill Strether, watching them as the four, whose backs were now all turned, moved off, felt he couldn't master.
He sank again upon his bench and, while his eyes followed the party, reflected, as he had done before, on Chad’s strange communities. He sat there alone for five minutes, with plenty to think of; above all with his sense of having suddenly been dropped by a charming woman overlaid now by other impressions and in fact quite cleared and indifferent. He hadn’t yet had so quiet a surrender; he didn’t in the least care if nobody spoke to him more. He might have been, by his attitude, in for something of a march so broad that the want of ceremony with which he had just been used could fall into its place as but a minor incident of the procession. Besides, there would be incidents enough, as he felt when this term of contemplation was closed by the reappearance of little Bilham, who stood before him a moment with a suggestive “Well?” in which he saw himself reflected as disorganised, as possibly floored. He replied with a “Well!” intended to show that he wasn’t floored in the least. No indeed; he gave it out, as the young man sat down beside him, that if, at the worst, he had been overturned at all, he had been overturned into the upper air, the sublimer element with which he had an affinity and in which he might be trusted a while to float. It wasn’t a descent to earth to say after an instant and in sustained response to the reference: “You’re quite sure her husband’s living?”
He sank back onto his bench and, while his eyes followed the group, thought, as he had before, about Chad's strange communities. He sat there alone for five minutes, with plenty on his mind; mainly, he felt like he had suddenly been brushed off by a charming woman, now overshadowed by other thoughts and actually feeling pretty indifferent. He hadn’t experienced such a calm surrender before; he really didn’t care if no one spoke to him again. His posture suggested he was ready for something so significant that the lack of formality he had just experienced felt like a minor detail in the grand scheme. Besides, there would be plenty of other moments, he realized, when little Bilham reappeared, standing in front of him with a suggestive "Well?" that made him see himself as disorganized, possibly even defeated. He responded with a "Well!" meant to demonstrate that he wasn’t defeated at all. No way; he made it clear, as the young man sat beside him, that if he had been knocked down at all, it was into a higher realm, that grander space he felt connected to and where he could be trusted to float for a while. It wasn’t exactly a return to reality to say, after a moment and in direct response to the comment, “You’re absolutely sure her husband is alive?”
“Oh dear, yes.”
“Oh wow, yes.”
“Ah then—!”
“Ah, then—!”
“Ah then what?”
“What's next?”
Strether had after all to think. “Well, I’m sorry for them.” But it didn’t for the moment matter more than that. He assured his young friend he was quite content. They wouldn’t stir; were all right as they were. He didn’t want to be introduced; had been introduced already about as far as he could go. He had seen moreover an immensity; liked Gloriani, who, as Miss Barrace kept saying, was wonderful; had made out, he was sure, the half-dozen other men who were distinguished, the artists, the critics and oh the great dramatist—him it was easy to spot; but wanted—no, thanks, really—to talk with none of them; having nothing at all to say and finding it would do beautifully as it was; do beautifully because what it was—well, was just simply too late. And when after this little Bilham, submissive and responsive, but with an eye to the consolation nearest, easily threw off some “Better late than never!” all he got in return for it was a sharp “Better early than late!” This note indeed the next thing overflowed for Strether into a quiet stream of demonstration that as soon as he had let himself go he felt as the real relief. It had consciously gathered to a head, but the reservoir had filled sooner than he knew, and his companion’s touch was to make the waters spread. There were some things that had to come in time if they were to come at all. If they didn’t come in time they were lost for ever. It was the general sense of them that had overwhelmed him with its long slow rush.
Strether had to think after all. “Well, I feel sorry for them.” But for now, that was all that mattered. He reassured his young friend that he was completely fine. They wouldn’t move; they were perfectly fine as they were. He didn’t want to be introduced; he had already been introduced as far as he could go. He had seen a lot; he liked Gloriani, who, as Miss Barrace kept saying, was amazing; he had made out, he was sure, the half-dozen other distinguished men—the artists, the critics—and oh, the great playwright—it was easy to spot him; but he really didn’t want to talk to any of them; he had nothing to say and thought it was just fine as it was; just fine because what it was—well, it was simply too late. And when little Bilham, compliant and eager, but looking for the nearest comfort, casually said “Better late than never!” the only response he got was a sharp “Better early than late!” This sentiment indeed overflowed for Strether into a quiet stream of thoughts that, as soon as he let himself go, felt like real relief. It had built up in his mind, but the flood had filled faster than he realized, and his companion’s prompt was what made the feelings expand. There were some things that had to come in time if they were to come at all. If they didn’t arrive in time, they were lost forever. It was the overall feeling of them that had overwhelmed him with its slow, steady flow.
“It’s not too late for you, on any side, and you don’t strike me as in danger of missing the train; besides which people can be in general pretty well trusted, of course—with the clock of their freedom ticking as loud as it seems to do here—to keep an eye on the fleeting hour. All the same don’t forget that you’re young—blessedly young; be glad of it on the contrary and live up to it. Live all you can; it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t so much matter what you do in particular, so long as you have your life. If you haven’t had that what have you had? This place and these impressions—mild as you may find them to wind a man up so; all my impressions of Chad and of people I’ve seen at his place—well, have had their abundant message for me, have just dropped that into my mind. I see it now. I haven’t done so enough before—and now I’m old; too old at any rate for what I see. Oh I do see, at least; and more than you’d believe or I can express. It’s too late. And it’s as if the train had fairly waited at the station for me without my having had the gumption to know it was there. Now I hear its faint receding whistle miles and miles down the line. What one loses one loses; make no mistake about that. The affair—I mean the affair of life—couldn’t, no doubt, have been different for me; for it’s at the best a tin mould, either fluted and embossed, with ornamental excrescences, or else smooth and dreadfully plain, into which, a helpless jelly, one’s consciousness is poured—so that one ‘takes’ the form as the great cook says, and is more or less compactly held by it: one lives in fine as one can. Still, one has the illusion of freedom; therefore don’t be, like me, without the memory of that illusion. I was either, at the right time, too stupid or too intelligent to have it; I don’t quite know which. Of course at present I’m a case of reaction against the mistake; and the voice of reaction should, no doubt, always be taken with an allowance. But that doesn’t affect the point that the right time is now yours. The right time is any time that one is still so lucky as to have. You’ve plenty; that’s the great thing; you’re, as I say, damn you, so happily and hatefully young. Don’t at any rate miss things out of stupidity. Of course I don’t take you for a fool, or I shouldn’t be addressing you thus awfully. Do what you like so long as you don’t make my mistake. For it was a mistake. Live!” ... Slowly and sociably, with full pauses and straight dashes, Strether had so delivered himself; holding little Bilham from step to step deeply and gravely attentive. The end of all was that the young man had turned quite solemn, and that this was a contradiction of the innocent gaiety the speaker had wished to promote. He watched for a moment the consequence of his words, and then, laying a hand on his listener’s knee and as if to end with the proper joke: “And now for the eye I shall keep on you!”
“It’s not too late for you, on either side, and you don’t seem like someone who’s going to miss the opportunity; besides, people can generally be trusted—especially with the clock of their freedom ticking loudly here—to watch the fleeting moments. Still, don’t forget that you’re young—thankfully young; embrace it and make the most of it. Live fully; it’s a mistake not to. It doesn’t really matter what you do specifically, as long as you’re living your life. If you haven’t had that, what have you had? This place and these impressions—though you might find them mild—are enough to motivate a person; all my impressions of Chad and the people I’ve met at his place have delivered their important message to me, just dropping that into my mind. I see it now. I didn’t do this enough before—and now I’m old; definitely too old for what I see. Oh, I do see, at least; and more than you might believe or I can express. It’s too late. It’s as if the train had been waiting at the station for me, and I didn’t have the wherewithal to realize it was there. Now I hear its faint whistle fading miles down the line. What you lose, you lose; don’t be mistaken about that. Life itself—couldn’t, no doubt, have been different for me; at best, it’s like a tin mold, either fancy with all its decorations, or plain and dull, into which your consciousness is poured like helpless jelly—so you ‘take’ the shape as a great cook would say, and get held in it: you live as best as you can. Still, you have the illusion of freedom; so don’t be like me and forget that illusion. I was either too foolish or too smart at the right time to appreciate it; I’m not sure which. Of course, right now I’m reacting against that mistake; and you should always take the voice of reaction with a grain of salt. But that doesn't change the fact that the right time is now yours. The right time is any time you’re still fortunate enough to have. You have plenty; that’s the most important thing; you’re, as I said, damn you, so blissfully and frustratingly young. Don’t miss out on things because of stupidity. I don’t think you’re a fool, or I wouldn’t be speaking to you like this. Do what you want as long as you don’t make my mistake. Because it was a mistake. Live!” ... Slowly and sociably, with full pauses and straight dashes, Strether expressed this; keeping little Bilham deeply and gravely engaged from step to step. The outcome was that the young man had become quite serious, which contradicted the innocent joy the speaker had hoped to inspire. He watched for a moment the impact of his words, and then, placing a hand on his listener’s knee and as if to conclude with a light jest: “And now I’ll keep an eye on you!”
“Oh but I don’t know that I want to be, at your age, too different from you!”
“Oh, but I’m not sure I want to be that different from you at your age!”
“Ah prepare while you’re about it,” said Strether, “to be more amusing.”
“Hey, while you’re at it,” said Strether, “get ready to be more entertaining.”
Little Bilham continued to think, but at last had a smile. “Well, you are amusing—to me.”
Little Bilham kept thinking, but finally broke into a smile. “Well, you are funny—to me.”
“Impayable, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?” Strether had risen with this, giving his attention now to an encounter that, in the middle of the garden, was in the act of taking place between their host and the lady at whose side Madame de Vionnet had quitted him. This lady, who appeared within a few minutes to have left her friends, awaited Gloriani’s eager approach with words on her lips that Strether couldn’t catch, but of which her interesting witty face seemed to give him the echo. He was sure she was prompt and fine, but also that she had met her match, and he liked—in the light of what he was quite sure was the Duchess’s latent insolence—the good humour with which the great artist asserted equal resources. Were they, this pair, of the “great world”?—and was he himself, for the moment and thus related to them by his observation, in it? Then there was something in the great world covertly tigerish, which came to him across the lawn and in the charming air as a waft from the jungle. Yet it made him admire most of the two, made him envy, the glossy male tiger, magnificently marked. These absurdities of the stirred sense, fruits of suggestion ripening on the instant, were all reflected in his next words to little Bilham. “I know—if we talk of that—whom I should enjoy being like!”
“Impayable, as you say, no doubt. But what am I to myself?” Strether stood up with this, now focusing on an interaction that was taking place in the middle of the garden between their host and the woman who had accompanied Madame de Vionnet when she left him. This woman, who seemed to have abandoned her friends within minutes, waited for Gloriani’s eager approach with words on her lips that Strether couldn’t hear, but her interesting, witty expression seemed to echo them. He was sure she was sharp and impressive, but also that she had found her equal, and he appreciated—the context of what he suspected was the Duchess’s underlying arrogance—the good humor with which the great artist maintained an equal footing. Were these two part of the “great world”?—and was he, for now, connected to them through his observation, in it? Then there was something subtly predatory in the great world, which reached him across the lawn and in the delightful air like a breeze from the jungle. Yet it made him admire the two of them most, and he envied the glossy male tiger, splendidly marked. These oddities of stirred emotions, products of instant suggestion, were all mirrored in his next words to little Bilham. “I know—if we’re talking about that—who I would enjoy being like!”
Little Bilham followed his eyes; but then as with a shade of knowing surprise: “Gloriani?”
Little Bilham followed his gaze; but then, with a hint of knowing surprise: “Gloriani?”
Our friend had in fact already hesitated, though not on the hint of his companion’s doubt, in which there were depths of critical reserve. He had just made out, in the now full picture, something and somebody else; another impression had been superimposed. A young girl in a white dress and a softly plumed white hat had suddenly come into view, and what was presently clear was that her course was toward them. What was clearer still was that the handsome young man at her side was Chad Newsome, and what was clearest of all was that she was therefore Mademoiselle de Vionnet, that she was unmistakeably pretty—bright gentle shy happy wonderful—and that Chad now, with a consummate calculation of effect, was about to present her to his old friend’s vision. What was clearest of all indeed was something much more than this, something at the single stroke of which—and wasn’t it simply juxtaposition?—all vagueness vanished. It was the click of a spring—he saw the truth. He had by this time also met Chad’s look; there was more of it in that; and the truth, accordingly, so far as Bilham’s enquiry was concerned, had thrust in the answer. “Oh Chad!”—it was that rare youth he should have enjoyed being “like.” The virtuous attachment would be all there before him; the virtuous attachment would be in the very act of appeal for his blessing; Jeanne de Vionnet, this charming creature, would be exquisitely, intensely now—the object of it. Chad brought her straight up to him, and Chad was, oh yes, at this moment—for the glory of Woollett or whatever—better still even than Gloriani. He had plucked this blossom; he had kept it over-night in water; and at last as he held it up to wonder he did enjoy his effect. That was why Strether had felt at first the breath of calculation—and why moreover, as he now knew, his look at the girl would be, for the young man, a sign of the latter’s success. What young man had ever paraded about that way, without a reason, a maiden in her flower? And there was nothing in his reason at present obscure. Her type sufficiently told of it—they wouldn’t, they couldn’t, want her to go to Woollett. Poor Woollett, and what it might miss!—though brave Chad indeed too, and what it might gain! Brave Chad however had just excellently spoken. “This is a good little friend of mine who knows all about you and has moreover a message for you. And this, my dear”—he had turned to the child herself—“is the best man in the world, who has it in his power to do a great deal for us and whom I want you to like and revere as nearly as possible as much as I do.”
Our friend had actually hesitated, but it wasn’t just because of his companion’s doubts, which held a lot of unspoken reservations. He had just noticed something and someone else in the now complete scene; another impression had emerged. A young girl in a white dress and a soft, feathered white hat had suddenly come into view, and it was clear that she was heading toward them. What was even clearer was that the handsome young man beside her was Chad Newsome, and the most obvious thing was that she was Mademoiselle de Vionnet, undeniably pretty—bright, gentle, shy, happy, wonderful—and that Chad was now about to introduce her to his old friend with perfect timing. What was undoubtedly clearer than anything else was something much deeper; with one realization—wasn’t it just the placement of images?—all uncertainty disappeared. It was like a switch had been flipped—he understood the truth. By now, he had also caught Chad’s gaze; there was more meaning in that stare; thus, the truth, as far as Bilham’s question went, had provided the answer. “Oh Chad!”—this was that rare youth he would have liked to be “like.” The virtuous connection would be fully visible to him; the virtuous connection would be actively seeking his approval; Jeanne de Vionnet, this lovely young woman, would be exquisitely, intensely the focus of it all right now. Chad brought her directly to him, and at that moment, Chad was—oh yes—for the glory of Woollett or whatever—even better than Gloriani. He had picked this flower; he had kept it overnight in water; and finally, as he held it up for admiration, he truly appreciated the impact. That was why Strether had initially felt the hint of calculation—and why, as he now understood, his gaze at the girl would be a sign of the young man's success. What young man had ever paraded around publicly like that, without a reason, with a girl in her prime? And there was nothing unclear in his motivation at the moment. Her appearance was enough to indicate it—they wouldn’t, they couldn’t, want her to go to Woollett. Poor Woollett, and what it might lose!—although brave Chad too, and what it might gain! Brave Chad had just wonderfully introduced the situation. “This is a good little friend of mine who knows all about you and has a message for you. And this, my dear”—he turned to the girl—“is the best man in the world, who can do a lot for us and whom I want you to like and respect as much as I do.”
She stood there quite pink, a little frightened, prettier and prettier and not a bit like her mother. There was in this last particular no resemblance but that of youth to youth; and here was in fact suddenly Strether’s sharpest impression. It went wondering, dazed, embarrassed, back to the woman he had just been talking with; it was a revelation in the light of which he already saw she would become more interesting. So slim and fresh and fair, she had yet put forth this perfection; so that for really believing it of her, for seeing her to any such developed degree as a mother, comparison would be urgent. Well, what was it now but fairly thrust upon him? “Mamma wishes me to tell you before we go,” the girl said, “that she hopes very much you’ll come to see us very soon. She has something important to say to you.”
She stood there, blushing a little and looking a bit scared, getting prettier and prettier, and not resembling her mother at all. The only similarity between them was that of youth; and this was, in fact, Strether's strongest impression at that moment. It made him feel curious, dazed, and a bit awkward as he thought about the woman he'd just been speaking with; it was a realization that made him see she would become more interesting. So slim, fresh, and fair, she had somehow achieved this perfection; for him to truly believe she could be developed into something like a mother, he would need to compare. Well, what was it if not plainly presented to him? “Mom wants me to tell you before we leave,” the girl said, “that she really hopes you'll come see us soon. She has something important to tell you.”
“She quite reproaches herself,” Chad helpfully explained: “you were interesting her so much when she accidentally suffered you to be interrupted.”
“She really blames herself,” Chad helpfully explained: “you were capturing her interest so much that she accidentally let you be interrupted.”
“Ah don’t mention it!” Strether murmured, looking kindly from one to the other and wondering at many things.
“Ah, don’t mention it!” Strether said softly, looking kindly from one to the other and pondering many things.
“And I’m to ask you for myself,” Jeanne continued with her hands clasped together as if in some small learnt prayer—“I’m to ask you for myself if you won’t positively come.”
“And I’m asking you for myself,” Jeanne continued, her hands clasped together like she was saying a little prayer—“I’m asking you for myself if you won’t definitely come.”
“Leave it to me, dear—I’ll take care of it!” Chad genially declared in answer to this, while Strether himself almost held his breath. What was in the girl was indeed too soft, too unknown for direct dealing; so that one could only gaze at it as at a picture, quite staying one’s own hand. But with Chad he was now on ground—Chad he could meet; so pleasant a confidence in that and in everything did the young man freely exhale. There was the whole of a story in his tone to his companion, and he spoke indeed as if already of the family. It made Strether guess the more quickly what it might be about which Madame de Vionnet was so urgent. Having seen him then she had found him easy; she wished to have it out with him that some way for the young people must be discovered, some way that would not impose as a condition the transplantation of her daughter. He already saw himself discussing with this lady the attractions of Woollett as a residence for Chad’s companion. Was that youth going now to trust her with the affair—so that it would be after all with one of his “lady-friends” that his mother’s missionary should be condemned to deal? It was quite as if for an instant the two men looked at each other on this question. But there was no mistaking at last Chad’s pride in the display of such a connexion. This was what had made him so carry himself while, three minutes before, he was bringing it into view; what had caused his friend, first catching sight of him, to be so struck with his air. It was, in a word, just when he thus finally felt Chad putting things straight off on him that he envied him, as he had mentioned to little Bilham, most. The whole exhibition however was but a matter of three or four minutes, and the author of it had soon explained that, as Madame de Vionnet was immediately going “on,” this could be for Jeanne but a snatch. They would all meet again soon, and Strether was meanwhile to stay and amuse himself—“I’ll pick you up again in plenty of time.” He took the girl off as he had brought her, and Strether, with the faint sweet foreignness of her “Au revoir, monsieur!” in his ears as a note almost unprecedented, watched them recede side by side and felt how, once more, her companion’s relation to her got an accent from it. They disappeared among the others and apparently into the house; whereupon our friend turned round to give out to little Bilham the conviction of which he was full. But there was no little Bilham any more; little Bilham had within the few moments, for reasons of his own, proceeded further: a circumstance by which, in its order, Strether was also sensibly affected.
“Leave it to me, dear—I’ll handle it!” Chad cheerfully said in response, while Strether himself nearly held his breath. What the girl had was indeed too gentle, too unfamiliar for direct confrontation; so one could only look at it like a painting, completely holding back their own impulse. But with Chad, he was on solid ground—Chad was someone he could engage with; the young man radiated such pleasant confidence in everything. There was an entire story in his tone to his companion, and he spoke as if he were already part of the family. This made Strether guess quickly what Madame de Vionnet was so anxious about. Having seen him, she found him easy to deal with; she wanted to discuss how a path could be found for the young people that wouldn’t require her daughter to be uprooted. He could already see himself talking with this lady about the appeal of Woollett as a spot for Chad’s companion. Was the young man about to trust her with the situation—so that ultimately it would be with one of his “lady-friends” that his mother’s missionary would be forced to deal? For a moment, it was as if the two men exchanged looks over this question. But there was no mistaking Chad’s pride in showcasing such a connection. That had influenced how he had presented it three minutes earlier; it was what had made his friend, upon first seeing him, so struck by his demeanor. Ultimately, it was precisely when he felt Chad laying everything out so clearly for him that he envied him the most, as he had told little Bilham. However, the entire exchange lasted only three or four minutes, and the person behind it soon explained that since Madame de Vionnet was heading out soon, this could only be a brief encounter for Jeanne. They would all meet again shortly, and in the meantime, Strether was to stay and entertain himself—“I’ll come back for you in plenty of time.” He took the girl away just as he had brought her, and Strether, with the faint sweet foreignness of her “Au revoir, monsieur!” in his ears, almost unprecedented to him, watched them walk away side by side and felt how, once again, her companion’s relationship with her gained meaning from it. They vanished among the others and seemingly into the house; after which, our friend turned to share his strong conviction with little Bilham. But there was no little Bilham anymore; little Bilham had, for his own reasons, moved on in those few moments—a shift that, in turn, noticeably affected Strether as well.
III
Chad was not in fact on this occasion to keep his promise of coming back; but Miss Gostrey had soon presented herself with an explanation of his failure. There had been reasons at the last for his going off with ces dames; and he had asked her with much instance to come out and take charge of their friend. She did so, Strether felt as she took her place beside him, in a manner that left nothing to desire. He had dropped back on his bench, alone again for a time, and the more conscious for little Bilham’s defection of his unexpressed thought; in respect to which however this next converser was a still more capacious vessel. “It’s the child!” he had exclaimed to her almost as soon as she appeared; and though her direct response was for some time delayed he could feel in her meanwhile the working of this truth. It might have been simply, as she waited, that they were now in presence altogether of truth spreading like a flood and not for the moment to be offered her in the mere cupful; inasmuch as who should ces dames prove to be but persons about whom—once thus face to face with them—she found she might from the first have told him almost everything? This would have freely come had he taken the simple precaution of giving her their name. There could be no better example—and she appeared to note it with high amusement—than the way, making things out already so much for himself, he was at last throwing precautions to the winds. They were neither more nor less, she and the child’s mother, than old school-friends—friends who had scarcely met for years but whom this unlooked-for chance had brought together with a rush. It was a relief, Miss Gostrey hinted, to feel herself no longer groping; she was unaccustomed to grope and as a general thing, he might well have seen, made straight enough for her clue. With the one she had now picked up in her hands there need be at least no waste of wonder. “She’s coming to see me—that’s for you,” Strether’s counsellor continued; “but I don’t require it to know where I am.”
Chad wasn't actually going to keep his promise to come back this time; however, Miss Gostrey quickly showed up to explain his absence. There were reasons for him leaving with ces dames, and he had urged her to come out and take care of their friend. She did just that, and Strether felt as she settled in next to him that it was done perfectly. He had fallen back onto his bench, alone for a while, and even more aware of his unspoken thoughts after little Bilham left. But this next conversation partner was even more capable of handling it. “It’s the child!” he exclaimed to her almost as soon as she appeared, and although her direct response took a while, he could sense her processing this fact. It might simply have been that as she waited, they were completely in the presence of a truth spreading like a flood, not something to be offered to her in small doses; considering that when ces dames turned out to be people about whom—once face to face—she realized she could have told him almost everything from the start. This information would have easily flowed if he had just taken the simple step of giving her their name. There was no better example—and she seemed to note it with great amusement—than how, already figuring so much out for himself, he was finally throwing caution to the wind. They were simply old school friends—friends who hadn’t seen each other for years but whom this unexpected meeting had brought together in a rush. It was a relief, Miss Gostrey hinted, to feel like she wasn’t fumbling around; she wasn’t used to fumbling, and generally, he could have seen that she could navigate straight to her clues. With the one she now held in her hands, there was definitely no need for pointless wondering. “She’s coming to see me—that’s for you,” Strether’s advisor continued; “but I don’t need it to know where I stand.”
The waste of wonder might be proscribed; but Strether, characteristically, was even by this time in the immensity of space. “By which you mean that you know where she is?”
The waste of wonder might be forbidden; but Strether, true to form, was even then lost in the vastness of space. “So you mean you know where she is?”
She just hesitated. “I mean that if she comes to see me I shall—now that I’ve pulled myself round a bit after the shock—not be at home.”
She paused. “What I mean is that if she comes to visit me, I’ll—now that I’ve gotten myself together a bit after the shock—not be at home.”
Strether hung poised. “You call it—your recognition—a shock?”
Strether stood there, waiting. “You call it—your recognition—a shock?”
She gave one of her rare flickers of impatience. “It was a surprise, an emotion. Don’t be so literal. I wash my hands of her.”
She showed one of her rare moments of impatience. “It was a surprise, a feeling. Don’t be so literal. I’m done with her.”
Poor Strether’s face lengthened. “She’s impossible—?”
Poor Strether's face fell. "She's impossible—?"
“She’s even more charming than I remembered her.”
“She’s even more charming than I remember.”
“Then what’s the matter?”
"Then what's wrong?"
She had to think how to put it. “Well, I’m impossible. It’s impossible. Everything’s impossible.”
She had to figure out how to say it. “Well, I'm impossible. Everything's impossible.”
He looked at her an instant. “I see where you’re coming out. Everything’s possible.” Their eyes had on it in fact an exchange of some duration; after which he pursued: “Isn’t it that beautiful child?” Then as she still said nothing: “Why don’t you mean to receive her?”
He glanced at her for a moment. "I get what you're saying. Anything's possible." Their eyes locked in a silent exchange for a little while, after which he continued, "Isn’t she a beautiful child?" Then, when she still didn’t respond, he asked, "Why don’t you want to take her in?"
Her answer in an instant rang clear. “Because I wish to keep out of the business.”
Her answer came quickly and clearly. “Because I want to stay out of it.”
It provoked in him a weak wail. “You’re going to abandon me now?”
It made him let out a faint cry. “You’re going to leave me now?”
“No, I’m only going to abandon her. She’ll want me to help her with you. And I won’t.”
“No, I’m just going to leave her behind. She’ll expect me to help her with you. And I won’t.”
“You’ll only help me with her? Well then—!” Most of the persons previously gathered had, in the interest of tea, passed into the house, and they had the gardens mainly to themselves. The shadows were long, the last call of the birds, who had made a home of their own in the noble interspaced quarter, sounded from the high trees in the other gardens as well, those of the old convent and of the old hôtels; it was as if our friends had waited for the full charm to come out. Strether’s impressions were still present; it was as if something had happened that “nailed” them, made them more intense; but he was to ask himself soon afterwards, that evening, what really had happened—conscious as he could after all remain that for a gentleman taken, and taken the first time, into the “great world,” the world of ambassadors and duchesses, the items made a meagre total. It was nothing new to him, however, as we know, that a man might have—at all events such a man as he—an amount of experience out of any proportion to his adventures; so that, though it was doubtless no great adventure to sit on there with Miss Gostrey and hear about Madame de Vionnet, the hour, the picture, the immediate, the recent, the possible—as well as the communication itself, not a note of which failed to reverberate—only gave the moments more of the taste of history.
“You’ll only help me with her? Well then—!” Most of the people who were there before had gone inside for tea, leaving the gardens mostly to themselves. The shadows were long, and the last calls of the birds, who had made homes in the beautiful spaced-out area, echoed from the tall trees in the other gardens as well, those of the old convent and the old hotels; it was as if our friends had been waiting for the full charm to emerge. Strether’s impressions were still fresh; it felt like something had happened that “nailed” them, making them more intense. But he was soon going to ask himself that evening what really had happened—while he remained aware that for a gentleman who was experiencing the “great world” of ambassadors and duchesses for the first time, the elements he encountered added up to a scant total. It wasn’t new to him, though, as we know, that a man like him could have a wealth of experience disproportionate to his adventures; so that, even if it was no great adventure to sit there with Miss Gostrey and listen to stories about Madame de Vionnet, the hour, the scene, the immediate, the recent, the possible—as well as the conversation itself, every note of which echoed—only added a historical flavor to the moments.
It was history, to begin with, that Jeanne’s mother had been three-and-twenty years before, at Geneva, schoolmate and good girlfriend to Maria Gostrey, who had moreover enjoyed since then, though interruptedly and above all with a long recent drop, other glimpses of her. Twenty-three years put them both on, no doubt; and Madame de Vionnet—though she had married straight after school—couldn’t be today an hour less than thirty-eight. This made her ten years older than Chad—though ten years, also, if Strether liked, older than she looked; the least, at any rate, that a prospective mother-in-law could be expected to do with. She would be of all mothers-in-law the most charming; unless indeed, through some perversity as yet insupposeable, she should utterly belie herself in that relation. There was none surely in which, as Maria remembered her, she mustn’t be charming; and this frankly in spite of the stigma of failure in the tie where failure always most showed. It was no test there—when indeed was it a test there?—for Monsieur de Vionnet had been a brute. She had lived for years apart from him—which was of course always a horrid position; but Miss Gostrey’s impression of the matter had been that she could scarce have made a better thing of it had she done it on purpose to show she was amiable. She was so amiable that nobody had had a word to say; which was luckily not the case for her husband. He was so impossible that she had the advantage of all her merits.
It was history that Jeanne’s mother had been twenty-three years ago, in Geneva, a schoolmate and good friend to Maria Gostrey, who had also caught a few glimpses of her since then, although not consistently and especially with a long recent break. Twenty-three years had definitely changed them both; and Madame de Vionnet—who had married right after school—couldn’t be younger than thirty-eight today. This made her ten years older than Chad—though she could also appear ten years younger if Strether wanted to see it that way; at the very least, that was what a future mother-in-law could be expected to be. She would be the most charming of all mothers-in-law; unless, of course, through some unforeseen twist, she completely contradicted that role. There couldn’t be anyone, as Maria remembered her, who wouldn’t be charming in that capacity; and this was especially in spite of the stigma of failure in a relationship where failure usually stood out the most. It was hardly a fair test—when was it a fair test there?—since Monsieur de Vionnet had been a jerk. She had lived apart from him for years—which was always a terrible situation; but Miss Gostrey’s impression was that she couldn’t have handled it any better if she had tried to prove she was pleasant. She was so pleasant that no one could say a word against her; which fortunately wasn’t true for her husband. He was so unbearable that she had the advantage of all her qualities.
It was still history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet—it being also history that the lady in question was a Countess—should now, under Miss Gostrey’s sharp touch, rise before him as a high distinguished polished impertinent reprobate, the product of a mysterious order; it was history, further, that the charming girl so freely sketched by his companion should have been married out of hand by a mother, another figure of striking outline, full of dark personal motive; it was perhaps history most of all that this company was, as a matter of course, governed by such considerations as put divorce out of the question. “Ces gens-là don’t divorce, you know, any more than they emigrate or abjure—they think it impious and vulgar”; a fact in the light of which they seemed but the more richly special. It was all special; it was all, for Strether’s imagination, more or less rich. The girl at the Genevese school, an isolated interesting attaching creature, then both sensitive and violent, audacious but always forgiven, was the daughter of a French father and an English mother who, early left a widow, had married again—tried afresh with a foreigner; in her career with whom she had apparently given her child no example of comfort. All these people—the people of the English mother’s side—had been of condition more or less eminent; yet with oddities and disparities that had often since made Maria, thinking them over, wonder what they really quite rhymed to. It was in any case her belief that the mother, interested and prone to adventure, had been without conscience, had only thought of ridding herself most quickly of a possible, an actual encumbrance. The father, by her impression, a Frenchman with a name one knew, had been a different matter, leaving his child, she clearly recalled, a memory all fondness, as well as an assured little fortune which was unluckily to make her more or less of a prey later on. She had been in particular, at school, dazzlingly, though quite booklessly, clever; as polyglot as a little Jewess (which she wasn’t, oh no!) and chattering French, English, German, Italian, anything one would, in a way that made a clean sweep, if not of prizes and parchments, at least of every “part,” whether memorised or improvised, in the curtained costumed school repertory, and in especial of all mysteries of race and vagueness of reference, all swagger about “home,” among their variegated mates.
It was still a memorable part of history for Strether that the Comte de Vionnet—who was also a Countess—should now, under Miss Gostrey’s sharp observation, appear to him as a highly polished, audacious scoundrel, part of a mysterious elite; it was also quite significant that the charming girl so freely described by his companion had been married off quickly by her mother, another striking figure full of hidden motives; and perhaps most importantly, it was a fact that this group, as a rule, was guided by principles that ruled out divorce. “Those people don’t divorce, you know, just like they don’t emigrate or renounce—they consider it both sinful and tacky,” which only made them seem even more uniquely distinguished. Everything about them was special; for Strether’s imagination, it was all quite rich and fascinating. The girl at the Geneva school, a captivating and intriguing individual, was both sensitive and intense, bold but always forgiven; she was the daughter of a French father and an English mother who, left a widow early on, had remarried—taking a chance with a foreigner; in her relationship with him, she apparently had shown her child no example of comfort. All these people—the mother's English relatives—had been of various notable backgrounds; yet with peculiarities and discrepancies that often left Maria, upon reflection, wondering how they all truly fit together. She believed that the mother, eager for adventure, lacked a sense of morality and was solely focused on quickly getting rid of a potential, and actual, burden. The father, from what she gathered, was a recognizable Frenchman, and he had left his child with a fond memory as well as a decent little inheritance, which unfortunately would make her a target later on. She had been particularly brilliant at school, dazzlingly clever without ever cracking a book; as multilingual as a little Jewish girl (which she certainly wasn’t, oh no!) and fluently chatting in French, English, German, Italian—whatever was needed, sweeping away not just prizes and certificates, but also every role, whether memorized or improvised, in the school’s theatrical productions, especially all the complexities of identity and uncertainties of belonging, amid their diverse peers.
It would doubtless be difficult to-day, as between French and English, to name her and place her; she would certainly show, on knowledge, Miss Gostrey felt, as one of those convenient types who don’t keep you explaining—minds with doors as numerous as the many-tongued cluster of confessionals at Saint Peter’s. You might confess to her with confidence in Roumelian, and even Roumelian sins. Therefore—! But Strether’s narrator covered her implication with a laugh; a laugh by which his betrayal of a sense of the lurid in the picture was also perhaps sufficiently protected. He had a moment of wondering, while his friend went on, what sins might be especially Roumelian. She went on at all events to the mention of her having met the young thing—again by some Swiss lake—in her first married state, which had appeared for the few intermediate years not at least violently disturbed. She had been lovely at that moment, delightful to her, full of responsive emotion, of amused recognitions and amusing reminders, and then once more, much later, after a long interval, equally but differently charming—touching and rather mystifying for the five minutes of an encounter at a railway-station en province, during which it had come out that her life was all changed. Miss Gostrey had understood enough to see, essentially, what had happened, and yet had beautifully dreamed that she was herself faultless. There were doubtless depths in her, but she was all right; Strether would see if she wasn’t. She was another person however—that had been promptly marked—from the small child of nature at the Geneva school, a little person quite made over (as foreign women were, compared with American) by marriage. Her situation too had evidently cleared itself up; there would have been—all that was possible—a judicial separation. She had settled in Paris, brought up her daughter, steered her boat. It was no very pleasant boat—especially there—to be in; but Marie de Vionnet would have headed straight. She would have friends, certainly—and very good ones. There she was at all events—and it was very interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn’t in the least prove she hadn’t friends; what it proved was what good ones he had. “I saw that,” said Miss Gostrey, “that night at the Français; it came out for me in three minutes. I saw her—or somebody like her. And so,” she immediately added, “did you.”
It would definitely be tough today, when considering French and English, to identify and categorize her; she would certainly demonstrate, as Miss Gostrey felt, as one of those convenient types who don’t require much explaining—minds with doors as numerous as the many-tongued cluster of confessionals at Saint Peter’s. You could confess to her confidently in Roumelian, even about Roumelian sins. Therefore—! But Strether’s narrator covered her implication with a laugh; a laugh that perhaps also protected his acknowledgment of the lurid aspects in the picture. He briefly wondered, while his friend continued, what sins might be particularly Roumelian. She moved on to mention having met the young woman—again by some Swiss lake—in her first married state, which had seemed at least not violently disturbed during the few intermediate years. She had been lovely at that moment, delightful to her, full of responsive emotions, amused recognitions, and amusing reminders. Then, much later, after a long interval, she had been equally but differently charming—touching and somewhat mystifying for the five minutes of an encounter at a railway station en province, during which it came out that her life had completely changed. Miss Gostrey had understood enough to grasp, essentially, what had transpired, yet she had wonderfully fantasized that she was completely faultless. There were definitely depths to her, but she was fine; Strether would see if she wasn't. She was a different person, however—that had been quickly noted—from the little child of nature at the Geneva school, a little person entirely transformed (as foreign women were, compared to Americans) by marriage. Her situation had evidently improved; there would have been—all that was possible—a legal separation. She had settled in Paris, raised her daughter, and navigated her life. It was not a very pleasant situation—especially there—but Marie de Vionnet would have directed her path straight. She would have friends, certainly—very good ones. There she was, and it was all very interesting. Her knowing Mr. Chad didn’t at all indicate she lacked friends; what it proved was how good his friends were. “I realized that,” said Miss Gostrey, “that night at the Français; it became clear to me in three minutes. I saw her—or someone like her. And so,” she immediately added, “did you.”
“Oh no—not anybody like her!” Strether laughed. “But you mean,” he as promptly went on, “that she has had such an influence on him?”
“Oh no—not anyone like her!” Strether laughed. “But you mean,” he quickly continued, “that she has had that much of an impact on him?”
Miss Gostrey was on her feet; it was time for them to go. “She has brought him up for her daughter.”
Miss Gostrey was standing; it was time for them to leave. “She raised him for her daughter.”
Their eyes, as so often, in candid conference, through their settled glasses, met over it long; after which Strether’s again took in the whole place. They were quite alone there now. “Mustn’t she rather—in the time then—have rushed it?”
Their eyes, as usual, in open discussion, met over it for a long time, through their glasses. After that, Strether took in the whole scene again. They were completely alone there now. “Shouldn’t she have, like, rushed it during that time?”
“Ah she won’t of course have lost an hour. But that’s just the good mother—the good French one. You must remember that of her—that as a mother she’s French, and that for them there’s a special providence. It precisely however—that she mayn’t have been able to begin as far back as she’d have liked—makes her grateful for aid.”
“Ah, she definitely hasn’t lost an hour. But that’s just how a good mother is—the good French kind. You have to remember that about her—that as a mother she’s French, and for them, there’s a special sense of care. It’s precisely that she might not have been able to start as early as she wanted—that makes her thankful for help.”
Strether took this in as they slowly moved to the house on their way out. “She counts on me then to put the thing through?”
Strether processed this as they made their way to the house. “So, she’s relying on me to get it done?”
“Yes—she counts on you. Oh and first of all of course,” Miss Gostrey added, “on her—well, convincing you.”
“Yes—she relies on you. Oh, and first of all, of course,” Miss Gostrey added, “on her—well, persuading you.”
“Ah,” her friend returned, “she caught Chad young!”
“Ah,” her friend replied, “she got Chad when he was young!”
“Yes, but there are women who are for all your ‘times of life.’ They’re the most wonderful sort.”
“Yes, but there are women who are there for you in every stage of your life. They’re the most amazing kind.”
She had laughed the words out, but they brought her companion, the next thing, to a stand. “Is what you mean that she’ll try to make a fool of me?”
She had laughed the words out, but they stopped her companion in his tracks. “Are you saying that she’s going to try to embarrass me?”
“Well, I’m wondering what she will—with an opportunity—make.”
“Well, I’m curious about what she will—with an opportunity—create.”
“What do you call,” Strether asked, “an opportunity? My going to see her?”
“What do you call,” Strether asked, “an opportunity? Me going to see her?”
“Ah you must go to see her”—Miss Gostrey was a trifle evasive. “You can’t not do that. You’d have gone to see the other woman. I mean if there had been one—a different sort. It’s what you came out for.”
“Ah, you have to go see her,” Miss Gostrey said, slightly evasive. “You can’t not do that. You would have gone to see the other woman. I mean, if there had been one—someone different. It’s what you came out for.”
It might be; but Strether distinguished. “I didn’t come out to see this sort.”
It might be; but Strether made a distinction. “I didn’t come out to see this kind.”
She had a wonderful look at him now. “Are you disappointed she isn’t worse?”
She had a great view of him now. “Are you disappointed she’s not worse?”
He for a moment entertained the question, then found for it the frankest of answers. “Yes. If she were worse she’d be better for our purpose. It would be simpler.”
He briefly considered the question and then gave the most straightforward answer. “Yes. If she were worse, she’d actually be better for what we need. It would make things easier.”
“Perhaps,” she admitted. “But won’t this be pleasanter?”
“Maybe,” she admitted. “But won’t this be nicer?”
“Ah you know,” he promptly replied, “I didn’t come out—wasn’t that just what you originally reproached me with?—for the pleasant.”
“Ah, you know,” he quickly replied, “I didn’t come out—wasn’t that exactly what you initially criticized me for?—for something enjoyable.”
“Precisely. Therefore I say again what I said at first. You must take things as they come. Besides,” Miss Gostrey added, “I’m not afraid for myself.”
“Exactly. So I reiterate what I said earlier. You have to deal with things as they happen. Besides,” Miss Gostrey added, “I’m not worried about myself.”
“For yourself—?”
"For you—?"
“Of your seeing her. I trust her. There’s nothing she’ll say about me. In fact there’s nothing she can.”
“About your seeing her. I trust her. She won’t say anything about me. In fact, there’s nothing she can.”
Strether wondered—little as he had thought of this. Then he broke out. “Oh you women!”
Strether thought about this for a moment, even though he hadn't given it much consideration before. Then he exclaimed, “Oh you women!”
There was something in it at which she flushed. “Yes—there we are. We’re abysses.” At last she smiled. “But I risk her!”
There was something in it that made her blush. “Yeah—there we are. We’re like deep pits.” Finally, she smiled. “But I'm taking a chance on her!”
He gave himself a shake. “Well then so do I!” But he added as they passed into the house that he would see Chad the first thing in the morning.
He shook himself. “Well, so do I!” But he added as they walked into the house that he would see Chad first thing in the morning.
This was the next day the more easily effected that the young man, as it happened, even before he was down, turned up at his hotel. Strether took his coffee, by habit, in the public room; but on his descending for this purpose Chad instantly proposed an adjournment to what he called greater privacy. He had himself as yet had nothing—they would sit down somewhere together; and when after a few steps and a turn into the Boulevard they had, for their greater privacy, sat down among twenty others, our friend saw in his companion’s move a fear of the advent of Waymarsh. It was the first time Chad had to that extent given this personage “away”; and Strether found himself wondering of what it was symptomatic. He made out in a moment that the youth was in earnest as he hadn’t yet seen him; which in its turn threw a ray perhaps a trifle startling on what they had each up to that time been treating as earnestness. It was sufficiently flattering however that the real thing—if this was at last the real thing—should have been determined, as appeared, precisely by an accretion of Strether’s importance. For this was what it quickly enough came to—that Chad, rising with the lark, had rushed down to let him know while his morning consciousness was yet young that he had literally made the afternoon before a tremendous impression. Madame de Vionnet wouldn’t, couldn’t rest till she should have some assurance from him that he would consent again to see her. The announcement was made, across their marble-topped table, while the foam of the hot milk was in their cups and its plash still in the air, with the smile of Chad’s easiest urbanity; and this expression of his face caused our friend’s doubts to gather on the spot into a challenge of the lips. “See here”—that was all; he only for the moment said again “See here.” Chad met it with all his air of straight intelligence, while Strether remembered again that fancy of the first impression of him, the happy young Pagan, handsome and hard but oddly indulgent, whose mysterious measure he had under the street-lamp tried mentally to take. The young Pagan, while a long look passed between them, sufficiently understood. Strether scarce needed at last to say the rest—“I want to know where I am.” But he said it, adding before any answer something more. “Are you engaged to be married—is that your secret?—to the young lady?”
The next day, things moved quickly as the young man, coincidentally, showed up at his hotel even before getting out of bed. Strether usually took his coffee in the public lounge, but as he headed down for it, Chad quickly suggested they find a more private spot. Chad hadn’t eaten yet; they should sit somewhere together. After a few steps and a turn onto the Boulevard, they settled down among a crowd of others for their "greater privacy," and Strether noticed that Chad was trying to avoid a possible encounter with Waymarsh. This was the first time Chad had openly acknowledged Waymarsh, and Strether started to wonder what it meant. He quickly realized that Chad was serious in a way he hadn't seen before, which made him reconsider what they both had previously regarded as seriousness. It was surprisingly flattering that this real sincerity—if this indeed was the real thing—seemed to be triggered by increasing Strether's significance in Chad’s eyes. Chad had gotten up early just to rush down and tell him, while he was still fresh in the morning, that he had made a huge impression the afternoon before. Madame de Vionnet wouldn’t rest until she got reassurance from him that he would agree to see her again. He shared this news over their marble-topped table while they sipped on hot milk, with foam still swirling in their cups. Chad's relaxed smile ignited a challenge in Strether’s expression. “See here”—that was all; he just repeated “See here” for the moment. Chad responded with his usual straightforwardness, while Strether remembered his initial impression of Chad—the cheerful young man, attractive but curiously lenient, whose elusive nature he had tried to gauge under the streetlamp. During the long gaze they exchanged, the young man grasped the situation well enough. Strether hardly needed to say more—“I want to know where I stand.” But he said it anyway, adding something before Chad could respond. “Are you engaged to be married—is that your secret?—to the young lady?”
Chad shook his head with the slow amenity that was one of his ways of conveying that there was time for everything. “I have no secret—though I may have secrets! I haven’t at any rate that one. We’re not engaged. No.”
Chad shook his head slowly, one of his ways of showing that there was time for everything. “I don’t have a secret—though I might have secrets! I definitely don’t have that one. We’re not engaged. No.”
“Then where’s the hitch?”
“Then what's the catch?”
“Do you mean why I haven’t already started with you?” Chad, beginning his coffee and buttering his roll, was quite ready to explain. “Nothing would have induced me—nothing will still induce me—not to try to keep you here as long as you can be made to stay. It’s too visibly good for you.” Strether had himself plenty to say about this, but it was amusing also to measure the march of Chad’s tone. He had never been more a man of the world, and it was always in his company present to our friend that one was seeing how in successive connexions a man of the world acquitted himself. Chad kept it up beautifully. “My idea—voyons!—is simply that you should let Madame de Vionnet know you, simply that you should consent to know her. I don’t in the least mind telling you that, clever and charming as she is, she’s ever so much in my confidence. All I ask of you is to let her talk to you. You’ve asked me about what you call my hitch, and so far as it goes she’ll explain it to you. She’s herself my hitch, hang it—if you must really have it all out. But in a sense,” he hastened in the most wonderful manner to add, “that you’ll quite make out for yourself. She’s too good a friend, confound her. Too good, I mean, for me to leave without—without—” It was his first hesitation.
“Are you asking why I haven’t started working with you yet?” Chad was getting into his coffee and buttering his roll, clearly ready to explain. “Nothing would have convinced me—nothing will still convince me—not to try to keep you here for as long as possible. It’s just too good for you.” Strether had plenty to say about this, but it was also amusing to notice the shift in Chad's tone. He had never been more worldly, and it was always in Chad's presence that one could see how a man of the world carried himself in different situations. Chad was doing it exceptionally well. “My idea—voyons!—is simply that you should meet Madame de Vionnet, just that you should agree to get to know her. I don’t mind telling you that, as clever and charming as she is, she’s very much in my confidence. All I ask is that you let her talk to you. You’ve asked me about what you call my hitch, and to some extent, she’ll explain it to you. She’s my hitch, for goodness’ sake—if you really need to know. But in a way,” he quickly added in a remarkable manner, “that you’ll figure out for yourself. She’s too good a friend, darn it. Too good, I mean, for me to leave without—without—” He hesitated for the first time.
“Without what?”
"Without what?"
“Well, without my arranging somehow or other the damnable terms of my sacrifice.”
“Well, unless I can find a way to manage the horrible terms of my sacrifice.”
“It will be a sacrifice then?”
“Is it going to be a sacrifice then?”
“It will be the greatest loss I ever suffered. I owe her so much.”
“It will be the biggest loss I’ve ever experienced. I owe her so much.”
It was beautiful, the way Chad said these things, and his plea was now confessedly—oh quite flagrantly and publicly—interesting. The moment really took on for Strether an intensity. Chad owed Madame de Vionnet so much? What did that do then but clear up the whole mystery? He was indebted for alterations, and she was thereby in a position to have sent in her bill for expenses incurred in reconstruction. What was this at bottom but what had been to be arrived at? Strether sat there arriving at it while he munched toast and stirred his second cup. To do this with the aid of Chad’s pleasant earnest face was also to do more besides. No, never before had he been so ready to take him as he was. What was it that had suddenly so cleared up? It was just everybody’s character; that is everybody’s but—in a measure—his own. Strether felt his character receive for the instant a smutch from all the wrong things he had suspected or believed. The person to whom Chad owed it that he could positively turn out such a comfort to other persons—such a person was sufficiently raised above any “breath” by the nature of her work and the young man’s steady light. All of which was vivid enough to come and go quickly; though indeed in the midst of it Strether could utter a question. “Have I your word of honour that if I surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet you’ll surrender yourself to me?”
It was beautiful how Chad expressed these things, and his plea was now openly—oh, quite boldly and publicly—interesting. The moment took on a certain intensity for Strether. Chad owed so much to Madame de Vionnet? What did that do but solve the whole mystery? He was indebted for changes, and she was in a position to have sent in her bill for expenses incurred during the reconstruction. Wasn’t this ultimately what they were getting at? Strether sat there figuring it out while he munched on toast and stirred his second cup. Doing this with Chad’s pleasant, serious face made it even more significant. No, he had never been so ready to accept him just as he was. What had suddenly become so clear? It was just everyone’s character; that is, everyone’s but—at least to some extent—his own. Strether felt his character momentarily tarnished by all the misconceptions and beliefs he had held. The person to whom Chad owed it that he could genuinely be such a comfort to others—such a person was elevated far above any “gossip” because of her work and the young man’s steady light. All of this was vivid enough to come and go quickly; yet in the midst of it, Strether could still ask, “Do I have your word of honor that if I surrender myself to Madame de Vionnet, you’ll surrender yourself to me?”
Chad laid his hand firmly on his friend’s. “My dear man, you have it.”
Chad put his hand securely on his friend's. “My good man, you have it.”
There was finally something in his felicity almost embarrassing and oppressive—Strether had begun to fidget under it for the open air and the erect posture. He had signed to the waiter that he wished to pay, and this transaction took some moments, during which he thoroughly felt, while he put down money and pretended—it was quite hollow—to estimate change, that Chad’s higher spirit, his youth, his practice, his paganism, his felicity, his assurance, his impudence, whatever it might be, had consciously scored a success. Well, that was all right so far as it went; his sense of the thing in question covered our friend for a minute like a veil through which—as if he had been muffled—he heard his interlocutor ask him if he mightn’t take him over about five. “Over” was over the river, and over the river was where Madame de Vionnet lived, and five was that very afternoon. They got at last out of the place—got out before he answered. He lighted, in the street, a cigarette, which again gave him more time. But it was already sharp for him that there was no use in time. “What does she propose to do to me?” he had presently demanded.
There was finally something in his happiness that felt almost embarrassing and overwhelming—Strether started to fidget under it, craving fresh air and an upright position. He had signaled to the waiter that he wanted to pay, and this took a few moments, during which he distinctly felt, as he handed over money and pretended—though it was pretty empty—to calculate the change, that Chad’s elevated spirit, his youth, his experience, his carefree nature, his happiness, his confidence, his boldness, whatever it was, had clearly achieved success. Well, that was fine as far as it went; for a moment, his awareness of what was happening enveloped our friend like a veil, through which—almost as if he had been muffled—he heard his companion ask him if he’d like to go over in about five. “Over” meant over the river, where Madame de Vionnet lived, and five meant that very afternoon. They finally got out of the place—left before he answered. He lit a cigarette in the street, which bought him a bit more time. But it was already clear to him that time was pointless. “What does she want to do to me?” he eventually asked.
Chad had no delays. “Are you afraid of her?”
Chad didn’t waste any time. “Are you scared of her?”
“Oh immensely. Don’t you see it?”
“Oh definitely. Can’t you see it?”
“Well,” said Chad, “she won’t do anything worse to you than make you like her.”
"Well," Chad said, "she won't do anything worse to you than make you like her."
“It’s just of that I’m afraid.”
"I'm just scared."
“Then it’s not fair to me.”
“Then that’s not fair to me.”
Strether cast about. “It’s fair to your mother.”
Strether looked around. “It’s fair to your mom.”
“Oh,” said Chad, “are you afraid of her?”
“Oh,” Chad said, “are you scared of her?”
“Scarcely less. Or perhaps even more. But is this lady against your interests at home?” Strether went on.
“Hardly less. Or maybe even more. But is this woman a threat to your interests at home?” Strether continued.
“Not directly, no doubt; but she’s greatly in favour of them here.”
“Not directly, for sure; but she really supports them here.”
“And what—‘here’—does she consider them to be?”
“And what—‘here’—does she think they are?”
“Well, good relations!”
"Well, great connections!"
“With herself?”
"With herself?"
“With herself.”
“With herself.”
“And what is it that makes them so good?”
“And what is it that makes them so great?”
“What? Well, that’s exactly what you’ll make out if you’ll only go, as I’m supplicating you, to see her.”
“What? Well, that’s exactly what you’ll understand if you would just go, as I’m urging you, to see her.”
Strether stared at him with a little of the wanness, no doubt, that the vision of more to “make out” could scarce help producing. “I mean how good are they?”
Strether looked at him with a hint of awkwardness, certainly because the idea of discovering more could hardly avoid causing it. “I mean how good are they?”
“Oh awfully good.”
“Oh really good.”
Again Strether had faltered, but it was brief. It was all very well, but there was nothing now he wouldn’t risk. “Excuse me, but I must really—as I began by telling you—know where I am. Is she bad?”
Again, Strether hesitated, but it was only for a moment. It was fine, but there was nothing he wouldn't risk now. “Excuse me, but I really—I mentioned this at the start—need to know where I stand. Is she in bad shape?”
“‘Bad’?”—Chad echoed it, but without a shock. “Is that what’s implied—?”
“‘Bad’?”—Chad repeated it, but without surprise. “Is that what’s meant—?”
“When relations are good?” Strether felt a little silly, and was even conscious of a foolish laugh, at having it imposed on him to have appeared to speak so. What indeed was he talking about? His stare had relaxed; he looked now all round him. But something in him brought him back, though he still didn’t know quite how to turn it. The two or three ways he thought of, and one of them in particular, were, even with scruples dismissed, too ugly. He none the less at last found something. “Is her life without reproach?”
“When relations are good?” Strether felt a bit silly and even aware of a foolish laugh at being made to sound like he was saying that. What exactly was he talking about? His gaze had softened; he looked around him now. But something inside him pulled him back, even though he still didn’t quite know how to express it. The two or three directions he considered, especially one in particular, were, even with his doubts set aside, too unpleasant. Still, he eventually found something to say. “Is her life without reproach?”
It struck him, directly he had found it, as pompous and priggish; so much so that he was thankful to Chad for taking it only in the right spirit. The young man spoke so immensely to the point that the effect was practically of positive blandness. “Absolutely without reproach. A beautiful life. Allez donc voir!”
It hit him right away that it felt pompous and pretentious; so much so that he was grateful to Chad for taking it in the right way. The young man was so straight to the point that it almost came off as completely neutral. “Absolutely without blame. A beautiful life. Go and see!”
These last words were, in the liberality of their confidence, so imperative that Strether went through no form of assent; but before they separated it had been confirmed that he should be picked up at a quarter to five.
These last words were so confident and commanding that Strether didn’t bother to agree verbally; but before they parted ways, it was settled that he would be picked up at a quarter to five.
Book Sixth
I
It was quite by half-past five—after the two men had been together in Madame de Vionnet’s drawing-room not more than a dozen minutes—that Chad, with a look at his watch and then another at their hostess, said genially, gaily: “I’ve an engagement, and I know you won’t complain if I leave him with you. He’ll interest you immensely; and as for her,” he declared to Strether, “I assure you, if you’re at all nervous, she’s perfectly safe.”
It was just around half-past five—after the two men had spent no more than ten minutes together in Madame de Vionnet’s living room—that Chad, glancing at his watch and then at their hostess, said cheerfully, “I have to go, and I’m sure you won’t mind if I leave him with you. He’ll really interest you; and as for her,” he said to Strether, “I promise you, if you’re feeling a bit uneasy, she’s totally trustworthy.”
He had left them to be embarrassed or not by this guarantee, as they could best manage, and embarrassment was a thing that Strether wasn’t at first sure Madame de Vionnet escaped. He escaped it himself, to his surprise; but he had grown used by this time to thinking of himself as brazen. She occupied, his hostess, in the Rue de Bellechasse, the first floor of an old house to which our visitors had had access from an old clean court. The court was large and open, full of revelations, for our friend, of the habit of privacy, the peace of intervals, the dignity of distances and approaches; the house, to his restless sense, was in the high homely style of an elder day, and the ancient Paris that he was always looking for—sometimes intensely felt, sometimes more acutely missed—was in the immemorial polish of the wide waxed staircase and in the fine boiseries, the medallions, mouldings, mirrors, great clear spaces, of the greyish-white salon into which he had been shown. He seemed at the very outset to see her in the midst of possessions not vulgarly numerous, but hereditary cherished charming. While his eyes turned after a little from those of his hostess and Chad freely talked—not in the least about him, but about other people, people he didn’t know, and quite as if he did know them—he found himself making out, as a background of the occupant, some glory, some prosperity of the First Empire, some Napoleonic glamour, some dim lustre of the great legend; elements clinging still to all the consular chairs and mythological brasses and sphinxes’ heads and faded surfaces of satin striped with alternate silk.
He had left them to deal with any embarrassment from this guarantee as best they could, and at first, Strether wasn't sure if Madame de Vionnet felt embarrassed at all. To his surprise, he didn’t feel embarrassed himself; by this time, he had gotten used to thinking of himself as bold. She was his hostess on the first floor of an old house in the Rue de Bellechasse, which the visitors accessed from a large, clean courtyard. The courtyard was spacious and open, revealing a lot about his friend, who was used to being private, valuing peaceful moments, and appreciating the dignity of distance and approach. To his restless perception, the house was styled in a warm, homely way from an earlier time, and the ancient Paris he always sought—sometimes intensely felt, sometimes painfully missed—was present in the well-maintained wide waxed staircase and the exquisite woodwork, medallions, moldings, mirrors, and spaciousness of the grayish-white salon where he had been welcomed. Right away, he seemed to see her surrounded by possessions that weren't overly abundant but were family treasures, charming and cherished. As his gaze drifted from his hostess and Chad spoke freely—not at all about him, but about other people he didn’t know, as if he did—he found himself piecing together a backdrop for the occupant, some glory, some prosperity of the First Empire, some Napoleonic charm, some faint glow of the grand legend; elements still attached to all the consular chairs, mythological brass pieces, sphinx heads, and faded satin surfaces striped with alternating silk.
The place itself went further back—that he guessed, and how old Paris continued in a manner to echo there; but the post-revolutionary period, the world he vaguely thought of as the world of Châteaubriand, of Madame de Staël, even of the young Lamartine, had left its stamp of harps and urns and torches, a stamp impressed on sundry small objects, ornaments and relics. He had never before, to his knowledge, had present to him relics, of any special dignity, of a private order—little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books in leather bindings, pinkish and greenish, with gilt garlands on the back, ranged, together with other promiscuous properties, under the glass of brass-mounted cabinets. His attention took them all tenderly into account. They were among the matters that marked Madame de Vionnet’s apartment as something quite different from Miss Gostrey’s little museum of bargains and from Chad’s lovely home; he recognised it as founded much more on old accumulations that had possibly from time to time shrunken than on any contemporary method of acquisition or form of curiosity. Chad and Miss Gostrey had rummaged and purchased and picked up and exchanged, sifting, selecting, comparing; whereas the mistress of the scene before him, beautifully passive under the spell of transmission—transmission from her father’s line, he quite made up his mind—had only received, accepted and been quiet. When she hadn’t been quiet she had been moved at the most to some occult charity for some fallen fortune. There had been objects she or her predecessors might even conceivably have parted with under need, but Strether couldn’t suspect them of having sold old pieces to get “better” ones. They would have felt no difference as to better or worse. He could but imagine their having felt—perhaps in emigration, in proscription, for his sketch was slight and confused—the pressure of want or the obligation of sacrifice.
The place itself seemed to stretch back in time—he sensed that, and how old Paris still echoed there; but the post-revolutionary period, the world he vaguely associated with Châteaubriand, Madame de Staël, and the young Lamartine, had left its mark of harps, urns, and torches, a mark captured in various small items, ornaments, and relics. He had never before, to his knowledge, encountered relics of any special significance, of a personal kind—little old miniatures, medallions, pictures, books; books with leather covers, pink and green, adorned with gilt patterns on the spine, arranged alongside other assorted items beneath the glass of brass-mounted cabinets. He regarded them all with tender consideration. They distinguished Madame de Vionnet’s apartment as something entirely different from Miss Gostrey’s little collection of deals and from Chad’s beautiful home; he recognized it as being built more on old accumulations that may have shrunk over time than on any modern approach to acquiring or collecting. Chad and Miss Gostrey had rummaged, shopped, picked up and exchanged, sorting, selecting, comparing; whereas the woman before him, beautifully passive under the influence of inheritance—inheritance from her father’s line, he was sure—had simply received, accepted, and remained still. When she wasn’t still, she had only been moved to some quiet act of kindness for someone in a falling situation. There may have been items she or her predecessors could have sold out of necessity, but Strether couldn’t imagine them selling old pieces to obtain “better” ones. They wouldn’t have perceived any difference between better or worse. He could only envision them having felt—perhaps during an emigration or exile, as his understanding was vague and muddled—the pressure of need or the duty of sacrifice.
The pressure of want—whatever might be the case with the other force—was, however, presumably not active now, for the tokens of a chastened ease still abounded after all, many marks of a taste whose discriminations might perhaps have been called eccentric. He guessed at intense little preferences and sharp little exclusions, a deep suspicion of the vulgar and a personal view of the right. The general result of this was something for which he had no name on the spot quite ready, but something he would have come nearest to naming in speaking of it as the air of supreme respectability, the consciousness, small, still, reserved, but none the less distinct and diffused, of private honour. The air of supreme respectability—that was a strange blank wall for his adventure to have brought him to break his nose against. It had in fact, as he was now aware, filled all the approaches, hovered in the court as he passed, hung on the staircase as he mounted, sounded in the grave rumble of the old bell, as little electric as possible, of which Chad, at the door, had pulled the ancient but neatly-kept tassel; it formed in short the clearest medium of its particular kind that he had ever breathed. He would have answered for it at the end of a quarter of an hour that some of the glass cases contained swords and epaulettes of ancient colonels and generals; medals and orders once pinned over hearts that had long since ceased to beat; snuff-boxes bestowed on ministers and envoys; copies of works presented, with inscriptions, by authors now classic. At bottom of it all for him was the sense of her rare unlikeness to the women he had known. This sense had grown, since the day before, the more he recalled her, and had been above all singularly fed by his talk with Chad in the morning. Everything in fine made her immeasurably new, and nothing so new as the old house and the old objects. There were books, two or three, on a small table near his chair, but they hadn’t the lemon-coloured covers with which his eye had begun to dally from the hour of his arrival and to the opportunity of a further acquaintance with which he had for a fortnight now altogether succumbed. On another table, across the room, he made out the great Revue; but even that familiar face, conspicuous in Mrs. Newsome’s parlours, scarce counted here as a modern note. He was sure on the spot—and he afterwards knew he was right—that this was a touch of Chad’s own hand. What would Mrs. Newsome say to the circumstance that Chad’s interested “influence” kept her paper-knife in the Revue? The interested influence at any rate had, as we say, gone straight to the point—had in fact soon left it quite behind.
The pressure of wanting—whatever the situation with the other force—was probably not present right now, because signs of a calm comfort were everywhere; there were many signs of a taste that might be called quirky. He sensed strong little preferences and sharp little exclusions, a deep distrust of the ordinary, and a personal idea of what's right. The overall impression created something he didn't quite have a name for on the spot, but he would have come closest to describing it as an atmosphere of ultimate respectability, a sense—small, still, reserved, yet clearly present and spread out—of personal honor. That atmosphere of ultimate respectability was an odd, solid barrier for his adventure to have led him to bump up against. In fact, as he now realized, it had filled all the entries, lingered in the courtyard as he walked by, hung over the staircase as he ascended, and echoed in the deep rumble of the old bell, as little electrifying as possible, which Chad had tugged at the door with the ancient but well-maintained tassel; it formed, in short, the clearest medium of its kind that he had ever inhaled. He would have bet, after fifteen minutes, that some of the glass cases held swords and epaulettes from long-gone colonels and generals; medals and honors once pinned over hearts that no longer beat; snuff-boxes given to ministers and envoys; copies of books gifted, with inscriptions, by authors now considered classics. At the core of it all for him was the feeling of her rare difference from the women he had known. This feeling had intensified since the day before, especially fueled by his conversation with Chad that morning. Everything combined made her incredibly fresh, and nothing was so fresh as the old house and the old objects. There were a few books on a small table near his chair, but they didn’t have the lemon-yellow covers that had caught his eye since he arrived, and he had entirely given in to the chance of getting to know them better over the past two weeks. On another table across the room, he spotted the big Revue; but even that familiar image, prominent in Mrs. Newsome’s parlor, hardly felt modern here. He was sure in the moment—and later confirmed he was correct—that this was a touch of Chad’s own influence. What would Mrs. Newsome think about the fact that Chad’s interested “influence” kept her paper knife in the Revue? The interested influence, at least, had, as we say, gone straight to the point—had in fact soon moved right past it.
She was seated, near the fire, on a small stuffed and fringed chair one of the few modern articles in the room, and she leaned back in it with her hands clasped in her lap and no movement, in all her person, but the fine prompt play of her deep young face. The fire, under the low white marble, undraped and academic, had burnt down to the silver ashes of light wood, one of the windows, at a distance, stood open to the mildness and stillness, out of which, in the short pauses, came the faint sound, pleasant and homely, almost rustic, of a plash and a clatter of sabots from some coach-house on the other side of the court. Madame de Vionnet, while Strether sat there, wasn’t to shift her posture by an inch. “I don’t think you seriously believe in what you’re doing,” she said; “but all the same, you know, I’m going to treat you quite as if I did.”
She was sitting by the fire in a small, cushioned chair with fringing, one of the few modern pieces in the room. She leaned back with her hands clasped in her lap, completely still, except for the subtle movement of her expressive young face. The fire, beneath the low, plain white marble, had burned down to silver ashes of light wood. One of the windows was open to the gentle stillness outside, and in the brief pauses, you could hear the faint, comforting sounds of wooden shoes clattering from a coach house on the other side of the courtyard. While Strether was there, Madame de Vionnet didn’t change her position at all. “I don’t think you really believe in what you’re doing,” she said, “but still, I’m going to treat you as if you do.”
“By which you mean,” Strether directly replied, “quite as if you didn’t! I assure you it won’t make the least difference with me how you treat me.”
“By which you mean,” Strether replied directly, “just like you didn’t! I promise you it won’t make any difference to me how you treat me.”
“Well,” she said, taking that menace bravely and philosophically enough, “the only thing that really matters is that you shall get on with me.”
“Well,” she said, facing that threat bravely and with a philosophical mindset, “the only thing that really matters is that you get along with me.”
“Ah but I don’t!” he immediately returned.
“Ah, but I don’t!” he quickly replied.
It gave her another pause; which, however, she happily enough shook off. “Will you consent to go on with me a little—provisionally—as if you did?”
It made her hesitate again; but she quickly brushed it off. “Will you agree to continue with me for a bit—just temporarily—as if you wanted to?”
Then it was that he saw how she had decidedly come all the way; and there accompanied it an extraordinary sense of her raising from somewhere below him her beautiful suppliant eyes. He might have been perched at his door-step or at his window and she standing in the road. For a moment he let her stand and couldn’t moreover have spoken. It had been sad, of a sudden, with a sadness that was like a cold breath in his face. “What can I do,” he finally asked, “but listen to you as I promised Chadwick?”
Then he realized how she had genuinely come all the way; and with that came an incredible feeling of her beautiful pleading eyes looking up at him. It was as if he were sitting on his doorstep or at his window while she stood in the road. For a moment, he let her stand there and couldn’t find the words to speak. It had unexpectedly turned sad, with a sadness that felt like a cold breeze against his face. “What can I do,” he finally asked, “but listen to you like I promised Chadwick?”
“Ah but what I’m asking you,” she quickly said, “isn’t what Mr. Newsome had in mind.” She spoke at present, he saw, as if to take courageously all her risk. “This is my own idea and a different thing.”
“Ah, but what I’m asking you,” she quickly said, “isn’t what Mr. Newsome had in mind.” She spoke now, he saw, as if to bravely take on all her risk. “This is my own idea and something different.”
It gave poor Strether in truth—uneasy as it made him too—something of the thrill of a bold perception justified. “Well,” he answered kindly enough, “I was sure a moment since that some idea of your own had come to you.”
It actually gave poor Strether—though it made him uneasy—some of the excitement of a bold realization being confirmed. “Well,” he replied kindly enough, “I was just thinking that you must have come up with an idea of your own.”
She seemed still to look up at him, but now more serenely. “I made out you were sure—and that helped it to come. So you see,” she continued, “we do get on.”
She seemed to look up at him again, but now with more calmness. “I realized you were confident—and that helped it happen. So you see,” she continued, “we're making progress.”
“Oh but it appears to me I don’t at all meet your request. How can I when I don’t understand it?”
“Oh, but it seems to me that I don’t really meet your request at all. How can I when I don’t understand it?”
“It isn’t at all necessary you should understand; it will do quite well enough if you simply remember it. Only feel I trust you—and for nothing so tremendous after all. Just,” she said with a wonderful smile, “for common civility.”
“It’s not necessary for you to understand; it’s enough if you just remember it. Just feel that I trust you—and it’s not such a big deal after all. Just,” she said with a beautiful smile, “for basic politeness.”
Strether had a long pause while they sat again face to face, as they had sat, scarce less conscious, before the poor lady had crossed the stream. She was the poor lady for Strether now because clearly she had some trouble, and her appeal to him could only mean that her trouble was deep. He couldn’t help it; it wasn’t his fault; he had done nothing; but by a turn of the hand she had somehow made their encounter a relation. And the relation profited by a mass of things that were not strictly in it or of it; by the very air in which they sat, by the high cold delicate room, by the world outside and the little plash in the court, by the First Empire and the relics in the stiff cabinets, by matters as far off as those and by others as near as the unbroken clasp of her hands in her lap and the look her expression had of being most natural when her eyes were most fixed. “You count upon me of course for something really much greater than it sounds.”
Strether paused for a long time while they sat face to face again, just as they had before the unfortunate lady had crossed the stream. She was the unfortunate lady to Strether now because it was obvious she was dealing with some issues, and her reaching out to him could only mean that her problems ran deep. He couldn’t help it; it wasn’t his fault; he hadn’t done anything; but somehow, with just a gesture, she had turned their encounter into a connection. And this connection was enriched by many things that weren’t directly part of it; by the very air around them, the high, cold, delicate room, the world outside, and the gentle sound of water in the courtyard, by the First Empire and the artifacts in the rigid cabinets, by matters as distant as those and others as close as her hands tightly clasped in her lap and the look that crossed her face, which seemed most natural when her eyes were most focused. “You can count on me, of course, for something really much bigger than it sounds.”
“Oh it sounds great enough too!” she laughed at this.
“Oh, it sounds amazing too!” she laughed at this.
He found himself in time on the point of telling her that she was, as Miss Barrace called it, wonderful; but, catching himself up, he said something else instead. “What was it Chad’s idea then that you should say to me?”
He eventually almost told her that she was, as Miss Barrace put it, amazing; but then he stopped himself and said something else instead. “So what was Chad's idea for you to say to me?”
“Ah his idea was simply what a man’s idea always is—to put every effort off on the woman.”
“Ah, his idea was just like any man's idea—to shift all the responsibility onto the woman.”
“The ‘woman’—?” Strether slowly echoed.
“The ‘woman’—?” Strether slowly repeated.
“The woman he likes—and just in proportion as he likes her. In proportion too—for shifting the trouble—as she likes him.”
“The woman he likes—and just as much as he likes her. It also depends on how much she likes him.”
Strether followed it; then with an abruptness of his own: “How much do you like Chad?”
Strether followed it; then suddenly, he asked, “How much do you like Chad?”
“Just as much as that—to take all, with you, on myself.” But she got at once again away from this. “I’ve been trembling as if we were to stand or fall by what you may think of me; and I’m even now,” she went on wonderfully, “drawing a long breath—and, yes, truly taking a great courage—from the hope that I don’t in fact strike you as impossible.”
“Just as much as that—to take everything, with you, on my own terms.” But she immediately moved away from that thought again. “I’ve been shaking as if everything depends on how you see me; and even now,” she continued remarkably, “I’m taking a deep breath—and, yes, honestly finding a lot of courage—from the hope that I don’t actually seem impossible to you.”
“That’s at all events, clearly,” he observed after an instant, “the way I don’t strike you.”
“That’s for sure,” he said after a moment, “that’s not how I come across to you.”
“Well,” she so far assented, “as you haven’t yet said you won’t have the little patience with me I ask for—”
“Well,” she agreed, “since you haven’t said you won’t be a little patient with me like I’m asking—”
“You draw splendid conclusions? Perfectly. But I don’t understand them,” Strether pursued. “You seem to me to ask for much more than you need. What, at the worst for you, what at the best for myself, can I after all do? I can use no pressure that I haven’t used. You come really late with your request. I’ve already done all that for myself the case admits of. I’ve said my say, and here I am.”
“You make great conclusions? Awesome. But I don’t get them,” Strether continued. “It seems to me you’re asking for way more than you actually need. In the worst-case scenario for you, and the best for me, what can I really do? I can't apply any pressure I haven’t already applied. You’re really late with your request. I’ve done everything I could for myself that the situation allows. I’ve said my piece, and here I am.”
“Yes, here you are, fortunately!” Madame de Vionnet laughed. “Mrs. Newsome,” she added in another tone, “didn’t think you can do so little.”
“Yeah, here you are, thankfully!” Madame de Vionnet laughed. “Mrs. Newsome,” she added in a different tone, “didn't think you could do so little.”
He had an hesitation, but he brought the words out. “Well, she thinks so now.”
He hesitated for a moment, but then he spoke up. “Well, she thinks that now.”
“Do you mean by that—?” But she also hung fire.
“Are you saying that—?” But she also hesitated.
“Do I mean what?”
"Do I mean what?"
She still rather faltered. “Pardon me if I touch on it, but if I’m saying extraordinary things, why, perhaps, mayn’t I? Besides, doesn’t it properly concern us to know?”
She still hesitated a bit. “Sorry to bring it up, but if I’m saying unusual things, then why shouldn’t I? Besides, shouldn’t we be concerned to know?”
“To know what?” he insisted as after thus beating about the bush she had again dropped.
“To know what?” he pressed, as after all that indirect talk, she had gone quiet again.
She made the effort. “Has she given you up?”
She put in the effort. “Has she stopped caring about you?”
He was amazed afterwards to think how simply and quietly he had met it. “Not yet.” It was almost as if he were a trifle disappointed—had expected still more of her freedom. But he went straight on. “Is that what Chad has told you will happen to me?”
He was surprised later to realize how calmly and quietly he had faced it. “Not yet.” It was almost like he was a bit disappointed—he had hoped for even more of her openness. But he continued on. “Is that what Chad said would happen to me?”
She was evidently charmed with the way he took it. “If you mean if we’ve talked of it—most certainly. And the question’s not what has had least to do with my wishing to see you.”
She was clearly pleased with how he reacted. “If you’re asking whether we’ve talked about it—absolutely. And the real question isn’t what’s had the least impact on my wanting to see you.”
“To judge if I’m the sort of man a woman can—?”
“To judge if I’m the kind of man a woman can—?”
“Precisely,” she exclaimed—“you wonderful gentleman! I do judge—I have judged. A woman can’t. You’re safe—with every right to be. You’d be much happier if you’d only believe it.”
“Exactly,” she said—“you amazing man! I do see—I have seen. A woman can’t. You’re secure—with every reason to be. You’d be much happier if you’d just believe it.”
Strether was silent a little; then he found himself speaking with a cynicism of confidence of which even at the moment the sources were strange to him. “I try to believe it. But it’s a marvel,” he exclaimed, “how you already get at it!”
Strether was silent for a moment; then he realized he was speaking with a confident cynicism that even he found surprising. “I try to believe it. But it’s amazing,” he exclaimed, “how you already understand it!”
Oh she was able to say. “Remember how much I was on the way to it through Mr. Newsome—before I saw you. He thinks everything of your strength.”
Oh, she was able to say, “Remember how much I was getting there through Mr. Newsome—before I saw you? He thinks very highly of your strength.”
“Well, I can bear almost anything!” our friend briskly interrupted. Deep and beautiful on this her smile came back, and with the effect of making him hear what he had said just as she had heard it. He easily enough felt that it gave him away, but what in truth had everything done but that? It had been all very well to think at moments that he was holding her nose down and that he had coerced her: what had he by this time done but let her practically see that he accepted their relation? What was their relation moreover—though light and brief enough in form as yet—but whatever she might choose to make it? Nothing could prevent her—certainly he couldn’t—from making it pleasant. At the back of his head, behind everything, was the sense that she was—there, before him, close to him, in vivid imperative form—one of the rare women he had so often heard of, read of, thought of, but never met, whose very presence, look, voice, the mere contemporaneous fact of whom, from the moment it was at all presented, made a relation of mere recognition. That was not the kind of woman he had ever found Mrs. Newsome, a contemporaneous fact who had been distinctly slow to establish herself; and at present, confronted with Madame de Vionnet, he felt the simplicity of his original impression of Miss Gostrey. She certainly had been a fact of rapid growth; but the world was wide, each day was more and more a new lesson. There were at any rate even among the stranger ones relations and relations. “Of course I suit Chad’s grand way,” he quickly added. “He hasn’t had much difficulty in working me in.”
“Well, I can handle almost anything!” our friend quickly interrupted. With a deep and beautiful smile returning to her face, she made him realize what he had just said, just as she had heard it. He knew it gave him away, but really, what hadn’t already? It was all well and good to think at times that he was pinning her down and that he had pressured her: what had he actually done other than let her see that he accepted their relationship? What was their relationship, anyway—though still light and brief—other than whatever she wanted it to be? Nothing could stop her—certainly not him—from making it enjoyable. In the back of his mind, he sensed that she was right there in front of him, almost demanded to be noticed—one of those rare women he had heard about, read about, and thought about, but had never met. Her very presence, her look, her voice, just the sheer reality of her made their connection feel like an instant recognition. That wasn’t the kind of woman he had ever found in Mrs. Newsome; she had been a fact that took her time to establish herself. Now, facing Madame de Vionnet, he felt how straightforward his first impression of Miss Gostrey had been. She had certainly made an impression quickly; but the world was vast, and every day was offering more and more new lessons. There were, after all, even among the strange ones, different kinds of relationships. “Of course I fit into Chad’s grand scheme,” he quickly added. “He hasn’t had much trouble incorporating me.”
She seemed to deny a little, on the young man’s behalf, by the rise of her eyebrows, an intention of any process at all inconsiderate. “You must know how grieved he’d be if you were to lose anything. He believes you can keep his mother patient.”
She appeared to somewhat deny, on the young man's behalf, with a raise of her eyebrows, any intention of being inconsiderate at all. "You must realize how upset he'd be if you were to lose anything. He trusts that you can keep his mother calm."
Strether wondered with his eyes on her. “I see. That’s then what you really want of me. And how am I to do it? Perhaps you’ll tell me that.”
Strether looked at her and wondered, “I get it. That’s what you really want from me. How am I supposed to do that? Maybe you can tell me.”
“Simply tell her the truth.”
“Just tell her the truth.”
“And what do you call the truth?”
“And what do you call the truth?”
“Well, any truth—about us all—that you see yourself. I leave it to you.”
“Well, any truth—about all of us—that you can see for yourself. I’ll leave that to you.”
“Thank you very much. I like,” Strether laughed with a slight harshness, “the way you leave things!”
“Thank you so much. I like,” Strether laughed with a slight edge, “the way you leave things!”
But she insisted kindly, gently, as if it wasn’t so bad. “Be perfectly honest. Tell her all.”
But she insisted kindly and gently, as if it wasn't such a big deal. "Just be totally honest. Tell her everything."
“All?” he oddly echoed.
"All?" he echoed oddly.
“Tell her the simple truth,” Madame de Vionnet again pleaded.
“Tell her the simple truth,” Madame de Vionnet urged again.
“But what is the simple truth? The simple truth is exactly what I’m trying to discover.”
“But what is the plain truth? The plain truth is exactly what I’m trying to figure out.”
She looked about a while, but presently she came back to him. “Tell her, fully and clearly, about us.”
She looked around for a moment, but soon returned to him. “Tell her, completely and clearly, about us.”
Strether meanwhile had been staring. “You and your daughter?”
Strether had been staring. “You and your daughter?”
“Yes—little Jeanne and me. Tell her,” she just slightly quavered, “you like us.”
“Yes—little Jeanne and I. Tell her,” she said with a slight tremble, “you like us.”
“And what good will that do me? Or rather”—he caught himself up—“what good will it do you?”
“And what good will that do me? Or rather”—he stopped himself—“what good will it do you?”
She looked graver. “None, you believe, really?”
She looked more serious. “Really, none?”
Strether debated. “She didn’t send me out to ‘like’ you.”
Strether thought it over. “She didn’t send me out to ‘like’ you.”
“Oh,” she charmingly contended, “she sent you out to face the facts.”
“Oh,” she playfully argued, “she sent you out to face reality.”
He admitted after an instant that there was something in that. “But how can I face them till I know what they are? Do you want him,” he then braced himself to ask, “to marry your daughter?”
He quickly realized there was some truth to that. “But how can I face them until I know who they are? Do you want him,” he then steeled himself to ask, “to marry your daughter?”
She gave a headshake as noble as it was prompt. “No—not that.”
She shook her head, as dignified as it was quick. “No—not that.”
“And he really doesn’t want to himself?”
“And he really doesn’t want to, does he?”
She repeated the movement, but now with a strange light in her face. “He likes her too much.”
She repeated the movement, but now with a strange look on her face. “He likes her way too much.”
Strether wondered. “To be willing to consider, you mean, the question of taking her to America?”
Strether wondered. “Are you saying you're willing to think about taking her to America?”
“To be willing to do anything with her but be immensely kind and nice—really tender of her. We watch over her, and you must help us. You must see her again.”
“To be willing to do anything with her except be incredibly kind and nice—truly caring for her. We look out for her, and you need to help us. You have to see her again.”
Strether felt awkward. “Ah with pleasure—she’s so remarkably attractive.”
Strether felt uncomfortable. “Oh, with pleasure—she’s really beautiful.”
The mother’s eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this was to come back to him later as beautiful in its grace. “The dear thing did please you?” Then as he met it with the largest “Oh!” of enthusiasm: “She’s perfect. She’s my joy.”
The mother’s eagerness with which Madame de Vionnet jumped at this would later be seen as beautifully graceful. “Did the dear thing please you?” Then, as he responded with a huge “Oh!” of enthusiasm: “She’s perfect. She’s my joy.”
“Well, I’m sure that—if one were near her and saw more of her—she’d be mine.”
“Well, I’m sure that—if someone were close to her and spent more time with her—she’d be mine.”
“Then,” said Madame de Vionnet, “tell Mrs. Newsome that!”
“Then,” said Madame de Vionnet, “tell Mrs. Newsome that!”
He wondered the more. “What good will that do you?” As she appeared unable at once to say, however, he brought out something else. “Is your daughter in love with our friend?”
He wondered even more. “What good will that do you?” Since she seemed unable to respond right away, he brought up something else. “Is your daughter in love with our friend?”
“Ah,” she rather startlingly answered, “I wish you’d find out!”
“Ah,” she suddenly replied, “I wish you’d find out!”
He showed his surprise. “I? A stranger?”
He showed his surprise. “Me? A stranger?”
“Oh you won’t be a stranger—presently. You shall see her quite, I assure you, as if you weren’t.”
“Oh, you won’t be a stranger for long. You’ll see her for sure, I promise, as if you weren’t at all.”
It remained for him none the less an extraordinary notion. “It seems to me surely that if her mother can’t—”
It still struck him as an amazing idea. “It seems to me that if her mom can’t—”
“Ah little girls and their mothers to-day!” she rather inconsequently broke in. But she checked herself with something she seemed to give out as after all more to the point. “Tell her I’ve been good for him. Don’t you think I have?”
“Ah, little girls and their moms today!” she interrupted, somewhat off-topic. But she corrected herself with something she felt was more relevant. “Tell her I’ve been good for him. Don’t you think I have?”
It had its effect on him—more than at the moment he quite measured. Yet he was consciously enough touched. “Oh if it’s all you—!”
It affected him—more than he realized at the time. Yet he was definitely touched. “Oh, if it’s all you—!”
“Well, it may not be ‘all,’” she interrupted, “but it’s to a great extent. Really and truly,” she added in a tone that was to take its place with him among things remembered.
“Well, it may not be ‘all,’” she interrupted, “but it’s a big part of it. Honestly,” she added in a tone that would be among the things he remembered.
“Then it’s very wonderful.” He smiled at her from a face that he felt as strained, and her own face for a moment kept him so. At last she also got up. “Well, don’t you think that for that—”
“Then it’s really amazing.” He smiled at her, even though he felt tense, and for a moment, her expression made him feel that way too. Finally, she stood up as well. “So, don’t you think that for that—”
“I ought to save you?” So it was that the way to meet her—and the way, as well, in a manner, to get off—came over him. He heard himself use the exorbitant word, the very sound of which helped to determine his flight. “I’ll save you if I can.”
“I should save you?” It struck him then that the way to connect with her—and in a way, to escape—was becoming clear. He heard himself say the dramatic words, the very sound of which pushed him toward his decision. “I’ll save you if I can.”
II
In Chad’s lovely home, however, one evening ten days later, he felt himself present at the collapse of the question of Jeanne de Vionnet’s shy secret. He had been dining there in the company of that young lady and her mother, as well as of other persons, and he had gone into the petit salon, at Chad’s request, on purpose to talk with her. The young man had put this to him as a favour—“I should like so awfully to know what you think of her. It will really be a chance for you,” he had said, “to see the jeune fille—I mean the type—as she actually is, and I don’t think that, as an observer of manners, it’s a thing you ought to miss. It will be an impression that—whatever else you take—you can carry home with you, where you’ll find again so much to compare it with.”
In Chad's beautiful home one evening ten days later, he felt like he was witnessing the unraveling of Jeanne de Vionnet's shy secret. He had been having dinner there with her, her mother, and some other guests, and he went into the petit salon at Chad's request specifically to talk with her. The young man had asked him as a favor—“I really want to know what you think of her. This will be a great opportunity for you,” he had said, “to see the jeune fille—I mean the type—as she really is, and as a social observer, you shouldn't miss it. It will be an impression that—no matter what else you take away—you can bring home with you, where you'll have so much to compare it to.”
Strether knew well enough with what Chad wished him to compare it, and though he entirely assented he hadn’t yet somehow been so deeply reminded that he was being, as he constantly though mutely expressed it, used. He was as far as ever from making out exactly to what end; but he was none the less constantly accompanied by a sense of the service he rendered. He conceived only that this service was highly agreeable to those who profited by it; and he was indeed still waiting for the moment at which he should catch it in the act of proving disagreeable, proving in some degree intolerable, to himself. He failed quite to see how his situation could clear up at all logically except by some turn of events that would give him the pretext of disgust. He was building from day to day on the possibility of disgust, but each day brought forth meanwhile a new and more engaging bend of the road. That possibility was now ever so much further from sight than on the eve of his arrival, and he perfectly felt that, should it come at all, it would have to be at best inconsequent and violent. He struck himself as a little nearer to it only when he asked himself what service, in such a life of utility, he was after all rendering Mrs. Newsome. When he wished to help himself to believe that he was still all right he reflected—and in fact with wonder—on the unimpaired frequency of their correspondence; in relation to which what was after all more natural than that it should become more frequent just in proportion as their problem became more complicated?
Strether was well aware of what Chad wanted him to compare it to, and while he agreed completely, he hadn’t really been reminded enough that he was being, as he often thought without saying it, used. He still wasn’t sure exactly for what purpose; however, he was constantly aware of the service he was providing. He believed that this service was very pleasing to those who benefited from it, and he was still waiting for the moment when he would catch it becoming unpleasant or even intolerable for him. He couldn’t see how his situation could logically improve except through some event that would give him a reason to feel disgust. He was holding onto the possibility of disgust from day to day, but each day brought a new and more inviting direction ahead. That possibility seemed much further away than it did just before he arrived, and he felt that if it did appear, it would likely be abrupt and out of place. He felt slightly closer to it only when he wondered what service he was really providing Mrs. Newsome in such a utilitarian life. When he wanted to convince himself that he was still doing fine, he reflected—and actually with some surprise—on how consistently they corresponded; after all, what was more natural than that their communication would become more frequent as their situation became more complex?
Certain it is at any rate that he now often brought himself balm by the question, with the rich consciousness of yesterday’s letter, “Well, what can I do more than that—what can I do more than tell her everything?” To persuade himself that he did tell her, had told her, everything, he used to try to think of particular things he hadn’t told her. When at rare moments and in the watches of the night he pounced on one it generally showed itself to be—to a deeper scrutiny—not quite truly of the essence. When anything new struck him as coming up, or anything already noted as reappearing, he always immediately wrote, as if for fear that if he didn’t he would miss something; and also that he might be able to say to himself from time to time “She knows it now—even while I worry.” It was a great comfort to him in general not to have left past things to be dragged to light and explained; not to have to produce at so late a stage anything not produced, or anything even veiled and attenuated, at the moment. She knew it now: that was what he said to himself to-night in relation to the fresh fact of Chad’s acquaintance with the two ladies—not to speak of the fresher one of his own. Mrs. Newsome knew in other words that very night at Woollett that he himself knew Madame de Vionnet and that he had conscientiously been to see her; also that he had found her remarkably attractive and that there would probably be a good deal more to tell. But she further knew, or would know very soon, that, again conscientiously, he hadn’t repeated his visit; and that when Chad had asked him on the Countess’s behalf—Strether made her out vividly, with a thought at the back of his head, a Countess—if he wouldn’t name a day for dining with her, he had replied lucidly: “Thank you very much—impossible.” He had begged the young man would present his excuses and had trusted him to understand that it couldn’t really strike one as quite the straight thing. He hadn’t reported to Mrs. Newsome that he had promised to “save” Madame de Vionnet; but, so far as he was concerned with that reminiscence, he hadn’t at any rate promised to haunt her house. What Chad had understood could only, in truth, be inferred from Chad’s behaviour, which had been in this connexion as easy as in every other. He was easy, always, when he understood; he was easier still, if possible, when he didn’t; he had replied that he would make it all right; and he had proceeded to do this by substituting the present occasion—as he was ready to substitute others—for any, for every occasion as to which his old friend should have a funny scruple.
It's clear that he often reassured himself with the thought, given the awareness from yesterday's letter, “Well, what more can I do—what more can I do than tell her everything?” To convince himself that he had shared everything, he would try to think of specific things he hadn’t mentioned. When he occasionally remembered something during those late-night hours, it often turned out, upon closer inspection, to not really be significant. Whenever something new occurred to him, or anything he had previously noted came back to him, he would immediately write it down, fearing he might forget it otherwise; plus, it allowed him to say to himself from time to time, “She knows it now—even while I worry.” It brought him comfort not to have left anything from the past that needed to be dragged up and explained; he didn’t have to disclose anything at this late stage that hadn’t already been revealed or that was even slightly obscured at the time. She knew it now: that was what he reminded himself tonight about the recent fact of Chad’s acquaintance with the two ladies—not to mention his own fresher connection. Mrs. Newsome knew that very night in Woollett that he was acquainted with Madame de Vionnet and had conscientiously visited her; she also knew he found her quite attractive and that there would probably be much more to share. But she also understood, or would soon know, that he had, again conscientiously, not repeated his visit; and when Chad, on the Countess’s behalf—Strether vividly pictured her as a Countess—asked if he would set a date to dine with her, he had clearly responded: “Thank you very much—impossible.” He had asked the young man to pass along his regrets and trusted that Chad would understand it really wouldn't seem quite right. He hadn’t told Mrs. Newsome that he had promised to “save” Madame de Vionnet; but as far as he was concerned with that memory, he hadn’t promised to haunt her house. What Chad understood could only really be inferred from his behavior, which was as easygoing in this context as it was in every other. He was relaxed, always, when he understood; he was even more laid-back, if possible, when he didn’t; he had said he would make it all right; and he went ahead and did so by replacing the current occasion—as he was willing to replace others—for any, for every occasion where his old friend might have an odd hesitation.
“Oh but I’m not a little foreign girl; I’m just as English as I can be,” Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the petit salon, he sank, shyly enough on his own side, into the place near her vacated by Madame Gloriani at his approach. Madame Gloriani, who was in black velvet, with white lace and powdered hair, and whose somewhat massive majesty melted, at any contact, into the graciousness of some incomprehensible tongue, moved away to make room for the vague gentleman, after benevolent greetings to him which embodied, as he believed, in baffling accents, some recognition of his face from a couple of Sundays before. Then he had remarked—making the most of the advantage of his years—that it frightened him quite enough to find himself dedicated to the entertainment of a little foreign girl. There were girls he wasn’t afraid of—he was quite bold with little Americans. Thus it was that she had defended herself to the end—“Oh but I’m almost American too. That’s what mamma has wanted me to be—I mean like that; for she has wanted me to have lots of freedom. She has known such good results from it.”
“Oh, but I’m not just a little foreign girl; I’m as English as can be,” Jeanne de Vionnet had said to him as soon as, in the petit salon, he shyly settled into the spot next to her that Madame Gloriani had just left upon his arrival. Madame Gloriani, dressed in black velvet with white lace and powdered hair, whose somewhat imposing presence transformed into a warm grace at any interaction, stepped aside to make room for the vague gentleman, after offering him polite greetings that he thought, in confusing tones, recognized his face from a couple of Sundays ago. Then he noticed—taking full advantage of his age—how unnerving it was to be tasked with entertaining a little foreign girl. There were girls he wasn’t intimidated by—he felt quite confident with little Americans. Thus, she had stood her ground until the end—“Oh, but I’m almost American too. That’s what my mom has wanted me to be—I mean like that; because she has wanted me to have a lot of freedom. She has seen such good results from it.”
She was fairly beautiful to him—a faint pastel in an oval frame: he thought of her already as of some lurking image in a long gallery, the portrait of a small old-time princess of whom nothing was known but that she had died young. Little Jeanne wasn’t, doubtless, to die young, but one couldn’t, all the same, bear on her lightly enough. It was bearing hard, it was bearing as he, in any case, wouldn’t bear, to concern himself, in relation to her, with the question of a young man. Odious really the question of a young man; one didn’t treat such a person as a maid-servant suspected of a “follower.” And then young men, young men—well, the thing was their business simply, or was at all events hers. She was fluttered, fairly fevered—to the point of a little glitter that came and went in her eyes and a pair of pink spots that stayed in her cheeks—with the great adventure of dining out and with the greater one still, possibly, of finding a gentleman whom she must think of as very, very old, a gentleman with eye-glasses, wrinkles, a long grizzled moustache. She spoke the prettiest English, our friend thought, that he had ever heard spoken, just as he had believed her a few minutes before to be speaking the prettiest French. He wondered almost wistfully if such a sweep of the lyre didn’t react on the spirit itself; and his fancy had in fact, before he knew it, begun so to stray and embroider that he finally found himself, absent and extravagant, sitting with the child in a friendly silence. Only by this time he felt her flutter to have fortunately dropped and that she was more at her ease. She trusted him, liked him, and it was to come back to him afterwards that she had told him things. She had dipped into the waiting medium at last and found neither surge nor chill—nothing but the small splash she could herself make in the pleasant warmth, nothing but the safety of dipping and dipping again. At the end of the ten minutes he was to spend with her his impression—with all it had thrown off and all it had taken in—was complete. She had been free, as she knew freedom, partly to show him that, unlike other little persons she knew, she had imbibed that ideal. She was delightfully quaint about herself, but the vision of what she had imbibed was what most held him. It really consisted, he was soon enough to feel, in just one great little matter, the fact that, whatever her nature, she was thoroughly—he had to cast about for the word, but it came—bred. He couldn’t of course on so short an acquaintance speak for her nature, but the idea of breeding was what she had meanwhile dropped into his mind. He had never yet known it so sharply presented. Her mother gave it, no doubt; but her mother, to make that less sensible, gave so much else besides, and on neither of the two previous occasions, extraordinary woman, Strether felt, anything like what she was giving tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, an exquisite case of education; whereas the Countess, whom it so amused him to think of by that denomination, was a case, also exquisite, of—well, he didn’t know what.
She was pretty enough for him—a soft pastel in an oval frame: he thought of her as a hidden image in a long gallery, the portrait of a small old-fashioned princess about whom nothing was known except that she had died young. Little Jeanne probably wasn’t going to die young, but still, it was hard not to feel a sense of weight regarding her. It felt burdensome, and it was something he definitely wouldn’t deal with, to think about a young man in relation to her. The idea of a young man was really unpleasant; you didn’t treat someone like that as if she were a maid suspected of having a “suitor.” And young men, young men—well, that was their concern, or at least hers. She was excited, almost feverish—to the point of a glimmer in her eyes and pink spots on her cheeks—about the big adventure of going out to dinner and maybe the even bigger adventure of finding a gentleman she had to consider very, very old, a man with glasses, wrinkles, and a long, grizzled mustache. He thought she spoke the prettiest English he’d ever heard, just as he had thought minutes before that she spoke the prettiest French. He wondered, a bit wistfully, if such a range of expression didn’t affect the spirit itself; and before he realized it, he had begun to lose himself in thought, creating stories, until he found himself sitting with the child in a comfortable silence. By that point, he felt her excitement had thankfully calmed down, and she seemed more at ease. She trusted him, liked him, and he would later remember that she had shared things with him. She had finally dipped into the moment and found neither wave nor chill—only the gentle splash she could make in the cozy warmth, just the security of dipping in and out. By the end of the ten minutes he was spending with her, his impression—with all it had captured and all it had given off—was complete. She had been free, as she understood freedom, partly to show him that she had embraced that ideal, unlike other little people she knew. She was delightfully eccentric about herself, but it was the vision of what she had absorbed that fascinated him most. He soon realized it boiled down to just one great little thing: whatever her character, she was thoroughly—he had to search for the word, but it came—bred. Of course, he couldn’t really speak to her character on such short acquaintance, but the idea of breeding was what she had planted in his mind. He had never encountered it presented so sharply before. Her mother obviously contributed to it; but her mother, to make that less clear, brought in so much else besides, and on neither of the two previous occasions—extraordinary woman, he felt—had she offered anything like what she was sharing tonight. Little Jeanne was a case, an exquisite example of education; while the Countess, whom he found it amusing to label that way, was a case, also exquisite, of—well, he wasn’t sure what.
“He has wonderful taste, notre jeune homme”: this was what Gloriani said to him on turning away from the inspection of a small picture suspended near the door of the room. The high celebrity in question had just come in, apparently in search of Mademoiselle de Vionnet, but while Strether had got up from beside her their fellow guest, with his eye sharply caught, had paused for a long look. The thing was a landscape, of no size, but of the French school, as our friend was glad to feel he knew, and also of a quality—which he liked to think he should also have guessed; its frame was large out of proportion to the canvas, and he had never seen a person look at anything, he thought, just as Gloriani, with his nose very near and quick movements of the head from side to side and bottom to top, examined this feature of Chad’s collection. The artist used that word the next moment smiling courteously, wiping his nippers and looking round him further—paying the place in short by the very manner of his presence and by something Strether fancied he could make out in this particular glance, such a tribute as, to the latter’s sense, settled many things once for all. Strether was conscious at this instant, for that matter, as he hadn’t yet been, of how, round about him, quite without him, they were consistently settled. Gloriani’s smile, deeply Italian, he considered, and finely inscrutable, had had for him, during dinner, at which they were not neighbours, an indefinite greeting; but the quality in it was gone that had appeared on the other occasion to turn him inside out; it was as if even the momentary link supplied by the doubt between them had snapped. He was conscious now of the final reality, which was that there wasn’t so much a doubt as a difference altogether; all the more that over the difference the famous sculptor seemed to signal almost condolingly, yet oh how vacantly! as across some great flat sheet of water. He threw out the bridge of a charming hollow civility on which Strether wouldn’t have trusted his own full weight a moment. That idea, even though but transient and perhaps belated, had performed the office of putting Strether more at his ease, and the blurred picture had already dropped—dropped with the sound of something else said and with his becoming aware, by another quick turn, that Gloriani was now on the sofa talking with Jeanne, while he himself had in his ears again the familiar friendliness and the elusive meaning of the “Oh, oh, oh!” that had made him, a fortnight before, challenge Miss Barrace in vain. She had always the air, this picturesque and original lady, who struck him, so oddly, as both antique and modern—she had always the air of taking up some joke that one had already had out with her. The point itself, no doubt, was what was antique, and the use she made of it what was modern. He felt just now that her good-natured irony did bear on something, and it troubled him a little that she wouldn’t be more explicit only assuring him, with the pleasure of observation so visible in her, that she wouldn’t tell him more for the world. He could take refuge but in asking her what she had done with Waymarsh, though it must be added that he felt himself a little on the way to a clue after she had answered that this personage was, in the other room, engaged in conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared a moment at the image of such a conjunction; then, for Miss Barrace’s benefit, he wondered. “Is she too then under the charm—?”
“He has great taste, notre jeune homme”: this was what Gloriani said to him as he turned away from looking at a small picture hanging near the room's door. The well-known artist had just entered, apparently searching for Mademoiselle de Vionnet, but while Strether had gotten up from beside her, their fellow guest, with his attention caught, paused for a long look. The artwork was a landscape, small in size, but of the French school, as Strether was pleased to realize he recognized, and also of a quality that he liked to think he should have noted; its frame was far too large for the canvas, and he had never seen anyone examine something quite like Gloriani, with his nose close and quick movements of his head from side to side and up and down, analyze this piece from Chad's collection. The artist used that term the next moment, smiling politely, wiping his hands and looking around him further—essentially paying homage to the place through the very manner of his presence and by something Strether thought he could discern in that particular gaze, such a tribute as, to his mind, resolved many things once and for all. Strether was aware at that moment, as he hadn’t been before, of how, around him, completely independent of him, they were fundamentally settled. Gloriani’s smile, deeply Italian in nature and subtly inscrutable, had given him an ambiguous greeting during dinner, where they weren’t seated near each other; but the quality in it that had seemed to turn him inside out on the previous occasion was now absent; it was as if even the brief connection provided by their earlier doubt had snapped. He now sensed the hard truth, which was that it wasn’t just doubt but a fundamental difference; all the more so since the famous sculptor appeared to comment on that difference almost sympathetically, yet oh, how empty! as if across some vast, flat expanse of water. He extended a bridge of charming superficial politeness that Strether wouldn’t have trusted himself to fully cross for even a moment. That thought, although fleeting and possibly overdue, somehow made Strether feel more at ease, and the blurry image had already faded—faded with the sound of something else being said and with his quick realization that Gloriani was now on the sofa chatting with Jeanne, while he was left again with the familiar warmth and the elusive meaning of the “Oh, oh, oh!” that had led him, two weeks earlier, to challenge Miss Barrace in vain. She always had that vibe, this striking and original woman, who oddly struck him as both vintage and contemporary—she always had the air of picking up some joke that they had already exchanged. The point itself, no doubt, was what was vintage, and the way she used it was what was contemporary. Right now, he felt that her good-natured irony was directed at something, and it slightly bothered him that she wouldn’t be more straightforward, only assuring him, with a visible enjoyment of observation, that she wouldn’t reveal more for the world. He could only ask her what she had done with Waymarsh, though it must be noted that he felt he was getting closer to understanding after she said that this person was in the other room, engaged in conversation with Madame de Vionnet. He stared for a moment at the idea of such a pairing; then, for Miss Barrace’s sake, he pondered. “Is she also under the spell—?”
“No, not a bit”—Miss Barrace was prompt. “She makes nothing of him. She’s bored. She won’t help you with him.”
“No, not at all,” Miss Barrace responded quickly. “She doesn’t care about him. She’s bored. She won’t support you with him.”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “she can’t do everything.
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “she can’t do it all.
“Of course not—wonderful as she is. Besides, he makes nothing of her. She won’t take him from me—though she wouldn’t, no doubt, having other affairs in hand, even if she could. I’ve never,” said Miss Barrace, “seen her fail with any one before. And to-night, when she’s so magnificent, it would seem to her strange—if she minded. So at any rate I have him all. Je suis tranquille!”
“Of course not—wonderful as she is. Besides, he doesn’t think much of her. She won’t take him from me—though she wouldn’t, I’m sure, having other things going on, even if she could. I’ve never,” said Miss Barrace, “seen her fail with anyone before. And tonight, when she looks so amazing, it would seem odd to her—if she cared. So anyway, I have him all to myself. Je suis tranquille!”
Strether understood, so far as that went; but he was feeling for his clue. “She strikes you to-night as particularly magnificent?”
Strether understood, to some extent; but he was searching for his clue. “Does she seem especially magnificent to you tonight?”
“Surely. Almost as I’ve never seen her. Doesn’t she you? Why it’s for you.”
“Of course. It’s almost like I’ve never seen her before. Doesn’t she seem that way to you? Why, it’s for you.”
He persisted in his candour. “‘For’ me—?”
He kept being honest. “‘For’ me—?”
“Oh, oh, oh!” cried Miss Barrace, who persisted in the opposite of that quality.
“Oh, oh, oh!” exclaimed Miss Barrace, who embodied the exact opposite of that quality.
“Well,” he acutely admitted, “she is different. She’s gay.”
“Well,” he pointed out sharply, “she is different. She’s gay.”
“She’s gay!” Miss Barrace laughed. “And she has beautiful shoulders—though there’s nothing different in that.”
"She's gay!" Miss Barrace laughed. "And she has beautiful shoulders—though that's nothing new."
“No,” said Strether, “one was sure of her shoulders. It isn’t her shoulders.”
“No,” Strether said, “you could count on her shoulders. It’s not her shoulders.”
His companion, with renewed mirth and the finest sense, between the puffs of her cigarette, of the drollery of things, appeared to find their conversation highly delightful. “Yes, it isn’t her shoulders.”
His companion, with a fresh sense of humor and great insight, interspersed with puffs of her cigarette, seemed to find their conversation extremely enjoyable. “Yeah, it’s not her shoulders.”
“What then is it?” Strether earnestly enquired.
“What is it then?” Strether asked earnestly.
“Why, it’s she—simply. It’s her mood. It’s her charm.”
“Why, it’s her—plain and simple. It’s her vibe. It’s her allure.”
“Of course it’s her charm, but we’re speaking of the difference.” “Well,” Miss Barrace explained, “she’s just brilliant, as we used to say. That’s all. She’s various. She’s fifty women.”
“Of course it’s her charm, but we’re talking about the difference.” “Well,” Miss Barrace explained, “she’s just amazing, as we used to say. That’s it. She’s diverse. She’s like fifty different women.”
“Ah but only one”—Strether kept it clear—“at a time.”
“Ah but only one”—Strether made it clear—“at a time.”
“Perhaps. But in fifty times—!”
“Maybe. But in fifty times—!”
“Oh we shan’t come to that,” our friend declared; and the next moment he had moved in another direction. “Will you answer me a plain question? Will she ever divorce?”
“Oh, we won’t get to that,” our friend said; and the next moment he had turned in another direction. “Will you answer me a straightforward question? Will she ever get a divorce?”
Miss Barrace looked at him through all her tortoise-shell. “Why should she?”
