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Jacob's Room

Jacob's Space

VIRGINIA WOOLF

CHAPTER ONE

"So of course," wrote Betty Flanders, pressing her heels rather deeper in the sand, "there was nothing for it but to leave."

"So of course," wrote Betty Flanders, digging her heels a little deeper into the sand, "there was no choice but to leave."

Slowly welling from the point of her gold nib, pale blue ink dissolved the full stop; for there her pen stuck; her eyes fixed, and tears slowly filled them. The entire bay quivered; the lighthouse wobbled; and she had the illusion that the mast of Mr. Connor's little yacht was bending like a wax candle in the sun. She winked quickly. Accidents were awful things. She winked again. The mast was straight; the waves were regular; the lighthouse was upright; but the blot had spread.

Slowly oozing from the tip of her gold pen, pale blue ink erased the period; her pen got stuck there; her eyes were locked, and tears started to fill them. The whole bay trembled; the lighthouse swayed; and she imagined that the mast of Mr. Connor's small yacht was bending like a wax candle in the sun. She blinked quickly. Accidents were terrible things. She blinked again. The mast was straight; the waves were steady; the lighthouse was upright; but the ink blot had spread.

"… nothing for it but to leave," she read.

"… there was nothing to do but leave," she read.

"Well, if Jacob doesn't want to play" (the shadow of Archer, her eldest son, fell across the notepaper and looked blue on the sand, and she felt chilly—it was the third of September already), "if Jacob doesn't want to play"—what a horrid blot! It must be getting late.

"Well, if Jacob doesn't want to play" (the shadow of Archer, her oldest son, fell across the notepaper and looked blue on the sand, and she felt cold—it was already the third of September), "if Jacob doesn't want to play"—what a terrible smudge! It must be getting late.

"Where IS that tiresome little boy?" she said. "I don't see him. Run and find him. Tell him to come at once." "… but mercifully," she scribbled, ignoring the full stop, "everything seems satisfactorily arranged, packed though we are like herrings in a barrel, and forced to stand the perambulator which the landlady quite naturally won't allow…."

"Where is that annoying little boy?" she said. "I can't see him. Go and find him. Tell him to come right away." "… but thankfully," she wrote quickly, ignoring the period, "everything seems to be in order, even though we're crammed in here like sardines, and we have to deal with the stroller that the landlady understandably won't let us keep…."

Such were Betty Flanders's letters to Captain Barfoot—many-paged, tear-stained. Scarborough is seven hundred miles from Cornwall: Captain Barfoot is in Scarborough: Seabrook is dead. Tears made all the dahlias in her garden undulate in red waves and flashed the glass house in her eyes, and spangled the kitchen with bright knives, and made Mrs. Jarvis, the rector's wife, think at church, while the hymn-tune played and Mrs. Flanders bent low over her little boys' heads, that marriage is a fortress and widows stray solitary in the open fields, picking up stones, gleaning a few golden straws, lonely, unprotected, poor creatures. Mrs. Flanders had been a widow for these two years.

Such were Betty Flanders's letters to Captain Barfoot—long, tear-stained. Scarborough is seven hundred miles from Cornwall: Captain Barfoot is in Scarborough: Seabrook is dead. Tears made all the dahlias in her garden sway in red waves, reflected in her glassy eyes, and filled the kitchen with the shimmer of bright knives. They also led Mrs. Jarvis, the rector's wife, to think at church, while the hymn played and Mrs. Flanders leaned down over her little boys' heads, that marriage is a fortress and widows wander alone in open fields, picking up stones, gathering a few golden straws, lonely, unprotected, poor souls. Mrs. Flanders had been a widow for two years now.

"Ja—cob! Ja—cob!" Archer shouted.

"Jake! Jake!" Archer shouted.

"Scarborough," Mrs. Flanders wrote on the envelope, and dashed a bold line beneath; it was her native town; the hub of the universe. But a stamp? She ferreted in her bag; then held it up mouth downwards; then fumbled in her lap, all so vigorously that Charles Steele in the Panama hat suspended his paint-brush.

"Scarborough," Mrs. Flanders wrote on the envelope, and dashed a bold line beneath; it was her hometown; the center of the universe. But a stamp? She rummaged through her bag; then held it up upside down; then fumbled in her lap, all so energetically that Charles Steele in the Panama hat paused his paintbrush.

Like the antennae of some irritable insect it positively trembled. Here was that woman moving—actually going to get up—confound her! He struck the canvas a hasty violet-black dab. For the landscape needed it. It was too pale—greys flowing into lavenders, and one star or a white gull suspended just so—too pale as usual. The critics would say it was too pale, for he was an unknown man exhibiting obscurely, a favourite with his landladies' children, wearing a cross on his watch chain, and much gratified if his landladies liked his pictures—which they often did.

Like the antennae of some annoying insect, it was actually trembling. There was that woman moving—actually about to get up—damn her! He slapped a quick violet-black stroke onto the canvas. The landscape needed it. It was too washed out—greys blending into lavenders, and one star or a white gull hanging just so—too washed out as usual. The critics would say it was too washed out since he was an unknown artist showing in a small space, a favorite with his landladies' kids, wearing a cross on his watch chain, and feeling quite pleased if his landladies liked his paintings—which they often did.

"Ja—cob! Ja—cob!" Archer shouted.

"Jacob! Jacob!" Archer shouted.

Exasperated by the noise, yet loving children, Steele picked nervously at the dark little coils on his palette.

Exhausted by the noise, yet fond of children, Steele nervously picked at the dark little blobs on his palette.

"I saw your brother—I saw your brother," he said, nodding his head, as Archer lagged past him, trailing his spade, and scowling at the old gentleman in spectacles.

"I saw your brother—I saw your brother," he said, nodding his head, as Archer walked past him slowly, dragging his spade and frowning at the old man in glasses.

"Over there—by the rock," Steele muttered, with his brush between his teeth, squeezing out raw sienna, and keeping his eyes fixed on Betty Flanders's back.

"Over there—by the rock," Steele muttered, with his brush between his teeth, squeezing out raw sienna, and keeping his eyes on Betty Flanders's back.

"Ja—cob! Ja—cob!" shouted Archer, lagging on after a second.

"Jacob! Jacob!" shouted Archer, falling behind after a moment.

The voice had an extraordinary sadness. Pure from all body, pure from all passion, going out into the world, solitary, unanswered, breaking against rocks—so it sounded.

The voice had an incredible sadness. Clean of all physical presence, free from any emotion, reaching out into the world, alone, unrecognized, crashing against rocks—that's how it sounded.

Steele frowned; but was pleased by the effect of the black—it was just THAT note which brought the rest together. "Ah, one may learn to paint at fifty! There's Titian…" and so, having found the right tint, up he looked and saw to his horror a cloud over the bay.

Steele frowned but was happy with how the black looked—it was exactly the note that brought everything else together. "Ah, you can learn to paint at fifty! There's Titian..." And so, having found the perfect shade, he looked up and was horrified to see a cloud over the bay.

Mrs. Flanders rose, slapped her coat this side and that to get the sand off, and picked up her black parasol.

Mrs. Flanders stood up, brushed her coat on both sides to shake off the sand, and grabbed her black umbrella.

The rock was one of those tremendously solid brown, or rather black, rocks which emerge from the sand like something primitive. Rough with crinkled limpet shells and sparsely strewn with locks of dry seaweed, a small boy has to stretch his legs far apart, and indeed to feel rather heroic, before he gets to the top.

The rock was one of those incredibly solid brown, or more accurately, black rocks that stick out of the sand like something ancient. Covered in rough, crinkled limpet shells and scattered with bits of dry seaweed, a small boy has to spread his legs wide and really feel kind of heroic before he reaches the top.

But there, on the very top, is a hollow full of water, with a sandy bottom; with a blob of jelly stuck to the side, and some mussels. A fish darts across. The fringe of yellow-brown seaweed flutters, and out pushes an opal-shelled crab—

But there, at the very top, is a pool of water with a sandy bottom; there’s a blob of jelly attached to the side and some mussels. A fish swims by quickly. The edge of yellow-brown seaweed waves, and out comes a crab with an opal shell—

"Oh, a huge crab," Jacob murmured—and begins his journey on weakly legs on the sandy bottom. Now! Jacob plunged his hand. The crab was cool and very light. But the water was thick with sand, and so, scrambling down, Jacob was about to jump, holding his bucket in front of him, when he saw, stretched entirely rigid, side by side, their faces very red, an enormous man and woman.

"Oh, a huge crab," Jacob whispered—and began his journey on unsteady legs across the sandy bottom. Now! Jacob plunged his hand in. The crab felt cool and very light. But the water was thick with sand, and so, scrambling down, Jacob was about to jump, holding his bucket in front of him, when he saw, lying completely still, side by side, their faces very red, an enormous man and woman.

An enormous man and woman (it was early-closing day) were stretched motionless, with their heads on pocket-handkerchiefs, side by side, within a few feet of the sea, while two or three gulls gracefully skirted the incoming waves, and settled near their boots.

An enormous man and woman (it was early-closing day) were lying still, with their heads on handkerchiefs, side by side, just a few feet from the sea, while two or three seagulls elegantly glided over the incoming waves and landed near their boots.

The large red faces lying on the bandanna handkerchiefs stared up at Jacob. Jacob stared down at them. Holding his bucket very carefully, Jacob then jumped deliberately and trotted away very nonchalantly at first, but faster and faster as the waves came creaming up to him and he had to swerve to avoid them, and the gulls rose in front of him and floated out and settled again a little farther on. A large black woman was sitting on the sand. He ran towards her.

The big red faces on the bandanna handkerchiefs looked up at Jacob. Jacob looked down at them. Holding his bucket carefully, Jacob then jumped and casually trotted away at first, but picked up speed as the waves rushed toward him and he had to dodge them, while the gulls soared in front of him and drifted down a bit farther along. A large Black woman was sitting on the sand. He ran towards her.

"Nanny! Nanny!" he cried, sobbing the words out on the crest of each gasping breath.

"Nanny! Nanny!" he shouted, crying the words out with each shaky breath

The waves came round her. She was a rock. She was covered with the seaweed which pops when it is pressed. He was lost.

The waves surrounded her. She was a rock. She was covered in seaweed that makes a popping sound when pressed. He was lost.

There he stood. His face composed itself. He was about to roar when, lying among the black sticks and straw under the cliff, he saw a whole skull—perhaps a cow's skull, a skull, perhaps, with the teeth in it. Sobbing, but absent-mindedly, he ran farther and farther away until he held the skull in his arms.

There he stood. His face relaxed. He was about to shout when, lying among the black sticks and straw under the cliff, he saw a whole skull—maybe a cow's skull, a skull, perhaps, with the teeth still in it. Sobbing, but lost in thought, he kept running farther away until he held the skull in his arms.

"There he is!" cried Mrs. Flanders, coming round the rock and covering the whole space of the beach in a few seconds. "What has he got hold of? Put it down, Jacob! Drop it this moment! Something horrid, I know. Why didn't you stay with us? Naughty little boy! Now put it down. Now come along both of you," and she swept round, holding Archer by one hand and fumbling for Jacob's arm with the other. But he ducked down and picked up the sheep's jaw, which was loose.

"There he is!" yelled Mrs. Flanders, rounding the rock and crossing the entire beach in just a few seconds. "What do you have? Put it down, Jacob! Drop it right now! I can already tell it's something disgusting. Why didn't you stick with us? Bad little boy! Now put it down. Now both of you come here," and she turned, gripping Archer with one hand and trying to grab Jacob’s arm with the other. But he ducked and picked up the sheep’s jaw, which was loose.

Swinging her bag, clutching her parasol, holding Archer's hand, and telling the story of the gunpowder explosion in which poor Mr. Curnow had lost his eye, Mrs. Flanders hurried up the steep lane, aware all the time in the depths of her mind of some buried discomfort.

Swinging her bag, holding her parasol, gripping Archer's hand, and sharing the story of the gunpowder explosion that had cost poor Mr. Curnow his eye, Mrs. Flanders rushed up the steep lane, constantly aware in the back of her mind of some lingering discomfort.

There on the sand not far from the lovers lay the old sheep's skull without its jaw. Clean, white, wind-swept, sand-rubbed, a more unpolluted piece of bone existed nowhere on the coast of Cornwall. The sea holly would grow through the eye-sockets; it would turn to powder, or some golfer, hitting his ball one fine day, would disperse a little dust—No, but not in lodgings, thought Mrs. Flanders. It's a great experiment coming so far with young children. There's no man to help with the perambulator. And Jacob is such a handful; so obstinate already.

There on the sand, not far from the lovers, lay an old sheep's skull without its jaw. Clean, white, wind-swept, and sand-rubbed, there was no more unspoiled piece of bone anywhere on the coast of Cornwall. Sea holly would grow through the eye sockets; it would turn to dust, or some golfer, hitting his ball one fine day, would scatter a little powder—No, but not in lodgings, thought Mrs. Flanders. It’s a big experiment coming this far with young kids. There’s no man to help with the stroller. And Jacob is such a handful; he’s already so stubborn.

"Throw it away, dear, do," she said, as they got into the road; but Jacob squirmed away from her; and the wind rising, she took out her bonnet-pin, looked at the sea, and stuck it in afresh. The wind was rising. The waves showed that uneasiness, like something alive, restive, expecting the whip, of waves before a storm. The fishing-boats were leaning to the water's brim. A pale yellow light shot across the purple sea; and shut. The lighthouse was lit. "Come along," said Betty Flanders. The sun blazed in their faces and gilded the great blackberries trembling out from the hedge which Archer tried to strip as they passed.

"Throw it away, dear, please do," she said as they stepped onto the road; but Jacob pulled away from her. With the wind picking up, she took out her bonnet pin, glanced at the sea, and fixed it in again. The wind was getting stronger. The waves had a restless energy, like something alive, anticipating the whip of approaching stormy waves. The fishing boats were tilting toward the water's edge. A pale yellow light swept across the purple sea and disappeared. The lighthouse was lit. "Let’s go," said Betty Flanders. The sun blazed in their faces, lighting up the big blackberries swaying from the hedge that Archer tried to grab as they walked by.

"Don't lag, boys. You've got nothing to change into," said Betty, pulling them along, and looking with uneasy emotion at the earth displayed so luridly, with sudden sparks of light from greenhouses in gardens, with a sort of yellow and black mutability, against this blazing sunset, this astonishing agitation and vitality of colour, which stirred Betty Flanders and made her think of responsibility and danger. She gripped Archer's hand. On she plodded up the hill.

"Don't fall behind, guys. You have nothing to switch into," said Betty, pulling them along and glancing with anxious feelings at the earth illuminated so brightly, with sudden flashes of light from greenhouses in gardens, exhibiting a sort of yellow and black unpredictability, against this blazing sunset, this incredible burst of colors that stirred Betty Flanders and made her think about responsibility and danger. She held onto Archer's hand tightly. On she marched up the hill.

"What did I ask you to remember?" she said.

"What did I ask you to remember?" she asked.

"I don't know," said Archer.

"I don't know," Archer said.

"Well, I don't know either," said Betty, humorously and simply, and who shall deny that this blankness of mind, when combined with profusion, mother wit, old wives' tales, haphazard ways, moments of astonishing daring, humour, and sentimentality—who shall deny that in these respects every woman is nicer than any man?

"Well, I don’t know either," said Betty, jokingly and straightforwardly. Who can argue that this mental blankness, when mixed with abundance, common sense, old wives' tales, random methods, moments of incredible boldness, humor, and sentimentality—who can argue that in these ways every woman is better than any man?

Well, Betty Flanders, to begin with.

Well, Betty Flanders, to start with.

She had her hand upon the garden gate.

She had her hand on the garden gate.

"The meat!" she exclaimed, striking the latch down.

"The meat!" she shouted, slamming the latch down.

She had forgotten the meat.

She forgot the meat.

There was Rebecca at the window.

There was Rebecca at the window.

The bareness of Mrs. Pearce's front room was fully displayed at ten o'clock at night when a powerful oil lamp stood on the middle of the table. The harsh light fell on the garden; cut straight across the lawn; lit up a child's bucket and a purple aster and reached the hedge. Mrs. Flanders had left her sewing on the table. There were her large reels of white cotton and her steel spectacles; her needle-case; her brown wool wound round an old postcard. There were the bulrushes and the Strand magazines; and the linoleum sandy from the boys' boots. A daddy-long-legs shot from corner to corner and hit the lamp globe. The wind blew straight dashes of rain across the window, which flashed silver as they passed through the light. A single leaf tapped hurriedly, persistently, upon the glass. There was a hurricane out at sea.

The emptiness of Mrs. Pearce's front room was fully visible at ten o'clock at night when a bright oil lamp sat in the middle of the table. The harsh light illuminated the garden, cutting straight across the lawn; it lit up a child's bucket and a purple aster and reached the hedge. Mrs. Flanders had left her sewing on the table. There were her large spools of white thread and her steel glasses; her needle case; her brown yarn wrapped around an old postcard. There were bulrushes and the Strand magazines; and the linoleum was sandy from the boys' boots. A daddy-long-legs darted from corner to corner and bumped into the lamp globe. The wind blew sharp dashes of rain across the window, which flashed silver as they passed through the light. A single leaf tapped quickly, insistently, on the glass. There was a storm raging out at sea.

Archer could not sleep.

Archer couldn't sleep.

Mrs. Flanders stooped over him. "Think of the fairies," said Betty Flanders. "Think of the lovely, lovely birds settling down on their nests. Now shut your eyes and see the old mother bird with a worm in her beak. Now turn and shut your eyes," she murmured, "and shut your eyes."

Mrs. Flanders leaned over him. "Think about the fairies," said Betty Flanders. "Think about the beautiful, beautiful birds settling down in their nests. Now close your eyes and picture the old mother bird with a worm in her beak. Now turn and close your eyes," she whispered, "and close your eyes."

The lodging-house seemed full of gurgling and rushing; the cistern overflowing; water bubbling and squeaking and running along the pipes and streaming down the windows.

The boarding house was filled with the sound of gurgling and rushing; the cistern was overflowing; water was bubbling, squeaking, and running through the pipes and streaming down the windows.

"What's all that water rushing in?" murmured Archer.

"What's all that water rushing in?" whispered Archer.

"It's only the bath water running away," said Mrs. Flanders.

"It's just the bath water going down the drain," said Mrs. Flanders.

Something snapped out of doors.

Something went off outside.

"I say, won't that steamer sink?" said Archer, opening his eyes.

"I wonder if that steamer is going to sink?" said Archer, opening his eyes.

"Of course it won't," said Mrs. Flanders. "The Captain's in bed long ago. Shut your eyes, and think of the fairies, fast asleep, under the flowers."

"Of course it won't," said Mrs. Flanders. "The Captain went to bed a long time ago. Close your eyes and imagine the fairies, peacefully sleeping under the flowers."

"I thought he'd never get off—such a hurricane," she whispered to
Rebecca, who was bending over a spirit-lamp in the small room next door.
The wind rushed outside, but the small flame of the spirit-lamp burnt
quietly, shaded from the cot by a book stood on edge.

"I thought he’d never finish—what a storm," she whispered to
Rebecca, who was leaning over a spirit lamp in the little room next door.
The wind howled outside, but the tiny flame of the spirit lamp burned
calmly, shielded from the bed by a book propped up on its edge.

"Did he take his bottle well?" Mrs. Flanders whispered, and Rebecca nodded and went to the cot and turned down the quilt, and Mrs. Flanders bent over and looked anxiously at the baby, asleep, but frowning. The window shook, and Rebecca stole like a cat and wedged it.

"Did he drink his bottle okay?" Mrs. Flanders whispered, and Rebecca nodded, going over to the crib to pull down the blanket. Mrs. Flanders leaned in, looking worriedly at the baby, who was asleep but frowning. The window rattled, and Rebecca quietly crept like a cat and propped it open.

The two women murmured over the spirit-lamp, plotting the eternal conspiracy of hush and clean bottles while the wind raged and gave a sudden wrench at the cheap fastenings.

The two women whispered over the spirit lamp, scheming the constant plot of silence and clean bottles while the wind howled and suddenly tugged at the cheap fastenings.

Both looked round at the cot. Their lips were pursed. Mrs. Flanders crossed over to the cot.

Both glanced at the crib. Their lips were tight. Mrs. Flanders walked over to the crib.

"Asleep?" whispered Rebecca, looking at the cot.

"Asleep?" Rebecca whispered, glancing at the cot.

Mrs. Flanders nodded.

Mrs. Flanders agreed.

"Good-night, Rebecca," Mrs. Flanders murmured, and Rebecca called her ma'm, though they were conspirators plotting the eternal conspiracy of hush and clean bottles.

"Goodnight, Rebecca," Mrs. Flanders whispered, and Rebecca called her ma'am, even though they were partners in the ongoing secret of quiet and clean bottles.

Mrs. Flanders had left the lamp burning in the front room. There were her spectacles, her sewing; and a letter with the Scarborough postmark. She had not drawn the curtains either.

Mrs. Flanders had left the lamp on in the front room. There were her glasses, her sewing, and a letter with the Scarborough postmark. She hadn't closed the curtains either.

The light blazed out across the patch of grass; fell on the child's green bucket with the gold line round it, and upon the aster which trembled violently beside it. For the wind was tearing across the coast, hurling itself at the hills, and leaping, in sudden gusts, on top of its own back. How it spread over the town in the hollow! How the lights seemed to wink and quiver in its fury, lights in the harbour, lights in bedroom windows high up! And rolling dark waves before it, it raced over the Atlantic, jerking the stars above the ships this way and that.

The light blazed out over the patch of grass, shining on the child's green bucket with a gold stripe around it, and on the aster that shook violently beside it. The wind was rushing across the coast, slamming against the hills and jumping in sudden gusts. It spread over the town in the valley! How the lights seemed to flicker and shake in its rage—lights in the harbor, lights in bedroom windows up high! And with dark rolling waves in front of it, it sped across the Atlantic, tugging the stars above the ships this way and that.

There was a click in the front sitting-room. Mr. Pearce had extinguished the lamp. The garden went out. It was but a dark patch. Every inch was rained upon. Every blade of grass was bent by rain. Eyelids would have been fastened down by the rain. Lying on one's back one would have seen nothing but muddle and confusion—clouds turning and turning, and something yellow-tinted and sulphurous in the darkness.

There was a click in the living room. Mr. Pearce had turned off the lamp. The garden faded away into darkness. It was just a black spot. Every bit of it was drenched. Every blade of grass was weighed down by the rain. The rain would have kept your eyelids shut. Lying on your back, you would have seen nothing but chaos—clouds swirling and swirling, and something yellowish and sulfurous in the dark.

The little boys in the front bedroom had thrown off their blankets and lay under the sheets. It was hot; rather sticky and steamy. Archer lay spread out, with one arm striking across the pillow. He was flushed; and when the heavy curtain blew out a little he turned and half-opened his eyes. The wind actually stirred the cloth on the chest of drawers, and let in a little light, so that the sharp edge of the chest of drawers was visible, running straight up, until a white shape bulged out; and a silver streak showed in the looking-glass.

The little boys in the front bedroom had tossed off their blankets and were lying under the sheets. It was hot—kind of sticky and steamy. Archer was sprawled out, one arm draped across the pillow. He was flushed, and when the heavy curtain billowed a bit, he turned and half-opened his eyes. The wind actually stirred the fabric on the chest of drawers and let in a bit of light, making the sharp edge of the chest of drawers visible, going straight up until a white shape popped out, and a silver streak appeared in the mirror.

In the other bed by the door Jacob lay asleep, fast asleep, profoundly unconscious. The sheep's jaw with the big yellow teeth in it lay at his feet. He had kicked it against the iron bed-rail.

In the other bed by the door, Jacob was fast asleep, completely unaware of everything. The sheep's jaw with the big yellow teeth rested at his feet. He had kicked it against the iron bed frame.

Outside the rain poured down more directly and powerfully as the wind fell in the early hours of the morning. The aster was beaten to the earth. The child's bucket was half-full of rainwater; and the opal-shelled crab slowly circled round the bottom, trying with its weakly legs to climb the steep side; trying again and falling back, and trying again and again.

Outside, the rain came down hard and heavy as the wind calmed in the early morning. The aster lay flattened to the ground. The child's bucket was half-filled with rainwater, and the opal-shelled crab slowly moved around the bottom, using its weak legs to try and climb the steep side; trying again and falling back, and trying over and over.

CHAPTER TWO

"MRS. FLANDERS"—"Poor Betty Flanders"—"Dear Betty"—"She's very attractive still"—"Odd she don't marry again!" "There's Captain Barfoot to be sure—calls every Wednesday as regular as clockwork, and never brings his wife."

"MRS. FLANDERS"—"Poor Betty Flanders"—"Dear Betty"—"She’s still quite attractive"—"Isn’t it strange that she hasn’t remarried?" "There’s Captain Barfoot, for sure—he visits every Wednesday like clockwork, and he never brings his wife."

"But that's Ellen Barfoot's fault," the ladies of Scarborough said. "She don't put herself out for no one."

"But that's Ellen Barfoot's fault," the women of Scarborough said. "She doesn't do anything for anyone."

"A man likes to have a son—that we know."

"A man likes to have a son—that we know."

"Some tumours have to be cut; but the sort my mother had you bear with for years and years, and never even have a cup of tea brought up to you in bed."

"Some tumors need to be removed; but the kind my mom had, you live with for years and years, and you never even have a cup of tea brought to you in bed."

(Mrs. Barfoot was an invalid.)

(Mrs. Barfoot was disabled.)

Elizabeth Flanders, of whom this and much more than this had been said and would be said, was, of course, a widow in her prime. She was half-way between forty and fifty. Years and sorrow between them; the death of Seabrook, her husband; three boys; poverty; a house on the outskirts of Scarborough; her brother, poor Morty's, downfall and possible demise—for where was he? what was he? Shading her eyes, she looked along the road for Captain Barfoot—yes, there he was, punctual as ever; the attentions of the Captain—all ripened Betty Flanders, enlarged her figure, tinged her face with jollity, and flooded her eyes for no reason that any one could see perhaps three times a day.

Elizabeth Flanders, of whom this and much more than this had been said and would be said, was, of course, a widow in her prime. She was between forty and fifty. Years and sorrow lay between them; the death of Seabrook, her husband; three boys; poverty; a house on the outskirts of Scarborough; her brother, poor Morty's, downfall and possible demise—for where was he? what was he? Shielding her eyes, she scanned the road for Captain Barfoot—yes, there he was, as punctual as ever; the Captain’s attention—all of it made Betty Flanders more vibrant, enhanced her figure, brightened her face with cheer, and filled her eyes with light for reasons no one could quite place maybe three times a day.

True, there's no harm in crying for one's husband, and the tombstone, though plain, was a solid piece of work, and on summer's days when the widow brought her boys to stand there one felt kindly towards her. Hats were raised higher than usual; wives tugged their husbands' arms. Seabrook lay six foot beneath, dead these many years; enclosed in three shells; the crevices sealed with lead, so that, had earth and wood been glass, doubtless his very face lay visible beneath, the face of a young man whiskered, shapely, who had gone out duck-shooting and refused to change his boots.

Sure, there's nothing wrong with crying for your husband, and the gravestone, although simple, was well-made. On summer days when the widow brought her boys there, people felt sympathetic towards her. Hats were lifted higher than usual; wives pulled on their husbands' arms. Seabrook was six feet underground, dead for many years; sealed in three coffins, with the cracks filled with lead, so that if earth and wood were clear, you'd probably see his young, handsome face with a beard, the face of a guy who went out to hunt ducks and wouldn’t change his boots.

"Merchant of this city," the tombstone said; though why Betty Flanders had chosen so to call him when, as many still remembered, he had only sat behind an office window for three months, and before that had broken horses, ridden to hounds, farmed a few fields, and run a little wild—well, she had to call him something. An example for the boys.

"Merchant of this city," the tombstone said; though why Betty Flanders had chosen to call him that when, as many still remembered, he had only sat behind an office window for three months, and before that had broken horses, gone fox hunting, farmed a few fields, and lived a bit of a wild life—well, she had to call him something. An example for the boys.

Had he, then, been nothing? An unanswerable question, since even if it weren't the habit of the undertaker to close the eyes, the light so soon goes out of them. At first, part of herself; now one of a company, he had merged in the grass, the sloping hillside, the thousand white stones, some slanting, others upright, the decayed wreaths, the crosses of green tin, the narrow yellow paths, and the lilacs that drooped in April, with a scent like that of an invalid's bedroom, over the churchyard wall. Seabrook was now all that; and when, with her skirt hitched up, feeding the chickens, she heard the bell for service or funeral, that was Seabrook's voice—the voice of the dead.

Had he, then, been nothing? An unanswerable question, since even if it wasn’t the undertaker's habit to close the eyes, the light quickly goes out of them. At first, part of herself; now one of a group, he had blended into the grass, the sloping hillside, the thousand white stones, some leaning, others standing straight, the wilted wreaths, the green tin crosses, the narrow yellow paths, and the lilacs that drooped in April, giving off a scent like that of a sickroom, over the churchyard wall. Seabrook was now all of that; and when, with her skirt hitched up, feeding the chickens, she heard the bell for service or funeral, that was Seabrook's voice—the voice of the dead.

The rooster had been known to fly on her shoulder and peck her neck, so that now she carried a stick or took one of the children with her when she went to feed the fowls.

The rooster was known to land on her shoulder and peck her neck, so now she either carried a stick or brought one of the kids with her when she went to feed the chickens.

"Wouldn't you like my knife, mother?" said Archer.

"Don't you want my knife, mom?" said Archer.

Sounding at the same moment as the bell, her son's voice mixed life and death inextricably, exhilaratingly.

Sounding at the same time as the bell, her son's voice intertwined life and death inseparably, exhilaratingly.

"What a big knife for a small boy!" she said. She took it to please him. Then the rooster flew out of the hen-house, and, shouting to Archer to shut the door into the kitchen garden, Mrs. Flanders set her meal down, clucked for the hens, went bustling about the orchard, and was seen from over the way by Mrs. Cranch, who, beating her mat against the wall, held it for a moment suspended while she observed to Mrs. Page next door that Mrs. Flanders was in the orchard with the chickens.

"What a big knife for a small boy!" she said. She took it to make him happy. Then the rooster flew out of the hen house, and, calling to Archer to close the door to the kitchen garden, Mrs. Flanders set her meal down, clucked for the hens, went bustling around the orchard, and was spotted from across the street by Mrs. Cranch, who, beating her mat against the wall, paused for a moment to tell Mrs. Page next door that Mrs. Flanders was in the orchard with the chickens.

Mrs. Page, Mrs. Cranch, and Mrs. Garfit could see Mrs. Flanders in the orchard because the orchard was a piece of Dods Hill enclosed; and Dods Hill dominated the village. No words can exaggerate the importance of Dods Hill. It was the earth; the world against the sky; the horizon of how many glances can best be computed by those who have lived all their lives in the same village, only leaving it once to fight in the Crimea, like old George Garfit, leaning over his garden gate smoking his pipe. The progress of the sun was measured by it; the tint of the day laid against it to be judged.

Mrs. Page, Mrs. Cranch, and Mrs. Garfit could see Mrs. Flanders in the orchard because the orchard was part of Dods Hill, which loomed over the village. No words can stress enough how significant Dods Hill is. It was the land; the world against the sky; the horizon of how many views can best be calculated by those who have spent their entire lives in the same village, only leaving it once to fight in the Crimea, like old George Garfit, leaning over his garden gate, smoking his pipe. The sun's progress was marked by it; the shade of the day was set against it to be evaluated.

"Now she's going up the hill with little John," said Mrs. Cranch to Mrs. Garfit, shaking her mat for the last time, and bustling indoors. Opening the orchard gate, Mrs. Flanders walked to the top of Dods Hill, holding John by the hand. Archer and Jacob ran in front or lagged behind; but they were in the Roman fortress when she came there, and shouting out what ships were to be seen in the bay. For there was a magnificent view —moors behind, sea in front, and the whole of Scarborough from one end to the other laid out flat like a puzzle. Mrs. Flanders, who was growing stout, sat down in the fortress and looked about her.

"Now she's heading up the hill with little John," said Mrs. Cranch to Mrs. Garfit, shaking her mat for the last time before bustling indoors. Opening the orchard gate, Mrs. Flanders walked to the top of Dods Hill, holding John's hand. Archer and Jacob ran ahead or lagged behind, but they were in the Roman fortress when she arrived, shouting out what ships could be seen in the bay. The view was stunning—moors behind, sea in front, and all of Scarborough spread out flat like a puzzle. Mrs. Flanders, who was getting a bit chubby, sat down in the fortress and looked around.

The entire gamut of the view's changes should have been known to her; its winter aspect, spring, summer and autumn; how storms came up from the sea; how the moors shuddered and brightened as the clouds went over; she should have noted the red spot where the villas were building; and the criss-cross of lines where the allotments were cut; and the diamond flash of little glass houses in the sun. Or, if details like these escaped her, she might have let her fancy play upon the gold tint of the sea at sunset, and thought how it lapped in coins of gold upon the shingle. Little pleasure boats shoved out into it; the black arm of the pier hoarded it up. The whole city was pink and gold; domed; mist-wreathed; resonant; strident. Banjoes strummed; the parade smelt of tar which stuck to the heels; goats suddenly cantered their carriages through crowds. It was observed how well the Corporation had laid out the flower-beds. Sometimes a straw hat was blown away. Tulips burnt in the sun. Numbers of sponge-bag trousers were stretched in rows. Purple bonnets fringed soft, pink, querulous faces on pillows in bath chairs. Triangular hoardings were wheeled along by men in white coats. Captain George Boase had caught a monster shark. One side of the triangular hoarding said so in red, blue, and yellow letters; and each line ended with three differently coloured notes of exclamation.

She should have been aware of all the changes in the view: its winter look, spring, summer, and autumn; how storms rolled in from the sea; how the moors shimmered and shifted as clouds passed by; she should have noticed the red spot where the villas were going up; and the criss-cross of lines where the allotments were being cut; and the bright spark of little greenhouses in the sunlight. Or, if she missed those details, she could have let her imagination wander to the golden tint of the sea at sunset, thinking about how it lapped up like gold coins on the shore. Small pleasure boats were pushing out into it; the black arm of the pier held it in. The whole city was bathed in pink and gold; domed; wrapped in mist; resonating; loud. Banjoes were strumming; the parade smelled of tar that stuck to shoes; goats suddenly trotted their carriages through the crowd. It was noted how well the Corporation had arranged the flower beds. Sometimes a straw hat would blow away. Tulips burned in the sun. Rows of sponge-bag trousers were stretched out. Purple bonnets framed soft, pink, complaining faces resting on pillows in bath chairs. Triangular billboards were moved around by men in white coats. Captain George Boase had caught a huge shark. One side of the triangular billboard announced this in red, blue, and yellow letters, and each line ended with three differently colored exclamation marks.

So that was a reason for going down into the Aquarium, where the sallow blinds, the stale smell of spirits of salt, the bamboo chairs, the tables with ash-trays, the revolving fish, the attendant knitting behind six or seven chocolate boxes (often she was quite alone with the fish for hours at a time) remained in the mind as part of the monster shark, he himself being only a flabby yellow receptacle, like an empty Gladstone bag in a tank. No one had ever been cheered by the Aquarium; but the faces of those emerging quickly lost their dim, chilled expression when they perceived that it was only by standing in a queue that one could be admitted to the pier. Once through the turnstiles, every one walked for a yard or two very briskly; some flagged at this stall; others at that.

So that was a reason to go down to the Aquarium, where the faded blinds, the stale smell of saltwater, the bamboo chairs, the tables with ashtrays, the spinning fish, and the attendant knitting behind six or seven chocolate boxes (often she was alone with the fish for hours) stuck in the mind as part of the giant shark, he himself being just a flabby yellow mass, like an empty suitcase in a tank. No one had ever felt uplifted by the Aquarium; but the faces of those coming out quickly lost their dull, cold look when they realized that the only way to get to the pier was to stand in a line. Once through the turnstiles, everyone walked briskly for a yard or two; some stopped at this stall; others at that.

But it was the band that drew them all to it finally; even the fishermen on the lower pier taking up their pitch within its range.

But it was the band that ultimately attracted everyone to it; even the fishermen on the lower pier set up their spots within earshot.

The band played in the Moorish kiosk. Number nine went up on the board. It was a waltz tune. The pale girls, the old widow lady, the three Jews lodging in the same boarding-house, the dandy, the major, the horse-dealer, and the gentleman of independent means, all wore the same blurred, drugged expression, and through the chinks in the planks at their feet they could see the green summer waves, peacefully, amiably, swaying round the iron pillars of the pier.

The band played in the Moorish kiosk. Number nine lit up on the board. It was a waltz tune. The pale girls, the old widow, the three Jewish men staying in the same boarding house, the dandy, the major, the horse dealer, and the gentleman with independent means all had the same dazed, numb look. Through the gaps in the wooden boards beneath them, they could see the green summer waves gently and easily swaying around the iron pillars of the pier.

But there was a time when none of this had any existence (thought the young man leaning against the railings). Fix your eyes upon the lady's skirt; the grey one will do—above the pink silk stockings. It changes; drapes her ankles—the nineties; then it amplifies—the seventies; now it's burnished red and stretched above a crinoline—the sixties; a tiny black foot wearing a white cotton stocking peeps out. Still sitting there? Yes—she's still on the pier. The silk now is sprigged with roses, but somehow one no longer sees so clearly. There's no pier beneath us. The heavy chariot may swing along the turnpike road, but there's no pier for it to stop at, and how grey and turbulent the sea is in the seventeenth century! Let's to the museum. Cannon-balls; arrow-heads; Roman glass and a forceps green with verdigris. The Rev. Jaspar Floyd dug them up at his own expense early in the forties in the Roman camp on Dods Hill—see the little ticket with the faded writing on it.

But there was a time when none of this existed (thought the young man leaning against the railings). Look at the lady's skirt; the gray one will do—above the pink silk stockings. It changes; it wraps around her ankles—the nineties; then it expands—the seventies; now it's shiny red and pulled tight above a crinoline—the sixties; a tiny black foot wearing a white cotton stocking is peeking out. Still sitting there? Yes—she's still on the pier. The silk is now dotted with roses, but somehow it’s not as clear anymore. There's no pier beneath us. The heavy carriage might roll along the turnpike road, but there's nowhere for it to stop, and how gray and choppy the sea looks in the seventeenth century! Let's go to the museum. Cannonballs; arrowheads; Roman glass and tongs green with corrosion. The Rev. Jaspar Floyd found them at his own expense in the early forties at the Roman camp on Dods Hill—check out the little ticket with the faded writing on it.

And now, what's the next thing to see in Scarborough?

And now, what’s the next thing to check out in Scarborough?

Mrs. Flanders sat on the raised circle of the Roman camp, patching Jacob's breeches; only looking up as she sucked the end of her cotton, or when some insect dashed at her, boomed in her ear, and was gone.

Mrs. Flanders sat on the elevated circle of the Roman camp, stitching up Jacob's pants; only glancing up when she sucked on the end of her thread, or when an insect flew at her, buzzed in her ear, and was gone.

John kept trotting up and slapping down in her lap grass or dead leaves which he called "tea," and she arranged them methodically but absent-mindedly, laying the flowery heads of the grasses together, thinking how Archer had been awake again last night; the church clock was ten or thirteen minutes fast; she wished she could buy Garfit's acre.

John kept trotting over and dropping grass or dead leaves in her lap, which he called "tea," and she arranged them carefully but without really paying attention, grouping the flowery heads of the grasses together, thinking about how Archer had been awake again last night; the church clock was ten or thirteen minutes fast; she wished she could buy Garfit's acre.

"That's an orchid leaf, Johnny. Look at the little brown spots. Come, my dear. We must go home. Ar-cher! Ja-cob!"

"That's an orchid leaf, Johnny. Look at the tiny brown spots. Come on, my dear. We need to head home. Ar-cher! Ja-cob!"

"Ar-cher! Ja-cob!" Johnny piped after her, pivoting round on his heel, and strewing the grass and leaves in his hands as if he were sowing seed. Archer and Jacob jumped up from behind the mound where they had been crouching with the intention of springing upon their mother unexpectedly, and they all began to walk slowly home.

"Archer! Jacob!" Johnny called after her, turning on his heel and scattering the grass and leaves in his hands like he was planting seeds. Archer and Jacob jumped up from behind the mound where they had been hiding, planning to surprise their mom, and they all started walking slowly home.

"Who is that?" said Mrs. Flanders, shading her eyes.

"Who is that?" Mrs. Flanders said, squinting.

"That old man in the road?" said Archer, looking below.

"That old guy on the road?" said Archer, looking down.

"He's not an old man," said Mrs. Flanders. "He's—no, he's not—I thought it was the Captain, but it's Mr. Floyd. Come along, boys."

"He's not an old man," Mrs. Flanders said. "He's—no, he's not—I thought it was the Captain, but it's Mr. Floyd. Come on, boys."

"Oh, bother Mr. Floyd!" said Jacob, switching off a thistle's head, for he knew already that Mr. Floyd was going to teach them Latin, as indeed he did for three years in his spare time, out of kindness, for there was no other gentleman in the neighbourhood whom Mrs. Flanders could have asked to do such a thing, and the elder boys were getting beyond her, and must be got ready for school, and it was more than most clergymen would have done, coming round after tea, or having them in his own room —as he could fit it in—for the parish was a very large one, and Mr. Floyd, like his father before him, visited cottages miles away on the moors, and, like old Mr. Floyd, was a great scholar, which made it so unlikely—she had never dreamt of such a thing. Ought she to have guessed? But let alone being a scholar he was eight years younger than she was. She knew his mother—old Mrs. Floyd. She had tea there. And it was that very evening when she came back from having tea with old Mrs. Floyd that she found the note in the hall and took it into the kitchen with her when she went to give Rebecca the fish, thinking it must be something about the boys.

"Oh, come on, Mr. Floyd!" Jacob said, as he snapped off a thistle's head, because he already knew that Mr. Floyd was going to teach them Latin, which he actually did for three years in his spare time, just out of kindness. Mrs. Flanders couldn’t have asked anyone else in the neighborhood to do it since the older boys were getting too advanced for her, and they needed to be prepared for school. It was more than most clergymen would have done, coming by after tea or having them in his own room—as he could make time for it—since the parish was quite large. Mr. Floyd, like his father before him, visited cottages miles away on the moors and, like old Mr. Floyd, was a great scholar, which made it so unexpected—she had never even considered such a thing. Should she have guessed? But aside from being a scholar, he was eight years younger than she was. She knew his mother—old Mrs. Floyd. She had tea there. And it was that very evening when she returned from having tea with old Mrs. Floyd that she found the note in the hall and took it into the kitchen with her when she went to give Rebecca the fish, thinking it must be something about the boys.

"Mr. Floyd brought it himself, did he?—I think the cheese must be in the parcel in the hall—oh, in the hall—" for she was reading. No, it was not about the boys.

"Mr. Floyd brought it himself, did he?—I think the cheese must be in the package in the hall—oh, in the hall—" for she was reading. No, it wasn't about the boys.

"Yes, enough for fish-cakes to-morrow certainly—Perhaps Captain Barfoot—" she had come to the word "love." She went into the garden and read, leaning against the walnut tree to steady herself. Up and down went her breast. Seabrook came so vividly before her. She shook her head and was looking through her tears at the little shifting leaves against the yellow sky when three geese, half-running, half-flying, scuttled across the lawn with Johnny behind them, brandishing a stick.

"Yeah, definitely enough for fish cakes tomorrow—Maybe Captain Barfoot—" she had reached the word "love." She stepped into the garden and read, leaning against the walnut tree for support. Her chest rose and fell rapidly. Seabrook appeared so clearly in her mind. She shook her head and looked through her tears at the small swaying leaves against the yellow sky when three geese, half-running, half-flying, rushed across the lawn with Johnny chasing them, waving a stick.

Mrs. Flanders flushed with anger.

Mrs. Flanders blushed with anger.

"How many times have I told you?" she cried, and seized him and snatched his stick away from him.

"How many times have I told you?" she yelled, grabbing him and snatching his stick away.

"But they'd escaped!" he cried, struggling to get free.

"But they got away!" he shouted, trying to break free.

"You're a very naughty boy. If I've told you once, I've told you a thousand times. I won't have you chasing the geese!" she said, and crumpling Mr. Floyd's letter in her hand, she held Johnny fast and herded the geese back into the orchard.

"You're being a very naughty boy. If I’ve told you once, I’ve told you a thousand times. I won’t let you chase the geese!" she said, and crumpling Mr. Floyd's letter in her hand, she held Johnny tight and herded the geese back into the orchard.

"How could I think of marriage!" she said to herself bitterly, as she fastened the gate with a piece of wire. She had always disliked red hair in men, she thought, thinking of Mr. Floyd's appearance, that night when the boys had gone to bed. And pushing her work-box away, she drew the blotting-paper towards her, and read Mr. Floyd's letter again, and her breast went up and down when she came to the word "love," but not so fast this time, for she saw Johnny chasing the geese, and knew that it was impossible for her to marry any one—let alone Mr. Floyd, who was so much younger than she was, but what a nice man—and such a scholar too.

"How could I think about marriage!" she muttered to herself bitterly as she secured the gate with a piece of wire. She had always been put off by red hair in men, she reflected, recalling Mr. Floyd's appearance that night when the boys had gone to bed. Shoving her workbox aside, she pulled the blotting paper closer and read Mr. Floyd's letter again. Her heart raced a little when she got to the word "love," but not as fast this time, because she spotted Johnny chasing the geese and realized that marrying anyone—especially Mr. Floyd, who was so much younger—was impossible. But he was such a nice guy—and a great scholar too.

"Dear Mr. Floyd," she wrote.—"Did I forget about the cheese?" she wondered, laying down her pen. No, she had told Rebecca that the cheese was in the hall. "I am much surprised…" she wrote.

"Dear Mr. Floyd," she wrote.—"Did I forget about the cheese?" she wondered, putting down her pen. No, she had told Rebecca that the cheese was in the hall. "I am quite surprised…" she wrote.

But the letter which Mr. Floyd found on the table when he got up early next morning did not begin "I am much surprised," and it was such a motherly, respectful, inconsequent, regretful letter that he kept it for many years; long after his marriage with Miss Wimbush, of Andover; long after he had left the village. For he asked for a parish in Sheffield, which was given him; and, sending for Archer, Jacob, and John to say good-bye, he told them to choose whatever they liked in his study to remember him by. Archer chose a paper-knife, because he did not like to choose anything too good; Jacob chose the works of Byron in one volume; John, who was still too young to make a proper choice, chose Mr. Floyd's kitten, which his brothers thought an absurd choice, but Mr. Floyd upheld him when he said: "It has fur like you." Then Mr. Floyd spoke about the King's Navy (to which Archer was going); and about Rugby (to which Jacob was going); and next day he received a silver salver and went—first to Sheffield, where he met Miss Wimbush, who was on a visit to her uncle, then to Hackney—then to Maresfield House, of which he became the principal, and finally, becoming editor of a well-known series of Ecclesiastical Biographies, he retired to Hampstead with his wife and daughter, and is often to be seen feeding the ducks on Leg of Mutton Pond. As for Mrs. Flanders's letter—when he looked for it the other day he could not find it, and did not like to ask his wife whether she had put it away. Meeting Jacob in Piccadilly lately, he recognized him after three seconds. But Jacob had grown such a fine young man that Mr. Floyd did not like to stop him in the street.

But the letter that Mr. Floyd found on the table when he got up early the next morning didn’t start with “I am much surprised,” and it was such a caring, respectful, random, regretful letter that he kept it for many years; long after he married Miss Wimbush from Andover; long after he had left the village. He asked for a parish in Sheffield, which he got; and, calling Archer, Jacob, and John to say goodbye, he told them to pick whatever they wanted from his study to remember him by. Archer picked a paper knife because he didn’t want to choose anything too nice; Jacob chose a one-volume collection of Byron’s works; John, who was still too young to make a good choice, picked Mr. Floyd’s kitten, which his brothers thought was a silly pick, but Mr. Floyd supported him when he said, “It has fur like you.” Then Mr. Floyd talked about the King’s Navy (where Archer was going) and about Rugby (where Jacob was headed); the next day he received a silver tray and left—first for Sheffield, where he met Miss Wimbush, who was visiting her uncle, then to Hackney—then to Maresfield House, where he became the head, and finally, becoming editor of a well-known series of Ecclesiastical Biographies, he retired to Hampstead with his wife and daughter, and is often seen feeding the ducks at Leg of Mutton Pond. As for Mrs. Flanders’s letter—when he looked for it the other day he couldn’t find it, and he didn’t want to ask his wife if she had put it away. He bumped into Jacob in Piccadilly recently and recognized him after three seconds. But Jacob had grown into such a handsome young man that Mr. Floyd didn’t feel like stopping him on the street.

"Dear me," said Mrs. Flanders, when she read in the Scarborough and
Harrogate Courier that the Rev. Andrew Floyd, etc., etc., had been made
Principal of Maresfield House, "that must be our Mr. Floyd."

"Goodness," said Mrs. Flanders, when she read in the Scarborough and
Harrogate Courier that Rev. Andrew Floyd, etc., etc., had been named
Principal of Maresfield House, "that must be our Mr. Floyd."

A slight gloom fell upon the table. Jacob was helping himself to jam; the postman was talking to Rebecca in the kitchen; there was a bee humming at the yellow flower which nodded at the open window. They were all alive, that is to say, while poor Mr. Floyd was becoming Principal of Maresfield House.

A subtle sadness settled over the table. Jacob was serving himself some jam; the postman was chatting with Rebecca in the kitchen; a bee was buzzing around the yellow flower that swayed at the open window. They were all lively, in contrast to poor Mr. Floyd, who was becoming the Principal of Maresfield House.

Mrs. Flanders got up and went over to the fender and stroked Topaz on the neck behind the ears.

Mrs. Flanders got up and walked over to the fireplace and gently petted Topaz on the neck behind the ears.

"Poor Topaz," she said (for Mr. Floyd's kitten was now a very old cat, a little mangy behind the ears, and one of these days would have to be killed).

"Poor Topaz," she said (because Mr. Floyd's kitten was now a very old cat, a bit scruffy behind the ears, and sooner or later would have to be put down).

"Poor old Topaz," said Mrs. Flanders, as he stretched himself out in the sun, and she smiled, thinking how she had had him gelded, and how she did not like red hair in men. Smiling, she went into the kitchen.

"Poor old Topaz," Mrs. Flanders said as he sprawled out in the sun, smiling as she thought about how she had him neutered and how she didn't like red hair on men. Still smiling, she went into the kitchen.

Jacob drew rather a dirty pocket-handkerchief across his face. He went upstairs to his room.

Jacob wiped his face with a pretty grimy handkerchief. He headed upstairs to his room.

The stag-beetle dies slowly (it was John who collected the beetles). Even on the second day its legs were supple. But the butterflies were dead. A whiff of rotten eggs had vanquished the pale clouded yellows which came pelting across the orchard and up Dods Hill and away on to the moor, now lost behind a furze bush, then off again helter-skelter in a broiling sun. A fritillary basked on a white stone in the Roman camp. From the valley came the sound of church bells. They were all eating roast beef in Scarborough; for it was Sunday when Jacob caught the pale clouded yellows in the clover field, eight miles from home.

The stag beetle was dying slowly (it was John who collected the beetles). Even on the second day, its legs were still flexible. But the butterflies were dead. A smell of rotten eggs had wiped out the pale clouded yellows that had come rushing across the orchard and up Dods Hill, then disappeared onto the moor, now hidden behind a furze bush, then off again in a mad dash under the blazing sun. A fritillary was lounging on a white stone in the Roman camp. From the valley, the sound of church bells could be heard. They were all eating roast beef in Scarborough since it was Sunday when Jacob caught the pale clouded yellows in the clover field, eight miles from home.

Rebecca had caught the death's-head moth in the kitchen.

Rebecca had caught the death's-head moth in the kitchen.

A strong smell of camphor came from the butterfly boxes.

A strong smell of camphor wafted from the butterfly boxes.

Mixed with the smell of camphor was the unmistakable smell of seaweed.
Tawny ribbons hung on the door. The sun beat straight upon them.

Mixed with the smell of camphor was the unmistakable scent of seaweed.
Brown ribbons hung on the door. The sun shone directly on them.

The upper wings of the moth which Jacob held were undoubtedly marked with kidney-shaped spots of a fulvous hue. But there was no crescent upon the underwing. The tree had fallen the night he caught it. There had been a volley of pistol-shots suddenly in the depths of the wood. And his mother had taken him for a burglar when he came home late. The only one of her sons who never obeyed her, she said.

The upper wings of the moth that Jacob was holding definitely had kidney-shaped spots that were a reddish-brown color. But there was no crescent shape on the underside of the wing. The tree had fallen the night he caught it. There had been a sudden flurry of gunshots deep in the woods. And when he got home late, his mother thought he was a burglar. She said he was the only one of her sons who never listened to her.

Morris called it "an extremely local insect found in damp or marshy places." But Morris is sometimes wrong. Sometimes Jacob, choosing a very fine pen, made a correction in the margin.

Morris referred to it as "a very local insect found in wet or marshy areas." But Morris isn't always right. Sometimes Jacob, using a very nice pen, made a note in the margin.

The tree had fallen, though it was a windless night, and the lantern, stood upon the ground, had lit up the still green leaves and the dead beech leaves. It was a dry place. A toad was there. And the red underwing had circled round the light and flashed and gone. The red underwing had never come back, though Jacob had waited. It was after twelve when he crossed the lawn and saw his mother in the bright room, playing patience, sitting up.

The tree had fallen, even though it was a calm night, and the lantern, resting on the ground, illuminated the fresh green leaves and the dried beech leaves. It was a dry spot. A toad was there. The red underwing had flitted around the light, flashed, and disappeared. The red underwing never returned, even though Jacob had waited. It was past midnight when he crossed the lawn and saw his mother in the bright room, playing solitaire and sitting up.

"How you frightened me!" she had cried. She thought something dreadful had happened. And he woke Rebecca, who had to be up so early.

"How you scared me!" she had exclaimed. She thought something terrible had happened. And he woke Rebecca, who had to get up so early.

There he stood pale, come out of the depths of darkness, in the hot room, blinking at the light.

There he stood, pale, emerging from the depths of darkness, in the hot room, blinking at the light.

No, it could not be a straw-bordered underwing.

No, it couldn't be a straw-bordered underwing.

The mowing-machine always wanted oiling. Barnet turned it under Jacob's window, and it creaked—creaked, and rattled across the lawn and creaked again.

The mower always needed oiling. Barnet pushed it under Jacob's window, and it creaked—creaked, and rattled across the lawn and creaked again.

Now it was clouding over.

Now it was getting cloudy.

Back came the sun, dazzlingly.

The sun came back, dazzling.

It fell like an eye upon the stirrups, and then suddenly and yet very gently rested upon the bed, upon the alarum clock, and upon the butterfly box stood open. The pale clouded yellows had pelted over the moor; they had zigzagged across the purple clover. The fritillaries flaunted along the hedgerows. The blues settled on little bones lying on the turf with the sun beating on them, and the painted ladies and the peacocks feasted upon bloody entrails dropped by a hawk. Miles away from home, in a hollow among teasles beneath a ruin, he had found the commas. He had seen a white admiral circling higher and higher round an oak tree, but he had never caught it. An old cottage woman living alone, high up, had told him of a purple butterfly which came every summer to her garden. The fox cubs played in the gorse in the early morning, she told him. And if you looked out at dawn you could always see two badgers. Sometimes they knocked each other over like two boys fighting, she said.

It fell like an eye onto the stirrups, and then suddenly, yet very gently, rested on the bed, on the alarm clock, and on the butterfly box that was open. The pale clouded yellows had scattered over the moor; they had zigzagged across the purple clover. The fritillaries flaunted along the hedgerows. The blues landed on small bones lying on the grass with the sun shining down on them, and the painted ladies and the peacocks feasted on bloody entrails dropped by a hawk. Miles away from home, in a hollow among teasels beneath a ruin, he had found the commas. He had seen a white admiral circling higher and higher around an oak tree, but he had never caught it. An old woman living alone in a high cottage had told him about a purple butterfly that came to her garden every summer. The fox cubs played in the gorse in the early morning, she told him. And if you looked out at dawn, you could always see two badgers. Sometimes they knocked each other over like two boys fighting, she said.

"You won't go far this afternoon, Jacob," said his mother, popping her head in at the door, "for the Captain's coming to say good-bye." It was the last day of the Easter holidays.

"You won't be going far this afternoon, Jacob," his mom said, sticking her head in the door, "because the Captain is coming to say goodbye." It was the last day of the Easter break.

Wednesday was Captain Barfoot's day. He dressed himself very neatly in blue serge, took his rubber-shod stick—for he was lame and wanted two fingers on the left hand, having served his country—and set out from the house with the flagstaff precisely at four o'clock in the afternoon.

Wednesday was Captain Barfoot's day. He dressed neatly in blue serge, took his rubber-tipped cane—since he was lame and was missing two fingers on his left hand from serving his country—and left the house with the flagpole exactly at four o'clock in the afternoon.

At three Mr. Dickens, the bath-chair man, had called for Mrs. Barfoot.

At three, Mr. Dickens, the man with the bath chair, showed up to pick up Mrs. Barfoot.

"Move me," she would say to Mr. Dickens, after sitting on the esplanade for fifteen minutes. And again, "That'll do, thank you, Mr. Dickens." At the first command he would seek the sun; at the second he would stay the chair there in the bright strip.

"Move me," she would say to Mr. Dickens, after sitting on the esplanade for fifteen minutes. And again, "That'll do, thank you, Mr. Dickens." At the first command, he would look for the sun; at the second, he would keep the chair there in the sunny spot.

An old inhabitant himself, he had much in common with Mrs. Barfoot—James Coppard's daughter. The drinking-fountain, where West Street joins Broad Street, is the gift of James Coppard, who was mayor at the time of Queen Victoria's jubilee, and Coppard is painted upon municipal watering-carts and over shop windows, and upon the zinc blinds of solicitors' consulting-room windows. But Ellen Barfoot never visited the Aquarium (though she had known Captain Boase who had caught the shark quite well), and when the men came by with the posters she eyed them superciliously, for she knew that she would never see the Pierrots, or the brothers Zeno, or Daisy Budd and her troupe of performing seals. For Ellen Barfoot in her bath-chair on the esplanade was a prisoner—civilization's prisoner—all the bars of her cage falling across the esplanade on sunny days when the town hall, the drapery stores, the swimming-bath, and the memorial hall striped the ground with shadow.

An old resident himself, he had a lot in common with Mrs. Barfoot—James Coppard's daughter. The drinking fountain at the corner of West Street and Broad Street is a gift from James Coppard, who was mayor during Queen Victoria's jubilee. Coppard's name can be seen on municipal watering carts, shop windows, and on the zinc blinds of solicitors' offices. But Ellen Barfoot never went to the Aquarium (even though she knew Captain Boase well, the one who caught the shark), and when the men came by with the posters, she looked at them with disdain, knowing she would never see the Pierrots, the Zeno brothers, or Daisy Budd and her performing seals. For Ellen Barfoot, sitting in her bath chair on the esplanade, was a prisoner—civilization's prisoner—all the bars of her cage falling across the esplanade on sunny days when the town hall, the drapery stores, the swimming pool, and the memorial hall cast shadows on the ground.

An old inhabitant himself, Mr. Dickens would stand a little behind her, smoking his pipe. She would ask him questions—who people were—who now kept Mr. Jones's shop—then about the season—and had Mrs. Dickens tried, whatever it might be—the words issuing from her lips like crumbs of dry biscuit.

An old resident himself, Mr. Dickens would stand slightly behind her, smoking his pipe. She would ask him questions—who people were—who currently ran Mr. Jones's shop—then about the season—and whether Mrs. Dickens had tried, whatever it might be—the words coming from her lips like crumbs of dry crackers.

She closed her eyes. Mr. Dickens took a turn. The feelings of a man had not altogether deserted him, though as you saw him coming towards you, you noticed how one knobbed black boot swung tremulously in front of the other; how there was a shadow between his waistcoat and his trousers; how he leant forward unsteadily, like an old horse who finds himself suddenly out of the shafts drawing no cart. But as Mr. Dickens sucked in the smoke and puffed it out again, the feelings of a man were perceptible in his eyes. He was thinking how Captain Barfoot was now on his way to Mount Pleasant; Captain Barfoot, his master. For at home in the little sitting-room above the mews, with the canary in the window, and the girls at the sewing-machine, and Mrs. Dickens huddled up with the rheumatics—at home where he was made little of, the thought of being in the employ of Captain Barfoot supported him. He liked to think that while he chatted with Mrs. Barfoot on the front, he helped the Captain on his way to Mrs. Flanders. He, a man, was in charge of Mrs. Barfoot, a woman.

She closed her eyes. Mr. Dickens took a turn. The emotions of a man hadn’t completely left him, though as you saw him approaching, you noticed how one uneven black boot swung unsteadily in front of the other; how there was a gap between his waistcoat and trousers; how he leaned forward unsteadily, like an old horse suddenly pulled out of the shafts without a cart to draw. But as Mr. Dickens inhaled the smoke and puffed it out again, the emotions of a man were visible in his eyes. He was thinking about how Captain Barfoot was now on his way to Mount Pleasant; Captain Barfoot, his boss. Back at home in the little sitting room above the mews, with the canary in the window, the girls at the sewing machine, and Mrs. Dickens bundled up with rheumatism—at home where he was often overlooked, the thought of working for Captain Barfoot lifted his spirits. He liked to imagine that while he chatted with Mrs. Barfoot out front, he was helping the Captain on his way to see Mrs. Flanders. He, a man, was responsible for Mrs. Barfoot, a woman.

Turning, he saw that she was chatting with Mrs. Rogers. Turning again, he saw that Mrs. Rogers had moved on. So he came back to the bath-chair, and Mrs. Barfoot asked him the time, and he took out his great silver watch and told her the time very obligingly, as if he knew a great deal more about the time and everything than she did. But Mrs. Barfoot knew that Captain Barfoot was on his way to Mrs. Flanders.

Turning, he noticed she was talking with Mrs. Rogers. Looking again, he saw that Mrs. Rogers had moved on. So, he returned to the bath-chair, and Mrs. Barfoot asked him the time. He pulled out his big silver watch and told her the time very politely, as if he knew a lot more about the time and everything else than she did. But Mrs. Barfoot was aware that Captain Barfoot was heading to see Mrs. Flanders.

Indeed he was well on his way there, having left the tram, and seeing Dods Hill to the south-east, green against a blue sky that was suffused with dust colour on the horizon. He was marching up the hill. In spite of his lameness there was something military in his approach. Mrs. Jarvis, as she came out of the Rectory gate, saw him coming, and her Newfoundland dog, Nero, slowly swept his tail from side to side.

Indeed, he was well on his way there, having left the tram and spotting Dods Hill to the southeast, green against a blue sky that was tinted with dusty hues on the horizon. He was walking up the hill. Despite his lameness, there was something military about his stride. Mrs. Jarvis, as she stepped out of the Rectory gate, noticed him approaching, and her Newfoundland dog, Nero, slowly wagged his tail from side to side.

"Oh, Captain Barfoot!" Mrs. Jarvis exclaimed.

"Oh, Captain Barfoot!" Mrs. Jarvis shouted.

"Good-day, Mrs. Jarvis," said the Captain.

"Good day, Mrs. Jarvis," said the Captain.

They walked on together, and when they reached Mrs. Flanders's gate Captain Barfoot took off his tweed cap, and said, bowing very courteously:

They walked together, and when they got to Mrs. Flanders's gate, Captain Barfoot removed his tweed cap and said, bowing very politely:

"Good-day to you, Mrs. Jarvis."

"Hello, Mrs. Jarvis."

And Mrs. Jarvis walked on alone.

And Mrs. Jarvis kept walking by herself.

She was going to walk on the moor. Had she again been pacing her lawn late at night? Had she again tapped on the study window and cried: "Look at the moon, look at the moon, Herbert!"

She was going to walk on the moor. Had she been pacing her lawn late at night again? Had she tapped on the study window and shouted: "Look at the moon, look at the moon, Herbert!"?

And Herbert looked at the moon.

And Herbert looked at the moon.

Mrs. Jarvis walked on the moor when she was unhappy, going as far as a certain saucer-shaped hollow, though she always meant to go to a more distant ridge; and there she sat down, and took out the little book hidden beneath her cloak and read a few lines of poetry, and looked about her. She was not very unhappy, and, seeing that she was forty-five, never perhaps would be very unhappy, desperately unhappy that is, and leave her husband, and ruin a good man's career, as she sometimes threatened.

Mrs. Jarvis went out to the moor when she was feeling down, making her way to a particular bowl-shaped dip, even though she always intended to go to a farther ridge. There, she would sit down, pull out the little book tucked under her cloak, read a few lines of poetry, and take in her surroundings. She wasn’t extremely unhappy, and considering that she was forty-five, she likely would never be truly devastated enough to leave her husband and ruin a good man's career, despite the times she threatened to do so.

Still there is no need to say what risks a clergyman's wife runs when she walks on the moor. Short, dark, with kindling eyes, a pheasant's feather in her hat, Mrs. Jarvis was just the sort of woman to lose her faith upon the moors—to confound her God with the universal that is—but she did not lose her faith, did not leave her husband, never read her poem through, and went on walking the moors, looking at the moon behind the elm trees, and feeling as she sat on the grass high above Scarborough… Yes, yes, when the lark soars; when the sheep, moving a step or two onwards, crop the turf, and at the same time set their bells tinkling; when the breeze first blows, then dies down, leaving the cheek kissed; when the ships on the sea below seem to cross each other and pass on as if drawn by an invisible hand; when there are distant concussions in the air and phantom horsemen galloping, ceasing; when the horizon swims blue, green, emotional—then Mrs. Jarvis, heaving a sigh, thinks to herself, "If only some one could give me… if I could give some one…." But she does not know what she wants to give, nor who could give it her.

