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Rebecca Of Sunnybrook Farm
by
Kate Douglas Wiggin
TO MY MOTHER
Her eyes as stars of Twilight fair;
Like Twilight's, too, her dusky hair;
But all things else about her drawn
From May-time and the cheerful Dawn;
A dancing Shape, an Image gay,
To haunt, to startle, and way-lay.
Wordsworth.
Her eyes are like stars at twilight;
Just like twilight, her dark hair;
But everything else about her is taken
From springtime and the bright dawn;
A lively figure, a cheerful sight,
To captivate, surprise, and entice.
Wordsworth.
CONTENTS
I. | "WE ARE SEVEN" |
II. | REBECCA'S RELATIONS |
III. | A DIFFERENCE IN HEARTS |
IV. | REBECCA'S POINT OF VIEW |
V. | WISDOM'S WAYS |
VI. | SUNSHINE IN A SHADY PLACE |
VII. | RIVERBORO SECRETS |
VIII. | COLOR OF ROSE |
IX. | ASHES OF ROSES |
X. | RAINBOW BRIDGES |
XI. | "THE STIRRING OF THE POWERS" |
XII. | "SEE THE PALE MARTYR" |
XIII. | SNOW-WHITE; ROSE-RED |
XIV. | MR. ALADDIN |
XV. | THE BANQUET LAMP |
XVI. | SEASONS OF GROWTH |
XVII. | GRAY DAYS AND GOLD |
XVIII. | REBECCA REPRESENTS THE FAMILY |
XIX. | DEACON ISRAEL'S SUCCESSOR |
XX. | A CHANGE OF HEART |
XXI. | THE SKY LINE WIDENS |
XXII. | CLOVER BLOSSOMS AND SUNFLOWERS |
XXIII. | THE HILL DIFFICULTY |
XXIV. | ALADDIN RUBS HIS LAMP |
XXV. | ROSES OF JOY |
XXVI. | OVER THE TEACUPS |
XXVII. | "THE VISION SPLENDID" |
XXVIII. | "TH' INEVITABLE YOKE" |
XXIX. | MOTHER AND DAUGHTER |
XXX. | "GOOD-BY, SUNNYBROOK!" |
XXXI. | AUNT MIRANDA'S APOLOGY |
REBECCA OF SUNNYBROOK FARM
I
"WE ARE SEVEN"
The old stage coach was rumbling along the dusty road that runs from Maplewood to Riverboro. The day was as warm as midsummer, though it was only the middle of May, and Mr. Jeremiah Cobb was favoring the horses as much as possible, yet never losing sight of the fact that he carried the mail. The hills were many, and the reins lay loosely in his hands as he lolled back in his seat and extended one foot and leg luxuriously over the dashboard. His brimmed hat of worn felt was well pulled over his eyes, and he revolved a quid of tobacco in his left cheek.
The old stagecoach was bumping along the dusty road that goes from Maplewood to Riverboro. The day felt as warm as midsummer, even though it was just the middle of May, and Mr. Jeremiah Cobb was trying to be easy on the horses as much as possible, while always remembering that he was carrying the mail. There were lots of hills, and he held the reins loosely in his hands as he lounged back in his seat, stretching one foot and leg comfortably over the dashboard. His well-worn felt hat was pulled down low over his eyes, and he was chewing on a piece of tobacco in his left cheek.
There was one passenger in the coach,—a small dark-haired person in a glossy buff calico dress. She was so slender and so stiffly starched that she slid from space to space on the leather cushions, though she braced herself against the middle seat with her feet and extended her cotton-gloved hands on each side, in order to maintain some sort of balance. Whenever the wheels sank farther than usual into a rut, or jolted suddenly over a stone, she bounded involuntarily into the air, came down again, pushed back her funny little straw hat, and picked up or settled more firmly a small pink sun shade, which seemed to be her chief responsibility,—unless we except a bead purse, into which she looked whenever the condition of the roads would permit, finding great apparent satisfaction in that its precious contents neither disappeared nor grew less. Mr. Cobb guessed nothing of these harassing details of travel, his business being to carry people to their destinations, not, necessarily, to make them comfortable on the way. Indeed he had forgotten the very existence of this one unnoteworthy little passenger.
There was one passenger in the coach—a small dark-haired person in a shiny light brown dress. She was so slender and stiffly starched that she slid from side to side on the leather cushions, even though she braced herself against the middle seat with her feet and stretched her cotton-gloved hands out on either side to keep some sort of balance. Whenever the wheels sank deeper than usual into a rut or jolted suddenly over a stone, she bounced involuntarily into the air, landed again, pushed back her funny little straw hat, and either picked up or adjusted a small pink sunshade, which seemed to be her main responsibility—unless you count a beaded purse, which she checked whenever the road conditions allowed, finding great satisfaction that its precious contents neither disappeared nor diminished. Mr. Cobb was unaware of these annoying details of travel; his job was to take people to their destinations, not necessarily to make them comfortable along the way. In fact, he had completely forgotten about this one unremarkable little passenger.
When he was about to leave the post-office in Maplewood that morning, a woman had alighted from a wagon, and coming up to him, inquired whether this were the Riverboro stage, and if he were Mr. Cobb. Being answered in the affirmative, she nodded to a child who was eagerly waiting for the answer, and who ran towards her as if she feared to be a moment too late. The child might have been ten or eleven years old perhaps, but whatever the number of her summers, she had an air of being small for her age. Her mother helped her into the stage coach, deposited a bundle and a bouquet of lilacs beside her, superintended the "roping on" behind of an old hair trunk, and finally paid the fare, counting out the silver with great care.
When he was about to leave the post office in Maplewood that morning, a woman got out of a wagon and walked up to him, asking if this was the Riverboro stage and if he was Mr. Cobb. When he confirmed, she nodded to a child who was eagerly waiting for the answer and ran towards her, as if she was afraid of being a moment too late. The child looked to be around ten or eleven years old, but no matter her age, she seemed small for it. Her mother helped her into the stagecoach, placed a bundle and a bouquet of lilacs next to her, oversaw the loading of an old hair trunk behind, and finally paid the fare, carefully counting out the coins.
"I want you should take her to my sisters' in Riverboro," she said. "Do you know Mirandy and Jane Sawyer? They live in the brick house."
"I want you to take her to my sisters' in Riverboro," she said. "Do you know Mirandy and Jane Sawyer? They live in the brick house."
Lord bless your soul, he knew 'em as well as if he'd made 'em!
Lord bless your soul, he knew them just as well as if he had created them!
"Well, she's going there, and they're expecting her. Will you keep an eye on her, please? If she can get out anywhere and get with folks, or get anybody in to keep her company, she'll do it. Good-by, Rebecca; try not to get into any mischief, and sit quiet, so you'll look neat an' nice when you get there. Don't be any trouble to Mr. Cobb.—You see, she's kind of excited.—We came on the cars from Temperance yesterday, slept all night at my cousin's, and drove from her house—eight miles it is—this morning."
"Well, she's going there, and they’re expecting her. Can you keep an eye on her, please? If she finds a way to get out and be with people, or if she invites anyone to hang out with her, she’ll definitely do it. Goodbye, Rebecca; try not to get into any trouble, and stay calm so you look neat and nice when you arrive. Don’t be any trouble to Mr. Cobb. You see, she’s a bit excited. We took the train from Temperance yesterday, stayed overnight at my cousin's, and drove the eight miles from her house this morning."
"Good-by, mother, don't worry; you know it isn't as if I hadn't traveled before."
"Goodbye, Mom, don't worry; you know it's not like I've never traveled before."
The woman gave a short sardonic laugh and said in an explanatory way to Mr. Cobb, "She's been to Wareham and stayed over night; that isn't much to be journey-proud on!"
The woman let out a brief, sarcastic laugh and said to Mr. Cobb in a matter-of-fact tone, "She's been to Wareham and stayed overnight; that’s not something to brag about!"
"It WAS TRAVELING, mother," said the child eagerly and willfully. "It was leaving the farm, and putting up lunch in a basket, and a little riding and a little steam cars, and we carried our nightgowns."
"It was traveling, mom," the child said eagerly and mischievously. "It was leaving the farm, packing lunch in a basket, doing a bit of riding and some steam trains, and we took our pajamas."
"Don't tell the whole village about it, if we did," said the mother, interrupting the reminiscences of this experienced voyager. "Haven't I told you before," she whispered, in a last attempt at discipline, "that you shouldn't talk about night gowns and stockings and—things like that, in a loud tone of voice, and especially when there's men folks round?"
"Don't tell the whole village about it, if we did," said the mother, cutting off the stories from this seasoned traveler. "Haven't I told you before," she whispered, in one last effort to keep things in check, "that you shouldn't talk about nightgowns and stockings and—things like that, loudly, especially when there are men around?"
"I know, mother, I know, and I won't. All I want to say is"—here Mr. Cobb gave a cluck, slapped the reins, and the horses started sedately on their daily task—"all I want to say is that it is a journey when"—the stage was really under way now and Rebecca had to put her head out of the window over the door in order to finish her sentence—"it IS a journey when you carry a nightgown!"
"I know, Mom, I know, and I won't. All I want to say is"—here Mr. Cobb made a clicking sound, flicked the reins, and the horses began their steady work—"all I want to say is that it’s a journey when"—the stage was really moving now and Rebecca had to stick her head out of the window over the door to finish her sentence—"it IS a journey when you’re carrying a nightgown!"
The objectionable word, uttered in a high treble, floated back to the offended ears of Mrs. Randall, who watched the stage out of sight, gathered up her packages from the bench at the store door, and stepped into the wagon that had been standing at the hitching-post. As she turned the horse's head towards home she rose to her feet for a moment, and shading her eyes with her hand, looked at a cloud of dust in the dim distance.
The offensive word, spoken in a high-pitched tone, reached the offended ears of Mrs. Randall, who was keeping an eye on the stage out of sight. She picked up her bags from the bench at the store entrance and got into the wagon that had been parked at the hitching post. As she turned the horse's head towards home, she stood up for a moment, shading her eyes with her hand to look at a cloud of dust in the far distance.
"Mirandy'll have her hands full, I guess," she said to herself; "but I shouldn't wonder if it would be the making of Rebecca."
"Mirandy will have her hands full, I guess," she said to herself; "but I wouldn't be surprised if it turns out to be a life-changing experience for Rebecca."
All this had been half an hour ago, and the sun, the heat, the dust, the contemplation of errands to be done in the great metropolis of Milltown, had lulled Mr. Cobb's never active mind into complete oblivion as to his promise of keeping an eye on Rebecca.
All of this had happened half an hour ago, and the sun, the heat, the dust, and the thought of errands to run in the bustling city of Milltown had dulled Mr. Cobb's usually active mind into total forgetfulness about his promise to watch over Rebecca.
Suddenly he heard a small voice above the rattle and rumble of the wheels and the creaking of the harness. At first he thought it was a cricket, a tree toad, or a bird, but having determined the direction from which it came, he turned his head over his shoulder and saw a small shape hanging as far out of the window as safety would allow. A long black braid of hair swung with the motion of the coach; the child held her hat in one hand and with the other made ineffectual attempts to stab the driver with her microscopic sunshade.
Suddenly, he heard a tiny voice above the noise of the wheels and the creaking of the harness. At first, he thought it might be a cricket, a tree frog, or a bird, but after figuring out where it was coming from, he turned his head back and saw a small figure leaning as far out of the window as it was safe to go. A long black braid of hair swung with the movement of the coach; the child held her hat in one hand and with the other was making futile attempts to poke the driver with her tiny sunshade.
"Please let me speak!" she called.
"Please let me speak!" she shouted.
Mr. Cobb drew up the horses obediently.
Mr. Cobb brought the horses to a stop obediently.
"Does it cost any more to ride up there with you?" she asked. "It's so slippery and shiny down here, and the stage is so much too big for me, that I rattle round in it till I'm 'most black and blue. And the windows are so small I can only see pieces of things, and I've 'most broken my neck stretching round to find out whether my trunk has fallen off the back. It's my mother's trunk, and she's very choice of it."
"Does it cost extra to ride up there with you?" she asked. "It's super slippery and shiny down here, and the stage is way too big for me, so I rattle around in it until I'm almost black and blue. Plus, the windows are so small I can only see bits of things, and I've nearly broken my neck trying to see if my trunk has fallen off the back. It's my mom's trunk, and she's really particular about it."
Mr. Cobb waited until this flow of conversation, or more properly speaking this flood of criticism, had ceased, and then said jocularly:—
Mr. Cobb waited until this flow of conversation, or more accurately this flood of criticism, had stopped, and then said jokingly:—
"You can come up if you want to; there ain't no extry charge to sit side o' me." Whereupon he helped her out, "boosted" her up to the front seat, and resumed his own place.
"You can come up if you want; there’s no extra charge to sit next to me." Then he helped her out, "boosted" her up to the front seat, and took his own place again.
Rebecca sat down carefully, smoothing her dress under her with painstaking precision, and putting her sunshade under its extended folds between the driver and herself. This done she pushed back her hat, pulled up her darned white cotton gloves, and said delightedly:—
Rebecca sat down carefully, smoothing her dress beneath her with careful precision, and placing her sunshade under its extended folds between the driver and herself. Once that was done, she pushed back her hat, pulled up her mended white cotton gloves, and said happily:—
"Oh! this is better! This is like traveling! I am a real passenger now, and down there I felt like our setting hen when we shut her up in a coop. I hope we have a long, long ways to go?"
"Oh! this is so much better! This feels like traveling! I’m a real passenger now, and down there I felt like our setting hen when we locked her up in a coop. I hope we have a long way to go?"
"Oh! we've only just started on it," Mr. Cobb responded genially; "it's more 'n two hours."
"Oh! we've only just started on it," Mr. Cobb replied cheerfully; "it's more than two hours."
"Only two hours," she sighed "That will be half past one; mother will be at cousin Ann's, the children at home will have had their dinner, and Hannah cleared all away. I have some lunch, because mother said it would be a bad beginning to get to the brick house hungry and have aunt Mirandy have to get me something to eat the first thing.—It's a good growing day, isn't it?"
"Only two hours," she sighed. "That'll be half past one; mom will be at cousin Ann's, the kids at home will have had their dinner, and Hannah will have cleaned everything up. I brought some lunch because mom said it would be a bad idea to arrive at the brick house hungry and make aunt Mirandy get me something to eat right away. —It's a beautiful growing day, isn't it?"
"It is, certain; too hot, most. Why don't you put up your parasol?"
"It’s definitely too hot for most people. Why don’t you use your umbrella?"
She extended her dress still farther over the article in question as she said, "Oh dear no! I never put it up when the sun shines; pink fades awfully, you know, and I only carry it to meetin' cloudy Sundays; sometimes the sun comes out all of a sudden, and I have a dreadful time covering it up; it's the dearest thing in life to me, but it's an awful care."
She pulled her dress further down over the item in question and said, "Oh no! I never put it out when the sun is shining; pink fades really badly, you know, and I only bring it out for cloudy Sundays at church; sometimes the sun suddenly comes out, and I have a tough time covering it up; it's the most precious thing in my life, but it's such a hassle."
At this moment the thought gradually permeated Mr. Jeremiah Cobb's slow-moving mind that the bird perched by his side was a bird of very different feather from those to which he was accustomed in his daily drives. He put the whip back in its socket, took his foot from the dashboard, pushed his hat back, blew his quid of tobacco into the road, and having thus cleared his mental decks for action, he took his first good look at the passenger, a look which she met with a grave, childlike stare of friendly curiosity.
At that moment, it slowly dawned on Mr. Jeremiah Cobb that the bird sitting next to him was completely different from the ones he usually saw during his daily drives. He put the whip back in its holder, removed his foot from the dashboard, pushed his hat back, and spat his chew of tobacco into the road. With his mind cleared and ready to focus, he took his first real look at the passenger, a look she responded to with a serious, innocent gaze of friendly curiosity.
The buff calico was faded, but scrupulously clean, and starched within an inch of its life. From the little standing ruffle at the neck the child's slender throat rose very brown and thin, and the head looked small to bear the weight of dark hair that hung in a thick braid to her waist. She wore an odd little vizored cap of white leghorn, which may either have been the latest thing in children's hats, or some bit of ancient finery furbished up for the occasion. It was trimmed with a twist of buff ribbon and a cluster of black and orange porcupine quills, which hung or bristled stiffly over one ear, giving her the quaintest and most unusual appearance. Her face was without color and sharp in outline. As to features, she must have had the usual number, though Mr. Cobb's attention never proceeded so far as nose, forehead, or chin, being caught on the way and held fast by the eyes. Rebecca's eyes were like faith,—"the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Under her delicately etched brows they glowed like two stars, their dancing lights half hidden in lustrous darkness. Their glance was eager and full of interest, yet never satisfied; their steadfast gaze was brilliant and mysterious, and had the effect of looking directly through the obvious to something beyond, in the object, in the landscape, in you. They had never been accounted for, Rebecca's eyes. The school teacher and the minister at Temperance had tried and failed; the young artist who came for the summer to sketch the red barn, the ruined mill, and the bridge ended by giving up all these local beauties and devoting herself to the face of a child,—a small, plain face illuminated by a pair of eyes carrying such messages, such suggestions, such hints of sleeping power and insight, that one never tired of looking into their shining depths, nor of fancying that what one saw there was the reflection of one's own thought.
The faded calico dress was meticulously clean and sharply starched. From the little ruffle at the neck, the child's slender throat appeared very brown and thin, and her head seemed small for the mass of dark hair that fell in a thick braid down to her waist. She wore a quirky little white leghorn cap with a visor, which could have either been the latest style in children's hats or some vintage accessory spruced up for the occasion. It was decorated with a twist of buff ribbon and a cluster of black and orange porcupine quills that jutted out over one ear, giving her a unique and charming look. Her face was pale and sharply defined. As for her features, she probably had the usual number, but Mr. Cobb's attention never reached her nose, forehead, or chin; he was captured and held by her eyes. Rebecca's eyes were like faith—"the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Under her delicately shaped brows, they shone like two stars, their flickering light partially concealed in deep darkness. Her gaze was eager and full of curiosity, yet always seeking more; it was bright and mysterious, making it feel like she looked straight through to something deeper—something in the object, the landscape, or in you. Rebecca's eyes were an enigma. The schoolteacher and the minister at Temperance had tried and failed to understand them; even the young artist who visited for the summer to paint the red barn, the ruined mill, and the bridge eventually abandoned those subjects to focus on the face of a child—a small, plain face made vibrant by eyes that carried such messages, suggestions, and hints of untapped power and insight that one never tired of gazing into their luminous depths, nor of imagining that what one saw was a reflection of one's own thoughts.
Mr. Cobb made none of these generalizations; his remark to his wife that night was simply to the effect that whenever the child looked at him she knocked him galley-west.
Mr. Cobb didn’t make any of these generalizations; his comment to his wife that night was simply that whenever the child looked at him, she threw him off balance.
"Miss Ross, a lady that paints, gave me the sunshade," said Rebecca, when she had exchanged looks with Mr. Cobb and learned his face by heart. "Did you notice the pinked double ruffle and the white tip and handle? They're ivory. The handle is scarred, you see. That's because Fanny sucked and chewed it in meeting when I wasn't looking. I've never felt the same to Fanny since."
"Miss Ross, a lady who paints, gave me the sunshade," Rebecca said after she exchanged glances with Mr. Cobb and memorized his face. "Did you notice the pink double ruffle and the white tip and handle? They're made of ivory. The handle is damaged, you see. That's because Fanny sucked and chewed on it during the meeting when I wasn't paying attention. I've never felt the same way about Fanny since."
"Is Fanny your sister?"
"Is Fanny your sibling?"
"She's one of them."
"She's one of those."
"How many are there of you?"
"How many of you are there?"
"Seven. There's verses written about seven children:—
"Seven. There are verses written about seven children:—
"'Quick was the little Maid's reply,
O master! we are seven!'
"'Quick was the little Maid's reply,
O master! we are seven!'
I learned it to speak in school, but the scholars were hateful and laughed. Hannah is the oldest, I come next, then John, then Jenny, then Mark, then Fanny, then Mira."
I learned it to talk at school, but the teachers were mean and laughed. Hannah is the oldest, I come next, then John, then Jenny, then Mark, then Fanny, then Mira.
"Well, that IS a big family!"
"Wow, that's a big family!"
"Far too big, everybody says," replied Rebecca with an unexpected and thoroughly grown-up candor that induced Mr. Cobb to murmur, "I swan!" and insert more tobacco in his left cheek.
"Way too big, everyone says," Rebecca replied with an unexpected and completely mature honesty that made Mr. Cobb mutter, "I swear!" and tuck more tobacco into his left cheek.
"They're dear, but such a bother, and cost so much to feed, you see," she rippled on. "Hannah and I haven't done anything but put babies to bed at night and take them up in the morning for years and years. But it's finished, that's one comfort, and we'll have a lovely time when we're all grown up and the mortgage is paid off."
"They're expensive, but such a hassle, and it costs a lot to feed them, you know," she continued. "Hannah and I have spent years only putting the babies to bed at night and getting them up in the morning. But it's over, which is one good thing, and we'll have a great time when we're all grown up and the mortgage is paid off."
"All finished? Oh, you mean you've come away?"
"All done? Oh, you mean you’ve left?"
"No, I mean they're all over and done with; our family 's finished. Mother says so, and she always keeps her promises. There hasn't been any since Mira, and she's three. She was born the day father died. Aunt Miranda wanted Hannah to come to Riverboro instead of me, but mother couldn't spare her; she takes hold of housework better than I do, Hannah does. I told mother last night if there was likely to be any more children while I was away I'd have to be sent for, for when there's a baby it always takes Hannah and me both, for mother has the cooking and the farm."
"No, I mean they’re all finished; our family is done. Mom says so, and she always keeps her promises. There hasn’t been any since Mira, and she’s three. She was born the day Dad died. Aunt Miranda wanted Hannah to go to Riverboro instead of me, but Mom couldn’t let her go; Hannah is better at handling housework than I am. I told Mom last night that if there were to be any more kids while I was away, they’d have to send for me because when there’s a baby, it always takes both Hannah and me since Mom has the cooking and the farm to manage."
"Oh, you live on a farm, do ye? Where is it?—near to where you got on?"
"Oh, you live on a farm, do you? Where is it?—close to where you got on?"
"Near? Why, it must be thousands of miles! We came from Temperance in the cars. Then we drove a long ways to cousin Ann's and went to bed. Then we got up and drove ever so far to Maplewood, where the stage was. Our farm is away off from everywheres, but our school and meeting house is at Temperance, and that's only two miles. Sitting up here with you is most as good as climbing the meeting-house steeple. I know a boy who's been up on our steeple. He said the people and cows looked like flies. We haven't met any people yet, but I'm KIND of disappointed in the cows;—they don't look so little as I hoped they would; still (brightening) they don't look quite as big as if we were down side of them, do they? Boys always do the nice splendid things, and girls can only do the nasty dull ones that get left over. They can't climb so high, or go so far, or stay out so late, or run so fast, or anything."
"Near? It must be thousands of miles away! We took the train from Temperance. After that, we drove a long way to cousin Ann's and went to bed. Then we got up and drove a really long way to Maplewood, where the stage was. Our farm is far from everything, but our school and meeting house are in Temperance, and that's only two miles away. Sitting up here with you is almost as great as climbing the meeting house steeple. I know a boy who's been up on our steeple. He said the people and cows looked like flies. We haven't seen any people yet, but I'm KIND of disappointed in the cows; they don't look as tiny as I hoped they would; still (brightening) they don't look quite as big as if we were down below them, do they? Boys always get to do the exciting things, and girls can only do the boring ones that are left over. They can't climb as high, go as far, stay out as late, run as fast, or anything."
Mr. Cobb wiped his mouth on the back of his hand and gasped. He had a feeling that he was being hurried from peak to peak of a mountain range without time to take a good breath in between.
Mr. Cobb wiped his mouth on the back of his hand and gasped. He felt like he was being rushed from one peak to another in a mountain range, with no time to catch his breath in between.
"I can't seem to locate your farm," he said, "though I've been to Temperance and used to live up that way. What's your folks' name?"
"I can't seem to find your farm," he said, "even though I've been to Temperance and used to live around that area. What's your family's name?"
"Randall. My mother's name is Aurelia Randall; our names are Hannah Lucy Randall, Rebecca Rowena Randall, John Halifax Randall, Jenny Lind Randall, Marquis Randall, Fanny Ellsler Randall, and Miranda Randall. Mother named half of us and father the other half, but we didn't come out even, so they both thought it would be nice to name Mira after aunt Miranda in Riverboro; they hoped it might do some good, but it didn't, and now we call her Mira. We are all named after somebody in particular. Hannah is Hannah at the Window Binding Shoes, and I am taken out of Ivanhoe; John Halifax was a gentleman in a book; Mark is after his uncle Marquis de Lafayette that died a twin. (Twins very often don't live to grow up, and triplets almost never—did you know that, Mr. Cobb?) We don't call him Marquis, only Mark. Jenny is named for a singer and Fanny for a beautiful dancer, but mother says they're both misfits, for Jenny can't carry a tune and Fanny's kind of stiff-legged. Mother would like to call them Jane and Frances and give up their middle names, but she says it wouldn't be fair to father. She says we must always stand up for father, because everything was against him, and he wouldn't have died if he hadn't had such bad luck. I think that's all there is to tell about us," she finished seriously.
"Randall. My mom's name is Aurelia Randall; our names are Hannah Lucy Randall, Rebecca Rowena Randall, John Halifax Randall, Jenny Lind Randall, Mark Randall, Fanny Ellsler Randall, and Mira Randall. Mom named half of us and Dad the other half, but it wasn't even, so they thought it would be nice to name Mira after Aunt Miranda in Riverboro; they hoped it might help, but it didn’t, and now we just call her Mira. We’re all named after specific people. Hannah is named after Hannah at the Window Binding Shoes, and I come from Ivanhoe; John Halifax was a gentleman in a book; Mark is named after his uncle Marquis de Lafayette who died as a twin. (Twins often don't survive to adulthood, and triplets almost never—did you know that, Mr. Cobb?) We don’t call him Marquis, just Mark. Jenny is named after a singer and Fanny after a beautiful dancer, but Mom says they're both misfits because Jenny can't carry a tune and Fanny's kind of stiff-legged. Mom would like to call them Jane and Frances and drop their middle names, but she says it wouldn’t be fair to Dad. She says we must always support Dad because everything was against him, and he wouldn’t have died if he hadn’t had such bad luck. I think that's all there is to say about us," she finished seriously.
"Land o' Liberty! I should think it was enough," ejaculated Mr. Cobb. "There wa'n't many names left when your mother got through choosin'! You've got a powerful good memory! I guess it ain't no trouble for you to learn your lessons, is it?"
"Land of Liberty! I thought that was plenty," exclaimed Mr. Cobb. "There weren't many names left when your mother finished choosing! You've got a really good memory! I bet it's easy for you to learn your lessons, right?"
"Not much; the trouble is to get the shoes to go and learn 'em. These are spandy new I've got on, and they have to last six months. Mother always says to save my shoes. There don't seem to be any way of saving shoes but taking 'em off and going barefoot; but I can't do that in Riverboro without shaming aunt Mirandy. I'm going to school right along now when I'm living with aunt Mirandy, and in two years I'm going to the seminary at Wareham; mother says it ought to be the making of me! I'm going to be a painter like Miss Ross when I get through school. At any rate, that's what I think I'm going to be. Mother thinks I'd better teach."
"Not much; the problem is getting the shoes to fit and breaking them in. These are brand new shoes I'm wearing, and they need to last me six months. Mom always tells me to take care of my shoes. It feels like the only way to save shoes is to take them off and go barefoot, but I can’t do that in Riverboro without embarrassing Aunt Mirandy. I'm going to school right now while I’m living with Aunt Mirandy, and in two years, I’ll be attending the seminary in Wareham; Mom says it should really help me! I want to be a painter like Miss Ross when I finish school. At least, that’s what I think I want to be. Mom thinks I should become a teacher."
"Your farm ain't the old Hobbs place, is it?"
"Your farm isn't the old Hobbs place, is it?"
"No, it's just Randall's Farm. At least that's what mother calls it. I call it Sunnybrook Farm."
"No, it's just Randall's Farm. At least that’s what my mom calls it. I call it Sunnybrook Farm."
"I guess it don't make no difference what you call it so long as you know where it is," remarked Mr. Cobb sententiously.
"I guess it doesn't matter what you call it as long as you know where it is," Mr. Cobb said thoughtfully.
Rebecca turned the full light of her eyes upon him reproachfully, almost severely, as she answered:—
Rebecca cast a reproachful, almost severe look at him as she replied:—
"Oh! don't say that, and be like all the rest! It does make a difference what you call things. When I say Randall's Farm, do you see how it looks?"
"Oh! Don't say that and be like everyone else! It actually matters what you call things. When I say Randall's Farm, do you see how it looks?"
"No, I can't say I do," responded Mr. Cobb uneasily.
"No, I can't say I do," Mr. Cobb replied, feeling uneasy.
"Now when I say Sunnybrook Farm, what does it make you think of?"
"Now when I mention Sunnybrook Farm, what comes to your mind?"
Mr. Cobb felt like a fish removed from his native element and left panting on the sand; there was no evading the awful responsibility of a reply, for Rebecca's eyes were searchlights, that pierced the fiction of his brain and perceived the bald spot on the back of his head.
Mr. Cobb felt like a fish out of water, gasping on the sand; there was no escaping the heavy weight of having to answer, since Rebecca's eyes were like searchlights, cutting through the lies in his mind and seeing the bald spot on the back of his head.
"I s'pose there's a brook somewheres near it," he said timorously.
"I guess there's a stream somewhere nearby," he said nervously.
Rebecca looked disappointed but not quite dis-heartened. "That's pretty good," she said encouragingly. "You're warm but not hot; there's a brook, but not a common brook. It has young trees and baby bushes on each side of it, and it's a shallow chattering little brook with a white sandy bottom and lots of little shiny pebbles. Whenever there's a bit of sunshine the brook catches it, and it's always full of sparkles the livelong day. Don't your stomach feel hollow? Mine doest I was so 'fraid I'd miss the stage I couldn't eat any breakfast."
Rebecca looked disappointed but not completely discouraged. "That's pretty good," she said encouragingly. "You're warm but not hot; there's a brook, but not just any brook. It has young trees and little bushes on each side, and it's a shallow, gurgling little brook with a white sandy bottom and lots of shiny pebbles. Whenever there's a bit of sunshine, the brook catches it, and it's always full of sparkles all day long. Doesn't your stomach feel empty? Mine does! I was so afraid I’d miss the stage that I couldn’t eat any breakfast."
"You'd better have your lunch, then. I don't eat nothin' till I get to Milltown; then I get a piece o' pie and cup o' coffee."
"You should have your lunch, then. I don’t eat anything until I get to Milltown; then I get a slice of pie and a cup of coffee."
"I wish I could see Milltown. I suppose it's bigger and grander even than Wareham; more like Paris? Miss Ross told me about Paris; she bought my pink sunshade there and my bead purse. You see how it opens with a snap? I've twenty cents in it, and it's got to last three months, for stamps and paper and ink. Mother says aunt Mirandy won't want to buy things like those when she's feeding and clothing me and paying for my school books."
"I wish I could see Milltown. I guess it's bigger and fancier than Wareham; maybe more like Paris? Miss Ross told me about Paris; she bought my pink sunshade and my bead purse there. You can see how it opens with a snap? I have twenty cents in it, and it has to last three months for stamps, paper, and ink. Mom says Aunt Mirandy won't want to buy things like those while she's feeding and clothing me and paying for my school books."
"Paris ain't no great," said Mr. Cobb disparagingly. "It's the dullest place in the State o' Maine. I've druv there many a time."
"Paris isn't anything special," Mr. Cobb said dismissively. "It's the most boring place in the state of Maine. I've driven there many times."
Again Rebecca was obliged to reprove Mr. Cobb, tacitly and quietly, but none the less surely, though the reproof was dealt with one glance, quickly sent and as quickly withdrawn.
Again, Rebecca had to quietly and subtly scold Mr. Cobb, but she did it just as effectively. The reprimand came in a single glance, swiftly given and just as quickly retracted.
"Paris is the capital of France, and you have to go to it on a boat," she said instructively. "It's in my geography, and it says: 'The French are a gay and polite people, fond of dancing and light wines.' I asked the teacher what light wines were, and he thought it was something like new cider, or maybe ginger pop. I can see Paris as plain as day by just shutting my eyes. The beautiful ladies are always gayly dancing around with pink sunshades and bead purses, and the grand gentlemen are politely dancing and drinking ginger pop. But you can see Milltown most every day with your eyes wide open," Rebecca said wistfully.
"Paris is the capital of France, and you have to get there by boat," she said teachingly. "It's in my geography book, and it says: 'The French are a cheerful and polite people, who love dancing and light wines.' I asked the teacher what light wines meant, and he thought it was something like new cider or maybe ginger ale. I can picture Paris clearly just by closing my eyes. The beautiful ladies are always happily dancing around with pink umbrellas and beaded bags, and the distinguished gentlemen are politely dancing and drinking ginger ale. But you can see Milltown almost every day with your eyes wide open," Rebecca said longingly.
"Milltown ain't no great, neither," replied Mr. Cobb, with the air of having visited all the cities of the earth and found them as naught. "Now you watch me heave this newspaper right onto Mis' Brown's doorstep."
"Milltown isn't anything special, either," replied Mr. Cobb, acting like he had traveled to every city in the world and found them all lacking. "Now, just watch me throw this newspaper right onto Mrs. Brown's doorstep."
Piff! and the packet landed exactly as it was intended, on the corn husk mat in front of the screen door.
Piff! The packet landed exactly where it was supposed to, on the corn husk mat in front of the screen door.
"Oh, how splendid that was!" cried Rebecca with enthusiasm. "Just like the knife thrower Mark saw at the circus. I wish there was a long, long row of houses each with a corn husk mat and a screen door in the middle, and a newspaper to throw on every one!"
"Oh, that was so amazing!" exclaimed Rebecca excitedly. "Just like the knife thrower Mark saw at the circus. I wish there was a long line of houses, each with a corn husk mat and a screen door in the middle, and a newspaper to toss on every one!"
"I might fail on some of 'em, you know," said Mr. Cobb, beaming with modest pride. "If your aunt Mirandy'll let you, I'll take you down to Milltown some day this summer when the stage ain't full."
"I might mess up on some of them, you know," said Mr. Cobb, smiling with a touch of pride. "If your Aunt Mirandy lets you, I'll take you down to Milltown one day this summer when the bus isn't full."
A thrill of delicious excitement ran through Rebecca's frame, from her new shoes up, up to the leghorn cap and down the black braid. She pressed Mr. Cobb's knee ardently and said in a voice choking with tears of joy and astonishment, "Oh, it can't be true, it can't; to think I should see Milltown. It's like having a fairy godmother who asks you your wish and then gives it to you! Did you ever read Cinderella, or The Yellow Dwarf, or The Enchanted Frog, or The Fair One with Golden Locks?"
A wave of thrilling excitement surged through Rebecca, from her new shoes all the way up to her leghorn cap and down to her black braid. She eagerly pressed Mr. Cobb's knee and said in a voice choked with tears of joy and surprise, "Oh, it can't be true, it just can't! To think I'm actually going to see Milltown. It feels like I have a fairy godmother asking me what I wish for and then actually granting it! Have you ever read Cinderella, or The Yellow Dwarf, or The Enchanted Frog, or The Fair One with Golden Locks?"
"No," said Mr. Cobb cautiously, after a moment's reflection. "I don't seem to think I ever did read jest those partic'lar ones. Where'd you get a chance at so much readin'?"
"No," Mr. Cobb said carefully after thinking for a moment. "I don't recall ever reading just those specific ones. Where did you find the time to read so much?"
"Oh, I've read lots of books," answered Rebecca casually. "Father's and Miss Ross's and all the dif'rent school teachers', and all in the Sunday-school library. I've read The Lamplighter, and Scottish Chiefs, and Ivanhoe, and The Heir of Redclyffe, and Cora, the Doctor's Wife, and David Copperfield, and The Gold of Chickaree, and Plutarch's Lives, and Thaddeus of Warsaw, and Pilgrim's Progress, and lots more.—What have you read?"
"Oh, I've read a ton of books," Rebecca replied nonchalantly. "My dad's, Miss Ross's, and all the different school teachers', plus everything in the Sunday school library. I've read The Lamplighter, Scottish Chiefs, Ivanhoe, The Heir of Redclyffe, Cora, the Doctor's Wife, David Copperfield, The Gold of Chickaree, Plutarch's Lives, Thaddeus of Warsaw, Pilgrim's Progress, and so many more. —What about you?"
"I've never happened to read those partic'lar books; but land! I've read a sight in my time! Nowadays I'm so drove I get along with the Almanac, the Weekly Argus, and the Maine State Agriculturist.—There's the river again; this is the last long hill, and when we get to the top of it we'll see the chimbleys of Riverboro in the distance. 'T ain't fur. I live 'bout half a mile beyond the brick house myself."
"I've never actually read those specific books; but wow! I've read a lot in my time! These days I'm so busy I manage with the Almanac, the Weekly Argus, and the Maine State Agriculturist. There’s the river again; this is the last steep hill, and when we reach the top we'll see the chimneys of Riverboro in the distance. It's not far. I live about half a mile past the brick house myself."
Rebecca's hand stirred nervously in her lap and she moved in her seat. "I didn't think I was going to be afraid," she said almost under her breath; "but I guess I am, just a little mite—when you say it's coming so near."
Rebecca's hand fidgeted nervously in her lap as she shifted in her seat. "I didn't think I'd be scared," she said almost silently, "but I guess I am, just a tiny bit—especially when you say it's getting so close."
"Would you go back?" asked Mr. Cobb curiously.
"Would you go back?" Mr. Cobb asked with curiosity.
She flashed him an intrepid look and then said proudly, "I'd never go back—I might be frightened, but I'd be ashamed to run. Going to aunt Mirandy's is like going down cellar in the dark. There might be ogres and giants under the stairs,—but, as I tell Hannah, there MIGHT be elves and fairies and enchanted frogs!—Is there a main street to the village, like that in Wareham?"
She shot him a bold look and then said proudly, "I’d never go back—I might be scared, but I’d be ashamed to back down. Going to Aunt Mirandy's is like going into the dark basement. There could be monsters and giants under the stairs,—but, as I tell Hannah, there COULD be elves and fairies and enchanted frogs!—Is there a main street in the village, like the one in Wareham?"
"I s'pose you might call it a main street, an' your aunt Sawyer lives on it, but there ain't no stores nor mills, an' it's an awful one-horse village! You have to go 'cross the river an' get on to our side if you want to see anything goin' on."
"I guess you could call it a main street, and your Aunt Sawyer lives there, but there aren't any stores or mills, and it's a really small town! You have to cross the river and get to our side if you want to see anything happening."
"I'm almost sorry," she sighed, "because it would be so grand to drive down a real main street, sitting high up like this behind two splendid horses, with my pink sunshade up, and everybody in town wondering who the bunch of lilacs and the hair trunk belongs to. It would be just like the beautiful lady in the parade. Last summer the circus came to Temperance, and they had a procession in the morning. Mother let us all walk in and wheel Mira in the baby carriage, because we couldn't afford to go to the circus in the afternoon. And there were lovely horses and animals in cages, and clowns on horseback; and at the very end came a little red and gold chariot drawn by two ponies, and in it, sitting on a velvet cushion, was the snake charmer, all dressed in satin and spangles. She was so beautiful beyond compare, Mr. Cobb, that you had to swallow lumps in your throat when you looked at her, and little cold feelings crept up and down your back. Don't you know how I mean? Didn't you ever see anybody that made you feel like that?"
"I'm almost sorry," she sighed, "because it would be so amazing to drive down a real main street, sitting high up like this behind two beautiful horses, with my pink sunshade up, and everyone in town wondering who the bunch of lilacs and the hair trunk belong to. It would be just like the stunning lady in the parade. Last summer the circus came to Temperance, and they had a procession in the morning. Mom let us all walk in and push Mira in the stroller because we couldn't afford to go to the circus in the afternoon. There were gorgeous horses and animals in cages, and clowns on horseback; and at the very end came a little red and gold chariot pulled by two ponies, and inside, sitting on a velvet cushion, was the snake charmer, all dressed in satin and sequins. She was so breathtakingly beautiful, Mr. Cobb, that you had to swallow hard when you looked at her, and little chills ran up and down your back. Don't you know what I mean? Haven't you ever seen someone who made you feel that way?"
Mr. Cobb was more distinctly uncomfortable at this moment than he had been at any one time during the eventful morning, but he evaded the point dexterously by saying, "There ain't no harm, as I can see, in our makin' the grand entry in the biggest style we can. I'll take the whip out, set up straight, an' drive fast; you hold your bo'quet in your lap, an' open your little red parasol, an' we'll jest make the natives stare!"
Mr. Cobb felt more uncomfortable at this moment than he had at any other time during the busy morning, but he cleverly dodged the issue by saying, "I don’t see any harm in us making a grand entrance in the best way we can. I'll take the reins, sit up straight, and drive fast; you hold your bouquet in your lap and open your little red parasol, and we’ll just make everyone stare!"
The child's face was radiant for a moment, but the glow faded just as quickly as she said, "I forgot—mother put me inside, and maybe she'd want me to be there when I got to aunt Mirandy's. Maybe I'd be more genteel inside, and then I wouldn't have to be jumped down and my clothes fly up, but could open the door and step down like a lady passenger. Would you please stop a minute, Mr. Cobb, and let me change?"
The child's face was bright for a moment, but the shine disappeared just as fast when she said, "I forgot—Mom put me inside, and maybe she'd want me to be there when I got to Aunt Mirandy's. Maybe I'd be more refined inside, and then I wouldn't have to jump down and have my clothes fly up, but could open the door and step down like a lady passenger. Could you please stop for a minute, Mr. Cobb, and let me change?"
The stage driver good-naturedly pulled up his horses, lifted the excited little creature down, opened the door, and helped her in, putting the lilacs and the pink sunshade beside her.
The stagecoach driver cheerfully brought his horses to a stop, lifted the excited little girl down, opened the door, and helped her inside, placing the lilacs and the pink sunshade next to her.
"We've had a great trip," he said, "and we've got real well acquainted, haven't we?—You won't forget about Milltown?"
"We had an awesome trip," he said, "and we've really gotten to know each other, haven’t we?—You won't forget about Milltown?"
"Never!" she exclaimed fervently; "and you're sure you won't, either?"
"Never!" she said passionately. "And you're definitely sure you won't either?"
"Never! Cross my heart!" vowed Mr. Cobb solemnly, as he remounted his perch; and as the stage rumbled down the village street between the green maples, those who looked from their windows saw a little brown elf in buff calico sitting primly on the back seat holding a great bouquet tightly in one hand and a pink parasol in the other. Had they been farsighted enough they might have seen, when the stage turned into the side dooryard of the old brick house, a calico yoke rising and falling tempestuously over the beating heart beneath, the red color coming and going in two pale cheeks, and a mist of tears swimming in two brilliant dark eyes.
"Never! I swear!" promised Mr. Cobb seriously, as he got back on his seat; and as the stage rolled down the village street between the green maples, those looking out from their windows saw a little brown elf in buff calico sitting upright on the back seat, holding a big bouquet tightly in one hand and a pink parasol in the other. If they had been more observant, they might have noticed, when the stage turned into the side yard of the old brick house, a calico yoke moving dramatically over the intense heart beneath, the red color rising and fading in two pale cheeks, and a mist of tears glistening in two bright dark eyes.
Rebecca's journey had ended.
Rebecca's journey is over.
"There's the stage turnin' into the Sawyer girls' dooryard," said Mrs. Perkins to her husband. "That must be the niece from up Temperance way. It seems they wrote to Aurelia and invited Hannah, the oldest, but Aurelia said she could spare Rebecca better, if 't was all the same to Mirandy 'n' Jane; so it's Rebecca that's come. She'll be good comp'ny for our Emma Jane, but I don't believe they'll keep her three months! She looks black as an Injun what I can see of her; black and kind of up-an-comin'. They used to say that one o' the Randalls married a Spanish woman, somebody that was teachin' music and languages at a boardin' school. Lorenzo was dark complected, you remember, and this child is, too. Well, I don't know as Spanish blood is any real disgrace, not if it's a good ways back and the woman was respectable."
"Look, the stage is pulling into the Sawyer girls' front yard," Mrs. Perkins said to her husband. "That must be the niece from Temperance. They invited Hannah, the oldest, but Aurelia thought it would be better to send Rebecca instead, if that was okay with Mirandy and Jane; so it’s Rebecca who’s come. She’ll be good company for our Emma Jane, but I doubt they’ll keep her for three months! From what I can see, she looks as dark as an Indian; dark and sort of ambitious. They used to say one of the Randalls married a Spanish woman, someone who was teaching music and languages at a boarding school. Lorenzo was dark-skinned, you remember, and this girl is, too. Well, I don’t think having Spanish blood is really a disgrace, at least if it’s from a while back and the woman was respectable."
II
REBECCA'S RELATIONS
They had been called the Sawyer girls when Miranda at eighteen, Jane at twelve, and Aurelia at eight participated in the various activities of village life; and when Riverboro fell into a habit of thought or speech, it saw no reason for falling out of it, at any rate in the same century. So although Miranda and Jane were between fifty and sixty at the time this story opens, Riverboro still called them the Sawyer girls. They were spinsters; but Aurelia, the youngest, had made what she called a romantic marriage and what her sisters termed a mighty poor speculation. "There's worse things than bein' old maids," they said; whether they thought so is quite another matter.
They were known as the Sawyer girls when Miranda was eighteen, Jane was twelve, and Aurelia was eight, taking part in various activities in village life. Riverboro had a tendency to stick to the same way of thinking or speaking and saw no reason to change that, at least not in the same century. So even though Miranda and Jane were between fifty and sixty at the time this story begins, Riverboro still referred to them as the Sawyer girls. They were single; however, Aurelia, the youngest, had what she called a romantic marriage, while her sisters considered it a poor choice. "There are worse things than being old maids," they said; whether they truly believed that is a different story.
The element of romance in Aurelia's marriage existed chiefly in the fact that Mr. L. D. M. Randall had a soul above farming or trading and was a votary of the Muses. He taught the weekly singing-school (then a feature of village life) in half a dozen neighboring towns, he played the violin and "called off" at dances, or evoked rich harmonies from church melodeons on Sundays. He taught certain uncouth lads, when they were of an age to enter society, the intricacies of contra dances, or the steps of the schottische and mazurka, and he was a marked figure in all social assemblies, though conspicuously absent from town-meetings and the purely masculine gatherings at the store or tavern or bridge.
The romantic aspect of Aurelia's marriage mainly came from the fact that Mr. L. D. M. Randall was someone who valued creativity over farming or trading. He led the weekly singing school—a staple of village life—in several nearby towns, played the violin, and set the tone at dances. On Sundays, he brought beautiful music to church with the melodeon. He also taught certain awkward boys, when they were ready to join society, the details of contra dances and the steps of the schottische and mazurka. He was a prominent presence at social events, even though he noticeably stayed away from town meetings and purely male gatherings at the store, tavern, or bridge.
His hair was a little longer, his hands a little whiter, his shoes a little thinner, his manner a trifle more polished, than that of his soberer mates; indeed the only department of life in which he failed to shine was the making of sufficient money to live upon. Luckily he had no responsibilities; his father and his twin brother had died when he was yet a boy, and his mother, whose only noteworthy achievement had been the naming of her twin sons Marquis de Lafayette and Lorenzo de Medici Randall, had supported herself and educated her child by making coats up to the very day of her death. She was wont to say plaintively, "I'm afraid the faculties was too much divided up between my twins. L. D. M. is awful talented, but I guess M. D. L. would 'a' ben the practical one if he'd 'a' lived."
His hair was a bit longer, his hands a bit whiter, his shoes a bit thinner, and his demeanor slightly more refined than that of his more serious friends; in fact, the only area where he didn't excel was in making enough money to get by. Fortunately, he had no responsibilities; his father and twin brother had died when he was still a boy, and his mother, whose only notable accomplishment was naming her twin sons Marquis de Lafayette and Lorenzo de Medici Randall, had supported herself and educated her child by making coats until the day she passed away. She often used to say sadly, "I'm afraid the talents were too spread out between my twins. L. D. M. is really talented, but I guess M. D. L. would have been the practical one if he'd lived."
"L. D. M. was practical enough to get the richest girl in the village," replied Mrs. Robinson.
"L. D. M. was smart enough to marry the wealthiest girl in the village," replied Mrs. Robinson.
"Yes," sighed his mother, "there it is again; if the twins could 'a' married Aurelia Sawyer, 't would 'a' been all right. L. D. M. was talented 'nough to GET Reely's money, but M. D. L. would 'a' ben practical 'nough to have KEP' it."
"Yes," sighed his mother, "there it is again; if the twins could have married Aurelia Sawyer, it would have been all right. L. D. M. was talented enough to get Reely's money, but M. D. L. would have been practical enough to keep it."
Aurelia's share of the modest Sawyer property had been put into one thing after another by the handsome and luckless Lorenzo de Medici. He had a graceful and poetic way of making an investment for each new son and daughter that blessed their union. "A birthday present for our child, Aurelia," he would say,—"a little nest-egg for the future;" but Aurelia once remarked in a moment of bitterness that the hen never lived that could sit on those eggs and hatch anything out of them.
Aurelia's portion of the small Sawyer property had been invested in one thing after another by the charming but unfortunate Lorenzo de Medici. He had a graceful and poetic approach to making investments for each new son and daughter that came from their union. "A birthday gift for our child, Aurelia," he would say, "a little nest-egg for the future;" but Aurelia once pointed out in a moment of bitterness that no hen ever lived that could sit on those eggs and hatch anything from them.
Miranda and Jane had virtually washed their hands of Aurelia when she married Lorenzo de Medici Randall. Having exhausted the resources of Riverboro and its immediate vicinity, the unfortunate couple had moved on and on in a steadily decreasing scale of prosperity until they had reached Temperance, where they had settled down and invited fate to do its worst, an invitation which was promptly accepted. The maiden sisters at home wrote to Aurelia two or three times a year, and sent modest but serviceable presents to the children at Christmas, but refused to assist L. D. M. with the regular expenses of his rapidly growing family. His last investment, made shortly before the birth of Miranda (named in a lively hope of favors which never came), was a small farm two miles from Temperance. Aurelia managed this herself, and so it proved a home at least, and a place for the unsuccessful Lorenzo to die and to be buried from, a duty somewhat too long deferred, many thought, which he performed on the day of Mira's birth.
Miranda and Jane had pretty much cut ties with Aurelia when she married Lorenzo de Medici Randall. After exhausting all the resources in Riverboro and the surrounding area, the unfortunate couple kept moving on and on, steadily losing prosperity until they reached Temperance. There, they settled down and dared fate to throw whatever it could at them, an invitation that was quickly accepted. The single sisters at home wrote to Aurelia a couple of times a year and sent modest but useful gifts to the kids at Christmas, but they refused to help L. D. M. with the regular expenses of his growing family. His last investment, made shortly before Miranda’s birth (named in the hopes of favorable outcomes that never materialized), was a small farm two miles from Temperance. Aurelia managed it herself, so it at least provided a home, and a place for the unsuccessful Lorenzo to die and be buried from—a duty many thought had been long overdue, which he fulfilled on the day of Mira’s birth.
It was in this happy-go-lucky household that Rebecca had grown up. It was just an ordinary family; two or three of the children were handsome and the rest plain, three of them rather clever, two industrious, and two commonplace and dull. Rebecca had her father's facility and had been his aptest pupil. She "carried" the alto by ear, danced without being taught, played the melodeon without knowing the notes. Her love of books she inherited chiefly from her mother, who found it hard to sweep or cook or sew when there was a novel in the house. Fortunately books were scarce, or the children might sometimes have gone ragged and hungry.
It was in this carefree household that Rebecca grew up. It was just a typical family; a couple of the kids were good-looking, while the others were average, three of them were pretty smart, two were hard workers, and two were pretty ordinary and dull. Rebecca inherited her father’s talent and had been his best student. She picked up the alto by ear, danced naturally without any lessons, and played the melodeon without knowing how to read music. Her love for books mostly came from her mother, who struggled to clean, cook, or sew when there was a novel around. Luckily, books were limited, or the kids might have ended up ragged and starving.
But other forces had been at work in Rebecca, and the traits of unknown forbears had been wrought into her fibre. Lorenzo de Medici was flabby and boneless; Rebecca was a thing of fire and spirit: he lacked energy and courage; Rebecca was plucky at two and dauntless at five. Mrs. Randall and Hannah had no sense of humor; Rebecca possessed and showed it as soon as she could walk and talk.
But other influences had shaped Rebecca, and the traits of her unknown ancestors were woven into her character. Lorenzo de Medici was weak and lifeless; Rebecca was full of energy and passion: he lacked drive and bravery; Rebecca was brave at two and fearless at five. Mrs. Randall and Hannah had no sense of humor; Rebecca had one and displayed it as soon as she could walk and talk.
She had not been able, however, to borrow her parents' virtues and those of other generous ancestors and escape all the weaknesses in the calendar. She had not her sister Hannah's patience or her brother John's sturdy staying power. Her will was sometimes willfulness, and the ease with which she did most things led her to be impatient of hard tasks or long ones. But whatever else there was or was not, there was freedom at Randall's farm. The children grew, worked, fought, ate what and slept where they could; loved one another and their parents pretty well, but with no tropical passion; and educated themselves for nine months of the year, each one in his own way.
She hadn't been able to borrow her parents' virtues or those of other generous ancestors to escape all the weaknesses in the calendar. She didn't have her sister Hannah's patience or her brother John's solid determination. Her will sometimes turned into stubbornness, and the ease with which she accomplished most things made her impatient with hard or long tasks. But no matter what else was missing, there was freedom at Randall's farm. The children grew up, worked, fought, ate whatever they could, and slept wherever they could; they loved each other and their parents fairly well, but without any intense passion; and they educated themselves for nine months of the year, each in their own way.
As a result of this method Hannah, who could only have been developed by forces applied from without, was painstaking, humdrum, and limited; while Rebecca, who apparently needed nothing but space to develop in, and a knowledge of terms in which to express herself, grew and grew and grew, always from within outward. Her forces of one sort and another had seemingly been set in motion when she was born; they needed no daily spur, but moved of their own accord—towards what no one knew, least of all Rebecca herself. The field for the exhibition of her creative instinct was painfully small, and the only use she had made of it as yet was to leave eggs out of the corn bread one day and milk another, to see how it would turn out; to part Fanny's hair sometimes in the middle, sometimes on the right, and sometimes on the left side; and to play all sorts of fantastic pranks with the children, occasionally bringing them to the table as fictitious or historical characters found in her favorite books. Rebecca amused her mother and her family generally, but she never was counted of serious importance, and though considered "smart" and old for her age, she was never thought superior in any way. Aurelia's experience of genius, as exemplified in the deceased Lorenzo de Medici led her into a greater admiration of plain, every-day common sense, a quality in which Rebecca, it must be confessed, seemed sometimes painfully deficient.
Because of this approach, Hannah, who could only have been shaped by external influences, was diligent, ordinary, and restricted; while Rebecca, who just needed space to grow and the right words to express herself, kept expanding and evolving from within. Her various potentials seemed to have been activated at birth; they didn’t require daily motivation and moved forward on their own—toward an unknown destination, least of all understood by Rebecca herself. The opportunity for her creative instincts to shine was frustratingly limited, and so far, she had only experimented by leaving eggs out of the cornbread one day and milk out another to see the results; parting Fanny's hair in the middle sometimes, sometimes on the right, and other times on the left; and playing all kinds of imaginative tricks with the kids, occasionally bringing them to the table as fictional or historical characters from her favorite books. Rebecca entertained her mother and family, but she was never considered seriously important, and although she was seen as "smart" and mature for her age, she was never regarded as superior in any way. Aurelia's understanding of genius, as shown by the late Lorenzo de Medici, led her to admire straightforward, everyday common sense more, a quality in which, it must be admitted, Rebecca sometimes seemed to lack significantly.
Hannah was her mother's favorite, so far as Aurelia could indulge herself in such recreations as partiality. The parent who is obliged to feed and clothe seven children on an income of fifteen dollars a month seldom has time to discriminate carefully between the various members of her brood, but Hannah at fourteen was at once companion and partner in all her mother's problems. She it was who kept the house while Aurelia busied herself in barn and field. Rebecca was capable of certain set tasks, such as keeping the small children from killing themselves and one another, feeding the poultry, picking up chips, hulling strawberries, wiping dishes; but she was thought irresponsible, and Aurelia, needing somebody to lean on (having never enjoyed that luxury with the gifted Lorenzo), leaned on Hannah. Hannah showed the result of this attitude somewhat, being a trifle careworn in face and sharp in manner; but she was a self-contained, well-behaved, dependable child, and that is the reason her aunts had invited her to Riverboro to be a member of their family and participate in all the advantages of their loftier position in the world. It was several years since Miranda and Jane had seen the children, but they remembered with pleasure that Hannah had not spoken a word during the interview, and it was for this reason that they had asked for the pleasure of her company. Rebecca, on the other hand, had dressed up the dog in John's clothes, and being requested to get the three younger children ready for dinner, she had held them under the pump and then proceeded to "smack" their hair flat to their heads by vigorous brushing, bringing them to the table in such a moist and hideous state of shininess that their mother was ashamed of their appearance. Rebecca's own black locks were commonly pushed smoothly off her forehead, but on this occasion she formed what I must perforce call by its only name, a spit-curl, directly in the centre of her brow, an ornament which she was allowed to wear a very short time, only in fact till Hannah was able to call her mother's attention to it, when she was sent into the next room to remove it and to come back looking like a Christian. This command she interpreted somewhat too literally perhaps, because she contrived in a space of two minutes an extremely pious style of hairdressing, fully as effective if not as startling as the first. These antics were solely the result of nervous irritation, a mood born of Miss Miranda Sawyer's stiff, grim, and martial attitude. The remembrance of Rebecca was so vivid that their sister Aurelia's letter was something of a shock to the quiet, elderly spinsters of the brick house; for it said that Hannah could not possibly be spared for a few years yet, but that Rebecca would come as soon as she could be made ready; that the offer was most thankfully appreciated, and that the regular schooling and church privileges, as well as the influence of the Sawyer home, would doubtless be "the making of Rebecca."
Hannah was her mother’s favorite, at least as much as Aurelia could allow herself to be partial. A mother who has to feed and clothe seven kids on an income of fifteen dollars a month rarely has time to pay close attention to the individual needs of her children. However, at fourteen, Hannah was both companion and partner in all of her mother’s challenges. She was the one who kept the house running while Aurelia worked in the barn and fields. Rebecca could handle some set tasks, like keeping the little ones safe, feeding the chickens, gathering wood, hulling strawberries, and washing dishes, but she was considered irresponsible. Aurelia, needing someone to rely on (having never had that luxury with the talented Lorenzo), leaned on Hannah. This dependence showed a bit; Hannah appeared slightly worn out and had a sharp manner, but she was a composed, well-behaved, reliable child, which is why her aunts had invited her to Riverboro to join their family and enjoy the benefits of their higher status. It had been several years since Miranda and Jane had seen the kids, but they remembered fondly that Hannah hadn’t said a word during their last meeting, which is why they had requested her company. On the other hand, Rebecca had dressed the dog in John’s clothes and, when asked to ready the three younger children for dinner, had soaked them under the pump before vigorously brushing their hair flat, bringing them to the table in such a damp and shiny state that their mother was embarrassed by their appearance. Normally, Rebecca’s own black hair was smoothly swept off her forehead, but this time, she created what can only be called a spit-curl right in the middle of her forehead—an accessory she was allowed to wear only briefly until Hannah pointed it out to their mother, who sent her to the next room to remove it and come back looking presentable. Rebecca perhaps took this command too literally because, within two minutes, she had crafted another hairstyle that was just as pious if not as shocking as the first. These antics were purely a result of nervous irritation, stemming from Miss Miranda Sawyer’s stiff, formal, and military demeanor. The vivid memory of Rebecca made Aurelia’s letter a shock to the quiet, elderly spinsters in the brick house; it stated that Hannah could not be spared for a few more years, but that Rebecca would come as soon as she was ready. It expressed deep gratitude for the offer and noted that the regular schooling, church privileges, and the influence of the Sawyer home would likely be “the making of Rebecca.”
III
A DIFFERENCE IN HEARTS
"I don' know as I cal'lated to be the makin' of any child," Miranda had said as she folded Aurelia's letter and laid it in the light-stand drawer. "I s'posed, of course, Aurelia would send us the one we asked for, but it's just like her to palm off that wild young one on somebody else."
"I don't know if I planned to have any kids," Miranda said as she folded Aurelia's letter and put it in the bedside drawer. "I figured, of course, Aurelia would send us the one we asked for, but it's typical of her to pass that wild young one off on someone else."
"You remember we said that Rebecca or even Jenny might come, in case Hannah couldn't," interposed Jane.
"You remember we mentioned that Rebecca or even Jenny might come if Hannah couldn't," Jane interrupted.
"I know we did, but we hadn't any notion it would turn out that way," grumbled Miranda.
"I know we did, but we had no idea it would end up like this," grumbled Miranda.
"She was a mite of a thing when we saw her three years ago," ventured Jane; "she's had time to improve."
"She was just a little thing when we saw her three years ago," Jane said, "she's had time to grow."
"And time to grow worse!"
"And time to get worse!"
"Won't it be kind of a privilege to put her on the right track?" asked Jane timidly.
"Isn't it kind of a privilege to help her get on the right path?" asked Jane shyly.
"I don' know about the privilege part; it'll be considerable of a chore, I guess. If her mother hain't got her on the right track by now, she won't take to it herself all of a sudden."
"I don't know about the privilege part; it will be quite a hassle, I guess. If her mother hasn't set her on the right path by now, she won't just figure it out on her own all of a sudden."
This depressed and depressing frame of mind had lasted until the eventful day dawned on which Rebecca was to arrive.
This gloomy and discouraging mindset had persisted until the significant day arrived when Rebecca was set to come.
"If she makes as much work after she comes as she has before, we might as well give up hope of ever gettin' any rest," sighed Miranda as she hung the dish towels on the barberry bushes at the side door.
"If she creates as much work after she gets here as she has before, we might as well give up on ever getting any rest," sighed Miranda as she hung the dish towels on the barberry bushes by the side door.
"But we should have had to clean house, Rebecca or no Rebecca," urged Jane; "and I can't see why you've scrubbed and washed and baked as you have for that one child, nor why you've about bought out Watson's stock of dry goods."
"But we should have had to clean the house, whether Rebecca was here or not," Jane insisted; "and I don't understand why you've scrubbed, washed, and baked so much just for that one child, or why you've nearly cleaned out Watson's inventory of dry goods."
"I know Aurelia if you don't," responded Miranda. "I've seen her house, and I've seen that batch o' children, wearin' one another's clothes and never carin' whether they had 'em on right sid' out or not; I know what they've had to live and dress on, and so do you. That child will like as not come here with a passel o' things borrowed from the rest o' the family. She'll have Hannah's shoes and John's undershirts and Mark's socks most likely. I suppose she never had a thimble on her finger in her life, but she'll know the feelin' o' one before she's ben here many days. I've bought a piece of unbleached muslin and a piece o' brown gingham for her to make up; that'll keep her busy. Of course she won't pick up anything after herself; she probably never see a duster, and she'll be as hard to train into our ways as if she was a heathen."
"I know Aurelia if you don't," replied Miranda. "I've seen her house, and I've seen that group of kids, wearing each other's clothes and not caring if they were on inside out or not; I know what they've had to live in and wear, and so do you. That girl will probably come here with a bunch of things borrowed from the rest of the family. She'll likely have Hannah's shoes, John's undershirts, and Mark's socks. I bet she's never had a thimble on her finger in her life, but she'll know what that feels like before she’s been here many days. I’ve bought a piece of unbleached muslin and a piece of brown gingham for her to work with; that should keep her occupied. Of course, she won't clean up after herself; she’s probably never seen a duster, and she’ll be as hard to train into our ways as if she were a wild child."
"She'll make a dif'rence," acknowledged Jane, "but she may turn out more biddable 'n we think."
"She'll make a difference," acknowledged Jane, "but she might turn out to be more agreeable than we think."
"She'll mind when she's spoken to, biddable or not," remarked Miranda with a shake of the last towel.
"She'll pay attention when you talk to her, whether she's compliant or not," Miranda said while shaking the last towel.
Miranda Sawyer had a heart, of course, but she had never used it for any other purpose than the pumping and circulating of blood. She was just, conscientious, economical, industrious; a regular attendant at church and Sunday-school, and a member of the State Missionary and Bible societies, but in the presence of all these chilly virtues you longed for one warm little fault, or lacking that, one likable failing, something to make you sure she was thoroughly alive. She had never had any education other than that of the neighborhood district school, for her desires and ambitions had all pointed to the management of the house, the farm, and the dairy. Jane, on the other hand, had gone to an academy, and also to a boarding-school for young ladies; so had Aurelia; and after all the years that had elapsed there was still a slight difference in language and in manner between the elder and the two younger sisters.
Miranda Sawyer had a heart, of course, but she'd never used it for anything other than pumping and circulating blood. She was just, responsible, practical, and hard-working; a regular at church and Sunday school, and a member of the State Missionary and Bible societies. Yet, amidst all these cold virtues, you wished for one small flaw, or at the very least, one endearing weakness, something to reassure you that she was truly alive. She had never received an education beyond the local district school, as her goals and ambitions were entirely focused on managing the house, the farm, and the dairy. In contrast, Jane had attended an academy and a boarding school for young ladies; Aurelia had too. Even after all the years that had passed, there was still a subtle difference in language and demeanor between the oldest sister and the two younger ones.
Jane, too, had had the inestimable advantage of a sorrow; not the natural grief at the loss of her aged father and mother, for she had been content to let them go; but something far deeper. She was engaged to marry young Tom Carter, who had nothing to marry on, it is true, but who was sure to have, some time or other. Then the war broke out. Tom enlisted at the first call. Up to that time Jane had loved him with a quiet, friendly sort of affection, and had given her country a mild emotion of the same sort. But the strife, the danger, the anxiety of the time, set new currents of feeling in motion. Life became something other than the three meals a day, the round of cooking, washing, sewing, and church going. Personal gossip vanished from the village conversation. Big things took the place of trifling ones,—sacred sorrows of wives and mothers, pangs of fathers and husbands, self-denials, sympathies, new desire to bear one another's burdens. Men and women grew fast in those days of the nation's trouble and danger, and Jane awoke from the vague dull dream she had hitherto called life to new hopes, new fears, new purposes. Then after a year's anxiety, a year when one never looked in the newspaper without dread and sickness of suspense, came the telegram saying that Tom was wounded; and without so much as asking Miranda's leave, she packed her trunk and started for the South. She was in time to hold Tom's hand through hours of pain; to show him for once the heart of a prim New England girl when it is ablaze with love and grief; to put her arms about him so that he could have a home to die in, and that was all;—all, but it served.
Jane had also experienced an invaluable sorrow; not the natural grief from losing her elderly parents, as she had been okay with their passing; but something much deeper. She was engaged to marry young Tom Carter, who didn’t have much to offer, it's true, but would surely have something someday. Then the war started. Tom enlisted at the first opportunity. Until that moment, Jane had loved him with a quiet, friendly sort of affection, and felt a mild emotion for her country as well. But the conflict, the danger, and the anxiety of the times stirred up new feelings. Life became more than just three meals a day, cooking, washing, sewing, and going to church. Personal gossip disappeared from village conversations. Important matters replaced trivial ones—deep sorrows of wives and mothers, the anguish of fathers and husbands, selflessness, empathy, and a new desire to support one another. Men and women grew rapidly during those days of national turmoil and danger, and Jane awakened from the vague, dull existence she had previously called life to new hopes, fears, and purposes. Then, after a year of anxiety—a year when reading the newspaper brought dread and a sick feeling of suspense—came the telegram saying that Tom was injured; without even asking Miranda’s permission, she packed her trunk and headed south. She arrived just in time to hold Tom’s hand through hours of pain; to reveal the heart of a prim New England girl when it was filled with love and grief; to wrap her arms around him so he could have a place to die, and that was everything;—everything, but it was enough.
It carried her through weary months of nursing—nursing of other soldiers for Tom's dear sake; it sent her home a better woman; and though she had never left Riverboro in all the years that lay between, and had grown into the counterfeit presentment of her sister and of all other thin, spare, New England spinsters, it was something of a counterfeit, and underneath was still the faint echo of that wild heart-beat of her girlhood. Having learned the trick of beating and loving and suffering, the poor faithful heart persisted, although it lived on memories and carried on its sentimental operations mostly in secret.
It got her through exhausting months of taking care of others—nursing other soldiers for Tom's sake; it brought her home a better person; and even though she had never left Riverboro all those years, and had become like her sister and all the other thin, plain, New England spinsters, it was still somewhat of a facade, and underneath was still the faint echo of that wild heart-beat from her youth. Having mastered the art of enduring love and pain, the poor loyal heart kept going, even though it lived on memories and mostly carried out its sentimental struggles in private.
"You're soft, Jane," said Miranda once; "you allers was soft, and you allers will be. If 't wa'n't for me keeping you stiffened up, I b'lieve you'd leak out o' the house into the dooryard."
"You're too soft, Jane," Miranda said once; "you always have been soft, and you always will be. If it weren't for me keeping you tough, I swear you'd leak right out of the house into the yard."
It was already past the appointed hour for Mr. Cobb and his coach to be lumbering down the street.
It was already past the scheduled time for Mr. Cobb and his coach to be rolling down the street.
"The stage ought to be here," said Miranda, glancing nervously at the tall clock for the twentieth time. "I guess everything 's done. I've tacked up two thick towels back of her washstand and put a mat under her slop-jar; but children are awful hard on furniture. I expect we sha'n't know this house a year from now."
"The stage should be here," said Miranda, nervously checking the tall clock for the twentieth time. "I think everything's ready. I've hung up two thick towels behind her washstand and placed a mat under her slop-jar; but kids really wear out furniture. I bet we won't even recognize this house a year from now."
Jane's frame of mind was naturally depressed and timorous, having been affected by Miranda's gloomy presages of evil to come. The only difference between the sisters in this matter was that while Miranda only wondered how they could endure Rebecca, Jane had flashes of inspiration in which she wondered how Rebecca would endure them. It was in one of these flashes that she ran up the back stairs to put a vase of apple blossoms and a red tomato-pincushion on Rebecca's bureau.
Jane's state of mind was understandably low and anxious, influenced by Miranda's dark predictions of trouble ahead. The only difference between the sisters in this regard was that while Miranda only questioned how they could tolerate Rebecca, Jane had moments of insight where she contemplated how Rebecca would manage to put up with them. It was during one of these moments that she hurried up the back stairs to place a vase of apple blossoms and a red tomato-shaped pincushion on Rebecca's dresser.
The stage rumbled to the side door of the brick house, and Mr. Cobb handed Rebecca out like a real lady passenger. She alighted with great circumspection, put the bunch of faded flowers in her aunt Miranda's hand, and received her salute; it could hardly be called a kiss without injuring the fair name of that commodity.
The carriage rolled up to the side door of the brick house, and Mr. Cobb helped Rebecca out like she was a true lady. She got down carefully, handed the bunch of wilted flowers to her Aunt Miranda, and received her greeting; it was hardly a kiss without tarnishing the reputation of that gesture.
"You needn't 'a' bothered to bring flowers," remarked that gracious and tactful lady; "the garden 's always full of 'em here when it comes time."
"You didn't have to bring flowers," said that gracious and tactful lady; "the garden is always full of them here when the time comes."
Jane then kissed Rebecca, giving a somewhat better imitation of the real thing than her sister. "Put the trunk in the entry, Jeremiah, and we'll get it carried upstairs this afternoon," she said.
Jane then kissed Rebecca, doing a slightly better job of imitating the real thing than her sister. "Put the trunk in the entry, Jeremiah, and we'll carry it upstairs this afternoon," she said.
"I'll take it up for ye now, if ye say the word, girls."
"I'll take it up for you now, if you say the word, girls."
"No, no; don't leave the horses; somebody'll be comin' past, and we can call 'em in."
"No, no; don't leave the horses; someone will be coming by, and we can call them in."
"Well, good-by, Rebecca; good-day, Mirandy 'n' Jane. You've got a lively little girl there. I guess she'll be a first-rate company keeper."
"Well, goodbye, Rebecca; good day, Mirandy and Jane. You've got a lively little girl there. I guess she'll be great company."
Miss Sawyer shuddered openly at the adjective "lively" as applied to a child; her belief being that though children might be seen, if absolutely necessary, they certainly should never be heard if she could help it. "We're not much used to noise, Jane and me," she remarked acidly.
Miss Sawyer shuddered at the word "lively" when it referred to a child; she believed that while children might be seen, if absolutely necessary, they definitely shouldn't be heard if she could avoid it. "We're not really used to noise, Jane and I," she said sharply.
Mr. Cobb saw that he had taken the wrong tack, but he was too unused to argument to explain himself readily, so he drove away, trying to think by what safer word than "lively" he might have described his interesting little passenger.
Mr. Cobb realized he had taken the wrong approach, but he wasn't experienced enough with arguments to explain himself easily, so he drove away, trying to figure out a better word than "lively" to describe his interesting little passenger.
"I'll take you up and show you your room, Rebecca," Miss Miranda said. "Shut the mosquito nettin' door tight behind you, so 's to keep the flies out; it ain't flytime yet, but I want you to start right; take your passel along with ye and then you won't have to come down for it; always make your head save your heels. Rub your feet on that braided rug; hang your hat and cape in the entry there as you go past."
"I'll take you up and show you your room, Rebecca," Miss Miranda said. "Shut the door with the mosquito netting tightly behind you to keep the flies out; it’s not fly season yet, but I want you to get started right. Take your things with you so you won't have to come down for them later; always think ahead. Rub your feet on that braided rug, and hang your hat and coat in the entry as you walk by."
"It's my best hat," said Rebecca
"It's my favorite hat," said Rebecca
"Take it upstairs then and put it in the clothes-press; but I shouldn't 'a' thought you'd 'a' worn your best hat on the stage."
"Take it upstairs then and put it in the closet; but I wouldn’t have thought you’d wear your best hat on stage."
"It's my only hat," explained Rebecca. "My every-day hat wasn't good enough to bring. Fanny's going to finish it."
"It's my only hat," Rebecca explained. "My everyday hat wasn't good enough to bring. Fanny's going to finish it."
"Lay your parasol in the entry closet."
"Put your umbrella in the entryway closet."
"Do you mind if I keep it in my room, please? It always seems safer."
"Is it okay if I keep it in my room? It always feels safer that way."
"There ain't any thieves hereabouts, and if there was, I guess they wouldn't make for your sunshade, but come along. Remember to always go up the back way; we don't use the front stairs on account o' the carpet; take care o' the turn and don't ketch your foot; look to your right and go in. When you've washed your face and hands and brushed your hair you can come down, and by and by we'll unpack your trunk and get you settled before supper. Ain't you got your dress on hind sid' foremost?"
"There aren't any thieves around here, and if there were, I doubt they’d head for your sunshade, but let’s go. Remember to always use the back entrance; we don’t use the front stairs because of the carpet; be careful on the turn and don’t trip; look to your right and go in. When you’ve washed your face and hands and brushed your hair, you can come down, and soon we'll unpack your trunk and get you settled before dinner. Aren’t you wearing your dress on backwards?"
Rebecca drew her chin down and looked at the row of smoked pearl buttons running up and down the middle of her flat little chest.
Rebecca lowered her chin and gazed at the line of smoked pearl buttons running up and down the center of her flat little chest.
"Hind side foremost? Oh, I see! No, that's all right. If you have seven children you can't keep buttonin' and unbuttonin' 'em all the time—they have to do themselves. We're always buttoned up in front at our house. Mira's only three, but she's buttoned up in front, too."
"Hind side first? Oh, I get it! No, that's fine. If you have seven kids, you can't be buttoning and unbuttoning them all the time—they need to handle it themselves. We're always buttoned up in front at our place. Mira's only three, but she's buttoned up in front, too."
Miranda said nothing as she closed the door, but her looks were at once equivalent to and more eloquent than words.
Miranda didn't say anything as she closed the door, but her expression was both equal to and more expressive than words.
Rebecca stood perfectly still in the centre of the floor and looked about her. There was a square of oilcloth in front of each article of furniture and a drawn-in rug beside the single four poster, which was covered with a fringed white dimity counterpane.
Rebecca stood completely still in the center of the floor and looked around her. There was a square of oilcloth in front of each piece of furniture and a laid-out rug next to the single four-poster bed, which was topped with a fringed white dimity bedspread.
Everything was as neat as wax, but the ceilings were much higher than Rebecca was accustomed to. It was a north room, and the window, which was long and narrow, looked out on the back buildings and the barn.
Everything was as neat as a pin, but the ceilings were much higher than Rebecca was used to. It was a north-facing room, and the long, narrow window overlooked the back buildings and the barn.
It was not the room, which was far more comfortable than Rebecca's own at the farm, nor the lack of view, nor yet the long journey, for she was not conscious of weariness; it was not the fear of a strange place, for she loved new places and courted new sensations; it was because of some curious blending of uncomprehended emotions that Rebecca stood her sunshade in the corner, tore off her best hat, flung it on the bureau with the porcupine quills on the under side, and stripping down the dimity spread, precipitated herself into the middle of the bed and pulled the counterpane over her head.
It wasn’t the room, which was much more comfortable than Rebecca's own at the farm, or the lack of a view, or even the long journey, because she didn’t feel tired; it wasn’t the fear of being in a strange place, since she loved new places and embraced new experiences; it was something about a strange mix of emotions that made Rebecca set her sunshade in the corner, rip off her best hat, toss it onto the dresser with the porcupine quills on the underside, and, pulling off the dimity spread, throw herself onto the bed and pull the cover over her head.
In a moment the door opened quietly. Knocking was a refinement quite unknown in Riverboro, and if it had been heard of would never have been wasted on a child.
In a moment, the door opened quietly. Knocking was a luxury that wasn't known in Riverboro, and even if it had been, it would never have been used on a child.
Miss Miranda entered, and as her eye wandered about the vacant room, it fell upon a white and tempestuous ocean of counterpane, an ocean breaking into strange movements of wave and crest and billow.
Miss Miranda entered, and as her gaze roamed around the empty room, it landed on a white and stormy sea of bedspread, a sea crashing into unusual motions of waves and crests and swells.
"REBECCA!"
"REBECCA!"
The tone in which the word was voiced gave it all the effect of having been shouted from the housetops.
The tone in which the word was spoken made it feel as if it had been shouted from the rooftops.
A dark ruffled head and two frightened eyes appeared above the dimity spread.
A messy dark head and two scared eyes appeared above the thin bedspread.
"What are you layin' on your good bed in the daytime for, messin' up the feathers, and dirtyin' the pillers with your dusty boots?"
"What are you lying on your nice bed during the day for, messing up the feathers and getting the pillows dirty with your dusty boots?"
Rebecca rose guiltily. There seemed no excuse to make. Her offense was beyond explanation or apology.
Rebecca stood up with guilt. There didn't seem to be any excuse to give. Her wrongdoing was beyond explanation or apology.
"I'm sorry, aunt Mirandy—something came over me; I don't know what."
"I'm sorry, Aunt Mirandy—something took over me; I have no idea what."
"Well, if it comes over you very soon again we'll have to find out what 't is. Spread your bed up smooth this minute, for 'Bijah Flagg 's bringin' your trunk upstairs, and I wouldn't let him see such a cluttered-up room for anything; he'd tell it all over town."
"Well, if it happens to you again soon, we'll need to figure out what it is. Make your bed nice and smooth right now, because 'Bijah Flagg is bringing your trunk upstairs, and I wouldn’t want him to see such a messy room for anything; he'd spread the word all over town."
When Mr. Cobb had put up his horses that night he carried a kitchen chair to the side of his wife, who was sitting on the back porch.
When Mr. Cobb put his horses away that night, he carried a kitchen chair to his wife, who was sitting on the back porch.
"I brought a little Randall girl down on the stage from Maplewood to-day, mother. She's kin to the Sawyer girls an' is goin' to live with 'em," he said, as he sat down and began to whittle. "She's that Aurelia's child, the one that ran away with Susan Randall's son just before we come here to live."
"I brought a little Randall girl up on stage from Maplewood today, Mom. She's related to the Sawyer girls and is going to live with them," he said as he sat down and started carving. "She's that Aurelia's kid, the one who ran away with Susan Randall's son right before we moved here."
"How old a child?"
"How old is the child?"
"'Bout ten, or somewhere along there, an' small for her age; but land! she might be a hundred to hear her talk! She kep' me jumpin' tryin' to answer her! Of all the queer children I ever come across she's the queerest. She ain't no beauty—her face is all eyes; but if she ever grows up to them eyes an' fills out a little she'll make folks stare. Land, mother! I wish 't you could 'a' heard her talk."
"'About ten, or somewhere around there, and small for her age; but wow! she could be a hundred to hear her talk! She kept me on my toes trying to answer her! Of all the strange kids I've ever met, she's the strangest. She's not a beauty—her face is all eyes; but if she ever grows into those eyes and fills out a bit, she'll make people stare. Wow, Mom! I wish you could've heard her talk."
"I don't see what she had to talk about, a child like that, to a stranger," replied Mrs. Cobb.
"I don't understand what she had to say to a stranger, a kid like that," replied Mrs. Cobb.
"Stranger or no stranger, 't wouldn't make no difference to her. She'd talk to a pump or a grind-stun; she'd talk to herself ruther 'n keep still."
"Stranger or not, it wouldn't make any difference to her. She'd talk to a pump or a grinding stone; she'd talk to herself rather than stay quiet."
"What did she talk about?"
"What was she talking about?"
"Blamed if I can repeat any of it. She kep' me so surprised I didn't have my wits about me. She had a little pink sunshade—it kind o' looked like a doll's amberill, 'n' she clung to it like a burr to a woolen stockin'. I advised her to open it up—the sun was so hot; but she said no, 't would fade, an' she tucked it under her dress. 'It's the dearest thing in life to me,' says she, 'but it's a dreadful care.' Them 's the very words, an' it's all the words I remember. 'It's the dearest thing in life to me, but it's an awful care!' "—here Mr. Cobb laughed aloud as he tipped his chair back against the side of the house. "There was another thing, but I can't get it right exactly. She was talkin' 'bout the circus parade an' the snake charmer in a gold chariot, an' says she, 'She was so beautiful beyond compare, Mr. Cobb, that it made you have lumps in your throat to look at her.' She'll be comin' over to see you, mother, an' you can size her up for yourself. I don' know how she'll git on with Mirandy Sawyer—poor little soul!"