Miss Barrace looked at him through her tortoiseshell glasses. “Why should she?”
It wasn’t what he had asked for, he signified; but he met it well enough. “To marry Chad.”
It wasn’t what he had asked for, he indicated; but he handled it well enough. “To marry Chad.”
“Why should she marry Chad?”
“Why should she marry Chad?”
“Because I’m convinced she’s very fond of him. She has done wonders for him.”
“Because I’m sure she cares a lot about him. She has really helped him.”
“Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man, or woman either,” Miss Barrace sagely went on, “is never the wonder for any Jack and Jill can bring that off. The wonder is their doing such things without marrying.”
“Well then, how could she do more? Marrying a man or a woman, for that matter,” Miss Barrace wisely continued, “is not the amazing part—any Jack and Jill can manage that. The real surprise is that they can pull off such things without getting married.”
Strether considered a moment this proposition. “You mean it’s so beautiful for our friends simply to go on so?”
Strether thought for a moment about this suggestion. “Are you saying it’s just wonderful for our friends to keep going like this?”
But whatever he said made her laugh. “Beautiful.”
But everything he said made her laugh. “Beautiful.”
He nevertheless insisted. “And that because it’s disinterested?”
He still insisted. “And that because it’s unbiased?”
She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. “Yes then—call it that. Besides, she’ll never divorce. Don’t, moreover,” she added, “believe everything you hear about her husband.”
She was now, however, suddenly tired of the question. “Yes then—call it that. Besides, she’ll never divorce. Don’t, by the way,” she added, “believe everything you hear about her husband.”
“He’s not then,” Strether asked, “a wretch?”
“Then he's not,” Strether asked, “a miserable person?”
“Oh yes. But charming.”
“Oh yes. So charming.”
“Do you know him?”
“Do you know this guy?”
“I’ve met him. He’s bien aimable.”
“I’ve met him. He’s really nice.”
“To every one but his wife?”
“To everyone but his wife?”
“Oh for all I know, to her too—to any, to every woman. I hope you at any rate,” she pursued with a quick change, “appreciate the care I take of Mr. Waymarsh.”
“Oh, for all I know, to her too—to any, to every woman. I hope you, at least,” she continued with a quick change, “appreciate the effort I put into taking care of Mr. Waymarsh.”
“Oh immensely.” But Strether was not yet in line. “At all events,” he roundly brought out, “the attachment’s an innocent one.”
“Oh definitely.” But Strether wasn’t ready to jump in yet. “In any case,” he said firmly, “the connection is a genuine one.”
“Mine and his? Ah,” she laughed, “don’t rob it of all interest!”
“Mine and his? Ah,” she laughed, “don’t take away all the fun!”
“I mean our friend’s here—to the lady we’ve been speaking of.” That was what he had settled to as an indirect but none the less closely involved consequence of his impression of Jeanne. That was where he meant to stay. “It’s innocent,” he repeated—“I see the whole thing.”
“I mean our friend is here—to the lady we’ve been talking about.” That was what he had decided on as an indirect but nonetheless closely involved result of his impression of Jeanne. That was where he intended to remain. “It’s innocent,” he repeated—“I get the whole thing.”
Mystified by his abrupt declaration, she had glanced over at Gloriani as at the unnamed subject of his allusion, but the next moment she had understood; though indeed not before Strether had noticed her momentary mistake and wondered what might possibly be behind that too. He already knew that the sculptor admired Madame de Vionnet; but did this admiration also represent an attachment of which the innocence was discussable? He was moving verily in a strange air and on ground not of the firmest. He looked hard for an instant at Miss Barrace, but she had already gone on. “All right with Mr. Newsome? Why of course she is!”—and she got gaily back to the question of her own good friend. “I dare say you’re surprised that I’m not worn out with all I see—it being so much!—of Sitting Bull. But I’m not, you know—I don’t mind him; I bear up, and we get on beautifully. I’m very strange; I’m like that; and often I can’t explain. There are people who are supposed interesting or remarkable or whatever, and who bore me to death; and then there are others as to whom nobody can understand what anybody sees in them—in whom I see no end of things.” Then after she had smoked a moment, “He’s touching, you know,” she said.
Confused by his sudden statement, she looked over at Gloriani as if he were the subject of his reference, but then she quickly understood. Still, it was not before Strether had caught her brief misunderstanding and wondered what else might be going on there. He already knew that the sculptor admired Madame de Vionnet, but did that admiration also indicate an attachment that could be debated? He felt like he was in a very strange atmosphere and on shaky ground. He stared at Miss Barrace for a moment, but she had already moved on. “Everything good with Mr. Newsome? Of course, she is!”—and she cheerfully returned to the topic of her good friend. “I bet you’re surprised that I’m not exhausted by everything—it's a lot!—about Sitting Bull. But I’m really not, you know—I can handle him; I manage, and we get along really well. I’m a bit odd; I’m like that, and often I can’t explain it. There are people who are said to be interesting or remarkable, or whatever, and they bore me to tears; then there are others that no one seems to understand what anyone finds appealing about them, and I can see so much in them.” After a moment of smoking, she added, “He’s touching, you know.”
“‘Know’?” Strether echoed—“don’t I, indeed? We must move you almost to tears.”
“‘Know’?” Strether repeated—“don’t I, really? We almost have you in tears.”
“Oh but I don’t mean you!” she laughed.
“Oh, but I don’t mean you!” she laughed.
“You ought to then, for the worst sign of all—as I must have it for you—is that you can’t help me. That’s when a woman pities.”
“You should know, because the worst sign of all—at least to me—is that you can’t help me. That’s when a woman feels pity.”
“Ah but I do help you!” she cheerfully insisted.
“Ah, but I do help you!” she cheerfully insisted.
Again he looked at her hard, and then after a pause: “No you don’t!”
Again he stared at her intensely, and then after a pause, he said, “No you don’t!”
Her tortoise-shell, on its long chain, rattled down. “I help you with Sitting Bull. That’s a good deal.”
Her tortoise-shell, dangling from its long chain, rattled down. “I’ll help you with Sitting Bull. That’s a good deal.”
“Oh that, yes.” But Strether hesitated. “Do you mean he talks of me?”
“Oh, that, yes.” But Strether paused. “Are you saying he talks about me?”
“So that I have to defend you? No, never.’
“So I have to defend you? No, never.”
“I see,” Strether mused. “It’s too deep.”
“I get it,” Strether thought. “It’s too deep.”
“That’s his only fault,” she returned—“that everything, with him, is too deep. He has depths of silence—which he breaks only at the longest intervals by a remark. And when the remark comes it’s always something he has seen or felt for himself—never a bit banal. That would be what one might have feared and what would kill me. But never.” She smoked again as she thus, with amused complacency, appreciated her acquisition. “And never about you. We keep clear of you. We’re wonderful. But I’ll tell you what he does do,” she continued: “he tries to make me presents.”
"That’s his only flaw," she replied—"that everything about him is too intense. He has these deep silences—which he only breaks after long stretches with a comment. And when he does speak up, it’s always something he has actually seen or felt—never anything cliché. That would be what I might have dreaded and what would drive me crazy. But it never happens." She took another puff as she, with amused satisfaction, reflected on her find. "And never about you. We stay away from you. We're amazing. But I’ll tell you what he does do," she went on: "he tries to give me gifts."
“Presents?” poor Strether echoed, conscious with a pang that he hadn’t yet tried that in any quarter.
“Presents?” poor Strether echoed, feeling a twinge that he hadn’t yet explored that in any area.
“Why you see,” she explained, “he’s as fine as ever in the victoria; so that when I leave him, as I often do almost for hours—he likes it so—at the doors of shops, the sight of him there helps me, when I come out, to know my carriage away off in the rank. But sometimes, for a change, he goes with me into the shops, and then I’ve all I can do to prevent his buying me things.”
“Here’s the thing,” she explained, “he looks as good as ever in the carriage; so when I leave him, which I often do for almost hours—he really likes it that way—at the doors of shops, seeing him there helps me spot my carriage from far away in line. But sometimes, just for a change, he comes with me into the shops, and then I have to do everything I can to stop him from buying me things.”
“He wants to ‘treat’ you?” Strether almost gasped at all he himself hadn’t thought of. He had a sense of admiration. “Oh he’s much more in the real tradition than I. Yes,” he mused, “it’s the sacred rage.”
“He wants to ‘treat’ you?” Strether nearly gasped at everything he hadn’t considered. He felt a sense of admiration. “Oh, he’s much more in the real tradition than I am. Yes,” he thought, “it’s the sacred rage.”
“The sacred rage, exactly!”—and Miss Barrace, who hadn’t before heard this term applied, recognised its bearing with a clap of her gemmed hands. “Now I do know why he’s not banal. But I do prevent him all the same—and if you saw what he sometimes selects—from buying. I save him hundreds and hundreds. I only take flowers.”
“The sacred rage, exactly!”—and Miss Barrace, who hadn’t heard this term used before, understood its meaning with a clap of her jeweled hands. “Now I see why he’s not ordinary. But I still stop him anyway—and if you saw what he sometimes chooses—from buying. I save him hundreds and hundreds. I only take flowers.”
“Flowers?” Strether echoed again with a rueful reflexion. How many nosegays had her present converser sent?
“Flowers?” Strether repeated with a bittersweet thought. How many bouquets had her current conversation partner sent?
“Innocent flowers,” she pursued, “as much as he likes. And he sends me splendours; he knows all the best places—he has found them for himself; he’s wonderful.”
“Innocent flowers,” she continued, “as many as he wants. And he sends me beautiful things; he knows all the best spots—he discovered them himself; he’s amazing.”
“He hasn’t told them to me,” her friend smiled, “he has a life of his own.” But Strether had swung back to the consciousness that for himself after all it never would have done. Waymarsh hadn’t Mrs. Waymarsh in the least to consider, whereas Lambert Strether had constantly, in the inmost honour of his thoughts, to consider Mrs. Newsome. He liked moreover to feel how much his friend was in the real tradition. Yet he had his conclusion. “What a rage it is!” He had worked it out. “It’s an opposition.”
“He hasn’t told them to me,” her friend smiled, “he has his own life.” But Strether had returned to the realization that, for himself, it would never work out. Waymarsh didn’t have to think about Mrs. Waymarsh at all, while Lambert Strether was always, in the deepest part of his thoughts, thinking about Mrs. Newsome. He also liked to recognize how much his friend was sticking to the real tradition. Still, he had come to his conclusion. “What a rage it is!” He had figured it out. “It’s a clash.”
She followed, but at a distance. “That’s what I feel. Yet to what?”
She followed, but kept her distance. “That’s how I feel. But to what?”
“Well, he thinks, you know, that I’ve a life of my own. And I haven’t!”
“Well, he thinks, you know, that I’ve got a life of my own. And I don’t!”
“You haven’t?” She showed doubt, and her laugh confirmed it. “Oh, oh, oh!”
“You haven't?” She sounded doubtful, and her laugh confirmed it. “Oh, oh, oh!”
“No—not for myself. I seem to have a life only for other people.”
“No—not for myself. It feels like I only have a life for other people.”
“Ah for them and with them! Just now for instance with—”
“Ah for them and with them! Just now, for example, with—”
“Well, with whom?” he asked before she had had time to say.
"Well, with who?" he asked before she had a chance to respond.
His tone had the effect of making her hesitate and even, as he guessed, speak with a difference. “Say with Miss Gostrey. What do you do for her?” It really made him wonder. “Nothing at all!”
His tone made her hesitate and, as he suspected, speak differently. “Talk to Miss Gostrey. What do you do for her?” It genuinely puzzled him. “Nothing at all!”
III
Madame de Vionnet, having meanwhile come in, was at present close to them, and Miss Barrace hereupon, instead of risking a rejoinder, became again with a look that measured her from top to toe all mere long-handled appreciative tortoise-shell. She had struck our friend, from the first of her appearing, as dressed for a great occasion, and she met still more than on either of the others the conception reawakened in him at their garden-party, the idea of the femme du monde in her habit as she lived. Her bare shoulders and arms were white and beautiful; the materials of her dress, a mixture, as he supposed, of silk and crape, were of a silvery grey so artfully composed as to give an impression of warm splendour; and round her neck she wore a collar of large old emeralds, the green note of which was more dimly repeated, at other points of her apparel, in embroidery, in enamel, in satin, in substances and textures vaguely rich. Her head, extremely fair and exquisitely festal, was like a happy fancy, a notion of the antique, on an old precious medal, some silver coin of the Renaissance; while her slim lightness and brightness, her gaiety, her expression, her decision, contributed to an effect that might have been felt by a poet as half mythological and half conventional. He could have compared her to a goddess still partly engaged in a morning cloud, or to a sea-nymph waist-high in the summer surge. Above all she suggested to him the reflexion that the femme du monde—in these finest developments of the type—was, like Cleopatra in the play, indeed various and multifold. She had aspects, characters, days, nights—or had them at least, showed them by a mysterious law of her own, when in addition to everything she happened also to be a woman of genius. She was an obscure person, a muffled person one day, and a showy person, an uncovered person the next. He thought of Madame de Vionnet to-night as showy and uncovered, though he felt the formula rough, because, thanks to one of the short-cuts of genius she had taken all his categories by surprise. Twice during dinner he had met Chad’s eyes in a longish look; but these communications had in truth only stirred up again old ambiguities—so little was it clear from them whether they were an appeal or an admonition. “You see how I’m fixed,” was what they appeared to convey; yet how he was fixed was exactly what Strether didn’t see. However, perhaps he should see now.
Madame de Vionnet had just entered and was now close to them, and Miss Barrace, instead of responding, looked at her with an appreciative gaze that took in every detail. From the moment she appeared, our friend thought she was dressed for a special occasion, and even more than the others, she sparked in him the memory of their garden party, the idea of the femme du monde living in her own style. Her bare shoulders and arms were strikingly white and beautiful; her dress, a blend of silk and crape, was a silvery grey that exuded a warm splendor. Around her neck, she wore a collar of large old emeralds, the green hue echoed subtly in the embroidery, enamel, satin, and rich textures of her outfit. Her extremely fair head was festively adorned, like a lovely fantasy, reminiscent of an antique design on a precious old coin from the Renaissance. Her slim form, brightness, cheerfulness, and confident expression created an effect that a poet might describe as half mythological and half conventional. He could liken her to a goddess wrapped in a morning mist or to a sea-nymph wading in summer waves. Most of all, she reminded him that the femme du monde—in these highest manifestations of the type—was indeed complex and varied, much like Cleopatra in the play. She had different aspects, moods, and expressions—at least, she displayed them through some mysterious means, and on top of everything, she happened to be a woman of genius. Some days she was obscured, muffled; other days showy and open. Tonight, he thought of Madame de Vionnet as showy and open, although he felt that description was rough, as her genius had unexpectedly upended all his expectations. Twice during dinner, he had caught Chad's eyes in an extended look; these silent exchanges only stirred old uncertainties—he couldn’t clearly tell if they were a request for help or a warning. “You see how I’m doing,” seemed to be the message, yet how he was really doing was exactly what Strether couldn’t figure out. But perhaps he should understand now.
“Are you capable of the very great kindness of going to relieve Newsome, for a few minutes, of the rather crushing responsibility of Madame Gloriani, while I say a word, if he’ll allow me, to Mr. Strether, of whom I’ve a question to ask? Our host ought to talk a bit to those other ladies, and I’ll come back in a minute to your rescue.” She made this proposal to Miss Barrace as if her consciousness of a special duty had just flickered-up, but that lady’s recognition of Strether’s little start at it—as at a betrayal on the speaker’s part of a domesticated state—was as mute as his own comment; and after an instant, when their fellow guest had good-naturedly left them, he had been given something else to think of. “Why has Maria so suddenly gone? Do you know?” That was the question Madame de Vionnet had brought with her.
“Could you do me a huge favor and take over for Newsome for a few minutes? He’s feeling pretty overwhelmed with Madame Gloriani, and I’d like to have a quick word with Mr. Strether, if he’s okay with that. Our host should spend a little time with the other ladies, and I’ll be back in a moment to help you out.” She suggested this to Miss Barrace as if realizing her responsibility at that moment, but Miss Barrace’s acknowledgment of Strether’s slight reaction—like he felt she was revealing something about her domestic life—was just as silent as his own comment. After a moment, once their fellow guest had kindly stepped away, he found himself with something else on his mind. “Why did Maria leave so suddenly? Do you know?” That was the question Madame de Vionnet had brought with her.
“I’m afraid I’ve no reason to give you but the simple reason I’ve had from her in a note—the sudden obligation to join in the south a sick friend who has got worse.”
“I’m sorry, but I can only give you the straightforward reason I received from her in a note—the urgent need to go south to be with a sick friend who has gotten worse.”
“Ah then she has been writing you?”
“Ah, so she has been writing to you?”
“Not since she went—I had only a brief explanatory word before she started. I went to see her,” Strether explained—“it was the day after I called on you—but she was already on her way, and her concierge told me that in case of my coming I was to be informed she had written to me. I found her note when I got home.”
“Not since she left—I only had a quick word of explanation before she took off. I went to see her,” Strether explained, “the day after I visited you—but she was already on her way, and her concierge told me that if I came by, I should be informed she had written to me. I found her note when I got back home.”
Madame de Vionnet listened with interest and with her eyes on Strether’s face; then her delicately decorated head had a small melancholy motion. “She didn’t write to me. I went to see her,” she added, “almost immediately after I had seen you, and as I assured her I would do when I met her at Gloriani’s. She hadn’t then told me she was to be absent, and I felt at her door as if I understood. She’s absent—with all respect to her sick friend, though I know indeed she has plenty—so that I may not see her. She doesn’t want to meet me again. Well,” she continued with a beautiful conscious mildness, “I liked and admired her beyond every one in the old time, and she knew it—perhaps that’s precisely what has made her go—and I dare say I haven’t lost her for ever.” Strether still said nothing; he had a horror, as he now thought of himself, of being in question between women—was in fact already quite enough on his way to that, and there was moreover, as it came to him, perceptibly, something behind these allusions and professions that, should he take it in, would square but ill with his present resolve to simplify. It was as if, for him, all the same, her softness and sadness were sincere. He felt that not less when she soon went on: “I’m extremely glad of her happiness.” But it also left him mute—sharp and fine though the imputation it conveyed. What it conveyed was that he was Maria Gostrey’s happiness, and for the least little instant he had the impulse to challenge the thought. He could have done so however only by saying “What then do you suppose to be between us?” and he was wonderfully glad a moment later not to have spoken. He would rather seem stupid any day than fatuous, and he drew back as well, with a smothered inward shudder, from the consideration of what women—of highly-developed type in particular—might think of each other. Whatever he had come out for he hadn’t come to go into that; so that he absolutely took up nothing his interlocutress had now let drop. Yet, though he had kept away from her for days, had laid wholly on herself the burden of their meeting again, she hadn’t a gleam of irritation to show him. “Well, about Jeanne now?” she smiled—it had the gaiety with which she had originally come in. He felt it on the instant to represent her motive and real errand. But he had been schooling her of a truth to say much in proportion to his little. “Do you make out that she has a sentiment? I mean for Mr. Newsome.”
Madame de Vionnet listened with interest, her eyes on Strether's face; then her delicately styled head moved slightly in a melancholy way. “She didn’t write to me. I went to see her,” she added, “almost right after I saw you, as I promised I would when I ran into her at Gloriani’s. At that time, she hadn’t told me she would be away, and I felt like I understood when I stood at her door. She’s away—respectfully considering her sick friend, though I know she truly has plenty—so I can’t see her. She doesn’t want to meet with me again. Well,” she continued with a beautifully self-aware gentleness, “I liked and admired her more than anyone back in the day, and she knew it—maybe that’s exactly why she left—and I dare say I haven’t lost her forever.” Strether still didn’t say anything; he now found himself horrified at the thought of being a subject of conversation between women—he was already getting close to that, and it struck him that there was something behind these remarks and claims that, if he acknowledged it, would clash poorly with his current resolve to simplify things. Yet, despite everything, her softness and sadness felt genuine to him. He felt it even more when she soon continued, “I’m really glad for her happiness.” But it made him silent—sharp and subtle though the implication was. What it implied was that he was Maria Gostrey’s source of happiness, and for just a brief moment, he felt an urge to challenge that notion. He could have done so but only by asking, “What do you think is going on between us?” and he was relief a moment later that he hadn’t spoken. He would rather appear foolish than naive, and he withdrew as well, with a suppressed inward shudder, from considering what women—especially those of refined character—might think about each other. Whatever he had come out for, he hadn’t come to delve into that; so he completely ignored what his conversation partner had just hinted at. Yet, even though he had kept his distance from her for days and had put the burden of their reunion entirely on her, she didn’t show any sign of irritation. “Well, about Jeanne now?” she smiled—it had the same brightness with which she had entered. He immediately felt this represented her true motive and intent. But he had been training her to share much in relation to his minimal responses. “Do you think she has feelings? I mean for Mr. Newsome.”
Almost resentful, Strether could at last be prompt. “How can I make out such things?”
Almost resentfully, Strether could finally be quick. “How can I understand such things?”
She remained perfectly good-natured. “Ah but they’re beautiful little things, and you make out—don’t pretend—everything in the world. Haven’t you,” she asked, “been talking with her?”
She stayed completely pleasant. “Oh, but they’re beautiful little things, and you figure out—don’t pretend—everything in the world. Haven’t you,” she asked, “been talking with her?”
“Yes, but not about Chad. At least not much.”
“Yes, but not really about Chad. At least not a lot.”
“Oh you don’t require ‘much’!” she reassuringly declared. But she immediately changed her ground. “I hope you remember your promise of the other day.”
“Oh, you don’t need ‘much’!” she said reassuringly. But then she quickly changed her tone. “I hope you remember your promise from the other day.”
“To ‘save’ you, as you called it?”
“To ‘save’ you, as you put it?”
“I call it so still. You will?” she insisted. “You haven’t repented?”
“I still call it that. You will?” she insisted. “You haven’t changed your mind?”
He wondered. “No—but I’ve been thinking what I meant.”
He wondered. “No—but I’ve been thinking about what I meant.”
She kept it up. “And not, a little, what I did?”
She maintained her stance. “And not, even a little, what I did?”
“No—that’s not necessary. It will be enough if I know what I meant myself.”
“No—that’s not necessary. It’s enough for me to know what I meant.”
“And don’t you know,” she asked, “by this time?”
"And don't you know," she asked, "by now?"
Again he had a pause. “I think you ought to leave it to me. But how long,” he added, “do you give me?”
Again he paused. “I think you should leave it to me. But how long,” he added, “do you give me?”
“It seems to me much more a question of how long you give me. Doesn’t our friend here himself, at any rate,” she went on, “perpetually make me present to you?”
“It seems to me it's more about how much time you give me. Doesn’t our friend here, in any case,” she continued, “constantly remind you of me?”
“Not,” Strether replied, “by ever speaking of you to me.”
“Not,” Strether responded, “by ever bringing you up to me.”
“He never does that?”
"Does he ever do that?"
“Never.”
“Not a chance.”
She considered, and, if the fact was disconcerting to her, effectually concealed it. The next minute indeed she had recovered. “No, he wouldn’t. But do you need that?”
She thought about it, and even if the truth bothered her, she hid it well. A moment later, she was back to normal. “No, he wouldn’t. But do you need that?”
Her emphasis was wonderful, and though his eyes had been wandering he looked at her longer now. “I see what you mean.”
Her emphasis was amazing, and even though his eyes had been drifting, he stared at her longer now. “I get what you’re saying.”
“Of course you see what I mean.”
“Of course you get what I'm saying.”
Her triumph was gentle, and she really had tones to make justice weep. “I’ve before me what he owes you.”
Her victory was quiet, and she had a way of speaking that could make justice cry. “I have what he owes you right here.”
“Admit then that that’s something,” she said, yet still with the same discretion in her pride.
"Okay, I'll admit that's something," she said, still maintaining the same prideful restraint.
He took in this note but went straight on. “You’ve made of him what I see, but what I don’t see is how in the world you’ve done it.”
He read the note but kept moving. “You’ve turned him into what I see, but what I can’t figure out is how you managed to do that.”
“Ah that’s another question!” she smiled. “The point is of what use is your declining to know me when to know Mr. Newsome—as you do me the honour to find him—is just to know me.”
“Ah, that's another question!” she smiled. “The thing is, what good does it do for you to refuse to know me when getting to know Mr. Newsome—who you generously regard as a person worth knowing—is basically just getting to know me.”
“I see,” he mused, still with his eyes on her. “I shouldn’t have met you to-night.”
“I see,” he reflected, still watching her. “I shouldn’t have met you tonight.”
She raised and dropped her linked hands. “It doesn’t matter. If I trust you why can’t you a little trust me too? And why can’t you also,” she asked in another tone, “trust yourself?” But she gave him no time to reply. “Oh I shall be so easy for you! And I’m glad at any rate you’ve seen my child.”
She lifted and lowered her linked hands. “It doesn’t matter. If I trust you, why can’t you trust me just a little too? And why can’t you,” she asked in a different tone, “trust yourself?” But she didn’t give him a chance to respond. “Oh, I’ll be so easy for you! And I’m happy you’ve seen my child.”
“I’m glad too,” he said; “but she does you no good.”
“I’m glad too,” he said, “but she doesn’t do you any good.”
“No good?”—Madame de Vionnet had a clear stare. “Why she’s an angel of light.”
“No good?”—Madame de Vionnet had a sharp look. “Why, she's a beacon of goodness.”
“That’s precisely the reason. Leave her alone. Don’t try to find out. I mean,” he explained, “about what you spoke to me of—the way she feels.”
"That's exactly why. Leave her be. Don't try to figure it out. I mean," he explained, "about what you told me—the way she feels."
His companion wondered. “Because one really won’t?”
His companion wondered. “So, is it true that one really won’t?”
“Well, because I ask you, as a favour to myself, not to. She’s the most charming creature I’ve ever seen. Therefore don’t touch her. Don’t know—don’t want to know. And moreover—yes—you won’t.”
“Well, because I’m asking you, as a favor to me, not to. She’s the most charming person I’ve ever seen. So don’t touch her. I don’t know—don’t want to know. And besides—yes—you won’t.”
It was an appeal, of a sudden, and she took it in. “As a favour to you?”
It was a sudden request, and she accepted it. “As a favor to you?”
“Well—since you ask me.”
"Well—since you asked."
“Anything, everything you ask,” she smiled. “I shan’t know then—never. Thank you,” she added with peculiar gentleness as she turned away.
“Anything, everything you ask,” she smiled. “I won’t know then—never. Thank you,” she added with a strange gentleness as she turned away.
The sound of it lingered with him, making him fairly feel as if he had been tripped up and had a fall. In the very act of arranging with her for his independence he had, under pressure from a particular perception, inconsistently, quite stupidly, committed himself, and, with her subtlety sensitive on the spot to an advantage, she had driven in by a single word a little golden nail, the sharp intention of which he signally felt. He hadn’t detached, he had more closely connected himself, and his eyes, as he considered with some intensity this circumstance, met another pair which had just come within their range and which struck him as reflecting his sense of what he had done. He recognised them at the same moment as those of little Bilham, who had apparently drawn near on purpose to speak to him, and little Bilham wasn’t, in the conditions, the person to whom his heart would be most closed. They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the room obliquely opposite the corner in which Gloriani was still engaged with Jeanne de Vionnet, to whom at first and in silence their attention had been benevolently given. “I can’t see for my life,” Strether had then observed, “how a young fellow of any spirit—such a one as you for instance—can be admitted to the sight of that young lady without being hard hit. Why don’t you go in, little Bilham?” He remembered the tone into which he had been betrayed on the garden-bench at the sculptor’s reception, and this might make up for that by being much more the right sort of thing to say to a young man worthy of any advice at all. “There would be some reason.”
The sound of it stayed with him, making him feel like he had been tripped and had fallen. In the very act of arranging his independence with her, he had, under the pressure of a particular perception, inconsistently and quite foolishly committed himself. With her keen sensitivity to the opportunity, she had driven in a little golden nail with a single word, the sharp intention of which he distinctly felt. He hadn’t detached himself; he had only tied himself more closely. As he thought hard about this situation, his eyes met another pair that had just come into view and seemed to reflect his awareness of what he had done. He recognized them at the same moment as belonging to little Bilham, who had apparently come closer on purpose to talk to him, and little Bilham wasn’t, under the circumstances, the person he’d most want to keep at a distance. They were seated together a minute later at the angle of the room, diagonally opposite the corner where Gloriani was still engaged with Jeanne de Vionnet, to whom their attention had initially and silently been given with goodwill. “I can’t imagine,” Strether then noted, “how a young guy with any spirit—like you, for instance—can see that young lady without being seriously affected. Why don’t you go for it, little Bilham?” He remembered the tone he had gotten carried away with on the garden bench at the sculptor’s reception, and he hoped this would make up for it by being much more appropriate advice for a young man deserving of any guidance at all. “There would be some reason.”
“Some reason for what?”
"What's the reason for that?"
“Why for hanging on here.”
"Why are you still here?"
“To offer my hand and fortune to Mademoiselle de Vionnet?”
“To offer my hand and fortune to Miss de Vionnet?”
“Well,” Strether asked, “to what lovelier apparition could you offer them? She’s the sweetest little thing I’ve ever seen.”
“Well,” Strether asked, “what more beautiful sight could you show them? She’s the sweetest little thing I’ve ever seen.”
“She’s certainly immense. I mean she’s the real thing. I believe the pale pink petals are folded up there for some wondrous efflorescence in time; to open, that is, to some great golden sun. I’m unfortunately but a small farthing candle. What chance in such a field for a poor little painter-man?”
“She’s definitely something special. I mean, she’s the real deal. I think those pale pink petals are tucked away, waiting for some amazing bloom in the future; to open up, that is, to a big, bright golden sun. I’m just a small candle. What chance do I have in such a vast field for a struggling painter?”
“Oh you’re good enough,” Strether threw out.
“Oh, you’re good enough,” Strether said.
“Certainly I’m good enough. We’re good enough, I consider, nous autres, for anything. But she’s too good. There’s the difference. They wouldn’t look at me.”
“Sure, I’m good enough. We’re good enough, I think, we others, for anything. But she’s too good. That’s the difference. They wouldn’t pay attention to me.”
Strether, lounging on his divan and still charmed by the young girl, whose eyes had consciously strayed to him, he fancied, with a vague smile—Strether, enjoying the whole occasion as with dormant pulses at last awake and in spite of new material thrust upon him, thought over his companion’s words. “Whom do you mean by ‘they’? She and her mother?”
Strether, lounging on his couch and still fascinated by the young girl, whose eyes he believed had intentionally wandered to him with a slight smile—Strether, enjoying the entire situation as if his previously dormant feelings were finally coming to life, and despite the new information being presented to him, reflected on his companion’s words. “Who do you mean by ‘they’? Her and her mother?”
“She and her mother. And she has a father too, who, whatever else he may be, certainly can’t be indifferent to the possibilities she represents. Besides, there’s Chad.”
“She and her mom. And she has a dad too, who, no matter what else he is, definitely can’t be indifferent to the opportunities she represents. Plus, there’s Chad.”
Strether was silent a little. “Ah but he doesn’t care for her—not, I mean, it appears, after all, in the sense I’m speaking of. He’s not in love with her.”
Strether was quiet for a moment. “But he doesn’t care about her—not, I mean, it seems, really, in the way I'm referring to. He’s not in love with her.”
“No—but he’s her best friend; after her mother. He’s very fond of her. He has his ideas about what can be done for her.”
“No—but he’s her best friend; after her mom. He cares about her a lot. He has his thoughts on how to help her.”
“Well, it’s very strange!” Strether presently remarked with a sighing sense of fulness.
“Well, it’s really strange!” Strether finally said with a sigh, feeling a sense of completeness.
“Very strange indeed. That’s just the beauty of it. Isn’t it very much the kind of beauty you had in mind,” little Bilham went on, “when you were so wonderful and so inspiring to me the other day? Didn’t you adjure me, in accents I shall never forget, to see, while I’ve a chance, everything I can?—and really to see, for it must have been that only you meant. Well, you did me no end of good, and I’m doing my best. I do make it out a situation.”
“Very strange indeed. That's just the beauty of it. Isn’t it exactly the kind of beauty you had in mind,” little Bilham continued, “when you were so amazing and inspiring to me the other day? Didn’t you urge me, in words I’ll never forget, to see as much as I can while I have the chance?—and to really see, because that must have been what you meant. Well, you did me a world of good, and I’m doing my best. I really do make it a situation.”
“So do I!” Strether went on after a moment. But he had the next minute an inconsequent question. “How comes Chad so mixed up, anyway?”
“So do I!” Strether continued after a moment. But then he had an odd question. “How did Chad get so tangled up, anyway?”
“Ah, ah, ah!”—and little Bilham fell back on his cushions.
“Ah, ah, ah!”—and little Bilham collapsed onto his cushions.
It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt again the brush of his sense of moving in a maze of mystic closed allusions. Yet he kept hold of his thread. “Of course I understand really; only the general transformation makes me occasionally gasp. Chad with such a voice in the settlement of the future of a little countess—no,” he declared, “it takes more time! You say moreover,” he resumed, “that we’re inevitably, people like you and me, out of the running. The curious fact remains that Chad himself isn’t. The situation doesn’t make for it, but in a different one he could have her if he would.”
It reminded our friend of Miss Barrace, and he felt once again the sensation of navigating a maze of mysterious hidden references. Yet he held onto his thread. “Of course I really understand; it’s just that the overall change sometimes takes my breath away. Chad having such a say in the future of a little countess—no,” he declared, “that will take more time! You also say,” he continued, “that people like you and me are inevitably out of the running. The interesting thing is that Chad himself isn’t. The situation doesn’t suggest that, but in a different one, he could have her if he wanted.”
“Yes, but that’s only because he’s rich and because there’s a possibility of his being richer. They won’t think of anything but a great name or a great fortune.”
“Yes, but that’s only because he’s wealthy and there’s a chance he could become even wealthier. They only care about a big name or a lot of money.”
“Well,” said Strether, “he’ll have no great fortune on these lines. He must stir his stumps.”
“Well,” said Strether, “he won’t have much luck with that. He needs to get moving.”
“Is that,” little Bilham enquired, “what you were saying to Madame de Vionnet?”
“Is that what you were saying to Madame de Vionnet?” little Bilham asked.
“No—I don’t say much to her. Of course, however,” Strether continued, “he can make sacrifices if he likes.”
“No—I don’t talk to her much. But,” Strether went on, “he can make sacrifices if he wants to.”
Little Bilham had a pause. “Oh he’s not keen for sacrifices; or thinks, that is, possibly, that he has made enough.”
Little Bilham hesitated. “Oh, he’s not really into sacrifices; or he thinks, maybe, that he’s done enough already.”
“Well, it is virtuous,” his companion observed with some decision.
“Well, it is virtuous,” his companion noted firmly.
“That’s exactly,” the young man dropped after a moment, “what I mean.”
"That’s exactly what I mean," the young man said after a moment.
It kept Strether himself silent a little. “I’ve made it out for myself,” he then went on; “I’ve really, within the last half-hour, got hold of it. I understand it in short at last; which at first—when you originally spoke to me—I didn’t. Nor when Chad originally spoke to me either.”
It kept Strether quiet for a moment. “I’ve figured it out for myself,” he continued; “I’ve really just grasped it in the last half-hour. I finally understand it, which at first—when you first talked to me—I didn’t. Nor did I when Chad first talked to me either.”
“Oh,” said little Bilham, “I don’t think that at that time you believed me.”
“Oh,” said little Bilham, “I don’t think you believed me back then.”
“Yes—I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been odious and unmannerly—as well as quite perverse—if I hadn’t. What interest have you in deceiving me?”
“Yes—I did; and I believed Chad too. It would have been rude and disrespectful—also pretty twisted—if I hadn’t. Why would you want to fool me?”
The young man cast about. “What interest have I?”
The young man looked around. “What do I care?”
“Yes. Chad might have. But you?”
“Yes. Chad might have. What about you?”
“Ah, ah, ah!” little Bilham exclaimed.
“Ah, ah, ah!” little Bilham exclaimed.
It might, on repetition, as a mystification, have irritated our friend a little, but he knew, once more, as we have seen, where he was, and his being proof against everything was only another attestation that he meant to stay there. “I couldn’t, without my own impression, realise. She’s a tremendously clever brilliant capable woman, and with an extraordinary charm on top of it all—the charm we surely all of us this evening know what to think of. It isn’t every clever brilliant capable woman that has it. In fact it’s rare with any woman. So there you are,” Strether proceeded as if not for little Bilham’s benefit alone. “I understand what a relation with such a woman—what such a high fine friendship—may be. It can’t be vulgar or coarse, anyway—and that’s the point.”
It might have annoyed our friend a bit after hearing it repeatedly, but he knew, as we've seen, exactly where he was, and his ability to withstand everything was just another sign that he intended to stay. “I couldn’t truly understand without my own thoughts. She’s an incredibly smart and capable woman, with an extraordinary charm on top of it all—the charm we all clearly recognize this evening. Not every smart and capable woman has that. In fact, it's rare for any woman. So there you have it,” Strether continued, as if not just for little Bilham’s sake. “I understand what it means to have a relationship with such a woman—what a high-quality friendship entails. It can’t be vulgar or crude, at any rate—and that’s the key point.”
“Yes, that’s the point,” said little Bilham. “It can’t be vulgar or coarse. And, bless us and save us, it isn’t! It’s, upon my word, the very finest thing I ever saw in my life, and the most distinguished.”
“Yes, that’s the point,” said little Bilham. “It can’t be tacky or rude. And, bless us and save us, it isn’t! It’s, honestly, the very best thing I’ve ever seen in my life, and the most classy.”
Strether, from beside him and leaning back with him as he leaned, dropped on him a momentary look which filled a short interval and of which he took no notice. He only gazed before him with intent participation. “Of course what it has done for him,” Strether at all events presently pursued, “of course what it has done for him—that is as to how it has so wonderfully worked—isn’t a thing I pretend to understand. I’ve to take it as I find it. There he is.”
Strether, leaning back next to him, shot him a quick glance that filled a brief moment, though he didn't notice it. He just stared ahead with focused attention. “Of course what it has done for him,” Strether then continued, “what it has done for him—that is, how it has worked so incredibly—it's not something I claim to understand. I just have to accept it as it is. There he is.”
“There he is!” little Bilham echoed. “And it’s really and truly she. I don’t understand either, even with my longer and closer opportunity. But I’m like you,” he added; “I can admire and rejoice even when I’m a little in the dark. You see I’ve watched it for some three years, and especially for this last. He wasn’t so bad before it as I seem to have made out that you think—”
“There he is!” little Bilham exclaimed. “And it’s really her. I don’t get it either, even with my longer and closer look. But I’m just like you,” he added; “I can admire and celebrate even when I’m a bit confused. You see, I’ve been watching for about three years, especially this last one. He wasn’t as bad before as I think you believe—”
“Oh I don’t think anything now!” Strether impatiently broke in: “that is but what I do think! I mean that originally, for her to have cared for him—”
“Oh, I don’t think anything now!” Strether interrupted impatiently. “That’s what I do think! I mean that at first, for her to have cared for him—”
“There must have been stuff in him? Oh yes, there was stuff indeed, and much more of it than ever showed, I dare say, at home. Still, you know,” the young man in all fairness developed, “there was room for her, and that’s where she came in. She saw her chance and took it. That’s what strikes me as having been so fine. But of course,” he wound up, “he liked her first.”
“There must have been something inside him? Oh yeah, there was definitely something, and probably a lot more than he ever showed at home. Still, you know,” the young man fairly explained, “there was room for her, and that’s when she stepped in. She saw her opportunity and took it. That’s what I think is really impressive. But of course,” he concluded, “he liked her first.”
“Naturally,” said Strether.
"Of course," said Strether.
“I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere—I believe in some American house—and she, without in the least then intending it, made her impression. Then with time and opportunity he made his; and after that she was as bad as he.”
“I mean that they first met somehow and somewhere—I think in some American house—and she, without even trying at the time, made her impression. Then, given time and opportunity, he made his; and after that, she was just as bad as he was.”
Strether vaguely took it up. “As ‘bad’?”
Strether hesitantly replied, “As ‘bad’?”
“She began, that is, to care—to care very much. Alone, and in her horrid position, she found it, when once she had started, an interest. It was, it is, an interest, and it did—it continues to do—a lot for herself as well. So she still cares. She cares in fact,” said little Bilham thoughtfully “more.”
“She started to care—like, really care. Alone, and in her terrible situation, she found that once she began, it sparked an interest. It was, it is, an interest, and it did—it still does—a lot for her too. So she still cares. She actually cares,” said little Bilham thoughtfully, “even more.”
Strether’s theory that it was none of his business was somehow not damaged by the way he took this. “More, you mean, than he?” On which his companion looked round at him, and now for an instant their eyes met. “More than he?” he repeated.
Strether’s belief that it wasn’t his concern wasn’t really affected by his reaction. “More, you mean, than him?” At this, his companion turned to him, and for a moment their eyes locked. “More than him?” he repeated.
Little Bilham, for as long, hung fire. “Will you never tell any one?”
Little Bilham, all this time, hesitated. “Will you never tell anyone?”
Strether thought. “Whom should I tell?”
Strether wondered, "Who should I tell?"
“Why I supposed you reported regularly—”
“Why I thought you reported regularly—”
“To people at home?”—Strether took him up. “Well, I won’t tell them this.”
“To people at home?”—Strether responded. “Well, I won’t mention this.”
The young man at last looked away. “Then she does now care more than he.”
The young man finally looked away. “So she cares more now than he does.”
“Oh!” Strether oddly exclaimed.
“Oh!” Strether exclaimed oddly.
But his companion immediately met it. “Haven’t you after all had your impression of it? That’s how you’ve got hold of him.”
But his friend quickly responded, “Haven’t you formed your own opinion about it? That’s how you’ve got him figured out.”
“Ah but I haven’t got hold of him!”
“Ah, but I haven’t managed to reach him!”
“Oh I say!” But it was all little Bilham said.
“Oh wow!” But that was all little Bilham said.
“It’s at any rate none of my business. I mean,” Strether explained, “nothing else than getting hold of him is.” It appeared, however, to strike him as his business to add: “The fact remains nevertheless that she has saved him.”
“It’s really none of my business. I mean,” Strether explained, “the only thing that matters is getting hold of him.” It seemed, however, to strike him as his business to add: “The fact remains that she has saved him.”
Little Bilham just waited. “I thought that was what you were to do.”
Little Bilham just waited. “I thought that’s what you were supposed to do.”
But Strether had his answer ready. “I’m speaking—in connexion with her—of his manners and morals, his character and life. I’m speaking of him as a person to deal with and talk with and live with—speaking of him as a social animal.”
But Strether had his answer ready. “I’m talking—related to her—about his manners and morals, his character and life. I’m discussing him as someone to interact with, talk to, and live with—talking about him as a social being.”
“And isn’t it as a social animal that you also want him?”
“And isn’t it because you’re a social creature that you want him too?”
“Certainly; so that it’s as if she had saved him for us.”
“Absolutely; it’s like she saved him for us.”
“It strikes you accordingly then,” the young man threw out, “as for you all to save her?”
“It hits you like that then,” the young man said, “that you all should save her?”
“Oh for us ‘all’—!” Strether could but laugh at that. It brought him back, however, to the point he had really wished to make. “They’ve accepted their situation—hard as it is. They’re not free—at least she’s not; but they take what’s left to them. It’s a friendship, of a beautiful sort; and that’s what makes them so strong. They’re straight, they feel; and they keep each other up. It’s doubtless she, however, who, as you yourself have hinted, feels it most.”
“Oh, for all of us—!” Strether could only laugh at that. It brought him back to the point he really wanted to make. “They’ve accepted their situation—no matter how tough it is. They’re not free—at least she isn’t; but they take what they have. It’s a friendship, of a beautiful kind; and that’s what makes them so strong. They’re honest, they feel deeply; and they support each other. It’s definitely her, though, who, as you’ve mentioned, feels it the most.”
Little Bilham appeared to wonder what he had hinted. “Feels most that they’re straight?”
Little Bilham seemed to be curious about what he had suggested. “Does it seem like they’re straight?”
“Well, feels that she is, and the strength that comes from it. She keeps him up—she keeps the whole thing up. When people are able to it’s fine. She’s wonderful, wonderful, as Miss Barrace says; and he is, in his way, too; however, as a mere man, he may sometimes rebel and not feel that he finds his account in it. She has simply given him an immense moral lift, and what that can explain is prodigious. That’s why I speak of it as a situation. It is one, if there ever was.” And Strether, with his head back and his eyes on the ceiling, seemed to lose himself in the vision of it.
“Well, she certainly feels that way, and the strength that comes with it. She keeps him going—she keeps the whole thing going. When people are able to do that, it’s great. She’s amazing, amazing, just like Miss Barrace says; and he is too, in his own way; however, as just a man, he might sometimes push back and not feel like he’s getting anything out of it. She has given him an incredible moral boost, and the significance of that is huge. That’s why I refer to it as a situation. It really is one, without a doubt.” And Strether, with his head tilted back and his eyes on the ceiling, seemed to get lost in the idea of it.
His companion attended deeply. “You state it much better than I could.” “Oh you see it doesn’t concern you.”
His companion listened intently. “You express it way better than I could.” “Oh, you see, it doesn’t affect you.”
Little Bilham considered. “I thought you said just now that it doesn’t concern you either.”
Little Bilham thought for a moment. “I thought you just said that it doesn’t concern you either.”
“Well, it doesn’t a bit as Madame de Vionnet’s affair. But as we were again saying just now, what did I come out for but to save him?”
“Well, it doesn’t have anything to do with Madame de Vionnet’s situation. But as we were just discussing, what did I come out for if not to save him?”
“Yes—to remove him.”
"Yes—to take him out."
“To save him by removal; to win him over to himself thinking it best he shall take up business—thinking he must immediately do therefore what’s necessary to that end.”
“To save him by removal; to win him over to himself thinking it’s best he should take up business—thinking he must immediately do what’s necessary for that.”
“Well,” said little Bilham after a moment, “you have won him over. He does think it best. He has within a day or two again said to me as much.”
“Well,” said little Bilham after a moment, “you have won him over. He really does think it’s for the best. He mentioned it to me again in the past day or two.”
“And that,” Strether asked, “is why you consider that he cares less than she?”
“And that,” Strether asked, “is why you think he cares less than she does?”
“Cares less for her than she for him? Yes, that’s one of the reasons. But other things too have given me the impression. A man, don’t you think?” little Bilham presently pursued, “Can’t, in such conditions, care so much as a woman. It takes different conditions to make him, and then perhaps he cares more. Chad,” he wound up, “has his possible future before him.”
“Cares less for her than she does for him? Yes, that’s one of the reasons. But other things have also led me to think that way. A man, don’t you agree?” little Bilham continued, “Can’t, under those circumstances, care as much as a woman. It takes different circumstances to make him feel that way, and then maybe he cares more. Chad,” he concluded, “has his possible future ahead of him.”
“Are you speaking of his business future?”
“Are you talking about his business future?”
“No—on the contrary; of the other, the future of what you so justly call their situation. M. de Vionnet may live for ever.”
“No—on the contrary; regarding the other, the future of what you rightly call their situation. M. de Vionnet could live forever.”
“So that they can’t marry?”
“So they can’t get married?”
The young man waited a moment. “Not being able to marry is all they’ve with any confidence to look forward to. A woman—a particular woman—may stand that strain. But can a man?” he propounded.
The young man paused for a moment. “Not being able to marry is all they have to look forward to with any confidence. A woman—a specific woman—might be able to handle that pressure. But can a man?” he asked.
Strether’s answer was as prompt as if he had already, for himself, worked it out. “Not without a very high ideal of conduct. But that’s just what we’re attributing to Chad. And how, for that matter,” he mused, “does his going to America diminish the particular strain? Wouldn’t it seem rather to add to it?”
Strether responded quickly, as if he had already figured it out. “Not without a very high standard of behavior. But that’s exactly what we’re giving Chad credit for. And how, by the way,” he wondered, “does his going to America reduce that specific pressure? Wouldn’t it actually seem to increase it?”
“Out of sight out of mind!” his companion laughed. Then more bravely: “Wouldn’t distance lessen the torment?” But before Strether could reply, “The thing is, you see, Chad ought to marry!” he wound up.
“Out of sight, out of mind!” his friend laughed. Then, with more courage: “Wouldn't being far away ease the pain?” But before Strether could respond, he finished with, “The thing is, you know, Chad should get married!”
Strether, for a little, appeared to think of it. “If you talk of torments you don’t diminish mine!” he then broke out. The next moment he was on his feet with a question. “He ought to marry whom?”
Strether seemed to think about it for a moment. “If you talk about torments, you’re not helping mine!” he suddenly exclaimed. The next moment, he was on his feet with a question. “Who should he marry?”
Little Bilham rose more slowly. “Well, some one he can—some thoroughly nice girl.”
Little Bilham got up more slowly. “Well, someone he can—some really nice girl.”
Strether’s eyes, as they stood together, turned again to Jeanne. “Do you mean her?”
Strether's eyes, while they stood together, looked back at Jeanne. "Are you talking about her?"
His friend made a sudden strange face. “After being in love with her mother? No.”
His friend made a sudden, odd expression. “After being in love with her mom? No.”
“But isn’t it exactly your idea that he isn’t in love with her mother?”
“But isn’t it exactly your idea that he isn’t in love with her mom?”
His friend once more had a pause. “Well, he isn’t at any rate in love with Jeanne.”
His friend paused again. “Well, he definitely isn’t in love with Jeanne.”
“I dare say not.”
"I don't think so."
“How can he be with any other woman?”
“How can he be with any other woman?”
“Oh that I admit. But being in love isn’t, you know, here”—little Bilham spoke in friendly reminder—“thought necessary, in strictness, for marriage.”
“Oh, I acknowledge that. But being in love isn’t, you know, here”—little Bilham pointed out in a friendly reminder—“considered strictly necessary for marriage.”
“And what torment—to call a torment—can there ever possibly be with a woman like that?” As if from the interest of his own question Strether had gone on without hearing. “Is it for her to have turned a man out so wonderfully, too, only for somebody else?” He appeared to make a point of this, and little Bilham looked at him now. “When it’s for each other that people give things up they don’t miss them.” Then he threw off as with an extravagance of which he was conscious: “Let them face the future together!”
“And what kind of torment—if you can even call it that—could there possibly be with a woman like her?” It seemed that Strether was so engrossed in his own question that he didn’t hear what he was saying. “Is it really her doing, to have transformed a man so impressively, only for someone else?” He seemed to emphasize this point, and little Bilham now looked at him. “When people give things up for each other, they don’t really miss what they've lost.” Then he added with an intentional flair, “Let them face the future together!”
Little Bilham looked at him indeed. “You mean that after all he shouldn’t go back?”
Little Bilham looked at him. “Are you saying that he shouldn’t go back after all?”
“I mean that if he gives her up—!”
“I mean that if he lets her go—!”
“Yes?”
"Yes?"
“Well, he ought to be ashamed of himself.” But Strether spoke with a sound that might have passed for a laugh.
“Well, he should be ashamed of himself.” But Strether said it with a tone that could have been mistaken for a laugh.
Book Seventh
I
It wasn’t the first time Strether had sat alone in the great dim church—still less was it the first of his giving himself up, so far as conditions permitted, to its beneficent action on his nerves. He had been to Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had been there with Miss Gostrey, he had been there with Chad Newsome, and had found the place, even in company, such a refuge from the obsession of his problem that, with renewed pressure from that source, he had not unnaturally recurred to a remedy meeting the case, for the moment, so indirectly, no doubt, but so relievingly. He was conscious enough that it was only for the moment, but good moments—if he could call them good—still had their value for a man who by this time struck himself as living almost disgracefully from hand to mouth. Having so well learnt the way, he had lately made the pilgrimage more than once by himself—had quite stolen off, taking an unnoticed chance and making no point of speaking of the adventure when restored to his friends.
It wasn’t the first time Strether had sat alone in the big dim church—nor was it the first time he had allowed himself, as much as circumstances allowed, to benefit from its calming effect on his nerves. He had been to Notre Dame with Waymarsh, he had gone there with Miss Gostrey, and he had visited with Chad Newsome, finding the place, even with company, to be such a refuge from the pressure of his problem that, feeling that pressure again, he had naturally turned back to a solution that fit the situation, even if only temporarily, but felt so relieving. He was aware that it was just for the moment, but good moments—if he could even call them good—still mattered to someone who, by this point, felt like he was living almost shamefully from day to day. Having become familiar with the route, he had recently made the trip several times by himself—he had quietly slipped away, taking a chance without mentioning the outing when he returned to his friends.
His great friend, for that matter, was still absent, as well as remarkably silent; even at the end of three weeks Miss Gostrey hadn’t come back. She wrote to him from Mentone, admitting that he must judge her grossly inconsequent—perhaps in fact for the time odiously faithless; but asking for patience, for a deferred sentence, throwing herself in short on his generosity. For her too, she could assure him, life was complicated—more complicated than he could have guessed; she had moreover made certain of him—certain of not wholly missing him on her return—before her disappearance. If furthermore she didn’t burden him with letters it was frankly because of her sense of the other great commerce he had to carry on. He himself, at the end of a fortnight, had written twice, to show how his generosity could be trusted; but he reminded himself in each case of Mrs. Newsome’s epistolary manner at the times when Mrs. Newsome kept off delicate ground. He sank his problem, he talked of Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, of little Bilham and the set over the river, with whom he had again had tea, and he was easy, for convenience, about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne. He admitted that he continued to see them, he was decidedly so confirmed a haunter of Chad’s premises and that young man’s practical intimacy with them was so undeniably great; but he had his reason for not attempting to render for Miss Gostrey’s benefit the impression of these last days. That would be to tell her too much about himself—it being at present just from himself he was trying to escape.
His close friend, by the way, was still missing and surprisingly quiet; even after three weeks, Miss Gostrey hadn’t returned. She wrote to him from Mentone, acknowledging that he might think she was being wildly inconsistent—perhaps even dreadfully unfaithful for the time being; but she was asking for patience, for a postponed judgment, throwing herself on his kindness. She assured him that life was complicated for her too—more complicated than he might have guessed; she had also made sure of him—sure that she wouldn’t completely miss him when she got back—before she disappeared. If she wasn’t flooding him with letters, it was simply because she understood the other important matters he had to deal with. He, after a couple of weeks, had written twice to show that his generosity could be counted on; but he reminded himself each time of Mrs. Newsome’s writing style when she avoided sensitive topics. He buried his issues, talking about Waymarsh and Miss Barrace, about little Bilham and the group across the river, with whom he had once again had tea, and he pretended to be relaxed about Chad and Madame de Vionnet and Jeanne. He admitted that he kept seeing them; he was certainly a regular visitor to Chad’s place, and that young man had a tight connection with them, but he had his reasons for not trying to give Miss Gostrey the impression of these recent days. That would be revealing too much about himself—it was from himself that he was currently trying to escape.
This small struggle sprang not a little, in its way, from the same impulse that had now carried him across to Notre Dame; the impulse to let things be, to give them time to justify themselves or at least to pass. He was aware of having no errand in such a place but the desire not to be, for the hour, in certain other places; a sense of safety, of simplification, which each time he yielded to it he amused himself by thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The great church had no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it was none the less soothing even to sanctity; for he could feel while there what he couldn’t elsewhere, that he was a plain tired man taking the holiday he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn’t plain—that was the pity and the trouble of it; he was able, however, to drop his problem at the door very much as if it had been the copper piece that he deposited, on the threshold, in the receptacle of the inveterate blind beggar. He trod the long dim nave, sat in the splendid choir, paused before the cluttered chapels of the east end, and the mighty monument laid upon him its spell. He might have been a student under the charm of a museum—which was exactly what, in a foreign town, in the afternoon of life, he would have liked to be free to be. This form of sacrifice did at any rate for the occasion as well as another; it made him quite sufficiently understand how, within the precinct, for the real refugee, the things of the world could fall into abeyance. That was the cowardice, probably—to dodge them, to beg the question, not to deal with it in the hard outer light; but his own oblivions were too brief, too vain, to hurt any one but himself, and he had a vague and fanciful kindness for certain persons whom he met, figures of mystery and anxiety, and whom, with observation for his pastime, he ranked as those who were fleeing from justice. Justice was outside, in the hard light, and injustice too; but one was as absent as the other from the air of the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars.
This small struggle came, in its own way, from the same impulse that had brought him to Notre Dame; the urge to let things be, to give them time to make sense or at least to pass. He knew he had no real reason to be in such a place other than his desire not to be, for that hour, in certain other places; a sense of safety, of simplicity, which he amused himself by thinking of as a private concession to cowardice. The great church had no altar for his worship, no direct voice for his soul; but it was still comforting even in its holiness; for he could feel while there what he couldn’t anywhere else, that he was just a plain tired man taking the break he had earned. He was tired, but he wasn’t plain—that was the pity and the trouble of it; however, he could drop his problem at the door much like he had deposited a coin at the threshold in the receptacle of the persistent blind beggar. He walked the long dim nave, sat in the magnificent choir, paused before the cluttered chapels at the east end, and the grand monument cast its spell on him. He might have been a student enchanted by a museum—which was exactly what, in a foreign town, in the afternoon of his life, he would have loved to be free to be. This form of sacrifice worked just fine for the occasion; it helped him understand how, within the sanctuary, for the real refugee, the things of the world could fade away. That was probably the cowardice—to avoid them, to sidestep the issue, not to confront it in the harsh outer light; but his own forgetfulness was too short-lived, too trivial, to hurt anyone but himself, and he had a vague, imaginative kindness for certain people he encountered, figures of mystery and concern, whom he ranked, with observation as his pastime, as those fleeing from justice. Justice was outside, in the harsh light, and so was injustice; but both were as absent from the air of the long aisles and the brightness of the many altars.
Thus it was at all events that, one morning some dozen days after the dinner in the Boulevard Malesherbes at which Madame de Vionnet had been present with her daughter, he was called upon to play his part in an encounter that deeply stirred his imagination. He had the habit, in these contemplations, of watching a fellow visitant, here and there, from a respectable distance, remarking some note of behaviour, of penitence, of prostration, of the absolved, relieved state; this was the manner in which his vague tenderness took its course, the degree of demonstration to which it naturally had to confine itself. It hadn’t indeed so felt its responsibility as when on this occasion he suddenly measured the suggestive effect of a lady whose supreme stillness, in the shade of one of the chapels, he had two or three times noticed as he made, and made once more, his slow circuit. She wasn’t prostrate—not in any degree bowed, but she was strangely fixed, and her prolonged immobility showed her, while he passed and paused, as wholly given up to the need, whatever it was, that had brought her there. She only sat and gazed before her, as he himself often sat; but she had placed herself, as he never did, within the focus of the shrine, and she had lost herself, he could easily see, as he would only have liked to do. She was not a wandering alien, keeping back more than she gave, but one of the familiar, the intimate, the fortunate, for whom these dealings had a method and a meaning. She reminded our friend—since it was the way of nine tenths of his current impressions to act as recalls of things imagined—of some fine firm concentrated heroine of an old story, something he had heard, read, something that, had he had a hand for drama, he might himself have written, renewing her courage, renewing her clearness, in splendidly-protected meditation. Her back, as she sat, was turned to him, but his impression absolutely required that she should be young and interesting, and she carried her head moreover, even in the sacred shade, with a discernible faith in herself, a kind of implied conviction of consistency, security, impunity. But what had such a woman come for if she hadn’t come to pray? Strether’s reading of such matters was, it must be owned, confused; but he wondered if her attitude were some congruous fruit of absolution, of “indulgence.” He knew but dimly what indulgence, in such a place, might mean; yet he had, as with a soft sweep, a vision of how it might indeed add to the zest of active rites. All this was a good deal to have been denoted by a mere lurking figure who was nothing to him; but, the last thing before leaving the church, he had the surprise of a still deeper quickening.
One morning, a few days after the dinner on Boulevard Malesherbes with Madame de Vionnet and her daughter, he found himself involved in a moment that profoundly captivated his imagination. He often observed fellow visitors from a distance, noting behaviors like repentance, humility, and the state of those who felt absolved and relieved; this was how his vague tenderness expressed itself, limited to this kind of subtle demonstration. But on this occasion, he suddenly sensed the powerful influence of a woman whose stillness in the shade of one of the chapels he had noticed a few times as he made his slow rounds. She wasn't on her knees or bowed down; rather, she was oddly fixed in place, and her long immobility revealed that she was completely absorbed in whatever need had driven her there. She simply sat and stared ahead, similar to how he often did, but she had positioned herself, unlike him, right in front of the shrine, and she had completely lost herself, which he secretly wished to do. She wasn’t an outsider holding back; she was familiar, intimate, fortunate—a person for whom these moments had significance and purpose. She reminded him, as most of his current impressions did, of a refined and determined heroine from an old tale, something he had heard or read about, that if he had been a playwright, he might have created—regaining her strength and clarity in a beautifully protected state of contemplation. Her back was to him, but he felt she must be young and intriguing, holding her head high even in the sacred shadow, exuding a sense of self-assurance, consistency, and security. But why had such a woman come if not to pray? He confessed his thoughts were muddled about such matters, but he wondered if her posture was a fitting result of absolution or “indulgence.” He only vaguely understood what indulgence might mean in such a setting, yet he envisioned how it could enhance the experience of active worship. It was remarkable that a mere shadowy figure could convey so much; however, just before leaving the church, he experienced an even deeper awakening.
He had dropped upon a seat halfway down the nave and, again in the museum mood, was trying with head thrown back and eyes aloft, to reconstitute a past, to reduce it in fact to the convenient terms of Victor Hugo, whom, a few days before, giving the rein for once in a way to the joy of life, he had purchased in seventy bound volumes, a miracle of cheapness, parted with, he was assured by the shopman, at the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, doubtless, while he played his eternal nippers over Gothic glooms, sufficiently rapt in reverence; but what his thought had finally bumped against was the question of where, among packed accumulations, so multiform a wedge would be able to enter. Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold to be perhaps what he should most substantially have to show at Woollett as the fruit of his mission? It was a possibility that held him a minute—held him till he happened to feel that some one, unnoticed, had approached him and paused. Turning, he saw that a lady stood there as for a greeting, and he sprang up as he next took her, securely, for Madame de Vionnet, who appeared to have recognised him as she passed near him on her way to the door. She checked, quickly and gaily, a certain confusion in him, came to meet it, turned it back, by an art of her own; the confusion having threatened him as he knew her for the person he had lately been observing. She was the lurking figure of the dim chapel; she had occupied him more than she guessed; but it came to him in time, luckily, that he needn’t tell her and that no harm, after all, had been done. She herself, for that matter, straightway showing she felt their encounter as the happiest of accidents, had for him a “You come here too?” that despoiled surprise of every awkwardness.
He had dropped into a seat halfway down the nave and, once again in a museum mood, was trying, with his head thrown back and eyes up, to piece together a past, to reduce it really to the convenient terms of Victor Hugo, whom, a few days earlier, he had decided to indulge in by buying in seventy bound volumes, an incredible bargain, he was assured by the shopkeeper, costing no more than the price of the red-and-gold alone. He looked, probably, while he played his eternal fidget with the Gothic shadows, clearly lost in reverence; but what his mind had finally stumbled upon was the question of where, among all these packed up things, such a diverse collection would fit in. Were seventy volumes in red-and-gold perhaps going to be what he would most distinctly have to show at Woollett as the result of his mission? It was a thought that held him for a moment—held him until he noticed that someone had quietly approached him and stopped. Turning around, he saw a lady standing there as if to greet him, and he quickly stood up, recognizing her securely as Madame de Vionnet, who seemed to have recognized him as she passed by on her way to the door. She quickly and cheerfully eased some confusion he felt, coming to meet it and turning it back with her own charm; the confusion had threatened him as he recognized her as the person he had recently been observing. She was the shadowy figure from the dim chapel; she had occupied more of his thoughts than she realized; but luckily, he realized in time that he didn’t need to tell her and that, after all, no harm had been done. She immediately showed that she felt their encounter was the happiest of accidents, greeting him with a “You come here too?” that stripped the surprise of all awkwardness.
“I come often,” she said. “I love this place, but I’m terrible, in general, for churches. The old women who live in them all know me; in fact I’m already myself one of the old women. It’s like that, at all events, that I foresee I shall end.” Looking about for a chair, so that he instantly pulled one nearer, she sat down with him again to the sound of an “Oh, I like so much your also being fond—!”
“I come here a lot,” she said. “I love this place, but I’m generally not great with churches. The older women who hang out here all know me; in fact, I’m already one of the older women myself. That’s how I see my future, anyway.” Looking for a chair, he quickly pulled one closer, and she sat down with him again to the sound of an “Oh, I really like that you’re fond of—!”
He confessed the extent of his feeling, though she left the object vague; and he was struck with the tact, the taste of her vagueness, which simply took for granted in him a sense of beautiful things. He was conscious of how much it was affected, this sense, by something subdued and discreet in the way she had arranged herself for her special object and her morning walk—he believed her to have come on foot; the way her slightly thicker veil was drawn—a mere touch, but everything; the composed gravity of her dress, in which, here and there, a dull wine-colour seemed to gleam faintly through black; the charming discretion of her small compact head; the quiet note, as she sat, of her folded, grey-gloved hands. It was, to Strether’s mind, as if she sat on her own ground, the light honours of which, at an open gate, she thus easily did him, while all the vastness and mystery of the domain stretched off behind. When people were so completely in possession they could be extraordinarily civil; and our friend had indeed at this hour a kind of revelation of her heritage. She was romantic for him far beyond what she could have guessed, and again he found his small comfort in the conviction that, subtle though she was, his impression must remain a secret from her. The thing that, once more, made him uneasy for secrets in general was this particular patience she could have with his own want of colour; albeit that on the other hand his uneasiness pretty well dropped after he had been for ten minutes as colourless as possible and at the same time as responsive.
He admitted how he felt, even though she kept it vague; and he was impressed by the skill and elegance of her vagueness, which assumed he had an appreciation for beautiful things. He noticed how much this appreciation was influenced by something subtle and understated in how she had prepared for her specific purpose and her morning walk—he believed she had walked here; the way her slightly thicker veil was arranged—a simple detail, but significant; the calm elegance of her outfit, where, here and there, a dull wine color seemed to softly shine through the black; the charming restraint of her petite, compact head; the serene look of her folded grey-gloved hands as she sat. To Strether, it felt as though she occupied her own territory, where she effortlessly granted him the light courtesies at an open gate, while the vastness and mystery of the area extended behind her. When people were so completely at ease, they could be incredibly polite; and at this moment, he had a sort of revelation about her background. She seemed romantic to him far beyond what she could have realized, and he found a small comfort in the belief that, as subtle as she was, his impression of her would stay a secret from her. What made him uneasy about secrets in general was her particular patience with his own lack of vibrancy; although, on the other hand, his uneasiness mostly faded after he had spent ten minutes being as colorless as possible while still remaining responsive.
The moments had already, for that matter, drawn their deepest tinge from the special interest excited in him by his vision of his companion’s identity with the person whose attitude before the glimmering altar had so impressed him. This attitude fitted admirably into the stand he had privately taken about her connexion with Chad on the last occasion of his seeing them together. It helped him to stick fast at the point he had then reached; it was there he had resolved that he would stick, and at no moment since had it seemed as easy to do so. Unassailably innocent was a relation that could make one of the parties to it so carry herself. If it wasn’t innocent why did she haunt the churches?—into which, given the woman he could believe he made out, she would never have come to flaunt an insolence of guilt. She haunted them for continued help, for strength, for peace—sublime support which, if one were able to look at it so, she found from day to day. They talked, in low easy tones and with lifted lingering looks, about the great monument and its history and its beauty—all of which, Madame de Vionnet professed, came to her most in the other, the outer view. “We’ll presently, after we go,” she said, “walk round it again if you like. I’m not in a particular hurry, and it will be pleasant to look at it well with you.” He had spoken of the great romancer and the great romance, and of what, to his imagination, they had done for the whole, mentioning to her moreover the exorbitance of his purchase, the seventy blazing volumes that were so out of proportion.
The moments had already, in fact, taken on a deeper significance from his strong interest in the idea that his companion was the same person whose demeanor at the glowing altar had so affected him. This demeanor perfectly aligned with his private stance on her connection with Chad during their last meeting. It helped him stay firm in the position he had taken then; it was there he had decided he would stick, and since then, it had never seemed easier to do so. A relationship that was completely innocent could allow one of the parties to act like that. If it weren’t innocent, why would she spend so much time in churches?—places where, considering the woman he believed she was, she wouldn’t have gone to show any guilt. She frequented them for ongoing support, strength, and peace—sublime comfort that, if one could see it that way, she found day after day. They talked, in soft, easy voices and with lingering, meaningful looks, about the magnificent monument and its history and beauty—all of which, Madame de Vionnet claimed, she appreciated most from the outside view. “We can, after we leave,” she said, “walk around it again if you’d like. I’m not in a hurry, and it will be nice to see it properly with you.” He had mentioned the great storyteller and the great story and how, in his imagination, they enriched everything, telling her also about the extravagance of his purchase, the seventy dazzling volumes that felt so excessive.
“Out of proportion to what?”
"Out of proportion to what?"
“Well, to any other plunge.” Yet he felt even as he spoke how at that instant he was plunging. He had made up his mind and was impatient to get into the air; for his purpose was a purpose to be uttered outside, and he had a fear that it might with delay still slip away from him. She however took her time; she drew out their quiet gossip as if she had wished to profit by their meeting, and this confirmed precisely an interpretation of her manner, of her mystery. While she rose, as he would have called it, to the question of Victor Hugo, her voice itself, the light low quaver of her deference to the solemnity about them, seemed to make her words mean something that they didn’t mean openly. Help, strength, peace, a sublime support—she hadn’t found so much of these things as that the amount wouldn’t be sensibly greater for any scrap his appearance of faith in her might enable her to feel in her hand. Every little, in a long strain, helped, and if he happened to affect her as a firm object she could hold on by, he wouldn’t jerk himself out of her reach. People in difficulties held on by what was nearest, and he was perhaps after all not further off than sources of comfort more abstract. It was as to this he had made up his mind; he had made it up, that is, to give her a sign. The sign would be that—though it was her own affair—he understood; the sign would be that—though it was her own affair—she was free to clutch. Since she took him for a firm object—much as he might to his own sense appear at times to rock—he would do his best to be one.
“Well, to any other plunge.” Yet he felt even as he said it how, at that moment, he was diving in. He had made up his mind and was eager to get into the air; his intention was something he needed to express openly, and he was worried that if he delayed, it might slip away from him. However, she took her time; she dragged out their quiet conversation as if she wanted to make the most of their meeting, and this confirmed exactly how he interpreted her attitude, her mystery. As she began to address the question of Victor Hugo, her voice, with its light, soft quiver of respect for the seriousness around them, seemed to give her words a meaning that wasn’t openly stated. Help, strength, peace, a sublime support—she hadn’t found so much of these things that an extra bit of his belief in her would make a noticeable difference. Every little bit in a long struggle helped, and if he happened to seem like a solid point she could rely on, he wouldn’t pull away from her. People in trouble cling to whatever is closest, and he might not really be any further away than more abstract sources of comfort. It was about this that he had made up his mind; he resolved to give her a sign. The sign would be that—although it was her own issue—he understood; the sign would be that—though it was her own issue—she was free to hold on. Since she saw him as a solid support—much as he might sometimes feel like he was unsteady—he would do his best to be one.
The end of it was that half an hour later they were seated together for an early luncheon at a wonderful, a delightful house of entertainment on the left bank—a place of pilgrimage for the knowing, they were both aware, the knowing who came, for its great renown, the homage of restless days, from the other end of the town. Strether had already been there three times—first with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, then with Chad again and with Waymarsh and little Bilham, all of whom he had himself sagaciously entertained; and his pleasure was deep now on learning that Madame de Vionnet hadn’t yet been initiated. When he had said as they strolled round the church, by the river, acting at last on what, within, he had made up his mind to, “Will you, if you have time, come to déjeuner with me somewhere? For instance, if you know it, over there on the other side, which is so easy a walk”—and then had named the place; when he had done this she stopped short as for quick intensity, and yet deep difficulty, of response. She took in the proposal as if it were almost too charming to be true; and there had perhaps never yet been for her companion so unexpected a moment of pride—so fine, so odd a case, at any rate, as his finding himself thus able to offer to a person in such universal possession a new, a rare amusement. She had heard of the happy spot, but she asked him in reply to a further question how in the world he could suppose her to have been there. He supposed himself to have supposed that Chad might have taken her, and she guessed this the next moment to his no small discomfort.
Half an hour later, they were sitting together for an early lunch at a wonderful, delightful restaurant on the left bank—a place that was well-known among those in the know, and they both recognized it as a destination for the curious who made their way there from the other end of the town. Strether had already visited three times—first with Miss Gostrey, then with Chad, and again with Chad, along with Waymarsh and little Bilham, all of whom he had cleverly entertained. He felt a deep pleasure upon discovering that Madame de Vionnet hadn’t yet experienced it. As they walked around the church by the river, he finally acted on what he had decided in his mind, saying, “Would you, if you have the time, join me for lunch somewhere? For instance, if you know it, over there on the other side, which is an easy walk”—and then he named the place. When he did this, she suddenly paused, taken aback, both intensely curious and somewhat hesitant. She absorbed the invitation as if it were almost too lovely to be real; and there had likely never been a moment of such unexpected pride for him—such a fine and peculiar situation—as being able to offer someone of her standing a new, rare experience. She had heard of the lovely spot, but in response to his follow-up question, she asked how on earth he could think she had been there. He believed that Chad might have taken her, and she realized this instantly, causing him some discomfort.
“Ah, let me explain,” she smiled, “that I don’t go about with him in public; I never have such chances—not having them otherwise—and it’s just the sort of thing that, as a quiet creature living in my hole, I adore.” It was more than kind of him to have thought of it—though, frankly, if he asked whether she had time she hadn’t a single minute. That however made no difference—she’d throw everything over. Every duty at home, domestic, maternal, social, awaited her; but it was a case for a high line. Her affairs would go to smash, but hadn’t one a right to one’s snatch of scandal when one was prepared to pay? It was on this pleasant basis of costly disorder, consequently, that they eventually seated themselves, on either side of a small table, at a window adjusted to the busy quay and the shining barge-burdened Seine; where, for an hour, in the matter of letting himself go, of diving deep, Strether was to feel he had touched bottom. He was to feel many things on this occasion, and one of the first of them was that he had travelled far since that evening in London, before the theatre, when his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded candles, had struck him as requiring so many explanations. He had at that time gathered them in, the explanations—he had stored them up; but it was at present as if he had either soared above or sunk below them—he couldn’t tell which; he could somehow think of none that didn’t seem to leave the appearance of collapse and cynicism easier for him than lucidity. How could he wish it to be lucid for others, for any one, that he, for the hour, saw reasons enough in the mere way the bright clean ordered water-side life came in at the open window?—the mere way Madame de Vionnet, opposite him over their intensely white table-linen, their omelette aux tomates, their bottle of straw-coloured Chablis, thanked him for everything almost with the smile of a child, while her grey eyes moved in and out of their talk, back to the quarter of the warm spring air, in which early summer had already begun to throb, and then back again to his face and their human questions.
“Let me explain,” she smiled. “I don’t go out with him in public; I never really have that opportunity—not for lack of wanting to—but it’s exactly the kind of thing that, as a quiet person living in my little world, I love.” It was very thoughtful of him to have considered it—though honestly, if he asked if she had time, she didn’t have a single minute. That didn’t matter, though—she’d drop everything. Every obligation at home, whether domestic, maternal, or social, was waiting for her; but this called for a bold choice. Her responsibilities could fall apart, but didn’t one deserve a moment of excitement when they were willing to take the risk? So, with this pleasant notion of delightful chaos, they eventually settled down on either side of a small table by a window overlooking the busy quay and the sparkling barge-laden Seine; where, for an hour, in terms of letting go and diving deep, Strether was about to feel as if he had hit rock bottom. He would experience many things on this occasion, and one of the first was that he had come a long way since that evening in London, before the theater, when his dinner with Maria Gostrey, between the pink-shaded candles, seemed to require so many explanations. At that time, he had gathered those explanations—he had saved them up; but now it felt like he had either risen above them or sunk below them—he couldn’t quite tell which; he couldn’t think of any that didn’t make the idea of collapse and cynicism seem easier for him than clarity. How could he possibly want it to be clear for others, for anyone, that he, at that moment, found enough reasons in the simple way the bright, clean, ordered riverside life poured in through the open window?—the way Madame de Vionnet, sitting across from him over their intensely white tablecloth, their omelette aux tomates, and their bottle of straw-colored Chablis, thanked him for everything almost with a child’s smile, while her gray eyes moved in and out of their conversation, back to the corner of warm spring air, where early summer had already started to pulse, and then back again to his face and their human questions.
Their human questions became many before they had done—many more, as one after the other came up, than our friend’s free fancy had at all foreseen. The sense he had had before, the sense he had had repeatedly, the sense that the situation was running away with him, had never been so sharp as now; and all the more that he could perfectly put his finger on the moment it had taken the bit in its teeth. That accident had definitely occurred, the other evening, after Chad’s dinner; it had occurred, as he fully knew, at the moment when he interposed between this lady and her child, when he suffered himself so to discuss with her a matter closely concerning them that her own subtlety, marked by its significant “Thank you!” instantly sealed the occasion in her favour. Again he had held off for ten days, but the situation had continued out of hand in spite of that; the fact that it was running so fast being indeed just why he had held off. What had come over him as he recognised her in the nave of the church was that holding off could be but a losing game from the instant she was worked for not only by her subtlety, but by the hand of fate itself. If all the accidents were to fight on her side—and by the actual showing they loomed large—he could only give himself up. This was what he had done in privately deciding then and there to propose she should breakfast with him. What did the success of his proposal in fact resemble but the smash in which a regular runaway properly ends? The smash was their walk, their déjeuner, their omelette, the Chablis, the place, the view, their present talk and his present pleasure in it—to say nothing, wonder of wonders, of her own. To this tune and nothing less, accordingly, was his surrender made good. It sufficiently lighted up at least the folly of holding off. Ancient proverbs sounded, for his memory, in the tone of their words and the clink of their glasses, in the hum of the town and the plash of the river. It was clearly better to suffer as a sheep than as a lamb. One might as well perish by the sword as by famine.
Their human questions multiplied quickly before they finished—way more than our friend's imagination had anticipated. The awareness he had felt before, the awareness he had felt repeatedly, the feeling that the situation was spiraling out of control, had never been as intense as it was now; especially since he could pinpoint the exact moment it took a turn. That moment had definitely happened the other evening, after Chad's dinner; it had occurred, as he clearly recognized, at the instant when he stepped in between this lady and her child, when he allowed himself to discuss something that deeply involved them, and her clever response, marked by her meaningful "Thank you!" immediately tipped the situation in her favor. He had once again held back for ten days, but the circumstances had remained uncontrollable regardless; the very fact that it was moving so quickly was actually why he had been holding back. When he saw her in the church, he realized that holding back could only lead to losing, especially now that she was being influenced not just by her own cleverness but also by fate itself. If all the circumstances were stacked in her favor—and they clearly were—he could only surrender. That was exactly what he decided to do then and there by inviting her to breakfast with him. What did the success of his invitation resemble but the crash that a genuine runaway inevitably leads to? The crash was their walk, their breakfast, their omelet, the Chablis, the place, the view, their conversation, and his enjoyment of it—let alone her own, which was a wonder to behold. This was how he truly submitted. It made the foolishness of holding back glaringly obvious. Old proverbs echoed in his memory through their words and the clinking of their glasses, in the buzz of the town and the splash of the river. It was clearly better to suffer as a sheep than as a lamb. One might as well perish by the sword as by hunger.
“Maria’s still away?”—that was the first thing she had asked him; and when he had found the frankness to be cheerful about it in spite of the meaning he knew her to attach to Miss Gostrey’s absence, she had gone on to enquire if he didn’t tremendously miss her. There were reasons that made him by no means sure, yet he nevertheless answered “Tremendously”; which she took in as if it were all she had wished to prove. Then, “A man in trouble must be possessed somehow of a woman,” she said; “if she doesn’t come in one way she comes in another.”
“Is Maria still away?”—that was the first thing she asked him; and when he managed to stay cheerful about it despite knowing what Miss Gostrey’s absence meant to her, she went on to ask if he didn’t really miss her. There were reasons that made him unsure, yet he replied “Really” anyway; which she took as if it were exactly what she wanted to hear. Then she said, “A man in trouble has to have a woman around him somehow; if she doesn’t come one way, she comes another.”
“Why do you call me a man in trouble?”
“Why do you call me a guy in trouble?”
“Ah because that’s the way you strike me.” She spoke ever so gently and as if with all fear of wounding him while she sat partaking of his bounty. “Aren’t you in trouble?”
“Ah, because that’s how you come across to me.” She spoke very softly, as if she were afraid of hurting him while enjoying what he offered. “Aren’t you in trouble?”
He felt himself colour at the question, and then hated that—hated to pass for anything so idiotic as woundable. Woundable by Chad’s lady, in respect to whom he had come out with such a fund of indifference—was he already at that point? Perversely, none the less, his pause gave a strange air of truth to her supposition; and what was he in fact but disconcerted at having struck her just in the way he had most dreamed of not doing? “I’m not in trouble yet,” he at last smiled. “I’m not in trouble now.”
He felt himself blush at the question, and then hated that—hated to look so foolish as to be affected. Affected by Chad’s girlfriend, considering how he had acted so indifferent about her—was he really at that point? Yet, oddly enough, his hesitation gave a strange sense of truth to her assumption; and what was he really but thrown off by the fact that he had upset her in exactly the way he had most hoped to avoid? “I’m not in trouble yet,” he finally smiled. “I’m not in trouble right now.”
“Well, I’m always so. But that you sufficiently know.” She was a woman who, between courses, could be graceful with her elbows on the table. It was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but it was easy for a femme du monde. “Yes—I am ‘now’!”
“Well, that's just how I am. But you know that well enough.” She was a woman who could elegantly rest her elbows on the table between courses. This was a posture unknown to Mrs. Newsome, but effortless for a femme du monde. “Yes—I’m here ‘now’!”
“There was a question you put to me,” he presently returned, “the night of Chad’s dinner. I didn’t answer it then, and it has been very handsome of you not to have sought an occasion for pressing me about it since.”
“There was a question you asked me,” he replied, “the night of Chad’s dinner. I didn’t answer it then, and it’s really generous of you not to have tried to bring it up again since.”
She was instantly all there. “Of course I know what you allude to. I asked you what you had meant by saying, the day you came to see me, just before you left me, that you’d save me. And you then said—at our friend’s—that you’d have really to wait to see, for yourself, what you did mean.”
She was completely focused. “Of course I know what you’re referencing. I asked you what you meant when you said, the day you came to see me, just before you left, that you’d save me. And then you said—at our friend's—that you really needed to wait and see for yourself what you actually meant.”
“Yes, I asked for time,” said Strether. “And it sounds now, as you put it, like a very ridiculous speech.”
“Yes, I asked for time,” said Strether. “And now, as you put it, it sounds like a really ridiculous thing to say.”
“Oh!” she murmured—she was full of attenuation. But she had another thought. “If it does sound ridiculous why do you deny that you’re in trouble?”
“Oh!” she said softly—she felt very weak. But then she thought of something else. “If it sounds ridiculous, why do you refuse to admit that you’re in trouble?”
“Ah if I were,” he replied, “it wouldn’t be the trouble of fearing ridicule. I don’t fear it.”
“Ah, if I were,” he replied, “it wouldn’t be about worrying about being ridiculed. I don’t worry about that.”
“What then do you?”
“What are you doing then?”
“Nothing—now.” And he leaned back in his chair.
“Nothing—now.” He leaned back in his chair.
“I like your ‘now’!” she laughed across at him.
"I love your 'now'!" she laughed at him.
“Well, it’s precisely that it fully comes to me at present that I’ve kept you long enough. I know by this time, at any rate, what I meant by my speech; and I really knew it the night of Chad’s dinner.”
“Well, it’s exactly at this moment that I realize I’ve held you for long enough. I understand by now what I meant by my words; and I actually understood it the night of Chad’s dinner.”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because it was difficult at the moment. I had already at that moment done something for you, in the sense of what I had said the day I went to see you; but I wasn’t then sure of the importance I might represent this as having.”
“Because it was tough at that moment. I had already done something for you, based on what I said the day I came to see you; but I wasn’t sure at the time how significant I might make that seem.”
She was all eagerness. “And you’re sure now?”
She was full of excitement. “Are you really sure about this now?”
“Yes; I see that, practically, I’ve done for you—had done for you when you put me your question—all that it’s as yet possible to me to do. I feel now,” he went on, “that it may go further than I thought. What I did after my visit to you,” he explained, “was to write straight off to Mrs. Newsome about you, and I’m at last, from one day to the other, expecting her answer. It’s this answer that will represent, as I believe, the consequences.”
“Yes; I realize that I've done everything I can for you—had done everything when you asked me that question. I’m starting to feel,” he continued, “that it might go further than I expected. After I visited you,” he explained, “I immediately wrote to Mrs. Newsome about you, and I'm finally, any day now, expecting her reply. I believe this reply will show the consequences.”
Patient and beautiful was her interest. “I see—the consequences of your speaking for me.” And she waited as if not to hustle him.
Patient and beautiful was her interest. “I get it—the consequences of you speaking for me.” And she waited as if not to rush him.
He acknowledged it by immediately going on. “The question, you understand, was how I should save you. Well, I’m trying it by thus letting her know that I consider you worth saving.”
He acknowledged it by immediately continuing. “The question, you see, was how I should save you. Well, I’m trying it by letting her know that I think you’re worth saving.”
“I see—I see.” Her eagerness broke through.
"I get it—I get it." Her excitement came through.
“How can I thank you enough?” He couldn’t tell her that, however, and she quickly pursued. “You do really, for yourself, consider it?”
“How can I thank you enough?” He couldn’t say that to her, though, and she quickly pressed on. “Do you really consider it for yourself?”
His only answer at first was to help her to the dish that had been freshly put before them. “I’ve written to her again since then—I’ve left her in no doubt of what I think. I’ve told her all about you.”
His only response at first was to guide her to the dish that had just been served. “I’ve written to her again since then—I’ve made sure she knows exactly how I feel. I’ve told her all about you.”
“Thanks—not so much. ‘All about’ me,” she went on—“yes.”
“Thanks—not really. ‘All about’ me,” she continued—“yes.”
“All it seems to me you’ve done for him.”
“All it seems to me you’ve done for him.”
“Ah and you might have added all it seems to me!” She laughed again, while she took up her knife and fork, as in the cheer of these assurances. “But you’re not sure how she’ll take it.”
“Ah, and you might have included everything it seems to me!” She laughed again as she picked up her knife and fork, enjoying the lightheartedness of these reassurances. “But you’re not sure how she’ll react.”
“No, I’ll not pretend I’m sure.”
“No, I won’t pretend that I’m sure.”
“Voilà.” And she waited a moment. “I wish you’d tell me about her.”
“Here it is.” And she paused for a moment. “I wish you’d share more about her.”
“Oh,” said Strether with a slightly strained smile, “all that need concern you about her is that she’s really a grand person.”
“Oh,” said Strether with a slightly forced smile, “the only thing you need to know about her is that she’s truly an amazing person.”
Madame de Vionnet seemed to demur. “Is that all that need concern me about her?”
Madame de Vionnet appeared to hesitate. “Is that all I need to worry about her?”
But Strether neglected the question. “Hasn’t Chad talked to you?”
But Strether ignored the question. “Hasn’t Chad spoken to you?”
“Of his mother? Yes, a great deal—immensely. But not from your point of view.”
“About his mother? Yes, a lot—extremely. But not from your perspective.”
“He can’t,” our friend returned, “have said any ill of her.”
“He can’t,” our friend replied, “have said anything bad about her.”
“Not the least bit. He has given me, like you, the assurance that she’s really grand. But her being really grand is somehow just what hasn’t seemed to simplify our case. Nothing,” she continued, “is further from me than to wish to say a word against her; but of course I feel how little she can like being told of her owing me anything. No woman ever enjoys such an obligation to another woman.”
“Not at all. He has assured me, like you, that she’s really amazing. But her actually being amazing hasn’t really made our situation any easier. Nothing,” she continued, “is further from my mind than to say anything negative about her; but I can’t help but realize how uncomfortable she must feel being told that she owes me anything. No woman ever likes having that kind of obligation to another woman.”
This was a proposition Strether couldn’t contradict. “And yet what other way could I have expressed to her what I felt? It’s what there was most to say about you.”
This was a suggestion Strether couldn't argue against. “But how else could I have told her what I was feeling? It’s the most important thing I had to say about you.”
“Do you mean then that she will be good to me?”
“Are you saying that she will be good to me?”
“It’s what I’m waiting to see. But I’ve little doubt she would,” he added, “if she could comfortably see you.”
“It’s what I’m looking forward to. But I have no doubt she would,” he added, “if she could see you without any trouble.”
It seemed to strike her as a happy, a beneficent thought. “Oh then couldn’t that be managed? Wouldn’t she come out? Wouldn’t she if you so put it to her? Did you by any possibility?” she faintly quavered.
It felt like a joyful, positive idea to her. “Oh, couldn’t that work? Wouldn’t she come out? Wouldn’t she if you asked her like that? Did you maybe?” she said with a slight tremble.
“Oh no”—he was prompt. “Not that. It would be, much more, to give an account of you that—since there’s no question of your paying the visit—I should go home first.”
“Oh no”—he responded quickly. “Not that. It would be much more about giving an account of you that—since there's no question of your visiting—I should go home first.”
It instantly made her graver. “And are you thinking of that?”
It immediately made her more serious. “And are you considering that?”
“Oh all the while, naturally.”
"Oh, of course."
“Stay with us—stay with us!” she exclaimed on this. “That’s your only way to make sure.”
“Stay with us—stay with us!” she said in response. “That’s your only way to be certain.”
“To make sure of what?”
"Why do you need to?"
“Why that he doesn’t break up. You didn’t come out to do that to him.”
“Why doesn't he break up? You didn’t come out here to do that to him.”
“Doesn’t it depend,” Strether returned after a moment, “on what you mean by breaking up?”
“Doesn’t it depend,” Strether replied after a moment, “on what you mean by breaking up?”
“Oh you know well enough what I mean!”
“Oh, you know exactly what I mean!”
His silence seemed again for a little to denote an understanding. “You take for granted remarkable things.”
His silence once again suggested an understanding. “You take remarkable things for granted.”
“Yes, I do—to the extent that I don’t take for granted vulgar ones. You’re perfectly capable of seeing that what you came out for wasn’t really at all to do what you’d now have to do.”
“Yes, I do—to the extent that I don’t take for granted the rude ones. You can clearly see that what you came out for wasn’t really about doing what you now have to do.”
“Ah it’s perfectly simple,” Strether good-humouredly pleaded. “I’ve had but one thing to do—to put our case before him. To put it as it could only be put here on the spot—by personal pressure. My dear lady,” he lucidly pursued, “my work, you see, is really done, and my reasons for staying on even another day are none of the best. Chad’s in possession of our case and professes to do it full justice. What remains is with himself. I’ve had my rest, my amusement and refreshment; I’ve had, as we say at Woollett, a lovely time. Nothing in it has been more lovely than this happy meeting with you—in these fantastic conditions to which you’ve so delightfully consented. I’ve a sense of success. It’s what I wanted. My getting all this good is what Chad has waited for, and I gather that if I’m ready to go he’s the same.”
“Ah, it’s really simple,” Strether said cheerfully. “I’ve had just one job—to present our case to him. To present it in a way that only makes sense here in person—through direct influence. My dear lady,” he continued clearly, “my work, you see, is almost done, and my reasons for staying even one more day aren’t very strong. Chad understands our situation and claims he’s handling it well. What’s left is up to him. I’ve had my rest, my fun, and my refreshment; I’ve had, as we say in Woollett, a wonderful time. Nothing has been more wonderful than this joyful meeting with you—in these bizarre circumstances you’ve so charmingly agreed to. I feel a sense of achievement. It’s what I wanted. My getting all this goodness is what Chad has been waiting for, and I understand that if I’m ready to leave, he feels the same.”
She shook her head with a finer deeper wisdom. “You’re not ready. If you’re ready why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the sense you’ve mentioned to me?”
She shook her head with a greater understanding. “You’re not ready. If you were ready, why did you write to Mrs. Newsome in the way you mentioned to me?”
Strether considered. “I shan’t go before I hear from her. You’re too much afraid of her,” he added.
Strether thought for a moment. “I won’t leave until I hear from her. You’re too scared of her,” he added.
It produced between them a long look from which neither shrank. “I don’t think you believe that—believe I’ve not really reason to fear her.”
It created a long glance between them that neither of them avoided. “I don’t think you actually believe that—I mean, that I have no real reason to be afraid of her.”
“She’s capable of great generosity,” Strether presently stated.
“She’s capable of great generosity,” Strether said.
“Well then let her trust me a little. That’s all I ask. Let her recognise in spite of everything what I’ve done.”
“Well, then let her trust me a bit. That’s all I’m asking. Let her see, despite everything, what I’ve done.”
“Ah remember,” our friend replied, “that she can’t effectually recognise it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and show her what you’ve done, and let him plead with her there for it and, as it were, for you.”
“Ah remember,” our friend replied, “that she can’t truly understand it without seeing it for herself. Let Chad go over and show her what you’ve done, and let him advocate for it there, almost on your behalf.”
She measured the depth of this suggestion. “Do you give me your word of honour that if she once has him there she won’t do her best to marry him?”
She assessed the seriousness of this suggestion. “Can you promise me that if she gets him there, she won’t try her hardest to marry him?”
It made her companion, this enquiry, look again a while out at the view; after which he spoke without sharpness. “When she sees for herself what he is—”
It made her companion, this question, look out at the view for a bit longer; then he spoke gently. “When she sees for herself what he is—”
But she had already broken in. “It’s when she sees for herself what he is that she’ll want to marry him most.”
But she had already interrupted. “It’s when she sees for herself what he really is that she’ll want to marry him the most.”
Strether’s attitude, that of due deference to what she said, permitted him to attend for a minute to his luncheon. “I doubt if that will come off. It won’t be easy to make it.”
Strether's attitude, which showed respect for what she said, allowed him to focus on his lunch for a moment. “I doubt that will happen. It won’t be easy to pull it off.”
“It will be easy if he remains there—and he’ll remain for the money. The money appears to be, as a probability, so hideously much.”
“It’ll be easy if he stays there—and he’ll stay for the money. The money seems to be, as a possibility, just ridiculously high.”
“Well,” Strether presently concluded, “nothing could really hurt you but his marrying.”
“Well,” Strether finally concluded, “nothing could really hurt you except for him getting married.”
She gave a strange light laugh. “Putting aside what may really hurt him.”
She let out a strange, light laugh. “Setting aside what could really hurt him.”
But her friend looked at her as if he had thought of that too. “The question will come up, of course, of the future that you yourself offer him.”
But her friend looked at her as if he had considered that too. “The question will definitely arise about the future you can provide for him.”
She was leaning back now, but she fully faced him. “Well, let it come up!”
She was leaning back now, but she was facing him directly. “Well, let it come out!”
“The point is that it’s for Chad to make of it what he can. His being proof against marriage will show what he does make.”
“The point is that it’s up to Chad to make the most of it. His resistance to marriage will reveal what he really makes of it.”
“If he is proof, yes”—she accepted the proposition. “But for myself,” she added, “the question is what you make.”
“If he is proof, yes”—she accepted the proposition. “But for me,” she added, “the question is what you make.”
“Ah I make nothing. It’s not my affair.”
“Ah, I don’t do anything. It’s not my concern.”
“I beg your pardon. It’s just there that, since you’ve taken it up and are committed to it, it most intensely becomes yours. You’re not saving me, I take it, for your interest in myself, but for your interest in our friend. The one’s at any rate wholly dependent on the other. You can’t in honour not see me through,” she wound up, “because you can’t in honour not see him.”
“I’m sorry. It’s just that, since you’ve taken it on and are committed to it, it really becomes yours. You’re not saving me, I assume, for your interest in me, but for your interest in our friend. One is entirely dependent on the other. You can’t, out of honor, not help me,” she concluded, “because you can’t, out of honor, not help him.”
Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet soft acuteness. The thing that most moved him was really that she was so deeply serious. She had none of the portentous forms of it, but he had never come in contact, it struck him, with a force brought to so fine a head. Mrs. Newsome, goodness knew, was serious; but it was nothing to this. He took it all in, he saw it all together. “No,” he mused, “I can’t in honour not see him.”
Strange and beautiful to him was her quiet, sharp insight. What moved him the most was how deeply serious she was. She didn't express it in any heavy-handed ways, but he realized he'd never encountered such a finely tuned intensity. Mrs. Newsome, for sure, was serious, but it was nothing like this. He absorbed it all; he saw the whole picture. “No,” he thought, “I can’t, in good conscience, not see him.”
Her face affected him as with an exquisite light. “You will then?”
Her face impacted him like an amazing light. “You will then?”
“I will.”
“Sure thing.”
At this she pushed back her chair and was the next moment on her feet. “Thank you!” she said with her hand held out to him across the table and with no less a meaning in the words than her lips had so particularly given them after Chad’s dinner. The golden nail she had then driven in pierced a good inch deeper. Yet he reflected that he himself had only meanwhile done what he had made up his mind to on the same occasion. So far as the essence of the matter went he had simply stood fast on the spot on which he had then planted his feet.
At this, she pushed back her chair and instantly got to her feet. “Thank you!” she said, extending her hand to him across the table, her words carrying the same depth of meaning as her lips had expressed so clearly after Chad’s dinner. The impact of that moment hit even harder now. Yet he realized that during this time, he had only stuck to his original decision from that occasion. In terms of the essence of the situation, he had simply remained firm on the ground where he had then stood.
II
He received three days after this a communication from America, in the form of a scrap of blue paper folded and gummed, not reaching him through his bankers, but delivered at his hotel by a small boy in uniform, who, under instructions from the concierge, approached him as he slowly paced the little court. It was the evening hour, but daylight was long now and Paris more than ever penetrating. The scent of flowers was in the streets, he had the whiff of violets perpetually in his nose; and he had attached himself to sounds and suggestions, vibrations of the air, human and dramatic, he imagined, as they were not in other places, that came out for him more and more as the mild afternoons deepened—a far-off hum, a sharp near click on the asphalt, a voice calling, replying, somewhere and as full of tone as an actor’s in a play. He was to dine at home, as usual, with Waymarsh—they had settled to that for thrift and simplicity; and he now hung about before his friend came down.
Three days later, he got a message from America, which was a bit of blue paper that was folded and glued. It didn’t come through his banks but was delivered to his hotel by a young boy in a uniform. Following the concierge's instructions, the boy approached him while he was slowly walking around the small courtyard. It was evening, but daylight lingered, making Paris feel more alive than ever. The smell of flowers filled the streets, and he constantly caught a whiff of violets. He tuned into the sounds and vibes around him—human and dramatic, he imagined them to be different from other places—more pronounced as the gentle afternoons stretched on. He heard a distant buzz, a sharp click on the pavement, a voice calling and responding somewhere, vibrant like an actor's voice on stage. He was planning to have dinner at home, as usual, with Waymarsh—they agreed it was more economical and simpler. So he lingered a bit before his friend came down.
He read his telegram in the court, standing still a long time where he had opened it and giving five minutes afterwards to the renewed study of it. At last, quickly, he crumpled it up as if to get it out of the way; in spite of which, however, he kept it there—still kept it when, at the end of another turn, he had dropped into a chair placed near a small table. Here, with his scrap of paper compressed in his fist and further concealed by his folding his arms tight, he sat for some time in thought, gazed before him so straight that Waymarsh appeared and approached him without catching his eye. The latter in fact, struck with his appearance, looked at him hard for a single instant and then, as if determined to that course by some special vividness in it, dropped back into the salon de lecture without addressing him. But the pilgrim from Milrose permitted himself still to observe the scene from behind the clear glass plate of that retreat. Strether ended, as he sat, by a fresh scrutiny of his compressed missive, which he smoothed out carefully again as he placed it on his table. There it remained for some minutes, until, at last looking up, he saw Waymarsh watching him from within. It was on this that their eyes met—met for a moment during which neither moved. But Strether then got up, folding his telegram more carefully and putting it into his waistcoat pocket.
He read his telegram in the court, standing still for a long time where he had opened it and spending five more minutes studying it again. Finally, he quickly crumpled it up as if to get rid of it; despite this, he still kept it there—still had it when, after another turn, he settled into a chair by a small table. Here, with the crumpled paper clenched in his fist and further hidden by his crossed arms, he sat for a while lost in thought, staring ahead so intently that Waymarsh came up to him without noticing. Waymarsh, struck by his appearance, looked at him hard for a brief moment and then, feeling an urge to do so, stepped back into the salon de lecture without speaking to him. But the traveler from Milrose allowed himself to keep watching from behind the clear glass of that retreat. As he sat, Strether found himself examining the crumpled message again, smoothing it out carefully before placing it on the table. It stayed there for a few minutes until he finally looked up and saw Waymarsh watching him from inside. That's when their eyes met—briefly, but neither moved. Then Strether stood up, folded his telegram more carefully, and put it into his waistcoat pocket.
A few minutes later the friends were seated together at dinner; but Strether had meanwhile said nothing about it, and they eventually parted, after coffee in the court, with nothing said on either side. Our friend had moreover the consciousness that even less than usual was on this occasion said between them, so that it was almost as if each had been waiting for something from the other. Waymarsh had always more or less the air of sitting at the door of his tent, and silence, after so many weeks, had come to play its part in their concert. This note indeed, to Strether’s sense, had lately taken a fuller tone, and it was his fancy to-night that they had never quite so drawn it out. Yet it befell, none the less that he closed the door to confidence when his companion finally asked him if there were anything particular the matter with him. “Nothing,” he replied, “more than usual.”
A few minutes later, the friends were sitting together at dinner, but Strether hadn't mentioned it, and they eventually parted ways after coffee in the courtyard without saying anything to each other. Our friend also felt that even less than usual was said between them this time, as if each was waiting for something from the other. Waymarsh always seemed to have the vibe of sitting at the entrance of his tent, and after so many weeks, silence had started to play a role in their interactions. To Strether, this silent note had recently taken on a deeper quality, and tonight he felt they had never quite expressed it as fully. Yet, it happened that he shut down any chance for deeper conversation when his companion finally asked him if something was bothering him. “Nothing,” he replied, “more than usual.”
On the morrow, however, at an early hour, he found occasion to give an answer more in consonance with the facts. What was the matter had continued to be so all the previous evening, the first hours of which, after dinner, in his room, he had devoted to the copious composition of a letter. He had quitted Waymarsh for this purpose, leaving him to his own resources with less ceremony than their wont, but finally coming down again with his letter unconcluded and going forth into the streets without enquiry for his comrade. He had taken a long vague walk, and one o’clock had struck before his return and his re-ascent to his room by the aid of the glimmering candle-end left for him on the shelf outside the porter’s lodge. He had possessed himself, on closing his door, of the numerous loose sheets of his unfinished composition, and then, without reading them over, had torn them into small pieces. He had thereupon slept—as if it had been in some measure thanks to that sacrifice—the sleep of the just, and had prolonged his rest considerably beyond his custom. Thus it was that when, between nine and ten, the tap of the knob of a walking-stick sounded on his door, he had not yet made himself altogether presentable. Chad Newsome’s bright deep voice determined quickly enough none the less the admission of the visitor. The little blue paper of the evening before, plainly an object the more precious for its escape from premature destruction, now lay on the sill of the open window, smoothed out afresh and kept from blowing away by the superincumbent weight of his watch. Chad, looking about with careless and competent criticism, as he looked wherever he went immediately espied it and permitted himself to fix it for a moment rather hard. After which he turned his eyes to his host. “It has come then at last?”
The next morning, however, early on, he found an opportunity to provide an answer that was more aligned with the truth. What was bothering him had been the same all the previous evening. After dinner, he had spent the first few hours in his room writing a lengthy letter. He had left Waymarsh with little formality, allowing him to fend for himself, but ultimately returned with his letter unfinished and went out into the streets without checking on his friend. He took a long, aimless walk, and it was one o'clock before he returned and climbed back to his room using the dim candle stub left for him on the shelf outside the porter’s lodge. Once he closed his door, he gathered the many loose sheets of his incomplete letter, and without reading them again, tore them into tiny pieces. He then slept—seemingly thanks to that sacrifice—the peaceful sleep of the just, extending his rest well past his usual time. So, when the tap of a walking stick sounded on his door between nine and ten, he was not quite ready. Chad Newsome’s bright, deep voice made it clear that he should let the visitor in. The little blue paper from the night before, clearly more valuable now for having avoided premature destruction, lay on the sill of the open window, smoothed out again and held down by his watch. Chad, glancing around with casual but discerning scrutiny, spotted it immediately and paused to fix his gaze on it for a moment. Then he turned his attention to his host. “So it has finally come?”
Strether paused in the act of pinning his necktie. “Then you know—? You’ve had one too?”
Strether stopped while he was adjusting his necktie. “So you know—? You’ve had one too?”
“No, I’ve had nothing, and I only know what I see. I see that thing and I guess. Well,” he added, “it comes as pat as in a play, for I’ve precisely turned up this morning—as I would have done yesterday, but it was impossible—to take you.”
“No, I haven’t had anything, and I only know what I see. I see that thing and I can only guess. Well,” he added, “it plays out just like in a play, because I’ve actually shown up this morning—as I would have done yesterday, but that wasn’t possible—to take you.”
“To take me?” Strether had turned again to his glass.
“To take me?” Strether had turned back to his glass.
“Back, at last, as I promised. I’m ready—I’ve really been ready this month. I’ve only been waiting for you—as was perfectly right. But you’re better now; you’re safe—I see that for myself; you’ve got all your good. You’re looking, this morning, as fit as a flea.”
“Back at last, just like I promised. I’m ready—I’ve really been ready this whole month. I’ve just been waiting for you—as it should be. But you’re better now; you’re safe—I can see that for myself; you’ve got everything back. You look, this morning, as fit as a fiddle.”
Strether, at his glass, finished dressing; consulting that witness moreover on this last opinion. Was he looking preternaturally fit? There was something in it perhaps for Chad’s wonderful eye, but he had felt himself for hours rather in pieces. Such a judgement, however, was after all but a contribution to his resolve; it testified unwittingly to his wisdom. He was still firmer, apparently—since it shone in him as a light—than he had flattered himself. His firmness indeed was slightly compromised, as he faced about to his friend, by the way this very personage looked—though the case would of course have been worse hadn’t the secret of personal magnificence been at every hour Chad’s unfailing possession. There he was in all the pleasant morning freshness of it—strong and sleek and gay, easy and fragrant and fathomless, with happy health in his colour, and pleasant silver in his thick young hair, and the right word for everything on the lips that his clear brownness caused to show as red. He had never struck Strether as personally such a success; it was as if now, for his definite surrender, he had gathered himself vividly together. This, sharply and rather strangely, was the form in which he was to be presented to Woollett. Our friend took him in again—he was always taking him in and yet finding that parts of him still remained out; though even thus his image showed through a mist of other things. “I’ve had a cable,” Strether said, “from your mother.”
Strether, at his mirror, finished getting ready, checking his reflection for reassurance. Did he look unusually fit? Maybe there was something about it for Chad’s amazing eye, but he had felt a bit off for hours. Still, that judgment just added to his determination; it unknowingly validated his insight. He appeared more solid, clearly—since it radiated from him like a light—than he had led himself to believe. However, his confidence was slightly shaken, as he turned to his friend, by the way Chad looked—though it would have been worse if Chad didn’t always possess a striking personal charm. There he was, in the fresh morning glow—strong, sleek, cheerful, relaxed, fragrant, and deep, with healthy color in his face and nice silver in his thick hair, ready with the perfect response to everything, which his clear brown skin made look even redder. He had never seemed to Strether like such a personal success; it felt like now, for his full acceptance, he had come together in a vivid way. This was, oddly and somewhat sharply, how he would be introduced to Woollett. Our friend took him in once more—he was always taking him in while still noticing parts of him remained elusive; yet even then, his image shone through a fog of other things. “I’ve received a cable,” Strether said, “from your mother.”
“I dare say, my dear man. I hope she’s well.”
“I must say, my dear man. I hope she’s doing well.”
Strether hesitated. “No—she’s not well, I’m sorry to have to tell you.”
Strether hesitated. “No—she’s not doing well, I’m sorry to have to tell you.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “I must have had the instinct of it. All the more reason then that we should start straight off.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “I must have sensed it. That’s even more reason for us to get started right away.”
Strether had now got together hat, gloves and stick, but Chad had dropped on the sofa as if to show where he wished to make his point. He kept observing his companion’s things; he might have been judging how quickly they could be packed. He might even have wished to hint that he’d send his own servant to assist. “What do you mean,” Strether enquired, “by ‘straight off’?”
Strether had now gathered his hat, gloves, and cane, but Chad had flopped down on the sofa as if to indicate where he wanted to make his point. He kept looking at his companion’s belongings; it was as if he were assessing how quickly they could be packed. He might have even wanted to suggest that he’d send his own servant to help. “What do you mean,” Strether asked, “by ‘right away’?”
“Oh by one of next week’s boats. Everything at this season goes out so light that berths will be easy anywhere.”
“Oh, by one of next week’s boats. Everything this season is going out so lightly that finding a spot will be easy anywhere.”
Strether had in his hand his telegram, which he had kept there after attaching his watch, and he now offered it to Chad, who, however, with an odd movement, declined to take it. “Thanks, I’d rather not. Your correspondence with Mother’s your own affair. I’m only with you both on it, whatever it is.” Strether, at this, while their eyes met, slowly folded the missive and put it in his pocket; after which, before he had spoken again, Chad broke fresh ground. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?”
Strether held his telegram in one hand, having kept it there after attaching his watch, and he now offered it to Chad. However, with a strange gesture, Chad refused to take it. “Thanks, I’d rather not. Your correspondence with Mother is your business. I’m just here with both of you on this, whatever it is.” Strether, upon hearing this and making eye contact with Chad, slowly folded the message and put it in his pocket. Before he could say anything else, Chad moved on to a new topic. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?”
But when Strether presently spoke it wasn’t in answer. “It’s not, I gather, that your mother’s physically ill; her health, on the whole, this spring, seems to have been better than usual. But she’s worried, she’s anxious, and it appears to have risen within the last few days to a climax. We’ve tired out, between us, her patience.”
But when Strether finally spoke, it wasn’t in response. “I gather your mom isn’t physically sick; her health this spring seems to be better than usual. But she’s worried, she’s anxious, and it looks like it’s peaked in the last few days. We’ve worn out her patience between us.”
“Oh it isn’t you!” Chad generously protested.
“Oh, it’s not you!” Chad said with a kind smile.
“I beg your pardon—it is me.” Strether was mild and melancholy, but firm. He saw it far away and over his companion’s head. “It’s very particularly me.”
“I’m sorry—it is me.” Strether was gentle and sad, but resolute. He saw it from a distance and above his companion’s head. “It’s definitely me.”
“Well then all the more reason. Marchons, marchons!” said the young man gaily. His host, however, at this, but continued to stand agaze; and he had the next thing repeated his question of a moment before. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?”
“Well then, that's even more reason to go. Marchons, marchons!” said the young man cheerfully. His host, however, remained standing and staring; and he repeated his question from a moment ago. “Has Miss Gostrey come back?”
“Yes, two days ago.”
“Yeah, two days ago.”
“Then you’ve seen her?”
"Have you seen her?"
“No—I’m to see her to-day.” But Strether wouldn’t linger now on Miss Gostrey. “Your mother sends me an ultimatum. If I can’t bring you I’m to leave you; I’m to come at any rate myself.”
“No—I’m seeing her today.” But Strether didn’t want to dwell on Miss Gostrey now. “Your mother sent me an ultimatum. If I can’t bring you, I have to leave you; I’m supposed to come by myself regardless.”
“Ah but you can bring me now,” Chad, from his sofa, reassuringly replied.
“Ah but you can bring me now,” Chad, from his couch, reassuringly replied.
Strether had a pause. “I don’t think I understand you. Why was it that, more than a month ago, you put it to me so urgently to let Madame de Vionnet speak for you?”
Strether paused. “I don’t think I get you. Why is it that, over a month ago, you insisted I let Madame de Vionnet speak for you?”
“‘Why’?” Chad considered, but he had it at his fingers’ ends. “Why but because I knew how well she’d do it? It was the way to keep you quiet and, to that extent, do you good. Besides,” he happily and comfortably explained, “I wanted you really to know her and to get the impression of her—and you see the good that has done you.”
“‘Why?’” Chad thought, but he already knew the answer. “Why else but because I knew she’d do it so well? It was a way to keep you calm and, in that sense, benefit you. Besides,” he happily and comfortably explained, “I really wanted you to get to know her and to understand what she’s like—and you can see the good that has come from it.”
“Well,” said Strether, “the way she has spoken for you, all the same—so far as I’ve given her a chance—has only made me feel how much she wishes to keep you. If you make nothing of that I don’t see why you wanted me to listen to her.”
"Well," Strether said, "the way she's talked about you, as much as I've given her the opportunity, has just made me realize how much she wants to hold onto you. If you don't appreciate that, I don't understand why you wanted me to hear what she had to say."
“Why my dear man,” Chad exclaimed, “I make everything of it! How can you doubt—?”
“Why, my dear man,” Chad exclaimed, “I make everything of it! How can you doubt—?”
“I doubt only because you come to me this morning with your signal to start.”
“I’m only skeptical because you approached me this morning with your signal to begin.”
Chad stared, then gave a laugh. “And isn’t my signal to start just what you’ve been waiting for?”
Chad stared, then laughed. “Isn’t my cue to start exactly what you’ve been waiting for?”
Strether debated; he took another turn. “This last month I’ve been awaiting, I think, more than anything else, the message I have here.”
Strether thought about it; he took another turn. “This past month, I think I’ve been waiting more than anything else for the message I have here.”
“You mean you’ve been afraid of it?”
“You mean you’ve been scared of it?”
“Well, I was doing my business in my own way. And I suppose your present announcement,” Strether went on, “isn’t merely the result of your sense of what I’ve expected. Otherwise you wouldn’t have put me in relation—” But he paused, pulling up.
“Well, I was handling things in my own way. And I guess your current announcement,” Strether continued, “isn’t just based on what I’ve been expecting. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have connected me—” But he stopped, holding back.
At this Chad rose. “Ah her wanting me not to go has nothing to do with it! It’s only because she’s afraid—afraid of the way that, over there, I may get caught. But her fear’s groundless.”
At this, Chad stood up. “Oh, her wanting me not to go has nothing to do with it! It's just that she's scared—scared of how I might get caught over there. But her fear is unfounded.”
He had met again his companion’s sufficiently searching look. “Are you tired of her?”
He met his companion's searching gaze again. “Are you tired of her?”
Chad gave him in reply to this, with a movement of the head, the strangest slow smile he had ever had from him. “Never.”
Chad responded with a slow, strange smile and a nod, the likes of which he had never seen before. “Never.”
It had immediately, on Strether’s imagination, so deep and soft an effect that our friend could only for the moment keep it before him. “Never?”
It had such a deep and soft effect on Strether's imagination that our friend could only hold onto it for a moment. "Never?"
“Never,” Chad obligingly and serenely repeated.
“Never,” Chad calmly and willingly repeated.
It made his companion take several more steps. “Then you’re not afraid.”
It made his friend take several more steps. “Then you’re not afraid.”
“Afraid to go?”
“Scared to go?”
Strether pulled up again. “Afraid to stay.”
Strether paused once more. “Scared to stick around.”
The young man looked brightly amazed. “You want me now to ‘stay’?”
The young man looked genuinely surprised. “You want me to ‘stay’ now?”
“If I don’t immediately sail the Pococks will immediately come out. That’s what I mean,” said Strether, “by your mother’s ultimatum.”
“If I don’t head out right away, the Pococks will come out for sure. That’s what I mean,” Strether said, “by your mother’s ultimatum.”
Chad showed a still livelier, but not an alarmed interest. “She has turned on Sarah and Jim?”
Chad showed even more lively, but not worried, interest. “She’s turned on Sarah and Jim?”
Strether joined him for an instant in the vision. “Oh and you may be sure Mamie. That’s whom she’s turning on.”
Strether briefly shared his vision. “Oh, and you can be sure, Mamie. That’s who she’s focusing on.”
This also Chad saw—he laughed out. “Mamie—to corrupt me?”
This is what Chad also saw—he laughed out loud. “Mamie—to tempt me?”
“Ah,” said Strether, “she’s very charming.”
“Ah,” said Strether, “she’s really charming.”
“So you’ve already more than once told me. I should like to see her.”
“So you’ve already told me more than once. I’d like to see her.”
Something happy and easy, something above all unconscious, in the way he said this, brought home again to his companion the facility of his attitude and the enviability of his state. “See her then by all means. And consider too,” Strether went on, “that you really give your sister a lift in letting her come to you. You give her a couple of months of Paris, which she hasn’t seen, if I’m not mistaken, since just after she was married, and which I’m sure she wants but the pretext to visit.”
Something cheerful and effortless, something ultimately instinctive, in the way he said this, reminded his companion of how easygoing he was and how enviable his situation seemed. “So go ahead and see her. And also,” Strether continued, “realize that you're truly helping your sister by letting her come to you. You're giving her a couple of months in Paris, which, if I'm not mistaken, she hasn't experienced since shortly after her marriage, and I'm sure she desires the chance to visit but needs a reason to do so.”
Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. “She has had it, the pretext, these several years, yet she has never taken it.”
Chad listened, but with all his own knowledge of the world. “She’s had the excuse for several years now, but she’s never actually used it.”
“Do you mean you?” Strether after an instant enquired.
“Are you talking about you?” Strether asked after a moment.
“Certainly—the lone exile. And whom do you mean?” said Chad.
“Of course—the solitary exile. And who are you talking about?” said Chad.
“Oh I mean me. I’m her pretext. That is—for it comes to the same thing—I’m your mother’s.”
“Oh, I mean me. I'm her excuse. That is—because it amounts to the same thing—I'm your mother's.”
“Then why,” Chad asked, “doesn’t Mother come herself?”
“Then why,” Chad asked, “doesn’t Mom come herself?”
His friend gave him a long look. “Should you like her to?” And as he for the moment said nothing: “It’s perfectly open to you to cable for her.”
His friend looked at him for a long time. “Do you want her to?” And when he didn’t respond right away, his friend added, “You’re completely free to send her a message.”
Chad continued to think. “Will she come if I do?”
Chad kept thinking. “Will she come if I go?”
“Quite possibly. But try, and you’ll see.”
“Probably. But give it a shot, and you’ll see.”
“Why don’t you try?” Chad after a moment asked.
“Why don’t you give it a try?” Chad asked after a moment.
“Because I don’t want to.”
“Because I don't want to.”
Chad thought. “Don’t desire her presence here?”
Chad thought, "Don’t want her here?"
Strether faced the question, and his answer was the more emphatic. “Don’t put it off, my dear boy, on me!”
Strether confronted the question, and his response was even more forceful. “Don’t put it off, my dear boy, on me!”
“Well—I see what you mean. I’m sure you’d behave beautifully but you don’t want to see her. So I won’t play you that trick.’
“Well—I get what you're saying. I'm sure you'd act perfectly, but you don't want to see her. So I won't pull that stunt on you.”
“Ah,” Strether declared, “I shouldn’t call it a trick. You’ve a perfect right, and it would be perfectly straight of you.” Then he added in a different tone: “You’d have moreover, in the person of Madame de Vionnet, a very interesting relation prepared for her.”
“Ah,” Strether said, “I wouldn’t call it a trick. You have every right to it, and it would be completely fair of you.” Then he added in a different tone: “You’d also have, in Madame de Vionnet, a very interesting connection set up for her.”
Their eyes, on this proposition, continued to meet, but Chad’s pleasant and bold, never flinched for a moment. He got up at last and he said something with which Strether was struck. “She wouldn’t understand her, but that makes no difference. Madame de Vionnet would like to see her. She’d like to be charming to her. She believes she could work it.”
Their eyes kept meeting over this suggestion, but Chad's friendly and confident gaze never wavered. Finally, he stood up and said something that caught Strether's attention. “She wouldn’t get her, but that doesn’t matter. Madame de Vionnet wants to see her. She wants to impress her. She thinks she could make it happen.”
Strether thought a moment, affected by this, but finally turning away. “She couldn’t!”
Strether paused for a moment, impacted by this, but ultimately looked away. “She couldn’t!”
“You’re quite sure?” Chad asked.
"Are you sure?" Chad asked.
“Well, risk it if you like!”
“Well, go ahead and risk it if you want!”
Strether, who uttered this with serenity, had urged a plea for their now getting into the air; but the young man still waited. “Have you sent your answer?”
Strether, saying this calmly, had asked them to hurry up and get going; but the young man continued to wait. “Have you sent your answer?”
“No, I’ve done nothing yet.”
“No, I haven’t done anything yet.”
“Were you waiting to see me?”
“Were you waiting to see me?”
“No, not that.”
“No, not that one.”
“Only waiting”—and Chad, with this, had a smile for him—“to see Miss Gostrey?”
“Just waiting”—and Chad, at this, smiled at him—“to see Miss Gostrey?”
“No—not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn’t waiting to see any one. I had only waited, till now, to make up my mind—in complete solitude; and, since I of course absolutely owe you the information, was on the point of going out with it quite made up. Have therefore a little more patience with me. Remember,” Strether went on, “that that’s what you originally asked me to have. I’ve had it, you see, and you see what has come of it. Stay on with me.”
“No—not even Miss Gostrey. I wasn’t waiting to see anyone. I had only waited until now to figure things out—in complete solitude; and since I definitely owe you this information, I was about to go out with my decision all made up. So please have a little more patience with me. Remember,” Strether continued, “that’s what you originally asked me to do. I’ve done that, you see, and you see what has come of it. Stay with me.”
Chad looked grave. “How much longer?”
Chad looked serious. “How much longer?”
“Well, till I make you a sign. I can’t myself, you know, at the best, or at the worst, stay for ever. Let the Pococks come,” Strether repeated.
“Well, until I give you a sign. I can’t, really, at the best or the worst, stay forever. Let the Pococks come,” Strether repeated.
“Because it gains you time?”
"Does it save you time?"
“Yes—it gains me time.”
"Yeah—it gives me time."
Chad, as if it still puzzled him, waited a minute. “You don’t want to get back to Mother?”
Chad, looking a bit confused, paused for a moment. “Don’t you want to go back to Mom?”
“Not just yet. I’m not ready.”
“Not just yet. I’m not ready.”
“You feel,” Chad asked in a tone of his own, “the charm of life over here?”
“You feel,” Chad asked in his own way, “the charm of life over here?”
“Immensely.” Strether faced it. “You’ve helped me so to feel it that that surely needn’t surprise you.”
“Definitely.” Strether acknowledged. “You’ve made me feel it so much that it shouldn’t surprise you at all.”
“No, it doesn’t surprise me, and I’m delighted. But what, my dear man,” Chad went on with conscious queerness, “does it all lead to for you?”
“No, it doesn’t surprise me, and I’m really happy about it. But what, my dear man,” Chad continued with intentional flamboyance, “does it all mean for you?”
The change of position and of relation, for each, was so oddly betrayed in the question that Chad laughed out as soon as he had uttered it—which made Strether also laugh. “Well, to my having a certitude that has been tested—that has passed through the fire. But oh,” he couldn’t help breaking out, “if within my first month here you had been willing to move with me—!”
The shift in position and relationships for both of them was so strangely obvious in the question that Chad burst out laughing as soon as he said it—which made Strether laugh too. “Well, it’s because I have a certainty that’s been proven—that’s gone through the fire. But oh,” he couldn’t help but exclaim, “if you had been willing to join me within my first month here—!”
“Well?” said Chad, while he broke down as for weight of thought.
“Well?” Chad said, as he broke down under the weight of his thoughts.
“Well, we should have been over there by now.”
“Well, we should have been there by now.”
“Ah but you wouldn’t have had your fun!”
“Ah, but you wouldn’t have had your fun!”
“I should have had a month of it; and I’m having now, if you want to know,” Strether continued, “enough to last me for the rest of my days.”
“I should have had a month of it; and I’m having now, if you want to know,” Strether continued, “enough to last me for the rest of my days.”
Chad looked amused and interested, yet still somewhat in the dark; partly perhaps because Strether’s estimate of fun had required of him from the first a good deal of elucidation. “It wouldn’t do if I left you—?”
Chad looked entertained and curious, yet still a bit confused; maybe partly because Strether’s idea of fun had needed a lot of explaining from the start. “Would it be a problem if I left you—?”
“Left me?”—Strether remained blank.
“Left me?”—Strether stayed blank.
“Only for a month or two—time to go and come. Madame de Vionnet,” Chad smiled, “would look after you in the interval.”
“Just for a month or two—enough time to go and come back. Madame de Vionnet,” Chad smiled, “would take care of you in the meantime.”
“To go back by yourself, I remaining here?” Again for an instant their eyes had the question out; after which Strether said: “Grotesque!”
“To go back by yourself, while I stay here?” For a moment, their eyes exchanged the question; then Strether said, “Grotesque!”
“But I want to see Mother,” Chad presently returned. “Remember how long it is since I’ve seen Mother.”
“But I want to see Mom,” Chad said again. “Just think about how long it’s been since I’ve seen her.”
“Long indeed; and that’s exactly why I was originally so keen for moving you. Hadn’t you shown us enough how beautifully you could do without it?”
“Absolutely; and that’s why I was so eager to get you out of there in the first place. Haven't you already shown us how well you can manage without it?”
“Oh but,” said Chad wonderfully, “I’m better now.”
“Oh, but,” Chad said excitedly, “I’m doing better now.”
There was an easy triumph in it that made his friend laugh out again. “Oh if you were worse I should know what to do with you. In that case I believe I’d have you gagged and strapped down, carried on board resisting, kicking. How much,” Strether asked, “do you want to see Mother?”
There was a simple victory in it that made his friend laugh again. “Oh, if you were any worse, I would know what to do with you. In that case, I’d probably have you gagged and tied down, dragged on board while you were resisting and kicking. How much,” Strether asked, “do you want to see Mom?”
“How much?”—Chad seemed to find it in fact difficult to say.
“How much?”—Chad actually seemed to have a hard time saying it.
“How much.”
"How much is it?"
“Why as much as you’ve made me. I’d give anything to see her. And you’ve left me,” Chad went on, “in little enough doubt as to how much she wants it.”
“Why as much as you’ve made me. I’d give anything to see her. And you’ve left me,” Chad continued, “with little doubt about how much she wants it.”
Strether thought a minute. “Well then if those things are really your motive catch the French steamer and sail to-morrow. Of course, when it comes to that, you’re absolutely free to do as you choose. From the moment you can’t hold yourself I can only accept your flight.”
Strether thought for a moment. “Well, if those things are really your motivation, catch the French steamer and sail tomorrow. Of course, when it comes to that, you’re completely free to do what you want. Once you can't hold yourself back, I can only accept your decision to leave.”
“I’ll fly in a minute then,” said Chad, “if you’ll stay here.”
“I’ll take off in a minute then,” said Chad, “if you’ll stick around.”
“I’ll stay here till the next steamer—then I’ll follow you.”
“I’ll stay here until the next steamer—then I’ll catch up with you.”
“And do you call that,” Chad asked, “accepting my flight?”
“And do you call that,” Chad asked, “accepting my flight?”
“Certainly—it’s the only thing to call it. The only way to keep me here, accordingly,” Strether explained, “is by staying yourself.”
“Of course—it’s the only thing to call it. The only way to keep me here, then,” Strether explained, “is by staying yourself.”
Chad took it in. “All the more that I’ve really dished you, eh?”
Chad processed it. “Guess I really gave you a hard time, huh?”
“Dished me?” Strether echoed as inexpressively as possible.
“Dished me?” Strether repeated, trying to sound as unemotional as possible.
“Why if she sends out the Pococks it will be that she doesn’t trust you, and if she doesn’t trust you, that bears upon—well, you know what.”
“Why, if she sends out the Pococks, it means she doesn’t trust you, and if she doesn’t trust you, that affects—well, you know what.”
Strether decided after a moment that he did know what, and in consonance with this he spoke. “You see then all the more what you owe me.”
Strether took a moment to realize that he did know what, and based on that, he said, “So you understand even more what you owe me.”
“Well, if I do see, how can I pay?”
“Well, if I see it, how can I pay?”
“By not deserting me. By standing by me.”
“By not abandoning me. By being there for me.”
“Oh I say—!” But Chad, as they went downstairs, clapped a firm hand, in the manner of a pledge, upon his shoulder. They descended slowly together and had, in the court of the hotel, some further talk, of which the upshot was that they presently separated. Chad Newsome departed, and Strether, left alone, looked about, superficially, for Waymarsh. But Waymarsh hadn’t yet, it appeared, come down, and our friend finally went forth without sight of him.
“Oh wow—!” But Chad, as they headed downstairs, placed a firm hand on his shoulder, like a promise. They slowly descended together and had a bit more conversation in the hotel courtyard, which ultimately led to their parting ways. Chad Newsome left, and Strether, now alone, looked around briefly for Waymarsh. But it seemed Waymarsh hadn’t come down yet, and in the end, our friend went outside without seeing him.
III
At four o’clock that afternoon he had still not seen him, but he was then, as to make up for this, engaged in talk about him with Miss Gostrey. Strether had kept away from home all day, given himself up to the town and to his thoughts, wandered and mused, been at once restless and absorbed—and all with the present climax of a rich little welcome in the Quartier Marbœuf. “Waymarsh has been, ‘unbeknown’ to me, I’m convinced”—for Miss Gostrey had enquired—“in communication with Woollett: the consequence of which was, last night, the loudest possible call for me.”
At four o’clock that afternoon, he still hadn't seen him, but to make up for it, he was chatting about him with Miss Gostrey. Strether had avoided home all day, immersing himself in the town and his thoughts, wandering and reflecting, feeling both restless and absorbed—and all of this building up to a warm welcome in the Quartier Marbœuf. “Waymarsh has been, without my knowledge, I’m sure”—since Miss Gostrey had asked—“in touch with Woollett: the result of which was, last night, a very loud call for me.”
“Do you mean a letter to bring you home?”
“Are you asking for a letter to take you home?”
“No—a cable, which I have at this moment in my pocket: a ‘Come back by the first ship.’”
“No—a cable that I have right now in my pocket: a ‘Come back by the first ship.’”
Strether’s hostess, it might have been made out, just escaped changing colour. Reflexion arrived but in time and established a provisional serenity. It was perhaps exactly this that enabled her to say with duplicity: “And you’re going—?”
Strether’s hostess, it seemed, just managed to keep from changing color. Reflection came in time and created a temporary calm. It was probably this that allowed her to say with a hint of deceit: “And you’re going—?”
“You almost deserve it when you abandon me so.”
“You kind of deserve it when you leave me like this.”
She shook her head as if this were not worth taking up. “My absence has helped you—as I’ve only to look at you to see. It was my calculation, and I’m justified. You’re not where you were. And the thing,” she smiled, “was for me not to be there either. You can go of yourself.”
She shook her head as if it wasn't worth discussing. “My absence has helped you—just looking at you proves that. It was my plan, and I’m right about it. You’re not the same as you were. And the thing,” she smiled, “was for me to not be around either. You can handle things on your own.”
“Oh but I feel to-day,” he comfortably declared, “that I shall want you yet.”
“Oh, but I feel today,” he confidently stated, “that I will want you again.”
She took him all in again. “Well, I promise you not again to leave you, but it will only be to follow you. You’ve got your momentum and can toddle alone.”
She took him in once more. “Well, I promise I won’t leave you again, but I’ll only do it to follow you. You’ve got your rhythm and can manage on your own.”
He intelligently accepted it. “Yes—I suppose I can toddle. It’s the sight of that in fact that has upset Waymarsh. He can bear it—the way I strike him as going—no longer. That’s only the climax of his original feeling. He wants me to quit; and he must have written to Woollett that I’m in peril of perdition.”
He smartly accepted it. “Yeah—I guess I can manage. It’s actually what he sees that has thrown Waymarsh off. He can’t handle it—the way I’m coming across—anymore. That’s just the peak of how he felt originally. He wants me to stop; and he must have told Woollett that I’m in danger of doom.”
“Ah good!” she murmured. “But is it only your supposition?”
“Ah good!” she murmured. “But is it just your assumption?”
“I make it out—it explains.”
"I get it—it makes sense."
“Then he denies?—or you haven’t asked him?”
"Then he denies it?—or you haven't asked him?"
“I’ve not had time,” Strether said; “I made it out but last night, putting various things together, and I’ve not been since then face to face with him.”
“I haven’t had time,” Strether said; “I just put it together last night, mixing various things, and I haven’t been face to face with him since then.”
She wondered. “Because you’re too disgusted? You can’t trust yourself?”
She wondered, “Is it because you’re too disgusted? You can’t trust yourself?”
He settled his glasses on his nose. “Do I look in a great rage?”
He adjusted his glasses on his nose. “Do I look really angry?”
“You look divine!”
“You look amazing!”
“There’s nothing,” he went on, “to be angry about. He has done me on the contrary a service.”
“There’s nothing,” he continued, “to be angry about. He has actually done me a favor.”
She made it out. “By bringing things to a head?”
She got away. “By forcing a resolution?”
“How well you understand!” he almost groaned. “Waymarsh won’t in the least, at any rate, when I have it out with him, deny or extenuate. He has acted from the deepest conviction, with the best conscience and after wakeful nights. He’ll recognise that he’s fully responsible, and will consider that he has been highly successful; so that any discussion we may have will bring us quite together again—bridge the dark stream that has kept us so thoroughly apart. We shall have at last, in the consequences of his act, something we can definitely talk about.”
“Oh, you really get it!” he almost groaned. “Waymarsh definitely won’t, at least, when I confront him, deny or soften the truth. He has acted out of deep conviction, with the best intentions, and after sleepless nights. He’ll acknowledge that he’s fully responsible and will believe he has been very successful; so any discussion we have will bring us back together—bridge the dark gap that has kept us so far apart. Finally, in the consequences of his actions, we’ll have something concrete to talk about.”
She was silent a little. “How wonderfully you take it! But you’re always wonderful.”
She was quiet for a moment. “Wow, you handle it so well! But you’re always amazing.”
He had a pause that matched her own; then he had, with an adequate spirit, a complete admission. “It’s quite true. I’m extremely wonderful just now. I dare say in fact I’m quite fantastic, and I shouldn’t be at all surprised if I were mad.”
He paused at the same time she did; then, with a confident attitude, he fully admitted, “It’s true. I’m doing really great right now. Honestly, I think I’m fantastic, and I wouldn’t be surprised if I were going a little crazy.”
“Then tell me!” she earnestly pressed. As he, however, for the time answered nothing, only returning the look with which she watched him, she presented herself where it was easier to meet her. “What will Mr. Waymarsh exactly have done?”
“Then tell me!” she said earnestly. Since he didn’t say anything in response, just matching her gaze, she moved closer to where it was easier for them to connect. “What exactly will Mr. Waymarsh have done?”
“Simply have written a letter. One will have been quite enough. He has told them I want looking after.”
“Just write a letter. One will be more than enough. He has told them I need taking care of.”
“And do you?”—she was all interest.
“And do you?”—she was very interested.
“Immensely. And I shall get it.”
“Absolutely. And I will get it.”
“By which you mean you don’t budge?”
“Are you saying you won’t change your mind?”
“I don’t budge.”
“I won’t budge.”
“You’ve cabled?”
"You've sent a message?"
“No—I’ve made Chad do it.”
“No—I had Chad do it.”
“That you decline to come?”
"Are you saying you won't come?"
“That he declines. We had it out this morning and I brought him round. He had come in, before I was down, to tell me he was ready—ready, I mean, to return. And he went off, after ten minutes with me, to say he wouldn’t.”
“That he declines. We talked it over this morning and I got him to see things my way. He had come in, before I got up, to tell me he was ready—ready, I mean, to come back. And he left, after ten minutes with me, to say he wouldn’t.”
Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. “Then you’ve stopped him?”
Miss Gostrey followed with intensity. “So, you’ve stopped him?”
Strether settled himself afresh in his chair. “I’ve stopped him. That is for the time. That”—he gave it to her more vividly—“is where I am.”
Strether got comfortable in his chair again. “I’ve put a stop to it. For now. That”—he made it clearer—“is where I’m at.”
“I see, I see. But where’s Mr. Newsome? He was ready,” she asked, “to go?”
“I get it, I get it. But where’s Mr. Newsome? He was all set,” she asked, “to go?”
“All ready.”
"All set."
“And sincerely—believing you’d be?”
“And seriously—thinking you’d be?”
“Perfectly, I think; so that he was amazed to find the hand I had laid on him to pull him over suddenly converted into an engine for keeping him still.”
"Perfectly, I think; so he was surprised to find that the hand I had placed on him to pull him over had suddenly turned into a way to keep him still."
It was an account of the matter Miss Gostrey could weigh. “Does he think the conversion sudden?”
It was a situation that Miss Gostrey could evaluate. “Does he think the change is abrupt?”
“Well,” said Strether, “I’m not altogether sure what he thinks. I’m not sure of anything that concerns him, except that the more I’ve seen of him the less I’ve found him what I originally expected. He’s obscure, and that’s why I’m waiting.”
“Well,” said Strether, “I’m not entirely sure what he thinks. I’m uncertain about anything related to him, except that the more I see of him, the less he matches my initial expectations. He’s mysterious, and that’s why I’m holding off.”
She wondered. “But for what in particular?”
She wondered, “But what exactly for?”
“For the answer to his cable.”
“For the response to his message.”
“And what was his cable?”
“And what was his message?”
“I don’t know,” Strether replied; “it was to be, when he left me, according to his own taste. I simply said to him: ‘I want to stay, and the only way for me to do so is for you to.’ That I wanted to stay seemed to interest him, and he acted on that.”
“I don’t know,” Strether replied; “it was supposed to happen when he left me, based on his own preference. I just told him: ‘I want to stay, and the only way for me to do that is for you to.’ The fact that I wanted to stay seemed to pique his interest, and he went along with it.”
Miss Gostrey turned it over. “He wants then himself to stay.”
Miss Gostrey turned it over. “So he wants to stay himself.”
“He half wants it. That is he half wants to go. My original appeal has to that extent worked in him. Nevertheless,” Strether pursued, “he won’t go. Not, at least, so long as I’m here.”
“He sort of wants it. That is, he kind of wants to go. My original appeal has worked on him to that extent. Still,” Strether continued, “he won’t go. Not, at least, as long as I’m here.”
“But you can’t,” his companion suggested, “stay here always. I wish you could.”
“But you can’t,” his friend said, “stay here forever. I wish you could.”
“By no means. Still, I want to see him a little further. He’s not in the least the case I supposed, he’s quite another case. And it’s as such that he interests me.” It was almost as if for his own intelligence that, deliberate and lucid, our friend thus expressed the matter. “I don’t want to give him up.”
“Not at all. Still, I want to understand him a bit more. He’s not at all the situation I thought; he’s something completely different. And that’s what makes him interesting to me.” It was as if, for his own clarity, our friend was putting it this way, deliberately and clearly. “I don’t want to let him go.”
Miss Gostrey but desired to help his lucidity. She had however to be light and tactful. “Up, you mean—a—to his mother?”
Miss Gostrey just wanted to help him think clearly. She had to be gentle and tactful, though. “Up, you mean—to his mother?”
“Well, I’m not thinking of his mother now. I’m thinking of the plan of which I was the mouthpiece, which, as soon as we met, I put before him as persuasively as I knew how, and which was drawn up, as it were, in complete ignorance of all that, in this last long period, has been happening to him. It took no account whatever of the impression I was here on the spot immediately to begin to receive from him—impressions of which I feel sure I’m far from having had the last.”
“Well, I’m not thinking about his mother right now. I’m focused on the plan that I spoke for, which, as soon as we met, I presented to him as convincingly as I could. This plan was created without any idea of everything that has been going on with him during this long time. It didn't consider at all the impressions I was starting to get from him right here on the spot—impressions that I'm sure I haven't fully grasped yet.”
Miss Gostrey had a smile of the most genial criticism. “So your idea is—more or less—to stay out of curiosity?”
Miss Gostrey had a smile that reflected the kindest criticism. “So your idea is—more or less—to stay out of curiosity?”
“Call it what you like! I don’t care what it’s called—”
“Call it whatever you want! I don’t care what it’s called—”
“So long as you do stay? Certainly not then. I call it, all the same, immense fun,” Maria Gostrey declared; “and to see you work it out will be one of the sensations of my life. It is clear you can toddle alone!”
“So long as you’re staying? Definitely not then. I think it’s still going to be a lot of fun,” Maria Gostrey said; “and watching you figure it out will be one of the highlights of my life. It is clear you can manage on your own!”
He received this tribute without elation. “I shan’t be alone when the Pococks have come.”
He accepted this tribute without excitement. “I won’t be alone when the Pococks arrive.”
Her eyebrows went up. “The Pococks are coming?”
Her eyebrows raised. “The Pococks are coming?”
“That, I mean, is what will happen—and happen as quickly as possible—in consequence of Chad’s cable. They’ll simply embark. Sarah will come to speak for her mother—with an effect different from my muddle.”
“That, I mean, is what will happen—and happen as quickly as possible—because of Chad’s cable. They’ll just get on board. Sarah will come to speak for her mother—with an effect different from my mess.”
Miss Gostrey more gravely wondered. “She then will take him back?”
Miss Gostrey thought more seriously. “She will take him back?”
“Very possibly—and we shall see. She must at any rate have the chance, and she may be trusted to do all she can.”
“Most likely—and we will find out. She has to have the opportunity, and we can trust her to do everything she can.”
“And do you want that?”
"Do you want that?"
“Of course,” said Strether, “I want it. I want to play fair.”
“Of course,” said Strether, “I want it. I want to be honest.”
But she had lost for a moment the thread. “If it devolves on the Pococks why do you stay?”
But she momentarily lost her train of thought. “If it’s up to the Pococks, why do you stick around?”
“Just to see that I do play fair—and a little also, no doubt, that they do.” Strether was luminous as he had never been. “I came out to find myself in presence of new facts—facts that have kept striking me as less and less met by our old reasons. The matter’s perfectly simple. New reasons—reasons as new as the facts themselves—are wanted; and of this our friends at Woollett—Chad’s and mine—were at the earliest moment definitely notified. If any are producible Mrs. Pocock will produce them; she’ll bring over the whole collection. They’ll be,” he added with a pensive smile “a part of the ‘fun’ you speak of.”
“Just to show that I really do play fair—and maybe a little to show that they do too.” Strether was glowing like never before. “I came out to discover new facts—facts that keep hitting me as less and less explained by our old reasoning. It’s all pretty straightforward. We need new reasons—reasons as fresh as the facts themselves—and our friends back in Woollett—Chad’s and mine—were informed about this right away. If any can be found, Mrs. Pocock will bring them; she’ll bring the whole collection. They’ll be,” he added with a thoughtful smile, “part of the ‘fun’ you mentioned.”
She was quite in the current now and floating by his side. “It’s Mamie—so far as I’ve had it from you—who’ll be their great card.” And then as his contemplative silence wasn’t a denial she significantly added: “I think I’m sorry for her.”
She was fully caught up in the moment and drifting beside him. “It’s Mamie—at least from what I’ve heard from you—who will be their main attraction.” And since his thoughtful silence wasn’t a rejection, she meaningfully added: “I think I feel sorry for her.”
“I think I am!”—and Strether sprang up, moving about a little as her eyes followed him. “But it can’t be helped.”
“I think I am!”—and Strether jumped up, moving around a bit as her eyes tracked him. “But there’s nothing we can do about it.”
“You mean her coming out can’t be?”
"You mean her coming out can't be?"
He explained after another turn what he meant. “The only way for her not to come is for me to go home—as I believe that on the spot I could prevent it. But the difficulty as to that is that if I do go home—”
He clarified after another turn what he meant. “The only way for her not to come is for me to go home—because I believe I could stop it right then and there. But the problem with that is that if I do go home—”
“I see, I see”—she had easily understood. “Mr. Newsome will do the same, and that’s not”—she laughed out now—“to be thought of.”
“I get it, I get it”—she understood right away. “Mr. Newsome will do the same, and that’s not”—she laughed out loud now—“something to think about.”
Strether had no laugh; he had only a quiet comparatively placid look that might have shown him as proof against ridicule. “Strange, isn’t it?”
Strether didn’t laugh; he just had a calm, fairly serene expression that might have made him seem immune to mockery. “Isn’t it strange?”
They had, in the matter that so much interested them, come so far as this without sounding another name—to which however their present momentary silence was full of a conscious reference. Strether’s question was a sufficient implication of the weight it had gained with him during the absence of his hostess; and just for that reason a single gesture from her could pass for him as a vivid answer. Yet he was answered still better when she said in a moment: “Will Mr. Newsome introduce his sister—?”
They had, on the topic that mattered so much to them, gotten this far without mentioning another name—though their current silence was clearly connected to it. Strether’s question clearly showed how much importance it had gained for him while his hostess was away; and for that reason, even a single gesture from her could feel like a strong response. But he felt even more answered when she said a moment later: “Will Mr. Newsome introduce his sister—?”
“To Madame de Vionnet?” Strether spoke the name at last. “I shall be greatly surprised if he doesn’t.”
“To Madame de Vionnet?” Strether finally said the name. “I’ll be very surprised if he doesn’t.”
She seemed to gaze at the possibility. “You mean you’ve thought of it and you’re prepared.”
She looked like she was considering the possibility. “So you’ve thought about it and you’re ready.”
“I’ve thought of it and I’m prepared.”
“I’ve thought about it and I’m ready.”
It was to her visitor now that she applied her consideration. “Bon! You are magnificent!”
It was to her visitor now that she focused her attention. “Great! You are amazing!”
“Well,” he answered after a pause and a little wearily, but still standing there before her—“well, that’s what, just once in all my dull days, I think I shall like to have been!”
“Well,” he replied after a pause and a bit tiredly, but still standing there in front of her—“well, that’s what, just once in all my boring days, I think I’d like to have been!”
Two days later he had news from Chad of a communication from Woollett in response to their determinant telegram, this missive being addressed to Chad himself and announcing the immediate departure for France of Sarah and Jim and Mamie. Strether had meanwhile on his own side cabled; he had but delayed that act till after his visit to Miss Gostrey, an interview by which, as so often before, he felt his sense of things cleared up and settled. His message to Mrs. Newsome, in answer to her own, had consisted of the words: “Judge best to take another month, but with full appreciation of all re-enforcements.” He had added that he was writing, but he was of course always writing; it was a practice that continued, oddly enough, to relieve him, to make him come nearer than anything else to the consciousness of doing something: so that he often wondered if he hadn’t really, under his recent stress, acquired some hollow trick, one of the specious arts of make-believe. Wouldn’t the pages he still so freely dispatched by the American post have been worthy of a showy journalist, some master of the great new science of beating the sense out of words? Wasn’t he writing against time, and mainly to show he was kind?—since it had become quite his habit not to like to read himself over. On those lines he could still be liberal, yet it was at best a sort of whistling in the dark. It was unmistakeable moreover that the sense of being in the dark now pressed on him more sharply—creating thereby the need for a louder and livelier whistle. He whistled long and hard after sending his message; he whistled again and again in celebration of Chad’s news; there was an interval of a fortnight in which this exercise helped him. He had no great notion of what, on the spot, Sarah Pocock would have to say, though he had indeed confused premonitions; but it shouldn’t be in her power to say—it shouldn’t be in any one’s anywhere to say—that he was neglecting her mother. He might have written before more freely, but he had never written more copiously; and he frankly gave for a reason at Woollett that he wished to fill the void created there by Sarah’s departure.
Two days later, he heard from Chad about a message from Woollett in response to their decisive telegram. The message was addressed to Chad and announced that Sarah, Jim, and Mamie were leaving for France immediately. Meanwhile, Strether had sent his own cable, but he delayed it until after his visit with Miss Gostrey. As so often before, their conversation clarified his thoughts and helped him feel more settled. His reply to Mrs. Newsome, in response to her own message, simply said, “I think it’s best to take another month, but I fully appreciate all the reinforcements.” He added that he was writing, but of course, he was always writing; it was a practice that oddly helped him feel more engaged, bringing him closer to the feeling of actually doing something. He often wondered if, due to his recent stress, he had developed some hollow trick or an illusion of productivity. Weren’t the letters he sent through the American post worthy of a flashy journalist, a master of the new art of making words mean less? Wasn’t he writing against time, mainly to show he cared? —since he had grown to dislike reading what he wrote. In that regard, he could still be generous, but it was really just a way of whistling in the dark. Furthermore, it was clear that the pressure of being in the dark was weighing on him more heavily now—driving the need for a louder, more enthusiastic whistle. He whistled long and hard after sending his message; he whistled again and again to celebrate Chad’s news. For a fortnight, this helped him cope. He had no firm idea of what Sarah Pocock would say when she arrived, although he had mixed feelings about it; still, it shouldn't be her place—or anyone’s, for that matter—to say he was neglecting her mother. He might have written more freely before, but he had never written as much; he was frank in telling Woollett that he wanted to fill the void left by Sarah’s departure.
The increase of his darkness, however, and the quickening, as I have called it, of his tune, resided in the fact that he was hearing almost nothing. He had for some time been aware that he was hearing less than before, and he was now clearly following a process by which Mrs. Newsome’s letters could but logically stop. He hadn’t had a line for many days, and he needed no proof—though he was, in time, to have plenty—that she wouldn’t have put pen to paper after receiving the hint that had determined her telegram. She wouldn’t write till Sarah should have seen him and reported on him. It was strange, though it might well be less so than his own behaviour appeared at Woollett. It was at any rate significant, and what was remarkable was the way his friend’s nature and manner put on for him, through this very drop of demonstration, a greater intensity. It struck him really that he had never so lived with her as during this period of her silence; the silence was a sacred hush, a finer clearer medium, in which her idiosyncrasies showed. He walked about with her, sat with her, drove with her and dined face-to-face with her—a rare treat “in his life,” as he could perhaps have scarce escaped phrasing it; and if he had never seen her so soundless he had never, on the other hand, felt her so highly, so almost austerely, herself: pure and by the vulgar estimate “cold,” but deep devoted delicate sensitive noble. Her vividness in these respects became for him, in the special conditions, almost an obsession; and though the obsession sharpened his pulses, adding really to the excitement of life, there were hours at which, to be less on the stretch, he directly sought forgetfulness. He knew it for the queerest of adventures—a circumstance capable of playing such a part only for Lambert Strether—that in Paris itself, of all places, he should find this ghost of the lady of Woollett more importunate than any other presence.
The increase in his darkness, and what I’ve called the quickening of his tune, stemmed from the fact that he was hearing almost nothing. He had been aware for some time that he was hearing less than before, and now he was clearly going through a process that meant Mrs. Newsome's letters would logically stop. He hadn’t received a line in many days, and he didn’t need any proof—though, eventually, he would have plenty—that she wouldn’t have written anything after getting the hint that had prompted her telegram. She wouldn’t write until Sarah had seen him and reported back to her. It was strange, though perhaps less so than his own behavior had been in Woollett. It was significant, and what was remarkable was how his friend’s nature and manner, through this very lack of communication, showed greater intensity. He realized that he had never experienced being with her as intensely as during this period of her silence; the silence was a sacred hush, a clearer medium in which her quirks came to light. He walked around with her, sat with her, drove with her, and dined face-to-face with her—a rare treat "in his life," as he might have put it; and if he had never seen her so quiet, he had also never felt her to be so highly, almost austerely, herself: pure and by ordinary standards "cold," but deeply devoted, delicate, sensitive, and noble. Her vividness in these respects became, under these special conditions, almost an obsession for him; and although this obsession heightened his senses, really adding to the thrill of life, there were times when, to ease the tension, he actively sought forgetfulness. He recognized it as the strangest of adventures—a situation that could only play such a role for Lambert Strether—that in Paris, of all places, he should find this ghost of the lady from Woollett more pressing than any other presence.
When he went back to Maria Gostrey it was for the change to something else. And yet after all the change scarcely operated for he talked to her of Mrs. Newsome in these days as he had never talked before. He had hitherto observed in that particular a discretion and a law; considerations that at present broke down quite as if relations had altered. They hadn’t really altered, he said to himself, so much as that came to; for if what had occurred was of course that Mrs. Newsome had ceased to trust him, there was nothing on the other hand to prove that he shouldn’t win back her confidence. It was quite his present theory that he would leave no stone unturned to do so; and in fact if he now told Maria things about her that he had never told before this was largely because it kept before him the idea of the honour of such a woman’s esteem. His relation with Maria as well was, strangely enough, no longer quite the same; this truth—though not too disconcertingly—had come up between them on the renewal of their meetings. It was all contained in what she had then almost immediately said to him; it was represented by the remark she had needed but ten minutes to make and that he hadn’t been disposed to gainsay. He could toddle alone, and the difference that showed was extraordinary. The turn taken by their talk had promptly confirmed this difference; his larger confidence on the score of Mrs. Newsome did the rest; and the time seemed already far off when he had held out his small thirsty cup to the spout of her pail. Her pail was scarce touched now, and other fountains had flowed for him; she fell into her place as but one of his tributaries; and there was a strange sweetness—a melancholy mildness that touched him—in her acceptance of the altered order.
When he returned to Maria Gostrey, it was to experience something different. Yet, the change barely affected him, as he spoke to her about Mrs. Newsome in a way he had never done before. Previously, he had been discreet about that topic, but now those boundaries seemed to break down, as if their relationship had shifted. In reality, he told himself, it hadn’t changed that much; while Mrs. Newsome had stopped trusting him, there was nothing to suggest that he couldn’t earn back her trust. It was his current belief that he would do everything he could to achieve that, and if he shared things with Maria that he had never revealed before, it was mainly because it reminded him of the value of such a woman’s regard. Strangely enough, his relationship with Maria also felt different; this reality—though not upsetting—had come to light during their recent meetings. It was all captured in what she quickly said to him; her remark, made within ten minutes, was something he didn't feel inclined to dispute. He could manage on his own, and the difference was remarkable. The direction their conversation took reinforced this difference; his newfound confidence regarding Mrs. Newsome added to it, and it seemed like ages ago when he had held out his small, thirsty cup to the spout of her pail. Her pail was hardly touched now, and other sources had nourished him; she had become just one of his many influences, and there was a strange sweetness—an almost melancholic gentleness—in her acceptance of this new dynamic.
It marked for himself the flight of time, or at any rate what he was pleased to think of with irony and pity as the rush of experience; it having been but the day before yesterday that he sat at her feet and held on by her garment and was fed by her hand. It was the proportions that were changed, and the proportions were at all times, he philosophised, the very conditions of perception, the terms of thought. It was as if, with her effective little entresol and and her wide acquaintance, her activities, varieties, promiscuities, the duties and devotions that took up nine tenths of her time and of which he got, guardedly, but the side-wind—it was as if she had shrunk to a secondary element and had consented to the shrinkage with the perfection of tact. This perfection had never failed her; it had originally been greater than his prime measure for it; it had kept him quite apart, kept him out of the shop, as she called her huge general acquaintance, made their commerce as quiet, as much a thing of the home alone—the opposite of the shop—as if she had never another customer. She had been wonderful to him at first, with the memory of her little entresol, the image to which, on most mornings at that time, his eyes directly opened; but now she mainly figured for him as but part of the bristling total—though of course always as a person to whom he should never cease to be indebted. It would never be given to him certainly to inspire a greater kindness. She had decked him out for others, and he saw at this point at least nothing she would ever ask for. She only wondered and questioned and listened, rendering him the homage of a wistful speculation. She expressed it repeatedly; he was already far beyond her, and she must prepare herself to lose him. There was but one little chance for her.
He marked the passage of time for himself, or at least what he ironically and sadly thought of as the rush of experiences; it was only the day before yesterday that he sat at her feet, clung to her clothing, and was fed by her hand. It was the balance that had changed, and he reflected that balance was always the very basis of perception, the foundation of thought. It was as if, with her effective little entresol, her wide social circle, her various activities, and the many responsibilities and commitments that occupied most of her time, of which he only got a glimpse—it was as if she had diminished to a secondary role and had gracefully accepted this downsizing. This grace had never failed her; it had always been more than his original measure of it; it had kept him entirely separate, out of the crowd she referred to as her large circle of acquaintances, making their interactions feel intimate, as private as home—the opposite of a bustling social life—as if she had no other connections. At first, she had been amazing to him, her little entresol being the image that greeted his eyes most mornings; but now, she mostly represented just part of the overwhelming whole—even though, of course, he would always feel indebted to her. He would never be able to inspire a greater kindness in her. She had dressed him up for others, and at this point, he saw nothing that she would ever ask for in return. She only wondered, questioned, and listened, giving him the respect of a thoughtful curiosity. She expressed it often; he had already outpaced her, and she needed to prepare for losing him. There was only a tiny chance left for her.
Often as she had said it he met it—for it was a touch he liked—each time the same way. “My coming to grief?”
Often as she had said it, he met it—because it was a touch he liked—each time the same way. “My downfall?”
“Yes—then I might patch you up.”
“Yeah—then I could help fix you up.”
“Oh for my real smash, if it takes place, there will be no patching.”
“Oh, for my big moment, if it happens, there will be no fixing it.”
“But you surely don’t mean it will kill you.”
“But you can’t seriously think it will kill you.”
“No—worse. It will make me old.”
“No—worse. It’s going to make me feel old.”
“Ah nothing can do that! The wonderful and special thing about you is that you are, at this time of day, youth.” Then she always made, further, one of those remarks that she had completely ceased to adorn with hesitations or apologies, and that had, by the same token, in spite of their extreme straightness, ceased to produce in Strether the least embarrassment. She made him believe them, and they became thereby as impersonal as truth itself. “It’s just your particular charm.”
“Ah, nothing can do that! The amazing and unique thing about you is that you are, at this time of day, young.” Then she always added one of those comments that she had completely stopped softening with hesitations or apologies, and that had, for that reason, despite their bluntness, stopped causing Strether any embarrassment. She made him believe them, and they became as impartial as the truth itself. “It’s just your special charm.”
His answer too was always the same. “Of course I’m youth—youth for the trip to Europe. I began to be young, or at least to get the benefit of it, the moment I met you at Chester, and that’s what has been taking place ever since. I never had the benefit at the proper time—which comes to saying that I never had the thing itself. I’m having the benefit at this moment; I had it the other day when I said to Chad ‘Wait’; I shall have it still again when Sarah Pocock arrives. It’s a benefit that would make a poor show for many people; and I don’t know who else but you and I, frankly, could begin to see in it what I feel. I don’t get drunk; I don’t pursue the ladies; I don’t spend money; I don’t even write sonnets. But nevertheless I’m making up late for what I didn’t have early. I cultivate my little benefit in my own little way. It amuses me more than anything that has happened to me in all my life. They may say what they like—it’s my surrender, it’s my tribute, to youth. One puts that in where one can—it has to come in somewhere, if only out of the lives, the conditions, the feelings of other persons. Chad gives me the sense of it, for all his grey hairs, which merely make it solid in him and safe and serene; and she does the same, for all her being older than he, for all her marriageable daughter, her separated husband, her agitated history. Though they’re young enough, my pair, I don’t say they’re, in the freshest way, their own absolutely prime adolescence; for that has nothing to do with it. The point is that they’re mine. Yes, they’re my youth; since somehow at the right time nothing else ever was. What I meant just now therefore is that it would all go—go before doing its work—if they were to fail me.”
His answer was always the same. “Of course I’m youthful—youthful for the trip to Europe. I started to feel young, or at least started to enjoy it, the moment I met you in Chester, and that’s been happening ever since. I never experienced it at the right time—which basically means I never really had it at all. I’m feeling it right now; I felt it the other day when I told Chad, ‘Wait’; and I’ll feel it again when Sarah Pocock arrives. It’s a feeling that wouldn’t mean much to a lot of people, and honestly, I don’t know who else but you and I could appreciate it like I do. I don’t get drunk; I don’t chase after women; I don’t waste money; I don’t even write sonnets. But still, I’m making up for what I didn’t have earlier. I nurture my little joy in my own little way. It entertains me more than anything that has ever happened to me. They can say whatever they want—it’s my surrender, my tribute to youth. You fit it in where you can—it has to find its place somehow, if only through the lives, situations, and feelings of others. Chad gives me that feeling, despite his grey hairs, which just make him feel grounded, secure, and calm; and she does the same, even though she’s older than him, has a marriageable daughter, a separated husband, and a complicated past. Even though they’re young enough, I don’t claim they have the freshest version of their own prime youth; that doesn’t really matter. The point is that they’re mine. Yes, they’re my youth; since somehow, at the right time, nothing else ever was. What I meant just now is that it would all be lost—lost before it could have its impact—if they were to let me down.”
On which, just here, Miss Gostrey inveterately questioned. “What do you, in particular, call its work?”
On that note, Miss Gostrey persistently asked, “What do you specifically call its work?”
“Well, to see me through.”
“Well, to get me by.”
“But through what?”—she liked to get it all out of him.
“But through what?”—she wanted to know everything from him.
“Why through this experience.” That was all that would come.
“Why through this experience.” That was all that came.
It regularly gave her none the less the last word. “Don’t you remember how in those first days of our meeting it was I who was to see you through?”
It still often gave her the final say. “Don’t you remember how, in those early days of us meeting, it was I who was supposed to help you?”
“Remember? Tenderly, deeply”—he always rose to it. “You’re just doing your part in letting me maunder to you thus.”
“Remember? Tenderly, deeply”—he always responded to it. “You’re just playing your role in letting me ramble to you like this.”
“Ah don’t speak as if my part were small; since whatever else fails you—”
“Ah, don’t act like my role is insignificant; since whatever else goes wrong for you—”
“You won’t, ever, ever, ever?”—he thus took her up. “Oh I beg your pardon; you necessarily, you inevitably will. Your conditions—that’s what I mean—won’t allow me anything to do for you.”
“You won’t, ever, ever, ever?”—he said to her. “Oh, I’m sorry; you definitely, you absolutely will. Your conditions—that’s what I mean—don’t give me the chance to do anything for you.”
“Let alone—I see what you mean—that I’m drearily dreadfully old. I am, but there’s a service—possible for you to render—that I know, all the same, I shall think of.”
“Not to mention—I get what you're saying—that I'm really old. I am, but there's a favor—something you could do for me—that I know I'll keep in mind.”
“And what will it be?”
“What do you want?”
This, in fine, however, she would never tell him. “You shall hear only if your smash takes place. As that’s really out of the question, I won’t expose myself”—a point at which, for reasons of his own, Strether ceased to press.
This, in short, she would never say to him. “You’ll only hear if your plan goes through. Since that’s really not going to happen, I won’t put myself at risk”—at this point, for reasons of his own, Strether stopped pushing.
He came round, for publicity—it was the easiest thing—to the idea that his smash was out of the question, and this rendered idle the discussion of what might follow it. He attached an added importance, as the days elapsed, to the arrival of the Pococks; he had even a shameful sense of waiting for it insincerely and incorrectly. He accused himself of making believe to his own mind that Sarah’s presence, her impression, her judgement would simplify and harmonise, he accused himself of being so afraid of what they might do that he sought refuge, to beg the whole question, in a vain fury. He had abundantly seen at home what they were in the habit of doing, and he had not at present the smallest ground. His clearest vision was when he made out that what he most desired was an account more full and free of Mrs. Newsome’s state of mind than any he felt he could now expect from herself; that calculation at least went hand in hand with the sharp consciousness of wishing to prove to himself that he was not afraid to look his behaviour in the face. If he was by an inexorable logic to pay for it he was literally impatient to know the cost, and he held himself ready to pay in instalments. The first instalment would be precisely this entertainment of Sarah; as a consequence of which moreover, he should know vastly better how he stood.
He eventually came around to the idea, out of a need for publicity—it was the easiest thing to do—that his big win was totally impossible, which made any discussion of what might come next pointless. As the days went by, he began to see the arrival of the Pococks as increasingly important; he even felt a shameful sense of waiting for it in an insincere and incorrect way. He criticized himself for convincing himself that Sarah’s presence, her opinions, and her judgments would make things easier and more in sync. He recognized that he was so afraid of what they might do that he sought refuge in a futile rage. He had seen enough at home to know what they usually did, and right now he had no solid reason to think differently. His clearest insight was that what he truly wanted was a more honest and open account of Mrs. Newsome’s state of mind than he thought he could get from her; that realization at least went hand in hand with a keen awareness of wanting to prove to himself that he wasn’t afraid to confront his own actions. If he was inevitably going to pay for it, he was literally anxious to find out the cost, and he was ready to pay in installments. The first installment would be exactly this interaction with Sarah; as a result, he would have a much clearer understanding of where he stood.
Book Eighth
I
Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the incident of the previous week having been to simplify in a marked fashion his mixed relations with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed between them in reference to Mrs. Newsome’s summons but that our friend had mentioned to his own the departure of the deputation actually at sea—giving him thus an opportunity to confess to the occult intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh however in the event confessed to nothing; and though this falsified in some degree Strether’s forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same depth of good conscience out of which the dear man’s impertinence had originally sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and delighted to observe how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt his own holiday so successfully large and free that he was full of allowances and charities in respect to those cabined and confined: his instinct toward a spirit so strapped down as Waymarsh’s was to walk round it on tiptoe for fear of waking it up to a sense of losses by this time irretrievable. It was all very funny he knew, and but the difference, as he often said to himself, of tweedledum and tweedledee—an emancipation so purely comparative that it was like the advance of the door-mat on the scraper; yet the present crisis was happily to profit by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to know himself more than ever in the right.
Strether wandered alone during those few days, as the impact of the incident from the previous week had significantly clarified his complicated relationship with Waymarsh. They hadn’t discussed Mrs. Newsome’s request, but Strether had told his friend about the departure of the delegation currently at sea—giving him a chance to admit the hidden influence he believed Waymarsh had. However, Waymarsh ultimately admitted nothing; and while this somewhat contradicted Strether’s expectations, he amusedly recognized the same genuine conscience that had originally fueled the dear man’s arrogance. He was now patient with him and pleased to see how noticeably he had gained weight; he felt his own break was so wonderfully large and free that he was full of understanding and kindness towards those who were restricted and confined. His instinct regarding a spirit as constrained as Waymarsh’s was to walk around it quietly, afraid of awakening it to losses that were by now irretrievable. He knew it was all quite amusing, and it was just the difference, as he often reminded himself, between tweedledum and tweedledee—an emancipation that was so purely relative it was like the movement of a doormat on a scraper; yet, fortunately, this current situation would benefit from it, allowing the traveler from Milrose to recognize even more that he was in the right.
Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the impulse of pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of triumph. That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes in which the heat of justice was measured and shaded. He had looked very hard, as if affectionately sorry for the friend—the friend of fifty-five—whose frivolity had had thus to be recorded; becoming, however, but obscurely sententious and leaving his companion to formulate a charge. It was in this general attitude that he had of late altogether taken refuge; with the drop of discussion they were solemnly sadly superficial; Strether recognised in him the mere portentous rumination to which Miss Barrace had so good-humouredly described herself as assigning a corner of her salon. It was quite as if he knew his surreptitious step had been divined, and it was also as if he missed the chance to explain the purity of his motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely his small penance: it was not amiss for Strether that he should find himself to that degree uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused, rebuked for meddling or otherwise pulled up, he would probably have shown, on his own system, all the height of his consistency, all the depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his course would have made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on the table would have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had what now really prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that thump—a dread of wincing a little painfully at what it might invidiously demonstrate? However this might be, at any rate, one of the marks of the crisis was a visible, a studied lapse, in Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to make up to his comrade for the stroke by which he had played providence he now conspicuously ignored his movements, withdrew himself from the pretension to share them, stiffened up his sensibility to neglect, and, clasping his large empty hands and swinging his large restless foot, clearly looked to another quarter for justice.
Strether realized that hearing about the Pococks approaching stirred up both pity and triumph in him. That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes that balanced justice and sadness. He had scrutinized him closely, almost with an affectionate sorrow for his old friend—the friend of fifty-five—whose frivolity had been laid bare; becoming rather obscurely moral and leaving his companion to make an accusation. This was the general attitude he had recently taken refuge in; with their dwindling discussions, they had become solemn and superficially sad. Strether recognized in him the heavy pondering that Miss Barrace had humorously claimed to reserve a spot for in her salon. It was as if he knew his stealthy approach had been detected, and he also seemed to regret missing the chance to clarify his pure intentions; but this lack of relief should serve as his small punishment: it wasn't bad for Strether to feel somewhat uneasy. If he had been confronted or accused, rebuked for intervening or any other kind of criticism, he would have likely demonstrated all the integrity and sincerity of his beliefs. Open resentment toward his actions would have compelled him to speak up, and the sound of his fist on the table would have declared him as undeniably honest. Was it possible that what truly troubled Strether was a fear of that loud thump—a fear of wincing uncomfortably at what it might reveal? Regardless of how it was, one sign of the crisis was Waymarsh's clear and studied display of concern. In an effort to make up for the intrusion he felt he had made, he now noticeably ignored Strether's actions, withdrew from the facade of sharing them, hardened his sensibility to neglect, and, clasping his large empty hands and swinging his restless foot, looked elsewhere for justice.
This made for independence on Strether’s part, and he had in truth at no moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early summer brushed the picture over and blurred everything but the near; it made a vast warm fragrant medium in which the elements floated together on the best of terms, in which rewards were immediate and reckonings postponed. Chad was out of town again, for the first time since his visitor’s first view of him; he had explained this necessity—without detail, yet also without embarrassment, the circumstance was one of those which, in the young man’s life, testified to the variety of his ties. Strether wasn’t otherwise concerned with it than for its so testifying—a pleasant multitudinous image in which he took comfort. He took comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of Chad’s pendulum back from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards Woollett, so stayed by his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that if he had for that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next minute this still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn’t done before; he took two or three times whole days off—irrespective of others, of two or three taken with Miss Gostrey, two or three taken with little Bilham: he went to Chartres and cultivated, before the front of the cathedral, a general easy beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and imagined himself on the way to Italy; he went to Rouen with a little handbag and inordinately spent the night.
This gave Strether a sense of independence, and honestly, he had never been so free to come and go during his entire stay. The early summer painted everything in a warm, fragrant haze that softened all but the present moment, creating a space where everything mixed well, where rewards came quickly and consequences were delayed. Chad was out of town again, for the first time since Strether had arrived; he had explained this need—without going into details, but also without feeling awkward. This situation was one of those that reflected the variety of the young man's connections. Strether was mainly concerned with this fact—a comforting idea of his many relationships. He found comfort, too, in the shift of Chad’s focus back from that other direction, the sudden pull towards Woollett, which was still guided by his own choice. He enjoyed the thought that if he had stopped the clock for a moment, it was to set the stage for an even more lively next minute. He did something he hadn't done before; he took a few full days off—independently of others, aside from two or three spent with Miss Gostrey and a couple with little Bilham: he went to Chartres and enjoyed a general sense of happiness in front of the cathedral; he went to Fontainebleau and imagined he was traveling to Italy; he went to Rouen with a small handbag and ended up spending the night there somewhat extravagantly.
One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in the neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed under the great arch of its doorway and asked at the porter’s lodge for Madame de Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about that possibility, been aware of it, in the course of ostensible strolls, as lurking but round the corner. Only it had perversely happened, after his morning at Notre Dame, that his consistency, as he considered and intended it, had come back to him; whereby he had reflected that the encounter in question had been none of his making; clinging again intensely to the strength of his position, which was precisely that there was nothing in it for himself. From the moment he actively pursued the charming associate of his adventure, from that moment his position weakened, for he was then acting in an interested way. It was only within a few days that he had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency should end with Sarah’s arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel the title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he wasn’t to be let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with delicacy. If he wasn’t to be trusted he could at least take his ease. If he was to be placed under control he gained leave to try what his position might agreeably give him. An ideal rigour would perhaps postpone the trial till after the Pococks had shown their spirit; and it was to an ideal rigour that he had quite promised himself to conform.
One afternoon he did something completely different; finding himself near a beautiful old house across the river, he walked under the large arch of its doorway and asked the doorman for Madame de Vionnet. He had been considering this possibility several times before, sensing it while taking obvious strolls, as if it were just around the corner. However, after his morning at Notre Dame, he had regained a sense of determination; realizing the encounter had not been initiated by him, he clung tightly to the strength of his position, which was that there was nothing in it for him. The moment he actively sought out the charming companion from his adventure, his position weakened because he was then acting with interest. Within a few days, he set a limit for himself: he promised that his steadfastness would end with Sarah’s arrival. It made sense to feel entitled to a free hand because of this event. If he wasn’t going to be left alone, he would just be a fool pretending to be delicate. If he wasn’t trusted, at least he could relax. If he was going to be controlled, he had permission to see what his position might pleasantly offer him. An ideal discipline would perhaps delay the opportunity until after the Pococks had shown their true character; and it was to this ideal discipline that he had fully committed himself.
Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular fear under which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was afraid of himself—and yet not in relation to the effect on his sensibilities of another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded was the effect of a single hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was visited, in troubled nights, with fantastic waking dreams. She loomed at him larger than life; she increased in volume as she drew nearer; she so met his eyes that, his imagination taking, after the first step, all, and more than all, the strides, he already felt her come down on him, already burned, under her reprobation, with the blush of guilt, already consented, by way of penance, to the instant forfeiture of everything. He saw himself, under her direction, recommitted to Woollett as juvenile offenders are committed to reformatories. It wasn’t of course that Woollett was really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance that Sarah’s salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in such moods of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would involve a sharp rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take leave of that actual he might wholly miss his chance. It was represented with supreme vividness by Madame de Vionnet, and that is why, in a word, he waited no longer. He had seen in a flash that he must anticipate Mrs. Pocock. He was accordingly much disappointed on now learning from the portress that the lady of his quest was not in Paris. She had gone for some days to the country. There was nothing in this accident but what was natural; yet it produced for poor Strether a drop of all confidence. It was suddenly as if he should never see her again, and as if moreover he had brought it on himself by not having been quite kind to her.
Suddenly, on that particular day, he felt an overwhelming fear that made everything fall apart. He realized he was afraid of himself—but not because of how another hour with Madame de Vionnet would affect him. What he feared was the impact of just one hour with Sarah Pocock, who haunted him in troubled nights with bizarre waking dreams. She appeared larger than life; as she got closer, she seemed to grow even more imposing. His imagination took over, and after the first step, it ran wild, making him feel her judgment weighing down on him. He was already blushing with guilt under her disapproval and had resigned himself, as a form of penance, to losing everything immediately. He pictured himself, under her influence, sent back to Woollett like juvenile offenders are sent to reform schools. Of course, Woollett wasn’t really a place for discipline, but he knew Sarah’s salon at the hotel would be. In those moments of anxiety, his risk was the possibility of making a concession that would create a huge break from reality; so if he waited too long to leave that reality, he might completely lose his chance. This was vividly represented by Madame de Vionnet, which is why he decided not to wait any longer. He realized he had to anticipate Mrs. Pocock. So he felt a deep sense of disappointment upon learning from the doorman that the woman he was looking for was out of Paris. She had gone to the countryside for a few days. There was nothing unusual about this occurrence, yet it made Strether feel a sudden loss of confidence. It was as if he would never see her again and as if he was to blame for not being completely kind to her.
It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a little in the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really to brighten from the moment the deputation from Woollett alighted on the platform of the station. They had come straight from Havre, having sailed from New York to that port, and having also, thanks to a happy voyage, made land with a promptitude that left Chad Newsome, who had meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had received their telegram, with the announcement of their immediate further advance, just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that nothing had remained for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily picked up Strether, at the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, with easy pleasantry, suggested the attendance of Waymarsh as well—Waymarsh, at the moment his cab rattled up, being engaged, under Strether’s contemplative range, in a grave perambulation of the familiar court. Waymarsh had learned from his companion, who had already had a note, delivered by hand, from Chad, that the Pococks were due, and had ambiguously, though, as always, impressively, glowered at him over the circumstance; carrying himself in a manner in which Strether was now expert enough to recognise his uncertainty, in the premises, as to the best tone. The only tone he aimed at with confidence was a full tone—which was necessarily difficult in the absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks were a quantity as yet unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought them over, so this witness had to that extent exposed himself. He wanted to feel right about it, but could only, at the best, for the time, feel vague. “I shall look to you, you know, immensely,” our friend had said, “to help me with them,” and he had been quite conscious of the effect of the remark, and of others of the same sort, on his comrade’s sombre sensibility. He had insisted on the fact that Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock—one could be certain he would: he would be with her about everything, and she would also be with him, and Miss Barrace’s nose, in short, would find itself out of joint.
It was a benefit that he had allowed his imagination to wander a bit in the darkness, as it made the situation feel much brighter as soon as the group from Woollett arrived at the train station. They had come directly from Havre, having sailed from New York to that port, and with a fortunate journey, they arrived promptly enough that Chad Newsome, who planned to meet them at the dock, ended up being late. He received their message about their immediate travel plans just as he was boarding the train to Havre, so now all he could do was wait for them in Paris. He quickly picked up Strether at the hotel for this purpose, and he casually suggested that Waymarsh join them as well—Waymarsh, at the moment Chad’s cab pulled up, was seriously pacing in the familiar courtyard under Strether’s watchful eye. Waymarsh had learned from his friend, who had already received a note delivered in person from Chad, that the Pococks were on their way, and he had ambiguously yet always with a strong presence, glared at him regarding this situation; he carried himself in a way that Strether was now skilled enough to recognize as uncertainty about the right approach. The only tone he confidently aimed for was an enthusiastic one—which was quite challenging without complete understanding. The Pococks were still an unknown quantity, and since he had pretty much brought them over, Waymarsh had to some extent put himself at risk. He wanted to feel sure about it, but he could only feel vaguely uncertain for now. “I will rely on you a lot,” our friend had said, “to help me with them,” and he was fully aware of how this remark, along with others like it, affected his companion’s serious mood. He insisted that Waymarsh would really like Mrs. Pocock—he was sure of it: he would agree with her on everything, and she would also support him, which meant Miss Barrace’s influence would likely be diminished.
Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in the court for Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself quiet while, caged and leonine, his fellow traveller paced and turned before him. Chad Newsome was doubtless to be struck, when he arrived, with the sharpness of their opposition at this particular hour; he was to remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came with him and with Strether to the street and stood there with a face half-wistful and half-rueful. They talked of him, the two others, as they drove, and Strether put Chad in possession of much of his own strained sense of things. He had already, a few days before, named to him the wire he was convinced their friend had pulled—a confidence that had made on the young man’s part quite hugely for curiosity and diversion. The action of the matter, moreover, Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is, how Chad judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a determinant—an impression just now quickened again; with the whole bearing of such a fact on the youth’s view of his relatives. As it came up between them that they might now take their friend for a feature of the control of these latter now sought to be exerted from Woollett, Strether felt indeed how it would be stamped all over him, half an hour later for Sarah Pocock’s eyes, that he was as much on Chad’s “side” as Waymarsh had probably described him. He was letting himself at present, go; there was no denying it; it might be desperation, it might be confidence; he should offer himself to the arriving travellers bristling with all the lucidity he had cultivated.
Strether had crafted this cheerful atmosphere while they waited in the courthouse for Chad. He had sat there smoking cigarettes to calm himself while his companion paced back and forth like a caged lion. When Chad Newsome arrived, he would likely notice the stark contrast between them at that moment; he would remember how Waymarsh came with him and Strether to the street, standing there with a face that was both wistful and rueful. The two of them talked about him as they drove, and Strether shared much of his own tense perspective with Chad. Just a few days earlier, he had mentioned the influence he believed their friend had exerted—a revelation that had piqued the young man's curiosity and provided some entertainment. Moreover, Strether could see how Chad perceived a network of influence in which Waymarsh had played a pivotal role—this impression was freshly reinforced, affecting how the young man viewed his family. As they realized that they could now consider their friend a part of the control that was being asserted from Woollett, Strether understood how obvious it would be to Sarah Pocock half an hour later that he was as much on Chad’s “side” as Waymarsh had likely painted him. He was currently letting himself go; there was no denying that. It might be desperation or it might be confidence; either way, he would present himself to the arriving travelers brimming with all the clarity he had developed.
He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to Waymarsh; how there was no doubt whatever that his sister would find the latter a kindred spirit, no doubt of the alliance, based on an exchange of views, that the pair would successfully strike up. They would become as thick as thieves—which moreover was but a development of what Strether remembered to have said in one of his first discussions with his mate, struck as he had then already been with the elements of affinity between that personage and Mrs. Newsome herself. “I told him, one day, when he had questioned me on your mother, that she was a person who, when he should know her, would rouse in him, I was sure, a special enthusiasm; and that hangs together with the conviction we now feel—this certitude that Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For it’s your mother’s own boat that she’s pulling.”
He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in court to Waymarsh: there was no doubt that his sister would find the latter a kindred spirit, and there was no doubt about the connection they would form through their shared views. They would become really close—which was actually just a continuation of what Strether remembered discussing with his friend, impressed as he had already been by the similarities between that guy and Mrs. Newsome herself. “I told him one day, when he asked me about your mom, that she was someone who, once he got to know her, would spark in him, I was sure, a strong enthusiasm; and that ties into the belief we have now—that certainty that Mrs. Pocock will bring him aboard. Because it’s your mom’s own boat that she’s steering.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “Mother’s worth fifty of Sally!”
“Ah,” said Chad, “Mom is worth fifty of Sally!”
“A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you’ll be meeting your mother’s representative—just as I shall. I feel like the outgoing ambassador,” said Strether, “doing honour to his appointed successor.” A moment after speaking as he had just done he felt he had inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her son; an impression audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad’s prompt protest. He had recently rather failed of apprehension of the young man’s attitude and temper—remaining principally conscious of how little worry, at the worst, he wasted, and he studied him at this critical hour with renewed interest. Chad had done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight previous—had accepted without another question his plea for delay. He was waiting cheerfully and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a slight increase perhaps of the hardness originally involved in his acquired high polish. He was neither excited nor depressed; was easy and acute and deliberate—unhurried unflurried unworried, only at most a little less amused than usual. Strether felt him more than ever a justification of the extraordinary process of which his own absurd spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled along, knew as he hadn’t even yet known, that nothing else than what Chad had done and had been would have led to his present showing. They had made him, these things, what he was, and the business hadn’t been easy; it had taken time and trouble, it had cost, above all, a price. The result at any rate was now to be offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that was concerned, was glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least make it out or take it in, the result, or would she in the least care for it if she did? He scratched his chin as he asked himself by what name, when challenged—as he was sure he should be—he could call it for her. Oh those were determinations she must herself arrive at; since she wanted so much to see, let her see then and welcome. She had come out in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in Strether’s inner sense that she practically wouldn’t see.
“A thousand; but when you meet her, you'll still be meeting your mother’s representative—just like I will. I feel like the outgoing ambassador,” said Strether, “honoring his appointed successor.” A moment after saying this, he felt he had inadvertently made Mrs. Newsome seem lesser to her son; this impression was clearly echoed in Chad’s immediate protest. He had recently struggled to understand the young man’s attitude and mood—mainly aware of how little stress, at worst, he allowed himself, and he studied him at this crucial moment with fresh interest. Chad had done exactly what he promised him two weeks ago—he had accepted his request for a delay without any further questions. He was waiting cheerfully and graciously, but also in a way that was somewhat inscrutable and perhaps with a slight increase in the hardness that came with his polished demeanor. He was neither excited nor downcast; rather, he was poised, sharp, and methodical—unhurried, unflustered, unbothered, though maybe a little less amused than usual. Strether saw him more than ever as a justification of the extraordinary journey that his own somewhat ridiculous spirit had undergone; he realized as their cab rolled along, more than he had ever known, that nothing other than what Chad had done and had been would have led to this moment. These experiences had shaped him, and it hadn’t been easy; it had required time and effort, and above all, it had come at a cost. The result, at any rate, was now to be presented to Sally, and Strether was glad to be there to witness it. Would she even grasp it or care about it if she did? He scratched his chin as he considered what he could call it for her when challenged—as he was sure he would be. Oh, those were decisions she would have to make herself; since she was so eager to see, let her see and welcome it. She had come out with the pride of her abilities, yet Strether sensed deep down that she probably wouldn’t comprehend.
That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from a word that next dropped from him. “They’re children; they play at life!”—and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It implied that he hadn’t then, for his companion’s sensibility, appeared to give Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend’s presently asking him if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet should become acquainted. Strether was still more sharply struck, hereupon, with Chad’s lucidity. “Why, isn’t that exactly—to get a sight of the company I keep—what she has come out for?”
That Chad shrewdly suspected this was clear from something he said next. “They’re just kids; they’re playing at life!”—and that exclamation was important and comforting. It suggested that he hadn’t seemed to reveal too much about Mrs. Newsome, considering his companion’s sensibility; and it allowed our friend to ask him if he thought Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet should meet. Strether was even more struck by Chad’s clarity at this point. “Well, isn’t that exactly—so she can see the people I hang out with—why she came out here?”
“Yes—I’m afraid it is,” Strether unguardedly replied.
“Yes—I’m afraid it is,” Strether said honestly.
Chad’s quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. “Why do you say you’re afraid?”
Chad's quick reply highlighted his anxiety. "Why do you say you're scared?"
“Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It’s my testimony, I imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock’s curiosity. My letters, as I’ve supposed you to understand from the beginning, have spoken freely. I’ve certainly said my little say about Madame de Vionnet.”
“Well, I feel a sense of responsibility. It’s my story, I think, that sparked Mrs. Pocock’s curiosity. My letters, as I assumed you understood from the start, have been quite open. I’ve definitely shared my thoughts on Madame de Vionnet.”
All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. “Yes, but you’ve only spoken handsomely.”
All of that was perfectly clear to Chad. “Yes, but you’ve only talked impressively.”
“Never more handsomely of any woman. But it’s just that tone—!”
“Never before has any woman looked so good. But it’s just that tone—!”
“That tone,” said Chad, “that has fetched her? I dare say; but I’ve no quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. Don’t you know by this time how she likes you?”
“Is that the tone that got her attention?” Chad said. “I’m not here to argue about it. Neither is Madame de Vionnet. Don’t you realize by now how much she likes you?”
“Oh!”—and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of melancholy. “For all I’ve done for her!”
“Oh!”—and Strether felt a genuine sense of sadness with his groan. “After everything I’ve done for her!”
“Ah you’ve done a great deal.”
“Wow, you’ve achieved a lot.”
Chad’s urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment absolutely impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to a sort of thing, as he synthetically phrased it to himself, with no adequate forecast of which, despite his admonitions, she would certainly arrive. “I’ve done this!”
Chad's sophistication embarrassed him, and he was currently eager to see the expression Sarah Pocock would show for something he, in his own way, described to himself, unsure of what, despite his warnings, she would undoubtedly reveal. “I’ve done this!”
“Well, this is all right. She likes,” Chad comfortably remarked,
“to be liked.”
"Well, this is fine. She enjoys," Chad said casually, "being liked."
It gave his companion a moment’s thought. “And she’s sure Mrs. Pocock will—?”
It made his friend think for a moment. “And she’s sure Mrs. Pocock will—?”
“No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it’s so much, as it were,” Chad laughed, “to the good. However, she doesn’t despair of Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go all lengths.”
“No, I’m saying that for you. She enjoys that you like her; it’s quite a bit, you know,” Chad laughed, “in a good way. However, she isn’t giving up on Sarah either, and is ready, on her part, to go all the way.”
“In the way of appreciation?”
"In the spirit of gratitude?"
“Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability, hospitality and welcome. She’s under arms,” Chad laughed again; “she’s prepared.”
“Yes, and of everything else. In terms of general friendliness, hospitality, and welcome. She’s all set,” Chad laughed again; “she’s ready.”
Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the air: “She’s wonderful.”
Strether absorbed it; then, as if he could hear Miss Barrace's voice echoing in the air: “She's amazing.”
“You don’t begin to know how wonderful!”
“You have no idea how wonderful!”
There was a depth in it, to Strether’s ear, of confirmed luxury—almost a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the effect of the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: there was something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous assurance. It was in fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had before many minutes another consequence. “Well, I shall see her oftener now. I shall see her as much as I like—by your leave; which is what I hitherto haven’t done.”
There was a richness to it, to Strether's ear, of established luxury—almost a sort of unintentional arrogance of ownership; but the impression from this brief view didn't encourage any thoughts at that moment: there was something so definitive in all that elegant and generous confidence. It was really a new awakening; and this awakening had another effect within minutes. “Well, I’ll see her more often now. I’ll see her as much as I want—if you don’t mind; which is something I haven’t done until now.”
“It has been,” said Chad, but without reproach, “only your own fault. I tried to bring you together, and she, my dear fellow—I never saw her more charming to any man. But you’ve got your extraordinary ideas.”
“It has been,” said Chad, but without blame, “only your own fault. I tried to bring you two together, and she, my dear friend—I’ve never seen her more charming to any man. But you’ve got your quirky ideas.”
“Well, I did have,” Strether murmured, while he felt both how they had possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He couldn’t have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all because of Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, but that was still to be proved. What came over him was the sense of having stupidly failed to profit where profit would have been precious. It had been open to him to see so much more of her, and he had but let the good days pass. Fierce in him almost was the resolve to lose no more of them, and he whimsically reflected, while at Chad’s side he drew nearer to his destination, that it was after all Sarah who would have quickened his chance. What her visit of inquisition might achieve in other directions was as yet all obscure—only not obscure that it would do supremely much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to listen to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of remarking to him that they of course both counted on him—he himself and the other earnest person—for cheer and support. It was brave to Strether to hear him talk as if the line of wisdom they had struck out was to make things ravishing to the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet compassed that, compassed the ravishment of the Pococks, Madame de Vionnet would be prodigious. It would be a beautiful plan if it succeeded, and it all came to the question of Sarah’s being really bribeable. The precedent of his own case helped Strether perhaps but little to consider she might prove so; it being distinct that her character would rather make for every possible difference. This idea of his own bribeability set him apart for himself; with the further mark in fact that his case was absolutely proved. He liked always, where Lambert Strether was concerned, to know the worst, and what he now seemed to know was not only that he was bribeable, but that he had been effectually bribed. The only difficulty was that he couldn’t quite have said with what. It was as if he had sold himself, but hadn’t somehow got the cash. That, however, was what, characteristically, would happen to him. It would naturally be his kind of traffic. While he thought of these things he reminded Chad of the truth they mustn’t lose sight of—the truth that, with all deference to her susceptibility to new interests, Sarah would have come out with a high firm definite purpose. “She hasn’t come out, you know, to be bamboozled. We may all be ravishing—nothing perhaps can be more easy for us; but she hasn’t come out to be ravished. She has come out just simply to take you home.”
“Well, I did have,” Strether murmured, feeling both how much they had dominated him and how they had now lost their power. He couldn’t follow the sequence all the way to the end, but it was all because of Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be linked to Mrs. Newsome, but that was still to be figured out. What hit him was the realization that he had foolishly failed to take advantage of an opportunity that would have been valuable. He could have spent so much more time with her, and he had just let the good days slip by. Strongly, he was determined not to waste any more of them, and he whimsically thought, while he was at Chad’s side getting closer to his destination, that it was actually Sarah who would have boosted his chances. What her probing visit might accomplish in other ways was still unclear—only not unclear that it would do a lot to bring two serious people together. He only had to listen to Chad right now to feel it; for Chad was in the process of saying to him that they both counted on him—he himself and the other serious person—for encouragement and support. It was bold of Strether to hear him speak as if the path of wisdom they had chosen would make things appealing for the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet managed that, managed to charm the Pococks, Madame de Vionnet would be amazing. It would be a beautiful plan if it worked, and it all came down to whether Sarah could actually be swayed. The example of his own situation might not help Strether much in thinking she could be; it was clear that her character would probably lead to every possible difference. This idea of his own susceptibility set him apart for himself; with the additional point that his case was completely established. He always liked to know the worst where Lambert Strether was concerned, and what he now seemed to understand was not only that he was susceptible, but that he had been effectively swayed. The only issue was that he couldn’t exactly say what had done it. It felt like he had sold himself, but hadn’t somehow received the payment. That, however, was what, characteristically, would happen to him. It would naturally be his kind of deal. While he thought about these things, he reminded Chad of the truth they mustn't ignore—the truth that, despite her sensitivity to new interests, Sarah had come out with a strong, clear purpose. “She hasn’t come out, you know, to be fooled. We may all be charming—nothing could be easier for us; but she hasn’t come out to be charmed. She has simply come out to take you home.”
“Oh well, with her I’ll go,” said Chad good-humouredly. “I suppose you’ll allow that.” And then as for a minute Strether said nothing: “Or is your idea that when I’ve seen her I shan’t want to go?” As this question, however, again left his friend silent he presently went on: “My own idea at any rate is that they shall have while they’re here the best sort of time.”
“Oh well, I’ll go with her,” Chad said cheerfully. “I guess you’ll be okay with that.” After a moment of silence from Strether, he added, “Or do you think that once I see her, I won’t want to go?” Since this question left his friend quiet again, he continued, “Either way, my plan is that they should have the best time while they’re here.”
It was at this that Strether spoke. “Ah there you are! I think if you really wanted to go—!”
It was at this that Strether spoke. “Oh, there you are! I think if you actually wanted to go—!”
“Well?” said Chad to bring it out.
“Well?” Chad said, trying to get it out.
“Well, you wouldn’t trouble about our good time. You wouldn’t care what sort of a time we have.”
“Well, you wouldn’t worry about our good time. You wouldn’t care what kind of time we have.”
Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any ingenious suggestion. “I see. But can I help it? I’m too decent.”
Chad could always grasp the simplest way to understand any clever idea. “I get it. But what can I do? I’m just too decent.”
“Yes, you’re too decent!” Strether heavily sighed. And he felt for the moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission.
“Yes, you’re way too decent!” Strether sighed heavily. And for a moment, he felt like it was the ridiculous end of his mission.
It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made no rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the station. “Do you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?”
It served for the moment that Chad didn't respond. But he spoke again as they approached the station. “Are you planning to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?”
As to this Strether was ready. “No.”
As to this, Strether was prepared. “No.”
“But haven’t you told me they know about her?”
“But didn't you tell me they know about her?”
“I think I’ve told you your mother knows.”
“I think I’ve mentioned that your mom knows.”
“And won’t she have told Sally?”
“And wouldn't she have told Sally?”
“That’s one of the things I want to see.”
“That’s one of the things I want to check out.”
“And if you find she has—?”
“And if you find she has—?”
“Will I then, you mean, bring them together?”
"Are you saying that I should bring them together?"
“Yes,” said Chad with his pleasant promptness: “to show her there’s nothing in it.”
“Yes,” Chad said cheerfully: “to show her there’s nothing to worry about.”
Strether hesitated. “I don’t know that I care very much what she may think there’s in it.”
Strether paused. “I’m not sure I really care about what she thinks is in it.”
“Not if it represents what Mother thinks?”
“Not if it reflects what Mom thinks?”
“Ah what does your mother think?” There was in this some sound of bewilderment.
“Ah, what does your mom think?” There was a hint of confusion in this.
But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all be quite at hand. “Isn’t that, my dear man, what we’re both just going to make out?”
But they were just driving up, and help, in a way, might actually be right here. “Isn’t that, my dear man, what we’re both about to figure out?”
II
Strether quitted the station half an hour later in different company. Chad had taken charge, for the journey to the hotel, of Sarah, Mamie, the maid and the luggage, all spaciously installed and conveyed; and it was only after the four had rolled away that his companion got into a cab with Jim. A strange new feeling had come over Strether, in consequence of which his spirits had risen; it was as if what had occurred on the alighting of his critics had been something other than his fear, though his fear had yet not been of an instant scene of violence. His impression had been nothing but what was inevitable—he said that to himself; yet relief and reassurance had softly dropped upon him. Nothing could be so odd as to be indebted for these things to the look of faces and the sound of voices that had been with him to satiety, as he might have said, for years; but he now knew, all the same, how uneasy he had felt; that was brought home to him by his present sense of a respite. It had come moreover in the flash of an eye, it had come in the smile with which Sarah, whom, at the window of her compartment, they had effusively greeted from the platform, rustled down to them a moment later, fresh and handsome from her cool June progress through the charming land. It was only a sign, but enough: she was going to be gracious and unallusive, she was going to play the larger game—which was still more apparent, after she had emerged from Chad’s arms, in her direct greeting to the valued friend of her family.
Strether left the station half an hour later in different company. Chad had taken over the responsibility for getting Sarah, Mamie, the maid, and the luggage to the hotel, all comfortably settled and transported; and it was only after the four had driven away that his companion got into a cab with Jim. A strange new feeling washed over Strether, lifting his spirits; it was as if what had happened when his critics arrived was something different from his fear, even though his fear hadn’t been about an immediate scene of violence. His impression had felt completely inevitable—he told himself that—but relief and reassurance had gently settled on him. Nothing seemed stranger than being grateful for these feelings based on familiar faces and voices that had been part of his life for years; yet he now recognized how uneasy he had truly felt; this became clear to him through his current sense of relief. Moreover, it had come in an instant, sparked by the smile of Sarah, whom they had enthusiastically greeted from the platform moments earlier, now looking fresh and beautiful after her cool June journey through the charming countryside. It was just a sign, but it was enough: she was going to be gracious and unobtrusive, she was going to engage in a more significant way—which became even clearer after she stepped out of Chad’s embrace to directly acknowledge the valued friend of her family.
Strether was then as much as ever the valued friend of her family, it was something he could at all events go on with; and the manner of his response to it expressed even for himself how little he had enjoyed the prospect of ceasing to figure in that likeness. He had always seen Sarah gracious—had in fact rarely seen her shy or dry, her marked thin-lipped smile, intense without brightness and as prompt to act as the scrape of a safety-match; the protrusion of her rather remarkably long chin, which in her case represented invitation and urbanity, and not, as in most others, pugnacity and defiance; the penetration of her voice to a distance, the general encouragement and approval of her manner, were all elements with which intercourse had made him familiar, but which he noted today almost as if she had been a new acquaintance. This first glimpse of her had given a brief but vivid accent to her resemblance to her mother; he could have taken her for Mrs. Newsome while she met his eyes as the train rolled into the station. It was an impression that quickly dropped; Mrs. Newsome was much handsomer, and while Sarah inclined to the massive her mother had, at an age, still the girdle of a maid; also the latter’s chin was rather short, than long, and her smile, by good fortune, much more, oh ever so much more, mercifully vague. Strether had seen Mrs. Newsome reserved; he had literally heard her silent, though he had never known her unpleasant. It was the case with Mrs. Pocock that he had known her unpleasant, even though he had never known her not affable. She had forms of affability that were in a high degree assertive; nothing for instance had ever been more striking than that she was affable to Jim.
Strether was still the valued friend of her family, which was something he could continue with; and how he responded showed just how little he wanted to stop being a part of that image. He had always seen Sarah as gracious—rarely shy or aloof—her notable thin-lipped smile was intense without being bright, quick to appear like the strike of a match; the way her notably long chin, in her case, signified invitation and warmth rather than aggression and defiance like in most people; the way her voice carried, the overall encouragement and approval in her manner were elements he was familiar with through their interactions, but today he noticed them almost as if she were a new acquaintance. This first glimpse of her brought a brief but strong reminder of how much she resembled her mother; he could have mistaken her for Mrs. Newsome as she met his gaze while the train pulled into the station. That impression faded quickly; Mrs. Newsome was much more attractive, and while Sarah had a more solid appearance, her mother still had the grace of youth at that age; also, Mrs. Newsome’s chin was shorter rather than longer, and her smile, thankfully, was much more pleasantly vague. Strether had seen Mrs. Newsome as reserved; he had actually experienced her silence, though he had never found her unpleasant. With Mrs. Pocock, he had known her to be unpleasant, even though he had never known her to be unfriendly. She had a type of friendliness that was quite assertive; nothing had been more striking than her being friendly to Jim.
What had told in any case at the window of the train was her high clear forehead, that forehead which her friends, for some reason, always thought of as a “brow”; the long reach of her eyes—it came out at this juncture in such a manner as to remind him, oddly enough, also of that of Waymarsh’s; and the unusual gloss of her dark hair, dressed and hatted, after her mother’s refined example, with such an avoidance of extremes that it was always spoken of at Woollett as “their own.” Though this analogy dropped as soon as she was on the platform it had lasted long enough to make him feel all the advantage, as it were, of his relief. The woman at home, the woman to whom he was attached, was before him just long enough to give him again the measure of the wretchedness, in fact really of the shame, of their having to recognise the formation, between them, of a “split.” He had taken this measure in solitude and meditation: but the catastrophe, as Sarah steamed up, looked for its seconds unprecedentedly dreadful—or proved, more exactly, altogether unthinkable; so that his finding something free and familiar to respond to brought with it an instant renewal of his loyalty. He had suddenly sounded the whole depth, had gasped at what he might have lost.
What he saw from the train window was her clear forehead, which her friends always referred to as a “brow” for some reason; the shape of her eyes reminded him, strangely enough, of Waymarsh’s. Her dark hair was styled and hat-wearing in a way inspired by her mother’s sophisticated example, avoiding extremes so much that it was commonly referred to in Woollett as “their own.” Although this comparison faded as soon as she was on the platform, it lasted long enough for him to feel the relief. The woman at home, the one he was attached to, was right in front of him just long enough to remind him of the wretchedness and, in fact, the shame of having to acknowledge the “split” that had formed between them. He had contemplated this in solitude, but, as Sarah approached, the realization hit him, feeling incredibly dreadful—indeed, it was entirely unthinkable. Yet, finding something familiar and comforting brought an instant renewal of his loyalty. He suddenly realized the full extent of what he might have lost.
Well, he could now, for the quarter of an hour of their detention hover about the travellers as soothingly as if their direct message to him was that he had lost nothing. He wasn’t going to have Sarah write to her mother that night that he was in any way altered or strange. There had been times enough for a month when it had seemed to him that he was strange, that he was altered, in every way; but that was a matter for himself; he knew at least whose business it was not; it was not at all events such a circumstance as Sarah’s own unaided lights would help her to. Even if she had come out to flash those lights more than yet appeared she wouldn’t make much headway against mere pleasantness. He counted on being able to be merely pleasant to the end, and if only from incapacity moreover to formulate anything different. He couldn’t even formulate to himself his being changed and queer; it had taken place, the process, somewhere deep down; Maria Gostrey had caught glimpses of it; but how was he to fish it up, even if he desired, for Mrs. Pocock? This was then the spirit in which he hovered, and with the easier throb in it much indebted furthermore to the impression of high and established adequacy as a pretty girl promptly produced in him by Mamie. He had wondered vaguely—turning over many things in the fidget of his thoughts—if Mamie were as pretty as Woollett published her; as to which issue seeing her now again was to be so swept away by Woollett’s opinion that this consequence really let loose for the imagination an avalanche of others. There were positively five minutes in which the last word seemed of necessity to abide with a Woollett represented by a Mamie. This was the sort of truth the place itself would feel; it would send her forth in confidence; it would point to her with triumph; it would take its stand on her with assurance; it would be conscious of no requirements she didn’t meet, of no question she couldn’t answer.
Well, now he could, during their fifteen minutes of waiting, hover around the travelers as reassuringly as if their message to him was that he hadn’t lost anything. He wasn’t going to let Sarah write to her mother that night that he was in any way different or strange. There had been enough times over the past month when it felt to him like he was strange and changed in every way; but that was something for himself alone to deal with. He knew at least whose business it was not; it certainly wasn’t something Sarah’s own limited understanding could help her with. Even if she had come out to shine her insights more than she had shown, she wouldn’t get far against simple friendliness. He planned to just keep being friendly until the end, if only because he couldn’t think of anything else to do. He couldn’t even put into words what was different or odd about him; it had changed deep within him. Maria Gostrey had seen glimpses of it; but how could he even bring it up, if he wanted to, for Mrs. Pocock? This was the mindset he had, and the lighter feeling came partly from the high and solid confidence that a pretty girl like Mamie inspired in him. He had wondered vaguely—turning over many thoughts in his restless mind—if Mamie was as pretty as Woollett claimed she was; and now seeing her again, he was so swept away by Woollett’s opinion that it opened up a flood of other thoughts. For five whole minutes, it felt like the last word should belong to a Woollett represented by Mamie. This was the kind of truth the place itself would recognize; it would send her out with confidence; it would highlight her with pride; it would stand by her with certainty; it would feel no pressure she didn’t meet, no question she couldn’t answer.
Well, it was right, Strether slipped smoothly enough into the cheerfulness of saying: granted that a community might be best represented by a young lady of twenty-two, Mamie perfectly played the part, played it as if she were used to it, and looked and spoke and dressed the character. He wondered if she mightn’t, in the high light of Paris, a cool full studio-light, becoming yet treacherous, show as too conscious of these matters; but the next moment he felt satisfied that her consciousness was after all empty for its size, rather too simple than too mixed, and that the kind way with her would be not to take many things out of it, but to put as many as possible in. She was robust and conveniently tall; just a trifle too bloodlessly fair perhaps, but with a pleasant public familiar radiance that affirmed her vitality. She might have been “receiving” for Woollett, wherever she found herself, and there was something in her manner, her tone, her motion, her pretty blue eyes, her pretty perfect teeth and her very small, too small, nose, that immediately placed her, to the fancy, between the windows of a hot bright room in which voices were high—up at that end to which people were brought to be “presented.” They were there to congratulate, these images, and Strether’s renewed vision, on this hint, completed the idea. What Mamie was like was the happy bride, the bride after the church and just before going away. She wasn’t the mere maiden, and yet was only as much married as that quantity came to. She was in the brilliant acclaimed festal stage. Well, might it last her long!
Well, it was true, Strether seamlessly slipped into the cheerful thought that, although a community might be best represented by a twenty-two-year-old woman, Mamie was perfectly suited for the role, acting as if she had always done it, and she looked, spoke, and dressed the part. He wondered if she might seem a bit too aware of these things in the bright light of Paris, a cool, full studio light that could be both flattering and deceptive; but in the next moment, he felt reassured that her awareness was ultimately shallow, more straightforward than complex, and that the best approach with her would be to add as much to her perspective as possible rather than take things away. She was strong and conveniently tall; maybe just a little too pale, but with a pleasant, familiar glow that showed her energy. She could have been “receiving” guests for Woollett, wherever she happened to be, and there was something in her demeanor, her tone, her movement, her pretty blue eyes, her perfect teeth, and her very small, perhaps too small, nose that immediately made one envision her between the windows of a bright, warm room where the voices were lively—at that end where people were presented. These images were there to congratulate, and Strether’s renewed perception, on this cue, completed the picture. Mamie resembled a happy bride, the one after the ceremony and just before leaving. She wasn’t just a maiden, yet she was only as married as that circumstance allowed. She was in that bright, celebrated, festive moment. May it last a long time for her!
Strether rejoiced in these things for Chad, who was all genial attention to the needs of his friends, besides having arranged that his servant should reinforce him; the ladies were certainly pleasant to see, and Mamie would be at any time and anywhere pleasant to exhibit. She would look extraordinarily like his young wife—the wife of a honeymoon, should he go about with her; but that was his own affair—or perhaps it was hers; it was at any rate something she couldn’t help. Strether remembered how he had seen him come up with Jeanne de Vionnet in Gloriani’s garden, and the fancy he had had about that—the fancy obscured now, thickly overlaid with others; the recollection was during these minutes his only note of trouble. He had often, in spite of himself, wondered if Chad but too probably were not with Jeanne the object of a still and shaded flame. It was on the cards that the child might be tremulously in love, and this conviction now flickered up not a bit the less for his disliking to think of it, for its being, in a complicated situation, a complication the more, and for something indescribable in Mamie, something at all events straightway lent her by his own mind, something that gave her value, gave her intensity and purpose, as the symbol of an opposition. Little Jeanne wasn’t really at all in question—how could she be?—yet from the moment Miss Pocock had shaken her skirts on the platform, touched up the immense bows of her hat and settled properly over her shoulder the strap of her morocco-and-gilt travelling-satchel, from that moment little Jeanne was opposed.
Strether was pleased with all of this for Chad, who was genuinely attentive to his friends' needs, and he had also arranged for his servant to support him. The ladies were definitely nice to have around, and Mamie was always a delight to show off. She would look strikingly like his young wife—the wife of someone on a honeymoon if he went out with her; but that was his own business—or maybe it was hers; either way, it was something she couldn't change. Strether remembered having seen him come up with Jeanne de Vionnet in Gloriani’s garden, and the thoughts he had about that—thoughts now clouded by many others; the memory was the only source of anxiety he felt in those moments. He had often, despite himself, wondered if Chad was possibly the object of a quiet and hidden love for Jeanne. It was possible that the kid might be nervously in love, and this belief now flickered to life even more because he didn’t want to think about it, since it added another layer to an already complicated situation. There was something indescribable about Mamie, something his mind assigned to her that gave her significance, intensity, and purpose as a symbol of opposition. Little Jeanne wasn’t really a concern at all—how could she be?—yet from the moment Miss Pocock had brushed her skirts on the platform, adjusted the huge bows of her hat, and properly secured the strap of her fancy traveling bag over her shoulder, from that moment little Jeanne was in opposition.
It was in the cab with Jim that impressions really crowded on Strether, giving him the strangest sense of length of absence from people among whom he had lived for years. Having them thus come out to him was as if he had returned to find them: and the droll promptitude of Jim’s mental reaction threw his own initiation far back into the past. Whoever might or mightn’t be suited by what was going on among them, Jim, for one, would certainly be: his instant recognition—frank and whimsical—of what the affair was for him gave Strether a glow of pleasure. “I say, you know, this is about my shape, and if it hadn’t been for you—!” so he broke out as the charming streets met his healthy appetite; and he wound up, after an expressive nudge, with a clap of his companion’s knee and an “Oh you, you—you are doing it!” that was charged with rich meaning. Strether felt in it the intention of homage, but, with a curiosity otherwise occupied, postponed taking it up. What he was asking himself for the time was how Sarah Pocock, in the opportunity already given her, had judged her brother—from whom he himself, as they finally, at the station, separated for their different conveyances, had had a look into which he could read more than one message. However Sarah was judging her brother, Chad’s conclusion about his sister, and about her husband and her husband’s sister, was at the least on the way not to fail of confidence. Strether felt the confidence, and that, as the look between them was an exchange, what he himself gave back was relatively vague. This comparison of notes however could wait; everything struck him as depending on the effect produced by Chad. Neither Sarah nor Mamie had in any way, at the station—where they had had after all ample time—broken out about it; which, to make up for this, was what our friend had expected of Jim as soon as they should find themselves together.
It was in the cab with Jim that thoughts really flooded Strether, giving him an odd feeling of how long he had been away from the people he had lived with for years. Having them come out to him felt like he had returned to find them: and Jim's quick mental response made Strether's own feelings take him back in time. Regardless of who might or might not fit into what was happening among them, Jim, for one, certainly would: his immediate acknowledgment—open and playful—of what the situation meant for him gave Strether a warm feeling. “I mean, this is my style, and if it weren’t for you—!” he exclaimed as the lovely streets fed his healthy appetite; and he concluded, after a meaningful nudge, with a pat on his companion’s knee and an “Oh you, you—you are doing it!” that was full of significance. Strether sensed the tribute in it, but, with his curiosity focused elsewhere, he decided to hold off on exploring it further. What he was thinking about for the moment was how Sarah Pocock, given the chance she already had, had assessed her brother—from whom he himself, as they finally parted at the station for their different rides, had exchanged a look that revealed more than one message. However Sarah was judging her brother, Chad’s view of his sister, along with her husband and her husband’s sister, at least seemed to be building confidence. Strether felt that confidence, and since the look they shared was an exchange, what he gave back was relatively vague. This exchange of thoughts could wait; everything seemed to hinge on the impact Chad had. Neither Sarah nor Mamie had, in any way, at the station—where they had taken ample time—expressed anything about it; which, to compensate for this, was what our friend had expected from Jim as soon as they were together.
It was queer to him that he had that noiseless brush with Chad; an ironic intelligence with this youth on the subject of his relatives, an intelligence carried on under their nose and, as might be said, at their expense—such a matter marked again for him strongly the number of stages he had come; albeit that if the number seemed great the time taken for the final one was but the turn of a hand. He had before this had many moments of wondering if he himself weren’t perhaps changed even as Chad was changed. Only what in Chad was conspicuous improvement—well, he had no name ready for the working, in his own organism, of his own more timid dose. He should have to see first what this action would amount to. And for his occult passage with the young man, after all, the directness of it had no greater oddity than the fact that the young man’s way with the three travellers should have been so happy a manifestation. Strether liked him for it, on the spot, as he hadn’t yet liked him; it affected him while it lasted as he might have been affected by some light pleasant perfect work of art: to that degree that he wondered if they were really worthy of it, took it in and did it justice; to that degree that it would have been scarce a miracle if, there in the luggage-room, while they waited for their things, Sarah had pulled his sleeve and drawn him aside. “You’re right; we haven’t quite known what you mean, Mother and I, but now we see. Chad’s magnificent; what can one want more? If this is the kind of thing—!” On which they might, as it were, have embraced and begun to work together.
It struck him as strange that he had that silent encounter with Chad; a clever understanding with this young man about his relatives, kept under their noses and, one could say, at their expense—this strongly highlighted how far he had come. Even if the distance seemed significant, the time it took for the final stretch was just a moment's turn. He had often wondered if he had changed as much as Chad had. While Chad’s changes were clearly improvements—he didn’t have a name for the timid changes within himself. He needed to see what this action would lead to. As for his secret connection with the young man, its straightforwardness was no stranger than the fact that the young man had such a joyful interaction with the three travelers. Strether liked him for it right away, more than he had before; it impressed him like a beautiful piece of art: it made him question if they truly deserved it, if they appreciated it properly; to the extent that it wouldn’t have been surprising if, while waiting for their luggage, Sarah had tugged at his sleeve and pulled him aside. “You’re right; we didn’t quite understand what you meant, Mother and I, but now we see. Chad’s amazing; what more could we want? If this is what it’s like—!” At which point, they could have embraced and started collaborating.
Ah how much, as it was, for all her bridling brightness—which was merely general and noticed nothing—would they work together? Strether knew he was unreasonable; he set it down to his being nervous: people couldn’t notice everything and speak of everything in a quarter of an hour. Possibly, no doubt, also, he made too much of Chad’s display. Yet, none the less, when, at the end of five minutes, in the cab, Jim Pocock had said nothing either—hadn’t said, that is, what Strether wanted, though he had said much else—it all suddenly bounced back to their being either stupid or wilful. It was more probably on the whole the former; so that that would be the drawback of the bridling brightness. Yes, they would bridle and be bright; they would make the best of what was before them, but their observation would fail; it would be beyond them; they simply wouldn’t understand. Of what use would it be then that they had come?—if they weren’t to be intelligent up to that point: unless indeed he himself were utterly deluded and extravagant? Was he, on this question of Chad’s improvement, fantastic and away from the truth? Did he live in a false world, a world that had grown simply to suit him, and was his present slight irritation—in the face now of Jim’s silence in particular—but the alarm of the vain thing menaced by the touch of the real? Was this contribution of the real possibly the mission of the Pococks?—had they come to make the work of observation, as he had practised observation, crack and crumble, and to reduce Chad to the plain terms in which honest minds could deal with him? Had they come in short to be sane where Strether was destined to feel that he himself had only been silly?
Ah, how much, despite her bright demeanor—which was just superficial and noticed nothing—would they actually work together? Strether knew he was being unreasonable; he attributed it to his nerves: people couldn’t notice everything and talk about it all in just fifteen minutes. Maybe, he thought, he was making too big of a deal out of Chad’s show. Still, when, after five minutes in the cab, Jim Pocock had said nothing at all—he hadn’t said what Strether wanted to hear, although he had said a lot of other things—it all suddenly reflected back to them either being clueless or stubborn. It was probably more the former; so that would be the downside of her bright demeanor. Yes, they would put on a good front and act cheerful; they would try to make the best of things, but their observation skills would miss the mark; they just wouldn’t get it. What good would it be then that they had come?—if they weren’t to be smart up to that point: unless maybe he was completely deluded and unreasonable? Was he, regarding Chad’s improvement, being unrealistic and out of touch? Did he live in a fictional world, one that had adapted just for him, and was his current slight irritation—especially with Jim’s silence—merely the anxiety of something superficial threatened by the real? Was this dose of reality possibly the mission of the Pococks?—had they come to shatter the way of observing that he had practiced, and to reduce Chad to straightforward terms that honest people could handle? Had they come, in short, to be rational where Strether was destined to feel that he had only been foolish?
He glanced at such a contingency, but it failed to hold him long when once he had reflected that he would have been silly, in this case, with Maria Gostrey and little Bilham, with Madame de Vionnet and little Jeanne, with Lambert Strether, in fine, and above all with Chad Newsome himself. Wouldn’t it be found to have made more for reality to be silly with these persons than sane with Sarah and Jim? Jim in fact, he presently made up his mind, was individually out of it; Jim didn’t care; Jim hadn’t come out either for Chad or for him; Jim in short left the moral side to Sally and indeed simply availed himself now, for the sense of recreation, of the fact that he left almost everything to Sally. He was nothing compared to Sally, and not so much by reason of Sally’s temper and will as by that of her more developed type and greater acquaintance with the world. He quite frankly and serenely confessed, as he sat there with Strether, that he felt his type hang far in the rear of his wife’s and still further, if possible, in the rear of his sister’s. Their types, he well knew, were recognised and acclaimed; whereas the most a leading Woollett business-man could hope to achieve socially, and for that matter industrially, was a certain freedom to play into this general glamour.
He considered that possibility for a moment, but it didn't hold his attention for long once he thought about how foolish he would be with Maria Gostrey, little Bilham, Madame de Vionnet, little Jeanne, Lambert Strether, and especially Chad Newsome himself. Wouldn't it be more true to life to be silly with these people than to be sensible with Sarah and Jim? He quickly decided that Jim wasn’t really part of it; Jim didn’t care; Jim hadn't come through for Chad or for him; in short, Jim left the moral decisions to Sally and just enjoyed the fact that he could rely on her for almost everything. He felt insignificant compared to Sally, not just because of her personality and determination but also because of her more refined background and greater worldly experience. He openly admitted, as he sat there with Strether, that he felt his own background lagging far behind that of his wife’s, and even further behind his sister’s. He knew their backgrounds were celebrated and recognized; meanwhile, the most a leading Woollett businessman could hope for socially—and in business, too—was merely a chance to engage with that broader glamour.
The impression he made on our friend was another of the things that marked our friend’s road. It was a strange impression, especially as so soon produced; Strether had received it, he judged, all in the twenty minutes; it struck him at least as but in a minor degree the work of the long Woollett years. Pocock was normally and consentingly though not quite wittingly out of the question. It was despite his being normal; it was despite his being cheerful; it was despite his being a leading Woollett business-man; and the determination of his fate left him thus perfectly usual—as everything else about it was clearly, to his sense, not less so. He seemed to say that there was a whole side of life on which the perfectly usual was for leading Woollett business-men to be out of the question. He made no more of it than that, and Strether, so far as Jim was concerned, desired to make no more. Only Strether’s imagination, as always, worked, and he asked himself if this side of life were not somehow connected, for those who figured on it with the fact of marriage. Would his relation to it, had he married ten years before, have become now the same as Pocock’s? Might it even become the same should he marry in a few months? Should he ever know himself as much out of the question for Mrs. Newsome as Jim knew himself—in a dim way—for Mrs. Jim?
The impression he made on our friend was another thing that shaped our friend's journey. It was a strange impression, especially given how quickly it happened; Strether thought he picked it up in just twenty minutes. He felt it was only a small part of the long years in Woollett. Pocock was usually accepted and agreeable, though not entirely aware of it. It was despite his normalcy; it was despite his cheerfulness; it was despite his status as a leading business person in Woollett; and the direction of his fate left him completely ordinary—just like everything else about it was clearly, to him, not any different. He seemed to suggest that there was a whole aspect of life where being perfectly ordinary was not an option for leading business people from Woollett. He didn't elaborate more than that, and as far as Jim was concerned, Strether didn’t want to either. Yet, Strether’s imagination, as always, was at work, and he wondered if this aspect of life was somehow tied to the concept of marriage. Would his relationship with it, had he married ten years earlier, now look the same as Pocock's? Could it even look the same if he got married in a few months? Would he ever see himself as much of an outlier for Mrs. Newsome as Jim felt himself to be—in a vague way—for Mrs. Jim?
To turn his eyes in that direction was to be personally reassured; he was different from Pocock; he had affirmed himself differently and was held after all in higher esteem. What none the less came home to him, however, at this hour, was that the society over there, that of which Sarah and Mamie—and, in a more eminent way, Mrs. Newsome herself—were specimens, was essentially a society of women, and that poor Jim wasn’t in it. He himself Lambert Strether, was as yet in some degree—which was an odd situation for a man; but it kept coming back to him in a whimsical way that he should perhaps find his marriage had cost him his place. This occasion indeed, whatever that fancy represented, was not a time of sensible exclusion for Jim, who was in a state of manifest response to the charm of his adventure. Small and fat and constantly facetious, straw-coloured and destitute of marks, he would have been practically indistinguishable hadn’t his constant preference for light-grey clothes, for white hats, for very big cigars and very little stories, done what it could for his identity. There were signs in him, though none of them plaintive, of always paying for others; and the principal one perhaps was just this failure of type. It was with this that he paid, rather than with fatigue or waste; and also doubtless a little with the effort of humour—never irrelevant to the conditions, to the relations, with which he was acquainted.
Turning his gaze that way was a personal reassurance; he was different from Pocock; he had established himself in a different manner and was, after all, held in higher regard. What struck him, however, at that moment, was that the society over there, of which Sarah and Mamie—and in a more prominent way, Mrs. Newsome herself—were examples, was fundamentally a women’s society, and poor Jim didn’t belong. Lambert Strether himself was still somewhat part of it—which was an unusual situation for a man; yet it kept coming back to him in a quirky way that perhaps his marriage had cost him his position. This occasion, whatever that notion symbolized, was definitely not a time of sensible exclusion for Jim, who was clearly responding to the thrill of his adventure. Small, overweight, and always joking, with straw-colored hair and no distinctive features, he would have been almost unrecognizable if not for his constant choice of light-grey clothing, white hats, very large cigars, and very short stories, which helped define his identity. There were signs in him, albeit none of them mournful, of always paying for others; and perhaps the main indication was this failure to fit a type. It was this that he paid with, rather than with fatigue or excess; and also, doubtless, a bit with the effort of humor—never irrelevant to the circumstances and relationships he was familiar with.
He gurgled his joy as they rolled through the happy streets; he declared that his trip was a regular windfall, and that he wasn’t there, he was eager to remark, to hang back from anything: he didn’t know quite what Sally had come for, but he had come for a good time. Strether indulged him even while wondering if what Sally wanted her brother to go back for was to become like her husband. He trusted that a good time was to be, out and out, the programme for all of them; and he assented liberally to Jim’s proposal that, disencumbered and irresponsible—his things were in the omnibus with those of the others—they should take a further turn round before going to the hotel. It wasn’t for him to tackle Chad—it was Sally’s job; and as it would be like her, he felt, to open fire on the spot, it wouldn’t be amiss of them to hold off and give her time. Strether, on his side, only asked to give her time; so he jogged with his companion along boulevards and avenues, trying to extract from meagre material some forecast of his catastrophe. He was quick enough to see that Jim Pocock declined judgement, had hovered quite round the outer edge of discussion and anxiety, leaving all analysis of their question to the ladies alone and now only feeling his way toward some small droll cynicism. It broke out afresh, the cynicism—it had already shown a flicker—in a but slightly deferred: “Well, hanged if I would if I were he!”
He gurgled with joy as they rolled through the lively streets; he declared that his trip was a real jackpot, and that he wasn’t there, he was eager to point out, to hold back from anything: he didn’t quite know what Sally had come for, but he had come for a good time. Strether entertained him while wondering if what Sally wanted her brother to return for was to become like her husband. He hoped that a good time would be the clear plan for all of them; and he agreed wholeheartedly to Jim’s suggestion that, having lightened their load and feeling carefree—his things were in the bus with the others—they should take another spin before heading to the hotel. It wasn’t for him to confront Chad—it was Sally’s role; and since it seemed like her style to start right away, it wouldn’t be unreasonable for them to wait and give her time. Strether, on his part, just wanted to give her time; so he strolled with his companion along boulevards and avenues, trying to gauge from sparse details some hint of his impending disaster. He was quick to notice that Jim Pocock avoided making judgements, had lingered just at the edge of their discussion and concerns, leaving all analysis of their situation to the women, and was now just tentatively feeling his way toward some light-hearted cynicism. It broke out again, the cynicism—it had already shown a hint—when he slightly delayed: “Well, I wouldn’t either if I were him!”
“You mean you wouldn’t in Chad’s place—?”
“You mean you wouldn’t do it if you were in Chad’s position—?”
“Give up this to go back and boss the advertising!” Poor Jim, with his arms folded and his little legs out in the open fiacre, drank in the sparkling Paris noon and carried his eyes from one side of their vista to the other. “Why I want to come right out and live here myself. And I want to live while I am here too. I feel with you—oh you’ve been grand, old man, and I’ve twigged—that it ain’t right to worry Chad. I don’t mean to persecute him; I couldn’t in conscience. It’s thanks to you at any rate that I’m here, and I’m sure I’m much obliged. You’re a lovely pair.”
“Forget about going back to manage the advertising!” Poor Jim, with his arms crossed and his legs dangling out of the open carriage, soaked in the bright Paris midday and scanned the view from one side to the other. “I really want to just come out and live here myself. And I want to enjoy my time while I am here too. I feel the same as you—oh you’ve been amazing, old man, and I’ve realized—that it’s not right to stress Chad. I don’t intend to bother him; I couldn’t do that in good conscience. It’s thanks to you anyway that I’m here, and I’m really grateful. You’re a wonderful pair.”
There were things in this speech that Strether let pass for the time. “Don’t you then think it important the advertising should be thoroughly taken in hand? Chad will be, so far as capacity is concerned,” he went on, “the man to do it.”
There were aspects of this speech that Strether chose to overlook for now. “Don’t you think it’s important for the advertising to be managed properly? Chad will be the one to handle it, in terms of ability,” he continued.
“Where did he get his capacity,” Jim asked, “over here?”
“Where did he get his ability,” Jim asked, “over here?”
“He didn’t get it over here, and the wonderful thing is that over here he hasn’t inevitably lost it. He has a natural turn for business, an extraordinary head. He comes by that,” Strether explained, “honestly enough. He’s in that respect his father’s son, and also—for she’s wonderful in her way too—his mother’s. He has other tastes and other tendencies; but Mrs. Newsome and your wife are quite right about his having that. He’s very remarkable.”
“He didn’t bring it with him, and the great thing is that he hasn’t necessarily lost it here. He has a natural talent for business, an amazing mind. He gets that,” Strether explained, “from both his parents honestly. In that way, he’s definitely his father’s son, and also—since she’s amazing in her own right—his mother’s. He has other interests and different tendencies, but Mrs. Newsome and your wife are completely right about that. He’s truly exceptional.”
“Well, I guess he is!” Jim Pocock comfortably sighed. “But if you’ve believed so in his making us hum, why have you so prolonged the discussion? Don’t you know we’ve been quite anxious about you?”
“Well, I guess he is!” Jim Pocock sighed comfortably. “But if you think he’s making us hum, why have you dragged out the conversation? Don’t you realize we’ve been really worried about you?”
These questions were not informed with earnestness, but Strether saw he must none the less make a choice and take a line. “Because, you see, I’ve greatly liked it. I’ve liked my Paris, I dare say I’ve liked it too much.”
These questions weren’t asked with any seriousness, but Strether realized he still had to make a decision and pick a direction. “Because, you see, I’ve really liked it. I’ve liked my Paris; I’d say I’ve liked it too much.”
“Oh you old wretch!” Jim gaily exclaimed.
“Oh, you old crank!” Jim cheerfully exclaimed.
“But nothing’s concluded,” Strether went on. “The case is more complex than it looks from Woollett.”
“But nothing’s concluded,” Strether continued. “The situation is more complicated than it appears from Woollett.”
“Oh well, it looks bad enough from Woollett!” Jim declared.
“Oh well, it looks pretty bad from Woollett!” Jim declared.
“Even after all I’ve written?”
"Even after everything I’ve written?"
Jim bethought himself. “Isn’t it what you’ve written that has made Mrs. Newsome pack us off? That at least and Chad’s not turning up?”
Jim thought to himself. “Isn’t it what you wrote that made Mrs. Newsome send us away? That and Chad not showing up?”
Strether made a reflexion of his own. “I see. That she should do something was, no doubt, inevitable, and your wife has therefore of course come out to act.”
Strether reflected to himself, "I get it. It was only natural that she would do something, and your wife has naturally come out to take action."
“Oh yes,” Jim concurred—“to act. But Sally comes out to act, you know,” he lucidly added, “every time she leaves the house. She never comes out but she does act. She’s acting moreover now for her mother, and that fixes the scale.” Then he wound up, opening all his senses to it, with a renewed embrace of pleasant Paris. “We haven’t all the same at Woollett got anything like this.”
“Oh yes,” Jim agreed—“to act. But Sally steps out to perform, you know,” he clearly added, “every time she leaves the house. She never goes out without actually acting. She’s acting right now for her mother, and that sets the level.” Then he wrapped up, opening all his senses to it, with a refreshed appreciation of lovely Paris. “We certainly don’t have anything like this back in Woollett.”
Strether continued to consider. “I’m bound to say for you all that you strike me as having arrived in a very mild and reasonable frame of mind. You don’t show your claws. I felt just now in Mrs. Pocock no symptom of that. She isn’t fierce,” he went on. “I’m such a nervous idiot that I thought she might be.”
Strether kept thinking. “I have to say to all of you that you seem to be in a pretty calm and reasonable mindset. You’re not being defensive. I didn’t sense anything like that from Mrs. Pocock just now. She isn’t aggressive,” he continued. “I’m such a nervous wreck that I thought she might be.”
“Oh don’t you know her well enough,” Pocock asked, “to have noticed that she never gives herself away, any more than her mother ever does? They ain’t fierce, either of ‘em; they let you come quite close. They wear their fur the smooth side out—the warm side in. Do you know what they are?” Jim pursued as he looked about him, giving the question, as Strether felt, but half his care—“do you know what they are? They’re about as intense as they can live.”
“Oh, don’t you know her well enough,” Pocock asked, “to have noticed that she never reveals too much, just like her mother? They’re not intimidating, either of them; they let you get pretty close. They show their best side on the outside—the soft side on the inside. Do you know what they are?” Jim continued as he looked around, putting only half his focus on the question, as Strether felt—“do you know what they are? They’re as intense as they can be.”
“Yes”—and Strether’s concurrence had a positive precipitation; “they’re about as intense as they can live.”
"Yes"—and Strether's agreement had a definite impact; "they're living at the highest intensity they can manage."
“They don’t lash about and shake the cage,” said Jim, who seemed pleased with his analogy; “and it’s at feeding-time that they’re quietest. But they always get there.”
“They don’t thrash around and rattle the cage,” Jim said, looking pleased with his comparison; “and it’s during feeding time that they’re the quietest. But they always make it there.”
“They do indeed—they always get there!” Strether replied with a laugh that justified his confession of nervousness. He disliked to be talking sincerely of Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have talked insincerely. But there was something he wanted to know, a need created in him by her recent intermission, by his having given from the first so much, as now more than ever appeared to him, and got so little. It was as if a queer truth in his companion’s metaphor had rolled over him with a rush. She had been quiet at feeding-time; she had fed, and Sarah had fed with her, out of the big bowl of all his recent free communication, his vividness and pleasantness, his ingenuity and even his eloquence, while the current of her response had steadily run thin. Jim meanwhile however, it was true, slipped characteristically into shallowness from the moment he ceased to speak out of the experience of a husband.
“They really do—they always make it!” Strether said with a laugh that revealed his nervousness. He didn't like talking honestly about Mrs. Newsome with Pocock; he could have easily talked untruthfully. But there was something he needed to know, a need brought on by her recent absence, by the fact that he had invested so much from the start, something that now more than ever felt clear to him, and received so little in return. It felt like an odd truth in his companion’s metaphor had hit him all at once. She had been quiet during feeding time; she had eaten, and Sarah had eaten with her, out of the big bowl of all his recent open communication—his energy and charm, his creativity, and even his eloquence—while her responses had gradually become less substantial. Meanwhile, it was true that Jim typically sank into shallowness as soon as he stopped speaking from the perspective of a husband.
“But of course Chad has now the advantage of being there before her. If he doesn’t work that for all it’s worth—!” He sighed with contingent pity at his brother-in-law’s possible want of resource. “He has worked it on you, pretty well, eh?” and he asked the next moment if there were anything new at the Varieties, which he pronounced in the American manner. They talked about the Varieties—Strether confessing to a knowledge which produced again on Pocock’s part a play of innuendo as vague as a nursery-rhyme, yet as aggressive as an elbow in his side; and they finished their drive under the protection of easy themes. Strether waited to the end, but still in vain, for any show that Jim had seen Chad as different; and he could scarce have explained the discouragement he drew from the absence of this testimony. It was what he had taken his own stand on, so far as he had taken a stand; and if they were all only going to see nothing he had only wasted his time. He gave his friend till the very last moment, till they had come into sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock only continued cheerful and envious and funny he fairly grew to dislike him, to feel him extravagantly common. If they were all going to see nothing!—Strether knew, as this came back to him, that he was also letting Pocock represent for him what Mrs. Newsome wouldn’t see. He went on disliking, in the light of Jim’s commonness, to talk to him about that lady; yet just before the cab pulled up he knew the extent of his desire for the real word from Woollett.
“But of course Chad has the upper hand because he’s already there. If he doesn’t make the most of that—!” He sighed with half-hearted pity for his brother-in-law’s potential lack of initiative. “He’s certainly worked the charm on you, right?” and a moment later he asked if there was anything new at the Varieties, which he pronounced in the American way. They chatted about the Varieties—Strether admitting to knowing enough that just provoked more vague innuendo from Pocock, as innocent as a nursery rhyme but aggressive like an elbow in his side; and they wrapped up their drive discussing light topics. Strether waited until the end, but still in vain, for any sign that Jim viewed Chad differently; and he could hardly explain the discouragement he felt from this lack of evidence. It was the stance he had taken for himself, as far as he had taken one; and if they were all just going to overlook everything, he’d only wasted his time. He gave his friend until the very last moment, until they caught sight of the hotel; and when poor Pocock remained cheerful, envious, and amusing, he found himself growing to genuinely dislike him, feeling he was outrageously ordinary. If they were all going to ignore it!—Strether realized that he was letting Pocock symbolize what Mrs. Newsome wouldn’t acknowledge. He continued to dislike, in light of Jim’s ordinariness, discussing that woman with him; yet just before the cab arrived, he fully recognized his longing for honest answers from Woollett.
“Has Mrs. Newsome at all given way—?”
“Has Mrs. Newsome given in at all—?”
“‘Given way’?”—Jim echoed it with the practical derision of his sense of a long past.
“‘Given way’?”—Jim repeated it with a practical disbelief derived from his sense of a long-forgotten past.
“Under the strain, I mean, of hope deferred, of disappointment repeated and thereby intensified.”
“Under the pressure of delayed hopes, of repeated disappointments that only get stronger.”
“Oh is she prostrate, you mean?”—he had his categories in hand. “Why yes, she’s prostrate—just as Sally is. But they’re never so lively, you know, as when they’re prostrate.”
“Oh, you mean she’s lying down?”—he had his categories sorted out. “Yeah, she’s lying down—just like Sally. But they’re never as lively, you know, as when they’re lying down.”
“Ah Sarah’s prostrate?” Strether vaguely murmured.
“Is Sarah down?” Strether mumbled vaguely.
“It’s when they’re prostrate that they most sit up.”
“It’s when they’re flat on the ground that they really start to pay attention.”
“And Mrs. Newsome’s sitting up?”
"And is Mrs. Newsome awake?"
“All night, my boy—for you!” And Jim fetched him, with a vulgar little guffaw, a thrust that gave relief to the picture. But he had got what he wanted. He felt on the spot that this was the real word from Woollett. “So don’t you go home!” Jim added while he alighted and while his friend, letting him profusely pay the cabman, sat on in a momentary muse. Strether wondered if that were the real word too.
“All night, my boy—for you!” And Jim gave him a crude little laugh, a jab that lightened the mood. But he had gotten what he wanted. He felt right then that this was the real message from Woollett. “So don’t you go home!” Jim added as he got out, while his friend, letting him generously pay the cab driver, sat for a moment lost in thought. Strether wondered if that was the real message too.
III
As the door of Mrs. Pocock’s salon was pushed open for him, the next day, well before noon, he was reached by a voice with a charming sound that made him just falter before crossing the threshold. Madame de Vionnet was already on the field, and this gave the drama a quicker pace than he felt it as yet—though his suspense had increased—in the power of any act of his own to do. He had spent the previous evening with all his old friends together yet he would still have described himself as quite in the dark in respect to a forecast of their influence on his situation. It was strange now, none the less, that in the light of this unexpected note of her presence he felt Madame de Vionnet a part of that situation as she hadn’t even yet been. She was alone, he found himself assuming, with Sarah, and there was a bearing in that—somehow beyond his control—on his personal fate. Yet she was only saying something quite easy and independent—the thing she had come, as a good friend of Chad’s, on purpose to say. “There isn’t anything at all—? I should be so delighted.”
As Mrs. Pocock’s salon door swung open for him the next day, well before noon, a voice with a charming tone reached him, making him hesitate for a moment before stepping inside. Madame de Vionnet was already there, which quickened the pace of the situation more than he had yet sensed—though his tension had grown—regarding any action he could take. He had spent the night before with all his old friends, but he still felt uncertain about how they would influence his circumstances. Oddly enough, with her unexpected presence, he felt that Madame de Vionnet was already part of the situation in a way she hadn’t been yet. He assumed she was alone with Sarah, and there was something about that—which felt out of his control—that had implications for him personally. Still, she was just saying something casual and straightforward—the very thing she had come, as a good friend of Chad’s, specifically to deliver. “Is there anything at all—? I would be so delighted.”
It was clear enough, when they were there before him, how she had been received. He saw this, as Sarah got up to greet him, from something fairly hectic in Sarah’s face. He saw furthermore that they weren’t, as had first come to him, alone together; he was at no loss as to the identity of the broad high back presented to him in the embrasure of the window furthest from the door. Waymarsh, whom he had to-day not yet seen, whom he only knew to have left the hotel before him, and who had taken part, the night previous, on Mrs. Pocock’s kind invitation, conveyed by Chad, in the entertainment, informal but cordial, promptly offered by that lady—Waymarsh had anticipated him even as Madame de Vionnet had done, and, with his hands in his pockets and his attitude unaffected by Strether’s entrance, was looking out, in marked detachment, at the Rue de Rivoli. The latter felt it in the air—it was immense how Waymarsh could mark things—-that he had remained deeply dissociated from the overture to their hostess that we have recorded on Madame de Vionnet’s side. He had, conspicuously, tact, besides a stiff general view; and this was why he had left Mrs. Pocock to struggle alone. He would outstay the visitor; he would unmistakeably wait; to what had he been doomed for months past but waiting? Therefore she was to feel that she had him in reserve. What support she drew from this was still to be seen, for, although Sarah was vividly bright, she had given herself up for the moment to an ambiguous flushed formalism. She had had to reckon more quickly than she expected; but it concerned her first of all to signify that she was not to be taken unawares. Strether arrived precisely in time for her showing it. “Oh you’re too good; but I don’t think I feel quite helpless. I have my brother—and these American friends. And then you know I’ve been to Paris. I know Paris,” said Sally Pocock in a tone that breathed a certain chill on Strether’s heart.
It was pretty clear, when they were there in front of him, how she had been received. He noticed this as Sarah got up to greet him, from the somewhat frantic look on her face. He also saw that they weren't alone together, as he had initially thought; he recognized the broad, high back presented to him in the window furthest from the door. Waymarsh, whom he hadn’t seen yet today, who he only knew had left the hotel before him, and who had participated the night before in the informal but warm gathering that Mrs. Pocock had kindly hosted, conveyed through Chad—Waymarsh had anticipated him just like Madame de Vionnet had, and with his hands in his pockets and a casual stance unaffected by Strether’s entrance, he was looking out, noticeably detached, at the Rue de Rivoli. Strether sensed it in the atmosphere—it was impressive how Waymarsh could note things—that he had remained quite removed from their hostess’s welcoming gesture that we mentioned regarding Madame de Vionnet. He had, clearly, a sense of tact, along with a stiff overall demeanor; this was why he had left Mrs. Pocock to handle things on her own. He would linger longer than the visitor; he would definitely wait; what had he been stuck doing for months but waiting? Thus, she was meant to feel that she could count on him later. How much support she drew from this remained to be seen, for although Sarah appeared quite lively, she had momentarily surrendered to a somewhat ambiguous, flushed formality. She had to adjust more quickly than she anticipated; but it was essential for her to show that she wouldn’t be caught off guard. Strether arrived just in time for her to demonstrate it. “Oh, you’re too generous; but I don’t think I feel completely helpless. I have my brother—and these American friends. And then you know I’ve been to Paris. I know Paris,” said Sally Pocock in a tone that sent a chill through Strether’s heart.
“Ah but a woman, in this tiresome place where everything’s always changing, a woman of good will,” Madame de Vionnet threw off, “can always help a woman. I’m sure you ‘know’—but we know perhaps different things.” She too, visibly, wished to make no mistake; but it was a fear of a different order and more kept out of sight. She smiled in welcome at Strether; she greeted him more familiarly than Mrs. Pocock; she put out her hand to him without moving from her place; and it came to him in the course of a minute and in the oddest way that—yes, positively—she was giving him over to ruin. She was all kindness and ease, but she couldn’t help so giving him; she was exquisite, and her being just as she was poured for Sarah a sudden rush of meaning into his own equivocations. How could she know how she was hurting him? She wanted to show as simple and humble—in the degree compatible with operative charm; but it was just this that seemed to put him on her side. She struck him as dressed, as arranged, as prepared infinitely to conciliate—with the very poetry of good taste in her view of the conditions of her early call. She was ready to advise about dressmakers and shops; she held herself wholly at the disposition of Chad’s family. Strether noticed her card on the table—her coronet and her “Comtesse”—and the imagination was sharp in him of certain private adjustments in Sarah’s mind. She had never, he was sure, sat with a “Comtesse” before, and such was the specimen of that class he had been keeping to play on her. She had crossed the sea very particularly for a look at her; but he read in Madame de Vionnet’s own eyes that this curiosity hadn’t been so successfully met as that she herself wouldn’t now have more than ever need of him. She looked much as she had looked to him that morning at Notre Dame; he noted in fact the suggestive sameness of her discreet and delicate dress. It seemed to speak—perhaps a little prematurely or too finely—of the sense in which she would help Mrs. Pocock with the shops. The way that lady took her in, moreover, added depth to his impression of what Miss Gostrey, by their common wisdom, had escaped. He winced as he saw himself but for that timely prudence ushering in Maria as a guide and an example. There was however a touch of relief for him in his glimpse, so far as he had got it, of Sarah’s line. She “knew Paris.” Madame de Vionnet had, for that matter, lightly taken this up. “Ah then you’ve a turn for that, an affinity that belongs to your family. Your brother, though his long experience makes a difference, I admit, has become one of us in a marvellous way.” And she appealed to Strether in the manner of a woman who could always glide off with smoothness into another subject. Wasn’t he struck with the way Mr. Newsome had made the place his own, and hadn’t he been in a position to profit by his friend’s wondrous expertness?
“Ah, but a woman, in this exhausting place where everything’s always changing, a woman of good will,” Madame de Vionnet said casually, “can always help another woman. I’m sure you ‘know’ — but we probably know different things.” She also, clearly, wanted to avoid any mistakes; but her fear was different and more hidden. She smiled at Strether in welcome, greeted him more warmly than Mrs. Pocock, and reached out her hand to him without getting up from her seat; and within a minute, in the oddest way, it hit him that—yes, definitely—she was leading him to ruin. She was all kindness and ease, but she couldn’t help but do that; she was exquisite, and just being who she was suddenly filled Sarah with meaning regarding his own hesitations. How could she know how much she was hurting him? She aimed to appear simple and humble—within the limits of her charm; but it was exactly this that seemed to put him on her side. She gave the impression of being dressed, arranged, and infinitely prepared to be conciliatory—with the very elegance of good taste in the way she approached the conditions of her early visit. She was ready to give advice about dressmakers and shops; she was completely at the service of Chad’s family. Strether noticed her card on the table—her coronet and her “Comtesse”—and it sparked sharp imaginings in him about certain private thoughts in Sarah’s mind. He was sure she had never sat with a “Comtesse” before, and that was the type he had been keeping just for her. She had crossed the ocean specifically for a glimpse of her; but he saw in Madame de Vionnet’s own eyes that this curiosity hadn’t been satisfied to the point that she wouldn’t now need him more than ever. She looked much like she had that morning at Notre Dame; in fact, he noted the suggestive similarity of her discreet and delicate dress. It seemed to convey—perhaps a little too soon or too finely—the way she would assist Mrs. Pocock with the shops. How the lady took her in also deepened his impression of what Miss Gostrey, due to their shared wisdom, had avoided. He winced at the thought that without that timely caution, he might have introduced Maria as a guide and an example. However, he felt a sense of relief in his glimpse, as far as he had gotten, of Sarah’s stance. She “knew Paris.” Madame de Vionnet had, for that matter, seamlessly picked up on this. “Ah, so you have a knack for that, an affinity that runs in your family. Your brother, though his long experience makes a difference, I admit, has become one of us in a marvelous way.” And she turned to Strether like a woman who could effortlessly slide into another topic. Wasn’t he impressed with how Mr. Newsome had made the place his own, and hadn’t he been in a position to benefit from his friend’s amazing expertise?
Strether felt the bravery, at the least, of her presenting herself so promptly to sound that note, and yet asked himself what other note, after all, she could strike from the moment she presented herself at all. She could meet Mrs. Pocock only on the ground of the obvious, and what feature of Chad’s situation was more eminent than the fact that he had created for himself a new set of circumstances? Unless she hid herself altogether she could show but as one of these, an illustration of his domiciled and indeed of his confirmed condition. And the consciousness of all this in her charming eyes was so clear and fine that as she thus publicly drew him into her boat she produced in him such a silent agitation as he was not to fail afterwards to denounce as pusillanimous. “Ah don’t be so charming to me!—for it makes us intimate, and after all what is between us when I’ve been so tremendously on my guard and have seen you but half a dozen times?” He recognised once more the perverse law that so inveterately governed his poor personal aspects: it would be exactly like the way things always turned out for him that he should affect Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as launched in a relation in which he had really never been launched at all. They were at this very moment—they could only be—attributing to him the full licence of it, and all by the operation of her own tone with him; whereas his sole licence had been to cling with intensity to the brink, not to dip so much as a toe into the flood. But the flicker of his fear on this occasion was not, as may be added, to repeat itself; it sprang up, for its moment, only to die down and then go out for ever. To meet his fellow visitor’s invocation and, with Sarah’s brilliant eyes on him, answer, was quite sufficiently to step into her boat. During the rest of the time her visit lasted he felt himself proceed to each of the proper offices, successively, for helping to keep the adventurous skiff afloat. It rocked beneath him, but he settled himself in his place. He took up an oar and, since he was to have the credit of pulling, pulled.
Strether appreciated her courage in coming forward so quickly to express that sentiment, but he wondered what other sentiment she could possibly convey once she chose to show up. She could only engage with Mrs. Pocock based on what was obvious, and what was more prominent in Chad’s situation than the fact that he had created a whole new set of circumstances for himself? Unless she completely withdrew, she could only be seen as a reflection of his settled and now established situation. The awareness of this in her lovely eyes was so clear and refined that as she publicly welcomed him into her world, it stirred in him a silent unease that he would later criticize as cowardly. “Oh, don’t be so charming to me!—it brings us closer, and really, what is between us after I’ve been so on guard and have only seen you a handful of times?” He recognized once again the frustrating pattern that always seemed to govern his personal experiences: it would be just like how things always worked out for him to create an impression on Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh as if he were genuinely involved in a relationship he had never truly been part of. At that very moment—they could only be—seeing him as fully engaged, all because of the way she spoke to him; while his true state had been one of desperately holding on to the edge, never daring to dip a toe into the depths. However, the flicker of fear he felt this time was not, it should be noted, something that would return; it emerged for a moment only to fade away completely. To respond to his fellow visitor’s invitation, with Sarah’s bright eyes on him, was enough to step into her world. Throughout the rest of her visit, he found himself fulfilling each necessary role to help keep this adventurous little boat afloat. It swayed beneath him, but he secured himself in his seat. He picked up an oar and, since it was expected of him, he pulled.
“That will make it all the pleasanter if it so happens that we do meet,” Madame de Vionnet had further observed in reference to Mrs. Pocock’s mention of her initiated state; and she had immediately added that, after all, her hostess couldn’t be in need with the good offices of Mr. Strether so close at hand. “It’s he, I gather, who has learnt to know his Paris, and to love it, better than any one ever before in so short a time; so that between him and your brother, when it comes to the point, how can you possibly want for good guidance? The great thing, Mr. Strether will show you,” she smiled, “is just to let one’s self go.”
“That’ll make it even nicer if we actually meet,” Madame de Vionnet said about Mrs. Pocock’s comment on her initiated state; she quickly added that, after all, her hostess couldn’t be in need with Mr. Strether so close by. “I hear he’s the one who has gotten to know and love Paris better than anyone else has in such a short time; so between him and your brother, when it comes down to it, how could you possibly lack good guidance? The key thing, as Mr. Strether will show you,” she smiled, “is to just let yourself go.”
“Oh I’ve not let myself go very far,” Strether answered, feeling quite as if he had been called upon to hint to Mrs. Pocock how Parisians could talk. “I’m only afraid of showing I haven’t let myself go far enough. I’ve taken a good deal of time, but I must quite have had the air of not budging from one spot.” He looked at Sarah in a manner that he thought she might take as engaging, and he made, under Madame de Vionnet’s protection, as it were, his first personal point. “What has really happened has been that, all the while, I’ve done what I came out for.”
“Oh, I haven’t let myself go too far,” Strether answered, feeling like he had been asked to explain to Mrs. Pocock how people in Paris could chat. “I’m just worried about showing that I haven’t let myself go far enough. I’ve spent a lot of time here, but I must have seemed like I haven’t moved from one spot.” He looked at Sarah in a way he thought she might find charming, and under Madame de Vionnet’s influence, he made his first personal connection. “What’s really happened is that, all along, I’ve done what I came here for.”
Yet it only at first gave Madame de Vionnet a chance immediately to take him up. “You’ve renewed acquaintance with your friend—you’ve learnt to know him again.” She spoke with such cheerful helpfulness that they might, in a common cause, have been calling together and pledged to mutual aid.
Yet it only initially gave Madame de Vionnet the opportunity to engage him right away. “You’ve reconnected with your friend—you've gotten to know him again.” She spoke with such cheerful support that it felt like they were rallying together for a shared cause, committed to helping each other.
Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been in question, straightway turned from the window. “Oh yes, Countess—he has renewed acquaintance with me, and he has, I guess, learnt something about me, though I don’t know how much he has liked it. It’s for Strether himself to say whether he has felt it justifies his course.”
Waymarsh, at this, as if he had been questioned, immediately turned from the window. “Oh yes, Countess—he has reconnected with me, and he has, I assume, learned something about me, though I don’t know how much he liked it. It’s up to Strether to say whether he feels it justifies his actions.”
“Oh but you,” said the Countess gaily, “are not in the least what he came out for—is he really, Strether? and I hadn’t you at all in my mind. I was thinking of Mr. Newsome, of whom we think so much and with whom, precisely, Mrs. Pocock has given herself the opportunity to take up threads. What a pleasure for you both!” Madame de Vionnet, with her eyes on Sarah, bravely continued.
“Oh, but you,” the Countess said cheerfully, “are not at all what he came out for—right, Strether? You weren’t even on my mind. I was thinking about Mr. Newsome, whom we care about a lot and with whom, specifically, Mrs. Pocock has found the chance to pick up threads. What a delight for both of you!” Madame de Vionnet, keeping her gaze on Sarah, bravely carried on.
Mrs. Pocock met her handsomely, but Strether quickly saw she meant to accept no version of her movements or plans from any other lips. She required no patronage and no support, which were but other names for a false position; she would show in her own way what she chose to show, and this she expressed with a dry glitter that recalled to him a fine Woollett winter morning. “I’ve never wanted for opportunities to see my brother. We’ve many things to think of at home, and great responsibilities and occupations, and our home’s not an impossible place. We’ve plenty of reasons,” Sarah continued a little piercingly, “for everything we do”—and in short she wouldn’t give herself the least little scrap away. But she added as one who was always bland and who could afford a concession: “I’ve come because—well, because we do come.”
Mrs. Pocock greeted her warmly, but Strether quickly noticed that she wasn't going to take any account of her actions or plans from anyone else. She didn’t want any help or support, which were just other ways of saying she didn’t want to be in a false position; she would reveal what she wanted to reveal in her own way, and this was conveyed with a sharp glint that reminded him of a beautiful winter morning in Woollett. “I’ve always had plenty of chances to see my brother. We have a lot to think about at home, with big responsibilities and busy lives, and our home isn’t an impossible place. We have plenty of reasons,” Sarah continued, somewhat insistently, “for everything we do”—in short, she wouldn’t budge even a little. But she added, like someone who was always kind and could afford to make a concession: “I’ve come because—well, because we come.”
“Ah then fortunately!”—Madame de Vionnet breathed it to the air. Five minutes later they were on their feet for her to take leave, standing together in an affability that had succeeded in surviving a further exchange of remarks; only with the emphasised appearance on Waymarsh’s part of a tendency to revert, in a ruminating manner and as with an instinctive or a precautionary lightening of his tread, to an open window and his point of vantage. The glazed and gilded room, all red damask, ormolu, mirrors, clocks, looked south, and the shutters were bowed upon the summer morning; but the Tuileries garden and what was beyond it, over which the whole place hung, were things visible through gaps; so that the far-spreading presence of Paris came up in coolness, dimness and invitation, in the twinkle of gilt-tipped palings, the crunch of gravel, the click of hoofs, the crack of whips, things that suggested some parade of the circus. “I think it probable,” said Mrs. Pocock, “that I shall have the opportunity of going to my brother’s. I’ve no doubt it’s very pleasant indeed.” She spoke as to Strether, but her face was turned with an intensity of brightness to Madame de Vionnet, and there was a moment during which, while she thus fronted her, our friend expected to hear her add: “I’m much obliged to you, I’m sure, for inviting me there.” He guessed that for five seconds these words were on the point of coming; he heard them as clearly as if they had been spoken; but he presently knew they had just failed—knew it by a glance, quick and fine, from Madame de Vionnet, which told him that she too had felt them in the air, but that the point had luckily not been made in any manner requiring notice. This left her free to reply only to what had been said.
“Ah, how fortunate!”—Madame de Vionnet said softly. Five minutes later, they were standing up to say goodbye, sharing a warmth that had managed to survive another round of conversation; only Waymarsh seemed to have an urge to wander back, thoughtfully and almost instinctively lightening his step toward an open window and his favorite spot. The room, decorated in red damask, gold accents, mirrors, and clocks, faced south, and the shutters were drawn against the summer morning; but the view beyond the Tuileries garden, which loomed over everything, was only visible through openings, allowing the expansive essence of Paris to seep in with its coolness, dimness, and allure—the glitter of gilt-tipped fences, the crunch of gravel, the sound of hooves, and the crack of whips, all hinting at some circus parade. “I think it’s likely,” Mrs. Pocock said, “that I’ll get a chance to visit my brother. I have no doubt it’s quite lovely there.” She addressed Strether, but her gaze was bright and focused on Madame de Vionnet, and for a moment, as she faced her, our friend expected her to add: “I truly appreciate your invitation.” He sensed that those words were poised to come out; he heard them clearly in his mind as if they had been spoken aloud, but then he realized they had not been said—he understood this from a quick, subtle glance from Madame de Vionnet, which signaled that she too had felt the tension in the air, but thankfully, the moment hadn’t materialized in a way that needed acknowledgment. This left her free to respond only to what had actually been said.
“That the Boulevard Malesherbes may be common ground for us offers me the best prospect I see for the pleasure of meeting you again.”
“Knowing that Boulevard Malesherbes can be a common meeting place for us gives me the best hope I have for the joy of seeing you again.”
“Oh I shall come to see you, since you’ve been so good”: and Mrs. Pocock looked her invader well in the eyes. The flush in Sarah’s cheeks had by this time settled to a small definite crimson spot that was not without its own bravery; she held her head a good deal up, and it came to Strether that of the two, at this moment, she was the one who most carried out the idea of a Countess. He quite took in, however, that she would really return her visitor’s civility: she wouldn’t report again at Woollett without at least so much producible history as that in her pocket.
“Oh, I will come to see you since you’ve been so kind,” Mrs. Pocock said, meeting her visitor's gaze firmly. By now, the flush in Sarah’s cheeks had faded to a small, definite crimson spot that showed her own courage; she held her head high, and it struck Strether that in that moment, she embodied the idea of a Countess more than anyone else. He also recognized that she would genuinely reciprocate her visitor’s politeness: she wouldn’t go back to Woollett without at least having some tangible story to share.
“I want extremely to be able to show you my little daughter.” Madame de Vionnet went on; “and I should have brought her with me if I hadn’t wished first to ask your leave. I was in hopes I should perhaps find Miss Pocock, of whose being with you I’ve heard from Mr. Newsome and whose acquaintance I should so much like my child to make. If I have the pleasure of seeing her and you do permit it I shall venture to ask her to be kind to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will tell you”—she beautifully kept it up—“that my poor girl is gentle and good and rather lonely. They’ve made friends, he and she, ever so happily, and he doesn’t, I believe, think ill of her. As for Jeanne herself he has had the same success with her that I know he has had here wherever he has turned.” She seemed to ask him for permission to say these things, or seemed rather to take it, softly and happily, with the ease of intimacy, for granted, and he had quite the consciousness now that not to meet her at any point more than halfway would be odiously, basely to abandon her. Yes, he was with her, and, opposed even in this covert, this semi-safe fashion to those who were not, he felt, strangely and confusedly, but excitedly, inspiringly, how much and how far. It was as if he had positively waited in suspense for something from her that would let him in deeper, so that he might show her how he could take it. And what did in fact come as she drew out a little her farewell served sufficiently the purpose. “As his success is a matter that I’m sure he’ll never mention for himself, I feel, you see, the less scruple; which it’s very good of me to say, you know, by the way,” she added as she addressed herself to him; “considering how little direct advantage I’ve gained from your triumphs with me. When does one ever see you? I wait at home and I languish. You’ll have rendered me the service, Mrs. Pocock, at least,” she wound up, “of giving me one of my much-too-rare glimpses of this gentleman.”
“I really want to show you my little daughter.” Madame de Vionnet continued, “And I would have brought her with me if I hadn’t wanted to ask for your permission first. I was hoping I might find Miss Pocock here, as I’ve heard from Mr. Newsome that she’s with you, and I would love for my child to meet her. If I have the pleasure of seeing her and you allow it, I’ll ask her to be nice to Jeanne. Mr. Strether will tell you”—she maintained her poise beautifully—“that my poor girl is gentle and good and a bit lonely. They’ve become friends quite happily, and I don’t believe he thinks poorly of her. As for Jeanne herself, he’s had the same success with her that I know he’s had wherever he’s gone.” She seemed to be asking for permission to say these things or rather seemed to take it for granted with the ease of intimacy, and he felt keenly that not meeting her even halfway would be shamefully abandoning her. Yes, he was with her, and, even in this subtle, somewhat safe way, opposed to those who were not, he felt strangely, confusedly, yet excitedly inspired by how much that really meant. It was as if he had been waiting in suspense for something from her that would allow him to connect on a deeper level so he could show her how he could handle it. And what actually came as she talked a little about her farewell was enough for that purpose. “Since his success is something I’m sure he’d never mention himself, I feel, you see, less hesitant to say it; which is quite generous of me, by the way,” she added as she looked at him; “considering how little direct benefit I’ve gained from your achievements with me. When do we ever see you? I stay home and I get restless. You’ll have done me the favor, Mrs. Pocock, at least,” she concluded, “of giving me one of my too-rare glimpses of this gentleman.”
“I certainly should be sorry to deprive you of anything that seems so much, as you describe it, your natural due. Mr. Strether and I are very old friends,” Sarah allowed, “but the privilege of his society isn’t a thing I shall quarrel about with any one.”
“I would definitely feel bad to take away anything that seems so much, as you put it, your natural right. Mr. Strether and I are very old friends,” Sarah acknowledged, “but I won’t fight with anyone over the privilege of his company.”
“And yet, dear Sarah,” he freely broke in, “I feel, when I hear you say that, that you don’t quite do justice to the important truth of the extent to which—as you’re also mine—I’m your natural due. I should like much better,” he laughed, “to see you fight for me.”
“And yet, dear Sarah,” he interrupted, “I feel, when you say that, that you don’t fully appreciate how true it is that—as you’re also mine—I’m your rightful place. I would much rather,” he chuckled, “see you stand up for me.”
She met him, Mrs. Pocock, on this, with an arrest of speech—with a certain breathlessness, as he immediately fancied, on the score of a freedom for which she wasn’t quite prepared. It had flared up—for all the harm he had intended by it—because, confoundedly, he didn’t want any more to be afraid about her than he wanted to be afraid about Madame de Vionnet. He had never, naturally, called her anything but Sarah at home, and though he had perhaps never quite so markedly invoked her as his “dear,” that was somehow partly because no occasion had hitherto laid so effective a trap for it. But something admonished him now that it was too late—unless indeed it were possibly too early; and that he at any rate shouldn’t have pleased Mrs. Pocock the more by it. “Well, Mr. Strether—!” she murmured with vagueness, yet with sharpness, while her crimson spot burned a trifle brighter and he was aware that this must be for the present the limit of her response. Madame de Vionnet had already, however, come to his aid, and Waymarsh, as if for further participation, moved again back to them. It was true that the aid rendered by Madame de Vionnet was questionable; it was a sign that, for all one might confess to with her, and for all she might complain of not enjoying, she could still insidiously show how much of the material of conversation had accumulated between them.
She met him, Mrs. Pocock, with a pause in her speech and a slight breathlessness, which he immediately thought was due to a level of openness she wasn’t quite ready for. It had flared up—despite the trouble he had intended by it—because, frustratingly, he didn’t want to be more worried about her than he was about Madame de Vionnet. He had always called her Sarah at home, and although he had never really referred to her as his “dear,” it was partly because he hadn’t had an occasion that effectively trapped him into doing so until now. But something told him it was too late—unless maybe it was too early; and that at any rate he wouldn’t have pleased Mrs. Pocock more by it. “Well, Mr. Strether—!” she murmured ambiguously but sharply, while her blush deepened a bit and he recognized that this was probably the extent of her reaction. However, Madame de Vionnet had already come to his rescue, and Waymarsh, seemingly eager to join in, moved back toward them. It was true that Madame de Vionnet’s assistance was questionable; it indicated that, despite everything she might admit and all her complaints about not being entertained, she could still subtly highlight how much conversation material had built up between them.
“The real truth is, you know, that you sacrifice one without mercy to dear old Maria. She leaves no room in your life for anybody else. Do you know,” she enquired of Mrs. Pocock, “about dear old Maria? The worst is that Miss Gostrey is really a wonderful woman.”
“The truth is, you know, that you give one up without hesitation to dear old Maria. She doesn't leave any space in your life for anyone else. Do you know,” she asked Mrs. Pocock, “about dear old Maria? The worst part is that Miss Gostrey is actually an amazing woman.”
“Oh yes indeed,” Strether answered for her, “Mrs. Pocock knows about Miss Gostrey. Your mother, Sarah, must have told you about her; your mother knows everything,” he sturdily pursued. “And I cordially admit,” he added with his conscious gaiety of courage, “that she’s as wonderful a woman as you like.”
“Oh yes, definitely,” Strether replied for her, “Mrs. Pocock knows about Miss Gostrey. Your mom, Sarah, must have filled you in on her; your mom knows everything,” he confidently continued. “And I fully admit,” he added with a cheerful sense of bravery, “that she’s as amazing a woman as you could imagine.”
“Ah it isn’t I who ‘like,’ dear Mr. Strether, anything to do with the matter!” Sarah Pocock promptly protested; “and I’m by no means sure I have—from my mother or from any one else—a notion of whom you’re talking about.”
“Ah, it’s not I who ‘likes,’ dear Mr. Strether, anything to do with this matter!” Sarah Pocock quickly protested; “and I’m not at all sure that I have—from my mother or anyone else—a clue about who you’re talking about.”
“Well, he won’t let you see her, you know,” Madame de Vionnet sympathetically threw in. “He never lets me—old friends as we are: I mean as I am with Maria. He reserves her for his best hours; keeps her consummately to himself; only gives us others the crumbs of the feast.”
“Well, he won’t let you see her, you know,” Madame de Vionnet said sympathetically. “He never lets me—old friends as we are: I mean as I am with Maria. He saves her for his best moments; keeps her entirely to himself; only gives the rest of us the leftovers.”
“Well, Countess, I’ve had some of the crumbs,” Waymarsh observed with weight and covering her with his large look; which led her to break in before he could go on.
"Well, Countess, I’ve had some of the crumbs," Waymarsh remarked seriously, giving her a long look, which prompted her to interrupt him before he could continue.
“Comment donc, he shares her with you?” she exclaimed in droll stupefaction. “Take care you don’t have, before you go much further, rather more of all ces dames than you may know what to do with!”
“So how does he share her with you?” she exclaimed in sarcastic disbelief. “Be careful you don’t end up with, before you go much further, a lot more of all these ladies than you know what to do with!”
But he only continued in his massive way. “I can post you about the lady, Mrs. Pocock, so far as you may care to hear. I’ve seen her quite a number of times, and I was practically present when they made acquaintance. I’ve kept my eye on her right along, but I don’t know as there’s any real harm in her.”
But he just kept going in his big way. “I can tell you about the lady, Mrs. Pocock, if you want to know. I’ve seen her quite a few times, and I was almost there when they first met. I’ve been watching her all along, but I don’t think there’s any real danger with her.”
“‘Harm’?” Madame de Vionnet quickly echoed. “Why she’s the dearest and cleverest of all the clever and dear.”
“‘Harm’?” Madame de Vionnet quickly repeated. “Why she’s the sweetest and smartest of all the smart and sweet.”
“Well, you run her pretty close, Countess,” Waymarsh returned with spirit; “though there’s no doubt she’s pretty well up in things. She knows her way round Europe. Above all there’s no doubt she does love Strether.”
“Well, you give her a good run for her money, Countess,” Waymarsh replied energetically; “although it’s clear she’s quite knowledgeable. She knows her way around Europe. Most importantly, there’s no doubt she truly loves Strether.”
“Ah but we all do that—we all love Strether: it isn’t a merit!” their fellow visitor laughed, keeping to her idea with a good conscience at which our friend was aware that he marvelled, though he trusted also for it, as he met her exquisitely expressive eyes, to some later light.
“Ah but we all do that—we all love Strether: it isn’t a merit!” their fellow visitor laughed, sticking to her perspective with a clear conscience that our friend found both marveling and trusting, as he looked into her beautifully expressive eyes, hoping for some deeper understanding later on.
The prime effect of her tone, however—and it was a truth which his own eyes gave back to her in sad ironic play—could only be to make him feel that, to say such things to a man in public, a woman must practically think of him as ninety years old. He had turned awkwardly, responsively red, he knew, at her mention of Maria Gostrey; Sarah Pocock’s presence—the particular quality of it—had made this inevitable; and then he had grown still redder in proportion as he hated to have shown anything at all. He felt indeed that he was showing much, as, uncomfortably and almost in pain, he offered up his redness to Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, seemed now to be looking at him with a certain explanatory yearning. Something deep—something built on their old old relation—passed, in this complexity, between them; he got the side-wind of a loyalty that stood behind all actual queer questions. Waymarsh’s dry bare humour—as it gave itself to be taken—gloomed out to demand justice. “Well, if you talk of Miss Barrace I’ve my chance too,” it appeared stiffly to nod, and it granted that it was giving him away, but struggled to add that it did so only to save him. The sombre glow stared it at him till it fairly sounded out—“to save you, poor old man, to save you; to save you in spite of yourself.” Yet it was somehow just this communication that showed him to himself as more than ever lost. Still another result of it was to put before him as never yet that between his comrade and the interest represented by Sarah there was already a basis. Beyond all question now, yes: Waymarsh had been in occult relation with Mrs. Newsome—out, out it all came in the very effort of his face. “Yes, you’re feeling my hand”—he as good as proclaimed it; “but only because this at least I shall have got out of the damned Old World: that I shall have picked up the pieces into which it has caused you to crumble.” It was as if in short, after an instant, Strether had not only had it from him, but had recognised that so far as this went the instant had cleared the air. Our friend understood and approved; he had the sense that they wouldn’t otherwise speak of it. This would be all, and it would mark in himself a kind of intelligent generosity. It was with grim Sarah then—Sarah grim for all her grace—that Waymarsh had begun at ten o’clock in the morning to save him. Well—if he could, poor dear man, with his big bleak kindness! The upshot of which crowded perception was that Strether, on his own side, still showed no more than he absolutely had to. He showed the least possible by saying to Mrs. Pocock after an interval much briefer than our glance at the picture reflected in him: “Oh it’s as true as they please!—There’s no Miss Gostrey for any one but me—not the least little peep. I keep her to myself.”
The main effect of her tone, however—and it was a truth his own eyes reflected back to her with a sad irony—could only make him feel that to say such things to a man in public, a woman must practically think of him as being ninety years old. He had awkwardly turned red at her mention of Maria Gostrey; Sarah Pocock’s presence—the particular quality of it—had made this unavoidable; and then he turned even redder the more he hated to reveal anything at all. He felt he was showing a lot, as, uncomfortably and almost in pain, he offered up his flushed face to Waymarsh, who, strangely enough, now seemed to be looking at him with a kind of explanatory longing. Something deep—something built on their very old relationship—passed between them in this complexity; he felt the wind of a loyalty that stood behind all the strange questions. Waymarsh’s dry, stripped-down humor—which he allowed to be interpreted—loomed as if to demand justice. “Well, if you’re talking about Miss Barrace, I’ve got my chance too,” it seemed to stiffly nod, conceding it was pretty obvious, but struggling to add that it only aimed to save him. The heavy glow seemed to stare at him until it practically yelled out—“to save you, poor old man, to save you; to save you in spite of yourself.” Yet somehow it was this very communication that made him realize he was more lost than ever. Another effect of it was to make him see as never before that there was already a connection between his friend and the interest represented by Sarah. Beyond any doubt now, yes: Waymarsh had been in some hidden relationship with Mrs. Newsome—everything came out just in the expression on his face. “Yes, you’re sensing my support”—he practically declared; “but only because this at least I will have gotten out of the damned Old World: that I shall have picked up the pieces into which it has caused you to fall apart.” It was as if, in a moment, Strether not only understood this from him but realized that this moment had cleared the air. Our friend understood and agreed; he felt that they wouldn’t talk about it otherwise. This would be all, and it would mark a kind of intelligent generosity in himself. It was with grim Sarah then—grim for all her grace—that Waymarsh had started at ten o’clock in the morning to save him. Well—if he could, poor dear man, with his big, bleak kindness! The end result of this crowded perception was that Strether, on his end, still revealed no more than he absolutely had to. He showed the least possible by saying to Mrs. Pocock after a much shorter pause than our glance at the picture reflected in him: “Oh it’s as true as can be!—There's no Miss Gostrey for anyone but me—not the slightest peek. I keep her to myself.”
“Well, it’s very good of you to notify me,” Sarah replied without looking at him and thrown for a moment by this discrimination, as the direction of her eyes showed, upon a dimly desperate little community with Madame de Vionnet. “But I hope I shan’t miss her too much.”
“Well, it’s really nice of you to let me know,” Sarah replied without looking at him, momentarily thrown off by this bias, as the direction of her gaze indicated, toward a vaguely desperate little group with Madame de Vionnet. “But I hope I won’t miss her too much.”
Madame de Vionnet instantly rallied. “And you know—though it might occur to one—it isn’t in the least that he’s ashamed of her. She’s really—in a way—extremely good-looking.”
Madame de Vionnet quickly recovered. “You know, although it might cross someone’s mind, he’s not at all ashamed of her. She’s actually— in a way—quite good-looking.”
“Ah but extremely!” Strether laughed while he wondered at the odd part he found thus imposed on him.
“Ah, but definitely!” Strether laughed as he marveled at the strange role that had been unexpectedly assigned to him.
It continued to be so by every touch from Madame de Vionnet. “Well, as I say, you know, I wish you would keep me a little more to yourself. Couldn’t you name some day for me, some hour—and better soon than late? I’ll be at home whenever it best suits you. There—I can’t say fairer.”
It kept being that way with every touch from Madame de Vionnet. “Well, as I said, you know, I really wish you would keep me a bit more to yourself. Couldn’t you pick a day for me, an hour—and sooner is better than later? I’ll be home whenever it works best for you. There—I can’t say it any clearer.”
Strether thought a moment while Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock affected him as standing attentive. “I did lately call on you. Last week—while Chad was out of town.”
Strether paused for a moment as Waymarsh and Mrs. Pocock seemed to be listening carefully. “I did visit you recently. Last week—while Chad was away.”
“Yes—and I was away, as it happened, too. You choose your moments well. But don’t wait for my next absence, for I shan’t make another,” Madame de Vionnet declared, “while Mrs. Pocock’s here.”
“Yes—and I was away, coincidentally, too. You know how to pick your moments. But don’t hold out for my next absence, because I won’t be leaving again,” Madame de Vionnet said, “while Mrs. Pocock is here.”
“That vow needn’t keep you long, fortunately,” Sarah observed with reasserted suavity. “I shall be at present but a short time in Paris. I have my plans for other countries. I meet a number of charming friends”—and her voice seemed to caress that description of these persons.
“That vow doesn’t have to hold you back for long, thankfully,” Sarah noted with regained charm. “I won’t be in Paris for very long. I have plans for other countries. I’ll be meeting a few lovely friends”—and her voice seemed to linger on that description of these people.
“Ah then,” her visitor cheerfully replied, “all the more reason! To-morrow, for instance, or next day?” she continued to Strether. “Tuesday would do for me beautifully.”
“Ah then,” her visitor cheerfully replied, “that's even better! How about tomorrow or the day after?” she continued to Strether. “Tuesday would work perfectly for me.”
“Tuesday then with pleasure.”
“Tuesday sounds great.”
“And at half-past five?—or at six?”
"And at 5:30?—or 6?"
It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh struck him as fairly waiting for his answer. It was indeed as if they were arranged, gathered for a performance, the performance of “Europe” by his confederate and himself. Well, the performance could only go on. “Say five forty-five.”
It was ridiculous, but Mrs. Pocock and Waymarsh seemed to be waiting for his response. It was almost like they were set up, ready for a show, the show of “Europe” by his partner and him. Well, the show had to continue. “Say five forty-five.”
“Five forty-five—good.” And now at last Madame de Vionnet must leave them, though it carried, for herself, the performance a little further. “I did hope so much also to see Miss Pocock. Mayn’t I still?”
“Five forty-five—great.” And now Madame de Vionnet had to leave them, even though it meant pushing the performance a bit further for her. “I really wanted to see Miss Pocock. Can’t I still?”
Sarah hesitated, but she rose equal. “She’ll return your visit with me. She’s at present out with Mr. Pocock and my brother.”
Sarah hesitated, but she stood her ground. “She’ll come visit you with me. Right now, she’s out with Mr. Pocock and my brother.”
“I see—of course Mr. Newsome has everything to show them. He has told me so much about her. My great desire’s to give my daughter the opportunity of making her acquaintance. I’m always on the lookout for such chances for her. If I didn’t bring her to-day it was only to make sure first that you’d let me.” After which the charming woman risked a more intense appeal. “It wouldn’t suit you also to mention some near time, so that we shall be sure not to lose you?” Strether on his side waited, for Sarah likewise had, after all, to perform; and it occupied him to have been thus reminded that she had stayed at home—and on her first morning of Paris—while Chad led the others forth. Oh she was up to her eyes; if she had stayed at home she had stayed by an understanding, arrived at the evening before, that Waymarsh would come and find her alone. This was beginning well—for a first day in Paris; and the thing might be amusing yet. But Madame de Vionnet’s earnestness was meanwhile beautiful. “You may think me indiscreet, but I’ve such a desire my Jeanne shall know an American girl of the really delightful kind. You see I throw myself for it on your charity.”
“I see—of course Mr. Newsome has everything to share with them. He’s told me so much about her. My biggest wish is to give my daughter the chance to meet her. I'm always looking for opportunities like that for her. The only reason I didn’t bring her today was to make sure first that you’d be okay with it.” After that, the charming woman made a stronger appeal. “Wouldn’t it be great if you could mention a time soon, just so we can be sure not to miss you?” Strether waited, since Sarah also had to step up; it struck him that she had stayed at home—on her first morning in Paris—while Chad took the others out. Oh, she was deep in it; if she had stayed in, it was based on an understanding made the night before that Waymarsh would come and find her alone. This was starting off well—for a first day in Paris; and it could still be fun. But Madame de Vionnet’s sincerity was truly lovely. “You might think I’m being too forward, but I really want my Jeanne to know an American girl who’s genuinely delightful. You see, I’m counting on your kindness for this.”
The manner of this speech gave Strether such a sense of depths below it and behind it as he hadn’t yet had—ministered in a way that almost frightened him to his dim divinations of reasons; but if Sarah still, in spite of it, faltered, this was why he had time for a sign of sympathy with her petitioner. “Let me say then, dear lady, to back your plea, that Miss Mamie is of the most delightful kind of all—is charming among the charming.”
The way this speech was delivered gave Strether a feeling of deeper meanings underneath and behind it that he hadn’t experienced before—it struck him in a way that almost scared him with its hints of hidden reasons. But if Sarah still hesitated despite this, it was why he had time to show some sympathy for her request. “So let me say, dear lady, to support your plea, that Miss Mamie is of the most delightful kind—she's enchanting among the enchanting.”
Even Waymarsh, though with more to produce on the subject, could get into motion in time. “Yes, Countess, the American girl’s a thing that your country must at least allow ours the privilege to say we can show you. But her full beauty is only for those who know how to make use of her.”
Even Waymarsh, although having more to say on the topic, could get moving in time. “Yes, Countess, the American girl is something that your country must at least allow ours the chance to say we can show you. But her true beauty is only for those who know how to appreciate it.”
“Ah then,” smiled Madame de Vionnet, “that’s exactly what I want to do. I’m sure she has much to teach us.”
“Ah then,” smiled Madame de Vionnet, “that’s exactly what I want to do. I’m sure she has a lot to teach us.”
It was wonderful, but what was scarce less so was that Strether found himself, by the quick effect of it, moved another way. “Oh that may be! But don’t speak of your own exquisite daughter, you know, as if she weren’t pure perfection. I at least won’t take that from you. Mademoiselle de Vionnet,” he explained, in considerable form, to Mrs. Pocock, “is pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet is exquisite.”
It was amazing, but what was less so was that Strether found himself, almost immediately, feeling differently. “Oh, that might be true! But don’t talk about your wonderful daughter as if she’s anything less than perfect. I won’t accept that from you. Mademoiselle de Vionnet,” he said with a lot of formality to Mrs. Pocock, “is pure perfection. Mademoiselle de Vionnet is exquisite.”
It had been perhaps a little portentous, but “Ah?” Sarah simply glittered.
It might have seemed a bit ominous, but “Oh?” Sarah just sparkled.
Waymarsh himself, for that matter, apparently recognised, in respect to the facts, the need of a larger justice, and he had with it an inclination to Sarah. “Miss Jane’s strikingly handsome—in the regular French style.”
Waymarsh himself seemed to understand, regarding the facts, the necessity for a broader sense of justice, and he was also drawn to Sarah. “Miss Jane is strikingly beautiful—in the traditional French way.”
It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh out, though at the very moment he caught in Sarah’s eyes, as glancing at the speaker, a vague but unmistakeable “You too?” It made Waymarsh in fact look consciously over her head. Madame de Vionnet meanwhile, however, made her point in her own way. “I wish indeed I could offer you my poor child as a dazzling attraction: it would make one’s position simple enough! She’s as good as she can be, but of course she’s different, and the question is now—in the light of the way things seem to go—if she isn’t after all too different: too different I mean from the splendid type every one is so agreed that your wonderful country produces. On the other hand of course Mr. Newsome, who knows it so well, has, as a good friend, dear kind man that he is, done everything he can—to keep us from fatal benightedness—for my small shy creature. Well,” she wound up after Mrs. Pocock had signified, in a murmur still a little stiff, that she would speak to her own young charge on the question—“well, we shall sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and wait for you.” But her last fine turn was for Strether. “Do speak of us in such a way—!”
It somehow made both Strether and Madame de Vionnet laugh, even though at that moment he caught a glimpse of Sarah’s eyes, glancing at the speaker, with a vague but unmistakable “You too?” Waymarsh, in fact, looked consciously over her head. Meanwhile, Madame de Vionnet made her point in her own way. “I really wish I could offer you my poor child as an impressive attraction: it would make things so much simpler! She’s as good as she can be, but of course she’s different, and now the question is—in light of how things seem to be going—if she isn’t after all too different: too different, I mean, from the amazing type that everyone agrees your wonderful country produces. On the other hand, Mr. Newsome, who knows it so well, has, as a good friend and dear kind man, done everything he can—to protect us from being completely clueless—for my small, shy girl. Well,” she concluded after Mrs. Pocock had indicated, with a slightly stiff murmur, that she would talk to her own young charge about the issue—“well, we shall sit, my child and I, and wait and wait and wait for you.” But her last clever remark was directed at Strether. “Please speak of us in such a way—!”
“As that something can’t but come of it? Oh something shall come of it! I take a great interest!” he further declared; and in proof of it, the next moment, he had gone with her down to her carriage.
“As that something can’t help but come of it? Oh something will come of it! I’m really interested!” he added; and to prove it, the next moment, he went with her down to her carriage.
Book Ninth
I
“The difficulty is,” Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of days later, “that I can’t surprise them into the smallest sign of his not being the same old Chad they’ve been for the last three years glowering at across the sea. They simply won’t give any, and as a policy, you know—what you call a parti pris, a deep game—that’s positively remarkable.”
“The problem is,” Strether said to Madame de Vionnet a couple of days later, “that I can’t catch them off guard with even the slightest hint that he’s not the same old Chad they’ve been glaring at from across the sea for the last three years. They just won’t show any, and as a strategy, you know—what you call a parti pris, a serious game—that’s truly impressive.”
It was so remarkable that our friend had pulled up before his hostess with the vision of it; he had risen from his chair at the end of ten minutes and begun, as a help not to worry, to move about before her quite as he moved before Maria. He had kept his appointment with her to the minute and had been intensely impatient, though divided in truth between the sense of having everything to tell her and the sense of having nothing at all. The short interval had, in the face of their complication, multiplied his impressions—it being meanwhile to be noted, moreover, that he already frankly, already almost publicly, viewed the complication as common to them. If Madame de Vionnet, under Sarah’s eyes, had pulled him into her boat, there was by this time no doubt whatever that he had remained in it and that what he had really most been conscious of for many hours together was the movement of the vessel itself. They were in it together this moment as they hadn’t yet been, and he hadn’t at present uttered the least of the words of alarm or remonstrance that had died on his lips at the hotel. He had other things to say to her than that she had put him in a position; so quickly had his position grown to affect him as quite excitingly, altogether richly, inevitable. That the outlook, however—given the point of exposure—hadn’t cleared up half so much as he had reckoned was the first warning she received from him on his arrival. She had replied with indulgence that he was in too great a hurry, and had remarked soothingly that if she knew how to be patient surely he might be. He felt her presence, on the spot, he felt her tone and everything about her, as an aid to that effort; and it was perhaps one of the proofs of her success with him that he seemed so much to take his ease while they talked. By the time he had explained to her why his impressions, though multiplied, still baffled him, it was as if he had been familiarly talking for hours. They baffled him because Sarah—well, Sarah was deep, deeper than she had ever yet had a chance to show herself. He didn’t say that this was partly the effect of her opening so straight down, as it were, into her mother, and that, given Mrs. Newsome’s profundity, the shaft thus sunk might well have a reach; but he wasn’t without a resigned apprehension that, at such a rate of confidence between the two women, he was likely soon to be moved to show how already, at moments, it had been for him as if he were dealing directly with Mrs. Newsome. Sarah, to a certainty, would have begun herself to feel it in him—and this naturally put it in her power to torment him the more. From the moment she knew he could be tormented—!
It was striking that our friend had arrived in front of his hostess with that thought; he’d stood up after ten minutes and started moving around her just like he did around Maria, hoping it would help ease his nerves. He had kept his appointment with her right on time and felt intensely impatient, caught between the urge to share everything and the feeling that he had nothing to say. The brief time apart had, considering their situation, amplified his thoughts—it should also be noted that he already openly, almost publicly, saw this situation as something they both shared. If Madame de Vionnet had drawn him into her world under Sarah’s watch, there was no doubt that he had stayed there, and what had truly occupied his mind for several hours was the movement of the boat itself. They were in it together right now like they hadn’t been before, and he hadn’t voiced any of the words of worry or protest that had died on his lips at the hotel. He had other things he wanted to tell her than how she had put him in this predicament; his situation had quickly grown to feel thrilling, richly inevitable. However, the outlook—given the current exposure—hadn’t cleared up nearly as much as he had expected, which was the first warning she got from him upon his arrival. She responded gently, saying he was rushing, and soothingly suggested that if she could be patient, surely he could be too. He felt her presence, her tone, and everything about her as a support in that effort, and it was perhaps one of the signs of how effective she was with him that he seemed so relaxed while they talked. By the time he had explained why his impressions, though numerous, still puzzled him, it felt like they had been chatting for hours. They puzzled him because Sarah—well, Sarah was profound, deeper than she had ever had the chance to reveal. He didn’t explicitly say that this was partly due to her diving so directly into her relationship with her mother, and that, given Mrs. Newsome’s depth, the implications could be significant; but he had a resigned feeling that, with such a level of confidence between the two women, he was likely to soon find himself revealing that at times it felt like he was dealing directly with Mrs. Newsome. Sarah would certainly have started to sense this in him—and this naturally gave her the power to tease him even more. From the moment she realized he could be provoked—!
“But why can you be?”—his companion was surprised at his use of the word.
“But why can you be?”—his friend was taken aback by his choice of words.
“Because I’m made so—I think of everything.”
“Because that’s just who I am—I think about everything.”
“Ah one must never do that,” she smiled. “One must think of as few things as possible.”
“Ah, you should never do that,” she smiled. “You should think about as few things as possible.”
“Then,” he answered, “one must pick them out right. But all I mean is—for I express myself with violence—that she’s in a position to watch me. There’s an element of suspense for me, and she can see me wriggle. But my wriggling doesn’t matter,” he pursued. “I can bear it. Besides, I shall wriggle out.”
“Then,” he replied, “you have to choose them carefully. But all I mean is—I'm being a bit dramatic—that she's in a position to observe me. There's an element of suspense for me, and she can see me squirm. But my squirming doesn’t really matter,” he continued. “I can handle it. Besides, I’ll find a way out.”
The picture at any rate stirred in her an appreciation that he felt to be sincere. “I don’t see how a man can be kinder to a woman than you are to me.”
The picture definitely sparked in her a genuine appreciation that he believed was sincere. “I don’t understand how any man could be kinder to a woman than you are to me.”
Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming eyes rested on him with the truth of this he none the less had his humour of honesty. “When I say suspense I mean, you know,” he laughed, “suspense about my own case too!”
Well, kind was what he wanted to be; yet even while her charming eyes rested on him with the truth of this he nonetheless had his humor of honesty. “When I say suspense, I mean, you know,” he laughed, “suspense about my own situation too!”
“Oh yes—about your own case too!” It diminished his magnanimity, but she only looked at him the more tenderly.
“Oh yes—about your own situation too!” It took away some of his generosity, but she just looked at him more affectionately.
“Not, however,” he went on, “that I want to talk to you about that. It’s my own little affair, and I mentioned it simply as part of Mrs. Pocock’s advantage.” No, no; though there was a queer present temptation in it, and his suspense was so real that to fidget was a relief, he wouldn’t talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn’t work off on her the anxiety produced in him by Sarah’s calculated omissions of reference. The effect she produced of representing her mother had been produced—and that was just the immense, the uncanny part of it—without her having so much as mentioned that lady. She had brought no message, had alluded to no question, had only answered his enquiries with hopeless limited propriety. She had invented a way of meeting them—as if he had been a polite perfunctory poor relation, of distant degree—that made them almost ridiculous in him. He couldn’t moreover on his own side ask much without appearing to publish how he had lately lacked news; a circumstance of which it was Sarah’s profound policy not to betray a suspicion. These things, all the same, he wouldn’t breathe to Madame de Vionnet—much as they might make him walk up and down. And what he didn’t say—as well as what she didn’t, for she had also her high decencies—enhanced the effect of his being there with her at the end of ten minutes more intimately on the basis of saving her than he had yet had occasion to be. It ended in fact by being quite beautiful between them, the number of things they had a manifest consciousness of not saying. He would have liked to turn her, critically, to the subject of Mrs. Pocock, but he so stuck to the line he felt to be the point of honour and of delicacy that he scarce even asked her what her personal impression had been. He knew it, for that matter, without putting her to trouble: that she wondered how, with such elements, Sarah could still have no charm, was one of the principal things she held her tongue about. Strether would have been interested in her estimate of the elements—indubitably there, some of them, and to be appraised according to taste—but he denied himself even the luxury of this diversion. The way Madame de Vionnet affected him to-day was in itself a kind of demonstration of the happy employment of gifts. How could a woman think Sarah had charm who struck one as having arrived at it herself by such different roads? On the other hand of course Sarah wasn’t obliged to have it. He felt as if somehow Madame de Vionnet was. The great question meanwhile was what Chad thought of his sister; which was naturally ushered in by that of Sarah’s apprehension of Chad. That they could talk of, and with a freedom purchased by their discretion in other senses. The difficulty however was that they were reduced as yet to conjecture. He had given them in the day or two as little of a lead as Sarah, and Madame de Vionnet mentioned that she hadn’t seen him since his sister’s arrival.
"Not that I want to discuss that," he continued, "It's my personal issue, and I only brought it up as part of Mrs. Pocock's advantage." No, even though there was a strange temptation to do so and his anxiety felt so intense that fidgeting offered some relief, he wouldn’t talk to her about Mrs. Newsome, wouldn’t unload on her the stress caused by Sarah’s deliberate avoidance of the topic. The way she seemed to represent her mother was impressive—and that was the truly remarkable and eerie part—without ever mentioning her. She brought no message, referred to no matter, and only responded to his questions with a frustratingly limited formality. She had created a way of engaging with him—as if he were a polite, distant relative—that made him feel almost ridiculous. Moreover, he couldn’t ask too much himself without revealing how recently he had been out of the loop; it was deeply strategic of Sarah not to let on that she suspected anything. Still, he wouldn’t mention any of this to Madame de Vionnet—even though it made him feel restless. What went unsaid—along with what she didn’t say, since she had her own standards of decorum—made their time together feel more intimate than it had been after ten minutes. In fact, it turned out to be quite beautiful between them, with the many things they both clearly felt were off-limits to discuss. He would have liked to critically steer the conversation toward Mrs. Pocock, but he adhered to what he believed was a matter of honor and delicacy, hardly even asking her about her personal thoughts. He knew, without putting her to the trouble, that she was curious about how Sarah could still lack charm despite her traits; this was one of the main things she held back. Strether would have been interested in her opinion on those traits—many of which were definitely present and should be judged based on personal taste—but he didn't allow himself even that small luxury. The way Madame de Vionnet impacted him today was a proof of the wonderful use of her gifts. How could anyone think Sarah had charm when she seemed to have achieved it through such different means? Of course, Sarah wasn’t obligated to possess it. It felt like Madame de Vionnet was. Meanwhile, the big question was what Chad thought of his sister; that led naturally to the consideration of Sarah’s views on Chad. That was something they could discuss freely, thanks to their discretion in other matters. The challenge, however, was that they were still left to speculate. He had given them as little information in the last couple of days as Sarah had, and Madame de Vionnet noted that she hadn’t seen him since his sister arrived.
“And does that strike you as such an age?”
“And does that seem like that kind of age to you?”
She met it in all honesty. “Oh I won’t pretend I don’t miss him. Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship’s like that. Make what you will of it!” she whimsically smiled; a little flicker of the kind, occasional in her, that had more than once moved him to wonder what he might best make of her. “But he’s perfectly right,” she hastened to add, “and I wouldn’t have him fail in any way at present for the world. I’d sooner not see him for three months. I begged him to be beautiful to them, and he fully feels it for himself.”
She met it with complete honesty. “Oh, I won’t pretend I don’t miss him. Sometimes I see him every day. Our friendship is like that. Take it however you want!” she smiled playfully; a little spark of something, rare in her, that had often made him wonder what he should really think about her. “But he’s absolutely right,” she quickly added, “and I wouldn’t want him to fail in any way right now for anything. I’d rather not see him for three months. I asked him to be great to them, and he truly feels it for himself.”
Strether turned away under his quick perception; she was so odd a mixture of lucidity and mystery. She fell in at moments with the theory about her he most cherished, and she seemed at others to blow it into air. She spoke now as if her art were all an innocence, and then again as if her innocence were all an art. “Oh he’s giving himself up, and he’ll do so to the end. How can he but want, now that it’s within reach, his full impression?—which is much more important, you know, than either yours or mine. But he’s just soaking,” Strether said as he came back; “he’s going in conscientiously for a saturation. I’m bound to say he is very good.”
Strether turned away with a quick understanding; she was such a strange mix of clarity and mystery. At times, she aligned perfectly with the idea he held dear, and at other times, she seemed to disrupt it completely. She spoke as if her art was entirely innocent, and then at other moments, as if her innocence was just a facade for her art. “Oh, he’s completely giving himself over, and he’ll keep doing it until the end. How can he not want his complete impression now that it's within reach?—which is way more important, you know, than either yours or mine. But he’s just soaking it all in,” Strether said as he returned; “he’s earnestly going for a total immersion. I have to say he is really good.”
“Ah,” she quietly replied, “to whom do you say it?” And then more quietly still: “He’s capable of anything.”
“Ah,” she quietly replied, “who are you saying that to?” And then even more quietly: “He’s capable of anything.”
Strether more than reaffirmed—“Oh he’s excellent. I more and more like,” he insisted, “to see him with them;” though the oddity of this tone between them grew sharper for him even while they spoke. It placed the young man so before them as the result of her interest and the product of her genius, acknowledged so her part in the phenomenon and made the phenomenon so rare, that more than ever yet he might have been on the very point of asking her for some more detailed account of the whole business than he had yet received from her. The occasion almost forced upon him some question as to how she had managed and as to the appearance such miracles presented from her own singularly close place of survey. The moment in fact however passed, giving way to more present history, and he continued simply to mark his appreciation of the happy truth. “It’s a tremendous comfort to feel how one can trust him.” And then again while for a little she said nothing—as if after all to her trust there might be a special limit: “I mean for making a good show to them.”
Strether not only confirmed, “Oh he’s excellent. I really like,” he insisted, “seeing him with them;” although the strangeness of this tone between them became more pronounced as they spoke. It positioned the young man as a result of her interest and a product of her genius, acknowledging her role in the situation and making the situation so rare that he might have been on the verge of asking her for a more detailed explanation of the entire thing than he had received from her so far. The moment almost compelled him to question how she had managed it and how such miracles looked from her uniquely close perspective. However, that moment passed, giving way to more immediate events, and he continued to express his appreciation for the wonderful truth. “It’s a tremendous comfort to feel how much we can trust him.” And then, while she was silent for a bit—as if there might be a special limit to her trust: “I mean for making a good impression on them.”
“Yes,” she thoughtfully returned—“but if they shut their eyes to it!”
“Yes,” she replied thoughtfully—“but what if they ignore it?”
Strether for an instant had his own thought. “Well perhaps that won’t matter!”
Strether had a moment of realization. “Maybe that won’t make a difference!”
“You mean because he probably—do what they will—won’t like them?”
"You mean because he probably—whatever they decide to do—won't like them?"
“Oh ‘do what they will’—! They won’t do much; especially if Sarah hasn’t more—well, more than one has yet made out—to give.”
“Oh, ‘do what they want’—! They won’t do much; especially if Sarah doesn’t have more—well, more than one has figured out—to give.”
Madame de Vionnet weighed it. “Ah she has all her grace!” It was a statement over which, for a little, they could look at each other sufficiently straight, and though it produced no protest from Strether the effect was somehow as if he had treated it as a joke. “She may be persuasive and caressing with him; she may be eloquent beyond words. She may get hold of him,” she wound up—“well, as neither you nor I have.”
Madame de Vionnet considered it. “Oh, she has all her charm!” It was a comment that allowed them to look at each other directly for a moment, and although it didn’t provoke any objection from Strether, it felt a bit like he was taking it as a joke. “She might be charming and sweet with him; she could be incredibly eloquent. She might win him over,” she concluded—“in a way that neither you nor I have.”
“Yes, she may”—and now Strether smiled. “But he has spent all his time each day with Jim. He’s still showing Jim round.”
“Yes, she might”—and now Strether smiled. “But he’s been spending all his time each day with Jim. He’s still showing Jim around.”
She visibly wondered. “Then how about Jim?”
She clearly looked puzzled. “What about Jim?”
Strether took a turn before he answered. “Hasn’t he given you Jim? Hasn’t he before this ‘done’ him for you?” He was a little at a loss. “Doesn’t he tell you things?”
Strether paused before he replied. “Hasn’t he given you Jim? Hasn’t he already ‘done’ that for you?” He seemed a bit unsure. “Doesn’t he share things with you?”
She hesitated. “No”—and their eyes once more gave and took. “Not as you do. You somehow make me see them—or at least feel them. And I haven’t asked too much,” she added; “I’ve of late wanted so not to worry him.”
She paused. “No”—and their eyes once again exchanged emotions. “Not like you. You somehow make me see them—or at least feel them. And I haven’t asked for much,” she added; “I’ve really just wanted to avoid worrying him.”
“Ah for that, so have I,” he said with encouraging assent; so that—as if she had answered everything—they were briefly sociable on it. It threw him back on his other thought, with which he took another turn; stopping again, however, presently with something of a glow. “You see Jim’s really immense. I think it will be Jim who’ll do it.”
“Ah, I feel the same way,” he said with supportive agreement; and just like that, as if she had said everything, they were briefly on the same page about it. It made him reflect on his other thought, which he explored further; but then he paused again, feeling somewhat inspired. “You see, Jim is really amazing. I think it will be Jim who makes it happen.”
She wondered. “Get hold of him?”
She thought, “Get in touch with him?”
“No—just the other thing. Counteract Sarah’s spell.” And he showed now, our friend, how far he had worked it out. “Jim’s intensely cynical.”
“No—just the opposite. Break Sarah’s spell.” And he revealed now, our friend, how much he had figured it out. “Jim’s really cynical.”
“Oh dear Jim!” Madame de Vionnet vaguely smiled.
“Oh dear Jim!” Madame de Vionnet said with a faint smile.
“Yes, literally—dear Jim! He’s awful. What he wants, heaven forgive him, is to help us.”
“Yes, seriously—dear Jim! He’s terrible. What he wants, heaven help him, is to assist us.”
“You mean”—she was eager—“help me?”
“You mean”—she was eager—“help me?”
“Well, Chad and me in the first place. But he throws you in too, though without as yet seeing you much. Only, so far as he does see you—if you don’t mind—he sees you as awful.”
“Well, Chad and I, first of all. But he includes you too, even though he hasn’t really seen you much yet. Only, as far as he does see you—if you don’t mind me saying—he thinks you’re terrible.”
“‘Awful’?”—she wanted it all.
“‘Awful’?”—she wanted everything.
“A regular bad one—though of course of a tremendously superior kind. Dreadful, delightful, irresistible.”
“A typical bad one—though definitely of a much better kind. Terrible, amazing, impossible to resist.”
“Ah dear Jim! I should like to know him. I must.”
“Ah, dear Jim! I would really like to know him. I must.”
“Yes, naturally. But will it do? You may, you know,” Strether suggested, “disappoint him.”
“Yes, of course. But will it be enough? You might, you know,” Strether suggested, “let him down.”
She was droll and humble about it. “I can but try. But my wickedness then,” she went on, “is my recommendation for him?”
She was witty and modest about it. “I can only try. But is my mischief then,” she continued, “what qualifies me for him?”
“Your wickedness and the charms with which, in such a degree as yours, he associates it. He understands, you see, that Chad and I have above all wanted to have a good time, and his view is simple and sharp. Nothing will persuade him—in the light, that is, of my behaviour—that I really didn’t, quite as much as Chad, come over to have one before it was too late. He wouldn’t have expected it of me; but men of my age, at Woollett—and especially the least likely ones—have been noted as liable to strange outbreaks, belated uncanny clutches at the unusual, the ideal. It’s an effect that a lifetime of Woollett has quite been observed as having; and I thus give it to you, in Jim’s view, for what it’s worth. Now his wife and his mother-in-law,” Strether continued to explain, “have, as in honour bound, no patience with such phenomena, late or early—which puts Jim, as against his relatives, on the other side. Besides,” he added, “I don’t think he really wants Chad back. If Chad doesn’t come—”
“Your wickedness and the allure that you associate it with. He understands, you see, that Chad and I mainly wanted to have a good time, and his perspective is simple and clear. Nothing will convince him—in light of my behavior—that I genuinely didn’t come over to enjoy myself just as much as Chad before it was too late. He wouldn’t have expected it from me; but guys my age, in Woollett—and especially the least likely ones—have been known for having strange outbursts, unexpected cravings for the unusual, the ideal. It’s something that a lifetime in Woollett has been observed to cause; and I share it with you, from Jim’s perspective, for what it’s worth. Now his wife and mother-in-law,” Strether continued to explain, “have, as a matter of honor, no patience for such phenomena, whether early or late—which puts Jim, in contrast to his relatives, on the opposite side. Besides,” he added, “I don’t think he really wants Chad back. If Chad doesn’t come—”
“He’ll have”—Madame de Vionnet quite apprehended—“more of the free hand?”
“He’ll have”—Madame de Vionnet understood—“more freedom?”
“Well, Chad’s the bigger man.”
“Well, Chad’s the bigger person.”
“So he’ll work now, en dessous, to keep him quiet?”
“So he’ll work now, behind the scenes, to keep him quiet?”
“No—he won’t ‘work’ at all, and he won’t do anything en dessous. He’s very decent and won’t be a traitor in the camp. But he’ll be amused with his own little view of our duplicity, he’ll sniff up what he supposes to be Paris from morning till night, and he’ll be, as to the rest, for Chad—well, just what he is.”
“No—he won’t ‘work’ at all, and he won’t do anything en dessous. He’s really decent and won’t be a traitor in the group. But he’ll find his own little take on our dishonesty entertaining, he’ll sniff out what he thinks is Paris from morning till night, and as for the rest, for Chad—well, he’ll just be exactly what he is.”
She thought it over. “A warning?”
She thought about it. “A warning?”
He met it almost with glee. “You are as wonderful as everybody says!” And then to explain all he meant: “I drove him about for his first hour, and do you know what—all beautifully unconscious—he most put before me? Why that something like that is at bottom, as an improvement to his present state, as in fact the real redemption of it, what they think it may not be too late to make of our friend.” With which, as, taking it in, she seemed, in her recurrent alarm, bravely to gaze at the possibility, he completed his statement. “But it is too late. Thanks to you!”
He met it almost with excitement. “You are as amazing as everyone says!” And then to clarify what he meant: “I drove him around for his first hour, and do you know what—completely unaware—he most emphasized to me? That something like that is essentially, as an upgrade to his current state, in fact the real salvation of it, what they believe it may not be too late to make of our friend.” With this, as she processed it, seeming in her recurring concern to bravely consider the possibility, he finished his point. “But it is too late. Thanks to you!”
It drew from her again one of her indefinite reflexions. “Oh ‘me’—after all!”
It sparked another one of her vague thoughts. “Oh ‘me’—after all!”
He stood before her so exhilarated by his demonstration that he could fairly be jocular. “Everything’s comparative. You’re better than that.”
He stood in front of her, so thrilled by his demonstration that he could almost be joking. “Everything’s relative. You’re better than that.”
“You”—she could but answer him—“are better than anything.” But she had another thought. “Will Mrs. Pocock come to me?”
“You”—she could only answer him—“are better than anything.” But she had another thought. “Will Mrs. Pocock come to me?”
“Oh yes—she’ll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend Waymarsh—her friend now—leaves her leisure.”
“Oh yes—she’ll do that. As soon, that is, as my friend Waymarsh—her friend now—leaves her free time.”
She showed an interest. “Is he so much her friend as that?”
She seemed curious. “Is he really that good of a friend to her?”
“Why, didn’t you see it all at the hotel?”
“Why, didn’t you see everything at the hotel?”
“Oh”—she was amused—“‘all’ is a good deal to say. I don’t know—I forget. I lost myself in her.”
“Oh”—she chuckled—“‘all’ is quite a lot to claim. I don’t know—I can’t recall. I lost myself in her.”
“You were splendid,” Strether returned—“but ‘all’ isn’t a good deal to say: it’s only a little. Yet it’s charming so far as it goes. She wants a man to herself.”
“You were wonderful,” Strether replied—“but ‘all’ isn’t much to say: it’s just a little. Still, it’s lovely as far as it goes. She wants a man just for herself.”
“And hasn’t she got you?”
“And doesn’t she have you?”
“Do you think she looked at me—or even at you—as if she had?” Strether easily dismissed that irony. “Every one, you see, must strike her as having somebody. You’ve got Chad—and Chad has got you.”
“Do you think she looked at me—or even at you—as if she had?” Strether easily brushed off that irony. “Everyone, you see, must seem to her like they have someone. You’ve got Chad—and Chad has got you.”
“I see”—she made of it what she could. “And you’ve got Maria.”
“I see”—she interpreted it as best as she could. “And you have Maria.”
Well, he on his side accepted that. “I’ve got Maria. And Maria has got me. So it goes.”
Well, he accepted that. “I’ve got Maria. And Maria has me. So it goes.”
“But Mr. Jim—whom has he got?”
“But Mr. Jim—who does he have?”
“Oh he has got—or it’s as if he had—the whole place.”
“Oh, he's got—or it's like he has—the whole place.”
“But for Mr. Waymarsh”—she recalled—“isn’t Miss Barrace before any one else?”
“But what about Mr. Waymarsh”—she remembered—“isn’t Miss Barrace ahead of everyone else?”
He shook his head. “Miss Barrace is a raffinée, and her amusement won’t lose by Mrs. Pocock. It will gain rather—especially if Sarah triumphs and she comes in for a view of it.”
He shook his head. “Miss Barrace is a raffinée, and her enjoyment won’t take away from Mrs. Pocock. It will actually increase—especially if Sarah wins and she gets to see it.”
“How well you know us!” Madame de Vionnet, at this, frankly sighed.
“How well you know us!” Madame de Vionnet sighed, clearly.
“No—it seems to me it’s we that I know. I know Sarah—it’s perhaps on that ground only that my feet are firm. Waymarsh will take her round while Chad takes Jim—and I shall be, I assure you, delighted for both of them. Sarah will have had what she requires—she will have paid her tribute to the ideal; and he will have done about the same. In Paris it’s in the air—so what can one do less? If there’s a point that, beyond any other, Sarah wants to make, it’s that she didn’t come out to be narrow. We shall feel at least that.”
“No—it seems to me it’s us that I know. I know Sarah—it’s maybe on that basis only that I feel secure. Waymarsh will take her around while Chad takes Jim—and I’ll be, I promise you, thrilled for both of them. Sarah will have gotten what she needs—she will have paid her respect to the ideal; and he will have done pretty much the same. In Paris, it’s in the air—so what can you do but follow along? If there’s one thing Sarah really wants to convey, it’s that she didn’t come out to be limited. We’ll at least feel that.”
“Oh,” she sighed, “the quantity we seem likely to ‘feel’! But what becomes, in these conditions, of the girl?”
“Oh,” she sighed, “the amount we’re likely to ‘feel’! But what happens to the girl in these circumstances?”
“Of Mamie—if we’re all provided? Ah for that,” said Strether, “you can trust Chad.”
“About Mamie—if we’re all set? Ah for that,” said Strether, “you can count on Chad.”
“To be, you mean, all right to her?”
“To be, you mean, okay with her?”
“To pay her every attention as soon as he has polished off Jim. He wants what Jim can give him—and what Jim really won’t—though he has had it all, and more than all, from me. He wants in short his own personal impression, and he’ll get it—strong. But as soon as he has got it Mamie won’t suffer.”
“To give her all his attention as soon as he’s taken care of Jim. He wants what Jim can offer him—and what Jim really won’t—though he’s had it all, and more, from me. He wants, simply put, his own personal impression, and he’ll get it—strong. But as soon as he has it, Mamie won’t put up with it.”
“Oh Mamie mustn’t suffer!” Madame de Vionnet soothingly emphasised.
“Oh Mamie mustn’t suffer!” Madame de Vionnet soothingly emphasized.
But Strether could reassure her. “Don’t fear. As soon as he has done with Jim, Jim will fall to me. And then you’ll see.”
But Strether could reassure her. “Don’t worry. Once he’s done with Jim, Jim will come to me. And then you’ll see.”
It was as if in a moment she saw already; yet she still waited. Then “Is she really quite charming?” she asked.
It was like she saw it all in an instant; yet she still waited. Then she asked, “Is she really that charming?”
He had got up with his last words and gathered in his hat and gloves. “I don’t know; I’m watching. I’m studying the case, as it were—and I dare say I shall be able to tell you.”
He got up with his last words and put on his hat and gloves. “I don’t know; I’m keeping an eye on things. I’m looking into the case, so to speak—and I think I’ll be able to tell you.”
She wondered. “Is it a case?”
She wondered, “Is it a case?”
“Yes—I think so. At any rate I shall see.’
“Yes—I think so. Anyway, I’ll check.”
“But haven’t you known her before?”
"But haven't you met her before?"
“Yes,” he smiled—“but somehow at home she wasn’t a case. She has become one since.” It was as if he made it out for himself. “She has become one here.”
“Yes,” he smiled—“but somehow at home she wasn’t a situation. She’s become one since.” It was as if he created it for himself. “She’s become one here.”
“So very very soon?”
"Really soon?"
He measured it, laughing. “Not sooner than I did.”
He measured it, laughing. “Not before I did.”
“And you became one—?”
“And you became one—?”
“Very very soon. The day I arrived.”
“Very, very soon. The day I got here.”
Her intelligent eyes showed her thought of it. “Ah but the day you arrived you met Maria. Whom has Miss Pocock met?”
Her intelligent eyes revealed what she was thinking. “Oh, but on the day you arrived, you met Maria. Who has Miss Pocock met?”
He paused again, but he brought it out. “Hasn’t she met Chad?”
He paused again, but then he asked, “Hasn’t she met Chad?”
“Certainly—but not for the first time. He’s an old friend.” At which Strether had a slow amused significant headshake that made her go on: “You mean that for her at least he’s a new person—that she sees him as different?”
“Sure—but not for the first time. He’s an old friend.” At this, Strether gave a slow, amused, meaningful head shake that prompted her to continue: “You mean that for her at least he’s a new person—that she sees him as different?”
“She sees him as different.”
"She views him as different."
“And how does she see him?”
“And how does she see him?”
Strether gave it up. “How can one tell how a deep little girl sees a deep young man?”
Strether let it go. “How can anyone know how a thoughtful young girl perceives a thoughtful young man?”
“Is every one so deep? Is she too?”
“Is everyone so deep? Is she too?”
“So it strikes me deeper than I thought. But wait a little—between us we’ll make it out. You’ll judge for that matter yourself.”
“So it hits me harder than I expected. But hold on a bit—we’ll figure it out together. You’ll see for yourself.”
Madame de Vionnet looked for the moment fairly bent on the chance. “Then she will come with her?—I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?”
Madame de Vionnet seemed pretty set on the idea for the moment. “So she will come with her?—I mean Mamie with Mrs. Pocock?”
“Certainly. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will in any case work that. But leave it all to Chad.”
“Sure. Her curiosity, if nothing else, will definitely take care of that. But let Chad handle it all.”
“Ah,” wailed Madame de Vionnet, turning away a little wearily, “the things I leave to Chad!”
“Ah,” said Madame de Vionnet, turning away a bit tiredly, “the things I leave to Chad!”
The tone of it made him look at her with a kindness that showed his vision of her suspense. But he fell back on his confidence. “Oh well—trust him. Trust him all the way.” He had indeed no sooner so spoken than the queer displacement of his point of view appeared again to come up for him in the very sound, which drew from him a short laugh, immediately checked. He became still more advisory. “When they do come give them plenty of Miss Jeanne. Let Mamie see her well.”
The tone made him look at her with a kindness that reflected his understanding of her anxiety. But he relied on his confidence. “Oh well—trust him. Trust him completely.” No sooner had he said this than the strange shift in his perspective seemed to emerge again in the very sound of his voice, causing him to let out a brief laugh, which he quickly stifled. He became even more encouraging. “When they do arrive, make sure to give them plenty of Miss Jeanne. Let Mamie see her properly.”
She looked for a moment as if she placed them face to face. “For Mamie to hate her?”
She paused for a moment as if she were imagining them confronting each other. “For Mamie to hate her?”
He had another of his corrective headshakes. “Mamie won’t. Trust them.”
He shook his head again in a corrective way. “Mamie won’t. Trust them.”
She looked at him hard, and then as if it were what she must always come back to: “It’s you I trust. But I was sincere,” she said, “at the hotel. I did, I do, want my child—”
She stared at him intently, then, as if returning to something she always needed to say: “It’s you I trust. But I was being honest,” she said, “at the hotel. I did, I do, want my child—”
“Well?”—Strether waited with deference while she appeared to hesitate as to how to put it.
“Well?”—Strether waited politely as she seemed to pause, figuring out how to express it.
“Well, to do what she can for me.”
"Well, she'll do what she can to help me."
Strether for a little met her eyes on it; after which something that might have been unexpected to her came from him. “Poor little duck!”
Strether glanced at her for a moment; then something that might have been surprising to her came from him. “Poor little duck!”
Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo of it. “Poor little duck! But she immensely wants herself,” she said, “to see our friend’s cousin.”
Not more expected for himself indeed might well have been her echo of it. “Poor little duck! But she really wants to see our friend’s cousin,” she said.
“Is that what she thinks her?”
“Is that what she thinks of her?”
“It’s what we call the young lady.”
“It’s what we call the young woman.”
He thought again; then with a laugh: “Well, your daughter will help you.”
He thought for a moment, then laughed and said, “Well, your daughter will help you.”
And now at last he took leave of her, as he had been intending for five minutes. But she went part of the way with him, accompanying him out of the room and into the next and the next. Her noble old apartment offered a succession of three, the first two of which indeed, on entering, smaller than the last, but each with its faded and formal air, enlarged the office of the antechamber and enriched the sense of approach. Strether fancied them, liked them, and, passing through them with her more slowly now, met a sharp renewal of his original impression. He stopped, he looked back; the whole thing made a vista, which he found high melancholy and sweet—full, once more, of dim historic shades, of the faint faraway cannon-roar of the great Empire. It was doubtless half the projection of his mind, but his mind was a thing that, among old waxed parquets, pale shades of pink and green, pseudo-classic candelabra, he had always needfully to reckon with. They could easily make him irrelevant. The oddity, the originality, the poetry—he didn’t know what to call it—of Chad’s connexion reaffirmed for him its romantic side. “They ought to see this, you know. They must.”
And finally he said goodbye to her, as he had been planning to for five minutes. But she walked part of the way with him, showing him out of the room and into the next and the next. Her elegant old apartment comprised a series of three rooms, the first two of which were indeed smaller than the last, but each with its faded, formal charm enhanced the antechamber's feel and enriched the sense of arrival. Strether appreciated them, enjoyed them, and as he passed through them with her more slowly, he felt a sharp renewal of his initial impression. He paused, looked back; the whole scene created a vista that he found both deeply melancholic and sweet—filled once again with dim historic echoes, the faint distant roar of the great Empire. It was probably partly a projection of his imagination, but his mind was something he always had to consider among the old polished floors, the pale shades of pink and green, and the faux-classic candelabras. They could easily render him insignificant. The strangeness, the uniqueness, the poetry—he didn’t know what to call it—of Chad’s connection reaffirmed its romantic side for him. “They should see this, you know. They have to.”
“The Pococks?”—she looked about in deprecation; she seemed to see gaps he didn’t.
“The Pococks?”—she glanced around in disapproval; she seemed to notice gaps that he didn’t.
“Mamie and Sarah—Mamie in particular.”
“Mamie and Sarah—especially Mamie.”
“My shabby old place? But their things—!”
“My messy old place? But their stuff—!”
“Oh their things! You were talking of what will do something for you—”
“Oh, their things! You were saying what will do something for you—”
“So that it strikes you,” she broke in, “that my poor place may? Oh,” she ruefully mused, “that would be desperate!”
“So that it hits you,” she interrupted, “that my poor place might? Oh,” she said with a hint of sadness, “that would be awful!”
“Do you know what I wish?” he went on. “I wish Mrs. Newsome herself could have a look.”
“Do you know what I wish?” he continued. “I wish Mrs. Newsome herself could take a look.”
She stared, missing a little his logic. “It would make a difference?”
She stared, a bit puzzled by his reasoning. “Would it really make a difference?”
Her tone was so earnest that as he continued to look about he laughed. “It might!”
Her tone was so sincere that as he kept looking around, he laughed. “It could happen!”
“But you’ve told her, you tell me—”
“But you’ve told her, you tell me—”
“All about you? Yes, a wonderful story. But there’s all the indescribable—what one gets only on the spot.”
“All about you? Yes, a great story. But there’s all the indescribable—what you can only experience in the moment.”
“Thank you!” she charmingly and sadly smiled.
“Thank you!” she smiled, both charmingly and sadly.
“It’s all about me here,” he freely continued. “Mrs. Newsome feels things.”
“Everything revolves around me here,” he continued without hesitation. “Mrs. Newsome is in touch with her emotions.”
But she seemed doomed always to come back to doubt. “No one feels so much as you. No—not any one.”
But she always seemed stuck in doubt. “No one feels as much as you. No—absolutely no one.”
“So much the worse then for every one. It’s very easy.”
“So much the worse for everyone then. It’s really easy.”
They were by this time in the antechamber, still alone together, as she hadn’t rung for a servant. The antechamber was high and square, grave and suggestive too, a little cold and slippery even in summer, and with a few old prints that were precious, Strether divined, on the walls. He stood in the middle, slightly lingering, vaguely directing his glasses, while, leaning against the door-post of the room, she gently pressed her cheek to the side of the recess. “You would have been a friend.”
They were now in the antechamber, still alone together, since she hadn’t called for a servant. The antechamber was tall and square, serious yet somewhat inviting, a bit cold and slippery even in summer, with a few old prints on the walls that Strether sensed were valuable. He stood in the center, lingering a bit, vaguely adjusting his glasses, while she leaned against the doorframe, gently pressing her cheek against the side of the opening. “You would have been a friend.”
“I?”—it startled him a little.
“I?”—it surprised him a bit.
“For the reason you say. You’re not stupid.” And then abruptly, as if bringing it out were somehow founded on that fact: “We’re marrying Jeanne.”
“For the reason you mentioned. You’re not stupid.” And then abruptly, as if saying it were somehow based on that fact: “We’re marrying Jeanne.”
It affected him on the spot as a move in a game, and he was even then not without the sense that that wasn’t the way Jeanne should be married. But he quickly showed his interest, though—as quickly afterwards struck him—with an absurd confusion of mind. “‘You’? You and—a—not Chad?” Of course it was the child’s father who made the ‘we,’ but to the child’s father it would have cost him an effort to allude. Yet didn’t it seem the next minute that Monsieur de Vionnet was after all not in question?—since she had gone on to say that it was indeed to Chad she referred and that he had been in the whole matter kindness itself.
It hit him instantly like a move in a game, and even then, he realized that’s not how Jeanne should get married. But he quickly showed his interest, although he soon felt oddly confused about it. “‘You’? You and—not Chad?” Obviously, it was the child's father who made the ‘we,’ but it would have taken him some effort to bring it up. Yet didn’t it seem that the next moment Monsieur de Vionnet wasn’t really part of the conversation?—since she continued to say that she was indeed talking about Chad and that he had been nothing but kind in the whole situation.
“If I must tell you all, it is he himself who has put us in the way. I mean in the way of an opportunity that, so far as I can yet see, is all I could possibly have dreamed of. For all the trouble Monsieur de Vionnet will ever take!” It was the first time she had spoken to him of her husband, and he couldn’t have expressed how much more intimate with her it suddenly made him feel. It wasn’t much, in truth—there were other things in what she was saying that were far more; but it was as if, while they stood there together so easily in these cold chambers of the past, the single touch had shown the reach of her confidence. “But our friend,” she asked, “hasn’t then told you?”
“If I have to be honest, it’s actually him who has set this up for us. I mean, he’s given us an opportunity that, from what I can see so far, is everything I could have ever dreamed of. For all the hassle Monsieur de Vionnet will ever go through!” This was the first time she had mentioned her husband to him, and he couldn’t describe how much closer it suddenly made him feel to her. It wasn’t much, really—there were other aspects of what she was saying that mattered more; but it was as if, while they stood together so comfortably in these chilly rooms of the past, that one mention had revealed how much she trusted him. “But our friend,” she asked, “hasn’t he told you?”
“He has told me nothing.”
“He hasn't told me anything.”
“Well, it has come with rather a rush—all in a very few days; and hasn’t moreover yet taken a form that permits an announcement. It’s only for you—absolutely you alone—that I speak; I so want you to know.” The sense he had so often had, since the first hour of his disembarkment, of being further and further “in,” treated him again at this moment to another twinge; but in this wonderful way of her putting him in there continued to be something exquisitely remorseless. “Monsieur de Vionnet will accept what he must accept. He has proposed half a dozen things—each one more impossible than the other; and he wouldn’t have found this if he lives to a hundred. Chad found it,” she continued with her lighted, faintly flushed, her conscious confidential face, “in the quietest way in the world. Or rather it found him—for everything finds him; I mean finds him right. You’ll think we do such things strangely—but at my age,” she smiled, “one has to accept one’s conditions. Our young man’s people had seen her; one of his sisters, a charming woman—we know all about them—had observed her somewhere with me. She had spoken to her brother—turned him on; and we were again observed, poor Jeanne and I, without our in the least knowing it. It was at the beginning of the winter; it went on for some time; it outlasted our absence; it began again on our return; and it luckily seems all right. The young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to approach him—as having a decent interest in us. Mr. Newsome looked well before he leaped; he kept beautifully quiet and satisfied himself fully; then only he spoke. It’s what has for some time past occupied us. It seems as if it were what would do; really, really all one could wish. There are only two or three points to be settled—they depend on her father. But this time I think we’re safe.”
“Well, it all happened pretty quickly—all within just a few days; and it still hasn’t turned into something that we can announce. This is just for you—only you—that I’m speaking to; I really want you to know.” The feeling he had often experienced, since the moment he arrived, of being deeper and deeper “in,” hit him again at this moment with a slight ache; but in the wonderful way she included him, there remained something beautifully relentless. “Monsieur de Vionnet will accept what he must accept. He has suggested half a dozen options—each one more impossible than the last; and he wouldn’t have discovered this if he lived to a hundred. Chad found it,” she continued, with her lively, slightly flushed, consciously secretive expression, “in the most unassuming way possible. Or rather it found him—because everything finds him; I mean finds him in the right way. You might think we do things strangely—but at my age,” she smiled, “you have to accept your circumstances. Our young man's family had seen her; one of his sisters, a lovely woman—we know all about them—had noticed her somewhere with me. She had mentioned it to her brother—pointed him in that direction; and we were again observed, poor Jeanne and I, without even realizing it. It was at the start of winter; it continued for some time; it lasted beyond our absence; it picked up again when we returned; and fortunately, it seems to be all good. The young man had met Chad, and he got a friend to approach him—pretending to have a genuine interest in us. Mr. Newsome made sure to look before he leaped; he stayed completely quiet and made sure he was fully satisfied; then he finally spoke. This is what has occupied us for a while. It seems like this is what will work; really, truly everything one could wish for. There are only two or three points to sort out—they depend on her father. But this time, I think we’re in a good place.”
Strether, consciously gaping a little, had fairly hung upon her lips. “I hope so with all my heart.” And then he permitted himself: “Does nothing depend on her?”
Strether, openly staring a bit, was completely focused on her words. “I truly hope so.” Then he allowed himself to ask, “Does anything depend on her?”
“Ah naturally; everything did. But she’s pleased comme tout. She has been perfectly free; and he—our young friend—is really a combination. I quite adore him.”
“Of course; everything did. But she’s pleased comme tout. She has been completely free; and he—our young friend—is truly a mix. I really adore him.”
Strether just made sure. “You mean your future son-in-law?”
Strether just double-checked. “You’re talking about your future son-in-law?”
“Future if we all bring it off.”
“Future if we all make it happen.”
“Ah well,” said Strether decorously, “I heartily hope you may.” There seemed little else for him to say, though her communication had the oddest effect on him. Vaguely and confusedly he was troubled by it; feeling as if he had even himself been concerned in something deep and dim. He had allowed for depths, but these were greater: and it was as if, oppressively—indeed absurdly—he was responsible for what they had now thrown up to the surface. It was—through something ancient and cold in it—what he would have called the real thing. In short his hostess’s news, though he couldn’t have explained why, was a sensible shock, and his oppression a weight he felt he must somehow or other immediately get rid of. There were too many connexions missing to make it tolerable he should do anything else. He was prepared to suffer—before his own inner tribunal—for Chad; he was prepared to suffer even for Madame de Vionnet. But he wasn’t prepared to suffer for the little girl. So now having said the proper thing, he wanted to get away. She held him an instant, however, with another appeal.
“Ah well,” said Strether politely, “I really hope you do.” There didn’t seem to be much else for him to say, even though her message had the strangest effect on him. He felt vaguely and confusedly troubled by it, as if he had personally been involved in something deep and unclear. He had expected depth, but this was even deeper: it felt as though, oppressively—indeed, absurdly—he was accountable for what had just come to light. It was—through something ancient and cold in it—what he would have called the real deal. In short, his hostess’s news was, for reasons he couldn't quite articulate, a jarring shock, and the pressure he felt was something he needed to shake off immediately. There were too many connections missing for him to feel okay doing anything else. He was ready to suffer—before his own conscience—for Chad; he was even ready to suffer for Madame de Vionnet. But he wasn’t ready to suffer for the little girl. So now that he had said the right thing, he wanted to leave. She held him for a moment, though, with another appeal.
“Do I seem to you very awful?”
“Do I seem really terrible to you?”
“Awful? Why so?” But he called it to himself, even as he spoke, his biggest insincerity yet.
“Awful? Why’s that?” But he thought to himself, even as he said it, that it was his biggest insincerity yet.
“Our arrangements are so different from yours.”
“Our plans are so different from yours.”
“Mine?” Oh he could dismiss that too! “I haven’t any arrangements.”
“Mine?” Oh, he could brush that off as well! “I don’t have any plans.”
“Then you must accept mine; all the more that they’re excellent. They’re founded on a vieille sagesse. There will be much more, if all goes well, for you to hear and to know, and everything, believe me, for you to like. Don’t be afraid; you’ll be satisfied.” Thus she could talk to him of what, of her innermost life—for that was what it came to—he must “accept”; thus she could extraordinarily speak as if in such an affair his being satisfied had an importance. It was all a wonder and made the whole case larger. He had struck himself at the hotel, before Sarah and Waymarsh, as being in her boat; but where on earth was he now? This question was in the air till her own lips quenched it with another. “And do you suppose he—who loves her so—would do anything reckless or cruel?”
“Then you must accept mine; especially since they’re excellent. They’re based on a vieille sagesse. There will be much more for you to hear and know if all goes well, and everything, believe me, for you to like. Don’t worry; you’ll be satisfied.” This way, she could talk to him about what he had to “accept” regarding her innermost life—that was really what it boiled down to. She could surprisingly speak as if his satisfaction mattered in such a situation. It was all a wonder and made the situation feel bigger. He had considered himself, at the hotel, in her company before Sarah and Waymarsh; but where on earth was he now? This question hung in the air until her own lips answered it with another. “And do you really think he—who loves her so—would do anything reckless or cruel?”
He wondered what he supposed. “Do you mean your young man—?”
He wondered what he was supposed to say. “Are you talking about your boyfriend—?”
“I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome.” It flashed for Strether the next moment a finer light, and the light deepened as she went on. “He takes, thank God, the truest tenderest interest in her.”
“I mean yours. I mean Mr. Newsome.” In that instant, a brighter understanding struck Strether, and it grew more intense as she continued. “He genuinely cares for her, thank God, in the most sincere and compassionate way.”
It deepened indeed. “Oh I’m sure of that!”
It really did deepen. “Oh, I'm definitely sure of that!”
“You were talking,” she said, “about one’s trusting him. You see then how I do.”
“You were talking,” she said, “about trusting someone. So you can see how I do.”
He waited a moment—it all came. “I see—I see.” He felt he really did see.
He paused for a moment—everything clicked. “I get it—I get it.” He felt like he truly understood.
“He wouldn’t hurt her for the world, nor—assuming she marries at all—risk anything that might make against her happiness. And—willingly, at least—he would never hurt me.”
“He wouldn’t hurt her for anything, nor—if she even gets married—risk anything that could affect her happiness. And—at least not intentionally—he would never hurt me.”
Her face, with what he had by this time grasped, told him more than her words; whether something had come into it, or whether he only read clearer, her whole story—what at least he then took for such—reached out to him from it. With the initiative she now attributed to Chad it all made a sense, and this sense—a light, a lead, was what had abruptly risen before him. He wanted, once more, to get off with these things; which was at last made easy, a servant having, for his assistance, on hearing voices in the hall, just come forward. All that Strether had made out was, while the man opened the door and impersonally waited, summed up in his last word. “I don’t think, you know, Chad will tell me anything.”
Her face, which he had come to understand by this point, conveyed more than her words; whether something had changed in her expression or he was just reading it more clearly, her entire story—at least what he believed to be her story—seemed to reach out to him. With the initiative she now linked to Chad, everything suddenly made sense, and this sense—a clarity, a direction—was what had suddenly appeared before him. He wanted, once again, to step away from these matters; and he was finally able to do so, as a servant had just come forward to help him upon hearing voices in the hall. All that Strether had figured out was, as the man opened the door and stood there patiently, summed up in his final remark. “I don’t think, you know, Chad will tell me anything.”
“No—perhaps not yet.”
“No—maybe not yet.”
“And I won’t as yet speak to him.”
“And I still won’t talk to him.”
“Ah that’s as you’ll think best. You must judge.”
“Sure, it’s up to you. You need to decide.”
She had finally given him her hand, which he held a moment. “How much I have to judge!”
She had finally given him her hand, which he held for a moment. “How much I have to judge!”
“Everything,” said Madame de Vionnet: a remark that was indeed—with the refined disguised suppressed passion of her face—what he most carried away.
“Everything,” said Madame de Vionnet, a remark that really was—given the subtle, concealed passion on her face—what he remembered most.
II
So far as a direct approach was concerned Sarah had neglected him, for the week now about to end, with a civil consistency of chill that, giving him a higher idea of her social resource, threw him back on the general reflexion that a woman could always be amazing. It indeed helped a little to console him that he felt sure she had for the same period also left Chad’s curiosity hanging; though on the other hand, for his personal relief, Chad could at least go through the various motions—and he made them extraordinarily numerous—of seeing she had a good time. There wasn’t a motion on which, in her presence, poor Strether could so much as venture, and all he could do when he was out of it was to walk over for a talk with Maria. He walked over of course much less than usual, but he found a special compensation in a certain half-hour during which, toward the close of a crowded empty expensive day, his several companions seemed to him so disposed of as to give his forms and usages a rest. He had been with them in the morning and had nevertheless called on the Pococks in the afternoon; but their whole group, he then found, had dispersed after a fashion of which it would amuse Miss Gostrey to hear. He was sorry again, gratefully sorry she was so out of it—she who had really put him in; but she had fortunately always her appetite for news. The pure flame of the disinterested burned in her cave of treasures as a lamp in a Byzantine vault. It was just now, as happened, that for so fine a sense as hers a near view would have begun to pay. Within three days, precisely, the situation on which he was to report had shown signs of an equilibrium; the effect of his look in at the hotel was to confirm this appearance. If the equilibrium might only prevail! Sarah was out with Waymarsh, Mamie was out with Chad, and Jim was out alone. Later on indeed he himself was booked to Jim, was to take him that evening to the Varieties—which Strether was careful to pronounce as Jim pronounced them.
As far as a direct approach went, Sarah had been ignoring him for the week about to end, with a consistent coldness that, while giving him a greater appreciation of her social skills, reminded him that a woman could always be intriguing. It did provide him some consolation to know that she had also left Chad’s curiosity hanging during that time; still, for his own comfort, Chad could at least go through the many motions—and there were quite a few—of ensuring she was having a good time. There wasn’t a single action he could even attempt in her presence; all he could do when he was out of it was to head over for a chat with Maria. He went over much less than usual, but he found special relief in a brief half-hour when, at the end of a busy, empty, and expensive day, his various companions seemed to be arranged in a way that allowed him a break from their usual interactions. He had spent the morning with them but had still visited the Pococks in the afternoon; however, he discovered that their entire group had scattered in a way that Miss Gostrey would find amusing. He felt truly sorry—gratefully sorry—that she was so out of the loop—she who had really introduced him to it; but thankfully, she always had her appetite for news. The pure flame of disinterestedness flickered in her treasure cave like a lamp in a Byzantine vault. It was just now happening that, for someone with such a fine sense as hers, a closer look would have begun to pay off. In exactly three days, the situation he was to report on had shown signs of stabilizing; his visit to the hotel confirmed this appearance. If only the stability could last! Sarah was out with Waymarsh, Mamie was out with Chad, and Jim was out alone. Later on, he himself was scheduled to meet Jim, taking him that evening to the Varieties—which Strether made sure to pronounce the way Jim did.
Miss Gostrey drank it in. “What then to-night do the others do?”
Miss Gostrey took it all in. “So what are the others doing tonight?”
“Well, it has been arranged. Waymarsh takes Sarah to dine at Bignon’s.”
“Well, it’s all set. Waymarsh is taking Sarah out to dinner at Bignon’s.”
She wondered. “And what do they do after? They can’t come straight home.”
She wondered, “And what do they do afterward? They can’t just go straight home.”
“No, they can’t come straight home—at least Sarah can’t. It’s their secret, but I think I’ve guessed it.” Then as she waited: “The circus.”
“No, they can’t come straight home—at least Sarah can’t. It’s their secret, but I think I’ve figured it out.” Then as she waited: “The circus.”
It made her stare a moment longer, then laugh almost to extravagance. “There’s no one like you!”
It made her look for a moment longer, then laugh almost uncontrollably. “There’s no one like you!”
“Like me?”—he only wanted to understand.
“Like me?”—he just wanted to understand.
“Like all of you together—like all of us: Woollett, Milrose and their products. We’re abysmal—but may we never be less so! Mr. Newsome,” she continued, “meanwhile takes Miss Pocock—?”
“Like all of you combined—like all of us: Woollett, Milrose, and their products. We’re terrible—but let’s hope we never get any worse! Mr. Newsome,” she continued, “meanwhile takes Miss Pocock—?”
“Precisely—to the Français: to see what you took Waymarsh and me to, a family-bill.”
“Exactly—to the French: to see what you took Waymarsh and me to, a family bill.”
“Ah then may Mr. Chad enjoy it as I did!” But she saw so much in things. “Do they spend their evenings, your young people, like that, alone together?”
“Ah, then Mr. Chad can enjoy it like I did!” But she perceived so much in everything. “Do your young people spend their evenings like that, alone together?”
“Well, they’re young people—but they’re old friends.”
“Well, they’re young, but they’re old friends.”
“I see, I see. And do they dine—for a difference—at Brébant’s?”
“I see, I see. And do they eat—just for a change—at Brébant’s?”
“Oh where they dine is their secret too. But I’ve my idea that it will be, very quietly, at Chad’s own place.”
“Oh, where they eat is their secret as well. But I have a feeling it will be, very quietly, at Chad’s place.”
“She’ll come to him there alone?”
“She'll go to him there by herself?”
They looked at each other a moment. “He has known her from a child. Besides,” said Strether with emphasis, “Mamie’s remarkable. She’s splendid.”
They stared at each other for a moment. “He’s known her since she was a kid. Besides,” Strether said firmly, “Mamie’s amazing. She’s magnificent.”
She wondered. “Do you mean she expects to bring it off?”
She wondered, “Are you saying she thinks she can pull it off?”
“Getting hold of him? No—I think not.”
“Reaching him? No—I don’t think so.”
“She doesn’t want him enough?—or doesn’t believe in her power?” On which as he said nothing she continued: “She finds she doesn’t care for him?”
“She doesn’t want him enough?—or doesn’t believe in her own power?” When he didn’t respond, she went on: “She realizes she doesn’t care for him?”
“No—I think she finds she does. But that’s what I mean by so describing her. It’s if she does that she’s splendid. But we’ll see,” he wound up, “where she comes out.”
“No—I think she realizes she does. But that’s what I mean by describing her that way. It’s only if she does that she’s impressive. But we’ll see,” he concluded, “where she ends up.”
“You seem to show me sufficiently,” Miss Gostrey laughed, “where she goes in! But is her childhood’s friend,” she asked, “permitting himself recklessly to flirt with her?”
“You seem to show me enough,” Miss Gostrey laughed, “of where she goes in! But is her childhood friend,” she asked, “being reckless by flirting with her?”
“No—not that. Chad’s also splendid. They’re all splendid!” he declared with a sudden strange sound of wistfulness and envy. “They’re at least happy.”
“No—not that. Chad’s also great. They’re all great!” he said with a sudden, odd mix of longing and jealousy. “They’re at least happy.”
“Happy?”—it appeared, with their various difficulties, to surprise her.
“Happy?”—it seemed, with their various challenges, to catch her off guard.
“Well—I seem to myself among them the only one who isn’t.”
“Well—I feel like I'm the only one who isn’t.”
She demurred. “With your constant tribute to the ideal?”
She hesitated. “With your never-ending praise for the ideal?”
He had a laugh at his tribute to the ideal, but he explained after a moment his impression. “I mean they’re living. They’re rushing about. I’ve already had my rushing. I’m waiting.”
He chuckled at his tribute to the ideal, but after a moment, he explained his thoughts. “What I mean is, they’re alive. They’re busy running around. I’ve already done my running. I’m just waiting.”
“But aren’t you,” she asked by way of cheer, “waiting with me?”
“But aren’t you,” she asked cheerfully, “waiting with me?”
He looked at her in all kindness. “Yes—if it weren’t for that!”
He looked at her with all his kindness. “Yes—if it wasn't for that!”
“And you help me to wait,” she said. “However,” she went on, “I’ve really something for you that will help you to wait and which you shall have in a minute. Only there’s something more I want from you first. I revel in Sarah.”
“And you help me to wait,” she said. “But,” she continued, “I actually have something for you that will help you wait, and you’ll get it in a minute. Just one more thing I need from you first. I’m really into Sarah.”
“So do I. If it weren’t,” he again amusedly sighed, “for that—!”
“So do I. If it weren’t,” he sighed again with amusement, “for that—!”
“Well, you owe more to women than any man I ever saw. We do seem to keep you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be great.”
"Well, you owe more to women than any man I've ever seen. We definitely seem to keep you going. Yet Sarah, as I see her, must be amazing."
“She is” Strether fully assented: “great! Whatever happens, she won’t, with these unforgettable days, have lived in vain.”
“She is” Strether completely agreed: “great! No matter what happens, she won’t have lived in vain with these unforgettable days.”
Miss Gostrey had a pause. “You mean she has fallen in love?”
Miss Gostrey paused. “Are you saying she's in love?”
“I mean she wonders if she hasn’t—and it serves all her purpose.”
“I mean she wonders if she hasn’t—and it fulfills all her needs.”
“It has indeed,” Maria laughed, “served women’s purposes before!”
"It definitely has," Maria laughed, "served women’s purposes before!"
“Yes—for giving in. But I doubt if the idea—as an idea—has ever up to now answered so well for holding out. That’s her tribute to the ideal—we each have our own. It’s her romance—and it seems to me better on the whole than mine. To have it in Paris too,” he explained—“on this classic ground, in this charged infectious air, with so sudden an intensity: well, it’s more than she expected. She has had in short to recognise the breaking out for her of a real affinity—and with everything to enhance the drama.”
“Yes—for giving in. But I doubt the idea—as an idea—has ever really worked so well for holding out until now. That’s her tribute to the ideal—we each have our own. It’s her romance—and it feels to me better overall than mine. Having it in Paris too,” he explained—“on this classic ground, in this electrifying air, with such sudden intensity: well, it’s more than she expected. She has had to realize, in short, that a real connection has emerged for her—and with everything to heighten the drama.”
Miss Gostrey followed. “Jim for instance?”
Miss Gostrey followed. “What about Jim, for example?”
“Jim. Jim hugely enhances. Jim was made to enhance. And then Mr. Waymarsh. It’s the crowning touch—it supplies the colour. He’s positively separated.”
“Jim. Jim really boosts things. Jim was meant to elevate. And then there’s Mr. Waymarsh. It’s the finishing touch—it adds the flair. He’s definitely set apart.”
“And she herself unfortunately isn’t—that supplies the colour too.” Miss Gostrey was all there. But somehow—! “Is he in love?”
“And she herself unfortunately isn’t—that adds the color too.” Miss Gostrey was fully present. But somehow—! “Is he in love?”
Strether looked at her a long time; then looked all about the room; then came a little nearer. “Will you never tell any one in the world as long as ever you live?”
Strether stared at her for a long time, then scanned the entire room, and stepped a bit closer. “Will you ever tell anyone in the world for as long as you live?”
“Never.” It was charming.
"Never." It was captivating.
“He thinks Sarah really is. But he has no fear,” Strether hastened to add.
“He truly believes Sarah is. But he isn’t scared,” Strether quickly added.
“Of her being affected by it?”
“About her being impacted by it?”
“Of his being. He likes it, but he knows she can hold out. He’s helping her, he’s floating her over, by kindness.”
“Of his being. He enjoys it, but he knows she can resist. He’s supporting her, he’s lifting her up, through kindness.”
Maria rather funnily considered it. “Floating her over in champagne? The kindness of dining her, nose to nose, at the hour when all Paris is crowding to profane delights, and in the—well, in the great temple, as one hears of it, of pleasure?”
Maria found it quite amusing. “Carrying her off in champagne? The nice gesture of having dinner with her, face to face, at the time when everyone in Paris is rushing to enjoy their guilty pleasures, and in the—well, in the famous temple, as they say, of pleasure?”
“That’s just it, for both of them,” Strether insisted—“and all of a supreme innocence. The Parisian place, the feverish hour, the putting before her of a hundred francs’ worth of food and drink, which they’ll scarcely touch—all that’s the dear man’s own romance; the expensive kind, expensive in francs and centimes, in which he abounds. And the circus afterwards—which is cheaper, but which he’ll find some means of making as dear as possible—that’s also his tribute to the ideal. It does for him. He’ll see her through. They won’t talk of anything worse than you and me.”
"That's just it, for both of them," Strether insisted—"and all with a total innocence. The Parisian setting, the hectic hour, the offering of a hundred francs' worth of food and drinks that they'll barely touch—all that's the dear man's own romance; the high-end kind, costly in francs and centimes, which he's full of. And then the circus afterward—which is cheaper, but he'll find a way to make it as expensive as possible—that's also his tribute to the ideal. It works for him. He'll get through to her. They won't talk about anything worse than you and me."
“Well, we’re bad enough perhaps, thank heaven,” she laughed, “to upset them! Mr. Waymarsh at any rate is a hideous old coquette.” And the next moment she had dropped everything for a different pursuit. “What you don’t appear to know is that Jeanne de Vionnet has become engaged. She’s to marry—it has been definitely arranged—young Monsieur de Montbron.”
“Well, we might be bad enough, thank goodness,” she laughed, “to annoy them! Mr. Waymarsh, at least, is a terrible old flirt.” And in the next moment, she had put everything aside for something else. “What you don’t seem to realize is that Jeanne de Vionnet is now engaged. She’s set to marry—it’s officially arranged—young Monsieur de Montbron.”
He fairly blushed. “Then—if you know it—it’s ‘out’?”
He blushed a bit. “So—if you know it—it’s ‘out’?”
“Don’t I often know things that are not out? However,” she said, “this will be out to-morrow. But I see I’ve counted too much on your possible ignorance. You’ve been before me, and I don’t make you jump as I hoped.”
“Don’t I often know things that aren’t known? However,” she said, “this will be known tomorrow. But I realize I’ve relied too much on your potential ignorance. You’ve been ahead of me, and I don’t surprise you like I hoped.”
He gave a gasp at her insight. “You never fail! I’ve had my jump. I had it when I first heard.”
He gasped at her insight. “You never miss! I’ve had my jump. I felt it the moment I heard.”
“Then if you knew why didn’t you tell me as soon as you came in?”
“Then if you knew, why didn’t you tell me as soon as you got here?”
“Because I had it from her as a thing not yet to be spoken of.”
“Because I got it from her as something that shouldn’t be talked about yet.”
Miss Gostrey wondered. “From Madame de Vionnet herself?”
Miss Gostrey wondered, “From Madame de Vionnet herself?”
“As a probability—not quite a certainty: a good cause in which Chad has been working. So I’ve waited.”
“As a probability—not quite a certainty: a good cause that Chad has been working on. So I’ve waited.”
“You need wait no longer,” she returned. “It reached me yesterday—roundabout and accidental, but by a person who had had it from one of the young man’s own people—as a thing quite settled. I was only keeping it for you.”
“You don’t have to wait any longer,” she replied. “It got to me yesterday—through a roundabout way and accidentally, but from someone who received it from one of the young man’s own people—as if it were already decided. I was just holding onto it for you.”
“You thought Chad wouldn’t have told me?”
“You thought Chad wouldn’t have mentioned it to me?”
She hesitated. “Well, if he hasn’t—”
She paused. “Well, if he hasn't—”
“He hasn’t. And yet the thing appears to have been practically his doing. So there we are.”
"He hasn’t. And yet it seems like this whole situation is basically his fault. So here we are."
“There we are!” Maria candidly echoed.
“There we are!” Maria openly replied.
“That’s why I jumped. I jumped,” he continued to explain, “because it means, this disposition of the daughter, that there’s now nothing else: nothing else but him and the mother.”
“That’s why I jumped. I jumped,” he went on to explain, “because with this arrangement for the daughter, there’s now nothing else: nothing else but him and the mother.”
“Still—it simplifies.”
"Still, it makes things easier."
“It simplifies”—he fully concurred. “But that’s precisely where we are. It marks a stage in his relation. The act is his answer to Mrs. Newsome’s demonstration.”
“It simplifies”—he completely agreed. “But that’s exactly where we are. It indicates a point in his relationship. The action is his response to Mrs. Newsome’s demonstration.”
“It tells,” Maria asked, “the worst?”
“It tells,” Maria asked, “the worst?”
“The worst.”
"The worst."
“But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?”
“But is the worst what he wants Sarah to know?”
“He doesn’t care for Sarah.”
“He doesn't care about Sarah.”
At which Miss Gostrey’s eyebrows went up. “You mean she has already dished herself?”
At this, Miss Gostrey raised her eyebrows. “You mean she’s already messed up?”
Strether took a turn about; he had thought it out again and again before this, to the end; but the vista seemed each time longer. “He wants his good friend to know the best. I mean the measure of his attachment. She asked for a sign, and he thought of that one. There it is.”
Strether walked around for a bit; he had considered this over and over before, all the way through, but the view seemed to stretch longer each time. “He wants his good friend to understand how much he cares. I mean how deep his feelings are. She asked for a sign, and he remembered that one. There it is.”
“A concession to her jealousy?”
“Giving in to her jealousy?”
Strether pulled up. “Yes—call it that. Make it lurid—for that makes my problem richer.”
Strether stopped. “Yeah—let's call it that. Make it more intense—because that makes my issue deeper.”
“Certainly, let us have it lurid—for I quite agree with you that we want none of our problems poor. But let us also have it clear. Can he, in the midst of such a preoccupation, or on the heels of it, have seriously cared for Jeanne?—cared, I mean, as a young man at liberty would have cared?”
“Of course, let’s make it dramatic—because I completely agree that we don’t want our issues to be trivial. But let’s also be clear. Could he, while so focused on other things, or right after, have genuinely cared for Jeanne?—cared, I mean, the way a young man who is free would care?”
Well, Strether had mastered it. “I think he can have thought it would be charming if he could care. It would be nicer.”
Well, Strether had figured it out. “I think he must have thought it would be lovely if he could care. It would be better.”
“Nicer than being tied up to Marie?”
“Nicer than being tied up with Marie?”
“Yes—than the discomfort of an attachment to a person he can never hope, short of a catastrophe, to marry. And he was quite right,” said Strether. “It would certainly have been nicer. Even when a thing’s already nice there mostly is some other thing that would have been nicer—or as to which we wonder if it wouldn’t. But his question was all the same a dream. He couldn’t care in that way. He is tied up to Marie. The relation is too special and has gone too far. It’s the very basis, and his recent lively contribution toward establishing Jeanne in life has been his definite and final acknowledgement to Madame de Vionnet that he has ceased squirming. I doubt meanwhile,” he went on, “if Sarah has at all directly attacked him.”
“Yes—than the discomfort of being attached to someone he can never expect, barring a disaster, to marry. And he was right,” said Strether. “It would definitely have been nicer. Even when something is already nice, there’s usually some other thing that would have been nicer—or we wonder if it might be. But his question was still a fantasy. He just couldn’t care in that way. He is connected to Marie. Their relationship is too special and has gone too far. It’s the very foundation, and his recent active role in helping Jeanne establish herself in life has been his clear and final acknowledgment to Madame de Vionnet that he has stopped struggling. I doubt, in the meantime,” he continued, “that Sarah has directly confronted him at all.”
His companion brooded. “But won’t he wish for his own satisfaction to make his ground good to her?”
His companion thought for a moment. “But won’t he want to impress her for his own sake?”
“No—he’ll leave it to me, he’ll leave everything to me. I ‘sort of’ feel”—he worked it out—“that the whole thing will come upon me. Yes, I shall have every inch and every ounce of it. I shall be used for it—!” And Strether lost himself in the prospect. Then he fancifully expressed the issue. “To the last drop of my blood.”
“No—he’ll leave it to me, he’ll leave everything to me. I kind of feel”—he figured it out—“that it will all fall on my shoulders. Yeah, I’ll take every bit of it. I’ll be needed for it—!” And Strether got lost in the thought. Then he jokingly put it this way. “To the last drop of my blood.”
Maria, however, roundly protested. “Ah you’ll please keep a drop for me. I shall have a use for it!”—which she didn’t however follow up. She had come back the next moment to another matter. “Mrs. Pocock, with her brother, is trusting only to her general charm?”
Maria, however, strongly objected. “Oh, please save a drop for me. I’ll find a use for it!”—but she didn’t elaborate. She quickly moved on to another topic. “Is Mrs. Pocock, along with her brother, relying solely on her overall charm?”
“So it would seem.”
"Looks that way."
“And the charm’s not working?”
"And the charm isn't working?"
Well, Strether put it otherwise, “She’s sounding the note of home—which is the very best thing she can do.”
Well, Strether put it differently, “She’s hitting the note of home—which is the best thing she can do.”
“The best for Madame de Vionnet?”
“The best for Madame de Vionnet?”
“The best for home itself. The natural one; the right one.”
"The best for the home itself. The natural choice; the right choice."
“Right,” Maria asked, “when it fails?”
“Right,” Maria asked, “when does it fail?”
Strether had a pause. “The difficulty’s Jim. Jim’s the note of home.”
Strether paused. “The issue is Jim. Jim represents home.”
She debated. “Ah surely not the note of Mrs. Newsome.”
She thought to herself, "Oh, definitely not the message from Mrs. Newsome."
But he had it all. “The note of the home for which Mrs. Newsome wants him—the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little legs apart, at the door of that tent; and Jim is, frankly speaking, extremely awful.”
But he had it all. “The note of the home that Mrs. Newsome wants him—the home of the business. Jim stands, with his little legs apart, at the door of that tent; and Jim is, to be honest, really terrible.”
Maria stared. “And you in, you poor thing, for your evening with him?”
Maria stared. “And you, you poor thing, for your evening with him?”
“Oh he’s all right for me!” Strether laughed. “Any one’s good enough for me. But Sarah shouldn’t, all the same, have brought him. She doesn’t appreciate him.”
“Oh, he’s perfect for me!” Strether laughed. “Anyone’s good enough for me. But Sarah really shouldn’t have brought him. She doesn’t get him.”
His friend was amused with this statement of it. “Doesn’t know, you mean, how bad he is?”
His friend was entertained by this remark. “You mean he doesn’t realize how bad he is?”
Strether shook his head with decision. “Not really.”
Strether shook his head firmly. “Not really.”
She wondered. “Then doesn’t Mrs. Newsome?”
She wondered, "So doesn’t Mrs. Newsome?"
It made him frankly do the same. “Well, no—since you ask me.”
It made him honestly do the same. “Well, no—since you asked me.”
Maria rubbed it in. “Not really either?”
Maria emphasized it. “Not really either?”
“Not at all. She rates him rather high.” With which indeed, immediately, he took himself up. “Well, he is good too, in his way. It depends on what you want him for.”
“Not at all. She thinks very highly of him.” With that, he quickly reconsidered. “Well, he is good too, in his own way. It depends on what you need him for.”
Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn’t let it depend on anything—wouldn’t have it, and wouldn’t want him, at any price. “It suits my book,” she said, “that he should be impossible; and it suits it still better,” she more imaginatively added, “that Mrs. Newsome doesn’t know he is.”
Miss Gostrey, however, wouldn’t leave it up to chance—she didn’t want him, not for anything. “It fits my story,” she said, “that he should be impossible; and it fits even better,” she added more creatively, “that Mrs. Newsome doesn’t realize he is.”
Strether, in consequence, had to take it from her, but he fell back on something else. “I’ll tell you who does really know.”
Strether, as a result, had to accept it from her, but he relied on something else. “I’ll tell you who actually knows.”
“Mr. Waymarsh? Never!”
"Mr. Waymarsh? No way!"
“Never indeed. I’m not always thinking of Mr. Waymarsh; in fact I find now I never am.” Then he mentioned the person as if there were a good deal in it. “Mamie.”
“Never, really. I'm not always thinking about Mr. Waymarsh; actually, I realize I never do.” Then he brought up the person as if it meant a lot. “Mamie.”
“His own sister?” Oddly enough it but let her down. “What good will that do?”
“His own sister?” Strangely enough, it just let her down. “What good is that going to do?”
“None perhaps. But there—as usual—we are!”
“None maybe. But there—we’re here as always!”
III
There they were yet again, accordingly, for two days more; when Strether, on being, at Mrs. Pocock’s hotel, ushered into that lady’s salon, found himself at first assuming a mistake on the part of the servant who had introduced him and retired. The occupants hadn’t come in, for the room looked empty as only a room can look in Paris, of a fine afternoon when the faint murmur of the huge collective life, carried on out of doors, strays among scattered objects even as a summer air idles in a lonely garden. Our friend looked about and hesitated; observed, on the evidence of a table charged with purchases and other matters, that Sarah had become possessed—by no aid from him—of the last number of the salmon-coloured Revue; noted further that Mamie appeared to have received a present of Fromentin’s “Maîtres d’Autrefois” from Chad, who had written her name on the cover; and pulled up at the sight of a heavy letter addressed in a hand he knew. This letter, forwarded by a banker and arriving in Mrs. Pocock’s absence, had been placed in evidence, and it drew from the fact of its being unopened a sudden queer power to intensify the reach of its author. It brought home to him the scale on which Mrs. Newsome—for she had been copious indeed this time—was writing to her daughter while she kept him in durance; and it had altogether such an effect upon him as made him for a few minutes stand still and breathe low. In his own room, at his own hotel, he had dozens of well-filled envelopes superscribed in that character; and there was actually something in the renewal of his interrupted vision of the character that played straight into the so frequent question of whether he weren’t already disinherited beyond appeal. It was such an assurance as the sharp downstrokes of her pen hadn’t yet had occasion to give him; but they somehow at the present crisis stood for a probable absoluteness in any decree of the writer. He looked at Sarah’s name and address, in short, as if he had been looking hard into her mother’s face, and then turned from it as if the face had declined to relax. But since it was in a manner as if Mrs. Newsome were thereby all the more, instead of the less, in the room, and were conscious, sharply and sorely conscious, of himself, so he felt both held and hushed, summoned to stay at least and take his punishment. By staying, accordingly, he took it—creeping softly and vaguely about and waiting for Sarah to come in. She would come in if he stayed long enough, and he had now more than ever the sense of her success in leaving him a prey to anxiety. It wasn’t to be denied that she had had a happy instinct, from the point of view of Woollett, in placing him thus at the mercy of her own initiative. It was very well to try to say he didn’t care—that she might break ground when she would, might never break it at all if she wouldn’t, and that he had no confession whatever to wait upon her with: he breathed from day to day an air that damnably required clearing, and there were moments when he quite ached to precipitate that process. He couldn’t doubt that, should she only oblige him by surprising him just as he then was, a clarifying scene of some sort would result from the concussion.
There they were again, for two more days; when Strether, at Mrs. Pocock’s hotel, was shown into her lounge, initially thought there had been a mistake on the part of the servant who had introduced him and then left. The room was empty, as only a Parisian room can look on a nice afternoon when the faint buzz of the vibrant outside world slips in among scattered objects just like a summer breeze drifting through a quiet garden. Our friend looked around and hesitated; he noticed, from a table filled with shopping and other items, that Sarah had obtained—the last edition of the salmon-colored Revue without any help from him; he also saw that Mamie had received a gift of Fromentin’s “Maîtres d’Autrefois” from Chad, who had written her name on the cover; and he stopped when he saw a heavy letter addressed in a familiar handwriting. This letter, sent by a banker and arriving while Mrs. Pocock was absent, had been put out on display, and its unopened status suddenly gave it an odd power to heighten the presence of its writer. It reminded him of how extensively Mrs. Newsome—for she had really written a lot this time—was communicating with her daughter while keeping him in a tight spot; and it affected him so much that he stood still for a few moments, breathing quietly. In his own room at his own hotel, there were dozens of well-filled envelopes labeled in that handwriting; and there was actually something in seeing that familiar handwriting again that fed into the constant question of whether he was already completely cut off from any appeal. It was such a confirmation that the sharp strokes of her pen had never yet given him; but somehow, at that moment, it represented a likely finality in any decision from the writer. He stared at Sarah’s name and address as if he were intensely looking into her mother’s face, then turned away as if the face had refused to soften. But it was as if Mrs. Newsome were more present in the room, sharply and painfully aware of him, so he felt both restrained and subdued, compelled to stick around at least and accept his consequences. By staying, he accepted them—moving softly and vaguely around, waiting for Sarah to arrive. She would come in if he stayed long enough, and he felt more than ever her success in leaving him vulnerable to anxiety. It was undeniable that she had an instinct, from Woollett’s perspective, to put him in a position where he was at the mercy of her initiative. It was easy to claim he didn’t mind—that she could start whenever she chose, or maybe not at all if she didn’t want to, and that he had no confession to share with her: he lived each day in an atmosphere that desperately needed to be cleared, and there were times when he really longed to push that process forward. He couldn’t doubt that if she would just surprise him right then, a clarifying confrontation would come from the shock of it.
He humbly circulated in this spirit till he suddenly had a fresh arrest. Both the windows of the room stood open to the balcony, but it was only now that, in the glass of the leaf of one of them, folded back, he caught a reflexion quickly recognised as the colour of a lady’s dress. Somebody had been then all the while on the balcony, and the person, whoever it might be, was so placed between the windows as to be hidden from him; while on the other hand the many sounds of the street had covered his own entrance and movements. If the person were Sarah he might on the spot therefore be served to his taste. He might lead her by a move or two up to the remedy for his vain tension; as to which, should he get nothing else from it, he would at least have the relief of pulling down the roof on their heads. There was fortunately no one at hand to observe—in respect to his valour—that even on this completed reasoning he still hung fire. He had been waiting for Mrs. Pocock and the sound of the oracle; but he had to gird himself afresh—which he did in the embrasure of the window, neither advancing nor retreating—before provoking the revelation. It was apparently for Sarah to come more into view; he was in that case there at her service. She did however, as meanwhile happened, come more into view; only she luckily came at the last minute as a contradiction of Sarah. The occupant of the balcony was after all quite another person, a person presented, on a second look, by a charming back and a slight shift of her position, as beautiful brilliant unconscious Mamie—Mamie alone at home, Mamie passing her time in her own innocent way, Mamie in short rather shabbily used, but Mamie absorbed interested and interesting. With her arms on the balustrade and her attention dropped to the street she allowed Strether to watch her, to consider several things, without her turning round.
He quietly moved around in this way until he suddenly noticed something new. Both windows of the room were open to the balcony, but it was only now that he caught a glimpse in one of the panes of glass, which had been pushed back, of a reflection he recognized as a lady's dress. Someone had been on the balcony the whole time, and that person was positioned between the windows so he couldn't see them; meanwhile, the sounds from the street had masked his own entrance and movement. If it were Sarah, he might be able to get what he wanted right then. He could lead her, with a few careful moves, to the solution for his restless tension; at the very least, he would feel the relief of letting loose some pent-up frustration. Fortunately, no one was around to see that, even with this complete reasoning, he still hesitated. He had been waiting for Mrs. Pocock and the sound of her wisdom; but he needed to brace himself again—which he did while leaning against the window, neither moving forward nor backward—before seeking out the truth. Apparently, it was up to Sarah to step more into view; he was ready to assist her if that was the case. However, as it turned out, she did come more into view, but just at the last moment, contradicting his expectations. The person on the balcony was actually someone completely different, revealed upon a closer look to be the charming back of the beautiful and blissfully unaware Mamie—Mamie alone at home, spending her time in her own innocent way, rather underappreciated, but absorbed, interesting, and interested. With her arms resting on the balustrade and her attention focused on the street, she allowed Strether to observe her and reflect on a few things without turning around.
But the oddity was that when he had so watched and considered he simply stepped back into the room without following up his advantage. He revolved there again for several minutes, quite as with something new to think of and as if the bearings of the possibility of Sarah had been superseded. For frankly, yes, it had bearings thus to find the girl in solitary possession. There was something in it that touched him to a point not to have been reckoned beforehand, something that softly but quite pressingly spoke to him, and that spoke the more each time he paused again at the edge of the balcony and saw her still unaware. Her companions were plainly scattered; Sarah would be off somewhere with Waymarsh and Chad off somewhere with Jim. Strether didn’t at all mentally impute to Chad that he was with his “good friend”; he gave him the benefit of supposing him involved in appearances that, had he had to describe them—for instance to Maria—he would have conveniently qualified as more subtle. It came to him indeed the next thing that there was perhaps almost an excess of refinement in having left Mamie in such weather up there alone; however she might in fact have extemporised, under the charm of the Rue de Rivoli, a little makeshift Paris of wonder and fancy. Our friend in any case now recognised—and it was as if at the recognition Mrs. Newsome’s fixed intensity had suddenly, with a deep audible gasp, grown thin and vague—that day after day he had been conscious in respect to his young lady of something odd and ambiguous, yet something into which he could at last read a meaning. It had been at the most, this mystery, an obsession—oh an obsession agreeable; and it had just now fallen into its place as at the touch of a spring. It had represented the possibility between them of some communication baffled by accident and delay—the possibility even of some relation as yet unacknowledged.
But the strange thing was that after he watched and thought things over, he just stepped back into the room without taking advantage of the moment. He lingered there for several minutes, as if he had something new to consider and as if the implications of Sarah being alone had been overshadowed. Honestly, yes, the idea of finding the girl all by herself held significance. There was something in it that touched him deeply in a way he hadn’t anticipated, something that quietly but insistently called to him, and it became louder each time he paused at the edge of the balcony and saw her still unaware. Her friends were clearly scattered; Sarah would be off with Waymarsh and Chad would be somewhere with Jim. Strether didn’t assume that Chad was with his “good friend”; he allowed the possibility that Chad was caught up in appearances that, if he had to explain them—say to Maria—he would have conveniently described as more refined. It actually struck him that it might be a bit too refined to leave Mamie alone in such weather; however, she might have created a little makeshift Paris of wonder and imagination under the charm of the Rue de Rivoli. In any case, our friend now recognized—and it was as if, with this recognition, Mrs. Newsome’s fixed intensity suddenly became faint and unclear—that day after day he had sensed something odd and ambiguous about his young lady, yet it was something he could finally interpret. This mystery had been, at most, an obsession—oh, a pleasant obsession; and it had just now fallen into place, as if triggered by a spring. It represented the possibility between them of some communication hindered by chance and delay—the potential for a relationship that had yet to be acknowledged.
There was always their old relation, the fruit of the Woollett years; but that—and it was what was strangest—had nothing whatever in common with what was now in the air. As a child, as a “bud,” and then again as a flower of expansion, Mamie had bloomed for him, freely, in the almost incessantly open doorways of home; where he remembered her as first very forward, as then very backward—for he had carried on at one period, in Mrs. Newsome’s parlours (oh Mrs. Newsome’s phases and his own!) a course of English Literature re-enforced by exams and teas—and once more, finally, as very much in advance. But he had kept no great sense of points of contact; it not being in the nature of things at Woollett that the freshest of the buds should find herself in the same basket with the most withered of the winter apples. The child had given sharpness, above all, to his sense of the flight of time; it was but the day before yesterday that he had tripped up on her hoop, yet his experience of remarkable women—destined, it would seem, remarkably to grow—felt itself ready this afternoon, quite braced itself, to include her. She had in fine more to say to him than he had ever dreamed the pretty girl of the moment could have; and the proof of the circumstance was that, visibly, unmistakeably, she had been able to say it to no one else. It was something she could mention neither to her brother, to her sister-in-law nor to Chad; though he could just imagine that had she still been at home she might have brought it out, as a supreme tribute to age, authority and attitude, for Mrs. Newsome. It was moreover something in which they all took an interest; the strength of their interest was in truth just the reason of her prudence. All this then, for five minutes, was vivid to Strether, and it put before him that, poor child, she had now but her prudence to amuse her. That, for a pretty girl in Paris, struck him, with a rush, as a sorry state; so that under the impression he went out to her with a step as hypocritically alert, he was well aware, as if he had just come into the room. She turned with a start at his voice; preoccupied with him though she might be, she was just a scrap disappointed. “Oh I thought you were Mr. Bilham!”
There was always their old connection, the result of the Woollett years; but that—and it was the strangest part—had nothing in common with what was happening now. As a child, as a “bud,” and then again as a blossoming flower, Mamie had grown for him, openly, in the almost constantly open doorways of their home; where he remembered her first as very forward, then as very shy—because at one point, in Mrs. Newsome’s parlor (oh, Mrs. Newsome’s phases and his own!), he had conducted a course on English Literature supported by exams and teas—and finally, as very much ahead of him. But he hadn’t kept a strong sense of connections; it wasn’t in the nature of things at Woollett for the freshest buds to be found in the same basket with the most withered winter apples. The child had sharpened, above all, his awareness of time flying; it was just the day before yesterday that he had stumbled over her hoop, yet his experience with remarkable women—who seemed destined to grow remarkably—felt ready this afternoon, quite prepared, to include her. She had, in fact, more to say to him than he had ever imagined the pretty girl of the moment could have; and the proof was that, visibly and unmistakably, she had been able to say it to no one else. It was something she couldn’t share with her brother, her sister-in-law, or Chad; although he could just picture that if she had still been at home, she might have revealed it as a supreme tribute to age, authority, and attitude for Mrs. Newsome. It was also something they all cared about; their strong interest was, in truth, the reason for her discretion. For five minutes, all of this was vivid to Strether, showing him that, poor child, she now had only her prudence to entertain her. That, for a pretty girl in Paris, struck him suddenly as a dismal state; so, feeling this, he approached her with an eagerness that he knew was a bit theatrical, as if he had just entered the room. She turned with a start at the sound of his voice; preoccupied as she might be, she looked just a touch disappointed. “Oh, I thought you were Mr. Bilham!”
The remark had been at first surprising and our friend’s private thought, under the influence of it, temporarily blighted; yet we are able to add that he presently recovered his inward tone and that many a fresh flower of fancy was to bloom in the same air. Little Bilham—since little Bilham was, somewhat incongruously, expected—appeared behindhand; a circumstance by which Strether was to profit. They came back into the room together after a little, the couple on the balcony, and amid its crimson-and-gold elegance, with the others still absent, Strether passed forty minutes that he appraised even at the time as far, in the whole queer connexion, from his idlest. Yes indeed, since he had the other day so agreed with Maria about the inspiration of the lurid, here was something for his problem that surely didn’t make it shrink and that was floated in upon him as part of a sudden flood. He was doubtless not to know till afterwards, on turning them over in thought, of how many elements his impression was composed; but he none the less felt, as he sat with the charming girl, the signal growth of a confidence. For she was charming, when all was said—and none the less so for the visible habit and practice of freedom and fluency. She was charming, he was aware, in spite of the fact that if he hadn’t found her so he would have found her something he should have been in peril of expressing as “funny.” Yes, she was funny, wonderful Mamie, and without dreaming it; she was bland, she was bridal—with never, that he could make out as yet, a bridegroom to support it; she was handsome and portly and easy and chatty, soft and sweet and almost disconcertingly reassuring. She was dressed, if we might so far discriminate, less as a young lady than as an old one—had an old one been supposable to Strether as so committed to vanity; the complexities of her hair missed moreover also the looseness of youth; and she had a mature manner of bending a little, as to encourage and reward, while she held neatly together in front of her a pair of strikingly polished hands: the combination of all of which kept up about her the glamour of her “receiving,” placed her again perpetually between the windows and within sound of the ice-cream plates, suggested the enumeration of all the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. Snookses, gregarious specimens of a single type, she was happy to “meet.” But if all this was where she was funny, and if what was funnier than the rest was the contrast between her beautiful benevolent patronage—such a hint of the polysyllabic as might make her something of a bore toward middle age—and her rather flat little voice, the voice, naturally, unaffectedly yet, of a girl of fifteen; so Strether, none the less, at the end of ten minutes, felt in her a quiet dignity that pulled things bravely together. If quiet dignity, almost more than matronly, with voluminous, too voluminous clothes, was the effect she proposed to produce, that was an ideal one could like in her when once one had got into relation. The great thing now for her visitor was that this was exactly what he had done; it made so extraordinary a mixture of the brief and crowded hour. It was the mark of a relation that he had begun so quickly to find himself sure she was, of all people, as might have been said, on the side and of the party of Mrs. Newsome’s original ambassador. She was in his interest and not in Sarah’s, and some sign of that was precisely what he had been feeling in her, these last days, as imminent. Finally placed, in Paris, in immediate presence of the situation and of the hero of it—by whom Strether was incapable of meaning any one but Chad—she had accomplished, and really in a manner all unexpected to herself, a change of base; deep still things had come to pass within her, and by the time she had grown sure of them Strether had become aware of the little drama. When she knew where she was, in short, he had made it out; and he made it out at present still better; though with never a direct word passing between them all the while on the subject of his own predicament. There had been at first, as he sat there with her, a moment during which he wondered if she meant to break ground in respect to his prime undertaking. That door stood so strangely ajar that he was half-prepared to be conscious, at any juncture, of her having, of any one’s having, quite bounced in. But, friendly, familiar, light of touch and happy of tact, she exquisitely stayed out; so that it was for all the world as if to show she could deal with him without being reduced to—well, scarcely anything.
The comment was initially surprising, and our friend’s private thoughts were temporarily affected by it; however, he soon regained his composure, and many new ideas began to flourish in the same environment. Little Bilham—since little Bilham was somewhat unexpectedly anticipated—arrived late; a situation that Strether was going to benefit from. They came back into the room together after a short while, the couple on the balcony, and amid its crimson-and-gold décor, with the others still absent, Strether spent forty minutes that he considered at the time to be quite significant in the whole odd connection. Yes indeed, since he had recently agreed with Maria about the allure of the vivid and dramatic, here was something for his dilemma that certainly didn’t diminish it and that came to him as part of a sudden wave. He probably wouldn’t realize until later, when reflecting on it, how many different elements contributed to his impression; but he nonetheless felt, as he sat with the charming girl, a noticeable increase in his confidence. Because she was charming, after all—and no less so for her obvious ease and flow in conversation. He knew she was charming, even though if he hadn’t felt that way, he might have described her as “quirky.” Yes, she was quirky, wonderful Mamie, without even realizing it; she was pleasant, she was elegant—never, as far as he could tell, with a groom to support her; she was attractive, a bit plump, casual and chatty, soft and sweet, and surprisingly reassuring. She seemed to be dressed, if we might differentiate, less like a young lady and more like an older one—if an older woman could be imagined as so indulged in vanity; the intricacies of her hairstyle also lacked the looseness of youth; and she had a mature way of leaning slightly to encourage and reward, while she held together in front of her a pair of strikingly polished hands: all of which maintained the allure of her ‘receiving’ guests, placing her perpetually between the windows and within earshot of the ice-cream plates, suggesting a list of all the names, all the Mr. Brookses and Mr. Snookses, sociable examples of a single type, she was happy to “meet.” But if this was where she was quirky, what made it funnier was the contrast between her beautiful, benevolent demeanor—suggesting a hint of the pretentious that might make her a bore as she aged—and her somewhat flat little voice, which was naturally, effortlessly, that of a fifteen-year-old girl; yet at the end of ten minutes, Strether felt in her a quiet dignity that held everything together. If quiet dignity, almost more than motherly, with oversized, too-overwhelming clothes, was the impression she wanted to create, that was an ideal one could appreciate in her once a relationship was established. The important thing for her visitor was that this was exactly what he had accomplished; it created such an extraordinary mix in the brief and bustling hour. It signified that he had quickly come to realize she was, of all people, as could be said, on the side and part of Mrs. Newsome’s original ambassador team. She was in his interest and not in Sarah’s, and he had been feeling some indication of that in her over the past few days, as if it were imminent. Finally settled in Paris, in direct view of the situation and of its main character—by whom Strether meant no one but Chad—she had managed, perhaps unexpectedly to herself, a shift in perspective; deep, meaningful changes had taken place within her, and by the time she grew sure of them, Strether was aware of the subtle drama unfolding. When she understood her position, he had figured it out; and he now understood it even better; though not a single direct word had been exchanged between them about his situation all this time. There had been an initial moment as he sat there with her when he wondered if she meant to address his main concern. That door was so oddly open that he was half-prepared to sense at any moment someone—perhaps even she—might burst in. But, friendly, familiar, light in her approach, and tactful, she skillfully stayed away; so it was as if to demonstrate she could interact with him without being reduced to—well, hardly anything.
It fully came up for them then, by means of their talking of everything but Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah, unlike Jim, knew perfectly what had become of him. It fully came up that she had taken to the last fraction of an inch the measure of the change in him, and that she wanted Strether to know what a secret she proposed to make of it. They talked most conveniently—as if they had had no chance yet—about Woollett; and that had virtually the effect of their keeping the secret more close. The hour took on for Strether, little by little, a queer sad sweetness of quality, he had such a revulsion in Mamie’s favour and on behalf of her social value as might have come from remorse at some early injustice. She made him, as under the breath of some vague western whiff, homesick and freshly restless; he could really for the time have fancied himself stranded with her on a far shore, during an ominous calm, in a quaint community of shipwreck. Their little interview was like a picnic on a coral strand; they passed each other, with melancholy smiles and looks sufficiently allusive, such cupfuls of water as they had saved. Especially sharp in Strether meanwhile was the conviction that his companion really knew, as we have hinted, where she had come out. It was at a very particular place—only that she would never tell him; it would be above all what he should have to puzzle for himself. This was what he hoped for, because his interest in the girl wouldn’t be complete without it. No more would the appreciation to which she was entitled—so assured was he that the more he saw of her process the more he should see of her pride. She saw, herself, everything; but she knew what she didn’t want, and that it was that had helped her. What didn’t she want?—there was a pleasure lost for her old friend in not yet knowing, as there would doubtless be a thrill in getting a glimpse. Gently and sociably she kept that dark to him, and it was as if she soothed and beguiled him in other ways to make up for it. She came out with her impression of Madame de Vionnet—of whom she had “heard so much”; she came out with her impression of Jeanne, whom she had been “dying to see”: she brought it out with a blandness by which her auditor was really stirred that she had been with Sarah early that very afternoon, and after dreadful delays caused by all sorts of things, mainly, eternally, by the purchase of clothes—clothes that unfortunately wouldn’t be themselves eternal—to call in the Rue de Bellechasse.
It became clear to them, through their discussions about everything except Chad, that Mamie, unlike Sarah and Jim, fully understood what had happened to him. It was evident that she had taken every little detail of the changes in him to heart, and she wanted Strether to know what secret she planned to keep. They talked conveniently—as if they hadn’t had the chance before—about Woollett; this made it feel like they were keeping the secret even tighter. As time passed, Strether felt a strange, sad sweetness in the moment, with a growing admiration for Mamie and her social value, as if he was feeling remorse for some past wrong. She made him, under the influence of some vague western breeze, feel homesick and restless; for a moment, he could have imagined himself stranded with her on a distant shore, during a heavy calm, in a strange community of shipwreck survivors. Their brief encounter felt like a picnic on a coral coast; they exchanged melancholic smiles and knowing looks while sharing the bits of water they had salvaged. Strikingly, Strether was convinced that his companion truly understood, as we hinted, where she had ended up. It was a very specific place—only that she would never reveal to him; it had to be something he figured out for himself. This was what he hoped for, because his interest in her wouldn't feel complete without it. Likewise, the appreciation she deserved wouldn’t be whole—he was sure that the more he learned about her journey, the more he would discover her pride. She saw everything; yet she knew what she wanted to keep hidden, and that knowledge had been her strength. What didn’t she want?—there was a certain enjoyment for her old friend in not yet knowing, and undoubtedly, there would be excitement in catching a glimpse. Gently and sociably, she kept that part dark from him, as if soothing and charming him in other ways to compensate. She shared her impressions of Madame de Vionnet, about whom she had “heard so much”; she revealed her thoughts on Jeanne, whom she had been “dying to see”: she brought it up with a casualness that genuinely moved her listener, noting she had been with Sarah earlier that afternoon, after frustrating delays caused by various matters, primarily the never-ending shopping for clothes—clothes that, unfortunately, wouldn't last forever—before stopping by the Rue de Bellechasse.
At the sound of these names Strether almost blushed to feel that he couldn’t have sounded them first—and yet couldn’t either have justified his squeamishness. Mamie made them easy as he couldn’t have begun to do, and yet it could only have cost her more than he should ever have had to spend. It was as friends of Chad’s, friends special, distinguished, desirable, enviable, that she spoke of them, and she beautifully carried it off that much as she had heard of them—though she didn’t say how or where, which was a touch of her own—she had found them beyond her supposition. She abounded in praise of them, and after the manner of Woollett—which made the manner of Woollett a loveable thing again to Strether. He had never so felt the true inwardness of it as when his blooming companion pronounced the elder of the ladies of the Rue de Bellechasse too fascinating for words and declared of the younger that she was perfectly ideal, a real little monster of charm. “Nothing,” she said of Jeanne, “ought ever to happen to her—she’s so awfully right as she is. Another touch will spoil her—so she oughtn’t to be touched.”
At the mention of these names, Strether felt almost embarrassed that he hadn’t brought them up himself—yet he couldn’t really justify his discomfort. Mamie made it sound effortless in a way he could never manage, but it must have cost her more than he would ever be willing to spend. She spoke of them as Chad’s friends, specifically, uniquely, the kind of people you admire and wish you knew. She managed to present it beautifully, and even though she didn’t reveal how or where she heard about them—which was her own special touch—she found them to be even more impressive than she expected. She couldn’t stop praising them, and in a way that reminded Strether why he loved Woollett in the first place. He had never truly appreciated its essence until his lively companion described the older lady from Rue de Bellechasse as so captivating that words fell short, and referred to the younger one as perfectly ideal, a delightful little charm bomb. “Nothing,” she said of Jeanne, “should ever happen to her—she's just so wonderfully perfect as she is. Any further change would ruin her—so she shouldn’t be changed.”
“Ah but things, here in Paris,” Strether observed, “do happen to little girls.” And then for the joke’s and the occasion’s sake: “Haven’t you found that yourself?”
“Ah but things, here in Paris,” Strether observed, “do happen to little girls.” And then for the joke’s and the occasion’s sake: “Haven’t you found that to be true yourself?”
“That things happen—? Oh I’m not a little girl. I’m a big battered blowsy one. I don’t care,” Mamie laughed, “what happens.”
“That things happen—? Oh, I’m not a little girl. I’m a big, worn-out mess. I don’t care,” Mamie laughed, “what happens.”
Strether had a pause while he wondered if it mightn’t happen that he should give her the pleasure of learning that he found her nicer than he had really dreamed—a pause that ended when he had said to himself that, so far as it at all mattered for her, she had in fact perhaps already made this out. He risked accordingly a different question—though conscious, as soon as he had spoken, that he seemed to place it in relation to her last speech. “But that Mademoiselle de Vionnet is to be married—I suppose you’ve heard of that.”
Strether paused, wondering if he should give her the joy of knowing that he thought she was nicer than he had ever imagined—a pause that ended when he convinced himself that, for her, she probably already figured this out. He decided to ask a different question—though he realized, as soon as he spoke, that it seemed connected to her last comment. “But that Mademoiselle de Vionnet is getting married—I assume you’ve heard about that.”
For all, he then found, he need fear! “Dear, yes; the gentleman was there: Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet presented to us.”
For everyone, he then realized, he didn’t have to worry! “Oh yes, the gentleman was there: Monsieur de Montbron, whom Madame de Vionnet introduced to us.”
“And was he nice?”
“Was he nice?”
Mamie bloomed and bridled with her best reception manner. “Any man’s nice when he’s in love.”
Mamie lit up and put on her best welcoming smile. “Any guy is nice when he’s in love.”
It made Strether laugh. “But is Monsieur de Montbron in love—already—with you?”
It made Strether laugh. “But is Monsieur de Montbron already in love with you?”
“Oh that’s not necessary—it’s so much better he should be so with her: which, thank goodness, I lost no time in discovering for myself. He’s perfectly gone—and I couldn’t have borne it for her if he hadn’t been. She’s just too sweet.”
“Oh, that’s not needed—it’s way better for him to be with her: which, thank goodness, I figured out right away. He’s totally into her—and I couldn’t have handled it for her if he hadn’t been. She’s just too sweet.”
Strether hesitated. “And through being in love too?”
Strether paused. “And is it because you’re in love too?”
On which with a smile that struck him as wonderful Mamie had a wonderful answer. “She doesn’t know if she is or not.”
On which, with a smile that he found incredible, Mamie had a great response. “She doesn’t know if she is or not.”
It made him again laugh out. “Oh but you do!”
It made him laugh out again. “Oh, but you do!”
She was willing to take it that way. “Oh yes, I know everything.” And as she sat there rubbing her polished hands and making the best of it—only holding her elbows perhaps a little too much out—the momentary effect for Strether was that every one else, in all their affair, seemed stupid.
She was okay with it that way. “Oh yeah, I know everything.” And as she sat there, rubbing her polished hands and making the most of it—maybe just holding her elbows out a little too much—the immediate impression for Strether was that everyone else, in all their interactions, seemed really dumb.
“Know that poor little Jeanne doesn’t know what’s the matter with her?”
“Do you know that poor little Jeanne doesn’t know what’s wrong with her?”
It was as near as they came to saying that she was probably in love with Chad; but it was quite near enough for what Strether wanted; which was to be confirmed in his certitude that, whether in love or not, she appealed to something large and easy in the girl before him. Mamie would be fat, too fat, at thirty; but she would always be the person who, at the present sharp hour, had been disinterestedly tender. “If I see a little more of her, as I hope I shall, I think she’ll like me enough—for she seemed to like me to-day—to want me to tell her.”
It was as close as they got to saying that she was probably in love with Chad; but it was close enough for what Strether wanted, which was to be reassured in his belief that, whether she was in love or not, she appealed to something big and easy in the girl in front of him. Mamie would be overweight, too heavy, at thirty; but she would always be the person who, in this tense moment, had been sincerely caring. “If I spend a little more time with her, as I hope to, I think she’ll like me enough—because she seemed to like me today—to want me to tell her.”
“And shall you?”
“And will you?”
“Perfectly. I shall tell her the matter with her is that she wants only too much to do right. To do right for her, naturally,” said Mamie, “is to please.”
“Exactly. I’m going to tell her that the issue is that she just wants too badly to do the right thing. To her, of course,” said Mamie, “doing the right thing means pleasing.”
“Her mother, do you mean?”
“Are you talking about her mom?”
“Her mother first.”
"Her mom first."
Strether waited. “And then?”
Strether waited. “What then?”
“Well, ‘then’—Mr. Newsome.”
“Well, ‘then’—Mr. Newsome.”
There was something really grand for him in the serenity of this reference. “And last only Monsieur de Montbron?”
There was something truly impressive for him in the calmness of this mention. “And is it only Monsieur de Montbron?”
“Last only”—she good-humouredly kept it up.
"Just for now"—she playfully continued it.
Strether considered. “So that every one after all then will be suited?”
Strether thought for a moment. “So that everyone will be happy after all?”
She had one of her few hesitations, but it was a question only of a moment; and it was her nearest approach to being explicit with him about what was between them. “I think I can speak for myself. I shall be.”
She had one of her few moments of hesitation, but it was just for a second; and it was her closest attempt to be clear with him about what they shared. “I think I can speak for myself. I will be.”
It said indeed so much, told such a story of her being ready to help him, so committed to him that truth, in short, for such use as he might make of it toward those ends of his own with which, patiently and trustfully, she had nothing to do—it so fully achieved all this that he appeared to himself simply to meet it in its own spirit by the last frankness of admiration. Admiration was of itself almost accusatory, but nothing less would serve to show her how nearly he understood. He put out his hand for good-bye with a “Splendid, splendid, splendid!” And he left her, in her splendour, still waiting for little Bilham.
It really said a lot, told a story of her being ready to help him, so dedicated to him that, ultimately, for whatever purpose he might use it in relation to his own goals—things that she patiently and trustfully had nothing to do with—it achieved all of this so completely that he felt he was simply meeting it with his own genuine admiration. Admiration almost felt like an accusation, but nothing less would show her how well he understood. He reached out his hand to say goodbye with a “Splendid, splendid, splendid!” And he left her, in her splendor, still waiting for little Bilham.
Book Tenth
I
Strether occupied beside little Bilham, three evenings after his interview with Mamie Pocock, the same deep divan they had enjoyed together on the first occasion of our friend’s meeting Madame de Vionnet and her daughter in the apartment of the Boulevard Malesherbes, where his position affirmed itself again as ministering to an easy exchange of impressions. The present evening had a different stamp; if the company was much more numerous, so, inevitably, were the ideas set in motion. It was on the other hand, however, now strongly marked that the talkers moved, in respect to such matters, round an inner, a protected circle. They knew at any rate what really concerned them to-night, and Strether had begun by keeping his companion close to it. Only a few of Chad’s guests had dined—that is fifteen or twenty, a few compared with the large concourse offered to sight by eleven o’clock; but number and mass, quantity and quality, light, fragrance, sound, the overflow of hospitality meeting the high tide of response, had all from the first pressed upon Strether’s consciousness, and he felt himself somehow part and parcel of the most festive scene, as the term was, in which he had ever in his life been engaged. He had perhaps seen, on Fourths of July and on dear old domestic Commencements, more people assembled, but he had never seen so many in proportion to the space, or had at all events never known so great a promiscuity to show so markedly as picked. Numerous as was the company, it had still been made so by selection, and what was above all rare for Strether was that, by no fault of his own, he was in the secret of the principle that had worked. He hadn’t enquired, he had averted his head, but Chad had put him a pair of questions that themselves smoothed the ground. He hadn’t answered the questions, he had replied that they were the young man’s own affair; and he had then seen perfectly that the latter’s direction was already settled.
Strether sat beside little Bilham three evenings after his meeting with Mamie Pocock, on the same deep couch they had enjoyed during our friend’s first encounter with Madame de Vionnet and her daughter in the Boulevard Malesherbes apartment, where his role had once again encouraged an easy sharing of thoughts. This evening felt different; while the group was much larger, so were the ideas being discussed. However, it was clear that the conversations revolved around a more private, protected circle. They at least knew what truly mattered to them that night, and Strether had started by keeping his companion focused on it. Only a few of Chad’s guests had eaten dinner—that is, around fifteen or twenty—which was small compared to the large crowd that filled the space by eleven o’clock. Yet, the sheer number, the mix of people, the atmosphere of light, fragrance, and sound, all the warmth of hospitality meeting the excited response, pressed upon Strether’s awareness. He felt part of the most festive scene he had ever been part of. He might have seen more people on the Fourth of July or at cherished domestic graduations, but he had never seen so many in relation to the space, nor had he ever experienced such diversity feeling so intentionally curated. Despite the crowd, it was still created through careful selection, and what was particularly rare for Strether was that, without any fault of his own, he was privy to the underlying principle that had guided it. He hadn’t asked; he had turned his head away, but Chad had posed a couple of questions that smoothed the way. He hadn’t answered them; he had said they were the young man’s own business, and he had then realized that Chad’s path was already set.
Chad had applied for counsel only by way of intimating that he knew what to do; and he had clearly never known it better than in now presenting to his sister the whole circle of his society. This was all in the sense and the spirit of the note struck by him on that lady’s arrival; he had taken at the station itself a line that led him without a break, and that enabled him to lead the Pococks—though dazed a little, no doubt, breathless, no doubt, and bewildered—to the uttermost end of the passage accepted by them perforce as pleasant. He had made it for them violently pleasant and mercilessly full; the upshot of which was, to Strether’s vision, that they had come all the way without discovering it to be really no passage at all. It was a brave blind alley, where to pass was impossible and where, unless they stuck fast, they would have—which was always awkward—publicly to back out. They were touching bottom assuredly tonight; the whole scene represented the terminus of the cul-de-sac. So could things go when there was a hand to keep them consistent—a hand that pulled the wire with a skill at which the elder man more and more marvelled. The elder man felt responsible, but he also felt successful, since what had taken place was simply the issue of his own contention, six weeks before, that they properly should wait to see what their friends would have really to say. He had determined Chad to wait, he had determined him to see; he was therefore not to quarrel with the time given up to the business. As much as ever, accordingly, now that a fortnight had elapsed, the situation created for Sarah, and against which she had raised no protest, was that of her having accommodated herself to her adventure as to a pleasure-party surrendered perhaps even somewhat in excess to bustle and to “pace.” If her brother had been at any point the least bit open to criticism it might have been on the ground of his spicing the draught too highly and pouring the cup too full. Frankly treating the whole occasion of the presence of his relatives as an opportunity for amusement, he left it, no doubt, but scant margin as an opportunity for anything else. He suggested, invented, abounded—yet all the while with the loosest easiest rein. Strether, during his own weeks, had gained a sense of knowing Paris; but he saw it afresh, and with fresh emotion, in the form of the knowledge offered to his colleague.
Chad had only asked for help to show that he knew what he was doing, and he clearly had never been more certain than when he presented the entire circle of his social life to his sister. This was all in line with the tone he set when she arrived; he had taken a route at the station that led them continuously and helped him lead the Pococks—who were a bit dazed, breathless, and confused—to the very end of the path that they had reluctantly accepted as enjoyable. He had made it intensely enjoyable and overwhelmingly full for them; the result, as Strether saw it, was that they had traveled all this way without realizing it was really not a path at all. It was a bold dead end where moving forward was impossible and where, unless they got stuck, they would have to awkwardly backtrack in public. They were certainly reaching the end of the cul-de-sac tonight. This is how things could unfold when someone kept them steady—a hand that pulled the strings with a skill that left the older man increasingly in awe. He felt responsible but also successful, as everything that had happened was simply the outcome of his insistence, six weeks earlier, that they should wait and see what their friends actually had to say. He had convinced Chad to hold off and to observe; therefore, he wouldn’t complain about the time spent on this matter. Even now, with two weeks gone by, the situation for Sarah—against which she had raised no objections—was that she had adapted to her experience as if it were a fun outing, perhaps even overly surrendered to the hustle and bustle. If her brother had been at all open to criticism, it might have been for being too extravagant with the excitement and pouring too much into their activities. He treated the whole occasion of his relatives' presence as a chance for fun, leaving little room for anything else. He suggested, invented, and overflowed with ideas—all while keeping things relaxed and easy. Strether, during his weeks, had developed a sense of knowing Paris; yet he saw it anew and with fresh feelings in light of what he shared with his colleague.
A thousand unuttered thoughts hummed for him in the air of these observations; not the least frequent of which was that Sarah might well of a truth not quite know whither she was drifting. She was in no position not to appear to expect that Chad should treat her handsomely; yet she struck our friend as privately stiffening a little each time she missed the chance of marking the great nuance. The great nuance was in brief that of course her brother must treat her handsomely—she should like to see him not; but that treating her handsomely, none the less, wasn’t all in all—treating her handsomely buttered no parsnips; and that in fine there were moments when she felt the fixed eyes of their admirable absent mother fairly screw into the flat of her back. Strether, watching, after his habit, and overscoring with thought, positively had moments of his own in which he found himself sorry for her—occasions on which she affected him as a person seated in a runaway vehicle and turning over the question of a possible jump. Would she jump, could she, would that be a safe place?—this question, at such instants, sat for him in her lapse into pallor, her tight lips, her conscious eyes. It came back to the main point at issue: would she be, after all, to be squared? He believed on the whole she would jump; yet his alternations on this subject were the more especial stuff of his suspense. One thing remained well before him—a conviction that was in fact to gain sharpness from the impressions of this evening: that if she should gather in her skirts, close her eyes and quit the carriage while in motion, he would promptly enough become aware. She would alight from her headlong course more or less directly upon him; it would be appointed to him, unquestionably, to receive her entire weight. Signs and portents of the experience thus in reserve for him had as it happened, multiplied even through the dazzle of Chad’s party. It was partly under the nervous consciousness of such a prospect that, leaving almost every one in the two other rooms, leaving those of the guests already known to him as well as a mass of brilliant strangers of both sexes and of several varieties of speech, he had desired five quiet minutes with little Bilham, whom he always found soothing and even a little inspiring, and to whom he had actually moreover something distinct and important to say.
A thousand unspoken thoughts buzzed around him as he observed her; among them the frequent idea that Sarah might genuinely not know where she was headed. She was in no position to not expect that Chad would treat her well; yet our friend sensed she seemed to stiffen a bit each time she missed the chance to acknowledge the significant nuance. The key nuance was, of course, that her brother had to treat her well—she wouldn't want to see him not do so; but treating her well wasn’t everything—treating her well didn’t solve all problems; and there were moments when she felt the unwavering gaze of their wonderful absent mother practically drilling into her back. Strether, observing as he usually did and analyzing with thought, often found himself feeling sorry for her—there were times she made him think of someone in a runaway vehicle, contemplating the possibility of jumping out. Would she jump, could she, would that be a safe option?—this question arose for him in her pale moments, her tight lips, her aware eyes. It brought him back to the main issue: would she ultimately be able to adapt? He believed that, overall, she would jump; yet his fluctuations on this topic were the main source of his anxiety. One thing remained clear—a conviction that would sharpen from the impressions of that evening: if she did gather her skirts, close her eyes, and leap from the moving vehicle, he would quickly realize. She would land directly on him; it would certainly be his responsibility to catch her full weight. Signs and hints of this looming experience increased even amid the sparkle of Chad’s gathering. It was partly due to the nervous awareness of such a prospect that he had decided to leave almost everyone in the other two rooms, including both familiar guests and a variety of charming strangers of all kinds, to seek five quiet minutes with little Bilham, who he always found calming and even somewhat inspiring, and to whom he actually had something specific and important to discuss.
He had felt of old—for it already seemed long ago—rather humiliated at discovering he could learn in talk with a personage so much his junior the lesson of a certain moral ease; but he had now got used to that—whether or no the mixture of the fact with other humiliations had made it indistinct, whether or no directly from little Bilham’s example, the example of his being contentedly just the obscure and acute little Bilham he was. It worked so for him, Strether seemed to see; and our friend had at private hours a wan smile over the fact that he himself, after so many more years, was still in search of something that would work. However, as we have said, it worked just now for them equally to have found a corner a little apart. What particularly kept it apart was the circumstance that the music in the salon was admirable, with two or three such singers as it was a privilege to hear in private. Their presence gave a distinction to Chad’s entertainment, and the interest of calculating their effect on Sarah was actually so sharp as to be almost painful. Unmistakeably, in her single person, the motive of the composition and dressed in a splendour of crimson which affected Strether as the sound of a fall through a skylight, she would now be in the forefront of the listening circle and committed by it up to her eyes. Those eyes during the wonderful dinner itself he hadn’t once met; having confessedly—perhaps a little pusillanimously—arranged with Chad that he should be on the same side of the table. But there was no use in having arrived now with little Bilham at an unprecedented point of intimacy unless he could pitch everything into the pot. “You who sat where you could see her, what does she make of it all? By which I mean on what terms does she take it?”
He had long felt—though it seemed like ages ago—kind of embarrassed to realize he could learn about a certain relaxed attitude from someone so much younger than him; but he had gotten used to that now. Whether the mix of this with other embarrassments made it less clear, or if it came directly from little Bilham’s content example of just being the clever and unassuming person he was, it worked for him, or at least Strether thought so. Our friend often had a faint smile in private about the fact that even after so many more years, he was still searching for something that would work for him. As we said, it suited them both to have found a little corner away from the hustle. What kept it separate was the incredible music in the salon, featuring a couple of singers who were a real treat to hear live. Their presence added a touch of elegance to Chad’s gathering, and the curiosity about how it would affect Sarah was so intense it was almost painful. Undeniably, she was the focal point of the performance, dressed in striking crimson that struck Strether like a dramatic fall through a skylight. She would now be right in front of the audience, fully engaged. During the wonderful dinner itself, he hadn’t once caught her eye; he had, perhaps a bit timidly, arranged with Chad to sit on the same side of the table. But there was no point in reaching this unprecedented level of closeness with little Bilham if he couldn’t really engage. “You who sat where you could see her, what does she think of it all? I mean, how does she perceive it?”
“Oh she takes it, I judge, as proving that the claim of his family is more than ever justified.”
“Oh, she takes it, I think, as proof that his family's claim is more justified than ever.”
“She isn’t then pleased with what he has to show?”
"She's not happy with what he has to show?"
“On the contrary; she’s pleased with it as with his capacity to do this kind of thing—more than she has been pleased with anything for a long time. But she wants him to show it there. He has no right to waste it on the likes of us.”
“On the contrary; she’s happy with it, just like she is with his ability to do this kind of thing—more than she has been happy with anything for a long time. But she wants him to show it there. He has no right to waste it on people like us.”
Strether wondered. “She wants him to move the whole thing over?”
Strether asked himself, “Does she want him to shift the entire thing over?”
“The whole thing—with an important exception. Everything he has ‘picked up’—and the way he knows how. She sees no difficulty in that. She’d run the show herself, and she’ll make the handsome concession that Woollett would be on the whole in some ways the better for it. Not that it wouldn’t be also in some ways the better for Woollett. The people there are just as good.”
“The whole situation—except for one important thing. Everything he has ‘picked up’—and the way he knows how. She sees no issue with that. She’d run the show herself, and she’ll generously admit that Woollett would, in many ways, be better off for it. Not that it wouldn't also be better for Woollett in some ways. The people there are just as good.”
“Just as good as you and these others? Ah that may be. But such an occasion as this, whether or no,” Strether said, “isn’t the people. It’s what has made the people possible.”
“Just as good as you and the others? Maybe. But an occasion like this, regardless of how it turns out,” Strether said, “isn’t about the people. It’s about what has made the people possible.”
“Well then,” his friend replied, “there you are; I give you my impression for what it’s worth. Mrs. Pocock has seen, and that’s to-night how she sits there. If you were to have a glimpse of her face you’d understand me. She has made up her mind—to the sound of expensive music.”
“Well then,” his friend replied, “there you are; I’ll share my impression for what it’s worth. Mrs. Pocock has seen, and that’s why she’s sitting there tonight. If you could catch a glimpse of her face, you’d get what I mean. She’s made up her mind—to the sound of pricey music.”
Strether took it freely in. “Ah then I shall have news of her.”
Strether took it all in. “Oh, then I’ll get news about her.”
“I don’t want to frighten you, but I think that likely. However,” little Bilham continued, “if I’m of the least use to you to hold on by—!”
“I don’t want to scare you, but I think it’s likely. However,” little Bilham continued, “if I can be of any help to you to hold on to—!”
“You’re not of the least!”—and Strether laid an appreciative hand on him to say it. “No one’s of the least.” With which, to mark how gaily he could take it, he patted his companion’s knee. “I must meet my fate alone, and I shall—oh you’ll see! And yet,” he pursued the next moment, “you can help me too. You once said to me”—he followed this further—“that you held Chad should marry. I didn’t see then so well as I know now that you meant he should marry Miss Pocock. Do you still consider that he should? Because if you do”—he kept it up—“I want you immediately to change your mind. You can help me that way.”
“You’re not the least bit!”—and Strether put an appreciative hand on him to say it. “No one’s the least bit.” With that, to show how playfully he could take it, he patted his companion's knee. “I have to face my fate on my own, and I will—oh, you’ll see! And yet,” he continued a moment later, “you can help me too. You once told me”—he elaborated further—“that you thought Chad should get married. I didn’t realize then as clearly as I do now that you meant he should marry Miss Pocock. Do you still think that he should? Because if you do”—he kept going—“I want you to change your mind right away. You can help me that way.”
“Help you by thinking he should not marry?”
“Help you by thinking he shouldn’t not marry?”
“Not marry at all events Mamie.”
"Definitely don't get married, Mamie."
“And who then?”
"Who else?"
“Ah,” Strether returned, “that I’m not obliged to say. But Madame de Vionnet—I suggest—when he can.’
“Ah,” Strether replied, “that I don’t have to say. But Madame de Vionnet—I suggest—when he can.”
“Oh!” said little Bilham with some sharpness.
“Oh!” little Bilham said somewhat sharply.
“Oh precisely! But he needn’t marry at all—I’m at any rate not obliged to provide for it. Whereas in your case I rather feel that I am.”
“Oh exactly! But he doesn’t have to marry at all—I’m definitely not responsible for it. On the other hand, in your situation, I feel that I actually am.”
Little Bilham was amused. “Obliged to provide for my marrying?”
Little Bilham was entertained. “Am I really expected to support my own marriage?”
“Yes—after all I’ve done to you!”
“Yes—after everything I’ve done to you!”
The young man weighed it. “Have you done as much as that?”
The young man considered it. “Have you really done that much?”
“Well,” said Strether, thus challenged, “of course I must remember what you’ve also done to me. We may perhaps call it square. But all the same,” he went on, “I wish awfully you’d marry Mamie Pocock yourself.”
“Well,” Strether replied, challenged, “I have to consider what you’ve done to me. Maybe we can call it even. But still,” he continued, “I really wish you’d marry Mamie Pocock yourself.”
Little Bilham laughed out. “Why it was only the other night, in this very place, that you were proposing to me a different union altogether.”
Little Bilham laughed. “Just the other night, in this very spot, you were suggesting a totally different partnership.”
“Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” Well, Strether easily confessed it. “That, I admit, was a vain image. This is practical politics. I want to do something good for both of you—I wish you each so well; and you can see in a moment the trouble it will save me to polish you off by the same stroke. She likes you, you know. You console her. And she’s splendid.”
“Mademoiselle de Vionnet?” Well, Strether easily admitted it. “That was a fanciful idea. This is realpolitik. I want to do something good for both of you—I care about you both so much; and you can see right away how much easier it will be for me to sort things out in one go. She likes you, you know. You comfort her. And she’s fantastic.”
Little Bilham stared as a delicate appetite stares at an overheaped plate. “What do I console her for?”
Little Bilham stared like a delicate appetite looks at an overflowing plate. “What do I console her about?”
It just made his friend impatient. “Oh come, you know!”
It only made his friend impatient. “Oh come on, you know!”
“And what proves for you that she likes me?”
“And what makes you think she likes me?”
“Why the fact that I found her three days ago stopping at home alone all the golden afternoon on the mere chance that you’d come to her, and hanging over her balcony on that of seeing your cab drive up. I don’t know what you want more.”
“Why the fact that I found her three days ago sitting at home alone all afternoon just hoping you’d come to her, and leaning over her balcony at the sight of your cab pulling up. I don’t know what more you want.”
Little Bilham after a moment found it. “Only just to know what proves to you that I like her.”
Little Bilham after a moment found it. “It's just to show you what proves that I like her.”
“Oh if what I’ve just mentioned isn’t enough to make you do it, you’re a stony-hearted little fiend. Besides”—Strether encouraged his fancy’s flight—“you showed your inclination in the way you kept her waiting, kept her on purpose to see if she cared enough for you.”
“Oh, if what I just mentioned isn't enough to make you go for it, you're a cold-hearted little villain. Besides”—Strether let his imagination roam—“you showed your interest by how you kept her waiting, holding her back on purpose to see if she cared enough for you.”
His companion paid his ingenuity the deference of a pause. “I didn’t keep her waiting. I came at the hour. I wouldn’t have kept her waiting for the world,” the young man honourably declared.
His companion acknowledged his cleverness with a moment of silence. “I didn’t make her wait. I arrived on time. I wouldn’t have kept her waiting for anything in the world,” the young man proudly declared.
“Better still—then there you are!” And Strether, charmed, held him the faster. “Even if you didn’t do her justice, moreover,” he continued, “I should insist on your immediately coming round to it. I want awfully to have worked it. I want”—and our friend spoke now with a yearning that was really earnest—“at least to have done that.”
“Even better—there you are!” Strether said, delighted, holding on tighter. “Even if you didn’t treat her right, I’d still insist that you get it sorted out right away. I really want to have resolved this. I want”—and our friend spoke with a deep sincerity—“at least to have accomplished that.”
“To have married me off—without a penny?”
“To marry me off—without a dime?”
“Well, I shan’t live long; and I give you my word, now and here, that I’ll leave you every penny of my own. I haven’t many, unfortunately, but you shall have them all. And Miss Pocock, I think, has a few. I want,” Strether went on, “to have been at least to that extent constructive even expiatory. I’ve been sacrificing so to strange gods that I feel I want to put on record, somehow, my fidelity—fundamentally unchanged after all—to our own. I feel as if my hands were embrued with the blood of monstrous alien altars—of another faith altogether. There it is—it’s done.” And then he further explained. “It took hold of me because the idea of getting her quite out of the way for Chad helps to clear my ground.”
“Well, I won’t be around much longer; and I promise you, right here and now, that I’ll leave you every penny I have. I don’t have many, unfortunately, but you’ll get all of them. And I believe Miss Pocock has a few too. I want,” Strether continued, “to have been, at least to that extent, constructive, even atoning. I’ve sacrificed so much to strange gods that I feel the need to record my loyalty—fundamentally unchanged after all—to our own. It feels like my hands are stained with the blood of monstrous foreign altars—from a completely different faith. There it is—it’s done.” And then he went on to explain further. “It struck me because the idea of getting her completely out of the way for Chad helps to clear my path.”
The young man, at this, bounced about, and it brought them face to face in admitted amusement. “You want me to marry as a convenience to Chad?”
The young man, at this, bounced around, and it brought them face to face in shared amusement. “You want me to marry for Chad’s convenience?”
“No,” Strether debated—“he doesn’t care whether you marry or not. It’s as a convenience simply to my own plan for him.”
“No,” Strether thought—“he doesn’t care if you marry or not. It’s just a convenience for my own plan for him.”
“‘Simply’!”—and little Bilham’s concurrence was in itself a lively comment. “Thank you. But I thought,” he continued, “you had exactly no plan ‘for’ him.”
“‘Simply’!”—and little Bilham’s agreement was itself a lively remark. “Thank you. But I thought,” he went on, “you had absolutely no plan ‘for’ him.”
“Well then call it my plan for myself—which may be well, as you say, to have none. His situation, don’t you see? is reduced now to the bare facts one has to recognise. Mamie doesn’t want him, and he doesn’t want Mamie: so much as that these days have made clear. It’s a thread we can wind up and tuck in.”
“Well, let’s just call it my plan for myself—which might be a good idea, as you said, to have none. His situation, don’t you see? is now reduced to the bare facts we have to acknowledge. Mamie doesn’t want him, and he doesn’t want Mamie: that’s basically what these days have made clear. It’s a thread we can wrap up and tuck away.”
But little Bilham still questioned. “You can—since you seem so much to want to. But why should I?”
But little Bilham still questioned. “You can—since you seem so eager to. But why should I?”
Poor Strether thought it over, but was obliged of course to admit that his demonstration did superficially fail. “Seriously, there is no reason. It’s my affair—I must do it alone. I’ve only my fantastic need of making my dose stiff.”
Poor Strether thought about it, but had to admit that his argument didn’t really hold up. “Honestly, there is no reason. It’s my issue—I have to handle it on my own. I just have this strange need to toughen things up.”
Little Bilham wondered. “What do you call your dose?”
Little Bilham wondered. “What do you call your dose?”
“Why what I have to swallow. I want my conditions unmitigated.”
“Why should I have to accept this? I want my terms to be clear and uncompromised.”
He had spoken in the tone of talk for talk’s sake, and yet with an obscure truth lurking in the loose folds; a circumstance presently not without its effect on his young friend. Little Bilham’s eyes rested on him a moment with some intensity; then suddenly, as if everything had cleared up, he gave a happy laugh. It seemed to say that if pretending, or even trying, or still even hoping, to be able to care for Mamie would be of use, he was all there for the job. “I’ll do anything in the world for you!”
He spoke in a casual way, but there was an underlying truth in his words that impacted his young friend. Little Bilham looked at him intently for a moment, and then, as if everything suddenly made sense, he let out a joyful laugh. It seemed to convey that whether it meant pretending, trying, or even hoping to care for Mamie, he was fully on board for the task. “I’ll do anything in the world for you!”
“Well,” Strether smiled, “anything in the world is all I want. I don’t know anything that pleased me in her more,” he went on, “than the way that, on my finding her up there all alone, coming on her unawares and feeling greatly for her being so out of it, she knocked down my tall house of cards with her instant and cheerful allusion to the next young man. It was somehow so the note I needed—her staying at home to receive him.”
“Well,” Strether smiled, “anything in the world is all I want. I can’t think of anything that pleased me more about her,” he continued, “than when I found her up there all alone, unexpectedly coming across her and genuinely feeling for her being so disconnected. She completely knocked down my tall house of cards with her quick and cheerful mention of the next young man. It was somehow just the tone I needed—her staying home to welcome him.”
“It was Chad of course,” said little Bilham, “who asked the next young man—I like your name for me!—to call.”
“It was Chad, of course,” said little Bilham, “who asked the next young man—I like the name you give me!—to come over.”
“So I supposed—all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and natural manners. But do you know,” Strether asked, “if Chad knows—?” And then as this interlocutor seemed at a loss: “Why where she has come out.”
“So I thought—all of which, thank God, is in our innocent and natural ways. But do you know,” Strether asked, “if Chad knows—?” And then, seeing this person seemed unsure: “Why, where she has come out.”
Little Bilham, at this, met his face with a conscious look—it was as if, more than anything yet, the allusion had penetrated. “Do you know yourself?”
Little Bilham, at this, met his gaze with a knowing look—it was as if, more than anything else so far, the reference had struck home. “Do you know yourself?”
Strether lightly shook his head. “There I stop. Oh, odd as it may appear to you, there are things I don’t know. I only got the sense from her of something very sharp, and yet very deep down, that she was keeping all to herself. That is I had begun with the belief that she had kept it to herself; but face to face with her there I soon made out that there was a person with whom she would have shared it. I had thought she possibly might with me—but I saw then that I was only half in her confidence. When, turning to me to greet me—for she was on the balcony and I had come in without her knowing it—she showed me she had been expecting you and was proportionately disappointed, I got hold of the tail of my conviction. Half an hour later I was in possession of all the rest of it. You know what has happened.” He looked at his young friend hard—then he felt sure. “For all you say, you’re up to your eyes. So there you are.”
Strether shook his head lightly. “That’s where I draw the line. As strange as it may seem to you, there are things I don’t know. I only sensed something very sharp, yet very deep down, that she was keeping to herself. I initially believed she had kept it all to herself; but when I was face to face with her, I soon realized there was someone she would have shared it with. I thought she might share it with me—but I saw then that I was only half in her confidence. When she turned to greet me—she was on the balcony and I had come in without her noticing—she showed me she had been expecting you and was understandably disappointed. That’s when I started to grasp the full extent of my conviction. Half an hour later, I had all the details. You know what’s happened.” He looked intently at his young friend—then he felt sure. “No matter what you say, you’re in deep. So there you are.”
Little Bilham after an instant pulled half round. “I assure you she hasn’t told me anything.”
Little Bilham quickly turned around. “I promise you, she hasn’t said anything to me.”
“Of course she hasn’t. For what do you suggest that I suppose her to take you? But you’ve been with her every day, you’ve seen her freely, you’ve liked her greatly—I stick to that—and you’ve made your profit of it. You know what she has been through as well as you know that she has dined here to-night—which must have put her, by the way, through a good deal more.”
“Of course she hasn’t. What do you think she should think of you? But you’ve been with her every day, you’ve seen her openly, you’ve really liked her—I stand by that—and you’ve taken advantage of it. You know what she’s been through just like you know that she had dinner here tonight—which, by the way, must have put her through even more.”
The young man faced this blast; after which he pulled round the rest of the way. “I haven’t in the least said she hasn’t been nice to me. But she’s proud.”
The young man dealt with this shock; after that, he turned the rest of the way. “I haven’t at all said she hasn’t been nice to me. But she’s proud.”
“And quite properly. But not too proud for that.”
“And that's totally fine. But not too proud about it.”
“It’s just her pride that has made her. Chad,” little Bilham loyally went on, “has really been as kind to her as possible. It’s awkward for a man when a girl’s in love with him.”
“It’s just her pride that has shaped her. Chad,” little Bilham loyally continued, “has actually been as good to her as he can be. It’s tough for a guy when a girl is in love with him.”
“Ah but she isn’t—now.”
“Ah, but she isn’t—now.”
Little Bilham sat staring before him; then he sprang up as if his friend’s penetration, recurrent and insistent, made him really after all too nervous. “No—she isn’t now. It isn’t in the least,” he went on, “Chad’s fault. He’s really all right. I mean he would have been willing. But she came over with ideas. Those she had got at home. They had been her motive and support in joining her brother and his wife. She was to save our friend.”
Little Bilham sat there staring ahead; then he suddenly got up as if his friend's persistent questioning was making him way too anxious. “No—she isn't now. It isn't at all,” he continued, “Chad's fault. He's actually fine. I mean, he would have been up for it. But she came over with her own ideas. Those were what she had picked up at home. They were her reason and motivation for joining her brother and his wife. She was supposed to save our friend.”
“Ah like me, poor thing?” Strether also got to his feet.
“Ah, like me, poor thing?” Strether also stood up.
“Exactly—she had a bad moment. It was very soon distinct to her, to pull her up, to let her down, that, alas, he was, he is, saved. There’s nothing left for her to do.”
“Exactly—she had a rough moment. It became clear to her very quickly that, unfortunately, he was, he is, saved. There’s nothing left for her to do.”
“Not even to love him?”
"Not even to love him?"
“She would have loved him better as she originally believed him.”
“She would have loved him more than she initially thought.”
Strether wondered. “Of course one asks one’s self what notion a little girl forms, where a young man’s in question, of such a history and such a state.”
Strether thought to himself, “Of course you have to wonder what a little girl thinks about when a young man is involved, given such a background and situation.”
“Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as obscure, but she saw them practically as wrong. The wrong for her was the obscure. Chad turns out at any rate right and good and disconcerting, while what she was all prepared for, primed and girded and wound up for, was to deal with him as the general opposite.”
“Well, this little girl saw them, no doubt, as unclear, but she saw them practically as wrong. The wrong for her was the unclear. Chad turns out to be right and good and surprising, while what she was all set for, prepared and ready to go, was to deal with him as the complete opposite.”
“Yet wasn’t her whole point”—Strether weighed it—“that he was to be, that he could be, made better, redeemed?”
“Yet wasn’t her whole point”—Strether considered it—“that he was meant to be, that he could be, improved, saved?”
Little Bilham fixed it all a moment, and then with a small headshake that diffused a tenderness: “She’s too late. Too late for the miracle.”
Little Bilham paused for a moment, then shook his head slightly, an expression of tenderness on his face: “She’s too late. Too late for the miracle.”
“Yes”—his companion saw enough. “Still, if the worst fault of his condition is that it may be all there for her to profit by—?”
“Yes”—his companion understood enough. “Still, if the biggest flaw in his situation is that it could all be there for her to benefit from—?”
“Oh she doesn’t want to ‘profit,’ in that flat way. She doesn’t want to profit by another woman’s work—she wants the miracle to have been her own miracle. That’s what she’s too late for.”
“Oh, she doesn’t want to ‘profit’ in that straightforward way. She doesn’t want to benefit from another woman’s efforts—she wants the miracle to be her own. That’s what she’s missed out on.”
Strether quite felt how it all fitted, yet there seemed one loose piece. “I’m bound to say, you know, that she strikes one, on these lines, as fastidious—what you call here difficile.”
Strether really sensed how it all connected, but there was still one loose end. “I have to say, you know, that she comes across, on these notes, as picky—what you call here difficile.”
Little Bilham tossed up his chin. “Of course she’s difficile—on any lines! What else in the world are our Mamies—the real, the right ones?”
Little Bilham lifted his chin. “Of course she’s difficult—in every way! What else in the world are our Mamies—the real, the right ones?”
“I see, I see,” our friend repeated, charmed by the responsive wisdom he had ended by so richly extracting. “Mamie is one of the real and the right.”
“I get it, I get it,” our friend said again, captivated by the insightful wisdom he had ultimately gained. “Mamie is truly genuine and genuine.”
“The very thing itself.”
"The actual thing."
“And what it comes to then,” Strether went on, “is that poor awful Chad is simply too good for her.”
“And what it comes down to,” Strether continued, “is that poor, terrible Chad is just too good for her.”
“Ah too good was what he was after all to be; but it was she herself, and she herself only, who was to have made him so.”
“Ah, he was just too good to be true after all; but it was her, and only her, who was meant to make him that way.”
It hung beautifully together, but with still a loose end. “Wouldn’t he do for her even if he should after all break—”
It looked great overall, but there was still an unresolved issue. “Wouldn’t he be good for her even if he ended up breaking—”
“With his actual influence?” Oh little Bilham had for this enquiry the sharpest of all his controls. “How can he ‘do’—on any terms whatever—when he’s flagrantly spoiled?”
“With his real influence?” Oh little Bilham had the best response to this question. “How can he 'do'—on any terms at all—when he’s obviously spoiled?”
Strether could only meet the question with his passive, his receptive pleasure. “Well, thank goodness, you’re not! You remain for her to save, and I come back, on so beautiful and full a demonstration, to my contention of just now—that of your showing distinct signs of her having already begun.”
Strether could only respond to the question with his quiet, open enjoyment. “Well, thank goodness, you’re not! You are still here for her to save, and I return, with such a beautiful and clear demonstration, to my earlier point—that you’re showing clear signs of her having already started.”
The most he could further say to himself—as his young friend turned away—was that the charge encountered for the moment no renewed denial. Little Bilham, taking his course back to the music, only shook his good-natured ears an instant, in the manner of a terrier who has got wet; while Strether relapsed into the sense—which had for him in these days most of comfort—that he was free to believe in anything that from hour to hour kept him going. He had positively motions and flutters of this conscious hour-to-hour kind, temporary surrenders to irony, to fancy, frequent instinctive snatches at the growing rose of observation, constantly stronger for him, as he felt, in scent and colour, and in which he could bury his nose even to wantonness. This last resource was offered him, for that matter, in the very form of his next clear perception—the vision of a prompt meeting, in the doorway of the room, between little Bilham and brilliant Miss Barrace, who was entering as Bilham withdrew. She had apparently put him a question, to which he had replied by turning to indicate his late interlocutor; toward whom, after an interrogation further aided by a resort to that optical machinery which seemed, like her other ornaments, curious and archaic, the genial lady, suggesting more than ever for her fellow guest the old French print, the historic portrait, directed herself with an intention that Strether instantly met. He knew in advance the first note she would sound, and took in as she approached all her need of sounding it. Nothing yet had been so “wonderful” between them as the present occasion; and it was her special sense of this quality in occasions that she was there, as she was in most places, to feed. That sense had already been so well fed by the situation about them that she had quitted the other room, forsaken the music, dropped out of the play, abandoned, in a word, the stage itself, that she might stand a minute behind the scenes with Strether and so perhaps figure as one of the famous augurs replying, behind the oracle, to the wink of the other. Seated near him presently where little Bilham had sat, she replied in truth to many things; beginning as soon as he had said to her—what he hoped he said without fatuity—“All you ladies are extraordinarily kind to me.”
The most he could tell himself—as his young friend turned away—was that for now, there was no fresh denial of the charge. Little Bilham, heading back to the music, only shook his good-natured ears for a moment, like a wet terrier; while Strether fell back into the comforting realization that he was free to believe in anything that kept him going from hour to hour. He had these conscious moments—temporary surrenders to irony and fancy, frequent instinctive grabs at the blooming rose of observation, which felt stronger than ever in scent and color, and in which he could indulge himself. This last distraction came to him in the form of his next clear perception—seeing little Bilham meet the dazzling Miss Barrace in the doorway as he left. She had seemingly asked him something, to which he responded by pointing to the person he had just been talking to; toward whom, after another inquiry aided by a glance through that optical machinery which seemed, like her other adornments, fascinating and old-fashioned, the charming lady—who reminded Strether more than ever of an old French print, a historical portrait—made her way with an intention that Strether immediately sensed. He knew in advance what her first line would be, and he could see that she needed to say it. Nothing had ever been as “wonderful” between them as this moment; and it was her particular knack for recognizing this quality of moments that brought her here, as it did in most places, to engage with it. That sense had already been so well catered to by the situation around them that she had left the other room, abandoned the music, exited the play, in other words, left the stage itself, so she could stand for a moment backstage with Strether, possibly acting like one of the famous soothsayers responding, behind the oracle, to the other’s cue. Soon seated near him where little Bilham had been, she indeed responded to many things; starting right after he said to her—what he hoped didn’t sound ridiculous—“All you ladies are extraordinarily kind to me.”
She played her long handle, which shifted her observation; she saw in an instant all the absences that left them free. “How can we be anything else? But isn’t that exactly your plight? ‘We ladies’—oh we’re nice, and you must be having enough of us! As one of us, you know, I don’t pretend I’m crazy about us. But Miss Gostrey at least to-night has left you alone, hasn’t she?” With which she again looked about as if Maria might still lurk.
She played with her long handle, which changed her perspective; she instantly noticed all the absences that allowed them to be free. “How can we be anything else? But isn’t that your problem? ‘We ladies’—oh we’re sweet, and you must be tired of us! As one of us, you know, I won’t pretend I’m crazy about us. But at least Miss Gostrey has left you alone tonight, hasn’t she?” With that, she looked around again as if Maria might still be hiding.
“Oh yes,” said Strether; “she’s only sitting up for me at home.” And then as this elicited from his companion her gay “Oh, oh, oh!” he explained that he meant sitting up in suspense and prayer. “We thought it on the whole better she shouldn’t be present; and either way of course it’s a terrible worry for her.” He abounded in the sense of his appeal to the ladies, and they might take their choice of his doing so from humility or from pride. “Yet she inclines to believe I shall come out.”
“Oh yes,” Strether said, “she's just waiting up for me at home.” As this prompted a cheerful “Oh, oh, oh!” from his companion, he clarified that he meant waiting in suspense and prayer. “We figured it’d be better if she wasn’t here; either way, it’s a huge worry for her.” He felt confident in how he appealed to the ladies, and they could interpret it as either humility or pride. “Still, she seems to believe I’ll come through.”
“Oh I incline to believe too you’ll come out!”—Miss Barrace, with her laugh, was not to be behind. “Only the question’s about where, isn’t it? However,” she happily continued, “if it’s anywhere at all it must be very far on, mustn’t it? To do us justice, I think, you know,” she laughed, “we do, among us all, want you rather far on. Yes, yes,” she repeated in her quick droll way; “we want you very, very far on!” After which she wished to know why he had thought it better Maria shouldn’t be present.
“Oh, I believe you’ll come through!”—Miss Barrace, laughing, was determined not to be left out. “But the real question is where, right? Still,” she continued cheerfully, “if it’s anywhere, it has to be pretty far along, doesn’t it? To be fair, I think we all want you to go rather far. Yes, yes,” she repeated in her quick, playful way; “we want you very, very far along!” After that, she wanted to know why he thought it was better for Maria not to be there.
“Oh,” he replied, “it was really her own idea. I should have wished it. But she dreads responsibility.”
“Oh,” he replied, “it was really her own idea. I should have wanted that. But she fears responsibility.”
“And isn’t that a new thing for her?”
“And isn’t that something new for her?”
“To dread it? No doubt—no doubt. But her nerve has given way.”
“To be afraid of it? Absolutely—absolutely. But she’s lost her nerve.”
Miss Barrace looked at him a moment. “She has too much at stake.” Then less gravely: “Mine, luckily for me, holds out.”
Miss Barrace looked at him for a moment. “She has too much to lose.” Then, less seriously: “Fortunately for me, mine is secure.”
“Luckily for me too”—Strether came back to that. “My own isn’t so firm, my appetite for responsibility isn’t so sharp, as that I haven’t felt the very principle of this occasion to be ‘the more the merrier.’ If we are so merry it’s because Chad has understood so well.”
“Luckily for me too”—Strether came back to that. “My own isn’t so firm, my appetite for responsibility isn’t so sharp, that I haven’t felt the very principle of this occasion to be ‘the more the merrier.’ If we are so merry it’s because Chad has understood so well.”
“He has understood amazingly,” said Miss Barrace.
“He has understood incredibly well,” said Miss Barrace.
“It’s wonderful—Strether anticipated for her.
“It’s amazing—Strether expected this for her.
“It’s wonderful!” she, to meet it, intensified; so that, face to face over it, they largely and recklessly laughed. But she presently added: “Oh I see the principle. If one didn’t one would be lost. But when once one has got hold of it—”
“It’s amazing!” she exclaimed, getting more excited; so that, face to face over it, they laughed heartily and carelessly. But she soon added: “Oh, I understand the principle. If you didn’t, you would be lost. But once you grasp it—”
“It’s as simple as twice two! From the moment he had to do something—”
“It’s as simple as two times two! From the moment he had to do something—”
“A crowd”—she took him straight up—“was the only thing? Rather, rather: a rumpus of sound,” she laughed, “or nothing. Mrs. Pocock’s built in, or built out—whichever you call it; she’s packed so tight she can’t move. She’s in splendid isolation”—Miss Barrace embroidered the theme.
“A crowd”—she took him straight up—“was that all? No, no: a lot of noise,” she laughed, “or nothing at all. Mrs. Pocock’s built in, or built out—whatever you want to call it; she’s so crammed in she can’t move. She’s in splendid isolation”—Miss Barrace elaborated on the idea.
Strether followed, but scrupulous of justice. “Yet with every one in the place successively introduced to her.”
Strether followed, but careful about fairness. “Yet with everyone in the place introduced to her one after another.”
“Wonderfully—but just so that it does build her out. She’s bricked up, she’s buried alive!”
“Wonderfully—but just enough to make her look fuller. She’s walled in, she’s buried alive!”
Strether seemed for a moment to look at it; but it brought him to a sigh. “Oh but she’s not dead! It will take more than this to kill her.”
Strether paused for a moment to consider it; then he let out a sigh. “Oh, but she’s not dead! It’ll take more than this to take her down.”
His companion had a pause that might have been for pity. “No, I can’t pretend I think she’s finished—or that it’s for more than to-night.” She remained pensive as if with the same compunction. “It’s only up to her chin.” Then again for the fun of it: “She can breathe.”
His companion hesitated, possibly out of sympathy. “No, I can’t pretend I believe she’s done—or that it’s for anything more than tonight.” She seemed thoughtful, as if feeling the same guilt. “It’s only up to her chin.” Then, jokingly: “She can breathe.”
“She can breathe!”—he echoed it in the same spirit. “And do you know,” he went on, “what’s really all this time happening to me?—through the beauty of music, the gaiety of voices, the uproar in short of our revel and the felicity of your wit? The sound of Mrs. Pocock’s respiration drowns for me, I assure you, every other. It’s literally all I hear.”
“She can breathe!”—he repeated it with the same enthusiasm. “And do you know,” he continued, “what’s really been happening to me?—through the beauty of music, the joy of voices, the chaos of our celebration, and the brilliance of your humor? The sound of Mrs. Pocock’s breathing drowns out everything else for me, I promise you. It’s literally all I hear.”
She focussed him with her clink of chains. “Well—!” she breathed ever so kindly.
She caught his attention with the sound of her chains. “Well—!” she said with a kind breath.
“Well, what?”
“Well, what’s up?”
“She is free from her chin up,” she mused; “and that will be enough for her.”
“She is free from the chin up,” she thought; “and that will be enough for her.”
“It will be enough for me!” Strether ruefully laughed. “Waymarsh has really,” he then asked, “brought her to see you?”
“It'll be enough for me!” Strether laughed ruefully. “Waymarsh has really,” he then asked, “brought her to see you?”
“Yes—but that’s the worst of it. I could do you no good. And yet I tried hard.”
“Yes—but that’s the worst part. I couldn’t do anything to help you. And still, I tried my best.”
Strether wondered. “And how did you try?”
Strether asked, “So, how did you go about it?”
“Why I didn’t speak of you.”
“Why I didn’t talk about you.”
“I see. That was better.”
"Got it. That was better."
“Then what would have been worse? For speaking or silent,” she lightly wailed, “I somehow ‘compromise.’ And it has never been any one but you.”
“Then what would have been worse? For speaking or being silent,” she lightly cried, “I somehow ‘compromise.’ And it's never been anyone but you.”
“That shows”—he was magnanimous—“that it’s something not in you, but in one’s self. It’s my fault.”
"That shows"—he was generous—"that it’s something not in you, but in yourself. It’s my fault."
She was silent a little. “No, it’s Mr. Waymarsh’s. It’s the fault of his having brought her.”
She stayed quiet for a moment. “No, it’s Mr. Waymarsh’s fault. He was the one who brought her.”
“Ah then,” said Strether good-naturedly, “why did he bring her?”
“Ah then,” said Strether kindly, “why did he bring her?”
“He couldn’t afford not to.”
"He couldn't afford to miss."
“Oh you were a trophy—one of the spoils of conquest? But why in that case, since you do ‘compromise’—”
“Oh, you were a trophy—one of the spoils of victory? But why, in that case, since you do ‘compromise’—”
“Don’t I compromise him as well? I do compromise him as well,” Miss Barrace smiled. “I compromise him as hard as I can. But for Mr. Waymarsh it isn’t fatal. It’s—so far as his wonderful relation with Mrs. Pocock is concerned—favourable.” And then, as he still seemed slightly at sea: “The man who had succeeded with me, don’t you see? For her to get him from me was such an added incentive.”
“Don’t I compromise him too? I definitely compromise him,” Miss Barrace smiled. “I compromise him as much as I can. But for Mr. Waymarsh, it’s not a big deal. As far as his amazing relationship with Mrs. Pocock goes, it’s actually good for him.” And then, seeing that he still looked a bit confused: “The guy who was successful with me, you know? For her to take him from me was such an extra motivation.”
Strether saw, but as if his path was still strewn with surprises. “It’s ‘from’ you then that she has got him?”
Strether saw, but it felt like his path was still full of surprises. “So she got him from you, then?”
She was amused at his momentary muddle. “You can fancy my fight! She believes in her triumph. I think it has been part of her joy.
She was entertained by his brief confusion. “Imagine my struggle! She truly believes she's going to win. I think that's been part of her happiness.”
“Oh her joy!” Strether sceptically murmured.
“Oh, her joy!” Strether said skeptically.
“Well, she thinks she has had her own way. And what’s to-night for her but a kind of apotheosis? Her frock’s really good.”
“Well, she thinks she’s gotten her way. And what’s tonight for her but a sort of celebration? Her dress looks really great.”
“Good enough to go to heaven in? For after a real apotheosis,” Strether went on, “there’s nothing but heaven. For Sarah there’s only to-morrow.”
“Good enough to go to heaven in? Because after a true apotheosis,” Strether continued, “there’s nothing but heaven. For Sarah, there’s only tomorrow.”
“And you mean that she won’t find to-morrow heavenly?”
“And you mean that she won’t find tomorrow amazing?”
“Well, I mean that I somehow feel to-night—on her behalf—too good to be true. She has had her cake; that is she’s in the act now of having it, of swallowing the largest and sweetest piece. There won’t be another left for her. Certainly I haven’t one. It can only, at the best, be Chad.” He continued to make it out as for their common entertainment. “He may have one, as it were, up his sleeve; yet it’s borne in upon me that if he had—”
"Well, I mean that I somehow feel tonight—on her behalf—too good to be true. She’s had her cake; that is, she’s in the process of enjoying the largest and sweetest piece. There won’t be another left for her. Certainly, I don’t have one. It can only, at best, be Chad.” He kept framing it as a shared experience. “He might have one, so to speak, up his sleeve; yet it’s becoming clear to me that if he did—”
“He wouldn’t”—she quite understood—“have taken all this trouble? I dare say not, and, if I may be quite free and dreadful, I very much hope he won’t take any more. Of course I won’t pretend now,” she added, “not to know what it’s a question of.”
“He wouldn’t”—she understood perfectly—“have gone through all this trouble? I doubt it, and, if I can be completely honest and blunt, I really hope he doesn’t take any more. Of course I won’t pretend now,” she added, “that I don’t know what this is about.”
“Oh every one must know now,” poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; “and it’s strange enough and funny enough that one should feel everybody here at this very moment to be knowing and watching and waiting.”
“Oh, everyone must know now,” poor Strether thoughtfully admitted; “and it’s strange enough and funny enough that one should feel everybody here at this very moment to be aware and observing and waiting.”
“Yes—isn’t it indeed funny?” Miss Barrace quite rose to it. “That’s the way we are in Paris.” She was always pleased with a new contribution to that queerness. “It’s wonderful! But, you know,” she declared, “it all depends on you. I don’t want to turn the knife in your vitals, but that’s naturally what you just now meant by our all being on top of you. We know you as the hero of the drama, and we’re gathered to see what you’ll do.”
“Yes—it really is funny, isn’t it?” Miss Barrace got quite into it. “That’s just how we are in Paris.” She always enjoyed a new addition to that weirdness. “It's amazing! But, you know,” she said, “it all depends on you. I don’t want to twist the knife in your wounds, but that’s exactly what you just meant by all of us being on top of you. We see you as the hero of the story, and we’re here to see what you’ll do.”
Strether looked at her a moment with a light perhaps slightly obscured. “I think that must be why the hero has taken refuge in this corner. He’s scared at his heroism—he shrinks from his part.”
Strether looked at her for a moment, his expression maybe a bit unclear. “I guess that’s why the hero has hidden away in this corner. He’s afraid of his own heroism—he’s backing away from his role.”
“Ah but we nevertheless believe he’ll play it. That’s why,” Miss Barrace kindly went on, “we take such an interest in you. We feel you’ll come up to the scratch.” And then as he seemed perhaps not quite to take fire: “Don’t let him do it.”
“Ah, but we still believe he’ll do it. That’s why,” Miss Barrace said kindly, “we’re so interested in you. We think you’ll rise to the occasion.” And then, seeing he didn’t seem too enthusiastic: “Don’t let him do it.”
“Don’t let Chad go?”
"Don't let Chad leave?"
“Yes, keep hold of him. With all this”—and she indicated the general tribute—“he has done enough. We love him here—he’s charming.”
“Yeah, hold onto him. With all this”—and she gestured to the general tribute—“he’s done enough. We love him here—he’s great.”
“It’s beautiful,” said Strether, “the way you all can simplify when you will.”
“It’s beautiful,” Strether said, “how you all can simplify whenever you want.”
But she gave it to him back. “It’s nothing to the way you will when you must.”
But she handed it back to him. “It’s nothing like how you will when you have to.”
He winced at it as at the very voice of prophecy, and it kept him a moment quiet. He detained her, however, on her appearing about to leave him alone in the rather cold clearance their talk had made. “There positively isn’t a sign of a hero to-night; the hero’s dodging and shirking, the hero’s ashamed. Therefore, you know, I think, what you must all really be occupied with is the heroine.”
He flinched at it like it was a prophetic voice, and it quieted him for a moment. However, he stopped her as she seemed ready to leave him alone in the somewhat chilly space their conversation had created. “There really isn’t any sign of a hero tonight; the hero is avoiding and hiding, the hero is embarrassed. So, you see, I think what you all should really focus on is the heroine.”
Miss Barrace took a minute. “The heroine?”
Miss Barrace paused for a moment. “The heroine?”
“The heroine. I’ve treated her,” said Strether, “not a bit like a hero. Oh,” he sighed, “I don’t do it well!”
“The heroine. I’ve treated her,” said Strether, “not at all like a hero. Oh,” he sighed, “I really don’t do this well!”
She eased him off. “You do it as you can.” And then after another hesitation: “I think she’s satisfied.”
She let him go. “You do it at your own pace.” And after a moment of hesitation: “I think she’s happy.”
But he remained compunctious. “I haven’t been near her. I haven’t looked at her.”
But he still felt guilty. "I haven't been close to her. I haven't even looked at her."
“Ah then you’ve lost a good deal!”
“Ah, then you’ve lost a lot!”
He showed he knew it. “She’s more wonderful than ever?”
He made it clear he understood. “She’s more amazing than ever?”
“Than ever. With Mr. Pocock.”
“More than ever. With Mr. Pocock.”
Strether wondered. “Madame de Vionnet—with Jim?”
Strether thought to himself, “Madame de Vionnet—with Jim?”
“Madame de Vionnet—with ‘Jim.’” Miss Barrace was historic.
“Madame de Vionnet—with ‘Jim.’” Miss Barrace was a legend.
“And what’s she doing with him?”
“And what’s she doing with him?”
“Ah you must ask him!”
“Ah, you should ask him!”
Strether’s face lighted again at the prospect. “It will be amusing to do so.” Yet he continued to wonder. “But she must have some idea.”
Strether’s face lit up again at the thought. “It will be fun to do that.” Still, he kept wondering. “But she must have some idea.”
“Of course she has—she has twenty ideas. She has in the first place,” said Miss Barrace, swinging a little her tortoise-shell, “that of doing her part. Her part is to help you.”
“Of course she has—she has twenty ideas. First of all,” said Miss Barrace, lightly swinging her tortoise-shell glasses, “her thing is to do her part. Her part is to help you.”
It came out as nothing had come yet; links were missing and connexions unnamed, but it was suddenly as if they were at the heart of their subject. “Yes; how much more she does it,” Strether gravely reflected, “than I help her!” It all came over him as with the near presence of the beauty, the grace, the intense, dissimulated spirit with which he had, as he said, been putting off contact. “She has courage.”
It felt like nothing had happened yet; connections were missing and names unspoken, but suddenly it seemed like they were at the core of their topic. “Yes; how much more she does it,” Strether thought seriously, “than I help her!” It all hit him like the close presence of the beauty, the grace, the intense, hidden spirit he had, as he put it, been avoiding. “She has courage.”
“Ah she has courage!” Miss Barrace quite agreed; and it was as if for a moment they saw the quantity in each other’s face.
“Wow, she has guts!” Miss Barrace completely agreed; and it felt like for a moment they saw the value in each other’s expression.
But indeed the whole thing was present. “How much she must care!”
But really, it was all there. “She must care a lot!”
“Ah there it is. She does care. But it isn’t, is it,” Miss Barrace considerately added, “as if you had ever had any doubt of that?”
“Ah, there it is. She does care. But it isn’t, is it,” Miss Barrace thoughtfully added, “like you ever doubted that?”
Strether seemed suddenly to like to feel that he really never had. “Why of course it’s the whole point.”
Strether suddenly felt like he really never had. “Of course, that’s the whole point.”
“Voilà!” Miss Barrace smiled.
“Here you go!” Miss Barrace smiled.
“It’s why one came out,” Strether went on. “And it’s why one has stayed so long. And it’s also”—he abounded—“why one’s going home. It’s why, it’s why—”
“It’s why someone came out,” Strether continued. “And it’s why someone has stayed so long. And it’s also”—he elaborated—“why someone’s going home. It’s why, it’s why—”
“It’s why everything!” she concurred. “It’s why she might be to-night—for all she looks and shows, and for all your friend ‘Jim’ does—about twenty years old. That’s another of her ideas; to be for him, and to be quite easily and charmingly, as young as a little girl.”
“It’s everything!” she agreed. “It’s why she might be tonight—for all she looks and acts, and for everything your friend ‘Jim’ does—about twenty years old. That’s one of her ideas; to be for him, and to be effortlessly and charmingly as young as a little girl.”
Strether assisted at his distance. “‘For him’? For Chad—?”
Strether helped from afar. “‘For him’? For Chad—?”
“For Chad, in a manner, naturally, always. But in particular to-night for Mr. Pocock.” And then as her friend still stared: “Yes, it is of a bravery! But that’s what she has: her high sense of duty.” It was more than sufficiently before them. “When Mr. Newsome has his hands so embarrassed with his sister—”
“For Chad, in a way, always. But especially tonight for Mr. Pocock.” And then, as her friend continued to stare: “Yes, it *is* brave! But that's what she has: her strong sense of duty.” It was more than clear to them. “When Mr. Newsome is so tied up with his sister—”
“It’s quite the least”—Strether filled it out—“that she should take his sister’s husband? Certainly—quite the least. So she has taken him.”
“It’s definitely the least”—Strether elaborated—“that she should be with his sister’s husband? Absolutely—definitely the least. So she is with him.”
“She has taken him.” It was all Miss Barrace had meant.
“She has taken him.” That was all Miss Barrace meant.
Still it remained enough. “It must be funny.”
Still, it was enough. “It must be funny.”
“Oh it is funny.” That of course essentially went with it.
“Oh it is funny.” That of course basically went along with it.
But it brought them back. “How indeed then she must care!” In answer to which Strether’s entertainer dropped a comprehensive “Ah!” expressive perhaps of some impatience for the time he took to get used to it. She herself had got used to it long before.
But it brought them back. “Wow, she must really care!” To which Strether’s host replied with a broad “Ah!” that might show some impatience for how long it took him to get used to it. She had gotten used to it long ago.
II
When one morning within the week he perceived the whole thing to be really at last upon him Strether’s immediate feeling was all relief. He had known this morning that something was about to happen—known it, in a moment, by Waymarsh’s manner when Waymarsh appeared before him during his brief consumption of coffee and a roll in the small slippery salle-à-manger so associated with rich rumination. Strether had taken there of late various lonely and absent-minded meals; he communed there, even at the end of June, with a suspected chill, the air of old shivers mixed with old savours, the air in which so many of his impressions had perversely matured; the place meanwhile renewing its message to him by the very circumstance of his single state. He now sat there, for the most part, to sigh softly, while he vaguely tilted his carafe, over the vision of how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That was really his success by the common measure—to have led this companion so on and on. He remembered how at first there had been scarce a squatting-place he could beguile him into passing; the actual outcome of which at last was that there was scarce one that could arrest him in his rush. His rush—as Strether vividly and amusedly figured it—continued to be all with Sarah, and contained perhaps moreover the word of the whole enigma, whipping up in its fine full-flavoured froth the very principle, for good or for ill, of his own, of Strether’s destiny. It might after all, to the end, only be that they had united to save him, and indeed, so far as Waymarsh was concerned, that had to be the spring of action. Strether was glad at all events, in connexion with the case, that the saving he required was not more scant; so constituted a luxury was it in certain lights just to lurk there out of the full glare. He had moments of quite seriously wondering whether Waymarsh wouldn’t in fact, thanks to old friendship and a conceivable indulgence, make about as good terms for him as he might make for himself. They wouldn’t be the same terms of course; but they might have the advantage that he himself probably should be able to make none at all.
One morning during the week, when he realized that everything was finally catching up with him, Strether felt a wave of relief. He had sensed that something was coming—he could tell in an instant by Waymarsh’s demeanor when Waymarsh showed up while he was having a quick coffee and a pastry in the small, slippery salle-à-manger, a place so connected with deep thoughts. Lately, Strether had eaten there many solitary and distracted meals; even at the end of June, he felt a hint of chill in the air, a mix of old shivers and lingering tastes, the atmosphere in which so many of his experiences had oddly developed; the place continuously reminded him of his single status. He usually sat there now to softly sigh while aiming his carafe, thinking about how much better Waymarsh was occupied. That was truly his achievement by common standards—to have led this companion along so far. He recalled how, at first, there had been hardly any spot that he could entice Waymarsh into staying; ultimately, there was hardly one that could slow him down. His rush—as Strether vividly and humorously imagined it—was still entirely centered on Sarah, and perhaps that very situation held the key to the whole mystery, stirring up in its rich foam the essence, for better or worse, of Strether's own fate. It might just turn out that they had come together to rescue him, and indeed, as far as Waymarsh was concerned, that was definitely the driving force. In any case, Strether felt grateful that the help he needed wasn't lacking; just to linger there away from the bright light felt like a certain kind of luxury. He sometimes seriously wondered if Waymarsh wouldn’t, thanks to their old friendship and a possible leniency, negotiate terms for him that might be as good as he could arrange for himself. They wouldn’t be the same terms, of course; but they might have the advantage that he likely wouldn’t be able to arrange any at all.
He was never in the morning very late, but Waymarsh had already been out, and, after a peep into the dim refectory, he presented himself with much less than usual of his large looseness. He had made sure, through the expanse of glass exposed to the court, that they would be alone; and there was now in fact that about him that pretty well took up the room. He was dressed in the garments of summer; and save that his white waistcoat was redundant and bulging these things favoured, they determined, his expression. He wore a straw hat such as his friend hadn’t yet seen in Paris, and he showed a buttonhole freshly adorned with a magnificent rose. Strether read on the instant his story—how, astir for the previous hour, the sprinkled newness of the day, so pleasant at that season in Paris, he was fairly panting with the pulse of adventure and had been with Mrs. Pocock, unmistakeably, to the Marché aux Fleurs. Strether really knew in this vision of him a joy that was akin to envy; so reversed as he stood there did their old positions seem; so comparatively doleful now showed, by the sharp turn of the wheel, the posture of the pilgrim from Woollett. He wondered, this pilgrim, if he had originally looked to Waymarsh so brave and well, so remarkably launched, as it was at present the latter’s privilege to appear. He recalled that his friend had remarked to him even at Chester that his aspect belied his plea of prostration; but there certainly couldn’t have been, for an issue, an aspect less concerned than Waymarsh’s with the menace of decay. Strether had at any rate never resembled a Southern planter of the great days—which was the image picturesquely suggested by the happy relation between the fuliginous face and the wide panama of his visitor. This type, it further amused him to guess, had been, on Waymarsh’s part, the object of Sarah’s care; he was convinced that her taste had not been a stranger to the conception and purchase of the hat, any more than her fine fingers had been guiltless of the bestowal of the rose. It came to him in the current of thought, as things so oddly did come, that he had never risen with the lark to attend a brilliant woman to the Marché aux Fleurs; this could be fastened on him in connexion neither with Miss Gostrey nor with Madame de Vionnet; the practice of getting up early for adventures could indeed in no manner be fastened on him. It came to him in fact that just here was his usual case: he was for ever missing things through his general genius for missing them, while others were for ever picking them up through a contrary bent. And it was others who looked abstemious and he who looked greedy; it was he somehow who finally paid, and it was others who mainly partook. Yes, he should go to the scaffold yet for he wouldn’t know quite whom. He almost, for that matter, felt on the scaffold now and really quite enjoying it. It worked out as because he was anxious there—it worked out as for this reason that Waymarsh was so blooming. It was his trip for health, for a change, that proved the success—which was just what Strether, planning and exerting himself, had desired it should be. That truth already sat full-blown on his companion’s lips; benevolence breathed from them as with the warmth of active exercise, and also a little as with the bustle of haste.
He was never really late in the morning, but Waymarsh had already been out, and after a glance into the dim dining hall, he showed up looking a lot more put together than usual. He had checked through the big glass windows facing the courtyard, ensuring they’d be alone; and there was something about him that filled the space pretty well. He was dressed in summer clothes, and aside from his white vest being a bit too tight and bulging, they seemed to highlight his demeanor. He wore a straw hat that his friend hadn't seen yet in Paris, and he had a freshly pinned rose in his buttonhole. In an instant, Strether grasped his story—how, having been up for the past hour in the sprinkled freshness of the morning, which was so lovely this time of year in Paris, he was practically buzzing with excitement and had certainly been to the Marché aux Fleurs with Mrs. Pocock. Strether experienced a joy that felt a bit like envy; their old roles seemed so reversed in that moment; and by the sharp turn of fate, the way he stood now made him appear relatively miserable compared to the lively Waymarsh. He wondered if he had looked that brave and well-prepared to Waymarsh at the start, as Waymarsh now appeared. He remembered that even back in Chester, his friend had said that his appearance contradicted his claim of exhaustion; but there was certainly nothing in Waymarsh’s look that suggested the threat of decline. Strether had never resembled a Southern plantation owner from the good old days—which was the image evoked by the happy contrast between the dark face and the wide Panama hat of his visitor. It also amused him to think that this type had likely been the object of Sarah's attention; he was sure her taste had been involved in both the idea and purchase of the hat, just as her delicate fingers had certainly helped in selecting the rose. It occurred to him, in this stream of thought, that he had never gotten up at dawn to accompany a beautiful woman to the Marché aux Fleurs; he couldn’t connect this experience with either Miss Gostrey or Madame de Vionnet; the habit of waking up early for adventures simply didn’t apply to him. It struck him that this was a typical situation for him: he was always missing out on things due to his natural tendency to overlook them, while others were always picking them up thanks to their opposite inclination. Others appeared disciplined, while he seemed indulgent; somehow, he was the one who ended up paying, while others benefited more. Yes, he wondered if he would end up on the gallows yet for some reason he couldn’t quite pinpoint. He almost felt like he was on the gallows now and was actually enjoying it. It seemed to happen because of his anxiety about it—this was why Waymarsh was so vibrant. It was his journey for health and change that turned out to be successful—which was exactly what Strether had hoped for while planning and pushing himself. That truth was already evident on his companion’s lips; kindness radiated from them as if from the warmth of physical activity, and also a bit from a sense of urgency.
“Mrs. Pocock, whom I left a quarter of an hour ago at her hotel, has asked me to mention to you that she would like to find you at home here in about another hour. She wants to see you; she has something to say—or considers, I believe, that you may have: so that I asked her myself why she shouldn’t come right round. She hasn’t been round yet—to see our place; and I took upon myself to say that I was sure you’d be glad to have her. The thing’s therefore, you see, to keep right here till she comes.”
“Mrs. Pocock, whom I left about fifteen minutes ago at her hotel, asked me to let you know that she would like to see you at home in about an hour. She has something to discuss with you—or thinks you might. So, I asked her why she shouldn’t just come over. She hasn’t been over yet to see our place, and I took the liberty of saying that I was sure you’d be happy to have her. So, we should just stay here until she arrives.”
The announcement was sociably, even though, after Waymarsh’s wont, somewhat solemnly made; but Strether quickly felt other things in it than these light features. It was the first approach, from that quarter, to admitted consciousness; it quickened his pulse; it simply meant at last that he should have but himself to thank if he didn’t know where he was. He had finished his breakfast; he pushed it away and was on his feet. There were plenty of elements of surprise, but only one of doubt. “The thing’s for you to keep here too?” Waymarsh had been slightly ambiguous.
The announcement was casual, but, in keeping with Waymarsh’s usual demeanor, it carried a bit of seriousness; however, Strether quickly sensed deeper meanings beyond the light tone. This was the first move towards acceptance from that side; it made his heart race; it meant that if he didn’t know where he stood, he had only himself to blame. He had finished his breakfast, pushed the plate aside, and stood up. There were many surprising elements, but only one that caused uncertainty. “So, it’s for you to keep here too?” Waymarsh had been a bit unclear.
He wasn’t ambiguous, however, after this enquiry; and Strether’s understanding had probably never before opened so wide and effective a mouth as it was to open during the next five minutes. It was no part of his friend’s wish, as appeared, to help to receive Mrs. Pocock; he quite understood the spirit in which she was to present herself, but his connexion with her visit was limited to his having—well, as he might say—perhaps a little promoted it. He had thought, and had let her know it, that Strether possibly would think she might have been round before. At any rate, as turned out, she had been wanting herself, quite a while, to come. “I told her,” said Waymarsh, “that it would have been a bright idea if she had only carried it out before.”
He was clear, though, after that question; and Strether's understanding had probably never been so wide and effective as it was going to be in the next five minutes. It wasn't his friend's intention, as it seemed, to help welcome Mrs. Pocock; he totally understood the way she intended to present herself, but his connection to her visit was just that he had—well, as he might say—maybe encouraged it a bit. He thought, and let her know, that Strether might have thought she could have visited earlier. In any case, as it turned out, she had been wanting to come for quite a while. “I told her,” Waymarsh said, “that it would have been a great idea if she had just gone through with it before.”
Strether pronounced it so bright as to be almost dazzling. “But why hasn’t she carried it out before? She has seen me every day—she had only to name her hour. I’ve been waiting and waiting.”
Strether said it was so bright it was almost blinding. “But why hasn't she done it before? She's seen me every day—she just had to pick a time. I've been waiting and waiting.”
“Well, I told her you had. And she has been waiting too.” It was, in the oddest way in the world, on the showing of this tone, a genial new pressing coaxing Waymarsh; a Waymarsh conscious with a different consciousness from any he had yet betrayed, and actually rendered by it almost insinuating. He lacked only time for full persuasion, and Strether was to see in a moment why. Meantime, however, our friend perceived, he was announcing a step of some magnanimity on Mrs. Pocock’s part, so that he could deprecate a sharp question. It was his own high purpose in fact to have smoothed sharp questions to rest. He looked his old comrade very straight in the eyes, and he had never conveyed to him in so mute a manner so much kind confidence and so much good advice. Everything that was between them was again in his face, but matured and shelved and finally disposed of. “At any rate,” he added, “she’s coming now.”
“Well, I told her you did. And she’s been waiting too.” It was, in the strangest way, a friendly and persuasive Waymarsh; a Waymarsh aware of a different mindset than he had shown before, almost coming off as insinuating because of it. He just needed a little more time for full convincing, and Strether was about to understand why. In the meantime, our friend realized he was announcing a rather generous gesture on Mrs. Pocock’s part, which allowed him to avoid a tough question. His true intention was to put those tough questions to rest. He looked his old friend straight in the eyes, conveying an enormous amount of kind confidence and good advice without saying a word. Everything that had transpired between them was reflected in his expression, but it was now resolved and settled. “At any rate,” he added, “she’s coming now.”
Considering how many pieces had to fit themselves, it all fell, in Strether’s brain, into a close rapid order. He saw on the spot what had happened, and what probably would yet; and it was all funny enough. It was perhaps just this freedom of appreciation that wound him up to his flare of high spirits. “What is she coming for?—to kill me?”
Considering how many pieces had to fit together, everything fell into a quick, clear order in Strether’s mind. He immediately understood what had happened and what was likely to happen next, and it was all kind of amusing. It was probably this sense of freedom in his thoughts that lifted his spirits. “What is she coming for?—to kill me?”
“She’s coming to be very very kind to you, and you must let me say that I greatly hope you’ll not be less so to herself.”
"She’s becoming really really kind to you, and I truly hope you’ll return the favor and be just as kind to her."
This was spoken by Waymarsh with much gravity of admonition, and as Strether stood there he knew he had but to make a movement to take the attitude of a man gracefully receiving a present. The present was that of the opportunity dear old Waymarsh had flattered himself he had divined in him the slight soreness of not having yet thoroughly enjoyed; so he had brought it to him thus, as on a little silver breakfast-tray, familiarly though delicately—without oppressive pomp; and he was to bend and smile and acknowledge, was to take and use and be grateful. He was not—that was the beauty of it—to be asked to deflect too much from his dignity. No wonder the old boy bloomed in this bland air of his own distillation. Strether felt for a moment as if Sarah were actually walking up and down outside. Wasn’t she hanging about the porte-cochère while her friend thus summarily opened a way? Strether would meet her but to take it, and everything would be for the best in the best of possible worlds. He had never so much known what any one meant as, in the light of this demonstration, he knew what Mrs. Newsome did. It had reached Waymarsh from Sarah, but it had reached Sarah from her mother, and there was no break in the chain by which it reached him. “Has anything particular happened,” he asked after a minute—“so suddenly to determine her? Has she heard anything unexpected from home?”
Waymarsh spoke with a serious tone, and as Strether stood there, he realized he just needed to move to take the stance of someone graciously accepting a gift. This gift was the chance that dear old Waymarsh believed he had sensed in him, the slight longing he hadn’t fully experienced yet; so, he presented it to him as if on a little silver breakfast tray, both casually and delicately—without any overblown ceremony. Strether was meant to bend, smile, and acknowledge it, to accept, utilize, and express gratitude. The beauty of it was that he didn’t have to compromise his dignity too much. No wonder the old man thrived in this pleasant atmosphere of his own making. For a moment, Strether felt as if Sarah was actually pacing outside. Wasn’t she lingering around the entrance while her friend opened up this path for him? Strether would encounter her just to take it, and everything would turn out for the best in the best of all possible worlds. He had never understood anyone so well as he did now what Mrs. Newsome meant, in light of this revelation. It had reached Waymarsh through Sarah, but it had gotten to Sarah from her mother, and there was no break in the chain leading to him. “Has anything special happened,” he asked after a moment—“to make her decide so suddenly? Has she heard anything unexpected from home?”
Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than ever. “‘Unexpected’?” He had a brief hesitation; then, however, he was firm. “We’re leaving Paris.”
Waymarsh, on this, it seemed to him, looked at him harder than ever. “‘Unexpected’?” He paused for a moment; then, however, he was resolute. “We’re leaving Paris.”
“Leaving? That is sudden.”
“Leaving? That’s sudden.”
Waymarsh showed a different opinion. “Less so than it may seem. The purpose of Mrs. Pocock’s visit is to explain to you in fact that it’s not.”
Waymarsh had a different view. “Not as much as it might seem. The reason for Mrs. Pocock’s visit is to actually explain to you that it’s not.”
Strether didn’t at all know if he had really an advantage—anything that would practically count as one; but he enjoyed for the moment—as for the first time in his life—the sense of so carrying it off. He wondered—it was amusing—if he felt as the impudent feel. “I shall take great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation. I shall be delighted to receive Sarah.”
Strether had no idea if he actually had an advantage—something that would genuinely matter; but he was momentarily enjoying—like for the first time in his life—the feeling of pulling it off. He wondered—it was funny—if he felt as bold as the cheeky did. “I will take great pleasure, I assure you, in any explanation. I will be happy to receive Sarah.”
The sombre glow just darkened in his comrade’s eyes; but he was struck with the way it died out again. It was too mixed with another consciousness—it was too smothered, as might be said, in flowers. He really for the time regretted it—poor dear old sombre glow! Something straight and simple, something heavy and empty, had been eclipsed in its company; something by which he had best known his friend. Waymarsh wouldn’t be his friend, somehow, without the occasional ornament of the sacred rage, and the right to the sacred rage—inestimably precious for Strether’s charity—he also seemed in a manner, and at Mrs. Pocock’s elbow, to have forfeited. Strether remembered the occasion early in their stay when on that very spot he had come out with his earnest, his ominous “Quit it!”—and, so remembering, felt it hang by a hair that he didn’t himself now utter the same note. Waymarsh was having a good time—this was the truth that was embarrassing for him, and he was having it then and there, he was having it in Europe, he was having it under the very protection of circumstances of which he didn’t in the least approve; all of which placed him in a false position, with no issue possible—none at least by the grand manner. It was practically in the manner of any one—it was all but in poor Strether’s own—that instead of taking anything up he merely made the most of having to be himself explanatory. “I’m not leaving for the United States direct. Mr. and Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are thinking of a little trip before their own return, and we’ve been talking for some days past of our joining forces. We’ve settled it that we do join and that we sail together the end of next month. But we start to-morrow for Switzerland. Mrs. Pocock wants some scenery. She hasn’t had much yet.”
The dark glow in his friend's eyes just faded; but he was surprised by how quickly it disappeared again. It was too mixed with another feeling—it was too buried, as you might say, in decorations. For a moment, he really regretted it—poor old dark glow! Something straightforward and simple, something heavy and empty, had been overshadowed by it; something that had helped him understand his friend better. Waymarsh wouldn’t *be* his friend, somehow, without the occasional flash of sacred anger, and the right to that sacred anger—indispensable for Strether’s kindness—he also seemed to have lost in a way, especially at Mrs. Pocock’s side. Strether recalled the time early in their stay when he had firmly said “Quit it!” right in that spot—and remembering that, he felt it was a close call that he didn’t now echo the same sentiment. Waymarsh was having a good time—this truth was awkward for him, and he was enjoying himself right then and there, in Europe, under circumstances he didn’t agree with at all; all of which put him in a tough spot, with no way out—none at least in a grand way. It was almost as if anyone could see it—it was practically like poor Strether’s own case—that instead of confronting anything, he simply had to make the best of being the one explaining. “I’m not going straight back to the United States. Mr. and Mrs. Pocock and Miss Mamie are thinking about a little trip before they return, and we’ve been discussing joining forces for a few days. We’ve decided to team up and sail together at the end of next month. But we’re heading out tomorrow for Switzerland. Mrs. Pocock wants to see some scenery. She hasn’t seen much yet.”
He was brave in his way too, keeping nothing back, confessing all there was, and only leaving Strether to make certain connexions. “Is what Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter an injunction to break off short?”
He was brave in his own way too, holding nothing back, admitting everything there was, and just leaving Strether to make certain connections. “Was what Mrs. Newsome had cabled her daughter a command to end it abruptly?”
The grand manner indeed at this just raised its head a little. “I know nothing about Mrs. Newsome’s cables.”
The grand manner definitely just showed itself a bit. “I know nothing about Mrs. Newsome’s cables.”
Their eyes met on it with some intensity—during the few seconds of which something happened quite out of proportion to the time. It happened that Strether, looking thus at his friend, didn’t take his answer for truth—and that something more again occurred in consequence of that. Yes—Waymarsh just did know about Mrs. Newsome’s cables: to what other end than that had they dined together at Bignon’s? Strether almost felt for the instant that it was to Mrs. Newsome herself the dinner had been given; and, for that matter, quite felt how she must have known about it and, as he might think, protected and consecrated it. He had a quick blurred view of daily cables, questions, answers, signals: clear enough was his vision of the expense that, when so wound up, the lady at home was prepared to incur. Vivid not less was his memory of what, during his long observation of her, some of her attainments of that high pitch had cost her. Distinctly she was at the highest now, and Waymarsh, who imagined himself an independent performer, was really, forcing his fine old natural voice, an overstrained accompanist. The whole reference of his errand seemed to mark her for Strether as by this time consentingly familiar to him, and nothing yet had so despoiled her of a special shade of consideration. “You don’t know,” he asked, “whether Sarah has been directed from home to try me on the matter of my also going to Switzerland?”
Their eyes locked with some intensity for a few seconds, during which something occurred that felt much bigger than the time spent. It happened that Strether, gazing at his friend, didn’t take his response as the truth—and something more followed from that. Yes—Waymarsh definitely knew about Mrs. Newsome’s cables: why else had they dined together at Bignon’s? For a moment, Strether almost felt like the dinner was arranged for Mrs. Newsome herself; and, in that light, he could clearly sense how she must have been aware of it and, as he believed, endorsed and blessed it. He had a quick, hazy image of daily cables, questions, answers, signals: he could clearly see the expense that the lady back home was ready to cover when all was said and done. Equally vivid was his memory of what some of her high achievements had cost her during the time he observed her. She was unmistakably at her best now, and Waymarsh, who thought of himself as an independent player, was really just an overstrained accompanist, trying to force out his fine old natural voice. Everything about his mission seemed to mark her in Strether’s eyes as already familiar to him, and nothing so far had stripped her of that special shade of consideration. “Do you know,” he asked, “whether Sarah has been instructed from home to check with me about possibly going to Switzerland too?”
“I know,” said Waymarsh as manfully as possible, “nothing whatever about her private affairs; though I believe her to be acting in conformity with things that have my highest respect.” It was as manful as possible, but it was still the false note—as it had to be to convey so sorry a statement. He knew everything, Strether more and more felt, that he thus disclaimed, and his little punishment was just in this doom to a second fib. What falser position—given the man—could the most vindictive mind impose? He ended by squeezing through a passage in which three months before he would certainly have stuck fast. “Mrs Pocock will probably be ready herself to answer any enquiry you may put to her. But,” he continued, “but—!” He faltered on it.
“I know,” Waymarsh said as bravely as he could, “nothing at all about her personal affairs; though I believe she’s doing what deserves my utmost respect.” It was as brave as he could manage, but it still sounded off—necessary for such a disappointing statement. He realized everything, Strether increasingly felt, that he was denying, and his small punishment was this doomed second lie. What more dishonest position—given the man—could the most spiteful mind impose? He finally squeezed through a space where, three months earlier, he would have definitely gotten stuck. “Mrs. Pocock will probably be ready to answer any questions you might have. But,” he added, “but—!” He stumbled over it.
“But what? Don’t put her too many?”
“But what? Don’t give her too many?”
Waymarsh looked large, but the harm was done; he couldn’t, do what he would, help looking rosy. “Don’t do anything you’ll be sorry for.”
Waymarsh appeared big, but the damage was done; no matter what he tried, he couldn’t help looking cheerful. “Don’t do anything you’ll regret.”
It was an attenuation, Strether guessed, of something else that had been on his lips; it was a sudden drop to directness, and was thereby the voice of sincerity. He had fallen to the supplicating note, and that immediately, for our friend, made a difference and reinstated him. They were in communication as they had been, that first morning, in Sarah’s salon and in her presence and Madame de Vionnet’s; and the same recognition of a great good will was again, after all, possible. Only the amount of response Waymarsh had then taken for granted was doubled, decupled now. This came out when he presently said: “Of course I needn’t assure you I hope you’ll come with us.” Then it was that his implications and expectations loomed up for Strether as almost pathetically gross.
It was a softening, Strether thought, of something else that had been on his lips; it was a sudden shift to straightforwardness, which was the mark of sincerity. He had resorted to a pleading tone, and that immediately made a difference for him and brought him back into the conversation. They were connected as they had been that first morning in Sarah’s living room, in her presence and in Madame de Vionnet’s; and the same acknowledgment of goodwill was once again possible. Only the level of response Waymarsh had then taken for granted was now multiplied many times over. This became clear when he eventually said, “Of course, I don’t need to assure you I hope you’ll come with us.” It was then that his implications and expectations appeared to Strether as almost painfully obvious.
The latter patted his shoulder while he thanked him, giving the go-by to the question of joining the Pococks; he expressed the joy he felt at seeing him go forth again so brave and free, and he in fact almost took leave of him on the spot. “I shall see you again of course before you go; but I’m meanwhile much obliged to you for arranging so conveniently for what you’ve told me. I shall walk up and down in the court there—dear little old court which we’ve each bepaced so, this last couple of months, to the tune of our flights and our drops, our hesitations and our plunges: I shall hang about there, all impatience and excitement, please let Sarah know, till she graciously presents herself. Leave me with her without fear,” he laughed; “I assure you I shan’t hurt her. I don’t think either she’ll hurt me: I’m in a situation in which damage was some time ago discounted. Besides, that isn’t what worries you—but don’t, don’t explain! We’re all right as we are: which was the degree of success our adventure was pledged to for each of us. We weren’t, it seemed, all right as we were before; and we’ve got over the ground, all things considered, quickly. I hope you’ll have a lovely time in the Alps.”
The guy patted his shoulder as he thanked him, skipping over the question of joining the Pococks. He expressed how happy he was to see him going out again so brave and free, and he almost said goodbye right there. “I’ll see you again before you leave, of course; but in the meantime, I really appreciate you setting things up so nicely for what you’ve told me. I’ll be walking back and forth in the court there—dear little old court that we’ve both paced so much over the past couple of months, with our ups and downs, our hesitations and leaps: I’ll be hanging around there, all impatient and excited, so please let Sarah know, until she kindly comes by. Leave me alone with her without worry,” he laughed; “I promise I won’t hurt her. I don’t think she’ll hurt me either: I’m in a situation where damage was already considered long ago. Besides, that’s not what’s bothering you—but please, don’t explain! We’re good as we are: that’s the success our adventure promised each of us. We weren’t, it seems, okay as we were before; and we’ve covered the ground quickly, all things considered. I hope you have a great time in the Alps.”
Waymarsh fairly looked up at him as from the foot of them. “I don’t know as I ought really to go.”
Waymarsh looked up at him almost as if from the bottom of a staircase. “I don’t know if I really should go.”
It was the conscience of Milrose in the very voice of Milrose, but, oh it was feeble and flat! Strether suddenly felt quite ashamed for him; he breathed a greater boldness. “Let yourself, on the contrary, go—in all agreeable directions. These are precious hours—at our age they mayn’t recur. Don’t have it to say to yourself at Milrose, next winter, that you hadn’t courage for them.” And then as his comrade queerly stared: “Live up to Mrs. Pocock.”
It was Milrose's own conscience speaking, but it sounded weak and lifeless! Strether suddenly felt a wave of shame for him; he took a deep breath and felt more daring. “Let yourself, instead, go in all the enjoyable directions. These are valuable hours—at our age, they might not come again. Don’t let yourself think next winter at Milrose that you didn’t have the guts for them.” And then, as his friend looked at him oddly: “Live up to Mrs. Pocock.”
“Live up to her?”
“Live up to her?”
“You’re a great help to her.”
"You're really helping her."
Waymarsh looked at it as at one of the uncomfortable things that were certainly true and that it was yet ironical to say. “It’s more then than you are.”
Waymarsh looked at it like one of those uncomfortable truths that are definitely real but still ironic to mention. “It’s more than you are.”
“That’s exactly your own chance and advantage. Besides,” said Strether, “I do in my way contribute. I know what I’m about.”
“That’s exactly your chance and advantage. Plus,” said Strether, “I do contribute in my way. I know what I’m doing.”
Waymarsh had kept on his great panama, and, as he now stood nearer the door, his last look beneath the shade of it had turned again to darkness and warning. “So do I! See here, Strether.”
Waymarsh had kept on his big Panama hat, and as he stood closer to the door, his final glance beneath its shade had shifted back to darkness and concern. “Me too! Look here, Strether.”
“I know what you’re going to say. ‘Quit this’?”
“I know what you’re going to say. ‘Stop this’?”
“Quit this!” But it lacked its old intensity; nothing of it remained; it went out of the room with him.
“Stop this!” But it didn't have the same intensity as before; nothing of it was left; it left the room with him.
III
Almost the first thing, strangely enough, that, about an hour later, Strether found himself doing in Sarah’s presence was to remark articulately on this failure, in their friend, of what had been superficially his great distinction. It was as if—he alluded of course to the grand manner—the dear man had sacrificed it to some other advantage; which would be of course only for himself to measure. It might be simply that he was physically so much more sound than on his first coming out; this was all prosaic, comparatively cheerful and vulgar. And fortunately, if one came to that, his improvement in health was really itself grander than any manner it could be conceived as having cost him. “You yourself alone, dear Sarah”—Strether took the plunge—“have done him, it strikes me, in these three weeks, as much good as all the rest of his time together.”
Almost the first thing, oddly enough, that Strether found himself doing in Sarah’s presence about an hour later was to clearly point out this shortcoming in their friend, which had superficially been his great distinction. It was as if—he was referring to the grand manner—the dear man had sacrificed it for some other benefit; which would obviously be for him to evaluate. It could be simply that he was physically so much better than he had been when he first arrived; this was all quite ordinary, relatively uplifting, and common. And fortunately, if we look at it that way, his health improvement was genuinely greater than any style it could be imagined to have cost him. “You alone, dear Sarah”—Strether took the plunge—“have done him, it seems to me, in these three weeks, as much good as all the rest of his time combined.”
It was a plunge because somehow the range of reference was, in the conditions, “funny,” and made funnier still by Sarah’s attitude, by the turn the occasion had, with her appearance, so sensibly taken. Her appearance was really indeed funnier than anything else—the spirit in which he felt her to be there as soon as she was there, the shade of obscurity that cleared up for him as soon as he was seated with her in the small salon de lecture that had, for the most part, in all the weeks, witnessed the wane of his early vivacity of discussion with Waymarsh. It was an immense thing, quite a tremendous thing, for her to have come: this truth opened out to him in spite of his having already arrived for himself at a fairly vivid view of it. He had done exactly what he had given Waymarsh his word for—had walked and re-walked the court while he awaited her advent; acquiring in this exercise an amount of light that affected him at the time as flooding the scene. She had decided upon the step in order to give him the benefit of a doubt, in order to be able to say to her mother that she had, even to abjectness, smoothed the way for him. The doubt had been as to whether he mightn’t take her as not having smoothed it—and the admonition had possibly come from Waymarsh’s more detached spirit. Waymarsh had at any rate, certainly, thrown his weight into the scale—he had pointed to the importance of depriving their friend of a grievance. She had done justice to the plea, and it was to set herself right with a high ideal that she actually sat there in her state. Her calculation was sharp in the immobility with which she held her tall parasol-stick upright and at arm’s length, quite as if she had struck the place to plant her flag; in the separate precautions she took not to show as nervous; in the aggressive repose in which she did quite nothing but wait for him. Doubt ceased to be possible from the moment he had taken in that she had arrived with no proposal whatever; that her concern was simply to show what she had come to receive. She had come to receive his submission, and Waymarsh was to have made it plain to him that she would expect nothing less. He saw fifty things, her host, at this convenient stage; but one of those he most saw was that their anxious friend hadn’t quite had the hand required of him. Waymarsh had, however, uttered the request that she might find him mild, and while hanging about the court before her arrival he had turned over with zeal the different ways in which he could be so. The difficulty was that if he was mild he wasn’t, for her purpose, conscious. If she wished him conscious—as everything about her cried aloud that she did—she must accordingly be at costs to make him so. Conscious he was, for himself—but only of too many things; so she must choose the one she required.
It was a leap because somehow the context was “funny,” made even funnier by Sarah’s demeanor and the way the situation had shifted with her arrival. Her presence was honestly more amusing than anything else—he felt her there as soon as she walked in, and the confusion that had been clouding him lifted as soon as he sat with her in the small reading room that had mostly witnessed the decline of his earlier lively discussions with Waymarsh over the past weeks. It was a huge deal, quite a remarkable thing, for her to have come: this realization opened up for him even though he had already formed a pretty clear view of it by himself. He had done exactly what he promised Waymarsh—he had paced back and forth in the courtyard while waiting for her arrival, gaining a sense of clarity during that time that felt overwhelming. She had chosen to come to give him the benefit of the doubt, to be able to tell her mother that she had, even to an embarrassing extent, paved the way for him. The doubt was whether he might perceive her as not having done so—and that advice likely came from Waymarsh’s more objective perspective. Waymarsh had definitely weighed in—he had emphasized the importance of ensuring their friend didn’t feel wronged. She had taken the plea seriously, and it was to align herself with a high ideal that she sat there in her position. Her resolve was evident in how firmly she held her tall parasol upright and at arm’s length, as if she had planted her flag; in the specific measures she took to avoid appearing nervous; in the poised stillness where she did nothing but wait for him. Doubt became impossible the moment he realized she had shown up with no agenda at all; her only goal was to demonstrate what she had come to receive. She had come to receive his submission, and Waymarsh had made it clear that she would expect nothing less. At that pivotal moment, he observed countless things about her, but what stood out was that their worried friend hadn’t quite done what was needed. Waymarsh had asked that she find him gentle, and while loitering in the courtyard before her arrival, he had eagerly considered different ways to be so. The issue was that if he was gentle, he wasn’t, for her purpose, aware. If she wanted him aware—as everything about her loudly indicated she did—she would have to put in some effort to make him so. He was aware, but only of too many things; so she had to select the one that mattered to her.
Practically, however, it at last got itself named, and when once that had happened they were quite at the centre of their situation. One thing had really done as well as another; when Strether had spoken of Waymarsh’s leaving him, and that had necessarily brought on a reference to Mrs. Pocock’s similar intention, the jump was but short to supreme lucidity. Light became indeed after that so intense that Strether would doubtless have but half made out, in the prodigious glare, by which of the two the issue had been in fact precipitated. It was, in their contracted quarters, as much there between them as if it had been something suddenly spilled with a crash and a splash on the floor. The form of his submission was to be an engagement to acquit himself within the twenty-four hours. “He’ll go in a moment if you give him the word—he assures me on his honour he’ll do that”: this came in its order, out of its order, in respect to Chad, after the crash had occurred. It came repeatedly during the time taken by Strether to feel that he was even more fixed in his rigour than he had supposed—the time he was not above adding to a little by telling her that such a way of putting it on her brother’s part left him sufficiently surprised. She wasn’t at all funny at last—she was really fine; and he felt easily where she was strong—strong for herself. It hadn’t yet so come home to him that she was nobly and appointedly officious. She was acting in interests grander and clearer than that of her poor little personal, poor little Parisian equilibrium, and all his consciousness of her mother’s moral pressure profited by this proof of its sustaining force. She would be held up; she would be strengthened; he needn’t in the least be anxious for her. What would once more have been distinct to him had he tried to make it so was that, as Mrs. Newsome was essentially all moral pressure, the presence of this element was almost identical with her own presence. It wasn’t perhaps that he felt he was dealing with her straight, but it was certainly as if she had been dealing straight with him. She was reaching him somehow by the lengthened arm of the spirit, and he was having to that extent to take her into account; but he wasn’t reaching her in turn, not making her take him; he was only reaching Sarah, who appeared to take so little of him. “Something has clearly passed between you and Chad,” he presently said, “that I think I ought to know something more about. Does he put it all,” he smiled, “on me?”
Practically, it finally got a name, and once that happened, they were right in the middle of it all. One thing led to another; when Strether mentioned Waymarsh leaving him, it naturally brought up Mrs. Pocock’s similar plans, and the transition to total clarity was quick. The light became so intense that Strether probably wouldn’t have fully realized, in that overwhelming glare, which of the two had actually triggered the situation. It felt between them as if something had just suddenly spilled all over the floor. His way of submitting was to commit to resolving things within twenty-four hours. “He’ll leave the moment you give him the word—he promises me on his honor he’ll do that”: this came, in its own time and out of sequence, concerning Chad, after the situation had unfolded. It came up again and again while Strether realized he was even more resolute than he’d thought—this was the time he wasn’t shy to add that such a way of phrasing it from her brother left him quite surprised. She wasn’t at all funny anymore—she was genuinely impressive; and he easily sensed her strength—strong for herself. He hadn’t fully grasped yet that she was nobly and purposefully assertive. She was acting in interests much larger and clearer than her own little, fragile Parisian balance, and all his awareness of her mother’s moral influence gained from this proof of its supportive power. She would hold her ground; she would be fortified; he didn’t need to worry about her at all. What would have been clear to him if he’d tried to clarify it was that, since Mrs. Newsome was fundamentally all about moral influence, her presence was almost identical to the presence of that element. It wasn’t that he felt like he was dealing directly with her, but it was definitely as if she was dealing directly with him. She was reaching him in some way through the extended reach of the spirit, and to that extent, he had to consider her; but he wasn’t reaching her back, not making her take him in; he was only reaching Sarah, who seemed to take so little of him. “Something has clearly happened between you and Chad,” he finally said, “that I think I should know more about. Does he lay it all,” he smiled, “on me?”
“Did you come out,” she asked, “to put it all on him?”
“Did you come out,” she asked, “to put it all on him?”
But he replied to this no further than, after an instant, by saying: “Oh it’s all right. Chad I mean’s all right in having said to you—well anything he may have said. I’ll take it all—what he does put on me. Only I must see him before I see you again.”
But he responded briefly, saying: “Oh, it's fine. Chad is fine for saying whatever he might have said to you. I’ll take responsibility for anything he puts on me. But I need to see him before I see you again.”
She hesitated, but she brought it out. “Is it absolutely necessary you should see me again?”
She hesitated, but she took it out. “Do you really need to see me again?”
“Certainly, if I’m to give you any definite word about anything.”
“Sure, if I'm going to give you any solid information about anything.”
“Is it your idea then,” she returned, “that I shall keep on meeting you only to be exposed to fresh humiliation?”
“Is that your plan then,” she replied, “that I’ll just keep meeting you only to face more humiliation?”
He fixed her a longer time. “Are your instructions from Mrs. Newsome that you shall, even at the worst, absolutely and irretrievably break with me?”
He looked at her for a longer time. “Did Mrs. Newsome tell you that you have to, no matter what, completely and permanently cut ties with me?”
“My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are, if you please, my affair. You know perfectly what your own were, and you can judge for yourself of what it can do for you to have made what you have of them. You can perfectly see, at any rate, I’ll go so far as to say, that if I wish not to expose myself I must wish still less to expose her.” She had already said more than she had quite expected; but, though she had also pulled up, the colour in her face showed him he should from one moment to the other have it all. He now indeed felt the high importance of his having it. “What is your conduct,” she broke out as if to explain—“what is your conduct but an outrage to women like us? I mean your acting as if there can be a doubt—as between us and such another—of his duty?”
"My instructions from Mrs. Newsome are my business, if you don't mind. You know perfectly well what your own were, and you can judge for yourself what it does for you to have made what you have of them. You can see, at the very least, I’ll go so far as to say that if I don't want to expose myself, I certainly don’t want to expose her." She had already said more than she expected, but even though she had paused, the color in her face showed him that he would have it all any moment now. He truly felt the importance of getting it. "What is your behavior," she interrupted as if to explain—"what is your behavior but an insult to women like us? I mean your acting as if there's any doubt—as between us and someone like him—about his duty?"
He thought a moment. It was rather much to deal with at once; not only the question itself, but the sore abysses it revealed. “Of course they’re totally different kinds of duty.”
He thought for a moment. It was a lot to take in all at once; not just the question itself, but the painful depths it exposed. “Of course they’re completely different types of duty.”
“And do you pretend that he has any at all—to such another?”
"And do you really think he has any at all—like that?"
“Do you mean to Madame de Vionnet?” He uttered the name not to affront her, but yet again to gain time—time that he needed for taking in something still other and larger than her demand of a moment before. It wasn’t at once that he could see all that was in her actual challenge; but when he did he found himself just checking a low vague sound, a sound which was perhaps the nearest approach his vocal chords had ever known to a growl. Everything Mrs. Pocock had failed to give a sign of recognising in Chad as a particular part of a transformation—everything that had lent intention to this particular failure—affected him as gathered into a large loose bundle and thrown, in her words, into his face. The missile made him to that extent catch his breath; which however he presently recovered. “Why when a woman’s at once so charming and so beneficent—”
“Are you referring to Madame de Vionnet?” He spoke her name not to offend her but to buy time—time he needed to process something bigger than her request from a moment ago. It didn’t come to him right away to grasp everything in her current challenge; but when he did, he found himself suppressing a low, vague sound, perhaps the closest his vocal cords had ever come to a growl. Everything Mrs. Pocock had overlooked in Chad as a significant part of a transformation—everything that had given purpose to this specific oversight—felt to him like a large, loose bundle thrown into his face by her words. The impact left him momentarily breathless; however, he soon regained his composure. “Why is it that when a woman is both so charming and so generous—”
“You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a blush and can make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel the more and take from you the straighter, how you do it?”
“You can sacrifice mothers and sisters to her without a second thought and make them cross the ocean on purpose to feel even more and take from you the straighter, how you do it?”
Yes, she had taken him up as short and as sharply as that, but he tried not to flounder in her grasp. “I don’t think there’s anything I’ve done in any such calculated way as you describe. Everything has come as a sort of indistinguishable part of everything else. Your coming out belonged closely to my having come before you, and my having come was a result of our general state of mind. Our general state of mind had proceeded, on its side, from our queer ignorance, our queer misconceptions and confusions—from which, since then, an inexorable tide of light seems to have floated us into our perhaps still queerer knowledge. Don’t you like your brother as he is,” he went on, “and haven’t you given your mother an intelligible account of all that that comes to?”
Yes, she had taken him on just as bluntly as that, but he tried not to flounder in her hold. “I don’t think I’ve done anything in the calculated way you’re describing. Everything has come together as part of a bigger picture. Your arrival was closely linked to my presence before you, and my presence was a result of our overall mindset. Our overall mindset has stemmed from our strange ignorance, our odd misconceptions and confusions—out of which, since then, an unstoppable wave of clarity seems to have brought us into our maybe still stranger understanding. Don’t you like your brother as he is?” he continued, “and haven’t you given your mother a clear explanation of everything that involves?”
It put to her also, doubtless, his own tone, too many things, this at least would have been the case hadn’t his final challenge directly helped her. Everything, at the stage they had reached, directly helped her, because everything betrayed in him such a basis of intention. He saw—the odd way things came out!—that he would have been held less monstrous had he only been a little wilder. What exposed him was just his poor old trick of quiet inwardness, what exposed him was his thinking such offence. He hadn’t in the least however the desire to irritate that Sarah imputed to him, and he could only at last temporise, for the moment, with her indignant view. She was altogether more inflamed than he had expected, and he would probably understand this better when he should learn what had occurred for her with Chad. Till then her view of his particular blackness, her clear surprise at his not clutching the pole she held out, must pass as extravagant. “I leave you to flatter yourself,” she returned, “that what you speak of is what you’ve beautifully done. When a thing has been already described in such a lovely way—!” But she caught herself up, and her comment on his description rang out sufficiently loud. “Do you consider her even an apology for a decent woman?”
It also suggested to her, no doubt, his own tone, too many things; this would have been the case if his final challenge hadn't directly helped her. Everything at the stage they had reached helped her because everything revealed in him a strong basis of intention. He saw—the weird way things turned out!—that he would have come off as less monstrous if he had just been a little wilder. What exposed him was just his old habit of quiet inwardness; what exposed him was his thinking such offense. However, he didn't really want to irritate her as Sarah accused him of, and he could only temporarily go along with her angry view. She was a lot more worked up than he had expected, and he would probably understand this better once he found out what had happened between her and Chad. Until then, her view of his particular darkness, her clear surprise at his not grabbing the pole she held out, seemed extravagant. “I leave you to flatter yourself,” she shot back, “that what you talk about is what you've beautifully done. When something has already been described so beautifully—!” But she caught herself and the way she commented on his description came out loud enough. “Do you even think of her as a decent woman?”
Ah there it was at last! She put the matter more crudely than, for his own mixed purposes, he had yet had to do; but essentially it was all one matter. It was so much—so much; and she treated it, poor lady, as so little. He grew conscious, as he was now apt to do, of a strange smile, and the next moment he found himself talking like Miss Barrace. “She has struck me from the first as wonderful. I’ve been thinking too moreover that, after all, she would probably have represented even for yourself something rather new and rather good.”
Ah, there it was at last! She expressed the issue more bluntly than he had felt the need to, for his own complicated reasons; but really, it was all the same issue. It was so much—so much; and she treated it, poor thing, as if it were so little. He became aware, as he often did now, of a strange smile, and the next moment he found himself speaking like Miss Barrace. “She’s struck me as amazing from the very beginning. I’ve also been thinking that, after all, she would probably represent something pretty new and genuinely good for you.”
He was to have given Mrs. Pocock with this, however, but her best opportunity for a sound of derision. “Rather new? I hope so with all my heart!”
He was supposed to give Mrs. Pocock this, but instead, it became her best chance for a mocking laugh. “A bit new? I really hope so with all my heart!”
“I mean,” he explained, “that she might have affected you by her exquisite amiability—a real revelation, it has seemed to myself; her high rarity, her distinction of every sort.”
“I mean,” he explained, “that she might have impacted you with her incredible charm—a genuine revelation to me; her uniqueness, her distinction in every way.”
He had been, with these words, consciously a little “precious”; but he had had to be—he couldn’t give her the truth of the case without them; and it seemed to him moreover now that he didn’t care. He had at all events not served his cause, for she sprang at its exposed side. “A ‘revelation’—to me: I’ve come to such a woman for a revelation? You talk to me about ‘distinction’—you, you who’ve had your privilege?—when the most distinguished woman we shall either of us have seen in this world sits there insulted, in her loneliness, by your incredible comparison!”
He had been a bit "dramatic" with those words, but he felt he had to be—he couldn’t give her the full truth without them; and now it seemed like he didn’t care. In any case, he hadn’t helped his cause, because she went straight for its weak point. “A ‘revelation’—to me: I’ve come to a woman like this for a revelation? You’re talking to me about ‘distinction’—you, who’ve had your advantages?—when the most distinguished woman either of us will ever see in this world is sitting right there, insulted and alone, because of your ridiculous comparison!”
Strether forbore, with an effort, from straying; but he looked all about him. “Does your mother herself make the point that she sits insulted?”
Strether held back, with some effort, from drifting off; but he scanned his surroundings. “Does your mom actually point out that she feels insulted?”
Sarah’s answer came so straight, so “pat,” as might have been said, that he felt on the instant its origin. “She has confided to my judgement and my tenderness the expression of her personal sense of everything, and the assertion of her personal dignity.”
Sarah’s response was so direct, so “on point,” that he instantly recognized where it came from. “She has trusted my judgment and my compassion to express her feelings and affirm her dignity.”
They were the very words of the lady of Woollett—he would have known them in a thousand; her parting charge to her child. Mrs. Pocock accordingly spoke to this extent by book, and the fact immensely moved him. “If she does really feel as you say it’s of course very very dreadful. I’ve given sufficient proof, one would have thought,” he added, “of my deep admiration for Mrs. Newsome.”
They were exactly the words of the lady of Woollett—he would recognize them anywhere; her farewell message to her child. Mrs. Pocock spoke in this way almost verbatim, and it deeply affected him. “If she truly feels that way, it’s obviously really terrible. I’ve shown enough proof, one would think,” he added, “of my profound admiration for Mrs. Newsome.”
“And pray what proof would one have thought you’d call sufficient? That of thinking this person here so far superior to her?”
“And what proof would you have thought was enough? That you believe this person here is so much better than her?”
He wondered again; he waited. “Ah dear Sarah, you must leave me this person here!”
He wondered again; he waited. “Oh dear Sarah, you have to leave me this person here!”
In his desire to avoid all vulgar retorts, to show how, even perversely, he clung to his rag of reason, he had softly almost wailed this plea. Yet he knew it to be perhaps the most positive declaration he had ever made in his life, and his visitor’s reception of it virtually gave it that importance. “That’s exactly what I’m delighted to do. God knows we don’t want her! You take good care not to meet,” she observed in a still higher key, “my question about their life. If you do consider it a thing one can even speak of, I congratulate you on your taste!”
In his attempt to avoid any crude responses, and to demonstrate how, even in a twisted way, he held onto his thread of logic, he had softly almost cried out this plea. Yet he recognized that it was possibly the most assertive statement he had ever made in his life, and how his visitor received it gave it that weight. “That’s exactly what I’m thrilled to do. God knows we don’t want her! You make sure you don’t answer,” she remarked in an even louder tone, “my question about their life. If you actually think it’s something one can even speak of, I commend you on your taste!”
The life she alluded to was of course Chad’s and Madame de Vionnet’s, which she thus bracketed together in a way that made him wince a little; there being nothing for him but to take home her full intention. It was none the less his inconsequence that while he had himself been enjoying for weeks the view of the brilliant woman’s specific action, he just suffered from any characterisation of it by other lips. “I think tremendously well of her, at the same time that I seem to feel her ‘life’ to be really none of my business. It’s my business, that is, only so far as Chad’s own life is affected by it; and what has happened, don’t you see? is that Chad’s has been affected so beautifully. The proof of the pudding’s in the eating”—he tried, with no great success, to help it out with a touch of pleasantry, while she let him go on as if to sink and sink. He went on however well enough, as well as he could do without fresh counsel; he indeed shouldn’t stand quite firm, he felt, till he should have re-established his communications with Chad. Still, he could always speak for the woman he had so definitely promised to “save.” This wasn’t quite for her the air of salvation; but as that chill fairly deepened what did it become but a reminder that one might at the worst perish with her? And it was simple enough—it was rudimentary: not, not to give her away. “I find in her more merits than you would probably have patience with my counting over. And do you know,” he enquired, “the effect you produce on me by alluding to her in such terms? It’s as if you had some motive in not recognising all she has done for your brother, and so shut your eyes to each side of the matter, in order, whichever side comes up, to get rid of the other. I don’t, you must allow me to say, see how you can with any pretence to candour get rid of the side nearest you.”
The life she mentioned was obviously Chad’s and Madame de Vionnet’s, which she brought together in a way that made him wince a little; he had no choice but to accept her full intention. Despite this, it was still his inconsistency that while he had been enjoying the view of the brilliant woman’s actions for weeks, he struggled with any description of it from others. “I think very highly of her, while at the same time I feel that her ‘life’ is really none of my business. My concern is only to the extent that it affects Chad's own life; and what’s happened, don’t you see, is that Chad’s life has been positively impacted. The proof of the pudding is in the eating”—he tried, not very successfully, to lighten the mood with a little humor, while she let him continue as if he were sinking deeper. He continued on well enough, as best as he could without new guidance; he felt he wouldn’t be quite steady until he re-established his connection with Chad. Still, he could always vouch for the woman he had clearly promised to “save.” This didn’t quite give her the sense of salvation; but as that chill deepened, it became just a reminder that one might, at worst, perish *with* her? And it was straightforward—it was basic: not giving her away. “I find in her more strengths than you’d likely have the patience for me to list. And do you know,” he asked, “the effect you have on me by referring to her in such terms? It’s as if you have some reason for not acknowledging everything she has done for your brother, and so you turn a blind eye to every aspect, in order to dismiss the other as it arises. I don’t, you must let me say, see how you can, with any claim to honesty, ignore the side that’s closest to you.”
“Near me—that sort of thing?” And Sarah gave a jerk back of her head that well might have nullified any active proximity.
“Nearby—that kind of thing?” And Sarah quickly jerked her head back, which could have easily dismissed any closeness.
It kept her friend himself at his distance, and he respected for a moment the interval. Then with a last persuasive effort he bridged it. “You don’t, on your honour, appreciate Chad’s fortunate development?”
It kept her friend at a distance, and he respected that space for a moment. Then, with one last persuasive attempt, he closed the gap. “You really don’t, on your honor, see Chad’s lucky growth?”
“Fortunate?” she echoed again. And indeed she was prepared. “I call it hideous.”
“Fortunate?” she repeated. And she was definitely ready. “I think it’s awful.”
Her departure had been for some minutes marked as imminent, and she was already at the door that stood open to the court, from the threshold of which she delivered herself of this judgement. It rang out so loud as to produce for the time the hush of everything else. Strether quite, as an effect of it, breathed less bravely; he could acknowledge it, but simply enough. “Oh if you think that—!”
Her departure had been expected for a few minutes, and she was already at the door that opened to the courtyard. From the threshold, she made her statement. It was so loud that it silenced everything else for a moment. As a result, Strether felt less confident; he could accept it, but only just. “Oh, if you think that—!”
“Then all’s at an end? So much the better. I do think that!” She passed out as she spoke and took her way straight across the court, beyond which, separated from them by the deep arch of the porte-cochère the low victoria that had conveyed her from her own hotel was drawn up. She made for it with decision, and the manner of her break, the sharp shaft of her rejoinder, had an intensity by which Strether was at first kept in arrest. She had let fly at him as from a stretched cord, and it took him a minute to recover from the sense of being pierced. It was not the penetration of surprise; it was that, much more, of certainty; his case being put for him as he had as yet only put it to himself. She was away at any rate; she had distanced him—with rather a grand spring, an effect of pride and ease, after all; she had got into her carriage before he could overtake her, and the vehicle was already in motion. He stopped halfway; he stood there in the court only seeing her go and noting that she gave him no other look. The way he had put it to himself was that all quite might be at an end. Each of her movements, in this resolute rupture, reaffirmed, re-enforced that idea. Sarah passed out of sight in the sunny street while, planted there in the centre of the comparatively grey court, he continued merely to look before him. It probably was all at an end.
"Is it all over then? That's even better. I believe that!" She fainted as she spoke and headed straight across the courtyard, beyond which, separated from them by the deep arch of the porte-cochère, was the low victoria that had brought her from her hotel. She approached it with determination, and the way she broke away, the sharpness of her response, initially left Strether stunned. She had launched her words at him like an arrow, and it took him a moment to regroup from the feeling of being struck. It wasn’t just the shock of surprise; it was something deeper, a sense of certainty—she had articulated his thoughts better than he ever had to himself. In any case, she was gone; she had left him behind—with quite a grand leap, an air of pride and ease, after all; she had entered her carriage before he could reach her, and the carriage was already moving. He stopped halfway, standing in the courtyard, watching her leave and noticing she didn’t give him another glance. The way he had framed it for himself was that everything quite might be over. Each of her movements in this decisive break reaffirmed that feeling. Sarah vanished from view down the sunny street while he remained there in the center of the relatively grey courtyard, continuing to gaze ahead. It likely was all over.
Book Eleventh
[Note: In the 1909 New York Edition the following two chapters were placed in the reverse of the order appearing below. Since 1950, most scholars have agreed, because of the internal evidence of the two chapters, that an editorial error caused them to be printed in reverse order. This Etext, like other editions of the past four decades, corrects the apparent error.—Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this electronic text]
[Note: In the 1909 New York Edition, the next two chapters were printed in the opposite order from what you see below. Since 1950, most scholars have agreed that internal evidence from the two chapters indicates an editorial mistake led to their incorrect order. This Etext, like other editions from the last forty years, fixes this apparent error.—Richard D. Hathaway, preparer of this electronic text]
I
He went late that evening to the Boulevard Malesherbes, having his impression that it would be vain to go early, and having also, more than once in the course of the day, made enquiries of the concierge. Chad hadn’t come in and had left no intimation; he had affairs, apparently, at this juncture—as it occurred to Strether he so well might have—that kept him long abroad. Our friend asked once for him at the hotel in the Rue de Rivoli, but the only contribution offered there was the fact that every one was out. It was with the idea that he would have to come home to sleep that Strether went up to his rooms, from which however he was still absent, though, from the balcony, a few moments later, his visitor heard eleven o’clock strike. Chad’s servant had by this time answered for his reappearance; he had, the visitor learned, come quickly in to dress for dinner and vanish again. Strether spent an hour in waiting for him—an hour full of strange suggestions, persuasions, recognitions; one of those that he was to recall, at the end of his adventure, as the particular handful that most had counted. The mellowest lamplight and the easiest chair had been placed at his disposal by Baptiste, subtlest of servants; the novel half-uncut, the novel lemon-coloured and tender, with the ivory knife athwart it like the dagger in a contadina’s hair, had been pushed within the soft circle—a circle which, for some reason, affected Strether as softer still after the same Baptiste had remarked that in the absence of a further need of anything by Monsieur he would betake himself to bed. The night was hot and heavy and the single lamp sufficient; the great flare of the lighted city, rising high, spending itself afar, played up from the Boulevard and, through the vague vista of the successive rooms, brought objects into view and added to their dignity. Strether found himself in possession as he never yet had been; he had been there alone, had turned over books and prints, had invoked, in Chad’s absence, the spirit of the place, but never at the witching hour and never with a relish quite so like a pang.
He went to the Boulevard Malesherbes late that evening, thinking it would be pointless to go early, and having asked the concierge about Chad more than once throughout the day. Chad hadn’t returned and hadn’t left any message; it seemed he had some business that kept him out longer than expected, which Strether thought might be the case. He briefly inquired about him at the hotel on Rue de Rivoli, but all he found out was that everyone was out. Strether, expecting he would have to come home to sleep, headed to his rooms, but Chad was still gone. Moments later, from the balcony, he heard the clock strike eleven. By this time, Chad's servant had confirmed that he had come in quickly to get ready for dinner and then left again. Strether waited for him for an hour—an hour filled with odd thoughts, temptations, and realizations; one of those moments he would remember later as significant. Baptiste, the cleverest of servants, had set up the softest lamplight and the most comfortable chair for him. A novel, half-uncut, pale lemon in color, with an ivory knife lying across it like a dagger in a woman's hair, was placed within the cozy circle—a circle that somehow felt even cozier to Strether after Baptiste mentioned that in the absence of any other needs from Monsieur, he would be heading to bed. The night was warm and heavy, and the single lamp was enough; the bright lights of the city, rising high and fading into the distance, illuminated the Boulevard and, through the vague view of the adjoining rooms, highlighted objects and added to their presence. For the first time, Strether felt truly at home; he had been there alone before, flipping through books and prints, trying to evoke the essence of the place in Chad's absence, but never at such a late hour and never with such a bittersweet enjoyment.
He spent a long time on the balcony; he hung over it as he had seen little Bilham hang the day of his first approach, as he had seen Mamie hang over her own the day little Bilham himself might have seen her from below; he passed back into the rooms, the three that occupied the front and that communicated by wide doors; and, while he circulated and rested, tried to recover the impression that they had made on him three months before, to catch again the voice in which they had seemed then to speak to him. That voice, he had to note, failed audibly to sound; which he took as the proof of all the change in himself. He had heard, of old, only what he could then hear; what he could do now was to think of three months ago as a point in the far past. All voices had grown thicker and meant more things; they crowded on him as he moved about—it was the way they sounded together that wouldn’t let him be still. He felt, strangely, as sad as if he had come for some wrong, and yet as excited as if he had come for some freedom. But the freedom was what was most in the place and the hour, it was the freedom that most brought him round again to the youth of his own that he had long ago missed. He could have explained little enough to-day either why he had missed it or why, after years and years, he should care that he had; the main truth of the actual appeal of everything was none the less that everything represented the substance of his loss put it within reach, within touch, made it, to a degree it had never been, an affair of the senses. That was what it became for him at this singular time, the youth he had long ago missed—a queer concrete presence, full of mystery, yet full of reality, which he could handle, taste, smell, the deep breathing of which he could positively hear. It was in the outside air as well as within; it was in the long watch, from the balcony, in the summer night, of the wide late life of Paris, the unceasing soft quick rumble, below, of the little lighted carriages that, in the press, always suggested the gamblers he had seen of old at Monte Carlo pushing up to the tables. This image was before him when he at last became aware that Chad was behind.
He spent a long time on the balcony, leaning over it just like he had seen little Bilham do on their first meeting, and like he’d seen Mamie lean over hers the day little Bilham might have seen her from below. He moved back into the rooms—three of them at the front that connected by wide doors—and while he walked around and took breaks, he tried to recapture the impression they had made on him three months earlier, to hear again the voice they had seemed to speak to him with. That voice, he realized, didn’t resonate anymore, which he took as evidence of all the changes within himself. He had only heard what he could back then; now he could only think of three months ago as a distant memory. All voices seemed denser and carried more meaning; they overwhelmed him as he moved about—it was their combined sound that wouldn’t let him relax. Strangely, he felt as sad as if he had come for something wrong, yet as excited as if he had come for freedom. But it was that sense of freedom that filled the place and the moment, drawing him back to the youth he had missed long ago. He found it hard to explain today why he had missed it or why, after all these years, he cared; the main truth behind everything’s appeal was that it all represented the essence of his loss, now within reach, tactile, more than it had ever been, a sensory experience. It became for him, at that peculiar time, the youth he had missed—a strange, tangible presence, full of mystery yet also of reality, something he could touch, taste, smell, and even feel the deep rhythm of. It was in the fresh air as much as inside; it was in his long watch from the balcony on that summer night, taking in the vibrant late-life of Paris, the constant soft rumble below of the little lit carriages that, in the crowds, always reminded him of the gamblers he used to see at Monte Carlo pushing up to the tables. This image was in his mind when he finally noticed that Chad was behind him.
“She tells me you put it all on me”—he had arrived after this promptly enough at that information; which expressed the case however quite as the young man appeared willing for the moment to leave it. Other things, with this advantage of their virtually having the night before them, came up for them, and had, as well, the odd effect of making the occasion, instead of hurried and feverish, one of the largest, loosest and easiest to which Strether’s whole adventure was to have treated him. He had been pursuing Chad from an early hour and had overtaken him only now; but now the delay was repaired by their being so exceptionally confronted. They had foregathered enough of course in all the various times; they had again and again, since that first night at the theatre, been face to face over their question; but they had never been so alone together as they were actually alone—their talk hadn’t yet been so supremely for themselves. And if many things moreover passed before them, none passed more distinctly for Strether than that striking truth about Chad of which he had been so often moved to take note: the truth that everything came happily back with him to his knowing how to live. It had been seated in his pleased smile—a smile that pleased exactly in the right degree—as his visitor turned round, on the balcony, to greet his advent; his visitor in fact felt on the spot that there was nothing their meeting would so much do as bear witness to that facility. He surrendered himself accordingly to so approved a gift; for what was the meaning of the facility but that others did surrender themselves? He didn’t want, luckily, to prevent Chad from living; but he was quite aware that even if he had he would himself have thoroughly gone to pieces. It was in truth essentially by bringing down his personal life to a function all subsidiary to the young man’s own that he held together. And the great point, above all, the sign of how completely Chad possessed the knowledge in question, was that one thus became, not only with a proper cheerfulness, but with wild native impulses, the feeder of his stream. Their talk had accordingly not lasted three minutes without Strether’s feeling basis enough for the excitement in which he had waited. This overflow fairly deepened, wastefully abounded, as he observed the smallness of anything corresponding to it on the part of his friend. That was exactly this friend’s happy case; he “put out” his excitement, or whatever other emotion the matter involved, as he put out his washing; than which no arrangement could make more for domestic order. It was quite for Strether himself in short to feel a personal analogy with the laundress bringing home the triumphs of the mangle.
“She tells me you put it all on me”—he had quickly grasped this information; it captured the situation just as the young man seemed willing for the moment to leave it. Other things, with the benefit of the night stretching ahead of them, emerged, and had the strange effect of making the occasion, rather than rushed and intense, one of the largest, loosest, and easiest that Strether’s entire adventure would present him with. He had been in pursuit of Chad since early that day and had only just caught up with him; but now the delay was forgotten as they faced each other in such an extraordinary way. They had met enough, of course, at various times; they had repeatedly, since that first night at the theater, confronted their question; but they had never been as truly alone together as they were now—their conversation hadn’t yet been so purely for their own sake. And while many things also came to mind, nothing stood out more clearly for Strether than that striking truth about Chad he had often been prompted to notice: the truth that everything came back to his incredible ability to enjoy life. It was evident in his pleased smile—a smile that was just the right kind—as his visitor turned around on the balcony to welcome his arrival; in fact, his visitor immediately sensed that nothing would so thoroughly affirm that skill as their meeting. He surrendered himself to such a recognized talent; for what did that talent mean but that others did give in? Fortunately, he didn’t want to stop Chad from living; but he was well aware that even if he had, he would have completely fallen apart himself. Essentially, it was by reducing his personal life to a role entirely subordinate to the young man’s that he managed to hold it together. And the main point, above all, the proof of how fully Chad possessed this knowledge, was that one thus became, not only with genuine cheerfulness but with wild natural impulses, the sustainer of his flow. Their conversation hadn’t gone on more than three minutes without Strether feeling enough basis for the excitement he had been anticipating. This overflow deepened and abundantly grew as he noticed how little matched it on the part of his friend. That was precisely this friend’s fortunate situation; he “put out” his excitement, or whatever other emotion was involved, just like he put out his laundry; nothing could promote domestic order better. It was up to Strether himself, in short, to feel a personal connection with the laundress bringing home the successes of the mangle.
When he had reported on Sarah’s visit, which he did very fully, Chad answered his question with perfect candour. “I positively referred her to you—told her she must absolutely see you. This was last night, and it all took place in ten minutes. It was our first free talk—really the first time she had tackled me. She knew I also knew what her line had been with yourself; knew moreover how little you had been doing to make anything difficult for her. So I spoke for you frankly—assured her you were all at her service. I assured her I was too,” the young man continued; “and I pointed out how she could perfectly, at any time, have got at me. Her difficulty has been simply her not finding the moment she fancied.”
When he updated me on Sarah’s visit, which he did in great detail, Chad answered my question with total honesty. “I definitely referred her to you—told her she absolutely needed to see you. This happened last night, and it all took place in just ten minutes. It was our first genuine conversation—it was really the first time she approached me directly. She understood that I knew what her situation was with you; she also knew how little you had done to complicate things for her. So I spoke highly of you—assured her that you were all ready to help her. I made it clear that I was too,” the young man continued; “and I pointed out how she could have reached out to me at any time. Her challenge has simply been not finding the moment she thought would be right.”
“Her difficulty,” Strether returned, “has been simply that she finds she’s afraid of you. She’s not afraid of me, Sarah, one little scrap; and it was just because she has seen how I can fidget when I give my mind to it that she has felt her best chance, rightly enough to be in making me as uneasy as possible. I think she’s at bottom as pleased to have you put it on me as you yourself can possibly be to put it.”
“Her problem,” Strether replied, “is that she realizes she’s afraid of you. She’s not afraid of me, Sarah, not at all; and it’s exactly because she’s noticed how I can get anxious when I really focus on something that she feels her best approach, which she’s right about, is to make me as uncomfortable as she can. I think deep down she’s just as happy to have you put that pressure on me as you are to do it.”
“But what in the world, my dear man,” Chad enquired in objection to this luminosity, “have I done to make Sally afraid?”
“But what in the world, my dear man,” Chad asked, questioning this brightness, “have I done to make Sally afraid?”
“You’ve been ‘wonderful, wonderful,’ as we say—we poor people who watch the play from the pit; and that’s what has, admirably, made her. Made her all the more effectually that she could see you didn’t set about it on purpose—I mean set about affecting her as with fear.”
“You’ve been ‘wonderful, wonderful,’ as we say—we poor folks who watch the play from the pit; and that’s what has, admirably, shaped her. It’s even more effective because she could see you didn’t do it on purpose—I mean, you weren’t trying to scare her.”
Chad cast a pleasant backward glance over his possibilities of motive. “I’ve only wanted to be kind and friendly, to be decent and attentive—and I still only want to be.”
Chad took a nice look back at what might have motivated him. “I just wanted to be kind and friendly, to be good and considerate—and I still want to be.”
Strether smiled at his comfortable clearness. “Well, there can certainly be no way for it better than by my taking the onus. It reduces your personal friction and your personal offence to almost nothing.”
Strether smiled at his clear understanding. “Well, there’s definitely no better way to handle this than for me to take the blame. It reduces your personal conflict and your personal offense to almost nothing.”
Ah but Chad, with his completer conception of the friendly, wouldn’t quite have this! They had remained on the balcony, where, after their day of great and premature heat, the midnight air was delicious; and they leaned back in turn against the balustrade, all in harmony with the chairs and the flower-pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. “The onus isn’t really yours—after our agreeing so to wait together and judge together. That was all my answer to Sally,” Chad pursued—“that we have been, that we are, just judging together.”
Ah, but Chad, with his complete understanding of friendship, wouldn’t quite see it this way! They had stayed on the balcony, where, after their day of intense heat, the midnight air felt amazing; and they leaned back against the balustrade, perfectly in sync with the chairs and the flower pots, the cigarettes and the starlight. “The burden isn’t really yours—after we agreed to wait together and make judgments together. That was all my response to Sally,” Chad continued—“that we have been, that we are, just making judgments together.”
“I’m not afraid of the burden,” Strether explained; “I haven’t come in the least that you should take it off me. I’ve come very much, it seems to me, to double up my fore legs in the manner of the camel when he gets down on his knees to make his back convenient. But I’ve supposed you all this while to have been doing a lot of special and private judging—about which I haven’t troubled you; and I’ve only wished to have your conclusion first from you. I don’t ask more than that; I’m quite ready to take it as it has come.”
“I’m not worried about the burden,” Strether said. “I didn’t come here for you to take it off my hands. I’ve come, it seems to me, to bend my legs like a camel does when it kneels to make its back comfortable. But I’ve thought you’ve been doing a lot of private judging all this time—about which I haven’t bothered you; and I’ve just wanted to hear your conclusion directly from you first. I don’t ask for anything more than that; I’m completely ready to accept it as it is.”
Chad turned up his face to the sky with a slow puff of his smoke. “Well, I’ve seen.”
Chad tilted his face up to the sky and slowly exhaled his smoke. “Well, I’ve seen.”
Strether waited a little. “I’ve left you wholly alone; haven’t, I think I may say, since the first hour or two—when I merely preached patience—so much as breathed on you.”
Strether waited for a moment. “I’ve completely left you alone; I haven’t, I think I can say, since the first hour or two—when I simply encouraged patience—so much as mentioned anything to you.”
“Oh you’ve been awfully good!”
“Oh, you’ve been really good!”
“We’ve both been good then—we’ve played the game. We’ve given them the most liberal conditions.”
“We’ve both done well then—we’ve played the game. We’ve given them the most generous terms.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “splendid conditions! It was open to them, open to them”—he seemed to make it out, as he smoked, with his eyes still on the stars. He might in quiet sport have been reading their horoscope. Strether wondered meanwhile what had been open to them, and he finally let him have it. “It was open to them simply to let me alone; to have made up their minds, on really seeing me for themselves, that I could go on well enough as I was.”
“Ah,” Chad said, “perfect conditions! It was available to them, available to them”—he seemed to figure it out, still smoking, with his gaze fixed on the stars. He could have been quietly joking about reading their horoscope. Meanwhile, Strether wondered what had been available to them, and he eventually shared it. “It was available to them to just leave me alone; to have decided, after actually seeing me for themselves, that I could manage just fine as I was.”
Strether assented to this proposition with full lucidity, his companion’s plural pronoun, which stood all for Mrs. Newsome and her daughter, having no ambiguity for him. There was nothing, apparently, to stand for Mamie and Jim; and this added to our friend’s sense of Chad’s knowing what he thought. “But they’ve made up their minds to the opposite—that you can’t go on as you are.”
Strether agreed to this suggestion clearly, understanding that his companion’s use of the plural pronoun referred to Mrs. Newsome and her daughter without any confusion. There was seemingly nothing that represented Mamie and Jim, which further enhanced Strether's feeling that Chad was aware of his own thoughts. “But they’ve decided on the opposite—that you can’t keep going as you are.”
“No,” Chad continued in the same way; “they won’t have it for a minute.”
“No,” Chad continued just like before; “they won’t accept it for a second.”
Strether on his side also reflectively smoked. It was as if their high place really represented some moral elevation from which they could look down on their recent past. “There never was the smallest chance, do you know, that they would have it for a moment.”
Strether, meanwhile, smoked thoughtfully. It felt like their elevated position symbolized some kind of moral superiority from which they could view their recent past. “There was never the slightest chance, you know, that they would have it for even a moment.”
“Of course not—no real chance. But if they were willing to think there was—!”
“Of course not—there’s no real chance. But if they were open to believing there was—!”
“They weren’t willing.” Strether had worked it all out. “It wasn’t for you they came out, but for me. It wasn’t to see for themselves what you’re doing, but what I’m doing. The first branch of their curiosity was inevitably destined, under my culpable delay, to give way to the second; and it’s on the second that, if I may use the expression and you don’t mind my marking the invidious fact, they’ve been of late exclusively perched. When Sarah sailed it was me, in other words, they were after.”
“They weren’t interested.” Strether had figured it all out. “They didn’t come out for you but for me. It wasn’t to see what you’re doing but to see what I’m doing. Their initial curiosity, thanks to my irresponsible delay, inevitably shifted to the second point of interest; and it’s on that second point, if I can say it and you don’t mind me pointing out the unpleasant truth, that they’ve recently been focused exclusively. When Sarah left, it was me they were really after.”
Chad took it in both with intelligence and with indulgence. “It is rather a business then—what I’ve let you in for!”
Chad took it in with both understanding and a laid-back attitude. “It is kind of a business then—what I’ve gotten you into!”
Strether had again a brief pause; which ended in a reply that seemed to dispose once for all of this element of compunction. Chad was to treat it, at any rate, so far as they were again together, as having done so. “I was ‘in’ when you found me.”
Strether took another brief pause, which concluded with a response that appeared to settle this feeling of guilt once and for all. Chad was to regard it, at least while they were together again, as if it had been resolved. “I was ‘in’ when you found me.”
“Ah but it was you,” the young man laughed, “who found me.”
“Ah, but it was you,” the young man laughed, “who found me.”
“I only found you out. It was you who found me in. It was all in the day’s work for them, at all events, that they should come. And they’ve greatly enjoyed it,” Strether declared.
“I only figured you out. You were the one who discovered me. It was just part of the job for them, anyway, that they should come. And they really enjoyed it,” Strether said.
“Well, I’ve tried to make them,” said Chad.
"Well, I've tried to make them," Chad said.
His companion did himself presently the same justice. “So have I. I tried even this very morning—while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She enjoys for instance, almost as much as anything else, not being, as I’ve said, afraid of me; and I think I gave her help in that.”
His companion also acknowledged the same. “So have I. I even tried this very morning—while Mrs. Pocock was with me. She enjoys, for example, almost as much as anything else, not being, as I’ve mentioned, afraid of me; and I think I helped her with that.”
Chad took a deeper interest. “Was she very very nasty?”
Chad became more curious. “Was she really that mean?”
Strether debated. “Well, she was the most important thing—she was definite. She was—at last—crystalline. And I felt no remorse. I saw that they must have come.”
Strether thought about it. “Well, she was the most important thing—she was clear. She was—finally—transparent. And I felt no guilt. I realized that they had to have come.”
“Oh I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for that—!” Chad’s own remorse was as small.
“Oh, I wanted to see them for myself; so that if it were only for that—!” Chad’s own regret was just as minor.
This appeared almost all Strether wanted. “Isn’t your having seen them for yourself then the thing, beyond all others, that has come of their visit?”
This seemed like just about everything Strether needed. “Isn’t your seeing them in person the most important thing that has come from their visit?”
Chad looked as if he thought it nice of his old friend to put it so. “Don’t you count it as anything that you’re dished—if you are dished? Are you, my dear man, dished?”
Chad seemed to appreciate that his old friend phrased it that way. “Don’t you see it as a big deal that you’re in trouble—if you are in trouble? Are you, my dear man, in trouble?”
It sounded as if he were asking if he had caught cold or hurt his foot, and Strether for a minute but smoked and smoked. “I want to see her again. I must see her.”
It seemed like he was asking if he had caught a cold or hurt his foot, and Strether just kept smoking for a minute. “I want to see her again. I need to see her.”
“Of course you must.” Then Chad hesitated. “Do you mean—a—Mother herself?”
“Of course you have to.” Then Chad paused. “Are you saying—uh—Mother herself?”
“Oh your mother—that will depend.”
“Oh, your mom—that will depend.”
It was as if Mrs. Newsome had somehow been placed by the words very far off. Chad however endeavoured in spite of this to reach the place. “What do you mean it will depend on?”
It felt like Mrs. Newsome was positioned very far away by the words. Chad, however, tried to reach her despite this. “What do you mean it will depend on?”
Strether, for all answer, gave him a longish look. “I was speaking of Sarah. I must positively—though she quite cast me off—see her again. I can’t part with her that way.”
Strether gave him a long look in response. “I was talking about Sarah. I really must—even though she’s completely cut me off—see her again. I can’t just let her go like that.”
“Then she was awfully unpleasant?”
“Then she was really mean?”
Again Strether exhaled. “She was what she had to be. I mean that from the moment they’re not delighted they can only be—well what I admit she was. We gave them,” he went on, “their chance to be delighted, and they’ve walked up to it, and looked all round it, and not taken it.”
Again, Strether sighed. “She was who she needed to be. I mean that from the moment they’re not thrilled, they can only be—well, what I acknowledge she was. We gave them,” he continued, “their opportunity to be thrilled, and they’ve approached it, looked it over, and decided not to take it.”
“You can bring a horse to water—!” Chad suggested.
“You can bring a horse to water—!” Chad suggested.
“Precisely. And the tune to which this morning Sarah wasn’t delighted—the tune to which, to adopt your metaphor, she refused to drink—leaves us on that side nothing more to hope.”
“Exactly. And the tune that Sarah wasn’t happy with this morning—the tune that, to use your metaphor, she refused to embrace—leaves us with nothing more to hope for on that side.”
Chad had a pause, and then as if consolingly: “It was never of course really the least on the cards that they would be ‘delighted.’”
Chad hesitated for a moment and then said, as if to comfort: “It was never really likely that they would be ‘delighted.’”
“Well, I don’t know, after all,” Strether mused. “I’ve had to come as far round. However”—he shook it off—“it’s doubtless my performance that’s absurd.”
“Well, I don’t know, after all,” Strether thought. “I’ve had to come a long way around. However”—he shook it off—“it’s probably my performance that’s ridiculous.”
“There are certainly moments,” said Chad, “when you seem to me too good to be true. Yet if you are true,” he added, “that seems to be all that need concern me.”
“There are definitely times,” said Chad, “when you seem too good to be real. But if you are real,” he added, “that’s all I really need to worry about.”
“I’m true, but I’m incredible. I’m fantastic and ridiculous—I don’t explain myself even to myself. How can they then,” Strether asked, “understand me? So I don’t quarrel with them.”
“I’m real, but I’m amazing. I’m awesome and absurd—I don’t even explain myself to myself. How can they then,” Strether asked, “understand me? So I don’t argue with them.”
“I see. They quarrel,” said Chad rather comfortably, “with us.” Strether noted once more the comfort, but his young friend had already gone on. “I should feel greatly ashamed, all the same, if I didn’t put it before you again that you ought to think, after all, tremendously well. I mean before giving up beyond recall—” With which insistence, as from a certain delicacy, dropped.
“I get it. They argue,” Chad said casually, “with us.” Strether noticed the ease in Chad’s tone, but his young friend had already continued. “I would still feel really ashamed if I didn’t remind you again that you should think, after all, really hard. I mean before deciding to give up completely—” With that insistence, he trailed off, showing a hint of sensitivity.
Ah but Strether wanted it. “Say it all, say it all.”
Ah, but Strether wanted it. “Say everything, say everything.”
“Well, at your age, and with what—when all’s said and done—Mother might do for you and be for you.”
“Well, at your age, and considering what—when everything’s taken into account—Mom could do for you and be to you.”
Chad had said it all, from his natural scruple, only to that extent; so that Strether after an instant himself took a hand. “My absence of an assured future. The little I have to show toward the power to take care of myself. The way, the wonderful way, she would certainly take care of me. Her fortune, her kindness, and the constant miracle of her having been disposed to go even so far. Of course, of course”—he summed it up. “There are those sharp facts.”
Chad had said everything from his natural conscience, just to that extent; so after a moment, Strether jumped in. “My lack of a secure future. The little I have in terms of being able to support myself. The way, the amazing way, she would definitely take care of me. Her wealth, her kindness, and the ongoing miracle of her being willing to go even this far. Of course, of course”—he wrapped it up. “There are those tough realities.”
Chad had meanwhile thought of another still. “And don’t you really care—?”
Chad had meanwhile thought of another one. “And don’t you really care—?”
His friend slowly turned round to him. “Will you go?”
His friend slowly turned to him. “Are you going to go?”
“I’ll go if you’ll say you now consider I should. You know,” he went on, “I was ready six weeks ago.”
“I’ll go if you say you think I should now. You know,” he continued, “I was ready six weeks ago.”
“Ah,” said Strether, “that was when you didn’t know I wasn’t! You’re ready at present because you do know it.”
“Ah,” said Strether, “that was when you didn’t know I wasn’t! You’re prepared now because you do know it.”
“That may be,” Chad returned; “but all the same I’m sincere. You talk about taking the whole thing on your shoulders, but in what light do you regard me that you think me capable of letting you pay?” Strether patted his arm, as they stood together against the parapet, reassuringly—seeming to wish to contend that he had the wherewithal; but it was again round this question of purchase and price that the young man’s sense of fairness continued to hover. “What it literally comes to for you, if you’ll pardon my putting it so, is that you give up money. Possibly a good deal of money.”
"That might be true," Chad replied, "but I’m still being honest. You talk about taking everything on yourself, but how do you see me to think I’d let you pay?" Strether patted his arm as they stood together at the railing, trying to reassure him—seeming to want to argue that he really had the means. But it was once again around the issue of cost and value that the young man’s sense of fairness kept circling back. "What it really comes down to for you, if you don’t mind my saying so, is that you’re letting go of money. Possibly quite a bit of money."
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “if it were only just enough you’d still be justified in putting it so! But I’ve on my side to remind you too that you give up money; and more than ‘possibly’—quite certainly, as I should suppose—a good deal.”
“Oh,” Strether laughed, “if it were just enough, you’d still be right to say it that way! But I have to remind you that you are giving up money; and more than ‘possibly’—definitely, as I would think—a whole lot.”
“True enough; but I’ve got a certain quantity,” Chad returned after a moment. “Whereas you, my dear man, you—”
“That's true; but I have a certain amount,” Chad replied after a moment. “As for you, my dear man, you—”
“I can’t be at all said”—Strether took him up—“to have a ‘quantity’ certain or uncertain? Very true. Still, I shan’t starve.”
“I can’t really be said”—Strether responded—“to have a ‘quantity’ that is certain or uncertain? That’s true. But I won’t starve.”
“Oh you mustn’t starve!” Chad pacifically emphasised; and so, in the pleasant conditions, they continued to talk; though there was, for that matter, a pause in which the younger companion might have been taken as weighing again the delicacy of his then and there promising the elder some provision against the possibility just mentioned. This, however, he presumably thought best not to do, for at the end of another minute they had moved in quite a different direction. Strether had broken in by returning to the subject of Chad’s passage with Sarah and enquiring if they had arrived, in the event, at anything in the nature of a “scene.” To this Chad replied that they had on the contrary kept tremendously polite; adding moreover that Sally was after all not the woman to have made the mistake of not being. “Her hands are a good deal tied, you see. I got so, from the first,” he sagaciously observed, “the start of her.”
“Oh, you mustn’t starve!” Chad calmly emphasized; and so, in the pleasant atmosphere, they continued to chat; although there was a moment of silence in which the younger friend might have been considering whether to promise the older one some food for the possibility he just mentioned. However, he presumably decided against it, because after another minute, they had moved in a completely different direction. Strether jumped back in by revisiting the topic of Chad’s interaction with Sarah and asking if they had, in fact, reached anything like a “scene.” Chad replied that, on the contrary, they had remained extremely polite; adding that Sally wasn’t the type to make the mistake of not being polite. “Her hands are pretty much tied, you see. I realized that right from the start,” he wisely noted, “from the way she was.”
“You mean she has taken so much from you?”
"You mean she has taken so much from you?"
“Well, I couldn’t of course in common decency give less: only she hadn’t expected, I think, that I’d give her nearly so much. And she began to take it before she knew it.”
“Well, I couldn’t, of course, in common decency give less; only she hadn’t expected, I think, that I’d give her nearly so much. And she started to take it before she realized it.”
“And she began to like it,” said Strether, “as soon as she began to take it!”
“And she started to enjoy it,” said Strether, “as soon as she started to accept it!”
“Yes, she has liked it—also more than she expected.” After which Chad observed: “But she doesn’t like me. In fact she hates me.”
“Yes, she has liked it—also more than she expected.” After that, Chad noted, “But she doesn’t like me. In fact, she hates me.”
Strether’s interest grew. “Then why does she want you at home?”
Strether's curiosity increased. "So, why does she want you to stay home?"
“Because when you hate you want to triumph, and if she should get me neatly stuck there she would triumph.”
“Because when you hate, you want to win, and if she manages to trap me there, she would win.”
Strether followed afresh, but looking as he went. “Certainly—in a manner. But it would scarce be a triumph worth having if, once entangled, feeling her dislike and possibly conscious in time of a certain quantity of your own, you should on the spot make yourself unpleasant to her.”
Strether kept going, but he was paying attention as he did. “Of course—in a way. But it wouldn't really be a victory worth having if, once you got involved, feeling her dislike and perhaps realizing some of your own, you ended up making things uncomfortable for her right away.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “she can bear me—could bear me at least at home. It’s my being there that would be her triumph. She hates me in Paris.”
“Ah,” said Chad, “she can handle me—could handle me at least at home. My presence there would be her victory. She can't stand me in Paris.”
“She hates in other words—”
“She hates, in other words—”
“Yes, that’s it!”—Chad had quickly understood this understanding; which formed on the part of each as near an approach as they had yet made to naming Madame de Vionnet. The limitations of their distinctness didn’t, however, prevent its fairly lingering in the air that it was this lady Mrs. Pocock hated. It added one more touch moreover to their established recognition of the rare intimacy of Chad’s association with her. He had never yet more twitched away the last light veil from this phenomenon than in presenting himself as confounded and submerged in the feeling she had created at Woollett. “And I’ll tell you who hates me too,” he immediately went on.
“Yes, that’s it!”—Chad quickly grasped this understanding, which marked the closest they had come to identifying Madame de Vionnet. However, the limits of their clarity didn’t stop the feeling from lingering in the air that it was this woman Mrs. Pocock despised. It added another layer to their shared acknowledgment of the unique closeness of Chad’s relationship with her. He had never really pulled back the final light cover from this situation more than when he presented himself as confused and overwhelmed by the emotions she had stirred up in Woollett. “And I’ll tell you who hates me too,” he immediately continued.
Strether knew as immediately whom he meant, but with as prompt a protest. “Ah no! Mamie doesn’t hate—well,” he caught himself in time—“anybody at all. Mamie’s beautiful.”
Strether immediately knew who he was talking about, but he protested just as quickly. “Oh no! Mamie doesn’t hate—well,” he corrected himself quickly—“anyone at all. Mamie’s beautiful.”
Chad shook his head. “That’s just why I mind it. She certainly doesn’t like me.”
Chad shook his head. "That's exactly why it bothers me. She definitely doesn't like me."
“How much do you mind it? What would you do for her?”
“How much does it bother you? What would you do for her?”
“Well, I’d like her if she’d like me. Really, really,” Chad declared.
“Well, I’d like her if she liked me. Really, really,” Chad declared.
It gave his companion a moment’s pause. “You asked me just now if I don’t, as you said, ‘care’ about a certain person. You rather tempt me therefore to put the question in my turn. Don’t you care about a certain other person?”
It made his companion hesitate for a moment. “You just asked me if I don’t, as you put it, ‘care’ about a certain person. You’re kind of tempting me to flip the question back to you. Don’t you care about another certain person?”
Chad looked at him hard in the lamplight of the window. “The difference is that I don’t want to.”
Chad stared intensely at him in the light from the window. “The difference is that I just don’t want to.”
Strether wondered. “‘Don’t want’ to?”
Strether wondered. "'Don't want to?'"
“I try not to—that is I have tried. I’ve done my best. You can’t be surprised,” the young man easily went on, “when you yourself set me on it. I was indeed,” he added, “already on it a little; but you set me harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had come out.”
“I try not to—that is I have tried. I’ve done my best. You can’t be surprised,” the young man continued casually, “when you yourself encouraged me. I was indeed,” he added, “already working on it a bit; but you pushed me harder. It was six weeks ago that I thought I had overcome it.”
Strether took it well in. “But you haven’t come out!”
Strether took it in stride. “But you haven’t revealed yourself!”
“I don’t know—it’s what I want to know,” said Chad. “And if I could have sufficiently wanted—by myself—to go back, I think I might have found out.”
“I don’t know—it’s what I want to know,” said Chad. “And if I could have really wanted—on my own—to go back, I think I might have figured it out.”
“Possibly”—Strether considered. “But all you were able to achieve was to want to want to! And even then,” he pursued, “only till our friends there came. Do you want to want to still?” As with a sound half-dolorous, half-droll and all vague and equivocal, Chad buried his face for a little in his hands, rubbing it in a whimsical way that amounted to an evasion, he brought it out more sharply: “Do you?”
“Maybe”—Strether thought. “But all you managed to do was want to want to! And even then,” he continued, “only until our friends arrived. Do you still want to want to?” With a sound that was half-sad, half-funny, and completely unclear, Chad hid his face in his hands for a moment, rubbing it in a playful way that seemed like a way to avoid the question. He pulled his hands away more decisively: “Do you?”
Chad kept for a time his attitude, but at last he looked up, and then abruptly, “Jim is a damned dose!” he declared.
Chad held onto his attitude for a while, but finally he looked up and suddenly said, “Jim is a damn pain!”
“Oh I don’t ask you to abuse or describe or in any way pronounce on your relatives; I simply put it to you once more whether you’re now ready. You say you’ve ‘seen.’ Is what you’ve seen that you can’t resist?”
“Oh, I’m not asking you to criticize or talk about your relatives in any way; I’m just asking you again if you’re now ready. You say you’ve ‘seen.’ Is what you’ve seen something you can’t ignore?”
Chad gave him a strange smile—the nearest approach he had ever shown to a troubled one. “Can’t you make me not resist?”
Chad gave him a weird smile—the closest he had ever come to looking troubled. “Can’t you make me not resist?”
“What it comes to,” Strether went on very gravely now and as if he hadn’t heard him, “what it comes to is that more has been done for you, I think, than I’ve ever seen done—attempted perhaps, but never so successfully done—by one human being for another.”
“What it comes down to,” Strether continued very seriously, as if he hadn’t heard him, “is that I think more has been done for you than I’ve ever seen done—attempted maybe, but never so successfully accomplished—by one person for another.”
“Oh an immense deal certainly”—Chad did it full justice. “And you yourself are adding to it.”
“Oh, that's a huge deal for sure”—Chad really captured that. “And you’re contributing to it yourself.”
It was without heeding this either that his visitor continued. “And our friends there won’t have it.”
It was without considering this either that his visitor went on. “And our friends there won’t accept it.”
“No, they simply won’t.”
“No, they just won’t.”
“They demand you on the basis, as it were, of repudiation and ingratitude; and what has been the matter with me,” Strether went on, “is that I haven’t seen my way to working with you for repudiation.”
“They're asking you based on rejection and ingratitude; and what I've been struggling with,” Strether continued, “is that I haven't figured out how to collaborate with you on rejection.”
Chad appreciated this. “Then as you haven’t seen yours you naturally haven’t seen mine. There it is.” After which he proceeded, with a certain abruptness, to a sharp interrogation. “Now do you say she doesn’t hate me?”
Chad appreciated this. “So since you haven’t seen yours, you obviously haven’t seen mine. There it is.” After that, he abruptly launched into a pointed question. “Now do you really think she doesn’t hate me?”
Strether hesitated. “‘She’—?”
Strether hesitated. “‘She’—?”
“Yes—Mother. We called it Sarah, but it comes to the same thing.”
“Yes—Mom. We called it Sarah, but it means the same thing.”
“Ah,” Strether objected, “not to the same thing as her hating you.”
“Ah,” Strether replied, “it’s not the same as her hating you.”
On which—though as if for an instant it had hung fire—Chad remarkably replied: “Well, if they hate my good friend, that comes to the same thing.” It had a note of inevitable truth that made Strether take it as enough, feel he wanted nothing more. The young man spoke in it for his “good friend” more than he had ever yet directly spoken, confessed to such deep identities between them as he might play with the idea of working free from, but which at a given moment could still draw him down like a whirlpool. And meanwhile he had gone on. “Their hating you too moreover—that also comes to a good deal.”
On which—though it seemed for a moment like it was held back—Chad surprisingly responded: “Well, if they dislike my good friend, that means the same thing.” It had a ring of undeniable truth that made Strether accept it as sufficient; he felt he needed nothing more. The young man expressed more about his “good friend” than he ever had directly, acknowledging such deep connections between them that he might consider breaking away from, but which, at that moment, could still pull him in like a whirlpool. And in the meantime, he continued, “Their disliking you too, by the way—that counts for quite a bit.”
“Ah,” said Strether, “your mother doesn’t.”
“Ah,” said Strether, “your mom doesn’t.”
Chad, however, loyally stuck to it—loyally, that is, to Strether. “She will if you don’t look out.”
Chad, however, remained loyal to it—loyal, that is, to Strether. “She will if you’re not careful.”
“Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That’s just why,” our friend explained, “I want to see her again.”
“Well, I do look out. I am, after all, looking out. That’s just why,” our friend explained, “I want to see her again.”
It drew from Chad again the same question. “To see Mother?”
It raised the same question from Chad again. “To see Mom?”
“To see—for the present—Sarah.”
"To see Sarah for now."
“Ah then there you are! And what I don’t for the life of me make out,” Chad pursued with resigned perplexity, “is what you gain by it.”
“Ah there you are! And what I can’t figure out for the life of me,” Chad continued with a resigned confusion, “is what you gain from it.”
Oh it would have taken his companion too long to say! “That’s because you have, I verily believe, no imagination. You’ve other qualities. But no imagination, don’t you see? at all.”
Oh, it would have taken his companion too long to say! “That’s because I honestly believe you have no imagination. You have other strengths. But no imagination, don’t you see? Not at all.”
“I dare say. I do see.” It was an idea in which Chad showed interest. “But haven’t you yourself rather too much?”
“I must say, I see what you mean.” Chad seemed intrigued by the idea. “But haven’t you had quite a bit yourself?”
“Oh rather—!” So that after an instant, under this reproach and as if it were at last a fact really to escape from, Strether made his move for departure.
“Oh really—!” So that after a moment, under this accusation and as if it were finally something to break free from, Strether made his move to leave.
II
One of the features of the restless afternoon passed by him after Mrs. Pocock’s visit was an hour spent, shortly before dinner, with Maria Gostrey, whom of late, in spite of so sustained a call on his attention from other quarters, he had by no means neglected. And that he was still not neglecting her will appear from the fact that he was with her again at the same hour on the very morrow—with no less fine a consciousness moreover of being able to hold her ear. It continued inveterately to occur, for that matter, that whenever he had taken one of his greater turns he came back to where she so faithfully awaited him. None of these excursions had on the whole been livelier than the pair of incidents—the fruit of the short interval since his previous visit—on which he had now to report to her. He had seen Chad Newsome late the night before, and he had had that morning, as a sequel to this conversation, a second interview with Sarah. “But they’re all off,” he said, “at last.”
One of the things that marked the restless afternoon that followed Mrs. Pocock's visit was an hour spent, just before dinner, with Maria Gostrey, who, despite the many other distractions calling for his attention, he had definitely not ignored. The fact that he was still engaged with her would become clear since he was with her again at the same hour the very next day, feeling quite good about being able to keep her engaged. It had consistently happened, in fact, that whenever he took one of his longer outings, he would return to where she patiently waited for him. None of those outings had been more eventful than the two incidents—resulting from the brief interval since his last visit—that he now needed to share with her. He had seen Chad Newsome late the night before, and that morning, following their conversation, he had a second meeting with Sarah. “But they’re all off,” he said, “at last.”
It puzzled her a moment. “All?—Mr. Newsome with them?”
It confused her for a moment. “All?—Is Mr. Newsome with them?”
“Ah not yet! Sarah and Jim and Mamie. But Waymarsh with them—for Sarah. It’s too beautiful,” Strether continued; “I find I don’t get over that—it’s always a fresh joy. But it’s a fresh joy too,” he added, “that—well, what do you think? Little Bilham also goes. But he of course goes for Mamie.”
“Not quite yet! Sarah, Jim, and Mamie. But Waymarsh is with them—for Sarah. It’s too beautiful,” Strether kept going; “I realize I can’t get past that—it’s always a new joy. But it’s also a new joy,” he added, “that—what do you think? Little Bilham is also going. But he’s definitely going for Mamie.”
Miss Gostrey wondered. “‘For’ her? Do you mean they’re already engaged?”
Miss Gostrey wondered. “‘For’ her? Are you saying they’re already engaged?”
“Well,” said Strether, “say then for me. He’ll do anything for me; just as I will, for that matter—anything I can—for him. Or for Mamie either. She’ll do anything for me.”
“Well,” said Strether, “just say it’s for me. He’ll do anything for me; just like I will, for that matter—anything I can—for him. Or for Mamie too. She’ll do anything for me.”
Miss Gostrey gave a comprehensive sigh. “The way you reduce people to subjection!”
Miss Gostrey let out a long sigh. “The way you make people submit!”
“It’s certainly, on one side, wonderful. But it’s quite equalled, on another, by the way I don’t. I haven’t reduced Sarah, since yesterday; though I’ve succeeded in seeing her again, as I’ll presently tell you. The others however are really all right. Mamie, by that blessed law of ours, absolutely must have a young man.”
“It’s definitely great on one hand. But it’s equally matched, on the other hand, by the way I feel differently. I haven’t decreased my feelings for Sarah since yesterday; although I managed to see her again, which I’ll share with you soon. The others, however, are all doing well. Mamie, following that wonderful rule of ours, really must have a boyfriend.”
“But what must poor Mr. Bilham have? Do you mean they’ll marry for you?”
“But what does poor Mr. Bilham want? Are you saying they’ll marry for you?”
“I mean that, by the same blessed law, it won’t matter a grain if they don’t—I shan’t have in the least to worry.”
“I mean that, by the same blessed rule, it won’t matter at all if they don’t—I won’t have the slightest worry.”
She saw as usual what he meant. “And Mr. Jim?—who goes for him?”
She understood, as always, what he was getting at. “And what about Mr. Jim? Who looks out for him?”
“Oh,” Strether had to admit, “I couldn’t manage that. He’s thrown, as usual, on the world; the world which, after all, by his account—for he has prodigious adventures—seems very good to him. He fortunately—‘over here,’ as he says—finds the world everywhere; and his most prodigious adventure of all,” he went on, “has been of course of the last few days.”
“Oh,” Strether had to admit, “I couldn’t handle that. He’s, as always, at the mercy of the world; a world that, by his own account—since he has amazing stories—seems pretty good to him. Luckily—‘over here,’ as he puts it—he finds the world all around him; and his biggest adventure lately,” he continued, “has definitely been in the last few days.”
Miss Gostrey, already knowing, instantly made the connexion. “He has seen Marie de Vionnet again?”
Miss Gostrey, already aware, immediately made the connection. “He’s seen Marie de Vionnet again?”
“He went, all by himself, the day after Chad’s party—didn’t I tell you?—to tea with her. By her invitation—all alone.”
“He went by himself the day after Chad’s party—didn’t I mention that?—to have tea with her. It was her invitation—just him.”
“Quite like yourself!” Maria smiled.
“Just like you!” Maria smiled.
“Oh but he’s more wonderful about her than I am!” And then as his friend showed how she could believe it, filling it out, fitting it on to old memories of the wonderful woman: “What I should have liked to manage would have been her going.”
“Oh, but he’s so much more amazing about her than I am!” Then, as his friend demonstrated how she could believe it, expanding on it, connecting it to recollections of the incredible woman: “What I would have loved to arrange would have been her leaving.”
“To Switzerland with the party?”
“Going to Switzerland with the crew?”
“For Jim—and for symmetry. If it had been workable moreover for a fortnight she’d have gone. She’s ready”—he followed up his renewed vision of her—“for anything.”
“For Jim—and for balance. If it had been doable for two weeks she’d have gone. She’s ready”—he continued with his refreshed image of her—“for anything.”
Miss Gostrey went with him a minute. “She’s too perfect!”
Miss Gostrey went with him for a moment. “She’s just too perfect!”
“She will, I think,” he pursued, “go to-night to the station.”
“She will, I think,” he continued, “go to the station tonight.”
“To see him off?”
"To send him off?"
“With Chad—marvellously—as part of their general attention. And she does it”—it kept before him—“with a light, light grace, a free, free gaiety, that may well softly bewilder Mr. Pocock.”
“With Chad—remarkably—as part of their overall focus. And she does it”—it lingered in his mind—“with a light, effortless grace, a carefree joy that might easily leave Mr. Pocock feeling a bit confused.”
It kept her so before him that his companion had after an instant a friendly comment. “As in short it has softly bewildered a saner man. Are you really in love with her?” Maria threw off.
It kept her so in front of him that his friend quickly made a casual remark. “It’s like it’s gently confused a more rational guy. Are you actually in love with her?” Maria dismissed.
“It’s of no importance I should know,” he replied. “It matters so little—has nothing to do, practically, with either of us.”
“It doesn’t really matter that I should know,” he replied. “It’s of such little importance—has nothing to do, really, with either of us.”
“All the same”—Maria continued to smile—“they go, the five, as I understand you, and you and Madame de Vionnet stay.”
“All the same,” Maria continued to smile, “the five of them are leaving, as I understand it, and you and Madame de Vionnet are staying.”
“Oh and Chad.” To which Strether added: “And you.”
“Oh, and Chad.” To which Strether replied: “And you.”
“Ah ‘me’!”—she gave a small impatient wail again, in which something of the unreconciled seemed suddenly to break out. “I don’t stay, it somehow seems to me, much to my advantage. In the presence of all you cause to pass before me I’ve a tremendous sense of privation.”
“Ah ‘me’!”—she let out a small, frustrated wail again, in which something unresolved seemed to suddenly emerge. “I don’t stick around; it just feels like it doesn’t really benefit me. With everything you put in front of me, I have an overwhelming feeling of lack.”
Strether hesitated. “But your privation, your keeping out of everything, has been—hasn’t it?—by your own choice.”
Strether paused. “But your exclusion, your staying away from everything, has been—hasn’t it?—your own decision.”
“Oh yes; it has been necessary—that is it has been better for you. What I mean is only that I seem to have ceased to serve you.”
“Oh yes; it’s been necessary—that is, it’s been better for you. What I mean is that I feel like I’ve stopped being of help to you.”
“How can you tell that?” he asked. “You don’t know how you serve me. When you cease—”
“How can you tell that?” he asked. “You don’t realize how you help me. When you stop—”
“Well?” she said as he dropped.
“Well?” she said as he fell.
“Well, I’ll let you know. Be quiet till then.”
“Well, I’ll let you know. Just be quiet until then.”
She thought a moment. “Then you positively like me to stay?”
She thought for a moment. “So you really want me to stay?”
“Don’t I treat you as if I did?”
“Don’t I act like I do?”
“You’re certainly very kind to me. But that,” said Maria, “is for myself. It’s getting late, as you see, and Paris turning rather hot and dusty. People are scattering, and some of them, in other places want me. But if you want me here—!”
“You’re really very kind to me. But that,” said Maria, “is for myself. It’s getting late, as you can see, and Paris is getting quite hot and dusty. People are leaving, and some of them need me elsewhere. But if you want me here—!”
She had spoken as resigned to his word, but he had of a sudden a still sharper sense than he would have expected of desiring not to lose her. “I want you here.”
She had spoken as if she accepted his words, but suddenly he felt a stronger urge than he expected—he didn’t want to lose her. “I want you here.”
She took it as if the words were all she had wished; as if they brought her, gave her something that was the compensation of her case. “Thank you,” she simply answered. And then as he looked at her a little harder, “Thank you very much,” she repeated.
She took it as if those words were everything she had wanted; as if they brought her something that was the reward for her situation. “Thank you,” she replied simply. And then, as he looked at her a bit more intently, “Thank you very much,” she said again.
It had broken as with a slight arrest into the current of their talk, and it held him a moment longer. “Why, two months, or whatever the time was, ago, did you so suddenly dash off? The reason you afterwards gave me for having kept away three weeks wasn’t the real one.”
It had interrupted their conversation for a moment, and it kept him hanging on. “Why, two months ago, or however long it was, did you suddenly leave? The reason you later gave me for being away for three weeks wasn’t the real one.”
She recalled. “I never supposed you believed it was. Yet,” she continued, “if you didn’t guess it that was just what helped you.”
She remembered. “I never thought you believed it was. Yet,” she continued, “if you didn’t figure it out, that was exactly what helped you.”
He looked away from her on this; he indulged, so far as space permitted, in one of his slow absences. “I’ve often thought of it, but never to feel that I could guess it. And you see the consideration with which I’ve treated you in never asking till now.”
He turned his gaze away from her, allowing himself to drift into one of his slow moments of distraction. “I’ve thought about it many times, but never felt like I could really understand it. And you can see the respect I’ve shown by not asking until now.”
“Now then why do you ask?”
“Now then, why do you ask?”
“To show you how I miss you when you’re not here, and what it does for me.”
“To show you how much I miss you when you’re not here, and how it affects me.”
“It doesn’t seem to have done,” she laughed, “all it might! However,” she added, “if you’ve really never guessed the truth I’ll tell it you.”
“It doesn’t seem to have worked,” she laughed, “at all! However,” she added, “if you really haven’t figured out the truth, I’ll tell you.”
“I’ve never guessed it,” Strether declared.
“I never saw that coming,” Strether said.
“Never?”
"Never?"
“Never.”
"Not ever."
“Well then I dashed off, as you say, so as not to have the confusion of being there if Marie de Vionnet should tell you anything to my detriment.”
“Well, I took off quickly, as you put it, to avoid any awkwardness if Marie de Vionnet happened to say something bad about me.”
He looked as if he considerably doubted. “You even then would have had to face it on your return.”
He looked like he really doubted it. “You would have had to deal with it when you got back.”
“Oh if I had found reason to believe it something very bad I’d have left you altogether.”
“Oh, if I had found a good reason to believe it was something really serious, I would have left you for good.”
“So then,” he continued, “it was only on guessing she had been on the whole merciful that you ventured back?”
“So then,” he continued, “you only decided to come back because you guessed she had mostly been merciful?”
Maria kept it together. “I owe her thanks. Whatever her temptation she didn’t separate us. That’s one of my reasons,” she went on “for admiring her so.”
Maria held it together. “I owe her a thank you. No matter what her temptation was, she didn’t tear us apart. That’s one of my reasons,” she continued, “for admiring her so much.”
“Let it pass then,” said Strether, “for one of mine as well. But what would have been her temptation?”
“Let it go then,” said Strether, “since it's one of mine too. But what would have tempted her?”
“What are ever the temptations of women?”
“What are the temptations of women?”
He thought—but hadn’t, naturally, to think too long. “Men?”
He thought—but didn't really need to think for long. “Men?”
“She would have had you, with it, more for herself. But she saw she could have you without it.”
“She would have had you with it, more for herself. But she realized she could have you without it.”
“Oh ‘have’ me!” Strether a trifle ambiguously sighed. “You,” he handsomely declared, “would have had me at any rate with it.”
“Oh ‘have’ me!” Strether sighed a bit ambiguously. “You,” he confidently declared, “would have had me at any rate with it.”
“Oh ‘have’ you!”—she echoed it as he had done. “I do have you, however,” she less ironically said, “from the moment you express a wish.”
“Oh, you do!”—she repeated it just like he had. “I do have you, though,” she said with less irony, “from the moment you express a wish.”
He stopped before her, full of the disposition. “I’ll express fifty.”
He stopped in front of her, full of determination. “I’ll say fifty.”
Which indeed begot in her, with a certain inconsequence, a return of her small wail. “Ah there you are!”
Which indeed led her, somewhat inconsistently, to let out her little cry again. “Oh, there you are!”
There, if it were so, he continued for the rest of the time to be, and it was as if to show her how she could still serve him that, coming back to the departure of the Pococks, he gave her the view, vivid with a hundred more touches than we can reproduce, of what had happened for him that morning. He had had ten minutes with Sarah at her hotel, ten minutes reconquered, by irresistible pressure, from the time over which he had already described her to Miss Gostrey as having, at the end of their interview on his own premises, passed the great sponge of the future. He had caught her by not announcing himself, had found her in her sitting-room with a dressmaker and a lingère whose accounts she appeared to have been more or less ingenuously settling and who soon withdrew. Then he had explained to her how he had succeeded, late the night before, in keeping his promise of seeing Chad. “I told her I’d take it all.”
There, if it was the case, he continued to be for the rest of the time, and it was as if he wanted to show her how she could still assist him that, circling back to the Pococks’ departure, he shared with her the rich details, filled with countless nuances, of what had happened to him that morning. He had gotten ten minutes with Sarah at her hotel—ten minutes reluctantly snatched away from the time he had already described to Miss Gostrey, when, after their meeting at his place, she had seemingly erased the future. He had managed to surprise her by not announcing himself, found her in her sitting room with a dressmaker and a lingerie expert she seemed to be somewhat naively paying off, who soon left. Then he explained to her how he had finally kept his promise to see Chad the night before. “I told her I’d take it all.”
“You’d ‘take’ it?”
"You'd 'take' it?"
“Why if he doesn’t go.”
"Why if he doesn't go?"
Maria waited. “And who takes it if he does?” she enquired with a certain grimness of gaiety.
Maria waited. “And who gets it if he does?” she asked with a hint of serious cheerfulness.
“Well,” said Strether, “I think I take, in any event, everything.”
“Well,” said Strether, “I believe I accept, in any case, everything.”
“By which I suppose you mean,” his companion brought out after a moment, “that you definitely understand you now lose everything.”
“By which I guess you mean,” his companion said after a moment, “that you fully realize you’re going to lose everything now.”
He stood before her again. “It does come perhaps to the same thing. But Chad, now that he has seen, doesn’t really want it.”
He stood in front of her again. “It might end up being the same thing. But Chad, now that he's seen it, doesn’t really want it.”
She could believe that, but she made, as always, for clearness. “Still, what, after all, has he seen?”
She might believe that, but she aimed for clarity as always. “Still, what, after all, has he seen?”
“What they want of him. And it’s enough.”
“What they want from him. And that’s enough.”
“It contrasts so unfavourably with what Madame de Vionnet wants?”
“It doesn't compare well with what Madame de Vionnet wants?”
“It contrasts—just so; all round, and tremendously.”
“It stands out—exactly like that; all around, and incredibly.”
“Therefore, perhaps, most of all with what you want?”
“Therefore, maybe, more than anything else, what you want?”
“Oh,” said Strether, “what I want is a thing I’ve ceased to measure or even to understand.”
“Oh,” said Strether, “what I want is something I've stopped measuring or even understanding.”
But his friend none the less went on. “Do you want Mrs. Newsome—after such a way of treating you?”
But his friend still continued. “Do you want Mrs. Newsome—after treating you like that?”
It was a straighter mode of dealing with this lady than they had as yet—such was their high form—permitted themselves; but it seemed not wholly for this that he delayed a moment. “I dare say it has been, after all, the only way she could have imagined.”
It was a more straightforward way of interacting with this woman than they had allowed themselves so far—given their high standards—but it seemed there was more to his hesitation. “I guess it’s probably the only way she could have thought of it.”
“And does that make you want her any more?”
“And does that make you want her even more?”
“I’ve tremendously disappointed her,” Strether thought it worth while to mention.
“I’ve really disappointed her,” Strether thought it was important to mention.
“Of course you have. That’s rudimentary; that was plain to us long ago. But isn’t it almost as plain,” Maria went on, “that you’ve even yet your straight remedy? Really drag him away, as I believe you still can, and you’d cease to have to count with her disappointment.”
“Of course you have. That’s basic; we figured that out a long time ago. But isn’t it just as obvious,” Maria continued, “that you still have your straightforward solution? If you really pull him away, as I think you still can, you wouldn’t have to deal with her disappointment anymore.”
“Ah then,” he laughed, “I should have to count with yours!”
“Ah then,” he laughed, “I’d have to deal with yours!”
But this barely struck her now. “What, in that case, should you call counting? You haven’t come out where you are, I think, to please me.”
But this hardly fazed her now. “What, then, should you call counting? You haven’t shown your true self, I think, just to please me.”
“Oh,” he insisted, “that too, you know, has been part of it. I can’t separate—it’s all one; and that’s perhaps why, as I say, I don’t understand.” But he was ready to declare again that this didn’t in the least matter; all the more that, as he affirmed, he hadn’t really as yet “come out.” “She gives me after all, on its coming to the pinch, a last mercy, another chance. They don’t sail, you see, for five or six weeks more, and they haven’t—she admits that—expected Chad would take part in their tour. It’s still open to him to join them, at the last, at Liverpool.”
“Oh,” he insisted, “that too, you know, has been part of it. I can’t separate it—it’s all one; and that’s maybe why, as I said, I don’t understand.” But he was ready to say again that this didn’t really matter; especially since, as he confirmed, he hadn’t really “come out” yet. “She gives me, after all, when it comes down to it, a last mercy, another chance. They don’t leave, you see, for another five or six weeks, and they haven’t—she admits that—expected Chad to be part of their trip. It’s still possible for him to join them at the last minute, in Liverpool.”
Miss Gostrey considered. “How in the world is it ‘open’ unless you open it? How can he join them at Liverpool if he but sinks deeper into his situation here?”
Miss Gostrey considered. “How is it ‘open’ unless you actually open it? How can he join them in Liverpool if he just gets further buried in his situation here?”
“He has given her—as I explained to you that she let me know yesterday—his word of honour to do as I say.”
“He has promised her—as I told you that she mentioned to me yesterday—his word of honor to do as I say.”
Maria stared. “But if you say nothing!”
Maria stared. “But what if you say nothing?”
Well, he as usual walked about on it. “I did say something this morning. I gave her my answer—the word I had promised her after hearing from himself what he had promised. What she demanded of me yesterday, you’ll remember, was the engagement then and there to make him take up this vow.”
Well, as usual, he walked around on it. “I did say something this morning. I gave her my answer—the word I had promised her after hearing from him what he had promised. What she asked of me yesterday, you’ll remember, was to commit right there to make him take this vow.”
“Well then,” Miss Gostrey enquired, “was the purpose of your visit to her only to decline?”
“Well then,” Miss Gostrey asked, “was the reason for your visit to her just to say no?”
“No; it was to ask, odd as that may seem to you, for another delay.”
“No; it was to ask, strange as that might sound to you, for another delay.”
“Ah that’s weak!”
"Ah, that's lame!"
“Precisely!” She had spoken with impatience, but, so far as that at least, he knew where he was. “If I am weak I want to find it out. If I don’t find it out I shall have the comfort, the little glory, of thinking I’m strong.”
“Exactly!” She said this with irritation, but at least in that regard, he was sure of himself. “If I am weak, I want to know it. If I don’t find out, I’ll have the comfort, the small glory, of thinking I’m strong.”
“It’s all the comfort, I judge,” she returned, “that you will have!”
“It’s all the comfort, I think,” she replied, “that you will have!”
“At any rate,” he said, “it will have been a month more. Paris may grow, from day to day, hot and dusty, as you say; but there are other things that are hotter and dustier. I’m not afraid to stay on; the summer here must be amusing in a wild—if it isn’t a tame—way of its own; the place at no time more picturesque. I think I shall like it. And then,” he benevolently smiled for her, “there will be always you.”
“At any rate,” he said, “it will have been another month. Paris may get hot and dusty day by day, like you said; but there are other places that are hotter and dustier. I’m not worried about staying here; the summer must be fun in its own wild—if not tame—way; the place is never more picturesque. I think I’ll enjoy it. And then,” he smiled kindly at her, “there will always be you.”
“Oh,” she objected, “it won’t be as a part of the picturesqueness that I shall stay, for I shall be the plainest thing about you. You may, you see, at any rate,” she pursued, “have nobody else. Madame de Vionnet may very well be going off, mayn’t she?—and Mr. Newsome by the same stroke: unless indeed you’ve had an assurance from them to the contrary. So that if your idea’s to stay for them”—it was her duty to suggest it—“you may be left in the lurch. Of course if they do stay”—she kept it up—“they would be part of the picturesqueness. Or else indeed you might join them somewhere.”
“Oh,” she replied, “I won’t be part of the charm here; I’ll be the most ordinary thing about you. You can’t, at least,” she continued, “count on anyone else. Madame de Vionnet might very well be leaving, don’t you think?—and Mr. Newsome could easily follow suit: unless, of course, you’ve gotten some promise from them otherwise. So if your plan is to stay for them”—it was her responsibility to bring it up—“you could end up on your own. Of course, if they do stick around”—she kept it going—“they would add to the charm. Otherwise, you might join them somewhere else.”
Strether seemed to face it as if it were a happy thought; but the next moment he spoke more critically. “Do you mean that they’ll probably go off together?”
Strether seemed to take it as a positive idea; but in the next moment, he spoke more critically. “Are you saying that they’ll likely leave together?”
She just considered. “I think it will be treating you quite without ceremony if they do; though after all,” she added, “it would be difficult to see now quite what degree of ceremony properly meets your case.”
She just thought. “I think it would be pretty rude if they did that to you; though after all,” she added, “it’s hard to figure out what level of courtesy actually fits your situation.”
“Of course,” Strether conceded, “my attitude toward them is extraordinary.”
“Of course,” Strether agreed, “my attitude toward them is unusual.”
“Just so; so that one may ask one’s self what style of proceeding on their own part can altogether match it. The attitude of their own that won’t pale in its light they’ve doubtless still to work out. The really handsome thing perhaps,” she presently threw off, “would be for them to withdraw into more secluded conditions, offering at the same time to share them with you.” He looked at her, on this, as if some generous irritation—all in his interest—had suddenly again flickered in her; and what she next said indeed half-explained it. “Don’t really be afraid to tell me if what now holds you is the pleasant prospect of the empty town, with plenty of seats in the shade, cool drinks, deserted museums, drives to the Bois in the evening, and our wonderful woman all to yourself.” And she kept it up still more. “The handsomest thing of all, when one makes it out, would, I dare say, be that Mr. Chad should for a while go off by himself. It’s a pity, from that point of view,” she wound up, “that he doesn’t pay his mother a visit. It would at least occupy your interval.” The thought in fact held her a moment. “Why doesn’t he pay his mother a visit? Even a week, at this good moment, would do.”
"Exactly; so that one might wonder what approach on their part could match it. The way they act that won’t dim in its glow is something they still need to figure out. The truly attractive idea, perhaps," she casually suggested, "would be for them to retreat to a more private setting, while at the same time offering to share that with you." He looked at her as if some good-natured irritation—entirely in his interest—had suddenly sparked in her; and what she said next clarified it somewhat. "Don’t be afraid to tell me if what’s really keeping you here is the appealing idea of the empty town, with lots of shaded spots to sit, cool drinks, deserted museums, evening drives to the Bois, and our incredible woman all to yourself." And she continued. "The most attractive thing of all, when you think about it, would be for Mr. Chad to take some time off by himself. It’s a shame, from that angle," she concluded, "that he doesn’t visit his mother. At least it would fill your time." The thought actually lingered with her for a moment. "Why doesn’t he visit his mother? Even a week right now would be great."
“My dear lady,” Strether replied—and he had it even to himself surprisingly ready—“my dear lady, his mother has paid him a visit. Mrs. Newsome has been with him, this month, with an intensity that I’m sure he has thoroughly felt; he has lavishly entertained her, and she has let him have her thanks. Do you suggest he shall go back for more of them?”
“My dear lady,” Strether replied—and he had it surprisingly ready even for himself—“my dear lady, his mother has paid him a visit. Mrs. Newsome has been with him this month, with an intensity that I’m sure he has really felt; he has entertained her lavishly, and she has expressed her thanks. Are you suggesting he should go back for more visits?”
Well, she succeeded after a little in shaking it off. “I see. It’s what you don’t suggest—what you haven’t suggested. And you know.”
Well, she eventually managed to shake it off a bit. “I get it. It’s what you haven’t suggested—what you didn’t say. And you know.”
“So would you, my dear,” he kindly said, “if you had so much as seen her.”
“So would you, my dear,” he said kindly, “if you had just seen her.”
“As seen Mrs. Newsome?”
“Have you seen Mrs. Newsome?”
“No, Sarah—which, both for Chad and for myself, has served all the purpose.”
“No, Sarah—which has served its purpose for both Chad and me.”
“And served it in a manner,” she responsively mused, “so extraordinary!”
“And served it in a way,” she reflected, “that was so exceptional!”
“Well, you see,” he partly explained, “what it comes to is that she’s all cold thought—which Sarah could serve to us cold without its really losing anything. So it is that we know what she thinks of us.”
“Well, you see,” he partially explained, “the bottom line is that she’s all cold thoughts—which Sarah could serve to us cold without it really losing anything. That's how we know what she thinks of us.”
Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. “What I’ve never made out, if you come to that, is what you think—I mean you personally—of her. Don’t you so much, when all’s said, as care a little?”
Maria had followed, but she had an arrest. “What I've never understood, if we're being honest, is what you think—I mean you personally—of her. Don’t you, when it comes down to it, care a little?”
“That,” he answered with no loss of promptness, “is what even Chad himself asked me last night. He asked me if I don’t mind the loss—well, the loss of an opulent future. Which moreover,” he hastened to add, “was a perfectly natural question.”
“That,” he replied without hesitation, “is exactly what Chad asked me last night. He wanted to know if I mind losing out—well, losing an extravagant future. Which, by the way,” he quickly added, “was a totally reasonable question.”
“I call your attention, all the same,” said Miss Gostrey, “to the fact that I don’t ask it. What I venture to ask is whether it’s to Mrs. Newsome herself that you’re indifferent.”
“I’d like to point out, regardless,” Miss Gostrey said, “that I’m not asking you to care. What I’m daring to ask is whether you’re indifferent to Mrs. Newsome herself.”
“I haven’t been so”—he spoke with all assurance. “I’ve been the very opposite. I’ve been, from the first moment, preoccupied with the impression everything might be making on her—quite oppressed, haunted, tormented by it. I’ve been interested only in her seeing what I’ve seen. And I’ve been as disappointed in her refusal to see it as she has been in what has appeared to her the perversity of my insistence.”
“I haven’t felt like that at all,” he said confidently. “In fact, I’ve felt completely differently. From the very beginning, I’ve been consumed by thoughts of how everything might be impacting her—completely weighed down, troubled, and distressed by it. I’ve cared only about her understanding what I’ve understood. And I’ve been just as let down by her unwillingness to see it as she has been by what she views as my stubbornness.”
“Do you mean that she has shocked you as you’ve shocked her?”
“Are you saying that she has surprised you just like you’ve surprised her?”
Strether weighed it. “I’m probably not so shockable. But on the other hand I’ve gone much further to meet her. She, on her side, hasn’t budged an inch.”
Strether considered it. “I’m probably not easily shocked. But on the other hand, I’ve gone a lot further to meet her. She, on her part, hasn’t moved at all.”
“So that you’re now at last”—Maria pointed the moral—“in the sad stage of recriminations.”
“So now you’re finally”—Maria highlighted the point—“in the unfortunate phase of blaming each other.”
“No—it’s only to you I speak. I’ve been like a lamb to Sarah. I’ve only put my back to the wall. It’s to that one naturally staggers when one has been violently pushed there.”
“No—it’s only to you I’m talking. I’ve been like a lamb to Sarah. I’ve just kept my back against the wall. It’s to that one that naturally throws you off when you’ve been violently shoved there.”
She watched him a moment. “Thrown over?”
She watched him for a moment. "Dumped?"
“Well, as I feel I’ve landed somewhere I think I must have been thrown.”
“Well, I feel like I've ended up in a place I must have been thrown into.”
She turned it over, but as hoping to clarify much rather than to harmonise. “The thing is that I suppose you’ve been disappointing—”
She flipped it over, but was hoping to clarify more than to harmonize. “The thing is, I guess you’ve been disappointing—”
“Quite from the very first of my arrival? I dare say. I admit I was surprising even to myself.”
“Right from the moment I arrived? I’ll say. I have to admit, I was surprising even to me.”
“And then of course,” Maria went on, “I had much to do with it.”
“And then, of course,” Maria continued, “I had a lot to do with it.”
“With my being surprising—?”
"With me being surprising—?"
“That will do,” she laughed, “if you’re too delicate to call it my being! Naturally,” she added, “you came over more or less for surprises.”
“That’s enough,” she laughed, “if you’re too sensitive to call it my being! Of course,” she added, “you came over mostly for surprises.”
“Naturally!”—he valued the reminder.
"Of course!"—he valued the reminder.
“But they were to have been all for you”—she continued to piece it out—“and none of them for her.”
“But they were all meant for you”—she went on to explain—“and none of them for her.”
Once more he stopped before her as if she had touched the point. “That’s just her difficulty—that she doesn’t admit surprises. It’s a fact that, I think, describes and represents her; and it falls in with what I tell you—that she’s all, as I’ve called it, fine cold thought. She had, to her own mind, worked the whole thing out in advance, and worked it out for me as well as for herself. Whenever she has done that, you see, there’s no room left; no margin, as it were, for any alteration. She’s filled as full, packed as tight, as she’ll hold and if you wish to get anything more or different either out or in—”
He stopped in front of her again as if she had hit a nerve. “That’s her issue—she doesn’t accept surprises. It’s something that, in my opinion, describes her perfectly; and it aligns with what I've told you—that she’s all, as I’ve said, a cool, analytical thinker. In her mind, she has figured everything out ahead of time, both for herself and for me. Whenever she does that, you see, there’s no room left; no space, so to speak, for any changes. She’s as full and as tightly packed as she can be, and if you want to add anything more or different, either in or out—”
“You’ve got to make over altogether the woman herself?”
“You have to completely change the woman herself?”
“What it comes to,” said Strether, “is that you’ve got morally and intellectually to get rid of her.”
"What it comes down to," said Strether, "is that you need to morally and intellectually let her go."
“Which would appear,” Maria returned, “to be practically what you’ve done.”
“Seems like,” Maria replied, “that’s pretty much what you’ve done.”
But her friend threw back his head. “I haven’t touched her. She won’t be touched. I see it now as I’ve never done; and she hangs together with a perfection of her own,” he went on, “that does suggest a kind of wrong in any change of her composition. It was at any rate,” he wound up, “the woman herself, as you call her the whole moral and intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me over to take or to leave.”
But her friend threw back his head. “I haven’t touched her. She won’t be touched. I see it now like I never have before; she has a perfection of her own,” he continued, “that implies something wrong in changing who she is. It was, in any case,” he concluded, “the woman herself, as you call her, the entire moral and intellectual being or block, that Sarah brought me over to accept or reject.”
It turned Miss Gostrey to deeper thought. “Fancy having to take at the point of the bayonet a whole moral and intellectual being or block!”
It made Miss Gostrey think even harder. “Can you imagine having to force an entire moral and intellectual person or entity by the tip of a bayonet?”
“It was in fact,” said Strether, “what, at home, I had done. But somehow over there I didn’t quite know it.”
“It was actually,” said Strether, “what I had done back home. But for some reason, over there, I didn’t really realize it.”
“One never does, I suppose,” Miss Gostrey concurred, “realise in advance, in such a case, the size, as you may say, of the block. Little by little it looms up. It has been looming for you more and more till at last you see it all.”
“One never does, I guess,” Miss Gostrey agreed, “realize beforehand, in a situation like this, how big, you could say, the obstacle is. Little by little it becomes clearer. It has been becoming clearer for you more and more until finally you see the whole picture.”
“I see it all,” he absently echoed, while his eyes might have been fixing some particularly large iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. “It’s magnificent!” he then rather oddly exclaimed.
“I see it all,” he said absentmindedly, as if his gaze was locked on a huge iceberg in a cool blue northern sea. “It’s amazing!” he then exclaimed rather strangely.
But his friend, who was used to this kind of inconsequence in him, kept the thread. “There’s nothing so magnificent—for making others feel you—as to have no imagination.”
But his friend, who was accustomed to this kind of inconsistency in him, continued the conversation. “There’s nothing so impressive—for making others feel you—as having no imagination.”
It brought him straight round. “Ah there you are! It’s what I said last night to Chad. That he himself, I mean, has none.”
It brought him right back. “Oh, there you are! It’s what I told Chad last night. That he doesn’t have any, I mean.”
“Then it would appear,” Maria suggested, “that he has, after all, something in common with his mother.”
“Then it looks like,” Maria suggested, “that he does, after all, have something in common with his mom.”
“He has in common that he makes one, as you say, ‘feel’ him. And yet,” he added, as if the question were interesting, “one feels others too, even when they have plenty.”
“He has this thing where he makes you, as you put it, ‘feel’ him. And yet,” he continued, as if the question were intriguing, “you can feel others too, even when they have a lot.”
Miss Gostrey continued suggestive. “Madame de Vionnet?”
Miss Gostrey continued to suggest. “Madame de Vionnet?”
“She has plenty.”
“She has a lot.”
“Certainly—she had quantities of old. But there are different ways of making one’s self felt.”
“Definitely—she had a lot of history. But there are various ways to make an impact.”
“Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now—”
“Yes, it comes, no doubt, to that. You now—”
He was benevolently going on, but she wouldn’t have it. “Oh I don’t make myself felt; so my quantity needn’t be settled. Yours, you know,” she said, “is monstrous. No one has ever had so much.”
He was kindly continuing, but she wouldn’t accept it. “Oh, I don’t impose myself; so my share doesn’t need to be determined. Yours, you know,” she said, “is overwhelming. No one has ever had so much.”
It struck him for a moment. “That’s what Chad also thinks.”
It hit him for a moment. “That’s what Chad thinks too.”
“There you are then—though it isn’t for him to complain of it!”
“There you are then—though it’s not his place to complain about it!”
“Oh he doesn’t complain of it,” said Strether.
“Oh, he doesn’t complain about it,” said Strether.
“That’s all that would be wanting! But apropos of what,” Maria went on, “did the question come up?”
"That’s all we would need! But speaking of which," Maria continued, "what brought up the question?"
“Well, of his asking me what it is I gain.”
“Well, he asked me what I gain from it.”
She had a pause. “Then as I’ve asked you too it settles my case. Oh you have,” she repeated, “treasures of imagination.”
She took a moment. “Then as I’ve asked you, it settles my case. Oh you have,” she said again, “treasures of imagination.”
But he had been for an instant thinking away from this, and he came up in another place. “And yet Mrs. Newsome—it’s a thing to remember—has imagined, did, that is, imagine, and apparently still does, horrors about what I should have found. I was booked, by her vision—extraordinarily intense, after all—to find them; and that I didn’t, that I couldn’t, that, as she evidently felt, I wouldn’t—this evidently didn’t at all, as they say, ‘suit’ her book. It was more than she could bear. That was her disappointment.”
But for a moment, he was thinking differently, and he found himself somewhere else. “And yet Mrs. Newsome—it’s worth noting—has imagined, or rather, did imagine, and apparently still imagines, terrible things about what I should have discovered. According to her vision—extraordinarily intense, after all—I was supposed to find them; and the fact that I didn’t, that I couldn’t, and that, as she clearly felt, I wouldn’t—this clearly didn't, as they say, ‘fit’ her book. It was more than she could handle. That was her disappointment.”
“You mean you were to have found Chad himself horrible?”
“You mean you were actually going to find Chad horrible?”
“I was to have found the woman.”
“I was supposed to have found the woman.”
“Horrible?”
"Awful?"
“Found her as she imagined her.” And Strether paused as if for his own expression of it he could add no touch to that picture.
“Found her just like she pictured her.” And Strether paused as if he couldn’t add anything to that image.
His companion had meanwhile thought. “She imagined stupidly—so it comes to the same thing.”
His companion had meanwhile thought. “She imagined foolishly—so it amounts to the same thing.”
“Stupidly? Oh!” said Strether.
“Seriously? Oh!” said Strether.
But she insisted. “She imagined meanly.”
But she insisted. “She thought negatively.”
He had it, however, better. “It couldn’t but be ignorantly.”
He had it better, though. "It can't help but be ignorant."
“Well, intensity with ignorance—what do you want worse?”
“Well, intensity combined with ignorance—what do you want more?"
This question might have held him, but he let it pass. “Sarah isn’t ignorant—now; she keeps up the theory of the horrible.”
This question might have bothered him, but he let it go. “Sarah isn’t clueless—now; she keeps up the idea of the terrible.”
“Ah but she’s intense—and that by itself will do sometimes as well. If it doesn’t do, in this case, at any rate, to deny that Marie’s charming, it will do at least to deny that she’s good.”
"Ah, but she’s intense—and that alone can be enough sometimes. If it doesn’t apply in this case, at least it can’t be denied that Marie is charming, but it can definitely be denied that she’s good."
“What I claim is that she’s good for Chad.”
“What I’m saying is that she’s good for Chad.”
“You don’t claim”—she seemed to like it clear—“that she’s good for you.”
“You don’t say”—she seemed to want it clear—“that she’s good for you.”
But he continued without heeding. “That’s what I wanted them to come out for—to see for themselves if she’s bad for him.”
But he kept going, not paying attention. “That’s why I wanted them to come out—to see for themselves if she’s no good for him.”
“And now that they’ve done so they won’t admit that she’s good even for anything?”
“And now that they’ve done that, they won’t admit that she’s good for anything?”
“They do think,” Strether presently admitted, “that she’s on the whole about as bad for me. But they’re consistent of course, inasmuch as they’ve their clear view of what’s good for both of us.”
“They do think,” Strether eventually admitted, “that she’s generally not good for me. But they’re consistent, of course, since they have their clear idea of what’s best for both of us.”
“For you, to begin with”—Maria, all responsive, confined the question for the moment—“to eliminate from your existence and if possible even from your memory the dreadful creature that I must gruesomely shadow forth for them, even more than to eliminate the distincter evil—thereby a little less portentous—of the person whose confederate you’ve suffered yourself to become. However, that’s comparatively simple. You can easily, at the worst, after all, give me up.”
“For you, to start with”—Maria, fully engaged, limited the question for now—“to remove from your life and, if possible, even from your memory the awful person that I must grotesquely portray for them, even more than to get rid of the clearer evil—making it a bit less menacing—of the person whose accomplice you’ve allowed yourself to become. But that’s comparatively easy. You can easily, at worst, just give me up.”
“I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up.” The irony was so obvious that it needed no care. “I can easily at the worst, after all, even forget you.”
“I can easily at the worst, after all, give you up.” The irony was so obvious that it needed no care. “I can easily at the worst, after all, even forget you.”
“Call that then workable. But Mr. Newsome has much more to forget. How can he do it?”
“Call that workable then. But Mr. Newsome has a lot more to forget. How can he do it?”
“Ah there again we are! That’s just what I was to have made him do; just where I was to have worked with him and helped.”
“Ah, there we are again! That’s exactly what I wanted him to do; that’s where I was supposed to work with him and help.”
She took it in silence and without attenuation—as if perhaps from very familiarity with the facts; and her thought made a connexion without showing the links. “Do you remember how we used to talk at Chester and in London about my seeing you through?” She spoke as of far-off things and as if they had spent weeks at the places she named.
She accepted it quietly and without hesitation—as if she were very familiar with the facts; and her thoughts connected without revealing the connections. “Do you remember how we used to talk in Chester and London about my being there for you?” She spoke as if these were distant memories and as if they had spent weeks in the places she mentioned.
“It’s just what you are doing.”
“It’s just what you’re doing.”
“Ah but the worst—since you’ve left such a margin—may be still to come. You may yet break down.”
“Ah, but the worst—since you’ve left such a gap—might still be ahead. You could still fall apart.”
“Yes, I may yet break down. But will you take me—?”
“Yes, I might still break down. But will you accept me—?”
He had hesitated, and she waited. “Take you?”
He hesitated, and she waited. “Take you?”
“For as long as I can bear it.”
“For as long as I can handle it.”
She also debated “Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet may, as we were saying, leave town. How long do you think you can bear it without them?”
She also wondered, “Mr. Newsome and Madame de Vionnet might, as we were saying, leave town. How long do you think you can handle it without them?”
Strether’s reply to this was at first another question. “Do you mean in order to get away from me?”
Strether’s response to this was initially another question. “Do you mean to escape from me?”
Her answer had an abruptness. “Don’t find me rude if I say I should think they’d want to!”
Her answer was abrupt. “Don’t think I’m rude for saying this, but I would assume they’d want to!”
He looked at her hard again—seemed even for an instant to have an intensity of thought under which his colour changed. But he smiled. “You mean after what they’ve done to me?”
He stared at her again, and for a moment it looked like he was deep in thought, making his face change color. But then he smiled. “You mean after what they’ve done to me?”
“After what she has.”
"After what she's done."
At this, however, with a laugh, he was all right again. “Ah but she hasn’t done it yet!”
At this, however, with a laugh, he was fine again. “Oh, but she hasn’t done it yet!”
III
He had taken the train a few days after this from a station—as well as to a station—selected almost at random; such days, whatever should happen, were numbered, and he had gone forth under the impulse—artless enough, no doubt—to give the whole of one of them to that French ruralism, with its cool special green, into which he had hitherto looked only through the little oblong window of the picture-frame. It had been as yet for the most part but a land of fancy for him—the background of fiction, the medium of art, the nursery of letters; practically as distant as Greece, but practically also well-nigh as consecrated. Romance could weave itself, for Strether’s sense, out of elements mild enough; and even after what he had, as he felt, lately “been through,” he could thrill a little at the chance of seeing something somewhere that would remind him of a certain small Lambinet that had charmed him, long years before, at a Boston dealer’s and that he had quite absurdly never forgotten. It had been offered, he remembered, at a price he had been instructed to believe the lowest ever named for a Lambinet, a price he had never felt so poor as on having to recognise, all the same, as beyond a dream of possibility. He had dreamed—had turned and twisted possibilities for an hour: it had been the only adventure of his life in connexion with the purchase of a work of art. The adventure, it will be perceived, was modest; but the memory, beyond all reason and by some accident of association, was sweet. The little Lambinet abode with him as the picture he would have bought—the particular production that had made him for the moment overstep the modesty of nature. He was quite aware that if he were to see it again he should perhaps have a drop or a shock, and he never found himself wishing that the wheel of time would turn it up again, just as he had seen it in the maroon-coloured, sky-lighted inner shrine of Tremont Street. It would be a different thing, however, to see the remembered mixture resolved back into its elements—to assist at the restoration to nature of the whole far-away hour: the dusty day in Boston, the background of the Fitchburg Depot, of the maroon-coloured sanctum, the special-green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, the willows, the rushes, the river, the sunny silvery sky, the shady woody horizon.
He had taken the train a few days after that from a station—and to a station—picked almost randomly; those days, no matter what happened, were limited, and he had set out with a straightforward urge—no doubt innocent enough—to spend one of them experiencing that French rural charm, with its distinctive cool green, which he had only glimpsed before through the small oblong window of a picture frame. It had mostly been just a fanciful place for him—the backdrop of stories, the medium of art, the cradle of literature; practically as far away as Greece, yet also nearly as revered. Romance could emerge, in Strether’s mind, from elements simple enough; and even after what he felt he had recently “gone through,” he could still feel a thrill at the prospect of seeing something that might remind him of a certain small Lambinet that had captured his heart long ago at a Boston dealer’s, one he had absurdly never forgotten. He recalled it being offered at a price he had been led to believe was the lowest ever for a Lambinet, a price that had made him feel poorer than ever when he had to admit it was out of reach. He had fantasized—had turned over possibilities for an hour: it had been the only adventure of his life related to buying art. This adventure was modest; but the memory, for reasons beyond understanding and through a strange association, was sweet. The little Lambinet stayed with him as the picture he would have bought—the specific piece that made him, for a moment, push beyond his usual reservation. He was fully aware that if he saw it again, he might feel a rush or a shock, and he never wished for time to bring it back to him just as he had seen it in the maroon-colored, skylit inner shrine of Tremont Street. However, it would be something different to see the remembered scene broken down into its components—to witness the return to nature of the entire distant moment: the dusty day in Boston, the backdrop of the Fitchburg Depot, the maroon-colored sanctum, the unique green vision, the ridiculous price, the poplars, the willows, the reeds, the river, the bright silvery sky, the shaded woody horizon.
He observed in respect to his train almost no condition save that it should stop a few times after getting out of the banlieue; he threw himself on the general amiability of the day for the hint of where to alight. His theory of his excursion was that he could alight anywhere—not nearer Paris than an hour’s run—on catching a suggestion of the particular note required. It made its sign, the suggestion—weather, air, light, colour and his mood all favouring—at the end of some eighty minutes; the train pulled up just at the right spot, and he found himself getting out as securely as if to keep an appointment. It will be felt of him that he could amuse himself, at his age, with very small things if it be again noted that his appointment was only with a superseded Boston fashion. He hadn’t gone far without the quick confidence that it would be quite sufficiently kept. The oblong gilt frame disposed its enclosing lines; the poplars and willows, the reeds and river—a river of which he didn’t know, and didn’t want to know, the name—fell into a composition, full of felicity, within them; the sky was silver and turquoise and varnish; the village on the left was white and the church on the right was grey; it was all there, in short—it was what he wanted: it was Tremont Street, it was France, it was Lambinet. Moreover he was freely walking about in it. He did this last, for an hour, to his heart’s content, making for the shady woody horizon and boring so deep into his impression and his idleness that he might fairly have got through them again and reached the maroon-coloured wall. It was a wonder, no doubt, that the taste of idleness for him shouldn’t need more time to sweeten; but it had in fact taken the few previous days; it had been sweetening in truth ever since the retreat of the Pococks. He walked and walked as if to show himself how little he had now to do; he had nothing to do but turn off to some hillside where he might stretch himself and hear the poplars rustle, and whence—in the course of an afternoon so spent, an afternoon richly suffused too with the sense of a book in his pocket—he should sufficiently command the scene to be able to pick out just the right little rustic inn for an experiment in respect to dinner. There was a train back to Paris at 9.20, and he saw himself partaking, at the close of the day, with the enhancements of a coarse white cloth and a sanded door, of something fried and felicitous, washed down with authentic wine; after which he might, as he liked, either stroll back to his station in the gloaming or propose for the local carriole and converse with his driver, a driver who naturally wouldn’t fail of a stiff clean blouse, of a knitted nightcap and of the genius of response—who, in fine, would sit on the shafts, tell him what the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the whole episode would incidentally do, of Maupassant. Strether heard his lips, for the first time in French air, as this vision assumed consistency, emit sounds of expressive intention without fear of his company. He had been afraid of Chad and of Maria and of Madame de Vionnet; he had been most of all afraid of Waymarsh, in whose presence, so far as they had mixed together in the light of the town, he had never without somehow paying for it aired either his vocabulary or his accent. He usually paid for it by meeting immediately afterwards Waymarsh’s eye.
He noticed regarding his train almost no conditions except that it should stop a few times after leaving the suburbs; he relied on the general friendliness of the day to guide him on where to get off. His plan for the trip was that he could get off anywhere—not closer to Paris than an hour’s ride—upon sensing the right note. The suggestion made itself known—weather, air, light, color, and his mood all cooperating—after about eighty minutes; the train came to a stop just at the right place, and he found himself getting off confidently, as if he were keeping an appointment. It could be said that he could entertain himself, at his age, with very small things since it should be noted that his appointment was only with an outdated Boston style. He hadn't gone far without the quick assurance that it would be adequately fulfilled. The oblong gold frame defined its surrounding lines; the poplars and willows, the reeds and river—a river whose name he didn’t know and didn’t want to know—created a delightful scene within them; the sky was silver and turquoise and glossy; the village on the left was white, and the church on the right was grey; it was all there, in essence—it was what he wanted: it was Tremont Street, it was France, it was Lambinet. Moreover, he was freely wandering in it. He did this last for an hour, to his heart's content, heading towards the shady woody horizon and immersing himself so deeply in his thoughts and laziness that he could have easily gone through them again and reached the maroon wall. It was surprising, no doubt, that the enjoyment of idleness didn’t require more time to become pleasant; but it had actually taken the few days prior; it had been sweetening ever since the Pococks had left. He walked and walked as if to demonstrate to himself how little he now had to do; he had nothing to do but head to some hillside where he might relax and listen to the poplars rustle, from where—during an afternoon spent this way, an afternoon richly filled with the sense of a book in his pocket—he would be able to see the scene well enough to choose just the right little rustic inn for dinner. There was a train back to Paris at 9:20, and he imagined himself enjoying, at the end of the day, something fried and delightful, served with a coarse white tablecloth and a sanded door, accompanied by real wine; after this, he might, as he wished, either stroll back to his station in the twilight or hire the local carriage and chat with his driver, who would naturally wear a clean stiff blouse, a knitted nightcap, and have the knack for conversation—who, ultimately, would sit on the shafts, tell him what the French people were thinking, and remind him, as indeed the whole experience would do, of Maupassant. For the first time in French air, as this vision took shape, Strether heard his lips emit sounds of expressive intention without fear of his company. He had been afraid of Chad and Maria and Madame de Vionnet; he had been most afraid of Waymarsh, in whose presence, whenever they had been together in the light of the town, he had never aired either his vocabulary or his accent without somehow paying for it. He usually paid for it by immediately meeting Waymarsh’s gaze right after.
Such were the liberties with which his fancy played after he had turned off to the hillside that did really and truly, as well as most amiably, await him beneath the poplars, the hillside that made him feel, for a murmurous couple of hours, how happy had been his thought. He had the sense of success, of a finer harmony in things; nothing but what had turned out as yet according to his plan. It most of all came home to him, as he lay on his back on the grass, that Sarah had really gone, that his tension was really relaxed; the peace diffused in these ideas might be delusive, but it hung about him none the less for the time. It fairly, for half an hour, sent him to sleep; he pulled his straw hat over his eyes—he had bought it the day before with a reminiscence of Waymarsh’s—and lost himself anew in Lambinet. It was as if he had found out he was tired—tired not from his walk, but from that inward exercise which had known, on the whole, for three months, so little intermission. That was it—when once they were off he had dropped; this moreover was what he had dropped to, and now he was touching bottom. He was kept luxuriously quiet, soothed and amused by the consciousness of what he had found at the end of his descent. It was very much what he had told Maria Gostrey he should like to stay on for, the hugely-distributed Paris of summer, alternately dazzling and dusky, with a weight lifted for him off its columns and cornices and with shade and air in the flutter of awnings as wide as avenues. It was present to him without attenuation that, reaching out, the day after making the remark, for some proof of his freedom, he had gone that very afternoon to see Madame de Vionnet. He had gone again the next day but one, and the effect of the two visits, the after-sense of the couple of hours spent with her, was almost that of fulness and frequency. The brave intention of frequency, so great with him from the moment of his finding himself unjustly suspected at Woollett, had remained rather theoretic, and one of the things he could muse about under his poplars was the source of the special shyness that had still made him careful. He had surely got rid of it now, this special shyness; what had become of it if it hadn’t precisely, within the week, rubbed off?
Such were the freedoms his imagination explored after he turned off to the hillside that truly, and quite pleasantly, awaited him beneath the poplars. For a couple of peaceful hours, he felt how happy his thoughts had been. He sensed success, a deeper harmony in everything; nothing had turned out differently from his plan so far. Lying on his back in the grass, it struck him most clearly that Sarah was really gone, that his tension was truly relaxed; the calm he felt from these thoughts might be misleading, but it lingered around him nonetheless for the time being. It comfortably sent him to sleep for half an hour; he pulled his straw hat over his eyes—he had bought it just the day before, reminded by Waymarsh's image—and lost himself again in Lambinet. It was as if he had realized he was tired—not from his walk, but from that inner struggle, which had seen so little break in three months. That was it—once they were gone, he had let go; this was where he had landed, and now he was hitting the bottom. He was kept luxuriously still, soothed and entertained by the awareness of what he had discovered at the end of this descent. It was very much what he had told Maria Gostrey he wanted to experience—the vastly spread-out Paris of summer, alternately bright and shadowy, with a weight lifted off its columns and cornices, and with shade and air in the flutter of awnings as wide as streets. It was clear to him, without dilution, that after making the comment, the next day he had gone out to see Madame de Vionnet. He had visited her again the day after that, and the impact of the two visits, the lingering feeling from the couple of hours he spent with her, felt almost like abundance and repetition. His strong desire for frequency, which had surged within him after he found himself wrongfully suspected in Woollett, had remained mostly theoretical, and one thing he pondered under the poplars was the reason for the particular shyness that had made him cautious. He had surely shaken it off now; what had happened to it if it hadn’t been completely worn away within the week?
It struck him now in fact as sufficiently plain that if he had still been careful he had been so for a reason. He had really feared, in his behaviour, a lapse from good faith; if there was a danger of one’s liking such a woman too much one’s best safety was in waiting at least till one had the right to do so. In the light of the last few days the danger was fairly vivid; so that it was proportionately fortunate that the right was likewise established. It seemed to our friend that he had on each occasion profited to the utmost by the latter: how could he have done so more, he at all events asked himself, than in having immediately let her know that, if it was all the same to her, he preferred not to talk about anything tiresome? He had never in his life so sacrificed an armful of high interests as in that remark; he had never so prepared the way for the comparatively frivolous as in addressing it to Madame de Vionnet’s intelligence. It hadn’t been till later that he quite recalled how in conjuring away everything but the pleasant he had conjured away almost all they had hitherto talked about; it was not till later even that he remembered how, with their new tone, they hadn’t so much as mentioned the name of Chad himself. One of the things that most lingered with him on his hillside was this delightful facility, with such a woman, of arriving at a new tone; he thought, as he lay on his back, of all the tones she might make possible if one were to try her, and at any rate of the probability that one could trust her to fit them to occasions. He had wanted her to feel that, as he was disinterested now, so she herself should be, and she had showed she felt it, and he had showed he was grateful, and it had been for all the world as if he were calling for the first time. They had had other, but irrelevant, meetings; it was quite as if, had they sooner known how much they really had in common, there were quantities of comparatively dull matters they might have skipped. Well, they were skipping them now, even to graceful gratitude, even to handsome “Don’t mention it!”—and it was amazing what could still come up without reference to what had been going on between them. It might have been, on analysis, nothing more than Shakespeare and the musical glasses; but it had served all the purpose of his appearing to have said to her: “Don’t like me, if it’s a question of liking me, for anything obvious and clumsy that I’ve, as they call it, ‘done’ for you: like me—well, like me, hang it, for anything else you choose. So, by the same propriety, don’t be for me simply the person I’ve come to know through my awkward connexion with Chad—was ever anything, by the way, more awkward? Be for me, please, with all your admirable tact and trust, just whatever I may show you it’s a present pleasure to me to think you.” It had been a large indication to meet; but if she hadn’t met it what had she done, and how had their time together slipped along so smoothly, mild but not slow, and melting, liquefying, into his happy illusion of idleness? He could recognise on the other hand that he had probably not been without reason, in his prior, his restricted state, for keeping an eye on his liability to lapse from good faith.
It became clear to him that if he had been cautious, there was a reason for it. He had genuinely worried that he might stray from being honest; if there was a risk of getting too attached to a woman like her, the safest approach was to wait until he had the right to do so. Given the events of the past few days, that risk felt very real, making it fortunate that the right was now established. It seemed to him that he had taken full advantage of that fact; he asked himself how he could have done better than immediately letting her know that, if it was alright with her, he would rather avoid any boring topics. He had never before given up so much of his deeper interests as he did with that comment; he had never paved the way for lighter conversation as much as he had by addressing it to Madame de Vionnet. It wasn’t until later that he realized how in his effort to focus only on the pleasant, he had managed to sweep away almost everything they had discussed before; it was even later still when he recalled that, with their new tone, they hadn’t even mentioned Chad's name at all. One of the things that stayed with him on his hillside was the enjoyable ease of finding a new tone with such a woman; as he lay back, he thought about all the different tones she might inspire if he tried, and felt confident she could adjust them to fit each occasion. He wanted her to feel that, just as he was being selfless now, she should be too, and she demonstrated that she understood, and he showed he appreciated it, making the situation feel as if it were their first time together. They had had other, but less significant, meetings; it was almost as if, had they known sooner how much they actually had in common, they could have skipped a lot of the more tedious conversation. Well, they were skipping those topics now, even exchanging graceful gratitude and casual “Don’t mention it!”—and it was surprising how much could still come up without referencing their past interactions. It might have boiled down to nothing more than Shakespeare and some musical glasses; but it served the purpose of suggesting to her: “Don’t feel obligated to like me because of anything obvious or clumsy I’ve done for you: like me—well, like me, if you want, for any reason you choose. And similarly, don’t just be the person I know from my awkward connection with Chad—was there ever anything more awkward? Please be for me, with all your wonderful tact and trust, just whatever I might show you makes me happy to think of you.” It was a significant chance to connect; but if she hadn’t taken it, what had she done, and how had their time together flowed so smoothly, gentle yet not slow, blending into his happy illusion of idleness? He could acknowledge, on the other hand, that he probably had good reason, in his previous, more limited state, to be cautious about his tendency to stray from being honest.
He really continued in the picture—that being for himself his situation—all the rest of this rambling day; so that the charm was still, was indeed more than ever upon him when, toward six o’clock he found himself amicably engaged with a stout white-capped deep-voiced woman at the door of the auberge of the biggest village, a village that affected him as a thing of whiteness, blueness and crookedness, set in coppery green, and that had the river flowing behind or before it—one couldn’t say which; at the bottom, in particular, of the inn-garden. He had had other adventures before this; had kept along the height, after shaking off slumber; had admired, had almost coveted, another small old church, all steep roof and dim slate-colour without and all whitewash and paper flowers within; had lost his way and had found it again; had conversed with rustics who struck him perhaps a little more as men of the world than he had expected; had acquired at a bound a fearless facility in French; had had, as the afternoon waned, a watery bock, all pale and Parisian, in the café of the furthest village, which was not the biggest; and had meanwhile not once overstepped the oblong gilt frame. The frame had drawn itself out for him, as much as you please; but that was just his luck. He had finally come down again to the valley, to keep within touch of stations and trains, turning his face to the quarter from which he had started; and thus it was that he had at last pulled up before the hostess of the Cheval Blanc, who met him, with a rough readiness that was like the clatter of sabots over stones, on their common ground of a côtelette de veau à l’oseille and a subsequent lift. He had walked many miles and didn’t know he was tired; but he still knew he was amused, and even that, though he had been alone all day, he had never yet so struck himself as engaged with others and in midstream of his drama. It might have passed for finished his drama, with its catastrophe all but reached: it had, however, none the less been vivid again for him as he thus gave it its fuller chance. He had only had to be at last well out of it to feel it, oddly enough, still going on.
He really continued in the scene—this being his situation—all throughout this wandering day; so the charm was still there, even more intense when, around six o’clock, he found himself chatting amiably with a stout woman in a white cap and deep voice at the door of the inn in the largest village. This village struck him as something of whiteness, blueness, and crookedness, set in coppery green, with the river flowing behind or in front of it—one couldn’t really say which; especially at the bottom of the inn's garden. He had experienced other adventures before this; had kept along the heights after shaking off sleep; had admired, almost envied, another small old church, all steep-roofed and dim slate-colored on the outside, with whitewash and paper flowers inside; had lost his way and found it again; had chatted with locals who seemed a bit more worldly than he had expected; had gained a surprising ease in French; had enjoyed a watery beer, all pale and Parisian, in the café of the farthest village, which wasn’t the biggest; and had still never stepped beyond the golden oblong frame. The frame had stretched out for him as much as he wanted; but that was just his luck. He had finally come back down to the valley to stay close to stations and trains, facing the direction from which he had started; and that’s how he ended up at the Cheval Blanc, where the hostess greeted him with a rough friendliness, like the sound of wooden shoes on stones, over a veal chop with sorrel and a ride afterward. He had walked many miles and didn’t know he was tired; but he still felt amused and realized that, even though he’d been alone all day, he had never felt so connected with others and in the middle of his own story. It might have seemed like his story was finished, with its climax almost reached: however, it was still vibrant for him as he gave it more room to play out. Oddly enough, he only had to be well out of it to feel that it was still ongoing.
For this had been all day at bottom the spell of the picture—that it was essentially more than anything else a scene and a stage, that the very air of the play was in the rustle of the willows and the tone of the sky. The play and the characters had, without his knowing it till now, peopled all his space for him, and it seemed somehow quite happy that they should offer themselves, in the conditions so supplied, with a kind of inevitability. It was as if the conditions made them not only inevitable, but so much more nearly natural and right as that they were at least easier, pleasanter, to put up with. The conditions had nowhere so asserted their difference from those of Woollett as they appeared to him to assert it in the little court of the Cheval Blanc while he arranged with his hostess for a comfortable climax. They were few and simple, scant and humble, but they were the thing, as he would have called it, even to a greater degree than Madame de Vionnet’s old high salon where the ghost of the Empire walked. “The” thing was the thing that implied the greatest number of other things of the sort he had had to tackle; and it was queer of course, but so it was—the implication here was complete. Not a single one of his observations but somehow fell into a place in it; not a breath of the cooler evening that wasn’t somehow a syllable of the text. The text was simply, when condensed, that in these places such things were, and that if it was in them one elected to move about one had to make one’s account with what one lighted on. Meanwhile at all events it was enough that they did affect one—so far as the village aspect was concerned—as whiteness, crookedness and blueness set in coppery green; there being positively, for that matter, an outer wall of the White Horse that was painted the most improbable shade. That was part of the amusement—as if to show that the fun was harmless; just as it was enough, further, that the picture and the play seemed supremely to melt together in the good woman’s broad sketch of what she could do for her visitor’s appetite. He felt in short a confidence, and it was general, and it was all he wanted to feel. It suffered no shock even on her mentioning that she had in fact just laid the cloth for two persons who, unlike Monsieur, had arrived by the river—in a boat of their own; who had asked her, half an hour before, what she could do for them, and had then paddled away to look at something a little further up—from which promenade they would presently return. Monsieur might meanwhile, if he liked, pass into the garden, such as it was, where she would serve him, should he wish it—for there were tables and benches in plenty—a “bitter” before his repast. Here she would also report to him on the possibility of a conveyance to his station, and here at any rate he would have the agrément of the river.
All day, the charm of the picture had been that it was primarily a scene and a stage; the very atmosphere of the play was in the rustle of the willows and the color of the sky. Unbeknownst to him until now, the play and its characters had filled his surroundings, and it felt oddly satisfying that they should present themselves, given the circumstances, with a sort of inevitability. It was as if these circumstances made them not only unavoidable but also more natural and fitting, making it easier and more pleasant to accept. The conditions starkly highlighted their differences from those in Woollett, especially in the little courtyard of the Cheval Blanc while he discussed arrangements for a cozy ending with his hostess. They were few, simple, sparse, and humble, yet they represented the thing, even more so than Madame de Vionnet's grand old salon where the spirit of the Empire lingered. “The” thing encompassed the many other similar matters he had dealt with; and it was strange, but true—the implications here were complete. Every observation somehow fit into this context; not a whisper of the cooler evening did not serve as a part of the narrative. The essence was simply, when boiled down, that in these places, such occurrences existed, and if one chose to navigate them, they had to accept whatever they encountered. Meanwhile, it was sufficient that they did affect one—at least regarding the village aspect—like the bright whiteness, crooked lines, and blue shades set against a coppery green; there was even an outer wall of the White Horse painted in the most ridiculous hue. That added to the amusement—as if to show that the enjoyment was harmless; just as it was enough that the picture and the play seemed perfectly to blend in the hostess's broad outline of what she could provide for her guests' appetites. In short, he felt confident, and it was a comfortable general feeling, which was all he wanted. It wasn’t shaken at all when she mentioned that she had just laid the table for two people who, unlike him, had arrived by the river—in their own boat; they had asked her half an hour earlier what she could do for them and then had paddled off to explore something a little further upstream—from which stroll they would soon return. In the meantime, if he liked, he could head into the garden, such as it was, where she would serve him, should he wish—there were plenty of tables and benches—a “bitter” before his meal. Here, she would also update him on the possibility of transportation to his station, and at least here, he would have the agrément of the river.
It may be mentioned without delay that Monsieur had the agrément of everything, and in particular, for the next twenty minutes, of a small and primitive pavilion that, at the garden’s edge, almost overhung the water, testifying, in its somewhat battered state, to much fond frequentation. It consisted of little more than a platform, slightly raised, with a couple of benches and a table, a protecting rail and a projecting roof; but it raked the full grey-blue stream, which, taking a turn a short distance above, passed out of sight to reappear much higher up; and it was clearly in esteemed requisition for Sundays and other feasts. Strether sat there and, though hungry, felt at peace; the confidence that had so gathered for him deepened with the lap of the water, the ripple of the surface, the rustle of the reeds on the opposite bank, the faint diffused coolness and the slight rock of a couple of small boats attached to a rough landing-place hard by. The valley on the further side was all copper-green level and glazed pearly sky, a sky hatched across with screens of trimmed trees, which looked flat, like espaliers; and though the rest of the village straggled away in the near quarter the view had an emptiness that made one of the boats suggestive. Such a river set one afloat almost before one could take up the oars—the idle play of which would be moreover the aid to the full impression. This perception went so far as to bring him to his feet; but that movement, in turn, made him feel afresh that he was tired, and while he leaned against a post and continued to look out he saw something that gave him a sharper arrest.
It should be noted right away that Monsieur was pleased with everything, especially for the next twenty minutes, with a small and simple pavilion that, at the edge of the garden, nearly hung over the water, showing, in its somewhat worn condition, that it had been a favorite spot. It was little more than a slightly raised platform with a couple of benches and a table, a protective railing, and a protruding roof; but it overlooked the full gray-blue stream, which took a turn a short distance upstream before disappearing from view, only to reappear much farther along; and it was clearly popular on Sundays and special occasions. Strether sat there and, although hungry, felt at ease; the calm that had built up inside him deepened with the sound of the water lapping, the gentle ripples on the surface, the rustling of the reeds on the opposite bank, the faint, cool breeze, and the slight rocking of a couple of small boats tied to a rough landing nearby. The valley on the far side was a vibrant copper-green with a pearly sky, marked by rows of neatly trimmed trees that looked flat, like espaliered plants; and even though the rest of the village spread out in the nearby area, the view had a sense of emptiness that made one of the boats seem inviting. Such a river made one feel like drifting away almost before picking up the oars—the casual motion of which would also enhance the overall experience. This thought even urged him to rise to his feet; but that action, in turn, reminded him that he was still tired, and as he leaned against a post and continued to gaze out, he noticed something that caught his attention more sharply.
IV
What he saw was exactly the right thing—a boat advancing round the bend and containing a man who held the paddles and a lady, at the stern, with a pink parasol. It was suddenly as if these figures, or something like them, had been wanted in the picture, had been wanted more or less all day, and had now drifted into sight, with the slow current, on purpose to fill up the measure. They came slowly, floating down, evidently directed to the landing-place near their spectator and presenting themselves to him not less clearly as the two persons for whom his hostess was already preparing a meal. For two very happy persons he found himself straightway taking them—a young man in shirt-sleeves, a young woman easy and fair, who had pulled pleasantly up from some other place and, being acquainted with the neighbourhood, had known what this particular retreat could offer them. The air quite thickened, at their approach, with further intimations; the intimation that they were expert, familiar, frequent—that this wouldn’t at all events be the first time. They knew how to do it, he vaguely felt—and it made them but the more idyllic, though at the very moment of the impression, as happened, their boat seemed to have begun to drift wide, the oarsman letting it go. It had by this time none the less come much nearer—near enough for Strether to dream the lady in the stern had for some reason taken account of his being there to watch them. She had remarked on it sharply, yet her companion hadn’t turned round; it was in fact almost as if our friend had felt her bid him keep still. She had taken in something as a result of which their course had wavered, and it continued to waver while they just stood off. This little effect was sudden and rapid, so rapid that Strether’s sense of it was separate only for an instant from a sharp start of his own. He too had within the minute taken in something, taken in that he knew the lady whose parasol, shifting as if to hide her face, made so fine a pink point in the shining scene. It was too prodigious, a chance in a million, but, if he knew the lady, the gentleman, who still presented his back and kept off, the gentleman, the coatless hero of the idyll, who had responded to her start, was, to match the marvel, none other than Chad.
What he saw was exactly what he needed—a boat rounding the bend with a guy holding the paddles and a woman at the back, holding a pink parasol. It felt like these figures, or something like them, had been missing from the scene all day, and now they had simply appeared, flowing with the current, to complete the picture. They floated down slowly, clearly heading to the landing spot near him, presenting themselves beautifully as the two people his hostess was already preparing a meal for. He instantly thought of them as two very happy people—a young man in his shirt sleeves and a young woman who was relaxed and lovely, evidently familiar with the area and knowing exactly what this sweet spot had to offer. The air thickened with their approach, hinting that they were seasoned visitors—this definitely wasn’t their first time here. He had a vague sense that they knew what they were doing, making them seem even more idyllic, even as their boat started to drift off course with the oarsman letting it slip. Yet, despite having drifted a bit further away, they still came much closer—close enough for Strether to imagine that the lady in the back was aware of him watching them. She seemed to notice him sharply, but her companion didn't turn around; it almost felt like she was silently asking him to stay quiet. She had sensed something, which made their course hesitate, and it continued to falter as they just lingered. This little moment was quick and sudden, so quick that Strether’s awareness of it was barely apart from a jolt of his own. Within a minute, he realized something—he knew the lady whose parasol, shifting to partially conceal her face, was a lovely pink in the bright scene. It was an unbelievable coincidence, but if he recognized her, then the gentleman, who still had his back to them and kept his distance—the coatless hero of the scene who had responded to her reaction—was, matching this extraordinary moment, none other than Chad.
Chad and Madame de Vionnet were then like himself taking a day in the country—though it was as queer as fiction, as farce, that their country could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the first at recognition, the first to feel, across the water, the shock—for it appeared to come to that—of their wonderful accident. Strether became aware, with this, of what was taking place—that her recognition had been even stranger for the pair in the boat, that her immediate impulse had been to control it, and that she was quickly and intensely debating with Chad the risk of betrayal. He saw they would show nothing if they could feel sure he hadn’t made them out; so that he had before him for a few seconds his own hesitation. It was a sharp fantastic crisis that had popped up as if in a dream, and it had had only to last the few seconds to make him feel it as quite horrible. They were thus, on either side, trying the other side, and all for some reason that broke the stillness like some unprovoked harsh note. It seemed to him again, within the limit, that he had but one thing to do—to settle their common question by some sign of surprise and joy. He hereupon gave large play to these things, agitating his hat and his stick and loudly calling out—a demonstration that brought him relief as soon as he had seen it answered. The boat, in mid-stream, still went a little wild—which seemed natural, however, while Chad turned round, half springing up; and his good friend, after blankness and wonder, began gaily to wave her parasol. Chad dropped afresh to his paddles and the boat headed round, amazement and pleasantry filling the air meanwhile, and relief, as Strether continued to fancy, superseding mere violence. Our friend went down to the water under this odd impression as of violence averted—the violence of their having “cut” him, out there in the eye of nature, on the assumption that he wouldn’t know it. He awaited them with a face from which he was conscious of not being able quite to banish this idea that they would have gone on, not seeing and not knowing, missing their dinner and disappointing their hostess, had he himself taken a line to match. That at least was what darkened his vision for the moment. Afterwards, after they had bumped at the landing-place and he had assisted their getting ashore, everything found itself sponged over by the mere miracle of the encounter.
Chad and Madame de Vionnet were both taking a day in the countryside—though it was as strange as fiction, as if it were a comedy, that their countryside could happen to be exactly his; and she had been the first to recognize it, the first to feel, from across the water, the shock—because it seemed to come to that—of their incredible coincidence. Strether realized, with this, what was happening—that her recognition had been even stranger for the couple in the boat, that her immediate impulse had been to manage it, and that she was quickly and intensely debating with Chad the risk of giving themselves away. He understood they wouldn’t reveal anything if they felt sure he hadn’t figured them out; so he had before him for a few seconds his own uncertainty. It was a sharp, surreal crisis that had emerged as if in a dream, and it had only to last a few seconds for him to feel it as utterly awful. They were thus, on either side, testing each other, all for some reason that broke the stillness like some unprovoked harsh note. It occurred to him again, within that moment, that he had just one thing to do—to resolve their shared question with some sign of surprise and happiness. He then let himself express these feelings, waving his hat and his stick and calling out loudly—a display that relieved him as soon as he saw it responded to. The boat, in mid-stream, still went a little wild—which seemed natural, however, while Chad turned around, half rising; and his good friend, after a moment of blankness and wonder, began happily waving her parasol. Chad dropped back to his paddles, and the boat turned around, amazement and humor filling the air all the while, and relief, as Strether continued to believe, replacing mere tension. Our friend approached the water with this strange feeling of tension relieved—the tension of their having “cut” him, out there in the open, assuming he wouldn’t notice. He waited for them with a face from which he was aware he couldn’t quite shake the thought that they would have continued on, not seeing or knowing, missing their dinner and disappointing their hostess, had he himself chosen to match their actions. That at least clouded his vision for the moment. Later, after they had bumped against the landing and he had helped them get ashore, everything felt clean again from the sheer miracle of the encounter.
They could so much better at last, on either side, treat it as a wild extravagance of hazard, that the situation was made elastic by the amount of explanation called into play. Why indeed—apart from oddity—the situation should have been really stiff was a question naturally not practical at the moment, and in fact, so far as we are concerned, a question tackled, later on and in private, only by Strether himself. He was to reflect later on and in private that it was mainly he who had explained—as he had had moreover comparatively little difficulty in doing. He was to have at all events meanwhile the worrying thought of their perhaps secretly suspecting him of having plotted this coincidence, taking such pains as might be to give it the semblance of an accident. That possibility—as their imputation—didn’t of course bear looking into for an instant; yet the whole incident was so manifestly, arrange it as they would, an awkward one, that he could scarce keep disclaimers in respect to his own presence from rising to his lips. Disclaimers of intention would have been as tactless as his presence was practically gross; and the narrowest escape they either of them had was his lucky escape, in the event, from making any. Nothing of the sort, so far as surface and sound were involved, was even in question; surface and sound all made for their common ridiculous good fortune, for the general invraisemblance of the occasion, for the charming chance that they had, the others, in passing, ordered some food to be ready, the charming chance that he had himself not eaten, the charming chance, even more, that their little plans, their hours, their train, in short, from là-bas, would all match for their return together to Paris. The chance that was most charming of all, the chance that drew from Madame de Vionnet her clearest, gayest “Comme cela se trouve!” was the announcement made to Strether after they were seated at table, the word given him by their hostess in respect to his carriage for the station, on which he might now count. It settled the matter for his friends as well; the conveyance—it was all too lucky!—would serve for them; and nothing was more delightful than his being in a position to make the train so definite. It might have been, for themselves—to hear Madame de Vionnet—almost unnaturally vague, a detail left to be fixed; though Strether indeed was afterwards to remember that Chad had promptly enough intervened to forestall this appearance, laughing at his companion’s flightiness and making the point that he had after all, in spite of the bedazzlement of a day out with her, known what he was about.
They could handle the situation much better now, on either side, treating it as a wild gamble since the situation was flexible enough given the explanations involved. Why, really—setting aside its oddity—the situation should have felt stiff was a question that didn't seem practical at the moment, and honestly, as far as we’re concerned, it was a question that Strether himself would later consider in private. He would reflect later that it was mainly he who had explained things—and he found it relatively easy to do so. Meanwhile, he couldn’t shake the troubling thought that they might secretly suspect him of having orchestrated this coincidence, putting in effort to make it look accidental. That possibility—being their accusation—was something he knew he shouldn’t dwell on for even a second; yet the entire incident was so obviously awkward that he could barely keep from voicing disclaimers about his presence. Denying any bad intentions would have been as awkward as his very presence felt; and the closest either of them came to an escape was his lucky avoidance of making any disclaimers. Nothing like that, at least in terms of appearance and sound, was even on the table; everything about the surface and sound contributed to their shared ridiculous good fortune, the overall invraisemblance of the occasion, the delightful coincidence that their friends had, on a whim, ordered food to be ready, the lovely chance that he himself hadn’t eaten, and even more so, the charming fact that their little plans, their timing, their train—essentially, from là-bas—would all line up perfectly for their return to Paris together. The most delightful chance of all, the one that prompted Madame de Vionnet's brightest, happiest “Comme cela se trouve!” was the announcement made to Strether once they were seated at the table, the assurance from their hostess regarding his ride to the station, which he could now count on. This resolved matters for his friends, too; the ride—it was all too perfect!—would work for them, and nothing was more enjoyable than his ability to make their train schedule so definite. It might have seemed almost unnaturally vague to hear Madame de Vionnet discuss it, a detail left vague to be decided later; though Strether would later recall that Chad had quickly stepped in to dispel this impression, laughing at his companion's scatterbrained behavior and stressing that he had, despite the dazzle of a day out with her, known exactly what he was doing.
Strether was to remember afterwards further that this had had for him the effect of forming Chad’s almost sole intervention; and indeed he was to remember further still, in subsequent meditation, many things that, as it were, fitted together. Another of them was for instance that the wonderful woman’s overflow of surprise and amusement was wholly into French, which she struck him as speaking with an unprecedented command of idiomatic turns, but in which she got, as he might have said, somewhat away from him, taking all at once little brilliant jumps that he could but lamely match. The question of his own French had never come up for them; it was the one thing she wouldn’t have permitted—it belonged, for a person who had been through much, to mere boredom; but the present result was odd, fairly veiling her identity, shifting her back into a mere voluble class or race to the intense audibility of which he was by this time inured. When she spoke the charming slightly strange English he best knew her by he seemed to feel her as a creature, among all the millions, with a language quite to herself, the real monopoly of a special shade of speech, beautifully easy for her, yet of a colour and a cadence that were both inimitable and matters of accident. She came back to these things after they had shaken down in the inn-parlour and knew, as it were, what was to become of them; it was inevitable that loud ejaculation over the prodigy of their convergence should at last wear itself out. Then it was that his impression took fuller form—the impression, destined only to deepen, to complete itself, that they had something to put a face upon, to carry off and make the best of, and that it was she who, admirably on the whole, was doing this. It was familiar to him of course that they had something to put a face upon; their friendship, their connexion, took any amount of explaining—that would have been made familiar by his twenty minutes with Mrs. Pocock if it hadn’t already been so. Yet his theory, as we know, had bountifully been that the facts were specifically none of his business, and were, over and above, so far as one had to do with them, intrinsically beautiful; and this might have prepared him for anything, as well as rendered him proof against mystification. When he reached home that night, however, he knew he had been, at bottom, neither prepared nor proof; and since we have spoken of what he was, after his return, to recall and interpret, it may as well immediately be said that his real experience of these few hours put on, in that belated vision—for he scarce went to bed till morning—the aspect that is most to our purpose.
Strether would later remember that this had been Chad's almost sole involvement, and he would recall even more in his subsequent reflections, many things that seemed to fit together. One of those was that the remarkable woman’s expressions of surprise and amusement were entirely in French, which struck him as something she spoke with an extraordinary grasp of idiomatic expressions, but in which she seemed, as he might put it, to get somewhat ahead of him, making little brilliant leaps that he could barely keep up with. They had never discussed his own French; it was the one thing she wouldn’t have allowed—it belonged, for someone who had gone through a lot, to mere tedium; yet the outcome was strange, somewhat obscuring her identity, reducing her to a mere talkative type or background that he had by then grown used to. When she spoke the charmingly slightly odd English he was most familiar with, he felt as if she were a unique individual, among millions, with a language all her own, possessing a real mastery of a special way of speaking, beautifully effortless for her, yet with a tone and rhythm that were both unrepeatable and coincidental. She returned to these points after they had settled in the inn's parlor, knowing, as it were, what was to come of them; it was inevitable that their astonishment at the wonder of their coming together would eventually fade. It was then that his impression took on a fuller shape—the impression that would only deepen and complete itself—that they had something to define, to carry off, and make the most of, with her admirably leading the way. It was, of course, common knowledge to him that they had something to define; their friendship, their connection, required a great deal of explanation—that would have been made clear by his twenty minutes with Mrs. Pocock if it hadn’t already been so. Yet his belief had always been that the specifics were none of his concern, and that, in any case, they were, as far as he was involved, intrinsically beautiful; and this should have made him ready for anything, as well as immune to confusion. However, when he got home that night, he realized he had not been, deep down, either ready or immune; and since we have mentioned what he was to recall and interpret after his return, it can be said right away that his true experience of those few hours took on, in that late-night insight—for he hardly went to bed until morning—the aspect that is most relevant to us.
He then knew more or less how he had been affected—he but half knew at the time. There had been plenty to affect him even after, as has been said, they had shaken down; for his consciousness, though muffled, had its sharpest moments during this passage, a marked drop into innocent friendly Bohemia. They then had put their elbows on the table, deploring the premature end of their two or three dishes; which they had tried to make up with another bottle while Chad joked a little spasmodically, perhaps even a little irrelevantly, with the hostess. What it all came to had been that fiction and fable were, inevitably, in the air, and not as a simple term of comparison, but as a result of things said; also that they were blinking it, all round, and that they yet needn’t, so much as that, have blinked it—though indeed if they hadn’t Strether didn’t quite see what else they could have done. Strether didn’t quite see that even at an hour or two past midnight, even when he had, at his hotel, for a long time, without a light and without undressing, sat back on his bedroom sofa and stared straight before him. He was, at that point of vantage, in full possession, to make of it all what he could. He kept making of it that there had been simply a lie in the charming affair—a lie on which one could now, detached and deliberate, perfectly put one’s finger. It was with the lie that they had eaten and drunk and talked and laughed, that they had waited for their carriole rather impatiently, and had then got into the vehicle and, sensibly subsiding, driven their three or four miles through the darkening summer night. The eating and drinking, which had been a resource, had had the effect of having served its turn; the talk and laughter had done as much; and it was during their somewhat tedious progress to the station, during the waits there, the further delays, their submission to fatigue, their silences in the dim compartment of the much-stopping train, that he prepared himself for reflexions to come. It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet’s manner, and though it had to that degree faltered toward the end, as through her ceasing to believe in it, as if she had asked herself, or Chad had found a moment surreptitiously to ask her, what after all was the use, a performance it had none the less quite handsomely remained, with the final fact about it that it was on the whole easier to keep up than to abandon.
He then had a general idea of how he had been affected—though he only partially understood it at the time. There was still plenty that impacted him even after, as mentioned, they had settled in; because his awareness, though muffled, had its sharpest moments during this experience, a noticeable plunge into innocent, friendly Bohemia. They had leaned on the table, lamenting the premature end of their two or three dishes, which they tried to compensate for with another bottle while Chad joked a bit awkwardly, maybe even a bit off-topic, with the hostess. What it all boiled down to was that fiction and fable were, inevitably, in the air, not just as a simple comparison, but as a result of what was said; also that they were ignoring it all around, yet they really didn't need to ignore it so much—though if they hadn’t, Strether wasn’t quite sure what else they could have done. Strether didn’t fully grasp that even a couple of hours past midnight, even when he had sat back on his hotel room sofa for a long time, in the dark and without getting undressed, staring straight ahead. From that vantage point, he was fully aware to make of it all what he could. He kept concluding that there was simply a lie in the charming affair—a lie that he could now, from a detached and deliberate standpoint, easily point out. It was with this lie that they had eaten, drunk, talked, and laughed, that they had waited rather impatiently for their carriole, and then got into the vehicle and, sensibly settling down, drove their three or four miles through the darkening summer night. The eating and drinking, which had been a resource, had served its purpose; the talk and laughter had done their part as well; and it was during their somewhat tedious journey to the station, during the waits there, the further delays, their submission to fatigue, and their silences in the dim compartment of the frequently stopping train that he prepared for the reflections to come. It had been a performance, Madame de Vionnet’s style, and although it had faltered toward the end, as if she had stopped believing in it—perhaps because she had asked herself, or Chad found a moment to ask her in secret, what the point really was—it nonetheless remained quite a performance, with the final fact being that it was generally easier to maintain than to let go.
From the point of view of presence of mind it had been very wonderful indeed, wonderful for readiness, for beautiful assurance, for the way her decision was taken on the spot, without time to confer with Chad, without time for anything. Their only conference could have been the brief instants in the boat before they confessed to recognising the spectator on the bank, for they hadn’t been alone together a moment since and must have communicated all in silence. It was a part of the deep impression for Strether, and not the least of the deep interest, that they could so communicate—that Chad in particular could let her know he left it to her. He habitually left things to others, as Strether was so well aware, and it in fact came over our friend in these meditations that there had been as yet no such vivid illustration of his famous knowing how to live. It was as if he had humoured her to the extent of letting her lie without correction—almost as if, really, he would be coming round in the morning to set the matter, as between Strether and himself, right. Of course he couldn’t quite come; it was a case in which a man was obliged to accept the woman’s version, even when fantastic; if she had, with more flurry than she cared to show, elected, as the phrase was, to represent that they had left Paris that morning, and with no design but of getting back within the day—if she had so sized-up, in the Woollett phrase, their necessity, she knew best her own measure. There were things, all the same, it was impossible to blink and which made this measure an odd one—the too evident fact for instance that she hadn’t started out for the day dressed and hatted and shod, and even, for that matter, pink parasol’d, as she had been in the boat. From what did the drop in her assurance proceed as the tension increased—from what did this slightly baffled ingenuity spring but from her consciousness of not presenting, as night closed in, with not so much as a shawl to wrap her round, an appearance that matched her story? She admitted that she was cold, but only to blame her imprudence which Chad suffered her to give such account of as she might. Her shawl and Chad’s overcoat and her other garments, and his, those they had each worn the day before, were at the place, best known to themselves—a quiet retreat enough, no doubt—at which they had been spending the twenty-four hours, to which they had fully meant to return that evening, from which they had so remarkably swum into Strether’s ken, and the tacit repudiation of which had been thus the essence of her comedy. Strether saw how she had perceived in a flash that they couldn’t quite look to going back there under his nose; though, honestly, as he gouged deeper into the matter, he was somewhat surprised, as Chad likewise had perhaps been, at the uprising of this scruple. He seemed even to divine that she had entertained it rather for Chad than for herself, and that, as the young man had lacked the chance to enlighten her, she had had to go on with it, he meanwhile mistaking her motive.
From the perspective of having quick thinking, it was really quite incredible, amazing for its readiness, for the calm confidence, for the way she made her decision right then and there, without any time to talk to Chad, without time for anything at all. Their only discussion could have been the brief moments in the boat before they admitted they recognized the person on the bank, since they hadn't been alone together for a moment since then and must have communicated everything silently. It was part of the deep impression on Strether, and not the least of the deep interest, that they could communicate that way—that Chad, in particular, could let her know he was leaving it up to her. He usually left things to others, as Strether well knew, and it actually occurred to our friend during his thoughts that there had been no clearer example of his famous ability to live life fully until now. It was almost as if he had allowed her to proceed without correction—almost like he would be coming back in the morning to clarify things between Strether and himself. Of course, he couldn’t really do that; this was a situation where a man had to accept a woman’s version, even when it seemed improbable; if she had, with more haste than she wanted to show, decided, as they say, to claim that they had left Paris that morning, with no intention other than to return by the end of the day—if she had assessed their necessity in that way, she knew best about her own situation. Still, there were things that were impossible to ignore that made this situation strange—the obvious fact, for example, that she hadn’t set out for the day dressed and ready, and even, for that matter, with a pink parasol, as she had been in the boat. From where did her confidence drop as the tension grew—from where did this slightly thwarted cleverness arise if not from her awareness of not being prepared, as night fell, with even a shawl to wrap herself in, presenting an appearance that matched her story? She admitted she was cold, but only to criticize her own carelessness, which Chad allowed her to address however she wanted. Her shawl and Chad’s overcoat along with her other clothes, and his clothes, those they had both worn the day before, were at the place they both knew best—a sufficiently quiet getaway, no doubt—where they had spent the last twenty-four hours, and where they had fully intended to go back that evening, from which they had so remarkably swum into Strether’s awareness, and the implicit denial of which had been the essence of her little act. Strether saw how she realized in an instant that they couldn't really expect to go back there right under his nose; yet, truthfully, as he dug deeper into the situation, he was somewhat surprised, as Chad might have been, at this feeling of doubt that arose. He even seemed to sense that she had entertained this doubt more for Chad than for herself, and that, since the young man hadn't had the chance to clarify things for her, she had to continue on with it, while he was mistakenly guessing at her intentions.
He was rather glad, none the less, that they had in point of fact not parted at the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn’t been reduced to giving them his blessing for an idyllic retreat down the river. He had had in the actual case to make-believe more than he liked, but this was nothing, it struck him, to what the other event would have required. Could he, literally, quite have faced the other event? Would he have been capable of making the best of it with them? This was what he was trying to do now; but with the advantage of his being able to give more time to it a good deal counteracted by his sense of what, over and above the central fact itself, he had to swallow. It was the quantity of make-believe involved and so vividly exemplified that most disagreed with his spiritual stomach. He moved, however, from the consideration of that quantity—to say nothing of the consciousness of that organ—back to the other feature of the show, the deep, deep truth of the intimacy revealed. That was what, in his vain vigil, he oftenest reverted to: intimacy, at such a point, was like that—and what in the world else would one have wished it to be like? It was all very well for him to feel the pity of its being so much like lying; he almost blushed, in the dark, for the way he had dressed the possibility in vagueness, as a little girl might have dressed her doll. He had made them—and by no fault of their own—momentarily pull it for him, the possibility, out of this vagueness; and must he not therefore take it now as they had had simply, with whatever thin attenuations, to give it to him? The very question, it may be added, made him feel lonely and cold. There was the element of the awkward all round, but Chad and Madame de Vionnet had at least the comfort that they could talk it over together. With whom could he talk of such things?—unless indeed always, at almost any stage, with Maria? He foresaw that Miss Gostrey would come again into requisition on the morrow; though it wasn’t to be denied that he was already a little afraid of her “What on earth—that’s what I want to know now—had you then supposed?” He recognised at last that he had really been trying all along to suppose nothing. Verily, verily, his labour had been lost. He found himself supposing innumerable and wonderful things.
He was pretty glad, though, that they had actually not parted at the Cheval Blanc, that he hadn’t been stuck giving them his blessing for a perfect getaway down the river. He had to pretend more than he liked in the situation, but that was nothing compared to what the other situation would have required. Could he really have faced that other situation? Would he have been able to make the best of it with them? This was what he was trying to do now; but the fact that he could take more time with it was largely offset by how much he had to accept beyond just the central fact itself. It was the amount of pretending involved—and so vividly illustrated—that really didn't sit well with him. However, he shifted his focus from that aspect—let alone the awareness of his discomfort—back to the other part of the situation, the deep, profound truth of the intimacy revealed. That was what he often came back to during his restless hours: intimacy, at that moment, was like that—and what else would anyone want it to be like? It was easy for him to feel sorry that it felt so much like lying; he almost felt embarrassed in the dark about how he had dressed up the possibility in vague terms, like a little girl might dress her doll. He had made them—and through no fault of their own—momentarily pull that possibility out of the vagueness for him; and shouldn’t he take it now as they had simply, with whatever slight modifications, given it to him? Just the thought of it made him feel lonely and cold. There was an awkwardness all around, but Chad and Madame de Vionnet at least had the comfort of being able to discuss it together. Who could he talk to about such things?—unless, perhaps, always with Maria? He anticipated that Miss Gostrey would be needed again tomorrow; though he couldn’t deny he was already a bit afraid of her “What on earth—that’s what I want to know now—did you think?” He finally recognized that he had really been trying all along to think of nothing. Truly, truly, his efforts had been in vain. He found himself imagining countless wonderful things.
Book Twelfth
I
Strether couldn’t have said he had during the previous hours definitely expected it; yet when, later on, that morning—though no later indeed than for his coming forth at ten o’clock—he saw the concierge produce, on his approach, a petit bleu delivered since his letters had been sent up, he recognised the appearance as the first symptom of a sequel. He then knew he had been thinking of some early sign from Chad as more likely, after all, than not; and this would be precisely the early sign. He took it so for granted that he opened the petit bleu just where he had stopped, in the pleasant cool draught of the porte-cochère—only curious to see where the young man would, at such a juncture, break out. His curiosity, however, was more than gratified; the small missive, whose gummed edge he had detached without attention to the address, not being from the young man at all, but from the person whom the case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. Worth while or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the big one on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a fear of the danger of delay. He might have been thinking that if he didn’t go before he could think he wouldn’t perhaps go at all. He at any rate kept, in the lower side-pocket of his morning coat, a very deliberate hand on his blue missive, crumpling it up rather tenderly than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form of a petit bleu—which was quickly done, under pressure of the place, inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet’s own communication, it consisted of the fewest words. She had asked him if he could do her the very great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine, and he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would present himself at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript, to the effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour if he preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he saw her at all half the value of it would be in seeing her where he had already seen her best. He mightn’t see her at all; that was one of the reflexions he made after writing and before he dropped his closed card into the box; he mightn’t see any one at all any more at all; he might make an end as well now as ever, leaving things as they were, since he was doubtless not to leave them better, and taking his way home so far as should appear that a home remained to him. This alternative was for a few minutes so sharp that if he at last did deposit his missive it was perhaps because the pressure of the place had an effect.
Strether couldn’t say he had definitely expected it during the previous hours; yet when, later that morning—no later than when he came out at ten o’clock—he saw the concierge hand him a petit bleu that had been delivered after sending his letters up, he recognized it as the first sign of what was to come. He realized he had been thinking that some early sign from Chad was more likely than not, and this would be exactly that sign. He took it for granted and opened the petit bleu right where he had paused, in the pleasant cool breeze of the porte-cochère—only curious to see where the young man would break out at such a moment. His curiosity was more than satisfied; the small letter, which he had opened without checking the address, wasn’t from the young man at all, but from someone who, in this situation, seemed even more important. Whether important or not, he headed to the nearest telegraph office, the big one on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost revealed a fear of the danger of delay. He might have thought that if he didn’t go before he could think, he might not go at all. At any rate, he kept a very deliberate grip on his blue missive in the lower side pocket of his morning coat, crumpling it gently rather than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form of a petit bleu—which was quick to do, under the pressure of the situation, since, like Madame de Vionnet’s own message, it consisted of very few words. She had asked him if he could do her the great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine, and he replied, as if it were nothing, that he would be there at the time she mentioned. She had added a postscript, saying that she would come to him elsewhere and at whatever time he preferred; but he ignored this, feeling that if he saw her at all, half the value would be in seeing her where he had already seen her at her best. He might not see her at all; that was one of the thoughts he had after writing and before dropping his closed card into the box; he might not see anyone ever again; he might as well end things now, leaving them as they were since he probably wouldn’t be able to leave them better, and heading home as if a home still existed for him. This alternative felt so intense for a few minutes that if he finally did drop his message, it might have been because the pressure of the place made a difference.
There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure, familiar to our friend under the rubric of Postes et Télégraphes—the something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of the vast strange life of the town, the influence of the types, the performers concocting their messages; the little prompt Paris women, arranging, pretexting goodness knew what, driving the dreadful needle-pointed public pen at the dreadful sand-strewn public table: implements that symbolised for Strether’s too interpretative innocence something more acute in manners, more sinister in morals, more fierce in the national life. After he had put in his paper he had ranged himself, he was really amused to think, on the side of the fierce, the sinister, the acute. He was carrying on a correspondence, across the great city, quite in the key of the Postes et Télégraphes in general; and it was fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had come from something in his state that sorted with the occupation of his neighbours. He was mixed up with the typical tale of Paris, and so were they, poor things—how could they all together help being? They were no worse than he, in short, and he no worse than they—if, queerly enough, no better; and at all events he had settled his hash, so that he went out to begin, from that moment, his day of waiting. The great settlement was, as he felt, in his preference for seeing his correspondent in her own best conditions. That was part of the typical tale, the part most significant in respect to himself. He liked the place she lived in, the picture that each time squared itself, large and high and clear, around her: every occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different shade. Yet what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, and why hadn’t he properly and logically compelled her to commit herself to whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might throw up? He might have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold hospitality of his own salon de lecture, in which the chill of Sarah’s visit seemed still to abide and shades of pleasure were dim; he might have suggested a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries or a penny chair at the back part of the Champs Elysées. These things would have been a trifle stern, and sternness alone now wouldn’t be sinister. An instinct in him cast about for some form of discipline in which they might meet—some awkwardness they would suffer from, some danger, or at least some grave inconvenience, they would incur. This would give a sense—which the spirit required, rather ached and sighed in the absence of—that somebody was paying something somewhere and somehow, that they were at least not all floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Just instead of that to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for all the world—well, as if he were as much in the swim as anybody else: this had as little as possible in common with the penal form.
There was nothing other than the usual and constant pressure, familiar to our friend under the label of Postes et Télégraphes—the vibe in these places; the buzz of the vast, strange life of the city, the influence of the messages, the workers piecing together their communications; the little sharp Parisian women, arranging and pretending to do god knows what, using the dreadful pointed public pen at the dreadful sand-covered public table: tools that represented for Strether’s overly perceptive innocence something sharper in manners, more sinister in morals, more intense in national life. After he had submitted his paper, he amusingly realized he had positioned himself on the side of the fierce, the sinister, the sharp. He was managing a correspondence across the sprawling city, entirely in line with the general vibe of Postes et Télégraphes; it felt almost as if this acceptance came from something in his state that matched the activities of those around him. He was caught up in the standard narrative of Paris, and so were they, poor souls—how could they all help it? They were no worse than he was, and he was no worse than they were—if, strangely enough, no better; and in any case, he had made his decision, so he stepped out to start, from that moment, his day of waiting. The big decision, as he felt, was in his preference for seeing his correspondent in her best circumstances. That was part of the typical story, the part most significant to him. He loved the place she lived in, the scene that every time formed itself, large and bright around her: each time he saw it was a pleasure of a different kind. Yet what exactly was he doing with these different kinds of pleasure now, and why hadn’t he logically forced her to commit to whatever disadvantages and penalties the situation might present? He could have suggested, like for Sarah Pocock, the cold welcome of his own salon de lecture, where the chill of Sarah’s visit still lingered and pleasures were dim; he could have proposed a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries or a cheap chair at the back of the Champs Elysées. These options would have been a bit harsh, and harshness alone now wouldn’t be sinister. An instinct within him looked for some kind of structure in which they could meet—some awkwardness they would endure, some danger, or at least a serious inconvenience they would face. This would provide a sense—which the spirit needed, rather ached for in its absence—that someone was paying something somewhere, that they weren’t just floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Instead of that, to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for all the world—well, as if he were just as much in the mix as anyone else: this had very little in common with the idea of punishment.
Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the practical difference was small; the long stretch of his interval took the colour it would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister from hour to hour it proved an easier thing than one might have supposed in advance. He reverted in thought to his old tradition, the one he had been brought up on and which even so many years of life had but little worn away; the notion that the state of the wrongdoer, or at least this person’s happiness, presented some special difficulty. What struck him now rather was the ease of it—for nothing in truth appeared easier. It was an ease he himself fairly tasted of for the rest of the day; giving himself quite up; not so much as trying to dress it out, in any particular whatever, as a difficulty; not after all going to see Maria—which would have been in a manner a result of such dressing; only idling, lounging, smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade and consuming ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, and he now and again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn’t been there. He hadn’t yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so much as a loafer, though there had been times when he believed himself touching bottom. This was a deeper depth than any, and with no foresight, scarcely with a care, as to what he should bring up. He almost wondered if he didn’t look demoralised and disreputable; he had the fanciful vision, as he sat and smoked, of some accidental, some motived, return of the Pococks, who would be passing along the Boulevard and would catch this view of him. They would have distinctly, on his appearance, every ground for scandal. But fate failed to administer even that sternness; the Pococks never passed and Chad made no sign. Strether meanwhile continued to hold off from Miss Gostrey, keeping her till to-morrow; so that by evening his irresponsibility, his impunity, his luxury, had become—there was no other word for them—immense.
Even after he felt that objection fade away, the actual difference was minimal; the long stretch of his time still took on its own color, and living like this with the darkness from hour to hour ended up being easier than he had thought. He found himself going back to his old beliefs, the ones he grew up with, which even after so many years hadn’t worn away much; the idea that the state of the wrongdoer, or at least this person’s happiness, posed some unique challenge. What struck him now was how effortless it seemed—for nothing truly felt simpler. He experienced that ease for the rest of the day; he fully surrendered to it, not even attempting to spin it into anything resembling a difficulty; not going to see Maria—which would have been a result of such spinning; just idling, lounging, smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade, and indulging in ice treats. The day turned hot with the promise of eventual thunder, and occasionally he went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn’t been there. He hadn’t wasted his time since leaving Woollett, not even appearing like a slacker, though there were moments when he felt like he was hitting rock bottom. This was a deeper low than any before, without any foresight, hardly caring about what he might pull back up. He almost wondered if he didn’t look demoralized and disreputable; as he sat and smoked, he imagined some chance return of the Pococks, who would stroll by on the Boulevard and see him like this. They would have every reason to gossip about his appearance. But fate didn’t even deliver that judgment; the Pococks never passed, and Chad made no move. Meanwhile, Strether continued to keep his distance from Miss Gostrey, holding off until tomorrow; by evening, his irresponsibility, his lack of consequences, his indulgence had become—there was no other word for it—immense.
Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture—he was moving in these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever canvas—he drew a long breath: it was so presented to him from the first that the spell of his luxury wouldn’t be broken. He wouldn’t have, that is, to become responsible—this was admirably in the air: she had sent for him precisely to let him feel it, so that he might go on with the comfort (comfort already established, hadn’t it been?) of regarding his ordeal, the ordeal of the weeks of Sarah’s stay and of their climax, as safely traversed and left behind him. Didn’t she just wish to assure him that she now took it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to worry any more, was only to rest on his laurels and continue generously to help her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, though it would do, as everything would always do; the hot night had kept out lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of candles that glimmered over the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar. The windows were all open, their redundant hangings swaying a little, and he heard once more, from the empty court, the small plash of the fountain. From beyond this, and as from a great distance—beyond the court, beyond the corps de logis forming the front—came, as if excited and exciting, the vague voice of Paris. Strether had all along been subject to sudden gusts of fancy in connexion with such matters as these—odd starts of the historic sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but their intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates, the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the omens, the beginnings broken out. They were the smell of revolution, the smell of the public temper—or perhaps simply the smell of blood.
Between nine and ten, finally, in the clear picture—he was moving these days, like in an art gallery, from one clever painting to another—he took a deep breath: it was so clear from the start that the charm of his luxury wouldn’t be disrupted. He wouldn’t have to take on any responsibility—this was perfectly in the air: she had called him over just to let him feel it, so he could continue with the comfort (comfort that was already established, wasn’t it?) of viewing his ordeal, the ordeal of the weeks of Sarah’s visit and their climax, as safely navigated and left behind him. Didn’t she just want to assure him that she now managed it all and kept it; that he didn’t need to worry any more, was only to rest on his past achievements and continue generously to support her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, but it would suffice, just like everything would always suffice; the hot night had kept the lamps away, but there were a couple of clusters of candles that sparkled over the mantel like tall altar candles. All the windows were open, their excessive drapes swaying slightly, and he once again heard, from the empty courtyard, the soft splash of the fountain. From beyond this, as if from a great distance—beyond the courtyard, beyond the corps de logis at the front—came, as if excited and exhilarating, the vague sounds of Paris. Strether had always been susceptible to sudden bursts of imagination related to such matters—strange sparks of historic awareness, speculations and insights with no basis other than their intensity. Thus, on the eve of the significant recorded events, the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the omens, the beginnings breaking through. They were the scent of revolution, the scent of public sentiment—or perhaps simply the scent of blood.
It was at present queer beyond words, “subtle,” he would have risked saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the scene; but it was doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air, which had hung about all day without release. His hostess was dressed as for thunderous times, and it fell in with the kind of imagination we have just attributed to him that she should be in simplest coolest white, of a character so old-fashioned, if he were not mistaken, that Madame Roland must on the scaffold have worn something like it. This effect was enhanced by a small black fichu or scarf, of crape or gauze, disposed quaintly round her bosom and now completing as by a mystic touch the pathetic, the noble analogy. Poor Strether in fact scarce knew what analogy was evoked for him as the charming woman, receiving him and making him, as she could do such things, at once familiarly and gravely welcome, moved over her great room with her image almost repeated in its polished floor, which had been fully bared for summer. The associations of the place, all felt again; the gleam here and there, in the subdued light, of glass and gilt and parquet, with the quietness of her own note as the centre—these things were at first as delicate as if they had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, whatever he should find he had come for, it wouldn’t be for an impression that had previously failed him. That conviction held him from the outset, and, seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him that the objects about would help him, would really help them both. No, he might never see them again—this was only too probably the last time; and he should certainly see nothing in the least degree like them. He should soon be going to where such things were not, and it would be a small mercy for memory, for fancy, to have, in that stress, a loaf on the shelf. He knew in advance he should look back on the perception actually sharpest with him as on the view of something old, old, old, the oldest thing he had ever personally touched; and he also knew, even while he took his companion in as the feature among features, that memory and fancy couldn’t help being enlisted for her. She might intend what she would, but this was beyond anything she could intend, with things from far back—tyrannies of history, facts of type, values, as the painters said, of expression—all working for her and giving her the supreme chance, the chance of the happy, the really luxurious few, the chance, on a great occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never, with him, been more so; or if it was the perfection of art it would never—and that came to the same thing—be proved against her.
It was quite strange, “subtle,” he would have risked saying, that such suggestions kept appearing; but it was probably the effect of the storm in the air, which had lingered all day without relief. His hostess was dressed for dramatic times, and it fit with the kind of imagination we have just ascribed to him that she wore the simplest, coolest white, which seemed so old-fashioned that Madame Roland must have worn something like it on the scaffold if he wasn’t mistaken. This effect was heightened by a small black fichu or scarf, made of crape or gauze, arranged quaintly around her chest, completing as if by a mystical touch the poignant, noble analogy. Poor Strether hardly knew what analogy was evoked for him as the charming woman welcomed him in her unique way, both casually and seriously, moving through her spacious room with her reflection almost mirrored in the polished floor, which had been cleared for summer. The associations of the place came back to him; the glimmers here and there in the soft light of glass, gold, and hardwood, with the calmness of her presence at the center—these things felt initially as delicate as if they were ghostly, and he was sure that whatever he found there, it wouldn’t be an impression he had missed before. That conviction kept him assured from the beginning, and, strangely simplifying things, made him believe that the objects around would assist him, would genuinely help them both. No, he might never see them again—this was probably the last time; and he definitely wouldn’t encounter anything remotely like them. He would soon be going to a place where such things didn’t exist, and it would be a small mercy for memory, for imagination, to have, in that stress, a piece of nostalgia on the shelf. He knew in advance that he would look back on the clearest perception he had as the view of something ancient, the oldest thing he had ever touched personally; and he also knew, even while he took in his companion as the focal point among features, that memory and imagination couldn't help but be drawn to her. She might plan what she wanted, but this was beyond anything she could intend, with things from long ago—tyrannies of history, traits of character, values, as the artists said, of expression—all working in her favor and giving her the ultimate opportunity, the chance of the fortunate, the truly luxurious few, the chance, on a grand occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never been more so with him; or if it was the height of artistry, it would never—and that came to the same thing—be held against her.
What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to time without detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure she felt, were before anything else bad manners, and that judgement in her was by itself a thing making more for safety of intercourse than anything that in his various own past intercourses he had had to reckon on. If therefore her presence was now quite other than the one she had shown him the night before, there was nothing of violence in the change—it was all harmony and reason. It gave him a mild deep person, whereas he had had on the occasion to which their interview was a direct reference a person committed to movement and surface and abounding in them; but she was in either character more remarkable for nothing than for her bridging of intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he was to leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it all to her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in advance, his explanation, his view of the probability of her wishing to set something right, to deal in some way with the fraud so lately practised on his presumed credulity. Would she attempt to carry it further or would she blot it out? Would she throw over it some more or less happy colour; or would she do nothing about it at all? He perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable she might be, she wasn’t vulgarly confused, and it herewith pressed upon him that their eminent “lie,” Chad’s and hers, was simply after all such an inevitable tribute to good taste as he couldn’t have wished them not to render. Away from them, during his vigil, he had seemed to wince at the amount of comedy involved; whereas in his present posture he could only ask himself how he should enjoy any attempt from her to take the comedy back. He shouldn’t enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once more, he could trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception right. As she presented things the ugliness—goodness knew why—went out of them; none the less too that she could present them, with an art of her own, by not so much as touching them. She let the matter, at all events, lie where it was—where the previous twenty-four hours had placed it; appearing merely to circle about it respectfully, tenderly, almost piously, while she took up another question.
What was truly amazing was her ability to change from time to time without losing her simplicity. He was sure she understood that whims were, above all, bad manners, and that her judgment made interactions safer than anything he’d experienced in his past relationships. So, even though her demeanor now was completely different from how she acted the night before, the change didn't feel drastic—it was all balanced and reasonable. It revealed a deeper side to her, while previously she had been more caught up in surface-level things. Yet, in both her personalities, what stood out was her ability to bridge gaps, and that fit with what he understood he should leave to her. The only question was, if he was going to leave it all to her, why had she called him? He had, somewhat vaguely, anticipated her wanting to address something, to clarify the deception he had recently faced. Would she try to expand on it, or erase it? Would she paint it in a hopeful light, or ignore it entirely? He quickly realized that, for all her reasonableness, she wasn’t confused in a common way, and he recognized that their significant “lie,” Chad’s and hers, was, after all, an unavoidable nod to good taste that he couldn’t have wished them not to acknowledge. During his silent watch, he had felt discomfort at the comedic elements involved; but now, he could only wonder how he would feel if she tried to take that comedy away. He wouldn’t enjoy that at all; but, again and again, he could trust her. He could trust her to make the deception right. As she presented things, the unpleasantness—goodness knows why—seemed to fade; moreover, she had a way of presenting things without directly addressing them. She let the situation rest where it was—where the past twenty-four hours had left it—merely seeming to circle around it respectfully, gently, almost reverently, while she turned to another topic.
She knew she hadn’t really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the previous night, before they separated, had practically passed between them; and, as she had sent for him to see what the difference thus made for him might amount to, so he was conscious at the end of five minutes that he had been tried and tested. She had settled with Chad after he left them that she would, for her satisfaction, assure herself of this quantity, and Chad had, as usual, let her have her way. Chad was always letting people have their way when he felt that it would somehow turn his wheel for him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. Strether felt, oddly enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly passive; they again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing his attention were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided and intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the consequence of that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his perceptions and his mistakes, his concessions and his reserves, the droll mixture, as it must seem to them, of his braveries and his fears, the general spectacle of his art and his innocence, almost an added link and certainly a common priceless ground for them to meet upon. It was as if he had been hearing their very tone when she brought out a reference that was comparatively straight. “The last twice that you’ve been here, you know, I never asked you,” she said with an abrupt transition—they had been pretending before this to talk simply of the charm of yesterday and of the interest of the country they had seen. The effort was confessedly vain; not for such talk had she invited him; and her impatient reminder was of their having done for it all the needful on his coming to her after Sarah’s flight. What she hadn’t asked him then was to state to her where and how he stood for her; she had been resting on Chad’s report of their midnight hour together in the Boulevard Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired was ushered in by this recall of the two occasions on which, disinterested and merciful, she hadn’t worried him. To-night truly she would worry him, and this was her appeal to him to let her risk it. He wasn’t to mind if she bored him a little: she had behaved, after all—hadn’t she?—so awfully, awfully well.
She knew she hadn’t really fooled him; what happened the night before, just before they parted, was almost obvious between them. As she had called him to see how the situation affected him, he quickly realized that he had been assessed. She had come to an understanding with Chad after he left that she would, for her own peace of mind, confirm this feeling; and Chad, as usual, had let her do as she pleased. Chad was always accommodating people when he thought it would somehow benefit him, and it usually did end up working in his favor. Strangely enough, Strether felt freshly and willingly passive in light of these facts; it struck him again that the couple fixing his attention were close, that his involvement had actually helped deepen their intimacy, and that he had to accept the outcome of that. He had, with all his perceptions and mistakes, his concessions and hesitations, become to them a curious blend of bravery and fear, a showcase of both his art and innocence, almost an extra link and definitely a shared foundation for them to connect on. It was as if he had been picking up on their tone when she made a straightforward reference. “The last two times you’ve been here, you know, I never asked you,” she said, shifting abruptly—they had been pretending to talk simply about the charm of yesterday and the sights they had seen. The effort was obviously pointless; that wasn't why she had invited him. Her impatient reminder was about all they had covered when he came to see her after Sarah’s departure. What she hadn’t asked him then was to clarify where he stood with her; she had been relying on Chad’s account of their late-night time together on the Boulevard Malesherbes. So now, what she really wanted was introduced by this mention of the two occasions when, unselfish and kind, she hadn’t pressed him. Tonight, though, she truly would press him, and this was her way of asking him to let her take that chance. He shouldn’t worry if she bored him a bit: she had behaved, after all—hadn’t she?—so extremely well.
II
“Oh, you’re all right, you’re all right,” he almost impatiently declared; his impatience being moreover not for her pressure, but for her scruple. More and more distinct to him was the tune to which she would have had the matter out with Chad: more and more vivid for him the idea that she had been nervous as to what he might be able to “stand.” Yes, it had been a question if he had “stood” what the scene on the river had given him, and, though the young man had doubtless opined in favour of his recuperation, her own last word must have been that she should feel easier in seeing for herself. That was it, unmistakeably; she was seeing for herself. What he could stand was thus, in these moments, in the balance for Strether, who reflected, as he became fully aware of it, that he must properly brace himself. He wanted fully to appear to stand all he might; and there was a certain command of the situation for him in this very wish not to look too much at sea. She was ready with everything, but so, sufficiently, was he; that is he was at one point the more prepared of the two, inasmuch as, for all her cleverness, she couldn’t produce on the spot—and it was surprising—an account of the motive of her note. He had the advantage that his pronouncing her “all right” gave him for an enquiry. “May I ask, delighted as I’ve been to come, if you’ve wished to say something special?” He spoke as if she might have seen he had been waiting for it—not indeed with discomfort, but with natural interest. Then he saw that she was a little taken aback, was even surprised herself at the detail she had neglected—the only one ever yet; having somehow assumed he would know, would recognise, would leave some things not to be said. She looked at him, however, an instant as if to convey that if he wanted them all—!
“Oh, you’re fine, you’re fine,” he said almost impatiently; his impatience was more about her hesitation than her pressure. He was increasingly aware of the conversation she would have had with Chad: the notion that she was worried about what he might be able to handle. Yes, it had been a question of whether he could manage what the scene on the river had thrown at him, and although the young man probably thought he would recover, her last comment must have been that she would feel better seeing it for herself. That was it, without a doubt; she was checking for herself. What he could handle was, in those moments, hanging in the balance for Strether, who realized he needed to brace himself. He wanted to appear to be handling everything as best he could; and there was a certain control of the situation for him in this very desire not to look too lost. She was prepared for everything, but so was he; in fact, he was a bit more ready than she was, since despite her cleverness, she couldn’t immediately explain the purpose of her note. He had the advantage that declaring her “all right” gave him a reason to ask. “May I ask, as delighted as I’ve been to come, if you wanted to say something specific?” He spoke as if she might have noticed he had been waiting for it—not with discomfort, but with natural interest. Then he saw that she was a little taken aback, even surprised at the detail she had overlooked—the only one so far; having somehow assumed he would know, recognize, and leave some things unspoken. However, she looked at him for a moment as if to suggest that if he wanted them all—!
“Selfish and vulgar—that’s what I must seem to you. You’ve done everything for me, and here I am as if I were asking for more. But it isn’t,” she went on, “because I’m afraid—though I am of course afraid, as a woman in my position always is. I mean it isn’t because one lives in terror—it isn’t because of that one is selfish, for I’m ready to give you my word to-night that I don’t care; don’t care what still may happen and what I may lose. I don’t ask you to raise your little finger for me again, nor do I wish so much as to mention to you what we’ve talked of before, either my danger or my safety, or his mother, or his sister, or the girl he may marry, or the fortune he may make or miss, or the right or the wrong, of any kind, he may do. If after the help one has had from you one can’t either take care of one’s self or simply hold one’s tongue, one must renounce all claim to be an object of interest. It’s in the name of what I do care about that I’ve tried still to keep hold of you. How can I be indifferent,” she asked, “to how I appear to you?” And as he found himself unable immediately to say: “Why, if you’re going, need you, after all? Is it impossible you should stay on—so that one mayn’t lose you?”
“Selfish and crass—that’s how I must seem to you. You’ve done everything for me, and here I am acting like I’m asking for more. But it’s not,” she continued, “because I’m afraid—though I definitely am, as any woman in my position always is. I mean, it’s not that living in fear makes someone selfish; I’m ready to promise you tonight that I don’t care; I don’t care what might still happen or what I might lose. I’m not asking you to lift a finger for me again, nor do I want to bring up what we’ve discussed before—my danger, my safety, his mother, his sister, the girl he might marry, the fortune he could gain or lose, or the right or wrong of anything he might do. If, after everything you’ve done for me, I can’t take care of myself or at least keep quiet, I should give up any claim to be someone of interest. It’s because of what I do care about that I’ve tried to keep in touch with you. How can I be indifferent,” she asked, “to how I look to you?” And as he struggled to respond immediately, he thought: “Well, if you’re leaving, do I really need you after all? Is it impossible for you to stay—so that I won’t lose you?”
“Impossible I should live with you here instead of going home?”
“Is it really impossible for me to stay here with you instead of going home?”
“Not ‘with’ us, if you object to that, but near enough to us, somewhere, for us to see you—well,” she beautifully brought out, “when we feel we must. How shall we not sometimes feel it? I’ve wanted to see you often when I couldn’t,” she pursued, “all these last weeks. How shan’t I then miss you now, with the sense of your being gone forever?” Then as if the straightness of this appeal, taking him unprepared, had visibly left him wondering: “Where is your ‘home’ moreover now—what has become of it? I’ve made a change in your life, I know I have; I’ve upset everything in your mind as well; in your sense of—what shall I call it?—all the decencies and possibilities. It gives me a kind of detestation—” She pulled up short.
“Not ‘with’ us, if you don’t like that, but close enough for us to see you—well,” she said beautifully, “when we feel we have. How can we not sometimes feel that? I’ve wanted to see you so many times when I couldn’t,” she continued, “all these last weeks. How could I not miss you now, knowing you’re gone forever?” Then, as if the directness of this appeal had caught him off guard, leaving him puzzled: “Where is your ‘home’ now—what happened to it? I know I've changed your life; I know I have; I've messed everything up in your mind too; in your sense of—what should I call it?—all the decencies and possibilities. It makes me feel a kind of disgust—” She stopped abruptly.
Oh but he wanted to hear. “Detestation of what?”
Oh, but he wanted to know. “What do you hate?”
“Of everything—of life.”
"About everything—about life."
“Ah that’s too much,” he laughed—“or too little!”
“Ah, that’s too much,” he laughed—“or too little!”
“Too little, precisely”—she was eager. “What I hate is myself—when I think that one has to take so much, to be happy, out of the lives of others, and that one isn’t happy even then. One does it to cheat one’s self and to stop one’s mouth—but that’s only at the best for a little. The wretched self is always there, always making one somehow a fresh anxiety. What it comes to is that it’s not, that it’s never, a happiness, any happiness at all, to take. The only safe thing is to give. It’s what plays you least false.” Interesting, touching, strikingly sincere as she let these things come from her, she yet puzzled and troubled him—so fine was the quaver of her quietness. He felt what he had felt before with her, that there was always more behind what she showed, and more and more again behind that. “You know so, at least,” she added, “where you are!”
“Too little, exactly”—she was eager. “What I hate is myself—when I think that in order to be happy, one has to take so much from the lives of others, and that even then, one isn’t happy. People do it to deceive themselves and to quiet their own inner voice—but that only works for a little while. The miserable self is always there, constantly creating fresh anxiety. The truth is that it’s not, that it’s never, a happiness, any happiness at all, to take. The only sure thing is to give. It's what deceives you the least.” Interesting, touching, strikingly sincere as she expressed these thoughts, she still puzzled and troubled him—her quietness had such a fine quaver. He felt what he had felt before with her, that there was always more behind what she showed, and even more behind that. “You at least know where you stand!” she added.
“You ought to know it indeed then; for isn’t what you’ve been giving exactly what has brought us together this way? You’ve been making, as I’ve so fully let you know I’ve felt,” Strether said, “the most precious present I’ve ever seen made, and if you can’t sit down peacefully on that performance you are, no doubt, born to torment yourself. But you ought,” he wound up, “to be easy.”
You really should know it then; because isn’t what you’ve been giving exactly what has brought us together like this? You’ve been creating, as I’ve made very clear how I’ve felt,” Strether said, “the most incredible gift I’ve ever seen made, and if you can’t just sit down and take it easy about that accomplishment, you are, for sure, destined to stress yourself out. But you ought,” he concluded, “to be at peace.”
“And not trouble you any more, no doubt—not thrust on you even the wonder and the beauty of what I’ve done; only let you regard our business as over, and well over, and see you depart in a peace that matches my own? No doubt, no doubt, no doubt,” she nervously repeated—“all the more that I don’t really pretend I believe you couldn’t, for yourself, not have done what you have. I don’t pretend you feel yourself victimised, for this evidently is the way you live, and it’s what—we’re agreed—is the best way. Yes, as you say,” she continued after a moment, “I ought to be easy and rest on my work. Well then here am I doing so. I am easy. You’ll have it for your last impression. When is it you say you go?” she asked with a quick change.
“And I won’t bother you anymore, that’s for sure—won’t even push the wonder and beauty of what I’ve done on you; just let you see our business as finished, really finished, and watch you leave in a peace that matches my own? No doubt, no doubt, no doubt,” she nervously repeated—“especially since I don’t really pretend I believe you couldn’t, for yourself, not have done what you have. I don’t pretend you feel victimized, because this is obviously how you live, and it’s what—we’ve agreed—is the best way. Yes, as you say,” she continued after a moment, “I should be content and rest on my work. Well then here I am doing just that. I am content. You’ll take that as your last impression. When do you say you’re leaving?” she asked with a quick change.
He took some time to reply—his last impression was more and more so mixed a one. It produced in him a vague disappointment, a drop that was deeper even than the fall of his elation the previous night. The good of what he had done, if he had done so much, wasn’t there to enliven him quite to the point that would have been ideal for a grand gay finale. Women were thus endlessly absorbent, and to deal with them was to walk on water. What was at bottom the matter with her, embroider as she might and disclaim as she might—what was at bottom the matter with her was simply Chad himself. It was of Chad she was after all renewedly afraid; the strange strength of her passion was the very strength of her fear; she clung to him, Lambert Strether, as to a source of safety she had tested, and, generous graceful truthful as she might try to be, exquisite as she was, she dreaded the term of his being within reach. With this sharpest perception yet, it was like a chill in the air to him, it was almost appalling, that a creature so fine could be, by mysterious forces, a creature so exploited. For at the end of all things they were mysterious: she had but made Chad what he was—so why could she think she had made him infinite? She had made him better, she had made him best, she had made him anything one would; but it came to our friend with supreme queerness that he was none the less only Chad. Strether had the sense that he, a little, had made him too; his high appreciation had as it were, consecrated her work The work, however admirable, was nevertheless of the strict human order, and in short it was marvellous that the companion of mere earthly joys, of comforts, aberrations (however one classed them) within the common experience should be so transcendently prized. It might have made Strether hot or shy, as such secrets of others brought home sometimes do make us; but he was held there by something so hard that it was fairly grim. This was not the discomposure of last night; that had quite passed—such discomposures were a detail; the real coercion was to see a man ineffably adored. There it was again—it took women, it took women; if to deal with them was to walk on water what wonder that the water rose? And it had never surely risen higher than round this woman. He presently found himself taking a long look from her, and the next thing he knew he had uttered all his thought. “You’re afraid for your life!”
He took a while to respond—his last impression was increasingly mixed. It left him feeling vaguely disappointed, a feeling that was even deeper than the drop he felt from his excitement the night before. The good he had done, if he had done anything significant, didn’t lift him to the level that would have been perfect for a grand finale. Women were constantly absorbing, and dealing with them felt like walking on water. At the core, what was wrong with her, no matter how much she decorated or denied it—what truly troubled her was simply Chad himself. She was, after all, once again afraid of Chad; the strange power of her passion was directly linked to the strength of her fear; she clung to him, Lambert Strether, as if he were a source of security she had tested, and despite trying to be generous, graceful, and truthful, as exquisite as she was, she feared having him within her reach. With this keenest insight yet, he felt a chill in the air, almost appalled that a person so fine could be, under mysterious forces, so exploited. For in the end, everything was indeed mysterious: she had merely shaped Chad into who he was—so why did she think she had made him infinite? She had improved him, made him the best he could be, but it struck their friend as utterly strange that he remained just Chad. Strether sensed that he had, in a small way, influenced him too; his deep appreciation had, in a sense, sanctified her efforts. The work, however admirable, was nonetheless of a distinctly human nature, and it was remarkable that the company of simple earthly joys and comforts—no matter how one categorized them—could be so treasured. It might have made Strether feel hot or shy, as secrets about others sometimes do, but he was held there by something so intense that it was almost grim. This wasn’t the disturbance of the night before; that had completely faded—such disturbances were minor details; the real pressure was witnessing a man so profoundly adored. There it was again—it took women, it took women; if dealing with them was like walking on water, it was no surprise that the water rose. And it had never risen higher than around this woman. He soon found himself gazing at her intently, and before he knew it, he had voiced all his thoughts. “You’re afraid for your life!”
It drew out her long look, and he soon enough saw why. A spasm came into her face, the tears she had already been unable to hide overflowed at first in silence, and then, as the sound suddenly comes from a child, quickened to gasps, to sobs. She sat and covered her face with her hands, giving up all attempt at a manner. “It’s how you see me, it’s how you see me”—she caught her breath with it—“and it’s as I am, and as I must take myself, and of course it’s no matter.” Her emotion was at first so incoherent that he could only stand there at a loss, stand with his sense of having upset her, though of having done it by the truth. He had to listen to her in a silence that he made no immediate effort to attenuate, feeling her doubly woeful amid all her dim diffused elegance; consenting to it as he had consented to the rest, and even conscious of some vague inward irony in the presence of such a fine free range of bliss and bale. He couldn’t say it was not no matter; for he was serving her to the end, he now knew, anyway—quite as if what he thought of her had nothing to do with it. It was actually moreover as if he didn’t think of her at all, as if he could think of nothing but the passion, mature, abysmal, pitiful, she represented, and the possibilities she betrayed. She was older for him to-night, visibly less exempt from the touch of time; but she was as much as ever the finest and subtlest creature, the happiest apparition, it had been given him, in all his years, to meet; and yet he could see her there as vulgarly troubled, in very truth, as a maidservant crying for her young man. The only thing was that she judged herself as the maidservant wouldn’t; the weakness of which wisdom too, the dishonour of which judgement, seemed but to sink her lower. Her collapse, however, no doubt, was briefer and she had in a manner recovered herself before he intervened. “Of course I’m afraid for my life. But that’s nothing. It isn’t that.”
It made her stare longer, and he quickly understood why. A spasm crossed her face, the tears she had been trying to hold back spilled over silently at first, and then, like the sudden sound from a child, turned into gasps and sobs. She sat there, covering her face with her hands, giving up any effort to keep her composure. “It’s how you see me, it’s how you see me”—she caught her breath—“and it’s as I am, and as I have to see myself, and of course it doesn’t matter.” Her emotions were so jumbled at first that he could only stand there, unsure of what to do, feeling that he had upset her, even though it was because of the truth. He had to listen to her in silence, not rushing to ease the tension, feeling her pain even more deeply amid her soft elegance; accepting it just like he accepted everything else, and even feeling some vague irony in the presence of such a wide range of joy and sorrow. He couldn’t say it was not a big deal; he now realized he was serving her in the end—just as if what he thought about her didn’t matter at all. In fact, it was as if he didn’t think about her at all, as if he could only focus on the deep, profound, pitiful passion she represented, and the potential she revealed. She seemed older to him tonight, noticeably less untouched by time; yet she was still, as always, the finest and most delicate creature, the happiest sight he had encountered in all his years; and yet he could see her as honestly troubled, truly, like a maidservant crying for her lover. The only difference was that she judged herself in a way a maidservant wouldn’t; the weakness of that awareness, the dishonor of that judgment, seemed to make her feel even worse. However, her breakdown was probably brief, and she had somewhat composed herself before he stepped in. “Of course I’m afraid for my life. But that’s nothing. It isn’t that.”
He was silent a little longer, as if thinking what it might be. “There’s something I have in mind that I can still do.”
He stayed silent for a bit longer, as if considering what it could be. “There’s something I’m thinking of that I can still do.”
But she threw off at last, with a sharp sad headshake, drying her eyes, what he could still do. “I don’t care for that. Of course, as I’ve said, you’re acting, in your wonderful way, for yourself; and what’s for yourself is no more my business—though I may reach out unholy hands so clumsily to touch it—than if it were something in Timbuctoo. It’s only that you don’t snub me, as you’ve had fifty chances to do—it’s only your beautiful patience that makes one forget one’s manners. In spite of your patience, all the same,” she went on, “you’d do anything rather than be with us here, even if that were possible. You’d do everything for us but be mixed up with us—which is a statement you can easily answer to the advantage of your own manners. You can say ‘What’s the use of talking of things that at the best are impossible?’ What is of course the use? It’s only my little madness. You’d talk if you were tormented. And I don’t mean now about him. Oh for him—!” Positively, strangely, bitterly, as it seemed to Strether, she gave “him,” for the moment, away. “You don’t care what I think of you; but I happen to care what you think of me. And what you might,” she added. “What you perhaps even did.”
But she finally shook her head sadly, wiping her eyes and dismissing what he could still do. “I don’t care about that. Of course, like I said, you’re acting, in your amazing way, for yourself; and what’s for yourself is no more my concern—even if I clumsily try to reach out and touch it—than if it were something in Timbuktu. It’s just that you don’t brush me off, as you’ve had countless chances to do—it’s only your lovely patience that makes one forget their manners. Despite your patience, though,” she continued, “you’d do anything to avoid being here with us, even if that were possible. You’d do everything for us except be involved with us—which is a statement you can easily respond to in a way that highlights your good manners. You might say, ‘What’s the use of talking about things that are, at best, impossible?’ What is the use, really? It’s just my little madness. You’d talk if you were tormented. And I’m not talking about him right now. Oh for him—!” Strangely and bitterly, it seemed to Strether, she momentarily gave him up. “You don’t care what I think of you; but I happen to care what you think of me. And what you might,” she added. “What you maybe even did.”
He gained time. “What I did—?”
He bought himself some time. “What did I do—?”
“Did think before. Before this. Didn’t you think—?”
“Did you think before? Before this. Didn’t you think—?”
But he had already stopped her. “I didn’t think anything. I never think a step further than I’m obliged to.”
But he had already interrupted her. “I didn't think anything. I never think farther ahead than I have to.”
“That’s perfectly false, I believe,” she returned—“except that you may, no doubt, often pull up when things become too ugly; or even, I’ll say, to save you a protest, too beautiful. At any rate, even so far as it’s true, we’ve thrust on you appearances that you’ve had to take in and that have therefore made your obligation. Ugly or beautiful—it doesn’t matter what we call them—you were getting on without them, and that’s where we’re detestable. We bore you—that’s where we are. And we may well—for what we’ve cost you. All you can do now is not to think at all. And I who should have liked to seem to you—well, sublime!”
"That's totally untrue, I think," she replied—"except that you probably often hold back when things get too messy; or even, I'll say, to avoid a fuss, too perfect. Anyway, even if it's partly true, we've imposed on you appearances that you’ve had to accept, and that has created your obligation. Ugly or beautiful—it doesn’t matter what we call them—you were managing fine without them, and that’s where we become unbearable. We bore you—that's our fault. And we should feel guilty—for what we've put you through. All you can do now is stop thinking completely. And I, who would have loved to seem to you—well, amazing!"
He could only after a moment re-echo Miss Barrace. “You’re wonderful!”
He could only after a moment repeat what Miss Barrace said. “You’re amazing!”
“I’m old and abject and hideous”—she went on as without hearing him. “Abject above all. Or old above all. It’s when one’s old that it’s worst. I don’t care what becomes of it—let what will; there it is. It’s a doom—I know it; you can’t see it more than I do myself. Things have to happen as they will.” With which she came back again to what, face to face with him, had so quite broken down. “Of course you wouldn’t, even if possible, and no matter what may happen to you, be near us. But think of me, think of me—!” She exhaled it into air.
“I’m old and pathetic and ugly,” she continued, seemingly ignoring him. “Pathetic above all. Or old above all. It’s when you’re old that it’s the worst. I don’t care what happens—let whatever will happen; there it is. It’s a curse—I know it; you can’t see it any clearer than I do. Things have to play out as they will.” With that, she returned to what had completely broken down in front of him. “Of course you wouldn’t, even if it were possible, and no matter what happens to you, be close to us. But think of me, think of me—!” She breathed it out into the air.
He took refuge in repeating something he had already said and that she had made nothing of. “There’s something I believe I can still do.” And he put his hand out for good-bye.
He found comfort in repeating something he had already said that she had dismissed. “There’s something I think I can still do.” And he extended his hand for a goodbye.
She again made nothing of it; she went on with her insistence. “That won’t help you. There’s nothing to help you.”
She brushed it off again and kept pushing. “That won’t help you. There’s nothing that can help you.”
“Well, it may help you,” he said.
“Well, it might help you,” he said.
She shook her head. “There’s not a grain of certainty in my future—for the only certainty is that I shall be the loser in the end.”
She shook her head. “There’s not a bit of certainty in my future—for the only certainty is that I will end up being the loser.”
She hadn’t taken his hand, but she moved with him to the door. “That’s cheerful,” he laughed, “for your benefactor!”
She didn’t take his hand, but she walked with him to the door. “That’s cheerful,” he laughed, “for your benefactor!”
“What’s cheerful for me,” she replied, “is that we might, you and I, have been friends. That’s it—that’s it. You see how, as I say, I want everything. I’ve wanted you too.”
“What makes me happy,” she replied, “is that you and I could have been friends. That’s it—that’s it. You see, as I mentioned, I want everything. I’ve wanted you too.”
“Ah but you’ve had me!” he declared, at the door, with an emphasis that made an end.
“Ah but you’ve had me!” he declared at the door, with an emphasis that made it final.
III
His purpose had been to see Chad the next day, and he had prefigured seeing him by an early call; having in general never stood on ceremony in respect to visits at the Boulevard Malesherbes. It had been more often natural for him to go there than for Chad to come to the small hotel, the attractions of which were scant; yet it nevertheless, just now, at the eleventh hour, did suggest itself to Strether to begin by giving the young man a chance. It struck him that, in the inevitable course, Chad would be “round,” as Waymarsh used to say—Waymarsh who already, somehow, seemed long ago. He hadn’t come the day before, because it had been arranged between them that Madame de Vionnet should see their friend first; but now that this passage had taken place he would present himself, and their friend wouldn’t have long to wait. Strether assumed, he became aware, on this reasoning, that the interesting parties to the arrangement would have met betimes, and that the more interesting of the two—as she was after all—would have communicated to the other the issue of her appeal. Chad would know without delay that his mother’s messenger had been with her, and, though it was perhaps not quite easy to see how she could qualify what had occurred, he would at least have been sufficiently advised to feel he could go on. The day, however, brought, early or late, no word from him, and Strether felt, as a result of this, that a change had practically come over their intercourse. It was perhaps a premature judgement; or it only meant perhaps—how could he tell?—that the wonderful pair he protected had taken up again together the excursion he had accidentally checked. They might have gone back to the country, and gone back but with a long breath drawn; that indeed would best mark Chad’s sense that reprobation hadn’t rewarded Madame de Vionnet’s request for an interview. At the end of the twenty-four hours, at the end of the forty-eight, there was still no overture; so that Strether filled up the time, as he had so often filled it before, by going to see Miss Gostrey.
His plan was to see Chad the next day, and he had thought about doing that with an early call; he generally didn’t stand on formality regarding visits at Boulevard Malesherbes. It was usually more natural for him to go there than for Chad to visit the small hotel, which had little to offer; however, at this late hour, it occurred to Strether to give the young man a chance. He figured that eventually, Chad would show up, as Waymarsh used to say—Waymarsh, who somehow felt like a long time ago. Chad hadn’t come the day before because they had agreed that Madame de Vionnet would see their friend first; but now that meeting had happened, he would make an appearance, and their friend wouldn’t have to wait long. Strether realized, based on this reasoning, that the parties involved would have met up earlier, and the more interesting of the two—who she was, after all—would have shared the outcome of her appeal with the other. Chad would know right away that his mother’s messenger had been with her, and although it might not be easy to see how she could explain what had happened, he would at least have enough information to feel he could proceed. However, the day came and went, with no word from him, and as a result, Strether felt that their communication had changed. It might have been a hasty conclusion; or it might just mean—who could tell?—that the fascinating couple he watched over had resumed the outing he had unintentionally interrupted. They might have gone back to the country, and gone back with a long breath taken; that would really highlight Chad’s sense that disapproval hadn’t rewarded Madame de Vionnet’s request for a meeting. By the end of twenty-four hours, and then forty-eight, there was still no contact; so Strether spent the time, as he had many times before, by visiting Miss Gostrey.
He proposed amusements to her; he felt expert now in proposing amusements; and he had thus, for several days, an odd sense of leading her about Paris, of driving her in the Bois, of showing her the penny steamboats—those from which the breeze of the Seine was to be best enjoyed—that might have belonged to a kindly uncle doing the honours of the capital to an intelligent niece from the country. He found means even to take her to shops she didn’t know, or that she pretended she didn’t; while she, on her side, was, like the country maiden, all passive modest and grateful—going in fact so far as to emulate rusticity in occasional fatigues and bewilderments. Strether described these vague proceedings to himself, described them even to her, as a happy interlude; the sign of which was that the companions said for the time no further word about the matter they had talked of to satiety. He proclaimed satiety at the outset, and she quickly took the hint; as docile both in this and in everything else as the intelligent obedient niece. He told her as yet nothing of his late adventure—for as an adventure it now ranked with him; he pushed the whole business temporarily aside and found his interest in the fact of her beautiful assent. She left questions unasked—she who for so long had been all questions; she gave herself up to him with an understanding of which mere mute gentleness might have seemed the sufficient expression. She knew his sense of his situation had taken still another step—of that he was quite aware; but she conveyed that, whatever had thus happened for him, it was thrown into the shade by what was happening for herself. This—though it mightn’t to a detached spirit have seemed much—was the major interest, and she met it with a new directness of response, measuring it from hour to hour with her grave hush of acceptance. Touched as he had so often been by her before, he was, for his part too, touched afresh; all the more that though he could be duly aware of the principle of his own mood he couldn’t be equally so of the principle of hers. He knew, that is, in a manner—knew roughly and resignedly—what he himself was hatching; whereas he had to take the chance of what he called to himself Maria’s calculations. It was all he needed that she liked him enough for what they were doing, and even should they do a good deal more would still like him enough for that; the essential freshness of a relation so simple was a cool bath to the soreness produced by other relations. These others appeared to him now horribly complex; they bristled with fine points, points all unimaginable beforehand, points that pricked and drew blood; a fact that gave to an hour with his present friend on a bateau-mouche, or in the afternoon shade of the Champs Elysées, something of the innocent pleasure of handling rounded ivory. His relation with Chad personally—from the moment he had got his point of view—had been of the simplest; yet this also struck him as bristling, after a third and a fourth blank day had passed. It was as if at last however his care for such indications had dropped; there came a fifth blank day and he ceased to enquire or to heed.
He suggested fun activities to her; he felt skilled at making suggestions now; and for several days, he had this strange feeling of guiding her around Paris, taking her for drives in the Bois, showing her the penny steamboats—those that offered the best breeze from the Seine—that might have belonged to a kind uncle showing his intelligent niece from the country around the capital. He even found ways to take her to shops she didn’t know, or pretended she didn’t know; while she, for her part, was like a country girl, all passive, modest, and grateful—going so far as to mimic rustic simplicity in her occasional fatigue and confusion. Strether thought of these vague outings as a happy interlude; the sign of which was that they didn’t say anything more about the topic they had talked about endlessly. He declared they were done discussing it at the start, and she quickly caught on; as obediently as the intelligent and compliant niece. He still hadn’t told her anything about his recent adventure—now ranked as an adventure in his mind; he pushed the whole situation aside for the time being and focused on her beautiful agreement. She left questions unasked—she who had been full of questions for so long; she surrendered to him with a quiet understanding that might have seemed enough just by its gentle silence. She knew his awareness of his situation had taken another turn—he was quite aware of that; but she conveyed that whatever had shifted for him was overshadowed by what was happening for her. This—though it might not seem like much to an outside observer—was the main interest, and she responded to it with a new level of directness, measuring it from moment to moment with her serious acceptance. Touched as he had been by her before, he felt moved again; even more so because, while he could recognize his own feelings, he couldn’t quite grasp hers. He had a rough, resigned understanding of what he was developing; meanwhile, he had to navigate what he called Maria’s calculations. All he needed was for her to like him enough for what they were doing, and even if they did a lot more, to still like him for that; the refreshing simplicity of such a relationship felt like a soothing balm for the discomfort caused by other relationships. Those others now seemed horrifically complex to him; they were filled with fine details—details he couldn’t have imagined beforehand, details that pricked and drew blood; and this made a stroll with his current friend on a bateau-mouche, or in the afternoon shade of the Champs Elysées, feel innocently enjoyable, like handling smooth ivory. His relationship with Chad personally—from the moment he understood Chad’s perspective—had been the simplest; yet, this too felt complicated after a third and fourth day of uncertainty passed. It was as if his concern for such feelings had finally faded; a fifth blank day arrived, and he stopped questioning or paying attention.
They now took on to his fancy, Miss Gostrey and he, the image of the Babes in the Wood; they could trust the merciful elements to let them continue at peace. He had been great already, as he knew, at postponements; but he had only to get afresh into the rhythm of one to feel its fine attraction. It amused him to say to himself that he might for all the world have been going to die—die resignedly; the scene was filled for him with so deep a death-bed hush, so melancholy a charm. That meant the postponement of everything else—which made so for the quiet lapse of life; and the postponement in especial of the reckoning to come—unless indeed the reckoning to come were to be one and the same thing with extinction. It faced him, the reckoning, over the shoulder of much interposing experience—which also faced him; and one would float to it doubtless duly through these caverns of Kubla Khan. It was really behind everything; it hadn’t merged in what he had done; his final appreciation of what he had done—his appreciation on the spot—would provide it with its main sharpness. The spot so focussed was of course Woollett, and he was to see, at the best, what Woollett would be with everything there changed for him. Wouldn’t that revelation practically amount to the wind-up of his career? Well, the summer’s end would show; his suspense had meanwhile exactly the sweetness of vain delay; and he had with it, we should mention, other pastimes than Maria’s company—plenty of separate musings in which his luxury failed him but at one point. He was well in port, the outer sea behind him, and it was only a matter of getting ashore. There was a question that came and went for him, however, as he rested against the side of his ship, and it was a little to get rid of the obsession that he prolonged his hours with Miss Gostrey. It was a question about himself, but it could only be settled by seeing Chad again; it was indeed his principal reason for wanting to see Chad. After that it wouldn’t signify—it was a ghost that certain words would easily lay to rest. Only the young man must be there to take the words. Once they were taken he wouldn’t have a question left; none, that is, in connexion with this particular affair. It wouldn’t then matter even to himself that he might now have been guilty of speaking because of what he had forfeited. That was the refinement of his supreme scruple—he wished so to leave what he had forfeited out of account. He wished not to do anything because he had missed something else, because he was sore or sorry or impoverished, because he was maltreated or desperate; he wished to do everything because he was lucid and quiet, just the same for himself on all essential points as he had ever been. Thus it was that while he virtually hung about for Chad he kept mutely putting it: “You’ve been chucked, old boy; but what has that to do with it?” It would have sickened him to feel vindictive.
Miss Gostrey and he now seemed like the Babes in the Wood; they could rely on the kind forces of nature to allow them to remain undisturbed. He already knew he was good at putting things off, but as soon as he got back into that rhythm, he felt its appealing nature. It entertained him to think that he could just as easily be preparing to die—dying peacefully; the scene was infused with a profound silence of impending death, a bittersweet charm. This meant postponing everything else, creating a calm progression in life; especially delaying the reckoning to come—unless that reckoning was simply the same as extinction. He could feel the reckoning looming, overshadowed by many experiences—experiences that also faced him; and he would likely reach it through these corridors of Kubla Khan. It was actually looming behind everything; it hadn’t faded into what he’d done; his full understanding of his actions—his understanding in the moment—would give it its defining clarity. The moment so focused was, of course, Woollett, and he was to see, at best, what Woollett would be like with everything altered for him. Wouldn’t that revelation practically wrap up his career? Well, the end of summer would reveal that; his uncertainty, in the meantime, had the delightful quality of pointless delay; and he had, we should mention, other distractions besides Maria’s company—lots of separate reflections where his luxury only failed him at one point. He was safely docked, the open sea behind him, and it was merely a matter of getting ashore. However, there was a question that came and went for him while he leaned against the side of his ship, and he extended his hours with Miss Gostrey partly to shake off the obsession. It was a question about himself, which could only be resolved by seeing Chad again; that was indeed his main reason for wanting to see Chad. After that, it wouldn’t matter—it was a ghost that certain words could easily lay to rest. But the young man needed to be there to hear those words. Once spoken, he wouldn’t have any questions left; none, that is, related to this particular situation. It wouldn’t even concern him that he might now have been guilty of speaking because of what he had lost. That was the essence of his ultimate hesitation—he wanted to ensure his losses were not part of the equation. He didn’t want to act out of loss, resentment, sadness, being wronged, or desperation; he wanted to do everything because he was clear-headed and calm, just the same as he had ever been on all important matters. So while he was essentially waiting for Chad, he silently reminded himself: “You’ve been dumped, old boy; but what does that matter?” It would have nauseated him to feel vengeful.
These tints of feeling indeed were doubtless but the iridescence of his idleness, and they were presently lost in a new light from Maria. She had a fresh fact for him before the week was out, and she practically met him with it on his appearing one night. He hadn’t on this day seen her, but had planned presenting himself in due course to ask her to dine with him somewhere out of doors, on one of the terraces, in one of the gardens, of which the Paris of summer was profuse. It had then come on to rain, so that, disconcerted, he changed his mind; dining alone at home, a little stuffily and stupidly, and waiting on her afterwards to make up his loss. He was sure within a minute that something had happened; it was so in the air of the rich little room that he had scarcely to name his thought. Softly lighted, the whole colour of the place, with its vague values, was in cool fusion—an effect that made the visitor stand for a little agaze. It was as if in doing so now he had felt a recent presence—his recognition of the passage of which his hostess in turn divined. She had scarcely to say it—“Yes, she has been here, and this time I received her.” It wasn’t till a minute later that she added: “There being, as I understand you, no reason now—!”
These feelings were probably just the result of his boredom, and they quickly faded in the new light brought by Maria. She had some fresh news for him before the week ended, and she practically confronted him with it one night when he arrived. He hadn’t seen her that day but had planned to invite her to dinner outdoors, on one of the terraces or in one of the gardens that summer in Paris offered so generously. But then it started to rain, so he changed his mind and ended up dining alone at home, feeling a bit stuffy and foolish, and waiting to see her afterward to make up for it. He was certain within a minute that something had changed; the atmosphere in the cozy little room hinted at it without him even needing to say anything. The soft lighting and the room's blended colors created a cool, harmonious effect that made him pause and take it all in. It felt like he sensed a recent presence—something his hostess also sensed. She barely had to mention it—“Yes, she has been here, and I saw her this time.” It wasn’t until a moment later that she added, “There being, as I understand it, no reason now—!”
“None for your refusing?”
"None for you to refuse?"
“No—if you’ve done what you’ve had to do.”
“No—if you’ve done what you needed to do.”
“I’ve certainly so far done it,” Strether said, “as that you needn’t fear the effect, or the appearance of coming between us. There’s nothing between us now but what we ourselves have put there, and not an inch of room for anything else whatever. Therefore you’re only beautifully with us as always—though doubtless now, if she has talked to you, rather more with us than less. Of course if she came,” he added, “it was to talk to you.”
“I’ve definitely done that so far,” Strether said, “so you don’t have to worry about how it might affect us or give the impression that you’re coming between us. There’s nothing between us now except what we’ve created ourselves, and there’s no space for anything else. So you’re just beautifully with us as always—though I’m sure now, if she’s spoken to you, you’re even more with us than before. Of course, if she came,” he added, “it was to talk to you.”
“It was to talk to me,” Maria returned; on which he was further sure that she was practically in possession of what he himself hadn’t yet told her. He was even sure she was in possession of things he himself couldn’t have told; for the consciousness of them was now all in her face and accompanied there with a shade of sadness that marked in her the close of all uncertainties. It came out for him more than ever yet that she had had from the first a knowledge she believed him not to have had, a knowledge the sharp acquisition of which might be destined to make a difference for him. The difference for him might not inconceivably be an arrest of his independence and a change in his attitude—in other words a revulsion in favour of the principles of Woollett. She had really prefigured the possibility of a shock that would send him swinging back to Mrs. Newsome. He hadn’t, it was true, week after week, shown signs of receiving it, but the possibility had been none the less in the air. What Maria accordingly had had now to take in was that the shock had descended and that he hadn’t, all the same, swung back. He had grown clear, in a flash, on a point long since settled for herself; but no reapproximation to Mrs. Newsome had occurred in consequence. Madame de Vionnet had by her visit held up the torch to these truths, and what now lingered in poor Maria’s face was the somewhat smoky light of the scene between them. If the light however wasn’t, as we have hinted, the glow of joy, the reasons for this also were perhaps discernible to Strether even through the blur cast over them by his natural modesty. She had held herself for months with a firm hand; she hadn’t interfered on any chance—and chances were specious enough—that she might interfere to her profit. She had turned her back on the dream that Mrs. Newsome’s rupture, their friend’s forfeiture—the engagement, the relation itself, broken beyond all mending—might furnish forth her advantage; and, to stay her hand from promoting these things, she had on private, difficult, but rigid, lines, played strictly fair. She couldn’t therefore but feel that, though, as the end of all, the facts in question had been stoutly confirmed, her ground for personal, for what might have been called interested, elation remained rather vague. Strether might easily have made out that she had been asking herself, in the hours she had just sat through, if there were still for her, or were only not, a fair shade of uncertainty. Let us hasten to add, however, that what he at first made out on this occasion he also at first kept to himself. He only asked what in particular Madame de Vionnet had come for, and as to this his companion was ready.
“It was to talk to me,” Maria said in reply; by this, he became even more certain that she was practically aware of what he hadn’t yet revealed to her. He was even convinced she knew things he couldn’t have told her; the awareness of them was now all visible in her expression, accompanied by a hint of sadness that marked the end of all uncertainties for her. It had become clearer than ever that she had always had a knowledge she believed he didn’t possess, a knowledge that might significantly change things for him. This change could conceivably mean a halt to his independence and a shift in his perspective—in other words, a reversal in favor of the principles of Woollett. She had really anticipated the possibility of a shock that would pull him back to Mrs. Newsome. It was true he hadn’t shown signs of receiving such a shock, week after week, but the possibility had nonetheless lingered in the air. What Maria now had to realize was that the shock had indeed hit, yet he hadn’t swung back. He had, in an instant, clarified a point long settled for her; however, no reconnection with Mrs. Newsome had occurred as a result. Madame de Vionnet had illuminated these truths with her visit, and what remained in poor Maria’s face was the somewhat dim light of the encounter between them. If the light wasn’t the glow of joy, the reasons for this were perhaps discernible to Strether even through the haze cast over them by his natural modesty. She had held herself firmly for months; she hadn’t acted on any of the chances—though those chances were tempting enough—that might have brought her some gain. She had turned her back on the dream that Mrs. Newsome’s breakup—the loss of their friend—the engagement, the relationship itself, could somehow benefit her; and to keep herself from promoting those outcomes, she had played straight. Therefore, she couldn’t help but feel that, although the facts in question had been firmly confirmed, her reasons for personal, or what might be considered selfish, satisfaction remained somewhat unclear. Strether might easily have figured out that she had been asking herself, during the hours she had just spent, if there was still, or if there simply wasn’t, a reasonable degree of uncertainty for her. However, let us quickly add that what he initially perceived on this occasion, he also initially kept to himself. He only asked what exactly Madame de Vionnet had come for, and his companion was prepared to answer.
“She wants tidings of Mr. Newsome, whom she appears not to have seen for some days.”
“She wants to hear from Mr. Newsome, whom she seems to have not seen for a few days.”
“Then she hasn’t been away with him again?”
“Then she hasn’t gone away with him again?”
“She seemed to think,” Maria answered, “that he might have gone away with you.”
“She seemed to think,” Maria replied, “that he might have left with you.”
“And did you tell her I know nothing of him?”
“Did you tell her that I don’t know anything about him?”
She had her indulgent headshake. “I’ve known nothing of what you know. I could only tell her I’d ask you.”
She shook her head in disbelief. “I don’t know anything about what you know. I could only tell her I’d ask you.”
“Then I’ve not seen him for a week—and of course I’ve wondered.” His wonderment showed at this moment as sharper, but he presently went on. “Still, I dare say I can put my hand on him. Did she strike you,” he asked, “as anxious?”
“Then I haven't seen him for a week—and of course I've been wondering.” His curiosity was evident at that moment, but he continued on. “Still, I think I can track him down. Did she seem,” he asked, “worried?”
“She’s always anxious.”
"She’s always on edge."
“After all I’ve done for her?” And he had one of the last flickers of his occasional mild mirth. “To think that was just what I came out to prevent!”
“After everything I’ve done for her?” And he had one of the last hints of his occasional mild humor. “To think that was exactly what I came out to stop!”
She took it up but to reply. “You don’t regard him then as safe?”
She picked it up just to respond. “So you don’t think he’s safe?”
“I was just going to ask you how in that respect you regard Madame de Vionnet.”
“I was just about to ask you what you think of Madame de Vionnet in that regard.”
She looked at him a little. “What woman was ever safe? She told me,” she added—and it was as if at the touch of the connexion—“of your extraordinary meeting in the country. After that à quoi se fier?”
She glanced at him briefly. “What woman has ever been safe? She told me,” she continued—and it felt like at the moment of connection—“about your unusual meeting in the countryside. After that, what can one rely on?”
“It was, as an accident, in all the possible or impossible chapter,” Strether conceded, “amazing enough. But still, but still—!”
“It was, by chance, in all the possible or impossible chapter,” Strether admitted, “pretty amazing. But still, but still—!”
“But still she didn’t mind?”
“But still, she didn’t care?”
“She doesn’t mind anything.”
“She doesn’t care about anything.”
“Well, then, as you don’t either, we may all sink to rest!”
“Well, since you don’t either, we can all just go to sleep!”
He appeared to agree with her, but he had his reservation. “I do mind Chad’s disappearance.”
He seemed to agree with her, but he had his doubts. “I do care about Chad’s disappearance.”
“Oh you’ll get him back. But now you know,” she said, “why I went to Mentone.” He had sufficiently let her see that he had by this time gathered things together, but there was nature in her wish to make them clearer still. “I didn’t want you to put it to me.”
“Oh, you’ll get him back. But now you understand,” she said, “why I went to Mentone.” He had clearly shown her that he had figured things out by now, but she naturally wanted to clarify things even more. “I didn’t want you to bring it up.”
“To put it to you—?”
"Can I ask you—?"
“The question of what you were at last—a week ago—to see for yourself. I didn’t want to have to lie for her. I felt that to be too much for me. A man of course is always expected to do it—to do it, I mean, for a woman; but not a woman for another woman; unless perhaps on the tit-for-tat principle, as an indirect way of protecting herself. I don’t need protection, so that I was free to ‘funk’ you—simply to dodge your test. The responsibility was too much for me. I gained time, and when I came back the need of a test had blown over.”
"The question is what you were really here for—a week ago—to see for yourself. I didn’t want to lie for her. That felt like too much for me. A guy is always expected to do that—for a woman, I mean; but not a woman for another woman; unless maybe it’s to protect herself in some way. I don’t need protection, so I was free to avoid you—just to skip your test. The responsibility felt like too much for me. I bought myself some time, and by the time I returned, the need for a test had faded."
Strether thought of it serenely. “Yes; when you came back little Bilham had shown me what’s expected of a gentleman. Little Bilham had lied like one.”
Strether thought about it calmly. “Yes; when you returned, little Bilham had shown me what a gentleman is expected to be. Little Bilham had lied like one.”
“And like what you believed him?”
“And so, did you believe him?”
“Well,” said Strether, “it was but a technical lie—he classed the attachment as virtuous. That was a view for which there was much to be said—and the virtue came out for me hugely There was of course a great deal of it. I got it full in the face, and I haven’t, you see, done with it yet.”
“Well,” said Strether, “it was just a technical lie—he considered the attachment as virtuous. That was a perspective that had a lot of merit—and the virtue really stood out to me. There was, of course, a lot of it. I got hit with it hard, and I haven’t, as you can see, finished dealing with it yet.”
“What I see, what I saw,” Maria returned, “is that you dressed up even the virtue. You were wonderful—you were beautiful, as I’ve had the honour of telling you before; but, if you wish really to know,” she sadly confessed, “I never quite knew where you were. There were moments,” she explained, “when you struck me as grandly cynical; there were others when you struck me as grandly vague.”
“What I see, what I saw,” Maria replied, “is that you even dressed up virtue. You were amazing—you were beautiful, as I’ve had the honor of telling you before; but, if you really want to know,” she sadly admitted, “I never quite knew where you stood. There were times,” she explained, “when you seemed incredibly cynical; there were other times when you seemed incredibly vague.”
Her friend considered. “I had phases. I had flights.”
Her friend thought about it. “I went through phases. I had my ups and downs.”
“Yes, but things must have a basis.”
“Yes, but everything needs to be based on something.”
“A basis seemed to me just what her beauty supplied.”
"A foundation seemed to me just what her beauty provided."
“Her beauty of person?”
"Her beauty?"
“Well, her beauty of everything. The impression she makes. She has such variety and yet such harmony.”
“Well, her beauty is everything. The impression she makes is unforgettable. She has so much variety and yet so much harmony.”
She considered him with one of her deep returns of indulgence—returns out of all proportion to the irritations they flooded over. “You’re complete.”
She looked at him with one of her deep moments of kindness—moments that far outweighed the annoyances they brought. “You’re whole.”
“You’re always too personal,” he good-humouredly said; “but that’s precisely how I wondered and wandered.”
“You're always too personal,” he said with a smile; “but that's exactly how I thought and explored.”
“If you mean,” she went on, “that she was from the first for you the most charming woman in the world, nothing’s more simple. Only that was an odd foundation.”
“If you mean,” she continued, “that from the start she was the most charming woman in the world for you, that’s easy to say. But that was a strange basis to build on.”
“For what I reared on it?”
“For what did I raise it for?”
“For what you didn’t!”
"For what you didn't do!"
“Well, it was all not a fixed quantity. And it had for me—it has still—such elements of strangeness. Her greater age than his, her different world, traditions, association; her other opportunities, liabilities, standards.”
"Well, it wasn’t all set in stone. And it had for me—it still has—such elements of oddity. Her being older than him, her different background, traditions, connections; her unique opportunities, burdens, standards."
His friend listened with respect to his enumeration of these disparities; then she disposed of them at a stroke. “Those things are nothing when a woman’s hit. It’s very awful. She was hit.”
His friend listened respectfully as he listed these differences; then she dismissed them in an instant. “Those things don’t matter when a woman is hurt. It’s really terrible. She was hurt.”
Strether, on his side, did justice to that plea. “Oh of course I saw she was hit. That she was hit was what we were busy with; that she was hit was our great affair. But somehow I couldn’t think of her as down in the dust. And as put there by our little Chad!”
Strether, for his part, acknowledged that request. “Oh, of course I noticed she was hurt. The fact that she was hurt was what we were focused on; it was our main concern. But somehow I just couldn’t picture her as being down in the dirt. And as if it was caused by our little Chad!”
“Yet wasn’t ‘your’ little Chad just your miracle?”
“Wasn't ‘your’ little Chad just your miracle?”
Strether admitted it. “Of course I moved among miracles. It was all phantasmagoric. But the great fact was that so much of it was none of my business—as I saw my business. It isn’t even now.”
Strether admitted it. “Of course I was surrounded by incredible things. It all felt like a dream. But the important thing was that so much of it had nothing to do with me—as I saw it. It still doesn't.”
His companion turned away on this, and it might well have been yet again with the sharpness of a fear of how little his philosophy could bring her personally. “I wish she could hear you!”
His companion turned away at this, and it might have been once again with the sting of fear over how little his philosophy could actually mean to her. “I wish she could hear you!”
“Mrs. Newsome?”
“Ms. Newsome?”
“No—not Mrs. Newsome; since I understand you that it doesn’t matter now what Mrs. Newsome hears. Hasn’t she heard everything?”
“No—not Mrs. Newsome; because I get that it doesn’t matter now what Mrs. Newsome finds out. Hasn’t she heard everything?”
“Practically—yes.” He had thought a moment, but he went on. “You wish Madame de Vionnet could hear me?”
“Basically—yes.” He paused for a moment, but then continued. “Do you want Madame de Vionnet to hear me?”
“Madame de Vionnet.” She had come back to him. “She thinks just the contrary of what you say. That you distinctly judge her.”
“Madame de Vionnet.” She had returned to him. “She feels the exact opposite of what you think. That you clearly judge her.”
He turned over the scene as the two women thus placed together for him seemed to give it. “She might have known—!”
He considered the scene, as the two women together seemed to present it to him. “She should have known—!”
“Might have known you don’t?” Miss Gostrey asked as he let it drop. “She was sure of it at first,” she pursued as he said nothing; “she took it for granted, at least, as any woman in her position would. But after that she changed her mind; she believed you believed—”
“Might have guessed you don’t?” Miss Gostrey asked as he let it go. “She was sure of it at first,” she continued when he didn’t say anything; “she assumed it, at least, like any woman in her situation would. But then she changed her mind; she thought you believed—”
“Well?”—he was curious.
"Well?"—he was intrigued.
“Why in her sublimity. And that belief had remained with her, I make out, till the accident of the other day opened your eyes. For that it did,” said Maria, “open them—”
“Why in her greatness. And that belief had stayed with her, I can see, until the incident the other day showed you the truth. And it did,” said Maria, “show you—”
“She can’t help”—he had taken it up—“being aware? No,” he mused; “I suppose she thinks of that even yet.”
“She can’t help”—he had picked it up—“being aware? No,” he thought; “I guess she still thinks about that.”
“Then they were closed? There you are! However, if you see her as the most charming woman in the world it comes to the same thing. And if you’d like me to tell her that you do still so see her—!” Miss Gostrey, in short, offered herself for service to the end.
“Then they were closed? There you go! But if you think of her as the most charming woman in the world, it’s the same deal. And if you want me to tell her that you still see her that way—!” Miss Gostrey, in short, was putting herself at your service until the end.
It was an offer he could temporarily entertain; but he decided. “She knows perfectly how I see her.”
It was an offer he could think about for a while, but he made up his mind. “She knows exactly how I feel about her.”
“Not favourably enough, she mentioned to me, to wish ever to see her again. She told me you had taken a final leave of her. She says you’ve done with her.”
“Not in a way that makes her want to see you again. She told me you’ve said your final goodbyes to her. She says you’re done with her.”
“So I have.”
"Yep, I have."
Maria had a pause; then she spoke as if for conscience. “She wouldn’t have done with you. She feels she has lost you—yet that she might have been better for you.”
Maria hesitated for a moment; then she spoke as if addressing her conscience. “She wouldn’t have ended things with you. She feels like she’s lost you—yet believes she could have been better because of you.”
“Oh she has been quite good enough!” Strether laughed.
“Oh, she has been more than good enough!” Strether laughed.
“She thinks you and she might at any rate have been friends.”
“She thinks that you and she could have been friends, at least.”
“We might certainly. That’s just”—he continued to laugh—“why I’m going.”
“We definitely might. That’s just”—he kept laughing—“why I’m going.”
It was as if Maria could feel with this then at last that she had done her best for each. But she had still an idea. “Shall I tell her that?”
It was as if Maria could finally feel that she had done her best for each of them. But she still had an idea. “Should I tell her that?”
“No. Tell her nothing.”
“No. Don’t tell her anything.”
“Very well then.” To which in the next breath Miss Gostrey added: “Poor dear thing!”
“Okay then.” In the next moment, Miss Gostrey added: “Poor dear thing!”
Her friend wondered; then with raised eyebrows: “Me?”
Her friend was surprised and raised her eyebrows, saying, “Me?”
“Oh no. Marie de Vionnet.”
“Oh no. Marie de Vionnet.”
He accepted the correction, but he wondered still. “Are you so sorry for her as that?”
He accepted the correction, but he was still curious. “Are you really that sorry for her?”
It made her think a moment—made her even speak with a smile. But she didn’t really retract. “I’m sorry for us all!”
It made her think for a moment—made her even respond with a smile. But she didn’t truly take it back. “I’m sorry for all of us!”
IV
He was to delay no longer to re-establish communication with Chad, and we have just seen that he had spoken to Miss Gostrey of this intention on hearing from her of the young man’s absence. It was not moreover only the assurance so given that prompted him; it was the need of causing his conduct to square with another profession still—the motive he had described to her as his sharpest for now getting away. If he was to get away because of some of the relations involved in staying, the cold attitude toward them might look pedantic in the light of lingering on. He must do both things; he must see Chad, but he must go. The more he thought of the former of these duties the more he felt himself make a subject of insistence of the latter. They were alike intensely present to him as he sat in front of a quiet little café into which he had dropped on quitting Maria’s entresol. The rain that had spoiled his evening with her was over; for it was still to him as if his evening had been spoiled—though it mightn’t have been wholly the rain. It was late when he left the café, yet not too late; he couldn’t in any case go straight to bed, and he would walk round by the Boulevard Malesherbes—rather far round—on his way home. Present enough always was the small circumstance that had originally pressed for him the spring of so big a difference—the accident of little Bilham’s appearance on the balcony of the mystic troisième at the moment of his first visit, and the effect of it on his sense of what was then before him. He recalled his watch, his wait, and the recognition that had proceeded from the young stranger, that had played frankly into the air and had presently brought him up—things smoothing the way for his first straight step. He had since had occasion, a few times, to pass the house without going in; but he had never passed it without again feeling how it had then spoken to him. He stopped short to-night on coming to sight of it: it was as if his last day were oddly copying his first. The windows of Chad’s apartment were open to the balcony—a pair of them lighted; and a figure that had come out and taken up little Bilham’s attitude, a figure whose cigarette-spark he could see leaned on the rail and looked down at him. It denoted however no reappearance of his younger friend; it quickly defined itself in the tempered darkness as Chad’s more solid shape; so that Chad’s was the attention that after he had stepped forward into the street and signalled, he easily engaged; Chad’s was the voice that, sounding into the night with promptness and seemingly with joy, greeted him and called him up.
He could no longer wait to reconnect with Chad, and we just saw that he mentioned this plan to Miss Gostrey after hearing about the young man's absence. It wasn't just her reassurance that motivated him; he needed his actions to align with another point he had shared with her as his strongest reason for wanting to leave. If he was leaving because of the complicated relationships tied to staying, then his distant attitude towards them would seem pretentious if he lingered. He had to do both things; he had to see Chad, but he also had to leave. The more he considered the first task, the more it emphasized the urgency of the second. Both were intensely on his mind as he sat in front of a quiet little café where he had stopped after leaving Maria’s apartment. The rain that had ruined his evening with her was gone; it still felt to him like his evening had been spoiled—though it might not have been entirely the rain’s fault. It was late when he left the café, but not too late; he couldn’t just go straight to bed anyway, so he decided to take a longer route home via the Boulevard Malesherbes. Always present was the small detail that had initially pressed upon him the shift of such a significant difference—the chance appearance of little Bilham on the balcony of the mysterious third floor during his first visit, and the effect it had on his perception of the moment. He recalled his watch, the wait, and the acknowledgment from the young stranger that had hung in the air and had quickly brought him to a point—elements smoothing the path for his first straightforward step. Since then, he had had a few opportunities to pass the building without going inside; however, he had never passed it without feeling once more how it had called to him. Tonight, he stopped abruptly when he saw it: it was as if his last day was oddly imitating his first. The windows of Chad’s apartment were open to the balcony—two of them lit; and a figure that had emerged and taken on little Bilham’s stance, whose cigarette glow he could see, leaned on the railing and looked down at him. Yet, it was not a reappearance of his younger friend; it quickly emerged into the soft darkness as Chad’s more substantial shape. So it was Chad’s attention that he easily commanded after stepping into the street and signaling; Chad’s voice, sounding into the night with eagerness and seemingly joy, greeted him and called him up.
That the young man had been visible there just in this position expressed somehow for Strether that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, he had been absent and silent; and our friend drew breath on each landing—the lift, at that hour, having ceased to work—before the implications of the fact. He had been for a week intensely away, away to a distance and alone; but he was more back than ever, and the attitude in which Strether had surprised him was something more than a return—it was clearly a conscious surrender. He had arrived but an hour before, from London, from Lucerne, from Homburg, from no matter where—though the visitor’s fancy, on the staircase, liked to fill it out; and after a bath, a talk with Baptiste and a supper of light cold clever French things, which one could see the remains of there in the circle of the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, he had come into the air again for a smoke, was occupied at the moment of Strether’s approach in what might have been called taking up his life afresh. His life, his life!—Strether paused anew, on the last flight, at this final rather breathless sense of what Chad’s life was doing with Chad’s mother’s emissary. It was dragging him, at strange hours, up the staircases of the rich; it was keeping him out of bed at the end of long hot days; it was transforming beyond recognition the simple, subtle, conveniently uniform thing that had anciently passed with him for a life of his own. Why should it concern him that Chad was to be fortified in the pleasant practice of smoking on balconies, of supping on salads, of feeling his special conditions agreeably reaffirm themselves, of finding reassurance in comparisons and contrasts? There was no answer to such a question but that he was still practically committed—he had perhaps never yet so much known it. It made him feel old, and he would buy his railway-ticket—feeling, no doubt, older—the next day; but he had meanwhile come up four flights, counting the entresol, at midnight and without a lift, for Chad’s life. The young man, hearing him by this time, and with Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so that Strether had before him in full visibility the cause in which he was labouring and even, with the troisième fairly gained, panting a little.
The fact that the young man had been visible there in that spot somehow made Strether realize that, as Maria Gostrey had reported, he had been absent and quiet; and our friend took a breath on each landing—since the lift had stopped working at that hour—before processing what this meant. He had been intensely away for a week, far off and alone; but he was more present than ever, and the way Strether found him was more than just a return—it was clearly a conscious giving in. He had arrived only an hour earlier, from London, Lucerne, Homburg, or somewhere else—though Strether liked to fill in those details in his mind as he climbed the staircase. After taking a bath, having a chat with Baptiste, and eating some light, clever French dishes, which were still visible in the circle of the lamp, pretty and ultra-Parisian, he had stepped out for a smoke, busy at the moment of Strether’s arrival in what might have been called starting his life over. His life, his life!—Strether paused again on the final flight, feeling that breathless sensation of what Chad’s life was doing to Chad’s mother’s representative. It was dragging him, at odd hours, up the staircases of the wealthy; it was keeping him up at the end of long, hot days; it was transforming beyond recognition the simple, subtle, conveniently uniform life that had once comfortably belonged to him. Why should it matter to him that Chad was getting used to smoking on balconies, having salads for dinner, feeling reassured by familiar comforts, and finding solace in comparisons and contrasts? The only answer to that question was that he was still practically involved—perhaps he had never fully realized it before. It made him feel old, and he would buy his train ticket—feeling undoubtedly older—the next day; but for now, he had climbed four flights, counting the entresol, at midnight without a lift, for Chad’s life. The young man, by this point aware of his presence and with Baptiste sent to rest, was already at the door; so Strether had in front of him the very cause he was working for, even panting a little after making it to the third floor.
Chad offered him, as always, a welcome in which the cordial and the formal—so far as the formal was the respectful—handsomely met; and after he had expressed a hope that he would let him put him up for the night Strether was in full possession of the key, as it might have been called, to what had lately happened. If he had just thought of himself as old Chad was at sight of him thinking of him as older: he wanted to put him up for the night just because he was ancient and weary. It could never be said the tenant of these quarters wasn’t nice to him; a tenant who, if he might indeed now keep him, was probably prepared to work it all still more thoroughly. Our friend had in fact the impression that with the minimum of encouragement Chad would propose to keep him indefinitely; an impression in the lap of which one of his own possibilities seemed to sit. Madame de Vionnet had wished him to stay—so why didn’t that happily fit? He could enshrine himself for the rest of his days in his young host’s chambre d’ami and draw out these days at his young host’s expense: there could scarce be greater logical expression of the countenance he had been moved to give. There was literally a minute—it was strange enough—during which he grasped the idea that as he was acting, as he could only act, he was inconsistent. The sign that the inward forces he had obeyed really hung together would be that—in default always of another career—he should promote the good cause by mounting guard on it. These things, during his first minutes, came and went; but they were after all practically disposed of as soon as he had mentioned his errand. He had come to say good-bye—yet that was only a part; so that from the moment Chad accepted his farewell the question of a more ideal affirmation gave way to something else. He proceeded with the rest of his business. “You’ll be a brute, you know—you’ll be guilty of the last infamy—if you ever forsake her.”
Chad welcomed him as always, with a blend of warmth and formality—formal only in the sense of being respectful—and once he expressed his hope of hosting him for the night, Strether felt he had the key to what had recently transpired. If he had considered himself old, as Chad seemed to see him as even older, it was no surprise that Chad wanted to offer him shelter simply because he was tired and worn out. It could never be said that the occupant of this place wasn’t kind to him; a tenant who, if he could indeed keep him around, was probably ready to take it further. Our friend felt that with just a little encouragement, Chad would suggest keeping him indefinitely; this feeling hinted at one of his own possibilities. Madame de Vionnet had wanted him to stay—so why didn’t that perfectly align? He could settle into his young host’s guest room and stretch out his days at Chad’s expense: it was hardly a greater logical expression of the sentiment he had been inspired to feel. There was literally a moment—it was quite odd—where he realized that in his actions, the way he was managing things, he was being inconsistent. The sign that the internal motivations he had followed truly made sense would be that—unless he found another path—he would support the good cause by standing watch over it. These thoughts came and went in the first few minutes, but they were mostly resolved once he mentioned his reason for being there. He had come to say goodbye—but that was only part of it; so from the moment Chad accepted his farewell, the question of a more ideal affirmation shifted to something else. He continued with the rest of his business. “You’ll be a jerk, you know—you’ll be guilty of the worst betrayal—if you ever abandon her.”
That, uttered there at the solemn hour, uttered in the place that was full of her influence, was the rest of his business; and when once he had heard himself say it he felt that his message had never before been spoken. It placed his present call immediately on solid ground, and the effect of it was to enable him quite to play with what we have called the key. Chad showed no shade of embarrassment, but had none the less been troubled for him after their meeting in the country; had had fears and doubts on the subject of his comfort. He was disturbed, as it were, only for him, and had positively gone away to ease him off, to let him down—if it wasn’t indeed rather to screw him up—the more gently. Seeing him now fairly jaded he had come, with characteristic good humour, all the way to meet him, and what Strether thereupon supremely made out was that he would abound for him to the end in conscientious assurances. This was what was between them while the visitor remained; so far from having to go over old ground he found his entertainer keen to agree to everything. It couldn’t be put too strongly for him that he’d be a brute. “Oh rather!—if I should do anything of that sort. I hope you believe I really feel it.”
That, said there at the serious moment, stated in a place filled with her influence, was the final part of his business; and once he heard himself say it, he felt like his message had never been delivered before. It solidified his current purpose, and it allowed him to handle what we’ve referred to as the key. Chad didn’t show any sign of embarrassment, but he was still worried about him after their meeting in the countryside; he had concerns and doubts about his comfort. He was disturbed, so to speak, only for him, and had actually set out to ease his mind, to let him down—if it wasn’t really to motivate him—the more gently. Seeing him now visibly exhausted, he had come, with his usual good humor, all the way to meet him, and what Strether ultimately noticed was that he would wholeheartedly offer him genuine reassurances until the end. This was the dynamic between them while the visitor stayed; rather than going over old topics, he found his host eager to agree with everything. It couldn’t be emphasized enough that he’d be cruel. “Oh, definitely!—if I were to do anything of that kind. I hope you believe that I really mean it.”
“I want it,” said Strether, “to be my last word of all to you. I can’t say more, you know; and I don’t see how I can do more, in every way, than I’ve done.”
“I want it,” said Strether, “to be my final word to you. I can’t say any more, you know; and I don’t see how I can do anything more, in every way, than what I’ve done.”
Chad took this, almost artlessly, as a direct allusion. “You’ve seen her?”
Chad took this, almost casually, as a direct reference. “You’ve seen her?”
“Oh yes—to say good-bye. And if I had doubted the truth of what I tell you—”
“Oh yes—to say goodbye. And if I had questioned the truth of what I tell you—”
“She’d have cleared up your doubt?” Chad understood—“rather”—again! It even kept him briefly silent. But he made that up. “She must have been wonderful.”
“She would have resolved your doubt?” Chad understood—“definitely”—again! It even left him briefly speechless. But he recovered from that. “She must have been amazing.”
“She was,” Strether candidly admitted—all of which practically told as a reference to the conditions created by the accident of the previous week.
“She was,” Strether honestly admitted—all of which practically referred to the circumstances brought about by the accident from the week before.
They appeared for a little to be looking back at it; and that came out still more in what Chad next said. “I don’t know what you’ve really thought, all along; I never did know—for anything, with you, seemed to be possible. But of course—of course—” Without confusion, quite with nothing but indulgence, he broke down, he pulled up. “After all, you understand. I spoke to you originally only as I had to speak. There’s only one way—isn’t there?—about such things. However,” he smiled with a final philosophy, “I see it’s all right.”
They seemed to look back at it for a moment, and that became clearer in what Chad said next. “I don’t know what you’ve really thought all along; I never did know—because anything with you seemed possible. But of course—of course—” Without any confusion, just with a sense of indulgence, he broke down and pulled himself together. “After all, you understand. I originally spoke to you only as I had to speak. There’s really only one way, isn’t there?—about these things. However,” he smiled with a calm understanding, “I see it’s all okay.”
Strether met his eyes with a sense of multiplying thoughts. What was it that made him at present, late at night and after journeys, so renewedly, so substantially young? Strether saw in a moment what it was—it was that he was younger again than Madame de Vionnet. He himself said immediately none of the things that he was thinking; he said something quite different. “You have really been to a distance?”
Strether met his eyes with a rush of thoughts. What was it that made him feel so refreshingly and significantly young at this late hour, after all his travels? In an instant, Strether realized what it was—it was that he was younger than Madame de Vionnet. He didn't voice any of the thoughts swirling in his mind; instead, he said something completely different. “You have really been far away?”
“I’ve been to England.” Chad spoke cheerfully and promptly, but gave no further account of it than to say: “One must sometimes get off.”
“I’ve been to England.” Chad said cheerfully and quickly, but he didn’t elaborate beyond saying, “Sometimes you just have to get away.”
Strether wanted no more facts—he only wanted to justify, as it were, his question. “Of course you do as you’re free to do. But I hope, this time, that you didn’t go for me.”
Strether didn't want any more facts—he just wanted to justify his question. “Of course you can do whatever you want. But I hope, this time, that you didn't do it for me.”
“For very shame at bothering you really too much? My dear man,” Chad laughed, “what wouldn’t I do for you?”
“For feeling really embarrassed about bothering you too much? My dear man,” Chad laughed, “what wouldn’t I do for you?”
Strether’s easy answer for this was that it was a disposition he had exactly come to profit by. “Even at the risk of being in your way I’ve waited on, you know, for a definite reason.”
Strether’s straightforward response to this was that it was an attitude he had specifically learned to benefit from. “Even at the risk of being a bother, I’ve stuck around, you know, for a specific reason.”
Chad took it in. “Oh yes—for us to make if possible a still better impression.” And he stood there happily exhaling his full general consciousness. “I’m delighted to gather that you feel we’ve made it.”
Chad absorbed it all. “Oh yes—to make an even better impression if we can.” And he stood there, happily sharing his complete awareness. “I’m thrilled to hear you think we’ve done it.”
There was a pleasant irony in the words, which his guest, preoccupied and keeping to the point, didn’t take up. “If I had my sense of wanting the rest of the time—the time of their being still on this side,” he continued to explain—“I know now why I wanted it.”
There was a nice irony in the words, which his guest, focused and sticking to the point, didn’t acknowledge. “If I had my desire for the rest of the time—the time when they were still here,” he went on to explain—“I understand now why I wanted it.”
He was as grave, as distinct, as a demonstrator before a blackboard, and Chad continued to face him like an intelligent pupil. “You wanted to have been put through the whole thing.”
He was as serious and clear as a teacher standing in front of a blackboard, and Chad kept looking at him like a smart student. “You wanted to go through the entire process.”
Strether again, for a moment, said nothing; he turned his eyes away, and they lost themselves, through the open window, in the dusky outer air. “I shall learn from the Bank here where they’re now having their letters, and my last word, which I shall write in the morning and which they’re expecting as my ultimatum, will so immediately reach them.” The light of his plural pronoun was sufficiently reflected in his companion’s face as he again met it; and he completed his demonstration. He pursued indeed as if for himself. “Of course I’ve first to justify what I shall do.”
Strether paused for a moment, not saying anything; he looked away, letting his gaze drift through the open window into the dim outside air. “I’ll find out from the Bank where they’re currently sending their letters, and my final message, which I’ll write in the morning and which they’re expecting as my ultimate decision, will reach them right away.” His use of the plural pronoun was clearly reflected in his companion’s expression as he met their gaze again; then he concluded his point. He continued as if it were for himself. “Of course, I first need to justify what I’m going to do.”
“You’re justifying it beautifully!” Chad declared.
“You're justifying it perfectly!” Chad exclaimed.
“It’s not a question of advising you not to go,” Strether said, “but of absolutely preventing you, if possible, from so much as thinking of it. Let me accordingly appeal to you by all you hold sacred.”
“It’s not about advising you against going,” Strether said, “but about totally stopping you, if I can, from even considering it. So, let me appeal to everything you hold dear.”
Chad showed a surprise. “What makes you think me capable—?”
Chad looked surprised. “What makes you think I’m capable—?”
“You’d not only be, as I say, a brute; you’d be,” his companion went on in the same way, “a criminal of the deepest dye.”
“You wouldn’t just be, as I said, a savage; you’d be,” his companion continued in the same tone, “a criminal of the worst kind.”
Chad gave a sharper look, as if to gauge a possible suspicion. “I don’t know what should make you think I’m tired of her.”
Chad shot a more intense glance, as if trying to sense any suspicion. “I don’t know why you would think I’m tired of her.”
Strether didn’t quite know either, and such impressions, for the imaginative mind, were always too fine, too floating, to produce on the spot their warrant. There was none the less for him, in the very manner of his host’s allusion to satiety as a thinkable motive, a slight breath of the ominous. “I feel how much more she can do for you. She hasn’t done it all yet. Stay with her at least till she has.”
Strether wasn't sure either, and for an imaginative person, those feelings were always too subtle, too vague, to justify right away. Still, the way his host mentioned satiety as a possible motive gave him a hint of something ominous. “I can sense how much more she can offer you. She hasn’t given it all yet. Stay with her at least until she does.”
“And leave her then?”
“And leave her then?”
Chad had kept smiling, but its effect in Strether was a shade of dryness. “Don’t leave her before. When you’ve got all that can be got—I don’t say,” he added a trifle grimly. “That will be the proper time. But as, for you, from such a woman, there will always be something to be got, my remark’s not a wrong to her.” Chad let him go on, showing every decent deference, showing perhaps also a candid curiosity for this sharper accent. “I remember you, you know, as you were.”
Chad kept smiling, but it had a slightly dry effect on Strether. “Don’t leave her before. When you’ve gotten everything you can—I’m not saying,” he added a bit grimly. “That will be the right time. But since you can always get something from a woman like her, my comment isn’t unfair to her.” Chad let him continue, showing all the proper respect, and perhaps also a genuine curiosity about this sharper tone. “I remember you, you know, as you used to be.”
“An awful ass, wasn’t I?”
“I was such a jerk, right?”
The response was as prompt as if he had pressed a spring; it had a ready abundance at which he even winced; so that he took a moment to meet it. “You certainly then wouldn’t have seemed worth all you’ve let me in for. You’ve defined yourself better. Your value has quintupled.”
The response was as quick as if he had pressed a button; it came so easily that he even flinched, needing a moment to process it. “You definitely wouldn’t have seemed worth everything you’ve put me through. You’ve clarified yourself a lot better. Your value has increased five times.”
“Well then, wouldn’t that be enough—?”
"Well, wouldn't that be enough?"
Chad had risked it jocosely, but Strether remained blank. “Enough?”
Chad had jokingly taken a risk, but Strether looked unfazed. “Is that enough?”
“If one should wish to live on one’s accumulations?” After which, however, as his friend appeared cold to the joke, the young man as easily dropped it. “Of course I really never forget, night or day, what I owe her. I owe her everything. I give you my word of honour,” he frankly rang out, “that I’m not a bit tired of her.” Strether at this only gave him a stare: the way youth could express itself was again and again a wonder. He meant no harm, though he might after all be capable of much; yet he spoke of being “tired” of her almost as he might have spoken of being tired of roast mutton for dinner. “She has never for a moment yet bored me—never been wanting, as the cleverest women sometimes are, in tact. She has never talked about her tact—as even they too sometimes talk; but she has always had it. She has never had it more”—he handsomely made the point—“than just lately.” And he scrupulously went further. “She has never been anything I could call a burden.”
"If someone wants to live off their savings?" After that, though, when his friend didn’t seem to find the joke funny, the young man quickly let it go. "Honestly, I never forget, day or night, what I owe her. I owe her everything. I promise you,” he said earnestly, “that I’m not at all tired of her." Strether just stared at him: the way youth could express itself was always astonishing. He meant no harm, even if he might be capable of a lot; yet he talked about being “tired” of her as if he were discussing being tired of roast lamb for dinner. "She has never bored me for even a second—never lacked, as the smartest women sometimes do, in tact. She has never mentioned her tact—as even they sometimes do; but she has always had it. She has never had more of it”—he confidently made this point—“than just recently." And he went on, making it clear, "She has never been anything I could call a burden."
Strether for a moment said nothing; then he spoke gravely, with his shade of dryness deepened. “Oh if you didn’t do her justice—!”
Strether paused for a moment, then spoke seriously, with a hint of dryness in his tone. "Oh, if you didn't give her the credit she deserves—!"
“I should be a beast, eh?”
“I should be a beast, right?”
Strether devoted no time to saying what he would be; that, visibly, would take them far. If there was nothing for it but to repeat, however, repetition was no mistake. “You owe her everything—very much more than she can ever owe you. You’ve in other words duties to her, of the most positive sort; and I don’t see what other duties—as the others are presented to you—can be held to go before them.”
Strether didn't spend any time saying what he would be; that, clearly, would take them far. However, if it was necessary to repeat, then repetition was fine. “You owe her everything—much more than she can ever owe you. In other words, you have responsibilities to her, the most significant kind; and I don’t see what other responsibilities—as the others are presented to you—could possibly take priority over them.”
Chad looked at him with a smile. “And you know of course about the others, eh?—since it’s you yourself who have done the presenting.”
Chad smiled at him. “And you know about the others, right?—since you’re the one who made the presentation.”
“Much of it—yes—and to the best of my ability. But not all—from the moment your sister took my place.”
“Most of it—yes—and I’ve done my best. But not everything—from the moment your sister took my spot.”
“She didn’t,” Chad returned. “Sally took a place, certainly; but it was never, I saw from the first moment, to be yours. No one—with us—will ever take yours. It wouldn’t be possible.”
“She didn’t,” Chad replied. “Sally took a spot, for sure; but it was clear to me from the very first moment that it was never meant to be yours. No one—with us—will ever take yours. It wouldn’t be possible.”
“Ah of course,” sighed Strether, “I knew it. I believe you’re right. No one in the world, I imagine, was ever so portentously solemn. There I am,” he added with another sigh, as if weary enough, on occasion, of this truth. “I was made so.”
“Ah, of course,” Strether sighed, “I knew it. I think you’re right. No one in the world, I bet, was ever so seriously solemn. There I am,” he added with another sigh, as if occasionally tired of this truth. “I was made this way.”
Chad appeared for a little to consider the way he was made; he might for this purpose have measured him up and down. His conclusion favoured the fact. “You have never needed any one to make you better. There has never been any one good enough. They couldn’t,” the young man declared.
Chad took a moment to reflect on who he was; he could have sized himself up for that reason. His conclusion supported the fact. “You have never needed anyone to improve you. There’s never been anyone good enough. They couldn’t,” the young man said.
His friend hesitated. “I beg your pardon. They have.”
His friend hesitated. “I'm sorry. They have.”
Chad showed, not without amusement, his doubt. “Who then?”
Chad, not without some amusement, expressed his doubt. “Who then?”
Strether—though a little dimly—smiled at him. “Women—too.”
Strether smiled at him, though a bit vaguely. “Women—too.”
“‘Two’?”—Chad stared and laughed. “Oh I don’t believe, for such work, in any more than one! So you’re proving too much. And what is beastly, at all events,” he added, “is losing you.”
“‘Two’?”—Chad stared and laughed. “Oh, I don’t believe in more than one for such work! So you’re proving too much. And what is terrible, anyway,” he added, “is losing you.”
Strether had set himself in motion for departure, but at this he paused. “Are you afraid?”
Strether had started to leave, but then he stopped. “Are you scared?”
“Afraid—?”
"Scared—?"
“Of doing wrong. I mean away from my eye.” Before Chad could speak, however, he had taken himself up. “I am, certainly,” he laughed, “prodigious.”
“Of doing wrong. I mean out of my sight.” Before Chad could respond, he had already moved on. “I am, for sure,” he laughed, “incredible.”
“Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid—!” This might have been, on Chad’s part, in its extreme emphasis, almost too freely extravagant; but it was full, plainly enough, of the intention of comfort, it carried with it a protest against doubt and a promise, positively, of performance. Picking up a hat in the vestibule he came out with his friend, came downstairs, took his arm, affectionately, as to help and guide him, treating him if not exactly as aged and infirm, yet as a noble eccentric who appealed to tenderness, and keeping on with him, while they walked, to the next corner and the next. “You needn’t tell me, you needn’t tell me!”—this again as they proceeded, he wished to make Strether feel. What he needn’t tell him was now at last, in the geniality of separation, anything at all it concerned him to know. He knew, up to the hilt—that really came over Chad; he understood, felt, recorded his vow; and they lingered on it as they had lingered in their walk to Strether’s hotel the night of their first meeting. The latter took, at this hour, all he could get; he had given all he had had to give; he was as depleted as if he had spent his last sou. But there was just one thing for which, before they broke off, Chad seemed disposed slightly to bargain. His companion needn’t, as he said, tell him, but he might himself mention that he had been getting some news of the art of advertisement. He came out quite suddenly with this announcement while Strether wondered if his revived interest were what had taken him, with strange inconsequence, over to London. He appeared at all events to have been looking into the question and had encountered a revelation. Advertising scientifically worked presented itself thus as the great new force. “It really does the thing, you know.”
“Yes, you spoil us for all the stupid—!” Chad's exclamation, filled with intense emphasis, might have seemed a bit excessive; however, it clearly expressed a desire to provide comfort, rejecting any doubt and positively promising action. As he grabbed a hat in the entryway, he stepped out with his friend, walked downstairs, and linked arms with him affectionately, as if to help and guide, treating him not exactly as elderly and frail, but like a noble eccentric who called for compassion. They continued together, walking to the next corner and the one after that. “You don’t need to tell me, you don’t need to tell me!”—he wanted to make sure Strether felt this as they moved along. What he didn’t need to reveal was, in the warmth of their separation, anything that truly concerned him. He understood completely—Chad got it; he felt it, he recognized his vow; and they lingered over it like they had during their walk to Strether’s hotel the night they first met. At that moment, Strether was taking all he could get; he had given everything he had; he felt as drained as if he had spent his last penny. But before they parted ways, there was one thing Chad seemed slightly inclined to negotiate. His companion didn’t need to tell him, as he said, but he could mention that he had been hearing some news about the art of advertising. This revelation came out of nowhere while Strether pondered whether Chad's revived interest was why he had, in a strangely inconsistent way, gone to London. He seemed to have been researching the topic and had stumbled upon a breakthrough. Advertising, when done scientifically, was presented as the great new force. “It really does the thing, you know.”
They were face to face under the street-lamp as they had been the first night, and Strether, no doubt, looked blank. “Affects, you mean, the sale of the object advertised?”
They stood face to face under the streetlamp as they had on the first night, and Strether definitely looked confused. “Are you saying it affects the sale of the advertised item?”
“Yes—but affects it extraordinarily; really beyond what one had supposed. I mean of course when it’s done as one makes out that in our roaring age, it can be done. I’ve been finding out a little, though it doubtless doesn’t amount to much more than what you originally, so awfully vividly—and all, very nearly, that first night—put before me. It’s an art like another, and infinite like all the arts.” He went on as if for the joke of it—almost as if his friend’s face amused him. “In the hands, naturally, of a master. The right man must take hold. With the right man to work it c’est un monde.”
“Yeah—but it really has a huge impact; much more than anyone imagined. I mean, of course, when it’s done in the way people talk about in our crazy times, it can be done. I’ve been learning a bit, although it probably isn’t much more than what you originally, so vividly—and almost everything from that first night—showed me. It’s an art like any other, and endless like all the arts.” He continued as if just for fun—almost as if he found his friend’s expression amusing. “In the hands, of course, of a master. The right person has to take charge. With the right person to work it, c’est un monde.”
Strether had watched him quite as if, there on the pavement without a pretext, he had begun to dance a fancy step. “Is what you’re thinking of that you yourself, in the case you have in mind, would be the right man?”
Strether watched him as if he had started dancing a fancy step right there on the sidewalk for no reason. “Are you thinking that you would be the right person in the situation you're considering?”
Chad had thrown back his light coat and thrust each of his thumbs into an armhole of his waistcoat; in which position his fingers played up and down. “Why, what is he but what you yourself, as I say, took me for when you first came out?”
Chad had tossed his light coat back and stuck his thumbs into the armholes of his waistcoat; in that position, his fingers moved up and down. “What is he but what you thought I was when you first showed up?”
Strether felt a little faint, but he coerced his attention. “Oh yes, and there’s no doubt that, with your natural parts, you’d have much in common with him. Advertising is clearly at this time of day the secret of trade. It’s quite possible it will be open to you—giving the whole of your mind to it—to make the whole place hum with you. Your mother’s appeal is to the whole of your mind, and that’s exactly the strength of her case.”
Strether felt a bit lightheaded, but he focused his attention. “Oh yes, and there’s no doubt that, with your talents, you’d have a lot in common with him. Advertising is definitely the key to business these days. It’s quite possible that if you fully invest yourself in it, you could make the whole place thrive with your energy. Your mother’s appeal is to all of your intellect, and that’s exactly the strength of her argument.”
Chad’s fingers continued to twiddle, but he had something of a drop. “Ah we’ve been through my mother’s case!”
Chad’s fingers kept fiddling, but he was feeling a bit down. “Ah, we’ve already gone over my mom’s situation!”
“So I thought. Why then do you speak of the matter?”
“So I thought. Why do you bring it up?”
“Only because it was part of our original discussion. To wind up where we began, my interest’s purely platonic. There at any rate the fact is—the fact of the possible. I mean the money in it.”
“Only because it was part of our original conversation. To return to where we started, my interest is purely platonic. At any rate, the reality is—the reality of the possibility. I’m talking about the money in it.”
“Oh damn the money in it!” said Strether. And then as the young man’s fixed smile seemed to shine out more strange: “Shall you give your friend up for the money in it?”
“Oh, forget the money in it!” said Strether. And then, as the young man’s fixed smile looked even stranger: “Are you really going to give up your friend for the money in it?”
Chad preserved his handsome grimace as well as the rest of his attitude. “You’re not altogether—in your so great ‘solemnity’—kind. Haven’t I been drinking you in—showing you all I feel you’re worth to me? What have I done, what am I doing, but cleave to her to the death? The only thing is,” he good-humouredly explained, “that one can’t but have it before one, in the cleaving—the point where the death comes in. Don’t be afraid for that. It’s pleasant to a fellow’s feelings,” he developed, “to ‘size-up’ the bribe he applies his foot to.”
Chad maintained his attractive scowl along with his overall attitude. “You’re not being particularly—despite your so-called ‘seriousness’—nice. Haven’t I been absorbing everything about you—showing you how much you mean to me? What have I done, what am I doing, except sticking by her until the end? The only thing is,” he casually explained, “that you can’t help but anticipate the moment—the point where death comes in. Don’t worry about that. It’s nice for a guy’s feelings,” he continued, “to evaluate the temptation he steps on.”
“Oh then if all you want’s a kickable surface the bribe’s enormous.”
“Oh, so if all you want is something to kick, the bribe is huge.”
“Good. Then there it goes!” Chad administered his kick with fantastic force and sent an imaginary object flying. It was accordingly as if they were once more rid of the question and could come back to what really concerned him. “Of course I shall see you tomorrow.”
“Great. Here we go!” Chad kicked with incredible force, sending an imaginary object flying. It felt like they were once again free from the question and could return to what really mattered to him. “Of course, I’ll see you tomorrow.”
But Strether scarce heeded the plan proposed for this; he had still the impression—not the slighter for the simulated kick—of an irrelevant hornpipe or jig. “You’re restless.”
But Strether hardly paid attention to the plan suggested for this; he still had the impression—no less so because of the fake excitement—of an irrelevant hornpipe or jig. “You’re restless.”
“Ah,” returned Chad as they parted, “you’re exciting.”
“Ah,” Chad said as they separated, “you’re exciting.”
V
He had, however, within two days, another separation to face. He had sent Maria Gostrey a word early, by hand, to ask if he might come to breakfast; in consequence of which, at noon, she awaited him in the cool shade of her little Dutch-looking dining-room. This retreat was at the back of the house, with a view of a scrap of old garden that had been saved from modern ravage; and though he had on more than one other occasion had his legs under its small and peculiarly polished table of hospitality, the place had never before struck him as so sacred to pleasant knowledge, to intimate charm, to antique order, to a neatness that was almost august. To sit there was, as he had told his hostess before, to see life reflected for the time in ideally kept pewter; which was somehow becoming, improving to life, so that one’s eyes were held and comforted. Strether’s were comforted at all events now—and the more that it was the last time—with the charming effect, on the board bare of a cloth and proud of its perfect surface, of the small old crockery and old silver, matched by the more substantial pieces happily disposed about the room. The specimens of vivid Delf, in particular had the dignity of family portraits; and it was in the midst of them that our friend resignedly expressed himself. He spoke even with a certain philosophic humour. “There’s nothing more to wait for; I seem to have done a good day’s work. I’ve let them have it all round. I’ve seen Chad, who has been to London and come back. He tells me I’m ‘exciting,’ and I seem indeed pretty well to have upset every one. I’ve at any rate excited him. He’s distinctly restless.”
He had, however, within two days, another separation to deal with. He had sent Maria Gostrey a message earlier, by hand, to ask if he could come for breakfast; as a result, she was waiting for him at noon in the cool shade of her little Dutch-style dining room. This cozy spot was at the back of the house, overlooking a small part of an old garden that had survived modern destruction; and even though he had, on more than one other occasion, enjoyed meals at its small, uniquely polished table, the place never struck him as so sacred to pleasant knowledge, intimate charm, antique order, and a neatness that was almost majestic. Sitting there was, as he had told his hostess before, like seeing life reflected in perfectly kept pewter; it was somehow uplifting, enriching to life, so that one’s eyes were drawn in and comforted. Strether’s were certainly comforted now—and especially since it was the last time—with the lovely scene on the table, which was bare of a cloth yet proud of its perfect surface, showcasing the small old crockery and silver, complemented by the more substantial pieces arranged nicely around the room. The bright Delf pieces, in particular, had the dignity of family portraits; and it was among them that our friend resignedly expressed himself. He spoke with a touch of philosophical humor. “There’s nothing more to wait for; I feel like I’ve accomplished a good day’s work. I’ve let them have it all around. I’ve seen Chad, who has been to London and back. He tells me I’m ‘exciting,’ and I seem to have stirred everyone up. At least I’ve definitely stirred him. He’s clearly restless.”
“You’ve excited me,” Miss Gostrey smiled. “I’m distinctly restless.”
“You’ve excited me,” Miss Gostrey smiled. “I’m definitely feeling restless.”
“Oh you were that when I found you. It seems to me I’ve rather got you out of it. What’s this,” he asked as he looked about him, “but a haunt of ancient peace?”
“Oh, you were like that when I found you. It seems to me I've really helped you out of it. What's this," he asked as he looked around, "but a place of old peace?”
“I wish with all my heart,” she presently replied, “I could make you treat it as a haven of rest.” On which they fronted each other, across the table, as if things unuttered were in the air.
“I wish with all my heart,” she said, “I could make you see it as a place of rest.” They faced each other across the table, as if unspoken thoughts hung in the air.
Strether seemed, in his way, when he next spoke, to take some of them up. “It wouldn’t give me—that would be the trouble—what it will, no doubt, still give you. I’m not,” he explained, leaning back in his chair, but with his eyes on a small ripe round melon—“in real harmony with what surrounds me. You are. I take it too hard. You don’t. It makes—that’s what it comes to in the end—a fool of me.” Then at a tangent, “What has he been doing in London?” he demanded.
Strether seemed, in his own way, when he spoke next, to address some of them. “The issue is that it wouldn’t give me—what it will, no doubt, still give you. I’m not,” he explained, leaning back in his chair but keeping his eyes on a small, ripe, round melon—“in real harmony with my surroundings. You are. I take it too seriously. You don’t. In the end, it makes—a fool of me.” Then shifting gears, “What has he been up to in London?” he asked.
“Ah one may go to London,” Maria laughed. “You know I did.”
“Ah, someone can go to London,” Maria laughed. “You know I did.”
Yes—he took the reminder. “And you brought me back.” He brooded there opposite to her, but without gloom. “Whom has Chad brought? He’s full of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah,” he added, “the first thing this morning. So I’m square. I’m ready for them.”
Yes—he accepted the reminder. “And you brought me back.” He sat there across from her, but without any heaviness. “Who has Chad brought? He has a lot of ideas. And I wrote to Sarah,” he added, “the first thing this morning. So I’m all set. I’m ready for them.”
She neglected certain parts of this speech in the interest of others. “Marie said to me the other day that she felt him to have the makings of an immense man of business.”
She overlooked some sections of this speech for the sake of others. “Marie mentioned to me recently that she believed he had the potential to become a great businessman.”
“There it is. He’s the son of his father!”
“There it is. He’s his father’s son!”
“But such a father!”
“But what a dad!”
“Ah just the right one from that point of view! But it isn’t his father in him,” Strether added, “that troubles me.”
“Ah, just the right one from that perspective! But it’s not his father in him,” Strether added, “that bothers me.”
“What is it then?” He came back to his breakfast; he partook presently of the charming melon, which she liberally cut for him; and it was only after this that he met her question. Then moreover it was but to remark that he’d answer her presently. She waited, she watched, she served him and amused him, and it was perhaps with this last idea that she soon reminded him of his having never even yet named to her the article produced at Woollett. “Do you remember our talking of it in London—that night at the play?” Before he could say yes, however, she had put it to him for other matters. Did he remember, did he remember—this and that of their first days? He remembered everything, bringing up with humour even things of which she professed no recollection, things she vehemently denied; and falling back above all on the great interest of their early time, the curiosity felt by both of them as to where he would “come out.” They had so assumed it was to be in some wonderful place—they had thought of it as so very much out. Well, that was doubtless what it had been—since he had come out just there. He was out, in truth, as far as it was possible to be, and must now rather bethink himself of getting in again. He found on the spot the image of his recent history; he was like one of the figures of the old clock at Berne. They came out, on one side, at their hour, jigged along their little course in the public eye, and went in on the other side. He too had jigged his little course—him too a modest retreat awaited. He offered now, should she really like to know, to name the great product of Woollett. It would be a great commentary on everything. At this she stopped him off; she not only had no wish to know, but she wouldn’t know for the world. She had done with the products of Woollett—for all the good she had got from them. She desired no further news of them, and she mentioned that Madame de Vionnet herself had, to her knowledge, lived exempt from the information he was ready to supply. She had never consented to receive it, though she would have taken it, under stress, from Mrs. Pocock. But it was a matter about which Mrs. Pocock appeared to have had little to say—never sounding the word—and it didn’t signify now. There was nothing clearly for Maria Gostrey that signified now—save one sharp point, that is, to which she came in time. “I don’t know whether it’s before you as a possibility that, left to himself, Mr. Chad may after all go back. I judge that it is more or less so before you, from what you just now said of him.”
“What is it then?” He returned to his breakfast, enjoying the lovely melon she had generously cut for him. It was only after this that he responded to her question. He noted that he’d get back to her soon. She waited, watched, served him, and entertained him, and it was perhaps with this last thought that she reminded him he had never actually mentioned the item from Woollett. “Do you remember our discussion about it in London—that night at the play?” Before he could affirm this, she had shifted the conversation to other topics. Did he remember this and that from their earliest days? He recalled everything, even bringing up with humor things she insisted she didn’t remember, things she categorically denied; and he especially reflected on the great interest of their early time, the mutual curiosity about where he would “come out.” They had assumed it would be somewhere extraordinary—they had envisioned it as being so very much out. Well, that was certainly what it had been—since he had come out right there. He was out, in fact, as far as one could be, and now needed to think about how to get back in. He instantly had the image of his recent history; he felt like one of the figures of the old clock in Berne. They came out, on one side, at their appointed times, danced along their little path in the public eye, and went back in on the other side. He too had danced his little path—he too had a modest retreat awaiting him. He now offered, if she truly wanted to know, to reveal the big product of Woollett. It would be a significant commentary on everything. At this, she cut him off; she not only had no desire to know, but she absolutely wouldn’t want to know for anything. She was done with the products of Woollett—for all the value she had gotten from them. She wanted no further updates on them and noted that Madame de Vionnet herself had lived without the information he was ready to share. She had never agreed to receive it, though she would have taken it, if pressed, from Mrs. Pocock. But it was a topic Mrs. Pocock seemed to have said little about—never mentioning the word—and it didn’t matter now. There was nothing that clearly mattered to Maria Gostrey now—except one specific point, to which she eventually arrived. “I don’t know if you see it as a possibility that, left to himself, Mr. Chad may indeed go back. I suspect that it is somewhat of a possibility for you, based on what you just said about him.”
Her guest had his eyes on her, kindly but attentively, as if foreseeing what was to follow this. “I don’t think it will be for the money.” And then as she seemed uncertain: “I mean I don’t believe it will be for that he’ll give her up.”
Her guest was looking at her, kindly but carefully, as if he knew what was coming next. “I don’t think it will be for the money.” And then, noticing her hesitation: “I mean, I don't believe he'll give her up for that.”
“Then he will give her up?”
“Then he will let her go?”
Strether waited a moment, rather slow and deliberate now, drawing out a little this last soft stage, pleading with her in various suggestive and unspoken ways for patience and understanding. “What were you just about to ask me?”
Strether paused for a moment, moving slowly and purposefully now, prolonging this final gentle moment, silently urging her for patience and understanding. “What were you just about to ask me?”
“Is there anything he can do that would make you patch it up?”
“Is there anything he can do to make you work things out?”
“With Mrs. Newsome?”
"With Mrs. Newsome?"
Her assent, as if she had had a delicacy about sounding the name, was only in her face; but she added with it: “Or is there anything he can do that would make her try it?”
Her agreement, as if she hesitated to say the name, was only visible on her face; but she added, “Or is there anything he could do that would make her give it a try?”
“To patch it up with me?” His answer came at last in a conclusive headshake. “There’s nothing any one can do. It’s over. Over for both of us.”
“To make amends with me?” He finally replied with a definite shake of his head. “There’s nothing anyone can do. It’s done. Done for both of us.”
Maria wondered, seemed a little to doubt. “Are you so sure for her?”
Maria wondered and seemed to doubt a little. “Are you really that sure about her?”
“Oh yes—sure now. Too much has happened. I’m different for her.”
“Oh yeah—totally. So much has happened. I’m not the same for her.”
She took it in then, drawing a deeper breath. “I see. So that as she’s different for you—”
She understood it then, taking a deeper breath. “I get it. So she’s different for you—”
“Ah but,” he interrupted, “she’s not.” And as Miss Gostrey wondered again: “She’s the same. She’s more than ever the same. But I do what I didn’t before—I see her.”
“Ah but,” he interrupted, “she’s not.” And as Miss Gostrey wondered again: “She’s the same. She’s more than ever the same. But I do what I didn’t before—I see her.”
He spoke gravely and as if responsibly—since he had to pronounce; and the effect of it was slightly solemn, so that she simply exclaimed “Oh!” Satisfied and grateful, however, she showed in her own next words an acceptance of his statement. “What then do you go home to?”
He spoke seriously and like it was important—since he had to say it; and it came across as a bit solemn, which made her simply exclaim, “Oh!” Still, feeling satisfied and grateful, she revealed in her next words that she accepted what he had said. “So, what do you go home to?”
He had pushed his plate a little away, occupied with another side of the matter; taking refuge verily in that side and feeling so moved that he soon found himself on his feet. He was affected in advance by what he believed might come from her, and he would have liked to forestall it and deal with it tenderly; yet in the presence of it he wished still more to be—though as smoothly as possible—deterrent and conclusive. He put her question by for the moment; he told her more about Chad. “It would have been impossible to meet me more than he did last night on the question of the infamy of not sticking to her.”
He had pushed his plate away a bit, focused on another aspect of things; truly taking refuge in that thought and feeling so moved that he soon found himself on his feet. He was already affected by what he thought might come from her, and he wanted to address it tenderly; yet in the face of it, he wished even more to be—though as calmly as possible—firm and definitive. He set her question aside for the moment; he told her more about Chad. “He couldn’t have been more clear with me last night about the disgrace of not being loyal to her.”
“Is that what you called it for him—‘infamy’?”
“Is that what you called it for him—‘infamy’?”
“Oh rather! I described to him in detail the base creature he’d be, and he quite agrees with me about it.”
“Oh, definitely! I explained to him in detail what a horrible person he’d be, and he completely agrees with me about it.”
“So that it’s really as if you had nailed him?”
“So it’s really like you nailed him?”
“Quite really as if—! I told him I should curse him.”
“Honestly, it felt like—! I told him I would curse him.”
“Oh,” she smiled, “you have done it.” And then having thought again: “You can’t after that propose—!” Yet she scanned his face.
“Oh,” she smiled, “you actually did it.” And then, after thinking again: “You can’t propose after that—!” Yet she examined his face.
“Propose again to Mrs. Newsome?”
"Ask Mrs. Newsome again?"
She hesitated afresh, but she brought it out. “I’ve never believed, you know, that you did propose. I always believed it was really she—and, so far as that goes, I can understand it. What I mean is,” she explained, “that with such a spirit—the spirit of curses!—your breach is past mending. She has only to know what you’ve done to him never again to raise a finger.”
She hesitated again, but she spoke up. “I’ve never really believed that you proposed. I always thought it was really her—and, to a certain extent, I get it. What I mean is,” she clarified, “with that kind of attitude—the attitude of curses!—your relationship is beyond fixing. She just has to find out what you’ve done to him, and she’ll never lift a finger again.”
“I’ve done,” said Strether, “what I could—one can’t do more. He protests his devotion and his horror. But I’m not sure I’ve saved him. He protests too much. He asks how one can dream of his being tired. But he has all life before him.”
“I’ve done what I could,” said Strether, “and you can’t do more than that. He claims he’s devoted and horrified. But I’m not sure I’ve really helped him. He’s overdoing it. He wonders how anyone could think he’s tired. But he has his whole life ahead of him.”
Maria saw what he meant. “He’s formed to please.”
Maria understood what he was saying. “He's made to please.”
“And it’s our friend who has formed him.” Strether felt in it the strange irony.
“And it’s our friend who has shaped him.” Strether sensed the strange irony in it.
“So it’s scarcely his fault!”
“So it's hardly his fault!”
“It’s at any rate his danger. I mean,” said Strether, “it’s hers. But she knows it.”
“It’s definitely his risk. I mean,” said Strether, “it’s hers. But she’s aware of it.”
“Yes, she knows it. And is your idea,” Miss Gostrey asked, “that there was some other woman in London?”
“Yes, she knows it. And is your idea,” Miss Gostrey asked, “that there was some other woman in London?”
“Yes. No. That is I have no ideas. I’m afraid of them. I’ve done with them.” And he put out his hand to her. “Good-bye.”
“Yes. No. I mean, I don’t have any ideas. I'm afraid of them. I'm done with them.” And he reached out his hand to her. “Good-bye.”
It brought her back to her unanswered question. “To what do you go home?”
It made her think of her unanswered question. “What do you go home to?”
“I don’t know. There will always be something.”
“I don’t know. There will always be something.”
“To a great difference,” she said as she kept his hand.
“To a great difference,” she said as she held his hand.
“A great difference—no doubt. Yet I shall see what I can make of it.”
“A big difference—no doubt. Still, I’ll see what I can do with it.”
“Shall you make anything so good—?” But, as if remembering what Mrs. Newsome had done, it was as far as she went.
“Are you going to make anything that good—?” But, as if recalling what Mrs. Newsome had done, that was as far as she went.
He had sufficiently understood. “So good as this place at this moment? So good as what you make of everything you touch?” He took a moment to say, for, really and truly, what stood about him there in her offer—which was as the offer of exquisite service, of lightened care, for the rest of his days—might well have tempted. It built him softly round, it roofed him warmly over, it rested, all so firm, on selection. And what ruled selection was beauty and knowledge. It was awkward, it was almost stupid, not to seem to prize such things; yet, none the less, so far as they made his opportunity they made it only for a moment. She’d moreover understand—she always understood.
He had understood enough. “Is this place really that good right now? Is it really as good as what you create with everything you touch?” He paused for a moment because, honestly, what surrounded him in her offer—which was like an offer of exceptional care and a lighter burden for the rest of his life—could definitely have tempted him. It gently enveloped him, provided warmth above him, and rested firmly on choice. And what guided that choice was beauty and knowledge. It felt awkward, even silly, not to appreciate such things; yet, still, as much as they created his opportunity, they only did so for a brief moment. Besides, she would understand—she always understood.
That indeed might be, but meanwhile she was going on. “There’s nothing, you know, I wouldn’t do for you.”
That might be true, but in the meantime, she continued. “There's nothing, you know, I wouldn’t do for you.”
“Oh yes—I know.”
“Oh yeah—I know.”
“There’s nothing,” she repeated, “in all the world.”
“There’s nothing,” she repeated, “in the whole world.”
“I know. I know. But all the same I must go.” He had got it at last. “To be right.”
“I know. I know. But I still have to go.” He finally understood. “To be right.”
“To be right?”
"Is it right?"
She had echoed it in vague deprecation, but he felt it already clear for her. “That, you see, is my only logic. Not, out of the whole affair, to have got anything for myself.”
She had said it in a vague way, but he understood it was already clear to her. “That, you see, is my only reasoning. Not to have gotten anything for myself out of the whole situation.”
She thought. “But with your wonderful impressions you’ll have got a great deal.”
She thought, "But with your amazing impressions, you must have gotten a lot."
“A great deal”—he agreed. “But nothing like you. It’s you who would make me wrong!”
“A lot,” he agreed. “But nothing like you. It’s you who would be the reason I’m wrong!”
Honest and fine, she couldn’t greatly pretend she didn’t see it. Still she could pretend just a little. “But why should you be so dreadfully right?”
Honest and genuine, she couldn’t really pretend she didn’t see it. Still, she could pretend a little. “But why do you have to be so annoyingly right?”
“That’s the way that—if I must go—you yourself would be the first to want me. And I can’t do anything else.”
"That’s how it is—if I have to go—you would be the first one to want me to. And I can’t do anything else."
So then she had to take it, though still with her defeated protest. “It isn’t so much your being ‘right’—it’s your horrible sharp eye for what makes you so.”
So then she had to accept it, though still with her feeling of defeat. “It’s not so much about you being ‘right’—it’s your terrible sharp eye for what makes you so.”
“Oh but you’re just as bad yourself. You can’t resist me when I point that out.”
“Oh, but you’re just as guilty yourself. You can’t resist me when I mention that.”
She sighed it at last all comically, all tragically, away. “I can’t indeed resist you.”
She finally let out a sigh, both comically and tragically. “I really can’t resist you.”
“Then there we are!” said Strether.
“Then there we are!” said Strether.
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