Still, there’s no need to say what risks a clergyman's wife faces when she walks on the moor. Short, dark, with sparkling eyes and a pheasant's feather in her hat, Mrs. Jarvis was exactly the kind of woman who might lose her faith on the moors—confusing her God with the universe—but she didn’t lose her faith, didn’t leave her husband, never read her poem in full, and kept walking the moors, gazing at the moon through the elm trees, and feeling as she sat on the grass high above Scarborough… Yes, yes, when the lark rises; when the sheep, taking a step or two forward, nibble the grass while their bells gently jingle; when the breeze first blows and then dies down, leaving her cheek feeling kissed; when the ships on the sea below seem to cross each other and drift on as if guided by an invisible hand; when there are distant echoes in the air and ghostly horsemen galloping, then stopping; when the horizon blurs into shades of blue, green, emotional—then Mrs. Jarvis, letting out a sigh, thinks to herself, "If only someone could give me… if I could give someone…." But she doesn’t know what she wants to give or who could give it to her.

"Mrs. Flanders stepped out only five minutes ago, Captain," said Rebecca. Captain Barfoot sat him down in the arm-chair to wait. Resting his elbows on the arms, putting one hand over the other, sticking his lame leg straight out, and placing the stick with the rubber ferrule beside it, he sat perfectly still. There was something rigid about him. Did he think? Probably the same thoughts again and again. But were they "nice" thoughts, interesting thoughts? He was a man with a temper; tenacious, faithful. Women would have felt, "Here is law. Here is order. Therefore we must cherish this man. He is on the Bridge at night," and, handing him his cup, or whatever it might be, would run on to visions of shipwreck and disaster, in which all the passengers come tumbling from their cabins, and there is the captain, buttoned in his pea-jacket, matched with the storm, vanquished by it but by none other. "Yet I have a soul," Mrs. Jarvis would bethink her, as Captain Barfoot suddenly blew his nose in a great red bandanna handkerchief, "and it's the man's stupidity that's the cause of this, and the storm's my storm as well as his"… so Mrs. Jarvis would bethink her when the Captain dropped in to see them and found Herbert out, and spent two or three hours, almost silent, sitting in the arm-chair. But Betty Flanders thought nothing of the kind.

"Mrs. Flanders just stepped out five minutes ago, Captain," Rebecca said. Captain Barfoot settled into the armchair to wait. With his elbows resting on the arms, one hand over the other, his lame leg extended straight out, and his stick with the rubber tip beside him, he sat completely still. There was something stiff about him. Was he thinking? Probably the same thoughts looping over and over. But were they "nice" thoughts or interesting thoughts? He was a man with a temper; persistent, loyal. Women would have felt, "Here is law. Here is order. So we must appreciate this man. He is on the Bridge at night," and, while handing him his cup, or whatever it was, would drift into visions of shipwreck and disaster, where all the passengers come tumbling from their cabins, and there is the captain, buttoned in his pea coat, facing the storm, beaten by it but not by anyone else. "Yet I have a soul," Mrs. Jarvis would think to herself, as Captain Barfoot suddenly blew his nose into a large red bandanna handkerchief, "and it's the man's foolishness that's causing this, and the storm is my storm as much as it is his"… so Mrs. Jarvis would reflect when the Captain dropped in to see them and found Herbert out, spending two or three hours, almost in silence, sitting in the armchair. But Betty Flanders thought nothing of the kind.

"Oh, Captain," said Mrs. Flanders, bursting into the drawing-room, "I had to run after Barker's man… I hope Rebecca… I hope Jacob…"

"Oh, Captain," Mrs. Flanders said, rushing into the living room, "I had to chase after Barker's guy… I hope Rebecca… I hope Jacob…"

She was very much out of breath, yet not at all upset, and as she put down the hearth-brush which she had bought of the oil-man, she said it was hot, flung the window further open, straightened a cover, picked up a book, as if she were very confident, very fond of the Captain, and a great many years younger than he was. Indeed, in her blue apron she did not look more than thirty-five. He was well over fifty.

She was breathing heavily, but not upset at all. As she put down the hearth-brush she had bought from the oil dealer, she mentioned it was hot, threw the window open wider, straightened a cover, and picked up a book, as if she were really confident, very fond of the Captain, and many years younger than him. In her blue apron, she didn’t look older than thirty-five. He was well over fifty.

She moved her hands about the table; the Captain moved his head from side to side, and made little sounds, as Betty went on chattering, completely at his ease—after twenty years.

She moved her hands around the table; the Captain nodded his head back and forth, making little sounds, as Betty continued chatting, completely at ease—after twenty years.

"Well," he said at length, "I've heard from Mr. Polegate."

"Well," he finally said, "I heard from Mr. Polegate."

He had heard from Mr. Polegate that he could advise nothing better than to send a boy to one of the universities.

He heard from Mr. Polegate that he couldn't recommend anything better than sending a boy to one of the universities.

"Mr. Floyd was at Cambridge… no, at Oxford… well, at one or the other," said Mrs. Flanders.

"Mr. Floyd was at Cambridge... no, at Oxford... well, it was one of them," said Mrs. Flanders.

She looked out of the window. Little windows, and the lilac and green of the garden were reflected in her eyes.

She looked out of the window. Small windows, and the purple and green of the garden were reflected in her eyes.

"Archer is doing very well," she said. "I have a very nice report from
Captain Maxwell."

"Archer is doing great," she said. "I have a really nice report from
Captain Maxwell."

"I will leave you the letter to show Jacob," said the Captain, putting it clumsily back in its envelope.

"I'll leave you the letter to show Jacob," said the Captain, awkwardly putting it back in its envelope.

"Jacob is after his butterflies as usual," said Mrs. Flanders irritably, but was surprised by a sudden afterthought, "Cricket begins this week, of course."

"Jacob is chasing his butterflies again," Mrs. Flanders said irritably, but then had a sudden afterthought, "Cricket starts this week, of course."

"Edward Jenkinson has handed in his resignation," said Captain Barfoot.

"Edward Jenkinson has submitted his resignation," Captain Barfoot said.

"Then you will stand for the Council?" Mrs. Flanders exclaimed, looking the Captain full in the face.

"Then you'll stand for the Council?" Mrs. Flanders exclaimed, looking the Captain straight in the eye.

"Well, about that," Captain Barfoot began, settling himself rather deeper in his chair.

"Well, about that," Captain Barfoot started, getting comfortable in his chair.

Jacob Flanders, therefore, went up to Cambridge in October, 1906.

Jacob Flanders, therefore, went up to Cambridge in October 1906.

CHAPTER THREE

"This is not a smoking-carriage," Mrs. Norman protested, nervously but very feebly, as the door swung open and a powerfully built young man jumped in. He seemed not to hear her. The train did not stop before it reached Cambridge, and here she was shut up alone, in a railway carriage, with a young man.

"This isn't a smoking car," Mrs. Norman protested, nervously but weakly, as the door swung open and a strong young man jumped in. He didn't seem to hear her. The train didn't stop until it reached Cambridge, and now she was stuck alone in a train car with a young man.

She touched the spring of her dressing-case, and ascertained that the scent-bottle and a novel from Mudie's were both handy (the young man was standing up with his back to her, putting his bag in the rack). She would throw the scent-bottle with her right hand, she decided, and tug the communication cord with her left. She was fifty years of age, and had a son at college. Nevertheless, it is a fact that men are dangerous. She read half a column of her newspaper; then stealthily looked over the edge to decide the question of safety by the infallible test of appearance…. She would like to offer him her paper. But do young men read the Morning Post? She looked to see what he was reading—the Daily Telegraph.

She touched the latch of her makeup case and checked that the perfume bottle and a novel from Mudie’s were within reach (the young man was standing with his back to her, putting his bag in the overhead rack). She decided she would throw the perfume bottle with her right hand and pull the communication cord with her left. She was fifty years old and had a son in college. Still, the fact remains that men can be unpredictable. She read half a column of her newspaper, then stealthily glanced over the edge to assess her safety using the foolproof method of looks…. She thought about offering him her paper. But do young men even read the Morning Post? She looked to see what he was reading—the Daily Telegraph.

Taking note of socks (loose), of tie (shabby), she once more reached his face. She dwelt upon his mouth. The lips were shut. The eyes bent down, since he was reading. All was firm, yet youthful, indifferent, unconscious—as for knocking one down! No, no, no! She looked out of the window, smiling slightly now, and then came back again, for he didn't notice her. Grave, unconscious… now he looked up, past her… he seemed so out of place, somehow, alone with an elderly lady… then he fixed his eyes—which were blue—on the landscape. He had not realized her presence, she thought. Yet it was none of HER fault that this was not a smoking-carriage—if that was what he meant.

Taking note of his loose socks and shabby tie, she once again focused on his face. She lingered on his mouth. His lips were closed. His eyes were downcast as he read. Everything about him was solid, yet still youthful, indifferent, unaware—like he could be easily knocked over! No, no, no! She glanced out the window, smiling slightly now, then looked back at him, since he hadn't noticed her. Serious, unaware... now he glanced up, looking past her... he seemed so out of place, somehow, alone with an older woman... then he directed his blue eyes at the landscape. She thought he hadn’t noticed her. But it wasn’t her fault that this wasn’t a smoking compartment—if that’s what he meant.

Nobody sees any one as he is, let alone an elderly lady sitting opposite a strange young man in a railway carriage. They see a whole—they see all sorts of things—they see themselves…. Mrs. Norman now read three pages of one of Mr. Norris's novels. Should she say to the young man (and after all he was just the same age as her own boy): "If you want to smoke, don't mind me"? No: he seemed absolutely indifferent to her presence… she did not wish to interrupt.

Nobody really sees someone for who they are, especially not an elderly lady sitting across from a strange young man in a train carriage. They see a complete picture—they see all kinds of things—they see themselves…. Mrs. Norman now read three pages of one of Mr. Norris's novels. Should she say to the young man (and after all he was the same age as her own son): "If you want to smoke, go ahead"? No: he seemed completely indifferent to her presence… she didn’t want to interrupt.

But since, even at her age, she noted his indifference, presumably he was in some way or other—to her at least—nice, handsome, interesting, distinguished, well built, like her own boy? One must do the best one can with her report. Anyhow, this was Jacob Flanders, aged nineteen. It is no use trying to sum people up. One must follow hints, not exactly what is said, nor yet entirely what is done—for instance, when the train drew into the station, Mr. Flanders burst open the door, and put the lady's dressing-case out for her, saying, or rather mumbling: "Let me" very shyly; indeed he was rather clumsy about it.

But even at her age, she noticed his indifference, so he must have been, in some way—at least to her—nice, good-looking, interesting, distinguished, well-built, like her own son? One has to work with what she reported. Anyway, this was Jacob Flanders, aged nineteen. It’s pointless to try to sum people up. One has to pay attention to hints, not just what is said, or entirely what is done—for example, when the train pulled into the station, Mr. Flanders opened the door, took the lady's suitcase out for her, mumbling "Let me," very shyly; he was actually kind of awkward about it.

"Who…" said the lady, meeting her son; but as there was a great crowd on the platform and Jacob had already gone, she did not finish her sentence. As this was Cambridge, as she was staying there for the week-end, as she saw nothing but young men all day long, in streets and round tables, this sight of her fellow-traveller was completely lost in her mind, as the crooked pin dropped by a child into the wishing-well twirls in the water and disappears for ever.

"Who…" said the lady, seeing her son; but since there was a huge crowd on the platform and Jacob had already left, she didn’t finish her sentence. Since this was Cambridge, where she was spending the weekend, and she saw nothing but young men all day long, in the streets and around tables, the sight of her fellow traveler completely faded from her mind, like a crooked pin dropped by a child into a wishing well that twirls in the water and disappears forever.

They say the sky is the same everywhere. Travellers, the shipwrecked, exiles, and the dying draw comfort from the thought, and no doubt if you are of a mystical tendency, consolation, and even explanation, shower down from the unbroken surface. But above Cambridge—anyhow above the roof of King's College Chapel—there is a difference. Out at sea a great city will cast a brightness into the night. Is it fanciful to suppose the sky, washed into the crevices of King's College Chapel, lighter, thinner, more sparkling than the sky elsewhere? Does Cambridge burn not only into the night, but into the day?

They say the sky is the same everywhere. Travelers, shipwrecked souls, exiles, and the dying find comfort in this idea, and surely if you're inclined toward the mystical, peace, and even clarity, pours down from the uninterrupted expanse above. But over Cambridge—at least above the roof of King's College Chapel—there's a distinction. Out at sea, a major city will cast a glow into the night. Is it too far-fetched to think that the sky, filtered through the nooks of King's College Chapel, is lighter, thinner, and more sparkling than the sky anywhere else? Does Cambridge glow not just into the night but also into the day?

Look, as they pass into service, how airily the gowns blow out, as though nothing dense and corporeal were within. What sculptured faces, what certainty, authority controlled by piety, although great boots march under the gowns. In what orderly procession they advance. Thick wax candles stand upright; young men rise in white gowns; while the subservient eagle bears up for inspection the great white book.

Look at how the gowns flutter as they enter service, as if there’s nothing solid or heavy underneath. Their sculpted faces reveal a sense of confidence and authority, tempered by devotion, even though big boots march beneath the gowns. They move forward in an orderly procession. Tall wax candles stand straight; young men are dressed in white gowns; and the submissive eagle holds up the large white book for everyone to see.

An inclined plane of light comes accurately through each window, purple and yellow even in its most diffused dust, while, where it breaks upon stone, that stone is softly chalked red, yellow, and purple. Neither snow nor greenery, winter nor summer, has power over the old stained glass. As the sides of a lantern protect the flame so that it burns steady even in the wildest night—burns steady and gravely illumines the tree-trunks—so inside the Chapel all was orderly. Gravely sounded the voices; wisely the organ replied, as if buttressing human faith with the assent of the elements. The white-robed figures crossed from side to side; now mounted steps, now descended, all very orderly.

A beam of light comes perfectly through each window, showing purple and yellow even in the dust, while where it hits the stone, the stone is softly marked in red, yellow, and purple. Neither snow nor greenery, winter nor summer, affects the old stained glass. Just like the sides of a lantern protect the flame so it burns steadily even on the wildest night—burning steadily and thoughtfully lighting up the tree trunks—in the Chapel, everything was in order. The voices sounded serious; the organ responded wisely, as if supporting human faith with the agreement of the elements. The figures in white robes moved back and forth; sometimes they went up steps, sometimes down, all very orderly.

… If you stand a lantern under a tree every insect in the forest creeps up to it—a curious assembly, since though they scramble and swing and knock their heads against the glass, they seem to have no purpose—something senseless inspires them. One gets tired of watching them, as they amble round the lantern and blindly tap as if for admittance, one large toad being the most besotted of any and shouldering his way through the rest. Ah, but what's that? A terrifying volley of pistol-shots rings out—cracks sharply; ripples spread—silence laps smooth over sound. A tree—a tree has fallen, a sort of death in the forest. After that, the wind in the trees sounds melancholy.

… If you place a lantern under a tree, every insect in the forest comes crawling to it—a curious gathering, since even though they scurry and bump around, they seem to have no real goal—something senseless drives them. You start to tire of watching them as they wander around the lantern and tap against it as if trying to get in, with one big toad being the most obsessed of them all, pushing through the crowd. Ah, but what’s that? A terrifying barrage of gunshots erupts—cracks sharply; ripples spread—silence smoothly envelops the sound. A tree—a tree has fallen, a kind of death in the forest. After that, the rustling of the wind in the trees sounds mournful.

But this service in King's College Chapel—why allow women to take part in it? Surely, if the mind wanders (and Jacob looked extraordinarily vacant, his head thrown back, his hymn-book open at the wrong place), if the mind wanders it is because several hat shops and cupboards upon cupboards of coloured dresses are displayed upon rush-bottomed chairs. Though heads and bodies may be devout enough, one has a sense of individuals—some like blue, others brown; some feathers, others pansies and forget-me-nots. No one would think of bringing a dog into church. For though a dog is all very well on a gravel path, and shows no disrespect to flowers, the way he wanders down an aisle, looking, lifting a paw, and approaching a pillar with a purpose that makes the blood run cold with horror (should you be one of a congregation—alone, shyness is out of the question), a dog destroys the service completely. So do these women—though separately devout, distinguished, and vouched for by the theology, mathematics, Latin, and Greek of their husbands. Heaven knows why it is. For one thing, thought Jacob, they're as ugly as sin.

But this service in King's College Chapel—why let women participate in it? Surely, if someone's mind drifts (and Jacob looked incredibly vacant, his head thrown back, his hymn book open to the wrong page), it's because several hat shops and shelves full of colorful dresses are showcased on rush-bottomed chairs. Even if heads and bodies may seem devout enough, you get a sense of individuals—some prefer blue, others brown; some like feathers, others pansies and forget-me-nots. No one would think of bringing a dog into church. Because while a dog is fine on a gravel path and shows no disrespect to flowers, the way he wanders down an aisle, looking, lifting a paw, and approaching a pillar with a purpose that makes your blood run cold with horror (if you're part of a congregation—being shy is not an option), a dog completely disrupts the service. So do these women—though individually devout, distinguished, and vouched for by the theology, mathematics, Latin, and Greek of their husbands. Heaven knows why it is. For one thing, Jacob thought, they're as ugly as sin.

Now there was a scraping and murmuring. He caught Timmy Durrant's eye; looked very sternly at him; and then, very solemnly, winked.

Now there was a scraping and murmuring. He caught Timmy Durrant's eye; looked very seriously at him; and then, very solemnly, winked.

"Waverley," the villa on the road to Girton was called, not that Mr. Plumer admired Scott or would have chosen any name at all, but names are useful when you have to entertain undergraduates, and as they sat waiting for the fourth undergraduate, on Sunday at lunch-time, there was talk of names upon gates.

"Waverley," the villa on the road to Girton, was called, not because Mr. Plumer admired Scott or would have picked any name at all, but names are handy when you have to entertain undergraduates. As they sat waiting for the fourth undergraduate on Sunday at lunch, they talked about names on gates.

"How tiresome," Mrs. Plumer interrupted impulsively. "Does anybody know
Mr. Flanders?"

"How exhausting," Mrs. Plumer interrupted suddenly. "Does anyone know
Mr. Flanders?"

Mr. Durrant knew him; and therefore blushed slightly, and said, awkwardly, something about being sure—looking at Mr. Plumer and hitching the right leg of his trouser as he spoke. Mr. Plumer got up and stood in front of the fireplace. Mrs. Plumer laughed like a straightforward friendly fellow. In short, anything more horrible than the scene, the setting, the prospect, even the May garden being afflicted with chill sterility and a cloud choosing that moment to cross the sun, cannot be imagined. There was the garden, of course. Every one at the same moment looked at it. Owing to the cloud, the leaves ruffled grey, and the sparrows—there were two sparrows.

Mr. Durrant recognized him and blushed a bit, awkwardly mentioning something about being sure—glancing at Mr. Plumer and adjusting the right leg of his pants as he talked. Mr. Plumer got up and stood in front of the fireplace. Mrs. Plumer laughed like a genuinely friendly person. In short, it was hard to imagine anything more awful than the scene, the setting, the outlook, especially with the May garden suffering from a cold sterility and a cloud choosing that moment to block the sun. There was the garden, of course. At that moment, everyone looked at it. Because of the cloud, the leaves appeared grey and the sparrows—there were two sparrows.

"I think," said Mrs. Plumer, taking advantage of the momentary respite, while the young men stared at the garden, to look at her husband, and he, not accepting full responsibility for the act, nevertheless touched the bell.

"I think," said Mrs. Plumer, taking advantage of the brief pause while the young men stared at the garden, to glance at her husband, and he, not fully accepting responsibility for the action, still rang the bell.

There can be no excuse for this outrage upon one hour of human life, save the reflection which occurred to Mr. Plumer as he carved the mutton, that if no don ever gave a luncheon party, if Sunday after Sunday passed, if men went down, became lawyers, doctors, members of Parliament, business men—if no don ever gave a luncheon party—

There can be no excuse for this outrage on an hour of human life, except for the thought that crossed Mr. Plumer's mind while he was carving the mutton: if no professor ever hosted a lunch party, if Sunday after Sunday went by, if men pursued careers as lawyers, doctors, members of Parliament, business people—if no professor ever hosted a lunch party—

"Now, does lamb make the mint sauce, or mint sauce make the lamb?" he asked the young man next him, to break a silence which had already lasted five minutes and a half.

"Now, does the lamb make the mint sauce, or does the mint sauce make the lamb?" he asked the young man next to him, trying to break a silence that had already lasted five minutes and a half.

"I don't know, sir," said the young man, blushing very vividly.

"I don't know, sir," said the young man, blushing deeply.

At this moment in came Mr. Flanders. He had mistaken the time.

At that moment, Mr. Flanders walked in. He had gotten the time wrong.

Now, though they had finished their meat, Mrs. Plumer took a second helping of cabbage. Jacob determined, of course, that he would eat his meat in the time it took her to finish her cabbage, looking once or twice to measure his speed—only he was infernally hungry. Seeing this, Mrs. Plumer said that she was sure Mr. Flanders would not mind—and the tart was brought in. Nodding in a peculiar way, she directed the maid to give Mr. Flanders a second helping of mutton. She glanced at the mutton. Not much of the leg would be left for luncheon.

Now, even though they had finished their meat, Mrs. Plumer took a second serving of cabbage. Jacob decided that he would eat his meat in the time it took her to finish her cabbage, glancing a couple of times to gauge his speed—he was just incredibly hungry. Noticing this, Mrs. Plumer said she was sure Mr. Flanders wouldn’t mind—and the tart was brought in. Nodding in a strange way, she directed the maid to give Mr. Flanders another serving of mutton. She looked at the mutton. There wouldn’t be much of the leg left for lunch.

It was none of her fault—since how could she control her father begetting her forty years ago in the suburbs of Manchester? and once begotten, how could she do other than grow up cheese-paring, ambitious, with an instinctively accurate notion of the rungs of the ladder and an ant-like assiduity in pushing George Plumer ahead of her to the top of the ladder? What was at the top of the ladder? A sense that all the rungs were beneath one apparently; since by the time that George Plumer became Professor of Physics, or whatever it might be, Mrs. Plumer could only be in a condition to cling tight to her eminence, peer down at the ground, and goad her two plain daughters to climb the rungs of the ladder.

It wasn't her fault—how could she control her father bringing her into the world forty years ago in the suburbs of Manchester? And once born, what else could she do but grow up frugal, ambitious, with a surprisingly accurate understanding of the ladder's steps and a determined effort to push George Plumer ahead of her to the top? What was at the top of that ladder? The realization that all the steps were beneath her; by the time George Plumer became a Professor of Physics or whatever it was, Mrs. Plumer could only cling to her status, look down at the ground, and urge her two plain daughters to climb the steps of the ladder.

"I was down at the races yesterday," she said, "with my two little girls."

"I was at the races yesterday," she said, "with my two little girls."

It was none of THEIR fault either. In they came to the drawing-room, in white frocks and blue sashes. They handed the cigarettes. Rhoda had inherited her father's cold grey eyes. Cold grey eyes George Plumer had, but in them was an abstract light. He could talk about Persia and the Trade winds, the Reform Bill and the cycle of the harvests. Books were on his shelves by Wells and Shaw; on the table serious six-penny weeklies written by pale men in muddy boots—the weekly creak and screech of brains rinsed in cold water and wrung dry—melancholy papers.

It wasn't their fault either. They walked into the living room, wearing white dresses and blue sashes. They offered the cigarettes. Rhoda had inherited her father's cold grey eyes. George Plumer had cold grey eyes too, but there was an abstract light in them. He could talk about Persia and the trade winds, the Reform Bill, and the cycle of the harvests. His shelves had books by Wells and Shaw; on the table were serious sixpenny weeklies written by pale men in muddy boots—the weekly creak and screech of minds rinsed in cold water and wrung dry—melancholy papers.

"I don't feel that I know the truth about anything till I've read them both!" said Mrs. Plumer brightly, tapping the table of contents with her bare red hand, upon which the ring looked so incongruous.

"I don't feel like I know the truth about anything until I've read both of them!" said Mrs. Plumer cheerfully, tapping the table of contents with her bare red hand, on which the ring looked so out of place.

"Oh God, oh God, oh God!" exclaimed Jacob, as the four undergraduates left the house. "Oh, my God!"

"Oh God, oh God, oh God!" Jacob exclaimed as the four undergraduates left the house. "Oh my God!"

"Bloody beastly!" he said, scanning the street for lilac or bicycle—anything to restore his sense of freedom.

"Bloody awful!" he said, scanning the street for lilac or a bike—anything to bring back his sense of freedom.

"Bloody beastly," he said to Timmy Durrant, summing up his discomfort at the world shown him at lunch-time, a world capable of existing—there was no doubt about that—but so unnecessary, such a thing to believe in—Shaw and Wells and the serious sixpenny weeklies! What were they after, scrubbing and demolishing, these elderly people? Had they never read Homer, Shakespeare, the Elizabethans? He saw it clearly outlined against the feelings he drew from youth and natural inclination. The poor devils had rigged up this meagre object. Yet something of pity was in him. Those wretched little girls—

"Bloody awful," he said to Timmy Durrant, expressing his unease with the world he encountered at lunch, a world that was definitely capable of existing—but utterly unnecessary, such a thing to believe in—Shaw and Wells and the serious cheap magazines! What were those old folks trying to achieve, scrubbing and tearing down things? Had they never read Homer, Shakespeare, the Elizabethans? He could see it clearly against the feelings he felt from youth and natural instinct. Those poor souls had created this pitiful situation. Yet there was a part of him that felt compassion. Those miserable little girls—

The extent to which he was disturbed proves that he was already agog. Insolent he was and inexperienced, but sure enough the cities which the elderly of the race have built upon the skyline showed like brick suburbs, barracks, and places of discipline against a red and yellow flame. He was impressionable; but the word is contradicted by the composure with which he hollowed his hand to screen a match. He was a young man of substance.

The level of his distress shows that he was already excited. He was rude and inexperienced, but the cities built by the older generations stood out on the skyline like brick suburbs, barracks, and places of order against a backdrop of red and yellow flames. He was easily influenced; however, that’s contradicted by how calmly he cupped his hand to shield a match. He was a young man of means.

Anyhow, whether undergraduate or shop boy, man or woman, it must come as a shock about the age of twenty—the world of the elderly—thrown up in such black outline upon what we are; upon the reality; the moors and Byron; the sea and the lighthouse; the sheep's jaw with the yellow teeth in it; upon the obstinate irrepressible conviction which makes youth so intolerably disagreeable—"I am what I am, and intend to be it," for which there will be no form in the world unless Jacob makes one for himself. The Plumers will try to prevent him from making it. Wells and Shaw and the serious sixpenny weeklies will sit on its head. Every time he lunches out on Sunday—at dinner parties and tea parties—there will be this same shock—horror—discomfort—then pleasure, for he draws into him at every step as he walks by the river such steady certainty, such reassurance from all sides, the trees bowing, the grey spires soft in the blue, voices blowing and seeming suspended in the air, the springy air of May, the elastic air with its particles—chestnut bloom, pollen, whatever it is that gives the May air its potency, blurring the trees, gumming the buds, daubing the green. And the river too runs past, not at flood, nor swiftly, but cloying the oar that dips in it and drops white drops from the blade, swimming green and deep over the bowed rushes, as if lavishly caressing them.

Anyway, whether you're a college student or a worker, man or woman, reaching around the age of twenty can be a shocking experience—it’s like confronting the world of older people—defined starkly against who we are; against reality; the moors and Byron; the sea and the lighthouse; the sheep's jaw with its yellow teeth; against the stubborn, unshakable belief that makes youth so annoyingly self-assured—"I am who I am, and I plan to stay that way," for which there won’t be any place in the world unless Jacob creates one for himself. The Plumers will try to stop him from doing that. Wells and Shaw and the serious sixpenny weeklies will criticize him. Every time he goes out for lunch on Sunday—at dinner parties and tea gatherings—there will be this same shock—horror—discomfort—followed by pleasure, as he absorbs steady confidence, reassurance from every direction while walking by the river; the trees bowing, the grey spires soft against the blue sky, voices drifting and seeming to hang in the air, the refreshing air of May, the lively air filled with particles—chestnut blossoms, pollen, whatever it is that gives May air its strength, blurring the trees, sticking the buds together, painting everything green. And the river flows by, not rushing or flooding, but lovingly wrapping around the oar that dips into it, dropping white splashes from the blade, gliding deep and green over the bent rushes, as if it’s tenderly embracing them.

Where they moored their boat the trees showered down, so that their topmost leaves trailed in the ripples and the green wedge that lay in the water being made of leaves shifted in leaf-breadths as the real leaves shifted. Now there was a shiver of wind—instantly an edge of sky; and as Durrant ate cherries he dropped the stunted yellow cherries through the green wedge of leaves, their stalks twinkling as they wriggled in and out, and sometimes one half-bitten cherry would go down red into the green. The meadow was on a level with Jacob's eyes as he lay back; gilt with buttercups, but the grass did not run like the thin green water of the graveyard grass about to overflow the tombstones, but stood juicy and thick. Looking up, backwards, he saw the legs of children deep in the grass, and the legs of cows. Munch, munch, he heard; then a short step through the grass; then again munch, munch, munch, as they tore the grass short at the roots. In front of him two white butterflies circled higher and higher round the elm tree.

Where they parked their boat, the trees cast down their leaves, so the highest leaves trailed in the ripples, and the green patch in the water, made of leaves, shifted as the actual leaves moved. Suddenly, a breeze came — instantly revealing a bit of sky; and as Durrant ate cherries, he dropped the small yellow cherries through the green patch of leaves, their stems shimmering as they wiggled in and out, and sometimes a half-eaten cherry would fall down, red against the green. The meadow was at the same level as Jacob's eyes as he lay back, glistening with buttercups, but the grass didn’t flow like the thin green water of the graveyard grass about to spill over the tombstones; it stood lush and thick. Looking up and back, he noticed the legs of children deep in the grass and the legs of cows. Munch, munch, he heard; then a brief step through the grass; then again munch, munch, munch, as they bit the grass close to the roots. In front of him, two white butterflies spiraled higher and higher around the elm tree.

"Jacob's off," thought Durrant looking up from his novel. He kept reading a few pages and then looking up in a curiously methodical manner, and each time he looked up he took a few cherries out of the bag and ate them abstractedly. Other boats passed them, crossing the backwater from side to side to avoid each other, for many were now moored, and there were now white dresses and a flaw in the column of air between two trees, round which curled a thread of blue—Lady Miller's picnic party. Still more boats kept coming, and Durrant, without getting up, shoved their boat closer to the bank.

"Jacob's gone," thought Durrant as he looked up from his book. He kept reading a few pages then looked up in a strangely methodical way, and each time he looked up, he took a few cherries from the bag and ate them absentmindedly. Other boats passed by, zigzagging across the backwater to avoid colliding with one another, since many were now anchored, and there were white dresses and a break in the air between two trees, around which a thread of blue curled—Lady Miller's picnic party. More boats continued to arrive, and Durrant, without standing up, nudged their boat closer to the bank.

"Oh-h-h-h," groaned Jacob, as the boat rocked, and the trees rocked, and the white dresses and the white flannel trousers drew out long and wavering up the bank.

"Ohhhh," groaned Jacob, as the boat swayed, and the trees swayed, and the white dresses and the white flannel trousers stretched out long and wavering up the bank.

"Oh-h-h-h!" He sat up, and felt as if a piece of elastic had snapped in his face.

"Oh-h-h-h!" He sat up, feeling like a rubber band had snapped in his face.

"They're friends of my mother's," said Durrant. "So old Bow took no end of trouble about the boat."

"They're my mom's friends," Durrant said. "So old Bow really went out of his way for the boat."

And this boat had gone from Falmouth to St. Ives Bay, all round the coast. A larger boat, a ten-ton yacht, about the twentieth of June, properly fitted out, Durrant said…

And this boat had traveled from Falmouth to St. Ives Bay, all along the coast. A bigger boat, a ten-ton yacht, around June twentieth, properly outfitted, Durrant said…

"There's the cash difficulty," said Jacob.

"There's the money problem," said Jacob.

"My people'll see to that," said Durrant (the son of a banker, deceased).

"My people will take care of that," said Durrant (the son of a deceased banker).

"I intend to preserve my economic independence," said Jacob stiffly. (He was getting excited.)

"I plan to maintain my financial independence," Jacob said firmly. (He was getting excited.)

"My mother said something about going to Harrogate," he said with a little annoyance, feeling the pocket where he kept his letters.

"My mom mentioned something about going to Harrogate," he said with a hint of annoyance, feeling the pocket where he kept his letters.

"Was that true about your uncle becoming a Mohammedan?" asked Timmy
Durrant.

"Is it true that your uncle converted to Islam?" asked Timmy
Durrant.

Jacob had told the story of his Uncle Morty in Durrant's room the night before.

Jacob had shared the story of his Uncle Morty in Durrant's room the night before.

"I expect he's feeding the sharks, if the truth were known," said Jacob.
"I say, Durrant, there's none left!" he exclaimed, crumpling the bag
which had held the cherries, and throwing it into the river. He saw Lady
Miller's picnic party on the island as he threw the bag into the river.

"I bet he's feeding the sharks, if we're being honest," Jacob said.
"Hey, Durrant, there aren't any left!" he shouted, crumpling the bag
that had held the cherries and tossing it into the river. He noticed Lady
Miller's picnic group on the island as he threw the bag into the river.

A sort of awkwardness, grumpiness, gloom came into his eyes.

A kind of awkwardness, irritation, and sadness appeared in his eyes.

"Shall we move on… this beastly crowd…" he said.

"Should we keep going… this awful crowd…" he said.

So up they went, past the island.

So up they went, past the island.

The feathery white moon never let the sky grow dark; all night the chestnut blossoms were white in the green; dim was the cow-parsley in the meadows.

The fluffy white moon never allowed the sky to get dark; all night the chestnut blossoms glowed white among the green; the cow-parsley in the meadows looked dim.

The waiters at Trinity must have been shuffling china plates like cards, from the clatter that could be heard in the Great Court. Jacob's rooms, however, were in Neville's Court; at the top; so that reaching his door one went in a little out of breath; but he wasn't there. Dining in Hall, presumably. It will be quite dark in Neville's Court long before midnight, only the pillars opposite will always be white, and the fountains. A curious effect the gate has, like lace upon pale green. Even in the window you hear the plates; a hum of talk, too, from the diners; the Hall lit up, and the swing-doors opening and shutting with a soft thud. Some are late.

The waiters at Trinity must have been moving china plates around like cards, judging by the noise coming from the Great Court. However, Jacob's rooms were in Neville's Court; at the top, so when you reached his door, you were a little out of breath, but he wasn't there. Probably dining in Hall. It gets quite dark in Neville's Court long before midnight, with only the pillars across from you staying white, along with the fountains. The gate has a strange effect, like lace on pale green. Even from the window, you can hear the plates; there's also a buzz of conversation from the diners, the Hall lit up, and the swing doors opening and closing with a soft thud. Some people are running late.

Jacob's room had a round table and two low chairs. There were yellow flags in a jar on the mantelpiece; a photograph of his mother; cards from societies with little raised crescents, coats of arms, and initials; notes and pipes; on the table lay paper ruled with a red margin—an essay, no doubt—"Does History consist of the Biographies of Great Men?" There were books enough; very few French books; but then any one who's worth anything reads just what he likes, as the mood takes him, with extravagant enthusiasm. Lives of the Duke of Wellington, for example; Spinoza; the works of Dickens; the Faery Queen; a Greek dictionary with the petals of poppies pressed to silk between the pages; all the Elizabethans. His slippers were incredibly shabby, like boats burnt to the water's rim. Then there were photographs from the Greeks, and a mezzotint from Sir Joshua—all very English. The works of Jane Austen, too, in deference, perhaps, to some one else's standard. Carlyle was a prize. There were books upon the Italian painters of the Renaissance, a Manual of the Diseases of the Horse, and all the usual text-books. Listless is the air in an empty room, just swelling the curtain; the flowers in the jar shift. One fibre in the wicker arm-chair creaks, though no one sits there.

Jacob's room had a round table and two low chairs. There were yellow flags in a jar on the mantel; a photograph of his mother; cards from societies with little raised crescents, coats of arms, and initials; notes and pipes; on the table lay paper with a red margin—an essay, no doubt—"Does History consist of the Biographies of Great Men?" There were plenty of books; very few French books; but then anyone who's worth anything reads just what they like, as the mood strikes them, with wild enthusiasm. Lives of the Duke of Wellington, for example; Spinoza; the works of Dickens; the Faery Queen; a Greek dictionary with pressed poppy petals between the pages; all the Elizabethans. His slippers were incredibly worn, like boats burnt to the water’s edge. Then there were photographs of the Greeks, and a mezzotint from Sir Joshua—all very English. The works of Jane Austen, too, perhaps out of respect for someone else's standard. Carlyle was a gem. There were books about the Italian painters of the Renaissance, a Manual of the Diseases of the Horse, and all the usual textbooks. The air felt listless in the empty room, just causing the curtain to swell; the flowers in the jar shifted. One fiber in the wicker armchair creaked, though no one was sitting there.

Coming down the steps a little sideways [Jacob sat on the window-seat talking to Durrant; he smoked, and Durrant looked at the map], the old man, with his hands locked behind him, his gown floating black, lurched, unsteadily, near the wall; then, upstairs he went into his room. Then another, who raised his hand and praised the columns, the gate, the sky; another, tripping and smug. Each went up a staircase; three lights were lit in the dark windows.

Coming down the steps at an angle, Jacob sat on the window seat chatting with Durrant; he was smoking, and Durrant was looking at the map. The old man, hands locked behind him, his black gown billowing, stumbled unsteadily near the wall before heading upstairs to his room. Another person raised his hand and complimented the columns, the gate, the sky; another was stumbling along, looking pleased with himself. Each person went up a staircase; three lights were shining in the dark windows.

If any light burns above Cambridge, it must be from three such rooms; Greek burns here; science there; philosophy on the ground floor. Poor old Huxtable can't walk straight;—Sopwith, too, has praised the sky any night these twenty years; and Cowan still chuckles at the same stories. It is not simple, or pure, or wholly splendid, the lamp of learning, since if you see them there under its light (whether Rossetti's on the wall, or Van Gogh reproduced, whether there are lilacs in the bowl or rusty pipes), how priestly they look! How like a suburb where you go to see a view and eat a special cake! "We are the sole purveyors of this cake." Back you go to London; for the treat is over.

If there's any light shining over Cambridge, it must be coming from three specific rooms; Greek studies are happening here, science is going on there, and philosophy is on the ground floor. Poor old Huxtable can't walk straight; Sopwith has been admiring the sky for the past twenty years, and Cowan still laughs at the same old stories. The lamp of learning isn't simple, pure, or entirely wonderful, because when you see them underneath its glow (whether it's a Rossetti on the wall or a Van Gogh reproduction, whether there are lilacs in the vase or rusty pipes), they look so dignified! It's like a suburb where you go to enjoy a view and eat a special cake! "We are the exclusive sellers of this cake." Then you head back to London, because the treat is over.

Old Professor Huxtable, performing with the method of a clock his change of dress, let himself down into his chair; filled his pipe; chose his paper; crossed his feet; and extracted his glasses. The whole flesh of his face then fell into folds as if props were removed. Yet strip a whole seat of an underground railway carriage of its heads and old Huxtable's head will hold them all. Now, as his eye goes down the print, what a procession tramps through the corridors of his brain, orderly, quick-stepping, and reinforced, as the march goes on, by fresh runnels, till the whole hall, dome, whatever one calls it, is populous with ideas. Such a muster takes place in no other brain. Yet sometimes there he'll sit for hours together, gripping the arm of the chair, like a man holding fast because stranded, and then, just because his corn twinges, or it may be the gout, what execrations, and, dear me, to hear him talk of money, taking out his leather purse and grudging even the smallest silver coin, secretive and suspicious as an old peasant woman with all her lies. Strange paralysis and constriction—marvellous illumination. Serene over it all rides the great full brow, and sometimes asleep or in the quiet spaces of the night you might fancy that on a pillow of stone he lay triumphant.

Old Professor Huxtable, going about his routine like clockwork, settled into his chair; filled his pipe; picked out his paper; crossed his feet; and pulled out his glasses. The skin on his face drooped, as if all the support had been taken away. Yet if you took away all the heads from a subway train seat, old Huxtable's head could hold them all. As his eyes scan the text, a parade of thoughts marches through his mind, organized, brisk, and growing stronger, as new ideas flow in, until the entire space, or dome, is filled with thoughts. Such a gathering happens in no other mind. Yet sometimes he’ll sit for hours, gripping the arm of the chair as if he’s stranded, and then, just because his corn starts hurting, or it could be the gout, what outbursts! And oh, to hear him talk about money, pulling out his leather wallet and begrudging even the tiniest silver coin, as secretive and wary as an old peasant woman hoarding her lies. It's a strange kind of paralysis and tension—marvelous clarity. Over it all, his great broad forehead remains serene, and sometimes, when he’s asleep or in the quiet of night, you might imagine he rests triumphantly on a stone pillow.

Sopwith, meanwhile, advancing with a curious trip from the fire-place, cut the chocolate cake into segments. Until midnight or later there would be undergraduates in his room, sometimes as many as twelve, sometimes three or four; but nobody got up when they went or when they came; Sopwith went on talking. Talking, talking, talking—as if everything could be talked—the soul itself slipped through the lips in thin silver disks which dissolve in young men's minds like silver, like moonlight. Oh, far away they'd remember it, and deep in dulness gaze back on it, and come to refresh themselves again.

Sopwith, meanwhile, stepped away from the fireplace and sliced the chocolate cake into pieces. Until midnight or later, there would be undergraduates in his room—sometimes as many as twelve, sometimes just three or four—but no one got up when they arrived or when they left; Sopwith kept talking. Talking, talking, talking—as if everything could be discussed—the essence itself slipped through his lips in thin silver discs that melted in young men’s minds like silver, like moonlight. Oh, they would remember it from far away, gazing back into their dullness, and come to revitalize themselves again.

"Well, I never. That's old Chucky. My dear boy, how's the world treating you?" And in came poor little Chucky, the unsuccessful provincial, Stenhouse his real name, but of course Sopwith brought back by using the other everything, everything, "all I could never be"—yes, though next day, buying his newspaper and catching the early train, it all seemed to him childish, absurd; the chocolate cake, the young men; Sopwith summing things up; no, not all; he would send his son there. He would save every penny to send his son there.

"Wow, I can't believe it. That's old Chucky. My dear boy, how's life treating you?" And in came poor little Chucky, the unsuccessful provincial, Stenhouse was his real name, but of course Sopwith brought back everything, everything, "all I could never be"—yes, even though the next day, buying his newspaper and catching the early train, it all felt childish, ridiculous; the chocolate cake, the young men; Sopwith summing things up; no, not everything; he would send his son there. He would save every penny to send his son there.

Sopwith went on talking; twining stiff fibres of awkward speech—things young men blurted out—plaiting them round his own smooth garland, making the bright side show, the vivid greens, the sharp thorns, manliness. He loved it. Indeed to Sopwith a man could say anything, until perhaps he'd grown old, or gone under, gone deep, when the silver disks would tinkle hollow, and the inscription read a little too simple, and the old stamp look too pure, and the impress always the same—a Greek boy's head. But he would respect still. A woman, divining the priest, would, involuntarily, despise.

Sopwith kept talking, weaving together clumsy words—things young men often blurt out—around his own smooth narrative, showcasing the bright aspects, the vivid greens, the sharp thorns, and manliness. He loved it. To Sopwith, a man could say anything, at least until he got old or fell from grace, when the silver coins would sound empty, and the message would seem overly simple, and the old seal would appear too pristine, and the imprint always the same—a Greek boy's head. But he would still hold respect. A woman, sensing the underlying motives, would, without meaning to, look down on it.

Cowan, Erasmus Cowan, sipped his port alone, or with one rosy little man, whose memory held precisely the same span of time; sipped his port, and told his stories, and without book before him intoned Latin, Virgil and Catullus, as if language were wine upon his lips. Only—sometimes it will come over one—what if the poet strode in? "THIS my image?" he might ask, pointing to the chubby man, whose brain is, after all, Virgil's representative among us, though the body gluttonize, and as for arms, bees, or even the plough, Cowan takes his trips abroad with a French novel in his pocket, a rug about his knees, and is thankful to be home again in his place, in his line, holding up in his snug little mirror the image of Virgil, all rayed round with good stories of the dons of Trinity and red beams of port. But language is wine upon his lips. Nowhere else would Virgil hear the like. And though, as she goes sauntering along the Backs, old Miss Umphelby sings him melodiously enough, accurately too, she is always brought up by this question as she reaches Clare Bridge: "But if I met him, what should I wear?"—and then, taking her way up the avenue towards Newnham, she lets her fancy play upon other details of men's meeting with women which have never got into print. Her lectures, therefore, are not half so well attended as those of Cowan, and the thing she might have said in elucidation of the text for ever left out. In short, face a teacher with the image of the taught and the mirror breaks. But Cowan sipped his port, his exaltation over, no longer the representative of Virgil. No, the builder, assessor, surveyor, rather; ruling lines between names, hanging lists above doors. Such is the fabric through which the light must shine, if shine it can—the light of all these languages, Chinese and Russian, Persian and Arabic, of symbols and figures, of history, of things that are known and things that are about to be known. So that if at night, far out at sea over the tumbling waves, one saw a haze on the waters, a city illuminated, a whiteness even in the sky, such as that now over the Hall of Trinity where they're still dining, or washing up plates, that would be the light burning there—the light of Cambridge.

Cowan, Erasmus Cowan, enjoyed his port either alone or with a cheerful little man who shared the same memories; he sipped his port, told his stories, and recited Latin poetry by Virgil and Catullus as if language were wine on his lips. Sometimes— it would cross his mind—what if the poet showed up? "Is THIS my likeness?" he might question, pointing at the chubby guy, who, after all, embodies Virgil among us, even if his body indulges, and as for his arms, well, Cowan travels with a French novel in his pocket, a blanket over his legs, and is grateful to be back in his spot, holding up in his cozy little mirror the image of Virgil, surrounded by great stories of the professors at Trinity and the warmth of port. But language is like wine on his lips. Nowhere else would Virgil experience anything like it. Even though old Miss Umphelby strolls along the Backs singing to him sweetly and accurately, she always pauses at Clare Bridge with this question: "But if I actually met him, what would I wear?"—and then, as she heads up the avenue towards Newnham, she lets her imagination wander over other details of men meeting women that have never been published. As a result, her lectures attract far fewer attendees than Cowan's, and the points she could have made to clarify the text are forever left out. In short, confront a teacher with the image of what they teach, and the reflection shatters. But Cowan sipped his port, his thrill fading, no longer the embodiment of Virgil. No, he was now more like a builder, assessor, or surveyor; drawing boundaries between names, hanging lists above doorways. This is the structure through which the light must shine, if it can—the light of all these languages, Chinese and Russian, Persian and Arabic, of symbols and figures, of history, of things that are known and those that are yet to be discovered. So if at night, far out at sea over the crashing waves, one saw a glow on the waters, a lit city, a brightness even in the sky, like that now over the Hall of Trinity where they’re still dining or cleaning up dishes, that would be the light burning there—the light of Cambridge.

"Let's go round to Simeon's room," said Jacob, and they rolled up the map, having got the whole thing settled.

"Let's head over to Simeon's room," said Jacob, and they rolled up the map, having sorted everything out.

All the lights were coming out round the court, and falling on the cobbles, picking out dark patches of grass and single daisies. The young men were now back in their rooms. Heaven knows what they were doing. What was it that could DROP like that? And leaning down over a foaming window-box, one stopped another hurrying past, and upstairs they went and down they went, until a sort of fulness settled on the court, the hive full of bees, the bees home thick with gold, drowsy, humming, suddenly vocal; the Moonlight Sonata answered by a waltz.

All the lights were shining brightly around the courtyard, illuminating the cobblestones, highlighting dark patches of grass and individual daisies. The young men had returned to their rooms. Who knows what they were up to? What could make a sound like that? Leaning over a bubbling window box, one guy stopped another rushing by, and they went upstairs and then back down, until a sense of fullness settled over the courtyard, like a beehive buzzing with activity, the bees heavy with nectar, lazy, humming, suddenly breaking into song; the Moonlight Sonata responded with a waltz.

The Moonlight Sonata tinkled away; the waltz crashed. Although young men still went in and out, they walked as if keeping engagements. Now and then there was a thud, as if some heavy piece of furniture had fallen, unexpectedly, of its own accord, not in the general stir of life after dinner. One supposed that young men raised their eyes from their books as the furniture fell. Were they reading? Certainly there was a sense of concentration in the air. Behind the grey walls sat so many young men, some undoubtedly reading, magazines, shilling shockers, no doubt; legs, perhaps, over the arms of chairs; smoking; sprawling over tables, and writing while their heads went round in a circle as the pen moved—simple young men, these, who would—but there is no need to think of them grown old; others eating sweets; here they boxed; and, well, Mr. Hawkins must have been mad suddenly to throw up his window and bawl: "Jo—seph! Jo—seph!" and then he ran as hard as ever he could across the court, while an elderly man, in a green apron, carrying an immense pile of tin covers, hesitated, balanced, and then went on. But this was a diversion. There were young men who read, lying in shallow arm-chairs, holding their books as if they had hold in their hands of something that would see them through; they being all in a torment, coming from midland towns, clergymen's sons. Others read Keats. And those long histories in many volumes—surely some one was now beginning at the beginning in order to understand the Holy Roman Empire, as one must. That was part of the concentration, though it would be dangerous on a hot spring night—dangerous, perhaps, to concentrate too much upon single books, actual chapters, when at any moment the door opened and Jacob appeared; or Richard Bonamy, reading Keats no longer, began making long pink spills from an old newspaper, bending forward, and looking eager and contented no more, but almost fierce. Why? Only perhaps that Keats died young—one wants to write poetry too and to love—oh, the brutes! It's damnably difficult. But, after all, not so difficult if on the next staircase, in the large room, there are two, three, five young men all convinced of this—of brutality, that is, and the clear division between right and wrong. There was a sofa, chairs, a square table, and the window being open, one could see how they sat—legs issuing here, one there crumpled in a corner of the sofa; and, presumably, for you could not see him, somebody stood by the fender, talking. Anyhow, Jacob, who sat astride a chair and ate dates from a long box, burst out laughing. The answer came from the sofa corner; for his pipe was held in the air, then replaced. Jacob wheeled round. He had something to say to THAT, though the sturdy red-haired boy at the table seemed to deny it, wagging his head slowly from side to side; and then, taking out his penknife, he dug the point of it again and again into a knot in the table, as if affirming that the voice from the fender spoke the truth—which Jacob could not deny. Possibly, when he had done arranging the date-stones, he might find something to say to it—indeed his lips opened—only then there broke out a roar of laughter.

The Moonlight Sonata played softly; the waltz crashed in. Young men still came and went, walking as if they had plans to keep. Occasionally, there was a thud, like a heavy piece of furniture falling unexpectedly, not just the normal after-dinner bustle. One might assume that the young men lifted their eyes from their books when the furniture fell. Were they reading? There was definitely a vibe of focus in the air. Behind the grey walls sat many young men, some definitely reading magazines, sensational fiction, probably; legs thrown over the arms of chairs; smoking; lounging over tables, writing as their heads spun in circles with the movement of their pens—simple young men, who would—but there's no need to picture them as old; others were eating sweets; here they boxed; and well, Mr. Hawkins must have been out of his mind to suddenly throw open his window and shout: "Jo—seph! Jo—seph!" then he dashed across the courtyard as fast as he could, while an older man in a green apron, carrying a huge stack of tin covers, paused, hesitated, and then kept going. But this was just a distraction. There were young men reading, lounging in shallow armchairs, gripping their books as if they were holding onto something that would get them through; they were all in turmoil, coming from midland towns, sons of clergymen. Others were reading Keats. And those thick histories in multiple volumes—surely someone was just starting at the beginning to grasp the Holy Roman Empire, as one should. That was part of the focus, though it could be risky on a warm spring night—risky maybe to concentrate too intensely on individual books, specific chapters, when at any moment the door could open and Jacob might walk in; or Richard Bonamy, no longer reading Keats, started making long pink strips from an old newspaper, leaning forward, appearing eager and contentless, almost fierce. Why? Perhaps only because Keats died young—one wants to write poetry too and to love—oh, the struggles! It’s incredibly tough. But really, not so tough if, on the next staircase, in the big room, there were two, three, five young men all convinced of this—of brutality, that is, and the clear line between right and wrong. There was a sofa, chairs, a square table, and with the window open, one could see how they were positioned—legs sticking out here, one curled up in the corner of the sofa; and, presumably, since you couldn’t see him, someone stood by the fender, talking. Anyway, Jacob, who straddled a chair and snacked on dates from a long box, suddenly burst out laughing. The response came from the sofa corner; he held his pipe in the air, then put it down. Jacob turned around. He had something to say in response, though the sturdy red-haired boy at the table seemed to disagree, slowly shaking his head from side to side; and then, pulling out his penknife, he repeatedly jabbed the tip into a knot in the table, as if confirming that the voice from the fender was telling the truth—which Jacob couldn’t deny. Maybe, after he finished arranging the date stones, he’d find something to say about it—indeed his lips parted—only then a loud burst of laughter erupted.

The laughter died in the air. The sound of it could scarcely have reached any one standing by the Chapel, which stretched along the opposite side of the court. The laughter died out, and only gestures of arms, movements of bodies, could be seen shaping something in the room. Was it an argument? A bet on the boat races? Was it nothing of the sort? What was shaped by the arms and bodies moving in the twilight room?

The laughter faded away. It probably wouldn’t have reached anyone near the Chapel, which was on the other side of the courtyard. The laughter disappeared, and only the gestures of arms and movements of bodies could be seen forming something in the room. Was it an argument? A wager on the boat races? Or was it something completely different? What was being created by the arms and bodies moving in the dimly lit room?

A step or two beyond the window there was nothing at all, except the enclosing buildings—chimneys upright, roofs horizontal; too much brick and building for a May night, perhaps. And then before one's eyes would come the bare hills of Turkey—sharp lines, dry earth, coloured flowers, and colour on the shoulders of the women, standing naked-legged in the stream to beat linen on the stones. The stream made loops of water round their ankles. But none of that could show clearly through the swaddlings and blanketings of the Cambridge night. The stroke of the clock even was muffled; as if intoned by somebody reverent from a pulpit; as if generations of learned men heard the last hour go rolling through their ranks and issued it, already smooth and time-worn, with their blessing, for the use of the living.

A step or two beyond the window, there was nothing at all, just the surrounding buildings—chimneys standing tall, roofs flat; maybe too much brick and concrete for a May night. And then right before your eyes would appear the bare hills of Turkey—sharp outlines, dry earth, colorful flowers, and vibrant clothing on the women, standing with bare legs in the stream to pound linen against the stones. The stream formed loops of water around their ankles. But none of that could be seen clearly through the layers and darkness of the Cambridge night. Even the sound of the clock was muffled; as if it was being announced by someone solemn from a pulpit; as if generations of scholars heard the last hour rolling through their ranks and passed it on, already polished and weathered, with their blessing for the living.

Was it to receive this gift from the past that the young man came to the window and stood there, looking out across the court? It was Jacob. He stood smoking his pipe while the last stroke of the clock purred softly round him. Perhaps there had been an argument. He looked satisfied; indeed masterly; which expression changed slightly as he stood there, the sound of the clock conveying to him (it may be) a sense of old buildings and time; and himself the inheritor; and then to-morrow; and friends; at the thought of whom, in sheer confidence and pleasure, it seemed, he yawned and stretched himself.

Was it to receive this gift from the past that the young man came to the window and stood there, looking out across the courtyard? It was Jacob. He stood smoking his pipe while the last stroke of the clock gently resonated around him. Maybe there had been an argument. He looked content; even impressive; but that expression shifted slightly as he stood there, the sound of the clock perhaps reminding him of old buildings and time; and himself as the heir; and then tomorrow; and friends; at the thought of whom, in pure confidence and pleasure, it seemed, he yawned and stretched.

Meanwhile behind him the shape they had made, whether by argument or not, the spiritual shape, hard yet ephemeral, as of glass compared with the dark stone of the Chapel, was dashed to splinters, young men rising from chairs and sofa corners, buzzing and barging about the room, one driving another against the bedroom door, which giving way, in they fell. Then Jacob was left there, in the shallow arm-chair, alone with Masham? Anderson? Simeon? Oh, it was Simeon. The others had all gone.

Meanwhile, behind him, the shape they had created—whether through debate or not—this spiritual shape, solid yet fleeting, like glass compared to the dark stone of the Chapel, shattered into pieces. Young men were getting up from chairs and corners of the sofa, buzzing around the room, one pushing another against the bedroom door, which gave way, and they tumbled in. Then Jacob was left there, in the shallow armchair, alone with Masham? Anderson? Simeon? Oh, it was Simeon. The others had all left.

"… Julian the Apostate…." Which of them said that and the other words murmured round it? But about midnight there sometimes rises, like a veiled figure suddenly woken, a heavy wind; and this now flapping through Trinity lifted unseen leaves and blurred everything. "Julian the Apostate"—and then the wind. Up go the elm branches, out blow the sails, the old schooners rear and plunge, the grey waves in the hot Indian Ocean tumble sultrily, and then all falls flat again.

“… Julian the Apostate….” Who said that, and what other words were whispered around it? But around midnight, a heavy wind sometimes rises, like a veiled figure suddenly awakened; and now, this wind is flapping through Trinity, lifting unseen leaves and blurring everything. "Julian the Apostate"—and then the wind. The elm branches rise, the sails billow out, the old schooners lurch and dive, the gray waves in the hot Indian Ocean roll heavily, and then everything goes still again.

So, if the veiled lady stepped through the Courts of Trinity, she now drowsed once more, all her draperies about her, her head against a pillar.

So, if the veiled lady walked through the Courts of Trinity, she was now dozing again, all her drapes around her, her head resting against a pillar.

"Somehow it seems to matter."

"It seems to matter somehow."

The low voice was Simeon's.

Simeon's voice was low.

The voice was even lower that answered him. The sharp tap of a pipe on the mantelpiece cancelled the words. And perhaps Jacob only said "hum," or said nothing at all. True, the words were inaudible. It was the intimacy, a sort of spiritual suppleness, when mind prints upon mind indelibly.

The voice that responded was even quieter. The sharp sound of a pipe tapping on the mantelpiece drowned out the words. Maybe Jacob just said "hm," or didn't say anything at all. Sure, the words were hard to hear. It was the closeness, a kind of emotional flexibility, when one mind leaves a lasting mark on another.

"Well, you seem to have studied the subject," said Jacob, rising and standing over Simeon's chair. He balanced himself; he swayed a little. He appeared extraordinarily happy, as if his pleasure would brim and spill down the sides if Simeon spoke.

"Well, you really seem to know your stuff," Jacob said, getting up and standing over Simeon's chair. He steadied himself; he swayed a bit. He looked incredibly happy, as if his joy might overflow and spill out if Simeon said anything.

Simeon said nothing. Jacob remained standing. But intimacy—the room was full of it, still, deep, like a pool. Without need of movement or speech it rose softly and washed over everything, mollifying, kindling, and coating the mind with the lustre of pearl, so that if you talk of a light, of Cambridge burning, it's not languages only. It's Julian the Apostate.

Simeon said nothing. Jacob stayed standing. But intimacy—the room was filled with it, still and deep, like a pool. Without any need for movement or words, it gently rose and enveloped everything, soothing, igniting, and coating the mind with a pearly shine, so that when you think of a light, of Cambridge burning, it’s not just about languages. It’s about Julian the Apostate.

But Jacob moved. He murmured good-night. He went out into the court. He buttoned his jacket across his chest. He went back to his rooms, and being the only man who walked at that moment back to his rooms, his footsteps rang out, his figure loomed large. Back from the Chapel, back from the Hall, back from the Library, came the sound of his footsteps, as if the old stone echoed with magisterial authority: "The young man—the young man—the young man-back to his rooms."

But Jacob left. He whispered goodnight. He stepped out into the courtyard. He buttoned his jacket across his chest. He went back to his room, and since he was the only person walking there at that moment, his footsteps echoed, and his figure looked imposing. The sound of his footsteps returned from the Chapel, the Hall, and the Library, as if the old stone resonated with a commanding presence: "The young man—the young man—the young man—back to his room."

CHAPTER FOUR

What's the use of trying to read Shakespeare, especially in one of those little thin paper editions whose pages get ruffled, or stuck together with sea-water? Although the plays of Shakespeare had frequently been praised, even quoted, and placed higher than the Greek, never since they started had Jacob managed to read one through. Yet what an opportunity!

What's the point of trying to read Shakespeare, especially in one of those small, thin paper editions where the pages get crumpled or stuck together with seawater? Even though Shakespeare's plays have often been praised, quoted, and considered better than the Greek ones, Jacob has never been able to read one all the way through since he began. But what an opportunity!

For the Scilly Isles had been sighted by Timmy Durrant lying like mountain-tops almost a-wash in precisely the right place. His calculations had worked perfectly, and really the sight of him sitting there, with his hand on the tiller, rosy gilled, with a sprout of beard, looking sternly at the stars, then at a compass, spelling out quite correctly his page of the eternal lesson-book, would have moved a woman. Jacob, of course, was not a woman. The sight of Timmy Durrant was no sight for him, nothing to set against the sky and worship; far from it. They had quarrelled. Why the right way to open a tin of beef, with Shakespeare on board, under conditions of such splendour, should have turned them to sulky schoolboys, none can tell. Tinned beef is cold eating, though; and salt water spoils biscuits; and the waves tumble and lollop much the same hour after hour—tumble and lollop all across the horizon. Now a spray of seaweed floats past-now a log of wood. Ships have been wrecked here. One or two go past, keeping their own side of the road. Timmy knew where they were bound, what their cargoes were, and, by looking through his glass, could tell the name of the line, and even guess what dividends it paid its shareholders. Yet that was no reason for Jacob to turn sulky.

For Timmy Durrant had spotted the Scilly Isles, appearing like mountain peaks almost submerged exactly where they should be. His calculations had worked out perfectly, and honestly, the sight of him sitting there, hand on the tiller, rosy-cheeked, with a bit of a beard, sternly looking at the stars, then at a compass, correctly deciphering his page of the eternal lesson-book, would have moved any woman. Jacob, of course, was not a woman. The sight of Timmy Durrant didn’t inspire him; it was far from anything he wanted to admire. They had argued. Why a dispute over the proper way to open a can of beef, with Shakespeare on board, amid such grandeur, should have turned them into sulky schoolboys is anyone's guess. Tinned beef is pretty unappetizing, though; and salt water ruins biscuits; and the waves crash and roll the same hour after hour—tumbling and rolling all across the horizon. Now a piece of seaweed floats by—now a log. Ships have sunk here. One or two pass by, sticking to their side of the channel. Timmy knew where they were headed, what they were carrying, and, by looking through his binoculars, could identify the shipping line and even guess how much dividends they paid their shareholders. Yet that didn’t give Jacob a reason to sulk.

The Scilly Isles had the look of mountain-tops almost a-wash….
Unfortunately, Jacob broke the pin of the Primus stove.

The Scilly Isles looked like mountain peaks almost submerged...
Unfortunately, Jacob broke the pin on the Primus stove.

The Scilly Isles might well be obliterated by a roller sweeping straight across.

The Scilly Isles could easily be wiped out by a wave crashing straight through.

But one must give young men the credit of admitting that, though breakfast eaten under these circumstances is grim, it is sincere enough. No need to make conversation. They got out their pipes.

But you have to give young men credit for admitting that, even though breakfast in this situation is unpleasant, it's honest enough. There's no need for small talk. They took out their pipes.

Timmy wrote up some scientific observations; and—what was the question that broke the silence—the exact time or the day of the month? anyhow, it was spoken without the least awkwardness; in the most matter-of-fact way in the world; and then Jacob began to unbutton his clothes and sat naked, save for his shirt, intending, apparently, to bathe.

Timmy wrote down some scientific observations, and—what was the question that broke the silence? Was it the exact time or the day of the month? Anyway, it was asked without any awkwardness, in the most straightforward way possible. Then Jacob started to unbutton his clothes and sat there naked, except for his shirt, apparently planning to bathe.

The Scilly Isles were turning bluish; and suddenly blue, purple, and green flushed the sea; left it grey; struck a stripe which vanished; but when Jacob had got his shirt over his head the whole floor of the waves was blue and white, rippling and crisp, though now and again a broad purple mark appeared, like a bruise; or there floated an entire emerald tinged with yellow. He plunged. He gulped in water, spat it out, struck with his right arm, struck with his left, was towed by a rope, gasped, splashed, and was hauled on board.

The Scilly Isles were turning a bluish color; then suddenly the sea was filled with shades of blue, purple, and green; it went back to grey; a stripe appeared and disappeared; but once Jacob got his shirt pulled over his head, the entire surface of the waves was blue and white, rippling and clear, although occasionally a broad purple mark showed up, like a bruise; or there was a whole emerald floating, tinged with yellow. He dove in. He swallowed water, spat it out, struck with his right arm, struck with his left, was pulled by a rope, gasped, splashed, and was lifted back on board.