"Honestly, I can't remember any of it. She surprised me so much that I wasn't thinking straight. She had a little pink sunshade that kind of looked like a doll’s umbrella, and she held onto it tightly. I told her to open it up since the sun was so hot, but she said no, it would fade, and she tucked it under her dress. 'It’s the most precious thing in my life,' she said, 'but it’s a huge burden.' Those are the exact words, and they’re all I remember. 'It’s the most precious thing in my life, but it’s such a hassle!' ”—here Mr. Cobb laughed loudly as he leaned his chair back against the side of the house. "There was something else, but I can’t quite recall it. She was talking about the circus parade and the snake charmer in a gold chariot, and she said, 'She was so stunning that it made you feel a lump in your throat just to look at her.' She’ll be coming over to see you, mom, and you can check her out for yourself. I don’t know how she’ll get along with Mirandy Sawyer—poor thing!"
This doubt was more or less openly expressed in Riverboro, which, however, had two opinions on the subject; one that it was a most generous thing in the Sawyer girls to take one of Aurelia's children to educate, the other that the education would be bought at a price wholly out of proportion to its intrinsic value.
This doubt was somewhat openly expressed in Riverboro, which, however, had two opinions on the subject; one was that it was really generous of the Sawyer girls to take one of Aurelia's children to educate, while the other was that the education would cost far more than its actual worth.
Rebecca's first letters to her mother would seem to indicate that she cordially coincided with the latter view of the situation.
Rebecca's first letters to her mother seemed to show that she agreed with that perspective on the situation.
IV
REBECCA'S POINT OF VIEW
Dear Mother,—I am safely here. My dress was not much tumbled
and Aunt Jane helped me press it out. I like Mr. Cobb very
much. He chews but throws newspapers straight up to the
doors. I rode outside a little while, but got inside before I
got to Aunt Miranda's house. I did not want to, but thought
you would like it better. Miranda is such a long word that I
think I will say Aunt M. and Aunt J. in my Sunday letters.
Aunt J. has given me a dictionary to look up all the hard
words in. It takes a good deal of time and I am glad people
can talk without stoping to spell. It is much eesier to talk
than write and much more fun. The brick house looks just the
same as you have told us. The parler is splendid and gives
you creeps and chills when you look in the door. The
furnature is ellergant too, and all the rooms but there are
no good sitting-down places exsept in the kitchen. The same
cat is here but they do not save kittens when she has them,
and the cat is too old to play with. Hannah told me once you
ran away with father and I can see it would be nice. If Aunt
M. would run away I think I should like to live with Aunt J.
She does not hate me as bad as Aunt M. does. Tell Mark he can
have my paint box, but I should like him to keep the red cake
in case I come home again. I hope Hannah and John do not get
tired doing my chores.
Your afectionate friend
Rebecca.
Dear Mom, — I made it here safely. My dress wasn't too wrinkled, and Aunt Jane helped me iron it. I really like Mr. Cobb. He chews gum but throws newspapers right up to the doors. I sat outside for a bit but got inside before we reached Aunt Miranda's place. I didn’t want to, but I thought you’d prefer it that way. Miranda is such a long name that I think I’ll just say Aunt M. and Aunt J. in my Sunday letters. Aunt J. gave me a dictionary to look up all the hard words. It takes a while, and I’m glad people can talk without having to stop to spell. It’s much easier to talk than to write, and way more fun. The brick house looks just like you described. The parlor is amazing and gives you chills when you look in the door. The furniture is elegant too, but there aren’t many good places to sit besides in the kitchen. The same cat is here, but they don’t keep the kittens she has, and the cat is too old to play with. Hannah once told me that you ran away with Dad, and I think that would be nice. If Aunt M. would run away, I think I’d like to stay with Aunt J. She doesn’t dislike me as much as Aunt M. does. Tell Mark he can have my paint box, but I’d like him to keep the red cake just in case I come back home. I hope Hannah and John aren’t getting tired of doing my chores.
Your affectionate friend
Rebecca.
P. S. Please give the piece of poetry to John because he likes my poetry even when it is not very good. This piece is not very good but it is true but I hope you won't mind what is in it as you ran away.
P. S. Please give the poem to John because he likes my poetry even when it’s not that great. This piece isn’t very good, but it’s honest. I hope you don’t mind what’s in it since you left.
This house is dark and dull and dreer
No light doth shine from far or near
Its like the tomb.
This house is dark, dull, and gloomy.
No light shines from far or near.
It's like a tomb.
And those of us who live herein
Are most as dead as serrafim
Though not as good.
And those of us who live here
Are basically as dead as seraphim
Though not as virtuous.
My gardian angel is asleep
At leest he doth no vigil keep
My guardian angel is asleep
At least he doesn't keep watch
Ah! woe is me!
Oh no!
Then give me back my lonely farm
Where none alive did wish me harm
Dear home of youth!
Then give me back my lonely farm
Where no one alive wished me harm
Dear home of my youth!
P. S. again. I made the poetry like a piece in a book but could not get it right at first. You see "tomb" and "good" do not sound well together but I wanted to say "tomb" dreadfully and as serrafim are always "good" I couldn't take that out. I have made it over now. It does not say my thoughts as well but think it is more right. Give the best one to John as he keeps them in a box with his birds' eggs. This is the best one.
P.S. again. I wrote the poem like a section in a book but couldn’t get it right at first. You see, "tomb" and "good" don’t really go together, but I really wanted to use "tomb," and since seraphim are always "good," I couldn’t remove that. I’ve revised it now. It might not express my thoughts as clearly, but I think it feels more accurate. Please give the best one to John since he keeps them in a box with his bird eggs. This is the best one.
SUNDAY THOUGHTS
BY
REBECCA ROWENA RANDALL
SUNDAY REFLECTIONS
BY
REBECCA ROWENA RANDALL
This house is dark and dull and drear
No light doth shine from far or near
Nor ever could.
This house is dark, boring, and gloomy
No light shines from anywhere
And it never will.
And those of us who live herein
Are most as dead as seraphim
Though not as good.
And those of us who live here
Are pretty much as dead as angels
Though not as great.
My guardian angel is asleep
At least he doth no vigil keep
But far doth roam.
My guardian angel is sleeping
At least he isn't keeping watch
But is roaming far away.
Then give me back my lonely farm
Where none alive did wish me harm,
Dear childhood home!
Then give me back my lonely farm
Where no one alive wished me harm,
Dear childhood home!
Dear Mother,—I am thrilling with unhappyness this morning. I got that out of Cora The Doctor's Wife whose husband's mother was very cross and unfealing to her like Aunt M. to me. I wish Hannah had come instead of me for it was Hannah that was wanted and she is better than I am and does not answer back so quick. Are there any peaces of my buff calico. Aunt J. wants enough to make a new waste button behind so I wont look so outlandish. The stiles are quite pretty in Riverboro and those at Meeting quite ellergant more so than in Temperance.
Dear Mom,—I'm feeling really unhappy this morning. I got that from Cora The Doctor's Wife, whose mother-in-law was very harsh and unkind to her, just like Aunt M. is to me. I wish Hannah had come instead of me because she was the one needed, and she's better than I am and doesn't snap back so quickly. Do you have any pieces of my buff calico? Aunt J. wants enough to make a new waste button in the back so I don’t look so out of place. The stiles in Riverboro are quite pretty, and those at Meeting are really elegant, even more so than in Temperance.
This town is stilish, gay and fair,
And full of wellthy riches rare,
But I would pillow on my arm
The thought of my sweet Brookside Farm.
This town is stylish, cheerful, and beautiful,
And filled with wealthy treasures rare,
But I'd rest my head on my arm
Thinking of my lovely Brookside Farm.
School is pretty good. The Teacher can answer more questions than the Temperance one but not so many as I can ask. I am smarter than all the girls but one but not so smart as two boys. Emma Jane can add and subtract in her head like a streek of lightning and knows the speling book right through but has no thoughts of any kind. She is in the Third Reader but does not like stories in books. I am in the Sixth Reader but just because I cannot say the seven multiplication Table Miss Dearborn threttens to put me in the baby primer class with Elijah and Elisha Simpson, little twins.
School is pretty good. The teacher can answer more questions than the Temperance one, but not as many as I can ask. I'm smarter than all the girls except one, but not as smart as two of the boys. Emma Jane can add and subtract in her head like lightning and knows the spelling book by heart, but she has no thoughts of her own. She’s in the Third Reader but doesn't like stories in books. I'm in the Sixth Reader, but since I can't recite the seven times table, Miss Dearborn threatens to put me in the baby primer class with Elijah and Elisha Simpson, the little twins.
Sore is my heart and bent my stubborn pride,
With Lijah and with Lisha am I tied,
My soul recoyles like Cora Doctor's Wife,
Like her I feer I cannot bare this life.
My heart hurts and my stubborn pride is broken,
I’m connected to Lijah and Lisha,
My soul recoils like Cora Doctor's Wife,
Like her, I dread that I can't handle this life.
I am going to try for the speling prize but fear I cannot get it. I would not care but wrong speling looks dreadful in poetry. Last Sunday when I found seraphim in the dictionary I was ashamed I had made it serrafim but seraphim is not a word you can guess at like another long one outlandish in this letter which spells itself. Miss Dearborn says use the words you CAN spell and if you cant spell seraphim make angel do but angels are not just the same as seraphims. Seraphims are brighter whiter and have bigger wings and I think are older and longer dead than angels which are just freshly dead and after a long time in heaven around the great white throne grow to be seraphims.
I'm going to try for the spelling prize, but I’m worried I won't get it. I wouldn’t mind, but bad spelling looks terrible in poetry. Last Sunday, when I found "seraphim" in the dictionary, I felt embarrassed that I had spelled it "serrafim." But "seraphim" isn’t a word you can just guess, unlike another long, strange word in this letter that spells itself. Miss Dearborn says to use the words you CAN spell, and if you can’t spell "seraphim," then use "angel." But angels aren't exactly the same as seraphim. Seraphim are brighter, whiter, and have bigger wings, and I think they’re older and were dead longer than angels, which are only freshly dead. After a long time in heaven around the great white throne, they grow to become seraphim.
I sew on brown gingham dresses every afternoon when Emma Jane and the Simpsons are playing house or running on the Logs when their mothers do not know it. Their mothers are afraid they will drown and Aunt M. is afraid I will wet my clothes so will not let me either. I can play from half past four to supper and after supper a little bit and Saturday afternoons. I am glad our cow has a calf and it is spotted. It is going to be a good year for apples and hay so you and John will be glad and we can pay a little more morgage. Miss Dearborn asked us what is the object of edducation and I said the object of mine was to help pay off the morgage. She told Aunt M. and I had to sew extra for punishment because she says a morgage is disgrace like stealing or smallpox and it will be all over town that we have one on our farm. Emma Jane is not morgaged nor Richard Carter nor Dr. Winship but the Simpsons are.
I sew brown gingham dresses every afternoon while Emma Jane and the Simpsons are playing house or running around on the logs when their moms aren’t watching. Their moms are worried they might drown, and Aunt M. is worried I’ll get my clothes wet, so she won't let me either. I can play from 4:30 until dinner and a little bit after dinner, as well as Saturday afternoons. I’m happy our cow had a calf, and it’s spotted. It’s going to be a good year for apples and hay, so you and John will be pleased, and we can pay a bit more of the mortgage. Miss Dearborn asked us what the purpose of education is, and I said mine was to help pay off the mortgage. She told Aunt M., and as punishment, I had to sew extra because she says a mortgage is as disgraceful as stealing or smallpox, and everyone will find out we have one on our farm. Emma Jane isn’t mortgaged, nor are Richard Carter or Dr. Winship, but the Simpsons are.
Rise my soul, strain every nerve,
Thy morgage to remove,
Gain thy mother's heartfelt thanks
Thy family's grateful love.
Rise, my soul, put in your best effort,
Work hard to pay off your debt,
Earn your mother's heartfelt gratitude
And your family's thankful love.
Pronounce family QUICK or it won't sound right
Pronounce family quickly, or it won't sound right.
Your loving little friend
Rebecca
Your affectionate little friend
Rebecca
Dear John,—You remember when we tide the new dog in the barn
how he bit the rope and howled I am just like him only the
brick house is the barn and I can not bite Aunt M. because I
must be grateful and edducation is going to be the making of
me and help you pay off the morgage when we grow up.
Your loving
Becky.
Dear John, — You remember when we tied the new dog in the barn and how he bit the rope and howled? I feel just like him, only the brick house is the barn, and I can't bite Aunt M. because I have to be grateful. Education is going to shape my future and help you pay off the mortgage when we grow up. Your loving
Becky.
V
WISDOM'S WAYS
The day of Rebecca's arrival had been Friday, and on the Monday following she began her education at the school which was in Riverboro Centre, about a mile distant. Miss Sawyer borrowed a neighbor's horse and wagon and drove her to the schoolhouse, interviewing the teacher, Miss Dearborn, arranging for books, and generally starting the child on the path that was to lead to boundless knowledge. Miss Dearborn, it may be said in passing, had had no special preparation in the art of teaching. It came to her naturally, so her family said, and perhaps for this reason she, like Tom Tulliver's clergyman tutor, "set about it with that uniformity of method and independence of circumstances which distinguish the actions of animals understood to be under the immediate teaching of Nature." You remember the beaver which a naturalist tells us "busied himself as earnestly in constructing a dam in a room up three pair of stairs in London as if he had been laying his foundation in a lake in Upper Canada. It was his function to build, the absence of water or of possible progeny was an accident for which he was not accountable." In the same manner did Miss Dearborn lay what she fondly imagined to be foundations in the infant mind.
The day Rebecca arrived was Friday, and on the following Monday, she started her education at the school in Riverboro Center, about a mile away. Miss Sawyer borrowed a friend's horse and wagon to take her to the schoolhouse, where she met with the teacher, Miss Dearborn, arranged for books, and generally set the child on the path to endless knowledge. It’s worth mentioning that Miss Dearborn wasn’t formally trained in teaching. Her family claimed it came naturally to her, and perhaps that’s why she, like Tom Tulliver’s clergyman tutor, “approached it with that consistent method and independence from circumstances that characterize the actions of animals believed to be guided directly by Nature.” You remember the beaver that a naturalist said “worked just as diligently building a dam in a room three flights up in London as if he were constructing it in a lake in Upper Canada. It was his job to build; the lack of water or potential offspring was a detail he wasn’t responsible for.” In the same way, Miss Dearborn laid what she thought were foundations in the young mind.
Rebecca walked to school after the first morning. She loved this part of the day's programme. When the dew was not too heavy and the weather was fair there was a short cut through the woods. She turned off the main road, crept through uncle Josh Woodman's bars, waved away Mrs. Carter's cows, trod the short grass of the pasture, with its well-worn path running through gardens of buttercups and white-weed, and groves of ivory leaves and sweet fern. She descended a little hill, jumped from stone to stone across a woodland brook, startling the drowsy frogs, who were always winking and blinking in the morning sun. Then came the "woodsy bit," with her feet pressing the slippery carpet of brown pine needles; the "woodsy bit" so full of dewy morning, surprises,—fungous growths of brilliant orange and crimson springing up around the stumps of dead trees, beautiful things born in a single night; and now and then the miracle of a little clump of waxen Indian pipes, seen just quickly enough to be saved from her careless tread. Then she climbed a stile, went through a grassy meadow, slid under another pair of bars, and came out into the road again having gained nearly half a mile.
Rebecca walked to school after the first morning. She loved this part of her day. When the dew wasn’t too heavy and the weather was nice, there was a shortcut through the woods. She left the main road, squeezed through Uncle Josh Woodman’s bars, waved away Mrs. Carter’s cows, and walked on the short grass of the pasture, following the well-worn path that ran through gardens of buttercups and white clover, with clusters of ivory leaves and sweet fern. She went down a small hill, jumped from stone to stone across a woodland stream, startling the sleepy frogs that were always winking and blinking in the morning sun. Then came the "woodsy bit," where her feet pressed into the slippery carpet of brown pine needles; that “woodsy bit” so full of dewy morning surprises—fungus growths of bright orange and crimson popping up around the stumps of dead trees, beautiful things that sprang up overnight; and now and then the miracle of a little cluster of waxy Indian pipes, spotted just in time to avoid crushing them underfoot. After that, she climbed a stile, crossed a grassy meadow, slid under another set of bars, and came out onto the road again, having gained nearly half a mile.
How delicious it all was! Rebecca clasped her Quackenbos's Grammar and Greenleaf's Arithmetic with a joyful sense of knowing her lessons. Her dinner pail swung from her right hand, and she had a blissful consciousness of the two soda biscuits spread with butter and syrup, the baked cup-custard, the doughnut, and the square of hard gingerbread. Sometimes she said whatever "piece" she was going to speak on the next Friday afternoon.
How delicious it all was! Rebecca held her Quackenbos's Grammar and Greenleaf's Arithmetic with a happy sense of mastering her lessons. Her lunch pail swung from her right hand, and she felt blissfully aware of the two soda biscuits covered in butter and syrup, the baked custard, the doughnut, and the piece of hard gingerbread. Sometimes she practiced whatever "piece" she was going to present the following Friday afternoon.
"A soldier of the Legion lay dying in Algiers,
There was lack of woman's nursing, there was dearth of
woman's tears."
"A soldier of the Legion was dying in Algiers,
There was no woman to care for him, and no
woman's tears were shed."
How she loved the swing and the sentiment of it! How her young voice quivered whenever she came to the refrain:—
How she loved the swing and how it made her feel! Her young voice would tremble every time she got to the refrain:—
"But we'll meet no more at Bingen, dear Bingen on the Rhine."
"But we'll never meet again at Bingen, dear Bingen on the Rhine."
It always sounded beautiful in her ears, as she sent her tearful little treble into the clear morning air. Another early favorite (for we must remember that Rebecca's only knowledge of the great world of poetry consisted of the selections in vogue in school readers) was:—
It always sounded lovely in her ears as she sent her tearful little voice into the clear morning air. Another early favorite (since we must remember that Rebecca's only experience with the vast world of poetry came from the selections popular in school readers) was:—
"Woodman, spare that tree!
Touch not a single bough!
In youth it sheltered me,
And I'll protect it now."
"Woodman, leave that tree alone!
Don't touch a single branch!
In my youth, it sheltered me,
And I'll protect it now."
When Emma Jane Perkins walked through the "short cut" with her, the two children used to render this with appropriate dramatic action. Emma Jane always chose to be the woodman because she had nothing to do but raise on high an imaginary axe. On the one occasion when she essayed the part of the tree's romantic protector, she represented herself as feeling "so awful foolish" that she refused to undertake it again, much to the secret delight of Rebecca, who found the woodman's role much too tame for her vaulting ambition. She reveled in the impassioned appeal of the poet, and implored the ruthless woodman to be as brutal as possible with the axe, so that she might properly put greater spirit into her lines. One morning, feeling more frisky than usual, she fell upon her knees and wept in the woodman's petticoat. Curiously enough, her sense of proportion rejected this as soon as it was done.
When Emma Jane Perkins walked through the "short cut" with her, the two kids always acted it out dramatically. Emma Jane always wanted to be the woodman because all she had to do was raise an imaginary axe. One time, when she tried playing the role of the tree's romantic protector, she felt "so incredibly foolish" that she refused to do it again, much to the secret delight of Rebecca, who thought the woodman's part was too boring for her ambitious nature. She thrived on the passionate appeal of the poet and begged the harsh woodman to be as ruthless as possible with the axe so she could really bring more energy to her lines. One morning, feeling more playful than usual, she dropped to her knees and cried in the woodman's petticoat. Interestingly, her sense of balance rejected this as soon as it happened.
"That wasn't right, it was silly, Emma Jane; but I'll tell you where it might come in—in Give me Three Grains of Corn. You be the mother, and I'll be the famishing Irish child. For pity's sake put the axe down; you are not the woodman any longer!"
"That wasn't right, it was silly, Emma Jane; but I'll tell you where it might fit in—in Give me Three Grains of Corn. You be the mother, and I'll be the starving Irish child. For goodness' sake, put the axe down; you're not the woodman anymore!"
"What'll I do with my hands, then?" asked Emma Jane.
"What should I do with my hands, then?" asked Emma Jane.
"Whatever you like," Rebecca answered wearily; "you're just a mother—that's all. What does YOUR mother do with her hands? Now here goes!
"Whatever you want," Rebecca replied tiredly; "you're just a mom—that's it. What does YOUR mom do with her hands? Now here we go!
"'Give me three grains of corn, mother,
Only three grains of corn,
'T will keep the little life I have
Till the coming of the morn.'"
"'Give me three grains of corn, mom,
Just three grains of corn,
It'll sustain the little life I have
Until morning comes.'"
This sort of thing made Emma Jane nervous and fidgety, but she was Rebecca's slave and hugged her chains, no matter how uncomfortable they made her.
This kind of thing made Emma Jane anxious and restless, but she was Rebecca's devoted follower and embraced her limitations, no matter how uncomfortable they were.
At the last pair of bars the two girls were sometimes met by a detachment of the Simpson children, who lived in a black house with a red door and a red barn behind, on the Blueberry Plains road. Rebecca felt an interest in the Simpsons from the first, because there were so many of them and they were so patched and darned, just like her own brood at the home farm.
At the last set of bars, the two girls sometimes ran into a group of the Simpson kids, who lived in a black house with a red door and a red barn out back, along the Blueberry Plains road. From the start, Rebecca was intrigued by the Simpsons because there were so many of them and they looked so patched up and mended, just like her own crew at the home farm.
The little schoolhouse with its flagpole on top and its two doors in front, one for boys and the other for girls, stood on the crest of a hill, with rolling fields and meadows on one side, a stretch of pine woods on the other, and the river glinting and sparkling in the distance. It boasted no attractions within. All was as bare and ugly and uncomfortable as it well could be, for the villages along the river expended so much money in repairing and rebuilding bridges that they were obliged to be very economical in school privileges. The teacher's desk and chair stood on a platform in one corner; there was an uncouth stove, never blackened oftener than once a year, a map of the United States, two black-boards, a ten-quart tin pail of water and long-handled dipper on a corner shelf, and wooden desks and benches for the scholars, who only numbered twenty in Rebecca's time. The seats were higher in the back of the room, and the more advanced and longer-legged pupils sat there, the position being greatly to be envied, as they were at once nearer to the windows and farther from the teacher.
The small schoolhouse, complete with a flagpole and two doors—one for boys and one for girls—sat on top of a hill, surrounded by rolling fields and meadows on one side, a stretch of pine forest on the other, and the river shimmering in the distance. Inside, it had no charm. Everything was as bare, unattractive, and uncomfortable as it could be, since the villages along the river spent so much money repairing and rebuilding bridges that they had to be very frugal with school resources. A teacher's desk and chair were positioned on a platform in one corner; there was an awkward stove, cleaned only once a year, a map of the United States, two blackboards, a ten-quart tin pail of water with a long-handled dipper on a corner shelf, and wooden desks and benches for the students, who numbered only twenty during Rebecca's time. The seats were higher at the back of the room, where the more advanced and taller students sat; this spot was highly coveted because it was closer to the windows and farther from the teacher.
There were classes of a sort, although nobody, broadly speaking, studied the same book with anybody else, or had arrived at the same degree of proficiency in any one branch of learning. Rebecca in particular was so difficult to classify that Miss Dearborn at the end of a fortnight gave up the attempt altogether. She read with Dick Carter and Living Perkins, who were fitting for the academy; recited arithmetic with lisping little Thuthan Thimpthon; geography with Emma Jane Perkins, and grammar after school hours to Miss Dearborn alone. Full to the brim as she was of clever thoughts and quaint fancies, she made at first but a poor hand at composition. The labor of writing and spelling, with the added difficulties of punctuation and capitals, interfered sadly with the free expression of ideas. She took history with Alice Robinson's class, which was attacking the subject of the Revolution, while Rebecca was bidden to begin with the discovery of America. In a week she had mastered the course of events up to the Revolution, and in ten days had arrived at Yorktown, where the class had apparently established summer quarters. Then finding that extra effort would only result in her reciting with the oldest Simpson boy, she deliberately held herself back, for wisdom's ways were not those of pleasantness nor her paths those of peace if one were compelled to tread them in the company of Seesaw Simpson. Samuel Simpson was generally called Seesaw, because of his difficulty in making up his mind. Whether it were a question of fact, of spelling, or of date, of going swimming or fishing, of choosing a book in the Sunday-school library or a stick of candy at the village store, he had no sooner determined on one plan of action than his wish fondly reverted to the opposite one. Seesaw was pale, flaxen haired, blue eyed, round shouldered, and given to stammering when nervous. Perhaps because of his very weakness Rebecca's decision of character had a fascination for him, and although she snubbed him to the verge of madness, he could never keep his eyes away from her. The force with which she tied her shoe when the lacing came undone, the flirt over shoulder she gave her black braid when she was excited or warm, her manner of studying,—book on desk, arms folded, eyes fixed on the opposite wall,—all had an abiding charm for Seesaw Simpson. When, having obtained permission, she walked to the water pail in the corner and drank from the dipper, unseen forces dragged Seesaw from his seat to go and drink after her. It was not only that there was something akin to association and intimacy in drinking next, but there was the fearful joy of meeting her in transit and receiving a cold and disdainful look from her wonderful eyes.
There were some classes, although, generally speaking, no one studied the same book as anyone else, nor did they reach the same level of skill in any one subject. Rebecca, in particular, was so hard to categorize that Miss Dearborn gave up trying after two weeks. She read with Dick Carter and Living Perkins, who were preparing for the academy; did arithmetic with the lisping little Thuthan Thimpthon; learned geography with Emma Jane Perkins, and practiced grammar after school hours with Miss Dearborn alone. Even though she was full of smart ideas and quirky thoughts, she initially struggled with writing. The effort of writing and spelling, along with the challenges of punctuation and capitalization, got in the way of expressing her ideas freely. She took history with Alice Robinson's class, which was tackling the topic of the Revolution, while Rebecca was told to start with the discovery of America. Within a week, she had grasped the sequence of events leading up to the Revolution, and in ten days, she had gotten to Yorktown, where the class seemed to have set up camp for the summer. Realizing that pushing herself harder would only land her reciting with the oldest Simpson boy, she intentionally held herself back because the pursuit of knowledge wasn't enjoyable or peaceful if she had to do it in the company of Seesaw Simpson. Samuel Simpson was often called Seesaw due to his indecisiveness. Whether it was a matter of fact, spelling, or dates, deciding to go swimming or fishing, picking a book from the Sunday-school library, or choosing a piece of candy at the village store, he would quickly change his mind as soon as he made a decision. Seesaw was pale, had flaxen hair, blue eyes, rounded shoulders, and he stammered when nervous. Perhaps because of his weakness, Rebecca's strong character intrigued him, and despite her teasing him to the point of frustration, he couldn’t take his eyes off her. The way she tied her shoe when the laces came undone, the quick flip of her black braid when she was excited or warm, her studying stance—book on the desk, arms crossed, gaze fixed on the opposite wall—were all irresistibly charming to Seesaw Simpson. When she walked over to the water pail in the corner and drank from the dipper, unseen forces compelled Seesaw to get up and drink after her. It was not just that there was something intimate about drinking right after her, but there was also that thrilling joy of encountering her and receiving a cold, disdainful look from her amazing eyes.
On a certain warm day in summer Rebecca's thirst exceeded the bounds of propriety. When she asked a third time for permission to quench it at the common fountain Miss Dearborn nodded "yes," but lifted her eyebrows unpleasantly as Rebecca neared the desk. As she replaced the dipper Seesaw promptly raised his hand, and Miss Dearborn indicated a weary affirmative.
On a warm summer day, Rebecca's thirst became too much to handle. When she asked for permission to drink from the common fountain for the third time, Miss Dearborn nodded "yes," but raised her eyebrows disapprovingly as Rebecca approached the desk. After she put down the dipper, Seesaw immediately raised his hand, and Miss Dearborn gave a tired nod in response.
"What is the matter with you, Rebecca?" she asked.
"What’s wrong with you, Rebecca?" she asked.
"I had salt mackerel for breakfast," answered Rebecca.
"I had salt mackerel for breakfast," Rebecca replied.
There seemed nothing humorous about this reply, which was merely the statement of a fact, but an irrepressible titter ran through the school. Miss Dearborn did not enjoy jokes neither made nor understood by herself, and her face flushed.
There was nothing funny about this response; it was just a statement of fact, but an uncontrollable giggle went through the school. Miss Dearborn didn't appreciate jokes that she neither made nor understood, and her face turned red.
"I think you had better stand by the pail for five minutes, Rebecca; it may help you to control your thirst."
"I think you should stand by the bucket for five minutes, Rebecca; it might help you manage your thirst."
Rebecca's heart fluttered. She to stand in the corner by the water pail and be stared at by all the scholars! She unconsciously made a gesture of angry dissent and moved a step nearer her seat, but was arrested by Miss Dearborn's command in a still firmer voice.
Rebecca's heart raced. She had to stand in the corner by the water pail and be stared at by all the scholars! She instinctively made a gesture of angry disagreement and took a step closer to her seat, but halted at Miss Dearborn's command in an even firmer voice.
"Stand by the pail, Rebecca! Samuel, how many times have you asked for water to-day?"
"Stand by the bucket, Rebecca! Samuel, how many times have you asked for water today?"
"This is the f-f-fourth."
"This is the fourth."
"Don't touch the dipper, please. The school has done nothing but drink this afternoon; it has had no time whatever to study. I suppose you had something salt for breakfast, Samuel?" queried Miss Dearborn with sarcasm.
"Please don't touch the dipper. The school has done nothing but drink this afternoon; it hasn't had any time to study at all. I guess you had something salty for breakfast, Samuel?" Miss Dearborn asked sarcastically.
"I had m-m-mackerel, j-just like Reb-b-becca." (Irrepressible giggles by the school.)
"I had m-m-mackerel, j-just like Reb-b-becca." (Irrepressible giggles by the school.)
"I judged so. Stand by the other side of the pail, Samuel."
"I thought so. Stand on the other side of the bucket, Samuel."
Rebecca's head was bowed with shame and wrath. Life looked too black a thing to be endured. The punishment was bad enough, but to be coupled in correction with Seesaw Simpson was beyond human endurance.
Rebecca's head was down in shame and anger. Life felt too dark to bear. The punishment was tough enough, but being forced to face it with Seesaw Simpson was more than anyone could handle.
Singing was the last exercise in the afternoon, and Minnie Smellie chose Shall we Gather at the River? It was a baleful choice and seemed to hold some secret and subtle association with the situation and general progress of events; or at any rate there was apparently some obscure reason for the energy and vim with which the scholars shouted the choral invitation again and again:—
Singing was the last activity of the afternoon, and Minnie Smellie picked "Shall We Gather at the River?" It was an ominous choice and seemed to carry some hidden and subtle connection to the situation and overall flow of events; or at the very least, there was evidently some unclear reason for the energy and enthusiasm with which the students sang the choral invitation over and over again:—
"Shall we gather at the river,
The beautiful, the beautiful river?"
"Shall we meet at the river,
The lovely, the lovely river?"
Miss Dearborn stole a look at Rebecca's bent head and was frightened. The child's face was pale save for two red spots glowing on her cheeks. Tears hung on her lashes; her breath came and went quickly, and the hand that held her pocket handkerchief trembled like a leaf.
Miss Dearborn stole a look at Rebecca's lowered head and felt scared. The child's face was pale except for two red spots glowing on her cheeks. Tears clung to her eyelashes; her breath came rapidly, and the hand that held her pocket handkerchief shook like a leaf.
"You may go to your seat, Rebecca," said Miss Dearborn at the end of the first song. "Samuel, stay where you are till the close of school. And let me tell you, scholars, that I asked Rebecca to stand by the pail only to break up this habit of incessant drinking, which is nothing but empty-mindedness and desire to walk to and fro over the floor. Every time Rebecca has asked for a drink to-day the whole school has gone to the pail one after another. She is really thirsty, and I dare say I ought to have punished you for following her example, not her for setting it. What shall we sing now, Alice?"
"You can take your seat now, Rebecca," Miss Dearborn said at the end of the first song. "Samuel, stay where you are until the end of school. And let me tell you, students, that I asked Rebecca to stand by the water pail only to break up this habit of constant drinking, which is nothing but idleness and a desire to walk back and forth across the floor. Every time Rebecca has asked for a drink today, the entire class has lined up at the pail one after another. She’s really thirsty, and I suppose I should have punished you for following her example, not her for setting it. What should we sing now, Alice?"
"The Old Oaken Bucket, please."
"The Old Oaken Bucket, please."
"Think of something dry, Alice, and change the subject. Yes, The Star Spangled Banner if you like, or anything else."
"Think of something boring, Alice, and switch topics. Yeah, The Star Spangled Banner if you want, or anything else."
Rebecca sank into her seat and pulled the singing book from her desk. Miss Dearborn's public explanation had shifted some of the weight from her heart, and she felt a trifle raised in her self-esteem.
Rebecca sank into her seat and took the singing book from her desk. Miss Dearborn's public explanation had lifted some of the burden from her heart, and she felt a bit better about herself.
Under cover of the general relaxation of singing, votive offerings of respectful sympathy began to make their appearance at her shrine. Living Perkins, who could not sing, dropped a piece of maple sugar in her lap as he passed her on his way to the blackboard to draw the map of Maine. Alice Robinson rolled a perfectly new slate pencil over the floor with her foot until it reached Rebecca's place, while her seat-mate, Emma Jane, had made up a little mound of paper balls and labeled them "Bullets for you know who."
Under the general ease of singing, gifts of respectful sympathy started to show up at her shrine. Living Perkins, who couldn't sing, dropped a piece of maple sugar in her lap as he walked by on his way to the blackboard to draw the map of Maine. Alice Robinson rolled a brand-new slate pencil across the floor with her foot until it landed at Rebecca's spot, while her seatmate, Emma Jane, had made a little pile of paper balls and labeled them "Bullets for you know who."
Altogether existence grew brighter, and when she was left alone with the teacher for her grammar lesson she had nearly recovered her equanimity, which was more than Miss Dearborn had. The last clattering foot had echoed through the hall, Seesaw's backward glance of penitence had been met and answered defiantly by one of cold disdain.
Altogether life felt brighter, and when she was alone with the teacher for her grammar lesson, she had almost regained her composure, which was more than Miss Dearborn could say. The last clattering footstep had echoed through the hall, Seesaw's backward glance of apology met with a cold, defiant stare.
"Rebecca, I am afraid I punished you more than I meant," said Miss Dearborn, who was only eighteen herself, and in her year of teaching country schools had never encountered a child like Rebecca.
"Rebecca, I'm sorry I punished you more than I intended," said Miss Dearborn, who was only eighteen herself and, in her year of teaching in country schools, had never met a child like Rebecca.
"I hadn't missed a question this whole day, nor whispered either," quavered the culprit; "and I don't think I ought to be shamed just for drinking."
"I haven't missed a single question all day, nor have I whispered," the culprit stammered, "and I don't think I should be ashamed just for drinking."
"You started all the others, or it seemed as if you did. Whatever you do they all do, whether you laugh, or miss, or write notes, or ask to leave the room, or drink; and it must be stopped."
"You started all the others, or it looked that way. Whatever you do, they all do, whether you laugh, or miss, or write notes, or ask to leave the room, or drink; and it has to stop."
"Sam Simpson is a copycoat!" stormed Rebecca "I wouldn't have minded standing in the corner alone—that is, not so very much; but I couldn't bear standing with him."
"Sam Simpson is such a copycat!" Rebecca shouted. "I wouldn't have minded standing in the corner by myself—that is, not too much; but I just couldn't stand being next to him."
"I saw that you couldn't, and that's the reason I told you to take your seat, and left him in the corner. Remember that you are a stranger in the place, and they take more notice of what you do, so you must be careful. Now let's have our conjugations. Give me the verb 'to be,' potential mood, past perfect tense."
"I noticed you couldn't, and that's why I told you to take your seat and left him in the corner. Keep in mind that you're a newcomer here, and people pay more attention to what you do, so you need to be careful. Now, let's go over our conjugations. Give me the verb 'to be,' potential mood, past perfect tense."
"I might have been "We might have been Thou mightst have been You might have been He might have been They might have been."
"I might have been "We might have been You might have been You might have been He might have been They might have been."
"Give me an example, please."
"Please give me an example."
"I might have been glad
Thou mightst have been glad
He, she, or it might have been glad."
"I could have been happy
You could have been happy
He, she, or it could have been happy."
"'He' or 'she' might have been glad because they are masculine and feminine, but could 'it' have been glad?" asked Miss Dearborn, who was very fond of splitting hairs.
"'He' or 'she' might have been happy because they are masculine and feminine, but could 'it' have been happy?" asked Miss Dearborn, who really liked to split hairs.
"Why not?" asked Rebecca
"Why not?" Rebecca asked.
"Because 'it' is neuter gender."
"Because 'it' is neutral."
"Couldn't we say, 'The kitten might have been glad if it had known it was not going to be drowned'?"
"Couldn’t we say, 'The kitten might have been happy if it had known it wasn’t going to be drowned'?"
"Ye—es," Miss Dearborn answered hesitatingly, never very sure of herself under Rebecca's fire; "but though we often speak of a baby, a chicken, or a kitten as 'it,' they are really masculine or feminine gender, not neuter."
"Yes," Miss Dearborn replied hesitantly, never very confident under Rebecca's intense questioning; "but even though we often refer to a baby, a chicken, or a kitten as 'it,' they actually have masculine or feminine gender, not neuter."
Rebecca reflected a long moment and then asked, "Is a hollyhock neuter?"
Rebecca paused for a moment and then asked, "Is a hollyhock gender-neutral?"
"Oh yes, of course it is, Rebecca"
"Oh yes, of course it is, Rebecca."
"Well, couldn't we say, 'The hollyhock might have been glad to see the rain, but there was a weak little hollyhock bud growing out of its stalk and it was afraid that that might be hurt by the storm; so the big hollyhock was kind of afraid, instead of being real glad'?"
"Well, couldn't we say, 'The hollyhock might have been happy to see the rain, but there was a little weak hollyhock bud growing out of its stalk and it was worried that it might get hurt by the storm; so the big hollyhock was a bit scared, instead of being truly happy'?"
Miss Dearborn looked puzzled as she answered, "Of course, Rebecca, hollyhocks could not be sorry, or glad, or afraid, really."
Miss Dearborn looked confused as she replied, "Of course, Rebecca, hollyhocks can't be sorry, or glad, or afraid, really."
"We can't tell, I s'pose," replied the child; "but I think they are, anyway. Now what shall I say?"
"We can't know for sure, I guess," replied the child; "but I think they are, regardless. So what should I say now?"
"The subjunctive mood, past perfect tense of the verb 'to know.'"
"The subjunctive mood, past perfect tense of the verb 'to know.'"
"If I had known "If we had known If thou hadst known If you had known If he had known If they had known.
"If I had known If we had known If you had known If you had known If he had known If they had known."
"Oh, it is the saddest tense," sighed Rebecca with a little break in her voice; "nothing but IFS, IFS, IFS! And it makes you feel that if they only HAD known, things might have been better!"
"Oh, it's the saddest tense," sighed Rebecca with a slight crack in her voice; "nothing but IFS, IFS, IFS! And it makes you feel that if they had only known, things might have been better!"
Miss Dearborn had not thought of it before, but on reflection she believed the subjunctive mood was a "sad" one and "if" rather a sorry "part of speech."
Miss Dearborn hadn't considered it before, but after thinking it over, she believed the subjunctive mood was a "sad" one and that "if" was a rather unfortunate "part of speech."
"Give me some more examples of the subjunctive, Rebecca, and that will do for this afternoon," she said.
"Give me more examples of the subjunctive, Rebecca, and that will be enough for this afternoon," she said.
"If I had not loved mackerel I should not have been thirsty;" said Rebecca with an April smile, as she closed her grammar. "If thou hadst loved me truly thou wouldst not have stood me up in the corner. If Samuel had not loved wickedness he would not have followed me to the water pail."
"If I hadn’t loved mackerel, I wouldn’t be thirsty," Rebecca said with a cheerful smile, as she shut her grammar book. "If you had truly loved me, you wouldn’t have left me standing in the corner. If Samuel hadn’t loved mischief, he wouldn’t have followed me to the water pail."
"And if Rebecca had loved the rules of the school she would have controlled her thirst," finished Miss Dearborn with a kiss, and the two parted friends.
"And if Rebecca had loved the school's rules, she would have controlled her thirst," concluded Miss Dearborn with a kiss, and the two parted as friends.
VI
SUNSHINE IN A SHADY PLACE
The little schoolhouse on the hill had its moments of triumph as well as its scenes of tribulation, but it was fortunate that Rebecca had her books and her new acquaintances to keep her interested and occupied, or life would have gone heavily with her that first summer in Riverboro. She tried to like her aunt Miranda (the idea of loving her had been given up at the moment of meeting), but failed ignominiously in the attempt. She was a very faulty and passionately human child, with no aspirations towards being an angel of the house, but she had a sense of duty and a desire to be good,—respectably, decently good. Whenever she fell below this self-imposed standard she was miserable. She did not like to be under her aunt's roof, eating bread, wearing clothes, and studying books provided by her, and dislike her so heartily all the time. She felt instinctively that this was wrong and mean, and whenever the feeling of remorse was strong within her she made a desperate effort to please her grim and difficult relative. But how could she succeed when she was never herself in her aunt Miranda's presence? The searching look of the eyes, the sharp voice, the hard knotty fingers, the thin straight lips, the long silences, the "front-piece" that didn't match her hair, the very obvious "parting" that seemed sewed in with linen thread on black net,—there was not a single item that appealed to Rebecca. There are certain narrow, unimaginative, and autocratic old people who seem to call out the most mischievous, and sometimes the worst traits in children. Miss Miranda, had she lived in a populous neighborhood, would have had her doorbell pulled, her gate tied up, or "dirt traps" set in her garden paths. The Simpson twins stood in such awe of her that they could not be persuaded to come to the side door even when Miss Jane held gingerbread cookies in her outstretched hands.
The little schoolhouse on the hill had its moments of success as well as its struggles, but Rebecca was lucky to have her books and her new friends to keep her engaged and busy; otherwise, her first summer in Riverboro would have been quite bleak. She tried to bond with her aunt Miranda (the idea of loving her was abandoned the moment they met), but she failed miserably. She was a flawed and passionate child, with no desire to be the perfect little housekeeper, but she did have a sense of duty and wanted to be a decent person—respectably, decently good. Whenever she fell short of this self-imposed standard, she felt awful. She disliked living under her aunt's roof, eating the bread, wearing the clothes, and studying the books that her aunt provided, all while feeling deep resentment towards her. She instinctively knew this was wrong and unfair, and when her guilt became overwhelming, she made a desperate attempt to please her stern and challenging relative. But how could she succeed when she was never truly herself around her aunt Miranda? The piercing gaze, the sharp voice, the knobby fingers, the thin straight lips, the long silences, the "front-piece" that didn't match her hair, the painfully obvious "parting" that seemed sewn in with linen thread on black net—none of it appealed to Rebecca. Some narrow-minded, impatient, and authoritarian old people seem to bring out the most troublesome and sometimes the worst traits in kids. If Miss Miranda had lived in a busier neighborhood, her doorbell would have been rung off the hook, her gate tied shut, or "dirt traps" set in her garden paths. The Simpson twins were so intimidated by her that they could not be convinced to come to the side door even when Miss Jane offered them gingerbread cookies.
It is needless to say that Rebecca irritated her aunt with every breath she drew. She continually forgot and started up the front stairs because it was the shortest route to her bedroom; she left the dipper on the kitchen shelf instead of hanging it up over the pail; she sat in the chair the cat liked best; she was willing to go on errands, but often forgot what she was sent for; she left the screen doors ajar, so that flies came in; her tongue was ever in motion; she sang or whistled when she was picking up chips; she was always messing with flowers, putting them in vases, pinning them on her dress, and sticking them in her hat; finally she was an everlasting reminder of her foolish, worthless father, whose handsome face and engaging manner had so deceived Aurelia, and perhaps, if the facts were known, others besides Aurelia. The Randalls were aliens. They had not been born in Riverboro nor even in York County. Miranda would have allowed, on compulsion, that in the nature of things a large number of persons must necessarily be born outside this sacred precinct; but she had her opinion of them, and it was not a flattering one. Now if Hannah had come—Hannah took after the other side of the house; she was "all Sawyer." (Poor Hannah! that was true!) Hannah spoke only when spoken to, instead of first, last, and all the time; Hannah at fourteen was a member of the church; Hannah liked to knit; Hannah was, probably, or would have been, a pattern of all the smaller virtues; instead of which here was this black-haired gypsy, with eyes as big as cartwheels, installed as a member of the household.
It goes without saying that Rebecca drove her aunt crazy with every breath she took. She constantly forgot and rushed up the front stairs because it was the quickest way to her bedroom; she left the dipper on the kitchen shelf instead of hanging it over the pail; she sat in the chair the cat loved best; she was willing to run errands but often forgot what she was sent for; she left the screen doors open, letting flies in; her mouth was always moving; she sang or whistled while picking up sticks; she was always messing with flowers, putting them in vases, pinning them on her dress, and sticking them in her hat; and lastly, she was a constant reminder of her foolish, worthless father, whose good looks and charming personality had so deceived Aurelia, and maybe, if the truth be told, others besides Aurelia. The Randalls were outsiders. They hadn't been born in Riverboro or even in York County. Miranda would have reluctantly acknowledged that a good number of people must be born outside this sacred area, but she had her opinions about them, and they weren’t flattering. Now if Hannah had come—Hannah took after the other side of the family; she was "all Sawyer." (Poor Hannah! That was true!) Hannah only spoke when spoken to, instead of talking first, last, and all the time; Hannah, at fourteen, was a church member; Hannah liked to knit; Hannah was probably, or would have been, a model of all the smaller virtues; instead, here was this dark-haired gypsy, with eyes as big as cartwheels, installed as a member of the household.
What sunshine in a shady place was aunt Jane to Rebecca! Aunt Jane with her quiet voice, her understanding eyes, her ready excuses, in these first difficult weeks, when the impulsive little stranger was trying to settle down into the "brick house ways." She did learn them, in part, and by degrees, and the constant fitting of herself to these new and difficult standards of conduct seemed to make her older than ever for her years.
What a breath of fresh air Aunt Jane was for Rebecca! Aunt Jane, with her calm voice, her understanding eyes, and her thoughtful reassurances, was a comforting presence during those challenging early weeks when the spirited little newcomer was trying to adapt to the "brick house ways." She did learn them, gradually, and the constant effort to adjust to these new and tough standards of behavior made her seem even older than her age.
The child took her sewing and sat beside aunt Jane in the kitchen while aunt Miranda had the post of observation at the sitting-room window. Sometimes they would work on the side porch where the clematis and woodbine shaded them from the hot sun. To Rebecca the lengths of brown gingham were interminable. She made hard work of sewing, broke the thread, dropped her thimble into the syringa bushes, pricked her finger, wiped the perspiration from her forehead, could not match the checks, puckered the seams. She polished her needles to nothing, pushing them in and out of the emery strawberry, but they always squeaked. Still aunt Jane's patience held good, and some small measure of skill was creeping into Rebecca's fingers, fingers that held pencil, paint brush, and pen so cleverly and were so clumsy with the dainty little needle.
The child took her sewing and sat next to Aunt Jane in the kitchen while Aunt Miranda kept watch from the sitting room window. Sometimes they would work on the side porch where the clematis and woodbine provided shade from the hot sun. To Rebecca, the lengths of brown gingham seemed endless. She struggled with her sewing, broke the thread, dropped her thimble into the lilac bushes, pricked her finger, wiped the sweat from her forehead, couldn’t match the checks, and puckered the seams. She wore down her needles, pushing them in and out of the emery strawberry, but they always squeaked. Still, Aunt Jane remained patient, and some small amount of skill was beginning to develop in Rebecca's fingers, fingers that expertly handled a pencil, paintbrush, and pen but felt so clumsy with the delicate little needle.
When the first brown gingham frock was completed, the child seized what she thought an opportune moment and asked her aunt Miranda if she might have another color for the next one.
When the first brown gingham dress was finished, the child took what she thought was a good opportunity and asked her Aunt Miranda if she could have a different color for the next one.
"I bought a whole piece of the brown," said Miranda laconically. "That'll give you two more dresses, with plenty for new sleeves, and to patch and let down with, an' be more economical."
"I bought an entire piece of brown fabric," Miranda said casually. "That'll get you two more dresses, plenty for new sleeves, and for patching and letting down, and it’ll be more cost-effective."
"I know. But Mr. Watson says he'll take back part of it, and let us have pink and blue for the same price."
"I know. But Mr. Watson said he'll take back some of it and let us have pink and blue for the same price."
"Did you ask him?"
"Did you ask him yet?"
"Yes'm."
"Yes, ma'am."
"It was none o' your business."
"It was none of your business."
"I was helping Emma Jane choose aprons, and didn't think you'd mind which color I had. Pink keeps clean just as nice as brown, and Mr. Watson says it'll boil without fading."
"I was helping Emma Jane pick out aprons, and I didn’t think you’d care which color I chose. Pink stays clean just as well as brown, and Mr. Watson says it won’t fade when it’s boiled."
"Mr. Watson 's a splendid judge of washing, I guess. I don't approve of children being rigged out in fancy colors, but I'll see what your aunt Jane thinks."
"Mr. Watson is a great judge of laundry, I suppose. I don't think children should be dressed in flashy colors, but I'll check with your Aunt Jane."
"I think it would be all right to let Rebecca have one pink and one blue gingham," said Jane. "A child gets tired of sewing on one color. It's only natural she should long for a change; besides she'd look like a charity child always wearing the same brown with a white apron. And it's dreadful unbecoming to her!"
"I think it’s totally fine to let Rebecca have one pink and one blue gingham," said Jane. "Kids get bored sewing with just one color. It’s only natural for her to want a change; plus, she’d look like a charity kid always in the same brown with a white apron. And it’s really unflattering on her!"
"'Handsome is as handsome does,' say I. Rebecca never'll come to grief along of her beauty, that's certain, and there's no use in humoring her to think about her looks. I believe she's vain as a peacock now, without anything to be vain of."
"'Handsome is as handsome does,' I say. Rebecca will never face trouble because of her beauty, that's for sure, and there's no point in encouraging her to think about her looks. I believe she's as vain as a peacock now, without having anything to be vain about."
"She's young and attracted to bright things—that's all. I remember well enough how I felt at her age."
"She's young and drawn to shiny things—that's all. I remember how I felt at her age pretty clearly."
"You was considerable of a fool at her age, Jane."
"You were quite a fool at her age, Jane."
"Yes, I was, thank the Lord! I only wish I'd known how to take a little of my foolishness along with me, as some folks do, to brighten my declining years."
"Yes, I was, thank God! I just wish I had known how to bring some of my silliness with me, like some people do, to make my later years more enjoyable."
There finally was a pink gingham, and when it was nicely finished, aunt Jane gave Rebecca a delightful surprise. She showed her how to make a pretty trimming of narrow white linen tape, by folding it in pointed shapes and sewing it down very flat with neat little stitches.
There finally was a pink gingham, and when it was nicely finished, Aunt Jane gave Rebecca a wonderful surprise. She showed her how to make a pretty trim with narrow white linen tape by folding it into pointed shapes and sewing it down flat with neat little stitches.
"It'll be good fancy work for you, Rebecca; for your aunt Miranda won't like to see you always reading in the long winter evenings. Now if you think you can baste two rows of white tape round the bottom of your pink skirt and keep it straight by the checks, I'll stitch them on for you and trim the waist and sleeves with pointed tape-trimming, so the dress'll be real pretty for second best."
"It'll be nice fancy work for you, Rebecca; because your Aunt Miranda won't want to see you just reading all the long winter evenings. Now, if you think you can baste two rows of white tape around the bottom of your pink skirt and keep it straight with the checks, I'll stitch them on for you and trim the waist and sleeves with pointed tape-trimming, so the dress will look really pretty for second best."
Rebecca's joy knew no bounds. "I'll baste like a house afire!" she exclaimed. "It's a thousand yards round that skirt, as well I know, having hemmed it; but I could sew pretty trimming on if it was from here to Milltown. Oh! do you think aunt Mirandy'll ever let me go to Milltown with Mr. Cobb? He's asked me again, you know; but one Saturday I had to pick strawberries, and another it rained, and I don't think she really approves of my going. It's TWENTY-NINE minutes past four, aunt Jane, and Alice Robinson has been sitting under the currant bushes for a long time waiting for me. Can I go and play?"
Rebecca's happiness was off the charts. "I'll get right to it!" she shouted. "That skirt is a thousand yards around, I know because I hemmed it; but I could add some nice trimming even if it was from here to Milltown. Oh! Do you think Aunt Mirandy will ever let me go to Milltown with Mr. Cobb? He asked me again, you know; but one Saturday I had to pick strawberries, and another it rained, and I don’t think she really likes the idea of me going. It’s TWENTY-NINE minutes past four, Aunt Jane, and Alice Robinson has been sitting under the currant bushes for a long time waiting for me. Can I go and play?"
"Yes, you may go, and you'd better run as far as you can out behind the barn, so 't your noise won't distract your aunt Mirandy. I see Susan Simpson and the twins and Emma Jane Perkins hiding behind the fence."
"Yes, you can go, and you'd better run as far as you can behind the barn, so your noise won't distract Aunt Mirandy. I see Susan Simpson and the twins and Emma Jane Perkins hiding behind the fence."
Rebecca leaped off the porch, snatched Alice Robinson from under the currant bushes, and, what was much more difficult, succeeded, by means of a complicated system of signals, in getting Emma Jane away from the Simpson party and giving them the slip altogether. They were much too small for certain pleasurable activities planned for that afternoon; but they were not to be despised, for they had the most fascinating dooryard in the village. In it, in bewildering confusion, were old sleighs, pungs, horse rakes, hogsheads, settees without backs, bed-steads without heads, in all stages of disability, and never the same on two consecutive days. Mrs. Simpson was seldom at home, and even when she was, had little concern as to what happened on the premises. A favorite diversion was to make the house into a fort, gallantly held by a handful of American soldiers against a besieging force of the British army. Great care was used in apportioning the parts, for there was no disposition to let anybody win but the Americans. Seesaw Simpson was usually made commander-in-chief of the British army, and a limp and uncertain one he was, capable, with his contradictory orders and his fondness for the extreme rear, of leading any regiment to an inglorious death. Sometimes the long-suffering house was a log hut, and the brave settlers defeated a band of hostile Indians, or occasionally were massacred by them; but in either case the Simpson house looked, to quote a Riverboro expression, "as if the devil had been having an auction in it."
Rebecca jumped off the porch, grabbed Alice Robinson from under the currant bushes, and, what was way harder, managed to get Emma Jane away from the Simpson party using a complicated system of signals, totally escaping them. They were way too young for some of the fun activities planned for that afternoon; but they were still important, because they had the coolest yard in the village. In it, in a crazy mess, were old sleighs, pungs, horse rakes, hogsheads, backless settees, headless bed frames, all in various states of being broken, and never the same on two consecutive days. Mrs. Simpson was rarely home, and even when she was, she didn't care much about what happened around the place. One favorite game was turning the house into a fort, bravely defended by a handful of American soldiers against a British army siege. Great care was taken in assigning roles, because no one wanted anyone but the Americans to win. Seesaw Simpson was usually made the commander-in-chief of the British army, and he was a weak and shaky one, capable, with his confusing orders and love of hiding in the back, of leading any regiment to a shameful defeat. Sometimes the long-suffering house was a log cabin, and the brave settlers would defeat a group of hostile Indians, or occasionally they would be wiped out by them; but either way, the Simpson house looked, to quote a Riverboro saying, "as if the devil had been having an auction in it."
Next to this uncommonly interesting playground, as a field of action, came, in the children's opinion, the "secret spot." There was a velvety stretch of ground in the Sawyer pasture which was full of fascinating hollows and hillocks, as well as verdant levels, on which to build houses. A group of trees concealed it somewhat from view and flung a grateful shade over the dwellings erected there. It had been hard though sweet labor to take armfuls of "stickins" and "cutrounds" from the mill to this secluded spot, and that it had been done mostly after supper in the dusk of the evenings gave it a still greater flavor. Here in soap boxes hidden among the trees were stored all their treasures: wee baskets and plates and cups made of burdock balls, bits of broken china for parties, dolls, soon to be outgrown, but serving well as characters in all sorts of romances enacted there,—deaths, funerals, weddings, christenings. A tall, square house of stickins was to be built round Rebecca this afternoon, and she was to be Charlotte Corday leaning against the bars of her prison.
Next to this really interesting playground, the kids thought of the "secret spot" as their special area. There was a soft patch of ground in the Sawyer pasture filled with cool dips and little hills, along with flat grassy areas where they could build houses. A group of trees partially hid it from view and provided nice shade for the homes they made there. It had taken hard but enjoyable work to haul loads of "stickins" and "cutrounds" from the mill to this hidden spot, and the fact that they usually did this after dinner in the evening made it even more special. Here, in soap boxes tucked among the trees, they kept all their treasures: tiny baskets, plates, and cups made from burdock balls, pieces of broken china for their get-togethers, dolls—soon to be outgrown but perfect for playing all kinds of stories there, like deaths, funerals, weddings, and christenings. This afternoon, they were going to build a tall, square house of stickins around Rebecca, and she would be Charlotte Corday leaning against the bars of her prison.
It was a wonderful experience standing inside the building with Emma Jane's apron wound about her hair; wonderful to feel that when she leaned her head against the bars they seemed to turn to cold iron; that her eyes were no longer Rebecca Randall's but mirrored something of Charlotte Corday's hapless woe.
It was an amazing experience being in the building with Emma, her apron wrapped around her hair; incredible to feel that when she rested her head against the bars they felt like cold iron; that her eyes were no longer Rebecca Randall's but reflected something of Charlotte Corday's tragic sorrow.
"Ain't it lovely?" sighed the humble twain, who had done most of the labor, but who generously admired the result.
"Ain't it beautiful?" sighed the humble pair, who had done most of the work, but who generously admired the outcome.
"I hate to have to take it down," said Alice, "it's been such a sight of work."
"I really don't want to take it down," said Alice, "it's been a lot of work."
"If you think you could move up some stones and just take off the top rows, I could step out over," suggested Charlotte Corday. "Then leave the stones, and you two can step down into the prison to-morrow and be the two little princes in the Tower, and I can murder you."
"If you think you could shift some stones and just remove the top rows, I could climb over," suggested Charlotte Corday. "Then you can leave the stones, and the two of you can go down into the prison tomorrow and be the two little princes in the Tower, and I can kill you."
"What princes? What tower?" asked Alice and Emma Jane in one breath. "Tell us about them."
"What princes? What tower?" asked Alice and Emma Jane together. "Tell us about them."
"Not now, it's my supper time." (Rebecca was a somewhat firm disciplinarian.)
"Not now, it's dinner time." (Rebecca was a bit of a strict disciplinarian.)
"It would be elergant being murdered by you," said Emma Jane loyally, "though you are awful real when you murder; or we could have Elijah and Elisha for the princes."
"It would be elegant to be killed by you," said Emma Jane loyally, "even though you're pretty brutal when you do it; or we could have Elijah and Elisha as the princes."
"They'd yell when they was murdered," objected Alice; "you know how silly they are at plays, all except Clara Belle. Besides if we once show them this secret place, they'll play in it all the time, and perhaps they'd steal things, like their father."
"They'd scream when they got killed," Alice protested; "you know how ridiculous they are at plays, except for Clara Belle. Besides, if we ever show them this secret spot, they'll hang out there all the time, and maybe they’d take things, just like their dad."
"They needn't steal just because their father does," argued Rebecca; "and don't you ever talk about it before them if you want to be my secret, partic'lar friends. My mother tells me never to say hard things about people's own folks to their face. She says nobody can bear it, and it's wicked to shame them for what isn't their fault. Remember Minnie Smellie!"
"They don't have to steal just because their dad does," Rebecca argued. "And don't you ever mention it in front of them if you want to be my close friends. My mom tells me never to say mean things about someone's family to their face. She says nobody can handle it, and it's wrong to shame them for something that's not their fault. Remember Minnie Smellie!"
Well, they had no difficulty in recalling that dramatic episode, for it had occurred only a few days before; and a version of it that would have melted the stoniest heart had been presented to every girl in the village by Minnie Smellie herself, who, though it was Rebecca and not she who came off victorious in the bloody battle of words, nursed her resentment and intended to have revenge.
Well, they had no trouble remembering that dramatic event, since it had happened just a few days earlier; and a version of it that would have touched even the hardest heart had been shared with every girl in the village by Minnie Smellie herself, who, even though it was Rebecca and not her who came out on top in the heated argument, held onto her anger and planned to get back at her.
VII
RIVERBORO SECRETS
Mr. Simpson spent little time with his family, owing to certain awkward methods of horse-trading, or the "swapping" of farm implements and vehicles of various kinds,—operations in which his customers were never long suited. After every successful trade he generally passed a longer or shorter term in jail; for when a poor man without goods or chattels has the inveterate habit of swapping, it follows naturally that he must have something to swap; and having nothing of his own, it follows still more naturally that he must swap something belonging to his neighbors.
Mr. Simpson didn't spend much time with his family because of his strange ways of trading horses and swapping farm tools and vehicles of all kinds—transactions where his customers were never really satisfied. After each successful deal, he often ended up spending time in jail; because when a poor man lacks possessions but has a persistent habit of swapping, it naturally means he must have something to trade. And since he owns nothing himself, it follows even more naturally that he must be swapping stuff that belongs to his neighbors.
Mr. Simpson was absent from the home circle for the moment because he had exchanged the Widow Rideout's sleigh for Joseph Goodwin's plough. Goodwin had lately moved to North Edgewood and had never before met the urbane and persuasive Mr. Simpson. The Goodwin plough Mr. Simpson speedily bartered with a man "over Wareham way," and got in exchange for it an old horse which his owner did not need, as he was leaving town to visit his daughter for a year, Simpson fattened the aged animal, keeping him for several weeks (at early morning or after nightfall) in one neighbor's pasture after another, and then exchanged him with a Milltown man for a top buggy. It was at this juncture that the Widow Rideout missed her sleigh from the old carriage house. She had not used it for fifteen years and might not sit in it for another fifteen, but it was property, and she did not intend to part with it without a struggle. Such is the suspicious nature of the village mind that the moment she discovered her loss her thought at once reverted to Abner Simpson. So complicated, however, was the nature of this particular business transaction, and so tortuous the paths of its progress (partly owing to the complete disappearance of the owner of the horse, who had gone to the West and left no address), that it took the sheriff many weeks to prove Mr. Simpson's guilt to the town's and to the Widow Rideout's satisfaction. Abner himself avowed his complete innocence, and told the neighbors how a red-haired man with a hare lip and a pepper-and-salt suit of clothes had called him up one morning about daylight and offered to swap him a good sleigh for an old cider press he had layin' out in the dooryard. The bargain was struck, and he, Abner, had paid the hare-lipped stranger four dollars and seventy-five cents to boot; whereupon the mysterious one set down the sleigh, took the press on his cart, and vanished up the road, never to be seen or heard from afterwards.
Mr. Simpson was temporarily away from home because he traded the Widow Rideout's sleigh for Joseph Goodwin's plow. Goodwin had recently moved to North Edgewood and had never met the smooth-talking Mr. Simpson before. Mr. Simpson quickly swapped the Goodwin plow with a guy "over Wareham way," getting an old horse in return. The horse's owner didn't want it anymore since he was leaving town to visit his daughter for a year. Simpson took care of the old animal, keeping him for a few weeks (either early in the morning or after dark) in different neighbors' pastures, and then traded him with a guy from Milltown for a top buggy. At this point, the Widow Rideout noticed her sleigh was missing from the old carriage house. She hadn’t used it in fifteen years and probably wouldn't use it for another fifteen, but it was her property, and she wasn't going to give it up easily. The villagers were quick to suspect Mr. Simpson right away. However, the situation was complicated, and the details were so tangled (partly because the horse’s owner disappeared, heading West with no contact information) that it took the sheriff several weeks to convince the town and the Widow Rideout that Mr. Simpson was guilty. Abner maintained his innocence, telling the neighbors about a red-haired man with a harelip and a pepper-and-salt suit who showed up one morning at dawn, offering to trade a good sleigh for an old cider press he had lying around in the yard. The deal was made, and Abner ended up paying the hare-lipped stranger four dollars and seventy-five cents on top of that; after which, the mysterious man dropped off the sleigh, took the press, and disappeared down the road, never to be seen again.
"If I could once ketch that consarned old thief," exclaimed Abner righteously, "I'd make him dance,—workin' off a stolen sleigh on me an' takin' away my good money an' cider press, to say nothin' o' my character!"
"If I could ever catch that damned old thief," Abner exclaimed indignantly, "I'd make him pay—taking a stolen sleigh from me and stealing my hard-earned cash and cider press, not to mention my reputation!"
"You'll never ketch him, Ab," responded the sheriff. "He's cut off the same piece o' goods as that there cider press and that there character and that there four-seventy-five o' yourn; nobody ever see any of 'em but you, and you'll never see 'em again!"
"You'll never catch him, Ab," said the sheriff. "He's made from the same stuff as that cider press and that character and that four-seventy-five of yours; nobody has ever seen any of them but you, and you'll never see them again!"
Mrs. Simpson, who was decidedly Abner's better half, took in washing and went out to do days' cleaning, and the town helped in the feeding and clothing of the children. George, a lanky boy of fourteen, did chores on neighboring farms, and the others, Samuel, Clara Belle, Susan, Elijah, and Elisha, went to school, when sufficiently clothed and not otherwise more pleasantly engaged.
Mrs. Simpson, definitely Abner's better half, did laundry and went out to clean houses during the day, while the town pitched in to help feed and clothe the kids. George, a tall boy of fourteen, did chores on nearby farms, and the others—Samuel, Clara Belle, Susan, Elijah, and Elisha—went to school when they had enough clothes and weren’t busy with something more enjoyable.
There were no secrets in the villages that lay along the banks of Pleasant River. There were many hard-working people among the inhabitants, but life wore away so quietly and slowly that there was a good deal of spare time for conversation,—under the trees at noon in the hayfield; hanging over the bridge at nightfall; seated about the stove in the village store of an evening. These meeting-places furnished ample ground for the discussion of current events as viewed by the masculine eye, while choir rehearsals, sewing societies, reading circles, church picnics, and the like, gave opportunity for the expression of feminine opinion. All this was taken very much for granted, as a rule, but now and then some supersensitive person made violent objections to it, as a theory of life.
There were no secrets in the villages along the banks of Pleasant River. The residents were mostly hardworking people, but life moved along so quietly and slowly that there was plenty of time for chatting—under the trees at noon in the hayfield, leaning over the bridge at dusk, or gathered around the stove in the village store in the evenings. These spots provided plenty of opportunities to discuss current events from a male perspective, while choir rehearsals, sewing clubs, reading groups, church picnics, and similar activities allowed women to share their thoughts. This was generally accepted, but every now and then, someone overly sensitive raised strong objections to it as a way of life.
Delia Weeks, for example, was a maiden lady who did dressmaking in a small way; she fell ill, and although attended by all the physicians in the neighborhood, was sinking slowly into a decline when her cousin Cyrus asked her to come and keep house for him in Lewiston. She went, and in a year grew into a robust, hearty, cheerful woman. Returning to Riverboro on a brief visit, she was asked if she meant to end her days away from home.
Delia Weeks, for instance, was a single woman who did some dressmaking on the side; she became ill, and even though all the doctors in the area were looking after her, she was slowly declining when her cousin Cyrus invited her to come and take care of his home in Lewiston. She went, and in a year, she transformed into a strong, healthy, happy woman. While visiting Riverboro briefly, she was asked if she intended to spend the rest of her life away from home.
"I do most certainly, if I can get any other place to stay," she responded candidly. "I was bein' worn to a shadder here, tryin' to keep my little secrets to myself, an' never succeedin'. First they had it I wanted to marry the minister, and when he took a wife in Standish I was known to be disappointed. Then for five or six years they suspicioned I was tryin' for a place to teach school, and when I gave up hope, an' took to dressmakin', they pitied me and sympathized with me for that. When father died I was bound I'd never let anybody know how I was left, for that spites 'em worse than anything else; but there's ways o' findin' out, an' they found out, hard as I fought 'em! Then there was my brother James that went to Arizona when he was sixteen. I gave good news of him for thirty years runnin', but aunt Achsy Tarbox had a ferretin' cousin that went out to Tombstone for her health, and she wrote to a postmaster, or to some kind of a town authority, and found Jim and wrote back aunt Achsy all about him and just how unfortunate he'd been. They knew when I had my teeth out and a new set made; they knew when I put on a false front-piece; they knew when the fruit peddler asked me to be his third wife—I never told 'em, an' you can be sure HE never did, but they don't NEED to be told in this village; they have nothin' to do but guess, an' they'll guess right every time. I was all tuckered out tryin' to mislead 'em and deceive 'em and sidetrack 'em; but the minute I got where I wa'n't put under a microscope by day an' a telescope by night and had myself TO myself without sayin' 'By your leave,' I begun to pick up. Cousin Cyrus is an old man an' consid'able trouble, but he thinks my teeth are handsome an' says I've got a splendid suit of hair. There ain't a person in Lewiston that knows about the minister, or father's will, or Jim's doin's, or the fruit peddler; an' if they should find out, they wouldn't care, an' they couldn't remember; for Lewiston 's a busy place, thanks be!"
"I definitely would, if I could find anywhere else to stay," she replied honestly. "I was getting worn down here, trying to keep my little secrets to myself and never succeeding. First, everyone thought I wanted to marry the minister, and when he married someone in Standish, they knew I was disappointed. Then for five or six years, they suspected I was trying to find a job teaching school, and when I lost hope and decided to start dressmaking, they felt sorry for me and sympathized with me for that. When my father died, I was determined to never let anyone know how I was left, since that bothers them more than anything else; but there are ways of finding things out, and they did, no matter how hard I fought to keep it hidden! Then there was my brother James who went to Arizona when he was sixteen. I shared good news about him for thirty years, but Aunt Achsy Tarbox had a nosy cousin that went to Tombstone for her health, and she wrote to a postmaster, or some town authority, and located Jim, then wrote back to Aunt Achsy all about him and how unfortunate he had been. They knew when I had my teeth removed and replaced; they knew when I got a false front tooth; they knew when the fruit peddler asked me to be his third wife—I never told them, and you can bet HE never did, but they don’t NEED to hear it in this village; they have nothing to do but guess, and they’ll guess right every time. I was so exhausted trying to mislead and deceive them; but the minute I got where I wasn’t being scrutinized by day and night and had my privacy without asking for it, I began to pick up. Cousin Cyrus is an old man and quite a handful, but he thinks my teeth are beautiful and says I have a lovely head of hair. There isn’t a single person in Lewiston who knows about the minister, or my father’s will, or Jim’s situation, or the fruit peddler; and if they ever found out, they wouldn’t care, and they couldn’t remember it; because Lewiston is a busy place, thank goodness!"
Miss Delia Weeks may have exaggerated matters somewhat, but it is easy to imagine that Rebecca as well as all the other Riverboro children had heard the particulars of the Widow Rideout's missing sleigh and Abner Simpson's supposed connection with it.
Miss Delia Weeks might have blown things out of proportion a bit, but it's easy to picture that Rebecca and all the other kids in Riverboro had heard the details about the Widow Rideout's missing sleigh and Abner Simpson's supposed link to it.
There is not an excess of delicacy or chivalry in the ordinary country school, and several choice conundrums and bits of verse dealing with the Simpson affair were bandied about among the scholars, uttered always, be it said to their credit, in undertones, and when the Simpson children were not in the group.
There isn't a lot of finesse or courtesy in the typical country school, and several clever riddles and poems about the Simpson situation were tossed around among the students, always spoken, to their credit, in hushed tones, and only when the Simpson kids weren't part of the group.
Rebecca Randall was of precisely the same stock, and had had much the same associations as her schoolmates, so one can hardly say why she so hated mean gossip and so instinctively held herself aloof from it.
Rebecca Randall came from the same background and shared similar experiences with her classmates, so it's hard to explain why she despised petty gossip and naturally distanced herself from it.
Among the Riverboro girls of her own age was a certain excellently named Minnie Smellie, who was anything but a general favorite. She was a ferret-eyed, blond-haired, spindle-legged little creature whose mind was a cross between that of a parrot and a sheep. She was suspected of copying answers from other girls' slates, although she had never been caught in the act. Rebecca and Emma Jane always knew when she had brought a tart or a triangle of layer cake with her school luncheon, because on those days she forsook the cheerful society of her mates and sought a safe solitude in the woods, returning after a time with a jocund smile on her smug face.
Among the Riverboro girls her age was a girl with a memorable name, Minnie Smellie, who was definitely not a favorite among them. She had beady eyes, blonde hair, and spindly legs, and her mind seemed to be a mix of a parrot's chatter and a sheep's dullness. People suspected she copied answers from the other girls' slates, although she had never been caught in the act. Rebecca and Emma Jane always knew when she had brought a tart or a piece of layer cake for lunch because on those days, she would ditch the cheerful company of her classmates and find a quiet spot in the woods, coming back later with a smug smile on her face.
After one of these private luncheons Rebecca had been tempted beyond her strength, and when Minnie took her seat among them asked, "Is your headache better, Minnie? Let me wipe off that strawberry jam over your mouth."
After one of these private lunches, Rebecca found it hard to resist, and when Minnie joined them, she asked, "Is your headache feeling any better, Minnie? Let me wipe that strawberry jam off your mouth."
There was no jam there as a matter of fact, but the guilty Minnie's handkerchief went to her crimson face in a flash.
There wasn't any jam there, but Minnie's guilty handkerchief quickly flew to her red face.
Rebecca confessed to Emma Jane that same afternoon that she felt ashamed of her prank. "I do hate her ways," she exclaimed, "but I'm sorry I let her know we 'spected her; and so to make up, I gave her that little piece of broken coral I keep in my bead purse; you know the one?"
Rebecca admitted to Emma Jane that afternoon that she felt embarrassed about her prank. "I really dislike her attitude," she said, "but I'm sorry I revealed that we were suspicious of her; so to make amends, I gave her that little piece of broken coral I keep in my bead purse; you know the one?"
"It don't hardly seem as if she deserved that, and her so greedy," remarked Emma Jane.
"It hardly seems like she deserved that, especially since she's so greedy," remarked Emma Jane.
"I know it, but it makes me feel better," said Rebecca largely; "and then I've had it two years, and it's broken so it wouldn't ever be any real good, beautiful as it is to look at."
"I know that, but it makes me feel better," said Rebecca with conviction; "and I've had it for two years, and it's broken, so it wouldn't be of any real use, no matter how beautiful it looks."
The coral had partly served its purpose as a reconciling bond, when one afternoon Rebecca, who had stayed after school for her grammar lesson as usual, was returning home by way of the short cut. Far ahead, beyond the bars, she espied the Simpson children just entering the woodsy bit. Seesaw was not with them, so she hastened her steps in order to secure company on her homeward walk. They were speedily lost to view, but when she had almost overtaken them she heard, in the trees beyond, Minnie Smellie's voice lifted high in song, and the sound of a child's sobbing. Clara Belle, Susan, and the twins were running along the path, and Minnie was dancing up and down, shrieking:—
The coral had partly served its purpose as a way to bring people together, when one afternoon Rebecca, who had stayed after school for her grammar lesson like usual, was heading home through the shortcut. Far ahead, beyond the bars, she spotted the Simpson kids just entering the wooded area. Seesaw wasn’t with them, so she quickened her pace to catch up and have some company on her walk home. They soon disappeared from sight, but just as she was about to catch up to them, she heard Minnie Smellie's voice raised high in song, along with the sound of a child crying. Clara Belle, Susan, and the twins were running down the path, and Minnie was jumping up and down, yelling:—
"'What made the sleigh love Simpson so?'
The eager children cried;
'Why Simpson loved the sleigh, you know,'
The teacher quick replied."
"'What made the sleigh love Simpson so?'
The eager children asked;
'Why, you know Simpson loved the sleigh,'
The teacher quickly responded."
The last glimpse of the routed Simpson tribe, and the last futter of their tattered garments, disappeared in the dim distance. The fall of one small stone cast by the valiant Elijah, known as "the fighting twin," did break the stillness of the woods for a moment, but it did not come within a hundred yards of Minnie, who shouted "Jail Birds" at the top of her lungs and then turned, with an agreeable feeling of excitement, to meet Rebecca, standing perfectly still in the path, with a day of reckoning plainly set forth in her blazing eyes.
The last sight of the defeated Simpson tribe, along with the last flutter of their worn-out clothes, vanished into the fading distance. A small stone thrown by the brave Elijah, known as "the fighting twin," briefly broke the silence of the woods, but it fell more than a hundred yards away from Minnie. She yelled "Jail Birds" at the top of her lungs and then turned, feeling a rush of excitement, to face Rebecca, who stood perfectly still in the path, with a clear day of reckoning reflected in her fiery eyes.
Minnie's face was not pleasant to see, for a coward detected at the moment of wrongdoing is not an object of delight.
Minnie's face was not a nice sight, because a coward caught in the act of doing wrong is not something people find pleasing.
"Minnie Smellie, if ever—I—catch—you—singing—that—to the Simpsons again—do you know what I'll do?" asked Rebecca in a tone of concentrated rage.
"Minnie Smellie, if I ever catch you singing that to the Simpsons again, do you know what I’ll do?" asked Rebecca in a tone of intense anger.
"I don't know and I don't care," said Minnie jauntily, though her looks belied her.
"I don't know and I don't care," said Minnie cheerfully, though her appearance suggested otherwise.
"I'll take that piece of coral away from you, and I THINK I shall slap you besides!"
"I'll take that piece of coral from you, and I think I might just slap you too!"
"You wouldn't darst," retorted Minnie. "If you do, I'll tell my mother and the teacher, so there!"
"You wouldn't dare," Minnie shot back. "If you do, I'll tell my mom and the teacher, so there!"
"I don't care if you tell your mother, my mother, and all your relations, and the president," said Rebecca, gaining courage as the noble words fell from her lips. "I don't care if you tell the town, the whole of York county, the state of Maine and—and the nation!" she finished grandiloquently. "Now you run home and remember what I say. If you do it again, and especially if you say 'Jail Birds,' if I think it's right and my duty, I shall punish you somehow."
"I don't care if you tell your mom, my mom, and all your relatives, and even the president," said Rebecca, gaining confidence as the strong words came out. "I don't care if you tell the town, all of York County, the state of Maine, and—and the whole country!" she concluded dramatically. "Now you go home and remember what I'm saying. If you do it again, especially if you say 'Jail Birds,' if I think it's right and my duty, I will punish you in some way."
The next morning at recess Rebecca observed Minnie telling the tale with variations to Huldah Meserve. "She THREATENED me," whispered Minnie, "but I never believe a word she says."
The next morning at recess, Rebecca saw Minnie sharing the story, but with some twists, to Huldah Meserve. "She THREATENED me," Minnie whispered, "but I never believe anything she says."
The latter remark was spoken with the direct intention of being overheard, for Minnie had spasms of bravery, when well surrounded by the machinery of law and order.
The latter comment was made with the clear intention of being overheard, as Minnie had bursts of courage when she was surrounded by the machinery of law and order.
As Rebecca went back to her seat she asked Miss Dearborn if she might pass a note to Minnie Smellie and received permission. This was the note:—
As Rebecca walked back to her seat, she asked Miss Dearborn if she could pass a note to Minnie Smellie and got the okay. This was the note:—
Of all the girls that are so mean There's none like Minnie
Smellie. I'll take away the gift I gave And pound her into
jelly.
P. S. Now do you believe me?
R. Randall.
Of all the girls who are so cruel, there's no one quite like Minnie Smellie. I'll take back the gift I gave and smash her into jelly.
P. S. Now do you believe me?
R. Randall.
The effect of this piece of doggerel was entirely convincing, and for days afterwards whenever Minnie met the Simpsons even a mile from the brick house she shuddered and held her peace.
The impact of this silly poem was completely convincing, and for days afterward, whenever Minnie saw the Simpsons even a mile away from the brick house, she shuddered and stayed silent.
VIII
COLOR OF ROSE
On the very next Friday after this "dreadfullest fight that ever was seen," as Bunyan says in Pilgrim's Progress, there were great doings in the little schoolhouse on the hill. Friday afternoon was always the time chosen for dialogues, songs, and recitations, but it cannot be stated that it was a gala day in any true sense of the word. Most of the children hated "speaking pieces;" hated the burden of learning them, dreaded the danger of breaking down in them. Miss Dearborn commonly went home with a headache, and never left her bed during the rest of the afternoon or evening; and the casual female parent who attended the exercises sat on a front bench with beads of cold sweat on her forehead, listening to the all-too-familiar halts and stammers. Sometimes a bellowing infant who had clean forgotten his verse would cast himself bodily on the maternal bosom and be borne out into the open air, where he was sometimes kissed and occasionally spanked; but in any case the failure added an extra dash of gloom and dread to the occasion. The advent of Rebecca had somehow infused a new spirit into these hitherto terrible afternoons. She had taught Elijah and Elisha Simpson so that they recited three verses of something with such comical effect that they delighted themselves, the teacher, and the school; while Susan, who lisped, had been provided with a humorous poem in which she impersonated a lisping child. Emma Jane and Rebecca had a dialogue, and the sense of companionship buoyed up Emma Jane and gave her self-reliance. In fact, Miss Dearborn announced on this particular Friday morning that the exercises promised to be so interesting that she had invited the doctor's wife, the minister's wife, two members of the school committee, and a few mothers. Living Perkins was asked to decorate one of the black-boards and Rebecca the other. Living, who was the star artist of the school, chose the map of North America. Rebecca liked better to draw things less realistic, and speedily, before the eyes of the enchanted multitude, there grew under her skillful fingers an American flag done in red, white, and blue chalk, every star in its right place, every stripe fluttering in the breeze. Beside this appeared a figure of Columbia, copied from the top of the cigar box that held the crayons.
On the very next Friday after this "dreadfullest fight that ever was seen," as Bunyan says in Pilgrim's Progress, there were big events happening in the little schoolhouse on the hill. Friday afternoon was always the time for dialogues, songs, and recitations, but it can't be said that it was a festive day in any true sense of the word. Most of the kids hated "speaking pieces;" they disliked having to learn them and dreaded the chance of messing up. Miss Dearborn usually went home with a headache and never got out of bed for the rest of the afternoon or evening; the occasional mom who attended the performances sat on a front bench with beads of cold sweat on her forehead, listening to the all-too-familiar stumbles and hesitations. Sometimes a screaming toddler who had completely forgotten his lines would throw himself onto his mother's lap and get carried out into the fresh air, where he would sometimes be kissed and occasionally spanked; but in any case, the failure added an extra touch of gloom and dread to the event. The arrival of Rebecca somehow brought a new energy to these previously dreadful afternoons. She had taught Elijah and Elisha Simpson to recite three verses of something with such comedic effect that they entertained themselves, the teacher, and the entire school; meanwhile, Susan, who lisped, was given a funny poem in which she played a lisping child. Emma Jane and Rebecca performed a dialogue, and the feeling of camaraderie lifted Emma Jane's spirits and made her feel more confident. In fact, Miss Dearborn announced on that specific Friday morning that the exercises promised to be so engaging that she had invited the doctor's wife, the minister's wife, two members of the school committee, and a few moms. Living Perkins was asked to decorate one of the blackboards, and Rebecca was given the other. Living, the school's star artist, chose to draw the map of North America. Rebecca preferred to draw things that were less realistic, and quickly, before the mesmerized audience, she created an American flag in red, white, and blue chalk, with every star in its right place and every stripe waving in the breeze. Next to this appeared a figure of Columbia, copied from the top of the cigar box that held the crayons.
Miss Dearborn was delighted. "I propose we give Rebecca a good hand-clapping for such a beautiful picture—one that the whole school may well be proud of!"
Miss Dearborn was thrilled. "I suggest we give Rebecca a big round of applause for such a beautiful picture—one that the whole school can be proud of!"
The scholars clapped heartily, and Dick Carter, waving his hand, gave a rousing cheer.
The scholars applauded enthusiastically, and Dick Carter, waving his hand, let out a loud cheer.
Rebecca's heart leaped for joy, and to her confusion she felt the tears rising in her eyes. She could hardly see the way back to her seat, for in her ignorant lonely little life she had never been singled out for applause, never lauded, nor crowned, as in this wonderful, dazzling moment. If "nobleness enkindleth nobleness," so does enthusiasm beget enthusiasm, and so do wit and talent enkindle wit and talent. Alice Robinson proposed that the school should sing Three Cheers for the Red, White, and Blue! and when they came to the chorus, all point to Rebecca's flag. Dick Carter suggested that Living Perkins and Rebecca Randall should sign their names to their pictures, so that the visitors would know who drew them. Huldah Meserve asked permission to cover the largest holes in the plastered walls with boughs and fill the water pail with wild flowers. Rebecca's mood was above and beyond all practical details. She sat silent, her heart so full of grateful joy that she could hardly remember the words of her dialogue. At recess she bore herself modestly, notwithstanding her great triumph, while in the general atmosphere of good will the Smellie-Randall hatchet was buried and Minnie gathered maple boughs and covered the ugly stove with them, under Rebecca's direction.
Rebecca's heart soared with joy, and to her surprise, she felt tears welling in her eyes. She could barely see the way back to her seat, as in her lonely little life she had never been singled out for applause, never praised, nor honored, like in this amazing, bright moment. If "nobleness inspires nobleness," then enthusiasm breeds enthusiasm, and wit and talent spark wit and talent. Alice Robinson suggested the school should sing "Three Cheers for the Red, White, and Blue!" and when they got to the chorus, everyone pointed to Rebecca's flag. Dick Carter proposed that Living Perkins and Rebecca Randall should sign their names to their pictures, so visitors would know who made them. Huldah Meserve asked to cover the biggest holes in the plaster walls with branches and fill the water pail with wildflowers. Rebecca's mood was beyond all practical concerns. She sat quietly, her heart overflowing with gratitude and joy that she could hardly recall the words of her speech. During recess, she kept herself humble despite her big triumph, and in the spirit of goodwill, the Smellie-Randall feud was put to rest, while Minnie gathered maple branches and hid the ugly stove with them, following Rebecca's lead.
Miss Dearborn dismissed the morning session at quarter to twelve, so that those who lived near enough could go home for a change of dress. Emma Jane and Rebecca ran nearly every step of the way, from sheer excitement, only stopping to breathe at the stiles.
Miss Dearborn ended the morning session at 11:45, allowing those who lived close enough to go home for a change of clothes. Emma Jane and Rebecca ran almost every step of the way, full of excitement, only pausing to catch their breath at the stiles.
"Will your aunt Mirandy let you wear your best, or only your buff calico?" asked Emma Jane.
"Will your Aunt Mirandy let you wear your best dress, or just your plain calico?" asked Emma Jane.
"I think I'll ask aunt Jane," Rebecca replied. "Oh! if my pink was only finished! I left aunt Jane making the buttonholes!"
"I think I'll ask Aunt Jane," Rebecca replied. "Oh! If only my pink was finished! I left Aunt Jane making the buttonholes!"
"I'm going to ask my mother to let me wear her garnet ring," said Emma Jane. "It would look perfectly elergant flashing in the sun when I point to the flag. Good-by; don't wait for me going back; I may get a ride."
"I'm going to ask my mom if I can wear her garnet ring," said Emma Jane. "It would look really elegant sparkling in the sun when I point to the flag. Bye; don’t wait for me to get back; I might catch a ride."
Rebecca found the side door locked, but she knew that the key was under the step, and so of course did everybody else in Riverboro, for they all did about the same thing with it. She unlocked the door and went into the dining-room to find her lunch laid on the table and a note from aunt Jane saying that they had gone to Moderation with Mrs. Robinson in her carryall. Rebecca swallowed a piece of bread and butter, and flew up the front stairs to her bedroom. On the bed lay the pink gingham dress finished by aunt Jane's kind hands. Could she, dare she, wear it without asking? Did the occasion justify a new costume, or would her aunts think she ought to keep it for the concert?
Rebecca found the side door locked, but she knew the key was under the step, and of course, everyone else in Riverboro knew that too, as they all did the same thing with it. She unlocked the door and went into the dining room to find her lunch laid out on the table and a note from Aunt Jane saying that they had gone to Moderation with Mrs. Robinson in her carryall. Rebecca swallowed a piece of bread and butter and raced up the front stairs to her bedroom. On the bed lay the pink gingham dress finished by Aunt Jane's kind hands. Could she, would she, wear it without asking? Did the occasion justify a new outfit, or would her aunts think she should save it for the concert?
"I'll wear it," thought Rebecca. "They're not here to ask, and maybe they wouldn't mind a bit; it's only gingham after all, and wouldn't be so grand if it wasn't new, and hadn't tape trimming on it, and wasn't pink."
"I'll wear it," Rebecca thought. "They’re not here to ask, and maybe they wouldn’t mind; it’s just gingham after all, and it wouldn’t be so special if it weren’t new, didn’t have tape trimming on it, and wasn’t pink."
She unbraided her two pig-tails, combed out the waves of her hair and tied them back with a ribbon, changed her shoes, and then slipped on the pretty frock, managing to fasten all but the three middle buttons, which she reserved for Emma Jane.
She undid her two pigtails, brushed out the waves in her hair and tied it back with a ribbon, changed her shoes, and then put on the pretty dress, managing to button all but the three middle buttons, which she left for Emma Jane.
Then her eye fell on her cherished pink sunshade, the exact match, and the girls had never seen it. It wasn't quite appropriate for school, but she needn't take it into the room; she would wrap it in a piece of paper, just show it, and carry it coming home. She glanced in the parlor looking-glass downstairs and was electrified at the vision. It seemed almost as if beauty of apparel could go no further than that heavenly pink gingham dress! The sparkle of her eyes, glow of her cheeks, sheen of her falling hair, passed unnoticed in the all-conquering charm of the rose-colored garment. Goodness! it was twenty minutes to one and she would be late. She danced out the side door, pulled a pink rose from a bush at the gate, and covered the mile between the brick house and the seat of learning in an incredibly short time, meeting Emma Jane, also breathless and resplendent, at the entrance.
Then her eye caught her beloved pink sunshade, the perfect match, and the girls had never seen it before. It wasn't exactly suitable for school, but she didn't need to take it inside; she would wrap it up in a piece of paper, just show it off, and carry it home. She glanced at the parlor mirror downstairs and was dazzled by the reflection. It almost felt like the beauty of her outfit couldn't get any better than that gorgeous pink gingham dress! The sparkle in her eyes, the flush on her cheeks, the shine of her loose hair all went unnoticed in the overpowering charm of the rosy garment. Wow! It was twenty minutes to one and she was going to be late. She skipped out the side door, picked a pink rose from the bush at the gate, and covered the mile between the brick house and the school in no time, meeting Emma Jane, who was also out of breath and looking fabulous, at the entrance.
"Rebecca Randall!" exclaimed Emma Jane, "you're handsome as a picture!"
"Rebecca Randall!" Emma Jane exclaimed, "you look amazing!"
"I?" laughed Rebecca "Nonsense! it's only the pink gingham."
"I?" Rebecca laughed. "Nonsense! It's just the pink gingham."
"You're not good looking every day," insisted Emma Jane; "but you're different somehow. See my garnet ring; mother scrubbed it in soap and water. How on earth did your aunt Mirandy let you put on your bran' new dress?"
"You're not looking great every day," Emma Jane said firmly; "but you're different in some way. Look at my garnet ring; my mom cleaned it with soap and water. How did your Aunt Mirandy let you wear your brand new dress?"
"They were both away and I didn't ask," Rebecca responded anxiously. "Why? Do you think they'd have said no?"
"They were both gone, and I didn't ask," Rebecca replied nervously. "Why not? Do you think they would have said no?"
"Miss Mirandy always says no, doesn't she?" asked Emma Jane.
"Miss Mirandy always says no, right?" asked Emma Jane.
"Ye—es; but this afternoon is very special—almost like a Sunday-school concert."
"Yeah—this afternoon is really special—almost like a Sunday school concert."
"Yes," assented Emma Jane, "it is, of course; with your name on the board, and our pointing to your flag, and our elergant dialogue, and all that."
"Yes," agreed Emma Jane, "it definitely is; with your name on the board, us pointing to your flag, our elegant conversation, and everything."
The afternoon was one succession of solid triumphs for everybody concerned. There were no real failures at all, no tears, no parents ashamed of their offspring. Miss Dearborn heard many admiring remarks passed upon her ability, and wondered whether they belonged to her or partly, at least, to Rebecca. The child had no more to do than several others, but she was somehow in the foreground. It transpired afterwards at various village entertainments that Rebecca couldn't be kept in the background; it positively refused to hold her. Her worst enemy could not have called her pushing. She was ready and willing and never shy; but she sought for no chances of display and was, indeed, remarkably lacking in self-consciousness, as well as eager to bring others into whatever fun or entertainment there was. If wherever the MacGregor sat was the head of the table, so in the same way wherever Rebecca stood was the centre of the stage. Her clear high treble soared above all the rest in the choruses, and somehow everybody watched her, took note of her gestures, her whole-souled singing, her irrepressible enthusiasm.
The afternoon was a series of solid victories for everyone involved. There were no real failures, no tears, and no parents embarrassed by their children. Miss Dearborn heard many compliments about her talent and wondered if they were directed at her or at least partly at Rebecca. The girl had just as much to do as several others, but she somehow drew attention. It later became clear at various village events that Rebecca couldn't remain in the background; it simply wouldn’t allow her to. Even her biggest critic wouldn’t have called her pushy. She was eager and willing, never shy; she didn’t seek out chances to shine and was notably lacking in self-consciousness, as well as keen to involve others in any fun or entertainment happening around her. Just as wherever the MacGregor sat was the head of the table, wherever Rebecca stood became the center of attention. Her clear, high-pitched voice soared above everyone else in the choruses, and somehow everyone focused on her, paying attention to her gestures, her passionate singing, and her boundless enthusiasm.
Finally it was all over, and it seemed to Rebecca as if she should never be cool and calm again, as she loitered on the homeward path. There would be no lessons to learn to-night, and the vision of helping with the preserves on the morrow had no terrors for her—fears could not draw breath in the radiance that flooded her soul. There were thick gathering clouds in the sky, but she took no note of them save to be glad that she could raise her sunshade. She did not tread the solid ground at all, or have any sense of belonging to the common human family, until she entered the side yard of the brick house and saw her aunt Miranda standing in the open doorway. Then with a rush she came back to earth.
Finally, it was all over, and Rebecca felt like she would never be cool and calm again as she strolled down the path home. There wouldn’t be any lessons to learn tonight, and the thought of helping with the preserves tomorrow didn’t scare her—worries couldn’t exist in the light that filled her soul. There were thick clouds gathering in the sky, but she paid them no mind except to be happy that she could open her sunshade. She didn’t feel the solid ground beneath her or have any sense of belonging to the ordinary human race until she reached the side yard of the brick house and saw her aunt Miranda standing in the open doorway. Then, all at once, she felt grounded again.
IX
ASHES OF ROSES
"There she is, over an hour late; a little more an' she'd 'a' been caught in a thunder shower, but she'd never look ahead," said Miranda to Jane; "and added to all her other iniquities, if she ain't rigged out in that new dress, steppin' along with her father's dancin'-school steps, and swingin' her parasol for all the world as if she was play-actin'. Now I'm the oldest, Jane, an' I intend to have my say out; if you don't like it you can go into the kitchen till it's over. Step right in here, Rebecca; I want to talk to you. What did you put on that good new dress for, on a school day, without permission?"
"There she is, over an hour late; if she were any later, she would have been caught in a thunderstorm, but she never thinks ahead," said Miranda to Jane; "and on top of all her other misdeeds, if she's not dressed up in that new dress, strutting around with her father’s dance-school steps, and swinging her parasol like she’s putting on a show. Now, I’m the oldest, Jane, and I’m going to say what I need to say; if you don’t like it, you can go into the kitchen until I’m done. Come right in here, Rebecca; I need to talk to you. Why did you wear that nice new dress on a school day without asking for permission?"
"I had intended to ask you at noontime, but you weren't at home, so I couldn't," began Rebecca.
"I meant to ask you at noon, but you weren't home, so I couldn't," Rebecca started.
"You did no such a thing; you put it on because you was left alone, though you knew well enough I wouldn't have let you."
"You didn't do that; you put it on because you were left alone, even though you knew I wouldn't have let you."
"If I'd been CERTAIN you wouldn't have let me I'd never have done it," said Rebecca, trying to be truthful; "but I wasn't CERTAIN, and it was worth risking. I thought perhaps you might, if you knew it was almost a real exhibition at school."
"If I had known for sure that you wouldn't have let me, I never would have done it," said Rebecca, trying to be honest; "but I wasn't sure, and it was worth the risk. I thought maybe you would, if you knew it was almost a real exhibition at school."
"Exhibition!" exclaimed Miranda scornfully; "you are exhibition enough by yourself, I should say. Was you exhibitin' your parasol?"
"Exhibition!" Miranda said dismissively. "You're already enough of a spectacle on your own, I’d say. Were you showing off your parasol?"
"The parasol WAS silly," confessed Rebecca, hanging her head; "but it's the only time in my whole life when I had anything to match it, and it looked so beautiful with the pink dress! Emma Jane and I spoke a dialogue about a city girl and a country girl, and it came to me just the minute before I started how nice it would come in for the city girl; and it did. I haven't hurt my dress a mite, aunt Mirandy."
"The parasol was ridiculous," Rebecca admitted, looking down; "but it's the only time in my entire life that I had something to match it, and it looked so pretty with the pink dress! Emma Jane and I performed a dialogue about a city girl and a country girl, and it occurred to me right before I started how perfect it would be for the city girl; and it really was. I haven't damaged my dress at all, Aunt Mirandy."
"It's the craftiness and underhandedness of your actions that's the worst," said Miranda coldly. "And look at the other things you've done! It seems as if Satan possessed you! You went up the front stairs to your room, but you didn't hide your tracks, for you dropped your handkerchief on the way up. You left the screen out of your bedroom window for the flies to come in all over the house. You never cleared away your lunch nor set away a dish, AND YOU LEFT THE SIDE DOOR UNLOCKED from half past twelve to three o'clock, so 't anybody could 'a' come in and stolen what they liked!"
"It's your sneaky and deceitful actions that are the worst," Miranda said coldly. "And look at all the other things you've done! It's like Satan possessed you! You went up the front stairs to your room, but you didn't cover your tracks— you dropped your handkerchief on the way up. You left the screen out of your bedroom window, letting flies come in all over the house. You never cleaned up your lunch or put away any dishes, AND YOU LEFT THE SIDE DOOR UNLOCKED from twelve-thirty to three, so anyone could have come in and taken whatever they wanted!"
Rebecca sat down heavily in her chair as she heard the list of her transgressions. How could she have been so careless? The tears began to flow now as she attempted to explain sins that never could be explained or justified.
Rebecca plopped down in her chair as she listened to the list of her wrongdoings. How could she have been so careless? Tears started to fall as she tried to explain mistakes that could never be clarified or excused.
"Oh, I'm so sorry!" she faltered. "I was trimming the schoolroom, and got belated, and ran all the way home. It was hard getting into my dress alone, and I hadn't time to eat but a mouthful, and just at the last minute, when I honestly—HONESTLY—would have thought about clearing away and locking up, I looked at the clock and knew I could hardly get back to school in time to form in the line; and I thought how dreadful it would be to go in late and get my first black mark on a Friday afternoon, with the minister's wife and the doctor's wife and the school committee all there!"
"Oh, I'm really sorry!" she stammered. "I was decorating the classroom and lost track of time, then ran all the way home. It was tough getting into my dress by myself, and I only had time for a quick bite to eat. Then, at the very last minute, when I truly—TRULY—meant to tidy up and lock up, I glanced at the clock and realized I could hardly make it back to school in time to line up; and I thought about how awful it would be to arrive late and get my first black mark on a Friday afternoon, especially with the minister's wife, the doctor's wife, and the school committee all there!"
"Don't wail and carry on now; it's no good cryin' over spilt milk," answered Miranda. "An ounce of good behavior is worth a pound of repentance. Instead of tryin' to see how little trouble you can make in a house that ain't your own home, it seems as if you tried to see how much you could put us out. Take that rose out o' your dress and let me see the spot it's made on your yoke, an' the rusty holes where the wet pin went in. No, it ain't; but it's more by luck than forethought. I ain't got any patience with your flowers and frizzled-out hair and furbelows an' airs an' graces, for all the world like your Miss-Nancy father."
"Stop whining and making a scene; there's no point in crying over spilled milk," Miranda said. "A little good behavior is worth a lot of regret. Instead of trying to make as little trouble as possible in a house that isn't yours, it feels like you're trying to see how much you can inconvenience us. Take that rose out of your dress and show me the mark it's made on your yoke, and the rusty holes from that wet pin. No, it’s not, but it’s more by chance than planning. I have no patience for your flowers, frizzy hair, and fancy airs, just like your Miss-Nancy father."
Rebecca lifted her head in a flash. "Look here, aunt Mirandy, I'll be as good as I know how to be. I'll mind quick when I'm spoken to and never leave the door unlocked again, but I won't have my father called names. He was a p-perfectly l-lovely father, that's what he was, and it's MEAN to call him Miss Nancy!"
Rebecca quickly lifted her head. "Listen, Aunt Mirandy, I’ll be as good as I can. I’ll pay attention when I’m spoken to and I won’t leave the door unlocked again, but I won’t let anyone call my father names. He was a perfectly lovely father, that’s what he was, and it’s MEAN to call him Miss Nancy!"
"Don't you dare answer me back that imperdent way, Rebecca, tellin' me I'm mean; your father was a vain, foolish, shiftless man, an' you might as well hear it from me as anybody else; he spent your mother's money and left her with seven children to provide for."
"Don't you dare talk back to me like that, Rebecca, saying I'm mean; your father was a vain, foolish, lazy man, and you might as well hear it from me as anyone else; he spent your mother's money and left her with seven kids to take care of."
"It's s-something to leave s-seven nice children," sobbed Rebecca.
"It's hard to leave behind seven wonderful kids," sobbed Rebecca.
"Not when other folks have to help feed, clothe, and educate 'em," responded Miranda. "Now you step upstairs, put on your nightgown, go to bed, and stay there till to-morrow mornin'. You'll find a bowl o' crackers an' milk on your bureau, an' I don't want to hear a sound from you till breakfast time. Jane, run an' take the dish towels off the line and shut the shed doors; we're goin' to have a turrible shower."
"Not when other people have to help feed, clothe, and educate them," responded Miranda. "Now you go upstairs, put on your nightgown, go to bed, and stay there until tomorrow morning. You'll find a bowl of crackers and milk on your dresser, and I don't want to hear a sound from you until breakfast. Jane, run and take the dish towels off the line and close the shed doors; we’re going to have a terrible storm."
"We've had it, I should think," said Jane quietly, as she went to do her sister's bidding. "I don't often speak my mind, Mirandy; but you ought not to have said what you did about Lorenzo. He was what he was, and can't be made any different; but he was Rebecca's father, and Aurelia always says he was a good husband."
"We've had enough, I think," Jane said softly as she went to fulfill her sister's request. "I don't usually speak up, Mirandy, but you shouldn't have said what you did about Lorenzo. He was who he was and can't be changed; but he was Rebecca's father, and Aurelia always says he was a good husband."
Miranda had never heard the proverbial phrase about the only "good Indian," but her mind worked in the conventional manner when she said grimly, "Yes, I've noticed that dead husbands are usually good ones; but the truth needs an airin' now and then, and that child will never amount to a hill o' beans till she gets some of her father trounced out of her. I'm glad I said just what I did."
Miranda had never heard the saying about the only "good Indian," but she thought like everyone else when she said grimly, "Yeah, I've seen that dead husbands are usually great; but the truth needs to be brought out every once in a while, and that kid will never amount to anything until she gets rid of some of her father's influence. I'm glad I said exactly what I did."
"I daresay you are," remarked Jane, with what might be described as one of her annual bursts of courage; "but all the same, Mirandy, it wasn't good manners, and it wasn't good religion!"
"I dare say you are," Jane said, showing one of her yearly moments of bravery; "but still, Mirandy, that wasn't good manners, and it wasn't good faith!"
The clap of thunder that shook the house just at that moment made no such peal in Miranda Sawyer's ears as Jane's remark made when it fell with a deafening roar on her conscience.
The thunder that rattled the house at that moment didn't impact Miranda Sawyer's ears the way Jane's comment did when it hit her conscience like a loud crash.
Perhaps after all it is just as well to speak only once a year and then speak to the purpose.
Maybe it’s better to only talk once a year and make it count.
Rebecca mounted the back stairs wearily, closed the door of her bedroom, and took off the beloved pink gingham with trembling fingers. Her cotton handkerchief was rolled into a hard ball, and in the intervals of reaching the more difficult buttons that lay between her shoulder blades and her belt, she dabbed her wet eyes carefully, so that they should not rain salt water on the finery that had been worn at such a price. She smoothed it out carefully, pinched up the white ruffle at the neck, and laid it away in a drawer with an extra little sob at the roughness of life. The withered pink rose fell on the floor. Rebecca looked at it and thought to herself, "Just like my happy day!" Nothing could show more clearly the kind of child she was than the fact that she instantly perceived the symbolism of the rose, and laid it in the drawer with the dress as if she were burying the whole episode with all its sad memories. It was a child's poetic instinct with a dawning hint of woman's sentiment in it.
Rebecca climbed the back stairs, feeling tired, closed the door to her bedroom, and took off the beloved pink gingham dress with shaky fingers. Her cotton handkerchief was crumpled into a tight ball, and between struggling with the difficult buttons that were positioned between her shoulder blades and her belt, she dabbed at her tearful eyes to avoid letting saltwater spill onto the beautiful dress that had cost so much to wear. She carefully smoothed it out, pinched the white ruffle at the neck, and tucked it away in a drawer, letting out an extra little sob at the harshness of life. The dried pink rose fell to the floor. Rebecca looked at it and thought, "Just like my happy day!" Nothing highlighted what kind of child she was more than the way she immediately recognized the symbolism of the rose and placed it in the drawer with the dress, as if she were burying the entire event along with all its sad memories. It was a child’s poetic instinct mixed with a budding sense of womanhood.
She braided her hair in the two accustomed pig-tails, took off her best shoes (which had happily escaped notice), with all the while a fixed resolve growing in her mind, that of leaving the brick house and going back to the farm. She would not be received there with open arms,—there was no hope of that,—but she would help her mother about the house and send Hannah to Riverboro in her place. "I hope she'll like it!" she thought in a momentary burst of vindictiveness. She sat by the window trying to make some sort of plan, watching the lightning play over the hilltop and the streams of rain chasing each other down the lightning rod. And this was the day that had dawned so joyfully! It had been a red sunrise, and she had leaned on the window sill studying her lesson and thinking what a lovely world it was. And what a golden morning! The changing of the bare, ugly little schoolroom into a bower of beauty; Miss Dearborn's pleasure at her success with the Simpson twins' recitation; the privilege of decorating the blackboard; the happy thought of drawing Columbia from the cigar box; the intoxicating moment when the school clapped her! And what an afternoon! How it went on from glory to glory, beginning with Emma Jane's telling her, Rebecca Randall, that she was as "handsome as a picture."
She tied her hair into two familiar pigtails, took off her best shoes (which thankfully went unnoticed), while a strong determination grew in her mind to leave the brick house and return to the farm. She knew she wouldn’t be welcomed with open arms—there was no chance of that—but she would help her mom around the house and send Hannah to Riverboro in her place. "I hope she likes it!" she thought in a brief moment of spite. She sat by the window trying to figure out a plan, watching the lightning dance over the hilltop and the streams of rain racing down the lightning rod. And this was the day that had started so happily! There had been a red sunrise, and she had leaned on the windowsill studying her lesson, thinking about what a beautiful world it was. And what a golden morning! Transforming the bare, ugly little classroom into a beautiful space; Miss Dearborn’s joy over her success with the Simpson twins' recitation; the chance to decorate the blackboard; the delightful thought of drawing Columbia from the cigar box; the thrilling moment when the school applauded her! And what an afternoon! It just kept getting better and better, starting with Emma Jane telling her, Rebecca Randall, that she was as "pretty as a picture."
She lived through the exercises again in memory, especially her dialogue with Emma Jane and her inspiration of using the bough-covered stove as a mossy bank where the country girl could sit and watch her flocks. This gave Emma Jane a feeling of such ease that she never recited better; and how generous it was of her to lend the garnet ring to the city girl, fancying truly how it would flash as she furled her parasol and approached the awe-stricken shepherdess! She had thought aunt Miranda might be pleased that the niece invited down from the farm had succeeded so well at school; but no, there was no hope of pleasing her in that or in any other way. She would go to Maplewood on the stage next day with Mr. Cobb and get home somehow from cousin Ann's. On second thoughts her aunts might not allow it. Very well, she would slip away now and see if she could stay all night with the Cobbs and be off next morning before breakfast.
She replayed the exercises in her mind, especially her chat with Emma Jane and how she inspired her to use the bough-covered stove as a mossy bank where the country girl could sit and watch her sheep. This gave Emma Jane such a feeling of comfort that she never performed better; it was so generous of her to lend the garnet ring to the city girl, imagining how it would sparkle as she closed her parasol and approached the amazed shepherdess! She had thought Aunt Miranda might be pleased that the niece from the farm had done so well at school, but no, there was no hope of making her happy in that or any other way. She would take the stage to Maplewood the next day with Mr. Cobb and find a way home from cousin Ann's. On second thoughts, her aunts might not let her go. Fine, she would slip away now and see if she could stay overnight with the Cobbs and leave the next morning before breakfast.
Rebecca never stopped long to think, more 's the pity, so she put on her oldest dress and hat and jacket, then wrapped her nightdress, comb, and toothbrush in a bundle and dropped it softly out of the window. Her room was in the L and her window at no very dangerous distance from the ground, though had it been, nothing could have stopped her at that moment. Somebody who had gone on the roof to clean out the gutters had left a cleat nailed to the side of the house about halfway between the window and the top of the back porch. Rebecca heard the sound of the sewing machine in the dining-room and the chopping of meat in the kitchen; so knowing the whereabouts of both her aunts, she scrambled out of the window, caught hold of the lightning rod, slid down to the helpful cleat, jumped to the porch, used the woodbine trellis for a ladder, and was flying up the road in the storm before she had time to arrange any details of her future movements.
Rebecca didn't take much time to think, which was a shame, so she put on her oldest dress, hat, and jacket, then bundled up her nightgown, comb, and toothbrush and quietly dropped it out of the window. Her room was in the L and her window wasn't too high off the ground, but even if it had been, nothing could have stopped her at that moment. Someone who had gone up to the roof to clean the gutters had left a cleat nailed to the side of the house about halfway between the window and the top of the back porch. Rebecca heard the sewing machine running in the dining room and the chopping of meat in the kitchen; knowing where both her aunts were, she climbed out the window, grabbed the lightning rod, slid down to the cleat, jumped onto the porch, used the woodbine trellis like a ladder, and was dashing up the road in the storm before she could even think about her next moves.
Jeremiah Cobb sat at his lonely supper at the table by the kitchen window. "Mother," as he with his old-fashioned habits was in the habit of calling his wife, was nursing a sick neighbor. Mrs. Cobb was mother only to a little headstone in the churchyard, where reposed "Sarah Ann, beloved daughter of Jeremiah and Sarah Cobb, aged seventeen months;" but the name of mother was better than nothing, and served at any rate as a reminder of her woman's crown of blessedness.
Jeremiah Cobb sat alone at dinner at the table by the kitchen window. He referred to his wife as "Mother," a term he continued to use out of habit. She was currently taking care of a sick neighbor. Mrs. Cobb was only a mother to a small headstone in the churchyard, which marked the resting place of "Sarah Ann, beloved daughter of Jeremiah and Sarah Cobb, aged seventeen months." However, the title of mother was better than nothing and served as a reminder of her status as a woman.
The rain still fell, and the heavens were dark, though it was scarcely five o'clock. Looking up from his "dish of tea," the old man saw at the open door a very figure of woe. Rebecca's face was so swollen with tears and so sharp with misery that for a moment he scarcely recognized her. Then when he heard her voice asking, "Please may I come in, Mr. Cobb?" he cried, "Well I vow! It's my little lady passenger! Come to call on old uncle Jerry and pass the time o' day, hev ye? Why, you're wet as sops. Draw up to the stove. I made a fire, hot as it was, thinkin' I wanted somethin' warm for my supper, bein' kind o' lonesome without mother. She's settin' up with Seth Strout to-night. There, we'll hang your soppy hat on the nail, put your jacket over the chair rail, an' then you turn your back to the stove an' dry yourself good."
The rain kept falling, and the sky was dark, even though it was barely five o'clock. Looking up from his "dish of tea," the old man saw a figure of despair at the open door. Rebecca's face was so swollen from tears and so pained with sadness that for a moment he hardly recognized her. Then, when he heard her voice asking, "May I come in, Mr. Cobb?" he exclaimed, "Well, I can't believe it! It's my little lady passenger! Come to visit old uncle Jerry and chat a bit, have you? Why, you're soaking wet. Come over to the stove. I made a fire, even though it was hot, thinking I’d want something warm for dinner, feeling kind of lonely without my mother. She's staying with Seth Strout tonight. There, we'll hang your wet hat on the nail, put your jacket over the chair rail, and then you can turn your back to the stove and dry yourself off well."
Uncle Jerry had never before said so many words at a time, but he had caught sight of the child's red eyes and tear-stained cheeks, and his big heart went out to her in her trouble, quite regardless of any circumstances that might have caused it.
Uncle Jerry had never before spoken so many words at once, but he noticed the child's red eyes and tear-stained cheeks, and his big heart went out to her in her distress, regardless of any circumstances that might have caused it.
Rebecca stood still for a moment until uncle Jerry took his seat again at the table, and then, unable to contain herself longer, cried, "Oh, Mr. Cobb, I've run away from the brick house, and I want to go back to the farm. Will you keep me to-night and take me up to Maplewood in the stage? I haven't got any money for my fare, but I'll earn it somehow afterwards."
Rebecca stood there for a moment until Uncle Jerry sat back down at the table, and then, unable to hold back any longer, exclaimed, "Oh, Mr. Cobb, I’ve run away from the brick house, and I want to go back to the farm. Will you let me stay with you tonight and take me to Maplewood on the stage? I don’t have any money for my fare, but I’ll figure out a way to earn it later."
"Well, I guess we won't quarrel 'bout money, you and me," said the old man; "and we've never had our ride together, anyway, though we allers meant to go down river, not up."
"Well, I guess we won't fight over money, you and I," said the old man; "and we've never taken our trip together, anyway, even though we always meant to go downriver, not upriver."
"I shall never see Milltown now!" sobbed Rebecca.
"I'll never see Milltown again!" Rebecca cried.
"Come over here side o' me an' tell me all about it," coaxed uncle Jerry. "Jest set down on that there wooden cricket an' out with the whole story."
"Come over here and sit next to me and tell me all about it," uncle Jerry encouraged. "Just sit down on that wooden stool and share the entire story."
Rebecca leaned her aching head against Mr. Cobb's homespun knee and recounted the history of her trouble. Tragic as that history seemed to her passionate and undisciplined mind, she told it truthfully and without exaggeration.
Rebecca rested her sore head against Mr. Cobb's simple knee and shared the story of her struggles. As tragic as that story felt to her passionate and unruly mind, she told it honestly and without exaggeration.
X
RAINBOW BRIDGES
Uncle Jerry coughed and stirred in his chair a good deal during Rebecca's recital, but he carefully concealed any undue feeling of sympathy, just muttering, "Poor little soul! We'll see what we can do for her!"
Uncle Jerry coughed and fidgeted in his chair a lot during Rebecca's recital, but he made sure to hide any excessive sympathy, just muttering, "Poor kid! We'll see what we can do for her!"
"You will take me to Maplewood, won't you, Mr. Cobb?" begged Rebecca piteously.
"You'll take me to Maplewood, right, Mr. Cobb?" Rebecca asked desperately.
"Don't you fret a mite," he answered, with a crafty little notion at the back of his mind; "I'll see the lady passenger through somehow. Now take a bite o' somethin' to eat, child. Spread some o' that tomato preserve on your bread; draw up to the table. How'd you like to set in mother's place an' pour me out another cup o' hot tea?"
"Don't worry at all," he replied, with a clever thought in the back of his mind; "I'll make sure the lady passenger is taken care of. Now have a bite to eat, kid. Spread some of that tomato preserve on your bread; come sit at the table. How would you like to sit in mom's spot and pour me another cup of hot tea?"
Mr. Jeremiah Cobb's mental machinery was simple, and did not move very smoothly save when propelled by his affection or sympathy. In the present case these were both employed to his advantage, and mourning his stupidity and praying for some flash of inspiration to light his path, he blundered along, trusting to Providence.
Mr. Jeremiah Cobb's thought process was straightforward and didn't run very well unless driven by his feelings or compassion. In this situation, both were working in his favor, and while he lamented his foolishness and hoped for a spark of inspiration to show him the way, he stumbled forward, relying on fate.
Rebecca, comforted by the old man's tone, and timidly enjoying the dignity of sitting in Mrs. Cobb's seat and lifting the blue china teapot, smiled faintly, smoothed her hair, and dried her eyes.
Rebecca, reassured by the old man's voice, and shyly appreciating the honor of sitting in Mrs. Cobb's chair and holding the blue china teapot, smiled softly, ran her fingers through her hair, and dried her eyes.
"I suppose your mother'll be turrible glad to see you back again?" queried Mr. Cobb.
"I guess your mom will be really happy to see you back again?" asked Mr. Cobb.
A tiny fear—just a baby thing—in the bottom of Rebecca's heart stirred and grew larger the moment it was touched with a question.
A small fear—just a little thing—in the bottom of Rebecca's heart stirred and grew bigger the moment it was prompted by a question.
"She won't like it that I ran away, I s'pose, and she'll be sorry that I couldn't please aunt Mirandy; but I'll make her understand, just as I did you."
"She probably won't be happy that I ran away, and she'll regret that I couldn't make Aunt Mirandy happy; but I'll make her see it the same way I did with you."
"I s'pose she was thinkin' o' your schoolin', lettin' you come down here; but land! you can go to school in Temperance, I s'pose?"
"I guess she was thinking about your education, letting you come down here; but really! You can go to school in Temperance, I assume?"
"There's only two months' school now in Temperance, and the farm 's too far from all the other schools."
"There's only two months of school left in Temperance, and the farm is too far from all the other schools."
"Oh well! there's other things in the world beside edjercation," responded uncle Jerry, attacking a piece of apple pie.
"Oh well! There are other things in the world besides education," responded Uncle Jerry, digging into a slice of apple pie.
"Ye—es; though mother thought that was going to be the making of me," returned Rebecca sadly, giving a dry little sob as she tried to drink her tea.
"Yeah—though Mom thought that was going to be the making of me," Rebecca replied sadly, letting out a dry little sob as she tried to drink her tea.
"It'll be nice for you to be all together again at the farm—such a house full o' children!" remarked the dear old deceiver, who longed for nothing so much as to cuddle and comfort the poor little creature.
"It'll be great for you to all be together again at the farm—what a house full of kids!" said the dear old trickster, who wanted nothing more than to hug and soothe the poor little thing.
"It's too full—that's the trouble. But I'll make Hannah come to Riverboro in my place."
"It's too crowded—that's the issue. But I'll have Hannah go to Riverboro instead of me."
"S'pose Mirandy 'n' Jane'll have her? I should be 'most afraid they wouldn't. They'll be kind o' mad at your goin' home, you know, and you can't hardly blame 'em."
"Do you think Mirandy and Jane will take her? I should be almost afraid they won't. They'll be kind of upset about you going home, you know, and you can't really blame them."
This was quite a new thought,—that the brick house might be closed to Hannah, since she, Rebecca, had turned her back upon its cold hospitality.
This was a completely new idea—that the brick house might be shut off from Hannah because she, Rebecca, had rejected its unwelcoming hospitality.
"How is this school down here in Riverboro—pretty good?" inquired uncle Jerry, whose brain was working with an altogether unaccustomed rapidity,—so much so that it almost terrified him.
"How's the school down here in Riverboro—pretty good?" asked uncle Jerry, whose mind was racing with an unusual speed—so much so that it almost scared him.
"Oh, it's a splendid school! And Miss Dearborn is a splendid teacher!"
"Oh, it's an amazing school! And Miss Dearborn is an amazing teacher!"
"You like her, do you? Well, you'd better believe she returns the compliment. Mother was down to the store this afternoon buyin' liniment for Seth Strout, an' she met Miss Dearborn on the bridge. They got to talkin' 'bout school, for mother has summer-boarded a lot o' the schoolmarms, an' likes 'em. 'How does the little Temperance girl git along?' asks mother. 'Oh, she's the best scholar I have!' says Miss Dearborn. 'I could teach school from sun-up to sun-down if scholars was all like Rebecca Randall,' says she."
"You like her, huh? Well, you'd better believe she feels the same way. Mom was at the store this afternoon getting liniment for Seth Strout, and she ran into Miss Dearborn on the bridge. They started talking about school since Mom has hosted a lot of the teachers for the summer, and she really likes them. 'How does that little Temperance girl do?' Mom asks. 'Oh, she's the best student I have!' says Miss Dearborn. 'I could teach school from sunrise to sunset if all my students were like Rebecca Randall,' she says."
"Oh, Mr. Cobb, DID she say that?" glowed Rebecca, her face sparkling and dimpling in an instant. "I've tried hard all the time, but I'll study the covers right off of the books now."
"Oh, Mr. Cobb, did she really say that?" beamed Rebecca, her face lighting up with joy. "I've been trying my best all along, but now I'm going to study those books like crazy."
"You mean you would if you'd ben goin' to stay here," interposed uncle Jerry. "Now ain't it too bad you've jest got to give it all up on account o' your aunt Mirandy? Well, I can't hardly blame ye. She's cranky an' she's sour; I should think she'd ben nussed on bonny-clabber an' green apples. She needs bearin' with; an' I guess you ain't much on patience, be ye?"
"You mean you would if you were going to stay here," interjected Uncle Jerry. "Isn't it too bad that you have to give it all up because of your Aunt Mirandy? Well, I can't really blame you. She's temperamental and grumpy; I would think she was raised on sour milk and green apples. She needs a little understanding; and I guess you're not really good at being patient, are you?"
"Not very much," replied Rebecca dolefully.
"Not much," Rebecca said sadly.
"If I'd had this talk with ye yesterday," pursued Mr. Cobb, "I believe I'd have advised ye different. It's too late now, an' I don't feel to say you've ben all in the wrong; but if 't was to do over again, I'd say, well, your aunt Mirandy gives you clothes and board and schoolin' and is goin' to send you to Wareham at a big expense. She's turrible hard to get along with, an' kind o' heaves benefits at your head, same 's she would bricks; but they're benefits jest the same, an' mebbe it's your job to kind o' pay for 'em in good behavior. Jane's a leetle bit more easy goin' than Mirandy, ain't she, or is she jest as hard to please?"
"If I had this conversation with you yesterday," Mr. Cobb continued, "I think I would have advised you differently. It's too late now, and I don't want to say you've been entirely in the wrong; but if I could do it over, I’d say, well, your Aunt Mirandy provides you with clothes, food, and schooling and is going to send you to Wareham at a considerable expense. She's really tough to deal with, and she kind of throws those benefits at you like they’re bricks; but they’re still benefits, and maybe it’s your responsibility to kind of repay her with good behavior. Jane is a little bit easier to deal with than Mirandy, right, or is she just as difficult to please?"
"Oh, aunt Jane and I get along splendidly," exclaimed Rebecca; "she's just as good and kind as she can be, and I like her better all the time. I think she kind of likes me, too; she smoothed my hair once. I'd let her scold me all day long, for she understands; but she can't stand up for me against aunt Mirandy; she's about as afraid of her as I am."
"Oh, Aunt Jane and I get along great," Rebecca exclaimed. "She's as good and kind as she can be, and I like her more all the time. I think she kind of likes me too; she smoothed my hair once. I'd let her scold me all day long because she gets it, but she can't stand up for me against Aunt Mirandy; she's just as afraid of her as I am."
"Jane'll be real sorry to-morrow to find you've gone away, I guess; but never mind, it can't be helped. If she has a kind of a dull time with Mirandy, on account o' her bein' so sharp, why of course she'd set great store by your comp'ny. Mother was talkin' with her after prayer meetin' the other night. 'You wouldn't know the brick house, Sarah,' says Jane. 'I'm keepin' a sewin' school, an' my scholar has made three dresses. What do you think o' that,' says she, 'for an old maid's child? I've taken a class in Sunday-school,' says Jane, 'an' think o' renewin' my youth an' goin' to the picnic with Rebecca,' says she; an' mother declares she never see her look so young 'n' happy."
"Jane will be really sorry tomorrow to find out you've left, I guess; but it can’t be helped. If she gets a bit bored with Mirandy because she's so sharp, she’d definitely appreciate your company. Mom was talking to her after prayer meeting the other night. 'You wouldn’t recognize the brick house, Sarah,' Jane said. 'I’m running a sewing school, and my student has made three dresses. What do you think of that for an old maid's kid?' Jane said, 'I’ve taken a class in Sunday school,' and she’s thinking about renewing her youth and going to the picnic with Rebecca; and Mom says she’s never seen her look so young and happy."
There was a silence that could be felt in the little kitchen; a silence only broken by the ticking of the tall clock and the beating of Rebecca's heart, which, it seemed to her, almost drowned the voice of the clock. The rain ceased, a sudden rosy light filled the room, and through the window a rainbow arch could be seen spanning the heavens like a radiant bridge. Bridges took one across difficult places, thought Rebecca, and uncle Jerry seemed to have built one over her troubles and given her strength to walk.
There was a silence that could be felt in the small kitchen; a silence only interrupted by the ticking of the tall clock and the beating of Rebecca's heart, which seemed to almost drown out the sound of the clock. The rain stopped, a sudden rosy light filled the room, and through the window, a rainbow could be seen arching across the sky like a bright bridge. Bridges help you get through tough times, Rebecca thought, and Uncle Jerry seemed to have built one over her troubles and given her the strength to cross it.
"The shower 's over," said the old man, filling his pipe; "it's cleared the air, washed the face o' the airth nice an' clean, an' everything to-morrer will shine like a new pin—when you an' I are drivin' up river."
"The shower's done," said the old man, preparing his pipe; "it’s freshened up the air, cleaned the face of the earth nicely, and everything tomorrow will shine like a new penny—when you and I are driving up the river."
Rebecca pushed her cup away, rose from the table, and put on her hat and jacket quietly. "I'm not going to drive up river, Mr. Cobb," she said. "I'm going to stay here and—catch bricks; catch 'em without throwing 'em back, too. I don't know as aunt Mirandy will take me in after I've run away, but I'm going back now while I have the courage. You wouldn't be so good as to go with me, would you, Mr. Cobb?"
Rebecca pushed her cup away, stood up from the table, and quietly put on her hat and jacket. "I'm not going to drive up the river, Mr. Cobb," she said. "I'm going to stay here and—catch bricks; catch them without throwing them back, too. I don’t know if Aunt Mirandy will take me in after I’ve run away, but I’m going back now while I have the courage. You wouldn’t be kind enough to go with me, would you, Mr. Cobb?"
"You'd better b'lieve your uncle Jerry don't propose to leave till he gits this thing fixed up," cried the old man delightedly. "Now you've had all you can stan' to-night, poor little soul, without gettin' a fit o' sickness; an' Mirandy'll be sore an' cross an' in no condition for argyment; so my plan is jest this: to drive you over to the brick house in my top buggy; to have you set back in the corner, an' I git out an' go to the side door; an' when I git your aunt Mirandy 'n' aunt Jane out int' the shed to plan for a load o' wood I'm goin' to have hauled there this week, you'll slip out o' the buggy and go upstairs to bed. The front door won't be locked, will it?"
"You can bet your uncle Jerry isn't planning to leave until he gets this sorted out," the old man exclaimed happily. "Now you’ve had all you can take tonight, poor thing, without getting sick; and Mirandy will be angry and not in the mood to argue. So here’s my plan: I’ll drive you over to the brick house in my top buggy; you’ll sit back in the corner, and I’ll get out and go to the side door. When I get your Aunt Mirandy and Aunt Jane out in the shed to discuss the load of wood I’m having delivered this week, you’ll quietly slip out of the buggy and head upstairs to bed. The front door won’t be locked, will it?"
"Not this time of night," Rebecca answered; "not till aunt Mirandy goes to bed; but oh! what if it should be?"
"Not this time of night," Rebecca replied; "not until Aunt Mirandy goes to bed; but oh! what if it does?"
"Well, it won't; an' if 't is, why we'll have to face it out; though in my opinion there's things that won't bear facin' out an' had better be settled comfortable an' quiet. You see you ain't run away yet; you've only come over here to consult me 'bout runnin' away, an' we've concluded it ain't wuth the trouble. The only real sin you've committed, as I figger it out, was in comin' here by the winder when you'd ben sent to bed. That ain't so very black, an' you can tell your aunt Jane 'bout it come Sunday, when she's chock full o' religion, an' she can advise you when you'd better tell your aunt Mirandy. I don't believe in deceivin' folks, but if you've hed hard thoughts you ain't obleeged to own 'em up; take 'em to the Lord in prayer, as the hymn says, and then don't go on hevin' 'em. Now come on; I'm all hitched up to go over to the post-office; don't forget your bundle; 'it's always a journey, mother, when you carry a nightgown;' them 's the first words your uncle Jerry ever heard you say! He didn't think you'd be bringin' your nightgown over to his house. Step in an' curl up in the corner; we ain't goin' to let folks see little runaway gals, 'cause they're goin' back to begin all over ag'in!"
"Well, it won't; and if it does, we'll just have to deal with it; though in my opinion, there are things that are better handled in a calm and quiet way. You see, you haven't run away yet; you've only come here to talk to me about running away, and we've agreed it's not worth the trouble. The only real mistake you've made, as I see it, was sneaking over here through the window when you were supposed to be in bed. That’s not such a big deal, and you can tell your Aunt Jane about it on Sunday, when she's full of religion, and she can advise you on when to tell your Aunt Mirandy. I don't believe in lying to people, but if you've had bad thoughts, you don't have to admit to them; just take them to the Lord in prayer, as the hymn says, and then don't continue to have them. Now come on; I'm all set to go over to the post office; don't forget your bundle; 'it's always a journey, mother, when you carry a nightgown;' those were the first words your Uncle Jerry ever heard you say! He didn't think you'd be bringing your nightgown over to his house. Step in and curl up in the corner; we’re not going to let people see little runaway girls because they’re going back to start all over again!"
When Rebecca crept upstairs, and undressing in the dark finally found herself in her bed that night, though she was aching and throbbing in every nerve, she felt a kind of peace stealing over her. She had been saved from foolishness and error; kept from troubling her poor mother; prevented from angering and mortifying her aunts.
When Rebecca tiptoed upstairs and, after undressing in the dark, finally got into bed that night, even though she felt achy and tense all over, a sense of peace washed over her. She had been spared from making foolish mistakes; she didn’t burden her poor mom; she avoided upsetting and embarrassing her aunts.
Her heart was melted now, and she determined to win aunt Miranda's approval by some desperate means, and to try and forget the one thing that rankled worst, the scornful mention of her father, of whom she thought with the greatest admiration, and whom she had not yet heard criticised; for such sorrows and disappointments as Aurelia Randall had suffered had never been communicated to her children.
Her heart was softened now, and she decided to win Aunt Miranda's approval by any means necessary, trying to forget the one thing that hurt the most—the contemptuous mention of her father, whom she admired greatly and had never heard criticized; because the sorrows and disappointments that Aurelia Randall had endured had never been shared with her children.
It would have been some comfort to the bruised, unhappy little spirit to know that Miranda Sawyer was passing an uncomfortable night, and that she tacitly regretted her harshness, partly because Jane had taken such a lofty and virtuous position in the matter. She could not endure Jane's disapproval, although she would never have confessed to such a weakness.
It would have been somewhat reassuring to the hurt, unhappy little spirit to know that Miranda Sawyer was having an uncomfortable night and that she secretly regretted her harshness, partly because Jane had taken such a high and virtuous stance on the issue. She couldn't stand Jane's disapproval, even though she would never admit to such a weakness.
As uncle Jerry drove homeward under the stars, well content with his attempts at keeping the peace, he thought wistfully of the touch of Rebecca's head on his knee, and the rain of her tears on his hand; of the sweet reasonableness of her mind when she had the matter put rightly before her; of her quick decision when she had once seen the path of duty; of the touching hunger for love and understanding that were so characteristic in her. "Lord A'mighty!" he ejaculated under his breath, "Lord A'mighty! to hector and abuse a child like that one! 'T ain't ABUSE exactly, I know, or 't wouldn't be to some o' your elephant-hided young ones; but to that little tender will-o'-the-wisp a hard word 's like a lash. Mirandy Sawyer would be a heap better woman if she had a little gravestun to remember, same's mother 'n' I have."
As Uncle Jerry drove homeward under the stars, feeling satisfied with his efforts to keep the peace, he thought fondly of the feel of Rebecca's head on his knee and the rain of her tears on his hand; of how reasonable she was when the issue was explained to her properly; of her quick decision once she understood her duty; and of the heartfelt need for love and understanding that defined her. "Good grief!" he muttered under his breath, "Good grief! to bully and mistreat a child like her! It’s not ABUSE exactly, I know, or it wouldn’t be to some of your thick-skinned kids; but to that delicate little soul, a harsh word feels like a whip. Mirandy Sawyer would be a much better person if she remembered a little more about life and death, just like Mother and I do."
"I never see a child improve in her work as Rebecca has to-day," remarked Miranda Sawyer to Jane on Saturday evening. "That settin' down I gave her was probably just what she needed, and I daresay it'll last for a month."
"I've never seen a child improve in her work like Rebecca has today," remarked Miranda Sawyer to Jane on Saturday evening. "That talk I had with her was probably exactly what she needed, and I bet it'll last for a month."
"I'm glad you're pleased," returned Jane. "A cringing worm is what you want, not a bright, smiling child. Rebecca looks to me as if she'd been through the Seven Years' War. When she came downstairs this morning it seemed to me she'd grown old in the night. If you follow my advice, which you seldom do, you'll let me take her and Emma Jane down beside the river to-morrow afternoon and bring Emma Jane home to a good Sunday supper. Then if you'll let her go to Milltown with the Cobbs on Wednesday, that'll hearten her up a little and coax back her appetite. Wednesday 's a holiday on account of Miss Dearborn's going home to her sister's wedding, and the Cobbs and Perkinses want to go down to the Agricultural Fair."
"I'm glad you're happy," Jane replied. "You want a submissive little worm, not a cheerful, smiling kid. To me, Rebecca looks like she's been through a tough time. When she came downstairs this morning, it seemed like she aged overnight. If you take my advice, which you rarely do, let me take her and Emma Jane down by the river tomorrow afternoon and bring Emma Jane back for a nice Sunday dinner. Then, if you let her go to Milltown with the Cobbs on Wednesday, it will lift her spirits a bit and help her get her appetite back. Wednesday is a holiday because Miss Dearborn is going home for her sister's wedding, and the Cobbs and Perkinses want to go to the Agricultural Fair."
XI
"THE STIRRING OF THE POWERS"
Rebecca's visit to Milltown was all that her glowing fancy had painted it, except that recent readings about Rome and Venice disposed her to believe that those cities might have an advantage over Milltown in the matter of mere pictorial beauty. So soon does the soul outgrow its mansions that after once seeing Milltown her fancy ran out to the future sight of Portland; for that, having islands and a harbor and two public monuments, must be far more beautiful than Milltown, which would, she felt, take its proud place among the cities of the earth, by reason of its tremendous business activity rather than by any irresistible appeal to the imagination.
Rebecca's visit to Milltown was everything her vivid imagination had envisioned, except her recent readings about Rome and Venice made her think those cities might be more visually stunning than Milltown. The soul quickly outgrows its surroundings, and after seeing Milltown, her thoughts drifted to the future sight of Portland; with its islands, harbor, and two public monuments, it had to be far more beautiful than Milltown. She felt that Milltown would earn its place among the world's cities, not because of any irresistible charm, but due to its immense business activity.
It would be impossible for two children to see more, do more, walk more, talk more, eat more, or ask more questions than Rebecca and Emma Jane did on that eventful Wednesday.
It would be impossible for two kids to see more, do more, walk more, talk more, eat more, or ask more questions than Rebecca and Emma Jane did on that memorable Wednesday.
"She's the best company I ever see in all my life," said Mrs. Cobb to her husband that evening. "We ain't had a dull minute this day. She's well-mannered, too; she didn't ask for anything, and was thankful for whatever she got. Did you watch her face when we went into that tent where they was actin' out Uncle Tom's Cabin? And did you take notice of the way she told us about the book when we sat down to have our ice cream? I tell you Harriet Beecher Stowe herself couldn't 'a' done it better justice."
"She’s the best company I’ve ever had in my whole life," Mrs. Cobb said to her husband that evening. "We didn’t have a dull moment today. She’s so well-mannered, too; she didn’t ask for anything and was grateful for whatever she got. Did you see her face when we went into that tent where they were performing Uncle Tom’s Cabin? And did you notice how she talked about the book when we sat down for our ice cream? I tell you, Harriet Beecher Stowe herself couldn’t have done it better justice."
"I took it all in," responded Mr. Cobb, who was pleased that "mother" agreed with him about Rebecca. "I ain't sure but she's goin' to turn out somethin' remarkable,—a singer, or a writer, or a lady doctor like that Miss Parks up to Cornish."
"I took it all in," replied Mr. Cobb, who was happy that "mom" agreed with him about Rebecca. "I’m not sure, but she’s going to turn out to be something special—a singer, or a writer, or a lady doctor like that Miss Parks up in Cornish."
"Lady doctors are always home'paths, ain't they?" asked Mrs. Cobb, who, it is needless to say, was distinctly of the old school in medicine.
"Lady doctors are always homeopaths, right?" asked Mrs. Cobb, who, needless to say, was definitely from the old school of medicine.
"Land, no, mother; there ain't no home'path 'bout Miss Parks—she drives all over the country."
"Listen, Mom; there’s nothing homey about Miss Parks—she travels all over the country."
"I can't see Rebecca as a lady doctor, somehow," mused Mrs. Cobb. "Her gift o' gab is what's goin' to be the makin' of her; mebbe she'll lecture, or recite pieces, like that Portland elocutionist that come out here to the harvest supper."
"I just can't picture Rebecca as a lady doctor," Mrs. Cobb thought. "Her knack for conversation is what’s really going to set her apart; maybe she’ll give lectures or perform, like that elocutionist from Portland who came out here for the harvest supper."
"I guess she'll be able to write down her own pieces," said Mr. Cobb confidently; "she could make 'em up faster 'n she could read 'em out of a book."
"I guess she’ll be able to write her own stuff," Mr. Cobb said confidently; "she could come up with them faster than she could read them from a book."
"It's a pity she's so plain looking," remarked Mrs. Cobb, blowing out the candle.
"Such a shame she's so plain," Mrs. Cobb said, blowing out the candle.
"PLAIN LOOKING, mother?" exclaimed her husband in astonishment. "Look at the eyes of her; look at the hair of her, an' the smile, an' that there dimple! Look at Alice Robinson, that's called the prettiest child on the river, an' see how Rebecca shines her ri' down out o' sight! I hope Mirandy'll favor her comin' over to see us real often, for she'll let off some of her steam here, an' the brick house'll be consid'able safer for everybody concerned. We've known what it was to hev children, even if 't was more 'n thirty years ago, an' we can make allowances."
"Plain looking, really?" her husband exclaimed in surprise. "Just look at her eyes, her hair, that smile, and that adorable dimple! Compare her to Alice Robinson, who's called the prettiest child on the river, and see how Rebecca outshines her! I hope Mirandy will bring her over to visit us often because she can let off some steam here, and the brick house will be much safer for everyone involved. We've experienced raising children, even if it was over thirty years ago, and we can make allowances."
Notwithstanding the encomiums of Mr. and Mrs. Cobb, Rebecca made a poor hand at composition writing at this time. Miss Dearborn gave her every sort of subject that she had ever been given herself: Cloud Pictures; Abraham Lincoln; Nature; Philanthropy; Slavery; Intemperance; Joy and Duty; Solitude; but with none of them did Rebecca seem to grapple satisfactorily.
Despite the praise from Mr. and Mrs. Cobb, Rebecca struggled with writing compositions at this time. Miss Dearborn assigned her every topic she had ever received: Cloud Pictures; Abraham Lincoln; Nature; Philanthropy; Slavery; Intemperance; Joy and Duty; Solitude; but Rebecca didn’t manage to handle any of them well.
"Write as you talk, Rebecca," insisted poor Miss Dearborn, who secretly knew that she could never manage a good composition herself.
"Write the way you speak, Rebecca," insisted poor Miss Dearborn, who secretly knew that she could never write a good composition herself.
"But gracious me, Miss Dearborn! I don't talk about nature and slavery. I can't write unless I have something to say, can I?"
"But goodness, Miss Dearborn! I don't discuss nature and slavery. I can't write unless I have something to say, can I?"
"That is what compositions are for," returned Miss Dearborn doubtfully; "to make you have things to say. Now in your last one, on solitude, you haven't said anything very interesting, and you've made it too common and every-day to sound well. There are too many 'yous' and 'yours' in it; you ought to say 'one' now and then, to make it seem more like good writing. 'One opens a favorite book;' 'One's thoughts are a great comfort in solitude,' and so on."
"That's what essays are for," Miss Dearborn replied with some hesitation; "to give you something to express. In your last one about solitude, you didn't really say anything that grabs attention, and you've made it too ordinary to sound good. There are too many 'you's and 'yours' in it; you should use 'one' occasionally to make it feel more like genuine writing. 'One opens a favorite book;' 'One's thoughts are a great comfort in solitude,' and so forth."
"I don't know any more about solitude this week than I did about joy and duty last week," grumbled Rebecca.
"I don't know any more about being alone this week than I did about happiness and responsibility last week," Rebecca grumbled.
"You tried to be funny about joy and duty," said Miss Dearborn reprovingly; "so of course you didn't succeed."
"You tried to joke about happiness and responsibility," Miss Dearborn said with a hint of disapproval; "so of course you didn't succeed."
"I didn't know you were going to make us read the things out loud," said Rebecca with an embarrassed smile of recollection.
"I didn't know you were going to have us read those out loud," said Rebecca, smiling in embarrassment as she remembered.
"Joy and Duty" had been the inspiring subject given to the older children for a theme to be written in five minutes.
"Joy and Duty" was the inspiring topic assigned to the older kids for a five-minute writing exercise.
Rebecca had wrestled, struggled, perspired in vain. When her turn came to read she was obliged to confess she had written nothing.
Rebecca had fought hard, struggled, and sweated for nothing. When it was her turn to read, she had to admit she had written nothing.
"You have at least two lines, Rebecca," insisted the teacher, "for I see them on your slate."
"You have at least two lines, Rebecca," the teacher urged, "because I can see them on your slate."
"I'd rather not read them, please; they are not good," pleaded Rebecca.
"I'd prefer not to read them, please; they aren't good," Rebecca said.
"Read what you have, good or bad, little or much; I am excusing nobody."
"Read what you have, whether it's good or bad, little or a lot; I'm not excusing anyone."
Rebecca rose, overcome with secret laughter, dread, and mortification; then in a low voice she read the couplet:—
Rebecca stood up, filled with hidden laughter, fear, and embarrassment; then she quietly read the couplet:—
When Joy and Duty clash
Let Duty go to smash.
When Joy and Duty clash
Let Duty fall apart.
Dick Carter's head disappeared under the desk, while Living Perkins choked with laughter.
Dick Carter's head vanished under the desk, while Living Perkins struggled to contain his laughter.
Miss Dearborn laughed too; she was little more than a girl, and the training of the young idea seldom appealed to the sense of humor.
Miss Dearborn laughed too; she was barely more than a girl, and teaching young minds rarely connected with a sense of humor.
"You must stay after school and try again, Rebecca," she said, but she said it smilingly. "Your poetry hasn't a very nice idea in it for a good little girl who ought to love duty."
"You need to stay after school and give it another shot, Rebecca," she said, but she said it with a smile. "Your poetry doesn’t reflect a very nice idea for a good girl who should appreciate responsibility."
"It wasn't MY idea," said Rebecca apologetically. "I had only made the first line when I saw you were going to ring the bell and say the time was up. I had 'clash' written, and I couldn't think of anything then but 'hash' or 'rash' or 'smash.' I'll change it to this:—
"It wasn't MY idea," Rebecca said apologetically. "I had just come up with the first line when I noticed you were about to ring the bell and say the time was up. I had 'clash' written down, and I couldn’t think of anything else but 'hash,' 'rash,' or 'smash.' I’ll change it to this:—
When Joy and Duty clash,
'T is Joy must go to smash."
When Joy and Duty conflict,
it's Joy that has to break.
"That is better," Miss Dearborn answered, "though I cannot think 'going to smash' is a pretty expression for poetry."
"That's better," Miss Dearborn replied, "but I can't say 'going to smash' is a nice phrase for poetry."
Having been instructed in the use of the indefinite pronoun "one" as giving a refined and elegant touch to literary efforts, Rebecca painstakingly rewrote her composition on solitude, giving it all the benefit of Miss Dearborn's suggestion. It then appeared in the following form, which hardly satisfied either teacher or pupil:—
Having been taught that using the indefinite pronoun "one" adds a refined and elegant touch to writing, Rebecca carefully rewrote her essay on solitude, incorporating Miss Dearborn's suggestion. It then looked like this, which hardly pleased either the teacher or the student:—
SOLITUDE
Solitude
It would be false to say that one could ever be alone when one has
one's lovely thoughts to comfort one. One sits by one's self, it is
true, but one thinks; one opens one's favorite book and reads one's
favorite story; one speaks to one's aunt or one's brother, fondles
one's cat, or looks at one's photograph album. There is one's work
also: what a joy it is to one, if one happens to like work. All one's
little household tasks keep one from being lonely. Does one ever feel
bereft when one picks up one's chips to light one's fire for one's
evening meal? Or when one washes one's milk pail before milking one's
cow? One would fancy not.
R. R. R.
It would be misleading to say that anyone can truly be alone when they have their lovely thoughts to comfort them. Sure, you might sit by yourself, but you still think; you pick up your favorite book and read your favorite story; you chat with your aunt or your brother, pet your cat, or look through your photo album. Then there's your work: what a joy it is if you happen to enjoy it. All those little household tasks keep you from feeling lonely. Do you ever feel empty when you grab your kindling to light your fire for dinner? Or when you wash your milk pail before milking your cow? I doubt it.
R. R. R.
"It is perfectly dreadful," sighed Rebecca when she read it aloud after school. "Putting in 'one' all the time doesn't make it sound any more like a book, and it looks silly besides."
"It’s just awful," sighed Rebecca when she read it aloud after school. "Using 'one' all the time doesn’t make it sound any more like a book, and it looks stupid too."
"You say such queer things," objected Miss Dearborn. "I don't see what makes you do it. Why did you put in anything so common as picking up chips?"
"You say such strange things," Miss Dearborn protested. "I don't understand why you do it. Why did you include something as ordinary as picking up chips?"
"Because I was talking about 'household tasks' in the sentence before, and it IS one of my household tasks. Don't you think calling supper 'one's evening meal' is pretty? and isn't 'bereft' a nice word?"
"Because I was talking about 'household tasks' in the sentence before, and it is one of my household tasks. Don’t you think calling supper 'one's evening meal' is pretty? And isn't 'bereft' a nice word?"
"Yes, that part of it does very well. It is the cat, the chips, and the milk pail that I don't like."
"Yeah, that part is fine. It's the cat, the chips, and the milk pail that I don't like."
"All right!" sighed Rebecca. "Out they go; Does the cow go too?"
"All right!" sighed Rebecca. "Out they go. Does the cow go too?"
"Yes, I don't like a cow in a composition," said the difficult Miss Dearborn.
"Yeah, I don't like a cow in an essay," said the demanding Miss Dearborn.
The Milltown trip had not been without its tragic consequences of a small sort; for the next week Minnie Smellie's mother told Miranda Sawyer that she'd better look after Rebecca, for she was given to "swearing and profane language;" that she had been heard saying something dreadful that very afternoon, saying it before Emma Jane and Living Perkins, who only laughed and got down on all fours and chased her.
The Milltown trip had its share of small tragic outcomes; the following week, Minnie Smellie's mother warned Miranda Sawyer that she should keep an eye on Rebecca, as she was prone to "swearing and using bad language." She had been overheard saying something awful that very afternoon, in front of Emma Jane and Living Perkins, who just laughed and got down on all fours to chase her.
Rebecca, on being confronted and charged with the crime, denied it indignantly, and aunt Jane believed her.
Rebecca, when confronted and accused of the crime, denied it angrily, and Aunt Jane believed her.
"Search your memory, Rebecca, and try to think what Minnie overheard you say," she pleaded. "Don't be ugly and obstinate, but think real hard. When did they chase you up the road, and what were you doing?"
"Think back, Rebecca, and try to remember what Minnie heard you say," she urged. "Don't be difficult and stubborn, but really think about it. When did they come after you on the road, and what were you doing?"
A sudden light broke upon Rebecca's darkness.
A sudden light shone through Rebecca's darkness.
"Oh! I see it now," she exclaimed. "It had rained hard all the morning, you know, and the road was full of puddles. Emma Jane, Living, and I were walking along, and I was ahead. I saw the water streaming over the road towards the ditch, and it reminded me of Uncle Tom's Cabin at Milltown, when Eliza took her baby and ran across the Mississippi on the ice blocks, pursued by the bloodhounds. We couldn't keep from laughing after we came out of the tent because they were acting on such a small platform that Eliza had to run round and round, and part of the time the one dog they had pursued her, and part of the time she had to pursue the dog. I knew Living would remember, too, so I took off my waterproof and wrapped it round my books for a baby; then I shouted, 'MY GOD! THE RIVER!' just like that—the same as Eliza did in the play; then I leaped from puddle to puddle, and Living and Emma Jane pursued me like the bloodhounds. It's just like that stupid Minnie Smellie who doesn't know a game when she sees one. And Eliza wasn't swearing when she said 'My God! the river!' It was more like praying."
"Oh! I get it now," she said. "It had rained really hard all morning, you know, and the road was filled with puddles. Emma Jane, Living, and I were walking along, and I was in the lead. I noticed the water flowing over the road toward the ditch, and it reminded me of Uncle Tom's Cabin in Milltown, when Eliza took her baby and ran across the Mississippi on the ice blocks, chased by the bloodhounds. We couldn't stop laughing after we came out of the tent because they were performing on such a small stage that Eliza had to run in circles, and at times, the one dog they had chased her, and other times she had to chase the dog. I knew Living would remember too, so I took off my waterproof coat and wrapped it around my books like it was a baby; then I shouted, 'OH MY GOD! THE RIVER!' just like Eliza did in the play; then I jumped from puddle to puddle, and Living and Emma Jane chased me like the bloodhounds. It’s just like that silly Minnie Smellie who doesn’t recognize a game when she sees one. And Eliza wasn't cursing when she said 'My God! the river!' It was more like she was praying."
"Well, you've got no call to be prayin', any more than swearin', in the middle of the road," said Miranda; "but I'm thankful it's no worse. You're born to trouble as the sparks fly upward, an' I'm afraid you allers will be till you learn to bridle your unruly tongue."
"Well, you have no reason to be praying, just like you don’t have to swear, in the middle of the road," said Miranda; "but I’m glad it’s not worse. You’re destined for trouble just like sparks fly upward, and I’m afraid you always will be until you learn to control your unruly tongue."
"I wish sometimes that I could bridle Minnie's," murmured Rebecca, as she went to set the table for supper.
"I sometimes wish I could control Minnie's," Rebecca murmured as she went to set the table for dinner.
"I declare she IS the beatin'est child!" said Miranda, taking off her spectacles and laying down her mending. "You don't think she's a leetle mite crazy, do you, Jane?"
"I swear she IS the most amazing child!" said Miranda, taking off her glasses and putting down her sewing. "You don't think she's a tiny bit crazy, do you, Jane?"
"I don't think she's like the rest of us," responded Jane thoughtfully and with some anxiety in her pleasant face; "but whether it's for the better or the worse I can't hardly tell till she grows up. She's got the making of 'most anything in her, Rebecca has; but I feel sometimes as if we were not fitted to cope with her."
"I don't think she's like the rest of us," Jane replied thoughtfully, a look of concern on her friendly face. "But whether that's a good thing or a bad thing, I can't really say until she grows up. Rebecca has the potential to be anything she wants; but sometimes I feel like we're not equipped to handle her."
"Stuff an' nonsense!" said Miranda "Speak for yourself. I feel fitted to cope with any child that ever was born int' the world!"
"That's ridiculous!" said Miranda. "Speak for yourself. I feel ready to handle any child that was ever born into this world!"
"I know you do, Mirandy; but that don't MAKE you so," returned Jane with a smile.
"I know you do, Mirandy; but that doesn't MAKE you so," Jane replied with a smile.
The habit of speaking her mind freely was certainly growing on Jane to an altogether terrifying extent.
The habit of speaking her mind openly was definitely becoming a bit scary for Jane.
XII
"SEE THE PALE MARTYR"
It was about this time that Rebecca, who had been reading about the Spartan boy, conceived the idea of some mild form of self-punishment to be applied on occasions when she was fully convinced in her own mind that it would be salutary. The immediate cause of the decision was a somewhat sadder accident than was common, even in a career prolific in such things.
It was around this time that Rebecca, who had been reading about the Spartan boy, came up with the idea of using some light form of self-punishment for times when she genuinely believed it would be beneficial. The direct reason for this decision was a somewhat sadder incident than was usual, even in a life full of such events.
Clad in her best, Rebecca had gone to take tea with the Cobbs; but while crossing the bridge she was suddenly overcome by the beauty of the river and leaned over the newly painted rail to feast her eyes on the dashing torrent of the fall. Resting her elbows on the topmost board, and inclining her little figure forward in delicious ease, she stood there dreaming.
Clad in her best, Rebecca had gone to have tea with the Cobbs; but while crossing the bridge, she was suddenly overwhelmed by the beauty of the river and leaned over the newly painted railing to admire the rushing water of the falls. Resting her elbows on the top board and leaning her little figure forward in blissful comfort, she stood there lost in thought.
The river above the dam was a glassy lake with all the loveliness of blue heaven and green shore reflected in its surface; the fall was a swirling wonder of water, ever pouring itself over and over inexhaustibly in luminous golden gushes that lost themselves in snowy depths of foam. Sparkling in the sunshine, gleaming under the summer moon, cold and gray beneath a November sky, trickling over the dam in some burning July drought, swollen with turbulent power in some April freshet, how many young eyes gazed into the mystery and majesty of the falls along that river, and how many young hearts dreamed out their futures leaning over the bridge rail, seeing "the vision splendid" reflected there and often, too, watching it fade into "the light of common day."
The river above the dam was like a smooth lake, reflecting the beauty of the blue sky and green shores; the waterfall was a mesmerizing display of water, endlessly pouring over in bright golden streams that disappeared into frothy white depths. Sparkling in the sunlight, shining under the summer moon, cold and gray under a November sky, trickling over the dam during a scorching July drought, and swollen with power during an April flood, how many young eyes stared into the mystery and wonder of the falls along that river, and how many young hearts dreamed about their futures while leaning over the bridge rail, seeing "the vision splendid" reflected there and often watching it fade into "the light of common day."
Rebecca never went across the bridge without bending over the rail to wonder and to ponder, and at this special moment she was putting the finishing touches on a poem.
Rebecca never crossed the bridge without leaning over the railing to wonder and think, and at this moment, she was adding the final touches to a poem.
Two maidens by a river strayed
Down in the state of Maine.
The one was called Rebecca,
The other Emma Jane.
"I would my life were like the stream,"
Said her named Emma Jane,
"So quiet and so very smooth,
So free from every pain."
Two girls were wandering by a river
Down in the state of Maine.
The first was named Rebecca,
The other Emma Jane.
"I wish my life were like the stream,"
Said Emma Jane,
"So calm and so very smooth,
So free from all pain."
"I'd rather be a little drop
In the great rushing fall!
I would not choose the glassy lake,
'T would not suit me at all!"
(It was the darker maiden spoke
The words I just have stated,
The maidens twain were simply friends
And not at all related.)
"I'd rather be a small drop
In the big rushing waterfall!
I wouldn’t choose the smooth lake,
That wouldn’t suit me at all!"
(It was the darker girl who said
The words I just mentioned,
The two girls were just friends
And not related at all.)
But O! alas I we may not have
The things we hope to gain;
The quiet life may come to me,
The rush to Emma Jane!
But oh! unfortunately we might not have
The things we wish to achieve;
The peaceful life may come to me,
The hustle for Emma Jane!
"I don't like 'the rush to Emma Jane,' and I can't think of anything else. Oh! what a smell of paint! Oh! it is ON me! Oh! it's all over my best dress! Oh! what WILL aunt Miranda say!"
"I really dislike 'the rush to Emma Jane,' and I can't think about anything else. Oh! what a smell of paint! Oh! it's on me! Oh! it's all over my favorite dress! Oh! what will Aunt Miranda say!"
With tears of self-reproach streaming from her eyes, Rebecca flew up the hill, sure of sympathy, and hoping against hope for help of some sort.
With tears of self-blame streaming down her face, Rebecca ran up the hill, certain of finding sympathy and desperately hoping for some kind of help.
Mrs. Cobb took in the situation at a glance, and professed herself able to remove almost any stain from almost any fabric; and in this she was corroborated by uncle Jerry, who vowed that mother could git anything out. Sometimes she took the cloth right along with the spot, but she had a sure hand, mother had!
Mrs. Cobb assessed the situation quickly and claimed she could remove almost any stain from nearly any fabric; uncle Jerry backed her up, insisting that mom could get anything out. Sometimes she accidentally took the fabric along with the stain, but she really had a knack for it!
The damaged garment was removed and partially immersed in turpentine, while Rebecca graced the festal board clad in a blue calico wrapper of Mrs. Cobb's.
The damaged garment was taken off and partially soaked in turpentine, while Rebecca attended the festive gathering wearing a blue calico wrapper from Mrs. Cobb.
"Don't let it take your appetite away," crooned Mrs. Cobb. "I've got cream biscuit and honey for you. If the turpentine don't work, I'll try French chalk, magneshy, and warm suds. If they fail, father shall run over to Strout's and borry some of the stuff Marthy got in Milltown to take the currant pie out of her weddin' dress."
"Don’t let it ruin your appetite," Mrs. Cobb sang softly. "I’ve got cream biscuits and honey for you. If the turpentine doesn’t work, I’ll try French chalk, magnesium, and warm soapy water. If those don’t help, Dad will run over to Strout’s and borrow some of the stuff Marthy got in Milltown to get the currant pie stain out of her wedding dress."
"I ain't got to understandin' this paintin' accident yet," said uncle Jerry jocosely, as he handed Rebecca the honey. "Bein' as how there's 'Fresh Paint' signs hung all over the breedge, so 't a blind asylum couldn't miss 'em, I can't hardly account for your gettin' int' the pesky stuff."
"I still don't understand this painting accident," uncle Jerry joked as he handed Rebecca the honey. "With all those 'Fresh Paint' signs hanging everywhere on the bridge, even a blind person couldn't miss them. I really can't figure out how you got into that messy stuff."
"I didn't notice the signs," Rebecca said dolefully. "I suppose I was looking at the falls."
"I didn't see the signs," Rebecca said sadly. "I guess I was focused on the falls."
"The falls has been there sence the beginnin' o' time, an' I cal'late they'll be there till the end on 't; so you needn't 'a' been in sech a brash to git a sight of 'em. Children comes turrible high, mother, but I s'pose we must have 'em!" he said, winking at Mrs. Cobb.
"The falls have been there since the beginning of time, and I estimate they'll be there until the end of it; so you didn't need to be in such a hurry to see them. Children are incredibly expensive, mother, but I guess we have to have them!" he said, winking at Mrs. Cobb.
When supper was cleared away Rebecca insisted on washing and wiping the dishes, while Mrs. Cobb worked on the dress with an energy that plainly showed the gravity of the task. Rebecca kept leaving her post at the sink to bend anxiously over the basin and watch her progress, while uncle Jerry offered advice from time to time.
When dinner was cleaned up, Rebecca insisted on washing and drying the dishes, while Mrs. Cobb focused on the dress with a determination that clearly indicated how important the task was. Rebecca kept stepping away from the sink to lean over the basin and check on her progress, while Uncle Jerry chimed in with advice every now and then.
"You must 'a' laid all over the breedge, deary," said Mrs. Cobb; "for the paint 's not only on your elbows and yoke and waist, but it about covers your front breadth."
"You must have been all over the bridge, dear," said Mrs. Cobb; "because the paint is not only on your elbows and collar and waist, but it pretty much covers your whole front."
As the garment began to look a little better Rebecca's spirits took an upward turn, and at length she left it to dry in the fresh air, and went into the sitting-room.
As the clothing started to look a bit better, Rebecca's mood improved, and eventually she left it to dry outside in the fresh air and went into the living room.
"Have you a piece of paper, please?" asked Rebecca. "I'll copy out the poetry I was making while I was lying in the paint."
"Do you have a piece of paper, please?" asked Rebecca. "I'll write down the poem I was creating while I was lying in the paint."
Mrs. Cobb sat by her mending basket, and uncle Jerry took down a gingham bag of strings and occupied himself in taking the snarls out of them,—a favorite evening amusement with him.
Mrs. Cobb sat by her mending basket, and Uncle Jerry took down a gingham bag of strings and kept himself busy untangling them—his favorite evening pastime.
Rebecca soon had the lines copied in her round school-girl hand, making such improvements as occurred to her on sober second thought.
Rebecca soon had the lines copied in her neat schoolgirl handwriting, making improvements that came to her after some careful consideration.
THE TWO WISHES
BY
REBECCA RANDALL
THE TWO WISHES
BY
REBECCA RANDALL
Two maidens by a river strayed,
'T was in the state of Maine.
Rebecca was the darker one,
The fairer, Emma Jane.
The fairer maiden said, "I would
My life were as the stream;
So peaceful, and so smooth and still,
So pleasant and serene."
Two young women wandered by a river,
It was in the state of Maine.
Rebecca was the darker one,
The lighter one, Emma Jane.
The lighter maiden said, "I wish
My life were like the stream;
So peaceful, and so smooth and still,
So pleasant and serene."
"I'd rather be a little drop
In the great rushing fall;
I'd never choose the quiet lake;
'T would not please me at all."
(It was the darker maiden spoke
The words we just have stated;
The maidens twain were simply friends,
Not sisters, or related.)
"I'd rather be a little drop
In the big rushing waterfall;
I'd never pick the calm lake;
That wouldn't please me at all."
(It was the darker girl who spoke
The words we've just shared;
The two girls were just friends,
Not sisters or related.)
But O! alas! we may not have
The things we hope to gain.
The quiet life may come to me,
The rush to Emma Jane!
But oh! sadly, we might not get
The things we wish to have.
The peaceful life might come to me,
The hustle to Emma Jane!
She read it aloud, and the Cobbs thought it not only surpassingly beautiful, but a marvelous production.
She read it out loud, and the Cobbs thought it was not only incredibly beautiful but also a fantastic work.
"I guess if that writer that lived on Congress Street in Portland could 'a' heard your poetry he'd 'a' been astonished," said Mrs. Cobb. "If you ask me, I say this piece is as good as that one o' his, 'Tell me not in mournful numbers;' and consid'able clearer."
"I guess if that writer who lived on Congress Street in Portland could've heard your poetry, he would have been amazed," said Mrs. Cobb. "If you ask me, this piece is just as good as his, 'Tell me not in mournful numbers;' and a lot clearer."
"I never could fairly make out what 'mournful numbers' was," remarked Mr. Cobb critically.
"I could never really figure out what 'mournful numbers' meant," Mr. Cobb said critically.
"Then I guess you never studied fractions!" flashed Rebecca. "See here, uncle Jerry and aunt Sarah, would you write another verse, especially for a last one, as they usually do—one with 'thoughts' in it—to make a better ending?"
"Then I guess you never learned about fractions!" Rebecca shot back. "Look, Uncle Jerry and Aunt Sarah, could you write another verse, especially for the last one like you usually do—something with 'thoughts' in it—to make a better ending?"
"If you can grind 'em out jest by turnin' the crank, why I should say the more the merrier; but I don't hardly see how you could have a better endin'," observed Mr. Cobb.
"If you can just churn them out by turning the crank, then I'd say the more, the merrier; but I really don't see how you could have a better ending," said Mr. Cobb.
"It is horrid!" grumbled Rebecca. "I ought not to have put that 'me' in. I'm writing the poetry. Nobody ought to know it IS me standing by the river; it ought to be 'Rebecca,' or 'the darker maiden;' and 'the rush to Emma Jane' is simply dreadful. Sometimes I think I never will try poetry, it's so hard to make it come right; and other times it just says itself. I wonder if this would be better?
"It’s awful!" complained Rebecca. "I shouldn’t have put that 'me' in. I’m the one writing the poetry. Nobody should know it's ME standing by the river; it should be 'Rebecca' or 'the darker maiden'; and 'the rush to Emma Jane' is just terrible. Sometimes I think I’ll never try poetry again since it’s so hard to get it right; and other times it just flows out. I wonder if this would be better?"
But O! alas! we may not gain
The good for which we pray
The quiet life may come to one
Who likes it rather gay,
But oh! unfortunately! we might not achieve
The good we ask for
A peaceful life could come to someone
Who prefers it a bit lively,
I don't know whether that is worse or not. Now for a new last verse!"
I’m not sure if that’s better or worse. Now, let’s come up with a new final verse!
In a few minutes the poetess looked up, flushed and triumphant. "It was as easy as nothing. Just hear!" And she read slowly, with her pretty, pathetic voice:—
In a few minutes, the poetess looked up, flushed and triumphant. "It was so easy! Just listen!" And she read slowly, with her pretty, heartfelt voice:—
Then if our lot be bright or sad,
Be full of smiles, or tears,
The thought that God has planned it so
Should help us bear the years.
Then whether our lives are joyful or painful,
Filled with smiles or tears,
The idea that God has arranged it all
Should help us through the years.
Mr. and Mrs. Cobb exchanged dumb glances of admiration; indeed uncle Jerry was obliged to turn his face to the window and wipe his eyes furtively with the string-bag.
Mr. and Mrs. Cobb exchanged silent looks of admiration; in fact, Uncle Jerry had to turn his face to the window and discreetly wipe his eyes with the string bag.
"How in the world did you do it?" Mrs. Cobb exclaimed.
"How on earth did you do that?" Mrs. Cobb exclaimed.
"Oh, it's easy," answered Rebecca; "the hymns at meeting are all like that. You see there's a school newspaper printed at Wareham Academy once a month. Dick Carter says the editor is always a boy, of course; but he allows girls to try and write for it, and then chooses the best. Dick thinks I can be in it."
"Oh, it's easy," replied Rebecca; "the hymns at the meeting are all like that. You see, there's a school newspaper published at Wareham Academy once a month. Dick Carter says the editor is always a boy, but he lets girls submit their work, and then picks the best ones. Dick thinks I can get published in it."
"IN it!" exclaimed uncle Jerry. "I shouldn't be a bit surprised if you had to write the whole paper; an' as for any boy editor, you could lick him writin', I bate ye, with one hand tied behind ye."
"IN it!" exclaimed Uncle Jerry. "I wouldn't be at all surprised if you ended up writing the whole paper; and as for any boy editor, you could beat him at writing, I bet, with one hand tied behind your back."
"Can we have a copy of the poetry to keep in the family Bible?" inquired Mrs. Cobb respectfully.
"Can we get a copy of the poetry to keep in the family Bible?" asked Mrs. Cobb respectfully.
"Oh! would you like it?" asked Rebecca. "Yes indeed! I'll do a clean, nice one with violet ink and a fine pen. But I must go and look at my poor dress."
"Oh! Would you want it?" asked Rebecca. "Yes, absolutely! I'll make a nice, clean one with violet ink and a great pen. But I have to go check on my poor dress."
The old couple followed Rebecca into the kitchen. The frock was quite dry, and in truth it had been helped a little by aunt Sarah's ministrations; but the colors had run in the rubbing, the pattern was blurred, and there were muddy streaks here and there. As a last resort, it was carefully smoothed with a warm iron, and Rebecca was urged to attire herself, that they might see if the spots showed as much when it was on.
The elderly couple followed Rebecca into the kitchen. The dress was mostly dry, and honestly, Aunt Sarah had given it a bit of extra care; however, the colors had bled during the washing, the design was smudged, and there were muddy streaks here and there. As a final attempt, it was carefully pressed with a warm iron, and Rebecca was encouraged to put it on so they could see if the stains were as noticeable when she was wearing it.
They did, most uncompromisingly, and to the dullest eye. Rebecca gave one searching look, and then said, as she took her hat from a nail in the entry, "I think I'll be going. Good-night! If I've got to have a scolding, I want it quick, and get it over."
They did, without any hesitation, and even to the least observant person. Rebecca took a careful look, and then said, as she grabbed her hat from a hook in the hallway, "I think I’ll head out. Goodnight! If I’m going to get a lecture, I want to get it over with quickly."
"Poor little onlucky misfortunate thing!" sighed uncle Jerry, as his eyes followed her down the hill. "I wish she could pay some attention to the ground under her feet; but I vow, if she was ourn I'd let her slop paint all over the house before I could scold her. Here's her poetry she's left behind. Read it out ag'in, mother. Land!" he continued, chuckling, as he lighted his cob pipe; "I can just see the last flap o' that boy-editor's shirt tail as he legs it for the woods, while Rebecky settles down in his revolvin' cheer! I'm puzzled as to what kind of a job editin' is, exactly; but she'll find out, Rebecky will. An' she'll just edit for all she's worth!
"Poor little unlucky, unfortunate thing!" sighed Uncle Jerry, as his eyes followed her down the hill. "I wish she would pay some attention to the ground beneath her feet; but honestly, if she were ours, I'd let her slop paint all over the house before I could scold her. Here's her poetry she left behind. Read it again, Mom. Wow!" he continued, chuckling, as he lit his cob pipe; "I can just picture the last flap of that boy-editor's shirt tail as he runs off to the woods, while Rebecky settles down in his spinning chair! I'm curious about what kind of job editing is exactly; but she'll find out, Rebecky will. And she'll just edit to the best of her ability!
"'The thought that God has planned it so
Should help us bear the years.'
"'The idea that God has intended it this way
Should help us endure the years.'
Land, mother! that takes right holt, kind o' like the gospel. How do you suppose she thought that out?"
Land, mother! That really grabs your attention, kind of like the gospel. How do you think she figured that out?
"She couldn't have thought it out at her age," said Mrs. Cobb; "she must have just guessed it was that way. We know some things without bein' told, Jeremiah."
"She couldn't have figured it out at her age," said Mrs. Cobb; "she must have just guessed it was that way. We know some things without being told, Jeremiah."
Rebecca took her scolding (which she richly deserved) like a soldier. There was considerable of it, and Miss Miranda remarked, among other things, that so absent-minded a child was sure to grow up into a driveling idiot. She was bidden to stay away from Alice Robinson's birthday party, and doomed to wear her dress, stained and streaked as it was, until it was worn out. Aunt Jane six months later mitigated this martyrdom by making her a ruffled dimity pinafore, artfully shaped to conceal all the spots. She was blessedly ready with these mediations between the poor little sinner and the full consequences of her sin.
Rebecca took her scolding (which she definitely deserved) like a champ. There was quite a bit of it, and Miss Miranda pointed out, among other things, that such a forgetful child was bound to grow up into a complete fool. She was told to stay away from Alice Robinson's birthday party and stuck wearing her dress, stained and streaked as it was, until it fell apart. Aunt Jane six months later eased this punishment by making her a ruffled dimity pinafore, cleverly designed to hide all the stains. She was wonderfully quick with these compromises between the poor little troublemaker and the full effects of her mistakes.
When Rebecca had heard her sentence and gone to the north chamber she began to think. If there was anything she did not wish to grow into, it was an idiot of any sort, particularly a driveling one; and she resolved to punish herself every time she incurred what she considered to be the righteous displeasure of her virtuous relative. She didn't mind staying away from Alice Robinson's. She had told Emma Jane it would be like a picnic in a graveyard, the Robinson house being as near an approach to a tomb as a house can manage to be. Children were commonly brought in at the back door, and requested to stand on newspapers while making their call, so that Alice was begged by her friends to "receive" in the shed or barn whenever possible. Mrs. Robinson was not only "turrible neat," but "turrible close," so that the refreshments were likely to be peppermint lozenges and glasses of well water.
When Rebecca heard her punishment and went to the north room, she started to think. The last thing she wanted was to become some kind of fool, especially a foolish one; so she decided to punish herself every time she felt she had earned the just anger of her morally upright relative. She didn’t mind skipping Alice Robinson’s house. She had told Emma Jane it would be like a picnic in a graveyard, since the Robinson house was about as close to a tomb as a house could get. Kids were usually brought in through the back door and told to stand on newspapers while they visited, so Alice’s friends often asked her to host gatherings in the shed or barn whenever she could. Mrs. Robinson was not only "terribly neat," but also "terribly stingy," so the snacks were likely to be peppermint candies and glasses of well water.
After considering the relative values, as penances, of a piece of haircloth worn next to the skin, and a pebble in the shoe, she dismissed them both. The haircloth could not be found, and the pebble would attract the notice of the Argus-eyed aunt, besides being a foolish bar to the activity of a person who had to do housework and walk a mile and a half to school.
After weighing the pros and cons of wearing haircloth against the skin and having a pebble in her shoe as forms of penance, she decided against both. The haircloth was nowhere to be found, and the pebble would surely catch the attention of her watchful aunt, not to mention it would be a silly hindrance for someone who had to do housework and walk a mile and a half to school.
Her first experimental attempt at martyrdom had not been a distinguished success. She had stayed at home from the Sunday-school concert, a function of which, in ignorance of more alluring ones, she was extremely fond. As a result of her desertion, two infants who relied upon her to prompt them (she knew the verses of all the children better than they did themselves) broke down ignominiously. The class to which she belonged had to read a difficult chapter of Scripture in rotation, and the various members spent an arduous Sabbath afternoon counting out verses according to their seats in the pew, and practicing the ones that would inevitably fall to them. They were too ignorant to realize, when they were called upon, that Rebecca's absence would make everything come wrong, and the blow descended with crushing force when the Jebusites and Amorites, the Girgashites, Hivites, and Perizzites had to be pronounced by the persons of all others least capable of grappling with them.
Her first attempt at being a martyr hadn't gone well. She had skipped the Sunday school concert, which she actually really liked, not knowing about better events. Because she wasn't there, two little kids who depended on her to help them out (she knew all the kids' verses better than they did) ended up failing miserably. Their class had to read a tough chapter of the Bible in turns, and everyone spent a long Sunday afternoon counting out verses based on where they sat and practicing the ones they were sure to get. They were too clueless to understand that Rebecca's absence would lead to disaster, and when it was time to pronounce the Jebusites, Amorites, Girgashites, Hivites, and Perizzites, it was the people least capable of handling it who had to step up, and the effect was brutal.
Self-punishment, then, to be adequate and proper, must begin, like charity, at home, and unlike charity should end there too. Rebecca looked about the room vaguely as she sat by the window. She must give up something, and truth to tell she possessed little to give, hardly anything but—yes, that would do, the beloved pink parasol. She could not hide it in the attic, for in some moment of weakness she would be sure to take it out again. She feared she had not the moral energy to break it into bits. Her eyes moved from the parasol to the apple-trees in the side yard, and then fell to the well curb. That would do; she would fling her dearest possession into the depths of the water. Action followed quickly upon decision, as usual. She slipped down in the darkness, stole out the front door, approached the place of sacrifice, lifted the cover of the well, gave one unresigned shudder, and flung the parasol downward with all her force. At the crucial instant of renunciation she was greatly helped by the reflection that she closely resembled the heathen mothers who cast their babes to the crocodiles in the Ganges.
Self-punishment, then, to be effective and fitting, must start, like charity, at home, and unlike charity, should also end there. Rebecca glanced around the room absently as she sat by the window. She had to give up something, and to be honest, she had little to spare, hardly anything except—yes, that would work, the cherished pink parasol. She couldn’t stash it away in the attic because in a moment of weakness, she would definitely pull it out again. She worried she didn’t have the strength to break it into pieces. Her gaze shifted from the parasol to the apple trees in the side yard and then dropped to the well's edge. That would do; she would throw her most treasured possession into the water’s depths. Action quickly followed her decision, as always. She slipped down into the darkness, quietly went out the front door, approached the place of sacrifice, lifted the well cover, hesitated momentarily, and then tossed the parasol down with all her might. In that critical moment of letting go, she was bolstered by the thought that she resembled the pagan mothers who threw their babies to the crocodiles in the Ganges.
She slept well and arose refreshed, as a consecrated spirit always should and sometimes does. But there was great difficulty in drawing water after breakfast. Rebecca, chastened and uplifted, had gone to school. Abijah Flagg was summoned, lifted the well cover, explored, found the inciting cause of trouble, and with the help of Yankee wit succeeded in removing it. The fact was that the ivory hook of the parasol had caught in the chain gear, and when the first attempt at drawing water was made, the little offering of a contrite heart was jerked up, bent, its strong ribs jammed into the well side, and entangled with a twig root. It is needless to say that no sleight-of-hand performer, however expert, unless aided by the powers of darkness, could have accomplished this feat; but a luckless child in the pursuit of virtue had done it with a turn of the wrist.
She slept well and woke up feeling refreshed, just as a devoted spirit should. But there was a big problem with getting water after breakfast. Rebecca, feeling humbled and uplifted, had gone to school. Abijah Flagg was called, lifted the well cover, checked it out, discovered what was causing the issue, and, using some cleverness, managed to fix it. The issue was that the ivory hook of the parasol had gotten caught in the chain, and when they first tried to draw water, the small offering from a repentant heart was yanked up, bent, its sturdy ribs wedged against the well wall, and tangled with a root. It goes without saying that no skilled magician, no matter how talented, could have pulled off this trick without some dark magic; yet a well-meaning child in the pursuit of goodness had done it with just a twist of the wrist.
We will draw a veil over the scene that occurred after Rebecca's return from school. You who read may be well advanced in years, you may be gifted in rhetoric, ingenious in argument; but even you might quail at the thought of explaining the tortuous mental processes that led you into throwing your beloved pink parasol into Miranda Sawyer's well. Perhaps you feel equal to discussing the efficacy of spiritual self-chastisement with a person who closes her lips into a thin line and looks at you out of blank, uncomprehending eyes! Common sense, right, and logic were all arrayed on Miranda's side. When poor Rebecca, driven to the wall, had to avow the reasons lying behind the sacrifice of the sunshade, her aunt said, "Now see here, Rebecca, you're too big to be whipped, and I shall never whip you; but when you think you ain't punished enough, just tell me, and I'll make out to invent a little something more. I ain't so smart as some folks, but I can do that much; and whatever it is, it'll be something that won't punish the whole family, and make 'em drink ivory dust, wood chips, and pink silk rags with their water."
We’ll skip over what happened after Rebecca got back from school. You, the reader, might be older and skilled in conversation, clever in debate; but even you might hesitate to explain the confusing thoughts that led you to toss your cherished pink parasol into Miranda Sawyer’s well. Maybe you think you're up for a chat about the value of self-discipline with someone who purses her lips into a straight line and looks at you with blank, confused eyes! Common sense and logic were definitely on Miranda’s side. When poor Rebecca, feeling cornered, had to confess the reasons behind sacrificing her sunshade, her aunt said, “Now listen, Rebecca, you’re too old to be spanked, and I won’t ever do that; but if you feel like you’re not punished enough, just let me know, and I’ll come up with something else. I might not be as clever as some, but I can manage that much; and whatever it is, it’ll be something that won’t punish the whole family and make them drink ivory dust, wood chips, and pink silk rags with their water.”
XIII
SNOW-WHITE; ROSE-RED
Just before Thanksgiving the affairs of the Simpsons reached what might have been called a crisis, even in their family, which had been born and reared in a state of adventurous poverty and perilous uncertainty.
Just before Thanksgiving, the Simpsons' situation hit what could be considered a crisis, even for their family, which had grown up in a state of adventurous poverty and risky uncertainty.
Riverboro was doing its best to return the entire tribe of Simpsons to the land of its fathers, so to speak, thinking rightly that the town which had given them birth, rather than the town of their adoption, should feed them and keep a roof over their heads until the children were of an age for self-support. There was little to eat in the household and less to wear, though Mrs. Simpson did, as always, her poor best. The children managed to satisfy their appetites by sitting modestly outside their neighbors' kitchen doors when meals were about to be served. They were not exactly popular favorites, but they did receive certain undesirable morsels from the more charitable housewives.
Riverboro was trying its hardest to bring the entire Simpson family back to their ancestral home, realizing that the town where they were born, rather than the town they had moved to, should support them and provide shelter until the kids could take care of themselves. There was barely any food in the house and even less to wear, although Mrs. Simpson continued to do her best despite their struggles. The children found ways to fill their stomachs by sitting quietly outside their neighbors' kitchen doors when it was time for dinner. They weren’t exactly the most popular kids, but some of the kinder housewives did toss them a few unwanted scraps.
Life was rather dull and dreary, however, and in the chill and gloom of November weather, with the vision of other people's turkeys bursting with fat, and other people's golden pumpkins and squashes and corn being garnered into barns, the young Simpsons groped about for some inexpensive form of excitement, and settled upon the selling of soap for a premium. They had sold enough to their immediate neighbors during the earlier autumn to secure a child's handcart, which, though very weak on its pins, could be trundled over the country roads. With large business sagacity and an executive capacity which must have been inherited from their father, they now proposed to extend their operations to a larger area and distribute soap to contiguous villages, if these villages could be induced to buy. The Excelsior Soap Company paid a very small return of any kind to its infantile agents, who were scattered through the state, but it inflamed their imaginations by the issue of circulars with highly colored pictures of the premiums to be awarded for the sale of a certain number of cakes. It was at this juncture that Clara Belle and Susan Simpson consulted Rebecca, who threw herself solidly and wholeheartedly into the enterprise, promising her help and that of Emma Jane Perkins. The premiums within their possible grasp were three: a bookcase, a plush reclining chair, and a banquet lamp. Of course the Simpsons had no books, and casting aside, without thought or pang, the plush chair, which might have been of some use in a family of seven persons (not counting Mr. Simpson, who ordinarily sat elsewhere at the town's expense), they warmed themselves rapturously in the vision of the banquet lamp, which speedily became to them more desirable than food, drink, or clothing. Neither Emma Jane nor Rebecca perceived anything incongruous in the idea of the Simpsons striving for a banquet lamp. They looked at the picture daily and knew that if they themselves were free agents they would toil, suffer, ay sweat, for the happy privilege of occupying the same room with that lamp through the coming winter evenings. It looked to be about eight feet tall in the catalogue, and Emma Jane advised Clara Belle to measure the height of the Simpson ceilings; but a note in the margin of the circular informed them that it stood two and a half feet high when set up in all its dignity and splendor on a proper table, three dollars extra. It was only of polished brass, continued the circular, though it was invariably mistaken for solid gold, and the shade that accompanied it (at least it accompanied it if the agent sold a hundred extra cakes) was of crinkled crepe paper printed in a dozen delicious hues, from which the joy-dazzled agent might take his choice.
Life was pretty dull and gloomy, especially in the chilly, dreary November weather. Watching other people's plump turkeys and golden pumpkins being harvested while the young Simpsons searched for some cheap form of excitement, they decided to sell soap for prizes. They had sold enough to their neighbors earlier in the autumn to get a kid’s handcart, which was a bit weak but still drivable on the bumpy country roads. With some clever business sense they probably inherited from their dad, they planned to expand their sales to nearby villages, hoping these places would be persuaded to buy. The Excelsior Soap Company offered very little as a reward for its young agents scattered throughout the state, but it sparked their imaginations by sending out colorful flyers showcasing the prizes for selling a certain number of bars. It was at this point that Clara Belle and Susan Simpson consulted Rebecca, who enthusiastically joined the effort, promising her support and that of Emma Jane Perkins. The prizes within their reach were three: a bookcase, a plush reclining chair, and a banquet lamp. Naturally, the Simpsons had no books and set aside the plush chair, which could have been useful for a family of seven (not counting Mr. Simpson, who usually sat elsewhere at the town's expense), as they eagerly focused on the banquet lamp, which quickly became more desirable to them than food, drink, or clothing. Neither Emma Jane nor Rebecca found it strange that the Simpsons were aiming for a banquet lamp. They looked at the picture every day and knew that if they could, they would work hard, endure hardships, and sweat for the joy of being in the same room with that lamp during the upcoming winter evenings. According to the catalog, it appeared to be about eight feet tall, and Emma Jane suggested Clara Belle measure the height of the Simpson ceilings; however, a note in the flyer revealed it was actually two and a half feet tall when set up properly on a suitable table, with an additional charge of three dollars. Though it was only made of polished brass, the circular stated, it was often mistaken for solid gold, and the accompanying shade (which was included only if the agent sold a hundred extra bars) was made of crinkled crepe paper printed in a dozen beautiful colors, giving the thrilled agent a choice.
Seesaw Simpson was not in the syndicate. Clara Belle was rather a successful agent, but Susan, who could only say "thoap," never made large returns, and the twins, who were somewhat young to be thoroughly trustworthy, could be given only a half dozen cakes at a time, and were obliged to carry with them on their business trips a brief document stating the price per cake, dozen, and box. Rebecca and Emma Jane offered to go two or three miles in some one direction and see what they could do in the way of stirring up a popular demand for the Snow-White and Rose-Red brands, the former being devoted to laundry purposes and the latter being intended for the toilet.
Seesaw Simpson wasn’t part of the group. Clara Belle was a pretty successful agent, but Susan, who could only say "soap," never brought in much profit, and the twins, who were a bit too young to be completely reliable, could only be given half a dozen cakes at a time. They had to take a small document with them on their business trips that listed the price per cake, per dozen, and per box. Rebecca and Emma Jane volunteered to go two or three miles in one direction to see what they could do to generate interest in the Snow-White and Rose-Red brands, the former being for laundry use and the latter meant for personal care.
There was a great amount of hilarity in the preparation for this event, and a long council in Emma Jane's attic. They had the soap company's circular from which to arrange a proper speech, and they had, what was still better, the remembrance of a certain patent-medicine vender's discourse at the Milltown Fair. His method, when once observed, could never be forgotten; nor his manner, nor his vocabulary. Emma Jane practiced it on Rebecca, and Rebecca on Emma Jane.
There was a lot of laughter as they prepared for this event and a lengthy meeting in Emma Jane's attic. They had the soap company’s brochure to help them put together a proper speech, and even better, they remembered a certain patent medicine seller’s talk at the Milltown Fair. His technique, once seen, could never be forgotten; neither could his style nor his choice of words. Emma Jane practiced it on Rebecca, and Rebecca did the same with Emma Jane.
"Can I sell you a little soap this afternoon? It is called the Snow-White and Rose-Red Soap, six cakes in an ornamental box, only twenty cents for the white, twenty-five cents for the red. It is made from the purest ingredients, and if desired could be eaten by an invalid with relish and profit."
"Can I sell you some soap this afternoon? It's called Snow-White and Rose-Red Soap, six bars in a decorative box, just twenty cents for the white and twenty-five cents for the red. It's made from the finest ingredients, and if you wanted, it could be enjoyed by someone who’s unwell, and it would even be beneficial."
"Oh, Rebecca, don't let's say that!" interposed Emma Jane hysterically. "It makes me feel like a fool."
"Oh, Rebecca, please don't say that!" Emma Jane interrupted, feeling hysterical. "It makes me feel like an idiot."
"It takes so little to make you feel like a fool, Emma Jane," rebuked Rebecca, "that sometimes I think that you must BE one. I don't get to feeling like a fool so awfully easy; now leave out that eating part if you don't like it, and go on."
"It takes very little to make you feel like a fool, Emma Jane," Rebecca scolded. "Sometimes I think you really are one. I don't feel like a fool that easily; now skip the eating part if you don't like it and let's move on."
"The Snow-White is probably the most remarkable laundry soap ever manufactured. Immerse the garments in a tub, lightly rubbing the more soiled portions with the soap; leave them submerged in water from sunset to sunrise, and then the youngest baby can wash them without the slightest effort."
"The Snow-White is probably the most amazing laundry soap ever made. Just soak the clothes in a tub, gently rubbing the dirtier areas with the soap; leave them in the water from sunset to sunrise, and even the youngest baby can wash them with no effort at all."
"BABE, not baby," corrected Rebecca from the circular.
"BABE, not baby," Rebecca corrected from the circular.
"It's just the same thing," argued Emma Jane.
"It's just the same thing," Emma Jane argued.
"Of course it's just the same THING; but a baby has got to be called babe or infant in a circular, the same as it is in poetry! Would you rather say infant?"
"Of course it's still the same THING; but a baby has to be called babe or infant in a circular, just like it is in poetry! Would you rather say infant?"
"No," grumbled Emma Jane; "infant is worse even than babe. Rebecca, do you think we'd better do as the circular says, and let Elijah or Elisha try the soap before we begin selling?"
"No," Emma Jane complained; "infant is even worse than babe. Rebecca, do you think we should follow the circular’s advice and let Elijah or Elisha try the soap before we start selling it?"
"I can't imagine a babe doing a family wash with ANY soap," answered Rebecca; "but it must be true or they would never dare to print it, so don't let's bother. Oh! won't it be the greatest fun, Emma Jane? At some of the houses—where they can't possibly know me—I shan't be frightened, and I shall reel off the whole rigmarole, invalid, babe, and all. Perhaps I shall say even the last sentence, if I can remember it: 'We sound every chord in the great mac-ro-cosm of satisfaction."
"I can't picture a baby doing laundry with ANY soap," Rebecca replied. "But it must be true or they wouldn't risk printing it, so let's not worry about it. Oh! Won't it be the most fun, Emma Jane? At some of the houses—where they definitely won't recognize me—I won't be scared, and I'll rattle off the whole story, invalid, baby, and all. Maybe I'll even say the last line if I can remember it: 'We sound every chord in the great macrocosm of satisfaction.'"
This conversation took place on a Friday afternoon at Emma Jane's house, where Rebecca, to her unbounded joy, was to stay over Sunday, her aunts having gone to Portland to the funeral of an old friend. Saturday being a holiday, they were going to have the old white horse, drive to North Riverboro three miles away, eat a twelve o'clock dinner with Emma Jane's cousins, and be back at four o'clock punctually.
This conversation happened on a Friday afternoon at Emma Jane's house, where Rebecca was incredibly happy to be staying over for the weekend since her aunts had gone to Portland for the funeral of an old friend. With Saturday being a holiday, they planned to take the old white horse, drive three miles to North Riverboro, have lunch at twelve with Emma Jane's cousins, and return at four o'clock sharp.
When the children asked Mrs. Perkins if they could call at just a few houses coming and going, and sell a little soap for the Simpsons, she at first replied decidedly in the negative. She was an indulgent parent, however, and really had little objection to Emma Jane amusing herself in this unusual way; it was only for Rebecca, as the niece of the difficult Miranda Sawyer, that she raised scruples; but when fully persuaded that the enterprise was a charitable one, she acquiesced.
When the kids asked Mrs. Perkins if they could stop by a few houses to sell some soap for the Simpsons, she initially said no firmly. However, she was a lenient parent and didn't really mind Emma Jane having fun in this unusual way; her only concern was for Rebecca, since she was the niece of the difficult Miranda Sawyer. But once she was convinced that the venture was for a good cause, she agreed.
The girls called at Mr. Watson's store, and arranged for several large boxes of soap to be charged to Clara Belle Simpson's account. These were lifted into the back of the wagon, and a happier couple never drove along the country road than Rebecca and her companion. It was a glorious Indian summer day, which suggested nothing of Thanksgiving, near at hand as it was. It was a rustly day, a scarlet and buff, yellow and carmine, bronze and crimson day. There were still many leaves on the oaks and maples, making a goodly show of red and brown and gold. The air was like sparkling cider, and every field had its heaps of yellow and russet good things to eat, all ready for the barns, the mills, and the markets. The horse forgot his twenty years, sniffed the sweet bright air, and trotted like a colt; Nokomis Mountain looked blue and clear in the distance; Rebecca stood in the wagon, and apostrophized the landscape with sudden joy of living:—
The girls stopped by Mr. Watson's store and set up to charge several large boxes of soap to Clara Belle Simpson's account. These were loaded into the back of the wagon, and no happier duo drove down the country road than Rebecca and her friend. It was a beautiful Indian summer day, giving no hint of the approaching Thanksgiving. It was a vibrant day filled with scarlet, yellow, and rich shades of bronze and crimson. There were still plenty of leaves on the oaks and maples, showcasing a dazzling display of red, brown, and gold. The air was refreshing like sparkling cider, and every field was dotted with piles of yellow and russet goodies, all set for the barns, the mills, and the markets. The horse forgot he was twenty, breathed in the sweet, bright air, and trotted like a young colt; Nokomis Mountain looked clear and blue in the distance; Rebecca stood in the wagon and joyfully addressed the landscape, overflowing with the excitement of living:—
"Great, wide, beautiful, wonderful World,
With the wonderful water round you curled,
And the wonderful grass upon your breast,
World, you are beautifully drest!"
"Great, vast, beautiful, amazing World,
With the amazing water wrapped around you,
And the amazing grass on your surface,
World, you are beautifully dressed!"
Dull Emma Jane had never seemed to Rebecca so near, so dear, so tried and true; and Rebecca, to Emma Jane's faithful heart, had never been so brilliant, so bewildering, so fascinating, as in this visit together, with its intimacy, its freedom, and the added delights of an exciting business enterprise.
Dull Emma Jane had never felt so close, so cherished, so reliable to Rebecca; and to Emma Jane's loyal heart, Rebecca had never been so vibrant, so intriguing, so captivating as during this visit together, with its closeness, its freedom, and the extra thrill of an exciting business venture.
A gorgeous leaf blew into the wagon.
A beautiful leaf blew into the wagon.
"Does color make you sort of dizzy?" asked Rebecca.
"Does color make you feel a bit dizzy?" Rebecca asked.
"No," answered Emma Jane after a long pause; "no, it don't; not a mite."
"No," Emma Jane replied after a long pause; "no, it doesn't; not at all."
"Perhaps dizzy isn't just the right word, but it's nearest. I'd like to eat color, and drink it, and sleep in it. If you could be a tree, which one would you choose?"
"Maybe dizzy isn't exactly the right word, but it's pretty close. I want to eat color, drink it, and sleep in it. If you could be a tree, which one would you pick?"
Emma Jane had enjoyed considerable experience of this kind, and Rebecca had succeeded in unstopping her ears, ungluing her eyes, and loosening her tongue, so that she could "play the game" after a fashion.
Emma Jane had quite a bit of experience in this area, and Rebecca had managed to open her ears, unstick her eyes, and loosen her tongue, so that she could "play the game" in her own way.
"I'd rather be an apple-tree in blossom,—that one that blooms pink, by our pig-pen."
"I'd rather be a blossoming apple tree—the one that has pink flowers, next to our pig pen."
Rebecca laughed. There was always something unexpected in Emma Jane's replies. "I'd choose to be that scarlet maple just on the edge of the pond there,"—and she pointed with the whip. "Then I could see so much more than your pink apple-tree by the pig-pen. I could look at all the rest of the woods, see my scarlet dress in my beautiful looking-glass, and watch all the yellow and brown trees growing upside down in the water. When I'm old enough to earn money, I'm going to have a dress like this leaf, all ruby color—thin, you know, with a sweeping train and ruffly, curly edges; then I think I'll have a brown sash like the trunk of the tree, and where could I be green? Do they have green petticoats, I wonder? I'd like a green petticoat coming out now and then underneath to show what my leaves were like before I was a scarlet maple."
Rebecca laughed. There was always something surprising in Emma Jane's replies. "I'd choose to be that bright red maple right on the edge of the pond,"—and she pointed with the whip. "Then I could see so much more than your pink apple tree by the pig pen. I could look at all the rest of the woods, see my red dress in my beautiful mirror, and watch all the yellow and brown trees reflected upside down in the water. When I'm old enough to earn money, I'm going to have a dress like this leaf, all ruby-colored—thin, you know, with a flowing train and ruffled, curly edges; then I think I’ll have a brown sash like the trunk of the tree, and where could I be green? Do they have green petticoats, I wonder? I'd like a green petticoat peeking out now and then underneath to show what my leaves were like before I was a bright red maple."
"I think it would be awful homely," said Emma Jane. "I'm going to have a white satin with a pink sash, pink stockings, bronze slippers, and a spangled fan."
"I think it would be so ugly," said Emma Jane. "I'm going to wear a white satin dress with a pink sash, pink stockings, bronze shoes, and a sequined fan."
XIV
MR. ALADDIN
A single hour's experience of the vicissitudes incident to a business career clouded the children's spirits just the least bit. They did not accompany each other to the doors of their chosen victims, feeling sure that together they could not approach the subject seriously; but they parted at the gate of each house, the one holding the horse while the other took the soap samples and interviewed any one who seemed of a coming-on disposition. Emma Jane had disposed of three single cakes, Rebecca of three small boxes; for a difference in their ability to persuade the public was clearly defined at the start, though neither of them ascribed either success or defeat to anything but the imperious force of circumstances. Housewives looked at Emma Jane and desired no soap; listened to her description of its merits, and still desired none. Other stars in their courses governed Rebecca's doings. The people whom she interviewed either remembered their present need of soap, or reminded themselves that they would need it in the future; the notable point in the case being that lucky Rebecca accomplished, with almost no effort, results that poor little Emma Jane failed to attain by hard and conscientious labor.
A single hour's experience of the ups and downs of a business career dampened the children's spirits just a little. They didn’t go together to the doors of their chosen customers, knowing that together they wouldn’t be able to take the task seriously; instead, they split at the gate of each house, with one holding the horse while the other took the soap samples and talked to anyone who seemed approachable. Emma Jane sold three single cakes, while Rebecca sold three small boxes; from the start, it was clear that there was a difference in their ability to persuade people, but neither attributed their success or failure to anything other than the overpowering influence of circumstances. Housewives looked at Emma Jane and showed no interest in soap; they listened to her describe its benefits and still didn’t want any. Meanwhile, other factors worked in Rebecca’s favor. The people she spoke to either remembered that they needed soap or realized they would need it later; the striking difference was that lucky Rebecca achieved results with almost no effort, while poor little Emma Jane couldn't reach the same outcomes despite working hard and being diligent.
"It's your turn, Rebecca, and I'm glad, too," said Emma Jane, drawing up to a gateway and indicating a house that was set a considerable distance from the road. "I haven't got over trembling from the last place yet." (A lady had put her head out of an upstairs window and called, "Go away, little girl; whatever you have in your box we don't want any.") "I don't know who lives here, and the blinds are all shut in front. If there's nobody at home you mustn't count it, but take the next house as yours."
"It's your turn, Rebecca, and I’m really glad about it," said Emma Jane, pulling up to a gate and pointing to a house that was quite a bit away from the road. "I’m still shaking from the last place." (A lady had stuck her head out of an upstairs window and yelled, "Go away, little girl; we don’t want whatever you have in your box.") "I have no idea who lives here, and all the curtains are drawn. If no one’s home, don’t count it, just make the next house yours."
Rebecca walked up the lane and went to the side door. There was a porch there, and seated in a rocking-chair, husking corn, was a good-looking young man, or was he middle aged? Rebecca could not make up her mind. At all events he had an air of the city about him,—well-shaven face, well-trimmed mustache, well-fitting clothes. Rebecca was a trifle shy at this unexpected encounter, but there was nothing to be done but explain her presence, so she asked, "Is the lady of the house at home?"
Rebecca walked up the lane and went to the side door. There was a porch there, and sitting in a rocking chair, husking corn, was an attractive young man—was he middle-aged? Rebecca couldn’t decide. Either way, he had a city vibe about him—well-shaved face, well-trimmed mustache, well-fitting clothes. Rebecca felt a bit shy at this unexpected meeting, but there was nothing to do but explain why she was there, so she asked, "Is the lady of the house home?"
"I am the lady of the house at present," said the stranger, with a whimsical smile. "What can I do for you?"
"I’m the lady of the house right now," said the stranger with a playful smile. "How can I help you?"
"Have you ever heard of the—would you like, or I mean—do you need any soap?" queried Rebecca.
"Have you ever heard of the—would you like, or I mean—do you need any soap?" asked Rebecca.
"Do I look as if I did?" he responded unexpectedly.
"Do I look like I did?" he replied unexpectedly.
Rebecca dimpled. "I didn't mean THAT; I have some soap to sell; I mean I would like to introduce to you a very remarkable soap, the best now on the market. It is called the"—
Rebecca smiled brightly. "I didn’t mean THAT; I have some soap to sell; I mean I want to introduce you to a really amazing soap, the best available right now. It’s called the"—
"Oh! I must know that soap," said the gentleman genially. "Made out of pure vegetable fats, isn't it?"
"Oh! I need to know about that soap," the gentleman said warmly. "It's made from pure vegetable fats, right?"
"The very purest," corroborated Rebecca.
"The purest," confirmed Rebecca.
"No acid in it?"
"No acid included?"
"Not a trace."
"Not a trace left."
"And yet a child could do the Monday washing with it and use no force."
"And yet a child could do the Monday laundry with it and use no effort."
"A babe," corrected Rebecca
"A baby," corrected Rebecca
"Oh! a babe, eh? That child grows younger every year, instead of older—wise child!"
"Oh! A baby, huh? That kid gets younger every year instead of older—such a wise kid!"
This was great good fortune, to find a customer who knew all the virtues of the article in advance. Rebecca dimpled more and more, and at her new friend's invitation sat down on a stool at his side near the edge of the porch. The beauties of the ornamental box which held the Rose-Red were disclosed, and the prices of both that and the Snow-White were unfolded. Presently she forgot all about her silent partner at the gate and was talking as if she had known this grand personage all her life.
This was a real stroke of luck to find a customer who already understood all the benefits of the product. Rebecca smiled more and more, and at her new friend's invitation, she sat down on a stool beside him at the edge of the porch. The features of the decorative box holding the Rose-Red were revealed, along with the prices of both it and the Snow-White. Soon, she completely forgot about her quiet partner at the gate and was chatting like she had been friends with this impressive person all her life.
"I'm keeping house to-day, but I don't live here," explained the delightful gentleman. "I'm just on a visit to my aunt, who has gone to Portland. I used to be here as a boy and I am very fond of the spot."
"I'm taking care of the house today, but I don't actually live here," the charming gentleman explained. "I'm just visiting my aunt, who went to Portland. I used to come here as a kid, and I really love this place."
"I don't think anything takes the place of the farm where one lived when one was a child," observed Rebecca, nearly bursting with pride at having at last successfully used the indefinite pronoun in general conversation.
"I don't think anything can replace the farm where you grew up," Rebecca remarked, almost bursting with pride for finally using the indefinite pronoun in everyday conversation.
The man darted a look at her and put down his ear of corn. "So you consider your childhood a thing of the past, do you, young lady?"
The man shot her a glance and set down his ear of corn. "So you think of your childhood as something that's behind you, huh, young lady?"
"I can still remember it," answered Rebecca gravely, "though it seems a long time ago."
"I can still remember it," Rebecca replied seriously, "even though it feels like a long time ago."
"I can remember mine well enough, and a particularly unpleasant one it was," said the stranger.
"I remember mine pretty clearly, and it was especially unpleasant," said the stranger.
"So was mine," sighed Rebecca. "What was your worst trouble?"
"So was mine," sighed Rebecca. "What was your biggest problem?"
"Lack of food and clothes principally."
"Lack of food and clothing, mainly."
"Oh!" exclaimed Rebecca sympathetically,—"mine was no shoes and too many babies and not enough books. But you're all right and happy now, aren't you?" she asked doubtfully, for though he looked handsome, well-fed, and prosperous, any child could see that his eyes were tired and his mouth was sad when he was not speaking.
"Oh!" Rebecca said sympathetically, "I had no shoes, too many babies, and not enough books. But you're okay and happy now, right?" she asked doubtfully, because even though he looked handsome, well-fed, and successful, any child could tell that his eyes were tired and his mouth was sad when he wasn't talking.
"I'm doing pretty well, thank you," said the man, with a delightful smile. "Now tell me, how much soap ought I to buy to-day?"
"I'm doing pretty well, thanks," said the man, with a cheerful smile. "Now tell me, how much soap should I buy today?"
"How much has your aunt on hand now?" suggested the very modest and inexperienced agent; "and how much would she need?"
"How much money does your aunt have right now?" suggested the very shy and inexperienced agent; "and how much would she need?"
"Oh, I don't know about that; soap keeps, doesn't it?"
"Oh, I don't know about that; soap lasts pretty well, right?"
"I'm not certain," said Rebecca conscientiously, "but I'll look in the circular—it's sure to tell;" and she drew the document from her pocket.
"I'm not sure," Rebecca said thoughtfully, "but I'll check the circular—it's bound to have the information;" and she pulled the document from her pocket.
"What are you going to do with the magnificent profits you get from this business?"
"What are you going to do with the amazing profits you make from this business?"
"We are not selling for our own benefit," said Rebecca confidentially. "My friend who is holding the horse at the gate is the daughter of a very rich blacksmith, and doesn't need any money. I am poor, but I live with my aunts in a brick house, and of course they wouldn't like me to be a peddler. We are trying to get a premium for some friends of ours."
"We're not doing this for ourselves," Rebecca said quietly. "My friend holding the horse at the gate is the daughter of a very wealthy blacksmith and doesn't need any money. I'm not well off, but I live with my aunts in a brick house, and they definitely wouldn't approve of me being a peddler. We're just trying to get a reward for some friends of ours."
Rebecca had never thought of alluding to the circumstances with her previous customers, but unexpectedly she found herself describing Mr. Simpson, Mrs. Simpson, and the Simpson family; their poverty, their joyless life, and their abject need of a banquet lamp to brighten their existence.
Rebecca had never considered bringing up her past clients, but unexpectedly, she found herself talking about Mr. Simpson, Mrs. Simpson, and the Simpson family; their poverty, their joyless life, and their desperate need for a banquet lamp to brighten their lives.
"You needn't argue that point," laughed the man, as he stood up to get a glimpse of the "rich blacksmith's daughter" at the gate. "I can see that they ought to have it if they want it, and especially if you want them to have it. I've known what it was myself to do without a banquet lamp. Now give me the circular, and let's do some figuring. How much do the Simpsons lack at this moment?"
"You don't have to argue about that," laughed the man, as he stood up to catch a glimpse of the "rich blacksmith's daughter" at the gate. "I understand that they should have it if they want it, especially if you want them to have it. I've experienced what it's like to go without a banquet lamp. Now hand me the circular, and let's do some calculations. How much do the Simpsons need right now?"
"If they sell two hundred more cakes this month and next, they can have the lamp by Christmas," Rebecca answered, "and they can get a shade by summer time; but I'm afraid I can't help very much after to-day, because my aunt Miranda may not like to have me."
"If they sell two hundred more cakes this month and next, they can get the lamp by Christmas," Rebecca replied, "and they can buy a shade by summer; but I'm afraid I can't help much after today, because my aunt Miranda might not want me around."
"I see. Well, that's all right. I'll take three hundred cakes, and that will give them shade and all."
"I get it. That's fine. I'll take three hundred cakes, and that'll provide them with shade and everything."
Rebecca had been seated on a stool very near to the edge of the porch, and at this remark she made a sudden movement, tipped over, and disappeared into a clump of lilac bushes. It was a very short distance, fortunately, and the amused capitalist picked her up, set her on her feet, and brushed her off. "You should never seem surprised when you have taken a large order," said he; "you ought to have replied 'Can't you make it three hundred and fifty?' instead of capsizing in that unbusinesslike way."
Rebecca had been sitting on a stool right at the edge of the porch, and at that comment, she suddenly moved, tipped over, and fell into a bunch of lilac bushes. Luckily, it wasn't far, and the amused businessman picked her up, set her on her feet, and brushed her off. "You should never act surprised when you've secured a big order," he said; "you should have said 'Can't you make it three hundred and fifty?' instead of tipping over in such an unprofessional manner."
"Oh, I could never say anything like that!" exclaimed Rebecca, who was blushing crimson at her awkward fall. "But it doesn't seem right for you to buy so much. Are you sure you can afford it?"
"Oh, I could never say anything like that!" Rebecca exclaimed, blushing bright red after her awkward fall. "But it doesn’t seem fair for you to buy so much. Are you sure you can afford it?"
"If I can't, I'll save on something else," returned the jocose philanthropist.
"If I can't, I'll cut back on something else," replied the funny philanthropist.
"What if your aunt shouldn't like the kind of soap?" queried Rebecca nervously.
"What if your aunt doesn't like that kind of soap?" Rebecca asked nervously.
"My aunt always likes what I like," he returned
"My aunt always likes what I like," he replied.
"Mine doesn't!" exclaimed Rebecca
"Mine doesn't!" Rebecca exclaimed.
"Then there's something wrong with your aunt!"
"Then there’s something wrong with your aunt!"
"Or with me," laughed Rebecca.
"Or with me," Rebecca laughed.
"What is your name, young lady?"
"What's your name, miss?"
"Rebecca Rowena Randall, sir."
"Rebecca Rowena Randall, sir."
"What?" with an amused smile. "BOTH? Your mother was generous."
"What?" she said with an amused smile. "BOTH? Your mom was really generous."
"She couldn't bear to give up either of the names she says."
"She couldn't stand to let go of either of the names she mentioned."
"Do you want to hear my name?"
"Do you want to know my name?"
"I think I know already," answered Rebecca, with a bright glance. "I'm sure you must be Mr. Aladdin in the Arabian Nights. Oh, please, can I run down and tell Emma Jane? She must be so tired waiting, and she will be so glad!"
"I think I already know," Rebecca replied, her eyes sparkling. "You must be Mr. Aladdin from the Arabian Nights. Oh, can I go tell Emma Jane? She must be so tired of waiting, and she’ll be so happy!"
At the man's nod of assent Rebecca sped down the lane, crying irrepressibly as she neared the wagon, "Oh, Emma Jane! Emma Jane! we are sold out!"
At the man's nod of agreement, Rebecca rushed down the path, crying uncontrollably as she got closer to the wagon, "Oh, Emma Jane! Emma Jane! We're sold out!"
Mr. Aladdin followed smilingly to corroborate this astonishing, unbelievable statement; lifted all their boxes from the back of the wagon, and taking the circular, promised to write to the Excelsior Company that night concerning the premium.
Mr. Aladdin followed with a smile to confirm this amazing, unbelievable statement; he lifted all their boxes from the back of the wagon and, taking the circular, promised to write to the Excelsior Company that night about the premium.
"If you could contrive to keep a secret,—you two little girls,—it would be rather a nice surprise to have the lamp arrive at the Simpsons' on Thanksgiving Day, wouldn't it?" he asked, as he tucked the old lap robe cosily over their feet.
"If you two little girls could manage to keep a secret, it would be a really nice surprise to have the lamp show up at the Simpsons' on Thanksgiving Day, wouldn't it?" he asked, as he snugly tucked the old lap robe over their feet.
They gladly assented, and broke into a chorus of excited thanks during which tears of joy stood in Rebecca's eyes.
They happily agreed and burst into a chorus of excited thanks, with tears of joy in Rebecca's eyes.
"Oh, don't mention it!" laughed Mr. Aladdin, lifting his hat. "I was a sort of commercial traveler myself once,—years ago,—and I like to see the thing well done. Good-by Miss Rebecca Rowena! Just let me know whenever you have anything to sell, for I'm certain beforehand I shall want it."
"Oh, no problem at all!" laughed Mr. Aladdin, tipping his hat. "I used to be a traveling salesman myself—years ago—and I appreciate seeing things done right. Goodbye, Miss Rebecca Rowena! Just let me know whenever you have something to sell, because I'm pretty sure I'll want it."
"Good-by, Mr. Aladdin! I surely will!" cried Rebecca, tossing back her dark braids delightedly and waving her hand.
"Goodbye, Mr. Aladdin! I definitely will!" Rebecca shouted, flipping her dark braids joyfully and waving her hand.
"Oh, Rebecca!" said Emma Jane in an awe-struck whisper. "He raised his hat to us, and we not thirteen! It'll be five years before we're ladies."
"Oh, Rebecca!" Emma Jane said in a whisper, filled with wonder. "He tipped his hat to us, and we’re not even thirteen! It’ll be five years before we’re ladies."
"Never mind," answered Rebecca; "we are the BEGINNINGS of ladies, even now."
"Forget it," replied Rebecca; "we are the BEGINNINGS of ladies, even now."
"He tucked the lap robe round us, too," continued Emma Jane, in an ecstasy of reminiscence. "Oh! isn't he perfectly elergant? And wasn't it lovely of him to buy us out? And just think of having both the lamp and the shade for one day's work! Aren't you glad you wore your pink gingham now, even if mother did make you put on flannel underneath? You do look so pretty in pink and red, Rebecca, and so homely in drab and brown!"
"He wrapped the lap blanket around us, too," continued Emma Jane, in a fit of nostalgia. "Oh! Isn't he just so elegant? And wasn't it sweet of him to buy us out? Just think about getting both the lamp and the shade for just one day's work! Aren't you glad you wore your pink gingham now, even if mom did make you put on flannel underneath? You look so pretty in pink and red, Rebecca, and so plain in drab and brown!"
"I know it," sighed Rebecca "I wish I was like you—pretty in all colors!" And Rebecca looked longingly at Emma Jane's fat, rosy cheeks; at her blue eyes, which said nothing; at her neat nose, which had no character; at her red lips, from between which no word worth listening to had ever issued.
"I know," Rebecca sighed. "I wish I could be like you—pretty in every color!" She gazed longingly at Emma Jane's round, rosy cheeks; at her blue eyes that were expressionless; at her straight nose, which had no uniqueness; at her red lips, from which no interesting words had ever come.
"Never mind!" said Emma Jane comfortingly. "Everybody says you're awful bright and smart, and mother thinks you'll be better looking all the time as you grow older. You wouldn't believe it, but I was a dreadful homely baby, and homely right along till just a year or two ago, when my red hair began to grow dark. What was the nice man's name?"
"Don't worry!" Emma Jane said reassuringly. "Everyone says you're really bright and clever, and my mom thinks you'll look even better as you get older. You wouldn't believe it, but I was a really ugly baby, and I stayed that way until just a year or two ago, when my red hair started to darken. What was the nice guy's name?"
"I never thought to ask!" ejaculated Rebecca. "Aunt Miranda would say that was just like me, and it is. But I called him Mr. Aladdin because he gave us a lamp. You know the story of Aladdin and the wonderful lamp?"
"I never thought to ask!" exclaimed Rebecca. "Aunt Miranda would say that’s just like me, and it is. But I called him Mr. Aladdin because he gave us a lamp. You know the story of Aladdin and the magical lamp?"
"Oh, Rebecca! how could you call him a nickname the very first time you ever saw him?"
"Oh, Rebecca! How could you give him a nickname the first time you ever saw him?"
"Aladdin isn't a nickname exactly; anyway, he laughed and seemed to like it."
"Aladdin isn't really a nickname; either way, he laughed and seemed to enjoy it."
By dint of superhuman effort, and putting such a seal upon their lips as never mortals put before, the two girls succeeded in keeping their wonderful news to themselves; although it was obvious to all beholders that they were in an extraordinary and abnormal state of mind.
By making an incredible effort and clamping their mouths shut like no one ever has, the two girls managed to keep their amazing news to themselves; even though it was clear to everyone watching that they were in a strange and unusual state of mind.
On Thanksgiving the lamp arrived in a large packing box, and was taken out and set up by Seesaw Simpson, who suddenly began to admire and respect the business ability of his sisters. Rebecca had heard the news of its arrival, but waited until nearly dark before asking permission to go to the Simpsons', so that she might see the gorgeous trophy lighted and sending a blaze of crimson glory through its red crepe paper shade.
On Thanksgiving, the lamp showed up in a big packing box, and Seesaw Simpson took it out and set it up, suddenly realizing how impressive his sisters' business skills were. Rebecca had heard the news about its arrival but waited until it was almost dark to ask for permission to go to the Simpsons' place so she could see the stunning lamp lit up, casting a beautiful crimson glow through its red crepe paper shade.
XV
THE BANQUET LAMP
There had been company at the brick house to the bountiful Thanksgiving dinner which had been provided at one o'clock,—the Burnham sisters, who lived between North Riverboro and Shaker Village, and who for more than a quarter of a century had come to pass the holiday with the Sawyers every year. Rebecca sat silent with a book after the dinner dishes were washed, and when it was nearly five asked if she might go to the Simpsons'.
There had been guests at the brick house for the generous Thanksgiving dinner that was served at one o'clock—the Burnham sisters, who lived between North Riverboro and Shaker Village, and had come to spend the holiday with the Sawyers every year for over twenty-five years. Rebecca sat quietly with a book after the dinner dishes were cleaned up, and when it was almost five, she asked if she could go to the Simpsons'.
"What do you want to run after those Simpson children for on a Thanksgiving Day?" queried Miss Miranda. "Can't you set still for once and listen to the improvin' conversation of your elders? You never can let well enough alone, but want to be forever on the move."
"What do you want to chase those Simpson kids for on Thanksgiving Day?" asked Miss Miranda. "Can't you sit still for once and listen to the enlightening conversation of your elders? You never can just let things be; you always have to be on the go."
"The Simpsons have a new lamp, and Emma Jane and I promised to go up and see it lighted, and make it a kind of a party."
"The Simpsons got a new lamp, and Emma Jane and I agreed to go check it out when it’s lit and turn it into a little party."
"What under the canopy did they want of a lamp, and where did they get the money to pay for it? If Abner was at home, I should think he'd been swappin' again," said Miss Miranda.
"What under the canopy did they want with a lamp, and where did they get the money to pay for it? If Abner was at home, I would think he was swapping again," said Miss Miranda.
"The children got it as a prize for selling soap," replied Rebecca; "they've been working for a year, and you know I told you that Emma Jane and I helped them the Saturday afternoon you were in Portland."
"The kids got it as a reward for selling soap," Rebecca replied; "they've been working for a year, and you know I mentioned that Emma Jane and I helped them out that Saturday afternoon you were in Portland."
"I didn't take notice, I s'pose, for it's the first time I ever heard the lamp mentioned. Well, you can go for an hour, and no more. Remember it's as dark at six as it is at midnight Would you like to take along some Baldwin apples? What have you got in the pocket of that new dress that makes it sag down so?"
"I guess I didn't pay attention because it's the first time I’ve ever heard the lamp brought up. Well, you can go for an hour, and that’s it. Remember, it’s just as dark at six as it is at midnight. Would you like to take some Baldwin apples with you? What do you have in the pocket of that new dress that’s making it sag?"
"It's my nuts and raisins from dinner," replied Rebecca, who never succeeded in keeping the most innocent action a secret from her aunt Miranda; "they're just what you gave me on my plate."
"It's my nuts and raisins from dinner," replied Rebecca, who never managed to keep the most innocent actions a secret from her aunt Miranda; "they're exactly what you gave me on my plate."
"Why didn't you eat them?"
"Why didn't you eat them?"
"Because I'd had enough dinner, and I thought if I saved these, it would make the Simpsons' party better," stammered Rebecca, who hated to be scolded and examined before company.
"Since I had enough dinner, I thought that if I saved these, it would make the Simpsons' party better," stammered Rebecca, who hated being scolded and scrutinized in front of guests.
"They were your own, Rebecca," interposed aunt Jane, "and if you chose to save them to give away, it is all right. We ought never to let this day pass without giving our neighbors something to be thankful for, instead of taking all the time to think of our own mercies."
"They were yours, Rebecca," Aunt Jane said, "and if you decided to save them to give away, that’s perfectly fine. We should never let this day go by without giving our neighbors something to be thankful for, instead of just focusing on our own blessings."
The Burnham sisters nodded approvingly as Rebecca went out, and remarked that they had never seen a child grow and improve so fast in so short a time.
The Burnham sisters nodded in approval as Rebecca walked out and commented that they had never seen a child grow and improve so quickly in such a short time.
"There's plenty of room left for more improvement, as you'd know if she lived in the same house with you," answered Miranda. "She's into every namable thing in the neighborhood, an' not only into it, but generally at the head an' front of it, especially when it's mischief. Of all the foolishness I ever heard of, that lamp beats everything; it's just like those Simpsons, but I didn't suppose the children had brains enough to sell anything."
"There's still a lot of room for improvement, as you'd know if she lived with you," replied Miranda. "She's involved in everything happening in the neighborhood, and not just involved, but usually leading the way, especially when it comes to trouble. Of all the nonsense I've ever heard, that lamp beats everything; it's just like those Simpsons, but I didn't think the kids had enough smarts to sell anything."
"One of them must have," said Miss Ellen Burnham, "for the girl that was selling soap at the Ladds' in North Riverboro was described by Adam Ladd as the most remarkable and winning child he ever saw."
"One of them must have," said Miss Ellen Burnham, "because the girl who was selling soap at the Ladds' in North Riverboro was described by Adam Ladd as the most extraordinary and charming child he ever saw."
"It must have been Clara Belle, and I should never call her remarkable," answered Miss Miranda. "Has Adam been home again?"
"It must have been Clara Belle, and I shouldn't call her remarkable," replied Miss Miranda. "Has Adam been home again?"
"Yes, he's been staying a few days with his aunt. There's no limit to the money he's making, they say; and he always brings presents for all the neighbors. This time it was a full set of furs for Mrs. Ladd; and to think we can remember the time he was a barefoot boy without two shirts to his back! It is strange he hasn't married, with all his money, and him so fond of children that he always has a pack of them at his heels."
"Yeah, he's been staying with his aunt for a few days. They say there's no end to the money he's making, and he always brings gifts for all the neighbors. This time he got a full set of furs for Mrs. Ladd; can you believe we remember when he was just a barefoot kid without two shirts to his name? It's odd he hasn't married yet, considering all his money, especially since he loves kids and always has a bunch of them following him around."
"There's hope for him still, though," said Miss Jane smilingly; "for I don't s'pose he's more than thirty."
"There's still hope for him," Miss Jane said with a smile; "I don't think he's more than thirty."
"He could get a wife in Riverboro if he was a hundred and thirty," remarked Miss Miranda.
"He could get a wife in Riverboro even if he were a hundred and thirty," said Miss Miranda.
"Adam's aunt says he was so taken with the little girl that sold the soap (Clara Belle, did you say her name was?), that he declared he was going to bring her a Christmas present," continued Miss Ellen.
"Adam's aunt says he was so smitten with the little girl who sold the soap (was her name Clara Belle?), that he said he was going to get her a Christmas present," continued Miss Ellen.
"Well, there's no accountin' for tastes," exclaimed Miss Miranda. "Clara Belle's got cross-eyes and red hair, but I'd be the last one to grudge her a Christmas present; the more Adam Ladd gives to her the less the town'll have to."
"Well, you can't argue with personal taste," Miss Miranda said. "Clara Belle has cross-eyes and red hair, but I’d never deny her a Christmas gift; the more Adam Ladd gives her, the less the town will have to."
"Isn't there another Simpson girl?" asked Miss Lydia Burnham; "for this one couldn't have been cross-eyed; I remember Mrs. Ladd saying Adam remarked about this child's handsome eyes. He said it was her eyes that made him buy the three hundred cakes. Mrs. Ladd has it stacked up in the shed chamber."
"Isn't there another Simpson girl?" asked Miss Lydia Burnham. "Because this one couldn't have been cross-eyed. I remember Mrs. Ladd saying Adam commented on this child's beautiful eyes. He said it was her eyes that made him buy the three hundred cakes. Mrs. Ladd has them stacked up in the shed."
"Three hundred cakes!" ejaculated Miranda. "Well, there's one crop that never fails in Riverboro!"
"Three hundred cakes!" exclaimed Miranda. "Well, there's one crop that always succeeds in Riverboro!"
"What's that?" asked Miss Lydia politely.
"What's that?" Miss Lydia asked politely.
"The fool crop," responded Miranda tersely, and changed the subject, much to Jane's gratitude, for she had been nervous and ill at ease for the last fifteen minutes. What child in Riverboro could be described as remarkable and winning, save Rebecca? What child had wonderful eyes, except the same Rebecca? and finally, was there ever a child in the world who could make a man buy soap by the hundred cakes, save Rebecca?
"The fool crop," Miranda replied sharply, and changed the subject, much to Jane's relief, as she had been anxious and uncomfortable for the past fifteen minutes. What child in Riverboro could be called remarkable and charming, except for Rebecca? What child had beautiful eyes, other than Rebecca? And really, was there ever a child in the world who could make a man buy soap by the hundred bars, except for Rebecca?
Meantime the "remarkable" child had flown up the road in the deepening dusk, but she had not gone far before she heard the sound of hurrying footsteps, and saw a well-known figure coming in her direction. In a moment she and Emma Jane met and exchanged a breathless embrace.
Meantime, the "remarkable" child had dashed up the road in the deepening dusk, but she hadn't gone far before she heard the sound of hurried footsteps and spotted a familiar figure coming toward her. In an instant, she and Emma Jane met and shared a breathless hug.
"Something awful has happened," panted Emma Jane.
"Something terrible has happened," Emma Jane panted.
"Don't tell me it's broken," exclaimed Rebecca.
"Don't tell me it's broken," Rebecca exclaimed.
"No! oh, no! not that! It was packed in straw, and every piece came out all right; and I was there, and I never said a single thing about your selling the three hundred cakes that got the lamp, so that we could be together when you told."
"No! Oh, no! Not that! It was packed in straw, and every piece came out fine; and I was there, and I never said a word about you selling the three hundred cakes that got us the lamp, so we could be together when you told."
"OUR selling the three hundred cakes," corrected Rebecca; "you did as much as I."
"OUR selling the three hundred cakes," corrected Rebecca; "you did as much as I did."
"No, I didn't, Rebecca Randall. I just sat at the gate and held the horse."
"No, I didn't, Rebecca Randall. I just sat at the gate and held the horse."
"Yes, but WHOSE horse was it that took us to North Riverboro? And besides, it just happened to be my turn. If you had gone in and found Mr. Aladdin you would have had the wonderful lamp given to you; but what's the trouble?"
"Yes, but whose horse took us to North Riverboro? And besides, it just happened to be my turn. If you had gone in and found Mr. Aladdin, you would have been given the wonderful lamp. But what's the problem?"
"The Simpsons have no kerosene and no wicks. I guess they thought a banquet lamp was something that lighted itself, and burned without any help. Seesaw has gone to the doctor's to try if he can borrow a wick, and mother let me have a pint of oil, but she says she won't give me any more. We never thought of the expense of keeping up the lamp, Rebecca."
"The Simpsons don't have any kerosene or wicks. I think they thought a banquet lamp was something that lit itself and burned on its own. Seesaw went to the doctor to see if he could borrow a wick, and Mom let me have a pint of oil, but she says she won't give me any more. We never considered the cost of maintaining the lamp, Rebecca."
"No, we didn't, but let's not worry about that till after the party. I have a handful of nuts and raisins and some apples."
"No, we didn't, but let’s not stress about that until after the party. I have some nuts, raisins, and a few apples."
"I have peppermints and maple sugar," said Emma Jane. "They had a real Thanksgiving dinner; the doctor gave them sweet potatoes and cranberries and turnips; father sent a spare-rib, and Mrs. Cobb a chicken and a jar of mince-meat."
"I have peppermints and maple sugar," said Emma Jane. "They had a real Thanksgiving dinner; the doctor gave them sweet potatoes, cranberries, and turnips; Dad sent a spare rib, and Mrs. Cobb sent a chicken and a jar of mincemeat."
At half past five one might have looked in at the Simpsons' windows, and seen the party at its height. Mrs. Simpson had let the kitchen fire die out, and had brought the baby to grace the festal scene. The lamp seemed to be having the party, and receiving the guests. The children had taken the one small table in the house, and it was placed in the far corner of the room to serve as a pedestal. On it stood the sacred, the adored, the long-desired object; almost as beautiful, and nearly half as large as the advertisement. The brass glistened like gold, and the crimson paper shade glowed like a giant ruby. In the wide splash of light that it flung upon the floor sat the Simpsons, in reverent and solemn silence, Emma Jane standing behind them, hand in hand with Rebecca. There seemed to be no desire for conversation; the occasion was too thrilling and serious for that. The lamp, it was tacitly felt by everybody, was dignifying the party, and providing sufficient entertainment simply by its presence; being fully as satisfactory in its way as a pianola or a string band.
At five-thirty, if you looked through the Simpsons' windows, you would have seen the party in full swing. Mrs. Simpson had let the kitchen fire go out and brought the baby to add to the festive scene. The lamp seemed to be hosting the party and welcoming the guests. The children had taken the one small table in the house, which was placed in the far corner of the room to serve as a pedestal. On it stood the treasured, adored, long-coveted item; almost as beautiful and nearly half as large as in the advertisement. The brass shone like gold, and the crimson paper shade lit up like a giant ruby. In the large pool of light it cast on the floor sat the Simpsons in respectful, solemn silence, with Emma Jane standing behind them, holding hands with Rebecca. There seemed to be no desire to chat; the moment was too exciting and serious for that. Everyone felt that the lamp dignified the party and offered enough entertainment just by being there; it was just as satisfying as a pianola or a string band.
"I wish father could see it," said Clara Belle loyally.
"I wish Dad could see it," Clara Belle said loyally.
"If he onth thaw it he'd want to thwap it," murmured Susan sagaciously.
"If he saw it, he'd want to hit it," murmured Susan wisely.
At the appointed hour Rebecca dragged herself reluctantly away from the enchanting scene.
At the scheduled time, Rebecca dragged herself away from the captivating scene with hesitation.
"I'll turn the lamp out the minute I think you and Emma Jane are home," said Clara Belle. "And, oh! I'm so glad you both live where you can see it shine from our windows. I wonder how long it will burn without bein' filled if I only keep it lit one hour every night?"
"I'll turn off the lamp as soon as I think you and Emma Jane are home," said Clara Belle. "And, oh! I'm so glad you both live where you can see it shining from our windows. I wonder how long it will last without being refilled if I only keep it on for one hour every night?"
"You needn't put it out for want o' karosene," said Seesaw, coming in from the shed, "for there's a great kag of it settin' out there. Mr. Tubbs brought it over from North Riverboro and said somebody sent an order by mail for it."
"You don't have to worry about running out of kerosene," said Seesaw, walking in from the shed, "because there's a big keg of it sitting out there. Mr. Tubbs brought it over from North Riverboro and mentioned that someone placed an order for it by mail."
Rebecca squeezed Emma Jane's arm, and Emma Jane gave a rapturous return squeeze. "It was Mr. Aladdin," whispered Rebecca, as they ran down the path to the gate. Seesaw followed them and handsomely offered to see them "apiece" down the road, but Rebecca declined his escort with such decision that he did not press the matter, but went to bed to dream of her instead. In his dreams flashes of lightning proceeded from both her eyes, and she held a flaming sword in either hand.
Rebecca squeezed Emma Jane's arm, and Emma Jane squeezed back excitedly. "It was Mr. Aladdin," whispered Rebecca as they ran down the path to the gate. Seesaw followed them and politely offered to walk them "a piece" down the road, but Rebecca declined his offer so firmly that he didn't push it and went to bed to dream about her instead. In his dreams, flashes of lightning shot from both her eyes, and she held a flaming sword in each hand.
Rebecca entered the home dining-room joyously. The Burnham sisters had gone and the two aunts were knitting.
Rebecca walked into the dining room happily. The Burnham sisters had left, and the two aunts were knitting.
"It was a heavenly party," she cried, taking off her hat and cape.
"It was an amazing party," she exclaimed, removing her hat and cape.
"Go back and see if you have shut the door tight, and then lock it," said Miss Miranda, in her usual austere manner.
"Go back and check if you’ve closed the door securely, and then lock it," said Miss Miranda, in her typical strict tone.
"It was a heavenly party," reiterated Rebecca, coming in again, much too excited to be easily crushed, "and oh! aunt Jane, aunt Miranda, if you'll only come into the kitchen and look out of the sink window, you can see the banquet lamp shining all red, just as if the Simpsons' house was on fire."
"It was an amazing party," Rebecca said again, bursting in, way too excited to be easily brought down, "and oh! Aunt Jane, Aunt Miranda, if you just come into the kitchen and look out of the sink window, you can see the banquet lamp glowing all red, just like the Simpsons' house is on fire."
"And probably it will be before long," observed Miranda. "I've got no patience with such foolish goin's-on."
"And it will probably be soon," Miranda noted. "I have no patience for such foolishness."
Jane accompanied Rebecca into the kitchen. Although the feeble glimmer which she was able to see from that distance did not seem to her a dazzling exhibition, she tried to be as enthusiastic as possible.
Jane walked with Rebecca into the kitchen. Even though the dim light she could see from that distance didn't appear to her as a spectacular display, she made an effort to be as excited as she could.
"Rebecca, who was it that sold the three hundred cakes of soap to Mr. Ladd in North Riverboro?"
"Rebecca, who sold the three hundred bars of soap to Mr. Ladd in North Riverboro?"
"Mr. WHO?" exclaimed Rebecca.
"Mr. Who?" exclaimed Rebecca.
"Mr. Ladd, in North Riverboro."
"Mr. Ladd in North Riverboro."
"Is that his real name?" queried Rebecca in astonishment. "I didn't make a bad guess;" and she laughed softly to herself.
"Is that really his name?" Rebecca asked in surprise. "I didn't make a bad guess," she chuckled softly to herself.
"I asked you who sold the soap to Adam Ladd?" resumed Miss Jane.
"I asked you who sold the soap to Adam Ladd?" Miss Jane continued.
"Adam Ladd! then he's A. Ladd, too; what fun!"
"Adam Ladd! So he's A. Ladd as well; how fun!"
"Answer me, Rebecca."
"Answer me, Rebecca."
"Oh! excuse me, aunt Jane, I was so busy thinking. Emma Jane and I sold the soap to Mr. Ladd."
"Oh! Sorry, Aunt Jane, I was just lost in thought. Emma Jane and I sold the soap to Mr. Ladd."
"Did you tease him, or make him buy it?"
"Did you mess with him, or get him to buy it?"
"Now, aunt Jane, how could I make a big grown-up man buy anything if he didn't want to? He needed the soap dreadfully as a present for his aunt."
"Now, Aunt Jane, how could I get a big grown-up man to buy anything if he didn’t want to? He really needed the soap as a gift for his aunt."
Miss Jane still looked a little unconvinced, though she only said, "I hope your aunt Miranda won't mind, but you know how particular she is, Rebecca, and I really wish you wouldn't do anything out of the ordinary without asking her first, for your actions are very queer."
Miss Jane still seemed a bit doubtful, but she only said, "I hope your aunt Miranda won't mind, but you know how particular she is, Rebecca, and I really wish you wouldn't do anything unusual without asking her first, because your actions are quite strange."
"There can't be anything wrong this time," Rebecca answered confidently. "Emma Jane sold her cakes to her own relations and to uncle Jerry Cobb, and I went first to those new tenements near the lumber mill, and then to the Ladds'. Mr. Ladd bought all we had and made us promise to keep the secret until the premium came, and I've been going about ever since as if the banquet lamp was inside of me all lighted up and burning, for everybody to see."
"There can't be anything wrong this time," Rebecca replied confidently. "Emma Jane sold her cakes to her relatives and to Uncle Jerry Cobb, and I first went to those new apartments near the lumber mill, and then to the Ladds'. Mr. Ladd bought everything we had and made us promise to keep it a secret until the bonus arrived, and I've been going around ever since like I have a banquet lamp inside me, all lit up and burning, for everyone to see."
Rebecca's hair was loosened and falling over her forehead in ruffled waves; her eyes were brilliant, her cheeks crimson; there was a hint of everything in the girl's face,—of sensitiveness and delicacy as well as of ardor; there was the sweetness of the mayflower and the strength of the young oak, but one could easily divine that she was one of
Rebecca's hair was loose and cascading over her forehead in messy waves; her eyes were bright, her cheeks flushed; her face hinted at so many things—sensitivity and delicacy along with passion; there was the sweetness of a mayflower and the strength of a young oak, but it was easy to see that she was one of
"The souls by nature pitched too high,
By suffering plunged too low."
"The souls that are naturally elevated,
By enduring pain have fallen too far."
"That's just the way you look, for all the world as if you did have a lamp burning inside of you," sighed aunt Jane. "Rebecca! Rebecca! I wish you could take things easier, child; I am fearful for you sometimes."
"That's just how you seem, like you have a lamp burning inside you," sighed Aunt Jane. "Rebecca! Rebecca! I wish you could relax a bit, kid; I worry about you sometimes."
XVI
SEASONS OF GROWTH
The days flew by; as summer had melted into autumn so autumn had given place to winter. Life in the brick house had gone on more placidly of late, for Rebecca was honestly trying to be more careful in the performance of her tasks and duties as well as more quiet in her plays, and she was slowly learning the power of the soft answer in turning away wrath.
The days passed quickly; summer faded into autumn, and autumn gave way to winter. Life in the brick house had become calmer lately, as Rebecca was genuinely trying to be more careful in her chores and responsibilities, as well as quieter in her games. She was slowly learning the power of a gentle response to defuse anger.
Miranda had not had, perhaps, quite as many opportunities in which to lose her temper, but it is only just to say that she had not fully availed herself of all that had offered themselves.
Miranda hadn't really had that many chances to lose her temper, but it's fair to say that she hadn't taken full advantage of all the opportunities that had come her way.
There had been one outburst of righteous wrath occasioned by Rebecca's over-hospitable habits, which were later shown in a still more dramatic and unexpected fashion.
There had been one instance of righteous anger caused by Rebecca's overly generous nature, which later appeared in an even more dramatic and surprising way.
On a certain Friday afternoon she asked her aunt Miranda if she might take half her bread and milk upstairs to a friend.
On a Friday afternoon, she asked her aunt Miranda if she could take half of her bread and milk upstairs to a friend.
"What friend have you got up there, for pity's sake?" demanded aunt Miranda.
"What friend do you have up there, for goodness' sake?" asked Aunt Miranda.
"The Simpson baby, come to stay over Sunday; that is, if you're willing, Mrs. Simpson says she is. Shall I bring her down and show her? She's dressed in an old dress of Emma Jane's and she looks sweet."
"The Simpson baby is here to stay over on Sunday; that is, if you're okay with it. Mrs. Simpson says she is. Should I bring her down and show her to you? She's wearing an old dress of Emma Jane's, and she looks adorable."
"You can bring her down, but you can't show her to me! You can smuggle her out the way you smuggled her in and take her back to her mother. Where on earth do you get your notions, borrowing a baby for Sunday!"
"You can take her down, but you can’t show her to me! You can sneak her out the way you snuck her in and take her back to her mom. Where on earth do you get your ideas, borrowing a baby for Sunday?"
"You're so used to a house without a baby you don't know how dull it is," sighed Rebecca resignedly, as she moved towards the door; "but at the farm there was always a nice fresh one to play with and cuddle. There were too many, but that's not half as bad as none at all. Well, I'll take her back. She'll be dreadfully disappointed and so will Mrs. Simpson. She was planning to go to Milltown."
"You're so used to a house without a baby that you don't realize how boring it is," Rebecca sighed, moving towards the door. "But at the farm, there was always a nice little one to play with and cuddle. There were too many, but that's still better than having none at all. Well, I’ll take her back. She’ll be terribly disappointed, and so will Mrs. Simpson. She was planning to go to Milltown."
"She can un-plan then," observed Miss Miranda.
"She can just take it off her schedule then," noted Miss Miranda.
"Perhaps I can go up there and take care of the baby?" suggested Rebecca. "I brought her home so 't I could do my Saturday work just the same."
"Maybe I can go up there and take care of the baby?" suggested Rebecca. "I brought her home so I could still get my Saturday work done."
"You've got enough to do right here, without any borrowed babies to make more steps. Now, no answering back, just give the child some supper and carry it home where it belongs."
"You have plenty to handle right here, without any borrowed kids to add more tasks. Now, no arguing, just give the child some dinner and take it home where it belongs."
"You don't want me to go down the front way, hadn't I better just come through this room and let you look at her? She has yellow hair and big blue eyes! Mrs. Simpson says she takes after her father."
"You don't want me to go the front way, so shouldn’t I just come through this room and let you see her? She has blonde hair and big blue eyes! Mrs. Simpson says she looks like her dad."
Miss Miranda smiled acidly as she said she couldn't take after her father, for he'd take any thing there was before she got there!
Miss Miranda smiled sarcastically as she said she couldn't take after her father, because he'd grab anything available before she even got there!
Aunt Jane was in the linen closet upstairs, sorting out the clean sheets and pillow cases for Saturday, and Rebecca sought comfort from her.
Aunt Jane was in the linen closet upstairs, organizing the clean sheets and pillowcases for Saturday, and Rebecca turned to her for comfort.
"I brought the Simpson baby home, aunt Jane, thinking it would help us over a dull Sunday, but aunt Miranda won't let her stay. Emma Jane has the promise of her next Sunday and Alice Robinson the next. Mrs. Simpson wanted I should have her first because I've had so much experience in babies. Come in and look at her sitting up in my bed, aunt Jane! Isn't she lovely? She's the fat, gurgly kind, not thin and fussy like some babies, and I thought I was going to have her to undress and dress twice each day. Oh dear! I wish I could have a printed book with everything set down in it that I COULD do, and then I wouldn't get disappointed so often."
"I brought the Simpson baby home, Aunt Jane, thinking it would help us get through a boring Sunday, but Aunt Miranda won’t let her stay. Emma Jane has her next Sunday, and Alice Robinson has the one after that. Mrs. Simpson wanted me to have her first because I have so much experience with babies. Come and see her sitting up in my bed, Aunt Jane! Isn’t she adorable? She’s the chubby, gurgly type, not skinny and fussy like some babies, and I thought I was going to be able to dress and undress her twice a day. Oh dear! I wish I could have a printed book with everything I COULD do written down in it, then I wouldn't get disappointed so often."
"No book could be printed that would fit you, Rebecca," answered aunt Jane, "for nobody could imagine beforehand the things you'd want to do. Are you going to carry that heavy child home in your arms?"
"No book could be published that would suit you, Rebecca," replied Aunt Jane, "because no one can predict in advance the things you’d want to do. Are you really going to carry that heavy child home in your arms?"
"No, I'm going to drag her in the little soap-wagon. Come, baby! Take your thumb out of your mouth and come to ride with Becky in your go-cart." She stretched out her strong young arms to the crowing baby, sat down in a chair with the child, turned her upside down unceremoniously, took from her waistband and scornfully flung away a crooked pin, walked with her (still in a highly reversed position) to the bureau, selected a large safety pin, and proceeded to attach her brief red flannel petticoat to a sort of shirt that she wore. Whether flat on her stomach, or head down, heels in the air, the Simpson baby knew she was in the hands of an expert, and continued gurgling placidly while aunt Jane regarded the pantomime with a kind of dazed awe.
"No, I'm going to take her in the little toy wagon. Come on, kid! Take your thumb out of your mouth and come ride with Becky in your go-cart." She reached out her strong young arms to the laughing baby, sat down in a chair with the child, flipped her upside down without ceremony, took a crooked pin from her waistband and threw it away with disdain, walked with her (still in a very awkward position) to the dresser, grabbed a large safety pin, and started to attach her short red flannel petticoat to the kind of shirt she was wearing. Whether lying flat on her stomach or head down with her heels in the air, the Simpson baby knew she was in the hands of a pro and kept gurgling contentedly while Aunt Jane watched the scene with a kind of stunned amazement.
"Bless my soul, Rebecca," she ejaculated, "it beats all how handy you are with babies!"
"Wow, Rebecca," she exclaimed, "it's amazing how good you are with babies!"
"I ought to be; I've brought up three and a half of 'em," Rebecca responded cheerfully, pulling up the infant Simpson's stockings.
"I should be; I've raised three and a half of them," Rebecca replied cheerfully, pulling up the baby Simpson's stockings.
"I should think you'd be fonder of dolls than you are," said Jane.
"I would think you'd like dolls more than you do," said Jane.
"I do like them, but there's never any change in a doll; it's always the same everlasting old doll, and you have to make believe it's cross or sick, or it loves you, or can't bear you. Babies are more trouble, but nicer."
"I like them, but there's never any change with a doll; it's always the same old doll, and you have to pretend it's upset or sick, or that it loves you or can't stand you. Babies are more work, but they're better."
Miss Jane stretched out a thin hand with a slender, worn band of gold on the finger, and the baby curled her dimpled fingers round it and held it fast.
Miss Jane stretched out a thin hand with a slim, worn gold band on her finger, and the baby curled her dimpled fingers around it and held it tight.
"You wear a ring on your engagement finger, don't you, aunt Jane? Did you ever think about getting married?"
"You wear a ring on your ring finger, don't you, Aunt Jane? Have you ever thought about getting married?"
"Yes, dear, long ago."
"Yes, sweetheart, a long time ago."
"What happened, aunt Jane?"
"What happened, Aunt Jane?"
"He died—just before."
"He passed away—right before."
"Oh!" And Rebecca's eyes grew misty.
"Oh!" And Rebecca's eyes became watery.
"He was a soldier and he died of a gunshot wound, in a hospital, down South."
"He was a soldier, and he died from a gunshot wound in a hospital down South."
"Oh! aunt Jane!" softly. "Away from you?"
"Oh! Aunt Jane!" softly. "Away from you?"
"No, I was with him."
"No, I was with him."
"Was he young?"
"Was he a kid?"
"Yes; young and brave and handsome, Rebecca; he was Mr. Carter's brother Tom."
"Yes; young, brave, and handsome, Rebecca; he was Mr. Carter's brother, Tom."
"Oh! I'm so glad you were with him! Wasn't he glad, aunt Jane?"
"Oh! I'm so glad you were with him! Wasn't he happy, Aunt Jane?"
Jane looked back across the half-forgotten years, and the vision of Tom's gladness flashed upon her: his haggard smile, the tears in his tired eyes, his outstretched arms, his weak voice saying, "Oh, Jenny! Dear Jenny! I've wanted you so, Jenny!" It was too much! She had never breathed a word of it before to a human creature, for there was no one who would have understood. Now, in a shamefaced way, to hide her brimming eyes, she put her head down on the young shoulder beside her, saying, "It was hard, Rebecca!"
Jane looked back over the years that had faded from her memory, and she was hit with the image of Tom's happiness: his worn smile, the tears in his exhausted eyes, his arms reaching out, and his weak voice saying, "Oh, Jenny! Dear Jenny! I've missed you so much, Jenny!" It was overwhelming! She had never spoken about it to anyone before because no one would have understood. Now, feeling embarrassed and trying to hide her teary eyes, she rested her head on the young shoulder next to her and said, "It was hard, Rebecca!"
The Simpson baby had cuddled down sleepily in Rebecca's lap, leaning her head back and sucking her thumb contentedly. Rebecca put her cheek down until it touched her aunt's gray hair and softly patted her, as she said, "I'm sorry, aunt Jane!"
The Simpson baby had snuggled up sleepily in Rebecca's lap, tilting her head back and sucking her thumb happily. Rebecca rested her cheek against her aunt's gray hair and gently patted her while saying, "I'm sorry, Aunt Jane!"
The girl's eyes were soft and tender and the heart within her stretched a little and grew; grew in sweetness and intuition and depth of feeling. It had looked into another heart, felt it beat, and heard it sigh; and that is how all hearts grow.
The girl's eyes were gentle and warm, and her heart expanded a bit and flourished; it grew in kindness, understanding, and emotional depth. It had connected with another heart, felt its rhythm, and sensed its sigh; and that's how all hearts develop.
Episodes like these enlivened the quiet course of every-day existence, made more quiet by the departure of Dick Carter, Living Perkins, and Huldah Meserve for Wareham, and the small attendance at the winter school, from which the younger children of the place stayed away during the cold weather.
Episodes like these brought excitement to the otherwise mundane routine of everyday life, which was even quieter with the departure of Dick Carter, Living Perkins, and Huldah Meserve to Wareham, and the low turnout at the winter school, where the younger kids in town stayed home during the cold months.
Life, however, could never be thoroughly dull or lacking in adventure to a child of Rebecca's temperament. Her nature was full of adaptability, fluidity, receptivity. She made friends everywhere she went, and snatched up acquaintances in every corner.
Life, however, could never be completely boring or without adventure for a child like Rebecca. She was naturally adaptable, flexible, and open to new experiences. She made friends wherever she went and formed connections with people in every corner.
It was she who ran to the shed door to take the dish to the "meat man" or "fish man;" she who knew the family histories of the itinerant fruit venders and tin peddlers; she who was asked to take supper or pass the night with children in neighboring villages—children of whose parents her aunts had never so much as heard. As to the nature of these friendships, which seemed so many to the eye of the superficial observer, they were of various kinds, and while the girl pursued them with enthusiasm and ardor, they left her unsatisfied and heart-hungry; they were never intimacies such as are so readily made by shallow natures. She loved Emma Jane, but it was a friendship born of propinquity and circumstance, not of true affinity. It was her neighbor's amiability, constancy, and devotion that she loved, and although she rated these qualities at their true value, she was always searching beyond them for intellectual treasures; searching and never finding, for although Emma Jane had the advantage in years she was still immature. Huldah Meserve had an instinctive love of fun which appealed to Rebecca; she also had a fascinating knowledge of the world, from having visited her married sisters in Milltown and Portland; but on the other hand there was a certain sharpness and lack of sympathy in Huldah which repelled rather than attracted. With Dick Carter she could at least talk intelligently about lessons. He was a very ambitious boy, full of plans for his future, which he discussed quite freely with Rebecca, but when she broached the subject of her future his interest sensibly lessened. Into the world of the ideal, Emma Jane, Huldah, and Dick alike never seemed to have peeped, and the consciousness of this was always a fixed gulf between them and Rebecca.
It was she who rushed to the shed door to take the dish to the "meat guy" or "fish guy;" she who knew the family backgrounds of the traveling fruit sellers and tin peddlers; she who was invited to have dinner or spend the night with kids in nearby villages—kids whose parents her aunts had never even heard of. As for the nature of these friendships, which seemed numerous to the casual observer, they varied greatly, and while the girl embraced them with enthusiasm and passion, they left her feeling empty and longing for more; they were never the close connections often forged by shallow people. She loved Emma Jane, but it was a friendship born of proximity and circumstance, not true bond. She admired her neighbor's kindness, reliability, and loyalty, and even though she recognized their true worth, she was always searching beyond them for deeper intellectual connections; searching and never finding, because even though Emma Jane was older, she was still immature. Huldah Meserve had an instinctive love of fun that appealed to Rebecca; she also had an intriguing understanding of the world from visiting her married sisters in Milltown and Portland; but on the flip side, there was a certain harshness and lack of empathy in Huldah that pushed Rebecca away rather than drawing her in. With Dick Carter, she could at least have intelligent conversations about school. He was a highly ambitious boy, full of plans for his future, which he shared openly with Rebecca, but when she brought up her own future, his interest noticeably waned. Emma Jane, Huldah, and Dick never seemed to glance into the world of ideals, and this awareness created a continual rift between them and Rebecca.
"Uncle Jerry" and "aunt Sarah" Cobb were dear friends of quite another sort, a very satisfying and perhaps a somewhat dangerous one. A visit from Rebecca always sent them into a twitter of delight. Her merry conversation and quaint comments on life in general fairly dazzled the old couple, who hung on her lightest word as if it had been a prophet's utterance; and Rebecca, though she had had no previous experience, owned to herself a perilous pleasure in being dazzling, even to a couple of dear humdrum old people like Mr. and Mrs. Cobb. Aunt Sarah flew to the pantry or cellar whenever Rebecca's slim little shape first appeared on the crest of the hill, and a jelly tart or a frosted cake was sure to be forthcoming. The sight of old uncle Jerry's spare figure in its clean white shirt sleeves, whatever the weather, always made Rebecca's heart warm when she saw him peer longingly from the kitchen window. Before the snow came, many was the time he had come out to sit on a pile of boards at the gate, to see if by any chance she was mounting the hill that led to their house. In the autumn Rebecca was often the old man's companion while he was digging potatoes or shelling beans, and now in the winter, when a younger man was driving the stage, she sometimes stayed with him while he did his evening milking. It is safe to say that he was the only creature in Riverboro who possessed Rebecca's entire confidence; the only being to whom she poured out her whole heart, with its wealth of hopes, and dreams, and vague ambitions. At the brick house she practiced scales and exercises, but at the Cobbs' cabinet organ she sang like a bird, improvising simple accompaniments that seemed to her ignorant auditors nothing short of marvelous. Here she was happy, here she was loved, here she was drawn out of herself and admired and made much of. But, she thought, if there were somebody who not only loved but understood; who spoke her language, comprehended her desires, and responded to her mysterious longings! Perhaps in the big world of Wareham there would be people who thought and dreamed and wondered as she did.
"Uncle Jerry" and "Aunt Sarah" Cobb were dear friends of a different kind, a very fulfilling and maybe a slightly risky one. A visit from Rebecca always filled them with excitement. Her cheerful conversation and unique takes on life completely amazed the old couple, who hung on her every word as if it were a prophecy; and Rebecca, although she had never experienced anything like this before, felt a thrilling pleasure in being captivating, even to a couple of sweet but ordinary old folks like Mr. and Mrs. Cobb. Aunt Sarah would rush to the pantry or cellar as soon as she spotted Rebecca's slim figure appearing over the hill, and a jelly tart or a frosted cake would definitely be on the way. The sight of old Uncle Jerry's lean frame in his clean white shirt sleeves, no matter the weather, always warmed Rebecca's heart when she saw him looking longingly from the kitchen window. Before the snow arrived, he often came out to sit on a stack of boards by the gate, hoping to catch a glimpse of her climbing the hill to their house. In the autumn, Rebecca frequently kept him company while he dug potatoes or shelled beans, and now in winter, when a younger man was driving the stagecoach, she sometimes stayed with him during his evening milking. It’s safe to say he was the only one in Riverboro who had Rebecca's complete trust; the only one she confided in with her dreams, hopes, and vague ambitions. At the brick house, she practiced scales and exercises, but at the Cobbs' cabinet organ, she sang like a songbird, improvising simple accompaniments that seemed nothing short of amazing to her unwitting listeners. Here, she felt happy, loved, and appreciated, where she could come out of her shell and be admired. But she thought, if only there were someone who not only loved her but truly understood her; who spoke her language, grasped her desires, and responded to her mysterious yearnings! Perhaps in the bustling world of Wareham, there would be people who thought, dreamed, and wondered as she did.
In reality Jane did not understand her niece very much better than Miranda; the difference between the sisters was, that while Jane was puzzled, she was also attracted, and when she was quite in the dark for an explanation of some quaint or unusual action she was sympathetic as to its possible motive and believed the best. A greater change had come over Jane than over any other person in the brick house, but it had been wrought so secretly, and concealed so religiously, that it scarcely appeared to the ordinary observer. Life had now a motive utterly lacking before. Breakfast was not eaten in the kitchen, because it seemed worth while, now that there were three persons, to lay the cloth in the dining-room; it was also a more bountiful meal than of yore, when there was no child to consider. The morning was made cheerful by Rebecca's start for school, the packing of the luncheon basket, the final word about umbrella, waterproof, or rubbers; the parting admonition and the unconscious waiting at the window for the last wave of the hand. She found herself taking pride in Rebecca's improved appearance, her rounder throat and cheeks, and her better color; she was wont to mention the length of Rebecca's hair and add a word as to its remarkable evenness and lustre, at times when Mrs. Perkins grew too diffuse about Emma Jane's complexion. She threw herself wholeheartedly on her niece's side when it became a question between a crimson or a brown linsey-woolsey dress, and went through a memorable struggle with her sister concerning the purchase of a red bird for Rebecca's black felt hat. No one guessed the quiet pleasure that lay hidden in her heart when she watched the girl's dark head bent over her lessons at night, nor dreamed of her joy in, certain quiet evenings when Miranda went to prayer meeting; evenings when Rebecca would read aloud Hiawatha or Barbara Frietchie, The Bugle Song, or The Brook. Her narrow, humdrum existence bloomed under the dews that fell from this fresh spirit; her dullness brightened under the kindling touch of the younger mind, took fire from the "vital spark of heavenly flame" that seemed always to radiate from Rebecca's presence.
In reality, Jane didn't understand her niece much better than Miranda did; the difference between the sisters was that while Jane was confused, she was also drawn to Rebecca. When she had no clue about some quirky or unusual behavior, she empathized with its possible motive and always believed the best. A bigger change had occurred in Jane than in anyone else in the brick house, but it had happened so quietly and was kept so carefully hidden that it hardly seemed noticeable to an ordinary observer. Life now had a purpose that wasn’t there before. Breakfast wasn't eaten in the kitchen anymore because it seemed worthwhile, with three people now, to set the table in the dining room. It was also a more generous meal than before when there was no child to think about. The mornings were brightened by Rebecca's departure for school, the packing of the lunchbox, the last-minute reminders about an umbrella, waterproof jacket, or galoshes; the parting advice and the unconscious waiting at the window for the final wave goodbye. Jane found herself feeling proud of Rebecca's improved looks, her rounder throat and cheeks, and her better complexion; she would often mention how long Rebecca's hair was and comment on its remarkable shine and evenness, especially when Mrs. Perkins went on a bit too much about Emma Jane's complexion. She wholeheartedly supported Rebecca when it came to choosing between a crimson or brown linsey-woolsey dress and went through a memorable struggle with her sister over buying a red bird for Rebecca's black felt hat. No one realized the quiet joy hidden in her heart as she watched the girl’s dark head bent over her homework at night, nor did they know of her happiness during certain calm evenings when Miranda went to prayer meeting; evenings when Rebecca would read aloud Hiawatha or Barbara Frietchie, The Bugle Song, or The Brook. Her narrow, uneventful life blossomed under the influence of this fresh spirit; her dull routine brightened with the invigorating touch of the younger mind, ignited by the "vital spark of heavenly flame" that seemed to always radiate from Rebecca's presence.
Rebecca's idea of being a painter like her friend Miss Ross was gradually receding, owing to the apparently insuperable difficulties in securing any instruction. Her aunt Miranda saw no wisdom in cultivating such a talent, and could not conceive that any money could ever be earned by its exercise, "Hand painted pictures" were held in little esteem in Riverboro, where the cheerful chromo or the dignified steel engraving were respected and valued. There was a slight, a very slight hope, that Rebecca might be allowed a few music lessons from Miss Morton, who played the church cabinet organ, but this depended entirely upon whether Mrs. Morton would decide to accept a hayrack in return for a year's instruction from her daughter. She had the matter under advisement, but a doubt as to whether or not she would sell or rent her hayfields kept her from coming to a conclusion. Music, in common with all other accomplishments, was viewed by Miss Miranda as a trivial, useless, and foolish amusement, but she allowed Rebecca an hour a day for practice on the old piano, and a little extra time for lessons, if Jane could secure them without payment of actual cash.
Rebecca's dream of becoming a painter like her friend Miss Ross was slowly fading due to the seemingly impossible challenges in getting any art instruction. Her aunt Miranda didn't see the value in nurturing such a talent and couldn't imagine that any money could ever come from it. "Hand-painted pictures" were not respected in Riverboro, where the bright chromos or the classy steel engravings were much more appreciated. There was a tiny, very tiny chance that Rebecca might get a few music lessons from Miss Morton, who played the church organ, but that depended entirely on whether Mrs. Morton would agree to take a hayrack in exchange for a year of lessons from her daughter. She was still thinking it over, but uncertainty about whether to sell or rent her hayfields was preventing her from making a decision. Music, like all other skills, was seen by Miss Miranda as a pointless, frivolous pastime, but she did allow Rebecca an hour each day to practice on the old piano, plus some extra time for lessons if Jane could arrange them without paying cash.
The news from Sunnybrook Farm was hopeful rather than otherwise. Cousin Ann's husband had died, and John, Rebecca's favorite brother, had gone to be the man of the house to the widowed cousin. He was to have good schooling in return for his care of the horse and cow and barn, and what was still more dazzling, the use of the old doctor's medical library of two or three dozen volumes. John's whole heart was set on becoming a country doctor, with Rebecca to keep house for him, and the vision seemed now so true, so near, that he could almost imagine his horse ploughing through snowdrifts on errands of mercy, or, less dramatic but none the less attractive, could see a physician's neat turncut trundling along the shady country roads, a medicine case between his, Dr. Randall's, feet, and Miss Rebecca Randall sitting in a black silk dress by his side.
The news from Sunnybrook Farm was more hopeful than anything else. Cousin Ann's husband had passed away, and John, Rebecca's favorite brother, had gone to take care of the house for the widowed cousin. He would get a good education in exchange for looking after the horse, cow, and barn, and even more exciting, he would have access to the old doctor's medical library, which had two or three dozen volumes. John's entire heart was set on becoming a country doctor, with Rebecca managing the household for him, and the dream felt so real, so close, that he could almost picture his horse trudging through snowdrifts on urgent missions, or, less dramatically but still appealing, envision a doctor's neat carriage rolling along the shady country roads, a medical kit between his and Dr. Randall's feet, with Miss Rebecca Randall sitting beside him in a black silk dress.
Hannah now wore her hair in a coil and her dresses a trifle below her ankles, these concessions being due to her extreme height. Mark had broken his collar bone, but it was healing well. Little Mira was growing very pretty. There was even a rumor that the projected railroad from Temperance to Plumville might go near the Randall farm, in which case land would rise in value from nothing-at-all an acre to something at least resembling a price. Mrs. Randall refused to consider any improvement in their financial condition as a possibility. Content to work from sunrise to sunset to gain a mere subsistence for her children, she lived in their future, not in her own present, as a mother is wont to do when her own lot seems hard and cheerless.
Hannah now styled her hair in a bun and wore her dresses slightly below her ankles, these adjustments being necessary because of her tall stature. Mark had broken his collarbone, but it was healing well. Little Mira was growing up to be quite pretty. There was even a rumor that the proposed railroad from Temperance to Plumville might come close to the Randall farm, which would make the land increase in value from practically nothing per acre to something that at least resembled a real price. Mrs. Randall refused to entertain the idea that their financial situation could improve. Content to work from dawn to dusk just to provide for her children, she lived in their future, not her own present, as many mothers tend to do when their own circumstances seem difficult and bleak.
XVII
GRAY DAYS AND GOLD
When Rebecca looked back upon the year or two that followed the Simpsons' Thanksgiving party, she could see only certain milestones rising in the quiet pathway of the months.
When Rebecca reflected on the year or two after the Simpsons' Thanksgiving party, she could only see a few milestones standing out along the quiet path of those months.
The first milestone was Christmas Day. It was a fresh, crystal morning, with icicles hanging like dazzling pendants from the trees and a glaze of pale blue on the surface of the snow. The Simpsons' red barn stood out, a glowing mass of color in the white landscape. Rebecca had been busy for weeks before, trying to make a present for each of the seven persons at Sunnybrook Farm, a somewhat difficult proceeding on an expenditure of fifty cents, hoarded by incredible exertion. Success had been achieved, however, and the precious packet had been sent by post two days previous. Miss Sawyer had bought her niece a nice gray squirrel muff and tippet, which was even more unbecoming if possible, than Rebecca's other articles of wearing apparel; but aunt Jane had made her the loveliest dress of green cashmere, a soft, soft green like that of a young leaf. It was very simply made, but the color delighted the eye. Then there was a beautiful "tatting" collar from her mother, some scarlet mittens from Mrs. Cobb, and a handkerchief from Emma Jane.
The first major moment was Christmas Day. It was a fresh, clear morning, with icicles hanging like sparkling jewelry from the trees and a soft blue tint on the surface of the snow. The Simpsons' red barn stood out, a bright splash of color in the white landscape. Rebecca had been busy for weeks before this, trying to make a gift for each of the seven people at Sunnybrook Farm, which was pretty challenging on a budget of fifty cents that she had saved up with great effort. However, she managed to succeed, and the precious package had been sent by mail two days earlier. Miss Sawyer had bought her niece a nice gray squirrel muff and tippet, which was even less flattering than Rebecca's other clothing; but Aunt Jane had made her the loveliest dress of green cashmere, a soft green like that of a new leaf. It was very simply made, but the color was delightful. Then there was a beautiful tatted collar from her mother, some red mittens from Mrs. Cobb, and a handkerchief from Emma Jane.
Rebecca herself had fashioned an elaborate tea-cosy with a letter "M" in outline stitch, and a pretty frilled pincushion marked with a "J," for her two aunts, so that taken all together the day would have been an unequivocal success had nothing else happened; but something else did.
Rebecca had made a detailed tea cozy with the letter "M" in outline stitch and a cute frilled pincushion marked with a "J" for her two aunts. So, overall, the day would have been a clear success if nothing else had happened; but something else did.
There was a knock at the door at breakfast time, and Rebecca, answering it, was asked by a boy if Miss Rebecca Randall lived there. On being told that she did, he handed her a parcel bearing her name, a parcel which she took like one in a dream and bore into the dining-room.
There was a knock at the door during breakfast, and when Rebecca answered it, a boy asked if Miss Rebecca Randall lived there. When she confirmed that she did, he handed her a package with her name on it, which she took almost as if in a daze and carried into the dining room.
"It's a present; it must be," she said, looking at it in a dazed sort of way; "but I can't think who it could be from."
"It's a gift; it has to be," she said, looking at it in a dazed way; "but I can't figure out who it could be from."
"A good way to find out would be to open it," remarked Miss Miranda.
"A good way to find out is to just open it," Miss Miranda said.
The parcel being untied proved to have two smaller packages within, and Rebecca opened with trembling fingers the one addressed to her. Anybody's fingers would have trembled. There was a case which, when the cover was lifted, disclosed a long chain of delicate pink coral beads,—a chain ending in a cross made of coral rosebuds. A card with "Merry Christmas from Mr. Aladdin" lay under the cross.
The parcel being unwrapped turned out to have two smaller packages inside, and Rebecca opened the one addressed to her with shaking hands. Anyone would have been nervous. Inside was a case that, when opened, revealed a long chain of delicate pink coral beads, ending with a cross made of coral rosebuds. A card underneath the cross read, "Merry Christmas from Mr. Aladdin."
"Of all things!" exclaimed the two old ladies, rising in their seats. "Who sent it?"
"Wow!" exclaimed the two old ladies, sitting up in their seats. "Who sent it?"
"Mr. Ladd," said Rebecca under her breath.
"Mr. Ladd," Rebecca said softly.
"Adam Ladd! Well I never! Don't you remember Ellen Burnham said he was going to send Rebecca a Christmas present? But I never supposed he'd think of it again," said Jane. "What's the other package?"
"Adam Ladd! I can’t believe it! Don’t you remember Ellen Burnham said he was going to send Rebecca a Christmas present? But I never thought he’d actually remember," said Jane. "What’s the other package?"
It proved to be a silver chain with a blue enamel locket on it, marked for Emma Jane. That added the last touch—to have him remember them both! There was a letter also, which ran:—
It turned out to be a silver chain with a blue enamel locket on it, labeled for Emma Jane. That was the finishing touch—making sure he remembered them both! There was also a letter that said:—
Dear Miss Rebecca Rowena,—My idea of a Christmas present is
something entirely unnecessary and useless. I have always
noticed when I give this sort of thing that people love it,
so I hope I have not chosen wrong for you and your friend.
You must wear your chain this afternoon, please, and let me
see it on your neck, for I am coming over in my new sleigh to
take you both to drive. My aunt is delighted with the soap.
Sincerely your friend,
Adam Ladd.
Dear Miss Rebecca Rowena, — My idea of a Christmas gift is something completely unnecessary and useless. I've always noticed that when I give this kind of thing, people really enjoy it, so I hope I haven't made the wrong choice for you and your friend. Please wear your chain this afternoon and let me see it on your neck because I'm coming over in my new sleigh to take you both for a ride. My aunt loves the soap.
Sincerely your friend,
Adam Ladd.
"Well, well!" cried Miss Jane, "isn't that kind of him? He's very fond of children, Lyddy Burnham says. Now eat your breakfast, Rebecca, and after we've done the dishes you can run over to Emma's and give her her chain—What's the matter, child?"
"Well, well!" exclaimed Miss Jane, "isn’t that nice of him? He really likes kids, Lyddy Burnham says. Now eat your breakfast, Rebecca, and after we finish the dishes, you can head over to Emma’s and give her her chain—What’s wrong, sweetheart?"
Rebecca's emotions seemed always to be stored, as it were, in adjoining compartments, and to be continually getting mixed. At this moment, though her joy was too deep for words, her bread and butter almost choked her, and at intervals a tear stole furtively down her cheek.
Rebecca's emotions always seemed to be kept in separate compartments, getting mixed up all the time. Right now, even though her joy was beyond words, the mundane reality was almost suffocating her, and every now and then, a tear secretly rolled down her cheek.
Mr. Ladd called as he promised, and made the acquaintance of the aunts, understanding them both in five minutes as well as if he had known them for years. On a footstool near the open fire sat Rebecca, silent and shy, so conscious of her fine apparel and the presence of aunt Miranda that she could not utter a word. It was one of her "beauty days." Happiness, excitement, the color of the green dress, and the touch of lovely pink in the coral necklace had transformed the little brown wren for the time into a bird of plumage, and Adam Ladd watched her with evident satisfaction. Then there was the sleigh ride, during which she found her tongue and chattered like any magpie, and so ended that glorious Christmas Day; and many and many a night thereafter did Rebecca go to sleep with the precious coral chain under her pillow, one hand always upon it to be certain that it was safe.
Mr. Ladd called as he promised and got to know the aunts, understanding both of them in five minutes as if he had known them for years. Sitting on a footstool by the open fire was Rebecca, silent and shy, so aware of her beautiful outfit and the presence of Aunt Miranda that she couldn’t say a word. It was one of her "beauty days." Happiness, excitement, the color of her green dress, and the lovely pink touch of her coral necklace had transformed the little brown wren into a bird of vibrant plumage, and Adam Ladd watched her with clear satisfaction. Then there was the sleigh ride, during which she found her voice and chattered like a magpie, marking the end of that glorious Christmas Day. Many nights after that, Rebecca fell asleep with the precious coral chain under her pillow, one hand always on it to make sure it was safe.
Another milestone was the departure of the Simpsons from Riverboro, bag and baggage, the banquet lamp being their most conspicuous possession. It was delightful to be rid of Seesaw's hateful presence; but otherwise the loss of several playmates at one fell swoop made rather a gap in Riverboro's "younger set," and Rebecca was obliged to make friends with the Robinson baby, he being the only long-clothes child in the village that winter. The faithful Seesaw had called at the side door of the brick house on the evening before his departure, and when Rebecca answered his knock, stammered solemnly, "Can I k-keep comp'ny with you when you g-g-row up?" "Certainly NOT," replied Rebecca, closing the door somewhat too speedily upon her precocious swain.
Another milestone was the Simpsons' departure from Riverboro, packing all their belongings, with the banquet lamp being their most noticeable possession. It was great to be rid of Seesaw's annoying presence; however, losing several playmates all at once created a pretty big gap in Riverboro's "younger set," and Rebecca had to befriend the Robinson baby, who was the only toddler in the village that winter. The loyal Seesaw had stopped by the side door of the brick house the night before he left, and when Rebecca answered his knock, he stammered seriously, "Can I k-keep comp'ny with you when you g-g-row up?" "Certainly NOT," replied Rebecca, closing the door a bit too quickly on her overly eager suitor.
Mr. Simpson had come home in time to move his wife and children back to the town that had given them birth, a town by no means waiting with open arms to receive them. The Simpsons' moving was presided over by the village authorities and somewhat anxiously watched by the entire neighborhood, but in spite of all precautions a pulpit chair, several kerosene lamps, and a small stove disappeared from the church and were successfully swapped in the course of Mr. Simpson's driving tour from the old home to the new. It gave Rebecca and Emma Jane some hours of sorrow to learn that a certain village in the wake of Abner Simpson's line of progress had acquired, through the medium of an ambitious young minister, a magnificent lamp for its new church parlors. No money changed hands in the operation; for the minister succeeded in getting the lamp in return for an old bicycle. The only pleasant feature of the whole affair was that Mr. Simpson, wholly unable to console his offspring for the loss of the beloved object, mounted the bicycle and rode away on it, not to be seen or heard of again for many a long day.
Mr. Simpson got home in time to move his wife and kids back to the town where they were born, a place that wasn't exactly welcoming them with open arms. The move was overseen by the local authorities and closely watched by the whole neighborhood, but despite all the precautions, a pulpit chair, several kerosene lamps, and a small stove went missing from the church and were successfully traded during Mr. Simpson's drive from the old house to the new one. Rebecca and Emma Jane were heartbroken to discover that a nearby village, after following Abner Simpson's route, had acquired a beautiful lamp for its new church parlors, thanks to an ambitious young minister. No money was exchanged in the deal; the minister managed to get the lamp in exchange for an old bicycle. The only positive aspect of the whole situation was that Mr. Simpson, completely unable to comfort his daughters for the loss of the treasured item, hopped on the bicycle and rode off, not to be seen or heard from again for a long time.
The year was notable also as being the one in which Rebecca shot up like a young tree. She had seemingly never grown an inch since she was ten years old, but once started she attended to growing precisely as she did other things,—with such energy, that Miss Jane did nothing for months but lengthen skirts, sleeves, and waists. In spite of all the arts known to a thrifty New England woman, the limit of letting down and piecing down was reached at last, and the dresses were sent to Sunnybrook Farm to be made over for Jenny.
The year was also significant because it was when Rebecca shot up like a young tree. She hadn’t seemed to grow an inch since she was ten, but once she started, she tackled growing with the same energy she applied to everything else, causing Miss Jane to spend months just lengthening skirts, sleeves, and waists. Despite all the tricks a resourceful New England woman knew, they finally reached the limit of letting down and piecing down, and the dresses were sent to Sunnybrook Farm to be remade for Jenny.
There was another milestone, a sad one, marking a little grave under a willow tree at Sunnybrook Farm. Mira, the baby of the Randall family, died, and Rebecca went home for a fortnight's visit. The sight of the small still shape that had been Mira, the baby who had been her special charge ever since her birth, woke into being a host of new thoughts and wonderments; for it is sometimes the mystery of death that brings one to a consciousness of the still greater mystery of life.
There was another sad milestone, marking a small grave under a willow tree at Sunnybrook Farm. Mira, the baby of the Randall family, had died, and Rebecca went home for a two-week visit. The sight of the small, still shape that had been Mira, the baby she had taken care of since her birth, stirred up a flood of new thoughts and questions; because sometimes, the mystery of death makes one more aware of the even greater mystery of life.
It was a sorrowful home-coming for Rebecca. The death of Mira, the absence of John, who had been her special comrade, the sadness of her mother, the isolation of the little house, and the pinching economies that went on within it, all conspired to depress a child who was so sensitive to beauty and harmony as Rebecca.
It was a sad return home for Rebecca. The death of Mira, the absence of John, who had been her close friend, her mother’s sadness, the loneliness of the small house, and the tight finances all worked together to bring down a child like Rebecca, who was so sensitive to beauty and harmony.
Hannah seemed to have grown into a woman during Rebecca's absence. There had always been a strange unchildlike air about Hannah, but in certain ways she now appeared older than aunt Jane—soberer, and more settled. She was pretty, though in a colorless fashion; pretty and capable.
Hannah seemed to have matured into a woman during Rebecca's absence. There had always been a strange, unchildlike vibe about Hannah, but in some ways, she now looked older than Aunt Jane—more serious and grounded. She was attractive, though in a bland way; attractive and capable.
Rebecca walked through all the old playgrounds and favorite haunts of her early childhood; all her familiar, her secret places; some of them known to John, some to herself alone. There was the spot where the Indian pipes grew; the particular bit of marshy ground where the fringed gentians used to be largest and bluest; the rock maple where she found the oriole's nest; the hedge where the field mice lived; the moss-covered stump where the white toadstools were wont to spring up as if by magic; the hole at the root of the old pine where an ancient and honorable toad made his home; these were the landmarks of her childhood, and she looked at them as across an immeasurable distance. The dear little sunny brook, her chief companion after John, was sorry company at this season. There was no laughing water sparkling in the sunshine. In summer the merry stream had danced over white pebbles on its way to deep pools where it could be still and think. Now, like Mira, it was cold and quiet, wrapped in its shroud of snow; but Rebecca knelt by the brink, and putting her ear to the glaze of ice, fancied, where it used to be deepest, she could hear a faint, tinkling sound. It was all right! Sunnybrook would sing again in the spring; perhaps Mira too would have her singing time somewhere—she wondered where and how. In the course of these lonely rambles she was ever thinking, thinking, of one subject. Hannah had never had a chance; never been freed from the daily care and work of the farm. She, Rebecca, had enjoyed all the privileges thus far. Life at the brick house had not been by any means a path of roses, but there had been comfort and the companionship of other children, as well as chances for study and reading. Riverboro had not been the world itself, but it had been a glimpse of it through a tiny peephole that was infinitely better than nothing. Rebecca shed more than one quiet tear before she could trust herself to offer up as a sacrifice that which she so much desired for herself. Then one morning as her visit neared its end she plunged into the subject boldly and said, "Hannah, after this term I'm going to stay at home and let you go away. Aunt Miranda has always wanted you, and it's only fair you should have your turn."
Rebecca walked through all the old playgrounds and favorite spots from her early childhood; all her familiar, secret places; some known to John, some just to her. There was the spot where the Indian pipes grew; the marshy area where the fringed gentians used to be the largest and bluest; the rock maple where she found the oriole's nest; the hedge where the field mice lived; the moss-covered stump where the white toadstools used to spring up like magic; the hole at the root of the old pine where an ancient and esteemed toad made his home; these were the landmarks of her childhood, and she viewed them as if from an immeasurable distance. The dear little sunny brook, her main companion after John, was disappointing company at this time of year. There was no laughing water sparkling in the sunshine. In summer, the cheerful stream had danced over white pebbles on its way to deep pools where it could be still and think. Now, like Mira, it was cold and quiet, covered in a shroud of snow; but Rebecca knelt by the edge, and putting her ear to the ice, imagined that where it used to be deepest, she could hear a faint, tinkling sound. It was all okay! Sunnybrook would sing again in the spring; maybe Mira would have her singing time somewhere—she wondered where and how. During these lonely walks, she constantly thought about one topic. Hannah had never had a chance; she had never been free from the daily responsibilities of the farm. Rebecca had enjoyed all the privileges so far. Life at the brick house hadn’t been a bed of roses, but there had been comfort, the company of other children, and opportunities for study and reading. Riverboro hadn’t been the entire world, but it had been a glimpse of it through a tiny peephole that was infinitely better than nothing. Rebecca shed more than one silent tear before she could bring herself to sacrifice what she desired so much for herself. Then one morning, as her visit was coming to an end, she dove into the topic head-on and said, “Hannah, after this term I’m going to stay home and let you go away. Aunt Miranda has always wanted you, and it’s only fair that you should have your turn.”
Hannah was darning stockings, and she threaded her needle and snipped off the yarn before she answered, "No, thank you, Becky. Mother couldn't do without me, and I hate going to school. I can read and write and cipher as well as anybody now, and that's enough for me. I'd die rather than teach school for a living. The winter'll go fast, for Will Melville is going to lend me his mother's sewing machine, and I'm going to make white petticoats out of the piece of muslin aunt Jane sent, and have 'em just solid with tucks. Then there's going to be a singing-school and a social circle in Temperance after New Year's, and I shall have a real good time now I'm grown up. I'm not one to be lonesome, Becky," Hannah ended with a blush; "I love this place."
Hannah was repairing her stockings, and she threaded her needle and cut off the yarn before she replied, "No, thank you, Becky. Mom can't manage without me, and I really dislike going to school. I can read, write, and do math just as well as anyone else now, and that's enough for me. I’d rather die than teach school for a living. Winter will pass quickly since Will Melville is going to lend me his mom's sewing machine, and I'm going to make white petticoats from the piece of muslin Aunt Jane sent, and I'll have them all full of tucks. Then there’s going to be a singing school and a social circle in Temperance after New Year's, and I'm planning to have a really great time now that I'm grown up. I'm not someone who feels lonely, Becky," Hannah concluded with a blush; "I love this place."
Rebecca saw that she was speaking the truth, but she did not understand the blush till a year or two later.
Rebecca realized that she was telling the truth, but it wasn't until a year or two later that she understood the blush.
XVIII
REBECCA REPRESENTS THE FAMILY
There was another milestone; it was more than that, it was an "event;" an event that made a deep impression in several quarters and left a wake of smaller events in its train. This was the coming to Riverboro of the Reverend Amos Burch and wife, returned missionaries from Syria.
There was another milestone; it was more than that, it was an "event;" an event that made a strong impression in several circles and left a series of smaller events in its wake. This was the arrival in Riverboro of Reverend Amos Burch and his wife, returned missionaries from Syria.
The Aid Society had called its meeting for a certain Wednesday in March of the year in which Rebecca ended her Riverboro school days and began her studies at Wareham. It was a raw, blustering day, snow on the ground and a look in the sky of more to follow. Both Miranda and Jane had taken cold and decided that they could not leave the house in such weather, and this deflection from the path of duty worried Miranda, since she was an officer of the society. After making the breakfast table sufficiently uncomfortable and wishing plaintively that Jane wouldn't always insist on being sick at the same time she was, she decided that Rebecca must go to the meeting in their stead. "You'll be better than nobody, Rebecca," she said flatteringly; "your aunt Jane shall write an excuse from afternoon school for you; you can wear your rubber boots and come home by the way of the meetin' house. This Mr. Burch, if I remember right, used to know your grandfather Sawyer, and stayed here once when he was candidatin'. He'll mebbe look for us there, and you must just go and represent the family, an' give him our respects. Be careful how you behave. Bow your head in prayer; sing all the hymns, but not too loud and bold; ask after Mis' Strout's boy; tell everybody what awful colds we've got; if you see a good chance, take your pocket handkerchief and wipe the dust off the melodeon before the meetin' begins, and get twenty-five cents out of the sittin' room match-box in case there should be a collection."
The Aid Society had scheduled its meeting for a Wednesday in March of the year when Rebecca finished her school days in Riverboro and started her studies at Wareham. It was a chilly, blustery day with snow on the ground and more expected in the sky. Both Miranda and Jane had caught colds and decided they couldn’t leave the house in such weather, and this change of plans stressed Miranda out since she was an officer of the society. After making the breakfast table uncomfortably cold and wishing wistfully that Jane wouldn’t always get sick at the same time she did, she decided that Rebecca should go to the meeting in their place. "You’ll be better than no one, Rebecca," she said sweetly; "your Aunt Jane will write an excuse for you from afternoon school; you can wear your rubber boots and come home by the way of the meeting house. This Mr. Burch, if I remember correctly, used to know your grandfather Sawyer and stayed here once when he was a candidate. He might look for us there, and you just need to go and represent the family and give him our regards. Be careful how you behave. Bow your head in prayer; sing all the hymns, but don’t be too loud and bold; ask after Mrs. Strout’s boy; tell everyone about the awful colds we have; if you see a good opportunity, take your pocket handkerchief and wipe the dust off the melodeon before the meeting starts, and grab twenty-five cents from the sitting room matchbox in case there’s a collection."
Rebecca willingly assented. Anything interested her, even a village missionary meeting, and the idea of representing the family was rather intoxicating.
Rebecca gladly agreed. She was interested in anything, even a village missionary meeting, and the thought of representing the family was pretty exciting.
The service was held in the Sunday-school room, and although the Rev. Mr. Burch was on the platform when Rebecca entered, there were only a dozen persons present. Feeling a little shy and considerably too young for this assemblage, Rebecca sought the shelter of a friendly face, and seeing Mrs. Robinson in one of the side seats near the front, she walked up the aisle and sat beside her.
The service took place in the Sunday-school room, and even though Rev. Mr. Burch was on the platform when Rebecca walked in, only about a dozen people were there. Feeling a bit shy and definitely too young for this group, Rebecca looked for a familiar face and, spotting Mrs. Robinson in one of the side seats near the front, walked down the aisle and sat next to her.
"Both my aunts had bad colds," she said softly, "and sent me to represent the family."
"Both my aunts had bad colds," she said quietly, "so they sent me to represent the family."
"That's Mrs. Burch on the platform with her husband," whispered Mrs. Robinson. "She's awful tanned up, ain't she? If you're goin' to save souls seems like you hev' to part with your complexion. Eudoxy Morton ain't come yet; I hope to the land she will, or Mis' Deacon Milliken'll pitch the tunes where we can't reach 'em with a ladder; can't you pitch, afore she gits her breath and clears her throat?"
"That's Mrs. Burch up on the platform with her husband," Mrs. Robinson whispered. "She’s really tanned, isn’t she? If you're going to save souls, it seems like you have to give up your complexion. Eudoxy Morton hasn't arrived yet; I really hope she does, or Mrs. Deacon Milliken will start singing tunes we can’t reach even with a ladder; can't you start singing before she catches her breath and clears her throat?"
Mrs. Burch was a slim, frail little woman with dark hair, a broad low forehead, and patient mouth. She was dressed in a well-worn black silk, and looked so tired that Rebecca's heart went out to her.
Mrs. Burch was a thin, delicate little woman with dark hair, a wide low forehead, and a patient expression. She was wearing a well-used black silk dress and looked so exhausted that Rebecca felt sorry for her.
"They're poor as Job's turkey," whispered Mrs. Robinson; "but if you give 'em anything they'd turn right round and give it to the heathen. His congregation up to Parsonsfield clubbed together and give him that gold watch he carries; I s'pose he'd 'a' handed that over too, only heathens always tell time by the sun 'n' don't need watches. Eudoxy ain't comin'; now for massy's sake, Rebecca, do git ahead of Mis' Deacon Milliken and pitch real low."
"They're as broke as a joke," whispered Mrs. Robinson; "but if you give them anything, they'd just turn around and give it to the heathens. His congregation in Parsonsfield pooled their money and bought him that gold watch he carries; I guess he would have handed that over too, but heathens always tell time by the sun and don't need watches. Eudoxy isn't coming; now for mercy's sake, Rebecca, do get ahead of Mrs. Deacon Milliken and keep it really low."
The meeting began with prayer and then the Rev. Mr. Burch announced, to the tune of Mendon:—
The meeting started with a prayer, and then Rev. Mr. Burch announced, to the tune of Mendon:—
"Church of our God I arise and shine,
Bright with the beams of truth divine:
Then shall thy radiance stream afar,
Wide as the heathen nations are.
"Church of our God, I rise and shine,
Bright with the light of truth divine:
Then shall your radiance spread far and wide,
As vast as the heathen nations are."
"Gentiles and kings thy light shall view,
And shall admire and love thee too;
They come, like clouds across the sky,
As doves that to their windows fly."
"Gentiles and kings will see your light,
And will admire and love you too;
They come, like clouds across the sky,
Like doves that fly to their windows."
"Is there any one present who will assist us at the instrument?" he asked unexpectedly.
"Is there anyone here who can help us with the instrument?" he asked out of the blue.
Everybody looked at everybody else, and nobody moved; then there came a voice out of a far corner saying informally, "Rebecca, why don't you?" It was Mrs. Cobb. Rebecca could have played Mendon in the dark, so she went to the melodeon and did so without any ado, no member of her family being present to give her self-consciousness.
Everybody glanced at one another, and nobody budged; then a voice from a distant corner casually said, "Rebecca, why don't you?" It was Mrs. Cobb. Rebecca could have played Mendon without any light, so she walked over to the melodeon and did just that without any fuss, since no one in her family was there to make her feel self-conscious.
The talk that ensued was much the usual sort of thing. Mr. Burch made impassioned appeals for the spreading of the gospel, and added his entreaties that all who were prevented from visiting in person the peoples who sat in darkness should contribute liberally to the support of others who could. But he did more than this. He was a pleasant, earnest speaker, and he interwove his discourse with stories of life in a foreign land,—of the manners, the customs, the speech, the point of view; even giving glimpses of the daily round, the common task, of his own household, the work of his devoted helpmate and their little group of children, all born under Syrian skies.
The discussion that followed was pretty typical. Mr. Burch passionately urged everyone to spread the gospel and asked those who couldn’t visit the people living in darkness to generously support those who could. But he did more than that. He was an engaging and sincere speaker, and he mixed his talk with stories about life in a foreign country—covering the culture, the customs, the language, and the perspectives; even sharing glimpses of his daily life, the usual tasks, his devoted partner’s work, and their small group of children, all born under Syrian skies.
Rebecca sat entranced, having been given the key of another world. Riverboro had faded; the Sunday-school room, with Mrs. Robinson's red plaid shawl, and Deacon Milliken's wig, on crooked, the bare benches and torn hymn-books, the hanging texts and maps, were no longer visible, and she saw blue skies and burning stars, white turbans and gay colors; Mr. Burch had not said so, but perhaps there were mosques and temples and minarets and date-palms. What stories they must know, those children born under Syrian skies! Then she was called upon to play "Jesus shall reign where'er the sun."
Rebecca sat captivated, having been given the key to another world. Riverboro had faded; the Sunday school room, with Mrs. Robinson's red plaid shawl and Deacon Milliken's wig askew, the empty benches and worn hymn books, the hanging texts and maps, were no longer visible. Instead, she saw blue skies and bright stars, white turbans and vibrant colors; Mr. Burch hadn’t mentioned it, but maybe there were mosques, temples, minarets, and date palms. What stories those children born under Syrian skies must know! Then she was called to play "Jesus shall reign where'er the sun."
The contribution box was passed and Mr. Burch prayed. As he opened his eyes and gave out the last hymn he looked at the handful of people, at the scattered pennies and dimes in the contribution box, and reflected that his mission was not only to gather funds for the building of his church, but to keep alive, in all these remote and lonely neighborhoods, that love for the cause which was its only hope in the years to come.
The donation box was passed around and Mr. Burch prayed. As he opened his eyes and led the last hymn, he looked at the few people present, at the scattered pennies and dimes in the donation box, and thought about how his mission was not just to raise money for building his church, but to keep alive that love for the cause in all these distant and lonely neighborhoods, which was its only hope for the future.
"If any of the sisters will provide entertainment," he said, "Mrs. Burch and I will remain among you to-night and to-morrow. In that event we could hold a parlor meeting. My wife and one of my children would wear the native costume, we would display some specimens of Syrian handiwork, and give an account of our educational methods with the children. These informal parlor meetings, admitting of questions or conversation, are often the means of interesting those not commonly found at church services so I repeat, if any member of the congregation desires it and offers her hospitality, we will gladly stay and tell you more of the Lord's work."
"If any of the sisters can provide entertainment," he said, "Mrs. Burch and I will stay with you tonight and tomorrow. In that case, we could have a parlor meeting. My wife and one of my kids would wear the local costume, we would showcase some examples of Syrian crafts, and share our educational methods with the children. These informal parlor meetings, which allow for questions and conversation, often engage those who typically don’t attend church services, so I’ll say it again: if any member of the congregation wants it and offers her hospitality, we will happily stay and share more about the Lord's work."
A pall of silence settled over the little assembly. There was some cogent reason why every "sister" there was disinclined for company. Some had no spare room, some had a larder less well stocked than usual, some had sickness in the family, some were "unequally yoked together with unbelievers" who disliked strange ministers. Mrs. Burch's thin hands fingered her black silk nervously. "Would no one speak!" thought Rebecca, her heart fluttering with sympathy. Mrs. Robinson leaned over and whispered significantly, "The missionaries always used to be entertained at the brick house; your grandfather never would let 'em sleep anywheres else when he was alive." She meant this for a stab at Miss Miranda's parsimony, remembering the four spare chambers, closed from January to December; but Rebecca thought it was intended as a suggestion. If it had been a former custom, perhaps her aunts would want her to do the right thing; for what else was she representing the family? So, delighted that duty lay in so pleasant a direction, she rose from her seat and said in the pretty voice and with the quaint manner that so separated her from all the other young people in the village, "My aunts, Miss Miranda and Miss Jane Sawyer, would be very happy to have you visit them at the brick house, as the ministers always used to do when their father was alive. They sent their respects by me." The "respects" might have been the freedom of the city, or an equestrian statue, when presented in this way, and the aunts would have shuddered could they have foreseen the manner of delivery; but it was vastly impressive to the audience, who concluded that Mirandy Sawyer must be making her way uncommonly fast to mansions in the skies, else what meant this abrupt change of heart?
A heavy silence fell over the small gathering. There was a clear reason why each "sister" present was reluctant to socialize. Some had no extra space, some had less food than usual, some were dealing with illness in the family, and some were “unequally yoked together with unbelievers” who weren’t fond of unfamiliar ministers. Mrs. Burch’s slender hands nervously fidgeted with her black silk. “Why won’t anyone speak!” thought Rebecca, her heart racing with empathy. Mrs. Robinson leaned in and whispered significantly, “The missionaries were always hosted at the brick house; your grandfather never let them stay anywhere else when he was alive.” She intended this as a jab at Miss Miranda’s stinginess, recalling the four empty bedrooms locked up from January to December; but Rebecca interpreted it as a suggestion. If it had been a past tradition, maybe her aunts would want her to do the right thing; after all, what else was she doing representing the family? So, thrilled that her duty led in such a nice direction, she stood up and, with her sweet voice and unique manner that set her apart from all the other young people in the village, said, “My aunts, Miss Miranda and Miss Jane Sawyer, would be very happy to have you visit them at the brick house, just like the ministers always did when their father was alive. They send their regards through me.” The “regards” could have been as grand as the freedom of the city or a statue on horseback when presented this way, and her aunts would have been horrified if they had seen how it was delivered; but it was incredibly impressive to the audience, who assumed Mirandy Sawyer must be making a swift journey to heavenly realms, otherwise, what could this sudden change of heart mean?
Mr. Burch bowed courteously, accepted the invitation "in the same spirit in which it was offered," and asked Brother Milliken to lead in prayer.
Mr. Burch politely bowed, accepted the invitation "in the same spirit in which it was offered," and asked Brother Milliken to lead the prayer.
If the Eternal Ear could ever tire it would have ceased long ere this to listen to Deacon Milliken, who had wafted to the throne of grace the same prayer, with very slight variations, for forty years. Mrs. Perkins followed; she had several petitions at her command, good sincere ones too, but a little cut and dried, made of scripture texts laboriously woven together. Rebecca wondered why she always ended, at the most peaceful seasons, with the form, "Do Thou be with us, God of Battles, while we strive onward like Christian soldiers marching as to war;" but everything sounded real to her to-day, she was in a devout mood, and many things Mr. Burch had said had moved her strangely. As she lifted her head the minister looked directly at her and said, "Will our young sister close the service by leading us in prayer?"
If the Eternal Ear could ever get tired, it would have stopped listening to Deacon Milliken a long time ago, who had sent the same prayer to the throne of grace, with only minor changes, for forty years. Mrs. Perkins went next; she had a few heartfelt requests ready, but they felt a bit formulaic, stitched together from scripture verses. Rebecca found it curious that she always ended, even in the most peaceful times, with the line, "Be with us, God of Battles, as we press forward like Christian soldiers marching to war;" but today, everything felt genuine to her. She was in a devout mood, and many of the things Mr. Burch had said had touched her deeply. When she looked up, the minister was staring right at her and said, "Will our young sister wrap up the service by leading us in prayer?"
Every drop of blood in Rebecca's body seemed to stand still, and her heart almost stopped beating. Mrs. Cobb's excited breathing could be heard distinctly in the silence. There was nothing extraordinary in Mr. Burch's request. In his journeyings among country congregations he was constantly in the habit of meeting young members who had "experienced religion" and joined the church when nine or ten years old. Rebecca was now thirteen; she had played the melodeon, led the singing, delivered her aunts' invitation with an air of great worldly wisdom, and he, concluding that she must be a youthful pillar of the church, called upon her with the utmost simplicity.
Every drop of blood in Rebecca's body felt like it froze, and her heart nearly stopped beating. Mrs. Cobb's excited breathing could be heard clearly in the silence. There was nothing unusual about Mr. Burch's request. While traveling among rural congregations, he often encountered young members who had "experienced religion" and joined the church at nine or ten years old. Rebecca was now thirteen; she had played the melodeon, led the singing, and delivered her aunts' invitation with an air of great worldly wisdom, so he assumed she must be a young pillar of the church and approached her with complete simplicity.
Rebecca's plight was pathetic. How could she refuse; how could she explain she was not a "member;" how could she pray before all those elderly women! John Rogers at the stake hardly suffered more than this poor child for the moment as she rose to her feet, forgetting that ladies prayed sitting, while deacons stood in prayer. Her mind was a maze of pictures that the Rev. Mr. Burch had flung on the screen. She knew the conventional phraseology, of course; what New England child, accustomed to Wednesday evening meetings, does not? But her own secret prayers were different. However, she began slowly and tremulously:—
Rebecca's situation was really sad. How could she say no? How could she explain that she wasn't a "member"? How could she pray in front of all those older women? John Rogers at the stake probably didn't suffer more than this poor girl did at that moment when she stood up, forgetting that ladies prayed sitting down while deacons stood. Her mind was a jumble of images that Rev. Mr. Burch had projected. She knew the usual phrases, of course; what New England kid, used to Wednesday evening meetings, doesn't? But her own private prayers were different. Still, she started off slowly and nervously:—
"Our Father who art in Heaven, ... Thou art God in Syria just the same as in Maine; ...over there to-day are blue skies and yellow stars and burning suns . . . the great trees are waving in the warm air, while here the snow lies thick under our feet, ... but no distance is too far for God to travel and so He is with us here as He is with them there, ... and our thoughts rise to Him 'as doves that to their windows fly.' ...
"Our Father who is in Heaven, ... You are God in Syria just like in Maine; ... over there today are blue skies and yellow stars and blazing suns... the great trees are swaying in the warm air, while here the snow lies thick beneath our feet, ... but no distance is too far for God to travel, so He is with us here just as He is with them there, ... and our thoughts ascend to Him 'like doves that fly to their windows.' ...
"We cannot all be missionaries, teaching people to be good, ... some of us have not learned yet how to be good ourselves, but if thy kingdom is to come and thy will is to be done on earth as it is in heaven, everybody must try and everybody must help, ... those who are old and tired and those who are young and strong.... The little children of whom we have heard, those born under Syrian skies, have strange and interesting work to do for Thee, and some of us would like to travel in far lands and do wonderful brave things for the heathen and gently take away their idols of wood and stone. But perhaps we have to stay at home and do what is given us to do ... sometimes even things we dislike, ... but that must be what it means in the hymn we sang, when it talked about the sweet perfume that rises with every morning sacrifice.... This is the way that God teaches us to be meek and patient, and the thought that He has willed it so should rob us of our fears and help us bear the years. Amen."
"We can't all be missionaries, teaching people to be good, ... some of us haven’t figured out how to be good ourselves yet, but if Your kingdom is to come and Your will is to be done on earth as it is in heaven, everyone must try and everyone must help, ... both those who are old and exhausted and those who are young and vigorous.... The little children we’ve heard about, those born under Syrian skies, have unique and important work to do for You, and some of us want to travel to distant lands and do amazing, brave things for the people there, gently taking away their idols of wood and stone. But maybe we have to stay home and do what we’re asked to do ... sometimes even things we don’t like, ... but that must be what it means in the hymn we sang when it spoke of the sweet fragrance that rises with every morning sacrifice.... This is how God teaches us to be humble and patient, and the idea that He has intended it this way should take away our fears and help us endure the years. Amen."
Poor little ignorant, fantastic child! Her petition was simply a succession of lines from the various hymns, and images the minister had used in his sermon, but she had her own way of recombining and applying these things, even of using them in a new connection, so that they had a curious effect of belonging to her. The words of some people might generally be written with a minus sign after them, the minus meaning that the personality of the speaker subtracted from, rather than added to, their weight; but Rebecca's words might always have borne the plus sign.
Poor little naive, imaginative child! Her request was just a mix of lines from different hymns and phrases the minister had used in his sermon, but she had her own way of rearranging and applying these things, even using them in a new context, so they felt uniquely hers. The words of some people might usually have a negative sign after them, meaning that the speaker's personality took away from, rather than added to, their significance; but Rebecca's words could always have had a positive sign.
The "Amen" said, she sat down, or presumed she sat down, on what she believed to be a bench, and there was a benediction. In a moment or two, when the room ceased spinning, she went up to Mrs. Burch, who kissed her affectionately and said, "My dear, how glad I am that we are going to stay with you. Will half past five be too late for us to come? It is three now, and we have to go to the station for our valise and for our children. We left them there, being uncertain whether we should go back or stop here."
The "Amen" said, she sat down, or thought she sat down, on what she thought was a bench, and there was a blessing. After a moment or two, when the room stopped spinning, she approached Mrs. Burch, who affectionately kissed her and said, "My dear, I'm so glad we're going to stay with you. Will half past five be too late for us to come? It's three now, and we need to go to the station for our suitcase and for our kids. We left them there, unsure whether we would come back or stay here."
Rebecca said that half past five was their supper hour, and then accepted an invitation to drive home with Mrs. Cobb. Her face was flushed and her lip quivered in a way that aunt Sarah had learned to know, so the homeward drive was taken almost in silence. The bleak wind and aunt Sarah's quieting presence brought her back to herself, however, and she entered the brick house cheerily. Being too full of news to wait in the side entry to take off her rubber boots, she carefully lifted a braided rug into the sitting-room and stood on that while she opened her budget.
Rebecca said that five-thirty was their dinner time, and then she accepted an invitation to drive home with Mrs. Cobb. Her face was flushed, and her lip quivered in a way that Aunt Sarah recognized, so the drive back was mostly silent. The cold wind and Aunt Sarah's calming presence helped her regain her composure, and she stepped into the brick house in a good mood. Being too eager to share her news to wait in the entryway to take off her rubber boots, she carefully lifted a braided rug into the living room and stood on it while she opened her bag.
"There are your shoes warming by the fire," said aunt Jane. "Slip them right on while you talk."
"There are your shoes warming by the fire," Aunt Jane said. "Put them on while you talk."
XIX
DEACON ISRAEL'S SUCCESSOR
"It was a very small meeting, aunt Miranda," began Rebecca, "and the missionary and his wife are lovely people, and they are coming here to stay all night and to-morrow with you. I hope you won't mind."
"It was a really small meeting, Aunt Miranda," Rebecca started, "and the missionary and his wife are great people. They're coming here to stay overnight and tomorrow with you. I hope you don't mind."
"Coming here!" exclaimed Miranda, letting her knitting fall in her lap, and taking her spectacles off, as she always did in moments of extreme excitement. "Did they invite themselves?"
"Coming here!" Miranda exclaimed, letting her knitting drop into her lap and taking off her glasses, just like she always did when she got really excited. "Did they invite themselves?"
"No," Rebecca answered. "I had to invite them for you; but I thought you'd like to have such interesting company. It was this way"—
"No," Rebecca replied. "I had to invite them for you, but I thought you'd enjoy having such interesting company. It went like this"—
"Stop your explainin', and tell me first when they'll be here. Right away?"
"Stop explaining and just tell me when they'll be here. Right away?"
"No, not for two hours—about half past five."
"No, not for two hours—around 5:30."
"Then you can explain, if you can, who gave you any authority to invite a passel of strangers to stop here over night, when you know we ain't had any company for twenty years, and don't intend to have any for another twenty,—or at any rate while I'm the head of the house."
"Then you can explain, if you can, who gave you the right to invite a bunch of strangers to stay here overnight, when you know we haven't had any guests in twenty years, and we don't plan on having any for another twenty—or at least while I'm in charge of the house."
"Don't blame her, Miranda, till you've heard her story," said Jane. "It was in my mind right along, if we went to the meeting, some such thing might happen, on account of Mr. Burch knowing father."
"Don't blame her, Miranda, until you've heard her side of the story," Jane said. "I thought all along that if we went to the meeting, something like this might happen because Mr. Burch knows Dad."
"The meeting was a small one," began Rebecca "I gave all your messages, and everybody was disappointed you couldn't come, for the president wasn't there, and Mrs. Matthews took the chair, which was a pity, for the seat wasn't nearly big enough for her, and she reminded me of a line in a hymn we sang, 'Wide as the heathen nations are,' and she wore that kind of a beaver garden-hat that always gets on one side. And Mr. Burch talked beautifully about the Syrian heathen, and the singing went real well, and there looked to be about forty cents in the basket that was passed on our side. And that wouldn't save even a heathen baby, would it? Then Mr. Burch said, if any sister would offer entertainment, they would pass the night, and have a parlor meeting in Riverboro to-morrow, with Mrs. Burch in Syrian costume, and lovely foreign things to show. Then he waited and waited, and nobody said a word. I was so mortified I didn't know what to do. And then he repeated what he said, and explained why he wanted to stay, and you could see he thought it was his duty. Just then Mrs. Robinson whispered to me and said the missionaries always used to go to the brick house when grandfather was alive, and that he never would let them sleep anywhere else. I didn't know you had stopped having them because no traveling ministers have been here, except just for a Sunday morning, since I came to Riverboro. So I thought I ought to invite them, as you weren't there to do it for yourself, and you told me to represent the family."
"The meeting was small," Rebecca began. "I shared all your messages, and everyone was disappointed you couldn't make it. The president wasn't there, and Mrs. Matthews led the meeting, which was unfortunate because the chair was way too small for her. It reminded me of a line from a hymn we sang, 'Wide as the heathen nations are,' and she wore that kind of beaver garden hat that always tilts to one side. Mr. Burch spoke beautifully about the Syrian heathen, and the singing went really well. There seemed to be about forty cents in the basket that was passed around our side. And that wouldn't even be enough to save a heathen baby, right? Then Mr. Burch said if any sister would offer to host, they would stay the night and hold a parlor meeting in Riverboro tomorrow, with Mrs. Burch in Syrian costume, and lots of lovely foreign things to show. He waited and waited, but no one said anything. I was so embarrassed I didn't know what to do. Then he repeated himself and explained why he wanted to stay, and you could tell he felt it was his duty. Just then, Mrs. Robinson leaned over and whispered to me that the missionaries always used to go to the brick house when grandfather was alive, and that he never let them sleep anywhere else. I didn’t realize you had stopped having them because there haven't been any traveling ministers here, except for just a Sunday morning, since I came to Riverboro. So, I figured I should invite them, since you weren't there to do it yourself, and you told me to represent the family."
"What did you do—go up and introduce yourself as folks was goin' out?"
"What did you do—walk up and introduce yourself while people were leaving?"
"No; I stood right up in meeting. I had to, for Mr. Burch's feelings were getting hurt at nobody's speaking. So I said, 'My aunts, Miss Miranda and Miss Jane Sawyer would be happy to have you visit at the brick house, just as the missionaries always did when their father was alive, and they sent their respects by me.' Then I sat down; and Mr. Burch prayed for grandfather, and called him a man of God, and thanked our Heavenly Father that his spirit was still alive in his descendants (that was you), and that the good old house where so many of the brethren had been cheered and helped, and from which so many had gone out strengthened for the fight, was still hospitably open for the stranger and wayfarer."
"No; I stood right up in the meeting. I had to, because Mr. Burch was getting hurt feelings since no one was speaking. So I said, 'My aunts, Miss Miranda and Miss Jane Sawyer would love to have you visit the brick house, just like the missionaries always did when their father was alive, and they sent their regards through me.' Then I sat down; and Mr. Burch prayed for my grandfather, called him a man of God, and thanked our Heavenly Father that his spirit was still alive in his descendants (that’s you), and that the good old house where so many of the brethren had been cheered and helped, and from which so many had gone out strengthened for the fight, was still welcoming to strangers and travelers."
Sometimes, when the heavenly bodies are in just the right conjunction, nature seems to be the most perfect art. The word or the deed coming straight from the heart, without any thought of effect, seems inspired.
Sometimes, when the celestial bodies align just right, nature appears to be the most flawless art. Words or actions that come straight from the heart, without any concern for their impact, feel inspired.
A certain gateway in Miranda Sawyer's soul had been closed for years; not all at once had it been done, but gradually, and without her full knowledge. If Rebecca had plotted for days, and with the utmost cunning, she could not have effected an entrance into that forbidden country, and now, unknown to both of them, the gate swung on its stiff and rusty hinges, and the favoring wind of opportunity opened it wider and wider as time went on. All things had worked together amazingly for good. The memory of old days had been evoked, and the daily life of a pious and venerated father called to mind; the Sawyer name had been publicly dignified and praised; Rebecca had comported herself as the granddaughter of Deacon Israel Sawyer should, and showed conclusively that she was not "all Randall," as had been supposed. Miranda was rather mollified by and pleased with the turn of events, although she did not intend to show it, or give anybody any reason to expect that this expression of hospitality was to serve for a precedent on any subsequent occasion.
A certain part of Miranda Sawyer's soul had been shut off for years; it hadn’t happened all at once, but little by little, and without her fully realizing it. If Rebecca had plotted for days with the utmost cleverness, she couldn’t have managed to get into that forbidden area, and now, unbeknownst to both of them, the gate creaked on its stiff and rusty hinges, and the favorable wind of opportunity pushed it wider and wider as time went on. Everything had come together surprisingly for the better. Memories of the past had resurfaced, and the daily life of a respected and beloved father came to mind; the Sawyer name had been publicly honored and praised; Rebecca had behaved exactly as the granddaughter of Deacon Israel Sawyer should, and clearly showed that she wasn’t "all Randall," as people had thought. Miranda felt somewhat softened by and pleased with the way things had turned out, even though she didn’t plan to show it or give anyone any reason to believe that this gesture of hospitality would set a precedent for any future occasions.
"Well, I see you did only what you was obliged to do, Rebecca," she said, "and you worded your invitation as nice as anybody could have done. I wish your aunt Jane and me wasn't both so worthless with these colds; but it only shows the good of havin' a clean house, with every room in order, whether open or shut, and enough victuals cooked so 't you can't be surprised and belittled by anybody, whatever happens. There was half a dozen there that might have entertained the Burches as easy as not, if they hadn't 'a' been too mean or lazy. Why didn't your missionaries come right along with you?"
"Well, I see you did only what you were supposed to do, Rebecca," she said, "and you phrased your invitation as nicely as anyone could have. I wish your Aunt Jane and I weren't both feeling so terrible with these colds; but it just shows the value of having a clean house, with every room tidy, whether it's open or closed, and enough food prepared so you won't be caught off guard or belittled by anyone, no matter what happens. There were half a dozen people there who could have easily entertained the Burches if they hadn't been too cheap or lazy. Why didn't your missionaries come along with you?"
"They had to go to the station for their valise and their children."
"They had to go to the station for their suitcase and their kids."
"Are there children?" groaned Miranda.
"Are there kids?" groaned Miranda.
"Yes, aunt Miranda, all born under Syrian skies."
"Yes, Aunt Miranda, all born under the skies of Syria."
"Syrian grandmother!" ejaculated Miranda (and it was not a fact). "How many?"
"Syrian grandmother!" Miranda exclaimed (and it wasn't true). "How many?"
"I didn't think to ask; but I will get two rooms ready, and if there are any over I'll take 'em into my bed," said Rebecca, secretly hoping that this would be the case. "Now, as you're both half sick, couldn't you trust me just once to get ready for the company? You can come up when I call. Will you?"
"I didn't think to ask, but I'll get two rooms ready, and if there are any extras, I'll take them into my bed," said Rebecca, secretly hoping that would happen. "Now, since you're both feeling a bit under the weather, couldn't you trust me just once to get ready for the guests? You can come up when I call. Will you?"
"I believe I will," sighed Miranda reluctantly. "I'll lay down side o' Jane in our bedroom and see if I can get strength to cook supper. It's half past three—don't you let me lay a minute past five. I kep' a good fire in the kitchen stove. I don't know, I'm sure, why I should have baked a pot o' beans in the middle of the week, but they'll come in handy. Father used to say there was nothing that went right to the spot with returned missionaries like pork 'n' beans 'n' brown bread. Fix up the two south chambers, Rebecca."
"I think I will," Miranda sighed reluctantly. "I'll lie down next to Jane in our bedroom and see if I can get enough energy to cook dinner. It's half past three—don't let me stay in bed a minute past five. I kept a good fire going in the kitchen stove. I really don't know why I baked a pot of beans in the middle of the week, but they'll be useful. Dad always said there was nothing that hit the spot for returned missionaries like pork and beans and brown bread. Get the two southern bedrooms ready, Rebecca."
Rebecca, given a free hand for the only time in her life, dashed upstairs like a whirlwind. Every room in the brick house was as neat as wax, and she had only to pull up the shades, go over the floors with a whisk broom, and dust the furniture. The aunts could hear her scurrying to and fro, beating up pillows and feather beds, flapping towels, jingling crockery, singing meanwhile in her clear voice:—
Rebecca, having total freedom for the one and only time in her life, raced upstairs like a whirlwind. Every room in the brick house was spotless, and all she had to do was pull up the shades, sweep the floors with a broom, and dust the furniture. The aunts could hear her bustling around, fluffing pillows and beds, waving towels, clinking dishes, and singing in her bright voice:—
"In vain with lavish kindness
The gifts of God are strown;
The heathen in his blindness
Bows down to wood and stone."
"In vain with extravagant kindness
The gifts of God are scattered;
The pagan in his ignorance
Worships wood and stone."
She had grown to be a handy little creature, and tasks she was capable of doing at all she did like a flash, so that when she called her aunts at five o'clock to pass judgment, she had accomplished wonders. There were fresh towels on bureaus and washstands, the beds were fair and smooth, the pitchers were filled, and soap and matches were laid out; newspaper, kindling, and wood were in the boxes, and a large stick burned slowly in each air-tight stove. "I thought I'd better just take the chill off," she explained, "as they're right from Syria; and that reminds me, I must look it up in the geography before they get here."
She had become quite the little helper, and whatever tasks she could manage, she completed in no time. So when she called her aunts at five o'clock to get their approval, she had done amazing things. There were fresh towels on the dressers and sinks, the beds were neatly made, the pitchers were filled, and soap and matches were set out; newspapers, kindling, and wood were in the boxes, and a large stick was burning slowly in each airtight stove. "I thought I should just warm things up a bit," she said, "since they just arrived from Syria; and that reminds me, I need to check it in the geography before they get here."
There was nothing to disapprove, so the two sisters went downstairs to make some slight changes in their dress. As they passed the parlor door Miranda thought she heard a crackle and looked in. The shades were up, there was a cheerful blaze in the open stove in the front parlor, and a fire laid on the hearth in the back room. Rebecca's own lamp, her second Christmas present from Mr. Aladdin, stood on a marble-topped table in the corner, the light that came softly through its rose-colored shade transforming the stiff and gloomy ugliness of the room into a place where one could sit and love one's neighbor.
There was nothing to object to, so the two sisters went downstairs to make some minor adjustments to their outfits. As they passed by the parlor door, Miranda thought she heard a crackle and peeked inside. The shades were up, there was a warm blaze in the open stove in the front parlor, and a fire laid on the hearth in the back room. Rebecca's own lamp, her second Christmas gift from Mr. Aladdin, sat on a marble-topped table in the corner, the soft light filtering through its rose-colored shade transforming the stiff and dreary ugliness of the room into a place where one could sit and appreciate their neighbors.
"For massy's sake, Rebecca," called Miss Miranda up the stairs, "did you think we'd better open the parlor?"
"For Massy's sake, Rebecca," called Miss Miranda up the stairs, "do you think we should open the parlor?"
Rebecca came out on the landing braiding her hair.
Rebecca came out onto the landing, braiding her hair.
"We did on Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I thought this was about as great an occasion," she said. "I moved the wax flowers off the mantelpiece so they wouldn't melt, and put the shells, the coral, and the green stuffed bird on top of the what-not, so the children wouldn't ask to play with them. Brother Milliken's coming over to see Mr. Burch about business, and I shouldn't wonder if Brother and Sister Cobb happened in. Don't go down cellar, I'll be there in a minute to do the running."
"We did it on Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I thought this was just as special," she said. "I moved the wax flowers off the mantel so they wouldn't melt, and put the shells, the coral, and the green stuffed bird on top of the shelf, so the kids wouldn't ask to play with them. Brother Milliken is coming over to see Mr. Burch about business, and I wouldn't be surprised if Brother and Sister Cobb stopped by. Don't go downstairs, I'll be there in a minute to handle everything."
Miranda and Jane exchanged glances.
Miranda and Jane shared looks.
"Ain't she the beatin'est creetur that ever was born int' the world!" exclaimed Miranda; "but she can turn off work when she's got a mind to!"
"Ain't she the most beautiful creature that ever was born in the world!" exclaimed Miranda; "but she can stop working whenever she feels like it!"
At quarter past five everything was ready, and the neighbors, those at least who were within sight of the brick house (a prominent object in the landscape when there were no leaves on the trees), were curious almost to desperation. Shades up in both parlors! Shades up in the two south bedrooms! And fires—if human vision was to be relied on—fires in about every room. If it had not been for the kind offices of a lady who had been at the meeting, and who charitably called in at one or two houses and explained the reason of all this preparation, there would have been no sleep in many families.
At 5:15, everything was ready, and the neighbors, at least those who could see the brick house (a noticeable feature in the landscape when the trees were bare), were almost desperate with curiosity. Curtains up in both living rooms! Curtains up in the two south bedrooms! And fires—if you could trust what you saw—fires in nearly every room. If it hadn’t been for the kind actions of a lady who attended the meeting and kindly stopped by a few houses to explain the reason for all this preparation, many families would have lost sleep.
The missionary party arrived promptly, and there were but two children, seven or eight having been left with the brethren in Portland, to diminish traveling expenses. Jane escorted them all upstairs, while Miranda watched the cooking of the supper; but Rebecca promptly took the two little girls away from their mother, divested them of their wraps, smoothed their hair, and brought them down to the kitchen to smell the beans.
The missionary group arrived on time, and there were only two children, as seven or eight had been left with the group in Portland to cut down on travel costs. Jane took them all upstairs while Miranda kept an eye on dinner; however, Rebecca quickly took the two little girls away from their mom, took off their coats, brushed their hair, and brought them down to the kitchen to smell the beans.
There was a bountiful supper, and the presence of the young people robbed it of all possible stiffness. Aunt Jane helped clear the table and put away the food, while Miranda entertained in the parlor; but Rebecca and the infant Burches washed the dishes and held high carnival in the kitchen, doing only trifling damage—breaking a cup and plate that had been cracked before, emptying a silver spoon with some dishwater out of the back door (an act never permitted at the brick house), and putting coffee grounds in the sink. All evidences of crime having been removed by Rebecca, and damages repaired in all possible cases, the three entered the parlor, where Mr. and Mrs. Cobb and Deacon and Mrs. Milliken had already appeared.
There was a plentiful dinner, and the presence of the young people made it lively. Aunt Jane helped clear the table and put away the food, while Miranda entertained in the living room; but Rebecca and little Burches washed the dishes and had a great time in the kitchen, only causing minor mishaps—breaking a cup and a plate that were already cracked, tossing a silver spoon with some dishwater out of the back door (which was never allowed at the brick house), and putting coffee grounds in the sink. After Rebecca cleaned up all signs of trouble and fixed any damages, the three of them headed into the living room, where Mr. and Mrs. Cobb and Deacon and Mrs. Milliken were already there.
It was such a pleasant evening! Occasionally they left the heathen in his blindness bowing down to wood and stone, not for long, but just to give themselves (and him) time enough to breathe, and then the Burches told strange, beautiful, marvelous things. The two smaller children sang together, and Rebecca, at the urgent request of Mrs. Burch, seated herself at the tinkling old piano and gave "Wild roved an Indian girl, bright Alfarata" with considerable spirit and style.
It was such a lovely evening! Sometimes they left the poor guy in his ignorance, worshiping wood and stone, but not for long—just enough time for everyone (including him) to catch their breath, and then the Burches shared strange, beautiful, amazing stories. The two younger kids sang together, and Rebecca, at Mrs. Burch's insistence, sat down at the old, tinkling piano and performed "Wild roved an Indian girl, bright Alfarata" with a lot of energy and flair.
At eight o'clock she crossed the room, handed a palm-leaf fan to her aunt Miranda, ostensibly that she might shade her eyes from the lamplight; but it was a piece of strategy that gave her an opportunity to whisper, "How about cookies?"
At eight o'clock, she crossed the room and handed a palm-leaf fan to her Aunt Miranda, pretending it was to help shade her eyes from the lamplight. But it was really a clever move that allowed her to whisper, "How about cookies?"
"Do you think it's worth while?" sibilated Miss Miranda in answer.
"Do you think it's worth it?" Miss Miranda hissed in reply.
"The Perkinses always do."
"The Perkinses always do."
"All right. You know where they be."
"All right. You know where they are."
Rebecca moved quietly towards the door, and the young Burches cataracted after her as if they could not bear a second's separation. In five minutes they returned, the little ones bearing plates of thin caraway wafers,—hearts, diamonds, and circles daintily sugared, and flecked with caraway seed raised in the garden behind the house. These were a specialty of Miss Jane's, and Rebecca carried a tray with six tiny crystal glasses filled with dandelion wine, for which Miss Miranda had been famous in years gone by. Old Deacon Israel had always had it passed, and he had bought the glasses himself in Boston. Miranda admired them greatly, not only for their beauty but because they held so little. Before their advent the dandelion wine had been served in sherry glasses.
Rebecca moved quietly towards the door, and the young Burch kids followed her with eyes wide open, as if they could hardly stand to be apart from her for even a moment. In five minutes they came back, the little ones carrying plates of thin caraway wafers—hearts, diamonds, and circles beautifully sugared and sprinkled with caraway seeds grown in the garden behind the house. These were a specialty of Miss Jane's, and Rebecca brought a tray with six tiny crystal glasses filled with dandelion wine, for which Miss Miranda had been known in the past. Old Deacon Israel always had it served, and he had bought the glasses himself in Boston. Miranda admired them a lot, not only for their beauty but also because they held so little. Before these, the dandelion wine was served in sherry glasses.
As soon as these refreshments—commonly called a "colation" in Riverboro—had been genteelly partaken of, Rebecca looked at the clock, rose from her chair in the children's corner, and said cheerfully, "Come! time for little missionaries to be in bed!"
As soon as these snacks—often referred to as a "colation" in Riverboro—had been politely enjoyed, Rebecca glanced at the clock, got up from her chair in the children's corner, and said cheerfully, "Come on! It's time for little missionaries to go to bed!"
Everybody laughed at this, the big missionaries most of all, as the young people shook hands and disappeared with Rebecca.
Everybody laughed at this, especially the big missionaries, as the young people shook hands and headed off with Rebecca.
XX
A CHANGE OF HEART
"That niece of yours is the most remarkable girl I have seen in years," said Mr. Burch when the door closed.
"That niece of yours is the most amazing girl I've seen in years," said Mr. Burch when the door closed.
"She seems to be turnin' out smart enough lately, but she's consid'able heedless," answered Miranda, "an' most too lively."
"She seems to be pretty smart lately, but she's quite careless," answered Miranda, "and way too playful."
"We must remember that it is deficient, not excessive vitality, that makes the greatest trouble in this world," returned Mr. Burch.
"We need to remember that it's a lack of energy, not too much energy, that causes the biggest problems in this world," Mr. Burch replied.
"She'd make a wonderful missionary," said Mrs. Burch; "with her voice, and her magnetism, and her gift of language."
"She would be an amazing missionary," Mrs. Burch said, "with her voice, her charm, and her talent for languages."
"If I was to say which of the two she was best adapted for, I'd say she'd make a better heathen," remarked Miranda curtly.
"If I had to say which of the two she was better suited for, I’d say she’d make a better heathen," Miranda said sharply.
"My sister don't believe in flattering children," hastily interpolated Jane, glancing toward Mrs. Burch, who seemed somewhat shocked, and was about to open her lips to ask if Rebecca was not a "professor."
"My sister doesn't believe in flattering kids," Jane quickly interjected, looking over at Mrs. Burch, who appeared a bit stunned and was about to ask if Rebecca wasn't a "professor."
Mrs. Cobb had been looking for this question all the evening and dreading some allusion to her favorite as gifted in prayer. She had taken an instantaneous and illogical dislike to the Rev. Mr. Burch in the afternoon because he called upon Rebecca to "lead." She had seen the pallor creep into the girl's face, the hunted look in her eyes, and the trembling of the lashes on her cheeks, and realized the ordeal through which she was passing. Her prejudice against the minister had relaxed under his genial talk and presence, but feeling that Mrs. Burch was about to tread on dangerous ground, she hastily asked her if one had to change cars many times going from Riverboro to Syria. She felt that it was not a particularly appropriate question, but it served her turn.
Mrs. Cobb had been thinking about this question all evening and was worried someone would mention her favorite's talent for prayer. She had developed an instant and irrational dislike for Rev. Mr. Burch in the afternoon when he asked Rebecca to "take the lead." She noticed the color drain from the girl's face, the fear in her eyes, and the way her eyelashes trembled, and she understood the ordeal Rebecca was going through. Her negative feelings toward the minister had eased a bit during his friendly conversation, but sensing that Mrs. Burch was about to go into sensitive territory, she quickly asked her if changing trains multiple times was necessary to get from Riverboro to Syria. She knew it wasn't the most suitable question, but it worked for her.
Deacon Milliken, meantime, said to Miss Sawyer, "Mirandy, do you know who Rebecky reminds me of?"
Deacon Milliken, in the meantime, said to Miss Sawyer, "Mirandy, do you know who Rebecky reminds me of?"
"I can guess pretty well," she replied.
"I can guess pretty well," she said.
"Then you've noticed it too! I thought at first, seein' she favored her father so on the outside, that she was the same all through; but she ain't, she's like your father, Israel Sawyer."
"Then you've noticed it too! At first, I thought that since she looked so much like her father, she was the same in every way; but she's not, she's more like your father, Israel Sawyer."
"I don't see how you make that out," said Miranda, thoroughly astonished.
"I don't see how you figure that," said Miranda, completely astonished.
"It struck me this afternoon when she got up to give your invitation in meetin'. It was kind o' cur'ous, but she set in the same seat he used to when he was leader o' the Sabbath-school. You know his old way of holdin' his chin up and throwin' his head back a leetle when he got up to say anything? Well, she done the very same thing; there was more'n one spoke of it."
"It hit me this afternoon when she stood up to give your invitation in the meeting. It was kind of strange, but she sat in the same seat he used to when he was the leader of the Sunday school. You remember his old way of holding his chin up and tilting his head back just a bit when he stood up to say anything? Well, she did exactly that; more than one person mentioned it."
The callers left before nine, and at that hour (an impossibly dissipated one for the brick house) the family retired for the night. As Rebecca carried Mrs. Burch's candle upstairs and found herself thus alone with her for a minute, she said shyly, "Will you please tell Mr. Burch that I'm not a member of the church? I didn't know what to do when he asked me to pray this afternoon. I hadn't the courage to say I had never done it out loud and didn't know how. I couldn't think; and I was so frightened I wanted to sink into the floor. It seemed bold and wicked for me to pray before all those old church members and make believe I was better than I really was; but then again, wouldn't God think I was wicked not to be willing to pray when a minister asked me to?"
The visitors left before nine, and at that time (an incredibly late hour for the brick house) the family went to bed. As Rebecca carried Mrs. Burch's candle upstairs and found herself alone with her for a moment, she said shyly, "Could you please tell Mr. Burch that I'm not a member of the church? I didn’t know what to do when he asked me to pray this afternoon. I didn’t have the courage to say I had never done it out loud and didn’t know how. I couldn’t think; and I was so scared I wanted to disappear into the floor. It felt wrong and sinful for me to pray in front of all those long-time church members and pretend to be better than I actually am; but then again, wouldn’t God think I was bad for not wanting to pray when a minister asked me to?"
The candle light fell on Rebecca's flushed, sensitive face. Mrs. Burch bent and kissed her good-night. "Don't be troubled," she said. "I'll tell Mr. Burch, and I guess God will understand."
The candlelight illuminated Rebecca's flushed, sensitive face. Mrs. Burch leaned down and kissed her goodnight. "Don't worry," she said. "I'll talk to Mr. Burch, and I'm sure God will get it."
Rebecca waked before six the next morning, so full of household cares that sleep was impossible. She went to the window and looked out; it was still dark, and a blustering, boisterous day.
Rebecca woke up before six the next morning, so overwhelmed with household worries that sleep was out of the question. She went to the window and looked outside; it was still dark, and a wild, windy day.
"Aunt Jane told me she should get up at half past six and have breakfast at half past seven," she thought; "but I daresay they are both sick with their colds, and aunt Miranda will be fidgety with so many in the house. I believe I'll creep down and start things for a surprise."
"Aunt Jane said she would get up at 6:30 and have breakfast at 7:30," she thought; "but I'm sure they’re both feeling terrible with their colds, and Aunt Miranda will be restless with so many people around. I think I'll sneak downstairs and kick things off for a surprise."
She put on a wadded wrapper and slippers and stole quietly down the tabooed front stairs, carefully closed the kitchen door behind her so that no noise should waken the rest of the household, busied herself for a half hour with the early morning routine she knew so well, and then went back to her room to dress before calling the children.
She put on a padded robe and slippers and quietly made her way down the forbidden front stairs, ensuring she closed the kitchen door behind her softly so that no noise would wake anyone else in the house. She spent about half an hour on the morning routine she was so familiar with, and then went back to her room to get dressed before calling the kids.
Contrary to expectation, Miss Jane, who the evening before felt better than Miranda, grew worse in the night, and was wholly unable to leave her bed in the morning. Miranda grumbled without ceasing during the progress of her hasty toilet, blaming everybody in the universe for the afflictions she had borne and was to bear during the day; she even castigated the Missionary Board that had sent the Burches to Syria, and gave it as her unbiased opinion that those who went to foreign lands for the purpose of saving heathen should stay there and save 'em, and not go gallivantin' all over the earth with a passel o' children, visitin' folks that didn't want 'em and never asked 'em.
Unlike what she expected, Miss Jane, who felt better than Miranda the night before, got worse during the night and couldn't get out of bed in the morning. Miranda complained non-stop while hurriedly getting ready, blaming everyone in the world for the troubles she had faced and would face that day; she even criticized the Missionary Board for sending the Burches to Syria, stating her honest opinion that those who traveled to foreign lands to save the heathens should stay there and do it, rather than roaming around with a bunch of kids, visiting people who didn't want them and never asked for their presence.
Jane lay anxiously and restlessly in bed with a feverish headache, wondering how her sister could manage without her.
Jane lay anxiously and restlessly in bed with a pounding headache, wondering how her sister could get by without her.
Miranda walked stiffly through the dining-room, tying a shawl over her head to keep the draughts away, intending to start the breakfast fire and then call Rebecca down, set her to work, and tell her, meanwhile, a few plain facts concerning the proper way of representing the family at a missionary meeting.
Miranda walked rigidly through the dining room, tying a shawl over her head to block the drafts, planning to start the breakfast fire and then call Rebecca down, get her started on her tasks, and in the meantime, share some straightforward facts about how to represent the family at a missionary meeting.
She opened the kitchen door and stared vaguely about her, wondering whether she had strayed into the wrong house by mistake.
She opened the kitchen door and looked around, unsure if she had accidentally walked into the wrong house.
The shades were up, and there was a roaring fire in the stove; the teakettle was singing and bubbling as it sent out a cloud of steam, and pushed over its capacious nose was a half sheet of note paper with "Compliments of Rebecca" scrawled on it. The coffee pot was scalding, the coffee was measured out in a bowl, and broken eggshells for the settling process were standing near. The cold potatoes and corned beef were in the wooden tray, and "Regards of Rebecca" stuck on the chopping knife. The brown loaf was out, the white loaf was out, the toast rack was out, the doughnuts were out, the milk was skimmed, the butter had been brought from the dairy.
The shades were up, and there was a roaring fire in the stove; the teakettle was singing and bubbling as it released a cloud of steam, with a half sheet of note paper pushed over its wide spout that said "Compliments of Rebecca." The coffee pot was hot, the coffee was measured out in a bowl, and broken eggshells for straining were nearby. The cold potatoes and corned beef were on the wooden tray, with "Regards of Rebecca" stuck onto the chopping knife. The brown bread was out, the white bread was out, the toast rack was out, the doughnuts were out, the milk was skimmed, and the butter had been brought over from the dairy.
Miranda removed the shawl from her head and sank into the kitchen rocker, ejaculating under her breath, "She is the beatin'est child! I declare she's all Sawyer!"
Miranda took off the shawl from her head and sat down in the kitchen rocking chair, muttering under her breath, "She's the toughest kid! I swear she's just like Sawyer!"
The day and the evening passed off with credit and honor to everybody concerned, even to Jane, who had the discretion to recover instead of growing worse and acting as a damper to the general enjoyment. The Burches left with lively regrets, and the little missionaries, bathed in tears, swore eternal friendship with Rebecca, who pressed into their hands at parting a poem composed before breakfast.
The day and the evening went well for everyone involved, even for Jane, who wisely chose to recover instead of letting things get worse and bringing down the mood. The Burches left feeling regretful but lively, and the little missionaries, tears in their eyes, promised to be friends with Rebecca forever, who handed them a poem she had written before breakfast as they said goodbye.
TO MARY AND MARTHA BURCH
TO MARY AND MARTHA BURCH
Born under Syrian skies,
'Neath hotter suns than ours;
The children grew and bloomed,
Like little tropic flowers.
Born under Syrian skies,
Beneath hotter suns than ours;
The children grew and flourished,
Like little tropical flowers.
When they first saw the light,
'T was in a heathen land.
Not Greenland's icy mountains,
Nor India's coral strand,
When they first saw the light,
it was in a pagan land.
Not Greenland's icy mountains,
Nor India's coral shores,
But some mysterious country
Where men are nearly black
And where of true religion,
There is a painful lack.
But there's some mysterious place
Where people are almost black
And where true faith,
Is painfully lacking.
Then let us haste in helping
The Missionary Board,
Seek dark-skinned unbelievers,
And teach them of their Lord.
Rebecca Rowena Randall.
Then let’s hurry to help
The Missionary Board,
Look for dark-skinned nonbelievers,
And teach them about their Lord.
Rebecca Rowena Randall.
It can readily be seen that this visit of the returned missionaries to Riverboro was not without somewhat far-reaching results. Mr. and Mrs. Burch themselves looked back upon it as one of the rarest pleasures of their half year at home. The neighborhood extracted considerable eager conversation from it; argument, rebuttal, suspicion, certainty, retrospect, and prophecy. Deacon Milliken gave ten dollars towards the conversion of Syria to Congregationalism, and Mrs. Milliken had a spell of sickness over her husband's rash generosity.
It’s clear that the visit from the returning missionaries to Riverboro had some significant consequences. Mr. and Mrs. Burch considered it one of the highlights of their six months at home. The community engaged in a lot of lively discussions about it, including debates, counterarguments, skepticism, confidence, reflections, and predictions. Deacon Milliken donated ten dollars to support the conversion of Syria to Congregationalism, and Mrs. Milliken experienced a bout of illness over her husband's impulsive generosity.
It would be pleasant to state that Miranda Sawyer was an entirely changed woman afterwards, but that is not the fact. The tree that has been getting a twist for twenty years cannot be straightened in the twinkling of an eye. It is certain, however, that although the difference to the outward eye was very small, it nevertheless existed, and she was less censorious in her treatment of Rebecca, less harsh in her judgments, more hopeful of final salvation for her. This had come about largely from her sudden vision that Rebecca, after all, inherited something from the Sawyer side of the house instead of belonging, mind, body, and soul, to the despised Randall stock. Everything that was interesting in Rebecca, and every evidence of power, capability, or talent afterwards displayed by her, Miranda ascribed to the brick house training, and this gave her a feeling of honest pride, the pride of a master workman who has built success out of the most unpromising material; but never, to the very end, even when the waning of her bodily strength relaxed her iron grip and weakened her power of repression, never once did she show that pride or make a single demonstration of affection.
It would be nice to say that Miranda Sawyer was completely changed afterward, but that’s not the case. A tree that has been twisted for twenty years can't be straightened instantly. However, it is clear that while the differences were minimal on the surface, they were still present. She became less critical of Rebecca, less harsh in her judgments, and more hopeful about her ultimate redemption. This shift largely resulted from her sudden realization that Rebecca actually inherited something from the Sawyer side of the family, rather than being wholly tied to the despised Randall lineage. Everything intriguing about Rebecca and every sign of power, ability, or talent she later showed, Miranda attributed to the upbringing in the brick house. This gave her a sense of genuine pride, like a skilled craftsman who has built success from the most unlikely materials. Yet, even until the very end, as her physical strength waned and her grip loosened, she never once showed that pride or expressed any affection.
Poor misplaced, belittled Lorenzo de Medici Randall, thought ridiculous and good-for-naught by his associates, because he resembled them in nothing! If Riverboro could have been suddenly emptied into a larger community, with different and more flexible opinions, he was, perhaps, the only personage in the entire population who would have attracted the smallest attention. It was fortunate for his daughter that she had been dowered with a little practical ability from her mother's family, but if Lorenzo had never done anything else in the world, he might have glorified himself that he had prevented Rebecca from being all Sawyer. Failure as he was, complete and entire, he had generously handed down to her all that was best in himself, and prudently retained all that was unworthy. Few fathers are capable of such delicate discrimination.
Poor, misunderstood Lorenzo de Medici Randall was ridiculed and thought useless by those around him because he didn’t fit in with them at all! If Riverboro could have been suddenly merged into a larger community with more open-minded views, he might have been the only one in the whole town who would have attracted even the slightest attention. It was a stroke of luck for his daughter that she inherited some practical skills from her mother’s side, but even if Lorenzo had never done anything else in his life, he could take pride in the fact that he kept Rebecca from becoming entirely like Sawyer. Despite being a total failure, he generously passed down all the best traits he had to her while wisely keeping the unworthy parts to himself. Few fathers are able to make such subtle distinctions.
The brick house did not speedily become a sort of wayside inn, a place of innocent revelry and joyous welcome; but the missionary company was an entering wedge, and Miranda allowed one spare bed to be made up "in case anything should happen," while the crystal glasses were kept on the second from the top, instead of the top shelf, in the china closet. Rebecca had had to stand on a chair to reach them; now she could do it by stretching; and this is symbolic of the way in which she unconsciously scaled the walls of Miss Miranda's dogmatism and prejudice.
The brick house didn’t quickly turn into a roadside inn, a spot for innocent fun and warm greetings; however, the missionary group was a starting point, and Miranda allowed one extra bed to be set up "just in case something comes up," while the crystal glasses were kept on the second shelf from the top, instead of the top shelf, in the china cabinet. Rebecca had to stand on a chair to grab them; now she could reach them by stretching, which symbolizes how she unconsciously overcame Miss Miranda's rigid beliefs and biases.
Miranda went so far as to say that she wouldn't mind if the Burches came every once in a while, but she was afraid he'd spread abroad the fact of his visit, and missionaries' families would be underfoot the whole continual time. As a case in point, she gracefully cited the fact that if a tramp got a good meal at anybody's back door, 't was said that he'd leave some kind of a sign so that all other tramps would know where they were likely to receive the same treatment.
Miranda even said she wouldn't mind if the Burches visited every now and then, but she was worried he'd tell others about his visit, and missionaries’ families would be around all the time. For example, she elegantly pointed out that if a hobo got a nice meal at someone's back door, it was said he would leave some sort of sign so that other hobos would know where to expect the same hospitality.
It is to be feared that there is some truth in this homely illustration, and Miss Miranda's dread as to her future responsibilities had some foundation, though not of the precise sort she had in mind. The soul grows into lovely habits as easily as into ugly ones, and the moment a life begins to blossom into beautiful words and deeds, that moment a new standard of conduct is established, and your eager neighbors look to you for a continuous manifestation of the good cheer, the sympathy, the ready wit, the comradeship, or the inspiration, you once showed yourself capable of. Bear figs for a season or two, and the world outside the orchard is very unwilling you should bear thistles.
It’s worrying that there’s some truth to this simple illustration, and Miss Miranda's fear about her future responsibilities had some basis, though not the exact kind she was thinking of. The soul can develop lovely habits just as easily as ugly ones, and the moment a life starts to flourish with beautiful words and actions, a new standard for behavior is set. Your eager neighbors expect you to continuously show the good cheer, sympathy, quick wit, companionship, or inspiration that you once demonstrated. Produce figs for a season or two, and the world outside the orchard isn’t too keen on you producing thistles.
The effect of the Burches' visit on Rebecca is not easily described. Nevertheless, as she looked back upon it from the vantage ground of after years, she felt that the moment when Mr. Burch asked her to "lead in prayer" marked an epoch in her life.
The impact of the Burches' visit on Rebecca is hard to explain. Still, as she reflected on it years later, she realized that the moment when Mr. Burch asked her to "lead in prayer" was a turning point in her life.
If you have ever observed how courteous and gracious and mannerly you feel when you don a beautiful new frock; if you have ever noticed the feeling of reverence stealing over you when you close your eyes, clasp your hands, and bow your head; if you have ever watched your sense of repulsion toward a fellow creature melt a little under the exercise of daily politeness, you may understand how the adoption of the outward and visible sign has some strange influence in developing the inward and spiritual state of which it is the expression.
If you've ever noticed how polite, kind, and well-mannered you feel when you wear a beautiful new dress; if you've ever felt a sense of awe wash over you when you close your eyes, put your hands together, and bow your head; if you've ever seen your feelings of dislike toward someone soften a bit through the practice of everyday politeness, you might understand how adopting an outward and visible symbol can strangely influence and develop the inner and spiritual state it represents.
It is only when one has grown old and dull that the soul is heavy and refuses to rise. The young soul is ever winged; a breath stirs it to an upward flight. Rebecca was asked to bear witness to a state of mind or feeling of whose existence she had only the vaguest consciousness. She obeyed, and as she uttered words they became true in the uttering; as she voiced aspirations they settled into realities.
It’s only when a person has aged and become dull that their spirit feels heavy and can’t soar. A young spirit is always ready to take flight; just a breath can lift it higher. Rebecca was asked to testify about a state of mind or emotion she barely recognized. She complied, and as she spoke, her words took on truth; as she expressed her hopes, they transformed into realities.
As "dove that to its window flies," her spirit soared towards a great light, dimly discovered at first, but brighter as she came closer to it. To become sensible of oneness with the Divine heart before any sense of separation has been felt, this is surely the most beautiful way for the child to find God.
As a "dove that flies to its window," her spirit lifted towards a great light, initially faint but becoming brighter as she approached it. To become aware of being one with the Divine heart before ever feeling any sense of separation is undoubtedly the most beautiful way for a child to discover God.
XXI
THE SKY LINE WIDENS
The time so long and eagerly waited for had come, and Rebecca was a student at Wareham. Persons who had enjoyed the social bewilderments and advantages of foreign courts, or had mingled freely in the intellectual circles of great universities, might not have looked upon Wareham as an extraordinary experience; but it was as much of an advance upon Riverboro as that village had been upon Sunnybrook Farm. Rebecca's intention was to complete the four years' course in three, as it was felt by all the parties concerned that when she had attained the ripe age of seventeen she must be ready to earn her own living and help in the education of the younger children. While she was wondering how this could be successfully accomplished, some of the other girls were cogitating as to how they could meander through the four years and come out at the end knowing no more than at the beginning. This would seem a difficult, well-nigh an impossible task, but it can be achieved, and has been, at other seats of learning than modest little Wareham.
The long-awaited time had finally arrived, and Rebecca was now a student at Wareham. People who had experienced the social complexities and benefits of foreign courts, or who had mingled in the intellectual circles of prestigious universities, might not have seen Wareham as anything special; however, it was a significant step up from Riverboro, just as that village had been from Sunnybrook Farm. Rebecca planned to finish the four-year program in three years, as everyone involved felt that by the time she turned seventeen, she should be ready to earn her own living and help educate the younger children. While she pondered how to make this happen, some of the other girls were thinking about how they could get through the four years without learning much at all. This might seem like a tough, almost impossible task, but it can be done, and has been accomplished at places other than the modest little Wareham.
Rebecca was to go to and fro on the cars daily from September to Christmas, and then board in Wareham during the three coldest months. Emma Jane's parents had always thought that a year or two in the Edgewood high school (three miles from Riverboro) would serve every purpose for their daughter and send her into the world with as fine an intellectual polish as she could well sustain. Emma Jane had hitherto heartily concurred in this opinion, for if there was any one thing that she detested it was the learning of lessons. One book was as bad as another in her eyes, and she could have seen the libraries of the world sinking into ocean depths and have eaten her dinner cheerfully the while; but matters assumed a different complexion when she was sent to Edgewood and Rebecca to Wareham. She bore it for a week—seven endless days of absence from the beloved object, whom she could see only in the evenings when both were busy with their lessons. Sunday offered an opportunity to put the matter before her father, who proved obdurate. He didn't believe in education and thought she had full enough already. He never intended to keep up "blacksmithing" for good when he leased his farm and came into Riverboro, but proposed to go back to it presently, and by that time Emma Jane would have finished school and would be ready to help her mother with the dairy work.
Rebecca was set to travel back and forth on the train every day from September to Christmas, then stay in Wareham for the three coldest months. Emma Jane's parents believed that spending a year or two at Edgewood High School (three miles from Riverboro) would prepare their daughter well for life and give her a solid academic foundation. Emma Jane had always agreed with this view because the one thing she truly disliked was studying. To her, every book was just as dull as the next, and she would have happily watched all the libraries in the world sink into the ocean while enjoying her dinner; however, everything changed when she was sent to Edgewood and Rebecca to Wareham. She managed to endure it for a week—seven long days away from her beloved friend, whom she could only see in the evenings when they were both busy with their studies. Sunday presented the chance to discuss the situation with her father, who was unyielding. He didn’t believe in education and thought she had enough knowledge already. He had never planned to stick with "blacksmithing" for good once he leased his farm and moved to Riverboro, but he intended to return to it soon, by which time Emma Jane would have finished school and would be ready to help her mother with the dairy tasks.
Another week passed. Emma Jane pined visibly and audibly. Her color faded, and her appetite (at table) dwindled almost to nothing.
Another week went by. Emma Jane visibly and audibly mourned. Her complexion faded, and her appetite (at the table) shrank almost to nothing.
Her mother alluded plaintively to the fact that the Perkinses had a habit of going into declines; that she'd always feared that Emma Jane's complexion was too beautiful to be healthy; that some men would be proud of having an ambitious daughter, and be glad to give her the best advantages; that she feared the daily journeys to Edgewood were going to be too much for her own health, and Mr. Perkins would have to hire a boy to drive Emma Jane; and finally that when a girl had such a passion for learning as Emma Jane, it seemed almost like wickedness to cross her will.
Her mother sadly mentioned that the Perkins family often had a habit of falling ill; she’d always worried that Emma Jane’s complexion was too lovely to be healthy; that some men would take pride in having an ambitious daughter and would be happy to provide her with the best opportunities; that she was concerned the daily trips to Edgewood would be too taxing on her health, and Mr. Perkins would need to hire a boy to drive Emma Jane; and finally, that when a girl had such a love for learning as Emma Jane did, it felt almost wrong to go against her wishes.
Mr. Perkins bore this for several days until his temper, digestion, and appetite were all sensibly affected; then he bowed his head to the inevitable, and Emma Jane flew, like a captive set free, to the loved one's bower. Neither did her courage flag, although it was put to terrific tests when she entered the academic groves of Wareham. She passed in only two subjects, but went cheerfully into the preparatory department with her five "conditions," intending to let the stream of education play gently over her mental surfaces and not get any wetter than she could help. It is not possible to blink the truth that Emma Jane was dull; but a dogged, unswerving loyalty, and the gift of devoted, unselfish loving, these, after all, are talents of a sort, and may possibly be of as much value in the world as a sense of numbers or a faculty for languages.
Mr. Perkins dealt with this for several days until his mood, digestion, and appetite were all noticeably affected; then he accepted the inevitable, and Emma Jane rushed, like someone set free, to her beloved’s haven. Her courage didn’t waver, even when she faced tough challenges entering the academic environment of Wareham. She only passed in two subjects but happily moved into the preparatory department with her five “conditions,” planning to let the flow of education wash gently over her mind and avoid getting too overwhelmed. It’s hard to deny that Emma Jane was not the brightest; however, her stubborn, unwavering loyalty and her ability to love selflessly are still talents in their own right and might be just as valuable in the world as math skills or language proficiency.
Wareham was a pretty village with a broad main street shaded by great maples and elms. It had an apothecary, a blacksmith, a plumber, several shops of one sort and another, two churches, and many boarding-houses; but all its interests gathered about its seminary and its academy. These seats of learning were neither better nor worse than others of their kind, but differed much in efficiency, according as the principal who chanced to be at the head was a man of power and inspiration or the reverse. There were boys and girls gathered from all parts of the county and state, and they were of every kind and degree as to birth, position in the world, wealth or poverty. There was an opportunity for a deal of foolish and imprudent behavior, but on the whole surprisingly little advantage was taken of it. Among the third and fourth year students there was a certain amount of going to and from the trains in couples; some carrying of heavy books up the hill by the sterner sex for their feminine schoolmates, and occasional bursts of silliness on the part of heedless and precocious girls, among whom was Huldah Meserve. She was friendly enough with Emma Jane and Rebecca, but grew less and less intimate as time went on. She was extremely pretty, with a profusion of auburn hair, and a few very tiny freckles, to which she constantly alluded, as no one could possibly detect them without noting her porcelain skin and her curling lashes. She had merry eyes, a somewhat too plump figure for her years, and was popularly supposed to have a fascinating way with her. Riverboro being poorly furnished with beaux, she intended to have as good a time during her four years at Wareham as circumstances would permit. Her idea of pleasure was an ever-changing circle of admirers to fetch and carry for her, the more publicly the better; incessant chaff and laughter and vivacious conversation, made eloquent and effective by arch looks and telling glances. She had a habit of confiding her conquests to less fortunate girls and bewailing the incessant havoc and damage she was doing; a damage she avowed herself as innocent of, in intention, as any new-born lamb. It does not take much of this sort of thing to wreck an ordinary friendship, so before long Rebecca and Emma Jane sat in one end of the railway train in going to and from Riverboro, and Huldah occupied the other with her court. Sometimes this was brilliant beyond words, including a certain youthful Monte Cristo, who on Fridays expended thirty cents on a round trip ticket and traveled from Wareham to Riverboro merely to be near Huldah; sometimes, too, the circle was reduced to the popcorn-and-peanut boy of the train, who seemed to serve every purpose in default of better game.
Wareham was a charming village with a wide main street lined with large maples and elms. It had a drugstore, a blacksmith, a plumber, several shops, two churches, and many boarding houses; but all its interests revolved around its seminary and academy. These educational institutions weren’t better or worse than many others, but their effectiveness varied greatly depending on whether the principal in charge was a dynamic leader or not. Students from all over the county and state, representing all sorts of backgrounds, wealth, and social status, attended. There was plenty of opportunity for foolish and reckless behavior, but surprisingly, not much of it was taken. Among the third and fourth-year students, some of them would pair up to walk to and from the trains, boys would carry heavy books up the hill for their female classmates, and there were occasional moments of silliness from carefree and precocious girls, including Huldah Meserve. She was friendly with Emma Jane and Rebecca, but their closeness faded over time. She was extremely pretty, with a mass of auburn hair and a few tiny freckles, which she often mentioned, even though no one could possibly notice them against her porcelain skin and curling eyelashes. She had bright, cheerful eyes, a slightly plump figure for her age, and was widely believed to have a charming personality. Since Riverboro lacked eligible boys, she planned to make the most of her four years at Wareham, enjoying herself as much as she could. Her idea of fun involved a constantly changing group of admirers to cater to her, the more publicly the better; endless teasing, laughter, and lively conversations, enhanced by playful looks and meaningful glances. She often confided her romantic exploits to her less lucky classmates, lamenting the chaos and trouble she caused, which she insisted was entirely unintentional, like a newborn lamb. It doesn’t take much of this for an ordinary friendship to crumble, so before long, Rebecca and Emma Jane found themselves sitting at one end of the train when traveling to and from Riverboro, while Huldah occupied the other end with her entourage. Sometimes this group was dazzling, featuring a youthful Monte Cristo who spent thirty cents on a round-trip ticket every Friday just to be near Huldah; at other times, the circle shrank to the popcorn-and-peanut vendor on the train, who seemed to serve every need in the absence of better company.
Rebecca was in the normally unconscious state that belonged to her years; boys were good comrades, but no more; she liked reciting in the same class with them, everything seemed to move better; but from vulgar and precocious flirtations she was protected by her ideals. There was little in the lads she had met thus far to awaken her fancy, for it habitually fed on better meat. Huldah's school-girl romances, with their wealth of commonplace detail, were not the stuff her dreams were made of, when dreams did flutter across the sensitive plate of her mind.
Rebecca was in a typical state of mind for her age; boys were good friends, but nothing beyond that. She enjoyed sharing classes with them, as everything felt more enjoyable; but her ideals kept her safe from shallow and premature flirting. There wasn't much about the boys she had met so far that sparked her interest, as her preferences were usually for something more substantial. Huldah's schoolgirl crushes, filled with ordinary details, weren’t the kind of fantasies that occupied her thoughts when she did daydream.
Among the teachers at Wareham was one who influenced Rebecca profoundly, Miss Emily Maxwell, with whom she studied English literature and composition. Miss Maxwell, as the niece of one of Maine's ex-governors and the daughter of one of Bowdoin's professors, was the most remarkable personality in Wareham, and that her few years of teaching happened to be in Rebecca's time was the happiest of all chances. There was no indecision or delay in the establishment of their relations; Rebecca's heart flew like an arrow to its mark, and her mind, meeting its superior, settled at once into an abiding attitude of respectful homage.
Among the teachers at Wareham was one who had a profound impact on Rebecca, Miss Emily Maxwell, with whom she studied English literature and composition. Miss Maxwell, the niece of a former governor of Maine and the daughter of a Bowdoin professor, was the most remarkable person in Wareham, and it was the best luck that her few years of teaching coincided with Rebecca's time there. Their relationship was established without hesitation; Rebecca's heart soared straight to her, and her mind, recognizing its superior, instantly adopted a lasting attitude of respectful admiration.
It was rumored that Miss Maxwell "wrote," which word, when uttered in a certain tone, was understood to mean not that a person had command of penmanship, Spencerian or otherwise, but that she had appeared in print.
It was said that Miss Maxwell "wrote," a word that, when spoken in a particular tone, was understood to mean not that someone had good handwriting, Spencerian or otherwise, but that she had been published.
"You'll like her; she writes," whispered Huldah to Rebecca the first morning at prayers, where the faculty sat in an imposing row on the front seats. "She writes; and I call her stuck up."
"You'll like her; she writes," Huldah whispered to Rebecca on the first morning at prayers, where the teachers sat in a formal line in the front seats. "She writes; and I think she's stuck up."
Nobody seemed possessed of exact information with which to satisfy the hungry mind, but there was believed to be at least one person in existence who had seen, with his own eyes, an essay by Miss Maxwell in a magazine. This height of achievement made Rebecca somewhat shy of her, but she looked her admiration; something that most of the class could never do with the unsatisfactory organs of vision given them by Mother Nature. Miss Maxwell's glance was always meeting a pair of eager dark eyes; when she said anything particularly good, she looked for approval to the corner of the second bench, where every shade of feeling she wished to evoke was reflected on a certain sensitive young face.
Nobody seemed to have the exact information needed to satisfy the curious minds, but there was thought to be at least one person who had seen, with his own eyes, an essay by Miss Maxwell in a magazine. This level of accomplishment made Rebecca a bit shy around her, but she expressed her admiration in her gaze; something that most of the class couldn’t do with the unsatisfactory eyesight given to them by Mother Nature. Miss Maxwell's eyes always met a pair of eager dark ones; when she said something especially good, she looked for approval in the corner of the second bench, where every shade of feeling she wanted to evoke was reflected on a certain sensitive young face.
One day, when the first essay of the class was under discussion, she asked each new pupil to bring her some composition written during the year before, that she might judge the work, and know precisely with what material she had to deal. Rebecca lingered after the others, and approached the desk shyly.
One day, when the class was discussing the first essay, she asked each new student to bring her a piece of writing they had done the previous year so she could evaluate their work and understand what she was working with. Rebecca stayed behind after the others and walked up to the desk nervously.
"I haven't any compositions here, Miss Maxwell, but I can find one when I go home on Friday. They are packed away in a box in the attic."
"I don't have any compositions here, Miss Maxwell, but I can find one when I go home on Friday. They’re packed away in a box in the attic."
"Carefully tied with pink and blue ribbons?" asked Miss Maxwell, with a whimsical smile.
"Carefully tied with pink and blue ribbons?" asked Miss Maxwell, with a playful smile.
"No," answered Rebecca, shaking her head decidedly; "I wanted to use ribbons, because all the other girls did, and they looked so pretty, but I used to tie my essays with twine strings on purpose; and the one on solitude I fastened with an old shoelacing just to show it what I thought of it!"
"No," replied Rebecca, shaking her head firmly. "I wanted to use ribbons because all the other girls did, and they looked so pretty, but I intentionally tied my essays with twine. And for the one on solitude, I used an old shoelace just to show how I really felt about it!"
"Solitude!" laughed Miss Maxwell, raising her eyebrows. "Did you choose your own subject?"
"Solitude!" laughed Miss Maxwell, raising her eyebrows. "Did you pick your own topic?"
"No; Miss Dearborn thought we were not old enough to find good ones."
"No; Miss Dearborn thought we were too young to find good ones."
"What were some of the others?"
"What were some of the others?"
"Fireside Reveries, Grant as a Soldier, Reflections on the Life of P. T. Barnum, Buried Cities; I can't remember any more now. They were all bad, and I can't bear to show them; I can write poetry easier and better, Miss Maxwell."
"Fireside Reveries, Grant as a Soldier, Reflections on the Life of P. T. Barnum, Buried Cities; I can't think of any more right now. They were all terrible, and I can't stand to share them; I can write poetry more easily and better, Miss Maxwell."
"Poetry!" she exclaimed. "Did Miss Dearborn require you to do it?"
"Poetry!" she said. "Did Miss Dearborn make you do it?"
"Oh, no; I always did it even at the farm. Shall I bring all I have? It isn't much."
"Oh, no; I always did it even at the farm. Should I bring everything I have? It isn't much."
Rebecca took the blank-book in which she kept copies of her effusions and left it at Miss Maxwell's door, hoping that she might be asked in and thus obtain a private interview; but a servant answered her ring, and she could only walk away, disappointed.
Rebecca took the blank book where she kept copies of her writings and left it at Miss Maxwell's door, hoping she would be invited in for a private chat. But a servant answered her ring, and she could only walk away, feeling let down.
A few days afterward she saw the black-covered book on Miss Maxwell's desk and knew that the dreaded moment of criticism had come, so she was not surprised to be asked to remain after class.
A few days later, she noticed the black-covered book on Miss Maxwell's desk and realized that the moment of criticism she feared had arrived, so she wasn't surprised when she was asked to stay after class.
The room was quiet; the red leaves rustled in the breeze and flew in at the open window, bearing the first compliments of the season. Miss Maxwell came and sat by Rebecca's side on the bench.
The room was quiet; the red leaves rustled in the breeze and flowed in through the open window, bringing the first signs of the season. Miss Maxwell came and sat next to Rebecca on the bench.
"Did you think these were good?" she asked, giving her the verses.
"Did you think these were good?" she asked, handing her the verses.
"Not so very," confessed Rebecca; "but it's hard to tell all by yourself. The Perkinses and the Cobbs always said they were wonderful, but when Mrs. Cobb told me she thought they were better than Mr. Longfellow's I was worried, because I knew that couldn't be true."
"Not really," Rebecca admitted; "but it's tough to judge on your own. The Perkinses and the Cobbs always claimed they were amazing, but when Mrs. Cobb mentioned she thought they were better than Mr. Longfellow's, I got concerned because I knew that couldn't be right."
This ingenuous remark confirmed Miss Maxwell's opinion of Rebecca as a girl who could hear the truth and profit by it.
This straightforward comment confirmed Miss Maxwell's view of Rebecca as a girl who could recognize the truth and benefit from it.
"Well, my child," she said smilingly, "your friends were wrong and you were right; judged by the proper tests, they are pretty bad."
"Well, kid," she said with a smile, "your friends were wrong and you were right; when judged by the right standards, they're pretty bad."
"Then I must give up all hope of ever being a writer!" sighed Rebecca, who was tasting the bitterness of hemlock and wondering if she could keep the tears back until the interview was over.
"Then I have to give up all hope of ever becoming a writer!" sighed Rebecca, feeling the bitterness of hemlock and wondering if she could hold back her tears until the interview was over.
"Don't go so fast," interrupted Miss Maxwell. "Though they don't amount to anything as poetry, they show a good deal of promise in certain directions. You almost never make a mistake in rhyme or metre, and this shows you have a natural sense of what is right; a 'sense of form,' poets would call it. When you grow older, have a little more experience,—in fact, when you have something to say, I think you may write very good verses. Poetry needs knowledge and vision, experience and imagination, Rebecca. You have not the first three yet, but I rather think you have a touch of the last."
"Don't rush so much," Miss Maxwell interrupted. "Even if they aren't great poetry, they definitely have potential in some ways. You hardly ever mess up on rhyme or meter, which shows you have a natural feel for what works; poets would call that a 'sense of form.' As you get older and gain a bit more experience—basically, when you have something meaningful to express—I believe you could write really good verses. Poetry requires knowledge, vision, experience, and imagination, Rebecca. You may not have the first three yet, but I think you have a hint of the last."
"Must I never try any more poetry, not even to amuse myself?"
"Should I stop trying to write poetry altogether, even just for fun?"
"Certainly you may; it will only help you to write better prose. Now for the first composition. I am going to ask all the new students to write a letter giving some description of the town and a hint of the school life."
"Sure, you can; it will just help you write better prose. Now for the first assignment. I'm going to ask all the new students to write a letter describing the town and giving a glimpse of school life."
"Shall I have to be myself?" asked Rebecca.
"Do I really have to be myself?" asked Rebecca.
"What do you mean?"
"What do you mean?"
"A letter from Rebecca Randall to her sister Hannah at Sunnybrook Farm, or to her aunt Jane at the brick house, Riverboro, is so dull and stupid, if it is a real letter; but if I could make believe I was a different girl altogether, and write to somebody who would be sure to understand everything I said, I could make it nicer."
"A letter from Rebecca Randall to her sister Hannah at Sunnybrook Farm, or to her aunt Jane at the brick house in Riverboro, feels so boring and pointless, if it's a real letter; but if I could pretend to be a completely different girl and write to someone who would totally get what I was saying, I could make it a lot better."
"Very well; I think that's a delightful plan," said Miss Maxwell; "and whom will you suppose yourself to be?"
"Sounds great; I think that's a lovely idea," said Miss Maxwell; "and who do you think you'll be?"
"I like heiresses very much," replied Rebecca contemplatively. "Of course I never saw one, but interesting things are always happening to heiresses, especially to the golden-haired kind. My heiress wouldn't be vain and haughty like the wicked sisters in Cinderella; she would be noble and generous. She would give up a grand school in Boston because she wanted to come here where her father lived when he was a boy, long before he made his fortune. The father is dead now, and she has a guardian, the best and kindest man in the world; he is rather old of course, and sometimes very quiet and grave, but sometimes when he is happy, he is full of fun, and then Evelyn is not afraid of him. Yes, the girl shall be called Evelyn Abercrombie, and her guardian's name shall be Mr. Adam Ladd."
"I really like heiresses," Rebecca said thoughtfully. "I mean, I've never actually seen one, but exciting things always seem to happen to them, especially the ones with golden hair. My heiress wouldn't be vain and snobbish like the wicked stepsisters in Cinderella; she'd be noble and generous. She would leave a fancy school in Boston because she wanted to come here where her dad grew up, long before he got rich. Her dad has passed away now, and she has a guardian, who is the best and kindest man in the world; he is a bit older, of course, and sometimes very quiet and serious, but when he’s happy, he’s really fun, and then Evelyn isn't scared of him. Yes, I’ll name her Evelyn Abercrombie, and her guardian will be Mr. Adam Ladd."
"Do you know Mr. Ladd?" asked Miss Maxwell in surprise.
"Do you know Mr. Ladd?" Miss Maxwell asked, surprised.
"Yes, he's my very best friend," cried Rebecca delightedly. "Do you know him too?"
"Yeah, he's my absolute best friend," Rebecca exclaimed happily. "Do you know him, too?"
"Oh, yes; he is a trustee of these schools, you know, and often comes here. But if I let you 'suppose' any more, you will tell me your whole letter and then I shall lose a pleasant surprise."
"Oh, yes; he's a trustee of these schools, you know, and he comes here often. But if I let you 'suppose' any more, you'll end up telling me your entire letter and I'll miss out on a nice surprise."
What Rebecca thought of Miss Maxwell we already know; how the teacher regarded the pupil may be gathered from the following letter written two or three months later.
What Rebecca thought of Miss Maxwell we already know; how the teacher viewed the student can be inferred from the following letter written two or three months later.
Wareham, December 1st
Wareham, December 1
My Dear Father,—As you well know, I have not always been an enthusiast on the subject of teaching. The task of cramming knowledge into these self-sufficient, inefficient youngsters of both sexes discourages me at times. The more stupid they are, the less they are aware of it. If my department were geography or mathematics, I believe I should feel that I was accomplishing something, for in those branches application and industry work wonders; but in English literature and composition one yearns for brains, for appreciation, for imagination! Month after month I toil on, opening oyster after oyster, but seldom finding a pearl. Fancy my joy this term when, without any violent effort at shell-splitting, I came upon a rare pearl; a black one, but of satin skin and beautiful lustre! Her name is Rebecca, and she looks not unlike Rebekah at the Well in our family Bible; her hair and eyes being so dark as to suggest a strain of Italian or Spanish blood. She is nobody in particular. Man has done nothing for her; she has no family to speak of, no money, no education worthy the name, has had no advantages of any sort; but Dame Nature flung herself into the breach and said:—
My Dear Father,—As you know, I haven’t always been a fan of teaching. The job of forcing knowledge into these self-sufficient, inefficient kids, both boys and girls, can be really discouraging. The more clueless they are, the less they realize it. If I were teaching geography or math, I think I’d feel like I was making progress because in those subjects, hard work pays off; but in English literature and composition, I crave intelligence, appreciation, and imagination! Month after month, I grind away, opening oyster after oyster, but rarely finding a pearl. Imagine my excitement this term when, without having to put in a ton of effort to crack shells, I discovered a rare pearl; a black one, but with a satin-like surface and beautiful shine! Her name is Rebecca, and she closely resembles Rebekah at the Well from our family Bible; her hair and eyes are so dark they hint at some Italian or Spanish heritage. She isn’t anyone special. Nobody has helped her; she doesn’t have any notable family, no money, no decent education, and hasn’t had any advantages at all; but Mother Nature stepped in and said:—
"This child I to myself will take;
She shall be mine and I will make
A Lady of my own."
"This child I will take for myself;
She will be mine and I will make
A lady of my own."
Blessed Wordsworth! How he makes us understand! And the pearl never heard of him until now! Think of reading Lucy to a class, and when you finish, seeing a fourteen-year-old pair of lips quivering with delight, and a pair of eyes brimming with comprehending tears!
Blessed Wordsworth! How he helps us understand! And the pearl never heard of him until now! Imagine reading Lucy to a class, and when you finish, seeing a fourteen-year-old’s lips quivering with delight and their eyes filled with understanding tears!
You poor darling! You, too, know the discouragement of sowing lovely seed in rocky earth, in sand, in water, and (it almost seems sometimes) in mud; knowing that if anything comes up at all it will be some poor starveling plant. Fancy the joy of finding a real mind; of dropping seed in a soil so warm, so fertile, that one knows there are sure to be foliage, blossoms, and fruit all in good time! I wish I were not so impatient and so greedy of results! I am not fit to be a teacher; no one is who is so scornful of stupidity as I am. . . . The pearl writes quaint countrified little verses, doggerel they are; but somehow or other she always contrives to put in one line, one thought, one image, that shows you she is, quite unconsciously to herself, in possession of the secret. . . . Good-by; I'll bring Rebecca home with me some Friday, and let you and mother see her for yourselves.
You poor thing! You also know the frustration of planting beautiful seeds in rocky soil, in sand, in water, and sometimes, it feels like, in mud; knowing that if anything grows at all, it will just be a struggling little plant. Imagine the joy of discovering a real mind; of planting seeds in such warm, rich soil, where you know there will definitely be leaves, flowers, and fruit in due time! I wish I weren’t so impatient and so eager for results! I’m not fit to be a teacher; no one is who is as contemptuous of ignorance as I am... The pearl writes charming little verses, they are pretty much doggerel; but somehow she always manages to include a line, one thought, or one image, that shows you she has, without even realizing it, the secret... Goodbye; I'll bring Rebecca home with me some Friday, and let you and Mom see her for yourselves.
Your affectionate daughter,
Emily.
Your loving daughter,
Emily.
XXII
CLOVER BLOSSOMS AND SUNFLOWERS
"How d' ye do, girls?" said Huldah Meserve, peeping in at the door. "Can you stop studying a minute and show me your room? Say, I've just been down to the store and bought me these gloves, for I was bound I wouldn't wear mittens this winter; they're simply too countrified. It's your first year here, and you're younger than I am, so I s'pose you don't mind, but I simply suffer if I don't keep up some kind of style. Say, your room is simply too cute for words! I don't believe any of the others can begin to compare with it! I don't know what gives it that simply gorgeous look, whether it's the full curtains, or that elegant screen, or Rebecca's lamp; but you certainly do have a faculty for fixing up. I like a pretty room too, but I never have a minute to attend to mine; I'm always so busy on my clothes that half the time I don't get my bed made up till noon; and after all, having no callers but the girls, it don't make much difference. When I graduate, I'm going to fix up our parlor at home so it'll be simply regal. I've learned decalcomania, and after I take up lustre painting I shall have it simply stiff with drapes and tidies and placques and sofa pillows, and make mother let me have a fire, and receive my friends there evenings. May I dry my feet at your register? I can't bear to wear rubbers unless the mud or the slush is simply knee-deep, they make your feet look so awfully big. I had such a fuss getting this pair of French-heeled boots that I don't intend to spoil the looks of them with rubbers any oftener than I can help. I believe boys notice feet quicker than anything. Elmer Webster stepped on one of mine yesterday when I accidentally had it out in the aisle, and when he apologized after class, he said he wasn't so much to blame, for the foot was so little he really couldn't see it! Isn't he perfectly great? Of course that's only his way of talking, for after all I only wear a number two, but these French heels and pointed toes do certainly make your foot look smaller, and it's always said a high instep helps, too. I used to think mine was almost a deformity, but they say it's a great beauty. Just put your feet beside mine, girls, and look at the difference; not that I care much, but just for fun."
"How are you doing, girls?" said Huldah Meserve, peeking in at the door. "Can you take a break from studying for a minute and show me your room? I just went to the store and bought these gloves because I was determined not to wear mittens this winter; they're way too country for me. It’s your first year here, and you’re younger than I am, so I guess you don’t mind, but I really can’t stand it if I don’t keep up some kind of style. Your room is absolutely adorable! I don’t think any of the others can even come close to it! I’m not sure what gives it that stunning look, whether it’s the full curtains, that fancy screen, or Rebecca’s lamp; but you definitely have a talent for decorating. I like a pretty room too, but I never have a moment to tend to mine; I’m always so busy with my clothes that half the time I don’t get my bed made until noon; and honestly, since I only have the girls visiting, it doesn’t matter that much anyway. When I graduate, I’m going to make our parlor at home look absolutely regal. I’ve learned decalcomania, and once I start lustre painting, I’ll have it filled with drapes, decorative items, and throw pillows, and I’ll convince my mom to let me have a fire and invite my friends over in the evenings. May I dry my feet by your register? I can't stand wearing rubbers unless the mud or slush is really deep; they make your feet look so huge. I had such a hassle getting this pair of French-heeled boots that I’m not going to ruin their look with rubbers any more than I have to. I think boys notice feet more than anything. Elmer Webster stepped on one of mine yesterday when I had it accidentally out in the aisle, and when he apologized after class, he said it wasn’t really his fault because my foot was so small he could hardly see it! Isn’t he just the best? Of course, that’s just his way of putting it; after all, I only wear a size two, but these French heels and pointy toes definitely make my foot look smaller, and it’s often said that having a high instep helps, too. I used to think mine was almost a deformity, but they say it’s a great beauty. Just put your feet next to mine, girls, and see the difference; not that I care too much, just for fun."
"My feet are very comfortable where they are," responded Rebecca dryly. "I can't stop to measure insteps on algebra days; I've noticed your habit of keeping a foot in the aisle ever since you had those new shoes, so I don't wonder it was stepped on."
"My feet are perfectly fine where they are," Rebecca replied flatly. "I can't stop to measure insteps on math days; I've seen you like to keep a foot in the aisle ever since you got those new shoes, so I’m not surprised it got stepped on."
"Perhaps I am a little mite conscious of them, because they're not so very comfortable at first, till you get them broken in. Say, haven't you got a lot of new things?"
"Maybe I'm just a bit aware of them because they're not very comfortable at first until you break them in. Hey, don't you have a lot of new stuff?"
"Our Christmas presents, you mean," said Emma Jane. "The pillow-cases are from Mrs. Cobb, the rug from cousin Mary in North Riverboro, the scrap-basket from Living and Dick. We gave each other the bureau and cushion covers, and the screen is mine from Mr. Ladd."
"Our Christmas gifts, you mean," said Emma Jane. "The pillowcases are from Mrs. Cobb, the rug is from cousin Mary in North Riverboro, and the scrap basket is from Living and Dick. We gave each other the dresser and cushion covers, and the screen is mine from Mr. Ladd."
"Well, you were lucky when you met him! Gracious! I wish I could meet somebody like that. The way he keeps it up, too! It just hides your bed, doesn't it, and I always say that a bed takes the style off any room—specially when it's not made up; though you have an alcove, and it's the only one in the whole building. I don't see how you managed to get this good room when you're such new scholars," she finished discontentedly.
"Well, you were lucky to meet him! Wow! I wish I could meet someone like that. The way he keeps it up too! It pretty much hides your bed, doesn't it? I always say that a bed takes away from the style of any room—especially when it's unmade; but you have an alcove, and it's the only one in the whole building. I don't understand how you ended up with such a nice room since you're such new students," she concluded, feeling unhappy.
"We shouldn't have, except that Ruth Berry had to go away suddenly on account of her father's death. This room was empty, and Miss Maxwell asked if we might have it," returned Emma Jane.
"We shouldn't have, but Ruth Berry had to leave unexpectedly because her father passed away. This room was empty, and Miss Maxwell asked if we could use it," replied Emma Jane.
"The great and only Max is more stiff and standoffish than ever this year," said Huldah. "I've simply given up trying to please her, for there's no justice in her; she is good to her favorites, but she doesn't pay the least attention to anybody else, except to make sarcastic speeches about things that are none of her business. I wanted to tell her yesterday it was her place to teach me Latin, not manners."
"The great and only Max is more uptight and distant than ever this year," said Huldah. "I've completely given up on trying to please her because she's completely unfair; she's nice to her favorites, but she ignores everyone else, only making sarcastic comments about things that don’t concern her. I wanted to tell her yesterday that it’s her job to teach me Latin, not how to behave."
"I wish you wouldn't talk against Miss Maxwell to me," said Rebecca hotly. "You know how I feel."
"I wish you wouldn't talk bad about Miss Maxwell to me," said Rebecca angrily. "You know how I feel."
"I know; but I can't understand how you can abide her."
"I get it; but I don't see how you can put up with her."
"I not only abide, I love her!" exclaimed Rebecca. "I wouldn't let the sun shine too hot on her, or the wind blow too cold. I'd like to put a marble platform in her class-room and have her sit in a velvet chair behind a golden table!"
"I don't just tolerate her, I love her!" Rebecca exclaimed. "I wouldn't let the sun shine too harshly on her, or the wind blow too cold. I'd like to set up a marble platform in her classroom and have her sit in a velvet chair behind a golden table!"
"Well, don't have a fit!—because she can sit where she likes for all of me; I've got something better to think of," and Huldah tossed her head.
"Well, don’t freak out!—because she can sit wherever she wants as far as I'm concerned; I've got better things to focus on," Huldah said, tossing her head.
"Isn't this your study hour?" asked Emma Jane, to stop possible discussion.
"Isn't this your study hour?" Emma Jane asked, to prevent any potential discussion.
"Yes, but I lost my Latin grammar yesterday; I left it in the hall half an hour while I was having a regular scene with Herbert Dunn. I haven't spoken to him for a week and gave him back his class pin. He was simply furious. Then when I came back to the hall, the book was gone. I had to go down town for my gloves and to the principal's office to see if the grammar had been handed in, and that's the reason I'm so fine."
"Yeah, but I lost my Latin grammar yesterday; I left it in the hallway for half an hour while I was having a big argument with Herbert Dunn. I haven’t talked to him in a week and gave him back his class pin. He was really angry. Then when I came back to the hallway, the book was missing. I had to go downtown for my gloves and to the principal's office to check if the grammar had been turned in, and that’s why I’m in such a good mood."
Huldah was wearing a woolen dress that had once been gray, but had been dyed a brilliant blue. She had added three rows of white braid and large white pearl buttons to her gray jacket, in order to make it a little more "dressy." Her gray felt hat had a white feather on it, and a white tissue veil with large black dots made her delicate skin look brilliant. Rebecca thought how lovely the knot of red hair looked under the hat behind, and how the color of the front had been dulled by incessant frizzing with curling irons. Her open jacket disclosed a galaxy of souvenirs pinned to the background of bright blue,—a small American flag, a button of the Wareham Rowing Club, and one or two society pins. These decorations proved her popularity in very much the same way as do the cotillion favors hanging on the bedroom walls of the fashionable belle. She had been pinning and unpinning, arranging and disarranging her veil ever since she entered the room, in the hope that the girls would ask her whose ring she was wearing this week; but although both had noticed the new ornament instantly, wild horses could not have drawn the question from them; her desire to be asked was too obvious. With her gay plumage, her "nods and becks and wreathed smiles," and her cheerful cackle, Huldah closely resembled the parrot in Wordsworth's poem:—
Huldah was wearing a wool dress that used to be gray but was dyed a bright blue. She had added three rows of white braid and large white pearl buttons to her gray jacket to make it a bit more "dressy." Her gray felt hat had a white feather on it, and a white veil with large black dots made her delicate skin look radiant. Rebecca thought about how lovely the knot of red hair looked under the hat at the back and how the color at the front had faded from constant curling with irons. Her open jacket revealed a collection of souvenirs pinned against the bright blue background—a small American flag, a button from the Wareham Rowing Club, and a couple of society pins. These decorations showed her popularity in a similar way to the cotillion favors hanging on the bedroom walls of the fashionable belle. She had been pinning and unpinning, arranging and rearranging her veil ever since she walked into the room, hoping the girls would ask her whose ring she was wearing this week; but although both noticed the new accessory immediately, wild horses couldn’t have dragged the question from them; her eagerness to be asked was too obvious. With her colorful outfit, her "nods and becks and wreathed smiles," and her cheerful laughter, Huldah closely resembled the parrot in Wordsworth's poem:—
"Arch, volatile, a sportive bird,
By social glee inspired;
Ambitious to be seen or heard,
And pleased to be admired!"
"Arch, unpredictable, a playful bird,
Inspired by social joy;
Eager to be noticed or heard,
And happy to be admired!"
"Mr. Morrison thinks the grammar will be returned, and lent me another," Huldah continued.
"Mr. Morrison thinks the grammar will be back, and he lent me another one," Huldah continued.
"He was rather snippy about my leaving a book in the hall. There was a perfectly elegant gentleman in the office, a stranger to me. I wish he was a new teacher, but there's no such luck. He was too young to be the father of any of the girls, and too old to be a brother, but he was handsome as a picture and had on an awful stylish suit of clothes. He looked at me about every minute I was in the room. It made me so embarrassed I couldn't hardly answer Mr. Morrison's questions straight."
"He was pretty irritable about me leaving a book in the hallway. There was a really classy guy in the office, someone I didn’t know. I hoped he was a new teacher, but no such luck. He was too young to be any of the girls' father and too old to be a brother, but he was as handsome as a model and wore a really stylish suit. He glanced at me almost every minute I was in the room. It made me so embarrassed that I could barely answer Mr. Morrison's questions properly."
"You'll have to wear a mask pretty soon, if you're going to have any comfort, Huldah," said Rebecca. "Did he offer to lend you his class pin, or has it been so long since he graduated that he's left off wearing it? And tell us now whether the principal asked for a lock of your hair to put in his watch?"
"You'll need to wear a mask pretty soon if you want any comfort, Huldah," Rebecca said. "Did he offer to lend you his class pin, or has it been so long since he graduated that he stopped wearing it? And let us know if the principal asked for a lock of your hair to keep in his watch?"
This was all said merrily and laughingly, but there were times when Huldah could scarcely make up her mind whether Rebecca was trying to be witty, or whether she was jealous; but she generally decided it was merely the latter feeling, rather natural in a girl who had little attention.
This was all said cheerfully and with laughter, but there were moments when Huldah could hardly figure out if Rebecca was trying to be funny or if she was jealous. Ultimately, she usually concluded it was just the latter feeling, quite understandable in a girl who received little attention.
"He wore no jewelry but a cameo scarf pin and a perfectly gorgeous ring,—a queer kind of one that wound round and round his finger. Oh dear, I must run! Where has the hour gone? There's the study bell!"
"He didn’t wear any jewelry except for a cameo scarf pin and a stunning ring—it was a strange one that wrapped around his finger. Oh no, I have to go! Where did the time go? There’s the study bell!"
Rebecca had pricked up her ears at Huldah's speech. She remembered a certain strange ring, and it belonged to the only person in the world (save Miss Maxwell) who appealed to her imagination,—Mr. Aladdin. Her feeling for him, and that of Emma Jane, was a mixture of romantic and reverent admiration for the man himself and the liveliest gratitude for his beautiful gifts. Since they first met him not a Christmas had gone by without some remembrance for them both; remembrances chosen with the rarest taste and forethought. Emma Jane had seen him only twice, but he had called several times at the brick house, and Rebecca had learned to know him better. It was she, too, who always wrote the notes of acknowledgment and thanks, taking infinite pains to make Emma Jane's quite different from her own. Sometimes he had written from Boston and asked her the news of Riverboro, and she had sent him pages of quaint and childlike gossip, interspersed, on two occasions, with poetry, which he read and reread with infinite relish. If Huldah's stranger should be Mr. Aladdin, would he come to see her, and could she and Emma Jane show him their beautiful room with so many of his gifts in evidence?
Rebecca perked up at Huldah's words. She remembered a certain strange ring that belonged to the one person in the world (besides Miss Maxwell) who captured her imagination—Mr. Aladdin. Her feelings for him, along with Emma Jane's, were a mix of romantic and deep admiration for the man himself, along with immense gratitude for his beautiful gifts. Ever since they first met him, not a Christmas had passed without some token for both of them; gifts chosen with exceptional taste and thoughtfulness. Emma Jane had only seen him twice, but he had visited the brick house several times, and Rebecca had come to know him better. She was also the one who always wrote the thank-you notes, making sure Emma Jane's were quite different from her own. Sometimes he wrote from Boston, asking her about the news in Riverboro, and she replied with pages of quirky and innocent gossip, on two occasions even including poetry, which he thoroughly enjoyed reading and rereading. If Huldah's stranger turned out to be Mr. Aladdin, would he come to visit her, and could she and Emma Jane show him their beautiful room filled with so many of his gifts?
When the girls had established themselves in Wareham as real boarding pupils, it seemed to them existence was as full of joy as it well could hold. This first winter was, in fact, the most tranquilly happy of Rebecca's school life,—a winter long to be looked back upon. She and Emma Jane were room-mates, and had put their modest possessions together to make their surroundings pretty and homelike. The room had, to begin with, a cheerful red ingrain carpet and a set of maple furniture. As to the rest, Rebecca had furnished the ideas and Emma Jane the materials and labor, a method of dividing responsibilities that seemed to suit the circumstances admirably. Mrs. Perkins's father had been a storekeeper, and on his death had left the goods of which he was possessed to his married daughter. The molasses, vinegar, and kerosene had lasted the family for five years, and the Perkins attic was still a treasure-house of ginghams, cottons, and "Yankee notions." So at Rebecca's instigation Mrs. Perkins had made full curtains and lambrequins of unbleached muslin, which she had trimmed and looped back with bands of Turkey red cotton. There were two table covers to match, and each of the girls had her study corner. Rebecca, after much coaxing, had been allowed to bring over her precious lamp, which would have given a luxurious air to any apartment, and when Mr. Aladdin's last Christmas presents were added,—the Japanese screen for Emma Jane and the little shelf of English Poets for Rebecca,—they declared that it was all quite as much fun as being married and going to housekeeping.
When the girls settled in Wareham as real boarding students, they felt their lives were as filled with joy as possible. This first winter was, in fact, the happiest and most peaceful of Rebecca's school life—a winter they would fondly remember. She and Emma Jane were roommates and pooled their modest belongings to make their space pretty and cozy. The room featured a cheerful red ingrain carpet and a set of maple furniture. As for the rest, Rebecca came up with the ideas and Emma Jane provided the materials and labor, a way of splitting responsibilities that worked perfectly for them. Mrs. Perkins's father had been a storekeeper, and when he passed away, he left his merchandise to his married daughter. The molasses, vinegar, and kerosene lasted the family for five years, and the Perkins attic was still a treasure trove of ginghams, cottons, and "Yankee notions." So, at Rebecca's suggestion, Mrs. Perkins made full curtains and lambrequins out of unbleached muslin, which she trimmed and looped back with bands of Turkey red cotton. There were matching table covers, and each girl had her own study corner. After much convincing, Rebecca was allowed to bring her cherished lamp, which would have made any room feel luxurious, and when Mr. Aladdin's last Christmas gifts were added—the Japanese screen for Emma Jane and the little shelf of English Poets for Rebecca—they declared it was just as much fun as being married and starting a home together.
The day of Huldah's call was Friday, and on Fridays from three to half past four Rebecca was free to take a pleasure to which she looked forward the entire week. She always ran down the snowy path through the pine woods at the back of the seminary, and coming out on a quiet village street, went directly to the large white house where Miss Maxwell lived. The maid-of-all-work answered her knock; she took off her hat and cape and hung them in the hall, put her rubber shoes and umbrella carefully in the corner, and then opened the door of paradise. Miss Maxwell's sitting-room was lined on two sides with bookshelves, and Rebecca was allowed to sit before the fire and browse among the books to her heart's delight for an hour or more. Then Miss Maxwell would come back from her class, and there would be a precious half hour of chat before Rebecca had to meet Emma Jane at the station and take the train for Riverboro, where her Saturdays and Sundays were spent, and where she was washed, ironed, mended, and examined, approved and reproved, warned and advised in quite sufficient quantity to last her the succeeding week.
The day Huldah called was Friday, and on Fridays from three to four-thirty, Rebecca could enjoy something she looked forward to all week. She always ran down the snowy path through the pine woods behind the seminary, and when she reached a quiet village street, she went straight to the big white house where Miss Maxwell lived. The maid answered her knock; Rebecca took off her hat and cape, hung them in the hall, carefully placed her rubber shoes and umbrella in the corner, and then opened the door to paradise. Miss Maxwell’s sitting room was lined with bookshelves on two sides, and Rebecca was allowed to sit by the fire and browse among the books to her heart’s content for an hour or more. Then Miss Maxwell would return from her class, and they would have a precious half hour to chat before Rebecca had to meet Emma Jane at the station and take the train to Riverboro, where she spent her Saturdays and Sundays, getting washed, ironed, mended, examined, approved, reproved, warned, and advised in just the right amount to last her through the week.
On this Friday she buried her face in the blooming geraniums on Miss Maxwell's plant-stand, selected Romola from one of the bookcases, and sank into a seat by the window with a sigh of infinite content, She glanced at the clock now and then, remembering the day on which she had been so immersed in David Copperfield that the Riverboro train had no place in her mind. The distracted Emma Jane had refused to leave without her, and had run from the station to look for her at Miss Maxwell's. There was but one later train, and that went only to a place three miles the other side of Riverboro, so that the two girls appeared at their respective homes long after dark, having had a weary walk in the snow.
On this Friday, she buried her face in the blooming geraniums on Miss Maxwell's plant stand, picked Romola from one of the bookcases, and sank into a seat by the window with a sigh of complete contentment. She glanced at the clock now and then, recalling the day she had been so absorbed in David Copperfield that she completely forgot about the Riverboro train. The distracted Emma Jane had refused to leave without her and had run from the station to look for her at Miss Maxwell's. There was only one later train, and that one only went to a spot three miles past Riverboro, so the two girls arrived home long after dark, having endured a long walk in the snow.
When she had read for half an hour she glanced out of the window and saw two figures issuing from the path through the woods. The knot of bright hair and the coquettish hat could belong to but one person; and her companion, as the couple approached, proved to be none other than Mr. Aladdin. Huldah was lifting her skirts daintily and picking safe stepping-places for the high-heeled shoes, her cheeks glowing, her eyes sparkling under the black and white veil.
When she had read for half an hour, she looked out the window and saw two figures coming from the path through the woods. The bright hair and flirty hat could only belong to one person, and as they got closer, her companion turned out to be none other than Mr. Aladdin. Huldah was carefully lifting her skirts and choosing safe places to step for her high-heeled shoes, her cheeks flushed and her eyes sparkling under the black and white veil.
Rebecca slipped from her post by the window to the rug before the bright fire and leaned her head on the seat of the great easy-chair. She was frightened at the storm in her heart; at the suddenness with which it had come on, as well as at the strangeness of an entirely new sensation. She felt all at once as if she could not bear to give up her share of Mr. Aladdin's friendship to Huldah: Huldah so bright, saucy, and pretty; so gay and ready, and such good company! She had always joyfully admitted Emma Jane into the precious partnership, but perhaps unconsciously to herself she had realized that Emma Jane had never held anything but a secondary place in Mr. Aladdin's regard; yet who was she herself, after all, that she could hope to be first?
Rebecca slipped away from her spot by the window to the rug in front of the bright fire and rested her head on the seat of the big armchair. She was scared by the turmoil in her heart; by how suddenly it had hit her, as well as by the strangeness of feeling something entirely new. Suddenly, she felt like she couldn’t bear to lose her part of Mr. Aladdin's friendship to Huldah: Huldah, so bright, cheeky, and pretty; so cheerful and fun, and such great company! She had always happily included Emma Jane in their special friendship, but maybe, without realizing it, she had known that Emma Jane never held more than a secondary place in Mr. Aladdin's eyes; yet who was she, after all, to think she could be number one?
Suddenly the door opened softly and somebody looked in, somebody who said: "Miss Maxwell told me I should find Miss Rebecca Randall here."
Suddenly, the door opened quietly and someone peeked in, someone who said, "Miss Maxwell told me I should find Miss Rebecca Randall here."
Rebecca started at the sound and sprang to her feet, saying joyfully, "Mr. Aladdin! Oh! I knew you were in Wareham, and I was afraid you wouldn't have time to come and see us."
Rebecca jumped at the sound and got to her feet, saying excitedly, "Mr. Aladdin! Oh! I knew you were in Wareham, and I was worried you wouldn't have time to come visit us."
"Who is 'us'? The aunts are not here, are they? Oh, you mean the rich blacksmith's daughter, whose name I can never remember. Is she here?"
"Who is 'us'? The aunts aren't here, right? Oh, you mean the wealthy blacksmith's daughter, whose name I can never seem to remember. Is she here?"
"Yes, and my room-mate," answered Rebecca, who thought her own knell of doom had sounded, if he had forgotten Emma Jane's name.
"Yeah, and my roommate," replied Rebecca, who felt like her own doom was near if he had forgotten Emma Jane's name.
The light in the room grew softer, the fire crackled cheerily, and they talked of many things, until the old sweet sense of friendliness and familiarity crept back into Rebecca's heart. Adam had not seen her for several months, and there was much to be learned about school matters as viewed from her own standpoint; he had already inquired concerning her progress from Mr. Morrison.
The light in the room became warmer, the fire crackled happily, and they chatted about various topics until the familiar feeling of friendship returned to Rebecca's heart. Adam hadn't seen her in a few months, and there was a lot to catch up on regarding school from her perspective; he had already asked Mr. Morrison about her progress.
"Well, little Miss Rebecca," he said, rousing himself at length, "I must be thinking of my drive to Portland. There is a meeting of railway directors there to-morrow, and I always take this opportunity of visiting the school and giving my valuable advice concerning its affairs, educational and financial."
"Well, little Miss Rebecca," he said, finally waking up, "I need to think about my drive to Portland. There's a meeting of railway directors there tomorrow, and I always take this chance to visit the school and share my valuable advice on its educational and financial matters."
"It seems funny for you to be a school trustee," said Rebecca contemplatively. "I can't seem to make it fit."
"It seems funny for you to be a school trustee," Rebecca said, thinking it over. "I can’t seem to make it work."
"You are a remarkably wise young person and I quite agree with you," he answered; "the fact is," he added soberly, "I accepted the trusteeship in memory of my poor little mother, whose last happy years were spent here."
"You are really a wise young person, and I completely agree with you," he said. "The truth is," he added seriously, "I took on the role of trustee to honor my dear mother, whose last happy years were spent here."
"That was a long time ago!"
"That was a long time ago!"
"Let me see, I am thirty-two; only thirty-two, despite an occasional gray hair. My mother was married a month after she graduated, and she lived only until I was ten; yes, it is a long way back to my mother's time here, though the school was fifteen or twenty years old then, I believe. Would you like to see my mother, Miss Rebecca?"
"Let me think, I'm thirty-two; just thirty-two, even with the occasional gray hair. My mom got married a month after she graduated, and she passed away when I was ten; yeah, that feels like ages ago, back to my mom's time here, even though the school was only fifteen or twenty years old then, I think. Do you want to see my mom, Miss Rebecca?"
The girl took the leather case gently and opened it to find an innocent, pink-and-white daisy of a face, so confiding, so sensitive, that it went straight to the heart. It made Rebecca feel old, experienced, and maternal. She longed on the instant to comfort and strengthen such a tender young thing.
The girl picked up the leather case carefully and opened it to reveal a sweet, pink-and-white daisy of a face, so trusting and delicate that it touched her heart immediately. It made Rebecca feel mature, experienced, and nurturing. In that moment, she felt a strong desire to comfort and protect such a fragile young thing.
"Oh, what a sweet, sweet, flowery face!" she whispered softly.
"Oh, what a sweet, sweet, flowery face!" she whispered gently.
"The flower had to bear all sorts of storms," said Adam gravely. "The bitter weather of the world bent its slender stalk, bowed its head, and dragged it to the earth. I was only a child and could do nothing to protect and nourish it, and there was no one else to stand between it and trouble. Now I have success and money and power, all that would have kept her alive and happy, and it is too late. She died for lack of love and care, nursing and cherishing, and I can never forget it. All that has come to me seems now and then so useless, since I cannot share it with her!"
"The flower had to endure all kinds of storms," Adam said seriously. "The harsh conditions of the world bent its delicate stem, lowered its head, and pulled it down to the ground. I was just a kid and couldn’t do anything to protect and nurture it, and there was no one else to shield it from harm. Now I have success, money, and power—all the things that could have kept her alive and happy—and it’s too late. She died from a lack of love and care, nurturing and warmth, and I can never forget that. Everything I’ve achieved sometimes feels so pointless since I can’t share it with her!"
This was a new Mr. Aladdin, and Rebecca's heart gave a throb of sympathy and comprehension. This explained the tired look in his eyes, the look that peeped out now and then, under all his gay speech and laughter.
This was a different Mr. Aladdin, and Rebecca felt a surge of sympathy and understanding. It explained the weary look in his eyes, the one that occasionally surfaced beneath all his cheerful talk and laughter.
"I'm so glad I know," she said, "and so glad I could see her just as she was when she tied that white muslin hat under her chin and saw her yellow curls and her sky-blue eyes in the glass. Mustn't she have been happy! I wish she could have been kept so, and had lived to see you grow up strong and good. My mother is always sad and busy, but once when she looked at John I heard her say, 'He makes up for everything.' That's what your mother would have thought about you if she had lived, and perhaps she does as it is."
"I'm so happy I know," she said, "and so happy I could see her just as she was when she tied that white muslin hat under her chin and saw her yellow curls and her sky-blue eyes in the mirror. She must have been so happy! I wish she could have stayed like that and lived to see you grow up strong and good. My mom is always sad and busy, but once when she looked at John, I heard her say, 'He makes up for everything.' That's what your mom would have thought about you if she had lived, and maybe she still thinks that way."
"You are a comforting little person, Rebecca," said Adam, rising from his chair.
"You’re such a comforting little person, Rebecca," Adam said, getting up from his chair.
As Rebecca rose, the tears still trembling on her lashes, he looked at her suddenly as with new vision.
As Rebecca got up, the tears still quivering on her lashes, he suddenly looked at her as if seeing her for the first time.
"Good-by!" he said, taking her slim brown hands in his, adding, as if he saw her for the first time, "Why, little Rose-Red-Snow-White is making way for a new girl! Burning the midnight oil and doing four years' work in three is supposed to dull the eye and blanch the cheek, yet Rebecca's eyes are bright and she has a rosy color! Her long braids are looped one on the other so that they make a black letter U behind, and they are tied with grand bows at the top! She is so tall that she reaches almost to my shoulder. This will never do in the world! How will Mr. Aladdin get on without his comforting little friend! He doesn't like grown-up young ladies in long trains and wonderful fine clothes; they frighten and bore him!"
"Goodbye!" he said, taking her slim brown hands in his. Then, as if seeing her for the first time, he added, "Wow, little Rose-Red-Snow-White is making way for a new girl! Staying up late and cramming four years of work into three is supposed to dull your eyes and wash out your complexion, yet Rebecca's eyes are bright and she has a healthy glow! Her long braids are styled one on top of the other, forming a black letter U behind her, and they’re tied with fancy bows at the top! She's so tall that she almost reaches my shoulder. This won't work at all! How will Mr. Aladdin manage without his comforting little friend? He doesn’t like grown women in long trains and fancy clothes; they frighten and bore him!"
"Oh, Mr. Aladdin!" cried Rebecca eagerly, taking his jest quite seriously; "I am not fifteen yet, and it will be three years before I'm a young lady; please don't give me up until you have to!"
"Oh, Mr. Aladdin!" Rebecca exclaimed eagerly, taking his joke seriously. "I'm not even fifteen yet, and it’ll be three years before I’m a young lady. Please don’t give up on me until you absolutely have to!"
"I won't; I promise you that," said Adam. "Rebecca," he continued, after a moment's pause, "who is that young girl with a lot of pretty red hair and very citified manners? She escorted me down the hill; do you know whom I mean?"
"I won't; I promise you that," Adam said. "Rebecca," he continued after a brief pause, "who is that young girl with the beautiful red hair and very sophisticated manners? She walked with me down the hill; do you know who I'm talking about?"
"It must be Huldah Meserve; she is from Riverboro."
"It must be Huldah Meserve; she's from Riverboro."
Adam put a finger under Rebecca's chin and looked into her eyes; eyes as soft, as clear, as unconscious, and childlike as they had been when she was ten. He remembered the other pair of challenging blue ones that had darted coquettish glances through half-dropped lids, shot arrowy beams from under archly lifted brows, and said gravely, "Don't form yourself on her, Rebecca; clover blossoms that grow in the fields beside Sunnybrook mustn't be tied in the same bouquet with gaudy sunflowers; they are too sweet and fragrant and wholesome."
Adam lifted Rebecca's chin with his finger and gazed into her eyes; eyes that were as soft, clear, innocent, and childlike as they had been when she was ten. He remembered another pair of challenging blue eyes that had flirted with coy glances from beneath partially closed lids, shot sharp looks from beneath playfully raised brows, and said seriously, "Don't try to be like her, Rebecca; clover blossoms that grow in the fields next to Sunnybrook shouldn’t be mixed in the same bouquet with flashy sunflowers; they’re too sweet, fragrant, and wholesome."
XXIII
THE HILL DIFFICULTY
The first happy year at Wareham, with its widened sky-line, its larger vision, its greater opportunity, was over and gone. Rebecca had studied during the summer vacation, and had passed, on her return in the autumn, certain examinations which would enable her, if she carried out the same programme the next season, to complete the course in three instead of four years. She came off with no flying colors,—that would have been impossible in consideration of her inadequate training; but she did wonderfully well in some of the required subjects, and so brilliantly in others that the average was respectable. She would never have been a remarkable scholar under any circumstances, perhaps, and she was easily out-stripped in mathematics and the natural sciences by a dozen girls, but in some inexplicable way she became, as the months went on, the foremost figure in the school. When she had entirely forgotten the facts which would enable her to answer a question fully and conclusively, she commonly had some original theory to expound; it was not always correct, but it was generally unique and sometimes amusing. She was only fair in Latin or French grammar, but when it came to translation, her freedom, her choice of words, and her sympathetic understanding of the spirit of the text made her the delight of her teachers and the despair of her rivals.
The first happy year at Wareham, with its broader skyline, bigger vision, and greater opportunities, was over. Rebecca had studied during the summer break and returned in the fall having passed certain exams that would allow her to finish the course in three years instead of four if she followed the same plan next season. She didn’t come away with top marks—considering her limited training, that would have been impossible—but she did quite well in some required subjects, and excelled in others enough that her overall average was decent. She probably wouldn’t have been an outstanding student in any situation, and she was easily outperformed in math and the natural sciences by a dozen other girls, yet in some inexplicable way, she became the leading figure in the school as the months passed. When she completely forgot the facts that would let her answer a question thoroughly, she often had some original theory to share; it wasn’t always right, but it was usually unique and sometimes entertaining. She was average at Latin and French grammar, but when it came to translation, her creativity, word choices, and her deep understanding of the text’s spirit made her a favorite among her teachers and a challenge for her rivals.
"She can be perfectly ignorant of a subject," said Miss Maxwell to Adam Ladd, "but entirely intelligent the moment she has a clue. Most of the other girls are full of information and as stupid as sheep."
"She can be totally clueless about a topic," Miss Maxwell said to Adam Ladd, "but completely sharp as soon as she gets a hint. Most of the other girls know a lot but are as dumb as sheep."
Rebecca's gifts had not been discovered save by the few, during the first year, when she was adjusting herself quietly to the situation. She was distinctly one of the poorer girls; she had no fine dresses to attract attention, no visitors, no friends in the town. She had more study hours, and less time, therefore, for the companionship of other girls, gladly as she would have welcomed the gayety of that side of school life. Still, water will find its own level in some way, and by the spring of the second year she had naturally settled into the same sort of leadership which had been hers in the smaller community of Riverboro. She was unanimously elected assistant editor of the Wareham School Pilot, being the first girl to assume that enviable, though somewhat arduous and thankless position, and when her maiden number went to the Cobbs, uncle Jerry and aunt Sarah could hardly eat or sleep for pride.
Rebecca's talents had only been noticed by a few during her first year, as she quietly adjusted to her new surroundings. She was clearly one of the poorer girls; she didn't have fancy dresses to draw attention, no visitors, and no friends in town. She spent more time studying, leaving her with less time to socialize with other girls, even though she would have loved the fun side of school life. Still, things have a way of balancing out, and by the spring of her second year, she naturally took on a similar leadership role as she had in the smaller community of Riverboro. She was unanimously elected as the assistant editor of the Wareham School Pilot, becoming the first girl to take on that coveted, though somewhat challenging and thankless, position. When her first issue was sent to the Cobbs, Uncle Jerry and Aunt Sarah were so filled with pride that they could hardly eat or sleep.
"She'll always get votes," said Huldah Meserve, when discussing the election, "for whether she knows anything or not, she looks as if she did, and whether she's capable of filling an office or not, she looks as if she was. I only wish I was tall and dark and had the gift of making people believe I was great things, like Rebecca Randall. There's one thing: though the boys call her handsome, you notice they don't trouble her with much attention."
"She'll always get votes," said Huldah Meserve, discussing the election, "because whether she knows anything or not, she looks like she does, and whether she's capable of holding a position or not, she looks like she is. I just wish I were tall and dark and had the talent for making people believe I was something special, like Rebecca Randall. One thing's for sure: even though the guys call her pretty, you can tell they don't pay her much attention."
It was a fact that Rebecca's attitude towards the opposite sex was still somewhat indifferent and oblivious, even for fifteen and a half! No one could look at her and doubt that she had potentialities of attraction latent within her somewhere, but that side of her nature was happily biding its time. A human being is capable only of a certain amount of activity at a given moment, and it will inevitably satisfy first its most pressing needs, its most ardent desires, its chief ambitions. Rebecca was full of small anxieties and fears, for matters were not going well at the brick house and were anything but hopeful at the home farm. She was overbusy and overtaxed, and her thoughts were naturally drawn towards the difficult problems of daily living.
It was clear that Rebecca's attitude toward guys was still a bit indifferent and unaware, even at fifteen and a half! No one could look at her and doubt that she had the potential for attraction hidden somewhere inside her, but that part of her personality was happily waiting for the right moment. A person can only handle so much at one time, and they’ll naturally focus on their most urgent needs, strongest desires, and biggest goals first. Rebecca was filled with small worries and fears, as things weren’t going well at the brick house and looked anything but hopeful at the home farm. She was overwhelmed and stressed, and her thoughts were understandably occupied with the tough challenges of everyday life.
It had seemed to her during the autumn and winter of that year as if her aunt Miranda had never been, save at the very first, so censorious and so fault-finding. One Saturday Rebecca ran upstairs and, bursting into a flood of tears, exclaimed, "Aunt Jane, it seems as if I never could stand her continual scoldings. Nothing I can do suits aunt Miranda; she's just said it will take me my whole life to get the Randall out of me, and I'm not convinced that I want it all out, so there we are!"
It felt to her during that autumn and winter as if her aunt Miranda had always been nothing but critical and hard to please. One Saturday, Rebecca ran upstairs and, breaking down in tears, shouted, "Aunt Jane, I feel like I can't handle her constant nagging anymore. Nothing I do makes aunt Miranda happy; she just said it will take me my whole life to get the Randall out of me, and honestly, I'm not sure I even want it all gone, so here we are!"
Aunt Jane, never demonstrative, cried with Rebecca as she attempted to soothe her.
Aunt Jane, who was never one to show her feelings, cried with Rebecca as she tried to comfort her.
"You must be patient," she said, wiping first her own eyes and then Rebecca's. "I haven't told you, for it isn't fair you should be troubled when you're studying so hard, but your aunt Miranda isn't well. One Monday morning about a month ago, she had a kind of faint spell; it wasn't bad, but the doctor is afraid it was a shock, and if so, it's the beginning of the end. Seems to me she's failing right along, and that's what makes her so fretful and easy vexed. She has other troubles too, that you don't know anything about, and if you're not kind to your aunt Miranda now, child, you'll be dreadful sorry some time."
"You need to be patient," she said, first wiping her own tears and then Rebecca's. "I haven't told you this because it wouldn't be fair to worry you while you're studying so hard, but your Aunt Miranda isn't doing well. About a month ago, one Monday morning, she had a fainting spell; it wasn't serious, but the doctor thinks it was a shock, and if that's the case, it could be the beginning of the end. She seems to be declining gradually, and that's making her irritable and easily upset. She has other issues too that you don't know about, and if you're not kind to your Aunt Miranda right now, dear, you'll really regret it later."
All the temper faded from Rebecca's face, and she stopped crying to say penitently, "Oh! the poor dear thing! I won't mind a bit what she says now. She's just asked me for some milk toast and I was dreading to take it to her, but this will make everything different. Don't worry yet, aunt Jane, for perhaps it won't be as bad as you think."
All the anger went away from Rebecca's face, and she stopped crying to say regretfully, "Oh! the poor dear! I won’t mind at all what she says now. She just asked me for some milk toast, and I was really worried about bringing it to her, but this changes everything. Don’t worry yet, Aunt Jane, because maybe it won’t be as bad as you think."
So when she carried the toast to her aunt a little later, it was in the best gilt-edged china bowl, with a fringed napkin on the tray and a sprig of geranium lying across the salt cellar.
So when she brought the toast to her aunt a little later, it was in the finest gilt-edged china bowl, with a fringed napkin on the tray and a sprig of geranium resting on the salt cellar.
"Now, aunt Miranda," she said cheerily, "I expect you to smack your lips and say this is good; it's not Randall, but Sawyer milk toast."
"Now, Aunt Miranda," she said happily, "I expect you to smack your lips and say this is good; it's not Randall, but Sawyer milk toast."
"You've tried all kinds on me, one time an' another," Miranda answered. "This tastes real kind o' good; but I wish you hadn't wasted that nice geranium."
"You've tried all sorts of things on me, over and over," Miranda replied. "This tastes really good; but I wish you hadn't wasted that nice geranium."
"You can't tell what's wasted," said Rebecca philosophically; "perhaps that geranium has been hoping this long time it could brighten somebody's supper, so don't disappoint it by making believe you don't like it. I've seen geraniums cry,—in the very early morning!"
"You can't tell what's wasted," Rebecca said thoughtfully. "Maybe that geranium has been hoping for a long time that it could brighten someone’s dinner, so don’t let it down by pretending you don’t like it. I've seen geraniums cry—in the early morning!"
The mysterious trouble to which Jane had alluded was a very real one, but it was held in profound secrecy. Twenty-five hundred dollars of the small Sawyer property had been invested in the business of a friend of their father's, and had returned them a regular annual income of a hundred dollars. The family friend had been dead for some five years, but his son had succeeded to his interests and all went on as formerly. Suddenly there came a letter saying that the firm had gone into bankruptcy, that the business had been completely wrecked, and that the Sawyer money had been swept away with everything else.
The mysterious issue Jane had mentioned was very real, but it was kept completely secret. Two thousand five hundred dollars from the small Sawyer property had been invested in a friend of their father's business, which provided a steady annual income of a hundred dollars. The family friend had passed away about five years ago, but his son took over his interests, and everything continued as usual. Then, out of nowhere, they received a letter stating that the firm had gone bankrupt, that the business had been totally ruined, and that the Sawyer's money had been lost along with everything else.
The loss of one hundred dollars a year is a very trifling matter, but it made all the difference between comfort and self-denial to the two old spinsters Their manner of life had been so rigid and careful that it was difficult to economize any further, and the blow had fallen just when it was most inconvenient, for Rebecca's school and boarding expenses, small as they were, had to be paid promptly and in cash.
The loss of one hundred dollars a year is a small issue, but it made a big difference between comfort and going without for the two elderly women. Their way of living had been so strict and careful that it was hard to cut back any more, and the setback came at the worst time, since Rebecca's school and boarding expenses, though minimal, needed to be paid on time and in cash.
"Can we possibly go on doing it? Shan't we have to give up and tell her why?" asked Jane tearfully of the elder sister.
"Can we really keep doing this? Shouldn't we just give up and tell her why?" Jane asked tearfully to her older sister.
"We have put our hand to the plough, and we can't turn back," answered Miranda in her grimmest tone; "we've taken her away from her mother and offered her an education, and we've got to keep our word. She's Aurelia's only hope for years to come, to my way o' thinkin'. Hannah's beau takes all her time 'n' thought, and when she gits a husband her mother'll be out o' sight and out o' mind. John, instead of farmin', thinks he must be a doctor,—as if folks wasn't gettin' unhealthy enough these days, without turnin' out more young doctors to help 'em into their graves. No, Jane; we'll skimp 'n' do without, 'n' plan to git along on our interest money somehow, but we won't break into our principal, whatever happens."
"We’ve started something we can’t back out of," Miranda replied in her sternest tone. "We’ve taken her away from her mother and given her an education, so we have to keep our promise. She’s Aurelia’s only hope for the years ahead, in my opinion. Hannah’s boyfriend occupies all her time and thoughts, and once she gets married, her mother will be forgotten. John, instead of farming, thinks he needs to be a doctor—as if people aren’t unhealthy enough these days without adding more young doctors to help send them to their graves. No, Jane; we’ll cut back and manage on our interest money somehow, but we won’t touch our principal, no matter what."
"Breaking into the principal" was, in the minds of most thrifty New England women, a sin only second to arson, theft, or murder; and, though the rule was occasionally carried too far for common sense,—as in this case, where two elderly women of sixty might reasonably have drawn something from their little hoard in time of special need,—it doubtless wrought more of good than evil in the community.
"Breaking into the principal" was, in the minds of most frugal New England women, a sin only second to arson, theft, or murder; and, although the rule was sometimes taken too far for common sense—like in this case, where two elderly women in their sixties might fairly have taken something from their small savings in a time of special need—it definitely produced more good than harm in the community.
Rebecca, who knew nothing of their business affairs, merely saw her aunts grow more and more saving, pinching here and there, cutting off this and that relentlessly. Less meat and fish were bought; the woman who had lately been coming two days a week for washing, ironing, and scrubbing was dismissed; the old bonnets of the season before were brushed up and retrimmed; there were no drives to Moderation or trips to Portland. Economy was carried to its very extreme; but though Miranda was well-nigh as gloomy and uncompromising in her manner and conversation as a woman could well be, she at least never twitted her niece of being a burden; so Rebecca's share of the Sawyers' misfortunes consisted only in wearing her old dresses, hats, and jackets, without any apparent hope of a change.
Rebecca, who was clueless about their financial situation, just watched her aunts become more and more frugal, cutting back on everything relentlessly. They bought less meat and fish; the woman who had been coming in twice a week for washing, ironing, and cleaning was let go; last season’s old bonnets were cleaned up and re-styled; there were no trips to Moderation or Portland. They took saving to the extreme; but even though Miranda was almost as grim and stubborn in her demeanor and conversation as anyone could be, she never made Rebecca feel like a burden. So, Rebecca’s share of the Sawyers’ troubles only meant wearing her old dresses, hats, and jackets, with no clear hope for a change.
There was, however, no concealing the state of things at Sunnybrook, where chapters of accidents had unfolded themselves in a sort of serial story that had run through the year. The potato crop had failed; there were no apples to speak of; the hay had been poor; Aurelia had turns of dizziness in her head; Mark had broken his ankle. As this was his fourth offense, Miranda inquired how many bones there were in the human body, "so 't they'd know when Mark got through breakin' 'em." The time for paying the interest on the mortgage, that incubus that had crushed all the joy out of the Randall household, had come and gone, and there was no possibility, for the first time in fourteen years, of paying the required forty-eight dollars. The only bright spot in the horizon was Hannah's engagement to Will Melville,—a young farmer whose land joined Sunnybrook, who had a good house, was alone in the world, and his own master. Hannah was so satisfied with her own unexpectedly radiant prospects that she hardly realized her mother's anxieties; for there are natures which flourish, in adversity, and deteriorate when exposed to sudden prosperity. She had made a visit of a week at the brick house; and Miranda's impression, conveyed in privacy to Jane, was that Hannah was close as the bark of a tree, and consid'able selfish too; that when she'd clim' as fur as she could in the world, she'd kick the ladder out from under her, everlastin' quick; that, on being sounded as to her ability to be of use to the younger children in the future, she said she guessed she'd done her share a'ready, and she wan't goin' to burden Will with her poor relations. "She's Susan Randall through and through!" ejaculated Miranda. "I was glad to see her face turned towards Temperance. If that mortgage is ever cleared from the farm, 't won't be Hannah that'll do it; it'll be Rebecca or me!"
There was no hiding the situation at Sunnybrook, where a series of unfortunate events had played out like a continuous story throughout the year. The potato crop had failed; there were hardly any apples; the hay yield was poor; Aurelia had been experiencing dizzy spells; Mark had broken his ankle again. Since this was his fourth injury, Miranda wondered how many bones were in the human body, “so they’d know when Mark was done breaking them.” The time to pay the interest on the mortgage—the burden that had drained all joy from the Randall household—had come and gone, and for the first time in fourteen years, they couldn’t come up with the required forty-eight dollars. The one bright spot on the horizon was Hannah's engagement to Will Melville, a young farmer whose land bordered Sunnybrook. He had a nice house, was on his own, and was his own boss. Hannah was so thrilled with her unexpectedly bright future that she barely noticed her mother's worries. Some people thrive in tough times but struggle with sudden good fortune. She had been away visiting for a week at the brick house, and Miranda privately shared with Jane that Hannah was as closed-off as tree bark and quite selfish too; that once she climbed as high as she could in the world, she’d kick the ladder out from under her in a heartbeat; when asked about her ability to help the younger kids in the future, she said she figured she’d already done her part and wasn’t going to burden Will with her poor relatives. “She’s Susan Randall through and through!” Miranda exclaimed. “I was glad to see her focusing on Temperance. If that mortgage ever gets cleared from the farm, it won’t be Hannah who does it; it’ll be Rebecca or me!”
XXIV
ALADDIN RUBS HIS LAMP
"Your esteemed contribution entitled Wareham Wildflowers has been accepted for The Pilot, Miss Perkins," said Rebecca, entering the room where Emma Jane was darning the firm's stockings. "I stayed to tea with Miss Maxwell, but came home early to tell you."
"Your respected contribution titled Wareham Wildflowers has been accepted for The Pilot, Miss Perkins," Rebecca said as she entered the room where Emma Jane was mending the company's stockings. "I stayed for tea with Miss Maxwell, but I came home early to let you know."
"You are joking, Becky!" faltered Emma Jane, looking up from her work.
"You've got to be kidding, Becky!" Emma Jane said hesitantly, looking up from her work.
"Not a bit; the senior editor read it and thought it highly instructive; it appears in the next issue."
"Not at all; the senior editor read it and found it very informative; it will be in the next issue."
"Not in the same number with your poem about the golden gates that close behind us when we leave school?"—and Emma Jane held her breath as she awaited the reply.
"Not in the same way as your poem about the golden gates that shut behind us when we leave school?"—and Emma Jane held her breath as she waited for the answer.
"Even so, Miss Perkins."
"Still, Miss Perkins."
"Rebecca," said Emma Jane, with the nearest approach to tragedy that her nature would permit, "I don't know as I shall be able to bear it, and if anything happens to me, I ask you solemnly to bury that number of The Pilot with me."
"Rebecca," said Emma Jane, trying to be as serious as she could, "I don’t know if I can handle this, and if anything happens to me, I seriously ask you to bury that issue of The Pilot with me."
Rebecca did not seem to think this the expression of an exaggerated state of feeling, inasmuch as she replied, "I know; that's just the way it seemed to me at first, and even now, whenever I'm alone and take out the Pilot back numbers to read over my contributions, I almost burst with pleasure; and it's not that they are good either, for they look worse to me every time I read them."
Rebecca didn’t seem to think this was an over-the-top reaction, since she replied, "I know; that’s how it felt to me at first, and even now, whenever I'm alone and pull out the old issues of the Pilot to read my contributions, I almost explode with happiness; and it’s not that they’re great either, because they seem worse to me every time I read them."
"If you would only live with me in some little house when we get older," mused Emma Jane, as with her darning needle poised in air she regarded the opposite wall dreamily, "I would do the housework and cooking, and copy all your poems and stories, and take them to the post-office, and you needn't do anything but write. It would be perfectly elergant!"
"If you would just live with me in a small house when we’re older," Emma Jane thought aloud, with her darning needle held in the air as she stared dreamily at the opposite wall, "I’d handle the housework and cooking, and I’d copy all your poems and stories and take them to the post office. You wouldn’t have to do anything but write. It would be absolutely perfect!"
"I'd like nothing better, if I hadn't promised to keep house for John," replied Rebecca.
"I'd love to, but I promised to take care of the house for John," replied Rebecca.
"He won't have a house for a good many years, will he?"
"He won't have a house for quite a few years, will he?"
"No," sighed Rebecca ruefully, flinging herself down by the table and resting her head on her hand. "Not unless we can contrive to pay off that detestable mortgage. The day grows farther off instead of nearer now that we haven't paid the interest this year."
"No," sighed Rebecca sadly, collapsing into a chair at the table and resting her head on her hand. "Not unless we can figure out how to pay off that awful mortgage. The day feels farther away instead of closer now that we haven't paid the interest this year."
She pulled a piece of paper towards her, and scribbling idly on it read aloud in a moment or two:—
She pulled a piece of paper closer and, while idly scribbling on it, read aloud after a moment or two:—
"Will you pay a little faster?" said the mortgage to the farm;
"I confess I'm very tired of this place."
"The weariness is mutual," Rebecca Randall cried;
"I would I'd never gazed upon your face!"
"Can you pay me off a bit quicker?" the mortgage said to the farm;
"Honestly, I'm so tired of being here."
"I feel the same way," Rebecca Randall shouted;
"I wish I'd never looked at you!"
"A note has a 'face,'" observed Emma Jane, who was gifted in arithmetic. "I didn't know that a mortgage had."
"A note has a 'face,'" said Emma Jane, who was good at math. "I didn't know a mortgage had one."
"Our mortgage has," said Rebecca revengefully. "I should know him if I met him in the dark. Wait and I'll draw him for you. It will be good for you to know how he looks, and then when you have a husband and seven children, you won't allow him to come anywhere within a mile of your farm."
"Our mortgage has," said Rebecca angrily. "I’d recognize him if I saw him in the dark. Wait, and I’ll draw him for you. It’ll be good for you to know what he looks like, and then when you have a husband and seven kids, you won’t let him come anywhere near your farm."
The sketch when completed was of a sort to be shunned by a timid person on the verge of slumber. There was a tiny house on the right, and a weeping family gathered in front of it. The mortgage was depicted as a cross between a fiend and an ogre, and held an axe uplifted in his red right hand. A figure with streaming black locks was staying the blow, and this, Rebecca explained complacently, was intended as a likeness of herself, though she was rather vague as to the method she should use in attaining her end.
The completed sketch was definitely something a shy person about to fall asleep would avoid. On the right, there was a small house with a grieving family gathered in front of it. The mortgage was illustrated as a mix of a fiend and an ogre, holding an axe raised in his red right hand. A figure with long black hair was stopping the blow, and Rebecca explained casually that this was meant to represent her, although she was somewhat unclear about how she would achieve her goal.
"He's terrible," said Emma Jane, "but awfully wizened and small."
"He's awful," Emma Jane said, "but really old and tiny."
"It's only a twelve hundred dollar mortgage," said Rebecca, "and that's called a small one. John saw a man once that was mortgaged for twelve thousand."
"It's just a twelve hundred dollar mortgage," Rebecca said, "and that's considered small. John once saw a guy who was mortgaged for twelve thousand."
"Shall you be a writer or an editor?" asked Emma Jane presently, as if one had only to choose and the thing were done.
"Are you going to be a writer or an editor?" Emma Jane asked then, as if it was just a matter of choosing and it would be settled.
"I shall have to do what turns up first, I suppose."
"I guess I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes up first."
"Why not go out as a missionary to Syria, as the Burches are always coaxing you to? The Board would pay your expenses."
"Why not go out as a missionary to Syria, like the Burches keep urging you to? The Board would cover your expenses."
"I can't make up my mind to be a missionary," Rebecca answered. "I'm not good enough in the first place, and I don't 'feel a call,' as Mr. Burch says you must. I would like to do something for somebody and make things move, somewhere, but I don't want to go thousands of miles away teaching people how to live when I haven't learned myself. It isn't as if the heathen really needed me; I'm sure they'll come out all right in the end."
"I can't decide if I want to be a missionary," Rebecca replied. "I'm really not good enough for it, and I don't have that 'call,' like Mr. Burch says you need. I want to do something helpful for someone and make a difference somewhere, but I don't want to travel thousands of miles to teach people how to live when I haven't figured it out myself. It's not like the people in need really require my help; I'm sure they'll be fine in the end."
"I can't see how; if all the people who ought to go out to save them stay at home as we do," argued Emma Jane.
"I don't see how that's possible; if everyone who should be out there helping them stays home like we do," argued Emma Jane.
"Why, whatever God is, and wherever He is, He must always be there, ready and waiting. He can't move about and miss people. It may take the heathen a little longer to find Him, but God will make allowances, of course. He knows if they live in such hot climates it must make them lazy and slow; and the parrots and tigers and snakes and bread-fruit trees distract their minds; and having no books, they can't think as well; but they'll find God somehow, some time."
"Whatever God is and wherever He is, He must always be there, ready and waiting. He can't move around and miss people. It might take those who don't believe a little longer to find Him, but God will be understanding, of course. He knows that if they live in hot climates, it must make them lazy and slow; the parrots, tigers, snakes, and breadfruit trees distract their minds; and without books, they can't think as clearly. But they'll find God somehow, someday."
"What if they die first?" asked Emma Jane.
"What if they die first?" Emma Jane asked.
"Oh, well, they can't be blamed for that; they don't die on purpose," said Rebecca, with a comfortable theology.
"Oh, well, they can't be blamed for that; they don't die on purpose," said Rebecca, with a reassuring belief.
In these days Adam Ladd sometimes went to Temperance on business connected with the proposed branch of the railroad familiarly known as the "York and Yank 'em," and while there he gained an inkling of Sunnybrook affairs. The building of the new road was not yet a certainty, and there was a difference of opinion as to the best route from Temperance to Plumville. In one event the way would lead directly through Sunnybrook, from corner to corner, and Mrs. Randall would be compensated; in the other, her interests would not be affected either for good or ill, save as all land in the immediate neighborhood might rise a little in value.
In those days, Adam Ladd would occasionally head to Temperance for work related to the proposed branch of the railroad commonly called the "York and Yank 'em." While he was there, he picked up some insights about what was happening in Sunnybrook. The construction of the new line wasn’t guaranteed yet, and opinions varied on the best route from Temperance to Plumville. If the route went through Sunnybrook from one end to the other, Mrs. Randall would be compensated; if it didn’t, her interests wouldn’t be affected much, except that all the land nearby might increase in value a bit.
Coming from Temperance to Wareham one day, Adam had a long walk and talk with Rebecca, whom he thought looking pale and thin, though she was holding bravely to her self-imposed hours of work. She was wearing a black cashmere dress that had been her aunt Jane's second best. We are familiar with the heroine of romance whose foot is so exquisitely shaped that the coarsest shoe cannot conceal its perfections, and one always cherishes a doubt of the statement; yet it is true that Rebecca's peculiar and individual charm seemed wholly independent of accessories. The lines of her figure, the rare coloring of skin and hair and eyes, triumphed over shabby clothing, though, had the advantage of artistic apparel been given her, the little world of Wareham would probably at once have dubbed her a beauty. The long black braids were now disposed after a quaint fashion of her own. They were crossed behind, carried up to the front, and crossed again, the tapering ends finally brought down and hidden in the thicker part at the neck. Then a purely feminine touch was given to the hair that waved back from the face,—a touch that rescued little crests and wavelets from bondage and set them free to take a new color in the sun.
Coming from Temperance to Wareham one day, Adam had a long walk and talk with Rebecca, who he thought looked pale and thin, even though she was sticking to her self-imposed work schedule. She was wearing a black cashmere dress that had been her aunt Jane's second best. We all know the romantic heroine whose foot is so perfectly shaped that even the roughest shoe can't hide its beauty, and there's always some skepticism about that claim; yet it's true that Rebecca's unique charm seemed completely independent of what she wore. The shape of her figure and the rare colors of her skin, hair, and eyes stood out even in shabby clothing, but if she had the benefit of stylish clothes, the little world of Wareham would have probably immediately known her as a beauty. Her long black braids were styled in a quirky way of her own. They were crossed behind, brought up to the front, crossed again, and the tapered ends were finally tucked away in the thicker part at the back of her neck. Then she added a distinctly feminine touch to her hair that waved back from her face—a touch that freed little crests and wavelets from confinement and allowed them to catch new light in the sun.
Adam Ladd looked at her in a way that made her put her hands over her face and laugh through them shyly as she said: "I know what you are thinking, Mr. Aladdin,—that my dress is an inch longer than last year, and my hair different; but I'm not nearly a young lady yet; truly I'm not. Sixteen is a month off still, and you promised not to give me up till my dress trails. If you don't like me to grow old, why don't you grow young? Then we can meet in the halfway house and have nice times. Now that I think about it," she continued, "that's just what you've been doing all along. When you bought the soap, I thought you were grandfather Sawyer's age; when you danced with me at the flag-raising, you seemed like my father; but when you showed me your mother's picture, I felt as if you were my John, because I was so sorry for you."
Adam Ladd looked at her in a way that made her cover her face with her hands and laugh shyly as she said, "I know what you’re thinking, Mr. Aladdin—my dress is an inch longer than last year, and my hair is different; but I'm really not a young lady yet, honestly I'm not. I still have a month until I turn sixteen, and you promised not to give me up until my dress drags on the ground. If you don’t want me to grow old, why don’t you just get younger? Then we could meet halfway and have fun together. Now that I think about it," she continued, "that’s exactly what you’ve been doing all along. When you bought the soap, I thought you were as old as grandfather Sawyer; when you danced with me at the flag-raising, you felt like my dad; but when you showed me your mother’s picture, I felt like you were my John, because I felt so sorry for you."
"That will do very well," smiled Adam; "unless you go so swiftly that you become my grandmother before I really need one. You are studying too hard, Miss Rebecca Rowena!"
"That sounds great," Adam smiled. "Unless you study so hard that you turn into my grandmother before I actually need one. You're working too hard, Miss Rebecca Rowena!"
"Just a little," she confessed. "But vacation comes soon, you know."
"Just a little," she admitted. "But vacation is coming up soon, you know."
"And are you going to have a good rest and try to recover your dimples? They are really worth preserving."
"And are you going to take a good break and try to get your dimples back? They're definitely worth keeping."
A shadow crept over Rebecca's face and her eyes suffused. "Don't be kind, Mr. Aladdin, I can't bear it;—it's—it's not one of my dimply days!" and she ran in at the seminary gate, and disappeared with a farewell wave of her hand.
A shadow fell over Rebecca's face and her eyes filled with tears. "Please don't be nice, Mr. Aladdin, I can't handle it;—it's—it's just not one of my good days!" And she rushed through the seminary gate, disappearing with a wave goodbye.
Adam Ladd wended his way to the principal's office in a thoughtful mood. He had come to Wareham to unfold a plan that he had been considering for several days. This year was the fiftieth anniversary of the founding of the Wareham schools, and he meant to tell Mr. Morrison that in addition to his gift of a hundred volumes to the reference library, he intended to celebrate it by offering prizes in English composition, a subject in which he was much interested. He wished the boys and girls of the two upper classes to compete; the award to be made to the writers of the two best essays. As to the nature of the prizes he had not quite made up his mind, but they would be substantial ones, either of money or of books.
Adam Ladd made his way to the principal's office, lost in thought. He had come to Wareham to share a plan he had been mulling over for several days. This year marked the fiftieth anniversary of the founding of the Wareham schools, and he wanted to tell Mr. Morrison that, in addition to his gift of a hundred volumes to the reference library, he planned to celebrate by offering prizes for English composition, a subject he was very passionate about. He wanted the students in the two upper classes to compete, with awards going to the writers of the two best essays. He hadn’t fully decided on the type of prizes yet, but they would be significant, either in cash or books.
This interview accomplished, he called upon Miss Maxwell, thinking as he took the path through the woods, "Rose-Red-Snow-White needs the help, and since there is no way of my giving it to her without causing remark, she must earn it, poor little soul! I wonder if my money is always to be useless where most I wish to spend it!"
This interview done, he went to see Miss Maxwell, thinking as he walked through the woods, "Rose-Red-Snow-White needs help, and since there's no way I can give it to her without drawing attention, she’ll have to earn it, poor thing! I wonder if my money will always be useless where I want to spend it most!"
He had scarcely greeted his hostess when he said: "Miss Maxwell, doesn't it strike you that our friend Rebecca looks wretchedly tired?"
He had barely greeted his hostess when he said, "Miss Maxwell, don't you think our friend Rebecca looks incredibly tired?"
"She does indeed, and I am considering whether I can take her away with me. I always go South for the spring vacation, traveling by sea to Old Point Comfort, and rusticating in some quiet spot near by. I should like nothing better than to have Rebecca for a companion."
"She really does, and I'm thinking about whether I can take her with me. I always head South for spring break, traveling by sea to Old Point Comfort and relaxing in some quiet place nearby. I couldn't want anything more than to have Rebecca as a companion."
"The very thing!" assented Adam heartily; "but why should you take the whole responsibility? Why not let me help? I am greatly interested in the child, and have been for some years."
"The very thing!" Adam agreed enthusiastically; "but why should you take on all the responsibility? Why not let me help? I'm really interested in the child, and I have been for several years."
"You needn't pretend you discovered her," interrupted Miss Maxwell warmly, "for I did that myself."
"You don't have to pretend you found her," Miss Maxwell interrupted kindly, "because I did that myself."
"She was an intimate friend of mine long before you ever came to Wareham," laughed Adam, and he told Miss Maxwell the circumstances of his first meeting with Rebecca. "From the beginning I've tried to think of a way I could be useful in her development, but no reasonable solution seemed to offer itself."
"She was a close friend of mine long before you ever showed up in Wareham," Adam laughed, and he shared with Miss Maxwell how he first met Rebecca. "From the start, I've been trying to figure out how I could help her grow, but no sensible solution ever came to mind."
"Luckily she attends to her own development," answered Miss Maxwell. "In a sense she is independent of everything and everybody; she follows her saint without being conscious of it. But she needs a hundred practical things that money would buy for her, and alas! I have a slender purse."
"Fortunately, she focuses on her own growth," replied Miss Maxwell. "In a way, she's independent of everything and everyone; she follows her inspiration without even realizing it. But she needs a hundred practical things that money could provide for her, and unfortunately! I have a tight budget."
"Take mine, I beg, and let me act through you," pleaded Adam. "I could not bear to see even a young tree trying its best to grow without light or air,—how much less a gifted child! I interviewed her aunts a year ago, hoping I might be permitted to give her a musical education. I assured them it was a most ordinary occurrence, and that I was willing to be repaid later on if they insisted, but it was no use. The elder Miss Sawyer remarked that no member of her family ever had lived on charity, and she guessed they wouldn't begin at this late day."
"Take mine, please, and let me help you," Adam pleaded. "I can't stand to watch even a young tree struggling to grow without light or air—how much less a talented child! I talked to her aunts a year ago, hoping I could give her a musical education. I assured them it was a common thing, and that I would be happy to be paid back later if they wanted, but it didn’t work. The older Miss Sawyer said that no one in her family had ever lived off charity, and she guessed they wouldn’t start now."
"I rather like that uncompromising New England grit," exclaimed Miss Maxwell, "and so far, I don't regret one burden that Rebecca has borne or one sorrow that she has shared. Necessity has only made her brave; poverty has only made her daring and self-reliant. As to her present needs, there are certain things only a woman ought to do for a girl, and I should not like to have you do them for Rebecca; I should feel that I was wounding her pride and self-respect, even though she were ignorant; but there is no reason why I may not do them if necessary and let you pay her traveling expenses. I would accept those for her without the slightest embarrassment, but I agree that the matter would better be kept private between us."
"I really admire that unyielding New England spirit," Miss Maxwell said, "and so far, I don't regret any of the challenges Rebecca has faced or the sadness she has experienced. Necessity has only made her stronger; hardship has made her bold and independent. Regarding her current needs, there are some things that only a woman should do for a girl, and I wouldn't want you to take care of those for Rebecca; I would feel like I was hurting her pride and self-respect, even if she didn't realize it. But there's no reason I can't handle those things if necessary and let you cover her travel costs. I would accept that for her without any hesitation, but I agree it’s better to keep this matter just between us."
"You are a real fairy godmother!" exclaimed Adam, shaking her hand warmly. "Would it be less trouble for you to invite her room-mate too,—the pink-and-white inseparable?"
"You really are a fairy godmother!" Adam said, shaking her hand warmly. "Would it be easier for you to invite her roommate as well—the pink-and-white one who’s always by her side?"
"No, thank you, I prefer to have Rebecca all to myself," said Miss Maxwell.
"No, thanks, I'd rather keep Rebecca all to myself," said Miss Maxwell.
"I can understand that," replied Adam absent-mindedly; "I mean, of course, that one child is less trouble than two. There she is now."
"I get that," Adam replied distractedly; "I mean, of course, one kid is easier to handle than two. There she is now."
Here Rebecca appeared in sight, walking down the quiet street with a lad of sixteen. They were in animated conversation, and were apparently reading something aloud to each other, for the black head and the curly brown one were both bent over a sheet of letter paper. Rebecca kept glancing up at her companion, her eyes sparkling with appreciation.
Here Rebecca appeared in view, walking down the quiet street with a sixteen-year-old boy. They were deep in conversation, seemingly reading something aloud to each other, as the dark-haired boy and the curly-haired one were both leaning over a piece of letter paper. Rebecca kept looking up at her companion, her eyes shining with appreciation.
"Miss Maxwell," said Adam, "I am a trustee of this institution, but upon my word I don't believe in coeducation!"
"Miss Maxwell," Adam said, "I'm a trustee of this institution, but honestly, I don't believe in coeducation!"
"I have my own occasional hours of doubt," she answered, "but surely its disadvantages are reduced to a minimum with—children! That is a very impressive sight which you are privileged to witness, Mr. Ladd. The folk in Cambridge often gloated on the spectacle of Longfellow and Lowell arm in arm. The little school world of Wareham palpitates with excitement when it sees the senior and the junior editors of The Pilot walking together!"
"I have my own moments of doubt," she replied, "but the downsides are definitely minimized with—kids! That’s a really impressive sight you get to see, Mr. Ladd. People in Cambridge often took pride in seeing Longfellow and Lowell side by side. The little school community in Wareham gets really excited when it sees the senior and junior editors of The Pilot walking together!"
XXV
ROSES OF JOY
The day before Rebecca started for the South with Miss Maxwell she was in the library with Emma Jane and Huldah, consulting dictionaries and encyclopaedias. As they were leaving they passed the locked cases containing the library of fiction, open to the teachers and townspeople, but forbidden to the students.
The day before Rebecca was set to head South with Miss Maxwell, she was in the library with Emma Jane and Huldah, looking up words in dictionaries and encyclopedias. As they were leaving, they walked by the locked cases that held the fiction collection, which was accessible to the teachers and townspeople but off-limits to the students.
They looked longingly through the glass, getting some little comfort from the titles of the volumes, as hungry children imbibe emotional nourishment from the pies and tarts inside a confectioner's window. Rebecca's eyes fell upon a new book in the corner, and she read the name aloud with delight: "The Rose of Joy. Listen, girls; isn't that lovely? The Rose of Joy. It looks beautiful, and it sounds beautiful. What does it mean, I wonder?"
They gazed wistfully through the glass, finding some comfort in the titles of the books, like hungry kids soaking up emotional satisfaction from the cakes and pastries in a bakery window. Rebecca spotted a new book in the corner and exclaimed the title with excitement: "The Rose of Joy. Hey, girls; isn’t that lovely? The Rose of Joy. It looks beautiful, and it sounds beautiful. I wonder what it means?"
"I guess everybody has a different rose," said Huldah shrewdly. "I know what mine would be, and I'm not ashamed to own it. I'd like a year in a city, with just as much money as I wanted to spend, horses and splendid clothes and amusements every minute of the day; and I'd like above everything to live with people that wear low necks." (Poor Huldah never took off her dress without bewailing the fact that her lot was cast in Riverboro, where her pretty white shoulders could never be seen.)
"I think everyone has their own idea of their perfect life," Huldah said wisely. "I know what mine would look like, and I'm not shy about it. I'd want a year in a city, with as much money as I wanted to spend, nice horses, beautiful clothes, and fun things to do every minute of the day; and above all, I’d want to be around people who wear low-cut dresses." (Poor Huldah always lamented that her life was stuck in Riverboro, where her pretty white shoulders could never be shown.)
"That would be fun, for a while anyway," Emma Jane remarked. "But wouldn't that be pleasure more than joy? Oh, I've got an idea!"
"That would be fun, at least for a little while," Emma Jane said. "But wouldn't that be more about pleasure than joy? Oh, I've got an idea!"
"Don't shriek so!" said the startled Huldah. "I thought it was a mouse."
"Don't scream like that!" said the startled Huldah. "I thought it was a mouse."
"I don't have them very often," apologized Emma Jane,—"ideas, I mean; this one shook me like a stroke of lightning. Rebecca, couldn't it be success?"
"I don't get them very often," Emma Jane apologized, "ideas, I mean; this one hit me like a bolt of lightning. Rebecca, could it be success?"
"That's good," mused Rebecca; "I can see that success would be a joy, but it doesn't seem to me like a rose, somehow. I was wondering if it could be love?"
"That’s great," Rebecca thought; "I get that success would feel amazing, but it doesn’t really seem like a rose to me. I was wondering if it could be love?"
"I wish we could have a peep at the book! It must be perfectly elergant!" said Emma Jane. "But now you say it is love, I think that's the best guess yet."
"I wish we could take a look at the book! It must be absolutely elegant!" said Emma Jane. "But now that you mention it's about love, I think that's the best guess so far."
All day long the four words haunted and possessed Rebecca; she said them over to herself continually. Even the prosaic Emma Jane was affected by them, for in the evening she said, "I don't expect you to believe it, but I have another idea,—that's two in one day; I had it while I was putting cologne on your head. The rose of joy might be helpfulness."
All day long, Rebecca was haunted and consumed by those four words; she repeated them to herself over and over. Even the practical Emma Jane was influenced by them, because in the evening she said, "I don’t expect you to believe me, but I have another idea—that’s two ideas in one day; I thought of it while I was putting cologne on your head. The rose of joy could be helpfulness."
"If it is, then it is always blooming in your dear little heart, you darlingest, kind Emmie, taking such good care of your troublesome Becky!"
"If it is, then it's always blooming in your sweet little heart, you dearest, kind Emmie, taking such good care of your difficult Becky!"
"Don't dare to call yourself troublesome! You're—you're—you're my rose of joy, that's what you are!" And the two girls hugged each other affectionately.
"Don't even think about calling yourself a hassle! You're—you're—you're my rose of joy, that's what you are!" And the two girls hugged each other affectionately.
In the middle of the night Rebecca touched Emma Jane on the shoulder softly. "Are you very fast asleep, Emmie?" she whispered.
In the middle of the night, Rebecca gently touched Emma Jane on the shoulder. "Are you really fast asleep, Emmie?" she whispered.
"Not so very," answered Emma Jane drowsily.
"Not really," replied Emma Jane sleepily.
"I've thought of something new. If you sang or painted or wrote,—not a little, but beautifully, you know,—wouldn't the doing of it, just as much as you wanted, give you the rose of joy?"
"I've come up with something new. If you sang or painted or wrote—not just a little, but beautifully, you know—wouldn't doing it, as much as you wanted, give you the rose of joy?"
"It might if it was a real talent," answered Emma Jane, "though I don't like it so well as love. If you have another thought, Becky, keep it till morning."
"It might if it were a real talent," replied Emma Jane, "but I don't like it as much as love. If you have another idea, Becky, hold onto it until morning."
"I did have one more inspiration," said Rebecca when they were dressing next morning, "but I didn't wake you. I wondered if the rose of joy could be sacrifice? But I think sacrifice would be a lily, not a rose; don't you?"
"I had one more idea," Rebecca said as they were getting ready the next morning, "but I didn’t want to wake you. I was thinking, could the rose of joy represent sacrifice? But I think sacrifice would be a lily, not a rose; don’t you?"
The journey southward, the first glimpse of the ocean, the strange new scenes, the ease and delicious freedom, the intimacy with Miss Maxwell, almost intoxicated Rebecca. In three days she was not only herself again, she was another self, thrilling with delight, anticipation, and realization. She had always had such eager hunger for knowledge, such thirst for love, such passionate longing for the music, the beauty, the poetry of existence! She had always been straining to make the outward world conform to her inward dreams, and now life had grown all at once rich and sweet, wide and full. She was using all her natural, God-given outlets; and Emily Maxwell marveled daily at the inexhaustible way in which the girl poured out and gathered in the treasures of thought and experience that belonged to her. She was a lifegiver, altering the whole scheme of any picture she made a part of, by contributing new values. Have you never seen the dull blues and greens of a room changed, transfigured by a burst of sunshine? That seemed to Miss Maxwell the effect of Rebecca on the groups of people with whom they now and then mingled; but they were commonly alone, reading to each other and having quiet talks. The prize essay was very much on Rebecca's mind. Secretly she thought she could never be happy unless she won it. She cared nothing for the value of it, and in this case almost nothing for the honor; she wanted to please Mr. Aladdin and justify his belief in her.
The journey south, the first sight of the ocean, the strange new scenes, the easy and delicious freedom, the closeness to Miss Maxwell, almost intoxicated Rebecca. In three days, she was not just herself again; she was a new version of herself, filled with delight, anticipation, and realization. She had always had a strong desire for knowledge, a thirst for love, and a passionate longing for the music, beauty, and poetry of life! She had always been trying to make the outside world match her inner dreams, and now life had suddenly become rich and sweet, wide and fulfilling. She was using all her natural, God-given talents; and Emily Maxwell marveled every day at the endless way Rebecca poured out and collected the treasures of thought and experience that were hers. She was a lifegiver, changing the entire feel of any scene she joined by bringing in new values. Have you ever seen the dull blues and greens of a room transformed by a burst of sunshine? That was how Miss Maxwell saw Rebecca's effect on the groups of people they sometimes mingled with; but usually, they were alone, reading to each other and having quiet conversations. The prize essay was very much on Rebecca's mind. Secretly, she believed she could never be happy unless she won it. She cared nothing for its value, and almost nothing for the honor; she just wanted to please Mr. Aladdin and prove his belief in her.
"If I ever succeed in choosing a subject, I must ask if you think I can write well on it; and then I suppose I must work in silence and secret, never even reading the essay to you, nor talking about it."
"If I ever manage to pick a topic, I need to know if you think I can write about it well; and then I guess I'll have to work quietly and secretly, never even sharing the essay with you or discussing it."
Miss Maxwell and Rebecca were sitting by a little brook on a sunny spring day. They had been in a stretch of wood by the sea since breakfast, going every now and then for a bask on the warm white sand, and returning to their shady solitude when tired of the sun's glare.
Miss Maxwell and Rebecca were sitting by a small stream on a sunny spring day. They had been in a patch of woods by the ocean since breakfast, occasionally heading to lounge on the warm white sand, and coming back to their shady spot when they got tired of the sun's brightness.
"The subject is very important," said Miss Maxwell, "but I do not dare choose for you. Have you decided on anything yet?"
"The subject is really important," Miss Maxwell said, "but I don't want to choose for you. Have you decided on anything yet?"
"No," Rebecca answered; "I plan a new essay every night. I've begun one on What is Failure? and another on He and She. That would be a dialogue between a boy and girl just as they were leaving school, and would tell their ideals of life. Then do you remember you said to me one day, 'Follow your Saint'? I'd love to write about that. I didn't have a single thought in Wareham, and now I have a new one every minute, so I must try and write the essay here; think it out, at any rate, while I am so happy and free and rested. Look at the pebbles in the bottom of the pool, Miss Emily, so round and smooth and shining."
"No," Rebecca replied. "I come up with a new essay every night. I've started one on What is Failure? and another one called He and She. It's going to be a conversation between a boy and a girl right as they're finishing school, talking about their dreams for life. And remember when you told me one day, 'Follow your Saint'? I'd really like to write about that. I didn't have a single idea in Wareham, but now I get a new one every minute, so I need to try and write the essay here; at least think it through while I'm feeling so happy, free, and relaxed. Look at the pebbles at the bottom of the pool, Miss Emily. They're so round, smooth, and shiny."
"Yes, but where did they get that beautiful polish, that satin skin, that lovely shape, Rebecca? Not in the still pool lying on the sands. It was never there that their angles were rubbed off and their rough surfaces polished, but in the strife and warfare of running waters. They have jostled against other pebbles, dashed against sharp rocks, and now we look at them and call them beautiful."
"Yes, but where did they get that beautiful shine, that sleek skin, that lovely shape, Rebecca? Not in the calm pool lying on the sand. It was never there that their edges were smoothed and their rough surfaces polished, but in the struggles and turbulence of flowing water. They have bumped against other pebbles, crashed against sharp rocks, and now we look at them and call them beautiful."
"If Fate had not made somebody a teacher,
She might have been, oh! such a splendid preacher!"
"If fate hadn't made her a teacher,
she could have been such an amazing preacher!"
rhymed Rebecca. "Oh! if I could only think and speak as you do!" she sighed. "I am so afraid I shall never get education enough to make a good writer."
rhymed Rebecca. "Oh! if only I could think and talk like you!" she sighed. "I'm really worried that I'll never get enough education to be a good writer."
"You could worry about plenty of other things to better advantage," said Miss Maxwell, a little scornfully. "Be afraid, for instance, that you won't understand human nature; that you won't realize the beauty of the outer world; that you may lack sympathy, and thus never be able to read a heart; that your faculty of expression may not keep pace with your ideas,—a thousand things, every one of them more important to the writer than the knowledge that is found in books. AEsop was a Greek slave who could not even write down his wonderful fables; yet all the world reads them."
"You could stress over a ton of other things that would actually benefit you," Miss Maxwell said, a bit scornfully. "For instance, be worried that you might not understand human nature; that you won't see the beauty of the world around you; that you might lack empathy and never truly be able to grasp someone's feelings; that your ability to express yourself might not match up with your thoughts—there are a thousand issues, each one of them more crucial for a writer than the knowledge found in books. Aesop was a Greek slave who couldn't even write down his amazing fables; yet the whole world reads them."
"I didn't know that," said Rebecca, with a half sob. "I didn't know anything until I met you!"
"I didn't know that," Rebecca said, with a half sob. "I didn't know anything until I met you!"
"You will only have had a high school course, but the most famous universities do not always succeed in making men and women. When I long to go abroad and study, I always remember that there were three great schools in Athens and two in Jerusalem, but the Teacher of all teachers came out of Nazareth, a little village hidden away from the bigger, busier world."
"You may have only taken a high school class, but even the most prestigious universities don't always produce great individuals. When I think about studying abroad, I’m reminded that there were three major schools in Athens and two in Jerusalem, but the greatest Teacher of all time came from Nazareth, a small village tucked away from the larger, more chaotic world."
"Mr. Ladd says that you are almost wasted on Wareham," said Rebecca thoughtfully.
"Mr. Ladd says that you’re almost being wasted in Wareham," Rebecca said thoughtfully.
"He is wrong; my talent is not a great one, but no talent is wholly wasted unless its owner chooses to hide it in a napkin. Remember that of your own gifts, Rebecca; they may not be praised of men, but they may cheer, console, inspire, perhaps, when and where you least expect. The brimming glass that overflows its own rim moistens the earth about it."
"He is mistaken; my talent isn’t that impressive, but no talent is ever truly wasted unless the person who has it decides to hide it away. Keep that in mind about your own gifts, Rebecca; they might not get recognition from others, but they could bring joy, comfort, or inspiration, maybe when you least expect it. The full glass that spills over its edge waters the ground around it."
"Did you ever hear of The Rose of Joy?" asked Rebecca, after a long silence.
"Have you ever heard of The Rose of Joy?" Rebecca asked after a long silence.
"Yes, of course; where did you see it?"
"Yeah, sure; where did you see it?"
"On the outside of a book in the library."
"On the exterior of a book in the library."
"I saw it on the inside of a book in the library," smiled Miss Maxwell. "It is from Emerson, but I'm afraid you haven't quite grown up to it, Rebecca, and it is one of the things impossible to explain."
"I saw it inside a book at the library," smiled Miss Maxwell. "It's from Emerson, but I'm afraid you haven't quite matured enough to understand it, Rebecca, and it's one of those things that's impossible to explain."
"Oh, try me, dear Miss Maxwell!" pleaded Rebecca. "Perhaps by thinking hard I can guess a little bit what it means."
"Oh, come on, dear Miss Maxwell!" Rebecca urged. "Maybe if I think really hard, I can figure out what it means."
"'In the actual—this painful kingdom of time and chance—are Care, Canker, and Sorrow; with thought, with the Ideal, is immortal hilarity—the rose of Joy; round it all the Muses sing,'" quoted Miss Maxwell.
"'In the real—this tough world of time and chance—are Worry, Decay, and Sadness; with thought, with the Ideal, is eternal joy—the flower of Happiness; around it all the Muses sing,'" quoted Miss Maxwell.
Rebecca repeated it over and over again until she had learned it by heart; then she said, "I don't want to be conceited, but I almost believe I do understand it, Miss Maxwell. Not altogether, perhaps, because it is puzzling and difficult; but a little, enough to go on with. It's as if a splendid shape galloped past you on horseback; you are so surprised and your eyes move so slowly you cannot half see it, but you just catch a glimpse as it whisks by, and you know it is beautiful. It's all settled. My essay is going to be called The Rose of Joy. I've just decided. It hasn't any beginning, nor any middle, but there will be a thrilling ending, something like this: let me see; joy, boy, toy, ahoy, decoy, alloy:—
Rebecca went over it again and again until she had memorized it; then she said, "I don't want to sound arrogant, but I think I almost get it, Miss Maxwell. Not completely, maybe, because it's pretty confusing and tough; but a bit, enough to keep going. It's like a stunning shape racing past you on a horse; you're so surprised and your eyes move so slowly that you can barely see it, but you catch a glimpse as it zooms by, and you know it’s beautiful. It’s all set. My essay is going to be called The Rose of Joy. I've just decided. It doesn't have a beginning or a middle, but there will be an exciting ending, something like this: let me think; joy, boy, toy, ahoy, decoy, alloy:—
Then come what will of weal or woe
(Since all gold hath alloy),
Thou 'lt bloom unwithered in this heart,
My Rose of Joy!
Then whatever happens, good or bad
(Since all gold has some flaws),
You will bloom without fading in this heart,
My Rose of Joy!
Now I'm going to tuck you up in the shawl and give you the fir pillow, and while you sleep I am going down on the shore and write a fairy story for you. It's one of our 'supposing' kind; it flies far, far into the future, and makes beautiful things happen that may never really all come to pass; but some of them will,—you'll see! and then you'll take out the little fairy story from your desk and remember Rebecca."
Now I'm going to wrap you up in the shawl and give you the fir pillow, and while you sleep, I’m going down to the shore to write a fairy tale for you. It’s one of those 'what if' kinds; it goes far, far into the future and creates beautiful things that may never really happen, but some of them will—you'll see! Then you'll take out the little fairy tale from your desk and remember Rebecca.
"I wonder why these young things always choose subjects that would tax the powers of a great essayist!" thought Miss Maxwell, as she tried to sleep. "Are they dazzled, captivated, taken possession of, by the splendor of the theme, and do they fancy they can write up to it? Poor little innocents, hitching their toy wagons to the stars! How pretty this particular innocent looks under her new sunshade!"
"I wonder why these young people always choose topics that would challenge even a great essayist!" thought Miss Maxwell as she tried to sleep. "Are they dazzled, charmed, and convinced by the greatness of the subject, thinking they can write to match it? Poor little kids, trying to attach their toy wagons to the stars! How cute this particular kid looks under her new sunshade!"
Adam Ladd had been driving through Boston streets on a cold spring day when nature and the fashion-mongers were holding out promises which seemed far from performance. Suddenly his vision was assailed by the sight of a rose-colored parasol gayly unfurled in a shop window, signaling the passer-by and setting him to dream of summer sunshine. It reminded Adam of a New England apple-tree in full bloom, the outer covering of deep pink shining through the thin white lining, and a fluffy, fringe-like edge of mingled rose and cream dropping over the green handle. All at once he remembered one of Rebecca's early confidences,—the little pink sunshade that had given her the only peep into the gay world of fashion that her childhood had ever known; her adoration of the flimsy bit of finery and its tragic and sacrificial end. He entered the shop, bought the extravagant bauble, and expressed it to Wareham at once, not a single doubt of its appropriateness crossing the darkness of his masculine mind. He thought only of the joy in Rebecca's eyes; of the poise of her head under the apple-blossom canopy. It was a trifle embarrassing to return an hour later and buy a blue parasol for Emma Jane Perkins, but it seemed increasingly difficult, as the years went on, to remember her existence at all the proper times and seasons.
Adam Ladd was driving through the streets of Boston on a chilly spring day when nature and fashion were making promises that felt unfulfilled. Suddenly, he was struck by the sight of a pink parasol happily opened up in a shop window, catching the attention of passersby and making him dream of summer sunshine. It reminded Adam of a New England apple tree in full bloom, the deep pink outer layer shining through the delicate white lining, with a fluffy fringe of mixed rose and cream hanging over the green handle. Then he recalled one of Rebecca's early secrets—the little pink sunshade that had given her the only glimpse of the vibrant world of fashion her childhood had ever known; her love for that delicate piece of decoration and its tragic, sacrificial fate. He walked into the shop, bought the extravagant item, and sent it to Wareham right away, without a single doubt of its appropriateness crossing his mind. He only thought about the joy that would light up Rebecca's eyes and the way her head would tilt under the apple blossom canopy. It felt a bit awkward to return an hour later and buy a blue parasol for Emma Jane Perkins, but it seemed harder each year to remember her existence at all the right moments.
This is Rebecca's fairy story, copied the next day and given to Emily Maxwell just as she was going to her room for the night. She read it with tears in her eyes and then sent it to Adam Ladd, thinking he had earned a share in it, and that he deserved a glimpse of the girl's budding imagination, as well as of her grateful young heart.
This is Rebecca's fairy tale, copied the next day and handed to Emily Maxwell just as she was heading to her room for the night. She read it with tears in her eyes, then sent it to Adam Ladd, thinking he had earned a share in it and that he deserved a peek into the girl's blossoming imagination, as well as her grateful young heart.
A FAIRY STORY
A Fairy Tale
There was once a tired and rather poverty-stricken Princess who dwelt in a cottage on the great highway between two cities. She was not as unhappy as thousands of others; indeed, she had much to be grateful for, but the life she lived and the work she did were full hard for one who was fashioned slenderly.
There was once a weary and quite poor Princess who lived in a small cottage along the main road between two cities. She wasn’t as unhappy as many others; in fact, she had a lot to be thankful for, but the life she led and the work she did were really tough for someone who was built delicately.
Now the cottage stood by the edge of a great green forest where the wind was always singing in the branches and the sunshine filtering through the leaves.
Now the cottage was located at the edge of a vast green forest where the wind constantly sang in the branches and sunlight filtered through the leaves.
And one day when the Princess was sitting by the wayside quite spent by her labor in the fields, she saw a golden chariot rolling down the King's Highway, and in it a person who could be none other than somebody's Fairy Godmother on her way to the Court. The chariot halted at her door, and though the Princess had read of such beneficent personages, she never dreamed for an instant that one of them could ever alight at her cottage.
And one day, while the Princess was sitting by the side of the road completely exhausted from working in the fields, she saw a golden chariot coming down the King's Highway, and in it was someone who could only be a Fairy Godmother on her way to the Court. The chariot stopped at her door, and even though the Princess had read about such kind-hearted beings, she never imagined for a second that one of them would ever get out at her cottage.
"If you are tired, poor little Princess, why do you not go into the cool green forest and rest?" asked the Fairy Godmother.
"If you're tired, poor little Princess, why not go into the cool green forest and take a break?" asked the Fairy Godmother.
"Because I have no time," she answered. "I must go back to my plough."
"Because I don't have time," she replied. "I have to get back to my work."
"Is that your plough leaning by the tree, and is it not too heavy?"
"Is that your plow leaning against the tree, and isn't it too heavy?"
"It is heavy," answered the Princess, "but I love to turn the hard earth into soft furrows and know that I am making good soil wherein my seeds may grow. When I feel the weight too much, I try to think of the harvest."
"It’s heavy," the Princess replied, "but I love transforming the tough ground into soft furrows, knowing that I'm creating good soil for my seeds to grow. When the weight feels too much, I try to focus on the harvest."
The golden chariot passed on, and the two talked no more together that day; nevertheless the King's messengers were busy, for they whispered one word into the ear of the Fairy Godmother and another into the ear of the Princess, though so faintly that neither of them realized that the King had spoken.
The golden chariot moved on, and the two didn’t speak again that day; however, the King’s messengers were hard at work, whispering one word into the ear of the Fairy Godmother and another into the ear of the Princess, so softly that neither of them noticed the King had spoken.
The next morning a strong man knocked at the cottage door, and doffing his hat to the Princess said: "A golden chariot passed me yesterday, and one within it flung me a purse of ducats, saying: 'Go out into the King's Highway and search until you find a cottage and a heavy plough leaning against a tree near by. Enter and say to the Princess whom you will find there: "I will guide the plough and you must go and rest, or walk in the cool green forest; for this is the command of your Fairy Godmother."'"
The next morning, a strong man knocked on the cottage door and tipped his hat to the Princess, saying: "I saw a golden chariot yesterday, and someone inside threw me a purse of ducats, saying: 'Go out to the King's Highway and look for a cottage with a heavy plough leaning against a nearby tree. Go inside and tell the Princess you find there: "I'll guide the plough, and you should rest or take a walk in the cool green forest; this is what your Fairy Godmother has commanded."'"
And the same thing happened every day, and every day the tired Princess walked in the green wood. Many times she caught the glitter of the chariot and ran into the Highway to give thanks to the Fairy Godmother; but she was never fleet enough to reach the spot. She could only stand with eager eyes and longing heart as the chariot passed by. Yet she never failed to catch a smile, and sometimes a word or two floated back to her, words that sounded like: "I would not be thanked. We are all children of the same King, and I am only his messenger."
And the same thing happened every day, and every day the tired Princess walked in the green woods. Many times she spotted the shine of the chariot and hurried onto the road to thank the Fairy Godmother; but she was never fast enough to get to that spot. She could only stand there with eager eyes and a longing heart as the chariot drove past. Yet she always managed to catch a smile, and sometimes a word or two came back to her, words that sounded like: "I don't need your thanks. We're all children of the same King, and I'm just his messenger."
Now as the Princess walked daily in the green forest, hearing the wind singing in the branches and seeing the sunlight filter through the lattice-work of green leaves, there came unto her thoughts that had lain asleep in the stifling air of the cottage and the weariness of guiding the plough. And by and by she took a needle from her girdle and pricked the thoughts on the leaves of the trees and sent them into the air to float hither and thither. And it came to pass that people began to pick them up, and holding them against the sun, to read what was written on them, and this was because the simple little words on the leaves were only, after all, a part of one of the King's messages, such as the Fairy Godmother dropped continually from her golden chariot.
Now, as the Princess walked through the green forest every day, listening to the wind singing in the branches and watching the sunlight filter through the lattice of green leaves, thoughts that had been asleep in the stifling air of the cottage and the exhaustion of working the fields came to her mind. Eventually, she took a needle from her belt and pricked the thoughts onto the leaves of the trees, sending them into the air to float around. Before long, people began to pick them up, holding them up to the sun to read what was written on them. This was because the simple little words on the leaves were just part of one of the King's messages, like the ones the Fairy Godmother constantly dropped from her golden chariot.
But the miracle of the story lies deeper than all this.
But the real miracle of the story goes deeper than all of this.
Whenever the Princess pricked the words upon the leaves she added a thought of her Fairy Godmother, and folding it close within, sent the leaf out on the breeze to float hither and thither and fall where it would. And many other little Princesses felt the same impulse and did the same thing. And as nothing is ever lost in the King's Dominion, so these thoughts and wishes and hopes, being full of love and gratitude, had no power to die, but took unto themselves other shapes and lived on forever. They cannot be seen, our vision is too weak; nor heard, our hearing is too dull; but they can sometimes be felt, and we know not what force is stirring our hearts to nobler aims.
Whenever the Princess wrote her words on the leaves, she included a thought of her Fairy Godmother, then folded it tight and sent the leaf drifting on the breeze, letting it land wherever it might. Many other little Princesses felt the same urge and did the same. And since nothing ever really disappears in the King's Dominion, these thoughts, wishes, and hopes, filled with love and gratitude, couldn't die; instead, they took on new forms and lived on forever. They can't be seen, our eyesight is too weak; nor heard, our hearing is too dull; but sometimes they can be felt, and we don't know what energy is inspiring our hearts towards nobler goals.
The end of the story is not come, but it may be that some day when the Fairy Godmother has a message to deliver in person straight to the King, he will say: "Your face I know; your voice, your thoughts, and your heart. I have heard the rumble of your chariot wheels on the great Highway, and I knew that you were on the King's business. Here in my hand is a sheaf of messages from every quarter of my kingdom. They were delivered by weary and footsore travelers, who said that they could never have reached the gate in safety had it not been for your help and inspiration. Read them, that you may know when and where and how you sped the King's service."
The story isn't over yet, but maybe one day when the Fairy Godmother needs to deliver a message directly to the King, he will say: "I recognize your face; I know your voice, your thoughts, and your heart. I've heard the sound of your chariot wheels on the main road, and I knew you were doing the King's work. Here in my hand is a bundle of messages from all across my kingdom. They were brought by tired and weary travelers who said they could never have safely reached the gate without your help and inspiration. Read them so you can see when, where, and how you aided the King's service."
And when the Fairy Godmother reads them, it may be that sweet odors will rise from the pages, and half-forgotten memories will stir the air; but in the gladness of the moment nothing will be half so lovely as the voice of the King when he said: "Read, and know how you sped the King's service."
And when the Fairy Godmother reads them, sweet scents might waft from the pages, and long-buried memories may come alive; but in that joyful moment, nothing will be as beautiful as the King's voice when he said: "Read, and find out how you served the King."
Rebecca Rowena Randall
Rebecca Rowena Randall
XXVI
"OVER THE TEACUPS"
The summer term at Wareham had ended, and Huldah Meserve, Dick Carter, and Living Perkins had finished school, leaving Rebecca and Emma Jane to represent Riverboro in the year to come. Delia Weeks was at home from Lewiston on a brief visit, and Mrs. Robinson was celebrating the occasion by a small and select party, the particular day having been set because strawberries were ripe and there was a rooster that wanted killing. Mrs. Robinson explained this to her husband, and requested that he eat his dinner on the carpenter's bench in the shed, as the party was to be a ladies' affair.
The summer term at Wareham had wrapped up, and Huldah Meserve, Dick Carter, and Living Perkins had graduated, leaving Rebecca and Emma Jane to represent Riverboro in the coming year. Delia Weeks was home from Lewiston for a quick visit, and Mrs. Robinson was celebrating by hosting a small, exclusive party, with the date chosen because strawberries were in season and there was a rooster that needed to be prepared. Mrs. Robinson explained this to her husband and asked him to have his dinner on the carpenter's bench in the shed since the party was for ladies only.
"All right; it won't be any loss to me," said Mr. Robinson. "Give me beans, that's all I ask. When a rooster wants to be killed, I want somebody else to eat him, not me!"
"Okay; I won’t miss it," said Mr. Robinson. "Just give me beans, that’s all I’m asking. When a rooster is meant to be killed, I want someone else to eat it, not me!"
Mrs. Robinson had company only once or twice a year, and was generally much prostrated for several days afterward, the struggle between pride and parsimony being quite too great a strain upon her. It was necessary, in order to maintain her standing in the community, to furnish a good "set out," yet the extravagance of the proceeding goaded her from the first moment she began to stir the marble cake to the moment when the feast appeared upon the table.
Mrs. Robinson only had guests over once or twice a year, and she often felt exhausted for several days afterward, as the conflict between her pride and frugality was a heavy burden for her. To keep her reputation in the community, she had to put together an impressive spread, but the cost of it stressed her out from the moment she started mixing the marble cake to the time the meal was served on the table.
The rooster had been boiling steadily over a slow fire since morning, but such was his power of resistance that his shape was as firm and handsome in the pot as on the first moment when he was lowered into it.
The rooster had been simmering slowly over a low flame since morning, but his ability to hold up was such that he looked just as firm and attractive in the pot as he did the moment he was first placed in it.
"He ain't goin' to give up!" said Alice, peering nervously under the cover, "and he looks like a scarecrow."
"He’s not going to give up!" said Alice, peering nervously under the cover, "and he looks like a scarecrow."
"We'll see whether he gives up or not when I take a sharp knife to him," her mother answered; "and as to his looks, a platter full o' gravy makes a sight o' difference with old roosters, and I'll put dumplings round the aidge; they're turrible fillin', though they don't belong with boiled chicken."
"We'll find out if he gives up or not when I take a sharp knife to him," her mother replied; "and about his appearance, a platter full of gravy makes a big difference with old roosters, and I'll put dumplings around the edge; they’re really filling, even though they don't go well with boiled chicken."
The rooster did indeed make an impressive showing, lying in his border of dumplings, and the dish was much complimented when it was borne in by Alice. This was fortunate, as the chorus of admiration ceased abruptly when the ladies began to eat the fowl.
The rooster really stood out, resting on his bed of dumplings, and the dish received a lot of praise when Alice brought it in. This was lucky, as the applause suddenly stopped when the ladies started to eat the bird.
"I was glad you could git over to Huldy's graduation, Delia," said Mrs. Meserve, who sat at the foot of the table and helped the chicken while Mrs. Robinson poured coffee at the other end. She was a fit mother for Huldah, being much the most stylish person in Riverboro; ill health and dress were, indeed, her two chief enjoyments in life. It was rumored that her elaborately curled "front piece" had cost five dollars, and that it was sent into Portland twice a year to be dressed and frizzed; but it is extremely difficult to discover the precise facts in such cases, and a conscientious historian always prefers to warn a too credulous reader against imbibing as gospel truth something that might be the basest perversion of it. As to Mrs. Meserve's appearance, have you ever, in earlier years, sought the comforting society of the cook and hung over the kitchen table while she rolled out sugar gingerbread? Perhaps then, in some unaccustomed moment of amiability, she made you a dough lady, cutting the outline deftly with her pastry knife, and then, at last, placing the human stamp upon it by sticking in two black currants for eyes. Just call to mind the face of that sugar gingerbread lady and you will have an exact portrait of Huldah's mother,—Mis' Peter Meserve, she was generally called, there being several others.
"I was glad you could make it to Huldy's graduation, Delia," said Mrs. Meserve, who was sitting at the end of the table and serving chicken while Mrs. Robinson poured coffee at the other end. She was a fitting mother for Huldah, being the most fashionable person in Riverboro; her health issues and clothing were, in fact, her two main pleasures in life. There were rumors that her elaborately styled wig cost five dollars and that it was sent to Portland twice a year to be styled and curled; however, it is extremely hard to find out the exact details in such situations, and a careful historian always prefers to caution a too gullible reader against taking as truth something that might be a significant distortion of it. As for Mrs. Meserve's appearance, have you ever, in earlier years, sought the comforting company of a cook and leaned over the kitchen table while she rolled out sugar gingerbread? Perhaps then, in some rare moment of kindness, she made you a dough figure, skillfully cutting the shape with her pastry knife, and finally, giving it life by poking in two black currants for eyes. Just think back to the face of that sugar gingerbread figure and you will have an accurate portrait of Huldah's mother—Mrs. Peter Meserve, as she was usually called, since there were a few others.
"How'd you like Huldy's dress, Delia?" she asked, snapping the elastic in her black jet bracelets after an irritating fashion she had.
"How did you like Huldy's dress, Delia?" she asked, snapping the elastic in her black jet bracelets in an annoying way she had.
"I thought it was about the handsomest of any," answered Delia; "and her composition was first rate. It was the only real amusin' one there was, and she read it so loud and clear we didn't miss any of it; most o' the girls spoke as if they had hasty pudtin' in their mouths."
"I thought it was the most handsome one of all," Delia replied; "and her writing was top-notch. It was the only genuinely amusing one there was, and she read it so loud and clear that we didn't miss a word; most of the girls spoke like they had a mouthful of pudding."
"That was the composition she wrote for Adam Ladd's prize," explained Mrs. Meserve, "and they do say she'd 'a' come out first, 'stead o' fourth, if her subject had been dif'rent. There was three ministers and three deacons on the committee, and it was only natural they should choose a serious piece; hers was too lively to suit 'em."
"That was the essay she wrote for Adam Ladd's prize," Mrs. Meserve explained, "and they say she would have come in first instead of fourth if her topic had been different. There were three ministers and three deacons on the committee, and it was only natural for them to choose a serious piece; hers was too lively for their taste."
Huldah's inspiring theme had been Boys, and she certainly had a fund of knowledge and experience that fitted her to write most intelligently upon it. It was vastly popular with the audience, who enjoyed the rather cheap jokes and allusions with which it coruscated; but judged from a purely literary standpoint, it left much to be desired.
Huldah's inspiring theme had been Boys, and she definitely had a wealth of knowledge and experience that made her well-suited to write intelligently about it. It was hugely popular with the audience, who appreciated the somewhat cheesy jokes and references that sprinkled it; however, from a purely literary perspective, it lacked a lot.
"Rebecca's piece wan't read out loud, but the one that took the boy's prize was; why was that?" asked Mrs. Robinson.
"Rebecca's piece wasn't read out loud, but the one that won the boy's prize was; why was that?" asked Mrs. Robinson.
"Because she wan't graduatin'," explained Mrs. Cobb, "and couldn't take part in the exercises; it'll be printed, with Herbert Dunn's, in the school paper."
"Because she wasn't graduating," explained Mrs. Cobb, "and couldn't take part in the ceremony; it'll be printed, along with Herbert Dunn's, in the school paper."
"I'm glad o' that, for I'll never believe it was better 'n Huldy's till I read it with my own eyes; it seems as if the prize ought to 'a' gone to one of the seniors."
"I'm glad to hear that, because I’ll never believe it was better than Huldy’s until I see it with my own eyes; it feels like the prize should have gone to one of the seniors."
"Well, no, Marthy, not if Ladd offered it to any of the two upper classes that wanted to try for it," argued Mrs. Robinson. "They say they asked him to give out the prizes, and he refused, up and down. It seems odd, his bein' so rich and travelin' about all over the country, that he was too modest to git up on that platform."
"Well, no, Marthy, not if Ladd offered it to any of the two upper classes that wanted to try for it," argued Mrs. Robinson. "They say they asked him to hand out the prizes, and he refused, completely. It seems strange, with him being so rich and traveling all over the country, that he was too modest to get up on that platform."
"My Huldy could 'a' done it, and not winked an eyelash," observed Mrs. Meserve complacently; a remark which there seemed no disposition on the part of any of the company to controvert.
"My Huldy could've done it without batting an eye," Mrs. Meserve remarked contentedly, a statement that no one in the group seemed inclined to challenge.
"It was complete, though, the governor happening to be there to see his niece graduate," said Delia Weeks. "Land! he looked elegant! They say he's only six feet, but he might 'a' been sixteen, and he certainly did make a fine speech."
"It was perfect, though, the governor happened to be there to see his niece graduate," said Delia Weeks. "Wow! he looked sharp! They say he's only six feet tall, but he might as well have been sixteen, and he definitely gave a great speech."
"Did you notice Rebecca, how white she was, and how she trembled when she and Herbert Dunn stood there while the governor was praisin' 'em? He'd read her composition, too, for he wrote the Sawyer girls a letter about it." This remark was from the sympathetic Mrs. Cobb.
"Did you see Rebecca? She was so pale and shook while she and Herbert Dunn stood there while the governor was praising them. He even read her essay because he wrote the Sawyer girls a letter about it." This comment came from the kind Mrs. Cobb.
"I thought 't was kind o' foolish, his makin' so much of her when it wan't her graduation," objected Mrs. Meserve; "layin' his hand on her head 'n' all that, as if he was a Pope pronouncin' benediction. But there! I'm glad the prize come to Riverboro 't any rate, and a han'somer one never was give out from the Wareham platform. I guess there ain't no end to Adam Ladd's money. The fifty dollars would 'a' been good enough, but he must needs go and put it into those elegant purses."
"I thought it was kind of silly for him to make such a big deal about her when it wasn't her graduation," Mrs. Meserve objected. "Putting his hand on her head and all that, as if he were a Pope giving a blessing. But still, I'm glad the prize went to Riverboro at any rate, and you can't find a nicer one than what was given out from the Wareham platform. I guess Adam Ladd has endless money. The fifty dollars would have been enough, but he just had to go and put it into those fancy purses."
"I set so fur back I couldn't see 'em fairly," complained Delia, "and now Rebecca has taken hers home to show her mother."
"I sat so far back I couldn't see them clearly," Delia complained, "and now Rebecca has taken hers home to show her mom."
"It was kind of a gold net bag with a chain," said Mrs. Perkins, "and there was five ten-dollar gold pieces in it. Herbert Dunn's was put in a fine leather wallet."
"It was like a gold net bag with a chain," said Mrs. Perkins, "and there were five ten-dollar gold coins in it. Herbert Dunn's was in a nice leather wallet."
"How long is Rebecca goin' to stay at the farm?" asked Delia.
"How long is Rebecca going to stay at the farm?" asked Delia.
"Till they get over Hannah's bein' married, and get the house to runnin' without her," answered Mrs. Perkins. "It seems as if Hannah might 'a' waited a little longer. Aurelia was set against her goin' away while Rebecca was at school, but she's obstinate as a mule, Hannah is, and she just took her own way in spite of her mother. She's been doin' her sewin' for a year; the awfullest coarse cotton cloth she had, but she's nearly blinded herself with fine stitchin' and rufflin' and tuckin'. Did you hear about the quilt she made? It's white, and has a big bunch o' grapes in the centre, quilted by a thimble top. Then there's a row of circle-borderin' round the grapes, and she done them the size of a spool. The next border was done with a sherry glass, and the last with a port glass, an' all outside o' that was solid stitchin' done in straight rows; she's goin' to exhibit it at the county fair."
"Until they get over Hannah being married and get the house running smoothly without her," replied Mrs. Perkins. "It seems like Hannah could have waited a little longer. Aurelia was totally against her leaving while Rebecca was in school, but Hannah is as stubborn as a mule, and she just did what she wanted despite her mother. She's been doing her sewing for a year now; the coarsest cotton fabric she had, but she's nearly blinded herself with all the fine stitching, ruffling, and tucking. Did you hear about the quilt she made? It's white and has a big bunch of grapes in the center, quilted by a thimble top. Then there's a row of circles around the grapes, and she made them the size of a spool. The next border was done with a sherry glass, and the last with a port glass, and all outside of that was solid stitching done in straight rows; she's going to showcase it at the county fair."
"She'd better 'a' been takin' in sewin' and earnin' money, 'stead o' blindin' her eyes on such foolishness as quilted counterpanes," said Mrs. Cobb. "The next thing you know that mortgage will be foreclosed on Mis' Randall, and she and the children won't have a roof over their heads."
"She should have been focused on sewing and making money instead of wasting her time on silly things like quilted bedspreads," Mrs. Cobb said. "Before you know it, they'll foreclose on Mis' Randall's mortgage, and she and the kids will be homeless."
"Don't they say there's a good chance of the railroad goin' through her place?" asked Mrs. Robinson. "If it does, she'll git as much as the farm is worth and more. Adam Ladd 's one of the stockholders, and everything is a success he takes holt of. They're fightin' it in Augusty, but I'd back Ladd agin any o' them legislaters if he thought he was in the right."
"Don't they say there's a good chance the railroad is coming through her place?" asked Mrs. Robinson. "If it does, she'll get as much as the farm is worth and more. Adam Ladd is one of the stockholders, and everything he gets involved with succeeds. They're fighting it in Augusta, but I’d bet on Ladd against any of those legislators if he believes he's right."
"Rebecca'll have some new clothes now," said Delia, "and the land knows she needs 'em. Seems to me the Sawyer girls are gittin' turrible near!"
"Rebecca will have some new clothes now," said Delia, "and the land knows she needs them. It seems to me the Sawyer girls are getting pretty close!"
"Rebecca won't have any new clothes out o' the prize money," remarked Mrs. Perkins, "for she sent it away the next day to pay the interest on that mortgage."
"Rebecca won’t be getting any new clothes from the prize money," Mrs. Perkins said, "because she sent it all away the next day to cover the interest on that mortgage."
"Poor little girl!" exclaimed Delia Weeks.
"Poor little girl!" Delia Weeks exclaimed.
"She might as well help along her folks as spend it on foolishness," affirmed Mrs. Robinson. "I think she was mighty lucky to git it to pay the interest with, but she's probably like all the Randalls; it was easy come, easy go, with them."
"She might as well help her family instead of wasting it," Mrs. Robinson said. "I think she was really lucky to have it to pay the interest, but she's probably just like all the Randalls; for them, it’s easy come, easy go."
"That's more than could be said of the Sawyer stock," retorted Mrs. Perkins; "seems like they enjoyed savin' more'n anything in the world, and it's gainin' on Mirandy sence her shock."
"That's more than can be said for the Sawyer family," Mrs. Perkins shot back; "it seems like they enjoyed saving more than anything else in the world, and it's been bothering Mirandy ever since her shock."
"I don't believe it was a shock; it stands to reason she'd never 'a' got up after it and been so smart as she is now; we had three o' the worst shocks in our family that there ever was on this river, and I know every symptom of 'em better'n the doctors." And Mrs. Peter Meserve shook her head wisely.
"I don't think it was a surprise; it makes sense she wouldn't have gotten up after that and been as sharp as she is now; we had three of the worst shocks in our family that ever happened on this river, and I know every sign of them better than the doctors." And Mrs. Peter Meserve shook her head knowingly.
"Mirandy 's smart enough," said Mrs. Cobb, "but you notice she stays right to home, and she's more close-mouthed than ever she was; never took a mite o' pride in the prize, as I could see, though it pretty nigh drove Jeremiah out o' his senses. I thought I should 'a' died o' shame when he cried 'Hooray!' and swung his straw hat when the governor shook hands with Rebecca. It's lucky he couldn't get fur into the church and had to stand back by the door, for as it was, he made a spectacle of himself. My suspicion is"—and here every lady stopped eating and sat up straight—"that the Sawyer girls have lost money. They don't know a thing about business 'n' never did, and Mirandy's too secretive and contrairy to ask advice."
"Mirandy's smart enough," Mrs. Cobb said, "but you can see she stays at home all the time, and she's more tight-lipped than ever; she never seemed to take any pride in the prize, at least not that I could tell, although it nearly drove Jeremiah crazy. I thought I would die of embarrassment when he shouted 'Hooray!' and waved his straw hat when the governor shook hands with Rebecca. It's a good thing he couldn't get far into the church and had to stand back by the door, because even so, he really made a fool of himself. I suspect"—and at this, every lady stopped eating and sat up straight—"that the Sawyer girls have lost money. They don't know anything about business and never have, and Mirandy's too secretive and stubborn to ask for advice."
"The most o' what they've got is in gov'ment bonds, I always heard, and you can't lose money on them. Jane had the timber land left her, an' Mirandy had the brick house. She probably took it awful hard that Rebecca's fifty dollars had to be swallowed up in a mortgage, 'stead of goin' towards school expenses. The more I think of it, the more I think Adam Ladd intended Rebecca should have that prize when he gave it." The mind of Huldah's mother ran towards the idea that her daughter's rights had been assailed.
"The majority of what they have is in government bonds, or so I've always heard, and you can't lose money on those. Jane inherited the timberland, and Mirandy got the brick house. She must have taken it really hard that Rebecca's fifty dollars had to go toward a mortgage instead of covering school expenses. The more I think about it, the more I believe Adam Ladd intended for Rebecca to receive that prize when he gave it." Huldah's mother was convinced that her daughter's rights had been violated.
"Land, Marthy, what foolishness you talk!" exclaimed Mrs. Perkins; "you don't suppose he could tell what composition the committee was going to choose; and why should he offer another fifty dollars for a boy's prize, if he wan't interested in helpin' along the school? He's give Emma Jane about the same present as Rebecca every Christmas for five years; that's the way he does."
"Land, Marthy, what nonsense you're saying!" Mrs. Perkins exclaimed. "You really think he could predict what the committee would pick? And why would he offer another fifty dollars for a boy's prize if he wasn't interested in supporting the school? He's given Emma Jane pretty much the same gift as Rebecca every Christmas for five years; that's just how he is."
"Some time he'll forget one of 'em and give to the other, or drop 'em both and give to some new girl!" said Delia Weeks, with an experience born of fifty years of spinsterhood.
"At some point, he'll forget one of them and give to the other, or just drop both and give to some new girl!" Delia Weeks said, speaking from fifty years of being single.
"Like as not," assented Mrs. Peter Meserve, "though it's easy to see he ain't the marryin' kind. There's men that would marry once a year if their wives would die fast enough, and there's men that seems to want to live alone."
"Probably," agreed Mrs. Peter Meserve, "though it's clear he's not the marrying type. There are guys who would get married every year if their wives died quickly enough, and then there are guys who just want to be alone."
"If Ladd was a Mormon, I guess he could have every woman in North Riverboro that's a suitable age, accordin' to what my cousins say," remarked Mrs. Perkins.
"If Ladd was a Mormon, I guess he could have any woman in North Riverboro who's of the right age, according to what my cousins say," Mrs. Perkins remarked.
"'T ain't likely he could be ketched by any North Riverboro girl," demurred Mrs. Robinson; "not when he prob'bly has had the pick o' Boston. I guess Marthy hit it when she said there's men that ain't the marryin' kind."
"'It’s unlikely he could be caught by any North Riverboro girl," replied Mrs. Robinson; "not when he’s probably had his pick from Boston. I think Marthy was right when she said there are men who aren’t the marrying kind."
"I wouldn't trust any of 'em when Miss Right comes along!" laughed Mrs. Cobb genially. "You never can tell what 'n' who 's goin' to please 'em. You know Jeremiah's contrairy horse, Buster? He won't let anybody put the bit into his mouth if he can help it. He'll fight Jerry, and fight me, till he has to give in. Rebecca didn't know nothin' about his tricks, and the other day she went int' the barn to hitch up. I followed right along, knowing she'd have trouble with the headstall, and I declare if she wan't pattin' Buster's nose and talkin' to him, and when she put her little fingers into his mouth he opened it so fur I thought he'd swaller her, for sure. He jest smacked his lips over the bit as if 't was a lump o' sugar. 'Land, Rebecca,' I says, 'how'd you persuade him to take the bit?' 'I didn't,' she says, 'he seemed to want it; perhaps he's tired of his stall and wants to get out in the fresh air.'"
"I wouldn't trust any of them when Miss Right shows up!" laughed Mrs. Cobb cheerfully. "You can never tell what or who is going to make them happy. You know Jeremiah's stubborn horse, Buster? He won't let anyone put the bit in his mouth if he can avoid it. He’ll fight Jerry and fight me until he has to give in. Rebecca didn’t know anything about his tricks, and the other day she went into the barn to hitch up. I followed right behind, knowing she’d struggle with the headstall, and I swear she was petting Buster’s nose and talking to him, and when she put her little fingers in his mouth, he opened it so wide I thought he’d swallow her for sure. He just smacked his lips over the bit as if it were a piece of sugar. 'Gosh, Rebecca,' I said, 'how did you convince him to take the bit?' 'I didn’t,' she replied, 'he seemed to want it; maybe he’s tired of his stall and wants to get out in the fresh air.'"
XXVII
"THE VISION SPLENDID"
A year had elapsed since Adam Ladd's prize had been discussed over the teacups in Riverboro. The months had come and gone, and at length the great day had dawned for Rebecca,—the day to which she had been looking forward for five years, as the first goal to be reached on her little journey through the world. School-days were ended, and the mystic function known to the initiated as "graduation" was about to be celebrated; it was even now heralded by the sun dawning in the eastern sky. Rebecca stole softly out of bed, crept to the window, threw open the blinds, and welcomed the rosy light that meant a cloudless morning. Even the sun looked different somehow,—larger, redder, more important than usual; and if it were really so, there was no member of the graduating class who would have thought it strange or unbecoming, in view of all the circumstances. Emma Jane stirred on her pillow, woke, and seeing Rebecca at the window, came and knelt on the floor beside her. "It's going to be pleasant!" she sighed gratefully. "If it wasn't wicked, I could thank the Lord, I'm so relieved in mind! Did you sleep?"
A year had passed since Adam Ladd's award was talked about over tea in Riverboro. The months flew by, and finally, the big day had arrived for Rebecca—the day she had been anticipating for five years as the first milestone on her little journey through life. School was over, and the special event known among those in the know as "graduation" was about to be celebrated; it was already being announced by the sun rising in the eastern sky. Rebecca quietly got out of bed, tiptoed to the window, opened the blinds, and welcomed the rosy light that signaled a clear morning. Even the sun seemed different somehow—bigger, redder, more significant than usual; and if that were true, no one in the graduating class would have found it odd or inappropriate, considering everything. Emma Jane stirred on her pillow, woke up, and seeing Rebecca at the window, knelt on the floor beside her. "It's going to be a nice day!" she sighed with relief. "If it weren't wrong, I would thank the Lord, I'm so relieved! Did you sleep?"
"Not much; the words of my class poem kept running through my head, and the accompaniments of the songs; and worse than anything, Mary Queen of Scots' prayer in Latin; it seemed as if
"Not much; the lines of my class poem kept echoing in my mind, along with the music of the songs; and worse than anything, Mary Queen of Scots' prayer in Latin; it felt like
"'Adoro, imploro,
Ut liberes me!'
"'I adore, I implore,
That you free me!'
were burned into my brain."
were burned into my memory."
No one who is unfamiliar with life in rural neighborhoods can imagine the gravity, the importance, the solemnity of this last day of school. In the matter of preparation, wealth of detail, and general excitement it far surpasses a wedding; for that is commonly a simple affair in the country, sometimes even beginning and ending in a visit to the parsonage. Nothing quite equals graduation in the minds of the graduates themselves, their families, and the younger students, unless it be the inauguration of a governor at the State Capitol. Wareham, then, was shaken to its very centre on this day of days. Mothers and fathers of the scholars, as well as relatives to the remotest generation, had been coming on the train and driving into the town since breakfast time; old pupils, both married and single, with and without families, streamed back to the dear old village. The two livery stables were crowded with vehicles of all sorts, and lines of buggies and wagons were drawn up along the sides of the shady roads, the horses switching their tails in luxurious idleness. The streets were filled with people wearing their best clothes, and the fashions included not only "the latest thing," but the well preserved relic of a bygone day. There were all sorts and conditions of men and women, for there were sons and daughters of storekeepers, lawyers, butchers, doctors, shoemakers, professors, ministers, and farmers at the Wareham schools, either as boarders or day scholars. In the seminary building there was an excitement so deep and profound that it expressed itself in a kind of hushed silence, a transient suspension of life, as those most interested approached the crucial moment. The feminine graduates-to-be were seated in their own bedrooms, dressed with a completeness of detail to which all their past lives seemed to have been but a prelude. At least, this was the case with their bodies; but their heads, owing to the extreme heat of the day, were one and all ornamented with leads, or papers, or dozens of little braids, to issue later in every sort of curl known to the girl of that period. Rolling the hair on leads or papers was a favorite method of attaining the desired result, and though it often entailed a sleepless night, there were those who gladly paid the price. Others, in whose veins the blood of martyrs did not flow, substituted rags for leads and pretended that they made a more natural and less woolly curl. Heat, however, will melt the proudest head and reduce to fiddling strings the finest product of the waving-pin; so anxious mothers were stationed over their offspring, waving palm-leaf fans, it having been decided that the supreme instant when the town clock struck ten should be the one chosen for releasing the prisoners from their self-imposed tortures.
No one who's not familiar with life in rural areas can understand the weight, significance, and seriousness of this last day of school. In terms of preparation, attention to detail, and overall excitement, it far exceeds a wedding; those are usually just simple events in the countryside, sometimes just starting and ending with a visit to the parsonage. Nothing quite compares to graduation in the minds of the graduates, their families, and younger students, unless it’s the inauguration of a governor at the State Capitol. On this special day, Wareham trembled with excitement. Parents and relatives of the students had been arriving by train and driving into town since breakfast; former students, both married and single, with or without families, were returning to their beloved village. The two livery stables were filled with all kinds of vehicles, and lines of buggies and wagons were parked along the shady roads, horses flicking their tails lazily. The streets were packed with people in their best outfits, showcasing not just the latest styles but also well-preserved fashions from the past. There was a mix of men and women of all backgrounds—sons and daughters of storekeepers, lawyers, butchers, doctors, shoemakers, professors, ministers, and farmers—all connected to the Wareham schools, either as boarders or day students. Inside the seminary, the excitement was so intense and profound that it created a kind of hushed silence, a temporary pause in life, as those most involved approached the critical moment. The female graduates-to-be were in their own rooms, dressed down to the last detail, as if everything in their past had led up to this. At least that was true for their outfits; however, because of the extreme heat of the day, their heads were adorned with curlers, papers, or dozens of little braids, which would eventually turn into every type of curl known to girls at the time. Using curlers and papers was a common technique to achieve the desired look, and even though it often meant a sleepless night, some were more than willing to make that sacrifice. Others, not sharing that same level of commitment, opted for rags instead of curlers, insisting that they created a more natural and less frizzy curl. However, heat could ruin the most carefully styled hair, turning the best effort into limp strands; thus, anxious mothers hovered over their daughters, waving palm-leaf fans, having decided that the crucial moment for freeing their girls from their self-imposed trials would come when the town clock struck ten.
Dotted or plain Swiss muslin was the favorite garb, though there were those who were steaming in white cashmere or alpaca, because in some cases such frocks were thought more useful afterwards. Blue and pink waist ribbons were lying over the backs of chairs, and the girl who had a Roman sash was praying that she might be kept from vanity and pride.
Dotted or plain Swiss muslin was the favorite attire, though some were dressed in white cashmere or alpaca, since those outfits were sometimes seen as more practical later on. Blue and pink waist ribbons were draped over the backs of chairs, and the girl with a Roman sash was hoping to be spared from vanity and pride.
The way to any graduating dress at all had not seemed clear to Rebecca until a month before. Then, in company with Emma Jane, she visited the Perkins attic, found piece after piece of white butter-muslin or cheesecloth, and decided that, at a pinch, it would do. The "rich blacksmith's daughter" cast the thought of dotted Swiss behind her, and elected to follow Rebecca in cheesecloth as she had in higher matters; straightway devising costumes that included such drawing of threads, such hemstitching and pin-tucking, such insertions of fine thread tatting that, in order to be finished, Rebecca's dress was given out in sections,—the sash to Hannah, waist and sleeves to Mrs. Cobb, and skirt to aunt Jane. The stitches that went into the despised material, worth only three or four pennies a yard, made the dresses altogether lovely, and as for the folds and lines into which they fell, they could have given points to satins and brocades.
The path to finding any graduation dress hadn’t seemed clear to Rebecca until a month before the event. Then, along with Emma Jane, she visited the Perkins attic, discovered piece after piece of white butter-muslin or cheesecloth, and decided that, in a pinch, it would work. The "rich blacksmith's daughter" put aside thoughts of dotted Swiss and chose to follow Rebecca in cheesecloth just as she had in more important matters; immediately coming up with designs that involved such thread pulling, hemstitching, and pin-tucking, along with insertions of fine thread tatting that, to get it done, Rebecca's dress was divided among several people—the sash went to Hannah, the waist and sleeves to Mrs. Cobb, and the skirt to Aunt Jane. The stitches made in the looked-down-upon fabric, worth only three or four pennies a yard, turned the dresses into something truly beautiful, and the folds and lines they created could rival those of satins and brocades.
The two girls were waiting in their room alone, Emma Jane in rather a tearful state of mind. She kept thinking that it was the last day that they would be together in this altogether sweet and close intimacy. The beginning of the end seemed to have dawned, for two positions had been offered Rebecca by Mr. Morrison the day before: one in which she would play for singing and calisthenics, and superintend the piano practice of the younger girls in a boarding-school; the other an assistant's place in the Edgewood High School. Both were very modest as to salary, but the former included educational advantages that Miss Maxwell thought might be valuable.
The two girls were sitting alone in their room, with Emma Jane feeling quite emotional. She couldn’t stop thinking it was the last day they would share this sweet and close bond. It felt like the beginning of the end, especially since Mr. Morrison had offered Rebecca two positions the day before: one where she would lead singing and calisthenics, and oversee the piano practice for the younger girls at a boarding school; the other was an assistant position at Edgewood High School. Both jobs didn't pay much, but the first one came with educational benefits that Miss Maxwell believed could be valuable.
Rebecca's mood had passed from that of excitement into a sort of exaltation, and when the first bell rang through the corridors announcing that in five minutes the class would proceed in a body to the church for the exercises, she stood motionless and speechless at the window with her hand on her heart.
Rebecca's mood had shifted from excitement to a kind of joy, and when the first bell rang through the halls signaling that in five minutes the class would head to the church for the event, she stood still and speechless at the window with her hand on her heart.
"It is coming, Emmie," she said presently; "do you remember in The Mill on the Floss, when Maggie Tulliver closed the golden gates of childhood behind her? I can almost see them swing; almost hear them clang; and I can't tell whether I am glad or sorry."
"It’s coming, Emmie," she said after a moment; "do you remember in The Mill on the Floss, when Maggie Tulliver closed the golden gates of childhood behind her? I can almost see them swing; almost hear them clang; and I can’t tell if I’m glad or sad."
"I shouldn't care how they swung or clanged," said Emma Jane, "if only you and I were on the same side of the gate; but we shan't be, I know we shan't!"
"I shouldn’t care how they swung or clanged," said Emma Jane, "if only you and I were on the same side of the gate; but we won’t be, I know we won’t!"
"Emmie, don't dare to cry, for I'm just on the brink myself! If only you were graduating with me; that's my only sorrow! There! I hear the rumble of the wheels! People will be seeing our grand surprise now! Hug me once for luck, dear Emmie; a careful hug, remembering our butter-muslin frailty!"
"Emmie, don’t even think about crying, because I’m about to break down too! If only you were graduating with me; that’s my only regret! There! I hear the wheels rumbling! People will see our big surprise now! Hug me once for good luck, dear Emmie; a gentle hug, remembering how delicate we are!"
Ten minutes later, Adam Ladd, who had just arrived from Portland and was wending his way to the church, came suddenly into the main street and stopped short under a tree by the wayside, riveted to the spot by a scene of picturesque loveliness such as his eyes had seldom witnessed before. The class of which Rebecca was president was not likely to follow accepted customs. Instead of marching two by two from the seminary to the church, they had elected to proceed thither by royal chariot. A haycart had been decked with green vines and bunches of long-stemmed field daisies, those gay darlings of New England meadows. Every inch of the rail, the body, even the spokes, all were twined with yellow and green and white. There were two white horses, flower-trimmed reins, and in the floral bower, seated on maple boughs, were the twelve girls of the class, while the ten boys marched on either side of the vehicle, wearing buttonhole bouquets of daisies, the class flower.
Ten minutes later, Adam Ladd, who had just arrived from Portland and was making his way to the church, suddenly came into the main street and stopped short under a tree by the side of the road, frozen in place by a scene of breathtaking beauty that his eyes had rarely seen before. The class of which Rebecca was president wasn’t likely to follow tradition. Instead of walking two by two from the seminary to the church, they had chosen to go there in style. A haycart had been decorated with green vines and bunches of long-stemmed field daisies, those cheerful favorites of New England meadows. Every inch of the rail, the body, and even the spokes were wrapped in yellow, green, and white. There were two white horses with flower-adorned reins, and in the floral canopy, seated on maple branches, were the twelve girls from the class, while the ten boys marched alongside the vehicle, wearing buttonhole bouquets of daisies, the class flower.
Rebecca drove, seated on a green-covered bench that looked not unlike a throne. No girl clad in white muslin, no happy girl of seventeen, is plain; and the twelve little country maids, from the vantage ground of their setting, looked beautiful, as the June sunlight filtered down on their uncovered heads, showing their bright eyes, their fresh cheeks, their smiles, and their dimples.
Rebecca drove, sitting on a green-covered bench that resembled a throne. No girl dressed in white muslin, no cheerful girl of seventeen, is plain; and the twelve little country maids, from their vantage point, looked beautiful as the June sunlight filtered down on their bare heads, highlighting their bright eyes, fresh cheeks, smiles, and dimples.
Rebecca, Adam thought, as he took off his hat and saluted the pretty panorama,—Rebecca, with her tall slenderness, her thoughtful brow, the fire of young joy in her face, her fillet of dark braided hair, might have been a young Muse or Sibyl; and the flowery hayrack, with its freight of blooming girlhood, might have been painted as an allegorical picture of The Morning of Life. It all passed him, as he stood under the elms in the old village street where his mother had walked half a century ago, and he was turning with the crowd towards the church when he heard a little sob. Behind a hedge in the garden near where he was standing was a forlorn person in white, whose neat nose, chestnut hair, and blue eyes he seemed to know. He stepped inside the gate and said, "What's wrong, Miss Emma?"
Rebecca, Adam thought, as he took off his hat and admired the beautiful view—Rebecca, with her tall, slender figure, her thoughtful brow, the spark of youthful joy in her face, her dark braided hair, could have been a young Muse or Sibyl; and the flowery hayrack, filled with blooming girlhood, could have been a painting representing The Morning of Life. It all rushed past him as he stood under the elms in the old village street where his mother had walked fifty years ago, and he was turning with the crowd toward the church when he heard a little sob. Behind a hedge in the garden nearby was a lonely figure in white, whose cute nose, chestnut hair, and blue eyes looked familiar. He stepped through the gate and asked, "What's wrong, Miss Emma?"
"Oh, is it you, Mr. Ladd? Rebecca wouldn't let me cry for fear of spoiling my looks, but I must have just one chance before I go in. I can be as homely as I like, after all, for I only have to sing with the school; I'm not graduating, I'm just leaving! Not that I mind that; it's only being separated from Rebecca that I never can stand!"
"Oh, is that you, Mr. Ladd? Rebecca wouldn’t let me cry because she’s worried about messing up my looks, but I need just one chance before I go in. I can look as plain as I want, since I’m only singing with the school; I’m not graduating, I’m just leaving! Not that I mind that; it’s just the thought of being away from Rebecca that I really can’t handle!"
The two walked along together, Adam comforting the disconsolate Emma Jane, until they reached the old meeting-house where the Commencement exercises were always held. The interior, with its decorations of yellow, green, and white, was crowded, the air hot and breathless, the essays and songs and recitations precisely like all others that have been since the world began. One always fears that the platform may sink under the weight of youthful platitudes uttered on such occasions; yet one can never be properly critical, because the sight of the boys and girls themselves, those young and hopeful makers of to-morrow, disarms one's scorn. We yawn desperately at the essays, but our hearts go out to the essayists, all the same, for "the vision splendid" is shining in their eyes, and there is no fear of "th' inevitable yoke" that the years are so surely bringing them.
The two walked together, Adam comforting the sad Emma Jane, until they reached the old meeting house where the graduation ceremonies always took place. Inside, decorated in yellow, green, and white, it was packed, the air hot and stifling, and the essays, songs, and speeches were just like every other year since forever. There’s always a worry that the stage might collapse under the weight of all the young clichés spoken at times like these; yet, it’s hard to be truly critical because seeing the boys and girls, those young and hopeful creators of tomorrow, softens our skepticism. We might yawn at the essays, but our hearts go out to the writers, because "the splendid vision" shines in their eyes, and they don't yet feel the weight of "the inevitable burden" that the years will surely bring.
Rebecca saw Hannah and her husband in the audience; dear old John and cousin Ann also, and felt a pang at the absence of her mother, though she had known there was no possibility of seeing her; for poor Aurelia was kept at Sunnybrook by cares of children and farm, and lack of money either for the journey or for suitable dress. The Cobbs she saw too. No one, indeed, could fail to see uncle Jerry; for he shed tears more than once, and in the intervals between the essays descanted to his neighbors concerning the marvelous gifts of one of the graduating class whom he had known ever since she was a child; in fact, had driven her from Maplewood to Riverboro when she left her home, and he had told mother that same night that there wan't nary rung on the ladder o' fame that that child wouldn't mount before she got through with it.
Rebecca saw Hannah and her husband in the audience; dear old John and cousin Ann were there too, and she felt a twinge at the absence of her mother, even though she knew there was no chance of seeing her. Poor Aurelia was stuck at Sunnybrook with the kids, the farm, and not enough money for the trip or a proper outfit. She spotted the Cobbs as well. No one could miss uncle Jerry; he cried more than once and, in between the speeches, talked to his neighbors about the incredible talents of one of the graduates he had known since she was a child. In fact, he drove her from Maplewood to Riverboro when she left home, and that night he told her mother that there wasn’t a rung on the ladder of fame that the girl wouldn’t reach before she was done.
The Cobbs, then, had come, and there were other Riverboro faces, but where was aunt Jane, in her black silk made over especially for this occasion? Aunt Miranda had not intended to come, she knew, but where, on this day of days, was her beloved aunt Jane? However, this thought, like all others, came and went in a flash, for the whole morning was like a series of magic lantern pictures, crossing and recrossing her field of vision. She played, she sang, she recited Queen Mary's Latin prayer, like one in a dream, only brought to consciousness by meeting Mr. Aladdin's eyes as she spoke the last line. Then at the end of the programme came her class poem, Makers of To-morrow; and there, as on many a former occasion, her personality played so great a part that she seemed to be uttering Miltonic sentiments instead of school-girl verse. Her voice, her eyes, her body breathed conviction, earnestness, emotion; and when she left the platform the audience felt that they had listened to a masterpiece. Most of her hearers knew little of Carlyle or Emerson, or they might have remembered that the one said, "We are all poets when we read a poem well," and the other, "'T is the good reader makes the good book."
The Cobbs had arrived, along with some familiar faces from Riverboro, but where was Aunt Jane, dressed in her special black silk outfit for the occasion? Aunt Miranda hadn’t planned on coming, she knew that, but where was her beloved Aunt Jane on this important day? This thought, like all the others, came and went quickly, as the entire morning felt like a series of magic lantern slides flickering across her vision. She played, she sang, she recited Queen Mary's Latin prayer as if in a dream, only coming back to reality when she met Mr. Aladdin's gaze while finishing the last line. Then, at the end of the program, came her class poem, Makers of To-morrow; and, just like many times before, her presence was so powerful that it felt as if she was expressing profound thoughts instead of schoolgirl verse. Her voice, her eyes, her whole being radiated conviction, sincerity, and emotion; and when she stepped off the platform, the audience felt as though they had just experienced something remarkable. Most of the listeners knew little about Carlyle or Emerson, or they might have recalled Carlyle’s words, "We are all poets when we read a poem well," and Emerson’s, "'T is the good reader makes the good book."
It was over! The diplomas had been presented, and each girl, after giving furtive touches to her hair, sly tweaks to her muslin skirts, and caressing pats to her sash, had gone forward to receive the roll of parchment with a bow that had been the subject of anxious thought for weeks. Rounds of applause greeted each graduate at this thrilling moment, and Jeremiah Cobb's behavior, when Rebecca came forward, was the talk of Wareham and Riverboro for days. Old Mrs. Webb avowed that he, in the space of two hours, had worn out her pew more—the carpet, the cushions, and woodwork—than she had by sitting in it forty years. Yes, it was over, and after the crowd had thinned a little, Adam Ladd made his way to the platform. Rebecca turned from speaking to some strangers and met him in the aisle. "Oh, Mr. Aladdin, I am so glad you could come! Tell me"—and she looked at him half shyly, for his approval was dearer to her, and more difficult to win, than that of the others—"tell me, Mr. Aladdin,—were you satisfied?"
It was over! The diplomas had been handed out, and each girl, after adjusting her hair, straightening her muslin skirts, and smoothing her sash, stepped forward to receive the rolled-up parchment with a bow that she had stressed over for weeks. Rounds of applause greeted each graduate at this exciting moment, and Jeremiah Cobb's actions when Rebecca walked up were the talk of Wareham and Riverboro for days. Old Mrs. Webb claimed that in just two hours, he had worn out her pew more—the carpet, cushions, and woodwork—than she had in forty years of sitting there. Yes, it was over, and after the crowd had thinned out a bit, Adam Ladd made his way to the stage. Rebecca turned away from conversing with some strangers and met him in the aisle. "Oh, Mr. Aladdin, I'm so glad you could make it! Tell me"—and she glanced at him half shyly, since his approval meant more to her and was harder to gain than that of the others—"tell me, Mr. Aladdin,—were you satisfied?"
"More than satisfied!" he said; "glad I met the child, proud I know the girl, longing to meet the woman!"
"More than satisfied!" he said; "happy I met the kid, proud I know the girl, eager to meet the woman!"
XXVIII
"TH' INEVITABLE YOKE"
Rebecca's heart beat high at this sweet praise from her hero's lips, but before she had found words to thank him, Mr. and Mrs. Cobb, who had been modestly biding their time in a corner, approached her and she introduced them to Mr. Ladd.
Rebecca's heart raced at this sweet compliment from her hero, but before she could find the words to thank him, Mr. and Mrs. Cobb, who had been patiently waiting in a corner, came over, and she introduced them to Mr. Ladd.
"Where, where is aunt Jane?" she cried, holding aunt Sarah's hand on one side and uncle Jerry's on the other.
"Where, where is Aunt Jane?" she exclaimed, holding Aunt Sarah's hand on one side and Uncle Jerry's on the other.
"I'm sorry, lovey, but we've got bad news for you."
"I'm sorry, sweetheart, but we have some bad news for you."
"Is aunt Miranda worse? She is; I can see it by your looks;" and Rebecca's color faded.
"Is Aunt Miranda doing worse? She is; I can tell from your expression;" and Rebecca's color drained.
"She had a second stroke yesterday morning jest when she was helpin' Jane lay out her things to come here to-day. Jane said you wan't to know anything about it till the exercises was all over, and we promised to keep it secret till then."
"She had a second stroke yesterday morning just when she was helping Jane get her things ready to come here today. Jane said you didn't want to know anything about it until the activities were all over, and we promised to keep it a secret until then."
"I will go right home with you, aunt Sarah. I must just run to tell Miss Maxwell, for after I had packed up to-morrow I was going to Brunswick with her. Poor aunt Miranda! And I have been so gay and happy all day, except that I was longing for mother and aunt Jane."
"I'll head home with you right now, Aunt Sarah. I just need to quickly tell Miss Maxwell, because after I finished packing for tomorrow, I was planning to go to Brunswick with her. Poor Aunt Miranda! I've been so cheerful and happy all day, except for missing Mom and Aunt Jane."
"There ain't no harm in bein' gay, lovey; that's what Jane wanted you to be. And Miranda's got her speech back, for your aunt has just sent a letter sayin' she's better; and I'm goin' to set up to-night, so you can stay here and have a good sleep, and get your things together comfortably to-morrow."
"There’s nothing wrong with being gay, dear; that’s what Jane wanted for you. And Miranda has her speech back because your aunt just sent a letter saying she’s better. I’m going to stay up tonight, so you can relax here and get a good night's sleep, then gather your things comfortably tomorrow."
"I'll pack your trunk for you, Becky dear, and attend to all our room things," said Emma Jane, who had come towards the group and heard the sorrowful news from the brick house.
"I'll pack your suitcase for you, Becky dear, and take care of all our room stuff," said Emma Jane, who had approached the group and heard the sad news from the brick house.
They moved into one of the quiet side pews, where Hannah and her husband and John joined them. From time to time some straggling acquaintance or old schoolmate would come up to congratulate Rebecca and ask why she had hidden herself in a corner. Then some member of the class would call to her excitedly, reminding her not to be late at the picnic luncheon, or begging her to be early at the class party in the evening. All this had an air of unreality to Rebecca. In the midst of the happy excitement of the last two days, when "blushing honors" had been falling thick upon her, and behind the delicious exaltation of the morning, had been the feeling that the condition was a transient one, and that the burden, the struggle, the anxiety, would soon loom again on the horizon. She longed to steal away into the woods with dear old John, grown so manly and handsome, and get some comfort from him.
They settled into one of the quiet side pews, where Hannah and her husband joined them, along with John. Occasionally, a stray acquaintance or old schoolmate would come over to congratulate Rebecca and ask why she was hiding in a corner. Then, some member of the class would call out to her excitedly, reminding her not to be late for the picnic lunch or pleading for her to arrive early at the class party that evening. All of this felt a bit surreal to Rebecca. Amid the happy excitement of the last two days, when “blushing honors” had been pouring in for her, and behind the delightful thrill of the morning, she sensed that this situation was temporary, and that the weight, the struggle, and the anxiety would soon come creeping back. She longed to slip away into the woods with dear old John, now so manly and handsome, and find some comfort with him.
Meantime Adam Ladd and Mr. Cobb had been having an animated conversation.
Meantime, Adam Ladd and Mr. Cobb had been having a lively conversation.
"I s'pose up to Boston, girls like that one are as thick as blackb'ries?" uncle Jerry said, jerking his head interrogatively in Rebecca's direction.
"I guess in Boston, girls like her are as common as blackberries?" Uncle Jerry said, nodding his head questioningly toward Rebecca.
"They may be," smiled Adam, taking in the old man's mood; "only I don't happen to know one."
"They might be," Adam smiled, considering the old man's mood; "I just don't know any."
"My eyesight bein' poor 's the reason she looked han'somest of any girl on the platform, I s'pose?"
"My poor eyesight is probably why she looked the most beautiful of any girl on the platform, I guess?"
"There's no failure in my eyes," responded Adam, "but that was how the thing seemed to me!"
"There's no failure in my view," Adam replied, "but that's how it appeared to me!"
"What did you think of her voice? Anything extry about it?"
"What did you think of her voice? Was there anything special about it?"
"Made the others sound poor and thin, I thought."
"Made the others sound weak and unimpressive, I thought."
"Well, I'm glad to hear your opinion, you bein' a traveled man, for mother says I'm foolish 'bout Rebecky and hev been sence the fust. Mother scolds me for spoilin' her, but I notice mother ain't fur behind when it comes to spoilin'. Land! it made me sick, thinkin' o' them parents travelin' miles to see their young ones graduate, and then when they got here hevin' to compare 'em with Rebecky. Good-by, Mr. Ladd, drop in some day when you come to Riverboro."
"Well, I'm glad to hear your opinion since you're a well-traveled guy. My mom says I'm foolish about Rebecky and have been since the beginning. She scolds me for spoiling her, but I notice Mom isn’t far behind when it comes to spoiling. Honestly, it made me feel sick thinking about those parents traveling for miles to see their kids graduate, only to have to compare them with Rebecky. Goodbye, Mr. Ladd. Stop by sometime when you're in Riverboro."
"I will," said Adam, shaking the old man's hand cordially; "perhaps to-morrow if I drive Rebecca home, as I shall offer to do. Do you think Miss Sawyer's condition is serious?"
"I will," said Adam, shaking the old man's hand warmly; "maybe tomorrow if I give Rebecca a ride home, which I plan to do. Do you think Miss Sawyer's condition is serious?"
"Well, the doctor don't seem to know; but anyhow she's paralyzed, and she'll never walk fur again, poor soul! She ain't lost her speech; that'll be a comfort to her."
"Well, the doctor doesn’t seem to know; but anyway, she’s paralyzed, and she’ll never walk again, poor thing! She hasn’t lost her speech; that’ll be a comfort to her."
Adam left the church, and in crossing the common came upon Miss Maxwell doing the honors of the institution, as she passed from group to group of strangers and guests. Knowing that she was deeply interested in all Rebecca's plans, he told her, as he drew her aside, that the girl would have to leave Wareham for Riverboro the next day.
Adam left the church, and as he walked across the park, he saw Miss Maxwell welcoming guests as she moved from one group of strangers to another. Since he knew she was very interested in all of Rebecca's plans, he pulled her aside and told her that the girl would have to leave Wareham for Riverboro the next day.
"That is almost more than I can bear!" exclaimed Miss Maxwell, sitting down on a bench and stabbing the greensward with her parasol. "It seems to me Rebecca never has any respite. I had so many plans for her this next month in fitting her for her position, and now she will settle down to housework again, and to the nursing of that poor, sick, cross old aunt."
"That's almost more than I can handle!" Miss Maxwell exclaimed, sitting down on a bench and poking at the grass with her parasol. "It feels like Rebecca never gets a break. I had so many plans for her this next month to prepare her for her role, and now she's going to have to go back to housework and taking care of that poor, sick, grumpy old aunt."
"If it had not been for the cross old aunt, Rebecca would still have been at Sunnybrook; and from the standpoint of educational advantages, or indeed advantages of any sort, she might as well have been in the backwoods," returned Adam.
"If it weren't for the cranky old aunt, Rebecca would still be at Sunnybrook; and in terms of educational benefits, or really any kind of benefits, she might as well have been stuck in the middle of nowhere," Adam replied.
"That is true; I was vexed when I spoke, for I thought an easier and happier day was dawning for my prodigy and pearl."
"That's true; I was annoyed when I spoke, because I thought an easier and happier day was starting for my amazing child."
"OUR prodigy and pearl," corrected Adam.
"OUR prodigy and treasure," corrected Adam.
"Oh, yes!" she laughed. "I always forget that it pleases you to pretend you discovered Rebecca."
"Oh, yes!" she chuckled. "I always forget that it makes you happy to act like you found Rebecca."
"I believe, though, that happier days are dawning for her," continued Adam. "It must be a secret for the present, but Mrs. Randall's farm will be bought by the new railroad. We must have right of way through the land, and the station will be built on her property. She will receive six thousand dollars, which, though not a fortune, will yield her three or four hundred dollars a year, if she will allow me to invest it for her. There is a mortgage on the land; that paid, and Rebecca self-supporting, the mother ought to push the education of the oldest boy, who is a fine, ambitious fellow. He should be taken away from farm work and settled at his studies."
"I believe, though, that happier days are ahead for her," continued Adam. "It has to be a secret for now, but Mrs. Randall's farm will be purchased by the new railroad. We need right of way through the land, and the station will be built on her property. She will get six thousand dollars, which, while not a fortune, will give her three or four hundred dollars a year if she lets me invest it for her. There's a mortgage on the land; once that’s paid off, and with Rebecca able to support herself, the mother should really focus on the education of the oldest boy, who is a great and ambitious kid. He should be pulled away from farm work and set up to study."
"We might form ourselves into a Randall Protective Agency, Limited," mused Miss Maxwell. "I confess I want Rebecca to have a career."
"We could create a Randall Protective Agency, Limited," Miss Maxwell thought. "I admit I want Rebecca to have a career."
"I don't," said Adam promptly.
"I don't," Adam replied quickly.
"Of course you don't. Men have no interest in the careers of women! But I know Rebecca better than you."
"Of course you don't. Men aren’t interested in women's careers! But I know Rebecca better than you do."
"You understand her mind better, but not necessarily her heart. You are considering her for the moment as prodigy; I am thinking of her more as pearl."
"You get her thinking more than her feelings. You're viewing her right now as a prodigy; I'm seeing her more as a pearl."
"Well," sighed Miss Maxwell whimsically, "prodigy or pearl, the Randall Protective Agency may pull Rebecca in opposite directions, but nevertheless she will follow her saint."
"Well," sighed Miss Maxwell playfully, "whether she’s a prodigy or a gem, the Randall Protective Agency might pull Rebecca in different directions, but she will still follow her path."
"That will content me," said Adam gravely.
"That will satisfy me," Adam said seriously.
"Particularly if the saint beckons your way." And Miss Maxwell looked up and smiled provokingly.
"Especially if the saint is calling you." And Miss Maxwell looked up and smiled teasingly.
Rebecca did not see her aunt Miranda till she had been at the brick house for several days. Miranda steadily refused to have any one but Jane in the room until her face had regained its natural look, but her door was always ajar, and Jane fancied she liked to hear Rebecca's quick, light step. Her mind was perfectly clear now, and, save that she could not move, she was most of the time quite free from pain, and alert in every nerve to all that was going on within or without the house. "Were the windfall apples being picked up for sauce; were the potatoes thick in the hills; was the corn tosselin' out; were they cuttin' the upper field; were they keepin' fly-paper laid out everywheres; were there any ants in the dairy; was the kindlin' wood holdin' out; had the bank sent the cowpons?"
Rebecca didn’t see her aunt Miranda until she had been at the brick house for several days. Miranda consistently refused to allow anyone but Jane in the room until her face had returned to its normal appearance, but her door was always slightly open, and Jane thought she liked to hear Rebecca’s quick, light step. Her mind was perfectly clear now, and aside from not being able to move, she was mostly free from pain and attentive to everything happening inside or outside the house. "Were they picking up the windfall apples for sauce? Were the potatoes growing well? Was the corn coming up? Were they cutting the upper field? Were they keeping fly paper laid out everywhere? Were there any ants in the dairy? Was the kindling wood holding out? Had the bank sent the cow coupons?"
Poor Miranda Sawyer! Hovering on the verge of the great beyond,—her body "struck" and no longer under control of her iron will,—no divine visions floated across her tired brain; nothing but petty cares and sordid anxieties. Not all at once can the soul talk with God, be He ever so near. If the heavenly language never has been learned, quick as is the spiritual sense in seizing the facts it needs, then the poor soul must use the words and phrases it has lived on and grown into day by day. Poor Miss Miranda!—held fast within the prison walls of her own nature, blind in the presence of revelation because she had never used the spiritual eye, deaf to angelic voices because she had not used the spiritual ear.
Poor Miranda Sawyer! Teetering on the edge of the great beyond—her body "crashed" and no longer under the control of her strong will—no divine visions drifted through her weary mind; only trivial worries and grim anxieties. The soul can't just start chatting with God, even if He's incredibly close. If the heavenly language hasn’t been learned, as quick as the spiritual sense is to grasp the necessary facts, the poor soul must rely on the words and phrases it has experienced and adapted to day by day. Poor Miss Miranda!—trapped within the confines of her own nature, blind to revelation because she had never practiced seeing with the spiritual eye, deaf to angelic voices because she had not practiced hearing with the spiritual ear.
There came a morning when she asked for Rebecca. The door was opened into the dim sick-room, and Rebecca stood there with the sunlight behind her, her hands full of sweet peas. Miranda's pale, sharp face, framed in its nightcap, looked haggard on the pillow, and her body was pitifully still under the counterpane.
There came a morning when she asked for Rebecca. The door opened into the dim sick-room, and Rebecca stood there with the sunlight behind her, her hands full of sweet peas. Miranda's pale, sharp face, framed in its nightcap, looked exhausted on the pillow, and her body was sadly still under the blanket.
"Come in," she said; "I ain't dead yet. Don't mess up the bed with them flowers, will ye?"
"Come in," she said; "I'm not dead yet. Please don't mess up the bed with those flowers, okay?"
"Oh, no! They're going in a glass pitcher," said Rebecca, turning to the washstand as she tried to control her voice and stop the tears that sprang to her eyes.
"Oh, no! They're going in a glass pitcher," Rebecca said, turning to the washstand as she worked to steady her voice and hold back the tears that welled up in her eyes.
"Let me look at ye; come closer. What dress are ye wearin'?" said the old aunt in her cracked, weak voice.
"Let me see you; come closer. What dress are you wearing?" said the old aunt in her cracked, weak voice.
"My blue calico."
"My blue calico cat."
"Is your cashmere holdin' its color?"
"Is your cashmere keeping its color?"
"Yes, aunt Miranda."
"Yes, Aunt Miranda."
"Do you keep it in a dark closet hung on the wrong side, as I told ye?"
"Do you keep it in a dark closet hung the wrong way, like I told you?"
"Always."
"Forever."
"Has your mother made her jelly?"
"Has your mom made her jelly?"
"She hasn't said."
"She hasn't mentioned it."
"She always had the knack o' writin' letters with nothin' in 'em. What's Mark broke sence I've been sick?"
"She always had a talent for writing letters that had nothing in them. What's wrong with Mark since I've been sick?"
"Nothing at all, aunt Miranda."
"Nothing at all, Aunt Miranda."
"Why, what's the matter with him? Gittin' lazy, ain't he? How 's John turnin' out?"
"What's wrong with him? Is he getting lazy? How's John doing?"
"He's going to be the best of us all."
"He's going to be the best of all of us."
"I hope you don't slight things in the kitchen because I ain't there. Do you scald the coffee-pot and turn it upside down on the winder-sill?"
"I hope you don't neglect things in the kitchen just because I'm not there. Do you boil the coffee pot and turn it upside down on the windowsill?"
"Yes, aunt Miranda."
"Sure, Aunt Miranda."
"It's always 'yes' with you, and 'yes' with Jane," groaned Miranda, trying to move her stiffened body; "but all the time I lay here knowin' there's things done the way I don't like 'em."
"It's always 'yes' with you and 'yes' with Jane," groaned Miranda, attempting to move her stiff body. "But all this time I've been lying here knowing that things are done in a way I don't like."
There was a long pause, during which Rebecca sat down by the bedside and timidly touched her aunt's hand, her heart swelling with tender pity at the gaunt face and closed eyes.
There was a long pause, during which Rebecca sat down by the bedside and hesitantly touched her aunt's hand, her heart filled with gentle compassion for the emaciated face and shut eyes.
"I was dreadful ashamed to have you graduate in cheesecloth, Rebecca, but I couldn't help it no-how. You'll hear the reason some time, and know I tried to make it up to ye. I'm afraid you was a laughin'-stock!"
"I was really embarrassed to have you graduate in cheesecloth, Rebecca, but I couldn't help it at all. You'll find out the reason sometime and know that I tried to make it up to you. I'm afraid you became a laughingstock!"
"No," Rebecca answered. "Ever so many people said our dresses were the very prettiest; they looked like soft lace. You're not to be anxious about anything. Here I am all grown up and graduated,—number three in a class of twenty-two, aunt Miranda,—and good positions offered me already. Look at me, big and strong and young, all ready to go into the world and show what you and aunt Jane have done for me. If you want me near, I'll take the Edgewood school, so that I can be here nights and Sundays to help; and if you get better, then I'll go to Augusta,—for that's a hundred dollars more, with music lessons and other things beside."
"No," Rebecca replied. "So many people said our dresses were the prettiest; they looked like soft lace. You don’t need to worry about anything. Here I am, all grown up and graduated—number three in a class of twenty-two, Aunt Miranda—and I already have good job offers. Just look at me, big and strong and young, ready to step into the world and show what you and Aunt Jane have done for me. If you want me nearby, I'll take the Edgewood school so I can be here on nights and Sundays to help; and if you get better, then I’ll go to Augusta—because that's a hundred dollars more, plus music lessons and other things."
"You listen to me," said Miranda quaveringly. "Take the best place, regardless o' my sickness. I'd like to live long enough to know you'd paid off that mortgage, but I guess I shan't."
"You listen to me," Miranda said, her voice trembling. "Take the best spot, no matter my illness. I'd like to live long enough to see you pay off that mortgage, but I guess I won't."
Here she ceased abruptly, having talked more than she had for weeks; and Rebecca stole out of the room, to cry by herself and wonder if old age must be so grim, so hard, so unchastened and unsweetened, as it slipped into the valley of the shadow.
Here she stopped suddenly, having spoken more than she had in weeks; and Rebecca quietly left the room to cry alone and question if old age has to be so harsh, so difficult, so unrefined and bitter as it entered the valley of the shadow.
The days went on, and Miranda grew stronger and stronger; her will seemed unassailable, and before long she could be moved into a chair by the window, her dominant thought being to arrive at such a condition of improvement that the doctor need not call more than once a week, instead of daily; thereby diminishing the bill, that was mounting to such a terrifying sum that it haunted her thoughts by day and dreams by night.
The days passed, and Miranda got stronger and stronger; her determination seemed rock solid, and soon she could be shifted into a chair by the window. Her main goal was to improve enough that the doctor would only need to visit once a week instead of every day, which would lower the bill that was piling up to such a frightening amount that it consumed her thoughts during the day and invaded her dreams at night.
Little by little hope stole back into Rebecca's young heart. Aunt Jane began to "clear starch" her handkerchiefs and collars and purple muslin dress, so that she might be ready to go to Brunswick at any moment when the doctor pronounced Miranda well on the road to recovery. Everything beautiful was to happen in Brunswick if she could be there by August,—everything that heart could wish or imagination conceive, for she was to be Miss Emily's very own visitor, and sit at table with college professors and other great men.
Little by little, hope returned to Rebecca's young heart. Aunt Jane started to iron her handkerchiefs, collars, and purple muslin dress so she would be ready to head to Brunswick as soon as the doctor said Miranda was on the road to recovery. Everything wonderful was supposed to happen in Brunswick if she could be there by August—everything her heart desired or her imagination could dream up, because she was going to be Miss Emily's special visitor and sit at the table with college professors and other prominent figures.
At length the day dawned when the few clean, simple dresses were packed in the hair trunk, together with her beloved coral necklace, her cheesecloth graduating dress, her class pin, aunt Jane's lace cape, and the one new hat, which she tried on every night before going to bed. It was of white chip with a wreath of cheap white roses and green leaves, and cost between two and three dollars, an unprecedented sum in Rebecca's experience. The effect of its glories when worn with her nightdress was dazzling enough, but if ever it appeared in conjunction with the cheesecloth gown, Rebecca felt that even reverend professors might regard it with respect. It is probable indeed that any professorial gaze lucky enough to meet a pair of dark eyes shining under that white rose garland would never have stopped at respect!
Finally, the day came when the few clean, simple dresses were packed in the trunk, along with her cherished coral necklace, her cheesecloth graduation dress, her class pin, Aunt Jane's lace cape, and the one new hat that she tried on every night before bed. It was made of white chip, adorned with a wreath of cheap white roses and green leaves, costing between two and three dollars—a huge amount for Rebecca. The way it sparkled when paired with her nightgown was stunning, but if it ever matched with the cheesecloth dress, Rebecca believed even the professors would look at it with respect. In fact, any professor lucky enough to meet a pair of dark eyes shining beneath that white rose garland would probably feel even more than just respect!
Then, when all was ready and Abijah Flagg at the door, came a telegram from Hannah: "Come at once. Mother has had bad accident."
Then, when everything was set and Abijah Flagg was at the door, a telegram arrived from Hannah: "Come immediately. Mom has had a serious accident."
In less than an hour Rebecca was started on her way to Sunnybrook, her heart palpitating with fear as to what might be awaiting her at her journey's end.
In under an hour, Rebecca was on her way to Sunnybrook, her heart racing with fear about what might be waiting for her at the end of her journey.
Death, at all events, was not there to meet her; but something that looked at first only too much like it. Her mother had been standing on the haymow superintending some changes in the barn, had been seized with giddiness, they thought, and slipped. The right knee was fractured and the back strained and hurt, but she was conscious and in no immediate danger, so Rebecca wrote, when she had a moment to send aunt Jane the particulars.
Death was definitely not there to greet her; instead, it was something that initially looked a lot like it. Her mother had been standing on the hayloft overseeing some changes in the barn when she got dizzy, they thought, and fell. Her right knee was broken, and her back was strained and sore, but she was alert and not in any immediate danger, so Rebecca wrote this down when she had a chance to inform Aunt Jane about the situation.
"I don' know how 'tis," grumbled Miranda, who was not able to sit up that day; "but from a child I could never lay abed without Aurelia's gettin' sick too. I don' know 's she could help fallin', though it ain't anyplace for a woman,—a haymow; but if it hadn't been that, 't would 'a' been somethin' else. Aurelia was born unfortunate. Now she'll probably be a cripple, and Rebecca'll have to nurse her instead of earning a good income somewheres else."
"I don't know how it is," grumbled Miranda, who couldn’t sit up that day. "But ever since I was a kid, I could never stay in bed without Aurelia getting sick too. I don’t know why she couldn’t avoid falling, even though a hayloft isn’t a good place for a woman. But if it hadn’t been that, it would have been something else. Aurelia was just born unlucky. Now she’ll probably be a cripple, and Rebecca will have to take care of her instead of making a decent living somewhere else."
"Her first duty 's to her mother," said aunt Jane; "I hope she'll always remember that."
"Her first responsibility is to her mother," Aunt Jane said; "I hope she always keeps that in mind."
"Nobody remembers anything they'd ought to,—at seventeen," responded Miranda. "Now that I'm strong again, there's things I want to consider with you, Jane, things that are on my mind night and day. We've talked 'em over before; now we'll settle 'em. When I'm laid away, do you want to take Aurelia and the children down here to the brick house? There's an awful passel of 'em,—Aurelia, Jenny, and Fanny; but I won't have Mark. Hannah can take him; I won't have a great boy stompin' out the carpets and ruinin' the furniture, though I know when I'm dead I can't hinder ye, if you make up your mind to do anything."
"Nobody remembers what they should at seventeen," Miranda replied. "Now that I'm feeling strong again, there are things I want to discuss with you, Jane—things that occupy my thoughts day and night. We’ve talked about them before; now we’ll settle them. When I’m gone, do you want to bring Aurelia and the kids down here to the brick house? There are a lot of them—Aurelia, Jenny, and Fanny—but I don’t want Mark. Hannah can take him; I won’t have a big boy stomping around and ruining the carpets and furniture, even though I know I won't be able to stop you if you decide to do anything after I’m gone."
"I shouldn't like to go against your feelings, especially in laying out your money, Miranda," said Jane.
"I wouldn't want to go against your feelings, especially when it comes to spending your money, Miranda," said Jane.
"Don't tell Rebecca I've willed her the brick house. She won't git it till I'm gone, and I want to take my time 'bout dyin' and not be hurried off by them that's goin' to profit by it; nor I don't want to be thanked, neither. I s'pose she'll use the front stairs as common as the back and like as not have water brought into the kitchen, but mebbe when I've been dead a few years I shan't mind. She sets such store by you, she'll want you to have your home here as long's you live, but anyway I've wrote it down that way; though Lawyer Burns's wills don't hold more'n half the time. He's cheaper, but I guess it comes out jest the same in the end. I wan't goin' to have the fust man Rebecca picks up for a husband turnin' you ou'doors."
"Don't tell Rebecca I've left her the brick house. She won't get it until I'm gone, and I want to take my time about dying and not be rushed off by those who stand to benefit from it; plus, I don't want to be thanked, either. I suppose she'll use the front stairs just like the back and probably have water brought into the kitchen, but maybe after I'm dead for a few years, I won't mind. She thinks so highly of you; she'll want you to have your home here for as long as you live, but anyway, I've written it down that way; although Lawyer Burns's wills are only good half the time. He's less expensive, but I guess it works out the same in the end. I wasn't going to let the first man Rebecca chooses for a husband kick you out."
There was a long pause, during which Jane knit silently, wiping the tears from her eyes from time to time, as she looked at the pitiful figure lying weakly on the pillows. Suddenly Miranda said slowly and feebly:—
There was a long pause, during which Jane knit quietly, wiping the tears from her eyes every so often as she glanced at the sad figure weakly resting on the pillows. Suddenly, Miranda spoke slowly and faintly:—
"I don' know after all but you might as well take Mark; I s'pose there's tame boys as well as wild ones. There ain't a mite o' sense in havin' so many children, but it's a turrible risk splittin' up families and farmin' 'em out here 'n' there; they'd never come to no good, an' everybody would keep rememberin' their mother was a Sawyer. Now if you'll draw down the curtin, I'll try to sleep."
"I don't know, but you might as well take Mark; I guess there are quiet boys as well as wild ones. It doesn't make much sense to have so many kids, but it's a terrible risk breaking up families and sending them off here and there; they'd never come to any good, and everyone would keep remembering their mother was a Sawyer. Now, if you'll close the curtain, I'll try to sleep."
XXIX
MOTHER AND DAUGHTER
Two months had gone by,—two months of steady, fagging work; of cooking, washing, ironing; of mending and caring for the three children, although Jenny was fast becoming a notable little housewife, quick, ready, and capable. They were months in which there had been many a weary night of watching by Aurelia's bedside; of soothing and bandaging and rubbing; of reading and nursing, even of feeding and bathing. The ceaseless care was growing less now, and the family breathed more freely, for the mother's sigh of pain no longer came from the stifling bedroom, where, during a hot and humid August, Aurelia had lain, suffering with every breath she drew. There would be no question of walking for many a month to come, but blessings seemed to multiply when the blinds could be opened and the bed drawn near the window; when mother, with pillows behind her, could at least sit and watch the work going on, could smile at the past agony and forget the weary hours that had led to her present comparative ease and comfort.
Two months had passed—two months of relentless, exhausting work; of cooking, cleaning, and ironing; of mending and caring for the three kids, although Jenny was quickly becoming quite the little housewife, sharp, eager, and capable. These were months filled with many tiring nights spent watching over Aurelia; comforting, bandaging, and massaging her; reading and nursing her, even feeding and bathing her. The constant care was becoming less demanding now, and the family could breathe a little easier, as the mother’s painful sighs no longer came from the stifling bedroom, where, during a hot and humid August, Aurelia had suffered with every breath. There would be no walking for many months to come, but blessings seemed to multiply when the blinds could be opened and the bed could be pulled closer to the window; when mother, propped up with pillows, could at least sit and watch the ongoing work, could smile at the past pain, and forget the exhausting hours that had brought her to her current state of relative ease and comfort.
No girl of seventeen can pass through such an ordeal and come out unchanged; no girl of Rebecca's temperament could go through it without some inward repining and rebellion. She was doing tasks in which she could not be fully happy,—heavy and trying tasks, which perhaps she could never do with complete success or satisfaction; and like promise of nectar to thirsty lips was the vision of joys she had had to put aside for the performance of dull daily duty. How brief, how fleeting, had been those splendid visions when the universe seemed open for her young strength to battle and triumph in! How soon they had faded into the light of common day! At first, sympathy and grief were so keen she thought of nothing but her mother's pain. No consciousness of self interposed between her and her filial service; then, as the weeks passed, little blighted hopes began to stir and ache in her breast; defeated ambitions raised their heads as if to sting her; unattainable delights teased her by their very nearness; by the narrow line of separation that lay between her and their realization. It is easy, for the moment, to tread the narrow way, looking neither to the right nor left, upborne by the sense of right doing; but that first joy of self-denial, the joy that is like fire in the blood, dies away; the path seems drearier and the footsteps falter. Such a time came to Rebecca, and her bright spirit flagged when the letter was received saying that her position in Augusta had been filled. There was a mutinous leap of the heart then, a beating of wings against the door of the cage, a longing for the freedom of the big world outside. It was the stirring of the powers within her, though she called it by no such grand name. She felt as if the wind of destiny were blowing her flame hither and thither, burning, consuming her, but kindling nothing. All this meant one stormy night in her little room at Sunnybrook, but the clouds blew over, the sun shone again, a rainbow stretched across the sky, while "hope clad in April green" smiled into her upturned face and beckoned her on, saying:—
No girl of seventeen can go through such an experience and remain unchanged; no girl like Rebecca could get through it without feeling some inner struggle and resistance. She was doing tasks that didn’t bring her true happiness—demanding and exhausting jobs that she might never complete with full success or satisfaction. The dreams of joyful times she had to set aside for her boring daily duties felt like sweet nectar to parched lips. Those glorious visions, when the world seemed open for her youthful strength to fight and succeed, had been so brief and fleeting! They had quickly faded into the ordinary light of day. At first, her sympathy and sorrow were so intense that she thought only of her mother's pain. She didn’t think about herself at all; her focus was solely on her duty as a daughter. But as the weeks went by, small, crushed hopes began to stir and ache within her; dreams of ambition reared their heads, ready to sting her; unattainable pleasures teased her simply by being so close, just a thin barrier of separation between her and their fulfillment. It’s easy to walk that narrow path for a time, ignoring everything around you, buoyed by the sense of doing what’s right; but the initial joy of self-sacrifice, the kind of joy that feels like fire in your veins, fades away. The road begins to feel grimmer, and your steps falter. That moment came for Rebecca, and her bright spirit dimmed when the letter arrived saying her position in Augusta had been filled. Her heart leapt rebelliously then, like wings beating against a cage door, longing for the freedom of the vast world outside. It was the stirring of her inner strength, though she didn’t label it anything so grand. She felt as if the wind of fate was tossing her around, consuming her flame without igniting anything new. All this happened one stormy night in her little room at Sunnybrook, but the clouds passed, the sun shone once more, a rainbow arched across the sky, while “hope clad in April green” smiled at her uplifted face and urged her forward, saying:—
"Grow old along with me,
The best is yet to be."
"Grow old with me,
The best is still to come."
Threads of joy ran in and out of the gray tangled web of daily living. There was the attempt at odd moments to make the bare little house less bare by bringing in out-of-doors, taking a leaf from Nature's book and noting how she conceals ugliness wherever she finds it. Then there was the satisfaction of being mistress of the poor domain; of planning, governing, deciding; of bringing order out of chaos; of implanting gayety in the place of inert resignation to the inevitable. Another element of comfort was the children's love, for they turned to her as flowers to the sun, drawing confidently on her fund of stories, serene in the conviction that there was no limit to Rebecca's power of make-believe. In this, and in yet greater things, little as she realized it, the law of compensation was working in her behalf, for in those anxious days mother and daughter found and knew each other as never before. A new sense was born in Rebecca as she hung over her mother's bed of pain and unrest,—a sense that comes only of ministering, a sense that grows only when the strong bend toward the weak. As for Aurelia, words could never have expressed her dumb happiness when the real revelation of motherhood was vouchsafed her. In all the earlier years when her babies were young, carking cares and anxieties darkened the fireside with their brooding wings. Then Rebecca had gone away, and in the long months of absence her mind and soul had grown out of her mother's knowledge, so that now, when Aurelia had time and strength to study her child, she was like some enchanting changeling. Aurelia and Hannah had gone on in the dull round and the common task, growing duller and duller; but now, on a certain stage of life's journey, who should appear but this bewildering being, who gave wings to thoughts that had only crept before; who brought color and grace and harmony into the dun brown texture of existence.
Threads of joy weaved in and out of the tangled mess of everyday life. There were attempts at random moments to make the simple little house feel less empty by bringing the outdoors inside, taking a cue from Nature and observing how she hides ugliness wherever it appears. Then there was the satisfaction of being in charge of the humble space; planning, managing, deciding; creating order from chaos; replacing despair with cheerfulness. Another source of comfort was the children's love, as they looked up to her like flowers reaching for the sun, drawing confidently from her collection of stories, assured that there was no limit to Rebecca's imagination. In this, and in even bigger ways, though she didn't fully realize it, the law of compensation was at work for her, as during those anxious days, mother and daughter discovered and understood each other as never before. A new awareness developed in Rebecca as she hovered over her mother’s bed of pain and restlessness—a feeling that comes only from caring for others, a feeling that deepens when the strong support the weak. As for Aurelia, words could never capture her silent happiness when the true experience of motherhood was gifted to her. In all the earlier years when her babies were small, burdens and worries cast a shadow over the home. Then Rebecca had left, and during the long months of absence, her mind and spirit grew beyond her mother's understanding, so now, with Aurelia finally having time and energy to appreciate her child, she was like some captivating stranger. Aurelia and Hannah had continued on in their tedious routines, becoming increasingly dull; but now, at a particular phase of life’s journey, who should appear but this extraordinary being, who infused life into thoughts that had simply crawled before; who introduced color, elegance, and harmony into the dull, brown fabric of existence.
You might harness Rebecca to the heaviest plough, and while she had youth on her side, she would always remember the green earth under her feet and the blue sky over her head. Her physical eye saw the cake she was stirring and the loaf she was kneading; her physical ear heard the kitchen fire crackling and the teakettle singing, but ever and anon her fancy mounted on pinions, rested itself, renewed its strength in the upper air. The bare little farmhouse was a fixed fact, but she had many a palace into which she now and then withdrew; palaces peopled with stirring and gallant figures belonging to the world of romance; palaces not without their heavenly apparitions too, breathing celestial counsel. Every time she retired to her citadel of dreams she came forth radiant and refreshed, as one who has seen the evening star, or heard sweet music, or smelled the rose of joy.
You could put Rebecca to work pulling the heaviest plow, and while she was still young, she would always remember the green earth beneath her feet and the blue sky above her head. Her eyes noticed the cake she was mixing and the loaf she was shaping; her ears heard the kitchen fire crackling and the kettle singing, but now and then her imagination took flight, resting and recharging in the open air. The small farmhouse was a constant reality, but she often retreated to many palaces filled with lively and noble figures from the world of fantasy; these palaces also had heavenly visions that offered divine guidance. Each time she retreated to her fortress of dreams, she emerged glowing and rejuvenated, like someone who has seen the evening star, heard beautiful music, or experienced the joy of a blooming rose.
Aurelia could have understood the feeling of a narrow-minded and conventional hen who has brought a strange, intrepid duckling into the world; but her situation was still more wonderful, for she could only compare her sensations to those of some quiet brown Dorking who has brooded an ordinary egg and hatched a bird of paradise. Such an idea had crossed her mind more than once during the past fortnight, and it flashed to and fro this mellow October morning when Rebecca came into the room with her arms full of goldenrod and flaming autumn leaves.
Aurelia could relate to the feeling of a narrow-minded and traditional hen who's brought an unusual, daring duckling into the world; but her situation was even more extraordinary, as she could only compare her feelings to those of a calm brown Dorking who has sat on a regular egg and hatched a bird of paradise. This thought had crossed her mind more than once over the past two weeks, and it came to mind again this warm October morning when Rebecca entered the room with her arms full of goldenrod and vibrant autumn leaves.
"Just a hint of the fall styles, mother," she said, slipping the stem of a gorgeous red and yellow sapling between the mattress and the foot of the bed. "This was leaning over the pool, and I was afraid it would be vain if I left it there too long looking at its beautiful reflection, so I took it away from danger; isn't it wonderful? How I wish I could carry one to poor aunt Miranda to-day! There's never a flower in the brick house when I'm away."
"Just a glimpse of the fall styles, Mom," she said, tucking the stem of a beautiful red and yellow sapling between the mattress and the foot of the bed. "This was hanging over the pool, and I was worried it would be vain to leave it there too long admiring its stunning reflection, so I took it away from harm; isn't it amazing? I wish I could bring one to poor Aunt Miranda today! There’s never a flower in the brick house when I'm not around."
It was a marvelous morning. The sun had climbed into a world that held in remembrance only a succession of golden days and starlit nights. The air was fragrant with ripening fruit, and there was a mad little bird on a tree outside the door nearly bursting his throat with joy of living. He had forgotten that summer was over, that winter must ever come; and who could think of cold winds, bare boughs, or frozen streams on such a day? A painted moth came in at the open window and settled on the tuft of brilliant leaves. Aurelia heard the bird and looked from the beauty of the glowing bush to her tall, splendid daughter, standing like young Spring with golden Autumn in her arms.
It was a beautiful morning. The sun had risen into a world that remembered only a series of golden days and starry nights. The air was filled with the scent of ripening fruit, and there was a cheerful little bird in a tree outside the door nearly singing its heart out with joy for life. It had forgotten that summer was over, that winter would always come; and who could think about cold winds, bare branches, or frozen streams on a day like this? A colorful moth flew in through the open window and landed on the cluster of vibrant leaves. Aurelia heard the bird and turned from the beauty of the glowing bush to her tall, stunning daughter, standing like young Spring with golden Autumn in her arms.
Then suddenly she covered her eyes and cried, "I can't bear it! Here I lie chained to this bed, interfering with everything you want to do. It's all wasted! All my saving and doing without; all your hard study; all Mirandy's outlay; everything that we thought was going to be the making of you!"
Then suddenly she covered her eyes and cried, "I can't take it! Here I am, stuck in this bed, getting in the way of everything you want to do. It's all useless! All my savings and sacrifices; all your hard work; all of Mirandy's efforts; everything we thought would help you succeed!"
"Mother, mother, don't talk so, don't think so!" exclaimed Rebecca, sitting down impetuously on the floor by the bed and dropping the goldenrod by her side. "Why, mother, I'm only a little past seventeen! This person in a purple calico apron with flour on her nose is only the beginnings of me! Do you remember the young tree that John transplanted? We had a dry summer and a cold winter and it didn't grow a bit, nor show anything of all we did for it; then there was a good year and it made up for lost time. This is just my little 'rooting season,' mother, but don't go and believe my day is over, because it hasn't begun! The old maple by the well that's in its hundredth year had new leaves this summer, so there must be hope for me at seventeen!"
"Mom, mom, don't say that, don't think like that!" Rebecca exclaimed, sitting down impulsively on the floor by the bed and dropping the goldenrod beside her. "Come on, Mom, I'm just a little over seventeen! This woman in a purple apron with flour on her nose is just the start of who I am! Do you remember the young tree that John moved? We had a dry summer and a cold winter, and it didn't grow at all or show any sign of all we did for it; then there came a good year and it caught up on everything. This is just my little 'rooting season,' Mom, but please don't think my time is over, because it hasn't even begun! That old maple by the well, it's a hundred years old and it had new leaves this summer, so there must be hope for me at seventeen!"
"You can put a brave face on it," sobbed Aurelia, "but you can't deceive me. You've lost your place; you'll never see your friends here, and you're nothing but a drudge!"
"You can pretend everything's fine," Aurelia cried, "but you can't fool me. You've lost your status; you'll never see your friends here, and you're just a worker!"
"I look like a drudge," said Rebecca mysteriously, with laughing eyes, "but I really am a princess; you mustn't tell, but this is only a disguise; I wear it for reasons of state. The king and queen who are at present occupying my throne are very old and tottering, and are going to abdicate shortly in my favor. It's rather a small kingdom, I suppose, as kingdoms go, so there isn't much struggle for it in royal circles, and you mustn't expect to see a golden throne set with jewels. It will probably be only of ivory with a nice screen of peacock feathers for a background; but you shall have a comfortable chair very near it, with quantities of slaves to do what they call in novels your 'lightest bidding.'"
"I may look like a servant," Rebecca said playfully, her eyes sparkling with laughter, "but I’m actually a princess; you can’t tell anyone, though, because this is just a disguise. I wear it for political reasons. The king and queen currently on my throne are really old and shaky, and they’re going to hand it over to me soon. It’s a pretty small kingdom, I guess, as far as kingdoms go, so there isn’t much competition for it in royal circles, and don’t expect to see a golden throne with jewels. It’ll probably just be an ivory chair with a nice peacock feather backdrop; but I promise you’ll have a comfy chair really close to it, with plenty of servants to do what they call in novels your 'lightest bidding.'"
Aurelia smiled in spite of herself, and though not perhaps wholly deceived, she was comforted.
Aurelia smiled despite herself, and even though she might not have been completely fooled, she felt reassured.
"I only hope you won't have to wait too long for your thrones and your kingdoms, Rebecca," she said, "and that I shall have a sight of them before I die; but life looks very hard and rough to me, what with your aunt Miranda a cripple at the brick house, me another here at the farm, you tied hand and foot, first with one and then with the other, to say nothing of Jenny and Fanny and Mark! You've got something of your father's happy disposition, or it would weigh on you as it does on me."
"I just hope you won't have to wait too long for your thrones and your kingdoms, Rebecca," she said, "and that I'll get to see them before I die; but life seems really tough and rough to me, with your Aunt Miranda a cripple at the brick house, me another one here at the farm, and you tied down, first by one thing and then by another, not to mention Jenny and Fanny and Mark! You've inherited something of your father's cheerful nature, or it would be more burdensome for you like it is for me."
"Why, mother!" cried Rebecca, clasping her knees with her hands; "why, mother, it's enough joy just to be here in the world on a day like this; to have the chance of seeing, feeling, doing, becoming! When you were seventeen, mother, wasn't it good just to be alive? You haven't forgotten?"
"Why, Mom!" cried Rebecca, hugging her knees with her hands. "Why, Mom, it's such a joy just to be in the world on a day like this; to have the opportunity to see, feel, do, and become! When you were seventeen, Mom, wasn't it great just to be alive? You haven't forgotten, have you?"
"No," said Aurelia, "but I wasn't so much alive as you are, never in the world."
"No," Aurelia said, "but I wasn't as alive as you are, not in a million years."
"I often think," Rebecca continued, walking to the window and looking out at the trees,—"I often think how dreadful it would be if I were not here at all. If Hannah had come, and then, instead of me, John; John and Jenny and Fanny and the others, but no Rebecca; never any Rebecca! To be alive makes up for everything; there ought to be fears in my heart, but there aren't; something stronger sweeps them out, something like a wind. Oh, see! There is Will driving up the lane, mother, and he ought to have a letter from the brick house."
"I often think," Rebecca continued, walking to the window and looking out at the trees, "I often think how awful it would be if I weren't here at all. If Hannah had come, and then instead of me, it was John; John, Jenny, Fanny, and the others, but no Rebecca; never any Rebecca! Just being alive makes up for everything; I should have fears in my heart, but I don’t; something stronger sweeps them away, something like a wind. Oh, look! There’s Will driving up the lane, Mom, and he should have a letter from the brick house."
XXX
GOOD-BY, SUNNYBROOK
Will Melville drove up to the window and, tossing a letter into Rebecca's lap, went off to the barn on an errand.
Will Melville drove up to the window and tossed a letter into Rebecca's lap before heading off to the barn on an errand.
"Sister 's no worse, then," sighed Aurelia gratefully, "or Jane would have telegraphed. See what she says."
"Sister's no worse, then," sighed Aurelia with relief, "or Jane would have texted. Let's see what she says."
Rebecca opened the envelope and read in one flash of an eye the whole brief page:—
Rebecca opened the envelope and read the entire short page in a single glance:—
Your aunt Miranda passed away an hour ago. Come at once, if
your mother is out of danger. I shall not have the funeral
till you are here. She died very suddenly and without any
pain. Oh, Rebecca! I long for you so!
Aunt Jane.
Your aunt Miranda passed away an hour ago. Come right away, if your mom is out of danger. I won’t hold the funeral until you arrive. She died very suddenly and without any pain. Oh, Rebecca! I miss you so much!
Aunt Jane.
The force of habit was too strong, and even in the hour of death Jane had remembered that a telegram was twenty-five cents, and that Aurelia would have to pay half a dollar for its delivery.
The force of habit was too strong, and even in her final moments, Jane remembered that a telegram cost twenty-five cents, and that Aurelia would have to pay fifty cents for its delivery.
Rebecca burst into a passion of tears as she cried, "Poor, poor aunt Miranda! She is gone without taking a bit of comfort in life, and I couldn't say good-by to her! Poor lonely aunt Jane! What can I do, mother? I feel torn in two, between you and the brick house."
Rebecca broke down in tears as she exclaimed, "Poor, poor Aunt Miranda! She’s gone without enjoying any comfort in life, and I didn’t get to say goodbye to her! Poor lonely Aunt Jane! What should I do, Mom? I feel torn between you and the brick house."
"You must go this very instant," said Aurelia; starting from her pillows. "If I was to die while you were away, I would say the very same thing. Your aunts have done everything in the world for you,—more than I've ever been able to do,—and it is your turn to pay back some o' their kindness and show your gratitude. The doctor says I've turned the corner and I feel I have. Jenny can make out somehow, if Hannah'll come over once a day."
"You need to go right now," Aurelia said, sitting up from her pillows. "If I were to die while you're gone, I would say the same thing. Your aunts have done everything for you—more than I’ve ever been able to do—and it's your turn to repay some of their kindness and show your gratitude. The doctor says I've turned the corner, and I feel that way too. Jenny can manage somehow if Hannah comes over once a day."
"But, mother, I CAN'T go! Who'll turn you in bed?" exclaimed Rebecca, walking the floor and wringing her hands distractedly.
"But, Mom, I CAN'T go! Who's going to help you in bed?" Rebecca exclaimed, pacing the floor and wringing her hands anxiously.
"It don't make any difference if I don't get turned," replied Aurelia stoically. "If a woman of my age and the mother of a family hasn't got sense enough not to slip off haymows, she'd ought to suffer. Go put on your black dress and pack your bag. I'd give a good deal if I was able to go to my sister's funeral and prove that I've forgotten and forgiven all she said when I was married. Her acts were softer 'n her words, Mirandy's were, and she's made up to you for all she ever sinned against me 'n' your father! And oh, Rebecca," she continued with quivering voice, "I remember so well when we were little girls together and she took such pride in curling my hair; and another time, when we were grown up, she lent me her best blue muslin: it was when your father had asked me to lead the grand march with him at the Christmas dance, and I found out afterwards she thought he'd intended to ask her!"
"It doesn't matter if I don't get changed," Aurelia replied stoically. "If a woman my age and a mother of a family isn't sensible enough not to fall off haymows, she deserves to suffer. Go put on your black dress and pack your bag. I’d give a lot to be able to attend my sister's funeral and show that I’ve forgotten and forgiven everything she said during my wedding. Her actions were softer than her words, Mirandy’s were, and she’s made up for everything she ever did against me and your father! And oh, Rebecca," she continued with a trembling voice, "I remember so well when we were little girls together and she took such pride in curling my hair; and that other time, when we were grown up, she lent me her best blue muslin. It was when your father had asked me to lead the grand march with him at the Christmas dance, and I later found out she thought he intended to ask her!”
Here Aurelia broke down and wept bitterly; for the recollection of the past had softened her heart and brought the comforting tears even more effectually than the news of her sister's death.
Here Aurelia broke down and cried hard; for the memories of the past had softened her heart and brought her comforting tears even more powerfully than the news of her sister's death.
There was only an hour for preparation. Will would drive Rebecca to Temperance and send Jenny back from school. He volunteered also to engage a woman to sleep at the farm in case Mrs. Randall should be worse at any time in the night.
There was only an hour to get ready. Will would drive Rebecca to Temperance and send Jenny back from school. He also offered to hire a woman to stay at the farm in case Mrs. Randall's condition worsened at any point during the night.
Rebecca flew down over the hill to get a last pail of spring water, and as she lifted the bucket from the crystal depths and looked out over the glowing beauty of the autumn landscape, she saw a company of surveyors with their instruments making calculations and laying lines that apparently crossed Sunnybrook at the favorite spot where Mirror Pool lay clear and placid, the yellow leaves on its surface no yellower than its sparkling sands.
Rebecca rushed down the hill to grab one last bucket of spring water, and as she pulled the bucket up from the clear depths and gazed out at the stunning autumn scenery, she noticed a group of surveyors with their equipment making measurements and laying out lines that seemed to intersect Sunnybrook at the beloved spot where Mirror Pool lay calm and serene, the yellow leaves on its surface no more vibrant than its sparkling sands.
She caught her breath. "The time has come!" she thought. "I am saying good-by to Sunnybrook, and the golden gates that almost swung together that last day in Wareham will close forever now. Good-by, dear brook and hills and meadows; you are going to see life too, so we must be hopeful and say to one another:—
She took a deep breath. "The moment has arrived!" she thought. "I’m saying goodbye to Sunnybrook, and the golden gates that almost closed that last day in Wareham will shut for good now. Goodbye, dear brook and hills and meadows; you’re going to experience life too, so we should be optimistic and tell each other:—
"'Grow old along with me,
The best is yet to be.'"
"'Grow old with me,
The best is yet to come.'"
Will Melville had seen the surveyors too, and had heard in the Temperance post-office that morning the probable sum that Mrs. Randall would receive from the railway company. He was in good spirits at his own improved prospects, for his farm was so placed that its value could be only increased by the new road; he was also relieved in mind that his wife's family would no longer be in dire poverty directly at his doorstep, so to speak. John could now be hurried forward and forced into the position of head of the family several years sooner than had been anticipated, so Hannah's husband was obliged to exercise great self-control or he would have whistled while he was driving Rebecca to the Temperance station. He could not understand her sad face or the tears that rolled silently down her cheeks from time to time; for Hannah had always represented her aunt Miranda as an irascible, parsimonious old woman, who would be no loss to the world whenever she should elect to disappear from it.
Will Melville had also seen the surveyors and heard at the Temperance post office that morning the likely amount Mrs. Randall would receive from the railway company. He was in good spirits about his own improved prospects, as his farm was located such that its value could only increase with the new road. He was also relieved that his wife’s family would no longer face extreme poverty right at his doorstep, so to speak. John could now be pushed into the role of head of the family several years sooner than expected, so Hannah’s husband had to exercise great self-control or he would have whistled while driving Rebecca to the Temperance station. He couldn’t understand her sad face or the tears that occasionally rolled silently down her cheeks; after all, Hannah had always portrayed her aunt Miranda as a irritable, miserly old woman who would be no great loss to the world whenever she chose to leave it.
"Cheer up, Becky!" he said, as he left her at the depot. "You'll find your mother sitting up when you come back, and the next thing you know the whole family'll be moving to some nice little house wherever your work is. Things will never be so bad again as they have been this last year; that's what Hannah and I think;" and he drove away to tell his wife the news.
"Cheer up, Becky!" he said as he left her at the station. "You'll find your mom waiting for you when you get back, and before you know it, the whole family will be moving into some nice little house near your job. Things won't be as tough as they were this past year; that's what Hannah and I believe;" and he drove off to share the news with his wife.
Adam Ladd was in the station and came up to Rebecca instantly, as she entered the door looking very unlike her bright self.
Adam Ladd was at the station and approached Rebecca immediately as she walked in, appearing very different from her usual cheerful self.
"The Princess is sad this morning," he said, taking her hand. "Aladdin must rub the magic lamp; then the slave will appear, and these tears be dried in a trice."
"The Princess is feeling down this morning," he said, taking her hand. "Aladdin needs to rub the magic lamp; then the genie will show up, and these tears will be wiped away in no time."
He spoke lightly, for he thought her trouble was something connected with affairs at Sunnybrook, and that he could soon bring the smiles by telling her that the farm was sold and that her mother was to receive a handsome price in return. He meant to remind her, too, that though she must leave the home of her youth, it was too remote a place to be a proper dwelling either for herself or for her lonely mother and the three younger children. He could hear her say as plainly as if it were yesterday, "I don't think one ever forgets the spot where one lived as a child." He could see the quaint little figure sitting on the piazza at North Riverboro and watch it disappear in the lilac bushes when he gave the memorable order for three hundred cakes of Rose-Red and Snow-White soap.
He spoke casually because he thought her worries were related to things happening at Sunnybrook, and that he could quickly cheer her up by telling her the farm had sold and that her mom was getting a good amount of money for it. He also wanted to remind her that even though she had to leave her childhood home, it was too isolated to be a proper place for her, her lonely mom, and her three younger siblings. He could hear her say just like it was yesterday, "I don't think anyone ever forgets the place where they lived as a child." He could picture her little figure sitting on the porch at North Riverboro and watch it vanish into the lilac bushes when he gave the memorable order for three hundred cakes of Rose-Red and Snow-White soap.
A word or two soon told him that her grief was of another sort, and her mood was so absent, so sensitive and tearful, that he could only assure her of his sympathy and beg that he might come soon to the brick house to see with his own eyes how she was faring.
A word or two quickly revealed to him that her sadness was different, and her mood was so distant, so emotional and tearful, that he could only express his sympathy and ask if he could come soon to the brick house to see for himself how she was doing.
Adam thought, when he had put her on the train and taken his leave, that Rebecca was, in her sad dignity and gravity, more beautiful than he had ever seen her,—all-beautiful and all-womanly. But in that moment's speech with her he had looked into her eyes and they were still those of a child; there was no knowledge of the world in their shining depths, no experience of men or women, no passion, nor comprehension of it. He turned from the little country station to walk in the woods by the wayside until his own train should be leaving, and from time to time he threw himself under a tree to think and dream and look at the glory of the foliage. He had brought a new copy of The Arabian Nights for Rebecca, wishing to replace the well-worn old one that had been the delight of her girlhood; but meeting her at such an inauspicious time, he had absently carried it away with him. He turned the pages idly until he came to the story of Aladdin and the Wonderful Lamp, and presently, in spite of his thirty-four years, the old tale held him spellbound as it did in the days when he first read it as a boy. But there were certain paragraphs that especially caught his eye and arrested his attention,—paragraphs that he read and reread, finding in them he knew not what secret delight and significance. These were the quaintly turned phrases describing the effect on the once poor Aladdin of his wonderful riches, and those descanting upon the beauty and charm of the Sultan's daughter, the Princess Badroulboudour:—
Adam thought, after he had put her on the train and said goodbye, that Rebecca was, in her sad dignity and seriousness, more beautiful than he had ever seen her—all-beautiful and all-womanly. But in that moment of talking with her, he had looked into her eyes, and they were still those of a child; there was no understanding of the world in their shining depths, no experience with men or women, no passion, nor comprehension of it. He turned from the little country station to walk in the woods by the roadside until his own train was scheduled to leave, and from time to time he would throw himself under a tree to think and dream and admire the beauty of the leaves. He had brought a new copy of The Arabian Nights for Rebecca, hoping to replace the well-worn old one that had brought her joy during her childhood; but meeting her at such an unfortunate time, he had absentmindedly taken it with him. He flipped through the pages casually until he came to the story of Aladdin and the Wonderful Lamp, and soon, despite being thirty-four, the old tale enchanted him just like when he first read it as a boy. But there were certain paragraphs that particularly caught his attention—paragraphs he read and reread, finding in them some unknown secret delight and meaning. These were the cleverly worded phrases describing how the once-poor Aladdin was affected by his incredible wealth and those talking about the beauty and charm of the Sultan's daughter, Princess Badroulboudour:—
Not only those who knew Aladdin when he played in the streets like a vagabond did not know him again; those who had seen him but a little while before hardly knew him, so much were his features altered; such were the effects of the lamp, as to procure by degrees to those who possessed it, perfections agreeable to the rank the right use of it advanced them to.
Not only did the people who knew Aladdin when he was a street kid not recognize him anymore; even those who had seen him just a little while before barely knew him, because his appearance had changed so much. The effects of the lamp gradually transformed those who owned it, granting them qualities that matched the status they achieved through its proper use.
The Princess was the most beautiful brunette in the world; her eyes were large, lively, and sparkling; her looks sweet and modest; her nose was of a just proportion and without a fault; her mouth small, her lips of a vermilion red, and charmingly agreeable symmetry; in a word, all the features of her face were perfectly regular. It is not therefore surprising that Aladdin, who had never seen, and was a stranger to, so many charms, was dazzled. With all these perfections the Princess had so delicate a shape, so majestic an air, that the sight of her was sufficient to inspire respect.
The Princess was the most beautiful brunette in the world; her eyes were large, lively, and sparkling; her expression sweet and modest; her nose perfectly proportioned and flawless; her mouth small, her lips a vibrant red, with a charming symmetry; in short, every feature of her face was perfectly shaped. It's no wonder that Aladdin, who had never encountered such beauty, was mesmerized. Along with all these wonderful traits, the Princess had an exquisite figure and a regal presence that commanded respect just by being seen.
"Adorable Princess," said Aladdin to her, accosting her, and saluting her respectfully, "if I have the misfortune to have displeased you by my boldness in aspiring to the possession of so lovely a creature, I must tell you that you ought to blame your bright eyes and charms, not me."
"Charming Princess," Aladdin said to her as he approached and greeted her respectfully, "if I've offended you by daring to desire someone as beautiful as you, you should blame your stunning eyes and allure, not me."
"Prince," answered the Princess, "it is enough for me to have seen you, to tell you that I obey without reluctance."
"Prince," replied the Princess, "it’s enough for me to have seen you to say that I obey without hesitation."
XXXI
AUNT MIRANDA'S APOLOGY
When Rebecca alighted from the train at Maplewood and hurried to the post-office where the stage was standing, what was her joy to see uncle Jerry Cobb holding the horses' heads.
When Rebecca got off the train at Maplewood and rushed to the post office where the stage was parked, she was overjoyed to see Uncle Jerry Cobb holding the horses' heads.
"The reg'lar driver 's sick," he explained, "and when they sent for me, thinks I to myself, my drivin' days is over, but Rebecky won't let the grass grow under her feet when she gits her aunt Jane's letter, and like as not I'll ketch her to-day; or, if she gits delayed, to-morrow for certain. So here I be jest as I was more 'n six year ago. Will you be a real lady passenger, or will ye sit up in front with me?"
"The regular driver is sick," he explained, "and when they called me, I thought my driving days were over. But Rebecky won’t waste any time once she gets her aunt Jane's letter, and I’ll probably catch her today; or if she gets delayed, definitely tomorrow. So here I am, just like I was more than six years ago. Will you be a proper lady passenger, or will you sit up front with me?"
Emotions of various sorts were all struggling together in the old man's face, and the two or three bystanders were astounded when they saw the handsome, stately girl fling herself on Mr. Cobb's dusty shoulder crying like a child. "Oh, uncle Jerry!" she sobbed; "dear uncle Jerry! It's all so long ago, and so much has happened, and we've grown so old, and so much is going to happen that I'm fairly frightened."
Emotions of all kinds were battling for dominance on the old man's face, and the few onlookers were shocked when they saw the beautiful, dignified girl throw herself onto Mr. Cobb's dusty shoulder, crying like a child. "Oh, Uncle Jerry!" she sobbed; "dear Uncle Jerry! It's been such a long time, and so much has happened, and we've all gotten so old, and so much is still going to happen that I'm really scared."
"There, there, lovey," the old man whispered comfortingly, "we'll be all alone on the stage, and we'll talk things over 's we go along the road an' mebbe they won't look so bad."
"There, there, sweetheart," the old man whispered soothingly, "we'll be all alone on stage, and we'll talk things over as we go along the road, and maybe they won't seem so bad."
Every mile of the way was as familiar to Rebecca as to uncle Jerry; every watering-trough, grindstone, red barn, weather-vane, duck-pond, and sandy brook. And all the time she was looking backward to the day, seemingly so long ago, when she sat on the box seat for the first time, her legs dangling in the air, too short to reach the footboard. She could smell the big bouquet of lilacs, see the pink-flounced parasol, feel the stiffness of the starched buff calico and the hated prick of the black and yellow porcupine quills. The drive was taken almost in silence, but it was a sweet, comforting silence both to uncle Jerry and the girl.
Every mile of the journey was just as familiar to Rebecca as it was to Uncle Jerry—every watering trough, grindstone, red barn, weather vane, duck pond, and sandy brook. The whole time, she was thinking back to that day, which felt like ages ago, when she first sat on the box seat, her legs swinging in the air, too short to reach the footboard. She could smell the big bouquet of lilacs, see the pink-fringed parasol, feel the stiffness of the starched buff calico, and the annoying prick of the black and yellow porcupine quills. The drive was mostly in silence, but it was a sweet, comforting silence for both Uncle Jerry and the girl.
Then came the sight of Abijah Flagg shelling beans in the barn, and then the Perkins attic windows with a white cloth fluttering from them. She could spell Emma Jane's loving thought and welcome in that little waving flag; a word and a message sent to her just at the first moment when Riverboro chimneys rose into view; something to warm her heart till they could meet.
Then she saw Abijah Flagg shelling beans in the barn and the Perkins attic windows with a white cloth fluttering from them. She could feel Emma Jane's loving thoughts and welcome in that little waving flag; a word and a message sent to her right at the moment when Riverboro chimneys came into view; something to warm her heart until they could meet.
The brick house came next, looking just as of yore; though it seemed to Rebecca as if death should have cast some mysterious spell over it. There were the rolling meadows, the stately elms, all yellow and brown now; the glowing maples, the garden-beds bright with asters, and the hollyhocks, rising tall against the parlor windows; only in place of the cheerful pinks and reds of the nodding stalks, with their gay rosettes of bloom, was a crape scarf holding the blinds together, and another on the sitting-room side, and another on the brass knocker of the brown-painted door.
The brick house was next, looking just like it always had; but to Rebecca, it felt as if death had cast a strange spell over it. There were the rolling meadows, the grand elms, all yellow and brown now; the vibrant maples, the flowerbeds bright with asters, and the tall hollyhocks standing proudly against the parlor windows. Instead of the cheerful pinks and reds of the swaying stalks with their bright blooms, there was a black mourning scarf holding the blinds together, one on the sitting-room side, and another on the brass knocker of the brown-painted door.
"Stop, uncle Jerry! Don't turn in at the side; hand me my satchel, please; drop me in the road and let me run up the path by myself. Then drive away quickly."
"Stop, Uncle Jerry! Don't pull over; just hand me my bag, please. Let me out here so I can run up the path on my own. Then drive off quickly."
At the noise and rumble of the approaching stage the house door opened from within, just as Rebecca closed the gate behind her. Aunt Jane came down the stone steps, a changed woman, frail and broken and white. Rebecca held out her arms and the old aunt crept into them feebly, as she did on that day when she opened the grave of her buried love and showed the dead face, just for an instant, to a child. Warmth and strength and life flowed into the aged frame from the young one.
At the sound and rumble of the approaching stage, the front door opened just as Rebecca closed the gate behind her. Aunt Jane descended the stone steps, looking like a different woman—fragile, worn out, and pale. Rebecca opened her arms, and the elderly aunt weakly stepped into her embrace, just like that day when she opened the grave of her lost love and briefly showed the dead face to a child. Warmth, strength, and life poured from the young one into the frail body of the elder.
"Rebecca," she said, raising her head, "before you go in to look at her, do you feel any bitterness over anything she ever said to you?"
"Rebecca," she said, lifting her head, "before you go in to see her, do you hold any resentment about anything she ever said to you?"
Rebecca's eyes blazed reproach, almost anger, as she said chokingly: "Oh, aunt Jane! Could you believe it of me? I am going in with a heart brimful of gratitude!"
Rebecca's eyes glowed with disappointment, almost anger, as she said with difficulty: "Oh, Aunt Jane! Can you really believe that about me? I'm going in with a heart full of gratitude!"
"She was a good woman, Rebecca; she had a quick temper and a sharp tongue, but she wanted to do right, and she did it as near as she could. She never said so, but I'm sure she was sorry for every hard word she spoke to you; she didn't take 'em back in life, but she acted so 't you'd know her feeling when she was gone."
"She was a good woman, Rebecca; she had a quick temper and a sharp tongue, but she wanted to do the right thing, and she did it as well as she could. She never admitted it, but I’m sure she regretted every harsh word she said to you; she didn’t take them back while she was alive, but she behaved in a way that showed her true feelings after she was gone."
"I told her before I left that she'd been the making of me, just as mother says," sobbed Rebecca.
"I told her before I left that she'd made me who I am, just like Mom says," cried Rebecca.
"She wasn't that," said Jane. "God made you in the first place, and you've done considerable yourself to help Him along; but she gave you the wherewithal to work with, and that ain't to be despised; specially when anybody gives up her own luxuries and pleasures to do it. Now let me tell you something, Rebecca. Your aunt Mirandy 's willed all this to you,—the brick house and buildings and furniture, and the land all round the house, as far 's you can see."
"She wasn't like that," Jane said. "God made you in the first place, and you've done a lot yourself to help Him out; but she gave you the tools to work with, and that's not something to look down on, especially when someone gives up her own comforts and pleasures to do it. Now let me tell you something, Rebecca. Your Aunt Mirandy has left all this to you—the brick house and buildings and furniture, and the land all around the house, as far as you can see."
Rebecca threw off her hat and put her hand to her heart, as she always did in moments of intense excitement. After a moment's silence she said: "Let me go in alone; I want to talk to her; I want to thank her; I feel as if I could make her hear and feel and understand!"
Rebecca tossed her hat aside and pressed her hand to her heart, just like she always did when she was really excited. After a brief pause, she said, “Let me go in by myself; I need to talk to her; I want to thank her; I feel like I can make her hear me, feel it, and understand!”
Jane went back into the kitchen to the inexorable tasks that death has no power, even for a day, to blot from existence. He can stalk through dwelling after dwelling, leaving despair and desolation behind him, but the table must be laid, the dishes washed, the beds made, by somebody.
Jane went back into the kitchen to tackle the unavoidable tasks that death can never erase, even for a single day. It can move through home after home, leaving behind despair and emptiness, but the table still has to be set, the dishes washed, and the beds made by someone.
Ten minutes later Rebecca came out from the Great Presence looking white and spent, but chastened and glorified. She sat in the quiet doorway, shaded from the little Riverboro world by the overhanging elms. A wide sense of thankfulness and peace possessed her, as she looked at the autumn landscape, listened to the rumble of a wagon on the bridge, and heard the call of the river as it dashed to the sea. She put up her hand softly and touched first the shining brass knocker and then the red bricks, glowing in the October sun.
Ten minutes later, Rebecca stepped out from the Great Presence looking pale and exhausted, but also enlightened and uplifted. She sat in the calm doorway, sheltered from the small Riverboro world by the tall elms overhead. A deep sense of gratitude and tranquility filled her as she gazed at the autumn scenery, listened to the sound of a wagon rolling over the bridge, and heard the river calling as it rushed to the sea. She gently raised her hand and first touched the shiny brass knocker and then the warm red bricks, glowing in the October sunlight.
It was home; her roof, her garden, her green acres, her dear trees; it was shelter for the little family at Sunnybrook; her mother would have once more the companionship of her sister and the friends of her girlhood; the children would have teachers and playmates.
It was home; her roof, her garden, her green land, her beloved trees; it was a safe place for the little family at Sunnybrook; her mother would once again have the company of her sister and the friends from her youth; the children would have teachers and playmates.
And she? Her own future was close-folded still; folded and hidden in beautiful mists; but she leaned her head against the sun-warmed door, and closing her eyes, whispered, just as if she had been a child saying her prayers: "God bless aunt Miranda; God bless the brick house that was; God bless the brick house that is to be!"
And her? Her future was still uncertain; wrapped up and hidden in beautiful uncertainties; but she rested her head against the sun-warmed door, and closing her eyes, whispered, just like a child saying her prayers: "God bless Aunt Miranda; God bless the brick house that was; God bless the brick house that is yet to come!"
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