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ETHAN FROME





By Edith Wharton



















ETHAN FROME

I had the story, bit by bit, from various people, and, as generally happens in such cases, each time it was a different story.

I got the story piece by piece from different people, and as usually happens in these situations, each time it was a different version.

If you know Starkfield, Massachusetts, you know the post-office. If you know the post-office you must have seen Ethan Frome drive up to it, drop the reins on his hollow-backed bay and drag himself across the brick pavement to the white colonnade; and you must have asked who he was.

If you know Starkfield, Massachusetts, you know the post office. If you know the post office, you must have seen Ethan Frome pull up, drop the reins on his worn-out bay horse, and drag himself across the brick pavement to the white columns; and you must have wondered who he was.

It was there that, several years ago, I saw him for the first time; and the sight pulled me up sharp. Even then he was the most striking figure in Starkfield, though he was but the ruin of a man. It was not so much his great height that marked him, for the “natives” were easily singled out by their lank longitude from the stockier foreign breed: it was the careless powerful look he had, in spite of a lameness checking each step like the jerk of a chain. There was something bleak and unapproachable in his face, and he was so stiffened and grizzled that I took him for an old man and was surprised to hear that he was not more than fifty-two. I had this from Harmon Gow, who had driven the stage from Bettsbridge to Starkfield in pre-trolley days and knew the chronicle of all the families on his line.

It was there that, a few years ago, I saw him for the first time; and the sight hit me hard. Even then, he was the most impressive person in Starkfield, even though he was just a shadow of a man. It wasn't just his height that stood out, since the locals were easily identified by their lankiness compared to the stockier outsiders: it was the effortless power he exuded, despite a limp that interrupted each step like the jerk of a chain. There was something harsh and uninviting about his face, and he looked so stiff and gray that I assumed he was an old man, only to be surprised to find out he was only fifty-two. I got this information from Harmon Gow, who used to drive the stage from Bettsbridge to Starkfield before the trolleys arrived and knew the history of all the families along his route.

“He’s looked that way ever since he had his smash-up; and that’s twenty-four years ago come next February,” Harmon threw out between reminiscent pauses.

“He's looked that way ever since his accident, and that was twenty-four years ago next February,” Harmon said with nostalgic pauses.

The “smash-up” it was—I gathered from the same informant—which, besides drawing the red gash across Ethan Frome’s forehead, had so shortened and warped his right side that it cost him a visible effort to take the few steps from his buggy to the post-office window. He used to drive in from his farm every day at about noon, and as that was my own hour for fetching my mail I often passed him in the porch or stood beside him while we waited on the motions of the distributing hand behind the grating. I noticed that, though he came so punctually, he seldom received anything but a copy of the Bettsbridge Eagle, which he put without a glance into his sagging pocket. At intervals, however, the post-master would hand him an envelope addressed to Mrs. Zenobia—or Mrs. Zeena—Frome, and usually bearing conspicuously in the upper left-hand corner the address of some manufacturer of patent medicine and the name of his specific. These documents my neighbour would also pocket without a glance, as if too much used to them to wonder at their number and variety, and would then turn away with a silent nod to the post-master.

The "smash-up" it was—I gathered from the same informant—which, besides leaving a red mark across Ethan Frome’s forehead, had so shortened and twisted his right side that it took him a noticeable effort to walk the few steps from his buggy to the post office window. He used to drive in from his farm every day around noon, and since that was also my time for picking up my mail, I often saw him on the porch or stood next to him while we waited for the mail to be distributed through the grating. I noticed that, even though he came so regularly, he rarely received anything other than a copy of the Bettsbridge Eagle, which he tossed into his sagging pocket without a second glance. However, from time to time, the postmaster would hand him an envelope addressed to Mrs. Zenobia—or Mrs. Zeena—Frome, usually featuring the address of some patent medicine manufacturer and the name of their product prominently in the upper left corner. These letters my neighbor would also pocket without a look, as if he was too accustomed to them to be curious about their number and variety, and would then silently nod to the postmaster before turning away.

Every one in Starkfield knew him and gave him a greeting tempered to his own grave mien; but his taciturnity was respected and it was only on rare occasions that one of the older men of the place detained him for a word. When this happened he would listen quietly, his blue eyes on the speaker’s face, and answer in so low a tone that his words never reached me; then he would climb stiffly into his buggy, gather up the reins in his left hand and drive slowly away in the direction of his farm.

Everyone in Starkfield knew him and greeted him in a way that matched his serious demeanor; but his tendency to be quiet was respected, and it was only on rare occasions that one of the older men in town held him up for a chat. When this did happen, he would listen quietly, his blue eyes fixed on the speaker's face, and respond in such a soft voice that I could never hear him. Then he would get awkwardly into his buggy, take the reins in his left hand, and drive away slowly toward his farm.

“It was a pretty bad smash-up?” I questioned Harmon, looking after Frome’s retreating figure, and thinking how gallantly his lean brown head, with its shock of light hair, must have sat on his strong shoulders before they were bent out of shape.

“It was a pretty bad crash?” I asked Harmon, watching Frome’s disappearing figure, and imagining how proudly his lean brown head, with its tousled light hair, must have looked on his strong shoulders before they got bent out of shape.

“Wust kind,” my informant assented. “More’n enough to kill most men. But the Fromes are tough. Ethan’ll likely touch a hundred.”

“Wust kind,” my informant agreed. “More than enough to kill most men. But the Fromes are tough. Ethan will probably hit a hundred.”

“Good God!” I exclaimed. At the moment Ethan Frome, after climbing to his seat, had leaned over to assure himself of the security of a wooden box—also with a druggist’s label on it—which he had placed in the back of the buggy, and I saw his face as it probably looked when he thought himself alone. “That man touch a hundred? He looks as if he was dead and in hell now!”

“Good God!” I exclaimed. Right then, Ethan Frome, after getting into his seat, leaned over to make sure a wooden box—also labeled by a druggist—that he had put in the back of the buggy was secure, and I saw his face as it probably looked when he thought he was alone. “That guy touch a hundred? He looks like he’s dead and in hell right now!”

Harmon drew a slab of tobacco from his pocket, cut off a wedge and pressed it into the leather pouch of his cheek. “Guess he’s been in Starkfield too many winters. Most of the smart ones get away.”

Harmon pulled a chunk of tobacco from his pocket, sliced off a piece, and stuffed it into the leather pouch of his cheek. “I guess he’s spent too many winters in Starkfield. Most of the sharp ones leave.”

“Why didn’t he?”

“Why didn’t he?”

“Somebody had to stay and care for the folks. There warn’t ever anybody but Ethan. Fust his father—then his mother—then his wife.”

“Someone had to stay and take care of the family. It was always Ethan. First his father—then his mother—then his wife.”

“And then the smash-up?”

"And what about the crash?"

Harmon chuckled sardonically. “That’s so. He had to stay then.”

Harmon laughed sarcastically. “That’s right. He had to stay then.”

“I see. And since then they’ve had to care for him?”

“I get it. So, they’ve been taking care of him since then?”

Harmon thoughtfully passed his tobacco to the other cheek. “Oh, as to that: I guess it’s always Ethan done the caring.”

Harmon thoughtfully shifted his tobacco to the other cheek. “Oh, about that: I suppose it’s always been Ethan who did the caring.”

Though Harmon Gow developed the tale as far as his mental and moral reach permitted there were perceptible gaps between his facts, and I had the sense that the deeper meaning of the story was in the gaps. But one phrase stuck in my memory and served as the nucleus about which I grouped my subsequent inferences: “Guess he’s been in Starkfield too many winters.”

Though Harmon Gow developed the story as much as his mental and moral capacity allowed, there were noticeable gaps in his facts, and I felt that the deeper meaning of the story lay in those gaps. But one phrase stuck in my mind and became the core around which I formed my later interpretations: “Guess he’s been in Starkfield too many winters.”

Before my own time there was up I had learned to know what that meant. Yet I had come in the degenerate day of trolley, bicycle and rural delivery, when communication was easy between the scattered mountain villages, and the bigger towns in the valleys, such as Bettsbridge and Shadd’s Falls, had libraries, theatres and Y. M. C. A. halls to which the youth of the hills could descend for recreation. But when winter shut down on Starkfield and the village lay under a sheet of snow perpetually renewed from the pale skies, I began to see what life there—or rather its negation—must have been in Ethan Frome’s young manhood.

Before my own time was up, I had learned what that meant. Yet I had arrived in the declining era of trolleys, bicycles, and rural delivery, when it was easy to communicate between the scattered mountain villages, and the larger towns in the valleys, like Bettsbridge and Shadd’s Falls, had libraries, theaters, and Y.M.C.A. halls where the youth from the hills could go for recreation. But when winter settled in on Starkfield and the village lay under a blanket of snow that was constantly renewed from the pale skies, I began to understand what life there—or rather its absence—must have been like during Ethan Frome’s youth.

I had been sent up by my employers on a job connected with the big power-house at Corbury Junction, and a long-drawn carpenters’ strike had so delayed the work that I found myself anchored at Starkfield—the nearest habitable spot—for the best part of the winter. I chafed at first, and then, under the hypnotising effect of routine, gradually began to find a grim satisfaction in the life. During the early part of my stay I had been struck by the contrast between the vitality of the climate and the deadness of the community. Day by day, after the December snows were over, a blazing blue sky poured down torrents of light and air on the white landscape, which gave them back in an intenser glitter. One would have supposed that such an atmosphere must quicken the emotions as well as the blood; but it seemed to produce no change except that of retarding still more the sluggish pulse of Starkfield. When I had been there a little longer, and had seen this phase of crystal clearness followed by long stretches of sunless cold; when the storms of February had pitched their white tents about the devoted village and the wild cavalry of March winds had charged down to their support; I began to understand why Starkfield emerged from its six months’ siege like a starved garrison capitulating without quarter. Twenty years earlier the means of resistance must have been far fewer, and the enemy in command of almost all the lines of access between the beleaguered villages; and, considering these things, I felt the sinister force of Harmon’s phrase: “Most of the smart ones get away.” But if that were the case, how could any combination of obstacles have hindered the flight of a man like Ethan Frome?

I had been sent by my employers on a job related to the big power plant at Corbury Junction, and a long carpenter strike had delayed the work so much that I ended up stuck in Starkfield—the closest livable place—for most of the winter. At first, I was frustrated, but over time, under the calming influence of routine, I began to find a strange satisfaction in the lifestyle. During the early days of my stay, I noticed the contrast between the lively climate and the deadness of the community. Day by day, after the December snow, a bright blue sky flooded the white landscape with light and air, which reflected back with an even sharper brightness. One would think such an environment would stir emotions as well as energy, but it seemed to do nothing but slow down the already sluggish rhythm of Starkfield. After spending more time there and witnessing this phase of clear skies followed by long periods of dreary cold; when the February storms set up their white tents around the beleaguered village and the wild March winds came rushing in to help; I began to understand why Starkfield emerged from its six-month siege like a famished garrison surrendering without any conditions. Twenty years earlier, the means of resistance would have been much less, and the enemy would have controlled nearly all the routes into the besieged villages; considering all this, I felt the dark weight of Harmon’s saying: “Most of the smart ones get away.” But if that were true, how could any series of obstacles have stopped someone like Ethan Frome from escaping?

During my stay at Starkfield I lodged with a middle-aged widow colloquially known as Mrs. Ned Hale. Mrs. Hale’s father had been the village lawyer of the previous generation, and “lawyer Varnum’s house,” where my landlady still lived with her mother, was the most considerable mansion in the village. It stood at one end of the main street, its classic portico and small-paned windows looking down a flagged path between Norway spruces to the slim white steeple of the Congregational church. It was clear that the Varnum fortunes were at the ebb, but the two women did what they could to preserve a decent dignity; and Mrs. Hale, in particular, had a certain wan refinement not out of keeping with her pale old-fashioned house.

During my time in Starkfield, I stayed with a middle-aged widow known as Mrs. Ned Hale. Mrs. Hale's father had been the village lawyer in the previous generation, and "lawyer Varnum's house," where my landlady still lived with her mother, was the biggest house in the village. It stood at one end of the main street, its classic portico and small-paned windows overlooking a paved path lined with Norway spruces leading to the slim white steeple of the Congregational church. It was obvious that the Varnum family's wealth was fading, but the two women did their best to maintain a respectable dignity; and Mrs. Hale, in particular, had a certain fragile refinement that suited her pale, old-fashioned house.

In the “best parlour,” with its black horse-hair and mahogany weakly illuminated by a gurgling Carcel lamp, I listened every evening to another and more delicately shaded version of the Starkfield chronicle. It was not that Mrs. Ned Hale felt, or affected, any social superiority to the people about her; it was only that the accident of a finer sensibility and a little more education had put just enough distance between herself and her neighbours to enable her to judge them with detachment. She was not unwilling to exercise this faculty, and I had great hopes of getting from her the missing facts of Ethan Frome’s story, or rather such a key to his character as should co-ordinate the facts I knew. Her mind was a store-house of innocuous anecdote and any question about her acquaintances brought forth a volume of detail; but on the subject of Ethan Frome I found her unexpectedly reticent. There was no hint of disapproval in her reserve; I merely felt in her an insurmountable reluctance to speak of him or his affairs, a low “Yes, I knew them both... it was awful ...” seeming to be the utmost concession that her distress could make to my curiosity.

In the "best parlor," furnished with black horse-hair and mahogany, dimly lit by a gurgling Carcel lamp, I listened every evening to a different and more nuanced version of the Starkfield story. It wasn't that Mrs. Ned Hale felt, or pretended, to be socially superior to those around her; it was just that her sharper sensitivity and a bit more education created enough distance between her and her neighbors for her to judge them impartially. She wasn't hesitant to use this ability, and I had high hopes of learning from her the missing pieces of Ethan Frome's story, or at least a perspective on his character that would connect the facts I already knew. Her mind was a treasure trove of harmless stories, and any question about her acquaintances resulted in a wealth of details; however, when it came to Ethan Frome, I found her surprisingly tight-lipped. There was no sign of disapproval in her silence; I simply sensed an overwhelming reluctance in her to discuss him or his situation, with a quiet “Yes, I knew them both... it was awful...” seeming to be the closest she could come to addressing my curiosity.

So marked was the change in her manner, such depths of sad initiation did it imply, that, with some doubts as to my delicacy, I put the case anew to my village oracle, Harmon Gow; but got for my pains only an uncomprehending grunt.

The change in her attitude was so significant, and it suggested such profound sadness, that, unsure of how sensitive I should be, I went to my village oracle, Harmon Gow, to discuss it again; but all I got in return was an confused grunt.

“Ruth Varnum was always as nervous as a rat; and, come to think of it, she was the first one to see ’em after they was picked up. It happened right below lawyer Varnum’s, down at the bend of the Corbury road, just round about the time that Ruth got engaged to Ned Hale. The young folks was all friends, and I guess she just can’t bear to talk about it. She’s had troubles enough of her own.”

“Ruth Varnum was always as nervous as a rat, and actually, she was the first one to see them after they were picked up. It happened right below Lawyer Varnum’s place, down at the bend of Corbury Road, around the time that Ruth got engaged to Ned Hale. The young people were all friends, and I guess she just can’t stand to talk about it. She’s had enough troubles of her own.”

All the dwellers in Starkfield, as in more notable communities, had had troubles enough of their own to make them comparatively indifferent to those of their neighbours; and though all conceded that Ethan Frome’s had been beyond the common measure, no one gave me an explanation of the look in his face which, as I persisted in thinking, neither poverty nor physical suffering could have put there. Nevertheless, I might have contented myself with the story pieced together from these hints had it not been for the provocation of Mrs. Hale’s silence, and—a little later—for the accident of personal contact with the man.

All the residents of Starkfield, like people in other small towns, had enough of their own problems to be pretty indifferent to those of others. Even though everyone agreed that Ethan Frome’s troubles were greater than most, no one could explain the expression on his face, which I was sure couldn't just be from poverty or physical pain. Still, I might have been satisfied with the story I had cobbled together from these clues if it hadn’t been for Mrs. Hale’s silence and, a bit later, for the chance of actually meeting the man.

On my arrival at Starkfield, Denis Eady, the rich Irish grocer, who was the proprietor of Starkfield’s nearest approach to a livery stable, had entered into an agreement to send me over daily to Corbury Flats, where I had to pick up my train for the Junction. But about the middle of the winter Eady’s horses fell ill of a local epidemic. The illness spread to the other Starkfield stables and for a day or two I was put to it to find a means of transport. Then Harmon Gow suggested that Ethan Frome’s bay was still on his legs and that his owner might be glad to drive me over.

When I got to Starkfield, Denis Eady, the wealthy Irish grocer who owned the closest thing to a livery stable in Starkfield, had agreed to drive me daily to Corbury Flats, where I would catch my train to the Junction. But around the middle of winter, Eady’s horses got sick from a local outbreak. The sickness spread to the other stables in Starkfield, and for a couple of days, I struggled to find a way to get around. Then Harmon Gow suggested that Ethan Frome's bay was still in good shape, and that his owner might be willing to give me a ride.

I stared at the suggestion. “Ethan Frome? But I’ve never even spoken to him. Why on earth should he put himself out for me?”

I looked at the suggestion. “Ethan Frome? But I’ve never even talked to him. Why would he go out of his way for me?”

Harmon’s answer surprised me still more. “I don’t know as he would; but I know he wouldn’t be sorry to earn a dollar.”

Harmon’s answer surprised me even more. “I don’t know if he would; but I know he wouldn’t mind earning a dollar.”

I had been told that Frome was poor, and that the saw-mill and the arid acres of his farm yielded scarcely enough to keep his household through the winter; but I had not supposed him to be in such want as Harmon’s words implied, and I expressed my wonder.

I had been told that Frome was struggling financially, and that the sawmill and the barren land of his farm barely produced enough to get his family through the winter; but I hadn’t realized he was in such dire need as Harmon suggested, and I voiced my surprise.

“Well, matters ain’t gone any too well with him,” Harmon said. “When a man’s been setting round like a hulk for twenty years or more, seeing things that want doing, it eats inter him, and he loses his grit. That Frome farm was always ’bout as bare’s a milkpan when the cat’s been round; and you know what one of them old water-mills is wuth nowadays. When Ethan could sweat over ’em both from sunup to dark he kinder choked a living out of ’em; but his folks ate up most everything, even then, and I don’t see how he makes out now. Fust his father got a kick, out haying, and went soft in the brain, and gave away money like Bible texts afore he died. Then his mother got queer and dragged along for years as weak as a baby; and his wife Zeena, she’s always been the greatest hand at doctoring in the county. Sickness and trouble: that’s what Ethan’s had his plate full up with, ever since the very first helping.”

“Well, things haven't been going too well for him,” Harmon said. “When a man has been sitting around like a slug for twenty years or more, watching things that need to be done, it eats away at him, and he loses his determination. That Frome farm has always been about as empty as a milk pan after the cat’s been around; and you know what one of those old water mills is worth nowadays. When Ethan could work on both from sunrise to sunset, he barely managed to scrape by; but his family consumed most everything, even then, and I don’t see how he gets by now. First, his father had an accident while haying and went soft in the head, giving away money like Bible verses before he died. Then his mother became strange and dragged on for years as weak as a baby; and his wife Zeena, she’s always been the best at doctoring in the county. Sickness and trouble: that’s what Ethan’s had on his plate ever since the very first serving.”

The next morning, when I looked out, I saw the hollow-backed bay between the Varnum spruces, and Ethan Frome, throwing back his worn bearskin, made room for me in the sleigh at his side. After that, for a week, he drove me over every morning to Corbury Flats, and on my return in the afternoon met me again and carried me back through the icy night to Starkfield. The distance each way was barely three miles, but the old bay’s pace was slow, and even with firm snow under the runners we were nearly an hour on the way. Ethan Frome drove in silence, the reins loosely held in his left hand, his brown seamed profile, under the helmet-like peak of the cap, relieved against the banks of snow like the bronze image of a hero. He never turned his face to mine, or answered, except in monosyllables, the questions I put, or such slight pleasantries as I ventured. He seemed a part of the mute melancholy landscape, an incarnation of its frozen woe, with all that was warm and sentient in him fast bound below the surface; but there was nothing unfriendly in his silence. I simply felt that he lived in a depth of moral isolation too remote for casual access, and I had the sense that his loneliness was not merely the result of his personal plight, tragic as I guessed that to be, but had in it, as Harmon Gow had hinted, the profound accumulated cold of many Starkfield winters.

The next morning, when I looked out, I saw the hollow-backed bay between the Varnum spruces, and Ethan Frome, throwing back his worn bearskin, made space for me in the sleigh next to him. After that, for a week, he drove me over every morning to Corbury Flats, and in the afternoon met me again to take me back through the icy night to Starkfield. The distance each way was barely three miles, but the old bay's pace was slow, and even with solid snow under the runners, we were nearly an hour on the journey. Ethan Frome drove in silence, his reins loosely held in his left hand, his brown, lined profile, under the helmet-like peak of his cap, standing out against the snowbanks like a bronze figure of a hero. He never turned his face to mine or answered anything but with single-word responses to my questions or the light remarks I attempted. He seemed a part of the quiet, sad landscape, an embodiment of its frozen sorrow, with everything warm and alive in him buried deep beneath the surface; yet there was nothing unfriendly in his silence. I just felt that he lived in a deep moral isolation too far away for casual interaction, and I sensed that his loneliness wasn't just due to his personal situation, tragic as I assumed it to be, but also carried, as Harmon Gow suggested, the heavy cold accumulated from many Starkfield winters.

Only once or twice was the distance between us bridged for a moment; and the glimpses thus gained confirmed my desire to know more. Once I happened to speak of an engineering job I had been on the previous year in Florida, and of the contrast between the winter landscape about us and that in which I had found myself the year before; and to my surprise Frome said suddenly: “Yes: I was down there once, and for a good while afterward I could call up the sight of it in winter. But now it’s all snowed under.”

Only once or twice did we briefly connect, and those moments strengthened my curiosity to learn more. Once, I mentioned an engineering project I had worked on the previous year in Florida, contrasting the winter scenery around us with the one I had experienced the year before. To my surprise, Frome suddenly said, “Yeah, I was down there once, and for a long time afterward, I could picture it in winter. But now it’s all covered in snow.”

He said no more, and I had to guess the rest from the inflection of his voice and his sharp relapse into silence.

He didn't say anything else, and I had to figure out the rest from the tone of his voice and his sudden quietness.

Another day, on getting into my train at the Flats, I missed a volume of popular science—I think it was on some recent discoveries in bio-chemistry—which I had carried with me to read on the way. I thought no more about it till I got into the sleigh again that evening, and saw the book in Frome’s hand.

Another day, when I got on my train at the Flats, I realized I had left behind a popular science book—I think it was about some recent discoveries in biochemistry—that I intended to read during the ride. I didn’t think much of it until I got back in the sleigh that evening and saw the book in Frome’s hand.

“I found it after you were gone,” he said.

“I found it after you left,” he said.

I put the volume into my pocket and we dropped back into our usual silence; but as we began to crawl up the long hill from Corbury Flats to the Starkfield ridge I became aware in the dusk that he had turned his face to mine.

I slipped the book into my pocket, and we fell back into our usual silence. But as we started to make our way up the long hill from Corbury Flats to the Starkfield ridge, I noticed in the fading light that he had turned his face toward me.

“There are things in that book that I didn’t know the first word about,” he said.

“There are things in that book that I had no clue about,” he said.

I wondered less at his words than at the queer note of resentment in his voice. He was evidently surprised and slightly aggrieved at his own ignorance.

I was more surprised by the strange hint of resentment in his voice than by what he said. He clearly felt surprised and a bit upset about his own lack of knowledge.

“Does that sort of thing interest you?” I asked.

“Is that kind of thing interesting to you?” I asked.

“It used to.”

“It did before.”

“There are one or two rather new things in the book: there have been some big strides lately in that particular line of research.” I waited a moment for an answer that did not come; then I said: “If you’d like to look the book through I’d be glad to leave it with you.”

“There are a couple of pretty new things in the book: there have been some major advances recently in that specific area of research.” I paused for a response that didn’t come; then I said, “If you’d like to check out the book, I’d be happy to leave it with you.”

He hesitated, and I had the impression that he felt himself about to yield to a stealing tide of inertia; then, “Thank you—I’ll take it,” he answered shortly.

He paused, and I sensed that he was on the verge of giving in to a creeping sense of laziness; then, “Thanks—I’ll take it,” he replied curtly.

I hoped that this incident might set up some more direct communication between us. Frome was so simple and straightforward that I was sure his curiosity about the book was based on a genuine interest in its subject. Such tastes and acquirements in a man of his condition made the contrast more poignant between his outer situation and his inner needs, and I hoped that the chance of giving expression to the latter might at least unseal his lips. But something in his past history, or in his present way of living, had apparently driven him too deeply into himself for any casual impulse to draw him back to his kind. At our next meeting he made no allusion to the book, and our intercourse seemed fated to remain as negative and one-sided as if there had been no break in his reserve.

I hoped that this incident might lead to more direct communication between us. Frome was so simple and straightforward that I was sure his curiosity about the book came from a genuine interest in its subject. His interests and knowledge for someone in his position highlighted the stark difference between his external circumstances and his internal needs, and I hoped that the opportunity to express the latter might at least open him up. However, something in his past or his current way of living seemed to have pushed him so deep into himself that no casual impulse could bring him back to others. At our next meeting, he didn’t mention the book, and our interaction seemed doomed to stay as negative and one-sided as if he had never broken his silence.

Frome had been driving me over to the Flats for about a week when one morning I looked out of my window into a thick snow-fall. The height of the white waves massed against the garden-fence and along the wall of the church showed that the storm must have been going on all night, and that the drifts were likely to be heavy in the open. I thought it probable that my train would be delayed; but I had to be at the power-house for an hour or two that afternoon, and I decided, if Frome turned up, to push through to the Flats and wait there till my train came in. I don’t know why I put it in the conditional, however, for I never doubted that Frome would appear. He was not the kind of man to be turned from his business by any commotion of the elements; and at the appointed hour his sleigh glided up through the snow like a stage-apparition behind thickening veils of gauze.

Frome had been driving me to the Flats for about a week when one morning I looked out my window at a heavy snowfall. The height of the white drifts piled against the garden fence and along the church wall showed that the storm must have been raging all night, and that the snow would likely be deep in the open areas. I figured my train might be delayed; however, I needed to be at the power house for an hour or two that afternoon, and I decided that if Frome showed up, I would go to the Flats and wait there until my train arrived. I’m not sure why I phrased it that way since I never doubted that Frome would show. He wasn’t the type to let anything—especially bad weather—stop him from doing his job; and at the scheduled time, his sleigh appeared through the snow like a scene from a play, emerging behind thickening layers of white.

I was getting to know him too well to express either wonder or gratitude at his keeping his appointment; but I exclaimed in surprise as I saw him turn his horse in a direction opposite to that of the Corbury road.

I was getting to know him too well to feel either wonder or gratitude at him keeping his appointment; but I exclaimed in surprise as I saw him turn his horse in a direction opposite to that of the Corbury road.

“The railroad’s blocked by a freight-train that got stuck in a drift below the Flats,” he explained, as we jogged off into the stinging whiteness.

“The railroad’s blocked by a freight train that got stuck in a snowbank below the Flats,” he explained, as we jogged off into the biting whiteness.

“But look here—where are you taking me, then?”

“But look, where are you taking me?”

“Straight to the Junction, by the shortest way,” he answered, pointing up School House Hill with his whip.

“Directly to the Junction, by the shortest route,” he replied, pointing up School House Hill with his whip.

“To the Junction—in this storm? Why, it’s a good ten miles!”

“To the Junction—in this storm? That’s over ten miles!”

“The bay’ll do it if you give him time. You said you had some business there this afternoon. I’ll see you get there.”

“The guy will handle it if you give him some time. You mentioned you had some business there this afternoon. I’ll make sure you get there.”

He said it so quietly that I could only answer: “You’re doing me the biggest kind of a favour.”

He said it so quietly that I could only reply, "You're doing me the biggest favor."

“That’s all right,” he rejoined.

"That's okay," he replied.

Abreast of the schoolhouse the road forked, and we dipped down a lane to the left, between hemlock boughs bent inward to their trunks by the weight of the snow. I had often walked that way on Sundays, and knew that the solitary roof showing through bare branches near the bottom of the hill was that of Frome’s saw-mill. It looked exanimate enough, with its idle wheel looming above the black stream dashed with yellow-white spume, and its cluster of sheds sagging under their white load. Frome did not even turn his head as we drove by, and still in silence we began to mount the next slope. About a mile farther, on a road I had never travelled, we came to an orchard of starved apple-trees writhing over a hillside among outcroppings of slate that nuzzled up through the snow like animals pushing out their noses to breathe. Beyond the orchard lay a field or two, their boundaries lost under drifts; and above the fields, huddled against the white immensities of land and sky, one of those lonely New England farm-houses that make the landscape lonelier.

Next to the schoolhouse, the road split, and we took a lane to the left, surrounded by hemlock branches bending inwards under the weight of the snow. I had often walked this way on Sundays and knew that the lonely roof peeking through the bare branches near the bottom of the hill belonged to Frome’s sawmill. It looked lifeless, with its idle wheel looming over the dark stream splattered with yellow-white foam, and its group of sheds sagging under their white burden. Frome didn’t even glance our way as we drove past, and in silence, we started to climb the next slope. About a mile further, on a road I hadn’t taken before, we arrived at an orchard of withered apple trees twisted over a hillside among slate outcroppings poking through the snow like animals trying to breathe. Beyond the orchard were a couple of fields, their edges lost beneath the snowdrifts; and above the fields, huddled against the vast whiteness of land and sky, stood one of those lonely New England farmhouses that make the landscape feel even more isolated.

“That’s my place,” said Frome, with a sideway jerk of his lame elbow; and in the distress and oppression of the scene I did not know what to answer. The snow had ceased, and a flash of watery sunlight exposed the house on the slope above us in all its plaintive ugliness. The black wraith of a deciduous creeper flapped from the porch, and the thin wooden walls, under their worn coat of paint, seemed to shiver in the wind that had risen with the ceasing of the snow.

“That's my place,” said Frome, with a sideways jerk of his injured elbow; and in the heaviness and discomfort of the scene, I didn’t know how to respond. The snow had stopped, and a burst of weak sunlight revealed the house on the slope above us in all its sad ugliness. The dark shadow of a leafless vine swung from the porch, and the thin wooden walls, under their faded coat of paint, seemed to tremble in the wind that had picked up with the end of the snowfall.

“The house was bigger in my father’s time: I had to take down the ‘L,’ a while back,” Frome continued, checking with a twitch of the left rein the bay’s evident intention of turning in through the broken-down gate.

“The house was bigger in my dad’s time: I had to take down the ‘L’ a while ago,” Frome continued, pulling on the left rein to stop the bay from trying to turn in through the broken-down gate.

I saw then that the unusually forlorn and stunted look of the house was partly due to the loss of what is known in New England as the “L”: that long deep-roofed adjunct usually built at right angles to the main house, and connecting it, by way of storerooms and tool-house, with the wood-shed and cow-barn. Whether because of its symbolic sense, the image it presents of a life linked with the soil, and enclosing in itself the chief sources of warmth and nourishment, or whether merely because of the consolatory thought that it enables the dwellers in that harsh climate to get to their morning’s work without facing the weather, it is certain that the “L” rather than the house itself seems to be the centre, the actual hearth-stone of the New England farm. Perhaps this connection of ideas, which had often occurred to me in my rambles about Starkfield, caused me to hear a wistful note in Frome’s words, and to see in the diminished dwelling the image of his own shrunken body.

I then realized that the unusually sad and small appearance of the house was partly due to the absence of what’s known in New England as the “L”: that long, deep-roofed structure usually built at right angles to the main house, connecting it through storerooms and a tool shed to the wood shed and cow barn. Whether because of its symbolic meaning, the image it creates of a life tied to the land, encompassing the main sources of warmth and nourishment, or simply because it allows those living in that harsh climate to start their morning work without facing the bad weather, it's clear that the “L,” rather than the house itself, feels like the heart, the true hearth-stone of the New England farm. Maybe this connection of ideas, which I often thought about during my walks around Starkfield, made me hear a sad tone in Frome’s words and see in the smaller house a reflection of his own shrunken body.

“We’re kinder side-tracked here now,” he added, “but there was considerable passing before the railroad was carried through to the Flats.” He roused the lagging bay with another twitch; then, as if the mere sight of the house had let me too deeply into his confidence for any farther pretence of reserve, he went on slowly: “I’ve always set down the worst of mother’s trouble to that. When she got the rheumatism so bad she couldn’t move around she used to sit up there and watch the road by the hour; and one year, when they was six months mending the Bettsbridge pike after the floods, and Harmon Gow had to bring his stage round this way, she picked up so that she used to get down to the gate most days to see him. But after the trains begun running nobody ever come by here to speak of, and mother never could get it through her head what had happened, and it preyed on her right along till she died.”

“We're a bit off track here now,” he added, “but there was a lot of waiting before the railroad made it to the Flats.” He urged the sluggish horse with another pull; then, as if the mere sight of the house had made him feel too comfortable to keep pretending, he continued slowly: “I've always blamed most of my mother’s troubles on that. When her rheumatism got so bad she couldn’t move around, she would sit up there and watch the road for hours. One year, when they took six months to fix the Bettsbridge pike after the floods, and Harmon Gow had to bring his stagecoach this way, she even managed to get down to the gate most days to see him. But once the trains started running, nobody came by here to speak of, and my mother could never understand what had happened, and it troubled her right up until she died.”

As we turned into the Corbury road the snow began to fall again, cutting off our last glimpse of the house; and Frome’s silence fell with it, letting down between us the old veil of reticence. This time the wind did not cease with the return of the snow. Instead, it sprang up to a gale which now and then, from a tattered sky, flung pale sweeps of sunlight over a landscape chaotically tossed. But the bay was as good as Frome’s word, and we pushed on to the Junction through the wild white scene.

As we turned onto Corbury Road, the snow started falling again, blocking our last view of the house; and Frome’s silence settled in, dropping the familiar barrier of restraint between us. This time, the wind didn’t calm down with the return of the snow. Instead, it intensified into a fierce gale that occasionally tore through the battered sky, casting pale rays of sunlight over a tumultuous landscape. But the bay was as reliable as Frome’s word, and we continued on to the Junction through the wild, snowy scene.

In the afternoon the storm held off, and the clearness in the west seemed to my inexperienced eye the pledge of a fair evening. I finished my business as quickly as possible, and we set out for Starkfield with a good chance of getting there for supper. But at sunset the clouds gathered again, bringing an earlier night, and the snow began to fall straight and steadily from a sky without wind, in a soft universal diffusion more confusing than the gusts and eddies of the morning. It seemed to be a part of the thickening darkness, to be the winter night itself descending on us layer by layer.

In the afternoon, the storm held back, and the clear sky in the west looked to my untrained eye like a promise of a nice evening. I wrapped up my tasks as quickly as I could, and we headed out for Starkfield with a good chance of making it in time for dinner. But at sunset, the clouds rolled in again, bringing an early night, and the snow started to fall straight and steadily from a windless sky, in a gentle, widespread way that was more confusing than the morning's gusts and swirls. It felt like it was part of the thickening darkness, like the winter night itself was settling over us layer by layer.

The small ray of Frome’s lantern was soon lost in this smothering medium, in which even his sense of direction, and the bay’s homing instinct, finally ceased to serve us. Two or three times some ghostly landmark sprang up to warn us that we were astray, and then was sucked back into the mist; and when we finally regained our road the old horse began to show signs of exhaustion. I felt myself to blame for having accepted Frome’s offer, and after a short discussion I persuaded him to let me get out of the sleigh and walk along through the snow at the bay’s side. In this way we struggled on for another mile or two, and at last reached a point where Frome, peering into what seemed to me formless night, said: “That’s my gate down yonder.”

The small light from Frome’s lantern quickly disappeared in the heavy mist, where even his sense of direction and the bay’s natural instinct to find its way home stopped being helpful. A couple of times, a vague landmark emerged to remind us that we were lost, only to vanish back into the fog; and when we finally found our path again, the old horse began to show signs of tiredness. I felt guilty for accepting Frome’s offer, and after a brief conversation, I convinced him to let me get out of the sleigh and walk alongside the bay in the snow. We managed to push on for another mile or two, and finally reached a spot where Frome, squinting into what looked to me like an endless night, said, “That’s my gate down there.”

The last stretch had been the hardest part of the way. The bitter cold and the heavy going had nearly knocked the wind out of me, and I could feel the horse’s side ticking like a clock under my hand.

The last stretch was the toughest part of the journey. The freezing cold and the rough terrain had almost taken all my energy, and I could feel the horse’s side ticking like a clock beneath my hand.

“Look here, Frome,” I began, “there’s no earthly use in your going any farther—” but he interrupted me: “Nor you neither. There’s been about enough of this for anybody.”

“Listen, Frome,” I started, “there’s no point in you going any further—” but he cut me off: “And you too. There’s been more than enough of this for anyone.”

I understood that he was offering me a night’s shelter at the farm, and without answering I turned into the gate at his side, and followed him to the barn, where I helped him to unharness and bed down the tired horse. When this was done he unhooked the lantern from the sleigh, stepped out again into the night, and called to me over his shoulder: “This way.”

I realized he was inviting me to stay the night at the farm, and without saying anything, I turned into the gate beside him and followed him to the barn. There, I helped him take the harness off the tired horse and settled it in for the night. Once we finished, he unhooked the lantern from the sleigh, stepped back out into the night, and called to me over his shoulder, “This way.”

Far off above us a square of light trembled through the screen of snow. Staggering along in Frome’s wake I floundered toward it, and in the darkness almost fell into one of the deep drifts against the front of the house. Frome scrambled up the slippery steps of the porch, digging a way through the snow with his heavily booted foot. Then he lifted his lantern, found the latch, and led the way into the house. I went after him into a low unlit passage, at the back of which a ladder-like staircase rose into obscurity. On our right a line of light marked the door of the room which had sent its ray across the night; and behind the door I heard a woman’s voice droning querulously.

Far above us, a square of light flickered through the falling snow. Struggling to keep up with Frome, I stumbled toward it and nearly fell into one of the deep snowdrifts in front of the house. Frome climbed up the slippery porch steps, pushing through the snow with his heavy boots. Then he lifted his lantern, found the latch, and led the way inside. I followed him into a dimly lit hallway, where a staircase rose into the darkness at the back. To our right, a beam of light marked the door of the room that had illuminated the night, and behind it, I heard a woman’s voice complaining softly.

Frome stamped on the worn oil-cloth to shake the snow from his boots, and set down his lantern on a kitchen chair which was the only piece of furniture in the hall. Then he opened the door.

Frome stepped on the worn oilcloth to shake the snow off his boots and placed his lantern on a kitchen chair, the only piece of furniture in the hall. Then he opened the door.

“Come in,” he said; and as he spoke the droning voice grew still....

“Come in,” he said; and as he spoke, the buzzing voice fell silent....

It was that night that I found the clue to Ethan Frome, and began to put together this vision of his story.

It was that night that I discovered the clue to Ethan Frome and started to piece together this vision of his story.






I

The village lay under two feet of snow, with drifts at the windy corners. In a sky of iron the points of the Dipper hung like icicles and Orion flashed his cold fires. The moon had set, but the night was so transparent that the white house-fronts between the elms looked gray against the snow, clumps of bushes made black stains on it, and the basement windows of the church sent shafts of yellow light far across the endless undulations.

The village was covered in two feet of snow, with drifts piling up in the windy corners. In a gray sky, the stars of the Big Dipper hung like icicles, while Orion shone with its cold light. The moon had set, but the night was so clear that the white fronts of the houses between the elms appeared gray against the snow, clumps of bushes created dark spots on it, and the basement windows of the church cast yellow light far across the endless hills.

Young Ethan Frome walked at a quick pace along the deserted street, past the bank and Michael Eady’s new brick store and Lawyer Varnum’s house with the two black Norway spruces at the gate. Opposite the Varnum gate, where the road fell away toward the Corbury valley, the church reared its slim white steeple and narrow peristyle. As the young man walked toward it the upper windows drew a black arcade along the side wall of the building, but from the lower openings, on the side where the ground sloped steeply down to the Corbury road, the light shot its long bars, illuminating many fresh furrows in the track leading to the basement door, and showing, under an adjoining shed, a line of sleighs with heavily blanketed horses.

Young Ethan Frome walked quickly down the empty street, past the bank and Michael Eady’s new brick store and Lawyer Varnum’s house with the two black Norway spruces at the gate. Across from the Varnum gate, where the road dropped down toward the Corbury valley, the church stood tall with its slim white steeple and narrow peristyle. As the young man approached it, the upper windows created a dark arcade along the side wall of the building, but from the lower openings, where the ground sloped steeply down to the Corbury road, light spilled out in long beams, highlighting many fresh furrows in the path leading to the basement door and revealing, underneath an adjoining shed, a line of sleighs with heavily blanketed horses.

The night was perfectly still, and the air so dry and pure that it gave little sensation of cold. The effect produced on Frome was rather of a complete absence of atmosphere, as though nothing less tenuous than ether intervened between the white earth under his feet and the metallic dome overhead. “It’s like being in an exhausted receiver,” he thought. Four or five years earlier he had taken a year’s course at a technological college at Worcester, and dabbled in the laboratory with a friendly professor of physics; and the images supplied by that experience still cropped up, at unexpected moments, through the totally different associations of thought in which he had since been living. His father’s death, and the misfortunes following it, had put a premature end to Ethan’s studies; but though they had not gone far enough to be of much practical use they had fed his fancy and made him aware of huge cloudy meanings behind the daily face of things.

The night was perfectly still, and the air was so dry and pure that it hardly felt cold. The effect on Frome was more like a complete lack of atmosphere, as if there was nothing more substantial than ether between the white ground beneath him and the metallic sky above. “It’s like being in an empty receiver,” he thought. Four or five years earlier, he had spent a year in a tech college in Worcester, where he tinkered in the lab with a friendly physics professor; the images from that experience still popped up unexpectedly, despite the completely different thoughts he had been immersed in since then. His father’s death and the troubles that followed had cut Ethan’s studies short; but even though he hadn’t gone far enough for it to be really useful, those studies had sparked his imagination and made him aware of the vast, cloudy meanings behind everyday things.

As he strode along through the snow the sense of such meanings glowed in his brain and mingled with the bodily flush produced by his sharp tramp. At the end of the village he paused before the darkened front of the church. He stood there a moment, breathing quickly, and looking up and down the street, in which not another figure moved. The pitch of the Corbury road, below lawyer Varnum’s spruces, was the favourite coasting-ground of Starkfield, and on clear evenings the church corner rang till late with the shouts of the coasters; but to-night not a sled darkened the whiteness of the long declivity. The hush of midnight lay on the village, and all its waking life was gathered behind the church windows, from which strains of dance-music flowed with the broad bands of yellow light.

As he walked through the snow, thoughts filled his mind and mixed with the warmth from his brisk steps. At the edge of the village, he stopped in front of the dark church. He took a moment to catch his breath, glancing up and down the street, where not a single person was around. The hill on Corbury Road, below lawyer Varnum’s spruce trees, was the favorite sledding spot in Starkfield, and on clear nights, the corner by the church echoed with the laughter of sledders; but tonight, not a sled was in sight on the white slope. A midnight stillness blanketed the village, and all its life was gathered behind the church windows, where lively dance music flowed out into the wide bands of yellow light.

The young man, skirting the side of the building, went down the slope toward the basement door. To keep out of range of the revealing rays from within he made a circuit through the untrodden snow and gradually approached the farther angle of the basement wall. Thence, still hugging the shadow, he edged his way cautiously forward to the nearest window, holding back his straight spare body and craning his neck till he got a glimpse of the room.

The young man, moving along the side of the building, headed down the slope toward the basement door. To avoid the bright light coming from inside, he walked around in the untouched snow and slowly made his way to the far corner of the basement wall. From there, still staying in the shadows, he carefully inched closer to the nearest window, pulling back his lean body and stretching his neck until he caught a glimpse of the room.

Seen thus, from the pure and frosty darkness in which he stood, it seemed to be seething in a mist of heat. The metal reflectors of the gas-jets sent crude waves of light against the whitewashed walls, and the iron flanks of the stove at the end of the hall looked as though they were heaving with volcanic fires. The floor was thronged with girls and young men. Down the side wall facing the window stood a row of kitchen chairs from which the older women had just risen. By this time the music had stopped, and the musicians—a fiddler, and the young lady who played the harmonium on Sundays—were hastily refreshing themselves at one corner of the supper-table which aligned its devastated pie-dishes and ice-cream saucers on the platform at the end of the hall. The guests were preparing to leave, and the tide had already set toward the passage where coats and wraps were hung, when a young man with a sprightly foot and a shock of black hair shot into the middle of the floor and clapped his hands. The signal took instant effect. The musicians hurried to their instruments, the dancers—some already half-muffled for departure—fell into line down each side of the room, the older spectators slipped back to their chairs, and the lively young man, after diving about here and there in the throng, drew forth a girl who had already wound a cherry-coloured “fascinator” about her head, and, leading her up to the end of the floor, whirled her down its length to the bounding tune of a Virginia reel.

Seen like this, from the pure and frosty darkness where he stood, it looked like it was bubbling in a mist of heat. The metal reflectors of the gas lights cast rough waves of light against the whitewashed walls, and the iron sides of the stove at the end of the hall looked like they were heaving with volcanic fires. The floor was crowded with girls and young men. Along the side wall facing the window was a row of kitchen chairs that the older women had just vacated. By this time, the music had stopped, and the musicians—a fiddler and the young woman who played the harmonium on Sundays—were quickly refreshing themselves at one corner of the supper table, which displayed its empty pie dishes and ice cream bowls on the platform at the end of the hall. The guests were preparing to leave, and the crowd had already begun to move toward the passage where coats and wraps were hung when a young man with a lively step and a shock of black hair burst into the middle of the floor and clapped his hands. The signal had an instant effect. The musicians rushed to their instruments, the dancers—some already partially dressed for departure—formed lines down each side of the room, the older spectators returned to their chairs, and the energetic young man, after weaving through the crowd, pulled a girl who had already wrapped a cherry-colored “fascinator” around her head, and leading her to the end of the floor, twirled her down its length to the lively tune of a Virginia reel.

Frome’s heart was beating fast. He had been straining for a glimpse of the dark head under the cherry-coloured scarf and it vexed him that another eye should have been quicker than his. The leader of the reel, who looked as if he had Irish blood in his veins, danced well, and his partner caught his fire. As she passed down the line, her light figure swinging from hand to hand in circles of increasing swiftness, the scarf flew off her head and stood out behind her shoulders, and Frome, at each turn, caught sight of her laughing panting lips, the cloud of dark hair about her forehead, and the dark eyes which seemed the only fixed points in a maze of flying lines.

Frome's heart pounded. He had been straining to catch a glimpse of the dark head beneath the cherry-colored scarf, and it frustrated him that someone else had been quicker. The leader of the dance, who looked like he had Irish heritage, danced impressively, and his partner matched his energy. As she moved down the line, her light frame swinging from hand to hand in increasingly swift circles, the scarf flew off her head and billowed behind her. With every turn, Frome caught sight of her laughing, breathless lips, the swirl of dark hair around her forehead, and her dark eyes that seemed like the only steady points in a whirlwind of motion.

The dancers were going faster and faster, and the musicians, to keep up with them, belaboured their instruments like jockeys lashing their mounts on the home-stretch; yet it seemed to the young man at the window that the reel would never end. Now and then he turned his eyes from the girl’s face to that of her partner, which, in the exhilaration of the dance, had taken on a look of almost impudent ownership. Denis Eady was the son of Michael Eady, the ambitious Irish grocer, whose suppleness and effrontery had given Starkfield its first notion of “smart” business methods, and whose new brick store testified to the success of the attempt. His son seemed likely to follow in his steps, and was meanwhile applying the same arts to the conquest of the Starkfield maidenhood. Hitherto Ethan Frome had been content to think him a mean fellow; but now he positively invited a horse-whipping. It was strange that the girl did not seem aware of it: that she could lift her rapt face to her dancer’s, and drop her hands into his, without appearing to feel the offence of his look and touch.

The dancers were moving faster and faster, and the musicians, trying to keep up, pounded on their instruments like jockeys whipping their horses toward the finish line; yet to the young man at the window, it felt like the reel would never end. Occasionally, he shifted his gaze from the girl’s face to her partner's, which, in the excitement of the dance, had taken on a look of almost brazen possession. Denis Eady was the son of Michael Eady, the ambitious Irish grocer whose flexibility and boldness had introduced Starkfield to “smart” business practices, and whose new brick store was a testament to that success. His son seemed likely to follow in his footsteps and was now using the same tactics to win over the girls of Starkfield. Until now, Ethan Frome had been content to think of him as a petty guy; but now he was practically craving a good beating. It was odd that the girl didn’t seem to notice: she could raise her enchanted face to her dancer’s and drop her hands into his without seeming to feel the offense of his gaze and touch.

Frome was in the habit of walking into Starkfield to fetch home his wife’s cousin, Mattie Silver, on the rare evenings when some chance of amusement drew her to the village. It was his wife who had suggested, when the girl came to live with them, that such opportunities should be put in her way. Mattie Silver came from Stamford, and when she entered the Fromes’ household to act as her cousin Zeena’s aid it was thought best, as she came without pay, not to let her feel too sharp a contrast between the life she had left and the isolation of a Starkfield farm. But for this—as Frome sardonically reflected—it would hardly have occurred to Zeena to take any thought for the girl’s amusement.

Frome usually walked into Starkfield to bring home his wife’s cousin, Mattie Silver, on the rare evenings when something fun drew her to the village. It was his wife who had suggested, when the girl moved in with them, that such chances should be arranged for her. Mattie Silver came from Stamford, and when she joined the Frome household to help her cousin Zeena, it was decided that since she wasn't getting paid, they shouldn’t let her feel too much of a difference between her old life and the isolation of a Starkfield farm. Otherwise—as Frome wryly noted—it probably wouldn’t have crossed Zeena’s mind to consider the girl’s enjoyment.

When his wife first proposed that they should give Mattie an occasional evening out he had inwardly demurred at having to do the extra two miles to the village and back after his hard day on the farm; but not long afterward he had reached the point of wishing that Starkfield might give all its nights to revelry.

When his wife first suggested that they should let Mattie have a night out now and then, he quietly objected to having to make the extra two-mile trip to the village and back after a long day on the farm; but not long after that, he found himself hoping that Starkfield would dedicate all its nights to partying.

Mattie Silver had lived under his roof for a year, and from early morning till they met at supper he had frequent chances of seeing her; but no moments in her company were comparable to those when, her arm in his, and her light step flying to keep time with his long stride, they walked back through the night to the farm. He had taken to the girl from the first day, when he had driven over to the Flats to meet her, and she had smiled and waved to him from the train, crying out, “You must be Ethan!” as she jumped down with her bundles, while he reflected, looking over her slight person: “She don’t look much on housework, but she ain’t a fretter, anyhow.” But it was not only that the coming to his house of a bit of hopeful young life was like the lighting of a fire on a cold hearth. The girl was more than the bright serviceable creature he had thought her. She had an eye to see and an ear to hear: he could show her things and tell her things, and taste the bliss of feeling that all he imparted left long reverberations and echoes he could wake at will.

Mattie Silver had been living in his home for a year, and from early morning until they met for dinner, he had plenty of opportunities to see her. But no moments were as meaningful as when they walked back to the farm at night, her arm linked with his, her light step matching his long stride. He had liked her from the very first day he drove to the Flats to meet her. She smiled and waved from the train, calling out, “You must be Ethan!” as she jumped down with her bags, while he thought, glancing at her small frame, “She doesn’t seem like much of a housekeeper, but at least she isn’t a complainer.” It was more than just the presence of youthful optimism in his home, which felt like lighting a fire on a cold hearth. The girl turned out to be more than just a cheerful, useful companion. She had a keen eye and a good ear: he could show her things and share stories, experiencing the joy of knowing that everything he taught her resonated deeply, creating echoes he could recall whenever he wanted.

It was during their night walks back to the farm that he felt most intensely the sweetness of this communion. He had always been more sensitive than the people about him to the appeal of natural beauty. His unfinished studies had given form to this sensibility and even in his unhappiest moments field and sky spoke to him with a deep and powerful persuasion. But hitherto the emotion had remained in him as a silent ache, veiling with sadness the beauty that evoked it. He did not even know whether any one else in the world felt as he did, or whether he was the sole victim of this mournful privilege. Then he learned that one other spirit had trembled with the same touch of wonder: that at his side, living under his roof and eating his bread, was a creature to whom he could say: “That’s Orion down yonder; the big fellow to the right is Aldebaran, and the bunch of little ones—like bees swarming—they’re the Pleiades ...” or whom he could hold entranced before a ledge of granite thrusting up through the fern while he unrolled the huge panorama of the ice age, and the long dim stretches of succeeding time. The fact that admiration for his learning mingled with Mattie’s wonder at what he taught was not the least part of his pleasure. And there were other sensations, less definable but more exquisite, which drew them together with a shock of silent joy: the cold red of sunset behind winter hills, the flight of cloud-flocks over slopes of golden stubble, or the intensely blue shadows of hemlocks on sunlit snow. When she said to him once: “It looks just as if it was painted!” it seemed to Ethan that the art of definition could go no farther, and that words had at last been found to utter his secret soul....

It was during their night walks back to the farm that he felt the sweetness of this connection most deeply. He had always been more sensitive than those around him to the beauty of nature. His unfinished studies had shaped this sensitivity, and even in his saddest moments, the fields and sky spoke to him with a strong and compelling voice. But until now, that emotion had remained a quiet ache within him, clouding the beauty that inspired it with sadness. He didn’t even know if anyone else in the world felt as he did, or if he was the only one burdened by this bittersweet gift. Then he found out that one other soul had also felt that same sense of wonder: that living beside him, under his roof and sharing his meals, was someone to whom he could say, “That’s Orion over there; the big one on the right is Aldebaran, and the cluster of little stars—like bees swarming—they’re the Pleiades...” or someone he could captivate while standing in front of a slab of granite pushing up through the ferns as he unfolded the vast story of the ice age and the long, hazy stretches of time that followed. The fact that Mattie's admiration for his knowledge mingled with her wonder at what he taught added to his joy. There were also other feelings, harder to define but more intense, that brought them together in a burst of silent happiness: the deep red of sunset behind winter hills, the movement of clouds over fields of golden stubble, or the striking blue shadows of hemlocks on bright snow. When she once said to him, “It looks just like it’s painted!” it felt to Ethan as if words had finally been found to express his soul's deepest secrets.

As he stood in the darkness outside the church these memories came back with the poignancy of vanished things. Watching Mattie whirl down the floor from hand to hand he wondered how he could ever have thought that his dull talk interested her. To him, who was never gay but in her presence, her gaiety seemed plain proof of indifference. The face she lifted to her dancers was the same which, when she saw him, always looked like a window that has caught the sunset. He even noticed two or three gestures which, in his fatuity, he had thought she kept for him: a way of throwing her head back when she was amused, as if to taste her laugh before she let it out, and a trick of sinking her lids slowly when anything charmed or moved her.

As he stood in the darkness outside the church, those memories flooded back with the bittersweetness of things that are lost. Watching Mattie twirl across the floor from one partner to another, he wondered how he could have ever believed his boring conversation interested her. For him, someone who was only ever lively in her presence, her joy felt like obvious proof of her indifference. The expression she showed her dance partners was the same one that always looked like a window catching the sunset when she saw him. He even noticed a few gestures he had foolishly thought were just for him: the way she threw her head back when she was amused, as if savoring her laughter before sharing it, and the way she slowly lowered her eyelids when something enchanted or moved her.

The sight made him unhappy, and his unhappiness roused his latent fears. His wife had never shown any jealousy of Mattie, but of late she had grumbled increasingly over the house-work and found oblique ways of attracting attention to the girl’s inefficiency. Zeena had always been what Starkfield called “sickly,” and Frome had to admit that, if she were as ailing as she believed, she needed the help of a stronger arm than the one which lay so lightly in his during the night walks to the farm. Mattie had no natural turn for housekeeping, and her training had done nothing to remedy the defect. She was quick to learn, but forgetful and dreamy, and not disposed to take the matter seriously. Ethan had an idea that if she were to marry a man she was fond of the dormant instinct would wake, and her pies and biscuits become the pride of the county; but domesticity in the abstract did not interest her. At first she was so awkward that he could not help laughing at her; but she laughed with him and that made them better friends. He did his best to supplement her unskilled efforts, getting up earlier than usual to light the kitchen fire, carrying in the wood overnight, and neglecting the mill for the farm that he might help her about the house during the day. He even crept down on Saturday nights to scrub the kitchen floor after the women had gone to bed; and Zeena, one day, had surprised him at the churn and had turned away silently, with one of her queer looks.

The sight made him feel down, and his unhappiness stirred up his hidden fears. His wife had never shown any jealousy toward Mattie, but recently, she had been complaining more about the housework and finding subtle ways to point out the girl’s shortcomings. Zeena had always been what Starkfield referred to as “sickly,” and Frome had to admit that if she were as ill as she thought, she needed help from someone stronger than the arm that rested so lightly in his during their night walks to the farm. Mattie didn’t have a natural knack for housework, and her training hadn’t helped the situation. She picked things up quickly but was forgetful and daydreamy, and didn’t take it seriously. Ethan thought that if she married a man she liked, her natural instincts might kick in, and her pies and biscuits would become the envy of the county; but the concept of domestic life didn’t excite her. At first, she was so clumsy that he couldn’t help but laugh at her; but she laughed along with him, which made them closer. He did his best to support her inexperienced efforts, getting up earlier than usual to start the kitchen fire, bringing in wood overnight, and skipping the mill so he could help her around the house during the day. He even sneaked out on Saturday nights to scrub the kitchen floor after the women went to bed; and one day, Zeena caught him at the churn and silently turned away, giving him one of her strange looks.

Of late there had been other signs of her disfavour, as intangible but more disquieting. One cold winter morning, as he dressed in the dark, his candle flickering in the draught of the ill-fitting window, he had heard her speak from the bed behind him.

Of late, there had been other signs of her displeasure, subtle yet more unsettling. One cold winter morning, as he got dressed in the dark, his candle flickering in the draft from the poorly fitting window, he heard her voice coming from the bed behind him.

“The doctor don’t want I should be left without anybody to do for me,” she said in her flat whine.

“The doctor doesn't want me to be left without anyone to take care of me,” she said in her flat whine.

He had supposed her to be asleep, and the sound of her voice had startled him, though she was given to abrupt explosions of speech after long intervals of secretive silence.

He thought she was asleep, and her voice surprised him, even though she often burst into conversation after long periods of quiet.

He turned and looked at her where she lay indistinctly outlined under the dark calico quilt, her high-boned face taking a grayish tinge from the whiteness of the pillow.

He turned and looked at her as she lay softly defined under the dark calico quilt, her high-boned face taking on a grayish hue from the brightness of the pillow.

“Nobody to do for you?” he repeated.

“Nobody to do it for you?” he repeated.

“If you say you can’t afford a hired girl when Mattie goes.”

“If you say you can’t afford a hired girl when Mattie leaves.”

Frome turned away again, and taking up his razor stooped to catch the reflection of his stretched cheek in the blotched looking-glass above the wash-stand.

Frome turned away again and picked up his razor, bending down to see the reflection of his stretched cheek in the stained mirror above the sink.

“Why on earth should Mattie go?”

“Why on earth should Mattie go?”

“Well, when she gets married, I mean,” his wife’s drawl came from behind him.

“Well, when she gets married, I mean,” his wife’s drawl came from behind him.

“Oh, she’d never leave us as long as you needed her,” he returned, scraping hard at his chin.

“Oh, she’d never leave us as long as you needed her,” he replied, scratching his chin.

“I wouldn’t ever have it said that I stood in the way of a poor girl like Mattie marrying a smart fellow like Denis Eady,” Zeena answered in a tone of plaintive self-effacement.

“I would never let it be said that I prevented a poor girl like Mattie from marrying a smart guy like Denis Eady,” Zeena replied in a tone of hurt humility.

Ethan, glaring at his face in the glass, threw his head back to draw the razor from ear to chin. His hand was steady, but the attitude was an excuse for not making an immediate reply.

Ethan, staring at his reflection in the glass, tilted his head back to drag the razor from ear to chin. His hand was steady, but the pose was just an excuse for not responding right away.

“And the doctor don’t want I should be left without anybody,” Zeena continued. “He wanted I should speak to you about a girl he’s heard about, that might come—”

“And the doctor doesn't want me to be left with no one,” Zeena continued. “He wanted me to talk to you about a girl he’s heard about, who might come—”

Ethan laid down the razor and straightened himself with a laugh.

Ethan set down the razor and straightened up with a laugh.

“Denis Eady! If that’s all, I guess there’s no such hurry to look round for a girl.”

“Denis Eady! If that’s it, I guess there’s no rush to look for a girl.”

“Well, I’d like to talk to you about it,” said Zeena obstinately.

"Well, I want to talk to you about it," Zeena said stubbornly.

He was getting into his clothes in fumbling haste. “All right. But I haven’t got the time now; I’m late as it is,” he returned, holding his old silver turnip-watch to the candle.

He was quickly getting dressed in a clumsy rush. “Okay. But I don’t have time right now; I’m already late,” he said, holding his old silver turnip watch up to the candle.

Zeena, apparently accepting this as final, lay watching him in silence while he pulled his suspenders over his shoulders and jerked his arms into his coat; but as he went toward the door she said, suddenly and incisively: “I guess you’re always late, now you shave every morning.”

Zeena, seemingly accepting this as final, lay there in silence watching him as he pulled his suspenders over his shoulders and slipped his arms into his coat; but as he headed toward the door, she said, suddenly and sharply: “I guess you’re always late now that you shave every morning.”

That thrust had frightened him more than any vague insinuations about Denis Eady. It was a fact that since Mattie Silver’s coming he had taken to shaving every day; but his wife always seemed to be asleep when he left her side in the winter darkness, and he had stupidly assumed that she would not notice any change in his appearance. Once or twice in the past he had been faintly disquieted by Zenobia’s way of letting things happen without seeming to remark them, and then, weeks afterward, in a casual phrase, revealing that she had all along taken her notes and drawn her inferences. Of late, however, there had been no room in his thoughts for such vague apprehensions. Zeena herself, from an oppressive reality, had faded into an insubstantial shade. All his life was lived in the sight and sound of Mattie Silver, and he could no longer conceive of its being otherwise. But now, as he stood outside the church, and saw Mattie spinning down the floor with Denis Eady, a throng of disregarded hints and menaces wove their cloud about his brain....

That push had scared him more than any vague hints about Denis Eady. Since Mattie Silver had come into his life, he had started shaving every day; but his wife always seemed to be asleep when he left her in the winter darkness, and he had foolishly thought she wouldn’t notice any change in how he looked. A few times in the past, he had felt a bit uneasy about Zenobia’s way of letting things happen without acknowledging them, only to later reveal in a casual comment that she had been aware of everything and had drawn her conclusions all along. Recently, though, he hadn’t had the mental space for those kinds of vague worries. Zeena herself, once a heavy reality, had faded into a shadow. His entire life revolved around Mattie Silver, and he couldn’t imagine it any other way. But now, as he stood outside the church and saw Mattie dancing with Denis Eady, a swirl of ignored hints and threats filled his mind...





II

As the dancers poured out of the hall Frome, drawing back behind the projecting storm-door, watched the segregation of the grotesquely muffled groups, in which a moving lantern ray now and then lit up a face flushed with food and dancing. The villagers, being afoot, were the first to climb the slope to the main street, while the country neighbours packed themselves more slowly into the sleighs under the shed.

As the dancers exited the hall, Frome stood back behind the jutting storm door, observing the separation of the oddly bundled groups, where a moving beam of light occasionally highlighted a face flushed from food and dancing. The villagers, on foot, were the first to head up the hill to the main street, while the country neighbors climbed into the sleighs under the shelter at a more leisurely pace.

“Ain’t you riding, Mattie?” a woman’s voice called back from the throng about the shed, and Ethan’s heart gave a jump. From where he stood he could not see the persons coming out of the hall till they had advanced a few steps beyond the wooden sides of the storm-door; but through its cracks he heard a clear voice answer: “Mercy no! Not on such a night.”

“Aren’t you riding, Mattie?” a woman’s voice called back from the crowd around the shed, and Ethan’s heart skipped a beat. From where he stood, he couldn’t see the people coming out of the hall until they had taken a few steps past the wooden edges of the storm-door; but through its cracks, he heard a clear voice reply: “No way! Not on a night like this.”

She was there, then, close to him, only a thin board between. In another moment she would step forth into the night, and his eyes, accustomed to the obscurity, would discern her as clearly as though she stood in daylight. A wave of shyness pulled him back into the dark angle of the wall, and he stood there in silence instead of making his presence known to her. It had been one of the wonders of their intercourse that from the first, she, the quicker, finer, more expressive, instead of crushing him by the contrast, had given him something of her own ease and freedom; but now he felt as heavy and loutish as in his student days, when he had tried to “jolly” the Worcester girls at a picnic.

She was there, close to him, with just a thin board between them. Any moment now, she would step out into the night, and his eyes, used to the darkness, would see her as clearly as if she were in daylight. A wave of shyness pulled him back into the shadow of the wall, and he stood there in silence instead of letting her know he was there. It had always been one of the amazing things about their relationship that from the very beginning, she, being quicker, more refined, and more expressive, didn’t overwhelm him with the difference but had given him some of her own ease and freedom; but now he felt clumsy and awkward, just like he did in his student days when he tried to impress the Worcester girls at a picnic.

He hung back, and she came out alone and paused within a few yards of him. She was almost the last to leave the hall, and she stood looking uncertainly about her as if wondering why he did not show himself. Then a man’s figure approached, coming so close to her that under their formless wrappings they seemed merged in one dim outline.

He hung back, and she stepped out alone, stopping just a few yards away from him. She was nearly the last to leave the hall, and she stood there, looking around uncertainly as if she was wondering why he wasn’t coming forward. Then a man walked up to her, getting so close that their loose clothing made them look like one blurred shape.

“Gentleman friend gone back on you? Say, Matt, that’s tough! No, I wouldn’t be mean enough to tell the other girls. I ain’t as low-down as that.” (How Frome hated his cheap banter!) “But look at here, ain’t it lucky I got the old man’s cutter down there waiting for us?”

“Your friend ditched you? Wow, Matt, that’s rough! No, I wouldn’t be cruel enough to tell the other girls. I'm not that low.” (How Frome hated his cheap jokes!) “But hey, isn’t it great that I have the old man’s cutter down there waiting for us?”

Frome heard the girl’s voice, gaily incredulous: “What on earth’s your father’s cutter doin’ down there?”

Frome heard the girl's voice, playfully skeptical: "What on earth is your father's cutter doing down there?"

“Why, waiting for me to take a ride. I got the roan colt too. I kinder knew I’d want to take a ride to-night,” Eady, in his triumph, tried to put a sentimental note into his bragging voice.

“Why, waiting for me to go for a ride. I got the roan colt too. I kind of knew I’d want to take a ride tonight,” Eady, in his triumph, tried to add a sentimental touch to his boastful tone.

The girl seemed to waver, and Frome saw her twirl the end of her scarf irresolutely about her fingers. Not for the world would he have made a sign to her, though it seemed to him that his life hung on her next gesture.

The girl looked unsure, and Frome noticed her twirling the end of her scarf nervously around her fingers. He wouldn’t have dared to signal her, even though it felt like his whole life depended on what she would do next.

“Hold on a minute while I unhitch the colt,” Denis called to her, springing toward the shed.

“Hold on a minute while I unhook the colt,” Denis called to her, springing toward the shed.

She stood perfectly still, looking after him, in an attitude of tranquil expectancy torturing to the hidden watcher. Frome noticed that she no longer turned her head from side to side, as though peering through the night for another figure. She let Denis Eady lead out the horse, climb into the cutter and fling back the bearskin to make room for her at his side; then, with a swift motion of flight, she turned about and darted up the slope toward the front of the church.

She stood completely still, watching him with a calm look that was frustrating for the hidden observer. Frome saw that she wasn't scanning the night anymore, searching for another person. She let Denis Eady take out the horse, get into the cutter, and throw back the bearskin to make space for her beside him; then, with a quick motion, she turned and ran up the slope toward the front of the church.

“Good-bye! Hope you’ll have a lovely ride!” she called back to him over her shoulder.

“Goodbye! Hope you have a great ride!” she called back to him over her shoulder.

Denis laughed, and gave the horse a cut that brought him quickly abreast of her retreating figure.

Denis laughed and gave the horse a tap that brought him quickly up beside her retreating figure.

“Come along! Get in quick! It’s as slippery as thunder on this turn,” he cried, leaning over to reach out a hand to her.

“Come on! Get in fast! It's super slippery on this turn,” he shouted, leaning over to grab her hand.

She laughed back at him: “Good-night! I’m not getting in.”

She laughed back at him: “Good night! I’m not getting in.”

By this time they had passed beyond Frome’s earshot and he could only follow the shadowy pantomime of their silhouettes as they continued to move along the crest of the slope above him. He saw Eady, after a moment, jump from the cutter and go toward the girl with the reins over one arm. The other he tried to slip through hers; but she eluded him nimbly, and Frome’s heart, which had swung out over a black void, trembled back to safety. A moment later he heard the jingle of departing sleigh bells and discerned a figure advancing alone toward the empty expanse of snow before the church.

By this point, they had moved out of Frome’s hearing range, and he could only follow the shadowy outline of their figures as they continued along the top of the slope above him. He noticed Eady, after a moment, jump down from the cutter and head toward the girl with the reins draped over one arm. He tried to slip his other hand through hers, but she dodged him skillfully, causing Frome’s heart, which had been teetering on the edge of despair, to return to safety. A moment later, he heard the sound of sleigh bells fading away and saw a figure approaching alone across the empty stretch of snow in front of the church.

In the black shade of the Varnum spruces he caught up with her and she turned with a quick “Oh!”

In the dark shade of the Varnum spruces, he caught up with her, and she turned with a quick "Oh!"

“Think I’d forgotten you, Matt?” he asked with sheepish glee.

“Do you think I’ve forgotten about you, Matt?” he asked with a guilty smile.

She answered seriously: “I thought maybe you couldn’t come back for me.”

She replied earnestly, “I was worried you might not come back for me.”

“Couldn’t? What on earth could stop me?”

“Couldn’t? What on earth could hold me back?”

“I knew Zeena wasn’t feeling any too good to-day.”

“I knew Zeena wasn't feeling too well today.”

“Oh, she’s in bed long ago.” He paused, a question struggling in him. “Then you meant to walk home all alone?”

“Oh, she’s been in bed for a while.” He paused, a question forming in his mind. “So, you planned to walk home all by yourself?”

“Oh, I ain’t afraid!” she laughed.

“Oh, I’m not scared!” she laughed.

They stood together in the gloom of the spruces, an empty world glimmering about them wide and grey under the stars. He brought his question out.

They stood together in the shadows of the spruces, an empty world shimmering around them, vast and gray under the stars. He voiced his question.

“If you thought I hadn’t come, why didn’t you ride back with Denis Eady?”

“If you thought I wasn’t here, why didn’t you go back with Denis Eady?”

“Why, where were you? How did you know? I never saw you!”

“Why, where were you? How did you find out? I never saw you!”

Her wonder and his laughter ran together like spring rills in a thaw. Ethan had the sense of having done something arch and ingenious. To prolong the effect he groped for a dazzling phrase, and brought out, in a growl of rapture: “Come along.”

Her amazement and his laughter flowed together like a bubbling brook in the spring thaw. Ethan felt like he had done something clever and charming. To keep the moment going, he searched for a brilliant line and finally said, with a joyful growl: “Come on.”

He slipped an arm through hers, as Eady had done, and fancied it was faintly pressed against her side, but neither of them moved. It was so dark under the spruces that he could barely see the shape of her head beside his shoulder. He longed to stoop his cheek and rub it against her scarf. He would have liked to stand there with her all night in the blackness. She moved forward a step or two and then paused again above the dip of the Corbury road. Its icy slope, scored by innumerable runners, looked like a mirror scratched by travellers at an inn.

He slipped his arm through hers, like Eady had done, and imagined it was lightly pressing against her side, but neither of them moved. It was so dark under the spruces that he could barely make out the shape of her head next to his shoulder. He wanted to lean down and rub his cheek against her scarf. He would have loved to stay there with her all night in the darkness. She stepped forward a few paces and then paused again above the dip of the Corbury road. Its icy slope, marked by countless runners, looked like a mirror scratched by travelers at an inn.

“There was a whole lot of them coasting before the moon set,” she said.

“There were a bunch of them drifting before the moon went down,” she said.

“Would you like to come in and coast with them some night?” he asked.

“Would you like to come in and hang out with them one night?” he asked.

“Oh, would you, Ethan? It would be lovely!”

“Oh, would you, Ethan? That would be great!”

“We’ll come to-morrow if there’s a moon.”

“We’ll come tomorrow if there’s a moon.”

She lingered, pressing closer to his side. “Ned Hale and Ruth Varnum came just as near running into the big elm at the bottom. We were all sure they were killed.” Her shiver ran down his arm. “Wouldn’t it have been too awful? They’re so happy!”

She stayed close to him, leaning in. “Ned Hale and Ruth Varnum came really close to crashing into the big elm at the bottom. We all thought they were dead.” She shivered, and he felt it on his arm. “That would have been terrible! They’re so happy!”

“Oh, Ned ain’t much at steering. I guess I can take you down all right!” he said disdainfully.

“Oh, Ned isn’t very good at steering. I think I can get you there just fine!” he said dismissively.

He was aware that he was “talking big,” like Denis Eady; but his reaction of joy had unsteadied him, and the inflection with which she had said of the engaged couple “They’re so happy!” made the words sound as if she had been thinking of herself and him.

He knew he was “showing off,” like Denis Eady; but his joyful reaction had thrown him off balance, and the way she had said about the engaged couple “They’re so happy!” made it sound like she was really thinking about herself and him.

“The elm is dangerous, though. It ought to be cut down,” she insisted.

“The elm is dangerous, though. It should be cut down,” she insisted.

“Would you be afraid of it, with me?”

“Would you be scared of it, with me?”

“I told you I ain’t the kind to be afraid,” she tossed back, almost indifferently; and suddenly she began to walk on with a rapid step.

“I told you I’m not the kind to be afraid,” she replied, almost casually; and suddenly she started walking quickly.

These alterations of mood were the despair and joy of Ethan Frome. The motions of her mind were as incalculable as the flit of a bird in the branches. The fact that he had no right to show his feelings, and thus provoke the expression of hers, made him attach a fantastic importance to every change in her look and tone. Now he thought she understood him, and feared; now he was sure she did not, and despaired. To-night the pressure of accumulated misgivings sent the scale drooping toward despair, and her indifference was the more chilling after the flush of joy into which she had plunged him by dismissing Denis Eady. He mounted School House Hill at her side and walked on in silence till they reached the lane leading to the saw-mill; then the need of some definite assurance grew too strong for him.

These mood swings were both the sadness and joy of Ethan Frome. Her thoughts flitted around like a bird in the branches, impossible to predict. The fact that he felt he had no right to reveal his feelings, which would in turn provoke her to express hers, made him attach absurd significance to every change in her expression and tone. One moment he thought she understood him and felt anxious; the next he was convinced she didn't and felt hopeless. Tonight, the weight of his accumulated worries tipped him toward despair, and her indifference felt even colder after the rush of joy she'd given him by sending Denis Eady away. He climbed School House Hill beside her, walking in silence until they got to the lane leading to the sawmill; then he felt an overwhelming need for some clear reassurance.

“You’d have found me right off if you hadn’t gone back to have that last reel with Denis,” he brought out awkwardly. He could not pronounce the name without a stiffening of the muscles of his throat.

“You would have found me right away if you hadn’t gone back for that last session with Denis,” he said awkwardly. He couldn’t say the name without tensing the muscles in his throat.

“Why, Ethan, how could I tell you were there?”

“Why, Ethan, how was I supposed to know you were there?”

“I suppose what folks say is true,” he jerked out at her, instead of answering.

“I guess what people say is true,” he shot back at her instead of replying.

She stopped short, and he felt, in the darkness, that her face was lifted quickly to his. “Why, what do folks say?”

She suddenly paused, and he sensed, in the darkness, that her face quickly turned up towards his. “What do people say?”

“It’s natural enough you should be leaving us,” he floundered on, following his thought.

“It’s pretty understandable that you’re leaving us,” he stumbled on, continuing his thought.

“Is that what they say?” she mocked back at him; then, with a sudden drop of her sweet treble: “You mean that Zeena—ain’t suited with me any more?” she faltered.

“Is that what they say?” she mocked back at him; then, with a sudden drop of her sweet voice: “You mean that Zeena—doesn’t fit with me anymore?” she faltered.

Their arms had slipped apart and they stood motionless, each seeking to distinguish the other’s face.

Their arms had pulled away, and they stood still, each trying to make out the other’s face.

“I know I ain’t anything like as smart as I ought to be,” she went on, while he vainly struggled for expression. “There’s lots of things a hired girl could do that come awkward to me still—and I haven’t got much strength in my arms. But if she’d only tell me I’d try. You know she hardly ever says anything, and sometimes I can see she ain’t suited, and yet I don’t know why.” She turned on him with a sudden flash of indignation. “You’d ought to tell me, Ethan Frome—you’d ought to! Unless you want me to go too—”

“I know I’m not as smart as I should be,” she continued, while he struggled to find the right words. “There are a lot of things a hired girl could do that I still find awkward—and I don’t have much strength in my arms. But if she would just tell me, I’d definitely try. You know she hardly ever says anything, and sometimes I can tell she’s not the right fit, but I don’t know why.” She suddenly confronted him with a flash of anger. “You should tell me, Ethan Frome—you really should! Unless you want me to leave too—”

Unless he wanted her to go too! The cry was balm to his raw wound. The iron heavens seemed to melt and rain down sweetness. Again he struggled for the all-expressive word, and again, his arm in hers, found only a deep “Come along.”

Unless he wanted her to leave too! The cry was soothing to his hurting heart. The heavy skies seemed to soften and shower down goodness. Again he tried to find the perfect words, and once more, with his arm linked with hers, he could only manage a deep “Let’s go.”

They walked on in silence through the blackness of the hemlock-shaded lane, where Ethan’s sawmill gloomed through the night, and out again into the comparative clearness of the fields. On the farther side of the hemlock belt the open country rolled away before them grey and lonely under the stars. Sometimes their way led them under the shade of an overhanging bank or through the thin obscurity of a clump of leafless trees. Here and there a farmhouse stood far back among the fields, mute and cold as a grave-stone. The night was so still that they heard the frozen snow crackle under their feet. The crash of a loaded branch falling far off in the woods reverberated like a musket-shot, and once a fox barked, and Mattie shrank closer to Ethan, and quickened her steps.

They walked in silence through the darkness of the hemlock-shaded path, where Ethan’s sawmill loomed in the night, and then back into the relatively clearer fields. On the other side of the hemlock trees, the open countryside stretched out before them, grey and lonely under the stars. Sometimes their path took them under the shade of an overhanging bank or through the dimness of a cluster of leafless trees. Every so often, a farmhouse stood far back in the fields, silent and cold like a gravestone. The night was so quiet that they could hear the frozen snow crunching beneath their feet. The sound of a heavy branch falling far off in the woods echoed like a gunshot, and once a fox barked, causing Mattie to pull closer to Ethan and quicken her pace.

At length they sighted the group of larches at Ethan’s gate, and as they drew near it the sense that the walk was over brought back his words.

At last, they saw the cluster of larches at Ethan’s gate, and as they approached, the feeling that the walk was over reminded him of his words.

“Then you don’t want to leave us, Matt?”

“Then you don’t want to leave us, Matt?”

He had to stoop his head to catch her stifled whisper: “Where’d I go, if I did?”

He had to lean down to hear her quiet whisper: “Where would I go, if I did?”

The answer sent a pang through him but the tone suffused him with joy. He forgot what else he had meant to say and pressed her against him so closely that he seemed to feel her warmth in his veins.

The answer hit him hard, but the tone filled him with happiness. He forgot everything else he wanted to say and pulled her in so tightly that he felt her warmth flowing through his veins.

“You ain’t crying are you, Matt?”

“You're not crying, are you, Matt?”

“No, of course I’m not,” she quavered.

“No, of course I’m not,” she said, trembling.

They turned in at the gate and passed under the shaded knoll where, enclosed in a low fence, the Frome grave-stones slanted at crazy angles through the snow. Ethan looked at them curiously. For years that quiet company had mocked his restlessness, his desire for change and freedom. “We never got away—how should you?” seemed to be written on every headstone; and whenever he went in or out of his gate he thought with a shiver: “I shall just go on living here till I join them.” But now all desire for change had vanished, and the sight of the little enclosure gave him a warm sense of continuance and stability.

They turned into the gate and went under the shaded hill where, enclosed by a low fence, the Frome gravestones leaned at odd angles through the snow. Ethan looked at them with curiosity. For years, that quiet group had mocked his restlessness, his craving for change and freedom. “We never got away—how could you?” seemed to be written on every headstone; and every time he entered or exited his gate, he thought with a shiver: “I’ll just keep living here until I join them.” But now, any desire for change had disappeared, and the sight of the small enclosure filled him with a comforting sense of continuity and stability.

“I guess we’ll never let you go, Matt,” he whispered, as though even the dead, lovers once, must conspire with him to keep her; and brushing by the graves, he thought: “We’ll always go on living here together, and some day she’ll lie there beside me.”

“I guess we’ll never let you go, Matt,” he whispered, as if even the dead, who were once lovers, had to join him in keeping her; and as he walked past the graves, he thought: “We’ll always go on living here together, and someday she’ll lie there next to me.”

He let the vision possess him as they climbed the hill to the house. He was never so happy with her as when he abandoned himself to these dreams. Half-way up the slope Mattie stumbled against some unseen obstruction and clutched his sleeve to steady herself. The wave of warmth that went through him was like the prolongation of his vision. For the first time he stole his arm about her, and she did not resist. They walked on as if they were floating on a summer stream.

He let the vision take over as they walked up the hill to the house. He had never felt so happy with her as when he surrendered to these dreams. Halfway up the slope, Mattie tripped over something unseen and grabbed his sleeve to steady herself. The rush of warmth that surged through him felt like an extension of his vision. For the first time, he wrapped his arm around her, and she didn’t pull away. They continued on as if they were gliding on a summer stream.

Zeena always went to bed as soon as she had had her supper, and the shutterless windows of the house were dark. A dead cucumber-vine dangled from the porch like the crape streamer tied to the door for a death, and the thought flashed through Ethan’s brain: “If it was there for Zeena—” Then he had a distinct sight of his wife lying in their bedroom asleep, her mouth slightly open, her false teeth in a tumbler by the bed....

Zeena would always go to bed right after dinner, and the house's windows without shutters were dark. A lifeless cucumber vine hung from the porch like a black ribbon tied to the door for mourning, and a thought crossed Ethan's mind: “If it’s there for Zeena—” Then he clearly pictured his wife lying in their bedroom, asleep, her mouth slightly open, her dentures resting in a glass by the bed...

They walked around to the back of the house, between the rigid gooseberry bushes. It was Zeena’s habit, when they came back late from the village, to leave the key of the kitchen door under the mat. Ethan stood before the door, his head heavy with dreams, his arm still about Mattie. “Matt—” he began, not knowing what he meant to say.

They walked around to the back of the house, between the stiff gooseberry bushes. It was Zeena’s routine, when they returned late from the village, to leave the kitchen door key under the mat. Ethan stood in front of the door, his head filled with dreams, his arm still around Mattie. “Matt—” he started, unsure of what he wanted to say.

She slipped out of his hold without speaking, and he stooped down and felt for the key.

She slipped out of his grip without saying a word, and he bent down to search for the key.

“It’s not there!” he said, straightening himself with a start.

“It’s not there!” he exclaimed, sitting up straight in surprise.

They strained their eyes at each other through the icy darkness. Such a thing had never happened before.

They squinted at each other through the freezing darkness. This had never happened before.

“Maybe she’s forgotten it,” Mattie said in a tremulous whisper; but both of them knew that it was not like Zeena to forget.

“Maybe she’s forgotten it,” Mattie said in a shaky whisper; but both of them knew that it wasn’t like Zeena to forget.

“It might have fallen off into the snow,” Mattie continued, after a pause during which they had stood intently listening.

“It might have fallen into the snow,” Mattie continued, after a pause during which they stood listening intently.

“It must have been pushed off, then,” he rejoined in the same tone. Another wild thought tore through him. What if tramps had been there—what if....

“It must have been pushed off, then,” he replied in the same tone. Another wild thought raced through his mind. What if homeless people had been there—what if....

Again he listened, fancying he heard a distant sound in the house; then he felt in his pocket for a match, and kneeling down, passed its light slowly over the rough edges of snow about the doorstep.

Again he listened, imagining he heard a faint sound in the house; then he felt in his pocket for a match, and kneeling down, slowly moved its light over the jagged edges of snow around the doorstep.

He was still kneeling when his eyes, on a level with the lower panel of the door, caught a faint ray beneath it. Who could be stirring in that silent house? He heard a step on the stairs, and again for an instant the thought of tramps tore through him. Then the door opened and he saw his wife.

He was still kneeling when his eyes, at the level of the lower panel of the door, caught a faint ray of light coming from beneath it. Who could be moving around in that quiet house? He heard a step on the stairs, and for a moment, the thought of intruders flashed through his mind. Then the door opened, and he saw his wife.

Against the dark background of the kitchen she stood up tall and angular, one hand drawing a quilted counterpane to her flat breast, while the other held a lamp. The light, on a level with her chin, drew out of the darkness her puckered throat and the projecting wrist of the hand that clutched the quilt, and deepened fantastically the hollows and prominences of her high-boned face under its ring of crimping-pins. To Ethan, still in the rosy haze of his hour with Mattie, the sight came with the intense precision of the last dream before waking. He felt as if he had never before known what his wife looked like.

Against the dark backdrop of the kitchen, she stood tall and angular, one hand pulling a quilted blanket close to her chest while the other held a lamp. The light, at chin level, illuminated her puckered throat and the wrist of the hand gripping the blanket, enhancing the shadows and contours of her high-boned face beneath its ring of crimping pins. For Ethan, still basking in the warm glow of his time with Mattie, the sight felt strikingly vivid, like the last dream before waking. He felt as if he had never truly seen what his wife looked like before.

She drew aside without speaking, and Mattie and Ethan passed into the kitchen, which had the deadly chill of a vault after the dry cold of the night.

She stepped aside without saying anything, and Mattie and Ethan walked into the kitchen, which felt as cold as a vault after the dry chill of the night.

“Guess you forgot about us, Zeena,” Ethan joked, stamping the snow from his boots.

“Looks like you forgot about us, Zeena,” Ethan joked, shaking the snow off his boots.

“No. I just felt so mean I couldn’t sleep.”

“No. I just felt so awful I couldn’t sleep.”

Mattie came forward, unwinding her wraps, the colour of the cherry scarf in her fresh lips and cheeks. “I’m so sorry, Zeena! Isn’t there anything I can do?”

Mattie stepped forward, taking off her wraps, the color of her cherry scarf matching the fresh shade of her lips and cheeks. “I’m really sorry, Zeena! Is there anything I can do?”

“No; there’s nothing.” Zeena turned away from her. “You might ’a’ shook off that snow outside,” she said to her husband.

“No, there’s nothing.” Zeena turned away from her. “You could’ve shaken off that snow outside,” she said to her husband.

She walked out of the kitchen ahead of them and pausing in the hall raised the lamp at arm’s-length, as if to light them up the stairs.

She walked out of the kitchen in front of them and paused in the hallway, raising the lamp at arm's length as if to light their way up the stairs.

Ethan paused also, affecting to fumble for the peg on which he hung his coat and cap. The doors of the two bedrooms faced each other across the narrow upper landing, and to-night it was peculiarly repugnant to him that Mattie should see him follow Zeena.

Ethan paused as well, pretending to search for the peg where he hung his coat and cap. The doors of the two bedrooms faced each other across the narrow upper landing, and tonight, it was especially distasteful to him that Mattie would see him follow Zeena.

“I guess I won’t come up yet awhile,” he said, turning as if to go back to the kitchen.

“I guess I won’t go up just yet,” he said, turning as if to head back to the kitchen.

Zeena stopped short and looked at him. “For the land’s sake—what you going to do down here?”

Zeena paused and stared at him. “For heaven’s sake—what are you doing down here?”

“I’ve got the mill accounts to go over.”

“I need to review the mill accounts.”

She continued to stare at him, the flame of the unshaded lamp bringing out with microscopic cruelty the fretful lines of her face.

She kept staring at him, the bright light of the bare lamp highlighting the worried lines on her face with painful intensity.

“At this time o’ night? You’ll ketch your death. The fire’s out long ago.”

“At this time of night? You'll catch your death. The fire went out a long time ago.”

Without answering he moved away toward the kitchen. As he did so his glance crossed Mattie’s and he fancied that a fugitive warning gleamed through her lashes. The next moment they sank to her flushed cheeks and she began to mount the stairs ahead of Zeena.

Without answering, he walked over to the kitchen. As he did, his gaze met Mattie’s, and he thought he saw a fleeting warning flicker through her lashes. The next moment, her eyes dropped to her flushed cheeks, and she started to go up the stairs ahead of Zeena.

“That’s so. It is powerful cold down here,” Ethan assented; and with lowered head he went up in his wife’s wake, and followed her across the threshold of their room.

“That’s true. It is really cold down here,” Ethan agreed; and with his head down, he followed his wife across the threshold of their room.





III

There was some hauling to be done at the lower end of the wood-lot, and Ethan was out early the next day.

There was some hauling to be done at the lower end of the woodlot, and Ethan was out early the next day.

The winter morning was as clear as crystal. The sunrise burned red in a pure sky, the shadows on the rim of the wood-lot were darkly blue, and beyond the white and scintillating fields patches of far-off forest hung like smoke.

The winter morning was as clear as glass. The sunrise blazed red in a clean sky, the shadows on the edge of the woods were deep blue, and beyond the bright, sparkling fields, distant patches of forest lingered like smoke.

It was in the early morning stillness, when his muscles were swinging to their familiar task and his lungs expanding with long draughts of mountain air, that Ethan did his clearest thinking. He and Zeena had not exchanged a word after the door of their room had closed on them. She had measured out some drops from a medicine-bottle on a chair by the bed and, after swallowing them, and wrapping her head in a piece of yellow flannel, had lain down with her face turned away. Ethan undressed hurriedly and blew out the light so that he should not see her when he took his place at her side. As he lay there he could hear Mattie moving about in her room, and her candle, sending its small ray across the landing, drew a scarcely perceptible line of light under his door. He kept his eyes fixed on the light till it vanished. Then the room grew perfectly black, and not a sound was audible but Zeena’s asthmatic breathing. Ethan felt confusedly that there were many things he ought to think about, but through his tingling veins and tired brain only one sensation throbbed: the warmth of Mattie’s shoulder against his. Why had he not kissed her when he held her there? A few hours earlier he would not have asked himself the question. Even a few minutes earlier, when they had stood alone outside the house, he would not have dared to think of kissing her. But since he had seen her lips in the lamplight he felt that they were his.

It was in the peaceful early morning when his muscles were doing their usual work and his lungs filled with fresh mountain air that Ethan did his best thinking. He and Zeena hadn’t said a word since they closed the door to their room. She had measured out some drops from a medicine bottle on a chair by the bed, swallowed them, wrapped her head in a piece of yellow flannel, and laid down with her back to him. Ethan got undressed quickly and blew out the light so he wouldn’t see her as he took his place beside her. As he lay there, he could hear Mattie moving around in her room, and her candle, casting a small beam across the hallway, created a barely noticeable line of light under his door. He stared at the light until it disappeared. Then the room was completely dark, with only Zeena’s wheezy breathing breaking the silence. Ethan felt vaguely aware that there were many things he should think about, but through his racing blood and tired mind, only one feeling stood out: the warmth of Mattie’s shoulder against his. Why hadn’t he kissed her when he held her there? A few hours earlier, he wouldn’t have asked himself that. Even just minutes before, when they had been alone outside the house, he wouldn’t have dared to think about kissing her. But since he had seen her lips in the lamplight, he felt they belonged to him.

Now, in the bright morning air, her face was still before him. It was part of the sun’s red and of the pure glitter on the snow. How the girl had changed since she had come to Starkfield! He remembered what a colourless slip of a thing she had looked the day he had met her at the station. And all the first winter, how she had shivered with cold when the northerly gales shook the thin clapboards and the snow beat like hail against the loose-hung windows!

Now, in the bright morning air, her face was still in front of him. It was part of the sun's red and the pure sparkle on the snow. How the girl had changed since she arrived in Starkfield! He remembered how colorless and delicate she had looked the day he met her at the station. And throughout that first winter, how she had shivered with cold when the northern winds shook the thin boards and the snow pounded like hail against the loosely hanging windows!

He had been afraid that she would hate the hard life, the cold and loneliness; but not a sign of discontent escaped her. Zeena took the view that Mattie was bound to make the best of Starkfield since she hadn’t any other place to go to; but this did not strike Ethan as conclusive. Zeena, at any rate, did not apply the principle in her own case.

He was worried that she would resent the tough life, the cold, and the loneliness; but she didn’t show any signs of unhappiness. Zeena believed that Mattie had to make the best of Starkfield since she didn’t have anywhere else to go; but Ethan didn’t find that convincing. Either way, Zeena didn’t follow that logic when it came to her own situation.

He felt all the more sorry for the girl because misfortune had, in a sense, indentured her to them. Mattie Silver was the daughter of a cousin of Zenobia Frome’s, who had inflamed his clan with mingled sentiments of envy and admiration by descending from the hills to Connecticut, where he had married a Stamford girl and succeeded to her father’s thriving “drug” business. Unhappily Orin Silver, a man of far-reaching aims, had died too soon to prove that the end justifies the means. His accounts revealed merely what the means had been; and these were such that it was fortunate for his wife and daughter that his books were examined only after his impressive funeral. His wife died of the disclosure, and Mattie, at twenty, was left alone to make her way on the fifty dollars obtained from the sale of her piano. For this purpose her equipment, though varied, was inadequate. She could trim a hat, make molasses candy, recite “Curfew shall not ring to-night,” and play “The Lost Chord” and a pot-pourri from “Carmen.” When she tried to extend the field of her activities in the direction of stenography and book-keeping her health broke down, and six months on her feet behind the counter of a department store did not tend to restore it. Her nearest relations had been induced to place their savings in her father’s hands, and though, after his death, they ungrudgingly acquitted themselves of the Christian duty of returning good for evil by giving his daughter all the advice at their disposal, they could hardly be expected to supplement it by material aid. But when Zenobia’s doctor recommended her looking about for some one to help her with the house-work the clan instantly saw the chance of exacting a compensation from Mattie. Zenobia, though doubtful of the girl’s efficiency, was tempted by the freedom to find fault without much risk of losing her; and so Mattie came to Starkfield.

He felt even more sorry for the girl because misfortune had, in a way, trapped her with them. Mattie Silver was the daughter of a cousin of Zenobia Frome’s, who had sparked a mix of envy and admiration in his family by moving from the hills to Connecticut, where he married a girl from Stamford and took over her father's successful “drug” business. Unfortunately, Orin Silver, a man with big ambitions, died too soon to prove that the end justifies the means. His accounts showed only what those means had been; and they were such that it was lucky for his wife and daughter that his books were examined only after his grand funeral. His wife died from the shock of the revelation, and Mattie, at twenty, was left to fend for herself with the fifty dollars she made from selling her piano. For this, her skills, though varied, were not enough. She could trim a hat, make molasses candy, recite “Curfew shall not ring tonight,” and play “The Lost Chord” and a medley from “Carmen.” When she tried to broaden her skills in stenography and bookkeeping, her health suffered, and six months of working behind the counter of a department store didn’t help. Her closest relatives had been persuaded to invest their savings with her father, and although they afterwards fulfilled their moral duty of offering advice instead of help by generously giving her all the guidance they could, they couldn't be expected to provide financial support. But when Zenobia’s doctor suggested she find someone to help with housework, the family immediately saw an opportunity to make Mattie pay. Zenobia, although unsure of the girl's abilities, was tempted by the chance to criticize without worrying too much about losing her; and so Mattie ended up in Starkfield.

Zenobia’s fault-finding was of the silent kind, but not the less penetrating for that. During the first months Ethan alternately burned with the desire to see Mattie defy her and trembled with fear of the result. Then the situation grew less strained. The pure air, and the long summer hours in the open, gave back life and elasticity to Mattie, and Zeena, with more leisure to devote to her complex ailments, grew less watchful of the girl’s omissions; so that Ethan, struggling on under the burden of his barren farm and failing saw-mill, could at least imagine that peace reigned in his house.

Zenobia’s criticism was quiet but still cutting. In the first few months, Ethan alternated between wanting to see Mattie stand up to her and being terrified of what might happen. Over time, things became less tense. The fresh air and long summer days outside revitalized Mattie, and Zeena, having more time to focus on her complicated health issues, became less observant of the girl's shortcomings. This way, Ethan, grappling with the weight of his unproductive farm and struggling sawmill, could at least think that peace existed in his home.

There was really, even now, no tangible evidence to the contrary; but since the previous night a vague dread had hung on his sky-line. It was formed of Zeena’s obstinate silence, of Mattie’s sudden look of warning, of the memory of just such fleeting imperceptible signs as those which told him, on certain stainless mornings, that before night there would be rain.

There was still, even now, no solid evidence against it; but since the night before, an uneasy feeling had been looming over him. It was made up of Zeena’s stubborn silence, Mattie’s sudden warning glance, and the memory of just such fleeting, subtle signs as those that told him, on certain clear mornings, that it would rain by evening.

His dread was so strong that, man-like, he sought to postpone certainty. The hauling was not over till mid-day, and as the lumber was to be delivered to Andrew Hale, the Starkfield builder, it was really easier for Ethan to send Jotham Powell, the hired man, back to the farm on foot, and drive the load down to the village himself. He had scrambled up on the logs, and was sitting astride of them, close over his shaggy grays, when, coming between him and their streaming necks, he had a vision of the warning look that Mattie had given him the night before.

His fear was so intense that, like any man, he tried to delay facing the truth. The hauling didn't finish until noon, and since the lumber was meant for Andrew Hale, the Starkfield builder, it made more sense for Ethan to send Jotham Powell, the hired hand, back to the farm on foot and take the load to the village himself. He had climbed up on the logs, sitting straddled over them, just above his shaggy gray horses, when he caught a glimpse of the worried look Mattie had given him the night before.

“If there’s going to be any trouble I want to be there,” was his vague reflection, as he threw to Jotham the unexpected order to unhitch the team and lead them back to the barn.

“If there’s going to be any trouble, I want to be there,” he thought vaguely, as he tossed Jotham the surprise order to unhitch the team and take them back to the barn.

It was a slow trudge home through the heavy fields, and when the two men entered the kitchen Mattie was lifting the coffee from the stove and Zeena was already at the table. Her husband stopped short at sight of her. Instead of her usual calico wrapper and knitted shawl she wore her best dress of brown merino, and above her thin strands of hair, which still preserved the tight undulations of the crimping-pins, rose a hard perpendicular bonnet, as to which Ethan’s clearest notion was that he had to pay five dollars for it at the Bettsbridge Emporium. On the floor beside her stood his old valise and a bandbox wrapped in newspapers.

It was a long, tiring walk home through the dense fields, and when the two men entered the kitchen, Mattie was pouring coffee from the stove while Zeena was already at the table. Her husband paused at the sight of her. Instead of her usual calico dress and knitted shawl, she was wearing her best brown merino dress, and above her thin hair, which still had the tight waves from the crimping pins, was a stiff, upright bonnet. All Ethan could think about was that he had to pay five dollars for it at the Bettsbridge Emporium. On the floor next to her were his old suitcase and a hat box wrapped in newspapers.

“Why, where are you going, Zeena?” he exclaimed.

“Hey, where are you headed, Zeena?” he exclaimed.

“I’ve got my shooting pains so bad that I’m going over to Bettsbridge to spend the night with Aunt Martha Pierce and see that new doctor,” she answered in a matter-of-fact tone, as if she had said she was going into the store-room to take a look at the preserves, or up to the attic to go over the blankets.

“I’ve got these shooting pains so bad that I’m heading over to Bettsbridge to spend the night with Aunt Martha Pierce and see that new doctor,” she replied in a straightforward tone, as if she had just said she was going into the storeroom to check on the preserves, or up to the attic to look over the blankets.

In spite of her sedentary habits such abrupt decisions were not without precedent in Zeena’s history. Twice or thrice before she had suddenly packed Ethan’s valise and started off to Bettsbridge, or even Springfield, to seek the advice of some new doctor, and her husband had grown to dread these expeditions because of their cost. Zeena always came back laden with expensive remedies, and her last visit to Springfield had been commemorated by her paying twenty dollars for an electric battery of which she had never been able to learn the use. But for the moment his sense of relief was so great as to preclude all other feelings. He had now no doubt that Zeena had spoken the truth in saying, the night before, that she had sat up because she felt “too mean” to sleep: her abrupt resolve to seek medical advice showed that, as usual, she was wholly absorbed in her health.

Despite her inactive lifestyle, Zeena’s sudden decisions weren't anything new. She had, more than once, hurriedly packed Ethan's bag and left for Bettsbridge, or even Springfield, to get advice from some new doctor. Her husband had come to dread these trips because of how expensive they were. Zeena always returned with costly remedies, and on her last visit to Springfield, she had spent twenty dollars on an electric battery that she never figured out how to use. But right now, Ethan felt such a huge sense of relief that it overshadowed everything else. He had no doubt that Zeena had been honest when she said the night before that she couldn’t sleep because she felt “too mean”: her sudden decision to seek medical advice proved, as always, that she was completely focused on her health.

As if expecting a protest, she continued plaintively; “If you’re too busy with the hauling I presume you can let Jotham Powell drive me over with the sorrel in time to ketch the train at the Flats.”

As if she anticipated a protest, she continued in a pleading tone, “If you’re too busy with the hauling, I assume you can let Jotham Powell take me over with the sorrel in time to catch the train at the Flats.”

Her husband hardly heard what she was saying. During the winter months there was no stage between Starkfield and Bettsbridge, and the trains which stopped at Corbury Flats were slow and infrequent. A rapid calculation showed Ethan that Zeena could not be back at the farm before the following evening....

Her husband barely heard what she was saying. During the winter months, there was no bus between Starkfield and Bettsbridge, and the trains that stopped at Corbury Flats were slow and rare. A quick calculation made Ethan realize that Zeena wouldn’t be back at the farm until the next evening....

“If I’d supposed you’d ’a’ made any objection to Jotham Powell’s driving me over—” she began again, as though his silence had implied refusal. On the brink of departure she was always seized with a flux of words. “All I know is,” she continued, “I can’t go on the way I am much longer. The pains are clear away down to my ankles now, or I’d ’a’ walked in to Starkfield on my own feet, sooner’n put you out, and asked Michael Eady to let me ride over on his wagon to the Flats, when he sends to meet the train that brings his groceries. I’d ’a’ had two hours to wait in the station, but I’d sooner ’a’ done it, even with this cold, than to have you say—”

“If I’d known you would have objected to Jotham Powell driving me over—” she started again, as if his silence meant he didn’t want to. At the edge of leaving, she always got caught up in a rush of words. “All I know is,” she went on, “I can’t keep going like this much longer. The pain goes all the way down to my ankles now, or I would have walked into Starkfield on my own, rather than bother you, and asked Michael Eady to let me ride over on his wagon to the Flats when he goes to meet the train that brings his groceries. I would have had to wait two hours in the station, but I would have preferred that, even with this cold, than to have you say—”

“Of course Jotham’ll drive you over,” Ethan roused himself to answer. He became suddenly conscious that he was looking at Mattie while Zeena talked to him, and with an effort he turned his eyes to his wife. She sat opposite the window, and the pale light reflected from the banks of snow made her face look more than usually drawn and bloodless, sharpened the three parallel creases between ear and cheek, and drew querulous lines from her thin nose to the corners of her mouth. Though she was but seven years her husband’s senior, and he was only twenty-eight, she was already an old woman.

“Of course Jotham will drive you over,” Ethan shook himself to reply. He suddenly realized he was looking at Mattie while Zeena talked to him, and with some effort, he turned his gaze to his wife. She was sitting across from the window, and the pale light reflecting off the snow made her face look even more drawn and pale, highlighting the three parallel lines between her ear and cheek and creating deep lines from her thin nose to the corners of her mouth. Even though she was only seven years older than her husband, and he was just twenty-eight, she already looked like an old woman.

Ethan tried to say something befitting the occasion, but there was only one thought in his mind: the fact that, for the first time since Mattie had come to live with them, Zeena was to be away for a night. He wondered if the girl were thinking of it too....

Ethan tried to say something appropriate for the moment, but there was only one thing on his mind: that for the first time since Mattie had started living with them, Zeena was going to be away for a night. He wondered if the girl was thinking about it too....

He knew that Zeena must be wondering why he did not offer to drive her to the Flats and let Jotham Powell take the lumber to Starkfield, and at first he could not think of a pretext for not doing so; then he said: “I’d take you over myself, only I’ve got to collect the cash for the lumber.”

He knew Zeena was probably wondering why he didn’t offer to drive her to the Flats and let Jotham Powell take the lumber to Starkfield. At first, he couldn’t think of an excuse for not doing it; then he said, “I’d take you over myself, but I need to collect the cash for the lumber.”

As soon as the words were spoken he regretted them, not only because they were untrue—there being no prospect of his receiving cash payment from Hale—but also because he knew from experience the imprudence of letting Zeena think he was in funds on the eve of one of her therapeutic excursions. At the moment, however, his one desire was to avoid the long drive with her behind the ancient sorrel who never went out of a walk.

As soon as he said those words, he regretted them, not just because they weren’t true—since there was no chance he’d get cash from Hale—but also because he knew from experience how unwise it was to let Zeena believe he had money right before one of her therapy trips. Right then, though, all he wanted was to avoid the long drive with her behind the old sorrel horse that never went faster than a walk.

Zeena made no reply: she did not seem to hear what he had said. She had already pushed her plate aside, and was measuring out a draught from a large bottle at her elbow.

Zeena didn’t respond; she didn’t seem to hear what he said. She had already pushed her plate away and was pouring a drink from a large bottle next to her.

“It ain’t done me a speck of good, but I guess I might as well use it up,” she remarked; adding, as she pushed the empty bottle toward Mattie: “If you can get the taste out it’ll do for pickles.”

“It hasn’t done me any good, but I guess I might as well use it up,” she said, pushing the empty bottle toward Mattie. “If you can get the taste out, it’ll work for pickles.”





IV

As soon as his wife had driven off Ethan took his coat and cap from the peg. Mattie was washing up the dishes, humming one of the dance tunes of the night before. He said “So long, Matt,” and she answered gaily “So long, Ethan”; and that was all.

As soon as his wife drove away, Ethan grabbed his coat and hat from the hook. Mattie was washing the dishes, humming one of the dance tunes from the night before. He said, "So long, Matt," and she cheerfully replied, "So long, Ethan"; and that was it.

It was warm and bright in the kitchen. The sun slanted through the south window on the girl’s moving figure, on the cat dozing in a chair, and on the geraniums brought in from the door-way, where Ethan had planted them in the summer to “make a garden” for Mattie. He would have liked to linger on, watching her tidy up and then settle down to her sewing; but he wanted still more to get the hauling done and be back at the farm before night.

It was warm and bright in the kitchen. The sun streamed through the south window, casting light on the girl as she moved around, on the cat napping in a chair, and on the geraniums that had been brought in from the doorway, where Ethan had planted them in the summer to create a “garden” for Mattie. He wanted to stay and watch her tidy up and then start sewing, but he was even more eager to finish the hauling and get back to the farm before nightfall.

All the way down to the village he continued to think of his return to Mattie. The kitchen was a poor place, not “spruce” and shining as his mother had kept it in his boyhood; but it was surprising what a homelike look the mere fact of Zeena’s absence gave it. And he pictured what it would be like that evening, when he and Mattie were there after supper. For the first time they would be alone together indoors, and they would sit there, one on each side of the stove, like a married couple, he in his stocking feet and smoking his pipe, she laughing and talking in that funny way she had, which was always as new to him as if he had never heard her before.

All the way to the village, he kept thinking about going back to Mattie. The kitchen was pretty shabby, not “neat” and shining like his mother had kept it when he was a kid; but it was surprising how much more homey it felt just because Zeena wasn’t there. He imagined what it would be like that evening, when he and Mattie were alone together after dinner. For the first time, they would be inside together with no one else around, sitting on either side of the stove like a couple, him in his socks and smoking his pipe, and her laughing and chatting in that quirky way she had that always felt fresh to him, like he had never heard her before.

The sweetness of the picture, and the relief of knowing that his fears of “trouble” with Zeena were unfounded, sent up his spirits with a rush, and he, who was usually so silent, whistled and sang aloud as he drove through the snowy fields. There was in him a slumbering spark of sociability which the long Starkfield winters had not yet extinguished. By nature grave and inarticulate, he admired recklessness and gaiety in others and was warmed to the marrow by friendly human intercourse. At Worcester, though he had the name of keeping to himself and not being much of a hand at a good time, he had secretly gloried in being clapped on the back and hailed as “Old Ethe” or “Old Stiff”; and the cessation of such familiarities had increased the chill of his return to Starkfield.

The joy of the moment, combined with the relief of realizing that his worries about “trouble” with Zeena were baseless, lifted his spirits instantly. Typically quiet, he found himself whistling and singing loudly as he drove through the snowy fields. Deep down, he had a dormant spark of sociability that the long Starkfield winters hadn’t snuffed out. By nature serious and reserved, he admired the boldness and joyfulness in others, and he felt genuinely warmed by friendly interactions. Back in Worcester, although he was known for being a bit of a loner and not someone who enjoyed a good time, he secretly loved being patted on the back and called “Old Ethe” or “Old Stiff”; the lack of those familiar connections made his return to Starkfield feel even colder.

There the silence had deepened about him year by year. Left alone, after his father’s accident, to carry the burden of farm and mill, he had had no time for convivial loiterings in the village; and when his mother fell ill the loneliness of the house grew more oppressive than that of the fields. His mother had been a talker in her day, but after her “trouble” the sound of her voice was seldom heard, though she had not lost the power of speech. Sometimes, in the long winter evenings, when in desperation her son asked her why she didn’t “say something,” she would lift a finger and answer: “Because I’m listening”; and on stormy nights, when the loud wind was about the house, she would complain, if he spoke to her: “They’re talking so out there that I can’t hear you.”

There, the silence around him deepened year by year. Left on his own after his father's accident to handle the farm and the mill, he had no time for socializing in the village. When his mother fell ill, the loneliness of the house became even more suffocating than that of the fields. His mother had been quite the chatterbox in her day, but after her “trouble,” her voice was rarely heard, even though she hadn’t lost the ability to speak. Sometimes, during the long winter evenings, when her son desperately asked her why she didn’t “say something,” she would raise a finger and reply: “Because I’m listening.” On stormy nights, when the strong wind rattled the house, she would complain if he spoke to her: “They’re making so much noise out there that I can’t hear you.”

It was only when she drew toward her last illness, and his cousin Zenobia Pierce came over from the next valley to help him nurse her, that human speech was heard again in the house. After the mortal silence of his long imprisonment Zeena’s volubility was music in his ears. He felt that he might have “gone like his mother” if the sound of a new voice had not come to steady him. Zeena seemed to understand his case at a glance. She laughed at him for not knowing the simplest sick-bed duties and told him to “go right along out” and leave her to see to things. The mere fact of obeying her orders, of feeling free to go about his business again and talk with other men, restored his shaken balance and magnified his sense of what he owed her. Her efficiency shamed and dazzled him. She seemed to possess by instinct all the household wisdom that his long apprenticeship had not instilled in him. When the end came it was she who had to tell him to hitch up and go for the undertaker, and she thought it “funny” that he had not settled beforehand who was to have his mother’s clothes and the sewing-machine. After the funeral, when he saw her preparing to go away, he was seized with an unreasoning dread of being left alone on the farm; and before he knew what he was doing he had asked her to stay there with him. He had often thought since that it would not have happened if his mother had died in spring instead of winter....

It was only as she neared her final illness, and her cousin Zenobia Pierce came over from the next valley to help him care for her, that human conversation was heard again in the house. After the heavy silence of his long isolation, Zeena's chatter was like music to his ears. He felt that he might have "followed his mother" if a new voice hadn't come along to ground him. Zeena seemed to get his situation right away. She mocked him for not knowing the simplest tasks for caring for someone sick and told him to "just go on out" and let her handle things. Just the fact that he followed her orders, feeling free to take care of his own business and talk to other people again, helped him regain his balance and deepened his gratitude for her. Her efficiency put him to shame and amazed him. She seemed to have an instinctual grasp of all the household knowledge that his long experience hadn’t taught him. When the end came, it was she who had to tell him to hook up the wagon and go get the undertaker, and she thought it was "funny" that he hadn’t figured out in advance who would take his mother’s clothes and the sewing machine. After the funeral, when he saw her getting ready to leave, he was overcome by an irrational fear of being left alone on the farm; and before he realized what he was doing, he had asked her to stay there with him. He often thought afterward that it wouldn't have happened if his mother had passed away in the spring instead of the winter....

When they married it was agreed that, as soon as he could straighten out the difficulties resulting from Mrs. Frome’s long illness, they would sell the farm and saw-mill and try their luck in a large town. Ethan’s love of nature did not take the form of a taste for agriculture. He had always wanted to be an engineer, and to live in towns, where there were lectures and big libraries and “fellows doing things.” A slight engineering job in Florida, put in his way during his period of study at Worcester, increased his faith in his ability as well as his eagerness to see the world; and he felt sure that, with a “smart” wife like Zeena, it would not be long before he had made himself a place in it.

When they got married, they agreed that as soon as he could resolve the issues from Mrs. Frome’s long illness, they would sell the farm and sawmill and try their luck in a big city. Ethan’s love for nature didn’t mean he wanted to farm. He had always dreamed of being an engineer and living in cities where there were lectures, big libraries, and people doing interesting things. A small engineering job in Florida, which he got during his studies in Worcester, boosted his confidence in his abilities and his desire to explore the world. He was sure that with a “smart” wife like Zeena, it wouldn’t be long before he found his place in it.

Zeena’s native village was slightly larger and nearer to the railway than Starkfield, and she had let her husband see from the first that life on an isolated farm was not what she had expected when she married. But purchasers were slow in coming, and while he waited for them Ethan learned the impossibility of transplanting her. She chose to look down on Starkfield, but she could not have lived in a place which looked down on her. Even Bettsbridge or Shadd’s Falls would not have been sufficiently aware of her, and in the greater cities which attracted Ethan she would have suffered a complete loss of identity. And within a year of their marriage she developed the “sickliness” which had since made her notable even in a community rich in pathological instances. When she came to take care of his mother she had seemed to Ethan like the very genius of health, but he soon saw that her skill as a nurse had been acquired by the absorbed observation of her own symptoms.

Zeena’s hometown was a bit bigger and closer to the train station than Starkfield, and she made it clear to her husband from the start that life on a remote farm wasn't what she had envisioned when she got married. But buyers were slow to arrive, and while he waited for them, Ethan realized how impossible it was to move her. She looked down on Starkfield, but she wouldn’t have been able to live in a place that looked down on her. Even Bettsbridge or Shadd’s Falls wouldn’t have been aware enough of her, and in the bigger cities that attracted Ethan, she would have completely lost her sense of self. Within a year of their marriage, she developed the “sickliness” that made her stand out even in a community filled with people who had health issues. When she first came to take care of his mother, she seemed to Ethan like the epitome of health, but he soon realized that her skill as a nurse came from closely observing her own symptoms.

Then she too fell silent. Perhaps it was the inevitable effect of life on the farm, or perhaps, as she sometimes said, it was because Ethan “never listened.” The charge was not wholly unfounded. When she spoke it was only to complain, and to complain of things not in his power to remedy; and to check a tendency to impatient retort he had first formed the habit of not answering her, and finally of thinking of other things while she talked. Of late, however, since he had reasons for observing her more closely, her silence had begun to trouble him. He recalled his mother’s growing taciturnity, and wondered if Zeena were also turning “queer.” Women did, he knew. Zeena, who had at her fingers’ ends the pathological chart of the whole region, had cited many cases of the kind while she was nursing his mother; and he himself knew of certain lonely farm-houses in the neighbourhood where stricken creatures pined, and of others where sudden tragedy had come of their presence. At times, looking at Zeena’s shut face, he felt the chill of such forebodings. At other times her silence seemed deliberately assumed to conceal far-reaching intentions, mysterious conclusions drawn from suspicions and resentments impossible to guess. That supposition was even more disturbing than the other; and it was the one which had come to him the night before, when he had seen her standing in the kitchen door.

Then she too went quiet. Maybe it was just what happens living on a farm, or maybe, as she sometimes said, it was because Ethan “never listened.” That accusation had some truth to it. When she spoke, it was usually to complain about things he couldn’t fix; to avoid snapping back, he had developed a habit of not responding to her, and eventually began thinking about other things while she talked. Recently, though, since he had reasons to pay more attention to her, her silence had started to worry him. He remembered his mother becoming quieter over time and wondered if Zeena was also becoming “strange.” He knew women could be that way. Zeena, who was well-versed in the medical issues of the area, had pointed out many cases like this when she was taking care of his mother; he also knew of certain isolated farmhouses nearby where troubled people wasted away, and others where sudden tragedy struck due to their presence. Sometimes, when he looked at Zeena’s closed-off expression, he felt a chill of such worries. Other times, her silence seemed purposefully chosen to hide deeper intentions, mysterious conclusions drawn from suspicions and resentments that were impossible to figure out. That thought was even more unsettling than the first, and it had crossed his mind the night before when he saw her standing in the kitchen doorway.

Now her departure for Bettsbridge had once more eased his mind, and all his thoughts were on the prospect of his evening with Mattie. Only one thing weighed on him, and that was his having told Zeena that he was to receive cash for the lumber. He foresaw so clearly the consequences of this imprudence that with considerable reluctance he decided to ask Andrew Hale for a small advance on his load.

Now that she was leaving for Bettsbridge, he felt a sense of relief, and all he could think about was his evening with Mattie. There was just one thing bothering him: he had told Zeena that he would be getting cash for the lumber. He could clearly see the outcome of this mistake, so with a lot of hesitation, he decided to ask Andrew Hale for a small advance on his load.

When Ethan drove into Hale’s yard the builder was just getting out of his sleigh.

When Ethan pulled into Hale's yard, the builder was just getting out of his sleigh.

“Hello, Ethe!” he said. “This comes handy.”

“Hey, Ethe!” he said. “This is really useful.”

Andrew Hale was a ruddy man with a big gray moustache and a stubbly double-chin unconstrained by a collar; but his scrupulously clean shirt was always fastened by a small diamond stud. This display of opulence was misleading, for though he did a fairly good business it was known that his easygoing habits and the demands of his large family frequently kept him what Starkfield called “behind.” He was an old friend of Ethan’s family, and his house one of the few to which Zeena occasionally went, drawn there by the fact that Mrs. Hale, in her youth, had done more “doctoring” than any other woman in Starkfield, and was still a recognised authority on symptoms and treatment.

Andrew Hale was a cheerful guy with a big gray mustache and a stubbly double chin that wasn’t hidden by a collar; however, his meticulously clean shirt was always secured with a small diamond stud. This display of wealth was deceptive, because even though he ran a decent business, it was known that his laid-back lifestyle and the needs of his large family often left him, as people in Starkfield said, “behind.” He was an old friend of Ethan’s family, and his home was one of the few places where Zeena would occasionally visit, drawn there by the fact that Mrs. Hale, in her younger days, had provided more “doctoring” than any other woman in Starkfield and was still recognized as an expert on symptoms and treatments.

Hale went up to the grays and patted their sweating flanks.

Hale approached the horses and gave their sweaty sides a pat.

“Well, sir,” he said, “you keep them two as if they was pets.”

"Well, sir," he said, "you treat those two like they're pets."

Ethan set about unloading the logs and when he had finished his job he pushed open the glazed door of the shed which the builder used as his office. Hale sat with his feet up on the stove, his back propped against a battered desk strewn with papers: the place, like the man, was warm, genial and untidy.

Ethan started unloading the logs, and when he finished his task, he pushed open the glass door of the shed that the builder used as his office. Hale was sitting with his feet on the stove, his back against a messy desk covered in papers; the space, like the man, felt warm, friendly, and a bit cluttered.

“Sit right down and thaw out,” he greeted Ethan.

“Sit down and warm up,” he greeted Ethan.

The latter did not know how to begin, but at length he managed to bring out his request for an advance of fifty dollars. The blood rushed to his thin skin under the sting of Hale’s astonishment. It was the builder’s custom to pay at the end of three months, and there was no precedent between the two men for a cash settlement.

The latter didn’t know how to start, but eventually, he was able to make his request for a fifty-dollar advance. He felt heat rise to his pale skin at Hale’s surprise. It was the builder’s usual practice to pay at the end of three months, and there was no history between the two men for a cash payment.

Ethan felt that if he had pleaded an urgent need Hale might have made shift to pay him; but pride, and an instinctive prudence, kept him from resorting to this argument. After his father’s death it had taken time to get his head above water, and he did not want Andrew Hale, or any one else in Starkfield, to think he was going under again. Besides, he hated lying; if he wanted the money he wanted it, and it was nobody’s business to ask why. He therefore made his demand with the awkwardness of a proud man who will not admit to himself that he is stooping; and he was not much surprised at Hale’s refusal.

Ethan thought that if he had mentioned an urgent need, Hale might have found a way to pay him; but his pride and a natural caution kept him from using that argument. After his father's death, it took time for him to get back on his feet, and he didn’t want Andrew Hale, or anyone else in Starkfield, to think he was struggling again. Besides, he hated lying; if he wanted the money, he wanted it, and it was nobody's business to ask why. So, he made his request with the awkwardness of a proud man who won’t admit to himself that he is lowering himself; and he wasn’t too surprised by Hale’s refusal.

The builder refused genially, as he did everything else: he treated the matter as something in the nature of a practical joke, and wanted to know if Ethan meditated buying a grand piano or adding a “cupolo” to his house; offering, in the latter case, to give his services free of cost.

The builder kindly declined, just like he did with everything else: he saw the situation as a bit of a joke and asked if Ethan was thinking about buying a grand piano or adding a "cupola" to his house; he even offered to provide his services for free in the latter case.

Ethan’s arts were soon exhausted, and after an embarrassed pause he wished Hale good day and opened the door of the office. As he passed out the builder suddenly called after him: “See here—you ain’t in a tight place, are you?”

Ethan's skills were quickly depleted, and after a moment of awkward silence, he wished Hale a good day and opened the office door. As he stepped outside, the builder suddenly called after him, "Hey, you're not in a tough spot, are you?"

“Not a bit,” Ethan’s pride retorted before his reason had time to intervene.

"Not at all," Ethan's pride shot back before his reason had the chance to step in.

“Well, that’s good! Because I am, a shade. Fact is, I was going to ask you to give me a little extra time on that payment. Business is pretty slack, to begin with, and then I’m fixing up a little house for Ned and Ruth when they’re married. I’m glad to do it for ’em, but it costs.” His look appealed to Ethan for sympathy. “The young people like things nice. You know how it is yourself: it’s not so long ago since you fixed up your own place for Zeena.”

“Well, that’s good! Because I am, a ghost. The truth is, I was going to ask you to give me a little more time on that payment. Business has been pretty slow, to begin with, and I’m also fixing up a little house for Ned and Ruth when they get married. I’m happy to do it for them, but it costs money.” His expression sought Ethan's sympathy. “The young folks want everything to be nice. You know how it is yourself: it wasn’t that long ago that you fixed up your own place for Zeena.”

Ethan left the grays in Hale’s stable and went about some other business in the village. As he walked away the builder’s last phrase lingered in his ears, and he reflected grimly that his seven years with Zeena seemed to Starkfield “not so long.”

Ethan left the gray horses in Hale’s stable and took care of some other things in the village. As he walked away, the builder’s last words stuck with him, and he thought sadly that his seven years with Zeena seemed “not so long” to Starkfield.

The afternoon was drawing to an end, and here and there a lighted pane spangled the cold gray dusk and made the snow look whiter. The bitter weather had driven every one indoors and Ethan had the long rural street to himself. Suddenly he heard the brisk play of sleigh-bells and a cutter passed him, drawn by a free-going horse. Ethan recognised Michael Eady’s roan colt, and young Denis Eady, in a handsome new fur cap, leaned forward and waved a greeting. “Hello, Ethe!” he shouted and spun on.

The afternoon was coming to a close, and here and there a lit window sparkled in the cold gray dusk, making the snow look even whiter. The freezing weather had sent everyone indoors, leaving Ethan alone on the long rural street. Suddenly, he heard the cheerful sound of sleigh bells, and a sled went by, pulled by a lively horse. Ethan recognized Michael Eady’s roan colt, and young Denis Eady, wearing a stylish new fur cap, leaned forward and waved hello. “Hey, Ethe!” he shouted as he whizzed past.

The cutter was going in the direction of the Frome farm, and Ethan’s heart contracted as he listened to the dwindling bells. What more likely than that Denis Eady had heard of Zeena’s departure for Bettsbridge, and was profiting by the opportunity to spend an hour with Mattie? Ethan was ashamed of the storm of jealousy in his breast. It seemed unworthy of the girl that his thoughts of her should be so violent.

The cutter was headed toward the Frome farm, and Ethan's heart sank as he listened to the fading bells. What was more likely than that Denis Eady had heard about Zeena leaving for Bettsbridge and was taking the chance to spend some time with Mattie? Ethan felt ashamed of the wave of jealousy inside him. It felt unworthy of the girl that his thoughts of her could be so intense.

He walked on to the church corner and entered the shade of the Varnum spruces, where he had stood with her the night before. As he passed into their gloom he saw an indistinct outline just ahead of him. At his approach it melted for an instant into two separate shapes and then conjoined again, and he heard a kiss, and a half-laughing “Oh!” provoked by the discovery of his presence. Again the outline hastily disunited and the Varnum gate slammed on one half while the other hurried on ahead of him. Ethan smiled at the discomfiture he had caused. What did it matter to Ned Hale and Ruth Varnum if they were caught kissing each other? Everybody in Starkfield knew they were engaged. It pleased Ethan to have surprised a pair of lovers on the spot where he and Mattie had stood with such a thirst for each other in their hearts; but he felt a pang at the thought that these two need not hide their happiness.

He walked to the corner of the church and stepped into the shade of the Varnum spruces, where he had stood with her the night before. As he entered their darkness, he noticed a vague shape just ahead of him. When he got closer, it briefly split into two forms and then came together again, and he heard a kiss, followed by a half-laughing “Oh!” at realizing he was there. The shape quickly separated again, and the Varnum gate slammed shut on one half while the other hurried away from him. Ethan smiled at the awkwardness he had caused. What did it matter to Ned Hale and Ruth Varnum if they were caught kissing? Everyone in Starkfield knew they were engaged. It pleased Ethan to have surprised a couple in the same spot where he and Mattie had stood with such longing in their hearts; but he felt a twinge of sadness at the thought that these two didn’t have to hide their happiness.

He fetched the grays from Hale’s stable and started on his long climb back to the farm. The cold was less sharp than earlier in the day and a thick fleecy sky threatened snow for the morrow. Here and there a star pricked through, showing behind it a deep well of blue. In an hour or two the moon would push over the ridge behind the farm, burn a gold-edged rent in the clouds, and then be swallowed by them. A mournful peace hung on the fields, as though they felt the relaxing grasp of the cold and stretched themselves in their long winter sleep.

He got the gray horses from Hale’s stable and began his long trek back to the farm. The cold wasn’t as biting as it had been earlier in the day, and a thick, fluffy sky hinted at snow for tomorrow. Here and there, a star peeked through, revealing a deep patch of blue behind it. In an hour or two, the moon would rise over the ridge behind the farm, cut a golden edge in the clouds, and then get obscured by them. A sad peace settled over the fields, as if they sensed the easing grip of the cold and were stretching out for their long winter rest.

Ethan’s ears were alert for the jingle of sleigh-bells, but not a sound broke the silence of the lonely road. As he drew near the farm he saw, through the thin screen of larches at the gate, a light twinkling in the house above him. “She’s up in her room,” he said to himself, “fixing herself up for supper”; and he remembered Zeena’s sarcastic stare when Mattie, on the evening of her arrival, had come down to supper with smoothed hair and a ribbon at her neck.

Ethan’s ears were tuned for the sound of sleigh bells, but there was only silence on the empty road. As he got closer to the farm, he caught a glimpse of a light twinkling in the house through the sparse larches at the gate. “She’s getting ready for dinner,” he thought to himself, recalling Zeena’s sarcastic look when Mattie had come down for dinner on the night she arrived, her hair neatly styled and a ribbon around her neck.

He passed by the graves on the knoll and turned his head to glance at one of the older headstones, which had interested him deeply as a boy because it bore his name.

He walked past the graves on the hill and turned his head to look at one of the older headstones, which had fascinated him as a kid because it had his name on it.

SACRED TO THE MEMORY OF
ETHAN FROME AND ENDURANCE HIS WIFE,
WHO DWELLED TOGETHER IN PEACE
FOR FIFTY YEARS.

He used to think that fifty years sounded like a long time to live together; but now it seemed to him that they might pass in a flash. Then, with a sudden dart of irony, he wondered if, when their turn came, the same epitaph would be written over him and Zeena.

He used to think that fifty years felt like a long time to be together, but now it seemed to him that it could go by in an instant. Then, with a sudden flash of irony, he wondered if, when their time came, the same epitaph would be written over him and Zeena.

He opened the barn-door and craned his head into the obscurity, half-fearing to discover Denis Eady’s roan colt in the stall beside the sorrel. But the old horse was there alone, mumbling his crib with toothless jaws, and Ethan whistled cheerfully while he bedded down the grays and shook an extra measure of oats into their mangers. His was not a tuneful throat—but harsh melodies burst from it as he locked the barn and sprang up the hill to the house. He reached the kitchen-porch and turned the door-handle; but the door did not yield to his touch.

He opened the barn door and leaned his head into the darkness, half-afraid he’d find Denis Eady’s roan colt in the stall next to the sorrel. But the old horse was there by himself, munching on his crib with toothless jaws. Ethan whistled happily as he settled the grays and poured an extra scoop of oats into their mangers. He didn’t have a melodic voice, but harsh tunes came out as he locked up the barn and hurried up the hill to the house. He reached the kitchen porch and turned the doorknob, but the door didn’t budge at his touch.

Startled at finding it locked he rattled the handle violently; then he reflected that Mattie was alone and that it was natural she should barricade herself at nightfall. He stood in the darkness expecting to hear her step. It did not come, and after vainly straining his ears he called out in a voice that shook with joy: “Hello, Matt!”

Startled to find it locked, he shook the handle wildly; then he realized that Mattie was alone and it made sense she would lock herself up at night. He stood in the dark, expecting to hear her footsteps. They didn’t come, and after straining to listen in vain, he called out in a voice that trembled with joy: “Hey, Matt!”

Silence answered; but in a minute or two he caught a sound on the stairs and saw a line of light about the door-frame, as he had seen it the night before. So strange was the precision with which the incidents of the previous evening were repeating themselves that he half expected, when he heard the key turn, to see his wife before him on the threshold; but the door opened, and Mattie faced him.

Silence responded; but after a minute or two, he heard a noise on the stairs and noticed a sliver of light around the doorframe, just like he had the night before. It was so odd how exactly the events from the previous evening were playing out again that he almost expected to see his wife standing in the doorway when he heard the key turn; but the door opened, and Mattie stood there instead.

She stood just as Zeena had stood, a lifted lamp in her hand, against the black background of the kitchen. She held the light at the same level, and it drew out with the same distinctness her slim young throat and the brown wrist no bigger than a child’s. Then, striking upward, it threw a lustrous fleck on her lips, edged her eyes with velvet shade, and laid a milky whiteness above the black curve of her brows.

She stood just like Zeena had, holding a lifted lamp in her hand, against the dark backdrop of the kitchen. She held the light at the same height, and it highlighted her slim young throat and her brown wrist, which was as small as a child’s. Then, as she angled it upward, the light cast a shiny highlight on her lips, framed her eyes with a soft shadow, and created a milky whiteness above the dark arch of her brows.

She wore her usual dress of darkish stuff, and there was no bow at her neck; but through her hair she had run a streak of crimson ribbon. This tribute to the unusual transformed and glorified her. She seemed to Ethan taller, fuller, more womanly in shape and motion. She stood aside, smiling silently, while he entered, and then moved away from him with something soft and flowing in her gait. She set the lamp on the table, and he saw that it was carefully laid for supper, with fresh dough-nuts, stewed blueberries and his favourite pickles in a dish of gay red glass. A bright fire glowed in the stove and the cat lay stretched before it, watching the table with a drowsy eye.

She wore her usual dark dress, and there was no bow at her neck; but she had run a streak of crimson ribbon through her hair. This touch of the unusual transformed and uplifted her. To Ethan, she seemed taller, fuller, more feminine in shape and movement. She stood to the side, smiling silently, as he entered, and then moved away from him with a soft, flowing gait. She set the lamp on the table, and he noticed that it was carefully set for supper, with fresh doughnuts, stewed blueberries, and his favorite pickles in a bright red glass dish. A warm fire glowed in the stove, and the cat lay stretched out in front of it, watching the table with a sleepy eye.

Ethan was suffocated with the sense of well-being. He went out into the passage to hang up his coat and pull off his wet boots. When he came back Mattie had set the teapot on the table and the cat was rubbing itself persuasively against her ankles.

Ethan was overwhelmed by a feeling of contentment. He stepped into the hallway to hang up his coat and take off his wet boots. When he returned, Mattie had placed the teapot on the table, and the cat was rubbing against her ankles in a friendly way.

“Why, Puss! I nearly tripped over you,” she cried, the laughter sparkling through her lashes.

“Why, Puss! I almost tripped over you,” she exclaimed, laughter glinting in her eyes.

Again Ethan felt a sudden twinge of jealousy. Could it be his coming that gave her such a kindled face?

Again, Ethan felt a sudden pang of jealousy. Could it be his arrival that made her face light up like that?

“Well, Matt, any visitors?” he threw off, stooping down carelessly to examine the fastening of the stove.

“Well, Matt, got any visitors?” he said casually, bending down to check the stove's latch.

She nodded and laughed “Yes, one,” and he felt a blackness settling on his brows.

She nodded and laughed, "Yeah, just one," and he felt a darkness looming over him.

“Who was that?” he questioned, raising himself up to slant a glance at her beneath his scowl.

“Who was that?” he asked, propping himself up to give her a sideways look under his furrowed brow.

Her eyes danced with malice. “Why, Jotham Powell. He came in after he got back, and asked for a drop of coffee before he went down home.”

Her eyes sparkled with malice. “Well, Jotham Powell. He came in after he got back and asked for a cup of coffee before heading home.”

The blackness lifted and light flooded Ethan’s brain. “That all? Well, I hope you made out to let him have it.” And after a pause he felt it right to add: “I suppose he got Zeena over to the Flats all right?”

The darkness faded, and light poured into Ethan's mind. “Is that it? I hope you managed to give him a piece of your mind.” After a moment, he felt it was right to add, “I guess he got Zeena to the Flats okay?”

“Oh, yes; in plenty of time.”

“Oh, yes; with plenty of time to spare.”

The name threw a chill between them, and they stood a moment looking sideways at each other before Mattie said with a shy laugh. “I guess it’s about time for supper.”

The name sent a chill between them, and they paused for a moment, glancing sideways at each other before Mattie said with a shy laugh, “I guess it’s time for supper.”

They drew their seats up to the table, and the cat, unbidden, jumped between them into Zeena’s empty chair. “Oh, Puss!” said Mattie, and they laughed again.

They pulled their chairs up to the table, and the cat, without being invited, jumped between them into Zeena’s empty chair. “Oh, Puss!” said Mattie, and they laughed again.

Ethan, a moment earlier, had felt himself on the brink of eloquence; but the mention of Zeena had paralysed him. Mattie seemed to feel the contagion of his embarrassment, and sat with downcast lids, sipping her tea, while he feigned an insatiable appetite for dough-nuts and sweet pickles. At last, after casting about for an effective opening, he took a long gulp of tea, cleared his throat, and said: “Looks as if there’d be more snow.”

Ethan had just felt like he was about to speak really well, but the mention of Zeena had frozen him in place. Mattie seemed to catch his awkwardness and sat quietly with her eyes lowered, sipping her tea, while he pretended to be really hungry for doughnuts and sweet pickles. Finally, after searching for the right way to start a conversation, he took a big sip of tea, cleared his throat, and said, “Looks like there’s going to be more snow.”

She feigned great interest. “Is that so? Do you suppose it’ll interfere with Zeena’s getting back?” She flushed red as the question escaped her, and hastily set down the cup she was lifting.

She pretended to be really interested. “Is that so? Do you think it’ll mess up Zeena’s return?” She turned red as the question slipped out and quickly put down the cup she was holding.

Ethan reached over for another helping of pickles. “You never can tell, this time of year, it drifts so bad on the Flats.” The name had benumbed him again, and once more he felt as if Zeena were in the room between them.

Ethan reached over for another helping of pickles. “You never can tell, this time of year; it drifts so badly on the Flats.” The name left him feeling numb again, and once more he sensed that Zeena was in the room between them.

“Oh, Puss, you’re too greedy!” Mattie cried.

“Oh, Puss, you’re so greedy!” Mattie exclaimed.

The cat, unnoticed, had crept up on muffled paws from Zeena’s seat to the table, and was stealthily elongating its body in the direction of the milk-jug, which stood between Ethan and Mattie. The two leaned forward at the same moment and their hands met on the handle of the jug. Mattie’s hand was underneath, and Ethan kept his clasped on it a moment longer than was necessary. The cat, profiting by this unusual demonstration, tried to effect an unnoticed retreat, and in doing so backed into the pickle-dish, which fell to the floor with a crash.

The cat, unnoticed, had quietly snuck up on soft paws from Zeena’s seat to the table and was stealthily stretching its body toward the milk jug, which was between Ethan and Mattie. They both leaned in at the same time, and their hands met on the handle of the jug. Mattie’s hand was underneath, and Ethan kept his clasped on it a moment longer than necessary. The cat, taking advantage of this unexpected distraction, attempted to make a quiet getaway, but in doing so, backed into the pickle dish, which fell to the floor with a loud crash.

Mattie, in an instant, had sprung from her chair and was down on her knees by the fragments.

Mattie instantly jumped from her chair and knelt down beside the pieces.

“Oh, Ethan, Ethan—it’s all to pieces! What will Zeena say?”

“Oh, Ethan, Ethan—it’s all broken! What will Zeena think?”

But this time his courage was up. “Well, she’ll have to say it to the cat, any way!” he rejoined with a laugh, kneeling down at Mattie’s side to scrape up the swimming pickles.

But this time he was feeling brave. “Well, she’ll just have to tell the cat, anyway!” he replied with a laugh, kneeling down next to Mattie to pick up the floating pickles.

She lifted stricken eyes to him. “Yes, but, you see, she never meant it should be used, not even when there was company; and I had to get up on the step-ladder to reach it down from the top shelf of the china-closet, where she keeps it with all her best things, and of course she’ll want to know why I did it—”

She looked up at him with hurt in her eyes. “Yes, but you see, she never intended for it to be used, not even when guests were over; and I had to climb up on the step-ladder to get it down from the top shelf of the china cabinet, where she keeps all her best stuff, and of course she'll want to know why I did it—”

The case was so serious that it called forth all of Ethan’s latent resolution.

The situation was so serious that it brought out all of Ethan's hidden determination.

“She needn’t know anything about it if you keep quiet. I’ll get another just like it to-morrow. Where did it come from? I’ll go to Shadd’s Falls for it if I have to!”

“She doesn’t need to know anything about it if you stay silent. I’ll get another one just like it tomorrow. Where did it come from? I’ll go to Shadd’s Falls for it if I have to!”

“Oh, you’ll never get another even there! It was a wedding present—don’t you remember? It came all the way from Philadelphia, from Zeena’s aunt that married the minister. That’s why she wouldn’t ever use it. Oh, Ethan, Ethan, what in the world shall I do?”

“Oh, you’ll never find another one like it! It was a wedding gift—don’t you remember? It came all the way from Philadelphia, from Zeena’s aunt who married the minister. That’s why she never used it. Oh, Ethan, Ethan, what am I going to do?”

She began to cry, and he felt as if every one of her tears were pouring over him like burning lead. “Don’t, Matt, don’t—oh, don’t!” he implored her.

She started to cry, and he felt like each of her tears was pouring over him like hot metal. “Please don’t, Matt, please—oh, please don’t!” he begged her.

She struggled to her feet, and he rose and followed her helplessly while she spread out the pieces of glass on the kitchen dresser. It seemed to him as if the shattered fragments of their evening lay there.

She got to her feet with effort, and he stood up and followed her, feeling helpless, as she laid out the pieces of glass on the kitchen counter. It felt to him like the broken shards of their evening were spread out before them.

“Here, give them to me,” he said in a voice of sudden authority.

“Here, give them to me,” he said in a suddenly commanding voice.

She drew aside, instinctively obeying his tone. “Oh, Ethan, what are you going to do?”

She stepped back, instinctively responding to his tone. “Oh, Ethan, what are you planning to do?”

Without replying he gathered the pieces of glass into his broad palm and walked out of the kitchen to the passage. There he lit a candle-end, opened the china-closet, and, reaching his long arm up to the highest shelf, laid the pieces together with such accuracy of touch that a close inspection convinced him of the impossibility of detecting from below that the dish was broken. If he glued it together the next morning months might elapse before his wife noticed what had happened, and meanwhile he might after all be able to match the dish at Shadd’s Falls or Bettsbridge. Having satisfied himself that there was no risk of immediate discovery he went back to the kitchen with a lighter step, and found Mattie disconsolately removing the last scraps of pickle from the floor.

Without answering, he picked up the pieces of glass in his big hand and walked out of the kitchen into the hallway. There, he lit a candle stub, opened the china cabinet, and reached his long arm up to the highest shelf, carefully placing the pieces together so expertly that a close look would make it impossible to tell from below that the dish was broken. If he glued it together the next morning, it might take months for his wife to notice what had happened, and in the meantime, he might be able to find a matching dish at Shadd’s Falls or Bettsbridge. After assuring himself that there was no immediate risk of being found out, he returned to the kitchen with a lighter step and found Mattie sadly clearing the last bits of pickle from the floor.

“It’s all right, Matt. Come back and finish supper,” he commanded her.

“It’s okay, Matt. Come back and finish dinner,” he told her.

Completely reassured, she shone on him through tear-hung lashes, and his soul swelled with pride as he saw how his tone subdued her. She did not even ask what he had done. Except when he was steering a big log down the mountain to his mill he had never known such a thrilling sense of mastery.

Completely reassured, she looked at him through tear-soaked eyelashes, and his soul filled with pride as he noticed how his tone calmed her. She didn’t even ask what he had done. Except when he was guiding a large log down the mountain to his mill, he had never experienced such an exciting feeling of control.





V

They finished supper, and while Mattie cleared the table Ethan went to look at the cows and then took a last turn about the house. The earth lay dark under a muffled sky and the air was so still that now and then he heard a lump of snow come thumping down from a tree far off on the edge of the wood-lot.

They finished dinner, and while Mattie cleaned up the table, Ethan went to check on the cows and then took one last walk around the house. The ground was dark under a cloudy sky, and the air was so quiet that every now and then he heard a chunk of snow thud to the ground from a tree far away on the edge of the woods.

When he returned to the kitchen Mattie had pushed up his chair to the stove and seated herself near the lamp with a bit of sewing. The scene was just as he had dreamed of it that morning. He sat down, drew his pipe from his pocket and stretched his feet to the glow. His hard day’s work in the keen air made him feel at once lazy and light of mood, and he had a confused sense of being in another world, where all was warmth and harmony and time could bring no change. The only drawback to his complete well-being was the fact that he could not see Mattie from where he sat; but he was too indolent to move and after a moment he said: “Come over here and sit by the stove.”

When he returned to the kitchen, Mattie had pushed his chair up to the stove and was sitting near the lamp, doing a bit of sewing. The scene looked exactly like he had pictured it that morning. He sat down, took his pipe out of his pocket, and stretched his feet toward the glow. After a long day’s work in the crisp air, he felt both lazy and lighthearted, almost as if he were in another world where everything was warm and peaceful, and time didn’t change anything. The only thing keeping him from feeling completely content was that he couldn’t see Mattie from where he was sitting, but he was too relaxed to get up. After a moment, he said, “Come over here and sit by the stove.”

Zeena’s empty rocking-chair stood facing him. Mattie rose obediently, and seated herself in it. As her young brown head detached itself against the patch-work cushion that habitually framed his wife’s gaunt countenance, Ethan had a momentary shock. It was almost as if the other face, the face of the superseded woman, had obliterated that of the intruder. After a moment Mattie seemed to be affected by the same sense of constraint. She changed her position, leaning forward to bend her head above her work, so that he saw only the foreshortened tip of her nose and the streak of red in her hair; then she slipped to her feet, saying “I can’t see to sew,” and went back to her chair by the lamp.

Zeena’s empty rocking chair was facing him. Mattie got up obediently and sat in it. As her young brown head stood out against the patchwork cushion that usually framed his wife’s thin face, Ethan felt a momentary jolt. It was almost as if the other face, the one of the woman who had been replaced, had erased the face of the newcomer. After a moment, Mattie seemed to feel the same tension. She shifted her position, leaning forward to bend her head over her work, so that he could only see the tip of her nose and the streak of red in her hair; then she got up, saying, “I can’t see to sew,” and returned to her chair by the lamp.

Ethan made a pretext of getting up to replenish the stove, and when he returned to his seat he pushed it sideways that he might get a view of her profile and of the lamplight falling on her hands. The cat, who had been a puzzled observer of these unusual movements, jumped up into Zeena’s chair, rolled itself into a ball, and lay watching them with narrowed eyes.

Ethan got up pretending to refill the stove, and when he came back to his seat, he slid it over so he could see her profile and the light from the lamp on her hands. The cat, who had been confused by these strange actions, hopped up into Zeena’s chair, curled up into a ball, and watched them with half-closed eyes.

Deep quiet sank on the room. The clock ticked above the dresser, a piece of charred wood fell now and then in the stove, and the faint sharp scent of the geraniums mingled with the odour of Ethan’s smoke, which began to throw a blue haze about the lamp and to hang its greyish cobwebs in the shadowy corners of the room.

A deep silence settled over the room. The clock ticked above the dresser, a piece of burnt wood occasionally fell in the stove, and the faint, sharp scent of the geraniums blended with the smell of Ethan's smoke, which started to create a blue haze around the lamp and linger greyish cobwebs in the shadowy corners of the room.

All constraint had vanished between the two, and they began to talk easily and simply. They spoke of every-day things, of the prospect of snow, of the next church sociable, of the loves and quarrels of Starkfield. The commonplace nature of what they said produced in Ethan an illusion of long-established intimacy which no outburst of emotion could have given, and he set his imagination adrift on the fiction that they had always spent their evenings thus and would always go on doing so....

All tension disappeared between the two, and they started talking casually and effortlessly. They discussed everyday topics, like the chance of snow, the upcoming church gathering, and the romantic ups and downs in Starkfield. The ordinary nature of their conversation created in Ethan a feeling of deep familiarity that no emotional outburst could replicate, and he let his imagination wander, convincing himself that they had always spent their evenings this way and would continue to do so...

“This is the night we were to have gone coasting, Matt,” he said at length, with the rich sense, as he spoke, that they could go on any other night they chose, since they had all time before them.

“This is the night we were supposed to go sledding, Matt,” he said after a while, feeling as he spoke that they could go any other night they wanted, since they had all the time in the world ahead of them.

She smiled back at him. “I guess you forgot!”

She smiled back at him. “I guess you forgot!”

“No, I didn’t forget; but it’s as dark as Egypt outdoors. We might go to-morrow if there’s a moon.”

“No, I didn’t forget; but it’s pitch black outside. We might go tomorrow if there’s a moon.”

She laughed with pleasure, her head tilted back, the lamplight sparkling on her lips and teeth. “That would be lovely, Ethan!”

She laughed with joy, her head tilted back, the lamp light sparkling on her lips and teeth. “That would be great, Ethan!”

He kept his eyes fixed on her, marvelling at the way her face changed with each turn of their talk, like a wheat-field under a summer breeze. It was intoxicating to find such magic in his clumsy words, and he longed to try new ways of using it.

He kept his eyes on her, amazed at how her face transformed with every twist of their conversation, like a wheat field swaying in a summer breeze. It was exhilarating to discover such magic in his awkward words, and he yearned to explore new ways to express it.

“Would you be scared to go down the Corbury road with me on a night like this?” he asked.

“Would you be scared to walk down Corbury Road with me on a night like this?” he asked.

Her cheeks burned redder. “I ain’t any more scared than you are!”

Her cheeks turned even redder. “I’m not any more scared than you are!”

“Well, I’d be scared, then; I wouldn’t do it. That’s an ugly corner down by the big elm. If a fellow didn’t keep his eyes open he’d go plumb into it.” He luxuriated in the sense of protection and authority which his words conveyed. To prolong and intensify the feeling he added: “I guess we’re well enough here.”

“Well, I’d be scared, then; I wouldn’t do it. That’s a nasty spot down by the big elm. If someone didn’t keep their eyes open, they’d walk right into it.” He reveled in the sense of protection and authority that his words expressed. To extend and deepen the feeling, he added: “I guess we’re fine enough here.”

She let her lids sink slowly, in the way he loved. “Yes, we’re well enough here,” she sighed.

She slowly lowered her eyelids, just the way he loved. “Yeah, we’re good enough here,” she sighed.

Her tone was so sweet that he took the pipe from his mouth and drew his chair up to the table. Leaning forward, he touched the farther end of the strip of brown stuff that she was hemming. “Say, Matt,” he began with a smile, “what do you think I saw under the Varnum spruces, coming along home just now? I saw a friend of yours getting kissed.”

Her voice was so gentle that he took the pipe out of his mouth and pulled his chair closer to the table. Leaning in, he touched the far end of the strip of brown fabric she was hemming. “Hey, Matt,” he said with a smile, “guess what I just saw under the Varnum spruces on my way home? I saw a friend of yours getting kissed.”

The words had been on his tongue all the evening, but now that he had spoken them they struck him as inexpressibly vulgar and out of place.

The words had been on his mind all evening, but now that he had said them, they felt incredibly crude and inappropriate.

Mattie blushed to the roots of her hair and pulled her needle rapidly twice or thrice through her work, insensibly drawing the end of it away from him. “I suppose it was Ruth and Ned,” she said in a low voice, as though he had suddenly touched on something grave.

Mattie blushed deeply and quickly pulled her needle through her work two or three times, unintentionally pulling it away from him. “I guess it was Ruth and Ned,” she said softly, as if he had stumbled upon something serious.

Ethan had imagined that his allusion might open the way to the accepted pleasantries, and these perhaps in turn to a harmless caress, if only a mere touch on her hand. But now he felt as if her blush had set a flaming guard about her. He supposed it was his natural awkwardness that made him feel so. He knew that most young men made nothing at all of giving a pretty girl a kiss, and he remembered that the night before, when he had put his arm about Mattie, she had not resisted. But that had been out-of-doors, under the open irresponsible night. Now, in the warm lamplit room, with all its ancient implications of conformity and order, she seemed infinitely farther away from him and more unapproachable.

Ethan had hoped that his reference might lead to casual conversation, and maybe even to a light touch, like just brushing her hand. But now he felt like her blush had created a protective barrier around her. He thought it was his own awkwardness making him feel this way. He knew that most guys didn’t think twice about kissing a pretty girl, and he remembered that the night before, when he wrapped his arm around Mattie, she hadn’t pushed him away. But that was outside, under the carefree night sky. Now, in the warm glow of the lamp-lit room, with all its old expectations of rules and order, she seemed so much farther away and more distant.

To ease his constraint he said: “I suppose they’ll be setting a date before long.”

To relieve his tension, he said: “I guess they’ll be choosing a date soon.”

“Yes. I shouldn’t wonder if they got married some time along in the summer.” She pronounced the word married as if her voice caressed it. It seemed a rustling covert leading to enchanted glades. A pang shot through Ethan, and he said, twisting away from her in his chair: “It’ll be your turn next, I wouldn’t wonder.”

“Yes. I wouldn’t be surprised if they got married sometime in the summer.” She said the word married as if she were gently nurturing it. It felt like a whispering path leading to magical clearings. A sharp feeling went through Ethan, and he replied, turning away from her in his chair: “It’ll be your turn next, I wouldn’t doubt.”

She laughed a little uncertainly. “Why do you keep on saying that?”

She laughed a bit nervously. “Why do you keep saying that?”

He echoed her laugh. “I guess I do it to get used to the idea.”

He laughed back. “I guess I do it to get used to the idea.”

He drew up to the table again and she sewed on in silence, with dropped lashes, while he sat in fascinated contemplation of the way in which her hands went up and down above the strip of stuff, just as he had seen a pair of birds make short perpendicular flights over a nest they were building. At length, without turning her head or lifting her lids, she said in a low tone: “It’s not because you think Zeena’s got anything against me, is it?”

He pulled up to the table again and she continued sewing in silence, her lashes lowered, while he sat there, captivated by the way her hands moved up and down over the piece of fabric, like a pair of birds making quick vertical flights over their nest. Finally, without turning her head or lifting her eyes, she spoke softly, "You don't think Zeena has anything against me, do you?"

His former dread started up full-armed at the suggestion. “Why, what do you mean?” he stammered.

His old fear flared up immediately at the suggestion. “What do you mean?” he stammered.

She raised distressed eyes to his, her work dropping on the table between them. “I don’t know. I thought last night she seemed to have.”

She looked up at him with worry in her eyes, her work falling onto the table between them. “I don’t know. I thought she seemed to have it figured out last night.”

“I’d like to know what,” he growled.

“I want to know what,” he growled.

“Nobody can tell with Zeena.” It was the first time they had ever spoken so openly of her attitude toward Mattie, and the repetition of the name seemed to carry it to the farther corners of the room and send it back to them in long repercussions of sound. Mattie waited, as if to give the echo time to drop, and then went on: “She hasn’t said anything to you?”

“Nobody can figure out Zeena.” It was the first time they had ever talked so openly about her feelings toward Mattie, and saying her name seemed to spread through the room and come back to them in lingering echoes. Mattie paused, giving the echo a moment to fade, and then continued: “She hasn’t said anything to you?”

He shook his head. “No, not a word.”

He shook his head. “No, not a word.”

She tossed the hair back from her forehead with a laugh. “I guess I’m just nervous, then. I’m not going to think about it any more.”

She brushed her hair away from her forehead with a laugh. “I guess I’m just nervous, then. I’m not going to think about it anymore.”

“Oh, no—don’t let’s think about it, Matt!”

“Oh, no—let’s not think about it, Matt!”

The sudden heat of his tone made her colour mount again, not with a rush, but gradually, delicately, like the reflection of a thought stealing slowly across her heart. She sat silent, her hands clasped on her work, and it seemed to him that a warm current flowed toward him along the strip of stuff that still lay unrolled between them. Cautiously he slid his hand palm-downward along the table till his finger-tips touched the end of the stuff. A faint vibration of her lashes seemed to show that she was aware of his gesture, and that it had sent a counter-current back to her; and she let her hands lie motionless on the other end of the strip.

The sudden intensity of his tone made her blush again, not all at once, but gradually and subtly, like the way a thought slowly spread through her heart. She sat quietly, her hands resting on her work, and it felt to him like a warm energy flowed toward him along the piece of fabric still unrolled between them. Carefully, he slid his hand, palm down, across the table until his fingertips brushed the edge of the fabric. A slight flutter of her eyelashes seemed to indicate she noticed his move, and that it had sent a response back to her; she left her hands still at the other end of the fabric.

As they sat thus he heard a sound behind him and turned his head. The cat had jumped from Zeena’s chair to dart at a mouse in the wainscot, and as a result of the sudden movement the empty chair had set up a spectral rocking.

As they sat there, he heard a noise behind him and turned his head. The cat had leaped from Zeena’s chair to chase a mouse in the wall, and because of the sudden movement, the empty chair began to rock eerily.

“She’ll be rocking in it herself this time to-morrow,” Ethan thought. “I’ve been in a dream, and this is the only evening we’ll ever have together.” The return to reality was as painful as the return to consciousness after taking an anaesthetic. His body and brain ached with indescribable weariness, and he could think of nothing to say or to do that should arrest the mad flight of the moments.

“She’ll be rocking in it herself this time tomorrow,” Ethan thought. “I’ve been in a dream, and this is the only evening we’ll ever have together.” Coming back to reality was as painful as waking up after anesthesia. His body and mind were screaming with exhaustion, and he couldn’t think of anything to say or do that would stop the crazy rush of time.

His alteration of mood seemed to have communicated itself to Mattie. She looked up at him languidly, as though her lids were weighted with sleep and it cost her an effort to raise them. Her glance fell on his hand, which now completely covered the end of her work and grasped it as if it were a part of herself. He saw a scarcely perceptible tremor cross her face, and without knowing what he did he stooped his head and kissed the bit of stuff in his hold. As his lips rested on it he felt it glide slowly from beneath them, and saw that Mattie had risen and was silently rolling up her work. She fastened it with a pin, and then, finding her thimble and scissors, put them with the roll of stuff into the box covered with fancy paper which he had once brought to her from Bettsbridge.

His change in mood seemed to have affected Mattie. She looked up at him wearily, as though her eyelids were heavy with sleep and it took her effort to lift them. Her gaze landed on his hand, which now completely covered the end of her work and held it like it was a part of her. He noticed a barely noticeable shiver pass over her face, and without realizing what he was doing, he leaned down and kissed the piece of fabric in his grasp. As his lips touched it, he felt it slowly slip away from beneath them, and saw that Mattie had gotten up and was quietly rolling up her work. She secured it with a pin, and then, finding her thimble and scissors, placed them with the rolled fabric into the box wrapped in decorative paper that he had once brought to her from Bettsbridge.

He stood up also, looking vaguely about the room. The clock above the dresser struck eleven.

He stood up too, glancing around the room. The clock above the dresser struck eleven.

“Is the fire all right?” she asked in a low voice.

“Is the fire okay?” she asked quietly.

He opened the door of the stove and poked aimlessly at the embers. When he raised himself again he saw that she was dragging toward the stove the old soap-box lined with carpet in which the cat made its bed. Then she recrossed the floor and lifted two of the geranium pots in her arms, moving them away from the cold window. He followed her and brought the other geraniums, the hyacinth bulbs in a cracked custard bowl and the German ivy trained over an old croquet hoop.

He opened the stove door and poked at the embers absentmindedly. When he straightened up, he saw her dragging the old soap box lined with carpet, where the cat slept, over to the stove. Then she crossed the floor again and picked up two of the geranium pots, moving them away from the cold window. He followed her and carried the other geraniums, the hyacinth bulbs in a cracked custard bowl, and the German ivy that was trained over an old croquet hoop.

When these nightly duties were performed there was nothing left to do but to bring in the tin candlestick from the passage, light the candle and blow out the lamp. Ethan put the candlestick in Mattie’s hand and she went out of the kitchen ahead of him, the light that she carried before her making her dark hair look like a drift of mist on the moon.

When these nighttime tasks were done, all that was left was to bring in the tin candlestick from the hallway, light the candle, and blow out the lamp. Ethan placed the candlestick in Mattie's hand, and she stepped out of the kitchen ahead of him, the light she carried making her dark hair appear like a swirl of mist in the moonlight.

“Good night, Matt,” he said as she put her foot on the first step of the stairs.

“Good night, Matt,” he said as she stepped onto the first stair.

She turned and looked at him a moment. “Good night, Ethan,” she answered, and went up.

She turned and looked at him for a moment. “Good night, Ethan,” she said, and went upstairs.

When the door of her room had closed on her he remembered that he had not even touched her hand.

When the door to her room closed behind her, he realized he hadn't even held her hand.





VI

The next morning at breakfast Jotham Powell was between them, and Ethan tried to hide his joy under an air of exaggerated indifference, lounging back in his chair to throw scraps to the cat, growling at the weather, and not so much as offering to help Mattie when she rose to clear away the dishes.

The next morning at breakfast, Jotham Powell was sitting between them, and Ethan tried to conceal his happiness under a show of exaggerated indifference, leaning back in his chair to toss scraps to the cat, complaining about the weather, and not even offering to help Mattie when she got up to clear the dishes.

He did not know why he was so irrationally happy, for nothing was changed in his life or hers. He had not even touched the tip of her fingers or looked her full in the eyes. But their evening together had given him a vision of what life at her side might be, and he was glad now that he had done nothing to trouble the sweetness of the picture. He had a fancy that she knew what had restrained him....

He didn’t understand why he felt so unreasonably happy, since nothing had changed in his life or hers. He hadn’t even grazed her fingertips or looked her fully in the eyes. But their evening together had shown him what life next to her could be like, and he was thankful that he hadn’t done anything to disturb the sweetness of that image. He had a feeling that she knew what had held him back...

There was a last load of lumber to be hauled to the village, and Jotham Powell—who did not work regularly for Ethan in winter—had “come round” to help with the job. But a wet snow, melting to sleet, had fallen in the night and turned the roads to glass. There was more wet in the air and it seemed likely to both men that the weather would “milden” toward afternoon and make the going safer. Ethan therefore proposed to his assistant that they should load the sledge at the wood-lot, as they had done on the previous morning, and put off the “teaming” to Starkfield till later in the day. This plan had the advantage of enabling him to send Jotham to the Flats after dinner to meet Zenobia, while he himself took the lumber down to the village.

There was one last load of lumber to take to the village, and Jotham Powell—who didn’t usually work for Ethan in the winter—had come by to help with the job. But a wet snow that had turned into sleet fell overnight, making the roads slick. The air felt damp, and both men thought the weather would warm up in the afternoon, making the travel safer. Ethan suggested to his assistant that they should load the sled at the woodlot, just like they did the morning before, and postpone the trip to Starkfield until later in the day. This plan also allowed him to send Jotham to the Flats after lunch to meet Zenobia while he took the lumber down to the village himself.

He told Jotham to go out and harness up the greys, and for a moment he and Mattie had the kitchen to themselves. She had plunged the breakfast dishes into a tin dish-pan and was bending above it with her slim arms bared to the elbow, the steam from the hot water beading her forehead and tightening her rough hair into little brown rings like the tendrils on the traveller’s joy.

He told Jotham to step outside and get the greys harnessed up, and for a moment he and Mattie had the kitchen all to themselves. She had tossed the breakfast dishes into a tin dishpan and was leaning over it with her slender arms exposed to the elbows, the steam from the hot water causing beads of moisture to form on her forehead and twisting her messy hair into little brown curls like the tendrils of climbing vines.

Ethan stood looking at her, his heart in his throat. He wanted to say: “We shall never be alone again like this.” Instead, he reached down his tobacco-pouch from a shelf of the dresser, put it into his pocket and said: “I guess I can make out to be home for dinner.”

Ethan stood there, staring at her, his heart racing. He wanted to say, “We’ll never be alone like this again.” Instead, he grabbed his tobacco pouch from the dresser shelf, put it in his pocket, and said, “I guess I can make it home for dinner.”

She answered “All right, Ethan,” and he heard her singing over the dishes as he went.

She replied, “Okay, Ethan,” and he could hear her singing over the sound of the dishes as he walked away.

As soon as the sledge was loaded he meant to send Jotham back to the farm and hurry on foot into the village to buy the glue for the pickle-dish. With ordinary luck he should have had time to carry out this plan; but everything went wrong from the start. On the way over to the wood-lot one of the greys slipped on a glare of ice and cut his knee; and when they got him up again Jotham had to go back to the barn for a strip of rag to bind the cut. Then, when the loading finally began, a sleety rain was coming down once more, and the tree trunks were so slippery that it took twice as long as usual to lift them and get them in place on the sledge. It was what Jotham called a sour morning for work, and the horses, shivering and stamping under their wet blankets, seemed to like it as little as the men. It was long past the dinner-hour when the job was done, and Ethan had to give up going to the village because he wanted to lead the injured horse home and wash the cut himself.

As soon as the sled was loaded, he planned to send Jotham back to the farm and rush on foot into the village to buy glue for the pickle dish. Normally, he would have had time to do this, but everything went wrong from the start. On the way to the woodlot, one of the gray horses slipped on a patch of ice and cut his knee, and when they got him up again, Jotham had to go back to the barn for a rag to bind the cut. Then, when the loading finally started, a sleety rain was falling again, and the tree trunks were so slippery that it took twice as long as usual to lift them and get them positioned on the sled. Jotham called it a miserable morning for work, and the horses, shivering and stamping under their wet blankets, seemed to dislike it as much as the men did. It was well past dinner time when the task was finished, and Ethan had to give up his trip to the village because he wanted to lead the injured horse home and clean the cut himself.

He thought that by starting out again with the lumber as soon as he had finished his dinner he might get back to the farm with the glue before Jotham and the old sorrel had had time to fetch Zenobia from the Flats; but he knew the chance was a slight one. It turned on the state of the roads and on the possible lateness of the Bettsbridge train. He remembered afterward, with a grim flash of self-derision, what importance he had attached to the weighing of these probabilities....

He thought that if he started again with the lumber right after finishing his dinner, he might get back to the farm with the glue before Jotham and the old sorrel had time to pick up Zenobia from the Flats; but he knew the chance was slim. It depended on the condition of the roads and on how late the Bettsbridge train might run. He later recalled, with a sarcastic sense of self-mockery, how much importance he had placed on evaluating these odds...

As soon as dinner was over he set out again for the wood-lot, not daring to linger till Jotham Powell left. The hired man was still drying his wet feet at the stove, and Ethan could only give Mattie a quick look as he said beneath his breath: “I’ll be back early.”

As soon as dinner was done, he headed back to the woodlot, not wanting to stay until Jotham Powell left. The hired guy was still drying his wet feet by the stove, and Ethan could only give Mattie a quick glance as he whispered, “I’ll be back early.”

He fancied that she nodded her comprehension; and with that scant solace he had to trudge off through the rain.

He thought she nodded to show she understood, and with that little comfort, he had to head out into the rain.

He had driven his load half-way to the village when Jotham Powell overtook him, urging the reluctant sorrel toward the Flats. “I’ll have to hurry up to do it,” Ethan mused, as the sleigh dropped down ahead of him over the dip of the school-house hill. He worked like ten at the unloading, and when it was over hastened on to Michael Eady’s for the glue. Eady and his assistant were both “down street,” and young Denis, who seldom deigned to take their place, was lounging by the stove with a knot of the golden youth of Starkfield. They hailed Ethan with ironic compliment and offers of conviviality; but no one knew where to find the glue. Ethan, consumed with the longing for a last moment alone with Mattie, hung about impatiently while Denis made an ineffectual search in the obscurer corners of the store.

He had driven his load halfway to the village when Jotham Powell caught up with him, pushing the unwilling sorrel toward the Flats. “I’ll have to hurry to get it done,” Ethan thought, as the sleigh dropped down ahead of him over the dip of the schoolhouse hill. He worked hard unloading, and once it was done, he rushed on to Michael Eady’s for the glue. Eady and his assistant were both “downtown,” and young Denis, who rarely bothered to fill in for them, was lounging by the stove with a group of the wealthy youth of Starkfield. They greeted Ethan with sarcastic compliments and invites to join them; but no one knew where the glue was. Ethan, filled with the desire for one last moment alone with Mattie, lingered impatiently while Denis searched ineffectually in the less obvious corners of the store.

“Looks as if we were all sold out. But if you’ll wait around till the old man comes along maybe he can put his hand on it.”

“Looks like we're all sold out. But if you wait around until the old man shows up, he might be able to help you find it.”

“I’m obliged to you, but I’ll try if I can get it down at Mrs. Homan’s,” Ethan answered, burning to be gone.

“I appreciate it, but I'll see if I can get it done at Mrs. Homan’s,” Ethan replied, eager to leave.

Denis’s commercial instinct compelled him to aver on oath that what Eady’s store could not produce would never be found at the widow Homan’s; but Ethan, heedless of this boast, had already climbed to the sledge and was driving on to the rival establishment. Here, after considerable search, and sympathetic questions as to what he wanted it for, and whether ordinary flour paste wouldn’t do as well if she couldn’t find it, the widow Homan finally hunted down her solitary bottle of glue to its hiding-place in a medley of cough-lozenges and corset-laces.

Denis’s business instinct made him swear that whatever Eady’s store didn’t have would never be found at widow Homan’s; but Ethan, ignoring this claim, had already climbed onto the sled and was heading to the competing shop. After searching extensively and answering sympathetic questions about what he needed it for, and whether regular flour paste might work just as well if she couldn’t find it, widow Homan eventually located her one bottle of glue in a jumble of cough lozenges and corset laces.

“I hope Zeena ain’t broken anything she sets store by,” she called after him as he turned the greys toward home.

“I hope Zeena hasn’t broken anything she cares about,” she called after him as he turned the greys toward home.

The fitful bursts of sleet had changed into a steady rain and the horses had heavy work even without a load behind them. Once or twice, hearing sleigh-bells, Ethan turned his head, fancying that Zeena and Jotham might overtake him; but the old sorrel was not in sight, and he set his face against the rain and urged on his ponderous pair.

The sporadic sleet had turned into a steady rain, and the horses had a tough time even without anything to pull. A couple of times, hearing the jingle of sleigh bells, Ethan glanced back, imagining that Zeena and Jotham might catch up to him; but he couldn’t see the old sorrel, so he braced himself against the rain and pushed his heavy team onward.

The barn was empty when the horses turned into it and, after giving them the most perfunctory ministrations they had ever received from him, he strode up to the house and pushed open the kitchen door.

The barn was empty when the horses walked in, and after giving them the most basic care they had ever gotten from him, he walked up to the house and pushed open the kitchen door.

Mattie was there alone, as he had pictured her. She was bending over a pan on the stove; but at the sound of his step she turned with a start and sprang to him.

Mattie was there by herself, just like he had imagined. She was leaning over a pan on the stove, but when she heard his footsteps, she turned in surprise and rushed to him.

“See, here, Matt, I’ve got some stuff to mend the dish with! Let me get at it quick,” he cried, waving the bottle in one hand while he put her lightly aside; but she did not seem to hear him.

“Hey, Matt, I’ve got some stuff to fix the dish! Let me get to it fast,” he yelled, waving the bottle in one hand while gently moving her aside; but she didn’t seem to hear him.

“Oh, Ethan—Zeena’s come,” she said in a whisper, clutching his sleeve.

“Oh, Ethan—Zeena’s here,” she said quietly, gripping his sleeve.

They stood and stared at each other, pale as culprits.

They stood there and stared at each other, looking as pale as criminals.

“But the sorrel’s not in the barn!” Ethan stammered.

“But the sorrel isn’t in the barn!” Ethan stammered.

“Jotham Powell brought some goods over from the Flats for his wife, and he drove right on home with them,” she explained.

“Jotham Powell brought some supplies over from the Flats for his wife, and he drove straight home with them,” she explained.

He gazed blankly about the kitchen, which looked cold and squalid in the rainy winter twilight.

He stared mindlessly around the kitchen, which appeared cold and dingy in the rainy winter dusk.

“How is she?” he asked, dropping his voice to Mattie’s whisper.

“How is she?” he asked, lowering his voice to a whisper like Mattie's.

She looked away from him uncertainly. “I don’t know. She went right up to her room.”

She looked away from him uncertainly. “I don’t know. She went straight to her room.”

“She didn’t say anything?”

"She didn’t say anything?"

“No.”

“No.”

Ethan let out his doubts in a low whistle and thrust the bottle back into his pocket. “Don’t fret; I’ll come down and mend it in the night,” he said. He pulled on his wet coat again and went back to the barn to feed the greys.

Ethan let out a quiet whistle of doubt and shoved the bottle back into his pocket. “Don’t worry; I’ll come down and fix it tonight,” he said. He put on his wet coat again and headed back to the barn to feed the gray horses.

While he was there Jotham Powell drove up with the sleigh, and when the horses had been attended to Ethan said to him: “You might as well come back up for a bite.” He was not sorry to assure himself of Jotham’s neutralising presence at the supper table, for Zeena was always “nervous” after a journey. But the hired man, though seldom loth to accept a meal not included in his wages, opened his stiff jaws to answer slowly: “I’m obliged to you, but I guess I’ll go along back.”

While he was there, Jotham Powell drove up with the sleigh, and after taking care of the horses, Ethan said to him, “You might as well come back up for a bite.” He was glad to have Jotham’s neutral presence at the dinner table because Zeena always felt “nervous” after a trip. But the hired hand, although usually willing to accept a meal that wasn't part of his wages, opened his stiff mouth to respond slowly: “I appreciate it, but I think I’ll head back.”

Ethan looked at him in surprise. “Better come up and dry off. Looks as if there’d be something hot for supper.”

Ethan looked at him in surprise. “You should come up and dry off. It seems like there’s something hot for dinner.”

Jotham’s facial muscles were unmoved by this appeal and, his vocabulary being limited, he merely repeated: “I guess I’ll go along back.”

Jotham's face didn't show any reaction to this request, and since he didn't have much to say, he simply repeated, "I guess I'll head back."

To Ethan there was something vaguely ominous in this stolid rejection of free food and warmth, and he wondered what had happened on the drive to nerve Jotham to such stoicism. Perhaps Zeena had failed to see the new doctor or had not liked his counsels: Ethan knew that in such cases the first person she met was likely to be held responsible for her grievance.

To Ethan, there was something unsettling about this stony rejection of free food and warmth, and he wondered what had happened to make Jotham so stoic. Maybe Zeena hadn’t seen the new doctor or hadn’t liked his advice: Ethan knew that in those situations, the first person she encountered was likely to be blamed for her anger.

When he re-entered the kitchen the lamp lit up the same scene of shining comfort as on the previous evening. The table had been as carefully laid, a clear fire glowed in the stove, the cat dozed in its warmth, and Mattie came forward carrying a plate of dough-nuts.

When he walked back into the kitchen, the lamp illuminated the same cozy scene as the night before. The table was set just as carefully, a warm fire sparkled in the stove, the cat napped in its heat, and Mattie came over holding a plate of doughnuts.

She and Ethan looked at each other in silence; then she said, as she had said the night before: “I guess it’s about time for supper.”

She and Ethan exchanged glances in silence; then she said, just like she had the night before: “I guess it’s about time for dinner.”





VII

Ethan went out into the passage to hang up his wet garments. He listened for Zeena’s step and, not hearing it, called her name up the stairs. She did not answer, and after a moment’s hesitation he went up and opened her door. The room was almost dark, but in the obscurity he saw her sitting by the window, bolt upright, and knew by the rigidity of the outline projected against the pane that she had not taken off her travelling dress.

Ethan stepped into the hallway to hang up his wet clothes. He listened for Zeena’s footsteps and, not hearing anything, called her name up the stairs. She didn't respond, and after a moment of doubt, he went upstairs and opened her door. The room was nearly dark, but in the shadows, he saw her sitting by the window, perfectly straight, and he knew from the stiff shape against the glass that she hadn’t taken off her travel dress.

“Well, Zeena,” he ventured from the threshold.

“Well, Zeena,” he said from the doorway.

She did not move, and he continued: “Supper’s about ready. Ain’t you coming?”

She stayed still, and he went on: “Dinner’s almost ready. Aren’t you coming?”

She replied: “I don’t feel as if I could touch a morsel.”

She replied, "I don't feel like I could eat a bite."

It was the consecrated formula, and he expected it to be followed, as usual, by her rising and going down to supper. But she remained seated, and he could think of nothing more felicitous than: “I presume you’re tired after the long ride.”

It was the usual routine, and he expected her to get up and go down to dinner like always. But she stayed seated, and the best he could come up with was, “I guess you’re tired after the long ride.”

Turning her head at this, she answered solemnly: “I’m a great deal sicker than you think.”

Turning her head at this, she answered seriously: “I’m much sicker than you realize.”

Her words fell on his ear with a strange shock of wonder. He had often heard her pronounce them before—what if at last they were true?

Her words hit him with an unexpected sense of wonder. He had heard her say them many times before—what if they were finally true?

He advanced a step or two into the dim room. “I hope that’s not so, Zeena,” he said.

He stepped a couple of paces into the dim room. “I hope that’s not true, Zeena,” he said.

She continued to gaze at him through the twilight with a mien of wan authority, as of one consciously singled out for a great fate. “I’ve got complications,” she said.

She kept looking at him in the twilight, her expression one of pale authority, as if she was aware she was destined for something significant. “I have complications,” she said.

Ethan knew the word for one of exceptional import. Almost everybody in the neighbourhood had “troubles,” frankly localized and specified; but only the chosen had “complications.” To have them was in itself a distinction, though it was also, in most cases, a death-warrant. People struggled on for years with “troubles,” but they almost always succumbed to “complications.”

Ethan knew the term for someone of significant importance. Almost everyone in the neighborhood had “troubles,” which were clearly defined and specific; but only the privileged had “complications.” Having them was a mark of distinction, although, in most cases, it also meant a death sentence. People managed for years with “troubles,” but they almost always fell victim to “complications.”

Ethan’s heart was jerking to and fro between two extremities of feeling, but for the moment compassion prevailed. His wife looked so hard and lonely, sitting there in the darkness with such thoughts.

Ethan's heart was swinging between two intense feelings, but for now, compassion won out. His wife looked so distant and lonely, sitting there in the darkness with those thoughts.

“Is that what the new doctor told you?” he asked, instinctively lowering his voice.

“Is that what the new doctor said to you?” he asked, instinctively lowering his voice.

“Yes. He says any regular doctor would want me to have an operation.”

“Yes. He says any regular doctor would recommend that I have surgery.”

Ethan was aware that, in regard to the important question of surgical intervention, the female opinion of the neighbourhood was divided, some glorying in the prestige conferred by operations while others shunned them as indelicate. Ethan, from motives of economy, had always been glad that Zeena was of the latter faction.

Ethan knew that, when it came to the important issue of surgery, the women in the neighborhood had mixed feelings. Some took pride in the status that surgery brought, while others avoided it because they considered it inappropriate. Ethan had always been happy that Zeena was part of the latter group, mainly for financial reasons.

In the agitation caused by the gravity of her announcement he sought a consolatory short cut. “What do you know about this doctor anyway? Nobody ever told you that before.”

In the turmoil caused by the seriousness of her announcement, he looked for a quick way to comfort her. “What do you even know about this doctor? No one has ever mentioned that before.”

He saw his blunder before she could take it up: she wanted sympathy, not consolation.

He realized his mistake before she could address it: she wanted compassion, not comfort.

“I didn’t need to have anybody tell me I was losing ground every day. Everybody but you could see it. And everybody in Bettsbridge knows about Dr. Buck. He has his office in Worcester, and comes over once a fortnight to Shadd’s Falls and Bettsbridge for consultations. Eliza Spears was wasting away with kidney trouble before she went to him, and now she’s up and around, and singing in the choir.”

“I didn’t need anyone to tell me I was losing ground every day. Everyone but you could see it. And everyone in Bettsbridge knows about Dr. Buck. He has his office in Worcester and comes over once every two weeks to Shadd’s Falls and Bettsbridge for consultations. Eliza Spears was struggling with kidney issues before she went to him, and now she’s up and about, singing in the choir.”

“Well, I’m glad of that. You must do just what he tells you,” Ethan answered sympathetically.

“Well, I’m glad to hear that. You should do exactly what he says,” Ethan replied supportively.

She was still looking at him. “I mean to,” she said. He was struck by a new note in her voice. It was neither whining nor reproachful, but drily resolute.

She was still looking at him. “I mean to,” she said. He noticed a new tone in her voice. It was neither whiny nor accusatory, but dryly determined.

“What does he want you should do?” he asked, with a mounting vision of fresh expenses.

“What does he want you to do?” he asked, with a growing worry about new expenses.

“He wants I should have a hired girl. He says I oughtn’t to have to do a single thing around the house.”

“He wants me to hire a cleaning lady. He says I shouldn’t have to do anything around the house.”

“A hired girl?” Ethan stood transfixed.

“A hired girl?” Ethan stood frozen.

“Yes. And Aunt Martha found me one right off. Everybody said I was lucky to get a girl to come away out here, and I agreed to give her a dollar extry to make sure. She’ll be over to-morrow afternoon.”

“Yes. And Aunt Martha found me one right away. Everyone said I was lucky to get a girl to come all the way out here, and I agreed to give her an extra dollar to make sure. She’ll be over tomorrow afternoon.”

Wrath and dismay contended in Ethan. He had foreseen an immediate demand for money, but not a permanent drain on his scant resources. He no longer believed what Zeena had told him of the supposed seriousness of her state: he saw in her expedition to Bettsbridge only a plot hatched between herself and her Pierce relations to foist on him the cost of a servant; and for the moment wrath predominated.

Wrath and dismay battled inside Ethan. He had anticipated an immediate need for cash, but not a lasting drain on his limited resources. He no longer trusted what Zeena had said about the supposed seriousness of her condition: he perceived her trip to Bettsbridge as a scheme between her and her Pierce relatives to pass the burden of a servant's expense onto him; and for now, anger took the upper hand.

“If you meant to engage a girl you ought to have told me before you started,” he said.

“If you were planning to ask a girl out, you should have told me before you started,” he said.

“How could I tell you before I started? How did I know what Dr. Buck would say?”

“How could I tell you before I started? How was I supposed to know what Dr. Buck would say?”

“Oh, Dr. Buck—” Ethan’s incredulity escaped in a short laugh. “Did Dr. Buck tell you how I was to pay her wages?”

“Oh, Dr. Buck—” Ethan couldn’t help but laugh in disbelief. “Did Dr. Buck tell you how I was supposed to pay her wages?”

Her voice rose furiously with his. “No, he didn’t. For I’d ’a’ been ashamed to tell him that you grudged me the money to get back my health, when I lost it nursing your own mother!”

Her voice matched his in anger. “No, he didn't. Because I would have been ashamed to tell him that you resented giving me the money to restore my health when I lost it taking care of your mother!”

You lost your health nursing mother?”

“You lost your health caring for mom?”

“Yes; and my folks all told me at the time you couldn’t do no less than marry me after—”

“Yes; and my family all told me back then that you couldn’t do anything less than marry me after—”

“Zeena!”

“Zeena!”

Through the obscurity which hid their faces their thoughts seemed to dart at each other like serpents shooting venom. Ethan was seized with horror of the scene and shame at his own share in it. It was as senseless and savage as a physical fight between two enemies in the darkness.

Through the shadows that concealed their faces, their thoughts seemed to strike at each other like serpents shooting venom. Ethan was overcome with horror at the scene and shame for his own part in it. It was as senseless and brutal as a physical fight between two enemies in the dark.

He turned to the shelf above the chimney, groped for matches and lit the one candle in the room. At first its weak flame made no impression on the shadows; then Zeena’s face stood grimly out against the uncurtained pane, which had turned from grey to black.

He turned to the shelf above the fireplace, fumbled for matches, and lit the only candle in the room. At first, its weak flame had no effect on the shadows; then Zeena’s face emerged sternly against the bare window, which had shifted from gray to black.

It was the first scene of open anger between the couple in their sad seven years together, and Ethan felt as if he had lost an irretrievable advantage in descending to the level of recrimination. But the practical problem was there and had to be dealt with.

It was the first moment of real anger between the couple in their unhappy seven years together, and Ethan felt like he had lost a crucial advantage by stooping to blame. But the practical problem was right there and had to be addressed.

“You know I haven’t got the money to pay for a girl, Zeena. You’ll have to send her back: I can’t do it.”

“You know I don’t have the money to pay for a girl, Zeena. You'll have to send her back: I can't manage it.”

“The doctor says it’ll be my death if I go on slaving the way I’ve had to. He doesn’t understand how I’ve stood it as long as I have.”

“The doctor says I’ll die if I keep working myself to the bone like I have been. He doesn’t get how I’ve managed to endure it this long.”

“Slaving!—” He checked himself again, “You sha’n’t lift a hand, if he says so. I’ll do everything round the house myself—”

“Slaving!—” He caught himself again, “You won’t lift a finger, if he says so. I’ll handle everything around the house myself—”

She broke in: “You’re neglecting the farm enough already,” and this being true, he found no answer, and left her time to add ironically: “Better send me over to the almshouse and done with it.... I guess there’s been Fromes there afore now.”

She interrupted, “You’re ignoring the farm enough already,” and since that was true, he had no response, giving her a chance to add sarcastically, “Might as well send me to the shelter and be done with it... I bet there have been Fromes there before.”

The taunt burned into him, but he let it pass. “I haven’t got the money. That settles it.”

The insult hit hard, but he brushed it off. “I don't have the money. That settles it.”

There was a moment’s pause in the struggle, as though the combatants were testing their weapons. Then Zeena said in a level voice: “I thought you were to get fifty dollars from Andrew Hale for that lumber.”

There was a brief pause in the fight, as if the fighters were checking their weapons. Then Zeena said calmly, “I thought you were supposed to get fifty dollars from Andrew Hale for that lumber.”

“Andrew Hale never pays under three months.” He had hardly spoken when he remembered the excuse he had made for not accompanying his wife to the station the day before; and the blood rose to his frowning brows.

“Andrew Hale never pays less than three months.” He had barely finished speaking when he recalled the excuse he had given for not going with his wife to the station the day before, and his anger flared.

“Why, you told me yesterday you’d fixed it up with him to pay cash down. You said that was why you couldn’t drive me over to the Flats.”

"Why did you tell me yesterday that you made arrangements with him to pay in cash upfront? You said that was the reason you couldn't give me a ride to the Flats."

Ethan had no suppleness in deceiving. He had never before been convicted of a lie, and all the resources of evasion failed him. “I guess that was a misunderstanding,” he stammered.

Ethan wasn't good at lying. He had never been caught in a lie before, and all his attempts to dodge the truth let him down. “I guess that was a misunderstanding,” he stammered.

“You ain’t got the money?”

"You don't have the money?"

“No.”

"Nope."

“And you ain’t going to get it?”

“And you aren’t going to get it?”

“No.”

“No.”

“Well, I couldn’t know that when I engaged the girl, could I?”

“Well, I couldn’t have known that when I got involved with the girl, could I?”

“No.” He paused to control his voice. “But you know it now. I’m sorry, but it can’t be helped. You’re a poor man’s wife, Zeena; but I’ll do the best I can for you.”

“No.” He took a moment to steady his voice. “But you know it now. I’m sorry, but it can’t be helped. You’re a poor man’s wife, Zeena; but I’ll do my best for you.”

For a while she sat motionless, as if reflecting, her arms stretched along the arms of her chair, her eyes fixed on vacancy. “Oh, I guess we’ll make out,” she said mildly.

For a while, she sat still, deep in thought, her arms resting on the chair's arms, her eyes staring into space. "Oh, I guess we'll manage," she said calmly.

The change in her tone reassured him. “Of course we will! There’s a whole lot more I can do for you, and Mattie—”

The change in her tone reassured him. “Of course we will! There’s a lot more I can do for you, and Mattie—”

Zeena, while he spoke, seemed to be following out some elaborate mental calculation. She emerged from it to say: “There’ll be Mattie’s board less, any how—”

Zeena, while he talked, appeared to be working through some complicated mental equation. She came out of it to say: “At least there’ll be one less boarder with Mattie—”

Ethan, supposing the discussion to be over, had turned to go down to supper. He stopped short, not grasping what he heard. “Mattie’s board less—?” he began.

Ethan, thinking the conversation was finished, had turned to head down for dinner. He paused suddenly, not really understanding what he just heard. “Mattie’s board less—?” he started.

Zeena laughed. It was an odd unfamiliar sound—he did not remember ever having heard her laugh before. “You didn’t suppose I was going to keep two girls, did you? No wonder you were scared at the expense!”

Zeena laughed. It was an odd, unfamiliar sound—he didn’t remember ever hearing her laugh before. “You didn’t think I was going to keep two girls, did you? No wonder you were worried about the cost!”

He still had but a confused sense of what she was saying. From the beginning of the discussion he had instinctively avoided the mention of Mattie’s name, fearing he hardly knew what: criticism, complaints, or vague allusions to the imminent probability of her marrying. But the thought of a definite rupture had never come to him, and even now could not lodge itself in his mind.

He still had a vague idea of what she was saying. From the start of the conversation, he had instinctively steered clear of mentioning Mattie’s name, unsure of what to expect: criticism, complaints, or vague hints about the likelihood of her getting married. But the idea of a complete break had never crossed his mind, and even now it couldn't settle in his thoughts.

“I don’t know what you mean,” he said. “Mattie Silver’s not a hired girl. She’s your relation.”

“I don’t know what you mean,” he said. “Mattie Silver isn’t a hired girl. She’s your relative.”

“She’s a pauper that’s hung onto us all after her father’d done his best to ruin us. I’ve kep’ her here a whole year: it’s somebody else’s turn now.”

“She’s a beggar who’s clung to us after her father did his best to ruin us. I’ve kept her here for a whole year; it’s someone else's turn now.”

As the shrill words shot out Ethan heard a tap on the door, which he had drawn shut when he turned back from the threshold.

As the sharp words were spoken, Ethan heard a knock on the door, which he had pulled shut when he turned back from the entrance.

“Ethan—Zeena!” Mattie’s voice sounded gaily from the landing, “do you know what time it is? Supper’s been ready half an hour.”

“Ethan—Zeena!” Mattie’s voice called cheerfully from the landing, “do you know what time it is? Dinner’s been ready for half an hour.”

Inside the room there was a moment’s silence; then Zeena called out from her seat: “I’m not coming down to supper.”

Inside the room, there was a moment of silence; then Zeena called out from her seat, “I’m not coming down for dinner.”

“Oh, I’m sorry! Aren’t you well? Sha’n’t I bring you up a bite of something?”

“Oh, I’m sorry! Are you not feeling well? Should I bring you something to eat?”

Ethan roused himself with an effort and opened the door. “Go along down, Matt. Zeena’s just a little tired. I’m coming.”

Ethan forced himself awake and opened the door. “Go on ahead, Matt. Zeena’s just a bit tired. I’ll be right there.”

He heard her “All right!” and her quick step on the stairs; then he shut the door and turned back into the room. His wife’s attitude was unchanged, her face inexorable, and he was seized with the despairing sense of his helplessness.

He heard her say, “All right!” and her quick footsteps on the stairs; then he closed the door and turned back into the room. His wife’s demeanor hadn’t changed, her expression unyielding, and he was overwhelmed by a feeling of hopelessness.

“You ain’t going to do it, Zeena?”

“You're not going to do it, Zeena?”

“Do what?” she emitted between flattened lips.

"Do what?" she said with her lips pressed together.

“Send Mattie away—like this?”

"Send Mattie away—like this?"

“I never bargained to take her for life!”

“I never agreed to take her for life!”

He continued with rising vehemence: “You can’t put her out of the house like a thief—a poor girl without friends or money. She’s done her best for you and she’s got no place to go to. You may forget she’s your kin but everybody else’ll remember it. If you do a thing like that what do you suppose folks’ll say of you?”

He kept going with increasing anger: “You can’t just kick her out of the house like a criminal—a poor girl with no friends or money. She’s done everything she can for you and she has nowhere else to go. You might forget she’s family, but everyone else will remember. If you do something like that, what do you think people will say about you?”

Zeena waited a moment, as if giving him time to feel the full force of the contrast between his own excitement and her composure. Then she replied in the same smooth voice: “I know well enough what they say of my having kep’ her here as long as I have.”

Zeena paused for a moment, as if allowing him to fully grasp the stark difference between his excitement and her calm demeanor. Then she responded in the same measured tone, “I know perfectly well what they say about my keeping her here for so long.”

Ethan’s hand dropped from the door-knob, which he had held clenched since he had drawn the door shut on Mattie. His wife’s retort was like a knife-cut across the sinews and he felt suddenly weak and powerless. He had meant to humble himself, to argue that Mattie’s keep didn’t cost much, after all, that he could make out to buy a stove and fix up a place in the attic for the hired girl—but Zeena’s words revealed the peril of such pleadings.

Ethan’s hand fell from the doorknob, which he had held tightly since he closed the door on Mattie. His wife’s comment hit him like a sharp blow, and he suddenly felt weak and helpless. He had planned to lower himself, to argue that Mattie’s expenses weren’t that high, that he could manage to buy a stove and set up a space in the attic for the hired girl—but Zeena’s words showed him the danger of making such arguments.

“You mean to tell her she’s got to go—at once?” he faltered out, in terror of letting his wife complete her sentence.

“You're telling me she has to leave—right now?” he stammered, afraid to let his wife finish her sentence.

As if trying to make him see reason she replied impartially: “The girl will be over from Bettsbridge to-morrow, and I presume she’s got to have somewheres to sleep.”

As if trying to make him see reason, she replied calmly: “The girl will be coming over from Bettsbridge tomorrow, and I assume she needs a place to stay.”

Ethan looked at her with loathing. She was no longer the listless creature who had lived at his side in a state of sullen self-absorption, but a mysterious alien presence, an evil energy secreted from the long years of silent brooding. It was the sense of his helplessness that sharpened his antipathy. There had never been anything in her that one could appeal to; but as long as he could ignore and command he had remained indifferent. Now she had mastered him and he abhorred her. Mattie was her relation, not his: there were no means by which he could compel her to keep the girl under her roof. All the long misery of his baffled past, of his youth of failure, hardship and vain effort, rose up in his soul in bitterness and seemed to take shape before him in the woman who at every turn had barred his way. She had taken everything else from him; and now she meant to take the one thing that made up for all the others. For a moment such a flame of hate rose in him that it ran down his arm and clenched his fist against her. He took a wild step forward and then stopped.

Ethan looked at her with disgust. She was no longer the passive being who had shared his life, lost in her own world of gloom, but a mysterious and hostile presence, an evil energy built up from years of silent resentment. It was his sense of helplessness that intensified his hatred. There had never been anything about her that he could appeal to; as long as he could ignore her and maintain control, he had been indifferent. Now she had taken control, and he loathed her. Mattie was related to her, not to him: he had no way to force her to keep the girl under her roof. All the long misery of his frustrated past—his youth filled with failure, hardship, and unfulfilled dreams—surged within him with bitterness, taking form in the woman who had blocked his path at every turn. She had stripped him of everything else, and now she wanted to take away the one thing that compensated for all he had lost. For a brief moment, a wave of rage surged within him, tightening his fist against her. He took a frantic step forward and then halted.

“You’re—you’re not coming down?” he said in a bewildered voice.

“You’re—not coming down?” he said in a confused voice.

“No. I guess I’ll lay down on the bed a little while,” she answered mildly; and he turned and walked out of the room.

“No. I guess I’ll lie down on the bed for a bit,” she replied softly; and he turned and walked out of the room.

In the kitchen Mattie was sitting by the stove, the cat curled up on her knees. She sprang to her feet as Ethan entered and carried the covered dish of meat-pie to the table.

In the kitchen, Mattie was sitting by the stove, the cat curled up in her lap. She jumped up as Ethan walked in and brought the covered dish of meat pie to the table.

“I hope Zeena isn’t sick?” she asked.

“I hope Zeena isn’t unwell?” she asked.

“No.”

“Nope.”

She shone at him across the table. “Well, sit right down then. You must be starving.” She uncovered the pie and pushed it over to him. So they were to have one more evening together, her happy eyes seemed to say!

She beamed at him from across the table. “Well, come on and sit down then. You must be starving.” She uncovered the pie and slid it over to him. It seemed like they were going to have one more evening together, her joyful eyes seemed to say!

He helped himself mechanically and began to eat; then disgust took him by the throat and he laid down his fork.

He ate automatically and then felt a wave of disgust hit him, making him put down his fork.

Mattie’s tender gaze was on him and she marked the gesture.

Mattie looked at him with a soft gaze and noticed the gesture.

“Why, Ethan, what’s the matter? Don’t it taste right?”

“Why, Ethan, what’s wrong? Doesn’t it taste good?”

“Yes—it’s first-rate. Only I—” He pushed his plate away, rose from his chair, and walked around the table to her side. She started up with frightened eyes.

“Yes—it’s excellent. Only I—” He pushed his plate away, rose from his chair, and walked around the table to her side. She stood up with wide, scared eyes.

“Ethan, there’s something wrong! I knew there was!”

“Ethan, something’s wrong! I knew it!”

She seemed to melt against him in her terror, and he caught her in his arms, held her fast there, felt her lashes beat his cheek like netted butterflies.

She seemed to dissolve against him in her fear, and he caught her in his arms, held her tightly, felt her eyelashes brush against his cheek like delicate butterflies.

“What is it—what is it?” she stammered; but he had found her lips at last and was drinking unconsciousness of everything but the joy they gave him.

“What is it—what is it?” she stammered; but he had found her lips at last and was losing himself in the joy they brought him, forgetting everything else.

She lingered a moment, caught in the same strong current; then she slipped from him and drew back a step or two, pale and troubled. Her look smote him with compunction, and he cried out, as if he saw her drowning in a dream: “You can’t go, Matt! I’ll never let you!”

She hesitated for a moment, stuck in the same powerful feeling; then she pulled away from him and stepped back a couple of paces, looking pale and upset. Her gaze hit him with guilt, and he shouted, as if he saw her sinking in a nightmare: “You can’t leave, Matt! I won’t let you!”

“Go—go?” she stammered. “Must I go?”

“Go—go?” she stuttered. “Do I have to go?”

The words went on sounding between them as though a torch of warning flew from hand to hand through a black landscape.

The words echoed between them like a warning signal passing back and forth through a dark landscape.

Ethan was overcome with shame at his lack of self-control in flinging the news at her so brutally. His head reeled and he had to support himself against the table. All the while he felt as if he were still kissing her, and yet dying of thirst for her lips.

Ethan was flooded with shame at his lack of self-control for delivering the news to her so harshly. His head spun, and he had to lean against the table for support. All the while, he felt like he was still kissing her, yet he was dying of thirst for her lips.

“Ethan, what has happened? Is Zeena mad with me?”

“Ethan, what happened? Is Zeena upset with me?”

Her cry steadied him, though it deepened his wrath and pity. “No, no,” he assured her, “it’s not that. But this new doctor has scared her about herself. You know she believes all they say the first time she sees them. And this one’s told her she won’t get well unless she lays up and don’t do a thing about the house—not for months—”

Her cry calmed him, even though it made his anger and sympathy grow stronger. “No, no,” he reassured her, “that’s not it. But this new doctor has frightened her about her health. You know she believes everything they tell her the first time she meets them. And this one has told her she won't get better unless she takes it easy and doesn’t do anything around the house—not for months—”

He paused, his eyes wandering from her miserably. She stood silent a moment, drooping before him like a broken branch. She was so small and weak-looking that it wrung his heart; but suddenly she lifted her head and looked straight at him. “And she wants somebody handier in my place? Is that it?”

He paused, his eyes drifting away from her sadly. She stood there quietly for a moment, sagging in front of him like a wilted branch. She looked so small and fragile that it broke his heart; but suddenly she raised her head and stared directly at him. “And she wants someone more capable in my place? Is that it?”

“That’s what she says to-night.”

"That's what she says tonight."

“If she says it to-night she’ll say it to-morrow.”

“If she says it tonight, she’ll say it tomorrow.”

Both bowed to the inexorable truth: they knew that Zeena never changed her mind, and that in her case a resolve once taken was equivalent to an act performed.

Both accepted the undeniable truth: they knew that Zeena never changed her mind, and that once she made a decision, it was as good as done.

There was a long silence between them; then Mattie said in a low voice: “Don’t be too sorry, Ethan.”

There was a long silence between them; then Mattie said softly, "Don't be too sorry, Ethan."

“Oh, God—oh, God,” he groaned. The glow of passion he had felt for her had melted to an aching tenderness. He saw her quick lids beating back the tears, and longed to take her in his arms and soothe her.

"Oh, God—oh, God," he groaned. The intense passion he had felt for her had softened into a deep tenderness. He noticed her eyelids fluttering as she fought back tears, and he yearned to hold her in his arms and comfort her.

“You’re letting your supper get cold,” she admonished him with a pale gleam of gaiety.

“You're letting your dinner get cold,” she warned him with a faint spark of cheerfulness.

“Oh, Matt—Matt—where’ll you go to?”

“Oh, Matt—Matt—where are you going?”

Her lids sank and a tremor crossed her face. He saw that for the first time the thought of the future came to her distinctly. “I might get something to do over at Stamford,” she faltered, as if knowing that he knew she had no hope.

Her eyelids drooped, and a shiver went through her face. For the first time, he noticed that the thought of the future hit her clearly. “I might find something to do in Stamford,” she hesitated, as if she realized that he understood she had no real hope.

He dropped back into his seat and hid his face in his hands. Despair seized him at the thought of her setting out alone to renew the weary quest for work. In the only place where she was known she was surrounded by indifference or animosity; and what chance had she, inexperienced and untrained, among the million bread-seekers of the cities? There came back to him miserable tales he had heard at Worcester, and the faces of girls whose lives had begun as hopefully as Mattie’s.... It was not possible to think of such things without a revolt of his whole being. He sprang up suddenly.

He slumped back in his seat and buried his face in his hands. Despair washed over him at the thought of her setting out alone to begin the exhausting search for work again. In the only place where she was known, she faced indifference or hostility; what chance did she have, inexperienced and unskilled, among the millions of job seekers in the cities? He recalled the sad stories he had heard in Worcester and the faces of girls whose lives had started with as much hope as Mattie’s... It was impossible to think about such things without a deep sense of rebellion in his whole being. He suddenly jumped up.

“You can’t go, Matt! I won’t let you! She’s always had her way, but I mean to have mine now—”

“You can’t go, Matt! I won’t let you! She’s always gotten her way, but I’m determined to have mine now—”

Mattie lifted her hand with a quick gesture, and he heard his wife’s step behind him.

Mattie raised her hand with a quick motion, and he heard his wife's footsteps behind him.

Zeena came into the room with her dragging down-at-the-heel step, and quietly took her accustomed seat between them.

Zeena walked into the room with her worn-out, tired step and quietly took her usual spot between them.

“I felt a little mite better, and Dr. Buck says I ought to eat all I can to keep my strength up, even if I ain’t got any appetite,” she said in her flat whine, reaching across Mattie for the teapot. Her “good” dress had been replaced by the black calico and brown knitted shawl which formed her daily wear, and with them she had put on her usual face and manner. She poured out her tea, added a great deal of milk to it, helped herself largely to pie and pickles, and made the familiar gesture of adjusting her false teeth before she began to eat. The cat rubbed itself ingratiatingly against her, and she said “Good Pussy,” stooped to stroke it and gave it a scrap of meat from her plate.

“I felt a little bit better, and Dr. Buck says I should eat as much as I can to keep my strength up, even if I don’t have any appetite,” she said in her flat whine, reaching across Mattie for the teapot. Her “good” dress had been swapped for the black calico and brown knitted shawl that made up her everyday outfit, and with them, she had put on her usual expression and attitude. She poured herself some tea, added a lot of milk to it, helped herself generously to pie and pickles, and made the familiar gesture of adjusting her false teeth before she started to eat. The cat rubbed against her affectionately, and she said, “Good Pussy,” leaning down to pet it and giving it a little piece of meat from her plate.

Ethan sat speechless, not pretending to eat, but Mattie nibbled valiantly at her food and asked Zeena one or two questions about her visit to Bettsbridge. Zeena answered in her every-day tone and, warming to the theme, regaled them with several vivid descriptions of intestinal disturbances among her friends and relatives. She looked straight at Mattie as she spoke, a faint smile deepening the vertical lines between her nose and chin.

Ethan sat there without saying a word, not pretending to eat, while Mattie bravely picked at her food and asked Zeena a couple of questions about her trip to Bettsbridge. Zeena replied in her usual tone and, getting into the topic, entertained them with several graphic stories about digestive issues among her friends and family. She looked directly at Mattie as she spoke, a faint smile deepening the lines between her nose and chin.

When supper was over she rose from her seat and pressed her hand to the flat surface over the region of her heart. “That pie of yours always sets a mite heavy, Matt,” she said, not ill-naturedly. She seldom abbreviated the girl’s name, and when she did so it was always a sign of affability.

When dinner was done, she stood up and placed her hand on her chest. “That pie of yours always feels a little heavy, Matt,” she said, not unkindly. She rarely shortened the girl’s name, and when she did, it was always a sign of friendliness.

“I’ve a good mind to go and hunt up those stomach powders I got last year over in Springfield,” she continued. “I ain’t tried them for quite a while, and maybe they’ll help the heartburn.”

“I’m seriously thinking about going to find those stomach powders I bought last year in Springfield,” she continued. “I haven’t tried them in a while, and maybe they’ll help with the heartburn.”

Mattie lifted her eyes. “Can’t I get them for you, Zeena?” she ventured.

Mattie looked up. “Can’t I get them for you, Zeena?” she asked.

“No. They’re in a place you don’t know about,” Zeena answered darkly, with one of her secret looks.

“No. They’re in a place you don’t know about,” Zeena replied ominously, with one of her mysterious looks.

She went out of the kitchen and Mattie, rising, began to clear the dishes from the table. As she passed Ethan’s chair their eyes met and clung together desolately. The warm still kitchen looked as peaceful as the night before. The cat had sprung to Zeena’s rocking-chair, and the heat of the fire was beginning to draw out the faint sharp scent of the geraniums. Ethan dragged himself wearily to his feet.

She stepped out of the kitchen, and Mattie, getting up, started to clear the dishes from the table. As she walked past Ethan’s chair, their eyes met and held on to each other sadly. The cozy, quiet kitchen looked just as calm as the night before. The cat had jumped onto Zeena’s rocking chair, and the warmth from the fire was starting to bring out the faint, sharp smell of the geraniums. Ethan tiredly pulled himself to his feet.

“I’ll go out and take a look around,” he said, going toward the passage to get his lantern.

“I'll go out and check things out,” he said, walking towards the passage to grab his lantern.

As he reached the door he met Zeena coming back into the room, her lips twitching with anger, a flush of excitement on her sallow face. The shawl had slipped from her shoulders and was dragging at her down-trodden heels, and in her hands she carried the fragments of the red glass pickle-dish.

As he got to the door, he saw Zeena coming back into the room, her lips twitching with anger and a flush of excitement on her pale face. The shawl had slipped off her shoulders and was dragging on the worn-down heels of her shoes, and in her hands, she was holding the broken pieces of the red glass pickle dish.

“I’d like to know who done this,” she said, looking sternly from Ethan to Mattie.

“I want to know who did this,” she said, looking seriously from Ethan to Mattie.

There was no answer, and she continued in a trembling voice: “I went to get those powders I’d put away in father’s old spectacle-case, top of the china-closet, where I keep the things I set store by, so’s folks shan’t meddle with them—” Her voice broke, and two small tears hung on her lashless lids and ran slowly down her cheeks. “It takes the stepladder to get at the top shelf, and I put Aunt Philura Maple’s pickle-dish up there o’ purpose when we was married, and it’s never been down since, ’cept for the spring cleaning, and then I always lifted it with my own hands, so’s ’t it shouldn’t get broke.” She laid the fragments reverently on the table. “I want to know who done this,” she quavered.

There was no response, and she continued in a shaking voice: “I went to get those powders I stored away in my dad’s old glasses case, on top of the china cabinet, where I keep the things I value, so people won’t mess with them—” Her voice faltered, and two small tears hung on her bare eyelids and slowly ran down her cheeks. “I need the stepladder to reach the top shelf, and I put Aunt Philura Maple’s pickle dish up there on purpose when we got married, and it hasn’t come down since, except for spring cleaning, and then I always lifted it myself, so it wouldn’t get broken.” She laid the pieces carefully on the table. “I want to know who did this,” she trembled.

At the challenge Ethan turned back into the room and faced her. “I can tell you, then. The cat done it.”

At the challenge, Ethan turned back into the room and faced her. “I can tell you, then. The cat did it.”

“The cat?”

"The cat?"

“That’s what I said.”

"That's what I meant."

She looked at him hard, and then turned her eyes to Mattie, who was carrying the dish-pan to the table.

She stared at him intently, then shifted her gaze to Mattie, who was bringing the dishpan to the table.

“I’d like to know how the cat got into my china-closet,” she said.

“I want to know how the cat got into my china cabinet,” she said.

“Chasin’ mice, I guess,” Ethan rejoined. “There was a mouse round the kitchen all last evening.”

“Chasing mice, I guess,” Ethan replied. “There was a mouse in the kitchen all last evening.”

Zeena continued to look from one to the other; then she emitted her small strange laugh. “I knew the cat was a smart cat,” she said in a high voice, “but I didn’t know he was smart enough to pick up the pieces of my pickle-dish and lay ’em edge to edge on the very shelf he knocked ’em off of.”

Zeena kept glancing between them, then let out her quirky little laugh. “I knew the cat was clever,” she said in a high-pitched voice, “but I didn’t realize he was smart enough to gather the pieces of my pickle dish and line them up edge to edge on the exact shelf he knocked them off of.”

Mattie suddenly drew her arms out of the steaming water. “It wasn’t Ethan’s fault, Zeena! The cat did break the dish; but I got it down from the china-closet, and I’m the one to blame for its getting broken.”

Mattie suddenly pulled her arms out of the hot water. “It wasn’t Ethan’s fault, Zeena! The cat did break the dish; but I took it down from the china cabinet, and I’m the one to blame for it getting broken.”

Zeena stood beside the ruin of her treasure, stiffening into a stony image of resentment, “You got down my pickle-dish—what for?”

Zeena stood next to the wreck of her prized possession, freezing into a rigid expression of resentment, “You took down my pickle dish—why?”

A bright flush flew to Mattie’s cheeks. “I wanted to make the supper-table pretty,” she said.

A bright flush spread across Mattie’s cheeks. “I wanted to make the dinner table look nice,” she said.

“You wanted to make the supper-table pretty; and you waited till my back was turned, and took the thing I set most store by of anything I’ve got, and wouldn’t never use it, not even when the minister come to dinner, or Aunt Martha Pierce come over from Bettsbridge—” Zeena paused with a gasp, as if terrified by her own evocation of the sacrilege. “You’re a bad girl, Mattie Silver, and I always known it. It’s the way your father begun, and I was warned of it when I took you, and I tried to keep my things where you couldn’t get at ’em—and now you’ve took from me the one I cared for most of all—” She broke off in a short spasm of sobs that passed and left her more than ever like a shape of stone.

“You wanted to make the dinner table look nice; and you waited until I wasn’t looking, and took the thing I value most out of everything I have, and I’d never even use it, not even when the minister came for dinner, or Aunt Martha Pierce came over from Bettsbridge—” Zeena paused, gasping as if frightened by her own words. “You’re a bad girl, Mattie Silver, and I’ve always known it. It’s just like your father was, and I was warned about it when I took you in, and I tried to keep my things where you couldn’t reach them—and now you’ve taken the one thing I cared about the most—” She stopped short, overcome with sobs that came and went, leaving her feeling even more like a statue.

“If I’d ’a’ listened to folks, you’d ’a’ gone before now, and this wouldn’t ’a’ happened,” she said; and gathering up the bits of broken glass she went out of the room as if she carried a dead body....

“If I had listened to people, you would have left by now, and this wouldn’t have happened,” she said; and gathering up the shards of broken glass, she left the room as if she were carrying a dead body...





VIII

When Ethan was called back to the farm by his father’s illness his mother gave him, for his own use, a small room behind the untenanted “best parlour.” Here he had nailed up shelves for his books, built himself a box-sofa out of boards and a mattress, laid out his papers on a kitchen-table, hung on the rough plaster wall an engraving of Abraham Lincoln and a calendar with “Thoughts from the Poets,” and tried, with these meagre properties, to produce some likeness to the study of a “minister” who had been kind to him and lent him books when he was at Worcester. He still took refuge there in summer, but when Mattie came to live at the farm he had to give her his stove, and consequently the room was uninhabitable for several months of the year.

When Ethan was called back to the farm because his father was sick, his mother gave him a small room behind the unused “best parlor” to use as his own. He nailed up shelves for his books, built a box sofa out of boards and a mattress, set up his papers on a kitchen table, hung an engraving of Abraham Lincoln and a calendar with “Thoughts from the Poets” on the rough plaster wall, and tried to create a space that resembled the study of a “minister” who had been kind to him and lent him books when he was in Worcester. He still sought refuge there during the summer, but when Mattie moved into the farm, he had to give her his stove, making the room uninhabitable for several months of the year.

To this retreat he descended as soon as the house was quiet, and Zeena’s steady breathing from the bed had assured him that there was to be no sequel to the scene in the kitchen. After Zeena’s departure he and Mattie had stood speechless, neither seeking to approach the other. Then the girl had returned to her task of clearing up the kitchen for the night and he had taken his lantern and gone on his usual round outside the house. The kitchen was empty when he came back to it; but his tobacco-pouch and pipe had been laid on the table, and under them was a scrap of paper torn from the back of a seedsman’s catalogue, on which three words were written: “Don’t trouble, Ethan.”

He went to the retreat as soon as the house was quiet, and Zeena’s steady breathing from the bed reassured him that there wouldn’t be a repeat of the scene in the kitchen. After Zeena left, he and Mattie stood there in silence, neither of them trying to move closer. Then the girl went back to tidying up the kitchen for the night, while he took his lantern and went on his usual round outside the house. The kitchen was empty when he returned; however, his tobacco pouch and pipe were on the table, with a piece of paper torn from a seedsman’s catalog underneath, which had three words written on it: “Don’t trouble, Ethan.”

Going into his cold dark “study” he placed the lantern on the table and, stooping to its light, read the message again and again. It was the first time that Mattie had ever written to him, and the possession of the paper gave him a strange new sense of her nearness; yet it deepened his anguish by reminding him that henceforth they would have no other way of communicating with each other. For the life of her smile, the warmth of her voice, only cold paper and dead words!

Going into his cold, dark “study,” he set the lantern on the table and, leaning closer to its light, read the message over and over. It was the first time Mattie had ever written to him, and having the paper gave him a strange, new feeling of her presence; yet it only heightened his pain by reminding him that from now on they would have no other way to communicate. For all the life in her smile, the warmth of her voice—just cold paper and lifeless words!

Confused motions of rebellion stormed in him. He was too young, too strong, too full of the sap of living, to submit so easily to the destruction of his hopes. Must he wear out all his years at the side of a bitter querulous woman? Other possibilities had been in him, possibilities sacrificed, one by one, to Zeena’s narrow-mindedness and ignorance. And what good had come of it? She was a hundred times bitterer and more discontented than when he had married her: the one pleasure left her was to inflict pain on him. All the healthy instincts of self-defence rose up in him against such waste....

Confused feelings of rebellion surged within him. He was too young, too strong, and too full of life to give in so easily to the destruction of his dreams. Did he have to spend all his years next to a bitter, complaining woman? He had other possibilities inside him, possibilities that had been sacrificed, one by one, to Zeena’s narrow-mindedness and ignorance. And what had come of it? She was a hundred times more bitter and discontented than when he married her: the only pleasure she had left was to inflict pain on him. All his natural instincts for self-preservation rose up against such a waste...

He bundled himself into his old coon-skin coat and lay down on the box-sofa to think. Under his cheek he felt a hard object with strange protuberances. It was a cushion which Zeena had made for him when they were engaged—the only piece of needlework he had ever seen her do. He flung it across the floor and propped his head against the wall....

He wrapped himself in his old raccoon-skin coat and lay down on the box-sofa to think. Under his cheek, he felt a hard object with odd bumps. It was a cushion that Zeena had made for him when they were engaged—the only piece of sewing he had ever seen her do. He threw it across the floor and rested his head against the wall...

He knew a case of a man over the mountain—a young fellow of about his own age—who had escaped from just such a life of misery by going West with the girl he cared for. His wife had divorced him, and he had married the girl and prospered. Ethan had seen the couple the summer before at Shadd’s Falls, where they had come to visit relatives. They had a little girl with fair curls, who wore a gold locket and was dressed like a princess. The deserted wife had not done badly either. Her husband had given her the farm and she had managed to sell it, and with that and the alimony she had started a lunch-room at Bettsbridge and bloomed into activity and importance. Ethan was fired by the thought. Why should he not leave with Mattie the next day, instead of letting her go alone? He would hide his valise under the seat of the sleigh, and Zeena would suspect nothing till she went upstairs for her afternoon nap and found a letter on the bed....

He knew about a guy over the mountain—a young man about his age—who had escaped a life of misery by going West with the girl he loved. His wife had divorced him, and he married the girl and did well. Ethan had seen the couple the summer before at Shadd’s Falls, where they had come to visit family. They had a little girl with fair curls, who wore a gold locket and was dressed like a princess. The ex-wife had done pretty well too. Her husband had given her the farm, and she managed to sell it. With that money and the alimony, she opened a lunchroom in Bettsbridge and flourished. The thought inspired Ethan. Why shouldn’t he leave with Mattie the next day instead of letting her go alone? He would hide his bag under the seat of the sleigh, and Zeena wouldn’t suspect a thing until she went upstairs for her afternoon nap and found a letter on the bed....

His impulses were still near the surface, and he sprang up, re-lit the lantern, and sat down at the table. He rummaged in the drawer for a sheet of paper, found one, and began to write.

His impulses were still close to the surface, so he jumped up, relit the lantern, and sat down at the table. He searched through the drawer for a piece of paper, found one, and started to write.

“Zeena, I’ve done all I could for you, and I don’t see as it’s been any use. I don’t blame you, nor I don’t blame myself. Maybe both of us will do better separate. I’m going to try my luck West, and you can sell the farm and mill, and keep the money—”

“Zeena, I’ve done everything I could for you, and I don’t think it’s made any difference. I don’t blame you, and I don’t blame myself either. Maybe we’ll both be better off apart. I’m going to head West and try my luck, and you can sell the farm and the mill and keep the money—”

His pen paused on the word, which brought home to him the relentless conditions of his lot. If he gave the farm and mill to Zeena what would be left him to start his own life with? Once in the West he was sure of picking up work—he would not have feared to try his chance alone. But with Mattie depending on him the case was different. And what of Zeena’s fate? Farm and mill were mortgaged to the limit of their value, and even if she found a purchaser—in itself an unlikely chance—it was doubtful if she could clear a thousand dollars on the sale. Meanwhile, how could she keep the farm going? It was only by incessant labour and personal supervision that Ethan drew a meagre living from his land, and his wife, even if she were in better health than she imagined, could never carry such a burden alone.

His pen paused on the word, reminding him of the harsh realities of his situation. If he gave the farm and mill to Zeena, what would he have left to start his own life? Once in the West, he was confident he could find work—he wouldn't have been afraid to try his luck on his own. But with Mattie relying on him, things were different. And what would happen to Zeena? The farm and mill were mortgaged to their full value, and even if she found someone to buy them—which was unlikely—there was no guarantee she could make a thousand dollars from the sale. Meanwhile, how could she manage the farm? Ethan only scraped by with nonstop work and constant supervision of the land, and even if his wife were healthier than she thought, she would never be able to handle such a heavy load on her own.

Well, she could go back to her people, then, and see what they would do for her. It was the fate she was forcing on Mattie—why not let her try it herself? By the time she had discovered his whereabouts, and brought suit for divorce, he would probably—wherever he was—be earning enough to pay her a sufficient alimony. And the alternative was to let Mattie go forth alone, with far less hope of ultimate provision....

Well, she could go back to her people and see what they would do for her. It was the fate she was imposing on Mattie—why not let her try it herself? By the time she figured out where he was and filed for divorce, he would probably be earning enough, wherever he was, to pay her a decent alimony. The alternative was to let Mattie go off on her own, with way less hope for a secure future...

He had scattered the contents of the table-drawer in his search for a sheet of paper, and as he took up his pen his eye fell on an old copy of the Bettsbridge Eagle. The advertising sheet was folded uppermost, and he read the seductive words: “Trips to the West: Reduced Rates.”

He had tossed the stuff in the drawer around while looking for a sheet of paper, and as he picked up his pen, his eye caught an old copy of the Bettsbridge Eagle. The ads were on top, and he read the enticing words: “Trips to the West: Reduced Rates.”

He drew the lantern nearer and eagerly scanned the fares; then the paper fell from his hand and he pushed aside his unfinished letter. A moment ago he had wondered what he and Mattie were to live on when they reached the West; now he saw that he had not even the money to take her there. Borrowing was out of the question: six months before he had given his only security to raise funds for necessary repairs to the mill, and he knew that without security no one at Starkfield would lend him ten dollars. The inexorable facts closed in on him like prison-warders handcuffing a convict. There was no way out—none. He was a prisoner for life, and now his one ray of light was to be extinguished.

He pulled the lantern closer and eagerly looked over the fares; then the paper slipped from his hand, and he set aside his unfinished letter. Just a moment ago, he had been thinking about what he and Mattie would live on when they got to the West; now he realized he didn't even have enough money to take her there. Borrowing wasn't an option: six months earlier, he had put up his only collateral to raise money for essential repairs to the mill, and he knew that without collateral, no one in Starkfield would lend him ten dollars. The harsh reality closed in on him like guards handcuffing a convict. There was no way out—none. He was a lifelong prisoner, and now his one glimmer of hope was about to be snuffed out.

He crept back heavily to the sofa, stretching himself out with limbs so leaden that he felt as if they would never move again. Tears rose in his throat and slowly burned their way to his lids.

He dragged himself back to the sofa, lying down with such heavy limbs that he felt like they would never move again. Tears welled up in his throat and slowly stung their way to his eyelids.

As he lay there, the window-pane that faced him, growing gradually lighter, inlaid upon the darkness a square of moon-suffused sky. A crooked tree-branch crossed it, a branch of the apple-tree under which, on summer evenings, he had sometimes found Mattie sitting when he came up from the mill. Slowly the rim of the rainy vapours caught fire and burnt away, and a pure moon swung into the blue. Ethan, rising on his elbow, watched the landscape whiten and shape itself under the sculpture of the moon. This was the night on which he was to have taken Mattie coasting, and there hung the lamp to light them! He looked out at the slopes bathed in lustre, the silver-edged darkness of the woods, the spectral purple of the hills against the sky, and it seemed as though all the beauty of the night had been poured out to mock his wretchedness....

As he lay there, the window in front of him gradually grew lighter, revealing a square of moonlit sky against the darkness. A crooked tree branch, from the apple tree where he sometimes found Mattie sitting on summer evenings after coming up from the mill, crossed the view. Slowly, the edge of the rainy clouds lit up and disappeared, and a bright moon emerged in the blue sky. Ethan, propping himself up on his elbow, watched as the landscape turned white and took shape under the glow of the moon. This was the night he was supposed to take Mattie coasting, and there hung the lamp to light their way! He gazed at the slopes glowing in the light, the dark woods outlined in silver, the ghostly purple of the hills against the sky, and it felt like all the beauty of the night was mocking his misery....

He fell asleep, and when he woke the chill of the winter dawn was in the room. He felt cold and stiff and hungry, and ashamed of being hungry. He rubbed his eyes and went to the window. A red sun stood over the grey rim of the fields, behind trees that looked black and brittle. He said to himself: “This is Matt’s last day,” and tried to think what the place would be without her.

He fell asleep, and when he woke up, the cold of the winter dawn filled the room. He felt cold, stiff, and hungry, and he felt ashamed of being hungry. He rubbed his eyes and went to the window. A red sun hovered over the gray edge of the fields, behind trees that looked dark and fragile. He said to himself, “This is Matt’s last day,” and tried to imagine what the place would be like without her.

As he stood there he heard a step behind him and she entered.

As he stood there, he heard footsteps behind him, and she walked in.

“Oh, Ethan—were you here all night?”

“Oh, Ethan—were you here the whole night?”

She looked so small and pinched, in her poor dress, with the red scarf wound about her, and the cold light turning her paleness sallow, that Ethan stood before her without speaking.

She looked so small and frail in her shabby dress, with the red scarf wrapped around her, and the cold light making her pale skin look yellowish, that Ethan stood in front of her, speechless.

“You must be frozen,” she went on, fixing lustreless eyes on him.

“You must be frozen,” she continued, staring at him with dull eyes.

He drew a step nearer. “How did you know I was here?”

He took a step closer. “How did you know I was here?”

“Because I heard you go down stairs again after I went to bed, and I listened all night, and you didn’t come up.”

“Because I heard you go downstairs again after I went to bed, and I listened all night, and you didn’t come back up.”

All his tenderness rushed to his lips. He looked at her and said: “I’ll come right along and make up the kitchen fire.”

All his affection surged to his lips. He looked at her and said, “I’ll come right over and start the kitchen fire.”

They went back to the kitchen, and he fetched the coal and kindlings and cleared out the stove for her, while she brought in the milk and the cold remains of the meat-pie. When warmth began to radiate from the stove, and the first ray of sunlight lay on the kitchen floor, Ethan’s dark thoughts melted in the mellower air. The sight of Mattie going about her work as he had seen her on so many mornings made it seem impossible that she should ever cease to be a part of the scene. He said to himself that he had doubtless exaggerated the significance of Zeena’s threats, and that she too, with the return of daylight, would come to a saner mood.

They went back to the kitchen, and he got the coal and kindling and cleaned out the stove for her, while she brought in the milk and the cold leftovers of the meat pie. When warmth started to radiate from the stove, and the first ray of sunlight hit the kitchen floor, Ethan’s dark thoughts faded in the softer air. Watching Mattie go about her work as he had seen her do on so many mornings made it feel impossible that she would ever stop being a part of this scene. He told himself that he had probably made too big a deal out of Zeena’s threats, and that she, too, would come around to a more reasonable mindset with the return of daylight.

He went up to Mattie as she bent above the stove, and laid his hand on her arm. “I don’t want you should trouble either,” he said, looking down into her eyes with a smile.

He approached Mattie while she was leaning over the stove and placed his hand on her arm. “I don’t want you to worry either,” he said, smiling as he looked into her eyes.

She flushed up warmly and whispered back: “No, Ethan, I ain’t going to trouble.”

She blushed and whispered back, “No, Ethan, I’m not going to be a burden.”

“I guess things’ll straighten out,” he added.

"I guess things will work out," he added.

There was no answer but a quick throb of her lids, and he went on: “She ain’t said anything this morning?”

There was no reply, just a quick flutter of her eyelids, and he continued, “She hasn’t said anything this morning?”

“No. I haven’t seen her yet.”

“No, I haven’t seen her yet.”

“Don’t you take any notice when you do.”

“Don’t you pay any attention when you do.”

With this injunction he left her and went out to the cow-barn. He saw Jotham Powell walking up the hill through the morning mist, and the familiar sight added to his growing conviction of security.

With that command, he left her and headed to the barn. He noticed Jotham Powell walking up the hill through the morning mist, and seeing him only strengthened his growing sense of security.

As the two men were clearing out the stalls Jotham rested on his pitch-fork to say: “Dan’l Byrne’s goin’ over to the Flats to-day noon, an’ he c’d take Mattie’s trunk along, and make it easier ridin’ when I take her over in the sleigh.”

As the two men were cleaning out the stalls, Jotham paused with his pitchfork to say, “Dan’l Byrne is going over to the Flats today at noon, and he could take Mattie’s trunk with him, making it easier to ride when I take her over in the sleigh.”

Ethan looked at him blankly, and he continued: “Mis’ Frome said the new girl’d be at the Flats at five, and I was to take Mattie then, so’s ’t she could ketch the six o’clock train for Stamford.”

Ethan stared at him blankly, and he continued: “Mrs. Frome said the new girl would be at the Flats at five, and I was to take Mattie then, so she could catch the six o'clock train to Stamford.”

Ethan felt the blood drumming in his temples. He had to wait a moment before he could find voice to say: “Oh, it ain’t so sure about Mattie’s going—”

Ethan felt the blood pounding in his temples. He had to wait a moment before he could find his voice to say: “Oh, I’m not so sure about Mattie leaving—”

“That so?” said Jotham indifferently; and they went on with their work.

“That so?” Jotham replied casually, and they continued with their work.

When they returned to the kitchen the two women were already at breakfast. Zeena had an air of unusual alertness and activity. She drank two cups of coffee and fed the cat with the scraps left in the pie-dish; then she rose from her seat and, walking over to the window, snipped two or three yellow leaves from the geraniums. “Aunt Martha’s ain’t got a faded leaf on ’em; but they pine away when they ain’t cared for,” she said reflectively. Then she turned to Jotham and asked: “What time’d you say Dan’l Byrne’d be along?”

When they got back to the kitchen, the two women were already having breakfast. Zeena seemed unusually alert and active. She drank two cups of coffee and fed the cat with scraps from the pie dish; then she got up from her seat and walked over to the window, snipping off a couple of yellow leaves from the geraniums. “Aunt Martha’s don’t have a single faded leaf on them; but they wilted when they weren’t taken care of,” she said thoughtfully. Then she turned to Jotham and asked, “What time did you say Dan’l Byrne would be here?”

The hired man threw a hesitating glance at Ethan. “Round about noon,” he said.

The hired man shot a hesitant look at Ethan. “Around noon,” he said.

Zeena turned to Mattie. “That trunk of yours is too heavy for the sleigh, and Dan’l Byrne’ll be round to take it over to the Flats,” she said.

Zeena looked at Mattie. “That trunk of yours is too heavy for the sled, and Dan’l Byrne will be by to take it over to the Flats,” she said.

“I’m much obliged to you, Zeena,” said Mattie.

“Thanks a lot, Zeena,” said Mattie.

“I’d like to go over things with you first,” Zeena continued in an unperturbed voice. “I know there’s a huckabuck towel missing; and I can’t make out what you done with that match-safe ’t used to stand behind the stuffed owl in the parlour.”

“I’d like to discuss a few things with you first,” Zeena continued in a calm voice. “I know there’s a huckabuck towel missing, and I can’t figure out what you did with that match-safe that used to be behind the stuffed owl in the living room.”

She went out, followed by Mattie, and when the men were alone Jotham said to his employer: “I guess I better let Dan’l come round, then.”

She went out, followed by Mattie, and when the men were alone, Jotham said to his employer, “I guess I should let Dan’l come by, then.”

Ethan finished his usual morning tasks about the house and barn; then he said to Jotham: “I’m going down to Starkfield. Tell them not to wait dinner.”

Ethan wrapped up his usual morning chores around the house and barn, then he said to Jotham, “I’m heading down to Starkfield. Let them know not to wait for dinner.”

The passion of rebellion had broken out in him again. That which had seemed incredible in the sober light of day had really come to pass, and he was to assist as a helpless spectator at Mattie’s banishment. His manhood was humbled by the part he was compelled to play and by the thought of what Mattie must think of him. Confused impulses struggled in him as he strode along to the village. He had made up his mind to do something, but he did not know what it would be.

The urge to rebel had flared up in him once more. What had seemed unbelievable in the clear light of day had actually happened, and he was forced to watch helplessly as Mattie was sent away. His sense of manhood was diminished by the role he was forced to take on and by what Mattie must think of him. Conflicting feelings battled inside him as he walked toward the village. He was determined to take action, but he had no idea what that would be.

The early mist had vanished and the fields lay like a silver shield under the sun. It was one of the days when the glitter of winter shines through a pale haze of spring. Every yard of the road was alive with Mattie’s presence, and there was hardly a branch against the sky or a tangle of brambles on the bank in which some bright shred of memory was not caught. Once, in the stillness, the call of a bird in a mountain ash was so like her laughter that his heart tightened and then grew large; and all these things made him see that something must be done at once.

The early mist had disappeared, and the fields glimmered like a silver shield under the sun. It was one of those days when winter's sparkle shines through a light haze of spring. Every part of the road was filled with Mattie’s presence, and there was hardly a branch against the sky or a tangle of brambles on the bank that didn’t hold some bright memory. Once, in the quiet, the call of a bird in a mountain ash sounded so much like her laughter that his heart tightened and then swelled; all these moments made him realize that he needed to take action immediately.

Suddenly it occurred to him that Andrew Hale, who was a kind-hearted man, might be induced to reconsider his refusal and advance a small sum on the lumber if he were told that Zeena’s ill-health made it necessary to hire a servant. Hale, after all, knew enough of Ethan’s situation to make it possible for the latter to renew his appeal without too much loss of pride; and, moreover, how much did pride count in the ebullition of passions in his breast?

Suddenly, it hit him that Andrew Hale, who was a genuinely nice guy, might be persuaded to rethink his refusal and lend a small amount for the lumber if he learned that Zeena’s health was poor and they needed to hire a helper. After all, Hale was familiar enough with Ethan’s situation for him to approach the subject again without losing too much face; besides, how much did pride really matter with all the emotions bubbling inside him?

The more he considered his plan the more hopeful it seemed. If he could get Mrs. Hale’s ear he felt certain of success, and with fifty dollars in his pocket nothing could keep him from Mattie....

The more he thought about his plan, the more hopeful it sounded. If he could get Mrs. Hale’s attention, he was sure he would succeed, and with fifty dollars in his pocket, nothing could stop him from being with Mattie...

His first object was to reach Starkfield before Hale had started for his work; he knew the carpenter had a job down the Corbury road and was likely to leave his house early. Ethan’s long strides grew more rapid with the accelerated beat of his thoughts, and as he reached the foot of School House Hill he caught sight of Hale’s sleigh in the distance. He hurried forward to meet it, but as it drew nearer he saw that it was driven by the carpenter’s youngest boy and that the figure at his side, looking like a large upright cocoon in spectacles, was that of Mrs. Hale. Ethan signed to them to stop, and Mrs. Hale leaned forward, her pink wrinkles twinkling with benevolence.

His main goal was to get to Starkfield before Hale left for work; he knew the carpenter had a job down the Corbury road and was likely to head out early. Ethan's long strides picked up pace as his thoughts raced, and when he reached the bottom of School House Hill, he spotted Hale’s sleigh in the distance. He quickened his steps to meet it, but as it approached, he realized it was being driven by the carpenter’s youngest son, and the figure beside him, looking like a large upright cocoon with glasses, was Mrs. Hale. Ethan signaled for them to stop, and Mrs. Hale leaned forward, her wrinkled face glowing with kindness.

“Mr. Hale? Why, yes, you’ll find him down home now. He ain’t going to his work this forenoon. He woke up with a touch o’ lumbago, and I just made him put on one of old Dr. Kidder’s plasters and set right up into the fire.”

“Mr. Hale? Oh, yes, you’ll find him at home right now. He’s not going to work this morning. He woke up with a bit of back pain, and I just had him put on one of old Dr. Kidder’s ointments and sit up by the fire.”

Beaming maternally on Ethan, she bent over to add: “I on’y just heard from Mr. Hale ’bout Zeena’s going over to Bettsbridge to see that new doctor. I’m real sorry she’s feeling so bad again! I hope he thinks he can do something for her. I don’t know anybody round here’s had more sickness than Zeena. I always tell Mr. Hale I don’t know what she’d ’a’ done if she hadn’t ’a’ had you to look after her; and I used to say the same thing ’bout your mother. You’ve had an awful mean time, Ethan Frome.”

Beaming motherly at Ethan, she leaned in to add: “I just heard from Mr. Hale about Zeena going over to Bettsbridge to see that new doctor. I’m really sorry she’s feeling so bad again! I hope he thinks he can do something for her. I don’t know anyone around here who has had more sickness than Zeena. I always tell Mr. Hale I don’t know what she would have done if she hadn’t had you to take care of her; and I used to say the same thing about your mother. You’ve had a really tough time, Ethan Frome.”

She gave him a last nod of sympathy while her son chirped to the horse; and Ethan, as she drove off, stood in the middle of the road and stared after the retreating sleigh.

She gave him one last nod of sympathy while her son chatted to the horse; and Ethan, as she drove away, stood in the middle of the road and stared after the retreating sleigh.

It was a long time since any one had spoken to him as kindly as Mrs. Hale. Most people were either indifferent to his troubles, or disposed to think it natural that a young fellow of his age should have carried without repining the burden of three crippled lives. But Mrs. Hale had said, “You’ve had an awful mean time, Ethan Frome,” and he felt less alone with his misery. If the Hales were sorry for him they would surely respond to his appeal....

It had been a long time since anyone had talked to him as kindly as Mrs. Hale. Most people were either indifferent to his troubles or thought it was normal for a young guy like him to carry the weight of three disabled lives without complaining. But Mrs. Hale had said, “You’ve had a really tough time, Ethan Frome,” and that made him feel less alone with his pain. If the Hales felt sorry for him, they would definitely respond to his plea...

He started down the road toward their house, but at the end of a few yards he pulled up sharply, the blood in his face. For the first time, in the light of the words he had just heard, he saw what he was about to do. He was planning to take advantage of the Hales’ sympathy to obtain money from them on false pretences. That was a plain statement of the cloudy purpose which had driven him in headlong to Starkfield.

He started down the road toward their house, but after a few yards, he suddenly stopped, his face pale. For the first time, considering the words he had just heard, he realized what he was about to do. He was planning to exploit the Hales' sympathy to get money from them under false pretenses. That was a clear summary of the unclear motive that had pushed him recklessly into Starkfield.

With the sudden perception of the point to which his madness had carried him, the madness fell and he saw his life before him as it was. He was a poor man, the husband of a sickly woman, whom his desertion would leave alone and destitute; and even if he had had the heart to desert her he could have done so only by deceiving two kindly people who had pitied him.

With the sudden realization of how far his madness had taken him, the madness lifted, and he saw his life for what it truly was. He was a poor man, the husband of a sickly woman, whom his abandonment would leave alone and in poverty; and even if he had the heart to abandon her, he could only do so by deceiving two kind people who had shown him compassion.

He turned and walked slowly back to the farm.

He turned and walked slowly back to the farm.





IX

At the kitchen door Daniel Byrne sat in his sleigh behind a big-boned grey who pawed the snow and swung his long head restlessly from side to side.

At the kitchen door, Daniel Byrne sat in his sleigh behind a sturdy grey horse that pawed at the snow and moved its long head back and forth restlessly.

Ethan went into the kitchen and found his wife by the stove. Her head was wrapped in her shawl, and she was reading a book called “Kidney Troubles and Their Cure” on which he had had to pay extra postage only a few days before.

Ethan walked into the kitchen and saw his wife by the stove. She had her head wrapped in a shawl, and she was reading a book called “Kidney Troubles and Their Cure,” for which he had to pay extra postage just a few days earlier.

Zeena did not move or look up when he entered, and after a moment he asked: “Where’s Mattie?”

Zeena didn't move or look up when he walked in, and after a moment he asked, "Where's Mattie?"

Without lifting her eyes from the page she replied: “I presume she’s getting down her trunk.”

Without looking up from the page, she replied, “I assume she’s taking down her trunk.”

The blood rushed to his face. “Getting down her trunk—alone?”

The blood rushed to his face. “Taking down her trunk—by herself?”

“Jotham Powell’s down in the wood-lot, and Dan’l Byrne says he darsn’t leave that horse,” she returned.

“Jotham Powell’s down in the woodlot, and Dan’l Byrne says he doesn’t dare leave that horse,” she replied.

Her husband, without stopping to hear the end of the phrase, had left the kitchen and sprung up the stairs. The door of Mattie’s room was shut, and he wavered a moment on the landing. “Matt,” he said in a low voice; but there was no answer, and he put his hand on the door-knob.

Her husband, without waiting to hear the rest of the sentence, left the kitchen and dashed up the stairs. The door to Mattie’s room was closed, and he hesitated for a moment on the landing. “Matt,” he said quietly; but there was no reply, so he put his hand on the doorknob.

He had never been in her room except once, in the early summer, when he had gone there to plaster up a leak in the eaves, but he remembered exactly how everything had looked: the red-and-white quilt on her narrow bed, the pretty pin-cushion on the chest of drawers, and over it the enlarged photograph of her mother, in an oxydized frame, with a bunch of dyed grasses at the back. Now these and all other tokens of her presence had vanished, and the room looked as bare and comfortless as when Zeena had shown her into it on the day of her arrival. In the middle of the floor stood her trunk, and on the trunk she sat in her Sunday dress, her back turned to the door and her face in her hands. She had not heard Ethan’s call because she was sobbing and she did not hear his step till he stood close behind her and laid his hands on her shoulders.

He had only been in her room once, that early summer day when he went there to fix a leak in the eaves, but he could picture everything perfectly: the red-and-white quilt on her narrow bed, the cute pin-cushion on the dresser, and the enlarged photo of her mother in an oxidized frame, with a bunch of dyed grasses behind it. Now all those reminders of her had disappeared, and the room looked as empty and uncomfortable as it had the day Zeena showed her in when she arrived. In the middle of the floor stood her trunk, and on the trunk she sat in her Sunday dress, her back to the door and her face buried in her hands. She hadn’t heard Ethan call her because she was crying, and she only noticed him when he stood close behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders.

“Matt—oh, don’t—oh, Matt!”

“Matt—oh, don’t—oh, Matt!”

She started up, lifting her wet face to his. “Ethan—I thought I wasn’t ever going to see you again!”

She jumped up, raising her wet face to his. “Ethan—I thought I was never going to see you again!”

He took her in his arms, pressing her close, and with a trembling hand smoothed away the hair from her forehead.

He wrapped her in his arms, holding her tight, and with a shaky hand, brushed the hair off her forehead.

“Not see me again? What do you mean?”

“Not see me again? What does that mean?”

She sobbed out: “Jotham said you told him we wasn’t to wait dinner for you, and I thought—”

She cried out: “Jotham said you told him we shouldn’t wait for dinner for you, and I thought—”

“You thought I meant to cut it?” he finished for her grimly.

“You thought I meant to cut it?” he said grimly, finishing her sentence.

She clung to him without answering, and he laid his lips on her hair, which was soft yet springy, like certain mosses on warm slopes, and had the faint woody fragrance of fresh sawdust in the sun.

She held onto him without saying a word, and he kissed her hair, which was soft but bouncy, like certain mosses on warm hills, and had the subtle woody scent of fresh sawdust in the sun.

Through the door they heard Zeena’s voice calling out from below: “Dan’l Byrne says you better hurry up if you want him to take that trunk.”

Through the door, they heard Zeena’s voice calling out from below: “Dan’l Byrne says you better hurry up if you want him to take that trunk.”

They drew apart with stricken faces. Words of resistance rushed to Ethan’s lips and died there. Mattie found her handkerchief and dried her eyes; then, bending down, she took hold of a handle of the trunk.

They pulled away with shocked expressions. Words of defiance sprang to Ethan's lips but fell silent. Mattie found her handkerchief and wiped her eyes; then, bending down, she grabbed a handle of the trunk.

Ethan put her aside. “You let go, Matt,” he ordered her.

Ethan pushed her away. “You let go, Matt,” he told her.

She answered: “It takes two to coax it round the corner”; and submitting to this argument he grasped the other handle, and together they manoeuvred the heavy trunk out to the landing.

She replied, “It takes two to get it around the corner”; and accepting this point, he grabbed the other handle, and together they maneuvered the heavy trunk out to the landing.

“Now let go,” he repeated; then he shouldered the trunk and carried it down the stairs and across the passage to the kitchen. Zeena, who had gone back to her seat by the stove, did not lift her head from her book as he passed. Mattie followed him out of the door and helped him to lift the trunk into the back of the sleigh. When it was in place they stood side by side on the door-step, watching Daniel Byrne plunge off behind his fidgety horse.

“Now let go,” he said again; then he shouldered the trunk and carried it down the stairs and across the hall to the kitchen. Zeena, who had returned to her spot by the stove, didn’t look up from her book as he went by. Mattie followed him out the door and helped him lift the trunk into the back of the sleigh. Once it was in place, they stood side by side on the doorstep, watching Daniel Byrne take off with his restless horse.

It seemed to Ethan that his heart was bound with cords which an unseen hand was tightening with every tick of the clock. Twice he opened his lips to speak to Mattie and found no breath. At length, as she turned to re-enter the house, he laid a detaining hand on her.

It felt to Ethan like his heart was tied up with cords that an invisible force was pulling tighter with every tick of the clock. He tried to speak to Mattie twice but couldn’t catch his breath. Finally, as she turned to go back inside, he placed a hand on her to stop her.

“I’m going to drive you over, Matt,” he whispered.

“I’m going to give you a ride, Matt,” he whispered.

She murmured back: “I think Zeena wants I should go with Jotham.”

She whispered in response, “I think Zeena wants me to go with Jotham.”

“I’m going to drive you over,” he repeated; and she went into the kitchen without answering.

“I’m going to give you a ride,” he repeated; and she walked into the kitchen without replying.

At dinner Ethan could not eat. If he lifted his eyes they rested on Zeena’s pinched face, and the corners of her straight lips seemed to quiver away into a smile. She ate well, declaring that the mild weather made her feel better, and pressed a second helping of beans on Jotham Powell, whose wants she generally ignored.

At dinner, Ethan couldn't eat. Whenever he looked up, his gaze landed on Zeena's tight face, and the corners of her straight lips seemed to twitch into a smile. She ate heartily, saying that the nice weather made her feel better, and urged Jotham Powell to take a second helping of beans, even though she usually overlooked his needs.

Mattie, when the meal was over, went about her usual task of clearing the table and washing up the dishes. Zeena, after feeding the cat, had returned to her rocking-chair by the stove, and Jotham Powell, who always lingered last, reluctantly pushed back his chair and moved toward the door.

Mattie, once the meal was finished, did her usual chore of clearing the table and washing the dishes. Zeena, after taking care of the cat, went back to her rocking chair by the stove, and Jotham Powell, who always stayed the longest, hesitantly pushed back his chair and headed for the door.

On the threshold he turned back to say to Ethan: “What time’ll I come round for Mattie?”

On the threshold, he turned back to say to Ethan, “What time should I come by for Mattie?”

Ethan was standing near the window, mechanically filling his pipe while he watched Mattie move to and fro. He answered: “You needn’t come round; I’m going to drive her over myself.”

Ethan was standing by the window, absentmindedly filling his pipe while he watched Mattie come and go. He replied, “You don’t need to come by; I’ll drive her over myself.”

He saw the rise of the colour in Mattie’s averted cheek, and the quick lifting of Zeena’s head.

He noticed the flush on Mattie’s turned cheek and the sudden lift of Zeena’s head.

“I want you should stay here this afternoon, Ethan,” his wife said. “Jotham can drive Mattie over.”

“I want you to stay here this afternoon, Ethan,” his wife said. “Jotham can drive Mattie over.”

Mattie flung an imploring glance at him, but he repeated curtly: “I’m going to drive her over myself.”

Mattie shot him a pleading look, but he replied shortly, “I’m going to take her over myself.”

Zeena continued in the same even tone: “I wanted you should stay and fix up that stove in Mattie’s room afore the girl gets here. It ain’t been drawing right for nigh on a month now.”

Zeena continued in the same calm voice: “I wanted you to stay and fix that stove in Mattie’s room before the girl gets here. It hasn’t been working right for almost a month now.”

Ethan’s voice rose indignantly. “If it was good enough for Mattie I guess it’s good enough for a hired girl.”

Ethan's voice rose in indignation. "If it was good enough for Mattie, I guess it's good enough for a hired girl."

“That girl that’s coming told me she was used to a house where they had a furnace,” Zeena persisted with the same monotonous mildness.

"That girl who's coming told me she was used to a house with a furnace," Zeena continued in her usual monotonous tone.

“She’d better ha’ stayed there then,” he flung back at her; and turning to Mattie he added in a hard voice: “You be ready by three, Matt; I’ve got business at Corbury.”

“She should have stayed there then,” he shot back at her; and turning to Mattie, he added in a gruff voice: “You be ready by three, Matt; I’ve got business at Corbury.”

Jotham Powell had started for the barn, and Ethan strode down after him aflame with anger. The pulses in his temples throbbed and a fog was in his eyes. He went about his task without knowing what force directed him, or whose hands and feet were fulfilling its orders. It was not till he led out the sorrel and backed him between the shafts of the sleigh that he once more became conscious of what he was doing. As he passed the bridle over the horse’s head, and wound the traces around the shafts, he remembered the day when he had made the same preparations in order to drive over and meet his wife’s cousin at the Flats. It was little more than a year ago, on just such a soft afternoon, with a “feel” of spring in the air. The sorrel, turning the same big ringed eye on him, nuzzled the palm of his hand in the same way; and one by one all the days between rose up and stood before him....

Jotham Powell had headed to the barn, and Ethan followed him, filled with anger. The veins in his temples pulsed and his vision was blurry. He went about his tasks without realizing what was driving him or whose hands and feet were carrying out the actions. It wasn’t until he led out the sorrel and positioned him between the shafts of the sleigh that he became aware of what he was doing again. As he slipped the bridle over the horse’s head and wrapped the traces around the shafts, he remembered the day he had done the same thing to drive over and meet his wife’s cousin at the Flats. It was just over a year ago, on a soft afternoon like this one, with a hint of spring in the air. The sorrel, looking at him with the same big-ringed eye, nuzzled his palm just like before; and one by one, all the days in between came rushing back to him...

He flung the bearskin into the sleigh, climbed to the seat, and drove up to the house. When he entered the kitchen it was empty, but Mattie’s bag and shawl lay ready by the door. He went to the foot of the stairs and listened. No sound reached him from above, but presently he thought he heard some one moving about in his deserted study, and pushing open the door he saw Mattie, in her hat and jacket, standing with her back to him near the table.

He threw the bearskin into the sleigh, climbed into the seat, and drove up to the house. When he entered the kitchen, it was empty, but Mattie's bag and shawl were ready by the door. He went to the bottom of the stairs and listened. No sound came from above, but soon he thought he heard someone moving in his empty study, and when he pushed open the door, he saw Mattie, in her hat and jacket, standing with her back to him near the table.

She started at his approach and turning quickly, said: “Is it time?”

She reacted to his approach and turned quickly, saying, “Is it time?”

“What are you doing here, Matt?” he asked her.

“What are you doing here, Matt?” he asked her.

She looked at him timidly. “I was just taking a look round—that’s all,” she answered, with a wavering smile.

She glanced at him shyly. “I was just looking around—that’s all,” she replied, giving a nervous smile.

They went back into the kitchen without speaking, and Ethan picked up her bag and shawl.

They returned to the kitchen in silence, and Ethan grabbed her bag and shawl.

“Where’s Zeena?” he asked.

"Where's Zeena?" he asked.

“She went upstairs right after dinner. She said she had those shooting pains again, and didn’t want to be disturbed.”

“She went upstairs right after dinner. She said she had those shooting pains again and didn’t want to be disturbed.”

“Didn’t she say good-bye to you?”

“Didn’t she say goodbye to you?”

“No. That was all she said.”

“Nope. That’s all she said.”

Ethan, looking slowly about the kitchen, said to himself with a shudder that in a few hours he would be returning to it alone. Then the sense of unreality overcame him once more, and he could not bring himself to believe that Mattie stood there for the last time before him.

Ethan, slowly looking around the kitchen, shuddered as he realized that in a few hours he would be coming back to it alone. Then, the feeling of unreality hit him again, and he couldn’t quite accept that Mattie was standing in front of him for the last time.

“Come on,” he said almost gaily, opening the door and putting her bag into the sleigh. He sprang to his seat and bent over to tuck the rug about her as she slipped into the place at his side. “Now then, go ’long,” he said, with a shake of the reins that sent the sorrel placidly jogging down the hill.

“Come on,” he said cheerfully, opening the door and putting her bag into the sleigh. He jumped into his seat and bent down to wrap the blanket around her as she settled in beside him. “Okay, off we go,” he said, shaking the reins, which got the sorrel trotting calmly down the hill.

“We got lots of time for a good ride, Matt!” he cried, seeking her hand beneath the fur and pressing it in his. His face tingled and he felt dizzy, as if he had stopped in at the Starkfield saloon on a zero day for a drink.

“We've got plenty of time for a good ride, Matt!” he exclaimed, reaching for her hand beneath the fur and holding it tightly. His face tingled, and he felt lightheaded, as if he had popped into the Starkfield saloon on a slow day for a drink.

At the gate, instead of making for Starkfield, he turned the sorrel to the right, up the Bettsbridge road. Mattie sat silent, giving no sign of surprise; but after a moment she said: “Are you going round by Shadow Pond?”

At the gate, instead of heading towards Starkfield, he turned the sorrel to the right, up the Bettsbridge road. Mattie sat quietly, showing no hint of surprise; but after a moment, she said, “Are you going around by Shadow Pond?”

He laughed and answered: “I knew you’d know!”

He laughed and replied, “I knew you’d get it!”

She drew closer under the bearskin, so that, looking sideways around his coat-sleeve, he could just catch the tip of her nose and a blown brown wave of hair. They drove slowly up the road between fields glistening under the pale sun, and then bent to the right down a lane edged with spruce and larch. Ahead of them, a long way off, a range of hills stained by mottlings of black forest flowed away in round white curves against the sky. The lane passed into a pine-wood with boles reddening in the afternoon sun and delicate blue shadows on the snow. As they entered it the breeze fell and a warm stillness seemed to drop from the branches with the dropping needles. Here the snow was so pure that the tiny tracks of wood-animals had left on it intricate lace-like patterns, and the bluish cones caught in its surface stood out like ornaments of bronze.

She moved closer under the bearskin, so that, peeking sideways around his coat sleeve, he could just see the tip of her nose and a tousled wave of brown hair. They drove slowly up the road between fields glistening under the pale sun, then turned right down a lane lined with spruce and larch. Ahead of them, far away, a range of hills stained with patches of dark forest rolled away in smooth white curves against the sky. The lane led into a pine forest with tree trunks glowing red in the afternoon sun and delicate blue shadows on the snow. As they entered, the breeze died down, and a warm stillness seemed to fall from the branches with the dropping needles. Here, the snow was so pristine that the tiny tracks of woodland creatures left intricate lace-like patterns, and the bluish cones caught in its surface stood out like bronze ornaments.

Ethan drove on in silence till they reached a part of the wood where the pines were more widely spaced; then he drew up and helped Mattie to get out of the sleigh. They passed between the aromatic trunks, the snow breaking crisply under their feet, till they came to a small sheet of water with steep wooded sides. Across its frozen surface, from the farther bank, a single hill rising against the western sun threw the long conical shadow which gave the lake its name. It was a shy secret spot, full of the same dumb melancholy that Ethan felt in his heart.

Ethan drove on in silence until they reached a part of the woods where the pines were more spaced out; then he stopped and helped Mattie out of the sleigh. They walked between the fragrant trunks, the snow crunching under their feet, until they came to a small pond with steep, wooded sides. Across its frozen surface, from the far bank, a single hill rising against the setting sun cast a long conical shadow that gave the lake its name. It was a secluded, secret place, filled with the same quiet sadness that Ethan felt in his heart.

He looked up and down the little pebbly beach till his eye lit on a fallen tree-trunk half submerged in snow.

He scanned the small pebbly beach until his gaze landed on a fallen tree trunk half buried in snow.

“There’s where we sat at the picnic,” he reminded her.

“There’s where we sat for the picnic,” he reminded her.

The entertainment of which he spoke was one of the few that they had taken part in together: a “church picnic” which, on a long afternoon of the preceding summer, had filled the retired place with merry-making. Mattie had begged him to go with her but he had refused. Then, toward sunset, coming down from the mountain where he had been felling timber, he had been caught by some strayed revellers and drawn into the group by the lake, where Mattie, encircled by facetious youths, and bright as a blackberry under her spreading hat, was brewing coffee over a gipsy fire. He remembered the shyness he had felt at approaching her in his uncouth clothes, and then the lighting up of her face, and the way she had broken through the group to come to him with a cup in her hand. They had sat for a few minutes on the fallen log by the pond, and she had missed her gold locket, and set the young men searching for it; and it was Ethan who had spied it in the moss.... That was all; but all their intercourse had been made up of just such inarticulate flashes, when they seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if they had surprised a butterfly in the winter woods....

The event he mentioned was one of the few they had attended together: a "church picnic" that, on a long afternoon last summer, had brought joy to the quiet place. Mattie had urged him to join her, but he had declined. Then, as the sun was setting, coming down from the mountain where he had been cutting timber, he had been swept up by some wandering party-goers and pulled into the crowd by the lake, where Mattie, surrounded by playful guys and as bright as a blackberry under her wide-brimmed hat, was making coffee over a campfire. He remembered feeling shy about approaching her in his rough clothes, and then the way her face lit up when she saw him, and how she had pushed through the group to bring him a cup. They had sat for a few minutes on a fallen log by the pond, and she had realized her gold locket was missing and had the young men search for it; it was Ethan who spotted it in the moss.... That was all; but their time together was full of such unspoken moments, when they seemed to stumble upon happiness as if they had found a butterfly in the winter woods....

“It was right there I found your locket,” he said, pushing his foot into a dense tuft of blueberry bushes.

“It was right there I found your locket,” he said, pushing his foot into a thick patch of blueberry bushes.

“I never saw anybody with such sharp eyes!” she answered.

“I've never seen anyone with such sharp eyes!” she replied.

She sat down on the tree-trunk in the sun and he sat down beside her.

She sat on the tree trunk in the sun, and he sat down next to her.

“You were as pretty as a picture in that pink hat,” he said.

“You looked as beautiful as a picture in that pink hat,” he said.

She laughed with pleasure. “Oh, I guess it was the hat!” she rejoined.

She laughed happily. “Oh, I guess it was the hat!” she replied.

They had never before avowed their inclination so openly, and Ethan, for a moment, had the illusion that he was a free man, wooing the girl he meant to marry. He looked at her hair and longed to touch it again, and to tell her that it smelt of the woods; but he had never learned to say such things.

They had never expressed their feelings so openly before, and for a moment, Ethan felt like a free man, pursuing the girl he intended to marry. He admired her hair and wished he could touch it again and tell her it smelled like the forest; but he had never learned how to say those things.

Suddenly she rose to her feet and said: “We mustn’t stay here any longer.”

Suddenly, she got up and said, “We can’t stay here any longer.”

He continued to gaze at her vaguely, only half-roused from his dream. “There’s plenty of time,” he answered.

He kept staring at her blankly, still partly lost in his dream. “There’s plenty of time,” he said.

They stood looking at each other as if the eyes of each were straining to absorb and hold fast the other’s image. There were things he had to say to her before they parted, but he could not say them in that place of summer memories, and he turned and followed her in silence to the sleigh. As they drove away the sun sank behind the hill and the pine-boles turned from red to grey.

They stood facing each other, as if each pair of eyes were trying hard to capture and hold onto the other’s image. He had things to tell her before they separated, but he couldn’t say them in that place filled with summer memories, so he turned and followed her quietly to the sleigh. As they drove away, the sun dipped behind the hill, and the tree trunks changed from red to gray.

By a devious track between the fields they wound back to the Starkfield road. Under the open sky the light was still clear, with a reflection of cold red on the eastern hills. The clumps of trees in the snow seemed to draw together in ruffled lumps, like birds with their heads under their wings; and the sky, as it paled, rose higher, leaving the earth more alone.

By a winding path through the fields, they made their way back to the Starkfield road. Under the open sky, the light remained bright, reflecting a cold red on the eastern hills. The clusters of trees in the snow appeared to huddle together in messy bunches, like birds tucking their heads under their wings; and as the sky faded, it rose higher, making the earth feel more isolated.

As they turned into the Starkfield road Ethan said: “Matt, what do you mean to do?”

As they turned onto the Starkfield road, Ethan asked, “Matt, what do you plan to do?”

She did not answer at once, but at length she said: “I’ll try to get a place in a store.”

She didn't respond immediately, but after a while she said, “I’ll try to get a job at a store.”

“You know you can’t do it. The bad air and the standing all day nearly killed you before.”

“You know you can’t handle it. The bad air and standing all day almost took you out last time.”

“I’m a lot stronger than I was before I came to Starkfield.”

“I’m much stronger than I was before I arrived in Starkfield.”

“And now you’re going to throw away all the good it’s done you!”

“And now you’re going to throw away all the good it’s done for you!”

There seemed to be no answer to this, and again they drove on for a while without speaking. With every yard of the way some spot where they had stood, and laughed together or been silent, clutched at Ethan and dragged him back.

There didn't seem to be an answer to this, and once more they drove on for a while without saying a word. With every yard they traveled, a place where they had stood, laughed together, or even been quiet pulled at Ethan and held him back.

“Isn’t there any of your father’s folks could help you?”

“Isn't there anyone in your father's family who could help you?”

“There isn’t any of ’em I’d ask.”

“There isn’t any of them I’d ask.”

He lowered his voice to say: “You know there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you if I could.”

He lowered his voice and said, "You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you if I could."

“I know there isn’t.”

"I know there isn't."

“But I can’t—”

“But I can’t—”

She was silent, but he felt a slight tremor in the shoulder against his.

She was quiet, but he felt a slight shake in the shoulder resting against his.

“Oh, Matt,” he broke out, “if I could ha’ gone with you now I’d ha’ done it—”

“Oh, Matt,” he exclaimed, “if I could have gone with you right now, I would have done it—”

She turned to him, pulling a scrap of paper from her breast. “Ethan—I found this,” she stammered. Even in the failing light he saw it was the letter to his wife that he had begun the night before and forgotten to destroy. Through his astonishment there ran a fierce thrill of joy. “Matt—” he cried; “if I could ha’ done it, would you?”

She turned to him, pulling a piece of paper from her shirt. “Ethan—I found this,” she stammered. Even in the dim light, he saw it was the letter to his wife that he had started the night before and forgotten to destroy. Amid his shock, a rush of joy coursed through him. “Matt—” he cried; “if I could have done it, would you?”

“Oh, Ethan, Ethan—what’s the use?” With a sudden movement she tore the letter in shreds and sent them fluttering off into the snow.

“Oh, Ethan, Ethan—what's the point?” With a sudden movement, she ripped the letter into pieces and sent them flying into the snow.

“Tell me, Matt! Tell me!” he adjured her.

“Tell me, Matt! Tell me!” he urged her.

She was silent for a moment; then she said, in such a low tone that he had to stoop his head to hear her: “I used to think of it sometimes, summer nights when the moon was so bright. I couldn’t sleep.”

She was quiet for a moment; then she said, in a whisper so soft that he had to lean in to hear her: “I used to think about it sometimes, summer nights when the moon was so bright. I couldn’t sleep.”

His heart reeled with the sweetness of it. “As long ago as that?”

His heart spun with joy. “Was it that long ago?”

She answered, as if the date had long been fixed for her: “The first time was at Shadow Pond.”

She replied as if the date had been set for her ages ago: “The first time was at Shadow Pond.”

“Was that why you gave me my coffee before the others?”

“Is that why you gave me my coffee before everyone else?”

“I don’t know. Did I? I was dreadfully put out when you wouldn’t go to the picnic with me; and then, when I saw you coming down the road, I thought maybe you’d gone home that way o’ purpose; and that made me glad.”

“I don’t know. Did I? I was really upset when you didn’t go to the picnic with me; and then, when I saw you coming down the road, I thought maybe you’d taken that way on purpose; and that made me happy.”

They were silent again. They had reached the point where the road dipped to the hollow by Ethan’s mill and as they descended the darkness descended with them, dropping down like a black veil from the heavy hemlock boughs.

They were quiet again. They had gotten to the spot where the road sloped down into the valley by Ethan’s mill, and as they went down, the darkness came with them, falling like a black curtain from the thick hemlock branches.

“I’m tied hand and foot, Matt. There isn’t a thing I can do,” he began again.

“I’m completely powerless, Matt. There’s nothing I can do,” he started again.

“You must write to me sometimes, Ethan.”

“You should write to me once in a while, Ethan.”

“Oh, what good’ll writing do? I want to put my hand out and touch you. I want to do for you and care for you. I want to be there when you’re sick and when you’re lonesome.”

“Oh, what good will writing do? I want to reach out and touch you. I want to help you and care for you. I want to be there when you’re sick and when you’re lonely.”

“You mustn’t think but what I’ll do all right.”

“You shouldn’t doubt that I'll be fine.”

“You won’t need me, you mean? I suppose you’ll marry!”

“You don’t need me, right? I guess you’re getting married!”

“Oh, Ethan!” she cried.

“Oh, Ethan!” she exclaimed.

“I don’t know how it is you make me feel, Matt. I’d a’most rather have you dead than that!”

“I don’t know what it is about you that makes me feel this way, Matt. I’d almost rather have you dead than this!”

“Oh, I wish I was, I wish I was!” she sobbed.

“Oh, I wish I were, I wish I were!” she cried.

The sound of her weeping shook him out of his dark anger, and he felt ashamed.

The sound of her crying snapped him out of his rage, and he felt embarrassed.

“Don’t let’s talk that way,” he whispered.

“Let’s not talk like that,” he whispered.

“Why shouldn’t we, when it’s true? I’ve been wishing it every minute of the day.”

“Why not? It’s true, after all. I’ve been wishing for it every minute of the day.”

“Matt! You be quiet! Don’t you say it.”

“Matt! Be quiet! Don’t say it.”

“There’s never anybody been good to me but you.”

“Nobody has ever been good to me except for you.”

“Don’t say that either, when I can’t lift a hand for you!”

“Don’t say that either, when I can’t do anything to help you!”

“Yes; but it’s true just the same.”

"Yes, but that’s still true."

They had reached the top of School House Hill and Starkfield lay below them in the twilight. A cutter, mounting the road from the village, passed them by in a joyous flutter of bells, and they straightened themselves and looked ahead with rigid faces. Along the main street lights had begun to shine from the house-fronts and stray figures were turning in here and there at the gates. Ethan, with a touch of his whip, roused the sorrel to a languid trot.

They had reached the top of School House Hill, and Starkfield spread out below them in the fading light. A sled, coming up the road from the village, breezed past with a cheerful jingle of bells, prompting them to straighten up and look ahead with stiff expressions. Along the main street, lights had started glowing from the houses, and random figures were turning in here and there at the gates. Ethan, with a flick of his whip, urged the sorrel into a lazy trot.

As they drew near the end of the village the cries of children reached them, and they saw a knot of boys, with sleds behind them, scattering across the open space before the church.

As they got closer to the edge of the village, they heard the sounds of children, and they saw a group of boys with sleds behind them, racing across the open space in front of the church.

“I guess this’ll be their last coast for a day or two,” Ethan said, looking up at the mild sky.

“I guess this will be their last coast for a day or two,” Ethan said, looking up at the clear sky.

Mattie was silent, and he added: “We were to have gone down last night.”

Mattie was quiet, and he added, “We were supposed to go down last night.”

Still she did not speak and, prompted by an obscure desire to help himself and her through their miserable last hour, he went on discursively: “Ain’t it funny we haven’t been down together but just that once last winter?”

Still she didn't say anything and, driven by a vague urge to get through their miserable last hour for both of them, he continued talking: “Isn't it funny that we haven't gone down together except for that one time last winter?”

She answered: “It wasn’t often I got down to the village.”

She replied, "I didn't often go down to the village."

“That’s so,” he said.

"That's so," he said.

They had reached the crest of the Corbury road, and between the indistinct white glimmer of the church and the black curtain of the Varnum spruces the slope stretched away below them without a sled on its length. Some erratic impulse prompted Ethan to say: “How’d you like me to take you down now?”

They had gotten to the top of the Corbury road, and between the vague white light of the church and the dark line of the Varnum spruces, the slope rolled out beneath them without a single sled on it. A random impulse urged Ethan to ask, “How would you feel about me taking you down now?”

She forced a laugh. “Why, there isn’t time!”

She laughed awkwardly. “Why, there’s no time!”

“There’s all the time we want. Come along!” His one desire now was to postpone the moment of turning the sorrel toward the Flats.

“There’s all the time we need. Let’s go!” His only wish now was to delay the moment of steering the sorrel toward the Flats.

“But the girl,” she faltered. “The girl’ll be waiting at the station.”

“But the girl,” she hesitated. “The girl will be waiting at the station.”

“Well, let her wait. You’d have to if she didn’t. Come!”

“Well, let her wait. You’d have to if she didn’t. Come!”

The note of authority in his voice seemed to subdue her, and when he had jumped from the sleigh she let him help her out, saying only, with a vague feint of reluctance: “But there isn’t a sled round anywheres.”

The authoritative tone in his voice appeared to calm her, and when he jumped out of the sleigh, she allowed him to help her out, saying only, with a hint of hesitance: “But there isn’t a sled anywhere.”

“Yes, there is! Right over there under the spruces.” He threw the bearskin over the sorrel, who stood passively by the roadside, hanging a meditative head. Then he caught Mattie’s hand and drew her after him toward the sled.

“Yes, there is! Right over there under the spruce trees.” He tossed the bearskin over the sorrel, which was standing quietly by the roadside, its head hanging in thought. Then he took Mattie’s hand and pulled her along with him toward the sled.

She seated herself obediently and he took his place behind her, so close that her hair brushed his face. “All right, Matt?” he called out, as if the width of the road had been between them.

She sat down obediently, and he positioned himself behind her, so close that her hair brushed against his face. “All good, Matt?” he called out, as if the distance of the road was between them.

She turned her head to say: “It’s dreadfully dark. Are you sure you can see?”

She turned her head and said, “It’s really dark. Are you sure you can see?”

He laughed contemptuously: “I could go down this coast with my eyes tied!” and she laughed with him, as if she liked his audacity. Nevertheless he sat still a moment, straining his eyes down the long hill, for it was the most confusing hour of the evening, the hour when the last clearness from the upper sky is merged with the rising night in a blur that disguises landmarks and falsifies distances.

He laughed dismissively, “I could walk down this coast with my eyes closed!” and she laughed along with him, as if she appreciated his boldness. Still, he paused for a moment, squinting down the long hill, because it was the most confusing time of the evening—the moment when the last bit of light from the upper sky blends with the coming night in a haze that obscures landmarks and distorts distances.

“Now!” he cried.

"Now!" he shouted.

The sled started with a bound, and they flew on through the dusk, gathering smoothness and speed as they went, with the hollow night opening out below them and the air singing by like an organ. Mattie sat perfectly still, but as they reached the bend at the foot of the hill, where the big elm thrust out a deadly elbow, he fancied that she shrank a little closer.

The sled took off with a leap, and they sped through the dusk, gaining smoothness and speed as they went, with the empty night stretching out beneath them and the air rushing by like music from an organ. Mattie sat completely still, but as they approached the curve at the bottom of the hill, where the large elm tree jutted out ominously, he thought she inched a bit closer.

“Don’t be scared, Matt!” he cried exultantly, as they spun safely past it and flew down the second slope; and when they reached the level ground beyond, and the speed of the sled began to slacken, he heard her give a little laugh of glee.

“Don’t be scared, Matt!” he yelled joyfully as they safely whirled past it and raced down the next slope; and when they hit the flat ground beyond, and the sled started to slow down, he heard her let out a small laugh of happiness.

They sprang off and started to walk back up the hill. Ethan dragged the sled with one hand and passed the other through Mattie’s arm.

They took off and began to walk back up the hill. Ethan dragged the sled with one hand and wrapped the other around Mattie’s arm.

“Were you scared I’d run you into the elm?” he asked with a boyish laugh.

“Were you worried I’d crash you into the elm?” he asked with a playful chuckle.

“I told you I was never scared with you,” she answered.

“I told you I was never afraid when I was with you,” she replied.

The strange exaltation of his mood had brought on one of his rare fits of boastfulness. “It is a tricky place, though. The least swerve, and we’d never ha’ come up again. But I can measure distances to a hair’s-breadth—always could.”

The unusual high of his mood had sparked one of his rare moments of bragging. “It is a tricky spot, though. The slightest misstep, and we’d never come back up. But I can gauge distances to perfection—always have been able to.”

She murmured: “I always say you’ve got the surest eye....”

She whispered, “I always say you have the keenest eye....”

Deep silence had fallen with the starless dusk, and they leaned on each other without speaking; but at every step of their climb Ethan said to himself: “It’s the last time we’ll ever walk together.”

Deep silence had settled in with the starless dusk, and they leaned on each other without speaking; but with every step they took, Ethan told himself, “This is the last time we’ll ever walk together.”

They mounted slowly to the top of the hill. When they were abreast of the church he stooped his head to her to ask: “Are you tired?” and she answered, breathing quickly: “It was splendid!”

They climbed slowly to the top of the hill. When they were next to the church, he leaned down to her and asked, “Are you tired?” She replied, breathing quickly, “It was amazing!”

With a pressure of his arm he guided her toward the Norway spruces. “I guess this sled must be Ned Hale’s. Anyhow I’ll leave it where I found it.” He drew the sled up to the Varnum gate and rested it against the fence. As he raised himself he suddenly felt Mattie close to him among the shadows.

With a push of his arm, he directed her toward the Norway spruces. “I guess this sled must belong to Ned Hale. Anyway, I’ll leave it where I found it.” He pulled the sled up to the Varnum gate and leaned it against the fence. As he straightened up, he suddenly felt Mattie close to him in the shadows.

“Is this where Ned and Ruth kissed each other?” she whispered breathlessly, and flung her arms about him. Her lips, groping for his, swept over his face, and he held her fast in a rapture of surprise.

“Is this where Ned and Ruth kissed each other?” she whispered breathlessly, wrapping her arms around him. Her lips, searching for his, brushed over his face, and he held her tightly in a moment of surprise.

“Good-bye-good-bye,” she stammered, and kissed him again.

“Goodbye, goodbye,” she stammered, and kissed him again.

“Oh, Matt, I can’t let you go!” broke from him in the same old cry.

“Oh, Matt, I can't let you go!” he exclaimed, just like before.

She freed herself from his hold and he heard her sobbing. “Oh, I can’t go either!” she wailed.

She broke free from his grip and he heard her crying. “Oh, I can’t go either!” she cried.

“Matt! What’ll we do? What’ll we do?”

“Matt! What are we going to do? What are we going to do?”

They clung to each other’s hands like children, and her body shook with desperate sobs.

They held onto each other's hands like kids, and her body shook with urgent sobs.

Through the stillness they heard the church clock striking five.

Through the quiet, they heard the church clock chime five.

“Oh, Ethan, it’s time!” she cried.

“Oh, Ethan, it’s time!” she shouted.

He drew her back to him. “Time for what? You don’t suppose I’m going to leave you now?”

He pulled her closer to him. “Time for what? You don’t really think I’m going to leave you now?”

“If I missed my train where’d I go?”

“If I missed my train, where would I go?”

“Where are you going if you catch it?”

“Where are you headed if you manage to catch it?”

She stood silent, her hands lying cold and relaxed in his.

She stood quietly, her hands resting cold and relaxed in his.

“What’s the good of either of us going anywheres without the other one now?” he said.

“What’s the point of either of us going anywhere without each other now?” he said.

She remained motionless, as if she had not heard him. Then she snatched her hands from his, threw her arms about his neck, and pressed a sudden drenched cheek against his face. “Ethan! Ethan! I want you to take me down again!”

She stayed still, as if she hadn’t heard him. Then she pulled her hands away from his, wrapped her arms around his neck, and pressed a suddenly wet cheek against his face. “Ethan! Ethan! I want you to take me down again!”

“Down where?”

“Where to?”

“The coast. Right off,” she panted. “So ’t we’ll never come up any more.”

“The coast. Right there,” she gasped. “So we’ll never come up again.”

“Matt! What on earth do you mean?”

"Matt! What do you mean?"

She put her lips close against his ear to say: “Right into the big elm. You said you could. So ’t we’d never have to leave each other any more.”

She leaned in close to his ear and said, “Right into the big elm. You said you could. So we’d never have to leave each other again.”

“Why, what are you talking of? You’re crazy!”

“Why, what are you talking about? You’re nuts!”

“I’m not crazy; but I will be if I leave you.”

“I’m not insane; but I will be if I walk away from you.”

“Oh, Matt, Matt—” he groaned.

“Oh, Matt, Matt—” he sighed.

She tightened her fierce hold about his neck. Her face lay close to his face.

She tightened her grip around his neck. Her face was close to his.

“Ethan, where’ll I go if I leave you? I don’t know how to get along alone. You said so yourself just now. Nobody but you was ever good to me. And there’ll be that strange girl in the house... and she’ll sleep in my bed, where I used to lay nights and listen to hear you come up the stairs....”

“Ethan, where will I go if I leave you? I don’t know how to manage on my own. You said it yourself just now. No one but you has ever treated me well. And there’s going to be that weird girl in the house... and she’ll be sleeping in my bed, where I used to lie at night, listening for you to come up the stairs....”

The words were like fragments torn from his heart. With them came the hated vision of the house he was going back to—of the stairs he would have to go up every night, of the woman who would wait for him there. And the sweetness of Mattie’s avowal, the wild wonder of knowing at last that all that had happened to him had happened to her too, made the other vision more abhorrent, the other life more intolerable to return to....

The words were like pieces ripped from his heart. With them came the dreaded image of the house he was returning to—of the stairs he would have to climb every night, of the woman who would be waiting for him there. And the joy of Mattie’s confession, the overwhelming realization that everything he had experienced had happened to her too, made the other image even more repulsive, the other life even harder to go back to...

Her pleadings still came to him between short sobs, but he no longer heard what she was saying. Her hat had slipped back and he was stroking her hair. He wanted to get the feeling of it into his hand, so that it would sleep there like a seed in winter. Once he found her mouth again, and they seemed to be by the pond together in the burning August sun. But his cheek touched hers, and it was cold and full of weeping, and he saw the road to the Flats under the night and heard the whistle of the train up the line.

Her pleas still reached him through short sobs, but he no longer understood what she was saying. Her hat had slipped back, and he was brushing her hair. He wanted to hold the feeling of it in his hand, like a seed resting in winter. Once he found her mouth again, and it felt like they were by the pond together in the scorching August sun. But as his cheek touched hers, it was cold and filled with tears, and he could see the road to the Flats in the dark and heard the train whistle in the distance.

The spruces swathed them in blackness and silence. They might have been in their coffins underground. He said to himself: “Perhaps it’ll feel like this ...” and then again: “After this I sha’n’t feel anything....”

The spruces wrapped them in darkness and silence. They could have been buried in their coffins. He thought to himself: “Maybe it’ll feel like this ...” and again: “After this, I won’t feel anything....”

Suddenly he heard the old sorrel whinny across the road, and thought: “He’s wondering why he doesn’t get his supper....”

Suddenly, he heard the old chestnut whinnying across the road and thought, “He’s probably wondering why he hasn’t gotten his dinner yet...”

“Come!” Mattie whispered, tugging at his hand.

“Come on!” Mattie whispered, pulling at his hand.

Her sombre violence constrained him: she seemed the embodied instrument of fate. He pulled the sled out, blinking like a night-bird as he passed from the shade of the spruces into the transparent dusk of the open. The slope below them was deserted. All Starkfield was at supper, and not a figure crossed the open space before the church. The sky, swollen with the clouds that announce a thaw, hung as low as before a summer storm. He strained his eyes through the dimness, and they seemed less keen, less capable than usual.

Her intense anger held him back: she felt like the personification of fate. He pulled the sled out, blinking like a night bird as he stepped from the shade of the spruces into the clear twilight of the open space. The slope below them was empty. Everyone in Starkfield was at dinner, and not a single person crossed the open area in front of the church. The sky, heavy with clouds signaling a warm-up, hung as low as it does before a summer storm. He squinted through the dim light, and his vision seemed less sharp, less clear than usual.

He took his seat on the sled and Mattie instantly placed herself in front of him. Her hat had fallen into the snow and his lips were in her hair. He stretched out his legs, drove his heels into the road to keep the sled from slipping forward, and bent her head back between his hands. Then suddenly he sprang up again.

He sat down on the sled, and Mattie immediately positioned herself in front of him. Her hat had dropped into the snow, and his lips brushed against her hair. He stretched out his legs, dug his heels into the ground to prevent the sled from sliding forward, and tilted her head back between his hands. Then, all of a sudden, he jumped up again.

“Get up,” he ordered her.

“Get up,” he told her.

It was the tone she always heeded, but she cowered down in her seat, repeating vehemently: “No, no, no!”

It was the tone she always paid attention to, but she shrank back in her seat, repeating forcefully: “No, no, no!”

“Get up!”

"Wake up!"

“Why?”

“Why?”

“I want to sit in front.”

“I want to sit in the front.”

“No, no! How can you steer in front?”

“No, no! How can you drive in front?”

“I don’t have to. We’ll follow the track.”

“I don’t need to. We’ll follow the path.”

They spoke in smothered whispers, as though the night were listening.

They talked in hushed whispers, as if the night were eavesdropping.

“Get up! Get up!” he urged her; but she kept on repeating: “Why do you want to sit in front?”

“Get up! Get up!” he urged her; but she kept on repeating: “Why do you want to sit in front?”

“Because I—because I want to feel you holding me,” he stammered, and dragged her to her feet.

“Because I—because I want to feel you holding me,” he stuttered, and pulled her to her feet.

The answer seemed to satisfy her, or else she yielded to the power of his voice. He bent down, feeling in the obscurity for the glassy slide worn by preceding coasters, and placed the runners carefully between its edges. She waited while he seated himself with crossed legs in the front of the sled; then she crouched quickly down at his back and clasped her arms about him. Her breath in his neck set him shuddering again, and he almost sprang from his seat. But in a flash he remembered the alternative. She was right: this was better than parting. He leaned back and drew her mouth to his....

The answer seemed to please her, or maybe she just gave in to the power of his voice. He leaned down, feeling in the darkness for the smooth track worn down by previous riders, and carefully positioned the runners along its sides. She waited while he sat down crossed-legged at the front of the sled; then she quickly crouched down behind him and wrapped her arms around him. The warmth of her breath on his neck made him shudder again, and he almost jumped from his seat. But he quickly remembered the other option. She was right: this was better than saying goodbye. He leaned back and pulled her mouth to his....

Just as they started he heard the sorrel’s whinny again, and the familiar wistful call, and all the confused images it brought with it, went with him down the first reach of the road. Half-way down there was a sudden drop, then a rise, and after that another long delirious descent. As they took wing for this it seemed to him that they were flying indeed, flying far up into the cloudy night, with Starkfield immeasurably below them, falling away like a speck in space.... Then the big elm shot up ahead, lying in wait for them at the bend of the road, and he said between his teeth: “We can fetch it; I know we can fetch it—”

Just as they started, he heard the sorrel whinny again, and the familiar, nostalgic call, along with all the mixed images it brought, accompanied him down the first stretch of the road. Halfway down, there was a sudden drop, then a rise, and after that another long, thrilling descent. As they launched into this, it felt to him like they were really flying, soaring high into the cloudy night, with Starkfield far below them, shrinking to a tiny dot in space... Then the big elm appeared ahead, waiting for them at the bend in the road, and he muttered through gritted teeth: “We can make it; I know we can make it—”

As they flew toward the tree Mattie pressed her arms tighter, and her blood seemed to be in his veins. Once or twice the sled swerved a little under them. He slanted his body to keep it headed for the elm, repeating to himself again and again: “I know we can fetch it”; and little phrases she had spoken ran through his head and danced before him on the air. The big tree loomed bigger and closer, and as they bore down on it he thought: “It’s waiting for us: it seems to know.” But suddenly his wife’s face, with twisted monstrous lineaments, thrust itself between him and his goal, and he made an instinctive movement to brush it aside. The sled swerved in response, but he righted it again, kept it straight, and drove down on the black projecting mass. There was a last instant when the air shot past him like millions of fiery wires; and then the elm....

As they flew toward the tree, Mattie squeezed her arms tighter, and he could feel her blood pulsing through his veins. A couple of times, the sled veered slightly beneath them. He leaned his body to keep it aimed at the elm, telling himself over and over, “I know we can make it,” and little phrases she had said played in his mind and danced in the air around him. The large tree appeared bigger and closer, and as they approached it, he thought, “It’s waiting for us; it seems to know.” But suddenly, his wife’s face, twisted and monstrous, pushed itself between him and his target, and he instinctively moved to brush it aside. The sled tilted in response, but he corrected it, kept it steady, and headed straight for the dark, looming mass. In the final moment, the air rushed past him like millions of fiery wires; and then the elm....

The sky was still thick, but looking straight up he saw a single star, and tried vaguely to reckon whether it were Sirius, or—or—The effort tired him too much, and he closed his heavy lids and thought that he would sleep.... The stillness was so profound that he heard a little animal twittering somewhere near by under the snow. It made a small frightened cheep like a field mouse, and he wondered languidly if it were hurt. Then he understood that it must be in pain: pain so excruciating that he seemed, mysteriously, to feel it shooting through his own body. He tried in vain to roll over in the direction of the sound, and stretched his left arm out across the snow. And now it was as though he felt rather than heard the twittering; it seemed to be under his palm, which rested on something soft and springy. The thought of the animal’s suffering was intolerable to him and he struggled to raise himself, and could not because a rock, or some huge mass, seemed to be lying on him. But he continued to finger about cautiously with his left hand, thinking he might get hold of the little creature and help it; and all at once he knew that the soft thing he had touched was Mattie’s hair and that his hand was on her face.

The sky was still thick, but when he looked straight up, he saw a single star and tried to figure out if it was Sirius or something else. The effort made him too tired, so he closed his heavy eyelids, thinking he would sleep... The stillness was so deep that he heard a little animal chirping nearby beneath the snow. It made a small, frightened *cheep* like a field mouse, and he lazily wondered if it was hurt. Then he realized it must be in pain: pain so intense that he felt it mysteriously shooting through his own body. He tried unsuccessfully to roll over in the direction of the sound and stretched his left arm out across the snow. Now it felt like he sensed the chirping rather than heard it; it seemed to be under his palm, which rested on something soft and springy. The thought of the animal’s suffering was unbearable to him, and he struggled to lift himself but couldn’t because it felt like a rock or some heavy mass was pressing down on him. He kept reaching around cautiously with his left hand, hoping to grab the little creature and help it; and suddenly he realized that the soft thing he had touched was Mattie’s hair and his hand was on her face.

He dragged himself to his knees, the monstrous load on him moving with him as he moved, and his hand went over and over her face, and he felt that the twittering came from her lips....

He dropped to his knees, the heavy burden on him shifting as he moved, and his hand repeatedly brushed against her face, and he sensed that the soft sounds were coming from her lips....

He got his face down close to hers, with his ear to her mouth, and in the darkness he saw her eyes open and heard her say his name.

He leaned in close to her, pressing his ear to her mouth, and in the darkness, he saw her eyes open and heard her say his name.

“Oh, Matt, I thought we’d fetched it,” he moaned; and far off, up the hill, he heard the sorrel whinny, and thought: “I ought to be getting him his feed....”

“Oh, Matt, I thought we’d gotten it,” he moaned; and far off, up the hill, he heard the sorrel whinny and thought: “I should be getting him his feed....”


THE QUERULOUS DRONE ceased as I entered Frome’s kitchen, and of the two women sitting there I could not tell which had been the speaker.

THE GRUMBLING DRONE stopped as I walked into Frome’s kitchen, and of the two women sitting there, I couldn’t tell which one had been talking.

One of them, on my appearing, raised her tall bony figure from her seat, not as if to welcome me—for she threw me no more than a brief glance of surprise—but simply to set about preparing the meal which Frome’s absence had delayed. A slatternly calico wrapper hung from her shoulders and the wisps of her thin grey hair were drawn away from a high forehead and fastened at the back by a broken comb. She had pale opaque eyes which revealed nothing and reflected nothing, and her narrow lips were of the same sallow colour as her face.

One of them, when I showed up, lifted her tall, bony frame from her seat, not to greet me—with just a quick look of surprise—but to start getting the meal ready that Frome's absence had held up. A messy calico wrap was draped over her shoulders, and wisps of her thin gray hair were pulled back from a high forehead and secured at the back with a broken comb. Her pale, translucent eyes revealed nothing and reflected nothing, and her narrow lips were the same sickly color as her face.

The other woman was much smaller and slighter. She sat huddled in an arm-chair near the stove, and when I came in she turned her head quickly toward me, without the least corresponding movement of her body. Her hair was as grey as her companion’s, her face as bloodless and shrivelled, but amber-tinted, with swarthy shadows sharpening the nose and hollowing the temples. Under her shapeless dress her body kept its limp immobility, and her dark eyes had the bright witch-like stare that disease of the spine sometimes gives.

The other woman was much smaller and more delicate. She sat curled up in an armchair near the stove, and when I walked in, she quickly turned her head toward me, without moving her body at all. Her hair was as gray as her companion’s, and her face was pale and wrinkled, but with an amber tint, highlighted by dark shadows that sharpened her nose and hollowed her temples. Beneath her shapeless dress, her body remained limply still, and her dark eyes had a bright, witch-like stare that a spinal disease can sometimes cause.

Even for that part of the country the kitchen was a poor-looking place. With the exception of the dark-eyed woman’s chair, which looked like a soiled relic of luxury bought at a country auction, the furniture was of the roughest kind. Three coarse china plates and a broken-nosed milk-jug had been set on a greasy table scored with knife-cuts, and a couple of straw-bottomed chairs and a kitchen dresser of unpainted pine stood meagrely against the plaster walls.

Even for that part of the country, the kitchen looked shabby. Aside from the dark-eyed woman’s chair, which seemed like a dirty remnant of luxury bought at a country auction, the furniture was really basic. Three rough china plates and a chipped milk jug were placed on a greasy table marked with knife cuts, and a couple of straw-bottomed chairs along with an unpainted pine kitchen dresser stood sparsely against the plaster walls.

“My, it’s cold here! The fire must be ’most out,” Frome said, glancing about him apologetically as he followed me in.

“Wow, it’s really cold in here! The fire must be almost out,” Frome said, looking around apologetically as he followed me in.

The tall woman, who had moved away from us toward the dresser, took no notice; but the other, from her cushioned niche, answered complainingly, in a high thin voice. “It’s on’y just been made up this very minute. Zeena fell asleep and slep’ ever so long, and I thought I’d be frozen stiff before I could wake her up and get her to ’tend to it.”

The tall woman, who had stepped away from us toward the dresser, didn’t seem to care; but the other woman, from her comfy spot, responded with a whine, in a high-pitched voice. “It’s only just been made up this very minute. Zeena fell asleep and slept for a long time, and I thought I’d freeze before I could wake her up and get her to take care of it.”

I knew then that it was she who had been speaking when we entered.

I realized then that it was her voice we had heard when we walked in.

Her companion, who was just coming back to the table with the remains of a cold mince-pie in a battered pie-dish, set down her unappetising burden without appearing to hear the accusation brought against her.

Her friend, who was just returning to the table with the leftovers of a cold mince pie in a worn pie dish, set down her unappealing load without seeming to notice the accusation directed at her.

Frome stood hesitatingly before her as she advanced; then he looked at me and said: “This is my wife, Mis’ Frome.” After another interval he added, turning toward the figure in the arm-chair: “And this is Miss Mattie Silver....”

Frome stood uncertainly in front of her as she moved closer; then he glanced at me and said, “This is my wife, Ms. Frome.” After a brief pause, he added, turning toward the person in the armchair, “And this is Miss Mattie Silver....”


Mrs. Hale, tender soul, had pictured me as lost in the Flats and buried under a snow-drift; and so lively was her satisfaction on seeing me safely restored to her the next morning that I felt my peril had caused me to advance several degrees in her favour.

Mrs. Hale, kind-hearted as she was, imagined me getting lost in the Flats and buried under a snowdrift; and she was so genuinely happy to see me back safe the next morning that I felt my close call had improved my standing with her.

Great was her amazement, and that of old Mrs. Varnum, on learning that Ethan Frome’s old horse had carried me to and from Corbury Junction through the worst blizzard of the winter; greater still their surprise when they heard that his master had taken me in for the night.

Great was her amazement, and that of old Mrs. Varnum, on learning that Ethan Frome’s old horse had carried me to and from Corbury Junction through the worst blizzard of the winter; even greater was their surprise when they heard that his master had taken me in for the night.

Beneath their wondering exclamations I felt a secret curiosity to know what impressions I had received from my night in the Frome household, and divined that the best way of breaking down their reserve was to let them try to penetrate mine. I therefore confined myself to saying, in a matter-of-fact tone, that I had been received with great kindness, and that Frome had made a bed for me in a room on the ground-floor which seemed in happier days to have been fitted up as a kind of writing-room or study.

Beneath their amazed comments, I felt a hidden curiosity about the impressions I had gotten from my night at the Frome household, and I figured that the best way to break down their reluctance was to let them try to understand mine. So, I simply said, in a straightforward tone, that I had been welcomed warmly, and that Frome had made a bed for me in a room on the ground floor that seemed, in better days, to have served as a sort of writing room or study.

“Well,” Mrs. Hale mused, “in such a storm I suppose he felt he couldn’t do less than take you in—but I guess it went hard with Ethan. I don’t believe but what you’re the only stranger has set foot in that house for over twenty years. He’s that proud he don’t even like his oldest friends to go there; and I don’t know as any do, any more, except myself and the doctor....”

“Well,” Mrs. Hale reflected, “in a storm like this, I assume he felt he couldn’t do anything less than take you in—but I think it must have been tough for Ethan. I believe you’re probably the only stranger to step into that house in over twenty years. He’s so proud that he doesn’t even like his oldest friends visiting; and I’m not sure anyone does anymore, except for me and the doctor...”

“You still go there, Mrs. Hale?” I ventured.

“You still go there, Mrs. Hale?” I asked.

“I used to go a good deal after the accident, when I was first married; but after awhile I got to think it made ’em feel worse to see us. And then one thing and another came, and my own troubles.... But I generally make out to drive over there round about New Year’s, and once in the summer. Only I always try to pick a day when Ethan’s off somewheres. It’s bad enough to see the two women sitting there—but his face, when he looks round that bare place, just kills me.... You see, I can look back and call it up in his mother’s day, before their troubles.”

“I used to visit a lot after the accident, when I was newly married; but eventually, I started to think it made them feel worse to see us. Then, other things happened, along with my own struggles... But I usually manage to drive over there around New Year’s and once in the summer. I just try to choose a day when Ethan is out somewhere else. It’s hard enough to see the two women sitting there—but his face, when he looks around that empty place, just breaks my heart... You see, I can remember what it was like in his mother’s day, before their troubles began.”

Old Mrs. Varnum, by this time, had gone up to bed, and her daughter and I were sitting alone, after supper, in the austere seclusion of the horse-hair parlour. Mrs. Hale glanced at me tentatively, as though trying to see how much footing my conjectures gave her; and I guessed that if she had kept silence till now it was because she had been waiting, through all the years, for some one who should see what she alone had seen.

Old Mrs. Varnum had gone up to bed, and her daughter and I were sitting alone after dinner in the stark quiet of the horse-hair parlor. Mrs. Hale looked at me cautiously, as if trying to gauge how much my guesses meant to her; I realized that if she had stayed silent until now, it was because she had been waiting all these years for someone to understand what only she had seen.

I waited to let her trust in me gather strength before I said: “Yes, it’s pretty bad, seeing all three of them there together.”

I waited for her trust in me to build up before I said, “Yeah, it’s pretty rough seeing all three of them there together.”

She drew her mild brows into a frown of pain. “It was just awful from the beginning. I was here in the house when they were carried up—they laid Mattie Silver in the room you’re in. She and I were great friends, and she was to have been my bridesmaid in the spring.... When she came to I went up to her and stayed all night. They gave her things to quiet her, and she didn’t know much till to’rd morning, and then all of a sudden she woke up just like herself, and looked straight at me out of her big eyes, and said.... Oh, I don’t know why I’m telling you all this,” Mrs. Hale broke off, crying.

She furrowed her delicate brows in a pained frown. “It was just terrible from the start. I was in the house when they brought them up—they laid Mattie Silver in the room you’re in. She and I were really close friends, and she was supposed to be my bridesmaid in the spring.... When she woke up, I went to her and stayed all night. They gave her medication to calm her down, and she wasn't aware of much until around morning, and then suddenly she woke up just like herself, looked right at me with her big eyes, and said.... Oh, I don’t know why I’m telling you all this,” Mrs. Hale broke off, crying.

She took off her spectacles, wiped the moisture from them, and put them on again with an unsteady hand. “It got about the next day,” she went on, “that Zeena Frome had sent Mattie off in a hurry because she had a hired girl coming, and the folks here could never rightly tell what she and Ethan were doing that night coasting, when they’d ought to have been on their way to the Flats to ketch the train.... I never knew myself what Zeena thought—I don’t to this day. Nobody knows Zeena’s thoughts. Anyhow, when she heard o’ the accident she came right in and stayed with Ethan over to the minister’s, where they’d carried him. And as soon as the doctors said that Mattie could be moved, Zeena sent for her and took her back to the farm.”

She took off her glasses, wiped them clean, and put them back on with a shaky hand. “The next day, it got around that Zeena Frome had rushed Mattie out because she had a hired girl coming, and people here could never really figure out what she and Ethan were doing that night sledding, when they should’ve been headed to the Flats to catch the train.... I never really knew what Zeena thought—I still don’t to this day. Nobody knows what Zeena is thinking. Anyway, when she heard about the accident, she went right in and stayed with Ethan at the minister’s house, where they took him. And as soon as the doctors said that Mattie could be moved, Zeena sent for her and took her back to the farm.”

“And there she’s been ever since?”

“And she’s been there ever since?”

Mrs. Hale answered simply: “There was nowhere else for her to go”; and my heart tightened at the thought of the hard compulsions of the poor.

Mrs. Hale answered plainly: “There was nowhere else for her to go”; and my heart ached at the thought of the harsh realities faced by the poor.

“Yes, there she’s been,” Mrs. Hale continued, “and Zeena’s done for her, and done for Ethan, as good as she could. It was a miracle, considering how sick she was—but she seemed to be raised right up just when the call came to her. Not as she’s ever given up doctoring, and she’s had sick spells right along; but she’s had the strength given her to care for those two for over twenty years, and before the accident came she thought she couldn’t even care for herself.”

“Yes, she’s been there,” Mrs. Hale continued, “and Zeena's been there for her, and for Ethan, as much as she can. It’s a miracle, especially considering how sick she was—but she seemed to rally just when the call came for her. Not that she’s ever stopped going to the doctor, and she’s had her share of health issues all along; but she’s had the strength to look after those two for over twenty years, and before the accident, she thought she couldn’t even take care of herself.”

Mrs. Hale paused a moment, and I remained silent, plunged in the vision of what her words evoked. “It’s horrible for them all,” I murmured.

Mrs. Hale paused for a moment, and I stayed quiet, lost in the image her words brought to mind. “It’s awful for them all,” I said quietly.

“Yes: it’s pretty bad. And they ain’t any of ’em easy people either. Mattie was, before the accident; I never knew a sweeter nature. But she’s suffered too much—that’s what I always say when folks tell me how she’s soured. And Zeena, she was always cranky. Not but what she bears with Mattie wonderful—I’ve seen that myself. But sometimes the two of them get going at each other, and then Ethan’s face’d break your heart.... When I see that, I think it’s him that suffers most... anyhow it ain’t Zeena, because she ain’t got the time.... It’s a pity, though,” Mrs. Hale ended, sighing, “that they’re all shut up there’n that one kitchen. In the summertime, on pleasant days, they move Mattie into the parlour, or out in the door-yard, and that makes it easier... but winters there’s the fires to be thought of; and there ain’t a dime to spare up at the Fromes.’”

“Yes, it’s pretty bad. And none of them are easy to deal with either. Mattie was before the accident; I never knew anyone sweeter. But she’s been through too much—that’s what I always say when people mention how she’s turned sour. And Zeena was always cranky. Not that she doesn’t put up with Mattie really well—I’ve seen that myself. But sometimes they really go at each other, and seeing Ethan during those times would break your heart.... When I notice that, I think it’s him who suffers the most... anyway, it’s not Zeena, because she doesn’t have the time.... It’s a shame, though,” Mrs. Hale concluded, sighing, “that they’re all stuck in that one kitchen. In the summer, on nice days, they move Mattie into the parlor, or out into the yard, and that makes things easier... but in winter, there's the fire to think about; and there’s not a dime to spare at the Fromes.’”

Mrs. Hale drew a deep breath, as though her memory were eased of its long burden, and she had no more to say; but suddenly an impulse of complete avowal seized her.

Mrs. Hale took a deep breath, as if her memory had been relieved of its heavy weight, and she felt she had nothing more to say; but suddenly, a strong urge to confess everything overcame her.

She took off her spectacles again, leaned toward me across the bead-work table-cover, and went on with lowered voice: “There was one day, about a week after the accident, when they all thought Mattie couldn’t live. Well, I say it’s a pity she did. I said it right out to our minister once, and he was shocked at me. Only he wasn’t with me that morning when she first came to.... And I say, if she’d ha’ died, Ethan might ha’ lived; and the way they are now, I don’t see’s there’s much difference between the Fromes up at the farm and the Fromes down in the graveyard; ’cept that down there they’re all quiet, and the women have got to hold their tongues.”

She took off her glasses again, leaned toward me across the beaded tablecloth, and continued in a lower voice: “There was one day, about a week after the accident, when everyone thought Mattie wouldn’t make it. Well, I think it’s a shame she did. I said it straight to our minister once, and he was really surprised. But he wasn’t with me that morning when she first came to.... And I believe that if she had died, Ethan might have lived; and the way things are now, I don’t see much difference between the Fromes up at the farm and the Fromes down in the graveyard; except that down there, they’re all quiet, and the women have to keep their mouths shut.”


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