The seat in the boat was positively hot, and the sun warmed his back as he sat naked with a towel in his hand, looking at the Scilly Isles which—confound it! the sail flapped. Shakespeare was knocked overboard. There you could see him floating merrily away, with all his pages ruffling innumerably; and then he went under.

The seat in the boat was really hot, and the sun warmed his back as he sat bare with a towel in his hand, looking at the Scilly Isles when—damn it! the sail flapped. Shakespeare was knocked overboard. There you could see him floating happily away, with all his pages fluttering wildly; and then he sank.

Strangely enough, you could smell violets, or if violets were impossible in July, they must grow something very pungent on the mainland then. The mainland, not so very far off—you could see clefts in the cliffs, white cottages, smoke going up—wore an extraordinary look of calm, of sunny peace, as if wisdom and piety had descended upon the dwellers there. Now a cry sounded, as of a man calling pilchards in a main street. It wore an extraordinary look of piety and peace, as if old men smoked by the door, and girls stood, hands on hips, at the well, and horses stood; as if the end of the world had come, and cabbage fields and stone walls, and coast-guard stations, and, above all, the white sand bays with the waves breaking unseen by any one, rose to heaven in a kind of ecstasy.

Strangely enough, you could smell violets, or if violets were impossible in July, they must be growing something very fragrant on the mainland then. The mainland, not too far away—you could see gaps in the cliffs, white cottages, and smoke rising—looked incredibly calm, like a sunny paradise, as if wisdom and piety had settled upon the people living there. Just then, a shout echoed, like a man calling for fish in the main street. It had an unusual sense of devotion and tranquility, as if old men were smoking by the door, girls stood with their hands on their hips by the well, and horses waited around; as if the end of the world had come, and cabbage fields, stone walls, coast-guard stations, and especially the white sand beaches with waves crashing unseen by anyone, were soaring to heaven in a kind of bliss.

But imperceptibly the cottage smoke droops, has the look of a mourning emblem, a flag floating its caress over a grave. The gulls, making their broad flight and then riding at peace, seem to mark the grave.

But gradually the cottage smoke hangs low, resembling a symbol of mourning, a flag softly draping over a grave. The gulls, soaring high and then peacefully settling down, appear to be marking the grave.

No doubt if this were Italy, Greece, or even the shores of Spain, sadness would be routed by strangeness and excitement and the nudge of a classical education. But the Cornish hills have stark chimneys standing on them; and, somehow or other, loveliness is infernally sad. Yes, the chimneys and the coast-guard stations and the little bays with the waves breaking unseen by any one make one remember the overpowering sorrow. And what can this sorrow be?

No doubt if this were Italy, Greece, or even the shores of Spain, sadness would be replaced by novelty and excitement along with a touch of a classical education. But the Cornish hills have these stark chimneys on them; and, for some reason, beauty feels incredibly sad. Yes, those chimneys, the coast guard stations, and the small bays with waves crashing unseen by anyone remind one of that overwhelming sorrow. And what could this sorrow be?

It is brewed by the earth itself. It comes from the houses on the coast. We start transparent, and then the cloud thickens. All history backs our pane of glass. To escape is vain.

It’s made by the earth itself. It comes from the homes on the coast. We begin clear, and then the cloud grows denser. All history supports our pane of glass. Trying to escape is pointless.

But whether this is the right interpretation of Jacob's gloom as he sat naked, in the sun, looking at the Land's End, it is impossible to say; for he never spoke a word. Timmy sometimes wondered (only for a second) whether his people bothered him…. No matter. There are things that can't be said. Let's shake it off. Let's dry ourselves, and take up the first thing that comes handy…. Timmy Durrant's notebook of scientific observations.

But whether this is the right way to understand Jacob's sadness as he sat naked in the sun, staring at the Land's End, is hard to tell; he never said a word. Timmy sometimes wondered (just for a moment) if his people annoyed him…. It doesn’t matter. There are things that can’t be expressed. Let’s move on. Let’s dry off and pick up the first thing we can find…. Timmy Durrant's notebook of scientific observations.

"Now…" said Jacob.

"Now..." Jacob said.

It is a tremendous argument.

It's a great argument.

Some people can follow every step of the way, and even take a little one, six inches long, by themselves at the end; others remain observant of the external signs.

Some people can keep up with every step along the way and even take a little step, six inches long, by themselves at the end; others just pay attention to the outside signs.

The eyes fix themselves upon the poker; the right hand takes the poker and lifts it; turns it slowly round, and then, very accurately, replaces it. The left hand, which lies on the knee, plays some stately but intermittent piece of march music. A deep breath is taken; but allowed to evaporate unused. The cat marches across the hearth-rug. No one observes her.

The eyes focus on the poker; the right hand grabs the poker and lifts it; turns it slowly, and then carefully puts it back in place. The left hand, resting on the knee, casually plays some dignified but sporadic march music. A deep breath is taken but released without being used. The cat walks across the hearth rug. No one notices her.

"That's about as near as I can get to it," Durrant wound up.

"That's as close as I can get to it," Durrant concluded.

The next minute is quiet as the grave.

The next minute is as silent as a grave.

"It follows…" said Jacob.

"It follows..." Jacob said.

Only half a sentence followed; but these half-sentences are like flags set on tops of buildings to the observer of external sights down below. What was the coast of Cornwall, with its violet scents, and mourning emblems, and tranquil piety, but a screen happening to hang straight behind as his mind marched up?

Only half a sentence followed; but these half-sentences are like flags set on top of buildings to someone looking from below. What was the coast of Cornwall, with its violet scents, mourning symbols, and peaceful devotion, but a backdrop that happened to hang directly behind as his thoughts moved forward?

"It follows…" said Jacob.

"It follows…" Jacob said.

"Yes," said Timmy, after reflection. "That is so."

"Yeah," Timmy said after thinking for a moment. "That's true."

Now Jacob began plunging about, half to stretch himself, half in a kind of jollity, no doubt, for the strangest sound issued from his lips as he furled the sail, rubbed the plates—gruff, tuneless—a sort of pasan, for having grasped the argument, for being master of the situation, sunburnt, unshaven, capable into the bargain of sailing round the world in a ten-ton yacht, which, very likely, he would do one of these days instead of settling down in a lawyer's office, and wearing spats.

Now Jacob started moving around, partly to stretch himself and partly out of excitement, no doubt, because he was making the weirdest sounds as he rolled up the sail and polished the plates—gruff, off-key—a sort of chant, celebrating that he had figured things out, that he was in control, sunburned, unshaven, and fully capable of sailing around the world in a ten-ton yacht, which he might actually do one day instead of settling down in a lawyer's office and wearing fancy shoes.

"Our friend Masham," said Timmy Durrant, "would rather not be seen in our company as we are now." His buttons had come off.

"Our friend Masham," Timmy Durrant said, "would prefer not to be seen with us like this." His buttons had come off.

"D'you know Masham's aunt?" said Jacob.

"Do you know Masham's aunt?" Jacob asked.

"Never knew he had one," said Timmy.

"Never knew he had one," Timmy said.

"Masham has millions of aunts," said Jacob.

"Masham has tons of aunts," Jacob said.

"Masham is mentioned in Domesday Book," said Timmy.

"Masham is mentioned in the Domesday Book," Timmy said.

"So are his aunts," said Jacob.

"So are his aunts," Jacob said.

"His sister," said Timmy, "is a very pretty girl."

"His sister," Timmy said, "is really pretty."

"That's what'll happen to you, Timmy," said Jacob.

"That's what will happen to you, Timmy," Jacob said.

"It'll happen to you first," said Timmy.

"It'll happen to you first," Timmy said.

"But this woman I was telling you about—Masham's aunt—"

"But this woman I was telling you about—Masham's aunt—"

"Oh, do get on," said Timmy, for Jacob was laughing so much that he could not speak.

"Oh, come on," said Timmy, because Jacob was laughing so hard that he couldn't talk.

"Masham's aunt…"

"Masham's aunt..."

Timmy laughed so much that he could not speak.

Timmy laughed so hard that he couldn't talk.

"Masham's aunt…"

"Masham's aunt..."

"What is there about Masham that makes one laugh?" said Timmy.

"What is it about Masham that makes you laugh?" Timmy asked.

"Hang it all—a man who swallows his tie-pin," said Jacob.

"Seriously—a guy who swallows his tie pin," said Jacob.

"Lord Chancellor before he's fifty," said Timmy.

"Lord Chancellor before he's fifty," Timmy said.

"He's a gentleman," said Jacob.

"He's a nice guy," said Jacob.

"The Duke of Wellington was a gentleman," said Timmy.

"The Duke of Wellington was a classy guy," said Timmy.

"Keats wasn't."

Keats wasn't.

"Lord Salisbury was."

"Lord Salisbury is."

"And what about God?" said Jacob.

"And what about God?" Jacob asked.

The Scilly Isles now appeared as if directly pointed at by a golden finger issuing from a cloud; and everybody knows how portentous that sight is, and how these broad rays, whether they light upon the Scilly Isles or upon the tombs of crusaders in cathedrals, always shake the very foundations of scepticism and lead to jokes about God.

The Scilly Isles now looked like they were being highlighted by a golden finger coming from a cloud; and everyone knows how significant that sight is, and how these wide rays, whether they shine down on the Scilly Isles or on the graves of crusaders in cathedrals, always challenge deep-seated doubts and lead to jokes about God.

/*
"Abide with me:
 Fast falls the eventide;
 The shadows deepen;
 Lord, with me abide,"
*/

/*
"Stay with me:
 The evening is closing in;
 The shadows grow darker;
 Lord, stay with me,"
*/

sang Timmy Durrant.

sang Timmy Durrant.

"At my place we used to have a hymn which began

"At my place we used to have a hymn that started

/* Great God, what do I see and hear?" */

/* Oh my God, what am I seeing and hearing?" */

said Jacob.

said Jacob.

Gulls rode gently swaying in little companies of two or three quite near the boat; the cormorant, as if following his long strained neck in eternal pursuit, skimmed an inch above the water to the next rock; and the drone of the tide in the caves came across the water, low, monotonous, like the voice of some one talking to himself.

Gulls rode gently, swaying in small groups of two or three, close to the boat; the cormorant, as if following its long, stretched neck in an endless pursuit, skimmed just above the water to the next rock; and the sound of the tide in the caves came across the water, low and monotonous, like someone talking to themselves.

/*
"Rock of Ages, cleft for me,
 Let me hide myself in thee,"
*/

/*
"Rock of Ages, broken for me,
 Let me find shelter in you,"
*/

sang Jacob.

sang Jacob.

Like the blunt tooth of some monster, a rock broke the surface; brown; overflown with perpetual waterfalls.

Like the jagged tooth of some creature, a rock protruded from the surface; brown; overflowing with constant waterfalls.

/* "Rock of Ages," */

"Rock of Ages,"

Jacob sang, lying on his back, looking up into the sky at midday, from which every shred of cloud had been withdrawn, so that it was like something permanently displayed with the cover off.

Jacob sang, lying on his back, looking up at the sky at midday, where not a single cloud could be seen, making it look like something that was always on display with the cover removed.

By six o'clock a breeze blew in off an icefield; and by seven the water was more purple than blue; and by half-past seven there was a patch of rough gold-beater's skin round the Scilly Isles, and Durrant's face, as he sat steering, was of the colour of a red lacquer box polished for generations. By nine all the fire and confusion had gone out of the sky, leaving wedges of apple-green and plates of pale yellow; and by ten the lanterns on the boat were making twisted colours upon the waves, elongated or squat, as the waves stretched or humped themselves. The beam from the lighthouse strode rapidly across the water. Infinite millions of miles away powdered stars twinkled; but the waves slapped the boat, and crashed, with regular and appalling solemnity, against the rocks.

By six o'clock, a breeze swept in from the icefield; by seven, the water was more purple than blue; and by half-past seven, there was a patch of rough gold-beater's skin around the Scilly Isles, and Durrant's face, as he sat steering, looked like a red lacquer box polished for generations. By nine, all the fire and confusion had faded from the sky, leaving wedges of apple-green and plates of pale yellow; and by ten, the lanterns on the boat were casting twisted colors on the waves, elongated or squat, as the waves stretched or rose up. The beam from the lighthouse swept swiftly across the water. Countless stars twinkled far away; but the waves slapped the boat and crashed, with a regular and chilling solemnity, against the rocks.

Although it would be possible to knock at the cottage door and ask for a glass of milk, it is only thirst that would compel the intrusion. Yet perhaps Mrs. Pascoe would welcome it. The summer's day may be wearing heavy. Washing in her little scullery, she may hear the cheap clock on the mantelpiece tick, tick, tick … tick, tick, tick. She is alone in the house. Her husband is out helping Farmer Hosken; her daughter married and gone to America. Her elder son is married too, but she does not agree with his wife. The Wesleyan minister came along and took the younger boy. She is alone in the house. A steamer, probably bound for Cardiff, now crosses the horizon, while near at hand one bell of a foxglove swings to and fro with a bumble-bee for clapper. These white Cornish cottages are built on the edge of the cliff; the garden grows gorse more readily than cabbages; and for hedge, some primeval man has piled granite boulders. In one of these, to hold, an historian conjectures, the victim's blood, a basin has been hollowed, but in our time it serves more tamely to seat those tourists who wish for an uninterrupted view of the Gurnard's Head. Not that any one objects to a blue print dress and a white apron in a cottage garden.

Although you could knock on the cottage door and ask for a glass of milk, you’d only do it out of thirst. But maybe Mrs. Pascoe would actually welcome the visit. The summer day might feel long. As she washes in her little scullery, she could hear the cheap clock on the mantelpiece ticking away: tick, tick, tick… tick, tick, tick. She is alone in the house. Her husband is out helping Farmer Hosken; her daughter has married and moved to America. Her older son is married too, but she doesn’t get along with his wife. The Wesleyan minister took the younger boy away. She is alone in the house. A steamer, probably headed for Cardiff, crosses the horizon, while nearby, one bell of a foxglove swings back and forth with a bumblebee as a clapper. These white Cornish cottages sit on the edge of the cliff; the garden grows gorse more easily than cabbages; and for a hedge, some ancient person has stacked granite boulders. In one of these, an historian speculates, the victim's blood was once held; now it more humbly serves as a seat for tourists who want an uninterrupted view of Gurnard's Head. Not that anyone minds seeing a blue print dress and a white apron in a cottage garden.

"Look—she has to draw her water from a well in the garden."

"Look—she has to get her water from a well in the garden."

"Very lonely it must be in winter, with the wind sweeping over those hills, and the waves dashing on the rocks."

"Being alone in winter must feel really isolating, with the wind blowing over those hills and the waves crashing against the rocks."

Even on a summer's day you hear them murmuring.

Even on a summer day, you can hear them whispering.

Having drawn her water, Mrs. Pascoe went in. The tourists regretted that they had brought no glasses, so that they might have read the name of the tramp steamer. Indeed, it was such a fine day that there was no saying what a pair of field-glasses might not have fetched into view. Two fishing luggers, presumably from St. Ives Bay, were now sailing in an opposite direction from the steamer, and the floor of the sea became alternately clear and opaque. As for the bee, having sucked its fill of honey, it visited the teasle and thence made a straight line to Mrs. Pascoe's patch, once more directing the tourists' gaze to the old woman's print dress and white apron, for she had come to the door of the cottage and was standing there.

Having filled her water jug, Mrs. Pascoe went inside. The tourists wished they had brought binoculars so they could have read the name of the tramp steamer. It was such a beautiful day that who knows what a pair of binoculars might have revealed. Two fishing boats, likely from St. Ives Bay, were sailing in the opposite direction from the steamer, and the sea floor alternated between clear and murky. Meanwhile, the bee, having enjoyed enough honey, visited the teasel and then flew straight to Mrs. Pascoe's garden, once again drawing the tourists' attention to the old woman's print dress and white apron, as she had stepped to the door of the cottage and was standing there.

There she stood, shading her eyes and looking out to sea.

There she stood, shielding her eyes and gazing out at the ocean.

For the millionth time, perhaps, she looked at the sea. A peacock butterfly now spread himself upon the teasle, fresh and newly emerged, as the blue and chocolate down on his wings testified. Mrs. Pascoe went indoors, fetched a cream pan, came out, and stood scouring it. Her face was assuredly not soft, sensual, or lecherous, but hard, wise, wholesome rather, signifying in a room full of sophisticated people the flesh and blood of life. She would tell a lie, though, as soon as the truth. Behind her on the wall hung a large dried skate. Shut up in the parlour she prized mats, china mugs, and photographs, though the mouldy little room was saved from the salt breeze only by the depth of a brick, and between lace curtains you saw the gannet drop like a stone, and on stormy days the gulls came shuddering through the air, and the steamers' lights were now high, now deep. Melancholy were the sounds on a winter's night.

For what felt like the millionth time, she looked at the sea. A peacock butterfly spread its wings on the teasel, fresh and newly emerged, with blue and chocolate patterns on its wings. Mrs. Pascoe went inside, grabbed a cream pan, came back out, and started scrubbing it. Her face wasn’t soft, sensual, or lewd, but hard, wise, and wholesome, representing the raw essence of life among a room full of sophisticated people. She would tell a lie just as quickly as she would tell the truth. Behind her, a large dried skate hung on the wall. In the cramped little parlor, she cherished mats, china mugs, and photographs, even though the musty room was shielded from the salt breeze only by a brick wall, and through the lace curtains, you could see the gannet drop like a stone, and on stormy days, the gulls would swoop through the air, while the steamer lights danced high and low. The sounds on a winter's night were filled with melancholy.

The picture papers were delivered punctually on Sunday, and she pored long over Lady Cynthia's wedding at the Abbey. She, too, would have liked to ride in a carriage with springs. The soft, swift syllables of educated speech often shamed her few rude ones. And then all night to hear the grinding of the Atlantic upon the rocks instead of hansom cabs and footmen whistling for motor cars…. So she may have dreamed, scouring her cream pan. But the talkative, nimble-witted people have taken themselves to towns. Like a miser, she has hoarded her feelings within her own breast. Not a penny piece has she changed all these years, and, watching her enviously, it seems as if all within must be pure gold.

The newspapers arrived on time on Sunday, and she spent a long time reading about Lady Cynthia's wedding at the Abbey. She would have liked to ride in a carriage with springs too. The smooth, quick sounds of educated speech often made her feel ashamed of her fewer rough ones. And then all night she listened to the crashing of the Atlantic against the rocks instead of the sound of horse-drawn cabs and footmen calling for cars…. So she might have dreamed, while scrubbing her cream pan. But the chatty, quick-witted people have moved to the cities. Like a miser, she has kept her feelings all to herself. She hasn’t changed a single penny all these years, and watching her with envy, it feels like everything inside her must be pure gold.

The wise old woman, having fixed her eyes upon the sea, once more withdrew. The tourists decided that it was time to move on to the Gurnard's Head.

The wise old woman, gazing at the sea, stepped back once again. The tourists decided it was time to head to Gurnard's Head.

Three seconds later Mrs. Durrant rapped upon the door.

Three seconds later, Mrs. Durrant knocked on the door.

"Mrs. Pascoe?" she said.

"Mrs. Pascoe?" she asked.

Rather haughtily, she watched the tourists cross the field path. She came of a Highland race, famous for its chieftains.

Rather arrogantly, she observed the tourists walk across the path in the field. She was from a Highland lineage, known for its chieftains.

Mrs. Pascoe appeared.

Mrs. Pascoe showed up.

"I envy you that bush, Mrs. Pascoe," said Mrs. Durrant, pointing the parasol with which she had rapped on the door at the fine clump of St. John's wort that grew beside it. Mrs. Pascoe looked at the bush deprecatingly.

"I envy you that bush, Mrs. Pascoe," said Mrs. Durrant, pointing the parasol with which she had tapped on the door at the beautiful cluster of St. John's wort growing beside it. Mrs. Pascoe looked at the bush with a hint of modesty.

"I expect my son in a day or two," said Mrs. Durrant. "Sailing from
Falmouth with a friend in a little boat…. Any news of Lizzie yet, Mrs.
Pascoe?"

"I expect my son in a day or two," said Mrs. Durrant. "He’s sailing from
Falmouth with a friend in a small boat…. Any news about Lizzie yet, Mrs.
Pascoe?"

Her long-tailed ponies stood twitching their ears on the road twenty yards away. The boy, Curnow, flicked flies off them occasionally. He saw his mistress go into the cottage; come out again; and pass, talking energetically to judge by the movements of her hands, round the vegetable plot in front of the cottage. Mrs. Pascoe was his aunt. Both women surveyed a bush. Mrs. Durrant stooped and picked a sprig from it. Next she pointed (her movements were peremptory; she held herself very upright) at the potatoes. They had the blight. All potatoes that year had the blight. Mrs. Durrant showed Mrs. Pascoe how bad the blight was on her potatoes. Mrs. Durrant talked energetically; Mrs. Pascoe listened submissively. The boy Curnow knew that Mrs. Durrant was saying that it is perfectly simple; you mix the powder in a gallon of water; "I have done it with my own hands in my own garden," Mrs. Durrant was saying.

Her long-tailed ponies stood twitching their ears on the road twenty yards away. The boy, Curnow, occasionally flicked flies off them. He saw his mistress go into the cottage, come out again, and walk around the vegetable plot in front of the cottage, talking animatedly from the way her hands were moving. Mrs. Pascoe was his aunt. Both women were looking at a bush. Mrs. Durrant bent down and picked a sprig from it. Then she pointed (her gestures were assertive; she carried herself very straight) at the potatoes. They had blight. All the potatoes that year had blight. Mrs. Durrant demonstrated to Mrs. Pascoe how bad the blight was on her potatoes. Mrs. Durrant spoke energetically; Mrs. Pascoe listened attentively. The boy Curnow understood that Mrs. Durrant was explaining that it's really simple: you mix the powder in a gallon of water; "I’ve done it myself in my own garden," Mrs. Durrant was saying.

"You won't have a potato left—you won't have a potato left," Mrs. Durrant was saying in her emphatic voice as they reached the gate. The boy Curnow became as immobile as stone.

"You won't have a single potato left—you won't have a single potato left," Mrs. Durrant was saying in her emphatic voice as they reached the gate. The boy Curnow became as still as a statue.

Mrs. Durrant took the reins in her hands and settled herself on the driver's seat.

Mrs. Durrant took the reins and got comfortable in the driver's seat.

"Take care of that leg, or I shall send the doctor to you," she called back over her shoulder; touched the ponies; and the carriage started forward. The boy Curnow had only just time to swing himself up by the toe of his boot. The boy Curnow, sitting in the middle of the back seat, looked at his aunt.

"Take care of that leg, or I'll send the doctor to you," she called back over her shoulder, urged the ponies, and the carriage started moving. The boy Curnow barely had time to swing himself up by the toe of his boot. Sitting in the middle of the back seat, Curnow glanced at his aunt.

Mrs. Pascoe stood at the gate looking after them; stood at the gate till the trap was round the corner; stood at the gate, looking now to the right, now to the left; then went back to her cottage.

Mrs. Pascoe stood at the gate watching them; she stood at the gate until the cart turned the corner; she stood at the gate, looking first to the right, then to the left; then she went back to her cottage.

Soon the ponies attacked the swelling moor road with striving forelegs. Mrs. Durrant let the reins fall slackly, and leant backwards. Her vivacity had left her. Her hawk nose was thin as a bleached bone through which you almost see the light. Her hands, lying on the reins in her lap, were firm even in repose. The upper lip was cut so short that it raised itself almost in a sneer from the front teeth. Her mind skimmed leagues where Mrs. Pascoe's mind adhered to its solitary patch. Her mind skimmed leagues as the ponies climbed the hill road. Forwards and backwards she cast her mind, as if the roofless cottages, mounds of slag, and cottage gardens overgrown with foxglove and bramble cast shade upon her mind. Arrived at the summit, she stopped the carriage. The pale hills were round her, each scattered with ancient stones; beneath was the sea, variable as a southern sea; she herself sat there looking from hill to sea, upright, aquiline, equally poised between gloom and laughter. Suddenly she flicked the ponies so that the boy Curnow had to swing himself up by the toe of his boot.

Soon the ponies charged along the rising moor road with their strong legs pushing forward. Mrs. Durrant let the reins hang loosely and leaned back. Her energy had faded. Her sharp nose was as thin as a bleached bone, almost translucent. Her hands resting on the reins in her lap were steady even in stillness. Her upper lip was cut so short that it almost curled in a sneer over her front teeth. Her thoughts raced across distances while Mrs. Pascoe's thoughts were stuck in one place. Her mind wandered as the ponies climbed the hill road. She was back and forth in her thoughts, as if the roofless cottages, piles of waste, and overgrown cottage gardens filled with foxgloves and brambles were weighing down on her mind. Once they reached the top, she stopped the carriage. The pale hills surrounded her, each dotted with ancient stones; below lay the sea, changeable like a southern ocean; she sat there looking from hill to sea, upright, sharp-featured, perfectly balanced between sadness and joy. Suddenly, she flicked the reins, causing young Curnow to swing himself up by his boot.

The rooks settled; the rooks rose. The trees which they touched so capriciously seemed insufficient to lodge their numbers. The tree-tops sang with the breeze in them; the branches creaked audibly and dropped now and then, though the season was midsummer, husks or twigs. Up went the rooks and down again, rising in lesser numbers each time as the sager birds made ready to settle, for the evening was already spent enough to make the air inside the wood almost dark. The moss was soft; the tree-trunks spectral. Beyond them lay a silvery meadow. The pampas grass raised its feathery spears from mounds of green at the end of the meadow. A breadth of water gleamed. Already the convolvulus moth was spinning over the flowers. Orange and purple, nasturtium and cherry pie, were washed into the twilight, but the tobacco plant and the passion flower, over which the great moth spun, were white as china. The rooks creaked their wings together on the tree-tops, and were settling down for sleep when, far off, a familiar sound shook and trembled—increased —fairly dinned in their ears—scared sleepy wings into the air again—the dinner bell at the house.

The rooks settled and then rose again. The trees they landed on seemed too few to hold them all. The treetops rustled gently with the breeze, and the branches creaked loudly, shedding husks and twigs even though it was midsummer. Up went the rooks and then back down, with fewer every time as the wiser birds got ready to settle in for the night, as it was already dark enough in the woods. The moss was soft, and the tree trunks looked ghostly. Beyond them stretched a silvery meadow. The pampas grass lifted its feathery spikes from green mounds at the edge of the meadow. A stretch of water shimmered. The convolvulus moth was already flitting around the flowers. The oranges and purples of nasturtiums and cherry pie blurred into the twilight, but the tobacco plant and the passion flower, where the big moth danced, were as white as porcelain. The rooks were flapping their wings together on the treetops, getting ready for sleep when, in the distance, a familiar sound shook and quaked—growing louder—ringing in their ears—startling drowsy wings back into the air again—the dinner bell at the house.

After six days of salt wind, rain, and sun, Jacob Flanders had put on a dinner jacket. The discreet black object had made its appearance now and then in the boat among tins, pickles, preserved meats, and as the voyage went on had become more and more irrelevant, hardly to be believed in. And now, the world being stable, lit by candle-light, the dinner jacket alone preserved him. He could not be sufficiently thankful. Even so his neck, wrists, and face were exposed without cover, and his whole person, whether exposed or not, tingled and glowed so as to make even black cloth an imperfect screen. He drew back the great red hand that lay on the table-cloth. Surreptitiously it closed upon slim glasses and curved silver forks. The bones of the cutlets were decorated with pink frills-and yesterday he had gnawn ham from the bone! Opposite him were hazy, semi-transparent shapes of yellow and blue. Behind them, again, was the grey-green garden, and among the pear-shaped leaves of the escallonia fishing-boats seemed caught and suspended. A sailing ship slowly drew past the women's backs. Two or three figures crossed the terrace hastily in the dusk. The door opened and shut. Nothing settled or stayed unbroken. Like oars rowing now this side, now that, were the sentences that came now here, now there, from either side of the table.

After six days of salty wind, rain, and sun, Jacob Flanders had put on a dinner jacket. This discreet black outfit showed up now and then on the boat among cans, pickles, preserved meats, and as the trip went on, it became less and less relevant, almost unbelievable. And now, with the world feeling stable and lit by candlelight, the dinner jacket was all that kept him composed. He couldn't be grateful enough. Still, his neck, wrists, and face were bare, and his entire body, whether exposed or not, tingled and glowed, making even black fabric an imperfect shield. He pulled back the large red hand that rested on the tablecloth. Quietly, it grasped the slim glasses and curved silver forks. The bones of the cutlets were adorned with pink frills—and just yesterday, he had gnawed ham from the bone! Across from him were blurry, semi-transparent shapes in yellow and blue. Behind them was the grey-green garden, where fishing boats seemed caught and suspended among the pear-shaped leaves of the escallonia. A sailing ship slowly passed by the women’s backs. Two or three figures hurried across the terrace in the dusk. The door opened and closed. Nothing settled or stayed unbroken. Like oars rowing back and forth, the sentences flowed in and out from either side of the table.

"Oh, Clara, Clara!" exclaimed Mrs. Durrant, and Timothy Durrant adding, "Clara, Clara," Jacob named the shape in yellow gauze Timothy's sister, Clara. The girl sat smiling and flushed. With her brother's dark eyes, she was vaguer and softer than he was. When the laugh died down she said: "But, mother, it was true. He said so, didn't he? Miss Eliot agreed with us…."

"Oh, Clara, Clara!" Mrs. Durrant exclaimed, and Timothy Durrant added, "Clara, Clara," as Jacob identified the figure in yellow gauze as Timothy's sister, Clara. The girl sat there smiling, a bit pink in the cheeks. With her brother's dark eyes, she seemed more distant and gentle than he did. When the laughter faded, she said, "But, Mom, it was true. He said so, didn’t he? Miss Eliot agreed with us..."

But Miss Eliot, tall, grey-headed, was making room beside her for the old man who had come in from the terrace. The dinner would never end, Jacob thought, and he did not wish it to end, though the ship had sailed from one corner of the window-frame to the other, and a light marked the end of the pier. He saw Mrs. Durrant gaze at the light. She turned to him.

But Miss Eliot, tall and grey-haired, was making space next to her for the old man who had just come in from the terrace. Jacob thought the dinner would never end, and he didn’t want it to, even though the ship had moved across the window frame, and a light indicated the end of the pier. He noticed Mrs. Durrant looking at the light. Then she turned to him.

"Did you take command, or Timothy?" she said. "Forgive me if I call you
Jacob. I've heard so much of you." Then her eyes went back to the sea.
Her eyes glazed as she looked at the view.

"Did you take charge, or was it Timothy?" she said. "Sorry if I call you Jacob. I've heard a lot about you." Then her gaze returned to the sea. Her eyes became unfocused as she took in the view.

"A little village once," she said, "and now grown…." She rose, taking her napkin with her, and stood by the window.

"A small village once," she said, "and now it's grown…." She got up, taking her napkin with her, and stood by the window.

"Did you quarrel with Timothy?" Clara asked shyly. "I should have."

"Did you argue with Timothy?" Clara asked nervously. "I probably should have."

Mrs. Durrant came back from the window.

Mrs. Durrant walked away from the window.

"It gets later and later," she said, sitting upright, and looking down the table. "You ought to be ashamed—all of you. Mr. Clutterbuck, you ought to be ashamed." She raised her voice, for Mr. Clutterbuck was deaf.

"It’s getting later," she said, sitting up and looking down the table. "You should be ashamed—all of you. Mr. Clutterbuck, you should be ashamed." She raised her voice because Mr. Clutterbuck was deaf.

"We ARE ashamed," said a girl. But the old man with the beard went on eating plum tart. Mrs. Durrant laughed and leant back in her chair, as if indulging him.

"We're ashamed," said a girl. But the old man with the beard continued eating plum tart. Mrs. Durrant laughed and leaned back in her chair, as if indulging him.

"We put it to you, Mrs. Durrant," said a young man with thick spectacles and a fiery moustache. "I say the conditions were fulfilled. She owes me a sovereign."

"We put it to you, Mrs. Durrant," said a young man with thick glasses and a fiery mustache. "I say the conditions were met. She owes me a pound."

"Not BEFORE the fish—with it, Mrs. Durrant," said Charlotte Wilding.

"Not before the fish—with it, Mrs. Durrant," said Charlotte Wilding.

"That was the bet; with the fish," said Clara seriously. "Begonias, mother. To eat them with his fish."

"That was the bet; with the fish," Clara said seriously. "Begonias, mom. To eat them with his fish."

"Oh dear," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Oh no," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Charlotte won't pay you," said Timothy.

"Charlotte's not going to pay you," Timothy said.

"How dare you …" said Charlotte.

"How dare you..." Charlotte said.

"That privilege will be mine," said the courtly Mr. Wortley, producing a silver case primed with sovereigns and slipping one coin on to the table. Then Mrs. Durrant got up and passed down the room, holding herself very straight, and the girls in yellow and blue and silver gauze followed her, and elderly Miss Eliot in her velvet; and a little rosy woman, hesitating at the door, clean, scrupulous, probably a governess. All passed out at the open door.

"That privilege will be mine," said the elegant Mr. Wortley, pulling out a silver case filled with sovereigns and dropping one coin onto the table. Then Mrs. Durrant stood up and walked across the room, holding herself very upright, followed by the girls in yellow, blue, and silver gauze, along with elderly Miss Eliot in her velvet; and a small, rosy woman hesitated at the door, looking neat and proper, probably a governess. They all exited through the open door.

"When you are as old as I am, Charlotte," said Mrs. Durrant, drawing the girl's arm within hers as they paced up and down the terrace.

"When you're as old as I am, Charlotte," said Mrs. Durrant, linking her arm with the girl's as they walked back and forth on the terrace.

"Why are you so sad?" Charlotte asked impulsively.

"Why are you so sad?" Charlotte asked without thinking.

"Do I seem to you sad? I hope not," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Do I seem sad to you? I hope not," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Well, just now. You're NOT old."

"Well, just now. You're NOT old."

"Old enough to be Timothy's mother." They stopped.

"Old enough to be Timothy's mom." They stopped.

Miss Eliot was looking through Mr. Clutterbuck's telescope at the edge of the terrace. The deaf old man stood beside her, fondling his beard, and reciting the names of the constellations: "Andromeda, Bootes, Sidonia, Cassiopeia…."

Miss Eliot was looking through Mr. Clutterbuck's telescope at the edge of the terrace. The deaf old man stood next to her, stroking his beard and naming the constellations: "Andromeda, Bootes, Sidonia, Cassiopeia…."

"Andromeda," murmured Miss Eliot, shifting the telescope slightly.

"Andromeda," whispered Miss Eliot, adjusting the telescope a bit.

Mrs. Durrant and Charlotte looked along the barrel of the instrument pointed at the skies.

Mrs. Durrant and Charlotte looked down the barrel of the instrument aimed at the sky.

"There are MILLIONS of stars," said Charlotte with conviction. Miss Eliot turned away from the telescope. The young men laughed suddenly in the dining-room.

"There are millions of stars," Charlotte said confidently. Miss Eliot turned away from the telescope. The young men suddenly laughed in the dining room.

"Let ME look," said Charlotte eagerly.

"Let me see," said Charlotte eagerly.

"The stars bore me," said Mrs. Durrant, walking down the terrace with Julia Eliot. "I read a book once about the stars…. What are they saying?" She stopped in front of the dining-room window. "Timothy," she noted.

"The stars are boring," said Mrs. Durrant, strolling down the terrace with Julia Eliot. "I read a book once about the stars... What are they saying?" She paused in front of the dining-room window. "Timothy," she observed.

"The silent young man," said Miss Eliot.

"The quiet young man," said Miss Eliot.

"Yes, Jacob Flanders," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Yes, Jacob Flanders," Mrs. Durrant said.

"Oh, mother! I didn't recognize you!" exclaimed Clara Durrant, coming from the opposite direction with Elsbeth. "How delicious," she breathed, crushing a verbena leaf.

"Oh, mom! I didn't recognize you!" exclaimed Clara Durrant, coming from the opposite direction with Elsbeth. "How lovely," she said, crushing a verbena leaf.

Mrs. Durrant turned and walked away by herself.

Mrs. Durrant turned and walked away alone.

"Clara!" she called. Clara went to her.

"Clara!" she called out. Clara went to her.

"How unlike they are!" said Miss Eliot.

"How different they are!" said Miss Eliot.

Mr. Wortley passed them, smoking a cigar.

Mr. Wortley walked by them, smoking a cigar.

"Every day I live I find myself agreeing …" he said as he passed them.

"Every day I live, I realize I'm agreeing..." he said as he walked past them.

"It's so interesting to guess …" murmured Julia Eliot.

"It's really interesting to guess ..." Julia Eliot murmured.

"When first we came out we could see the flowers in that bed," said
Elsbeth.

"When we first came out, we could see the flowers in that bed," said
Elsbeth.

"We see very little now," said Miss Eliot.

"We can barely see anything now," said Miss Eliot.

"She must have been so beautiful, and everybody loved her, of course," said Charlotte. "I suppose Mr. Wortley …" she paused.

"She must have been really beautiful, and everyone loved her, obviously," said Charlotte. "I guess Mr. Wortley …" she paused.

"Edward's death was a tragedy," said Miss Eliot decidedly.

"Edward's death was a tragedy," Miss Eliot said firmly.

Here Mr. Erskine joined them.

Here, Mr. Erskine joined them.

"There's no such thing as silence," he said positively. "I can hear twenty different sounds on a night like this without counting your voices."

"There's no such thing as silence," he said confidently. "I can hear twenty different sounds on a night like this, not including your voices."

"Make a bet of it?" said Charlotte.

"Want to make a bet?" said Charlotte.

"Done," said Mr. Erskine. "One, the sea; two, the wind; three, a dog; four …"

"Done," said Mr. Erskine. "One, the sea; two, the wind; three, a dog; four ..."

The others passed on.

The others moved on.

"Poor Timothy," said Elsbeth.

"Poor Timothy," Elsbeth said.

"A very fine night," shouted Miss Eliot into Mr. Clutterbuck's ear.

"A really nice night," shouted Miss Eliot into Mr. Clutterbuck's ear.

"Like to look at the stars?" said the old man, turning the telescope towards Elsbeth.

"Do you like looking at the stars?" asked the old man, pointing the telescope at Elsbeth.

"Doesn't it make you melancholy—looking at the stars?" shouted Miss
Eliot.

"Doesn't it make you feel sad—looking at the stars?" shouted Miss
Eliot.

"Dear me no, dear me no," Mr. Clutterbuck chuckled when he understood her. "Why should it make me melancholy? Not for a moment—dear me no."

"Goodness no, goodness no," Mr. Clutterbuck laughed when he got what she meant. "Why would it make me sad? Not for a second—goodness no."

"Thank you, Timothy, but I'm coming in," said Miss Eliot. "Elsbeth, here's a shawl."

"Thanks, Timothy, but I'm coming in," said Miss Eliot. "Elsbeth, here's a shawl."

"I'm coming in," Elsbeth murmured with her eye to the telescope. "Cassiopeia," she murmured. "Where are you all?" she asked, taking her eye away from the telescope. "How dark it is!"

"I'm coming in," Elsbeth whispered as she peered through the telescope. "Cassiopeia," she said softly. "Where are you all?" she asked, pulling her eye away from the telescope. "It's so dark!"

Mrs. Durrant sat in the drawing-room by a lamp winding a ball of wool. Mr. Clutterbuck read the Times. In the distance stood a second lamp, and round it sat the young ladies, flashing scissors over silver-spangled stuff for private theatricals. Mr. Wortley read a book.

Mrs. Durrant sat in the living room by a lamp, winding a ball of yarn. Mr. Clutterbuck read the Times. In the distance stood a second lamp, and around it sat the young women, quickly cutting silver-spangled fabric for private performances. Mr. Wortley read a book.

"Yes; he is perfectly right," said Mrs. Durrant, drawing herself up and ceasing to wind her wool. And while Mr. Clutterbuck read the rest of Lord Lansdowne's speech she sat upright, without touching her ball.

"Yes, he is absolutely right," said Mrs. Durrant, straightening up and stopping her knitting. And while Mr. Clutterbuck read the rest of Lord Lansdowne's speech, she sat up straight, not reaching for her yarn.

"Ah, Mr. Flanders," she said, speaking proudly, as if to Lord Lansdowne himself. Then she sighed and began to wind her wool again.

"Ah, Mr. Flanders," she said, speaking proudly, as if addressing Lord Lansdowne himself. Then she sighed and started to wind her wool again.

"Sit THERE," she said.

"Sit here," she said.

Jacob came out from the dark place by the window where he had hovered. The light poured over him, illuminating every cranny of his skin; but not a muscle of his face moved as he sat looking out into the garden.

Jacob emerged from the shadowy spot by the window where he had been lingering. The light flooded over him, highlighting every inch of his skin; yet not a single muscle in his face shifted as he sat staring out into the garden.

"I want to hear about your voyage," said Mrs. Durrant.

"I want to hear about your trip," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Yes," he said.

"Yeah," he said.

"Twenty years ago we did the same thing."

"Twenty years ago, we did the same thing."

"Yes," he said. She looked at him sharply.

"Yeah," he said. She shot him a quick glance.

"He is extraordinarily awkward," she thought, noticing how he fingered his socks. "Yet so distinguished-looking."

"He is really awkward," she thought, watching how he fidgeted with his socks. "But he looks so classy."

"In those days …" she resumed, and told him how they had sailed … "my husband, who knew a good deal about sailing, for he kept a yacht before we married" … and then how rashly they had defied the fishermen, "almost paid for it with our lives, but so proud of ourselves!" She flung the hand out that held the ball of wool.

"In those days ..." she continued, and explained how they had sailed ... "my husband, who knew a lot about sailing since he owned a yacht before we got married" ... and then how carelessly they had challenged the fishermen, "we almost paid for it with our lives, but we were so proud of ourselves!" She tossed out the hand that held the ball of yarn.

"Shall I hold your wool?" Jacob asked stiffly.

"Do you want me to hold your wool?" Jacob asked awkwardly.

"You do that for your mother," said Mrs. Durrant, looking at him again keenly, as she transferred the skein. "Yes, it goes much better."

"You do that for your mom," Mrs. Durrant said, looking at him sharply again as she moved the skein. "Yeah, it works so much better."

He smiled; but said nothing.

He smiled but said nothing.

Elsbeth Siddons hovered behind them with something silver on her arm.

Elsbeth Siddons hovered behind them with something shiny on her arm.

"We want," she said…. "I've come …" she paused.

"We want," she said… "I've come…" she paused.

"Poor Jacob," said Mrs. Durrant, quietly, as if she had known him all his life. "They're going to make you act in their play."

"Poor Jacob," Mrs. Durrant said softly, as if she had known him forever. "They're going to make you perform in their play."

"How I love you!" said Elsbeth, kneeling beside Mrs. Durrant's chair.

"How I love you!" Elsbeth said, kneeling beside Mrs. Durrant's chair.

"Give me the wool," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Give me the wool," Mrs. Durrant said.

"He's come—he's come!" cried Charlotte Wilding. "I've won my bet!"

"He's here—he's here!" shouted Charlotte Wilding. "I won my bet!"

"There's another bunch higher up," murmured Clara Durrant, mounting another step of the ladder. Jacob held the ladder as she stretched out to reach the grapes high up on the vine.

"There's another bunch higher up," Clara Durrant whispered, climbing another step on the ladder. Jacob steadied the ladder as she reached out to grab the grapes that were high up on the vine.

"There!" she said, cutting through the stalk. She looked semi-transparent, pale, wonderfully beautiful up there among the vine leaves and the yellow and purple bunches, the lights swimming over her in coloured islands. Geraniums and begonias stood in pots along planks; tomatoes climbed the walls.

"There!" she said, slicing through the stem. She looked almost transparent, pale, and incredibly beautiful among the vine leaves and vibrant yellow and purple clusters, with lights dancing around her in colorful patches. Geraniums and begonias sat in pots along the boards; tomatoes climbed up the walls.

"The leaves really want thinning," she considered, and one green one, spread like the palm of a hand, circled down past Jacob's head.

"The leaves definitely need thinning," she thought, and one green leaf, spreading like a hand, floated down past Jacob's head.

"I have more than I can eat already," he said, looking up.

"I already have more than I can eat," he said, looking up.

"It does seem absurd …" Clara began, "going back to London…."

"It really seems ridiculous..." Clara started, "going back to London...."

"Ridiculous," said Jacob, firmly.

"That's ridiculous," Jacob said firmly.

"Then …" said Clara, "you must come next year, properly," she said, snipping another vine leaf, rather at random.

"Then …" Clara said, "you have to come next year, for real," she said, cutting another vine leaf, somewhat haphazardly.

"If … if …"

"If... if..."

A child ran past the greenhouse shouting. Clara slowly descended the ladder with her basket of grapes.

A child ran past the greenhouse shouting. Clara slowly climbed down the ladder with her basket of grapes.

"One bunch of white, and two of purple," she said, and she placed two great leaves over them where they lay curled warm in the basket.

"One bunch of white, and two of purple," she said, and she covered them with two large leaves as they lay curled up warm in the basket.

"I have enjoyed myself," said Jacob, looking down the greenhouse.

"I've had a great time," Jacob said, looking down the greenhouse.

"Yes, it's been delightful," she said vaguely.

"Yes, it's been great," she said vaguely.

"Oh, Miss Durrant," he said, taking the basket of grapes; but she walked past him towards the door of the greenhouse.

"Oh, Miss Durrant," he said, grabbing the basket of grapes; but she walked past him toward the door of the greenhouse.

"You're too good—too good," she thought, thinking of Jacob, thinking that he must not say that he loved her. No, no, no.

"You're too good—too good," she thought, thinking of Jacob, convinced that he couldn’t possibly love her. No, no, no.

The children were whirling past the door, throwing things high into the air.

The kids were spinning past the door, tossing things up into the air.

"Little demons!" she cried. "What have they got?" she asked Jacob.

"Little demons!" she exclaimed. "What do they have?" she asked Jacob.

"Onions, I think," said Jacob. He looked at them without moving.

"Onions, I think," Jacob said. He stared at them without moving.

"Next August, remember, Jacob," said Mrs. Durrant, shaking hands with him on the terrace where the fuchsia hung, like a scarlet ear-ring, behind her head. Mr. Wortley came out of the window in yellow slippers, trailing the Times and holding out his hand very cordially.

"Next August, remember, Jacob," Mrs. Durrant said, shaking hands with him on the terrace where the fuchsia hung like a red earring behind her head. Mr. Wortley came out of the window in yellow slippers, holding the Times and extending his hand warmly.

"Good-bye," said Jacob. "Good-bye," he repeated. "Good-bye," he said once more. Charlotte Wilding flung up her bedroom window and cried out: "Good-bye, Mr. Jacob!"

"Goodbye," said Jacob. "Goodbye," he said again. "Goodbye," he said one more time. Charlotte Wilding threw open her bedroom window and called out, "Goodbye, Mr. Jacob!"

"Mr. Flanders!" cried Mr. Clutterbuck, trying to extricate himself from his beehive chair. "Jacob Flanders!"

"Mr. Flanders!" shouted Mr. Clutterbuck, struggling to free himself from his beehive chair. "Jacob Flanders!"

"Too late, Joseph," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Too late, Joseph," Mrs. Durrant said.

"Not to sit for me," said Miss Eliot, planting her tripod upon the lawn.

"Don't sit for me," said Miss Eliot, setting up her tripod on the lawn.

CHAPTER FIVE

"I rather think," said Jacob, taking his pipe from his mouth, "it's in
Virgil," and pushing back his chair, he went to the window.

"I think," said Jacob, taking his pipe out of his mouth, "it's in
Virgil," and pushing back his chair, he went to the window.

The rashest drivers in the world are, certainly, the drivers of post-office vans. Swinging down Lamb's Conduit Street, the scarlet van rounded the corner by the pillar box in such a way as to graze the kerb and make the little girl who was standing on tiptoe to post a letter look up, half frightened, half curious. She paused with her hand in the mouth of the box; then dropped her letter and ran away. It is seldom only that we see a child on tiptoe with pity—more often a dim discomfort, a grain of sand in the shoe which it's scarcely worth while to remove—that's our feeling, and so—Jacob turned to the bookcase.

The most reckless drivers out there are definitely the ones behind post office vans. As the bright red van made its way down Lamb's Conduit Street, it took the corner by the mailbox in a way that nearly scraped the curb, making the little girl who was standing on her tiptoes to drop off a letter look up, half scared and half curious. She paused with her hand in the mailbox's opening; then she dropped her letter and ran off. We rarely see a child on tiptoe with compassion—more often, it's a vague discomfort, like a tiny pebble in your shoe that hardly seems worth taking out—that's how we feel, and so—Jacob turned to the bookcase.

Long ago great people lived here, and coming back from Court past midnight stood, huddling their satin skirts, under the carved door-posts while the footman roused himself from his mattress on the floor, hurriedly fastened the lower buttons of his waistcoat, and let them in. The bitter eighteenth-century rain rushed down the kennel. Southampton Row, however, is chiefly remarkable nowadays for the fact that you will always find a man there trying to sell a tortoise to a tailor. "Showing off the tweed, sir; what the gentry wants is something singular to catch the eye, sir—and clean in their habits, sir!" So they display their tortoises.

Long ago, important people lived here, and after leaving the Court past midnight, they would huddle under the carved door-posts, clutching their satin skirts while the footman woke up from his mat on the floor, quickly buttoned up his waistcoat, and let them in. The harsh rain of the eighteenth century poured down the gutter. However, Southampton Row is mostly known these days for the fact that there’s always someone trying to sell a tortoise to a tailor. "Just showing off the tweed, sir; what people want is something unique to grab attention, sir—and they're clean animals, sir!" And that's how they showcase their tortoises.

At Mudie's corner in Oxford Street all the red and blue beads had run together on the string. The motor omnibuses were locked. Mr. Spalding going to the city looked at Mr. Charles Budgeon bound for Shepherd's Bush. The proximity of the omnibuses gave the outside passengers an opportunity to stare into each other's faces. Yet few took advantage of it. Each had his own business to think of. Each had his past shut in him like the leaves of a book known to him by heart; and his friends could only read the title, James Spalding, or Charles Budgeon, and the passengers going the opposite way could read nothing at all—save "a man with a red moustache," "a young man in grey smoking a pipe." The October sunlight rested upon all these men and women sitting immobile; and little Johnnie Sturgeon took the chance to swing down the staircase, carrying his large mysterious parcel, and so dodging a zigzag course between the wheels he reached the pavement, started to whistle a tune and was soon out of sight—for ever. The omnibuses jerked on, and every single person felt relief at being a little nearer to his journey's end, though some cajoled themselves past the immediate engagement by promise of indulgence beyond—steak and kidney pudding, drink or a game of dominoes in the smoky corner of a city restaurant. Oh yes, human life is very tolerable on the top of an omnibus in Holborn, when the policeman holds up his arm and the sun beats on your back, and if there is such a thing as a shell secreted by man to fit man himself here we find it, on the banks of the Thames, where the great streets join and St. Paul's Cathedral, like the volute on the top of the snail shell, finishes it off. Jacob, getting off his omnibus, loitered up the steps, consulted his watch, and finally made up his mind to go in…. Does it need an effort? Yes. These changes of mood wear us out.

At the corner of Mudie's on Oxford Street, all the red and blue beads had blended together on the string. The buses were parked. Mr. Spalding, heading to the city, noticed Mr. Charles Budgeon, who was going to Shepherd's Bush. The closeness of the buses allowed the passengers outside a chance to look into each other's faces. But few took the opportunity. Everyone had their own thoughts to occupy them. Each held their past inside, like the pages of a book they knew by heart; and their friends could only read the title, James Spalding or Charles Budgeon, while passengers going the opposite direction could see nothing at all—just "a man with a red mustache," "a young man in grey smoking a pipe." The October sunlight bathed all these men and women sitting still; and little Johnnie Sturgeon took the chance to swing down the stairs, carrying his large mysterious parcel, and zigzagged between the wheels to reach the sidewalk, started whistling a tune, and soon disappeared—forever. The buses moved on, and everyone felt a bit relieved to be closer to their destination, though some promised themselves indulgence later—steak and kidney pudding, a drink, or a game of dominoes in the smoky corner of a city restaurant. Oh yes, life is quite bearable on the top of a bus in Holborn when the cop raises his arm and the sun shines on your back, and if there's any secret that fits humanity, we find it here, on the banks of the Thames, where the big streets meet, and St. Paul's Cathedral, like the curl at the top of a snail shell, completes the scene. Jacob, getting off his bus, lingered on the steps, checked his watch, and finally decided to go in…. Does it require effort? Yes. These mood shifts can wear us out.

Dim it is, haunted by ghosts of white marble, to whom the organ for ever chaunts. If a boot creaks, it's awful; then the order; the discipline. The verger with his rod has life ironed out beneath him. Sweet and holy are the angelic choristers. And for ever round the marble shoulders, in and out of the folded fingers, go the thin high sounds of voice and organ. For ever requiem—repose. Tired with scrubbing the steps of the Prudential Society's office, which she did year in year out, Mrs. Lidgett took her seat beneath the great Duke's tomb, folded her hands, and half closed her eyes. A magnificent place for an old woman to rest in, by the very side of the great Duke's bones, whose victories mean nothing to her, whose name she knows not, though she never fails to greet the little angels opposite, as she passes out, wishing the like on her own tomb, for the leathern curtain of the heart has flapped wide, and out steal on tiptoe thoughts of rest, sweet melodies…. Old Spicer, jute merchant, thought nothing of the kind though. Strangely enough he'd never been in St. Paul's these fifty years, though his office windows looked on the churchyard. "So that's all? Well, a gloomy old place…. Where's Nelson's tomb? No time now—come again—a coin to leave in the box…. Rain or fine is it? Well, if it would only make up its mind!" Idly the children stray in—the verger dissuades them—and another and another … man, woman, man, woman, boy … casting their eyes up, pursing their lips, the same shadow brushing the same faces; the leathern curtain of the heart flaps wide.

It's dim, filled with the spirits of white marble, forever accompanied by the haunting sounds of the organ. If a boot creaks, it’s unsettling; then there’s the order, the discipline. The verger with his staff has a life that feels pressed down beneath him. The angelic choir is sweet and holy. And around the marble shoulders, in and out of the delicate fingers, the thin, high notes of voices and organ flow endlessly. Forever a requiem—peace. Tired from scrubbing the steps of the Prudential Society's office, which she did year after year, Mrs. Lidgett took her seat beneath the great Duke's tomb, folded her hands, and half closed her eyes. A beautiful place for an old woman to rest by the side of the great Duke’s remains, whose victories mean nothing to her, whose name she doesn’t know, even though she always greets the little angels across from her as she leaves, wishing for something similar on her own tomb, as the leathern curtain of her heart has swung wide open, letting thoughts of rest and sweet melodies slip out. Old Spicer, the jute merchant, didn’t think anything like that, though. Strangely, he hadn’t been to St. Paul’s in fifty years, even though his office windows faced the churchyard. "So that’s it? Just a gloomy old place… Where's Nelson's tomb? No time now—I'll come back—got to leave a coin in the box… Is it raining or sunny? Well, if it would just make up its mind!" The children wander in idly—the verger tries to discourage them—and another and another… man, woman, man, woman, boy… looking up, pursing their lips, the same shadow passing over their faces; the leathern curtain of the heart flaps wide.

Nothing could appear more certain from the steps of St. Paul's than that each person is miraculously provided with coat, skirt, and boots; an income; an object. Only Jacob, carrying in his hand Finlay's Byzantine Empire, which he had bought in Ludgate Hill, looked a little different; for in his hand he carried a book, which book he would at nine-thirty precisely, by his own fireside, open and study, as no one else of all these multitudes would do. They have no houses. The streets belong to them; the shops; the churches; theirs the innumerable desks; the stretched office lights; the vans are theirs, and the railway slung high above the street. If you look closer you will see that three elderly men at a little distance from each other run spiders along the pavement as if the street were their parlour, and here, against the wall, a woman stares at nothing, boot-laces extended, which she does not ask you to buy. The posters are theirs too; and the news on them. A town destroyed; a race won. A homeless people, circling beneath the sky whose blue or white is held off by a ceiling cloth of steel filings and horse dung shredded to dust.

Nothing could seem more obvious from the steps of St. Paul's than that everyone is miraculously equipped with a coat, skirt, and boots; a source of income; a purpose. Only Jacob, holding Finlay's Byzantine Empire, which he bought on Ludgate Hill, looked a bit different; because in his hand he carried a book, which he would open and study at precisely nine-thirty by his own fireside, unlike all the other people in this crowd. They have no homes. The streets belong to them; the shops; the churches; the countless desks; the bright office lights; the vans are theirs, and the railway elevated above the street. If you look closer, you’ll notice that three older men, spaced out from one another, are running spiders along the pavement as if the street were their living room, and here, against the wall, a woman stares blankly, her boot-laces untied, not asking you to buy anything. The posters are theirs too; and the news on them. A town destroyed; a race won. A homeless people, wandering beneath the sky whose blue or white is filtered through a ceiling of steel filings and crushed horse dung.

There, under the green shade, with his head bent over white paper, Mr. Sibley transferred figures to folios, and upon each desk you observe, like provender, a bunch of papers, the day's nutriment, slowly consumed by the industrious pen. Innumerable overcoats of the quality prescribed hung empty all day in the corridors, but as the clock struck six each was exactly filled, and the little figures, split apart into trousers or moulded into a single thickness, jerked rapidly with angular forward motion along the pavement; then dropped into darkness. Beneath the pavement, sunk in the earth, hollow drains lined with yellow light for ever conveyed them this way and that, and large letters upon enamel plates represented in the underworld the parks, squares, and circuses of the upper. "Marble Arch—Shepherd's Bush"—to the majority the Arch and the Bush are eternally white letters upon a blue ground. Only at one point—it may be Acton, Holloway, Kensal Rise, Caledonian Road—does the name mean shops where you buy things, and houses, in one of which, down to the right, where the pollard trees grow out of the paving stones, there is a square curtained window, and a bedroom.

There, under the green shade, with his head bent over white paper, Mr. Sibley transferred figures to sheets, and on each desk you can see, like food, a bunch of papers, the day’s sustenance, slowly consumed by the hardworking pen. Countless overcoats of the required quality hung empty all day in the hallways, but at six o'clock, each one was promptly filled, and the little figures, split into trousers or compressed into a single thickness, quickly moved with a sharp motion along the pavement; then disappeared into the darkness. Below the pavement, buried in the earth, hollow drains lit with yellow light endlessly carried them this way and that, and large letters on enamel plates represented in the underworld the parks, squares, and circuses of the upper world. "Marble Arch—Shepherd's Bush"—to most people, the Arch and the Bush are just eternal white letters on a blue background. Only at one point—it might be Acton, Holloway, Kensal Rise, or Caledonian Road—does the name refer to shops where you buy things, and homes, in one of which, down to the right, where the pollard trees grow out of the paving stones, there’s a square curtained window, and a bedroom.

Long past sunset an old blind woman sat on a camp-stool with her back to the stone wall of the Union of London and Smith's Bank, clasping a brown mongrel tight in her arms and singing out loud, not for coppers, no, from the depths of her gay wild heart—her sinful, tanned heart—for the child who fetches her is the fruit of sin, and should have been in bed, curtained, asleep, instead of hearing in the lamplight her mother's wild song, where she sits against the Bank, singing not for coppers, with her dog against her breast.

Long after sunset, an old blind woman was sitting on a camp stool with her back against the stone wall of the Union of London and Smith's Bank, holding a brown mutt tightly in her arms and singing out loud, not for coins, but from the depths of her vibrant wild heart—her sinful, weathered heart—because the child who brings her is the result of sin, and should have been tucked away in bed, covered up and asleep, instead of listening in the lamplight to her mother’s wild song, where she sits against the Bank, singing not for coins, with her dog held close to her chest.

Home they went. The grey church spires received them; the hoary city, old, sinful, and majestic. One behind another, round or pointed, piercing the sky or massing themselves, like sailing ships, like granite cliffs, spires and offices, wharves and factories crowd the bank; eternally the pilgrims trudge; barges rest in mid stream heavy laden; as some believe, the city loves her prostitutes.

Home they went. The grey church spires welcomed them; the ancient city, old, sinful, and majestic. One after another, round or pointed, piercing the sky or grouping together like sailing ships and granite cliffs, spires and offices, wharves and factories crowded the bank; the pilgrims trudged on endlessly; barges rested in the middle of the stream, heavily loaded; as some believe, the city has a fondness for its prostitutes.

But few, it seems, are admitted to that degree. Of all the carriages that leave the arch of the Opera House, not one turns eastward, and when the little thief is caught in the empty market-place no one in black-and-white or rose-coloured evening dress blocks the way by pausing with a hand upon the carriage door to help or condemn—though Lady Charles, to do her justice, sighs sadly as she ascends her staircase, takes down Thomas a Kempis, and does not sleep till her mind has lost itself tunnelling into the complexity of things. "Why? Why? Why?" she sighs. On the whole it's best to walk back from the Opera House. Fatigue is the safest sleeping draught.

But it seems that few people get admitted to that level. Of all the carriages that leave the arch of the Opera House, not one heads east, and when the little thief gets caught in the empty marketplace, no one in formal black-and-white or rosy evening attire stops at the carriage door to help or judge—although Lady Charles, to be fair, lets out a sad sigh as she climbs her staircase, takes down Thomas a Kempis, and doesn't sleep until her mind has lost itself in the intricacies of everything. "Why? Why? Why?" she sighs. Overall, it's better to walk back from the Opera House. Fatigue is the safest sleeping pill.

The autumn season was in full swing. Tristan was twitching his rug up under his armpits twice a week; Isolde waved her scarf in miraculous sympathy with the conductor's baton. In all parts of the house were to be found pink faces and glittering breasts. When a Royal hand attached to an invisible body slipped out and withdrew the red and white bouquet reposing on the scarlet ledge, the Queen of England seemed a name worth dying for. Beauty, in its hothouse variety (which is none of the worst), flowered in box after box; and though nothing was said of profound importance, and though it is generally agreed that wit deserted beautiful lips about the time that Walpole died—at any rate when Victoria in her nightgown descended to meet her ministers, the lips (through an opera glass) remained red, adorable. Bald distinguished men with gold-headed canes strolled down the crimson avenues between the stalls, and only broke from intercourse with the boxes when the lights went down, and the conductor, first bowing to the Queen, next to the bald-headed men, swept round on his feet and raised his wand.

The autumn season was in full swing. Tristan was tugging his rug up under his arms twice a week; Isolde waved her scarf in perfect sync with the conductor's baton. All over the house, pink faces and sparkling outfits could be seen. When a royal hand, belonging to an unseen figure, reached out to take the red and white bouquet resting on the scarlet ledge, the Queen of England became a name worth celebrating. Beauty, in its extravagant form (which isn’t so bad), bloomed in box after box; and even though nothing of great importance was said, and it's generally accepted that cleverness left beautiful lips around the time Walpole passed away—at least when Victoria appeared in her nightgown to meet her ministers, those lips (seen through an opera glass) remained red and charming. Distinguished bald men with gold-headed canes strolled down the crimson aisles between the stalls, only pausing their conversations when the lights dimmed, and the conductor, bowing first to the Queen and then to the bald-headed men, turned on his feet and raised his baton.

Then two thousand hearts in the semi-darkness remembered, anticipated, travelled dark labyrinths; and Clara Durrant said farewell to Jacob Flanders, and tasted the sweetness of death in effigy; and Mrs. Durrant, sitting behind her in the dark of the box, sighed her sharp sigh; and Mr. Wortley, shifting his position behind the Italian Ambassador's wife, thought that Brangaena was a trifle hoarse; and suspended in the gallery many feet above their heads, Edward Whittaker surreptitiously held a torch to his miniature score; and … and …

Then two thousand hearts in the dim light remembered, looked forward to, and navigated dark pathways; Clara Durrant said goodbye to Jacob Flanders and experienced the bittersweet taste of death in representation; Mrs. Durrant, sitting behind her in the shadows of the box, let out a sharp sigh; Mr. Wortley, adjusting his position behind the Italian Ambassador's wife, thought that Brangaena sounded a bit hoarse; and suspended in the gallery many feet above their heads, Edward Whittaker secretly held a flashlight to his small sheet of music; and … and …

In short, the observer is choked with observations. Only to prevent us from being submerged by chaos, nature and society between them have arranged a system of classification which is simplicity itself; stalls, boxes, amphitheatre, gallery. The moulds are filled nightly. There is no need to distinguish details. But the difficulty remains—one has to choose. For though I have no wish to be Queen of England or only for a moment—I would willingly sit beside her; I would hear the Prime Minister's gossip; the countess whisper, and share her memories of halls and gardens; the massive fronts of the respectable conceal after all their secret code; or why so impermeable? And then, doffing one's own headpiece, how strange to assume for a moment some one's—any one's—to be a man of valour who has ruled the Empire; to refer while Brangaena sings to the fragments of Sophocles, or see in a flash, as the shepherd pipes his tune, bridges and aqueducts. But no—we must choose. Never was there a harsher necessity! or one which entails greater pain, more certain disaster; for wherever I seat myself, I die in exile: Whittaker in his lodging-house; Lady Charles at the Manor.

In short, the observer is overwhelmed with observations. To keep us from being buried in chaos, nature and society have created a classification system that’s incredibly simple: stalls, boxes, amphitheater, gallery. The molds are filled every night. There’s no need to focus on the details. But the challenge remains—one must choose. For even though I have no desire to be the Queen of England, even for just a moment—I would gladly sit next to her; I would listen to the Prime Minister's gossip, hear the countess whisper, and share her memories of grand halls and gardens; the impressive facades of the respectable hide, after all, their secret codes; or why they seem so impenetrable? And then, taking off my own headpiece, how strange it is to momentarily wear someone else's—anyone’s—hat, to be a man of valor who has ruled the Empire; to refer back to fragments of Sophocles while Brangaena sings, or to suddenly see, as the shepherd plays his tune, bridges and aqueducts. But no—we have to choose. Never has there been a harsher necessity! Or one that brings more pain, more certain disaster; for wherever I sit, I feel like I’m in exile: Whittaker in his lodging house; Lady Charles at the Manor.

A young man with a Wellington nose, who had occupied a seven-and-sixpenny seat, made his way down the stone stairs when the opera ended, as if he were still set a little apart from his fellows by the influence of the music.

A young man with a Wellington nose, who had sat in a seven-and-sixpenny seat, walked down the stone stairs when the opera finished, as if the music still kept him a bit separate from everyone else.

At midnight Jacob Flanders heard a rap on his door.

At midnight, Jacob Flanders heard a knock on his door.

"By Jove!" he exclaimed. "You're the very man I want!" and without more ado they discovered the lines which he had been seeking all day; only they come not in Virgil, but in Lucretius.

"Wow!" he exclaimed. "You're exactly the person I've been looking for!" Without wasting any more time, they found the lines he had been searching for all day; only they didn't come from Virgil, but from Lucretius.

"Yes; that should make him sit up," said Bonamy, as Jacob stopped reading. Jacob was excited. It was the first time he had read his essay aloud.

"Yeah, that should get his attention," said Bonamy, as Jacob stopped reading. Jacob was thrilled. It was the first time he had read his essay out loud.

"Damned swine!" he said, rather too extravagantly; but the praise had gone to his head. Professor Bulteel, of Leeds, had issued an edition of Wycherley without stating that he had left out, disembowelled, or indicated only by asterisks, several indecent words and some indecent phrases. An outrage, Jacob said; a breach of faith; sheer prudery; token of a lewd mind and a disgusting nature. Aristophanes and Shakespeare were cited. Modern life was repudiated. Great play was made with the professional title, and Leeds as a seat of learning was laughed to scorn. And the extraordinary thing was that these young men were perfectly right—extraordinary, because, even as Jacob copied his pages, he knew that no one would ever print them; and sure enough back they came from the Fortnightly, the Contemporary, the Nineteenth Century—when Jacob threw them into the black wooden box where he kept his mother's letters, his old flannel trousers, and a note or two with the Cornish postmark. The lid shut upon the truth.

"Damned pigs!" he exclaimed, a bit too dramatically; but the praise had gotten to his head. Professor Bulteel from Leeds had published an edition of Wycherley without mentioning that he had omitted, cut, or marked as asterisked several explicit words and some inappropriate phrases. Jacob called it an outrage; a betrayal of trust; pure prudery; a sign of a crude mind and a vile nature. He referenced Aristophanes and Shakespeare. Modern life was rejected. They made a big deal out of the professional title, and Leeds as a center of education was ridiculed. And the surprising thing was that these young men were completely right—surprising because, even as Jacob copied his pages, he knew no one would ever publish them; and sure enough, they came back from the Fortnightly, the Contemporary, the Nineteenth Century—when Jacob threw them into the black wooden box where he kept his mother's letters, his old flannel trousers, and a couple of notes with a Cornish postmark. The lid closed on the truth.

This black wooden box, upon which his name was still legible in white paint, stood between the long windows of the sitting-room. The street ran beneath. No doubt the bedroom was behind. The furniture—three wicker chairs and a gate-legged table—came from Cambridge. These houses (Mrs. Garfit's daughter, Mrs. Whitehorn, was the landlady of this one) were built, say, a hundred and fifty years ago. The rooms are shapely, the ceilings high; over the doorway a rose, or a ram's skull, is carved in the wood. The eighteenth century has its distinction. Even the panels, painted in raspberry-coloured paint, have their distinction….

This black wooden box, with his name still visible in white paint, was sitting between the tall windows of the living room. The street was below. The bedroom was probably at the back. The furniture—three wicker chairs and a drop-leaf table—came from Cambridge. These houses (Mrs. Garfit's daughter, Mrs. Whitehorn, was the landlady of this one) were built about a hundred and fifty years ago. The rooms are well-proportioned, and the ceilings are high; above the doorway, there’s a carving of a rose or a ram's skull in the wood. The eighteenth century has its elegance. Even the raspberry-colored painted panels have their charm...

"Distinction"—Mrs. Durrant said that Jacob Flanders was "distinguished-looking." "Extremely awkward," she said, "but so distinguished-looking." Seeing him for the first time that no doubt is the word for him. Lying back in his chair, taking his pipe from his lips, and saying to Bonamy: "About this opera now" (for they had done with indecency). "This fellow Wagner" … distinction was one of the words to use naturally, though, from looking at him, one would have found it difficult to say which seat in the opera house was his, stalls, gallery, or dress circle. A writer? He lacked self-consciousness. A painter? There was something in the shape of his hands (he was descended on his mother's side from a family of the greatest antiquity and deepest obscurity) which indicated taste. Then his mouth—but surely, of all futile occupations this of cataloguing features is the worst. One word is sufficient. But if one cannot find it?

"Distinction"—Mrs. Durrant said that Jacob Flanders was "distinguished-looking." "Extremely awkward," she said, "but so distinguished-looking." Seeing him for the first time, that’s definitely the word for him. Leaning back in his chair, taking his pipe from his lips, he said to Bonamy: "About this opera now" (since they had moved past the indecency). "This guy Wagner" … distinction was naturally one of the words to use, though it would have been hard to say which seat in the opera house was his, whether stalls, gallery, or dress circle. A writer? He lacked self-consciousness. A painter? There was something about the shape of his hands (he was descended from a family of ancient prominence and deep obscurity on his mother's side) that suggested good taste. Then his mouth—but honestly, trying to list features is probably the most pointless task of all. One word is enough. But what if you can’t find it?

"I like Jacob Flanders," wrote Clara Durrant in her diary. "He is so unworldly. He gives himself no airs, and one can say what one likes to him, though he's frightening because …" But Mr. Letts allows little space in his shilling diaries. Clara was not the one to encroach upon Wednesday. Humblest, most candid of women! "No, no, no," she sighed, standing at the greenhouse door, "don't break—don't spoil"—what? Something infinitely wonderful.

"I like Jacob Flanders," Clara Durrant wrote in her diary. "He's so naive. He doesn’t act superior, and you can say anything to him, even though he can be a bit scary because …" But Mr. Letts doesn’t give much room in his inexpensive diaries. Clara wouldn’t be the one to intrude on Wednesday. The most modest, honest woman! "No, no, no," she sighed, standing at the greenhouse door, "don't break—don't ruin"—what? Something incredibly amazing.

But then, this is only a young woman's language, one, too, who loves, or refrains from loving. She wished the moment to continue for ever precisely as it was that July morning. And moments don't. Now, for instance, Jacob was telling a story about some walking tour he'd taken, and the inn was called "The Foaming Pot," which, considering the landlady's name … They shouted with laughter. The joke was indecent.

But then, this is just the language of a young woman, one who loves or holds back from loving. She wanted that moment to last forever just like it was that July morning. But moments don’t last. Now, for example, Jacob was sharing a story about a walking tour he had taken, and the inn was called "The Foaming Pot," which, given the landlady's name … They burst out laughing. The joke was inappropriate.

Then Julia Eliot said "the silent young man," and as she dined with Prime Ministers, no doubt she meant: "If he is going to get on in the world, he will have to find his tongue."

Then Julia Eliot said "the quiet young man," and as she dined with Prime Ministers, no doubt she meant: "If he wants to succeed in the world, he will have to learn to speak up."

Timothy Durrant never made any comment at all.

Timothy Durrant never said anything at all.

The housemaid found herself very liberally rewarded.

The maid found herself quite generously rewarded.

Mr. Sopwith's opinion was as sentimental as Clara's, though far more skilfully expressed.

Mr. Sopwith's opinion was just as sentimental as Clara's, but it was articulated much more skillfully.

Betty Flanders was romantic about Archer and tender about John; she was unreasonably irritated by Jacob's clumsiness in the house.

Betty Flanders was infatuated with Archer and affectionate towards John; she found Jacob's clumsiness in the house to be unreasonably annoying.

Captain Barfoot liked him best of the boys; but as for saying why …

Captain Barfoot liked him the most out of all the boys; but as for explaining why…

It seems then that men and women are equally at fault. It seems that a profound, impartial, and absolutely just opinion of our fellow-creatures is utterly unknown. Either we are men, or we are women. Either we are cold, or we are sentimental. Either we are young, or growing old. In any case life is but a procession of shadows, and God knows why it is that we embrace them so eagerly, and see them depart with such anguish, being shadows. And why, if this—and much more than this is true, why are we yet surprised in the window corner by a sudden vision that the young man in the chair is of all things in the world the most real, the most solid, the best known to us—why indeed? For the moment after we know nothing about him.

It seems that both men and women share the blame. A deep, unbiased, and completely fair understanding of our fellow humans seems completely out of reach. We are either men or women. We are either detached or emotional. We are either young or getting old. Ultimately, life is just a series of fleeting moments, and who knows why we cling to them so eagerly, only to feel such pain when they are gone, even though they are just moments. And if this—and so much more—is true, why are we still caught off guard, suddenly realizing that the young man in the chair feels like the most real, solid, and familiar person to us—why is that? Because right after that realization, we actually know nothing about him.

Such is the manner of our seeing. Such the conditions of our love.

Such is how we see things. Such are the conditions of our love.

("I'm twenty-two. It's nearly the end of October. Life is thoroughly pleasant, although unfortunately there are a great number of fools about. One must apply oneself to something or other—God knows what. Everything is really very jolly—except getting up in the morning and wearing a tail coat.")

("I'm twenty-two. It's almost the end of October. Life is pretty enjoyable, although unfortunately, there are a lot of fools around. One has to focus on something—God knows what. Everything is actually quite cheerful—except for getting up in the morning and wearing a tailcoat.")

"I say, Bonamy, what about Beethoven?"

"I’m asking you, Bonamy, what do you think about Beethoven?"

("Bonamy is an amazing fellow. He knows practically everything—not more about English literature than I do—but then he's read all those Frenchmen.")

("Bonamy is a great guy. He knows almost everything—not more about English literature than I do—but he's read all those French authors.")

"I rather suspect you're talking rot, Bonamy. In spite of what you say, poor old Tennyson…."

"I really think you're talking nonsense, Bonamy. Regardless of what you say, poor old Tennyson…."

("The truth is one ought to have been taught French. Now, I suppose, old Barfoot is talking to my mother. That's an odd affair to be sure. But I can't see Bonamy down there. Damn London!") for the market carts were lumbering down the street.

("The truth is, I should have learned French. Now, I guess old Barfoot is chatting with my mom. That's a strange situation, for sure. But I can't see Bonamy down there. Damn London!") for the market carts were lumbering down the street.

"What about a walk on Saturday?"

"What do you think about taking a walk on Saturday?"

("What's happening on Saturday?")

"What's going on Saturday?"

Then, taking out his pocket-book, he assured himself that the night of the Durrants' party came next week.

Then, pulling out his wallet, he confirmed that the Durrants' party was happening next week.

But though all this may very well be true—so Jacob thought and spoke—so he crossed his legs—filled his pipe—sipped his whisky, and once looked at his pocket-book, rumpling his hair as he did so, there remains over something which can never be conveyed to a second person save by Jacob himself. Moreover, part of this is not Jacob but Richard Bonamy—the room; the market carts; the hour; the very moment of history. Then consider the effect of sex—how between man and woman it hangs wavy, tremulous, so that here's a valley, there's a peak, when in truth, perhaps, all's as flat as my hand. Even the exact words get the wrong accent on them. But something is always impelling one to hum vibrating, like the hawk moth, at the mouth of the cavern of mystery, endowing Jacob Flanders with all sorts of qualities he had not at all—for though, certainly, he sat talking to Bonamy, half of what he said was too dull to repeat; much unintelligible (about unknown people and Parliament); what remains is mostly a matter of guess work. Yet over him we hang vibrating.

But even if all this is true—at least that's what Jacob thought and said—as he crossed his legs, filled his pipe, sipped his whisky, and glanced at his wallet while rumpling his hair, there's still something that can only be expressed by Jacob himself. Plus, part of this isn’t just Jacob but Richard Bonamy—the room; the market carts; the time; the exact moment in history. Then think about the impact of sex—how it creates a wavy, trembling line between man and woman, making it seem like there's a valley here and a peak there, when really it might all be as flat as my hand. Even the precise words get the wrong emphasis. Yet something always pushes us to hum, vibrating like a hawk moth at the entrance of the cavern of mystery, giving Jacob Flanders all kinds of qualities he didn’t have—because, while he was definitely talking to Bonamy, most of what he said was too boring to repeat and a lot was unintelligible (about unfamiliar people and Parliament); what’s left is mostly a matter of guesswork. Yet we still vibrate around him.

"Yes," said Captain Barfoot, knocking out his pipe on Betty Flanders's hob, and buttoning his coat. "It doubles the work, but I don't mind that."

"Yeah," said Captain Barfoot, tapping his pipe against Betty Flanders's hearth and buttoning up his coat. "It doubles the workload, but I'm fine with that."

He was now town councillor. They looked at the night, which was the same as the London night, only a good deal more transparent. Church bells down in the town were striking eleven o'clock. The wind was off the sea. And all the bedroom windows were dark—the Pages were asleep; the Garfits were asleep; the Cranches were asleep—whereas in London at this hour they were burning Guy Fawkes on Parliament Hill.

He was now a town councilor. They looked at the night, which was like the London night, but much clearer. Church bells in the town were ringing eleven o'clock. The wind was coming from the sea. All the bedroom windows were dark—the Pages were asleep; the Garfits were asleep; the Cranches were asleep—while in London at this hour, they were burning Guy Fawkes on Parliament Hill.

CHAPTER SIX

The flames had fairly caught.

The flames had really caught.

"There's St. Paul's!" some one cried.

"Look, there’s St. Paul’s!" someone shouted.

As the wood caught the city of London was lit up for a second; on other sides of the fire there were trees. Of the faces which came out fresh and vivid as though painted in yellow and red, the most prominent was a girl's face. By a trick of the firelight she seemed to have no body. The oval of the face and hair hung beside the fire with a dark vacuum for background. As if dazed by the glare, her green-blue eyes stared at the flames. Every muscle of her face was taut. There was something tragic in her thus staring—her age between twenty and twenty-five.

As the fire blazed up, the city of London was illuminated for a moment; on the other side of the flames, there were trees. Among the faces that appeared bright and vibrant, almost like they were painted in yellow and red, the most striking was a girl's face. Due to the way the firelight played tricks, she seemed to have no body. The outline of her face and hair floated beside the fire with a dark void in the background. As if mesmerized by the brightness, her green-blue eyes fixed on the flames. Every muscle in her face was tense. There was something tragic about her staring that hinted at her being between twenty and twenty-five years old.

A hand descending from the chequered darkness thrust on her head the conical white hat of a pierrot. Shaking her head, she still stared. A whiskered face appeared above her. They dropped two legs of a table upon the fire and a scattering of twigs and leaves. All this blazed up and showed faces far back, round, pale, smooth, bearded, some with billycock hats on; all intent; showed too St. Paul's floating on the uneven white mist, and two or three narrow, paper-white, extinguisher-shaped spires.

A hand emerging from the dark shadows placed a conical white hat on her head like a pierrot. Shaking her head, she continued to stare. A man with a beard appeared above her. They dropped two legs of a table onto the fire along with some twigs and leaves. Everything ignited, revealing faces in the background—round, pale, smooth, some bearded, and others wearing bowler hats; all focused intently. It also revealed St. Paul's Cathedral floating above the uneven white mist, along with two or three narrow, paper-white, extinguisher-shaped spires.

The flames were struggling through the wood and roaring up when, goodness knows where from, pails flung water in beautiful hollow shapes, as of polished tortoiseshell; flung again and again; until the hiss was like a swarm of bees; and all the faces went out.

The flames were fighting their way through the wood and roaring up when, who knows where from, buckets tossed water in stunning hollow shapes, like polished tortoiseshell; thrown again and again; until the hissing sounded like a swarm of bees; and all the faces disappeared.

"Oh Jacob," said the girl, as they pounded up the hill in the dark, "I'm so frightfully unhappy!"

"Oh Jacob," the girl said as they trudged up the hill in the dark, "I'm really so unhappy!"

Shouts of laughter came from the others—high, low; some before, others after.

Shouts of laughter came from the others—some high, some low; some before, others after.

The hotel dining-room was brightly lit. A stag's head in plaster was at one end of the table; at the other some Roman bust blackened and reddened to represent Guy Fawkes, whose night it was. The diners were linked together by lengths of paper roses, so that when it came to singing "Auld Lang Syne" with their hands crossed a pink and yellow line rose and fell the entire length of the table. There was an enormous tapping of green wine-glasses. A young man stood up, and Florinda, taking one of the purplish globes that lay on the table, flung it straight at his head. It crushed to powder.

The hotel dining room was brightly lit. A plaster stag's head hung at one end of the table; at the other was a Roman bust that had been darkened and painted to look like Guy Fawkes, since it was his night. The diners were connected by strings of paper roses, so when they sang "Auld Lang Syne" with their hands crossed, a pink and yellow line rose and fell the entire length of the table. There was a loud clinking of green wine glasses. A young man stood up, and Florinda, grabbing one of the purplish globes on the table, threw it straight at his head. It shattered into pieces.

"I'm so frightfully unhappy!" she said, turning to Jacob, who sat beside her.

"I'm really unhappy!" she said, turning to Jacob, who was sitting next to her.

The table ran, as if on invisible legs, to the side of the room, and a barrel organ decorated with a red cloth and two pots of paper flowers reeled out waltz music.

The table moved, as if on invisible legs, to the side of the room, and a barrel organ draped with a red cloth and two pots of paper flowers played waltz music.

Jacob could not dance. He stood against the wall smoking a pipe.

Jacob couldn’t dance. He leaned against the wall, smoking a pipe.

"We think," said two of the dancers, breaking off from the rest, and bowing profoundly before him, "that you are the most beautiful man we have ever seen."

"We think," said two of the dancers, stepping away from the others and bowing deeply before him, "that you are the most beautiful man we've ever seen."

So they wreathed his head with paper flowers. Then somebody brought out a white and gilt chair and made him sit on it. As they passed, people hung glass grapes on his shoulders, until he looked like the figure-head of a wrecked ship. Then Florinda got upon his knee and hid her face in his waistcoat. With one hand he held her; with the other, his pipe.

So they crowned him with paper flowers. Then someone brought out a white and gold chair and had him sit in it. As they walked by, people hung glass grapes on his shoulders until he looked like the figurehead of a sunken ship. Then Florinda climbed onto his knee and buried her face in his waistcoat. With one hand, he held her; with the other, he held his pipe.

"Now let us talk," said Jacob, as he walked down Haverstock Hill between four and five o'clock in the morning of November the sixth arm-in-arm with Timmy Durrant, "about something sensible."

"Now let's talk," said Jacob, as he strolled down Haverstock Hill between four and five in the morning on November sixth, arm-in-arm with Timmy Durrant, "about something sensible."

The Greeks—yes, that was what they talked about—how when all's said and done, when one's rinsed one's mouth with every literature in the world, including Chinese and Russian (but these Slavs aren't civilized), it's the flavour of Greek that remains. Durrant quoted Aeschylus—Jacob Sophocles. It is true that no Greek could have understood or professor refrained from pointing out—Never mind; what is Greek for if not to be shouted on Haverstock Hill in the dawn? Moreover, Durrant never listened to Sophocles, nor Jacob to Aeschylus. They were boastful, triumphant; it seemed to both that they had read every book in the world; known every sin, passion, and joy. Civilizations stood round them like flowers ready for picking. Ages lapped at their feet like waves fit for sailing. And surveying all this, looming through the fog, the lamplight, the shades of London, the two young men decided in favour of Greece.

The Greeks—yeah, that's what they talked about—how, when everything's said and done, after you've experienced every piece of literature in the world, including Chinese and Russian (but those Slavs aren't civilized), it's the taste of Greek that sticks with you. Durrant quoted Aeschylus—Jacob Sophocles. It's true that no Greek could have understood, or that the professor refrained from pointing out—Never mind; what’s Greek for if not to be shouted on Haverstock Hill at dawn? Besides, Durrant never listened to Sophocles, nor Jacob to Aeschylus. They were full of themselves, feeling victorious; it seemed to both of them that they had read every book in existence, known every sin, passion, and joy. Civilizations surrounded them like flowers ready to be picked. Ages lapped at their feet like waves perfect for sailing. And looking at all this, emerging from the fog, the lamplight, the shadows of London, the two young men chose Greece.

"Probably," said Jacob, "we are the only people in the world who know what the Greeks meant."

"Probably," Jacob said, "we're the only people in the world who understand what the Greeks meant."

They drank coffee at a stall where the urns were burnished and little lamps burnt along the counter.

They had coffee at a stall where the urns were shiny and small lamps glowed along the counter.

Taking Jacob for a military gentleman, the stall-keeper told him about his boy at Gibraltar, and Jacob cursed the British army and praised the Duke of Wellington. So on again they went down the hill talking about the Greeks.

Taking Jacob for a military man, the stallkeeper told him about his son in Gibraltar, and Jacob cursed the British army and praised the Duke of Wellington. They continued down the hill, discussing the Greeks.

A strange thing—when you come to think of it—this love of Greek, flourishing in such obscurity, distorted, discouraged, yet leaping out, all of a sudden, especially on leaving crowded rooms, or after a surfeit of print, or when the moon floats among the waves of the hills, or in hollow, sallow, fruitless London days, like a specific; a clean blade; always a miracle. Jacob knew no more Greek than served him to stumble through a play. Of ancient history he knew nothing. However, as he tramped into London it seemed to him that they were making the flagstones ring on the road to the Acropolis, and that if Socrates saw them coming he would bestir himself and say "my fine fellows," for the whole sentiment of Athens was entirely after his heart; free, venturesome, high-spirited…. She had called him Jacob without asking his leave. She had sat upon his knee. Thus did all good women in the days of the Greeks.

A strange thing—when you really think about it—this love of Greek, thriving in such obscurity, twisted, discouraged, yet bursting forth all of a sudden, especially when leaving crowded rooms, or after reading too much, or when the moon rises over the hills, or on dull, dreary, unproductive London days, like a remedy; a sharp blade; always a miracle. Jacob knew just enough Greek to get by in a play. He didn't know anything about ancient history. However, as he walked into London, it felt to him like the flagstones were ringing on the road to the Acropolis, and if Socrates saw them coming, he would perk up and say, "my fine fellows," because the whole spirit of Athens was completely in line with his feelings; free, adventurous, energetic.... She had called him Jacob without asking for his permission. She had sat on his lap. That's how all good women acted back in the days of the Greeks.

At this moment there shook out into the air a wavering, quavering, doleful lamentation which seemed to lack strength to unfold itself, and yet flagged on; at the sound of which doors in back streets burst sullenly open; workmen stumped forth.

At that moment, a shaky, trembling, mournful sound filled the air that seemed too weak to fully express itself, yet it dragged on; at the sound of it, doors in the back streets opened reluctantly, and workers came out.

Florinda was sick.

Florinda was unwell.

Mrs. Durrant, sleepless as usual, scored a mark by the side of certain lines in the Inferno.

Mrs. Durrant, unable to sleep as usual, made a note next to certain lines in the Inferno.

Clara slept buried in her pillows; on her dressing-table dishevelled roses and a pair of long white gloves.

Clara slept surrounded by her pillows; on her dressing table were messy roses and a pair of long white gloves.

Still wearing the conical white hat of a pierrot, Florinda was sick.

Still wearing the pointed white hat of a pierrot, Florinda was unwell.

The bedroom seemed fit for these catastrophes—cheap, mustard-coloured, half attic, half studio, curiously ornamented with silver paper stars, Welshwomen's hats, and rosaries pendent from the gas brackets. As for Florinda's story, her name had been bestowed upon her by a painter who had wished it to signify that the flower of her maidenhood was still unplucked. Be that as it may, she was without a surname, and for parents had only the photograph of a tombstone beneath which, she said, her father lay buried. Sometimes she would dwell upon the size of it, and rumour had it that Florinda's father had died from the growth of his bones which nothing could stop; just as her mother enjoyed the confidence of a Royal master, and now and again Florinda herself was a Princess, but chiefly when drunk. Thus deserted, pretty into the bargain, with tragic eyes and the lips of a child, she talked more about virginity than women mostly do; and had lost it only the night before, or cherished it beyond the heart in her breast, according to the man she talked to. But did she always talk to men? No, she had her confidante: Mother Stuart. Stuart, as the lady would point out, is the name of a Royal house; but what that signified, and what her business way, no one knew; only that Mrs. Stuart got postal orders every Monday morning, kept a parrot, believed in the transmigration of souls, and could read the future in tea leaves. Dirty lodging-house wallpaper she was behind the chastity of Florinda.

The bedroom seemed perfect for these disasters—cheap, mustard-colored, half attic, half studio, oddly decorated with silver paper stars, Welsh women’s hats, and rosaries hanging from the gas fixtures. As for Florinda's story, a painter named her, hoping it would mean that her youthful purity was still intact. Regardless, she had no last name and only a photo of a gravestone where, she claimed, her father was buried. Sometimes she would reflect on its size, and there were rumors that her father had died from a bone condition that couldn’t be cured; just as her mother had the trust of a royal patron, and now and then, Florinda herself was a princess, mostly when she was drunk. Thus abandoned, pretty to boot, with tragic eyes and childlike lips, she talked about virginity more than most women do; and she had lost it only the night before, or treasured it deep in her heart, depending on who she was talking to. But did she only talk to men? No, she had a confidante: Mother Stuart. Stuart, as the lady liked to say, is the name of a royal family; but what that meant and what her profession was, no one really knew. All that was clear was that Mrs. Stuart received postal orders every Monday morning, owned a parrot, believed in the reincarnation of souls, and could read the future in tea leaves. She was the dirty wallpaper behind Florinda's chastity.

Now Florinda wept, and spent the day wandering the streets; stood at Chelsea watching the river swim past; trailed along the shopping streets; opened her bag and powdered her cheeks in omnibuses; read love letters, propping them against the milk pot in the A.B.C. shop; detected glass in the sugar bowl; accused the waitress of wishing to poison her; declared that young men stared at her; and found herself towards evening slowly sauntering down Jacob's street, when it struck her that she liked that man Jacob better than dirty Jews, and sitting at his table (he was copying his essay upon the Ethics of Indecency), drew off her gloves and told him how Mother Stuart had banged her on the head with the tea-cosy.

Now Florinda cried and spent the day wandering the streets; she stood at Chelsea watching the river flow by; strolled along the shopping streets; took out her compact and powdered her cheeks on the buses; read love letters, propping them against the milk jug in the A.B.C. shop; noticed glass in the sugar bowl; accused the waitress of wanting to poison her; claimed that young men stared at her; and found herself, as evening approached, slowly walking down Jacob's street, when it occurred to her that she preferred that man Jacob over the filthy Jews, and sitting at his table (he was working on his essay about the Ethics of Indecency), took off her gloves and told him how Mother Stuart had hit her on the head with the tea cozy.

Jacob took her word for it that she was chaste. She prattled, sitting by
the fireside, of famous painters. The tomb of her father was mentioned.
Wild and frail and beautiful she looked, and thus the women of the
Greeks were, Jacob thought; and this was life; and himself a man and
Florinda chaste.

Jacob believed her when she said she was pure. She chatted away, sitting by the
fireside, talking about famous artists. She brought up her father's grave.
She looked wild, delicate, and beautiful, and Jacob thought this was how the women of the
Greeks were; this was life; and he was a man and Florinda was pure.

She left with one of Shelley's poems beneath her arm. Mrs. Stuart, she said, often talked of him.

She left with one of Shelley's poems under her arm. Mrs. Stuart, she said, often talked about him.

Marvellous are the innocent. To believe that the girl herself transcends all lies (for Jacob was not such a fool as to believe implicitly), to wonder enviously at the unanchored life—his own seeming petted and even cloistered in comparison—to have at hand as sovereign specifics for all disorders of the soul Adonais and the plays of Shakespeare; to figure out a comradeship all spirited on her side, protective on his, yet equal on both, for women, thought Jacob, are just the same as men—innocence such as this is marvellous enough, and perhaps not so foolish after all.

Amazing are the innocent. To believe that the girl herself rises above all deception (for Jacob wasn't naive enough to believe everything), to envy the carefree life—his own seeming spoiled and even sheltered by comparison—to have as perfect solutions for all struggles of the soul Adonais and the plays of Shakespeare; to envision a friendship that's full of spirit on her side, protective on his, yet equal for both, for women, Jacob thought, are just like men—innocence like this is impressive enough, and maybe not so foolish after all.

For when Florinda got home that night she first washed her head; then ate chocolate creams; then opened Shelley. True, she was horribly bored. What on earth was it ABOUT? She had to wager with herself that she would turn the page before she ate another. In fact she slept. But then her day had been a long one, Mother Stuart had thrown the tea-cosy;—there are formidable sights in the streets, and though Florinda was ignorant as an owl, and would never learn to read even her love letters correctly, still she had her feelings, liked some men better than others, and was entirely at the beck and call of life. Whether or not she was a virgin seems a matter of no importance whatever. Unless, indeed, it is the only thing of any importance at all.

For when Florinda got home that night, she first washed her hair; then ate chocolate creams; then opened Shelley. True, she was incredibly bored. What on earth was it ABOUT? She had to bet with herself that she would turn the page before she ate another. In fact, she fell asleep. But then her day had been long; Mother Stuart had thrown the tea cozy;—there are overwhelming sights in the streets, and even though Florinda was as clueless as an owl and would never learn to read even her love letters correctly, she still had her feelings, liked some men more than others, and was completely at the mercy of life. Whether or not she was a virgin seems to be of no real importance. Unless, of course, it’s the only thing that matters at all.

Jacob was restless when she left him.

Jacob felt uneasy after she left him.

All night men and women seethed up and down the well-known beats. Late home-comers could see shadows against the blinds even in the most respectable suburbs. Not a square in snow or fog lacked its amorous couple. All plays turned on the same subject. Bullets went through heads in hotel bedrooms almost nightly on that account. When the body escaped mutilation, seldom did the heart go to the grave unscarred. Little else was talked of in theatres and popular novels. Yet we say it is a matter of no importance at all.

All night, people wandered up and down the familiar spots. Late-night returners could see shadows against the blinds, even in the most respectable neighborhoods. No square, whether covered in snow or fog, was without its romantic couple. All the plays focused on the same theme. Gunshots rang out in hotel bedrooms almost every night for that reason. Even if the body was not harmed, the heart rarely left this world unscathed. Hardly anything else was discussed in theaters and popular novels. Yet we claim it is of no significance at all.

What with Shakespeare and Adonais, Mozart and Bishop Berkeley—choose whom you like—the fact is concealed and the evenings for most of us pass reputably, or with only the sort of tremor that a snake makes sliding through the grass. But then concealment by itself distracts the mind from the print and the sound. If Florinda had had a mind, she might have read with clearer eyes than we can. She and her sort have solved the question by turning it to a trifle of washing the hands nightly before going to bed, the only difficulty being whether you prefer your water hot or cold, which being settled, the mind can go about its business unassailed.

With Shakespeare and Adonais, Mozart and Bishop Berkeley—pick whoever you prefer—the truth is hidden, and most of us spend our evenings without scandal, or at most, with just a slight shiver like a snake moving through the grass. But hiding the truth itself takes our focus off the words and sounds. If Florinda had been thoughtful, she might have seen things more clearly than we do. She and people like her have tackled the issue by making it a simple routine of washing their hands every night before bed, the only question being whether you like your water hot or cold. Once that's decided, the mind can go about its business without disturbance.

But it did occur to Jacob, half-way through dinner, to wonder whether she had a mind.

But halfway through dinner, Jacob began to wonder if she had a mind.

They sat at a little table in the restaurant.

They sat at a small table in the restaurant.

Florinda leant the points of her elbows on the table and held her chin in the cup of her hands. Her cloak had slipped behind her. Gold and white with bright beads on her she emerged, her face flowering from her body, innocent, scarcely tinted, the eyes gazing frankly about her, or slowly settling on Jacob and resting there. She talked:

Florinda leaned her elbows on the table and cradled her chin in her hands. Her cloak had slipped behind her. Dressed in gold and white with bright beads, she stood out, her face glowing, innocent, barely touched with color, her eyes openly exploring her surroundings or gradually landing on Jacob and lingering there. She spoke:

"You know that big black box the Australian left in my room ever so long ago? … I do think furs make a woman look old…. That's Bechstein come in now…. I was wondering what you looked like when you were a little boy, Jacob." She nibbled her roll and looked at him.

"You know that big black box the Australian left in my room ages ago? … I really think furs make a woman look old…. That's Bechstein coming in now…. I was curious about what you looked like when you were a little boy, Jacob." She nibbled her roll and looked at him.

"Jacob. You're like one of those statues…. I think there are lovely things in the British Museum, don't you? Lots of lovely things …" she spoke dreamily. The room was filling; the heat increasing. Talk in a restaurant is dazed sleep-walkers' talk, so many things to look at—so much noise—other people talking. Can one overhear? Oh, but they mustn't overhear US.

"Jacob. You're like one of those statues…. I think there are some amazing things in the British Museum, don’t you? So many beautiful things …" she said dreamily. The room was getting crowded; the heat was rising. Conversations in a restaurant sound like dazed sleepwalkers, with so much to see—so much noise—everyone else talking. Can you listen in? Oh, but they can't overhear US.

"That's like Ellen Nagle—that girl …" and so on.

"That's like Ellen Nagle—that girl …" and so on.

"I'm awfully happy since I've known you, Jacob. You're such a GOOD man."

"I'm really happy since I've met you, Jacob. You're such a great person."

The room got fuller and fuller; talk louder; knives more clattering.

The room grew more and more crowded; the conversations got louder; the clinking of knives increased.

"Well, you see what makes her say things like that is …"

"Well, you see, what makes her say things like that is ..."

She stopped. So did every one.

She stopped. Everyone else did too.

"To-morrow … Sunday … a beastly … you tell me … go then!" Crash!
And out she swept.

"Tomorrow ... Sunday ... such a hassle ... you tell me ... go ahead!" Crash!
And out she stormed.

It was at the table next them that the voice spun higher and higher. Suddenly the woman dashed the plates to the floor. The man was left there. Everybody stared. Then—"Well, poor chap, we mustn't sit staring. What a go! Did you hear what she said? By God, he looks a fool! Didn't come up to the scratch, I suppose. All the mustard on the tablecloth. The waiters laughing."

It was at the table next to them that the voice kept getting louder and louder. Suddenly, the woman smashed the plates to the floor. The man was left standing there. Everyone stared. Then—"Well, poor guy, we can't just sit here staring. What a scene! Did you hear what she said? Damn, he looks ridiculous! I guess he didn't rise to the occasion. All the mustard on the tablecloth. The waiters are laughing."

Jacob observed Florinda. In her face there seemed to him something horribly brainless—as she sat staring.

Jacob watched Florinda. There was something disturbingly vacant in her expression as she sat there, staring.

Out she swept, the black woman with the dancing feather in her hat.

Out she swept, the Black woman with the dancing feather in her hat.

Yet she had to go somewhere. The night is not a tumultuous black ocean in which you sink or sail as a star. As a matter of fact it was a wet November night. The lamps of Soho made large greasy spots of light upon the pavement. The by-streets were dark enough to shelter man or woman leaning against the doorways. One detached herself as Jacob and Florinda approached.

Yet she had to go somewhere. The night is not a chaotic black ocean where you either drown or navigate like a star. In reality, it was a rainy November night. The lamps of Soho cast large, greasy pools of light on the pavement. The side streets were dark enough to hide a man or woman leaning against the doorways. One person stepped out as Jacob and Florinda approached.

"She's dropped her glove," said Florinda.

"She dropped her glove," Florinda said.

Jacob, pressing forward, gave it her.

Jacob, pushing ahead, gave it to her.

Effusively she thanked him; retraced her steps; dropped her glove again. But why? For whom? Meanwhile, where had the other woman got to? And the man?

Effusively, she thanked him, retraced her steps, and dropped her glove again. But why? For whom? Meanwhile, where had the other woman gone? And the man?

The street lamps do not carry far enough to tell us. The voices, angry, lustful, despairing, passionate, were scarcely more than the voices of caged beasts at night. Only they are not caged, nor beasts. Stop a man; ask him the way; he'll tell it you; but one's afraid to ask him the way. What does one fear?—the human eye. At once the pavement narrows, the chasm deepens. There! They've melted into it—both man and woman. Further on, blatantly advertising its meritorious solidity, a boarding-house exhibits behind uncurtained windows its testimony to the soundness of London. There they sit, plainly illuminated, dressed like ladies and gentlemen, in bamboo chairs. The widows of business men prove laboriously that they are related to judges. The wives of coal merchants instantly retort that their fathers kept coachmen. A servant brings coffee, and the crochet basket has to be moved. And so on again into the dark, passing a girl here for sale, or there an old woman with only matches to offer, passing the crowd from the Tube station, the women with veiled hair, passing at length no one but shut doors, carved door-posts, and a solitary policeman, Jacob, with Florinda on his arm, reached his room and, lighting the lamp, said nothing at all.

The streetlights don’t shine far enough to give us any clarity. The voices—angry, lustful, desperate, passionate—sound more like caged animals at night. But they’re neither caged nor animals. Stop a guy; ask him for directions; he’ll tell you. But there’s a hesitation to ask. What’s the fear?—the human gaze. Instantly the sidewalk feels narrower, the gap feels deeper. There! They’ve slipped into it—both man and woman. A bit further along, boldly showcasing its sturdy reliability, a boarding house flaunts its proof of London's robustness behind bare windows. There they sit, brightly lit, dressed like upscale folks, in bamboo chairs. The widows of businessmen work hard to show they’re connected to judges. The wives of coal merchants quickly point out that their fathers had coachmen. A servant brings coffee, and the crochet basket has to be shifted. And so it continues into the darkness, passing a girl for sale, or an old woman selling only matches, moving through the crowd from the Tube station, with women in veils, eventually encountering nothing but closed doors, ornate doorframes, and a lone policeman. Jacob, with Florinda on his arm, finally reached his room, lit the lamp, and said nothing at all.

"I don't like you when you look like that," said Florinda.

"I don't like you when you look like that," Florinda said.

The problem is insoluble. The body is harnessed to a brain. Beauty goes hand in hand with stupidity. There she sat staring at the fire as she had stared at the broken mustard-pot. In spite of defending indecency, Jacob doubted whether he liked it in the raw. He had a violent reversion towards male society, cloistered rooms, and the works of the classics; and was ready to turn with wrath upon whoever it was who had fashioned life thus.

The problem is unsolvable. The body is tied to a brain. Beauty often comes with foolishness. There she sat, gazing at the fire just like she had stared at the broken mustard pot. Even though he defended indecency, Jacob wasn’t sure he liked it straight up. He longed for male company, closed-off spaces, and classic literature; and he was ready to get angry at whoever had designed life this way.

Then Florinda laid her hand upon his knee.

Then Florinda placed her hand on his knee.

After all, it was none of her fault. But the thought saddened him. It's not catastrophes, murders, deaths, diseases, that age and kill us; it's the way people look and laugh, and run up the steps of omnibuses.

After all, it wasn’t her fault. But that thought made him sad. It’s not disasters, murders, deaths, or diseases that age and kill us; it’s the way people look and laugh, and rush up the steps of buses.

Any excuse, though, serves a stupid woman. He told her his head ached.

Any excuse will do for a foolish woman. He told her he had a headache.

But when she looked at him, dumbly, half-guessing, half-understanding, apologizing perhaps, anyhow saying as he had said, "It's none of my fault," straight and beautiful in body, her face like a shell within its cap, then he knew that cloisters and classics are no use whatever. The problem is insoluble.

But when she looked at him, silently, half-guessing, half-understanding, maybe apologizing, anyway echoing his words, "It's not my fault," strong and beautiful in form, her face framed like a shell, he realized that theories and traditions are completely useless. The problem can't be solved.

CHAPTER SEVEN

About this time a firm of merchants having dealings with the East put on the market little paper flowers which opened on touching water. As it was the custom also to use finger-bowls at the end of dinner, the new discovery was found of excellent service. In these sheltered lakes the little coloured flowers swam and slid; surmounted smooth slippery waves, and sometimes foundered and lay like pebbles on the glass floor. Their fortunes were watched by eyes intent and lovely. It is surely a great discovery that leads to the union of hearts and foundation of homes. The paper flowers did no less.

Around this time, a group of merchants trading with the East released small paper flowers that bloomed when they touched water. Since it was also common to use finger bowls at the end of dinner, this new invention proved to be very useful. In these calm bowls, the colorful flowers floated and glided, riding smooth, slippery waves, and sometimes sinking to the bottom like pebbles on the glass surface. Their movements were closely watched by beautiful, eager eyes. It's certainly a wonderful invention that brings people together and helps create homes. The paper flowers did just that.

It must not be thought, though, that they ousted the flowers of nature. Roses, lilies, carnations in particular, looked over the rims of vases and surveyed the bright lives and swift dooms of their artificial relations. Mr. Stuart Ormond made this very observation; and charming it was thought; and Kitty Craster married him on the strength of it six months later. But real flowers can never be dispensed with. If they could, human life would be a different affair altogether. For flowers fade; chrysanthemums are the worst; perfect over night; yellow and jaded next morning—not fit to be seen. On the whole, though the price is sinful, carnations pay best;—it's a question, however, whether it's wise to have them wired. Some shops advise it. Certainly it's the only way to keep them at a dance; but whether it is necessary at dinner parties, unless the rooms are very hot, remains in dispute. Old Mrs. Temple used to recommend an ivy leaf—just one—dropped into the bowl. She said it kept the water pure for days and days. But there is some reason to think that old Mrs. Temple was mistaken.

It shouldn't be assumed that they got rid of nature's flowers. Roses, lilies, and particularly carnations peeked over the edges of vases, observing the vibrant lives and quick ends of their artificial counterparts. Mr. Stuart Ormond made this very observation; it was considered charming, and Kitty Craster married him six months later based on it. However, real flowers can never be replaced. If they could be, human life would be completely different. Flowers wilt; chrysanthemums are the worst—perfect one night, yellow and faded the next morning—not suitable for display. Overall, although the cost is excessive, carnations are the best value; still, it raises the question of whether it's smart to have them wired. Some shops recommend it. It's definitely the only way to keep them fresh at a dance, but whether it's necessary at dinner parties, unless the rooms are very warm, is still debated. Old Mrs. Temple used to suggest adding a single ivy leaf to the bowl. She claimed it kept the water fresh for days. But there’s reason to believe that old Mrs. Temple was mistaken.

The little cards, however, with names engraved on them, are a more serious problem than the flowers. More horses' legs have been worn out, more coachmen's lives consumed, more hours of sound afternoon time vainly lavished than served to win us the battle of Waterloo, and pay for it into the bargain. The little demons are the source of as many reprieves, calamities, and anxieties as the battle itself. Sometimes Mrs. Bonham has just gone out; at others she is at home. But, even if the cards should be superseded, which seems unlikely, there are unruly powers blowing life into storms, disordering sedulous mornings, and uprooting the stability of the afternoon—dressmakers, that is to say, and confectioners' shops. Six yards of silk will cover one body; but if you have to devise six hundred shapes for it, and twice as many colours?—in the middle of which there is the urgent question of the pudding with tufts of green cream and battlements of almond paste. It has not arrived.

The little cards with names on them are actually a bigger problem than the flowers. More horse legs have been worn out, more coachmen's lives wasted, and more hours of precious afternoon time gone to waste than what it took to win the Battle of Waterloo, and we paid for it too. These little devils cause just as many delays, disasters, and worries as the battle itself. Sometimes Mrs. Bonham has just gone out; other times she’s at home. But even if the cards were to be replaced—which seems unlikely—there are chaotic forces stirring things up, disrupting well-planned mornings, and shaking up the calm of the afternoon—like dressmakers and pastry shops. Six yards of silk can cover one body, but if you need to create six hundred styles for it, and twice as many colors? And then there's the urgent issue of the pudding with green cream on top and almond paste decorations. It hasn’t arrived.

The flamingo hours fluttered softly through the sky. But regularly they dipped their wings in pitch black; Notting Hill, for instance, or the purlieus of Clerkenwell. No wonder that Italian remained a hidden art, and the piano always played the same sonata. In order to buy one pair of elastic stockings for Mrs. Page, widow, aged sixty-three, in receipt of five shillings out-door relief, and help from her only son employed in Messrs. Mackie's dye-works, suffering in winter with his chest, letters must be written, columns filled up in the same round, simple hand that wrote in Mr. Letts's diary how the weather was fine, the children demons, and Jacob Flanders unworldly. Clara Durrant procured the stockings, played the sonata, filled the vases, fetched the pudding, left the cards, and when the great invention of paper flowers to swim in finger-bowls was discovered, was one of those who most marvelled at their brief lives.

The flamingo hours floated gently through the sky. But they often dipped their wings into the darkness; places like Notting Hill or the outskirts of Clerkenwell. It's no surprise that Italian stayed a secret art, and the piano always played the same sonata. To buy a pair of elastic stockings for Mrs. Page, a 63-year-old widow receiving five shillings in outdoor relief, along with help from her only son who worked at Messrs. Mackie's dye-works and struggled with his chest in winter, letters had to be written, and columns filled out in the same neat, simple handwriting that recorded in Mr. Letts's diary how the weather was nice, the kids were unruly, and Jacob Flanders was innocent. Clara Durrant got the stockings, played the sonata, filled the vases, got the pudding, left the cards, and when the amazing invention of paper flowers that float in finger bowls was created, she was one of those who marveled at their short lives the most.

Nor were there wanting poets to celebrate the theme. Edwin Mallett, for example, wrote his verses ending:

Nor were there any shortage of poets to celebrate the theme. Edwin Mallett, for example, wrote his verses ending:

/* And read their doom in Chloe's eyes, */

/* And see their fate in Chloe's eyes, */

which caused Clara to blush at the first reading, and to laugh at the second, saying that it was just like him to call her Chloe when her name was Clara. Ridiculous young man! But when, between ten and eleven on a rainy morning, Edwin Mallett laid his life at her feet she ran out of the room and hid herself in her bedroom, and Timothy below could not get on with his work all that morning on account of her sobs.

which made Clara blush when she first read it, and laugh the second time, saying it was just like him to call her Chloe when her name was Clara. What a ridiculous young man! But when, between ten and eleven on a rainy morning, Edwin Mallett professed his love for her, she ran out of the room and hid in her bedroom, and Timothy downstairs couldn’t concentrate on his work all morning because of her sobs.

"Which is the result of enjoying yourself," said Mrs. Durrant severely, surveying the dance programme all scored with the same initials, or rather they were different ones this time—R.B. instead of E.M.; Richard Bonamy it was now, the young man with the Wellington nose.

"That’s what happens when you have fun," Mrs. Durrant said sternly, looking over the dance program filled with the same initials, or actually they were different this time—R.B. instead of E.M.; it was Richard Bonamy now, the young man with the prominent nose.

"But I could never marry a man with a nose like that," said Clara.

"But I could never marry a guy with a nose like that," Clara said.

"Nonsense," said Mrs. Durrant.

"Nonsense," Mrs. Durrant said.

"But I am too severe," she thought to herself. For Clara, losing all vivacity, tore up her dance programme and threw it in the fender.

"But I'm being too harsh," she thought to herself. For Clara, losing all her energy, ripped up her dance program and tossed it in the fireplace.

Such were the very serious consequences of the invention of paper flowers to swim in bowls.

Such were the serious consequences of the invention of paper flowers to float in bowls.

"Please," said Julia Eliot, taking up her position by the curtain almost opposite the door, "don't introduce me. I like to look on. The amusing thing," she went on, addressing Mr. Salvin, who, owing to his lameness, was accommodated with a chair, "the amusing thing about a party is to watch the people—coming and going, coming and going."

"Please," said Julia Eliot, standing by the curtain almost across from the door, "don't introduce me. I prefer to observe. The funny thing," she continued, speaking to Mr. Salvin, who was sitting in a chair because of his limp, "the funny thing about a party is watching people—arriving and leaving, arriving and leaving."

"Last time we met," said Mr. Salvin, "was at the Farquhars. Poor lady!
She has much to put up with."

"Last time we met," said Mr. Salvin, "was at the Farquhars. That poor lady!
She has a lot to deal with."

"Doesn't she look charming?" exclaimed Miss Eliot, as Clara Durrant passed them.

"Doesn’t she look charming?" Miss Eliot exclaimed as Clara Durrant walked by them.

"And which of them…?" asked Mr. Salvin, dropping his voice and speaking in quizzical tones.

"And which of them...?" asked Mr. Salvin, lowering his voice and speaking in a curious tone.

"There are so many …" Miss Eliot replied. Three young men stood at the doorway looking about for their hostess.

"There are so many ..." Miss Eliot replied. Three young men stood at the doorway looking around for their hostess.

"You don't remember Elizabeth as I do," said Mr. Salvin, "dancing Highland reels at Banchorie. Clara lacks her mother's spirit. Clara is a little pale."

"You don't remember Elizabeth the way I do," Mr. Salvin said, "dancing Highland reels at Banchorie. Clara doesn't have her mother's energy. Clara looks a bit pale."

"What different people one sees here!" said Miss Eliot.

"What a variety of people you see here!" said Miss Eliot.

"Happily we are not governed by the evening papers," said Mr. Salvin.

"Happily, we’re not controlled by the evening news," said Mr. Salvin.

"I never read them," said Miss Eliot. "I know nothing about politics," she added.

"I've never read them," said Miss Eliot. "I don't know anything about politics," she added.

"The piano is in tune," said Clara, passing them, "but we may have to ask some one to move it for us."

"The piano is in tune," Clara said as she walked by them, "but we might need to ask someone to move it for us."

"Are they going to dance?" asked Mr. Salvin.

"Are they going to dance?" Mr. Salvin asked.

"Nobody shall disturb you," said Mrs. Durrant peremptorily as she passed.

"Nobody will bother you," Mrs. Durrant said firmly as she walked by.

"Julia Eliot. It IS Julia Eliot!" said old Lady Hibbert, holding out both her hands. "And Mr. Salvin. What is going to happen to us, Mr. Salvin? With all my experience of English politics—My dear, I was thinking of your father last night—one of my oldest friends, Mr. Salvin. Never tell me that girls often are incapable of love! I had all Shakespeare by heart before I was in my teens, Mr. Salvin!"

"Julia Eliot. It’s Julia Eliot!" said old Lady Hibbert, extending both her hands. "And Mr. Salvin. What’s going to happen to us, Mr. Salvin? With all my experience in English politics—My dear, I was thinking about your father last night—one of my oldest friends, Mr. Salvin. Don’t tell me that girls are often incapable of love! I knew all of Shakespeare by heart before I turned thirteen, Mr. Salvin!"

"You don't say so," said Mr. Salvin.

"You don't say that," said Mr. Salvin.

"But I do," said Lady Hibbert.

"But I do," Lady Hibbert said.

"Oh, Mr. Salvin, I'm so sorry…."

"Oh, Mr. Salvin, I'm really sorry…."

"I will remove myself if you'll kindly lend me a hand," said Mr. Salvin.

"I'll step aside if you could help me out," said Mr. Salvin.

"You shall sit by my mother," said Clara. "Everybody seems to come in here…. Mr. Calthorp, let me introduce you to Miss Edwards."

"You should sit by my mom," Clara said. "Everyone seems to come in here… Mr. Calthorp, let me introduce you to Miss Edwards."

"Are you going away for Christmas?" said Mr. Calthorp.

"Are you heading out for Christmas?" Mr. Calthorp asked.

"If my brother gets his leave," said Miss Edwards.

"If my brother gets his time off," said Miss Edwards.

"What regiment is he in?" said Mr. Calthorp.

"What regiment is he in?" Mr. Calthorp asked.

"The Twentieth Hussars," said Miss Edwards.

"The Twentieth Hussars," Miss Edwards said.

"Perhaps he knows my brother?" said Mr. Calthorp.

"Maybe he knows my brother?" said Mr. Calthorp.

"I am afraid I did not catch your name," said Miss Edwards.

"I’m sorry, I didn’t catch your name," said Miss Edwards.

"Calthorp," said Mr. Calthorp.

"Calthorp," Mr. Calthorp said.

"But what proof was there that the marriage service was actually performed?" said Mr. Crosby.

"But what proof do we have that the wedding ceremony actually took place?" Mr. Crosby asked.

"There is no reason to doubt that Charles James Fox …" Mr. Burley began; but here Mrs. Stretton told him that she knew his sister well; had stayed with her not six weeks ago; and thought the house charming, but bleak in winter.

"There is no reason to doubt that Charles James Fox …" Mr. Burley started, but Mrs. Stretton interrupted him, saying she knew his sister well; she had stayed with her just six weeks ago and thought the house was charming, but cold in the winter.

"Going about as girls do nowadays—" said Mrs. Forster.

"Doing things like girls do these days—" said Mrs. Forster.

Mr. Bowley looked round him, and catching sight of Rose Shaw moved towards her, threw out his hands, and exclaimed: "Well!"

Mr. Bowley looked around and, spotting Rose Shaw, walked over to her, held out his hands, and exclaimed: "Well!"

"Nothing!" she replied. "Nothing at all—though I left them alone the entire afternoon on purpose."

"Nothing!" she said. "Absolutely nothing—though I intentionally left them alone the whole afternoon."

"Dear me, dear me," said Mr. Bowley. "I will ask Jimmy to breakfast."

"Goodness, goodness," said Mr. Bowley. "I'll invite Jimmy for breakfast."

"But who could resist her?" cried Rose Shaw. "Dearest Clara—I know we mustn't try to stop you…"

"But who could resist her?" exclaimed Rose Shaw. "Dear Clara—I know we shouldn’t try to stop you…"

"You and Mr. Bowley are talking dreadful gossip, I know," said Clara.

"You and Mr. Bowley are talking terrible gossip, I know," Clara said.

"Life is wicked—life is detestable!" cried Rose Shaw.

"Life is cruel—life is awful!" cried Rose Shaw.

"There's not much to be said for this sort of thing, is there?" said
Timothy Durrant to Jacob.

"There's not much to say about this kind of thing, is there?" said
Timothy Durrant to Jacob.

"Women like it."

"Women love it."

"Like what?" said Charlotte Wilding, coming up to them.

"Like what?" Charlotte Wilding asked as she approached them.

"Where have you come from?" said Timothy. "Dining somewhere, I suppose."

"Where have you been?" said Timothy. "Out to eat somewhere, I guess."

"I don't see why not," said Charlotte.

"I don't see why not," Charlotte said.

"People must go downstairs," said Clara, passing. "Take Charlotte,
Timothy. How d'you do, Mr. Flanders."

"People need to go downstairs," said Clara, walking by. "Take Charlotte,
Timothy. How are you, Mr. Flanders."

"How d'you do, Mr. Flanders," said Julia Eliot, holding out her hand.
"What's been happening to you?"

"How are you, Mr. Flanders?" said Julia Eliot, extending her hand.
"What's been going on with you?"

/*
"Who is Silvia? what is she?
That all our swains commend her?"
*/

/*
"Who is Silvia? What is she?
That all our young men praise her?"
*/

sang Elsbeth Siddons.

sang Elsbeth Siddons.

Every one stood where they were, or sat down if a chair was empty.

Everyone stood where they were or sat down if a chair was available.

"Ah," sighed Clara, who stood beside Jacob, half-way through.

"Ah," sighed Clara, who stood next to Jacob, halfway through.

/*
"Then to Silvia let us sing,
 That Silvia is excelling;
 She excels each mortal thing
 Upon the dull earth dwelling.
 To her let us garlands bring,"
*/


"Then let’s sing to Silvia,
 Because Silvia is the best;
 She stands out among all beings
 Living on this boring earth.
 To her, let’s bring garlands,"

sang Elsbeth Siddons.

sang Elsbeth Siddons.

"Ah!" Clara exclaimed out loud, and clapped her gloved hands; and Jacob clapped his bare ones; and then she moved forward and directed people to come in from the doorway.

"Ah!" Clara shouted, clapping her gloved hands, while Jacob clapped his bare hands. Then she stepped forward and gestured for people to come in through the doorway.

"You are living in London?" asked Miss Julia Eliot.

"You live in London?" asked Miss Julia Eliot.

"Yes," said Jacob.

"Yeah," said Jacob.

"In rooms?"

"In the rooms?"

"Yes."

"Yep."

"There is Mr. Clutterbuck. You always see Mr. Clutterbuck here. He is not very happy at home, I am afraid. They say that Mrs. Clutterbuck …" she dropped her voice. "That's why he stays with the Durrants. Were you there when they acted Mr. Wortley's play? Oh, no, of course not—at the last moment, did you hear—you had to go to join your mother, I remember, at Harrogate—At the last moment, as I was saying, just as everything was ready, the clothes finished and everything—Now Elsbeth is going to sing again. Clara is playing her accompaniment or turning over for Mr. Carter, I think. No, Mr. Carter is playing by himself—This is BACH," she whispered, as Mr. Carter played the first bars.

“Look, there’s Mr. Clutterbuck. You always see him around here. He’s not too happy at home, I’m afraid. They say Mrs. Clutterbuck…” she lowered her voice. “That’s why he spends time with the Durrants. Were you there when they performed Mr. Wortley’s play? Oh, no, of course not—you had to leave at the last minute to join your mom, I remember, at Harrogate. Anyway, as I was saying, just when everything was ready, the costumes finished and all—Now Elsbeth is going to sing again. Clara is playing her accompaniment or turning pages for Mr. Carter, I think. No, Mr. Carter is playing solo—This is BACH,” she whispered as Mr. Carter began the first notes.

"Are you fond of music?" said Mr. Durrant.

"Do you like music?" Mr. Durrant asked.

"Yes. I like hearing it," said Jacob. "I know nothing about it."

"Yeah. I like hearing it," Jacob said. "I don't know anything about it."

"Very few people do that," said Mrs. Durrant. "I daresay you were never taught. Why is that, Sir Jasper?—Sir Jasper Bigham—Mr. Flanders. Why is nobody taught anything that they ought to know, Sir Jasper?" She left them standing against the wall.

"Very few people do that," said Mrs. Durrant. "I bet you were never taught. Why is that, Sir Jasper?—Sir Jasper Bigham—Mr. Flanders. Why isn’t anyone taught anything they should know, Sir Jasper?" She left them standing against the wall.

Neither of the gentlemen said anything for three minutes, though Jacob shifted perhaps five inches to the left, and then as many to the right. Then Jacob grunted, and suddenly crossed the room.

Neither of the men said anything for three minutes, although Jacob shifted maybe five inches to the left, and then just as much to the right. Then Jacob grunted and suddenly crossed the room.

"Will you come and have something to eat?" he said to Clara Durrant.

"Will you come and grab something to eat?" he said to Clara Durrant.

"Yes, an ice. Quickly. Now," she said.

"Yes, an ice. Quickly. Now," she said.

Downstairs they went.

They went downstairs.

But half-way down they met Mr. and Mrs. Gresham, Herbert Turner, Sylvia Rashleigh, and a friend, whom they had dared to bring, from America, "knowing that Mrs. Durrant—wishing to show Mr. Pilcher.—Mr. Pilcher from New York—This is Miss Durrant."

But halfway down, they ran into Mr. and Mrs. Gresham, Herbert Turner, Sylvia Rashleigh, and a friend they had bravely brought over from America, "knowing that Mrs. Durrant—wanting to introduce Mr. Pilcher—Mr. Pilcher from New York—This is Miss Durrant."

"Whom I have heard so much of," said Mr. Pilcher, bowing low.

"Whom I’ve heard so much about," Mr. Pilcher said, bowing deeply.

So Clara left him.

So Clara broke up with him.

CHAPTER EIGHT

About half-past nine Jacob left the house, his door slamming, other doors slamming, buying his paper, mounting his omnibus, or, weather permitting, walking his road as other people do. Head bent down, a desk, a telephone, books bound in green leather, electric light…. "Fresh coals, sir?" … "Your tea, sir."… Talk about football, the Hotspurs, the Harlequins; six-thirty Star brought in by the office boy; the rooks of Gray's Inn passing overhead; branches in the fog thin and brittle; and through the roar of traffic now and again a voice shouting: "Verdict—verdict—winner—winner," while letters accumulate in a basket, Jacob signs them, and each evening finds him, as he takes his coat down, with some muscle of the brain new stretched.

Around half past nine, Jacob left the house, slamming the door behind him, while other doors slammed too. He bought his newspaper, got on the bus, or—if the weather was nice—walked down the road like everyone else. With his head down, he faced a desk, a phone, books with green leather covers, electric light... "Fresh coals, sir?" ... "Your tea, sir." ... Conversations about football, the Hotspurs, the Harlequins; the 6:30 Star delivered by the office boy; the rooks of Gray's Inn flying above; branches in the fog looking thin and fragile; and through the noise of traffic, occasionally a voice would call out: "Verdict—verdict—winner—winner," while letters piled up in a basket, Jacob signed them, and by each evening, as he took his coat off, he felt like he'd stretched some mental muscle.

Then, sometimes a game of chess; or pictures in Bond Street, or a long way home to take the air with Bonamy on his arm, meditatively marching, head thrown back, the world a spectacle, the early moon above the steeples coming in for praise, the sea-gulls flying high, Nelson on his column surveying the horizon, and the world our ship.

Then, sometimes a game of chess; or looking at pictures on Bond Street, or a long walk home to enjoy the fresh air with Bonamy on his arm, thoughtfully strolling, head held high, the world a show, the early moon above the steeples getting some appreciation, the sea gulls soaring high, Nelson on his column watching over the horizon, and the world our ship.

Meanwhile, poor Betty Flanders's letter, having caught the second post, lay on the hall table—poor Betty Flanders writing her son's name, Jacob Alan Flanders, Esq., as mothers do, and the ink pale, profuse, suggesting how mothers down at Scarborough scribble over the fire with their feet on the fender, when tea's cleared away, and can never, never say, whatever it may be—probably this—Don't go with bad women, do be a good boy; wear your thick shirts; and come back, come back, come back to me.

Meanwhile, poor Betty Flanders's letter, which had caught the second post, lay on the hall table—poor Betty Flanders writing her son’s name, Jacob Alan Flanders, Esq., like mothers do, and the ink pale and overflowing, suggesting how mothers down in Scarborough scribble by the fire with their feet on the fender after tea is cleared away, and can never, ever say, whatever it might be—probably this—Don’t hang out with bad women, be a good boy; wear your thick shirts; and come back, come back, come back to me.

But she said nothing of the kind. "Do you remember old Miss Wargrave, who used to be so kind when you had the whooping-cough?" she wrote; "she's dead at last, poor thing. They would like it if you wrote. Ellen came over and we spent a nice day shopping. Old Mouse gets very stiff, and we have to walk him up the smallest hill. Rebecca, at last, after I don't know how long, went into Mr. Adamson's. Three teeth, he says, must come out. Such mild weather for the time of year, the little buds actually on the pear trees. And Mrs. Jarvis tells me—"Mrs. Flanders liked Mrs. Jarvis, always said of her that she was too good for such a quiet place, and, though she never listened to her discontent and told her at the end of it (looking up, sucking her thread, or taking off her spectacles) that a little peat wrapped round the iris roots keeps them from the frost, and Parrot's great white sale is Tuesday next, "do remember,"—Mrs. Flanders knew precisely how Mrs. Jarvis felt; and how interesting her letters were, about Mrs. Jarvis, could one read them year in, year out—the unpublished works of women, written by the fireside in pale profusion, dried by the flame, for the blotting-paper's worn to holes and the nib cleft and clotted. Then Captain Barfoot. Him she called "the Captain," spoke of frankly, yet never without reserve. The Captain was enquiring for her about Garfit's acre; advised chickens; could promise profit; or had the sciatica; or Mrs. Barfoot had been indoors for weeks; or the Captain says things look bad, politics that is, for as Jacob knew, the Captain would sometimes talk, as the evening waned, about Ireland or India; and then Mrs. Flanders would fall musing about Morty, her brother, lost all these years—had the natives got him, was his ship sunk—would the Admiralty tell her?—the Captain knocking his pipe out, as Jacob knew, rising to go, stiffly stretching to pick up Mrs. Flanders's wool which had rolled beneath the chair. Talk of the chicken farm came back and back, the women, even at fifty, impulsive at heart, sketching on the cloudy future flocks of Leghorns, Cochin Chinas, Orpingtons; like Jacob in the blur of her outline; but powerful as he was; fresh and vigorous, running about the house, scolding Rebecca.

But she didn’t say anything like that. "Do you remember old Miss Wargrave, who was so kind to you when you had whooping cough?" she wrote; "she's finally passed away, poor thing. They’d appreciate it if you wrote. Ellen came by, and we had a nice day shopping. Old Mouse is getting really stiff, so we have to help him up the smallest hill. Rebecca finally went into Mr. Adamson's after what felt like ages. He says three of her teeth need to come out. It's surprisingly mild for this time of year; the little buds are actually showing on the pear trees. And Mrs. Jarvis tells me—" Mrs. Flanders liked Mrs. Jarvis and always said she was too good for such a quiet place. Even though she never paid attention to her complaints and would eventually tell her (looking up, sucking her thread, or taking off her glasses) that a bit of peat around the iris roots keeps them safe from frost, and that Parrot's big white sale is next Tuesday, "do remember,"—Mrs. Flanders understood exactly how Mrs. Jarvis felt. And how interesting her letters were about Mrs. Jarvis, could you imagine reading them year after year—the unpublished works of women, written by the fireside in pale abundance, dried by the flames, with the blotting paper worn through and the nib split and clogged. Then there was Captain Barfoot. She referred to him as "the Captain," spoke about him openly but always with some reserve. The Captain was asking about her regarding Garfit's acre; he recommended getting chickens; he could promise it’d be profitable; or he had the sciatica; or Mrs. Barfoot had been stuck indoors for weeks; or the Captain mentioned things were looking bleak, politics-wise—because as Jacob knew, the Captain would sometimes start discussing Ireland or India as the evening went on; then Mrs. Flanders would start pondering about Morty, her brother, who had been missing all these years—had the locals gotten him, had his ship sunk—would the Admiralty inform her?—the Captain knocking out his pipe, as Jacob would witness, rising to leave, stiffly stretching to pick up Mrs. Flanders's wool that had rolled under the chair. The talk of the chicken farm kept coming up, the women, even at fifty, were impulsive at heart, imagining flocks of Leghorns, Cochin Chinas, Orpingtons for the cloudy future; like Jacob in the blurry outline; but powerful as he was; fresh and full of energy, running around the house, scolding Rebecca.

The letter lay upon the hall table; Florinda coming in that night took it up with her, put it on the table as she kissed Jacob, and Jacob seeing the hand, left it there under the lamp, between the biscuit-tin and the tobacco-box. They shut the bedroom door behind them.

The letter was on the hall table; when Florinda came in that night, she picked it up with her, placed it on the table as she kissed Jacob, and Jacob, noticing the envelope, left it there under the lamp, between the biscuit tin and the tobacco box. They closed the bedroom door behind them.

The sitting-room neither knew nor cared. The door was shut; and to suppose that wood, when it creaks, transmits anything save that rats are busy and wood dry is childish. These old houses are only brick and wood, soaked in human sweat, grained with human dirt. But if the pale blue envelope lying by the biscuit-box had the feelings of a mother, the heart was torn by the little creak, the sudden stir. Behind the door was the obscene thing, the alarming presence, and terror would come over her as at death, or the birth of a child. Better, perhaps, burst in and face it than sit in the antechamber listening to the little creak, the sudden stir, for her heart was swollen, and pain threaded it. My son, my son—such would be her cry, uttered to hide her vision of him stretched with Florinda, inexcusable, irrational, in a woman with three children living at Scarborough. And the fault lay with Florinda. Indeed, when the door opened and the couple came out, Mrs. Flanders would have flounced upon her—only it was Jacob who came first, in his dressing-gown, amiable, authoritative, beautifully healthy, like a baby after an airing, with an eye clear as running water. Florinda followed, lazily stretching; yawning a little; arranging her hair at the looking-glass—while Jacob read his mother's letter.

The living room was oblivious and indifferent. The door was closed; and to think that wood creaks for any reason other than rats scurrying and dry timber is naive. These old houses are just brick and wood, soaked in people's sweat and stained with their dirt. But if the pale blue envelope resting by the biscuit tin could feel like a mother, it would be heartbroken by that little creak, that sudden movement. Behind the door lurked something disturbing, an unsettling presence, and fear washed over her like facing death or the arrival of a newborn. Maybe it would be better to barge in and confront it than to sit in the hallway listening to those small creaks and sudden stirrings, as her heart felt heavy and painful. "My son, my son"—that would be her cry, uttered to distract from the image of him with Florinda, something unforgivable and irrational for a woman with three children living in Scarborough. The blame lay with Florinda. In fact, when the door opened, Mrs. Flanders was ready to confront her—only it was Jacob who came out first, in his dressing gown, cheerful, authoritative, and looking wonderfully healthy, like a baby after some fresh air, with eyes as clear as running water. Florinda followed, stretching lazily, yawning a bit, and fixing her hair in the mirror—while Jacob read his mother’s letter.

Let us consider letters—how they come at breakfast, and at night, with their yellow stamps and their green stamps, immortalized by the postmark—for to see one's own envelope on another's table is to realize how soon deeds sever and become alien. Then at last the power of the mind to quit the body is manifest, and perhaps we fear or hate or wish annihilated this phantom of ourselves, lying on the table. Still, there are letters that merely say how dinner's at seven; others ordering coal; making appointments. The hand in them is scarcely perceptible, let alone the voice or the scowl. Ah, but when the post knocks and the letter comes always the miracle seems repeated—speech attempted. Venerable are letters, infinitely brave, forlorn, and lost.

Let’s think about letters—how they arrive at breakfast and at night, with their yellow and green stamps, marked by the postmark. Seeing your own envelope on someone else’s table makes you realize how quickly connections can break and become distant. Then you truly see the mind’s ability to leave the body, and maybe we fear, hate, or wish to destroy this shadow of ourselves lying on the table. Still, there are letters that simply say dinner is at seven; others that are about ordering coal or setting meetings. The handwriting is barely noticeable, let alone any tone or emotions. But whenever the mail arrives and a letter comes, it feels like the magic happens again—attempts at communication. Letters are timeless, incredibly brave, lonely, and lost.

Life would split asunder without them. "Come to tea, come to dinner, what's the truth of the story? have you heard the news? life in the capital is gay; the Russian dancers…." These are our stays and props. These lace our days together and make of life a perfect globe. And yet, and yet … when we go to dinner, when pressing finger-tips we hope to meet somewhere soon, a doubt insinuates itself; is this the way to spend our days? the rare, the limited, so soon dealt out to us—drinking tea? dining out? And the notes accumulate. And the telephones ring. And everywhere we go wires and tubes surround us to carry the voices that try to penetrate before the last card is dealt and the days are over. "Try to penetrate," for as we lift the cup, shake the hand, express the hope, something whispers, Is this all? Can I never know, share, be certain? Am I doomed all my days to write letters, send voices, which fall upon the tea-table, fade upon the passage, making appointments, while life dwindles, to come and dine? Yet letters are venerable; and the telephone valiant, for the journey is a lonely one, and if bound together by notes and telephones we went in company, perhaps—who knows?—we might talk by the way.

Life would fall apart without them. "Come for tea, come for dinner, what's the real story? Have you heard the latest? Life in the capital is great; the Russian dancers..." These are our anchors. They weave our days together and make life feel whole. And yet, and yet... when we go out to dinner, when we hope to connect with a light touch, a doubt creeps in; is this really how we should spend our time? The rare, precious moments, so quickly dealt to us—drinking tea? Dining out? And the messages pile up. The phones keep ringing. Everywhere we go, wires and tubes surround us to carry the voices that try to reach us before the last card is dealt and our time is up. "Try to reach," because as we lift our cups, shake hands, and express hopes, something whispers, Is this it? Will I never know, share, or be sure? Am I destined to spend my days writing letters and making calls, which fall on the table, fade into the background, setting appointments while life slips away, just to come and dine? Yet letters are timeless; and the telephone is brave, for the journey can be a lonely one, and if we are connected by notes and calls, maybe—who knows?—we might actually have a conversation along the way.

Well, people have tried. Byron wrote letters. So did Cowper. For centuries the writing-desk has contained sheets fit precisely for the communications of friends. Masters of language, poets of long ages, have turned from the sheet that endures to the sheet that perishes, pushing aside the tea-tray, drawing close to the fire (for letters are written when the dark presses round a bright red cave), and addressed themselves to the task of reaching, touching, penetrating the individual heart. Were it possible! But words have been used too often; touched and turned, and left exposed to the dust of the street. The words we seek hang close to the tree. We come at dawn and find them sweet beneath the leaf.

Well, people have tried. Byron wrote letters. So did Cowper. For centuries, writing desks have held sheets perfect for friends' communications. Masters of language, poets from long ago, have turned from the page that lasts to the page that won’t, pushing aside the tea tray, moving closer to the fire (because letters are written when the darkness surrounds a cozy glow), and dedicated themselves to the task of reaching, touching, and connecting with the individual heart. If only it were possible! But words have been used too often; touched and turned, left exposed to the dust of the street. The words we’re searching for hang close to the tree. We come at dawn and find them sweet beneath the leaves.

Mrs. Flanders wrote letters; Mrs. Jarvis wrote them; Mrs. Durrant too; Mother Stuart actually scented her pages, thereby adding a flavour which the English language fails to provide; Jacob had written in his day long letters about art, morality, and politics to young men at college. Clara Durrant's letters were those of a child. Florinda—the impediment between Florinda and her pen was something impassable. Fancy a butterfly, gnat, or other winged insect, attached to a twig which, clogged with mud, it rolls across a page. Her spelling was abominable. Her sentiments infantile. And for some reason when she wrote she declared her belief in God. Then there were crosses—tear stains; and the hand itself rambling and redeemed only by the fact—which always did redeem Florinda—by the fact that she cared. Yes, whether it was for chocolate creams, hot baths, the shape of her face in the looking-glass, Florinda could no more pretend a feeling than swallow whisky. Incontinent was her rejection. Great men are truthful, and these little prostitutes, staring in the fire, taking out a powder-puff, decorating lips at an inch of looking-glass, have (so Jacob thought) an inviolable fidelity.

Mrs. Flanders wrote letters; Mrs. Jarvis wrote them; Mrs. Durrant did too; Mother Stuart even scented her pages, adding a flavor that the English language lacks; Jacob had written long letters in his time about art, morality, and politics to young men in college. Clara Durrant's letters were those of a child. Florinda—the barrier between Florinda and her pen was something insurmountable. Imagine a butterfly, gnat, or another winged insect, stuck to a twig that, caked with mud, rolls across a page. Her spelling was terrible. Her feelings were childish. And for some reason, when she wrote, she expressed her belief in God. Then there were crosses—tear stains; and the handwriting itself was scattered and only redeemed by one fact—which always redeemed Florinda—was that she cared. Yes, whether it was for chocolate creams, hot baths, or how her face looked in the mirror, Florinda couldn't pretend to feel anything more than she could swallow whisky. Her rejection was outright. Great men are honest, and those little girls, staring into the fire, pulling out a powder puff, and touching up their lips at a small mirror, have (or so Jacob thought) an unbreakable loyalty.

Then he saw her turning up Greek Street upon another man's arm.

Then he saw her walking up Greek Street on another man's arm.

The light from the arc lamp drenched him from head to toe. He stood for a minute motionless beneath it. Shadows chequered the street. Other figures, single and together, poured out, wavered across, and obliterated Florinda and the man.

The light from the arc lamp soaked him completely. He stood still for a minute underneath it. Shadows patterned the street. Other figures, alone and in groups, spilled out, moved across, and blocked out Florinda and the man.

The light drenched Jacob from head to toe. You could see the pattern on his trousers; the old thorns on his stick; his shoe laces; bare hands; and face.

The light covered Jacob from head to toe. You could see the pattern on his pants; the old thorns on his walking stick; his shoelaces; bare hands; and face.

It was as if a stone were ground to dust; as if white sparks flew from a livid whetstone, which was his spine; as if the switchback railway, having swooped to the depths, fell, fell, fell. This was in his face.

It felt like a stone was being crushed to dust; like white sparks were flying from a sharp whetstone, which was his spine; like a roller coaster, having looped down to the bottom, was just falling, falling, falling. This was in his face.

Whether we know what was in his mind is another question. Granted ten years' seniority and a difference of sex, fear of him comes first; this is swallowed up by a desire to help—overwhelming sense, reason, and the time of night; anger would follow close on that—with Florinda, with destiny; and then up would bubble an irresponsible optimism. "Surely there's enough light in the street at this moment to drown all our cares in gold!" Ah, what's the use of saying it? Even while you speak and look over your shoulder towards Shaftesbury Avenue, destiny is chipping a dent in him. He has turned to go. As for following him back to his rooms, no—that we won't do.

Whether we know what he was thinking is a different question. Given that he’s ten years older and a different gender, fear of him comes first; that's quickly overtaken by a strong urge to help—mixed with common sense, reasoning, and the late hour; anger would soon follow—aimed at Florinda, at fate; and then an irrational optimism would bubble up. "Surely the street is bright enough right now to wash all our worries away in gold!" But what's the point of saying it? Even as you speak and glance over your shoulder at Shaftesbury Avenue, fate is making a mark on him. He has decided to leave. As for going back to his place, no—that we won’t do.

Yet that, of course, is precisely what one does. He let himself in and shut the door, though it was only striking ten on one of the city clocks. No one can go to bed at ten. Nobody was thinking of going to bed. It was January and dismal, but Mrs. Wagg stood on her doorstep, as if expecting something to happen. A barrel-organ played like an obscene nightingale beneath wet leaves. Children ran across the road. Here and there one could see brown panelling inside the hall door…. The march that the mind keeps beneath the windows of others is queer enough. Now distracted by brown panelling; now by a fern in a pot; here improvising a few phrases to dance with the barrel-organ; again snatching a detached gaiety from a drunken man; then altogether absorbed by words the poor shout across the street at each other (so outright, so lusty)—yet all the while having for centre, for magnet, a young man alone in his room.

Yet that's exactly what one does. He let himself in and shut the door, even though it was just ten o'clock on one of the city clocks. No one goes to bed at ten. Nobody was thinking about going to bed. It was January and miserable, but Mrs. Wagg stood on her doorstep, as if waiting for something to happen. A barrel organ played like a vulgar nightingale beneath the wet leaves. Children dashed across the street. Here and there, you could see brown paneling inside the hallway door…. The march that the mind keeps while observing others is quite strange. Now distracted by the brown paneling; now by a potted fern; here improvising a few phrases to dance along with the barrel organ; again snatching some carefree moments from a drunken man; then completely absorbed by the loud words the poor shout across the street at each other (so direct, so exuberant)—yet all the while focused on one young man alone in his room.

"Life is wicked—life is detestable," cried Rose Shaw.

"Life is terrible—life is awful," shouted Rose Shaw.

The strange thing about life is that though the nature of it must have been apparent to every one for hundreds of years, no one has left any adequate account of it. The streets of London have their map; but our passions are uncharted. What are you going to meet if you turn this corner?

The strange thing about life is that even though its nature has been clear to everyone for hundreds of years, no one has provided a satisfactory explanation of it. The streets of London have their map, but our feelings are uncharted. What will you encounter if you turn this corner?

"Holborn straight ahead of you," says the policeman. Ah, but where are you going if instead of brushing past the old man with the white beard, the silver medal, and the cheap violin, you let him go on with his story, which ends in an invitation to step somewhere, to his room, presumably, off Queen's Square, and there he shows you a collection of birds' eggs and a letter from the Prince of Wales's secretary, and this (skipping the intermediate stages) brings you one winter's day to the Essex coast, where the little boat makes off to the ship, and the ship sails and you behold on the skyline the Azores; and the flamingoes rise; and there you sit on the verge of the marsh drinking rum-punch, an outcast from civilization, for you have committed a crime, are infected with yellow fever as likely as not, and—fill in the sketch as you like. As frequent as street corners in Holborn are these chasms in the continuity of our ways. Yet we keep straight on.

"Holborn is straight ahead," the policeman says. But where are you headed if instead of passing by the old man with the white beard, the silver medal, and the cheap violin, you let him continue his story, which ends with an invitation to go somewhere, presumably to his room off Queen's Square? There, he shows you a collection of birds' eggs and a letter from the Prince of Wales's secretary, and this (skipping the details) leads you one winter's day to the Essex coast, where a small boat takes you to a ship, and the ship sails and you see the Azores on the horizon; and the flamingos rise; and there you sit on the edge of the marsh drinking rum punch, an outcast from civilization, because you’ve committed a crime, are likely infected with yellow fever, and—fill in the details as you wish. These gaps in the flow of our lives are as common as street corners in Holborn. Yet we keep going straight ahead.

Rose Shaw, talking in rather an emotional manner to Mr. Bowley at Mrs. Durrant's evening party a few nights back, said that life was wicked because a man called Jimmy refused to marry a woman called (if memory serves) Helen Aitken.

Rose Shaw, speaking quite emotionally to Mr. Bowley at Mrs. Durrant's party a few nights ago, said that life was cruel because a man named Jimmy refused to marry a woman named (if I remember correctly) Helen Aitken.

Both were beautiful. Both were inanimate. The oval tea-table invariably separated them, and the plate of biscuits was all he ever gave her. He bowed; she inclined her head. They danced. He danced divinely. They sat in the alcove; never a word was said. Her pillow was wet with tears. Kind Mr. Bowley and dear Rose Shaw marvelled and deplored. Bowley had rooms in the Albany. Rose was re-born every evening precisely as the clock struck eight. All four were civilization's triumphs, and if you persist that a command of the English language is part of our inheritance, one can only reply that beauty is almost always dumb. Male beauty in association with female beauty breeds in the onlooker a sense of fear. Often have I seen them—Helen and Jimmy—and likened them to ships adrift, and feared for my own little craft. Or again, have you ever watched fine collie dogs couchant at twenty yards' distance? As she passed him his cup there was that quiver in her flanks. Bowley saw what was up-asked Jimmy to breakfast. Helen must have confided in Rose. For my own part, I find it exceedingly difficult to interpret songs without words. And now Jimmy feeds crows in Flanders and Helen visits hospitals. Oh, life is damnable, life is wicked, as Rose Shaw said.

Both were beautiful. Both were lifeless. The oval tea table always kept them apart, and the plate of biscuits was all he ever offered her. He bowed; she nodded her head. They danced. He danced beautifully. They sat in the alcove; not a word was spoken. Her pillow was soaked with tears. Kind Mr. Bowley and dear Rose Shaw marveled and lamented. Bowley lived at the Albany. Rose was reborn every evening exactly as the clock hit eight. All four were the triumphs of civilization, and if you insist that knowing English is part of our legacy, one can only respond that beauty is almost always silent. Male beauty paired with female beauty creates a feeling of fear in the observer. I’ve often seen them—Helen and Jimmy—and compared them to ships lost at sea, worrying for my own little vessel. Or have you ever watched beautiful collies resting twenty yards away? As she handed him his cup, there was a tremble in her sides. Bowley noticed something was happening and invited Jimmy to breakfast. Helen must have confided in Rose. For my part, I find it incredibly hard to interpret songs without lyrics. And now Jimmy feeds crows in Flanders, and Helen visits hospitals. Oh, life is terrible, life is cruel, as Rose Shaw said.

The lamps of London uphold the dark as upon the points of burning bayonets. The yellow canopy sinks and swells over the great four-poster. Passengers in the mail-coaches running into London in the eighteenth century looked through leafless branches and saw it flaring beneath them. The light burns behind yellow blinds and pink blinds, and above fanlights, and down in basement windows. The street market in Soho is fierce with light. Raw meat, china mugs, and silk stockings blaze in it. Raw voices wrap themselves round the flaring gas-jets. Arms akimbo, they stand on the pavement bawling—Messrs. Kettle and Wilkinson; their wives sit in the shop, furs wrapped round their necks, arms folded, eyes contemptuous. Such faces as one sees. The little man fingering the meat must have squatted before the fire in innumerable lodging-houses, and heard and seen and known so much that it seems to utter itself even volubly from dark eyes, loose lips, as he fingers the meat silently, his face sad as a poet's, and never a song sung. Shawled women carry babies with purple eyelids; boys stand at street corners; girls look across the road—rude illustrations, pictures in a book whose pages we turn over and over as if we should at last find what we look for. Every face, every shop, bedroom window, public-house, and dark square is a picture feverishly turned—in search of what? It is the same with books. What do we seek through millions of pages? Still hopefully turning the pages—oh, here is Jacob's room.

The lamps of London push back the darkness like the tips of burning bayonets. The yellow canopy swells and sinks above the grand four-poster bed. Passengers on the mail coaches coming into London in the eighteenth century looked through bare branches and saw its glow below them. The light shines behind yellow and pink blinds, above fanlights, and down into basement windows. The street market in Soho is bright with light. Fresh meat, ceramic mugs, and silk stockings shine in it. Loud voices wrap around the glowing gas-jets. With arms crossed, they stand on the pavement shouting—Messrs. Kettle and Wilkinson; their wives sit in the shop, wrapped in furs, arms folded, with contemptuous looks. The faces you see. The little man touching the meat must have sat before the fire in countless boarding houses and heard and seen so much that it seems to spill out of his dark eyes, loose lips, as he silently touches the meat, his face as sorrowful as a poet's, and not a song sung. Women with shawls carry babies with purple eyelids; boys linger at street corners; girls gaze across the road—crude illustrations, images in a book whose pages we turn over and over, hoping to finally find what we seek. Every face, every shop, every bedroom window, pub, and dark square is a picture hurriedly flipped through—in search of what? It’s the same with books. What do we look for among millions of pages? Still hopefully turning the pages—oh, here is Jacob's room.

He sat at the table reading the Globe. The pinkish sheet was spread flat before him. He propped his face in his hand, so that the skin of his cheek was wrinkled in deep folds. Terribly severe he looked, set, and defiant. (What people go through in half an hour! But nothing could save him. These events are features of our landscape. A foreigner coming to London could scarcely miss seeing St. Paul's.) He judged life. These pinkish and greenish newspapers are thin sheets of gelatine pressed nightly over the brain and heart of the world. They take the impression of the whole. Jacob cast his eye over it. A strike, a murder, football, bodies found; vociferation from all parts of England simultaneously. How miserable it is that the Globe newspaper offers nothing better to Jacob Flanders! When a child begins to read history one marvels, sorrowfully, to hear him spell out in his new voice the ancient words.

He sat at the table reading the Globe. The pinkish paper was laid out flat in front of him. He rested his face in his hand, creating deep wrinkles in his cheek. He looked incredibly serious, determined, and defiant. (What people experience in just half an hour! But nothing could save him. These events are just part of our reality. A foreigner visiting London wouldn’t be able to overlook St. Paul's.) He evaluated life. These pinkish and greenish newspapers are thin sheets of gel pushed each night over the brain and heart of the world. They capture the impressions of everything. Jacob glanced over it. A strike, a murder, football, bodies discovered; noise coming from all over England at once. How disappointing it is that the Globe newspaper has nothing better to offer Jacob Flanders! When a child starts to read history, it's saddening to hear them spell out ancient words in their new voice.

The Prime Minister's speech was reported in something over five columns. Feeling in his pocket, Jacob took out a pipe and proceeded to fill it. Five minutes, ten minutes, fifteen minutes passed. Jacob took the paper over to the fire. The Prime Minister proposed a measure for giving Home Rule to Ireland. Jacob knocked out his pipe. He was certainly thinking about Home Rule in Ireland—a very difficult matter. A very cold night.

The Prime Minister's speech was covered in just over five columns. Checking his pocket, Jacob pulled out a pipe and started to fill it. Five minutes, then ten, then fifteen passed. Jacob moved the paper over to the fire. The Prime Minister suggested a plan to give Home Rule to Ireland. Jacob emptied his pipe. He was definitely thinking about Home Rule in Ireland—a very challenging issue. It was a very cold night.

The snow, which had been falling all night, lay at three o'clock in the afternoon over the fields and the hill. Clumps of withered grass stood out upon the hill-top; the furze bushes were black, and now and then a black shiver crossed the snow as the wind drove flurries of frozen particles before it. The sound was that of a broom sweeping—sweeping.

The snow, which had been falling all night, covered the fields and the hill at three o'clock in the afternoon. Clumps of dried grass stood out on the hilltop; the furze bushes were dark, and occasionally a dark shadow moved across the snow as the wind blew flurries of icy particles ahead of it. The sound was like a broom sweeping—sweeping.

The stream crept along by the road unseen by any one. Sticks and leaves caught in the frozen grass. The sky was sullen grey and the trees of black iron. Uncompromising was the severity of the country. At four o'clock the snow was again falling. The day had gone out.

The stream quietly flowed beside the road, unnoticed by anyone. Twigs and leaves were stuck in the icy grass. The sky was a dull gray, and the trees looked like they were made of black metal. The harshness of the landscape was undeniable. By four o'clock, it started snowing again. The day had come to an end.

A window tinged yellow about two feet across alone combated the white fields and the black trees …. At six o'clock a man's figure carrying a lantern crossed the field …. A raft of twig stayed upon a stone, suddenly detached itself, and floated towards the culvert …. A load of snow slipped and fell from a fir branch …. Later there was a mournful cry …. A motor car came along the road shoving the dark before it …. The dark shut down behind it….

A window with a yellow tint, about two feet wide, stood out against the white fields and black trees. At six o'clock, a man carrying a lantern walked across the field. A bundle of twigs sat on a stone, suddenly broke free, and floated toward the culvert. A load of snow slid off a fir branch. Later, there was a sad cry. A car drove down the road, pushing the darkness in front of it. The dark closed in behind it.

Spaces of complete immobility separated each of these movements. The land seemed to lie dead …. Then the old shepherd returned stiffly across the field. Stiffly and painfully the frozen earth was trodden under and gave beneath pressure like a treadmill. The worn voices of clocks repeated the fact of the hour all night long.

Spaces of complete stillness separated each of these movements. The land seemed lifeless …. Then the old shepherd walked slowly back across the field. Slowly and with difficulty, the frozen ground was pressed down and gave way under pressure like a treadmill. The tired sounds of clocks repeated the time all night long.

Jacob, too, heard them, and raked out the fire. He rose. He stretched himself. He went to bed.

Jacob also heard them, and he poked the fire to put it out. He got up, stretched his body, and went to bed.

CHAPTER NINE

The Countess of Rocksbier sat at the head of the table alone with Jacob. Fed upon champagne and spices for at least two centuries (four, if you count the female line), the Countess Lucy looked well fed. A discriminating nose she had for scents, prolonged, as if in quest of them; her underlip protruded a narrow red shelf; her eyes were small, with sandy tufts for eyebrows, and her jowl was heavy. Behind her (the window looked on Grosvenor Square) stood Moll Pratt on the pavement, offering violets for sale; and Mrs. Hilda Thomas, lifting her skirts, preparing to cross the road. One was from Walworth; the other from Putney. Both wore black stockings, but Mrs. Thomas was coiled in furs. The comparison was much in Lady Rocksbier's favour. Moll had more humour, but was violent; stupid too. Hilda Thomas was mealy-mouthed, all her silver frames aslant; egg-cups in the drawing-room; and the windows shrouded. Lady Rocksbier, whatever the deficiencies of her profile, had been a great rider to hounds. She used her knife with authority, tore her chicken bones, asking Jacob's pardon, with her own hands.

The Countess of Rocksbier sat at the head of the table alone with Jacob. Fed on champagne and spices for at least two hundred years (four hundred, if you count the female line), Countess Lucy looked well-nourished. She had a keen nose for scents, almost as if she was searching for them; her underlip jutted out like a narrow red shelf; her eyes were small, with sandy tufts for eyebrows, and her jaw was heavy. Behind her (the window overlooked Grosvenor Square) stood Moll Pratt on the pavement, selling violets; and Mrs. Hilda Thomas, lifting her skirts, getting ready to cross the road. One was from Walworth; the other from Putney. Both wore black stockings, but Mrs. Thomas was wrapped in furs. The comparison favored Lady Rocksbier. Moll had more humor but was aggressive; foolish, too. Hilda Thomas was overly polite, all her silver frames askew; egg cups in the drawing room; and the windows covered. Lady Rocksbier, despite the flaws in her profile, had been an excellent rider to hounds. She used her knife confidently, tearing at her chicken bones, apologizing to Jacob while doing it herself.

"Who is that driving by?" she asked Boxall, the butler.

"Who’s that driving by?" she asked Boxall, the butler.

"Lady Firtlemere's carriage, my lady," which reminded her to send a card to ask after his lordship's health. A rude old lady, Jacob thought. The wine was excellent. She called herself "an old woman"—"so kind to lunch with an old woman"—which flattered him. She talked of Joseph Chamberlain, whom she had known. She said that Jacob must come and meet—one of our celebrities. And the Lady Alice came in with three dogs on a leash, and Jackie, who ran to kiss his grandmother, while Boxall brought in a telegram, and Jacob was given a good cigar.

"Lady Firtlemere's carriage, my lady," which reminded her to send a card to check on his lordship's health. A rude old lady, Jacob thought. The wine was fantastic. She referred to herself as "an old woman"—"so nice to have lunch with an old woman"—which flattered him. She spoke about Joseph Chamberlain, whom she had known. She insisted that Jacob must come and meet—one of our celebrities. Then Lady Alice came in with three dogs on leashes, and Jackie ran over to kiss his grandmother, while Boxall brought in a telegram, and Jacob was handed a good cigar.

A few moments before a horse jumps it slows, sidles, gathers itself together, goes up like a monster wave, and pitches down on the further side. Hedges and sky swoop in a semicircle. Then as if your own body ran into the horse's body and it was your own forelegs grown with his that sprang, rushing through the air you go, the ground resilient, bodies a mass of muscles, yet you have command too, upright stillness, eyes accurately judging. Then the curves cease, changing to downright hammer strokes, which jar; and you draw up with a jolt; sitting back a little, sparkling, tingling, glazed with ice over pounding arteries, gasping: "Ah! ho! Hah!" the steam going up from the horses as they jostle together at the cross-roads, where the signpost is, and the woman in the apron stands and stares at the doorway. The man raises himself from the cabbages to stare too.

A few moments before a horse jumps, it slows down, sidles, gathers itself together, rises like a massive wave, and then drops down on the other side. Hedges and sky swoop in a semicircle. Then, as if your own body collided with the horse's body and your forelegs merged with his, you spring through the air, the ground springy beneath you, bodies a mass of muscles, yet you maintain control, sitting upright, your eyes accurately judging the situation. Then the smooth curves turn into hard jolts that jar you; you pull back with a jolt, sitting back a bit, sparkling, tingling, and glazed with ice over pounding arteries, gasping: "Ah! ho! Hah!" The steam rises from the horses as they jostle together at the crossroads, where the signpost stands, and the woman in the apron watches and stares at the doorway. The man lifts himself from the cabbages to stare too.

So Jacob galloped over the fields of Essex, flopped in the mud, lost the hunt, and rode by himself eating sandwiches, looking over the hedges, noticing the colours as if new scraped, cursing his luck.

So Jacob rode fast across the fields of Essex, fell into the mud, lost the hunt, and rode alone eating sandwiches, gazing over the hedges, taking in the colors as if they were fresh, cursing his luck.

He had tea at the Inn; and there they all were, slapping, stamping, saying, "After you," clipped, curt, jocose, red as the wattles of turkeys, using free speech until Mrs. Horsefield and her friend Miss Dudding appeared at the doorway with their skirts hitched up, and hair looping down. Then Tom Dudding rapped at the window with his whip. A motor car throbbed in the courtyard. Gentlemen, feeling for matches, moved out, and Jacob went into the bar with Brandy Jones to smoke with the rustics. There was old Jevons with one eye gone, and his clothes the colour of mud, his bag over his back, and his brains laid feet down in earth among the violet roots and the nettle roots; Mary Sanders with her box of wood; and Tom sent for beer, the half-witted son of the sexton—all this within thirty miles of London.

He had tea at the Inn, and there they all were, joking, stomping around, saying, "After you," in a quick, sharp, playful manner, their faces as red as turkey wattles, chatting freely until Mrs. Horsefield and her friend Miss Dudding showed up at the doorway with their skirts lifted and hair cascading down. Then Tom Dudding tapped on the window with his whip. A car was humming in the courtyard. The gentlemen, searching for matches, stepped outside, and Jacob went into the bar with Brandy Jones to smoke with the locals. There was old Jevons with one eye missing, dressed in muddy-colored clothes, his bag slung over his back, his thoughts buried in the earth among the violet and nettle roots; Mary Sanders with her box of wood; and Tom ordered beer, the slow-witted son of the sexton—all of this happening just thirty miles from London.

Mrs. Papworth, of Endell Street, Covent Garden, did for Mr. Bonamy in New Square, Lincoln's Inn, and as she washed up the dinner things in the scullery she heard the young gentlemen talking in the room next door. Mr. Sanders was there again; Flanders she meant; and where an inquisitive old woman gets a name wrong, what chance is there that she will faithfully report an argument? As she held the plates under water and then dealt them on the pile beneath the hissing gas, she listened: heard Sanders speaking in a loud rather overbearing tone of voice: "good," he said, and "absolute" and "justice" and "punishment," and "the will of the majority." Then her gentleman piped up; she backed him for argument against Sanders. Yet Sanders was a fine young fellow (here all the scraps went swirling round the sink, scoured after by her purple, almost nailless hands). "Women"—she thought, and wondered what Sanders and her gentleman did in THAT line, one eyelid sinking perceptibly as she mused, for she was the mother of nine—three still-born and one deaf and dumb from birth. Putting the plates in the rack she heard once more Sanders at it again ("He don't give Bonamy a chance," she thought). "Objective something," said Bonamy; and "common ground" and something else—all very long words, she noted. "Book learning does it," she thought to herself, and, as she thrust her arms into her jacket, heard something—might be the little table by the fire—fall; and then stamp, stamp, stamp—as if they were having at each other—round the room, making the plates dance.

Mrs. Papworth, who lived on Endell Street in Covent Garden, worked for Mr. Bonamy in New Square, Lincoln's Inn. While she washed the dinner dishes in the scullery, she could hear the young men talking in the next room. Mr. Sanders was there again; she meant Flanders. When an inquisitive old woman gets a name wrong, what are the chances she’ll report an argument accurately? As she held the plates under water and stacked them on the pile beneath the hissing gas light, she listened: she heard Sanders speaking in a loud, somewhat overbearing tone: "good," he said, and then "absolute," "justice," "punishment," and "the will of the majority." Then her gentleman chimed in; she supported him in their argument against Sanders. Even so, Sanders was a fine young man (as all the scraps swirled down the sink, her nearly nailless purple hands scrubbed them away). "Women," she thought, wondering what Sanders and her gentleman were discussing in that context, one eyelid lowering slightly as she mused, since she was the mother of nine—three stillborn and one deaf and dumb from birth. As she placed the plates in the rack, she heard Sanders arguing again ("He doesn't give Bonamy a chance," she thought). "Objective something," Bonamy said; and "common ground" and something else—all very long words, she noted. "Book learning does it," she thought to herself, and as she slid her arms into her jacket, she heard something—maybe the little table by the fire—fall, followed by stamp, stamp, stamp—as if they were going at each other around the room, making the plates rattle.

"To-morrow's breakfast, sir," she said, opening the door; and there were Sanders and Bonamy like two bulls of Bashan driving each other up and down, making such a racket, and all them chairs in the way. They never noticed her. She felt motherly towards them. "Your breakfast, sir," she said, as they came near. And Bonamy, all his hair touzled and his tie flying, broke off, and pushed Sanders into the arm-chair, and said Mr. Sanders had smashed the coffee-pot and he was teaching Mr. Sanders—

"Tomorrow's breakfast, sir," she said, opening the door; and there were Sanders and Bonamy like two bulls charging at each other, making such a noise, with all those chairs in the way. They didn't even notice her. She felt a maternal instinct towards them. "Your breakfast, sir," she said, as they got closer. And Bonamy, with his hair all messy and his tie askew, interrupted, pushed Sanders into the armchair, and said Mr. Sanders had broken the coffee pot and he was teaching Mr. Sanders—

Sure enough, the coffee-pot lay broken on the hearthrug.

Sure enough, the coffee pot was broken on the rug.

"Any day this week except Thursday," wrote Miss Perry, and this was not the first invitation by any means. Were all Miss Perry's weeks blank with the exception of Thursday, and was her only desire to see her old friend's son? Time is issued to spinster ladies of wealth in long white ribbons. These they wind round and round, round and round, assisted by five female servants, a butler, a fine Mexican parrot, regular meals, Mudie's library, and friends dropping in. A little hurt she was already that Jacob had not called.

"Any day this week except Thursday," Miss Perry wrote, and this definitely wasn't her first invitation. Was every week of Miss Perry's just empty except for Thursday, and was her only wish to see her old friend's son? Time is given to wealthy single women in long white ribbons. They wrap it around and around, with help from five female servants, a butler, a fancy Mexican parrot, regular meals, Mudie's library, and friends stopping by. She was a little hurt already that Jacob hadn't called.

"Your mother," she said, "is one of my oldest friends."

"Your mom," she said, "is one of my oldest friends."

Miss Rosseter, who was sitting by the fire, holding the Spectator between her cheek and the blaze, refused to have a fire screen, but finally accepted one. The weather was then discussed, for in deference to Parkes, who was opening little tables, graver matters were postponed. Miss Rosseter drew Jacob's attention to the beauty of the cabinet.

Miss Rosseter, sitting by the fire with the Spectator pressed against her cheek and the heat, initially refused to use a fire screen but eventually agreed to it. They then talked about the weather, as they decided to put off more serious topics out of respect for Parkes, who was setting up small tables. Miss Rosseter pointed out the beauty of the cabinet to Jacob.

"So wonderfully clever in picking things up," she said. Miss Perry had found it in Yorkshire. The North of England was discussed. When Jacob spoke they both listened. Miss Perry was bethinking her of something suitable and manly to say when the door opened and Mr. Benson was announced. Now there were four people sitting in that room. Miss Perry aged 66; Miss Rosseter 42; Mr. Benson 38; and Jacob 25.

"So impressively smart at picking things up," she said. Miss Perry had discovered it in Yorkshire. They talked about the North of England. When Jacob spoke, they both listened. Miss Perry was thinking of something appropriate and masculine to say when the door opened and Mr. Benson was announced. Now there were four people sitting in that room: Miss Perry, 66; Miss Rosseter, 42; Mr. Benson, 38; and Jacob, 25.

"My old friend looks as well as ever," said Mr. Benson, tapping the bars of the parrot's cage; Miss Rosseter simultaneously praised the tea; Jacob handed the wrong plates; and Miss Perry signified her desire to approach more closely. "Your brothers," she began vaguely.

"My old friend looks as good as ever," said Mr. Benson, tapping the bars of the parrot's cage; Miss Rosseter was also praising the tea at the same time; Jacob handed over the wrong plates; and Miss Perry showed she wanted to come closer. "Your brothers," she started off vaguely.

"Archer and John," Jacob supplied her. Then to her pleasure she recovered Rebecca's name; and how one day "when you were all little boys, playing in the drawing-room—"

"Archer and John," Jacob told her. Then, to her delight, she remembered Rebecca's name; and how one day "when you were all little boys, playing in the living room—"

"But Miss Perry has the kettle-holder," said Miss Rosseter, and indeed Miss Perry was clasping it to her breast. (Had she, then, loved Jacob's father?)

"But Miss Perry has the kettle holder," said Miss Rosseter, and indeed Miss Perry was holding it to her chest. (Had she, then, loved Jacob's father?)

"So clever"—"not so good as usual"—"I thought it most unfair," said Mr. Benson and Miss Rosseter, discussing the Saturday Westminster. Did they not compete regularly for prizes? Had not Mr. Benson three times won a guinea, and Miss Rosseter once ten and sixpence? Of course Everard Benson had a weak heart, but still, to win prizes, remember parrots, toady Miss Perry, despise Miss Rosseter, give tea-parties in his rooms (which were in the style of Whistler, with pretty books on tables), all this, so Jacob felt without knowing him, made him a contemptible ass. As for Miss Rosseter, she had nursed cancer, and now painted water-colours.

"So clever"—"not as good as usual"—"I thought it was really unfair," said Mr. Benson and Miss Rosseter, discussing the Saturday Westminster. Didn’t they regularly compete for prizes? Hadn’t Mr. Benson won a guinea three times, and Miss Rosseter once won ten and sixpence? Sure, Everard Benson had a weak heart, but still, to win prizes, remember parrots, flatter Miss Perry, look down on Miss Rosseter, host tea parties in his rooms (which were done in Whistler's style, with beautiful books on tables), all this, Jacob felt without knowing him, made him a contemptible jerk. As for Miss Rosseter, she had cared for cancer patients and now painted watercolors.

"Running away so soon?" said Miss Perry vaguely. "At home every afternoon, if you've nothing better to do—except Thursdays."

"Leaving so soon?" Miss Perry asked, sounding a bit vague. "You're at home every afternoon if you don't have anything better going on—except for Thursdays."

"I've never known you desert your old ladies once," Miss Rosseter was saying, and Mr. Benson was stooping over the parrot's cage, and Miss Perry was moving towards the bell….

"I've never seen you abandon your old ladies before," Miss Rosseter was saying, and Mr. Benson was leaning over the parrot's cage, and Miss Perry was walking toward the bell….

The fire burnt clear between two pillars of greenish marble, and on the mantelpiece there was a green clock guarded by Britannia leaning on her spear. As for pictures—a maiden in a large hat offered roses over the garden gate to a gentleman in eighteenth-century costume. A mastiff lay extended against a battered door. The lower panes of the windows were of ground glass, and the curtains, accurately looped, were of plush and green too.

The fire burned brightly between two columns of green marble, and on the mantelpiece sat a green clock, watched over by Britannia leaning on her spear. As for the artwork—a young woman in a big hat was offering roses over the garden gate to a man dressed in 18th-century clothing. A mastiff lay sprawled against a worn door. The lower window panes were made of frosted glass, and the curtains, perfectly looped, were also plush and green.

Laurette and Jacob sat with their toes in the fender side by side, in two large chairs covered in green plush. Laurette's skirts were short, her legs long, thin, and transparently covered. Her fingers stroked her ankles.

Laurette and Jacob sat with their feet resting on the fender next to each other, in two big chairs upholstered in green velvet. Laurette's skirt was short, her legs long, slim, and slightly see-through. Her fingers ran over her ankles.

"It's not exactly that I don't understand them," she was saying thoughtfully. "I must go and try again."

"It's not that I don't get them," she said thoughtfully. "I need to go and try again."

"What time will you be there?" said Jacob.

"What time will you be there?" Jacob asked.

She shrugged her shoulders.

She shrugged.

"To-morrow?"

"Tomorrow?"

No, not to-morrow.

No, not tomorrow.

"This weather makes me long for the country," she said, looking over her shoulder at the back view of tall houses through the window.

"This weather makes me yearn for the countryside," she said, glancing back at the tall houses outside the window.

"I wish you'd been with me on Saturday," said Jacob.

"I wish you had been with me on Saturday," Jacob said.

"I used to ride," she said. She got up gracefully, calmly. Jacob got up. She smiled at him. As she shut the door he put so many shillings on the mantelpiece.

"I used to ride," she said. She stood up gracefully, calmly. Jacob stood up too. She smiled at him. As she closed the door, he placed several shillings on the mantelpiece.

Altogether a most reasonable conversation; a most respectable room; an intelligent girl. Only Madame herself seeing Jacob out had about her that leer, that lewdness, that quake of the surface (visible in the eyes chiefly), which threatens to spill the whole bag of ordure, with difficulty held together, over the pavement. In short, something was wrong.

Altogether a very reasonable conversation; a very respectable room; an intelligent girl. Only Madame herself, while seeing Jacob out, had that suggestive look, that inappropriate vibe, that nervousness in her eyes, which seems ready to spill everything she's trying to keep contained all over the pavement. In short, something was off.

Not so very long ago the workmen had gilt the final "y" in Lord Macaulay's name, and the names stretched in unbroken file round the dome of the British Museum. At a considerable depth beneath, many hundreds of the living sat at the spokes of a cart-wheel copying from printed books into manuscript books; now and then rising to consult the catalogue; regaining their places stealthily, while from time to time a silent man replenished their compartments.

Not too long ago, the workers had gold-leafed the last "y" in Lord Macaulay's name, and the names stretched in an unbroken line around the dome of the British Museum. Far below, many hundreds of people sat at the spokes of a cartwheel, copying from printed books into manuscript books; occasionally getting up to check the catalog; returning to their spots quietly, while now and then a silent man refilled their compartments.

There was a little catastrophe. Miss Marchmont's pile overbalanced and fell into Jacob's compartment. Such things happened to Miss Marchmont. What was she seeking through millions of pages, in her old plush dress, and her wig of claret-coloured hair, with her gems and her chilblains? Sometimes one thing, sometimes another, to confirm her philosophy that colour is sound—or, perhaps, it has something to do with music. She could never quite say, though it was not for lack of trying. And she could not ask you back to her room, for it was "not very clean, I'm afraid," so she must catch you in the passage, or take a chair in Hyde Park to explain her philosophy. The rhythm of the soul depends on it—("how rude the little boys are!" she would say), and Mr. Asquith's Irish policy, and Shakespeare comes in, "and Queen Alexandra most graciously once acknowledged a copy of my pamphlet," she would say, waving the little boys magnificently away. But she needs funds to publish her book, for "publishers are capitalists—publishers are cowards." And so, digging her elbow into her pile of books it fell over.

There was a small disaster. Miss Marchmont's stack toppled and crashed into Jacob's section. This kind of thing happened to Miss Marchmont. What was she searching for among millions of pages, in her old velvet dress and her wig of burgundy hair, adorned with her jewelry and suffering from chilblains? Sometimes it was one idea, sometimes another, to prove her belief that color is sound—or maybe it has something to do with music. She could never fully articulate it, even though she tried hard. And she couldn't invite you back to her room because it was "not very clean, I'm afraid," so she had to catch you in the hallway or grab a chair in Hyde Park to share her philosophy. The rhythm of the soul depends on it—("how rude the little boys are!" she would exclaim), along with Mr. Asquith's Irish policy, and then Shakespeare makes an appearance, "and Queen Alexandra graciously once acknowledged a copy of my pamphlet," she'd say, dismissing the little boys with a grand wave. But she needed money to publish her book because "publishers are capitalists—publishers are cowards." And so, while digging her elbow into her stack of books, it tumbled over.

Jacob remained quite unmoved.

Jacob stayed completely unfazed.

But Fraser, the atheist, on the other side, detesting plush, more than once accosted with leaflets, shifted irritably. He abhorred vagueness—the Christian religion, for example, and old Dean Parker's pronouncements. Dean Parker wrote books and Fraser utterly destroyed them by force of logic and left his children unbaptized—his wife did it secretly in the washing basin—but Fraser ignored her, and went on supporting blasphemers, distributing leaflets, getting up his facts in the British Museum, always in the same check suit and fiery tie, but pale, spotted, irritable. Indeed, what a work—to destroy religion!

But Fraser, the atheist, on the other side, who hated anything plush, fidgeted as he was repeatedly approached with leaflets. He couldn’t stand ambiguity—the Christian faith, for instance, and old Dean Parker’s statements. Dean Parker authored books, and Fraser completely dismantled them with his logic, leaving his kids unbaptized—his wife secretly did it in the washing basin—but Fraser neglected that and continued to support blasphemers, handing out leaflets, gathering his facts at the British Museum, always in the same checked suit and bright tie, but looking pale, stained, and irritable. Indeed, what a task—to dismantle religion!

Jacob transcribed a whole passage from Marlowe.

Jacob wrote down an entire passage from Marlowe.

Miss Julia Hedge, the feminist, waited for her books. They did not come. She wetted her pen. She looked about her. Her eye was caught by the final letters in Lord Macaulay's name. And she read them all round the dome—the names of great men which remind us—"Oh damn," said Julia Hedge, "why didn't they leave room for an Eliot or a Bronte?"

Miss Julia Hedge, the feminist, waited for her books. They didn’t arrive. She wet her pen. She looked around. Her eye was drawn to the last letters in Lord Macaulay’s name. And she read them all around the dome—the names of great men that remind us—“Oh damn,” said Julia Hedge, “why didn’t they leave room for an Eliot or a Bronte?”

Unfortunate Julia! wetting her pen in bitterness, and leaving her shoe laces untied. When her books came she applied herself to her gigantic labours, but perceived through one of the nerves of her exasperated sensibility how composedly, unconcernedly, and with every consideration the male readers applied themselves to theirs. That young man for example. What had he got to do except copy out poetry? And she must study statistics. There are more women than men. Yes; but if you let women work as men work, they'll die off much quicker. They'll become extinct. That was her argument. Death and gall and bitter dust were on her pen-tip; and as the afternoon wore on, red had worked into her cheek-bones and a light was in her eyes.

Unfortunate Julia! Wetting her pen with bitterness and leaving her shoelaces untied. When her books arrived, she threw herself into her huge tasks but noticed, through one of the nerves of her frayed sensibility, how easily and casually the male readers focused on theirs. Take that young man, for example. What did he have to do except copy out poetry? Meanwhile, she had to study statistics. There are more women than men. Yes, but if you let women work like men do, they'll wear out much faster. They'll become extinct. That was her argument. Death and bitterness were on her pen tip, and as the afternoon went on, a flush crept into her cheeks, and a light sparkled in her eyes.

But what brought Jacob Flanders to read Marlowe in the British Museum? Youth, youth—something savage—something pedantic. For example, there is Mr. Masefield, there is Mr. Bennett. Stuff them into the flame of Marlowe and burn them to cinders. Let not a shred remain. Don't palter with the second rate. Detest your own age. Build a better one. And to set that on foot read incredibly dull essays upon Marlowe to your friends. For which purpose one most collate editions in the British Museum. One must do the thing oneself. Useless to trust to the Victorians, who disembowel, or to the living, who are mere publicists. The flesh and blood of the future depends entirely upon six young men. And as Jacob was one of them, no doubt he looked a little regal and pompous as he turned his page, and Julia Hedge disliked him naturally enough.

But what made Jacob Flanders read Marlowe at the British Museum? Youth, youth—something wild—something scholarly. For instance, there's Mr. Masefield, there's Mr. Bennett. Throw them into the fire of Marlowe and reduce them to ashes. Don’t mess around with the second-rate. Hate your own time. Create a better one. And to get started, read incredibly boring essays about Marlowe to your friends. For that, you need to gather editions at the British Museum. You have to do it yourself. It’s pointless to rely on the Victorians, who distort everything, or on the living, who are just publicists. The future's potential hinges on six young men. And since Jacob was one of them, he probably looked a bit regal and pompous as he turned his page, which naturally made Julia Hedge dislike him.

But then a pudding-faced man pushed a note towards Jacob, and Jacob, leaning back in his chair, began an uneasy murmured conversation, and they went off together (Julia Hedge watched them), and laughed aloud (she thought) directly they were in the hall.

But then a pudgy-faced man slid a note over to Jacob, and Jacob, leaning back in his chair, started a quiet, awkward conversation. They left together (Julia Hedge observed them), and she thought they laughed out loud as soon as they got into the hallway.

Nobody laughed in the reading-room. There were shirtings, murmurings, apologetic sneezes, and sudden unashamed devastating coughs. The lesson hour was almost over. Ushers were collecting exercises. Lazy children wanted to stretch. Good ones scribbled assiduously—ah, another day over and so little done! And now and then was to be heard from the whole collection of human beings a heavy sigh, after which the humiliating old man would cough shamelessly, and Miss Marchmont hinnied like a horse.

Nobody laughed in the reading room. There were whispers, murmurs, apologetic sneezes, and sudden, loud coughs. The lesson hour was almost over. Ushers were collecting assignments. Tired kids wanted to stretch. The diligent ones scribbled away—ah, another day gone and so little accomplished! Every now and then, the group of people would let out a heavy sigh, after which the embarrassing old man would cough loudly, and Miss Marchmont would let out a sound like a horse.

Jacob came back only in time to return his books.

Jacob returned just in time to hand in his books.

The books were now replaced. A few letters of the alphabet were sprinkled round the dome. Closely stood together in a ring round the dome were Plato, Aristotle, Sophocles, and Shakespeare; the literature of Rome, Greece, China, India, Persia. One leaf of poetry was pressed flat against another leaf, one burnished letter laid smooth against another in a density of meaning, a conglomeration of loveliness.

The books were now replaced. A few letters of the alphabet were scattered around the dome. Standing closely together in a circle around the dome were Plato, Aristotle, Sophocles, and Shakespeare; the literature of Rome, Greece, China, India, and Persia. One page of poetry was pressed flat against another page, one shiny letter smoothly touching another in a depth of meaning, a mixture of beauty.

"One does want one's tea," said Miss Marchmont, reclaiming her shabby umbrella.

"One does want one's tea," said Miss Marchmont, taking back her worn umbrella.

Miss Marchmont wanted her tea, but could never resist a last look at the Elgin Marbles. She looked at them sideways, waving her hand and muttering a word or two of salutation which made Jacob and the other man turn round. She smiled at them amiably. It all came into her philosophy—that colour is sound, or perhaps it has something to do with music. And having done her service, she hobbled off to tea. It was closing time. The public collected in the hall to receive their umbrellas.

Miss Marchmont wanted her tea, but she couldn't pass up one last look at the Elgin Marbles. She glanced at them sideways, waving her hand and mumbling a greeting that made Jacob and the other man turn around. She smiled at them kindly. Everything fit into her philosophy—that color is sound, or maybe it has something to do with music. After fulfilling her duty, she hobbled off to tea. It was closing time. The crowd gathered in the hall to collect their umbrellas.

For the most part the students wait their turn very patiently. To stand and wait while some one examines white discs is soothing. The umbrella will certainly be found. But the fact leads you on all day through Macaulay, Hobbes, Gibbon; through octavos, quartos, folios; sinks deeper and deeper through ivory pages and morocco bindings into this density of thought, this conglomeration of knowledge.

For the most part, the students wait their turn quite patiently. Standing by while someone looks at white discs is calming. The umbrella will definitely be found. But this thought carries you all day through Macaulay, Hobbes, Gibbon; through octavos, quartos, folios; it sinks deeper and deeper through ivory pages and leather bindings into this density of thought, this mix of knowledge.

Jacob's walking-stick was like all the others; they had muddled the pigeon-holes perhaps.

Jacob's walking stick was just like all the others; they probably mixed up the pigeonholes.

There is in the British Museum an enormous mind. Consider that Plato is there cheek by jowl with Aristotle; and Shakespeare with Marlowe. This great mind is hoarded beyond the power of any single mind to possess it. Nevertheless (as they take so long finding one's walking-stick) one can't help thinking how one might come with a notebook, sit at a desk, and read it all through. A learned man is the most venerable of all—a man like Huxtable of Trinity, who writes all his letters in Greek, they say, and could have kept his end up with Bentley. And then there is science, pictures, architecture,—an enormous mind.

There is an incredible wealth of knowledge in the British Museum. Just think about how Plato sits right next to Aristotle, and Shakespeare is alongside Marlowe. This vast intellect is too enormous for any one person to fully grasp. Still, as they take so long to find my walking stick, I can’t help but imagine how great it would be to come in with a notebook, sit down at a desk, and read everything cover to cover. A learned person is the most respected of all—someone like Huxtable from Trinity, who supposedly writes all his letters in Greek and could easily hold his own against Bentley. And then there’s science, art, architecture—such an incredible depth of knowledge.

They pushed the walking-stick across the counter. Jacob stood beneath the porch of the British Museum. It was raining. Great Russell Street was glazed and shining—here yellow, here, outside the chemist's, red and pale blue. People scuttled quickly close to the wall; carriages rattled rather helter-skelter down the streets. Well, but a little rain hurts nobody. Jacob walked off much as if he had been in the country; and late that night there he was sitting at his table with his pipe and his book.

They slid the walking stick across the counter. Jacob stood under the porch of the British Museum. It was raining. Great Russell Street was slick and shiny—some parts yellow, others outside the pharmacy, red and light blue. People hurried closely along the wall; carriages clattered haphazardly down the streets. Well, a little rain doesn't hurt anyone. Jacob strolled away as if he were in the countryside; and later that night, there he was, sitting at his table with his pipe and his book.

The rain poured down. The British Museum stood in one solid immense mound, very pale, very sleek in the rain, not a quarter of a mile from him. The vast mind was sheeted with stone; and each compartment in the depths of it was safe and dry. The night-watchmen, flashing their lanterns over the backs of Plato and Shakespeare, saw that on the twenty-second of February neither flame, rat, nor burglar was going to violate these treasures—poor, highly respectable men, with wives and families at Kentish Town, do their best for twenty years to protect Plato and Shakespeare, and then are buried at Highgate.

The rain was coming down hard. The British Museum loomed as a massive, sleek structure, looking pale and polished in the rain, just under a quarter of a mile away from him. The grand intellect within was encased in stone, and every section deep inside was safe and dry. The night-watchmen, shining their flashlights over the backs of Plato and Shakespeare, knew that on February 22nd, neither fire, rats, nor thieves would disturb these treasures—poor, respectable guys, with wives and kids in Kentish Town, doing their best for twenty years to safeguard Plato and Shakespeare, only to be laid to rest at Highgate.

Stone lies solid over the British Museum, as bone lies cool over the visions and heat of the brain. Only here the brain is Plato's brain and Shakespeare's; the brain has made pots and statues, great bulls and little jewels, and crossed the river of death this way and that incessantly, seeking some landing, now wrapping the body well for its long sleep; now laying a penny piece on the eyes; now turning the toes scrupulously to the East. Meanwhile, Plato continues his dialogue; in spite of the rain; in spite of the cab whistles; in spite of the woman in the mews behind Great Ormond Street who has come home drunk and cries all night long, "Let me in! Let me in!"

Stone rests firmly over the British Museum, just as bone lies coolly over the thoughts and warmth of the brain. Here, the brain belongs to Plato and Shakespeare; it has created pots and statues, majestic bulls and tiny jewels, and has crossed the river of death back and forth endlessly, searching for a place to settle, sometimes wrapping the body snugly for its long sleep; at times placing a penny on the eyes; and occasionally adjusting the toes carefully to face the East. Meanwhile, Plato keeps his dialogue going; despite the rain; despite the cab horns; despite the woman in the mews behind Great Ormond Street who has come home drunk and cries all night long, "Let me in! Let me in!"

In the street below Jacob's room voices were raised.

In the street below Jacob's room, people were shouting.

But he read on. For after all Plato continues imperturbably. And Hamlet utters his soliloquy. And there the Elgin Marbles lie, all night long, old Jones's lantern sometimes recalling Ulysses, or a horse's head; or sometimes a flash of gold, or a mummy's sunk yellow cheek. Plato and Shakespeare continue; and Jacob, who was reading the Phaedrus, heard people vociferating round the lamp-post, and the woman battering at the door and crying, "Let me in!" as if a coal had dropped from the fire, or a fly, falling from the ceiling, had lain on its back, too weak to turn over.

But he kept reading. After all, Plato remains unshaken. And Hamlet delivers his famous speech. Meanwhile, the Elgin Marbles stay there all night, with old Jones's lantern sometimes hinting at Ulysses or a horse's head; or maybe a flash of gold or a mummy’s faded yellow cheek. Plato and Shakespeare carry on; and Jacob, who was reading the Phaedrus, heard people shouting around the lamp-post, and the woman banging on the door and yelling, "Let me in!" as if a coal had fallen from the fire, or a fly had dropped from the ceiling and lay on its back, too weak to flip over.

The Phaedrus is very difficult. And so, when at length one reads straight ahead, falling into step, marching on, becoming (so it seems) momentarily part of this rolling, imperturbable energy, which has driven darkness before it since Plato walked the Acropolis, it is impossible to see to the fire.

The Phaedrus is really challenging. So, when you finally just dive in, keep going, and feel for a moment like you're part of this unstoppable force that has been pushing back against darkness since Plato roamed the Acropolis, it's hard to see the light.

The dialogue draws to its close. Plato's argument is done. Plato's argument is stowed away in Jacob's mind, and for five minutes Jacob's mind continues alone, onwards, into the darkness. Then, getting up, he parted the curtains, and saw, with astonishing clearness, how the Springetts opposite had gone to bed; how it rained; how the Jews and the foreign woman, at the end of the street, stood by the pillar-box, arguing.

The conversation comes to an end. Plato's argument is finished. It's tucked away in Jacob's mind, and for five minutes, his mind goes on alone, into the darkness. Then, getting up, he pushed aside the curtains and saw, with surprising clarity, how the Springetts across the street had gone to bed; how it was raining; how the Jews and the foreign woman at the end of the street stood by the mailbox, arguing.

Every time the door opened and fresh people came in, those already in the room shifted slightly; those who were standing looked over their shoulders; those who were sitting stopped in the middle of sentences. What with the light, the wine, the strumming of a guitar, something exciting happened each time the door opened. Who was coming in?

Every time the door opened and new people entered, those already in the room shifted a bit; those who were standing glanced over their shoulders; those who were sitting paused mid-sentence. With the light, the wine, and the sound of a guitar, something exciting occurred each time the door opened. Who was coming in?

"That's Gibson."

"That’s Gibson."

"The painter?"

"The artist?"

"But go on with what you were saying."

"But continue with what you were saying."

They were saying something that was far, far too intimate to be said outright. But the noise of the voices served like a clapper in little Mrs. Withers's mind, scaring into the air blocks of small birds, and then they'd settle, and then she'd feel afraid, put one hand to her hair, bind both round her knees, and look up at Oliver Skelton nervously, and say:

They were talking about something way too personal to say out loud. But the sound of their voices echoed in Mrs. Withers's mind like a clapper, sending flocks of small birds into the air, and then they would land. That made her anxious, so she'd put one hand in her hair, wrap both arms around her knees, look up at Oliver Skelton nervously, and say:

"Promise, PROMISE, you'll tell no one." … so considerate he was, so tender. It was her husband's character that she discussed. He was cold, she said.

"Promise, PROMISE, you won't tell anyone." … he was so thoughtful, so gentle. She was talking about her husband’s character. She said he was distant.

Down upon them came the splendid Magdalen, brown, warm, voluminous, scarcely brushing the grass with her sandalled feet. Her hair flew; pins seemed scarcely to attach the flying silks. An actress of course, a line of light perpetually beneath her. It was only "My dear" that she said, but her voice went jodelling between Alpine passes. And down she tumbled on the floor, and sang, since there was nothing to be said, round ah's and oh's. Mangin, the poet, coming up to her, stood looking down at her, drawing at his pipe. The dancing began.

Down came the amazing Magdalen, warm and full-figured, barely grazing the grass with her sandal-clad feet. Her hair flew wildly; it seemed like her pins could barely hold back the flowing fabric. Clearly an actress, she had a constant glow about her. All she said was "My dear," but her voice echoed beautifully across the mountains. Then she collapsed onto the floor and began to sing, as there was nothing else to say, with round ah's and oh's. Mangin, the poet, approached her and stood looking down, puffing on his pipe. The dancing began.

Grey-haired Mrs. Keymer asked Dick Graves to tell her who Mangin was, and said that she had seen too much of this sort of thing in Paris (Magdalen had got upon his knees; now his pipe was in her mouth) to be shocked. "Who is that?" she said, staying her glasses when they came to Jacob, for indeed he looked quiet, not indifferent, but like some one on a beach, watching.

Grey-haired Mrs. Keymer asked Dick Graves to tell her who Mangin was and said that she had seen too much of this kind of thing in Paris (Magdalen had gotten down on his knees; now his pipe was in her mouth) to be shocked. "Who is that?" she said, pausing her glasses when they reached Jacob, for he really looked calm, not indifferent, but like someone on a beach, watching.

"Oh, my dear, let me lean on you," gasped Helen Askew, hopping on one foot, for the silver cord round her ankle had worked loose. Mrs. Keymer turned and looked at the picture on the wall.

"Oh, my dear, let me lean on you," gasped Helen Askew, hopping on one foot, as the silver cord around her ankle had come undone. Mrs. Keymer turned and looked at the picture on the wall.

"Look at Jacob," said Helen (they were binding his eyes for some game).

"Look at Jacob," Helen said (they were covering his eyes for some game).

And Dick Graves, being a little drunk, very faithful, and very simple-minded, told her that he thought Jacob the greatest man he had ever known. And down they sat cross-legged upon cushions and talked about Jacob, and Helen's voice trembled, for they both seemed heroes to her, and the friendship between them so much more beautiful than women's friendships. Anthony Pollett now asked her to dance, and as she danced she looked at them, over her shoulder, standing at the table, drinking together.

And Dick Graves, feeling a bit tipsy, very loyal, and quite simple-minded, told her that he thought Jacob was the greatest guy he had ever known. They both sat down cross-legged on cushions and talked about Jacob, and Helen's voice quivered, because they both seemed like heroes to her, and their friendship felt so much more beautiful than the friendships women have. Anthony Pollett then asked her to dance, and as she danced, she glanced back at them, standing by the table, drinking together.

The magnificent world—the live, sane, vigorous world …. These words refer to the stretch of wood pavement between Hammersmith and Holborn in January between two and three in the morning. That was the ground beneath Jacob's feet. It was healthy and magnificent because one room, above a mews, somewhere near the river, contained fifty excited, talkative, friendly people. And then to stride over the pavement (there was scarcely a cab or policeman in sight) is of itself exhilarating. The long loop of Piccadilly, diamond-stitched, shows to best advantage when it is empty. A young man has nothing to fear. On the contrary, though he may not have said anything brilliant, he feels pretty confident he can hold his own. He was pleased to have met Mangin; he admired the young woman on the floor; he liked them all; he liked that sort of thing. In short, all the drums and trumpets were sounding. The street scavengers were the only people about at the moment. It is scarcely necessary to say how well-disposed Jacob felt towards them; how it pleased him to let himself in with his latch-key at his own door; how he seemed to bring back with him into the empty room ten or eleven people whom he had not known when he set out; how he looked about for something to read, and found it, and never read it, and fell asleep.

The amazing world—the lively, sane, vibrant world... These words describe the stretch of wooden pavement between Hammersmith and Holborn in January, between two and three in the morning. That was the ground beneath Jacob's feet. It felt healthy and magnificent because one room, above a mews, somewhere near the river, held fifty excited, chatty, friendly people. Striding across the pavement (with hardly a cab or policeman in sight) was exhilarating in itself. The long stretch of Piccadilly, diamond-stitched, looks its best when it’s empty. A young man has nothing to fear. In fact, even if he hasn't said anything brilliant, he feels pretty confident he can hold his own. He was happy to have met Mangin; he admired the young woman on the floor; he liked them all; he enjoyed that vibe. In short, it felt like all the sounds of celebration were ringing out. The street cleaners were the only ones around at that moment. It goes without saying how positively Jacob felt towards them; how pleased he was to let himself in with his latch-key at his own door; how he seemed to bring back with him into the empty room ten or eleven people he hadn’t known when he left; how he looked for something to read, found it, never read it, and then fell asleep.

Indeed, drums and trumpets is no phrase. Indeed, Piccadilly and Holborn, and the empty sitting-room and the sitting-room with fifty people in it are liable at any moment to blow music into the air. Women perhaps are more excitable than men. It is seldom that any one says anything about it, and to see the hordes crossing Waterloo Bridge to catch the non-stop to Surbiton one might think that reason impelled them. No, no. It is the drums and trumpets. Only, should you turn aside into one of those little bays on Waterloo Bridge to think the matter over, it will probably seem to you all a muddle—all a mystery.

Sure, here’s the modernized text: Indeed, “drums and trumpets” isn’t just a saying. Piccadilly and Holborn, along with the empty living room and the one filled with fifty people, could at any moment fill the air with music. Women, perhaps, are more easily excited than men. It's rare for anyone to mention it, and when you see crowds crossing Waterloo Bridge to catch the non-stop train to Surbiton, you might think they’re driven by reason. No, no. It’s the drums and trumpets. Yet, if you take a moment to step into one of those little alcoves on Waterloo Bridge to reflect on it all, it will likely feel confusing—like a mystery.

They cross the Bridge incessantly. Sometimes in the midst of carts and omnibuses a lorry will appear with great forest trees chained to it. Then, perhaps, a mason's van with newly lettered tombstones recording how some one loved some one who is buried at Putney. Then the motor car in front jerks forward, and the tombstones pass too quick for you to read more. All the time the stream of people never ceases passing from the Surrey side to the Strand; from the Strand to the Surrey side. It seems as if the poor had gone raiding the town, and now trapesed back to their own quarters, like beetles scurrying to their holes, for that old woman fairly hobbles towards Waterloo, grasping a shiny bag, as if she had been out into the light and now made off with some scraped chicken bones to her hovel underground. On the other hand, though the wind is rough and blowing in their faces, those girls there, striding hand in hand, shouting out a song, seem to feel neither cold nor shame. They are hatless. They triumph.

They keep crossing the Bridge nonstop. Sometimes, among the carts and buses, a truck appears with big forest trees chained to it. Then, maybe a mason's van rolls by with freshly engraved tombstones showing how someone loved someone who is buried in Putney. Suddenly, the car in front lurches forward, and the tombstones move past too quickly for you to read any more. All the while, the flow of people keeps moving from the Surrey side to the Strand and back again. It seems like the poor have raided the city and are now trudging back to their own neighborhoods, like beetles rushing to their burrows, as that old woman hobbles towards Waterloo, clutching a shiny bag, as if she has just been out in the light and is now scurrying off with some leftover chicken bones to her hovel underground. On the other hand, even though the wind is rough and blowing against them, those girls over there, walking hand in hand and singing loudly, seem to feel neither cold nor embarrassment. They don’t have hats on. They are victorious.

The wind has blown up the waves. The river races beneath us, and the men standing on the barges have to lean all their weight on the tiller. A black tarpaulin is tied down over a swelling load of gold. Avalanches of coal glitter blackly. As usual, painters are slung on planks across the great riverside hotels, and the hotel windows have already points of light in them. On the other side the city is white as if with age; St. Paul's swells white above the fretted, pointed, or oblong buildings beside it. The cross alone shines rosy-gilt. But what century have we reached? Has this procession from the Surrey side to the Strand gone on for ever? That old man has been crossing the Bridge these six hundred years, with the rabble of little boys at his heels, for he is drunk, or blind with misery, and tied round with old clouts of clothing such as pilgrims might have worn. He shuffles on. No one stands still. It seems as if we marched to the sound of music; perhaps the wind and the river; perhaps these same drums and trumpets—the ecstasy and hubbub of the soul. Why, even the unhappy laugh, and the policeman, far from judging the drunk man, surveys him humorously, and the little boys scamper back again, and the clerk from Somerset House has nothing but tolerance for him, and the man who is reading half a page of Lothair at the bookstall muses charitably, with his eyes off the print, and the girl hesitates at the crossing and turns on him the bright yet vague glance of the young.

The wind has kicked up the waves. The river races beneath us, and the men standing on the barges have to lean all their weight on the tiller. A black tarp is secured over a heavy load of gold. Avalanches of coal glisten darkly. As usual, painters are suspended on planks across the grand riverside hotels, and the hotel windows already have points of light shining in them. On the other side, the city looks aged and white; St. Paul's rises bright above the intricate, pointed, or rectangular buildings around it. Only the cross shines with a rosy-gold hue. But what century are we in? Has this procession from the Surrey side to the Strand been going on forever? That old man has been crossing the Bridge for six hundred years, with a bunch of little boys trailing behind him, as he is either drunk or blind with misery, wrapped in ragged old clothing like what pilgrims might have worn. He shuffles on. No one stands still. It feels like we’re marching to the sound of music; maybe it’s the wind and the river; perhaps it’s those same drums and trumpets—the joy and chaos of the soul. Even the unhappy laugh, and the policeman, far from judging the drunk man, looks at him with amusement, while the little boys scamper back again, and the clerk from Somerset House shows nothing but understanding towards him. The man reading half a page of Lothair at the bookstall thinks kindly, eyes off the print, and the girl hesitates at the crossing, giving him a bright yet vague look typical of youth.

Bright yet vague. She is perhaps twenty-two. She is shabby. She crosses the road and looks at the daffodils and the red tulips in the florist's window. She hesitates, and makes off in the direction of Temple Bar. She walks fast, and yet anything distracts her. Now she seems to see, and now to notice nothing.

Bright yet unclear. She’s probably about twenty-two. She looks a bit scruffy. She crosses the street and glances at the daffodils and red tulips in the florist's window. She pauses and then heads towards Temple Bar. She walks quickly, but she gets distracted by anything. Sometimes she appears to see things, and other times she notices nothing at all.

CHAPTER TEN

Through the disused graveyard in the parish of St. Pancras, Fanny Elmer strayed between the white tombs which lean against the wall, crossing the grass to read a name, hurrying on when the grave-keeper approached, hurrying into the street, pausing now by a window with blue china, now quickly making up for lost time, abruptly entering a baker's shop, buying rolls, adding cakes, going on again so that any one wishing to follow must fairly trot. She was not drably shabby, though. She wore silk stockings, and silver-buckled shoes, only the red feather in her hat drooped, and the clasp of her bag was weak, for out fell a copy of Madame Tussaud's programme as she walked. She had the ankles of a stag. Her face was hidden. Of course, in this dusk, rapid movements, quick glances, and soaring hopes come naturally enough. She passed right beneath Jacob's window.

Through the abandoned graveyard in St. Pancras parish, Fanny Elmer wandered among the white tombstones leaning against the wall, crossing the grass to read a name, hastily moving on when the grave-keeper approached, rushing into the street, pausing briefly by a window displaying blue china, then quickly making up for lost time, suddenly stepping into a bakery, buying rolls, adding some cakes, then continuing on so that anyone trying to follow would have to jog to keep up. She wasn’t drably shabby, though. She wore silk stockings and silver-buckled shoes, only the red feather in her hat drooped, and the clasp of her bag was weak, causing a copy of Madame Tussaud's program to fall out as she walked. She had the ankles of a stag. Her face was hidden. Naturally, in this twilight, quick movements, fleeting glances, and soaring hopes come easily. She passed right beneath Jacob's window.

The house was flat, dark, and silent. Jacob was at home engaged upon a chess problem, the board being on a stool between his knees. One hand was fingering the hair at the back of his head. He slowly brought it forward and raised the white queen from her square; then put her down again on the same spot. He filled his pipe; ruminated; moved two pawns; advanced the white knight; then ruminated with one finger upon the bishop. Now Fanny Elmer passed beneath the window.

The house was flat, dark, and quiet. Jacob was at home working on a chess problem, the board set up on a stool between his knees. One hand was running through the hair at the back of his head. He slowly brought it forward and lifted the white queen from her square; then put her back down in the same spot. He filled his pipe, thought for a moment, moved two pawns, advanced the white knight, then pondered with one finger on the bishop. Just then, Fanny Elmer walked by under the window.

She was on her way to sit to Nick Bramham the painter.

She was on her way to meet the painter Nick Bramham.

She sat in a flowered Spanish shawl, holding in her hand a yellow novel.

She sat wrapped in a floral Spanish shawl, holding a yellow novel in her hand.

"A little lower, a little looser, so—better, that's right," Bramham mumbled, who was drawing her, and smoking at the same time, and was naturally speechless. His head might have been the work of a sculptor, who had squared the forehead, stretched the mouth, and left marks of his thumbs and streaks from his fingers in the clay. But the eyes had never been shut. They were rather prominent, and rather bloodshot, as if from staring and staring, and when he spoke they looked for a second disturbed, but went on staring. An unshaded electric light hung above her head.

"A little lower, a little looser, so—better, that's right," Bramham mumbled, who was drawing her and smoking at the same time, and was naturally at a loss for words. His head looked like it had been sculpted, with a squared forehead, an elongated mouth, and marks from thumbs and streaks from fingers in the clay. But his eyes had never closed. They were quite prominent and somewhat bloodshot, as if from constant staring, and when he spoke, they looked briefly disturbed but continued to stare. An unshaded electric light hung above her head.

As for the beauty of women, it is like the light on the sea, never constant to a single wave. They all have it; they all lose it. Now she is dull and thick as bacon; now transparent as a hanging glass. The fixed faces are the dull ones. Here comes Lady Venice displayed like a monument for admiration, but carved in alabaster, to be set on the mantelpiece and never dusted. A dapper brunette complete from head to foot serves only as an illustration to lie upon the drawing-room table. The women in the streets have the faces of playing cards; the outlines accurately filled in with pink or yellow, and the line drawn tightly round them. Then, at a top-floor window, leaning out, looking down, you see beauty itself; or in the corner of an omnibus; or squatted in a ditch—beauty glowing, suddenly expressive, withdrawn the moment after. No one can count on it or seize it or have it wrapped in paper. Nothing is to be won from the shops, and Heaven knows it would be better to sit at home than haunt the plate-glass windows in the hope of lifting the shining green, the glowing ruby, out of them alive. Sea glass in a saucer loses its lustre no sooner than silks do. Thus if you talk of a beautiful woman you mean only something flying fast which for a second uses the eyes, lips, or cheeks of Fanny Elmer, for example, to glow through.

As for the beauty of women, it’s like the light on the sea, never sticking to just one wave. They all have it; they all lose it. One moment she’s dull and thick like bacon; the next, she’s as transparent as glass hanging in the air. The women with fixed expressions are the ones who look dull. Here comes Lady Venice, showcased like a monument for admiration, but carved from alabaster, meant to sit on the mantelpiece and never get dusted. A stylish brunette, polished from head to toe, only serves as a decoration on the drawing-room table. The women on the streets have faces like playing cards; their features neatly filled in with pink or yellow, with a tight line drawn around them. Then, at a top-floor window, leaning out and looking down, you see true beauty; or in the corner of a bus; or crouched in a ditch—beauty glowing, suddenly expressive, and gone the moment after. No one can rely on it or grasp it, or have it wrapped in paper. There’s nothing to be bought from stores, and honestly, it might be better to stay home than to wander the plate-glass windows hoping to pull the shining green or glowing ruby out of them alive. Sea glass in a saucer loses its shine just as quickly as silks do. So when you talk about a beautiful woman, you’re just referring to something fleeting that, for a second, borrows the eyes, lips, or cheeks of Fanny Elmer, for example, to shine through.

She was not beautiful, as she sat stiffly; her underlip too prominent; her nose too large; her eyes too near together. She was a thin girl, with brilliant cheeks and dark hair, sulky just now, or stiff with sitting. When Bramham snapped his stick of charcoal she started. Bramham was out of temper. He squatted before the gas fire warming his hands. Meanwhile she looked at his drawing. He grunted. Fanny threw on a dressing-gown and boiled a kettle.

She wasn't beautiful as she sat rigidly; her underlip was too prominent, her nose was too big, and her eyes were too close together. She was a skinny girl with bright cheeks and dark hair, looking sulky at the moment or stiff from sitting. When Bramham snapped his charcoal stick, she jumped. Bramham was in a bad mood. He crouched in front of the gas fire, warming his hands. Meanwhile, she looked at his drawing. He grunted. Fanny put on a dressing gown and boiled a kettle.

"By God, it's bad," said Bramham.

"Honestly, it's really bad," said Bramham.

Fanny dropped on to the floor, clasped her hands round her knees, and looked at him, her beautiful eyes—yes, beauty, flying through the room, shone there for a second. Fanny's eyes seemed to question, to commiserate, to be, for a second, love itself. But she exaggerated. Bramham noticed nothing. And when the kettle boiled, up she scrambled, more like a colt or a puppy than a loving woman.

Fanny dropped to the floor, wrapped her arms around her knees, and looked at him, her beautiful eyes—yes, beauty, dazzling in the room, shone there for a moment. Fanny's eyes seemed to question, to empathize, to embody, for an instant, love itself. But she overdid it. Bramham noticed nothing. And when the kettle boiled, she sprang up, more like a colt or a puppy than a loving woman.

Now Jacob walked over to the window and stood with his hands in his pockets. Mr. Springett opposite came out, looked at his shop window, and went in again. The children drifted past, eyeing the pink sticks of sweetstuff. Pickford's van swung down the street. A small boy twirled from a rope. Jacob turned away. Two minutes later he opened the front door, and walked off in the direction of Holborn.

Now Jacob walked over to the window and stood with his hands in his pockets. Mr. Springett across the street came out, looked at his shop window, and went back inside. The kids strolled by, checking out the pink candy sticks. Pickford's van turned down the street. A small boy spun around on a rope. Jacob looked away. Two minutes later, he opened the front door and walked off toward Holborn.

Fanny Elmer took down her cloak from the hook. Nick Bramham unpinned his drawing and rolled it under his arm. They turned out the lights and set off down the street, holding on their way through all the people, motor cars, omnibuses, carts, until they reached Leicester Square, five minutes before Jacob reached it, for his way was slightly longer, and he had been stopped by a block in Holborn waiting to see the King drive by, so that Nick and Fanny were already leaning over the barrier in the promenade at the Empire when Jacob pushed through the swing doors and took his place beside them.

Fanny Elmer took her coat down from the hook. Nick Bramham unpinned his drawing and tucked it under his arm. They turned off the lights and headed down the street, making their way through the crowd of people, cars, buses, and carts until they reached Leicester Square, five minutes before Jacob got there, as his route was a bit longer and he was delayed by a traffic jam in Holborn while waiting to see the King drive by. So, Nick and Fanny were already leaning over the barrier at the Empire promenade when Jacob pushed through the swing doors and joined them.

"Hullo, never noticed you," said Nick, five minutes later.

"Hellо, didn’t see you there," Nick said five minutes later.

"Bloody rot," said Jacob.

"Bloody trash," said Jacob.

"Miss Elmer," said Nick.

"Ms. Elmer," said Nick.

Jacob took his pipe out of his mouth very awkwardly.

Jacob awkwardly took his pipe out of his mouth.

Very awkward he was. And when they sat upon a plush sofa and let the smoke go up between them and the stage, and heard far off the high-pitched voices and the jolly orchestra breaking in opportunely he was still awkward, only Fanny thought: "What a beautiful voice!" She thought how little he said yet how firm it was. She thought how young men are dignified and aloof, and how unconscious they are, and how quietly one might sit beside Jacob and look at him. And how childlike he would be, come in tired of an evening, she thought, and how majestic; a little overbearing perhaps; "But I wouldn't give way," she thought. He got up and leant over the barrier. The smoke hung about him.

He was really awkward. As they sat on a plush sofa, letting smoke drift up between them and the stage, they could hear the distant high-pitched voices and the cheerful orchestra breaking in at just the right moments. He remained awkward, but Fanny thought, "What a beautiful voice!" She noticed how little he spoke yet how confident he sounded. She reflected on how young men can be dignified and distant, often oblivious to their surroundings, and how peacefully one could sit next to Jacob and just look at him. She imagined how childlike he would be, coming home tired in the evening, and how majestic he seemed; maybe a little overbearing, but she thought, "I wouldn't back down." He stood up and leaned over the barrier, with smoke swirling around him.

And for ever the beauty of young men seems to be set in smoke, however lustily they chase footballs, or drive cricket balls, dance, run, or stride along roads. Possibly they are soon to lose it. Possibly they look into the eyes of faraway heroes, and take their station among us half contemptuously, she thought (vibrating like a fiddle-string, to be played on and snapped). Anyhow, they love silence, and speak beautifully, each word falling like a disc new cut, not a hubble-bubble of small smooth coins such as girls use; and they move decidedly, as if they knew how long to stay and when to go—oh, but Mr. Flanders was only gone to get a programme.

And forever the beauty of young men seems to be fading, no matter how enthusiastically they chase after footballs, hit cricket balls, dance, run, or stride along roads. They might lose it soon. They might glance into the eyes of distant heroes and stand among us half in disdain, she thought (vibrating like a guitar string, ready to be played or snapped). Either way, they appreciate silence and speak beautifully, every word landing like a freshly cut disc, not like the chatter of small smooth coins that girls use; and they move with purpose, as if they know exactly how long to stay and when to leave—oh, but Mr. Flanders just went to get a program.

"The dancers come right at the end," he said, coming back to them.

"The dancers come right at the end," he said, returning to them.

And isn't it pleasant, Fanny went on thinking, how young men bring out lots of silver coins from their trouser pockets, and look at them, instead of having just so many in a purse?

And isn't it nice, Fanny continued to think, how young men pull out a bunch of silver coins from their pockets and look at them, instead of just having a bunch in a wallet?

Then there she was herself, whirling across the stage in white flounces, and the music was the dance and fling of her own soul, and the whole machinery, rock and gear of the world was spun smoothly into those swift eddies and falls, she felt, as she stood rigid leaning over the barrier two feet from Jacob Flanders.

Then there she was, spinning across the stage in white ruffles, and the music was the rhythm and energy of her own spirit. The entire machinery, the rocks and gears of the world were seamlessly woven into those quick swirls and drops, she felt, as she stood frozen, leaning over the barrier just two feet away from Jacob Flanders.

Her screwed-up black glove dropped to the floor. When Jacob gave it her, she started angrily. For never was there a more irrational passion. And Jacob was afraid of her for a moment—so violent, so dangerous is it when young women stand rigid; grasp the barrier; fall in love.

Her messed-up black glove fell to the floor. When Jacob handed it to her, she reacted with anger. There has never been a more irrational passion. And for a moment, Jacob felt afraid of her—it's so intense, so risky when young women become rigid; hold on to their barriers; fall in love.

It was the middle of February. The roofs of Hampstead Garden Suburb lay in a tremulous haze. It was too hot to walk. A dog barked, barked, barked down in the hollow. The liquid shadows went over the plain.

It was mid-February. The roofs of Hampstead Garden Suburb were shrouded in a wavering haze. It was too warm to walk. A dog was barking repeatedly down in the hollow. The fluid shadows moved across the plain.

The body after long illness is languid, passive, receptive of sweetness, but too weak to contain it. The tears well and fall as the dog barks in the hollow, the children skim after hoops, the country darkens and brightens. Beyond a veil it seems. Ah, but draw the veil thicker lest I faint with sweetness, Fanny Elmer sighed, as she sat on a bench in Judges Walk looking at Hampstead Garden Suburb. But the dog went on barking. The motor cars hooted on the road. She heard a far-away rush and humming. Agitation was at her heart. Up she got and walked. The grass was freshly green; the sun hot. All round the pond children were stooping to launch little boats; or were drawn back screaming by their nurses.

The body after a long illness is weak, passive, and open to comfort, but too fragile to hold it. Tears well up and fall as the dog barks in the distance, the kids chase after hoops, the countryside shifts between light and dark. It almost feels like it's behind a curtain. Oh, but pull the curtain tighter so I don’t faint from the sweetness, Fanny Elmer sighed as she sat on a bench in Judges Walk, looking at Hampstead Garden Suburb. But the dog kept barking. The cars honked on the road. She heard a distant rush and hum. There was restlessness in her heart. She got up and walked. The grass was bright green; the sun was hot. All around the pond, kids were crouching to launch tiny boats, or were being pulled back screaming by their nannies.

At mid-day young women walk out into the air. All the men are busy in the town. They stand by the edge of the blue pond. The fresh wind scatters the children's voices all about. My children, thought Fanny Elmer. The women stand round the pond, beating off great prancing shaggy dogs. Gently the baby is rocked in the perambulator. The eyes of all the nurses, mothers, and wandering women are a little glazed, absorbed. They gently nod instead of answering when the little boys tug at their skirts, begging them to move on.

At midday, young women step out into the fresh air. All the men are busy in town. They gather by the edge of the blue pond. The cool breeze carries the children's voices everywhere. My children, thought Fanny Elmer. The women gather around the pond, shooing away energetic, shaggy dogs. The baby is gently rocked in the stroller. The eyes of all the nurses, mothers, and wandering women are slightly glazed, lost in thought. They nod gently instead of responding when the little boys tug at their skirts, pleading with them to move along.

And Fanny moved, hearing some cry—a workman's whistle perhaps—high in mid-air. Now, among the trees, it was the thrush trilling out into the warm air a flutter of jubilation, but fear seemed to spur him, Fanny thought; as if he too were anxious with such joy at his heart—as if he were watched as he sang, and pressed by tumult to sing. There! Restless, he flew to the next tree. She heard his song more faintly. Beyond it was the humming of the wheels and the wind rushing.

And Fanny moved, hearing some sound—a workman's whistle maybe—up in the air. Now, among the trees, it was the thrush singing into the warm air, filled with joy, but Fanny thought fear seemed to push him; as if he too felt anxious with such happiness in his heart—as if he were being watched while he sang, driven by a need to sing. There! Restless, he flew to the next tree. She heard his song more faintly. Beyond that, there was the humming of the wheels and the rushing wind.

She spent tenpence on lunch.

She spent ten pence on lunch.

"Dear, miss, she's left her umbrella," grumbled the mottled woman in the glass box near the door at the Express Dairy Company's shop.

"Hey, miss, she forgot her umbrella," complained the speckled woman in the glass booth near the door at the Express Dairy Company store.

"Perhaps I'll catch her," answered Milly Edwards, the waitress with the pale plaits of hair; and she dashed through the door.

"Maybe I'll catch her," replied Milly Edwards, the waitress with the light-colored braids; and she rushed through the door.

"No good," she said, coming back a moment later with Fanny's cheap umbrella. She put her hand to her plaits.

"No good," she said, returning a moment later with Fanny's cheap umbrella. She ran her hand through her braids.

"Oh, that door!" grumbled the cashier.

"Oh, that door!" the cashier complained.

Her hands were cased in black mittens, and the finger-tips that drew in the paper slips were swollen as sausages.

Her hands were covered in black mittens, and the fingertips that pulled in the paper slips were swollen like sausages.

"Pie and greens for one. Large coffee and crumpets. Eggs on toast. Two fruit cakes."

"Pie and greens for one. A large coffee and crumpets. Eggs on toast. Two fruitcakes."

Thus the sharp voices of the waitresses snapped. The lunchers heard their orders repeated with approval; saw the next table served with anticipation. Their own eggs on toast were at last delivered. Their eyes strayed no more.

Thus the sharp voices of the waitresses cut through the air. The diners heard their orders repeated with enthusiasm; saw the next table being served with eagerness. Their own eggs on toast were finally brought to them. Their eyes wandered no more.

Damp cubes of pastry fell into mouths opened like triangular bags.

Damp chunks of pastry landed in mouths that opened like triangular bags.

Nelly Jenkinson, the typist, crumbled her cake indifferently enough.
Every time the door opened she looked up. What did she expect to see?

Nelly Jenkinson, the typist, crumbled her cake with indifference.
Every time the door opened, she looked up. What was she expecting to see?

The coal merchant read the Telegraph without stopping, missed the saucer, and, feeling abstractedly, put the cup down on the table-cloth.

The coal merchant read the Telegraph without pausing, missed the saucer, and, lost in thought, set the cup down on the tablecloth.

"Did you ever hear the like of that for impertinence?" Mrs. Parsons wound up, brushing the crumbs from her furs.

"Did you ever hear anything so rude?" Mrs. Parsons concluded, brushing the crumbs off her fur coat.

"Hot milk and scone for one. Pot of tea. Roll and butter," cried the waitresses.

"Hot milk and a scone for one. A pot of tea. A roll and butter," called out the waitresses.

The door opened and shut.

The door opened and closed.

Such is the life of the elderly.

Such is the life of older people.

It is curious, lying in a boat, to watch the waves. Here are three coming regularly one after another, all much of a size. Then, hurrying after them comes a fourth, very large and menacing; it lifts the boat; on it goes; somehow merges without accomplishing anything; flattens itself out with the rest.

It’s interesting to lie in a boat and watch the waves. Here come three waves, coming in one after the other, all about the same size. Then, rushing in after them is a fourth wave, much bigger and threatening; it lifts the boat; it moves on; somehow blends in without doing anything; it flattens out along with the others.

What can be more violent than the fling of boughs in a gale, the tree yielding itself all up the trunk, to the very tip of the branch, streaming and shuddering the way the wind blows, yet never flying in dishevelment away? The corn squirms and abases itself as if preparing to tug itself free from the roots, and yet is tied down.

What could be more intense than the branches whipping around in a storm, the tree bending completely from the trunk to the very tip of the branch, swaying and shaking with the wind, yet never getting blown away? The corn bends and lowers itself as if trying to pull itself free from the roots, and yet it's firmly anchored.

Why, from the very windows, even in the dusk, you see a swelling run through the street, an aspiration, as with arms outstretched, eyes desiring, mouths agape. And then we peaceably subside. For if the exaltation lasted we should be blown like foam into the air. The stars would shine through us. We should go down the gale in salt drops—as sometimes happens. For the impetuous spirits will have none of this cradling. Never any swaying or aimlessly lolling for them. Never any making believe, or lying cosily, or genially supposing that one is much like another, fire warm, wine pleasant, extravagance a sin.

Why, from the very windows, even at dusk, you see a surge running through the street, a desire, like arms outstretched, eyes longing, mouths wide open. And then we calmly settle down. Because if the excitement lasted, we’d be blown into the air like foam. The stars would shine through us. We’d be carried away in salty drops—as sometimes happens. For the restless spirits won’t allow this comforting. No swaying or lazily lounging for them. No pretending, or lying comfortably, or cheerfully assuming that one is much like another, fire nice, wine enjoyable, extravagance a sin.

"People are so nice, once you know them."

"People are really nice once you get to know them."

"I couldn't think ill of her. One must remember—" But Nick perhaps, or Fanny Elmer, believing implicitly in the truth of the moment, fling off, sting the cheek, are gone like sharp hail.

"I couldn't think badly of her. One has to remember—" But Nick maybe, or Fanny Elmer, who believed completely in the truth of the moment, would let it go, sting the cheek, and disappear like sharp hail.

"Oh," said Fanny, bursting into the studio three-quarters of an hour late because she had been hanging about the neighbourhood of the Foundling Hospital merely for the chance of seeing Jacob walk down the street, take out his latch-key, and open the door, "I'm afraid I'm late"; upon which Nick said nothing and Fanny grew defiant.

"Oh," Fanny said, barging into the studio three-quarters of an hour late because she had been waiting around the area of the Foundling Hospital just for a chance to see Jacob walk down the street, pull out his key, and unlock the door, "I'm sorry I'm late"; to which Nick said nothing and Fanny became defiant.

"I'll never come again!" she cried at length.

"I won't come back again!" she finally exclaimed.

"Don't, then," Nick replied, and off she ran without so much as good-night.

"Don't do it," Nick responded, and she took off without even saying goodnight.

How exquisite it was—that dress in Evelina's shop off Shaftesbury Avenue! It was four o'clock on a fine day early in April, and was Fanny the one to spend four o'clock on a fine day indoors? Other girls in that very street sat over ledgers, or drew long threads wearily between silk and gauze; or, festooned with ribbons in Swan and Edgars, rapidly added up pence and farthings on the back of the bill and twisted the yard and three-quarters in tissue paper and asked "Your pleasure?" of the next comer.

How beautiful that dress was in Evelina's shop off Shaftesbury Avenue! It was four o'clock on a lovely day in early April, and who would want to spend such a nice day indoors? Other girls on that very street were busy with ledgers, or painstakingly pulled long threads between silk and gauze; or, adorned with ribbons at Swan and Edgars, quickly counted pence and farthings on the back of the bill and wrapped the yard and three-quarters in tissue paper, asking "How can I help you?" to the next customer.

In Evelina's shop off Shaftesbury Avenue the parts of a woman were shown separate. In the left hand was her skirt. Twining round a pole in the middle was a feather boa. Ranged like the heads of malefactors on Temple Bar were hats—emerald and white, lightly wreathed or drooping beneath deep-dyed feathers. And on the carpet were her feet—pointed gold, or patent leather slashed with scarlet.

In Evelina's shop off Shaftesbury Avenue, a woman's outfit was displayed in pieces. In the left hand was her skirt. Twisted around a pole in the center was a feather boa. Lined up like criminals on Temple Bar were hats—emerald and white, lightly adorned or drooping under dark feathers. And on the carpet were her shoes—pointy gold or patent leather sliced with red.

Feasted upon by the eyes of women, the clothes by four o'clock were flyblown like sugar cakes in a baker's window. Fanny eyed them too. But coming along Gerrard Street was a tall man in a shabby coat. A shadow fell across Evelina's window—Jacob's shadow, though it was not Jacob. And Fanny turned and walked along Gerrard Street and wished that she had read books. Nick never read books, never talked of Ireland, or the House of Lords; and as for his finger-nails! She would learn Latin and read Virgil. She had been a great reader. She had read Scott; she had read Dumas. At the Slade no one read. But no one knew Fanny at the Slade, or guessed how empty it seemed to her; the passion for ear-rings, for dances, for Tonks and Steer—when it was only the French who could paint, Jacob said. For the moderns were futile; painting the least respectable of the arts; and why read anything but Marlowe and Shakespeare, Jacob said, and Fielding if you must read novels?

Feasted upon by the eyes of women, by four o'clock, the clothes looked as worn as sugar cakes in a bakery window. Fanny noticed them too. But coming down Gerrard Street was a tall man in a worn-out coat. A shadow fell across Evelina's window—Jacob's shadow, even though it wasn't Jacob. Fanny turned and walked along Gerrard Street, wishing she had read more books. Nick never read books, never talked about Ireland, or the House of Lords; and as for his fingernails! She decided she would learn Latin and read Virgil. She had been a big reader. She had read Scott; she had read Dumas. At the Slade, no one read. But nobody knew Fanny at the Slade or realized how empty it felt to her; the obsession with earrings, dancing, and Tonks and Steer—when it was only the French who could really paint, Jacob said. The moderns were pointless; painting was the least respectable of the arts; and why read anything other than Marlowe and Shakespeare, Jacob said, and Fielding if you really had to read novels?

"Fielding," said Fanny, when the man in Charing Cross Road asked her what book she wanted.

"Fielding," Fanny said when the guy on Charing Cross Road asked her what book she wanted.

She bought Tom Jones.

She bought a Tom Jones album.

At ten o'clock in the morning, in a room which she shared with a school teacher, Fanny Elmer read Tom Jones—that mystic book. For this dull stuff (Fanny thought) about people with odd names is what Jacob likes. Good people like it. Dowdy women who don't mind how they cross their legs read Tom Jones—a mystic book; for there is something, Fanny thought, about books which if I had been educated I could have liked—much better than ear-rings and flowers, she sighed, thinking of the corridors at the Slade and the fancy-dress dance next week. She had nothing to wear.

At ten in the morning, in a room she shared with a teacher, Fanny Elmer was reading Tom Jones—that mysterious book. She thought this dull stuff about people with weird names is what Jacob likes. Good people enjoy it. Plain women who don't care how they sit read Tom Jones—a mysterious book; Fanny thought there was something about books that, if she had been educated, she could have liked—much more than earrings and flowers, she sighed, thinking about the hallways at the Slade and the themed dance next week. She had nothing to wear.

They are real, thought Fanny Elmer, setting her feet on the mantelpiece. Some people are. Nick perhaps, only he was so stupid. And women never—except Miss Sargent, but she went off at lunch-time and gave herself airs. There they sat quietly of a night reading, she thought. Not going to music-halls; not looking in at shop windows; not wearing each other's clothes, like Robertson who had worn her shawl, and she had worn his waistcoat, which Jacob could only do very awkwardly; for he liked Tom Jones.

They are real, Fanny Elmer thought, as she set her feet on the mantelpiece. Some people are. Nick maybe, but he was so clueless. And women never—except for Miss Sargent, who left during lunch and acted all high and mighty. There they sat quietly at night reading, she considered. Not going to music halls; not checking out shop windows; not swapping clothes, like Robertson who wore her shawl, and she wore his waistcoat, which Jacob could only manage very awkwardly; because he liked Tom Jones.

There it lay on her lap, in double columns, price three and sixpence; the mystic book in which Henry Fielding ever so many years ago rebuked Fanny Elmer for feasting on scarlet, in perfect prose, Jacob said. For he never read modern novels. He liked Tom Jones.

There it lay on her lap, in double columns, priced at three and sixpence; the mysterious book in which Henry Fielding, many years ago, scolded Fanny Elmer for indulging in scarlet, written in perfect prose, Jacob said. Because he never read modern novels. He liked Tom Jones.

"I do like Tom Jones," said Fanny, at five-thirty that same day early in
April when Jacob took out his pipe in the arm-chair opposite.

"I really like Tom Jones," said Fanny, at five-thirty that same day early in
April when Jacob pulled out his pipe in the armchair across from her.

Alas, women lie! But not Clara Durrant. A flawless mind; a candid nature; a virgin chained to a rock (somewhere off Lowndes Square) eternally pouring out tea for old men in white waistcoats, blue-eyed, looking you straight in the face, playing Bach. Of all women, Jacob honoured her most. But to sit at a table with bread and butter, with dowagers in velvet, and never say more to Clara Durrant than Benson said to the parrot when old Miss Perry poured out tea, was an insufferable outrage upon the liberties and decencies of human nature—or words to that effect. For Jacob said nothing. Only he glared at the fire. Fanny laid down Tom Jones.

Unfortunately, women can be deceptive! But not Clara Durrant. She had a brilliant mind; an honest character; a pure woman stuck serving tea to old men in white vests somewhere near Lowndes Square, looking you straight in the eye while playing Bach. Of all women, Jacob respected her the most. But to sit at a table with bread and butter, surrounded by wealthy older women in velvet, and not say more to Clara Durrant than what Benson said to the parrot while old Miss Perry poured the tea, was an intolerable violation of the liberties and decencies of human nature—or something like that. Because Jacob didn't say anything. He just stared at the fire. Fanny put down Tom Jones.

She stitched or knitted.

She sewed or knitted.

"What's that?" asked Jacob.

"What's that?" Jacob asked.

"For the dance at the Slade."

"For the dance at the Slade."

And she fetched her head-dress; her trousers; her shoes with red tassels. What should she wear?

And she grabbed her headpiece, her pants, her shoes with red tassels. What should she wear?

"I shall be in Paris," said Jacob.

"I'll be in Paris," said Jacob.

And what is the point of fancy-dress dances? thought Fanny. You meet the same people; you wear the same clothes; Mangin gets drunk; Florinda sits on his knee. She flirts outrageously—with Nick Bramham just now.

And what's the deal with costume parties? Fanny thought. You run into the same people; you wear the same outfits; Mangin gets wasted; Florinda is sitting on his lap. She's flirting like crazy—with Nick Bramham right now.

"In Paris?" said Fanny.

"In Paris?" Fanny asked.

"On my way to Greece," he replied.

"On my way to Greece," he said.

For, he said, there is nothing so detestable as London in May.

For, he said, there's nothing as unpleasant as London in May.

He would forget her.

He would move on from her.

A sparrow flew past the window trailing a straw—a straw from a stack stood by a barn in a farmyard. The old brown spaniel snuffs at the base for a rat. Already the upper branches of the elm trees are blotted with nests. The chestnuts have flirted their fans. And the butterflies are flaunting across the rides in the Forest. Perhaps the Purple Emperor is feasting, as Morris says, upon a mass of putrid carrion at the base of an oak tree.

A sparrow flew by the window with a straw trailing behind it—a straw from a bundle next to a barn in a farmyard. The old brown spaniel is sniffing around the base looking for a rat. The upper branches of the elm trees are already dotted with nests. The chestnuts have opened up their leaves. And the butterflies are flitting across the paths in the Forest. Maybe the Purple Emperor is enjoying a meal, as Morris says, on some rotting carcass at the base of an oak tree.

Fanny thought it all came from Tom Jones. He could go alone with a book in his pocket and watch the badgers. He would take a train at eight-thirty and walk all night. He saw fire-flies, and brought back glow-worms in pill-boxes. He would hunt with the New Forest Staghounds. It all came from Tom Jones; and he would go to Greece with a book in his pocket and forget her.

Fanny believed it all started with Tom Jones. He could go out on his own with a book in his pocket and watch the badgers. He would catch the train at eight-thirty and walk all night. He saw fireflies and brought back glow-worms in pillboxes. He would hunt with the New Forest Staghounds. It all started with Tom Jones; and he would travel to Greece with a book in his pocket and forget about her.

She fetched her hand-glass. There was her face. And suppose one wreathed Jacob in a turban? There was his face. She lit the lamp. But as the daylight came through the window only half was lit up by the lamp. And though he looked terrible and magnificent and would chuck the Forest, he said, and come to the Slade, and be a Turkish knight or a Roman emperor (and he let her blacken his lips and clenched his teeth and scowled in the glass), still—there lay Tom Jones.

She picked up her mirror. There was her face. And what if they wrapped Jacob in a turban? There was his face. She turned on the lamp. But as the daylight came through the window, only half of the room was lit by the lamp. And even though he looked both awful and amazing and said he would leave the Forest to come to the Slade and be a Turkish knight or a Roman emperor (and he let her darken his lips while he gritted his teeth and frowned at his reflection), still—Tom Jones was there.

CHAPTER ELEVEN

"Archer," said Mrs. Flanders with that tenderness which mothers so often display towards their eldest sons, "will be at Gibraltar to-morrow."

"Archer," Mrs. Flanders said with that tenderness that mothers often have for their oldest sons, "will be in Gibraltar tomorrow."

The post for which she was waiting (strolling up Dods Hill while the random church bells swung a hymn tune about her head, the clock striking four straight through the circling notes; the glass purpling under a storm-cloud; and the two dozen houses of the village cowering, infinitely humble, in company under a leaf of shadow), the post, with all its variety of messages, envelopes addressed in bold hands, in slanting hands, stamped now with English stamps, again with Colonial stamps, or sometimes hastily dabbed with a yellow bar, the post was about to scatter a myriad messages over the world. Whether we gain or not by this habit of profuse communication it is not for us to say. But that letter-writing is practised mendaciously nowadays, particularly by young men travelling in foreign parts, seems likely enough.

The mail she was waiting for (walking up Dods Hill while the random church bells rang a hymn tune around her, the clock striking four through the swirling notes; the sky darkening under a storm-cloud; and the two dozen houses of the village huddled together, incredibly humble, under a shadow) was about to deliver a variety of messages, envelopes addressed in bold handwriting, in slanted scripts, some with English stamps, others with Colonial stamps, or sometimes quickly marked with a yellow bar. This mail was ready to send countless messages out into the world. Whether we benefit from this habit of excessive communication is up for debate. However, it certainly seems that letter-writing is often dishonest nowadays, especially among young men traveling abroad.

For example, take this scene.

For example, take this scene.

Here was Jacob Flanders gone abroad and staying to break his journey in Paris. (Old Miss Birkbeck, his mother's cousin, had died last June and left him a hundred pounds.)

Here was Jacob Flanders traveling abroad and stopping to break his journey in Paris. (Old Miss Birkbeck, his mother's cousin, had passed away last June and left him a hundred pounds.)

"You needn't repeat the whole damned thing over again, Cruttendon," said Mallinson, the little bald painter who was sitting at a marble table, splashed with coffee and ringed with wine, talking very fast, and undoubtedly more than a little drunk.

"You don’t have to repeat the whole damned thing again, Cruttendon," said Mallinson, the short bald painter sitting at a marble table splattered with coffee and marked with wine rings, speaking very quickly and definitely a bit drunk.

"Well, Flanders, finished writing to your lady?" said Cruttendon, as Jacob came and took his seat beside them, holding in his hand an envelope addressed to Mrs. Flanders, near Scarborough, England.

"Well, Flanders, have you finished writing to your lady?" said Cruttendon, as Jacob came and took his seat beside them, holding an envelope addressed to Mrs. Flanders, near Scarborough, England.

"Do you uphold Velasquez?" said Cruttendon.

"Do you support Velasquez?" Cruttendon asked.

"By God, he does," said Mallinson.

"God, he really does," said Mallinson.

"He always gets like this," said Cruttendon irritably.

"He always acts like this," Cruttendon said irritably.

Jacob looked at Mallinson with excessive composure.

Jacob looked at Mallinson with complete calmness.

"I'll tell you the three greatest things that were ever written in the whole of literature," Cruttendon burst out. "'Hang there like fruit my soul.'" he began….

"I'll tell you the three greatest things that were ever written in the whole of literature," Cruttendon exclaimed. "'Hang there like fruit my soul,'" he started….

"Don't listen to a man who don't like Velasquez," said Mallinson.

"Don't listen to a guy who doesn't like Velasquez," said Mallinson.

"Adolphe, don't give Mr. Mallinson any more wine," said Cruttendon.

"Adolphe, don't pour Mr. Mallinson any more wine," said Cruttendon.

"Fair play, fair play," said Jacob judicially. "Let a man get drunk if he likes. That's Shakespeare, Cruttendon. I'm with you there. Shakespeare had more guts than all these damned frogs put together. 'Hang there like fruit my soul,'" he began quoting, in a musical rhetorical voice, flourishing his wine-glass. "The devil damn you black, you cream-faced loon!" he exclaimed as the wine washed over the rim.

"Fair play, fair play," Jacob said with authority. "Let a guy get drunk if he wants. That's Shakespeare, Cruttendon. I’m on your side there. Shakespeare had more guts than all those damn frogs combined. 'Hang there like fruit, my soul,'" he started quoting, in a melodic, rhetorical tone, waving his wine glass around. "The devil damn you black, you cream-faced idiot!" he shouted as the wine spilled over the edge.

"'Hang there like fruit my soul,'" Cruttendon and Jacob both began again at the same moment, and both burst out laughing.

"'Hang there like fruit my soul,'" Cruttendon and Jacob both started again simultaneously, and they both burst out laughing.

"Curse these flies," said Mallinson, flicking at his bald head. "What do they take me for?"

"Curse these flies," Mallinson said, swatting at his bald head. "What do they think I am?"

"Something sweet-smelling," said Cruttendon.

"Something sweet," said Cruttendon.

"Shut up, Cruttendon," said Jacob. "The fellow has no manners," he explained to Mallinson very politely. "Wants to cut people off their drink. Look here. I want grilled bone. What's the French for grilled bone? Grilled bone, Adolphe. Now you juggins, don't you understand?"

"Shut up, Cruttendon," Jacob said. "This guy has no manners," he explained to Mallinson very politely. "He wants to cut people off their drinks. Look, I want grilled bone. What's the French for grilled bone? Grilled bone, Adolphe. Now you fool, don’t you get it?"

"And I'll tell you, Flanders, the second most beautiful thing in the whole of literature," said Cruttendon, bringing his feet down on to the floor, and leaning right across the table, so that his face almost touched Jacob's face.

"And I'll tell you, Flanders, the second most beautiful thing in all of literature," Cruttendon said, putting his feet down on the floor and leaning across the table so that his face was almost touching Jacob's.

"'Hey diddle diddle, the cat and the fiddle,'" Mallinson interrupted, strumming his fingers on the table. "The most ex-qui-sitely beautiful thing in the whole of literature…. Cruttendon is a very good fellow," he remarked confidentially. "But he's a bit of a fool." And he jerked his head forward.

"'Hey diddle diddle, the cat and the fiddle,'" Mallinson cut in, tapping his fingers on the table. "It's the most beautiful thing in all of literature... Cruttendon is a really nice guy," he said in a low voice. "But he's a bit of an idiot." And he leaned his head forward.

Well, not a word of this was ever told to Mrs. Flanders; nor what happened when they paid the bill and left the restaurant, and walked along the Boulevard Raspaille.

Well, none of this was ever mentioned to Mrs. Flanders; nor what happened when they settled the bill, left the restaurant, and strolled along the Boulevard Raspaille.

Then here is another scrap of conversation; the time about eleven in the morning; the scene a studio; and the day Sunday.

Then here’s another snippet of conversation; it’s around eleven in the morning; the setting is a studio; and it’s Sunday.

"I tell you, Flanders," said Cruttendon, "I'd as soon have one of Mallinson's little pictures as a Chardin. And when I say that …" he squeezed the tail of an emaciated tube … "Chardin was a great swell…. He sells 'em to pay his dinner now. But wait till the dealers get hold of him. A great swell—oh, a very great swell."

"I’m telling you, Flanders," said Cruttendon, "I’d just as soon have one of Mallinson’s small paintings as a Chardin. And when I say that…” he squeezed the end of a thin tube… “Chardin was a big deal… He sells them to pay for his dinner now. But just wait until the dealers get their hands on him. A big deal—oh, a very big deal."

"It's an awfully pleasant life," said Jacob, "messing away up here.
Still, it's a stupid art, Cruttendon." He wandered off across the room.
"There's this man, Pierre Louys now." He took up a book.

"It's a really nice life," said Jacob, "hanging out up here.
But it's a silly art, Cruttendon." He walked across the room.
"Take this guy, Pierre Louys, for example." He picked up a book.

"Now my good sir, are you going to settle down?" said Cruttendon.

"Now, my good man, are you planning to settle down?" Cruttendon asked.

"That's a solid piece of work," said Jacob, standing a canvas on a chair.

"That's a great piece of work," said Jacob, putting a canvas on a chair.

"Oh, that I did ages ago," said Cruttendon, looking over his shoulder.

"Oh, I did that a long time ago," said Cruttendon, glancing over his shoulder.

"You're a pretty competent painter in my opinion," said Jacob after a time.

"You're a really skilled painter, in my opinion," Jacob said after a moment.

"Now if you'd like to see what I'm after at the present moment," said Cruttendon, putting a canvas before Jacob. "There. That's it. That's more like it. That's …" he squirmed his thumb in a circle round a lamp globe painted white.

"Now if you'd like to see what I’m working on right now," said Cruttendon, placing a canvas in front of Jacob. "There. That’s it. That’s more like it. That’s ..." he moved his thumb in a circle around a lamp globe painted white.

"A pretty solid piece of work," said Jacob, straddling his legs in front of it. "But what I wish you'd explain …"

"A pretty solid piece of work," Jacob said, straddling his legs in front of it. "But what I wish you'd explain …"

Miss Jinny Carslake, pale, freckled, morbid, came into the room.

Miss Jinny Carslake, pale, freckled, and gloomy, walked into the room.

"Oh Jinny, here's a friend. Flanders. An Englishman. Wealthy. Highly connected. Go on, Flanders…."

"Oh Jinny, here's a friend. Flanders. An English guy. Rich. Well-connected. Go ahead, Flanders…."

Jacob said nothing.

Jacob was silent.

"It's THAT—that's not right," said Jinny Carslake.

"It's THAT—that's not right," Jinny Carslake said.

"No," said Cruttendon decidedly. "Can't be done."

"No," Cruttendon said firmly. "It can't be done."

He took the canvas off the chair and stood it on the floor with its back to them.

He lifted the canvas off the chair and leaned it against the floor with its back facing them.

"Sit down, ladies and gentlemen. Miss Carslake comes from your part of the world, Flanders. From Devonshire. Oh, I thought you said Devonshire. Very well. She's a daughter of the church too. The black sheep of the family. Her mother writes her such letters. I say—have you one about you? It's generally Sundays they come. Sort of church-bell effect, you know."

"Please take a seat, everyone. Miss Carslake is from your area, Flanders. From Devonshire. Oh, I thought you said Devonshire. Alright then. She's also a daughter of the church. The black sheep of the family. Her mother sends her these letters. I wonder—do you have one with you? They usually arrive on Sundays. It's like a church bell ringing, you know."

"Have you met all the painter men?" said Jinny. "Was Mallinson drunk? If you go to his studio he'll give you one of his pictures. I say, Teddy…."

"Have you met all the painter guys?" said Jinny. "Was Mallinson drunk? If you go to his studio, he'll give you one of his paintings. I mean, Teddy…."

"Half a jiff," said Cruttendon. "What's the season of the year?" He looked out of the window.

"Hold on a sec," said Cruttendon. "What time of year is it?" He looked out the window.

"We take a day off on Sundays, Flanders."

"We take Sundays off, Flanders."

"Will he …" said Jinny, looking at Jacob. "You …"

"Will he …" said Jinny, looking at Jacob. "You …"

"Yes, he'll come with us," said Cruttendon.

"Yeah, he'll come with us," Cruttendon said.

And then, here is Versailles. Jinny stood on the stone rim and leant over the pond, clasped by Cruttendon's arms or she would have fallen in. "There! There!" she cried. "Right up to the top!" Some sluggish, sloping-shouldered fish had floated up from the depths to nip her crumbs. "You look," she said, jumping down. And then the dazzling white water, rough and throttled, shot up into the air. The fountain spread itself. Through it came the sound of military music far away. All the water was puckered with drops. A blue air-ball gently bumped the surface. How all the nurses and children and old men and young crowded to the edge, leant over and waved their sticks! The little girl ran stretching her arms towards her air-ball, but it sank beneath the fountain.

And then, here is Versailles. Jinny stood on the stone edge and leaned over the pond, held up by Cruttendon's arms or she would have fallen in. "There! There!" she exclaimed. "Right up to the top!" Some sluggish, sloped-shouldered fish had floated up from the depths to nibble on her crumbs. "Look!" she said, jumping down. Then the dazzling white water, rough and forceful, shot up into the air. The fountain spread itself out. From it came the sound of military music in the distance. All the water was dotted with drops. A blue air balloon gently bumped the surface. How all the nurses, kids, old men, and young people crowded to the edge, leaned over, and waved their sticks! The little girl ran, stretching her arms toward her balloon, but it sank beneath the fountain.

Edward Cruttendon, Jinny Carslake, and Jacob Flanders walked in a row along the yellow gravel path; got on to the grass; so passed under the trees; and came out at the summer-house where Marie Antoinette used to drink chocolate. In went Edward and Jinny, but Jacob waited outside, sitting on the handle of his walking-stick. Out they came again.

Edward Cruttendon, Jinny Carslake, and Jacob Flanders walked in a line along the yellow gravel path, stepped onto the grass, passed beneath the trees, and arrived at the summer house where Marie Antoinette used to drink chocolate. Edward and Jinny went inside, while Jacob stayed outside, sitting on the handle of his walking stick. They soon came out again.

"Well?" said Cruttendon, smiling at Jacob.

"Well?" Cruttendon said, smiling at Jacob.

Jinny waited; Edward waited; and both looked at Jacob.

Jinny waited; Edward waited; and both looked at Jacob.

"Well?" said Jacob, smiling and pressing both hands on his stick.

"Well?" Jacob said, smiling and resting both hands on his cane.

"Come along," he decided; and started off. The others followed him, smiling.

"Let's go," he said, and began to walk. The others followed him, smiling.

And then they went to the little cafe in the by-street where people sit drinking coffee, watching the soldiers, meditatively knocking ashes into trays.

And then they went to the small café on the side street where people sat sipping coffee, watching the soldiers, thoughtfully tapping ashes into trays.

"But he's quite different," said Jinny, folding her hands over the top of her glass. "I don't suppose you know what Ted means when he says a thing like that," she said, looking at Jacob. "But I do. Sometimes I could kill myself. Sometimes he lies in bed all day long—just lies there…. I don't want you right on the table"; she waved her hands. Swollen iridescent pigeons were waddling round their feet.

"But he's really different," said Jinny, folding her hands over her glass. "I doubt you understand what Ted means when he says something like that," she said, looking at Jacob. "But I do. Sometimes I could kick myself. Sometimes he just lies in bed all day—just lays there… I don't want you right on the table," she waved her hands. Swollen, shimmering pigeons were waddling around their feet.

"Look at that woman's hat," said Cruttendon. "How do they come to think of it? … No, Flanders, I don't think I could live like you. When one walks down that street opposite the British Museum—what's it called?—that's what I mean. It's all like that. Those fat women—and the man standing in the middle of the road as if he were going to have a fit …"

"Check out that woman's hat," Cruttendon said. "How do they come up with that? … No, Flanders, I don't think I could live like you. When you walk down that street across from the British Museum—what's it called?—that's what I'm talking about. It's all like that. Those heavy women—and the guy standing in the middle of the road like he's about to have a seizure …"

"Everybody feeds them," said Jinny, waving the pigeons away. "They're stupid old things."

"Everyone feeds them," Jinny said, shooing the pigeons away. "They’re such dumb old things."

"Well, I don't know," said Jacob, smoking his cigarette. "There's St.
Paul's."

"Well, I don't know," said Jacob, smoking his cigarette. "There's St.
Paul's."

"I mean going to an office," said Cruttendon.

"I mean going to an office," Cruttendon said.

"Hang it all," Jacob expostulated.

"Forget it," Jacob exclaimed.

"But you don't count," said Jinny, looking at Cruttendon. "You're mad. I mean, you just think of painting."

"But you don't matter," Jinny said, looking at Cruttendon. "You're crazy. I mean, you only think about painting."

"Yes, I know. I can't help it. I say, will King George give way about the peers?"

"Yeah, I get it. I can't help it. I’m asking, is King George going to budge on the peers?"

"He'll jolly well have to," said Jacob.

"He'll definitely have to," said Jacob.

"There!" said Jinny. "He really knows."

"There!" said Jinny. "He totally knows."

"You see, I would if I could," said Cruttendon, "but I simply can't."

"You see, I would if I could," Cruttendon said, "but I really can't."

"I THINK I could," said Jinny. "Only, it's all the people one dislikes who do it. At home, I mean. They talk of nothing else. Even people like my mother."

"I think I could," said Jinny. "But it's always the people you don't like who do it. I mean at home. They talk about nothing else. Even people like my mom."

"Now if I came and lived here—-" said Jacob. "What's my share, Cruttendon? Oh, very well. Have it your own way. Those silly birds, directly one wants them—they've flown away."

"Now if I came and lived here—-" said Jacob. "What's my share, Cruttendon? Oh, very well. Do it your way. Those silly birds, as soon as you need them—they’ve already taken off."

And finally under the arc lamps in the Gare des Invalides, with one of those queer movements which are so slight yet so definite, which may wound or pass unnoticed but generally inflict a good deal of discomfort, Jinny and Cruttendon drew together; Jacob stood apart. They had to separate. Something must be said. Nothing was said. A man wheeled a trolley past Jacob's legs so near that he almost grazed them. When Jacob recovered his balance the other two were turning away, though Jinny looked over her shoulder, and Cruttendon, waving his hand, disappeared like the very great genius that he was.

And finally, under the bright lights in the Gare des Invalides, with one of those strange movements that are so small yet so clear, which can either hurt or go unnoticed but usually cause a fair bit of discomfort, Jinny and Cruttendon moved closer together; Jacob stood off to the side. They needed to break apart. Something had to be said. Nothing was said. A man pushed a cart right past Jacob's legs, so close that he nearly bumped into them. When Jacob regained his balance, the other two were turning away, though Jinny glanced back, and Cruttendon, waving his hand, vanished like the brilliant genius he was.

No—Mrs. Flanders was told none of this, though Jacob felt, it is safe to say, that nothing in the world was of greater importance; and as for Cruttendon and Jinny, he thought them the most remarkable people he had ever met—being of course unable to foresee how it fell out in the course of time that Cruttendon took to painting orchards; had therefore to live in Kent; and must, one would think, see through apple blossom by this time, since his wife, for whose sake he did it, eloped with a novelist; but no; Cruttendon still paints orchards, savagely, in solitude. Then Jinny Carslake, after her affair with Lefanu the American painter, frequented Indian philosophers, and now you find her in pensions in Italy cherishing a little jeweller's box containing ordinary pebbles picked off the road. But if you look at them steadily, she says, multiplicity becomes unity, which is somehow the secret of life, though it does not prevent her from following the macaroni as it goes round the table, and sometimes, on spring nights, she makes the strangest confidences to shy young Englishmen.

No—Mrs. Flanders wasn’t told any of this, though Jacob felt, it’s safe to say, that nothing mattered more; and as for Cruttendon and Jinny, he thought they were the most remarkable people he’d ever met—totally unable to predict how it turned out over time that Cruttendon took up painting orchards; had to live in Kent; and one would think he’d have seen through apple blossoms by now, since his wife, for whom he did it, ran off with a novelist; but no; Cruttendon still paints orchards, fiercely, in solitude. Then Jinny Carslake, after her fling with Lefanu the American painter, started hanging out with Indian philosophers, and now you find her in pensions in Italy, cherishing a little jewelry box filled with ordinary pebbles picked up off the road. But if you look at them long enough, she says, multiplicity becomes unity, which is somehow the secret of life, even though it doesn’t stop her from following the macaroni as it goes around the table, and sometimes, on spring nights, she shares the strangest secrets with shy young Englishmen.

Jacob had nothing to hide from his mother. It was only that he could make no sense himself of his extraordinary excitement, and as for writing it down—-

Jacob had nothing to hide from his mom. It was just that he couldn’t really figure out his intense excitement, and when it came to writing it down—-

"Jacob's letters are so like him," said Mrs. Jarvis, folding the sheet.

"Jacob's letters are just like him," Mrs. Jarvis said, folding the sheet.

"Indeed he seems to be having …" said Mrs. Flanders, and paused, for she was cutting out a dress and had to straighten the pattern, "… a very gay time."

"Indeed he seems to be having ..." said Mrs. Flanders, pausing as she was cutting out a dress and needed to straighten the pattern, "... a really fun time."

Mrs. Jarvis thought of Paris. At her back the window was open, for it was a mild night; a calm night; when the moon seemed muffled and the apple trees stood perfectly still.

Mrs. Jarvis thought about Paris. Behind her, the window was open because it was a mild night; a calm night; when the moon looked muted and the apple trees stood completely still.

"I never pity the dead," said Mrs. Jarvis, shifting the cushion at her back, and clasping her hands behind her head. Betty Flanders did not hear, for her scissors made so much noise on the table.

"I never feel sorry for the dead," said Mrs. Jarvis, adjusting the cushion at her back and linking her fingers behind her head. Betty Flanders didn't hear her because the scissors were making too much noise on the table.

"They are at rest," said Mrs. Jarvis. "And we spend our days doing foolish unnecessary things without knowing why."

"They're at rest," said Mrs. Jarvis. "And we waste our days on pointless things without even knowing why."

Mrs. Jarvis was not liked in the village.

Mrs. Jarvis wasn’t popular in the village.

"You never walk at this time of night?" she asked Mrs. Flanders.

"You don't walk at this time of night?" she asked Mrs. Flanders.

"It is certainly wonderfully mild," said Mrs. Flanders.

"It’s definitely really mild," said Mrs. Flanders.

Yet it was years since she had opened the orchard gate and gone out on
Dods Hill after dinner.

Yet it had been years since she had opened the orchard gate and gone out on
Dods Hill after dinner.

"It is perfectly dry," said Mrs. Jarvis, as they shut the orchard door and stepped on to the turf.

"It’s totally dry," said Mrs. Jarvis as they closed the orchard door and stepped onto the grass.

"I shan't go far," said Betty Flanders. "Yes, Jacob will leave Paris on
Wednesday."

"I won't go far," said Betty Flanders. "Yeah, Jacob will leave Paris on
Wednesday."

"Jacob was always my friend of the three," said Mrs. Jarvis.

"Jacob was always my favorite of the three," said Mrs. Jarvis.

"Now, my dear, I am going no further," said Mrs. Flanders. They had climbed the dark hill and reached the Roman camp.

"Now, my dear, I'm not going any further," said Mrs. Flanders. They had climbed the dark hill and reached the Roman camp.

The rampart rose at their feet—the smooth circle surrounding the camp or the grave. How many needles Betty Flanders had lost there; and her garnet brooch.

The rampart stood before them—the perfect circle encircling the camp or the grave. How many needles had Betty Flanders lost there; and her garnet brooch.

"It is much clearer than this sometimes," said Mrs. Jarvis, standing upon the ridge. There were no clouds, and yet there was a haze over the sea, and over the moors. The lights of Scarborough flashed, as if a woman wearing a diamond necklace turned her head this way and that.

"It’s often much clearer than this," said Mrs. Jarvis, standing on the ridge. There were no clouds, but there was a haze over the sea and the moors. The lights of Scarborough flickered, like a woman wearing a diamond necklace turning her head this way and that.

"How quiet it is!" said Mrs. Jarvis.

"How quiet it is!" Mrs. Jarvis said.

Mrs. Flanders rubbed the turf with her toe, thinking of her garnet brooch.

Mrs. Flanders scratched the ground with her toe, thinking about her garnet brooch.

Mrs. Jarvis found it difficult to think of herself to-night. It was so calm. There was no wind; nothing racing, flying, escaping. Black shadows stood still over the silver moors. The furze bushes stood perfectly still. Neither did Mrs. Jarvis think of God. There was a church behind them, of course. The church clock struck ten. Did the strokes reach the furze bush, or did the thorn tree hear them?

Mrs. Jarvis found it hard to focus on herself tonight. It was so peaceful. There was no wind; nothing was rushing, flying, or escaping. Dark shadows stayed still over the silver moors. The gorse bushes were perfectly still too. Mrs. Jarvis didn’t think about God either. There was a church behind them, of course. The church clock chimed ten. Did the sounds reach the gorse bush, or did the thorn tree hear them?

Mrs. Flanders was stooping down to pick up a pebble. Sometimes people do find things, Mrs. Jarvis thought, and yet in this hazy moonlight it was impossible to see anything, except bones, and little pieces of chalk.

Mrs. Flanders was bending down to pick up a pebble. Sometimes people do find things, Mrs. Jarvis thought, and yet in this hazy moonlight it was impossible to see anything, except bones, and tiny pieces of chalk.

"Jacob bought it with his own money, and then I brought Mr. Parker up to see the view, and it must have dropped—" Mrs. Flanders murmured.

"Jacob bought it with his own money, and then I brought Mr. Parker up to see the view, and it must have dropped—" Mrs. Flanders murmured.

Did the bones stir, or the rusty swords? Was Mrs. Flanders's twopenny-halfpenny brooch for ever part of the rich accumulation? and if all the ghosts flocked thick and rubbed shoulders with Mrs. Flanders in the circle, would she not have seemed perfectly in her place, a live English matron, growing stout?

Did the bones move, or the rusty swords? Was Mrs. Flanders's cheap brooch always part of the rich collection? And if all the ghosts gathered closely and brushed against Mrs. Flanders in the circle, wouldn't she have seemed perfectly at home, like a living English matron, getting a bit plump?

The clock struck the quarter.

The clock struck a quarter.

The frail waves of sound broke among the stiff gorse and the hawthorn twigs as the church clock divided time into quarters.

The weak sound waves broke against the rigid gorse and hawthorn branches as the church clock marked the time in quarters.

Motionless and broad-backed the moors received the statement "It is fifteen minutes past the hour," but made no answer, unless a bramble stirred.

Motionless and broad-backed, the moors took in the statement "It is fifteen minutes past the hour," but didn’t respond, unless a bramble rustled.

Yet even in this light the legends on the tombstones could be read, brief voices saying, "I am Bertha Ruck," "I am Tom Gage." And they say which day of the year they died, and the New Testament says something for them, very proud, very emphatic, or consoling.

Yet even in this light, the inscriptions on the tombstones could be read, short statements saying, "I am Bertha Ruck," "I am Tom Gage." They also mention the day of the year they died, and the New Testament offers something for them, very proud, very emphatic, or comforting.

The moors accept all that too.

The moors take in everything too.

The moonlight falls like a pale page upon the church wall, and illumines the kneeling family in the niche, and the tablet set up in 1780 to the Squire of the parish who relieved the poor, and believed in God—so the measured voice goes on down the marble scroll, as though it could impose itself upon time and the open air.

The moonlight spills softly over the church wall, illuminating the family kneeling in the niche and the tablet dedicated in 1780 to the parish Squire who helped the needy and had faith in God—so the steady voice continues down the marble scroll, as if it could make its mark on time and the open air.

Now a fox steals out from behind the gorse bushes.

Now a fox sneaks out from behind the gorse bushes.

Often, even at night, the church seems full of people. The pews are worn and greasy, and the cassocks in place, and the hymn-books on the ledges. It is a ship with all its crew aboard. The timbers strain to hold the dead and the living, the ploughmen, the carpenters, the fox-hunting gentlemen and the farmers smelling of mud and brandy. Their tongues join together in syllabling the sharp-cut words, which for ever slice asunder time and the broad-backed moors. Plaint and belief and elegy, despair and triumph, but for the most part good sense and jolly indifference, go trampling out of the windows any time these five hundred years.

Often, even at night, the church seems packed with people. The pews are worn and greasy, the robes in place, and the hymn books on the ledges. It’s like a ship with its entire crew aboard. The timbers strain to support the dead and the living, the farmers, the carpenters, the fox-hunting gentlemen, and the farmers who smell of mud and brandy. Their voices come together in pronouncing the sharp-cut words that forever slice through time and the vast moors. There’s lament and belief and elegy, despair and triumph, but mostly good sense and carefree indifference, trampling out of the windows anytime over the last five hundred years.

Still, as Mrs. Jarvis said, stepping out on to the moors, "How quiet it is!" Quiet at midday, except when the hunt scatters across it; quiet in the afternoon, save for the drifting sheep; at night the moor is perfectly quiet.

Still, as Mrs. Jarvis said, stepping out onto the moors, "How quiet it is!" Quiet at noon, except when the hunt comes through; quiet in the afternoon, apart from the wandering sheep; at night the moor is completely silent.

A garnet brooch has dropped into its grass. A fox pads stealthily. A leaf turns on its edge. Mrs. Jarvis, who is fifty years of age, reposes in the camp in the hazy moonlight.

A garnet brooch has fallen into the grass. A fox walks quietly. A leaf turns on its side. Mrs. Jarvis, who is fifty, relaxes in the camp under the hazy moonlight.

"… and," said Mrs. Flanders, straightening her back, "I never cared for Mr. Parker."

"… and," said Mrs. Flanders, straightening her back, "I never liked Mr. Parker."

"Neither did I," said Mrs. Jarvis. They began to walk home.

"Me neither," said Mrs. Jarvis. They started walking home.

But their voices floated for a little above the camp. The moonlight destroyed nothing. The moor accepted everything. Tom Gage cries aloud so long as his tombstone endures. The Roman skeletons are in safe keeping. Betty Flanders's darning needles are safe too and her garnet brooch. And sometimes at midday, in the sunshine, the moor seems to hoard these little treasures, like a nurse. But at midnight when no one speaks or gallops, and the thorn tree is perfectly still, it would be foolish to vex the moor with questions—what? and why?

But their voices lingered for a while above the camp. The moonlight changed nothing. The moor accepted everything. Tom Gage will cry out as long as his tombstone lasts. The Roman skeletons are well taken care of. Betty Flanders's darning needles are safe too, along with her garnet brooch. And sometimes at noon, in the sunlight, the moor seems to keep these little treasures, like a caretaker. But at midnight when no one is talking or riding, and the thorn tree is completely still, it would be pointless to annoy the moor with questions—what? and why?

The church clock, however, strikes twelve.

The church clock, however, chimes twelve.

CHAPTER TWELVE

The water fell off a ledge like lead—like a chain with thick white links. The train ran out into a steep green meadow, and Jacob saw striped tulips growing and heard a bird singing, in Italy.

The water poured off a ledge like lead—like a heavy chain with thick white links. The train traveled into a steep green meadow, and Jacob saw striped tulips growing and heard a bird singing, in Italy.

A motor car full of Italian officers ran along the flat road and kept up with the train, raising dust behind it. There were trees laced together with vines—as Virgil said. Here was a station; and a tremendous leave-taking going on, with women in high yellow boots and odd pale boys in ringed socks. Virgil's bees had gone about the plains of Lombardy. It was the custom of the ancients to train vines between elms. Then at Milan there were sharp-winged hawks, of a bright brown, cutting figures over the roofs.

A car full of Italian officers drove along the flat road, keeping pace with the train and kicking up dust behind it. There were trees intertwined with vines—just like Virgil described. Here was a train station, bustling with a dramatic send-off, featuring women in tall yellow boots and unusual pale boys in striped socks. Virgil's bees had roamed the plains of Lombardy. It was an ancient custom to grow vines between elm trees. And in Milan, sharp-winged hawks, a striking brown color, glided gracefully over the rooftops.

These Italian carriages get damnably hot with the afternoon sun on them, and the chances are that before the engine has pulled to the top of the gorge the clanking chain will have broken. Up, up, up, it goes, like a train on a scenic railway. Every peak is covered with sharp trees, and amazing white villages are crowded on ledges. There is always a white tower on the very summit, flat red-frilled roofs, and a sheer drop beneath. It is not a country in which one walks after tea. For one thing there is no grass. A whole hillside will be ruled with olive trees. Already in April the earth is clotted into dry dust between them. And there are neither stiles nor footpaths, nor lanes chequered with the shadows of leaves nor eighteenth-century inns with bow-windows, where one eats ham and eggs. Oh no, Italy is all fierceness, bareness, exposure, and black priests shuffling along the roads. It is strange, too, how you never get away from villas.

These Italian carriages get incredibly hot in the afternoon sun, and chances are that before the engine reaches the top of the gorge, the clanking chain will have broken. Up, up, up it goes, like a train on a scenic railway. Every peak is dotted with sharp trees, and stunning white villages cling to the ledges. There’s always a white tower at the very top, flat red roofs, and a sheer drop below. This isn't a place where you stroll after tea. For one thing, there’s no grass. A whole hillside is lined with olive trees. By April, the ground is packed into dry dust between them. There are no stiles or footpaths, no lanes shaded by leaves, and no eighteenth-century inns with bow windows where you can have ham and eggs. Oh no, Italy is all about harshness, emptiness, exposure, and black-clad priests shuffling down the roads. It’s also strange how you can never escape the villas.

Still, to be travelling on one's own with a hundred pounds to spend is a fine affair. And if his money gave out, as it probably would, he would go on foot. He could live on bread and wine—the wine in straw bottles—for after doing Greece he was going to knock off Rome. The Roman civilization was a very inferior affair, no doubt. But Bonamy talked a lot of rot, all the same. "You ought to have been in Athens," he would say to Bonamy when he got back. "Standing on the Parthenon," he would say, or "The ruins of the Coliseum suggest some fairly sublime reflections," which he would write out at length in letters. It might turn to an essay upon civilization. A comparison between the ancients and moderns, with some pretty sharp hits at Mr. Asquith—something in the style of Gibbon.

Still, traveling alone with a hundred pounds to spend is quite the experience. And if his money ran out, which it probably would, he could always walk. He could survive on bread and wine—the wine in straw bottles—because after exploring Greece, he planned to check out Rome. Roman civilization was definitely inferior, no doubt about it. But Bonamy talked a lot of nonsense anyway. "You should have been in Athens," he would tell Bonamy when he got back. "Standing on the Parthenon," he would say, or, "The ruins of the Coliseum inspire some pretty deep thoughts," which he would write out in long letters. It could turn into an essay on civilization. A comparison between the ancients and modern times, with some sharp critiques of Mr. Asquith—something in the style of Gibbon.

A stout gentleman laboriously hauled himself in, dusty, baggy, slung with gold chains, and Jacob, regretting that he did not come of the Latin race, looked out of the window.

A hefty man slowly pulled himself inside, covered in dust, wearing loose clothes, and draped in gold chains, while Jacob, wishing he belonged to a Latin heritage, gazed out the window.

It is a strange reflection that by travelling two days and nights you are in the heart of Italy. Accidental villas among olive trees appear; and men-servants watering the cactuses. Black victorias drive in between pompous pillars with plaster shields stuck to them. It is at once momentary and astonishingly intimate—to be displayed before the eyes of a foreigner. And there is a lonely hill-top where no one ever comes, and yet it is seen by me who was lately driving down Piccadilly on an omnibus. And what I should like would be to get out among the fields, sit down and hear the grasshoppers, and take up a handful of earth—Italian earth, as this is Italian dust upon my shoes.

It’s a weird thought that after traveling for two days and nights, you find yourself in the heart of Italy. Random villas pop up among olive trees, with servants watering the cacti. Black carriages glide between grand pillars adorned with plaster shields. It’s simultaneously fleeting and incredibly personal—being put on display for a foreigner. There’s a lonely hilltop where no one ever goes, yet I can see it, even after just riding down Piccadilly on a bus. What I really want is to step out into the fields, sit down, listen to the grasshoppers, and pick up a handful of earth—Italian soil, just like the Italian dust on my shoes.

Jacob heard them crying strange names at railway stations through the night. The train stopped and he heard frogs croaking close by, and he wrinkled back the blind cautiously and saw a vast strange marsh all white in the moonlight. The carriage was thick with cigar smoke, which floated round the globe with the green shade on it. The Italian gentleman lay snoring with his boots off and his waistcoat unbuttoned…. And all this business of going to Greece seemed to Jacob an intolerable weariness—sitting in hotels by oneself and looking at monuments—he'd have done better to go to Cornwall with Timmy Durrant…. "O—h," Jacob protested, as the darkness began breaking in front of him and the light showed through, but the man was reaching across him to get something—the fat Italian man in his dicky, unshaven, crumpled, obese, was opening the door and going off to have a wash.

Jacob heard them calling out strange names at train stations throughout the night. The train came to a halt, and he heard frogs croaking nearby. He cautiously pulled back the curtain and saw a huge, unfamiliar marsh glowing white in the moonlight. The compartment was thick with cigar smoke that swirled around the globe with the green shade on it. The Italian man was snoring, his boots off and his waistcoat unbuttoned... All this talk about going to Greece felt like an unbearable drag to Jacob—sitting alone in hotels and staring at monuments—he would have been better off going to Cornwall with Timmy Durrant... "O—h," Jacob complained as the darkness started to fade in front of him and light began to come through, but the man was reaching over him to grab something—the overweight Italian guy, in his wrinkled, unshaven, fat state, was opening the door and stepping out to wash up.

So Jacob sat up, and saw a lean Italian sportsman with a gun walking down the road in the early morning light, and the whole idea of the Parthenon came upon him in a clap.

So Jacob sat up and saw a skinny Italian athlete with a gun walking down the road in the early morning light, and the whole idea of the Parthenon hit him all at once.

"By Jove!" he thought, "we must be nearly there!" and he stuck his head out of the window and got the air full in his face.

"Wow!" he thought, "we must be almost there!" and he stuck his head out of the window, letting the air hit his face.

It is highly exasperating that twenty-five people of your acquaintance should be able to say straight off something very much to the point about being in Greece, while for yourself there is a stopper upon all emotions whatsoever. For after washing at the hotel at Patras, Jacob had followed the tram lines a mile or so out; and followed them a mile or so back; he had met several droves of turkeys; several strings of donkeys; had got lost in back streets; had read advertisements of corsets and of Maggi's consomme; children had trodden on his toes; the place smelt of bad cheese; and he was glad to find himself suddenly come out opposite his hotel. There was an old copy of the Daily Mail lying among coffee-cups; which he read. But what could he do after dinner?

It’s incredibly frustrating that twenty-five people you know can immediately share something relevant about being in Greece, while you can't seem to feel anything at all. After washing up at the hotel in Patras, Jacob followed the tram lines for about a mile out, then a mile back; he encountered several groups of turkeys, a few strings of donkeys, got lost in some back streets, saw ads for corsets and Maggi’s consomme, had kids stepping on his toes, and the whole place smelled like bad cheese. He was relieved when he suddenly found himself back at his hotel. There was an old copy of the Daily Mail lying among coffee cups that he read. But what could he do after dinner?

No doubt we should be, on the whole, much worse off than we are without our astonishing gift for illusion. At the age of twelve or so, having given up dolls and broken our steam engines, France, but much more probably Italy, and India almost for a certainty, draws the superfluous imagination. One's aunts have been to Rome; and every one has an uncle who was last heard of—poor man—in Rangoon. He will never come back any more. But it is the governesses who start the Greek myth. Look at that for a head (they say)—nose, you see, straight as a dart, curls, eyebrows—everything appropriate to manly beauty; while his legs and arms have lines on them which indicate a perfect degree of development—the Greeks caring for the body as much as for the face. And the Greeks could paint fruit so that birds pecked at it. First you read Xenophon; then Euripides. One day—that was an occasion, by God—what people have said appears to have sense in it; "the Greek spirit"; the Greek this, that, and the other; though it is absurd, by the way, to say that any Greek comes near Shakespeare. The point is, however, that we have been brought up in an illusion.

No doubt we would be much worse off than we are without our incredible ability to imagine. By the age of twelve or so, after giving up dolls and breaking our toy steam engines, we become captivated by countries like France, but even more so by Italy, and almost certainly India, which fuels our extra imagination. Our aunts have visited Rome, and everyone has an uncle who was last heard of—poor guy—in Rangoon. He’ll never return. But it's the governesses who kick off the Greek mythology. Look at that face (they say)—a straight nose like an arrow, curls, eyebrows—everything fitting for masculine beauty; while his legs and arms have lines that show a perfect level of development—the Greeks valued the body just as much as the face. And the Greeks could paint fruit so realistically that birds would try to peck at it. First, you read Xenophon; then Euripides. One day—what an event that was—what people have said starts to make sense; "the Greek spirit"; the Greeks this, that, and the other; though it’s silly, by the way, to say that any Greek comes close to Shakespeare. The point is, though, that we have been raised in an illusion.

Jacob, no doubt, thought something in this fashion, the Daily Mail crumpled in his hand; his legs extended; the very picture of boredom.

Jacob probably thought something like this, the Daily Mail crumpled in his hand; his legs stretched out; the very image of boredom.

"But it's the way we're brought up," he went on.

"But it's how we’re raised," he continued.

And it all seemed to him very distasteful. Something ought to be done about it. And from being moderately depressed he became like a man about to be executed. Clara Durrant had left him at a party to talk to an American called Pilchard. And he had come all the way to Greece and left her. They wore evening-dresses, and talked nonsense—what damned nonsense—and he put out his hand for the Globe Trotter, an international magazine which is supplied free of charge to the proprietors of hotels.

And it all felt really off to him. Something needed to change. He went from feeling a bit down to feeling like a man facing execution. Clara Durrant had ditched him at a party to chat with an American named Pilchard. He had traveled all the way to Greece and left her behind. They were in evening gowns, chatting about trivial things—what ridiculous nonsense—and he reached out for the Globe Trotter, an international magazine that’s given out for free to hotel owners.

In spite of its ramshackle condition modern Greece is highly advanced in the electric tramway system, so that while Jacob sat in the hotel sitting-room the trams clanked, chimed, rang, rang, rang imperiously to get the donkeys out of the way, and one old woman who refused to budge, beneath the windows. The whole of civilization was being condemned.

In spite of its rundown state, modern Greece has a very advanced electric tramway system. While Jacob sat in the hotel lounge, the trams clanged, chimed, and rang repeatedly to clear the way for the donkeys, and there was one old woman who stubbornly refused to move beneath the windows. It felt like the whole of civilization was being judged.

The waiter was quite indifferent to that too. Aristotle, a dirty man, carnivorously interested in the body of the only guest now occupying the only arm-chair, came into the room ostentatiously, put something down, put something straight, and saw that Jacob was still there.

The waiter was pretty indifferent to that too. Aristotle, a messy man, with a keen interest in the body of the only guest now sitting in the only armchair, walked into the room in a showy manner, set something down, adjusted something, and noticed that Jacob was still there.

"I shall want to be called early to-morrow," said Jacob, over his shoulder. "I am going to Olympia."

"I want to be called early tomorrow," Jacob said, glancing back. "I'm going to Olympia."

This gloom, this surrender to the dark waters which lap us about, is a modern invention. Perhaps, as Cruttendon said, we do not believe enough. Our fathers at any rate had something to demolish. So have we for the matter of that, thought Jacob, crumpling the Daily Mail in his hand. He would go into Parliament and make fine speeches—but what use are fine speeches and Parliament, once you surrender an inch to the black waters? Indeed there has never been any explanation of the ebb and flow in our veins—of happiness and unhappiness. That respectability and evening parties where one has to dress, and wretched slums at the back of Gray's Inn—something solid, immovable, and grotesque—is at the back of it, Jacob thought probable. But then there was the British Empire which was beginning to puzzle him; nor was he altogether in favour of giving Home Rule to Ireland. What did the Daily Mail say about that?

This gloom, this giving in to the dark waters that surround us, is a modern invention. Maybe, as Cruttendon said, we don’t believe enough. Our fathers definitely had something to fight against. We have our struggles too, Jacob thought, crumpling the Daily Mail in his hand. He would go into Parliament and make great speeches—but what’s the point of fine speeches and Parliament if you give an inch to the dark waters? There’s never been an explanation for the ups and downs in our emotions—of happiness and sadness. The respectability and evening parties where you have to dress up, and the awful slums behind Gray's Inn—something solid, unchanging, and absurd—is likely behind it, Jacob thought. But then there’s the British Empire, which was starting to confuse him; he also wasn’t completely on board with giving Home Rule to Ireland. What did the Daily Mail say about that?

For he had grown to be a man, and was about to be immersed in things—as indeed the chambermaid, emptying his basin upstairs, fingering keys, studs, pencils, and bottles of tabloids strewn on the dressing-table, was aware.

For he had matured into a man and was about to get caught up in things—as the chambermaid, emptying his basin upstairs, fiddled with keys, studs, pencils, and bottles of tablets scattered across the dressing table, was aware.

That he had grown to be a man was a fact that Florinda knew, as she knew everything, by instinct.

That he had become a man was something Florinda understood, as she understood everything, instinctively.

And Betty Flanders even now suspected it, as she read his letter, posted at Milan, "Telling me," she complained to Mrs. Jarvis, "really nothing that I want to know"; but she brooded over it.

And Betty Flanders still suspected it as she read his letter, sent from Milan. "It tells me," she complained to Mrs. Jarvis, "nothing that I actually want to know," but she kept thinking about it.

Fanny Elmer felt it to desperation. For he would take his stick and his hat and would walk to the window, and look perfectly absent-minded and very stern too, she thought.

Fanny Elmer felt utterly desperate. He would grab his stick and hat, walk to the window, and look completely lost in thought and really stern too, she thought.

"I am going," he would say, "to cadge a meal of Bonamy."

"I’m going," he would say, "to mooch a meal from Bonamy."

"Anyhow, I can drown myself in the Thames," Fanny cried, as she hurried past the Foundling Hospital.

"Anyway, I can just drown myself in the Thames," Fanny shouted as she rushed past the Foundling Hospital.

"But the Daily Mail isn't to be trusted," Jacob said to himself, looking about for something else to read. And he sighed again, being indeed so profoundly gloomy that gloom must have been lodged in him to cloud him at any moment, which was odd in a man who enjoyed things so, was not much given to analysis, but was horribly romantic, of course, Bonamy thought, in his rooms in Lincoln's Inn.

"But you can't trust the Daily Mail," Jacob thought as he searched for something else to read. He sighed again, feeling so deeply gloomy that it seemed like this gloom had settled within him, ready to surface at any moment. It was strange for someone who loved things so much, didn’t analyze much, but was, of course, terribly romantic, Bonamy reflected, from his rooms in Lincoln's Inn.

"He will fall in love," thought Bonamy. "Some Greek woman with a straight nose."

"He'll fall in love," Bonamy thought. "Some Greek woman with a straight nose."

It was to Bonamy that Jacob wrote from Patras—to Bonamy who couldn't love a woman and never read a foolish book.

It was to Bonamy that Jacob wrote from Patras—to Bonamy who couldn't love a woman and never read a silly book.

There are very few good books after all, for we can't count profuse histories, travels in mule carts to discover the sources of the Nile, or the volubility of fiction.

There are very few good books after all, because we can't count overly detailed histories, travels in mule carts to find the sources of the Nile, or the endless chatter of fiction.

I like books whose virtue is all drawn together in a page or two. I like sentences that don't budge though armies cross them. I like words to be hard—such were Bonamy's views, and they won him the hostility of those whose taste is all for the fresh growths of the morning, who throw up the window, and find the poppies spread in the sun, and can't forbear a shout of jubilation at the astonishing fertility of English literature. That was not Bonamy's way at all. That his taste in literature affected his friendships, and made him silent, secretive, fastidious, and only quite at his ease with one or two young men of his own way of thinking, was the charge against him.

I like books that pack all their value into just a page or two. I appreciate sentences that stand strong even when challenged. I prefer words to be solid—this was Bonamy's perspective, and it earned him the criticism of those who enjoy the fresh blooms of the morning, who open their windows to see the sunlit poppies and can't help but shout with joy at the incredible abundance of English literature. That was not Bonamy's style at all. The fact that his literary taste affected his friendships, making him quiet, secretive, picky, and only comfortable with a few like-minded young men, was something people held against him.

But then Jacob Flanders was not at all of his own way of thinking—far from it, Bonamy sighed, laying the thin sheets of notepaper on the table and falling into thought about Jacob's character, not for the first time.

But Jacob Flanders definitely didn't think for himself—far from it, Bonamy sighed, placing the thin sheets of notepaper on the table and pondering Jacob's character, not for the first time.

The trouble was this romantic vein in him. "But mixed with the stupidity which leads him into these absurd predicaments," thought Bonamy, "there is something—something"—he sighed, for he was fonder of Jacob than of any one in the world.

The issue was this romantic side of him. "But combined with the foolishness that gets him into these ridiculous situations," Bonamy thought, "there's something—something"—he sighed, because he cared more for Jacob than anyone else in the world.

Jacob went to the window and stood with his hands in his pockets. There he saw three Greeks in kilts; the masts of ships; idle or busy people of the lower classes strolling or stepping out briskly, or falling into groups and gesticulating with their hands. Their lack of concern for him was not the cause of his gloom; but some more profound conviction—it was not that he himself happened to be lonely, but that all people are.

Jacob went to the window and stood with his hands in his pockets. There he saw three Greeks in kilts, the masts of ships, and people from the lower classes casually walking by or moving quickly, sometimes gathering in groups and waving their hands around. Their indifference toward him wasn’t what made him feel down; instead, it was a deeper realization—he wasn't just feeling lonely himself, but he believed that everyone was.

Yet next day, as the train slowly rounded a hill on the way to Olympia, the Greek peasant women were out among the vines; the old Greek men were sitting at the stations, sipping sweet wine. And though Jacob remained gloomy he had never suspected how tremendously pleasant it is to be alone; out of England; on one's own; cut off from the whole thing. There are very sharp bare hills on the way to Olympia; and between them blue sea in triangular spaces. A little like the Cornish coast. Well now, to go walking by oneself all day—to get on to that track and follow it up between the bushes—or are they small trees?—to the top of that mountain from which one can see half the nations of antiquity—

Yet the next day, as the train slowly rounded a hill on the way to Olympia, the Greek peasant women were out among the vines; the old Greek men were sitting at the stations, sipping sweet wine. And although Jacob felt down, he had never realized how incredibly nice it is to be alone; out of England; on his own; cut off from everything. There are very sharp bare hills on the way to Olympia; and between them, blue sea in triangular patches. A bit like the Cornish coast. Now, to walk by oneself all day—to get on that path and follow it up between the bushes—or are they small trees?—to the top of that mountain from which one can see half the nations of antiquity—

"Yes," said Jacob, for his carriage was empty, "let's look at the map." Blame it or praise it, there is no denying the wild horse in us. To gallop intemperately; fall on the sand tired out; to feel the earth spin; to have—positively—a rush of friendship for stones and grasses, as if humanity were over, and as for men and women, let them go hang—there is no getting over the fact that this desire seizes us pretty often.

"Yeah," Jacob said, since his carriage was empty, "let's check out the map." Whether we like it or not, we can't deny the wild side in us. To gallop recklessly, collapsing on the sand, feeling the earth spin; to genuinely have a rush of connection with stones and grasses, as if humanity is done, and when it comes to men and women, they can just deal with it—this urge hits us pretty frequently.

The evening air slightly moved the dirty curtains in the hotel window at
Olympia.

The evening air gently rustled the grimy curtains in the hotel window at
Olympia.

"I am full of love for every one," thought Mrs. Wentworth Williams, "—for the poor most of all—for the peasants coming back in the evening with their burdens. And everything is soft and vague and very sad. It is sad, it is sad. But everything has meaning," thought Sandra Wentworth Williams, raising her head a little and looking very beautiful, tragic, and exalted. "One must love everything."

"I love everyone," Mrs. Wentworth Williams thought, "—especially the poor—like the peasants returning in the evening with their loads. Everything feels soft, unclear, and really sad. It’s sad, it’s sad. But everything means something," Sandra Wentworth Williams thought, lifting her head a bit and looking incredibly beautiful, tragic, and elevated. "You have to love everything."

She held in her hand a little book convenient for travelling—stories by Tchekov—as she stood, veiled, in white, in the window of the hotel at Olympia. How beautiful the evening was! and her beauty was its beauty. The tragedy of Greece was the tragedy of all high souls. The inevitable compromise. She seemed to have grasped something. She would write it down. And moving to the table where her husband sat reading she leant her chin in her hands and thought of the peasants, of suffering, of her own beauty, of the inevitable compromise, and of how she would write it down. Nor did Evan Williams say anything brutal, banal, or foolish when he shut his book and put it away to make room for the plates of soup which were now being placed before them. Only his drooping bloodhound eyes and his heavy sallow cheeks expressed his melancholy tolerance, his conviction that though forced to live with circumspection and deliberation he could never possibly achieve any of those objects which, as he knew, are the only ones worth pursuing. His consideration was flawless; his silence unbroken.

She held in her hand a small, travel-friendly book—stories by Tchekov—as she stood, veiled in white, by the window of the hotel at Olympia. The evening was so beautiful, and her beauty added to it. The tragedy of Greece mirrored the tragedy of all noble souls: the unavoidable compromise. She felt like she understood something important. She wanted to write it down. Moving to the table where her husband sat reading, she rested her chin on her hands and thought about the peasants, suffering, her own beauty, the unavoidable compromise, and how she would jot it all down. Evan Williams didn’t say anything harsh, trivial, or foolish when he closed his book and set it aside to make space for the bowls of soup that were now being placed in front of them. His drooping bloodhound eyes and heavy sallow cheeks revealed his deep, resigned tolerance, and his belief that although he had to live carefully and deliberately, he would never achieve any of those goals that he knew were truly worth pursuing. His consideration was perfect; his silence remained unbroken.

"Everything seems to mean so much," said Sandra. But with the sound of her own voice the spell was broken. She forgot the peasants. Only there remained with her a sense of her own beauty, and in front, luckily, there was a looking-glass.

"Everything seems to mean so much," said Sandra. But the moment she heard her own voice, the spell was broken. She forgot about the peasants. All that was left was a sense of her own beauty, and fortunately, there was a mirror in front of her.

"I am very beautiful," she thought.

"I'm so pretty," she thought.

She shifted her hat slightly. Her husband saw her looking in the glass; and agreed that beauty is important; it is an inheritance; one cannot ignore it. But it is a barrier; it is in fact rather a bore. So he drank his soup; and kept his eyes fixed upon the window.

She adjusted her hat a little. Her husband noticed her gazing in the mirror and nodded that looks matter; they’re a gift; you can’t overlook them. But they can also be a hindrance; honestly, they can be quite tiresome. So he sipped his soup while keeping his eyes glued to the window.

"Quails," said Mrs. Wentworth Williams languidly. "And then goat, I suppose; and then…"

"Quails," said Mrs. Wentworth Williams wearily. "And then goat, I guess; and then…"

"Caramel custard presumably," said her husband in the same cadence, with his toothpick out already.

"Caramel custard, I guess," her husband said in the same tone, already pulling out his toothpick.

She laid her spoon upon her plate, and her soup was taken away half finished. Never did she do anything without dignity; for hers was the English type which is so Greek, save that villagers have touched their hats to it, the vicarage reveres it; and upper-gardeners and under-gardeners respectfully straighten their backs as she comes down the broad terrace on Sunday morning, dallying at the stone urns with the Prime Minister to pick a rose—which, perhaps, she was trying to forget, as her eye wandered round the dining-room of the inn at Olympia, seeking the window where her book lay, where a few minutes ago she had discovered something—something very profound it had been, about love and sadness and the peasants.

She set her spoon down on her plate, and her soup was taken away half-finished. She never did anything without dignity; hers was the English type that is very Greek, except that villagers tipped their hats to it, the vicarage respected it; and both upper and lower gardeners straightened their backs respectfully as she walked down the wide terrace on Sunday morning, pausing at the stone urns with the Prime Minister to pick a rose—which, maybe, she was trying to forget, as her gaze wandered around the dining room of the inn at Olympia, looking for the window where her book lay, where just a few minutes ago she had discovered something—something very deep it had been, about love and sadness and the peasants.

But it was Evan who sighed; not in despair nor indeed in rebellion. But, being the most ambitious of men and temperamentally the most sluggish, he had accomplished nothing; had the political history of England at his finger-ends, and living much in company with Chatham, Pitt, Burke, and Charles James Fox could not help contrasting himself and his age with them and theirs. "Yet there never was a time when great men are more needed," he was in the habit of saying to himself, with a sigh. Here he was picking his teeth in an inn at Olympia. He had done. But Sandra's eyes wandered.

But it was Evan who sighed; not out of despair or rebellion. However, being the most ambitious man and naturally the most sluggish, he had achieved nothing; he knew England's political history inside out, and spending so much time around Chatham, Pitt, Burke, and Charles James Fox made it impossible not to compare himself and his time with them and theirs. "Yet there’s never been a time when great men are needed more," he often said to himself with a sigh. Here he was, picking his teeth in an inn at Olympia. He had finished. But Sandra's eyes were wandering.

"Those pink melons are sure to be dangerous," he said gloomily. And as he spoke the door opened and in came a young man in a grey check suit.

"Those pink melons are definitely going to be dangerous," he said gloomily. Just then, the door opened and a young man in a gray checkered suit walked in.

"Beautiful but dangerous," said Sandra, immediately talking to her husband in the presence of a third person. ("Ah, an English boy on tour," she thought to herself.)

"Beautiful but dangerous," Sandra said, turning to her husband while a third person was present. ("Ah, an English guy on vacation," she thought to herself.)

And Evan knew all that too.

And Evan knew all of that as well.

Yes, he knew all that; and he admired her. Very pleasant, he thought, to have affairs. But for himself, what with his height (Napoleon was five feet four, he remembered), his bulk, his inability to impose his own personality (and yet great men are needed more than ever now, he sighed), it was useless. He threw away his cigar, went up to Jacob and asked him, with a simple sort of sincerity which Jacob liked, whether he had come straight out from England.

Yes, he knew all that, and he admired her. He thought it was quite nice to have affairs. But for himself, considering his height (Napoleon was five feet four, he recalled), his size, and his inability to assert his personality (and yet great leaders are needed more than ever now, he sighed), it was pointless. He tossed away his cigar, approached Jacob, and asked him, with a straightforward kind of sincerity that Jacob appreciated, whether he had come straight from England.

"How very English!" Sandra laughed when the waiter told them next morning that the young gentleman had left at five to climb the mountain. "I am sure he asked you for a bath?" at which the waiter shook his head, and said that he would ask the manager.

"How very English!" Sandra laughed when the waiter told them the next morning that the young man had left at five to climb the mountain. "I'm sure he asked you for a bath?" to which the waiter shook his head and said he would ask the manager.

"You do not understand," laughed Sandra. "Never mind."

"You don't get it," laughed Sandra. "Forget it."

Stretched on the top of the mountain, quite alone, Jacob enjoyed himself immensely. Probably he had never been so happy in the whole of his life.

Stretched out on the top of the mountain, all by himself, Jacob was having an incredible time. He probably had never been this happy in his entire life.

But at dinner that night Mr. Williams asked him whether he would like to see the paper; then Mrs. Williams asked him (as they strolled on the terrace smoking—and how could he refuse that man's cigar?) whether he'd seen the theatre by moonlight; whether he knew Everard Sherborn; whether he read Greek and whether (Evan rose silently and went in) if he had to sacrifice one it would be the French literature or the Russian?

But at dinner that night, Mr. Williams asked him if he’d like to see the newspaper. Then Mrs. Williams asked him, as they walked on the terrace smoking—and how could he refuse that guy's cigar?—if he had seen the theater by moonlight, if he knew Everard Sherborn, if he read Greek, and whether (Evan quietly stood up and went inside) if he had to choose, would it be French literature or Russian?

"And now," wrote Jacob in his letter to Bonamy, "I shall have to read her cursed book"—her Tchekov, he meant, for she had lent it him.

"And now," Jacob wrote in his letter to Bonamy, "I'll have to read her damn book"—her Tchekov, he meant, since she had lent it to him.

Though the opinion is unpopular it seems likely enough that bare places, fields too thick with stones to be ploughed, tossing sea-meadows half-way between England and America, suit us better than cities.

Though this opinion might not be popular, it seems pretty clear that open spaces, fields too rocky to be plowed, and the tossing sea-meadows situated between England and America suit us better than cities.

There is something absolute in us which despises qualification. It is this which is teased and twisted in society. People come together in a room. "So delighted," says somebody, "to meet you," and that is a lie. And then: "I enjoy the spring more than the autumn now. One does, I think, as one gets older." For women are always, always, always talking about what one feels, and if they say "as one gets older," they mean you to reply with something quite off the point.

There’s something absolute within us that looks down on qualifications. This is what gets teased and manipulated in society. People gather in a room. “So happy to meet you,” someone says, and that’s a lie. And then: “I enjoy spring more than autumn now. I think that happens as you get older.” Women are always, always, always discussing feelings, and when they say “as you get older,” they expect you to respond with something completely unrelated.

Jacob sat himself down in the quarry where the Greeks had cut marble for the theatre. It is hot work walking up Greek hills at midday. The wild red cyclamen was out; he had seen the little tortoises hobbling from clump to clump; the air smelt strong and suddenly sweet, and the sun, striking on jagged splinters of marble, was very dazzling to the eyes. Composed, commanding, contemptuous, a little melancholy, and bored with an august kind of boredom, there he sat smoking his pipe.

Jacob sat down in the quarry where the Greeks had cut marble for the theater. It's tough walking up Greek hills at noon. The wild red cyclamen were blooming; he had seen the little tortoises moving from clump to clump; the air smelled strong and suddenly sweet, and the sun, shining on jagged pieces of marble, was really bright. Calm, confident, slightly disdainful, a bit melancholy, and bored with a dignified kind of boredom, he sat there smoking his pipe.

Bonamy would have said that this was the sort of thing that made him uneasy—when Jacob got into the doldrums, looked like a Margate fisherman out of a job, or a British Admiral. You couldn't make him understand a thing when he was in a mood like that. One had better leave him alone. He was dull. He was apt to be grumpy.

Bonamy would have said that this was the kind of thing that made him uncomfortable—when Jacob fell into a funk, looking like a Margate fisherman without work, or a British Admiral. You couldn't get him to understand anything when he was in a mood like that. It was better to just leave him alone. He was boring. He was likely to be cranky.

He was up very early, looking at the statues with his Baedeker.

He woke up really early, checking out the statues with his travel guide.

Sandra Wentworth Williams, ranging the world before breakfast in quest of adventure or a point of view, all in white, not so very tall perhaps, but uncommonly upright—Sandra Williams got Jacob's head exactly on a level with the head of the Hermes of Praxiteles. The comparison was all in his favour. But before she could say a single word he had gone out of the Museum and left her.

Sandra Wentworth Williams, exploring the world before breakfast in search of adventure or a new perspective, dressed all in white, not particularly tall but unusually confident—Sandra Williams positioned Jacob’s head right in line with the head of the Hermes of Praxiteles. The comparison favored him entirely. But before she could say a word, he had exited the Museum and left her.

Still, a lady of fashion travels with more than one dress, and if white suits the morning hour, perhaps sandy yellow with purple spots on it, a black hat, and a volume of Balzac, suit the evening. Thus she was arranged on the terrace when Jacob came in. Very beautiful she looked. With her hands folded she mused, seemed to listen to her husband, seemed to watch the peasants coming down with brushwood on their backs, seemed to notice how the hill changed from blue to black, seemed to discriminate between truth and falsehood, Jacob thought, and crossed his legs suddenly, observing the extreme shabbiness of his trousers.

Still, a fashionable woman travels with more than one outfit, and if white works for the morning, maybe sandy yellow with purple spots, a black hat, and a book of Balzac are perfect for the evening. That's how she was set up on the terrace when Jacob walked in. She looked very beautiful. With her hands folded, she seemed lost in thought, appeared to listen to her husband, watched the farmers coming down with firewood on their backs, noticed how the hill changed from blue to black, and seemed to tell the difference between truth and lies, Jacob thought, as he suddenly crossed his legs, noticing the extreme shabbiness of his trousers.

"But he is very distinguished looking," Sandra decided.

"But he looks very distinguished," Sandra decided.

And Evan Williams, lying back in his chair with the paper on his knees, envied them. The best thing he could do would be to publish, with Macmillans, his monograph upon the foreign policy of Chatham. But confound this tumid, queasy feeling—this restlessness, swelling, and heat—it was jealousy! jealousy! jealousy! which he had sworn never to feel again.

And Evan Williams, reclining in his chair with the newspaper on his lap, envied them. The best thing he could do would be to publish, with Macmillans, his monograph on Chatham's foreign policy. But damn this bloated, uneasy sensation—this restlessness, swelling, and heat—it was jealousy! jealousy! jealousy! that he had vowed never to experience again.

"Come with us to Corinth, Flanders," he said with more than his usual energy, stopping by Jacob's chair. He was relieved by Jacob's reply, or rather by the solid, direct, if shy manner in which he said that he would like very much to come with them to Corinth.

"Come with us to Corinth, Flanders," he said with more energy than usual, pausing by Jacob's chair. He felt relieved by Jacob's response, or more specifically, by the straightforward and somewhat shy way he expressed that he would love to join them in Corinth.

"Here is a fellow," thought Evan Williams, "who might do very well in politics."

"Here’s someone," thought Evan Williams, "who could really thrive in politics."

"I intend to come to Greece every year so long as I live," Jacob wrote to Bonamy. "It is the only chance I can see of protecting oneself from civilization."

"I plan to go to Greece every year for the rest of my life," Jacob wrote to Bonamy. "It's the only way I can see to shield myself from civilization."

"Goodness knows what he means by that," Bonamy sighed. For as he never said a clumsy thing himself, these dark sayings of Jacob's made him feel apprehensive, yet somehow impressed, his own turn being all for the definite, the concrete, and the rational.

"Who knows what he means by that," Bonamy sighed. Since he never said anything awkward himself, Jacob's cryptic remarks made him feel uneasy, yet somehow impressed, as he preferred things to be clear, concrete, and rational.

Nothing could be much simpler than what Sandra said as she descended the Acro-Corinth, keeping to the little path, while Jacob strode over rougher ground by her side. She had been left motherless at the age of four; and the Park was vast.

Nothing could be much simpler than what Sandra said as she walked down the Acro-Corinth, sticking to the small path, while Jacob walked alongside her over rougher terrain. She had lost her mother when she was four, and the Park was huge.

"One never seemed able to get out of it," she laughed. Of course there was the library, and dear Mr. Jones, and notions about things. "I used to stray into the kitchen and sit upon the butler's knees," she laughed, sadly though.

"One never seemed able to escape it," she laughed. Of course, there was the library, and dear Mr. Jones, and thoughts about things. "I used to wander into the kitchen and sit on the butler's lap," she laughed, though it was a sad laugh.

Jacob thought that if he had been there he would have saved her; for she had been exposed to great dangers, he felt, and, he thought to himself, "People wouldn't understand a woman talking as she talks."

Jacob believed that if he had been there, he could have saved her; she had faced significant dangers, he felt, and he thought to himself, "People wouldn't get why a woman speaks the way she does."

She made little of the roughness of the hill; and wore breeches, he saw, under her short skirts.

She didn't think much of the roughness of the hill; and he noticed she was wearing pants under her short skirts.

"Women like Fanny Elmer don't," he thought. "What's-her-name Carslake didn't; yet they pretend…"

"Women like Fanny Elmer don't," he thought. "What’s-her-name Carslake didn't; yet they pretend…"

Mrs. Williams said things straight out. He was surprised by his own knowledge of the rules of behaviour; how much more can be said than one thought; how open one can be with a woman; and how little he had known himself before.

Mrs. Williams spoke her mind. He was surprised by how well he understood the rules of behavior; how much more could be expressed than one originally thought; how open one could be with a woman; and how little he had known himself before.

Evan joined them on the road; and as they drove along up hill and down hill (for Greece is in a state of effervescence, yet astonishingly clean-cut, a treeless land, where you see the ground between the blades, each hill cut and shaped and outlined as often as not against sparkling deep blue waters, islands white as sand floating on the horizon, occasional groves of palm trees standing in the valleys, which are scattered with black goats, spotted with little olive trees and sometimes have white hollows, rayed and criss-crossed, in their flanks), as they drove up hill and down he scowled in the corner of the carriage, with his paw so tightly closed that the skin was stretched between the knuckles and the little hairs stood upright. Sandra rode opposite, dominant, like a Victory prepared to fling into the air.

Evan joined them on the road, and as they drove uphill and downhill (Greece is lively yet surprisingly well-defined, a treeless land where you can see the ground between the blades of grass, each hill shaped and outlined often against the sparkling deep blue waters, islands as white as sand floating on the horizon, occasional groves of palm trees in the valleys, scattered with black goats, dotted with small olive trees and sometimes featuring white hollows, marked with rays and criss-crosses in their sides), as they drove up and down, he sulked in the corner of the carriage, his fist so tightly closed that the skin was stretched between his knuckles and the fine hairs stood on end. Sandra sat opposite, assertive, like a Victory ready to be lifted into the air.

"Heartless!" thought Evan (which was untrue).

"Heartless!" Evan thought (which wasn't true).

"Brainless!" he suspected (and that was not true either). "Still…!" He envied her.

"Airhead!" he thought (and that wasn't true either). "But still…!" He envied her.

When bedtime came the difficulty was to write to Bonamy, Jacob found.
Yet he had seen Salamis, and Marathon in the distance. Poor old Bonamy!
No; there was something queer about it. He could not write to Bonamy.

When bedtime came, Jacob found it hard to write to Bonamy.
Yet he had seen Salamis and Marathon in the distance. Poor old Bonamy!
No; there was something off about it. He couldn't write to Bonamy.

"I shall go to Athens all the same," he resolved, looking very set, with this hook dragging in his side.

"I'll go to Athens anyway," he decided, looking quite determined, with this hook digging into his side.

The Williamses had already been to Athens.

The Williams family had already been to Athens.

Athens is still quite capable of striking a young man as the oddest combination, the most incongruous assortment. Now it is suburban; now immortal. Now cheap continental jewellery is laid upon plush trays. Now the stately woman stands naked, save for a wave of drapery above the knee. No form can he set on his sensations as he strolls, one blazing afternoon, along the Parisian boulevard and skips out of the way of the royal landau which, looking indescribably ramshackle, rattles along the pitted roadway, saluted by citizens of both sexes cheaply dressed in bowler hats and continental costumes; though a shepherd in kilt, cap, and gaiters very nearly drives his herd of goats between the royal wheels; and all the time the Acropolis surges into the air, raises itself above the town, like a large immobile wave with the yellow columns of the Parthenon firmly planted upon it.

Athens can still strike a young man as the strangest mix, the most mismatched collection. One moment it feels suburban; the next, timeless. In one moment, cheap Continental jewelry is displayed on plush trays. In another, a dignified woman stands bare except for a drape above her knee. No impression can he pin down as he walks one blazing afternoon along the Parisian boulevard, stepping aside for the royal carriage that, looking incredibly rundown, rattles along the bumpy road, acknowledged by citizens of all genders dressed in cheap bowler hats and Continental outfits; yet a shepherd in a kilt, cap, and gaiters nearly drives his herd of goats right between the royal wheels; and all the while, the Acropolis towers above the city, rising like a massive, steady wave with the yellow columns of the Parthenon firmly anchored on top.

The yellow columns of the Parthenon are to be seen at all hours of the day firmly planted upon the Acropolis; though at sunset, when the ships in the Piraeus fire their guns, a bell rings, a man in uniform (the waistcoat unbuttoned) appears; and the women roll up the black stockings which they are knitting in the shadow of the columns, call to the children, and troop off down the hill back to their houses.

The yellow columns of the Parthenon can be seen at all times of the day, standing strong on the Acropolis; however, at sunset, when the ships in the Piraeus fire their cannons, a bell rings, and a man in uniform (his waistcoat unbuttoned) shows up; meanwhile, the women, who are knitting black stockings in the shadow of the columns, call to their children and head down the hill back to their homes.

There they are again, the pillars, the pediment, the Temple of Victory and the Erechtheum, set on a tawny rock cleft with shadows, directly you unlatch your shutters in the morning and, leaning out, hear the clatter, the clamour, the whip cracking in the street below. There they are.

There they are again, the columns, the top part, the Temple of Victory and the Erechtheum, placed on a brown rock split with shadows. As soon as you open your shutters in the morning and lean out, you hear the noise, the chaos, the cracking of whips in the street below. There they are.

The extreme definiteness with which they stand, now a brilliant white, again yellow, and in some lights red, imposes ideas of durability, of the emergence through the earth of some spiritual energy elsewhere dissipated in elegant trifles. But this durability exists quite independently of our admiration. Although the beauty is sufficiently humane to weaken us, to stir the deep deposit of mud—memories, abandonments, regrets, sentimental devotions—the Parthenon is separate from all that; and if you consider how it has stood out all night, for centuries, you begin to connect the blaze (at midday the glare is dazzling and the frieze almost invisible) with the idea that perhaps it is beauty alone that is immortal.

The absolute clarity with which they stand, now a bright white, then yellow, and in some light red, suggests ideas of durability, as if some spiritual energy is emerging from the earth, energy that is otherwise scattered in elegant little details. But this durability exists completely apart from our admiration. Even though the beauty is so human that it can weaken us, stirring up a deep well of memories, losses, regrets, and sentimental attachments, the Parthenon remains distinct from all of that. If you think about how it has been standing out all night for centuries, you start to associate the brilliance (at midday the brightness is blinding and the frieze nearly invisible) with the thought that perhaps beauty alone is what is eternal.

Added to this, compared with the blistered stucco, the new love songs rasped out to the strum of guitar and gramophone, and the mobile yet insignificant faces of the street, the Parthenon is really astonishing in its silent composure; which is so vigorous that, far from being decayed, the Parthenon appears, on the contrary, likely to outlast the entire world.

Added to this, compared to the cracked stucco, the new love songs that scratch along with the sounds of guitar and gramophone, and the shifting yet unremarkable faces on the street, the Parthenon is truly amazing in its quiet steadiness; its strength is so impressive that, instead of being worn down, the Parthenon seems more likely to outlast the whole world.

"And the Greeks, like sensible men, never bothered to finish the backs of their statues," said Jacob, shading his eyes and observing that the side of the figure which is turned away from view is left in the rough.

"And the Greeks, being practical, never bothered to finish the backs of their statues," said Jacob, shading his eyes and noting that the side of the figure that's out of sight is left rough.

He noted the slight irregularity in the line of the steps which "the artistic sense of the Greeks preferred to mathematical accuracy," he read in his guide-book.

He noticed the slight irregularity in the line of the steps which "the artistic sense of the Greeks preferred to mathematical accuracy," he read in his guidebook.

He stood on the exact spot where the great statue of Athena used to stand, and identified the more famous landmarks of the scene beneath.

He stood where the famous statue of Athena used to be and pointed out the more well-known landmarks in the view below.

In short he was accurate and diligent; but profoundly morose. Moreover he was pestered by guides. This was on Monday.

In short, he was precise and hardworking, but extremely gloomy. On top of that, he was bothered by guides. This was on Monday.

But on Wednesday he wrote a telegram to Bonamy, telling him to come at once. And then he crumpled it in his hand and threw it in the gutter.

But on Wednesday he sent a telegram to Bonamy, telling him to come right away. Then he crumpled it in his hand and tossed it into the gutter.

"For one thing he wouldn't come," he thought. "And then I daresay this sort of thing wears off." "This sort of thing" being that uneasy, painful feeling, something like selfishness—one wishes almost that the thing would stop—it is getting more and more beyond what is possible—"If it goes on much longer I shan't be able to cope with it—but if some one else were seeing it at the same time—Bonamy is stuffed in his room in Lincoln's Inn—oh, I say, damn it all, I say,"—the sight of Hymettus, Pentelicus, Lycabettus on one side, and the sea on the other, as one stands in the Parthenon at sunset, the sky pink feathered, the plain all colours, the marble tawny in one's eyes, is thus oppressive. Luckily Jacob had little sense of personal association; he seldom thought of Plato or Socrates in the flesh; on the other hand his feeling for architecture was very strong; he preferred statues to pictures; and he was beginning to think a great deal about the problems of civilization, which were solved, of course, so very remarkably by the ancient Greeks, though their solution is no help to us. Then the hook gave a great tug in his side as he lay in bed on Wednesday night; and he turned over with a desperate sort of tumble, remembering Sandra Wentworth Williams with whom he was in love.

"For one thing, he wouldn't come," he thought. "And I guess this feeling fades over time." "This feeling" was that uneasy, painful sensation, something like selfishness—he almost wished it would just stop—it's becoming more than he can handle—"If this goes on much longer, I won't be able to deal with it—but if someone else were experiencing it too—Bonamy is stuck in his room in Lincoln's Inn—oh, come on, damn it all,"—the view of Hymettus, Pentelicus, Lycabettus on one side and the sea on the other, while standing in the Parthenon at sunset, the sky pink and feathered, the landscape a riot of colors, the marble glowing warmly in his eyes, feels suffocating. Luckily, Jacob didn't have a strong personal connection; he rarely thought of Plato or Socrates as real people; on the other hand, he had a deep appreciation for architecture; he favored statues over paintings; and he was starting to ponder a lot about civilization's issues, which the ancient Greeks managed to address so remarkably, even though their solutions don't help us now. Then, on Wednesday night, the hook gave a sharp tug in his side as he lay in bed; he rolled over in a desperate tumble, remembering Sandra Wentworth Williams, the woman he was in love with.

Next day he climbed Pentelicus.

The next day, he climbed Pentelicus.

The day after he went up to the Acropolis. The hour was early; the place almost deserted; and possibly there was thunder in the air. But the sun struck full upon the Acropolis.

The day after he went up to the Acropolis. It was early in the morning; the place was almost empty; and there might have been thunder in the air. But the sun shone brightly on the Acropolis.

Jacob's intention was to sit down and read, and, finding a drum of marble conveniently placed, from which Marathon could be seen, and yet it was in the shade, while the Erechtheum blazed white in front of him, there he sat. And after reading a page he put his thumb in his book. Why not rule countries in the way they should be ruled? And he read again.

Jacob intended to sit down and read, and he spotted a marble drum conveniently positioned where he could see Marathon, yet it was shaded while the Erechtheum shone white in front of him. So, he settled down there. After reading a page, he paused and marked his place with his thumb. Why not govern countries the way they ought to be governed? Then he started reading again.

No doubt his position there overlooking Marathon somehow raised his spirits. Or it may have been that a slow capacious brain has these moments of flowering. Or he had, insensibly, while he was abroad, got into the way of thinking about politics.

No doubt his spot overlooking Marathon somehow lifted his spirits. Or maybe a slow but deep-thinking brain has these moments of clarity. Or perhaps, without realizing it, he had started thinking about politics while he was away.

And then looking up and seeing the sharp outline, his meditations were given an extraordinary edge; Greece was over; the Parthenon in ruins; yet there he was.

And then looking up and seeing the sharp outline, his thoughts took on an extraordinary edge; Greece was over; the Parthenon was in ruins; yet there he was.

(Ladies with green and white umbrellas passed through the courtyard—French ladies on their way to join their husbands in Constantinople.)

(Ladies with green and white umbrellas walked through the courtyard—French women heading to meet their husbands in Constantinople.)

Jacob read on again. And laying the book on the ground he began, as if inspired by what he had read, to write a note upon the importance of history—upon democracy—one of those scribbles upon which the work of a lifetime may be based; or again, it falls out of a book twenty years later, and one can't remember a word of it. It is a little painful. It had better be burnt.

Jacob continued reading. After placing the book on the ground, he started, as if inspired by what he had read, to jot down a note about the importance of history—about democracy—one of those scribbles upon which the work of a lifetime might rest; or it might end up falling out of a book twenty years later, and he wouldn’t remember a thing about it. It’s a bit frustrating. It would be better to just burn it.

Jacob wrote; began to draw a straight nose; when all the French ladies opening and shutting their umbrellas just beneath him exclaimed, looking at the sky, that one did not know what to expect—rain or fine weather?

Jacob wrote; started to sketch a straight nose; when all the French ladies opening and closing their umbrellas right below him exclaimed, looking up at the sky, that you never knew what to expect—rain or nice weather?

Jacob got up and strolled across to the Erechtheum. There are still several women standing there holding the roof on their heads. Jacob straightened himself slightly; for stability and balance affect the body first. These statues annulled things so! He stared at them, then turned, and there was Madame Lucien Grave perched on a block of marble with her kodak pointed at his head. Of course she jumped down, in spite of her age, her figure, and her tight boots—having, now that her daughter was married, lapsed with a luxurious abandonment, grand enough in its way, into the fleshy grotesque; she jumped down, but not before Jacob had seen her.

Jacob got up and walked over to the Erechtheum. There were still a few women standing there, holding the roof on their heads. Jacob straightened himself a bit; stability and balance affect the body first. These statues were so captivating! He stared at them, then turned around, and there was Madame Lucien Grave sitting on a block of marble with her camera aimed at his head. Of course, she jumped down, despite her age, her figure, and her tight boots—having, now that her daughter was married, let herself go with a kind of lavish abandon, grand enough in its own way, into the fleshy grotesque; she jumped down, but not before Jacob had seen her.

"Damn these women—damn these women!" he thought. And he went to fetch his book which he had left lying on the ground in the Parthenon.

"Damn these women—damn these women!" he thought. And he went to grab his book that he had left on the ground in the Parthenon.

"How they spoil things," he murmured, leaning against one of the pillars, pressing his book tight between his arm and his side. (As for the weather, no doubt the storm would break soon; Athens was under cloud.)

"How they ruin everything," he murmured, leaning against one of the pillars, pressing his book tightly between his arm and his side. (As for the weather, the storm would likely hit soon; Athens was covered in clouds.)

"It is those damned women," said Jacob, without any trace of bitterness, but rather with sadness and disappointment that what might have been should never be.

"It’s those damned women," Jacob said, not with any bitterness, but with sadness and disappointment that what could have been will never happen.

(This violent disillusionment is generally to be expected in young men in the prime of life, sound of wind and limb, who will soon become fathers of families and directors of banks.)

(This harsh disillusionment is typically expected in young men in the prime of their lives, healthy and strong, who will soon become fathers and bank executives.)

Then, making sure that the Frenchwomen had gone, and looking cautiously round him, Jacob strolled over to the Erechtheum and looked rather furtively at the goddess on the left-hand side holding the roof on her head. She reminded him of Sandra Wentworth Williams. He looked at her, then looked away. He looked at her, then looked away. He was extraordinarily moved, and with the battered Greek nose in his head, with Sandra in his head, with all sorts of things in his head, off he started to walk right up to the top of Mount Hymettus, alone, in the heat.

Then, after making sure the Frenchwomen had left and glancing around carefully, Jacob walked over to the Erechtheum and glanced at the goddess on the left side, balancing the roof on her head. She reminded him of Sandra Wentworth Williams. He stared at her, then looked away. He looked back at her, then looked away again. He felt an overwhelming emotion, and with the battered Greek nose in his mind, with thoughts of Sandra, and a mix of other things, he began the climb up to the top of Mount Hymettus, alone, in the heat.

That very afternoon Bonamy went expressly to talk about Jacob to tea with Clara Durrant in the square behind Sloane Street where, on hot spring days, there are striped blinds over the front windows, single horses pawing the macadam outside the doors, and elderly gentlemen in yellow waistcoats ringing bells and stepping in very politely when the maid demurely replies that Mrs. Durrant is at home.

That afternoon, Bonamy went specifically to discuss Jacob while having tea with Clara Durrant in the square behind Sloane Street where, on warm spring days, there are striped blinds over the front windows, single horses pawing at the pavement outside the doors, and older gentlemen in yellow vests ringing bells and stepping in very politely when the maid quietly responds that Mrs. Durrant is at home.

Bonamy sat with Clara in the sunny front room with the barrel organ piping sweetly outside; the water-cart going slowly along spraying the pavement; the carriages jingling, and all the silver and chintz, brown and blue rugs and vases filled with green boughs, striped with trembling yellow bars.

Bonamy sat with Clara in the sunny front room, listening to the barrel organ playing sweetly outside; the water cart moved slowly along, spraying the pavement; carriages jingled by, and all the silver and chintz, brown and blue rugs, and vases filled with green branches were streaked with shimmering yellow light.

The insipidity of what was said needs no illustration—Bonamy kept on gently returning quiet answers and accumulating amazement at an existence squeezed and emasculated within a white satin shoe (Mrs. Durrant meanwhile enunciating strident politics with Sir Somebody in the back room) until the virginity of Clara's soul appeared to him candid; the depths unknown; and he would have brought out Jacob's name had he not begun to feel positively certain that Clara loved him—and could do nothing whatever.

The dullness of the conversation was obvious—Bonamy kept giving soft responses and grew increasingly astonished at a life confined and diminished within a white satin shoe (Mrs. Durrant, meanwhile, loudly discussing politics with Sir Somebody in the back room) until Clara's purity seemed completely clear to him; there were depths he hadn’t realized; and he would have mentioned Jacob’s name had he not started to feel quite sure that Clara loved him—and could do absolutely nothing about it.

"Nothing whatever!" he exclaimed, as the door shut, and, for a man of his temperament, got a very queer feeling, as he walked through the park, of carriages irresistibly driven; of flower beds uncompromisingly geometrical; of force rushing round geometrical patterns in the most senseless way in the world. "Was Clara," he thought, pausing to watch the boys bathing in the Serpentine, "the silent woman?—would Jacob marry her?"

"Nothing at all!" he shouted as the door closed, and, for someone like him, experienced a strange feeling as he strolled through the park, with carriages moving uncontrollably; flower beds arranged in rigid geometric shapes; and energy swirling around these patterns in the most pointless way possible. "Was Clara," he wondered, stopping to watch the boys swimming in the Serpentine, "the quiet woman?—would Jacob marry her?"

But in Athens in the sunshine, in Athens, where it is almost impossible to get afternoon tea, and elderly gentlemen who talk politics talk them all the other way round, in Athens sat Sandra Wentworth Williams, veiled, in white, her legs stretched in front of her, one elbow on the arm of the bamboo chair, blue clouds wavering and drifting from her cigarette.

But in Athens under the sun, in Athens, where it’s nearly impossible to find afternoon tea, and older gentlemen who discuss politics do so in completely the opposite way, in Athens sat Sandra Wentworth Williams, veiled, in white, her legs stretched out in front of her, one elbow resting on the arm of the bamboo chair, blue smoke wavering and drifting from her cigarette.

The orange trees which flourish in the Square of the Constitution, the band, the dragging of feet, the sky, the houses, lemon and rose coloured—all this became so significant to Mrs. Wentworth Williams after her second cup of coffee that she began dramatizing the story of the noble and impulsive Englishwoman who had offered a seat in her carriage to the old American lady at Mycenae (Mrs. Duggan)—not altogether a false story, though it said nothing of Evan, standing first on one foot, then on the other, waiting for the women to stop chattering.

The orange trees thriving in the Square of the Constitution, the band, the sound of shuffling feet, the sky, the houses, lemon and rose-colored—all this became so meaningful to Mrs. Wentworth Williams after her second cup of coffee that she started imagining the tale of the noble and impulsive Englishwoman who had offered her carriage seat to the old American lady at Mycenae (Mrs. Duggan)—not completely an untrue story, even though it left out Evan, who was shifting from one foot to the other, waiting for the women to finish their chatting.

"I am putting the life of Father Damien into verse," Mrs. Duggan had said, for she had lost everything—everything in the world, husband and child and everything, but faith remained.

"I am turning Father Damien's life into poetry," Mrs. Duggan had said, for she had lost everything—her husband, her child, and everything else, but her faith remained.

Sandra, floating from the particular to the universal, lay back in a trance.

Sandra, drifting from the specific to the general, relaxed into a trance.

The flight of time which hurries us so tragically along; the eternal drudge and drone, now bursting into fiery flame like those brief balls of yellow among green leaves (she was looking at orange trees); kisses on lips that are to die; the world turning, turning in mazes of heat and sound—though to be sure there is the quiet evening with its lovely pallor, "For I am sensitive to every side of it," Sandra thought, "and Mrs. Duggan will write to me for ever, and I shall answer her letters." Now the royal band marching by with the national flag stirred wider rings of emotion, and life became something that the courageous mount and ride out to sea on—the hair blown back (so she envisaged it, and the breeze stirred slightly among the orange trees) and she herself was emerging from silver spray—when she saw Jacob. He was standing in the Square with a book under his arm looking vacantly about him. That he was heavily built and might become stout in time was a fact.

The passage of time rushes us along so tragically; the constant routine, suddenly igniting into bright bursts like those yellow globes among green leaves (she was admiring the orange trees); kisses on lips that are destined to perish; the world spinning in a whirlwind of heat and sound—yet there is the calm evening with its beautiful softness, "Because I feel every aspect of it," Sandra thought, "and Mrs. Duggan will keep writing to me forever, and I will reply to her letters." Now the royal band marching by with the national flag stirred deeper emotions, and life transformed into something that the brave would mount and sail off into the sea on—the wind whipping through her hair (this was how she imagined it, with a gentle breeze rustling among the orange trees) and she herself was rising from silver spray—when she spotted Jacob. He was standing in the Square with a book under his arm, looking vacantly around. It was clear he was stocky and could become heavier with time.

But she suspected him of being a mere bumpkin.

But she suspected he was just a simpleton.

"There is that young man," she said, peevishly, throwing away her cigarette, "that Mr. Flanders."

"There’s that young guy," she said irritably, tossing her cigarette aside, "that Mr. Flanders."

"Where?" said Evan. "I don't see him."

"Where?" Evan asked. "I can't see him."

"Oh, walking away—behind the trees now. No, you can't see him. But we are sure to run into him," which, of course, they did.

"Oh, walking away—behind the trees now. No, you can't see him. But we are sure to run into him," which, of course, they did.

But how far was he a mere bumpkin? How far was Jacob Flanders at the age of twenty-six a stupid fellow? It is no use trying to sum people up. One must follow hints, not exactly what is said, nor yet entirely what is done. Some, it is true, take ineffaceable impressions of character at once. Others dally, loiter, and get blown this way and that. Kind old ladies assure us that cats are often the best judges of character. A cat will always go to a good man, they say; but then, Mrs. Whitehorn, Jacob's landlady, loathed cats.

But how much of a simpleton was he really? How much of a fool was Jacob Flanders at twenty-six? It’s pointless to try to categorize people completely. You have to pay attention to hints, not just what’s said or exactly what’s done. Some, it’s true, leave an unforgettable impression of their character right away. Others hesitate, linger, and get swayed in different directions. Kind old ladies tell us that cats are often the best judges of character. They say a cat will always go to a good person; but then, Mrs. Whitehorn, Jacob's landlady, hated cats.

There is also the highly respectable opinion that character-mongering is much overdone nowadays. After all, what does it matter—that Fanny Elmer was all sentiment and sensation, and Mrs. Durrant hard as iron? that Clara, owing (so the character-mongers said) largely to her mother's influence, never yet had the chance to do anything off her own bat, and only to very observant eyes displayed deeps of feeling which were positively alarming; and would certainly throw herself away upon some one unworthy of her one of these days unless, so the character-mongers said, she had a spark of her mother's spirit in her—was somehow heroic. But what a term to apply to Clara Durrant! Simple to a degree, others thought her. And that is the very reason, so they said, why she attracts Dick Bonamy—the young man with the Wellington nose. Now HE'S a dark horse if you like. And there these gossips would suddenly pause. Obviously they meant to hint at his peculiar disposition—long rumoured among them.

There’s also a widely held belief that spreading gossip about someone’s character is way over the top these days. After all, does it really matter that Fanny Elmer was all about emotions and drama, while Mrs. Durrant was as tough as nails? Or that Clara, supposedly influenced by her mother, never really got the chance to do anything on her own, and only showed her deep feelings—which were quite alarming—to those who really paid attention? They said she might end up falling for someone unworthy unless, so the gossips claimed, she had a bit of her mother’s spirit in her—something heroic. But calling Clara Durrant heroic? Others thought she was just simple-minded. And that’s exactly why they believed she caught the eye of Dick Bonamy—the guy with the Wellington nose. Now THAT guy is a bit of a mystery. And that’s when the gossip would suddenly go quiet. Clearly, they were alluding to his unusual personality, which had been rumored among them for a long time.

"But sometimes it is precisely a woman like Clara that men of that temperament need…" Miss Julia Eliot would hint.

"But sometimes it’s exactly a woman like Clara that men with that temperament need…" Miss Julia Eliot would suggest.

"Well," Mr. Bowley would reply, "it may be so."

"Well," Mr. Bowley would respond, "that might be the case."

For however long these gossips sit, and however they stuff out their victims' characters till they are swollen and tender as the livers of geese exposed to a hot fire, they never come to a decision.

For however long these gossips hang around, and however much they inflate their victims' characters until they’re as swollen and soft as the livers of geese under a hot fire, they never reach a conclusion.

"That young man, Jacob Flanders," they would say, "so distinguished looking—and yet so awkward." Then they would apply themselves to Jacob and vacillate eternally between the two extremes. He rode to hounds—after a fashion, for he hadn't a penny.

"That young guy, Jacob Flanders," they would say, "so good-looking—and yet so clumsy." Then they would focus on Jacob and endlessly waver between the two extremes. He rode to hounds—in his own way, since he didn't have a dime.

"Did you ever hear who his father was?" asked Julia Eliot.

"Did you ever find out who his dad was?" asked Julia Eliot.

"His mother, they say, is somehow connected with the Rocksbiers," replied Mr. Bowley.

"People say his mom is somehow linked to the Rocksbiers," Mr. Bowley replied.

"He doesn't overwork himself anyhow."

"He doesn't stress himself out."

"His friends are very fond of him."

"His friends genuinely like him."

"Dick Bonamy, you mean?"

"Dick Bonamy, right?"

"No, I didn't mean that. It's evidently the other way with Jacob. He is precisely the young man to fall headlong in love and repent it for the rest of his life."

"No, I didn't mean that. It’s clearly the opposite with Jacob. He’s exactly the kind of guy who falls madly in love and regrets it for the rest of his life."

"Oh, Mr. Bowley," said Mrs. Durrant, sweeping down upon them in her imperious manner, "you remember Mrs. Adams? Well, that is her niece." And Mr. Bowley, getting up, bowed politely and fetched strawberries.

"Oh, Mr. Bowley," said Mrs. Durrant, approaching them with her commanding presence, "do you remember Mrs. Adams? This is her niece." Mr. Bowley stood up, bowed politely, and brought over some strawberries.

So we are driven back to see what the other side means—the men in clubs and Cabinets—when they say that character-drawing is a frivolous fireside art, a matter of pins and needles, exquisite outlines enclosing vacancy, flourishes, and mere scrawls.

So we are forced to look again at what those in clubs and Cabinets mean when they say that character-drawing is just a silly pastime, something trivial like sewing, with fancy lines that only frame emptiness, decorations, and pointless scribbles.

The battleships ray out over the North Sea, keeping their stations accurately apart. At a given signal all the guns are trained on a target which (the master gunner counts the seconds, watch in hand—at the sixth he looks up) flames into splinters. With equal nonchalance a dozen young men in the prime of life descend with composed faces into the depths of the sea; and there impassively (though with perfect mastery of machinery) suffocate uncomplainingly together. Like blocks of tin soldiers the army covers the cornfield, moves up the hillside, stops, reels slightly this way and that, and falls flat, save that, through field glasses, it can be seen that one or two pieces still agitate up and down like fragments of broken match-stick.

The battleships spread out over the North Sea, maintaining their positions accurately. At a signal, all the guns aim at a target which (the master gunner counting seconds with his watch in hand—at the sixth second he looks up) bursts into pieces. With equal calmness, a dozen young men in the prime of their lives sink with calm expressions into the depths of the sea; and there, impassively (though expertly handling the machinery) they suffocate together without complaint. Like toy soldiers, the army covers the cornfield, advances up the hillside, pauses, sways slightly this way and that, and falls flat, except that through binoculars, one or two pieces can be seen still moving up and down like bits of broken matchsticks.

These actions, together with the incessant commerce of banks, laboratories, chancellories, and houses of business, are the strokes which oar the world forward, they say. And they are dealt by men as smoothly sculptured as the impassive policeman at Ludgate Circus. But you will observe that far from being padded to rotundity his face is stiff from force of will, and lean from the efforts of keeping it so. When his right arm rises, all the force in his veins flows straight from shoulder to finger-tips; not an ounce is diverted into sudden impulses, sentimental regrets, wire-drawn distinctions. The buses punctually stop.

These actions, along with the constant activities of banks, laboratories, government offices, and businesses, are what push the world forward, they claim. And they're carried out by men as polished as the unflinching police officer at Ludgate Circus. But you'll notice that instead of being rounded out, his face is taut from sheer willpower and thin from the effort it takes to maintain that. When his right arm lifts, all the strength in his body flows directly from shoulder to fingertips; not a bit is wasted on sudden urges, emotional regrets, or unnecessary details. The buses arrive right on time.

It is thus that we live, they say, driven by an unseizable force. They say that the novelists never catch it; that it goes hurtling through their nets and leaves them torn to ribbons. This, they say, is what we live by—this unseizable force.

It’s said that we live like this, driven by an elusive force. They claim that novelists can never capture it; that it races through their nets and leaves them in shreds. This, they say, is what we live for—this elusive force.

"Where are the men?" said old General Gibbons, looking round the drawing-room, full as usual on Sunday afternoons of well-dressed people. "Where are the guns?"

"Where are the men?" asked old General Gibbons, glancing around the drawing room, which was, as usual, filled on Sunday afternoons with well-dressed people. "Where are the guns?"

Mrs. Durrant looked too.

Mrs. Durrant checked too.

Clara, thinking that her mother wanted her, came in; then went out again.

Clara, believing her mom was looking for her, came in; then left again.

They were talking about Germany at the Durrants, and Jacob (driven by this unseizable force) walked rapidly down Hermes Street and ran straight into the Williamses.

They were discussing Germany at the Durrants' house, and Jacob (driven by this indescribable force) hurried down Hermes Street and ran right into the Williamses.

"Oh!" cried Sandra, with a cordiality which she suddenly felt. And Evan added, "What luck!"

"Oh!" exclaimed Sandra, suddenly feeling a warmth inside. And Evan added, "What luck!"

The dinner which they gave him in the hotel which looks on to the Square of the Constitution was excellent. Plated baskets contained fresh rolls. There was real butter. And the meat scarcely needed the disguise of innumerable little red and green vegetables glazed in sauce.

The dinner they served him at the hotel overlooking Constitution Square was excellent. Plated baskets held fresh rolls. There was real butter. And the meat hardly needed the cover of countless little red and green vegetables glazed in sauce.

It was strange, though. There were the little tables set out at intervals on the scarlet floor with the Greek King's monogram wrought in yellow. Sandra dined in her hat, veiled as usual. Evan looked this way and that over his shoulder; imperturbable yet supple; and sometimes sighed. It was strange. For they were English people come together in Athens on a May evening. Jacob, helping himself to this and that, answered intelligently, yet with a ring in his voice.

It was odd, though. There were small tables placed at intervals on the red floor, featuring the Greek King's monogram in yellow. Sandra dined in her hat, veiled as usual. Evan glanced around over his shoulder; composed yet flexible; and sometimes sighed. It was strange. For they were English people gathered in Athens on a May evening. Jacob, helping himself to various dishes, responded thoughtfully, yet with a noticeable tone in his voice.

The Williamses were going to Constantinople early next morning, they said.

The Williamses were heading to Constantinople early the next morning, they said.

"Before you are up," said Sandra.

"Before you get up," said Sandra.

They would leave Jacob alone, then. Turning very slightly, Evan ordered something—a bottle of wine—from which he helped Jacob, with a kind of solicitude, with a kind of paternal solicitude, if that were possible. To be left alone—that was good for a young fellow. Never was there a time when the country had more need of men. He sighed.

They would leave Jacob alone, then. Turning slightly, Evan ordered something—a bottle of wine—which he poured for Jacob, with a sense of care, almost like a fatherly concern, if that was possible. Being left alone—that was good for a young guy. There had never been a time when the country needed men more. He sighed.

"And you have been to the Acropolis?" asked Sandra.

"And you’ve been to the Acropolis?" asked Sandra.

"Yes," said Jacob. And they moved off to the window together, while Evan spoke to the head waiter about calling them early.

"Yeah," Jacob said. They walked over to the window together while Evan talked to the head waiter about calling them early.

"It is astonishing," said Jacob, in a gruff voice.

"It’s incredible," said Jacob, in a rough voice.

Sandra opened her eyes very slightly. Possibly her nostrils expanded a little too.

Sandra opened her eyes just a bit. Her nostrils might have flared a little as well.

"At half-past six then," said Evan, coming towards them, looking as if he faced something in facing his wife and Jacob standing with their backs to the window.

"At six-thirty then," said Evan, approaching them, appearing as if he was confronting something while facing his wife and Jacob, who were standing with their backs to the window.

Sandra smiled at him.

Sandra smiled at him.

And, as he went to the window and had nothing to say she added, in broken half-sentences:

And as he walked over to the window, without saying anything, she added in incomplete sentences:

"Well, but how lovely—wouldn't it be? The Acropolis, Evan—or are you too tired?"

"Well, how lovely would that be? The Acropolis, Evan—or are you too tired?"

At that Evan looked at them, or, since Jacob was staring ahead of him, at his wife, surlily, sullenly, yet with a kind of distress—not that she would pity him. Nor would the implacable spirit of love, for anything he could do, cease its tortures.

At that, Evan looked at them, or, since Jacob was staring straight ahead, at his wife, grumpily, moodily, yet with a sense of distress—not that she would feel sorry for him. And no matter what he did, the unyielding nature of love wouldn’t stop its torment.

They left him and he sat in the smoking-room, which looks out on to the
Square of the Constitution.

They left him, and he sat in the smoking room that overlooks the
Square of the Constitution.

"Evan is happier alone," said Sandra. "We have been separated from the newspapers. Well, it is better that people should have what they want…. You have seen all these wonderful things since we met…. What impression … I think that you are changed."

"Evan is happier by himself," Sandra said. "We've been away from the newspapers. Well, it's better for people to get what they want… You’ve seen all these amazing things since we met… What an impression… I think you’ve changed."

"You want to go to the Acropolis," said Jacob. "Up here then."

"You want to go to the Acropolis," Jacob said. "This way."

"One will remember it all one's life," said Sandra.

"People will remember it for their whole lives," said Sandra.

"Yes," said Jacob. "I wish you could have come in the day-time."

"Yeah," Jacob said. "I wish you could have come during the day."

"This is more wonderful," said Sandra, waving her hand.

"This is so amazing," said Sandra, waving her hand.

Jacob looked vaguely.

Jacob looked uncertain.

"But you should see the Parthenon in the day-time," he said. "You couldn't come to-morrow—it would be too early?"

"But you really need to see the Parthenon during the day," he said. "You can't come tomorrow—it would be too early?"

"You have sat there for hours and hours by yourself?"

"You've been sitting there alone for hours?"

"There were some awful women this morning," said Jacob.

"There were some terrible women this morning," Jacob said.

"Awful women?" Sandra echoed.

"Awful women?" Sandra repeated.

"Frenchwomen."

"French women."

"But something very wonderful has happened," said Sandra. Ten minutes, fifteen minutes, half an hour—that was all the time before her.

"But something truly amazing has happened," said Sandra. Ten minutes, fifteen minutes, half an hour—that was all the time ahead of her.

"Yes," he said.

"Yeah," he said.

"When one is your age—when one is young. What will you do? You will fall in love—oh yes! But don't be in too great a hurry. I am so much older."

"When you’re your age—when you’re young. What will you do? You’ll fall in love—oh yes! But don’t rush it. I’m so much older."

She was brushed off the pavement by parading men.

She was pushed off the sidewalk by the marching men.

"Shall we go on?" Jacob asked.

"Should we keep going?" Jacob asked.

"Let us go on," she insisted.

"Let's keep going," she urged.

For she could not stop until she had told him—or heard him say—or was it some action on his part that she required? Far away on the horizon she discerned it and could not rest.

For she couldn't stop until she had told him—or heard him say—or was it some action from him that she needed? Far away on the horizon, she saw it and could not find peace.

"You'd never get English people to sit out like this," he said.

"You'd never get English people to sit outside like this," he said.

"Never—no. When you get back to England you won't forget this—or come with us to Constantinople!" she cried suddenly.

"Never—no. When you get back to England, you won't forget this—or come with us to Constantinople!" she exclaimed suddenly.

"But then…"

"But then..."

Sandra sighed.

Sandra sighed.

"You must go to Delphi, of course," she said. "But," she asked herself, "what do I want from him? Perhaps it is something that I have missed…."

"You definitely have to go to Delphi," she said. "But," she wondered, "what do I really want from him? Maybe it's something I've overlooked…."

"You will get there about six in the evening," she said. "You will see the eagles."

"You'll arrive around six in the evening," she said. "You'll see the eagles."

Jacob looked set and even desperate by the light at the street corner and yet composed. He was suffering, perhaps. He was credulous. Yet there was something caustic about him. He had in him the seeds of extreme disillusionment, which would come to him from women in middle life. Perhaps if one strove hard enough to reach the top of the hill it need not come to him—this disillusionment from women in middle life.

Jacob appeared both determined and somewhat desperate under the streetlight at the corner, yet he maintained his composure. He might be in pain. He was easily influenced. Still, there was a sharpness to his character. He carried the potential for deep disillusionment, which would arise from relationships with women in midlife. Maybe if he worked hard enough to reach the top of the hill, he could avoid this disillusionment from midlife women.

"The hotel is awful," she said. "The last visitors had left their basins full of dirty water. There is always that," she laughed.

"The hotel is terrible," she said. "The last guests left their sinks full of dirty water. That always happens," she laughed.

"The people one meets ARE beastly," Jacob said.

"The people you meet are terrible," Jacob said.

His excitement was clear enough.

He was clearly excited.

"Write and tell me about it," she said. "And tell me what you feel and what you think. Tell me everything."

"Write and let me know about it," she said. "And share what you feel and what you think. Tell me everything."

The night was dark. The Acropolis was a jagged mound.

The night was dark. The Acropolis was a jagged hill.

"I should like to, awfully," he said.

"I really want to," he said.

"When we get back to London, we shall meet…"

"When we return to London, we will meet…"

"Yes."

"Yep."

"I suppose they leave the gates open?" he asked.

"I guess they leave the gates open?" he asked.

"We could climb them!" she answered wildly.

"We can climb them!" she replied excitedly.

Obscuring the moon and altogether darkening the Acropolis the clouds passed from east to west. The clouds solidified; the vapours thickened; the trailing veils stayed and accumulated.

The clouds moved from east to west, hiding the moon and completely darkening the Acropolis. The clouds became denser; the mist thickened; the lingering veils remained and gathered.

It was dark now over Athens, except for gauzy red streaks where the streets ran; and the front of the Palace was cadaverous from electric light. At sea the piers stood out, marked by separate dots; the waves being invisible, and promontories and islands were dark humps with a few lights.

It was dark now over Athens, except for faint red streaks where the streets were; and the front of the Palace looked ghostly in the electric light. At sea, the piers stood out, marked by individual dots; the waves were hidden, and the cliffs and islands were just dark shapes with a few lights.

"I'd love to bring my brother, if I may," Jacob murmured.

"I'd love to bring my brother, if that's okay," Jacob said softly.

"And then when your mother comes to London—," said Sandra.

"And then when your mom comes to London—," said Sandra.

The mainland of Greece was dark; and somewhere off Euboea a cloud must have touched the waves and spattered them—the dolphins circling deeper and deeper into the sea. Violent was the wind now rushing down the Sea of Marmara between Greece and the plains of Troy.

The mainland of Greece was dark, and somewhere off Euboea, a cloud must have brushed the waves and splashed them—the dolphins circling deeper and deeper into the sea. The wind was now violently rushing down the Sea of Marmara between Greece and the plains of Troy.

In Greece and the uplands of Albania and Turkey, the wind scours the sand and the dust, and sows itself thick with dry particles. And then it pelts the smooth domes of the mosques, and makes the cypresses, standing stiff by the turbaned tombstones of Mohammedans, creak and bristle.

In Greece and the highlands of Albania and Turkey, the wind whips up the sand and dust, filling itself with dry particles. It then strikes the smooth domes of the mosques and makes the cypress trees, standing rigid by the turbaned tombstones of Muslims, creak and rustle.

Sandra's veils were swirled about her.

Sandra's veils swirled around her.

"I will give you my copy," said Jacob. "Here. Will you keep it?"

"I'll give you my copy," Jacob said. "Here. Will you keep it?"

(The book was the poems of Donne.)

(The book was the poems of Donne.)

Now the agitation of the air uncovered a racing star. Now it was dark. Now one after another lights were extinguished. Now great towns—Paris—Constantinople—London—were black as strewn rocks. Waterways might be distinguished. In England the trees were heavy in leaf. Here perhaps in some southern wood an old man lit dry ferns and the birds were startled. The sheep coughed; one flower bent slightly towards another. The English sky is softer, milkier than the Eastern. Something gentle has passed into it from the grass-rounded hills, something damp. The salt gale blew in at Betty Flanders's bedroom window, and the widow lady, raising herself slightly on her elbow, sighed like one who realizes, but would fain ward off a little longer—oh, a little longer!—the oppression of eternity.

Now the movement in the air revealed a bright star. Now it was dark. One by one, lights went out. Now big cities—Paris, Constantinople, London—were as dark as scattered rocks. You could make out the waterways. In England, the trees were lush and leafy. Perhaps in some southern forest, an old man was lighting dry ferns, startling the birds. The sheep coughed; one flower leaned slightly toward another. The English sky is softer, creamier than the Eastern sky. Something gentle has seeped into it from the rolling grassy hills, something moist. The salty wind blew into Betty Flanders's bedroom window, and the widow, propping herself up a little on her elbow, sighed like someone who understands but wishes to delay—oh, just a little longer!—the weight of eternity.

But to return to Jacob and Sandra.

But let's go back to Jacob and Sandra.

They had vanished. There was the Acropolis; but had they reached it? The columns and the Temple remain; the emotion of the living breaks fresh on them year after year; and of that what remains?

They were gone. The Acropolis stood there; but had they made it there? The columns and the Temple are still there; the feelings of the living are renewed every year; and from that, what is left?

As for reaching the Acropolis who shall say that we ever do it, or that when Jacob woke next morning he found anything hard and durable to keep for ever? Still, he went with them to Constantinople.

As for getting to the Acropolis, who can really say that we ever make it, or that when Jacob woke up the next morning, he found something solid and lasting to hold onto forever? Still, he went with them to Constantinople.

Sandra Wentworth Williams certainly woke to find a copy of Donne's poems upon her dressing-table. And the book would be stood on the shelf in the English country house where Sally Duggan's Life of Father Damien in verse would join it one of these days. There were ten or twelve little volumes already. Strolling in at dusk, Sandra would open the books and her eyes would brighten (but not at the print), and subsiding into the arm-chair she would suck back again the soul of the moment; or, for sometimes she was restless, would pull out book after book and swing across the whole space of her life like an acrobat from bar to bar. She had had her moments. Meanwhile, the great clock on the landing ticked and Sandra would hear time accumulating, and ask herself, "What for? What for?"

Sandra Wentworth Williams definitely woke up to find a copy of Donne's poems on her dressing table. That book would eventually sit on the shelf in the English country house where Sally Duggan's Life of Father Damien in verse would join it someday. There were already ten or twelve little volumes. Strolling in at dusk, Sandra would open the books and her eyes would light up (not because of the print), and sinking into the armchair, she would soak in the essence of the moment; or, when she felt restless, she would pull out book after book and swing through the entire span of her life like an acrobat from bar to bar. She had experienced her moments. Meanwhile, the big clock on the landing ticked, and Sandra would hear time piling up, asking herself, "What for? What for?"

"What for? What for?" Sandra would say, putting the book back, and strolling to the looking-glass and pressing her hair. And Miss Edwards would be startled at dinner, as she opened her mouth to admit roast mutton, by Sandra's sudden solicitude: "Are you happy, Miss Edwards?"—a thing Cissy Edwards hadn't thought of for years.

"What for? What for?" Sandra would say, putting the book back and walking over to the mirror to fix her hair. And Miss Edwards would be surprised at dinner, as she opened her mouth to take a bite of roast mutton, by Sandra's sudden concern: "Are you happy, Miss Edwards?"—something Cissy Edwards hadn't thought about in years.

"What for? What for?" Jacob never asked himself any such questions, to judge by the way he laced his boots; shaved himself; to judge by the depth of his sleep that night, with the wind fidgeting at the shutters, and half-a-dozen mosquitoes singing in his ears. He was young—a man. And then Sandra was right when she judged him to be credulous as yet. At forty it might be a different matter. Already he had marked the things he liked in Donne, and they were savage enough. However, you might place beside them passages of the purest poetry in Shakespeare.

"What for? What for?" Jacob never asked himself any of those questions, judging by the way he laced his boots and shaved. You could tell by the depth of his sleep that night, with the wind fussing at the shutters and a half-dozen mosquitoes buzzing in his ears. He was young— a man. And Sandra was right to think he was still pretty naive. At forty, it might be a different story. He had already noted the things he liked in Donne, and they were pretty intense. However, you could also compare them to passages of the purest poetry in Shakespeare.

But the wind was rolling the darkness through the streets of Athens, rolling it, one might suppose, with a sort of trampling energy of mood which forbids too close an analysis of the feelings of any single person, or inspection of features. All faces—Greek, Levantine, Turkish, English—would have looked much the same in that darkness. At length the columns and the Temples whiten, yellow, turn rose; and the Pyramids and St. Peter's arise, and at last sluggish St. Paul's looms up.

But the wind was pushing the darkness through the streets of Athens, doing it with an intense energy that made it hard to analyze the feelings of anyone in particular or to really see their features. All faces—Greek, Levantine, Turkish, English—would have looked pretty similar in that darkness. Finally, the columns and the temples turn white, yellow, then pink; and the Pyramids and St. Peter's rise up, and eventually, the sluggish St. Paul's appears.

The Christians have the right to rouse most cities with their interpretation of the day's meaning. Then, less melodiously, dissenters of different sects issue a cantankerous emendation. The steamers, resounding like gigantic tuning-forks, state the old old fact—how there is a sea coldly, greenly, swaying outside. But nowadays it is the thin voice of duty, piping in a white thread from the top of a funnel, that collects the largest multitudes, and night is nothing but a long-drawn sigh between hammer-strokes, a deep breath—you can hear it from an open window even in the heart of London.

The Christians have the right to stir most cities with their take on the day's significance. Then, less harmoniously, dissenters from various sects put forth a grumpy revision. The steamers, sounding like huge tuning forks, state the age-old fact—how there’s a cold, green sea swaying outside. But nowadays, it’s the faint voice of duty, piping a thin line from the top of a funnel, that draws the biggest crowds, and night is nothing more than a long sigh between hammer blows, a deep breath—you can hear it from an open window even in the heart of London.

But who, save the nerve-worn and sleepless, or thinkers standing with hands to the eyes on some crag above the multitude, see things thus in skeleton outline, bare of flesh? In Surbiton the skeleton is wrapped in flesh.

But who, besides the exhausted and sleepless, or thinkers with their hands over their eyes on some cliff above the crowd, sees things in just skeleton form, stripped of flesh? In Surbiton, the skeleton is covered in flesh.

"The kettle never boils so well on a sunny morning," says Mrs. Grandage, glancing at the clock on the mantelpiece. Then the grey Persian cat stretches itself on the window-seat, and buffets a moth with soft round paws. And before breakfast is half over (they were late today), a baby is deposited in her lap, and she must guard the sugar basin while Tom Grandage reads the golfing article in the "Times," sips his coffee, wipes his moustaches, and is off to the office, where he is the greatest authority upon the foreign exchanges and marked for promotion. The skeleton is well wrapped in flesh. Even this dark night when the wind rolls the darkness through Lombard Street and Fetter Lane and Bedford Square it stirs (since it is summer-time and the height of the season), plane trees spangled with electric light, and curtains still preserving the room from the dawn. People still murmur over the last word said on the staircase, or strain, all through their dreams, for the voice of the alarum clock. So when the wind roams through a forest innumerable twigs stir; hives are brushed; insects sway on grass blades; the spider runs rapidly up a crease in the bark; and the whole air is tremulous with breathing; elastic with filaments.

"The kettle never boils quite right on a sunny morning," Mrs. Grandage says, checking the clock on the mantelpiece. The gray Persian cat then stretches out on the window seat and playfully bats at a moth with its soft paws. Before breakfast is halfway done (they're running late today), a baby is plopped into her lap, and she has to keep an eye on the sugar bowl while Tom Grandage reads the golf article in the "Times," drinks his coffee, wipes his mustache, and heads off to the office, where he is the top expert on foreign exchanges and is up for a promotion. The skeleton is well covered in flesh. Even on this dark night when the wind sweeps through Lombard Street, Fetter Lane, and Bedford Square, it stirs the plane trees lit up with electric lights, and the curtains still keep the dawn at bay. People still whisper about the last thing said on the staircase or strain through their dreams for the sound of the alarm clock. So, when the wind travels through a forest, countless twigs rustle; hives are nudged; insects sway on blades of grass; a spider quickly scurries up a crease in the bark; and the air is alive with a gentle pulse, full of filaments.

Only here—in Lombard Street and Fetter Lane and Bedford Square—each insect carries a globe of the world in his head, and the webs of the forest are schemes evolved for the smooth conduct of business; and honey is treasure of one sort and another; and the stir in the air is the indescribable agitation of life.

Only here—in Lombard Street, Fetter Lane, and Bedford Square—each insect carries a globe of the world in its head, and the webs of the forest are plans developed for the efficient running of business; and honey is a form of treasure; and the buzz in the air is the indescribable energy of life.

But colour returns; runs up the stalks of the grass; blows out into tulips and crocuses; solidly stripes the tree trunks; and fills the gauze of the air and the grasses and pools.

But color comes back; it climbs up the stems of the grass; blossoms into tulips and crocuses; boldly marks the tree trunks; and fills the air and the grasses and pools with brightness.

The Bank of England emerges; and the Monument with its bristling head of golden hair; the dray horses crossing London Bridge show grey and strawberry and iron-coloured. There is a whir of wings as the suburban trains rush into the terminus. And the light mounts over the faces of all the tall blind houses, slides through a chink and paints the lustrous bellying crimson curtains; the green wine-glasses; the coffee-cups; and the chairs standing askew.

The Bank of England stands tall; and the Monument with its spiky golden hair; the delivery horses crossing London Bridge appear gray, strawberry, and iron-colored. There’s a flurry of wings as the suburban trains rush into the station. And light spills over the faces of all the tall blind houses, slips through a crack, and paints the shiny, billowing crimson curtains; the green wine glasses; the coffee cups; and the chairs positioned at odd angles.

Sunlight strikes in upon shaving-glasses; and gleaming brass cans; upon all the jolly trappings of the day; the bright, inquisitive, armoured, resplendent, summer's day, which has long since vanquished chaos; which has dried the melancholy mediaeval mists; drained the swamp and stood glass and stone upon it; and equipped our brains and bodies with such an armoury of weapons that merely to see the flash and thrust of limbs engaged in the conduct of daily life is better than the old pageant of armies drawn out in battle array upon the plain.

Sunlight shines on shaving mirrors and shiny brass cans, lighting up all the cheerful things of the day. It's a bright, curious, vibrant summer day that has long conquered chaos, cleared away the gloomy medieval fog, drained the swamps, and set glass and stone in their place. It has armed our minds and bodies with all the tools we need, so just witnessing the dynamic motion of people going about their daily lives is far better than the old spectacle of armies lined up for battle on the field.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

"The Height of the season," said Bonamy.

"The peak of the season," said Bonamy.

The sun had already blistered the paint on the backs of the green chairs in Hyde Park; peeled the bark off the plane trees; and turned the earth to powder and to smooth yellow pebbles. Hyde Park was circled, incessantly, by turning wheels.

The sun had already burned the paint off the backs of the green chairs in Hyde Park; stripped the bark off the plane trees; and turned the soil into dust and smooth yellow pebbles. Hyde Park was constantly surrounded by rolling wheels.

"The height of the season," said Bonamy sarcastically.

"The peak of the season," Bonamy said sarcastically.

He was sarcastic because of Clara Durrant; because Jacob had come back from Greece very brown and lean, with his pockets full of Greek notes, which he pulled out when the chair man came for pence; because Jacob was silent.

He was sarcastic because of Clara Durrant; because Jacob had returned from Greece very tanned and slim, with his pockets full of Greek money, which he pulled out when the chairman came for change; because Jacob was quiet.

"He has not said a word to show that he is glad to see me," thought
Bonamy bitterly.

"He hasn't said a word to show that he's happy to see me," thought
Bonamy bitterly.

The motor cars passed incessantly over the bridge of the Serpentine; the upper classes walked upright, or bent themselves gracefully over the palings; the lower classes lay with their knees cocked up, flat on their backs; the sheep grazed on pointed wooden legs; small children ran down the sloping grass, stretched their arms, and fell.

The cars kept driving across the Serpentine bridge; the upper class walked upright or leaned gracefully over the railings; the lower class lounged with their knees up, lying flat on their backs; the sheep grazed on their spindly legs; little kids ran down the sloping grass, stretched their arms out, and toppled over.

"Very urbane," Jacob brought out.

"Very sophisticated," Jacob pointed out.

"Urbane" on the lips of Jacob had mysteriously all the shapeliness of a character which Bonamy thought daily more sublime, devastating, terrific than ever, though he was still, and perhaps would be for ever, barbaric, obscure.

"Urbane" on Jacob's lips had an almost magical quality to it, embodying a kind of character that Bonamy found increasingly sublime, overwhelming, and frightening than ever, even though he remained, and probably always would be, uncivilized and unclear.

What superlatives! What adjectives! How acquit Bonamy of sentimentality of the grossest sort; of being tossed like a cork on the waves; of having no steady insight into character; of being unsupported by reason, and of drawing no comfort whatever from the works of the classics?

What superlatives! What adjectives! How can we clear Bonamy of the most extreme sentimentality; of being tossed around like a cork on the waves; of lacking a solid understanding of character; of being without reason, and of finding no comfort at all in the works of the classics?

"The height of civilization," said Jacob.

"The height of civilization," Jacob said.

He was fond of using Latin words.

He enjoyed using Latin terms.

Magnanimity, virtue—such words when Jacob used them in talk with Bonamy meant that he took control of the situation; that Bonamy would play round him like an affectionate spaniel; and that (as likely as not) they would end by rolling on the floor.

Magnanimity, virtue—when Jacob brought these up in conversation with Bonamy, it meant he was in charge; Bonamy would act like a loving puppy around him; and (just as likely) they'd end up rolling on the floor.

"And Greece?" said Bonamy. "The Parthenon and all that?"

"And Greece?" Bonamy said. "The Parthenon and everything?"

"There's none of this European mysticism," said Jacob.

"There's none of this European mysticism," Jacob said.

"It's the atmosphere. I suppose," said Bonamy. "And you went to
Constantinople?"

"It's the vibe, I guess," said Bonamy. "And you went to
Constantinople?"

"Yes," said Jacob.

"Yeah," said Jacob.

Bonamy paused, moved a pebble; then darted in with the rapidity and certainty of a lizard's tongue.

Bonamy paused, shifted a pebble, then lunged in with the speed and precision of a lizard's tongue.

"You are in love!" he exclaimed.

"You're in love!" he said.

Jacob blushed.

Jacob felt embarrassed.

The sharpest of knives never cut so deep.

The sharpest knife never cuts that deep.

As for responding, or taking the least account of it, Jacob stared straight ahead of him, fixed, monolithic—oh, very beautiful!—like a British Admiral, exclaimed Bonamy in a rage, rising from his seat and walking off; waiting for some sound; none came; too proud to look back; walking quicker and quicker until he found himself gazing into motor cars and cursing women. Where was the pretty woman's face? Clara's—Fanny's—Florinda's? Who was the pretty little creature?

As for responding, or even acknowledging it, Jacob just stared straight ahead, unchanging and impressive—oh, so beautiful!—like a British Admiral, Bonamy shouted angrily, getting up from his seat and walking away; waiting for some noise; none came; too proud to look back; walking faster and faster until he found himself staring at cars and cursing women. Where was the pretty woman's face? Clara's—Fanny's—Florinda's? Who was that lovely little creature?

Not Clara Durrant.

Not Clara Durrant.

The Aberdeen terrier must be exercised, and as Mr. Bowley was going that very moment—would like nothing better than a walk—they went together, Clara and kind little Bowley—Bowley who had rooms in the Albany, Bowley who wrote letters to the "Times" in a jocular vein about foreign hotels and the Aurora Borealis—Bowley who liked young people and walked down Piccadilly with his right arm resting on the boss of his back.

The Aberdeen terrier needs its exercise, and since Mr. Bowley was just about to head out for a walk—which he loved—they decided to go together. Clara and the friendly Mr. Bowley, who lived in the Albany, would stroll along. Bowley, who wrote funny letters to the "Times" about foreign hotels and the Northern Lights, enjoyed spending time with young people and walked down Piccadilly with his right arm resting on his back.

"Little demon!" cried Clara, and attached Troy to his chain.

"Little demon!" Clara shouted, and connected Troy to his chain.

Bowley anticipated—hoped for—a confidence. Devoted to her mother, Clara sometimes felt her a little, well, her mother was so sure of herself that she could not understand other people being—being—"as ludicrous as I am," Clara jerked out (the dog tugging her forwards). And Bowley thought she looked like a huntress and turned over in his mind which it should be—some pale virgin with a slip of the moon in her hair, which was a flight for Bowley.

Bowley was looking forward to a sense of confidence. Clara, who was devoted to her mother, sometimes felt that her mom was so self-assured that she couldn't comprehend other people being—being—"as ridiculous as I am," Clara blurted out (the dog pulling her forward). And Bowley thought she resembled a huntress and considered in his mind what she should be—some pale virgin with a sliver of the moon in her hair, which was quite a fantasy for Bowley.

The colour was in her cheeks. To have spoken outright about her mother—still, it was only to Mr. Bowley, who loved her, as everybody must; but to speak was unnatural to her, yet it was awful to feel, as she had done all day, that she MUST tell some one.

The color was in her cheeks. Talking openly about her mother felt strange—still, it was only to Mr. Bowley, who loved her, just like everyone else should; but expressing herself didn’t come easily to her, and yet it was terrible to feel, as she had all day, that she HAD to tell someone.

"Wait till we cross the road," she said to the dog, bending down.

"Wait until we cross the street," she said to the dog, bending down.

Happily she had recovered by that time.

Happily, she had recovered by then.

"She thinks so much about England," she said. "She is so anxious—-"

"She thinks about England all the time," she said. "She is so worried—-"

Bowley was defrauded as usual. Clara never confided in any one.

Bowley got cheated as usual. Clara never opened up to anyone.

"Why don't the young people settle it, eh?" he wanted to ask. "What's all this about England?"—a question poor Clara could not have answered, since, as Mrs. Durrant discussed with Sir Edgar the policy of Sir Edward Grey, Clara only wondered why the cabinet looked dusty, and Jacob had never come. Oh, here was Mrs. Cowley Johnson…

"Why don't the young people figure it out, huh?" he wanted to ask. "What's all this talk about England?"—a question poor Clara couldn't have answered, since, as Mrs. Durrant talked with Sir Edgar about Sir Edward Grey's policies, Clara only wondered why the cabinet looked so dusty, and why Jacob had never shown up. Oh, here comes Mrs. Cowley Johnson…

And Clara would hand the pretty china teacups, and smile at the compliment—that no one in London made tea so well as she did.

And Clara would serve the beautiful china teacups and smile at the compliment—that no one in London made tea as well as she did.

"We get it at Brocklebank's," she said, "in Cursitor Street."

"We get it at Brocklebank's," she said, "on Cursitor Street."

Ought she not to be grateful? Ought she not to be happy?

Shouldn't she be grateful? Shouldn't she be happy?

Especially since her mother looked so well and enjoyed so much talking to Sir Edgar about Morocco, Venezuela, or some such place.

Especially since her mother looked great and really enjoyed talking to Sir Edgar about Morocco, Venezuela, or some other place.

"Jacob! Jacob!" thought Clara; and kind Mr. Bowley, who was ever so good with old ladies, looked; stopped; wondered whether Elizabeth wasn't too harsh with her daughter; wondered about Bonamy, Jacob—which young fellow was it?—and jumped up directly Clara said she must exercise Troy.

"Jacob! Jacob!" Clara thought; and kind Mr. Bowley, who was always so nice to elderly ladies, looked over, stopped, and wondered if Elizabeth was being too tough on her daughter; he pondered over Bonamy, Jacob—which young guy was it?—and immediately got up when Clara said she needed to take Troy for a walk.

They had reached the site of the old Exhibition. They looked at the tulips. Stiff and curled, the little rods of waxy smoothness rose from the earth, nourished yet contained, suffused with scarlet and coral pink. Each had its shadow; each grew trimly in the diamond-shaped wedge as the gardener had planned it.

They had arrived at the location of the old Exhibition. They gazed at the tulips. Stiff and curled, the small stems of waxy smoothness rose from the ground, nourished yet contained, filled with shades of red and coral pink. Each one cast a shadow; each grew neatly in the diamond-shaped space, just as the gardener had intended.

"Barnes never gets them to grow like that," Clara mused; she sighed.

"Barnes can never get them to grow like that," Clara thought to herself; she sighed.

"You are neglecting your friends," said Bowley, as some one, going the other way, lifted his hat. She started; acknowledged Mr. Lionel Parry's bow; wasted on him what had sprung for Jacob.

"You’re ignoring your friends," said Bowley, as someone walking in the opposite direction tipped his hat. She jumped, recognized Mr. Lionel Parry’s gesture, and gave him the attention that should have gone to Jacob.

("Jacob! Jacob!" she thought.)

("Jacob! Jacob!" she thought.)

"But you'll get run over if I let you go," she said to the dog.

"But you'll get run over if I let you go," she told the dog.

"England seems all right," said Mr. Bowley.

"England seems fine," said Mr. Bowley.

The loop of the railing beneath the statue of Achilles was full of parasols and waistcoats; chains and bangles; of ladies and gentlemen, lounging elegantly, lightly observant.

The curved railing under the statue of Achilles was lined with umbrellas and vests; chains and bracelets; with men and women lounging stylishly, casually watching.

"'This statue was erected by the women of England…'" Clara read out with a foolish little laugh. "Oh, Mr. Bowley! Oh!" Gallop—gallop—gallop—a horse galloped past without a rider. The stirrups swung; the pebbles spurted.

"'This statue was put up by the women of England…'" Clara read out with a silly little laugh. "Oh, Mr. Bowley! Oh!" Gallop—gallop—gallop—a horse raced by with no rider. The stirrups swung; the pebbles flew.

"Oh, stop! Stop it, Mr. Bowley!" she cried, white, trembling, gripping his arm, utterly unconscious, the tears coming.

"Oh, stop! Stop it, Mr. Bowley!" she cried, pale, shaking, holding onto his arm tightly, completely unaware, tears streaming down her face.

"Tut-tut!" said Mr. Bowley in his dressing-room an hour later. "Tut-tut!"—a comment that was profound enough, though inarticulately expressed, since his valet was handing his shirt studs.

"Tut-tut!" said Mr. Bowley in his dressing room an hour later. "Tut-tut!"—a comment that was insightful enough, even if it was poorly articulated, since his valet was handing him his shirt studs.

Julia Eliot, too, had seen the horse run away, and had risen from her seat to watch the end of the incident, which, since she came of a sporting family, seemed to her slightly ridiculous. Sure enough the little man came pounding behind with his breeches dusty; looked thoroughly annoyed; and was being helped to mount by a policeman when Julia Eliot, with a sardonic smile, turned towards the Marble Arch on her errand of mercy. It was only to visit a sick old lady who had known her mother and perhaps the Duke of Wellington; for Julia shared the love of her sex for the distressed; liked to visit death-beds; threw slippers at weddings; received confidences by the dozen; knew more pedigrees than a scholar knows dates, and was one of the kindliest, most generous, least continent of women.

Julia Eliot had also seen the horse run away and stood up to watch the end of the scene, which seemed a bit ridiculous to her since she came from a sporting family. Sure enough, the little man came running behind with dusty pants, looking thoroughly annoyed, and was being helped to mount by a policeman when Julia Eliot, with a sarcastic smile, turned towards the Marble Arch on her errand of mercy. She was just visiting a sick old lady who had known her mother and possibly the Duke of Wellington; Julia shared the affinity many women have for the distressed, enjoyed visiting people on their deathbeds, threw slippers at weddings, received countless confessions, knew more family trees than a scholar knows dates, and was one of the kindest, most generous, least restrained women.

Yet five minutes after she had passed the statue of Achilles she had the rapt look of one brushing through crowds on a summer's afternoon, when the trees are rustling, the wheels churning yellow, and the tumult of the present seems like an elegy for past youth and past summers, and there rose in her mind a curious sadness, as if time and eternity showed through skirts and waistcoasts, and she saw people passing tragically to destruction. Yet, Heaven knows, Julia was no fool. A sharper woman at a bargain did not exist. She was always punctual. The watch on her wrist gave her twelve minutes and a half in which to reach Bruton Street. Lady Congreve expected her at five.

Yet five minutes after she passed the statue of Achilles, she had the dreamy look of someone walking through crowds on a summer afternoon, when the trees are rustling, the wheels are turning yellow, and the chaos of the moment feels like a lament for lost youth and past summers. A strange sadness rose in her mind, as if time and eternity were visible through skirts and waistcoats, and she saw people tragically heading toward destruction. But, Heaven knows, Julia was no fool. There wasn’t a sharper woman when it came to a deal. She was always on time. The watch on her wrist gave her twelve and a half minutes to get to Bruton Street. Lady Congreve was expecting her at five.

The gilt clock at Verrey's was striking five.

The gold clock at Verrey's was ringing five o'clock.

Florinda looked at it with a dull expression, like an animal. She looked at the clock; looked at the door; looked at the long glass opposite; disposed her cloak; drew closer to the table, for she was pregnant—no doubt about it, Mother Stuart said, recommending remedies, consulting friends; sunk, caught by the heel, as she tripped so lightly over the surface.

Florinda looked at it with a blank expression, almost like an animal. She glanced at the clock, then at the door, and then at the long glass across from her. She adjusted her cloak and moved closer to the table because she was definitely pregnant—Mother Stuart agreed, suggesting remedies and consulting with friends; she was overwhelmed, tripping lightly over the surface.

Her tumbler of pinkish sweet stuff was set down by the waiter; and she sucked, through a straw, her eyes on the looking-glass, on the door, now soothed by the sweet taste. When Nick Bramham came in it was plain, even to the young Swiss waiter, that there was a bargain between them. Nick hitched his clothes together clumsily; ran his fingers through his hair; sat down, to an ordeal, nervously. She looked at him; and set off laughing; laughed—laughed—laughed. The young Swiss waiter, standing with crossed legs by the pillar, laughed too.

Her glass of pinkish sweet drink was placed in front of her by the waiter; she sipped it through a straw, her gaze fixed on the mirror and the door, now calmed by the sugary flavor. When Nick Bramham walked in, it was obvious, even to the young Swiss waiter, that there was an understanding between them. Nick awkwardly adjusted his clothes, ran his fingers through his hair, and nervously sat down, facing an uncomfortable situation. She looked at him and burst out laughing; she laughed—laughed—laughed. The young Swiss waiter, standing with his legs crossed by the pillar, laughed too.

The door opened; in came the roar of Regent Street, the roar of traffic, impersonal, unpitying; and sunshine grained with dirt. The Swiss waiter must see to the newcomers. Bramham lifted his glass.

The door opened; in came the noise of Regent Street, the noise of traffic, impersonal, unforgiving; and sunshine mixed with dirt. The Swiss waiter had to attend to the newcomers. Bramham lifted his glass.

"He's like Jacob," said Florinda, looking at the newcomer.

"He's like Jacob," Florinda said, glancing at the newcomer.

"The way he stares." She stopped laughing.

"The way he looks at her." She stopped laughing.

Jacob, leaning forward, drew a plan of the Parthenon in the dust in Hyde Park, a network of strokes at least, which may have been the Parthenon, or again a mathematical diagram. And why was the pebble so emphatically ground in at the corner? It was not to count his notes that he took out a wad of papers and read a long flowing letter which Sandra had written two days ago at Milton Dower House with his book before her and in her mind the memory of something said or attempted, some moment in the dark on the road to the Acropolis which (such was her creed) mattered for ever.

Jacob leaned forward and sketched out a plan of the Parthenon in the dust of Hyde Park, a series of lines that could have represented the Parthenon, or maybe a math diagram. And why was the pebble so firmly pushed into the corner? It wasn't to tally his notes; he pulled out a stack of papers and read a long, flowing letter that Sandra had written two days earlier at Milton Dower House, with his book in front of her and the memory of something said or attempted in her mind, some moment in the dark on the way to the Acropolis that (according to her belief) mattered forever.

"He is," she mused, "like that man in Moliere."

"He is," she thought, "like that guy in Moliere."

She meant Alceste. She meant that he was severe. She meant that she could deceive him.

She was talking about Alceste. She meant that he was strict. She meant that she could trick him.

"Or could I not?" she thought, putting the poems of Donne back in the bookcase. "Jacob," she went on, going to the window and looking over the spotted flower-beds across the grass where the piebald cows grazed under beech trees, "Jacob would be shocked."

"Or could I not?" she thought, putting Donne's poems back in the bookcase. "Jacob," she continued, heading to the window and gazing over the speckled flower beds across the grass where the mixed-color cows grazed under the beech trees, "Jacob would be shocked."

The perambulator was going through the little gate in the railing. She kissed her hand; directed by the nurse, Jimmy waved his.

The stroller was going through the small gate in the fence. She blew a kiss; guided by the nurse, Jimmy waved his hand.

"HE'S a small boy," she said, thinking of Jacob.

"He's a little boy," she said, thinking of Jacob.

And yet—Alceste?

And yet—Alceste?

"What a nuisance you are!" Jacob grumbled, stretching out first one leg and then the other and feeling in each trouser-pocket for his chair ticket.

"What a pain you are!" Jacob grumbled, stretching out one leg and then the other, checking each trouser pocket for his chair ticket.

"I expect the sheep have eaten it," he said. "Why do you keep sheep?"

"I assume the sheep have eaten it," he said. "Why do you keep sheep?"

"Sorry to disturb you, sir," said the ticket-collector, his hand deep in the enormous pouch of pence.

"Sorry to bother you, sir," said the ticket collector, his hand deep in the huge pouch of coins.

"Well, I hope they pay you for it," said Jacob. "There you are. No. You can stick to it. Go and get drunk."

"Well, I hope they pay you for it," Jacob said. "There you go. No. You can handle it. Go and get wasted."

He had parted with half-a-crown, tolerantly, compassionately, with considerable contempt for his species.

He had willingly given up half a crown, with a sense of tolerance, compassion, and a fair bit of disdain for humanity.

Even now poor Fanny Elmer was dealing, as she walked along the Strand, in her incompetent way with this very careless, indifferent, sublime manner he had of talking to railway guards or porters; or Mrs. Whitehorn, when she consulted him about her little boy who was beaten by the schoolmaster.

Even now, poor Fanny Elmer was trying, in her awkward way, to handle this very careless, indifferent, yet impressive way he talked to railway guards or porters; or Mrs. Whitehorn when she asked him about her little boy who got beaten by the schoolmaster.

Sustained entirely upon picture post cards for the past two months, Fanny's idea of Jacob was more statuesque, noble, and eyeless than ever. To reinforce her vision she had taken to visiting the British Museum, where, keeping her eyes downcast until she was alongside of the battered Ulysses, she opened them and got a fresh shock of Jacob's presence, enough to last her half a day. But this was wearing thin. And she wrote now—poems, letters that were never posted, saw his face in advertisements on hoardings, and would cross the road to let the barrel-organ turn her musings to rhapsody. But at breakfast (she shared rooms with a teacher), when the butter was smeared about the plate, and the prongs of the forks were clotted with old egg yolk, she revised these visions violently; was, in truth, very cross; was losing her complexion, as Margery Jackson told her, bringing the whole thing down (as she laced her stout boots) to a level of mother-wit, vulgarity, and sentiment, for she had loved too; and been a fool.

Sustained entirely by picture postcards for the past two months, Fanny's vision of Jacob was more statue-like, noble, and eyeless than ever. To strengthen her imagination, she started visiting the British Museum, where she kept her eyes down until she was next to the battered Ulysses; then she opened them and got a fresh shock of Jacob's presence, enough to last her half a day. But this was wearing thin. Now she wrote—poems, letters she never sent, saw his face in ads on billboards, and would cross the street to let the barrel-organ turn her thoughts into rhapsody. But at breakfast (she shared a room with a teacher), when the butter was smeared across the plate and the prongs of the forks were stuck with old egg yolk, she violently revised these visions; she was, in fact, quite irritated; she was losing her complexion, as Margery Jackson pointed out, bringing everything down (as she laced her sturdy boots) to a level of common sense, crudeness, and sentiment because she had loved too; and had been a fool.

"One's godmothers ought to have told one," said Fanny, looking in at the window of Bacon, the mapseller, in the Strand—told one that it is no use making a fuss; this is life, they should have said, as Fanny said it now, looking at the large yellow globe marked with steamship lines.

"Someone's godmothers should have said," Fanny remarked, peering through the window of Bacon, the mapseller, in the Strand—should have said that there's no point in making a big deal about it; this is life, they should have said, just like Fanny was saying now, gazing at the large yellow globe marked with steamship routes.

"This is life. This is life," said Fanny.

"This is life. This is life," Fanny said.

"A very hard face," thought Miss Barrett, on the other side of the glass, buying maps of the Syrian desert and waiting impatiently to be served. "Girls look old so soon nowadays."

"A really tough face," thought Miss Barrett, on the other side of the glass, buying maps of the Syrian desert and waiting impatiently to be helped. "Girls seem to age so quickly these days."

The equator swam behind tears.

The equator sank behind tears.

"Piccadilly?" Fanny asked the conductor of the omnibus, and climbed to the top. After all, he would, he must, come back to her.

"Piccadilly?" Fanny asked the bus driver, and climbed to the top. After all, he would, he must, come back to her.

But Jacob might have been thinking of Rome; of architecture; of jurisprudence; as he sat under the plane tree in Hyde Park.

But Jacob might have been thinking about Rome; about architecture; about law; as he sat under the plane tree in Hyde Park.

The omnibus stopped outside Charing Cross; and behind it were clogged omnibuses, vans, motor-cars, for a procession with banners was passing down Whitehall, and elderly people were stiffly descending from between the paws of the slippery lions, where they had been testifying to their faith, singing lustily, raising their eyes from their music to look into the sky, and still their eyes were on the sky as they marched behind the gold letters of their creed.

The bus stopped outside Charing Cross; behind it were backed-up buses, vans, and cars because a parade with banners was moving down Whitehall. Older folks were awkwardly coming down from between the slippery lions, where they had been showing their faith, singing loudly, lifting their eyes from their music to gaze up at the sky, and still, their eyes were on the sky as they marched behind the gold letters of their belief.

The traffic stopped, and the sun, no longer sprayed out by the breeze, became almost too hot. But the procession passed; the banners glittered —far away down Whitehall; the traffic was released; lurched on; spun to a smooth continuous uproar; swerving round the curve of Cockspur Street; and sweeping past Government offices and equestrian statues down Whitehall to the prickly spires, the tethered grey fleet of masonry, and the large white clock of Westminster.

The traffic came to a halt, and the sun, no longer cooled by the breeze, felt almost too hot. But the parade moved on; the banners sparkled far down Whitehall; the traffic was freed; jolted forward; shifted into a steady roar; veered around the bend of Cockspur Street; and rushed past government buildings and statues of horses down Whitehall to the sharp spires, the anchored grey buildings, and the big white clock of Westminster.

Five strokes Big Ben intoned; Nelson received the salute. The wires of the Admiralty shivered with some far-away communication. A voice kept remarking that Prime Ministers and Viceroys spoke in the Reichstag; entered Lahore; said that the Emperor travelled; in Milan they rioted; said there were rumours in Vienna; said that the Ambassador at Constantinople had audience with the Sultan; the fleet was at Gibraltar. The voice continued, imprinting on the faces of the clerks in Whitehall (Timothy Durrant was one of them) something of its own inexorable gravity, as they listened, deciphered, wrote down. Papers accumulated, inscribed with the utterances of Kaisers, the statistics of ricefields, the growling of hundreds of work-people, plotting sedition in back streets, or gathering in the Calcutta bazaars, or mustering their forces in the uplands of Albania, where the hills are sand-coloured, and bones lie unburied.

Five chimes from Big Ben echoed; Nelson acknowledged the salute. The wires of the Admiralty buzzed with distant communications. A voice kept saying that Prime Ministers and Viceroys were speaking in the Reichstag; they had entered Lahore; mentioned that the Emperor was traveling; riots were happening in Milan; there were rumors in Vienna; and that the Ambassador in Constantinople had met with the Sultan; the fleet was in Gibraltar. The voice went on, leaving an impression of its own relentless seriousness on the faces of the clerks in Whitehall (Timothy Durrant was one of them) as they listened, deciphered, and took notes. Papers piled up, filled with the statements of Kaisers, the statistics of rice fields, the discontent of hundreds of workers plotting rebellion in back streets, or gathering in the Calcutta markets, or mustering their strength in the sandy hills of Albania, where bones lie unburied.

The voice spoke plainly in the square quiet room with heavy tables, where one elderly man made notes on the margin of typewritten sheets, his silver-topped umbrella leaning against the bookcase.

The voice spoke clearly in the quiet room filled with heavy tables, where an elderly man jotted notes in the margins of typed sheets, his silver-topped umbrella resting against the bookcase.

His head—bald, red-veined, hollow-looking—represented all the heads in the building. His head, with the amiable pale eyes, carried the burden of knowledge across the street; laid it before his colleagues, who came equally burdened; and then the sixteen gentlemen, lifting their pens or turning perhaps rather wearily in their chairs, decreed that the course of history should shape itself this way or that way, being manfully determined, as their faces showed, to impose some coherency upon Rajahs and Kaisers and the muttering in bazaars, the secret gatherings, plainly visible in Whitehall, of kilted peasants in Albanian uplands; to control the course of events.

His head—bald, with red veins, and looking hollow—represented all the heads in the building. His head, with friendly pale eyes, carried the weight of knowledge across the street; presented it to his colleagues, who were equally burdened; and then the sixteen men, lifting their pens or perhaps turning somewhat wearily in their chairs, decided that the course of history should unfold this way or that, showing a strong determination, as their expressions suggested, to bring some order to Rajahs and Kaisers and the murmurs in bazaars, the secret meetings, clearly visible in Whitehall, of kilted peasants in the Albanian highlands; to steer the course of events.

Pitt and Chatham, Burke and Gladstone looked from side to side with fixed marble eyes and an air of immortal quiescence which perhaps the living may have envied, the air being full of whistling and concussions, as the procession with its banners passed down Whitehall. Moreover, some were troubled with dyspepsia; one had at that very moment cracked the glass of his spectacles; another spoke in Glasgow to-morrow; altogether they looked too red, fat, pale or lean, to be dealing, as the marble heads had dealt, with the course of history.

Pitt and Chatham, Burke and Gladstone stared off to the sides with unblinking marble eyes and an aura of timeless stillness that the living might have envied, while the air was filled with noise and commotion as the parade with its banners moved down Whitehall. Additionally, some were dealing with indigestion; one had just broken his glasses; another was set to speak in Glasgow tomorrow; overall, they looked too flushed, overweight, pale, or thin to be handling, as the marble figures had, the flow of history.

Timmy Durrant in his little room in the Admiralty, going to consult a Blue book, stopped for a moment by the window and observed the placard tied round the lamp-post.

Timmy Durrant, in his small room at the Admiralty, paused for a moment by the window to check out a Blue book and noticed the sign tied around the lamp post.

Miss Thomas, one of the typists, said to her friend that if the Cabinet was going to sit much longer she should miss her boy outside the Gaiety.

Miss Thomas, one of the typists, told her friend that if the Cabinet was going to meet for much longer, she would miss her guy outside the Gaiety.

Timmy Durrant, returning with his Blue book under his arm, noticed a little knot of people at the street corner; conglomerated as though one of them knew something; and the others, pressing round him, looked up, looked down, looked along the street. What was it that he knew?

Timmy Durrant, coming back with his Blue book tucked under his arm, spotted a small group of people at the street corner; huddled together as if one of them had some information to share, while the others crowded around, glancing up, down, and along the street. What did he know?

Timothy, placing the Blue book before him, studied a paper sent round by the Treasury for information. Mr. Crawley, his fellow-clerk, impaled a letter on a skewer.

Timothy, setting the Blue book in front of him, looked over a document circulated by the Treasury for information. Mr. Crawley, his coworker, speared a letter on a skewer.

Jacob rose from his chair in Hyde Park, tore his ticket to pieces, and walked away.

Jacob stood up from his chair in Hyde Park, ripped his ticket into pieces, and walked away.

"Such a sunset," wrote Mrs. Flanders in her letter to Archer at
Singapore. "One couldn't make up one's mind to come indoors," she wrote.
"It seemed wicked to waste even a moment."

"Such a sunset," wrote Mrs. Flanders in her letter to Archer at
Singapore. "You couldn't bring yourself to go inside," she wrote.
"It felt wrong to waste even a moment."

The long windows of Kensington Palace flushed fiery rose as Jacob walked away; a flock of wild duck flew over the Serpentine; and the trees were stood against the sky, blackly, magnificently.

The long windows of Kensington Palace glowed with a fiery pink as Jacob walked away; a flock of wild ducks flew over the Serpentine; and the trees stood against the sky, dark and magnificent.

"Jacob," wrote Mrs. Flanders, with the red light on her page, "is hard at work after his delightful journey…"

"Jacob," wrote Mrs. Flanders, with the red light on her page, "is busy working after his wonderful trip…"

"The Kaiser," the far-away voice remarked in Whitehall, "received me in audience."

"The Kaiser," the distant voice commented in Whitehall, "met with me in a meeting."

"Now I know that face—" said the Reverend Andrew Floyd, coming out of
Carter's shop in Piccadilly, "but who the dickens—?" and he watched
Jacob, turned round to look at him, but could not be sure—

"Now I recognize that face—" said Reverend Andrew Floyd, stepping out of
Carter's shop on Piccadilly, "but who on earth—?" He observed
Jacob, who turned to glance at him, but couldn’t be certain—

"Oh, Jacob Flanders!" he remembered in a flash.

"Oh, Jacob Flanders!" he recalled in an instant.

But he was so tall; so unconscious; such a fine young fellow.

But he was so tall; so unaware; such a great young guy.

"I gave him Byron's works," Andrew Floyd mused, and started forward, as Jacob crossed the road; but hesitated, and let the moment pass, and lost the opportunity.

"I gave him Byron's works," Andrew Floyd thought, and started to move as Jacob crossed the street; but then he hesitated, let the moment slip by, and missed the chance.

Another procession, without banners, was blocking Long Acre. Carriages, with dowagers in amethyst and gentlemen spotted with carnations, intercepted cabs and motor-cars turned in the opposite direction, in which jaded men in white waistcoats lolled, on their way home to shrubberies and billiard-rooms in Putney and Wimbledon.

Another procession, without banners, was blocking Long Acre. Carriages, with elderly women in purple and men wearing carnations, stopped cabs and cars that turned the other way, where tired guys in white vests lounged, heading home to their gardens and billiard rooms in Putney and Wimbledon.

Two barrel-organs played by the kerb, and horses coming out of Aldridge's with white labels on their buttocks straddled across the road and were smartly jerked back.

Two barrel-organs played by the curb, and horses with white labels on their rumps coming out of Aldridge's were crossing the road and were quickly pulled back.

Mrs. Durrant, sitting with Mr. Wortley in a motor-car, was impatient lest they should miss the overture.

Mrs. Durrant, sitting with Mr. Wortley in a car, was anxious they wouldn't miss the overture.

But Mr. Wortley, always urbane, always in time for the overture, buttoned his gloves, and admired Miss Clara.

But Mr. Wortley, always charming and punctual for the opening act, buttoned his gloves and admired Miss Clara.

"A shame to spend such a night in the theatre!" said Mrs. Durrant, seeing all the windows of the coachmakers in Long Acre ablaze.

"A shame to spend such a night at the theater!" Mrs. Durrant exclaimed, noticing all the coachmaker's windows on Long Acre lit up.

"Think of your moors!" said Mr. Wortley to Clara.

"Think about your moors!" Mr. Wortley said to Clara.

"Ah! but Clara likes this better," Mrs. Durrant laughed.

"Ah! but Clara prefers this," Mrs. Durrant laughed.

"I don't know—really," said Clara, looking at the blazing windows. She started.

"I don't know—honestly," said Clara, staring at the bright windows. She jumped.

She saw Jacob.

She spotted Jacob.

"Who?" asked Mrs. Durrant sharply, leaning forward.

"Who?" Mrs. Durrant asked sharply, leaning forward.

But she saw no one.

But she didn't see anyone.

Under the arch of the Opera House large faces and lean ones, the powdered and the hairy, all alike were red in the sunset; and, quickened by the great hanging lamps with their repressed primrose lights, by the tramp, and the scarlet, and the pompous ceremony, some ladies looked for a moment into steaming bedrooms near by, where women with loose hair leaned out of windows, where girls—where children—(the long mirrors held the ladies suspended) but one must follow; one must not block the way.

Under the arch of the Opera House, big faces and thin ones, the powdered and the hairy, all looked red in the sunset; and energized by the big hanging lamps with their soft, warm lights, by the crowd, and the bright colors, and the grand ceremony, some ladies glanced for a moment into nearby steaming bedrooms, where women with loose hair leaned out of windows, where girls—where children—(the long mirrors showed the ladies paused) but one must move forward; one must not block the way.

Clara's moors were fine enough. The Phoenicians slept under their piled grey rocks; the chimneys of the old mines pointed starkly; early moths blurred the heather-bells; cartwheels could be heard grinding on the road far beneath; and the suck and sighing of the waves sounded gently, persistently, for ever.

Clara's moors were quite nice. The Phoenicians rested under their stacked gray rocks; the chimneys of the old mines stood out sharply; early moths fluttered around the heather-bells; the sound of cartwheels could be heard rolling on the road far below; and the soft, persistent sound of the waves always echoed in the background.

Shading her eyes with her hand Mrs. Pascoe stood in her cabbage-garden looking out to sea. Two steamers and a sailing-ship crossed each other; passed each other; and in the bay the gulls kept alighting on a log, rising high, returning again to the log, while some rode in upon the waves and stood on the rim of the water until the moon blanched all to whiteness.

Shading her eyes with her hand, Mrs. Pascoe stood in her cabbage garden, looking out to sea. Two steamers and a sailing ship crossed paths; they passed each other, and in the bay, gulls kept landing on a log, rising high, then returning again to the log, while some sailed in on the waves and stood on the edge of the water until the moon turned everything white.

Mrs. Pascoe had gone indoors long ago.

Mrs. Pascoe had gone inside a long time ago.

But the red light was on the columns of the Parthenon, and the Greek women who were knitting their stockings and sometimes crying to a child to come and have the insects picked from its head were as jolly as sand-martins in the heat, quarrelling, scolding, suckling their babies, until the ships in the Piraeus fired their guns.

But the red light was on the columns of the Parthenon, and the Greek women who were knitting their stockings and sometimes calling a child to come and have the insects picked from its head were as cheerful as swallows in the heat, arguing, scolding, nursing their babies, until the ships in the Piraeus fired their guns.

The sound spread itself flat, and then went tunnelling its way with fitful explosions among the channels of the islands.

The sound spread out flat and then made its way through the islands with irregular bursts.

Darkness drops like a knife over Greece.

Darkness falls like a blade over Greece.

"The guns?" said Betty Flanders, half asleep, getting out of bed and going to the window, which was decorated with a fringe of dark leaves.

"The guns?" Betty Flanders said, half asleep, as she got out of bed and walked to the window, which was adorned with a fringe of dark leaves.

"Not at this distance," she thought. "It is the sea."

"Not from this distance," she thought. "It's the ocean."

Again, far away, she heard the dull sound, as if nocturnal women were beating great carpets. There was Morty lost, and Seabrook dead; her sons fighting for their country. But were the chickens safe? Was that some one moving downstairs? Rebecca with the toothache? No. The nocturnal women were beating great carpets. Her hens shifted slightly on their perches.

Again, far away, she heard the dull sound, as if nighttime women were beating large rugs. There was Morty lost, and Seabrook dead; her sons fighting for their country. But were the chickens safe? Was someone moving downstairs? Rebecca with the toothache? No. The nighttime women were beating large rugs. Her hens shifted slightly on their perches.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

"He left everything just as it was," Bonamy marvelled. "Nothing arranged. All his letters strewn about for any one to read. What did he expect? Did he think he would come back?" he mused, standing in the middle of Jacob's room.

"He left everything just like it was," Bonamy said in amazement. "Nothing organized. All his letters scattered around for anyone to read. What did he think would happen? Did he really think he’d come back?" he wondered, standing in the middle of Jacob's room.

The eighteenth century has its distinction. These houses were built, say, a hundred and fifty years ago. The rooms are shapely, the ceilings high; over the doorways a rose or a ram's skull is carved in the wood. Even the panels, painted in raspberry-coloured paint, have their distinction.

The eighteenth century has its uniqueness. These houses were built about a hundred and fifty years ago. The rooms are well-proportioned, the ceilings are high; above the doorways, there's a rose or a ram's skull carved into the wood. Even the panels, painted in a raspberry color, have their own distinct charm.

Bonamy took up a bill for a hunting-crop.

Bonamy picked up a bill for a riding crop.

"That seems to be paid," he said.

"That looks like it's been paid," he said.

There were Sandra's letters.

Here are Sandra's letters.

Mrs. Durrant was taking a party to Greenwich.

Mrs. Durrant was taking a group to Greenwich.

Lady Rocksbier hoped for the pleasure….

Lady Rocksbier hoped for the pleasure….

Listless is the air in an empty room, just swelling the curtain; the flowers in the jar shift. One fibre in the wicker arm-chair creaks, though no one sits there.

Listless is the air in an empty room, just making the curtain billow; the flowers in the jar shift. One fiber in the wicker armchair creaks, even though no one is sitting there.

Bonamy crossed to the window. Pickford's van swung down the street. The omnibuses were locked together at Mudie's corner. