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The Woodlanders
by Thomas Hardy
Contents
CHAPTER I.
The rambler who, for old association or other reasons, should trace the forsaken coach-road running almost in a meridional line from Bristol to the south shore of England, would find himself during the latter half of his journey in the vicinity of some extensive woodlands, interspersed with apple-orchards. Here the trees, timber or fruit-bearing, as the case may be, make the wayside hedges ragged by their drip and shade, stretching over the road with easeful horizontality, as if they found the unsubstantial air an adequate support for their limbs. At one place, where a hill is crossed, the largest of the woods shows itself bisected by the high-way, as the head of thick hair is bisected by the white line of its parting. The spot is lonely.
The hiker who, for nostalgic reasons or other motivations, decides to follow the abandoned coach road that runs almost straight from Bristol to the southern coast of England will find himself, during the second half of the journey, near some vast woodlands mixed with apple orchards. Here, the trees—whether they are timber or fruit-bearing—create ragged edges along the roadside with their dripping leaves and shade, stretching over the road in a relaxed manner, as if they find the light air a sufficient support for their branches. At one point, where a hill is crossed, the largest woodland is split in two by the highway, like a thick head of hair divided by a white parting line. The area is isolated.
The physiognomy of a deserted highway expresses solitude to a degree that is not reached by mere dales or downs, and bespeaks a tomb-like stillness more emphatic than that of glades and pools. The contrast of what is with what might be probably accounts for this. To step, for instance, at the place under notice, from the hedge of the plantation into the adjoining pale thoroughfare, and pause amid its emptiness for a moment, was to exchange by the act of a single stride the simple absence of human companionship for an incubus of the forlorn.
The look of an empty highway shows solitude in a way that rolling hills and valleys just can't match, creating a stillness that's more intense than quiet forest clearings and ponds. This difference between reality and possibility likely explains this feeling. For example, stepping from the edge of the woods onto the empty road and pausing there for just a moment was like trading the mere lack of people for a heavy sense of loneliness.
At this spot, on the lowering evening of a by-gone winter’s day, there stood a man who had entered upon the scene much in the aforesaid manner. Alighting into the road from a stile hard by, he, though by no means a “chosen vessel” for impressions, was temporarily influenced by some such feeling of being suddenly more alone than before he had emerged upon the highway.
At this place, on the fading evening of a past winter day, there stood a man who had arrived in the way mentioned earlier. Climbing down from a nearby stile, he, although not particularly sensitive or open to new experiences, felt a sudden sense of isolation, more so than he had felt before stepping onto the road.
It could be seen by a glance at his rather finical style of dress that he did not belong to the country proper; and from his air, after a while, that though there might be a sombre beauty in the scenery, music in the breeze, and a wan procession of coaching ghosts in the sentiment of this old turnpike-road, he was mainly puzzled about the way. The dead men’s work that had been expended in climbing that hill, the blistered soles that had trodden it, and the tears that had wetted it, were not his concern; for fate had given him no time for any but practical things.
It was clear from a quick look at his overly fancy style of dress that he wasn’t from the area; and after a while, it became obvious from his demeanor that even though the scenery had a dark kind of beauty, the breeze carried music, and there was a haunting sense of the past on this old toll road, he was mostly confused about the direction. The efforts of those who had died working to climb that hill, the sore feet that had walked it, and the tears that had fallen on it were not his concern; fate had left him with no time for anything but practical matters.
He looked north and south, and mechanically prodded the ground with his walking-stick. A closer glance at his face corroborated the testimony of his clothes. It was self-complacent, yet there was small apparent ground for such complacence. Nothing irradiated it; to the eye of the magician in character, if not to the ordinary observer, the expression enthroned there was absolute submission to and belief in a little assortment of forms and habitudes.
He looked north and south and absentmindedly poked the ground with his walking stick. A closer look at his face confirmed what his clothes suggested. He seemed pleased with himself, even though there was little reason for it. Nothing lit up his expression; to someone insightful about character, if not to an average onlooker, the look on his face showed complete submission to and belief in a small collection of routines and behaviors.
At first not a soul appeared who could enlighten him as he desired, or seemed likely to appear that night. But presently a slight noise of laboring wheels and the steady dig of a horse’s shoe-tips became audible; and there loomed in the notch of the hill and plantation that the road formed here at the summit a carrier’s van drawn by a single horse. When it got nearer, he said, with some relief to himself, “’Tis Mrs. Dollery’s—this will help me.”
At first, no one showed up who could help him like he wanted, or seemed likely to that night. But soon, he could hear the faint noise of working wheels and the steady clop of a horse's hooves. A little further down the road, at the top of the hill and the trees, a carrier's van pulled by a single horse came into view. As it got closer, he said to himself with some relief, “It’s Mrs. Dollery’s—this will help me.”
The vehicle was half full of passengers, mostly women. He held up his stick at its approach, and the woman who was driving drew rein.
The vehicle was half full of passengers, mostly women. He raised his stick as it got closer, and the woman who was driving pulled back the reins.
“I’ve been trying to find a short way to Little Hintock this last half-hour, Mrs. Dollery,” he said. “But though I’ve been to Great Hintock and Hintock House half a dozen times I am at fault about the small village. You can help me, I dare say?”
“I’ve been trying to find a quick way to Little Hintock for the last half hour, Mrs. Dollery,” he said. “But even though I’ve been to Great Hintock and Hintock House half a dozen times, I’m stuck when it comes to the small village. You can help me, I’m sure?”
She assured him that she could—that as she went to Great Hintock her van passed near it—that it was only up the lane that branched out of the lane into which she was about to turn—just ahead. “Though,” continued Mrs. Dollery, “’tis such a little small place that, as a town gentleman, you’d need have a candle and lantern to find it if ye don’t know where ’tis. Bedad! I wouldn’t live there if they’d pay me to. Now at Great Hintock you do see the world a bit.”
She assured him that she could—because on her way to Great Hintock, her van passed nearby—that it was just up the lane branching off the one she was about to turn onto—right ahead. “Though,” continued Mrs. Dollery, “it’s such a tiny place that, as a city guy, you’d need a candle and a lantern to find it if you don’t know where it is. Honestly! I wouldn’t live there if they paid me to. Now at Great Hintock, you actually see a bit of the world.”
He mounted and sat beside her, with his feet outside, where they were ever and anon brushed over by the horse’s tail.
He got on and sat next to her, with his feet outside, where they were occasionally swished by the horse's tail.
This van, driven and owned by Mrs. Dollery, was rather a movable attachment of the roadway than an extraneous object, to those who knew it well. The old horse, whose hair was of the roughness and color of heather, whose leg-joints, shoulders, and hoofs were distorted by harness and drudgery from colthood—though if all had their rights, he ought, symmetrical in outline, to have been picking the herbage of some Eastern plain instead of tugging here—had trodden this road almost daily for twenty years. Even his subjection was not made congruous throughout, for the harness being too short, his tail was not drawn through the crupper, so that the breeching slipped awkwardly to one side. He knew every subtle incline of the seven or eight miles of ground between Hintock and Sherton Abbas—the market-town to which he journeyed—as accurately as any surveyor could have learned it by a Dumpy level.
This van, owned and driven by Mrs. Dollery, was more like a part of the road than just an object to those who knew it well. The old horse, with rough, heather-colored fur, and legs, shoulders, and hooves misshapen from years of harness and hard work—though he should have been roaming freely on some Eastern plain if things were fair—had been traveling this road almost daily for twenty years. Even his situation wasn't entirely comfortable, since the harness was too short, leaving his tail awkwardly outside the crupper and causing the breeching to slip to one side. He knew every subtle incline of the seven or eight miles between Hintock and Sherton Abbas—the market town he visited—better than any surveyor could have mapped it out.
The vehicle had a square black tilt which nodded with the motion of the wheels, and at a point in it over the driver’s head was a hook to which the reins were hitched at times, when they formed a catenary curve from the horse’s shoulders. Somewhere about the axles was a loose chain, whose only known purpose was to clink as it went. Mrs. Dollery, having to hop up and down many times in the service of her passengers, wore, especially in windy weather, short leggings under her gown for modesty’s sake, and instead of a bonnet a felt hat tied down with a handkerchief, to guard against an earache to which she was frequently subject. In the rear of the van was a glass window, which she cleaned with her pocket-handkerchief every market-day before starting. Looking at the van from the back, the spectator could thus see through its interior a square piece of the same sky and landscape that he saw without, but intruded on by the profiles of the seated passengers, who, as they rumbled onward, their lips moving and heads nodding in animated private converse, remained in happy unconsciousness that their mannerisms and facial peculiarities were sharply defined to the public eye.
The vehicle had a square black top that swayed with the movement of the wheels, and over the driver’s head, there was a hook where the reins were sometimes fastened, creating a downward curve from the horse’s shoulders. Somewhere near the axles was a loose chain that only served to clink as it moved. Mrs. Dollery, who had to hop up and down many times to help her passengers, wore short leggings under her dress for modesty, especially on windy days, and instead of a bonnet, she wore a felt hat tied down with a handkerchief to protect against earaches, which she often had. At the back of the van was a glass window that she cleaned with her pocket handkerchief every market day before starting. Looking at the van from the back, a spectator could see through the interior a square piece of the same sky and landscape visible outside, but it was interrupted by the silhouettes of the seated passengers, who, as they rumbled along, chatted animatedly, unaware that their gestures and facial quirks were clearly visible to anyone watching.
This hour of coming home from market was the happy one, if not the happiest, of the week for them. Snugly ensconced under the tilt, they could forget the sorrows of the world without, and survey life and recapitulate the incidents of the day with placid smiles.
This hour of coming home from the market was the happy one, if not the happiest, of the week for them. Cozy under the cover, they could forget the troubles of the outside world and reflect on the day’s events with peaceful smiles.
The passengers in the back part formed a group to themselves, and while the new-comer spoke to the proprietress, they indulged in a confidential chat about him as about other people, which the noise of the van rendered inaudible to himself and Mrs. Dollery, sitting forward.
The passengers in the back organized themselves into a group, and while the newcomer talked to the owner, they engaged in a private conversation about him just like they would about anyone else, a discussion that the noise of the van made inaudible to him and Mrs. Dollery, who were seated up front.
“’Tis Barber Percombe—he that’s got the waxen woman in his window at the top of Abbey Street,” said one. “What business can bring him from his shop out here at this time and not a journeyman hair-cutter, but a master-barber that’s left off his pole because ’tis not genteel!”
"That's Barber Percombe—he's the one with the wax figure of a woman in his window at the top of Abbey Street," said one. "What could possibly bring him out here from his shop at this time, and not just a regular barber, but a master barber who has taken down his pole because it's not fashionable!"
They listened to his conversation, but Mr. Percombe, though he had nodded and spoken genially, seemed indisposed to gratify the curiosity which he had aroused; and the unrestrained flow of ideas which had animated the inside of the van before his arrival was checked thenceforward.
They listened to his conversation, but Mr. Percombe, even though he had nodded and spoken kindly, didn’t seem willing to satisfy the curiosity he had stirred up; and the free exchange of ideas that had filled the inside of the van before he arrived came to a halt from that point on.
Thus they rode on till they turned into a half-invisible little lane, whence, as it reached the verge of an eminence, could be discerned in the dusk, about half a mile to the right, gardens and orchards sunk in a concave, and, as it were, snipped out of the woodland. From this self-contained place rose in stealthy silence tall stems of smoke, which the eye of imagination could trace downward to their root on quiet hearth-stones festooned overhead with hams and flitches. It was one of those sequestered spots outside the gates of the world where may usually be found more meditation than action, and more passivity than meditation; where reasoning proceeds on narrow premises, and results in inferences wildly imaginative; yet where, from time to time, no less than in other places, dramas of a grandeur and unity truly Sophoclean are enacted in the real, by virtue of the concentrated passions and closely knit interdependence of the lives therein.
So they continued riding until they turned onto a barely visible little lane, where, as it reached the top of a rise, you could see in the dusk about half a mile to the right, gardens and orchards nestled in a dip, as if carved out of the surrounding woods. From this secluded spot, wisps of smoke quietly rose, which one could imagine drifting down to the calm hearths below, adorned with hanging hams and bacon. It was one of those secluded areas outside the hustle of the world, often filled with more thought than action, and more stillness than thought; where reasoning is based on limited ideas, leading to wildly imaginative conclusions; yet where, just like in other places, significant and unified dramas resembling those of Sophocles unfold in reality, due to the intense emotions and strong connections of the lives within.
This place was the Little Hintock of the master-barber’s search. The coming night gradually obscured the smoke of the chimneys, but the position of the sequestered little world could still be distinguished by a few faint lights, winking more or less ineffectually through the leafless boughs, and the undiscerned songsters they bore, in the form of balls of feathers, at roost among them.
This place was the Little Hintock that the master barber was looking for. The approaching night slowly covered the smoke from the chimneys, but the location of this hidden little world could still be seen by a few faint lights, flickering somewhat uselessly through the bare branches, along with the unseen birds resting among them, which were little balls of feathers.
Out of the lane followed by the van branched a yet smaller lane, at the corner of which the barber alighted, Mrs. Dollery’s van going on to the larger village, whose superiority to the despised smaller one as an exemplar of the world’s movements was not particularly apparent in its means of approach.
Out of the lane that the van followed, a smaller lane branched off, where the barber got out, while Mrs. Dollery's van continued on to the bigger village, which didn't really show its superiority over the smaller one in how you got there.
“A very clever and learned young doctor, who, they say, is in league with the devil, lives in the place you be going to—not because there’s anybody for’n to cure there, but because ’tis the middle of his district.”
“A very smart and knowledgeable young doctor, who they say is in cahoots with the devil, lives in the place you’re heading to—not because there’s anyone there to treat, but because it’s in the center of his area.”
The observation was flung at the barber by one of the women at parting, as a last attempt to get at his errand that way.
The comment was tossed at the barber by one of the women as they were leaving, as a final effort to find out what he was up to.
But he made no reply, and without further pause the pedestrian plunged towards the umbrageous nook, and paced cautiously over the dead leaves which nearly buried the road or street of the hamlet. As very few people except themselves passed this way after dark, a majority of the denizens of Little Hintock deemed window-curtains unnecessary; and on this account Mr. Percombe made it his business to stop opposite the casements of each cottage that he came to, with a demeanor which showed that he was endeavoring to conjecture, from the persons and things he observed within, the whereabouts of somebody or other who resided here.
But he didn't respond, and without hesitating, the pedestrian moved toward the shaded corner and walked carefully over the dead leaves that nearly covered the path in the village. Since very few people besides them walked this way after dark, most of the residents of Little Hintock thought window curtains were unnecessary; for this reason, Mr. Percombe made it his mission to stop in front of each cottage he passed, with a demeanor that indicated he was trying to figure out, based on the people and things he saw inside, where someone who lived there might be.
Only the smaller dwellings interested him; one or two houses, whose size, antiquity, and rambling appurtenances signified that notwithstanding their remoteness they must formerly have been, if they were not still, inhabited by people of a certain social standing, being neglected by him entirely. Smells of pomace, and the hiss of fermenting cider, which reached him from the back quarters of other tenements, revealed the recent occupation of some of the inhabitants, and joined with the scent of decay from the perishing leaves underfoot.
Only the smaller houses caught his attention; one or two homes, whose size, age, and scattered additions indicated that despite their isolation, they must have once been, if not still, lived in by people of a certain social status, completely ignored by him. The odors of pomace and the bubbling sound of fermenting cider drifting from the back of other buildings hinted at the recent activities of some residents, mixing with the smell of decay from the dying leaves beneath him.
Half a dozen dwellings were passed without result. The next, which stood opposite a tall tree, was in an exceptional state of radiance, the flickering brightness from the inside shining up the chimney and making a luminous mist of the emerging smoke. The interior, as seen through the window, caused him to draw up with a terminative air and watch. The house was rather large for a cottage, and the door, which opened immediately into the living-room, stood ajar, so that a ribbon of light fell through the opening into the dark atmosphere without. Every now and then a moth, decrepit from the late season, would flit for a moment across the out-coming rays and disappear again into the night.
Half a dozen houses were passed without any luck. The next one, which was in front of a tall tree, was exceptionally bright, with flickering light from inside shining up the chimney and creating a glowing mist from the smoke rising. The view inside through the window made him stop abruptly and watch. The house was rather large for a cottage, and the door, which opened directly into the living room, was slightly open, allowing a beam of light to spill out into the dark outside. Every now and then, a tired moth, late in the season, would flutter momentarily across the outgoing rays and then vanish back into the night.
CHAPTER II.
In the room from which this cheerful blaze proceeded, he beheld a girl seated on a willow chair, and busily occupied by the light of the fire, which was ample and of wood. With a bill-hook in one hand and a leather glove, much too large for her, on the other, she was making spars, such as are used by thatchers, with great rapidity. She wore a leather apron for this purpose, which was also much too large for her figure. On her left hand lay a bundle of the straight, smooth sticks called spar-gads—the raw material of her manufacture; on her right, a heap of chips and ends—the refuse—with which the fire was maintained; in front, a pile of the finished articles. To produce them she took up each gad, looked critically at it from end to end, cut it to length, split it into four, and sharpened each of the quarters with dexterous blows, which brought it to a triangular point precisely resembling that of a bayonet.
In the room where this cheerful fire was shining, he saw a girl sitting in a willow chair, busy at work by the bright light of the fire, which was large and made of wood. With a bill-hook in one hand and a leather glove that was way too big for her on the other, she was quickly making spars, like those used by thatchers. She wore a leather apron for the job, which was also much too big for her frame. To her left was a bundle of straight, smooth sticks called spar-gads—the raw material she was using; to her right was a pile of chips and scraps—the waste—used to keep the fire going; in front of her was a stack of the finished products. To create them, she picked up each gad, inspected it closely from end to end, cut it to the right length, split it into four parts, and sharpened each quarter with skillful blows, forming a triangular point that looked just like a bayonet.
Beside her, in case she might require more light, a brass candlestick stood on a little round table, curiously formed of an old coffin-stool, with a deal top nailed on, the white surface of the latter contrasting oddly with the black carved oak of the substructure. The social position of the household in the past was almost as definitively shown by the presence of this article as that of an esquire or nobleman by his old helmets or shields. It had been customary for every well-to-do villager, whose tenure was by copy of court-roll, or in any way more permanent than that of the mere cotter, to keep a pair of these stools for the use of his own dead; but for the last generation or two a feeling of cui bono had led to the discontinuance of the custom, and the stools were frequently made use of in the manner described.
Beside her, in case she needed more light, a brass candlestick sat on a small round table, oddly made from an old coffin stool, with a wooden top nailed on. The white surface of the top contrasted strangely with the black carved oak of the base. The household's social status in the past was almost as clearly indicated by this item as it would be for an esquire or nobleman by their old helmets or shields. It used to be common for every well-off villager, whose property was held by copy of court-roll or in any way more permanent than that of a simple laborer, to keep a pair of these stools for their deceased. However, for the last generation or two, a sense of "what's the point?" led to the end of that tradition, and the stools were often used in the way described.
The young woman laid down the bill-hook for a moment and examined the palm of her right hand, which, unlike the other, was ungloved, and showed little hardness or roughness about it. The palm was red and blistering, as if this present occupation were not frequent enough with her to subdue it to what it worked in. As with so many right hands born to manual labor, there was nothing in its fundamental shape to bear out the physiological conventionalism that gradations of birth, gentle or mean, show themselves primarily in the form of this member. Nothing but a cast of the die of destiny had decided that the girl should handle the tool; and the fingers which clasped the heavy ash haft might have skilfully guided the pencil or swept the string, had they only been set to do it in good time.
The young woman put down the bill-hook for a moment and looked at the palm of her right hand, which, unlike the other, was bare and showed little hardness or roughness. The palm was red and blistered, as if this current job wasn’t something she did often enough to toughen it up for the work. Like so many hands that were meant for manual labor, there was nothing in its basic shape to support the idea that social class, whether high or low, is reflected primarily in the way a hand looks. It was just a twist of fate that decided she would wield the tool; and the fingers that gripped the heavy ash handle could have easily guided a pencil or played a stringed instrument if they had been trained for it in time.
Her face had the usual fulness of expression which is developed by a life of solitude. Where the eyes of a multitude beat like waves upon a countenance they seem to wear away its individuality; but in the still water of privacy every tentacle of feeling and sentiment shoots out in visible luxuriance, to be interpreted as readily as a child’s look by an intruder. In years she was no more than nineteen or twenty, but the necessity of taking thought at a too early period of life had forced the provisional curves of her childhood’s face to a premature finality. Thus she had but little pretension to beauty, save in one prominent particular—her hair. Its abundance made it almost unmanageable; its color was, roughly speaking, and as seen here by firelight, brown, but careful notice, or an observation by day, would have revealed that its true shade was a rare and beautiful approximation to chestnut.
Her face had the usual fullness of expression that comes from a life of solitude. Where the eyes of a crowd hit like waves against a face, they seem to wear away its uniqueness; but in the calm of privacy, every emotion and sentiment unfurls in visible abundance, easily understood by an outsider, much like reading a child's expression. She was only about nineteen or twenty, but the pressure to think deeply at such an early age had forced the soft contours of her childhood face to a premature maturity. So, she didn’t have much claim to beauty, except for one standout feature—her hair. Its fullness made it almost unmanageable; its color appeared, roughly speaking, brown in the firelight, but a closer look or daylight would reveal its true shade, which was a rare and beautiful chestnut.
On this one bright gift of Time to the particular victim of his now before us the new-comer’s eyes were fixed; meanwhile the fingers of his right hand mechanically played over something sticking up from his waistcoat-pocket—the bows of a pair of scissors, whose polish made them feebly responsive to the light within. In her present beholder’s mind the scene formed by the girlish spar-maker composed itself into a post-Raffaelite picture of extremest quality, wherein the girl’s hair alone, as the focus of observation, was depicted with intensity and distinctness, and her face, shoulders, hands, and figure in general, being a blurred mass of unimportant detail lost in haze and obscurity.
On this one bright gift of Time to the particular victim of his now before us, the new arrival's eyes were glued to the scene; meanwhile, the fingers of his right hand mindlessly toyed with something sticking out from his waistcoat pocket—the bows of a pair of scissors, whose shine made them faintly reflect the light around them. In the observer's mind, the scene created by the girl making sparklers turned into a post-Raffaelite painting of the highest quality, where the girl's hair, as the center of attention, was depicted with sharp clarity, while her face, shoulders, hands, and overall figure appeared as a blurred mass of unimportant detail lost in haze and obscurity.
He hesitated no longer, but tapped at the door and entered. The young woman turned at the crunch of his boots on the sanded floor, and exclaiming, “Oh, Mr. Percombe, how you frightened me!” quite lost her color for a moment.
He didn’t hesitate anymore; he knocked on the door and walked in. The young woman turned at the sound of his boots on the wooden floor and exclaimed, “Oh, Mr. Percombe, you scared me!” momentarily losing her color.
He replied, “You should shut your door—then you’d hear folk open it.”
He replied, “You should close your door—then you’d hear people opening it.”
“I can’t,” she said; “the chimney smokes so. Mr. Percombe, you look as unnatural out of your shop as a canary in a thorn-hedge. Surely you have not come out here on my account—for—”
“I can’t,” she said; “the chimney is smoking so much. Mr. Percombe, you look as out of place outside your shop as a canary in a thorn bush. Surely you didn’t come out here for my sake—for—”
“Yes—to have your answer about this.” He touched her head with his cane, and she winced. “Do you agree?” he continued. “It is necessary that I should know at once, as the lady is soon going away, and it takes time to make up.”
“Yes—to have your answer about this.” He tapped her head with his cane, and she flinched. “Do you agree?” he continued. “I need to know right away, as the lady is leaving soon, and it takes time to prepare.”
“Don’t press me—it worries me. I was in hopes you had thought no more of it. I can not part with it—so there!”
“Don’t push me—it makes me anxious. I was hoping you had forgotten about it. I can not let it go—so there!”
“Now, look here, Marty,” said the barber, sitting down on the coffin-stool table. “How much do you get for making these spars?”
“Now, listen, Marty,” said the barber, sitting down on the coffin-stool table. “How much do you make for creating these spars?”
“Hush—father’s up-stairs awake, and he don’t know that I am doing his work.”
“Hush—Dad’s upstairs awake, and he doesn’t know that I’m doing his work.”
“Well, now tell me,” said the man, more softly. “How much do you get?”
“Well, now tell me,” the man said more softly. “How much do you make?”
“Eighteenpence a thousand,” she said, reluctantly.
“Eighteen pence a thousand,” she said, hesitantly.
“Who are you making them for?”
“Who are you making those for?”
“Mr. Melbury, the timber-dealer, just below here.”
“Mr. Melbury, the wood dealer, just down here.”
“And how many can you make in a day?”
“And how many can you produce in a day?”
“In a day and half the night, three bundles—that’s a thousand and a half.”
“In a day and a half, three bundles—that’s one thousand five hundred.”
“Two and threepence.” The barber paused. “Well, look here,” he continued, with the remains of a calculation in his tone, which calculation had been the reduction to figures of the probable monetary magnetism necessary to overpower the resistant force of her present purse and the woman’s love of comeliness, “here’s a sovereign—a gold sovereign, almost new.” He held it out between his finger and thumb. “That’s as much as you’d earn in a week and a half at that rough man’s work, and it’s yours for just letting me snip off what you’ve got too much of.”
“Two and threepence.” The barber paused. “Well, look,” he continued, with the remnants of a calculation in his tone that reflected the estimated amount of money needed to outweigh the resistance of her current purse and her love for beauty, “here’s a sovereign—a gold sovereign, almost new.” He held it out between his finger and thumb. “That’s what you’d make in a week and a half doing that tough work, and it’s yours for just letting me cut off what you have too much of.”
The girl’s bosom moved a very little. “Why can’t the lady send to some other girl who don’t value her hair—not to me?” she exclaimed.
The girl’s chest moved slightly. “Why can’t the lady ask another girl who doesn't care about her hair—not me?” she exclaimed.
“Why, simpleton, because yours is the exact shade of her own, and ’tis a shade you can’t match by dyeing. But you are not going to refuse me now I’ve come all the way from Sherton o’ purpose?”
“Why, you fool, because yours is the exact shade of hers, and it's a shade you can't duplicate by dyeing. But you’re not going to turn me down now that I’ve come all the way from Sherton on purpose?”
“I say I won’t sell it—to you or anybody.”
“I’m telling you, I won’t sell it—to you or anyone else.”
“Now listen,” and he drew up a little closer beside her. “The lady is very rich, and won’t be particular to a few shillings; so I will advance to this on my own responsibility—I’ll make the one sovereign two, rather than go back empty-handed.”
“Now listen,” he said, moving a bit closer to her. “The lady is very wealthy and won’t mind a few extra coins; so I’ll take it upon myself to cover this—I’ll turn one sovereign into two rather than come back empty-handed.”
“No, no, no!” she cried, beginning to be much agitated. “You are a-tempting me, Mr. Percombe. You go on like the Devil to Dr. Faustus in the penny book. But I don’t want your money, and won’t agree. Why did you come? I said when you got me into your shop and urged me so much, that I didn’t mean to sell my hair!” The speaker was hot and stern.
“No, no, no!” she exclaimed, becoming quite upset. “You’re tempting me, Mr. Percombe. You’re acting like the Devil to Dr. Faustus in that cheap book. But I don’t want your money, and I won’t agree. Why did you come? I told you when you got me into your shop and pressured me so much that I didn’t mean to sell my hair!” The speaker was heated and firm.
“Marty, now hearken. The lady that wants it wants it badly. And, between you and me, you’d better let her have it. ’Twill be bad for you if you don’t.”
“Marty, listen up. The lady who wants it really wants it. And, just between us, you should probably let her have it. It'll be bad for you if you don't.”
“Bad for me? Who is she, then?”
“Bad for me? Who is she?”
The barber held his tongue, and the girl repeated the question.
The barber stayed silent, and the girl asked the question again.
“I am not at liberty to tell you. And as she is going abroad soon it makes no difference who she is at all.”
“I can't tell you. And since she’s leaving the country soon, it really doesn’t matter who she is anyway.”
“She wants it to go abroad wi’?”
“She wants it to go abroad with her?”
Percombe assented by a nod. The girl regarded him reflectively. “Barber Percombe,” she said, “I know who ’tis. ’Tis she at the House—Mrs. Charmond!”
Percombe nodded in agreement. The girl looked at him thoughtfully. “Barber Percombe,” she said, “I know who it is. It's her at the House—Mrs. Charmond!”
“That’s my secret. However, if you agree to let me have it, I’ll tell you in confidence.”
"That's my secret. But if you agree to let me have it, I'll share it with you in confidence."
“I’ll certainly not let you have it unless you tell me the truth. It is Mrs. Charmond.”
“I definitely won’t give it to you unless you tell me the truth. It’s Mrs. Charmond.”
The barber dropped his voice. “Well—it is. You sat in front of her in church the other day, and she noticed how exactly your hair matched her own. Ever since then she’s been hankering for it, and at last decided to get it. As she won’t wear it till she goes off abroad, she knows nobody will recognize the change. I’m commissioned to get it for her, and then it is to be made up. I shouldn’t have vamped all these miles for any less important employer. Now, mind—’tis as much as my business with her is worth if it should be known that I’ve let out her name; but honor between us two, Marty, and you’ll say nothing that would injure me?”
The barber lowered his voice. “Well—it is. You were sitting in front of her at church the other day, and she noticed how perfectly your hair matched hers. Ever since then, she’s been craving it, and finally decided to go for it. Since she won’t wear it until she goes abroad, she knows no one will recognize the change. I’ve been asked to get it for her, and then it needs to be styled. I wouldn’t have come all this way for anyone less important. Now, just know—this could really hurt my business if it gets out that I mentioned her name; but we have a bond, Marty, and you won’t say anything that could harm me, right?”
“I don’t wish to tell upon her,” said Marty, coolly. “But my hair is my own, and I’m going to keep it.”
“I don’t want to gossip about her,” Marty said casually. “But my hair is mine, and I’m going to keep it.”
“Now, that’s not fair, after what I’ve told you,” said the nettled barber. “You see, Marty, as you are in the same parish, and in one of her cottages, and your father is ill, and wouldn’t like to turn out, it would be as well to oblige her. I say that as a friend. But I won’t press you to make up your mind to-night. You’ll be coming to market to-morrow, I dare say, and you can call then. If you think it over you’ll be inclined to bring what I want, I know.”
“Now, that’s not fair, after what I’ve told you,” said the annoyed barber. “You see, Marty, since you live in the same neighborhood and in one of her cottages, and your dad is sick and wouldn’t want to be bothered, it would be a good idea to help her out. I’m saying this as a friend. But I won’t pressure you to decide tonight. You’ll be coming to the market tomorrow, I’m sure, and you can stop by then. If you think it through, I know you’ll be likely to bring what I need.”
“I’ve nothing more to say,” she answered.
“I have nothing more to say,” she replied.
Her companion saw from her manner that it was useless to urge her further by speech. “As you are a trusty young woman,” he said, “I’ll put these sovereigns up here for ornament, that you may see how handsome they are. Bring the hair to-morrow, or return the sovereigns.” He stuck them edgewise into the frame of a small mantle looking-glass. “I hope you’ll bring it, for your sake and mine. I should have thought she could have suited herself elsewhere; but as it’s her fancy it must be indulged if possible. If you cut it off yourself, mind how you do it so as to keep all the locks one way.” He showed her how this was to be done.
Her companion could tell from her behavior that trying to convince her with words was pointless. “Since you’re a reliable young woman,” he said, “I’ll display these coins here so you can see how nice they look. Bring the hair tomorrow, or return the coins.” He placed them upright in the frame of a small mirror. “I hope you’ll bring it, for both our sakes. I would have thought she could find someone else, but since it’s her choice, we should indulge it if we can. If you cut it off yourself, just be careful to keep all the strands going the same way.” He demonstrated how to do this.
“But I sha’nt,” she replied, with laconic indifference. “I value my looks too much to spoil ’em. She wants my hair to get another lover with; though if stories are true she’s broke the heart of many a noble gentleman already.”
“But I won’t,” she replied, with casual indifference. “I care too much about my looks to ruin them. She wants my hair to attract another lover; although if the rumors are true, she’s already broken the hearts of many noble gentlemen.”
“Lord, it’s wonderful how you guess things, Marty,” said the barber. “I’ve had it from them that know that there certainly is some foreign gentleman in her eye. However, mind what I ask.”
“Wow, it's impressive how you figure things out, Marty,” the barber said. “I've heard from reliable sources that there’s definitely some foreign guy in her sights. But, just remember what I’m asking.”
“She’s not going to get him through me.”
"She’s not going to get to him through me."
Percombe had retired as far as the door; he came back, planted his cane on the coffin-stool, and looked her in the face. “Marty South,” he said, with deliberate emphasis, “you’ve got a lover yourself, and that’s why you won’t let it go!”
Percombe had stepped back to the door; he returned, set his cane down on the coffin-stool, and stared her in the eye. “Marty South,” he said, with intentional emphasis, “you have a lover yourself, and that’s why you won’t let it go!”
She reddened so intensely as to pass the mild blush that suffices to heighten beauty; she put the yellow leather glove on one hand, took up the hook with the other, and sat down doggedly to her work without turning her face to him again. He regarded her head for a moment, went to the door, and with one look back at her, departed on his way homeward.
She blushed so deeply that it went beyond a simple flush that adds to beauty; she put on a yellow leather glove on one hand, picked up the hook with the other, and sat down determinedly to get back to work without looking at him again. He looked at her for a moment, went to the door, and with one last glance back at her, left for home.
Marty pursued her occupation for a few minutes, then suddenly laying down the bill-hook, she jumped up and went to the back of the room, where she opened a door which disclosed a staircase so whitely scrubbed that the grain of the wood was wellnigh sodden away by such cleansing. At the top she gently approached a bedroom, and without entering, said, “Father, do you want anything?”
Marty worked at her job for a few minutes, then suddenly putting down the bill-hook, she jumped up and went to the back of the room, where she opened a door that revealed a staircase so freshly scrubbed that the wood grain was almost completely worn away by all that cleaning. At the top, she quietly approached a bedroom and, without going in, asked, “Dad, do you need anything?”
A weak voice inside answered in the negative; adding, “I should be all right by to-morrow if it were not for the tree!”
A weak voice inside replied no, adding, “I should be fine by tomorrow if it weren't for the tree!”
“The tree again—always the tree! Oh, father, don’t worry so about that. You know it can do you no harm.”
“The tree again—always the tree! Oh, Dad, don’t stress so much about that. You know it can’t hurt you.”
“Who have ye had talking to ye down-stairs?”
“Who have you had talking to you downstairs?”
“A Sherton man called—nothing to trouble about,” she said, soothingly. “Father,” she went on, “can Mrs. Charmond turn us out of our house if she’s minded to?”
“A Sherton man called—nothing to worry about,” she said, soothingly. “Dad,” she continued, “can Mrs. Charmond kick us out of our house if she feels like it?”
“Turn us out? No. Nobody can turn us out till my poor soul is turned out of my body. ’Tis life-hold, like Ambrose Winterborne’s. But when my life drops ’twill be hers—not till then.” His words on this subject so far had been rational and firm enough. But now he lapsed into his moaning strain: “And the tree will do it—that tree will soon be the death of me.”
“Turn us out? No. No one can kick us out until my poor soul leaves my body. It’s like Ambrose Winterborne’s life-hold. But when my life ends, it’ll be hers—not until then.” His words on this matter had been reasonable and confident up to that point. But now he fell back into his complaining tone: “And the tree will do it—that tree will soon be the death of me.”
“Nonsense, you know better. How can it be?” She refrained from further speech, and descended to the ground-floor again.
“Nonsense, you know better. How can that be?” She held back from saying anything more and went back down to the ground floor.
“Thank Heaven, then,” she said to herself, “what belongs to me I keep.”
“Thank goodness,” she said to herself, “what’s mine, I keep.”
CHAPTER III.
The lights in the village went out, house after house, till there only remained two in the darkness. One of these came from a residence on the hill-side, of which there is nothing to say at present; the other shone from the window of Marty South. Precisely the same outward effect was produced here, however, by her rising when the clock struck ten and hanging up a thick cloth curtain. The door it was necessary to keep ajar in hers, as in most cottages, because of the smoke; but she obviated the effect of the ribbon of light through the chink by hanging a cloth over that also. She was one of those people who, if they have to work harder than their neighbors, prefer to keep the necessity a secret as far as possible; and but for the slight sounds of wood-splintering which came from within, no wayfarer would have perceived that here the cottager did not sleep as elsewhere.
The lights in the village went out, house by house, until only two remained in the darkness. One was from a house on the hillside, which isn’t important to mention right now; the other glowed from Marty South's window. The same effect was created here when she got up at ten o'clock and hung a thick curtain. She had to leave the door slightly open like most cottages to let the smoke out, but she blocked the beam of light coming through the gap by covering it with a cloth as well. She was the kind of person who, if she had to work harder than her neighbors, preferred to keep that a secret as much as possible; and if it weren't for the faint sounds of wood splintering coming from inside, no passerby would have noticed that this cottager was still awake while others slept.
Eleven, twelve, one o’clock struck; the heap of spars grew higher, and the pile of chips and ends more bulky. Even the light on the hill had now been extinguished; but still she worked on. When the temperature of the night without had fallen so low as to make her chilly, she opened a large blue umbrella to ward off the draught from the door. The two sovereigns confronted her from the looking-glass in such a manner as to suggest a pair of jaundiced eyes on the watch for an opportunity. Whenever she sighed for weariness she lifted her gaze towards them, but withdrew it quickly, stroking her tresses with her fingers for a moment, as if to assure herself that they were still secure. When the clock struck three she arose and tied up the spars she had last made in a bundle resembling those that lay against the wall.
Eleven, twelve, one o’clock struck; the stack of wood grew taller, and the heap of scraps and leftovers became bulkier. Even the light on the hill had now been turned off; but she kept working. When the night air got so cold that she started to shiver, she opened a large blue umbrella to block the draft from the door. The two coins glared at her from the mirror, looking like a pair of overly watchful eyes. Whenever she sighed from exhaustion, she looked up at them but quickly looked away, running her fingers through her hair for a moment, as if to reassure herself that it was still in place. When the clock struck three, she got up and tied up the wood pieces she had just made in a bundle that looked like the ones stacked against the wall.
She wrapped round her a long red woollen cravat and opened the door. The night in all its fulness met her flatly on the threshold, like the very brink of an absolute void, or the antemundane Ginnung-Gap believed in by her Teuton forefathers. For her eyes were fresh from the blaze, and here there was no street-lamp or lantern to form a kindly transition between the inner glare and the outer dark. A lingering wind brought to her ear the creaking sound of two over-crowded branches in the neighboring wood which were rubbing each other into wounds, and other vocalized sorrows of the trees, together with the screech of owls, and the fluttering tumble of some awkward wood-pigeon ill-balanced on its roosting-bough.
She wrapped a long red wool scarf around herself and opened the door. The full night confronted her flatly on the threshold, like standing at the edge of an absolute void, or the Ginnung-Gap that her Germanic ancestors believed in. Her eyes were still adjusting from the bright light inside, and there were no street lamps or lanterns to gently ease the transition from the bright indoors to the dark outdoors. A lingering wind carried to her ears the creaking sound of two overcrowded branches in the nearby woods rubbing against each other, causing wounds, along with the sorrowful calls of the trees, the screech of owls, and the clumsy fluttering of a wood pigeon struggling to balance on its roost.
But the pupils of her young eyes soon expanded, and she could see well enough for her purpose. Taking a bundle of spars under each arm, and guided by the serrated line of tree-tops against the sky, she went some hundred yards or more down the lane till she reached a long open shed, carpeted around with the dead leaves that lay about everywhere. Night, that strange personality, which within walls brings ominous introspectiveness and self-distrust, but under the open sky banishes such subjective anxieties as too trivial for thought, inspired Marty South with a less perturbed and brisker manner now. She laid the spars on the ground within the shed and returned for more, going to and fro till her whole manufactured stock were deposited here.
But the pupils of her young eyes quickly adjusted, and she could see well enough for what she needed. Grabbing a bundle of wood under each arm and following the jagged line of tree tops against the sky, she walked a few hundred yards down the path until she reached a long open shed, covered around with the dead leaves scattered everywhere. Night, that strange presence, which inside walls brings a sense of ominous introspection and self-doubt, but under the open sky dismisses such personal anxieties as too trivial to think about, gave Marty South a calmer and more energetic vibe now. She set the wood on the ground inside the shed and went back for more, making several trips until her entire stock was piled up there.
This erection was the wagon-house of the chief man of business hereabout, Mr. George Melbury, the timber, bark, and copse-ware merchant for whom Marty’s father did work of this sort by the piece. It formed one of the many rambling out-houses which surrounded his dwelling, an equally irregular block of building, whose immense chimneys could just be discerned even now. The four huge wagons under the shed were built on those ancient lines whose proportions have been ousted by modern patterns, their shapes bulging and curving at the base and ends like Trafalgar line-of-battle ships, with which venerable hulks, indeed, these vehicles evidenced a constructed spirit curiously in harmony. One was laden with sheep-cribs, another with hurdles, another with ash poles, and the fourth, at the foot of which she had placed her thatching-spars was half full of similar bundles.
This structure was the barn of the main businessman around here, Mr. George Melbury, who dealt in timber, bark, and copse-ware, and for whom Marty’s father did similar piecework. It was one of many sprawling outbuildings that surrounded his home, an equally irregular building, whose towering chimneys could still be seen from a distance. The four massive wagons under the shelter were designed in the old style, whose shapes have been replaced by modern designs; they bulged and curved at the base and ends like ships from the Trafalgar era, and these vehicles shared a surprisingly compatible spirit with those timeless vessels. One was loaded with sheep-cribs, another with hurdles, a third with ash poles, and the fourth, where she had placed her thatching spars, was half-full of similar bundles.
She was pausing a moment with that easeful sense of accomplishment which follows work done that has been a hard struggle in the doing, when she heard a woman’s voice on the other side of the hedge say, anxiously, “George!” In a moment the name was repeated, with “Do come indoors! What are you doing there?”
She paused for a moment, feeling that satisfying sense of accomplishment that comes after finishing a tough task, when she heard a woman’s voice from the other side of the hedge say, anxiously, “George!” In a moment, the name was repeated, along with, “Do come inside! What are you doing out there?”
The cart-house adjoined the garden, and before Marty had moved she saw enter the latter from the timber-merchant’s back door an elderly woman sheltering a candle with her hand, the light from which cast a moving thorn-pattern of shade on Marty’s face. Its rays soon fell upon a man whose clothes were roughly thrown on, standing in advance of the speaker. He was a thin, slightly stooping figure, with a small nervous mouth and a face cleanly shaven; and he walked along the path with his eyes bent on the ground. In the pair Marty South recognized her employer Melbury and his wife. She was the second Mrs. Melbury, the first having died shortly after the birth of the timber-merchant’s only child.
The cart-shed was next to the garden, and before Marty had moved, she saw an elderly woman come in from the timber merchant's back door, holding a candle in front of her, the light casting a moving thorn-pattern shadow on Marty's face. The light soon fell on a man whose clothes looked hastily put on, standing in front of the speaker. He was thin, slightly hunched, with a small nervous mouth and a clean-shaven face; he walked along the path, his eyes fixed on the ground. Marty recognized her employer, Melbury, and his wife. She was the second Mrs. Melbury, the first having passed away shortly after giving birth to the timber merchant's only child.
“’Tis no use to stay in bed,” he said, as soon as she came up to where he was pacing restlessly about. “I can’t sleep—I keep thinking of things, and worrying about the girl, till I’m quite in a fever of anxiety.” He went on to say that he could not think why “she (Marty knew he was speaking of his daughter) did not answer his letter. She must be ill—she must, certainly,” he said.
"It’s no use staying in bed," he said as soon as she reached him while he was pacing back and forth. "I can’t sleep—I keep thinking about things and worrying about the girl until I’m in a complete state of anxiety." He continued, saying he couldn’t understand why "she" (Marty knew he was talking about his daughter) hadn’t replied to his letter. "She must be sick—she must be, for sure," he said.
“No, no. ’Tis all right, George,” said his wife; and she assured him that such things always did appear so gloomy in the night-time, if people allowed their minds to run on them; that when morning came it was seen that such fears were nothing but shadows. “Grace is as well as you or I,” she declared.
“No, it's okay, George,” said his wife; and she assured him that things always seemed so gloomy at night if people let their minds dwell on them; that when morning came, it became clear that those fears were just shadows. “Grace is just as fine as you or I,” she declared.
But he persisted that she did not see all—that she did not see as much as he. His daughter’s not writing was only one part of his worry. On account of her he was anxious concerning money affairs, which he would never alarm his mind about otherwise. The reason he gave was that, as she had nobody to depend upon for a provision but himself, he wished her, when he was gone, to be securely out of risk of poverty.
But he insisted that she didn't see everything—that she didn't see as much as he did. His daughter’s lack of writing was just one part of his concern. Because of her, he was worried about financial matters, which he wouldn’t usually stress over. The reason he gave was that, since she had no one else to rely on for support but him, he wanted her to be safely protected from poverty when he was no longer around.
To this Mrs. Melbury replied that Grace would be sure to marry well, and that hence a hundred pounds more or less from him would not make much difference.
To this, Mrs. Melbury responded that Grace would definitely marry into a good family, and that an extra hundred pounds from him really wouldn’t make much of a difference.
Her husband said that that was what she, Mrs. Melbury, naturally thought; but there she was wrong, and in that lay the source of his trouble. “I have a plan in my head about her,” he said; “and according to my plan she won’t marry a rich man.”
Her husband said that was what she, Mrs. Melbury, naturally thought; but she was mistaken, and that was the root of his trouble. “I have a plan in mind for her,” he said; “and according to my plan, she won’t marry a rich man.”
“A plan for her not to marry well?” said his wife, surprised.
“A plan for her not to marry well?” his wife asked, surprised.
“Well, in one sense it is that,” replied Melbury. “It is a plan for her to marry a particular person, and as he has not so much money as she might expect, it might be called as you call it. I may not be able to carry it out; and even if I do, it may not be a good thing for her. I want her to marry Giles Winterborne.”
“Well, in a way it is that,” replied Melbury. “It’s a plan for her to marry a specific person, and since he doesn’t have as much money as she might hope for, it could be what you call it. I might not be able to make it happen; and even if I do, it might not be the best thing for her. I want her to marry Giles Winterborne.”
His companion repeated the name. “Well, it is all right,” she said, presently. “He adores the very ground she walks on; only he’s close, and won’t show it much.”
His companion repeated the name. “Well, that’s fine,” she said after a moment. “He worships the ground she walks on; he just keeps it to himself and doesn’t show it much.”
Marty South appeared startled, and could not tear herself away.
Marty South looked shocked and couldn't pull herself away.
Yes, the timber-merchant asserted, he knew that well enough. Winterborne had been interested in his daughter for years; that was what had led him into the notion of their union. And he knew that she used to have no objection to him. But it was not any difficulty about that which embarrassed him. It was that, since he had educated her so well, and so long, and so far above the level of daughters thereabout, it was wasting her to give her to a man of no higher standing than the young man in question.
Yes, the timber merchant said, he was well aware of that. Winterborne had been interested in his daughter for years; that was what had made him consider their marriage. And he knew she used to have no issues with him. But it wasn't that which made him uncomfortable. It was that, since he had educated her so well, for so long, and so far above the level of the other daughters around, it was wasting her to give her to a man of no higher standing than the young man in question.
“That’s what I have been thinking,” said Mrs. Melbury.
"That's what I've been thinking," said Mrs. Melbury.
“Well, then, Lucy, now you’ve hit it,” answered the timber-merchant, with feeling. “There lies my trouble. I vowed to let her marry him, and to make her as valuable as I could to him by schooling her as many years and as thoroughly as possible. I mean to keep my vow. I made it because I did his father a terrible wrong; and it was a weight on my conscience ever since that time till this scheme of making amends occurred to me through seeing that Giles liked her.”
“Well, Lucy, you’ve got it,” replied the timber merchant, genuinely. “That’s my issue. I promised to let her marry him and to prepare her as much as I could for him by educating her thoroughly for as many years as possible. I intend to keep my promise. I made it because I did a terrible wrong to his father, and it’s been a burden on my conscience ever since until this idea of making things right came to me when I realized that Giles liked her.”
“Wronged his father?” asked Mrs. Melbury.
“Did he betray his father?” asked Mrs. Melbury.
“Yes, grievously wronged him,” said her husband.
“Yes, he really wronged him,” said her husband.
“Well, don’t think of it to-night,” she urged. “Come indoors.”
“Well, don’t think about it tonight,” she urged. “Come inside.”
“No, no, the air cools my head. I shall not stay long.” He was silent a while; then he told her, as nearly as Marty could gather, that his first wife, his daughter Grace’s mother, was first the sweetheart of Winterborne’s father, who loved her tenderly, till he, the speaker, won her away from him by a trick, because he wanted to marry her himself. He sadly went on to say that the other man’s happiness was ruined by it; that though he married Winterborne’s mother, it was but a half-hearted business with him. Melbury added that he was afterwards very miserable at what he had done; but that as time went on, and the children grew up, and seemed to be attached to each other, he determined to do all he could to right the wrong by letting his daughter marry the lad; not only that, but to give her the best education he could afford, so as to make the gift as valuable a one as it lay in his power to bestow. “I still mean to do it,” said Melbury.
“No, no, the air clears my mind. I won’t be here long.” He was silent for a moment; then he told her, as best as Marty could understand, that his first wife, the mother of his daughter Grace, had once been the sweetheart of Winterborne’s father, who loved her deeply until he, the speaker, tricked him into losing her because he wanted to marry her himself. He sadly went on to explain that the other man’s happiness was destroyed by that; that although he married Winterborne’s mother, it was done without true commitment. Melbury added that he was very unhappy about what he had done later on; but as time passed and the children grew up and seemed to be fond of each other, he decided to do everything he could to correct the wrong by allowing his daughter to marry the boy. He also wanted to provide her with the best education he could afford, to make the gift as valuable as possible. “I still intend to do that,” said Melbury.
“Then do,” said she.
“Then do,” she said.
“But all these things trouble me,” said he; “for I feel I am sacrificing her for my own sin; and I think of her, and often come down here and look at this.”
“But all these things bother me,” he said; “because I feel like I’m sacrificing her for my own wrongdoing; and I think about her and often come down here to look at this.”
“Look at what?” asked his wife.
“Look at what?” his wife asked.
He took the candle from her hand, held it to the ground, and removed a tile which lay in the garden-path. “’Tis the track of her shoe that she made when she ran down here the day before she went away all those months ago. I covered it up when she was gone; and when I come here and look at it, I ask myself again, why should she be sacrificed to a poor man?”
He took the candle from her hand, lowered it to the ground, and lifted a tile from the garden path. “This is the imprint of her shoe from when she ran down here the day before she left all those months ago. I covered it up when she was gone; and when I come here and look at it, I wonder again, why should she have to be given up for a poor man?”
“It is not altogether a sacrifice,” said the woman. “He is in love with her, and he’s honest and upright. If she encourages him, what can you wish for more?”
“It’s not really a sacrifice,” said the woman. “He’s in love with her, and he’s honest and good. If she shows interest in him, what more could you want?”
“I wish for nothing definite. But there’s a lot of things possible for her. Why, Mrs. Charmond is wanting some refined young lady, I hear, to go abroad with her—as companion or something of the kind. She’d jump at Grace.”
“I don't want anything specific. But there are plenty of opportunities for her. I’ve heard that Mrs. Charmond is looking for a refined young lady to accompany her abroad—like a companion or something similar. She’d be thrilled to have Grace.”
“That’s all uncertain. Better stick to what’s sure.”
"That’s all up in the air. It's better to stick with what’s certain."
“True, true,” said Melbury; “and I hope it will be for the best. Yes, let me get ’em married up as soon as I can, so as to have it over and done with.” He continued looking at the imprint, while he added, “Suppose she should be dying, and never make a track on this path any more?”
“Yeah, that's true,” Melbury said. “I really hope it turns out well. Let me get them married as soon as I can, just to get it over with.” He kept looking at the imprint and added, “What if she were to pass away and never come down this path again?”
“She’ll write soon, depend upon’t. Come, ’tis wrong to stay here and brood so.”
"She'll write soon, trust me. Come on, it’s not good to stay here and sulk like this."
He admitted it, but said he could not help it. “Whether she write or no, I shall fetch her in a few days.” And thus speaking, he covered the track, and preceded his wife indoors.
He admitted it but said he couldn't help it. "Whether she writes or not, I’ll bring her in a few days." And saying this, he covered the trail and went inside ahead of his wife.
Melbury, perhaps, was an unlucky man in having within him the sentiment which could indulge in this foolish fondness about the imprint of a daughter’s footstep. Nature does not carry on her government with a view to such feelings, and when advancing years render the open hearts of those who possess them less dexterous than formerly in shutting against the blast, they must suffer “buffeting at will by rain and storm” no less than Little Celandines.
Melbury was probably an unfortunate man for having the sentiment that allowed him to indulge in this foolish attachment to the imprint of his daughter's footprint. Nature doesn’t manage her affairs with such feelings in mind, and as the years go by, those with open hearts often find it harder to shield themselves from the harshness of life. They end up “buffeted at will by rain and storm” just like the Little Celandines.
But her own existence, and not Mr. Melbury’s, was the centre of Marty’s consciousness, and it was in relation to this that the matter struck her as she slowly withdrew.
But her own existence, and not Mr. Melbury’s, was the center of Marty’s awareness, and it was in relation to this that the situation struck her as she slowly pulled away.
“That, then, is the secret of it all,” she said. “And Giles Winterborne is not for me, and the less I think of him the better.”
“That’s the secret of it all,” she said. “And Giles Winterborne isn’t for me, and the less I think about him, the better.”
She returned to her cottage. The sovereigns were staring at her from the looking-glass as she had left them. With a preoccupied countenance, and with tears in her eyes, she got a pair of scissors, and began mercilessly cutting off the long locks of her hair, arranging and tying them with their points all one way, as the barber had directed. Upon the pale scrubbed deal of the coffin-stool table they stretched like waving and ropy weeds over the washed gravel-bed of a clear stream.
She went back to her cottage. The coins were still staring at her from the mirror as she had left them. With a thoughtful expression and tears in her eyes, she grabbed a pair of scissors and started ruthlessly cutting off her long hair, arranging and tying the strands all in one direction, just as the barber had told her to. On the pale, scrubbed surface of the coffin-stool table, they lay like flowing, tangled weeds over the smooth gravel of a clear stream.
She would not turn again to the little looking-glass, out of humanity to herself, knowing what a deflowered visage would look back at her, and almost break her heart; she dreaded it as much as did her own ancestral goddess Sif the reflection in the pool after the rape of her locks by Loke the malicious. She steadily stuck to business, wrapped the hair in a parcel, and sealed it up, after which she raked out the fire and went to bed, having first set up an alarum made of a candle and piece of thread, with a stone attached.
She wouldn’t look into the small mirror again, out of compassion for herself, knowing that a ruined face would stare back at her and nearly break her heart; she feared it as much as her own ancestral goddess Sif feared her reflection in the water after Loke the malicious cut off her hair. She focused on her tasks, bundled the hair up in a parcel, and sealed it. After that, she emptied the fire and went to bed, first setting up an alarm made from a candle, a piece of thread, and a stone.
But such a reminder was unnecessary to-night. Having tossed till about five o’clock, Marty heard the sparrows walking down their long holes in the thatch above her sloping ceiling to their orifice at the eaves; whereupon she also arose, and descended to the ground-floor again.
But such a reminder was unnecessary tonight. After tossing and turning until about five o’clock, Marty heard the sparrows moving down their long holes in the thatch above her sloping ceiling to their spot at the eaves; then she also got up and went down to the ground floor again.
It was still dark, but she began moving about the house in those automatic initiatory acts and touches which represent among housewives the installation of another day. While thus engaged she heard the rumbling of Mr. Melbury’s wagons, and knew that there, too, the day’s toil had begun.
It was still dark, but she started moving around the house, going through those familiar morning routines that for housewives signal the start of a new day. While doing this, she heard the sound of Mr. Melbury’s wagons and realized that, there as well, the workday had begun.
An armful of gads thrown on the still hot embers caused them to blaze up cheerfully and bring her diminished head-gear into sudden prominence as a shadow. At this a step approached the door.
An armful of sticks tossed onto the still hot embers made them flare up brightly, casting her reduced headgear into sudden shadowy prominence. At this, someone stepped closer to the door.
“Are folk astir here yet?” inquired a voice she knew well.
“Is everyone up and about here yet?” asked a voice she recognized.
“Yes, Mr. Winterborne,” said Marty, throwing on a tilt bonnet, which completely hid the recent ravages of the scissors. “Come in!”
“Yes, Mr. Winterborne,” said Marty, putting on a tilted hat that completely covered the recent damage from the scissors. “Come in!”
The door was flung back, and there stepped in upon the mat a man not particularly young for a lover, nor particularly mature for a person of affairs. There was reserve in his glance, and restraint upon his mouth. He carried a horn lantern which hung upon a swivel, and wheeling as it dangled marked grotesque shapes upon the shadier part of the walls.
The door swung open, and a man entered onto the mat. He wasn't particularly young for a lover, nor was he particularly old for someone involved in business. His eyes held a sense of restraint, and there was a tightness in his lips. He carried a horn lantern that hung from a swivel, and as it swung, it cast strange shapes on the darker areas of the walls.
He said that he had looked in on his way down, to tell her that they did not expect her father to make up his contract if he was not well. Mr. Melbury would give him another week, and they would go their journey with a short load that day.
He mentioned that he had checked in on his way down to let her know that they didn’t expect her father to fulfill his agreement if he wasn’t well. Mr. Melbury would give him another week, and they would travel with a lighter load that day.
“They are done,” said Marty, “and lying in the cart-house.”
“They're done,” Marty said, “and they're lying in the shed.”
“Done!” he repeated. “Your father has not been too ill to work after all, then?”
“Done!” he repeated. “So your dad hasn’t been too sick to work after all?”
She made some evasive reply. “I’ll show you where they be, if you are going down,” she added.
She gave a vague answer. “I’ll show you where they are if you’re going down,” she added.
They went out and walked together, the pattern of the air-holes in the top of the lantern being thrown upon the mist overhead, where they appeared of giant size, as if reaching the tent-shaped sky. They had no remarks to make to each other, and they uttered none. Hardly anything could be more isolated or more self-contained than the lives of these two walking here in the lonely antelucan hour, when gray shades, material and mental, are so very gray. And yet, looked at in a certain way, their lonely courses formed no detached design at all, but were part of the pattern in the great web of human doings then weaving in both hemispheres, from the White Sea to Cape Horn.
They went out and walked together, the pattern of the air holes in the top of the lantern casting giant shapes on the mist above, as if reaching for the tent-shaped sky. They had nothing to say to each other, and they didn’t speak at all. Hardly anything felt more isolated or self-contained than the lives of these two walking in the lonely pre-dawn hour, when gray shades, both physical and mental, were so very dull. Yet, looked at from a certain angle, their solitary paths weren't separate at all; they were part of the larger pattern of human activity weaving through both hemispheres, from the White Sea to Cape Horn.
The shed was reached, and she pointed out the spars. Winterborne regarded them silently, then looked at her.
The shed was reached, and she pointed out the spars. Winterborne looked at them quietly, then turned to her.
“Now, Marty, I believe—” he said, and shook his head.
“Now, Marty, I think—” he said, shaking his head.
“What?”
"What?"
“That you’ve done the work yourself.”
“That you did the work yourself.”
“Don’t you tell anybody, will you, Mr. Winterborne?” she pleaded, by way of answer. “Because I am afraid Mr. Melbury may refuse my work if he knows it is mine.”
“Please don’t tell anyone, okay, Mr. Winterborne?” she begged in response. “Because I’m worried Mr. Melbury might reject my work if he knows it’s mine.”
“But how could you learn to do it? ’Tis a trade.”
"But how could you learn to do it? It's a trade."
“Trade!” said she. “I’d be bound to learn it in two hours.”
“Trade!” she said. “I bet I could master it in two hours.”
“Oh no, you wouldn’t, Mrs. Marty.” Winterborne held down his lantern, and examined the cleanly split hazels as they lay. “Marty,” he said, with dry admiration, “your father with his forty years of practice never made a spar better than that. They are too good for the thatching of houses—they are good enough for the furniture. But I won’t tell. Let me look at your hands—your poor hands!”
“Oh no, you wouldn’t, Mrs. Marty.” Winterborne lowered his lantern and looked at the neatly split hazels spread out. “Marty,” he said, with dry respect, “your dad, with his forty years of experience, never made a spar as good as that. They're too nice for thatching houses—they're good enough for furniture. But I won't say a word. Let me see your hands—your poor hands!”
He had a kindly manner of a quietly severe tone; and when she seemed reluctant to show her hands, he took hold of one and examined it as if it were his own. Her fingers were blistered.
He had a gentle way about him but spoke with a serious tone; and when she hesitated to reveal her hands, he gently took one and studied it as if it were his own. Her fingers were blistered.
“They’ll get harder in time,” she said. “For if father continues ill, I shall have to go on wi’ it. Now I’ll help put ’em up in wagon.”
“They’ll get harder over time,” she said. “If dad stays sick, I’ll have to keep doing it. Now I’ll help load them into the wagon.”
Winterborne without speaking set down his lantern, lifted her as she was about to stoop over the bundles, placed her behind him, and began throwing up the bundles himself. “Rather than you should do it I will,” he said. “But the men will be here directly. Why, Marty!—whatever has happened to your head? Lord, it has shrunk to nothing—it looks an apple upon a gate-post!”
Winterborne silently set down his lantern, lifted her just as she was about to bend down over the bundles, placed her behind him, and started tossing the bundles himself. “I’ll do it instead of you,” he said. “But the men will be here any minute. What’s happened to your head, Marty? Wow, it’s shrunk to nothing—it looks like an apple on a gate post!”
Her heart swelled, and she could not speak. At length she managed to groan, looking on the ground, “I’ve made myself ugly—and hateful—that’s what I’ve done!”
Her heart was full, and she couldn't find the words. Eventually, she let out a sigh, staring at the ground, "I've made myself ugly—and unlovable—that's what I've done!"
“No, no,” he answered. “You’ve only cut your hair—I see now.”
“No, no,” he replied. “You just cut your hair—I understand now.”
“Then why must you needs say that about apples and gate-posts?”
“Then why do you have to say that about apples and gate posts?”
“Let me see.”
"Show me."
“No, no!” She ran off into the gloom of the sluggish dawn. He did not attempt to follow her. When she reached her father’s door she stood on the step and looked back. Mr. Melbury’s men had arrived, and were loading up the spars, and their lanterns appeared from the distance at which she stood to have wan circles round them, like eyes weary with watching. She observed them for a few seconds as they set about harnessing the horses, and then went indoors.
“No, no!” She ran off into the dim light of the slow morning. He didn’t try to follow her. When she got to her father’s door, she stood on the step and looked back. Mr. Melbury’s men had arrived and were loading the spars, and from the distance where she stood, their lanterns seemed to have faint circles around them, like eyes tired from watching. She watched them for a few seconds as they began to harness the horses, and then went inside.
CHAPTER IV.
There was now a distinct manifestation of morning in the air, and presently the bleared white visage of a sunless winter day emerged like a dead-born child. The villagers everywhere had already bestirred themselves, rising at this time of the year at the far less dreary hour of absolute darkness. It had been above an hour earlier, before a single bird had untucked his head, that twenty lights were struck in as many bedrooms, twenty pairs of shutters opened, and twenty pairs of eyes stretched to the sky to forecast the weather for the day.
There was a clear sign of morning in the air, and soon the pale white face of a sunless winter day appeared like a stillborn child. The villagers were already stirring, getting up at this time of year at the much less gloomy hour of complete darkness. Over an hour earlier, before any bird had tucked its head out, twenty lights flicked on in just as many bedrooms, twenty pairs of shutters opened, and twenty pairs of eyes looked up to the sky to check the weather for the day.
Owls that had been catching mice in the out-houses, rabbits that had been eating the wintergreens in the gardens, and stoats that had been sucking the blood of the rabbits, discerning that their human neighbors were on the move, discreetly withdrew from publicity, and were seen and heard no more that day.
Owls that had been catching mice in the sheds, rabbits that had been eating the winter greens in the gardens, and stoats that had been draining the blood of the rabbits, noticing that their human neighbors were on the move, quietly backed away from view and were not seen or heard from again that day.
The daylight revealed the whole of Mr. Melbury’s homestead, of which the wagon-sheds had been an outlying erection. It formed three sides of an open quadrangle, and consisted of all sorts of buildings, the largest and central one being the dwelling itself. The fourth side of the quadrangle was the public road.
The daylight showed all of Mr. Melbury’s homestead, with the wagon sheds being an additional structure. It created three sides of an open courtyard and included various buildings, the largest and central one being the house itself. The fourth side of the courtyard was the public road.
It was a dwelling-house of respectable, roomy, almost dignified aspect; which, taken with the fact that there were the remains of other such buildings thereabout, indicated that Little Hintock had at some time or other been of greater importance than now, as its old name of Hintock St. Osmond also testified. The house was of no marked antiquity, yet of well-advanced age; older than a stale novelty, but no canonized antique; faded, not hoary; looking at you from the still distinct middle-distance of the early Georgian time, and awakening on that account the instincts of reminiscence more decidedly than the remoter and far grander memorials which have to speak from the misty reaches of mediaevalism. The faces, dress, passions, gratitudes, and revenues of the great-great-grandfathers and grandmothers who had been the first to gaze from those rectangular windows, and had stood under that key-stoned doorway, could be divined and measured by homely standards of to-day. It was a house in whose reverberations queer old personal tales were yet audible if properly listened for; and not, as with those of the castle and cloister, silent beyond the possibility of echo.
It was a respectable, spacious house that had a certain dignity about it. The fact that there were remnants of similar buildings nearby suggested that Little Hintock had once been more significant than it is now, as its old name, Hintock St. Osmond, also revealed. The house wasn't particularly ancient, but it was definitely older; it was beyond being just a tired trend, but not so historical that it felt like a relic; it had a faded charm, rather than a worn-out one; it seemed to gaze at you from the not-too-distant past of the early Georgian era, stirring nostalgic feelings more strongly than the distant, much grander monuments that spoke from the obscured eras of the Middle Ages. You could imagine and assess the faces, clothing, passions, gratitude, and wealth of the great-great-grandparents who first looked out from those rectangular windows and stood under that arched doorway using today's simple standards. It was a house where strange old personal stories were still faintly audible if you listened closely, unlike those of castles and cloisters, which were silent beyond the chance of echo.
The garden-front remained much as it had always been, and there was a porch and entrance that way. But the principal house-door opened on the square yard or quadrangle towards the road, formerly a regular carriage entrance, though the middle of the area was now made use of for stacking timber, fagots, bundles, and other products of the wood. It was divided from the lane by a lichen-coated wall, in which hung a pair of gates, flanked by piers out of the perpendicular, with a round white ball on the top of each.
The garden in front stayed pretty much the same as it always had, and there was a porch and entrance that way. However, the main door of the house opened into the square yard or courtyard facing the road, which had once been a typical carriage entrance, although the center of the area was now used for storing wood, kindling, bundles, and other forest products. It was separated from the lane by a wall covered in lichen, with a pair of gates hanging in it, flanked by pillars that leaned slightly, each topped with a round white ball.
The building on the left of the enclosure was a long-backed erection, now used for spar-making, sawing, crib-framing, and copse-ware manufacture in general. Opposite were the wagon-sheds where Marty had deposited her spars.
The building on the left side of the enclosure was a long structure, now used for making spars, sawing, framing cribs, and generally manufacturing wooden items. Across from it were the wagon sheds where Marty had stored her spars.
Here Winterborne had remained after the girl’s abrupt departure, to see that the wagon-loads were properly made up. Winterborne was connected with the Melbury family in various ways. In addition to the sentimental relationship which arose from his father having been the first Mrs. Melbury’s lover, Winterborne’s aunt had married and emigrated with the brother of the timber-merchant many years before—an alliance that was sufficient to place Winterborne, though the poorer, on a footing of social intimacy with the Melburys. As in most villages so secluded as this, intermarriages were of Hapsburgian frequency among the inhabitants, and there were hardly two houses in Little Hintock unrelated by some matrimonial tie or other.
Here, Winterborne had stayed after the girl left so suddenly, to make sure the wagon loads were organized correctly. Winterborne was connected to the Melbury family in several ways. Not only was there a sentimental bond because his father had been the first Mrs. Melbury’s lover, but Winterborne’s aunt had married and moved away with the timber-merchant's brother many years ago—this connection was enough to put Winterborne, despite being poorer, on friendly terms with the Melburys. Like in most isolated villages, there were frequent intermarriages among the residents, and it was rare to find two houses in Little Hintock that weren’t linked by some marital connection or other.
For this reason a curious kind of partnership existed between Melbury and the younger man—a partnership based upon an unwritten code, by which each acted in the way he thought fair towards the other, on a give-and-take principle. Melbury, with his timber and copse-ware business, found that the weight of his labor came in winter and spring. Winterborne was in the apple and cider trade, and his requirements in cartage and other work came in the autumn of each year. Hence horses, wagons, and in some degree men, were handed over to him when the apples began to fall; he, in return, lending his assistance to Melbury in the busiest wood-cutting season, as now.
For this reason, a unique kind of partnership existed between Melbury and the younger man—one based on an unspoken agreement where each acted fairly towards the other, following a give-and-take approach. Melbury, with his timber and wood product business, found that most of his work came during the winter and spring. Winterborne was involved in the apple and cider business, and his needs for transportation and other tasks peaked in the autumn each year. So, horses, wagons, and to some extent, workers were passed over to him when the apples started to fall; in return, he helped Melbury during the busiest wood-cutting season, just like now.
Before he had left the shed a boy came from the house to ask him to remain till Mr. Melbury had seen him. Winterborne thereupon crossed over to the spar-house where two or three men were already at work, two of them being travelling spar-makers from White-hart Lane, who, when this kind of work began, made their appearance regularly, and when it was over disappeared in silence till the season came again.
Before he left the shed, a boy came from the house to ask him to stay until Mr. Melbury had seen him. Winterborne then crossed over to the spar-house, where two or three men were already working, two of whom were traveling spar-makers from White-hart Lane. They would show up regularly when this kind of work started and then quietly disappear until the season came around again.
Firewood was the one thing abundant in Little Hintock; and a blaze of gad-cuds made the outhouse gay with its light, which vied with that of the day as yet. In the hollow shades of the roof could be seen dangling etiolated arms of ivy which had crept through the joints of the tiles and were groping in vain for some support, their leaves being dwarfed and sickly for want of sunlight; others were pushing in with such force at the eaves as to lift from their supports the shelves that were fixed there.
Firewood was the one thing plentiful in Little Hintock, and a fire of glowing embers filled the outhouse with a light that rivaled the daylight. In the dim shadows of the roof, you could see thin, pale ivy vines dangling down, having crept through the gaps in the tiles and reaching out in vain for something to cling to. Their leaves were small and unhealthy from lack of sunlight; others were pushing so hard at the eaves that they were lifting the shelves that were fixed there.
Besides the itinerant journey-workers there were also present John Upjohn, engaged in the hollow-turnery trade, who lived hard by; old Timothy Tangs and young Timothy Tangs, top and bottom sawyers, at work in Mr. Melbury’s pit outside; Farmer Bawtree, who kept the cider-house, and Robert Creedle, an old man who worked for Winterborne, and stood warming his hands; these latter being enticed in by the ruddy blaze, though they had no particular business there. None of them call for any remark except, perhaps, Creedle. To have completely described him it would have been necessary to write a military memoir, for he wore under his smock-frock a cast-off soldier’s jacket that had seen hot service, its collar showing just above the flap of the frock; also a hunting memoir, to include the top-boots that he had picked up by chance; also chronicles of voyaging and shipwreck, for his pocket-knife had been given him by a weather-beaten sailor. But Creedle carried about with him on his uneventful rounds these silent testimonies of war, sport, and adventure, and thought nothing of their associations or their stories.
Besides the traveling workers, there were also John Upjohn, who worked in hollow-turnery and lived nearby; old Timothy Tangs and young Timothy Tangs, who were both sawyers and were busy in Mr. Melbury’s pit outside; Farmer Bawtree, who ran the cider-house; and Robert Creedle, an older man who worked for Winterborne and stood warming his hands. The latter were drawn in by the warm glow of the fire, even though they had no specific reason to be there. None of them are noteworthy except maybe Creedle. To truly describe him, you would need to write a military memoir, as he wore an old soldier's jacket under his smock-frock that had seen a lot of action, its collar peeking out above the frock's flap. You would also need a hunting memoir to account for the top-boots he had randomly found. There would be tales of voyages and shipwrecks, since a weathered sailor had given him his pocket-knife. Yet, Creedle carried these silent reminders of war, sport, and adventure with him on his uneventful rounds and thought nothing of their meanings or stories.
Copse-work, as it was called, being an occupation which the secondary intelligence of the hands and arms could carry on without requiring the sovereign attention of the head, the minds of its professors wandered considerably from the objects before them; hence the tales, chronicles, and ramifications of family history which were recounted here were of a very exhaustive kind, and sometimes so interminable as to defy description.
Copse-work, as it was known, was a job that could be done using the hands and arms without needing full focus from the mind. Because of this, the workers’ thoughts often drifted away from what they were doing; as a result, the stories, anecdotes, and details of family history that were shared here were extremely extensive and sometimes so long that they were hard to describe.
Winterborne, seeing that Melbury had not arrived, stepped back again outside the door; and the conversation interrupted by his momentary presence flowed anew, reaching his ears as an accompaniment to the regular dripping of the fog from the plantation boughs around.
Winterborne, noticing that Melbury hadn’t shown up, stepped back outside the door. The conversation that had been interrupted by his brief appearance picked up again, reaching his ears alongside the steady dripping of the fog from the branches of the surrounding trees.
The topic at present handled was a highly popular and frequent one—the personal character of Mrs. Charmond, the owner of the surrounding woods and groves.
The current topic being discussed was a very popular and common one—the personal character of Mrs. Charmond, the owner of the nearby woods and groves.
“My brother-in-law told me, and I have no reason to doubt it,” said Creedle, “that she’d sit down to her dinner with a frock hardly higher than her elbows. ‘Oh, you wicked woman!’ he said to himself when he first see her, ‘you go to your church, and sit, and kneel, as if your knee-jints were greased with very saint’s anointment, and tell off your Hear-us-good-Lords like a business man counting money; and yet you can eat your victuals such a figure as that!’ Whether she’s a reformed character by this time I can’t say; but I don’t care who the man is, that’s how she went on when my brother-in-law lived there.”
“My brother-in-law told me, and I believe him,” said Creedle, “that she’d sit down to her dinner wearing a dress that barely covered her elbows. ‘Oh, you wicked woman!’ he thought when he first saw her, ‘you go to church and sit and kneel as if your knees were greased with some holy oil, and recite your prayers like a businessman counting cash; and yet you can eat your food dressed like that!’ Whether she’s turned things around by now, I can't say; but I don’t care who the guy is, that’s how she behaved when my brother-in-law lived there.”
“Did she do it in her husband’s time?”
“Did she do it while she was married?”
“That I don’t know—hardly, I should think, considering his temper. Ah!” Here Creedle threw grieved remembrance into physical form by slowly resigning his head to obliquity and letting his eyes water. “That man! ‘Not if the angels of heaven come down, Creedle,’ he said, ‘shall you do another day’s work for me!’ Yes—he’d say anything—anything; and would as soon take a winged creature’s name in vain as yours or mine! Well, now I must get these spars home-along, and to-morrow, thank God, I must see about using ’em.”
“That I don’t know—hardly, I should think, considering his temper. Ah!” Here Creedle expressed his sorrow by slowly tilting his head and letting his eyes fill with tears. “That man! ‘Not if the angels of heaven come down, Creedle,’ he said, ‘will you do another day’s work for me!’ Yes—he’d say anything—anything; and would just as soon disrespect a winged creature’s name as yours or mine! Well, now I have to get these spars home, and tomorrow, thank God, I need to see about using them.”
An old woman now entered upon the scene. She was Mr. Melbury’s servant, and passed a great part of her time in crossing the yard between the house-door and the spar-shed, whither she had come now for fuel. She had two facial aspects—one, of a soft and flexible kind, she used indoors when assisting about the parlor or upstairs; the other, with stiff lines and corners, when she was bustling among the men in the spar-house or out-of-doors.
An old woman now entered the scene. She was Mr. Melbury’s servant and spent a lot of her time walking back and forth between the house and the spar shed, where she had come to get fuel. She had two facial expressions—one, soft and flexible, which she used indoors while helping in the parlor or upstairs; the other, with hard lines and angles, when she was busy among the men in the spar house or outside.
“Ah, Grammer Oliver,” said John Upjohn, “it do do my heart good to see a old woman like you so dapper and stirring, when I bear in mind that after fifty one year counts as two did afore! But your smoke didn’t rise this morning till twenty minutes past seven by my beater; and that’s late, Grammer Oliver.”
“Ah, Grammer Oliver,” said John Upjohn, “it really warms my heart to see an old woman like you so lively and full of energy, considering that after fifty, one year feels like two! But your smoke didn’t rise this morning until twenty minutes past seven by my clock; and that’s late, Grammer Oliver.”
“If you was a full-sized man, John, people might take notice of your scornful meanings. But your growing up was such a scrimped and scanty business that really a woman couldn’t feel hurt if you were to spit fire and brimstone itself at her. Here,” she added, holding out a spar-gad to one of the workmen, from which dangled a long black-pudding—“here’s something for thy breakfast, and if you want tea you must fetch it from in-doors.”
“If you were a full-sized man, John, people might pay attention to your scornful comments. But your upbringing was so tight and limited that honestly, a woman couldn’t feel hurt even if you were to spit fire and brimstone at her. Here,” she added, handing a spar-gad to one of the workers, from which hung a long black pudding—“here’s something for your breakfast, and if you want tea, you’ll have to bring it from inside.”
“Mr. Melbury is late this morning,” said the bottom-sawyer.
“Mr. Melbury is late this morning,” said the bottom-sawyer.
“Yes. ’Twas a dark dawn,” said Mrs. Oliver. “Even when I opened the door, so late as I was, you couldn’t have told poor men from gentlemen, or John from a reasonable-sized object. And I don’t think maister’s slept at all well to-night. He’s anxious about his daughter; and I know what that is, for I’ve cried bucketfuls for my own.”
“Yes. It was a dark dawn,” said Mrs. Oliver. “Even when I opened the door, as late as it was, you couldn’t tell poor men from gentlemen, or John from a regular-sized object. And I don’t think the master slept well at all last night. He’s worried about his daughter; and I know what that’s like, because I’ve cried buckets for my own.”
When the old woman had gone Creedle said,
When the old woman left, Creedle said,
“He’ll fret his gizzard green if he don’t soon hear from that maid of his. Well, learning is better than houses and lands. But to keep a maid at school till she is taller out of pattens than her mother was in ’em—’tis tempting Providence.”
“He’ll worry himself sick if he doesn’t hear from that girl of his soon. Well, knowledge is worth more than wealth. But keeping a girl in school until she’s taller than her mother ever was—well, that’s pushing it.”
“It seems no time ago that she was a little playward girl,” said young Timothy Tangs.
“It feels like just yesterday that she was a little girl playing around,” said young Timothy Tangs.
“I can mind her mother,” said the hollow-turner. “Always a teuny, delicate piece; her touch upon your hand was as soft and cool as wind. She was inoculated for the small-pox and had it beautifully fine, just about the time that I was out of my apprenticeship—ay, and a long apprenticeship ’twas. I served that master of mine six years and three hundred and fourteen days.”
“I can remember her mother,” said the hollow-turner. “Always a tiny, delicate piece; her touch on your hand was as soft and cool as the wind. She was vaccinated for smallpox and had it really mild, just around the time I finished my apprenticeship—yeah, it was a long apprenticeship. I served that master of mine for six years and three hundred fourteen days.”
The hollow-turner pronounced the days with emphasis, as if, considering their number, they were a rather more remarkable fact than the years.
The hollow-turner emphasized the days, as if, given their quantity, they were a much more significant reality than the years.
“Mr. Winterborne’s father walked with her at one time,” said old Timothy Tangs. “But Mr. Melbury won her. She was a child of a woman, and would cry like rain if so be he huffed her. Whenever she and her husband came to a puddle in their walks together he’d take her up like a half-penny doll and put her over without dirting her a speck. And if he keeps the daughter so long at boarding-school, he’ll make her as nesh as her mother was. But here he comes.”
“Mr. Winterborne’s dad used to walk with her,” said old Timothy Tangs. “But Mr. Melbury won her over. She was just a girl and would cry like crazy if he got annoyed with her. Whenever she and her husband came across a puddle on their walks, he'd pick her up like a little doll and set her down on the other side without getting her dirty at all. If he keeps their daughter in boarding school for too long, she’ll end up as delicate as her mom was. But here he comes.”
Just before this moment Winterborne had seen Melbury crossing the court from his door. He was carrying an open letter in his hand, and came straight to Winterborne. His gloom of the preceding night had quite gone.
Just before this moment, Winterborne had seen Melbury walking across the courtyard from his door. He was holding an open letter in his hand and came directly to Winterborne. The gloom from the previous night had completely disappeared.
“I’d no sooner made up my mind, Giles, to go and see why Grace didn’t come or write than I get a letter from her—‘Clifton: Wednesday. My dear father,’ says she, ‘I’m coming home to-morrow’ (that’s to-day), ‘but I didn’t think it worth while to write long beforehand.’ The little rascal, and didn’t she! Now, Giles, as you are going to Sherton market to-day with your apple-trees, why not join me and Grace there, and we’ll drive home all together?”
“I had just decided, Giles, to go see why Grace hadn’t come or written when I received a letter from her—‘Clifton: Wednesday. My dear father,’ she says, ‘I’m coming home tomorrow’ (that’s today), ‘but I didn’t think it was worth writing in advance.’ That little rascal! Now, Giles, since you’re heading to Sherton market today with your apple trees, why not meet up with me and Grace there, and we can all drive home together?”
He made the proposal with cheerful energy; he was hardly the same man as the man of the small dark hours. Ever it happens that even among the moodiest the tendency to be cheered is stronger than the tendency to be cast down; and a soul’s specific gravity stands permanently less than that of the sea of troubles into which it is thrown.
He made the suggestion with a bright enthusiasm; he was barely the same person as he had been in those dark, lonely hours. It often happens that even the most solemn individuals feel uplifted more easily than they feel downcast; and a person's spirit is consistently lighter than the heavy ocean of troubles they face.
Winterborne, though not demonstrative, replied to this suggestion with something like alacrity. There was not much doubt that Marty’s grounds for cutting off her hair were substantial enough, if Ambrose’s eyes had been a reason for keeping it on. As for the timber-merchant, it was plain that his invitation had been given solely in pursuance of his scheme for uniting the pair. He had made up his mind to the course as a duty, and was strenuously bent upon following it out.
Winterborne, although not very expressive, responded to this suggestion with a sense of eagerness. There was little doubt that Marty had solid reasons for wanting to cut off her hair, especially if Ambrose's feelings were a reason to keep it long. As for the timber merchant, it was clear that his invitation was purely part of his plan to bring the two together. He had committed to this course of action as a responsibility and was determined to see it through.
Accompanied by Winterborne, he now turned towards the door of the spar-house, when his footsteps were heard by the men as aforesaid.
Accompanied by Winterborne, he now headed toward the door of the spar-house when the men heard his footsteps as mentioned earlier.
“Well, John, and Lot,” he said, nodding as he entered. “A rimy morning.”
“Well, John, and Lot,” he said, nodding as he walked in. “It's a chilly morning.”
“’Tis, sir!” said Creedle, energetically; for, not having as yet been able to summon force sufficient to go away and begin work, he felt the necessity of throwing some into his speech. “I don’t care who the man is, ’tis the rimiest morning we’ve had this fall.”
“Yeah, it is!” said Creedle, enthusiastically; since he hadn’t been able to muster the strength to leave and start working yet, he felt the need to put some energy into his words. “I don’t care who the guy is, it’s the rainiest morning we’ve had this fall.”
“I heard you wondering why I’ve kept my daughter so long at boarding-school,” resumed Mr. Melbury, looking up from the letter which he was reading anew by the fire, and turning to them with the suddenness that was a trait in him. “Hey?” he asked, with affected shrewdness. “But you did, you know. Well, now, though it is my own business more than anybody else’s, I’ll tell ye. When I was a boy, another boy—the pa’son’s son—along with a lot of others, asked me ‘Who dragged Whom round the walls of What?’ and I said, ‘Sam Barrett, who dragged his wife in a chair round the tower corner when she went to be churched.’ They laughed at me with such torrents of scorn that I went home ashamed, and couldn’t sleep for shame; and I cried that night till my pillow was wet: till at last I thought to myself there and then—‘They may laugh at me for my ignorance, but that was father’s fault, and none o’ my making, and I must bear it. But they shall never laugh at my children, if I have any: I’ll starve first!’ Thank God, I’ve been able to keep her at school without sacrifice; and her scholarship is such that she stayed on as governess for a time. Let ’em laugh now if they can: Mrs. Charmond herself is not better informed than my girl Grace.”
“I heard you wondering why I’ve kept my daughter at boarding school for so long,” Mr. Melbury said, looking up from the letter he was rereading by the fire, and turning to them abruptly, which was typical of him. “Right?” he asked, pretending to be insightful. “But you did, you know. Well, since it’s more my business than anyone else's, I’ll tell you. When I was a boy, another boy—the preacher’s son—along with a bunch of others, asked me ‘Who dragged Whom around the walls of What?’ and I said, ‘Sam Barrett, who dragged his wife in a chair around the tower corner when she went to be churched.’ They laughed at me with such scorn that I went home feeling ashamed, couldn’t sleep for shame; and I cried that night until my pillow was wet: until at last I thought to myself right then—‘They may laugh at me for my ignorance, but that was my father’s fault, not mine, and I have to live with it. But they’ll never laugh at my children, if I have any: I’ll starve first!’ Thank God, I’ve been able to keep her at school without making sacrifices; and her grades are good enough that she stayed on as a governess for a while. Let them laugh now if they can: Mrs. Charmond herself isn’t better informed than my daughter Grace.”
There was something between high indifference and humble emotion in his delivery, which made it difficult for them to reply. Winterborne’s interest was of a kind which did not show itself in words; listening, he stood by the fire, mechanically stirring the embers with a spar-gad.
There was a mix of cool indifference and subtle emotion in the way he spoke, which made it hard for them to respond. Winterborne’s interest was the kind that didn’t come out in words; as he listened, he stood by the fire, absentmindedly stirring the embers with a stick.
“You’ll be, then, ready, Giles?” Melbury continued, awaking from a reverie. “Well, what was the latest news at Shottsford yesterday, Mr. Bawtree?”
“You ready, Giles?” Melbury said, coming out of a daydream. “So, what was the latest gossip in Shottsford yesterday, Mr. Bawtree?”
“Well, Shottsford is Shottsford still—you can’t victual your carcass there unless you’ve got money; and you can’t buy a cup of genuine there, whether or no....But as the saying is, ‘Go abroad and you’ll hear news of home.’ It seems that our new neighbor, this young Dr. What’s-his-name, is a strange, deep, perusing gentleman; and there’s good reason for supposing he has sold his soul to the wicked one.”
“Well, Shottsford is still Shottsford—you can’t get food there unless you have money; and you can’t buy a decent drink there, period....But as the saying goes, ‘Travel a bit and you’ll hear news from home.’ It seems that our new neighbor, this young Dr. What’s-his-name, is a peculiar, serious, and thoughtful guy; and there’s good reason to believe he has sold his soul to the devil.”
“’Od name it all,” murmured the timber-merchant, unimpressed by the news, but reminded of other things by the subject of it; “I’ve got to meet a gentleman this very morning? and yet I’ve planned to go to Sherton Abbas for the maid.”
“’Od name it all,” murmured the timber merchant, unfazed by the news, but reminded of other matters by the topic; “I have to meet a gentleman this morning? Yet I planned to go to Sherton Abbas for the maid.”
“I won’t praise the doctor’s wisdom till I hear what sort of bargain he’s made,” said the top-sawyer.
“I won’t praise the doctor’s wisdom until I know what kind of deal he’s made,” said the top-sawyer.
“’Tis only an old woman’s tale,” said Bawtree. “But it seems that he wanted certain books on some mysterious science or black-art, and in order that the people hereabout should not know anything about his dark readings, he ordered ’em direct from London, and not from the Sherton book-seller. The parcel was delivered by mistake at the pa’son’s, and he wasn’t at home; so his wife opened it, and went into hysterics when she read ’em, thinking her husband had turned heathen, and ’twould be the ruin of the children. But when he came he said he knew no more about ’em than she; and found they were this Mr. Fitzpier’s property. So he wrote ‘Beware!’ outside, and sent ’em on by the sexton.”
“It's just an old woman's story,” said Bawtree. “But it seems he wanted certain books about some mysterious science or dark art, and to keep the people around here from knowing about his secret readings, he ordered them directly from London, not from the Sherton bookstore. The package was mistakenly delivered to the parson’s house, and he wasn’t home; so his wife opened it and went into hysterics when she read them, thinking her husband had turned pagan and it would ruin the children. But when he came home, he said he knew no more about them than she did, and found they belonged to this Mr. Fitzpier. So he wrote 'Beware!' on the outside and had the sexton send them on.”
“He must be a curious young man,” mused the hollow-turner.
“He must be a curious young man,” thought the hollow-turner.
“He must,” said Timothy Tangs.
"He has to," said Timothy Tangs.
“Nonsense,” said Mr. Melbury, authoritatively, “he’s only a gentleman fond of science and philosophy and poetry, and, in fact, every kind of knowledge; and being lonely here, he passes his time in making such matters his hobby.”
“Nonsense,” said Mr. Melbury with authority, “he’s just a gentleman who loves science, philosophy, and poetry, and really, all kinds of knowledge; and since he’s alone here, he spends his time making those things his hobby.”
“Well,” said old Timothy, “’tis a strange thing about doctors that the worse they be the better they be. I mean that if you hear anything of this sort about ’em, ten to one they can cure ye as nobody else can.”
“Well,” said old Timothy, “it’s strange how doctors work; the worse they are, the better they seem to be. I mean, if you hear anything like this about them, chances are they can cure you better than anyone else.”
“True,” said Bawtree, emphatically. “And for my part I shall take my custom from old Jones and go to this one directly I’ve anything the matter with me. That last medicine old Jones gave me had no taste in it at all.”
“True,” said Bawtree, emphatically. “And for my part, I’ll stop going to old Jones and go to this place as soon as I have any health issues. That last medicine old Jones gave me had no flavor at all.”
Mr. Melbury, as became a well-informed man, did not listen to these recitals, being moreover preoccupied with the business appointment which had come into his head. He walked up and down, looking on the floor—his usual custom when undecided. That stiffness about the arm, hip, and knee-joint which was apparent when he walked was the net product of the divers sprains and over-exertions that had been required of him in handling trees and timber when a young man, for he was of the sort called self-made, and had worked hard. He knew the origin of every one of these cramps: that in his left shoulder had come of carrying a pollard, unassisted, from Tutcombe Bottom home; that in one leg was caused by the crash of an elm against it when they were felling; that in the other was from lifting a bole. On many a morrow after wearying himself by these prodigious muscular efforts, he had risen from his bed fresh as usual; his lassitude had departed, apparently forever; and confident in the recuperative power of his youth, he had repeated the strains anew. But treacherous Time had been only hiding ill results when they could be guarded against, for greater accumulation when they could not. In his declining years the store had been unfolded in the form of rheumatisms, pricks, and spasms, in every one of which Melbury recognized some act which, had its consequence been contemporaneously made known, he would wisely have abstained from repeating.
Mr. Melbury, as a knowledgeable man, didn’t pay attention to these stories, as he was also preoccupied with a business meeting that was on his mind. He paced back and forth, looking down at the floor—his usual habit when he was uncertain. The stiffness in his arm, hip, and knee that showed when he walked was the result of various sprains and strains from the hard work he did with trees and timber in his youth. He was the type of person known as self-made and had worked very hard. He remembered the cause of each of these aches: the one in his left shoulder was from carrying a pollard alone from Tutcombe Bottom; the one in one leg was from an elm falling against it during felling; and the one in the other was from lifting a log. Many mornings after exhausting himself from these intense physical efforts, he had gotten out of bed feeling fresh as usual; his fatigue seemed to have vanished for good. Confident in his youthful ability to recover, he pushed himself again. But untrustworthy Time had only been hiding the negative effects, waiting for the right moment to reveal them when he couldn’t avoid it. In his later years, the consequences showed up as rheumatism, aches, and cramps, and in each one, Melbury recognized a past action that, if he had known the outcome at the time, he would have wisely chosen not to repeat.
On a summons by Grammer Oliver to breakfast, he left the shed. Reaching the kitchen, where the family breakfasted in winter to save house-labor, he sat down by the fire, and looked a long time at the pair of dancing shadows cast by each fire-iron and dog-knob on the whitewashed chimney-corner—a yellow one from the window, and a blue one from the fire.
On a call from Grammer Oliver for breakfast, he left the shed. Arriving in the kitchen, where the family had breakfast in the winter to reduce housework, he sat down by the fire and stared for a long time at the pair of dancing shadows created by each fire tool and dog knob on the whitewashed chimney corner—a yellow one from the window and a blue one from the fire.
“I don’t quite know what to do to-day,” he said to his wife at last. “I’ve recollected that I promised to meet Mrs. Charmond’s steward in Round Wood at twelve o’clock, and yet I want to go for Grace.”
“I’m not really sure what to do today,” he finally said to his wife. “I remembered that I promised to meet Mrs. Charmond’s steward in Round Wood at twelve o’clock, but I also want to go for Grace.”
“Why not let Giles fetch her by himself? ’Twill bring ’em together all the quicker.”
“Why not let Giles go get her himself? It’ll bring them together much faster.”
“I could do that—but I should like to go myself. I always have gone, without fail, every time hitherto. It has been a great pleasure to drive into Sherton, and wait and see her arrive; and perhaps she’ll be disappointed if I stay away.”
“I could do that—but I’d prefer to go myself. I’ve always gone, without fail, every time before. It’s been a real pleasure to drive into Sherton, wait, and see her arrive; and maybe she’ll be disappointed if I don’t show up.”
“You may be disappointed, but I don’t think she will, if you send Giles,” said Mrs. Melbury, dryly.
“You might be let down, but I don’t think she will be if you send Giles,” Mrs. Melbury said dryly.
“Very well—I’ll send him.”
"Okay—I’ll send him."
Melbury was often persuaded by the quietude of his wife’s words when strenuous argument would have had no effect. This second Mrs. Melbury was a placid woman, who had been nurse to his child Grace before her mother’s death. After that melancholy event little Grace had clung to the nurse with much affection; and ultimately Melbury, in dread lest the only woman who cared for the girl should be induced to leave her, persuaded the mild Lucy to marry him. The arrangement—for it was little more—had worked satisfactorily enough; Grace had thriven, and Melbury had not repented.
Melbury was often swayed by his wife's calm words when a heated argument wouldn't make a difference. This second Mrs. Melbury was a gentle woman who had taken care of his daughter Grace before her mother passed away. After that sad event, little Grace had grown very attached to her nurse, and ultimately Melbury, afraid that the only woman who showed care for the girl might leave, convinced the sweet Lucy to marry him. The arrangement—since it was barely more than that—had turned out well enough; Grace had flourished, and Melbury had no regrets.
He returned to the spar-house and found Giles near at hand, to whom he explained the change of plan. “As she won’t arrive till five o’clock, you can get your business very well over in time to receive her,” said Melbury. “The green gig will do for her; you’ll spin along quicker with that, and won’t be late upon the road. Her boxes can be called for by one of the wagons.”
He went back to the spar-house and saw Giles nearby, to whom he explained the change in plans. “Since she won’t arrive until five o’clock, you can finish your business in time to meet her,” Melbury said. “The green gig will be perfect for her; you’ll get there faster with that and won’t be late. One of the wagons can pick up her boxes.”
Winterborne, knowing nothing of the timber-merchant’s restitutory aims, quietly thought all this to be a kindly chance. Wishing even more than her father to despatch his apple-tree business in the market before Grace’s arrival, he prepared to start at once.
Winterborne, unaware of the timber merchant’s plans to make things right, quietly considered all of this to be a fortunate coincidence. Wanting even more than her father to get his apple tree business sold before Grace arrived, he got ready to leave right away.
Melbury was careful that the turnout should be seemly. The gig-wheels, for instance, were not always washed during winter-time before a journey, the muddy roads rendering that labor useless; but they were washed to-day. The harness was blacked, and when the rather elderly white horse had been put in, and Winterborne was in his seat ready to start, Mr. Melbury stepped out with a blacking-brush, and with his own hands touched over the yellow hoofs of the animal.
Melbury made sure that the turnout looked good. For example, the gig wheels weren’t always washed in winter before a trip since the muddy roads made it pointless, but they were washed today. The harness was polished, and when the somewhat old white horse was harnessed in and Winterborne was seated and ready to go, Mr. Melbury stepped outside with a blacking brush and personally touched up the horse's yellow hooves.
“You see, Giles,” he said, as he blacked, “coming from a fashionable school, she might feel shocked at the homeliness of home; and ’tis these little things that catch a dainty woman’s eye if they are neglected. We, living here alone, don’t notice how the whitey-brown creeps out of the earth over us; but she, fresh from a city—why, she’ll notice everything!”
“You see, Giles,” he said, as he blacked, “coming from an upscale school, she might be surprised by how homey things are; and it’s these small details that grab a delicate woman’s attention if they’re overlooked. We, living here by ourselves, don’t notice how the pale brown dirt surrounds us; but she, just arriving from the city—well, she’ll notice everything!”
“That she will,” said Giles.
"She definitely will," said Giles.
“And scorn us if we don’t mind.”
“And judge us if we don’t care.”
“Not scorn us.”
"Don't look down on us."
“No, no, no—that’s only words. She’s too good a girl to do that. But when we consider what she knows, and what she has seen since she last saw us, ’tis as well to meet her views as nearly as possible. Why, ’tis a year since she was in this old place, owing to her going abroad in the summer, which I agreed to, thinking it best for her; and naturally we shall look small, just at first—I only say just at first.”
“No, no, no—that’s just talk. She’s too good of a person to do that. But when we think about what she knows and what she’s experienced since the last time we saw her, it’s better to align with her perspective as closely as we can. It’s been a year since she was here in this old place because she went abroad in the summer, which I thought was best for her; so naturally, we might feel a bit awkward at first—I just mean at first.”
Mr. Melbury’s tone evinced a certain exultation in the very sense of that inferiority he affected to deplore; for this advanced and refined being, was she not his own all the time? Not so Giles; he felt doubtful—perhaps a trifle cynical—for that strand was wound into him with the rest. He looked at his clothes with misgiving, then with indifference.
Mr. Melbury's tone showed a certain joy in the very feeling of inferiority he pretended to lament; after all, wasn't this advanced and refined person his own all along? Not so for Giles; he felt uncertain—maybe a bit cynical—because that aspect was woven into him along with everything else. He looked at his clothes with concern, then with indifference.
It was his custom during the planting season to carry a specimen apple-tree to market with him as an advertisement of what he dealt in. This had been tied across the gig; and as it would be left behind in the town, it would cause no inconvenience to Miss Grace Melbury coming home.
It was his routine during planting season to take a sample apple tree to the market as a way to promote what he sold. This had been secured across the cart, and since it would be left behind in town, it wouldn't cause any inconvenience for Miss Grace Melbury on her way home.
He drove away, the twigs nodding with each step of the horse; and Melbury went in-doors. Before the gig had passed out of sight, Mr. Melbury reappeared and shouted after—
He drove away, the twigs swaying with each step of the horse; and Melbury went inside. Before the gig was out of sight, Mr. Melbury came back and yelled after—
“Here, Giles,” he said, breathlessly following with some wraps, “it may be very chilly to-night, and she may want something extra about her. And, Giles,” he added, when the young man, having taken the articles, put the horse in motion once more, “tell her that I should have come myself, but I had particular business with Mrs. Charmond’s agent, which prevented me. Don’t forget.”
“Here, Giles,” he said, breathlessly handing over some wraps, “it might be really cold tonight, and she might need something extra to keep warm. And, Giles,” he added, as the young man took the items and got the horse moving again, “let her know that I would have come myself, but I had important business with Mrs. Charmond’s agent that stopped me. Don’t forget.”
He watched Winterborne out of sight, saying, with a jerk—a shape into which emotion with him often resolved itself—“There, now, I hope the two will bring it to a point and have done with it! ’Tis a pity to let such a girl throw herself away upon him—a thousand pities!...And yet ’tis my duty for his father’s sake.”
He watched Winterborne disappear, then said abruptly—a reaction he often had when emotions hit him—“Well, I hope those two sort things out and move on! It’s a shame to let such a girl waste herself on him—a real shame!...But then again, I have to do this for his father’s sake.”
CHAPTER V.
Winterborne sped on his way to Sherton Abbas without elation and without discomposure. Had he regarded his inner self spectacularly, as lovers are now daily more wont to do, he might have felt pride in the discernment of a somewhat rare power in him—that of keeping not only judgment but emotion suspended in difficult cases. But he noted it not. Neither did he observe what was also the fact, that though he cherished a true and warm feeling towards Grace Melbury, he was not altogether her fool just now. It must be remembered that he had not seen her for a year.
Winterborne hurried to Sherton Abbas without feeling excited or upset. If he had looked at himself dramatically, like lovers tend to do these days, he might have felt proud of his unique ability to keep both judgment and emotion in check during tough situations. But he didn’t notice that. He also didn’t realize that, even though he had genuine and strong feelings for Grace Melbury, he wasn’t completely blinded by those feelings at the moment. It’s important to remember that he hadn’t seen her in a year.
Arrived at the entrance to a long flat lane, which had taken the spirit out of many a pedestrian in times when, with the majority, to travel meant to walk, he saw before him the trim figure of a young woman in pattens, journeying with that steadfast concentration which means purpose and not pleasure. He was soon near enough to see that she was Marty South. Click, click, click went the pattens; and she did not turn her head.
Arriving at the start of a long, flat path, which had exhausted many walkers during a time when most people traveled on foot, he noticed a well-dressed young woman in wooden clogs, moving with a determined focus that showed she was on a mission, not just wandering for fun. He quickly got close enough to realize it was Marty South. The clogs clicked with each step, and she didn’t glance back.
She had, however, become aware before this that the driver of the approaching gig was Giles. She had shrunk from being overtaken by him thus; but as it was inevitable, she had braced herself up for his inspection by closing her lips so as to make her mouth quite unemotional, and by throwing an additional firmness into her tread.
She had, however, realized before this that the driver of the approaching carriage was Giles. She had recoiled from being caught by him like this; but since it was unavoidable, she had steeled herself for his scrutiny by pressing her lips together to make her expression neutral and by adding extra determination to her stride.
“Why do you wear pattens, Marty? The turnpike is clean enough, although the lanes are muddy.”
“Why are you wearing pattens, Marty? The turnpike is clean enough, even though the lanes are muddy.”
“They save my boots.”
“They protect my boots.”
“But twelve miles in pattens—’twill twist your feet off. Come, get up and ride with me.”
“But twelve miles in those shoes—it'll ruin your feet. Come on, get up and ride with me.”
She hesitated, removed her pattens, knocked the gravel out of them against the wheel, and mounted in front of the nodding specimen apple-tree. She had so arranged her bonnet with a full border and trimmings that her lack of long hair did not much injure her appearance; though Giles, of course, saw that it was gone, and may have guessed her motive in parting with it, such sales, though infrequent, being not unheard of in that locality.
She hesitated, took off her wooden shoes, knocked the gravel out of them against the wheel, and climbed onto the seat in front of the drooping apple tree. She had styled her bonnet with a wide brim and decorations so that her lack of long hair didn’t hurt her looks too much; although Giles definitely noticed it was missing and might have suspected her reason for cutting it off, as such sales, though rare, weren't unheard of in that area.
But nature’s adornment was still hard by—in fact, within two feet of him, though he did not know it. In Marty’s basket was a brown paper packet, and in the packet the chestnut locks, which, by reason of the barber’s request for secrecy, she had not ventured to intrust to other hands.
But nature's beauty was still nearby—in fact, just two feet from him, though he didn’t realize it. In Marty’s basket was a brown paper package, and inside the package were the chestnut locks that, due to the barber’s request for confidentiality, she hadn’t dared to trust to anyone else.
Giles asked, with some hesitation, how her father was getting on.
Giles asked, a bit hesitantly, how her dad was doing.
He was better, she said; he would be able to work in a day or two; he would be quite well but for his craze about the tree falling on him.
He was doing better, she said; he should be able to work in a day or two; he would be totally fine if it weren't for his obsession with the tree falling on him.
“You know why I don’t ask for him so often as I might, I suppose?” said Winterborne. “Or don’t you know?”
“You know why I don’t ask for him as much as I could, right?” Winterborne said. “Or are you not aware?”
“I think I do.”
"I believe I do."
“Because of the houses?”
"Is it because of the houses?"
She nodded.
She agreed.
“Yes. I am afraid it may seem that my anxiety is about those houses, which I should lose by his death, more than about him. Marty, I do feel anxious about the houses, since half my income depends upon them; but I do likewise care for him; and it almost seems wrong that houses should be leased for lives, so as to lead to such mixed feelings.”
“Yes. I’m afraid it might look like I’m more worried about those houses I’d lose if he dies than about him. Marty, I really am anxious about the houses since half my income relies on them; but I also care about him. It almost feels wrong that houses are rented out for lifetimes, causing such mixed feelings.”
“After father’s death they will be Mrs. Charmond’s?”
“After Dad’s death, will they belong to Mrs. Charmond?”
“They’ll be hers.”
"They will be hers."
“They are going to keep company with my hair,” she thought.
“They're going to hang out with my hair,” she thought.
Thus talking, they reached the town. By no pressure would she ride up the street with him. “That’s the right of another woman,” she said, with playful malice, as she put on her pattens. “I wonder what you are thinking of! Thank you for the lift in that handsome gig. Good-by.”
Thus talking, they reached the town. No way was she going to ride up the street with him. “That’s the right of another woman,” she said, playfully teasing, as she put on her pattens. “I wonder what you’re thinking! Thanks for the ride in that fancy carriage. Bye.”
He blushed a little, shook his head at her, and drove on ahead into the streets—the churches, the abbey, and other buildings on this clear bright morning having the liny distinctness of architectural drawings, as if the original dream and vision of the conceiving master-mason, some mediaeval Vilars or other unknown to fame, were for a few minutes flashed down through the centuries to an unappreciative age. Giles saw their eloquent look on this day of transparency, but could not construe it. He turned into the inn-yard.
He flushed slightly, shook his head at her, and drove ahead into the streets—the churches, the abbey, and other buildings on this clear bright morning appearing like detailed architectural sketches, as if the original dream and vision of the master mason, some medieval Vilars or another unknown to history, had been briefly sent down through the centuries to a time that didn't appreciate it. Giles noticed their striking appearance on this transparent day but couldn't understand it. He turned into the inn-yard.
Marty, following the same track, marched promptly to the hair-dresser’s, Mr. Percombe’s. Percombe was the chief of his trade in Sherton Abbas. He had the patronage of such county offshoots as had been obliged to seek the shelter of small houses in that ancient town, of the local clergy, and so on, for some of whom he had made wigs, while others among them had compensated for neglecting him in their lifetime by patronizing him when they were dead, and letting him shave their corpses. On the strength of all this he had taken down his pole, and called himself “Perruquier to the aristocracy.”
Marty, staying on the same path, headed straight to the hairdresser's, Mr. Percombe’s. Percombe was the best in his field in Sherton Abbas. He had the support of county folks who had to find refuge in small homes in that historic town, as well as local clergy, some of whom he had made wigs for, while others made up for ignoring him in their lives by giving him business after they died, allowing him to shave their bodies. Because of all this, he took down his traditional barber pole and styled himself “Hairdresser to the aristocracy.”
Nevertheless, this sort of support did not quite fill his children’s mouths, and they had to be filled. So, behind his house there was a little yard, reached by a passage from the back street, and in that yard was a pole, and under the pole a shop of quite another description than the ornamental one in the front street. Here on Saturday nights from seven till ten he took an almost innumerable succession of twopences from the farm laborers who flocked thither in crowds from the country. And thus he lived.
Nevertheless, this kind of support didn’t really provide enough for his children, and they needed more. So, behind his house, there was a small yard, accessible via a path from the back street, and in that yard was a pole, with a shop that was very different from the decorative one on the main street. Here on Saturday nights from seven to ten, he collected countless twopences from the farm laborers who poured in from the countryside. And that’s how he managed to live.
Marty, of course, went to the front shop, and handed her packet to him silently. “Thank you,” said the barber, quite joyfully. “I hardly expected it after what you said last night.”
Marty, of course, walked into the front shop and silently handed her packet to him. “Thank you,” the barber said, clearly happy. “I hardly expected this after what you said last night.”
She turned aside, while a tear welled up and stood in each eye at this reminder.
She turned away, and a tear formed and lingered in each eye at this reminder.
“Nothing of what I told you,” he whispered, there being others in the shop. “But I can trust you, I see.”
“None of what I told you,” he whispered, since there were others in the shop. “But I can trust you, I can tell.”
She had now reached the end of this distressing business, and went listlessly along the street to attend to other errands. These occupied her till four o’clock, at which time she recrossed the market-place. It was impossible to avoid rediscovering Winterborne every time she passed that way, for standing, as he always did at this season of the year, with his specimen apple-tree in the midst, the boughs rose above the heads of the crowd, and brought a delightful suggestion of orchards among the crowded buildings there. When her eye fell upon him for the last time he was standing somewhat apart, holding the tree like an ensign, and looking on the ground instead of pushing his produce as he ought to have been doing. He was, in fact, not a very successful seller either of his trees or of his cider, his habit of speaking his mind, when he spoke at all, militating against this branch of his business.
She had finally reached the end of this troubling situation and walked aimlessly down the street to take care of other tasks. These kept her busy until four o'clock, when she crossed back through the market square. It was impossible not to notice Winterborne every time she passed that way, as he always stood in this season with his specimen apple tree right in the middle; the branches rose above the heads of the crowd and evoked a lovely image of orchards among the packed buildings. When she spotted him for the last time, he was standing somewhat off to the side, holding the tree like a flag, looking down instead of promoting his products as he should have been. In fact, he wasn't very successful at selling either his trees or his cider; his tendency to speak his mind, when he did speak, often worked against this part of his business.
While she regarded him he suddenly lifted his eyes in a direction away from Marty, his face simultaneously kindling with recognition and surprise. She followed his gaze, and saw walking across to him a flexible young creature in whom she perceived the features of her she had known as Miss Grace Melbury, but now looking glorified and refined above her former level. Winterborne, being fixed to the spot by his apple-tree, could not advance to meet her; he held out his spare hand with his hat in it, and with some embarrassment beheld her coming on tiptoe through the mud to the middle of the square where he stood.
While she was looking at him, he suddenly looked away from Marty, his face lighting up with recognition and surprise. She followed his gaze and saw a graceful young woman approaching him, someone she recognized as Miss Grace Melbury, but now she appeared elevated and more refined than before. Winterborne, rooted to the spot by his apple tree, couldn't move to greet her; he extended his free hand, holding his hat, and awkwardly watched her tiptoe through the mud until she reached the center of the square where he stood.
Miss Melbury’s arrival so early was, as Marty could see, unexpected by Giles, which accounted for his not being ready to receive her. Indeed, her father had named five o’clock as her probable time, for which reason that hour had been looming out all the day in his forward perspective, like an important edifice on a plain. Now here she was come, he knew not how, and his arranged welcome stultified.
Miss Melbury’s early arrival caught Giles off guard, as Marty could tell, which explained why he was unprepared to greet her. In fact, her father had suggested that she would likely arrive around five o'clock, making that time prominent in Giles's mind all day, like a significant building on a flat landscape. Now here she was, having arrived unexpectedly, leaving his planned welcome a total failure.
His face became gloomy at her necessity for stepping into the road, and more still at the little look of embarrassment which appeared on hers at having to perform the meeting with him under an apple-tree ten feet high in the middle of the market-place. Having had occasion to take off the new gloves she had bought to come home in, she held out to him a hand graduating from pink at the tips of the fingers to white at the palm; and the reception formed a scene, with the tree over their heads, which was not by any means an ordinary one in Sherton Abbas streets.
His expression darkened at her need to step into the road, and even more so at the hint of embarrassment that crossed her face while meeting him under an apple tree ten feet tall in the middle of the marketplace. After taking off the new gloves she had bought for her trip home, she extended a hand that transitioned from pink at the tips of her fingers to white at her palm; the moment was quite a sight, with the tree overhead, and certainly not something you’d see every day on the streets of Sherton Abbas.
Nevertheless, the greeting on her looks and lips was of a restrained type, which perhaps was not unnatural. For true it was that Giles Winterborne, well-attired and well-mannered as he was for a yeoman, looked rough beside her. It had sometimes dimly occurred to him, in his ruminating silence at Little Hintock, that external phenomena—such as the lowness or height or color of a hat, the fold of a coat, the make of a boot, or the chance attitude or occupation of a limb at the instant of view—may have a great influence upon feminine opinion of a man’s worth—so frequently founded on non-essentials; but a certain causticity of mental tone towards himself and the world in general had prevented to-day, as always, any enthusiastic action on the strength of that reflection; and her momentary instinct of reserve at first sight of him was the penalty he paid for his laxness.
Nevertheless, the way she greeted him—with her looks and smile—was pretty subdued, which may not have been surprising. It was true that Giles Winterborne, despite being well-dressed and polite for a farmer, seemed rough next to her. He had occasionally thought, during his quiet moments in Little Hintock, that things like the shape or color of a hat, the style of a coat, the type of boots, or even the way someone held their body at a given moment could really impact how women perceived a man's value, which often rested on trivial details. However, his critical mindset towards himself and the world had stopped him today, as it always had, from acting on that thought with any real enthusiasm; her initial sense of distance when she first saw him was the price he paid for his indifference.
He gave away the tree to a by-stander, as soon as he could find one who would accept the cumbersome gift, and the twain moved on towards the inn at which he had put up. Marty made as if to step forward for the pleasure of being recognized by Miss Melbury; but abruptly checking herself, she glided behind a carrier’s van, saying, dryly, “No; I baint wanted there,” and critically regarded Winterborne’s companion.
He gave the tree to a bystander as soon as he found someone who would take the awkward gift, and they both moved on towards the inn where he was staying. Marty almost stepped forward to be acknowledged by Miss Melbury, but then stopped herself and slipped behind a delivery van, saying flatly, “No; I don't want to be seen there,” while she scrutinized Winterborne’s companion.
It would have been very difficult to describe Grace Melbury with precision, either now or at any time. Nay, from the highest point of view, to precisely describe a human being, the focus of a universe—how impossible! But, apart from transcendentalism, there never probably lived a person who was in herself more completely a reductio ad absurdum of attempts to appraise a woman, even externally, by items of face and figure. Speaking generally, it may be said that she was sometimes beautiful, at other times not beautiful, according to the state of her health and spirits.
It would have been really hard to describe Grace Melbury accurately, now or at any other time. Seriously, from the highest perspective, how can you even accurately describe a person, the center of their universe? It’s impossible! But aside from philosophical debates, it’s likely that no one ever existed who embodied more completely a reductio ad absurdum of attempts to judge a woman based solely on her appearance. Generally speaking, it can be said that she was sometimes beautiful and other times not, depending on her health and mood.
In simple corporeal presentment she was of a fair and clear complexion, rather pale than pink, slim in build and elastic in movement. Her look expressed a tendency to wait for others’ thoughts before uttering her own; possibly also to wait for others’ deeds before her own doing. In her small, delicate mouth, which had perhaps hardly settled down to its matured curves, there was a gentleness that might hinder sufficient self-assertion for her own good. She had well-formed eyebrows which, had her portrait been painted, would probably have been done in Prout’s or Vandyke brown.
In simple physical appearance, she had a fair and clear complexion, more pale than pink, with a slim build and graceful movements. Her expression suggested that she tended to hold back her own thoughts until she heard what others had to say; perhaps she also waited for others to take action before she acted herself. In her small, delicate mouth, which had perhaps yet to fully take shape into its mature curves, there was a softness that might prevent her from standing up for herself enough for her own benefit. She had well-defined eyebrows that, if her portrait had been painted, would likely have been in Prout’s or Vandyke brown.
There was nothing remarkable in her dress just now, beyond a natural fitness and a style that was recent for the streets of Sherton. But, indeed, had it been the reverse, and quite striking, it would have meant just as little. For there can be hardly anything less connected with a woman’s personality than drapery which she has neither designed, manufactured, cut, sewed, or even seen, except by a glance of approval when told that such and such a shape and color must be had because it has been decided by others as imperative at that particular time.
There was nothing special about her outfit right now, just a natural fit and a style that was trendy for the streets of Sherton. But honestly, if it had been the opposite and very eye-catching, it would have mattered just as little. Because there's hardly anything less tied to a woman's personality than clothing that she hasn't designed, made, cut, sewn, or even looked at, except for a quick approval when she was told that a certain shape and color were a must because others decided it was essential at that moment.
What people, therefore, saw of her in a cursory view was very little; in truth, mainly something that was not she. The woman herself was a shadowy, conjectural creature who had little to do with the outlines presented to Sherton eyes; a shape in the gloom, whose true description could only be approximated by putting together a movement now and a glance then, in that patient and long-continued attentiveness which nothing but watchful loving-kindness ever troubles to give.
What people saw of her at first glance was very little; in reality, mostly something that wasn't really her. The woman herself was a vague, imagined figure who didn't match the outline others perceived; a shape in the shadows, whose true likeness could only be pieced together through a little movement here and a quick look there, in that patient and prolonged attention that only genuine love ever bothers to provide.
There was a little delay in their setting out from the town, and Marty South took advantage of it to hasten forward, with the view of escaping them on the way, lest they should feel compelled to spoil their tête-à-tête by asking her to ride. She walked fast, and one-third of the journey was done, and the evening rapidly darkening, before she perceived any sign of them behind her. Then, while ascending a hill, she dimly saw their vehicle drawing near the lowest part of the incline, their heads slightly bent towards each other; drawn together, no doubt, by their souls, as the heads of a pair of horses well in hand are drawn in by the rein. She walked still faster.
There was a bit of a delay in leaving the town, and Marty South used the opportunity to hurry ahead, hoping to avoid them on the way so they wouldn’t feel the need to invite her to ride along. She walked quickly, and had covered a third of the journey with the evening getting darker before she noticed any sign of them behind her. Then, while climbing a hill, she faintly saw their vehicle approaching the bottom of the slope, their heads slightly leaning towards each other, undoubtedly drawn together by their connection, like the heads of well-controlled horses pulled in by the reins. She walked even faster.
But between these and herself there was a carriage, apparently a brougham, coming in the same direction, with lighted lamps. When it overtook her—which was not soon, on account of her pace—the scene was much darker, and the lights glared in her eyes sufficiently to hide the details of the equipage.
But between her and them, there was a carriage, probably a brougham, coming in the same direction, with its lights on. When it caught up to her—which took a while because of her pace—the surroundings were much darker, and the bright lights made it hard for her to see the details of the carriage.
It occurred to Marty that she might take hold behind this carriage and so keep along with it, to save herself the mortification of being overtaken and picked up for pity’s sake by the coming pair. Accordingly, as the carriage drew abreast of her in climbing the long ascent, she walked close to the wheels, the rays of the nearest lamp penetrating her very pores. She had only just dropped behind when the carriage stopped, and to her surprise the coachman asked her, over his shoulder, if she would ride. What made the question more surprising was that it came in obedience to an order from the interior of the vehicle.
It occurred to Marty that she could grab onto the back of this carriage and keep up with it, avoiding the embarrassment of being overtaken and picked up out of pity by the approaching pair. So, as the carriage pulled alongside her on the long climb, she walked close to the wheels, the light from the nearest lamp almost reaching her skin. She had just fallen behind when the carriage came to a stop, and to her surprise, the coachman asked her over his shoulder if she wanted to ride. What made the question even more surprising was that it came at the request of someone inside the vehicle.
Marty gladly assented, for she was weary, very weary, after working all night and keeping afoot all day. She mounted beside the coachman, wondering why this good-fortune had happened to her. He was rather a great man in aspect, and she did not like to inquire of him for some time.
Marty happily agreed, as she was exhausted, really exhausted, after working all night and being on her feet all day. She climbed up next to the driver, wondering why this lucky break had come her way. He had quite an imposing presence, and she didn't feel like asking him anything for a while.
At last she said, “Who has been so kind as to ask me to ride?”
At last she said, “Who has been nice enough to invite me to ride?”
“Mrs. Charmond,” replied her statuesque companion.
“Mrs. Charmond,” replied her tall companion.
Marty was stirred at the name, so closely connected with her last night’s experiences. “Is this her carriage?” she whispered.
Marty was stirred by the name, so closely linked to her experiences from last night. “Is this her carriage?” she whispered.
“Yes; she’s inside.”
"Yes, she's inside."
Marty reflected, and perceived that Mrs. Charmond must have recognized her plodding up the hill under the blaze of the lamp; recognized, probably, her stubbly poll (since she had kept away her face), and thought that those stubbles were the result of her own desire.
Marty thought about it and realized that Mrs. Charmond must have seen her trudging up the hill under the bright lamp; she probably recognized her short hair (since she kept her face hidden) and assumed that the stubble was a result of her own choice.
Marty South was not so very far wrong. Inside the carriage a pair of bright eyes looked from a ripely handsome face, and though behind those bright eyes was a mind of unfathomed mysteries, beneath them there beat a heart capable of quick extempore warmth—a heart which could, indeed, be passionately and imprudently warm on certain occasions. At present, after recognizing the girl, she had acted on a mere impulse, possibly feeling gratified at the denuded appearance which signified the success of her agent in obtaining what she had required.
Marty South wasn't too far off. Inside the carriage, a pair of bright eyes shone from a strikingly attractive face. Even though there was a mind full of unexplored mysteries behind those bright eyes, beneath them was a heart that could quickly warm up in the moment—a heart that could, on certain occasions, be passionately and recklessly warm. Right now, after recognizing the girl, she had acted on pure impulse, possibly feeling pleased about the bare appearance that showed her agent had successfully gotten what she needed.
“’Tis wonderful that she should ask ye,” observed the magisterial coachman, presently. “I have never known her do it before, for as a rule she takes no interest in the village folk at all.”
“It's great that she would ask you,” said the official-looking coachman after a moment. “I've never seen her do that before, because usually she doesn't care about the village people at all.”
Marty said no more, but occasionally turned her head to see if she could get a glimpse of the Olympian creature who as the coachman had truly observed, hardly ever descended from her clouds into the Tempe of the parishioners. But she could discern nothing of the lady. She also looked for Miss Melbury and Winterborne. The nose of their horse sometimes came quite near the back of Mrs. Charmond’s carriage. But they never attempted to pass it till the latter conveyance turned towards the park gate, when they sped by. Here the carriage drew up that the gate might be opened, and in the momentary silence Marty heard a gentle oral sound, soft as a breeze.
Marty said nothing more, but occasionally turned her head to catch a glimpse of the impressive figure who, as the coachman, had truly noticed her, hardly ever coming down from her lofty position to interact with the parishioners. But she couldn’t see anything of the lady. She also looked for Miss Melbury and Winterborne. The nose of their horse sometimes got quite close to the back of Mrs. Charmond’s carriage. However, they never tried to pass it until the latter vehicle turned towards the park gate, at which point they rushed by. The carriage came to a stop so the gate could be opened, and in the momentary silence, Marty heard a gentle sound, soft as a breeze.
“What’s that?” she whispered.
“What’s that?” she asked quietly.
“Mis’ess yawning.”
"Miss is yawning."
“Why should she yawn?”
“Why should she be bored?”
“Oh, because she’s been used to such wonderfully good life, and finds it dull here. She’ll soon be off again on account of it.”
“Oh, because she’s used to such a wonderfully good life and finds it boring here. She’ll be leaving again soon because of it.”
“So rich and so powerful, and yet to yawn!” the girl murmured. “Then things don’t fay with she any more than with we!”
“So rich and so powerful, and yet to yawn!” the girl murmured. “Then things don’t go well for her any more than for us!”
Marty now alighted; the lamp again shone upon her, and as the carriage rolled on, a soft voice said to her from the interior, “Good-night.”
Marty got out now; the lamp shone on her again, and as the carriage moved on, a soft voice from inside said to her, “Good-night.”
“Good-night, ma’am,” said Marty. But she had not been able to see the woman who began so greatly to interest her—the second person of her own sex who had operated strongly on her mind that day.
“Good night, ma’am,” said Marty. But she had not been able to see the woman who had begun to interest her so much—the second woman that day who had made a strong impression on her mind.
CHAPTER VI.
Meanwhile, Winterborne and Grace Melbury had also undergone their little experiences of the same homeward journey.
Meanwhile, Winterborne and Grace Melbury had also gone through their own experiences on the same trip home.
As he drove off with her out of the town the glances of people fell upon them, the younger thinking that Mr. Winterborne was in a pleasant place, and wondering in what relation he stood towards her. Winterborne himself was unconscious of this. Occupied solely with the idea of having her in charge, he did not notice much with outward eye, neither observing how she was dressed, nor the effect of the picture they together composed in the landscape.
As he drove her out of town, people looked at them, with younger folks thinking that Mr. Winterborne was in a good spot and wondering what his connection to her was. Winterborne didn’t notice any of this. Focused only on the idea of having her with him, he didn’t pay much attention to what was happening around them, not noting how she was dressed or the way they looked together in the scenery.
Their conversation was in briefest phrase for some time, Grace being somewhat disconcerted, through not having understood till they were about to start that Giles was to be her sole conductor in place of her father. When they were in the open country he spoke.
Their conversation was short for a while, as Grace was a bit unsettled, not realizing until they were about to leave that Giles would be her only guide instead of her father. Once they were out in the countryside, he spoke.
“Don’t Brownley’s farm-buildings look strange to you, now they have been moved bodily from the hollow where the old ones stood to the top of the hill?”
“Don’t Brownley’s farm buildings look odd to you now that they’ve been completely moved from the hollow where the old ones used to be to the top of the hill?”
She admitted that they did, though she should not have seen any difference in them if he had not pointed it out.
She acknowledged that they did, even though she wouldn't have noticed any difference if he hadn't mentioned it.
“They had a good crop of bitter-sweets; they couldn’t grind them all” (nodding towards an orchard where some heaps of apples had been left lying ever since the ingathering).
“They had a good harvest of bitter-sweets; they couldn’t grind them all” (nodding towards an orchard where some piles of apples had been left sitting ever since the gathering).
She said “Yes,” but looking at another orchard.
She said "Yes," but was looking at another orchard.
“Why, you are looking at John-apple-trees! You know bitter-sweets—you used to well enough!”
“Why, you’re looking at John apple trees! You know bittersweets—you used to know them pretty well!”
“I am afraid I have forgotten, and it is getting too dark to distinguish.”
“I’m afraid I forgot, and it’s getting too dark to see.”
Winterborne did not continue. It seemed as if the knowledge and interest which had formerly moved Grace’s mind had quite died away from her. He wondered whether the special attributes of his image in the past had evaporated like these other things.
Winterborne didn’t continue. It felt like the knowledge and interest that had once engaged Grace's mind had completely faded. He wondered if the unique qualities of his image from the past had disappeared as well, like these other things.
However that might be, the fact at present was merely this, that where he was seeing John-apples and farm-buildings she was beholding a far remoter scene—a scene no less innocent and simple, indeed, but much contrasting—a broad lawn in the fashionable suburb of a fast city, the evergreen leaves shining in the evening sun, amid which bounding girls, gracefully clad in artistic arrangements of blue, brown, red, black, and white, were playing at games, with laughter and chat, in all the pride of life, the notes of piano and harp trembling in the air from the open windows adjoining. Moreover, they were girls—and this was a fact which Grace Melbury’s delicate femininity could not lose sight of—whose parents Giles would have addressed with a deferential Sir or Madam. Beside this visioned scene the homely farmsteads did not quite hold their own from her present twenty-year point of survey. For all his woodland sequestration, Giles knew the primitive simplicity of the subject he had started, and now sounded a deeper note.
However that might be, the reality now was simply this: while he was seeing apple trees and farm buildings, she was envisioning a much more distant scene—a scene no less innocent and straightforward, but very different—a wide lawn in the trendy suburb of a bustling city, the evergreen leaves sparkling in the evening sun, where energetic girls, elegantly dressed in creative combinations of blue, brown, red, black, and white, were playing games, filled with laughter and conversation, basking in the joy of life, with the sounds of piano and harp drifting through the air from the open windows nearby. Plus, they were girls—and this was a fact that Grace Melbury’s delicate femininity couldn’t ignore—whose parents Giles would have addressed with a respectful Sir or Madam. Compared to this imagined scene, the familiar farmhouses didn’t quite measure up from her current twenty-year perspective. Despite his woodland solitude, Giles understood the basic simplicity of the topic he had introduced and now struck a deeper chord.
“’Twas very odd what we said to each other years ago; I often think of it. I mean our saying that if we still liked each other when you were twenty and I twenty-five, we’d—”
“It's really strange what we said to each other years ago; I often think about it. I mean when we said that if we still liked each other when you were twenty and I was twenty-five, we’d—”
“It was child’s tattle.”
“It was kid's gossip.”
“H’m!” said Giles, suddenly.
“Hm!” said Giles, suddenly.
“I mean we were young,” said she, more considerately. That gruff manner of his in making inquiries reminded her that he was unaltered in much.
“I mean we were young,” she said more thoughtfully. His gruff way of asking questions reminded her that he hadn’t changed in many ways.
“Yes....I beg your pardon, Miss Melbury; your father sent me to meet you to-day.”
“Yes... I’m sorry, Miss Melbury; your father sent me to meet you today.”
“I know it, and I am glad of it.”
“I know it, and I’m glad about it.”
He seemed satisfied with her tone and went on: “At that time you were sitting beside me at the back of your father’s covered car, when we were coming home from gypsying, all the party being squeezed in together as tight as sheep in an auction-pen. It got darker and darker, and I said—I forget the exact words—but I put my arm round your waist and there you let it stay till your father, sitting in front suddenly stopped telling his story to Farmer Bollen, to light his pipe. The flash shone into the car, and showed us all up distinctly; my arm flew from your waist like lightning; yet not so quickly but that some of ’em had seen, and laughed at us. Yet your father, to our amazement, instead of being angry, was mild as milk, and seemed quite pleased. Have you forgot all that, or haven’t you?”
He seemed pleased with her tone and continued: “Back then, you were sitting next to me in the back of your dad’s covered car when we were coming home from that trip, all of us crammed in as tight as sheep at an auction. It kept getting darker, and I said—I can’t remember the exact words—but I wrapped my arm around your waist, and you let it stay there until your dad, who was sitting up front, suddenly stopped telling his story to Farmer Bollen to light his pipe. The light flashed into the car and revealed all of us clearly; my arm shot away from your waist like lightning; but not so quickly that some of them didn’t notice and laugh at us. Surprisingly, your dad, instead of getting mad, was as calm as could be and seemed quite happy. Have you forgotten all that, or do you still remember?”
She owned that she remembered it very well, now that he mentioned the circumstances. “But, goodness! I must have been in short frocks,” she said.
She admitted that she remembered it clearly now that he brought up the circumstances. “But wow! I must have been wearing short dresses,” she said.
“Come now, Miss Melbury, that won’t do! Short frocks, indeed! You know better, as well as I.”
“Come on, Miss Melbury, that’s not going to work! Short dresses, really! You know better, just like I do.”
Grace thereupon declared that she would not argue with an old friend she valued so highly as she valued him, saying the words with the easy elusiveness that will be polite at all costs. It might possibly be true, she added, that she was getting on in girlhood when that event took place; but if it were so, then she was virtually no less than an old woman now, so far did the time seem removed from her present. “Do you ever look at things philosophically instead of personally?” she asked.
Grace then said that she wouldn’t argue with an old friend she valued so much, using a polite tone that was all about keeping the peace. It might be true, she added, that she was getting older when that event happened; but if that’s the case, then she felt like she was practically an old woman now, considering how far removed that time felt from her present. “Do you ever look at things from a philosophical perspective instead of a personal one?” she asked.
“I can’t say that I do,” answered Giles, his eyes lingering far ahead upon a dark spot, which proved to be a brougham.
“I can’t say that I do,” replied Giles, his gaze fixed far ahead on a dark shape, which turned out to be a brougham.
“I think you may, sometimes, with advantage,” said she. “Look at yourself as a pitcher drifting on the stream with other pitchers, and consider what contrivances are most desirable for avoiding cracks in general, and not only for saving your poor one. Shall I tell you all about Bath or Cheltenham, or places on the Continent that I visited last summer?”
“I think you might find it helpful at times,” she said. “Imagine yourself as a pitcher floating along with other pitchers, and think about what features are best for preventing cracks in general, not just for saving your poor one. Should I tell you all about Bath or Cheltenham, or the places in Europe I visited last summer?”
“With all my heart.”
“With all my heart.”
She then described places and persons in such terms as might have been used for that purpose by any woman to any man within the four seas, so entirely absent from that description was everything specially appertaining to her own existence. When she had done she said, gayly, “Now do you tell me in return what has happened in Hintock since I have been away.”
She then described places and people in a way that could have been used by any woman talking to any man anywhere, so completely missing from her description was anything specific to her own life. When she finished, she cheerfully said, “Now you tell me what’s happened in Hintock since I’ve been gone.”
“Anything to keep the conversation away from her and me,” said Giles within him.
“Anything to keep the conversation away from her and me,” Giles thought to himself.
It was true cultivation had so far advanced in the soil of Miss Melbury’s mind as to lead her to talk by rote of anything save of that she knew well, and had the greatest interest in developing—that is to say, herself.
It was true that cultivation had progressed in Miss Melbury’s mind to the point where she could speak on autopilot about everything except what she truly understood and was most interested in developing—that is to say, herself.
He had not proceeded far with his somewhat bald narration when they drew near the carriage that had been preceding them for some time. Miss Melbury inquired if he knew whose carriage it was.
He hadn't gotten very far with his somewhat bare story when they approached the carriage that had been ahead of them for a while. Miss Melbury asked if he knew whose carriage it was.
Winterborne, although he had seen it, had not taken it into account. On examination, he said it was Mrs. Charmond’s.
Winterborne, although he had seen it, hadn’t considered it. Upon closer inspection, he said it belonged to Mrs. Charmond.
Grace watched the vehicle and its easy roll, and seemed to feel more nearly akin to it than to the one she was in.
Grace watched the vehicle as it smoothly rolled by, and felt more connected to it than to the one she was in.
“Pooh! We can polish off the mileage as well as they, come to that,” said Winterborne, reading her mind; and rising to emulation at what it bespoke, he whipped on the horse. This it was which had brought the nose of Mr. Melbury’s old gray close to the back of Mrs. Charmond’s much-eclipsing vehicle.
“Ugh! We can cover the distance just as well as they can,” said Winterborne, understanding her thoughts; and rising to the challenge that it presented, he urged the horse forward. This was what had brought the nose of Mr. Melbury’s old gray horse close to the back of Mrs. Charmond’s significantly larger vehicle.
“There’s Marty South sitting up with the coachman,” said he, discerning her by her dress.
“There’s Marty South sitting with the coachman,” he said, recognizing her by her outfit.
“Ah, poor Marty! I must ask her to come to see me this very evening. How does she happen to be riding there?”
“Ah, poor Marty! I need to ask her to come see me this evening. How did she end up riding over there?”
“I don’t know. It is very singular.”
“I don’t know. It’s really unique.”
Thus these people with converging destinies went along the road together, till Winterborne, leaving the track of the carriage, turned into Little Hintock, where almost the first house was the timber-merchant’s. Pencils of dancing light streamed out of the windows sufficiently to show the white laurestinus flowers, and glance over the polished leaves of laurel. The interior of the rooms could be seen distinctly, warmed up by the fire-flames, which in the parlor were reflected from the glass of the pictures and bookcase, and in the kitchen from the utensils and ware.
Thus, these people with intertwined fates walked along the road together, until Winterborne, leaving the carriage track, turned into Little Hintock, where the first house was the timber merchant’s. Beams of dancing light spilled out of the windows, enough to highlight the white laurustinus flowers and shimmer over the polished laurel leaves. The interiors of the rooms were clearly visible, warmed by the flickering flames, which in the parlor were reflected in the glass of the pictures and bookcase, and in the kitchen from the pots and dishes.
“Let us look at the dear place for a moment before we call them,” she said.
“Let’s take a quick look at the lovely place before we call them,” she said.
In the kitchen dinner was preparing; for though Melbury dined at one o’clock at other times, to-day the meal had been kept back for Grace. A rickety old spit was in motion, its end being fixed in the fire-dog, and the whole kept going by means of a cord conveyed over pulleys along the ceiling to a large stone suspended in a corner of the room. Old Grammer Oliver came and wound it up with a rattle like that of a mill.
In the kitchen, dinner was being prepared; even though Melbury usually ate at one o’clock, today the meal was delayed for Grace. An old, wobbly spit was turning, its end fixed in the fire-dog, and it was kept moving by a cord running over pulleys along the ceiling to a heavy stone hanging in a corner of the room. Old Grammer Oliver came in and wound it up with a noise like a mill.
In the parlor a large shade of Mrs. Melbury’s head fell on the wall and ceiling; but before the girl had regarded this room many moments their presence was discovered, and her father and stepmother came out to welcome her.
In the living room, a large shadow of Mrs. Melbury’s head cast itself on the wall and ceiling; but before the girl had spent much time looking around, her father and stepmother noticed her and came out to greet her.
The character of the Melbury family was of that kind which evinces some shyness in showing strong emotion among each other: a trait frequent in rural households, and one which stands in curiously inverse relation to most of the peculiarities distinguishing villagers from the people of towns. Thus hiding their warmer feelings under commonplace talk all round, Grace’s reception produced no extraordinary demonstrations. But that more was felt than was enacted appeared from the fact that her father, in taking her in-doors, quite forgot the presence of Giles without, as did also Grace herself. He said nothing, but took the gig round to the yard and called out from the spar-house the man who particularly attended to these matters when there was no conversation to draw him off among the copse-workers inside. Winterborne then returned to the door with the intention of entering the house.
The Melbury family had a way of being a bit shy when it came to showing strong emotions with each other, a common trait in rural families. This behavior is interestingly different from many things that set villagers apart from town folks. By keeping their deeper feelings hidden under everyday conversation, Grace didn’t receive any unusual displays of affection when she arrived. However, it was clear that more was being felt than shown, since her father completely forgot about Giles waiting outside while he took Grace inside. He didn’t say anything; he just took the cart around to the yard and called out to the man who usually handled these things when there weren’t any conversations happening among the workers inside the copse. Winterborne then returned to the door, planning to go into the house.
The family had gone into the parlor, and were still absorbed in themselves. The fire was, as before, the only light, and it irradiated Grace’s face and hands so as to make them look wondrously smooth and fair beside those of the two elders; shining also through the loose hair about her temples as sunlight through a brake. Her father was surveying her in a dazed conjecture, so much had she developed and progressed in manner and stature since he last had set eyes on her.
The family had entered the living room and were still wrapped up in their own thoughts. The fire was, as before, the only source of light, casting a warm glow on Grace’s face and hands, making them look incredibly smooth and fair compared to the two older adults. It also shone through the loose strands of hair around her temples like sunlight filtering through the branches. Her father was looking at her in a dazed wonder, amazed at how much she had grown and changed in both demeanor and appearance since he last saw her.
Observing these things, Winterborne remained dubious by the door, mechanically tracing with his fingers certain time-worn letters carved in the jambs—initials of by-gone generations of householders who had lived and died there.
Observing all this, Winterborne stood uncertainly by the door, absently tracing with his fingers some old letters carved into the doorframe—initials of past generations of residents who had lived and died there.
No, he declared to himself, he would not enter and join the family; they had forgotten him, and it was enough for to-day that he had brought her home. Still, he was a little surprised that her father’s eagerness to send him for Grace should have resulted in such an anticlimax as this.
No, he told himself, he wouldn’t go in and join the family; they had forgotten about him, and it was enough for today that he had brought her home. Still, he was a bit surprised that her father’s eagerness to send him for Grace had ended up in such a letdown as this.
He walked softly away into the lane towards his own house, looking back when he reached the turning, from which he could get a last glimpse of the timber-merchant’s roof. He hazarded guesses as to what Grace was saying just at that moment, and murmured, with some self-derision, “nothing about me!” He looked also in the other direction, and saw against the sky the thatched hip and solitary chimney of Marty’s cottage, and thought of her too, struggling bravely along under that humble shelter, among her spar-gads and pots and skimmers.
He walked quietly down the lane toward his house, glancing back as he reached the turn, where he could catch a final glimpse of the timber merchant's roof. He wondered what Grace was saying at that moment and chuckled to himself, “Nothing about me!” He also looked in the other direction and saw the thatched roof and lonely chimney of Marty’s cottage against the sky, thinking of her too, bravely managing under that simple shelter, surrounded by her tools and pots.
At the timber-merchant’s, in the mean time, the conversation flowed; and, as Giles Winterborne had rightly enough deemed, on subjects in which he had no share. Among the excluding matters there was, for one, the effect upon Mr. Melbury of the womanly mien and manners of his daughter, which took him so much unawares that, though it did not make him absolutely forget the existence of her conductor homeward, thrust Giles’s image back into quite the obscurest cellarage of his brain. Another was his interview with Mrs. Charmond’s agent that morning, at which the lady herself had been present for a few minutes. Melbury had purchased some standing timber from her a long time before, and now that the date had come for felling it he was left to pursue almost his own course. This was what the household were actually talking of during Giles’s cogitation without; and Melbury’s satisfaction with the clear atmosphere that had arisen between himself and the deity of the groves which enclosed his residence was the cause of a counterbalancing mistiness on the side towards Winterborne.
At the timber merchant's, the conversation flowed, and, as Giles Winterborne correctly perceived, it revolved around topics he wasn’t involved in. One of these topics was the impact of his daughter’s feminine appearance and behavior on Mr. Melbury, which caught him off guard so much that, while it didn't make him completely forget about her escort home, it pushed Giles’s image into the darkest corners of his mind. Another subject was Melbury's meeting with Mrs. Charmond's agent that morning, during which she had been present for a few minutes. Melbury had bought some standing timber from her a long time ago, and now that it was time to cut it down, he was pretty much free to manage it as he wished. This was what the household was actually discussing while Giles was lost in thought outside; Melbury's satisfaction with the clear understanding he had established with the spirit of the woods surrounding his home created a corresponding cloudiness regarding Winterborne.
“So thoroughly does she trust me,” said Melbury, “that I might fell, top, or lop, on my own judgment, any stick o’ timber whatever in her wood, and fix the price o’t, and settle the matter. But, name it all! I wouldn’t do such a thing. However, it may be useful to have this good understanding with her....I wish she took more interest in the place, and stayed here all the year round.”
“She's got so much faith in me,” said Melbury, “that I could cut down, trim, or remove any tree in her woods based on my own judgment, set the price, and wrap it up. But honestly, I wouldn't do that. Still, it's nice to have this solid understanding with her... I just wish she cared more about the place and spent the whole year here.”
“I am afraid ’tis not her regard for you, but her dislike of Hintock, that makes her so easy about the trees,” said Mrs. Melbury.
“I’m afraid it’s not her feelings for you, but her dislike of Hintock, that makes her so unconcerned about the trees,” said Mrs. Melbury.
When dinner was over, Grace took a candle and began to ramble pleasurably through the rooms of her old home, from which she had latterly become wellnigh an alien. Each nook and each object revived a memory, and simultaneously modified it. The chambers seemed lower than they had appeared on any previous occasion of her return, the surfaces of both walls and ceilings standing in such relations to the eye that it could not avoid taking microscopic note of their irregularities and old fashion. Her own bedroom wore at once a look more familiar than when she had left it, and yet a face estranged. The world of little things therein gazed at her in helpless stationariness, as though they had tried and been unable to make any progress without her presence. Over the place where her candle had been accustomed to stand, when she had used to read in bed till the midnight hour, there was still the brown spot of smoke. She did not know that her father had taken especial care to keep it from being cleaned off.
When dinner was done, Grace grabbed a candle and started to wander happily through the rooms of her old home, which she had recently felt almost like a stranger in. Each corner and every item brought back a memory, while also changing it. The rooms seemed smaller than they had during her previous visits, with the walls and ceilings appearing in such a way that she couldn’t help but notice their flaws and outdated style. Her bedroom felt both more familiar and yet strangely distant. The little things in it seemed to stare at her in their unchanged state, as if they had tried and failed to move on without her. Above the spot where her candle usually stood, where she would read in bed until late at night, there was still a brown smudge of smoke. Little did she know, her father had made sure it wasn’t cleaned off.
Having concluded her perambulation of this now uselessly commodious edifice, Grace began to feel that she had come a long journey since the morning; and when her father had been up himself, as well as his wife, to see that her room was comfortable and the fire burning, she prepared to retire for the night. No sooner, however, was she in bed than her momentary sleepiness took itself off, and she wished she had stayed up longer. She amused herself by listening to the old familiar noises that she could hear to be still going on down-stairs, and by looking towards the window as she lay. The blind had been drawn up, as she used to have it when a girl, and she could just discern the dim tree-tops against the sky on the neighboring hill. Beneath this meeting-line of light and shade nothing was visible save one solitary point of light, which blinked as the tree-twigs waved to and fro before its beams. From its position it seemed to radiate from the window of a house on the hill-side. The house had been empty when she was last at home, and she wondered who inhabited the place now.
Having finished her walk through this now ridiculously spacious building, Grace started to feel like she had come a long way since that morning. After her father and his wife checked to make sure her room was comfortable and the fire was lit, she got ready for bed. However, as soon as she got under the covers, her temporary sleepiness vanished, and she regretted not staying up longer. She kept herself entertained by listening to the familiar sounds coming from downstairs and by glancing at the window as she lay there. The blind was pulled up, just like she had it when she was a girl, and she could barely make out the faint tree-tops against the sky on the nearby hill. Below this line where light and shadow met, nothing was visible except for a single point of light, which flickered as the tree branches moved in front of it. It seemed to be coming from the window of a house on the hillside. The house had been empty the last time she was home, and she wondered who lived there now.
Her conjectures, however, were not intently carried on, and she was watching the light quite idly, when it gradually changed color, and at length shone blue as sapphire. Thus it remained several minutes, and then it passed through violet to red.
Her speculations, however, weren’t pursued with much focus, and she was watching the light rather absentmindedly when it slowly changed color and eventually glowed blue like a sapphire. It stayed that way for several minutes, and then it shifted from violet to red.
Her curiosity was so widely awakened by the phenomenon that she sat up in bed, and stared steadily at the shine. An appearance of this sort, sufficient to excite attention anywhere, was no less than a marvel in Hintock, as Grace had known the hamlet. Almost every diurnal and nocturnal effect in that woodland place had hitherto been the direct result of the regular terrestrial roll which produced the season’s changes; but here was something dissociated from these normal sequences, and foreign to local habit and knowledge.
Her curiosity was so sparked by the phenomenon that she sat up in bed and stared intently at the glow. An appearance like this, enough to grab attention anywhere, was nothing short of a wonder in Hintock, as Grace had known the village. Almost every daily and nightly effect in that wooded area had previously been the direct result of the regular Earth's movements that created the seasonal changes; but here was something disconnected from these usual patterns and unfamiliar to local customs and understanding.
It was about this moment that Grace heard the household below preparing to retire, the most emphatic noise in the proceeding being that of her father bolting the doors. Then the stairs creaked, and her father and mother passed her chamber. The last to come was Grammer Oliver.
It was around this time that Grace heard the family downstairs getting ready for bed, the loudest sound being her dad locking the doors. Then the stairs creaked, and her parents walked past her room. The last to come up was Grammer Oliver.
Grace slid out of bed, ran across the room, and lifting the latch, said, “I am not asleep, Grammer. Come in and talk to me.”
Grace got out of bed, rushed across the room, and lifted the latch, saying, “I’m not asleep, Grammer. Come in and talk to me.”
Before the old woman had entered, Grace was again under the bedclothes. Grammer set down her candlestick, and seated herself on the edge of Miss Melbury’s coverlet.
Before the old woman came in, Grace was back under the blankets. Grammer put down her candlestick and sat on the edge of Miss Melbury’s bedspread.
“I want you to tell me what light that is I see on the hill-side,” said Grace.
"I want you to tell me what that light on the hillside is," said Grace.
Mrs. Oliver looked across. “Oh, that,” she said, “is from the doctor’s. He’s often doing things of that sort. Perhaps you don’t know that we’ve a doctor living here now—Mr. Fitzpiers by name?”
Mrs. Oliver looked over. “Oh, that,” she said, “is from the doctor's office. He often does things like that. Maybe you don't know that we have a doctor living here now—Mr. Fitzpiers, by the way?”
Grace admitted that she had not heard of him.
Grace confessed that she had never heard of him.
“Well, then, miss, he’s come here to get up a practice. I know him very well, through going there to help ’em scrub sometimes, which your father said I might do, if I wanted to, in my spare time. Being a bachelor-man, he’ve only a lad in the house. Oh yes, I know him very well. Sometimes he’ll talk to me as if I were his own mother.”
“Well, then, miss, he’s come here to start a practice. I know him pretty well since I go there to help them clean sometimes, which your father said I could do if I wanted to in my spare time. Being a single man, he only has a kid in the house. Oh yes, I know him very well. Sometimes he talks to me like I’m his own mother.”
“Indeed.”
"Definitely."
“Yes. ‘Grammer,’ he said one day, when I asked him why he came here where there’s hardly anybody living, ‘I’ll tell you why I came here. I took a map, and I marked on it where Dr. Jones’s practice ends to the north of this district, and where Mr. Taylor’s ends on the south, and little Jimmy Green’s on the east, and somebody else’s to the west. Then I took a pair of compasses, and found the exact middle of the country that was left between these bounds, and that middle was Little Hintock; so here I am....’ But, Lord, there: poor young man!”
“Yes. ‘Grammer,’ he said one day when I asked him why he came to a place where hardly anyone lives, ‘I’ll tell you why I came here. I took a map and marked where Dr. Jones’s practice ends to the north of this area, where Mr. Taylor’s ends to the south, where little Jimmy Green’s is to the east, and someone else’s to the west. Then I grabbed a compass and found the exact center of the land left between those boundaries, and that center was Little Hintock; so here I am....’ But, oh dear, poor young man!”
“Why?”
"Why?"
“He said, ‘Grammer Oliver, I’ve been here three months, and although there are a good many people in the Hintocks and the villages round, and a scattered practice is often a very good one, I don’t seem to get many patients. And there’s no society at all; and I’m pretty near melancholy mad,’ he said, with a great yawn. ‘I should be quite if it were not for my books, and my lab—laboratory, and what not. Grammer, I was made for higher things.’ And then he’d yawn and yawn again.”
“He said, ‘Grammer Oliver, I’ve been here three months, and even though there are quite a few people in the Hintocks and the surrounding villages, and having a scattered practice can often be beneficial, I don’t seem to get many patients. Plus, there’s no community at all; I’m almost going a bit crazy,’ he said, with a big yawn. ‘I definitely would be if it weren't for my books and my lab, and all that. Grammer, I was meant for greater things.’ And then he would yawn and yawn again.”
“Was he really made for higher things, do you think? I mean, is he clever?”
“Do you think he was really meant for greater things? I mean, is he smart?”
“Well, no. How can he be clever? He may be able to jine up a broken man or woman after a fashion, and put his finger upon an ache if you tell him nearly where ’tis; but these young men—they should live to my time of life, and then they’d see how clever they were at five-and-twenty! And yet he’s a projick, a real projick, and says the oddest of rozums. ‘Ah, Grammer,’ he said, at another time, ‘let me tell you that Everything is Nothing. There’s only Me and not Me in the whole world.’ And he told me that no man’s hands could help what they did, any more than the hands of a clock....Yes, he’s a man of strange meditations, and his eyes seem to see as far as the north star.”
"Well, no. How can he be smart? He might be able to piece together a broken person in some way and identify a pain if you tell him roughly where it is; but these young guys—they should live to my age, and then they’d understand how clever they really are at twenty-five! And yet he’s a real character, a genuine eccentric, and says the weirdest things. ‘Ah, Grammer,’ he told me once, ‘let me tell you that Everything is Nothing. There’s only Me and Not Me in the entire world.’ And he said that no man’s hands can control what they do, any more than the hands of a clock....Yes, he’s a guy with peculiar thoughts, and his eyes seem to see as far as the North Star."
“He will soon go away, no doubt.”
“He will be leaving soon, that’s for sure.”
“I don’t think so.” Grace did not say “Why?” and Grammer hesitated. At last she went on: “Don’t tell your father or mother, miss, if I let you know a secret.”
“I don’t think so.” Grace didn’t say “Why?” and Grammer hesitated. Finally, she continued: “Don’t tell your dad or mom, miss, if I share a secret with you.”
Grace gave the required promise.
Grace made the required promise.
“Well, he talks of buying me; so he won’t go away just yet.”
“Well, he says he wants to buy me; so he’s not going anywhere just yet.”
“Buying you!—how?”
"Buying you? How?"
“Not my soul—my body, when I’m dead. One day when I was there cleaning, he said, ‘Grammer, you’ve a large brain—a very large organ of brain,’ he said. ‘A woman’s is usually four ounces less than a man’s; but yours is man’s size.’ Well, then—hee, hee!—after he’d flattered me a bit like that, he said he’d give me ten pounds to have me as a natomy after my death. Well, knowing I’d no chick nor chiel left, and nobody with any interest in me, I thought, faith, if I can be of any use to my fellow-creatures after I’m gone they are welcome to my services; so I said I’d think it over, and would most likely agree and take the ten pounds. Now this is a secret, miss, between us two. The money would be very useful to me; and I see no harm in it.”
“Not my soul—my body, when I’m dead. One day while I was cleaning, he said, ‘Grammer, you have a big brain—a very big brain,’ he said. ‘A woman’s is usually four ounces smaller than a man’s; but yours is man-sized.’ Well, then—hee, hee!—after he’d flattered me a bit like that, he said he’d give me ten pounds to use me as an anatomy after I died. Well, knowing I had no kids or family left, and no one to care about me, I thought, you know, if I can be of any help to others after I’m gone, they can have my body; so I said I’d think it over and would probably agree and take the ten pounds. Now this is a secret, miss, just between us. The money would be really helpful for me; and I don’t see any harm in it.”
“Of course there’s no harm. But oh, Grammer, how can you think to do it? I wish you hadn’t told me.”
“Of course there’s no harm. But oh, Grammer, how can you even think about doing it? I wish you hadn’t said anything.”
“I wish I hadn’t—if you don’t like to know it, miss. But you needn’t mind. Lord—hee, hee!—I shall keep him waiting many a year yet, bless ye!”
“I wish I hadn’t—if you don’t want to hear it, miss. But you don’t need to worry. Lord—hee, hee!—I’ll keep him waiting for many years to come, bless you!”
“I hope you will, I am sure.”
“I hope you will, I’m sure.”
The girl thereupon fell into such deep reflection that conversation languished, and Grammer Oliver, taking her candle, wished Miss Melbury good-night. The latter’s eyes rested on the distant glimmer, around which she allowed her reasoning fancy to play in vague eddies that shaped the doings of the philosopher behind that light on the lines of intelligence just received. It was strange to her to come back from the world to Little Hintock and find in one of its nooks, like a tropical plant in a hedgerow, a nucleus of advanced ideas and practices which had nothing in common with the life around. Chemical experiments, anatomical projects, and metaphysical conceptions had found a strange home here.
The girl fell into such deep thought that the conversation stalled, and Grammer Oliver, taking her candle, wished Miss Melbury goodnight. Her eyes lingered on the distant glow, letting her imagination swirl around the actions of the philosopher behind that light, influenced by the new ideas she had just encountered. It struck her as odd to return from the outside world to Little Hintock and find, in one of its corners, like a tropical plant in a hedge, a hub of progressive thoughts and practices that had nothing to do with the life around it. Chemical experiments, anatomical projects, and metaphysical ideas had found an unusual home here.
Thus she remained thinking, the imagined pursuits of the man behind the light intermingling with conjectural sketches of his personality, till her eyes fell together with their own heaviness, and she slept.
Thus she kept thinking, the imagined pursuits of the man behind the light blending with her guesses about his personality, until her eyes, weighed down with fatigue, finally closed and she fell asleep.
CHAPTER VII.
Kaleidoscopic dreams of a weird alchemist-surgeon, Grammer Oliver’s skeleton, and the face of Giles Winterborne, brought Grace Melbury to the morning of the next day. It was fine. A north wind was blowing—that not unacceptable compromise between the atmospheric cutlery of the eastern blast and the spongy gales of the west quarter. She looked from her window in the direction of the light of the previous evening, and could just discern through the trees the shape of the surgeon’s house. Somehow, in the broad, practical daylight, that unknown and lonely gentleman seemed to be shorn of much of the interest which had invested his personality and pursuits in the hours of darkness, and as Grace’s dressing proceeded he faded from her mind.
Kaleidoscopic dreams of a strange alchemist-surgeon, Grammer Oliver’s skeleton, and the face of Giles Winterborne brought Grace Melbury to the morning of the next day. It was a beautiful day. A north wind was blowing—a tolerable mix between the sharp chill of the eastern breeze and the soft gales from the west. She looked out her window in the direction of the light from the previous evening and could just make out the outline of the surgeon’s house through the trees. Somehow, in the bright, practical daylight, that unknown and solitary gentleman seemed to lose much of the intrigue that had surrounded his character and activities during the hours of darkness, and as Grace continued getting ready, he faded from her thoughts.
Meanwhile, Winterborne, though half assured of her father’s favor, was rendered a little restless by Miss Melbury’s behavior. Despite his dry self-control, he could not help looking continually from his own door towards the timber-merchant’s, in the probability of somebody’s emergence therefrom. His attention was at length justified by the appearance of two figures, that of Mr. Melbury himself, and Grace beside him. They stepped out in a direction towards the densest quarter of the wood, and Winterborne walked contemplatively behind them, till all three were soon under the trees.
Meanwhile, Winterborne, although somewhat confident in his father's approval, felt a bit uneasy about Miss Melbury's actions. Despite his calm demeanor, he couldn't stop glancing from his own door toward the timber merchant’s, hoping to see someone come out. His anticipation was eventually rewarded when he spotted two figures: Mr. Melbury himself and Grace standing next to him. They headed toward the thickest part of the woods, and Winterborne followed them thoughtfully until they were all soon among the trees.
Although the time of bare boughs had now set in, there were sheltered hollows amid the Hintock plantations and copses in which a more tardy leave-taking than on windy summits was the rule with the foliage. This caused here and there an apparent mixture of the seasons; so that in some of the dells that they passed by holly-berries in full red were found growing beside oak and hazel whose leaves were as yet not far removed from green, and brambles whose verdure was rich and deep as in the month of August. To Grace these well-known peculiarities were as an old painting restored.
Although the time of bare branches had now arrived, there were sheltered spots among the Hintock plantations and thickets where the leaves lingered longer than they did on the windy summits. This created a mix of seasons here and there; in some of the dells they passed, bright red holly berries grew alongside oak and hazel trees whose leaves were still quite green, and brambles that looked lush and deep like in August. For Grace, these familiar peculiarities felt like an old painting brought back to life.
Now could be beheld that change from the handsome to the curious which the features of a wood undergo at the ingress of the winter months. Angles were taking the place of curves, and reticulations of surfaces—a change constituting a sudden lapse from the ornate to the primitive on Nature’s canvas, and comparable to a retrogressive step from the art of an advanced school of painting to that of the Pacific Islander.
Now one could see the shift from the beautiful to the strange that the features of a forest go through as winter arrives. Angles were replacing curves, and surfaces were becoming more textured—a change that marked a sudden drop from the intricate to the simple on Nature’s canvas, similar to stepping back from the art of an advanced school of painting to that of the Pacific Islander.
Winterborne followed, and kept his eye upon the two figures as they threaded their way through these sylvan phenomena. Mr. Melbury’s long legs, and gaiters drawn in to the bone at the ankles, his slight stoop, his habit of getting lost in thought and arousing himself with an exclamation of “Hah!” accompanied with an upward jerk of the head, composed a personage recognizable by his neighbors as far as he could be seen. It seemed as if the squirrels and birds knew him. One of the former would occasionally run from the path to hide behind the arm of some tree, which the little animal carefully edged round pari passu with Melbury and his daughters movement onward, assuming a mock manner, as though he were saying, “Ho, ho; you are only a timber-merchant, and carry no gun!”
Winterborne followed, keeping an eye on the two figures as they made their way through the woods. Mr. Melbury's long legs and tightly-fitted gaiters at the ankles, along with his slight stoop and his tendency to get lost in thought—only to snap back to reality with an exclamation of “Hah!” while giving his head a little jerk—made him a familiar sight to his neighbors. It seemed like the squirrels and birds recognized him too. One of them would occasionally dart off the path to hide behind a tree, carefully moving in sync with Melbury and his daughters as they walked, as if to say, “Ho, ho; you’re just a timber merchant, and you’re not carrying a gun!”
They went noiselessly over mats of starry moss, rustled through interspersed tracts of leaves, skirted trunks with spreading roots, whose mossed rinds made them like hands wearing green gloves; elbowed old elms and ashes with great forks, in which stood pools of water that overflowed on rainy days, and ran down their stems in green cascades. On older trees still than these, huge lobes of fungi grew like lungs. Here, as everywhere, the Unfulfilled Intention, which makes life what it is, was as obvious as it could be among the depraved crowds of a city slum. The leaf was deformed, the curve was crippled, the taper was interrupted; the lichen eat the vigor of the stalk, and the ivy slowly strangled to death the promising sapling.
They moved quietly over mats of starry moss, rustled through scattered patches of leaves, dodged trunks with sprawling roots that looked like hands in green gloves; navigated around old elms and ashes with large branches, where pools of water collected and overflowed on rainy days, cascading down their trunks in green streams. On even older trees, large clumps of fungi grew like lungs. Here, as everywhere, the Unfulfilled Intention, which defines life as it is, was glaringly evident amid the troubled crowds of a city slum. The leaf was misshapen, the curve was twisted, the taper was broken; the lichen drained the strength from the stalk, and the ivy slowly choked the promising sapling to death.
They dived amid beeches under which nothing grew, the younger boughs still retaining their hectic leaves, that rustled in the breeze with a sound almost metallic, like the sheet-iron foliage of the fabled Jarnvid wood. Some flecks of white in Grace’s drapery had enabled Giles to keep her and her father in view till this time; but now he lost sight of them, and was obliged to follow by ear—no difficult matter, for on the line of their course every wood-pigeon rose from its perch with a continued clash, dashing its wings against the branches with wellnigh force enough to break every quill. By taking the track of this noise he soon came to a stile.
They dove under the beeches where nothing grew, the younger branches still holding onto their vibrant leaves, rustling in the breeze with a sound almost metallic, like the sheet-metal leaves from the legendary Jarnvid forest. Some white flecks in Grace's dress had helped Giles keep track of her and her father until now; but now he lost sight of them and had to follow by sound—no big deal, since along their path, every wood pigeon took off from its perch with a continuous clash, flapping its wings against the branches with nearly enough force to break every feather. By following this noise, he soon came to a stile.
Was it worth while to go farther? He examined the doughy soil at the foot of the stile, and saw among the large sole-and-heel tracks an impression of a slighter kind from a boot that was obviously not local, for Winterborne knew all the cobblers’ patterns in that district, because they were very few to know. The mud-picture was enough to make him swing himself over and proceed.
Was it worth it to go further? He looked at the soft soil at the bottom of the stile and noticed among the big sole-and-heel tracks a lighter impression from a boot that clearly wasn’t from around here, since Winterborne was familiar with all the local cobblers’ patterns, and there weren’t many to recognize. The muddy imprint was enough to convince him to climb over and continue on.
The character of the woodland now changed. The bases of the smaller trees were nibbled bare by rabbits, and at divers points heaps of fresh-made chips, and the newly-cut stool of a tree, stared white through the undergrowth. There had been a large fall of timber this year, which explained the meaning of some sounds that soon reached him.
The character of the woodland has now changed. The bases of the smaller trees were nibbled bare by rabbits, and at various spots, heaps of fresh chips and the freshly cut stump of a tree stood out white through the undergrowth. There had been a large timber fall this year, which explained some of the sounds that soon reached him.
A voice was shouting intermittently in a sort of human bark, which reminded Giles that there was a sale of trees and fagots that very day. Melbury would naturally be present. Thereupon Winterborne remembered that he himself wanted a few fagots, and entered upon the scene.
A voice was shouting sporadically in a sort of human bark, which reminded Giles that there was a sale of trees and firewood that very day. Melbury would naturally be there. Then Winterborne remembered that he wanted a few bundles of firewood himself, and he joined the scene.
A large group of buyers stood round the auctioneer, or followed him when, between his pauses, he wandered on from one lot of plantation produce to another, like some philosopher of the Peripatetic school delivering his lectures in the shady groves of the Lyceum. His companions were timber-dealers, yeomen, farmers, villagers, and others; mostly woodland men, who on that account could afford to be curious in their walking-sticks, which consequently exhibited various monstrosities of vegetation, the chief being cork-screw shapes in black and white thorn, brought to that pattern by the slow torture of an encircling woodbine during their growth, as the Chinese have been said to mould human beings into grotesque toys by continued compression in infancy. Two women, wearing men’s jackets on their gowns, conducted in the rear of the halting procession a pony-cart containing a tapped barrel of beer, from which they drew and replenished horns that were handed round, with bread-and-cheese from a basket.
A large group of buyers gathered around the auctioneer or followed him as he moved from one lot of plantation goods to another, pausing like a philosopher from the Peripatetic school giving lectures in the cool shade of the Lyceum. His companions included timber dealers, farmers, locals, and others—mostly folks from the woods, which is why they were particular about their walking sticks. These sticks often showcased bizarre shapes, especially corkscrew forms made of black and white thorn, shaped over time by a wrapping woodbine during their growth, similar to how the Chinese reportedly shape humans into odd toys through constant pressure in infancy. Two women, wearing men’s jackets over their dresses, brought up the rear of the slow-moving group with a pony cart that held a tapped barrel of beer. They poured drinks into horns to pass around, along with bread and cheese from a basket.
The auctioneer adjusted himself to circumstances by using his walking-stick as a hammer, and knocked down the lot on any convenient object that took his fancy, such as the crown of a little boy’s head, or the shoulders of a by-stander who had no business there except to taste the brew; a proceeding which would have been deemed humorous but for the air of stern rigidity which that auctioneer’s face preserved, tending to show that the eccentricity was a result of that absence of mind which is engendered by the press of affairs, and no freak of fancy at all.
The auctioneer adapted to the situation by using his walking stick as a hammer, knocking down the lot on any convenient object he fancied, like the crown of a little boy’s head or the shoulders of a bystander who was just there to sample the drink; this behavior would have seemed funny if it weren't for the serious expression on the auctioneer's face, which suggested that his eccentricity was a result of being preoccupied with the pressing matters at hand, rather than some whimsy.
Mr. Melbury stood slightly apart from the rest of the Peripatetics, and Grace beside him, clinging closely to his arm, her modern attire looking almost odd where everything else was old-fashioned, and throwing over the familiar garniture of the trees a homeliness that seemed to demand improvement by the addition of a few contemporary novelties also. Grace seemed to regard the selling with the interest which attaches to memories revived after an interval of obliviousness.
Mr. Melbury stood a bit away from the other Peripatetics, with Grace next to him, tightly holding onto his arm. Her modern outfit looked almost out of place among the old-fashioned surroundings, adding a sense of familiarity to the trees that seemed to call for some modern touches. Grace appeared to watch the sale with an interest that came from memories stirred up after a period of being forgotten.
Winterborne went and stood close to them; the timber-merchant spoke, and continued his buying; Grace merely smiled. To justify his presence there Winterborne began bidding for timber and fagots that he did not want, pursuing the occupation in an abstracted mood, in which the auctioneer’s voice seemed to become one of the natural sounds of the woodland. A few flakes of snow descended, at the sight of which a robin, alarmed at these signs of imminent winter, and seeing that no offence was meant by the human invasion, came and perched on the tip of the fagots that were being sold, and looked into the auctioneer’s face, while waiting for some chance crumb from the bread-basket. Standing a little behind Grace, Winterborne observed how one flake would sail downward and settle on a curl of her hair, and how another would choose her shoulder, and another the edge of her bonnet, which took up so much of his attention that his biddings proceeded incoherently; and when the auctioneer said, every now and then, with a nod towards him, “Yours, Mr. Winterborne,” he had no idea whether he had bought fagots, poles, or logwood.
Winterborne moved closer to them; the timber merchant spoke and kept buying; Grace just smiled. To justify his presence there, Winterborne started bidding on timber and firewood he didn't really want, getting lost in the moment, where the auctioneer’s voice blended into the natural sounds of the woods. A few snowflakes fell, causing a robin to appear, startled by the signs of winter but realizing the humans meant no harm. It perched on the tip of the firewood being sold and looked at the auctioneer, waiting for a stray crumb from the breadbasket. Standing a bit behind Grace, Winterborne noticed how one snowflake floated down and landed on a curl of her hair, another settled on her shoulder, and yet another on the edge of her bonnet. This distracted him so much that his bidding became jumbled, and whenever the auctioneer nodded at him and said, “Yours, Mr. Winterborne,” he had no idea if he had bought firewood, poles, or logwood.
He regretted, with some causticity of humor, that her father should show such inequalities of temperament as to keep Grace tightly on his arm to-day, when he had quite lately seemed anxious to recognize their betrothal as a fact. And thus musing, and joining in no conversation with other buyers except when directly addressed, he followed the assemblage hither and thither till the end of the auction, when Giles for the first time realized what his purchases had been. Hundreds of fagots, and divers lots of timber, had been set down to him, when all he had required had been a few bundles of spray for his odd man Robert Creedle’s use in baking and lighting fires.
He couldn't help but sarcastically think about how her dad was acting so inconsistently, keeping Grace firmly at his side today, even though he had recently seemed eager to acknowledge their engagement. Lost in thought and not really engaging in any conversation with the other buyers unless directly spoken to, he moved around the place until the end of the auction. It was then that Giles finally realized what he had bought. He had ended up with hundreds of bundles of firewood and various lots of timber, when all he actually needed were a few bundles of twigs for his worker Robert Creedle to use for baking and starting fires.
Business being over, he turned to speak to the timber merchant. But Melbury’s manner was short and distant; and Grace, too, looked vexed and reproachful. Winterborne then discovered that he had been unwittingly bidding against her father, and picking up his favorite lots in spite of him. With a very few words they left the spot and pursued their way homeward.
Business finished, he turned to talk to the timber merchant. But Melbury’s attitude was brief and cold; and Grace also seemed annoyed and disapproving. Winterborne then realized that he had unknowingly been bidding against her father, and winning his favorite lots despite him. With just a few words, they left the area and continued on their way home.
Giles was extremely sorry at what he had done, and remained standing under the trees, all the other men having strayed silently away. He saw Melbury and his daughter pass down a glade without looking back. While they moved slowly through it a lady appeared on horseback in the middle distance, the line of her progress converging upon that of Melbury’s. They met, Melbury took off his hat, and she reined in her horse. A conversation was evidently in progress between Grace and her father and this equestrian, in whom he was almost sure that he recognized Mrs. Charmond, less by her outline than by the livery of the groom who had halted some yards off.
Giles felt really sorry for what he had done and stood there under the trees while the other men quietly walked away. He watched Melbury and his daughter walk down a path without looking back. As they slowly moved through it, a woman on horseback appeared in the distance, heading toward Melbury. When they met, Melbury took off his hat, and she stopped her horse. It was clear that Grace, her father, and this rider were having a conversation, and he was pretty sure he recognized Mrs. Charmond, not so much from her figure but by the uniform of the groom who had paused a few yards away.
The interlocutors did not part till after a prolonged pause, during which much seemed to be said. When Melbury and Grace resumed their walk it was with something of a lighter tread than before.
The speakers didn't separate until after a long pause, during which a lot seemed to be communicated. When Melbury and Grace continued their walk, they did so with a slightly lighter step than before.
Winterborne then pursued his own course homeward. He was unwilling to let coldness grow up between himself and the Melburys for any trivial reason, and in the evening he went to their house. On drawing near the gate his attention was attracted by the sight of one of the bedrooms blinking into a state of illumination. In it stood Grace lighting several candles, her right hand elevating the taper, her left hand on her bosom, her face thoughtfully fixed on each wick as it kindled, as if she saw in every flame’s growth the rise of a life to maturity. He wondered what such unusual brilliancy could mean to-night. On getting in-doors he found her father and step-mother in a state of suppressed excitement, which at first he could not comprehend.
Winterborne then made his way home. He didn't want to let any coldness come between him and the Melburys for any minor reason, so in the evening he went to their house. As he approached the gate, he noticed one of the bedrooms glowing with light. Inside, Grace was lighting several candles, her right hand holding the taper high, her left hand resting on her chest, her expression focused on each wick as it ignited, as if she saw the growth of each flame as a life coming to maturity. He wondered what this unusual brightness could mean tonight. Once he got inside, he found her father and stepmother in a state of suppressed excitement that he couldn't initially understand.
“I am sorry about my biddings to-day,” said Giles. “I don’t know what I was doing. I have come to say that any of the lots you may require are yours.”
“I apologize for my bids today,” said Giles. “I’m not sure what I was thinking. I’m here to say that any of the lots you need are yours.”
“Oh, never mind—never mind,” replied the timber-merchant, with a slight wave of his hand, “I have so much else to think of that I nearly had forgot it. Just now, too, there are matters of a different kind from trade to attend to, so don’t let it concern ye.”
“Oh, forget it—forget it,” replied the timber merchant, waving his hand slightly, “I have so much else on my mind that I almost forgot. Right now, I have other things that aren’t about business to deal with, so don’t worry about it.”
As the timber-merchant spoke, as it were, down to him from a higher moral plane than his own, Giles turned to Mrs. Melbury.
As the timber merchant spoke to him from a seemingly higher moral standpoint, Giles turned to Mrs. Melbury.
“Grace is going to the House to-morrow,” she said, quietly. “She is looking out her things now. I dare say she is wanting me this minute to assist her.” Thereupon Mrs. Melbury left the room.
“Grace is going to the house tomorrow,” she said quietly. “She’s picking out her things right now. I’m sure she wants me to help her this very minute.” With that, Mrs. Melbury left the room.
Nothing is more remarkable than the independent personality of the tongue now and then. Mr. Melbury knew that his words had been a sort of boast. He decried boasting, particularly to Giles; yet whenever the subject was Grace, his judgment resigned the ministry of speech in spite of him.
Nothing is more striking than the independent nature of the tongue every now and then. Mr. Melbury realized that his words had been a kind of brag. He frowned upon bragging, especially to Giles; yet whenever the topic was Grace, his judgment would lose the ability to speak despite himself.
Winterborne felt surprise, pleasure, and also a little apprehension at the news. He repeated Mrs. Melbury’s words.
Winterborne felt surprised, pleased, and also a bit uneasy at the news. He repeated Mrs. Melbury’s words.
“Yes,” said paternal pride, not sorry to have dragged out of him what he could not in any circumstances have kept in. “Coming home from the woods this afternoon we met Mrs. Charmond out for a ride. She spoke to me on a little matter of business, and then got acquainted with Grace. ’Twas wonderful how she took to Grace in a few minutes; that freemasonry of education made ’em close at once. Naturally enough she was amazed that such an article—ha, ha!—could come out of my house. At last it led on to Mis’ess Grace being asked to the House. So she’s busy hunting up her frills and furbelows to go in.” As Giles remained in thought without responding, Melbury continued: “But I’ll call her down-stairs.”
“Yes,” said paternal pride, pleased to have gotten him to share what he would have never revealed otherwise. “On our way home from the woods this afternoon, we ran into Mrs. Charmond out for a ride. She talked to me about a small business matter and then got to know Grace. It was amazing how quickly she connected with Grace; their shared background made them bond immediately. Naturally, she was surprised that such a girl—ha, ha!—could come from my home. Eventually, this led to Miss Grace being invited to the House. So she’s busy digging out her fancy clothes to go there.” As Giles remained lost in thought without answering, Melbury continued, “But I’ll call her down-stairs.”
“No, no; don’t do that, since she’s busy,” said Winterborne.
“No, no; don’t do that, she’s busy,” said Winterborne.
Melbury, feeling from the young man’s manner that his own talk had been too much at Giles and too little to him, repented at once. His face changed, and he said, in lower tones, with an effort, “She’s yours, Giles, as far as I am concerned.”
Melbury, sensing from the young man’s behavior that he had focused too much on Giles and not enough on him, quickly regretted it. His expression shifted, and he said, with a struggle in a softer voice, “She’s yours, Giles, as far as I’m concerned.”
“Thanks—my best thanks....But I think, since it is all right between us about the biddings, that I’ll not interrupt her now. I’ll step homeward, and call another time.”
“Thanks—thank you so much... But I think, since we’re good about the bidding, I won’t interrupt her now. I’ll head home and come by another time.”
On leaving the house he looked up at the bedroom again. Grace, surrounded by a sufficient number of candles to answer all purposes of self-criticism, was standing before a cheval-glass that her father had lately bought expressly for her use; she was bonneted, cloaked, and gloved, and glanced over her shoulder into the mirror, estimating her aspect. Her face was lit with the natural elation of a young girl hoping to inaugurate on the morrow an intimate acquaintance with a new, interesting, and powerful friend.
On leaving the house, he glanced up at the bedroom once more. Grace, surrounded by enough candles for all her self-reflection needs, stood in front of a full-length mirror that her father had recently bought just for her. She was wearing a bonnet, cloak, and gloves, and looked over her shoulder into the mirror, assessing her appearance. Her face shone with the natural excitement of a young girl who was eager to start a close friendship with a new, intriguing, and influential person the next day.
CHAPTER VIII.
The inspiriting appointment which had led Grace Melbury to indulge in a six-candle illumination for the arrangement of her attire, carried her over the ground the next morning with a springy tread. Her sense of being properly appreciated on her own native soil seemed to brighten the atmosphere and herbage around her, as the glowworm’s lamp irradiates the grass. Thus she moved along, a vessel of emotion going to empty itself on she knew not what.
The exciting appointment that had made Grace Melbury indulge in a six-candle setup for getting ready brightened her step the next morning. Feeling recognized and valued in her own hometown made everything around her seem more vibrant, like a glowworm’s light shining on the grass. So she walked on, full of emotions, heading toward something she couldn’t yet identify.
Twenty minutes’ walking through copses, over a stile, and along an upland lawn brought her to the verge of a deep glen, at the bottom of which Hintock House appeared immediately beneath her eye. To describe it as standing in a hollow would not express the situation of the manor-house; it stood in a hole, notwithstanding that the hole was full of beauty. From the spot which Grace had reached a stone could easily have been thrown over or into, the birds’-nested chimneys of the mansion. Its walls were surmounted by a battlemented parapet; but the gray lead roofs were quite visible behind it, with their gutters, laps, rolls, and skylights, together with incised letterings and shoe-patterns cut by idlers thereon.
Twenty minutes of walking through wooded areas, over a stile, and across an elevated lawn brought her to the edge of a deep valley, where Hintock House appeared right in front of her. Describing it as sitting in a hollow wouldn’t do justice to the manor-house; it was really in a dip, even though the dip was beautiful. From where Grace stood, she could have easily thrown a stone over or into the chimney tops of the mansion. Its walls were topped with a battlemented parapet, but the gray lead roofs were clearly visible behind it, along with their gutters, overlaps, rolls, and skylights, featuring carved letters and shoe patterns made by idle hands.
The front of the house exhibited an ordinary manorial presentation of Elizabethan windows, mullioned and hooded, worked in rich snuff-colored freestone from local quarries. The ashlar of the walls, where not overgrown with ivy and other creepers, was coated with lichen of every shade, intensifying its luxuriance with its nearness to the ground, till, below the plinth, it merged in moss.
The front of the house showed a typical manorial style with Elizabethan windows, complete with mullions and hoods, made from rich, snuff-colored freestone sourced from local quarries. The ashlar of the walls, where it wasn't covered in ivy and other climbing plants, was coated with lichen of every shade, enhancing its lushness close to the ground, until it blended into moss below the plinth.
Above the house to the back was a dense plantation, the roots of whose trees were above the level of the chimneys. The corresponding high ground on which Grace stood was richly grassed, with only an old tree here and there. A few sheep lay about, which, as they ruminated, looked quietly into the bedroom windows. The situation of the house, prejudicial to humanity, was a stimulus to vegetation, on which account an endless shearing of the heavy-armed ivy was necessary, and a continual lopping of trees and shrubs. It was an edifice built in times when human constitutions were damp-proof, when shelter from the boisterous was all that men thought of in choosing a dwelling-place, the insidious being beneath their notice; and its hollow site was an ocular reminder, by its unfitness for modern lives, of the fragility to which these have declined. The highest architectural cunning could have done nothing to make Hintock House dry and salubrious; and ruthless ignorance could have done little to make it unpicturesque. It was vegetable nature’s own home; a spot to inspire the painter and poet of still life—if they did not suffer too much from the relaxing atmosphere—and to draw groans from the gregariously disposed. Grace descended the green escarpment by a zigzag path into the drive, which swept round beneath the slope. The exterior of the house had been familiar to her from her childhood, but she had never been inside, and the approach to knowing an old thing in a new way was a lively experience. It was with a little flutter that she was shown in; but she recollected that Mrs. Charmond would probably be alone. Up to a few days before this time that lady had been accompanied in her comings, stayings, and goings by a relative believed to be her aunt; latterly, however, these two ladies had separated, owing, it was supposed, to a quarrel, and Mrs. Charmond had been left desolate. Being presumably a woman who did not care for solitude, this deprivation might possibly account for her sudden interest in Grace.
Above the house at the back was a thick grove, with tree roots that were higher than the chimneys. The high ground where Grace stood was lush with grass, dotted with a few old trees. A few sheep lay around, calmly looking into the bedroom windows as they chewed their cud. The house’s location, unfavorable for people, oddly encouraged plant growth, which meant regular trimming of the dense ivy and constant cutting back of trees and shrubs was necessary. It was a building from a time when people could withstand damp conditions, when the main concern for choosing a home was being sheltered from storms, while the hidden dangers went unnoticed; its sunken location was a clear reminder of how unsuitable it was for modern living, showing the fragility of today’s lives. No amount of architectural skill could have made Hintock House dry and healthy, and even the most careless work would likely leave it picturesque. It was a home shaped by nature, a place that could inspire painters and poets of still life—if they didn’t feel too weighed down by the atmosphere—and bring sighs from those who enjoyed company. Grace made her way down the green slope along a winding path to the driveway, which curved around below. The outside of the house had been familiar to her since childhood, but she had never been inside, and approaching an old place in a new light felt exciting. She felt a slight flutter as she was welcomed in, but then remembered that Mrs. Charmond would probably be alone. Until a few days prior, that lady had been accompanied by a relative believed to be her aunt, but recently, the two women had parted ways, likely due to a disagreement, leaving Mrs. Charmond alone. Presumably not someone who enjoyed being solitary, this loneliness might explain her sudden interest in Grace.
Mrs. Charmond was at the end of a gallery opening from the hall when Miss Melbury was announced, and saw her through the glass doors between them. She came forward with a smile on her face, and told the young girl it was good of her to come.
Mrs. Charmond was at the end of a gallery opening from the hall when Miss Melbury was announced and saw her through the glass doors between them. She came forward with a smile on her face and told the young girl it was nice of her to come.
“Ah! you have noticed those,” she said, seeing that Grace’s eyes were attracted by some curious objects against the walls. “They are man-traps. My husband was a connoisseur in man-traps and spring-guns and such articles, collecting them from all his neighbors. He knew the histories of all these—which gin had broken a man’s leg, which gun had killed a man. That one, I remember his saying, had been set by a game-keeper in the track of a notorious poacher; but the keeper, forgetting what he had done, went that way himself, received the charge in the lower part of his body, and died of the wound. I don’t like them here, but I’ve never yet given directions for them to be taken away.” She added, playfully, “Man-traps are of rather ominous significance where a person of our sex lives, are they not?”
“Ah! You’ve noticed those,” she said, seeing Grace’s eyes drawn to some strange objects on the walls. “They’re man-traps. My husband was really into man-traps and spring guns and stuff like that, collecting them from all our neighbors. He knew the stories behind all these—like which gin broke a man’s leg and which gun killed someone. That one, I remember him saying, was set by a gamekeeper to catch a notorious poacher; but the keeper, forgetting what he had done, walked that way himself, got hit in the lower part of his body, and died from the wound. I don’t like having them here, but I’ve never actually asked to have them removed.” She added playfully, “Man-traps are pretty ominous where a woman like me lives, aren’t they?”
Grace was bound to smile; but that side of womanliness was one which her inexperience had no great zest in contemplating.
Grace couldn't help but smile; however, that aspect of femininity was something her lack of experience found little interest in considering.
“They are interesting, no doubt, as relics of a barbarous time happily past,” she said, looking thoughtfully at the varied designs of these instruments of torture—some with semi-circular jaws, some with rectangular; most of them with long, sharp teeth, but a few with none, so that their jaws looked like the blank gums of old age.
“They are definitely interesting, as remnants of a brutal time that is thankfully behind us,” she said, gazing thoughtfully at the different designs of these torture devices—some with semi-circular jaws, some with rectangular ones; most featuring long, sharp teeth, but a few without any, making their jaws resemble the empty gums of old age.
“Well, we must not take them too seriously,” said Mrs. Charmond, with an indolent turn of her head, and they moved on inward. When she had shown her visitor different articles in cabinets that she deemed likely to interest her, some tapestries, wood-carvings, ivories, miniatures, and so on—always with a mien of listlessness which might either have been constitutional, or partly owing to the situation of the place—they sat down to an early cup of tea.
“Well, we shouldn’t take them too seriously,” said Mrs. Charmond, lazily turning her head, and they moved further inside. After showing her guest various items in cabinets that she thought might interest her—some tapestries, wood carvings, ivories, miniatures, and so on—always with an air of indifference that could have been natural or partly due to the atmosphere of the place—they sat down for an early cup of tea.
“Will you pour it out, please? Do,” she said, leaning back in her chair, and placing her hand above her forehead, while her almond eyes—those long eyes so common to the angelic legions of early Italian art—became longer, and her voice more languishing. She showed that oblique-mannered softness which is perhaps most frequent in women of darker complexion and more lymphatic temperament than Mrs. Charmond’s was; who lingeringly smile their meanings to men rather than speak them, who inveigle rather than prompt, and take advantage of currents rather than steer.
“Could you pour it out for me, please? Go ahead,” she said, leaning back in her chair and placing her hand over her forehead. Her almond-shaped eyes—those elongated eyes often seen in early Italian art—appeared even longer, and her voice took on a more languid tone. She exhibited that subtle softness often found in women with darker skin tones and a more laid-back temperament than Mrs. Charmond’s. These women tend to smile meaningfully at men instead of talking directly, entice rather than encourage, and capitalize on circumstances rather than control them.
“I am the most inactive woman when I am here,” she said. “I think sometimes I was born to live and do nothing, nothing, nothing but float about, as we fancy we do sometimes in dreams. But that cannot be really my destiny, and I must struggle against such fancies.”
"I am the most unproductive person when I'm here," she said. "Sometimes I feel like I was born to live and do nothing, nothing, nothing but drift around, like we imagine we do sometimes in dreams. But that can't truly be my fate, and I have to fight against those thoughts."
“I am so sorry you do not enjoy exertion—it is quite sad! I wish I could tend you and make you very happy.”
“I’m really sorry you don’t enjoy physical activity—it’s such a shame! I wish I could take care of you and make you truly happy.”
There was something so sympathetic, so appreciative, in the sound of Grace’s voice, that it impelled people to play havoc with their customary reservations in talking to her. “It is tender and kind of you to feel that,” said Mrs. Charmond. “Perhaps I have given you the notion that my languor is more than it really is. But this place oppresses me, and I have a plan of going abroad a good deal. I used to go with a relative, but that arrangement has dropped through.” Regarding Grace with a final glance of criticism, she seemed to make up her mind to consider the young girl satisfactory, and continued: “Now I am often impelled to record my impressions of times and places. I have often thought of writing a ‘New Sentimental Journey.’ But I cannot find energy enough to do it alone. When I am at different places in the south of Europe I feel a crowd of ideas and fancies thronging upon me continually, but to unfold writing-materials, take up a cold steel pen, and put these impressions down systematically on cold, smooth paper—that I cannot do. So I have thought that if I always could have somebody at my elbow with whom I am in sympathy, I might dictate any ideas that come into my head. And directly I had made your acquaintance the other day it struck me that you would suit me so well. Would you like to undertake it? You might read to me, too, if desirable. Will you think it over, and ask your parents if they are willing?”
There was something so warm and understanding in the sound of Grace’s voice that it encouraged people to let go of their usual reservations when talking to her. “It’s really nice of you to feel that way,” Mrs. Charmond said. “Maybe I’ve given you the impression that my fatigue is more serious than it really is. But this place feels stifling to me, and I plan to travel a lot. I used to go with a relative, but that arrangement has fallen through.” After giving Grace one last critical look, she seemed to decide that the young woman was acceptable and continued: “I often feel the urge to write down my thoughts about different times and places. I've thought about creating a ‘New Sentimental Journey.’ But I just don’t have the energy to do it myself. Whenever I’m in various spots in southern Europe, ideas and inspirations just flood my mind, but pulling out writing materials, grabbing a cold steel pen, and organizing those thoughts onto cold, smooth paper—that’s something I struggle with. So I thought that if I could always have someone at my side who I connect with, I could dictate any ideas that come to me. As soon as I met you the other day, I felt that you would be a great fit for that. Would you be interested in taking it on? You could also read to me if you'd like. Will you think about it and ask your parents if they’re okay with it?”
“Oh yes,” said Grace. “I am almost sure they would be very glad.”
“Oh yes,” said Grace. “I’m pretty sure they’d be really happy.”
“You are so accomplished, I hear; I should be quite honored by such intellectual company.”
“You’re really impressive, I’ve heard; I should feel pretty lucky to be around someone so smart.”
Grace, modestly blushing, deprecated any such idea.
Grace, shyly blushing, rejected any such idea.
“Do you keep up your lucubrations at Little Hintock?”
“Are you still working on your studies at Little Hintock?”
“Oh no. Lucubrations are not unknown at Little Hintock; but they are not carried on by me.”
“Oh no. Late-night writings aren’t uncommon at Little Hintock; but I’m not the one doing them.”
“What—another student in that retreat?”
“What—another student at that retreat?”
“There is a surgeon lately come, and I have heard that he reads a great deal—I see his light sometimes through the trees late at night.”
“There’s a surgeon who just arrived, and I’ve heard that he reads a lot—I sometimes see his light through the trees late at night.”
“Oh yes—a doctor—I believe I was told of him. It is a strange place for him to settle in.”
“Oh yeah—a doctor—I think I heard about him. It’s a weird place for him to set up shop.”
“It is a convenient centre for a practice, they say. But he does not confine his studies to medicine, it seems. He investigates theology and metaphysics and all sorts of subjects.”
“It’s a convenient hub for a practice, they say. But he doesn’t limit his studies to medicine, it seems. He explores theology and metaphysics and all kinds of subjects.”
“What is his name?”
“What’s his name?”
“Fitzpiers. He represents a very old family, I believe, the Fitzpierses of Buckbury-Fitzpiers—not a great many miles from here.”
“Fitzpiers. I believe he comes from a very old family, the Fitzpierses of Buckbury-Fitzpiers—not too far from here.”
“I am not sufficiently local to know the history of the family. I was never in the county till my husband brought me here.” Mrs. Charmond did not care to pursue this line of investigation. Whatever mysterious merit might attach to family antiquity, it was one which, though she herself could claim it, her adaptable, wandering weltbürgerliche nature had grown tired of caring about—a peculiarity that made her a contrast to her neighbors. “It is of rather more importance to know what the man is himself than what his family is,” she said, “if he is going to practise upon us as a surgeon. Have you seen him?”
“I don’t know enough about the family’s history. I had never been to the county until my husband brought me here.” Mrs. Charmond didn’t want to dig any deeper into that topic. Whatever mysterious value might come from family heritage was something she could claim, but her adaptable, wandering worldly nature had tired of caring about it—a difference that set her apart from her neighbors. “It’s more important to know what the man is like rather than what his family is like,” she said, “if he’s going to be operating on us as a surgeon. Have you seen him?”
Grace had not. “I think he is not a very old man,” she added.
Grace hadn't. “I don't think he’s very old,” she added.
“Has he a wife?”
"Does he have a wife?"
“I am not aware that he has.”
“I don't know that he has.”
“Well, I hope he will be useful here. I must get to know him when I come back. It will be very convenient to have a medical man—if he is clever—in one’s own parish. I get dreadfully nervous sometimes, living in such an outlandish place; and Sherton is so far to send to. No doubt you feel Hintock to be a great change after watering-place life.”
“Well, I hope he will be helpful here. I need to get to know him when I return. It will be really convenient to have a doctor—if he’s smart—in our own area. I get really anxious sometimes, living in such a remote place; and Sherton is quite a distance to travel. No doubt you think Hintock is a big change after living in a resort town.”
“I do. But it is home. It has its advantages and its disadvantages.” Grace was thinking less of the solitude than of the attendant circumstances.
“I do. But it's home. It has its ups and downs.” Grace was focusing more on the surrounding circumstances than on the isolation.
They chatted on for some time, Grace being set quite at her ease by her entertainer. Mrs. Charmond was far too well-practised a woman not to know that to show a marked patronage to a sensitive young girl who would probably be very quick to discern it, was to demolish her dignity rather than to establish it in that young girl’s eyes. So, being violently possessed with her idea of making use of this gentle acquaintance, ready and waiting at her own door, she took great pains to win her confidence at starting.
They talked for a while, with Grace feeling completely at ease thanks to her host. Mrs. Charmond was too experienced to realize that showing obvious favoritism to a sensitive young woman, who would likely pick up on it quickly, would only undermine her dignity rather than build it up in that young woman’s eyes. So, determined to take advantage of this gentle connection that was readily available, she made a significant effort to earn her trust from the beginning.
Just before Grace’s departure the two chanced to pause before a mirror which reflected their faces in immediate juxtaposition, so as to bring into prominence their resemblances and their contrasts. Both looked attractive as glassed back by the faithful reflector; but Grace’s countenance had the effect of making Mrs. Charmond appear more than her full age. There are complexions which set off each other to great advantage, and there are those which antagonize, the one killing or damaging its neighbor unmercifully. This was unhappily the case here. Mrs. Charmond fell into a meditation, and replied abstractedly to a cursory remark of her companion’s. However, she parted from her young friend in the kindliest tones, promising to send and let her know as soon as her mind was made up on the arrangement she had suggested.
Just before Grace left, the two happened to stop in front of a mirror that showed their faces side by side, highlighting both their similarities and differences. They both looked attractive as reflected by the reliable mirror, but Grace’s face made Mrs. Charmond seem older than she really was. Some complexions complement each other beautifully, while others clash, one diminishing or harming its neighbor. Unfortunately, this was the case here. Mrs. Charmond fell into thought and responded absentmindedly to a brief comment from her friend. Still, she said goodbye in the warmest way, promising to reach out and let her know as soon as she had made a decision about the arrangement she had proposed.
When Grace had ascended nearly to the top of the adjoining slope she looked back, and saw that Mrs. Charmond still stood at the door, meditatively regarding her.
When Grace had climbed almost to the top of the nearby hill, she looked back and saw that Mrs. Charmond was still at the door, watching her thoughtfully.
Often during the previous night, after his call on the Melburys, Winterborne’s thoughts ran upon Grace’s announced visit to Hintock House. Why could he not have proposed to walk with her part of the way? Something told him that she might not, on such an occasion, care for his company.
Often during the previous night, after his visit to the Melburys, Winterborne’s thoughts turned to Grace’s upcoming visit to Hintock House. Why hadn’t he suggested walking with her part of the way? Something told him that she might not, in that situation, want his company.
He was still more of that opinion when, standing in his garden next day, he saw her go past on the journey with such a pretty pride in the event. He wondered if her father’s ambition, which had purchased for her the means of intellectual light and culture far beyond those of any other native of the village, would conduce to the flight of her future interests above and away from the local life which was once to her the movement of the world.
He still felt that way the next day when he was in his garden and saw her pass by, full of pride about the event. He wondered if her father's ambition, which had given her access to knowledge and culture far beyond anyone else in the village, would lead her to pursue interests that took her away from the local life that once felt like the center of her world.
Nevertheless, he had her father’s permission to win her if he could; and to this end it became desirable to bring matters soon to a crisis, if he ever hoped to do so. If she should think herself too good for him, he could let her go and make the best of his loss; but until he had really tested her he could not say that she despised his suit. The question was how to quicken events towards an issue.
Nevertheless, he had her father’s permission to pursue her if he could; and to achieve that, it was important to bring things to a head soon, if he ever wanted to succeed. If she thought she was too good for him, he could let her go and deal with his loss; but until he truly tested her feelings, he couldn’t say that she looked down on his advances. The question was how to speed things up towards a decision.
He thought and thought, and at last decided that as good a way as any would be to give a Christmas party, and ask Grace and her parents to come as chief guests.
He thought and thought, and finally decided that one of the best ways to celebrate would be to host a Christmas party and invite Grace and her parents as the main guests.
These ruminations were occupying him when there became audible a slight knocking at his front door. He descended the path and looked out, and beheld Marty South, dressed for out-door work.
These thoughts were filling his mind when he heard a soft knock at his front door. He walked down the path and looked out to see Marty South, dressed for outdoor work.
“Why didn’t you come, Mr. Winterborne?” she said. “I’ve been waiting there hours and hours, and at last I thought I must try to find you.”
“Why didn’t you come, Mr. Winterborne?” she said. “I’ve been waiting there for hours, and finally, I thought I should try to find you.”
“Bless my soul, I’d quite forgot,” said Giles.
“Wow, I totally forgot,” said Giles.
What he had forgotten was that there was a thousand young fir-trees to be planted in a neighboring spot which had been cleared by the wood-cutters, and that he had arranged to plant them with his own hands. He had a marvellous power of making trees grow. Although he would seem to shovel in the earth quite carelessly, there was a sort of sympathy between himself and the fir, oak, or beech that he was operating on, so that the roots took hold of the soil in a few days. When, on the other hand, any of the journeymen planted, although they seemed to go through an identically similar process, one quarter of the trees would die away during the ensuing August.
What he had forgotten was that there were a thousand young fir trees to be planted in a nearby area cleared by the woodcutters, and he had promised to plant them himself. He had an amazing ability to make trees grow. Even though he appeared to shovel in the dirt quite carelessly, there was a kind of connection between him and the fir, oak, or beech he was working with, so the roots took hold of the soil within a few days. In contrast, when any of the other workers planted trees, despite going through a very similar process, about a quarter of them would die off the following August.
Hence Winterborne found delight in the work even when, as at present, he contracted to do it on portions of the woodland in which he had no personal interest. Marty, who turned her hand to anything, was usually the one who performed the part of keeping the trees in a perpendicular position while he threw in the mould.
Hence Winterborne found joy in the work even when, as now, he agreed to do it in areas of the woods where he had no personal stake. Marty, who was always willing to help, typically took on the task of keeping the trees upright while he added the soil.
He accompanied her towards the spot, being stimulated yet further to proceed with the work by the knowledge that the ground was close to the way-side along which Grace must pass on her return from Hintock House.
He walked with her to the place, even more motivated to continue with the task knowing that the area was near the roadside that Grace would travel on her way back from Hintock House.
“You’ve a cold in the head, Marty,” he said, as they walked. “That comes of cutting off your hair.”
“You have a cold, Marty,” he said as they walked. “That’s what you get for cutting your hair.”
“I suppose it do. Yes; I’ve three headaches going on in my head at the same time.”
“I guess it does. Yeah; I have three headaches happening in my head at the same time.”
“Three headaches!”
"Three migraines!"
“Yes, a rheumatic headache in my poll, a sick headache over my eyes, and a misery headache in the middle of my brain. However, I came out, for I thought you might be waiting and grumbling like anything if I was not there.”
“Yes, I have a painful headache that feels like pressure in my forehead, a sick headache behind my eyes, and a throbbing headache in the center of my head. Nevertheless, I came out because I thought you might be waiting and complaining a lot if I wasn’t there.”
The holes were already dug, and they set to work. Winterborne’s fingers were endowed with a gentle conjuror’s touch in spreading the roots of each little tree, resulting in a sort of caress, under which the delicate fibres all laid themselves out in their proper directions for growth. He put most of these roots towards the south-west; for, he said, in forty years’ time, when some great gale is blowing from that quarter, the trees will require the strongest holdfast on that side to stand against it and not fall.
The holes were already dug, and they got to work. Winterborne had a gentle touch like a magician as he spread out the roots of each little tree, making it feel like a caress, allowing the delicate fibers to settle in the right direction to grow. He directed most of these roots toward the southwest because, as he said, in forty years, when a strong gale blows from that direction, the trees will need a solid grip on that side to withstand it and not fall.
“How they sigh directly we put ’em upright, though while they are lying down they don’t sigh at all,” said Marty.
“How they sigh as soon as we set them up, but when they’re lying down, they don’t sigh at all,” said Marty.
“Do they?” said Giles. “I’ve never noticed it.”
“Do they?” said Giles. “I’ve never seen it.”
She erected one of the young pines into its hole, and held up her finger; the soft musical breathing instantly set in, which was not to cease night or day till the grown tree should be felled—probably long after the two planters should be felled themselves.
She planted one of the young pines in its spot and raised her finger; the gentle, melodic breathing immediately began, which would continue day and night until the mature tree was cut down—likely long after the two people who planted it were gone themselves.
“It seems to me,” the girl continued, “as if they sigh because they are very sorry to begin life in earnest—just as we be.”
“It seems to me,” the girl continued, “that they sigh because they’re really sad to start living seriously—just like we are.”
“Just as we be?” He looked critically at her. “You ought not to feel like that, Marty.”
“Just like we are?” He looked at her critically. “You shouldn't feel that way, Marty.”
Her only reply was turning to take up the next tree; and they planted on through a great part of the day, almost without another word. Winterborne’s mind ran on his contemplated evening-party, his abstraction being such that he hardly was conscious of Marty’s presence beside him. From the nature of their employment, in which he handled the spade and she merely held the tree, it followed that he got good exercise and she got none. But she was an heroic girl, and though her out-stretched hand was chill as a stone, and her cheeks blue, and her cold worse than ever, she would not complain while he was disposed to continue work. But when he paused she said, “Mr. Winterborne, can I run down the lane and back to warm my feet?”
Her only response was to turn and grab the next tree; they continued planting for most of the day, almost without saying another word. Winterborne's thoughts were on the evening party he was planning, so much so that he barely noticed Marty standing next to him. Because of the nature of their task, where he used the spade and she simply held the tree, he got a good workout while she didn’t. But she was a brave girl, and even though her outstretched hand was as cold as a stone, her cheeks were blue, and her chill was more intense than ever, she didn’t complain while he wanted to keep working. But when he stopped, she asked, “Mr. Winterborne, can I run down the lane and back to warm my feet?”
“Why, yes, of course,” he said, awakening anew to her existence. “Though I was just thinking what a mild day it is for the season. Now I warrant that cold of yours is twice as bad as it was. You had no business to chop that hair off, Marty; it serves you almost right. Look here, cut off home at once.”
“Of course,” he said, suddenly more aware of her presence. “I was just thinking how mild the weather is for this time of year. I bet your cold is twice as bad now. You shouldn’t have chopped off that hair, Marty; serves you right. Seriously, head home right away.”
“A run down the lane will be quite enough.”
“A quick jog down the path will be more than enough.”
“No, it won’t. You ought not to have come out to-day at all.”
“No, it won’t. You shouldn’t have come out today at all.”
“But I should like to finish the—”
“But I’d like to finish the—”
“Marty, I tell you to go home,” said he, peremptorily. “I can manage to keep the rest of them upright with a stick or something.”
“Marty, I'm telling you to go home,” he said firmly. “I can manage to keep the rest of them standing with a stick or something.”
She went away without saying any more. When she had gone down the orchard a little distance she looked back. Giles suddenly went after her.
She walked away without saying anything else. After she had walked a short way into the orchard, she looked back. Suddenly, Giles went after her.
“Marty, it was for your good that I was rough, you know. But warm yourself in your own way, I don’t care.”
“Marty, I was tough on you for your own benefit, you know. But warm yourself up however you want, I don't care.”
When she had run off he fancied he discerned a woman’s dress through the holly-bushes which divided the coppice from the road. It was Grace at last, on her way back from the interview with Mrs. Charmond. He threw down the tree he was planting, and was about to break through the belt of holly when he suddenly became aware of the presence of another man, who was looking over the hedge on the opposite side of the way upon the figure of the unconscious Grace. He appeared as a handsome and gentlemanly personage of six or eight and twenty, and was quizzing her through an eye-glass. Seeing that Winterborne was noticing him, he let his glass drop with a click upon the rail which protected the hedge, and walked away in the opposite direction. Giles knew in a moment that this must be Mr. Fitzpiers. When he was gone, Winterborne pushed through the hollies, and emerged close beside the interesting object of their contemplation.
When she had run off, he thought he saw a woman's dress through the holly bushes that separated the woods from the road. It was finally Grace, on her way back from her meeting with Mrs. Charmond. He dropped the tree he was planting and was about to push through the holly when he suddenly noticed another man, who was peering over the hedge on the other side of the road at the unaware Grace. He looked like a handsome, well-dressed man in his mid-twenties, and was observing her through an eye-glass. When he saw that Winterborne was watching him, he let his glass drop with a click onto the railing protecting the hedge and walked away in the opposite direction. Giles recognized immediately that this must be Mr. Fitzpiers. Once he was gone, Winterborne pushed through the holly and stepped out right next to the intriguing subject of their gaze.
CHAPTER IX.
“I heard the bushes move long before I saw you,” she began. “I said first, ‘it is some terrible beast;’ next, ‘it is a poacher;’ next, ‘it is a friend!’”
“I heard the bushes rustling long before I saw you,” she started. “First, I thought, ‘it’s some awful creature;’ then, ‘it’s a poacher;’ next, ‘it’s a friend!’”
He regarded her with a slight smile, weighing, not her speech, but the question whether he should tell her that she had been watched. He decided in the negative.
He looked at her with a slight smile, considering not her words, but whether he should tell her that she had been observed. He chose not to.
“You have been to the house?” he said. “But I need not ask.” The fact was that there shone upon Miss Melbury’s face a species of exaltation, which saw no environing details nor his own occupation; nothing more than his bare presence.
“You’ve been to the house?” he asked. “But I don’t need to ask.” The truth was that there was a kind of excitement shining on Miss Melbury’s face, one that didn’t notice the surrounding details or his own role; it was focused solely on his mere presence.
“Why need you not ask?”
“Why don’t you ask?”
“Your face is like the face of Moses when he came down from the Mount.”
“Your face shines like Moses’ when he came down from the mountain.”
She reddened a little and said, “How can you be so profane, Giles Winterborne?”
She blushed slightly and said, “How can you be so inappropriate, Giles Winterborne?”
“How can you think so much of that class of people? Well, I beg pardon; I didn’t mean to speak so freely. How do you like her house and her?”
“How can you think so highly of that group of people? Sorry, I didn’t mean to speak so openly. What do you think of her house and her?”
“Exceedingly. I had not been inside the walls since I was a child, when it used to be let to strangers, before Mrs. Charmond’s late husband bought the property. She is SO nice!” And Grace fell into such an abstracted gaze at the imaginary image of Mrs. Charmond and her niceness that it almost conjured up a vision of that lady in mid-air before them.
“Definitely. I haven't been inside the walls since I was a kid, when it was rented out to strangers, before Mrs. Charmond’s late husband bought the place. She is SO nice!” And Grace fell into such a dreamy stare at the imagined image of Mrs. Charmond and her kindness that it almost seemed like that lady was floating in the air before them.
“She has only been here a month or two, it seems, and cannot stay much longer, because she finds it so lonely and damp in winter. She is going abroad. Only think, she would like me to go with her.”
“She’s only been here for a month or two, it seems, and she can't stay much longer because she finds it so lonely and damp in the winter. She’s going abroad. Just think, she wants me to go with her.”
Giles’s features stiffened a little at the news. “Indeed; what for? But I won’t keep you standing here. Hoi, Robert!” he cried to a swaying collection of clothes in the distance, which was the figure of Creedle his man. “Go on filling in there till I come back.”
Giles’s expression tensed slightly at the news. “Really? What for? But I won’t make you stand here. Hey, Robert!” he called out to a swaying pile of clothes in the distance, which was Creedle, his man. “Keep filling that in until I get back.”
“I’m a-coming, sir; I’m a-coming.”
"I'm coming, sir; I'm coming."
“Well, the reason is this,” continued she, as they went on together—“Mrs. Charmond has a delightful side to her character—a desire to record her impressions of travel, like Alexandre Dumas, and Méry, and Sterne, and others. But she cannot find energy enough to do it herself.” And Grace proceeded to explain Mrs. Charmond’s proposal at large. “My notion is that Méry’s style will suit her best, because he writes in that soft, emotional, luxurious way she has,” Grace said, musingly.
“Well, here’s the thing,” she continued as they walked together, “Mrs. Charmond has a wonderful side to her personality—she really wants to capture her travel experiences, like Alexandre Dumas, Méry, Sterne, and others. But she doesn’t have the energy to do it herself.” Grace then went on to explain Mrs. Charmond’s proposal in detail. “I think Méry’s style will suit her best because he writes in that soft, emotional, luxurious way that she has,” Grace said thoughtfully.
“Indeed!” said Winterborne, with mock awe. “Suppose you talk over my head a little longer, Miss Grace Melbury?”
“Sure thing!” said Winterborne, with feigned amazement. “What if you keep talking over my head a bit longer, Miss Grace Melbury?”
“Oh, I didn’t mean it!” she said, repentantly, looking into his eyes. “And as for myself, I hate French books. And I love dear old Hintock, and the people in it, fifty times better than all the Continent. But the scheme; I think it an enchanting notion, don’t you, Giles?”
“Oh, I didn’t mean it!” she said, apologetically, looking into his eyes. “And as for me, I can’t stand French books. I love dear old Hintock, and the people in it, a hundred times more than anywhere on the Continent. But the idea; I think it’s a charming thought, don’t you, Giles?”
“It is well enough in one sense, but it will take you away,” said he, mollified.
“It’s fine in one way, but it will pull you away,” he said, calming down.
“Only for a short time. We should return in May.”
“Just for a little while. We should come back in May.”
“Well, Miss Melbury, it is a question for your father.”
“Well, Miss Melbury, that's something for your dad to decide.”
Winterborne walked with her nearly to her house. He had awaited her coming, mainly with the view of mentioning to her his proposal to have a Christmas party; but homely Christmas gatherings in the venerable and jovial Hintock style seemed so primitive and uncouth beside the lofty matters of her converse and thought that he refrained.
Winterborne walked with her almost to her house. He had been looking forward to her arrival, mainly to discuss his idea of having a Christmas party; but the cozy Christmas get-togethers in the old-fashioned and cheerful Hintock style felt so primitive and awkward compared to the grand topics of her conversation that he decided against bringing it up.
As soon as she was gone he turned back towards the scene of his planting, and could not help saying to himself as he walked, that this engagement of his was a very unpromising business. Her outing to-day had not improved it. A woman who could go to Hintock House and be friendly with its mistress, enter into the views of its mistress, talk like her, and dress not much unlike her, why, she would hardly be contented with him, a yeoman, now immersed in tree-planting, even though he planted them well. “And yet she’s a true-hearted girl,” he said, thinking of her words about Hintock. “I must bring matters to a point, and there’s an end of it.”
As soon as she left, he turned back to where he had been planting and couldn’t help but think to himself as he walked that this engagement was a pretty bleak situation. Her outing today hadn’t helped at all. A woman who could visit Hintock House and get along with its owner, understand her views, talk like her, and dress somewhat similarly—well, she wouldn’t be satisfied with him, a farmer now focused on planting trees, even if he did it well. “And yet she’s a genuine girl,” he thought, remembering what she said about Hintock. “I need to sort this out, and that’s that.”
When he reached the plantation he found that Marty had come back, and dismissing Creedle, he went on planting silently with the girl as before.
When he got to the plantation, he saw that Marty had returned, and after sending Creedle away, he continued to plant quietly with the girl, just like before.
“Suppose, Marty,” he said, after a while, looking at her extended arm, upon which old scratches from briers showed themselves purple in the cold wind—“suppose you know a person, and want to bring that person to a good understanding with you, do you think a Christmas party of some sort is a warming-up thing, and likely to be useful in hastening on the matter?”
“Imagine, Marty,” he said after a moment, glancing at her outstretched arm, where old scratches from thorns stood out purple in the cold wind—“imagine you know someone and want to get on good terms with that person. Do you think a Christmas party or something similar would be a good way to warm things up and help move things along?”
“Is there to be dancing?”
"Will there be dancing?"
“There might be, certainly.”
"Definitely possible."
“Will He dance with She?”
"Will he dance with her?"
“Well, yes.”
"Sure."
“Then it might bring things to a head, one way or the other; I won’t be the one to say which.”
“Then it could lead to a resolution, one way or another; I won't be the one to decide which.”
“It shall be done,” said Winterborne, not to her, though he spoke the words quite loudly. And as the day was nearly ended, he added, “Here, Marty, I’ll send up a man to plant the rest to-morrow. I’ve other things to think of just now.”
“It'll be done,” Winterborne said, not directly to her, even though he spoke loudly. As the day was coming to an end, he added, “Hey, Marty, I’ll send someone up to finish planting the rest tomorrow. I have other things on my mind right now.”
She did not inquire what other things, for she had seen him walking with Grace Melbury. She looked towards the western sky, which was now aglow like some vast foundery wherein new worlds were being cast. Across it the bare bough of a tree stretched horizontally, revealing every twig against the red, and showing in dark profile every beck and movement of three pheasants that were settling themselves down on it in a row to roost.
She didn’t ask what else was going on because she had seen him walking with Grace Melbury. She looked towards the western sky, which was now glowing like a huge foundry where new worlds were being created. A bare branch of a tree stretched out horizontally across it, showing every twig against the red and outlining the dark shapes and movements of three pheasants that were settling down in a row on it to roost.
“It will be fine to-morrow,” said Marty, observing them with the vermilion light of the sun in the pupils of her eyes, “for they are a-croupied down nearly at the end of the bough. If it were going to be stormy they’d squeeze close to the trunk. The weather is almost all they have to think of, isn’t it, Mr. Winterborne? and so they must be lighter-hearted than we.”
“It'll be fine tomorrow,” said Marty, watching them with the red light of the sun reflected in her eyes. “They're huddled down near the end of the branch. If it were going to be stormy, they'd be closer to the trunk. The weather is pretty much all they have to think about, right, Mr. Winterborne? So they must be in a better mood than we are.”
“I dare say they are,” said Winterborne.
"I bet they are," said Winterborne.
Before taking a single step in the preparations, Winterborne, with no great hopes, went across that evening to the timber-merchant’s to ascertain if Grace and her parents would honor him with their presence. Having first to set his nightly gins in the garden, to catch the rabbits that ate his winter-greens, his call was delayed till just after the rising of the moon, whose rays reached the Hintock houses but fitfully as yet, on account of the trees. Melbury was crossing his yard on his way to call on some one at the larger village, but he readily turned and walked up and down the path with the young man.
Before making any preparations, Winterborne, without expecting much, headed over to the timber merchant’s that evening to see if Grace and her parents would come to see him. He first had to set his night traps in the garden to catch the rabbits that were eating his winter greens, so he didn't get to the merchant's until just after the moon had risen, its light reaching the Hintock houses only sporadically due to the trees. Melbury was crossing his yard on his way to visit someone in the larger village, but he quickly turned and walked back and forth along the path with the young man.
Giles, in his self-deprecatory sense of living on a much smaller scale than the Melburys did, would not for the world imply that his invitation was to a gathering of any importance. So he put it in the mild form of “Can you come in for an hour, when you have done business, the day after to-morrow; and Mrs. and Miss Melbury, if they have nothing more pressing to do?”
Giles, with his humble attitude about living on a much smaller level than the Melburys, wouldn’t dream of suggesting that his invitation was for anything significant. So he phrased it gently: “Can you stop by for an hour, after you finish your business, the day after tomorrow? And Mrs. and Miss Melbury, if they don’t have anything more urgent to attend to?”
Melbury would give no answer at once. “No, I can’t tell you to-day,” he said. “I must talk it over with the women. As far as I am concerned, my dear Giles, you know I’ll come with pleasure. But how do I know what Grace’s notions may be? You see, she has been away among cultivated folks a good while; and now this acquaintance with Mrs. Charmond—Well, I’ll ask her. I can say no more.”
Melbury didn’t respond immediately. “No, I can’t tell you today,” he said. “I need to discuss it with the women. As for me, dear Giles, you know I’d be happy to come. But how can I know what Grace thinks? You see, she’s been surrounded by cultured people for a while now, and with this new friendship with Mrs. Charmond—Well, I’ll ask her. That's all I can say.”
When Winterborne was gone the timber-merchant went on his way. He knew very well that Grace, whatever her own feelings, would either go or not go, according as he suggested; and his instinct was, for the moment, to suggest the negative. His errand took him past the church, and the way to his destination was either across the church-yard or along-side it, the distances being the same. For some reason or other he chose the former way.
When Winterborne left, the timber merchant continued on his path. He was well aware that Grace, regardless of her own emotions, would decide whether to go or stay based on his suggestion; and his instinct at that moment was to suggest that she stay. His business took him by the church, and he could either cut through the churchyard or go alongside it, with both distances being the same. For some reason, he chose to cut through the churchyard.
The moon was faintly lighting up the gravestones, and the path, and the front of the building. Suddenly Mr. Melbury paused, turned ill upon the grass, and approached a particular headstone, where he read, “In memory of John Winterborne,” with the subjoined date and age. It was the grave of Giles’s father.
The moon was softly illuminating the gravestones, the path, and the front of the building. Suddenly, Mr. Melbury stopped, turned sick on the grass, and walked over to a specific headstone, where he read, “In memory of John Winterborne,” along with the date and age. It was Giles’s father’s grave.
The timber-merchant laid his hand upon the stone, and was humanized. “Jack, my wronged friend!” he said. “I’ll be faithful to my plan of making amends to ’ee.”
The lumber dealer placed his hand on the stone and felt a connection. “Jack, my wronged friend!” he said. “I’m committed to making things right with you.”
When he reached home that evening, he said to Grace and Mrs. Melbury, who were working at a little table by the fire,
When he got home that evening, he said to Grace and Mrs. Melbury, who were working at a small table by the fire,
“Giles wants us to go down and spend an hour with him the day after to-morrow; and I’m thinking, that as ’tis Giles who asks us, we’ll go.”
“Giles wants us to come by and spend an hour with him the day after tomorrow, and I’m thinking that since it’s Giles who’s asking us, we’ll go.”
They assented without demur, and accordingly the timber-merchant sent Giles the next morning an answer in the affirmative.
They agreed without hesitation, and so the timber merchant sent Giles a positive response the next morning.
Winterborne, in his modesty, or indifference, had mentioned no particular hour in his invitation; and accordingly Mr. Melbury and his family, expecting no other guests, chose their own time, which chanced to be rather early in the afternoon, by reason of the somewhat quicker despatch than usual of the timber-merchant’s business that day. To show their sense of the unimportance of the occasion, they walked quite slowly to the house, as if they were merely out for a ramble, and going to nothing special at all; or at most intending to pay a casual call and take a cup of tea.
Winterborne, being modest or indifferent, hadn’t specified a particular time in his invitation. So, Mr. Melbury and his family, not expecting any other guests, chose their own time, which happened to be fairly early in the afternoon due to the timber merchant finishing his business quicker than usual that day. To demonstrate how little they felt about the occasion, they walked slowly to the house, as if they were just out for a stroll and not heading to anything important at all; or at most planning to drop by for a casual visit and have a cup of tea.
At this hour stir and bustle pervaded the interior of Winterborne’s domicile from cellar to apple-loft. He had planned an elaborate high tea for six o’clock or thereabouts, and a good roaring supper to come on about eleven. Being a bachelor of rather retiring habits, the whole of the preparations devolved upon himself and his trusty man and familiar, Robert Creedle, who did everything that required doing, from making Giles’s bed to catching moles in his field. He was a survival from the days when Giles’s father held the homestead, and Giles was a playing boy.
At this hour, there was a flurry of activity throughout Winterborne’s home, from the basement to the attic. He had planned an elaborate high tea for around six o’clock, followed by a hearty supper around eleven. Being a reserved bachelor, all the preparations fell on him and his dependable assistant, Robert Creedle, who handled everything from making Giles’s bed to trapping moles in his field. Robert had been around since the days when Giles’s father owned the homestead and Giles was just a young boy.
These two, with a certain dilatoriousness which appertained to both, were now in the heat of preparation in the bake-house, expecting nobody before six o’clock. Winterborne was standing before the brick oven in his shirt-sleeves, tossing in thorn sprays, and stirring about the blazing mass with a long-handled, three-pronged Beelzebub kind of fork, the heat shining out upon his streaming face and making his eyes like furnaces, the thorns crackling and sputtering; while Creedle, having ranged the pastry dishes in a row on the table till the oven should be ready, was pressing out the crust of a final apple-pie with a rolling-pin. A great pot boiled on the fire, and through the open door of the back kitchen a boy was seen seated on the fender, emptying the snuffers and scouring the candlesticks, a row of the latter standing upside down on the hob to melt out the grease.
These two, with a certain slowness that seemed to define both of them, were now in the middle of preparations in the bakehouse, expecting no one until six o'clock. Winterborne stood in front of the brick oven in his shirt sleeves, tossing in thorny branches and stirring the bright flames with a long-handled, three-pronged fork that looked almost demonic, the heat radiating onto his sweaty face and making his eyes look like fires, the thorns crackling and popping. Meanwhile, Creedle had organized the pastry dishes in a line on the table until the oven would be ready, pressing out the crust for a final apple pie with a rolling pin. A large pot was boiling on the fire, and through the open back door of the kitchen, a boy could be seen sitting on the hearth, emptying the snuffers and polishing the candlesticks, a row of which stood upside down on the hob to let the grease melt away.
Looking up from the rolling-pin, Creedle saw passing the window first the timber-merchant, in his second-best suit, Mrs. Melbury in her best silk, and Grace in the fashionable attire which, in part brought home with her from the Continent, she had worn on her visit to Mrs. Charmond’s. The eyes of the three had been attracted to the proceedings within by the fierce illumination which the oven threw out upon the operators and their utensils.
Looking up from the rolling pin, Creedle saw through the window the timber merchant in his second-best suit, Mrs. Melbury in her best silk, and Grace in the stylish outfit she had partly brought back from the Continent during her visit to Mrs. Charmond’s. The three of them were drawn to the activities inside by the bright light coming from the oven, illuminating the workers and their tools.
“Lord, Lord! if they baint come a’ready!” said Creedle.
“Lord, Lord! If they haven’t arrived yet!” said Creedle.
“No—hey?” said Giles, looking round aghast; while the boy in the background waved a reeking candlestick in his delight. As there was no help for it, Winterborne went to meet them in the door-way.
“Not really—wait, what?” said Giles, looking around in shock, while the boy in the background waved a smelly candlestick in his excitement. Since there was no way around it, Winterborne walked over to meet them in the doorway.
“My dear Giles, I see we have made a mistake in the time,” said the timber-merchant’s wife, her face lengthening with concern.
“My dear Giles, I realize we made a mistake with the timing,” said the timber merchant's wife, her face dropping with worry.
“Oh, it is not much difference. I hope you’ll come in.”
“Oh, it’s not much different. I hope you’ll come in.”
“But this means a regular randyvoo!” said Mr. Melbury, accusingly, glancing round and pointing towards the bake-house with his stick.
“But this means a regular party!” said Mr. Melbury, accusingly, glancing around and pointing towards the bake-house with his stick.
“Well, yes,” said Giles.
"Yes," said Giles.
“And—not Great Hintock band, and dancing, surely?”
“And—surely not the Great Hintock band and dancing?”
“I told three of ’em they might drop in if they’d nothing else to do,” Giles mildly admitted.
“I told three of them they could come over if they didn’t have anything else to do,” Giles mildly admitted.
“Now, why the name didn’t ye tell us ’twas going to be a serious kind of thing before? How should I know what folk mean if they don’t say? Now, shall we come in, or shall we go home and come back along in a couple of hours?”
“Now, why didn’t you tell us it was going to be serious before? How am I supposed to know what people mean if they don’t say? So, should we come in, or should we go home and come back in a couple of hours?”
“I hope you’ll stay, if you’ll be so good as not to mind, now you are here. I shall have it all right and tidy in a very little time. I ought not to have been so backward.” Giles spoke quite anxiously for one of his undemonstrative temperament; for he feared that if the Melburys once were back in their own house they would not be disposed to turn out again.
“I hope you'll stay, if you don't mind being here now. I'll have everything sorted out in no time. I shouldn't have taken so long.” Giles spoke quite nervously for someone who usually keeps to himself; he was worried that if the Melburys returned to their own house, they wouldn't want to come back out again.
“’Tis we ought not to have been so forward; that’s what ’tis,” said Mr. Melbury, testily. “Don’t keep us here in the sitting-room; lead on to the bakehouse, man. Now we are here we’ll help ye get ready for the rest. Here, mis’ess, take off your things, and help him out in his baking, or he won’t get done to-night. I’ll finish heating the oven, and set you free to go and skiver up them ducks.” His eye had passed with pitiless directness of criticism into yet remote recesses of Winterborne’s awkwardly built premises, where the aforesaid birds were hanging.
“It’s our fault for being so forward, that’s for sure,” said Mr. Melbury, irritably. “Don’t keep us here in the sitting room; let’s head to the bakehouse, man. Now that we’re here, we’ll help you get ready for the rest. Here, missus, take off your things and help him with his baking, or he won’t finish tonight. I’ll handle heating the oven and let you go clean those ducks.” His gaze had critically scanned the awkwardly built corners of Winterborne’s place, where the mentioned birds were hanging.
“And I’ll help finish the tarts,” said Grace, cheerfully.
“And I’ll help finish the tarts,” Grace said cheerfully.
“I don’t know about that,” said her father. “’Tisn’t quite so much in your line as it is in your mother-law’s and mine.”
“I don’t know about that,” said her father. “It’s not really your thing as much as it is for your mother-in-law and me.”
“Of course I couldn’t let you, Grace!” said Giles, with some distress.
“Of course I couldn’t let you, Grace!” Giles said, clearly upset.
“I’ll do it, of course,” said Mrs. Melbury, taking off her silk train, hanging it up to a nail, carefully rolling back her sleeves, pinning them to her shoulders, and stripping Giles of his apron for her own use.
“I'll do it, of course,” said Mrs. Melbury, taking off her silk train, hanging it up on a nail, carefully rolling back her sleeves, pinning them to her shoulders, and taking Giles's apron for herself.
So Grace pottered idly about, while her father and his wife helped on the preparations. A kindly pity of his household management, which Winterborne saw in her eyes whenever he caught them, depressed him much more than her contempt would have done.
So Grace wandered around aimlessly while her dad and his wife worked on the preparations. A sympathetic pity for his way of running the household, which Winterborne noticed in her eyes whenever he looked at them, affected him much more than her disdain ever could.
Creedle met Giles at the pump after a while, when each of the others was absorbed in the difficulties of a cuisine based on utensils, cupboards, and provisions that were strange to them. He groaned to the young man in a whisper, “This is a bruckle het, maister, I’m much afeared! Who’d ha’ thought they’d ha’ come so soon?”
Creedle met Giles at the pump after some time, while the others were busy dealing with the challenges of a cuisine filled with utensils, cabinets, and supplies that were unfamiliar to them. He whispered to the young man, “This is a real mess, master, I’m really worried! Who would have thought they’d arrive so soon?”
The bitter placidity of Winterborne’s look adumbrated the misgivings he did not care to express. “Have you got the celery ready?” he asked, quickly.
The bitter calmness in Winterborne’s expression hinted at the doubts he didn’t want to share. “Do you have the celery ready?” he asked, quickly.
“Now that’s a thing I never could mind; no, not if you’d paid me in silver and gold. And I don’t care who the man is, I says that a stick of celery that isn’t scrubbed with the scrubbing-brush is not clean.”
“Now that’s something I could never stand; no, not even if you paid me in silver and gold. And I don’t care who the guy is, I say that a stick of celery that isn’t scrubbed with a scrubbing brush is not clean.”
“Very well, very well! I’ll attend to it. You go and get ’em comfortable in-doors.”
“Alright, alright! I’ll take care of it. You go and make them comfortable inside.”
He hastened to the garden, and soon returned, tossing the stalks to Creedle, who was still in a tragic mood. “If ye’d ha’ married, d’ye see, maister,” he said, “this caddle couldn’t have happened to us.”
He rushed to the garden and quickly came back, throwing the stalks to Creedle, who was still feeling gloomy. “If you’d gotten married, you see, master,” he said, “this mess wouldn’t have happened to us.”
Everything being at last under way, the oven set, and all done that could insure the supper turning up ready at some time or other, Giles and his friends entered the parlor, where the Melburys again dropped into position as guests, though the room was not nearly so warm and cheerful as the blazing bakehouse. Others now arrived, among them Farmer Bawtree and the hollow-turner, and tea went off very well.
Everything finally underway, the oven turned on, and everything done to make sure the supper would be ready at some point, Giles and his friends entered the parlor, where the Melburys took their places as guests again, although the room was nowhere near as warm and cheerful as the blazing bakehouse. Others arrived as well, including Farmer Bawtree and the hollow-turner, and tea went smoothly.
Grace’s disposition to make the best of everything, and to wink at deficiencies in Winterborne’s menage, was so uniform and persistent that he suspected her of seeing even more deficiencies than he was aware of. That suppressed sympathy which had showed in her face ever since her arrival told him as much too plainly.
Grace's attitude of making the most of everything and overlooking the shortcomings in Winterborne's household was so consistent and ongoing that he suspected she noticed even more flaws than he realized. The quiet sympathy that had been evident on her face since she arrived made this quite clear to him.
“This muddling style of house-keeping is what you’ve not lately been used to, I suppose?” he said, when they were a little apart.
“This confusing way of running a household is probably not what you’re used to lately, right?” he said, when they were a bit apart.
“No; but I like it; it reminds me so pleasantly that everything here in dear old Hintock is just as it used to be. The oil is—not quite nice; but everything else is.”
“No; but I like it; it reminds me so pleasantly that everything here in dear old Hintock is just as it used to be. The oil isn’t great, but everything else is.”
“The oil?”
“Is it the oil?”
“On the chairs, I mean; because it gets on one’s dress. Still, mine is not a new one.”
“On the chairs, I mean; because it gets on your dress. Still, mine isn't new.”
Giles found that Creedle, in his zeal to make things look bright, had smeared the chairs with some greasy kind of furniture-polish, and refrained from rubbing it dry in order not to diminish the mirror-like effect that the mixture produced as laid on. Giles apologized and called Creedle; but he felt that the Fates were against him.
Giles discovered that Creedle, in his eagerness to make everything look good, had coated the chairs with some greasy furniture polish and hadn't wiped it off to keep the shiny effect it created. Giles apologized and called for Creedle, but he felt like fate was not on his side.
CHAPTER X.
Supper-time came, and with it the hot-baked meats from the oven, laid on a snowy cloth fresh from the press, and reticulated with folds, as in Flemish “Last Suppers.” Creedle and the boy fetched and carried with amazing alacrity, the latter, to mollify his superior and make things pleasant, expressing his admiration of Creedle’s cleverness when they were alone.
Supper time arrived, bringing with it the hot, baked meats from the oven, served on a freshly pressed white cloth with intricate folds, just like in those Flemish “Last Suppers.” Creedle and the boy moved quickly to get everything ready, and the boy, wanting to keep things friendly with Creedle, praised his cleverness whenever they were alone.
“I s’pose the time when you learned all these knowing things, Mr. Creedle, was when you was in the militia?”
“I guess the time when you learned all these smart things, Mr. Creedle, was when you were in the militia?”
“Well, yes. I seed the world at that time somewhat, certainly, and many ways of strange dashing life. Not but that Giles has worked hard in helping me to bring things to such perfection to-day. ‘Giles,’ says I, though he’s maister. Not that I should call’n maister by rights, for his father growed up side by side with me, as if one mother had twinned us and been our nourishing.”
“Well, yes. I did see the world a bit back then, for sure, and many strange and exciting ways of life. But Giles has really worked hard to help me get everything to this level of perfection today. ‘Giles,’ I say, even though he’s the master. Not that I should really call him master, since his father grew up alongside me, as if one mother had raised us both together.”
“I s’pose your memory can reach a long way back into history, Mr. Creedle?”
“I guess your memory goes way back into history, Mr. Creedle?”
“Oh yes. Ancient days, when there was battles and famines and hang-fairs and other pomps, seem to me as yesterday. Ah, many’s the patriarch I’ve seed come and go in this parish! There, he’s calling for more plates. Lord, why can’t ’em turn their plates bottom upward for pudding, as they used to do in former days?”
“Oh yes. The old days, when there were battles and famines and fairs and other festivities, feel like they were just yesterday. Ah, I've seen so many leaders come and go in this parish! Look, he’s asking for more plates. Lord, why can’t they just turn their plates upside down for pudding like they used to in the past?”
Meanwhile, in the adjoining room Giles was presiding in a half-unconscious state. He could not get over the initial failures in his scheme for advancing his suit, and hence he did not know that he was eating mouthfuls of bread and nothing else, and continually snuffing the two candles next him till he had reduced them to mere glimmers drowned in their own grease. Creedle now appeared with a specially prepared dish, which he served by elevating the little three-legged pot that contained it, and tilting the contents into a dish, exclaiming, simultaneously, “Draw back, gentlemen and ladies, please!”
Meanwhile, in the next room, Giles was sitting there in a kind of daze. He couldn't shake off the initial setbacks in his attempts to win his case, so he didn’t even realize he was eating just bread and nothing else, continually sniffing at the two candles beside him until they were just tiny flickers lost in their own wax. Creedle then came in with a specially prepared dish, lifting the small three-legged pot that held it and pouring the contents into a plate, while saying, “Everyone, please step back!”
A splash followed. Grace gave a quick, involuntary nod and blink, and put her handkerchief to her face.
A splash followed. Grace gave a quick, involuntary nod and blink, then pressed her handkerchief to her face.
“Good heavens! what did you do that for, Creedle?” said Giles, sternly, and jumping up.
“Good heavens! Why did you do that, Creedle?” said Giles, sternly, as he jumped up.
“’Tis how I do it when they baint here, maister,” mildly expostulated Creedle, in an aside audible to all the company.
“Here’s how I do it when they aren’t here, sir,” Creedle said quietly, but loud enough for everyone to hear.
“Well, yes—but—” replied Giles. He went over to Grace, and hoped none of it had gone into her eye.
“Well, yeah—but—” replied Giles. He walked over to Grace and hoped none of it had gotten in her eye.
“Oh no,” she said. “Only a sprinkle on my face. It was nothing.”
“Oh no,” she said. “Just a little splash on my face. It was nothing.”
“Kiss it and make it well,” gallantly observed Mr. Bawtree.
“Kiss it and make it better,” Mr. Bawtree said gallantly.
Miss Melbury blushed.
Miss Melbury blushed.
The timber-merchant said, quickly, “Oh, it is nothing! She must bear these little mishaps.” But there could be discerned in his face something which said “I ought to have foreseen this.”
The wood seller said quickly, "Oh, it's nothing! She just has to deal with these little accidents." But you could see on his face that he thought, "I should have seen this coming."
Giles himself, since the untoward beginning of the feast, had not quite liked to see Grace present. He wished he had not asked such people as Bawtree and the hollow-turner. He had done it, in dearth of other friends, that the room might not appear empty. In his mind’s eye, before the event, they had been the mere background or padding of the scene, but somehow in reality they were the most prominent personages there.
Giles himself, since the awkward start of the feast, had really not liked seeing Grace there. He wished he hadn’t invited people like Bawtree and the hollow-turner. He had done it out of a lack of other friends, so the room wouldn’t look empty. In his mind, before the event, they had been just background or filler for the scene, but somehow in reality, they were the most noticeable people there.
After supper they played cards, Bawtree and the hollow-turner monopolizing the new packs for an interminable game, in which a lump of chalk was incessantly used—a game those two always played wherever they were, taking a solitary candle and going to a private table in a corner with the mien of persons bent on weighty matters. The rest of the company on this account were obliged to put up with old packs for their round game, that had been lying by in a drawer ever since the time that Giles’s grandmother was alive. Each card had a great stain in the middle of its back, produced by the touch of generations of damp and excited thumbs now fleshless in the grave; and the kings and queens wore a decayed expression of feature, as if they were rather an impecunious dethroned race of monarchs hiding in obscure slums than real regal characters. Every now and then the comparatively few remarks of the players at the round game were harshly intruded on by the measured jingle of Farmer Bawtree and the hollow-turner from the back of the room:
After dinner, they played cards, with Bawtree and the hollow-turner hogging the new decks for a never-ending game, during which they constantly used a piece of chalk—a game those two always played wherever they went, taking a lone candle and heading to a private table in the corner, looking serious as if they were dealing with important matters. Because of this, the rest of the group had to settle for old decks for their game, which had been sitting in a drawer since Giles’s grandmother was alive. Each card had a big stain in the middle of its back, caused by the touch of generations of damp, excited thumbs that were now just bones in the grave; and the kings and queens had a faded, worn-out look, as if they were a broke, dethroned royal family hiding out in shabby neighborhoods instead of actual kings and queens. Every now and then, the few comments from the players at the round game were harshly interrupted by the rhythmic jingle of Farmer Bawtree and the hollow-turner from the back of the room:
“And I′ will hold′ a wa′-ger with you′
That all′ these marks′ are thirt′-y two!”
“And I’ll bet you
That all these marks are thirty-two!”
accompanied by rapping strokes with the chalk on the table; then an exclamation, an argument, a dealing of the cards; then the commencement of the rhymes anew.
accompanied by rhythmic taps of chalk on the table; then a shout, a debate, dealing the cards; then the start of the rhymes again.
The timber-merchant showed his feelings by talking with a satisfied sense of weight in his words, and by praising the party in a patronizing tone, when Winterborne expressed his fear that he and his were not enjoying themselves.
The timber merchant conveyed his emotions by speaking with a noticeable weight in his words and by complimenting the group in a condescending tone when Winterborne voiced his concern that he and his companions were not having a good time.
“Oh yes, yes; pretty much. What handsome glasses those are! I didn’t know you had such glasses in the house. Now, Lucy” (to his wife), “you ought to get some like them for ourselves.” And when they had abandoned cards, and Winterborne was talking to Melbury by the fire, it was the timber-merchant who stood with his back to the mantle in a proprietary attitude, from which post of vantage he critically regarded Giles’s person, rather as a superficies than as a solid with ideas and feelings inside it, saying, “What a splendid coat that one is you have on, Giles! I can’t get such coats. You dress better than I.”
“Oh yes, definitely; pretty much. Those are some nice glasses! I didn’t know you had such nice ones at home. Now, Lucy” (to his wife), “we should get some like those for ourselves.” And when they stopped playing cards, and Winterborne was chatting with Melbury by the fire, it was the timber merchant who stood with his back to the mantle in a confident way, from which position he critically assessed Giles’s appearance, as if he were looking at a surface rather than a person with thoughts and feelings, saying, “What a great coat you’re wearing, Giles! I can’t find coats like that. You dress better than I do.”
After supper there was a dance, the bandsmen from Great Hintock having arrived some time before. Grace had been away from home so long that she had forgotten the old figures, and hence did not join in the movement. Then Giles felt that all was over. As for her, she was thinking, as she watched the gyrations, of a very different measure that she had been accustomed to tread with a bevy of sylph-like creatures in muslin, in the music-room of a large house, most of whom were now moving in scenes widely removed from this, both as regarded place and character.
After dinner, there was a dance, and the musicians from Great Hintock had arrived a while ago. Grace had been away from home for so long that she had forgotten the old steps, so she didn’t join in. At that moment, Giles felt that everything was done. Meanwhile, she watched the dancing, thinking about a totally different dance she used to do with a group of graceful girls in light dresses in the music room of a big house. Most of those girls were now involved in lives that were far removed from this, both in terms of location and temperament.
A woman she did not know came and offered to tell her fortune with the abandoned cards. Grace assented to the proposal, and the woman told her tale unskilfully, for want of practice, as she declared.
A woman she didn’t recognize approached her and offered to read her fortune with the discarded cards. Grace agreed to the offer, and the woman shared her tale clumsily, saying it was due to a lack of practice.
Mr. Melbury was standing by, and exclaimed, contemptuously, “Tell her fortune, indeed! Her fortune has been told by men of science—what do you call ’em? Phrenologists. You can’t teach her anything new. She’s been too far among the wise ones to be astonished at anything she can hear among us folks in Hintock.”
Mr. Melbury was standing nearby and scoffed, “Tell her fortune, really! Her fortune has already been determined by scientists—what do you call them? Phrenologists. You can’t teach her anything new. She’s been around too many experts to be amazed by anything she hears from us regular people in Hintock.”
At last the time came for breaking up, Melbury and his family being the earliest to leave, the two card-players still pursuing their game doggedly in the corner, where they had completely covered Giles’s mahogany table with chalk scratches. The three walked home, the distance being short and the night clear.
At last, the time came to leave. Melbury and his family were the first to go, while the two card players continued their game stubbornly in the corner, having completely marked up Giles’s mahogany table with chalk scratches. The three of them walked home; the distance was short, and the night was clear.
“Well, Giles is a very good fellow,” said Mr. Melbury, as they struck down the lane under boughs which formed a black filigree in which the stars seemed set.
“Well, Giles is a really good guy,” said Mr. Melbury, as they walked down the lane beneath branches that created a dark lace where the stars looked like they were embedded.
“Certainly he is,” said Grace, quickly, and in such a tone as to show that he stood no lower, if no higher, in her regard than he had stood before.
“Of course he is,” Grace replied quickly, her tone making it clear that she thought no less of him, if not more, than she did before.
When they were opposite an opening through which, by day, the doctor’s house could be seen, they observed a light in one of his rooms, although it was now about two o’clock.
When they were in front of an opening where, during the day, the doctor’s house could be seen, they noticed a light in one of his rooms, even though it was around two o’clock.
“The doctor is not abed yet,” said Mrs. Melbury.
“The doctor isn't in bed yet,” said Mrs. Melbury.
“Hard study, no doubt,” said her husband.
“Definitely hard work,” said her husband.
“One would think that, as he seems to have nothing to do about here by day, he could at least afford to go to bed early at night. ’Tis astonishing how little we see of him.”
“One would think that, since he doesn’t seem to have anything to do around here during the day, he could at least go to bed early at night. It’s amazing how little we see of him.”
Melbury’s mind seemed to turn with much relief to the contemplation of Mr. Fitzpiers after the scenes of the evening. “It is natural enough,” he replied. “What can a man of that sort find to interest him in Hintock? I don’t expect he’ll stay here long.”
Melbury's mind shifted to Mr. Fitzpiers with a sense of relief after the events of the evening. “That makes sense,” he said. “What could a guy like him find interesting in Hintock? I don’t think he’ll be here for long.”
His mind reverted to Giles’s party, and when they were nearly home he spoke again, his daughter being a few steps in advance: “It is hardly the line of life for a girl like Grace, after what she’s been accustomed to. I didn’t foresee that in sending her to boarding-school and letting her travel, and what not, to make her a good bargain for Giles, I should be really spoiling her for him. Ah, ’tis a thousand pities! But he ought to have her—he ought!”
His thoughts went back to Giles’s party, and as they were almost home he spoke again, with his daughter a few steps ahead: “This really isn’t the right path for a girl like Grace, given what she’s used to. I didn’t expect that by sending her to boarding school and letting her travel, all to make her an attractive option for Giles, I’d actually be ruining her for him. What a shame! But he deserves her—he really does!”
At this moment the two exclusive, chalk-mark men, having at last really finished their play, could be heard coming along in the rear, vociferously singing a song to march-time, and keeping vigorous step to the same in far-reaching strides—
At this moment, the two exclusive men in chalk-mark outfits, having finally finished their play, could be heard coming up from behind, loudly singing a march-time song and stepping vigorously in sync with it.
“She may go, oh!
She may go, oh!
She may go to the d—— for me!”
“She can go, oh!
She can go, oh!
She can go to hell for me!”
The timber-merchant turned indignantly to Mrs. Melbury. “That’s the sort of society we’ve been asked to meet,” he said. “For us old folk it didn’t matter; but for Grace—Giles should have known better!”
The wood trader turned angrily to Mrs. Melbury. “That’s the kind of company we’ve been asked to keep,” he said. “For us older folks, it didn’t matter; but for Grace—Giles should have known better!”
Meanwhile, in the empty house from which the guests had just cleared out, the subject of their discourse was walking from room to room surveying the general displacement of furniture with no ecstatic feeling; rather the reverse, indeed. At last he entered the bakehouse, and found there Robert Creedle sitting over the embers, also lost in contemplation. Winterborne sat down beside him.
Meanwhile, in the empty house that the guests had just left, the topic of their conversation was walking from room to room, looking at the overall disarray of the furniture with no joyful feelings; in fact, quite the opposite. Finally, he walked into the bakehouse and found Robert Creedle sitting by the dying fire, also lost in thought. Winterborne sat down next to him.
“Well, Robert, you must be tired. You’d better get on to bed.”
“Well, Robert, you must be tired. You should head to bed.”
“Ay, ay, Giles—what do I call ye? Maister, I would say. But ’tis well to think the day is done, when ’tis done.”
“Ay, ay, Giles—what should I call you? I guess I should say Master. But it’s good to think the day is done, when it’s done.”
Winterborne had abstractedly taken the poker, and with a wrinkled forehead was ploughing abroad the wood-embers on the broad hearth, till it was like a vast scorching Sahara, with red-hot bowlders lying about everywhere. “Do you think it went off well, Creedle?” he asked.
Winterborne had absentmindedly picked up the poker, and with a furrowed brow, he was pushing around the wood embers on the wide hearth, making it look like a vast, searing desert, with glowing stones scattered all over. “Do you think it went well, Creedle?” he asked.
“The victuals did; that I know. And the drink did; that I steadfastly believe, from the holler sound of the barrels. Good, honest drink ’twere, the headiest mead I ever brewed; and the best wine that berries could rise to; and the briskest Horner-and-Cleeves cider ever wrung down, leaving out the spice and sperrits I put into it, while that egg-flip would ha’ passed through muslin, so little curdled ’twere. ’Twas good enough to make any king’s heart merry—ay, to make his whole carcass smile. Still, I don’t deny I’m afeared some things didn’t go well with He and his.” Creedle nodded in a direction which signified where the Melburys lived.
“The food was great; I know that for sure. And the drinks were awesome; I firmly believe it, based on the hollow sound of the barrels. It was good, honest drink—the strongest mead I’ve ever made; the best wine that berries could create; and the freshest cider from Horner-and-Cleeves that I could squeeze out, not counting the spices and spirits I added, while that egg-flip could’ve easily passed through muslin, so little curdled it was. It was good enough to make any king happy—yeah, to make him smile from head to toe. Still, I can’t deny I’m afraid some things didn’t sit well with him and his.” Creedle nodded toward where the Melburys lived.
“I’m afraid, too, that it was a failure there!”
“I’m afraid it was a failure there too!”
“If so, ’twere doomed to be so. Not but what that snail might as well have come upon anybody else’s plate as hers.”
“If that’s the case, then it was meant to be. It wouldn’t have made a difference if that snail had ended up on someone else’s plate instead of hers.”
“What snail?”
"What snail?"
“Well, maister, there was a little one upon the edge of her plate when I brought it out; and so it must have been in her few leaves of wintergreen.”
“Well, sir, there was a little one on the edge of her plate when I brought it out; so it must have been in her few leaves of wintergreen.”
“How the deuce did a snail get there?”
“How the heck did a snail get there?”
“That I don’t know no more than the dead; but there my gentleman was.”
“That I don’t know any more than the dead; but there my guy was.”
“But, Robert, of all places, that was where he shouldn’t have been!”
“But, Robert, of all the places, that’s exactly where he shouldn't have been!”
“Well, ’twas his native home, come to that; and where else could we expect him to be? I don’t care who the man is, snails and caterpillars always will lurk in close to the stump of cabbages in that tantalizing way.”
“Well, it was his home, after all; and where else would we expect him to be? I don’t care who the man is, snails and caterpillars will always hang around the base of cabbages in that annoying way.”
“He wasn’t alive, I suppose?” said Giles, with a shudder on Grace’s account.
“He wasn’t alive, I guess?” said Giles, shuddering at the thought of Grace.
“Oh no. He was well boiled. I warrant him well boiled. God forbid that a live snail should be seed on any plate of victuals that’s served by Robert Creedle....But Lord, there; I don’t mind ’em myself—them small ones, for they were born on cabbage, and they’ve lived on cabbage, so they must be made of cabbage. But she, the close-mouthed little lady, she didn’t say a word about it; though ’twould have made good small conversation as to the nater of such creatures; especially as wit ran short among us sometimes.”
“Oh no. He was definitely cooked. I’m sure of it. God forbid a live snail should be seen on any plate of food served by Robert Creedle....But honestly, I don’t mind them myself—the small ones, since they were born on cabbage and have lived on cabbage, so they must be made of cabbage. But she, the quiet little lady, didn’t say a word about it; though it would have made for good small talk about the nature of such creatures; especially since conversation sometimes lagged among us.”
“Oh yes—’tis all over!” murmured Giles to himself, shaking his head over the glooming plain of embers, and lining his forehead more than ever. “Do you know, Robert,” he said, “that she’s been accustomed to servants and everything superfine these many years? How, then, could she stand our ways?”
“Oh yes—it’s all over!” murmured Giles to himself, shaking his head over the darkening field of embers and furrowing his brow even more. “Do you know, Robert,” he said, “that she’s been used to servants and everything fancy for many years? How, then, could she handle our ways?”
“Well, all I can say is, then, that she ought to hob-and-nob elsewhere. They shouldn’t have schooled her so monstrous high, or else bachelor men shouldn’t give randys, or if they do give ’em, only to their own race.”
"Well, all I can say is that she should socialize elsewhere. They shouldn’t have raised her to be so stuck-up, or else single guys shouldn’t make advances, or if they do, they should only do it with their own kind."
“Perhaps that’s true,” said Winterborne, rising and yawning a sigh.
“Maybe that’s true,” said Winterborne, getting up and yawning with a sigh.
CHAPTER XI.
“’Tis a pity—a thousand pities!” her father kept saying next morning at breakfast, Grace being still in her bedroom.
“It's a shame—a thousand shames!” her father kept saying the next morning at breakfast, Grace still being in her bedroom.
But how could he, with any self-respect, obstruct Winterborne’s suit at this stage, and nullify a scheme he had labored to promote—was, indeed, mechanically promoting at this moment? A crisis was approaching, mainly as a result of his contrivances, and it would have to be met.
But how could he, with any self-respect, block Winterborne’s proposal at this point, and cancel a plan he had worked hard to support—was, in fact, actively supporting at this moment? A crisis was coming, largely because of his efforts, and it had to be faced.
But here was the fact, which could not be disguised: since seeing what an immense change her last twelve months of absence had produced in his daughter, after the heavy sum per annum that he had been spending for several years upon her education, he was reluctant to let her marry Giles Winterborne, indefinitely occupied as woodsman, cider-merchant, apple-farmer, and what not, even were she willing to marry him herself.
But here was the undeniable fact: seeing the huge change that her year-long absence had caused in his daughter, after all the money he had spent on her education for several years, he was hesitant to let her marry Giles Winterborne, who was constantly busy as a woodsman, cider merchant, apple farmer, and whatever else, even if she herself was willing to marry him.
“She will be his wife if you don’t upset her notion that she’s bound to accept him as an understood thing,” said Mrs. Melbury. “Bless ye, she’ll soon shake down here in Hintock, and be content with Giles’s way of living, which he’ll improve with what money she’ll have from you. ’Tis the strangeness after her genteel life that makes her feel uncomfortable at first. Why, when I saw Hintock the first time I thought I never could like it. But things gradually get familiar, and stone floors seem not so very cold and hard, and the hooting of the owls not so very dreadful, and loneliness not so very lonely, after a while.”
“She’ll be his wife if you don’t mess with her idea that she has to accept him as a given,” said Mrs. Melbury. “Trust me, she’ll soon settle in here in Hintock and be okay with Giles’s way of life, which he’ll make better with the money she’ll get from you. It’s the difference from her fancy life that makes her feel uneasy at first. When I saw Hintock for the first time, I thought I’d never like it. But things gradually feel familiar, and stone floors don’t seem so cold and hard, and the hooting of the owls isn’t so terrifying, and loneliness doesn’t feel so lonely after a while.”
“Yes, I believe ye. That’s just it. I know Grace will gradually sink down to our level again, and catch our manners and way of speaking, and feel a drowsy content in being Giles’s wife. But I can’t bear the thought of dragging down to that old level as promising a piece of maidenhood as ever lived—fit to ornament a palace wi’—that I’ve taken so much trouble to lift up. Fancy her white hands getting redder every day, and her tongue losing its pretty up-country curl in talking, and her bounding walk becoming the regular Hintock shail and wamble!”
“Yes, I believe you. That’s the thing. I know Grace will eventually slide back down to our level again, pick up our habits and way of speaking, and feel a sleepy contentment in being Giles’s wife. But I can’t stand the thought of dragging down to that old level someone as promising and lovely as she is—someone who could grace a palace—who I’ve worked so hard to uplift. Just imagine her once delicate hands becoming rougher every day, her sweet accent fading away, and her lively way of walking turning into the usual Hintock shuffle and wobble!”
“She may shail, but she’ll never wamble,” replied his wife, decisively.
“She might stumble, but she’ll never falter,” replied his wife, decisively.
When Grace came down-stairs he complained of her lying in bed so late; not so much moved by a particular objection to that form of indulgence as discomposed by these other reflections.
When Grace came downstairs, he complained about her lying in bed so late; not so much because he had a specific issue with that kind of behavior, but rather because he was troubled by other thoughts.
The corners of her pretty mouth dropped a little down. “You used to complain with justice when I was a girl,” she said. “But I am a woman now, and can judge for myself....But it is not that; it is something else!” Instead of sitting down she went outside the door.
The corners of her pretty mouth turned down slightly. “You used to have valid complaints when I was a girl,” she said. “But I’m a woman now and can judge for myself....But it’s not that; it’s something else!” Instead of sitting down, she stepped outside the door.
He was sorry. The petulance that relatives show towards each other is in truth directed against that intangible Causality which has shaped the situation no less for the offenders than the offended, but is too elusive to be discerned and cornered by poor humanity in irritated mood. Melbury followed her. She had rambled on to the paddock, where the white frost lay, and where starlings in flocks of twenties and thirties were walking about, watched by a comfortable family of sparrows perched in a line along the string-course of the chimney, preening themselves in the rays of the sun.
He felt regretful. The irritation that family members display towards one another is really aimed at that ungraspable Causality that has influenced the situation just as much for the wrongdoers as for the wronged, but it’s too fleeting for frustrated humans to recognize and confront. Melbury followed her. She had wandered out to the paddock, where the white frost covered the ground, and where flocks of starlings, numbering in the twenties and thirties, were milling about, observed by a cozy group of sparrows sitting in a row along the edge of the chimney, fluffing their feathers in the sunlight.
“Come in to breakfast, my girl,” he said. “And as to Giles, use your own mind. Whatever pleases you will please me.”
“Come in for breakfast, my girl,” he said. “And when it comes to Giles, think for yourself. What makes you happy will make me happy.”
“I am promised to him, father; and I cannot help thinking that in honor I ought to marry him, whenever I do marry.”
“I’m promised to him, dad; and I can’t help believing that out of honor, I should marry him whenever I do get married.”
He had a strong suspicion that somewhere in the bottom of her heart there pulsed an old simple indigenous feeling favorable to Giles, though it had become overlaid with implanted tastes. But he would not distinctly express his views on the promise. “Very well,” he said. “But I hope I sha’n’t lose you yet. Come in to breakfast. What did you think of the inside of Hintock House the other day?”
He strongly suspected that deep down in her heart, there was an old, simple feeling that favored Giles, even though it had been covered up by new tastes. But he wouldn’t say exactly what he thought about the promise. “Alright,” he said. “But I hope I won’t lose you just yet. Come in for breakfast. What did you think of the inside of Hintock House the other day?”
“I liked it much.”
“I really liked it.”
“Different from friend Winterborne’s?”
“Different from friend Winterborne?”
She said nothing; but he who knew her was aware that she meant by her silence to reproach him with drawing cruel comparisons.
She said nothing, but he, who knew her well, realized that her silence was a way of accusing him of making harsh comparisons.
“Mrs. Charmond has asked you to come again—when, did you say?”
“Mrs. Charmond asked you to come back—when did you say?”
“She thought Tuesday, but would send the day before to let me know if it suited her.” And with this subject upon their lips they entered to breakfast.
“She thought about Tuesday, but would let me know the day before if that worked for her.” And with this topic on their minds, they went in to have breakfast.
Tuesday came, but no message from Mrs. Charmond. Nor was there any on Wednesday. In brief, a fortnight slipped by without a sign, and it looked suspiciously as if Mrs. Charmond were not going further in the direction of “taking up” Grace at present.
Tuesday came, but there was no message from Mrs. Charmond. There was none on Wednesday either. In short, two weeks went by without a word, and it seemed quite clear that Mrs. Charmond wasn't planning to pursue "taking up" Grace for now.
Her father reasoned thereon. Immediately after his daughter’s two indubitable successes with Mrs. Charmond—the interview in the wood and a visit to the House—she had attended Winterborne’s party. No doubt the out-and-out joviality of that gathering had made it a topic in the neighborhood, and that every one present as guests had been widely spoken of—Grace, with her exceptional qualities, above all. What, then, so natural as that Mrs. Charmond should have heard the village news, and become quite disappointed in her expectations of Grace at finding she kept such company?
Her father thought about it. Right after his daughter's undeniable successes with Mrs. Charmond—the meeting in the woods and then visiting the House—she had gone to Winterborne's party. Surely, the sheer joy of that gathering had made it a hot topic in the neighborhood, with everyone there being widely discussed—especially Grace, with her exceptional traits. So, what could be more natural than that Mrs. Charmond would hear the gossip from the village and become quite disappointed in her hopes for Grace when she found out she was hanging out with such people?
Full of this post hoc argument, Mr. Melbury overlooked the infinite throng of other possible reasons and unreasons for a woman changing her mind. For instance, while knowing that his Grace was attractive, he quite forgot that Mrs. Charmond had also great pretensions to beauty. In his simple estimate, an attractive woman attracted all around.
Full of this post hoc argument, Mr. Melbury overlooked the countless other possible reasons and excuses for a woman changing her mind. For example, even though he knew that the Duke was charming, he completely forgot that Mrs. Charmond also had significant claims to beauty. In his naive view, an attractive woman drew everyone to her.
So it was settled in his mind that her sudden mingling with the villagers at the unlucky Winterborne’s was the cause of her most grievous loss, as he deemed it, in the direction of Hintock House.
So he was convinced that her unexpected interaction with the villagers at the unfortunate Winterborne's was the reason for her most significant loss, in his view, towards Hintock House.
“’Tis a thousand pities!” he would repeat to himself. “I am ruining her for conscience’ sake!”
“It's such a shame!” he would keep telling himself. “I am ruining her for the sake of my conscience!”
It was one morning later on, while these things were agitating his mind, that, curiously enough, something darkened the window just as they finished breakfast. Looking up, they saw Giles in person mounted on horseback, and straining his neck forward, as he had been doing for some time, to catch their attention through the window. Grace had been the first to see him, and involuntarily exclaimed, “There he is—and a new horse!”
It was one morning later, while these thoughts were swirling in his mind, that something surprisingly darkened the window just as they finished breakfast. Looking up, they saw Giles himself on horseback, stretching his neck forward, as he had been doing for a while, to get their attention through the window. Grace was the first to spot him and involuntarily exclaimed, “There he is—and a new horse!”
On their faces as they regarded Giles were written their suspended thoughts and compound feelings concerning him, could he have read them through those old panes. But he saw nothing: his features just now were, for a wonder, lit up with a red smile at some other idea. So they rose from breakfast and went to the door, Grace with an anxious, wistful manner, her father in a reverie, Mrs. Melbury placid and inquiring. “We have come out to look at your horse,” she said.
On their faces as they looked at Giles were their mixed thoughts and feelings about him, as if he could read them through those old windows. But he saw nothing; his expression was unexpectedly bright with a red smile, lost in another thought. So they finished breakfast and headed to the door, Grace looking anxious and hopeful, her father deep in thought, Mrs. Melbury calm and curious. “We came out to check on your horse,” she said.
It could be seen that he was pleased at their attention, and explained that he had ridden a mile or two to try the animal’s paces. “I bought her,” he added, with warmth so severely repressed as to seem indifference, “because she has been used to carry a lady.”
It was clear that he appreciated their attention and mentioned that he had traveled a mile or two to test the animal's gait. "I bought her," he added, with a warmth so tightly controlled that it came off as indifference, "because she's been trained to carry a lady."
Still Mr. Melbury did not brighten. Mrs. Melbury said, “And is she quiet?”
Still, Mr. Melbury didn’t lighten up. Mrs. Melbury asked, “Is she quiet?”
Winterborne assured her that there was no doubt of it. “I took care of that. She’s five-and-twenty, and very clever for her age.”
Winterborne assured her that there was no doubt about it. “I took care of that. She's twenty-five and quite clever for her age.”
“Well, get off and come in,” said Melbury, brusquely; and Giles dismounted accordingly.
“Well, get off and come in,” Melbury said sharply, and Giles got off his horse as instructed.
This event was the concrete result of Winterborne’s thoughts during the past week or two. The want of success with his evening party he had accepted in as philosophic a mood as he was capable of; but there had been enthusiasm enough left in him one day at Sherton Abbas market to purchase this old mare, which had belonged to a neighboring parson with several daughters, and was offered him to carry either a gentleman or a lady, and to do odd jobs of carting and agriculture at a pinch. This obliging quadruped seemed to furnish Giles with a means of reinstating himself in Melbury’s good opinion as a man of considerateness by throwing out future possibilities to Grace.
This event was the direct result of Winterborne’s reflections over the past week or two. He had accepted the lack of success with his evening party with as much philosophy as he could muster; however, there was enough enthusiasm left in him one day at the Sherton Abbas market to buy this old mare, which had belonged to a local pastor with several daughters. She was offered to him to carry either a gentleman or a lady, and to help with odd jobs like carting and farming when necessary. This helpful horse seemed to provide Giles with a way to restore his reputation in Melbury's eyes as a considerate man by suggesting future possibilities for Grace.
The latter looked at him with intensified interest this morning, in the mood which is altogether peculiar to woman’s nature, and which, when reduced into plain words, seems as impossible as the penetrability of matter—that of entertaining a tender pity for the object of her own unnecessary coldness. The imperturbable poise which marked Winterborne in general was enlivened now by a freshness and animation that set a brightness in his eye and on his cheek. Mrs. Melbury asked him to have some breakfast, and he pleasurably replied that he would join them, with his usual lack of tactical observation, not perceiving that they had all finished the meal, that the hour was inconveniently late, and that the note piped by the kettle denoted it to be nearly empty; so that fresh water had to be brought in, trouble taken to make it boil, and a general renovation of the table carried out. Neither did he know, so full was he of his tender ulterior object in buying that horse, how many cups of tea he was gulping down one after another, nor how the morning was slipping, nor how he was keeping the family from dispersing about their duties.
The latter looked at him with heightened interest this morning, in a mood that’s totally unique to women, which, when put simply, seems as impossible as the idea that matter can be penetrated—that of feeling a soft pity for the person she herself has been unnecessarily cold towards. The calm demeanor that usually characterized Winterborne was now brightened by a freshness and energy that added a sparkle to his eye and color to his cheeks. Mrs. Melbury asked him to have some breakfast, and he happily responded that he would join them, with his usual cluelessness, not realizing that they had all finished the meal, that it was inconveniently late, and that the kettle’s whistle indicated it was almost empty; so fresh water had to be brought in, trouble taken to make it boil, and a complete reset of the table had to be done. He also didn’t realize, so focused was he on his underlying reason for buying that horse, how many cups of tea he was gulping down one after another, nor how the morning was slipping away, nor how he was keeping the family from getting on with their tasks.
Then he told throughout the humorous story of the horse’s purchase, looking particularly grim at some fixed object in the room, a way he always looked when he narrated anything that amused him. While he was still thinking of the scene he had described, Grace rose and said, “I have to go and help my mother now, Mr. Winterborne.”
Then he shared the funny story about buying the horse, looking especially serious at some specific spot in the room, which was his usual expression whenever he recounted something that entertained him. While he was still reflecting on the scene he had just described, Grace stood up and said, “I need to go help my mom now, Mr. Winterborne.”
“H’m!” he ejaculated, turning his eyes suddenly upon her.
“Uh!” he exclaimed, suddenly turning his eyes to her.
She repeated her words with a slight blush of awkwardness; whereupon Giles, becoming suddenly conscious, too conscious, jumped up, saying, “To be sure, to be sure!” wished them quickly good-morning, and bolted out of the house.
She repeated her words with a slight blush of awkwardness; then Giles, suddenly aware, too aware, jumped up, saying, “Sure, sure!” quickly wished them good morning, and bolted out of the house.
Nevertheless he had, upon the whole, strengthened his position, with her at least. Time, too, was on his side, for (as her father saw with some regret) already the homeliness of Hintock life was fast becoming effaced from her observation as a singularity; just as the first strangeness of a face from which we have for years been separated insensibly passes off with renewed intercourse, and tones itself down into simple identity with the lineaments of the past.
Nevertheless, he had ultimately strengthened his position, at least with her. Time was also on his side, because (as her father regrettably noticed) the familiarity of Hintock life was quickly fading from her view as something unusual; just like how the initial strangeness of a face we haven’t seen in years gradually disappears with renewed contact and blends back into the familiar features of the past.
Thus Mr. Melbury went out of the house still unreconciled to the sacrifice of the gem he had been at such pains in mounting. He fain could hope, in the secret nether chamber of his mind, that something would happen, before the balance of her feeling had quite turned in Winterborne’s favor, to relieve his conscience and preserve her on her elevated plane.
Thus Mr. Melbury left the house still struggling with the loss of the gem he had worked so hard to set. Deep down, he hoped that something would happen, before her feelings fully shifted in Winterborne’s favor, to ease his conscience and keep her on her elevated path.
He could not forget that Mrs. Charmond had apparently abandoned all interest in his daughter as suddenly as she had conceived it, and was as firmly convinced as ever that the comradeship which Grace had shown with Giles and his crew by attending his party had been the cause.
He couldn't shake the fact that Mrs. Charmond had seemingly lost all interest in his daughter just as quickly as she had developed it, and he was just as convinced as ever that the friendship Grace had shown with Giles and his friends by going to his party was the reason.
Matters lingered on thus. And then, as a hoop by gentle knocks on this side and on that is made to travel in specific directions, the little touches of circumstance in the life of this young girl shaped the curves of her career.
Matters went on like this. And then, just as a hoop moves in certain directions with gentle nudges from one side to the other, the small influences in this young girl's life shaped the path of her career.
CHAPTER XII.
It was a day of rather bright weather for the season. Miss Melbury went out for a morning walk, and her ever-regardful father, having an hour’s leisure, offered to walk with her. The breeze was fresh and quite steady, filtering itself through the denuded mass of twigs without swaying them, but making the point of each ivy-leaf on the trunks scratch its underlying neighbor restlessly. Grace’s lips sucked in this native air of hers like milk. They soon reached a place where the wood ran down into a corner, and went outside it towards comparatively open ground. Having looked round about, they were intending to re-enter the copse when a fox quietly emerged with a dragging brush, trotted past them tamely as a domestic cat, and disappeared amid some dead fern. They walked on, her father merely observing, after watching the animal, “They are hunting somewhere near.”
It was a bright day for the season. Miss Melbury went out for a morning walk, and her attentive father, having an hour of free time, offered to walk with her. The breeze was fresh and steady, filtering through the bare branches without moving them, but causing each ivy leaf on the trunks to scratch at its neighboring leaves restlessly. Grace breathed in the familiar air like it was milk. They soon reached a spot where the woods opened up and led to more open ground. After looking around, they intended to go back into the woods when a fox quietly appeared, dragging its tail, trotted past them like a tame domestic cat, and vanished among some dead ferns. They continued walking, and her father simply noted, after watching the animal, “They are hunting somewhere nearby.”
Farther up they saw in the mid-distance the hounds running hither and thither, as if there were little or no scent that day. Soon divers members of the hunt appeared on the scene, and it was evident from their movements that the chase had been stultified by general puzzle-headedness as to the whereabouts of the intended victim. In a minute a farmer rode up to the two pedestrians, panting with acteonic excitement, and Grace being a few steps in advance, he addressed her, asking if she had seen the fox.
Farther up, they spotted the hounds running back and forth, as if there was barely any scent that day. Soon, various members of the hunt showed up, and it was clear from their movements that the chase had been confused by their uncertainty about where the intended prey was. In a minute, a farmer rode up to the two walkers, out of breath with excitement, and since Grace was a few steps ahead, he addressed her, asking if she had seen the fox.
“Yes,” said she. “We saw him some time ago—just out there.”
“Yes,” she said. “We saw him a little while ago—right out there.”
“Did you cry Halloo?”
“Did you cry out?”
“We said nothing.”
"We didn't say anything."
“Then why the d—— didn’t you, or get the old buffer to do it for you?” said the man, as he cantered away.
“Then why the hell didn’t you, or get the old guy to do it for you?” said the man, as he rode off.
She looked rather disconcerted at this reply, and observing her father’s face, saw that it was quite red.
She seemed a bit taken aback by this answer, and when she looked at her father's face, she noticed it was quite red.
“He ought not to have spoken to ye like that!” said the old man, in the tone of one whose heart was bruised, though it was not by the epithet applied to himself. “And he wouldn’t if he had been a gentleman. ’Twas not the language to use to a woman of any niceness. You, so well read and cultivated—how could he expect ye to know what tom-boy field-folk are in the habit of doing? If so be you had just come from trimming swedes or mangolds—joking with the rough work-folk and all that—I could have stood it. But hasn’t it cost me near a hundred a year to lift you out of all that, so as to show an example to the neighborhood of what a woman can be? Grace, shall I tell you the secret of it? ’Twas because I was in your company. If a black-coated squire or pa’son had been walking with you instead of me he wouldn’t have spoken so.”
“He shouldn’t have talked to you like that!” said the old man, sounding like someone whose heart was hurt, but not by the insult aimed at himself. “And he wouldn’t have if he were a gentleman. That was not the kind of language to use with a woman of any refinement. You, so educated and polished—how could he expect you to know what rough country people are like? If you had just come from working in the fields—joking around with the laborers and all that—I could have accepted it. But hasn’t it cost me nearly a hundred a year to lift you out of all that, to show the neighborhood what a woman can be? Grace, should I tell you the secret? It’s because I was with you. If a squire in a black coat or a clergyman had been walking with you instead of me, he wouldn’t have said that.”
“No, no, father; there’s nothing in you rough or ill-mannered!”
“No, no, Dad; there’s nothing about you that’s rough or rude!”
“I tell you it is that! I’ve noticed, and I’ve noticed it many times, that a woman takes her color from the man she’s walking with. The woman who looks an unquestionable lady when she’s with a polished-up fellow, looks a mere tawdry imitation article when she’s hobbing and nobbing with a homely blade. You sha’n’t be treated like that for long, or at least your children sha’n’t. You shall have somebody to walk with you who looks more of a dandy than I—please God you shall!”
“I tell you that’s exactly it! I’ve noticed this, and I’ve seen it many times: a woman takes on the vibe of the man she’s with. The woman who looks like a true lady when she’s with a suave guy seems like a cheap imitation when she’s hanging out with an ordinary dude. You won’t be treated like that for long, or at least your kids won’t. You’ll have someone to walk with you who looks more stylish than I do—God willing, you will!”
“But, my dear father,” she said, much distressed, “I don’t mind at all. I don’t wish for more honor than I already have!”
“But, my dear dad,” she said, clearly upset, “I don’t care at all. I don’t want any more honor than what I already have!”
“A perplexing and ticklish possession is a daughter,” according to Menander or some old Greek poet, and to nobody was one ever more so than to Melbury, by reason of her very dearness to him. As for Grace, she began to feel troubled; she did not perhaps wish there and then to unambitiously devote her life to Giles Winterborne, but she was conscious of more and more uneasiness at the possibility of being the social hope of the family.
“A confusing and delicate thing is a daughter,” said Menander or some old Greek poet, and no one ever felt this more than Melbury, because she was so dear to him. As for Grace, she started to feel anxious; she might not want to completely dedicate her life to Giles Winterborne right then, but she was increasingly aware of the pressure of being the family's social hope.
“You would like to have more honor, if it pleases me?” asked her father, in continuation of the subject.
“You want to have more respect, if that’s okay with me?” her father asked, continuing the conversation.
Despite her feeling she assented to this. His reasoning had not been without its weight upon her.
Despite her feeling, she agreed to this. His reasoning had definitely influenced her.
“Grace,” he said, just before they had reached the house, “if it costs me my life you shall marry well! To-day has shown me that whatever a young woman’s niceness, she stands for nothing alone. You shall marry well.”
“Grace,” he said, just before they reached the house, “even if it costs me my life, you're going to marry someone good! Today has shown me that no matter how nice a young woman is, she can’t stand on her own. You will marry well.”
He breathed heavily, and his breathing was caught up by the breeze, which seemed to sigh a soft remonstrance.
He was breathing heavily, and the breeze seemed to catch his breaths, giving off a soft sigh of disapproval.
She looked calmly at him. “And how about Mr. Winterborne?” she asked. “I mention it, father, not as a matter of sentiment, but as a question of keeping faith.”
She looked at him calmly. “And what about Mr. Winterborne?” she asked. “I bring it up, father, not out of sentiment, but as a matter of staying true to our word.”
The timber-merchant’s eyes fell for a moment. “I don’t know—I don’t know,” he said. “’Tis a trying strait. Well, well; there’s no hurry. We’ll wait and see how he gets on.”
The timber merchant's eyes dropped for a moment. “I don’t know—I really don’t know,” he said. “It’s a tough situation. Well, there’s no rush. We’ll wait and see how he does.”
That evening he called her into his room, a snug little apartment behind the large parlor. It had at one time been part of the bakehouse, with the ordinary oval brick oven in the wall; but Mr. Melbury, in turning it into an office, had built into the cavity an iron safe, which he used for holding his private papers. The door of the safe was now open, and his keys were hanging from it.
That evening, he called her into his room, a cozy little apartment behind the large living room. It used to be part of the bakehouse, with the usual oval brick oven in the wall; but Mr. Melbury, when he converted it into an office, installed an iron safe in the cavity to store his private documents. The door of the safe was now open, and his keys were hanging from it.
“Sit down, Grace, and keep me company,” he said. “You may amuse yourself by looking over these.” He threw out a heap of papers before her.
“Sit down, Grace, and keep me company,” he said. “You can entertain yourself by going through these.” He spread a pile of papers out in front of her.
“What are they?” she asked.
“What are they?” she asked.
“Securities of various sorts.” He unfolded them one by one. “Papers worth so much money each. Now here’s a lot of turnpike bonds for one thing. Would you think that each of these pieces of paper is worth two hundred pounds?”
“Securities of different kinds.” He opened them one by one. “Papers worth a lot of money each. Now here’s a bunch of turnpike bonds for example. Would you believe that each of these pieces of paper is worth two hundred pounds?”
“No, indeed, if you didn’t say so.”
“No, really, if you didn’t say that.”
“’Tis so, then. Now here are papers of another sort. They are for different sums in the three-per-cents. Now these are Port Breedy Harbor bonds. We have a great stake in that harbor, you know, because I send off timber there. Open the rest at your pleasure. They’ll interest ye.”
“Indeed, that's true. Now here are some papers of a different kind. They're for various amounts in the three-percent bonds. These are Port Breedy Harbor bonds. We have a big investment in that harbor since I ship timber from there. Feel free to open the rest whenever you'd like. You'll find them interesting.”
“Yes, I will, some day,” said she, rising.
“Yes, I will, someday,” she said, getting up.
“Nonsense, open them now. You ought to learn a little of such matters. A young lady of education should not be ignorant of money affairs altogether. Suppose you should be left a widow some day, with your husband’s title-deeds and investments thrown upon your hands—”
“Nonsense, open them now. You should learn a bit about these things. A well-educated young woman shouldn’t be completely clueless about finances. What if you end up a widow one day, with your husband’s title deeds and investments handed to you—”
“Don’t say that, father—title-deeds; it sounds so vain!”
“Don’t say that, Dad—title deeds; it sounds so pretentious!”
“It does not. Come to that, I have title-deeds myself. There, that piece of parchment represents houses in Sherton Abbas.”
“It doesn't. In fact, I have title deeds myself. There, that piece of paper represents houses in Sherton Abbas.”
“Yes, but—” She hesitated, looked at the fire, and went on in a low voice: “If what has been arranged about me should come to anything, my sphere will be quite a middling one.”
“Yes, but—” She hesitated, looked at the fire, and continued in a quiet voice: “If what’s been planned for me actually happens, my position will be pretty average.”
“Your sphere ought not to be middling,” he exclaimed, not in passion, but in earnest conviction. “You said you never felt more at home, more in your element, anywhere than you did that afternoon with Mrs. Charmond, when she showed you her house and all her knick-knacks, and made you stay to tea so nicely in her drawing-room—surely you did!”
“Your world shouldn’t be just average,” he exclaimed, not out of anger, but from genuine belief. “You said you never felt more at home, more yourself, anywhere than that afternoon with Mrs. Charmond, when she showed you her house and all her trinkets, and insisted you stay for tea so warmly in her living room—surely you did!”
“Yes, I did say so,” admitted Grace.
“Yes, I did say that,” Grace admitted.
“Was it true?”
"Is it true?"
“Yes, I felt so at the time. The feeling is less strong now, perhaps.”
“Yes, I felt that way back then. The feeling isn’t as strong now, maybe.”
“Ah! Now, though you don’t see it, your feeling at the time was the right one, because your mind and body were just in full and fresh cultivation, so that going there with her was like meeting like. Since then you’ve been biding with us, and have fallen back a little, and so you don’t feel your place so strongly. Now, do as I tell ye, and look over these papers and see what you’ll be worth some day. For they’ll all be yours, you know; who have I got to leave ’em to but you? Perhaps when your education is backed up by what these papers represent, and that backed up by another such a set and their owner, men such as that fellow was this morning may think you a little more than a buffer’s girl.”
“Ah! Now, even though you can’t see it, you were feeling the right way at that time because your mind and body were fully engaged and in great shape, so being there with her felt very natural. Since then, you’ve been hanging out with us, and you’ve regressed a bit, which is why you don’t feel so confident in your place anymore. Now, do as I say and go through these papers to see what you’ll be worth one day. They’ll all belong to you, you know; who else do I have to leave them to but you? Maybe once your education is complemented by what these papers represent, alongside another set like this one and their owner, people like that guy from this morning might think of you as more than just a buffer’s girl.”
So she did as commanded, and opened each of the folded representatives of hard cash that her father put before her. To sow in her heart cravings for social position was obviously his strong desire, though in direct antagonism to a better feeling which had hitherto prevailed with him, and had, indeed, only succumbed that morning during the ramble.
So she did what she was told and opened each of the bundles of cash that her father placed in front of her. He clearly wanted to instill in her a desire for social status, even though this went against the better feelings he had held onto until that morning during their walk.
She wished that she was not his worldly hope; the responsibility of such a position was too great. She had made it for herself mainly by her appearance and attractive behavior to him since her return. “If I had only come home in a shabby dress, and tried to speak roughly, this might not have happened,” she thought. She deplored less the fact than the sad possibilities that might lie hidden therein.
She wished she wasn't his only hope; the weight of that role was too much. She had created this situation mostly through how she looked and her charming behavior towards him since coming back. “If I had just come home in a worn-out dress and acted tough, this might not have happened,” she thought. She regretted less the reality of it and more the unfortunate possibilities that might be hidden within it.
Her father then insisted upon her looking over his checkbook and reading the counterfoils. This, also, she obediently did, and at last came to two or three which had been drawn to defray some of the late expenses of her clothes, board, and education.
Her father then insisted that she look over his checkbook and read the counterfoils. She did so obediently and eventually came across two or three that had been written to cover some of her recent expenses for clothes, board, and education.
“I, too, cost a good deal, like the horses and wagons and corn,” she said, looking up sorrily.
“I’m also pretty expensive, just like the horses, wagons, and corn,” she said, looking up sadly.
“I didn’t want you to look at those; I merely meant to give you an idea of my investment transactions. But if you do cost as much as they, never mind. You’ll yield a better return.”
“I didn’t want you to look at those; I just wanted to give you an overview of my investment transactions. But if you cost as much as they do, forget it. You’ll bring in a better return.”
“Don’t think of me like that!” she begged. “A mere chattel.”
“Don’t think of me like that!” she pleaded. “Just a possession.”
“A what? Oh, a dictionary word. Well, as that’s in your line I don’t forbid it, even if it tells against me,” he said, good-humoredly. And he looked her proudly up and down.
“A what? Oh, a dictionary word. Well, since that’s your area, I won't stop you, even if it makes me look bad,” he said, good-naturedly. And he looked her over proudly.
A few minutes later Grammer Oliver came to tell them that supper was ready, and in giving the information she added, incidentally, “So we shall soon lose the mistress of Hintock House for some time, I hear, Maister Melbury. Yes, she’s going off to foreign parts to-morrow, for the rest of the winter months; and be-chok’d if I don’t wish I could do the same, for my wynd-pipe is furred like a flue.”
A few minutes later, Grammer Oliver came to let them know that dinner was ready, and in sharing the news, she added casually, “So we’re going to lose the mistress of Hintock House for a while, I hear, Mr. Melbury. Yep, she’s leaving for foreign places tomorrow for the rest of winter; and honestly, I wish I could do the same because my throat feels as dry as a chimney.”
When the old woman had left the room, Melbury turned to his daughter and said, “So, Grace, you’ve lost your new friend, and your chance of keeping her company and writing her travels is quite gone from ye!”
When the old woman left the room, Melbury turned to his daughter and said, "So, Grace, you've lost your new friend, and your chance to hang out with her and write about her travels is completely gone!"
Grace said nothing.
Grace stayed silent.
“Now,” he went on, emphatically, “’tis Winterborne’s affair has done this. Oh yes, ’tis. So let me say one word. Promise me that you will not meet him again without my knowledge.”
“Now,” he continued, firmly, “it’s Winterborne’s business that caused this. Oh yes, it is. So let me say one thing. Promise me that you won’t meet him again without me knowing.”
“I never do meet him, father, either without your knowledge or with it.”
“I never meet him, Dad, either with your knowledge or without it.”
“So much the better. I don’t like the look of this at all. And I say it not out of harshness to him, poor fellow, but out of tenderness to you. For how could a woman, brought up delicately as you have been, bear the roughness of a life with him?”
“So much the better. I really don’t like this situation at all. And I’m not saying it out of cruelty to him, poor guy, but out of care for you. How could a woman like you, raised with such delicacy, handle the toughness of life with him?”
She sighed; it was a sigh of sympathy with Giles, complicated by a sense of the intractability of circumstances.
She sighed; it was a sigh of sympathy for Giles, mixed with a feeling of the stubbornness of the situation.
At that same hour, and almost at that same minute, there was a conversation about Winterborne in progress in the village street, opposite Mr. Melbury’s gates, where Timothy Tangs the elder and Robert Creedle had accidentally met.
At that same hour, and almost at that same minute, there was a conversation about Winterborne happening in the village street, right across from Mr. Melbury’s gates, where Timothy Tangs the elder and Robert Creedle had run into each other.
The sawyer was asking Creedle if he had heard what was all over the parish, the skin of his face being drawn two ways on the matter—towards brightness in respect of it as news, and towards concern in respect of it as circumstance.
The sawyer was asking Creedle if he had heard what was going around the parish, his face showing two reactions to it—one of excitement about the news and the other of worry about the situation.
“Why, that poor little lonesome thing, Marty South, is likely to lose her father. He was almost well, but is much worse again. A man all skin and grief he ever were, and if he leave Little Hintock for a better land, won’t it make some difference to your Maister Winterborne, neighbor Creedle?”
“Why, that poor little lonely thing, Marty South, is likely to lose her dad. He was almost better, but now he’s much worse again. A man all skin and sorrow he ever was, and if he leaves Little Hintock for a better place, won’t it make some difference to your Master Winterborne, neighbor Creedle?”
“Can I be a prophet in Israel?” said Creedle. “Won’t it! I was only shaping of such a thing yesterday in my poor, long-seeing way, and all the work of the house upon my one shoulders! You know what it means? It is upon John South’s life that all Mr. Winterborne’s houses hang. If so be South die, and so make his decease, thereupon the law is that the houses fall without the least chance of absolution into HER hands at the House. I told him so; but the words of the faithful be only as wind!”
“Can I be a prophet in Israel?” said Creedle. “I doubt it! I was just thinking about that yesterday in my poor, long-sighted way, with all the housework on my shoulders! Do you know what that means? John South’s life is what keeps all of Mr. Winterborne’s houses standing. If South dies and makes his death known, then according to the law, the houses will automatically fall into HER hands at the House, with no chance of being saved. I told him that, but the words of the faithful are just like the wind!”
CHAPTER XIII.
The news was true. The life—the one fragile life—that had been used as a measuring-tape of time by law, was in danger of being frayed away. It was the last of a group of lives which had served this purpose, at the end of whose breathings the small homestead occupied by South himself, the larger one of Giles Winterborne, and half a dozen others that had been in the possession of various Hintock village families for the previous hundred years, and were now Winterborne’s, would fall in and become part of the encompassing estate.
The news was accurate. The one delicate life that had been used as a reference point for time by the law was at risk of fading away. It was the last of a group of lives that had served this role, and once it was gone, the small homestead occupied by South, the larger one belonging to Giles Winterborne, and several others that had been owned by various families in Hintock village for the last hundred years, would collapse and become part of the larger estate.
Yet a short two months earlier Marty’s father, aged fifty-five years, though something of a fidgety, anxious being, would have been looked on as a man whose existence was so far removed from hazardous as any in the parish, and as bidding fair to be prolonged for another quarter of a century.
Yet just two months earlier, Marty’s father, who was fifty-five years old, though a bit fidgety and anxious, would have been seen as someone whose life was as safe and untroubled as anyone in the community, and was expected to live for another twenty-five years.
Winterborne walked up and down his garden next day thinking of the contingency. The sense that the paths he was pacing, the cabbage-plots, the apple-trees, his dwelling, cider-cellar, wring-house, stables, and weathercock, were all slipping away over his head and beneath his feet, as if they were painted on a magic-lantern slide, was curious. In spite of John South’s late indisposition he had not anticipated danger. To inquire concerning his health had been to show less sympathy than to remain silent, considering the material interest he possessed in the woodman’s life, and he had, accordingly, made a point of avoiding Marty’s house.
Winterborne walked up and down his garden the next day, thinking about what might happen. It felt strange that the paths he was walking, the vegetable plots, the apple trees, his house, cider cellar, washhouse, stables, and weather vane all seemed to be slipping away from him, like they were just part of a slide show. Even with John South's recent health issues, he hadn't expected any trouble. Asking about his well-being would have seemed less caring than staying quiet, given how much he had at stake in the woodman’s life, so he had deliberately avoided going to Marty’s house.
While he was here in the garden somebody came to fetch him. It was Marty herself, and she showed her distress by her unconsciousness of a cropped poll.
While he was in the garden, someone came to get him. It was Marty herself, and she showed her distress by not realizing she had a cropped ponytail.
“Father is still so much troubled in his mind about that tree,” she said. “You know the tree I mean, Mr. Winterborne? the tall one in front of the house, that he thinks will blow down and kill us. Can you come and see if you can persuade him out of his notion? I can do nothing.”
“Dad is still really worried about that tree,” she said. “You know which tree I’m talking about, right, Mr. Winterborne? The tall one in front of the house that he thinks will fall and hurt us. Can you come by and see if you can convince him he’s wrong? I can’t do anything.”
He accompanied her to the cottage, and she conducted him upstairs. John South was pillowed up in a chair between the bed and the window exactly opposite the latter, towards which his face was turned.
He went with her to the cottage, and she led him upstairs. John South was propped up in a chair between the bed and the window, facing directly toward the window.
“Ah, neighbor Winterborne,” he said. “I wouldn’t have minded if my life had only been my own to lose; I don’t vallie it in much of itself, and can let it go if ’tis required of me. But to think what ’tis worth to you, a young man rising in life, that do trouble me! It seems a trick of dishonesty towards ye to go off at fifty-five! I could bear up, I know I could, if it were not for the tree—yes, the tree, ’tis that’s killing me. There he stands, threatening my life every minute that the wind do blow. He’ll come down upon us and squat us dead; and what will ye do when the life on your property is taken away?”
“Ah, neighbor Winterborne,” he said. “I wouldn't have minded if my life were just my own to lose; I don’t value it that much and could let it go if I had to. But to think about what it means to you, a young man making your way in life, that worries me! It feels unfair to you for me to leave at fifty-five! I know I could handle it if it weren’t for the tree—yes, the tree, it’s what’s killing me. There it stands, threatening my life every minute the wind blows. It could fall on us and crush us; and what will you do when the life on your property is gone?”
“Never you mind me—that’s of no consequence,” said Giles. “Think of yourself alone.”
“Don’t worry about me—that doesn’t matter,” said Giles. “Just think about yourself.”
He looked out of the window in the direction of the woodman’s gaze. The tree was a tall elm, familiar to him from childhood, which stood at a distance of two-thirds its own height from the front of South’s dwelling. Whenever the wind blew, as it did now, the tree rocked, naturally enough; and the sight of its motion and sound of its sighs had gradually bred the terrifying illusion in the woodman’s mind that it would descend and kill him. Thus he would sit all day, in spite of persuasion, watching its every sway, and listening to the melancholy Gregorian melodies which the air wrung out of it. This fear it apparently was, rather than any organic disease which was eating away the health of John South.
He looked out the window in the direction the woodman was staring. The tree was a tall elm that he recognized from childhood, standing at about two-thirds of its own height away from the front of South’s house. Whenever the wind blew, like it was now, the tree swayed back and forth, which was completely natural; but seeing its movement and hearing its sighs had slowly created a frightening illusion in the woodman’s mind that it might fall and crush him. So he would sit there all day, despite encouragement to do otherwise, watching its every sway and listening to the sad Gregorian melodies that the wind pulled from it. This fear, it seemed, was more responsible for the decline of John South’s health than any real illness.
As the tree waved, South waved his head, making it his flugel-man with abject obedience. “Ah, when it was quite a small tree,” he said, “and I was a little boy, I thought one day of chopping it off with my hook to make a clothes-line prop with. But I put off doing it, and then I again thought that I would; but I forgot it, and didn’t. And at last it got too big, and now ’tis my enemy, and will be the death o’ me. Little did I think, when I let that sapling stay, that a time would come when it would torment me, and dash me into my grave.”
As the tree swayed, South shook his head, making it his flugel-man with complete obedience. “Ah, when it was just a small tree,” he said, “and I was a little boy, I thought one day I’d chop it down with my hook to use as a clothes-line prop. But I kept putting it off, and then I thought I would again, but I forgot and never actually did. Eventually, it grew too big, and now it feels like my enemy, and it might just be the end of me. I never imagined that by letting that sapling grow, I would end up being tormented by it, leading me to my grave.”
“No, no,” said Winterborne and Marty, soothingly. But they thought it possible that it might hasten him into his grave, though in another way than by falling.
“No, no,” said Winterborne and Marty, trying to calm him down. But they thought it might push him closer to his grave, just not in the way of falling.
“I tell you what,” added Winterborne, “I’ll climb up this afternoon and shroud off the lower boughs, and then it won’t be so heavy, and the wind won’t affect it so.”
“I'll tell you what,” Winterborne said, “this afternoon I'll climb up and trim the lower branches, and then it won't be so heavy, and the wind won't mess with it as much.”
“She won’t allow it—a strange woman come from nobody knows where—she won’t have it done.”
“She won’t allow it—a strange woman who came from who knows where—she won’t let it happen.”
“You mean Mrs. Charmond? Oh, she doesn’t know there’s such a tree on her estate. Besides, shrouding is not felling, and I’ll risk that much.”
“You mean Mrs. Charmond? Oh, she doesn’t know there’s a tree like that on her property. Besides, covering it up isn’t the same as cutting it down, and I’m willing to take that chance.”
He went out, and when afternoon came he returned, took a billhook from the woodman’s shed, and with a ladder climbed into the lower part of the tree, where he began lopping off—“shrouding,” as they called it at Hintock—the lowest boughs. Each of these quivered under his attack, bent, cracked, and fell into the hedge. Having cut away the lowest tier, he stepped off the ladder, climbed a few steps higher, and attacked those at the next level. Thus he ascended with the progress of his work far above the top of the ladder, cutting away his perches as he went, and leaving nothing but a bare stem below him.
He went outside, and when afternoon came, he came back, grabbed a billhook from the woodman’s shed, and climbed into the lower part of the tree with a ladder, where he started trimming the lowest branches—what they called "shrouding" at Hintock. Each branch shook under his attack, bent, cracked, and fell into the hedge. After cutting away the lowest tier, he stepped off the ladder, climbed a few rungs higher, and went after the branches at the next level. This way, he climbed higher with his work than the top of the ladder, cutting away his points of support as he went, leaving only a bare trunk beneath him.
The work was troublesome, for the tree was large. The afternoon wore on, turning dark and misty about four o’clock. From time to time Giles cast his eyes across towards the bedroom window of South, where, by the flickering fire in the chamber, he could see the old man watching him, sitting motionless with a hand upon each arm of the chair. Beside him sat Marty, also straining her eyes towards the skyey field of his operations.
The work was tough because the tree was big. The afternoon dragged on, getting dark and foggy around four o’clock. Every now and then, Giles glanced over at the bedroom window of South, where he could see the old man watching him by the flickering fire in the room, sitting still with a hand on each arm of the chair. Next to him was Marty, also peering at the sky above his work area.
A curious question suddenly occurred to Winterborne, and he stopped his chopping. He was operating on another person’s property to prolong the years of a lease by whose termination that person would considerably benefit. In that aspect of the case he doubted if he ought to go on. On the other hand he was working to save a man’s life, and this seemed to empower him to adopt arbitrary measures.
A curious question suddenly popped into Winterborne's mind, and he paused his chopping. He was working on someone else's property to extend the years of a lease, which would benefit that person significantly once it ended. In that regard, he questioned whether he should continue. On the other hand, he was working to save a man's life, and that seemed to give him the right to take decisive actions.
The wind had died down to a calm, and while he was weighing the circumstances he saw coming along the road through the increasing mist a figure which, indistinct as it was, he knew well. It was Grace Melbury, on her way out from the house, probably for a short evening walk before dark. He arranged himself for a greeting from her, since she could hardly avoid passing immediately beneath the tree.
The wind had settled into calmness, and as he considered the situation, he spotted a figure coming down the road through the thickening mist—though it was hard to make out, he recognized it immediately. It was Grace Melbury, heading out from the house, likely for a short evening walk before night fell. He prepared himself to greet her, knowing she would almost certainly walk right under the tree.
But Grace, though she looked up and saw him, was just at that time too full of the words of her father to give him any encouragement. The years-long regard that she had had for him was not kindled by her return into a flame of sufficient brilliancy to make her rebellious. Thinking that she might not see him, he cried, “Miss Melbury, here I am.”
But Grace, even though she looked up and saw him, was just too caught up in her father’s words at that moment to give him any encouragement. The years of affection she had for him hadn’t reignited into a flame strong enough to make her defy the situation. Thinking that she might not see him again, he called out, “Miss Melbury, here I am.”
She looked up again. She was near enough to see the expression of his face, and the nails in his soles, silver-bright with constant walking. But she did not reply; and dropping her glance again, went on.
She looked up again. She was close enough to see the look on his face, and the nails in his soles, shiny from all the walking. But she didn't respond; and dropping her gaze again, she continued on.
Winterborne’s face grew strange; he mused, and proceeded automatically with his work. Grace meanwhile had not gone far. She had reached a gate, whereon she had leaned sadly, and whispered to herself, “What shall I do?”
Winterborne’s expression shifted; he thought to himself and continued with his work mechanically. Meanwhile, Grace hadn’t gone far. She had arrived at a gate, where she leaned sadly and whispered to herself, “What should I do?”
A sudden fog came on, and she curtailed her walk, passing under the tree again on her return. Again he addressed her. “Grace,” he said, when she was close to the trunk, “speak to me.” She shook her head without stopping, and went on to a little distance, where she stood observing him from behind the hedge.
A sudden fog rolled in, and she cut her walk short, passing under the tree again on her way back. He called out to her again. “Grace,” he said, as she got close to the trunk, “talk to me.” She shook her head without pausing and walked a little further away, where she stood watching him from behind the hedge.
Her coldness had been kindly meant. If it was to be done, she had said to herself, it should be begun at once. While she stood out of observation Giles seemed to recognize her meaning; with a sudden start he worked on, climbing higher, and cutting himself off more and more from all intercourse with the sublunary world. At last he had worked himself so high up the elm, and the mist had so thickened, that he could only just be discerned as a dark-gray spot on the light-gray sky: he would have been altogether out of notice but for the stroke of his billhook and the flight of a bough downward, and its crash upon the hedge at intervals.
Her coldness was meant to be kind. If it was going to happen, she thought to herself, it should start right away. While she stayed out of sight, Giles seemed to get her message; with a sudden start, he continued working, climbing higher and cutting himself off more and more from all contact with the world below. Eventually, he had climbed so high up the elm, and the mist had become so thick, that he could only just be seen as a dark-gray spot against the light-gray sky: he would have been completely unnoticed if not for the sound of his billhook and the occasional crash of a branch falling onto the hedge.
It was not to be done thus, after all: plainness and candor were best. She went back a third time; he did not see her now, and she lingeringly gazed up at his unconscious figure, loath to put an end to any kind of hope that might live on in him still. “Giles— Mr. Winterborne,” she said.
It wasn’t meant to happen this way, after all: honesty and straightforwardness were what mattered most. She returned for the third time; he didn’t notice her now, and she lingered, looking up at his unaware figure, reluctant to end any hope that might still exist within him. “Giles—Mr. Winterborne,” she said.
He was so high amid the fog that he did not hear. “Mr. Winterborne!” she cried again, and this time he stopped, looked down, and replied.
He was so high in the fog that he didn’t hear. “Mr. Winterborne!” she called again, and this time he paused, looked down, and responded.
“My silence just now was not accident,” she said, in an unequal voice. “My father says it is best not to think too much of that—engagement, or understanding between us, that you know of. I, too, think that upon the whole he is right. But we are friends, you know, Giles, and almost relations.”
“My silence just now wasn’t an accident,” she said, in a shaky voice. “My dad says it’s best not to think too much about that—engagement or understanding between us, that you know of. I, too, think that he’s mostly right. But we are friends, you know, Giles, and practically family.”
“Very well,” he answered, as if without surprise, in a voice which barely reached down the tree. “I have nothing to say in objection—I cannot say anything till I’ve thought a while.”
“Okay,” he replied, as if it was no big deal, in a voice that barely carried down the tree. “I have no objections—I can’t say anything until I’ve thought about it for a bit.”
She added, with emotion in her tone, “For myself, I would have married you—some day—I think. But I give way, for I see it would be unwise.”
She added, with emotion in her voice, “For myself, I would have married you—someday—I think. But I’m stepping back, because I see it would be unwise.”
He made no reply, but sat back upon a bough, placed his elbow in a fork, and rested his head upon his hand. Thus he remained till the fog and the night had completely enclosed him from her view.
He didn't respond, but sat back on a branch, rested his elbow in a fork, and put his head in his hand. He stayed like that until the fog and night completely blocked him from her sight.
Grace heaved a divided sigh, with a tense pause between, and moved onward, her heart feeling uncomfortably big and heavy, and her eyes wet. Had Giles, instead of remaining still, immediately come down from the tree to her, would she have continued in that filial acquiescent frame of mind which she had announced to him as final? If it be true, as women themselves have declared, that one of their sex is never so much inclined to throw in her lot with a man for good and all as five minutes after she has told him such a thing cannot be, the probabilities are that something might have been done by the appearance of Winterborne on the ground beside Grace. But he continued motionless and silent in that gloomy Niflheim or fog-land which involved him, and she proceeded on her way.
Grace let out a deep sigh, with a tense pause in between, and kept going, her heart feeling uncomfortably heavy, and her eyes wet. If Giles had come down from the tree to her right away instead of staying still, would she have maintained the agreeable attitude she had told him was final? If it’s true, as women often say, that a woman is never more ready to commit to a man than just five minutes after stating she won’t, then there’s a good chance that something could have happened if Winterborne had appeared beside Grace. But he remained motionless and silent in that gloomy fog around him, and she continued on her way.
The spot seemed now to be quite deserted. The light from South’s window made rays on the fog, but did not reach the tree. A quarter of an hour passed, and all was blackness overhead. Giles had not yet come down.
The place felt completely empty now. The light from South’s window cast beams on the fog but didn’t reach the tree. A quarter of an hour went by, and it was all darkness above. Giles still hadn’t come down.
Then the tree seemed to shiver, then to heave a sigh; a movement was audible, and Winterborne dropped almost noiselessly to the ground. He had thought the matter out, and having returned the ladder and billhook to their places, pursued his way homeward. He would not allow this incident to affect his outer conduct any more than the danger to his leaseholds had done, and went to bed as usual. Two simultaneous troubles do not always make a double trouble; and thus it came to pass that Giles’s practical anxiety about his houses, which would have been enough to keep him awake half the night at any other time, was displaced and not reinforced by his sentimental trouble about Grace Melbury. This severance was in truth more like a burial of her than a rupture with her; but he did not realize so much at present; even when he arose in the morning he felt quite moody and stern: as yet the second note in the gamut of such emotions, a tender regret for his loss, had not made itself heard.
Then the tree seemed to shiver and let out a sigh; a sound was heard, and Winterborne dropped almost silently to the ground. He had thought it through, and after returning the ladder and billhook to their spots, he made his way home. He didn’t want this incident to influence his behavior any more than the threat to his properties had, and he went to bed as usual. Two problems at the same time don’t always add up to double trouble; thus, Giles's practical worry about his houses, which would have kept him awake half the night at another time, was overshadowed and not intensified by his emotional concern for Grace Melbury. This separation felt more like a loss of her than a break; but he didn’t fully realize this just yet; even when he got up in the morning, he felt rather gloomy and serious: the second note in the range of such feelings, a soft regret for his loss, hadn’t yet revealed itself.
A load of oak timber was to be sent away that morning to a builder whose works were in a town many miles off. The proud trunks were taken up from the silent spot which had known them through the buddings and sheddings of their growth for the foregoing hundred years; chained down like slaves to a heavy timber carriage with enormous red wheels, and four of the most powerful of Melbury’s horses were harnessed in front to draw them.
A load of oak timber was set to be sent out that morning to a builder in a town many miles away. The proud trunks were taken from the quiet place that had witnessed their growth for the past hundred years; chained down like prisoners to a heavy timber carriage with huge red wheels, with four of the strongest horses from Melbury harnessed in front to pull them.
The horses wore their bells that day. There were sixteen to the team, carried on a frame above each animal’s shoulders, and tuned to scale, so as to form two octaves, running from the highest note on the right or off-side of the leader to the lowest on the left or near-side of the shaft-horse. Melbury was among the last to retain horse-bells in that neighborhood; for, living at Little Hintock, where the lanes yet remained as narrow as before the days of turnpike roads, these sound-signals were still as useful to him and his neighbors as they had ever been in former times. Much backing was saved in the course of a year by the warning notes they cast ahead; moreover, the tones of all the teams in the district being known to the carters of each, they could tell a long way off on a dark night whether they were about to encounter friends or strangers.
The horses had their bells on that day. There were sixteen on the team, attached to a frame above each animal’s shoulders, and tuned to create two octaves, from the highest note on the right side of the leader to the lowest on the left side of the shaft-horse. Melbury was one of the last to keep horse-bells in that area; living in Little Hintock, where the lanes were still just as narrow as they had been before the turnpike roads, these bells were still as useful to him and his neighbors as they had always been. They saved a lot of backing up over the course of a year thanks to the warning sounds they produced; plus, since the carters recognized the tones of all the teams in the region, they could tell from a long distance on a dark night whether they were about to meet friends or strangers.
The fog of the previous evening still lingered so heavily over the woods that the morning could not penetrate the trees till long after its time. The load being a ponderous one, the lane crooked, and the air so thick, Winterborne set out, as he often did, to accompany the team as far as the corner, where it would turn into a wider road.
The fog from the night before still hung heavily over the woods, preventing the morning light from breaking through the trees for quite a while. With the load being quite heavy, the path winding, and the air dense, Winterborne set out, as he often did, to walk with the team until they reached the corner where it would merge into a wider road.
So they rumbled on, shaking the foundations of the roadside cottages by the weight of their progress, the sixteen bells chiming harmoniously over all, till they had risen out of the valley and were descending towards the more open route, the sparks rising from their creaking skid and nearly setting fire to the dead leaves alongside.
So they rolled on, shaking the foundations of the roadside cottages with their weight, the sixteen bells ringing beautifully above, until they climbed out of the valley and started descending toward the clearer path, sparks flying from their creaking skid and nearly igniting the dead leaves beside them.
Then occurred one of the very incidents against which the bells were an endeavor to guard. Suddenly there beamed into their eyes, quite close to them, the two lamps of a carriage, shorn of rays by the fog. Its approach had been quite unheard, by reason of their own noise. The carriage was a covered one, while behind it could be discerned another vehicle laden with luggage.
Then one of the very incidents the bells were meant to prevent happened. Suddenly, two dim lights from a carriage shone into their eyes, close by, almost lost in the fog. They hadn’t heard it approaching because of the noise they were making. The carriage was covered, and behind it, they could see another vehicle filled with luggage.
Winterborne went to the head of the team, and heard the coachman telling the carter that he must turn back. The carter declared that this was impossible.
Winterborne went to the front of the team and heard the coachman telling the carter that he had to turn back. The carter insisted that this was impossible.
“You can turn if you unhitch your string-horses,” said the coachman.
“You can turn if you unhook your horses,” said the driver.
“It is much easier for you to turn than for us,” said Winterborne. “We’ve five tons of timber on these wheels if we’ve an ounce.”
“It’s way easier for you to turn than for us,” said Winterborne. “We’ve got five tons of timber on these wheels if we’ve got an ounce.”
“But I’ve another carriage with luggage at my back.”
“But I have another car with luggage behind me.”
Winterborne admitted the strength of the argument. “But even with that,” he said, “you can back better than we. And you ought to, for you could hear our bells half a mile off.”
Winterborne acknowledged the validity of the argument. “But even with that,” he said, “you can support better than we can. And you should, since you could hear our bells from half a mile away.”
“And you could see our lights.”
“And you could see our lights.”
“We couldn’t, because of the fog.”
“We couldn’t, because of the fog.”
“Well, our time’s precious,” said the coachman, haughtily. “You are only going to some trumpery little village or other in the neighborhood, while we are going straight to Italy.”
“Well, our time is valuable,” said the coachman, arrogantly. “You’re just heading to some insignificant little village nearby, while we’re going straight to Italy.”
“Driving all the way, I suppose,” said Winterborne, sarcastically.
“Driving all the way, I guess,” Winterborne said, sarcastically.
The argument continued in these terms till a voice from the interior of the carriage inquired what was the matter. It was a lady’s.
The argument went on like this until someone from inside the carriage asked what was going on. It was a woman's voice.
She was briefly informed of the timber people’s obstinacy; and then Giles could hear her telling the footman to direct the timber people to turn their horses’ heads.
She was quickly told about the timber people’s stubbornness; and then Giles heard her telling the footman to instruct the timber people to turn their horses around.
The message was brought, and Winterborne sent the bearer back to say that he begged the lady’s pardon, but that he could not do as she requested; that though he would not assert it to be impossible, it was impossible by comparison with the slight difficulty to her party to back their light carriages. As fate would have it, the incident with Grace Melbury on the previous day made Giles less gentle than he might otherwise have shown himself, his confidence in the sex being rudely shaken.
The message was delivered, and Winterborne sent the messenger back to say that he apologized to the lady, but he couldn’t do as she asked; while he wouldn’t say it was impossible, it was impossible compared to the minor difficulty for her group to back their light carriages. As luck would have it, the incident with Grace Melbury the day before had made Giles less considerate than he might have been, his confidence in women being roughly shaken.
In fine, nothing could move him, and the carriages were compelled to back till they reached one of the sidings or turnouts constructed in the bank for the purpose. Then the team came on ponderously, and the clanging of its sixteen bells as it passed the discomfited carriages, tilted up against the bank, lent a particularly triumphant tone to the team’s progress—a tone which, in point of fact, did not at all attach to its conductor’s feelings.
In short, nothing could make him budge, so the carriages had to reverse until they reached one of the siding areas built into the bank for this reason. Then the team moved forward slowly, and the ringing of its sixteen bells as it went past the defeated carriages, tilted up against the bank, added a particularly victorious vibe to the team's movement—a vibe that, in reality, didn't reflect the conductor's feelings at all.
Giles walked behind the timber, and just as he had got past the yet stationary carriages he heard a soft voice say, “Who is that rude man? Not Melbury?” The sex of the speaker was so prominent in the voice that Winterborne felt a pang of regret.
Giles walked behind the timber, and just as he passed the still carriages, he heard a soft voice say, “Who is that rude man? Not Melbury?” The gender of the speaker was so clear in the voice that Winterborne felt a pang of regret.
“No, ma’am. A younger man, in a smaller way of business in Little Hintock. Winterborne is his name.”
“No, ma’am. A younger guy, in a smaller business in Little Hintock. His name is Winterborne.”
Thus they parted company. “Why, Mr. Winterborne,” said the wagoner, when they were out of hearing, “that was She—Mrs. Charmond! Who’d ha’ thought it? What in the world can a woman that does nothing be cock-watching out here at this time o’ day for? Oh, going to Italy—yes to be sure, I heard she was going abroad, she can’t endure the winter here.”
Thus they parted ways. “Wow, Mr. Winterborne,” said the wagon driver, once they were out of earshot, “that was her—Mrs. Charmond! Who would’ve thought it? What the heck is a woman like her, who doesn't do anything, doing out here at this time of day? Oh, she’s going to Italy—yeah, I heard she was heading abroad, she can't stand the winter here.”
Winterborne was vexed at the incident; the more so that he knew Mr. Melbury, in his adoration of Hintock House, would be the first to blame him if it became known. But saying no more, he accompanied the load to the end of the lane, and then turned back with an intention to call at South’s to learn the result of the experiment of the preceding evening.
Winterborne was annoyed about the incident, especially since he knew Mr. Melbury, in his admiration for Hintock House, would be the first to criticize him if it got out. But saying nothing more, he took the load to the end of the lane, then turned back with the intention of stopping by South’s to find out the outcome of the experiment from the night before.
It chanced that a few minutes before this time Grace Melbury, who now rose soon enough to breakfast with her father, in spite of the unwontedness of the hour, had been commissioned by him to make the same inquiry at South’s. Marty had been standing at the door when Miss Melbury arrived. Almost before the latter had spoken, Mrs. Charmond’s carriages, released from the obstruction up the lane, came bowling along, and the two girls turned to regard the spectacle.
It just so happened that a few minutes before this, Grace Melbury, who had gotten up early enough to have breakfast with her father despite the unusual hour, had been asked by him to make the same inquiry at South’s. Marty had been standing at the door when Miss Melbury arrived. Almost before she had a chance to speak, Mrs. Charmond’s carriages, freed from the blockage up the lane, came rolling down, and the two girls turned to watch the scene.
Mrs. Charmond did not see them, but there was sufficient light for them to discern her outline between the carriage windows. A noticeable feature in her tournure was a magnificent mass of braided locks.
Mrs. Charmond did not see them, but there was enough light for them to make out her silhouette between the carriage windows. A striking feature in her tournure was a stunning mass of braided hair.
“How well she looks this morning!” said Grace, forgetting Mrs. Charmond’s slight in her generous admiration. “Her hair so becomes her worn that way. I have never seen any more beautiful!”
“How great she looks this morning!” said Grace, overlooking Mrs. Charmond’s slight with her sincere admiration. “Her hair looks amazing styled that way. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful!”
“Nor have I, miss,” said Marty, dryly, unconsciously stroking her crown.
“Me neither, miss,” Marty said dryly, unconsciously stroking her hair.
Grace watched the carriages with lingering regret till they were out of sight. She then learned of Marty that South was no better. Before she had come away Winterborne approached the house, but seeing that one of the two girls standing on the door-step was Grace, he suddenly turned back again and sought the shelter of his own home till she should have gone away.
Grace watched the carriages with lingering regret until they disappeared from view. She then found out from Marty that South wasn't any better. Before she left, Winterborne came to the house, but when he saw that one of the two girls standing on the doorstep was Grace, he quickly turned back and took refuge in his own home until she left.
CHAPTER XIV.
The encounter with the carriages having sprung upon Winterborne’s mind the image of Mrs. Charmond, his thoughts by a natural channel went from her to the fact that several cottages and other houses in the two Hintocks, now his own, would fall into her possession in the event of South’s death. He marvelled what people could have been thinking about in the past to invent such precarious tenures as these; still more, what could have induced his ancestors at Hintock, and other village people, to exchange their old copyholds for life-leases. But having naturally succeeded to these properties through his father, he had done his best to keep them in order, though he was much struck with his father’s negligence in not insuring South’s life.
The sight of the carriages triggered in Winterborne’s mind the image of Mrs. Charmond. Naturally, his thoughts shifted from her to the fact that several cottages and other houses in the two Hintocks, now belonging to him, would be hers if South passed away. He wondered what people had been thinking in the past to create such unstable property agreements as these; even more, he was curious about what could have led his ancestors in Hintock, and others in the village, to trade their old copyholds for life-leases. However, having inherited these properties from his father, he had tried his best to maintain them, even though he was quite taken aback by his father’s carelessness in not insuring South’s life.
After breakfast, still musing on the circumstances, he went upstairs, turned over his bed, and drew out a flat canvas bag which lay between the mattress and the sacking. In this he kept his leases, which had remained there unopened ever since his father’s death. It was the usual hiding-place among rural lifeholders for such documents. Winterborne sat down on the bed and looked them over. They were ordinary leases for three lives, which a member of the South family, some fifty years before this time, had accepted of the lord of the manor in lieu of certain copyholds and other rights, in consideration of having the dilapidated houses rebuilt by said lord. They had come into his father’s possession chiefly through his mother, who was a South.
After breakfast, still thinking about the situation, he went upstairs, flipped over his bed, and pulled out a flat canvas bag that was wedged between the mattress and the sacking. In this bag, he kept his leases, which had stayed there unopened ever since his father's death. It was the usual hiding spot among country landowners for such documents. Winterborne sat on the bed and looked them over. They were standard leases for three lives, which a member of the South family had accepted from the lord of the manor about fifty years earlier, in exchange for certain copyholds and other rights, in return for having the run-down houses rebuilt by that lord. They had come into his father's possession mainly through his mother, who was a South.
Pinned to the parchment of one of the indentures was a letter, which Winterborne had never seen before. It bore a remote date, the handwriting being that of some solicitor or agent, and the signature the landholder’s. It was to the effect that at any time before the last of the stated lives should drop, Mr. Giles Winterborne, senior, or his representative, should have the privilege of adding his own and his son’s life to the life remaining on payment of a merely nominal sum; the concession being in consequence of the elder Winterborne’s consent to demolish one of the houses and relinquish its site, which stood at an awkward corner of the lane and impeded the way.
Pinned to the parchment of one of the contracts was a letter that Winterborne had never seen before. It was dated a long time ago, the handwriting belonged to some solicitor or agent, and the signature was that of the landowner. The letter stated that at any time before the last of the lives mentioned should pass, Mr. Giles Winterborne, senior, or his representative, could add his own and his son’s life to the remaining life by paying a very small sum; this concession was granted because the elder Winterborne agreed to tear down one of the houses and give up its site, which was at an awkward corner of the lane and blocked the way.
The house had been pulled down years before. Why Giles’s father had not taken advantage of his privilege to insert his own and his son’s lives it was impossible to say. The likelihood was that death alone had hindered him in the execution of his project, as it surely was, the elder Winterborne having been a man who took much pleasure in dealing with house property in his small way.
The house had been torn down years earlier. It’s hard to say why Giles’s father hadn’t used his privilege to shape his own life and his son’s. The most likely reason is that only death stopped him from carrying out his plans, as the elder Winterborne was the kind of man who really enjoyed managing property, even if it was on a small scale.
Since one of the Souths still survived, there was not much doubt that Giles could do what his father had left undone, as far as his own life was concerned. This possibility cheered him much, for by those houses hung many things. Melbury’s doubt of the young man’s fitness to be the husband of Grace had been based not a little on the precariousness of his holdings in Little and Great Hintock. He resolved to attend to the business at once, the fine for renewal being a sum that he could easily muster. His scheme, however, could not be carried out in a day; and meanwhile he would run up to South’s, as he had intended to do, to learn the result of the experiment with the tree.
Since one of the Souths was still around, there was little doubt that Giles could accomplish what his father hadn’t finished, at least regarding his own life. This possibility gave him a lot of hope because there were many things at stake with those houses. Melbury’s uncertainty about the young man being suitable as Grace's husband had partly stemmed from the uncertainty of his ownership in Little and Great Hintock. He decided to take care of the matter immediately, as the renewal fee was something he could easily manage. However, his plan couldn't be completed in a single day; in the meantime, he would head over to South’s, as he had planned, to find out the results of the experiment with the tree.
Marty met him at the door. “Well, Marty,” he said; and was surprised to read in her face that the case was not so hopeful as he had imagined.
Marty met him at the door. “Well, Marty,” he said; and was surprised to see in her face that the situation wasn’t as promising as he had thought.
“I am sorry for your labor,” she said. “It is all lost. He says the tree seems taller than ever.”
“I’m sorry for your hard work,” she said. “It’s all for nothing. He says the tree looks taller than ever.”
Winterborne looked round at it. Taller the tree certainly did seem, the gauntness of its now naked stem being more marked than before.
Winterborne looked around at it. The tree definitely seemed taller, its bare trunk looking even skinnier than before.
“It quite terrified him when he first saw what you had done to it this morning,” she added. “He declares it will come down upon us and cleave us, like ‘the sword of the Lord and of Gideon.’”
“It really scared him when he first saw what you did to it this morning,” she added. “He insists it will come down on us and split us apart, like ‘the sword of the Lord and of Gideon.’”
“Well; can I do anything else?” asked he.
“Well, can I do anything else?” he asked.
“The doctor says the tree ought to be cut down.”
“The doctor says the tree should be cut down.”
“Oh—you’ve had the doctor?”
“Oh—you’ve seen the doctor?”
“I didn’t send for him. Mrs. Charmond, before she left, heard that father was ill, and told him to attend him at her expense.”
“I didn’t call for him. Mrs. Charmond, before she left, found out that my dad was sick and told him to take care of him at her expense.”
“That was very good of her. And he says it ought to be cut down. We mustn’t cut it down without her knowledge, I suppose.”
“That was really nice of her. And he says it should be cut down. I guess we shouldn’t remove it without her knowing.”
He went up-stairs. There the old man sat, staring at the now gaunt tree as if his gaze were frozen on to its trunk. Unluckily the tree waved afresh by this time, a wind having sprung up and blown the fog away, and his eyes turned with its wavings.
He went upstairs. There, the old man sat, staring at the now thin tree as if his gaze were fixed on its trunk. Unfortunately, the tree started swaying again since a wind had picked up and blown the fog away, and his eyes followed its movements.
They heard footsteps—a man’s, but of a lighter type than usual. “There is Doctor Fitzpiers again,” she said, and descended. Presently his tread was heard on the naked stairs.
They heard footsteps—a man's, but lighter than usual. “There’s Doctor Fitzpiers again,” she said, and went down. Soon, his footsteps echoed on the bare stairs.
Mr. Fitzpiers entered the sick-chamber just as a doctor is more or less wont to do on such occasions, and pre-eminently when the room is that of a humble cottager, looking round towards the patient with that preoccupied gaze which so plainly reveals that he has wellnigh forgotten all about the case and the whole circumstances since he dismissed them from his mind at his last exit from the same apartment. He nodded to Winterborne, with whom he was already a little acquainted, recalled the case to his thoughts, and went leisurely on to where South sat.
Mr. Fitzpiers walked into the sickroom just like a doctor usually does in these situations, especially when it’s a small cottage, glancing at the patient with that distracted look that clearly shows he has nearly completely forgotten the case and everything related to it since he left the room last time. He nodded at Winterborne, who he already knew a bit, remembered the case, and casually made his way over to where South was sitting.
Fitzpiers was, on the whole, a finely formed, handsome man. His eyes were dark and impressive, and beamed with the light either of energy or of susceptivity—it was difficult to say which; it might have been a little of both. That quick, glittering, practical eye, sharp for the surface of things and for nothing beneath it, he had not. But whether his apparent depth of vision was real, or only an artistic accident of his corporeal moulding, nothing but his deeds could reveal.
Fitzpiers was, overall, a well-built, attractive man. His eyes were dark and striking, shining with either energy or sensitivity—it was hard to tell which; it might have been a bit of both. He didn't have that quick, sharp, practical eye focused on appearances alone, missing what lay beneath. But whether the depth of his vision was genuine or just an artistic accident of his physical form, only his actions could show.
His face was rather soft than stern, charming than grand, pale than flushed; his nose—if a sketch of his features be de rigueur for a person of his pretensions—was artistically beautiful enough to have been worth doing in marble by any sculptor not over-busy, and was hence devoid of those knotty irregularities which often mean power; while the double-cyma or classical curve of his mouth was not without a looseness in its close. Nevertheless, either from his readily appreciative mien, or his reflective manner, or the instinct towards profound things which was said to possess him, his presence bespoke the philosopher rather than the dandy or macaroni—an effect which was helped by the absence of trinkets or other trivialities from his attire, though this was more finished and up to date than is usually the case among rural practitioners.
His face was softer than stern, more charming than grand, paler than flushed; his nose—if a description of his features is necessary for someone of his status—was beautifully artistic enough to be worth sculpting in marble by any not overly busy artist, and was free of those knobby irregularities that often signify strength; while the classical curve of his mouth had a certain looseness when closed. Still, whether it was due to his approachable expression, his thoughtful demeanor, or the sense of depth he seemed to possess, his presence suggested a philosopher rather than a dandy or fop—an impression enhanced by the lack of trinkets or trivialities in his clothing, which, although more polished and current than what is typically seen among rural practitioners, was still quite simple.
Strict people of the highly respectable class, knowing a little about him by report, might have said that he seemed likely to err rather in the possession of too many ideas than too few; to be a dreamy ’ist of some sort, or too deeply steeped in some false kind of ’ism. However this may be, it will be seen that he was undoubtedly a somewhat rare kind of gentleman and doctor to have descended, as from the clouds, upon Little Hintock.
Strict individuals from the esteemed class, having heard a bit about him through gossip, might have suggested that he was more prone to having too many ideas than not enough; perhaps a dreamy type of person or overly lost in some misguided belief. Regardless, it’s clear that he was indeed a rather unique gentleman and doctor who came down, as if from the clouds, into Little Hintock.
“This is an extraordinary case,” he said at last to Winterborne, after examining South by conversation, look, and touch, and learning that the craze about the elm was stronger than ever. “Come down-stairs, and I’ll tell you what I think.”
“This is an amazing situation,” he finally said to Winterborne, after observing South through conversation, looks, and touches, and realizing that the obsession with the elm was stronger than ever. “Let’s go downstairs, and I’ll share my thoughts with you.”
They accordingly descended, and the doctor continued, “The tree must be cut down, or I won’t answer for his life.”
They went down, and the doctor said, “The tree needs to be cut down, or I can’t guarantee his safety.”
“’Tis Mrs. Charmond’s tree, and I suppose we must get permission?” said Giles. “If so, as she is gone away, I must speak to her agent.”
"That's Mrs. Charmond's tree, and I guess we need to ask for permission?" said Giles. "If that's the case, since she's not here, I should talk to her agent."
“Oh—never mind whose tree it is—what’s a tree beside a life! Cut it down. I have not the honor of knowing Mrs. Charmond as yet, but I am disposed to risk that much with her.”
“Oh—never mind whose tree it is—what’s a tree compared to a life! Cut it down. I don’t have the pleasure of knowing Mrs. Charmond yet, but I’m willing to take that chance with her.”
“’Tis timber,” rejoined Giles, more scrupulous than he would have been had not his own interests stood so closely involved. “They’ll never fell a stick about here without it being marked first, either by her or the agent.”
“It's timber,” replied Giles, more careful than he might have been if his own interests weren't so closely involved. “They’ll never cut down a tree around here without it being marked first, either by her or the agent.”
“Then we’ll inaugurate a new era forthwith. How long has he complained of the tree?” asked the doctor of Marty.
“Then we’ll start a new era right away. How long has he been complaining about the tree?” asked the doctor of Marty.
“Weeks and weeks, sir. The shape of it seems to haunt him like an evil spirit. He says that it is exactly his own age, that it has got human sense, and sprouted up when he was born on purpose to rule him, and keep him as its slave. Others have been like it afore in Hintock.”
“Weeks and weeks, sir. The shape of it seems to haunt him like a bad spirit. He says that it’s exactly his own age, that it has human-like awareness, and that it sprouted up when he was born just to control him and keep him as its slave. Others have experienced something similar before in Hintock.”
They could hear South’s voice up-stairs “Oh, he’s rocking this way; he must come! And then my poor life, that’s worth houses upon houses, will be squashed out o’ me. Oh! oh!”
They could hear South’s voice upstairs, “Oh, he’s coming this way; he must be! And then my poor life, worth more than houses upon houses, will be crushed out of me. Oh! Oh!”
“That’s how he goes on,” she added. “And he’ll never look anywhere else but out of the window, and scarcely have the curtains drawn.”
“That’s how he is,” she added. “And he’ll never look anywhere else but out of the window, and hardly ever draw the curtains.”
“Down with it, then, and hang Mrs. Charmond,” said Mr. Fitzpiers. “The best plan will be to wait till the evening, when it is dark, or early in the morning before he is awake, so that he doesn’t see it fall, for that would terrify him worse than ever. Keep the blind down till I come, and then I’ll assure him, and show him that his trouble is over.”
“Let’s get rid of it then, and hang Mrs. Charmond,” said Mr. Fitzpiers. “The best plan is to wait until evening when it’s dark, or early in the morning before he wakes up, so he doesn’t see it fall, because that would scare him even more. Keep the blinds down until I arrive, and then I’ll reassure him and show him that his worries are over.”
The doctor then departed, and they waited till the evening. When it was dusk, and the curtains drawn, Winterborne directed a couple of woodmen to bring a crosscut-saw, and the tall, threatening tree was soon nearly off at its base. He would not fell it completely then, on account of the possible crash, but next morning, before South was awake, they went and lowered it cautiously, in a direction away from the cottage. It was a business difficult to do quite silently; but it was done at last, and the elm of the same birth-year as the woodman’s lay stretched upon the ground. The weakest idler that passed could now set foot on marks formerly made in the upper forks by the shoes of adventurous climbers only; once inaccessible nests could be examined microscopically; and on swaying extremities where birds alone had perched, the by-standers sat down.
The doctor then left, and they waited until evening. When it was dusk and the curtains were drawn, Winterborne instructed a couple of woodmen to bring a crosscut saw, and soon the tall, menacing tree was almost cut down at its base. He didn’t want to fell it completely right then because of the risk of a crash, but the next morning, before South was awake, they went and carefully brought it down in a direction away from the cottage. It was a task that was tough to do quietly, but it was finally accomplished, and the elm, which was born the same year as the woodman, lay stretched on the ground. Now, even the laziest person passing by could step on marks previously made in the upper forks by the shoes of adventurous climbers; once inaccessible nests could now be inspected closely; and on swaying branches where only birds had perched, the onlookers sat down.
As soon as it was broad daylight the doctor came, and Winterborne entered the house with him. Marty said that her father was wrapped up and ready, as usual, to be put into his chair. They ascended the stairs, and soon seated him. He began at once to complain of the tree, and the danger to his life and Winterborne’s house-property in consequence.
As soon as it was bright outside, the doctor arrived, and Winterborne went into the house with him. Marty mentioned that her father was bundled up and, as usual, ready to be placed in his chair. They went upstairs, and soon had him seated. He immediately started complaining about the tree and how it was a threat to his life and Winterborne’s property as a result.
The doctor signalled to Giles, who went and drew back the printed cotton curtains. “’Tis gone, see,” said Mr. Fitzpiers.
The doctor signaled to Giles, who went and pulled back the printed cotton curtains. “It’s gone, see,” said Mr. Fitzpiers.
As soon as the old man saw the vacant patch of sky in place of the branched column so familiar to his gaze, he sprang up, speechless, his eyes rose from their hollows till the whites showed all round; he fell back, and a bluish whiteness overspread him.
As soon as the old man saw the empty patch of sky where the familiar branched column used to be, he jumped up, speechless, his eyes popped out of their sockets until the whites were visible all around; he fell back, and a bluish whiteness engulfed him.
Greatly alarmed, they put him on the bed. As soon as he came a little out of his fit, he gasped, “Oh, it is gone!—where?—where?”
Greatly alarmed, they laid him on the bed. As soon as he started to come out of his fit, he gasped, “Oh, it’s gone!—where?—where?”
His whole system seemed paralyzed by amazement. They were thunder-struck at the result of the experiment, and did all they could. Nothing seemed to avail. Giles and Fitzpiers went and came, but uselessly. He lingered through the day, and died that evening as the sun went down.
His entire system looked like it was frozen in shock. They were stunned by the results of the experiment and did everything they could. Nothing seemed to help. Giles and Fitzpiers came and went, but it was pointless. He hung on throughout the day and passed away that evening as the sun set.
“D—d if my remedy hasn’t killed him!” murmured the doctor.
“Damn if my remedy hasn’t killed him!” murmured the doctor.
CHAPTER XV.
When Melbury heard what had happened he seemed much moved, and walked thoughtfully about the premises. On South’s own account he was genuinely sorry; and on Winterborne’s he was the more grieved in that this catastrophe had so closely followed the somewhat harsh dismissal of Giles as the betrothed of his daughter.
When Melbury heard what had happened, he seemed really affected and walked around the property in deep thought. He was genuinely sorry for South's situation, and even more upset for Winterborne, especially since this tragedy came right after he had harshly dismissed Giles as his daughter's fiancé.
He was quite angry with circumstances for so heedlessly inflicting on Giles a second trouble when the needful one inflicted by himself was all that the proper order of events demanded. “I told Giles’s father when he came into those houses not to spend too much money on lifehold property held neither for his own life nor his son’s,” he exclaimed. “But he wouldn’t listen to me. And now Giles has to suffer for it.”
He was really upset with the situation for thoughtlessly giving Giles a second problem when the only one that should have happened was the one he caused himself. “I told Giles’s dad when he moved into those houses not to spend too much money on lifehold property that wasn’t meant for his life or his son's,” he said. “But he wouldn’t listen to me. And now Giles has to deal with the consequences.”
“Poor Giles!” murmured Grace.
"Poor Giles!" Grace whispered.
“Now, Grace, between us two, it is very, very remarkable. It is almost as if I had foreseen this; and I am thankful for your escape, though I am sincerely sorry for Giles. Had we not dismissed him already, we could hardly have found it in our hearts to dismiss him now. So I say, be thankful. I’ll do all I can for him as a friend; but as a pretender to the position of my son-in law, that can never be thought of more.”
“Now, Grace, just between us, this is really something. It’s almost like I saw this coming; and I’m grateful you’re safe, even though I genuinely feel bad for Giles. If we hadn’t already let him go, it would be so hard to do it now. So, I say, be grateful. I’ll support him as a friend, but any thoughts of him as a potential son-in-law are simply off the table.”
And yet at that very moment the impracticability to which poor Winterborne’s suit had been reduced was touching Grace’s heart to a warmer sentiment on his behalf than she had felt for years concerning him.
And yet in that moment, the hopelessness of poor Winterborne’s situation was stirring a warmer feeling in Grace’s heart for him than she had experienced for years.
He, meanwhile, was sitting down alone in the old familiar house which had ceased to be his, taking a calm if somewhat dismal survey of affairs. The pendulum of the clock bumped every now and then against one side of the case in which it swung, as the muffled drum to his worldly march. Looking out of the window he could perceive that a paralysis had come over Creedle’s occupation of manuring the garden, owing, obviously, to a conviction that they might not be living there long enough to profit by next season’s crop.
He was sitting alone in the old familiar house that was no longer his, taking a calm but slightly bleak look at things. The pendulum of the clock thudded occasionally against one side of the case it swung in, like a muffled drum marking his slow march through life. Looking out the window, he noticed that Creedle had stopped working on the garden, clearly believing that they might not be there long enough to benefit from next season’s crops.
He looked at the leases again and the letter attached. There was no doubt that he had lost his houses by an accident which might easily have been circumvented if he had known the true conditions of his holding. The time for performance had now lapsed in strict law; but might not the intention be considered by the landholder when she became aware of the circumstances, and his moral right to retain the holdings for the term of his life be conceded?
He looked over the leases again and the attached letter. There was no doubt that he had lost his houses due to an accident that could have easily been avoided if he had known the real conditions of his lease. The deadline for fulfilling the terms had now passed according to the law; but could the landowner not take his intentions into account once she learned the circumstances, and acknowledge his moral right to keep the property for the rest of his life?
His heart sank within him when he perceived that despite all the legal reciprocities and safeguards prepared and written, the upshot of the matter amounted to this, that it depended upon the mere caprice—good or ill—of the woman he had met the day before in such an unfortunate way, whether he was to possess his houses for life or no.
His heart dropped when he realized that despite all the legal agreements and protections that had been made, the outcome boiled down to the unpredictable mood—good or bad—of the woman he had met the day before in such a disappointing way, and whether he would get to keep his homes for life or not.
While he was sitting and thinking a step came to the door, and Melbury appeared, looking very sorry for his position. Winterborne welcomed him by a word and a look, and went on with his examination of the parchments. His visitor sat down.
While he was sitting and thinking, there was a knock at the door, and Melbury came in, looking quite sorry for himself. Winterborne greeted him with a word and a glance, then continued to examine the parchments. His visitor took a seat.
“Giles,” he said, “this is very awkward, and I am sorry for it. What are you going to do?”
“Giles,” he said, “this is really uncomfortable, and I apologize for it. What are you planning to do?”
Giles informed him of the real state of affairs, and how barely he had missed availing himself of his chance of renewal.
Giles told him the truth about what was going on and how close he was to taking advantage of his chance for a fresh start.
“What a misfortune! Why was this neglected? Well, the best thing you can do is to write and tell her all about it, and throw yourself upon her generosity.”
“What a disaster! Why was this overlooked? Well, the best thing you can do is to write and fill her in on everything, and rely on her kindness.”
“I would rather not,” murmured Giles.
“I'd rather not,” said Giles.
“But you must,” said Melbury.
“But you have to,” said Melbury.
In short, he argued so cogently that Giles allowed himself to be persuaded, and the letter to Mrs. Charmond was written and sent to Hintock House, whence, as he knew, it would at once be forwarded to her.
In short, he argued so convincingly that Giles let himself be convinced, and the letter to Mrs. Charmond was written and sent to Hintock House, from where, as he knew, it would immediately be forwarded to her.
Melbury feeling that he had done so good an action in coming as almost to extenuate his previous arbitrary conduct to nothing, went home; and Giles was left alone to the suspense of waiting for a reply from the divinity who shaped the ends of the Hintock population. By this time all the villagers knew of the circumstances, and being wellnigh like one family, a keen interest was the result all round.
Melbury felt that by doing such a good deed by coming, he had nearly erased his earlier unreasonable behavior, and he went home. Giles was left alone, waiting for a response from the fate that controlled the Hintock community. By this time, all the villagers were aware of the situation, and since they were almost like one big family, everyone was deeply interested.
Everybody thought of Giles; nobody thought of Marty. Had any of them looked in upon her during those moonlight nights which preceded the burial of her father, they would have seen the girl absolutely alone in the house with the dead man. Her own chamber being nearest the stairs, the coffin had been placed there for convenience; and at a certain hour of the night, when the moon arrived opposite the window, its beams streamed across the still profile of South, sublimed by the august presence of death, and onward a few feet farther upon the face of his daughter, lying in her little bed in the stillness of a repose almost as dignified as that of her companion—the repose of a guileless soul that had nothing more left on earth to lose, except a life which she did not overvalue.
Everybody thought about Giles; nobody thought about Marty. If any of them had checked in on her during those moonlit nights before her father's burial, they would have found her completely alone in the house with the dead man. Her room was closest to the stairs, so the coffin had been set up there for convenience; and at a certain hour of the night, when the moon was right outside the window, its beams streamed across the still profile of South, made even more powerful by the presence of death, and then a few feet further onto the face of his daughter, lying in her small bed in a stillness almost as dignified as that of her companion—the stillness of a pure soul that had nothing more to lose in life, except a life she didn't think much of.
South was buried, and a week passed, and Winterborne watched for a reply from Mrs. Charmond. Melbury was very sanguine as to its tenor; but Winterborne had not told him of the encounter with her carriage, when, if ever he had heard an affronted tone on a woman’s lips, he had heard it on hers.
South had been buried, and a week went by while Winterborne waited for a response from Mrs. Charmond. Melbury was very optimistic about what it would say; however, Winterborne hadn't mentioned the encounter with her carriage, during which he had undoubtedly heard a tone of offense in her voice.
The postman’s time for passing was just after Melbury’s men had assembled in the spar-house; and Winterborne, who when not busy on his own account would lend assistance there, used to go out into the lane every morning and meet the post-man at the end of one of the green rides through the hazel copse, in the straight stretch of which his laden figure could be seen a long way off. Grace also was very anxious; more anxious than her father; more, perhaps, than Winterborne himself. This anxiety led her into the spar-house on some pretext or other almost every morning while they were awaiting the reply.
The postman usually arrived just after Melbury’s workers had gathered in the spar-house. Winterborne, who would help out there when he wasn't busy with his own tasks, would walk out to the lane every morning to meet the postman at the end of one of the green paths through the hazel grove, where he could see the postman’s loaded figure from quite a distance. Grace was also very anxious; more anxious than her father and maybe even more than Winterborne himself. This worry made her go to the spar-house almost every morning under some pretext while they were waiting for a reply.
Fitzpiers too, though he did not personally appear, was much interested, and not altogether easy in his mind; for he had been informed by an authority of what he had himself conjectured, that if the tree had been allowed to stand, the old man would have gone on complaining, but might have lived for twenty years.
Fitzpiers, although he didn’t show up in person, was very interested and felt somewhat uneasy; he had received confirmation from a reliable source about what he had suspected himself—that if the tree had been left alone, the old man would have continued to complain but might have lived for another twenty years.
Eleven times had Winterborne gone to that corner of the ride, and looked up its long straight slope through the wet grays of winter dawn. But though the postman’s bowed figure loomed in view pretty regularly, he brought nothing for Giles. On the twelfth day the man of missives, while yet in the extreme distance, held up his hand, and Winterborne saw a letter in it. He took it into the spar-house before he broke the seal, and those who were there gathered round him while he read, Grace looking in at the door.
Eleven times Winterborne had gone to that spot on the path and looked up its long, straight slope through the damp grays of a winter dawn. But even though the postman’s hunched figure was visible quite regularly, he never brought anything for Giles. On the twelfth day, the man delivering the mail, still far away, raised his hand, and Winterborne saw a letter in it. He brought it into the spar-house before he opened the seal, and those who were there gathered around him while he read, with Grace peeking in at the door.
The letter was not from Mrs. Charmond herself, but her agent at Sherton. Winterborne glanced it over and looked up.
The letter wasn't from Mrs. Charmond directly, but from her agent in Sherton. Winterborne skimmed it and looked up.
“It’s all over,” he said.
"It's finished," he said.
“Ah!” said they altogether.
“Ah!” they all exclaimed.
“Her lawyer is instructed to say that Mrs. Charmond sees no reason for disturbing the natural course of things, particularly as she contemplates pulling the houses down,” he said, quietly.
“Her lawyer is directed to say that Mrs. Charmond sees no reason to disrupt the natural course of events, especially since she is considering tearing the houses down,” he said softly.
“Only think of that!” said several.
“Just think about that!” said several.
Winterborne had turned away, and said vehemently to himself, “Then let her pull ’em down, and be d—d to her!”
Winterborne turned away and said angrily to himself, “Then let her take them down, and the hell with her!”
Creedle looked at him with a face of seven sorrows, saying, “Ah, ’twas that sperrit that lost ’em for ye, maister!”
Creedle looked at him with a sad expression, saying, “Ah, it was that spirit that lost them for you, master!”
Winterborne subdued his feelings, and from that hour, whatever they were, kept them entirely to himself. There could be no doubt that, up to this last moment, he had nourished a feeble hope of regaining Grace in the event of this negotiation turning out a success. Not being aware of the fact that her father could have settled upon her a fortune sufficient to enable both to live in comfort, he deemed it now an absurdity to dream any longer of such a vanity as making her his wife, and sank into silence forthwith.
Winterborne pushed down his feelings, and from that moment on, whatever they were, he kept them completely to himself. There was no doubt that, right up until now, he had clung to a weak hope of winning Grace back if this negotiation went well. Not knowing that her father could have given her a fortune big enough for both of them to live comfortably, he now thought it ridiculous to keep dreaming about something as foolish as making her his wife, and he immediately fell silent.
Yet whatever the value of taciturnity to a man among strangers, it is apt to express more than talkativeness when he dwells among friends. The countryman who is obliged to judge the time of day from changes in external nature sees a thousand successive tints and traits in the landscape which are never discerned by him who hears the regular chime of a clock, because they are never in request. In like manner do we use our eyes on our taciturn comrade. The infinitesimal movement of muscle, curve, hair, and wrinkle, which when accompanied by a voice goes unregarded, is watched and translated in the lack of it, till virtually the whole surrounding circle of familiars is charged with the reserved one’s moods and meanings.
Yet no matter how valuable silence is for a person among strangers, it tends to express more than talkativeness when they're with friends. A rural person who has to tell the time by changes in nature sees a thousand subtle colors and features in the landscape that someone who hears a clock's regular chime never notices because they aren’t needed. Similarly, we observe our quiet friend. The tiny movements of their muscles, the curves, hairs, and wrinkles that typically go unnoticed when words are spoken are closely watched and interpreted in their absence, until almost everyone around them becomes attuned to the reserved person's moods and meanings.
This was the condition of affairs between Winterborne and his neighbors after his stroke of ill-luck. He held his tongue; and they observed him, and knew that he was discomposed.
This was the situation between Winterborne and his neighbors after his bad luck. He kept quiet; and they watched him, knowing that he was unsettled.
Mr. Melbury, in his compunction, thought more of the matter than any one else, except his daughter. Had Winterborne been going on in the old fashion, Grace’s father could have alluded to his disapproval of the alliance every day with the greatest frankness; but to speak any further on the subject he could not find it in his heart to do now. He hoped that Giles would of his own accord make some final announcement that he entirely withdrew his pretensions to Grace, and so get the thing past and done with. For though Giles had in a measure acquiesced in the wish of her family, he could make matters unpleasant if he chose to work upon Grace; and hence, when Melbury saw the young man approaching along the road one day, he kept friendliness and frigidity exactly balanced in his eye till he could see whether Giles’s manner was presumptive or not.
Mr. Melbury, feeling guilty, cared more about the situation than anyone else, except for his daughter. If Winterborne had been acting like he used to, Grace’s father could have openly expressed his disapproval of the relationship every day without hesitation. But now, he couldn't bring himself to discuss it any further. He hoped that Giles would voluntarily make a clear statement that he completely gave up on his pursuit of Grace, allowing them to move on. Because even though Giles had somewhat agreed with her family’s wishes, he could still create tension if he decided to influence Grace. So, when Melbury saw the young man walking down the road one day, he maintained a careful balance of friendliness and coolness in his expression until he could determine whether Giles's attitude was overstepping or not.
His manner was that of a man who abandoned all claims. “I am glad to meet ye, Mr. Melbury,” he said, in a low voice, whose quality he endeavored to make as practical as possible. “I am afraid I shall not be able to keep that mare I bought, and as I don’t care to sell her, I should like—if you don’t object—to give her to Miss Melbury. The horse is very quiet, and would be quite safe for her.”
His demeanor was that of someone who had given up all claims. “I’m glad to meet you, Mr. Melbury,” he said in a low voice, trying to sound as practical as he could. “I’m afraid I can’t keep that mare I bought, and since I don’t want to sell her, I’d like—if you don’t mind—to give her to Miss Melbury. The horse is very calm and would be completely safe for her.”
Mr. Melbury was rather affected at this. “You sha’n’t hurt your pocket like that on our account, Giles. Grace shall have the horse, but I’ll pay you what you gave for her, and any expense you may have been put to for her keep.”
Mr. Melbury was quite moved by this. “You shouldn't take a hit to your finances on our behalf, Giles. Grace will get the horse, but I’ll reimburse you what you paid for her, along with any costs you've incurred for her care.”
He would not hear of any other terms, and thus it was arranged. They were now opposite Melbury’s house, and the timber-merchant pressed Winterborne to enter, Grace being out of the way.
He wouldn't consider any other options, and so it was settled. They were now in front of Melbury’s house, and the timber merchant urged Winterborne to come in, since Grace was out.
“Pull round the settle, Giles,” said the timber-merchant, as soon as they were within. “I should like to have a serious talk with you.”
“Pull around the couch, Giles,” said the timber merchant as soon as they came in. “I’d like to have a serious talk with you.”
Thereupon he put the case to Winterborne frankly, and in quite a friendly way. He declared that he did not like to be hard on a man when he was in difficulty; but he really did not see how Winterborne could marry his daughter now, without even a house to take her to.
Thereafter, he honestly brought up the situation with Winterborne in a friendly manner. He said that he didn't want to be harsh on someone who was struggling; however, he truly couldn't understand how Winterborne could marry his daughter at this point, especially without even having a place to live.
Giles quite acquiesced in the awkwardness of his situation. But from a momentary feeling that he would like to know Grace’s mind from her own lips, he did not speak out positively there and then. He accordingly departed somewhat abruptly, and went home to consider whether he would seek to bring about a meeting with her.
Giles accepted the awkwardness of his situation. However, he had a fleeting desire to hear Grace's thoughts directly from her, so he didn't just say what he was thinking right then. He left a bit abruptly and went home to think about whether he should try to arrange a meeting with her.
In the evening, while he sat quietly pondering, he fancied that he heard a scraping on the wall outside his house. The boughs of a monthly rose which grew there made such a noise sometimes, but as no wind was stirring he knew that it could not be the rose-tree. He took up the candle and went out. Nobody was near. As he turned, the light flickered on the whitewashed rough case of the front, and he saw words written thereon in charcoal, which he read as follows:
In the evening, as he sat quietly thinking, he thought he heard a scraping sound on the wall outside his house. The branches of a climbing rose that grew there made noises like that sometimes, but since there was no wind, he knew it couldn't be the rosebush. He picked up the candle and went outside. There was nobody around. As he turned, the light flickered on the rough whitewashed surface of the front, and he saw words written there in charcoal, which he read as follows:
“O Giles, you’ve lost your dwelling-place,
And therefore, Giles, you’ll lose your Grace.”
“O Giles, you’ve lost your home,
And because of that, Giles, you’ll lose your favor.”
Giles went in-doors. He had his suspicions as to the scrawler of those lines, but he could not be sure. What suddenly filled his heart far more than curiosity about their authorship was a terrible belief that they were turning out to be true, try to see Grace as he might. They decided the question for him. He sat down and wrote a formal note to Melbury, in which he briefly stated that he was placed in such a position as to make him share to the full Melbury’s view of his own and his daughter’s promise, made some years before; to wish that it should be considered as cancelled, and they themselves quite released from any obligation on account of it.
Giles went inside. He had a hunch about who might have written those lines, but he couldn't be certain. What filled his heart even more than curiosity about the authorship was a deep fear that they were starting to come true, no matter how hard he tried to think of Grace differently. They answered the question for him. He sat down and wrote a formal note to Melbury, stating that he found himself in a position that made him fully agree with Melbury’s view of the promise he made with his daughter years ago; he wished for it to be considered canceled, and for both of them to be completely released from any obligation related to it.
Having fastened up this their plenary absolution, he determined to get it out of his hands and have done with it; to which end he went off to Melbury’s at once. It was now so late that the family had all retired; he crept up to the house, thrust the note under the door, and stole away as silently as he had come.
Having secured this complete forgiveness, he decided to get it out of his hands and be done with it; to that end, he headed straight to Melbury’s. It was now so late that the family had already gone to bed; he quietly approached the house, slid the note under the door, and slipped away as silently as he had come.
Melbury himself was the first to rise the next morning, and when he had read the letter his relief was great. “Very honorable of Giles, very honorable,” he kept saying to himself. “I shall not forget him. Now to keep her up to her own true level.”
Melbury was the first to get up the next morning, and after reading the letter, he felt a huge sense of relief. “Very honorable of Giles, very honorable,” he kept telling himself. “I won’t forget him. Now I need to help her stay true to herself.”
It happened that Grace went out for an early ramble that morning, passing through the door and gate while her father was in the spar-house. To go in her customary direction she could not avoid passing Winterborne’s house. The morning sun was shining flat upon its white surface, and the words, which still remained, were immediately visible to her. She read them. Her face flushed to crimson. She could see Giles and Creedle talking together at the back; the charred spar-gad with which the lines had been written lay on the ground beneath the wall. Feeling pretty sure that Winterborne would observe her action, she quickly went up to the wall, rubbed out “lose” and inserted “keep” in its stead. Then she made the best of her way home without looking behind her. Giles could draw an inference now if he chose.
It so happened that Grace went out for an early walk that morning, passing through the door and gate while her father was in the spar-house. To head in her usual direction, she couldn’t avoid walking past Winterborne’s house. The morning sun was shining directly on its white surface, and the words that were still there were clearly visible to her. She read them. Her face turned bright red. She could see Giles and Creedle talking together at the back; the burnt spar-gad used to write the words lay on the ground beneath the wall. Knowing that Winterborne would probably see her, she quickly approached the wall, rubbed out “lose,” and wrote in “keep” instead. Then she hurried home without looking back. Giles could figure it out now if he wanted to.
There could not be the least doubt that gentle Grace was warming to more sympathy with, and interest in, Giles Winterborne than ever she had done while he was her promised lover; that since his misfortune those social shortcomings of his, which contrasted so awkwardly with her later experiences of life, had become obscured by the generous revival of an old romantic attachment to him. Though mentally trained and tilled into foreignness of view, as compared with her youthful time, Grace was not an ambitious girl, and might, if left to herself, have declined Winterborne without much discontent or unhappiness. Her feelings just now were so far from latent that the writing on the wall had thus quickened her to an unusual rashness.
There was no doubt that Grace was developing more sympathy for and interest in Giles Winterborne than she ever had when he was her fiancé. Since his misfortune, the social issues he had, which awkwardly contrasted with her later life experiences, had faded away because of a renewed romantic attachment to him. Although Grace had matured and adopted different views compared to her younger years, she wasn’t an ambitious person and, if left to her own devices, could have turned down Winterborne without much sadness or dissatisfaction. However, her feelings right now were far from hidden, and this realization had pushed her toward an unexpected boldness.
Having returned from her walk she sat at breakfast silently. When her step-mother had left the room she said to her father, “I have made up my mind that I should like my engagement to Giles to continue, for the present at any rate, till I can see further what I ought to do.”
Having come back from her walk, she sat quietly at breakfast. When her stepmother left the room, she said to her father, “I've decided that I want my engagement to Giles to continue, at least for now, until I figure out what I should do next.”
Melbury looked much surprised.
Melbury looked very surprised.
“Nonsense,” he said, sharply. “You don’t know what you are talking about. Look here.”
“Nonsense,” he said abruptly. “You have no idea what you're talking about. Look here.”
He handed across to her the letter received from Giles.
He handed her the letter he got from Giles.
She read it, and said no more. Could he have seen her write on the wall? She did not know. Fate, it seemed, would have it this way, and there was nothing to do but to acquiesce.
She read it and didn't say anything else. Could he have seen her writing on the wall? She had no idea. It seemed like fate wanted it to be this way, and there was nothing left to do except go along with it.
It was a few hours after this that Winterborne, who, curiously enough, had not perceived Grace writing, was clearing away the tree from the front of South’s late dwelling. He saw Marty standing in her door-way, a slim figure in meagre black, almost without womanly contours as yet. He went up to her and said, “Marty, why did you write that on my wall last night? It was you, you know.”
It was a few hours later when Winterborne, oddly enough, had not noticed Grace writing, was clearing the tree from the front of South’s former home. He saw Marty standing in her doorway, a slender figure in thin black, almost without any womanly shape yet. He approached her and said, “Marty, why did you write that on my wall last night? It was you, you know.”
“Because it was the truth. I didn’t mean to let it stay, Mr. Winterborne; but when I was going to rub it out you came, and I was obliged to run off.”
“Because it was the truth. I didn’t mean to let it stay, Mr. Winterborne; but when I was about to erase it, you showed up, and I had to run away.”
“Having prophesied one thing, why did you alter it to another? Your predictions can’t be worth much.”
“After predicting one thing, why did you change it to something else? Your forecasts can't be very credible.”
“I have not altered it.”
"I haven't changed it."
“But you have.”
“But you do.”
“No.”
“Nope.”
“It is altered. Go and see.”
“It's different now. Go take a look.”
She went, and read that, in spite of losing his dwelling-place, he would keep his Grace. Marty came back surprised.
She left and read that, even though he lost his home, he would keep his Grace. Marty returned, surprised.
“Well, I never,” she said. “Who can have made such nonsense of it?”
"Well, I never," she said. "Who could have made such nonsense of this?"
“Who, indeed?” said he.
"Who, really?" he said.
“I have rubbed it all out, as the point of it is quite gone.”
“I’ve erased everything because the point of it is completely lost.”
“You’d no business to rub it out. I didn’t tell you to. I meant to let it stay a little longer.”
“You had no right to erase it. I didn’t ask you to. I intended for it to stay a bit longer.”
“Some idle boy did it, no doubt,” she murmured.
“Some lazy kid did it, for sure,” she murmured.
As this seemed very probable, and the actual perpetrator was unsuspected, Winterborne said no more, and dismissed the matter from his mind.
As this seemed very likely, and the real culprit was unsuspected, Winterborne said nothing more and put the matter out of his mind.
From this day of his life onward for a considerable time, Winterborne, though not absolutely out of his house as yet, retired into the background of human life and action thereabout—a feat not particularly difficult of performance anywhere when the doer has the assistance of a lost prestige. Grace, thinking that Winterborne saw her write, made no further sign, and the frail bark of fidelity that she had thus timidly launched was stranded and lost.
From this day forward for quite some time, Winterborne, although not completely out of his home yet, faded into the background of life and activity around him—a task that isn't particularly hard anywhere when the person has the leverage of lost reputation. Grace, believing that Winterborne noticed her writing, didn’t make any further indication, and the fragile vessel of loyalty that she had cautiously set afloat was stranded and lost.
CHAPTER XVI.
Dr. Fitzpiers lived on the slope of the hill, in a house of much less pretension, both as to architecture and as to magnitude, than the timber-merchant’s. The latter had, without doubt, been once the manorial residence appertaining to the snug and modest domain of Little Hintock, of which the boundaries were now lost by its absorption with others of its kind into the adjoining estate of Mrs. Charmond. Though the Melburys themselves were unaware of the fact, there was every reason to believe—at least so the parson said—that the owners of that little manor had been Melbury’s own ancestors, the family name occurring in numerous documents relating to transfers of land about the time of the civil wars.
Dr. Fitzpiers lived on the hillside, in a much simpler house, both in design and size, than the timber merchant’s. The latter had certainly once been the manorial residence connected to the cozy and modest area of Little Hintock, which had now been absorbed by other similar properties into the neighboring estate of Mrs. Charmond. Although the Melburys themselves didn’t know it, there was every reason to believe— at least according to the parson—that the owners of that small manor had been Melbury’s own ancestors, as the family name appeared in numerous documents related to land transfers around the time of the civil wars.
Mr. Fitzpiers’s dwelling, on the contrary, was small, cottage-like, and comparatively modern. It had been occupied, and was in part occupied still, by a retired farmer and his wife, who, on the surgeon’s arrival in quest of a home, had accommodated him by receding from their front rooms into the kitchen quarter, whence they administered to his wants, and emerged at regular intervals to receive from him a not unwelcome addition to their income.
Mr. Fitzpiers's home, on the other hand, was small, cottage-like, and relatively modern. It had been lived in, and was partly still occupied, by a retired farmer and his wife, who, when the surgeon arrived looking for a place to stay, made room for him by moving from their front rooms to the kitchen area, where they took care of his needs and came out regularly to receive what was a welcome boost to their income.
The cottage and its garden were so regular in their arrangement that they might have been laid out by a Dutch designer of the time of William and Mary. In a low, dense hedge, cut to wedge-shape, was a door over which the hedge formed an arch, and from the inside of the door a straight path, bordered with clipped box, ran up the slope of the garden to the porch, which was exactly in the middle of the house front, with two windows on each side. Right and left of the path were first a bed of gooseberry bushes; next of currant; next of raspberry; next of strawberry; next of old-fashioned flowers; at the corners opposite the porch being spheres of box resembling a pair of school globes. Over the roof of the house could be seen the orchard, on yet higher ground, and behind the orchard the forest-trees, reaching up to the crest of the hill.
The cottage and its garden were so neatly arranged that they could have been designed by a Dutch landscape architect from the time of William and Mary. A low, thick hedge, shaped like a wedge, had a door that formed an archway, and from that door, a straight path bordered with trimmed box ran up the slope of the garden to the porch, which was perfectly centered on the front of the house, flanked by two windows on each side. On either side of the path were a bed of gooseberry bushes, followed by currants, then raspberries, strawberries, and old-fashioned flowers, with spherical box hedges at the corners opposite the porch, resembling a pair of school globes. Above the roof of the house, the orchard was visible on even higher ground, and beyond that, the forest trees reached up to the top of the hill.
Opposite the garden door and visible from the parlor window was a swing-gate leading into a field, across which there ran a footpath. The swing-gate had just been repainted, and on one fine afternoon, before the paint was dry, and while gnats were still dying thereon, the surgeon was standing in his sitting-room abstractedly looking out at the different pedestrians who passed and repassed along that route. Being of a philosophical stamp, he perceived that the character of each of these travellers exhibited itself in a somewhat amusing manner by his or her method of handling the gate.
Opposite the garden door and visible from the living room window was a swing gate leading into a field, across which there was a footpath. The swing gate had just been repainted, and on a beautiful afternoon, before the paint was dry, and while gnats were still getting stuck to it, the surgeon was standing in his sitting room, lost in thought as he watched the various pedestrians passing by along that path. Being a thoughtful person, he noticed that the behavior of each traveler presented itself in a somewhat amusing way through how they managed the gate.
As regarded the men, there was not much variety: they gave the gate a kick and passed through. The women were more contrasting. To them the sticky wood-work was a barricade, a disgust, a menace, a treachery, as the case might be.
As for the men, there wasn’t much variation: they kicked the gate and walked through. The women were more diverse in their reactions. For them, the sticky woodwork was either a barrier, a nuisance, a threat, or a betrayal, depending on the situation.
The first that he noticed was a bouncing woman with her skirts tucked up and her hair uncombed. She grasped the gate without looking, giving it a supplementary push with her shoulder, when the white imprint drew from her an exclamation in language not too refined. She went to the green bank, sat down and rubbed herself in the grass, cursing the while.
The first thing he noticed was a woman bouncing along with her skirts hiked up and her hair messy. She grabbed the gate without looking, giving it an extra shove with her shoulder, which made her let out an exclamation in less than polite language. She walked over to the green bank, sat down, and rubbed herself in the grass while cursing.
“Ha! ha! ha!” laughed the doctor.
“Ha! ha! ha!” laughed the doctor.
The next was a girl, with her hair cropped short, in whom the surgeon recognized the daughter of his late patient, the woodman South. Moreover, a black bonnet that she wore by way of mourning unpleasantly reminded him that he had ordered the felling of a tree which had caused her parent’s death and Winterborne’s losses. She walked and thought, and not recklessly; but her preoccupation led her to grasp unsuspectingly the bar of the gate, and touch it with her arm. Fitzpiers felt sorry that she should have soiled that new black frock, poor as it was, for it was probably her only one. She looked at her hand and arm, seemed but little surprised, wiped off the disfigurement with an almost unmoved face, and as if without abandoning her original thoughts. Thus she went on her way.
The next was a girl with short hair, whom the surgeon recognized as the daughter of his late patient, the woodman South. Moreover, the black bonnet she wore in mourning unpleasantly reminded him that he had ordered the cutting down of the tree that caused her parent's death and Winterborne’s losses. She walked and thought, not recklessly, but her distraction led her to unknowingly grasp the gate bar and brush against it with her arm. Fitzpiers felt sorry that she had gotten that new black dress, poor as it was, dirty, since it was probably her only one. She looked at her hand and arm, seemed hardly surprised, wiped off the dirt with an almost expressionless face, as if she hadn't lost her original train of thought. And so she continued on her way.
Then there came over the green quite a different sort of personage. She walked as delicately as if she had been bred in town, and as firmly as if she had been bred in the country; she seemed one who dimly knew her appearance to be attractive, but who retained some of the charm of being ignorant of that fact by forgetting it in a general pensiveness. She approached the gate. To let such a creature touch it even with a tip of her glove was to Fitzpiers almost like letting her proceed to tragical self-destruction. He jumped up and looked for his hat, but was unable to find the right one; glancing again out of the window he saw that he was too late. Having come up, she stopped, looked at the gate, picked up a little stick, and using it as a bayonet, pushed open the obstacle without touching it at all.
Then a completely different type of person arrived on the green. She walked as gracefully as if she had grown up in the city, yet as confidently as if she had been raised in the countryside; she seemed to vaguely realize that she was attractive, but she kept some of the charm of being unaware of it by getting lost in her thoughts. She approached the gate. For Fitzpiers, allowing such a person to touch it, even just with the tip of her glove, felt almost like allowing her to move towards tragic self-destruction. He jumped up and searched for his hat but couldn't find the right one; glancing out of the window again, he realized he was too late. When she arrived, she paused, looked at the gate, picked up a small stick, and used it like a bayonet to push open the gate without actually touching it.
He steadily watched her till she had passed out of sight, recognizing her as the very young lady whom he had seen once before and been unable to identify. Whose could that emotional face be? All the others he had seen in Hintock as yet oppressed him with their crude rusticity; the contrast offered by this suggested that she hailed from elsewhere.
He watched her until she was completely out of sight, realizing that she was the same young woman he had seen before but couldn't recognize. Who did that emotional face belong to? Everyone else he had seen in Hintock felt rough and unrefined; her presence hinted that she was from somewhere else.
Precisely these thoughts had occurred to him at the first time of seeing her; but he now went a little further with them, and considered that as there had been no carriage seen or heard lately in that spot she could not have come a very long distance. She must be somebody staying at Hintock House? Possibly Mrs. Charmond, of whom he had heard so much—at any rate an inmate, and this probability was sufficient to set a mild radiance in the surgeon’s somewhat dull sky.
Exactly these thoughts had crossed his mind when he first saw her; but now he took it a step further and realized that since no carriage had been seen or heard around here lately, she couldn't have traveled very far. She must be someone staying at Hintock House? Maybe Mrs. Charmond, whom he had heard so much about—either way, she was definitely a resident, and this possibility was enough to bring a little brightness to the surgeon’s otherwise dull outlook.
Fitzpiers sat down to the book he had been perusing. It happened to be that of a German metaphysician, for the doctor was not a practical man, except by fits, and much preferred the ideal world to the real, and the discovery of principles to their application. The young lady remained in his thoughts. He might have followed her; but he was not constitutionally active, and preferred a conjectural pursuit. However, when he went out for a ramble just before dusk he insensibly took the direction of Hintock House, which was the way that Grace had been walking, it having happened that her mind had run on Mrs. Charmond that day, and she had walked to the brow of a hill whence the house could be seen, returning by another route.
Fitzpiers sat down with the book he had been reading. It was written by a German philosopher, as the doctor wasn't very practical, except occasionally, and he much preferred the ideal world over the real one, focusing more on discovering principles than applying them. The young lady stayed on his mind. He could have gone after her, but he wasn't naturally active and preferred to pursue abstract thoughts. However, when he went out for a walk just before dusk, he unconsciously headed towards Hintock House, the same way Grace had walked earlier that day, as her thoughts had been on Mrs. Charmond, and she had walked to a hilltop from where the house could be seen, returning by a different path.
Fitzpiers in his turn reached the edge of the glen, overlooking the manor-house. The shutters were shut, and only one chimney smoked. The mere aspect of the place was enough to inform him that Mrs. Charmond had gone away and that nobody else was staying there. Fitzpiers felt a vague disappointment that the young lady was not Mrs. Charmond, of whom he had heard so much; and without pausing longer to gaze at a carcass from which the spirit had flown, he bent his steps homeward.
Fitzpiers reached the edge of the valley, looking down at the manor house. The shutters were closed, and only one chimney was smoking. Just the sight of the place told him that Mrs. Charmond had left and that no one else was there. Fitzpiers felt a vague disappointment that the young woman wasn’t Mrs. Charmond, the one he had heard so much about; and without lingering to look at a lifeless shell, he turned and headed home.
Later in the evening Fitzpiers was summoned to visit a cottage patient about two miles distant. Like the majority of young practitioners in his position he was far from having assumed the dignity of being driven his rounds by a servant in a brougham that flashed the sunlight like a mirror; his way of getting about was by means of a gig which he drove himself, hitching the rein of the horse to the gate post, shutter hook, or garden paling of the domicile under visitation, or giving pennies to little boys to hold the animal during his stay—pennies which were well earned when the cases to be attended were of a certain cheerful kind that wore out the patience of the little boys.
Later in the evening, Fitzpiers was called to visit a patient in a cottage about two miles away. Like most young doctors in his position, he hadn’t yet reached the point of being driven around in a fancy carriage that sparkled in the sunlight; instead, he got around in a gig that he drove himself, tying the reins of the horse to the gate post, a shutter hook, or the garden fence of the house he was visiting, or giving small change to little boys to hold the horse for him while he was inside—pennies that were well earned, especially when the cases he was attending were of a cheerful nature that tested the patience of the young boys.
On this account of travelling alone, the night journeys which Fitzpiers had frequently to take were dismal enough, a serious apparent perversity in nature ruling that whenever there was to be a birth in a particularly inaccessible and lonely place, that event should occur in the night. The surgeon, having been of late years a town man, hated the solitary midnight woodland. He was not altogether skilful with the reins, and it often occurred to his mind that if in some remote depths of the trees an accident were to happen, the fact of his being alone might be the death of him. Hence he made a practice of picking up any countryman or lad whom he chanced to pass by, and under the disguise of treating him to a nice drive, obtained his companionship on the journey, and his convenient assistance in opening gates.
On this account of traveling alone, the night trips that Fitzpiers often had to take were pretty grim, with a noticeable oddity in nature causing births to happen at night in especially hard-to-reach and isolated locations. The surgeon, having spent recent years in town, detested the lonely midnight woods. He wasn't very skilled with the reins, and he often worried that if an accident were to happen deep in the trees, being alone could cost him his life. So, he made it a habit to pick up any local man or kid he came across, and under the pretense of giving them a nice ride, he got their company on the journey and their help with opening gates.
The doctor had started on his way out of the village on the night in question when the light of his lamps fell upon the musing form of Winterborne, walking leisurely along, as if he had no object in life. Winterborne was a better class of companion than the doctor usually could get, and he at once pulled up and asked him if he would like a drive through the wood that fine night.
The doctor was on his way out of the village on that particular night when the light from his lamps illuminated Winterborne, who was strolling casually as if he had no purpose. Winterborne was a more interesting companion than the doctor typically found, so he immediately stopped and asked if Winterborne would like a ride through the woods on such a lovely night.
Giles seemed rather surprised at the doctor’s friendliness, but said that he had no objection, and accordingly mounted beside Mr. Fitzpiers.
Giles looked a bit surprised by the doctor's friendliness, but said he didn't mind, and so he got up next to Mr. Fitzpiers.
They drove along under the black boughs which formed a network upon the stars, all the trees of a species alike in one respect, and no two of them alike in another. Looking up as they passed under a horizontal bough they sometimes saw objects like large tadpoles lodged diametrically across it, which Giles explained to be pheasants there at roost; and they sometimes heard the report of a gun, which reminded him that others knew what those tadpole shapes represented as well as he.
They drove along beneath the dark branches that created a web against the stars, with all the trees of one kind similar in one way, yet no two exactly alike in another. As they passed under a horizontal branch, they occasionally spotted shapes that looked like large tadpoles resting across it, which Giles explained were pheasants roosting there; they also sometimes heard the sound of a gun, reminding him that others recognized what those tadpole shapes were just as well as he did.
Presently the doctor said what he had been going to say for some time:
Currently, the doctor said what he had been meaning to say for a while:
“Is there a young lady staying in this neighborhood—a very attractive girl—with a little white boa round her neck, and white fur round her gloves?”
“Is there a young woman living in this neighborhood—a really attractive girl—with a little white boa around her neck, and white fur around her gloves?”
Winterborne of course knew in a moment that Grace, whom he had caught the doctor peering at, was represented by these accessories. With a wary grimness, partly in his character, partly induced by the circumstances, he evaded an answer by saying, “I saw a young lady talking to Mrs. Charmond the other day; perhaps it was she.”
Winterborne realized immediately that Grace, whom he had seen the doctor looking at, was symbolized by these items. With a cautious seriousness, partly due to his nature and partly due to the situation, he avoided answering by saying, “I saw a young lady talking to Mrs. Charmond the other day; maybe it was her.”
Fitzpiers concluded from this that Winterborne had not seen him looking over the hedge. “It might have been,” he said. “She is quite a gentlewoman—the one I mean. She cannot be a permanent resident in Hintock or I should have seen her before. Nor does she look like one.”
Fitzpiers figured that Winterborne hadn’t noticed him peering over the hedge. “It could have been,” he said. “She’s definitely a lady—the one I’m talking about. She can't be a long-term resident of Hintock, or I would have seen her before. Plus, she doesn’t seem like one.”
“She is not staying at Hintock House?”
“She isn’t staying at Hintock House?”
“No; it is closed.”
“No; it’s closed.”
“Then perhaps she is staying at one of the cottages, or farmhouses?”
“Then maybe she is staying at one of the cottages or farmhouses?”
“Oh no—you mistake. She was a different sort of girl altogether.” As Giles was nobody, Fitzpiers treated him accordingly, and apostrophized the night in continuation:
“Oh no—you’re mistaken. She was a completely different kind of girl.” Since Giles was a nobody, Fitzpiers ignored him and continued talking to the night:
“She moved upon this earth a shape of brightness,
A power, that from its objects scarcely drew
One impulse of her being—in her lightness
Most like some radiant cloud of morning dew,
Which wanders through the waste air’s pathless blue,
To nourish some far desert: she did seem
Beside me, gathering beauty as she grew,
Like the bright shade of some immortal dream
Which walks, when tempests sleep, the wave of life’s dark
stream.”
“She moved through this world like a bright shape,
A force that didn’t get much from its surroundings—
One spark of her essence—in her lightness
Most like a glowing cloud of morning dew,
Wandering through the endless blue of the sky,
To nurture some distant desert: she appeared
Next to me, collecting beauty as she bloomed,
Like the vibrant shadow of some eternal dream
That walks, when storms are quiet, across the dark
Flow of life’s river.”
The consummate charm of the lines seemed to Winterborne, though he divined that they were a quotation, to be somehow the result of his lost love’s charms upon Fitzpiers.
The perfect charm of the lines struck Winterborne, even though he sensed they were a quote, as somehow reflecting the allure his lost love had on Fitzpiers.
“You seem to be mightily in love with her, sir,” he said, with a sensation of heart-sickness, and more than ever resolved not to mention Grace by name.
“You seem to be really in love with her, sir,” he said, feeling a wave of sadness, and even more determined not to bring up Grace's name.
“Oh no—I am not that, Winterborne; people living insulated, as I do by the solitude of this place, get charged with emotive fluid like a Leyden-jar with electric, for want of some conductor at hand to disperse it. Human love is a subjective thing—the essence itself of man, as that great thinker Spinoza the philosopher says—ipsa hominis essentia—it is joy accompanied by an idea which we project against any suitable object in the line of our vision, just as the rainbow iris is projected against an oak, ash, or elm tree indifferently. So that if any other young lady had appeared instead of the one who did appear, I should have felt just the same interest in her, and have quoted precisely the same lines from Shelley about her, as about this one I saw. Such miserable creatures of circumstance are we all!”
“Oh no—I’m not that, Winterborne; people like me, living in the isolation of this place, get filled with emotional energy like a Leyden jar without any way to let it out. Human love is a personal experience—the very essence of being human, as the great thinker Spinoza said—ipsa hominis essentia—it’s joy tied to an idea that we project onto whatever seems fitting in our view, just like a rainbow's colors appear against any tree, whether it’s an oak, ash, or elm. So if any other young woman had shown up instead of the one who did, I would have felt the same interest in her and quoted exactly the same lines from Shelley about her as I did about the one I saw. That’s how pitifully controlled by circumstances we all are!”
“Well, it is what we call being in love down in these parts, whether or no,” said Winterborne.
“Well, this is what we call being in love around here, whether you agree or not,” said Winterborne.
“You are right enough if you admit that I am in love with something in my own head, and no thing in itself outside it at all.”
“You're right if you acknowledge that I'm in love with something in my own mind, and nothing real outside of it.”
“Is it part of a country doctor’s duties to learn that view of things, may I ask, sir?” said Winterborne, adopting the Socratic εἰρωνεία with such well-assumed simplicity that Fitzpiers answered, readily,
“Is it part of a country doctor’s duties to learn that perspective, may I ask, sir?” said Winterborne, using the Socratic irony with such feigned simplicity that Fitzpiers responded readily,
“Oh no. The real truth is, Winterborne, that medical practice in places like this is a very rule-of-thumb matter; a bottle of bitter stuff for this and that old woman—the bitterer the better—compounded from a few simple stereotyped prescriptions; occasional attendance at births, where mere presence is almost sufficient, so healthy and strong are the people; and a lance for an abscess now and then. Investigation and experiment cannot be carried on without more appliances than one has here—though I have attempted it a little.”
“Oh no. The truth is, Winterborne, that practicing medicine in places like this is pretty much trial and error; a bottle of something bitter for this and that old woman—the more bitter, the better—mixed from a few standard prescriptions; sometimes attending births, where just being there is nearly enough, since the people are so healthy and strong; and occasionally using a lance for an abscess. You can’t really investigate and experiment without more tools than we have here—even though I’ve tried a little.”
Giles did not enter into this view of the case; what he had been struck with was the curious parallelism between Mr. Fitzpiers’s manner and Grace’s, as shown by the fact of both of them straying into a subject of discourse so engrossing to themselves that it made them forget it was foreign to him.
Giles didn't share this perspective on the case; what stood out to him was the interesting similarity between Mr. Fitzpiers's behavior and Grace's, highlighted by how both of them got so caught up in a topic that fascinated them that they forgot it wasn't relevant to him.
Nothing further passed between himself and the doctor in relation to Grace till they were on their way back. They had stopped at a way-side inn for a glass of brandy and cider hot, and when they were again in motion, Fitzpiers, possibly a little warmed by the liquor, resumed the subject by saying, “I should like very much to know who that young lady was.”
Nothing more was said between him and the doctor about Grace until they were on their way back. They had stopped at a roadside inn for a hot glass of brandy and cider, and when they got moving again, Fitzpiers, possibly a bit warmed by the drink, brought up the topic again by saying, “I’d really like to know who that young lady was.”
“What difference can it make, if she’s only the tree your rainbow falls on?”
“What difference does it make if she’s just the tree your rainbow lands on?”
“Ha! ha! True.”
"LOL! So true."
“You have no wife, sir?”
"Don't you have a wife, sir?"
“I have no wife, and no idea of one. I hope to do better things than marry and settle in Hintock. Not but that it is well for a medical man to be married, and sometimes, begad, ’twould be pleasant enough in this place, with the wind roaring round the house, and the rain and the boughs beating against it. I hear that you lost your life-holds by the death of South?”
“I don’t have a wife, and I’m not really interested in having one. I hope to achieve more than just getting married and settling down in Hintock. It’s true that it’s good for a doctor to be married, and honestly, it could be quite nice here, especially with the wind howling around the house and the rain and branches hitting against it. I heard you lost your life insurance because of South's death?”
“I did. I lost in more ways than one.”
“I did. I lost in more ways than one.”
They had reached the top of Hintock Lane or Street, if it could be called such where three-quarters of the road-side consisted of copse and orchard. One of the first houses to be passed was Melbury’s. A light was shining from a bedroom window facing lengthwise of the lane. Winterborne glanced at it, and saw what was coming. He had withheld an answer to the doctor’s inquiry to hinder his knowledge of Grace; but, as he thought to himself, “who hath gathered the wind in his fists? who hath bound the waters in a garment?” he could not hinder what was doomed to arrive, and might just as well have been outspoken. As they came up to the house, Grace’s figure was distinctly visible, drawing the two white curtains together which were used here instead of blinds.
They had reached the top of Hintock Lane, or Street, as it could be called since three-quarters of the road was lined with woods and orchards. One of the first houses they passed was Melbury’s. A light was shining from a bedroom window that faced along the lane. Winterborne glanced at it and sensed what was coming. He had held back his answer to the doctor’s question to keep his knowledge of Grace under wraps; but, as he thought to himself, “who can hold the wind in his fists? who can wrap the waters in a garment?” he couldn’t stop what was meant to happen and might as well have been honest. As they approached the house, Grace’s figure was clearly visible, pulling the two white curtains together that were used here instead of blinds.
“Why, there she is!” said Fitzpiers. “How does she come there?”
“Wow, there she is!” said Fitzpiers. “How did she get there?”
“In the most natural way in the world. It is her home. Mr. Melbury is her father.”
“In the most natural way in the world. It’s her home. Mr. Melbury is her dad.”
“Oh, indeed—indeed—indeed! How comes he to have a daughter of that stamp?”
“Oh, really—really—really! How did he end up with a daughter like that?”
Winterborne laughed coldly. “Won’t money do anything,” he said, “if you’ve promising material to work upon? Why shouldn’t a Hintock girl, taken early from home, and put under proper instruction, become as finished as any other young lady, if she’s got brains and good looks to begin with?”
Winterborne laughed harshly. “Can’t money do anything,” he said, “if you’ve got potential to work with? Why shouldn’t a Hintock girl, taken away from home early and given proper training, become as polished as any other young woman, if she has brains and beauty to start with?”
“No reason at all why she shouldn’t,” murmured the surgeon, with reflective disappointment. “Only I didn’t anticipate quite that kind of origin for her.”
“No reason at all why she shouldn’t,” the surgeon murmured, sounding disappointed. “I just didn’t expect that kind of background for her.”
“And you think an inch or two less of her now.” There was a little tremor in Winterborne’s voice as he spoke.
“And you think she’s an inch or two shorter now.” There was a slight shake in Winterborne’s voice as he spoke.
“Well,” said the doctor, with recovered warmth, “I am not so sure that I think less of her. At first it was a sort of blow; but, dammy! I’ll stick up for her. She’s charming, every inch of her!”
“Well,” said the doctor, with a renewed warmth, “I’m not so sure I think any less of her. At first, it was a bit of a shock; but, damn it! I’ll stand up for her. She’s charming, every bit of her!”
“So she is,” said Winterborne, “but not to me.”
“So she is,” said Winterborne, “but not to me.”
From this ambiguous expression of the reticent woodlander’s, Dr. Fitzpiers inferred that Giles disliked Miss Melbury because of some haughtiness in her bearing towards him, and had, on that account, withheld her name. The supposition did not tend to diminish his admiration for her.
From this unclear expression of the quiet woodsman's, Dr. Fitzpiers figured that Giles didn't like Miss Melbury because of some arrogance in the way she treated him, and for that reason, he had withheld her name. This assumption did not lessen his admiration for her.
CHAPTER XVII.
Grace’s exhibition of herself, in the act of pulling-to the window-curtains, had been the result of an unfortunate incident in the house that day—nothing less than the illness of Grammer Oliver, a woman who had never till now lain down for such a reason in her life. Like others to whom unbroken years of health has made the idea of keeping their bed almost as repugnant as death itself, she had continued on foot till she literally fell on the floor; and though she had, as yet, been scarcely a day off duty, she had sickened into quite a different personage from the independent Grammer of the yard and spar-house. Ill as she was, on one point she was firm. On no account would she see a doctor; in other words, Fitzpiers.
Grace's display of herself as she pulled back the window curtains was due to an unfortunate event at the house that day—nothing less than the illness of Grammer Oliver, a woman who had never before laid down for any reason in her life. Like many others who have enjoyed years of good health, the thought of being confined to bed was almost as unpleasant as death itself; she had kept going until she literally collapsed on the floor. Although she had barely been off duty for a day, she had transformed into someone quite different from the self-sufficient Grammer of the yard and spar-house. Despite her illness, she was adamant about one thing: she would not see a doctor; in other words, Fitzpiers.
The room in which Grace had been discerned was not her own, but the old woman’s. On the girl’s way to bed she had received a message from Grammer, to the effect that she would much like to speak to her that night.
The room where Grace had been seen wasn’t hers, but the old woman’s. On her way to bed, she had received a message from Grammer, saying that she would really like to talk to her that night.
Grace entered, and set the candle on a low chair beside the bed, so that the profile of Grammer as she lay cast itself in a keen shadow upon the whitened wall, her large head being still further magnified by an enormous turban, which was, really, her petticoat wound in a wreath round her temples. Grace put the room a little in order, and approaching the sick woman, said, “I am come, Grammer, as you wish. Do let us send for the doctor before it gets later.”
Grace walked in and placed the candle on a low chair next to the bed, casting a sharp shadow of Grammer onto the white wall. Her large head appeared even bigger due to the enormous turban, which was actually her petticoat wrapped around her head like a crown. Grace tidied up the room a bit and, approaching the sick woman, said, “I’ve come, Grammer, as you wanted. Let’s call for the doctor before it gets too late.”
“I will not have him,” said Grammer Oliver, decisively.
“I will not have him,” said Grammer Oliver, firmly.
“Then somebody to sit up with you.”
“Then someone to stay up with you.”
“Can’t abear it! No; I wanted to see you, Miss Grace, because ’ch have something on my mind. Dear Miss Grace, I took that money of the doctor, after all!”
“Can’t stand it! No; I wanted to see you, Miss Grace, because I have something on my mind. Dear Miss Grace, I took that money from the doctor, after all!”
“What money?”
"What cash?"
“The ten pounds.”
“The £10.”
Grace did not quite understand.
Grace didn't quite get it.
“The ten pounds he offered me for my head, because I’ve a large brain. I signed a paper when I took the money, not feeling concerned about it at all. I have not liked to tell ye that it was really settled with him, because you showed such horror at the notion. Well, having thought it over more at length, I wish I hadn’t done it; and it weighs upon my mind. John South’s death of fear about the tree makes me think that I shall die of this....’Ch have been going to ask him again to let me off, but I hadn’t the face.”
“The ten pounds he offered me for my head was because I have a big brain. I signed a paper when I took the money, not worried about it at all. I haven’t liked to tell you that it was really settled with him because you reacted so strongly against the idea. Well, after thinking it over more deeply, I wish I hadn’t done it; it’s weighing on my mind. John South’s death from fear about the tree makes me think that I might die from this... I’ve been meaning to ask him again to let me off, but I haven’t had the nerve.”
“Why?”
“Why?”
“I’ve spent some of the money—more’n two pounds o’t. It do wherrit me terribly; and I shall die o’ the thought of that paper I signed with my holy cross, as South died of his trouble.”
“I’ve spent some of the money—more than two pounds of it. It worries me terribly, and I’ll die just thinking about that paper I signed with my holy cross, just like South died from his troubles.”
“If you ask him to burn the paper he will, I’m sure, and think no more of it.”
“If you ask him to burn the paper, he will, I’m sure, and won’t think twice about it.”
“‘Ch have done it once already, miss. But he laughed cruel like. ‘Yours is such a fine brain, Grammer,’ ’er said, ‘that science couldn’t afford to lose you. Besides, you’ve taken my money.’...Don’t let your father know of this, please, on no account whatever!”
“‘Ch has done it once already, miss. But he laughed cruelly. ‘You have such a brilliant mind, Grammer,’ she said, ‘that science can’t afford to lose you. Besides, you’ve taken my money.’...Please don’t let your father know about this, under any circumstances!”
“No, no. I will let you have the money to return to him.”
“No, no. I'll give you the money to go back to him.”
Grammer rolled her head negatively upon the pillow. “Even if I should be well enough to take it to him, he won’t like it. Though why he should so particular want to look into the works of a poor old woman’s head-piece like mine when there’s so many other folks about, I don’t know. I know how he’ll answer me: ‘A lonely person like you, Grammer,’ er woll say. ‘What difference is it to you what becomes of ye when the breath’s out of your body?’ Oh, it do trouble me! If you only knew how he do chevy me round the chimmer in my dreams, you’d pity me. How I could do it I can’t think! But ’ch was always so rackless!...If I only had anybody to plead for me!”
Grammer shook her head on the pillow. “Even if I manage to get it to him, he won’t like it. I don't understand why he’s so interested in the thoughts of an old woman's mind like mine when there are so many others around. I know exactly how he’ll respond: ‘A lonely person like you, Grammer,’ he’ll say. ‘What difference does it make to you what happens when you’re gone?’ Oh, it really bothers me! If you only knew how he chases me around the room in my dreams, you’d feel sorry for me. I can’t believe I could do it! But he’s always been so reckless!...If only I had someone to stand up for me!”
“Mrs. Melbury would, I am sure.”
“Mrs. Melbury would, I’m sure.”
“Ay; but he wouldn’t hearken to she! It wants a younger face than hers to work upon such as he.”
“Ay; but he wouldn’t listen to her! It needs a younger face than hers to get through to someone like him.”
Grace started with comprehension. “You don’t think he would do it for me?” she said.
Grace began to understand. “You don’t think he would do it for me?” she asked.
“Oh, wouldn’t he!”
“Oh, wouldn’t he?!”
“I couldn’t go to him, Grammer, on any account. I don’t know him at all.”
“I can’t go to him, Grammer, for any reason. I don’t know him at all.”
“Ah, if I were a young lady,” said the artful Grammer, “and could save a poor old woman’s skellington from a heathen doctor instead of a Christian grave, I would do it, and be glad to. But nobody will do anything for a poor old familiar friend but push her out of the way.”
“Ah, if I were a young woman,” said the clever Grammer, “and could save a poor old woman's skeleton from a pagan doctor instead of a Christian grave, I would do it and be happy to. But no one will do anything for a poor old friend except push her aside.”
“You are very ungrateful, Grammer, to say that. But you are ill, I know, and that’s why you speak so. Now believe me, you are not going to die yet. Remember you told me yourself that you meant to keep him waiting many a year.”
“You're really ungrateful, Grammer, to say that. But I know you’re not feeling well, and that’s why you’re talking like this. Trust me, you’re not going to die anytime soon. Remember you said yourself that you planned to keep him waiting for many years.”
“Ay, one can joke when one is well, even in old age; but in sickness one’s gayety falters to grief; and that which seemed small looks large; and the grim far-off seems near.”
“Aye, you can joke when you’re doing well, even when you’re older; but in sickness, your cheer turns to sorrow; what seemed small feels big; and the distant, grim realities seem close.”
Grace’s eyes had tears in them. “I don’t like to go to him on such an errand, Grammer,” she said, brokenly. “But I will, to ease your mind.”
Grace's eyes were filled with tears. “I really don’t want to go to him for this, Grammer,” she said, her voice shaky. “But I will, to put your mind at ease.”
It was with extreme reluctance that Grace cloaked herself next morning for the undertaking. She was all the more indisposed to the journey by reason of Grammer’s allusion to the effect of a pretty face upon Dr. Fitzpiers; and hence she most illogically did that which, had the doctor never seen her, would have operated to stultify the sole motive of her journey; that is to say, she put on a woollen veil, which hid all her face except an occasional spark of her eyes.
It was with great reluctance that Grace got ready the next morning for the trip. She was even more hesitant about the journey because of Grammer’s comment about how a pretty face affected Dr. Fitzpiers; and so, quite illogically, she did something that, had the doctor never seen her, would have undermined the very reason for her journey. In other words, she put on a woollen veil that covered her entire face, leaving only the occasional glimmer of her eyes visible.
Her own wish that nothing should be known of this strange and grewsome proceeding, no less than Grammer Oliver’s own desire, led Grace to take every precaution against being discovered. She went out by the garden door as the safest way, all the household having occupations at the other side. The morning looked forbidding enough when she stealthily opened it. The battle between frost and thaw was continuing in mid-air: the trees dripped on the garden-plots, where no vegetables would grow for the dripping, though they were planted year after year with that curious mechanical regularity of country people in the face of hopelessness; the moss which covered the once broad gravel terrace was swamped; and Grace stood irresolute. Then she thought of poor Grammer, and her dreams of the doctor running after her, scalpel in hand, and the possibility of a case so curiously similar to South’s ending in the same way; thereupon she stepped out into the drizzle.
Her own wish to keep this strange and gruesome situation a secret, along with Grammer Oliver’s desire, made Grace take every precaution to avoid being discovered. She decided to go out through the garden door since it seemed the safest route, with everyone else busy on the other side. The morning looked pretty bleak as she quietly opened it. The battle between frost and thaw was still going on in the air: the trees dripped onto the garden beds, where no vegetables could grow due to the constant dripping, even though they were planted year after year with that peculiar, mechanical regularity typical of country folks facing hopelessness; the moss covering the once spacious gravel terrace was waterlogged; and Grace hesitated. Then she thought about poor Grammer and her unsettling dreams of the doctor chasing her with a scalpel, and the chance of a case ending in a manner eerily similar to South's; with that in mind, she stepped out into the drizzle.
The nature of her errand, and Grammer Oliver’s account of the compact she had made, lent a fascinating horror to Grace’s conception of Fitzpiers. She knew that he was a young man; but her single object in seeking an interview with him put all considerations of his age and social aspect from her mind. Standing as she stood, in Grammer Oliver’s shoes, he was simply a remorseless Jove of the sciences, who would not have mercy, and would have sacrifice; a man whom, save for this, she would have preferred to avoid knowing. But since, in such a small village, it was improbable that any long time could pass without their meeting, there was not much to deplore in her having to meet him now.
The nature of her task, along with Grammer Oliver’s explanation of the agreement she had made, added an intriguing sense of dread to Grace’s impression of Fitzpiers. She knew he was a young man; however, her sole purpose in wanting to meet him pushed all thoughts of his age and social status out of her mind. Standing in Grammer Oliver’s place, he appeared to her as a relentless god of science, who wouldn’t show mercy and demanded a sacrifice; a man she would have preferred to keep at a distance under different circumstances. But since it was unlikely they could avoid each other for long in such a small village, there wasn’t much to regret about having to see him now.
But, as need hardly be said, Miss Melbury’s view of the doctor as a merciless, unwavering, irresistible scientist was not quite in accordance with fact. The real Dr. Fitzpiers was a man of too many hobbies to show likelihood of rising to any great eminence in the profession he had chosen, or even to acquire any wide practice in the rural district he had marked out as his field of survey for the present. In the course of a year his mind was accustomed to pass in a grand solar sweep through all the zodiacal signs of the intellectual heaven. Sometimes it was in the Ram, sometimes in the Bull; one month he would be immersed in alchemy, another in poesy; one month in the Twins of astrology and astronomy; then in the Crab of German literature and metaphysics. In justice to him it must be stated that he took such studies as were immediately related to his own profession in turn with the rest, and it had been in a month of anatomical ardor without the possibility of a subject that he had proposed to Grammer Oliver the terms she had mentioned to her mistress.
But, as should be obvious, Miss Melbury’s perception of the doctor as a merciless, unwavering, and irresistible scientist wasn't entirely accurate. The real Dr. Fitzpiers was someone with too many interests to likely achieve any significant success in his chosen profession or even to establish a wide practice in the rural area he had selected for the time being. Over the course of a year, his mind would make a sweeping journey through all the different areas of intellectual thought. Sometimes he would be focused on one thing, sometimes on another; one month he might dive into alchemy, the next into poetry; one month he would explore the Twins of astrology and astronomy, and then move on to the Crab of German literature and metaphysics. To be fair, it should be noted that he studied topics directly related to his profession just as much as the others, and it was during a month of intense interest in anatomy, when he had no subject to work on, that he proposed to Grammer Oliver the terms she later mentioned to her mistress.
As may be inferred from the tone of his conversation with Winterborne, he had lately plunged into abstract philosophy with much zest; perhaps his keenly appreciative, modern, unpractical mind found this a realm more to his taste than any other. Though his aims were desultory, Fitzpiers’s mental constitution was not without its admirable side; a keen inquirer he honestly was, even if the midnight rays of his lamp, visible so far through the trees of Hintock, lighted rank literatures of emotion and passion as often as, or oftener than, the books and matériel of science.
As you can tell from how he spoke with Winterborne, he had recently dived into abstract philosophy with a lot of enthusiasm; maybe his sharp, modern, and somewhat impractical mind found this area more appealing than anything else. Even though his goals were scattered, Fitzpiers had some admirable qualities; he was a curious thinker, even if the late-night glow of his lamp, seen from a distance through the trees of Hintock, often illuminated emotional and passionate literature just as much, if not more than, the books and materials of science.
But whether he meditated the Muses or the philosophers, the loneliness of Hintock life was beginning to tell upon his impressionable nature. Winter in a solitary house in the country, without society, is tolerable, nay, even enjoyable and delightful, given certain conditions, but these are not the conditions which attach to the life of a professional man who drops down into such a place by mere accident. They were present to the lives of Winterborne, Melbury, and Grace; but not to the doctor’s. They are old association—an almost exhaustive biographical or historical acquaintance with every object, animate and inanimate, within the observer’s horizon. He must know all about those invisible ones of the days gone by, whose feet have traversed the fields which look so gray from his windows; recall whose creaking plough has turned those sods from time to time; whose hands planted the trees that form a crest to the opposite hill; whose horses and hounds have torn through that underwood; what birds affect that particular brake; what domestic dramas of love, jealousy, revenge, or disappointment have been enacted in the cottages, the mansion, the street, or on the green. The spot may have beauty, grandeur, salubrity, convenience; but if it lack memories it will ultimately pall upon him who settles there without opportunity of intercourse with his kind.
But whether he thought about the Muses or the philosophers, the loneliness of Hintock life was starting to impact his sensitive nature. Winter in a secluded house in the countryside, away from people, can be bearable, even enjoyable and delightful, under certain conditions. However, these aren't the kinds of conditions that come with the life of a professional man who ends up in such a place by chance. Those conditions were present in the lives of Winterborne, Melbury, and Grace, but not for the doctor. They involve old connections—an almost complete knowledge of the biographical or historical background of every living and non-living thing within the observer's view. He needs to know all about those unseen individuals from the past, whose footsteps have crossed the fields that look so gray from his windows; remember whose creaking plow has turned those soil patches from time to time; whose hands planted the trees that crown the opposite hill; whose horses and hounds have charged through that underbrush; what birds are found in that particular thicket; what domestic dramas of love, jealousy, revenge, or disappointment have played out in the cottages, the mansion, the street, or on the green. The place might have beauty, grandeur, healthiness, and convenience; but if it lacks memories, it will eventually become dull for anyone who settles there without the chance to interact with others.
In such circumstances, maybe, an old man dreams of an ideal friend, till he throws himself into the arms of any impostor who chooses to wear that title on his face. A young man may dream of an ideal friend likewise, but some humor of the blood will probably lead him to think rather of an ideal mistress, and at length the rustle of a woman’s dress, the sound of her voice, or the transit of her form across the field of his vision, will enkindle his soul with a flame that blinds his eyes.
In these situations, perhaps, an older man dreams of the perfect friend, until he ends up embracing any fraud who decides to take on that label. A young man might also dream of an ideal friend, but some instinct will likely steer him toward thinking about an ideal girlfriend, and eventually the swish of a woman’s dress, the sound of her voice, or the sight of her moving through his field of vision will ignite a passion in him that overwhelms him.
The discovery of the attractive Grace’s name and family would have been enough in other circumstances to lead the doctor, if not to put her personality out of his head, to change the character of his interest in her. Instead of treasuring her image as a rarity, he would at most have played with it as a toy. He was that kind of a man. But situated here he could not go so far as amative cruelty. He dismissed all reverential thought about her, but he could not help taking her seriously.
The discovery of Grace's impressive name and background would have typically led the doctor, if not to forget her entirely, at least to shift how he felt about her. Instead of cherishing her as something unique, he might have just treated her like a plaything. He was that kind of man. But given the current situation, he couldn’t be cruel in a romantic way. He let go of any idolization he had for her, but he couldn’t help but take her seriously.
He went on to imagine the impossible. So far, indeed, did he go in this futile direction that, as others are wont to do, he constructed dialogues and scenes in which Grace had turned out to be the mistress of Hintock Manor-house, the mysterious Mrs. Charmond, particularly ready and willing to be wooed by himself and nobody else. “Well, she isn’t that,” he said, finally. “But she’s a very sweet, nice, exceptional girl.”
He started to dream about the impossible. He went so far in this pointless direction that, like others often do, he created conversations and scenarios in which Grace turned out to be the owner of Hintock Manor, the mysterious Mrs. Charmond, who was particularly eager to be pursued by him and no one else. “Well, she isn’t that,” he finally said. “But she’s a really sweet, nice, exceptional girl.”
The next morning he breakfasted alone, as usual. It was snowing with a fine-flaked desultoriness just sufficient to make the woodland gray, without ever achieving whiteness. There was not a single letter for Fitzpiers, only a medical circular and a weekly newspaper.
The next morning he had breakfast alone, as usual. It was snowing lightly and aimlessly, just enough to make the woods look gray without actually covering them in white. There wasn't a single letter for Fitzpiers, just a medical circular and a weekly newspaper.
To sit before a large fire on such mornings, and read, and gradually acquire energy till the evening came, and then, with lamp alight, and feeling full of vigor, to pursue some engrossing subject or other till the small hours, had hitherto been his practice. But to-day he could not settle into his chair. That self-contained position he had lately occupied, in which the only attention demanded was the concentration of the inner eye, all outer regard being quite gratuitous, seemed to have been taken by insidious stratagem, and for the first time he had an interest outside the house. He walked from one window to another, and became aware that the most irksome of solitudes is not the solitude of remoteness, but that which is just outside desirable company.
To sit in front of a big fire on mornings like this, read, and gradually build up energy until evening came, and then, with the lamp on and feeling full of life, dive into some fascinating topic until the early hours, had been his routine until now. But today, he couldn’t settle into his chair. That comfortable position he had recently enjoyed, where the only focus required was on his inner thoughts—with no need to pay attention to the outside world—seemed to have been subtly disrupted, and for the first time, he felt an interest beyond the confines of his home. He walked from one window to another and realized that the worst kind of loneliness isn’t being far away from others, but being just outside the company you actually want.
The breakfast hour went by heavily enough, and the next followed, in the same half-snowy, half-rainy style, the weather now being the inevitable relapse which sooner or later succeeds a time too radiant for the season, such as they had enjoyed in the late midwinter at Hintock. To people at home there these changeful tricks had their interests; the strange mistakes that some of the more sanguine trees had made in budding before their month, to be incontinently glued up by frozen thawings now; the similar sanguine errors of impulsive birds in framing nests that were now swamped by snow-water, and other such incidents, prevented any sense of wearisomeness in the minds of the natives. But these were features of a world not familiar to Fitzpiers, and the inner visions to which he had almost exclusively attended having suddenly failed in their power to absorb him, he felt unutterably dreary.
The breakfast hour dragged on, and the next hour followed in the same mix of half-snow and half-rain, the weather now being the unavoidable downturn that inevitably comes after a spell that’s too bright for the season, like the late midwinter they’d enjoyed in Hintock. For those at home, these unpredictable weather quirks held interest; the unusual mistakes some of the overly optimistic trees made by budding early, only to be frozen up by sudden thawing; the similar hasty errors of eager birds trying to build nests now flooded by melting snow, and other incidents like these kept the locals from feeling bored. But these were aspects of a world that Fitzpiers wasn’t used to, and since the inner thoughts he usually focused on had suddenly lost their ability to hold his attention, he felt deeply miserable.
He wondered how long Miss Melbury was going to stay in Hintock. The season was unpropitious for accidental encounters with her out-of-doors, and except by accident he saw not how they were to become acquainted. One thing was clear—any acquaintance with her could only, with a due regard to his future, be casual, at most of the nature of a flirtation; for he had high aims, and they would some day lead him into other spheres than this.
He wondered how long Miss Melbury would be staying in Hintock. The weather wasn't great for running into her outside, and it seemed unlikely they would get to know each other unless by chance. One thing was clear—any relationship with her should only be casual, at most a flirtation; he had big goals, and they would eventually take him to other places beyond this.
Thus desultorily thinking he flung himself down upon the couch, which, as in many draughty old country houses, was constructed with a hood, being in fact a legitimate development from the settle. He tried to read as he reclined, but having sat up till three o’clock that morning, the book slipped from his hand and he fell asleep.
Thus distractedly thinking, he threw himself down on the couch, which, like many drafty old country houses, had a hood and was basically an upgraded version of a settle. He attempted to read while lying back, but after staying up until three that morning, the book slipped from his hand and he fell asleep.
CHAPTER XVIII.
It was at this time that Grace approached the house. Her knock, always soft in virtue of her nature, was softer to-day by reason of her strange errand. However, it was heard by the farmer’s wife who kept the house, and Grace was admitted. Opening the door of the doctor’s room the housewife glanced in, and imagining Fitzpiers absent, asked Miss Melbury to enter and wait a few minutes while she should go and find him, believing him to be somewhere on the premises. Grace acquiesced, went in, and sat down close to the door.
It was around this time that Grace approached the house. Her knock, always gentle because of her nature, was even softer today because of her unusual task. However, the farmer’s wife who managed the house heard it and let Grace inside. As she opened the door to the doctor’s room, the housewife peeked in, assuming Fitzpiers wasn't there, and asked Miss Melbury to come in and wait a few minutes while she went to find him, thinking he was somewhere nearby. Grace agreed, went in, and sat down near the door.
As soon as the door was shut upon her she looked round the room, and started at perceiving a handsome man snugly ensconced in the couch, like the recumbent figure within some canopied mural tomb of the fifteenth century, except that his hands were by no means clasped in prayer. She had no doubt that this was the doctor. Awaken him herself she could not, and her immediate impulse was to go and pull the broad ribbon with a brass rosette which hung at one side of the fireplace. But expecting the landlady to re-enter in a moment she abandoned this intention, and stood gazing in great embarrassment at the reclining philosopher.
As soon as the door closed behind her, she looked around the room and gasped when she saw a handsome man comfortably settled on the couch, like a figure lying in a canopied mural tomb from the fifteenth century, except his hands weren’t clasped in prayer. She immediately realized this must be the doctor. She couldn't wake him up herself, and her first thought was to pull the broad ribbon with a brass rosette hanging at one side of the fireplace. But since she expected the landlady to come back any moment, she dropped that idea and stood there, feeling very embarrassed as she stared at the lounging philosopher.
The windows of Fitzpiers’s soul being at present shuttered, he probably appeared less impressive than in his hours of animation; but the light abstracted from his material presence by sleep was more than counterbalanced by the mysterious influence of that state, in a stranger, upon the consciousness of a beholder so sensitive. So far as she could criticise at all, she became aware that she had encountered a specimen of creation altogether unusual in that locality. The occasions on which Grace had observed men of this stamp were when she had been far removed away from Hintock, and even then such examples as had met her eye were at a distance, and mainly of coarser fibre than the one who now confronted her.
The windows to Fitzpiers’s soul were currently closed off, making him likely appear less impressive than when he was lively; however, the sleep that took away from his physical presence was more than compensated for by the intriguing effect that state had on the awareness of an observer as sensitive as her. As much as she could evaluate, she realized she had come across someone completely unusual for that area. The times when Grace had seen men like him were when she was far away from Hintock, and even then, the examples she had encountered were at a distance and mostly coarser than the man standing in front of her now.
She nervously wondered why the woman had not discovered her mistake and returned, and went again towards the bell-pull. Approaching the chimney her back was to Fitzpiers, but she could see him in the glass. An indescribable thrill passed through her as she perceived that the eyes of the reflected image were open, gazing wonderingly at her, and under the curious unexpectedness of the sight she became as if spellbound, almost powerless to turn her head and regard the original. However, by an effort she did turn, when there he lay asleep the same as before.
She nervously wondered why the woman hadn't noticed her mistake and come back, and she went over to the bell-pull again. As she approached the chimney, her back was to Fitzpiers, but she could see him in the glass. An indescribable thrill went through her when she noticed that the eyes in the reflection were open, looking at her in surprise, and the unexpectedness of the sight left her almost spellbound, nearly unable to turn her head to look at the real person. Still, with some effort, she did turn, and there he was, asleep just as before.
Her startled perplexity as to what he could be meaning was sufficient to lead her to precipitately abandon her errand. She crossed quickly to the door, opened and closed it noiselessly, and went out of the house unobserved. By the time that she had gone down the path and through the garden door into the lane she had recovered her equanimity. Here, screened by the hedge, she stood and considered a while.
Her surprised confusion about what he might mean was enough to make her quickly abandon her task. She hurried to the door, opened and closed it silently, and left the house without being seen. By the time she made it down the path and through the garden gate into the lane, she had calmed down. Here, hidden by the hedge, she paused and thought for a while.
Drip, drip, drip, fell the rain upon her umbrella and around; she had come out on such a morning because of the seriousness of the matter in hand; yet now she had allowed her mission to be stultified by a momentary tremulousness concerning an incident which perhaps had meant nothing after all.
Drip, drip, drip, the rain fell on her umbrella and all around; she had stepped outside on such a morning because the matter at hand was important; yet now she had let her mission be derailed by a brief moment of uncertainty over an incident that might not have meant anything after all.
In the mean time her departure from the room, stealthy as it had been, had roused Fitzpiers, and he sat up. In the reflection from the mirror which Grace had beheld there was no mystery; he had opened his eyes for a few moments, but had immediately relapsed into unconsciousness, if, indeed, he had ever been positively awake. That somebody had just left the room he was certain, and that the lovely form which seemed to have visited him in a dream was no less than the real presentation of the person departed he could hardly doubt.
Meanwhile, her quiet exit from the room had woken Fitzpiers, and he sat up. In the reflection from the mirror that Grace had looked into, there was no mystery; he had opened his eyes for a moment but had quickly fallen back into unconsciousness, if he had even truly been awake. He was sure that someone had just left the room, and he could hardly doubt that the beautiful figure that seemed to have come to him in a dream was just as real as the person who had departed.
Looking out of the window a few minutes later, down the box-edged gravel-path which led to the bottom, he saw the garden door gently open, and through it enter the young girl of his thoughts, Grace having just at this juncture determined to return and attempt the interview a second time. That he saw her coming instead of going made him ask himself if his first impression of her were not a dream indeed. She came hesitatingly along, carrying her umbrella so low over her head that he could hardly see her face. When she reached the point where the raspberry bushes ended and the strawberry bed began, she made a little pause.
Looking out the window a few minutes later, down the gravel path bordered by boxes that led to the bottom, he saw the garden door slowly open, and through it walked the girl he had been thinking about, Grace, who had decided to come back and try the conversation again. Seeing her approach instead of leave made him wonder if his first impression of her had been just a dream. She walked hesitantly, holding her umbrella so low over her head that he could barely see her face. When she got to the spot where the raspberry bushes ended and the strawberry patch began, she paused for a moment.
Fitzpiers feared that she might not be coming to him even now, and hastily quitting the room, he ran down the path to meet her. The nature of her errand he could not divine, but he was prepared to give her any amount of encouragement.
Fitzpiers worried that she might not be coming to see him even now, and quickly leaving the room, he ran down the path to meet her. He couldn't figure out the reason for her visit, but he was ready to offer her all the encouragement she needed.
“I beg pardon, Miss Melbury,” he said. “I saw you from the window, and fancied you might imagine that I was not at home—if it is I you were coming for.”
“I’m sorry, Miss Melbury,” he said. “I saw you from the window and thought you might think I wasn’t home—if you were coming to see me.”
“I was coming to speak one word to you, nothing more,” she replied. “And I can say it here.”
“I came to say one word to you, nothing more,” she replied. “And I can say it here.”
“No, no. Please do come in. Well, then, if you will not come into the house, come as far as the porch.”
“No, no. Please come in. If you won't come inside, then at least come as far as the porch.”
Thus pressed she went on to the porch, and they stood together inside it, Fitzpiers closing her umbrella for her.
Thus pressured, she went onto the porch, and they stood together inside it, Fitzpiers closing her umbrella for her.
“I have merely a request or petition to make,” she said. “My father’s servant is ill—a woman you know—and her illness is serious.”
“I just have a request to make,” she said. “My father’s servant is sick—a woman you know—and her illness is serious.”
“I am sorry to hear it. You wish me to come and see her at once?”
“I’m sorry to hear that. Do you want me to come and see her right away?”
“No; I particularly wish you not to come.”
“No, I really don’t want you to come.”
“Oh, indeed.”
"Oh, for sure."
“Yes; and she wishes the same. It would make her seriously worse if you were to come. It would almost kill her....My errand is of a peculiar and awkward nature. It is concerning a subject which weighs on her mind—that unfortunate arrangement she made with you, that you might have her body—after death.”
“Yeah; and she feels the same way. It would really hurt her if you came. It would almost be like a death sentence for her....My reason for coming is a bit strange and uncomfortable. It’s about something that’s been bothering her—that unfortunate deal she made with you, that you could have her body—after she dies.”
“Oh! Grammer Oliver, the old woman with the fine head. Seriously ill, is she!”
“Oh! Grammar Oliver, the old woman with the beautiful hair. Is she seriously ill?”
“And so disturbed by her rash compact! I have brought the money back—will you please return to her the agreement she signed?” Grace held out to him a couple of five-pound notes which she had kept ready tucked in her glove.
“And so upset by her hasty decision! I brought the money back—can you please give her back the agreement she signed?” Grace held out a couple of five-pound notes that she had kept ready tucked in her glove.
Without replying or considering the notes, Fitzpiers allowed his thoughts to follow his eyes, and dwell upon Grace’s personality, and the sudden close relation in which he stood to her. The porch was narrow; the rain increased. It ran off the porch and dripped on the creepers, and from the creepers upon the edge of Grace’s cloak and skirts.
Without replying or considering the notes, Fitzpiers let his thoughts follow his gaze and linger on Grace’s personality and the unexpected closeness he felt to her. The porch was narrow, and the rain was getting heavier. It poured off the porch and dripped onto the plants, which then splashed onto the edge of Grace’s cloak and skirts.
“The rain is wetting your dress; please do come in,” he said. “It really makes my heart ache to let you stay here.”
“The rain is soaking your dress; please come inside,” he said. “It honestly breaks my heart to see you out here.”
Immediately inside the front door was the door of his sitting-room; he flung it open, and stood in a coaxing attitude. Try how she would, Grace could not resist the supplicatory mandate written in the face and manner of this man, and distressful resignation sat on her as she glided past him into the room—brushing his coat with her elbow by reason of the narrowness.
Immediately inside the front door was the door to his living room; he swung it open and positioned himself in a pleading manner. No matter how hard she tried, Grace couldn't ignore the desperate request shown on this man's face and in his behavior, and a sense of resigned distress settled over her as she breezed past him into the room—nudging his coat with her elbow because of the tight space.
He followed her, shut the door—which she somehow had hoped he would leave open—and placing a chair for her, sat down. The concern which Grace felt at the development of these commonplace incidents was, of course, mainly owing to the strange effect upon her nerves of that view of him in the mirror gazing at her with open eyes when she had thought him sleeping, which made her fancy that his slumber might have been a feint based on inexplicable reasons.
He followed her, shut the door—which she somehow had hoped he would leave open—and, after placing a chair for her, sat down. The concern Grace felt about the way these ordinary events were unfolding was mainly due to the strange effect on her nerves from seeing him in the mirror, looking at her with wide-open eyes when she had thought he was asleep. This made her wonder if his slumber was just an act for reasons she couldn't understand.
She again proffered the notes; he awoke from looking at her as at a piece of live statuary, and listened deferentially as she said, “Will you then reconsider, and cancel the bond which poor Grammer Oliver so foolishly gave?”
She offered the notes once more; he snapped back to reality, having been staring at her like she was a living statue, and listened respectfully as she said, “Will you reconsider and cancel the bond that poor Grammer Oliver so foolishly signed?”
“I’ll cancel it without reconsideration. Though you will allow me to have my own opinion about her foolishness. Grammer is a very wise woman, and she was as wise in that as in other things. You think there was something very fiendish in the compact, do you not, Miss Melbury? But remember that the most eminent of our surgeons in past times have entered into such agreements.”
“I'll cancel it without a second thought. But you'll let me have my own opinion about her silliness. Grammer is a very wise woman, and she was just as wise about this as she is in other matters. You believe there was something really malicious in the agreement, don't you, Miss Melbury? But keep in mind that some of our most respected surgeons in the past have made similar deals.”
“Not fiendish—strange.”
“Not evil—just weird.”
“Yes, that may be, since strangeness is not in the nature of a thing, but in its relation to something extrinsic—in this case an unessential observer.”
“Yeah, that could be true, since strangeness isn’t inherent to a thing itself, but depends on its relationship to something outside of it—in this case, an irrelevant observer.”
He went to his desk, and searching a while found a paper, which be unfolded and brought to her. A thick cross appeared in ink at the bottom—evidently from the hand of Grammer. Grace put the paper in her pocket with a look of much relief.
He went to his desk and, after searching for a while, found a piece of paper, which he unfolded and handed to her. A thick cross was drawn in ink at the bottom—clearly by Grammer. Grace put the paper in her pocket, looking visibly relieved.
As Fitzpiers did not take up the money (half of which had come from Grace’s own purse), she pushed it a little nearer to him. “No, no. I shall not take it from the old woman,” he said. “It is more strange than the fact of a surgeon arranging to obtain a subject for dissection that our acquaintance should be formed out of it.”
As Fitzpiers didn’t take the money (half of which had come from Grace’s own wallet), she pushed it a little closer to him. “No, no. I won’t take it from the old woman,” he said. “It’s stranger than the idea of a surgeon arranging to get a body for dissection that our friendship came out of this.”
“I am afraid you think me uncivil in showing my dislike to the notion. But I did not mean to be.”
"I’m sorry if you think I'm being rude by expressing my dislike for the idea. That wasn’t my intention."
“Oh no, no.” He looked at her, as he had done before, with puzzled interest. “I cannot think, I cannot think,” he murmured. “Something bewilders me greatly.” He still reflected and hesitated. “Last night I sat up very late,” he at last went on, “and on that account I fell into a little nap on that couch about half an hour ago. And during my few minutes of unconsciousness I dreamed—what do you think?—that you stood in the room.”
“Oh no, no.” He looked at her, as he had before, with a mix of curiosity and confusion. “I can’t think, I can’t think,” he said softly. “Something is really confusing me.” He paused, still deep in thought. “Last night I stayed up really late,” he finally continued, “and because of that, I dozed off on that couch about thirty minutes ago. And during those few minutes of sleep, I dreamed—guess what?—that you were standing in the room.”
Should she tell? She merely blushed.
Should she say something? She just blushed.
“You may imagine,” Fitzpiers continued, now persuaded that it had, indeed, been a dream, “that I should not have dreamed of you without considerable thinking about you first.”
“You might think,” Fitzpiers continued, now convinced that it had really just been a dream, “that I wouldn’t have dreamed of you without giving you a lot of thought first.”
He could not be acting; of that she felt assured.
He couldn't be pretending; she was sure of that.
“I fancied in my vision that you stood there,” he said, pointing to where she had paused. “I did not see you directly, but reflected in the glass. I thought, what a lovely creature! The design is for once carried out. Nature has at last recovered her lost union with the Idea! My thoughts ran in that direction because I had been reading the work of a transcendental philosopher last night; and I dare say it was the dose of Idealism that I received from it that made me scarcely able to distinguish between reality and fancy. I almost wept when I awoke, and found that you had appeared to me in Time, but not in Space, alas!”
“I imagined in my mind that you were standing there,” he said, pointing to where she had stopped. “I didn’t see you directly, but I saw your reflection in the glass. I thought, what a beautiful person! The design has finally come to life. Nature has finally restored her lost connection with the Idea! I was thinking along those lines because I had been reading a transcendental philosopher's work last night; and I bet it was the dose of Idealism I got from it that made it hard for me to tell the difference between reality and imagination. I almost cried when I woke up and realized that you had appeared to me in Time, but not in Space, unfortunately!”
At moments there was something theatrical in the delivery of Fitzpiers’s effusion; yet it would have been inexact to say that it was intrinsically theatrical. It often happens that in situations of unrestraint, where there is no thought of the eye of criticism, real feeling glides into a mode of manifestation not easily distinguishable from rodomontade. A veneer of affectation overlies a bulk of truth, with the evil consequence, if perceived, that the substance is estimated by the superficies, and the whole rejected.
At times, there was something dramatic in how Fitzpiers expressed himself; however, it wouldn't be accurate to say it was purely theatrical. This often occurs in moments of unguarded emotion, where there’s no concern about being judged, and genuine feelings can come across in a way that resembles boasting. A layer of pretentiousness can cover a lot of truth, which can lead to the negative outcome, if noticed, that the true essence is judged by the surface, and everything is dismissed.
Grace, however, was no specialist in men’s manners, and she admired the sentiment without thinking of the form. And she was embarrassed: “lovely creature” made explanation awkward to her gentle modesty.
Grace, however, wasn't an expert in how men behaved, and she appreciated the sentiment without considering the way it was expressed. She felt embarrassed: "lovely creature" made it awkward for her gentle modesty to explain.
“But can it be,” said he, suddenly, “that you really were here?”
“But can it be,” he said suddenly, “that you were really here?”
“I have to confess that I have been in the room once before,” faltered she. “The woman showed me in, and went away to fetch you; but as she did not return, I left.”
“I have to admit that I’ve been in this room before,” she hesitated. “The woman let me in and went to get you; but since she didn’t come back, I left.”
“And you saw me asleep,” he murmured, with the faintest show of humiliation.
“And you saw me sleeping,” he murmured, with the slightest hint of embarrassment.
“Yes—if you were asleep, and did not deceive me.”
“Yes—if you were asleep and didn’t trick me.”
“Why do you say if?”
“Why do you say that?”
“I saw your eyes open in the glass, but as they were closed when I looked round upon you, I thought you were perhaps deceiving me.
“I saw your eyes reflected in the glass, but since they were closed when I turned to look at you, I thought you might be tricking me.
“Never,” said Fitzpiers, fervently—“never could I deceive you.”
“Never,” said Fitzpiers, passionately—“I could never deceive you.”
Foreknowledge to the distance of a year or so in either of them might have spoiled the effect of that pretty speech. Never deceive her! But they knew nothing, and the phrase had its day.
Foreknowledge about a year in advance for either of them could have ruined the impact of that nice speech. Never trick her! But they were unaware of anything, and the phrase had its moment.
Grace began now to be anxious to terminate the interview, but the compelling power of Fitzpiers’s atmosphere still held her there. She was like an inexperienced actress who, having at last taken up her position on the boards, and spoken her speeches, does not know how to move off. The thought of Grammer occurred to her. “I’ll go at once and tell poor Grammer of your generosity,” she said. “It will relieve her at once.”
Grace was now eager to end the conversation, but Fitzpiers’s captivating presence kept her there. She felt like a new actress who, having finally stepped onto the stage and delivered her lines, didn’t know how to exit. The thought of Grammer crossed her mind. “I’ll go right away and tell poor Grammer about your generosity,” she said. “It will put her mind at ease.”
“Grammer’s a nervous disease, too—how singular!” he answered, accompanying her to the door. “One moment; look at this—it is something which may interest you.”
“Grammar’s a nervous thing, too—how strange!” he replied, walking her to the door. “Just a second; take a look at this—it’s something that might interest you.”
He had thrown open the door on the other side of the passage, and she saw a microscope on the table of the confronting room. “Look into it, please; you’ll be interested,” he repeated.
He had swung the door wide open on the other side of the hallway, and she spotted a microscope on the table in the room across from her. “Take a look, please; you’ll find it interesting,” he said again.
She applied her eye, and saw the usual circle of light patterned all over with a cellular tissue of some indescribable sort. “What do you think that is?” said Fitzpiers.
She looked closely and saw the familiar circle of light covered in a cellular pattern of some kind. “What do you think that is?” Fitzpiers asked.
She did not know.
She didn’t know.
“That’s a fragment of old John South’s brain, which I am investigating.”
"That's a piece of old John South's brain that I'm looking into."
She started back, not with aversion, but with wonder as to how it should have got there. Fitzpiers laughed.
She stepped back, not out of dislike, but out of curiosity about how it ended up there. Fitzpiers laughed.
“Here am I,” he said, “endeavoring to carry on simultaneously the study of physiology and transcendental philosophy, the material world and the ideal, so as to discover if possible a point of contrast between them; and your finer sense is quite offended!”
“Here I am,” he said, “trying to study both physiology and transcendental philosophy at the same time, the material world and the ideal, to see if I can find a point of contrast between them; and your sensitive nature is clearly upset!”
“Oh no, Mr. Fitzpiers,” said Grace, earnestly. “It is not so at all. I know from seeing your light at night how deeply you meditate and work. Instead of condemning you for your studies, I admire you very much!”
“Oh no, Mr. Fitzpiers,” Grace said earnestly. “That’s not it at all. I can tell from seeing your light at night how deeply you think and work. Instead of judging you for your studies, I really admire you!”
Her face, upturned from the microscope, was so sweet, sincere, and self-forgetful in its aspect that the susceptible Fitzpiers more than wished to annihilate the lineal yard which separated it from his own. Whether anything of the kind showed in his eyes or not, Grace remained no longer at the microscope, but quickly went her way into the rain.
Her face, turning away from the microscope, was so sweet, genuine, and lost in thought that the sensitive Fitzpiers couldn't help but want to close the distance between them. Whether or not that desire was clear in his eyes, Grace didn’t stay at the microscope any longer and quickly walked away into the rain.
CHAPTER XIX.
Instead of resuming his investigation of South’s brain, which perhaps was not so interesting under the microscope as might have been expected from the importance of that organ in life, Fitzpiers reclined and ruminated on the interview. Grace’s curious susceptibility to his presence, though it was as if the currents of her life were disturbed rather than attracted by him, added a special interest to her general charm. Fitzpiers was in a distinct degree scientific, being ready and zealous to interrogate all physical manifestations, but primarily he was an idealist. He believed that behind the imperfect lay the perfect; that rare things were to be discovered amid a bulk of commonplace; that results in a new and untried case might be different from those in other cases where the conditions had been precisely similar. Regarding his own personality as one of unbounded possibilities, because it was his own—notwithstanding that the factors of his life had worked out a sorry product for thousands—he saw nothing but what was regular in his discovery at Hintock of an altogether exceptional being of the other sex, who for nobody else would have had any existence.
Instead of continuing his investigation of South’s brain, which maybe wasn’t as fascinating under the microscope as one would expect given how important that organ is in life, Fitzpiers lay back and thought about the interview. Grace’s odd sensitivity to his presence, as if her life was disturbed rather than drawn in by him, added a unique interest to her overall charm. Fitzpiers was somewhat scientific; he was eager and keen to explore all physical manifestations, but mainly he was an idealist. He believed that behind the imperfect lies the perfect; that rare things can be found among a sea of the ordinary; that outcomes in a new and untested case might be different from those in other cases with similar conditions. He saw his own personality as full of limitless possibilities because it was his own—despite the fact that the elements of his life had led to a disappointing result for thousands—he found nothing but what was ordinary in his discovery at Hintock of an exceptional woman, who wouldn’t have existed for anyone else.
One habit of Fitzpiers’s—commoner in dreamers of more advanced age than in men of his years—was that of talking to himself. He paced round his room with a selective tread upon the more prominent blooms of the carpet, and murmured, “This phenomenal girl will be the light of my life while I am at Hintock; and the special beauty of the situation is that our attitude and relations to each other will be purely spiritual. Socially we can never be intimate. Anything like matrimonial intentions towards her, charming as she is, would be absurd. They would spoil the ethereal character of my regard. And, indeed, I have other aims on the practical side of my life.”
One habit of Fitzpiers—a trait seen more often in older dreamers than in men his age—was that he talked to himself. He walked around his room with a careful stride on the standout patterns of the carpet and murmured, “This amazing girl will be the light of my life while I’m at Hintock; and the best part is that our relationship will be completely spiritual. We can never be socially close. Any thoughts of marriage with her, as wonderful as she is, would be ridiculous. They would ruin the unique nature of my feelings for her. Plus, I have other practical goals in my life.”
Fitzpiers bestowed a regulation thought on the advantageous marriage he was bound to make with a woman of family as good as his own, and of purse much longer. But as an object of contemplation for the present, as objective spirit rather than corporeal presence, Grace Melbury would serve to keep his soul alive, and to relieve the monotony of his days.
Fitzpiers considered the practical marriage he needed to make with a woman from a family as good as his own and with much deeper pockets. But for now, as something to think about, more of an ideal than a physical presence, Grace Melbury would help keep his spirit alive and break the monotony of his days.
His first notion—acquired from the mere sight of her without converse—that of an idle and vulgar flirtation with a timber-merchant’s pretty daughter, grated painfully upon him now that he had found what Grace intrinsically was. Personal intercourse with such as she could take no lower form than intellectual communion, and mutual explorations of the world of thought. Since he could not call at her father’s, having no practical views, cursory encounters in the lane, in the wood, coming and going to and from church, or in passing her dwelling, were what the acquaintance would have to feed on.
His first impression—just from seeing her without talking—was that she was just a shallow and common flirt with a pretty daughter of a timber merchant. But now that he understood who Grace really was, that view felt painfully inadequate. Interacting with someone like her could only be on an intellectual level, engaging in deep conversations and exploring ideas together. Since he couldn't visit her father's place, having no real intentions, their relationship would have to rely on brief encounters in the lane, in the woods, on their way to church, or when passing by her home.
Such anticipated glimpses of her now and then realized themselves in the event. Rencounters of not more than a minute’s duration, frequently repeated, will build up mutual interest, even an intimacy, in a lonely place. Theirs grew as imperceptibly as the tree-twigs budded. There never was a particular moment at which it could be said they became friends; yet a delicate understanding now existed between two who in the winter had been strangers.
Such expected glimpses of her would occasionally become real during the event. Encounters lasting no more than a minute, repeated often, can create mutual interest and even a bond in a lonely place. Their connection grew as subtly as the buds on tree branches. There was never a specific moment when it could be said they became friends; yet now a gentle understanding existed between the two who had been strangers in the winter.
Spring weather came on rather suddenly, the unsealing of buds that had long been swollen accomplishing itself in the space of one warm night. The rush of sap in the veins of the trees could almost be heard. The flowers of late April took up a position unseen, and looked as if they had been blooming a long while, though there had been no trace of them the day before yesterday; birds began not to mind getting wet. In-door people said they had heard the nightingale, to which out-door people replied contemptuously that they had heard him a fortnight before.
Spring weather arrived unexpectedly, with the buds that had swollen for so long bursting open overnight during a warm night. You could almost hear the rush of sap flowing through the trees. The flowers of late April popped up out of nowhere, seeming like they had been blooming for ages, even though there had been no sign of them just two days prior; birds started to not care about getting wet. People inside claimed they had heard the nightingale, while those outside scoffed that they'd heard it two weeks earlier.
The young doctor’s practice being scarcely so large as a London surgeon’s, he frequently walked in the wood. Indeed such practice as he had he did not follow up with the assiduity that would have been necessary for developing it to exceptional proportions. One day, book in hand, he walked in a part of the wood where the trees were mainly oaks. It was a calm afternoon, and there was everywhere around that sign of great undertakings on the part of vegetable nature which is apt to fill reflective human beings who are not undertaking much themselves with a sudden uneasiness at the contrast. He heard in the distance a curious sound, something like the quack of a duck, which, though it was common enough here about this time, was not common to him.
The young doctor’s practice was much smaller than that of a London surgeon, so he often took walks in the woods. In fact, he didn’t put in the effort necessary to grow his practice to impressive levels. One day, with a book in hand, he strolled through a part of the woods dominated by oak trees. It was a peaceful afternoon, and all around him was the evidence of nature’s grandeur, which tends to fill thoughtful people, who aren't doing much themselves, with a sudden unease at the contrast. In the distance, he heard a strange sound, something like a duck quacking, which, although it was pretty common around this time, was unfamiliar to him.
Looking through the trees Fitzpiers soon perceived the origin of the noise. The barking season had just commenced, and what he had heard was the tear of the ripping tool as it ploughed its way along the sticky parting between the trunk and the rind. Melbury did a large business in bark, and as he was Grace’s father, and possibly might be found on the spot, Fitzpiers was attracted to the scene even more than he might have been by its intrinsic interest. When he got nearer he recognized among the workmen the two Timothys, and Robert Creedle, who probably had been “lent” by Winterborne; Marty South also assisted.
Looking through the trees, Fitzpiers quickly figured out where the noise was coming from. The barking season had just started, and what he heard was the sound of the ripping tool working its way along the sticky gap between the trunk and the bark. Melbury ran a big bark business, and since he was Grace’s father and might be around, Fitzpiers was even more drawn to the scene than he would have been just because it was interesting. As he got closer, he saw among the workers the two Timothys and Robert Creedle, who probably had been “borrowed” from Winterborne; Marty South was also helping out.
Each tree doomed to this flaying process was first attacked by Creedle. With a small billhook he carefully freed the collar of the tree from twigs and patches of moss which incrusted it to a height of a foot or two above the ground, an operation comparable to the “little toilet” of the executioner’s victim. After this it was barked in its erect position to a point as high as a man could reach. If a fine product of vegetable nature could ever be said to look ridiculous it was the case now, when the oak stood naked-legged, and as if ashamed, till the axe-man came and cut a ring round it, and the two Timothys finished the work with the crosscut-saw.
Each tree doomed to this stripping process was first attacked by Creedle. Using a small billhook, he carefully cleared the base of the tree from twigs and patches of moss that clung to it up to a height of a foot or two above the ground, an action similar to the "little grooming" of an executioner's victim. After this, it was stripped of bark while still standing, up to a height a person could reach. If a fine specimen of nature could ever be described as looking silly, it was now, when the oak stood bare-legged, almost as if embarrassed, until the axe-man came and cut a ring around it, and the two Timothys finished the job with the crosscut saw.
As soon as it had fallen the barkers attacked it like locusts, and in a short time not a particle of rind was left on the trunk and larger limbs. Marty South was an adept at peeling the upper parts, and there she stood encaged amid the mass of twigs and buds like a great bird, running her tool into the smallest branches, beyond the farthest points to which the skill and patience of the men enabled them to proceed—branches which, in their lifetime, had swayed high above the bulk of the wood, and caught the latest and earliest rays of the sun and moon while the lower part of the forest was still in darkness.
As soon as it fell, the barkers attacked it like swarms of locusts, and before long, not a single piece of bark was left on the trunk and larger limbs. Marty South was really good at peeling the upper parts, and there she stood caught among the mass of twigs and buds like a large bird, using her tool to reach into the smallest branches, beyond what the skill and patience of the men allowed them to manage—branches that, in their lifetime, had swayed high above the bulk of the trees, catching the first and last rays of the sun and moon while the lower part of the forest was still in darkness.
“You seem to have a better instrument than they, Marty,” said Fitzpiers.
“You seem to have a better tool than they do, Marty,” said Fitzpiers.
“No, sir,” she said, holding up the tool—a horse’s leg-bone fitted into a handle and filed to an edge—“’tis only that they’ve less patience with the twigs, because their time is worth more than mine.”
“No, sir,” she said, holding up the tool—a horse’s leg bone fitted into a handle and sharpened to an edge—“it’s just that they have less patience with the twigs because their time is more valuable than mine.”
A little shed had been constructed on the spot, of thatched hurdles and boughs, and in front of it was a fire, over which a kettle sung. Fitzpiers sat down inside the shelter, and went on with his reading, except when he looked up to observe the scene and the actors. The thought that he might settle here and become welded in with this sylvan life by marrying Grace Melbury crossed his mind for a moment. Why should he go farther into the world than where he was? The secret of quiet happiness lay in limiting the ideas and aspirations; these men’s thoughts were conterminous with the margin of the Hintock woodlands, and why should not his be likewise limited—a small practice among the people around him being the bound of his desires?
A small shed had been built right there, made of thatched hurdles and branches, and in front of it was a fire with a kettle whistling. Fitzpiers sat inside the shelter, continuing his reading, only pausing to take in the scene and the people around him. For a moment, he considered the idea of settling down here and blending into this rural life by marrying Grace Melbury. Why should he venture further into the world than where he was? The key to peaceful happiness was in keeping his ideas and ambitions in check; these men’s thoughts were limited to the edges of the Hintock woodlands, so why couldn’t his be the same—a small practice serving the people nearby as the boundary of his desires?
Presently Marty South discontinued her operations upon the quivering boughs, came out from the reclining oak, and prepared tea. When it was ready the men were called; and Fitzpiers being in a mood to join, sat down with them.
Currently, Marty South stopped her work on the shaking branches, came out from the leaning oak, and made tea. When it was ready, the men were called, and since Fitzpiers was in the mood to join, he sat down with them.
The latent reason of his lingering here so long revealed itself when the faint creaking of the joints of a vehicle became audible, and one of the men said, “Here’s he.” Turning their heads they saw Melbury’s gig approaching, the wheels muffled by the yielding moss.
The hidden reason he had been staying here for so long became clear when the quiet creaking of a vehicle's joints could be heard, and one of the men said, “Here he is.” They turned their heads and saw Melbury’s gig coming closer, the wheels softened by the thick moss.
The timber-merchant was on foot leading the horse, looking back at every few steps to caution his daughter, who kept her seat, where and how to duck her head so as to avoid the overhanging branches. They stopped at the spot where the bark-ripping had been temporarily suspended; Melbury cursorily examined the heaps of bark, and drawing near to where the workmen were sitting down, accepted their shouted invitation to have a dish of tea, for which purpose he hitched the horse to a bough. Grace declined to take any of their beverage, and remained in her place in the vehicle, looking dreamily at the sunlight that came in thin threads through the hollies with which the oaks were interspersed.
The timber merchant was walking with the horse, glancing back every few steps to remind his daughter to duck her head to avoid the low-hanging branches. They stopped at the spot where the bark stripping had paused; Melbury quickly checked the piles of bark and, moving closer to where the workers were sitting, accepted their invitation to have a cup of tea, which he made convenient by tying the horse to a branch. Grace chose not to take any of their drink and stayed in her spot in the vehicle, gazing dreamily at the sunlight filtering through the holly trees mixed among the oaks.
When Melbury stepped up close to the shelter, he for the first time perceived that the doctor was present, and warmly appreciated Fitzpiers’s invitation to sit down on the log beside him.
When Melbury got close to the shelter, he noticed for the first time that the doctor was there, and he gratefully accepted Fitzpiers’s invitation to sit down on the log next to him.
“Bless my heart, who would have thought of finding you here,” he said, obviously much pleased at the circumstance. “I wonder now if my daughter knows you are so nigh at hand. I don’t expect she do.”
“Bless my heart, who would have thought I’d find you here,” he said, clearly very pleased with the situation. “I wonder if my daughter knows you’re so close by. I don’t think she does.”
He looked out towards the gig wherein Grace sat, her face still turned in the opposite direction. “She doesn’t see us. Well, never mind: let her be.”
He looked out at the carriage where Grace was sitting, her face still turned away. “She doesn’t see us. Well, whatever: let her be.”
Grace was indeed quite unconscious of Fitzpiers’s propinquity. She was thinking of something which had little connection with the scene before her—thinking of her friend, lost as soon as found, Mrs. Charmond; of her capricious conduct, and of the contrasting scenes she was possibly enjoying at that very moment in other climes, to which Grace herself had hoped to be introduced by her friend’s means. She wondered if this patronizing lady would return to Hintock during the summer, and whether the acquaintance which had been nipped on the last occasion of her residence there would develop on the next.
Grace was completely unaware of Fitzpiers's presence. She was lost in thoughts that had little to do with what was happening around her—thinking about her friend, Mrs. Charmond, who she had barely gotten to know; about her unpredictable behavior, and about the exciting places she might be enjoying right now, places Grace had hoped to visit through her friend. She wondered if this aloof lady would come back to Hintock in the summer, and whether the friendship that had been cut short during her last stay would blossom the next time.
Melbury told ancient timber-stories as he sat, relating them directly to Fitzpiers, and obliquely to the men, who had heard them often before. Marty, who poured out tea, was just saying, “I think I’ll take out a cup to Miss Grace,” when they heard a clashing of the gig-harness, and turning round Melbury saw that the horse had become restless, and was jerking about the vehicle in a way which alarmed its occupant, though she refrained from screaming. Melbury jumped up immediately, but not more quickly than Fitzpiers; and while her father ran to the horse’s head and speedily began to control him, Fitzpiers was alongside the gig assisting Grace to descend. Her surprise at his appearance was so great that, far from making a calm and independent descent, she was very nearly lifted down in his arms. He relinquished her when she touched ground, and hoped she was not frightened.
Melbury shared old timber tales as he sat, addressing Fitzpiers directly while also speaking indirectly to the men who had heard them many times before. Marty, who was pouring out tea, was just saying, “I think I’ll take a cup to Miss Grace,” when they heard the clattering of the gig harness. Turning around, Melbury noticed that the horse was getting restless and tugging at the vehicle in a way that worried its passenger, although she held back from screaming. Melbury jumped up right away, but Fitzpiers was just as quick. While her father rushed to the horse's head and quickly started to calm it down, Fitzpiers moved to help Grace get out of the gig. She was so surprised to see him that instead of calmly stepping down, she nearly ended up being lifted down in his arms. He let her go as soon as her feet touched the ground and hoped she wasn't too scared.
“Oh no, not much,” she managed to say. “There was no danger—unless he had run under the trees where the boughs are low enough to hit my head.”
“Oh no, not really,” she managed to say. “There was no danger—unless he had run under the trees where the branches are low enough to hit my head.”
“Which was by no means an impossibility, and justifies any amount of alarm.”
“Which was definitely not impossible and justifies any level of concern.”
He referred to what he thought he saw written in her face, and she could not tell him that this had little to do with the horse, but much with himself. His contiguity had, in fact, the same effect upon her as on those former occasions when he had come closer to her than usual—that of producing in her an unaccountable tendency to tearfulness. Melbury soon put the horse to rights, and seeing that Grace was safe, turned again to the work-people. His daughter’s nervous distress had passed off in a few moments, and she said quite gayly to Fitzpiers as she walked with him towards the group, “There’s destiny in it, you see. I was doomed to join in your picnic, although I did not intend to do so.”
He pointed out what he thought he saw on her face, and she couldn’t tell him that it had little to do with the horse but a lot to do with him. His presence affected her just like those times before when he had gotten closer than usual—making her feel an unexplainable urge to cry. Melbury quickly got the horse sorted out, and after confirming that Grace was okay, turned back to the workers. His daughter’s nervous discomfort faded in just a few moments, and she cheerfully said to Fitzpiers as they walked towards the group, “There’s destiny in it, you see. I was meant to join your picnic, even though I didn’t plan to.”
Marty prepared her a comfortable place, and she sat down in the circle, and listened to Fitzpiers while he drew from her father and the bark-rippers sundry narratives of their fathers’, their grandfathers’, and their own adventures in these woods; of the mysterious sights they had seen—only to be accounted for by supernatural agency; of white witches and black witches; and the standard story of the spirits of the two brothers who had fought and fallen, and had haunted Hintock House till they were exorcised by the priest, and compelled to retreat to a swamp in this very wood, whence they were returning to their old quarters at the rate of a cock’s stride every New-year’s Day, old style; hence the local saying, “On New-year’s tide, a cock’s stride.”
Marty set up a comfy spot for her, and she sat in the circle, listening to Fitzpiers as he shared stories from her father and the bark-rippers about their fathers, grandfathers, and their own adventures in these woods. He spoke of the mysterious things they had witnessed—things that could only be explained by supernatural forces; of white witches and black witches; and the familiar tale of the spirits of two brothers who had fought and died, haunting Hintock House until a priest exorcised them, forcing them to retreat to a swamp in this very wood. They were said to return to their old haunt every New Year's Day, moving at the distance of a cock's stride; hence the local saying, “On New Year's tide, a cock's stride.”
It was a pleasant time. The smoke from the little fire of peeled sticks rose between the sitters and the sunlight, and behind its blue veil stretched the naked arms of the prostrate trees. The smell of the uncovered sap mingled with the smell of the burning wood, and the sticky inner surface of the scattered bark glistened as it revealed its pale madder hues to the eye. Melbury was so highly satisfied at having Fitzpiers as a sort of guest that he would have sat on for any length of time, but Grace, on whom Fitzpiers’s eyes only too frequently alighted, seemed to think it incumbent upon her to make a show of going; and her father thereupon accompanied her to the vehicle.
It was a beautiful time. The smoke from the small fire made of peeled sticks rose between the people sitting and the sunlight, and behind its blue haze, the bare arms of the fallen trees stretched out. The scent of the exposed sap mixed with the smell of the burning wood, and the sticky inner surface of the scattered bark shimmered as it showed off its pale red tones. Melbury was so pleased to have Fitzpiers as a sort of guest that he would have stayed there for as long as it took, but Grace, who Fitzpiers’s gaze fell on all too often, seemed to feel it necessary to pretend to leave; and her father then walked her to the vehicle.
As the doctor had helped her out of it he appeared to think that he had excellent reasons for helping her in, and performed the attention lingeringly enough.
As the doctor helped her out of it, he seemed to believe he had good reasons for helping her in, and he took his time with the attention.
“What were you almost in tears about just now?” he asked, softly.
“What were you on the verge of crying about just now?” he asked gently.
“I don’t know,” she said: and the words were strictly true.
"I don’t know," she said, and those words were completely true.
Melbury mounted on the other side, and they drove on out of the grove, their wheels silently crushing delicate-patterned mosses, hyacinths, primroses, lords-and-ladies, and other strange and ordinary plants, and cracking up little sticks that lay across the track. Their way homeward ran along the crest of a lofty hill, whence on the right they beheld a wide valley, differing both in feature and atmosphere from that of the Hintock precincts. It was the cider country, which met the woodland district on the axis of this hill. Over the vale the air was blue as sapphire—such a blue as outside that apple-valley was never seen. Under the blue the orchards were in a blaze of bloom, some of the richly flowered trees running almost up to where they drove along. Over a gate which opened down the incline a man leaned on his arms, regarding this fair promise so intently that he did not observe their passing.
Melbury got on the other side, and they drove out of the grove, their wheels quietly crushing delicate moss patterns, hyacinths, primroses, lords-and-ladies, and other unusual and ordinary plants, and snapping little sticks that lay across the path. Their way home ran along the top of a high hill, from where they could see a wide valley on the right, which looked different in both shape and feel from the Hintock area. This was the cider country, meeting the woodland area at the top of the hill. The air over the valley was a sapphire blue— a shade never seen outside that apple valley. Under that blue sky, the orchards were ablaze with blossoms, with some richly flowered trees almost reaching where they drove. Over a gate that opened down the slope, a man leaned on his arms, watching this beautiful scene so intently that he didn’t notice them passing by.
“That was Giles,” said Melbury, when they had gone by.
"That was Giles," Melbury said, after they passed by.
“Was it? Poor Giles,” said she.
“Was it? Poor Giles,” she said.
“All that blooth means heavy autumn work for him and his hands. If no blight happens before the setting the apple yield will be such as we have not had for years.”
“All that blood means a lot of hard work for him and his hands in the fall. If there’s no blight before the apples are picked, the harvest will be the best we’ve had in years.”
Meanwhile, in the wood they had come from, the men had sat on so long that they were indisposed to begin work again that evening; they were paid by the ton, and their time for labor was as they chose. They placed the last gatherings of bark in rows for the curers, which led them farther and farther away from the shed; and thus they gradually withdrew as the sun went down.
Meanwhile, in the woods they had come from, the men had sat around for so long that they didn’t feel like starting work again that evening; they were paid by the ton, and they worked whenever they wanted. They stacked the last batches of bark in rows for the curers, which took them further and further away from the shed; and so they slowly moved away as the sun set.
Fitzpiers lingered yet. He had opened his book again, though he could hardly see a word in it, and sat before the dying fire, scarcely knowing of the men’s departure. He dreamed and mused till his consciousness seemed to occupy the whole space of the woodland around, so little was there of jarring sight or sound to hinder perfect unity with the sentiment of the place. The idea returned upon him of sacrificing all practical aims to live in calm contentment here, and instead of going on elaborating new conceptions with infinite pains, to accept quiet domesticity according to oldest and homeliest notions. These reflections detained him till the wood was embrowned with the coming night, and the shy little bird of this dusky time had begun to pour out all the intensity of his eloquence from a bush not very far off.
Fitzpiers lingered a bit longer. He had opened his book again, even though he could barely see the words, and sat in front of the dying fire, hardly aware of the men leaving. He dreamed and thought until it felt like his mind filled the entire woodland around him, with so little disruption from sight or sound that he felt completely in sync with the mood of the place. The thought came back to him of giving up all practical goals to live in peaceful contentment here, and instead of creating new ideas with endless effort, to embrace a simple domestic life based on old and familiar values. These thoughts kept him there until the woods were darkened by the approaching night, and the timid little bird of dusk started to express all its heartfelt emotion from a nearby bush.
Fitzpiers’s eyes commanded as much of the ground in front as was open. Entering upon this he saw a figure, whose direction of movement was towards the spot where he sat. The surgeon was quite shrouded from observation by the recessed shadow of the hut, and there was no reason why he should move till the stranger had passed by. The shape resolved itself into a woman’s; she was looking on the ground, and walking slowly as if searching for something that had been lost, her course being precisely that of Mr. Melbury’s gig. Fitzpiers by a sort of divination jumped to the idea that the figure was Grace’s; her nearer approach made the guess a certainty.
Fitzpiers’s eyes scanned as much of the ground in front of him as was visible. As he watched, he saw a figure moving toward the spot where he sat. The surgeon was completely hidden from view by the shadow of the hut, and there was no reason for him to move until the stranger had passed. The shape turned out to be a woman; she was looking down and walking slowly as if searching for something she had lost, following the exact path of Mr. Melbury’s gig. Fitzpiers, by some instinct, figured that the figure was Grace’s; as she got closer, his assumption was confirmed.
Yes, she was looking for something; and she came round by the prostrate trees that would have been invisible but for the white nakedness which enabled her to avoid them easily. Thus she approached the heap of ashes, and acting upon what was suggested by a still shining ember or two, she took a stick and stirred the heap, which thereupon burst into a flame. On looking around by the light thus obtained she for the first time saw the illumined face of Fitzpiers, precisely in the spot where she had left him.
Yes, she was searching for something; and she made her way around the fallen trees that would have been hard to see if it weren't for the bright whiteness that helped her avoid them easily. So she approached the pile of ashes, and acting on what was suggested by a few glowing embers, she grabbed a stick and stirred the pile, which then flared up into flames. As she looked around in the light that was now available, she saw the illuminated face of Fitzpiers for the first time, exactly where she had left him.
Grace gave a start and a scream: the place had been associated with him in her thoughts, but she had not expected to find him there still. Fitzpiers lost not a moment in rising and going to her side.
Grace jumped and screamed; this place had been connected to him in her mind, but she hadn't expected to see him there still. Fitzpiers wasted no time in getting up and moving to her side.
“I frightened you dreadfully, I know,” he said. “I ought to have spoken; but I did not at first expect it to be you. I have been sitting here ever since.”
“I scared you really badly, I know,” he said. “I should have said something; but I didn’t expect it to be you at first. I’ve been sitting here ever since.”
He was actually supporting her with his arm, as though under the impression that she was quite overcome, and in danger of falling. As soon as she could collect her ideas she gently withdrew from his grasp, and explained what she had returned for: in getting up or down from the gig, or when sitting by the hut fire, she had dropped her purse.
He was really holding her up with his arm, as if he thought she was feeling faint and about to collapse. Once she gathered her thoughts, she quietly pulled away from him and explained why she had come back: she had lost her purse while getting in or out of the gig or when sitting by the fire at the hut.
“Now we will find it,” said Fitzpiers.
“Now we will find it,” Fitzpiers said.
He threw an armful of last year’s leaves on to the fire, which made the flame leap higher, and the encompassing shades to weave themselves into a denser contrast, turning eve into night in a moment. By this radiance they groped about on their hands and knees, till Fitzpiers rested on his elbow, and looked at Grace. “We must always meet in odd circumstances,” he said; “and this is one of the oddest. I wonder if it means anything?”
He tossed a bunch of last year’s leaves onto the fire, causing the flames to shoot up and the surrounding shadows to thicken, instantly turning evening into night. By this light, they crawled around on their hands and knees until Fitzpiers propped himself up on his elbow and looked at Grace. “We always seem to meet in strange situations,” he said; “and this one is definitely one of the strangest. I wonder if it means something?”
“Oh no, I am sure it doesn’t,” said Grace in haste, quickly assuming an erect posture. “Pray don’t say it any more.”
“Oh no, I’m sure it doesn’t,” Grace said quickly, standing up straight. “Please don’t say it again.”
“I hope there was not much money in the purse,” said Fitzpiers, rising to his feet more slowly, and brushing the leaves from his trousers.
“I hope there wasn't a lot of money in the purse,” said Fitzpiers, getting up more slowly and brushing the leaves off his pants.
“Scarcely any. I cared most about the purse itself, because it was given me. Indeed, money is of little more use at Hintock than on Crusoe’s island; there’s hardly any way of spending it.”
“Hardly any. What mattered most to me was the purse itself, because it was a gift. In fact, money is not much more useful at Hintock than it would be on Crusoe’s island; there’s barely any way to spend it.”
They had given up the search when Fitzpiers discerned something by his foot. “Here it is,” he said, “so that your father, mother, friend, or admirer will not have his or her feelings hurt by a sense of your negligence after all.”
They had stopped looking when Fitzpiers noticed something at his feet. “Here it is,” he said, “so that your dad, mom, friend, or crush won’t be hurt by feeling neglected after all.”
“Oh, he knows nothing of what I do now.”
“Oh, he doesn’t know anything about what I’m doing now.”
“The admirer?” said Fitzpiers, slyly.
"The admirer?" Fitzpiers said, slyly.
“I don’t know if you would call him that,” said Grace, with simplicity. “The admirer is a superficial, conditional creature, and this person is quite different.”
“I’m not sure you could really call him that,” Grace said simply. “An admirer is a shallow, conditional person, and this guy is totally different.”
“He has all the cardinal virtues.”
"He has all the essential virtues."
“Perhaps—though I don’t know them precisely.”
“Maybe—though I don’t know them exactly.”
“You unconsciously practise them, Miss Melbury, which is better. According to Schleiermacher they are Self-control, Perseverance, Wisdom, and Love; and his is the best list that I know.”
“You practice them without realizing it, Miss Melbury, which is better. According to Schleiermacher, they are Self-control, Perseverance, Wisdom, and Love; and his is the best list I know.”
“I am afraid poor—” She was going to say that she feared Winterborne—the giver of the purse years before—had not much perseverance, though he had all the other three; but she determined to go no further in this direction, and was silent.
“I’m afraid that poor—” She was about to say that she worried Winterborne—the one who had given the purse years ago—didn’t have much perseverance, even though he had all the other qualities; but she decided not to continue in that direction and fell silent.
These half-revelations made a perceptible difference in Fitzpiers. His sense of personal superiority wasted away, and Grace assumed in his eyes the true aspect of a mistress in her lover’s regard.
These half-revelations made a noticeable impact on Fitzpiers. His feeling of personal superiority faded, and Grace took on in his eyes the true role of a mistress in her lover’s sight.
“Miss Melbury,” he said, suddenly, “I divine that this virtuous man you mention has been refused by you?”
“Miss Melbury,” he said abruptly, “I sense that this good man you’re talking about has been turned down by you?”
She could do no otherwise than admit it.
She had no choice but to admit it.
“I do not inquire without good reason. God forbid that I should kneel in another’s place at any shrine unfairly. But, my dear Miss Melbury, now that he is gone, may I draw near?”
“I don’t ask without a good reason. God forbid I should kneel at someone else's shrine unfairly. But, dear Miss Melbury, now that he is gone, may I approach?”
“I—I can’t say anything about that!” she cried, quickly. “Because when a man has been refused you feel pity for him, and like him more than you did before.”
“I—I can’t say anything about that!” she exclaimed, quickly. “Because when a guy gets turned down, you feel sorry for him, and you end up liking him more than you did before.”
This increasing complication added still more value to Grace in the surgeon’s eyes: it rendered her adorable. “But cannot you say?” he pleaded, distractedly.
This growing complexity made Grace even more valuable in the surgeon's eyes: it made her charming. “But can’t you just say it?” he urged, feeling flustered.
“I’d rather not—I think I must go home at once.”
“I’d rather not—I think I need to head home immediately.”
“Oh yes,” said Fitzpiers. But as he did not move she felt it awkward to walk straight away from him; and so they stood silently together. A diversion was created by the accident of two birds, that had either been roosting above their heads or nesting there, tumbling one over the other into the hot ashes at their feet, apparently engrossed in a desperate quarrel that prevented the use of their wings. They speedily parted, however, and flew up, and were seen no more.
“Oh yeah,” said Fitzpiers. But since he didn’t move, she found it awkward to just walk away from him, so they stood there in silence together. Their stillness was interrupted by two birds, which had either been resting above them or nesting there, tumbling head over heels into the hot ashes at their feet, clearly caught up in a fierce fight that kept them from flying. However, they quickly separated and flew off, disappearing from sight.
“That’s the end of what is called love!” said some one.
"That's the end of what people call love!" said someone.
The speaker was neither Grace nor Fitzpiers, but Marty South, who approached with her face turned up to the sky in her endeavor to trace the birds. Suddenly perceiving Grace, she exclaimed, “Oh, Miss Melbury! I have been following they pigeons, and didn’t see you. And here’s Mr. Winterborne!” she continued, shyly, as she looked towards Fitzpiers, who stood in the background.
The speaker was neither Grace nor Fitzpiers, but Marty South, who walked over with her face tilted up to the sky, trying to follow the birds. Suddenly noticing Grace, she exclaimed, “Oh, Miss Melbury! I’ve been watching the pigeons and didn’t see you. And here’s Mr. Winterborne!” she added, shyly glancing toward Fitzpiers, who was standing in the background.
“Marty,” Grace interrupted. “I want you to walk home with me—will you? Come along.” And without lingering longer she took hold of Marty’s arm and led her away.
“Marty,” Grace interrupted. “I want you to walk home with me—will you? Come on.” And without waiting any longer, she grabbed Marty’s arm and led her away.
They went between the spectral arms of the peeled trees as they lay, and onward among the growing trees, by a path where there were no oaks, and no barking, and no Fitzpiers—nothing but copse-wood, between which the primroses could be discerned in pale bunches. “I didn’t know Mr. Winterborne was there,” said Marty, breaking the silence when they had nearly reached Grace’s door.
They walked through the ghostly branches of the bare trees and continued among the growing trees, along a path without oaks, barks, or Fitzpiers—just a thicket, where pale bunches of primroses could be seen. “I didn’t know Mr. Winterborne was there,” Marty said, breaking the silence as they were almost at Grace’s door.
“Nor was he,” said Grace.
"Neither was he," said Grace.
“But, Miss Melbury, I saw him.”
“But, Miss Melbury, I saw him.”
“No,” said Grace. “It was somebody else. Giles Winterborne is nothing to me.”
“No,” Grace said. “It was someone else. Giles Winterborne means nothing to me.”
CHAPTER XX.
The leaves over Hintock grew denser in their substance, and the woodland seemed to change from an open filigree to a solid opaque body of infinitely larger shape and importance. The boughs cast green shades, which hurt the complexion of the girls who walked there; and a fringe of them which overhung Mr. Melbury’s garden dripped on his seed-plots when it rained, pitting their surface all over as with pock-marks, till Melbury declared that gardens in such a place were no good at all. The two trees that had creaked all the winter left off creaking, the whir of the night-jar, however, forming a very satisfactory continuation of uncanny music from that quarter. Except at mid-day the sun was not seen complete by the Hintock people, but rather in the form of numerous little stars staring through the leaves.
The leaves over Hintock grew thicker, transforming the woodland from an open lacework into a solid, dark mass of much greater size and significance. The branches created green shadows that affected the complexions of the girls walking there; and a fringe hanging over Mr. Melbury’s garden dripped onto his seedbeds when it rained, leaving pockmarked surfaces until Melbury insisted that gardens in such a spot were pointless. The two trees that had creaked all winter finally stopped, while the sound of the night-jar continued to provide an unsettling soundtrack from that area. Except at midday, the sun was hardly seen by the people of Hintock, appearing instead as countless tiny stars peeking through the leaves.
Such an appearance it had on Midsummer Eve of this year, and as the hour grew later, and nine o’clock drew on, the irradiation of the daytime became broken up by weird shadows and ghostly nooks of indistinctness. Imagination could trace upon the trunks and boughs strange faces and figures shaped by the dying lights; the surfaces of the holly-leaves would here and there shine like peeping eyes, while such fragments of the sky as were visible between the trunks assumed the aspect of sheeted forms and cloven tongues. This was before the moonrise. Later on, when that planet was getting command of the upper heaven, and consequently shining with an unbroken face into such open glades as there were in the neighborhood of the hamlet, it became apparent that the margin of the wood which approached the timber-merchant’s premises was not to be left to the customary stillness of that reposeful time.
On Midsummer Eve of this year, as the hour got later and it neared nine o’clock, the brightness of the day was broken up by eerie shadows and ghostly corners of fuzziness. Our imagination could make out strange faces and figures on the tree trunks and branches, formed by the fading light. Here and there, the surfaces of the holly leaves glimmered like watchful eyes, while the bits of sky visible between the trunks looked like draped figures and split tongues. This was before the moon rose. Later, when the moon was taking over the night sky and shining steadily into the open glades near the village, it became clear that the edge of the woods by the timber merchant's place was not going to enjoy the usual stillness of that calm time.
Fitzpiers having heard a voice or voices, was looking over his garden gate—where he now looked more frequently than into his books—fancying that Grace might be abroad with some friends. He was now irretrievably committed in heart to Grace Melbury, though he was by no means sure that she was so far committed to him. That the Idea had for once completely fulfilled itself in the objective substance—which he had hitherto deemed an impossibility—he was enchanted enough to fancy must be the case at last. It was not Grace who had passed, however, but several of the ordinary village girls in a group—some steadily walking, some in a mood of wild gayety. He quietly asked his landlady, who was also in the garden, what these girls were intending, and she informed him that it being Old Midsummer Eve, they were about to attempt some spell or enchantment which would afford them a glimpse of their future partners for life. She declared it to be an ungodly performance, and one which she for her part would never countenance; saying which, she entered her house and retired to bed.
Fitzpiers, having heard a voice or voices, was peering over his garden gate—where he was now looking more often than into his books—thinking that Grace might be out with some friends. He was now completely devoted to Grace Melbury, although he wasn’t sure she felt the same way about him. He was enchanted enough to believe that the idea had finally come to life in a way he had previously thought impossible. However, it wasn’t Grace who passed by, but a group of the usual village girls—some walking steadily, others in a wild mood of revelry. He quietly asked his landlady, who was also in the garden, what the girls were up to, and she told him that since it was Old Midsummer Eve, they were about to try some spell or enchantment to catch a glimpse of their future partners for life. She deemed it an ungodly act and said she would never support such nonsense; after saying this, she went inside and headed off to bed.
The young man lit a cigar and followed the bevy of maidens slowly up the road. They had turned into the wood at an opening between Melbury’s and Marty South’s; but Fitzpiers could easily track them by their voices, low as they endeavored to keep their tones.
The young man lit a cigar and slowly followed the group of girls up the road. They had entered the woods at a gap between Melbury’s and Marty South’s, but Fitzpiers could easily follow them by their voices, quiet as they tried to keep their tones down.
In the mean time other inhabitants of Little Hintock had become aware of the nocturnal experiment about to be tried, and were also sauntering stealthily after the frisky maidens. Miss Melbury had been informed by Marty South during the day of the proposed peep into futurity, and, being only a girl like the rest, she was sufficiently interested to wish to see the issue. The moon was so bright and the night so calm that she had no difficulty in persuading Mrs. Melbury to accompany her; and thus, joined by Marty, these went onward in the same direction.
In the meantime, other residents of Little Hintock had caught wind of the nighttime experiment about to happen and were quietly following the lively young women. Miss Melbury had been told by Marty South during the day about the planned glimpse into the future, and, being just like the others, she was curious to see how it would turn out. The moon was bright and the night was peaceful, so she easily convinced Mrs. Melbury to join her; and with Marty joining them, they headed off in the same direction.
Passing Winterborne’s house, they heard a noise of hammering. Marty explained it. This was the last night on which his paternal roof would shelter him, the days of grace since it fell into hand having expired; and Giles was taking down his cupboards and bedsteads with a view to an early exit next morning. His encounter with Mrs. Charmond had cost him dearly.
Passing Winterborne’s house, they heard the sound of hammering. Marty explained it. This was the last night he would be sheltered under his father's roof, as the grace period since it changed hands had ended; and Giles was taking down his cabinets and beds in preparation for an early exit the next morning. His meeting with Mrs. Charmond had cost him dearly.
When they had proceeded a little farther Marty was joined by Grammer Oliver (who was as young as the youngest in such matters), and Grace and Mrs. Melbury went on by themselves till they had arrived at the spot chosen by the village daughters, whose primary intention of keeping their expedition a secret had been quite defeated. Grace and her step-mother paused by a holly-tree; and at a little distance stood Fitzpiers under the shade of a young oak, intently observing Grace, who was in the full rays of the moon.
When they had walked a bit further, Marty was joined by Grammer Oliver (who was as naive as the youngest in these matters), while Grace and Mrs. Melbury continued on their own until they reached the location picked by the village girls, whose main goal of keeping their outing a secret had completely failed. Grace and her step-mother stopped by a holly tree; and a short distance away stood Fitzpiers under the shade of a young oak, closely watching Grace, who was illuminated by the bright moonlight.
He watched her without speaking, and unperceived by any but Marty and Grammer, who had drawn up on the dark side of the same holly which sheltered Mrs. and Miss Melbury on its bright side. The two former conversed in low tones.
He watched her in silence, unnoticed by anyone except Marty and Grammer, who had positioned themselves on the dark side of the same holly that sheltered Mrs. and Miss Melbury on its bright side. The two of them were speaking in hushed voices.
“If they two come up in Wood next Midsummer Night they’ll come as one,” said Grammer, signifying Fitzpiers and Grace. “Instead of my skellington he’ll carry home her living carcass before long. But though she’s a lady in herself, and worthy of any such as he, it do seem to me that he ought to marry somebody more of the sort of Mrs. Charmond, and that Miss Grace should make the best of Winterborne.”
“If those two show up in Wood next Midsummer Night, they’ll come as one,” said Grammer, referring to Fitzpiers and Grace. “Instead of my skeleton, he’ll be bringing her living body home soon. But even though she’s a lady in her own right and deserving of someone like him, it seems to me that he should marry someone more like Mrs. Charmond, and that Miss Grace should make the most of Winterborne.”
Marty returned no comment; and at that minute the girls, some of whom were from Great Hintock, were seen advancing to work the incantation, it being now about midnight.
Marty didn't say anything; and at that moment, the girls, some of whom were from Great Hintock, were seen moving forward to perform the incantation, as it was now around midnight.
“Directly we see anything we’ll run home as fast as we can,” said one, whose courage had begun to fail her. To this the rest assented, not knowing that a dozen neighbors lurked in the bushes around.
“Once we see anything, we’ll race home as fast as we can,” said one, whose courage was starting to wane. The others agreed, unaware that a dozen neighbors were hiding in the bushes nearby.
“I wish we had not thought of trying this,” said another, “but had contented ourselves with the hole-digging to-morrow at twelve, and hearing our husbands’ trades. It is too much like having dealings with the Evil One to try to raise their forms.”
“I wish we hadn’t thought of trying this,” said another, “but had been satisfied with digging holes tomorrow at noon and listening to our husbands’ trades. It feels way too much like making a deal with the Evil One to attempt to bring their forms back.”
However, they had gone too far to recede, and slowly began to march forward in a skirmishing line through the trees towards the deeper recesses of the wood. As far as the listeners could gather, the particular form of black-art to be practised on this occasion was one connected with the sowing of hemp-seed, a handful of which was carried by each girl. At the moment of their advance they looked back, and discerned the figure of Miss Melbury, who, alone of all the observers, stood in the full face of the moonlight, deeply engrossed in the proceedings. By contrast with her life of late years they made her feel as if she had receded a couple of centuries in the world’s history. She was rendered doubly conspicuous by her light dress, and after a few whispered words, one of the girls—a bouncing maiden, plighted to young Timothy Tangs—asked her if she would join in. Grace, with some excitement, said that she would, and moved on a little in the rear of the rest.
However, they had gone too far to turn back, and slowly began to move forward in a skirmishing line through the trees towards the deeper parts of the woods. From what the listeners could gather, the specific form of black magic they were about to practice was related to the sowing of hemp seed, a handful of which each girl carried. As they moved ahead, they looked back and spotted Miss Melbury, who, unlike all the other observers, stood directly in the moonlight, fully focused on what was happening. Compared to her recent life, it felt like she had stepped back a couple of centuries in time. She stood out even more because of her light dress, and after a few whispered words, one of the girls—a lively young woman engaged to young Timothy Tangs—asked her if she wanted to join in. Grace, feeling a surge of excitement, agreed and moved a bit behind the others.
Soon the listeners could hear nothing of their proceedings beyond the faintest occasional rustle of leaves. Grammer whispered again to Marty: “Why didn’t ye go and try your luck with the rest of the maids?”
Soon, the listeners could hear nothing of their activities except for the faint, occasional rustle of leaves. Grammer whispered to Marty again, “Why didn’t you go and try your luck with the other girls?”
“I don’t believe in it,” said Marty, shortly.
"I don't believe in it," Marty said flatly.
“Why, half the parish is here—the silly hussies should have kept it quiet. I see Mr. Winterborne through the leaves, just come up with Robert Creedle. Marty, we ought to act the part o’ Providence sometimes. Do go and tell him that if he stands just behind the bush at the bottom of the slope, Miss Grace must pass down it when she comes back, and she will most likely rush into his arms; for as soon as the clock strikes, they’ll bundle back home—along like hares. I’ve seen such larries before.”
“Wow, half the community is here—the silly girls should have kept it to themselves. I see Mr. Winterborne through the leaves, just arrived with Robert Creedle. Marty, we should play the part of fate sometimes. Go tell him that if he stands just behind the bush at the bottom of the slope, Miss Grace will have to walk right past him when she comes back, and she’ll probably run straight into his arms; because as soon as the clock strikes, they’ll hurry back home—just like hares. I’ve seen this kind of thing happen before.”
“Do you think I’d better?” said Marty, reluctantly.
“Do you think I should?” said Marty, hesitantly.
“Oh yes, he’ll bless ye for it.”
“Oh yes, he’ll bless you for it.”
“I don’t want that kind of blessing.” But after a moment’s thought she went and delivered the information; and Grammer had the satisfaction of seeing Giles walk slowly to the bend in the leafy defile along which Grace would have to return.
“I don’t want that kind of blessing.” But after a moment’s thought, she went and shared the information; and Grammer felt satisfied watching Giles walk slowly to the bend in the leafy path that Grace would have to take back.
Meanwhile Mrs. Melbury, deserted by Grace, had perceived Fitzpiers and Winterborne, and also the move of the latter. An improvement on Grammer’s idea entered the mind of Mrs. Melbury, for she had lately discerned what her husband had not—that Grace was rapidly fascinating the surgeon. She therefore drew near to Fitzpiers.
Meanwhile, Mrs. Melbury, left alone by Grace, noticed Fitzpiers and Winterborne, as well as Winterborne's movements. An enhancement of Grammer's idea came to Mrs. Melbury, as she had recently realized what her husband had not—that Grace was quickly charming the surgeon. She then approached Fitzpiers.
“You should be where Mr. Winterborne is standing,” she said to him, significantly. “She will run down through that opening much faster than she went up it, if she is like the rest of the girls.”
“You should be where Mr. Winterborne is standing,” she said to him, meaningfully. “She'll come down through that opening a lot faster than she went up, if she’s like the other girls.”
Fitzpiers did not require to be told twice. He went across to Winterborne and stood beside him. Each knew the probable purpose of the other in standing there, and neither spoke, Fitzpiers scorning to look upon Winterborne as a rival, and Winterborne adhering to the off-hand manner of indifference which had grown upon him since his dismissal.
Fitzpiers didn't need to be told twice. He walked over to Winterborne and stood next to him. Both of them knew why the other was there, but neither said anything. Fitzpiers took pride in not seeing Winterborne as a competitor, while Winterborne maintained the casual indifference he had developed since being let go.
Neither Grammer nor Marty South had seen the surgeon’s manoeuvre, and, still to help Winterborne, as she supposed, the old woman suggested to the wood-girl that she should walk forward at the heels of Grace, and “tole” her down the required way if she showed a tendency to run in another direction. Poor Marty, always doomed to sacrifice desire to obligation, walked forward accordingly, and waited as a beacon, still and silent, for the retreat of Grace and her giddy companions, now quite out of hearing.
Neither Grammer nor Marty South had seen the surgeon’s move, and, still wanting to help Winterborne, as she thought, the old woman suggested to the wood-girl that she should follow Grace and "guide" her in the right direction if she tried to go elsewhere. Poor Marty, always forced to prioritize duty over desire, walked forward as instructed and stood there, still and silent, waiting as a beacon for Grace and her dizzy friends, who were now completely out of earshot.
The first sound to break the silence was the distant note of Great Hintock clock striking the significant hour. About a minute later that quarter of the wood to which the girls had wandered resounded with the flapping of disturbed birds; then two or three hares and rabbits bounded down the glade from the same direction, and after these the rustling and crackling of leaves and dead twigs denoted the hurried approach of the adventurers, whose fluttering gowns soon became visible. Miss Melbury, having gone forward quite in the rear of the rest, was one of the first to return, and the excitement being contagious, she ran laughing towards Marty, who still stood as a hand-post to guide her; then, passing on, she flew round the fatal bush where the undergrowth narrowed to a gorge. Marty arrived at her heels just in time to see the result. Fitzpiers had quickly stepped forward in front of Winterborne, who, disdaining to shift his position, had turned on his heel, and then the surgeon did what he would not have thought of doing but for Mrs. Melbury’s encouragement and the sentiment of an eve which effaced conventionality. Stretching out his arms as the white figure burst upon him, he captured her in a moment, as if she had been a bird.
The first sound that broke the silence was the distant chime of the Great Hintock clock striking the significant hour. About a minute later, the part of the woods where the girls had wandered echoed with the flapping of startled birds; then, two or three hares and rabbits dashed down the path from the same direction, followed by the rustling and cracking of leaves and dry twigs, signaling the hurried approach of the adventurers, whose fluttering dresses soon came into view. Miss Melbury, having lagged behind the others, was one of the first to return. The excitement was contagious, and she ran, laughing, towards Marty, who stood still like a guidepost. Then, passing by, she darted around the treacherous bush where the undergrowth thinned out into a gorge. Marty reached her just in time to see what happened next. Fitzpiers had quickly stepped in front of Winterborne, who, choosing not to move, had turned on his heel. Then the surgeon did something he would not have considered if it weren't for Mrs. Melbury’s encouragement and the spirit of the evening that blurred social norms. Stretching out his arms as the white figure approached, he caught her in an instant, as if she were a bird.
“Oh!” cried Grace, in her fright.
“Oh!” shouted Grace, scared.
“You are in my arms, dearest,” said Fitzpiers, “and I am going to claim you, and keep you there all our two lives!”
“You're in my arms, my love,” said Fitzpiers, “and I'm going to claim you and hold you there for both our lives!”
She rested on him like one utterly mastered, and it was several seconds before she recovered from this helplessness. Subdued screams and struggles, audible from neighboring brakes, revealed that there had been other lurkers thereabout for a similar purpose. Grace, unlike most of these companions of hers, instead of gasping and writhing, said in a trembling voice, “Mr. Fitzpiers, will you let me go?”
She leaned on him like someone who was completely defeated, and it took her several seconds to regain her composure. Quiet screams and struggles, heard from nearby brakes, indicated that there were others around with the same intention. Grace, unlike most of her companions, instead of gasping and squirming, said in a shaky voice, “Mr. Fitzpiers, will you let me go?”
“Certainly,” he said, laughing; “as soon as you have recovered.”
“Sure,” he said, laughing; “as soon as you’re feeling better.”
She waited another few moments, then quietly and firmly pushed him aside, and glided on her path, the moon whitening her hot blush away. But it had been enough—new relations between them had begun.
She waited a few more moments, then quietly and firmly moved him aside and continued on her way, the moonlight fading her hot blush. But it had been enough—new dynamics between them had started.
The case of the other girls was different, as has been said. They wrestled and tittered, only escaping after a desperate struggle. Fitzpiers could hear these enactments still going on after Grace had left him, and he remained on the spot where he had caught her, Winterborne having gone away. On a sudden another girl came bounding down the same descent that had been followed by Grace—a fine-framed young woman with naked arms. Seeing Fitzpiers standing there, she said, with playful effrontery, “May’st kiss me if ‘canst catch me, Tim!”
The situation with the other girls was different, as mentioned. They laughed and played, only breaking free after a tough struggle. Fitzpiers could still hear their antics after Grace had walked away, and he stayed where he had found her, since Winterborne had left. Suddenly, another girl came running down the same path Grace had taken—a tall young woman with bare arms. Spotting Fitzpiers standing there, she said, with a teasing boldness, “You can kiss me if you can catch me, Tim!”
Fitzpiers recognized her as Suke Damson, a hoydenish damsel of the hamlet, who was plainly mistaking him for her lover. He was impulsively disposed to profit by her error, and as soon as she began racing away he started in pursuit.
Fitzpiers recognized her as Suke Damson, a spirited young woman from the village, who was clearly mistaking him for her boyfriend. He felt a sudden urge to take advantage of her mistake, and as soon as she started to run away, he began chasing after her.
On she went under the boughs, now in light, now in shade, looking over her shoulder at him every few moments and kissing her hand; but so cunningly dodging about among the trees and moon-shades that she never allowed him to get dangerously near her. Thus they ran and doubled, Fitzpiers warming with the chase, till the sound of their companions had quite died away. He began to lose hope of ever overtaking her, when all at once, by way of encouragement, she turned to a fence in which there was a stile and leaped over it. Outside the scene was a changed one—a meadow, where the half-made hay lay about in heaps, in the uninterrupted shine of the now high moon.
On she went under the branches, now in light, now in shade, glancing back at him every few moments and blowing him kisses; but she skillfully weaved through the trees and moonlight, never letting him get too close. They ran and changed directions, Fitzpiers getting more into the chase, until the sounds of their friends had completely faded away. Just when he started to lose hope of catching up to her, she suddenly turned towards a fence with a stile and jumped over it. Outside, the scene had changed—a meadow, with piles of half-finished hay scattered around in the bright light of the now high moon.
Fitzpiers saw in a moment that, having taken to open ground, she had placed herself at his mercy, and he promptly vaulted over after her. She flitted a little way down the mead, when all at once her light form disappeared as if it had sunk into the earth. She had buried herself in one of the hay-cocks.
Fitzpiers instantly realized that by moving to open ground, she had put herself at his mercy, so he quickly jumped after her. She darted a short distance down the meadow before suddenly vanishing as if she had sunk into the earth. She had hidden herself in one of the haystacks.
Fitzpiers, now thoroughly excited, was not going to let her escape him thus. He approached, and set about turning over the heaps one by one. As soon as he paused, tantalized and puzzled, he was directed anew by an imitative kiss which came from her hiding-place, and by snatches of a local ballad in the smallest voice she could assume:
Fitzpiers, now completely thrilled, wasn’t going to let her get away like that. He moved closer and started to sift through the piles one by one. Whenever he hesitated, feeling teased and confused, he was once again led on by a playful kiss that came from her hiding spot, along with snippets of a local song sung in the quietest voice she could manage:
“O come in from the foggy, foggy dew.”
“O come in from the misty, misty dew.”
In a minute or two he uncovered her.
In a minute or two, he revealed her.
“Oh, ’tis not Tim!” said she, burying her face.
“Oh, it’s not Tim!” she said, burying her face.
Fitzpiers, however, disregarded her resistance by reason of its mildness, stooped and imprinted the purposed kiss, then sunk down on the next hay-cock, panting with his race.
Fitzpiers, however, ignored her reluctance because it was so mild, leaned down, and planted the intended kiss, then collapsed onto the next haystack, out of breath from his effort.
“Whom do you mean by Tim?” he asked, presently.
“Who are you referring to when you say Tim?” he asked after a moment.
“My young man, Tim Tangs,” said she.
“My young man, Tim Tangs,” she said.
“Now, honor bright, did you really think it was he?”
“Now, seriously, did you really think it was him?”
“I did at first.”
"I did at first."
“But you didn’t at last?”
“But you didn’t in the end?”
“I didn’t at last.”
“I didn’t in the end.”
“Do you much mind that it was not?”
“Does it really bother you that it wasn't?”
“No,” she answered, slyly.
“No,” she replied, slyly.
Fitzpiers did not pursue his questioning. In the moonlight Suke looked very beautiful, the scratches and blemishes incidental to her out-door occupation being invisible under these pale rays. While they remain silent the coarse whir of the eternal night-jar burst sarcastically from the top of a tree at the nearest corner of the wood. Besides this not a sound of any kind reached their ears, the time of nightingales being now past, and Hintock lying at a distance of two miles at least. In the opposite direction the hay-field stretched away into remoteness till it was lost to the eye in a soft mist.
Fitzpiers didn’t continue with his questioning. In the moonlight, Suke looked stunning, the scratches and marks from her outdoor work hidden under the soft glow. As they sat in silence, the harsh sound of the night-jar echoed mockingly from the top of a tree at the edge of the woods. Apart from that, there were no other sounds; the time for nightingales had passed, and Hintock was at least two miles away. In the opposite direction, the hay-field stretched out into the distance until it disappeared in a gentle mist.
CHAPTER XXI.
When the general stampede occurred Winterborne had also been looking on, and encountering one of the girls, had asked her what caused them all to fly.
When the stampede happened, Winterborne had been watching too, and when he bumped into one of the girls, he asked her what made everyone run.
She said with solemn breathlessness that they had seen something very different from what they had hoped to see, and that she for one would never attempt such unholy ceremonies again. “We saw Satan pursuing us with his hour-glass. It was terrible!”
She said with a serious breathlessness that they had seen something very different from what they had hoped to see, and that she for one would never try such unholy ceremonies again. “We saw Satan chasing us with his hourglass. It was horrifying!”
This account being a little incoherent, Giles went forward towards the spot from which the girls had retreated. After listening there a few minutes he heard slow footsteps rustling over the leaves, and looking through a tangled screen of honeysuckle which hung from a bough, he saw in the open space beyond a short stout man in evening-dress, carrying on one arm a light overcoat and also his hat, so awkwardly arranged as possibly to have suggested the “hour-glass” to his timid observers—if this were the person whom the girls had seen. With the other hand he silently gesticulated and the moonlight falling upon his bare brow showed him to have dark hair and a high forehead of the shape seen oftener in old prints and paintings than in real life. His curious and altogether alien aspect, his strange gestures, like those of one who is rehearsing a scene to himself, and the unusual place and hour, were sufficient to account for any trepidation among the Hintock daughters at encountering him.
This story is a bit disjointed, so Giles moved towards the spot where the girls had backed away. After listening for a few minutes, he heard slow footsteps rustling through the leaves. Peering through a tangled mass of honeysuckle hanging from a branch, he spotted a short, stocky man in evening wear. He was awkwardly balancing a light overcoat and his hat on one arm, which might have suggested the “hour-glass” to the timid girls who had seen him. With his other hand, he gestured silently, and the moonlight shining on his bare forehead revealed dark hair and a high forehead, often seen in old prints and paintings rather than in real life. His strange and completely foreign appearance, along with his odd gestures as if practicing a scene by himself in such an unusual place and at this hour, could easily explain the Hintock daughters' nervousness at running into him.
He paused, and looked round, as if he had forgotten where he was; not observing Giles, who was of the color of his environment. The latter advanced into the light. The gentleman held up his hand and came towards Giles, the two meeting half-way.
He stopped and looked around, as if he had lost track of his surroundings, not noticing Giles, who blended in with the background. Giles stepped into the light. The man raised his hand and walked toward Giles, the two meeting in the middle.
“I have lost my way,” said the stranger. “Perhaps you can put me in the path again.” He wiped his forehead with the air of one suffering under an agitation more than that of simple fatigue.
“I’ve lost my way,” said the stranger. “Maybe you can help me get back on track.” He wiped his forehead, showing signs of distress that seemed to go beyond just being tired.
“The turnpike-road is over there,” said Giles
“The toll road is over there,” said Giles.
“I don’t want the turnpike-road,” said the gentleman, impatiently. “I came from that. I want Hintock House. Is there not a path to it across here?”
“I don’t want the turnpike road,” said the gentleman, impatiently. “I just came from there. I want Hintock House. Isn’t there a path to it across here?”
“Well, yes, a sort of path. But it is hard to find from this point. I’ll show you the way, sir, with great pleasure.”
“Well, yes, it's kind of a path. But it's hard to see from here. I’ll happily show you the way, sir.”
“Thanks, my good friend. The truth is that I decided to walk across the country after dinner from the hotel at Sherton, where I am staying for a day or two. But I did not know it was so far.”
“Thanks, my good friend. The truth is that I decided to walk across the country after dinner from the hotel at Sherton, where I’m staying for a day or two. But I didn’t realize it was so far.”
“It is about a mile to the house from here.”
“It’s about a mile from here to the house.”
They walked on together. As there was no path, Giles occasionally stepped in front and bent aside the underboughs of the trees to give his companion a passage, saying every now and then when the twigs, on being released, flew back like whips, “Mind your eyes, sir.” To which the stranger replied, “Yes, yes,” in a preoccupied tone.
They walked together. Since there was no trail, Giles occasionally stepped ahead and pushed aside the branches of the trees to clear a path for his companion, saying now and then as the twigs snapped back like whips, “Watch your eyes, sir.” The stranger responded, “Yes, yes,” in a distracted tone.
So they went on, the leaf-shadows running in their usual quick succession over the forms of the pedestrians, till the stranger said,
So they continued on, the shadows of the leaves quickly darting over the pedestrians, until the stranger said,
“Is it far?”
"Is it far away?"
“Not much farther,” said Winterborne. “The plantation runs up into a corner here, close behind the house.” He added with hesitation, “You know, I suppose, sir, that Mrs. Charmond is not at home?”
“Not much farther,” said Winterborne. “The plantation stretches up into a corner here, right behind the house.” He hesitated before adding, “You know, I assume, sir, that Mrs. Charmond isn’t home?”
“You mistake,” said the other, quickly. “Mrs. Charmond has been away for some time, but she’s at home now.”
"You’re mistaken," said the other quickly. "Mrs. Charmond has been away for a while, but she’s home now."
Giles did not contradict him, though he felt sure that the gentleman was wrong.
Giles didn't argue with him, although he was certain the guy was mistaken.
“You are a native of this place?” the stranger said.
“You're from around here?” the stranger asked.
“Yes.”
"Yes."
“Well, you are happy in having a home. It is what I don’t possess.”
“Well, you’re happy to have a home. It’s something I don’t have.”
“You come from far, seemingly?”
"You come from far away?"
“I come now from the south of Europe.”
“I come now from southern Europe.”
“Oh, indeed, sir. You are an Italian, or Spanish, or French gentleman, perhaps?”
“Oh, of course, sir. You’re either Italian, Spanish, or French, right?”
“I am not either.”
"I'm not either."
Giles did not fill the pause which ensued, and the gentleman, who seemed of an emotional nature, unable to resist friendship, at length answered the question.
Giles didn't break the silence that followed, and the man, who appeared to be quite emotional and unable to resist the pull of friendship, finally responded to the question.
“I am an Italianized American, a South Carolinian by birth,” he said. “I left my native country on the failure of the Southern cause, and have never returned to it since.”
“I’m an Italian-American, originally from South Carolina,” he said. “I left my home country when the South lost, and I’ve never gone back since.”
He spoke no more about himself, and they came to the verge of the wood. Here, striding over the fence out upon the upland sward, they could at once see the chimneys of the house in the gorge immediately beneath their position, silent, still, and pale.
He didn't say anything more about himself, and they reached the edge of the woods. Here, stepping over the fence onto the grassy hillside, they could immediately see the chimneys of the house in the valley directly below them, quiet, motionless, and pale.
“Can you tell me the time?” the gentleman asked. “My watch has stopped.”
“Can you tell me the time?” the man asked. “My watch isn't working.”
“It is between twelve and one,” said Giles.
“It’s between twelve and one,” said Giles.
His companion expressed his astonishment. “I thought it between nine and ten at latest! Dear me—dear me!”
His friend showed his surprise. “I figured it was between nine and ten at the latest! Oh my—oh my!”
He now begged Giles to return, and offered him a gold coin, which looked like a sovereign, for the assistance rendered. Giles declined to accept anything, to the surprise of the stranger, who, on putting the money back into his pocket, said, awkwardly, “I offered it because I want you to utter no word about this meeting with me. Will you promise?”
He now pleaded with Giles to come back and offered him a gold coin that looked like a sovereign for his help. Giles refused to take anything, surprising the stranger, who, while putting the money back in his pocket, said awkwardly, “I offered it because I want you to keep quiet about this meeting. Will you promise?”
Winterborne promised readily. He thereupon stood still while the other ascended the slope. At the bottom he looked back dubiously. Giles would no longer remain when he was so evidently desired to leave, and returned through the boughs to Hintock.
Winterborne agreed right away. He then stood still while the other person climbed the slope. At the bottom, he looked back with uncertainty. Giles wouldn’t stay when it was clear he was supposed to leave, so he turned and walked back through the branches to Hintock.
He suspected that this man, who seemed so distressed and melancholy, might be that lover and persistent wooer of Mrs. Charmond whom he had heard so frequently spoken of, and whom it was said she had treated cavalierly. But he received no confirmation of his suspicion beyond a report which reached him a few days later that a gentleman had called up the servants who were taking care of Hintock House at an hour past midnight; and on learning that Mrs. Charmond, though returned from abroad, was as yet in London, he had sworn bitterly, and gone away without leaving a card or any trace of himself.
He suspected that this man, who looked so upset and sad, might be the lover and persistent suitor of Mrs. Charmond that he had heard so much about, and who apparently had been treated dismissively by her. However, he didn’t get any proof of his suspicion other than a report he received a few days later that a man had approached the servants caring for Hintock House just after midnight; and when he found out that Mrs. Charmond, although back from abroad, was still in London, he had sworn angrily and left without leaving a card or any sign of himself.
The girls who related the story added that he sighed three times before he swore, but this part of the narrative was not corroborated. Anyhow, such a gentleman had driven away from the hotel at Sherton next day in a carriage hired at that inn.
The girls who told the story said that he sighed three times before he swore, but this part of the story wasn't confirmed. Anyway, that gentleman left the hotel in Sherton the next day in a carriage he rented from the inn.
CHAPTER XXII.
The sunny, leafy week which followed the tender doings of Midsummer Eve brought a visitor to Fitzpiers’s door; a voice that he knew sounded in the passage. Mr. Melbury had called. At first he had a particular objection to enter the parlor, because his boots were dusty, but as the surgeon insisted he waived the point and came in.
The sunny, leafy week that followed the gentle events of Midsummer Eve brought a visitor to Fitzpiers’s door; a familiar voice echoed in the hallway. Mr. Melbury had arrived. At first, he hesitated to enter the parlor because his boots were dirty, but since the surgeon insisted, he let it go and stepped inside.
Looking neither to the right nor to the left, hardly at Fitzpiers himself, he put his hat under his chair, and with a preoccupied gaze at the floor, he said, “I’ve called to ask you, doctor, quite privately, a question that troubles me. I’ve a daughter, Grace, an only daughter, as you may have heard. Well, she’s been out in the dew—on Midsummer Eve in particular she went out in thin slippers to watch some vagary of the Hintock maids—and she’s got a cough, a distinct hemming and hacking, that makes me uneasy. Now, I have decided to send her away to some seaside place for a change—”
Looking neither to the right nor to the left, hardly even at Fitzpiers, he put his hat under his chair, and with a distracted look at the floor, he said, “I’ve come to ask you, doctor, quite privately, a question that’s been bothering me. I have a daughter, Grace, my only daughter, as you may have heard. Well, she went out in the dew—on Midsummer Eve in particular, she went out in thin slippers to watch some antics of the Hintock maids—and now she’s got a cough, a noticeable wheezing and hacking, that makes me anxious. So, I’ve decided to send her away to some seaside place for a change—”
“Send her away!” Fitzpiers’s countenance had fallen.
“Send her away!” Fitzpiers’s expression had dropped.
“Yes. And the question is, where would you advise me to send her?”
“Yes. And the question is, where would you suggest I send her?”
The timber-merchant had happened to call at a moment when Fitzpiers was at the spring-tide of a sentiment that Grace was a necessity of his existence. The sudden pressure of her form upon his breast as she came headlong round the bush had never ceased to linger with him, ever since he adopted the manoeuvre for which the hour and the moonlight and the occasion had been the only excuse. Now she was to be sent away. Ambition? it could be postponed. Family? culture and reciprocity of tastes had taken the place of family nowadays. He allowed himself to be carried forward on the wave of his desire.
The timber merchant happened to arrive just when Fitzpiers was feeling that Grace was essential to his life. The sudden pressure of her body against his chest when she unexpectedly rounded the bush had stuck with him ever since he made that move, with the hour, the moonlight, and the moment being the only reasons for it. Now, she was about to be sent away. Ambition? That could wait. Family? Shared interests and tastes had replaced family these days. He let himself be swept along by his desire.
“How strange, how very strange it is,” he said, “that you should have come to me about her just now. I have been thinking every day of coming to you on the very same errand.”
“How odd, how very odd it is,” he said, “that you would come to me about her right now. I’ve been thinking every day about coming to you for the exact same reason.”
“Ah!—you have noticed, too, that her health——”
“Ah!—you’ve noticed, too, that her health——”
“I have noticed nothing the matter with her health, because there is nothing. But, Mr. Melbury, I have seen your daughter several times by accident. I have admired her infinitely, and I was coming to ask you if I may become better acquainted with her—pay my addresses to her?”
“I haven’t noticed anything wrong with her health because there’s nothing wrong. But, Mr. Melbury, I’ve run into your daughter a few times by chance. I’ve admired her a lot, and I wanted to ask if I could get to know her better—possibly pursue her?”
Melbury was looking down as he listened, and did not see the air of half-misgiving at his own rashness that spread over Fitzpiers’s face as he made this declaration.
Melbury was looking down as he listened and didn't notice the look of uncertainty about his own impulsiveness that crossed Fitzpiers’s face when he made this declaration.
“You have—got to know her?” said Melbury, a spell of dead silence having preceded his utterance, during which his emotion rose with almost visible effect.
“You’ve got to know her?” said Melbury, after a long pause of dead silence, during which his emotions became almost palpable.
“Yes,” said Fitzpiers.
“Yes,” Fitzpiers replied.
“And you wish to become better acquainted with her? You mean with a view to marriage—of course that is what you mean?”
“And you want to get to know her better? You mean with the idea of marriage—of course, that's what you mean?”
“Yes,” said the young man. “I mean, get acquainted with her, with a view to being her accepted lover; and if we suited each other, what would naturally follow.”
“Yes,” said the young man. “I mean, get to know her, with the intention of becoming her accepted boyfriend; and if we were a good match, what would naturally come next.”
The timber-merchant was much surprised, and fairly agitated; his hand trembled as he laid by his walking-stick. “This takes me unawares,” said he, his voice wellnigh breaking down. “I don’t mean that there is anything unexpected in a gentleman being attracted by her; but it did not occur to me that it would be you. I always said,” continued he, with a lump in his throat, “that my Grace would make a mark at her own level some day. That was why I educated her. I said to myself, ‘I’ll do it, cost what it may;’ though her mother-law was pretty frightened at my paying out so much money year after year. I knew it would tell in the end. ‘Where you’ve not good material to work on, such doings would be waste and vanity,’ I said. ‘But where you have that material it is sure to be worth while.’”
The timber merchant was quite surprised and pretty shaken; his hand shook as he set down his walking stick. “This catches me off guard,” he said, his voice nearly breaking. “I don’t mean there's anything surprising about a gentleman being drawn to her; but I didn’t think it would be you. I always said,” he continued, with a lump in his throat, “that my Grace would make an impression at her own level someday. That’s why I educated her. I told myself, ‘I’ll do it, no matter the cost;’ even though her mother-in-law was pretty worried about me spending so much money year after year. I knew it would pay off in the end. ‘When you don’t have good material to work with, such efforts would be a waste and foolishness,’ I said. ‘But when you have that material, it’s definitely worth it.’”
“I am glad you don’t object,” said Fitzpiers, almost wishing that Grace had not been quite so cheap for him.
“I’m glad you don’t mind,” said Fitzpiers, almost wishing that Grace hadn’t been quite so easy for him.
“If she is willing I don’t object, certainly. Indeed,” added the honest man, “it would be deceit if I were to pretend to feel anything else than highly honored personally; and it is a great credit to her to have drawn to her a man of such good professional station and venerable old family. That huntsman-fellow little thought how wrong he was about her! Take her and welcome, sir.”
“If she’s willing, I have no problem with it, for sure. Honestly,” added the sincere man, “it would be dishonest if I pretended to feel anything other than truly honored. It’s a big compliment to her that she attracted someone with such a solid career and respectable family. That hunter guy had no idea how mistaken he was about her! Take her; she’s all yours, sir.”
“I’ll endeavor to ascertain her mind.”
"I'll try to understand what she thinks."
“Yes, yes. But she will be agreeable, I should think. She ought to be.”
“Yes, yes. But I think she'll be agreeable. She should be.”
“I hope she may. Well, now you’ll expect to see me frequently.”
“I hope she does. Well, now you’ll be expecting to see me often.”
“Oh yes. But, name it all—about her cough, and her going away. I had quite forgot that that was what I came about.”
“Oh yes. But let’s talk about everything—her cough and her leaving. I completely forgot that was why I came.”
“I assure you,” said the surgeon, “that her cough can only be the result of a slight cold, and it is not necessary to banish her to any seaside place at all.”
“I assure you,” said the surgeon, “that her cough is just from a minor cold, and there’s no need to send her off to any seaside location.”
Melbury looked unconvinced, doubting whether he ought to take Fitzpiers’s professional opinion in circumstances which naturally led him to wish to keep her there. The doctor saw this, and honestly dreading to lose sight of her, he said, eagerly, “Between ourselves, if I am successful with her I will take her away myself for a month or two, as soon as we are married, which I hope will be before the chilly weather comes on. This will be so very much better than letting her go now.”
Melbury looked skeptical, unsure if he should trust Fitzpiers’s professional opinion when the situation clearly made him want to keep her there. The doctor noticed this and, genuinely fearing he might lose her, said eagerly, “Just between us, if I do well with her, I’ll take her away myself for a month or two as soon as we’re married, which I hope will happen before the cold weather sets in. This would be so much better than letting her go now.”
The proposal pleased Melbury much. There could be hardly any danger in postponing any desirable change of air as long as the warm weather lasted, and for such a reason. Suddenly recollecting himself, he said, “Your time must be precious, doctor. I’ll get home-along. I am much obliged to ye. As you will see her often, you’ll discover for yourself if anything serious is the matter.”
The proposal made Melbury quite happy. There was really no risk in delaying any much-needed change of environment as long as the warm weather continued, and for that reason. Suddenly remembering himself, he said, “Your time must be valuable, doctor. I’ll head home now. I appreciate it. Since you’ll see her frequently, you’ll find out for yourself if anything serious is wrong.”
“I can assure you it is nothing,” said Fitzpiers, who had seen Grace much oftener already than her father knew of.
“I can assure you it’s nothing,” said Fitzpiers, who had seen Grace way more times than her father was aware of.
When he was gone Fitzpiers paused, silent, registering his sensations, like a man who has made a plunge for a pearl into a medium of which he knows not the density or temperature. But he had done it, and Grace was the sweetest girl alive.
When he left, Fitzpiers paused, silent, taking in his feelings, like someone who has dived for a pearl into water that he isn't sure about the density or temperature. But he had done it, and Grace was the sweetest girl alive.
As for the departed visitor, his own last words lingered in Melbury’s ears as he walked homeward; he felt that what he had said in the emotion of the moment was very stupid, ungenteel, and unsuited to a dialogue with an educated gentleman, the smallness of whose practice was more than compensated by the former greatness of his family. He had uttered thoughts before they were weighed, and almost before they were shaped. They had expressed in a certain sense his feeling at Fitzpiers’s news, but yet they were not right. Looking on the ground, and planting his stick at each tread as if it were a flag-staff, he reached his own precincts, where, as he passed through the court, he automatically stopped to look at the men working in the shed and around. One of them asked him a question about wagon-spokes.
As for the visitor who left, his final words echoed in Melbury’s mind as he walked home; he felt that what he had said in the heat of the moment was really foolish, uncivilized, and not appropriate for a conversation with an educated gentleman, whose limited practice was more than offset by the former prestige of his family. He had spoken his thoughts before they were fully formed, and almost before he had thought them through. They reflected, to some extent, his feelings about Fitzpiers’s news, but they weren’t quite right. Looking down at the ground and planting his stick with each step like a flag, he reached his own area, where, as he passed through the courtyard, he automatically paused to observe the men working in the shed and around. One of them asked him a question about wagon spokes.
“Hey?” said Melbury, looking hard at him. The man repeated the words.
“Hey?” Melbury said, staring at him. The man repeated the words.
Melbury stood; then turning suddenly away without answering, he went up the court and entered the house. As time was no object with the journeymen, except as a thing to get past, they leisurely surveyed the door through which he had disappeared.
Melbury stood there; then, suddenly turning away without saying a word, he walked up the path and entered the house. Since time didn’t matter to the workers, other than as something to pass, they casually examined the door through which he had vanished.
“What maggot has the gaffer got in his head now?” said Tangs the elder. “Sommit to do with that chiel of his! When you’ve got a maid of yer own, John Upjohn, that costs ye what she costs him, that will take the squeak out of your Sunday shoes, John! But you’ll never be tall enough to accomplish such as she; and ’tis a lucky thing for ye, John, as things be. Well, he ought to have a dozen—that would bring him to reason. I see ’em walking together last Sunday, and when they came to a puddle he lifted her over like a halfpenny doll. He ought to have a dozen; he’d let ’em walk through puddles for themselves then.”
“What crazy idea does the boss have in his head now?” said Tangs the elder. “Something to do with that kid of his! When you have a maid of your own, John Upjohn, who costs you as much as she costs him, that will take the fun out of your Sunday shoes, John! But you’ll never be good enough to have someone like her; and it’s probably a good thing for you, John, as things are. Well, he should have a dozen—maybe that would make him think twice. I saw them walking together last Sunday, and when they got to a puddle, he picked her up like a doll. He should have a dozen; then he’d let them walk through puddles on their own.”
Meanwhile Melbury had entered the house with the look of a man who sees a vision before him. His wife was in the room. Without taking off his hat he sat down at random.
Meanwhile, Melbury walked into the house with the expression of someone who’s caught a glimpse of a vision. His wife was in the room. Without removing his hat, he sat down randomly.
“Luce—we’ve done it!” he said. “Yes—the thing is as I expected. The spell, that I foresaw might be worked, has worked. She’s done it, and done it well. Where is she—Grace, I mean?”
“Luce—we did it!” he said. “Yes—the thing is just as I expected. The spell that I thought could be used has worked. She did it, and she did it well. Where is she—Grace, I mean?”
“Up in her room—what has happened!”
“Up in her room—what’s going on!”
Mr. Melbury explained the circumstances as coherently as he could. “I told you so,” he said. “A maid like her couldn’t stay hid long, even in a place like this. But where is Grace? Let’s have her down. Here—Gra-a-ace!”
Mr. Melbury explained the situation as clearly as he could. “I told you so,” he said. “A maid like her couldn’t stay hidden for long, even in a place like this. But where is Grace? Let’s call her down. Here—Gra-a-ace!”
She appeared after a reasonable interval, for she was sufficiently spoiled by this father of hers not to put herself in a hurry, however impatient his tones. “What is it, father?” said she, with a smile.
She showed up after a little while, because her father had spoiled her enough that she didn't feel the need to rush, no matter how impatient he sounded. “What’s up, Dad?” she asked, smiling.
“Why, you scamp, what’s this you’ve been doing? Not home here more than six months, yet, instead of confining yourself to your father’s rank, making havoc in the educated classes.”
“Why, you rascal, what have you been up to? You’ve only been home for six months, and instead of sticking to your father’s position, you’re causing chaos among the educated people.”
Though accustomed to show herself instantly appreciative of her father’s meanings, Grace was fairly unable to look anyhow but at a loss now.
Though used to quickly showing her appreciation for her father’s intentions, Grace felt completely at a loss now.
“No, no—of course you don’t know what I mean, or you pretend you don’t; though, for my part, I believe women can see these things through a double hedge. But I suppose I must tell ye. Why, you’ve flung your grapnel over the doctor, and he’s coming courting forthwith.”
“No, no—of course you don’t know what I mean, or you’re just pretending not to; but, as for me, I believe women can see these things through a double hedge. But I guess I should just tell you. Well, you’ve thrown your line over the doctor, and he’s coming to court you right away.”
“Only think of that, my dear! Don’t you feel it a triumph?” said Mrs. Melbury.
“Just think about that, dear! Don’t you see it as a victory?” said Mrs. Melbury.
“Coming courting! I’ve done nothing to make him,” Grace exclaimed.
“Coming to court! I haven’t done anything to make him,” Grace exclaimed.
“’Twasn’t necessary that you should, ’Tis voluntary that rules in these things....Well, he has behaved very honorably, and asked my consent. You’ll know what to do when he gets here, I dare say. I needn’t tell you to make it all smooth for him.”
“Wasn’t necessary for you to, it’s voluntary that rules apply in these situations... Well, he has acted very honorably and asked for my permission. You'll know what to do when he arrives, I’m sure. I don’t need to remind you to make things easy for him.”
“You mean, to lead him on to marry me?”
“You mean, to trick him into marrying me?”
“I do. Haven’t I educated you for it?”
“I do. Haven’t I prepared you for it?”
Grace looked out of the window and at the fireplace with no animation in her face. “Why is it settled off-hand in this way?” said she, coquettishly. “You’ll wait till you hear what I think of him, I suppose?”
Grace glanced out the window and at the fireplace, her face expressionless. “Why is it decided so casually like this?” she asked playfully. “I assume you’ll wait to hear what I think of him, right?”
“Oh yes, of course. But you see what a good thing it will be.”
“Oh yes, definitely. But don’t you see how great it will be?”
She weighed the statement without speaking.
She thought about the statement quietly.
“You will be restored to the society you’ve been taken away from,” continued her father; “for I don’t suppose he’ll stay here long.”
“You’ll be back in the society you’ve been taken from,” her father continued, “because I doubt he’ll stick around here for long.”
She admitted the advantage; but it was plain that though Fitzpiers exercised a certain fascination over her when he was present, or even more, an almost psychic influence, and though his impulsive act in the wood had stirred her feelings indescribably, she had never regarded him in the light of a destined husband. “I don’t know what to answer,” she said. “I have learned that he is very clever.”
She acknowledged the advantage; but it was clear that even though Fitzpiers had a certain charm when he was around, or even more, an almost psychic pull, and even though his spontaneous action in the woods had stirred her emotions in ways she couldn't explain, she had never seen him as her destined husband. “I don’t know how to respond,” she said. “I’ve realized that he’s very smart.”
“He’s all right, and he’s coming here to see you.”
“He's doing fine, and he's coming here to see you.”
A premonition that she could not resist him if he came strangely moved her. “Of course, father, you remember that it is only lately that Giles—”
A feeling that she wouldn't be able to resist him if he showed up unexpectedly stirred her emotions. “Of course, Dad, you remember that it was only recently that Giles—”
“You know that you can’t think of him. He has given up all claim to you.”
“You know you can’t think about him. He has let go of any claim to you.”
She could not explain the subtleties of her feeling as he could state his opinion, even though she had skill in speech, and her father had none. That Fitzpiers acted upon her like a dram, exciting her, throwing her into a novel atmosphere which biassed her doings until the influence was over, when she felt something of the nature of regret for the mood she had experienced—still more if she reflected on the silent, almost sarcastic, criticism apparent in Winterborne’s air towards her—could not be told to this worthy couple in words.
She couldn't explain the nuances of her feelings the way he could express his opinions, even though she was good with words and her father wasn't. Fitzpiers affected her like a shot of liquor, energizing her and putting her in a new environment that influenced her actions until the effect wore off. Afterwards, she felt a bit of regret for the state she had been in—especially when she thought about the silent, almost sarcastic, judgment she sensed from Winterborne toward her. This couldn’t be put into words for this decent couple.
It so happened that on this very day Fitzpiers was called away from Hintock by an engagement to attend some medical meetings, and his visits, therefore, did not begin at once. A note, however, arrived from him addressed to Grace, deploring his enforced absence. As a material object this note was pretty and superfine, a note of a sort that she had been unaccustomed to see since her return to Hintock, except when a school friend wrote to her—a rare instance, for the girls were respecters of persons, and many cooled down towards the timber-dealer’s daughter when she was out of sight. Thus the receipt of it pleased her, and she afterwards walked about with a reflective air.
It just so happened that on this day, Fitzpiers had to leave Hintock for some medical meetings, so he didn’t start his visits right away. However, he sent a note to Grace, expressing his regret over not being there. The note itself was pretty and high-quality, something she hadn’t seen since returning to Hintock, except for the rare occasions when a school friend wrote to her—a rarity since the girls often looked down on her once she wasn’t around. Receiving the note made her happy, and she walked around with a thoughtful expression afterwards.
In the evening her father, who knew that the note had come, said, “Why be ye not sitting down to answer your letter? That’s what young folks did in my time.”
In the evening, her father, who knew that the note had arrived, said, “Why aren’t you sitting down to respond to your letter? That’s what young people did in my day.”
She replied that it did not require an answer.
She replied that it didn't need an answer.
“Oh, you know best,” he said. Nevertheless, he went about his business doubting if she were right in not replying; possibly she might be so mismanaging matters as to risk the loss of an alliance which would bring her much happiness.
“Oh, you know best,” he said. Still, he went about his business doubting whether she was correct in not responding; she might be mishandling the situation and risking the loss of an alliance that could bring her a lot of happiness.
Melbury’s respect for Fitzpiers was based less on his professional position, which was not much, than on the standing of his family in the county in by-gone days. That implicit faith in members of long-established families, as such, irrespective of their personal condition or character, which is still found among old-fashioned people in the rural districts reached its full intensity in Melbury. His daughter’s suitor was descended from a family he had heard of in his grandfather’s time as being once great, a family which had conferred its name upon a neighboring village; how, then, could anything be amiss in this betrothal?
Melbury’s respect for Fitzpiers came more from his family's past reputation in the county than from Fitzpiers' actual professional status, which was minimal. Melbury embodied that unwavering trust in long-established families, regardless of their personal circumstances or character, a view that still exists among traditional people in rural areas. Fitzpiers was a descendant of a family that Melbury had heard about in his grandfather's time, a family that once held significant prestige and even lent its name to a neighboring village; so, how could anything be wrong with this engagement?
“I must keep her up to this,” he said to his wife. “She sees it is for her happiness; but still she’s young, and may want a little prompting from an older tongue.”
“I need to keep her in the loop,” he said to his wife. “She knows it’s for her happiness, but she’s still young and might need some guidance from someone more experienced.”
CHAPTER XXIII.
With this in view he took her out for a walk, a custom of his when he wished to say anything specially impressive. Their way was over the top of that lofty ridge dividing their woodland from the cider district, whence they had in the spring beheld the miles of apple-trees in bloom. All was now deep green. The spot recalled to Grace’s mind the last occasion of her presence there, and she said, “The promise of an enormous apple-crop is fulfilling itself, is it not? I suppose Giles is getting his mills and presses ready.”
With this in mind, he took her out for a walk, something he liked to do when he had something important to say. They walked over the top of the high ridge that separated their woods from the cider region, where they had seen the fields of apple trees in bloom that spring. Everything was now a deep green. The place reminded Grace of the last time she was there, and she said, “The promise of a huge apple crop is coming true, isn’t it? I guess Giles is getting his mills and presses ready.”
This was just what her father had not come there to talk about. Without replying he raised his arm, and moved his finger till he fixed it at a point. “There,” he said, “you see that plantation reaching over the hill like a great slug, and just behind the hill a particularly green sheltered bottom? That’s where Mr. Fitzpiers’s family were lords of the manor for I don’t know how many hundred years, and there stands the village of Buckbury Fitzpiers. A wonderful property ’twas—wonderful!”
This was exactly what her father hadn’t come there to discuss. Without answering, he raised his arm and pointed his finger until it landed on a spot. “There,” he said, “do you see that plantation stretching over the hill like a big slug, and just behind the hill is a particularly lush, sheltered valley? That’s where Mr. Fitzpiers’s family were lords of the manor for I don’t know how many hundreds of years, and there stands the village of Buckbury Fitzpiers. It was an amazing property—amazing!”
“But they are not lords of the manor there now.”
“But they aren’t the lords of the manor there now.”
“Why, no. But good and great things die as well as little and foolish. The only ones representing the family now, I believe, are our doctor and a maiden lady living I don’t know where. You can’t help being happy, Grace, in allying yourself with such a romantical family. You’ll feel as if you’ve stepped into history.”
“Why, no. But both great and small things die, just like foolish ones do. The only family members left, I think, are our doctor and a single woman living I don’t know where. You can’t help but feel happy, Grace, joining such a romantic family. It’ll be like stepping into history.”
“We’ve been at Hintock as long as they’ve been at Buckbury; is it not so? You say our name occurs in old deeds continually.”
“We’ve been at Hintock as long as they’ve been at Buckbury; isn’t that right? You say our name keeps coming up in old documents.”
“Oh yes—as yeomen, copyholders, and such like. But think how much better this will be for ’ee. You’ll be living a high intellectual life, such as has now become natural to you; and though the doctor’s practice is small here, he’ll no doubt go to a dashing town when he’s got his hand in, and keep a stylish carriage, and you’ll be brought to know a good many ladies of excellent society. If you should ever meet me then, Grace, you can drive past me, looking the other way. I shouldn’t expect you to speak to me, or wish such a thing, unless it happened to be in some lonely, private place where ’twouldn’t lower ye at all. Don’t think such men as neighbor Giles your equal. He and I shall be good friends enough, but he’s not for the like of you. He’s lived our rough and homely life here, and his wife’s life must be rough and homely likewise.”
“Oh yes—like yeomen, copyholders, and the like. But think about how much better this will be for you. You’ll be living a high intellectual life, which has now become second nature to you; and even though the doctor’s practice is small here, he’ll definitely move to an upscale town once he gets established, and have a fancy carriage, and you’ll get to know a lot of ladies from good society. If you ever run into me then, Grace, you can just drive past, looking the other way. I wouldn’t expect you to say anything to me, nor would I want you to, unless it happened to be in some secluded, private place where it wouldn’t embarrass you at all. Don’t think of men like neighbor Giles as your equals. He and I will get along just fine, but he’s not suited for someone like you. He’s lived a rough and simple life here, and his wife’s life must be rough and simple too.”
So much pressure could not but produce some displacement. As Grace was left very much to herself, she took advantage of one fine day before Fitzpiers’s return to drive into the aforesaid vale where stood the village of Buckbury Fitzpiers. Leaving her father’s man at the inn with the horse and gig, she rambled onward to the ruins of a castle, which stood in a field hard by. She had no doubt that it represented the ancient stronghold of the Fitzpiers family.
So much pressure was bound to cause some change. Since Grace was mostly on her own, she took the opportunity on a nice day before Fitzpiers came back to drive into the valley where the village of Buckbury Fitzpiers was located. Leaving her father’s man at the inn with the horse and cart, she wandered over to the ruins of a castle that was in a nearby field. She was sure that it used to be the ancient stronghold of the Fitzpiers family.
The remains were few, and consisted mostly of remnants of the lower vaulting, supported on low stout columns surmounted by the crochet capital of the period. The two or three arches of these vaults that were still in position were utilized by the adjoining farmer as shelter for his calves, the floor being spread with straw, amid which the young creatures rustled, cooling their thirsty tongues by licking the quaint Norman carving, which glistened with the moisture. It was a degradation of even such a rude form of art as this to be treatad so grossly, she thought, and for the first time the family of Fitzpiers assumed in her imagination the hues of a melancholy romanticism.
The remains were minimal and mainly included parts of the lower vaulting, supported by short, sturdy columns topped with the crochet capital of that era. The two or three arches of these vaults that were still standing were used by the neighboring farmer as a shelter for his calves, with the floor covered in straw, where the young animals rustled around, cooling their thirsty tongues by licking the unique Norman carvings, which sparkled with moisture. She thought it was a degradation of even such a crude form of art to be treated so poorly, and for the first time, the family of Fitzpiers took on a sense of melancholy romanticism in her imagination.
It was soon time to drive home, and she traversed the distance with a preoccupied mind. The idea of so modern a man in science and aesthetics as the young surgeon springing out of relics so ancient was a kind of novelty she had never before experienced. The combination lent him a social and intellectual interest which she dreaded, so much weight did it add to the strange influence he exercised upon her whenever he came near her.
It was soon time to drive home, and she made the journey with her mind elsewhere. The thought of such a modern man in science and aesthetics like the young surgeon coming from such ancient roots was a kind of novelty she had never felt before. This combination gave him a social and intellectual appeal that she found intimidating, as it added to the strange influence he had over her whenever he was near.
In an excitement which was not love, not ambition, rather a fearful consciousness of hazard in the air, she awaited his return.
In a thrill that wasn't love or ambition, but rather a nervous awareness of danger in the atmosphere, she waited for his return.
Meanwhile her father was awaiting him also. In his house there was an old work on medicine, published towards the end of the last century, and to put himself in harmony with events Melbury spread this work on his knees when he had done his day’s business, and read about Galen, Hippocrates, and Herophilus—of the dogmatic, the empiric, the hermetical, and other sects of practitioners that have arisen in history; and thence proceeded to the classification of maladies and the rules for their treatment, as laid down in this valuable book with absolute precision. Melbury regretted that the treatise was so old, fearing that he might in consequence be unable to hold as complete a conversation as he could wish with Mr. Fitzpiers, primed, no doubt, with more recent discoveries.
Meanwhile, her father was also waiting for him. In his house, there was an old book on medicine, published toward the end of the last century. To keep up with things, Melbury spread this book on his lap after finishing his work for the day and read about Galen, Hippocrates, and Herophilus—the dogmatic, the empirical, the hermetic, and other types of practitioners that have appeared throughout history. He then moved on to the classification of diseases and the treatment guidelines outlined in this valuable book with absolute precision. Melbury wished the treatise were more current, fearing that as a result, he might not be able to have as thorough a conversation as he would like with Mr. Fitzpiers, who was no doubt familiar with more recent discoveries.
The day of Fitzpiers’s return arrived, and he sent to say that he would call immediately. In the little time that was afforded for putting the house in order the sweeping of Melbury’s parlor was as the sweeping of the parlor at the Interpreter’s which wellnigh choked the Pilgrim. At the end of it Mrs. Melbury sat down, folded her hands and lips, and waited. Her husband restlessly walked in and out from the timber-yard, stared at the interior of the room, jerked out “ay, ay,” and retreated again. Between four and five Fitzpiers arrived, hitching his horse to the hook outside the door.
The day Fitzpiers was set to return came, and he let them know he would be arriving right away. In the short time they had to tidy up the house, cleaning Melbury’s living room was just as chaotic as the cleaning at the Interpreter’s that nearly suffocated the Pilgrim. When it was done, Mrs. Melbury sat down, folded her hands and lips, and waited. Her husband paced back and forth from the timber yard, looked around the room, muttered “yeah, yeah,” and then left again. Between four and five, Fitzpiers showed up, tying his horse to the hook outside the door.
As soon as he had walked in and perceived that Grace was not in the room, he seemed to have a misgiving. Nothing less than her actual presence could long keep him to the level of this impassioned enterprise, and that lacking he appeared as one who wished to retrace his steps.
As soon as he walked in and saw that Grace wasn’t in the room, he seemed to feel uneasy. Without her being there, he couldn’t stay focused on this intense mission, and without her, he looked like someone who wanted to turn back.
He mechanically talked at what he considered a woodland matron’s level of thought till a rustling was heard on the stairs, and Grace came in. Fitzpiers was for once as agitated as she. Over and above the genuine emotion which she raised in his heart there hung the sense that he was casting a die by impulse which he might not have thrown by judgment.
He spoke in a mechanical way, as if trying to match what he thought a woodland matron would think, until a rustling was heard on the stairs and Grace walked in. For once, Fitzpiers felt as anxious as she did. Besides the real feelings she stirred in him, there was also the awareness that he was making a spontaneous decision that he might not have made if he had thought it through.
Mr. Melbury was not in the room. Having to attend to matters in the yard, he had delayed putting on his afternoon coat and waistcoat till the doctor’s appearance, when, not wishing to be backward in receiving him, he entered the parlor hastily buttoning up those garments. Grace’s fastidiousness was a little distressed that Fitzpiers should see by this action the strain his visit was putting upon her father; and to make matters worse for her just then, old Grammer seemed to have a passion for incessantly pumping in the back kitchen, leaving the doors open so that the banging and splashing were distinct above the parlor conversation.
Mr. Melbury wasn’t in the room. He had to take care of some stuff in the yard, so he waited to put on his afternoon coat and waistcoat until the doctor arrived. Not wanting to seem slow in welcoming him, he hurried into the parlor, buttoning up those clothes. Grace felt a bit uncomfortable that Fitzpiers could see her father’s stress from this action. To make things even worse for her at that moment, old Grammer seemed to be obsessed with constantly pumping in the back kitchen, leaving the doors open so that the banging and splashing were clearly heard over the conversation in the parlor.
Whenever the chat over the tea sank into pleasant desultoriness Mr. Melbury broke in with speeches of labored precision on very remote topics, as if he feared to let Fitzpiers’s mind dwell critically on the subject nearest the hearts of all. In truth a constrained manner was natural enough in Melbury just now, for the greatest interest of his life was reaching its crisis. Could the real have been beheld instead of the corporeal merely, the corner of the room in which he sat would have been filled with a form typical of anxious suspense, large-eyed, tight-lipped, awaiting the issue. That paternal hopes and fears so intense should be bound up in the person of one child so peculiarly circumstanced, and not have dispersed themselves over the larger field of a whole family, involved dangerous risks to future happiness.
Whenever the conversation over tea drifted into a pleasant aimlessness, Mr. Melbury would interrupt with speeches of carefully chosen words on very distant topics, as if he was worried about letting Fitzpiers’s mind focus critically on what was closest to everyone’s hearts. In reality, a tense demeanor was completely understandable for Melbury at this moment, as the most important event of his life was reaching its peak. If one could see the truth instead of just the physical form, the corner of the room where he sat would be filled with a figure characterized by anxious anticipation, large eyes, and a tight-lipped expression, waiting for the outcome. That such intense paternal hopes and fears should be tied up in the life of one child who was in such a unique situation, rather than being spread out over a larger family, posed significant risks to future happiness.
Fitzpiers did not stay more than an hour, but that time had apparently advanced his sentiments towards Grace, once and for all, from a vaguely liquescent to an organic shape. She would not have accompanied him to the door in response to his whispered “Come!” if her mother had not said in a matter-of-fact way, “Of course, Grace; go to the door with Mr. Fitzpiers.” Accordingly Grace went, both her parents remaining in the room. When the young pair were in the great brick-floored hall the lover took the girl’s hand in his, drew it under his arm, and thus led her on to the door, where he stealthily kissed her.
Fitzpiers didn’t stay for more than an hour, but that time had clearly changed his feelings for Grace, moving them from a vague kind of longing to something solid. She wouldn’t have gone to the door in response to his whispered “Come!” if her mother hadn’t said in a straightforward way, “Of course, Grace; go to the door with Mr. Fitzpiers.” So, Grace went, while both her parents stayed in the room. Once they were in the large hall with the brick floor, the young man took her hand, slipped it under his arm, and led her to the door, where he quietly kissed her.
She broke from him trembling, blushed and turned aside, hardly knowing how things had advanced to this. Fitzpiers drove off, kissing his hand to her, and waving it to Melbury who was visible through the window. Her father returned the surgeon’s action with a great flourish of his own hand and a satisfied smile.
She pulled away from him, shaking and blushing, turning to the side, barely understanding how things had gotten to this point. Fitzpiers drove away, blowing her a kiss and waving to Melbury, who was visible through the window. Her father responded to the surgeon’s gesture with an exaggerated wave of his own hand and a pleased smile.
The intoxication that Fitzpiers had, as usual, produced in Grace’s brain during the visit passed off somewhat with his withdrawal. She felt like a woman who did not know what she had been doing for the previous hour, but supposed with trepidation that the afternoon’s proceedings, though vague, had amounted to an engagement between herself and the handsome, coercive, irresistible Fitzpiers.
The buzz that Fitzpiers usually sparked in Grace faded a bit after he left. She felt like a woman who couldn't recall what she had been doing for the last hour but was nervously assuming that the afternoon's events, although unclear, had led to some sort of engagement between her and the charming, persuasive, and captivating Fitzpiers.
This visit was a type of many which followed it during the long summer days of that year. Grace was borne along upon a stream of reasonings, arguments, and persuasions, supplemented, it must be added, by inclinations of her own at times. No woman is without aspirations, which may be innocent enough within certain limits; and Grace had been so trained socially, and educated intellectually, as to see clearly enough a pleasure in the position of wife to such a man as Fitzpiers. His material standing of itself, either present or future, had little in it to give her ambition, but the possibilities of a refined and cultivated inner life, of subtle psychological intercourse, had their charm. It was this rather than any vulgar idea of marrying well which caused her to float with the current, and to yield to the immense influence which Fitzpiers exercised over her whenever she shared his society.
This visit was one of many that followed during the long summer days of that year. Grace was swept along by a flow of reasoning, arguments, and persuasive talks, influenced, it must be noted, by her own feelings at times. No woman is without aspirations, which can be innocent enough within certain limits; and Grace had been trained socially and educated intellectually to see a certain pleasure in being the wife of a man like Fitzpiers. His financial status alone, whether present or future, offered little to satisfy her ambition, but the potential for a refined and cultured inner life, with deep psychological connections, was appealing. It was this allure, rather than any shallow idea of marrying well, that made her go with the flow and surrender to the strong influence Fitzpiers had over her whenever she was with him.
Any observer would shrewdly have prophesied that whether or not she loved him as yet in the ordinary sense, she was pretty sure to do so in time.
Any observer would have wisely predicted that whether or not she loved him in the usual way yet, she was likely to do so eventually.
One evening just before dusk they had taken a rather long walk together, and for a short cut homeward passed through the shrubberies of Hintock House—still deserted, and still blankly confronting with its sightless shuttered windows the surrounding foliage and slopes. Grace was tired, and they approached the wall, and sat together on one of the stone sills—still warm with the sun that had been pouring its rays upon them all the afternoon.
One evening just before sunset, they took a long walk together, and to shorten their way home, they went through the shrubs of Hintock House—still empty, with its sightless, shut windows staring blankly at the surrounding greenery and hills. Grace was tired, so they walked to the wall and sat together on one of the stone ledges—still warm from the sun that had been shining down on them all afternoon.
“This place would just do for us, would it not, dearest,” said her betrothed, as they sat, turning and looking idly at the old facade.
“This place would be perfect for us, wouldn’t it, my love,” said her fiancé, as they sat, casually turning to gaze at the old facade.
“Oh yes,” said Grace, plainly showing that no such fancy had ever crossed her mind. “She is away from home still,” Grace added in a minute, rather sadly, for she could not forget that she had somehow lost the valuable friendship of the lady of this bower.
“Oh yes,” Grace said, clearly indicating that she had never thought such a thing. “She is still away from home,” Grace added after a moment, a bit sadly, as she couldn’t shake the feeling that she had somehow lost the valuable friendship of the lady of this bower.
“Who is?—oh, you mean Mrs. Charmond. Do you know, dear, that at one time I thought you lived here.”
“Who is?—oh, you mean Mrs. Charmond. Do you know, dear, that at one point I thought you lived here?”
“Indeed!” said Grace. “How was that?”
“Absolutely!” said Grace. “What happened then?”
He explained, as far as he could do so without mentioning his disappointment at finding it was otherwise; and then went on: “Well, never mind that. Now I want to ask you something. There is one detail of our wedding which I am sure you will leave to me. My inclination is not to be married at the horrid little church here, with all the yokels staring round at us, and a droning parson reading.”
He explained as best as he could without bringing up his disappointment that it was different; and then continued: “Well, never mind that. Now I want to ask you something. There’s one detail of our wedding that I’m sure you’ll let me decide. I really don’t want to get married at that awful little church here, with all the locals staring at us and a boring pastor reading.”
“Where, then, can it be? At a church in town?”
“Where can it be, then? At a church in town?”
“No. Not at a church at all. At a registry office. It is a quieter, snugger, and more convenient place in every way.”
“No. Not at a church at all. At a registry office. It’s a quieter, cozier, and more convenient place in every way.”
“Oh,” said she, with real distress. “How can I be married except at church, and with all my dear friends round me?”
“Oh,” she said, genuinely upset. “How can I get married anywhere but at church, with all my dear friends around me?”
“Yeoman Winterborne among them.”
"Yeoman Winterborne is one of them."
“Yes—why not? You know there was nothing serious between him and me.”
“Yes—why not? You know there was nothing serious between him and me.”
“You see, dear, a noisy bell-ringing marriage at church has this objection in our case: it would be a thing of report a long way round. Now I would gently, as gently as possible, indicate to you how inadvisable such publicity would be if we leave Hintock, and I purchase the practice that I contemplate purchasing at Budmouth—hardly more than twenty miles off. Forgive my saying that it will be far better if nobody there knows where you come from, nor anything about your parents. Your beauty and knowledge and manners will carry you anywhere if you are not hampered by such retrospective criticism.”
“You see, dear, having a loud wedding at the church has a downside for us: it would spread the word far and wide. Now, I would like to gently suggest how unwise such publicity would be if we leave Hintock and I buy the practice I'm considering at Budmouth—barely twenty miles away. Forgive me for saying this, but it would be much better if no one there knows where you come from or anything about your parents. Your beauty, intelligence, and manners will take you far if you aren't held back by past judgments.”
“But could it not be a quiet ceremony, even at church?” she pleaded.
“But can't it be a quiet ceremony, even at church?” she pleaded.
“I don’t see the necessity of going there!” he said, a trifle impatiently. “Marriage is a civil contract, and the shorter and simpler it is made the better. People don’t go to church when they take a house, or even when they make a will.”
“I don’t think it’s necessary to go there!” he said, a bit impatiently. “Marriage is just a legal agreement, and the simpler and quicker it is, the better. People don’t go to church when they’re buying a house or even when they’re making a will.”
“Oh, Edgar—I don’t like to hear you speak like that.”
“Oh, Edgar—I really don’t like hearing you say things like that.”
“Well, well—I didn’t mean to. But I have mentioned as much to your father, who has made no objection; and why should you?”
“Well, well—I didn’t mean to. But I have mentioned this to your dad, who hasn’t objected; so why should you?”
She gave way, deeming the point one on which she ought to allow sentiment to give way to policy—if there were indeed policy in his plan. But she was indefinably depressed as they walked homeward.
She stepped aside, thinking that this was a moment where she should let her feelings take a backseat to practical considerations—if there actually was any practicality in his plan. But she felt a vague sense of sadness as they walked home.
CHAPTER XXIV.
He left her at the door of her father’s house. As he receded, and was clasped out of sight by the filmy shades, he impressed Grace as a man who hardly appertained to her existence at all. Cleverer, greater than herself, one outside her mental orbit, as she considered him, he seemed to be her ruler rather than her equal, protector, and dear familiar friend.
He dropped her off at the door of her dad's house. As he walked away and was hidden by the misty shadows, Grace felt like he was someone who barely belonged in her life. Smarter and more impressive than she was, he seemed to be beyond her understanding. To her, he felt more like a ruler than an equal, more like a protector than a close friend.
The disappointment she had experienced at his wish, the shock given to her girlish sensibilities by his irreverent views of marriage, together with the sure and near approach of the day fixed for committing her future to his keeping, made her so restless that she could scarcely sleep at all that night. She rose when the sparrows began to walk out of the roof-holes, sat on the floor of her room in the dim light, and by-and-by peeped out behind the window-curtains. It was even now day out-of-doors, though the tones of morning were feeble and wan, and it was long before the sun would be perceptible in this overshadowed vale. Not a sound came from any of the out-houses as yet. The tree-trunks, the road, the out-buildings, the garden, every object wore that aspect of mesmeric fixity which the suspensive quietude of daybreak lends to such scenes. Outside her window helpless immobility seemed to be combined with intense consciousness; a meditative inertness possessed all things, oppressively contrasting with her own active emotions. Beyond the road were some cottage roofs and orchards; over these roofs and over the apple-trees behind, high up the slope, and backed by the plantation on the crest, was the house yet occupied by her future husband, the rough-cast front showing whitely through its creepers. The window-shutters were closed, the bedroom curtains closely drawn, and not the thinnest coil of smoke rose from the rugged chimneys.
The disappointment she felt from his wish, the shock to her young sensibilities from his disrespectful views on marriage, combined with the impending day when she would commit her future to him, made her so restless that she could hardly sleep that night. She got up when the sparrows started to leave the roof, sat on the floor of her room in the dim light, and eventually peeked out from behind the window curtains. It was already daylight outside, though the morning light was weak and pale, and it would be a long time before the sun was visible in this shaded valley. Not a sound could be heard from any outbuildings yet. The tree trunks, the road, the outbuildings, the garden—everything had that mesmerizing stillness that the quiet of daybreak brings to such scenes. Outside her window, there was a strange stillness mixed with intense awareness; everything seemed to have a meditative inertia that starkly contrasted with her own restless feelings. Beyond the road, she could see some cottage roofs and orchards; above those roofs and the apple trees at the back, high up on the slope, was the house that her future husband still occupied, its rough-cast front showing pale through the climbing plants. The window shutters were closed, the bedroom curtains tightly drawn, and not even a wisp of smoke rose from the sturdy chimneys.
Something broke the stillness. The front door of the house she was gazing at opened softly, and there came out into the porch a female figure, wrapped in a large shawl, beneath which was visible the white skirt of a long loose garment. A gray arm, stretching from within the porch, adjusted the shawl over the woman’s shoulders; it was withdrawn and disappeared, the door closing behind her.
Something disrupted the quiet. The front door of the house she was looking at opened gently, and a woman stepped out onto the porch, wrapped in a large shawl, with the white skirt of a long loose dress visible underneath. A gray arm extended from inside the porch to adjust the shawl over the woman’s shoulders; it then retreated and vanished, with the door closing behind her.
The woman went quickly down the box-edged path between the raspberries and currants, and as she walked her well-developed form and gait betrayed her individuality. It was Suke Damson, the affianced one of simple young Tim Tangs. At the bottom of the garden she entered the shelter of the tall hedge, and only the top of her head could be seen hastening in the direction of her own dwelling.
The woman hurried down the path lined with boxes of raspberries and currants, and as she walked, her well-defined figure and stride showed off her uniqueness. It was Suke Damson, the engaged partner of the simple young Tim Tangs. At the end of the garden, she slipped into the cover of the tall hedge, and only the top of her head was visible as she rushed toward her home.
Grace had recognized, or thought she recognized, in the gray arm stretching from the porch, the sleeve of a dressing-gown which Mr. Fitzpiers had been wearing on her own memorable visit to him. Her face fired red. She had just before thought of dressing herself and taking a lonely walk under the trees, so coolly green this early morning; but she now sat down on her bed and fell into reverie. It seemed as if hardly any time had passed when she heard the household moving briskly about, and breakfast preparing down-stairs; though, on rousing herself to robe and descend, she found that the sun was throwing his rays completely over the tree-tops, a progress of natural phenomena denoting that at least three hours had elapsed since she last looked out of the window.
Grace had recognized, or thought she recognized, the gray arm reaching from the porch as the sleeve of a dressing gown that Mr. Fitzpiers had worn during her memorable visit to him. Her face turned bright red. Just moments before, she had considered getting dressed and taking a solitary walk among the beautifully green trees on that early morning; but now she sat on her bed and drifted into thought. It felt like hardly any time had passed when she heard the household bustling around and breakfast being prepared downstairs; however, when she finally roused herself to get dressed and head down, she realized that the sun was shining brightly over the treetops, indicating that at least three hours had gone by since she last looked out the window.
When attired she searched about the house for her father; she found him at last in the garden, stooping to examine the potatoes for signs of disease. Hearing her rustle, he stood up and stretched his back and arms, saying, “Morning t’ye, Gracie. I congratulate ye. It is only a month to-day to the time!”
When she got dressed, she looked around the house for her dad; she finally found him in the garden, bending down to check the potatoes for any signs of disease. When he heard her moving, he stood up and stretched his back and arms, saying, “Good morning, Gracie. Congrats to you. It's only a month today until the big day!”
She did not answer, but, without lifting her dress, waded between the dewy rows of tall potato-green into the middle of the plot where he was.
She didn’t respond, but without lifting her dress, walked through the dewy rows of tall potato plants to the center of the plot where he was.
“I have been thinking very much about my position this morning—ever since it was light,” she began, excitedly, and trembling so that she could hardly stand. “And I feel it is a false one. I wish not to marry Mr. Fitzpiers. I wish not to marry anybody; but I’ll marry Giles Winterborne if you say I must as an alternative.”
“I’ve been thinking a lot about my situation this morning—ever since it got light,” she began, excited and trembling so much that she could barely stand. “And I feel like it’s not right. I don’t want to marry Mr. Fitzpiers. I don’t want to marry anyone; but I’ll marry Giles Winterborne if you say I have to as an alternative.”
Her father’s face settled into rigidity, he turned pale, and came deliberately out of the plot before he answered her. She had never seen him look so incensed before.
Her father's face hardened, he became pale, and stepped deliberately out of the situation before he answered her. She had never seen him look so furious before.
“Now, hearken to me,” he said. “There’s a time for a woman to alter her mind; and there’s a time when she can no longer alter it, if she has any right eye to her parents’ honor and the seemliness of things. That time has come. I won’t say to ye, you shall marry him. But I will say that if you refuse, I shall forever be ashamed and a-weary of ye as a daughter, and shall look upon you as the hope of my life no more. What do you know about life and what it can bring forth, and how you ought to act to lead up to best ends? Oh, you are an ungrateful maid, Grace; you’ve seen that fellow Giles, and he has got over ye; that’s where the secret lies, I’ll warrant me!”
“Now, listen to me,” he said. “There’s a time for a woman to change her mind, and there’s a time when she can’t change it anymore, especially if she cares about her parents’ honor and what’s proper. That time has come. I won’t tell you that you have to marry him. But I will say that if you refuse, I will forever be ashamed and tired of you as my daughter, and I won’t see you as the hope of my life anymore. What do you know about life and what it can bring, and how you should act to achieve the best outcomes? Oh, you are an ungrateful girl, Grace; you’ve seen that guy Giles, and he has taken over your heart; that’s where the truth lies, I’ll bet you!”
“No, father, no! It is not Giles—it is something I cannot tell you of—”
“No, Dad, no! It’s not Giles—it’s something I can’t explain to you—”
“Well, make fools of us all; make us laughing-stocks; break it off; have your own way.”
“Well, go ahead and make fools of us all; make us the joke; end it; do what you want.”
“But who knows of the engagement as yet? how can breaking it disgrace you?”
“But who knows about the engagement yet? How can breaking it bring you shame?”
Melbury then by degrees admitted that he had mentioned the engagement to this acquaintance and to that, till she perceived that in his restlessness and pride he had published it everywhere. She went dismally away to a bower of laurel at the top of the garden. Her father followed her.
Melbury gradually admitted that he had talked about the engagement to this acquaintance and that one, until she realized that in his restlessness and pride, he had shared it everywhere. She walked off sadly to a laurel bower at the top of the garden. Her father followed her.
“It is that Giles Winterborne!” he said, with an upbraiding gaze at her.
“It’s that Giles Winterborne!” he said, giving her a disapproving look.
“No, it is not; though for that matter you encouraged him once,” she said, troubled to the verge of despair. “It is not Giles, it is Mr. Fitzpiers.”
“No, it isn’t; although you did encourage him once,” she said, troubled to the point of despair. “It’s not Giles, it’s Mr. Fitzpiers.”
“You’ve had a tiff—a lovers’ tiff—that’s all, I suppose!”
"You've had a little argument—a lovers' spat—that's all, I guess!"
“It is some woman—”
"That's some woman—"
“Ay, ay; you are jealous. The old story. Don’t tell me. Now do you bide here. I’ll send Fitzpiers to you. I saw him smoking in front of his house but a minute by-gone.”
“Ay, ay; you’re jealous. The same old story. Don’t give me that. So, are you staying here? I’ll have Fitzpiers come to you. I just saw him smoking in front of his house a minute ago.”
He went off hastily out of the garden-gate and down the lane. But she would not stay where she was; and edging through a slit in the garden-fence, walked away into the wood. Just about here the trees were large and wide apart, and there was no undergrowth, so that she could be seen to some distance; a sylph-like, greenish-white creature, as toned by the sunlight and leafage. She heard a foot-fall crushing dead leaves behind her, and found herself reconnoitered by Fitzpiers himself, approaching gay and fresh as the morning around them.
He hurriedly went out of the garden gate and down the path. But she wouldn’t stay where she was; she slipped through a gap in the garden fence and walked into the woods. Here, the trees were tall and spaced apart, with no underbrush, so she could be seen from a distance—a delicate, greenish-white figure, illuminated by the sunlight and foliage. She heard footsteps crunching dead leaves behind her and turned to see Fitzpiers himself coming toward her, cheerful and bright as the morning around them.
His remote gaze at her had been one of mild interest rather than of rapture. But she looked so lovely in the green world about her, her pink cheeks, her simple light dress, and the delicate flexibility of her movement acquired such rarity from their wild-wood setting, that his eyes kindled as he drew near.
His distant look at her was more of mild curiosity than pure fascination. But she appeared so beautiful in the lush surroundings, with her rosy cheeks, her simple light dress, and the graceful way she moved, all made more striking by the wilderness around them, that his eyes lit up as he approached.
“My darling, what is it? Your father says you are in the pouts, and jealous, and I don’t know what. Ha! ha! ha! as if there were any rival to you, except vegetable nature, in this home of recluses! We know better.”
“My darling, what’s wrong? Your father says you’re sulking and jealous, and I don’t know what else. Ha! ha! ha! as if there’s any competition for you here, except for the plants, in this home of hermits! We know better.”
“Jealous; oh no, it is not so,” said she, gravely. “That’s a mistake of his and yours, sir. I spoke to him so closely about the question of marriage with you that he did not apprehend my state of mind.”
“Jealous? Oh no, that’s not it,” she said seriously. “That’s a misunderstanding on both your parts, sir. I talked to him so openly about the idea of marrying you that he didn’t grasp my feelings.”
“But there’s something wrong—eh?” he asked, eying her narrowly, and bending to kiss her. She shrank away, and his purposed kiss miscarried.
“But there’s something wrong, right?” he asked, looking at her closely and leaning in to kiss her. She pulled away, and his intended kiss missed its mark.
“What is it?” he said, more seriously for this little defeat.
“What is it?” he said, more seriously because of this small setback.
She made no answer beyond, “Mr. Fitzpiers, I have had no breakfast, I must go in.”
She didn’t respond beyond saying, “Mr. Fitzpiers, I haven’t had breakfast, I need to go inside.”
“Come,” he insisted, fixing his eyes upon her. “Tell me at once, I say.”
“Come on,” he insisted, locking his eyes on her. “Tell me right now, I mean it.”
It was the greater strength against the smaller; but she was mastered less by his manner than by her own sense of the unfairness of silence. “I looked out of the window,” she said, with hesitation. “I’ll tell you by-and-by. I must go in-doors. I have had no breakfast.”
It was the stronger one overpowering the weaker; but she was less affected by his demeanor than by her own feeling that silence was unjust. “I looked out the window,” she said, hesitantly. “I’ll tell you later. I need to go inside. I haven’t had breakfast.”
By a sort of divination his conjecture went straight to the fact. “Nor I,” said he, lightly. “Indeed, I rose late to-day. I have had a broken night, or rather morning. A girl of the village—I don’t know her name—came and rang at my bell as soon as it was light—between four and five, I should think it was—perfectly maddened with an aching tooth. As no-body heard her ring, she threw some gravel at my window, till at last I heard her and slipped on my dressing-gown and went down. The poor thing begged me with tears in her eyes to take out her tormentor, if I dragged her head off. Down she sat and out it came—a lovely molar, not a speck upon it; and off she went with it in her handkerchief, much contented, though it would have done good work for her for fifty years to come.”
By some sort of intuition, he figured it out right away. “Not me,” he said casually. “Actually, I got up late today. I had a rough night, or more like a rough morning. A girl from the village—I don’t know her name—came and rang my bell as soon as it got light—between four and five, I’d guess—completely frantic with a toothache. Since no one heard her ring, she started throwing gravel at my window until I finally heard her and put on my robe and went downstairs. The poor girl pleaded with tears in her eyes for me to pull out her pain, even if it meant pulling her head off. She sat down, and out it came—a beautiful molar, not a mark on it; and off she went with it wrapped in her handkerchief, quite happy, even though it could have served her well for another fifty years.”
It was all so plausible—so completely explained. Knowing nothing of the incident in the wood on old Midsummer-eve, Grace felt that her suspicions were unworthy and absurd, and with the readiness of an honest heart she jumped at the opportunity of honoring his word. At the moment of her mental liberation the bushes about the garden had moved, and her father emerged into the shady glade. “Well, I hope it is made up?” he said, cheerily.
It all made so much sense—everything was fully explained. Unaware of the incident in the woods on the old Midsummer-eve, Grace thought her suspicions were unreasonable and ridiculous, and with the sincerity of an honest heart, she eagerly embraced the chance to honor his promise. Just as she felt a rush of relief, the bushes in the garden rustled, and her father stepped into the shady clearing. “So, I hope everything is resolved?” he said, cheerfully.
“Oh yes,” said Fitzpiers, with his eyes fixed on Grace, whose eyes were shyly bent downward.
“Oh yes,” said Fitzpiers, his eyes locked on Grace, who was bashfully looking down.
“Now,” said her father, “tell me, the pair of ye, that you still mean to take one another for good and all; and on the strength o’t you shall have another couple of hundred paid down. I swear it by the name.”
“Now,” said her father, “tell me, both of you, that you still intend to commit to each other for good; and based on that, you’ll get another couple of hundred paid upfront. I swear it by the name.”
Fitzpiers took her hand. “We declare it, do we not, my dear Grace?” said he.
Fitzpiers took her hand. “We declare it, right, my dear Grace?” he said.
Relieved of her doubt, somewhat overawed, and ever anxious to please, she was disposed to settle the matter; yet, womanlike, she would not relinquish her opportunity of asking a concession of some sort. “If our wedding can be at church, I say yes,” she answered, in a measured voice. “If not, I say no.”
Relieved of her doubts, a bit intimidated, and eager to make a good impression, she was ready to resolve the issue; but, being a woman, she wasn't willing to miss the chance to ask for some kind of compromise. “If our wedding can be in a church, then I’m in,” she replied, calmly. “If not, I'm out.”
Fitzpiers was generous in his turn. “It shall be so,” he rejoined, gracefully. “To holy church we’ll go, and much good may it do us.”
Fitzpiers was generous in response. “Alright, that sounds good,” he replied with grace. “We’ll head to the church, and hopefully it will bring us much benefit.”
They returned through the bushes indoors, Grace walking, full of thought between the other two, somewhat comforted, both by Fitzpiers’s ingenious explanation and by the sense that she was not to be deprived of a religious ceremony. “So let it be,” she said to herself. “Pray God it is for the best.”
They made their way back through the bushes to the house, Grace walking deep in thought between the other two, feeling somewhat comforted by Fitzpiers's clever explanation and knowing that she wouldn't miss out on a religious ceremony. "So be it," she told herself. "I hope it's for the best."
From this hour there was no serious attempt at recalcitration on her part. Fitzpiers kept himself continually near her, dominating any rebellious impulse, and shaping her will into passive concurrence with all his desires. Apart from his lover-like anxiety to possess her, the few golden hundreds of the timber-dealer, ready to hand, formed a warm background to Grace’s lovely face, and went some way to remove his uneasiness at the prospect of endangering his professional and social chances by an alliance with the family of a simple countryman.
From this point on, she didn’t seriously resist anymore. Fitzpiers stayed close to her, suppressing any rebellious feelings and bending her will to go along with everything he wanted. Besides his lover-like eagerness to have her, the few hundred gold coins from the timber-dealer, readily available, added a nice backdrop to Grace’s beautiful face, and eased his worries about jeopardizing his career and social standing by getting involved with a simple country family.
The interim closed up its perspective surely and silently. Whenever Grace had any doubts of her position, the sense of contracting time was like a shortening chamber: at other moments she was comparatively blithe. Day after day waxed and waned; the one or two woodmen who sawed, shaped, spokeshaved on her father’s premises at this inactive season of the year, regularly came and unlocked the doors in the morning, locked them in the evening, supped, leaned over their garden-gates for a whiff of evening air, and to catch any last and farthest throb of news from the outer world, which entered and expired at Little Hintock like the exhausted swell of a wave in some innermost cavern of some innermost creek of an embayed sea; yet no news interfered with the nuptial purpose at their neighbor’s house. The sappy green twig-tips of the season’s growth would not, she thought, be appreciably woodier on the day she became a wife, so near was the time; the tints of the foliage would hardly have changed. Everything was so much as usual that no itinerant stranger would have supposed a woman’s fate to be hanging in the balance at that summer’s decline.
The interim firmly and quietly closed off its view. Whenever Grace questioned her position, the feeling of time tightening felt like a shrinking room: at other moments, she felt relatively cheerful. Day after day came and went; the one or two woodworkers who sawed and shaped wood on her father's property during this quiet season routinely arrived in the morning to unlock the doors and locked them up in the evening. They had dinner, leaned over their garden gates for a breath of evening air, and tried to catch the last bits of news from the outside world, which trickled in and faded away at Little Hintock like the spent rush of a wave in some hidden corner of a secluded bay; yet no news disrupted the wedding plans at their neighbor's house. She thought that the fresh green tips of the season's growth wouldn't feel noticeably woodier on the day she got married, as the time was so near; the colors of the leaves probably wouldn't have changed either. Everything seemed so normal that no passing stranger would have guessed a woman's fate was hanging in the balance as summer came to a close.
But there were preparations, imaginable readily enough by those who had special knowledge. In the remote and fashionable town of Sandbourne something was growing up under the hands of several persons who had never seen Grace Melbury, never would see her, or care anything about her at all, though their creation had such interesting relation to her life that it would enclose her very heart at a moment when that heart would beat, if not with more emotional ardor, at least with more emotional turbulence than at any previous time.
But there were preparations that could be easily understood by those who had inside knowledge. In the distant and trendy town of Sandbourne, something was being built by several people who had never met Grace Melbury, would never meet her, and didn't have any concern for her at all, even though what they were making had such a significant connection to her life that it would surround her very heart at a moment when that heart would be beating, if not with more emotional intensity, at least with more emotional chaos than ever before.
Why did Mrs. Dollery’s van, instead of passing along at the end of the smaller village to Great Hintock direct, turn one Saturday night into Little Hintock Lane, and never pull up till it reached Mr. Melbury’s gates? The gilding shine of evening fell upon a large, flat box not less than a yard square, and safely tied with cord, as it was handed out from under the tilt with a great deal of care. But it was not heavy for its size; Mrs. Dollery herself carried it into the house. Tim Tangs, the hollow-turner, Bawtree, Suke Damson, and others, looked knowing, and made remarks to each other as they watched its entrance. Melbury stood at the door of the timber-shed in the attitude of a man to whom such an arrival was a trifling domestic detail with which he did not condescend to be concerned. Yet he well divined the contents of that box, and was in truth all the while in a pleasant exaltation at the proof that thus far, at any rate, no disappointment had supervened. While Mrs. Dollery remained—which was rather long, from her sense of the importance of her errand—he went into the out-house; but as soon as she had had her say, been paid, and had rumbled away, he entered the dwelling, to find there what he knew he should find—his wife and daughter in a flutter of excitement over the wedding-gown, just arrived from the leading dress-maker of Sandbourne watering-place aforesaid.
Why did Mrs. Dollery’s van, instead of going straight to Great Hintock at the end of the smaller village, turn into Little Hintock Lane one Saturday night, and not stop until it reached Mr. Melbury’s gates? The beautiful evening light reflected off a large, flat box about a yard square, carefully tied with cord, as it was handed out from under the cover with a lot of care. But it wasn’t heavy for its size; Mrs. Dollery carried it into the house herself. Tim Tangs, the hollow-turner, Bawtree, Suke Damson, and a few others exchanged knowing glances and made comments to each other as they watched it being brought in. Melbury stood at the door of the timber-shed, looking like a man who regarded such an arrival as a minor household matter that he wouldn't bother with. Yet he had a good idea of what was inside that box and was genuinely pleased that, at least for now, there hadn't been any disappointment. While Mrs. Dollery was there—which took a while since she felt her errand was important—he went into the out-house. But as soon as she finished her business, was paid, and left in a rumble, he went inside to find what he expected—his wife and daughter excitedly fluttering over the wedding gown that had just arrived from the top dressmaker in Sandbourne.
During these weeks Giles Winterborne was nowhere to be seen or heard of. At the close of his tenure in Hintock he had sold some of his furniture, packed up the rest—a few pieces endeared by associations, or necessary to his occupation—in the house of a friendly neighbor, and gone away. People said that a certain laxity had crept into his life; that he had never gone near a church latterly, and had been sometimes seen on Sundays with unblacked boots, lying on his elbow under a tree, with a cynical gaze at surrounding objects. He was likely to return to Hintock when the cider-making season came round, his apparatus being stored there, and travel with his mill and press from village to village.
During these weeks, Giles Winterborne was completely absent. At the end of his time in Hintock, he had sold some of his furniture, packed up the rest—a few pieces that held special memories or were essential for his work—at a neighbor’s house and left. People said that he had started to slack off in life; he hadn’t been to church in a while and was sometimes spotted on Sundays with unpolished shoes, lounging under a tree with a cynical look at everything around him. It was expected that he would return to Hintock when the cider-making season began, as his equipment was stored there, and he would travel with his mill and press from one village to another.
The narrow interval that stood before the day diminished yet. There was in Grace’s mind sometimes a certain anticipative satisfaction, the satisfaction of feeling that she would be the heroine of an hour; moreover, she was proud, as a cultivated woman, to be the wife of a cultivated man. It was an opportunity denied very frequently to young women in her position, nowadays not a few; those in whom parental discovery of the value of education has implanted tastes which parental circles fail to gratify. But what an attenuation was this cold pride of the dream of her youth, in which she had pictured herself walking in state towards the altar, flushed by the purple light and bloom of her own passion, without a single misgiving as to the sealing of the bond, and fervently receiving as her due
The narrow time before the day shrank even more. Sometimes, Grace felt a certain anticipatory satisfaction in her mind, the satisfaction of believing she would be the heroine for an hour. Additionally, as a well-educated woman, she took pride in being the wife of a well-educated man. This was an opportunity that young women in her position often missed out on; many had parents who only recently recognized the value of education, creating aspirations that their social circles could not fulfill. But how diminished this cold pride felt compared to the dreams of her youth, where she imagined herself walking gracefully toward the altar, glowing with the vibrant light and passion of her own emotions, without any doubts about the commitment, and eagerly accepting what she deserved.
“The homage of a thousand hearts; the fond, deep love of one.”
“The tribute of a thousand hearts; the deep, caring love of one.”
Everything had been clear then, in imagination; now something was undefined. She had little carking anxieties; a curious fatefulness seemed to rule her, and she experienced a mournful want of some one to confide in.
Everything had been clear back then, in her imagination; now something felt uncertain. She had small nagging worries; a strange sense of fate seemed to control her, and she felt a deep sadness over the lack of someone to confide in.
The day loomed so big and nigh that her prophetic ear could, in fancy, catch the noise of it, hear the murmur of the villagers as she came out of church, imagine the jangle of the three thin-toned Hintock bells. The dialogues seemed to grow louder, and the ding-ding-dong of those three crazed bells more persistent. She awoke: the morning had come.
The day was approaching fast, and she could almost hear it in her mind—the chatter of the villagers as she stepped out of church, picturing the ringing of the three high-pitched Hintock bells. The conversations seemed to get louder, and the ding-ding-dong of those three frantic bells became more urgent. She woke up: morning had arrived.
Five hours later she was the wife of Fitzpiers.
Five hours later, she became Fitzpiers' wife.
CHAPTER XXV.
The chief hotel at Sherton-Abbas was an old stone-fronted inn with a yawning arch, under which vehicles were driven by stooping coachmen to back premises of wonderful commodiousness. The windows to the street were mullioned into narrow lights, and only commanded a view of the opposite houses; hence, perhaps, it arose that the best and most luxurious private sitting-room that the inn could afford over-looked the nether parts of the establishment, where beyond the yard were to be seen gardens and orchards, now bossed, nay incrusted, with scarlet and gold fruit, stretching to infinite distance under a luminous lavender mist. The time was early autumn,
The main hotel in Sherton-Abbas was an old stone inn with a wide arch, where coaches were driven in by bending drivers to spacious back rooms. The street-facing windows were divided into narrow sections and only looked out at the houses across the street; maybe that’s why the best and most luxurious private sitting room the inn had overlooked the lower parts of the inn, where beyond the yard were gardens and orchards, now covered, even layered, with red and gold fruit, stretching far away under a glowing lavender haze. It was early autumn,
“When the fair apples, red as evening sky,
Do bend the tree unto the fruitful ground,
When juicy pears, and berries of black dye,
Do dance in air, and call the eyes around.”
“When the beautiful apples, red like the evening sky,
Bend the tree down to the fruitful ground,
When juicy pears and dark berries,
Dance in the air and catch everyone's eyes.”
The landscape confronting the window might, indeed, have been part of the identical stretch of country which the youthful Chatterton had in his mind.
The view outside the window could very well have been the same stretch of countryside that young Chatterton envisioned.
In this room sat she who had been the maiden Grace Melbury till the finger of fate touched her and turned her to a wife. It was two months after the wedding, and she was alone. Fitzpiers had walked out to see the abbey by the light of sunset, but she had been too fatigued to accompany him. They had reached the last stage of a long eight-weeks’ tour, and were going on to Hintock that night.
In this room sat the woman who was once Grace Melbury until fate intervened and made her a wife. It had been two months since the wedding, and she was alone. Fitzpiers had gone out to see the abbey in the sunset, but she was too tired to join him. They had reached the final leg of their long eight-week tour and were heading to Hintock that night.
In the yard, between Grace and the orchards, there progressed a scene natural to the locality at this time of the year. An apple-mill and press had been erected on the spot, to which some men were bringing fruit from divers points in mawn-baskets, while others were grinding them, and others wringing down the pomace, whose sweet juice gushed forth into tubs and pails. The superintendent of these proceedings, to whom the others spoke as master, was a young yeoman of prepossessing manner and aspect, whose form she recognized in a moment. He had hung his coat to a nail of the out-house wall, and wore his shirt-sleeves rolled up beyond his elbows, to keep them unstained while he rammed the pomace into the bags of horse-hair. Fragments of apple-rind had alighted upon the brim of his hat—probably from the bursting of a bag—while brown pips of the same fruit were sticking among the down upon his fine, round arms.
In the yard, between Grace and the orchards, a typical scene for this time of year was unfolding. An apple mill and press had been set up in the area, where some men were bringing fruit from different spots in woven baskets, while others were grinding the apples, and some were squeezing the pomace, with sweet juice flowing into tubs and buckets. The supervisor of all this activity, whom the others referred to as "master," was a young farmer with a charming demeanor and appearance, and she recognized him immediately. He had hung his coat on a nail in the shed and was wearing his shirt sleeves rolled up past his elbows to keep them clean while he packed the pomace into horsehair bags. Bits of apple peel had landed on the brim of his hat—likely from a bag bursting—while brown apple seeds were stuck in the fine hair on his strong, round arms.
She realized in a moment how he had come there. Down in the heart of the apple country nearly every farmer kept up a cider-making apparatus and wring-house for his own use, building up the pomace in great straw “cheeses,” as they were called; but here, on the margin of Pomona’s plain, was a debatable land neither orchard nor sylvan exclusively, where the apple produce was hardly sufficient to warrant each proprietor in keeping a mill of his own. This was the field of the travelling cider-maker. His press and mill were fixed to wheels instead of being set up in a cider-house; and with a couple of horses, buckets, tubs, strainers, and an assistant or two, he wandered from place to place, deriving very satisfactory returns for his trouble in such a prolific season as the present.
She suddenly understood how he ended up there. In the heart of apple country, almost every farmer had their own cider-making setup and wring-house for personal use, piling up the pomace into large straw “cheeses,” as they called them; but here, on the edge of Pomona’s plain, was a disputed area that wasn’t strictly orchard or forest, where the apple yield was barely enough for each owner to justify having their own mill. This was the territory of the traveling cider-maker. His press and mill were mounted on wheels instead of being installed in a cider house; and with a couple of horses, buckets, tubs, strainers, and one or two helpers, he moved around from place to place, earning quite a good profit for his efforts in such a plentiful season as this one.
The back parts of the town were just now abounding with apple-gatherings. They stood in the yards in carts, baskets, and loose heaps; and the blue, stagnant air of autumn which hung over everything was heavy with a sweet cidery smell. Cakes of pomace lay against the walls in the yellow sun, where they were drying to be used as fuel. Yet it was not the great make of the year as yet; before the standard crop came in there accumulated, in abundant times like this, a large superfluity of early apples, and windfalls from the trees of later harvest, which would not keep long. Thus, in the baskets, and quivering in the hopper of the mill, she saw specimens of mixed dates, including the mellow countenances of streaked-jacks, codlins, costards, stubbards, ratheripes, and other well-known friends of her ravenous youth.
The back areas of the town were now filled with apple pickings. They were piled in yards in carts, baskets, and loose mounds; the still, cool autumn air hanging over everything was thick with a sweet cider scent. Piles of pomace rested against the walls in the yellow sunlight, drying to be used as fuel. However, it wasn't the main harvest of the year yet; before the standard crop arrived, there was often a surplus of early apples and fallen fruit from the later harvest that wouldn’t last long. So, in the baskets and trembling in the hopper of the mill, she spotted a mix of different kinds, including the ripe faces of streaked-jacks, codlins, costards, stubbards, ratheripes, and other familiar favorites from her hungry youth.
Grace watched the head-man with interest. The slightest sigh escaped her. Perhaps she thought of the day—not so far distant—when that friend of her childhood had met her by her father’s arrangement in this same town, warm with hope, though diffident, and trusting in a promise rather implied than given. Or she might have thought of days earlier yet—days of childhood—when her mouth was somewhat more ready to receive a kiss from his than was his to bestow one. However, all that was over. She had felt superior to him then, and she felt superior to him now.
Grace watched the leader with curiosity. A small sigh escaped her. Maybe she was thinking about the day—not too long ago—when that childhood friend had met her here, arranged by her father, full of hope but shy, and relying on a promise that was more suggested than stated. Or she might have recalled even earlier days—childhood days—when she was more eager to accept a kiss from him than he was to give one. But all that was in the past. She had felt better than him back then, and she felt better than him now.
She wondered why he never looked towards her open window. She did not know that in the slight commotion caused by their arrival at the inn that afternoon Winterborne had caught sight of her through the archway, had turned red, and was continuing his work with more concentrated attention on the very account of his discovery. Robert Creedle, too, who travelled with Giles, had been incidentally informed by the hostler that Dr. Fitzpiers and his young wife were in the hotel, after which news Creedle kept shaking his head and saying to himself, “Ah!” very audibly, between his thrusts at the screw of the cider-press.
She wondered why he never glanced toward her open window. She didn’t know that during the brief stir caused by their arrival at the inn that afternoon, Winterborne had spotted her through the archway, had flushed, and was now focusing intently on his work because of that moment. Robert Creedle, who was traveling with Giles, had also been casually informed by the stableman that Dr. Fitzpiers and his young wife were at the hotel. After hearing this, Creedle kept shaking his head and saying “Ah!” out loud between his turns at the cider press's screw.
“Why the deuce do you sigh like that, Robert?” asked Winterborne, at last.
“Why on earth are you sighing like that, Robert?” Winterborne finally asked.
“Ah, maister—’tis my thoughts—’tis my thoughts!...Yes, ye’ve lost a hundred load o’ timber well seasoned; ye’ve lost five hundred pound in good money; ye’ve lost the stone-windered house that’s big enough to hold a dozen families; ye’ve lost your share of half a dozen good wagons and their horses—all lost!—through your letting slip she that was once yer own!”
“Ah, master—it's my thoughts—it's my thoughts!...Yes, you’ve lost a hundred loads of well-seasoned timber; you’ve lost five hundred pounds in cash; you’ve lost the stone-windowed house that’s big enough for a dozen families; you’ve lost your share of half a dozen good wagons and their horses—all lost!—because you let slip the one who was once yours!”
“Good God, Creedle, you’ll drive me mad!” said Giles, sternly. “Don’t speak of that any more!”
“Good God, Creedle, you’re going to drive me crazy!” said Giles, sternly. “Stop talking about that!”
Thus the subject had ended in the yard. Meanwhile, the passive cause of all this loss still regarded the scene. She was beautifully dressed; she was seated in the most comfortable room that the inn afforded; her long journey had been full of variety, and almost luxuriously performed—for Fitzpiers did not study economy where pleasure was in question. Hence it perhaps arose that Giles and all his belongings seemed sorry and common to her for the moment—moving in a plane so far removed from her own of late that she could scarcely believe she had ever found congruity therein. “No—I could never have married him!” she said, gently shaking her head. “Dear father was right. It would have been too coarse a life for me.” And she looked at the rings of sapphire and opal upon her white and slender fingers that had been gifts from Fitzpiers.
Thus the subject had ended in the yard. Meanwhile, the passive cause of all this loss still watched the scene. She was beautifully dressed; she was seated in the most comfortable room that the inn offered; her long journey had been full of variety and almost luxuriously done—for Fitzpiers didn’t hold back when it came to pleasure. So, maybe that’s why Giles and all his belongings seemed dull and ordinary to her for the moment—moving in a world so far removed from her own lately that she could hardly believe she had ever found a connection there. “No—I could never have married him!” she said, gently shaking her head. “Dear father was right. It would have been too rough a life for me.” And she looked at the sapphire and opal rings on her white and slender fingers that had been gifts from Fitzpiers.
Seeing that Giles still kept his back turned, and with a little of the above-described pride of life—easily to be understood, and possibly excused, in a young, inexperienced woman who thought she had married well—she said at last, with a smile on her lips, “Mr. Winterborne!”
Seeing that Giles still had his back turned, and with a bit of that pride of life—something easily understandable, and maybe excusable, in a young, inexperienced woman who believed she had made a good marriage—she finally said, smiling, “Mr. Winterborne!”
He appeared to take no heed, and she said a second time, “Mr. Winterborne!”
He seemed to ignore her, and she said again, “Mr. Winterborne!”
Even now he seemed not to hear, though a person close enough to him to see the expression of his face might have doubted it; and she said a third time, with a timid loudness, “Mr. Winterborne! What, have you forgotten my voice?” She remained with her lips parted in a welcoming smile.
Even now, he seemed not to hear her, though someone close enough to see his expression might have doubted that; and she called out a third time, a bit louder than before, “Mr. Winterborne! What, have you forgotten my voice?” She stayed there with her lips slightly parted in a welcoming smile.
He turned without surprise, and came deliberately towards the window. “Why do you call me?” he said, with a sternness that took her completely unawares, his face being now pale. “Is it not enough that you see me here moiling and muddling for my daily bread while you are sitting there in your success, that you can’t refrain from opening old wounds by calling out my name?”
He turned without any surprise and walked purposely over to the window. “Why are you calling me?” he asked, with a seriousness that completely caught her off guard, his face now pale. “Is it not enough that you see me here struggling and working hard for my daily bread while you sit there in your success, that you can’t help but reopen old wounds by calling my name?”
She flushed, and was struck dumb for some moments; but she forgave his unreasoning anger, knowing so well in what it had its root. “I am sorry I offended you by speaking,” she replied, meekly. “Believe me, I did not intend to do that. I could hardly sit here so near you without a word of recognition.”
She blushed and was speechless for a few moments, but she let go of his unreasonable anger, understanding exactly what caused it. “I'm sorry I upset you by speaking,” she said quietly. “I really didn’t mean to do that. I could hardly sit here so close to you without acknowledging you.”
Winterborne’s heart had swollen big, and his eyes grown moist by this time, so much had the gentle answer of that familiar voice moved him. He assured her hurriedly, and without looking at her, that he was not angry. He then managed to ask her, in a clumsy, constrained way, if she had had a pleasant journey, and seen many interesting sights. She spoke of a few places that she had visited, and so the time passed till he withdrew to take his place at one of the levers which pulled round the screw.
Winterborne's heart swelled, and his eyes became tearful, so deeply touched was he by the gentle reply of that familiar voice. He quickly assured her, without making eye contact, that he wasn’t angry. Then, in an awkward and tense manner, he asked her if she had a nice trip and saw many interesting sights. She mentioned a few places she had visited, and the conversation continued until he stepped back to take his position at one of the levers that turned the screw.
Forgotten her voice! Indeed, he had not forgotten her voice, as his bitterness showed. But though in the heat of the moment he had reproached her keenly, his second mood was a far more tender one—that which could regard her renunciation of such as he as her glory and her privilege, his own fidelity notwithstanding. He could have declared with a contemporary poet—
Forgotten her voice! He hadn’t forgotten her voice, as his bitterness revealed. But although he had sharply criticized her in the heat of the moment, his next mood was much more tender—that which could see her choice to turn away from someone like him as her glory and her privilege, despite his own loyalty. He could have declared with a modern poet—
“If I forget,
The salt creek may forget the ocean;
If I forget
The heart whence flows my heart’s bright motion,
May I sink meanlier than the worst
Abandoned, outcast, crushed, accurst,
If I forget.
“If I forget,
The salt creek might forget the ocean;
If I forget
The heart from which my heart’s bright motion flows,
May I sink lower than the worst
Abandoned, outcast, crushed, cursed,
If I forget.
“Though you forget,
No word of mine shall mar your pleasure;
Though you forget,
You filled my barren life with treasure,
You may withdraw the gift you gave;
You still are queen, I still am slave,
Though you forget.”
“Even if you forget,
None of my words will spoil your happiness;
Even if you forget,
You filled my empty life with riches,
You can take back the gift you gave;
You still are in control, and I still am at your mercy,
Even if you forget.”
She had tears in her eyes at the thought that she could not remind him of what he ought to have remembered; that not herself but the pressure of events had dissipated the dreams of their early youth. Grace was thus unexpectedly worsted in her encounter with her old friend. She had opened the window with a faint sense of triumph, but he had turned it into sadness; she did not quite comprehend the reason why. In truth it was because she was not cruel enough in her cruelty. If you have to use the knife, use it, say the great surgeons; and for her own peace Grace should have contemned Winterborne thoroughly or not at all. As it was, on closing the window an indescribable, some might have said dangerous, pity quavered in her bosom for him.
She had tears in her eyes at the thought that she couldn’t remind him of what he should have remembered; that it wasn’t her, but the pressures of life that had shattered the dreams of their younger days. Grace found herself unexpectedly at a loss in her interaction with her old friend. She had opened the window with a slight sense of victory, but he had turned it into sadness; she didn’t quite understand why. The truth was, she wasn’t cruel enough in her cruelty. If you need to use the knife, then use it, the great surgeons say; and for her own peace, Grace should have completely dismissed Winterborne or not at all. Instead, when she closed the window, an indescribable, some might say dangerous, pity stirred in her heart for him.
Presently her husband entered the room, and told her what a wonderful sunset there was to be seen.
Currently, her husband walked into the room and told her how amazing the sunset was.
“I have not noticed it. But I have seen somebody out there that we know,” she replied, looking into the court.
“I haven’t noticed it. But I saw someone out there that we know,” she replied, looking into the courtyard.
Fitzpiers followed the direction of her eyes, and said he did not recognize anybody.
Fitzpiers looked where she was staring and said he didn’t recognize anyone.
“Why, Mr. Winterborne—there he is, cider-making. He combines that with his other business, you know.”
“Why, Mr. Winterborne—there he is, making cider. He mixes that with his other business, you know.”
“Oh—that fellow,” said Fitzpiers, his curiosity becoming extinct.
“Oh—that guy,” said Fitzpiers, his curiosity fading away.
She, reproachfully: “What, call Mr. Winterborne a fellow, Edgar? It is true I was just saying to myself that I never could have married him; but I have much regard for him, and always shall.”
She, reproachfully: “What, are you calling Mr. Winterborne a guy, Edgar? It’s true I was just thinking to myself that I could never have married him; but I care a lot about him, and I always will.”
“Well, do by all means, my dear one. I dare say I am inhuman, and supercilious, and contemptibly proud of my poor old ramshackle family; but I do honestly confess to you that I feel as if I belonged to a different species from the people who are working in that yard.”
“Well, please do, my dear. I admit that I can be cold, arrogant, and embarrassingly proud of my shabby old family; but I honestly confess to you that I feel like I belong to a different species than the people working in that yard.”
“And from me too, then. For my blood is no better than theirs.”
“And from me too, then. My blood is no better than theirs.”
He looked at her with a droll sort of awakening. It was, indeed, a startling anomaly that this woman of the tribe without should be standing there beside him as his wife, if his sentiments were as he had said. In their travels together she had ranged so unerringly at his level in ideas, tastes, and habits that he had almost forgotten how his heart had played havoc with his principles in taking her to him.
He looked at her with a quirky sort of realization. It was, in fact, a surprising anomaly that this woman from the outside world was standing there next to him as his wife, if his feelings were truly as he had expressed. Throughout their travels together, she had fit so perfectly with his thoughts, preferences, and routines that he had almost forgotten how his heart had disrupted his principles in choosing her.
“Ah YOU—you are refined and educated into something quite different,” he said, self-assuringly.
“Ah YOU—you are sophisticated and educated into something entirely different,” he said, confidently.
“I don’t quite like to think that,” she murmured with soft regret. “And I think you underestimate Giles Winterborne. Remember, I was brought up with him till I was sent away to school, so I cannot be radically different. At any rate, I don’t feel so. That is, no doubt, my fault, and a great blemish in me. But I hope you will put up with it, Edgar.”
“I don’t really like to think that,” she said quietly, feeling a bit regretful. “And I think you’re underestimating Giles Winterborne. Remember, I grew up with him until I was sent away to school, so I can’t be all that different. At any rate, I don’t feel that way. That’s probably my fault and a big flaw in me. But I hope you can deal with it, Edgar.”
Fitzpiers said that he would endeavor to do so; and as it was now getting on for dusk, they prepared to perform the last stage of their journey, so as to arrive at Hintock before it grew very late.
Fitzpiers said he would try to do that; and since it was getting close to dusk, they got ready to complete the final part of their journey, hoping to reach Hintock before it got too late.
In less than half an hour they started, the cider-makers in the yard having ceased their labors and gone away, so that the only sounds audible there now were the trickling of the juice from the tightly screwed press, and the buzz of a single wasp, which had drunk itself so tipsy that it was unconscious of nightfall. Grace was very cheerful at the thought of being soon in her sylvan home, but Fitzpiers sat beside her almost silent. An indescribable oppressiveness had overtaken him with the near approach of the journey’s end and the realities of life that lay there.
In less than half an hour, they set off, the cider-makers in the yard having finished their work and left, so the only sounds now were the juice trickling from the tightly screwed press and the buzz of a single wasp, which had gotten so tipsy that it was unaware of nightfall. Grace was really happy at the thought of soon being in her countryside home, but Fitzpiers sat beside her almost silent. An indescribable heaviness had come over him as they neared the end of their journey and the realities of life waiting for them.
“You don’t say a word, Edgar,” she observed. “Aren’t you glad to get back? I am.”
“You're not saying anything, Edgar,” she noted. “Aren’t you happy to be back? I am.”
“You have friends here. I have none.”
“You have friends here. I don’t have any.”
“But my friends are yours.”
“But my friends are yours now.”
“Oh yes—in that sense.”
“Oh yes—in that way.”
The conversation languished, and they drew near the end of Hintock Lane. It had been decided that they should, at least for a time, take up their abode in her father’s roomy house, one wing of which was quite at their service, being almost disused by the Melburys. Workmen had been painting, papering, and whitewashing this set of rooms in the wedded pair’s absence; and so scrupulous had been the timber-dealer that there should occur no hitch or disappointment on their arrival, that not the smallest detail remained undone. To make it all complete a ground-floor room had been fitted up as a surgery, with an independent outer door, to which Fitzpiers’s brass plate was screwed—for mere ornament, such a sign being quite superfluous where everybody knew the latitude and longitude of his neighbors for miles round.
The conversation faded, and they approached the end of Hintock Lane. It had been agreed that they would, at least for a while, stay at her father’s spacious house, one wing of which was entirely available to them, as it was hardly used by the Melburys. Workmen had been painting, wallpapering, and whitewashing these rooms while the couple was away; and the timber dealer had been so thorough to ensure that nothing would go wrong or disappoint them upon their return that not a single detail was left incomplete. To top it all off, a ground-floor room had been set up as a surgery, complete with its own outside door, to which Fitzpiers’s brass plate was attached—just for looks, since a sign was entirely unnecessary where everyone knew their neighbors' details for miles around.
Melbury and his wife welcomed the twain with affection, and all the house with deference. They went up to explore their rooms, that opened from a passage on the left hand of the staircase, the entrance to which could be shut off on the landing by a door that Melbury had hung for the purpose. A friendly fire was burning in the grate, although it was not cold. Fitzpiers said it was too soon for any sort of meal, they only having dined shortly before leaving Sherton-Abbas. He would walk across to his old lodging, to learn how his locum tenens had got on in his absence.
Melbury and his wife welcomed the two with warmth, and everyone in the house showed respect. They went upstairs to check out their rooms, which opened from a hallway on the left side of the staircase; the entrance could be closed off on the landing by a door that Melbury had installed for that purpose. A cozy fire was burning in the fireplace, even though it wasn’t cold outside. Fitzpiers said it was too early for any meal, as they had just had dinner shortly before leaving Sherton-Abbas. He planned to walk over to his old place to find out how his temporary replacement had managed while he was away.
In leaving Melbury’s door he looked back at the house. There was economy in living under that roof, and economy was desirable, but in some way he was dissatisfied with the arrangement; it immersed him so deeply in son-in-lawship to Melbury. He went on to his former residence. His deputy was out, and Fitzpiers fell into conversation with his former landlady.
In leaving Melbury’s door, he glanced back at the house. There was a practicality in living under that roof, and practicality was good, but somehow he felt uneasy about the situation; it tied him too closely to being Melbury's son-in-law. He headed to his old place. His deputy was out, and Fitzpiers struck up a conversation with his former landlady.
“Well, Mrs. Cox, what’s the best news?” he asked of her, with cheery weariness.
“Well, Mrs. Cox, what’s the good news?” he asked her, with a cheerful exhaustion.
She was a little soured at losing by his marriage so profitable a tenant as the surgeon had proved to be during his residence under her roof; and the more so in there being hardly the remotest chance of her getting such another settler in the Hintock solitudes. “’Tis what I don’t wish to repeat, sir; least of all to you,” she mumbled.
She felt a bit upset about losing such a profitable tenant as the surgeon had been while living under her roof, especially since there was hardly any chance of finding another like him in the Hintock area. “It’s something I don’t want to go through again, sir; especially not with you,” she muttered.
“Never mind me, Mrs. Cox; go ahead.”
“Don't worry about me, Mrs. Cox; go ahead.”
“It is what people say about your hasty marrying, Dr. Fitzpiers. Whereas they won’t believe you know such clever doctrines in physic as they once supposed of ye, seeing as you could marry into Mr. Melbury’s family, which is only Hintock-born, such as me.”
“It’s what people are saying about your quick marriage, Dr. Fitzpiers. They won’t believe you understand the clever medical theories they once thought you did, considering you could marry into Mr. Melbury’s family, which is just from Hintock, like me.”
“They are kindly welcome to their opinion,” said Fitzpiers, not allowing himself to recognize that he winced. “Anything else?”
"They're welcome to their opinion," said Fitzpiers, not letting on that he flinched. "Anything else?"
“Yes; she’s come home at last.”
“Yes; she’s finally come home.”
“Who’s she?”
"Who is she?"
“Mrs. Charmond.”
"Mrs. Charmond."
“Oh, indeed!” said Fitzpiers, with but slight interest. “I’ve never seen her.”
“Oh, really!” said Fitzpiers, with only a little interest. “I’ve never met her.”
“She has seen you, sir, whether or no.”
“She has seen you, sir, whether you like it or not.”
“Never.”
"Not a chance."
“Yes; she saw you in some hotel or street for a minute or two while you were away travelling, and accidentally heard your name; and when she made some remark about you, Miss Ellis—that’s her maid—told her you was on your wedding-tower with Mr. Melbury’s daughter; and she said, ‘He ought to have done better than that. I fear he has spoiled his chances,’ she says.”
“Yes, she saw you in some hotel or on the street for a minute or two while you were traveling, and she accidentally heard your name. When she made a comment about you, Miss Ellis—that's her maid—told her you were on your honeymoon with Mr. Melbury's daughter. Then she said, ‘He could have done better than that. I’m afraid he has ruined his chances,’ she says.”
Fitzpiers did not talk much longer to this cheering housewife, and walked home with no very brisk step. He entered the door quietly, and went straight up-stairs to the drawing-room extemporized for their use by Melbury in his and his bride’s absence, expecting to find her there as he had left her. The fire was burning still, but there were no lights. He looked into the next apartment, fitted up as a little dining-room, but no supper was laid. He went to the top of the stairs, and heard a chorus of voices in the timber-merchant’s parlor below, Grace’s being occasionally intermingled.
Fitzpiers didn’t chat much longer with the cheerful housewife and walked home with a slow pace. He entered the house quietly and headed straight up to the drawing room that Melbury had set up for them during his and his bride’s absence, expecting to find her there just as he had left her. The fire was still burning, but the lights were off. He peeked into the next room, which was arranged as a small dining room, but no supper was laid out. He went to the top of the stairs and heard a mix of voices in the timber merchant’s parlor below, with Grace’s voice occasionally blending in.
Descending, and looking into the room from the door-way, he found quite a large gathering of neighbors and other acquaintances, praising and congratulating Mrs. Fitzpiers on her return, among them being the dairyman, Farmer Bawtree, and the master-blacksmith from Great Hintock; also the cooper, the hollow-turner, the exciseman, and some others, with their wives, who lived hard by. Grace, girl that she was, had quite forgotten her new dignity and her husband’s; she was in the midst of them, blushing, and receiving their compliments with all the pleasure of old-comradeship.
Descending and looking into the room from the doorway, he saw a large gathering of neighbors and acquaintances, all praising and congratulating Mrs. Fitzpiers on her return. Among them were the dairyman, Farmer Bawtree, and the master blacksmith from Great Hintock, along with the cooper, the hollow-turner, the exciseman, and a few others, along with their wives, who lived nearby. Grace, despite being a young lady, had completely forgotten her new status and her husband’s; she was in the middle of the group, blushing and accepting their compliments with all the joy of longtime friends.
Fitzpiers experienced a profound distaste for the situation. Melbury was nowhere in the room, but Melbury’s wife, perceiving the doctor, came to him. “We thought, Grace and I,” she said, “that as they have called, hearing you were come, we could do no less than ask them to supper; and then Grace proposed that we should all sup together, as it is the first night of your return.”
Fitzpiers felt a deep dislike for the situation. Melbury wasn’t in the room, but Melbury’s wife saw the doctor and approached him. “Grace and I thought,” she said, “since they came after hearing you were here, we should at least invite them to dinner; and then Grace suggested that we all eat together, since it’s your first night back.”
By this time Grace had come round to him. “Is it not good of them to welcome me so warmly?” she exclaimed, with tears of friendship in her eyes. “After so much good feeling I could not think of our shutting ourselves up away from them in our own dining-room.”
By this point, Grace had warmed up to him. “Isn't it nice of them to welcome me so warmly?” she said, with tears of friendship in her eyes. “After so much kindness, I couldn’t imagine us isolating ourselves in our own dining room.”
“Certainly not—certainly not,” said Fitzpiers; and he entered the room with the heroic smile of a martyr.
“Definitely not—definitely not,” said Fitzpiers; and he walked into the room with the brave smile of a martyr.
As soon as they sat down to table Melbury came in, and seemed to see at once that Fitzpiers would much rather have received no such demonstrative reception. He thereupon privately chid his wife for her forwardness in the matter. Mrs. Melbury declared that it was as much Grace’s doing as hers, after which there was no more to be said by that young woman’s tender father. By this time Fitzpiers was making the best of his position among the wide-elbowed and genial company who sat eating and drinking and laughing and joking around him; and getting warmed himself by the good cheer, was obliged to admit that, after all, the supper was not the least enjoyable he had ever known.
As soon as they sat down at the table, Melbury walked in and seemed to realize right away that Fitzpiers would have preferred to avoid such an obvious welcome. He then quietly scolded his wife for being so forward about it. Mrs. Melbury replied that it was just as much Grace’s idea as hers, leaving no further comments from that young woman’s caring father. By this time, Fitzpiers was trying to make the most of his situation among the friendly and boisterous group around him who were eating, drinking, laughing, and joking; and as he got into the spirit of things, he had to admit that, after all, the supper was one of the most enjoyable he had ever experienced.
At times, however, the words about his having spoiled his opportunities, repeated to him as those of Mrs. Charmond, haunted him like a handwriting on the wall. Then his manner would become suddenly abstracted. At one moment he would mentally put an indignant query why Mrs. Charmond or any other woman should make it her business to have opinions about his opportunities; at another he thought that he could hardly be angry with her for taking an interest in the doctor of her own parish. Then he would drink a glass of grog and so get rid of the misgiving. These hitches and quaffings were soon perceived by Grace as well as by her father; and hence both of them were much relieved when the first of the guests to discover that the hour was growing late rose and declared that he must think of moving homeward. At the words Melbury rose as alertly as if lifted by a spring, and in ten minutes they were gone.
At times, though, the comments about how he had wasted his chances, repeated to him as coming from Mrs. Charmond, haunted him like a warning sign. Then his demeanor would suddenly become distant. One moment, he would mentally question why Mrs. Charmond or any woman should feel it necessary to have opinions about his opportunities; the next, he thought he couldn't really be mad at her for being interested in the doctor of her own community. Then he would drink a glass of grog to shake off the unease. Grace and her father quickly noticed these interruptions and drinks; so both of them felt relieved when the first guest to notice that it was getting late stood up and said he needed to think about heading home. At those words, Melbury sprang up as if propelled by a spring, and within ten minutes, they were gone.
“Now, Grace,” said her husband as soon as he found himself alone with her in their private apartments, “we’ve had a very pleasant evening, and everybody has been very kind. But we must come to an understanding about our way of living here. If we continue in these rooms there must be no mixing in with your people below. I can’t stand it, and that’s the truth.”
“Now, Grace,” her husband said as soon as they were alone in their private suite, “we’ve had a lovely evening, and everyone has been really nice. But we need to agree on how we’re going to live here. If we stay in these rooms, you can’t hang out with your friends downstairs. I can’t handle it, and that’s the truth.”
She had been sadly surprised at the suddenness of his distaste for those old-fashioned woodland forms of life which in his courtship he had professed to regard with so much interest. But she assented in a moment.
She was sadly taken aback by how suddenly he had lost interest in those old-fashioned, natural ways of life that he had claimed to find so intriguing during their courtship. But she agreed almost immediately.
“We must be simply your father’s tenants,” he continued, “and our goings and comings must be as independent as if we lived elsewhere.”
“We should just be your father’s tenants,” he continued, “and our arrivals and departures need to be as independent as if we lived anywhere else.”
“Certainly, Edgar—I quite see that it must be so.”
"Absolutely, Edgar—I completely understand that it has to be this way."
“But you joined in with all those people in my absence, without knowing whether I should approve or disapprove. When I came I couldn’t help myself at all.”
“But you got involved with all those people while I was away, without knowing if I would be okay with it or not. When I arrived, I couldn’t hold back at all.”
She, sighing: “Yes—I see I ought to have waited; though they came unexpectedly, and I thought I had acted for the best.”
She sighed, “Yeah—I can see I should have waited; even though they showed up out of the blue, and I thought I was doing the right thing.”
Thus the discussion ended, and the next day Fitzpiers went on his old rounds as usual. But it was easy for so super-subtle an eye as his to discern, or to think he discerned, that he was no longer regarded as an extrinsic, unfathomed gentleman of limitless potentiality, scientific and social; but as Mr. Melbury’s compeer, and therefore in a degree only one of themselves. The Hintock woodlandlers held with all the strength of inherited conviction to the aristocratic principle, and as soon as they had discovered that Fitzpiers was one of the old Buckbury Fitzpierses they had accorded to him for nothing a touching of hat-brims, promptness of service, and deference of approach, which Melbury had to do without, though he paid for it over and over. But now, having proved a traitor to his own cause by this marriage, Fitzpiers was believed in no more as a superior hedged by his own divinity; while as doctor he began to be rated no higher than old Jones, whom they had so long despised.
So the discussion wrapped up, and the next day Fitzpiers continued his usual rounds. But someone as perceptive as he was could easily tell, or thought he could, that he was no longer seen as an enigmatic gentleman with endless potential, both scientifically and socially; instead, he was viewed as Mr. Melbury’s equal, and therefore just one of the group. The people of Hintock held tightly to their inherited beliefs in aristocracy, and once they found out that Fitzpiers belonged to the old Buckbury Fitzpiers family, they treated him with a level of respect—like a tip of the hat, prompt service, and courteousness—that Melbury had to do without, even though he paid for it repeatedly. But now, after betraying his own interests by marrying, Fitzpiers was no longer seen as a higher being above them; as a doctor, he started to be regarded no better than old Jones, who had long been scorned.
His few patients seemed in his two months’ absence to have dwindled considerably in number, and no sooner had he returned than there came to him from the Board of Guardians a complaint that a pauper had been neglected by his substitute. In a fit of pride Fitzpiers resigned his appointment as one of the surgeons to the union, which had been the nucleus of his practice here.
His few patients seemed to have greatly decreased in number during his two months away, and as soon as he returned, he received a complaint from the Board of Guardians that a needy person had been overlooked by his replacement. In a moment of pride, Fitzpiers resigned from his position as one of the surgeons for the union, which had been the foundation of his practice here.
At the end of a fortnight he came in-doors one evening to Grace more briskly than usual. “They have written to me again about that practice in Budmouth that I once negotiated for,” he said to her. “The premium asked is eight hundred pounds, and I think that between your father and myself it ought to be raised. Then we can get away from this place forever.”
At the end of two weeks, he came inside one evening to Grace more energetically than usual. “They’ve written to me again about that practice in Budmouth that I once worked on,” he told her. “The asking price is eight hundred pounds, and I believe that between your father and me, we should raise it. Then we can leave this place for good.”
The question had been mooted between them before, and she was not unprepared to consider it. They had not proceeded far with the discussion when a knock came to the door, and in a minute Grammer ran up to say that a message had arrived from Hintock House requesting Dr. Fitzpiers to attend there at once. Mrs. Charmond had met with a slight accident through the overturning of her carriage.
The question had come up between them before, and she was somewhat ready to think about it. They hadn’t gotten far into the discussion when there was a knock at the door, and a minute later, Grammer rushed in to say that a message had arrived from Hintock House asking Dr. Fitzpiers to come there immediately. Mrs. Charmond had had a minor accident due to her carriage overturning.
“This is something, anyhow,” said Fitzpiers, rising with an interest which he could not have defined. “I have had a presentiment that this mysterious woman and I were to be better acquainted.”
“This is something, anyway,” said Fitzpiers, standing up with an interest he couldn’t quite explain. “I have a feeling that this mysterious woman and I are meant to get to know each other better.”
The latter words were murmured to himself alone.
The latter words were whispered just to himself.
“Good-night,” said Grace, as soon as he was ready. “I shall be asleep, probably, when you return.”
“Goodnight,” said Grace, as soon as he was ready. “I’ll probably be asleep when you get back.”
“Good-night,” he replied, inattentively, and went down-stairs. It was the first time since their marriage that he had left her without a kiss.
“Good night,” he replied absentmindedly, and went downstairs. It was the first time since their marriage that he had left her without a kiss.
CHAPTER XXVI.
Winterborne’s house had been pulled down. On this account his face had been seen but fitfully in Hintock; and he would probably have disappeared from the place altogether but for his slight business connection with Melbury, on whose premises Giles kept his cider-making apparatus, now that he had no place of his own to stow it in. Coming here one evening on his way to a hut beyond the wood where he now slept, he noticed that the familiar brown-thatched pinion of his paternal roof had vanished from its site, and that the walls were levelled. In present circumstances he had a feeling for the spot that might have been called morbid, and when he had supped in the hut aforesaid he made use of the spare hour before bedtime to return to Little Hintock in the twilight and ramble over the patch of ground on which he had first seen the day.
Winterborne’s house had been torn down. Because of this, his face had only been seen occasionally in Hintock; he probably would have left the area completely if it weren't for his small business connection with Melbury, where Giles now stored his cider-making equipment since he had no place of his own. One evening, while heading to a hut beyond the woods where he was currently staying, he noticed that the familiar brown-thatched roof of his childhood home was gone, and the walls had been leveled. Given the situation, he felt a strange attachment to the spot that could be considered unhealthy, and after having dinner in the hut, he used the spare hour before bed to return to Little Hintock in the twilight and wander over the ground where he had first experienced life.
He repeated this evening visit on several like occasions. Even in the gloom he could trace where the different rooms had stood; could mark the shape of the kitchen chimney-corner, in which he had roasted apples and potatoes in his boyhood, cast his bullets, and burned his initials on articles that did and did not belong to him. The apple-trees still remained to show where the garden had been, the oldest of them even now retaining the crippled slant to north-east given them by the great November gale of 1824, which carried a brig bodily over the Chesil Bank. They were at present bent to still greater obliquity by the heaviness of their produce. Apples bobbed against his head, and in the grass beneath he crunched scores of them as he walked. There was nobody to gather them now.
He repeated this evening visit on several similar occasions. Even in the darkness, he could make out where the different rooms had been; he could see the shape of the kitchen chimney corner, where he used to roast apples and potatoes in his childhood, cast his bullets, and carve his initials into things that belonged to him and things that didn’t. The apple trees were still there to show where the garden had been, the oldest of them still having the crooked lean to the northeast caused by the strong November storm of 1824, which had lifted a brig right over the Chesil Bank. They were currently leaning even more due to the weight of their fruit. Apples bumped against his head, and he crunched dozens of them underfoot as he walked. There was no one to pick them now.
It was on the evening under notice that, half sitting, half leaning against one of these inclined trunks, Winterborne had become lost in his thoughts, as usual, till one little star after another had taken up a position in the piece of sky which now confronted him where his walls and chimneys had formerly raised their outlines. The house had jutted awkwardly into the road, and the opening caused by its absence was very distinct.
It was on the evening in question that, half sitting and half leaning against one of these slanted trees, Winterborne found himself lost in thought, as usual, until one little star after another appeared in the patch of sky that now faced him where his walls and chimneys used to outline the horizon. The house had stuck out awkwardly into the road, and the gap created by its absence was quite noticeable.
In the silence the trot of horses and the spin of carriage-wheels became audible; and the vehicle soon shaped itself against the blank sky, bearing down upon him with the bend in the lane which here occurred, and of which the house had been the cause. He could discern the figure of a woman high up on the driving-seat of a phaeton, a groom being just visible behind. Presently there was a slight scrape, then a scream. Winterborne went across to the spot, and found the phaeton half overturned, its driver sitting on the heap of rubbish which had once been his dwelling, and the man seizing the horses’ heads. The equipage was Mrs. Charmond’s, and the unseated charioteer that lady herself.
In the quiet, the sound of horses trotting and the spinning of carriage wheels became clear; soon, the vehicle appeared against the empty sky, coming toward him around a bend in the lane caused by the house. He could make out a woman sitting high on the driving seat of a phaeton, with a groom barely visible behind her. Then there was a small scrape, followed by a scream. Winterborne walked over to the scene and found the phaeton half toppled over, its driver sitting on the pile of debris that had once been his home, while the man was holding the horses' heads. The carriage belonged to Mrs. Charmond, and the driver who had fallen was none other than her.
To his inquiry if she were hurt she made some incoherent reply to the effect that she did not know. The damage in other respects was little or none: the phaeton was righted, Mrs. Charmond placed in it, and the reins given to the servant. It appeared that she had been deceived by the removal of the house, imagining the gap caused by the demolition to be the opening of the road, so that she turned in upon the ruins instead of at the bend a few yards farther on.
To his question about whether she was hurt, she gave a confused answer that she didn’t know. The damage in other ways was minimal or none: the phaeton was set upright, Mrs. Charmond was placed in it, and the reins were handed to the servant. It seemed she had been misled by the removal of the house, thinking the gap left by the demolition was the opening of the road, which is why she turned onto the ruins instead of at the bend a few yards further on.
“Drive home—drive home!” cried the lady, impatiently; and they started on their way. They had not, however, gone many paces when, the air being still, Winterborne heard her say “Stop; tell that man to call the doctor—Mr. Fitzpiers—and send him on to the House. I find I am hurt more seriously than I thought.”
“Drive home—drive home!” the woman exclaimed, impatiently; and they began their journey. They hadn’t gone far when, with the air being calm, Winterborne heard her say, “Stop; tell that man to call the doctor—Mr. Fitzpiers—and send him to the House. I realize I’m hurt more seriously than I thought.”
Winterborne took the message from the groom and proceeded to the doctor’s at once. Having delivered it, he stepped back into the darkness, and waited till he had seen Fitzpiers leave the door. He stood for a few minutes looking at the window which by its light revealed the room where Grace was sitting, and went away under the gloomy trees.
Winterborne took the message from the groom and went straight to the doctor’s. After delivering it, he stepped back into the shadows and waited until he saw Fitzpiers leave the door. He stood for a few minutes looking at the window, which lit up the room where Grace was sitting, and then walked away under the dark trees.
Fitzpiers duly arrived at Hintock House, whose doors he now saw open for the first time. Contrary to his expectation there was visible no sign of that confusion or alarm which a serious accident to the mistress of the abode would have occasioned. He was shown into a room at the top of the staircase, cosily and femininely draped, where, by the light of the shaded lamp, he saw a woman of full round figure reclining upon a couch in such a position as not to disturb a pile of magnificent hair on the crown of her head. A deep purple dressing-gown formed an admirable foil to the peculiarly rich brown of her hair-plaits; her left arm, which was naked nearly up to the shoulder, was thrown upward, and between the fingers of her right hand she held a cigarette, while she idly breathed from her plump lips a thin stream of smoke towards the ceiling.
Fitzpiers arrived at Hintock House, seeing the doors open for the first time. Contrary to what he expected, there was no sign of the confusion or alarm that would usually come with a serious accident involving the lady of the house. He was led to a room at the top of the stairs, cozy and decorated in a feminine style, where, under the light of a shaded lamp, he saw a full-figured woman reclining on a couch in a way that kept her stunning hair from getting messed up. A deep purple dressing gown beautifully complemented the rich brown of her hair. Her left arm, bare almost to the shoulder, was raised, and between the fingers of her right hand, she held a cigarette, idly exhaling a thin stream of smoke from her plump lips towards the ceiling.
The doctor’s first feeling was a sense of his exaggerated prevision in having brought appliances for a serious case; the next, something more curious. While the scene and the moment were new to him and unanticipated, the sentiment and essence of the moment were indescribably familiar. What could be the cause of it? Probably a dream.
The doctor’s first thought was how much he had overprepared for a serious case; then came something even stranger. Although the situation and the moment were unexpected and unfamiliar, the feeling and essence of the moment felt oddly familiar. What could be causing this? Maybe it was just a dream.
Mrs. Charmond did not move more than to raise her eyes to him, and he came and stood by her. She glanced up at his face across her brows and forehead, and then he observed a blush creep slowly over her decidedly handsome cheeks. Her eyes, which had lingered upon him with an inquiring, conscious expression, were hastily withdrawn, and she mechanically applied the cigarette again to her lips.
Mrs. Charmond didn’t move much except to look up at him, and he walked over and stood beside her. She glanced up at his face, and he noticed a blush slowly spreading across her very attractive cheeks. Her eyes, which had been searching his face with an inquisitive, aware look, quickly turned away, and she automatically brought the cigarette back to her lips.
For a moment he forgot his errand, till suddenly arousing himself he addressed her, formally condoled with her, and made the usual professional inquiries about what had happened to her, and where she was hurt.
For a moment, he forgot why he was there, but then he snapped back to reality and spoke to her, offering his condolences and asking the usual professional questions about what had happened and where she was injured.
“That’s what I want you to tell me,” she murmured, in tones of indefinable reserve. “I quite believe in you, for I know you are very accomplished, because you study so hard.”
“That's what I want you to tell me,” she murmured, with a hint of restraint in her voice. “I really believe in you because I know you’re very skilled, given how hard you work.”
“I’ll do my best to justify your good opinion,” said the young man, bowing. “And none the less that I am happy to find the accident has not been serious.”
“I’ll do my best to live up to your good opinion,” said the young man, bowing. “And I’m really glad to see that the accident wasn’t serious.”
“I am very much shaken,” she said.
“I’m really shaken up,” she said.
“Oh yes,” he replied; and completed his examination, which convinced him that there was really nothing the matter with her, and more than ever puzzled him as to why he had been fetched, since she did not appear to be a timid woman. “You must rest a while, and I’ll send something,” he said.
“Oh yes,” he replied, finishing his examination, which convinced him that there was really nothing wrong with her. This left him even more confused about why he had been called, since she didn’t seem like a timid woman at all. “You need to rest for a bit, and I’ll send something,” he said.
“Oh, I forgot,” she returned. “Look here.” And she showed him a little scrape on her arm—the full round arm that was exposed. “Put some court-plaster on that, please.”
“Oh, I forgot,” she said. “Look at this.” And she showed him a small scrape on her arm—the smooth, bare arm that was visible. “Could you put some band-aid on that, please?”
He obeyed. “And now,” she said, “before you go I want to put a question to you. Sit round there in front of me, on that low chair, and bring the candles, or one, to the little table. Do you smoke? Yes? That’s right—I am learning. Take one of these; and here’s a light.” She threw a matchbox across.
He agreed. “And now,” she said, “before you leave I want to ask you something. Sit over there in front of me, on that low chair, and bring the candles, or just one, to the little table. Do you smoke? Yes? Good—I’m learning. Take one of these; and here’s a lighter.” She tossed a matchbox across.
Fitzpiers caught it, and having lit up, regarded her from his new position, which, with the shifting of the candles, for the first time afforded him a full view of her face. “How many years have passed since first we met!” she resumed, in a voice which she mainly endeavored to maintain at its former pitch of composure, and eying him with daring bashfulness.
Fitzpiers took it and, after lighting up, looked at her from his new spot, which, with the shifting candles, finally gave him a clear view of her face. “How many years have gone by since we first met!” she continued, trying to keep her voice steady and looking at him with a mix of boldness and shyness.
“We met, do you say?”
“Did we meet?”
She nodded. “I saw you recently at an hotel in London, when you were passing through, I suppose, with your bride, and I recognized you as one I had met in my girlhood. Do you remember, when you were studying at Heidelberg, an English family that was staying there, who used to walk—”
She nodded. “I saw you recently at a hotel in London when you were passing through, I guess, with your bride, and I recognized you as someone I met in my youth. Do you remember when you were studying in Heidelberg, there was an English family staying there who used to walk—”
“And the young lady who wore a long tail of rare-colored hair—ah, I see it before my eyes!—who lost her gloves on the Great Terrace—who was going back in the dusk to find them—to whom I said, ‘I’ll go for them,’ and you said, ‘Oh, they are not worth coming all the way up again for.’ I do remember, and how very long we stayed talking there! I went next morning while the dew was on the grass: there they lay—the little fingers sticking out damp and thin. I see them now! I picked them up, and then—”
“And the young woman with the long, beautifully colored hair—oh, I can still picture it!—who lost her gloves on the Great Terrace—who was heading back in the evening to search for them—to whom I said, ‘I’ll go get them,’ and you said, ‘Oh, they aren’t worth coming all the way back for.’ I do remember, and how long we stayed talking there! I went the next morning while the dew was still on the grass: there they were—the small fingers sticking out, damp and delicate. I can see them now! I picked them up, and then—”
“Well?”
"What's up?"
“I kissed them,” he rejoined, rather shamefacedly.
“I kissed them,” he replied, feeling a bit embarrassed.
“But you had hardly ever seen me except in the dusk?”
“But you hardly ever saw me except in the evening?”
“Never mind. I was young then, and I kissed them. I wondered how I could make the most of my trouvaille, and decided that I would call at your hotel with them that afternoon. It rained, and I waited till next day. I called, and you were gone.”
“Never mind. I was young back then, and I kissed them. I thought about how I could get the most out of my trouvaille, and decided to stop by your hotel with them that afternoon. It rained, so I waited until the next day. I came by, and you were gone.”
“Yes,” answered she, with dry melancholy. “My mother, knowing my disposition, said she had no wish for such a chit as me to go falling in love with an impecunious student, and spirited me away to Baden. As it is all over and past I’ll tell you one thing: I should have sent you a line passing warm had I known your name. That name I never knew till my maid said, as you passed up the hotel stairs a month ago, ‘There’s Dr. Fitzpiers.’”
“Yes,” she replied, with a touch of sadness. “My mother, knowing how I am, said she didn’t want someone like me getting involved with a broke student, so she whisked me off to Baden. Now that it’s all behind us, I’ll share one thing: I would have sent you a warm note if I had known your name. I didn’t find out until my maid mentioned, as you went up the hotel stairs a month ago, ‘There’s Dr. Fitzpiers.’”
“Good Heaven!” said Fitzpiers, musingly. “How the time comes back to me! The evening, the morning, the dew, the spot. When I found that you really were gone it was as if a cold iron had been passed down my back. I went up to where you had stood when I last saw you—I flung myself on the grass, and—being not much more than a boy—my eyes were literally blinded with tears. Nameless, unknown to me as you were, I couldn’t forget your voice.”
“Good heavens!” Fitzpiers said, thinkng back. “How the memories come rushing back! The evening, the morning, the dew, the place. When I realized you were really gone, it felt like a cold iron had run down my back. I went to where you had stood the last time I saw you—I threw myself on the grass, and—being just a boy—I was completely blinded by tears. Even though you were nameless and unknown to me, I couldn’t forget your voice.”
“For how long?”
"How long?"
“Oh—ever so long. Days and days.”
“Oh—such a long time. Days and days.”
“Days and days! Only days and days? Oh, the heart of a man! Days and days!”
“Days and days! Just days and days? Oh, the heart of a man! Days and days!”
“But, my dear madam, I had not known you more than a day or two. It was not a full-blown love—it was the merest bud—red, fresh, vivid, but small. It was a colossal passion in posse, a giant in embryo. It never matured.”
“But, my dear lady, I had only known you for a day or two. It wasn't a full-blown love—it was just a tiny bud—red, fresh, vivid, but small. It was a huge passion in potential, a giant in the making. It never grew.”
“So much the better, perhaps.”
"Maybe that's a good thing."
“Perhaps. But see how powerless is the human will against predestination. We were prevented meeting; we have met. One feature of the case remains the same amid many changes. You are still rich, and I am still poor. Better than that, you have (judging by your last remark) outgrown the foolish, impulsive passions of your early girl-hood. I have not outgrown mine.”
“Maybe. But look at how weak human will is when faced with fate. We were meant to meet; we’ve ended up meeting. One thing remains constant despite all the changes. You’re still wealthy, and I’m still not. On the bright side, you seem to have (based on your last comment) matured beyond the silly, impulsive feelings of your teenage years. I haven’t moved past mine.”
“I beg your pardon,” said she, with vibrations of strong feeling in her words. “I have been placed in a position which hinders such outgrowings. Besides, I don’t believe that the genuine subjects of emotion do outgrow them; I believe that the older such people get the worse they are. Possibly at ninety or a hundred they may feel they are cured; but a mere threescore and ten won’t do it—at least for me.”
“I’m sorry,” she said, her words filled with deep emotion. “I’ve been put in a situation that prevents such feelings from developing. Besides, I don’t think that real feelings just fade away; I believe that the older people get, the harder it becomes for them. Maybe at ninety or a hundred they might feel better, but just reaching seventy won’t cut it—at least not for me.”
He gazed at her in undisguised admiration. Here was a soul of souls!
He looked at her with open admiration. Here was a true gem of a person!
“Mrs. Charmond, you speak truly,” he exclaimed. “But you speak sadly as well. Why is that?”
“Mrs. Charmond, you speak the truth,” he said. “But you also sound sad. Why is that?”
“I always am sad when I come here,” she said, dropping to a low tone with a sense of having been too demonstrative.
“I always feel sad when I come here,” she said, lowering her voice as if she had been too expressive.
“Then may I inquire why you came?”
“Then can I ask why you came?”
“A man brought me. Women are always carried about like corks upon the waves of masculine desires....I hope I have not alarmed you; but Hintock has the curious effect of bottling up the emotions till one can no longer hold them; I am often obliged to fly away and discharge my sentiments somewhere, or I should die outright.”
“A man brought me here. Women are often treated like corks floating on the waves of men's desires... I hope I haven’t scared you; but Hintock has this strange effect of trapping emotions until you can’t contain them anymore; I often have to escape and let my feelings out somewhere, or I’d just wither away.”
“There is very good society in the county for those who have the privilege of entering it.”
“There’s a great community in the county for those who have the chance to be a part of it.”
“Perhaps so. But the misery of remote country life is that your neighbors have no toleration for difference of opinion and habit. My neighbors think I am an atheist, except those who think I am a Roman Catholic; and when I speak disrespectfully of the weather or the crops they think I am a blasphemer.”
“Maybe so. But the downside of living in a rural area is that your neighbors can't handle differing opinions and lifestyles. Some of my neighbors believe I'm an atheist, while others think I'm a Roman Catholic; and when I criticize the weather or the crops, they see me as a blasphemer.”
She broke into a low musical laugh at the idea.
She let out a soft, musical laugh at the thought.
“You don’t wish me to stay any longer?” he inquired, when he found that she remained musing.
“You don’t want me to stay any longer?” he asked when he noticed that she was still lost in thought.
“No—I think not.”
“No, I don’t think so.”
“Then tell me that I am to be gone.”
“Then tell me that I’m leaving.”
“Why? Cannot you go without?”
"Why? Can't you go without?"
“I may consult my own feelings only, if left to myself.”
“I can only rely on my own feelings if I’m left to my own devices.”
“Well, if you do, what then? Do you suppose you’ll be in my way?”
“Well, if you do, what then? Do you think you’ll be holding me back?”
“I feared it might be so.”
“I was afraid it might be.”
“Then fear no more. But good-night. Come to-morrow and see if I am going on right. This renewal of acquaintance touches me. I have already a friendship for you.”
“Then don’t be afraid anymore. Goodnight. Come back tomorrow and see if I’m doing okay. This chance to reconnect means a lot to me. I already feel a friendship for you.”
“If it depends upon myself it shall last forever.”
"If it's up to me, it will last forever."
“My best hopes that it may. Good-by.”
“My best hopes that it will. Goodbye.”
Fitzpiers went down the stairs absolutely unable to decide whether she had sent for him in the natural alarm which might have followed her mishap, or with the single view of making herself known to him as she had done, for which the capsize had afforded excellent opportunity. Outside the house he mused over the spot under the light of the stars. It seemed very strange that he should have come there more than once when its inhabitant was absent, and observed the house with a nameless interest; that he should have assumed off-hand before he knew Grace that it was here she lived; that, in short, at sundry times and seasons the individuality of Hintock House should have forced itself upon him as appertaining to some existence with which he was concerned.
Fitzpiers went down the stairs, completely unsure whether she had called for him out of genuine concern after her accident or simply to introduce herself to him, a situation that the capsizing had created a great chance for. Outside the house, he contemplated the place under the stars. It felt very odd that he had visited more than once when the resident was away and had looked at the house with a curious interest; that he had casually assumed before meeting Grace that this was where she lived; that, in fact, at various times, the unique character of Hintock House had somehow drawn his attention as if it were tied to some part of his own life.
The intersection of his temporal orbit with Mrs. Charmond’s for a day or two in the past had created a sentimental interest in her at the time, but it had been so evanescent that in the ordinary onward roll of affairs he would scarce ever have recalled it again. To find her here, however, in these somewhat romantic circumstances, magnified that by-gone and transitory tenderness to indescribable proportions.
The brief overlap of his life with Mrs. Charmond’s a day or two ago had sparked a fleeting emotional connection at the time, but it had been so short-lived that he would hardly have thought of it again in the normal flow of things. However, seeing her here in these somewhat romantic circumstances made that past and passing affection feel incredibly intense.
On entering Little Hintock he found himself regarding it in a new way—from the Hintock House point of view rather than from his own and the Melburys’. The household had all gone to bed, and as he went up-stairs he heard the snore of the timber-merchant from his quarter of the building, and turned into the passage communicating with his own rooms in a strange access of sadness. A light was burning for him in the chamber; but Grace, though in bed, was not asleep. In a moment her sympathetic voice came from behind the curtains.
On entering Little Hintock, he found himself seeing it differently—more from the perspective of Hintock House than from his own or the Melburys’. The household had all gone to bed, and as he went upstairs, he heard the timber merchant snoring from his part of the building, which made him feel a sudden wave of sadness. A light was left on for him in the room; however, Grace, even though she was in bed, wasn’t asleep. In a moment, her comforting voice came through the curtains.
“Edgar, is she very seriously hurt?”
“Edgar, is she really hurt badly?”
Fitzpiers had so entirely lost sight of Mrs. Charmond as a patient that he was not on the instant ready with a reply.
Fitzpiers had completely lost track of Mrs. Charmond as a patient, so he wasn't immediately able to respond.
“Oh no,” he said. “There are no bones broken, but she is shaken. I am going again to-morrow.”
“Oh no,” he said. “No bones are broken, but she’s pretty shaken up. I’m going again tomorrow.”
Another inquiry or two, and Grace said,
Another question or two, and Grace said,
“Did she ask for me?”
“Did she ask for me?”
“Well—I think she did—I don’t quite remember; but I am under the impression that she spoke of you.”
“Well—I think she did—I don’t quite remember; but I feel like she mentioned you.”
“Cannot you recollect at all what she said?”
“Can’t you remember anything she said?”
“I cannot, just this minute.”
"I can't right now."
“At any rate she did not talk much about me?” said Grace with disappointment.
“At any rate, she didn’t say much about me?” Grace said, feeling disappointed.
“Oh no.”
“Oh no!”
“But you did, perhaps,” she added, innocently fishing for a compliment.
“But you did, maybe,” she added, playfully looking for a compliment.
“Oh yes—you may depend upon that!” replied he, warmly, though scarcely thinking of what he was saying, so vividly was there present to his mind the personality of Mrs. Charmond.
“Oh yes—you can count on that!” he replied enthusiastically, hardly aware of what he was saying, as Mrs. Charmond’s image was so vividly in his mind.
CHAPTER XXVII.
The doctor’s professional visit to Hintock House was promptly repeated the next day and the next. He always found Mrs. Charmond reclining on a sofa, and behaving generally as became a patient who was in no great hurry to lose that title. On each occasion he looked gravely at the little scratch on her arm, as if it had been a serious wound.
The doctor’s professional visit to Hintock House was quickly repeated the next day and the day after. He always found Mrs. Charmond lounging on a sofa, acting in a way that suited someone who wasn’t really in a rush to stop being called a patient. Each time, he examined the small scratch on her arm with a serious expression, as if it were a significant injury.
He had also, to his further satisfaction, found a slight scar on her temple, and it was very convenient to put a piece of black plaster on this conspicuous part of her person in preference to gold-beater’s skin, so that it might catch the eyes of the servants, and make his presence appear decidedly necessary, in case there should be any doubt of the fact.
He was also pleased to notice a small scar on her temple, and it was quite handy to put a piece of black tape on that noticeable spot instead of a gold patch. This way, it would grab the attention of the servants and make his presence seem clearly needed, just in case anyone had any doubts about it.
“Oh—you hurt me!” she exclaimed one day.
“Oh—you hurt me!” she said one day.
He was peeling off the bit of plaster on her arm, under which the scrape had turned the color of an unripe blackberry previous to vanishing altogether. “Wait a moment, then—I’ll damp it,” said Fitzpiers. He put his lips to the place and kept them there till the plaster came off easily. “It was at your request I put it on,” said he.
He was peeling off the piece of plaster on her arm, where the scrape had turned the color of an unripe blackberry before disappearing completely. “Hold on a second—I’ll wet it,” said Fitzpiers. He pressed his lips to the spot and kept them there until the plaster came off easily. “I only put it on because you asked me to,” he said.
“I know it,” she replied. “Is that blue vein still in my temple that used to show there? The scar must be just upon it. If the cut had been a little deeper it would have spilt my hot blood indeed!” Fitzpiers examined so closely that his breath touched her tenderly, at which their eyes rose to an encounter—hers showing themselves as deep and mysterious as interstellar space. She turned her face away suddenly. “Ah! none of that! none of that—I cannot coquet with you!” she cried. “Don’t suppose I consent to for one moment. Our poor, brief, youthful hour of love-making was too long ago to bear continuing now. It is as well that we should understand each other on that point before we go further.”
“I know it,” she replied. “Is that blue vein still in my temple where it used to show? The scar must be right on it. If the cut had been a little deeper, it would have spilled my hot blood for sure!” Fitzpiers examined her so closely that his breath brushed against her, causing their eyes to meet—hers revealing depths and mysteries like interstellar space. She quickly turned her face away. “Ah! none of that! none of that—I can’t flirt with you!” she exclaimed. “Don’t think I agree to for even a moment. Our brief, youthful time of love was long ago and that can’t be revived now. It’s better that we understand each other on that before we go any further.”
“Coquet! Nor I with you. As it was when I found the historic gloves, so it is now. I might have been and may be foolish; but I am no trifler. I naturally cannot forget that little space in which I flitted across the field of your vision in those days of the past, and the recollection opens up all sorts of imaginings.”
“Flirt! Neither will I with you. Just like when I discovered the historic gloves, things are the same now. I may have been and can be foolish, but I'm not someone who plays around. I can’t help but remember that brief moment when I crossed your line of sight back in those days, and that memory brings up all kinds of thoughts.”
“Suppose my mother had not taken me away?” she murmured, her dreamy eyes resting on the swaying tip of a distant tree.
“ What if my mom hadn’t taken me away?” she murmured, her dreamy eyes focused on the swaying tip of a distant tree.
“I should have seen you again.”
“I should have seen you again.”
“And then?”
"So, what now?"
“Then the fire would have burned higher and higher. What would have immediately followed I know not; but sorrow and sickness of heart at last.”
“Then the fire would have burned higher and higher. What would have come next, I don’t know; but eventually, it would be sorrow and a heavy heart.”
“Why?”
“Why?”
“Well—that’s the end of all love, according to Nature’s law. I can give no other reason.”
“Well—that’s the end of all love, according to Nature’s law. I can’t give any other reason.”
“Oh, don’t speak like that,” she exclaimed. “Since we are only picturing the possibilities of that time, don’t, for pity’s sake, spoil the picture.” Her voice sank almost to a whisper as she added, with an incipient pout upon her full lips, “Let me think at least that if you had really loved me at all seriously, you would have loved me for ever and ever!”
“Oh, don’t talk like that,” she said. “Since we’re just imagining the possibilities of that time, please don’t ruin the moment.” Her voice dropped to almost a whisper as she added, with a hint of a pout on her full lips, “Just let me believe that if you had truly loved me at all, you would have loved me forever!”
“You are right—think it with all your heart,” said he. “It is a pleasant thought, and costs nothing.”
“You're right—believe it with all your heart,” he said. “It's a nice thought, and it doesn’t cost anything.”
She weighed that remark in silence a while. “Did you ever hear anything of me from then till now?” she inquired.
She thought about that comment in silence for a moment. “Have you heard anything about me from then until now?” she asked.
“Not a word.”
"Not a word."
“So much the better. I had to fight the battle of life as well as you. I may tell you about it some day. But don’t ever ask me to do it, and particularly do not press me to tell you now.”
“So much the better. I had to fight the battle of life just like you. I might tell you about it someday. But don’t ever ask me to, and especially don’t push me to share it with you now.”
Thus the two or three days that they had spent in tender acquaintance on the romantic slopes above the Neckar were stretched out in retrospect to the length and importance of years; made to form a canvas for infinite fancies, idle dreams, luxurious melancholies, and sweet, alluring assertions which could neither be proved nor disproved. Grace was never mentioned between them, but a rumor of his proposed domestic changes somehow reached her ears.
Thus, the two or three days they had spent getting to know each other on the romantic hills above the Neckar felt, in retrospect, like they stretched out to the length and significance of years; they created a canvas for endless fantasies, daydreams, indulgent sadness, and sweet, tempting claims that could neither be proven nor disproven. Grace was never mentioned between them, but somehow, she caught wind of his plans for domestic changes.
“Doctor, you are going away,” she exclaimed, confronting him with accusatory reproach in her large dark eyes no less than in her rich cooing voice. “Oh yes, you are,” she went on, springing to her feet with an air which might almost have been called passionate. “It is no use denying it. You have bought a practice at Budmouth. I don’t blame you. Nobody can live at Hintock—least of all a professional man who wants to keep abreast of recent discovery. And there is nobody here to induce such a one to stay for other reasons. That’s right, that’s right—go away!”
“Doctor, you’re leaving,” she said, looking at him with accusatory reproach in her big dark eyes, just like in her rich, gentle voice. “Oh yes, you are,” she continued, jumping to her feet with a passion that was almost palpable. “There’s no point in denying it. You’ve bought a practice in Budmouth. I don’t blame you. Nobody can live in Hintock—especially not a professional who wants to stay updated with recent discoveries. And there’s no one here to make someone like you want to stay for any other reason. That’s right, that’s right—just go away!”
“But no, I have not actually bought the practice as yet, though I am indeed in treaty for it. And, my dear friend, if I continue to feel about the business as I feel at this moment—perhaps I may conclude never to go at all.”
“But no, I haven’t actually bought the practice yet, though I’m definitely in negotiations for it. And, my dear friend, if I keep feeling about this the way I do right now—maybe I’ll decide never to go through with it at all.”
“But you hate Hintock, and everybody and everything in it that you don’t mean to take away with you?”
“But you hate Hintock, and everyone and everything in it that you don’t plan to take with you?”
Fitzpiers contradicted this idea in his most vibratory tones, and she lapsed into the frivolous archness under which she hid passions of no mean strength—strange, smouldering, erratic passions, kept down like a stifled conflagration, but bursting out now here, now there—the only certain element in their direction being its unexpectedness. If one word could have expressed her it would have been Inconsequence. She was a woman of perversities, delighting in frequent contrasts. She liked mystery, in her life, in her love, in her history. To be fair to her, there was nothing in the latter which she had any great reason to be ashamed of, and many things of which she might have been proud; but it had never been fathomed by the honest minds of Hintock, and she rarely volunteered her experiences. As for her capricious nature, the people on her estates grew accustomed to it, and with that marvellous subtlety of contrivance in steering round odd tempers, that is found in sons of the soil and dependants generally, they managed to get along under her government rather better than they would have done beneath a more equable rule.
Fitzpiers challenged this idea with his most vibrant voice, and she fell back into the playful, teasing demeanor that concealed her strong, deep-seated passions—strange, smoldering, unpredictable feelings that were suppressed like a buried fire, breaking out unexpectedly in various ways. If one word could sum her up, it would be "Inconsequence." She was a woman full of contradictions, enjoying frequent contrasts. She liked mystery in her life, her love, and her past. To her credit, there was nothing in her history that she had any real reason to be ashamed of and many things she could have taken pride in; however, it had never been fully understood by the honest people of Hintock, and she rarely shared her experiences. As for her unpredictable nature, the people on her estates grew used to it, and with that amazing skill in navigating odd moods that you find in local folks and their dependents, they managed to get along under her rule even better than they would have under a more stable leadership.
Now, with regard to the doctor’s notion of leaving Hintock, he had advanced further towards completing the purchase of the Budmouth surgeon’s good-will than he had admitted to Mrs. Charmond. The whole matter hung upon what he might do in the ensuing twenty-four hours. The evening after leaving her he went out into the lane, and walked and pondered between the high hedges, now greenish-white with wild clematis—here called “old-man’s beard,” from its aspect later in the year.
Now, as for the doctor's idea of leaving Hintock, he was actually closer to finalizing the purchase of the Budmouth surgeon's goodwill than he had let on to Mrs. Charmond. Everything depended on what he would decide to do in the next twenty-four hours. The evening after he left her, he stepped out into the lane, walking and thinking among the tall hedges, which were now a greenish-white with wild clematis—locally referred to as “old-man’s beard,” because of its appearance later in the year.
The letter of acceptance was to be written that night, after which his departure from Hintock would be irrevocable. But could he go away, remembering what had just passed? The trees, the hills, the leaves, the grass—each had been endowed and quickened with a subtle charm since he had discovered the person and history, and, above all, mood of their owner. There was every temporal reason for leaving; it would be entering again into a world which he had only quitted in a passion for isolation, induced by a fit of Achillean moodiness after an imagined slight. His wife herself saw the awkwardness of their position here, and cheerfully welcomed the purposed change, towards which every step had been taken but the last. But could he find it in his heart—as he found it clearly enough in his conscience—to go away?
The acceptance letter was supposed to be written that night, after which his departure from Hintock would be final. But could he really leave, considering what had just happened? The trees, the hills, the leaves, the grass—each had taken on a subtle charm since he uncovered the person and story, and, most importantly, the mood of their owner. There were plenty of practical reasons to leave; it would mean stepping back into a world he had only left behind due to a desire for solitude, triggered by a bout of Achillean moodiness after a perceived insult. His wife herself recognized the awkwardness of their situation here and happily welcomed the planned change, towards which every step had been taken except the last. But could he find it in his heart—as he clearly found it in his conscience—to walk away?
He drew a troubled breath, and went in-doors. Here he rapidly penned a letter, wherein he withdrew once for all from the treaty for the Budmouth practice. As the postman had already left Little Hintock for that night, he sent one of Melbury’s men to intercept a mail-cart on another turnpike-road, and so got the letter off.
He took a deep breath and went inside. He quickly wrote a letter in which he officially backed out of the agreement for the Budmouth practice. Since the postman had already left Little Hintock for the night, he sent one of Melbury's workers to catch a mail cart on a different road, and managed to get the letter sent.
The man returned, met Fitzpiers in the lane, and told him the thing was done. Fitzpiers went back to his house musing. Why had he carried out this impulse—taken such wild trouble to effect a probable injury to his own and his young wife’s prospects? His motive was fantastic, glowing, shapeless as the fiery scenery about the western sky. Mrs. Charmond could overtly be nothing more to him than a patient now, and to his wife, at the outside, a patron. In the unattached bachelor days of his first sojourning here how highly proper an emotional reason for lingering on would have appeared to troublesome dubiousness. Matrimonial ambition is such an honorable thing.
The man came back, met Fitzpiers in the lane, and told him it was done. Fitzpiers went home lost in thought. Why had he acted on this impulse—gone through so much trouble to potentially harm his and his young wife's future? His motivation was bizarre, intense, and vague like the fiery colors in the western sky. Mrs. Charmond could only really be a patient to him now, and to his wife, at most, a benefactor. In his single days when he first arrived here, a strong emotional reason to stay would have seemed like a confusing hassle. Marriage ambitions are such a respectable thing.
“My father has told me that you have sent off one of the men with a late letter to Budmouth,” cried Grace, coming out vivaciously to meet him under the declining light of the sky, wherein hung, solitary, the folding star. “I said at once that you had finally agreed to pay the premium they ask, and that the tedious question had been settled. When do we go, Edgar?”
“My dad told me that you sent one of the guys off with a late letter to Budmouth,” Grace said, stepping out energetically to greet him under the fading light of the sky, where the lone evening star hung. “I immediately assumed you had finally decided to pay the premium they wanted, and that the annoying question had been resolved. When are we going, Edgar?”
“I have altered my mind,” said he. “They want too much—seven hundred and fifty is too large a sum—and in short, I have declined to go further. We must wait for another opportunity. I fear I am not a good business-man.” He spoke the last words with a momentary faltering at the great foolishness of his act; for, as he looked in her fair and honorable face, his heart reproached him for what he had done.
“I’ve changed my mind,” he said. “They’re asking for too much—seven hundred and fifty is way too high—and honestly, I’ve decided not to go any further. We’ll have to wait for another chance. I think I’m not cut out for business.” He said the last part with a brief stumble, realizing how foolish his decision was; as he looked into her beautiful and honorable face, his heart accused him of what he had done.
Her manner that evening showed her disappointment. Personally she liked the home of her childhood much, and she was not ambitious. But her husband had seemed so dissatisfied with the circumstances hereabout since their marriage that she had sincerely hoped to go for his sake.
Her behavior that evening revealed her disappointment. She personally loved her childhood home and wasn't ambitious. However, her husband had seemed so unhappy with their situation since they got married that she had genuinely hoped to leave for his sake.
It was two or three days before he visited Mrs. Charmond again. The morning had been windy, and little showers had sowed themselves like grain against the walls and window-panes of the Hintock cottages. He went on foot across the wilder recesses of the park, where slimy streams of green moisture, exuding from decayed holes caused by old amputations, ran down the bark of the oaks and elms, the rind below being coated with a lichenous wash as green as emerald. They were stout-trunked trees, that never rocked their stems in the fiercest gale, responding to it entirely by crooking their limbs. Wrinkled like an old crone’s face, and antlered with dead branches that rose above the foliage of their summits, they were nevertheless still green—though yellow had invaded the leaves of other trees.
It was two or three days before he visited Mrs. Charmond again. The morning had been windy, and light showers had sprinkled against the walls and window panes of the Hintock cottages. He walked through the wilder parts of the park, where slimy green streams, seeping from decayed holes left by old amputations, flowed down the bark of the oaks and elms, the area below covered with a lichenous wash as green as emerald. They were stout-trunked trees that didn’t sway in the fiercest gales, bending their limbs instead. Wrinkled like an old woman's face and topped with dead branches that rose above their leafy canopies, they were still green—although yellow had started to take over the leaves of other trees.
She was in a little boudoir or writing-room on the first floor, and Fitzpiers was much surprised to find that the window-curtains were closed and a red-shaded lamp and candles burning, though out-of-doors it was broad daylight. Moreover, a large fire was burning in the grate, though it was not cold.
She was in a small boudoir or writing room on the first floor, and Fitzpiers was quite surprised to see that the window curtains were closed and a lamp with a red shade along with candles were lit, even though it was bright outside. Additionally, a large fire was blazing in the fireplace, despite it not being cold.
“What does it all mean?” he asked.
“What does it all mean?” he asked.
She sat in an easy-chair, her face being turned away. “Oh,” she murmured, “it is because the world is so dreary outside. Sorrow and bitterness in the sky, and floods of agonized tears beating against the panes. I lay awake last night, and I could hear the scrape of snails creeping up the window-glass; it was so sad! My eyes were so heavy this morning that I could have wept my life away. I cannot bear you to see my face; I keep it away from you purposely. Oh! why were we given hungry hearts and wild desires if we have to live in a world like this? Why should Death only lend what Life is compelled to borrow—rest? Answer that, Dr. Fitzpiers.”
She sat in an armchair, her face turned away. “Oh,” she murmured, “it’s just that the world outside is so dreary. There’s sorrow and bitterness in the sky, and waves of anguished tears pounding against the windows. I couldn't sleep last night, and I could hear the snails crawling on the glass; it was so sad! My eyes were so heavy this morning that I felt like I could cry my life away. I can’t let you see my face; I’m keeping it turned away from you on purpose. Oh! why were we given restless hearts and wild desires if we have to live in a world like this? Why does Death only provide what Life has to borrow—rest? Answer that, Dr. Fitzpiers.”
“You must eat of a second tree of knowledge before you can do it, Felice Charmond.”
“You need to taste from another tree of knowledge before you can do it, Felice Charmond.”
“Then, when my emotions have exhausted themselves, I become full of fears, till I think I shall die for very fear. The terrible insistencies of society—how severe they are, and cold and inexorable—ghastly towards those who are made of wax and not of stone. Oh, I am afraid of them; a stab for this error, and a stab for that—correctives and regulations framed that society may tend to perfection—an end which I don’t care for in the least. Yet for this, all I do care for has to be stunted and starved.”
“Then, when my emotions have run their course, I’m left feeling overwhelmed with fears, to the point where I think I’ll die from sheer terror. The harsh pressures of society—how unforgiving and cold they are—are terrifying to those who are fragile and not tough. Oh, I’m afraid of them; a punishment for this mistake, and a punishment for that—rules and regulations set up to help society reach perfection—a goal I couldn’t care less about. Yet for this, everything I truly care about has to be squeezed and neglected.”
Fitzpiers had seated himself near her. “What sets you in this mournful mood?” he asked, gently. (In reality he knew that it was the result of a loss of tone from staying in-doors so much, but he did not say so.)
Fitzpiers had sat down next to her. “What’s making you feel so down?” he asked softly. (He actually knew it was due to her feeling low from being inside too much, but he didn’t mention it.)
“My reflections. Doctor, you must not come here any more. They begin to think it a farce already. I say you must come no more. There—don’t be angry with me;” and she jumped up, pressed his hand, and looked anxiously at him. “It is necessary. It is best for both you and me.”
“My thoughts. Doctor, you can’t come here anymore. People are starting to see it as a joke. I really mean it, you have to stop coming. There—please don’t be upset with me;” and shestood up, squeezed his hand, and looked at him worriedly. “It’s necessary. It’s the best thing for both of us.”
“But,” said Fitzpiers, gloomily, “what have we done?”
“But,” Fitzpiers said gloomily, “what have we done?”
“Done—we have done nothing. Perhaps we have thought the more. However, it is all vexation. I am going away to Middleton Abbey, near Shottsford, where a relative of my late husband lives, who is confined to her bed. The engagement was made in London, and I can’t get out of it. Perhaps it is for the best that I go there till all this is past. When are you going to enter on your new practice, and leave Hintock behind forever, with your pretty wife on your arm?”
“Done—we haven’t accomplished anything. Maybe we’ve just thought about it too much. But it's all frustrating. I’m heading to Middleton Abbey, near Shottsford, where a relative of my late husband is bedridden. The arrangements were made in London, and I can’t back out now. Maybe it’s best that I go there until all this blows over. When are you starting your new practice and leaving Hintock behind for good, with your lovely wife by your side?”
“I have refused the opportunity. I love this place too well to depart.”
“I turned down the opportunity. I love this place too much to leave.”
“You have?” she said, regarding him with wild uncertainty. “Why do you ruin yourself in that way? Great Heaven, what have I done!”
“You have?” she said, looking at him with wild uncertainty. “Why are you destroying yourself like this? Oh my God, what have I done!”
“Nothing. Besides, you are going away.”
“Nothing. Also, you’re leaving.”
“Oh yes; but only to Middleton Abbey for a month or two. Yet perhaps I shall gain strength there—particularly strength of mind—I require it. And when I come back I shall be a new woman; and you can come and see me safely then, and bring your wife with you, and we’ll be friends—she and I. Oh, how this shutting up of one’s self does lead to indulgence in idle sentiments. I shall not wish you to give your attendance to me after to-day. But I am glad that you are not going away—if your remaining does not injure your prospects at all.”
“Oh yes; but only to Middleton Abbey for a month or two. But maybe I’ll find some strength there—especially mental strength—I need it. And when I come back, I’ll be a new woman; and you can come and see me without any worries, and bring your wife along, and we’ll all be friends—she and I. Oh, how isolating oneself leads to indulging in pointless thoughts. I won’t expect you to visit me after today. But I’m glad you’re not leaving—unless staying puts your prospects at risk.”
As soon as he had left the room the mild friendliness she had preserved in her tone at parting, the playful sadness with which she had conversed with him, equally departed from her. She became as heavy as lead—just as she had been before he arrived. Her whole being seemed to dissolve in a sad powerlessness to do anything, and the sense of it made her lips tremulous and her closed eyes wet. His footsteps again startled her, and she turned round.
As soon as he left the room, the gentle friendliness she maintained in her voice at goodbye and the playful sadness she had shared with him vanished. She became as heavy as lead—just like she had been before he showed up. Her entire being felt like it was dissolving in a sorrowful helplessness to do anything, and that feeling made her lips quiver and her closed eyes damp. His footsteps startled her again, and she turned around.
“I returned for a moment to tell you that the evening is going to be fine. The sun is shining; so do open your curtains and put out those lights. Shall I do it for you?”
“I came back for a second to let you know that the evening is going to be great. The sun is shining, so please open your curtains and turn off those lights. Should I do it for you?”
“Please—if you don’t mind.”
"Please, if you don't mind."
He drew back the window-curtains, whereupon the red glow of the lamp and the two candle-flames became almost invisible with the flood of late autumn sunlight that poured in. “Shall I come round to you?” he asked, her back being towards him.
He pulled back the curtains, and the warm light from the lamp and the two candle flames nearly disappeared in the bright late autumn sunlight that flooded in. “Should I come over to you?” he asked, since her back was turned to him.
“No,” she replied.
“No,” she said.
“Why not?”
"Why not?"
“Because I am crying, and I don’t want to see you.”
“Because I'm crying, and I don’t want to see you.”
He stood a moment irresolute, and regretted that he had killed the rosy, passionate lamplight by opening the curtains and letting in garish day.
He stood there for a moment, unsure, and wished he hadn't killed the warm, passionate glow of the lamp by opening the curtains and letting in the harsh daylight.
“Then I am going,” he said.
“Then I’m going,” he stated.
“Very well,” she answered, stretching one hand round to him, and patting her eyes with a handkerchief held in the other.
“Okay,” she replied, reaching one hand out to him and wiping her eyes with a handkerchief in the other.
“Shall I write a line to you at—”
“Should I write you a note at—”
“No, no.” A gentle reasonableness came into her tone as she added, “It must not be, you know. It won’t do.”
“No, no.” A soft understanding came into her tone as she added, “It can’t be, you know. It just won’t work.”
“Very well. Good-by.” The next moment he was gone.
“Alright. Goodbye.” The next moment he was gone.
In the evening, with listless adroitness, she encouraged the maid who dressed her for dinner to speak of Dr. Fitzpiers’s marriage.
In the evening, with a bored kind of skill, she prompted the maid who was getting her ready for dinner to talk about Dr. Fitzpiers’s marriage.
“Mrs. Fitzpiers was once supposed to favor Mr. Winterborne,” said the young woman.
“Mrs. Fitzpiers was thought to be into Mr. Winterborne,” said the young woman.
“And why didn’t she marry him?” said Mrs. Charmond.
“And why didn’t she marry him?” Mrs. Charmond asked.
“Because, you see, ma’am, he lost his houses.”
“Because, you see, ma’am, he lost his houses.”
“Lost his houses? How came he to do that?”
“Lost his houses? How did that happen?”
“The houses were held on lives, and the lives dropped, and your agent wouldn’t renew them, though it is said that Mr. Winterborne had a very good claim. That’s as I’ve heard it, ma’am, and it was through it that the match was broke off.”
“The houses were tied to lives, and those lives ended, and your agent wouldn’t renew them, even though people say Mr. Winterborne had a really strong case. That’s what I’ve heard, ma’am, and that’s how the engagement ended.”
Being just then distracted by a dozen emotions, Mrs. Charmond sunk into a mood of dismal self-reproach. “In refusing that poor man his reasonable request,” she said to herself, “I foredoomed my rejuvenated girlhood’s romance. Who would have thought such a business matter could have nettled my own heart like this? Now for a winter of regrets and agonies and useless wishes, till I forget him in the spring. Oh! I am glad I am going away.”
Being overwhelmed by a mix of emotions, Mrs. Charmond fell into a deep mood of self-blame. “By denying that poor man his fair request,” she thought to herself, “I've doomed the romance of my renewed youth. Who would have believed that such a business-related issue could upset my heart like this? Now I face a winter filled with regrets, pain, and pointless wishes until I forget him come spring. Oh! I'm relieved I'm leaving.”
She left her chamber and went down to dine with a sigh. On the stairs she stood opposite the large window for a moment, and looked out upon the lawn. It was not yet quite dark. Half-way up the steep green slope confronting her stood old Timothy Tangs, who was shortening his way homeward by clambering here where there was no road, and in opposition to express orders that no path was to be made there. Tangs had momentarily stopped to take a pinch of snuff; but observing Mrs. Charmond gazing at him, he hastened to get over the top out of hail. His precipitancy made him miss his footing, and he rolled like a barrel to the bottom, his snuffbox rolling in front of him.
She left her room and headed down to dinner with a sigh. On the stairs, she paused in front of the large window for a moment and looked out at the lawn. It was still not completely dark. Halfway up the steep green hill in front of her stood old Timothy Tangs, who was cutting across the land to get home by climbing where there was no path, despite strict orders against making a trail there. Tangs had briefly stopped to take a pinch of snuff, but when he saw Mrs. Charmond watching him, he hurried to get over the top to avoid her. His haste caused him to lose his footing, and he tumbled down like a barrel, his snuffbox rolling ahead of him.
Her indefinite, idle, impossible passion for Fitzpiers; her constitutional cloud of misery; the sorrowful drops that still hung upon her eyelashes, all made way for the incursive mood started by the spectacle. She burst into an immoderate fit of laughter, her very gloom of the previous hour seeming to render it the more uncontrollable. It had not died out of her when she reached the dining-room; and even here, before the servants, her shoulders suddenly shook as the scene returned upon her; and the tears of her hilarity mingled with the remnants of those engendered by her grief.
Her endless, aimless, impossible love for Fitzpiers; her constant cloud of sadness; the tearful drops still lingering on her eyelashes, all made way for the sudden mood sparked by the scene. She erupted into an uncontrollable fit of laughter, her earlier gloom making it even more intense. It hadn’t faded when she got to the dining room; and even there, in front of the servants, her shoulders suddenly shook as the memory hit her again, and the tears from her laughter mixed with the remnants of those caused by her sadness.
She resolved to be sad no more. She drank two glasses of champagne, and a little more still after those, and amused herself in the evening with singing little amatory songs.
She decided she wouldn't be sad anymore. She downed two glasses of champagne, and then a bit more after that, and spent the evening singing playful love songs.
“I must do something for that poor man Winterborne, however,” she said.
“I have to do something for that poor man Winterborne, though,” she said.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
A week had passed, and Mrs. Charmond had left Hintock House. Middleton Abbey, the place of her sojourn, was about twenty miles distant by road, eighteen by bridle-paths and footways.
A week had gone by, and Mrs. Charmond had left Hintock House. Middleton Abbey, where she stayed, was about twenty miles away by road, eighteen by horse trails and walking paths.
Grace observed, for the first time, that her husband was restless, that at moments he even was disposed to avoid her. The scrupulous civility of mere acquaintanceship crept into his manner; yet, when sitting at meals, he seemed hardly to hear her remarks. Her little doings interested him no longer, while towards her father his bearing was not far from supercilious. It was plain that his mind was entirely outside her life, whereabouts outside it she could not tell; in some region of science, possibly, or of psychological literature. But her hope that he was again immersing himself in those lucubrations which before her marriage had made his light a landmark in Hintock, was founded simply on the slender fact that he often sat up late.
Grace noticed, for the first time, that her husband seemed restless and sometimes even tried to avoid her. The careful politeness of mere acquaintances had crept into his behavior; yet, during meals, he hardly seemed to listen to her comments. Her small actions no longer held his interest, while he treated her father with a hint of condescension. It was clear that his thoughts were completely elsewhere, though she couldn't pinpoint where. Perhaps in some area of science or psychological literature. But her hope that he was diving back into the studies that had made him a notable figure in Hintock before their marriage was based solely on the fact that he often stayed up late.
One evening she discovered him leaning over a gate on Rub-Down Hill, the gate at which Winterborne had once been standing, and which opened on the brink of a steep, slanting down directly into Blackmoor Vale, or the Vale of the White Hart, extending beneath the eye at this point to a distance of many miles. His attention was fixed on the landscape far away, and Grace’s approach was so noiseless that he did not hear her. When she came close she could see his lips moving unconsciously, as to some impassioned visionary theme.
One evening, she found him leaning over a gate on Rub-Down Hill, the same gate where Winterborne had once stood, which opened right at the edge of a steep slope leading down into Blackmoor Vale, or the Vale of the White Hart, stretching out for miles beneath her gaze. He was focused on the distant landscape, and Grace approached so quietly that he didn't notice her. When she got closer, she could see his lips moving slightly, as if he were lost in some intense, imaginative thought.
She spoke, and Fitzpiers started. “What are you looking at?” she asked.
She spoke, and Fitzpiers jumped. “What are you looking at?” she asked.
“Oh! I was contemplating our old place of Buckbury, in my idle way,” he said.
“Oh! I was thinking about our old place in Buckbury, just daydreaming,” he said.
It had seemed to her that he was looking much to the right of that cradle and tomb of his ancestral dignity; but she made no further observation, and taking his arm walked home beside him almost in silence. She did not know that Middleton Abbey lay in the direction of his gaze. “Are you going to have out Darling this afternoon?” she asked, presently. Darling being the light-gray mare which Winterborne had bought for Grace, and which Fitzpiers now constantly used, the animal having turned out a wonderful bargain, in combining a perfect docility with an almost human intelligence; moreover, she was not too young. Fitzpiers was unfamiliar with horses, and he valued these qualities.
It seemed to her that he was looking far to the right of that cradle and tomb of his family’s legacy; but she didn’t say anything more, and as she took his arm, they walked home mostly in silence. She didn't realize that Middleton Abbey was in the direction he was looking. “Are you going to take Darling out this afternoon?” she asked after a moment. Darling was the light-gray mare that Winterborne had bought for Grace, which Fitzpiers was now using all the time because she had turned out to be a fantastic deal, combining perfect gentleness with almost human intelligence. Plus, she wasn’t too young. Fitzpiers wasn’t experienced with horses, and he appreciated these traits.
“Yes,” he replied, “but not to drive. I am riding her. I practise crossing a horse as often as I can now, for I find that I can take much shorter cuts on horseback.”
“Yes,” he replied, “but not to drive. I’m riding her. I practice crossing a horse as often as I can now because I’ve found that I can take much shorter routes on horseback.”
He had, in fact, taken these riding exercises for about a week, only since Mrs. Charmond’s absence, his universal practice hitherto having been to drive.
He had actually been doing these riding exercises for about a week, but since Mrs. Charmond was away, his usual practice had always been to drive.
Some few days later, Fitzpiers started on the back of this horse to see a patient in the aforesaid Vale. It was about five o’clock in the evening when he went away, and at bedtime he had not reached home. There was nothing very singular in this, though she was not aware that he had any patient more than five or six miles distant in that direction. The clock had struck one before Fitzpiers entered the house, and he came to his room softly, as if anxious not to disturb her.
A few days later, Fitzpiers set out on his horse to see a patient in that same Vale. It was around five o’clock in the evening when he left, and by bedtime, he still hadn’t made it home. This wasn’t unusual, even though she didn’t know he had any patients more than five or six miles that way. The clock struck one before Fitzpiers came in, and he quietly entered his room, as if trying not to wake her.
The next morning she was stirring considerably earlier than he.
The next morning, she was up much earlier than he was.
In the yard there was a conversation going on about the mare; the man who attended to the horses, Darling included, insisted that the latter was “hag-rid;” for when he had arrived at the stable that morning she was in such a state as no horse could be in by honest riding. It was true that the doctor had stabled her himself when he got home, so that she was not looked after as she would have been if he had groomed and fed her; but that did not account for the appearance she presented, if Mr. Fitzpiers’s journey had been only where he had stated. The phenomenal exhaustion of Darling, as thus related, was sufficient to develop a whole series of tales about riding witches and demons, the narration of which occupied a considerable time.
In the yard, there was a conversation about the mare. The man who took care of the horses insisted that she was “hag-rid.” When he arrived at the stable that morning, she was in a condition no horse could get into just from honest riding. It was true that the doctor had put her in the stable himself when he got home, so she hadn’t been cared for like she would have been if he had groomed and fed her. But that didn’t explain her appearance, assuming Mr. Fitzpiers had only gone where he said he did. The extreme exhaustion of Darling, as described, was enough to spark a whole series of stories about riding witches and demons, which took quite a bit of time to tell.
Grace returned in-doors. In passing through the outer room she picked up her husband’s overcoat which he had carelessly flung down across a chair. A turnpike ticket fell out of the breast-pocket, and she saw that it had been issued at Middleton Gate. He had therefore visited Middleton the previous night, a distance of at least five-and-thirty miles on horseback, there and back.
Grace went back inside. As she walked through the outer room, she grabbed her husband’s overcoat, which he had carelessly thrown over a chair. A turnpike ticket slipped out of the breast pocket, and she noticed it had been issued at Middleton Gate. This meant he had gone to Middleton the night before, a round trip of at least thirty-five miles on horseback.
During the day she made some inquiries, and learned for the first time that Mrs. Charmond was staying at Middleton Abbey. She could not resist an inference—strange as that inference was.
During the day, she asked around and found out for the first time that Mrs. Charmond was at Middleton Abbey. She couldn’t help but draw a conclusion—odd as that conclusion was.
A few days later he prepared to start again, at the same time and in the same direction. She knew that the state of the cottager who lived that way was a mere pretext; she was quite sure he was going to Mrs. Charmond. Grace was amazed at the mildness of the passion which the suspicion engendered in her. She was but little excited, and her jealousy was languid even to death. It told tales of the nature of her affection for him. In truth, her antenuptial regard for Fitzpiers had been rather of the quality of awe towards a superior being than of tender solicitude for a lover. It had been based upon mystery and strangeness—the mystery of his past, of his knowledge, of his professional skill, of his beliefs. When this structure of ideals was demolished by the intimacy of common life, and she found him as merely human as the Hintock people themselves, a new foundation was in demand for an enduring and stanch affection—a sympathetic interdependence, wherein mutual weaknesses were made the grounds of a defensive alliance. Fitzpiers had furnished none of that single-minded confidence and truth out of which alone such a second union could spring; hence it was with a controllable emotion that she now watched the mare brought round.
A few days later, he got ready to set out again, at the same time and in the same direction. She knew that the condition of the cottager living that way was just an excuse; she was sure he was headed to see Mrs. Charmond. Grace was taken aback by how mild the feelings stirred up by her suspicion were. She wasn’t particularly agitated, and her jealousy felt almost lifeless. It revealed the true nature of her feelings for him. Honestly, her pre-marriage feelings for Fitzpiers had been more about awe towards someone she saw as superior than about tender care for a partner. Her feelings were built on mystery and strangeness—the mystery of his past, his knowledge, his skills, and his beliefs. When this idealized image crumbled due to the closeness of everyday life, and she realized he was just as human as the rest of the people in Hintock, she needed a new foundation for a lasting and strong affection—a supportive interdependence where their mutual weaknesses could forge a protective bond. Fitzpiers hadn’t provided the unwavering trust and honesty needed to create such a partnership; thus, she watched the mare being brought around with a manageable emotion.
“I’ll walk with you to the hill if you are not in a great hurry,” she said, rather loath, after all, to let him go.
“I’ll walk with you to the hill if you’re not in a big hurry,” she said, somewhat reluctant to let him go after all.
“Do; there’s plenty of time,” replied her husband. Accordingly he led along the horse, and walked beside her, impatient enough nevertheless. Thus they proceeded to the turnpike road, and ascended Rub-Down Hill to the gate he had been leaning over when she surprised him ten days before. This was the end of her excursion. Fitzpiers bade her adieu with affection, even with tenderness, and she observed that he looked weary-eyed.
“Sure, there’s plenty of time,” her husband replied. He then brought along the horse and walked next to her, though he was clearly impatient. They made their way to the toll road and climbed Rub-Down Hill to the gate where he had been leaning when she caught him by surprise ten days earlier. This marked the end of her outing. Fitzpiers said goodbye to her warmly, even tenderly, and she noticed that he looked tired.
“Why do you go to-night?” she said. “You have been called up two nights in succession already.”
“Why are you leaving tonight?” she asked. “You’ve already been called up two nights in a row.”
“I must go,” he answered, almost gloomily. “Don’t wait up for me.” With these words he mounted his horse, passed through the gate which Grace held open for him, and ambled down the steep bridle-track to the valley.
"I have to go," he replied, almost sorrowfully. "Don’t wait for me." With that, he got on his horse, rode through the gate that Grace held open for him, and slowly made his way down the steep path into the valley.
She closed the gate and watched his descent, and then his journey onward. His way was east, the evening sun which stood behind her back beaming full upon him as soon as he got out from the shade of the hill. Notwithstanding this untoward proceeding she was determined to be loyal if he proved true; and the determination to love one’s best will carry a heart a long way towards making that best an ever-growing thing. The conspicuous coat of the active though blanching mare made horse and rider easy objects for the vision. Though Darling had been chosen with such pains by Winterborne for Grace, she had never ridden the sleek creature; but her husband had found the animal exceedingly convenient, particularly now that he had taken to the saddle, plenty of staying power being left in Darling yet. Fitzpiers, like others of his character, while despising Melbury and his station, did not at all disdain to spend Melbury’s money, or appropriate to his own use the horse which belonged to Melbury’s daughter.
She closed the gate and watched him go down the hill, then continue on his way. He was heading east, with the evening sun shining on him as soon as he stepped out from the shade of the hill behind her. Despite this unfortunate situation, she was determined to stay loyal if he remained true; and the resolve to love someone deeply can go a long way towards making that love grow. The striking coat of the active but aging mare made both the horse and rider easy to see. Even though Winterborne had carefully chosen Darling for Grace, she had never ridden the sleek animal; but her husband found the horse extremely useful, especially now that he had started riding, with plenty of stamina still in Darling. Fitzpiers, like others of his kind, while looking down on Melbury and his status, didn't hesitate to spend Melbury’s money or take the horse that belonged to Melbury’s daughter for himself.
And so the infatuated young surgeon went along through the gorgeous autumn landscape of White Hart Vale, surrounded by orchards lustrous with the reds of apple-crops, berries, and foliage, the whole intensified by the gilding of the declining sun. The earth this year had been prodigally bountiful, and now was the supreme moment of her bounty. In the poorest spots the hedges were bowed with haws and blackberries; acorns cracked underfoot, and the burst husks of chestnuts lay exposing their auburn contents as if arranged by anxious sellers in a fruit-market. In all this proud show some kernels were unsound as her own situation, and she wondered if there were one world in the universe where the fruit had no worm, and marriage no sorrow.
And so the smitten young surgeon walked through the beautiful autumn landscape of White Hart Vale, surrounded by orchards bursting with the reds of apple crops, berries, and leaves, all made more vivid by the golden light of the setting sun. This year, the earth had been incredibly generous, and now was the peak of her generosity. In the worst spots, the hedges were weighed down with haws and blackberries; acorns crunched underfoot, and the split husks of chestnuts lay open, revealing their rich, brown contents like they were arranged by eager vendors in a produce market. Amidst all this impressive display, some kernels were flawed, just like her own situation, and she wondered if there was a world in the universe where fruit had no worms and marriage had no pain.
Herr Tannhäuser still moved on, his plodding steed rendering him distinctly visible yet. Could she have heard Fitzpiers’s voice at that moment she would have found him murmuring—
Herr Tannhäuser continued on, his slow-moving horse making him clearly visible still. If she could have heard Fitzpiers's voice at that moment, she would have found him murmuring—
“...Towards the loadstar of my one desire
I flitted, even as a dizzy moth in the owlet light.”
“...Towards the guiding star of my only wish
I fluttered, just like a dizzy moth in the dim light.”
But he was a silent spectacle to her now. Soon he rose out of the valley, and skirted a high plateau of the chalk formation on his right, which rested abruptly upon the fruity district of loamy clay, the character and herbage of the two formations being so distinct that the calcareous upland appeared but as a deposit of a few years’ antiquity upon the level vale. He kept along the edge of this high, unenclosed country, and the sky behind him being deep violet, she could still see white Darling in relief upon it—a mere speck now—a Wouvermans eccentricity reduced to microscopic dimensions. Upon this high ground he gradually disappeared.
But he was just a silent sight to her now. Soon he climbed out of the valley and moved along a high plateau of chalk on his right, which suddenly dropped down to the fertile region of rich clay. The characteristics and vegetation of the two areas were so different that the chalky upland looked like it had only formed a few years ago on the flat vale below. He continued along the edge of this high, open land, with the sky behind him turning deep violet, and she could still see the white Darling standing out against it—a tiny speck now—like a Wouvermans painting shrunk down to microscopic size. On this high ground, he gradually vanished from view.
Thus she had beheld the pet animal purchased for her own use, in pure love of her, by one who had always been true, impressed to convey her husband away from her to the side of a new-found idol. While she was musing on the vicissitudes of horses and wives, she discerned shapes moving up the valley towards her, quite near at hand, though till now hidden by the hedges. Surely they were Giles Winterborne, with his two horses and cider-apparatus, conducted by Robert Creedle. Up, upward they crept, a stray beam of the sun alighting every now and then like a star on the blades of the pomace-shovels, which had been converted to steel mirrors by the action of the malic acid. She opened the gate when he came close, and the panting horses rested as they achieved the ascent.
So, she had watched the pet that was bought for her, out of pure love for her, by someone who had always been loyal, but who had been tempted to take her husband away to follow a new obsession. As she reflected on the ups and downs of horses and marriages, she noticed figures moving up the valley toward her, now quite close, although they had been hidden by the hedges until now. It was surely Giles Winterborne, along with his two horses and cider-making equipment, guided by Robert Creedle. They climbed slowly, a stray sunbeam shining down occasionally like a star on the blades of the pomace shovels, which had turned into steel mirrors from the effect of the malic acid. She opened the gate as they drew near, and the tired horses paused to catch their breath after the climb.
“How do you do, Giles?” said she, under a sudden impulse to be familiar with him.
“How's it going, Giles?” she said, with a sudden urge to be friendly with him.
He replied with much more reserve. “You are going for a walk, Mrs. Fitzpiers?” he added. “It is pleasant just now.”
He responded with a lot more restraint. “Are you going for a walk, Mrs. Fitzpiers?” he added. “It’s nice out right now.”
“No, I am returning,” said she.
“No, I'm going back,” she said.
The vehicles passed through, the gate slammed, and Winterborne walked by her side in the rear of the apple-mill.
The vehicles drove through, the gate closed with a bang, and Winterborne walked beside her at the back of the apple mill.
He looked and smelt like Autumn’s very brother, his face being sunburnt to wheat-color, his eyes blue as corn-flowers, his boots and leggings dyed with fruit-stains, his hands clammy with the sweet juice of apples, his hat sprinkled with pips, and everywhere about him that atmosphere of cider which at its first return each season has such an indescribable fascination for those who have been born and bred among the orchards. Her heart rose from its late sadness like a released spring; her senses revelled in the sudden lapse back to nature unadorned. The consciousness of having to be genteel because of her husband’s profession, the veneer of artificiality which she had acquired at the fashionable schools, were thrown off, and she became the crude, country girl of her latent, earliest instincts.
He looked and smelled like Autumn's own brother, with a sunburned face the color of wheat, eyes as blue as cornflowers, boots and leggings stained with fruit, hands sticky with the sweet juice of apples, and his hat dotted with seeds, surrounded by that intoxicating scent of cider that has an indescribable charm for those raised in the orchards each season it returns. Her heart lifted from its recent sadness like a spring coming alive; her senses indulged in the sudden return to nature in its purest form. The pressure to act refined because of her husband's job, the artificiality she had picked up at the fancy schools, fell away, and she became the simple country girl of her hidden, earliest instincts.
Nature was bountiful, she thought. No sooner had she been starved off by Edgar Fitzpiers than another being, impersonating bare and undiluted manliness, had arisen out of the earth, ready to hand. This was an excursion of the imagination which she did not encourage, and she said suddenly, to disguise the confused regard which had followed her thoughts, “Did you meet my husband?”
Nature was generous, she thought. Just when Edgar Fitzpiers had left her feeling deprived, another man, embodying raw and unfiltered masculinity, had emerged from the ground, ready to offer himself. This was a flight of imagination she didn’t want to indulge, so she abruptly asked, trying to hide the mixed feelings that had been reflecting her thoughts, “Did you meet my husband?”
Winterborne, with some hesitation, “Yes.”
Winterborne hesitated, “Yes.”
“Where did you meet him?”
“Where did you meet him?”
“At Calfhay Cross. I come from Middleton Abbey; I have been making there for the last week.”
“At Calfhay Cross. I’m coming from Middleton Abbey; I’ve been working there for the last week.”
“Haven’t they a mill of their own?”
“Haven’t they got their own mill?”
“Yes, but it’s out of repair.”
"Yeah, but it's broken."
“I think—I heard that Mrs. Charmond had gone there to stay?”
“I heard that Mrs. Charmond is staying there?”
“Yes. I have seen her at the windows once or twice.”
“Yes. I’ve seen her at the windows a couple of times.”
Grace waited an interval before she went on: “Did Mr. Fitzpiers take the way to Middleton?”
Grace paused for a moment before continuing: “Did Mr. Fitzpiers take the route to Middleton?”
“Yes...I met him on Darling.” As she did not reply, he added, with a gentler inflection, “You know why the mare was called that?”
“Yes...I met him on Darling.” Since she didn't respond, he continued, with a softer tone, “Do you know why the mare was named that?”
“Oh yes—of course,” she answered, quickly.
“Oh yeah—definitely,” she responded, promptly.
They had risen so far over the crest of the hill that the whole west sky was revealed. Between the broken clouds they could see far into the recesses of heaven, the eye journeying on under a species of golden arcades, and past fiery obstructions, fancied cairns, logan-stones, stalactites and stalagmite of topaz. Deeper than this their gaze passed thin flakes of incandescence, till it plunged into a bottomless medium of soft green fire.
They had climbed so high over the top of the hill that the entire western sky was laid out before them. Between the scattered clouds, they could see deep into the heavens, their eyes traveling beneath a kind of golden arches, past bright obstacles that looked like piles of stones, heavy stones, sparkling minerals, and the shimmering formations of topaz. Beyond this, their gaze continued past thin layers of glowing light until it plunged into an endless expanse of soft green flames.
Her abandonment to the luscious time after her sense of ill-usage, her revolt for the nonce against social law, her passionate desire for primitive life, may have showed in her face. Winterborne was looking at her, his eyes lingering on a flower that she wore in her bosom. Almost with the abstraction of a somnambulist he stretched out his hand and gently caressed the flower.
Her surrender to the seductive moment after feeling wronged, her temporary rebellion against social rules, her intense longing for a simpler life, might have been reflected in her expression. Winterborne was watching her, his gaze lingering on a flower she had in her bosom. Almost like a sleepwalker, he reached out his hand and softly touched the flower.
She drew back. “What are you doing, Giles Winterborne!” she exclaimed, with a look of severe surprise. The evident absence of all premeditation from the act, however, speedily led her to think that it was not necessary to stand upon her dignity here and now. “You must bear in mind, Giles,” she said, kindly, “that we are not as we were; and some people might have said that what you did was taking a liberty.”
She pulled back. “What are you doing, Giles Winterborne!” she exclaimed, looking genuinely surprised. The clear lack of any planning in his action quickly made her realize that it wasn’t necessary to act all high and mighty at that moment. “You need to remember, Giles,” she said gently, “that we're not the same as we used to be; and some people might say that what you did was out of line.”
It was more than she need have told him; his action of forgetfulness had made him so angry with himself that he flushed through his tan. “I don’t know what I am coming to!” he exclaimed, savagely. “Ah—I was not once like this!” Tears of vexation were in his eyes.
It was more than she needed to tell him; his forgetfulness made him so mad at himself that he turned red beneath his tan. “I don’t know what’s happening to me!” he shouted, angrily. “I was never like this before!” Tears of frustration welled up in his eyes.
“No, now—it was nothing. I was too reproachful.”
“No, it’s nothing now. I was being too judgmental.”
“It would not have occurred to me if I had not seen something like it done elsewhere—at Middleton lately,” he said, thoughtfully, after a while.
“It wouldn’t have crossed my mind if I hadn’t seen something like it done somewhere else—recently at Middleton,” he said, pondering, after a moment.
“By whom?”
"Who by?"
“Don’t ask it.”
“Don’t ask that.”
She scanned him narrowly. “I know quite well enough,” she returned, indifferently. “It was by my husband, and the woman was Mrs. Charmond. Association of ideas reminded you when you saw me....Giles—tell me all you know about that—please do, Giles! But no—I won’t hear it. Let the subject cease. And as you are my friend, say nothing to my father.”
She looked at him closely. “I know exactly what you mean,” she replied dismissively. “It was my husband, and the woman was Mrs. Charmond. The thought came to you when you saw me... Giles—tell me everything you know about that—please do, Giles! But wait—I don’t want to hear it. Let’s drop the subject. And as my friend, don’t say anything to my father.”
They reached a place where their ways divided. Winterborne continued along the highway which kept outside the copse, and Grace opened a gate that entered it.
They arrived at a spot where they had to part ways. Winterborne went along the main road that skirted the edge of the woods, while Grace opened a gate that led into it.
CHAPTER XXIX.
She walked up the soft grassy ride, screened on either hand by nut-bushes, just now heavy with clusters of twos and threes and fours. A little way on, the track she pursued was crossed by a similar one at right angles. Here Grace stopped; some few yards up the transverse ride the buxom Suke Damson was visible—her gown tucked up high through her pocket-hole, and no bonnet on her head—in the act of pulling down boughs from which she was gathering and eating nuts with great rapidity, her lover Tim Tangs standing near her engaged in the same pleasant meal.
She walked along the soft grassy path, surrounded on both sides by nut bushes that were now heavy with clusters of twos, threes, and fours. A little further along, the path she was on was crossed by another path at right angles. Here, Grace stopped; a few yards up the intersecting path, the cheerful Suke Damson was visible—her dress hiked up through her pocket hole, with no hat on her head—busy pulling down branches from which she was quickly gathering and eating nuts, while her boyfriend Tim Tangs stood nearby, enjoying the same tasty snack.
Crack, crack went Suke’s jaws every second or two. By an automatic chain of thought Grace’s mind reverted to the tooth-drawing scene described by her husband; and for the first time she wondered if that narrative were really true, Susan’s jaws being so obviously sound and strong. Grace turned up towards the nut-gatherers, and conquered her reluctance to speak to the girl who was a little in advance of Tim. “Good-evening, Susan,” she said.
Crack, crack went Suke’s jaws every second or two. By an automatic chain of thought, Grace’s mind drifted back to the tooth-drawing scene her husband had described; and for the first time, she questioned whether that story was really true, considering Susan’s jaws were so obviously sound and strong. Grace looked up towards the nut-gatherers and pushed past her reluctance to talk to the girl who was just ahead of Tim. “Good evening, Susan,” she said.
“Good-evening, Miss Melbury” (crack).
“Good evening, Miss Melbury” (crack).
“Mrs. Fitzpiers.”
“Mrs. Fitzpiers.”
“Oh yes, ma’am—Mrs. Fitzpiers,” said Suke, with a peculiar smile.
“Oh yes, ma’am—Mrs. Fitzpiers,” Suke said, with a strange smile.
Grace, not to be daunted, continued: “Take care of your teeth, Suke. That accounts for the toothache.”
Grace, undeterred, continued: “Take care of your teeth, Suke. That’s what’s causing the toothache.”
“I don’t know what an ache is, either in tooth, ear, or head, thank the Lord” (crack).
“I don’t know what it’s like to feel pain, whether it’s a toothache, earache, or headache, thank the Lord” (crack).
“Nor the loss of one, either?”
“Not even the loss of one, right?”
“See for yourself, ma’am.” She parted her red lips, and exhibited the whole double row, full up and unimpaired.
“See for yourself, ma’am.” She opened her red lips and showed off her whole double row of teeth, perfectly intact and healthy.
“You have never had one drawn?”
"You've never had one before?"
“Never.”
“Never.”
“So much the better for your stomach,” said Mrs. Fitzpiers, in an altered voice. And turning away quickly, she went on.
“So much better for your stomach,” said Mrs. Fitzpiers, in a changed voice. And quickly turning away, she continued on.
As her husband’s character thus shaped itself under the touch of time, Grace was almost startled to find how little she suffered from that jealous excitement which is conventionally attributed to all wives in such circumstances. But though possessed by none of that feline wildness which it was her moral duty to experience, she did not fail to know that she had made a frightful mistake in her marriage. Acquiescence in her father’s wishes had been degradation to herself. People are not given premonitions for nothing; she should have obeyed her impulse on that early morning, and steadfastly refused her hand.
As her husband’s character developed over time, Grace was almost surprised to realize how little she felt the jealous anxiety that society usually expects from wives in similar situations. But even though she didn’t feel the intense emotions she thought she should have, she recognized that she had made a terrible mistake in her marriage. Going along with her father's wishes was a step down for her. People don’t receive warnings for no reason; she should have listened to her instincts that early morning and firmly refused to marry him.
Oh, that plausible tale which her then betrothed had told her about Suke—the dramatic account of her entreaties to him to draw the aching enemy, and the fine artistic touch he had given to the story by explaining that it was a lovely molar without a flaw!
Oh, that believable story her fiancé had shared with her about Suke—the dramatic recounting of her pleas to him to entice the agonizing enemy, and the skillful detail he added to the tale by describing it as a beautiful molar without a single flaw!
She traced the remainder of the woodland track dazed by the complications of her position. If his protestations to her before their marriage could be believed, her husband had felt affection of some sort for herself and this woman simultaneously; and was now again spreading the same emotion over Mrs. Charmond and herself conjointly, his manner being still kind and fond at times. But surely, rather than that, he must have played the hypocrite towards her in each case with elaborate completeness; and the thought of this sickened her, for it involved the conjecture that if he had not loved her, his only motive for making her his wife must have been her little fortune. Yet here Grace made a mistake, for the love of men like Fitzpiers is unquestionably of such quality as to bear division and transference. He had indeed, once declared, though not to her, that on one occasion he had noticed himself to be possessed by five distinct infatuations at the same time. Therein it differed from the highest affection as the lower orders of the animal world differ from advanced organisms, partition causing, not death, but a multiplied existence. He had loved her sincerely, and had by no means ceased to love her now. But such double and treble barrelled hearts were naturally beyond her conception.
She followed the rest of the woodland path, overwhelmed by the complexities of her situation. If what he said to her before their marriage was true, her husband had felt some kind of affection for her and this other woman at the same time; and now he was spreading the same feelings over both Mrs. Charmond and her, being kind and affectionate at times. But surely, instead of that, he must have been completely pretending with her in both cases; and the thought of this made her feel sick, as it suggested that if he hadn’t loved her, his only reason for marrying her must have been her small fortune. Yet Grace was mistaken here, because the love of men like Fitzpiers can definitely be divided and transferred. He had actually once claimed, though not to her, that there was a time when he found himself in love with five different women at once. This was different from true love, just as the simpler forms of animal life differ from more complex beings, where division doesn’t cause death but rather a multiplied existence. He had loved her genuinely and definitely hadn’t stopped loving her now. But such double or triple-barreled hearts were naturally beyond her understanding.
Of poor Suke Damson, Grace thought no more. She had had her day.
Of poor Suke Damson, Grace thought no more. She had had her time.
“If he does not love me I will not love him!” said Grace, proudly. And though these were mere words, it was a somewhat formidable thing for Fitzpiers that her heart was approximating to a state in which it might be possible to carry them out. That very absence of hot jealousy which made his courses so easy, and on which, indeed, he congratulated himself, meant, unknown to either wife or husband, more mischief than the inconvenient watchfulness of a jaundiced eye.
“If he doesn’t love me, I won’t love him!” said Grace, confidently. And even though those were just words, it was quite daunting for Fitzpiers that her heart was getting to a point where she might actually follow through. The lack of intense jealousy that made his actions so easy, and that he actually felt proud of, was, unbeknownst to both him and his wife, causing more trouble than the annoying scrutiny of a suspicious partner.
Her sleep that night was nervous. The wing allotted to her and her husband had never seemed so lonely. At last she got up, put on her dressing-gown, and went down-stairs. Her father, who slept lightly, heard her descend, and came to the stair-head.
Her sleep that night was restless. The room designated for her and her husband had never felt so empty. Eventually, she got up, put on her robe, and went downstairs. Her father, who slept lightly, heard her coming down and went to the top of the stairs.
“Is that you, Grace? What’s the matter?” he said.
“Is that you, Grace? What’s wrong?” he said.
“Nothing more than that I am restless. Edgar is detained by a case at Owlscombe in White Hart Vale.”
“Honestly, I’m just feeling anxious. Edgar is tied up with a case at Owlscombe in White Hart Vale.”
“But how’s that? I saw the woman’s husband at Great Hintock just afore bedtime; and she was going on well, and the doctor gone then.”
“But how can that be? I saw the woman's husband at Great Hintock just before bedtime, and she seemed to be doing well, and the doctor had just left.”
“Then he’s detained somewhere else,” said Grace. “Never mind me; he will soon be home. I expect him about one.”
“Then he's being held somewhere else,” Grace said. “Don't worry about me; he'll be home soon. I expect him around one.”
She went back to her room, and dozed and woke several times. One o’clock had been the hour of his return on the last occasion; but it passed now by a long way, and Fitzpiers did not come. Just before dawn she heard the men stirring in the yard; and the flashes of their lanterns spread every now and then through her window-blind. She remembered that her father had told her not to be disturbed if she noticed them, as they would be rising early to send off four loads of hurdles to a distant sheep-fair. Peeping out, she saw them bustling about, the hollow-turner among the rest; he was loading his wares—wooden-bowls, dishes, spigots, spoons, cheese-vats, funnels, and so on—upon one of her father’s wagons, who carried them to the fair for him every year out of neighborly kindness.
She went back to her room and dozed off and woke up several times. One o'clock was the time he had come back last time, but that came and went, and Fitzpiers still hadn't shown up. Just before dawn, she heard the men moving around in the yard, and the flashes of their lanterns occasionally lit up her window. She recalled her father telling her not to worry if she noticed them since they would be getting up early to send off four loads of hurdles to a distant sheep fair. Peeking out, she saw them bustling about, the hollow-turner among them; he was loading his goods—wooden bowls, dishes, spigots, spoons, cheese-vats, funnels, and so on—onto one of her father's wagons, which he kindly took to the fair for him every year.
The scene and the occasion would have enlivened her but that her husband was still absent; though it was now five o’clock. She could hardly suppose him, whatever his infatuation, to have prolonged to a later hour than ten an ostensibly professional call on Mrs. Charmond at Middleton; and he could have ridden home in two hours and a half. What, then, had become of him? That he had been out the greater part of the two preceding nights added to her uneasiness.
The scene and the occasion would have excited her, but her husband was still missing, even though it was now five o’clock. She could hardly believe that, no matter how obsessed he was, he would stay out later than ten for a supposedly professional visit with Mrs. Charmond at Middleton; he could have ridden home in two and a half hours. So what had happened to him? The fact that he had been out for most of the two previous nights only made her more anxious.
She dressed herself, descended, and went out, the weird twilight of advancing day chilling the rays from the lanterns, and making the men’s faces wan. As soon as Melbury saw her he came round, showing his alarm.
She got dressed, went downstairs, and stepped outside, the strange dim light of early evening dimming the glow from the lanterns and making the men’s faces look pale. As soon as Melbury noticed her, he rushed over, clearly worried.
“Edgar is not come,” she said. “And I have reason to know that he’s not attending anybody. He has had no rest for two nights before this. I was going to the top of the hill to look for him.”
“Edgar hasn’t come,” she said. “And I know for sure that he’s not with anyone. He hasn’t had any rest for two nights before this. I was going to the top of the hill to look for him.”
“I’ll come with you,” said Melbury.
“I’ll come with you,” Melbury said.
She begged him not to hinder himself; but he insisted, for he saw a peculiar and rigid gloom in her face over and above her uneasiness, and did not like the look of it. Telling the men he would be with them again soon, he walked beside her into the turnpike-road, and partly up the hill whence she had watched Fitzpiers the night before across the Great White Hart or Blackmoor Valley. They halted beneath a half-dead oak, hollow, and disfigured with white tumors, its roots spreading out like accipitrine claws grasping the ground. A chilly wind circled round them, upon whose currents the seeds of a neighboring lime-tree, supported parachute-wise by the wing attached, flew out of the boughs downward like fledglings from their nest. The vale was wrapped in a dim atmosphere of unnaturalness, and the east was like a livid curtain edged with pink. There was no sign nor sound of Fitzpiers.
She pleaded with him not to hold himself back; but he was determined, as he noticed a strange and tense sadness on her face, beyond just her anxiety, and he didn't like how it looked. Telling the guys he’d be back soon, he walked with her onto the turnpike road, and partially up the hill where she had watched Fitzpiers the night before across the Great White Hart or Blackmoor Valley. They stopped beneath a nearly dead oak tree, hollow and marked with white growths, its roots sprawling out like bird claws gripping the ground. A chilly wind swirled around them, carrying seeds from a nearby lime tree, which floated down from the branches like young birds leaving their nest. The valley was shrouded in an eerie atmosphere, and the eastern sky looked like a pale curtain with a pink edge. There was no sign or sound of Fitzpiers.
“It is no use standing here,” said her father. “He may come home fifty ways...why, look here!—here be Darling’s tracks—turned homeward and nearly blown dry and hard! He must have come in hours ago without your seeing him.”
“It’s pointless to just stand here,” her father said. “He could come home in so many ways...look!—here are Darling’s tracks—heading home and almost dried and hard! He must have come in hours ago without you noticing.”
“He has not done that,” said she.
“He hasn’t done that,” she said.
They went back hastily. On entering their own gates they perceived that the men had left the wagons, and were standing round the door of the stable which had been appropriated to the doctor’s use. “Is there anything the matter?” cried Grace.
They hurried back. Upon entering their own gates, they noticed that the men had abandoned the wagons and were gathered around the door of the stable that had been designated for the doctor’s use. “Is something wrong?” shouted Grace.
“Oh no, ma’am. All’s well that ends well,” said old Timothy Tangs. “I’ve heard of such things before—among workfolk, though not among your gentle people—that’s true.”
“Oh no, ma’am. All’s well that ends well,” said old Timothy Tangs. “I’ve heard of such things before—among workers, though not among your genteel folks—that’s true.”
They entered the stable, and saw the pale shape of Darling standing in the middle of her stall, with Fitzpiers on her back, sound asleep. Darling was munching hay as well as she could with the bit in her month, and the reins, which had fallen from Fitzpiers’s hand, hung upon her neck.
They walked into the stable and saw the pale figure of Darling standing in the middle of her stall, with Fitzpiers asleep on her back. Darling was nibbling on hay as best as she could with the bit in her mouth, and the reins that had slipped from Fitzpiers's hand dangled around her neck.
Grace went and touched his hand; shook it before she could arouse him. He moved, started, opened his eyes, and exclaimed, “Ah, Felice!...Oh, it’s Grace. I could not see in the gloom. What—am I in the saddle?”
Grace went and touched his hand; shook it before she could wake him up. He moved, startled, opened his eyes, and said, “Ah, Felice!...Oh, it’s Grace. I couldn’t see in the dark. What—am I in the saddle?”
“Yes,” said she. “How do you come here?”
“Yes,” she said. “How did you get here?”
He collected his thoughts, and in a few minutes stammered, “I was riding along homeward through the vale, very, very sleepy, having been up so much of late. When I came opposite Holywell spring the mare turned her head that way, as if she wanted to drink. I let her go in, and she drank; I thought she would never finish. While she was drinking, the clock of Owlscombe Church struck twelve. I distinctly remember counting the strokes. From that moment I positively recollect nothing till I saw you here by my side.”
He gathered his thoughts and, after a few minutes, stammered, “I was riding home through the valley, feeling really sleepy because I’ve been up so much lately. When I got to Holywell spring, the mare turned her head that way, like she wanted a drink. I let her go in, and she drank; it felt like she would never stop. While she was drinking, the clock at Owlscombe Church struck twelve. I clearly remember counting the strikes. From that moment, I don’t remember anything until I saw you here next to me.”
“The name! If it had been any other horse he’d have had a broken neck!” murmured Melbury.
“The name! If it had been any other horse, he would have had a broken neck!” murmured Melbury.
“’Tis wonderful, sure, how a quiet hoss will bring a man home at such times!” said John Upjohn. “And what’s more wonderful than keeping your seat in a deep, slumbering sleep? I’ve knowed men drowze off walking home from randies where the mead and other liquors have gone round well, and keep walking for more than a mile on end without waking. Well, doctor, I don’t care who the man is, ’tis a mercy you wasn’t a drownded, or a splintered, or a hanged up to a tree like Absalom—also a handsome gentleman like yerself, as the prophets say.”
“It's amazing how a quiet horse can bring a man home during times like these!” said John Upjohn. “And what's even more incredible is staying in a deep, peaceful sleep while doing it. I've seen men doze off while walking home from parties where the drinks have been flowing, and they keep walking for over a mile without waking up. Well, doctor, I don’t care who the guy is, it’s a blessing you weren’t drowned, or smashed up, or hanged from a tree like Absalom—also a handsome gentleman like yourself, as the prophets say.”
“True,” murmured old Timothy. “From the soul of his foot to the crown of his head there was no blemish in him.”
“True,” murmured old Timothy. “From the soles of his feet to the top of his head, there was no flaw in him.”
“Or leastwise you might ha’ been a-wownded into tatters a’most, and no doctor to jine your few limbs together within seven mile!”
“Or at least you could have been injured beyond recognition, and there wouldn’t be a doctor within seven miles to put your few limbs back together!”
While this grim address was proceeding, Fitzpiers had dismounted, and taking Grace’s arm walked stiffly in-doors with her. Melbury stood staring at the horse, which, in addition to being very weary, was spattered with mud. There was no mud to speak of about the Hintocks just now—only in the clammy hollows of the vale beyond Owlscombe, the stiff soil of which retained moisture for weeks after the uplands were dry. While they were rubbing down the mare, Melbury’s mind coupled with the foreign quality of the mud the name he had heard unconsciously muttered by the surgeon when Grace took his hand—“Felice.” Who was Felice? Why, Mrs. Charmond; and she, as he knew, was staying at Middleton.
While this grim conversation was happening, Fitzpiers had gotten off his horse and took Grace’s arm, walking stiffly inside with her. Melbury stood staring at the horse, which was not only very tired but also covered in mud. There wasn’t much mud around the Hintocks at the moment—only in the damp hollows of the valley beyond Owlscombe, where the hard soil held moisture for weeks after the high ground had dried up. As they were grooming the mare, Melbury's mind connected the unusual mud with the name he had heard the surgeon mutter when Grace took his hand—“Felice.” Who was Felice? Oh, Mrs. Charmond; and she, as he knew, was staying at Middleton.
Melbury had indeed pounced upon the image that filled Fitzpiers’s half-awakened soul—wherein there had been a picture of a recent interview on a lawn with a capriciously passionate woman who had begged him not to come again in tones whose vibration incited him to disobey. “What are you doing here? Why do you pursue me? Another belongs to you. If they were to see you they would seize you as a thief!” And she had turbulently admitted to his wringing questions that her visit to Middleton had been undertaken less because of the invalid relative than in shamefaced fear of her own weakness if she remained near his home. A triumph then it was to Fitzpiers, poor and hampered as he had become, to recognize his real conquest of this beauty, delayed so many years. His was the selfish passion of Congreve’s Millamont, to whom love’s supreme delight lay in “that heart which others bleed for, bleed for me.”
Melbury had indeed seized upon the image that filled Fitzpiers’s half-awake mind—where there was a memory of a recent conversation on a lawn with a whimsically passionate woman who had pleaded with him not to return, her urgent tone making him want to disobey. “What are you doing here? Why are you chasing me? Someone else is yours. If they saw you, they would grab you like a thief!” And she had confessed, in a flurry, to his pressing questions that her trip to Middleton was driven less by concern for her sick relative and more by a shy fear of her own weakness if she stayed close to his home. It was a victory for Fitzpiers, poor and constrained as he had become, to realize his true triumph over this beauty, finally acknowledged after so many years. His was the selfish love of Congreve’s Millamont, who found love’s ultimate pleasure in “that heart which others bleed for, bleed for me.”
When the horse had been attended to Melbury stood uneasily here and there about his premises; he was rudely disturbed in the comfortable views which had lately possessed him on his domestic concerns. It is true that he had for some days discerned that Grace more and more sought his company, preferred supervising his kitchen and bakehouse with her step-mother to occupying herself with the lighter details of her own apartments. She seemed no longer able to find in her own hearth an adequate focus for her life, and hence, like a weak queen-bee after leading off to an independent home, had hovered again into the parent hive. But he had not construed these and other incidents of the kind till now.
When the horse had been taken care of, Melbury stood around his property feeling uneasy. He was disturbed by the comfortable thoughts he had recently had about his home life. It’s true that for the past few days he had noticed that Grace increasingly wanted to be with him, preferring to help out in the kitchen and bakehouse with her step-mother rather than focusing on her own space. She seemed unable to find enough meaning in her own home, and like a weak queen bee that has returned to the original hive after trying to start her own, she had come back to the family. But he hadn’t really thought much about these and other similar happenings until now.
Something was wrong in the dove-cot. A ghastly sense that he alone would be responsible for whatever unhappiness should be brought upon her for whom he almost solely lived, whom to retain under his roof he had faced the numerous inconveniences involved in giving up the best part of his house to Fitzpiers. There was no room for doubt that, had he allowed events to take their natural course, she would have accepted Winterborne, and realized his old dream of restitution to that young man’s family.
Something was off in the dove-cot. He felt a terrible burden knowing he would be responsible for any unhappiness that came to the woman he almost solely lived for, the one for whom he endured the many drawbacks of giving up the best part of his house to Fitzpiers. There was no doubt that if he had let things unfold naturally, she would have chosen Winterborne and fulfilled his old dream of helping that young man's family.
That Fitzpiers could allow himself to look on any other creature for a moment than Grace filled Melbury with grief and astonishment. In the pure and simple life he had led it had scarcely occurred to him that after marriage a man might be faithless. That he could sweep to the heights of Mrs. Charmond’s position, lift the veil of Isis, so to speak, would have amazed Melbury by its audacity if he had not suspected encouragement from that quarter. What could he and his simple Grace do to countervail the passions of such as those two sophisticated beings—versed in the world’s ways, armed with every apparatus for victory? In such an encounter the homely timber-dealer felt as inferior as a bow-and-arrow savage before the precise weapons of modern warfare.
That Fitzpiers could even think about anyone other than Grace for a moment shocked and saddened Melbury. In the straightforward life he had lived, it hardly crossed his mind that a man could be unfaithful after marriage. The idea that Fitzpiers could rise to Mrs. Charmond’s level and uncover her secrets would have astonished Melbury with its boldness, if he hadn’t suspected she was encouraging him. What could he and his simple Grace do to compete with the desires of those two worldly and sophisticated individuals, equipped with every tool for success? In such a situation, the down-to-earth timber dealer felt as outmatched as a primitive archer facing the advanced weapons of modern warfare.
Grace came out of the house as the morning drew on. The village was silent, most of the folk having gone to the fair. Fitzpiers had retired to bed, and was sleeping off his fatigue. She went to the stable and looked at poor Darling: in all probability Giles Winterborne, by obtaining for her a horse of such intelligence and docility, had been the means of saving her husband’s life. She paused over the strange thought; and then there appeared her father behind her. She saw that he knew things were not as they ought to be, from the troubled dulness of his eye, and from his face, different points of which had independent motions, twitchings, and tremblings, unknown to himself, and involuntary.
Grace stepped outside as the morning went on. The village was quiet, with most of the people having gone to the fair. Fitzpiers had gone to bed and was sleeping off his exhaustion. She made her way to the stable and looked at poor Darling: it was likely that Giles Winterborne, by getting her such an intelligent and gentle horse, had saved her husband’s life. She paused to think about this strange idea; and then her father appeared behind her. She could tell that he sensed something was off, evident in the troubled dullness of his eyes, and the twitching and trembling of different parts of his face that moved on their own, without his awareness.
“He was detained, I suppose, last night?” said Melbury.
“He was held, I guess, last night?” said Melbury.
“Oh yes; a bad case in the vale,” she replied, calmly.
“Oh yeah; a serious situation in the valley,” she replied, calmly.
“Nevertheless, he should have stayed at home.”
“Still, he should have stayed home.”
“But he couldn’t, father.”
“But he couldn’t, dad.”
Her father turned away. He could hardly bear to see his whilom truthful girl brought to the humiliation of having to talk like that.
Her father turned away. He could barely stand to see his once honest daughter brought to the humiliation of having to talk like that.
That night carking care sat beside Melbury’s pillow, and his stiff limbs tossed at its presence. “I can’t lie here any longer,” he muttered. Striking a light, he wandered about the room. “What have I done—what have I done for her?” he said to his wife, who had anxiously awakened. “I had long planned that she should marry the son of the man I wanted to make amends to; do ye mind how I told you all about it, Lucy, the night before she came home? Ah! but I was not content with doing right, I wanted to do more!”
That night, overwhelming worry sat beside Melbury’s pillow, and he tossed and turned in its presence. “I can’t stay here any longer,” he muttered. Striking a match, he wandered around the room. “What have I done—what have I done for her?” he said to his wife, who had anxiously woken up. “I had long planned for her to marry the son of the man I wanted to make amends to; do you remember how I told you all about it, Lucy, the night before she came home? Ah! But I wasn’t satisfied with just doing the right thing, I wanted to do more!”
“Don’t raft yourself without good need, George,” she replied. “I won’t quite believe that things are so much amiss. I won’t believe that Mrs. Charmond has encouraged him. Even supposing she has encouraged a great many, she can have no motive to do it now. What so likely as that she is not yet quite well, and doesn’t care to let another doctor come near her?”
“Don’t put yourself in danger without a good reason, George,” she replied. “I really can’t believe that everything is that bad. I can’t believe that Mrs. Charmond has pushed him. Even if she has encouraged a lot of people, there’s no reason for her to do it now. Isn’t it just as likely that she’s still not feeling well and doesn’t want another doctor near her?”
He did not heed. “Grace used to be so busy every day, with fixing a curtain here and driving a tin-tack there; but she cares for no employment now!”
He didn't pay attention. “Grace used to be so busy every day, fixing a curtain here and driving a tack there; but she doesn’t care about any work now!”
“Do you know anything of Mrs. Charmond’s past history? Perhaps that would throw some light upon things. Before she came here as the wife of old Charmond four or five years ago, not a soul seems to have heard aught of her. Why not make inquiries? And then do ye wait and see more; there’ll be plenty of opportunity. Time enough to cry when you know ’tis a crying matter; and ’tis bad to meet troubles half-way.”
“Do you know anything about Mrs. Charmond’s past? That might shed some light on the situation. Before she came here as old Charmond’s wife four or five years ago, nobody seems to have known anything about her. Why not ask around? And then just wait and see more; there will be plenty of chances. It’s best to save your tears for when you know it’s worth crying about; it’s not good to face troubles before they come.”
There was some good-sense in the notion of seeing further. Melbury resolved to inquire and wait, hoping still, but oppressed between-whiles with much fear.
There was some common sense in the idea of looking ahead. Melbury decided to ask questions and be patient, still holding onto hope, but feeling weighed down by a lot of fear in the meantime.
CHAPTER XXX.
Examine Grace as her father might, she would admit nothing. For the present, therefore, he simply watched.
Examine Grace like her father would, she wouldn't admit anything. So for now, he just observed.
The suspicion that his darling child was being slighted wrought almost a miraculous change in Melbury’s nature. No man so furtive for the time as the ingenuous countryman who finds that his ingenuousness has been abused. Melbury’s heretofore confidential candor towards his gentlemanly son-in-law was displaced by a feline stealth that did injury to his every action, thought, and mood. He knew that a woman once given to a man for life took, as a rule, her lot as it came and made the best of it, without external interference; but for the first time he asked himself why this so generally should be so. Moreover, this case was not, he argued, like ordinary cases. Leaving out the question of Grace being anything but an ordinary woman, her peculiar situation, as it were in mid-air between two planes of society, together with the loneliness of Hintock, made a husband’s neglect a far more tragical matter to her than it would be to one who had a large circle of friends to fall back upon. Wisely or unwisely, and whatever other fathers did, he resolved to fight his daughter’s battle still.
The suspicion that his beloved child was being overlooked brought about an almost miraculous change in Melbury’s character. No one was as secretive as the honest countryman who discovers that his honesty has been taken advantage of. Melbury’s previously open trust in his well-to-do son-in-law was replaced by a slyness that tainted his every action, thought, and mood. He understood that a woman given to a man for life typically accepted her situation as it came and tried to make the best of it, without outside interference; but for the first time, he questioned why this was generally the case. Furthermore, he argued that this situation was not like ordinary ones. Setting aside the fact that Grace was anything but an ordinary woman, her unique situation, caught as she was between two social worlds, along with the isolation of Hintock, made her husband’s neglect a far more tragic issue for her than it would be for someone with a wide circle of friends to rely on. Wisely or not, and regardless of what other fathers did, he decided to fight for his daughter’s cause.
Mrs. Charmond had returned. But Hintock House scarcely gave forth signs of life, so quietly had she reentered it. He went to church at Great Hintock one afternoon as usual, there being no service at the smaller village. A few minutes before his departure, he had casually heard Fitzpiers, who was no church-goer, tell his wife that he was going to walk in the wood. Melbury entered the building and sat down in his pew; the parson came in, then Mrs. Charmond, then Mr. Fitzpiers.
Mrs. Charmond was back. But Hintock House barely showed any signs of life; she had slipped in so quietly. He went to church at Great Hintock one afternoon as usual since there was no service in the smaller village. A few minutes before he left, he had overheard Fitzpiers, who didn't usually go to church, tell his wife that he was going to take a walk in the woods. Melbury entered the church and sat down in his pew; the pastor came in, then Mrs. Charmond, and finally Mr. Fitzpiers.
The service proceeded, and the jealous father was quite sure that a mutual consciousness was uninterruptedly maintained between those two; he fancied that more than once their eyes met. At the end, Fitzpiers so timed his movement into the aisle that it exactly coincided with Felice Charmond’s from the opposite side, and they walked out with their garments in contact, the surgeon being just that two or three inches in her rear which made it convenient for his eyes to rest upon her cheek. The cheek warmed up to a richer tone.
The service went on, and the jealous father was absolutely convinced that those two were constantly aware of each other; he imagined that their eyes met more than once. At the end, Fitzpiers timed his move into the aisle so perfectly that it matched Felice Charmond’s from the other side, and they walked out with their clothes brushing against each other, the surgeon just a couple of inches behind her, which allowed his gaze to linger on her cheek. Her cheek took on a deeper hue.
This was a worse feature in the flirtation than he had expected. If she had been playing with him in an idle freak the game might soon have wearied her; but the smallest germ of passion—and women of the world do not change color for nothing—was a threatening development. The mere presence of Fitzpiers in the building, after his statement, was wellnigh conclusive as far as he was concerned; but Melbury resolved yet to watch.
This was a bigger problem in the flirtation than he had anticipated. If she had just been playing around for fun, she might have lost interest quickly; however, the slightest hint of real feelings—and women like her don’t change their behavior without a reason—was a concerning situation. Just the fact that Fitzpiers was in the building, after what he had said, was almost a definite sign in his mind; but Melbury decided to keep observing.
He had to wait long. Autumn drew shiveringly to its end. One day something seemed to be gone from the gardens; the tenderer leaves of vegetables had shrunk under the first smart frost, and hung like faded linen rags; then the forest leaves, which had been descending at leisure, descended in haste and in multitudes, and all the golden colors that had hung overhead were now crowded together in a degraded mass underfoot, where the fallen myriads got redder and hornier, and curled themselves up to rot. The only suspicious features in Mrs. Charmond’s existence at this season were two: the first, that she lived with no companion or relative about her, which, considering her age and attractions, was somewhat unusual conduct for a young widow in a lonely country-house; the other, that she did not, as in previous years, start from Hintock to winter abroad. In Fitzpiers, the only change from his last autumn’s habits lay in his abandonment of night study—his lamp never shone from his new dwelling as from his old.
He had to wait a long time. Autumn was coming to a chilly end. One day, something felt missing from the gardens; the softer leaves of the veggies had shriveled under the first sharp frost and hung like faded rags. Then the forest leaves, which had been falling leisurely, dropped quickly and in large numbers, and all the golden colors that had been overhead ended up in a messy pile underfoot, where the fallen ones turned redder and tougher, curling up to decay. The only odd things about Mrs. Charmond’s life during this time were two: first, that she lived without a companion or relative around her, which, given her age and attractiveness, was a bit unusual for a young widow in a lonely country house; second, that she didn’t, like in previous years, leave Hintock to spend the winter abroad. The only change for Fitzpiers compared to last autumn was that he had stopped studying at night—his lamp no longer shone from his new place like it did from his old one.
If the suspected ones met, it was by such adroit contrivances that even Melbury’s vigilance could not encounter them together. A simple call at her house by the doctor had nothing irregular about it, and that he had paid two or three such calls was certain. What had passed at those interviews was known only to the parties themselves; but that Felice Charmond was under some one’s influence Melbury soon had opportunity of perceiving.
If the people he suspected met up, it was in such clever ways that even Melbury's watchfulness couldn’t catch them together. A routine visit to her house by the doctor seemed completely normal, and it was clear he had made two or three of those visits. What happened during those meetings was known only to them, but Melbury quickly noticed that Felice Charmond was under someone's influence.
Winter had come on. Owls began to be noisy in the mornings and evenings, and flocks of wood-pigeons made themselves prominent again. One day in February, about six months after the marriage of Fitzpiers, Melbury was returning from Great Hintock on foot through the lane, when he saw before him the surgeon also walking. Melbury would have overtaken him, but at that moment Fitzpiers turned in through a gate to one of the rambling drives among the trees at this side of the wood, which led to nowhere in particular, and the beauty of whose serpentine curves was the only justification of their existence. Felice almost simultaneously trotted down the lane towards the timber-dealer, in a little basket-carriage which she sometimes drove about the estate, unaccompanied by a servant. She turned in at the same place without having seen either Melbury or apparently Fitzpiers. Melbury was soon at the spot, despite his aches and his sixty years. Mrs. Charmond had come up with the doctor, who was standing immediately behind the carriage. She had turned to him, her arm being thrown carelessly over the back of the seat. They looked in each other’s faces without uttering a word, an arch yet gloomy smile wreathing her lips. Fitzpiers clasped her hanging hand, and, while she still remained in the same listless attitude, looking volumes into his eyes, he stealthily unbuttoned her glove, and stripped her hand of it by rolling back the gauntlet over the fingers, so that it came off inside out. He then raised her hand to his month, she still reclining passively, watching him as she might have watched a fly upon her dress. At last she said, “Well, sir, what excuse for this disobedience?”
Winter had arrived. Owls started hooting more in the mornings and evenings, and flocks of wood pigeons reappeared. One day in February, about six months after Fitzpiers's marriage, Melbury was walking back from Great Hintock through the lane when he spotted the surgeon ahead of him walking too. Melbury would have caught up to him, but just then Fitzpiers turned into a gate leading to one of the winding drives through the trees, a path that went nowhere specific, with its beautiful curves being the only reason for its existence. Almost at the same time, Felice trotted down the lane toward the timber dealer in a small basket carriage she sometimes drove around the estate, without a servant. She turned in at the same place without noticing either Melbury or Fitzpiers. Despite his aches and his sixty years, Melbury quickly reached the spot. Mrs. Charmond had joined the doctor, who was standing right behind the carriage. She turned to him, her arm casually draped over the back of the seat. They gazed into each other’s eyes without saying anything, an intriguing yet somber smile on her lips. Fitzpiers took her hand, which was hanging down, and while she remained in her relaxed posture, looking deeply into his eyes, he slyly unbuttoned her glove and rolled it off, turning it inside out as it came off. He then brought her hand to his mouth while she continued to watch him as if she were observing a fly on her dress. Finally, she said, “Well, sir, what excuse do you have for this disobedience?”
“I make none.”
"I don't make any."
“Then go your way, and let me go mine.” She snatched away her hand, touched the pony with the whip, and left him standing there, holding the reversed glove.
“Then you go your way, and I’ll go mine.” She pulled her hand away, struck the pony with the whip, and left him standing there, holding the flipped glove.
Melbury’s first impulse was to reveal his presence to Fitzpiers, and upbraid him bitterly. But a moment’s thought was sufficient to show him the futility of any such simple proceeding. There was not, after all, so much in what he had witnessed as in what that scene might be the surface and froth of—probably a state of mind on which censure operates as an aggravation rather than as a cure. Moreover, he said to himself that the point of attack should be the woman, if either. He therefore kept out of sight, and musing sadly, even tearfully—for he was meek as a child in matters concerning his daughter—continued his way towards Hintock.
Melbury's first instinct was to confront Fitzpiers and give him a hard time. But after a moment of thought, he realized how pointless that would be. There wasn’t as much to what he had seen as there was to the deeper issues that scene might represent—most likely a mindset where criticism only makes things worse instead of better. Besides, he thought, if he needed to address something, it should be the woman involved. So, he stayed hidden and continued on his way to Hintock, lost in sad, even tearful thoughts—he was as gentle as a child when it came to his daughter.
The insight which is bred of deep sympathy was never more finely exemplified than in this instance. Through her guarded manner, her dignified speech, her placid countenance, he discerned the interior of Grace’s life only too truly, hidden as were its incidents from every outer eye.
The understanding that comes from deep empathy was never more clearly shown than in this case. Through her careful demeanor, her respectful tone, and her calm expression, he saw the true essence of Grace’s life, even though its events were concealed from everyone else.
These incidents had become painful enough. Fitzpiers had latterly developed an irritable discontent which vented itself in monologues when Grace was present to hear them. The early morning of this day had been dull, after a night of wind, and on looking out of the window Fitzpiers had observed some of Melbury’s men dragging away a large limb which had been snapped off a beech-tree. Everything was cold and colorless.
These incidents had become painful enough. Fitzpiers had recently developed a restless dissatisfaction that came out in long-winded rants when Grace was around to listen. The early morning of this day was gloomy after a windy night, and when Fitzpiers looked out the window, he saw some of Melbury’s workers dragging away a large branch that had broken off a beech tree. Everything felt cold and lifeless.
“My good Heaven!” he said, as he stood in his dressing-gown. “This is life!” He did not know whether Grace was awake or not, and he would not turn his head to ascertain. “Ah, fool,” he went on to himself, “to clip your own wings when you were free to soar!...But I could not rest till I had done it. Why do I never recognize an opportunity till I have missed it, nor the good or ill of a step till it is irrevocable!...I fell in love....Love, indeed!—
“My goodness!” he said, as he stood in his robe. “This is life!” He wasn’t sure if Grace was awake or not, and he wouldn’t turn his head to check. “Ah, fool,” he muttered to himself, “to clip your own wings when you could have flown!...But I couldn’t rest until I did it. Why do I never see an opportunity until I've missed it, or the good or bad of a decision until it’s set in stone!...I fell in love....Love, really!—
“‘Love’s but the frailty of the mind
When ’tis not with ambition joined;
A sickly flame which if not fed, expires,
And feeding, wastes in self-consuming fires!’
“‘Love is just the weakness of the mind
When it’s not combined with ambition;
A fragile flame that if not nurtured, dies,
And when fed, burns out in self-consuming fires!’”
Ah, old author of ‘The Way of the World,’ you knew—you knew!” Grace moved. He thought she had heard some part of his soliloquy. He was sorry—though he had not taken any precaution to prevent her.
Ah, old author of ‘The Way of the World,’ you knew—you knew!” Grace stirred. He thought she had caught some part of his monologue. He felt regret—although he hadn't taken any steps to stop her.
He expected a scene at breakfast, but she only exhibited an extreme reserve. It was enough, however, to make him repent that he should have done anything to produce discomfort; for he attributed her manner entirely to what he had said. But Grace’s manner had not its cause either in his sayings or in his doings. She had not heard a single word of his regrets. Something even nearer home than her husband’s blighted prospects—if blighted they were—was the origin of her mood, a mood that was the mere continuation of what her father had noticed when he would have preferred a passionate jealousy in her, as the more natural.
He thought there would be a scene at breakfast, but she just showed a lot of restraint. It was enough to make him regret doing anything that made her uncomfortable because he thought her attitude was all because of what he had said. But Grace's behavior wasn't caused by his words or actions. She hadn't heard a single word of his regrets. Something much closer to home than her husband's ruined prospects—if they were ruined at all—was behind her mood, which was just a continuation of what her father had observed when he would have rather seen her express passionate jealousy, which he thought was more natural.
She had made a discovery—one which to a girl of honest nature was almost appalling. She had looked into her heart, and found that her early interest in Giles Winterborne had become revitalized into luxuriant growth by her widening perceptions of what was great and little in life. His homeliness no longer offended her acquired tastes; his comparative want of so-called culture did not now jar on her intellect; his country dress even pleased her eye; his exterior roughness fascinated her. Having discovered by marriage how much that was humanly not great could co-exist with attainments of an exceptional order, there was a revulsion in her sentiments from all that she had formerly clung to in this kind: honesty, goodness, manliness, tenderness, devotion, for her only existed in their purity now in the breasts of unvarnished men; and here was one who had manifested them towards her from his youth up.
She had made a discovery—one that felt almost shocking to a girl with an honest nature. She had looked into her heart and found that her early interest in Giles Winterborne had been reignited and grown significantly because of her expanding views on what really matters in life. His plainness no longer bothered her refined tastes; his lack of so-called culture didn’t clash with her intellect anymore; his country attire even appealed to her sense of style; his rough exterior intrigued her. After realizing through marriage how much that isn't considered great can coexist with truly exceptional qualities, she felt a shift in her feelings away from everything she had once valued: honesty, goodness, masculinity, tenderness, and devotion now seemed to her to exist only in their purest forms in the hearts of genuine men; and here was someone who had shown those qualities towards her since his youth.
There was, further, that never-ceasing pity in her soul for Giles as a man whom she had wronged—a man who had been unfortunate in his worldly transactions; while, not without a touch of sublimity, he had, like Horatio, borne himself throughout his scathing
There was, furthermore, an unending pity in her heart for Giles as a man she had wronged—a man who had faced misfortune in his dealings; while, with a hint of greatness, he had, like Horatio, handled his suffering throughout his challenges.
“As one, in suffering all, that suffers nothing.”
“As a collective, we experience everything, yet we feel nothing.”
It was these perceptions, and no subtle catching of her husband’s murmurs, that had bred the abstraction visible in her.
It was these perceptions, and not the subtle catching of her husband’s whispers, that had created the distance visible in her.
When her father approached the house after witnessing the interview between Fitzpiers and Mrs. Charmond, Grace was looking out of her sitting-room window, as if she had nothing to do, or think of, or care for. He stood still.
When her dad walked up to the house after seeing the conversation between Fitzpiers and Mrs. Charmond, Grace was staring out of her living room window, as if she had nothing to do, think about, or care for. He paused.
“Ah, Grace,” he said, regarding her fixedly.
“Ah, Grace,” he said, staring at her intently.
“Yes, father,” she murmured.
“Yes, dad,” she murmured.
“Waiting for your dear husband?” he inquired, speaking with the sarcasm of pitiful affection.
“Are you waiting for your dear husband?” he asked, his tone dripping with a mix of sarcasm and pity.
“Oh no—not especially. He has a great many patients to see this afternoon.”
“Oh no—not really. He has a lot of patients to see this afternoon.”
Melbury came quite close. “Grace, what’s the use of talking like that, when you know—Here, come down and walk with me out in the garden, child.”
Melbury came pretty close. “Grace, what’s the point of talking like that when you know—Come down and walk with me in the garden, kid.”
He unfastened the door in the ivy-laced wall, and waited. This apparent indifference alarmed him. He would far rather that she had rushed in all the fire of jealousy to Hintock House, regardless of conventionality, confronted and attacked Felice Charmond unguibus et rostro, and accused her even in exaggerated shape of stealing away her husband. Such a storm might have cleared the air.
He opened the door in the ivy-covered wall and waited. This seeming indifference worried him. He would have preferred if she had barged into Hintock House, filled with jealousy, ignoring the rules, faced off against Felice Charmond with claws and beak, and even exaggeratedly accused her of stealing her husband. Such a confrontation might have cleared the air.
She emerged in a minute or two, and they went inside together. “You know as well as I do,” he resumed, “that there is something threatening mischief to your life; and yet you pretend you do not. Do you suppose I don’t see the trouble in your face every day? I am very sure that this quietude is wrong conduct in you. You should look more into matters.”
She came out in a minute or two, and they went inside together. “You know just as well as I do,” he continued, “that there’s something threatening your life; yet you act like you don’t see it. Do you think I don’t notice the worry on your face every day? I’m certain that this calmness isn’t right for you. You need to investigate things more.”
“I am quiet because my sadness is not of a nature to stir me to action.”
“I’m quiet because my sadness doesn’t motivate me to take action.”
Melbury wanted to ask her a dozen questions—did she not feel jealous? was she not indignant? but a natural delicacy restrained him. “You are very tame and let-alone, I am bound to say,” he remarked, pointedly.
Melbury wanted to ask her a dozen questions—didn’t she feel jealous? wasn’t she indignant? But he held back out of a sense of decency. “You’re very easygoing and laid-back, I must say,” he pointed out.
“I am what I feel, father,” she repeated.
“I am what I feel, Dad,” she repeated.
He glanced at her, and there returned upon his mind the scene of her offering to wed Winterborne instead of Fitzpiers in the last days before her marriage; and he asked himself if it could be the fact that she loved Winterborne, now that she had lost him, more than she had ever done when she was comparatively free to choose him.
He looked at her, and the memory came back to him of her proposing to marry Winterborne instead of Fitzpiers in the last days before her wedding; he wondered if it was true that she loved Winterborne, now that she had lost him, more than she ever did when she was relatively free to choose him.
“What would you have me do?” she asked, in a low voice.
“What do you want me to do?” she asked, in a quiet voice.
He recalled his mind from the retrospective pain to the practical matter before them. “I would have you go to Mrs. Charmond,” he said.
He pulled his thoughts away from the painful memories and focused on the issue at hand. “I want you to go to Mrs. Charmond,” he said.
“Go to Mrs. Charmond—what for?” said she.
“Go to Mrs. Charmond—for what?” she asked.
“Well—if I must speak plain, dear Grace—to ask her, appeal to her in the name of your common womanhood, and your many like sentiments on things, not to make unhappiness between you and your husband. It lies with her entirely to do one or the other—that I can see.”
“Well—if I have to be straightforward, dear Grace—ask her, appeal to her in the name of your shared womanhood and your many similar views on things, not to create unhappiness between you and your husband. It’s completely up to her to either do that or not—that I can see.”
Grace’s face had heated at her father’s words, and the very rustle of her skirts upon the box-edging bespoke hauteur. “I shall not think of going to her, father—of course I could not!” she answered.
Grace's face flushed at her father's words, and the sound of her skirts brushing against the box-edging conveyed her disdain. “I won't even consider going to her, father—there's no way I could!” she replied.
“Why—don’t ’ee want to be happier than you be at present?” said Melbury, more moved on her account than she was herself.
“Why don’t you want to be happier than you are right now?” said Melbury, feeling more concerned for her than she was for herself.
“I don’t wish to be more humiliated. If I have anything to bear I can bear it in silence.”
“I don’t want to be humiliated anymore. If I have to endure something, I can do it quietly.”
“But, my dear maid, you are too young—you don’t know what the present state of things may lead to. Just see the harm done a’ready! Your husband would have gone away to Budmouth to a bigger practice if it had not been for this. Although it has gone such a little way, it is poisoning your future even now. Mrs. Charmond is thoughtlessly bad, not bad by calculation; and just a word to her now might save ’ee a peck of woes.”
“But, my dear maid, you’re too young—you don’t realize what the current situation could lead to. Just look at the damage already done! Your husband would have gone to Budmouth for a better job if it weren’t for this. Even though it’s just starting, it’s already poisoning your future. Mrs. Charmond is thoughtlessly mean, not malicious on purpose; and just saying a word to her now might save you a lot of trouble.”
“Ah, I loved her once,” said Grace, with a broken articulation, “and she would not care for me then! Now I no longer love her. Let her do her worst: I don’t care.”
“Ah, I loved her once,” Grace said, her voice trembling, “but she didn't care about me then! Now I don’t love her anymore. Let her do her worst: I really don’t care.”
“You ought to care. You have got into a very good position to start with. You have been well educated, well tended, and you have become the wife of a professional man of unusually good family. Surely you ought to make the best of your position.”
“You should care. You've started off in a great position. You’ve had a good education, been well taken care of, and you’ve married a professional man from an exceptional background. You really should make the most of your situation.”
“I don’t see that I ought. I wish I had never got into it. I wish you had never, never thought of educating me. I wish I worked in the woods like Marty South. I hate genteel life, and I want to be no better than she.”
“I don’t think I should. I wish I had never gotten into it. I wish you had never thought about educating me. I wish I worked in the woods like Marty South. I hate the fancy life, and I don’t want to be any better than her.”
“Why?” said her amazed father.
“Why?” said her shocked dad.
“Because cultivation has only brought me inconveniences and troubles. I say again, I wish you had never sent me to those fashionable schools you set your mind on. It all arose out of that, father. If I had stayed at home I should have married—” She closed up her mouth suddenly and was silent; and he saw that she was not far from crying.
“Because growing up has only brought me problems and headaches. I say again, I wish you had never sent me to those trendy schools you were so keen on. Everything started from that, Dad. If I had stayed home, I would have married—” She stopped abruptly and fell silent, and he could see that she was close to tears.
Melbury was much grieved. “What, and would you like to have grown up as we be here in Hintock—knowing no more, and with no more chance of seeing good life than we have here?”
Melbury was really upset. “What, would you want to have grown up like us here in Hintock—knowing no more, and with no better chance of experiencing a good life than we have here?”
“Yes. I have never got any happiness outside Hintock that I know of, and I have suffered many a heartache at being sent away. Oh, the misery of those January days when I had got back to school, and left you all here in the wood so happy. I used to wonder why I had to bear it. And I was always a little despised by the other girls at school, because they knew where I came from, and that my parents were not in so good a station as theirs.”
“Yes. I’ve never found any happiness outside of Hintock, as far as I know, and I’ve endured many heartaches being sent away. Oh, the pain of those January days when I returned to school, leaving you all here in the woods so happy. I used to wonder why I had to go through that. I was always a bit looked down upon by the other girls at school because they knew where I came from and that my parents weren’t as well off as theirs.”
Her poor father was much hurt at what he thought her ingratitude and intractability. He had admitted to himself bitterly enough that he should have let young hearts have their way, or rather should have helped on her affection for Winterborne, and given her to him according to his original plan; but he was not prepared for her deprecation of those attainments whose completion had been a labor of years, and a severe tax upon his purse.
Her poor father was really hurt by what he saw as her ingratitude and stubbornness. He had bitterly admitted to himself that he should have let young people follow their own hearts, or rather, he should have encouraged her feelings for Winterborne and allowed her to be with him as he had originally planned; but he was not ready for her to dismiss the accomplishments that had taken him years of hard work and a serious financial toll.
“Very well,” he said, with much heaviness of spirit. “If you don’t like to go to her I don’t wish to force you.”
“Alright,” he said, with a lot of sadness. “If you don’t want to go to her, I’m not going to make you.”
And so the question remained for him still: how should he remedy this perilous state of things? For days he sat in a moody attitude over the fire, a pitcher of cider standing on the hearth beside him, and his drinking-horn inverted upon the top of it. He spent a week and more thus composing a letter to the chief offender, which he would every now and then attempt to complete, and suddenly crumple up in his hand.
And so the question still lingered for him: how could he fix this dangerous situation? For days he sat gloomily by the fire, a pitcher of cider next to him on the hearth, with his drinking horn turned upside down on top of it. He spent a week and more trying to write a letter to the main offender, which he would occasionally try to finish but then crumple up in frustration.
CHAPTER XXXI.
As February merged in March, and lighter evenings broke the gloom of the woodmen’s homeward journey, the Hintocks Great and Little began to have ears for a rumor of the events out of which had grown the timber-dealer’s troubles. It took the form of a wide sprinkling of conjecture, wherein no man knew the exact truth. Tantalizing phenomena, at once showing and concealing the real relationship of the persons concerned, caused a diffusion of excited surprise. Honest people as the woodlanders were, it was hardly to be expected that they could remain immersed in the study of their trees and gardens amid such circumstances, or sit with their backs turned like the good burghers of Coventry at the passage of the beautiful lady.
As February turned into March and the longer evenings brightened the gloomy route home for the woodcutters, the Hintocks Great and Little started to pay attention to rumors about the events that led to the timber dealer’s troubles. These rumors were filled with speculation, and no one really knew the whole story. Intriguing situations revealed and hid the true connections between the people involved, sparking a wave of excited chatter. Despite being honest people, the woodlanders could hardly focus on their trees and gardens in such a situation, nor could they ignore it like the good citizens of Coventry turning their backs at the sight of a beautiful lady.
Rumor, for a wonder, exaggerated little. There were, in fact, in this case as in thousands, the well-worn incidents, old as the hills, which, with individual variations, made a mourner of Ariadne, a by-word of Vashti, and a corpse of the Countess Amy. There were rencounters accidental and contrived, stealthy correspondence, sudden misgivings on one side, sudden self-reproaches on the other. The inner state of the twain was one as of confused noise that would not allow the accents of calmer reason to be heard. Determinations to go in this direction, and headlong plunges in that; dignified safeguards, undignified collapses; not a single rash step by deliberate intention, and all against judgment.
Rumor, surprisingly, exaggerated very little. In this case, just like in countless others, there were familiar incidents, as old as time, which, with slight changes, turned Ariadne into a mourner, made Vashti a byword, and left the Countess Amy as a corpse. There were accidental meetings and planned encounters, secret letters, sudden doubts on one side, and unexpected guilt on the other. The emotional state of both was chaotic, drowning out any calmer reasoning. They had decisions to go in one direction, only to impulsively plunge in another; they maintained a dignified front but experienced undignified breakdowns; not a single reckless step was taken on purpose, all against their better judgment.
It was all that Melbury had expected and feared. It was more, for he had overlooked the publicity that would be likely to result, as it now had done. What should he do—appeal to Mrs. Charmond himself, since Grace would not? He bethought himself of Winterborne, and resolved to consult him, feeling the strong need of some friend of his own sex to whom he might unburden his mind.
It was everything Melbury had anticipated and dreaded. It was even more than that, as he had underestimated the amount of attention it would attract, which it now had. What should he do—reach out to Mrs. Charmond himself, since Grace wouldn’t? He thought of Winterborne and decided to talk to him, feeling the need for a male friend to whom he could share his thoughts.
He had entirely lost faith in his own judgment. That judgment on which he had relied for so many years seemed recently, like a false companion unmasked, to have disclosed unexpected depths of hypocrisy and speciousness where all had seemed solidity. He felt almost afraid to form a conjecture on the weather, or the time, or the fruit-promise, so great was his self-abasement.
He had completely lost trust in his own judgment. That judgment, which he had relied on for so many years, recently felt like a dishonest friend revealed, showing unexpected depths of hypocrisy and deceit where everything had seemed solid. He felt almost scared to make a guess about the weather, the time, or the promise of fruit, so deep was his self-doubt.
It was a rimy evening when he set out to look for Giles. The woods seemed to be in a cold sweat; beads of perspiration hung from every bare twig; the sky had no color, and the trees rose before him as haggard, gray phantoms, whose days of substantiality were passed. Melbury seldom saw Winterborne now, but he believed him to be occupying a lonely hut just beyond the boundary of Mrs. Charmond’s estate, though still within the circuit of the woodland. The timber-merchant’s thin legs stalked on through the pale, damp scenery, his eyes on the dead leaves of last year; while every now and then a hasty “Ay?” escaped his lips in reply to some bitter proposition.
It was a frosty evening when he set out to search for Giles. The woods seemed to be covered in a cold mist; drops of moisture hung from every bare branch; the sky had no color, and the trees loomed before him like worn, gray ghosts, their days of vitality long gone. Melbury rarely saw Winterborne these days, but he thought he was living in a lonely hut just beyond the edge of Mrs. Charmond’s estate, still within the woods. The timber merchant’s thin legs moved through the damp, pale scenery, his eyes focused on last year’s dead leaves; every now and then, a quick “Ay?” slipped from his lips in response to some harsh idea.
His notice was attracted by a thin blue haze of smoke, behind which arose sounds of voices and chopping: bending his steps that way, he saw Winterborne just in front of him. It just now happened that Giles, after being for a long time apathetic and unemployed, had become one of the busiest men in the neighborhood. It is often thus; fallen friends, lost sight of, we expect to find starving; we discover them going on fairly well. Without any solicitation, or desire for profit on his part, he had been asked to execute during that winter a very large order for hurdles and other copse-ware, for which purpose he had been obliged to buy several acres of brushwood standing. He was now engaged in the cutting and manufacture of the same, proceeding with the work daily like an automaton.
His attention was drawn to a thin blue haze of smoke, behind which he could hear voices and the sound of chopping. As he walked in that direction, he saw Winterborne right in front of him. Recently, Giles, who had been apathetic and unemployed for a long time, had transformed into one of the busiest people in the neighborhood. This often happens; we expect to find old friends in distress, but instead, we discover they are doing fairly well. Without any prompting or desire for profit on his part, he had been asked to fulfill a very large order for hurdles and other woodland products that winter, which meant he had to buy several acres of standing brushwood. He was now busy cutting and processing it, going about his work each day like a robot.
The hazel-tree did not belie its name to-day. The whole of the copse-wood where the mist had cleared returned purest tints of that hue, amid which Winterborne himself was in the act of making a hurdle, the stakes being driven firmly into the ground in a row, over which he bent and wove the twigs. Beside him was a square, compact pile like the altar of Cain, formed of hurdles already finished, which bristled on all sides with the sharp points of their stakes. At a little distance the men in his employ were assisting him to carry out his contract. Rows of copse-wood lay on the ground as it had fallen under the axe; and a shelter had been constructed near at hand, in front of which burned the fire whose smoke had attracted him. The air was so dank that the smoke hung heavy, and crept away amid the bushes without rising from the ground.
The hazel tree lived up to its name today. The entire area of the woods where the mist had cleared displayed the most vibrant shades of that color, in which Winterborne was busy making a hurdle, driving the stakes firmly into the ground in a row, while he bent and wove the twigs over them. Next to him was a neat, compact pile resembling Cain's altar, made of completed hurdles that jutted out with sharp stake points on all sides. A little way off, the men he employed were helping him fulfill his contract. Fallen rows of wood lay on the ground, cut down by the axe; and a shelter had been built nearby, in front of which a fire burned, sending up smoke that had caught his attention. The air was so damp that the smoke hung low and drifted among the bushes instead of rising up.
After wistfully regarding Winterborne a while, Melbury drew nearer, and briefly inquired of Giles how he came to be so busily engaged, with an undertone of slight surprise that Winterborne could seem so thriving after being deprived of Grace. Melbury was not without emotion at the meeting; for Grace’s affairs had divided them, and ended their intimacy of old times.
After looking at Winterborne with a hint of nostalgia for a while, Melbury walked over and briefly asked Giles how he happened to be so busy, slightly surprised that Winterborne seemed to be doing well after losing Grace. Melbury felt a mix of emotions at their meeting because Grace’s situation had created a rift between them and ended their close friendship from the past.
Winterborne explained just as briefly, without raising his eyes from his occupation of chopping a bough that he held in front of him.
Winterborne explained just as briefly, without looking up from his task of chopping a branch that he held in front of him.
“’Twill be up in April before you get it all cleared,” said Melbury.
"It'll be ready in April before you get everything sorted out," said Melbury.
“Yes, there or thereabouts,” said Winterborne, a chop of the billhook jerking the last word into two pieces.
“Yeah, more or less,” said Winterborne, a swing of the billhook slicing the last word in half.
There was another interval; Melbury still looked on, a chip from Winterborne’s hook occasionally flying against the waistcoat and legs of his visitor, who took no heed.
There was another pause; Melbury continued to watch, a piece from Winterborne’s hook occasionally hitting the waistcoat and legs of his guest, who didn’t pay any attention.
“Ah, Giles—you should have been my partner. You should have been my son-in-law,” the old man said at last. “It would have been far better for her and for me.”
“Ah, Giles—you should have been my partner. You should have been my son-in-law,” the old man finally said. “It would have been so much better for her and for me.”
Winterborne saw that something had gone wrong with his former friend, and throwing down the switch he was about to interweave, he responded only too readily to the mood of the timber-dealer. “Is she ill?” he said, hurriedly.
Winterborne noticed that something was off with his former friend, and dropping the switch he was about to weave, he quickly reacted to the mood of the timber dealer. “Is she sick?” he asked, urgently.
“No, no.” Melbury stood without speaking for some minutes, and then, as though he could not bring himself to proceed, turned to go away.
“No, no.” Melbury stood quietly for a few minutes, and then, as if he couldn’t find the words to continue, turned to leave.
Winterborne told one of his men to pack up the tools for the night and walked after Melbury.
Winterborne told one of his guys to pack up the tools for the night and followed Melbury.
“Heaven forbid that I should seem too inquisitive, sir,” he said, “especially since we don’t stand as we used to stand to one another; but I hope it is well with them all over your way?”
“Heaven forbid that I should seem too curious, sir,” he said, “especially since we don’t relate to each other like we used to; but I hope everything is good with them all over your way?”
“No,” said Melbury—“no.” He stopped, and struck the smooth trunk of a young ash-tree with the flat of his hand. “I would that his ear had been where that rind is!” he exclaimed; “I should have treated him to little compared wi what he deserves.”
“No,” said Melbury—“no.” He paused and hit the smooth trunk of a young ash tree with his palm. “I wish his ear had been where that bark is!” he exclaimed; “I would have given him so little compared to what he deserves.”
“Now,” said Winterborne, “don’t be in a hurry to go home. I’ve put some cider down to warm in my shelter here, and we’ll sit and drink it and talk this over.”
“Now,” said Winterborne, “don’t rush off home. I’ve set some cider to warm up in my shelter here, and we’ll sit down, drink it, and discuss this.”
Melbury turned unresistingly as Giles took his arm, and they went back to where the fire was, and sat down under the screen, the other woodmen having gone. He drew out the cider-mug from the ashes and they drank together.
Melbury turned without protesting as Giles took his arm, and they went back to where the fire was, sitting down under the screen, with the other woodmen having left. He pulled the cider mug from the ashes, and they drank together.
“Giles, you ought to have had her, as I said just now,” repeated Melbury. “I’ll tell you why for the first time.”
“Giles, you should have been with her, like I just said,” Melbury repeated. “I’ll explain why for the first time.”
He thereupon told Winterborne, as with great relief, the story of how he won away Giles’s father’s chosen one—by nothing worse than a lover’s cajoleries, it is true, but by means which, except in love, would certainly have been pronounced cruel and unfair. He explained how he had always intended to make reparation to Winterborne the father by giving Grace to Winterborne the son, till the devil tempted him in the person of Fitzpiers, and he broke his virtuous vow.
He then told Winterborne, with great relief, the story of how he won over Giles’s father’s chosen one—by nothing worse than a lover’s sweet talk, it’s true, but by means that, except in love, would definitely have been called cruel and unfair. He explained that he had always planned to make it up to Winterborne the father by giving Grace to Winterborne the son, until the devil tempted him in the form of Fitzpiers, and he broke his virtuous vow.
“How highly I thought of that man, to be sure! Who’d have supposed he’d have been so weak and wrong-headed as this! You ought to have had her, Giles, and there’s an end on’t.”
“How highly I thought of that man, for sure! Who would have guessed he’d be so weak and stubborn like this? You should have had her, Giles, and that’s that.”
Winterborne knew how to preserve his calm under this unconsciously cruel tearing of a healing wound to which Melbury’s concentration on the more vital subject had blinded him. The young man endeavored to make the best of the case for Grace’s sake.
Winterborne knew how to stay calm during this unintentional and harsh reopening of a healing wound, something that Melbury's focus on the more important issue had made him unaware of. The young man tried to put the best spin on things for Grace's sake.
“She would hardly have been happy with me,” he said, in the dry, unimpassioned voice under which he hid his feelings. “I was not well enough educated: too rough, in short. I couldn’t have surrounded her with the refinements she looked for, anyhow, at all.”
“She probably wouldn’t have been happy with me,” he said, in the dry, unemotional tone that masked his feelings. “I wasn’t educated enough: too rough, basically. I couldn’t have given her the sophistication she wanted, no way.”
“Nonsense—you are quite wrong there,” said the unwise old man, doggedly. “She told me only this day that she hates refinements and such like. All that my trouble and money bought for her in that way is thrown away upon her quite. She’d fain be like Marty South—think o’ that! That’s the top of her ambition! Perhaps she’s right. Giles, she loved you—under the rind; and, what’s more, she loves ye still—worse luck for the poor maid!”
“Nonsense—you’re completely mistaken,” said the stubborn old man. “She told me just today that she can’t stand refinements and things like that. All the trouble and money I spent on her for that stuff is completely wasted. She’d rather be like Marty South—can you imagine that? That’s her biggest goal! Maybe she’s right. Giles, she loved you—deep down; and, what’s more, she still loves you—unlucky for the poor girl!”
If Melbury only had known what fires he was recklessly stirring up he might have held his peace. Winterborne was silent a long time. The darkness had closed in round them, and the monotonous drip of the fog from the branches quickened as it turned to fine rain.
If Melbury had only known what trouble he was recklessly causing, he might have stayed quiet. Winterborne remained silent for a while. The darkness had settled around them, and the steady drip of fog from the branches sped up as it changed to light rain.
“Oh, she never cared much for me,” Giles managed to say, as he stirred the embers with a brand.
“Oh, she never really cared about me,” Giles managed to say as he stirred the embers with a stick.
“She did, and does, I tell ye,” said the other, obstinately. “However, all that’s vain talking now. What I come to ask you about is a more practical matter—how to make the best of things as they are. I am thinking of a desperate step—of calling on the woman Charmond. I am going to appeal to her, since Grace will not. ’Tis she who holds the balance in her hands—not he. While she’s got the will to lead him astray he will follow—poor, unpractical, lofty-notioned dreamer—and how long she’ll do it depends upon her whim. Did ye ever hear anything about her character before she came to Hintock?”
“She did, and she still does, I’m telling you,” said the other, stubbornly. “But that’s pointless to discuss now. What I really want to talk to you about is something more practical—making the best of the current situation. I’m considering a bold move—reaching out to the woman Charmond. I’m going to approach her since Grace won’t. She’s the one who holds all the power—not him. As long as she wants to lead him off track, he will follow—poor, impractical, idealistic dreamer—and how long she’ll keep it up depends on her mood. Have you ever heard anything about her character before she came to Hintock?”
“She’s been a bit of a charmer in her time, I believe,” replied Giles, with the same level quietude, as he regarded the red coals. “One who has smiled where she has not loved and loved where she has not married. Before Mr. Charmond made her his wife she was a play-actress.”
“She’s been quite the charmer in her day, I think,” replied Giles, maintaining the same calmness as he looked at the red coals. “One who has smiled where she hasn’t loved and loved where she hasn’t married. Before Mr. Charmond made her his wife, she was an actress.”
“Hey? But how close you have kept all this, Giles! What besides?”
“Hey? But how well you’ve kept all this, Giles! What else?”
“Mr. Charmond was a rich man, engaged in the iron trade in the north, twenty or thirty years older than she. He married her and retired, and came down here and bought this property, as they do nowadays.”
“Mr. Charmond was a wealthy man involved in the iron trade up north, twenty or thirty years older than her. He married her, retired, and moved down here to buy this property, just like people do these days.”
“Yes, yes—I know all about that; but the other I did not know. I fear it bodes no good. For how can I go and appeal to the forbearance of a woman in this matter who has made cross-loves and crooked entanglements her trade for years? I thank ye, Giles, for finding it out; but it makes my plan the harder that she should have belonged to that unstable tribe.”
“Yes, yes—I know all about that; but the other I didn’t know. I fear it doesn't bode well. How can I go and ask a woman who has made a career out of complicated love affairs and messy entanglements for understanding? Thank you, Giles, for discovering it; but it makes my plan harder knowing she belongs to that unreliable group.”
Another pause ensued, and they looked gloomily at the smoke that beat about the hurdles which sheltered them, through whose weavings a large drop of rain fell at intervals and spat smartly into the fire. Mrs. Charmond had been no friend to Winterborne, but he was manly, and it was not in his heart to let her be condemned without a trial.
Another pause followed, and they glanced sadly at the smoke swirling around the hurdles that protected them, through which a big drop of rain fell occasionally and splattered sharply into the fire. Mrs. Charmond hadn’t been an ally to Winterborne, but he was a principled man, and it wasn't in him to let her be judged without a fair chance.
“She is said to be generous,” he answered. “You might not appeal to her in vain.”
“She’s known to be generous,” he replied. “You might have a chance with her.”
“It shall be done,” said Melbury, rising. “For good or for evil, to Mrs. Charmond I’ll go.”
"It'll be done," said Melbury, standing up. "For better or worse, I'm going to see Mrs. Charmond."
CHAPTER XXXII.
At nine o’clock the next morning Melbury dressed himself up in shining broadcloth, creased with folding and smelling of camphor, and started for Hintock House. He was the more impelled to go at once by the absence of his son-in-law in London for a few days, to attend, really or ostensibly, some professional meetings. He said nothing of his destination either to his wife or to Grace, fearing that they might entreat him to abandon so risky a project, and went out unobserved. He had chosen his time with a view, as he supposed, of conveniently catching Mrs. Charmond when she had just finished her breakfast, before any other business people should be about, if any came. Plodding thoughtfully onward, he crossed a glade lying between Little Hintock Woods and the plantation which abutted on the park; and the spot being open, he was discerned there by Winterborne from the copse on the next hill, where he and his men were working. Knowing his mission, the younger man hastened down from the copse and managed to intercept the timber-merchant.
At nine o'clock the next morning, Melbury put on his shiny broadcloth suit, which was neatly creased and smelled of camphor, and set off for Hintock House. He felt more driven to go right away since his son-in-law was in London for a few days, supposedly attending some professional meetings. He didn’t mention his destination to his wife or Grace, worried that they might try to convince him to abandon such a risky plan, so he left unnoticed. He timed his visit hoping to catch Mrs. Charmond just after she finished her breakfast, before any other business people arrived, if there were any. Walking along thoughtfully, he crossed a clearing between Little Hintock Woods and the plantation that bordered the park; the area was open and Winterborne spotted him from the copse on the next hill, where he and his crew were working. Knowing Melbury's purpose, the younger man quickly made his way down from the copse to intercept the timber merchant.
“I have been thinking of this, sir,” he said, “and I am of opinion that it would be best to put off your visit for the present.”
“I’ve been thinking about this, sir,” he said, “and I believe it would be best to postpone your visit for now.”
But Melbury would not even stop to hear him. His mind was made up, the appeal was to be made; and Winterborne stood and watched him sadly till he entered the second plantation and disappeared.
But Melbury wouldn’t even pause to listen to him. He had made up his mind, the appeal was going to happen; and Winterborne stood there, watching him sadly until he entered the second plantation and vanished.
Melbury rang at the tradesmen’s door of the manor-house, and was at once informed that the lady was not yet visible, as indeed he might have guessed had he been anybody but the man he was. Melbury said he would wait, whereupon the young man informed him in a neighborly way that, between themselves, she was in bed and asleep.
Melbury rang the tradesmen’s door at the manor house and was immediately told that the lady wasn’t available yet, which he could have guessed if he were anyone else. Melbury said he would wait, and the young man then casually mentioned that, just between them, she was in bed and asleep.
“Never mind,” said Melbury, retreating into the court, “I’ll stand about here.” Charged so fully with his mission, he shrank from contact with anybody.
“It's fine,” said Melbury, stepping back into the courtyard, “I’ll just hang out here.” So focused on his task, he avoided interacting with anyone.
But he walked about the paved court till he was tired, and still nobody came to him. At last he entered the house and sat down in a small waiting-room, from which he got glimpses of the kitchen corridor, and of the white-capped maids flitting jauntily hither and thither. They had heard of his arrival, but had not seen him enter, and, imagining him still in the court, discussed freely the possible reason of his calling. They marvelled at his temerity; for though most of the tongues which had been let loose attributed the chief blame-worthiness to Fitzpiers, these of her household preferred to regard their mistress as the deeper sinner.
But he walked around the paved courtyard until he was tired, and still no one came to him. Finally, he went inside and sat down in a small waiting room, from which he could see glimpses of the kitchen corridor and the white-capped maids bustling around. They had heard about his arrival but hadn’t seen him come in, and thinking he was still outside, they talked openly about why he might be visiting. They were amazed by his boldness; even though most people pointed the finger at Fitzpiers, the staff preferred to see their mistress as the one at fault.
Melbury sat with his hands resting on the familiar knobbed thorn walking-stick, whose growing he had seen before he enjoyed its use. The scene to him was not the material environment of his person, but a tragic vision that travelled with him like an envelope. Through this vision the incidents of the moment but gleamed confusedly here and there, as an outer landscape through the high-colored scenes of a stained window. He waited thus an hour, an hour and a half, two hours. He began to look pale and ill, whereupon the butler, who came in, asked him to have a glass of wine. Melbury roused himself and said, “No, no. Is she almost ready?”
Melbury sat with his hands resting on the familiar knobby thorn walking stick, which he had seen grow before he began using it. To him, the scene wasn’t just the physical surroundings he was in, but a tragic vision that followed him like an envelope. Through this vision, the events of the moment only flickered confusedly here and there, like an outer landscape seen through the vivid scenes of a stained glass window. He waited like this for an hour, an hour and a half, two hours. He started to look pale and unwell, at which point the butler came in and suggested he have a glass of wine. Melbury pulled himself together and said, “No, no. Is she almost ready?”
“She is just finishing breakfast,” said the butler. “She will soon see you now. I am just going up to tell her you are here.”
"She's just finishing breakfast," the butler said. "She'll see you soon. I'm going upstairs to let her know you're here."
“What! haven’t you told her before?” said Melbury.
“What! You haven't told her before?” said Melbury.
“Oh no,” said the other. “You see you came so very early.”
“Oh no,” said the other. “You see, you arrived really early.”
At last the bell rang: Mrs. Charmond could see him. She was not in her private sitting-room when he reached it, but in a minute he heard her coming from the front staircase, and she entered where he stood.
At last the bell rang: Mrs. Charmond could see him. She wasn't in her private sitting room when he got there, but in a minute, he heard her coming down the front staircase, and she walked in where he was standing.
At this time of the morning Mrs. Charmond looked her full age and more. She might almost have been taken for the typical femme de trente ans, though she was really not more than seven or eight and twenty. There being no fire in the room, she came in with a shawl thrown loosely round her shoulders, and obviously without the least suspicion that Melbury had called upon any other errand than timber. Felice was, indeed, the only woman in the parish who had not heard the rumor of her own weaknesses; she was at this moment living in a fool’s paradise in respect of that rumor, though not in respect of the weaknesses themselves, which, if the truth be told, caused her grave misgivings.
At this time in the morning, Mrs. Charmond looked her full age and then some. She could easily have been mistaken for the typical femme de trente ans, even though she was actually only about seven or eight years younger. With no fire in the room, she came in with a shawl casually draped over her shoulders, clearly unaware that Melbury had any purpose for visiting other than discussing timber. Felice was, in fact, the only woman in the parish who hadn’t heard the rumors about her own flaws; at this moment, she was living in a fool’s paradise regarding those rumors, even though the weaknesses themselves, to be honest, filled her with serious worries.
“Do sit down, Mr. Melbury. You have felled all the trees that were to be purchased by you this season, except the oaks, I believe.”
“Please have a seat, Mr. Melbury. You've cut down all the trees that you were going to buy this season, except for the oaks, I think.”
“Yes,” said Melbury.
“Yes,” Melbury said.
“How very nice! It must be so charming to work in the woods just now!”
“How lovely! It must be so nice to be working in the woods right now!”
She was too careless to affect an interest in an extraneous person’s affairs so consummately as to deceive in the manner of the perfect social machine. Hence her words “very nice,” “so charming,” were uttered with a perfunctoriness that made them sound absurdly unreal.
She was too careless to pretend to be interested in someone else's business well enough to fool others like a perfect social machine. So her words “very nice” and “so charming” were said with a lack of genuine feeling that made them sound ridiculously fake.
“Yes, yes,” said Melbury, in a reverie. He did not take a chair, and she also remained standing. Resting upon his stick, he began: “Mrs. Charmond, I have called upon a more serious matter—at least to me—than tree-throwing. And whatever mistakes I make in my manner of speaking upon it to you, madam, do me the justice to set ’em down to my want of practice, and not to my want of care.”
“Yes, yes,” Melbury said, lost in thought. He didn’t take a seat, and she stayed standing as well. Leaning on his cane, he began: “Mrs. Charmond, I’ve come to discuss something more serious—at least for me—than throwing trees. And if I make any mistakes in how I talk about it, please attribute them to my lack of experience, not a lack of concern.”
Mrs. Charmond looked ill at ease. She might have begun to guess his meaning; but apart from that, she had such dread of contact with anything painful, harsh, or even earnest, that his preliminaries alone were enough to distress her. “Yes, what is it?” she said.
Mrs. Charmond looked uncomfortable. She might have started to understand what he meant; but aside from that, she was so afraid of anything painful, harsh, or even serious, that just his introductory comments were enough to upset her. “Yes, what is it?” she said.
“I am an old man,” said Melbury, “whom, somewhat late in life, God thought fit to bless with one child, and she a daughter. Her mother was a very dear wife to me, but she was taken away from us when the child was young, and the child became precious as the apple of my eye to me, for she was all I had left to love. For her sake entirely I married as second wife a homespun woman who had been kind as a mother to her. In due time the question of her education came on, and I said, ‘I will educate the maid well, if I live upon bread to do it.’ Of her possible marriage I could not bear to think, for it seemed like a death that she should cleave to another man, and grow to think his house her home rather than mine. But I saw it was the law of nature that this should be, and that it was for the maid’s happiness that she should have a home when I was gone; and I made up my mind without a murmur to help it on for her sake. In my youth I had wronged my dead friend, and to make amends I determined to give her, my most precious possession, to my friend’s son, seeing that they liked each other well. Things came about which made me doubt if it would be for my daughter’s happiness to do this, inasmuch as the young man was poor, and she was delicately reared. Another man came and paid court to her—one her equal in breeding and accomplishments; in every way it seemed to me that he only could give her the home which her training had made a necessity almost. I urged her on, and she married him. But, ma’am, a fatal mistake was at the root of my reckoning. I found that this well-born gentleman I had calculated on so surely was not stanch of heart, and that therein lay a danger of great sorrow for my daughter. Madam, he saw you, and you know the rest....I have come to make no demands—to utter no threats; I have come simply as a father in great grief about this only child, and I beseech you to deal kindly with my daughter, and to do nothing which can turn her husband’s heart away from her forever. Forbid him your presence, ma’am, and speak to him on his duty as one with your power over him well can do, and I am hopeful that the rent between them may be patched up. For it is not as if you would lose by so doing; your course is far higher than the courses of a simple professional man, and the gratitude you would win from me and mine by your kindness is more than I can say.”
“I’m an old man,” said Melbury, “who, rather late in life, God decided to bless with one child, a daughter. Her mother was a wonderful wife to me, but she was taken from us when our daughter was young, and the child became as precious as my own eyes to me, for she was all I had left to love. For her sake alone, I married a down-to-earth woman who had been motherly to her. Eventually, the issue of her education came up, and I said, ‘I’ll educate my girl well, even if it means living on bread to do it.’ I couldn’t bear to think about her possibly getting married, as it felt like a death to me for her to belong to another man and think of his house as her home instead of mine. But I understood it was the law of nature and that it was for her happiness to have a home when I’m gone; so I decided without complaint to support it for her sake. In my youth, I had wronged my deceased friend, and to make it right, I resolved to give her, my most treasured possession, to my friend’s son since they liked each other. However, circumstances made me question whether this would truly make my daughter happy because the young man was poor, and she was raised with care. Another man came along and courted her—one who was her equal in upbringing and skills; in every way, he seemed to be the one who could provide her with the home that her upbringing required. I encouraged her, and she married him. But, ma’am, there was a grave mistake at the heart of my assessment. I discovered that this well-bred gentleman I had counted on so surely wasn’t steadfast in heart, and therein lay a potential for great sorrow for my daughter. Madam, he saw you, and you know the rest....I’m not here to make demands or threats; I’ve come simply as a father in deep grief about this only child, and I ask you to treat my daughter kindly and to do nothing that could drive her husband away from her forever. Please forbid him your company, ma’am, and talk to him about his duty in a way someone with your influence can do well, and I hope that the rift between them can be healed. After all, you wouldn’t lose anything by doing so; your standing is far above that of a simple professional man, and the gratitude you would earn from me and mine through your kindness is beyond what I can express.”
Mrs. Charmond had first rushed into a mood of indignation on comprehending Melbury’s story; hot and cold by turns, she had murmured, “Leave me, leave me!” But as he seemed to take no notice of this, his words began to influence her, and when he ceased speaking she said, with hurried, hot breath, “What has led you to think this of me? Who says I have won your daughter’s husband away from her? Some monstrous calumnies are afloat—of which I have known nothing until now!”
Mrs. Charmond initially reacted with anger after hearing Melbury’s story; she felt both furious and vulnerable, softly saying, “Leave me, leave me!” But since he didn’t seem to pay attention to her plea, his words started to sway her, and when he stopped talking, she breathlessly said, “What makes you think this about me? Who says I’ve stolen your daughter’s husband? There are some terrible lies going around that I had no idea about until now!”
Melbury started, and looked at her simply. “But surely, ma’am, you know the truth better than I?”
Melbury was surprised and looked at her straightforwardly. “But surely, ma’am, you know the truth better than I do?”
Her features became a little pinched, and the touches of powder on her handsome face for the first time showed themselves as an extrinsic film. “Will you leave me to myself?” she said, with a faintness which suggested a guilty conscience. “This is so utterly unexpected—you obtain admission to my presence by misrepresentation—”
Her features became a bit tense, and the makeup on her pretty face finally looked like a superficial layer. “Will you leave me alone?” she said, with a weakness that hinted at a guilty conscience. “This is so completely unexpected—you gain access to me through deception—”
“As God’s in heaven, ma’am, that’s not true. I made no pretence; and I thought in reason you would know why I had come. This gossip—”
“As God is my witness, ma’am, that’s not true. I didn’t pretend; and I thought you would understand why I had come. This gossip—”
“I have heard nothing of it. Tell me of it, I say.”
“I haven't heard anything about it. Tell me about it, I insist.”
“Tell you, ma’am—not I. What the gossip is, no matter. What really is, you know. Set facts right, and the scandal will right of itself. But pardon me—I speak roughly; and I came to speak gently, to coax you, beg you to be my daughter’s friend. She loved you once, ma’am; you began by liking her. Then you dropped her without a reason, and it hurt her warm heart more than I can tell ye. But you were within your right as the superior, no doubt. But if you would consider her position now—surely, surely, you would do her no harm!”
“Honestly, ma’am—not me. What the gossip is doesn’t matter. What really is, you know. If we get the facts straight, the scandal will sort itself out. But excuse me—I’m speaking harshly; I came to speak kindly, to persuade you, to ask you to be my daughter’s friend. She loved you once, ma’am; you started off by liking her. Then you just dropped her for no reason, and it hurt her kind heart more than I can express. But you were within your rights as the one in charge, no doubt. But if you would just consider her situation now—surely, surely, you wouldn’t want to hurt her!”
“Certainly I would do her no harm—I—” Melbury’s eye met hers. It was curious, but the allusion to Grace’s former love for her seemed to touch her more than all Melbury’s other arguments. “Oh, Melbury,” she burst out, “you have made me so unhappy! How could you come to me like this! It is too dreadful! Now go away—go, go!”
“Of course I wouldn’t hurt her—I—” Melbury’s gaze locked with hers. It was strange, but the reference to Grace’s past feelings for her seemed to affect her more than any of Melbury’s other points. “Oh, Melbury,” she exclaimed, “you’ve made me so unhappy! How could you come to me like this! It’s just awful! Now leave—go, go!”
“I will,” he said, in a husky tone.
“I will,” he said, in a deep voice.
As soon as he was out of the room she went to a corner and there sat and writhed under an emotion in which hurt pride and vexation mingled with better sentiments.
As soon as he left the room, she went to a corner and sat there, twisting in discomfort from a mix of hurt pride and irritation along with more positive feelings.
Mrs. Charmond’s mobile spirit was subject to these fierce periods of stress and storm. She had never so clearly perceived till now that her soul was being slowly invaded by a delirium which had brought about all this; that she was losing judgment and dignity under it, becoming an animated impulse only, a passion incarnate. A fascination had led her on; it was as if she had been seized by a hand of velvet; and this was where she found herself—overshadowed with sudden night, as if a tornado had passed by.
Mrs. Charmond’s restless spirit was prone to these intense moments of stress and turmoil. She had never realized until now that her mind was being gradually taken over by a craziness that had caused all this; that she was losing her sense of judgment and dignity, becoming just a living impulse, a passion made real. A fascination had drawn her in; it felt as though a soft hand had grasped her; and here she was—enveloped in sudden darkness, as if a tornado had swept through.
While she sat, or rather crouched, unhinged by the interview, lunch-time came, and then the early afternoon, almost without her consciousness. Then “a strange gentleman who says it is not necessary to give his name,” was suddenly announced.
While she sat, or rather crouched, shaken by the interview, lunchtime arrived, and then the early afternoon, almost without her noticing. Then “a strange gentleman who says it’s not necessary to give his name” was suddenly announced.
“I cannot see him, whoever he may be. I am not at home to anybody.”
“I can’t see him, whoever he is. I’m not available to anyone.”
She heard no more of her visitor; and shortly after, in an attempt to recover some mental serenity by violent physical exercise, she put on her hat and cloak and went out-of-doors, taking a path which led her up the slopes to the nearest spur of the wood. She disliked the woods, but they had the advantage of being a place in which she could walk comparatively unobserved.
She heard nothing more from her visitor; soon after, trying to regain some mental calm through intense physical activity, she put on her hat and coat and went outside, taking a path that led her up the slopes to the nearest extension of the woods. She wasn't fond of the woods, but they had the benefit of being a place where she could walk without being too easily noticed.
CHAPTER XXXIII.
There was agitation to-day in the lives of all whom these matters concerned. It was not till the Hintock dinner-time—one o’clock—that Grace discovered her father’s absence from the house after a departure in the morning under somewhat unusual conditions. By a little reasoning and inquiry she was able to come to a conclusion on his destination, and to divine his errand.
There was tension today in the lives of everyone involved in these matters. It wasn't until the Hintock dinner time—one o'clock—that Grace noticed her father's absence from the house after he left in the morning under somewhat unusual circumstances. With a bit of reasoning and inquiry, she was able to figure out where he had gone and why.
Her husband was absent, and her father did not return. He had, in truth, gone on to Sherton after the interview, but this Grace did not know. In an indefinite dread that something serious would arise out of Melbury’s visit by reason of the inequalities of temper and nervous irritation to which he was subject, something possibly that would bring her much more misery than accompanied her present negative state of mind, she left the house about three o’clock, and took a loitering walk in the woodland track by which she imagined he would come home. This track under the bare trees and over the cracking sticks, screened and roofed in from the outer world of wind and cloud by a net-work of boughs, led her slowly on till in time she had left the larger trees behind her and swept round into the coppice where Winterborne and his men were clearing the undergrowth.
Her husband was gone, and her father hadn’t come back. In reality, he had gone on to Sherton after their meeting, but Grace didn’t know that. A vague sense of dread hung over her, worrying that something serious might come from Melbury’s visit due to his volatile temper and nervous irritation, something that could cause her far more pain than her current state of mind. She left the house around three o’clock and took a slow walk along the wooded path where she imagined he would return. This path, beneath the bare trees and over the crunching sticks, was sheltered from the outside world of wind and clouds by a network of branches, guiding her onward until she eventually passed the larger trees and entered the thicket where Winterborne and his crew were clearing the underbrush.
Had Giles’s attention been concentrated on his hurdles he would not have seen her; but ever since Melbury’s passage across the opposite glade in the morning he had been as uneasy and unsettled as Grace herself; and her advent now was the one appearance which, since her father’s avowal, could arrest him more than Melbury’s return with his tidings. Fearing that something might be the matter, he hastened up to her.
Had Giles been focused on his hurdles, he wouldn’t have noticed her; but ever since Melbury had crossed the glade earlier that morning, he had felt as anxious and restless as Grace. Her arrival now was the only thing that could capture his attention more than Melbury’s return with news. Worried that something might be wrong, he rushed over to her.
She had not seen her old lover for a long time, and, too conscious of the late pranks of her heart, she could not behold him calmly. “I am only looking for my father,” she said, in an unnecessarily apologetic intonation.
She hadn't seen her ex for a long time, and, aware of her heart's recent turmoil, she couldn't look at him without feeling uneasy. “I'm just looking for my dad,” she said, with an overly apologetic tone.
“I was looking for him too,” said Giles. “I think he may perhaps have gone on farther.”
“I was looking for him too,” said Giles. “I think he might have gone on further.”
“Then you knew he was going to the House, Giles?” she said, turning her large tender eyes anxiously upon him. “Did he tell you what for?”
“Then you knew he was going to the House, Giles?” she said, turning her big, caring eyes anxiously toward him. “Did he tell you why?”
Winterborne glanced doubtingly at her, and then softly hinted that her father had visited him the evening before, and that their old friendship was quite restored, on which she guessed the rest.
Winterborne looked at her skeptically and then gently mentioned that her father had come to see him the night before, and that their old friendship was back to normal, which led her to figure out the rest.
“Oh, I am glad, indeed, that you two are friends again!” she cried. And then they stood facing each other, fearing each other, troubling each other’s souls. Grace experienced acute misery at the sight of these wood-cutting scenes, because she had estranged herself from them, craving, even to its defects and inconveniences, that homely sylvan life of her father which in the best probable succession of events would shortly be denied her.
“Oh, I’m really glad you two are friends again!” she exclaimed. Then they stood facing each other, wary of one another, unsettling each other’s souls. Grace felt intense sadness watching these wood-cutting scenes, as she had distanced herself from them, longing for that simple, country life with her father, which, in the best possible outcome, would soon be taken from her.
At a little distance, on the edge of the clearing, Marty South was shaping spar-gads to take home for manufacture during the evenings. While Winterborne and Mrs. Fitzpiers stood looking at her in their mutual embarrassment at each other’s presence, they beheld approaching the girl a lady in a dark fur mantle and a black hat, having a white veil tied picturesquely round it. She spoke to Marty, who turned and courtesied, and the lady fell into conversation with her. It was Mrs. Charmond.
At a short distance, on the edge of the clearing, Marty South was shaping spar-gads to take home to work on during the evenings. While Winterborne and Mrs. Fitzpiers stood there, feeling awkward about each other's presence, they saw a woman approaching Marty. She wore a dark fur coat and a black hat, with a white veil tied elegantly around it. She spoke to Marty, who turned and curtsied, and the woman started chatting with her. It was Mrs. Charmond.
On leaving her house, Mrs. Charmond had walked on and onward under the fret and fever of her mind with more vigor than she was accustomed to show in her normal moods—a fever which the solace of a cigarette did not entirely allay. Reaching the coppice, she listlessly observed Marty at work, threw away her cigarette, and came near. Chop, chop, chop, went Marty’s little billhook with never more assiduity, till Mrs. Charmond spoke.
On leaving her house, Mrs. Charmond walked on with more energy than usual, driven by the chaos in her mind—an unease that even a cigarette couldn't fully calm. When she reached the small woods, she noticed Marty working absentmindedly, tossed her cigarette aside, and approached him. Chop, chop, chop, went Marty's little billhook with unwavering focus, until Mrs. Charmond spoke.
“Who is that young lady I see talking to the woodman yonder?” she asked.
“Who is that young woman I see talking to the woodworker over there?” she asked.
“Mrs. Fitzpiers, ma’am,” said Marty.
"Mrs. Fitzpiers, ma'am," Marty said.
“Oh,” said Mrs. Charmond, with something like a start; for she had not recognized Grace at that distance. “And the man she is talking to?”
“Oh,” said Mrs. Charmond, surprised, because she hadn't recognized Grace from that far away. “And who is the man she’s talking to?”
“That’s Mr. Winterborne.”
"That's Mr. Winterborne."
A redness stole into Marty’s face as she mentioned Giles’s name, which Mrs. Charmond did not fail to notice informed her of the state of the girl’s heart. “Are you engaged to him?” she asked, softly.
A blush rose on Marty’s face when she mentioned Giles’s name, which Mrs. Charmond immediately picked up on, revealing the girl’s feelings. “Are you engaged to him?” she asked gently.
“No, ma’am,” said Marty. “She was once; and I think—”
“No, ma’am,” said Marty. “She was once; and I think—”
But Marty could not possibly explain the complications of her thoughts on this matter—which were nothing less than one of extraordinary acuteness for a girl so young and inexperienced—namely, that she saw danger to two hearts naturally honest in Grace being thrown back into Winterborne’s society by the neglect of her husband. Mrs. Charmond, however, with the almost supersensory means to knowledge which women have on such occasions, quite understood what Marty had intended to convey, and the picture thus exhibited to her of lives drifting away, involving the wreck of poor Marty’s hopes, prompted her to more generous resolves than all Melbury’s remonstrances had been able to stimulate.
But Marty couldn’t possibly explain the complexity of her thoughts on this issue—which were remarkably insightful for a girl so young and inexperienced—specifically, that she saw a risk to two genuinely honest hearts in Grace being forced back into Winterborne’s society due to her husband's neglect. However, Mrs. Charmond, with the almost uncanny ability to understand these situations that women often have, fully grasped what Marty was trying to express. The image she presented of lives drifting apart, which would result in the destruction of poor Marty’s hopes, inspired her to more generous decisions than all of Melbury’s objections had been able to encourage.
Full of the new feeling, she bade the girl good-afternoon, and went on over the stumps of hazel to where Grace and Winterborne were standing. They saw her approach, and Winterborne said, “She is coming to you; it is a good omen. She dislikes me, so I’ll go away.” He accordingly retreated to where he had been working before Grace came, and Grace’s formidable rival approached her, each woman taking the other’s measure as she came near.
Full of new emotions, she said goodbye to the girl and walked over the hazel stumps to where Grace and Winterborne were standing. They noticed her coming, and Winterborne said, “She’s coming to you; that’s a good sign. She doesn’t like me, so I’ll head out.” He then stepped back to where he had been working before Grace arrived, and Grace’s tough competitor moved closer, with each woman sizing the other up as she approached.
“Dear—Mrs. Fitzpiers,” said Felice Charmond, with some inward turmoil which stopped her speech. “I have not seen you for a long time.”
“Dear—Mrs. Fitzpiers,” said Felice Charmond, feeling a mix of emotions that left her momentarily speechless. “I haven’t seen you in a while.”
She held out her hand tentatively, while Grace stood like a wild animal on first confronting a mirror or other puzzling product of civilization. Was it really Mrs. Charmond speaking to her thus? If it was, she could no longer form any guess as to what it signified.
She hesitantly extended her hand, while Grace stood there like a wild animal first seeing its reflection or some other confusing creation of civilization. Was it really Mrs. Charmond talking to her like this? If it was, she could no longer figure out what it meant.
“I want to talk with you,” said Mrs. Charmond, imploringly, for the gaze of the young woman had chilled her through. “Can you walk on with me till we are quite alone?”
“I want to talk to you,” said Mrs. Charmond, pleadingly, because the young woman’s stare had frozen her. “Can you walk with me until we’re completely alone?”
Sick with distaste, Grace nevertheless complied, as by clockwork and they moved evenly side by side into the deeper recesses of the woods. They went farther, much farther than Mrs. Charmond had meant to go; but she could not begin her conversation, and in default of it kept walking.
Sick with disgust, Grace still went along with it, moving in sync as they ventured deeper into the woods. They went farther, much farther than Mrs. Charmond intended; however, she couldn't start her conversation, so she just kept walking.
“I have seen your father,” she at length resumed. “And—I am much troubled by what he told me.”
“I have seen your dad,” she finally said. “And—I’m really worried about what he told me.”
“What did he tell you? I have not been admitted to his confidence on anything he may have said to you.”
“What did he say to you? I haven't been let in on anything he might have shared with you.”
“Nevertheless, why should I repeat to you what you can easily divine?”
“Still, why should I tell you what you can easily figure out?”
“True—true,” returned Grace, mournfully. “Why should you repeat what we both know to be in our minds already?”
“True—true,” Grace replied sadly. “Why do you need to say what we both already know?”
“Mrs. Fitzpiers, your husband—” The moment that the speaker’s tongue touched the dangerous subject a vivid look of self-consciousness flashed over her, in which her heart revealed, as by a lightning gleam, what filled it to overflowing. So transitory was the expression that none but a sensitive woman, and she in Grace’s position, would have had the power to catch its meaning. Upon her the phase was not lost.
“Mrs. Fitzpiers, your husband—” As soon as the speaker brought up the sensitive topic, Mrs. Fitzpiers's face showed a quick look of self-consciousness that gave a brief glimpse into her heart, revealing what was overwhelming her. The expression was so fleeting that only a perceptive woman, especially one in Grace’s situation, would have understood its significance. But Grace didn't miss the moment.
“Then you do love him!” she exclaimed, in a tone of much surprise.
“Then you do love him!” she said, sounding very surprised.
“What do you mean, my young friend?”
“What do you mean, my young friend?”
“Why,” cried Grace, “I thought till now that you had only been cruelly flirting with my husband, to amuse your idle moments—a rich lady with a poor professional gentleman whom in her heart she despised not much less than her who belongs to him. But I guess from your manner that you love him desperately, and I don’t hate you as I did before.”
“Why,” cried Grace, “I thought until now that you were just cruelly flirting with my husband to entertain yourself—you're a wealthy lady and he's a struggling professional guy whom you secretly looked down on just as much as you do me. But now I can tell from how you act that you love him desperately, and I don’t dislike you as much as I did before.”
“Yes, indeed,” continued Mrs. Fitzpiers, with a trembling tongue, “since it is not playing in your case at all, but real. Oh, I do pity you, more than I despise you, for you will s-s-suffer most!”
“Yes, definitely,” continued Mrs. Fitzpiers, with a shaky voice, “since it isn't just a game for you, but real. Oh, I really feel sorry for you, more than I look down on you, because you are going to s-s-suffer the most!”
Mrs. Charmond was now as much agitated as Grace. “I ought not to allow myself to argue with you,” she exclaimed. “I demean myself by doing it. But I liked you once, and for the sake of that time I try to tell you how mistaken you are!” Much of her confusion resulted from her wonder and alarm at finding herself in a sense dominated mentally and emotionally by this simple school-girl. “I do not love him,” she went on, with desperate untruth. “It was a kindness—my making somewhat more of him than one usually does of one’s doctor. I was lonely; I talked—well, I trifled with him. I am very sorry if such child’s playing out of pure friendship has been a serious matter to you. Who could have expected it? But the world is so simple here.”
Mrs. Charmond was just as worked up as Grace. “I shouldn't be arguing with you,” she said. “It’s beneath me to do that. But I used to like you, and because of that, I’m trying to show you how wrong you are!” A lot of her confusion came from her surprise and fear about being mentally and emotionally influenced by this simple schoolgirl. “I don’t love him,” she continued, desperately lying. “It was just a kindness—me seeing a bit more in him than what you usually do with your doctor. I was lonely; I talked—well, I played around with him. I’m really sorry if such childish behavior stemming from pure friendship has turned into something serious for you. Who could have imagined it? But this world feels so simple here.”
“Oh, that’s affectation,” said Grace, shaking her head. “It is no use—you love him. I can see in your face that in this matter of my husband you have not let your acts belie your feelings. During these last four or six months you have been terribly indiscreet; but you have not been insincere, and that almost disarms me.”
“Oh, that’s just pretending,” Grace said, shaking her head. “It’s pointless—you love him. I can see it in your face that when it comes to my husband, you haven’t let your actions contradict your feelings. Over the last four to six months, you’ve been incredibly careless; but you haven’t been dishonest, and that nearly disarms me.”
“I have been insincere—if you will have the word—I mean I have coquetted, and do not love him!”
“I have been insincere—if you want to use that word—I mean I have flirted, and I do not love him!”
But Grace clung to her position like a limpet. “You may have trifled with others, but him you love as you never loved another man.”
But Grace held onto her stance like a limpet. “You might have played around with others, but you love him like you’ve never loved any other man.”
“Oh, well—I won’t argue,” said Mrs. Charmond, laughing faintly. “And you come to reproach me for it, child.”
“Oh, well—I won’t argue,” said Mrs. Charmond, laughing lightly. “And you’re here to scold me for it, dear.”
“No,” said Grace, magnanimously. “You may go on loving him if you like—I don’t mind at all. You’ll find it, let me tell you, a bitterer business for yourself than for me in the end. He’ll get tired of you soon, as tired as can be—you don’t know him so well as I—and then you may wish you had never seen him!”
“No,” Grace said generously. “You can keep loving him if you want—I don’t mind at all. But let me tell you, in the end, it’ll be a harder situation for you than for me. He’ll get bored with you soon, just like that—you don’t know him as well as I do—and then you might regret ever meeting him!”
Mrs. Charmond had grown quite pale and weak under this prophecy. It was extraordinary that Grace, whom almost every one would have characterized as a gentle girl, should be of stronger fibre than her interlocutor. “You exaggerate—cruel, silly young woman,” she reiterated, writhing with little agonies. “It is nothing but playful friendship—nothing! It will be proved by my future conduct. I shall at once refuse to see him more—since it will make no difference to my heart, and much to my name.”
Mrs. Charmond had become quite pale and weak under this prediction. It was surprising that Grace, whom nearly everyone would describe as a gentle girl, turned out to be stronger than her conversation partner. “You're exaggerating—cruel, foolish young woman,” she insisted, squirming with discomfort. “It's nothing but playful friendship—nothing! My future behavior will prove it. I will immediately refuse to see him again—since it won't change how I feel, but it will affect my reputation.”
“I question if you will refuse to see him again,” said Grace, dryly, as with eyes askance she bent a sapling down. “But I am not incensed against you as you are against me,” she added, abandoning the tree to its natural perpendicular. “Before I came I had been despising you for wanton cruelty; now I only pity you for misplaced affection. When Edgar has gone out of the house in hope of seeing you, at seasonable hours and unseasonable; when I have found him riding miles and miles across the country at midnight, and risking his life, and getting covered with mud, to get a glimpse of you, I have called him a foolish man—the plaything of a finished coquette. I thought that what was getting to be a tragedy to me was a comedy to you. But now I see that tragedy lies on YOUR side of the situation no less than on mine, and more; that if I have felt trouble at my position, you have felt anguish at yours; that if I have had disappointments, you have had despairs. Heaven may fortify me—God help you!”
“I wonder if you will refuse to see him again,” Grace said dryly, glancing sideways as she bent a young tree down. “But I’m not angry with you the way you are with me,” she added, letting the tree go back to its upright position. “Before I arrived, I looked down on you for your senseless cruelty; now I just feel sorry for you because of your misplaced feelings. When Edgar has left the house in hopes of seeing you, at both reasonable and unreasonable times; when I have found him riding miles across the countryside at midnight, risking his life and getting covered in mud just to catch a glimpse of you, I called him a foolish man—just the plaything of a skilled flirt. I thought what was becoming a tragedy for me was just a comedy for you. But now I see that there’s just as much tragedy on YOUR side of the situation, maybe even more; that while I’ve felt troubled about my situation, you’ve felt anguish about yours; that while I’ve had disappointments, you’ve faced despair. May heaven strengthen me—God help you!”
“I cannot attempt to reply to your raving eloquence,” returned the other, struggling to restore a dignity which had completely collapsed. “My acts will be my proofs. In the world which you have seen nothing of, friendships between men and women are not unknown, and it would have been better both for you and your father if you had each judged me more respectfully, and left me alone. As it is I wish never to see or speak to you, madam, any more.”
“I can’t even try to respond to your dramatic speech,” the other replied, trying to regain some dignity that had completely vanished. “My actions will speak for themselves. In the world you know nothing about, friendships between men and women do exist, and it would have been better for both you and your father if you had judged me with more respect and just left me alone. As it stands, I wish to never see or speak to you again, ma’am.”
Grace bowed, and Mrs. Charmond turned away. The two went apart in directly opposite courses, and were soon hidden from each other by their umbrageous surroundings and by the shadows of eve.
Grace bowed, and Mrs. Charmond turned away. The two went in completely opposite directions and were soon hidden from each other by the thick surroundings and the evening shadows.
In the excitement of their long argument they had walked onward and zigzagged about without regarding direction or distance. All sound of the woodcutters had long since faded into remoteness, and even had not the interval been too great for hearing them they would have been silent and homeward bound at this twilight hour. But Grace went on her course without any misgiving, though there was much underwood here, with only the narrowest passages for walking, across which brambles hung. She had not, however, traversed this the wildest part of the wood since her childhood, and the transformation of outlines had been great; old trees which once were landmarks had been felled or blown down, and the bushes which then had been small and scrubby were now large and overhanging. She soon found that her ideas as to direction were vague—that she had indeed no ideas as to direction at all. If the evening had not been growing so dark, and the wind had not put on its night moan so distinctly, Grace would not have minded; but she was rather frightened now, and began to strike across hither and thither in random courses.
In the heat of their long argument, they kept walking and zigzagging around without paying attention to direction or distance. The sound of the woodcutters had faded into the background a long time ago, and even if the distance hadn’t been too great to hear them, they would have been quiet and heading home in this twilight hour. But Grace continued on her path without any doubts, even though there was a lot of undergrowth here, with only the narrowest paths for walking, covered in brambles. However, she hadn’t been through this wildest part of the woods since she was a child, and everything had changed a lot; old trees that used to be landmarks had been cut down or blown over, and the bushes that were once small and scrubby were now tall and overhanging. She soon realized that her sense of direction was vague—she actually had no sense of direction at all. If it hadn't been getting so dark and the wind hadn’t started to make its nighttime moan so clearly, Grace wouldn’t have minded; but now she felt pretty scared and began to wander around in random directions.
Denser grew the darkness, more developed the wind-voices, and still no recognizable spot or outlet of any kind appeared, nor any sound of the Hintocks floated near, though she had wandered probably between one and two hours, and began to be weary. She was vexed at her foolishness, since the ground she had covered, if in a straight line, must inevitably have taken her out of the wood to some remote village or other; but she had wasted her forces in countermarches; and now, in much alarm, wondered if she would have to pass the night here. She stood still to meditate, and fancied that between the soughing of the wind she heard shuffling footsteps on the leaves heavier than those of rabbits or hares. Though fearing at first to meet anybody on the chance of his being a friend, she decided that the fellow night-rambler, even if a poacher, would not injure her, and that he might possibly be some one sent to search for her. She accordingly shouted a rather timid “Hoi!”
The darkness grew thicker, the sounds of the wind intensified, and still no familiar place or exit could be seen, nor did any sign of the Hintocks come close, even though she had been wandering for probably one to two hours and was starting to feel tired. She was frustrated with herself for being so careless because the distance she had covered in a straight line should have taken her out of the woods to some nearby village; instead, she had wasted her energy going back and forth. Now, feeling pretty anxious, she wondered if she would have to spend the night there. She paused to think, and thought she heard footsteps on the leaves that were heavier than those of rabbits or hares amidst the rustling wind. Although she was initially hesitant about running into someone who might not be friendly, she figured that another person out at night, even if they were a poacher, wouldn’t harm her and might even be someone sent to look for her. So, she called out a rather hesitant “Hoi!”
The cry was immediately returned by the other person; and Grace running at once in the direction whence it came beheld an indistinct figure hastening up to her as rapidly. They were almost in each other’s arms when she recognized in her vis-a-vis the outline and white veil of her whom she had parted from an hour and a half before—Mrs. Charmond.
The shout was quickly echoed by the other person; and Grace immediately ran toward the source of the sound, seeing a vague figure rushing towards her just as fast. They were almost in each other’s arms when she recognized in front of her the shape and white veil of the person she had said goodbye to an hour and a half earlier—Mrs. Charmond.
“I have lost my way, I have lost my way,” cried that lady. “Oh—is it indeed you? I am so glad to meet you or anybody. I have been wandering up and down ever since we parted, and am nearly dead with terror and misery and fatigue!”
“I’ve lost my way, I’ve lost my way,” cried the lady. “Oh— is it really you? I’m so glad to see you or anyone. I’ve been wandering around ever since we separated, and I’m almost dead from fear, sadness, and exhaustion!”
“So am I,” said Grace. “What shall we, shall we do?”
“So am I,” said Grace. “What should we, should we do?”
“You won’t go away from me?” asked her companion, anxiously.
“You’re not going to leave me, right?” her companion asked, nervously.
“No, indeed. Are you very tired?”
“No, not at all. Are you really tired?”
“I can scarcely move, and I am scratched dreadfully about the ankles.”
"I can hardly move, and my ankles are scratched up badly."
Grace reflected. “Perhaps, as it is dry under foot, the best thing for us to do would be to sit down for half an hour, and then start again when we have thoroughly rested. By walking straight we must come to a track leading somewhere before the morning.”
Grace thought for a moment. “Maybe, since the ground is dry, the best thing for us to do is sit down for half an hour and then start again when we’ve really rested. If we keep walking straight, we should hit a trail leading somewhere before morning.”
They found a clump of bushy hollies which afforded a shelter from the wind, and sat down under it, some tufts of dead fern, crisp and dry, that remained from the previous season forming a sort of nest for them. But it was cold, nevertheless, on this March night, particularly for Grace, who with the sanguine prematureness of youth in matters of dress, had considered it spring-time, and hence was not so warmly clad as Mrs. Charmond, who still wore her winter fur. But after sitting a while the latter lady shivered no less than Grace as the warmth imparted by her hasty walking began to go off, and they felt the cold air drawing through the holly leaves which scratched their backs and shoulders. Moreover, they could hear some drops of rain falling on the trees, though none reached the nook in which they had ensconced themselves.
They found a cluster of bushy hollies that offered some shelter from the wind and sat down underneath it, with some clumps of dead fern, crisp and dry, from the previous season forming a sort of nest for them. But it was still cold on this March night, especially for Grace, who, with the youthful optimism about dressing, had thought it was spring and therefore wasn't dressed as warmly as Mrs. Charmond, who still wore her winter fur. However, after sitting for a while, Mrs. Charmond started shivering just as much as Grace because the warmth from their brisk walk began to fade, and they felt the cold air coming through the holly leaves, which scratched their backs and shoulders. Additionally, they could hear drops of rain falling on the trees, though none reached the little spot where they had settled.
“If we were to cling close together,” said Mrs. Charmond, “we should keep each other warm. But,” she added, in an uneven voice, “I suppose you won’t come near me for the world!”
“If we stayed close together,” said Mrs. Charmond, “we’d keep each other warm. But,” she added, in an unsteady voice, “I guess you wouldn’t come near me for anything!”
“Why not?”
"Why not?"
“Because—well, you know.”
“Because—well, you know.”
“Yes. I will—I don’t hate you at all.”
“Yes. I will—I don’t hate you at all.”
They consequently crept up to one another, and being in the dark, lonely and weary, did what neither had dreamed of doing beforehand, clasped each other closely, Mrs. Charmond’s furs consoling Grace’s cold face, and each one’s body as she breathed alternately heaving against that of her companion.
They slowly moved closer to each other, and being in the dark, lonely and tired, did something neither had ever thought they would do—held each other tight, Mrs. Charmond’s furs warming Grace’s cold face, their bodies rising and falling together as they breathed.
When a few minutes had been spent thus, Mrs. Charmond said, “I am so wretched!” in a heavy, emotional whisper.
When a few minutes had passed like this, Mrs. Charmond said, “I feel so miserable!” in a heavy, emotional whisper.
“You are frightened,” said Grace, kindly. “But there is nothing to fear; I know these woods well.”
“You're scared,” Grace said gently. “But there's nothing to worry about; I know these woods really well.”
“I am not at all frightened at the wood, but I am at other things.”
“I’m not scared of the woods at all, but I am afraid of other things.”
Mrs. Charmond embraced Grace more and more tightly, and the younger woman could feel her neighbor’s breathings grow deeper and more spasmodic, as though uncontrollable feelings were germinating.
Mrs. Charmond held Grace tighter and tighter, and the younger woman could feel her neighbor’s breaths becoming deeper and more erratic, as if uncontrollable emotions were starting to take root.
“After I had left you,” she went on, “I regretted something I had said. I have to make a confession—I must make it!” she whispered, brokenly, the instinct to indulge in warmth of sentiment which had led this woman of passions to respond to Fitzpiers in the first place leading her now to find luxurious comfort in opening her heart to his wife. “I said to you I could give him up without pain or deprivation—that he had only been my pastime. That was untrue—it was said to deceive you. I could not do it without much pain; and, what is more dreadful, I cannot give him up—even if I would—of myself alone.”
“After I left you,” she continued, “I regretted something I said. I have to confess—I need to!,” she whispered, brokenly. The urge to express her feelings, which had drawn this passionate woman to Fitzpiers in the first place, now made her seek the comforting relief of sharing her heart with his wife. “I told you I could give him up without any pain or loss—that he was just a distraction for me. That was a lie—it was meant to mislead you. I couldn't do it without a lot of pain; and, even worse, I cannot give him up—even if I wanted to—on my own.”
“Why? Because you love him, you mean.”
“Why? Because you love him, right?”
Felice Charmond denoted assent by a movement.
Felice Charmond nodded in agreement.
“I knew I was right!” said Grace, exaltedly. “But that should not deter you,” she presently added, in a moral tone. “Oh, do struggle against it, and you will conquer!”
“I knew I was right!” Grace exclaimed, excitedly. “But that shouldn’t stop you,” she then added, in a serious tone. “Oh, do fight against it, and you’ll win!”
“You are so simple, so simple!” cried Felice. “You think, because you guessed my assumed indifference to him to be a sham, that you know the extremes that people are capable of going to! But a good deal more may have been going on than you have fathomed with all your insight. I cannot give him up until he chooses to give up me.”
“You're so naive, so naive!” Felice exclaimed. “You think that just because you figured out my fake indifference to him is an act, you fully understand how far people can go! But there could be a lot more happening than you’ve realized with all your perception. I won't let him go until he decides to let me go.”
“But surely you are the superior in station and in every way, and the cut must come from you.”
“But you are definitely the one with a higher status and everything else, so it has to come from you.”
“Tchut! Must I tell verbatim, you simple child? Oh, I suppose I must! I shall eat away my heart if I do not let out all, after meeting you like this and finding how guileless you are.” She thereupon whispered a few words in the girl’s ear, and burst into a violent fit of sobbing.
“Tchut! Do I really have to say it all exactly, you naïve child? Oh, I guess I must! I'll be heartbroken if I don’t let it all out after meeting you like this and realizing how innocent you are.” She then whispered a few words in the girl’s ear and burst into a deep fit of crying.
Grace started roughly away from the shelter of the fur, and sprang to her feet.
Grace pushed herself away from the fur shelter and jumped to her feet.
“Oh, my God!” she exclaimed, thunderstruck at a revelation transcending her utmost suspicion. “Can it be—can it be!”
“Oh, my God!” she exclaimed, shocked by a revelation that went beyond her wildest suspicions. “Is it possible—could it really be!”
She turned as if to hasten away. But Felice Charmond’s sobs came to her ear: deep darkness circled her about, the funereal trees rocked and chanted their diriges and placebos around her, and she did not know which way to go. After a moment of energy she felt mild again, and turned to the motionless woman at her feet.
She turned as if to hurry away. But Felice Charmond’s sobs reached her ears: deep darkness surrounded her, the mournful trees swayed and sang their dirges and comforts around her, and she didn't know which way to go. After a moment of determination, she felt calm again and turned to the still woman at her feet.
“Are you rested?” she asked, in what seemed something like her own voice grown ten years older.
“Are you rested?” she asked, sounding like her own voice had aged ten years.
Without an answer Mrs. Charmond slowly rose.
Without a response, Mrs. Charmond slowly stood up.
“You mean to betray me!” she said from the bitterest depths of her soul. “Oh fool, fool I!”
“You're going to betray me!” she said from the deepest part of her soul. “Oh, I'm such a fool!”
“No,” said Grace, shortly. “I mean no such thing. But let us be quick now. We have a serious undertaking before us. Think of nothing but going straight on.”
“No,” Grace said firmly. “I don’t mean that at all. But let’s hurry up. We have something important to do. Focus solely on moving forward.”
They walked on in profound silence, pulling back boughs now growing wet, and treading down woodbine, but still keeping a pretty straight course. Grace began to be thoroughly worn out, and her companion too, when, on a sudden, they broke into the deserted highway at the hill-top on which the Sherton man had waited for Mrs. Dollery’s van. Grace recognized the spot as soon as she looked around her.
They walked on in deep silence, pushing aside branches that were now getting wet and stepping over the vines, but still maintaining a fairly straight path. Grace started to feel completely exhausted, and her companion did too, when suddenly they emerged onto the empty highway at the hilltop where the Sherton man had waited for Mrs. Dollery’s van. Grace recognized the place as soon as she looked around.
“How we have got here I cannot tell,” she said, with cold civility. “We have made a complete circuit of Little Hintock. The hazel copse is quite on the other side. Now we have only to follow the road.”
“How we ended up here, I can't say,” she said, with a frosty politeness. “We’ve gone all the way around Little Hintock. The hazel grove is on the other side. Now we just need to follow the road.”
They dragged themselves onward, turned into the lane, passed the track to Little Hintock, and so reached the park.
They pulled themselves forward, turned into the lane, passed the path to Little Hintock, and arrived at the park.
“Here I turn back,” said Grace, in the same passionless voice. “You are quite near home.”
“I'm turning back now,” Grace said, her voice emotionless. “You're really close to home.”
Mrs. Charmond stood inert, seeming appalled by her late admission.
Mrs. Charmond stood frozen, looking shocked by her recent admission.
“I have told you something in a moment of irresistible desire to unburden my soul which all but a fool would have kept silent as the grave,” she said. “I cannot help it now. Is it to be a secret—or do you mean war?”
“I shared something with you in a moment of overwhelming need to clear my conscience, something that nearly anyone else would have kept to themselves,” she said. “I can’t take it back now. Is it going to be a secret—or do you want to fight?”
“A secret, certainly,” said Grace, mournfully. “How can you expect war from such a helpless, wretched being as I!”
“A secret, for sure,” Grace said sadly. “How can you expect war from someone as helpless and miserable as I am!”
“And I’ll do my best not to see him. I am his slave; but I’ll try.”
“And I’ll do my best not to see him. I am his servant; but I’ll try.”
Grace was naturally kind; but she could not help using a small dagger now.
Grace was inherently kind; yet she couldn't resist using a small dagger now.
“Pray don’t distress yourself,” she said, with exquisitely fine scorn. “You may keep him—for me.” Had she been wounded instead of mortified she could not have used the words; but Fitzpiers’s hold upon her heart was slight.
“Please don’t upset yourself,” she said, with an elegantly sharp tone. “You can keep him—for me.” If she had been hurt instead of humiliated, she wouldn't have been able to say those words; but Fitzpiers’s grip on her heart was weak.
They parted thus and there, and Grace went moodily homeward. Passing Marty’s cottage she observed through the window that the girl was writing instead of chopping as usual, and wondered what her correspondence could be. Directly afterwards she met people in search of her, and reached the house to find all in serious alarm. She soon explained that she had lost her way, and her general depression was attributed to exhaustion on that account.
They parted ways right there, and Grace headed home in a bad mood. As she walked past Marty's cottage, she noticed through the window that the girl was writing instead of chopping like usual, and she wondered what she could be writing about. Soon after, she ran into people looking for her, and when she got home, everyone was seriously worried. She quickly explained that she had gotten lost and that her overall mood was just due to being tired from that.
Could she have known what Marty was writing she would have been surprised.
Could she have known what Marty was writing, she would have been surprised.
The rumor which agitated the other folk of Hintock had reached the young girl, and she was penning a letter to Fitzpiers, to tell him that Mrs. Charmond wore her hair. It was poor Marty’s only card, and she played it, knowing nothing of fashion, and thinking her revelation a fatal one for a lover.
The rumor that stirred the people of Hintock had reached the young girl, and she was writing a letter to Fitzpiers to let him know that Mrs. Charmond wore her hair a certain way. It was poor Marty’s only piece of information, and she decided to use it, knowing nothing about fashion and believing her news would be significant for a lover.
CHAPTER XXXIV.
It was at the beginning of April, a few days after the meeting between Grace and Mrs. Charmond in the wood, that Fitzpiers, just returned from London, was travelling from Sherton-Abbas to Hintock in a hired carriage. In his eye there was a doubtful light, and the lines of his refined face showed a vague disquietude. He appeared now like one of those who impress the beholder as having suffered wrong in being born.
It was early April, just a few days after Grace and Mrs. Charmond met in the woods, when Fitzpiers, freshly back from London, was traveling from Sherton-Abbas to Hintock in a rented carriage. There was a questioning look in his eyes, and the lines on his refined face hinted at some unease. He seemed like someone who gave off the impression of having been wronged simply by being born.
His position was in truth gloomy, and to his appreciative mind it seemed even gloomier than it was. His practice had been slowly dwindling of late, and now threatened to die out altogether, the irrepressible old Dr. Jones capturing patients up to Fitzpiers’s very door. Fitzpiers knew only too well the latest and greatest cause of his unpopularity; and yet, so illogical is man, the second branch of his sadness grew out of a remedial measure proposed for the first—a letter from Felice Charmond imploring him not to see her again. To bring about their severance still more effectually, she added, she had decided during his absence upon almost immediate departure for the Continent.
His situation was really bleak, and to his sensitive mind it felt even worse than it actually was. His practice had been slowly declining lately, and now it seemed on the verge of disappearing completely, with the unstoppable old Dr. Jones luring patients right to Fitzpiers’s doorstep. Fitzpiers was all too aware of the main reason for his unpopularity; yet, in a strange twist, the second source of his sadness stemmed from a solution meant to address the first—a letter from Felice Charmond begging him not to see her again. To further ensure their separation, she mentioned that she had decided to leave for the Continent almost immediately during his absence.
The time was that dull interval in a woodlander’s life which coincides with great activity in the life of the woodland itself—a period following the close of the winter tree-cutting, and preceding the barking season, when the saps are just beginning to heave with the force of hydraulic lifts inside all the trunks of the forest.
The time was that dull stretch in a forest dweller’s life that lined up with a busy time in the woods itself—a period after the winter tree-cutting and before the barking season, when the saps are just starting to rise with the force of hydraulic lifts inside all the trunks of the forest.
Winterborne’s contract was completed, and the plantations were deserted. It was dusk; there were no leaves as yet; the nightingales would not begin to sing for a fortnight; and “the Mother of the Months” was in her most attenuated phase—starved and bent to a mere bowed skeleton, which glided along behind the bare twigs in Fitzpiers’s company.
Winterborne’s contract was finished, and the plantations were abandoned. It was dusk; there were no leaves yet; the nightingales wouldn’t start singing for another two weeks; and “the Mother of the Months” was in her thinnest phase—starved and reduced to just a skeletal figure, which glided along behind the bare twigs with Fitzpiers.
When he reached home he went straight up to his wife’s sitting-room. He found it deserted, and without a fire. He had mentioned no day for his return; nevertheless, he wondered why she was not there waiting to receive him. On descending to the other wing of the house and inquiring of Mrs. Melbury, he learned with much surprise that Grace had gone on a visit to an acquaintance at Shottsford-Forum three days earlier; that tidings had on this morning reached her father of her being very unwell there, in consequence of which he had ridden over to see her.
When he got home, he went straight to his wife’s sitting room. It was empty and cold. He hadn’t said when he would return; still, he was surprised that she wasn’t there to greet him. Going down to the other part of the house and asking Mrs. Melbury, he was shocked to learn that Grace had left for a visit to a friend at Shottsford-Forum three days earlier. This morning, her father had heard that she was quite ill, which is why he had ridden over to see her.
Fitzpiers went up-stairs again, and the little drawing-room, now lighted by a solitary candle, was not rendered more cheerful by the entrance of Grammer Oliver with an apronful of wood, which she threw on the hearth while she raked out the grate and rattled about the fire-irons, with a view to making things comfortable. Fitzpiers considered that Grace ought to have let him know her plans more accurately before leaving home in a freak like this. He went desultorily to the window, the blind of which had not been pulled down, and looked out at the thin, fast-sinking moon, and at the tall stalk of smoke rising from the top of Suke Damson’s chimney, signifying that the young woman had just lit her fire to prepare supper.
Fitzpiers went upstairs again, and the small drawing-room, now lit by a single candle, didn’t seem much brighter with Grammer Oliver entering, carrying an apron full of wood. She tossed it onto the hearth while she cleaned out the grate and clattered the fire tools, trying to make the place more comfortable. Fitzpiers felt that Grace should have informed him of her plans more clearly before leaving home on a whim like this. He wandered over to the window, which still had the blind up, and looked out at the thin, quickly fading moon and the tall column of smoke rising from the top of Suke Damson’s chimney, indicating that the young woman had just started her fire to make dinner.
He became conscious of a discussion in progress on the opposite side of the court. Somebody had looked over the wall to talk to the sawyers, and was telling them in a loud voice news in which the name of Mrs. Charmond soon arrested his ears.
He noticed a conversation happening on the other side of the court. Someone had leaned over the wall to speak to the sawyers and was loudly sharing news that quickly caught his attention, especially when he heard the name Mrs. Charmond.
“Grammer, don’t make so much noise with that grate,” said the surgeon; at which Grammer reared herself upon her knees and held the fuel suspended in her hand, while Fitzpiers half opened the casement.
“Grammer, stop making so much noise with that grate,” said the surgeon; at which Grammer knelt up and held the fuel in her hand, while Fitzpiers slightly opened the window.
“She is off to foreign lands again at last—hev made up her mind quite sudden-like—and it is thoughted she’ll leave in a day or two. She’s been all as if her mind were low for some days past—with a sort of sorrow in her face, as if she reproached her own soul. She’s the wrong sort of woman for Hintock—hardly knowing a beech from a woak—that I own. But I don’t care who the man is, she’s been a very kind friend to me.
“She is finally off to foreign lands again—she made up her mind pretty suddenly—and it's expected she'll leave in a day or two. She’s seemed a bit down for the past few days, with a kind of sadness on her face, as if she blamed herself. She’s not the right kind of woman for Hintock—barely able to tell a beech from an oak, that much I admit. But I don’t care who the man is; she’s been a very good friend to me.”
“Well, the day after to-morrow is the Sabbath day, and without charity we are but tinkling simples; but this I do say, that her going will be a blessed thing for a certain married couple who remain.”
“Well, the day after tomorrow is the Sabbath, and without charity we're just noisy symbols; but I will say this: her leaving will be a blessing for a certain married couple who are left.”
The fire was lighted, and Fitzpiers sat down in front of it, restless as the last leaf upon a tree. “A sort of sorrow in her face, as if she reproached her own soul.” Poor Felice. How Felice’s frame must be pulsing under the conditions of which he had just heard the caricature; how her fair temples must ache; what a mood of wretchedness she must be in! But for the mixing up of his name with hers, and her determination to sunder their too close acquaintance on that account, she would probably have sent for him professionally. She was now sitting alone, suffering, perhaps wishing that she had not forbidden him to come again.
The fire was lit, and Fitzpiers sat down in front of it, restless like the last leaf on a tree. “There was a kind of sorrow on her face, as if she was blaming her own soul.” Poor Felice. How her body must be reacting to the situation he had just heard described; how her beautiful temples must be throbbing; what a state of misery she must be in! If it weren't for the confusion of his name with hers and her decision to end their too close relationship because of it, she would probably have called him for help. Now she was sitting alone, suffering, maybe regretting that she had told him not to come back.
Unable to remain in this lonely room any longer, or to wait for the meal which was in course of preparation, he made himself ready for riding, descended to the yard, stood by the stable-door while Darling was being saddled, and rode off down the lane. He would have preferred walking, but was weary with his day’s travel.
Unable to stay in this lonely room any longer or wait for the meal that was being prepared, he got ready to ride, went down to the yard, stood by the stable door while Darling was being saddled, and rode off down the lane. He would have preferred to walk, but he was tired from his day of traveling.
As he approached the door of Marty South’s cottage, which it was necessary to pass on his way, she came from the porch as if she had been awaiting him, and met him in the middle of the road, holding up a letter. Fitzpiers took it without stopping, and asked over his shoulder from whom it came.
As he walked up to the door of Marty South’s cottage, which he had to pass on his way, she came off the porch as if she had been waiting for him and met him in the middle of the road, holding out a letter. Fitzpiers took it without stopping and asked over his shoulder who it was from.
Marty hesitated. “From me,” she said, shyly, though with noticeable firmness.
Marty hesitated. “From me,” she said, a bit shyly, but with clear determination.
This letter contained, in fact, Marty’s declaration that she was the original owner of Mrs. Charmond’s supplementary locks, and enclosed a sample from the native stock, which had grown considerably by this time. It was her long contemplated apple of discord, and much her hand trembled as she handed the document up to him.
This letter included, in fact, Marty’s claim that she was the original owner of Mrs. Charmond’s extra locks, and included a sample from the local stock, which had grown quite a bit by this point. It was her long-planned source of conflict, and her hand shook a lot as she passed the document up to him.
But it was impossible on account of the gloom for Fitzpiers to read it then, while he had the curiosity to do so, and he put it in his pocket. His imagination having already centred itself on Hintock House, in his pocket the letter remained unopened and forgotten, all the while that Marty was hopefully picturing its excellent weaning effect upon him.
But it was too gloomy for Fitzpiers to read it at that moment, even though he was curious to do so, so he just put it in his pocket. His thoughts had already focused on Hintock House, and the letter stayed unopened and forgotten in his pocket, while Marty was optimistically imagining how great it would be for him.
He was not long in reaching the precincts of the Manor House. He drew rein under a group of dark oaks commanding a view of the front, and reflected a while. His entry would not be altogether unnatural in the circumstances of her possible indisposition; but upon the whole he thought it best to avoid riding up to the door. By silently approaching he could retreat unobserved in the event of her not being alone. Thereupon he dismounted, hitched Darling to a stray bough hanging a little below the general browsing line of the trees, and proceeded to the door on foot.
He didn’t take long to reach the grounds of the Manor House. He stopped under a group of dark oaks that had a view of the front and thought for a bit. Given her possible illness, his entrance wouldn’t be completely out of place, but overall, he decided it was better not to ride up to the door. By approaching quietly, he could leave without being seen if she happened to have company. So, he got off his horse, tied Darling to a low-hanging branch that was just below the usual grazing level of the trees, and walked to the door.
In the mean time Melbury had returned from Shottsford-Forum. The great court or quadrangle of the timber-merchant’s house, divided from the shady lane by an ivy-covered wall, was entered by two white gates, one standing near each extremity of the wall. It so happened that at the moment when Fitzpiers was riding out at the lower gate on his way to the Manor House, Melbury was approaching the upper gate to enter it. Fitzpiers being in front of Melbury was seen by the latter, but the surgeon, never turning his head, did not observe his father-in-law, ambling slowly and silently along under the trees, though his horse too was a gray one.
In the meantime, Melbury had returned from Shottsford-Forum. The large courtyard of the timber merchant's house, separated from the shaded lane by an ivy-covered wall, was accessed through two white gates, one near each end of the wall. At that moment, as Fitzpiers was riding out through the lower gate on his way to the Manor House, Melbury was approaching the upper gate to enter. Fitzpiers, being ahead of Melbury, was seen by the latter, but the surgeon, without turning his head, didn’t notice his father-in-law slowly making his way under the trees, even though his horse was also gray.
“How is Grace?” said his wife, as soon as he entered.
“How is Grace?” his wife asked as soon as he walked in.
Melbury looked gloomy. “She is not at all well,” he said. “I don’t like the looks of her at all. I couldn’t bear the notion of her biding away in a strange place any longer, and I begged her to let me get her home. At last she agreed to it, but not till after much persuading. I was then sorry that I rode over instead of driving; but I have hired a nice comfortable carriage—the easiest-going I could get—and she’ll be here in a couple of hours or less. I rode on ahead to tell you to get her room ready; but I see her husband has come back.”
Melbury looked upset. “She’s not doing well at all,” he said. “I really don’t like how she looks. I couldn’t stand the thought of her staying in a strange place any longer, so I asked her to let me take her home. Eventually, she agreed, but only after a lot of convincing. Now I regret that I rode over instead of driving; however, I’ve rented a nice, comfortable carriage—the smoothest one I could find—and she should be here in a couple of hours or less. I came ahead to let you know to prepare her room; but I see her husband has come back.”
“Yes,” said Mrs. Melbury. She expressed her concern that her husband had hired a carriage all the way from Shottsford. “What it will cost!” she said.
“Yes,” said Mrs. Melbury. She expressed her worry that her husband had hired a carriage all the way from Shottsford. “What is that going to cost!” she said.
“I don’t care what it costs!” he exclaimed, testily. “I was determined to get her home. Why she went away I can’t think! She acts in a way that is not at all likely to mend matters as far as I can see.” (Grace had not told her father of her interview with Mrs. Charmond, and the disclosure that had been whispered in her startled ear.) “Since Edgar is come,” he continued, “he might have waited in till I got home, to ask me how she was, if only for a compliment. I saw him go out; where is he gone?”
“I don’t care how much it costs!” he said irritably. “I was set on getting her home. I have no idea why she left! She's acting in a way that doesn’t seem likely to fix things, as far as I can tell.” (Grace hadn’t mentioned her meeting with Mrs. Charmond to her father, nor the secret that had been whispered in her shocked ear.) “Now that Edgar is here,” he continued, “he could have at least waited until I got back to ask me how she is, if only to be polite. I saw him leave; where did he go?”
Mrs. Melbury did not know positively; but she told her husband that there was not much doubt about the place of his first visit after an absence. She had, in fact, seen Fitzpiers take the direction of the Manor House.
Mrs. Melbury wasn't completely sure, but she told her husband there was little doubt about where he would go first after being away. She had actually seen Fitzpiers heading toward the Manor House.
Melbury said no more. It was exasperating to him that just at this moment, when there was every reason for Fitzpiers to stay indoors, or at any rate to ride along the Shottsford road to meet his ailing wife, he should be doing despite to her by going elsewhere. The old man went out-of-doors again; and his horse being hardly unsaddled as yet, he told Upjohn to retighten the girths, when he again mounted, and rode off at the heels of the surgeon.
Melbury didn’t say anything more. It frustrated him that right now, when Fitzpiers had every reason to stay inside or at least ride along the Shottsford road to be with his sick wife, he was choosing to go somewhere else instead. The old man stepped outside again, and since his horse had barely been unsaddled, he told Upjohn to tighten the girths again. He then mounted up and rode off after the surgeon.
By the time that Melbury reached the park, he was prepared to go any lengths in combating this rank and reckless errantry of his daughter’s husband. He would fetch home Edgar Fitzpiers to-night by some means, rough or fair: in his view there could come of his interference nothing worse than what existed at present. And yet to every bad there is a worse.
By the time Melbury got to the park, he was ready to do whatever it took to deal with the outrageous behavior of his daughter's husband. He would bring Edgar Fitzpiers home tonight by any means necessary, whether it was rough or smooth: to him, nothing worse could come from his interference than what was already happening. But still, with every bad situation, there’s always something worse.
He had entered by the bridle-gate which admitted to the park on this side, and cantered over the soft turf almost in the tracks of Fitzpiers’s horse, till he reached the clump of trees under which his precursor had halted. The whitish object that was indistinctly visible here in the gloom of the boughs he found to be Darling, as left by Fitzpiers.
He had come in through the bridle gate that led to the park on this side, and cantered over the soft grass, almost following the path of Fitzpiers's horse, until he reached the group of trees where Fitzpiers had stopped. The pale shape that was barely visible in the shadows of the branches turned out to be Darling, as left by Fitzpiers.
“D—n him! why did he not ride up to the house in an honest way?” said Melbury.
“Damn him! Why didn’t he just ride up to the house like a decent person?” said Melbury.
He profited by Fitzpiers’s example; dismounting, he tied his horse under an adjoining tree, and went on to the house on foot, as the other had done. He was no longer disposed to stick at trifles in his investigation, and did not hesitate to gently open the front door without ringing.
He took a cue from Fitzpiers; getting off his horse, he tied it to a nearby tree and walked to the house just like the other had. He was now less inclined to get hung up on small details in his investigation and didn’t hesitate to quietly open the front door without ringing the bell.
The large square hall, with its oak floor, staircase, and wainscot, was lighted by a dim lamp hanging from a beam. Not a soul was visible. He went into the corridor and listened at a door which he knew to be that of the drawing-room; there was no sound, and on turning the handle he found the room empty. A fire burning low in the grate was the sole light of the apartment; its beams flashed mockingly on the somewhat showy Versaillese furniture and gilding here, in style as unlike that of the structural parts of the building as it was possible to be, and probably introduced by Felice to counteract the fine old-English gloom of the place. Disappointed in his hope of confronting his son-in-law here, he went on to the dining-room; this was without light or fire, and pervaded by a cold atmosphere, which signified that she had not dined there that day.
The large square hall, with its oak floor, staircase, and paneling, was illuminated by a dim lamp hanging from a beam. There wasn't a single person in sight. He walked into the corridor and listened at a door he knew led to the drawing room; there was no sound, and when he turned the handle, he found the room empty. A low-burning fire in the grate was the only light in the room; its flickering glow mocked the somewhat flashy Versailles-style furniture and gilding, which contrasted starkly with the building's structure, likely introduced by Felice to balance the gloomy old-English ambiance of the place. Disappointed that he couldn't confront his son-in-law there, he continued to the dining room; it was dark and cold, suggesting that she hadn't eaten there that day.
By this time Melbury’s mood had a little mollified. Everything here was so pacific, so unaggressive in its repose, that he was no longer incited to provoke a collision with Fitzpiers or with anybody. The comparative stateliness of the apartments influenced him to an emotion, rather than to a belief, that where all was outwardly so good and proper there could not be quite that delinquency within which he had suspected. It occurred to him, too, that even if his suspicion were justified, his abrupt, if not unwarrantable, entry into the house might end in confounding its inhabitant at the expense of his daughter’s dignity and his own. Any ill result would be pretty sure to hit Grace hardest in the long-run. He would, after all, adopt the more rational course, and plead with Fitzpiers privately, as he had pleaded with Mrs. Charmond.
By this time, Melbury’s mood had softened a bit. Everything around him was so calm and peaceful that he no longer felt the urge to confront Fitzpiers or anyone else. The dignity of the rooms made him feel, rather than believe, that where everything seemed so good and proper, there couldn’t really be the wrongdoing he had suspected. He also realized that even if his suspicions were right, his sudden and perhaps unjustified entrance into the house could end up embarrassing its occupant and hurting his daughter’s reputation and his own. Any negative outcome would likely affect Grace the most in the long run. He decided to take the more sensible approach and talk to Fitzpiers privately, just as he had done with Mrs. Charmond.
He accordingly retreated as silently as he had come. Passing the door of the drawing-room anew, he fancied that he heard a noise within which was not the crackling of the fire. Melbury gently reopened the door to a distance of a few inches, and saw at the opposite window two figures in the act of stepping out—a man and a woman—in whom he recognized the lady of the house and his son-in-law. In a moment they had disappeared amid the gloom of the lawn.
He quietly backed away just like he had arrived. As he passed by the drawing-room door again, he thought he heard a sound inside that wasn't just the crackling of the fire. Melbury carefully opened the door a few inches and saw two figures by the opposite window, a man and a woman, who he recognized as the lady of the house and his son-in-law. In no time, they vanished into the darkness of the lawn.
He returned into the hall, and let himself out by the carriage-entrance door, coming round to the lawn front in time to see the two figures parting at the railing which divided the precincts of the house from the open park. Mrs. Charmond turned to hasten back immediately that Fitzpiers had left her side, and he was speedily absorbed into the duskiness of the trees.
He walked back into the hall and exited through the carriage-entrance door, making his way to the front lawn just in time to see the two figures saying goodbye at the railing that separated the house from the open park. Mrs. Charmond quickly turned to head back as soon as Fitzpiers left her side, and he soon disappeared into the shadows of the trees.
Melbury waited till Mrs. Charmond had re-entered the drawing-room, and then followed after Fitzpiers, thinking that he would allow the latter to mount and ride ahead a little way before overtaking him and giving him a piece of his mind. His son-in-law might possibly see the second horse near his own; but that would do him no harm, and might prepare him for what he was to expect.
Melbury waited until Mrs. Charmond came back into the drawing room, and then he followed Fitzpiers, planning to let him get on his horse and ride a bit ahead before catching up and confronting him. His son-in-law might notice the second horse next to his own; but that wouldn't hurt him, and it might get him ready for what was coming.
The event, however, was different from the plan. On plunging into the thick shade of the clump of oaks, he could not perceive his horse Blossom anywhere; but feeling his way carefully along, he by-and-by discerned Fitzpiers’s mare Darling still standing as before under the adjoining tree. For a moment Melbury thought that his own horse, being young and strong, had broken away from her fastening; but on listening intently he could hear her ambling comfortably along a little way ahead, and a creaking of the saddle which showed that she had a rider. Walking on as far as the small gate in the corner of the park, he met a laborer, who, in reply to Melbury’s inquiry if he had seen any person on a gray horse, said that he had only met Dr. Fitzpiers.
The event, however, didn’t go as planned. As he ventured into the dense shade of the cluster of oaks, he couldn’t see his horse Blossom anywhere; but as he carefully navigated through, he soon spotted Fitzpiers’s mare Darling still standing as she had been under the nearby tree. For a moment, Melbury thought that his own horse, being young and strong, had broken free from her tie; but as he listened closely, he could hear her trotting contentedly a little way ahead, along with the creaking of the saddle that indicated she had a rider. Continuing on to the small gate in the corner of the park, he encountered a laborer, who, in response to Melbury’s question about whether he had seen anyone on a gray horse, said he had only seen Dr. Fitzpiers.
It was just what Melbury had begun to suspect: Fitzpiers had mounted the mare which did not belong to him in mistake for his own—an oversight easily explicable, in a man ever unwitting in horse-flesh, by the darkness of the spot and the near similarity of the animals in appearance, though Melbury’s was readily enough seen to be the grayer horse by day. He hastened back, and did what seemed best in the circumstances—got upon old Darling, and rode rapidly after Fitzpiers.
It was exactly what Melbury had started to suspect: Fitzpiers had mistakenly gotten on the mare that didn’t belong to him, thinking it was his own—an understandable mistake for someone who was always clueless about horses, especially given the dim lighting and how similar the animals looked. Although Melbury’s horse was easy to identify as the grayer one during the day. He quickly turned around and did what he thought was best in the situation—he got on old Darling and rode fast after Fitzpiers.
Melbury had just entered the wood, and was winding along the cart-way which led through it, channelled deep in the leaf-mould with large ruts that were formed by the timber-wagons in fetching the spoil of the plantations, when all at once he descried in front, at a point where the road took a turning round a large chestnut-tree, the form of his own horse Blossom, at which Melbury quickened Darling’s pace, thinking to come up with Fitzpiers.
Melbury had just entered the woods and was following the dirt path that ran through it, worn deep into the leaf litter with big ruts made by the timber trucks hauling away logs from the plantations. Suddenly, he spotted in front of him, just as the road curved around a large chestnut tree, the shape of his own horse, Blossom. Melbury urged Darling to move faster, hoping to catch up with Fitzpiers.
Nearer view revealed that the horse had no rider. At Melbury’s approach it galloped friskily away under the trees in a homeward direction. Thinking something was wrong, the timber-merchant dismounted as soon as he reached the chestnut, and after feeling about for a minute or two discovered Fitzpiers lying on the ground.
A closer look showed that the horse had no rider. As Melbury got closer, it pranced away under the trees heading home. Thinking something was off, the timber merchant got off his horse as soon as he reached the chestnut and after searching for a minute or two, found Fitzpiers lying on the ground.
“Here—help!” cried the latter as soon as he felt Melbury’s touch; “I have been thrown off, but there’s not much harm done, I think.”
“Help!” shouted the latter as soon as he felt Melbury’s touch. “I’ve been thrown off, but I don’t think it’s too serious.”
Since Melbury could not now very well read the younger man the lecture he had intended, and as friendliness would be hypocrisy, his instinct was to speak not a single word to his son-in-law. He raised Fitzpiers into a sitting posture, and found that he was a little stunned and stupefied, but, as he had said, not otherwise hurt. How this fall had come about was readily conjecturable: Fitzpiers, imagining there was only old Darling under him, had been taken unawares by the younger horse’s sprightliness.
Since Melbury couldn't really lecture the younger man as he had planned, and since being friendly would feel insincere, his instinct was to not say a single word to his son-in-law. He lifted Fitzpiers into a sitting position and noticed that he was a bit dazed and confused, but, as he had mentioned, not otherwise injured. It was easy to guess how this fall happened: Fitzpiers, thinking he was only dealing with old Darling beneath him, had been caught off guard by the younger horse's energy.
Melbury was a traveller of the old-fashioned sort; having just come from Shottsford-Forum, he still had in his pocket the pilgrim’s flask of rum which he always carried on journeys exceeding a dozen miles, though he seldom drank much of it. He poured it down the surgeon’s throat, with such effect that he quickly revived. Melbury got him on his legs; but the question was what to do with him. He could not walk more than a few steps, and the other horse had gone away.
Melbury was an old-school traveler; having just arrived from Shottsford-Forum, he still had his travel flask of rum in his pocket that he always took on trips over twelve miles, even though he rarely drank much of it. He poured some down the surgeon’s throat, which quickly brought him back to life. Melbury helped him to stand, but the issue was what to do next. He couldn't walk more than a few steps, and the other horse had already left.
With great exertion Melbury contrived to get him astride Darling, mounting himself behind, and holding Fitzpiers round his waist with one arm. Darling being broad, straight-backed, and high in the withers, was well able to carry double, at any rate as far as Hintock, and at a gentle pace.
With a lot of effort, Melbury managed to get him on Darling, climbing on himself and holding Fitzpiers around the waist with one arm. Darling, being broad, straight-backed, and high in the withers, was certainly capable of carrying two, at least as far as Hintock, and at a relaxed pace.
CHAPTER XXXV.
The mare paced along with firm and cautious tread through the copse where Winterborne had worked, and into the heavier soil where the oaks grew; past Great Willy, the largest oak in the wood, and thence towards Nellcombe Bottom, intensely dark now with overgrowth, and popularly supposed to be haunted by the spirits of the fratricides exorcised from Hintock House.
The mare walked steadily and carefully through the thicket where Winterborne had worked, and into the richer soil where the oaks stood; past Great Willy, the biggest oak in the woods, and then toward Nellcombe Bottom, which was now heavily overgrown and widely believed to be haunted by the spirits of the brothers killed at Hintock House.
By this time Fitzpiers was quite recovered as to physical strength. But he had eaten nothing since making a hasty breakfast in London that morning, his anxiety about Felice having hurried him away from home before dining; as a consequence, the old rum administered by his father-in-law flew to the young man’s head and loosened his tongue, without his ever having recognized who it was that had lent him a kindly hand. He began to speak in desultory sentences, Melbury still supporting him.
By this time, Fitzpiers had fully regained his physical strength. However, he hadn’t eaten anything since grabbing a quick breakfast in London that morning; his worry about Felice made him leave home in a rush without having lunch. As a result, the old rum his father-in-law gave him went straight to his head and loosened his tongue, without him ever realizing who had offered him help. He started to speak in scattered sentences, with Melbury still supporting him.
“I’ve come all the way from London to-day,” said Fitzpiers. “Ah, that’s the place to meet your equals. I live at Hintock—worse, at Little Hintock—and I am quite lost there. There’s not a man within ten miles of Hintock who can comprehend me. I tell you, Farmer What’s-your-name, that I’m a man of education. I know several languages; the poets and I are familiar friends; I used to read more in metaphysics than anybody within fifty miles; and since I gave that up there’s nobody can match me in the whole county of Wessex as a scientist. Yet I an doomed to live with tradespeople in a miserable little hole like Hintock!”
“I’ve come all the way from London today,” said Fitzpiers. “Ah, that’s the place to meet your equals. I live in Hintock—actually, Little Hintock—and I feel completely out of place there. There isn’t a single person within ten miles of Hintock who can understand me. I’m telling you, Farmer What’s-your-name, I’m a well-educated man. I know several languages; I’m on good terms with the poets; I used to read more about metaphysics than anyone within fifty miles; and since I stopped that, no one in the entire county of Wessex can compete with me as a scientist. Yet here I am, stuck living with tradespeople in a miserable little place like Hintock!”
“Indeed!” muttered Melbury.
"Totally!" muttered Melbury.
Fitzpiers, increasingly energized by the alcohol, here reared himself up suddenly from the bowed posture he had hitherto held, thrusting his shoulders so violently against Melbury’s breast as to make it difficult for the old man to keep a hold on the reins. “People don’t appreciate me here!” the surgeon exclaimed; lowering his voice, he added, softly and slowly, “except one—except one!...A passionate soul, as warm as she is clever, as beautiful as she is warm, and as rich as she is beautiful. I say, old fellow, those claws of yours clutch me rather tight—rather like the eagle’s, you know, that ate out the liver of Pro—Pre—the man on Mount Caucasus. People don’t appreciate me, I say, except her! Ah, gods, I am an unlucky man! She would have been mine, she would have taken my name; but unfortunately it cannot be so. I stooped to mate beneath me, and now I rue it.”
Fitzpiers, feeling more energized by the alcohol, suddenly straightened up from the slouched position he had been in, pushing his shoulders hard against Melbury’s chest, making it difficult for the old man to hold onto the reins. “People don’t appreciate me here!” the surgeon exclaimed; then, lowering his voice, he added softly and slowly, “except one—just one!...A passionate soul, as warm as she is smart, as beautiful as she is warm, and as rich as she is beautiful. I say, old friend, your grip on me is pretty tight—sort of like the eagle's that devoured the liver of Pro—Pre—the guy on Mount Caucasus. People don’t appreciate me, I say, except her! Ah, gods, I’m an unlucky man! She would have been mine, she would have taken my name; but unfortunately, that can’t happen. I stooped to settle for someone beneath me, and now I regret it.”
The position was becoming a very trying one for Melbury, corporeally and mentally. He was obliged to steady Fitzpiers with his left arm, and he began to hate the contact. He hardly knew what to do. It was useless to remonstrate with Fitzpiers, in his intellectual confusion from the rum and from the fall. He remained silent, his hold upon his companion, however, being stern rather than compassionate.
The situation was becoming really tough for Melbury, both physically and mentally. He had to support Fitzpiers with his left arm, and he started to resent the touch. He hardly knew how to react. It was pointless to argue with Fitzpiers, who was in a daze from the rum and the fall. He stayed quiet, but his grip on his companion was more about control than concern.
“You hurt me a little, farmer—though I am much obliged to you for your kindness. People don’t appreciate me, I say. Between ourselves, I am losing my practice here; and why? Because I see matchless attraction where matchless attraction is, both in person and position. I mention no names, so nobody will be the wiser. But I have lost her, in a legitimate sense, that is. If I were a free man now, things have come to such a pass that she could not refuse me; while with her fortune (which I don’t covet for itself) I should have a chance of satisfying an honorable ambition—a chance I have never had yet, and now never, never shall have, probably!”
“You hurt me a little, farmer—though I really appreciate your kindness. People don’t value me, I say. Just between us, I’m losing my practice here; and why? Because I see unmatched appeal where unmatched appeal exists, both in person and position. I won’t name names, so no one will be the wiser. But I have lost her, in a legitimate sense, that is. If I were a free man now, things have come to such a point that she couldn’t refuse me; while with her fortune (which I don’t desire for itself) I would have a shot at fulfilling an honorable ambition—a chance I’ve never had before, and now probably never will!”
Melbury, his heart throbbing against the other’s backbone, and his brain on fire with indignation, ventured to mutter huskily, “Why?”
Melbury, his heart pounding against the other’s back, and his mind racing with anger, managed to mutter hoarsely, “Why?”
The horse ambled on some steps before Fitzpiers replied, “Because I am tied and bound to another by law, as tightly as I am to you by your arm—not that I complain of your arm—I thank you for helping me. Well, where are we? Not nearly home yet?...Home, say I. It is a home! When I might have been at the other house over there.” In a stupefied way he flung his hand in the direction of the park. “I was just two months too early in committing myself. Had I only seen the other first—”
The horse took a few steps before Fitzpiers answered, “Because I’m legally tied to someone else, just as much as I’m connected to you by your arm—not that I mind your arm—I appreciate your help. So, where are we? Not close to home yet?...Home, I say. It is a home! When I could have been at that other place over there.” In a dazed manner, he gestured towards the park. “I was just two months too early in making a commitment. If only I had seen the other place first—”
Here the old man’s arm gave Fitzpiers a convulsive shake. “What are you doing?” continued the latter. “Keep still, please, or put me down. I was saying that I lost her by a mere little two months! There is no chance for me now in this world, and it makes me reckless—reckless! Unless, indeed, anything should happen to the other one. She is amiable enough; but if anything should happen to her—and I hear she is ill—well, if it should, I should be free—and my fame, my happiness, would be insured.”
Here the old man shook Fitzpiers's arm hard. “What are you doing?” Fitzpiers asked. “Please stay still, or put me down. I was just saying that I lost her by just two months! There’s no chance for me now in this world, and it makes me reckless—reckless! Unless, of course, something happens to the other one. She’s nice enough; but if anything were to happen to her—and I hear she’s sick—well, if it were, I would be free—and my reputation, my happiness, would be secured.”
These were the last words that Fitzpiers uttered in his seat in front of the timber-merchant. Unable longer to master himself, Melbury, the skin of his face compressed, whipped away his spare arm from Fitzpiers’s waist, and seized him by the collar.
These were the last words that Fitzpiers said while sitting in front of the timber merchant. No longer able to control himself, Melbury, with his face tense, pulled his arm away from Fitzpiers’s waist and grabbed him by the collar.
“You heartless villain—after all that we have done for ye!” he cried, with a quivering lip. “And the money of hers that you’ve had, and the roof we’ve provided to shelter ye! It is to me, George Melbury, that you dare to talk like that!” The exclamation was accompanied by a powerful swing from the shoulder, which flung the young man head-long into the road, Fitzpiers fell with a heavy thud upon the stumps of some undergrowth which had been cut during the winter preceding. Darling continued her walk for a few paces farther and stopped.
“You heartless villain—after everything we've done for you!” he shouted, his lip trembling. “And the money you’ve taken from her, and the roof we’ve given you for shelter! It’s me, George Melbury, that you dare to talk to like that!” With that, he swung his arm powerfully, sending the young man crashing into the road. Fitzpiers hit the ground hard, landing on some stumps of underbrush that had been cut down during the winter before. Darling walked a few more steps and then stopped.
“God forgive me!” Melbury murmured, repenting of what he had done. “He tried me too sorely; and now perhaps I’ve murdered him!”
“God forgive me!” Melbury murmured, regretting what he had done. “He pushed me too far; and now I might have killed him!”
He turned round in the saddle and looked towards the spot on which Fitzpiers had fallen. To his great surprise he beheld the surgeon rise to his feet with a bound, as if unhurt, and walk away rapidly under the trees.
He turned around in the saddle and looked at the spot where Fitzpiers had fallen. To his great surprise, he saw the surgeon spring to his feet as if he was unhurt, and quickly walk away under the trees.
Melbury listened till the rustle of Fitzpiers’s footsteps died away. “It might have been a crime, but for the mercy of Providence in providing leaves for his fall,” he said to himself. And then his mind reverted to the words of Fitzpiers, and his indignation so mounted within him that he almost wished the fall had put an end to the young man there and then.
Melbury listened until he could no longer hear Fitzpiers's footsteps. “It could have been a crime, if not for the mercy of Providence giving him leaves to land on,” he thought to himself. Then his mind went back to what Fitzpiers had said, and his anger grew so intense that he almost wished the fall had killed the young man right then and there.
He had not ridden far when he discerned his own gray mare standing under some bushes. Leaving Darling for a moment, Melbury went forward and easily caught the younger animal, now disheartened at its freak. He then made the pair of them fast to a tree, and turning back, endeavored to find some trace of Fitzpiers, feeling pitifully that, after all, he had gone further than he intended with the offender.
He hadn’t ridden far when he spotted his gray mare standing under some bushes. Leaving Darling behind for a moment, Melbury went ahead and easily caught the younger horse, which now seemed down about its misadventure. He then tied both of them to a tree and turned back, trying to find any sign of Fitzpiers, feeling sadly that, after all, he had gone further than he meant to with the troublemaker.
But though he threaded the wood hither and thither, his toes ploughing layer after layer of the little horny scrolls that had once been leaves, he could not find him. He stood still listening and looking round. The breeze was oozing through the network of boughs as through a strainer; the trunks and larger branches stood against the light of the sky in the forms of writhing men, gigantic candelabra, pikes, halberds, lances, and whatever besides the fancy chose to make of them. Giving up the search, Melbury came back to the horses, and walked slowly homeward, leading one in each hand.
But even though he wandered through the woods in every direction, his toes pushing through layer after layer of the little hard scrolls that used to be leaves, he couldn't find him. He stopped to listen and looked around. The breeze was flowing through the network of branches like it was passing through a strainer; the trunks and bigger branches stood against the light of the sky, looking like writhing men, huge candelabra, pikes, halberds, lances, and whatever else his imagination made of them. Giving up the search, Melbury returned to the horses and walked slowly home, leading one in each hand.
It happened that on this self-same evening a boy had been returning from Great to Little Hintock about the time of Fitzpiers’s and Melbury’s passage home along that route. A horse-collar that had been left at the harness-mender’s to be repaired was required for use at five o’clock next morning, and in consequence the boy had to fetch it overnight. He put his head through the collar, and accompanied his walk by whistling the one tune he knew, as an antidote to fear.
It just so happened that on the same evening, a boy was walking back from Great to Little Hintock around the time Fitzpiers and Melbury were heading home along that path. A horse-collar that needed to be repaired at the harness-mender’s was needed for use at five o’clock the next morning, so the boy had to pick it up that night. He slipped his head through the collar and whistled the only tune he knew to ease his fear as he walked.
The boy suddenly became aware of a horse trotting rather friskily along the track behind him, and not knowing whether to expect friend or foe, prudence suggested that he should cease his whistling and retreat among the trees till the horse and his rider had gone by; a course to which he was still more inclined when he found how noiselessly they approached, and saw that the horse looked pale, and remembered what he had read about Death in the Revelation. He therefore deposited the collar by a tree, and hid himself behind it. The horseman came on, and the youth, whose eyes were as keen as telescopes, to his great relief recognized the doctor.
The boy suddenly noticed a horse trotting playfully down the track behind him, and unsure whether to expect a friend or an enemy, he thought it wise to stop whistling and hide among the trees until the horse and rider passed by. He felt even more inclined to do so when he saw how quietly they were approaching, noticed the horse looked pale, and recalled what he had read about Death in the Revelation. He therefore set the collar down by a tree and concealed himself behind it. The horseman continued on, and the young man, whose eyesight was as sharp as a telescope, felt a great sense of relief when he recognized the doctor.
As Melbury surmised, Fitzpiers had in the darkness taken Blossom for Darling, and he had not discovered his mistake when he came up opposite the boy, though he was somewhat surprised at the liveliness of his usually placid mare. The only other pair of eyes on the spot whose vision was keen as the young carter’s were those of the horse; and, with that strongly conservative objection to the unusual which animals show, Blossom, on eying the collar under the tree—quite invisible to Fitzpiers—exercised none of the patience of the older horse, but shied sufficiently to unseat so second-rate an equestrian as the surgeon.
As Melbury guessed, Fitzpiers had mistakenly taken Blossom for Darling in the dark, and he didn’t realize his error when he approached the boy, although he was a bit surprised by the energy of his usually calm mare. The only other pair of eyes in the area that were as sharp as the young carter’s belonged to the horse, and, showing the typical strong resistance to the unusual that animals have, Blossom, seeing the collar under the tree—completely out of Fitzpiers’s sight—didn’t show the patience of the older horse but jumped enough to throw off someone as inexperienced as the surgeon.
He fell, and did not move, lying as Melbury afterwards found him. The boy ran away, salving his conscience for the desertion by thinking how vigorously he would spread the alarm of the accident when he got to Hintock—which he uncompromisingly did, incrusting the skeleton event with a load of dramatic horrors.
He fell and didn’t move, lying just as Melbury found him later. The boy ran away, easing his guilt about leaving by thinking about how passionately he would raise the alarm about the accident when he got to Hintock—which he did without hesitation, adding a layer of dramatic horror to the bare facts of the incident.
Grace had returned, and the fly hired on her account, though not by her husband, at the Crown Hotel, Shottsford-Forum, had been paid for and dismissed. The long drive had somewhat revived her, her illness being a feverish intermittent nervousness which had more to do with mind than body, and she walked about her sitting-room in something of a hopeful mood. Mrs. Melbury had told her as soon as she arrived that her husband had returned from London. He had gone out, she said, to see a patient, as she supposed, and he must soon be back, since he had had no dinner or tea. Grace would not allow her mind to harbor any suspicion of his whereabouts, and her step-mother said nothing of Mrs. Charmond’s rumored sorrows and plans of departure.
Grace had come back, and the cab hired for her, though not by her husband, at the Crown Hotel in Shottsford-Forum, had been paid off and sent away. The long drive had lifted her spirits a bit; her illness was a feverish, intermittent nervousness that was more about her mind than her body, and she walked around her sitting room feeling somewhat hopeful. Mrs. Melbury had told her as soon as she arrived that her husband was back from London. He had gone out, she said, to see a patient, as she guessed, and he should be back soon since he hadn't had dinner or tea. Grace refused to let herself think about where he might be, and her stepmother didn’t mention anything about Mrs. Charmond’s rumored troubles and plans to leave.
So the young wife sat by the fire, waiting silently. She had left Hintock in a turmoil of feeling after the revelation of Mrs. Charmond, and had intended not to be at home when her husband returned. But she had thought the matter over, and had allowed her father’s influence to prevail and bring her back; and now somewhat regretted that Edgar’s arrival had preceded hers.
So the young wife sat by the fire, waiting quietly. She had left Hintock in a whirlwind of emotions after finding out about Mrs. Charmond, and had planned not to be home when her husband came back. But she reconsidered and let her father's influence convince her to return; now she somewhat regretted that Edgar had arrived before her.
By-and-by Mrs. Melbury came up-stairs with a slight air of flurry and abruptness.
By and by, Mrs. Melbury came upstairs with a slight sense of agitation and impatience.
“I have something to tell—some bad news,” she said. “But you must not be alarmed, as it is not so bad as it might have been. Edgar has been thrown off his horse. We don’t think he is hurt much. It happened in the wood the other side of Nellcombe Bottom, where ’tis said the ghosts of the brothers walk.”
“I have something to share—some bad news,” she said. “But don’t be alarmed, as it’s not as serious as it could have been. Edgar was thrown off his horse. We don’t think he’s hurt too badly. It happened in the woods on the other side of Nellcombe Bottom, where it’s said the ghosts of the brothers walk.”
She went on to give a few of the particulars, but none of the invented horrors that had been communicated by the boy. “I thought it better to tell you at once,” she added, “in case he should not be very well able to walk home, and somebody should bring him.”
She went on to share a few details, but none of the made-up horrors that the boy had mentioned. “I thought it was better to tell you right away,” she added, “in case he has trouble walking home and someone needs to bring him.”
Mrs. Melbury really thought matters much worse than she represented, and Grace knew that she thought so. She sat down dazed for a few minutes, returning a negative to her step-mother’s inquiry if she could do anything for her. “But please go into the bedroom,” Grace said, on second thoughts, “and see if all is ready there—in case it is serious.” Mrs. Melbury thereupon called Grammer, and they did as directed, supplying the room with everything they could think of for the accommodation of an injured man.
Mrs. Melbury actually believed things were much worse than she let on, and Grace knew that was the case. She sat down, feeling dazed for a few minutes, and responded negatively to her step-mother’s question about whether she could help. “But please go into the bedroom,” Grace said after thinking it over, “and check if everything is ready there—in case it’s serious.” Mrs. Melbury then called Grammer, and they followed her instructions, preparing the room with everything they could think of to accommodate an injured man.
Nobody was left in the lower part of the house. Not many minutes passed when Grace heard a knock at the door—a single knock, not loud enough to reach the ears of those in the bedroom. She went to the top of the stairs and said, faintly, “Come up,” knowing that the door stood, as usual in such houses, wide open.
Nobody was left in the downstairs part of the house. A few minutes later, Grace heard a knock at the door—a single knock, too soft to be heard by those in the bedroom. She went to the top of the stairs and said softly, “Come up,” knowing that the door was, as usual in these kinds of houses, wide open.
Retreating into the gloom of the broad landing she saw rise up the stairs a woman whom at first she did not recognize, till her voice revealed her to be Suke Damson, in great fright and sorrow. A streak of light from the partially closed door of Grace’s room fell upon her face as she came forward, and it was drawn and pale.
Retreating into the shadows of the wide landing, she noticed a woman coming up the stairs who at first she didn’t recognize, until her voice gave her away as Suke Damson, filled with fear and sadness. A beam of light from the partially closed door of Grace’s room fell on her face as she approached, and it looked drawn and pale.
“Oh, Miss Melbury—I would say Mrs. Fitzpiers,” she said, wringing her hands. “This terrible news. Is he dead? Is he hurted very bad? Tell me; I couldn’t help coming; please forgive me, Miss Melbury—Mrs. Fitzpiers I would say!”
“Oh, Miss Melbury—I mean Mrs. Fitzpiers,” she said, wringing her hands. “This awful news. Is he dead? Is he really hurt? Please tell me; I couldn't help but come; please forgive me, Miss Melbury—Mrs. Fitzpiers I meant to say!”
Grace sank down on the oak chest which stood on the landing, and put her hands to her now flushed face and head. Could she order Suke Damson down-stairs and out of the house? Her husband might be brought in at any moment, and what would happen? But could she order this genuinely grieved woman away?
Grace sat down on the oak chest on the landing and put her hands to her now flushed face and head. Could she send Suke Damson downstairs and out of the house? Her husband might come home at any moment, and what would happen then? But could she really ask this genuinely upset woman to leave?
There was a dead silence of half a minute or so, till Suke said, “Why don’t ye speak? Is he here? Is he dead? If so, why can’t I see him—would it be so very wrong?”
There was a dead silence for about half a minute until Suke said, “Why aren’t you speaking? Is he here? Is he dead? If he is, why can’t I see him—would that really be so wrong?”
Before Grace had answered somebody else came to the door below—a foot-fall light as a roe’s. There was a hurried tapping upon the panel, as if with the impatient tips of fingers whose owner thought not whether a knocker were there or no. Without a pause, and possibly guided by the stray beam of light on the landing, the newcomer ascended the staircase as the first had done. Grace was sufficiently visible, and the lady, for a lady it was, came to her side.
Before Grace could respond, someone else arrived at the door below—a light footfall, like that of a deer. There was a quick tapping on the panel, as if someone was tapping with impatient fingers, not caring whether a knocker was there or not. Without a pause, and likely following the stray beam of light on the landing, the newcomer climbed the staircase just like the first one had. Grace was clearly visible, and the lady—who indeed was a lady—came to her side.
“I could make nobody hear down-stairs,” said Felice Charmond, with lips whose dryness could almost be heard, and panting, as she stood like one ready to sink on the floor with distress. “What is—the matter—tell me the worst! Can he live?” She looked at Grace imploringly, without perceiving poor Suke, who, dismayed at such a presence, had shrunk away into the shade.
“I couldn't make anyone hear downstairs,” Felice Charmond said, her lips so dry they were almost audible as she panted, ready to collapse from distress. “What is—going on—just tell me the worst! Can he survive?” She looked at Grace with desperation, not noticing poor Suke, who, frightened by such a presence, had slipped away into the shadows.
Mrs. Charmond’s little feet were covered with mud; she was quite unconscious of her appearance now. “I have heard such a dreadful report,” she went on; “I came to ascertain the truth of it. Is he—killed?”
Mrs. Charmond’s small feet were muddy; she was completely unaware of how she looked now. “I’ve heard such a terrible rumor,” she continued; “I came to find out if it’s true. Is he—dead?”
“She won’t tell us—he’s dying—he’s in that room!” burst out Suke, regardless of consequences, as she heard the distant movements of Mrs. Melbury and Grammer in the bedroom at the end of the passage.
“She won’t tell us—he’s dying—he’s in that room!” Suke exclaimed, not caring about the consequences, as she heard the distant sounds of Mrs. Melbury and Grammer in the bedroom at the end of the hall.
“Where?” said Mrs. Charmond; and on Suke pointing out the direction, she made as if to go thither.
“Where?” said Mrs. Charmond; and when Suke pointed out the direction, she acted like she was going to head that way.
Grace barred the way. “He is not there,” she said. “I have not seen him any more than you. I have heard a report only—not so bad as you think. It must have been exaggerated to you.”
Grace blocked the path. “He’s not there,” she said. “I haven’t seen him any more than you have. I’ve only heard a rumor—not as bad as you think. It must have been exaggerated to you.”
“Please do not conceal anything—let me know all!” said Felice, doubtingly.
“Please don’t hide anything—tell me everything!” said Felice, skeptically.
“You shall know all I know—you have a perfect right to know—who can have a better than either of you?” said Grace, with a delicate sting which was lost upon Felice Charmond now. “I repeat, I have only heard a less alarming account than you have heard; how much it means, and how little, I cannot say. I pray God that it means not much—in common humanity. You probably pray the same—for other reasons.”
“You should know everything I know—you have every right to know—who could know better than either of you?” said Grace, with a subtle sharpness that Felice Charmond didn’t pick up on. “I’ll say it again, I’ve only heard a less serious version of what you’ve heard; I can’t say how much it matters or how little. I hope to God that it doesn’t mean much—in a basic human sense. You probably hope the same—for different reasons.”
She regarded them both there in the dim light a while.
She looked at both of them in the dim light for a bit.
They stood dumb in their trouble, not stinging back at her; not heeding her mood. A tenderness spread over Grace like a dew. It was well, very well, conventionally, to address either one of them in the wife’s regulation terms of virtuous sarcasm, as woman, creature, or thing, for losing their hearts to her husband. But life, what was it, and who was she? She had, like the singer of the psalm of Asaph, been plagued and chastened all the day long; but could she, by retributive words, in order to please herself—the individual—“offend against the generation,” as he would not?
They stood there speechless in their trouble, not pushing back against her; not paying attention to her mood. A softness washed over Grace like morning dew. It was usually fine, conventionally, to talk to either of them with the wife's typical sarcastic remarks, calling them woman, creature, or thing, for losing their hearts to her husband. But what was life, and who was she? She had, like the singer of the Psalm of Asaph, been tormented and punished all day long; but could she, with hurtful words, just to satisfy herself—the individual—“offend against the generation,” as he wouldn’t?
“He is dying, perhaps,” blubbered Suke Damson, putting her apron to her eyes.
“He's dying, maybe,” cried Suke Damson, wiping her eyes with her apron.
In their gestures and faces there were anxieties, affection, agony of heart, all for a man who had wronged them—had never really behaved towards either of them anyhow but selfishly. Neither one but would have wellnigh sacrificed half her life to him, even now. The tears which his possibly critical situation could not bring to her eyes surged over at the contemplation of these fellow-women. She turned to the balustrade, bent herself upon it, and wept.
In their gestures and expressions, there were worries, love, and heartache, all for a man who had hurt them—who had never really treated either of them with anything but selfishness. Each of them would have nearly sacrificed half of her life for him, even now. The tears that his potentially critical situation couldn't bring to her eyes flowed freely at the thought of these other women. She turned to the railing, leaned on it, and cried.
Thereupon Felice began to cry also, without using her handkerchief, and letting the tears run down silently. While these three poor women stood together thus, pitying another though most to be pitied themselves, the pacing of a horse or horses became audible in the court, and in a moment Melbury’s voice was heard calling to his stableman. Grace at once started up, ran down the stairs and out into the quadrangle as her father crossed it towards the door. “Father, what is the matter with him?” she cried.
Thereupon, Felice started to cry too, not bothering with her handkerchief, letting her tears fall quietly. While these three unfortunate women stood together, feeling sorry for someone else even though they were the ones who needed pity the most, they could hear the sound of a horse or horses in the courtyard. Moments later, Melbury's voice rang out, calling to his stableman. Grace immediately jumped up, rushed down the stairs, and hurried into the courtyard as her father crossed toward the door. “Dad, what’s wrong with him?” she shouted.
“Who—Edgar?” said Melbury, abruptly. “Matter? Nothing. What, my dear, and have you got home safe? Why, you are better already! But you ought not to be out in the air like this.”
“Who—Edgar?” Melbury asked suddenly. “Matter? Nothing. What, my dear, have you gotten home safe? Wow, you're already feeling better! But you shouldn’t be out in the air like this.”
“But he has been thrown off his horse!”
“But he got thrown off his horse!”
“I know; I know. I saw it. He got up again, and walked off as well as ever. A fall on the leaves didn’t hurt a spry fellow like him. He did not come this way,” he added, significantly. “I suppose he went to look for his horse. I tried to find him, but could not. But after seeing him go away under the trees I found the horse, and have led it home for safety. So he must walk. Now, don’t you stay out here in this night air.”
“I know; I know. I saw it. He got up again and walked off just fine. A fall on the leaves didn't hurt a lively guy like him. He didn’t come this way,” he added, with emphasis. “I guess he went to look for his horse. I tried to find him, but I couldn’t. However, after I saw him leave under the trees, I found the horse and brought it home for safety. So he has to walk. Now, don’t stay out here in this night air.”
She returned to the house with her father. When she had again ascended to the landing and to her own rooms beyond it was a great relief to her to find that both Petticoat the First and Petticoat the Second of her Bien-aimé had silently disappeared. They had, in all probability, heard the words of her father, and departed with their anxieties relieved.
She came back to the house with her dad. Once she went back up to the landing and to her own rooms beyond, she felt a huge relief to see that both Petticoat the First and Petticoat the Second of her Bien-aimé had quietly vanished. They probably heard her dad's words and left with their worries eased.
Presently her parents came up to Grace, and busied themselves to see that she was comfortable. Perceiving soon that she would prefer to be left alone they went away.
Currently, her parents approached Grace and made sure she was comfortable. Realizing quickly that she preferred to be by herself, they left.
Grace waited on. The clock raised its voice now and then, but her husband did not return. At her father’s usual hour for retiring he again came in to see her. “Do not stay up,” she said, as soon as he entered. “I am not at all tired. I will sit up for him.”
Grace continued to wait. The clock chimed occasionally, but her husband still hadn’t come back. At her father’s usual bedtime, he came in to check on her. “Don’t stay up,” she said as soon as he walked in. “I’m not tired at all. I’ll wait up for him.”
“I think it will be useless, Grace,” said Melbury, slowly.
“I think it’ll be pointless, Grace,” Melbury said slowly.
“Why?”
“Why?”
“I have had a bitter quarrel with him; and on that account I hardly think he will return to-night.”
“I had a heated argument with him, so I doubt he’ll come back tonight.”
“A quarrel? Was that after the fall seen by the boy?”
“A fight? Was that after the fall the boy saw?”
Melbury nodded an affirmative, without taking his eyes off the candle.
Melbury nodded in agreement, keeping his gaze fixed on the candle.
“Yes; it was as we were coming home together,” he said.
“Yes; it was when we were coming home together,” he said.
Something had been swelling up in Grace while her father was speaking. “How could you want to quarrel with him?” she cried, suddenly. “Why could you not let him come home quietly if he were inclined to? He is my husband; and now you have married me to him surely you need not provoke him unnecessarily. First you induce me to accept him, and then you do things that divide us more than we should naturally be divided!”
Something had been building up inside Grace while her father spoke. “How can you want to fight with him?” she shouted suddenly. “Why couldn't you just let him come home peacefully if that's what he wanted? He’s my husband; now that you’ve married me to him, you shouldn’t provoke him for no reason. First, you convince me to accept him, and then you do things that push us apart more than we’d naturally be!”
“How can you speak so unjustly to me, Grace?” said Melbury, with indignant sorrow. “I divide you from your husband, indeed! You little think—”
“How can you talk to me so unfairly, Grace?” Melbury said, filled with hurt and anger. “I separate you from your husband, really! You have no idea—”
He was inclined to say more—to tell her the whole story of the encounter, and that the provocation he had received had lain entirely in hearing her despised. But it would have greatly distressed her, and he forbore. “You had better lie down. You are tired,” he said, soothingly. “Good-night.”
He wanted to say more—to share the entire story of the encounter, explaining that the real issue had come from hearing her being disrespected. But he knew it would upset her, so he held back. “You should lie down. You’re tired,” he said gently. “Good night.”
The household went to bed, and a silence fell upon the dwelling, broken only by the occasional skirr of a halter in Melbury’s stables. Despite her father’s advice Grace still waited up. But nobody came.
The household went to bed, and a silence settled over the house, interrupted only by the occasional rustle of a halter in Melbury’s stables. Despite her father’s advice, Grace stayed up. But no one came.
It was a critical time in Grace’s emotional life that night. She thought of her husband a good deal, and for the nonce forgot Winterborne.
It was a pivotal moment in Grace’s emotional life that night. She thought a lot about her husband and temporarily forgot about Winterborne.
“How these unhappy women must have admired Edgar!” she said to herself. “How attractive he must be to everybody; and, indeed, he is attractive.” The possibility is that, piqued by rivalry, these ideas might have been transformed into their corresponding emotions by a show of the least reciprocity in Fitzpiers. There was, in truth, a love-bird yearning to fly from her heart; and it wanted a lodging badly.
“How these unhappy women must have admired Edgar!” she said to herself. “How attractive he must be to everyone; and honestly, he is attractive.” The reality is that, perhaps driven by competition, these thoughts could have turned into real feelings if Fitzpiers had shown even a little interest. There was, in fact, a love-bird wanting to escape from her heart; and it needed a place to land badly.
But no husband came. The fact was that Melbury had been much mistaken about the condition of Fitzpiers. People do not fall headlong on stumps of underwood with impunity. Had the old man been able to watch Fitzpiers narrowly enough, he would have observed that on rising and walking into the thicket he dropped blood as he went; that he had not proceeded fifty yards before he showed signs of being dizzy, and, raising his hands to his head, reeled and fell down.
But no husband showed up. The truth was that Melbury had seriously misjudged Fitzpiers' condition. People can’t just fall onto sharp sticks without consequences. If the old man had been able to keep a close eye on Fitzpiers, he would have noticed that as he got up and walked into the thicket, he was leaving a trail of blood behind him; that he hadn’t even gone fifty yards before he started looking dizzy, and, holding his head, he staggered and collapsed.
CHAPTER XXXVI.
Grace was not the only one who watched and meditated in Hintock that night. Felice Charmond was in no mood to retire to rest at a customary hour; and over her drawing-room fire at the Manor House she sat as motionless and in as deep a reverie as Grace in her little apartment at the homestead.
Grace wasn’t the only one observing and reflecting in Hintock that night. Felice Charmond didn’t feel like going to bed at her usual time; instead, she sat by the fire in her drawing room at the Manor House, just as still and lost in thought as Grace was in her small room at the homestead.
Having caught ear of Melbury’s intelligence while she stood on the landing at his house, and been eased of much of her mental distress, her sense of personal decorum returned upon her with a rush. She descended the stairs and left the door like a ghost, keeping close to the walls of the building till she got round to the gate of the quadrangle, through which she noiselessly passed almost before Grace and her father had finished their discourse. Suke Damson had thought it well to imitate her superior in this respect, and, descending the back stairs as Felice descended the front, went out at the side door and home to her cottage.
Having heard about Melbury’s insights while she stood on the landing at his house and feeling a lot of her anxiety fade away, she quickly regained her sense of personal propriety. She went down the stairs and left the house quietly, sticking close to the walls until she reached the gate of the courtyard, slipping through almost before Grace and her father had finished their conversation. Suke Damson decided it would be a good idea to follow her example, so she went down the back stairs as Felice went down the front, exiting through the side door and heading home to her cottage.
Once outside Melbury’s gates Mrs. Charmond ran with all her speed to the Manor House, without stopping or turning her head, and splitting her thin boots in her haste. She entered her own dwelling, as she had emerged from it, by the drawing-room window. In other circumstances she would have felt some timidity at undertaking such an unpremeditated excursion alone; but her anxiety for another had cast out her fear for herself.
Once she was outside Melbury's gates, Mrs. Charmond rushed to the Manor House as fast as she could, not stopping or looking back, and tore her thin boots in her hurry. She entered her home through the drawing-room window, just as she had come out. Under different circumstances, she would have felt a bit nervous about making such a spontaneous trip alone, but her worry for someone else made her forget about her own fears.
Everything in her drawing-room was just as she had left it—the candles still burning, the casement closed, and the shutters gently pulled to, so as to hide the state of the window from the cursory glance of a servant entering the apartment. She had been gone about three-quarters of an hour by the clock, and nobody seemed to have discovered her absence. Tired in body but tense in mind, she sat down, palpitating, round-eyed, bewildered at what she had done.
Everything in her living room was exactly how she had left it—the candles still lit, the window closed, and the blinds slightly drawn to obscure the condition of the window from a quick look by any servant entering the room. She had been gone for about forty-five minutes, and no one seemed to have noticed she was gone. Exhausted physically but anxious mentally, she sat down, her heart racing, wide-eyed, confused about what she had done.
She had been betrayed by affrighted love into a visit which, now that the emotion instigating it had calmed down under her belief that Fitzpiers was in no danger, was the saddest surprise to her. This was how she had set about doing her best to escape her passionate bondage to him! Somehow, in declaring to Grace and to herself the unseemliness of her infatuation, she had grown a convert to its irresistibility. If Heaven would only give her strength; but Heaven never did! One thing was indispensable; she must go away from Hintock if she meant to withstand further temptation. The struggle was too wearying, too hopeless, while she remained. It was but a continual capitulation of conscience to what she dared not name.
She had been led into a visit by a frightened love, which, now that she believed Fitzpiers was safe, felt like the saddest surprise to her. This was her attempt to break free from her passionate ties to him! By admitting to Grace and herself how inappropriate her infatuation was, she had somehow become convinced of its power over her. If only Heaven would give her strength; but Heaven never did! One thing was clear; she needed to leave Hintock if she wanted to resist further temptation. The struggle was too exhausting and too hopeless while she stayed. It was just a constant surrender of her conscience to what she couldn’t even name.
By degrees, as she sat, Felice’s mind—helped perhaps by the anticlimax of learning that her lover was unharmed after all her fright about him—grew wondrously strong in wise resolve. For the moment she was in a mood, in the words of Mrs. Elizabeth Montagu, “to run mad with discretion;” and was so persuaded that discretion lay in departure that she wished to set about going that very minute. Jumping up from her seat, she began to gather together some small personal knick-knacks scattered about the room, to feel that preparations were really in train.
Gradually, as she sat there, Felice’s mind—perhaps boosted by the relief of finding out that her boyfriend was actually safe after all her worries—grew amazingly strong with clear determination. In that moment, she felt, in the words of Mrs. Elizabeth Montagu, “ready to go crazy with caution;” and she became so convinced that being careful meant leaving that she wanted to start packing up right then and there. Jumping up from her chair, she began to collect some little personal items scattered around the room, eager to feel that preparations were truly underway.
While moving here and there she fancied that she heard a slight noise out-of-doors, and stood still. Surely it was a tapping at the window. A thought entered her mind, and burned her cheek. He had come to that window before; yet was it possible that he should dare to do so now! All the servants were in bed, and in the ordinary course of affairs she would have retired also. Then she remembered that on stepping in by the casement and closing it, she had not fastened the window-shutter, so that a streak of light from the interior of the room might have revealed her vigil to an observer on the lawn. How all things conspired against her keeping faith with Grace!
While moving around, she thought she heard a faint noise outside and paused. It had to be someone tapping at the window. A thought struck her and made her flush. He had come to that window before; yet could he really dare to do it again now? All the servants were in bed, and under normal circumstances, she would have gone to bed too. Then she remembered that when she had stepped in through the window and closed it, she hadn't secured the shutter, so a beam of light from the room might have given away her watch to someone on the lawn. It seemed like everything was working against her promise to Grace!
The tapping recommenced, light as from the bill of a little bird; her illegitimate hope overcame her vow; she went and pulled back the shutter, determining, however, to shake her head at him and keep the casement securely closed.
The tapping started again, gentle like the beak of a tiny bird; her unacknowledged hope won over her promise; she went and pulled back the shutter, deciding, however, to shake her head at him and keep the window firmly closed.
What she saw outside might have struck terror into a heart stouter than a helpless woman’s at midnight. In the centre of the lowest pane of the window, close to the glass, was a human face, which she barely recognized as the face of Fitzpiers. It was surrounded with the darkness of the night without, corpse-like in its pallor, and covered with blood. As disclosed in the square area of the pane it met her frightened eyes like a replica of the Sudarium of St. Veronica.
What she saw outside could have terrified anyone, even someone braver than a scared woman at midnight. In the center of the bottom pane of the window, right up against the glass, was a human face that she barely recognized as Fitzpiers. It was surrounded by the darkness of the night, pale like a corpse, and covered in blood. As it filled the square area of the pane, it met her scared eyes like a version of the Sudarium of St. Veronica.
He moved his lips, and looked at her imploringly. Her rapid mind pieced together in an instant a possible concatenation of events which might have led to this tragical issue. She unlatched the casement with a terrified hand, and bending down to where he was crouching, pressed her face to his with passionate solicitude. She assisted him into the room without a word, to do which it was almost necessary to lift him bodily. Quickly closing the window and fastening the shutters, she bent over him breathlessly.
He moved his lips and looked at her with desperation. Her quick mind instantly pieced together a possible sequence of events that could have led to this tragic situation. With a shaking hand, she unlocked the window and, leaning down to where he was crouching, pressed her face against his with intense concern. She helped him into the room silently, needing to lift him up almost entirely. After quickly shutting the window and securing the shutters, she leaned over him, out of breath.
“Are you hurt much—much?” she cried, faintly. “Oh, oh, how is this!”
“Are you really hurt?” she said weakly. “Oh no, what’s happening!”
“Rather much—but don’t be frightened,” he answered in a difficult whisper, and turning himself to obtain an easier position if possible. “A little water, please.”
“It's quite a bit—but don’t be scared,” he replied in a strained whisper, trying to find a more comfortable position if he could. “Just a little water, please.”
She ran across into the dining-room, and brought a bottle and glass, from which he eagerly drank. He could then speak much better, and with her help got upon the nearest couch.
She rushed into the dining room and grabbed a bottle and a glass, from which he eagerly drank. After that, he was able to speak much better, and with her help, he made it to the nearest couch.
“Are you dying, Edgar?” she said. “Do speak to me!”
“Are you dying, Edgar?” she said. “Please talk to me!”
“I am half dead,” said Fitzpiers. “But perhaps I shall get over it....It is chiefly loss of blood.”
“I’m half dead,” said Fitzpiers. “But maybe I’ll recover... It’s mostly just loss of blood.”
“But I thought your fall did not hurt you,” said she. “Who did this?”
“But I thought your fall didn’t hurt you,” she said. “Who did this?”
“Felice—my father-in-law!...I have crawled to you more than a mile on my hands and knees—God, I thought I should never have got here!...I have come to you—be-cause you are the only friend—I have in the world now....I can never go back to Hintock—never—to the roof of the Melburys! Not poppy nor mandragora will ever medicine this bitter feud!...If I were only well again—”
“Felice—my father-in-law!...I’ve crawled to you for over a mile on my hands and knees—God, I thought I’d never make it here!...I’ve come to you—because you’re the only friend I have in the world now....I can never go back to Hintock—never—to the Melburys' roof! Neither poppy nor mandragora will ever heal this bitter feud!...If only I were well again—”
“Let me bind your head, now that you have rested.”
“Let me wrap your head, now that you’ve had a break.”
“Yes—but wait a moment—it has stopped bleeding, fortunately, or I should be a dead man before now. While in the wood I managed to make a tourniquet of some half-pence and my handkerchief, as well as I could in the dark....But listen, dear Felice! Can you hide me till I am well? Whatever comes, I can be seen in Hintock no more. My practice is nearly gone, you know—and after this I would not care to recover it if I could.”
“Yes—but hold on—it has stopped bleeding, thank goodness, or I’d be dead by now. While I was in the woods, I managed to make a tourniquet out of some coins and my handkerchief as best as I could in the dark.... But listen, dear Felice! Can you hide me until I’m better? Whatever happens, I can't be seen in Hintock anymore. My practice is almost gone, you know—and after this, I wouldn’t want to get it back even if I could.”
By this time Felice’s tears began to blind her. Where were now her discreet plans for sundering their lives forever? To administer to him in his pain, and trouble, and poverty, was her single thought. The first step was to hide him, and she asked herself where. A place occurred to her mind.
By this point, Felice's tears were starting to blur her vision. Where had her careful plans to separate their lives for good gone? All she could think about was how to help him through his pain, troubles, and struggles. The first thing she needed to do was hide him, and she wondered where that could be. A location came to her mind.
She got him some wine from the dining-room, which strengthened him much. Then she managed to remove his boots, and, as he could now keep himself upright by leaning upon her on one side and a walking-stick on the other, they went thus in slow march out of the room and up the stairs. At the top she took him along a gallery, pausing whenever he required rest, and thence up a smaller staircase to the least used part of the house, where she unlocked a door. Within was a lumber-room, containing abandoned furniture of all descriptions, built up in piles which obscured the light of the windows, and formed between them nooks and lairs in which a person would not be discerned even should an eye gaze in at the door. The articles were mainly those that had belonged to the previous owner of the house, and had been bought in by the late Mr. Charmond at the auction; but changing fashion, and the tastes of a young wife, had caused them to be relegated to this dungeon.
She brought him some wine from the dining room, which gave him quite a boost. Then she managed to take off his boots, and since he could now stay upright by leaning on her on one side and a walking stick on the other, they slowly made their way out of the room and up the stairs. At the top, she guided him along a hallway, stopping whenever he needed to rest, and then up a smaller staircase to the least used part of the house, where she unlocked a door. Inside was a storage room filled with discarded furniture of all kinds, piled up so that it blocked the light from the windows and created nooks and crannies where someone could hide without being seen, even if someone looked in through the door. Most of the items belonged to the previous owner of the house and had been bought by the late Mr. Charmond at the auction; however, changing styles and the preferences of a young wife had caused them to be pushed into this space.
Here Fitzpiers sat on the floor against the wall till she had hauled out materials for a bed, which she spread on the floor in one of the aforesaid nooks. She obtained water and a basin, and washed the dried blood from his face and hands; and when he was comfortably reclining, fetched food from the larder. While he ate her eyes lingered anxiously on his face, following its every movement with such loving-kindness as only a fond woman can show.
Here Fitzpiers sat on the floor against the wall until she had pulled out materials for a bed, which she set up on the floor in one of the mentioned nooks. She got water and a basin and cleaned the dried blood off his face and hands; and when he was comfortably lying down, she brought food from the pantry. While he ate, her eyes stayed anxiously on his face, watching every movement with a kind of love only a devoted woman can give.
He was now in better condition, and discussed his position with her.
He was in better shape now and talked about his situation with her.
“What I fancy I said to Melbury must have been enough to enrage any man, if uttered in cold blood, and with knowledge of his presence. But I did not know him, and I was stupefied by what he had given me, so that I hardly was aware of what I said. Well—the veil of that temple is rent in twain!...As I am not going to be seen again in Hintock, my first efforts must be directed to allay any alarm that may be felt at my absence, before I am able to get clear away. Nobody must suspect that I have been hurt, or there will be a country talk about me. Felice, I must at once concoct a letter to check all search for me. I think if you can bring me a pen and paper I may be able to do it now. I could rest better if it were done. Poor thing! how I tire her with running up and down!”
“What I think I said to Melbury must have been enough to anger any man if spoken calmly and knowing he was there. But I didn’t know him, and I was dazed by what he had given me, so I hardly realized what I was saying. Well—the veil of that temple is torn in two!...Since I’m not going to be seen again in Hintock, my first priority must be to ease any concerns about my absence before I can get away. No one must suspect that I’ve been hurt, or there will be gossip about me. Felice, I need to quickly write a letter to stop any search for me. I think if you can bring me a pen and paper, I might be able to do it now. I’d feel better if it were done. Poor thing! I tire her out with all this running around!”
She fetched writing materials, and held up the blotting-book as a support to his hand, while he penned a brief note to his nominal wife.
She got some writing supplies and held up the blotting book to support his hand while he quickly wrote a note to his supposed wife.
“The animosity shown towards me by your father,” he wrote, in this coldest of marital epistles, “is such that I cannot return again to a roof which is his, even though it shelters you. A parting is unavoidable, as you are sure to be on his side in this division. I am starting on a journey which will take me a long way from Hintock, and you must not expect to see me there again for some time.”
“The hostility your father has shown me,” he wrote in this coldest of marital letters, “is such that I can’t come back to a house that belongs to him, even if it’s where you are. A separation is inevitable, as you will surely side with him in this conflict. I’m setting off on a journey that will take me far from Hintock, and you shouldn’t expect to see me there again for quite a while.”
He then gave her a few directions bearing upon his professional engagements and other practical matters, concluding without a hint of his destination, or a notion of when she would see him again. He offered to read the note to Felice before he closed it up, but she would not hear or see it; that side of his obligations distressed her beyond endurance. She turned away from Fitzpiers, and sobbed bitterly.
He then gave her some directions regarding his work and other practical matters, finishing without any mention of where he was going or when she would see him again. He offered to read the note to Felice before sealing it, but she refused to hear or see it; that part of his responsibilities upset her beyond what she could bear. She turned away from Fitzpiers and sobbed heavily.
“If you can get this posted at a place some miles away,” he whispered, exhausted by the effort of writing—“at Shottsford or Port-Bredy, or still better, Budmouth—it will divert all suspicion from this house as the place of my refuge.”
“If you can get this sent to a place a few miles away,” he whispered, worn out from the effort of writing—“at Shottsford or Port-Bredy, or even better, Budmouth—it will draw all suspicion away from this house as the place where I’m hiding.”
“I will drive to one or other of the places myself—anything to keep it unknown,” she murmured, her voice weighted with vague foreboding, now that the excitement of helping him had passed away.
“I’ll drive to one of the places myself—anything to keep it a secret,” she murmured, her voice heavy with a vague sense of dread, now that the thrill of helping him had faded.
Fitzpiers told her that there was yet one thing more to be done. “In creeping over the fence on to the lawn,” he said, “I made the rail bloody, and it shows rather much on the white paint—I could see it in the dark. At all hazards it should be washed off. Could you do that also, Felice?”
Fitzpiers told her there was one more thing to take care of. “As I was climbing over the fence onto the lawn,” he said, “I got some blood on the rail, and it really stands out on the white paint—I could see it in the dark. We need to wash it off at all costs. Could you take care of that too, Felice?”
What will not women do on such devoted occasions? weary as she was she went all the way down the rambling staircases to the ground-floor, then to search for a lantern, which she lighted and hid under her cloak; then for a wet sponge, and next went forth into the night. The white railing stared out in the darkness at her approach, and a ray from the enshrouded lantern fell upon the blood—just where he had told her it would be found. She shuddered. It was almost too much to bear in one day—but with a shaking hand she sponged the rail clean, and returned to the house.
What won't women do on such dedicated occasions? Tired as she was, she went all the way down the winding staircases to the ground floor, then searched for a lantern, which she lit and hid under her cloak. Next, she found a wet sponge and ventured out into the night. The white railing loomed in the darkness as she approached, and a beam from the covered lantern illuminated the blood—exactly where he had told her it would be. She shuddered. It was almost too much to handle in one day—but with a trembling hand, she wiped the rail clean and returned to the house.
The time occupied by these several proceedings was not much less than two hours. When all was done, and she had smoothed his extemporized bed, and placed everything within his reach that she could think of, she took her leave of him, and locked him in.
The time taken by these various activities was almost two hours. When everything was finished, and she had tidied up his makeshift bed and arranged everything within his reach that she could think of, she said goodbye to him and locked the door.
CHAPTER XXXVII.
When her husband’s letter reached Grace’s hands, bearing upon it the postmark of a distant town, it never once crossed her mind that Fitzpiers was within a mile of her still. She felt relieved that he did not write more bitterly of the quarrel with her father, whatever its nature might have been; but the general frigidity of his communication quenched in her the incipient spark that events had kindled so shortly before.
When Grace received her husband’s letter, marked with the postmark of a faraway town, it never occurred to her that Fitzpiers was just a mile away. She felt relieved that he didn't write more harshly about the fight with her father, whatever it had been about; but the overall coldness of his message extinguished the flicker of hope that recent events had briefly ignited.
From this centre of information it was made known in Hintock that the doctor had gone away, and as none but the Melbury household was aware that he did not return on the night of his accident, no excitement manifested itself in the village.
From this center of information, it became known in Hintock that the doctor had left, and since only the Melbury household knew that he didn’t come back the night of his accident, there was no excitement in the village.
Thus the early days of May passed by. None but the nocturnal birds and animals observed that late one evening, towards the middle of the month, a closely wrapped figure, with a crutch under one arm and a stick in his hand, crept out from Hintock House across the lawn to the shelter of the trees, taking thence a slow and laborious walk to the nearest point of the turnpike-road. The mysterious personage was so disguised that his own wife would hardly have known him. Felice Charmond was a practised hand at make-ups, as well she might be; and she had done her utmost in padding and painting Fitzpiers with the old materials of her art in the recesses of the lumber-room.
Thus the early days of May passed by. Only the nocturnal birds and animals noticed that late one evening, around the middle of the month, a figure wrapped closely, with a crutch under one arm and a stick in his hand, crept out from Hintock House across the lawn to the shelter of the trees, then slowly and laboriously made his way to the nearest point of the turnpike road. The mysterious individual was so disguised that his own wife would barely have recognized him. Felice Charmond was skilled in make-up, as she well should be; and she had done her best in padding and painting Fitzpiers with the old materials of her craft from the recesses of the lumber room.
In the highway he was met by a covered carriage, which conveyed him to Sherton-Abbas, whence he proceeded to the nearest port on the south coast, and immediately crossed the Channel.
On the highway, he was met by a covered carriage, which took him to Sherton-Abbas, from where he went to the nearest port on the south coast and immediately crossed the Channel.
But it was known to everybody that three days after this time Mrs. Charmond executed her long-deferred plan of setting out for a long term of travel and residence on the Continent. She went off one morning as unostentatiously as could be, and took no maid with her, having, she said, engaged one to meet her at a point farther on in her route. After that, Hintock House, so frequently deserted, was again to be let. Spring had not merged in summer when a clinching rumor, founded on the best of evidence, reached the parish and neighborhood. Mrs. Charmond and Fitzpiers had been seen together in Baden, in relations which set at rest the question that had agitated the little community ever since the winter.
But everyone knew that three days later, Mrs. Charmond finally went ahead with her long-planned trip for an extended stay in Europe. She left one morning as quietly as possible, without bringing a maid, claiming she had arranged for one to meet her further along her journey. After that, Hintock House, which had often been empty, was up for rent again. Spring hadn't even turned into summer when a convincing rumor, based on credible evidence, reached the parish and the surrounding area. Mrs. Charmond and Fitzpiers had been spotted together in Baden, in circumstances that settled the question that had been troubling the small community since winter.
Melbury had entered the Valley of Humiliation even farther than Grace. His spirit seemed broken.
Melbury had gone deeper into the Valley of Humiliation than Grace. He seemed completely defeated.
But once a week he mechanically went to market as usual, and here, as he was passing by the conduit one day, his mental condition expressed largely by his gait, he heard his name spoken by a voice formerly familiar. He turned and saw a certain Fred Beaucock—once a promising lawyer’s clerk and local dandy, who had been called the cleverest fellow in Sherton, without whose brains the firm of solicitors employing him would be nowhere. But later on Beaucock had fallen into the mire. He was invited out a good deal, sang songs at agricultural meetings and burgesses’ dinners; in sum, victualled himself with spirits more frequently than was good for the clever brains or body either. He lost his situation, and after an absence spent in trying his powers elsewhere, came back to his native town, where, at the time of the foregoing events in Hintock, he gave legal advice for astonishingly small fees—mostly carrying on his profession on public-house settles, in whose recesses he might often have been overheard making country-people’s wills for half a crown; calling with a learned voice for pen-and-ink and a halfpenny sheet of paper, on which he drew up the testament while resting it in a little space wiped with his hand on the table amid the liquid circles formed by the cups and glasses. An idea implanted early in life is difficult to uproot, and many elderly tradespeople still clung to the notion that Fred Beaucock knew a great deal of law.
But once a week, he automatically went to the market as usual, and one day as he was passing by the conduit, his state of mind evident in his walk, he heard someone call his name with a familiar voice. He turned and saw Fred Beaucock—a former promising lawyer’s clerk and local dandy, once touted as the smartest guy in Sherton, whose brains were essential to the law firm that had employed him. However, Beaucock later fell into trouble. He socialized a lot, sang at agricultural meetings and town dinners, and essentially drank more than was good for his sharp mind or health. He lost his job and, after trying his luck somewhere else, returned to his hometown, where, during the events mentioned in Hintock, he offered legal advice for surprisingly low fees—mostly conducting his business on pub benches, where he could often be overheard writing up locals’ wills for just a couple of shillings. He would call out with an authoritative tone for pen and ink and a halfpenny sheet of paper, preparing the documents on a small section of the table cleaned off by his hand, surrounded by the rings left by cups and glasses. An idea lodged in early life is hard to shake, and many older shopkeepers still believed that Fred Beaucock knew a lot about the law.
It was he who had called Melbury by name. “You look very down, Mr. Melbury—very, if I may say as much,” he observed, when the timber-merchant turned. “But I know—I know. A very sad case—very. I was bred to the law, as you know, and am professionally no stranger to such matters. Well, Mrs. Fitzpiers has her remedy.”
It was he who had called Melbury by name. “You look really down, Mr. Melbury—really, if I may say so,” he noted when the timber merchant turned. “But I get it—I understand. A very sad situation—very. I was trained in law, as you know, and I'm not unfamiliar with these kinds of issues. Well, Mrs. Fitzpiers has her solution.”
“How—what—a remedy?” said Melbury.
“How—what—a solution?” said Melbury.
“Under the new law, sir. A new court was established last year, and under the new statute, twenty and twenty-one Vic., cap. eighty-five, unmarrying is as easy as marrying. No more Acts of Parliament necessary; no longer one law for the rich and another for the poor. But come inside—I was just going to have a nibleykin of rum hot—I’ll explain it all to you.”
“Under the new law, sir. A new court was set up last year, and according to the new statute, twenty and twenty-one Vic., cap. eighty-five, getting unmarried is as straightforward as getting married. No more Acts of Parliament needed; there's no longer one law for the rich and another for the poor. But come inside—I was just about to have a small drink of hot rum—I’ll explain everything to you.”
The intelligence amazed Melbury, who saw little of newspapers. And though he was a severely correct man in his habits, and had no taste for entering a tavern with Fred Beaucock—nay, would have been quite uninfluenced by such a character on any other matter in the world—such fascination lay in the idea of delivering his poor girl from bondage, that it deprived him of the critical faculty. He could not resist the ex-lawyer’s clerk, and entered the inn.
The intelligence stunned Melbury, who rarely read newspapers. And even though he was very strict about his habits and had no interest in going to a bar with Fred Beaucock— in fact, he would have been completely unaffected by such a character in any other situation— the thought of freeing his poor daughter from a difficult situation was so compelling that it clouded his judgment. He couldn't resist the former lawyer’s clerk and stepped into the inn.
Here they sat down to the rum, which Melbury paid for as a matter of course, Beaucock leaning back in the settle with a legal gravity which would hardly allow him to be conscious of the spirits before him, though they nevertheless disappeared with mysterious quickness.
Here they sat down to the rum, which Melbury paid for as a matter of course, Beaucock leaning back in the seat with a serious demeanor that barely let him notice the drinks in front of him, even though they vanished with surprising speed.
How much of the exaggerated information on the then new divorce laws which Beaucock imparted to his listener was the result of ignorance, and how much of dupery, was never ascertained. But he related such a plausible story of the ease with which Grace could become a free woman that her father was irradiated with the project; and though he scarcely wetted his lips, Melbury never knew how he came out of the inn, or when or where he mounted his gig to pursue his way homeward. But home he found himself, his brain having all the way seemed to ring sonorously as a gong in the intensity of its stir. Before he had seen Grace, he was accidentally met by Winterborne, who found his face shining as if he had, like the Law-giver, conversed with an angel.
How much of the exaggerated information about the new divorce laws that Beaucock shared with his listener came from ignorance and how much was deceit, was never determined. But he told such a convincing story about how easily Grace could become a free woman that her father was excited about the idea; and although he barely touched his drink, Melbury never realized how he left the inn, or when or where he got into his coach to head home. But home he found himself, with his mind seeming to resonate like a gong from the intensity of his thoughts. Before he saw Grace, he ran into Winterborne, who noticed that his face was glowing as if he had, like the Law-giver, spoken with an angel.
He relinquished his horse, and took Winterborne by the arm to a heap of rendlewood—as barked oak was here called—which lay under a privet-hedge.
He gave up his horse and took Winterborne by the arm to a pile of rendlewood—what they called barked oak here—which was lying under a privet hedge.
“Giles,” he said, when they had sat down upon the logs, “there’s a new law in the land! Grace can be free quite easily. I only knew it by the merest accident. I might not have found it out for the next ten years. She can get rid of him—d’ye hear?—get rid of him. Think of that, my friend Giles!”
“Giles,” he said, when they had settled down on the logs, “there’s a new law in the land! Grace can be free pretty easily. I only found out by pure chance. I might not have discovered it for another ten years. She can get away from him—do you hear?—get away from him. Think about that, my friend Giles!”
He related what he had learned of the new legal remedy. A subdued tremulousness about the mouth was all the response that Winterborne made; and Melbury added, “My boy, you shall have her yet—if you want her.” His feelings had gathered volume as he said this, and the articulate sound of the old idea drowned his sight in mist.
He shared what he had learned about the new legal remedy. Winterborne only responded with a slight quiver around his mouth; then Melbury added, “My boy, you will have her—if you want her.” His emotions grew stronger as he said this, and the clear expression of the old thought blurred his vision.
“Are you sure—about this new law?” asked Winterborne, so disquieted by a gigantic exultation which loomed alternately with fearful doubt that he evaded the full acceptance of Melbury’s last statement.
“Are you sure—about this new law?” Winterborne asked, feeling a huge wave of excitement mixed with fear and doubt that kept him from fully accepting Melbury’s last statement.
Melbury said that he had no manner of doubt, for since his talk with Beaucock it had come into his mind that he had seen some time ago in the weekly paper an allusion to such a legal change; but, having no interest in those desperate remedies at the moment, he had passed it over. “But I’m not going to let the matter rest doubtful for a single day,” he continued. “I am going to London. Beaucock will go with me, and we shall get the best advice as soon as we possibly can. Beaucock is a thorough lawyer—nothing the matter with him but a fiery palate. I knew him as the stay and refuge of Sherton in knots of law at one time.”
Melbury said he had no doubt at all. Ever since his conversation with Beaucock, he remembered seeing a mention of a legal change in a weekly paper some time ago. However, since he wasn't interested in those extreme solutions at the time, he had overlooked it. “But I’m not going to leave this uncertain for even a day,” he continued. “I’m heading to London. Beaucock will come with me, and we’ll get the best advice as soon as we can. Beaucock is a solid lawyer—nothing wrong with him except he has a fiery palate. I knew him as the go-to person for Sherton when things got complicated legally at one point.”
Winterborne’s replies were of the vaguest. The new possibility was almost unthinkable by him at the moment. He was what was called at Hintock “a solid-going fellow;” he maintained his abeyant mood, not from want of reciprocity, but from a taciturn hesitancy, taught by life as he knew it.
Winterborne’s responses were pretty vague. The new possibility almost felt unimaginable to him at that moment. He was what people in Hintock called “a solid guy;” he kept up his reserved mood, not because he didn't want to engage, but because of a silent uncertainty, shaped by the life he had experienced.
“But,” continued the timber-merchant, a temporary crease or two of anxiety supplementing those already established in his forehead by time and care, “Grace is not at all well. Nothing constitutional, you know; but she has been in a low, nervous state ever since that night of fright. I don’t doubt but that she will be all right soon....I wonder how she is this evening?” He rose with the words, as if he had too long forgotten her personality in the excitement of her previsioned career.
“But,” the timber merchant continued, a few new lines of worry adding to the ones already etched on his forehead by age and stress, “Grace isn’t doing well at all. It’s nothing serious, you know; but she’s been really anxious and on edge ever since that scary night. I believe she’ll be fine soon... I wonder how she’s doing this evening?” He got up as he spoke, as if he had been neglecting her presence in the excitement of her anticipated future.
They had sat till the evening was beginning to dye the garden brown, and now went towards Melbury’s house, Giles a few steps in the rear of his old friend, who was stimulated by the enthusiasm of the moment to outstep the ordinary walking of Winterborne. He felt shy of entering Grace’s presence as her reconstituted lover—which was how her father’s manner would be sure to present him—before definite information as to her future state was forthcoming; it seemed too nearly like the act of those who rush in where angels fear to tread.
They had been sitting until the evening started to turn the garden brown, and now they walked toward Melbury’s house, with Giles a few steps behind his old friend, who was energized by the moment to walk faster than usual. He felt awkward about entering Grace’s presence as her reformed lover—which was how her father would definitely see him—before he had clear information about her future; it felt too much like what those people do who rush in where angels fear to tread.
A chill to counterbalance all the glowing promise of the day was prompt enough in coming. No sooner had he followed the timber-merchant in at the door than he heard Grammer inform him that Mrs. Fitzpiers was still more unwell than she had been in the morning. Old Dr. Jones being in the neighborhood they had called him in, and he had instantly directed them to get her to bed. They were not, however, to consider her illness serious—a feverish, nervous attack the result of recent events, was what she was suffering from, and she would doubtless be well in a few days.
A chill to balance out all the bright promise of the day arrived quickly. As soon as he followed the timber merchant through the door, he heard Grammer tell him that Mrs. Fitzpiers was even more unwell than she had been in the morning. Since Old Dr. Jones was nearby, they had called him in, and he immediately advised them to get her to bed. However, they shouldn’t view her illness as serious—a feverish, nervous reaction from recent events was what she was going through, and she would likely be fine in a few days.
Winterborne, therefore, did not remain, and his hope of seeing her that evening was disappointed. Even this aggravation of her morning condition did not greatly depress Melbury. He knew, he said, that his daughter’s constitution was sound enough. It was only these domestic troubles that were pulling her down. Once free she would be blooming again. Melbury diagnosed rightly, as parents usually do.
Winterborne, therefore, didn’t stay, and his hope of seeing her that evening was dashed. Even this worsening of her morning condition didn’t overly upset Melbury. He knew, he said, that his daughter’s health was solid enough. It was just these family issues that were bringing her down. Once she was free from them, she would be bright and lively again. Melbury was right in his assessment, as parents often are.
He set out for London the next morning, Jones having paid another visit and assured him that he might leave home without uneasiness, especially on an errand of that sort, which would the sooner put an end to her suspense.
He left for London the next morning after Jones had paid another visit and assured him that he could leave home without worry, especially on a mission like this, which would help end her uncertainty sooner.
The timber-merchant had been away only a day or two when it was told in Hintock that Mr. Fitzpiers’s hat had been found in the wood. Later on in the afternoon the hat was brought to Melbury, and, by a piece of ill-fortune, into Grace’s presence. It had doubtless lain in the wood ever since his fall from the horse, but it looked so clean and uninjured—the summer weather and leafy shelter having much favored its preservation—that Grace could not believe it had remained so long concealed. A very little of fact was enough to set her fevered fancy at work at this juncture; she thought him still in the neighborhood; she feared his sudden appearance; and her nervous malady developed consequences so grave that Dr. Jones began to look serious, and the household was alarmed.
The timber merchant had been gone only a day or two when it was reported in Hintock that Mr. Fitzpiers's hat had been found in the woods. Later that afternoon, the hat was brought to Melbury, and, by some bad luck, into Grace's view. It had likely been lying in the woods ever since his fall from the horse, but it looked so clean and undamaged—the summer weather and leafy cover had helped keep it safe—that Grace couldn't believe it had been hidden for so long. Just a little bit of information was enough to set her anxious mind racing; she thought he was still nearby, she worried about his sudden return, and her anxiety worsened to the point that Dr. Jones started to look concerned, and the household became worried.
It was the beginning of June, and the cuckoo at this time of the summer scarcely ceased his cry for more than two or three hours during the night. The bird’s note, so familiar to her ears from infancy, was now absolute torture to the poor girl. On the Friday following the Wednesday of Melbury’s departure, and the day after the discovery of Fitzpiers’s hat, the cuckoo began at two o’clock in the morning with a sudden cry from one of Melbury’s apple-trees, not three yards from the window of Grace’s room.
It was early June, and the cuckoo hardly stopped its call for more than two or three hours during the night. The sound, which had been so familiar to her ears since childhood, was now absolute torture for the poor girl. On the Friday after Melbury left on Wednesday, and the day after finding Fitzpiers’s hat, the cuckoo started at two in the morning with a sudden call from one of Melbury's apple trees, just three yards from Grace’s window.
“Oh, he is coming!” she cried, and in her terror sprang clean from the bed out upon the floor.
“Oh, he’s coming!” she yelled, and in her panic, jumped straight off the bed onto the floor.
These starts and frights continued till noon; and when the doctor had arrived and had seen her, and had talked with Mrs. Melbury, he sat down and meditated. That ever-present terror it was indispensable to remove from her mind at all hazards; and he thought how this might be done.
These starts and scares went on until noon; when the doctor arrived, saw her, and spoke with Mrs. Melbury, he took a seat and thought deeply. It was crucial to remove that constant fear from her mind at all costs, and he considered how this could be achieved.
Without saying a word to anybody in the house, or to the disquieted Winterborne waiting in the lane below, Dr. Jones went home and wrote to Mr. Melbury at the London address he had obtained from his wife. The gist of his communication was that Mrs. Fitzpiers should be assured as soon as possible that steps were being taken to sever the bond which was becoming a torture to her; that she would soon be free, and was even then virtually so. “If you can say it at once it may be the means of averting much harm,” he said. “Write to herself; not to me.”
Without saying a word to anyone in the house or to the anxious Winterborne waiting in the lane below, Dr. Jones went home and wrote to Mr. Melbury at the London address he had gotten from his wife. The main point of his message was that Mrs. Fitzpiers should be reassured as soon as possible that steps were being taken to end the bond that was becoming a torture for her; that she would soon be free and was already essentially so. “If you can say it right away, it could help prevent a lot of harm,” he said. “Write to her directly; not to me.”
On Saturday he drove over to Hintock, and assured her with mysterious pacifications that in a day or two she might expect to receive some assuring news. So it turned out. When Sunday morning came there was a letter for Grace from her father. It arrived at seven o’clock, the usual time at which the toddling postman passed by Hintock; at eight Grace awoke, having slept an hour or two for a wonder, and Mrs. Melbury brought up the letter.
On Saturday, he drove over to Hintock and assured her with vague comforts that she could expect some good news in a day or two. And that's exactly what happened. When Sunday morning came, Grace received a letter from her father. It arrived at seven o’clock, the usual time the little postman passed by Hintock; at eight, Grace woke up, having surprisingly slept for a little while, and Mrs. Melbury brought her the letter.
“Can you open it yourself?” said she.
“Can you open it by yourself?” she asked.
“Oh yes, yes!” said Grace, with feeble impatience. She tore the envelope, unfolded the sheet, and read; when a creeping blush tinctured her white neck and cheek.
“Oh yes, yes!” said Grace, with weak impatience. She ripped open the envelope, unfolded the sheet, and read; a creeping blush spread across her pale neck and cheek.
Her father had exercised a bold discretion. He informed her that she need have no further concern about Fitzpiers’s return; that she would shortly be a free woman; and therefore, if she should desire to wed her old lover—which he trusted was the case, since it was his own deep wish—she would be in a position to do so. In this Melbury had not written beyond his belief. But he very much stretched the facts in adding that the legal formalities for dissolving her union were practically settled. The truth was that on the arrival of the doctor’s letter poor Melbury had been much agitated, and could with difficulty be prevented by Beaucock from returning to her bedside. What was the use of his rushing back to Hintock? Beaucock had asked him. The only thing that could do her any good was a breaking of the bond. Though he had not as yet had an interview with the eminent solicitor they were about to consult, he was on the point of seeing him; and the case was clear enough. Thus the simple Melbury, urged by his parental alarm at her danger by the representations of his companion, and by the doctor’s letter, had yielded, and sat down to tell her roundly that she was virtually free.
Her father had made a bold choice. He told her that she didn’t need to worry anymore about Fitzpiers coming back; she would soon be a free woman. So, if she wanted to marry her old love—which he hoped she did, since it was his heartfelt wish—she would be able to do so. Melbury wasn't lying beyond his belief, but he definitely exaggerated when he added that the legal steps to end her marriage were practically settled. The truth was that when the doctor’s letter arrived, poor Melbury was very upset and could barely be stopped by Beaucock from rushing back to her side. What would be the point of him hurrying back to Hintock? Beaucock had asked him. The only thing that could help her was breaking the bond. Even though he hadn’t yet met with the well-known lawyer they were about to consult, he was set to see him soon; the case was pretty clear. So, the naive Melbury, driven by his parental worry for her well-being and the doctor’s letter, had given in and sat down to tell her straight that she was essentially free.
“And you’d better write also to the gentleman,” suggested Beaucock, who, scenting notoriety and the germ of a large practice in the case, wished to commit Melbury to it irretrievably; to effect which he knew that nothing would be so potent as awakening the passion of Grace for Winterborne, so that her father might not have the heart to withdraw from his attempt to make her love legitimate when he discovered that there were difficulties in the way.
“And you should definitely write to the gentleman too,” suggested Beaucock, who, sensing potential fame and the start of a significant practice in the case, wanted to tie Melbury to it for good; he knew that nothing would be as effective as stirring Grace's feelings for Winterborne, so her father wouldn't have the heart to back out of his effort to legitimate her love when he found out there were obstacles in the way.
The nervous, impatient Melbury was much pleased with the idea of “starting them at once,” as he called it. To put his long-delayed reparative scheme in train had become a passion with him now. He added to the letter addressed to his daughter a passage hinting that she ought to begin to encourage Winterborne, lest she should lose him altogether; and he wrote to Giles that the path was virtually open for him at last. Life was short, he declared; there were slips betwixt the cup and the lip; her interest in him should be reawakened at once, that all might be ready when the good time came for uniting them.
The anxious, restless Melbury was really excited about the idea of “starting them right away,” as he put it. Putting his long-postponed plan into action had become a passion for him now. He added a note to the letter he was sending to his daughter, suggesting that she should start encouraging Winterborne, or she might lose him completely; and he wrote to Giles that the way was finally clear for him. Life is short, he declared; there are often missed opportunities; her interest in him should be sparked again immediately, so everything would be ready when the right moment came for bringing them together.
CHAPTER XXXVIII.
At these warm words Winterborne was not less dazed than he was moved in heart. The novelty of the avowal rendered what it carried with it inapprehensible by him in its entirety.
At these kind words, Winterborne felt just as confused as he was touched in his heart. The surprise of the confession made it impossible for him to fully grasp what it all meant.
Only a few short months ago completely estranged from this family—beholding Grace going to and fro in the distance, clothed with the alienating radiance of obvious superiority, the wife of the then popular and fashionable Fitzpiers, hopelessly outside his social boundary down to so recent a time that flowers then folded were hardly faded yet—he was now asked by that jealously guarding father of hers to take courage—to get himself ready for the day when he should be able to claim her.
Only a few short months ago, he had been completely separated from this family—watching Grace move back and forth in the distance, shining with the clear glow of obvious superiority, the wife of the then popular and stylish Fitzpiers, hopelessly outside his social circle until so recently that the flowers he had given her were hardly wilted yet—now he was being encouraged by her protective father to have courage—to prepare for the day when he could claim her as his own.
The old times came back to him in dim procession. How he had been snubbed; how Melbury had despised his Christmas party; how that sweet, coy Grace herself had looked down upon him and his household arrangements, and poor Creedle’s contrivances!
The old times came back to him in a blurry memory. How he had been snubbed; how Melbury had looked down on his Christmas party; how that sweet, shy Grace herself had dismissed him and his home setup, and poor Creedle’s attempts!
Well, he could not believe it. Surely the adamantine barrier of marriage with another could not be pierced like this! It did violence to custom. Yet a new law might do anything. But was it at all within the bounds of probability that a woman who, over and above her own attainments, had been accustomed to those of a cultivated professional man, could ever be the wife of such as he?
Well, he couldn’t believe it. Surely the unbreakable bond of marriage with someone else couldn’t be breached like this! It went against tradition. Yet a new law could change everything. But was it even possible that a woman who, in addition to her own accomplishments, had been used to those of a cultured professional man, could ever be the wife of someone like him?
Since the date of his rejection he had almost grown to see the reasonableness of that treatment. He had said to himself again and again that her father was right; that the poor ceorl, Giles Winterborne, would never have been able to make such a dainty girl happy. Yet, now that she had stood in a position farther removed from his own than at first, he was asked to prepare to woo her. He was full of doubt.
Since the day he was rejected, he had almost come to see why that treatment was fair. He kept telling himself that her father was right; that the poor peasant, Giles Winterborne, would never have been able to make such a delicate girl happy. Yet now, with her being in a position so much higher than his, he was expected to get ready to court her. He was filled with uncertainty.
Nevertheless, it was not in him to show backwardness. To act so promptly as Melbury desired him to act seemed, indeed, scarcely wise, because of the uncertainty of events. Giles knew nothing of legal procedure, but he did know that for him to step up to Grace as a lover before the bond which bound her was actually dissolved was simply an extravagant dream of her father’s overstrained mind. He pitied Melbury for his almost childish enthusiasm, and saw that the aging man must have suffered acutely to be weakened to this unreasoning desire.
Nevertheless, he wasn't the type to hold back. Acting as quickly as Melbury wanted him to didn't seem very wise, given the uncertainty of things. Giles didn't know much about legal processes, but he understood that approaching Grace as a suitor before her current engagement was officially over was just an unrealistic hope from her father’s overly stressed mind. He felt sorry for Melbury and his almost childlike excitement, realizing that the older man must have gone through a lot to feel this intense, irrational longing.
Winterborne was far too magnanimous to harbor any cynical conjecture that the timber-merchant, in his intense affection for Grace, was courting him now because that young lady, when disunited, would be left in an anomalous position, to escape which a bad husband was better than none. He felt quite sure that his old friend was simply on tenterhooks of anxiety to repair the almost irreparable error of dividing two whom Nature had striven to join together in earlier days, and that in his ardor to do this he was oblivious of formalities. The cautious supervision of his past years had overleaped itself at last. Hence, Winterborne perceived that, in this new beginning, the necessary care not to compromise Grace by too early advances must be exercised by himself.
Winterborne was far too generous to entertain any cynical thoughts that the timber merchant, in his deep affection for Grace, was now trying to win him over because that young woman, if left alone, would find herself in a difficult situation, where a bad husband seemed better than none at all. He was confident that his old friend was simply on edge, anxious to fix the almost irreparable mistake of separating two people whom fate had tried to bring together in the past, and that in his eagerness to do this, he was unaware of social niceties. The careful control he had maintained over the years had finally broken down. As a result, Winterborne realized that in this new phase, he would need to be the one to ensure that he didn’t compromise Grace by making any premature moves.
Perhaps Winterborne was not quite so ardent as heretofore. There is no such thing as a stationary love: men are either loving more or loving less. But Giles himself recognized no decline in his sense of her dearness. If the flame did indeed burn lower now than when he had fetched her from Sherton at her last return from school, the marvel was small. He had been laboring ever since his rejection and her marriage to reduce his former passion to a docile friendship, out of pure regard to its expediency; and their separation may have helped him to a partial success.
Perhaps Winterborne wasn't quite as passionate as before. Love is never stagnant: people either feel more love or less. But Giles himself didn't notice any decrease in how much he cherished her. If the intensity had indeed lessened since he brought her back from Sherton after her last trip from school, it wasn't surprising. Ever since his rejection and her marriage, he had been trying to transform his intense feelings into a manageable friendship, purely for practical reasons; and their time apart may have contributed to his partial success.
A week and more passed, and there was no further news of Melbury. But the effect of the intelligence he had already transmitted upon the elastic-nerved daughter of the woods had been much what the old surgeon Jones had surmised. It had soothed her perturbed spirit better than all the opiates in the pharmacopoeia. She had slept unbrokenly a whole night and a day. The “new law” was to her a mysterious, beneficent, godlike entity, lately descended upon earth, that would make her as she once had been without trouble or annoyance. Her position fretted her, its abstract features rousing an aversion which was even greater than her aversion to the personality of him who had caused it. It was mortifying, productive of slights, undignified. Him she could forget; her circumstances she had always with her.
A week and more went by, and there was no more news about Melbury. But the impact of the information he had already shared on the strong-willed daughter of the woods was much like what the old surgeon Jones had predicted. It had calmed her restless spirit better than any drugs in the medical handbook. She had slept soundly for an entire night and day. The “new law” seemed to her like a mysterious, kind, godlike force that had recently come to earth, ready to restore her to who she used to be without any hassle or worry. Her situation bothered her, its abstract qualities causing a dislike that was even stronger than her dislike for the person who had created it. It was humiliating, leading to indignities, and felt undignified. She could forget him; her circumstances were always right there with her.
She saw nothing of Winterborne during the days of her recovery; and perhaps on that account her fancy wove about him a more romantic tissue than it could have done if he had stood before her with all the specks and flaws inseparable from corporeity. He rose upon her memory as the fruit-god and the wood-god in alternation; sometimes leafy, and smeared with green lichen, as she had seen him among the sappy boughs of the plantations; sometimes cider-stained, and with apple-pips in the hair of his arms, as she had met him on his return from cider-making in White Hart Vale, with his vats and presses beside him. In her secret heart she almost approximated to her father’s enthusiasm in wishing to show Giles once for all how she still regarded him. The question whether the future would indeed bring them together for life was a standing wonder with her. She knew that it could not with any propriety do so just yet. But reverently believing in her father’s sound judgment and knowledge, as good girls are wont to do, she remembered what he had written about her giving a hint to Winterborne lest there should be risk in delay, and her feelings were not averse to such a step, so far as it could be done without danger at this early stage of the proceedings.
She didn’t see Winterborne at all during her recovery, and maybe because of that, her imagination created a more romantic image of him than it would have if he had been right in front of her, flaws and all. He appeared in her mind like a god of fruit and a god of the woods; sometimes leafy and covered in green lichen, just like she had seen him among the juicy branches of the trees; at other times cider-stained and with apple seeds in the hair on his arms, like when she’d run into him after he had been making cider in White Hart Vale, with his vats and presses nearby. In her heart, she was almost as enthusiastic as her father about wanting to show Giles how she still felt about him. She often wondered if they would actually end up together for life. She knew it wasn’t appropriate for that to happen just yet. But, believing firmly in her father’s good judgment, as good girls often do, she recalled what he had written about hinting to Winterborne so there wouldn’t be any risk in waiting too long, and she was open to the idea, as long as it could be done safely at this early point in the process.
From being a frail phantom of her former equable self she returned in bounds to a condition of passable philosophy. She bloomed again in the face in the course of a few days, and was well enough to go about as usual. One day Mrs. Melbury proposed that for a change she should be driven in the gig to Sherton market, whither Melbury’s man was going on other errands. Grace had no business whatever in Sherton; but it crossed her mind that Winterborne would probably be there, and this made the thought of such a drive interesting.
From being a weak shadow of her former calm self, she quickly bounced back to a state of reasonable philosophy. She regained her bloom within a few days and felt well enough to go about her routine. One day, Mrs. Melbury suggested that, for a change, she be driven in the cart to Sherton market, where Melbury's employee would be going for other errands. Grace had no real reason to be in Sherton, but it occurred to her that Winterborne would likely be there, which made the idea of the drive appealing.
On the way she saw nothing of him; but when the horse was walking slowly through the obstructions of Sheep Street, she discerned the young man on the pavement. She thought of that time when he had been standing under his apple-tree on her return from school, and of the tender opportunity then missed through her fastidiousness. Her heart rose in her throat. She abjured all such fastidiousness now. Nor did she forget the last occasion on which she had beheld him in that town, making cider in the court-yard of the Earl of Wessex Hotel, while she was figuring as a fine lady in the balcony above.
On her way, she didn’t see him; but when the horse was moving slowly down Sheep Street, she spotted the young man on the sidewalk. She remembered the time he had stood under his apple tree when she was coming home from school, and how she had missed that chance because she was too picky. Her heart felt tight in her throat. She rejected all that pickiness now. She also thought about the last time she had seen him in town, making cider in the courtyard of the Earl of Wessex Hotel, while she was up in the balcony looking like a fancy lady.
Grace directed the man to set her down there in the midst, and immediately went up to her lover. Giles had not before observed her, and his eyes now suppressedly looked his pleasure, without the embarrassment that had formerly marked him at such meetings.
Grace directed the man to put her down right there in the middle and immediately walked up to her boyfriend. Giles hadn’t noticed her before, and now his eyes quietly showed his happiness, without the awkwardness he used to feel at these encounters.
When a few words had been spoken, she said, archly, “I have nothing to do. Perhaps you are deeply engaged?”
When a few words were exchanged, she said playfully, “I have nothing going on. Maybe you’re really busy?”
“I? Not a bit. My business now at the best of times is small, I am sorry to say.”
“I? Not at all. My business, even at its best, is quite small, I’m sorry to say.”
“Well, then, I am going into the Abbey. Come along with me.”
"Alright, I'm going to the Abbey. Come with me."
The proposition had suggested itself as a quick escape from publicity, for many eyes were regarding her. She had hoped that sufficient time had elapsed for the extinction of curiosity; but it was quite otherwise. The people looked at her with tender interest as the deserted girl-wife—without obtrusiveness, and without vulgarity; but she was ill prepared for scrutiny in any shape.
The idea had come up as a quick way to avoid attention, since many people were watching her. She had hoped enough time had passed for curiosity to fade; but it was quite the opposite. The crowd looked at her with genuine concern as the abandoned girl-wife—without being nosy or rude; but she wasn't ready for any kind of scrutiny.
They walked about the Abbey aisles, and presently sat down. Not a soul was in the building save themselves. She regarded a stained window, with her head sideways, and tentatively asked him if he remembered the last time they were in that town alone.
They walked around the Abbey aisles and eventually sat down. No one else was in the building except for them. She looked at a stained glass window, tilting her head, and cautiously asked him if he remembered the last time they were in that town alone.
He remembered it perfectly, and remarked, “You were a proud miss then, and as dainty as you were high. Perhaps you are now?”
He remembered it clearly and said, “You were such a proud young lady back then, as delicate as you were tall. Are you still like that now?”
Grace slowly shook her head. “Affliction has taken all that out of me,” she answered, impressively. “Perhaps I am too far the other way now.” As there was something lurking in this that she could not explain, she added, so quickly as not to allow him time to think of it, “Has my father written to you at all?”
Grace slowly shook her head. “Suffering has taken all of that out of me,” she replied, with emphasis. “Maybe I’ve gone too far in the opposite direction now.” Since there was something hidden in this that she couldn’t explain, she quickly added, not giving him a chance to think about it, “Has my dad written to you at all?”
“Yes,” said Winterborne.
“Yes,” Winterborne replied.
She glanced ponderingly up at him. “Not about me?”
She looked up at him thoughtfully. “Not about me?”
“Yes.”
"Yep."
His mouth was lined with charactery which told her that he had been bidden to take the hint as to the future which she had been bidden to give. The unexpected discovery sent a scarlet pulsation through Grace for the moment. However, it was only Giles who stood there, of whom she had no fear; and her self-possession returned.
His mouth showed signs that indicated he had been instructed to take the hint about the future she had been asked to provide. The unexpected realization sent a rush of heat through Grace for a moment. However, it was only Giles standing there, someone she had no reason to fear; and her composure came back.
“He said I was to sound you with a view to—what you will understand, if you care to,” continued Winterborne, in a low voice. Having been put on this track by herself, he was not disposed to abandon it in a hurry.
“He said I should check in with you about—what you’ll figure out if you want to,” Winterborne continued in a quiet voice. Since she had set him on this path, he wasn't ready to let it go easily.
They had been children together, and there was between them that familiarity as to personal affairs which only such acquaintanceship can give. “You know, Giles,” she answered, speaking in a very practical tone, “that that is all very well; but I am in a very anomalous position at present, and I cannot say anything to the point about such things as those.”
They had grown up together, and there was a level of comfort between them concerning personal matters that only such a long friendship could create. “You know, Giles,” she replied, speaking very practically, “that’s all well and good; but I’m in a really unusual situation right now, and I can’t say anything meaningful about those kinds of things.”
“No?” he said, with a stray air as regarded the subject. He was looking at her with a curious consciousness of discovery. He had not been imagining that their renewed intercourse would show her to him thus. For the first time he realized an unexpectedness in her, which, after all, should not have been unexpected. She before him was not the girl Grace Melbury whom he used to know. Of course, he might easily have prefigured as much; but it had never occurred to him. She was a woman who had been married; she had moved on; and without having lost her girlish modesty, she had lost her girlish shyness. The inevitable change, though known to him, had not been heeded; and it struck him into a momentary fixity. The truth was that he had never come into close comradeship with her since her engagement to Fitzpiers, with the brief exception of the evening encounter on Rubdown Hill, when she met him with his cider apparatus; and that interview had been of too cursory a kind for insight.
“No?” he said, sounding casual about the topic. He was looking at her with a sense of curiosity, as if he was discovering something new. He hadn’t expected their renewed interactions would reveal her to him like this. For the first time, he recognized something surprising in her that really shouldn’t have surprised him. She wasn’t the girl Grace Melbury he used to know. Of course, he could have imagined as much, but it had never crossed his mind. She was a woman who had been married; she had moved on; and while she hadn’t lost her youthful modesty, she had shed her youthful shyness. The inevitable change, though he was aware of it, had gone unnoticed by him, and it momentarily took him by surprise. The truth was, he hadn’t really been close with her since her engagement to Fitzpiers, except for that brief encounter one evening on Rubdown Hill when she had met him with his cider equipment; that meeting had been too brief for any real understanding.
Winterborne had advanced, too. He could criticise her. Times had been when to criticise a single trait in Grace Melbury would have lain as far beyond his powers as to criticise a deity. This thing was sure: it was a new woman in many ways whom he had come out to see; a creature of more ideas, more dignity, and, above all, more assurance, than the original Grace had been capable of. He could not at first decide whether he were pleased or displeased at this. But upon the whole the novelty attracted him.
Winterborne had moved forward, too. He could criticize her now. There had been times when criticizing even one aspect of Grace Melbury would have seemed as impossible as criticizing a god. One thing was certain: the woman he had come to see was different in many ways; she had more ideas, more dignity, and, above all, more confidence than the original Grace had ever shown. At first, he couldn't tell if he was happy or unhappy about this. But overall, the newness drew him in.
She was so sweet and sensitive that she feared his silence betokened something in his brain of the nature of an enemy to her. “What are you thinking of that makes those lines come in your forehead?” she asked. “I did not mean to offend you by speaking of the time being premature as yet.”
She was so sweet and sensitive that she worried his silence meant something bad was going on in his mind. “What are you thinking about that’s making those lines appear on your forehead?” she asked. “I didn’t mean to upset you by saying it’s too early to talk about this.”
Touched by the genuine loving-kindness which had lain at the foundation of these words, and much moved, Winterborne turned his face aside, as he took her by the hand. He was grieved that he had criticised her.
Touched by the genuine warmth that had underpinned these words, and feeling quite emotional, Winterborne turned his face away as he took her hand. He regretted having criticized her.
“You are very good, dear Grace,” he said, in a low voice. “You are better, much better, than you used to be.”
“You're really great, dear Grace,” he said in a quiet voice. “You're so much better, way better, than you used to be.”
“How?”
“How?”
He could not very well tell her how, and said, with an evasive smile, “You are prettier;” which was not what he really had meant. He then remained still holding her right hand in his own right, so that they faced in opposite ways; and as he did not let go, she ventured upon a tender remonstrance.
He couldn’t really explain how he felt, so he replied with a vague smile, “You’re prettier,” which wasn’t what he truly meant. He kept holding her right hand with his right, so they were facing different directions; and since he didn’t let go, she softly protested.
“I think we have gone as far as we ought to go at present—and far enough to satisfy my poor father that we are the same as ever. You see, Giles, my case is not settled yet, and if—Oh, suppose I never get free!—there should be any hitch or informality!”
“I think we’ve gone as far as we should for now—and far enough to reassure my poor dad that we’re the same as always. You see, Giles, my situation isn’t resolved yet, and if—Oh, what if I never get free!—there could be some problem or mistake!”
She drew a catching breath, and turned pale. The dialogue had been affectionate comedy up to this point. The gloomy atmosphere of the past, and the still gloomy horizon of the present, had been for the interval forgotten. Now the whole environment came back, the due balance of shade among the light was restored.
She took a deep breath and went pale. The conversation had been lighthearted and affectionate until now. The dark mood of the past and the still gloomy outlook of the present had momentarily been forgotten. Now, the entire atmosphere returned, and the balance of shadow and light was restored.
“It is sure to be all right, I trust?” she resumed, in uneasy accents. “What did my father say the solicitor had told him?”
“It’s going to be fine, right?” she continued, sounding anxious. “What did my dad say the lawyer told him?”
“Oh—that all is sure enough. The case is so clear—nothing could be clearer. But the legal part is not yet quite done and finished, as is natural.”
“Oh—that's definitely true. The situation is so obvious—nothing could be more obvious. But the legal aspect isn’t quite wrapped up yet, which is to be expected.”
“Oh no—of course not,” she said, sunk in meek thought. “But father said it was almost—did he not? Do you know anything about the new law that makes these things so easy?”
“Oh no—definitely not,” she said, lost in quiet thought. “But Dad said it was almost—didn’t he? Do you know anything about the new law that makes these things so easy?”
“Nothing—except the general fact that it enables ill-assorted husbands and wives to part in a way they could not formerly do without an Act of Parliament.”
“Nothing—except the basic fact that it allows mismatched husbands and wives to separate in a way they couldn’t before without going through an Act of Parliament.”
“Have you to sign a paper, or swear anything? Is it something like that?”
“Do you have to sign a paper or swear to anything? Is it something like that?”
“Yes, I believe so.”
"Yeah, I think so."
“How long has it been introduced?”
“How long has it been around?”
“About six months or a year, the lawyer said, I think.”
“About six months to a year, the lawyer said, I think.”
To hear these two poor Arcadian innocents talk of imperial law would have made a humane person weep who should have known what a dangerous structure they were building up on their supposed knowledge. They remained in thought, like children in the presence of the incomprehensible.
To listen to these two naive Arcadian innocents discuss imperial law would have made any compassionate person cry, knowing the precarious foundation they were creating based on their misguided understanding. They remained in their thinking, like kids faced with something they couldn't grasp.
“Giles,” she said, at last, “it makes me quite weary when I think how serious my situation is, or has been. Shall we not go out from here now, as it may seem rather fast of me—our being so long together, I mean—if anybody were to see us? I am almost sure,” she added, uncertainly, “that I ought not to let you hold my hand yet, knowing that the documents—or whatever it may be—have not been signed; so that I—am still as married as ever—or almost. My dear father has forgotten himself. Not that I feel morally bound to any one else, after what has taken place—no woman of spirit could—now, too, that several months have passed. But I wish to keep the proprieties as well as I can.”
“Giles,” she finally said, “I feel so tired when I think about how serious my situation is, or has been. Shouldn’t we leave this place now? It might seem a bit forward of me—since we’ve been together so long, I mean—if someone were to see us. I’m almost sure,” she added uncertainly, “that I shouldn’t let you hold my hand yet, knowing that the documents—or whatever it is—haven’t been signed; so I—am still basically married—or almost. My dear father has lost his way. Not that I feel morally obligated to anyone else after what’s happened—no woman with spirit could—especially now that several months have gone by. But I want to maintain the proper decorum as much as I can.”
“Yes, yes. Still, your father reminds us that life is short. I myself feel that it is; that is why I wished to understand you in this that we have begun. At times, dear Grace, since receiving your father’s letter, I am as uneasy and fearful as a child at what he said. If one of us were to die before the formal signing and sealing that is to release you have been done—if we should drop out of the world and never have made the most of this little, short, but real opportunity, I should think to myself as I sunk down dying, ‘Would to my God that I had spoken out my whole heart—given her one poor little kiss when I had the chance to give it! But I never did, although she had promised to be mine some day; and now I never can.’ That’s what I should think.”
“Yes, yes. Still, your father reminds us that life is short. I feel that way too; that’s why I wanted to understand you in this journey we've started. Sometimes, dear Grace, ever since I got your father’s letter, I feel as anxious and scared as a child about what he mentioned. If one of us were to die before we officially sign and seal the agreement that will set you free—if we should leave this world and never make the most of this little, short, but real opportunity, I would think to myself as I was dying, ‘I wish to God that I had fully expressed my feelings—given her one small kiss when I had the chance! But I never did, even though she promised to be mine someday; and now I can never do that.’ That’s what I would think.”
She had begun by watching the words from his lips with a mournful regard, as though their passage were visible; but as he went on she dropped her glance. “Yes,” she said, “I have thought that, too. And, because I have thought it, I by no means meant, in speaking of the proprieties, to be reserved and cold to you who loved me so long ago, or to hurt your heart as I used to do at that thoughtless time. Oh, not at all, indeed! But—ought I to allow you?—oh, it is too quick—surely!” Her eyes filled with tears of bewildered, alarmed emotion.
She started by watching the words coming from his lips with a sad look, as if she could see them as they flowed; but as he continued, she looked away. “Yes,” she said, “I’ve thought that, too. And since I’ve thought it, I definitely didn’t mean to be reserved and cold toward you, who loved me so long ago, or to hurt your heart like I did back then. Oh, not at all! But—should I let you?—oh, it’s too fast—surely!” Her eyes filled with tears of confusion and fear.
Winterborne was too straightforward to influence her further against her better judgment. “Yes—I suppose it is,” he said, repentantly. “I’ll wait till all is settled. What did your father say in that last letter?”
Winterborne was too honest to sway her any further against her better judgment. “Yeah—I guess it is,” he said, regretfully. “I’ll wait until everything is sorted out. What did your dad mention in that last letter?”
He meant about his progress with the petition; but she, mistaking him, frankly spoke of the personal part. “He said—what I have implied. Should I tell more plainly?”
He was referring to his progress with the petition, but she misunderstood him and openly talked about the personal aspect. “He said—what I’ve hinted at. Should I be more direct?”
“Oh no—don’t, if it is a secret.”
“Oh no—please don’t, if it’s a secret.”
“Not at all. I will tell every word, straight out, Giles, if you wish. He said I was to encourage you. There. But I cannot obey him further to-day. Come, let us go now.” She gently slid her hand from his, and went in front of him out of the Abbey.
“Not at all. I’ll tell you everything, straight up, Giles, if that’s what you want. He said I should encourage you. There. But I can’t follow his orders any more today. Come on, let’s go now.” She gently pulled her hand away from his and walked ahead of him out of the Abbey.
“I was thinking of getting some dinner,” said Winterborne, changing to the prosaic, as they walked. “And you, too, must require something. Do let me take you to a place I know.”
“I was thinking about getting some dinner,” said Winterborne, switching to a more straightforward topic as they walked. “And you probably need something too. Let me take you to a place I know.”
Grace was almost without a friend in the world outside her father’s house; her life with Fitzpiers had brought her no society; had sometimes, indeed, brought her deeper solitude and inconsideration than any she had ever known before. Hence it was a treat to her to find herself again the object of thoughtful care. But she questioned if to go publicly to dine with Giles Winterborne were not a proposal, due rather to his unsophistication than to his discretion. She said gently that she would much prefer his ordering her lunch at some place and then coming to tell her it was ready, while she remained in the Abbey porch. Giles saw her secret reasoning, thought how hopelessly blind to propriety he was beside her, and went to do as she wished.
Grace hardly had a friend outside her father’s house; her life with Fitzpiers had brought her no companionship and, at times, had even made her feel more isolated and disregarded than she had ever felt before. So, it was a pleasant surprise for her to find herself cared for again. However, she wondered if going out to dinner with Giles Winterborne was more a reflection of his naivety than his good judgment. She softly suggested that she would much rather he arrange a lunch for her somewhere and then come to let her know it was ready while she waited in the Abbey porch. Giles understood her unspoken thoughts, realized how completely oblivious he was to social norms in comparison to her, and went to do as she requested.
He was not absent more than ten minutes, and found Grace where he had left her. “It will be quite ready by the time you get there,” he said, and told her the name of the inn at which the meal had been ordered, which was one that she had never heard of.
He was gone for no more than ten minutes and found Grace where he had left her. “It’ll be ready by the time you get there,” he said, and told her the name of the inn where the meal had been ordered, which was one she had never heard of.
“I’ll find it by inquiry,” said Grace, setting out.
“I’ll find it by asking around,” said Grace, setting out.
“And shall I see you again?”
“And will I see you again?”
“Oh yes—come to me there. It will not be like going together. I shall want you to find my father’s man and the gig for me.”
“Oh yes—come to me there. It won’t be the same as going together. I’ll need you to find my father’s guy and the carriage for me.”
He waited on some ten minutes or a quarter of an hour, till he thought her lunch ended, and that he might fairly take advantage of her invitation to start her on her way home. He went straight to The Three Tuns—a little tavern in a side street, scrupulously clean, but humble and inexpensive. On his way he had an occasional misgiving as to whether the place had been elegant enough for her; and as soon as he entered it, and saw her ensconced there, he perceived that he had blundered.
He waited for about ten to fifteen minutes, until he figured her lunch was over, and thought he could take her up on her invitation to walk her home. He headed straight to The Three Tuns—a small pub on a side street, very clean but simple and affordable. On his way, he had some doubts about whether the place was nice enough for her; and as soon as he walked in and saw her settled there, he realized he had made a mistake.
Grace was seated in the only dining-room that the simple old hostelry could boast of, which was also a general parlor on market-days; a long, low apartment, with a sanded floor herring-boned with a broom; a wide, red-curtained window to the street, and another to the garden. Grace had retreated to the end of the room looking out upon the latter, the front part being full of a mixed company which had dropped in since he was there.
Grace was sitting in the only dining room that the simple, old inn had, which also served as a general lounge on market days. It was a long, low space with a sanded floor that had been swept into a herringbone pattern. There was a wide window with red curtains facing the street and another one looking out onto the garden. Grace had moved to the back of the room, gazing out at the garden, while the front area was filled with a mix of people who had come in since he arrived.
She was in a mood of the greatest depression. On arriving, and seeing what the tavern was like, she had been taken by surprise; but having gone too far to retreat, she had heroically entered and sat down on the well-scrubbed settle, opposite the narrow table with its knives and steel forks, tin pepper-boxes, blue salt-cellars, and posters advertising the sale of bullocks against the wall. The last time that she had taken any meal in a public place it had been with Fitzpiers at the grand new Earl of Wessex Hotel in that town, after a two months’ roaming and sojourning at the gigantic hotels of the Continent. How could she have expected any other kind of accommodation in present circumstances than such as Giles had provided? And yet how unprepared she was for this change! The tastes that she had acquired from Fitzpiers had been imbibed so subtly that she hardly knew she possessed them till confronted by this contrast. The elegant Fitzpiers, in fact, at that very moment owed a long bill at the above-mentioned hotel for the luxurious style in which he used to put her up there whenever they drove to Sherton. But such is social sentiment, that she had been quite comfortable under those debt-impending conditions, while she felt humiliated by her present situation, which Winterborne had paid for honestly on the nail.
She was feeling incredibly depressed. Upon arriving and seeing what the tavern was like, she was taken aback; but having gone too far to back out, she bravely entered and sat down on the well-cleaned bench across from the narrow table with its knives and steel forks, tin pepper shakers, blue salt cellars, and posters advertising the sale of cattle on the wall. The last time she had eaten in a public place was with Fitzpiers at the fancy new Earl of Wessex Hotel in that town, after spending two months traveling and staying in the massive hotels across Europe. How could she have expected any other type of accommodation in her current situation than what Giles had provided? Yet she was completely unprepared for this change! The tastes she had picked up from Fitzpiers had been absorbed so subtly that she barely realized she had them until faced with this contrast. The sophisticated Fitzpiers, at that very moment, owed a hefty bill at the previously mentioned hotel for the luxurious way he used to put her up whenever they went to Sherton. But such is societal sentiment that she had felt quite comfortable under those debt-laden conditions, while she felt humiliated by her current situation, which Winterborne had honestly paid for upfront.
He had noticed in a moment that she shrunk from her position, and all his pleasure was gone. It was the same susceptibility over again which had spoiled his Christmas party long ago.
He quickly realized that she had backed away from her position, and all his enjoyment vanished. It was the same sensitivity that had ruined his Christmas party a long time ago.
But he did not know that this recrudescence was only the casual result of Grace’s apprenticeship to what she was determined to learn in spite of it—a consequence of one of those sudden surprises which confront everybody bent upon turning over a new leaf. She had finished her lunch, which he saw had been a very mincing performance; and he brought her out of the house as soon as he could.
But he didn’t realize that this resurgence was just a random result of Grace’s determination to learn what she was set on, regardless of it—a consequence of one of those unexpected surprises that challenge anyone trying to start fresh. She had finished her lunch, which he noticed had been a very delicate affair; and he took her out of the house as soon as he could.
“Now,” he said, with great sad eyes, “you have not finished at all well, I know. Come round to the Earl of Wessex. I’ll order a tea there. I did not remember that what was good enough for me was not good enough for you.”
“Now,” he said, with big sad eyes, “I know you haven’t finished well at all. Come over to the Earl of Wessex. I’ll get us some tea there. I didn’t realize that what was good enough for me wasn’t good enough for you.”
Her face faded into an aspect of deep distress when she saw what had happened. “Oh no, Giles,” she said, with extreme pathos; “certainly not. Why do you—say that when you know better? You ever will misunderstand me.”
Her face turned to one of deep distress when she saw what happened. “Oh no, Giles,” she said, with great emotion; “certainly not. Why do you say that when you know better? You always misunderstand me.”
“Indeed, that’s not so, Mrs. Fitzpiers. Can you deny that you felt out of place at The Three Tuns?”
“Actually, that's not true, Mrs. Fitzpiers. Can you really say you didn't feel out of place at The Three Tuns?”
“I don’t know. Well, since you make me speak, I do not deny it.”
“I don’t know. Well, since you want me to talk, I won’t deny it.”
“And yet I have felt at home there these twenty years. Your husband used always to take you to the Earl of Wessex, did he not?”
“And yet I have felt at home there for the past twenty years. Your husband used to always take you to the Earl of Wessex, right?”
“Yes,” she reluctantly admitted. How could she explain in the street of a market-town that it was her superficial and transitory taste which had been offended, and not her nature or her affection? Fortunately, or unfortunately, at that moment they saw Melbury’s man driving vacantly along the street in search of her, the hour having passed at which he had been told to take her up. Winterborne hailed him, and she was powerless then to prolong the discourse. She entered the vehicle sadly, and the horse trotted away.
“Yes,” she said with hesitation. How could she explain in the busy market town that it was her shallow and fleeting tastes that had been hurt, not her character or her feelings? Luckily, or perhaps unluckily, at that moment they spotted Melbury’s man driving aimlessly down the street, looking for her, as the time had passed when he was supposed to pick her up. Winterborne called out to him, and she felt powerless to continue the conversation. She got into the carriage with a heavy heart, and the horse trotted off.
CHAPTER XXXIX.
All night did Winterborne think over that unsatisfactory ending of a pleasant time, forgetting the pleasant time itself. He feared anew that they could never be happy together, even should she be free to choose him. She was accomplished; he was unrefined. It was the original difficulty, which he was too sensitive to recklessly ignore, as some men would have done in his place.
All night, Winterborne thought about that disappointing ending to a nice time, forgetting about the nice time itself. He worried again that they could never be happy together, even if she were free to choose him. She was sophisticated; he was rough around the edges. It was the original challenge, which he was too sensitive to ignore recklessly, like some men would have done in his situation.
He was one of those silent, unobtrusive beings who want little from others in the way of favor or condescension, and perhaps on that very account scrutinize those others’ behavior too closely. He was not versatile, but one in whom a hope or belief which had once had its rise, meridian, and decline seldom again exactly recurred, as in the breasts of more sanguine mortals. He had once worshipped her, laid out his life to suit her, wooed her, and lost her. Though it was with almost the same zest, it was with not quite the same hope, that he had begun to tread the old tracks again, and allowed himself to be so charmed with her that day.
He was one of those quiet, unassuming people who ask for very little from others in terms of kindness or sympathy, and maybe because of that, he examined other people's actions too closely. He wasn't adaptable, but rather someone who found that a hope or belief that once had its rise, peak, and fall rarely came back the same way as it does for more optimistic people. He had once adored her, shaped his life around her, pursued her, and lost her. Even though he approached the familiar paths with almost the same enthusiasm, it wasn’t quite with the same hope, as he allowed himself to be captivated by her that day.
Move another step towards her he would not. He would even repulse her—as a tribute to conscience. It would be sheer sin to let her prepare a pitfall for her happiness not much smaller than the first by inveigling her into a union with such as he. Her poor father was now blind to these subtleties, which he had formerly beheld as in noontide light. It was his own duty to declare them—for her dear sake.
Move another step toward her, he would not. He would even push her away—as a nod to his conscience. It would be outright wrong to let her create a trap for her happiness, almost as bad as the first, by luring her into a relationship with someone like him. Her poor father was now unaware of these nuances, which he had previously seen clearly. It was his responsibility to point them out—for her sake.
Grace, too, had a very uncomfortable night, and her solicitous embarrassment was not lessened the next morning when another letter from her father was put into her hands. Its tenor was an intenser strain of the one that had preceded it. After stating how extremely glad he was to hear that she was better, and able to get out-of-doors, he went on:
Grace also had a really uncomfortable night, and her anxious embarrassment didn't fade the next morning when another letter from her father was handed to her. Its tone was even more intense than the previous one. After expressing how incredibly happy he was to hear that she was feeling better and able to go outside, he continued:
“This is a wearisome business, the solicitor we have come to see being out of town. I do not know when I shall get home. My great anxiety in this delay is still lest you should lose Giles Winterborne. I cannot rest at night for thinking that while our business is hanging fire he may become estranged, or go away from the neighborhood. I have set my heart upon seeing him your husband, if you ever have another. Do, then, Grace, give him some temporary encouragement, even though it is over-early. For when I consider the past I do think God will forgive me and you for being a little forward. I have another reason for this, my dear. I feel myself going rapidly downhill, and late affairs have still further helped me that way. And until this thing is done I cannot rest in peace.”
“This is a tiring situation, especially since the lawyer we came to see is out of town. I have no idea when I’ll get home. My biggest worry during this delay is that you might lose Giles Winterborne. I can’t sleep at night, thinking that while we’re waiting, he might become distant or leave the area. I’ve really set my heart on seeing him as your husband, if you ever marry again. So, please, Grace, give him some encouragement, even if it feels a bit premature. When I think about the past, I believe God will understand if we act a little boldly. I have another reason for this, my dear. I can feel myself declining quickly, and recent events have only worsened that. Until this is resolved, I can’t find any peace.”
He added a postscript:
He added a PS:
“I have just heard that the solicitor is to be seen to-morrow. Possibly, therefore, I shall return in the evening after you get this.”
“I just heard that the lawyer will be seen tomorrow. So, I might come back in the evening after you receive this.”
The paternal longing ran on all fours with her own desire; and yet in forwarding it yesterday she had been on the brink of giving offence. While craving to be a country girl again just as her father requested; to put off the old Eve, the fastidious miss—or rather madam—completely, her first attempt had been beaten by the unexpected vitality of that fastidiousness. Her father on returning and seeing the trifling coolness of Giles would be sure to say that the same perversity which had led her to make difficulties about marrying Fitzpiers was now prompting her to blow hot and cold with poor Winterborne.
The longing for her father matched her own desire perfectly; yet when she tried to express this yesterday, she almost ended up offending him. She wanted to go back to being a simple country girl just like her father had asked, to shed her sophisticated persona—or rather her overly critical self—completely. However, her first attempt was thwarted by the stubbornness of that sophisticated side. When her father returned and noticed the slight distance from Giles, he would surely think that the same stubbornness that made her hesitate about marrying Fitzpiers was now causing her to be inconsistent with poor Winterborne.
If the latter had been the most subtle hand at touching the stops of her delicate soul instead of one who had just bound himself to let her drift away from him again (if she would) on the wind of her estranging education, he could not have acted more seductively than he did that day. He chanced to be superintending some temporary work in a field opposite her windows. She could not discover what he was doing, but she read his mood keenly and truly: she could see in his coming and going an air of determined abandonment of the whole landscape that lay in her direction.
If the latter had been the most skilled at touching the depths of her delicate soul instead of someone who had just committed to letting her drift away from him again (if she wanted to) on the breeze of her isolating education, he couldn't have acted more alluringly than he did that day. He happened to be overseeing some temporary work in a field across from her windows. She couldn't figure out what he was doing, but she sensed his mood clearly and accurately: she could see in his movements an attitude of total disregard for the entire landscape that stretched in her direction.
Oh, how she longed to make it up with him! Her father coming in the evening—which meant, she supposed, that all formalities would be in train, her marriage virtually annulled, and she be free to be won again—how could she look him in the face if he should see them estranged thus?
Oh, how she wished to reconcile with him! Her dad was coming in the evening—which meant, she thought, that all the formalities would be in motion, her marriage practically canceled, and she would be free to be won over again—how could she face him if he saw them estranged like this?
It was a fair green evening in June. She was seated in the garden, in the rustic chair which stood under the laurel-bushes—made of peeled oak-branches that came to Melbury’s premises as refuse after barking-time. The mass of full-juiced leafage on the heights around her was just swayed into faint gestures by a nearly spent wind which, even in its enfeebled state, did not reach her shelter. All day she had expected Giles to call—to inquire how she had got home, or something or other; but he had not come. And he still tantalized her by going athwart and across that orchard opposite. She could see him as she sat.
It was a lovely green evening in June. She was sitting in the garden, in the rustic chair that was positioned under the laurel bushes—made from peeled oak branches that had arrived at Melbury’s place as leftover material after the bark was stripped. The dense foliage on the hills around her was slightly moved by a nearly exhausted wind that, even in its weakened state, didn’t reach her shelter. All day she had been waiting for Giles to stop by—to check how she had gotten home or something like that; but he hadn’t come. He still teased her by walking through and across that orchard across the way. She could see him as she sat there.
A slight diversion was presently created by Creedle bringing him a letter. She knew from this that Creedle had just come from Sherton, and had called as usual at the post-office for anything that had arrived by the afternoon post, of which there was no delivery at Hintock. She pondered on what the letter might contain—particularly whether it were a second refresher for Winterborne from her father, like her own of the morning.
A small distraction happened when Creedle brought him a letter. She realized from this that Creedle had just come from Sherton and had stopped by the post office as usual to check for anything that had arrived by the afternoon mail, which wasn’t delivered in Hintock. She wondered what the letter might say—especially if it was another message for Winterborne from her father, similar to the one she sent earlier that morning.
But it appeared to have no bearing upon herself whatever. Giles read its contents; and almost immediately turned away to a gap in the hedge of the orchard—if that could be called a hedge which, owing to the drippings of the trees, was little more than a bank with a bush upon it here and there. He entered the plantation, and was no doubt going that way homeward to the mysterious hut he occupied on the other side of the woodland.
But it seemed to have no effect on her at all. Giles read what it said and then quickly looked away toward a break in the orchard's hedge—if you could really call it a hedge since, thanks to the tree drippings, it was hardly more than a small bank with a bush here and there. He walked into the woods, likely heading home to the mysterious little hut he lived in on the other side of the trees.
The sad sands were running swiftly through Time’s glass; she had often felt it in these latter days; and, like Giles, she felt it doubly now after the solemn and pathetic reminder in her father’s communication. Her freshness would pass, the long-suffering devotion of Giles might suddenly end—might end that very hour. Men were so strange. The thought took away from her all her former reticence, and made her action bold. She started from her seat. If the little breach, quarrel, or whatever it might be called, of yesterday, was to be healed up it must be done by her on the instant. She crossed into the orchard, and clambered through the gap after Giles, just as he was diminishing to a faun-like figure under the green canopy and over the brown floor.
The sad sands were quickly slipping through Time’s hourglass; she had often felt it in these recent days, and like Giles, she felt it even more after the serious and touching reminder in her father’s message. Her youth would fade, and Giles's long-suffering devotion might suddenly come to an end—maybe even that very hour. Men were so unpredictable. The thought stripped away all her earlier hesitation and made her act boldly. She jumped up from her seat. If the little rift, argument, or whatever it was called, from yesterday was going to be mended, she had to do it right away. She moved into the orchard and climbed through the opening after Giles, just as he was becoming a faun-like figure beneath the green canopy and across the brown ground.
Grace had been wrong—very far wrong—in assuming that the letter had no reference to herself because Giles had turned away into the wood after its perusal. It was, sad to say, because the missive had so much reference to herself that he had thus turned away. He feared that his grieved discomfiture might be observed. The letter was from Beaucock, written a few hours later than Melbury’s to his daughter. It announced failure.
Grace had been mistaken—really mistaken—in believing that the letter had nothing to do with her just because Giles had walked into the woods after reading it. Unfortunately, it was precisely because the letter was so relevant to her that he had walked away. He was worried that his pain and embarrassment might be noticed. The letter was from Beaucock, written just a few hours after Melbury’s letter to his daughter. It announced failure.
Giles had once done that thriftless man a good turn, and now was the moment when Beaucock had chosen to remember it in his own way. During his absence in town with Melbury, the lawyer’s clerk had naturally heard a great deal of the timber-merchant’s family scheme of justice to Giles, and his communication was to inform Winterborne at the earliest possible moment that their attempt had failed, in order that the young man should not place himself in a false position towards Grace in the belief of its coming success. The news was, in sum, that Fitzpiers’s conduct had not been sufficiently cruel to Grace to enable her to snap the bond. She was apparently doomed to be his wife till the end of the chapter.
Giles had once helped that careless guy, and now was the moment Beaucock decided to bring it up in his own way. While he was away in town with Melbury, the lawyer’s clerk had naturally heard a lot about the timber-merchant’s family plan for justice against Giles, and he wanted to let Winterborne know as soon as possible that their attempt had failed. This way, the young man wouldn’t get the wrong idea about Grace, thinking everything was going to work out. The bottom line was that Fitzpiers’s actions hadn’t been cruel enough to Grace for her to break off the engagement. She seemed stuck being his wife until the end of the story.
Winterborne quite forgot his superficial differences with the poor girl under the warm rush of deep and distracting love for her which the almost tragical information engendered.
Winterborne completely overlooked his minor differences with the poor girl, swept away by the intense and distracting love he felt for her, brought on by the almost tragic news.
To renounce her forever—that was then the end of it for him, after all. There was no longer any question about suitability, or room for tiffs on petty tastes. The curtain had fallen again between them. She could not be his. The cruelty of their late revived hope was now terrible. How could they all have been so simple as to suppose this thing could be done?
To let her go for good—that was it for him, after all. There was no longer any doubt about whether it was right, or space for arguments over trivial preferences. The barrier had come down again between them. She couldn’t be his. The harshness of their recently rekindled hope was now overwhelming. How could they all have been so naïve to think this could actually happen?
It was at this moment that, hearing some one coming behind him, he turned and saw her hastening on between the thickets. He perceived in an instant that she did not know the blighting news.
It was at that moment, hearing someone approaching from behind him, he turned and saw her rushing through the bushes. He realized instantly that she was unaware of the devastating news.
“Giles, why didn’t you come across to me?” she asked, with arch reproach. “Didn’t you see me sitting there ever so long?”
“Giles, why didn’t you come over to me?” she asked, with a playful reproach. “Didn’t you see me sitting there for so long?”
“Oh yes,” he said, in unprepared, extemporized tones, for her unexpected presence caught him without the slightest plan of behavior in the conjuncture. His manner made her think that she had been too chiding in her speech; and a mild scarlet wave passed over her as she resolved to soften it.
“Oh yes,” he said, in off-the-cuff tones, since her unexpected arrival caught him completely unprepared. His demeanor made her feel like she had been too harsh in what she said, and a gentle flush crept over her as she decided to soften her approach.
“I have had another letter from my father,” she hastened to continue. “He thinks he may come home this evening. And—in view of his hopes—it will grieve him if there is any little difference between us, Giles.”
“I got another letter from my dad,” she quickly added. “He thinks he might come home this evening. And—considering his hopes—it will upset him if there’s any little disagreement between us, Giles.”
“There is none,” he said, sadly regarding her from the face downward as he pondered how to lay the cruel truth bare.
“There isn’t any,” he said, looking at her sadly from her face down to the ground as he thought about how to reveal the harsh truth.
“Still—I fear you have not quite forgiven me about my being uncomfortable at the inn.”
“Still—I worry you haven’t completely forgiven me for being uncomfortable at the inn.”
“I have, Grace, I’m sure.”
"I have, Grace, I'm sure."
“But you speak in quite an unhappy way,” she returned, coming up close to him with the most winning of the many pretty airs that appertained to her. “Don’t you think you will ever be happy, Giles?”
“But you speak in such an unhappy way,” she replied, stepping closer to him with the most charming of her many lovely gestures. “Don’t you think you’ll ever be happy, Giles?”
He did not reply for some instants. “When the sun shines on the north front of Sherton Abbey—that’s when my happiness will come to me!” said he, staring as it were into the earth.
He didn't respond for a moment. “When the sun shines on the north side of Sherton Abbey—that's when my happiness will find me!” he said, seeming to gaze deep into the ground.
“But—then that means that there is something more than my offending you in not liking The Three Tuns. If it is because I—did not like to let you kiss me in the Abbey—well, you know, Giles, that it was not on account of my cold feelings, but because I did certainly, just then, think it was rather premature, in spite of my poor father. That was the true reason—the sole one. But I do not want to be hard—God knows I do not,” she said, her voice fluctuating. “And perhaps—as I am on the verge of freedom—I am not right, after all, in thinking there is any harm in your kissing me.”
“But that means there’s something more than just me upsetting you by not liking The Three Tuns. If it’s because I didn’t want to let you kiss me in the Abbey—well, you know, Giles, it wasn’t because I had cold feelings, but because I honestly thought it was a bit too soon, despite my poor father. That was the real reason—the only one. But I don’t want to be harsh—God knows I don’t,” she said, her voice wavering. “And maybe, since I’m on the brink of freedom, I’m not correct in thinking there’s anything wrong with you kissing me.”
“Oh God!” said Winterborne within himself. His head was turned askance as he still resolutely regarded the ground. For the last several minutes he had seen this great temptation approaching him in regular siege; and now it had come. The wrong, the social sin, of now taking advantage of the offer of her lips had a magnitude, in the eyes of one whose life had been so primitive, so ruled by purest household laws, as Giles’s, which can hardly be explained.
“Oh God!” Winterborne thought to himself. He looked to the side while still firmly focusing on the ground. For the past few minutes, he had watched this huge temptation approach him like a steady attack; and now it was here. The wrongness, the social sin, of taking advantage of her lips at that moment felt immense to someone like Giles, whose life had been so basic and governed by the strictest household rules, and it's something that’s hard to put into words.
“Did you say anything?” she asked, timidly.
"Did you say something?" she asked, shyly.
“Oh no—only that—”
“Oh no—just that—”
“You mean that it must be already settled, since my father is coming home?” she said, gladly.
“You mean it must already be settled since my dad is coming home?” she said, excitedly.
Winterborne, though fighting valiantly against himself all this while—though he would have protected Grace’s good repute as the apple of his eye—was a man; and, as Desdemona said, men are not gods. In face of the agonizing seductiveness shown by her, in her unenlightened school-girl simplicity about the laws and ordinances, he betrayed a man’s weakness. Since it was so—since it had come to this, that Grace, deeming herself free to do it, was virtually asking him to demonstrate that he loved her—since he could demonstrate it only too truly—since life was short and love was strong—he gave way to the temptation, notwithstanding that he perfectly well knew her to be wedded irrevocably to Fitzpiers. Indeed, he cared for nothing past or future, simply accepting the present and what it brought, desiring once in his life to clasp in his arms her he had watched over and loved so long.
Winterborne, despite struggling hard against his own feelings all this time—though he would have protected Grace’s reputation like it was the most precious thing to him—was still just a man; and, as Desdemona said, men aren’t gods. Faced with the intense allure she presented, in her naive innocence regarding rules and conventions, he showed a man’s vulnerability. Since it had come to this, with Grace thinking she was free to ask him to prove his love for her—something he could do all too well—he succumbed to the temptation, even though he knew she was forever tied to Fitzpiers. In fact, he cared about nothing from the past or the future, simply accepting the moment and whatever it brought, wanting just once in his life to hold in his arms the woman he had watched over and loved for so long.
She started back suddenly from his embrace, influenced by a sort of inspiration. “Oh, I suppose,” she stammered, “that I am really free?—that this is right? Is there really a new law? Father cannot have been too sanguine in saying—”
She pulled away abruptly from his hug, inspired by a sudden thought. “Oh, I guess,” she stammered, “that I am actually free?—that this is okay? Is there actually a new law? Dad can't have been too optimistic in saying—”
He did not answer, and a moment afterwards Grace burst into tears in spite of herself. “Oh, why does not my father come home and explain,” she sobbed, “and let me know clearly what I am? It is too trying, this, to ask me to—and then to leave me so long in so vague a state that I do not know what to do, and perhaps do wrong!”
He didn't respond, and a moment later Grace started crying despite herself. “Oh, why doesn't my dad come home and explain,” she sobbed, “and let me know exactly who I am? It's too much to ask me to—and then leave me hanging in such a vague state that I don't know what to do, and might mess up!”
Winterborne felt like a very Cain, over and above his previous sorrow. How he had sinned against her in not telling her what he knew. He turned aside; the feeling of his cruelty mounted higher and higher. How could he have dreamed of kissing her? He could hardly refrain from tears. Surely nothing more pitiable had ever been known than the condition of this poor young thing, now as heretofore the victim of her father’s well-meant but blundering policy.
Winterborne felt like a total sinner, even more so than with his previous sadness. He regretted not telling her what he knew. He turned away; the weight of his cruelty grew heavier and heavier. How could he have ever thought about kissing her? He could barely hold back his tears. Surely nothing was more heartbreaking than the situation of this poor young woman, still a victim of her father's misguided but well-meaning decisions.
Even in the hour of Melbury’s greatest assurance Winterborne had harbored a suspicion that no law, new or old, could undo Grace’s marriage without her appearance in public; though he was not sufficiently sure of what might have been enacted to destroy by his own words her pleasing idea that a mere dash of the pen, on her father’s testimony, was going to be sufficient. But he had never suspected the sad fact that the position was irremediable.
Even at the moment when Melbury felt most confident, Winterborne had a nagging doubt that no law, old or new, could unravel Grace’s marriage without her showing up in public. He wasn't entirely sure about what might have been decided to shatter her comforting belief that a simple signature, based on her father’s statement, would be enough. But he had never realized the unfortunate truth that the situation was beyond repair.
Poor Grace, perhaps feeling that she had indulged in too much fluster for a mere kiss, calmed herself at finding how grave he was.
Poor Grace, maybe realizing she'd gotten way too worked up over just a kiss, settled down once she saw how serious he was.
“I am glad we are friends again anyhow,” she said, smiling through her tears. “Giles, if you had only shown half the boldness before I married that you show now, you would have carried me off for your own first instead of second. If we do marry, I hope you will never think badly of me for encouraging you a little, but my father is so impatient, you know, as his years and infirmities increase, that he will wish to see us a little advanced when he comes. That is my only excuse.”
“I’m really happy we’re friends again, though,” she said, smiling through her tears. “Giles, if you had only shown half the confidence before I got married that you’re showing now, you would have taken me for your own first instead of second. If we do end up getting married, I hope you won’t think badly of me for encouraging you a bit, but my dad is so impatient, you know, with his age and health issues, that he’ll want to see us a little further along when he visits. That’s my only excuse.”
To Winterborne all this was sadder than it was sweet. How could she so trust her father’s conjectures? He did not know how to tell her the truth and shame himself. And yet he felt that it must be done. “We may have been wrong,” he began, almost fearfully, “in supposing that it can all be carried out while we stay here at Hintock. I am not sure but that people may have to appear in a public court even under the new Act; and if there should be any difficulty, and we cannot marry after all—”
To Winterborne, all of this felt sadder than sweet. How could she trust her father's guesses so much? He didn't know how to tell her the truth without embarrassing himself. Yet, he felt it had to be done. “We might have been mistaken,” he started, almost nervously, “in thinking that everything can be settled while we’re here at Hintock. I'm not sure, but people might have to go to a public court even with the new Act; and if there’s any trouble, and we can’t end up marrying after all—”
Her cheeks became slowly bloodless. “Oh, Giles,” she said, grasping his arm, “you have heard something! What—cannot my father conclude it there and now? Surely he has done it? Oh, Giles, Giles, don’t deceive me. What terrible position am I in?”
Her cheeks slowly turned pale. “Oh, Giles,” she said, gripping his arm, “you’ve heard something! What—can’t my father decide this once and for all? Surely he has made a decision? Oh, Giles, Giles, don’t lie to me. What awful situation am I in?”
He could not tell her, try as he would. The sense of her implicit trust in his honor absolutely disabled him. “I cannot inform you,” he murmured, his voice as husky as that of the leaves underfoot. “Your father will soon be here. Then we shall know. I will take you home.”
He couldn’t bring himself to tell her, no matter how hard he tried. The weight of her complete trust in his integrity completely paralyzed him. “I can’t tell you,” he whispered, his voice as rough as the leaves beneath them. “Your dad will be here soon. Then we’ll find out. I’ll take you home.”
Inexpressibly dear as she was to him, he offered her his arm with the most reserved air, as he added, correctingly, “I will take you, at any rate, into the drive.”
Inexpressibly dear as she was to him, he offered her his arm with the most reserved air, as he added, correcting himself, “I’ll take you, at least, to the drive.”
Thus they walked on together. Grace vibrating between happiness and misgiving. It was only a few minutes’ walk to where the drive ran, and they had hardly descended into it when they heard a voice behind them cry, “Take out that arm!”
Thus they walked on together. Grace was feeling both happy and uneasy. It was only a few minutes’ walk to where the driveway began, and they had barely entered it when they heard a voice behind them shout, “Take out that arm!”
For a moment they did not heed, and the voice repeated, more loudly and hoarsely,
For a moment, they didn't pay attention, and the voice repeated, louder and more raspily,
“Take out that arm!”
“Get that arm out!”
It was Melbury’s. He had returned sooner than they expected, and now came up to them. Grace’s hand had been withdrawn like lightning on her hearing the second command. “I don’t blame you—I don’t blame you,” he said, in the weary cadence of one broken down with scourgings. “But you two must walk together no more—I have been surprised—I have been cruelly deceived—Giles, don’t say anything to me; but go away!”
It was Melbury’s. He had come back sooner than they thought, and now approached them. Grace's hand had pulled away like a flash at the sound of the second command. “I don’t blame you—I don’t blame you,” he said, in the tired tone of someone worn out from struggles. “But you two can’t walk together anymore—I’ve been surprised—I’ve been terribly deceived—Giles, don’t say anything to me; just go away!”
He was evidently not aware that Winterborne had known the truth before he brought it; and Giles would not stay to discuss it with him then. When the young man had gone Melbury took his daughter in-doors to the room he used as his office. There he sat down, and bent over the slope of the bureau, her bewildered gaze fixed upon him.
He clearly didn’t realize that Winterborne already knew the truth before he brought it up; and Giles wasn’t going to stick around to talk about it with him then. After the young man left, Melbury took his daughter inside to the room he used as his office. There, he sat down and leaned over the slope of the desk, her confused gaze locked on him.
When Melbury had recovered a little he said, “You are now, as ever, Fitzpiers’s wife. I was deluded. He has not done you enough harm. You are still subject to his beck and call.”
When Melbury had recovered a bit, he said, “You are still, as always, Fitzpiers’s wife. I was mistaken. He hasn’t done you enough harm. You are still under his control.”
“Then let it be, and never mind, father,” she said, with dignified sorrow. “I can bear it. It is your trouble that grieves me most.” She stooped over him, and put her arm round his neck, which distressed Melbury still more. “I don’t mind at all what comes to me,” Grace continued; “whose wife I am, or whose I am not. I do love Giles; I cannot help that; and I have gone further with him than I should have done if I had known exactly how things were. But I do not reproach you.”
“Then let it be, and don’t worry about it, Dad,” she said, with a solemn sadness. “I can handle it. It’s your pain that bothers me the most.” She leaned over him and wrapped her arm around his neck, which upset Melbury even more. “I don’t care at all what happens to me,” Grace continued; “whoever I marry or don’t marry. I really love Giles; I can’t change that; and I’ve gotten closer to him than I would have if I had known exactly how things were. But I’m not blaming you.”
“Then Giles did not tell you?” said Melbury.
“Then Giles didn't tell you?” Melbury said.
“No,” said she. “He could not have known it. His behavior to me proved that he did not know.”
“No,” she said. “He couldn’t have known. His actions towards me showed that he didn’t know.”
Her father said nothing more, and Grace went away to the solitude of her chamber.
Her father didn't say anything else, and Grace went to the solitude of her room.
Her heavy disquietude had many shapes; and for a time she put aside the dominant fact to think of her too free conduct towards Giles. His love-making had been brief as it was sweet; but would he on reflection contemn her for forwardness? How could she have been so simple as to suppose she was in a position to behave as she had done! Thus she mentally blamed her ignorance; and yet in the centre of her heart she blessed it a little for what it had momentarily brought her.
Her intense unease took many forms; for a while, she set aside the main issue to think about how freely she had acted with Giles. His flirting had been short but delightful; but would he later look down on her for being too bold? How could she have been so naive as to think she could behave that way! So she mentally criticized her lack of knowledge; yet, deep down, she was grateful for it a little, for what it had briefly given her.
CHAPTER XL.
Life among the people involved in these events seemed to be suppressed and hide-bound for a while. Grace seldom showed herself outside the house, never outside the garden; for she feared she might encounter Giles Winterborne; and that she could not bear.
Life among the people involved in these events felt repressed and restricted for a while. Grace rarely ventured outside the house, never beyond the garden; she was afraid of running into Giles Winterborne, and that was something she couldn't handle.
This pensive intramural existence of the self-constituted nun appeared likely to continue for an indefinite time. She had learned that there was one possibility in which her formerly imagined position might become real, and only one; that her husband’s absence should continue long enough to amount to positive desertion. But she never allowed her mind to dwell much upon the thought; still less did she deliberately hope for such a result. Her regard for Winterborne had been rarefied by the shock which followed its avowal into an ethereal emotion that had little to do with living and doing.
This thoughtful, isolated life of the self-made nun seemed set to last indefinitely. She realized there was one way her previously imagined situation could become real, and only one: if her husband stayed away long enough to be considered having deserted her. However, she never let herself think about this much, nor did she consciously wish for it to happen. Her feelings for Winterborne had been elevated by the shock that followed her confession, turning into a delicate emotion that had little to do with living and acting.
As for Giles, he was lying—or rather sitting—ill at his hut. A feverish indisposition which had been hanging about him for some time, the result of a chill caught the previous winter, seemed to acquire virulence with the prostration of his hopes. But not a soul knew of his languor, and he did not think the case serious enough to send for a medical man. After a few days he was better again, and crept about his home in a great coat, attending to his simple wants as usual with his own hands. So matters stood when the limpid inertion of Grace’s pool-like existence was disturbed as by a geyser. She received a letter from Fitzpiers.
As for Giles, he was lying—or rather sitting—sick in his hut. A feverish illness that had been lingering for a while, a result of a chill he caught the previous winter, seemed to get worse as his hopes faded. But no one knew about his weakness, and he didn’t think his situation was serious enough to call for a doctor. After a few days, he felt better and moved around his home in a heavy coat, taking care of his simple needs with his own hands. That’s how things were when the calm and stagnant nature of Grace’s life was suddenly interrupted like a geyser. She received a letter from Fitzpiers.
Such a terrible letter it was in its import, though couched in the gentlest language. In his absence Grace had grown to regard him with toleration, and her relation to him with equanimity, till she had almost forgotten how trying his presence would be. He wrote briefly and unaffectedly; he made no excuses, but informed her that he was living quite alone, and had been led to think that they ought to be together, if she would make up her mind to forgive him. He therefore purported to cross the Channel to Budmouth by the steamer on a day he named, which she found to be three days after the time of her present reading.
It was a devastating letter in its message, even though it was written in the gentlest words. In his absence, Grace had come to tolerate him, and she felt a sense of calm about their relationship, to the point where she had nearly forgotten how difficult he could be to be around. He wrote in a straightforward and sincere way; he didn’t make excuses but simply told her that he was living alone and believed they should be together if she was willing to forgive him. He planned to take the ferry across the Channel to Budmouth on a day he mentioned, which she realized was three days from when she was reading the letter.
He said that he could not come to Hintock for obvious reasons, which her father would understand even better than herself. As the only alternative she was to be on the quay to meet the steamer when it arrived from the opposite coast, probably about half an hour before midnight, bringing with her any luggage she might require; join him there, and pass with him into the twin vessel, which left immediately the other entered the harbor; returning thus with him to his continental dwelling-place, which he did not name. He had no intention of showing himself on land at all.
He said he couldn’t come to Hintock for obvious reasons, which her father would understand even better than she would. The only alternative was for her to be at the quay to meet the steamer when it arrived from the opposite coast, probably about half an hour before midnight, bringing any luggage she might need; then she would join him there and board the twin vessel that would leave as soon as the other one entered the harbor, returning with him to his place on the continent, which he didn’t specify. He had no intention of showing himself on land at all.
The troubled Grace took the letter to her father, who now continued for long hours by the fireless summer chimney-corner, as if he thought it were winter, the pitcher of cider standing beside him, mostly untasted, and coated with a film of dust. After reading it he looked up.
The troubled Grace brought the letter to her father, who now lingered for hours by the empty summer chimney-corner, as if he believed it was winter, the pitcher of cider beside him mostly untouched and covered in dust. After reading it, he looked up.
“You sha’n’t go,” said he.
"You won't go," he said.
“I had felt I would not,” she answered. “But I did not know what you would say.”
“I thought I wouldn’t,” she replied. “But I wasn’t sure what you would say.”
“If he comes and lives in England, not too near here and in a respectable way, and wants you to come to him, I am not sure that I’ll oppose him in wishing it,” muttered Melbury. “I’d stint myself to keep you both in a genteel and seemly style. But go abroad you never shall with my consent.”
“If he comes and lives in England, not too close by and in a respectable manner, and wants you to visit him, I’m not sure I’d stand in his way,” Melbury muttered. “I’d sacrifice my own comfort to provide you both with a decent and proper lifestyle. But you will never go abroad with my approval.”
There the question rested that day. Grace was unable to reply to her husband in the absence of an address, and the morrow came, and the next day, and the evening on which he had requested her to meet him. Throughout the whole of it she remained within the four walls of her room.
There the question stayed that day. Grace couldn't respond to her husband without an address, and the next day came, along with the day after that, and the evening when he had asked her to meet him. Throughout all of it, she stayed inside her room.
The sense of her harassment, carking doubt of what might be impending, hung like a cowl of blackness over the Melbury household. They spoke almost in whispers, and wondered what Fitzpiers would do next. It was the hope of every one that, finding she did not arrive, he would return again to France; and as for Grace, she was willing to write to him on the most kindly terms if he would only keep away.
The feeling of her harassment and the nagging uncertainty about what might happen next loomed like a dark cloud over the Melbury household. They spoke almost in whispers, curious about what Fitzpiers would do next. Everyone hoped that when he realized she hadn’t come, he would return to France; and as for Grace, she was ready to reach out to him in a friendly way if he would just stay away.
The night passed, Grace lying tense and wide awake, and her relatives, in great part, likewise. When they met the next morning they were pale and anxious, though neither speaking of the subject which occupied all their thoughts. The day passed as quietly as the previous ones, and she began to think that in the rank caprice of his moods he had abandoned the idea of getting her to join him as quickly as it was formed. All on a sudden, some person who had just come from Sherton entered the house with the news that Mr. Fitzpiers was on his way home to Hintock. He had been seen hiring a carriage at the Earl of Wessex Hotel.
The night went by with Grace lying tense and wide awake, and most of her relatives were the same. When they met the next morning, they looked pale and anxious, although none of them mentioned the topic that filled their minds. The day went by as quietly as the previous ones, and she started to think that in the unpredictable nature of his moods, he had dropped the idea of getting her to join him as quickly as he had planned. Suddenly, someone who had just arrived from Sherton walked into the house with the news that Mr. Fitzpiers was on his way home to Hintock. He had been seen renting a carriage at the Earl of Wessex Hotel.
Her father and Grace were both present when the intelligence was announced.
Her father and Grace were both there when the news was announced.
“Now,” said Melbury, “we must make the best of what has been a very bad matter. The man is repenting; the partner of his shame, I hear, is gone away from him to Switzerland, so that chapter of his life is probably over. If he chooses to make a home for ye I think you should not say him nay, Grace. Certainly he cannot very well live at Hintock without a blow to his pride; but if he can bear that, and likes Hintock best, why, there’s the empty wing of the house as it was before.”
“Now,” said Melbury, “we need to make the best of a really bad situation. The man is regretting his actions; I hear the partner in his wrongdoing has left him for Switzerland, so that part of his life is probably done. If he wants to create a home for you, I think you shouldn't turn him down, Grace. He definitely can't live at Hintock without taking a hit to his pride; but if he can handle that and prefers Hintock, then there’s the empty wing of the house like it was before.”
“Oh, father!” said Grace, turning white with dismay.
“Oh, dad!” said Grace, turning pale with shock.
“Why not?” said he, a little of his former doggedness returning. He was, in truth, disposed to somewhat more leniency towards her husband just now than he had shown formerly, from a conviction that he had treated him over-roughly in his anger. “Surely it is the most respectable thing to do?” he continued. “I don’t like this state that you are in—neither married nor single. It hurts me, and it hurts you, and it will always be remembered against us in Hintock. There has never been any scandal like it in the family before.”
“Why not?” he asked, a bit of his previous stubbornness coming back. He actually felt a bit more lenient toward her husband right now than he had before, believing he had been too harsh in his anger. “Surely, it’s the most respectable thing to do?” he continued. “I don’t like this situation you’re in—neither married nor single. It bothers me, and it bothers you, and it will always be looked down upon in Hintock. There’s never been any scandal like this in the family before.”
“He will be here in less than an hour,” murmured Grace. The twilight of the room prevented her father seeing the despondent misery of her face. The one intolerable condition, the condition she had deprecated above all others, was that of Fitzpiers’s reinstatement there. “Oh, I won’t, I won’t see him,” she said, sinking down. She was almost hysterical.
“He'll be here in less than an hour," Grace whispered. The dim light in the room kept her father from noticing the deep sadness on her face. The one thing she couldn’t stand, the thing she hated more than anything else, was Fitzpiers being back there. “Oh, I can't, I can't see him," she said, sinking down. She was nearly hysterical.
“Try if you cannot,” he returned, moodily.
“Go ahead and see if you can’t,” he replied, somewhat grumpily.
“Oh yes, I will, I will,” she went on, inconsequently. “I’ll try;” and jumping up suddenly, she left the room.
“Oh yes, I will, I will,” she continued, without really making sense. “I’ll try;” and suddenly jumping up, she left the room.
In the darkness of the apartment to which she flew nothing could have been seen during the next half-hour; but from a corner a quick breathing was audible from this impressible creature, who combined modern nerves with primitive emotions, and was doomed by such coexistence to be numbered among the distressed, and to take her scourgings to their exquisite extremity.
In the dark apartment she rushed into, nothing could be seen for the next half hour; however, from a corner, quick breathing could be heard from this sensitive person, who mixed modern nerves with basic emotions and was fated by this combination to be counted among the troubled, enduring her sufferings to their fullest extent.
The window was open. On this quiet, late summer evening, whatever sound arose in so secluded a district—the chirp of a bird, a call from a voice, the turning of a wheel—extended over bush and tree to unwonted distances. Very few sounds did arise. But as Grace invisibly breathed in the brown glooms of the chamber, the small remote noise of light wheels came in to her, accompanied by the trot of a horse on the turnpike-road. There seemed to be a sudden hitch or pause in the progress of the vehicle, which was what first drew her attention to it. She knew the point whence the sound proceeded—the hill-top over which travellers passed on their way hitherward from Sherton Abbas—the place at which she had emerged from the wood with Mrs. Charmond. Grace slid along the floor, and bent her head over the window-sill, listening with open lips. The carriage had stopped, and she heard a man use exclamatory words. Then another said, “What the devil is the matter with the horse?” She recognized the voice as her husband’s.
The window was open. On this quiet late summer evening, any sound coming from such a secluded area—the chirp of a bird, someone calling out, the creaking of a wheel—carried over the bushes and trees to surprising distances. Very few sounds were heard. But as Grace absorbed the dimness of the room, she picked up the distant noise of light wheels, along with the sound of a horse trotting on the turnpike road. There seemed to be a sudden halt or pause in the vehicle’s movement, which first caught her attention. She recognized where the sound was coming from—the hilltop where travelers passed on their way from Sherton Abbas—the spot where she had come out of the woods with Mrs. Charmond. Grace crept across the floor and leaned over the windowsill, listening intently. The carriage had stopped, and she heard a man exclaim. Then another one said, “What the heck is wrong with the horse?” She recognized the voice as her husband’s.
The accident, such as it had been, was soon remedied, and the carriage could be heard descending the hill on the Hintock side, soon to turn into the lane leading out of the highway, and then into the “drong” which led out of the lane to the house where she was.
The accident, as it was, was quickly fixed, and you could hear the carriage coming down the hill on the Hintock side, soon turning into the lane that led off the highway, and then into the “drong” that went from the lane to the house where she was.
A spasm passed through Grace. The Daphnean instinct, exceptionally strong in her as a girl, had been revived by her widowed seclusion; and it was not lessened by her affronted sentiments towards the comer, and her regard for another man. She opened some little ivory tablets that lay on the dressing-table, scribbled in pencil on one of them, “I am gone to visit one of my school-friends,” gathered a few toilet necessaries into a hand-bag, and not three minutes after that voice had been heard, her slim form, hastily wrapped up from observation, might have been seen passing out of the back door of Melbury’s house. Thence she skimmed up the garden-path, through the gap in the hedge, and into the mossy cart-track under the trees which led into the depth of the woods.
A shiver went through Grace. The deep instinct she had as a girl, especially strong now that she was alone after her husband's death, had returned; and it was heightened by her mixed feelings toward the newcomer and her feelings for another man. She opened a small set of ivory tablets on the dressing table and quickly wrote in pencil on one of them, “I’ve gone to visit one of my school friends,” grabbed a few personal items into a handbag, and within three minutes of hearing that voice, her slender figure, hastily concealed from view, could be seen slipping out the back door of Melbury’s house. From there, she darted up the garden path, passed through the gap in the hedge, and onto the mossy cart track beneath the trees that led deep into the woods.
The leaves overhead were now in their latter green—so opaque, that it was darker at some of the densest spots than in winter-time, scarce a crevice existing by which a ray could get down to the ground. But in open places she could see well enough. Summer was ending: in the daytime singing insects hung in every sunbeam; vegetation was heavy nightly with globes of dew; and after showers creeping damps and twilight chills came up from the hollows. The plantations were always weird at this hour of eve—more spectral far than in the leafless season, when there were fewer masses and more minute lineality. The smooth surfaces of glossy plants came out like weak, lidless eyes; there were strange faces and figures from expiring lights that had somehow wandered into the canopied obscurity; while now and then low peeps of the sky between the trunks were like sheeted shapes, and on the tips of boughs sat faint cloven tongues.
The leaves above were deep in their summer green—so thick that some spots were darker than in winter, with hardly any gaps for sunlight to reach the ground. But in clear areas, she could see just fine. Summer was winding down: during the day, singing insects floated in every beam of sunlight; the plants were heavy each night with drops of dew; and after rainfall, dampness and cool air crept up from the low spots. The woods always felt eerie at this time of evening—more ghostly than in winter, when there were fewer large shapes and more delicate lines. The smooth surfaces of shiny plants looked like weak, wide-open eyes; strange faces and figures from fading lights seemed to have wandered into the shaded darkness; and now and then, glimpses of the sky between the tree trunks looked like covered shapes, while faint, split tongues rested on the tips of branches.
But Grace’s fear just now was not imaginative or spiritual, and she heeded these impressions but little. She went on as silently as she could, avoiding the hollows wherein leaves had accumulated, and stepping upon soundless moss and grass-tufts. She paused breathlessly once or twice, and fancied that she could hear, above the beat of her strumming pulse, the vehicle containing Fitzpiers turning in at the gate of her father’s premises. She hastened on again.
But Grace’s fear at that moment wasn’t about her imagination or spirituality, and she paid little attention to those feelings. She moved as quietly as possible, avoiding the dips where leaves had piled up and stepping on soft moss and clumps of grass. She stopped to catch her breath once or twice and thought she could hear, over the rapid beating of her heart, the vehicle carrying Fitzpiers turning into her father’s property. She hurried on again.
The Hintock woods owned by Mrs. Charmond were presently left behind, and those into which she next plunged were divided from the latter by a bank, from whose top the hedge had long ago perished—starved for want of sun. It was with some caution that Grace now walked, though she was quite free from any of the commonplace timidities of her ordinary pilgrimages to such spots. She feared no lurking harms, but that her effort would be all in vain, and her return to the house rendered imperative.
The Hintock woods owned by Mrs. Charmond were now behind her, and the ones she entered next were separated from the previous ones by a bank, where the hedge had long since died—starved for sunlight. Grace walked with some caution, though she was completely free from the usual fears she had on her regular visits to such places. She wasn’t afraid of any hidden dangers, but rather that her efforts would be pointless, forcing her to return to the house.
She had walked between three and four miles when that prescriptive comfort and relief to wanderers in woods—a distant light—broke at last upon her searching eyes. It was so very small as to be almost sinister to a stranger, but to her it was what she sought. She pushed forward, and the dim outline of a dwelling was disclosed.
She had walked between three and four miles when that reassuring sign for those wandering in the woods—a distant light—finally appeared to her searching eyes. It was so tiny that it seemed almost eerie to a stranger, but to her, it was exactly what she was looking for. She pushed forward, and the faint shape of a house came into view.
The house was a square cot of one story only, sloping up on all sides to a chimney in the midst. It had formerly been the home of a charcoal-burner, in times when that fuel was still used in the county houses. Its only appurtenance was a paled enclosure, there being no garden, the shade of the trees preventing the growth of vegetables. She advanced to the window whence the rays of light proceeded, and the shutters being as yet unclosed, she could survey the whole interior through the panes.
The house was a simple, one-story square building, sloping up on all sides to a chimney in the center. It used to be the home of a charcoal burner, back when that fuel was still common in the country houses. The only addition was a fenced area, as there was no garden; the shade from the trees made it impossible to grow vegetables. She walked to the window where the light was coming from, and since the shutters were still open, she could see the entire inside through the glass.
The room within was kitchen, parlor, and scullery all in one; the natural sandstone floor was worn into hills and dales by long treading, so that none of the furniture stood level, and the table slanted like a desk. A fire burned on the hearth, in front of which revolved the skinned carcass of a rabbit, suspended by a string from a nail. Leaning with one arm on the mantle-shelf stood Winterborne, his eyes on the roasting animal, his face so rapt that speculation could build nothing on it concerning his thoughts, more than that they were not with the scene before him. She thought his features had changed a little since she saw them last. The fire-light did not enable her to perceive that they were positively haggard.
The room was a mix of kitchen, living room, and pantry all in one; the natural sandstone floor was worn down into hills and valleys from years of use, so none of the furniture stood level, and the table slanted like a desk. A fire burned in the fireplace, in front of which a skinned rabbit carcass rotated, hanging from a string attached to a nail. Winterborne leaned one arm on the mantle, his eyes fixed on the roasting animal, his expression so absorbed that it was impossible to guess what he was thinking, other than the fact that his mind was elsewhere. She thought his features looked a bit different since she last saw him. The firelight didn’t allow her to see that they were actually quite haggard.
Grace’s throat emitted a gasp of relief at finding the result so nearly as she had hoped. She went to the door and tapped lightly.
Grace let out a gasp of relief at seeing that the result was almost exactly what she had hoped for. She walked to the door and knocked softly.
He seemed to be accustomed to the noises of woodpeckers, squirrels, and such small creatures, for he took no notice of her tiny signal, and she knocked again. This time he came and opened the door. When the light of the room fell upon her face he started, and, hardly knowing what he did, crossed the threshold to her, placing his hands upon her two arms, while surprise, joy, alarm, sadness, chased through him by turns. With Grace it was the same: even in this stress there was the fond fact that they had met again. Thus they stood,
He seemed used to the sounds of woodpeckers, squirrels, and other small animals since he didn't notice her little signal, so she knocked again. This time he came and opened the door. When the light from the room hit her face, he jumped back, and, almost without thinking, stepped over the threshold to her, putting his hands on her arms, while surprise, joy, alarm, and sadness raced through him in turns. Grace felt the same way: even in this tense moment, there was the comforting reality that they had met again. So they stood there,
“Long tears upon their faces, waxen white
With extreme sad delight.”
“Long tears on their faces, pale white
With deep, sad pleasure.”
He broke the silence by saying in a whisper, “Come in.”
He broke the silence by whispering, “Come in.”
“No, no, Giles!” she answered, hurriedly, stepping yet farther back from the door. “I am passing by—and I have called on you—I won’t enter. Will you help me? I am afraid. I want to get by a roundabout way to Sherton, and so to Exbury. I have a school-fellow there—but I cannot get to Sherton alone. Oh, if you will only accompany me a little way! Don’t condemn me, Giles, and be offended! I was obliged to come to you because—I have no other help here. Three months ago you were my lover; now you are only my friend. The law has stepped in, and forbidden what we thought of. It must not be. But we can act honestly, and yet you can be my friend for one little hour? I have no other—”
“No, no, Giles!” she replied quickly, stepping even further back from the door. “I’m just passing through—and I’ve come to see you—but I won't go in. Will you help me? I’m scared. I want to take a roundabout way to Sherton, and then to Exbury. I have a school friend there—but I can’t get to Sherton by myself. Oh, if you would just come with me a little way! Please don’t judge me, Giles, and be upset! I had to come to you because—I don’t have anyone else here. Three months ago you were my lover; now you’re just my friend. The law has intervened and forbidden what we hoped for. It’s not meant to be. But we can still act honestly, and you can be my friend for just an hour? I don’t have anyone else—”
She could get no further. Covering her eyes with one hand, by an effort of repression she wept a silent trickle, without a sigh or sob. Winterborne took her other hand. “What has happened?” he said.
She couldn’t move forward any longer. Covering her eyes with one hand, she forced herself to hold back tears, letting a silent stream fall without a sigh or sob. Winterborne took her other hand. “What happened?” he asked.
“He has come.”
"He's here."
There was a stillness as of death, till Winterborne asked, “You mean this, Grace—that I am to help you to get away?”
There was a silence like death until Winterborne asked, “You mean this, Grace—that I’m supposed to help you get away?”
“Yes,” said she. “Appearance is no matter, when the reality is right. I have said to myself I can trust you.”
“Yes,” she said. “Looks don’t matter when the reality is good. I’ve told myself I can trust you.”
Giles knew from this that she did not suspect his treachery—if it could be called such—earlier in the summer, when they met for the last time as lovers; and in the intensity of his contrition for that tender wrong, he determined to deserve her faith now at least, and so wipe out that reproach from his conscience. “I’ll come at once,” he said. “I’ll light a lantern.”
Giles realized that she didn't suspect his betrayal—if you could really call it that—earlier in the summer when they last met as lovers; and feeling deeply sorry for that hurt he caused, he decided he would earn her trust now and clear that guilt from his mind. “I’ll come right away,” he said. “I’ll light a lantern.”
He unhooked a dark-lantern from a nail under the eaves and she did not notice how his hand shook with the slight strain, or dream that in making this offer he was taxing a convalescence which could ill afford such self-sacrifice. The lantern was lit, and they started.
He took a dark lantern off a nail under the eaves, and she didn’t notice how his hand trembled just a bit from the effort, nor did she imagine that by making this offer, he was pushing his recovery to a limit that really couldn’t handle such sacrifice. The lantern was lit, and they set off.
CHAPTER XLI.
The first hundred yards of their course lay under motionless trees, whose upper foliage began to hiss with falling drops of rain. By the time that they emerged upon a glade it rained heavily.
The first hundred yards of their path were beneath still trees, whose upper leaves began to sizzle with falling raindrops. By the time they stepped into a clearing, it was pouring rain.
“This is awkward,” said Grace, with an effort to hide her concern.
“This is awkward,” Grace said, trying to hide her worry.
Winterborne stopped. “Grace,” he said, preserving a strictly business manner which belied him, “you cannot go to Sherton to-night.”
Winterborne stopped. “Grace,” he said, keeping a professional tone that didn't quite match his feelings, “you can't go to Sherton tonight.”
“But I must!”
"But I have to!"
“Why? It is nine miles from here. It is almost an impossibility in this rain.”
“Why? It’s nine miles away. It’s nearly impossible in this rain.”
“True—why?” she replied, mournfully, at the end of a silence. “What is reputation to me?”
“True—why?” she replied, sadly, after a moment of silence. “What does reputation mean to me?”
“Now hearken,” said Giles. “You won’t—go back to your—”
"Listen," said Giles. "You won't—go back to your—"
“No, no, no! Don’t make me!” she cried, piteously.
“No, no, no! Please don’t make me!” she cried, desperately.
“Then let us turn.” They slowly retraced their steps, and again stood before his door. “Now, this house from this moment is yours, and not mine,” he said, deliberately. “I have a place near by where I can stay very well.”
“Then let’s go back.” They slowly walked back and stood in front of his door again. “Now, this house is yours from this moment on, not mine,” he said slowly. “I have a place nearby where I can stay just fine.”
Her face had drooped. “Oh!” she murmured, as she saw the dilemma. “What have I done!”
Her face had sagged. “Oh!” she said softly, as she realized the problem. “What have I done!”
There was a smell of something burning within, and he looked through the window. The rabbit that he had been cooking to coax a weak appetite was beginning to char. “Please go in and attend to it,” he said. “Do what you like. Now I leave. You will find everything about the hut that is necessary.”
There was a smell of something burning inside, and he looked through the window. The rabbit he had been cooking to stimulate a weak appetite was starting to burn. “Please go inside and take care of it,” he said. “Do whatever you want. I'm leaving now. You'll find everything you need in the hut.”
“But, Giles—your supper,” she exclaimed. “An out-house would do for me—anything—till to-morrow at day-break!”
“But, Giles—your dinner,” she exclaimed. “A shed would be fine for me—anything—until tomorrow morning!”
He signified a negative. “I tell you to go in—you may catch agues out here in your delicate state. You can give me my supper through the window, if you feel well enough. I’ll wait a while.”
He shook his head. “I’m telling you to go inside—you might catch a cold out here in your fragile condition. You can hand me my dinner through the window if you’re up for it. I’ll wait a bit.”
He gently urged her to pass the door-way, and was relieved when he saw her within the room sitting down. Without so much as crossing the threshold himself, he closed the door upon her, and turned the key in the lock. Tapping at the window, he signified that she should open the casement, and when she had done this he handed in the key to her.
He gently encouraged her to go through the doorway and felt relieved when he saw her sitting in the room. Without stepping over the threshold himself, he closed the door behind her and turned the key in the lock. He tapped on the window to signal that she should open the casement, and once she did that, he handed her the key.
“You are locked in,” he said; “and your own mistress.”
“You're locked in,” he said, “and you're your own boss.”
Even in her trouble she could not refrain from a faint smile at his scrupulousness, as she took the door-key.
Even in her trouble, she couldn't help but smile slightly at his meticulousness as she took the door key.
“Do you feel better?” he went on. “If so, and you wish to give me some of your supper, please do. If not, it is of no importance. I can get some elsewhere.”
“Do you feel better?” he continued. “If you do and want to share some of your supper, please do. If not, it’s no big deal. I can get some food somewhere else.”
The grateful sense of his kindness stirred her to action, though she only knew half what that kindness really was. At the end of some ten minutes she again came to the window, pushed it open, and said in a whisper, “Giles!” He at once emerged from the shade, and saw that she was preparing to hand him his share of the meal upon a plate.
The grateful feeling of his kindness motivated her to act, even though she only understood part of what that kindness truly was. After about ten minutes, she went back to the window, opened it, and whispered, “Giles!” He immediately stepped out from the shade and saw that she was getting ready to give him his portion of the meal on a plate.
“I don’t like to treat you so hardly,” she murmured, with deep regret in her words as she heard the rain pattering on the leaves. “But—I suppose it is best to arrange like this?”
“I don’t like to treat you so harshly,” she said softly, with deep regret in her voice as she heard the rain hitting the leaves. “But—I guess it’s best to handle it this way?”
“Oh yes,” he said, quickly.
“Oh yeah,” he said, quickly.
“I feel that I could never have reached Sherton.”
“I feel that I could never have made it to Sherton.”
“It was impossible.”
"It was impossible."
“Are you sure you have a snug place out there?” (With renewed misgiving.)
“Are you sure you have a cozy spot out there?” (With renewed doubt.)
“Quite. Have you found everything you want? I am afraid it is rather rough accommodation.”
“Absolutely. Have you found everything you need? I'm sorry, the accommodations are a bit basic.”
“Can I notice defects? I have long passed that stage, and you know it, Giles, or you ought to.”
“Can I notice flaws? I’ve long moved past that point, and you know it, Giles, or you should.”
His eyes sadly contemplated her face as its pale responsiveness modulated through a crowd of expressions that showed only too clearly to what a pitch she was strung. If ever Winterborne’s heart fretted his bosom it was at this sight of a perfectly defenceless creature conditioned by such circumstances. He forgot his own agony in the satisfaction of having at least found her a shelter. He took his plate and cup from her hands, saying, “Now I’ll push the shutter to, and you will find an iron pin on the inside, which you must fix into the bolt. Do not stir in the morning till I come and call you.”
His eyes sadly gazed at her face as its pale reactions shifted through a range of expressions that clearly showed how tense she was. If Winterborne's heart ever felt troubled, it was when he saw this perfectly defenseless person caught in such circumstances. He forgot his own pain in the relief of knowing he had at least given her a safe place. He took his plate and cup from her hands, saying, “Now I’ll close the shutter, and you’ll find an iron pin on the inside that you need to secure into the bolt. Don’t move in the morning until I come and call you.”
She expressed an alarmed hope that he would not go very far away.
She voiced a worried hope that he wouldn’t go too far away.
“Oh no—I shall be quite within hail,” said Winterborne.
“Oh no—I’ll be just within shouting distance,” said Winterborne.
She bolted the window as directed, and he retreated. His snug place proved to be a wretched little shelter of the roughest kind, formed of four hurdles thatched with brake-fern. Underneath were dry sticks, hay, and other litter of the sort, upon which he sat down; and there in the dark tried to eat his meal. But his appetite was quite gone. He pushed the plate aside, and shook up the hay and sacks, so as to form a rude couch, on which he flung himself down to sleep, for it was getting late.
She locked the window as instructed, and he stepped back. His cramped spot turned out to be a miserable little shelter made of four wooden panels covered with ferns. Underneath were dry sticks, hay, and other debris, where he sat down; there in the dark, he tried to eat his meal. But he had lost all appetite. He pushed the plate aside and fluffed up the hay and sacks to create a makeshift bed, where he threw himself down to sleep because it was getting late.
But sleep he could not, for many reasons, of which not the least was thought of his charge. He sat up, and looked towards the cot through the damp obscurity. With all its external features the same as usual, he could scarcely believe that it contained the dear friend—he would not use a warmer name—who had come to him so unexpectedly, and, he could not help admitting, so rashly.
But he couldn't sleep, for many reasons, not the least of which was thinking about his responsibility. He sat up and looked toward the bed through the damp darkness. With all its usual features, he could hardly believe it contained the dear friend—he wouldn't use a warmer term—who had come to him so unexpectedly and, he had to admit, so recklessly.
He had not ventured to ask her any particulars; but the position was pretty clear without them. Though social law had negatived forever their opening paradise of the previous June, it was not without stoical pride that he accepted the present trying conjuncture. There was one man on earth in whom she believed absolutely, and he was that man. That this crisis could end in nothing but sorrow was a view for a moment effaced by this triumphant thought of her trust in him; and the purity of the affection with which he responded to that trust rendered him more than proof against any frailty that besieged him in relation to her.
He hadn’t dared to ask her for details, but the situation was pretty clear without them. Even though society had permanently shut down their ideal world from the previous June, he accepted the tough situation with quiet pride. There was one person in the world she believed in completely, and that was him. For a moment, he pushed aside the thought that this crisis could only lead to sadness, instead holding onto the triumphant idea of her trust in him. The sincerity of the love he felt in response to that trust made him strong against any weakness he might feel regarding her.
The rain, which had never ceased, now drew his attention by beginning to drop through the meagre screen that covered him. He rose to attempt some remedy for this discomfort, but the trembling of his knees and the throbbing of his pulse told him that in his weakness he was unable to fence against the storm, and he lay down to bear it as best he might. He was angry with himself for his feebleness—he who had been so strong. It was imperative that she should know nothing of his present state, and to do that she must not see his face by daylight, for its color would inevitably betray him.
The constant rain now caught his attention as it started to drip through the thin cover above him. He got up to try to fix this discomfort, but the shaking of his knees and the pounding of his heart told him that he was too weak to fight against the storm, so he lay down to endure it as best as he could. He felt frustrated with himself for being so weak—he who had once been so strong. It was crucial that she should know nothing about how he was feeling right now, and to ensure that, she couldn’t see his face in the daylight, because its color would give him away.
The next morning, accordingly, when it was hardly light, he rose and dragged his stiff limbs about the precincts, preparing for her everything she could require for getting breakfast within. On the bench outside the window-sill he placed water, wood, and other necessaries, writing with a piece of chalk beside them, “It is best that I should not see you. Put my breakfast on the bench.”
The next morning, as soon as it was barely light, he got up and moved around stiffly, getting everything she might need to make breakfast. He set out water, wood, and other essentials on the bench outside the window, and wrote with a piece of chalk next to them, “It’s best if I don’t see you. Just put my breakfast on the bench.”
At seven o’clock he tapped at her window, as he had promised, retreating at once, that she might not catch sight of him. But from his shelter under the boughs he could see her very well, when, in response to his signal, she opened the window and the light fell upon her face. The languid largeness of her eyes showed that her sleep had been little more than his own, and the pinkness of their lids, that her waking hours had not been free from tears.
At seven o’clock, he knocked on her window like he said he would, quickly stepping back so she wouldn't see him. But from his hiding spot under the branches, he could see her clearly when she opened the window in response to his signal, and the light illuminated her face. The heavy look in her eyes indicated that she hadn’t slept much more than he had, and the redness of her eyelids suggested that her waking hours had been filled with tears.
She read the writing, seemed, he thought, disappointed, but took up the materials he had provided, evidently thinking him some way off. Giles waited on, assured that a girl who, in spite of her culture, knew what country life was, would find no difficulty in the simple preparation of their food.
She read the writing and seemed, he thought, disappointed, but then picked up the materials he had provided, clearly thinking he was some distance away. Giles waited, confident that a girl who, despite her education, understood country life would have no trouble with the simple task of preparing their food.
Within the cot it was all very much as he conjectured, though Grace had slept much longer than he. After the loneliness of the night, she would have been glad to see him; but appreciating his feeling when she read the writing, she made no attempt to recall him. She found abundance of provisions laid in, his plan being to replenish his buttery weekly, and this being the day after the victualling van had called from Sherton. When the meal was ready, she put what he required outside, as she had done with the supper; and, notwithstanding her longing to see him, withdrew from the window promptly, and left him to himself.
Within the cot, everything was just as he guessed, though Grace had slept much longer than he had. After a lonely night, she would have been happy to see him; however, understanding his feelings when she read the note, she didn’t try to call him back. She found plenty of food stocked up, as his plan was to restock his pantry weekly, and today was the day after the delivery van had come from Sherton. When the meal was ready, she put out what he needed, just like she had done for supper; despite her strong desire to see him, she quickly pulled away from the window and left him alone.
It had been a leaden dawn, and the rain now steadily renewed its fall. As she heard no more of Winterborne, she concluded that he had gone away to his daily work, and forgotten that he had promised to accompany her to Sherton; an erroneous conclusion, for he remained all day, by force of his condition, within fifty yards of where she was. The morning wore on; and in her doubt when to start, and how to travel, she lingered yet, keeping the door carefully bolted, lest an intruder should discover her. Locked in this place, she was comparatively safe, at any rate, and doubted if she would be safe elsewhere.
It had been a gray dawn, and the rain was now falling steadily again. Since she heard nothing more from Winterborne, she thought he had gone off to work and forgotten that he promised to take her to Sherton; a wrong assumption, because he actually stayed all day, stuck by his situation, within fifty yards of her. The morning continued on; unsure of when to leave and how to get there, she hesitated, keeping the door securely bolted, fearing that an intruder might find her. Locked in this place, she felt relatively safe, at least, and doubted she would be safe anywhere else.
The humid gloom of an ordinary wet day was doubled by the shade and drip of the leafage. Autumn, this year, was coming in with rains. Gazing, in her enforced idleness, from the one window of the living-room, she could see various small members of the animal community that lived unmolested there—creatures of hair, fluff, and scale, the toothed kind and the billed kind; underground creatures, jointed and ringed—circumambulating the hut, under the impression that, Giles having gone away, nobody was there; and eying it inquisitively with a view to winter-quarters. Watching these neighbors, who knew neither law nor sin, distracted her a little from her trouble; and she managed to while away some portion of the afternoon by putting Giles’s home in order and making little improvements which she deemed that he would value when she was gone.
The damp gloom of an ordinary rainy day was intensified by the shade and dripping leaves. This year, autumn was arriving with heavy rains. Staring out from the only window in the living room during her forced downtime, she could see various small animals that lived peacefully around there—creatures with fur, fluff, and scales, both those with teeth and those with beaks; underground creatures, jointed and segmented—circling the hut, under the assumption that since Giles was gone, no one was home; and checking it out curiously to consider it for winter. Watching these neighbors, who were unaware of laws or wrongdoings, distracted her somewhat from her worries; and she managed to spend part of the afternoon organizing Giles’s home and making small improvements that she thought he would appreciate after she was gone.
Once or twice she fancied that she heard a faint noise amid the trees, resembling a cough; but as it never came any nearer she concluded that it was a squirrel or a bird.
Once or twice, she thought she heard a faint sound among the trees, like a cough; but since it never got any closer, she figured it was just a squirrel or a bird.
At last the daylight lessened, and she made up a larger fire for the evenings were chilly. As soon as it was too dark—which was comparatively early—to discern the human countenance in this place of shadows, there came to the window to her great delight, a tapping which she knew from its method to be Giles’s.
At last, the daylight faded, and she built a bigger fire since the evenings were chilly. As soon as it got too dark—which was relatively early—to make out a person's face in this shadowy place, she heard a tap at the window that she recognized as Giles’s.
She opened the casement instantly, and put out her hand to him, though she could only just perceive his outline. He clasped her fingers, and she noticed the heat of his palm and its shakiness.
She opened the window right away and reached out her hand to him, even though she could barely make out his shape. He took her fingers, and she felt the warmth of his hand and how it trembled.
“He has been walking fast, in order to get here quickly,” she thought. How could she know that he had just crawled out from the straw of the shelter hard by; and that the heat of his hand was feverishness?
“He's been walking fast to get here quickly,” she thought. How could she know that he had just crawled out from the straw of the nearby shelter; and that the heat of his hand was from a fever?
“My dear, good Giles!” she burst out, impulsively.
"My dear, sweet Giles!" she exclaimed, impulsively.
“Anybody would have done it for you,” replied Winterborne, with as much matter-of-fact as he could summon.
“Anyone would have done it for you,” Winterborne replied, trying to sound as matter-of-fact as possible.
“About my getting to Exbury?” she said.
“About how I got to Exbury?” she said.
“I have been thinking,” responded Giles, with tender deference, “that you had better stay where you are for the present, if you wish not to be caught. I need not tell you that the place is yours as long as you like; and perhaps in a day or two, finding you absent, he will go away. At any rate, in two or three days I could do anything to assist—such as make inquiries, or go a great way towards Sherton-Abbas with you; for the cider season will soon be coming on, and I want to run down to the Vale to see how the crops are, and I shall go by the Sherton road. But for a day or two I am busy here.” He was hoping that by the time mentioned he would be strong enough to engage himself actively on her behalf. “I hope you do not feel over-much melancholy in being a prisoner?”
“I’ve been thinking,” said Giles, with gentle respect, “that it’s probably best for you to stay where you are for now if you don’t want to get caught. I don’t need to tell you that this place is yours for as long as you want; and maybe in a day or two, if he notices you’re not around, he’ll leave. Anyway, in two or three days, I can help in any way—like making inquiries or even going part of the way to Sherton-Abbas with you; the cider season is coming up soon, and I want to head down to the Vale to check on the crops, and I’ll be taking the Sherton road. But for a day or two, I’m tied up here.” He was hoping that by then, he would be strong enough to actively help her. “I hope you’re not feeling too gloomy about being stuck here?”
She declared that she did not mind it; but she sighed.
She said she didn't mind it; but she sighed.
From long acquaintance they could read each other’s heart-symptoms like books of large type. “I fear you are sorry you came,” said Giles, “and that you think I should have advised you more firmly than I did not to stay.”
From long acquaintance, they could read each other's feelings like an easy-to-read book. "I’m afraid you regret coming," said Giles, "and that you think I should have told you more strongly not to stay."
“Oh no, dear, dear friend,” answered Grace, with a heaving bosom. “Don’t think that that is what I regret. What I regret is my enforced treatment of you—dislodging you, excluding you from your own house. Why should I not speak out? You know what I feel for you—what I have felt for no other living man, what I shall never feel for a man again! But as I have vowed myself to somebody else than you, and cannot be released, I must behave as I do behave, and keep that vow. I am not bound to him by any divine law, after what he has done; but I have promised, and I will pay.”
“Oh no, my dear friend,” Grace replied, her chest rising and falling dramatically. “Don’t think that's what I regret. What I regret is how I’ve had to treat you—kicking you out and pushing you away from your own home. Why shouldn’t I speak my mind? You know how I feel about you—what I’ve felt for no other man, and what I will never feel for anyone else again! But since I’ve committed myself to someone else and can’t be free of that commitment, I have to act the way I do and stick to that promise. I’m not bound to him by any divine law, given what he’s done; but I made a promise, and I’m going to keep it.”
The rest of the evening was passed in his handing her such things as she would require the next day, and casual remarks thereupon, an occupation which diverted her mind to some degree from pathetic views of her attitude towards him, and of her life in general. The only infringement—if infringement it could be called—of his predetermined bearing towards her was an involuntary pressing of her hand to his lips when she put it through the casement to bid him good-night. He knew she was weeping, though he could not see her tears.
The rest of the evening was spent with him handing her the things she'd need for the next day, along with some casual comments, which helped distract her a bit from the sad thoughts about her feelings for him and her life overall. The only slight break—if you could call it that—from his planned demeanor towards her was when he accidentally kissed her hand as she reached through the window to say goodnight. He knew she was crying, even though he couldn't see her tears.
She again entreated his forgiveness for so selfishly appropriating the cottage. But it would only be for a day or two more, she thought, since go she must.
She pleaded with him once more to forgive her for being so selfish about taking the cottage. But she figured it would only be for a day or two longer, as she had to leave.
He replied, yearningly, “I—I don’t like you to go away.”
He replied, longingly, “I—I don’t want you to leave.”
“Oh, Giles,” said she, “I know—I know! But—I am a woman, and you are a man. I cannot speak more plainly. ‘Whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are of good report’—you know what is in my mind, because you know me so well.”
“Oh, Giles,” she said, “I know—I know! But—I’m a woman, and you’re a man. I can’t say it any clearer. ‘Whatever is pure, whatever is commendable’—you know what I’m thinking, because you know me so well.”
“Yes, Grace, yes. I do not at all mean that the question between us has not been settled by the fact of your marriage turning out hopelessly unalterable. I merely meant—well, a feeling no more.”
“Yes, Grace, yes. I don’t mean to say that the issue between us hasn’t been resolved by the fact that your marriage is completely unchangeable. I just meant—well, it’s just a feeling.”
“In a week, at the outside, I should be discovered if I stayed here: and I think that by law he could compel me to return to him.”
“In a week at the most, I'd be found out if I stayed here: and I believe he could legally force me to go back to him.”
“Yes; perhaps you are right. Go when you wish, dear Grace.”
“Yeah; maybe you're right. Go whenever you want, dear Grace.”
His last words that evening were a hopeful remark that all might be well with her yet; that Mr. Fitzpiers would not intrude upon her life, if he found that his presence cost her so much pain. Then the window was closed, the shutters folded, and the rustle of his footsteps died away.
His last words that evening were a hopeful comment that everything might still be okay with her; that Mr. Fitzpiers wouldn’t interfere in her life if he realized that his presence caused her so much distress. Then the window was closed, the shutters were pulled shut, and the sound of his footsteps faded away.
No sooner had she retired to rest that night than the wind began to rise, and, after a few prefatory blasts, to be accompanied by rain. The wind grew more violent, and as the storm went on, it was difficult to believe that no opaque body, but only an invisible colorless thing, was trampling and climbing over the roof, making branches creak, springing out of the trees upon the chimney, popping its head into the flue, and shrieking and blaspheming at every corner of the walls. As in the old story, the assailant was a spectre which could be felt but not seen. She had never before been so struck with the devilry of a gusty night in a wood, because she had never been so entirely alone in spirit as she was now. She seemed almost to be apart from herself—a vacuous duplicate only. The recent self of physical animation and clear intentions was not there.
No sooner had she gone to bed that night than the wind started to pick up, and after a few prelude gusts, it was joined by rain. The wind became stronger, and as the storm continued, it was hard to believe that only an invisible, colorless force was stomping and climbing over the roof, making branches creak, leaping from the trees onto the chimney, poking its head into the flue, and howling and cursing at every corner of the walls. Like in the old story, the attacker was a ghost that could be felt but not seen. She had never before experienced the wickedness of a blustery night in the woods because she had never felt so completely alone in spirit as she did now. She felt almost detached from herself—a hollow replica only. Her recent self of physical energy and clear intentions was missing.
Sometimes a bough from an adjoining tree was swayed so low as to smite the roof in the manner of a gigantic hand smiting the mouth of an adversary, to be followed by a trickle of rain, as blood from the wound. To all this weather Giles must be more or less exposed; how much, she did not know.
Sometimes a branch from a nearby tree would swing low enough to hit the roof like a giant hand striking the face of an opponent, followed by a trickle of rain, like blood from a wound. Giles had to be somewhat exposed to all this weather; exactly how much, she wasn’t sure.
At last Grace could hardly endure the idea of such a hardship in relation to him. Whatever he was suffering, it was she who had caused it; he vacated his house on account of her. She was not worth such self-sacrifice; she should not have accepted it of him. And then, as her anxiety increased with increasing thought, there returned upon her mind some incidents of her late intercourse with him, which she had heeded but little at the time. The look of his face—what had there been about his face which seemed different from its appearance as of yore? Was it not thinner, less rich in hue, less like that of ripe autumn’s brother to whom she had formerly compared him? And his voice; she had distinctly noticed a change in tone. And his gait; surely it had been feebler, stiffer, more like the gait of a weary man. That slight occasional noise she had heard in the day, and attributed to squirrels, it might have been his cough after all.
At last, Grace could hardly bear the thought of such a burden related to him. No matter what he was going through, she was the one who had caused it; he left his home because of her. She wasn’t worth such self-sacrifice; she shouldn’t have accepted it from him. Then, as her worry grew with her thoughts, memories of her recent interactions with him came back to her, which she had barely noticed at the time. The look on his face—what was it about his face that seemed different from how it used to be? Wasn’t it thinner, less vibrant, less like the rich color of autumn that she had compared him to before? And his voice; she had clearly noticed a change in his tone. And his walk; it surely had become weaker, stiffer, more like the walk of a tired man. That little noise she had heard during the day, which she had attributed to squirrels, might have actually been his cough after all.
Thus conviction took root in her perturbed mind that Winterborne was ill, or had been so, and that he had carefully concealed his condition from her that she might have no scruples about accepting a hospitality which by the nature of the case expelled her entertainer.
Thus, she became convinced in her troubled mind that Winterborne was sick, or had been, and that he had intentionally hidden his condition from her so that she wouldn’t have any reservations about accepting the hospitality that, by its very nature, excluded him as the host.
“My own, own, true l——, my dear kind friend!” she cried to herself. “Oh, it shall not be—it shall not be!”
“My own, own, true love, my dear kind friend!” she cried to herself. “Oh, it won’t happen—it won’t happen!”
She hastily wrapped herself up, and obtained a light, with which she entered the adjoining room, the cot possessing only one floor. Setting down the candle on the table here, she went to the door with the key in her hand, and placed it in the lock. Before turning it she paused, her fingers still clutching it; and pressing her other hand to her forehead, she fell into agitating thought.
She quickly wrapped herself up and got a light, with which she entered the next room, which only had one level. After putting the candle on the table, she approached the door with the key in hand and inserted it into the lock. Before turning it, she hesitated, her fingers still gripping it; pressing her other hand to her forehead, she sank into troubling thoughts.
A tattoo on the window, caused by the tree-droppings blowing against it, brought her indecision to a close. She turned the key and opened the door.
A mark on the window, made by tree debris blowing against it, helped her make up her mind. She turned the key and opened the door.
The darkness was intense, seeming to touch her pupils like a substance. She only now became aware how heavy the rainfall had been and was; the dripping of the eaves splashed like a fountain. She stood listening with parted lips, and holding the door in one hand, till her eyes, growing accustomed to the obscurity, discerned the wild brandishing of their boughs by the adjoining trees. At last she cried loudly with an effort, “Giles! you may come in!”
The darkness was so thick it felt like it was reaching out to her eyes. Now she realized just how heavy the rain had been; the water dripping from the roof splashed down like a fountain. She stood there with her lips slightly parted, holding the door with one hand, until her eyes adjusted to the gloom and she could see the nearby trees wildly shaking their branches. Finally, she shouted with all her strength, “Giles! You can come in!”
There was no immediate answer to her cry, and overpowered by her own temerity, Grace retreated quickly, shut the door, and stood looking on the floor. But it was not for long. She again lifted the latch, and with far more determination than at first.
There was no quick response to her call, and feeling overwhelmed by her own boldness, Grace quickly stepped back, closed the door, and stared at the floor. But it didn’t last long. She lifted the latch again, this time with much more determination than before.
“Giles, Giles!” she cried, with the full strength of her voice, and without any of the shamefacedness that had characterized her first cry. “Oh, come in—come in! Where are you? I have been wicked. I have thought too much of myself! Do you hear? I don’t want to keep you out any longer. I cannot bear that you should suffer so. Gi-i-iles!”
“Giles, Giles!” she shouted, with all her voice, and without the embarrassment that had marked her first call. “Oh, come in—come in! Where are you? I’ve been terrible. I’ve been too focused on myself! Do you hear me? I don’t want to keep you away any longer. I can’t stand that you should be in pain like this. Gi-i-iles!”
A reply! It was a reply! Through the darkness and wind a voice reached her, floating upon the weather as though a part of it.
A reply! It was a reply! Through the darkness and wind, a voice came to her, blending with the weather as if it were part of it.
“Here I am—all right. Don’t trouble about me.”
“Here I am—I'm fine. Don’t worry about me.”
“Don’t you want to come in? Are you not wet? Come to me! I don’t mind what they say, or what they think any more.”
“Don’t you want to come in? Aren’t you wet? Come to me! I don’t care what they say or what they think anymore.”
“I am all right,” he repeated. “It is not necessary for me to come. Good-night! good-night!”
“I’m fine,” he repeated. “I don’t need to come. Good night! Good night!”
Grace sighed, turned and shut the door slowly. Could she have been mistaken about his health? Perhaps, after all, she had perceived a change in him because she had not seen him for so long. Time sometimes did his ageing work in jerks, as she knew. Well, she had done all she could. He would not come in. She retired to rest again.
Grace sighed, turned, and slowly shut the door. Could she have been wrong about his health? Maybe she noticed a change in him simply because she hadn’t seen him in such a long time. Time sometimes made people age in fits and starts, as she knew. Well, she had done everything she could. He wouldn’t come in. She went back to rest again.
CHAPTER XLII.
The next morning Grace was at the window early. She felt determined to see him somehow that day, and prepared his breakfast eagerly. Eight o’clock struck, and she had remembered that he had not come to arouse her by a knocking, as usual, her own anxiety having caused her to stir.
The next morning, Grace was at the window early. She was determined to see him somehow that day and eagerly made his breakfast. When eight o'clock hit, she realized he hadn't come to wake her up with his usual knock, and her own anxiety had made her get up.
The breakfast was set in its place without. But he did not arrive to take it; and she waited on. Nine o’clock arrived, and the breakfast was cold; and still there was no Giles. A thrush, that had been repeating itself a good deal on an opposite bush for some time, came and took a morsel from the plate and bolted it, waited, looked around, and took another. At ten o’clock she drew in the tray, and sat down to her own solitary meal. He must have been called away on business early, the rain having cleared off.
The breakfast was laid out but he didn’t show up to eat it; she kept waiting. Nine o’clock came, and the breakfast was cold; still, there was no sign of Giles. A thrush, which had been chirping a lot from a nearby bush, flew over, grabbed a piece from the plate, swallowed it quickly, looked around, and went for another. At ten o’clock, she took the tray inside and sat down for her own lonely meal. He must have been called away for work early since the rain had stopped.
Yet she would have liked to assure herself, by thoroughly exploring the precincts of the hut, that he was nowhere in its vicinity; but as the day was comparatively fine, the dread lest some stray passenger or woodman should encounter her in such a reconnoitre paralyzed her wish. The solitude was further accentuated to-day by the stopping of the clock for want of winding, and the fall into the chimney-corner of flakes of soot loosened by the rains. At noon she heard a slight rustling outside the window, and found that it was caused by an eft which had crept out of the leaves to bask in the last sun-rays that would be worth having till the following May.
Yet she wanted to reassure herself by thoroughly searching the area around the hut to make sure he wasn’t nearby; however, since the weather was relatively nice, the fear of running into a random traveler or woodsman during her search made her hesitate. The solitude felt even more pronounced today because the clock had stopped winding, and flakes of soot had fallen into the corner by the chimney, loosened by the rain. At noon, she heard a faint rustling outside the window and discovered it was an eft that had emerged from the leaves to soak up the last rays of sunlight worth enjoying until next May.
She continually peeped out through the lattice, but could see little. In front lay the brown leaves of last year, and upon them some yellowish-green ones of this season that had been prematurely blown down by the gale. Above stretched an old beech, with vast armpits, and great pocket-holes in its sides where branches had been amputated in past times; a black slug was trying to climb it. Dead boughs were scattered about like ichthyosauri in a museum, and beyond them were perishing woodbine stems resembling old ropes.
She kept looking out through the lattice, but could see very little. In front of her were the brown leaves from last year and some yellowish-green ones from this season that had been blown down early by the wind. Above, there was an old beech tree with wide gaps in its trunk and big holes where branches had been cut off in the past; a black slug was trying to climb it. Dead branches were scattered around like dinosaur fossils in a museum, and beyond them were dying honeysuckle stems that looked like old ropes.
From the other window all she could see were more trees, jacketed with lichen and stockinged with moss. At their roots were stemless yellow fungi like lemons and apricots, and tall fungi with more stem than stool. Next were more trees close together, wrestling for existence, their branches disfigured with wounds resulting from their mutual rubbings and blows. It was the struggle between these neighbors that she had heard in the night. Beneath them were the rotting stumps of those of the group that had been vanquished long ago, rising from their mossy setting like decayed teeth from green gums. Farther on were other tufts of moss in islands divided by the shed leaves—variety upon variety, dark green and pale green; moss-like little fir-trees, like plush, like malachite stars, like nothing on earth except moss.
From the other window, all she could see were more trees covered in lichen and draped in moss. At their roots were stemless yellow fungi that looked like lemons and apricots, along with tall fungi that had more stem than cap. Next were more trees growing closely together, struggling for survival, their branches scarred from rubbing against each other. It was the fight between these neighbors that she had heard at night. Beneath them were the rotting stumps of those that had been defeated long ago, rising from their mossy surroundings like decayed teeth from green gums. Further along were other patches of moss separated by fallen leaves—variety upon variety, dark green and pale green; moss-like little fir trees, plush, like malachite stars, like nothing on earth except moss.
The strain upon Grace’s mind in various ways was so great on this the most desolate day she had passed there that she felt it would be well-nigh impossible to spend another in such circumstances. The evening came at last; the sun, when its chin was on the earth, found an opening through which to pierce the shade, and stretched irradiated gauzes across the damp atmosphere, making the wet trunks shine, and throwing splotches of such ruddiness on the leaves beneath the beech that they were turned to gory hues. When night at last arrived, and with it the time for his return, she was nearly broken down with suspense.
The pressure on Grace's mind in different ways was so intense on this most lonely day she had spent there that she felt it would be nearly impossible to endure another day in such conditions. Finally, evening came; when the sun was low on the horizon, it found a way through the trees to break the darkness, casting radiant rays across the damp air, making the wet trunks gleam, and throwing patches of red onto the leaves below the beech, turning them vibrant shades. When night finally arrived and with it the time for his return, she was almost overwhelmed with anxiety.
The simple evening meal, partly tea, partly supper, which Grace had prepared, stood waiting upon the hearth; and yet Giles did not come. It was now nearly twenty-four hours since she had seen him. As the room grew darker, and only the firelight broke against the gloom of the walls, she was convinced that it would be beyond her staying power to pass the night without hearing from him or from somebody. Yet eight o’clock drew on, and his form at the window did not appear.
The simple evening meal, part tea, part supper, that Grace had prepared, was waiting on the hearth; yet Giles still hadn’t come. It had been almost twenty-four hours since she had seen him. As the room got darker, with only the firelight flickering against the shadows on the walls, she was sure she wouldn’t be able to get through the night without hearing from him or someone else. But eight o’clock approached, and his figure at the window still didn’t show up.
The meal remained untasted. Suddenly rising from before the hearth of smouldering embers, where she had been crouching with her hands clasped over her knees, she crossed the room, unlocked the door, and listened. Every breath of wind had ceased with the decline of day, but the rain had resumed the steady dripping of the night before. Grace might have stood there five minutes when she fancied she heard that old sound, a cough, at no great distance; and it was presently repeated. If it were Winterborne’s, he must be near her; why, then, had he not visited her?
The meal sat untouched. Suddenly getting up from the hearth of smoldering embers, where she had been crouching with her hands on her knees, she walked across the room, unlocked the door, and listened. Every breath of wind had stopped with the end of the day, but the rain had picked up the steady dripping from the night before. Grace might have stood there for five minutes when she thought she heard that familiar sound, a cough, not too far away; and it came again. If it was Winterborne’s, he must be close by; so why hadn’t he come to see her?
A horrid misgiving that he could not visit her took possession of Grace, and she looked up anxiously for the lantern, which was hanging above her head. To light it and go in the direction of the sound would be the obvious way to solve the dread problem; but the conditions made her hesitate, and in a moment a cold sweat pervaded her at further sounds from the same quarter.
A terrible fear that she wouldn’t be able to see him gripped Grace, and she looked up nervously at the lantern hanging above her. Lighting it and heading towards the sound seemed like the obvious solution to her fear, but the circumstances made her hesitate, and soon she was drenched in a cold sweat from more noises coming from that direction.
They were low mutterings; at first like persons in conversation, but gradually resolving themselves into varieties of one voice. It was an endless monologue, like that we sometimes hear from inanimate nature in deep secret places where water flows, or where ivy leaves flap against stones; but by degrees she was convinced that the voice was Winterborne’s. Yet who could be his listener, so mute and patient; for though he argued so rapidly and persistently, nobody replied.
They were quiet murmurs; at first like people talking, but slowly turning into a single voice. It was an ongoing monologue, similar to what we sometimes hear from nature in hidden areas where water flows, or where ivy leaves brush against rocks; but little by little, she became sure that the voice was Winterborne’s. But who could be his listener, so silent and patient; because even though he argued so quickly and persistently, no one answered.
A dreadful enlightenment spread through the mind of Grace. “Oh,” she cried, in her anguish, as she hastily prepared herself to go out, “how selfishly correct I am always—too, too correct! Cruel propriety is killing the dearest heart that ever woman clasped to her own.”
A terrible realization hit Grace. “Oh,” she exclaimed in her distress, quickly getting ready to go out, “how selfishly right I am all the time—too, too right! Cruel propriety is killing the dearest heart that any woman has ever held close.”
While speaking thus to herself she had lit the lantern, and hastening out without further thought, took the direction whence the mutterings had proceeded. The course was marked by a little path, which ended at a distance of about forty yards in a small erection of hurdles, not much larger than a shock of corn, such as were frequent in the woods and copses when the cutting season was going on. It was too slight even to be called a hovel, and was not high enough to stand upright in; appearing, in short, to be erected for the temporary shelter of fuel. The side towards Grace was open, and turning the light upon the interior, she beheld what her prescient fear had pictured in snatches all the way thither.
While talking to herself, she lit the lantern and quickly stepped outside, heading toward the source of the murmurs without a second thought. A narrow path marked her way, leading to a small structure made of hurdles about forty yards away, not much bigger than a haystack, common in the woods and clearings during harvest time. It was too flimsy to be considered a hut and low enough that she couldn't stand up inside; it seemed to have been built solely for temporary storage of firewood. The side facing Grace was open, and when she shone the light inside, she saw exactly what her uneasy instincts had suggested to her along the way.
Upon the straw within, Winterborne lay in his clothes, just as she had seen him during the whole of her stay here, except that his hat was off, and his hair matted and wild.
Upon the straw inside, Winterborne lay in his clothes, just as she had seen him throughout her entire stay here, except that his hat was off, and his hair was tangled and messy.
Both his clothes and the straw were saturated with rain. His arms were flung over his head; his face was flushed to an unnatural crimson. His eyes had a burning brightness, and though they met her own, she perceived that he did not recognize her.
Both his clothes and the straw were soaked with rain. His arms were raised above his head; his face was bright red. His eyes had a fiery gleam, and even though they locked onto hers, she realized that he did not recognize her.
“Oh, my Giles,” she cried, “what have I done to you!”
“Oh, my Giles,” she exclaimed, “what have I done to you!”
But she stopped no longer even to reproach herself. She saw that the first thing to be thought of was to get him indoors.
But she didn’t stop to even blame herself anymore. She realized that the first priority was to get him inside.
How Grace performed that labor she never could have exactly explained. But by dint of clasping her arms round him, rearing him into a sitting posture, and straining her strength to the uttermost, she put him on one of the hurdles that was loose alongside, and taking the end of it in both her hands, dragged him along the path to the entrance of the hut, and, after a pause for breath, in at the door-way.
How Grace managed to do that task, she could never fully explain. But by wrapping her arms around him, propping him up into a sitting position, and pushing herself to the limit, she lifted him onto one of the nearby hurdles that was loose. Then, grabbing the end of it with both hands, she pulled him along the path to the entrance of the hut, and after taking a moment to catch her breath, she went through the doorway.
It was somewhat singular that Giles in his semi-conscious state acquiesced unresistingly in all that she did. But he never for a moment recognized her—continuing his rapid conversation to himself, and seeming to look upon her as some angel, or other supernatural creature of the visionary world in which he was mentally living. The undertaking occupied her more than ten minutes; but by that time, to her great thankfulness, he was in the inner room, lying on the bed, his damp outer clothing removed.
It was quite unusual that Giles, in his semi-conscious state, went along with everything she did without resisting. But he never recognized her—continuing his fast-paced conversation with himself and seeming to see her as some kind of angel or other supernatural being from the imaginary world he was living in. The task took her more than ten minutes; but by that time, to her great relief, he was in the inner room, lying on the bed, his wet outer clothes taken off.
Then the unhappy Grace regarded him by the light of the candle. There was something in his look which agonized her, in the rush of his thoughts, accelerating their speed from minute to minute. He seemed to be passing through the universe of ideas like a comet—erratic, inapprehensible, untraceable.
Then the unhappy Grace looked at him by the candlelight. There was something in his expression that tormented her, as his thoughts raced faster by the minute. He seemed to be flying through a universe of ideas like a comet—wild, unfathomable, and impossible to follow.
Grace’s distraction was almost as great as his. In a few moments she firmly believed he was dying. Unable to withstand her impulse, she knelt down beside him, kissed his hands and his face and his hair, exclaiming, in a low voice, “How could I? How could I?”
Grace’s distraction was almost as intense as his. In just a few moments, she was convinced he was dying. Unable to resist her urge, she knelt beside him, kissed his hands, his face, and his hair, whispering, “How could I? How could I?”
Her timid morality had, indeed, underrated his chivalry till now, though she knew him so well. The purity of his nature, his freedom from the grosser passions, his scrupulous delicacy, had never been fully understood by Grace till this strange self-sacrifice in lonely juxtaposition to her own person was revealed. The perception of it added something that was little short of reverence to the deep affection for him of a woman who, herself, had more of Artemis than of Aphrodite in her constitution.
Her shy sense of right had, until now, underestimated his nobility, even though she knew him so well. The goodness of his character, his lack of base desires, and his careful consideration for others had never been completely recognized by Grace until this unusual act of selflessness, contrasting sharply with her own situation, came to light. Realizing this added a touch of respect to the deep love she had for him, a woman who, in her nature, embodied more of Artemis than Aphrodite.
All that a tender nurse could do, Grace did; and the power to express her solicitude in action, unconscious though the sufferer was, brought her mournful satisfaction. She bathed his hot head, wiped his perspiring hands, moistened his lips, cooled his fiery eyelids, sponged his heated skin, and administered whatever she could find in the house that the imagination could conceive as likely to be in any way alleviating. That she might have been the cause, or partially the cause, of all this, interfused misery with her sorrow.
All that a caring nurse could do, Grace did; and the ability to show her concern through actions, even though the patient was unaware, gave her a sad sense of fulfillment. She bathed his feverish head, wiped his sweaty hands, moistened his lips, cooled his burning eyelids, sponged his heated skin, and gave him whatever she could find around the house that could help in any way. The thought that she might have caused, or contributed to, all this mixed her sorrow with misery.
Six months before this date a scene, almost similar in its mechanical parts, had been enacted at Hintock House. It was between a pair of persons most intimately connected in their lives with these. Outwardly like as it had been, it was yet infinite in spiritual difference, though a woman’s devotion had been common to both.
Six months before this date, a scene that was almost identical in its mechanical aspects took place at Hintock House. It involved two people who were very closely connected in their lives with each other. While it appeared similar on the surface, it was vastly different on a spiritual level, even though a woman's devotion was shared by both.
Grace rose from her attitude of affection, and, bracing her energies, saw that something practical must immediately be done. Much as she would have liked, in the emotion of the moment, to keep him entirely to herself, medical assistance was necessary while there remained a possibility of preserving him alive. Such assistance was fatal to her own concealment; but even had the chance of benefiting him been less than it was, she would have run the hazard for his sake. The question was, where should she get a medical man, competent and near?
Grace stood up, her feelings of affection swirling inside her, and realized that something practical needed to be done right away. As much as she wished to keep him all to herself in that emotional moment, she knew he needed medical help while there was still a chance to save him. Getting that help would expose her own secret, but even if the chances of helping him were lower, she would have risked it for him. The real question was, where could she find a doctor who was both skilled and nearby?
There was one such man, and only one, within accessible distance; a man who, if it were possible to save Winterborne’s life, had the brain most likely to do it. If human pressure could bring him, that man ought to be brought to the sick Giles’s side. The attempt should be made.
There was only one man nearby; a man who, if anyone could save Winterborne’s life, was the most capable of doing so. If it was possible to get him there, he should be brought to the ailing Giles’s side. They had to try.
Yet she dreaded to leave her patient, and the minutes raced past, and yet she postponed her departure. At last, when it was after eleven o’clock, Winterborne fell into a fitful sleep, and it seemed to afford her an opportunity.
Yet she feared leaving her patient, and the minutes flew by, but she still delayed her departure. Finally, when it was after eleven o’clock, Winterborne drifted into a restless sleep, and it seemed to give her a chance to go.
She hastily made him as comfortable as she could, put on her things, cut a new candle from the bunch hanging in the cupboard, and having set it up, and placed it so that the light did not fall upon his eyes, she closed the door and started.
She quickly made him as comfortable as she could, put on her clothes, took a new candle from the bunch hanging in the cupboard, and after setting it up and positioning it so the light wouldn't shine in his eyes, she closed the door and left.
The spirit of Winterborne seemed to keep her company and banish all sense of darkness from her mind. The rains had imparted a phosphorescence to the pieces of touchwood and rotting leaves that lay about her path, which, as scattered by her feet, spread abroad like spilt milk. She would not run the hazard of losing her way by plunging into any short, unfrequented track through the denser parts of the woodland, but followed a more open course, which eventually brought her to the highway. Once here, she ran along with great speed, animated by a devoted purpose which had much about it that was stoical; and it was with scarcely any faltering of spirit that, after an hour’s progress, she passed over Rubdown Hill, and onward towards that same Hintock, and that same house, out of which she had fled a few days before in irresistible alarm. But that had happened which, above all other things of chance and change, could make her deliberately frustrate her plan of flight and sink all regard of personal consequences.
The vibe of Winterborne felt like a comforting presence, pushing away any darkness in her mind. The rain had given a glow to the twigs and decaying leaves scattered on her path, which, as she stepped on them, spread out like spilled milk. She wasn't about to risk getting lost by taking any narrow, less-traveled paths through the thicker parts of the woods; instead, she chose a more open route that eventually led her to the main road. Once there, she ran quickly, driven by a strong purpose that felt almost stoic; without much hesitation, after an hour, she crossed Rubdown Hill and headed toward Hintock and the house she had fled from just days earlier in a panic. But something had happened that made her set aside her escape plan and ignore any personal consequences.
One speciality of Fitzpiers’s was respected by Grace as much as ever—his professional skill. In this she was right. Had his persistence equalled his insight, instead of being the spasmodic and fitful thing it was, fame and fortune need never have remained a wish with him. His freedom from conventional errors and crusted prejudices had, indeed, been such as to retard rather than accelerate his advance in Hintock and its neighborhood, where people could not believe that nature herself effected cures, and that the doctor’s business was only to smooth the way.
One thing Grace admired about Fitzpiers was his professional skill. She was absolutely right about that. If his determination had matched his insight, instead of being inconsistent and shaky, he could have easily achieved fame and success. His lack of conventional mistakes and outdated biases actually held him back instead of helping him move forward in Hintock and the surrounding area, where people just couldn’t accept that nature itself could heal, and that the doctor’s job was simply to facilitate that process.
It was past midnight when Grace arrived opposite her father’s house, now again temporarily occupied by her husband, unless he had already gone away. Ever since her emergence from the denser plantations about Winterborne’s residence a pervasive lightness had hung in the damp autumn sky, in spite of the vault of cloud, signifying that a moon of some age was shining above its arch. The two white gates were distinct, and the white balls on the pillars, and the puddles and damp ruts left by the recent rain, had a cold, corpse-eyed luminousness. She entered by the lower gate, and crossed the quadrangle to the wing wherein the apartments that had been hers since her marriage were situate, till she stood under a window which, if her husband were in the house, gave light to his bedchamber.
It was past midnight when Grace arrived in front of her father’s house, now temporarily occupied by her husband, unless he had already left. Ever since she had come out of the thicker woods near Winterborne’s place, a lingering lightness had hung in the damp autumn sky, despite the cloud cover, indicating that an aged moon was shining above. The two white gates were clearly visible, along with the white balls on the pillars, and the puddles and damp ruts left by the recent rain had a cold, ghostly brightness. She entered through the lower gate and crossed the courtyard to the wing where the rooms that had been hers since her marriage were located, until she stood beneath a window that, if her husband was in the house, would be lighting up his bedroom.
She faltered, and paused with her hand on her heart, in spite of herself. Could she call to her presence the very cause of all her foregoing troubles? Alas!—old Jones was seven miles off; Giles was possibly dying—what else could she do?
She hesitated, pausing with her hand on her heart, despite herself. Could she summon the very source of all her previous troubles? Unfortunately, old Jones was seven miles away; Giles might be dying—what else could she do?
It was in a perspiration, wrought even more by consciousness than by exercise, that she picked up some gravel, threw it at the panes, and waited to see the result. The night-bell which had been fixed when Fitzpiers first took up his residence there still remained; but as it had fallen into disuse with the collapse of his practice, and his elopement, she did not venture to pull it now.
It was in a sweat, caused more by anxiety than by physical activity, that she picked up some gravel, threw it at the windows, and waited to see what would happen. The night bell that had been installed when Fitzpiers first moved in was still there; but since it had fallen into disuse after his practice failed and he ran away, she didn't dare to ring it now.
Whoever slept in the room had heard her signal, slight as it was. In half a minute the window was opened, and a voice said “Yes?” inquiringly. Grace recognized her husband in the speaker at once. Her effort was now to disguise her own accents.
Whoever was sleeping in the room had heard her signal, no matter how slight it was. In half a minute, the window was opened, and a voice said "Yes?" in a questioning tone. Grace immediately recognized her husband. Now, she was trying to hide her own voice.
“Doctor,” she said, in as unusual a tone as she could command, “a man is dangerously ill in One-chimney Hut, out towards Delborough, and you must go to him at once—in all mercy!”
“Doctor,” she said, in the most unusual tone she could manage, “a man is seriously ill in One-chimney Hut, out by Delborough, and you need to go to him right away—in all mercy!”
“I will, readily.”
"Sure, I will."
The alacrity, surprise, and pleasure expressed in his reply amazed her for a moment. But, in truth, they denoted the sudden relief of a man who, having got back in a mood of contrition, from erratic abandonment to fearful joys, found the soothing routine of professional practice unexpectedly opening anew to him. The highest desire of his soul just now was for a respectable life of painstaking. If this, his first summons since his return, had been to attend upon a cat or dog, he would scarcely have refused it in the circumstances.
The eagerness, surprise, and happiness shown in his response stunned her for a moment. But really, they revealed the sudden relief of a man who, after wandering off into chaotic pleasures, returned feeling regretful and found the comforting routine of his job surprisingly available to him again. Right now, his biggest longing was for a decent life filled with hard work. If this first call since his return had been to tend to a cat or dog, he probably wouldn't have turned it down given the situation.
“Do you know the way?” she asked.
“Do you know how to get there?” she asked.
“Yes,” said he.
“Yes,” he said.
“One-chimney Hut,” she repeated. “And—immediately!”
“One-chimney Hut,” she said again. “And—right away!”
“Yes, yes,” said Fitzpiers.
“Yeah, yeah,” said Fitzpiers.
Grace remained no longer. She passed out of the white gate without slamming it, and hastened on her way back. Her husband, then, had re-entered her father’s house. How he had been able to effect a reconciliation with the old man, what were the terms of the treaty between them, she could not so much as conjecture. Some sort of truce must have been entered into, that was all she could say. But close as the question lay to her own life, there was a more urgent one which banished it; and she traced her steps quickly along the meandering track-ways.
Grace didn't stay any longer. She walked through the white gate without slamming it and hurried on her way back. Her husband had gone back into her father's house. She couldn't even guess how he had managed to make peace with the old man or what terms they agreed upon. All she could conclude was that some sort of truce must have been established. But even though this question was tied to her own life, a more pressing one pushed it aside, and she quickly followed the winding paths.
Meanwhile, Fitzpiers was preparing to leave the house. The state of his mind, over and above his professional zeal, was peculiar. At Grace’s first remark he had not recognized or suspected her presence; but as she went on, he was awakened to the great resemblance of the speaker’s voice to his wife’s. He had taken in such good faith the statement of the household on his arrival, that she had gone on a visit for a time because she could not at once bring her mind to be reconciled to him, that he could not quite actually believe this comer to be she. It was one of the features of Fitzpiers’s repentant humor at this date that, on receiving the explanation of her absence, he had made no attempt to outrage her feelings by following her; though nobody had informed him how very shortly her departure had preceded his entry, and of all that might have been inferred from her precipitancy.
Meanwhile, Fitzpiers was getting ready to leave the house. His state of mind, beyond his professional enthusiasm, was unusual. At Grace’s first remark, he hadn’t recognized or suspected her presence; but as she continued speaking, he realized how much her voice resembled his wife’s. He had accepted, without question, the household’s claim upon his arrival that she had gone away for a while because she couldn’t immediately come to terms with him, so he struggled to actually believe that this newcomer was her. One aspect of Fitzpiers’s remorse at this time was that, upon learning the reason for her absence, he made no effort to hurt her feelings by pursuing her; even though no one had told him how recently her departure had happened before he arrived, and all that could be inferred from her hasty exit.
Melbury, after much alarm and consideration, had decided not to follow her either. He sympathized with her flight, much as he deplored it; moreover, the tragic color of the antecedent events that he had been a great means of creating checked his instinct to interfere. He prayed and trusted that she had got into no danger on her way (as he supposed) to Sherton, and thence to Exbury, if that were the place she had gone to, forbearing all inquiry which the strangeness of her departure would have made natural. A few months before this time a performance by Grace of one-tenth the magnitude of this would have aroused him to unwonted investigation.
Melbury, after a lot of worry and thought, decided not to follow her either. He understood her need to leave, even though he regretted it; plus, the tragic background of the events he had played a big part in created a hesitation in him to intervene. He hoped and trusted that she hadn’t run into any trouble on her way (as he thought) to Sherton, and from there to Exbury, if that was indeed where she had gone, holding back from asking any questions that her strange departure would normally prompt. A few months earlier, a performance by Grace that was even a fraction of this would have pushed him to investigate unusually.
It was in the same spirit that he had tacitly assented to Fitzpiers’s domicilation there. The two men had not met face to face, but Mrs. Melbury had proposed herself as an intermediary, who made the surgeon’s re-entrance comparatively easy to him. Everything was provisional, and nobody asked questions. Fitzpiers had come in the performance of a plan of penitence, which had originated in circumstances hereafter to be explained; his self-humiliation to the very bass-string was deliberate; and as soon as a call reached him from the bedside of a dying man his desire was to set to work and do as much good as he could with the least possible fuss or show. He therefore refrained from calling up a stableman to get ready any horse or gig, and set out for One-chimney Hut on foot, as Grace had done.
It was in the same spirit that he had quietly agreed to Fitzpiers’s staying there. The two men hadn’t met in person, but Mrs. Melbury had offered to act as a go-between, which made the surgeon’s return easier for him. Everything was temporary, and no one asked questions. Fitzpiers had come to atone for some past actions, which would be explained later; his self-humiliation was intentional, and as soon as he got a call from the bedside of a dying man, he wanted to jump in and do as much good as he could without making a big deal out of it. So, he didn’t call for a stablehand to prepare a horse or carriage and set out for One-chimney Hut on foot, just like Grace had.
CHAPTER XLIII.
She re-entered the hut, flung off her bonnet and cloak, and approached the sufferer. He had begun anew those terrible mutterings, and his hands were cold. As soon as she saw him there returned to her that agony of mind which the stimulus of her journey had thrown off for a time.
She went back into the hut, tossed aside her bonnet and cloak, and moved closer to the person in distress. He had started those awful mutterings again, and his hands were cold. The moment she saw him, that mental anguish she had temporarily shaken off during her journey came rushing back.
Could he really be dying? She bathed him, kissed him, forgot all things but the fact that lying there before her was he who had loved her more than the mere lover would have loved; had martyred himself for her comfort, cared more for her self-respect than she had thought of caring. This mood continued till she heard quick, smart footsteps without; she knew whose footsteps they were.
Could he really be dying? She washed him, kissed him, and forgot everything except for the fact that lying there in front of her was someone who had loved her more deeply than just a lover; he had sacrificed himself for her comfort and cared more about her self-respect than she ever realized. This feeling lasted until she heard fast, sharp footsteps outside; she recognized whose footsteps they were.
Grace sat on the inside of the bed against the wall, holding Giles’s hand, so that when her husband entered the patient lay between herself and him. He stood transfixed at first, noticing Grace only. Slowly he dropped his glance and discerned who the prostrate man was. Strangely enough, though Grace’s distaste for her husband’s company had amounted almost to dread, and culminated in actual flight, at this moment her last and least feeling was personal. Sensitive femininity was eclipsed by self-effacing purpose, and that it was a husband who stood there was forgotten. The first look that possessed her face was relief; satisfaction at the presence of the physician obliterated thought of the man, which only returned in the form of a sub-consciousness that did not interfere with her words.
Grace sat against the wall on the inside of the bed, holding Giles's hand, so when her husband walked in, the patient was lying between them. He stood there in shock at first, only seeing Grace. Slowly, he looked down and realized who the man on the bed was. Oddly enough, even though Grace's dislike for her husband's presence had nearly turned into fear and had resulted in her actually leaving, at that moment, her last feeling was anything personal. Her usual sensitive femininity was overshadowed by a selfless determination, and she forgot that it was her husband who stood there. The first expression on her face was relief; her satisfaction at the physician's presence made her forget about the man, who only came back to her mind as a subconscious thought that didn't interfere with her words.
“Is he dying—is there any hope?” she cried.
“Is he dying—do we have any hope?” she cried.
“Grace!” said Fitzpiers, in an indescribable whisper—more than invocating, if not quite deprecatory.
“Grace!” said Fitzpiers, in a whisper that was hard to describe—more like a call for help, but not quite dismissive.
He was arrested by the spectacle, not so much in its intrinsic character—though that was striking enough to a man who called himself the husband of the sufferer’s friend and nurse—but in its character as the counterpart of one that had its hour many months before, in which he had figured as the patient, and the woman had been Felice Charmond.
He was captivated by the scene, not just because of its inherent nature—although that was eye-catching enough for a guy who referred to himself as the husband of the woman’s friend and caregiver—but because it mirrored a situation that had happened months earlier, where he had been the patient, and the woman had been Felice Charmond.
“Is he in great danger—can you save him?” she cried again.
“Is he in serious danger—can you help him?” she cried again.
Fitzpiers aroused himself, came a little nearer, and examined Winterborne as he stood. His inspection was concluded in a mere glance. Before he spoke he looked at her contemplatively as to the effect of his coming words.
Fitzpiers pulled himself together, moved a bit closer, and looked over Winterborne as he stood there. His assessment wrapped up in just a quick look. Before he said anything, he studied her thoughtfully, considering how his words would land.
“He is dying,” he said, with dry precision.
"He's dying," he said, with a dry precision.
“What?” said she.
“What?” she said.
“Nothing can be done, by me or any other man. It will soon be all over. The extremities are dead already.” His eyes still remained fixed on her; the conclusion to which he had come seeming to end his interest, professional and otherwise, in Winterborne forever.
“Nothing can be done, by me or anyone else. It will soon be over. The extremes are dead already.” His gaze still stayed on her; the conclusion he had reached seemed to end his interest, both professional and personal, in Winterborne for good.
“But it cannot be! He was well three days ago.”
“But it can't be! He was fine three days ago.”
“Not well, I suspect. This seems like a secondary attack, which has followed some previous illness—possibly typhoid—it may have been months ago, or recently.”
“Not great, I think. This looks like a secondary infection that came after some earlier illness—maybe typhoid—it could have happened months ago or just recently.”
“Ah—he was not well—you are right. He was ill—he was ill when I came.”
“Ah—he wasn’t well—you’re right. He was sick—he was sick when I arrived.”
There was nothing more to do or say. She crouched down at the side of the bed, and Fitzpiers took a seat. Thus they remained in silence, and long as it lasted she never turned her eyes, or apparently her thoughts, at all to her husband. He occasionally murmured, with automatic authority, some slight directions for alleviating the pain of the dying man, which she mechanically obeyed, bending over him during the intervals in silent tears.
There was nothing left to do or say. She knelt at the side of the bed, while Fitzpiers sat down. They stayed quiet, and for as long as it went on, she never looked at her husband or seemed to think of him at all. He would occasionally mumble, with a practiced authority, some minor instructions to help ease the pain of the dying man, which she followed without thinking, leaning over him during the pauses, silently crying.
Winterborne never recovered consciousness of what was passing; and that he was going became soon perceptible also to her. In less than an hour the delirium ceased; then there was an interval of somnolent painlessness and soft breathing, at the end of which Winterborne passed quietly away.
Winterborne never regained awareness of what was happening, and it soon became clear to her that he was leaving. In less than an hour, the delirium stopped; then there was a period of peaceful pain and gentle breathing, after which Winterborne quietly passed away.
Then Fitzpiers broke the silence. “Have you lived here long?” said he.
Then Fitzpiers broke the silence. “Have you been living here long?” he asked.
Grace was wild with sorrow—with all that had befallen her—with the cruelties that had attacked her—with life—with Heaven. She answered at random. “Yes. By what right do you ask?”
Grace was overwhelmed with sadness—everything that had happened to her—the harshness she had endured—life—and God. She responded impulsively, “Yes. What gives you the right to ask?”
“Don’t think I claim any right,” said Fitzpiers, sadly. “It is for you to do and say what you choose. I admit, quite as much as you feel, that I am a vagabond—a brute—not worthy to possess the smallest fragment of you. But here I am, and I have happened to take sufficient interest in you to make that inquiry.”
“Don’t think I’m claiming any rights,” said Fitzpiers, sadly. “It’s up to you to do and say what you want. I fully admit, just like you feel, that I’m a wanderer—a jerk—not deserving of even the smallest piece of you. But here I am, and I’ve taken enough interest in you to ask that question.”
“He is everything to me!” said Grace, hardly heeding her husband, and laying her hand reverently on the dead man’s eyelids, where she kept it a long time, pressing down their lashes with gentle touches, as if she were stroking a little bird.
“He means everything to me!” said Grace, barely noticing her husband, and placing her hand gently on the dead man’s eyelids, where she kept it for a long time, softly pressing down his lashes with delicate touches, as if she were petting a small bird.
He watched her a while, and then glanced round the chamber where his eyes fell upon a few dressing necessaries that she had brought.
He watched her for a bit, then looked around the room and noticed some toiletries she had brought.
“Grace—if I may call you so,” he said, “I have been already humiliated almost to the depths. I have come back since you refused to join me elsewhere—I have entered your father’s house, and borne all that that cost me without flinching, because I have felt that I deserved humiliation. But is there a yet greater humiliation in store for me? You say you have been living here—that he is everything to you. Am I to draw from that the obvious, the extremest inference?”
“Grace—if I can call you that,” he said, “I’ve already been humiliated almost completely. I came back after you turned me down to meet up somewhere else—I walked into your father’s house and took on everything that came with it without flinching because I felt I deserved it. But is there an even greater humiliation waiting for me? You say you’ve been living here—that he means everything to you. Should I take that to mean the worst possible conclusion?”
Triumph at any price is sweet to men and women—especially the latter. It was her first and last opportunity of repaying him for the cruel contumely which she had borne at his hands so docilely.
Triumph at any cost is sweet for both men and women—especially for women. It was her first and only chance to repay him for the cruel insults she had endured so obediently at his hands.
“Yes,” she answered; and there was that in her subtly compounded nature which made her feel a thrill of pride as she did so.
“Yes,” she replied; and there was something in her complex nature that gave her a thrill of pride as she did so.
Yet the moment after she had so mightily belied her character she half repented. Her husband had turned as white as the wall behind him. It seemed as if all that remained to him of life and spirit had been abstracted at a stroke. Yet he did not move, and in his efforts at self-control closed his mouth together as a vice. His determination was fairly successful, though she saw how very much greater than she had expected her triumph had been. Presently he looked across at Winterborne.
Yet the moment after she had completely betrayed her character, she felt a pang of regret. Her husband had turned as pale as the wall behind him. It was as if everything that made him lively and spirited had been taken away in an instant. Still, he didn't move, and in his struggle for self-control, he clenched his jaw tightly. He was managing to hold it together, but she realized her victory was much greater than she'd anticipated. Soon, he glanced over at Winterborne.
“Would it startle you to hear,” he said, as if he hardly had breath to utter the words, “that she who was to me what he was to you is dead also?”
“Would it surprise you to hear,” he said, as if he could barely breathe to say the words, “that she who meant to me what he meant to you is also dead?”
“Dead—she dead?” exclaimed Grace.
“Dead—she is dead?” exclaimed Grace.
“Yes. Felice Charmond is where this young man is.”
“Yes. Felice Charmond is where this guy is.”
“Never!” said Grace, vehemently.
“Never!” Grace exclaimed fiercely.
He went on without heeding the insinuation: “And I came back to try to make it up with you—but—”
He continued on, ignoring the implication: “And I came back to try to make things right with you—but—”
Fitzpiers rose, and moved across the room to go away, looking downward with the droop of a man whose hope was turned to apathy, if not despair. In going round the door his eye fell upon her once more. She was still bending over the body of Winterborne, her face close to the young man’s.
Fitzpiers got up and walked across the room to leave, looking down with the slouch of a man whose hope had faded into indifference, if not hopelessness. As he went around the door, he glanced at her one last time. She was still leaning over Winterborne's body, her face close to the young man’s.
“Have you been kissing him during his illness?” asked her husband.
“Have you been kissing him while he’s been sick?” her husband asked.
“Yes.”
"Yeah."
“Since his fevered state set in?”
“Since he started feeling sick?”
“Yes.”
"Yeah."
“On his lips?”
“On his lips?”
“Yes.”
"Yep."
“Then you will do well to take a few drops of this in water as soon as possible.” He drew a small phial from his pocket and returned to offer it to her.
“Then you should take a few drops of this in water as soon as you can.” He pulled out a small vial from his pocket and offered it to her.
Grace shook her head.
Grace sighed.
“If you don’t do as I tell you you may soon be like him.”
“If you don’t do what I say, you might end up like him.”
“I don’t care. I wish to die.”
"I don't care. I want to die."
“I’ll put it here,” said Fitzpiers, placing the bottle on a ledge beside him. “The sin of not having warned you will not be upon my head at any rate, among my other sins. I am now going, and I will send somebody to you. Your father does not know that you are here, so I suppose I shall be bound to tell him?”
“I’ll put it here,” Fitzpiers said, setting the bottle down on a ledge next to him. “I won’t take the blame for not warning you, along with my other sins. I’m leaving now, and I’ll send someone to you. Your father doesn’t know you’re here, so I guess I’ll have to tell him?”
“Certainly.”
“Of course.”
Fitzpiers left the cot, and the stroke of his feet was soon immersed in the silence that pervaded the spot. Grace remained kneeling and weeping, she hardly knew how long, and then she sat up, covered poor Giles’s features, and went towards the door where her husband had stood. No sign of any other comer greeted her ear, the only perceptible sounds being the tiny cracklings of the dead leaves, which, like a feather-bed, had not yet done rising to their normal level where indented by the pressure of her husband’s receding footsteps. It reminded her that she had been struck with the change in his aspect; the extremely intellectual look that had always been in his face was wrought to a finer phase by thinness, and a care-worn dignity had been superadded. She returned to Winterborne’s side, and during her meditations another tread drew near the door, entered the outer room, and halted at the entrance of the chamber where Grace was.
Fitzpiers got up from the bed, and his footsteps quickly faded into the silence surrounding the area. Grace stayed on her knees, crying, barely aware of how long it had been, and then she sat up, covered Giles’s face, and walked toward the door where her husband had been standing. She didn’t hear any signs of anyone else coming; the only sounds were the soft crackling of the dead leaves, which, like a featherbed, hadn’t settled back to their normal level where they had been pressed down by her husband’s departing footsteps. It reminded her that she had noticed the change in his appearance; the highly intellectual look that had always been on his face was now sharpened by his thinness, and a dignified weariness had been added. She returned to Winterborne’s side, and while she was lost in thought, another set of footsteps approached the door, entered the outer room, and stopped at the entrance of the chamber where Grace was.
“What—Marty!” said Grace.
“What—Marty!” said Grace.
“Yes. I have heard,” said Marty, whose demeanor had lost all its girlishness under the stroke that seemed almost literally to have bruised her.
“Yes. I’ve heard,” said Marty, whose demeanor had lost all its girlishness under the blow that seemed almost literally to have bruised her.
“He died for me!” murmured Grace, heavily.
“He died for me!” Grace murmured, with a heavy heart.
Marty did not fully comprehend; and she answered, “He belongs to neither of us now, and your beauty is no more powerful with him than my plainness. I have come to help you, ma’am. He never cared for me, and he cared much for you; but he cares for us both alike now.”
Marty didn’t completely understand, and she replied, “He belongs to neither of us now, and your beauty doesn’t matter to him more than my plainness does. I’m here to help you, ma’am. He never loved me, and he loved you a lot; but now he feels the same way about both of us.”
“Oh don’t, don’t, Marty!”
“Oh please, don’t, Marty!”
Marty said no more, but knelt over Winterborne from the other side.
Marty said nothing else, but knelt over Winterborne from the other side.
“Did you meet my hus—Mr. Fitzpiers?”
“Did you meet my husband—Mr. Fitzpiers?”
“No!”
"No way!"
“Then what brought you here?”
“What brought you here then?”
“I come this way sometimes. I have got to go to the farther side of the wood this time of the year, and am obliged to get there before four o’clock in the morning, to begin heating the oven for the early baking. I have passed by here often at this time.”
“I come this way sometimes. I have to go to the far side of the woods this time of year, and I need to get there before four o’clock in the morning to start heating the oven for the early baking. I’ve passed by here often at this time.”
Grace looked at her quickly. “Then did you know I was here?”
Grace glanced at her quickly. “So did you know I was here?”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Did you tell anybody?”
“Did you tell anyone?”
“No. I knew you lived in the hut, that he had gied it up to ye, and lodged out himself.”
“No. I knew you lived in the hut, that he had given it to you, and stayed somewhere else.”
“Did you know where he lodged?”
“Do you know where he stayed?”
“No. That I couldn’t find out. Was it at Delborough?”
“No. I couldn't figure that out. Was it at Delborough?”
“No. It was not there, Marty. Would it had been! It would have saved—saved—” To check her tears she turned, and seeing a book on the window-bench, took it up. “Look, Marty, this is a Psalter. He was not an outwardly religious man, but he was pure and perfect in his heart. Shall we read a psalm over him?”
“No. It wasn’t there, Marty. I wish it had been! It would have saved—saved—” To hold back her tears, she turned and noticed a book on the window bench, picking it up. “Look, Marty, this is a Psalter. He wasn’t outwardly religious, but he was pure and perfect in his heart. Should we read a psalm for him?”
“Oh yes—we will—with all my heart!”
“Oh yes—we will—with all my heart!”
Grace opened the thin brown book, which poor Giles had kept at hand mainly for the convenience of whetting his pen-knife upon its leather covers. She began to read in that rich, devotional voice peculiar to women only on such occasions. When it was over, Marty said, “I should like to pray for his soul.”
Grace opened the thin brown book that poor Giles had kept nearby mainly to sharpen his penknife on its leather covers. She began to read in that deep, heartfelt voice unique to women only during such moments. When she finished, Marty said, “I’d like to pray for his soul.”
“So should I,” said her companion. “But we must not.”
“So should I,” her companion said. “But we can’t.”
“Why? Nobody would know.”
“Why? No one would know.”
Grace could not resist the argument, influenced as she was by the sense of making amends for having neglected him in the body; and their tender voices united and filled the narrow room with supplicatory murmurs that a Calvinist might have envied. They had hardly ended when now and more numerous foot-falls were audible, also persons in conversation, one of whom Grace recognized as her father.
Grace couldn't help but be swayed by the argument, feeling the need to make up for having neglected him in person; their soft voices blended together and filled the small room with pleading whispers that even a Calvinist might have envied. They had just finished when the sound of more footsteps became noticeable, along with voices in conversation, one of which Grace recognized as her father's.
She rose, and went to the outer apartment, in which there was only such light as beamed from the inner one. Melbury and Mrs. Melbury were standing there.
She got up and headed to the outer room, where the only light came from the inner one. Melbury and Mrs. Melbury were standing there.
“I don’t reproach you, Grace,” said her father, with an estranged manner, and in a voice not at all like his old voice. “What has come upon you and us is beyond reproach, beyond weeping, and beyond wailing. Perhaps I drove you to it. But I am hurt; I am scourged; I am astonished. In the face of this there is nothing to be said.”
“I don’t blame you, Grace,” her father said, in a distant way, and in a voice that didn’t sound like his old self at all. “What has happened to you and to us is beyond blame, beyond tears, and beyond crying out. Maybe I pushed you to this. But I’m hurt; I’m tormented; I’m shocked. In light of this, there’s nothing more to say.”
Without replying, Grace turned and glided back to the inner chamber. “Marty,” she said, quickly, “I cannot look my father in the face until he knows the true circumstances of my life here. Go and tell him—what you have told me—what you saw—that he gave up his house to me.”
Without answering, Grace turned and smoothly walked back to the inner room. “Marty,” she said quickly, “I can’t face my dad until he knows the real story about what my life is like here. Go and tell him—everything you told me—what you saw—that he gave up his house to me.”
She sat down, her face buried in her hands, and Marty went, and after a short absence returned. Then Grace rose, and going out asked her father if he had met her husband.
She sat down, her face buried in her hands, and Marty left, returning after a brief moment. Then Grace stood up, went outside, and asked her father if he had met her husband.
“Yes,” said Melbury.
“Yes,” Melbury replied.
“And you know all that has happened?”
“And you know everything that's happened?”
“I do. Forgive me, Grace, for suspecting ye of worse than rashness—I ought to know ye better. Are you coming with me to what was once your home?”
“I do. Forgive me, Grace, for thinking you were capable of more than just being reckless—I should know you better. Are you coming with me to what used to be your home?”
“No. I stay here with HIM. Take no account of me any more.”
“No. I'm staying here with HIM. Don't worry about me anymore.”
The unwonted, perplexing, agitating relations in which she had stood to Winterborne quite lately—brought about by Melbury’s own contrivance—could not fail to soften the natural anger of a parent at her more recent doings. “My daughter, things are bad,” he rejoined. “But why do you persevere to make ’em worse? What good can you do to Giles by staying here with him? Mind, I ask no questions. I don’t inquire why you decided to come here, or anything as to what your course would have been if he had not died, though I know there’s no deliberate harm in ye. As for me, I have lost all claim upon you, and I make no complaint. But I do say that by coming back with me now you will show no less kindness to him, and escape any sound of shame.
The unusual, confusing, and troubling situation she had recently found herself in with Winterborne—thanks to Melbury's own actions—couldn't help but soften a parent's natural anger at her more recent choices. “My daughter, things are bad,” he replied. “But why do you keep making them worse? What good will it do Giles for you to stay here with him? Just so you know, I'm not asking any questions. I’m not asking why you chose to come here or what you would have done if he hadn’t died, even though I know you didn't mean any harm. As for me, I've lost my claim on you, and I’m not complaining. But I will say that by coming back with me now, you will show him kindness and avoid any feelings of shame.”
“But I don’t wish to escape it.”
"But I don't want to run away from it."
“If you don’t on your own account, cannot you wish to on mine and hers? Nobody except our household knows that you have left home. Then why should you, by a piece of perverseness, bring down my gray hairs with sorrow to the grave?”
“If you don't care about yourself, can’t you care about me and her? No one except our family knows that you’ve left home. So why should you, by being stubborn, make me suffer and bring my gray hairs to the grave?”
“If it were not for my husband—” she began, moved by his words. “But how can I meet him there? How can any woman who is not a mere man’s creature join him after what has taken place?”
“If it weren’t for my husband—” she started, touched by his words. “But how can I meet him there? How can any woman who isn’t just a man’s possession join him after everything that’s happened?”
“He would go away again rather than keep you out of my house.”
“He would leave again instead of keeping you out of my house.”
“How do you know that, father?”
“How do you know that, Dad?”
“We met him on our way here, and he told us so,” said Mrs. Melbury. “He had said something like it before. He seems very much upset altogether.”
“We met him on our way here, and he told us so,” said Mrs. Melbury. “He had mentioned something similar before. He seems really upset overall.”
“He declared to her when he came to our house that he would wait for time and devotion to bring about his forgiveness,” said her husband. “That was it, wasn’t it, Lucy?”
“Once he came to our house, he told her that he would wait for time and dedication to earn his forgiveness,” her husband said. “That was it, right, Lucy?”
“Yes. That he would not intrude upon you, Grace, till you gave him absolute permission,” Mrs. Melbury added.
“Yes. He wouldn't bother you, Grace, until you gave him full permission,” Mrs. Melbury added.
This antecedent considerateness in Fitzpiers was as welcome to Grace as it was unexpected; and though she did not desire his presence, she was sorry that by her retaliatory fiction she had given him a different reason for avoiding her. She made no further objections to accompanying her parents, taking them into the inner room to give Winterborne a last look, and gathering up the two or three things that belonged to her. While she was doing this the two women came who had been called by Melbury, and at their heels poor Creedle.
This unexpected kindness from Fitzpiers was as welcome to Grace as it was surprising; and although she didn’t want him around, she felt bad that her own made-up story had given him a different reason to keep his distance. She didn’t argue anymore about going with her parents, leading them into the inner room for a final look at Winterborne and picking up a couple of her things. While she was doing this, the two women Melbury had called for came in, and behind them was poor Creedle.
“Forgive me, but I can’t rule my mourning nohow as a man should, Mr. Melbury,” he said. “I ha’n’t seen him since Thursday se’night, and have wondered for days and days where he’s been keeping. There was I expecting him to come and tell me to wash out the cider-barrels against the making, and here was he— Well, I’ve knowed him from table-high; I knowed his father—used to bide about upon two sticks in the sun afore he died!—and now I’ve seen the end of the family, which we can ill afford to lose, wi’ such a scanty lot of good folk in Hintock as we’ve got. And now Robert Creedle will be nailed up in parish boards ’a b’lieve; and noboby will glutch down a sigh for he!”
“Sorry, but I can’t hold back my grief like a man should, Mr. Melbury,” he said. “I haven’t seen him since Thursday night, and I’ve been wondering for days where he’s been. I was expecting him to come and tell me to clean out the cider barrels for the making, but here we are— I've known him since he was a kid; I knew his father—used to sit around with two crutches in the sun before he died!—and now I’ve seen the end of the family, which we can’t really afford to lose, with such a small number of good people in Hintock as we have. Now Robert Creedle will be laid out on the parish boards, I believe; and nobody will even let out a sigh for him!”
They started for home, Marty and Creedle remaining behind. For a time Grace and her father walked side by side without speaking. It was just in the blue of the dawn, and the chilling tone of the sky was reflected in her cold, wet face. The whole wood seemed to be a house of death, pervaded by loss to its uttermost length and breadth. Winterborne was gone, and the copses seemed to show the want of him; those young trees, so many of which he had planted, and of which he had spoken so truly when he said that he should fall before they fell, were at that very moment sending out their roots in the direction that he had given them with his subtle hand.
They started heading home, while Marty and Creedle stayed behind. For a while, Grace and her father walked next to each other in silence. It was just before dawn, and the cold hues of the sky mirrored the chill on her wet face. The entire woods felt like a place of mourning, filled with loss everywhere you looked. Winterborne was gone, and the bushes seemed to miss him; those young trees, many of which he had planted, were currently reaching their roots in the directions he had carefully guided them.
“One thing made it tolerable to us that your husband should come back to the house,” said Melbury at last—“the death of Mrs. Charmond.”
“One thing that made it bearable for us that your husband would come back to the house,” said Melbury at last, “was the death of Mrs. Charmond.”
“Ah, yes,” said Grace, arousing slightly to the recollection, “he told me so.”
“Ah, yes,” said Grace, waking up a bit at the memory, “he told me that.”
“Did he tell you how she died? It was no such death as Giles’s. She was shot—by a disappointed lover. It occurred in Germany. The unfortunate man shot himself afterwards. He was that South Carolina gentleman of very passionate nature who used to haunt this place to force her to an interview, and followed her about everywhere. So ends the brilliant Felice Charmond—once a good friend to me—but no friend to you.”
“Did he tell you how she died? It was nothing like Giles’s death. She was shot—by a heartbroken lover. It happened in Germany. The unfortunate guy shot himself afterward. He was that passionate South Carolina gentleman who used to stalk this place to get her to meet with him and followed her around everywhere. So ends the brilliant Felice Charmond—once a good friend to me—but no friend to you.”
“I can forgive her,” said Grace, absently. “Did Edgar tell you of this?”
“I can forgive her,” Grace said absently. “Did Edgar mention this to you?”
“No; but he put a London newspaper, giving an account of it, on the hall table, folded in such a way that we should see it. It will be in the Sherton paper this week, no doubt. To make the event more solemn still to him, he had just before had sharp words with her, and left her. He told Lucy this, as nothing about him appears in the newspaper. And the cause of the quarrel was, of all people, she we’ve left behind us.”
“No; but he placed a London newspaper, which covered the event, on the hall table, folded so that we would notice it. It’ll probably be in the Sherton paper this week for sure. To make the situation even more serious for him, he had just had a heated argument with her and then walked away. He told Lucy this since nothing about him is mentioned in the newspaper. And the reason for the argument was, out of all people, the one we’ve left behind.”
“Do you mean Marty?” Grace spoke the words but perfunctorily. For, pertinent and pointed as Melbury’s story was, she had no heart for it now.
“Do you mean Marty?” Grace said the words, but she didn’t really mean them. Because, as relevant and sharp as Melbury’s story was, she just wasn’t in the mood for it right now.
“Yes. Marty South.” Melbury persisted in his narrative, to divert her from her present grief, if possible. “Before he went away she wrote him a letter, which he kept in his, pocket a long while before reading. He chanced to pull it out in Mrs. Charmond’s, presence, and read it out loud. It contained something which teased her very much, and that led to the rupture. She was following him to make it up when she met with her terrible death.”
“Yes. Marty South.” Melbury continued with his story, trying to distract her from her current sadness, if he could. “Before he left, she wrote him a letter, which he carried in his pocket for a long time before actually reading it. He happened to take it out in front of Mrs. Charmond and read it aloud. It had something in it that upset her a lot, which caused the breakup. She was on her way to reconcile with him when she met with her tragic end.”
Melbury did not know enough to give the gist of the incident, which was that Marty South’s letter had been concerning a certain personal adornment common to herself and Mrs. Charmond. Her bullet reached its billet at last. The scene between Fitzpiers and Felice had been sharp, as only a scene can be which arises out of the mortification of one woman by another in the presence of a lover. True, Marty had not effected it by word of mouth; the charge about the locks of hair was made simply by Fitzpiers reading her letter to him aloud to Felice in the playfully ironical tones of one who had become a little weary of his situation, and was finding his friend, in the phrase of George Herbert, a “flat delight.” He had stroked those false tresses with his hand many a time without knowing them to be transplanted, and it was impossible when the discovery was so abruptly made to avoid being finely satirical, despite her generous disposition.
Melbury didn’t quite grasp the full situation, which was that Marty South’s letter was about a certain type of accessory shared by her and Mrs. Charmond. Her point finally hit home. The confrontation between Fitzpiers and Felice had been intense, as only a confrontation can be that stems from one woman humiliating another in front of a lover. True, Marty hadn’t done it verbally; the accusation about the hair strands was made simply by Fitzpiers reading her letter out loud to Felice in a teasingly sarcastic tone, showing he was a bit tired of his circumstances and was finding his friend, in the words of George Herbert, a “flat delight.” He had stroked those fake extensions many times without realizing they were fake, and it was impossible to avoid being sharply ironic when the truth came out so suddenly, regardless of her kind nature.
That was how it had begun, and tragedy had been its end. On his abrupt departure she had followed him to the station but the train was gone; and in travelling to Baden in search of him she had met his rival, whose reproaches led to an altercation, and the death of both. Of that precipitate scene of passion and crime Fitzpiers had known nothing till he saw an account of it in the papers, where, fortunately for himself, no mention was made of his prior acquaintance with the unhappy lady; nor was there any allusion to him in the subsequent inquiry, the double death being attributed to some gambling losses, though, in point of fact, neither one of them had visited the tables.
That’s how it all started, and it ended in tragedy. After he left so suddenly, she had rushed after him to the station, but the train had already left; then, while traveling to Baden searching for him, she ran into his rival. Their confrontation led to an argument, and both ended up dead. Fitzpiers didn’t know anything about that explosive scene of passion and crime until he read about it in the newspapers, where, luckily for him, there was no mention of his previous connection with the unfortunate woman; there was also no reference to him in the later investigation, as the double death was attributed to some gambling losses, even though, in reality, neither of them had been to the tables.
Melbury and his daughter drew near their house, having seen but one living thing on their way, a squirrel, which did not run up its tree, but, dropping the sweet chestnut which it carried, cried chut-chut-chut, and stamped with its hind legs on the ground. When the roofs and chimneys of the homestead began to emerge from the screen of boughs, Grace started, and checked herself in her abstracted advance.
Melbury and his daughter approached their house, having only encountered one living creature on their way—a squirrel. Instead of climbing its tree, it dropped the sweet chestnut it was carrying, making a "chut-chut-chut" sound and stomping its hind legs on the ground. As the roofs and chimneys of the homestead came into view through the branches, Grace paused and stopped her distracted progress.
“You clearly understand,” she said to her step-mother some of her old misgiving returning, “that I am coming back only on condition of his leaving as he promised? Will you let him know this, that there may be no mistake?”
“You clearly understand,” she said to her step-mother, feeling some of her old doubts return, “that I’m only coming back if he leaves like he promised? Can you let him know this, so there’s no confusion?”
Mrs. Melbury, who had some long private talks with Fitzpiers, assured Grace that she need have no doubts on that point, and that he would probably be gone by the evening. Grace then entered with them into Melbury’s wing of the house, and sat down listlessly in the parlor, while her step-mother went to Fitzpiers.
Mrs. Melbury, who had some lengthy private conversations with Fitzpiers, assured Grace that she shouldn’t worry about that and that he would likely be gone by the evening. Grace then walked with them into Melbury’s wing of the house and sat down tiredly in the parlor while her stepmother went to Fitzpiers.
The prompt obedience to her wishes which the surgeon showed did honor to him, if anything could. Before Mrs. Melbury had returned to the room Grace, who was sitting on the parlor window-bench, saw her husband go from the door under the increasing light of morning, with a bag in his hand. While passing through the gate he turned his head. The firelight of the room she sat in threw her figure into dark relief against the window as she looked through the panes, and he must have seen her distinctly. In a moment he went on, the gate fell to, and he disappeared. At the hut she had declared that another had displaced him; and now she had banished him.
The quick obedience to her wishes that the surgeon displayed really reflected well on him, if anything could. Before Mrs. Melbury came back into the room, Grace, who was sitting on the parlor window-bench, saw her husband leave through the door as the morning light increased, carrying a bag in his hand. As he passed through the gate, he turned his head. The firelight in the room where she sat cast her figure in dark contrast against the window as she looked through the panes, and he must have clearly seen her. Moments later, he walked on, the gate closed, and he vanished. At the hut, she had claimed that someone else had taken his place; now, she had pushed him away.
CHAPTER XLIV.
Fitzpiers had hardly been gone an hour when Grace began to sicken. The next day she kept her room. Old Jones was called in; he murmured some statements in which the words “feverish symptoms” occurred. Grace heard them, and guessed the means by which she had brought this visitation upon herself.
Fitzpiers had barely left for an hour when Grace started to feel unwell. The next day, she stayed in her room. Old Jones was brought in; he quietly mentioned something that included the term “feverish symptoms.” Grace heard him and realized how she had caused this situation for herself.
One day, while she still lay there with her head throbbing, wondering if she were really going to join him who had gone before, Grammer Oliver came to her bedside. “I don’t know whe’r this is meant for you to take, ma’am,” she said, “but I have found it on the table. It was left by Marty, I think, when she came this morning.”
One day, while she was still lying there with her head pounding, thinking about whether she was really going to join him who had gone before, Grammer Oliver came to her bedside. “I don’t know if this is meant for you to take, ma’am,” she said, “but I found it on the table. I think it was left by Marty when she came this morning.”
Grace turned her hot eyes upon what Grammer held up. It was the phial left at the hut by her husband when he had begged her to take some drops of its contents if she wished to preserve herself from falling a victim to the malady which had pulled down Winterborne. She examined it as well as she could. The liquid was of an opaline hue, and bore a label with an inscription in Italian. He had probably got it in his wanderings abroad. She knew but little Italian, but could understand that the cordial was a febrifuge of some sort. Her father, her mother, and all the household were anxious for her recovery, and she resolved to obey her husband’s directions. Whatever the risk, if any, she was prepared to run it. A glass of water was brought, and the drops dropped in.
Grace looked intensely at what Grammer was holding up. It was the vial left at the cabin by her husband, who had urged her to take some of its contents if she wanted to protect herself from the illness that had taken down Winterborne. She examined it as best as she could. The liquid had an opalescent color and had a label with writing in Italian. He must have gotten it during his travels abroad. She didn’t know much Italian, but she could tell that the tonic was some kind of fever reducer. Her father, mother, and everyone in the household were eager for her to get better, so she decided to follow her husband’s instructions. No matter the risk, if there was any, she was ready to take it. A glass of water was brought in, and the drops were added.
The effect, though not miraculous, was remarkable. In less than an hour she felt calmer, cooler, better able to reflect—less inclined to fret and chafe and wear herself away. She took a few drops more. From that time the fever retreated, and went out like a damped conflagration.
The effect, while not miraculous, was impressive. In under an hour, she felt calmer, cooler, and better able to think clearly—less likely to worry, fume, and wear herself down. She took a few more drops. After that, the fever faded away, like a fire that's been put out.
“How clever he is!” she said, regretfully. “Why could he not have had more principle, so as to turn his great talents to good account? Perhaps he has saved my useless life. But he doesn’t know it, and doesn’t care whether he has saved it or not; and on that account will never be told by me! Probably he only gave it to me in the arrogance of his skill, to show the greatness of his resources beside mine, as Elijah drew down fire from heaven.”
“How clever he is!” she said, regretfully. “Why couldn’t he have had more principles, so he could use his great talents for something good? Maybe he has saved my pointless life. But he doesn’t know it, and he doesn’t care whether he has saved it or not; for that reason, I’ll never tell him! He probably only gave it to me out of the arrogance of his skill, to highlight the greatness of his abilities compared to mine, like Elijah calling down fire from heaven.”
As soon as she had quite recovered from this foiled attack upon her life, Grace went to Marty South’s cottage. The current of her being had again set towards the lost Giles Winterborne.
As soon as she fully recovered from this failed attempt on her life, Grace went to Marty South’s cottage. The direction of her life had once again turned towards the lost Giles Winterborne.
“Marty,” she said, “we both loved him. We will go to his grave together.”
“Marty,” she said, “we both loved him. We'll go to his grave together.”
Great Hintock church stood at the upper part of the village, and could be reached without passing through the street. In the dusk of the late September day they went thither by secret ways, walking mostly in silence side by side, each busied with her own thoughts. Grace had a trouble exceeding Marty’s—that haunting sense of having put out the light of his life by her own hasty doings. She had tried to persuade herself that he might have died of his illness, even if she had not taken possession of his house. Sometimes she succeeded in her attempt; sometimes she did not.
Great Hintock church was located at the top of the village and could be reached without going through the main street. In the twilight of a late September day, they made their way there through hidden paths, mostly walking in silence side by side, each lost in her own thoughts. Grace carried a burden greater than Marty’s—a nagging feeling that she had snuffed out the light of his life through her own rash actions. She tried to convince herself that he could have died from his illness, even if she hadn't taken over his house. Sometimes she managed to believe that; other times she didn’t.
They stood by the grave together, and though the sun had gone down, they could see over the woodland for miles, and down to the vale in which he had been accustomed to descend every year, with his portable mill and press, to make cider about this time.
They stood by the grave together, and even though the sun had set, they could see for miles across the woods and down to the valley where he used to go every year with his mobile mill and press to make cider around this time.
Perhaps Grace’s first grief, the discovery that if he had lived he could never have claimed her, had some power in softening this, the second. On Marty’s part there was the same consideration; never would she have been his. As no anticipation of gratified affection had been in existence while he was with them, there was none to be disappointed now that he had gone.
Perhaps Grace’s first sadness, the realization that if he had lived he could never have been with her, played a role in softening this, the second one. Marty felt the same way; she would never have been his. Since there were no hopes of fulfilled love while he was with them, there were no disappointments now that he was gone.
Grace was abased when, by degrees, she found that she had never understood Giles as Marty had done. Marty South alone, of all the women in Hintock and the world, had approximated to Winterborne’s level of intelligent intercourse with nature. In that respect she had formed the complement to him in the other sex, had lived as his counterpart, had subjoined her thought to his as a corollary.
Grace felt humiliated as she gradually realized that she had never understood Giles the way Marty had. Of all the women in Hintock and beyond, only Marty South matched Winterborne’s level of intelligent connection with nature. In that sense, she was his perfect counterpart, living as his equal and adding her thoughts to his like a supporting idea.
The casual glimpses which the ordinary population bestowed upon that wondrous world of sap and leaves called the Hintock woods had been with these two, Giles and Marty, a clear gaze. They had been possessed of its finer mysteries as of commonplace knowledge; had been able to read its hieroglyphs as ordinary writing; to them the sights and sounds of night, winter, wind, storm, amid those dense boughs, which had to Grace a touch of the uncanny, and even the supernatural, were simple occurrences whose origin, continuance, and laws they foreknew. They had planted together, and together they had felled; together they had, with the run of the years, mentally collected those remoter signs and symbols which, seen in few, were of runic obscurity, but all together made an alphabet. From the light lashing of the twigs upon their faces, when brushing through them in the dark, they could pronounce upon the species of the tree whence they stretched; from the quality of the wind’s murmur through a bough they could in like manner name its sort afar off. They knew by a glance at a trunk if its heart were sound, or tainted with incipient decay, and by the state of its upper twigs, the stratum that had been reached by its roots. The artifices of the seasons were seen by them from the conjuror’s own point of view, and not from that of the spectator’s.
The casual glimpses that regular people cast upon the amazing world of sap and leaves known as the Hintock woods were clear for Giles and Marty. They understood its deeper mysteries just as well as they understood everyday facts; they could read its symbols like regular writing. For them, the sights and sounds of night, winter, wind, and storm in those thick branches— which had a touch of the eerie and even the supernatural— were just ordinary events whose origins, continuations, and rules they already knew. They had planted together and chopped down trees together; over the years, they mentally gathered those distant signs and symbols that seemed cryptic when seen in isolation but formed a complete alphabet when viewed as a whole. From the light brush of twigs against their faces while walking through the dark, they could identify the type of tree overhead; from the quality of the wind’s whisper through a branch, they could similarly name its species from a distance. A quick look at a trunk told them whether it was healthy or starting to decay, and the condition of its upper twigs indicated how deep its roots had grown. They viewed the changes of the seasons from the perspective of the magician, not the audience.
“He ought to have married you, Marty, and nobody else in the world!” said Grace, with conviction, after thinking somewhat in the above strain.
“He should have married you, Marty, and no one else in the world!” said Grace firmly, after reflecting on that idea for a bit.
Marty shook her head. “In all our out-door days and years together, ma’am,” she replied, “the one thing he never spoke of to me was love; nor I to him.”
Marty shook her head. “In all our days and years spent outdoors together, ma’am,” she replied, “the one thing he never talked about with me was love; nor did I with him.”
“Yet you and he could speak in a tongue that nobody else knew—not even my father, though he came nearest knowing—the tongue of the trees and fruits and flowers themselves.”
“Yet you and he could communicate in a language that no one else understood—not even my father, though he was closest to understanding it—the language of the trees and fruits and flowers themselves.”
She could indulge in mournful fancies like this to Marty; but the hard core to her grief—which Marty’s had not—remained. Had she been sure that Giles’s death resulted entirely from his exposure, it would have driven her well-nigh to insanity; but there was always that bare possibility that his exposure had only precipitated what was inevitable. She longed to believe that it had not done even this.
She could share her sad thoughts like this with Marty, but the deep pain she felt—something Marty didn’t experience—was still there. If she had been certain that Giles’s death was solely due to his exposure, it would have nearly driven her insane; but there was always that slim chance that his exposure had only sped up something that was going to happen anyway. She desperately wanted to believe that it hadn’t even done that.
There was only one man whose opinion on the circumstances she would be at all disposed to trust. Her husband was that man. Yet to ask him it would be necessary to detail the true conditions in which she and Winterborne had lived during these three or four critical days that followed her flight; and in withdrawing her original defiant announcement on that point, there seemed a weakness she did not care to show. She never doubted that Fitzpiers would believe her if she made a clean confession of the actual situation; but to volunteer the correction would seem like signalling for a truce, and that, in her present frame of mind, was what she did not feel the need of.
There was only one person whose opinion about the situation she would be willing to trust. Her husband was that person. But to ask him, she would have to explain the true nature of her relationship with Winterborne during those three or four critical days after her escape; and backing down from her original bold statement on that matter felt like a weakness she wasn’t ready to show. She never doubted that Fitzpiers would believe her if she fully confessed the actual situation, but offering that correction would feel like asking for a truce, and that, given her current mindset, was not something she needed.
It will probably not appear a surprising statement, after what has been already declared of Fitzpiers, that the man whom Grace’s fidelity could not keep faithful was stung into passionate throbs of interest concerning her by her avowal of the contrary.
It probably won't be a surprising statement, given what we've already said about Fitzpiers, that the man whom Grace’s loyalty couldn’t keep faithful was stirred into intense feelings about her by her declaration of the opposite.
He declared to himself that he had never known her dangerously full compass if she were capable of such a reprisal; and, melancholy as it may be to admit the fact, his own humiliation and regret engendered a smouldering admiration of her.
He told himself that he had never seen her true extent if she was capable of such a retaliation; and, as sad as it is to acknowledge, his own embarrassment and regret sparked a lingering admiration for her.
He passed a month or two of great misery at Exbury, the place to which he had retired—quite as much misery indeed as Grace, could she have known of it, would have been inclined to inflict upon any living creature, how much soever he might have wronged her. Then a sudden hope dawned upon him; he wondered if her affirmation were true. He asked himself whether it were not the act of a woman whose natural purity and innocence had blinded her to the contingencies of such an announcement. His wide experience of the sex had taught him that, in many cases, women who ventured on hazardous matters did so because they lacked an imagination sensuous enough to feel their full force. In this light Grace’s bold avowal might merely have denoted the desperation of one who was a child to the realities of obliquity.
He spent a month or two in deep misery at Exbury, the place where he had retreated—just as much misery, in fact, as Grace would have been inclined to impose on anyone, no matter how much he might have wronged her, if she had known about it. Then a sudden hope sparked within him; he began to wonder if what she said was true. He asked himself whether it was the act of a woman whose natural purity and innocence had made her unaware of the potential consequences of such a declaration. His extensive experience with women had taught him that, in many situations, those who took risks often did so because they didn’t have a vivid enough imagination to grasp their full impact. From this perspective, Grace’s bold statement might have just indicated the desperation of someone who was naive to the realities of wrongdoing.
Fitzpiers’s mental sufferings and suspense led him at last to take a melancholy journey to the neighborhood of Little Hintock; and here he hovered for hours around the scene of the purest emotional experiences that he had ever known in his life. He walked about the woods that surrounded Melbury’s house, keeping out of sight like a criminal. It was a fine evening, and on his way homeward he passed near Marty South’s cottage. As usual she had lighted her candle without closing her shutters; he saw her within as he had seen her many times before.
Fitzpiers’s mental anguish and uncertainty finally drove him to take a sad trip to the area near Little Hintock; and he spent hours lingering around the spot of the most genuine emotional experiences he had ever had. He wandered through the woods surrounding Melbury’s house, hiding himself like a criminal. It was a beautiful evening, and on his way home, he walked past Marty South’s cottage. As usual, she had lit her candle without closing her shutters; he saw her inside just as he had many times before.
She was polishing tools, and though he had not wished to show himself, he could not resist speaking in to her through the half-open door. “What are you doing that for, Marty?”
She was cleaning tools, and even though he hadn’t intended to reveal himself, he couldn’t help but speak to her through the half-open door. “Why are you doing that, Marty?”
“Because I want to clean them. They are not mine.” He could see, indeed, that they were not hers, for one was a spade, large and heavy, and another was a bill-hook which she could only have used with both hands. The spade, though not a new one, had been so completely burnished that it was bright as silver.
“Because I want to clean them. They’re not mine.” He could see, in fact, that they weren’t hers, since one was a large, heavy spade and the other was a bill-hook that she could only have used with both hands. The spade, although not new, had been polished so thoroughly that it shone like silver.
Fitzpiers somehow divined that they were Giles Winterborne’s, and he put the question to her.
Fitzpiers somehow figured out that they belonged to Giles Winterborne, and he asked her about it.
She replied in the affirmative. “I am going to keep ’em,” she said, “but I can’t get his apple-mill and press. I wish could; it is going to be sold, they say.”
She replied with a yes. “I’m going to keep them,” she said, “but I can’t get his apple mill and press. I wish I could; they say it’s going to be sold.”
“Then I will buy it for you,” said Fitzpiers. “That will be making you a return for a kindness you did me.” His glance fell upon the girl’s rare-colored hair, which had grown again. “Oh, Marty, those locks of yours—and that letter! But it was a kindness to send it, nevertheless,” he added, musingly.
“Then I’ll buy it for you,” said Fitzpiers. “That’ll be my way of returning the favor you did for me.” His gaze landed on the girl’s uniquely colored hair, which had grown back. “Oh, Marty, your hair—and that letter! But it was still kind of you to send it,” he added, thoughtfully.
After this there was confidence between them—such confidence as there had never been before. Marty was shy, indeed, of speaking about the letter, and her motives in writing it; but she thanked him warmly for his promise of the cider-press. She would travel with it in the autumn season, as he had done, she said. She would be quite strong enough, with old Creedle as an assistant.
After this, there was trust between them—trust like they had never had before. Marty was nervous about discussing the letter and her reasons for writing it; however, she sincerely thanked him for promising the cider-press. She said she would travel with it in the fall, just like he had. She felt confident she would be strong enough with old Creedle helping her.
“Ah! there was one nearer to him than you,” said Fitzpiers, referring to Winterborne. “One who lived where he lived, and was with him when he died.”
“Ah! there was someone closer to him than you,” said Fitzpiers, referring to Winterborne. “Someone who lived nearby and was with him when he died.”
Then Marty, suspecting that he did not know the true circumstances, from the fact that Mrs. Fitzpiers and himself were living apart, told him of Giles’s generosity to Grace in giving up his house to her at the risk, and possibly the sacrifice, of his own life. When the surgeon heard it he almost envied Giles his chivalrous character. He expressed a wish to Marty that his visit to her should be kept secret, and went home thoughtful, feeling that in more that one sense his journey to Hintock had not been in vain.
Then Marty, sensing that he didn't understand the real situation since Mrs. Fitzpiers and he were living separately, told him about Giles's generosity toward Grace in giving up his house for her, putting his own life at risk, and maybe even sacrificing it. When the surgeon heard this, he almost envied Giles for his noble character. He asked Marty to keep his visit to her a secret and went home deep in thought, realizing that in more ways than one, his trip to Hintock hadn't been pointless.
He would have given much to win Grace’s forgiveness then. But whatever he dared hope for in that kind from the future, there was nothing to be done yet, while Giles Winterborne’s memory was green. To wait was imperative. A little time might melt her frozen thoughts, and lead her to look on him with toleration, if not with love.
He would have done anything to earn Grace’s forgiveness at that moment. But whatever he dared hope for from the future, there was nothing he could do yet, while Giles Winterborne’s memory was still fresh. Waiting was essential. A little time might soften her hardened feelings and help her see him with some acceptance, if not with love.
CHAPTER XLV.
Weeks and months of mourning for Winterborne had been passed by Grace in the soothing monotony of the memorial act to which she and Marty had devoted themselves. Twice a week the pair went in the dusk to Great Hintock, and, like the two mourners in Cymbeline, sweetened his sad grave with their flowers and their tears. Sometimes Grace thought that it was a pity neither one of them had been his wife for a little while, and given the world a copy of him who was so valuable in their eyes. Nothing ever had brought home to her with such force as this death how little acquirements and culture weigh beside sterling personal character. While her simple sorrow for his loss took a softer edge with the lapse of the autumn and winter seasons, her self-reproach at having had a possible hand in causing it knew little abatement.
Weeks and months of mourning for Winterborne had passed for Grace in the calm routine of the memorial act that she and Marty had committed themselves to. Twice a week, the two went to Great Hintock at dusk, and, like the mourners in Cymbeline, adorned his somber grave with their flowers and tears. Sometimes Grace thought it was a shame neither of them had been his wife for a little while, giving the world a version of him that was so precious in their eyes. Nothing had ever made her realize so clearly how little accomplishments and education matter compared to genuine character. While her simple sorrow for his loss softened with the passing of autumn and winter, her guilt over possibly contributing to it showed little sign of fading.
Little occurred at Hintock during these months of the fall and decay of the leaf. Discussion of the almost contemporaneous death of Mrs. Charmond abroad had waxed and waned. Fitzpiers had had a marvellous escape from being dragged into the inquiry which followed it, through the accident of their having parted just before under the influence of Marty South’s letter—the tiny instrument of a cause deep in nature.
Little happened at Hintock during these months of falling leaves and decay. Conversations about the nearly simultaneous death of Mrs. Charmond overseas came and went. Fitzpiers had a remarkable escape from getting pulled into the investigation that followed her death, due to the chance of their having split up just before, influenced by Marty South’s letter—the small trigger of a cause rooted deep in nature.
Her body was not brought home. It seemed to accord well with the fitful fever of that impassioned woman’s life that she should not have found a native grave. She had enjoyed but a life-interest in the estate, which, after her death, passed to a relative of her husband’s—one who knew not Felice, one whose purpose seemed to be to blot out every vestige of her.
Her body was not brought home. It felt fitting for the restless energy of that passionate woman's life that she wouldn’t have found a local grave. She had only held a life interest in the estate, which, after her death, went to a relative of her husband’s—someone who didn’t know Felice and whose goal appeared to be to erase every trace of her.
On a certain day in February—the cheerful day of St. Valentine, in fact—a letter reached Mrs. Fitzpiers, which had been mentally promised her for that particular day a long time before.
On a certain day in February—the cheerful day of St. Valentine, in fact—a letter arrived for Mrs. Fitzpiers, which had been mentally promised to her for that specific day a long time ago.
It announced that Fitzpiers was living at some midland town, where he had obtained a temporary practice as assistant to some local medical man, whose curative principles were all wrong, though he dared not set them right. He had thought fit to communicate with her on that day of tender traditions to inquire if, in the event of his obtaining a substantial practice that he had in view elsewhere, she could forget the past and bring herself to join him.
It announced that Fitzpiers was living in a midland town, where he had gotten a temporary position as an assistant to a local doctor, whose treatment methods were completely misguided, though he didn't have the courage to correct them. He felt it was important to reach out to her on that day of sentimental traditions to ask if, in the event that he secured the solid practice he envisioned elsewhere, she could move on from the past and agree to be with him.
There the practical part ended; he then went on—
There the practical part ended; he then continued—
“My last year of experience has added ten years to my age, dear Grace and dearest wife that ever erring man undervalued. You may be absolutely indifferent to what I say, but let me say it: I have never loved any woman alive or dead as I love, respect, and honor you at this present moment. What you told me in the pride and haughtiness of your heart I never believed [this, by the way, was not strictly true]; but even if I had believed it, it could never have estranged me from you. Is there any use in telling you—no, there is not—that I dream of your ripe lips more frequently than I say my prayers; that the old familiar rustle of your dress often returns upon my mind till it distracts me? If you could condescend even only to see me again you would be breathing life into a corpse. My pure, pure Grace, modest as a turtledove, how came I ever to possess you? For the sake of being present in your mind on this lovers’ day, I think I would almost rather have you hate me a little than not think of me at all. You may call my fancies whimsical; but remember, sweet, lost one, that ‘nature is one in love, and where ’tis fine it sends some instance of itself.’ I will not intrude upon you further now. Make me a little bit happy by sending back one line to say that you will consent, at any rate, to a short interview. I will meet you and leave you as a mere acquaintance, if you will only afford me this slight means of making a few explanations, and of putting my position before you. Believe me, in spite of all you may do or feel,
“My last year of experience has added ten years to my age, dear Grace and dearest wife that ever erring man undervalued. You may be completely indifferent to what I say, but let me express it: I have never loved any woman, alive or dead, as I love, respect, and honor you right now. What you told me in the pride and arrogance of your heart I never believed [this, by the way, was not strictly true]; but even if I had believed it, it could never have driven a wedge between us. Is there any point in telling you—no, there isn’t—that I dream of your soft lips more often than I say my prayers; that the familiar rustle of your dress often comes to mind until it distracts me? If you could just bring yourself to see me again, you would be giving life to a corpse. My pure, pure Grace, as modest as a dove, how did I ever come to have you? For the sake of existing in your thoughts on this romantic day, I think I would almost prefer for you to hate me a little rather than not think of me at all. You may call my thoughts fanciful; but remember, sweet, lost one, that ‘nature is one in love, and where it is beautiful, it sends some sign of itself.’ I won’t intrude further now. Please make me a little happy by sending back a line to say that you will agree, at the very least, to a brief meeting. I will meet you and part as mere acquaintances if you just give me this small chance to explain myself and to lay out my position for you. Believe me, despite everything you may do or feel,
Your lover always (once your husband),
“E.F.”
Your partner always (once your husband),
“E.F.”
It was, oddly enough, the first occasion, or nearly the first on which Grace had ever received a love-letter from him, his courtship having taken place under conditions which rendered letter-writing unnecessary. Its perusal, therefore, had a certain novelty for her. She thought that, upon the whole, he wrote love-letters very well. But the chief rational interest of the letter to the reflective Grace lay in the chance that such a meeting as he proposed would afford her of setting her doubts at rest, one way or the other, on her actual share in Winterborne’s death. The relief of consulting a skilled mind, the one professional man who had seen Giles at that time, would be immense. As for that statement that she had uttered in her disdainful grief, which at the time she had regarded as her triumph, she was quite prepared to admit to him that his belief was the true one; for in wronging herself as she did when she made it, she had done what to her was a far more serious thing, wronged Winterborne’s memory.
It was, strangely enough, the first or nearly the first time Grace had ever received a love letter from him, since their courtship had unfolded in a way that made writing letters unnecessary. Reading it, therefore, felt distinctly new for her. She thought that, overall, he wrote love letters quite well. But what really caught Grace’s attention was the possibility that the meeting he proposed could help her resolve her doubts about her role in Winterborne’s death. The relief of consulting an expert, the only professional who had seen Giles at that time, would be huge. As for that statement she had made in her bitter grief, which she had once thought of as her victory, she was ready to admit to him that his understanding was correct; because in doing herself wrong by saying it, she had committed what she felt was a far more serious offense—wronging Winterborne’s memory.
Without consulting her father, or any one in the house or out of it, Grace replied to the letter. She agreed to meet Fitzpiers on two conditions, of which the first was that the place of meeting should be the top of Rubdown Hill, the second that he would not object to Marty South accompanying her.
Without talking to her dad or anyone else in the house or outside of it, Grace replied to the letter. She agreed to meet Fitzpiers on two conditions: first, that the meeting place would be the top of Rubdown Hill, and second, that he wouldn't mind Marty South coming along with her.
Whatever part, much or little, there may have been in Fitzpiers’s so-called valentine to his wife, he felt a delight as of the bursting of spring when her brief reply came. It was one of the few pleasures that he had experienced of late years at all resembling those of his early youth. He promptly replied that he accepted the conditions, and named the day and hour at which he would be on the spot she mentioned.
Whatever role, big or small, Fitzpiers’s so-called valentine to his wife played, he felt a joy like the arrival of spring when her short reply came. It was one of the few pleasures he had felt in recent years that resembled those from his youth. He quickly replied that he accepted the terms and specified the day and time he would be at the place she mentioned.
A few minutes before three on the appointed day found him climbing the well-known hill, which had been the axis of so many critical movements in their lives during his residence at Hintock.
A few minutes before three on the scheduled day, he was climbing the familiar hill, which had been the center of so many important events in their lives during his time at Hintock.
The sight of each homely and well-remembered object swelled the regret that seldom left him now. Whatever paths might lie open to his future, the soothing shades of Hintock were forbidden him forever as a permanent dwelling-place.
The sight of each familiar and cherished object deepened the regret that rarely left him now. No matter what options lay ahead for his future, the comforting shades of Hintock were forever out of reach as a permanent home.
He longed for the society of Grace. But to lay offerings on her slighted altar was his first aim, and until her propitiation was complete he would constrain her in no way to return to him. The least reparation that he could make, in a case where he would gladly have made much, would be to let her feel herself absolutely free to choose between living with him and without him.
He wished for Grace's company. But his first goal was to make amends for how he had wronged her, and until he had fully made things right, he wouldn’t pressure her to come back to him. The smallest gesture he could offer, in a situation where he would have happily done much more, was to allow her to feel completely free to decide whether to live with him or without him.
Moreover, a subtlist in emotions, he cultivated as under glasses strange and mournful pleasures that he would not willingly let die just at present. To show any forwardness in suggesting a modus vivendi to Grace would be to put an end to these exotics. To be the vassal of her sweet will for a time, he demanded no more, and found solace in the contemplation of the soft miseries she caused him.
Moreover, a subtle list of emotions, he nurtured like rare and sad pleasures that he wasn't ready to let go of just yet. To show any eagerness in proposing a modus vivendi to Grace would mean putting an end to these unusual feelings. Being at the mercy of her sweet whims for a while was all he desired, and he found comfort in reflecting on the gentle pain she brought him.
Approaching the hill-top with a mind strung to these notions, Fitzpiers discerned a gay procession of people coming over the crest, and was not long in perceiving it to be a wedding-party.
Approaching the hilltop with his thoughts focused on these ideas, Fitzpiers spotted a cheerful procession of people coming over the crest and quickly realized it was a wedding party.
Though the wind was keen the women were in light attire, and the flowered waistcoats of the men had a pleasing vividness of pattern. Each of the gentler ones clung to the arm of her partner so tightly as to have with him one step, rise, swing, gait, almost one centre of gravity. In the buxom bride Fitzpiers recognized no other than Suke Damson, who in her light gown looked a giantess; the small husband beside her he saw to be Tim Tangs.
Though the wind was sharp, the women were dressed lightly, and the men’s flowered vests had a striking and colorful design. Each of the ladies clung to her partner’s arm so closely that they seemed to share one step, rise, swing, stride, and almost one center of gravity. In the curvy bride, Fitzpiers recognized none other than Suke Damson, who looked like a giantess in her light dress; the small husband next to her was Tim Tangs.
Fitzpiers could not escape, for they had seen him; though of all the beauties of the world whom he did not wish to meet Suke was the chief. But he put the best face on the matter that he could and came on, the approaching company evidently discussing him and his separation from Mrs. Fitzpiers. As the couples closed upon him he expressed his congratulations.
Fitzpiers couldn't get away, because they had spotted him; but out of all the people he really didn’t want to run into, Suke was at the top of the list. Still, he tried to stay positive about the situation and moved forward, while the group approached, clearly talking about him and his split from Mrs. Fitzpiers. As the couples approached him, he offered his congratulations.
“We be just walking round the parishes to show ourselves a bit,” said Tim. “First we het across to Delborough, then athwart to here, and from here we go to Rubdown and Millshot, and then round by the cross-roads home. Home says I, but it won’t be that long! We be off next month.”
“We're just walking around the neighborhoods to show ourselves a little,” said Tim. “First, we head over to Delborough, then across to here, and from here we go to Rubdown and Millshot, and then back home by the crossroads. Home, I say, but it won't be for long! We're leaving next month.”
“Indeed. Where to?”
"Definitely. Where to?"
Tim informed him that they were going to New Zealand. Not but that he would have been contented with Hintock, but his wife was ambitious and wanted to leave, so he had given way.
Tim told him that they were heading to New Zealand. He would have been fine with Hintock, but his wife was ambitious and wanted to move, so he had agreed.
“Then good-by,” said Fitzpiers; “I may not see you again.” He shook hands with Tim and turned to the bride. “Good-by, Suke,” he said, taking her hand also. “I wish you and your husband prosperity in the country you have chosen.” With this he left them, and hastened on to his appointment.
“Goodbye,” said Fitzpiers; “I might not see you again.” He shook hands with Tim and turned to the bride. “Goodbye, Suke,” he said, taking her hand too. “I wish you and your husband success in the country you’ve chosen.” With that, he left them and hurried off to his appointment.
The wedding-party re-formed and resumed march likewise. But in restoring his arm to Suke, Tim noticed that her full and blooming countenance had undergone a change. “Holloa! me dear—what’s the matter?” said Tim.
The wedding party regrouped and continued marching as well. But when Tim put his arm back around Suke, he noticed that her bright and cheerful face had changed. “Hey! My dear—what’s wrong?” said Tim.
“Nothing to speak o’,” said she. But to give the lie to her assertion she was seized with lachrymose twitches, that soon produced a dribbling face.
“Nothing to talk about,” she said. But to contradict her claim, she was overcome with tearful twitches that soon led to a face covered in tears.
“How—what the devil’s this about!” exclaimed the bridegroom.
“How—what the heck is going on!” exclaimed the bridegroom.
“She’s a little wee bit overcome, poor dear!” said the first bridesmaid, unfolding her handkerchief and wiping Suke’s eyes.
“She’s a little overwhelmed, poor thing!” said the first bridesmaid, pulling out her handkerchief and wiping Suke’s eyes.
“I never did like parting from people!” said Suke, as soon as she could speak.
“I’ve never liked saying goodbye to people!” said Suke, as soon as she could talk.
“Why him in particular?”
“Why him specifically?”
“Well—he’s such a clever doctor, that ’tis a thousand pities we sha’n’t see him any more! There’ll be no such clever doctor as he in New Zealand, if I should require one; and the thought o’t got the better of my feelings!”
“Well—he's such a smart doctor, it's such a shame we won't see him anymore! There won't be another doctor as good as him in New Zealand if I need one; and the thought of it has overwhelmed my feelings!"
They walked on, but Tim’s face had grown rigid and pale, for he recalled slight circumstances, disregarded at the time of their occurrence. The former boisterous laughter of the wedding-party at the groomsman’s jokes was heard ringing through the woods no more.
They kept walking, but Tim's face had become stiff and pale as he remembered small details that he had overlooked when they happened. The once-loud laughter of the wedding party at the groomsman’s jokes no longer echoed through the woods.
By this time Fitzpiers had advanced on his way to the top of the hill, where he saw two figures emerging from the bank on the right hand. These were the expected ones, Grace and Marty South, who had evidently come there by a short and secret path through the wood. Grace was muffled up in her winter dress, and he thought that she had never looked so seductive as at this moment, in the noontide bright but heatless sun, and the keen wind, and the purplish-gray masses of brushwood around.
By this time, Fitzpiers had made his way up to the top of the hill, where he spotted two figures coming out from the bank on the right. These were the ones he expected, Grace and Marty South, who had clearly come by a short and hidden path through the woods. Grace was wrapped up in her winter coat, and he thought she had never looked as attractive as she did at that moment, in the bright yet cool midday sun, with the sharp wind and the purplish-gray clumps of brush around them.
Fitzpiers continued to regard the nearing picture, till at length their glances met for a moment, when she demurely sent off hers at a tangent and gave him the benefit of her three-quarter face, while with courteous completeness of conduct he lifted his hat in a large arc. Marty dropped behind; and when Fitzpiers held out his hand, Grace touched it with her fingers.
Fitzpiers kept looking at the approaching scene until their eyes met for a brief moment. She shyly looked away and offered him a view of her profile, while he politely raised his hat in a wide arc. Marty stepped back, and when Fitzpiers extended his hand, Grace lightly touched it with her fingers.
“I have agreed to be here mostly because I wanted to ask you something important,” said Mrs. Fitzpiers, her intonation modulating in a direction that she had not quite wished it to take.
“I’ve come here mainly because I wanted to ask you something important,” Mrs. Fitzpiers said, her tone shifting in a way she hadn’t really intended.
“I am most attentive,” said her husband. “Shall we take to the wood for privacy?”
“I’m really paying attention,” her husband said. “Should we go to the woods for some privacy?”
Grace demurred, and Fitzpiers gave in, and they kept the public road.
Grace hesitated, and Fitzpiers gave in, so they took the public road.
At any rate she would take his arm? This also was gravely negatived, the refusal being audible to Marty.
At any rate, would she take his arm? This was also seriously rejected, and Marty could hear the refusal.
“Why not?” he inquired.
“Why not?” he asked.
“Oh, Mr. Fitzpiers—how can you ask?”
“Oh, Mr. Fitzpiers—how can you say that?”
“Right, right,” said he, his effusiveness shrivelled up.
“Right, right,” he said, his enthusiasm fading away.
As they walked on she returned to her inquiry. “It is about a matter that may perhaps be unpleasant to you. But I think I need not consider that too carefully.”
As they walked, she returned to her question. “It's about something that might be uncomfortable for you. But I don't think I need to worry too much about that.”
“Not at all,” said Fitzpiers, heroically.
“Not at all,” said Fitzpiers, bravely.
She then took him back to the time of poor Winterborne’s death, and related the precise circumstances amid which his fatal illness had come upon him, particularizing the dampness of the shelter to which he had betaken himself, his concealment from her of the hardships that he was undergoing, all that he had put up with, all that he had done for her in his scrupulous considerateness. The retrospect brought her to tears as she asked him if he thought that the sin of having driven him to his death was upon her.
She then took him back to the time of Winterborne’s death and described the exact circumstances surrounding his fatal illness, mentioning how damp the shelter was where he had taken refuge, how he had hidden the struggles he was facing from her, everything he had endured, and all he had done for her with such careful consideration. The memories brought her to tears as she asked him if he believed that the guilt of having driven him to his death was hers.
Fitzpiers could hardly help showing his satisfaction at what her narrative indirectly revealed, the actual harmlessness of an escapade with her lover, which had at first, by her own showing, looked so grave, and he did not care to inquire whether that harmlessness had been the result of aim or of accident. With regard to her question, he declared that in his judgment no human being could answer it. He thought that upon the whole the balance of probabilities turned in her favor. Winterborne’s apparent strength, during the last months of his life, must have been delusive. It had often occurred that after a first attack of that insidious disease a person’s apparent recovery was a physiological mendacity.
Fitzpiers couldn't help but show his satisfaction at what her story indirectly revealed: the actual harmlessness of her escapade with her lover, which, at first glance, seemed serious, according to her own account. He didn't want to know if that harmlessness was due to intent or just a coincidence. When it came to her question, he said that in his opinion, no one could really answer it. Overall, he thought the odds leaned in her favor. Winterborne’s apparent strength in the last months of his life must have been misleading. It often happened that after an initial attack of that sneaky disease, a person's seeming recovery was just a physiological trick.
The relief which came to Grace lay almost as much in sharing her knowledge of the particulars with an intelligent mind as in the assurances Fitzpiers gave her. “Well, then, to put this case before you, and obtain your professional opinion, was chiefly why I consented to come here to-day,” said she, when he had reached the aforesaid conclusion.
The relief that Grace felt came not just from Fitzpiers' reassurances, but also from being able to share her insights with someone who was intelligent. “So, to present this situation to you and get your professional opinion is mainly why I agreed to come here today,” she said when he had reached that conclusion.
“For no other reason at all?” he asked, ruefully.
“For no other reason at all?” he asked, sadly.
“It was nearly the whole.”
“It was almost everything.”
They stood and looked over a gate at twenty or thirty starlings feeding in the grass, and he started the talk again by saying, in a low voice, “And yet I love you more than ever I loved you in my life.”
They stood and looked over a gate at twenty or thirty starlings feeding in the grass, and he started the conversation again by saying, in a low voice, “And yet I love you more than I’ve ever loved you in my life.”
Grace did not move her eyes from the birds, and folded her delicate lips as if to keep them in subjection.
Grace kept her gaze fixed on the birds, pressing her soft lips together as if to keep them in check.
“It is a different kind of love altogether,” said he. “Less passionate; more profound. It has nothing to do with the material conditions of the object at all; much to do with her character and goodness, as revealed by closer observation. ‘Love talks with better knowledge, and knowledge with dearer love.’”
“It’s a completely different kind of love,” he said. “Less passionate but much deeper. It isn’t tied to the material aspects of the person at all; it has everything to do with her character and goodness, as seen through closer observation. ‘Love understands better, and understanding brings a deeper love.’”
“That’s out of Measure for Measure,” said she, slyly.
"That's from Measure for Measure," she said, cleverly.
“Oh yes—I meant it as a citation,” blandly replied Fitzpiers. “Well, then, why not give me a very little bit of your heart again?”
“Oh yes—I meant it as a quote,” Fitzpiers replied casually. “Well, then, why not share just a little bit of your heart with me again?”
The crash of a felled tree in the remote depths of the wood recalled the past at that moment, and all the homely faithfulness of Winterborne. “Don’t ask it! My heart is in the grave with Giles,” she replied, stanchly.
The sound of a tree falling deep in the woods triggered memories of the past, reminding her of the comforting presence of Winterborne. “Don’t ask me! My heart is buried with Giles,” she responded firmly.
“Mine is with you—in no less deep a grave, I fear, according to that.”
“Mine is with you—in no less deep a grave, I worry, based on that.”
“I am very sorry; but it cannot be helped.”
“I’m really sorry, but there’s nothing that can be done.”
“How can you be sorry for me, when you wilfully keep open the grave?”
“How can you feel sorry for me when you deliberately keep the grave open?”
“Oh no—that’s not so,” returned Grace, quickly, and moved to go away from him.
“Oh no—that’s not true,” Grace replied quickly, and moved to walk away from him.
“But, dearest Grace,” said he, “you have condescended to come; and I thought from it that perhaps when I had passed through a long state of probation you would be generous. But if there can be no hope of our getting completely reconciled, treat me gently—wretch though I am.”
“But, my dear Grace,” he said, “you’ve chosen to come, and I thought that maybe after I went through this long period of waiting, you would be kind. But if there’s no hope of us fully reconciling, please be gentle with me—miserable as I am.”
“I did not say you were a wretch, nor have I ever said so.”
“I didn’t say you were a loser, and I’ve never said that.”
“But you have such a contemptuous way of looking at me that I fear you think so.”
“But you look at me with such contempt that I'm afraid you believe that.”
Grace’s heart struggled between the wish not to be harsh and the fear that she might mislead him. “I cannot look contemptuous unless I feel contempt,” she said, evasively. “And all I feel is lovelessness.”
Grace's heart was torn between wanting to be kind and the fear that she might mislead him. “I can’t seem contemptuous unless I actually feel it,” she said, indirectly. “And all I feel is emptiness.”
“I have been very bad, I know,” he returned. “But unless you can really love me again, Grace, I would rather go away from you forever. I don’t want you to receive me again for duty’s sake, or anything of that sort. If I had not cared more for your affection and forgiveness than my own personal comfort, I should never have come back here. I could have obtained a practice at a distance, and have lived my own life without coldness or reproach. But I have chosen to return to the one spot on earth where my name is tarnished—to enter the house of a man from whom I have had worse treatment than from any other man alive—all for you!”
“I know I’ve been really bad,” he replied. “But unless you can truly love me again, Grace, I’d rather leave and never come back. I don’t want you to take me back out of obligation or anything like that. If I hadn’t cared more about your love and forgiveness than my own comfort, I wouldn’t have come back here. I could have set up a practice somewhere else and lived my life without coldness or blame. But I chose to return to the one place on earth where my name is stained—to step into the home of a man who has treated me worse than anyone else, all for you!”
This was undeniably true, and it had its weight with Grace, who began to look as if she thought she had been shockingly severe.
This was definitely true, and it resonated with Grace, who started to look like she believed she had been harshly critical.
“Before you go,” he continued, “I want to know your pleasure about me—what you wish me to do, or not to do.”
“Before you leave,” he said, “I want to know how you feel about me—what you want me to do, or not do.”
“You are independent of me, and it seems a mockery to ask that. Far be it from me to advise. But I will think it over. I rather need advice myself than stand in a position to give it.”
“You're independent of me, and it feels silly to ask that. I'm not here to give advice. But I’ll think about it. I actually need advice myself instead of being in a position to give it.”
“You don’t need advice, wisest, dearest woman that ever lived. If you did—”
“You don’t need advice, the wisest, dearest woman who ever lived. If you did—”
“Would you give it to me?”
“Could you give it to me?”
“Would you act upon what I gave?”
“Will you act on what I gave you?”
“That’s not a fair inquiry,” said she, smiling despite her gravity. “I don’t mind hearing it—what you do really think the most correct and proper course for me.”
“That’s not a fair question,” she said, smiling even though she was serious. “I don’t mind hearing what you really think is the best and right thing for me.”
“It is so easy for me to say, and yet I dare not, for it would be provoking you to remonstrances.”
“It’s so easy for me to say, but I hesitate because it would just lead to you complaining.”
Knowing, of course, what the advice would be, she did not press him further, and was about to beckon Marty forward and leave him, when he interrupted her with, “Oh, one moment, dear Grace—you will meet me again?”
Knowing what the advice would be, she didn't push him further and was about to signal Marty to come forward and leave him when he interrupted her with, “Oh, just a moment, dear Grace—you will meet me again?”
She eventually agreed to see him that day fortnight. Fitzpiers expostulated at the interval, but the half-alarmed earnestness with which she entreated him not to come sooner made him say hastily that he submitted to her will—that he would regard her as a friend only, anxious for his reform and well-being, till such time as she might allow him to exceed that privilege.
She eventually agreed to meet him two weeks from that day. Fitzpiers protested about the wait, but the half-nervous sincerity with which she asked him not to come any sooner made him quickly say that he would go along with her wishes—that he would see her as just a friend, concerned for his improvement and well-being, until she decided to let him go beyond that role.
All this was to assure her; it was only too clear that he had not won her confidence yet. It amazed Fitzpiers, and overthrew all his deductions from previous experience, to find that this girl, though she had been married to him, could yet be so coy. Notwithstanding a certain fascination that it carried with it, his reflections were sombre as he went homeward; he saw how deep had been his offence to produce so great a wariness in a gentle and once unsuspicious soul.
All of this was meant to reassure her; it was obvious that he hadn't gained her trust yet. Fitzpiers was shocked, and it challenged everything he thought he knew from past experiences, to realize that this girl, even though she had been married to him, could still be so shy. Despite a certain attraction that it held for him, his thoughts were dark as he headed home; he understood how serious his wrongdoing must have been to cause such caution in a gentle and previously trusting person.
He was himself too fastidious to care to coerce her. To be an object of misgiving or dislike to a woman who shared his home was what he could not endure the thought of. Life as it stood was more tolerable.
He was too particular to want to force her into anything. The idea of being someone she distrusted or disliked, especially in a home they shared, was something he couldn’t bear. As it was, life felt more manageable.
When he was gone, Marty joined Mrs. Fitzpiers. She would fain have consulted Marty on the question of Platonic relations with her former husband, as she preferred to regard him. But Marty showed no great interest in their affairs, so Grace said nothing. They came onward, and saw Melbury standing at the scene of the felling which had been audible to them, when, telling Marty that she wished her meeting with Mr. Fitzpiers to be kept private, she left the girl to join her father. At any rate, she would consult him on the expediency of occasionally seeing her husband.
When he left, Marty joined Mrs. Fitzpiers. She would have liked to talk to Marty about the idea of having a Platonic relationship with her ex-husband, as she preferred to think of him. But Marty didn’t show much interest in their situation, so Grace didn’t say anything. They walked ahead and saw Melbury standing at the spot where the cutting down of trees had been heard before. Telling Marty that she wanted her meeting with Mr. Fitzpiers to stay private, she left the girl to join her father. In any case, she would ask him about the idea of occasionally seeing her husband.
Her father was cheerful, and walked by her side as he had done in earlier days. “I was thinking of you when you came up,” he said. “I have considered that what has happened is for the best. Since your husband is gone away, and seems not to wish to trouble you, why, let him go, and drop out of your life. Many women are worse off. You can live here comfortably enough, and he can emigrate, or do what he likes for his good. I wouldn’t mind sending him the further sum of money he might naturally expect to come to him, so that you may not be bothered with him any more. He could hardly have gone on living here without speaking to me, or meeting me; and that would have been very unpleasant on both sides.”
Her dad was in a good mood, walking alongside her like he used to. “I was thinking about you when you showed up,” he said. “I believe that what’s happened is for the best. Since your husband is gone and doesn’t seem to want to bother you, let him go and just remove him from your life. Many women have it worse. You can live here just fine, and he can move away or do whatever he needs for himself. I wouldn't mind sending him the extra amount of money he might expect, so you won’t have to deal with him anymore. He probably wouldn’t have been able to stay here without talking to me or running into me, and that would have been really awkward for both of us.”
These remarks checked her intention. There was a sense of weakness in following them by saying that she had just met her husband by appointment. “Then you would advise me not to communicate with him?” she observed.
These comments made her reconsider her plans. She felt a bit weak for saying that she had just met her husband as planned. “So, you’re suggesting that I shouldn’t reach out to him?” she said.
“I shall never advise ye again. You are your own mistress—do as you like. But my opinion is that if you don’t live with him, you had better live without him, and not go shilly-shallying and playing bopeep. You sent him away; and now he’s gone. Very well; trouble him no more.”
“I won't advise you again. You’re in charge of your own life—do what you want. But my opinion is that if you’re not going to live with him, you might as well live without him and not waste time going back and forth. You sent him away; now he’s gone. Fine; don’t bother him anymore.”
Grace felt a guiltiness—she hardly knew why—and made no confession.
Grace felt a sense of guilt—she wasn't even sure why—and didn't confess anything.
CHAPTER XLVI.
The woods were uninteresting, and Grace stayed in-doors a great deal. She became quite a student, reading more than she had done since her marriage But her seclusion was always broken for the periodical visit to Winterborne’s grave with Marty, which was kept up with pious strictness, for the purpose of putting snow-drops, primroses, and other vernal flowers thereon as they came.
The woods were dull, and Grace spent a lot of time indoors. She became quite the student, reading more than she had since getting married. However, her solitude was regularly interrupted by her visits to Winterborne’s grave with Marty, which they maintained with devoted regularity, placing snowdrops, primroses, and other spring flowers there as they bloomed.
One afternoon at sunset she was standing just outside her father’s garden, which, like the rest of the Hintock enclosures, abutted into the wood. A slight foot-path led along here, forming a secret way to either of the houses by getting through its boundary hedge. Grace was just about to adopt this mode of entry when a figure approached along the path, and held up his hand to detain her. It was her husband.
One evening at sunset, she was standing right outside her father’s garden, which, like the rest of the Hintock properties, bordered the woods. A narrow footpath ran along here, creating a hidden shortcut to either of the houses by going through the boundary hedge. Grace was just about to use this path to enter when someone came along the path and raised his hand to stop her. It was her husband.
“I am delighted,” he said, coming up out of breath; and there seemed no reason to doubt his words. “I saw you some way off—I was afraid you would go in before I could reach you.”
“I’m so happy,” he said, catching his breath; and there seemed to be no reason to doubt him. “I saw you from a distance—I was worried you’d go in before I got to you.”
“It is a week before the time,” said she, reproachfully. “I said a fortnight from the last meeting.”
“It’s only a week away,” she said, with a hint of blame. “I mentioned two weeks from the last meeting.”
“My dear, you don’t suppose I could wait a fortnight without trying to get a glimpse of you, even though you had declined to meet me! Would it make you angry to know that I have been along this path at dusk three or four times since our last meeting? Well, how are you?”
“My dear, you really think I could wait two weeks without trying to catch a glimpse of you, even though you turned me down? Would it upset you to know that I’ve walked this path at dusk three or four times since we last met? So, how are you?”
She did not refuse her hand, but when he showed a wish to retain it a moment longer than mere formality required, she made it smaller, so that it slipped away from him, with again that same alarmed look which always followed his attempts in this direction. He saw that she was not yet out of the elusive mood; not yet to be treated presumingly; and he was correspondingly careful to tranquillize her.
She didn't pull her hand away, but when he wanted to hold it a bit longer than necessary, she made it smaller so it slipped out of his grip, giving him that same startled look that always followed his attempts to get closer. He realized she was still in a tricky mood; she wasn't ready to be treated too casually yet, so he was extra cautious to calm her down.
His assertion had seemed to impress her somewhat. “I had no idea you came so often,” she said. “How far do you come from?”
His claim seemed to impress her a bit. “I had no idea you came by so often,” she said. “Where do you come from?”
“From Exbury. I always walk from Sherton-Abbas, for if I hire, people will know that I come; and my success with you so far has not been great enough to justify such overtness. Now, my dear one—as I must call you—I put it to you: will you see me a little oftener as the spring advances?”
“From Exbury. I always walk from Sherton-Abbas because if I take a ride, people will notice I'm coming; and my success with you so far hasn't been significant enough to warrant such openness. Now, my dear—I must call you that—I ask you: will you see me a bit more often as spring gets closer?”
Grace lapsed into unwonted sedateness, and avoiding the question, said, “I wish you would concentrate on your profession, and give up those strange studies that used to distract you so much. I am sure you would get on.”
Grace fell into an unusual calm and, avoiding the question, said, "I wish you would focus on your career and stop those odd interests that used to distract you so much. I'm sure you would do well."
“It is the very thing I am doing. I was going to ask you to burn—or, at least, get rid of—all my philosophical literature. It is in the bookcases in your rooms. The fact is, I never cared much for abstruse studies.”
“It’s exactly what I’m doing. I was going to ask you to throw away—or at least get rid of—all my philosophical books. They’re in the bookcases in your rooms. The truth is, I never really cared much for complicated studies.”
“I am so glad to hear you say that. And those other books—those piles of old plays—what good are they to a medical man?”
“I’m really glad to hear you say that. And those other books—those stacks of old plays—what use are they to someone in medicine?”
“None whatever!” he replied, cheerfully. “Sell them at Sherton for what they will fetch.”
“Not at all!” he replied, cheerfully. “Sell them at Sherton for whatever you can get.”
“And those dreadful old French romances, with their horrid spellings of ‘filz’ and ‘ung’ and ‘ilz’ and ‘mary’ and ‘ma foy?’”
“And those awful old French romances, with their terrible spellings of ‘filz’ and ‘ung’ and ‘ilz’ and ‘mary’ and ‘ma foy?’”
“You haven’t been reading them, Grace?”
“You haven't been reading them, Grace?"
“Oh no—I just looked into them, that was all.”
“Oh no—I just took a look at them, that’s all.”
“Make a bonfire of ’em directly you get home. I meant to do it myself. I can’t think what possessed me ever to collect them. I have only a few professional hand-books now, and am quite a practical man. I am in hopes of having some good news to tell you soon, and then do you think you could—come to me again?”
“Make a bonfire of them as soon as you get home. I meant to do it myself. I can’t imagine why I ever collected them. I only have a few professional handbooks now, and I’m pretty practical. I hope to have some good news to share with you soon, and then do you think you could—come see me again?”
“I would rather you did not press me on that just now,” she replied, with some feeling. “You have said you mean to lead a new, useful, effectual life; but I should like to see you put it in practice for a little while before you address that query to me. Besides—I could not live with you.”
“I’d prefer if you didn’t push me on that right now,” she replied, feeling a bit emotional. “You said you want to live a new, meaningful, and effective life, but I’d like to see you actually do it for a bit before you ask me that question. Besides—I couldn’t live with you.”
“Why not?”
"Why not?"
Grace was silent a few instants. “I go with Marty to Giles’s grave. We swore we would show him that devotion. And I mean to keep it up.”
Grace was quiet for a moment. “I’m going with Marty to Giles’s grave. We promised we would show him that loyalty. And I intend to follow through.”
“Well, I wouldn’t mind that at all. I have no right to expect anything else, and I will not wish you to keep away. I liked the man as well as any I ever knew. In short, I would accompany you a part of the way to the place, and smoke a cigar on the stile while I waited till you came back.”
“Well, I wouldn’t mind that at all. I have no right to expect anything else, and I won’t ask you to stay away. I liked the guy as much as anyone I’ve ever met. In short, I’d walk part of the way with you to the place and smoke a cigar on the stile while I waited for you to come back.”
“Then you haven’t given up smoking?”
“Then you still haven’t quit smoking?”
“Well—ahem—no. I have thought of doing so, but—”
“Well—um—no. I have thought about doing that, but—”
His extreme complacence had rather disconcerted Grace, and the question about smoking had been to effect a diversion. Presently she said, firmly, and with a moisture in her eye that he could not see, as her mind returned to poor Giles’s “frustrate ghost,” “I don’t like you—to speak lightly on that subject, if you did speak lightly. To be frank with you—quite frank—I think of him as my betrothed lover still. I cannot help it. So that it would be wrong for me to join you.”
His extreme self-satisfaction had really unsettled Grace, and the question about smoking was meant to shift the focus. After a moment, she said firmly, with tears in her eyes that he couldn’t see, as she thought of poor Giles’s “frustrate ghost,” “I don’t like you—if you were being casual about that subject. To be honest with you—completely honest—I still think of him as my fiancé. I can’t help it. So it wouldn’t be right for me to be with you.”
Fitzpiers was now uneasy. “You say your betrothed lover still,” he rejoined. “When, then, were you betrothed to him, or engaged, as we common people say?”
Fitzpiers was now uneasy. “You say your fiancé still,” he replied. “When were you engaged to him, or as we ordinary people say, betrothed?”
“When you were away.”
"When you were gone."
“How could that be?”
"How is that possible?"
Grace would have avoided this; but her natural candor led her on. “It was when I was under the impression that my marriage with you was about to be annulled, and that he could then marry me. So I encouraged him to love me.”
Grace would have steered clear of this, but her natural honesty pushed her forward. “It was when I thought my marriage to you was about to be canceled, and that he could then marry me. So I encouraged him to love me.”
Fitzpiers winced visibly; and yet, upon the whole, she was right in telling it. Indeed, his perception that she was right in her absolute sincerity kept up his affectionate admiration for her under the pain of the rebuff. Time had been when the avowal that Grace had deliberately taken steps to replace him would have brought him no sorrow. But she so far dominated him now that he could not bear to hear her words, although the object of her high regard was no more.
Fitzpiers winced visibly; and yet, overall, she was right to say it. In fact, his understanding that she was genuinely sincere kept his affectionate admiration for her alive, despite the sting of the rejection. There was a time when the revelation that Grace had intentionally tried to move on from him wouldn’t have bothered him at all. But she had such a hold over him now that he couldn't stand to hear her words, even though the person she admired was no longer there.
“It is rough upon me—that!” he said, bitterly. “Oh, Grace—I did not know you—tried to get rid of me! I suppose it is of no use, but I ask, cannot you hope to—find a little love in your heart for me again?”
“It’s hard on me—that!” he said bitterly. “Oh, Grace—I didn’t know you—wanted to get rid of me! I guess it’s pointless, but I’m asking, can’t you hope to—find a little love for me again?”
“If I could I would oblige you; but I fear I cannot!” she replied, with illogical ruefulness. “And I don’t see why you should mind my having had one lover besides yourself in my life, when you have had so many.”
“If I could, I would help you; but I’m afraid I can’t!” she replied, sounding unreasonably regretful. “And I don’t understand why it bothers you that I’ve had one lover besides you in my life, when you’ve had so many.”
“But I can tell you honestly that I love you better than all of them put together, and that’s what you will not tell me!”
“But I can honestly tell you that I love you more than all of them combined, and that’s what you won’t say to me!”
“I am sorry; but I fear I cannot,” she said, sighing again.
“I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can,” she said, sighing again.
“I wonder if you ever will?” He looked musingly into her indistinct face, as if he would read the future there. “Now have pity, and tell me: will you try?”
“I wonder if you ever will?” He gazed thoughtfully at her blurry face, as if trying to foresee the future there. “Please have mercy and tell me: will you give it a shot?”
“To love you again?”
"To love you again?"
“Yes; if you can.”
"Sure, if you can."
“I don’t know how to reply,” she answered, her embarrassment proving her truth. “Will you promise to leave me quite free as to seeing you or not seeing you?”
“I don’t know how to respond,” she said, her embarrassment confirming her honesty. “Will you promise to give me complete freedom about whether I see you or not?”
“Certainly. Have I given any ground for you to doubt my first promise in that respect?”
“Of course. Have I given you any reason to doubt my original promise about that?”
She was obliged to admit that he had not.
She had to admit that he hadn't.
“Then I think that you might get your heart out of that grave,” said he, with playful sadness. “It has been there a long time.”
“Then I think you could pull your heart out of that grave,” he said with a playful sadness. “It’s been stuck there for a long time.”
She faintly shook her head, but said, “I’ll try to think of you more—if I can.”
She lightly shook her head but said, “I’ll try to think of you more—if I can.”
With this Fitzpiers was compelled to be satisfied, and he asked her when she would meet him again.
With this, Fitzpiers had to be satisfied, and he asked her when she would see him again.
“As we arranged—in a fortnight.”
“As we planned—in two weeks.”
“If it must be a fortnight it must!”
“If it has to be two weeks, then it has to be!”
“This time at least. I’ll consider by the day I see you again if I can shorten the interval.”
“This time for sure. I’ll think about whether I can make the wait shorter by the day I see you again.”
“Well, be that as it may, I shall come at least twice a week to look at your window.”
“Well, regardless of that, I’ll come by at least twice a week to check out your window.”
“You must do as you like about that. Good-night.”
“You can do what you want about that. Good night.”
“Say ‘husband.’”
“Say ‘partner.’”
She seemed almost inclined to give him the word; but exclaiming, “No, no; I cannot,” slipped through the garden-hedge and disappeared.
She looked like she might tell him, but then she said, “No, no; I can’t,” and slipped through the garden hedge, vanishing from sight.
Fitzpiers did not exaggerate when he told her that he should haunt the precincts of the dwelling. But his persistence in this course did not result in his seeing her much oftener than at the fortnightly interval which she had herself marked out as proper. At these times, however, she punctually appeared, and as the spring wore on the meetings were kept up, though their character changed but little with the increase in their number.
Fitzpiers wasn't exaggerating when he told her that he'd be hanging around her place. However, his determination to do so didn’t result in him seeing her any more often than the biweekly visits she deemed appropriate. During these times, though, she reliably showed up, and as spring went on, they continued to meet, even though the nature of their meetings changed very little with the increasing frequency.
The small garden of the cottage occupied by the Tangs family—father, son, and now son’s wife—aligned with the larger one of the timber-dealer at its upper end; and when young Tim, after leaving work at Melbury’s, stood at dusk in the little bower at the corner of his enclosure to smoke a pipe, he frequently observed the surgeon pass along the outside track before-mentioned. Fitzpiers always walked loiteringly, pensively, looking with a sharp eye into the gardens one after another as he proceeded; for Fitzpiers did not wish to leave the now absorbing spot too quickly, after travelling so far to reach it; hoping always for a glimpse of her whom he passionately desired to take to his arms anew.
The small garden of the cottage occupied by the Tang family—father, son, and now the son’s wife—was next to the larger one of the timber dealer at the top. When young Tim, after finishing work at Melbury’s, stood at dusk in the little nook at the corner of his yard to smoke a pipe, he often noticed the surgeon walking along the outside path mentioned earlier. Fitzpiers always walked slowly and thoughtfully, glancing intently into each garden as he went by; he didn’t want to leave this now captivating place too quickly after coming so far to get there, always hoping for a glimpse of the woman he passionately wanted to hold in his arms again.
Now Tim began to be struck with these loitering progresses along the garden boundaries in the gloaming, and wondered what they boded. It was, naturally, quite out of his power to divine the singular, sentimental revival in Fitzpiers’s heart; the fineness of tissue which could take a deep, emotional—almost also an artistic—pleasure in being the yearning innamorato of a woman he once had deserted, would have seemed an absurdity to the young sawyer. Mr. and Mrs. Fitzpiers were separated; therefore the question of affection as between them was settled. But his Suke had, since that meeting on their marriage-day, repentantly admitted, to the urgency of his questioning, a good deal concerning her past levities. Putting all things together, he could hardly avoid connecting Fitzpiers’s mysterious visits to this spot with Suke’s residence under his roof. But he made himself fairly easy: the vessel in which they were about to emigrate sailed that month; and then Suke would be out of Fitzpiers’s way forever.
Now Tim started to notice these lingering walks along the garden borders in the twilight and wondered what they meant. It was beyond his understanding to grasp the strange, sentimental revival in Fitzpiers’s heart; the sensitivity that could find deep, emotional—almost artistic—pleasure in being the longing lover of a woman he had once abandoned would have seemed ridiculous to the young sawyer. Mr. and Mrs. Fitzpiers were separated, so the question of their feelings for each other was settled. However, Suke had, since their encounter on their wedding day, remorsefully shared a lot about her past indiscretions in response to his probing questions. Putting everything together, he couldn’t help but link Fitzpiers’s mysterious visits to this place with Suke living under his roof. But he managed to ease his mind: the ship they were about to emigrate on was set to sail that month; then Suke would be out of Fitzpiers’s life forever.
The interval at last expired, and the eve of their departure arrived. They were pausing in the room of the cottage allotted to them by Tim’s father, after a busy day of preparation, which left them weary. In a corner stood their boxes, crammed and corded, their large case for the hold having already been sent away. The firelight shone upon Suke’s fine face and form as she stood looking into it, and upon the face of Tim seated in a corner, and upon the walls of his father’s house, which he was beholding that night almost for the last time.
The break finally ended, and the night before their departure arrived. They were taking a moment in the room of the cottage that Tim’s father had given them, after a hectic day of getting ready that left them exhausted. In one corner were their boxes, packed and tied up, with their big suitcase for the hold already sent off. The firelight highlighted Suke’s beautiful face and figure as she stared into it, as well as Tim sitting in a corner, looking at the walls of his father’s house, which he was seeing almost for the last time that night.
Tim Tangs was not happy. This scheme of emigration was dividing him from his father—for old Tangs would on no account leave Hintock—and had it not been for Suke’s reputation and his own dignity, Tim would at the last moment have abandoned the project. As he sat in the back part of the room he regarded her moodily, and the fire and the boxes. One thing he had particularly noticed this evening—she was very restless; fitful in her actions, unable to remain seated, and in a marked degree depressed.
Tim Tangs was not happy. This plan to emigrate was putting a rift between him and his father—old Tangs would never leave Hintock—and if it weren’t for Suke’s reputation and his own pride, Tim would have backed out of the project at the last minute. As he sat in the back of the room, he looked at her with a gloomy expression, taking in the fire and the boxes. One thing he had really noticed that evening—she was very restless; her actions were unpredictable, she couldn’t stay seated, and she seemed noticeably down.
“Sorry that you be going, after all, Suke?” he said.
“Sorry to hear you’re leaving, after all, Suke?” he said.
She sighed involuntarily. “I don’t know but that I be,” she answered. “’Tis natural, isn’t it, when one is going away?”
She sighed without meaning to. "I don't know about that," she replied. "It's natural, isn't it, when someone is leaving?"
“But you wasn’t born here as I was.”
“But you weren't born here like I was.”
“No.”
“No.”
“There’s folk left behind that you’d fain have with ’ee, I reckon?”
“There are people left behind that you’d really want with you, I guess?”
“Why do you think that?”
"Why do you feel that?"
“I’ve seen things and I’ve heard things; and, Suke, I say ’twill be a good move for me to get ’ee away. I don’t mind his leavings abroad, but I do mind ’em at home.”
“I’ve seen a lot and I’ve heard a lot; and, Suke, I think it would be a smart move for me to get you out of here. I don’t care about his affairs outside, but I do care about them at home.”
Suke’s face was not changed from its aspect of listless indifference by the words. She answered nothing; and shortly after he went out for his customary pipe of tobacco at the top of the garden.
Suke’s face showed no change from its look of uninterested indifference after he spoke. She didn't respond; and shortly after, he went out for his usual smoke at the top of the garden.
The restlessness of Suke had indeed owed its presence to the gentleman of Tim’s suspicions, but in a different—and it must be added in justice to her—more innocent sense than he supposed, judging from former doings. She had accidentally discovered that Fitzpiers was in the habit of coming secretly once or twice a week to Hintock, and knew that this evening was a favorite one of the seven for his journey. As she was going next day to leave the country, Suke thought there could be no great harm in giving way to a little sentimentality by obtaining a glimpse of him quite unknown to himself or to anybody, and thus taking a silent last farewell. Aware that Fitzpiers’s time for passing was at hand she thus betrayed her feeling. No sooner, therefore, had Tim left the room than she let herself noiselessly out of the house, and hastened to the corner of the garden, whence she could witness the surgeon’s transit across the scene—if he had not already gone by.
The restlessness of Suke was indeed due to the gentleman's suspicions about Tim, but in a different—and to be fair to her—a more innocent way than he thought, based on past events. She had accidentally found out that Fitzpiers secretly visited Hintock once or twice a week and knew that tonight was one of his usual nights. Since she was leaving the country the next day, Suke figured there wouldn't be much harm in indulging a little sentimentality by sneaking a glance at him without him or anyone else knowing, and saying a silent last goodbye. Realizing that Fitzpiers would be passing by soon, she revealed her feelings. As soon as Tim left the room, she quietly slipped out of the house and rushed to the corner of the garden, where she could see the surgeon pass by—if he hadn't already left.
Her light cotton dress was visible to Tim lounging in the arbor of the opposite corner, though he was hidden from her. He saw her stealthily climb into the hedge, and so ensconce herself there that nobody could have the least doubt her purpose was to watch unseen for a passer-by.
Her light cotton dress caught Tim's eye as he lounged in the arbor in the opposite corner, even though she couldn't see him. He watched her quietly climb into the hedge and position herself so well that there was no doubt she intended to watch undetected for someone passing by.
He went across to the spot and stood behind her. Suke started, having in her blundering way forgotten that he might be near. She at once descended from the hedge.
He walked over to the spot and stood behind her. Suke jumped, having clumsily forgotten that he could be nearby. She immediately climbed down from the hedge.
“So he’s coming to-night,” said Tim, laconically. “And we be always anxious to see our dears.”
“So he’s coming tonight,” Tim said casually. “And we’re always eager to see our loved ones.”
“He is coming to-night,” she replied, with defiance. “And we be anxious for our dears.”
“He is coming tonight,” she replied, with defiance. “And we are anxious for our loved ones.”
“Then will you step in-doors, where your dear will soon jine ’ee? We’ve to mouster by half-past three to-morrow, and if we don’t get to bed by eight at latest our faces will be as long as clock-cases all day.”
“Then will you come inside, where your dear will soon join you? We need to wake up by 3:30 tomorrow, and if we don’t get to bed by 8 at the latest, we’ll have long faces all day.”
She hesitated for a minute, but ultimately obeyed, going slowly down the garden to the house, where he heard the door-latch click behind her.
She paused for a moment, but eventually went along with it, walking slowly from the garden to the house, where he heard the door latch click shut behind her.
Tim was incensed beyond measure. His marriage had so far been a total failure, a source of bitter regret; and the only course for improving his case, that of leaving the country, was a sorry, and possibly might not be a very effectual one. Do what he would, his domestic sky was likely to be overcast to the end of the day. Thus he brooded, and his resentment gathered force. He craved a means of striking one blow back at the cause of his cheerless plight, while he was still on the scene of his discomfiture. For some minutes no method suggested itself, and then he had an idea.
Tim was extremely angry. His marriage had been a complete failure, filled with regret; and the only way he thought he could fix things, leaving the country, seemed disappointing and might not even be effective. No matter what he did, his home life was bound to be gloomy for the foreseeable future. He dwelled on this, and his frustration grew stronger. He wanted a way to hit back at the reason for his miserable situation while he was still in the middle of it. For a few minutes, nothing came to mind, and then he had an idea.
Coming to a sudden resolution, he hastened along the garden, and entered the one attached to the next cottage, which had formerly been the dwelling of a game-keeper. Tim descended the path to the back of the house, where only an old woman lived at present, and reaching the wall he stopped. Owing to the slope of the ground the roof-eaves of the linhay were here within touch, and he thrust his arm up under them, feeling about in the space on the top of the wall-plate.
Coming to a quick decision, he rushed through the garden and entered the one next to the cottage, which used to be the home of a gamekeeper. Tim made his way down the path to the back of the house, where only an elderly woman lived now, and when he reached the wall, he paused. Because of the slant of the ground, the roof eaves of the linhay were within reach, and he put his arm up under them, feeling around in the space on top of the wall plate.
“Ah, I thought my memory didn’t deceive me!” he lipped silently.
“Ah, I was right; my memory didn’t fail me!” he mouthed silently.
With some exertion he drew down a cobwebbed object curiously framed in iron, which clanked as he moved it. It was about three feet in length and half as wide. Tim contemplated it as well as he could in the dying light of day, and raked off the cobwebs with his hand.
With some effort, he pulled down a dusty object oddly framed in iron, which made a clanking sound as he moved it. It was about three feet long and half as wide. Tim examined it as best as he could in the fading light of day and brushed off the cobwebs with his hand.
“That will spoil his pretty shins for’n, I reckon!” he said.
“That will ruin his nice shins, I guess!” he said.
It was a man-trap.
It was a mantrap.
CHAPTER XLVII.
Were the inventors of automatic machines to be ranged according to the excellence of their devices for producing sound artistic torture, the creator of the man-trap would occupy a very respectable if not a very high place.
Were the inventors of automatic machines to be ranked based on how well their devices create beautifully crafted torment, the creator of the man-trap would hold a respectable, if not a high, position.
It should rather, however, be said, the inventor of the particular form of man-trap of which this found in the keeper’s out-house was a specimen. For there were other shapes and other sizes, instruments which, if placed in a row beside one of the type disinterred by Tim, would have worn the subordinate aspect of the bears, wild boars, or wolves in a travelling menagerie, as compared with the leading lion or tiger. In short, though many varieties had been in use during those centuries which we are accustomed to look back upon as the true and only period of merry England—in the rural districts more especially—and onward down to the third decade of the nineteenth century, this model had borne the palm, and had been most usually followed when the orchards and estates required new ones.
It should be said, though, that the inventor of this specific type of man-trap, like the one found in the keeper’s out-house, was noteworthy. There were various shapes and sizes of these devices, which, if lined up next to one of the types dug up by Tim, would look like lesser animals, like bears, wild boars, or wolves in a traveling zoo, compared to the main attractions like lions or tigers. In short, while many different kinds had been in use throughout the centuries we consider the true golden age of merry England—particularly in the countryside—and up until the 1830s, this particular model had been the most popular and was typically the one chosen when the orchards and estates needed replacements.
There had been the toothless variety used by the softer-hearted landlords—quite contemptible in their clemency. The jaws of these resembled the jaws of an old woman to whom time has left nothing but gums. There were also the intermediate or half-toothed sorts, probably devised by the middle-natured squires, or those under the influence of their wives: two inches of mercy, two inches of cruelty, two inches of mere nip, two inches of probe, and so on, through the whole extent of the jaws. There were also, as a class apart, the bruisers, which did not lacerate the flesh, but only crushed the bone.
There were the toothless ones used by the more compassionate landlords—pretty pathetic in their kindness. Their jaws resembled those of an old woman who has lost all but her gums. Then there were the half-toothed versions, likely created by the average squires or those swayed by their wives: two inches of mercy, two inches of cruelty, two inches of a simple pinch, two inches of something sharper, and so on, covering the entire length of the jaws. Additionally, there were the bruisers, which didn't tear the flesh but only crushed the bone.
The sight of one of these gins when set produced a vivid impression that it was endowed with life. It exhibited the combined aspects of a shark, a crocodile, and a scorpion. Each tooth was in the form of a tapering spine, two and a quarter inches long, which, when the jaws were closed, stood in alternation from this side and from that. When they were open, the two halves formed a complete circle between two and three feet in diameter, the plate or treading-place in the midst being about a foot square, while from beneath extended in opposite directions the soul of the apparatus, the pair of springs, each one being of a stiffness to render necessary a lever or the whole weight of the body when forcing it down.
The sight of one of these gins when set created a strong impression that it was alive. It showed features reminiscent of a shark, a crocodile, and a scorpion. Each tooth was shaped like a pointed spine, about two and a quarter inches long, which, when the jaws were closed, alternated from one side to the other. When open, the two halves formed a complete circle two to three feet in diameter, with the plate or treading surface in the middle being about a foot square. Below, the mechanism extended in opposite directions with a pair of springs, each stiff enough to require a lever or the full weight of a person to push it down.
There were men at this time still living at Hintock who remembered when the gin and others like it were in use. Tim Tangs’s great-uncle had endured a night of six hours in this very trap, which lamed him for life. Once a keeper of Hintock woods set it on the track of a poacher, and afterwards, coming back that way, forgetful of what he had done, walked into it himself. The wound brought on lockjaw, of which he died. This event occurred during the thirties, and by the year 1840 the use of such implements was well-nigh discontinued in the neighborhood. But being made entirely of iron, they by no means disappeared, and in almost every village one could be found in some nook or corner as readily as this was found by Tim. It had, indeed, been a fearful amusement of Tim and other Hintock lads—especially those who had a dim sense of becoming renowned poachers when they reached their prime—to drag out this trap from its hiding, set it, and throw it with billets of wood, which were penetrated by the teeth to the depth of near an inch.
There were still men living in Hintock who remembered when the gin and similar traps were in use. Tim Tangs's great-uncle had spent a painful six hours in this very trap, which left him lame for life. Once, a keeper of Hintock woods set the trap to catch a poacher, and later, forgetting what he had done, he accidentally walked into it himself. The injury led to lockjaw, and he ended up dying from it. This incident happened in the thirties, and by 1840, the use of such traps had almost been phased out in the area. However, since they were made entirely of iron, they didn't just disappear, and almost every village had one tucked away somewhere, just like the one Tim found. It had indeed been a terrifying pastime for Tim and the other boys from Hintock—especially those who dreamed of becoming famous poachers when they grew up—to pull this trap out from its hiding place, set it, and then use logs to test it, which were bitten into by the teeth of the trap nearly an inch deep.
As soon as he had examined the trap, and found that the hinges and springs were still perfect, he shouldered it without more ado, and returned with his burden to his own garden, passing on through the hedge to the path immediately outside the boundary. Here, by the help of a stout stake, he set the trap, and laid it carefully behind a bush while he went forward to reconnoitre. As has been stated, nobody passed this way for days together sometimes; but there was just a possibility that some other pedestrian than the one in request might arrive, and it behooved Tim to be careful as to the identity of his victim.
As soon as he checked the trap and saw that the hinges and springs were still in great condition, he picked it up without hesitation and took it back to his garden, going through the hedge to the path just outside the boundary. There, with the help of a sturdy stake, he set the trap and carefully hid it behind a bush while he went ahead to scout the area. As mentioned, sometimes no one passed this way for days; however, there was a chance that someone other than the intended target might come by, so Tim needed to be cautious about knowing who his victim was.
Going about a hundred yards along the rising ground to the right, he reached a ridge whereon a large and thick holly grew. Beyond this for some distance the wood was more open, and the course which Fitzpiers must pursue to reach the point, if he came to-night, was visible a long way forward.
Going about a hundred yards up the slope to the right, he reached a ridge where a large, thick holly tree grew. Beyond this, for quite a distance, the woods were more open, and the path Fitzpiers would need to take to reach the point, if he came tonight, was visible far ahead.
For some time there was no sign of him or of anybody. Then there shaped itself a spot out of the dim mid-distance, between the masses of brushwood on either hand. And it enlarged, and Tim could hear the brushing of feet over the tufts of sour-grass. The airy gait revealed Fitzpiers even before his exact outline could be seen.
For a while, there was no sign of him or anyone else. Then a figure began to form in the hazy distance, between the clumps of bushes on both sides. It grew bigger, and Tim could hear the sound of footsteps on the patches of sour grass. The light step made it clear that it was Fitzpiers, even before he could be clearly seen.
Tim Tangs turned about, and ran down the opposite side of the hill, till he was again at the head of his own garden. It was the work of a few moments to drag out the man-trap, very gently—that the plate might not be disturbed sufficiently to throw it—to a space between a pair of young oaks which, rooted in contiguity, grew apart upward, forming a V-shaped opening between; and, being backed up by bushes, left this as the only course for a foot-passenger. In it he laid the trap with the same gentleness of handling, locked the chain round one of the trees, and finally slid back the guard which was placed to keep the gin from accidentally catching the arms of him who set it, or, to use the local and better word, “toiled” it.
Tim Tangs turned around and ran down the other side of the hill until he was back at the beginning of his garden. It only took a moment to carefully drag out the man-trap, making sure not to move the plate enough to trigger it, to a spot between two young oaks that grew apart as they rose, creating a V-shaped opening between them. With bushes backing it up, this was the only path for someone walking by. He placed the trap there with the same careful handling, locked the chain around one of the trees, and finally slid back the guard designed to prevent the trap from accidentally snapping on the arms of whoever set it, or, to use the local and better term, “toiled” it.
Having completed these arrangements, Tim sprang through the adjoining hedge of his father’s garden, ran down the path, and softly entered the house.
Having finished these arrangements, Tim jumped through the neighboring hedge of his dad's garden, ran down the path, and quietly entered the house.
Obedient to his order, Suke had gone to bed; and as soon as he had bolted the door, Tim unlaced and kicked off his boots at the foot of the stairs, and retired likewise, without lighting a candle. His object seemed to be to undress as soon as possible. Before, however, he had completed the operation, a long cry resounded without—penetrating, but indescribable.
Obeying his command, Suke went to bed; and as soon as he locked the door, Tim took off his boots at the bottom of the stairs and went to bed too, without lighting a candle. His goal appeared to be to get undressed as quickly as possible. However, before he finished, a long, eerie cry echoed outside—clearly audible, but impossible to describe.
“What’s that?” said Suke, starting up in bed.
“What’s that?” Suke said, sitting up in bed.
“Sounds as if somebody had caught a hare in his gin.”
“Sounds like someone has trapped a hare in their snare.”
“Oh no,” said she. “It was not a hare, ’twas louder. Hark!”
“Oh no,” she said. “It wasn’t a hare, it was louder. Listen!”
“Do ’ee get to sleep,” said Tim. “How be you going to wake at half-past three else?”
“Did you get to sleep?” Tim asked. “How are you going to wake up at half-past three otherwise?”
She lay down and was silent. Tim stealthily opened the window and listened. Above the low harmonies produced by the instrumentation of the various species of trees around the premises he could hear the twitching of a chain from the spot whereon he had set the man-trap. But further human sound there was none.
She lay down and stayed quiet. Tim quietly opened the window and listened. Above the soft sounds made by the different types of trees around the property, he could hear the faint clinking of a chain from where he had set the man-trap. But there was no other human sound.
Tim was puzzled. In the haste of his project he had not calculated upon a cry; but if one, why not more? He soon ceased to essay an answer, for Hintock was dead to him already. In half a dozen hours he would be out of its precincts for life, on his way to the antipodes. He closed the window and lay down.
Tim was confused. In the rush of his project, he hadn’t thought about a shout; but if there was one, why not more? He quickly stopped trying to find an answer, since Hintock was already in his past. In just a few hours, he would be leaving it behind for good, on his way to the other side of the world. He closed the window and lay down.
The hour which had brought these movements of Tim to birth had been operating actively elsewhere. Awaiting in her father’s house the minute of her appointment with her husband, Grace Fitzpiers deliberated on many things. Should she inform her father before going out that the estrangement of herself and Edgar was not so complete as he had imagined, and deemed desirable for her happiness? If she did so she must in some measure become the apologist of her husband, and she was not prepared to go so far.
The hour that had led to Tim's actions was also affecting things elsewhere. While waiting in her father's house for her meeting with her husband, Grace Fitzpiers thought about many things. Should she tell her father before leaving that her separation from Edgar wasn't as final as he believed and that it was important for her happiness? If she did, she would have to defend her husband to some extent, and she wasn't ready to do that.
As for him, he kept her in a mood of considerate gravity. He certainly had changed. He had at his worst times always been gentle in his manner towards her. Could it be that she might make of him a true and worthy husband yet? She had married him; there was no getting over that; and ought she any longer to keep him at a distance? His suave deference to her lightest whim on the question of his comings and goings, when as her lawful husband he might show a little independence, was a trait in his character as unexpected as it was engaging. If she had been his empress, and he her thrall, he could not have exhibited a more sensitive care to avoid intruding upon her against her will.
As for him, he maintained a serious yet considerate atmosphere around her. He had definitely changed. Even at his worst, he had always been gentle with her. Could it be possible for her to shape him into a true and worthy husband? She had married him; there was no denying that; so should she continue to keep him at a distance? His smooth attentiveness to her every whim regarding his coming and going, even when as her husband he could assert some independence, was a surprising and charming aspect of his character. If she had been his queen and he her servant, he couldn't have shown more thoughtful consideration to avoid imposing on her against her wishes.
Impelled by a remembrance she took down a prayer-book and turned to the marriage-service. Reading it slowly through, she became quite appalled at her recent off-handedness, when she rediscovered what awfully solemn promises she had made him at those chancel steps not so very long ago.
Impelled by a memory, she took down a prayer book and opened to the marriage service. As she read it slowly, she was shocked by her recent nonchalance when she realized the incredibly serious promises she had made to him at those chancel steps not long ago.
She became lost in long ponderings on how far a person’s conscience might be bound by vows made without at the time a full recognition of their force. That particular sentence, beginning “Whom God hath joined together,” was a staggerer for a gentlewoman of strong devotional sentiment. She wondered whether God really did join them together. Before she had done deliberating the time of her engagement drew near, and she went out of the house almost at the moment that Tim Tangs retired to his own.
She got caught up in deep thoughts about how much a person's conscience could be limited by promises made without fully understanding their impact. That specific line, starting with "Whom God hath joined together," really struck a chord with a woman of strong faith. She questioned whether God actually did bring them together. Before she finished her reflections, her engagement was approaching, and she left the house just as Tim Tangs was heading home.
The position of things at that critical juncture was briefly as follows.
The status of things at that critical point was briefly as follows.
Two hundred yards to the right of the upper end of Tangs’s garden Fitzpiers was still advancing, having now nearly reached the summit of the wood-clothed ridge, the path being the actual one which further on passed between the two young oaks. Thus far it was according to Tim’s conjecture. But about two hundred yards to the left, or rather less, was arising a condition which he had not divined, the emergence of Grace as aforesaid from the upper corner of her father’s garden, with the view of meeting Tim’s intended victim. Midway between husband and wife was the diabolical trap, silent, open, ready.
Two hundred yards to the right of the upper end of Tangs’s garden, Fitzpiers was still moving forward, almost reaching the top of the wooded ridge, on the path that, further ahead, ran between the two young oaks. So far, this matched Tim’s guess. But about two hundred yards to the left, or maybe a bit less, a situation was unfolding that he hadn’t anticipated: Grace was appearing from the upper corner of her father’s garden, planning to meet Tim’s intended target. In between the husband and wife was the sinister trap, quiet, exposed, and waiting.
Fitzpiers’s walk that night had been cheerful, for he was convinced that the slow and gentle method he had adopted was promising success. The very restraint that he was obliged to exercise upon himself, so as not to kill the delicate bud of returning confidence, fed his flame. He walked so much more rapidly than Grace that, if they continued advancing as they had begun, he would reach the trap a good half-minute before she could reach the same spot.
Fitzpiers’s walk that night had been upbeat because he believed that the slow and gentle approach he had taken was likely to succeed. The very self-control he had to practice to avoid stifling the delicate bud of returning confidence fueled his motivation. He walked much faster than Grace, so if they kept moving at this pace, he would get to the trap a good thirty seconds before she could arrive there.
But here a new circumstance came in; to escape the unpleasantness of being watched or listened to by lurkers—naturally curious by reason of their strained relations—they had arranged that their meeting for to-night should be at the holm-tree on the ridge above named. So soon, accordingly, as Fitzpiers reached the tree he stood still to await her.
But now a new situation arose; to avoid the awkwardness of being watched or eavesdropped on by those who naturally felt curious due to their tense relationship, they had decided that their meeting for tonight would take place at the holm tree on the aforementioned ridge. Therefore, as soon as Fitzpiers arrived at the tree, he paused to wait for her.
He had not paused under the prickly foliage more than two minutes when he thought he heard a scream from the other side of the ridge. Fitzpiers wondered what it could mean; but such wind as there was just now blew in an adverse direction, and his mood was light. He set down the origin of the sound to one of the superstitious freaks or frolicsome scrimmages between sweethearts that still survived in Hintock from old-English times; and waited on where he stood till ten minutes had passed. Feeling then a little uneasy, his mind reverted to the scream; and he went forward over the summit and down the embowered incline, till he reached the pair of sister oaks with the narrow opening between them.
He had only been standing under the prickly branches for about two minutes when he thought he heard a scream from the other side of the ridge. Fitzpiers wondered what it could mean, but the little wind there was blew in the wrong direction, and he was in a good mood. He attributed the sound to one of the superstitious oddities or playful scuffles between lovers that still existed in Hintock from old English times, and he waited there for ten minutes. After starting to feel a bit uneasy, he thought again about the scream and made his way over the top and down the shaded slope until he reached the pair of sister oaks with the narrow gap between them.
Fitzpiers stumbled and all but fell. Stretching down his hand to ascertain the obstruction, it came in contact with a confused mass of silken drapery and iron-work that conveyed absolutely no explanatory idea to his mind at all. It was but the work of a moment to strike a match; and then he saw a sight which congealed his blood.
Fitzpiers stumbled and nearly fell. He reached down to figure out what was in his way and his hand brushed against a tangled mess of silky fabric and metal that made no sense to him. It only took a moment to light a match; then he saw something that froze his blood.
The man-trap was thrown; and between its jaws was part of a woman’s clothing—a patterned silk skirt—gripped with such violence that the iron teeth had passed through it, skewering its tissue in a score of places. He immediately recognized the skirt as that of one of his wife’s gowns—the gown that she had worn when she met him on the very last occasion.
The man-trap was set; and caught in its jaws was a piece of a woman’s clothing—a patterned silk skirt—held with such force that the iron teeth had pierced it, impaling its fabric in multiple spots. He instantly identified the skirt as one of his wife’s dresses—the one she had worn the last time they met.
Fitzpiers had often studied the effect of these instruments when examining the collection at Hintock House, and the conception instantly flashed through him that Grace had been caught, taken out mangled by some chance passer, and carried home, some of her clothes being left behind in the difficulty of getting her free. The shock of this conviction, striking into the very current of high hope, was so great that he cried out like one in corporal agony, and in his misery bowed himself down to the ground.
Fitzpiers had often looked at how these instruments worked while examining the collection at Hintock House, and in an instant, it struck him that Grace had been caught, taken out mangled by some random passerby, and brought home, with some of her clothes left behind in the struggle to free her. The shock of this realization, hitting him hard in the midst of his hopes, was so intense that he cried out like someone in physical pain, and in his anguish, he bent down to the ground.
Of all the degrees and qualities of punishment that Fitzpiers had undergone since his sins against Grace first began, not any even approximated in intensity to this.
Of all the levels and types of punishment that Fitzpiers had experienced since he first wronged Grace, none came close in intensity to this one.
“Oh, my own—my darling! Oh, cruel Heaven—it is too much, this!” he cried, writhing and rocking himself over the sorry accessories of her he deplored.
“Oh, my own—my darling! Oh, cruel Heaven—it’s just too much!” he cried, twisting and rocking himself over the sorry reminders of her that he mourned.
The voice of his distress was sufficiently loud to be audible to any one who might have been there to hear it; and one there was. Right and left of the narrow pass between the oaks were dense bushes; and now from behind these a female figure glided, whose appearance even in the gloom was, though graceful in outline, noticeably strange.
The sound of his distress was loud enough for anyone nearby to hear it; and someone was there. On either side of the narrow path between the oak trees were thick bushes; and now from behind them, a woman appeared, her figure graceful yet strikingly unusual even in the dim light.
She was in white up to the waist, and figured above. She was, in short, Grace, his wife, lacking the portion of her dress which the gin retained.
She was wearing white up to her waist, and it hugged her figure above. In short, she was Grace, his wife, missing the part of her outfit that the gin had kept.
“Don’t be grieved about me—don’t, dear Edgar!” she exclaimed, rushing up and bending over him. “I am not hurt a bit! I was coming on to find you after I had released myself, but I heard footsteps; and I hid away, because I was without some of my clothing, and I did not know who the person might be.”
“Don’t be sad about me—please, Edgar!” she said, rushing over and leaning down toward him. “I’m not hurt at all! I was trying to find you after I got free, but then I heard footsteps; so I hid because I was missing some of my clothes, and I didn’t know who it was.”
Fitzpiers had sprung to his feet, and his next act was no less unpremeditated by him than it was irresistible by her, and would have been so by any woman not of Amazonian strength. He clasped his arms completely round, pressed her to his breast, and kissed her passionately.
Fitzpiers jumped to his feet, and his next move was just as spontaneous for him as it was unavoidable for her, and would have been for any woman not of extraordinary strength. He wrapped his arms around her completely, pulled her to his chest, and kissed her passionately.
“You are not dead!—you are not hurt! Thank God—thank God!” he said, almost sobbing in his delight and relief from the horror of his apprehension. “Grace, my wife, my love, how is this—what has happened?”
“You're not dead!—you’re not hurt! Thank God—thank God!” he said, almost crying from his joy and relief from the terror of his fears. “Grace, my wife, my love, what’s going on—what happened?”
“I was coming on to you,” she said as distinctly as she could in the half-smothered state of her face against his. “I was trying to be as punctual as possible, and as I had started a minute late I ran along the path very swiftly—fortunately for myself. Just when I had passed between these trees I felt something clutch at my dress from behind with a noise, and the next moment I was pulled backward by it, and fell to the ground. I screamed with terror, thinking it was a man lying down there to murder me, but the next moment I discovered it was iron, and that my clothes were caught in a trap. I pulled this way and that, but the thing would not let go, drag it as I would, and I did not know what to do. I did not want to alarm my father or anybody, as I wished nobody to know of these meetings with you; so I could think of no other plan than slipping off my skirt, meaning to run on and tell you what a strange accident had happened to me. But when I had just freed myself by leaving the dress behind, I heard steps, and not being sure it was you, I did not like to be seen in such a pickle, so I hid away.”
“I was coming on to you,” she said as clearly as she could with her face pressed against his. “I was trying to be on time, and since I started a minute late, I rushed down the path really quickly—thank goodness. Just as I passed between these trees, I felt something grab my dress from behind with a noise, and the next moment I was pulled backward by it and fell to the ground. I screamed in panic, thinking there was a man lying there ready to hurt me, but then I realized it was iron, and my clothes were caught in a trap. I tugged this way and that, but it wouldn't let go, no matter how hard I tried, and I didn't know what to do. I didn’t want to alarm my dad or anyone else because I wanted to keep our meetings a secret; so I couldn’t think of anything else but to slip off my skirt, planning to run on and tell you about the weird accident that happened to me. But just as I managed to free myself by leaving the dress behind, I heard footsteps, and not knowing if it was you, I didn’t want to be seen in such a mess, so I hid.”
“It was only your speed that saved you! One or both of your legs would have been broken if you had come at ordinary walking pace.”
“It was only your speed that saved you! One or both of your legs would have been broken if you had come at a regular walking pace.”
“Or yours, if you had got here first,” said she, beginning to realize the whole ghastliness of the possibility. “Oh, Edgar, there has been an Eye watching over us to-night, and we should be thankful indeed!”
“Or yours, if you had gotten here first,” she said, starting to understand the full horror of the situation. “Oh, Edgar, there has been an Eye watching over us tonight, and we should be really grateful!”
He continued to press his face to hers. “You are mine—mine again now.”
He kept pressing his face against hers. “You’re mine—mine again now.”
She gently owned that she supposed she was. “I heard what you said when you thought I was injured,” she went on, shyly, “and I know that a man who could suffer as you were suffering must have a tender regard for me. But how does this awful thing come here?”
She softly admitted that she thought she was. “I heard what you said when you thought I was hurt,” she continued, shyly, “and I know that a man who could feel as deeply as you were must care for me. But how did this terrible thing happen?”
“I suppose it has something to do with poachers.” Fitzpiers was still so shaken by the sense of her danger that he was obliged to sit awhile, and it was not until Grace said, “If I could only get my skirt out nobody would know anything about it,” that he bestirred himself.
“I guess it has something to do with poachers.” Fitzpiers was still so rattled by the feeling of her danger that he had to sit for a while, and it wasn’t until Grace said, “If I could just get my skirt out, nobody would know anything about it,” that he got moving.
By their united efforts, each standing on one of the springs of the trap, they pressed them down sufficiently to insert across the jaws a billet which they dragged from a faggot near at hand; and it was then possible to extract the silk mouthful from the monster’s bite, creased and pierced with many holes, but not torn. Fitzpiers assisted her to put it on again; and when her customary contours were thus restored they walked on together, Grace taking his arm, till he effected an improvement by clasping it round her waist.
By working together, each of them standing on one of the trap's springs, they pushed them down enough to slide a stick across the jaws, which they pulled from a nearby bundle of wood. This made it possible to remove the silk piece from the creature’s bite, which was creased and filled with holes but not ripped. Fitzpiers helped her put it back on, and once her usual shape was restored, they walked on together, Grace linking her arm with his, until he improved the hold by wrapping it around her waist.
The ice having been broken in this unexpected manner, she made no further attempt at reserve. “I would ask you to come into the house,” she said, “but my meetings with you have been kept secret from my father, and I should like to prepare him.”
The ice having been broken in this unexpected way, she made no further attempt at holding back. “I would invite you into the house,” she said, “but I’ve kept my meetings with you secret from my father, and I’d like to prepare him.”
“Never mind, dearest. I could not very well have accepted the invitation. I shall never live here again—as much for your sake as for mine. I have news to tell you on this very point, but my alarm had put it out of my head. I have bought a practice, or rather a partnership, in the Midlands, and I must go there in a week to take up permanent residence. My poor old great-aunt died about eight months ago, and left me enough to do this. I have taken a little furnished house for a time, till we can get one of our own.”
“Don't worry about it, my dear. I couldn't really accept the invitation anyway. I’ll never live here again—just as much for your sake as for mine. I have some news to share with you about this, but my anxiety made me forget it. I've bought a practice, or rather a partnership, in the Midlands, and I need to move there in a week to settle in permanently. My dear old great-aunt passed away about eight months ago and left me enough money to make this happen. I’ve rented a small furnished house for now, until we can find one of our own.”
He described the place, and the surroundings, and the view from the windows, and Grace became much interested. “But why are you not there now?” she said.
He described the place, the surroundings, and the view from the windows, and Grace became very interested. “But why aren’t you there now?” she asked.
“Because I cannot tear myself away from here till I have your promise. Now, darling, you will accompany me there—will you not? To-night has settled that.”
“Because I can’t leave here until I have your promise. Now, darling, you will come with me there—won’t you? Tonight has decided that.”
Grace’s tremblings had gone off, and she did not say nay. They went on together.
Grace's shivering had stopped, and she didn’t object. They continued on together.
The adventure, and the emotions consequent upon the reunion which that event had forced on, combined to render Grace oblivious of the direction of their desultory ramble, till she noticed they were in an encircled glade in the densest part of the wood, whereon the moon, that had imperceptibly added its rays to the scene, shone almost vertically. It was an exceptionally soft, balmy evening for the time of year, which was just that transient period in the May month when beech-trees have suddenly unfolded large limp young leaves of the softness of butterflies’ wings. Boughs bearing such leaves hung low around, and completely enclosed them, so that it was as if they were in a great green vase, which had moss for its bottom and leaf sides.
The adventure and the emotions from the reunion made Grace completely unaware of where they were wandering until she realized they had entered a secluded clearing in the thickest part of the woods, where the moon, which had subtly brightened the scene, shone almost directly overhead. It was an unusually warm, pleasant evening for this time of year, during that brief moment in May when beech trees suddenly opened up their large, soft young leaves that felt like the wings of butterflies. Branches with those leaves hung low around them, forming a kind of great green vase, with moss at the bottom and leafy sides.
The clouds having been packed in the west that evening so as to retain the departing glare a long while, the hour had seemed much earlier than it was. But suddenly the question of time occurred to her.
The clouds were gathered in the west that evening, holding onto the fading light for much longer, making the hour seem much earlier than it actually was. But then, she suddenly thought about the time.
“I must go back,” she said; and without further delay they set their faces towards Hintock. As they walked he examined his watch by the aid of the now strong moonlight.
“I have to go back,” she said; and without any more delay, they headed towards Hintock. As they walked, he checked his watch in the bright moonlight.
“By the gods, I think I have lost my train!” said Fitzpiers.
“By the gods, I think I've lost my train!” said Fitzpiers.
“Dear me—whereabouts are we?” said she.
“Wow—where are we?” she said.
“Two miles in the direction of Sherton.”
“Two miles to Sherton.”
“Then do you hasten on, Edgar. I am not in the least afraid. I recognize now the part of the wood we are in and I can find my way back quite easily. I’ll tell my father that we have made it up. I wish I had not kept our meetings so private, for it may vex him a little to know I have been seeing you. He is getting old and irritable, that was why I did not. Good-by.”
“Then go ahead, Edgar. I’m not worried at all. I can see where we are in the woods, and I can easily find my way back. I’ll tell my dad that we’ve made up. I wish I hadn’t kept our meetings a secret because it might annoy him a bit to know I’ve been seeing you. He’s getting older and more irritable, which is why I didn’t. Goodbye.”
“But, as I must stay at the Earl of Wessex to-night, for I cannot possibly catch the train, I think it would be safer for you to let me take care of you.”
“But since I have to stay at the Earl of Wessex tonight because I can't possibly catch the train, I think it would be safer for you to let me take care of you.”
“But what will my father think has become of me? He does not know in the least where I am—he thinks I only went into the garden for a few minutes.”
“But what will my dad think has happened to me? He has no idea where I am—he thinks I just went into the garden for a few minutes.”
“He will surely guess—somebody has seen me for certain. I’ll go all the way back with you to-morrow.”
“He’ll definitely figure it out—someone has definitely seen me. I’ll go back with you tomorrow.”
“But that newly done-up place—the Earl of Wessex!”
“But that newly renovated place—the Earl of Wessex!”
“If you are so very particular about the publicity I will stay at the Three Tuns.”
“If you are so concerned about the publicity, I’ll stay at the Three Tuns.”
“Oh no—it is not that I am particular—but I haven’t a brush or comb or anything!”
“Oh no—it’s not that I’m picky—but I don’t have a brush or comb or anything!”
CHAPTER XLVIII.
All the evening Melbury had been coming to his door, saying, “I wonder where in the world that girl is! Never in all my born days did I know her bide out like this! She surely said she was going into the garden to get some parsley.”
All evening, Melbury had been approaching his door, saying, “I wonder where that girl is! I've never in my life known her to stay out like this! She definitely said she was going into the garden to get some parsley.”
Melbury searched the garden, the parsley-bed, and the orchard, but could find no trace of her, and then he made inquiries at the cottages of such of his workmen as had not gone to bed, avoiding Tangs’s because he knew the young people were to rise early to leave. In these inquiries one of the men’s wives somewhat incautiously let out the fact that she had heard a scream in the wood, though from which direction she could not say.
Melbury searched the garden, the parsley patch, and the orchard, but couldn’t find any sign of her. Then, he asked around at the cottages of his workers who were still awake, avoiding Tangs's place because he knew the young people were getting up early to leave. During these inquiries, one of the men’s wives accidentally revealed that she had heard a scream in the woods, though she couldn’t specify from which direction.
This set Melbury’s fears on end. He told the men to light lanterns, and headed by himself they started, Creedle following at the last moment with quite a burden of grapnels and ropes, which he could not be persuaded to leave behind, and the company being joined by the hollow-turner and the man who kept the cider-house as they went along.
This put Melbury on edge. He told the guys to light the lanterns, and with him leading the way, they started out, with Creedle lagging behind at the last moment carrying a bunch of grapnels and ropes that he wouldn’t leave behind. Along the way, they were joined by the hollow-turner and the guy who managed the cider house.
They explored the precincts of the village, and in a short time lighted upon the man-trap. Its discovery simply added an item of fact without helping their conjectures; but Melbury’s indefinite alarm was greatly increased when, holding a candle to the ground, he saw in the teeth of the instrument some frayings from Grace’s clothing. No intelligence of any kind was gained till they met a woodman of Delborough, who said that he had seen a lady answering to the description her father gave of Grace, walking through the wood on a gentleman’s arm in the direction of Sherton.
They explored the village and soon found the man-trap. Its discovery added another piece of information but didn't clarify their guesses; however, Melbury's vague anxiety grew significantly when, holding a candle to the ground, he noticed some frayed bits of Grace's clothing caught in the teeth of the trap. They didn't learn anything more until they encountered a woodman from Delborough, who said he had seen a lady matching Grace's description walking through the woods on a gentleman's arm heading toward Sherton.
“Was he clutching her tight?” said Melbury.
“Was he holding her tightly?” Melbury asked.
“Well—rather,” said the man.
"Well—actually," said the man.
“Did she walk lame?”
"Did she walk with a limp?"
“Well, ’tis true her head hung over towards him a bit.”
“Well, it's true her head leaned over toward him a bit.”
Creedle groaned tragically.
Creedle groaned dramatically.
Melbury, not suspecting the presence of Fitzpiers, coupled this account with the man-trap and the scream; he could not understand what it all meant; but the sinister event of the trap made him follow on. Accordingly, they bore away towards the town, shouting as they went, and in due course emerged upon the highway.
Melbury, not realizing Fitzpiers was there, connected this story with the man-trap and the scream; he couldn’t figure out what it all meant, but the creepy incident with the trap pushed him to keep going. So, they headed toward the town, shouting as they moved, and eventually reached the highway.
Nearing Sherton-Abbas, the previous information was confirmed by other strollers, though the gentleman’s supporting arm had disappeared from these later accounts. At last they were so near Sherton that Melbury informed his faithful followers that he did not wish to drag them farther at so late an hour, since he could go on alone and inquire if the woman who had been seen were really Grace. But they would not leave him alone in his anxiety, and trudged onward till the lamplight from the town began to illuminate their fronts. At the entrance to the High Street they got fresh scent of the pursued, but coupled with the new condition that the lady in the costume described had been going up the street alone.
As they approached Sherton-Abbas, the earlier information was backed up by other passersby, although the man's supportive arm had vanished from these later stories. Finally, they were so close to Sherton that Melbury told his loyal companions he didn't want to keep them out so late, saying he could go on by himself to find out if the woman who had been spotted was really Grace. But they refused to leave him alone in his worry, and continued walking until the light from the town began to brighten their faces. At the entrance to High Street, they caught another whiff of their quarry, but this time with the added detail that the woman in the described outfit had been seen walking up the street by herself.
“Faith!—I believe she’s mesmerized, or walking in her sleep,” said Melbury.
“Wow! I think she’s either zoned out or sleepwalking,” said Melbury.
However, the identity of this woman with Grace was by no means certain; but they plodded along the street. Percombe, the hair-dresser, who had despoiled Marty of her tresses, was standing at his door, and they duly put inquiries to him.
However, it wasn't completely clear that this woman was Grace; still, they made their way down the street. Percombe, the hairdresser who had taken Marty’s hair, was standing at his door, and they asked him some questions.
“Ah—how’s Little Hintock folk by now?” he said, before replying. “Never have I been over there since one winter night some three year ago—and then I lost myself finding it. How can ye live in such a one-eyed place? Great Hintock is bad enough—hut Little Hintock—the bats and owls would drive me melancholy-mad! It took two days to raise my sperrits to their true pitch again after that night I went there. Mr. Melbury, sir, as a man’s that put by money, why not retire and live here, and see something of the world?”
“Ah—how are the folks in Little Hintock these days?” he said, before answering. “I haven’t been there since one winter night about three years ago—and I got lost trying to find it. How can you live in such a one-eyed place? Great Hintock is bad enough—but Little Hintock—the bats and owls would drive me completely mad! It took me two days to get my spirits back to normal after that night I went there. Mr. Melbury, since you’re a man who’s saved up some money, why not retire and live here, and see a bit of the world?”
The responses at last given by him to their queries guided them to the building that offered the best accommodation in Sherton—having been enlarged contemporaneously with the construction of the railway—namely, the Earl of Wessex Hotel.
The answers he finally gave to their questions directed them to the building that provided the best lodging in Sherton—having been expanded at the same time as the construction of the railway—specifically, the Earl of Wessex Hotel.
Leaving the others without, Melbury made prompt inquiry here. His alarm was lessened, though his perplexity was increased, when he received a brief reply that such a lady was in the house.
Leaving the others behind, Melbury quickly asked about it. His worry eased a bit, although his confusion grew, when he got a short answer that such a lady was indeed in the house.
“Do you know if it is my daughter?” asked Melbury.
“Do you know if it’s my daughter?” asked Melbury.
The waiter did not.
The waiter didn't.
“Do you know the lady’s name?”
"Do you know her name?"
Of this, too, the household was ignorant, the hotel having been taken by brand-new people from a distance. They knew the gentleman very well by sight, and had not thought it necessary to ask him to enter his name.
Of this, too, the household was unaware, as the hotel had been taken over by brand-new people from afar. They recognized the gentleman well enough by sight and didn’t think it was necessary to ask him for his name.
“Oh, the gentleman appears again now,” said Melbury to himself. “Well, I want to see the lady,” he declared.
“Oh, the guy is back again,” Melbury thought to himself. “Well, I want to see the woman,” he said.
A message was taken up, and after some delay the shape of Grace appeared descending round the bend of the stair-case, looking as if she lived there, but in other respects rather guilty and frightened.
A message was relayed, and after a bit of time, Grace's figure appeared coming down the bend of the staircase, looking like she belonged there, but in other ways quite guilty and scared.
“Why—what the name—” began her father. “I thought you went out to get parsley!”
“Why—what the heck—” her father started. “I thought you went out to get parsley!”
“Oh, yes—I did—but it is all right,” said Grace, in a flurried whisper. “I am not alone here. I am here with Edgar. It is entirely owing to an accident, father.”
“Oh, yes—I did—but it’s fine,” Grace said in a hurried whisper. “I’m not alone here. I’m here with Edgar. It’s all just due to an accident, Dad.”
“Edgar! An accident! How does he come here? I thought he was two hundred mile off.”
“Edgar! An accident! How did he get here? I thought he was two hundred miles away.”
“Yes, so he is—I mean he has got a beautiful practice two hundred miles off; he has bought it with his own money, some that came to him. But he travelled here, and I was nearly caught in a man-trap, and that’s how it is I am here. We were just thinking of sending a messenger to let you know.”
“Yes, he is—he's got a great practice two hundred miles away; he bought it with his own money, some that he inherited. But he traveled here, and I almost got caught in a man-trap, and that’s why I’m here. We were just planning to send a messenger to inform you.”
Melbury did not seem to be particularly enlightened by this explanation.
Melbury didn’t seem to find this explanation very enlightening.
“You were caught in a man-trap?”
“You got caught in a man-trap?”
“Yes; my dress was. That’s how it arose. Edgar is up-stairs in his own sitting-room,” she went on. “He would not mind seeing you, I am sure.”
“Yes; my dress was. That’s how it came about. Edgar is upstairs in his own sitting room,” she continued. “I’m sure he wouldn’t mind seeing you.”
“Oh, faith, I don’t want to see him! I have seen him too often a’ready. I’ll see him another time, perhaps, if ’tis to oblige ’ee.”
“Oh, honestly, I don’t want to see him! I’ve seen him too many times already. Maybe I’ll see him another time, if it’s to help you.”
“He came to see me; he wanted to consult me about this large partnership I speak of, as it is very promising.”
“He came to see me; he wanted to talk to me about this big partnership I mentioned, as it looks very promising.”
“Oh, I am glad to hear it,” said Melbury, dryly.
“Oh, I’m glad to hear that,” Melbury said flatly.
A pause ensued, during which the inquiring faces and whity-brown clothes of Melbury’s companions appeared in the door-way.
A pause followed, during which the questioning faces and off-white-brown clothes of Melbury’s companions appeared in the doorway.
“Then bain’t you coming home with us?” he asked.
“Then aren’t you coming home with us?” he asked.
“I—I think not,” said Grace, blushing.
“I—I don’t think so,” said Grace, blushing.
“H’m—very well—you are your own mistress,” he returned, in tones which seemed to assert otherwise. “Good-night;” and Melbury retreated towards the door.
“H’m—very well—you are your own boss,” he replied, in a tone that suggested otherwise. “Good night;” and Melbury moved back toward the door.
“Don’t be angry, father,” she said, following him a few steps. “I have done it for the best.”
“Please don't be angry, Dad,” she said, taking a few steps after him. “I did it for the best.”
“I am not angry, though it is true I have been a little misled in this. However, good-night. I must get home along.”
“I’m not angry, but it’s true that I’ve been a bit misled about this. Anyway, goodnight. I need to head home now.”
He left the hotel, not without relief, for to be under the eyes of strangers while he conversed with his lost child had embarrassed him much. His search-party, too, had looked awkward there, having rushed to the task of investigation—some in their shirt sleeves, others in their leather aprons, and all much stained—just as they had come from their work of barking, and not in their Sherton marketing attire; while Creedle, with his ropes and grapnels and air of impending tragedy, had added melancholy to gawkiness.
He left the hotel, feeling relieved, because talking about his lost child in front of strangers had made him very uncomfortable. His search party had also looked out of place there, having jumped into the investigation—some in their t-shirts, others in their leather aprons, and all quite dirty—straight from their jobs in the woods, not dressed for the Sherton marketplace; while Creedle, with his ropes and grapnels and a serious expression, made things even more awkward.
“Now, neighbors,” said Melbury, on joining them, “as it is getting late, we’ll leg it home again as fast as we can. I ought to tell you that there has been some mistake—some arrangement entered into between Mr. and Mrs. Fitzpiers which I didn’t quite understand—an important practice in the Midland counties has come to him, which made it necessary for her to join him to-night—so she says. That’s all it was—and I’m sorry I dragged you out.”
“Now, neighbors,” Melbury said as he joined them, “since it’s getting late, let’s head home as quickly as we can. I should mention that there’s been a misunderstanding—some arrangement between Mr. and Mrs. Fitzpiers that I didn’t fully grasp—an important opportunity in the Midlands has come up for him, which made it necessary for her to be with him tonight—so she claims. That’s all it was—and I apologize for pulling you out here.”
“Well,” said the hollow-turner, “here be we six mile from home, and night-time, and not a hoss or four-footed creeping thing to our name. I say, we’ll have a mossel and a drop o’ summat to strengthen our nerves afore we vamp all the way back again? My throat’s as dry as a kex. What d’ye say so’s?”
“Well,” said the hollow-turner, “here we are six miles from home, it’s nighttime, and we don’t have a horse or any four-legged creature with us. I think we should grab a bite and have a drink to keep our spirits up before we trek all the way back. My throat’s as dry as a bone. What do you say?”
They all concurred in the need for this course, and proceeded to the antique and lampless back street, in which the red curtain of the Three Tuns was the only radiant object. As soon as they had stumbled down into the room Melbury ordered them to be served, when they made themselves comfortable by the long table, and stretched out their legs upon the herring-boned sand of the floor. Melbury himself, restless as usual, walked to the door while he waited for them, and looked up and down the street.
They all agreed that this was necessary and headed to the old, dark back street, where the red curtain of the Three Tuns was the only bright spot. Once they stumbled into the room, Melbury ordered them to be served as they settled in at the long table and stretched their legs out on the sandy floor. Melbury himself, as restless as ever, walked to the door while waiting for them and looked up and down the street.
“I’d gie her a good shaking if she were my maid; pretending to go out in the garden, and leading folk a twelve-mile traipse that have got to get up at five o’clock to morrow,” said a bark-ripper; who, not working regularly for Melbury, could afford to indulge in strong opinions.
“I’d give her a good shake if she were my maid; acting like she’s going out to the garden and making people walk twelve miles who have to get up at five o’clock tomorrow,” said a bark-ripper, who, not working regularly for Melbury, could afford to have strong opinions.
“I don’t speak so warm as that,” said the hollow-turner, “but if ’tis right for couples to make a country talk about their separating, and excite the neighbors, and then make fools of ’em like this, why, I haven’t stood upon one leg for five-and-twenty year.”
“I don’t talk as warmly as that,” said the hollow-turner, “but if it’s okay for couples to make a country gossip about their breakup, stir up the neighbors, and then make fools of them like this, well, I haven’t stood on one leg for twenty-five years.”
All his listeners knew that when he alluded to his foot-lathe in these enigmatic terms, the speaker meant to be impressive; and Creedle chimed in with, “Ah, young women do wax wanton in these days! Why couldn’t she ha’ bode with her father, and been faithful?” Poor Creedle was thinking of his old employer.
All his listeners knew that when he referred to his foot-lathe in these mysterious terms, he intended to impress them; and Creedle joined in with, “Ah, young women are getting wild these days! Why couldn’t she have stayed with her father and been loyal?” Poor Creedle was thinking about his old boss.
“But this deceiving of folks is nothing unusual in matrimony,” said Farmer Bawtree. “I knowed a man and wife—faith, I don’t mind owning, as there’s no strangers here, that the pair were my own relations—they’d be at it that hot one hour that you’d hear the poker and the tongs and the bellows and the warming-pan flee across the house with the movements of their vengeance; and the next hour you’d hear ’em singing ‘The Spotted Cow’ together as peaceable as two holy twins; yes—and very good voices they had, and would strike in like professional ballet-singers to one another’s support in the high notes.”
“But this tricking people isn’t unusual in marriage,” said Farmer Bawtree. “I knew a husband and wife—actually, I’ll admit, since there are no strangers here, that they were my own relatives—they’d be at it so fiercely one hour that you’d hear the poker, the tongs, the bellows, and the warming pan flying across the house with their fury; and the next hour you’d hear them singing ‘The Spotted Cow’ together as peacefully as two holy twins; yes—and they had really good voices, and they would back each other up in the high notes like professional singers.”
“And I knowed a woman, and the husband o’ her went away for four-and-twenty year,” said the bark-ripper. “And one night he came home when she was sitting by the fire, and thereupon he sat down himself on the other side of the chimney-corner. ‘Well,’ says she, ‘have ye got any news?’ ‘Don’t know as I have,’ says he; ‘have you?’ ‘No,’ says she, ‘except that my daughter by my second husband was married last month, which was a year after I was made a widow by him.’ ‘Oh! Anything else?’ he says. ‘No,’ says she. And there they sat, one on each side of that chimney-corner, and were found by their neighbors sound asleep in their chairs, not having known what to talk about at all.”
“And I knew a woman whose husband left for twenty-four years,” said the bark-ripper. “One night he came home while she was sitting by the fire, and he sat down on the other side of the fireplace. ‘So,’ she says, ‘do you have any news?’ ‘I don't think so,’ he says; ‘how about you?’ ‘No,’ she says, ‘except that my daughter from my second husband got married last month, which was a year after I became a widow because of him.’ ‘Oh! Anything else?’ he asks. ‘No,’ she replies. And there they sat, one on each side of the fireplace, and their neighbors found them sound asleep in their chairs, not having known what to talk about at all.”
“Well, I don’t care who the man is,” said Creedle, “they required a good deal to talk about, and that’s true. It won’t be the same with these.”
“Well, I don’t care who the guy is,” said Creedle, “they had a lot to discuss, and that’s a fact. It won’t be the same with these.”
“No. He is such a projick, you see. And she is a wonderful scholar too!”
“No. He is such a project, you see. And she is an amazing scholar too!”
“What women do know nowadays!” observed the hollow-turner. “You can’t deceive ’em as you could in my time.”
“What women know these days!” noted the hollow-turner. “You can’t fool them like you could back in my day.”
“What they knowed then was not small,” said John Upjohn. “Always a good deal more than the men! Why, when I went courting my wife that is now, the skilfulness that she would show in keeping me on her pretty side as she walked was beyond all belief. Perhaps you’ve noticed that she’s got a pretty side to her face as well as a plain one?”
“What they knew then was no small thing,” said John Upjohn. “Always a lot more than the men! You know, when I was courting my wife, the skill she had in keeping me looking at her pretty side as she walked was unbelievable. Maybe you’ve noticed that she has a pretty side to her face as well as a plain one?”
“I can’t say I’ve noticed it particular much,” said the hollow-turner, blandly.
“I can’t say I’ve noticed it particularly much,” said the hollow-turner, blandly.
“Well,” continued Upjohn, not disconcerted, “she has. All women under the sun be prettier one side than t’other. And, as I was saying, the pains she would take to make me walk on the pretty side were unending! I warrant that whether we were going with the sun or against the sun, uphill or downhill, in wind or in lewth, that wart of hers was always towards the hedge, and that dimple towards me. There was I, too simple to see her wheelings and turnings; and she so artful, though two years younger, that she could lead me with a cotton thread, like a blind ram; for that was in the third climate of our courtship. No; I don’t think the women have got cleverer, for they was never otherwise.”
“Well,” Upjohn continued, not at all fazed, “she has. All women are prettier on one side than the other. And, as I was saying, the lengths she would go to make sure I walked on the pretty side were endless! I swear that whether we were walking towards the sun or away from it, uphill or downhill, in the wind or calm, that wart of hers was always facing the hedge, and that dimple was always facing me. There I was, too naive to notice her little maneuvers, and she, being two years younger, was so clever that she could lead me along like a blind ram on a cotton thread; and that was during the third phase of our courtship. No; I don’t think women have gotten any more clever because they were never any different.”
“How many climates may there be in courtship, Mr. Upjohn?” inquired a youth—the same who had assisted at Winterborne’s Christmas party.
“How many different moods can there be in courtship, Mr. Upjohn?” asked a young man—the same one who had helped at Winterborne’s Christmas party.
“Five—from the coolest to the hottest—leastwise there was five in mine.”
“Five—from the coolest to the hottest—anyway, there were five in mine.”
“Can ye give us the chronicle of ’em, Mr. Upjohn?”
“Can you give us the story about them, Mr. Upjohn?”
“Yes—I could. I could certainly. But ’tis quite unnecessary. They’ll come to ye by nater, young man, too soon for your good.”
“Yes—I could. I definitely could. But it's really not needed. They’ll come to you naturally, young man, sooner than is good for you.”
“At present Mrs. Fitzpiers can lead the doctor as your mis’ess could lead you,” the hollow-turner remarked. “She’s got him quite tame. But how long ’twill last I can’t say. I happened to be setting a wire on the top of my garden one night when he met her on the other side of the hedge; and the way she queened it, and fenced, and kept that poor feller at a distance, was enough to freeze yer blood. I should never have supposed it of such a girl.”
“At the moment, Mrs. Fitzpiers can control the doctor just like your wife could control you,” remarked the hollow-turner. “She’s got him pretty much wrapped around her finger. But I can’t say how long that will last. I happened to be setting a wire at the top of my garden one night when he ran into her on the other side of the hedge; and the way she acted all high and mighty, keeping that poor guy at arm's length, was enough to chill your blood. I would never have thought that of such a girl.”
Melbury now returned to the room, and the men having declared themselves refreshed, they all started on the homeward journey, which was by no means cheerless under the rays of the high moon. Having to walk the whole distance they came by a foot-path rather shorter than the highway, though difficult except to those who knew the country well. This brought them by way of Great Hintock; and passing the church-yard they observed, as they talked, a motionless figure standing by the gate.
Melbury returned to the room, and the men, having stated they felt refreshed, all began their journey home, which was far from gloomy under the bright moonlight. Since they had to walk the entire distance, they took a footpath that was a bit shorter than the highway, though tricky unless you were familiar with the area. This route led them through Great Hintock; and as they passed the churchyard, they noticed, while talking, a still figure standing by the gate.
“I think it was Marty South,” said the hollow-turner, parenthetically.
“I think it was Marty South,” said the hollow-turner, casually.
“I think ’twas; ’a was always a lonely maid,” said Upjohn. And they passed on homeward, and thought of the matter no more.
“I think it was; she was always a lonely girl,” said Upjohn. And they continued on their way home, giving the matter no further thought.
It was Marty, as they had supposed. That evening had been the particular one of the week upon which Grace and herself had been accustomed to privately deposit flowers on Giles’s grave, and this was the first occasion since his death, eight months earlier, on which Grace had failed to keep her appointment. Marty had waited in the road just outside Little Hintock, where her fellow-pilgrim had been wont to join her, till she was weary; and at last, thinking that Grace had missed her and gone on alone, she followed the way to Great Hintock, but saw no Grace in front of her. It got later, and Marty continued her walk till she reached the church-yard gate; but still no Grace. Yet her sense of comradeship would not allow her to go on to the grave alone, and still thinking the delay had been unavoidable, she stood there with her little basket of flowers in her clasped hands, and her feet chilled by the damp ground, till more than two hours had passed.
It was Marty, just as they had guessed. That evening had been the specific one of the week when Grace and she would usually go together to place flowers on Giles’s grave, and this was the first time since his death, eight months ago, that Grace had missed their ritual. Marty had waited in the road just outside Little Hintock, where her friend usually met her, until she grew tired; and finally, thinking that Grace must have overlooked her and gone on ahead, she made her way to Great Hintock, but didn’t see any sign of Grace. Time passed, and Marty kept walking until she reached the churchyard gate; still, there was no Grace. But her sense of togetherness wouldn’t let her go to the grave alone, and still believing the delay was just a misunderstanding, she stood there with her small basket of flowers in her hands, her feet cold from the damp ground, until more than two hours had gone by.
She then heard the footsteps of Melbury’s men, who presently passed on their return from the search. In the silence of the night Marty could not help hearing fragments of their conversation, from which she acquired a general idea of what had occurred, and where Mrs. Fitzpiers then was.
She then heard the footsteps of Melbury’s men, who soon passed by on their way back from the search. In the silence of the night, Marty couldn’t help but overhear bits of their conversation, which gave her a general idea of what had happened and where Mrs. Fitzpiers was at that moment.
Immediately they had dropped down the hill she entered the church-yard, going to a secluded corner behind the bushes, where rose the unadorned stone that marked the last bed of Giles Winterborne. As this solitary and silent girl stood there in the moonlight, a straight slim figure, clothed in a plaitless gown, the contours of womanhood so undeveloped as to be scarcely perceptible, the marks of poverty and toil effaced by the misty hour, she touched sublimity at points, and looked almost like a being who had rejected with indifference the attribute of sex for the loftier quality of abstract humanism. She stooped down and cleared away the withered flowers that Grace and herself had laid there the previous week, and put her fresh ones in their place.
As soon as they had come down the hill, she entered the churchyard, heading to a quiet corner behind the bushes, where the plain stone marked the final resting place of Giles Winterborne. Standing there in the moonlight, this solitary girl had a slender figure, dressed in a simple gown, with the features of womanhood still so underdeveloped that they were hardly noticeable. The signs of poverty and hard work were blurred by the misty hour, and she almost seemed to embody an elevated state, appearing like someone who had dismissed the traits of gender in favor of a more profound sense of abstract humanity. She bent down to clear away the dried flowers that Grace and she had placed there the week before and replaced them with fresh ones.
“Now, my own, own love,” she whispered, “you are mine, and on’y mine; for she has forgot ’ee at last, although for her you died. But I—whenever I get up I’ll think of ’ee, and whenever I lie down I’ll think of ’ee. Whenever I plant the young larches I’ll think that none can plant as you planted; and whenever I split a gad, and whenever I turn the cider-wring, I’ll say none could do it like you. If ever I forget your name, let me forget home and Heaven!—But no, no, my love, I never can forget ’ee; for you was a good man, and did good things!”
“Now, my own love,” she whispered, “you are mine, and only mine; she has finally forgotten you, even though you died for her. But I—whenever I get up I’ll think of you, and whenever I lie down I’ll think of you. Whenever I plant the young larches I’ll remember that no one can plant like you did; and whenever I split wood, and whenever I turn the cider press, I’ll say no one could do it like you. If I ever forget your name, let me forget home and Heaven!—But no, my love, I can never forget you; because you were a good man, and did good things!”
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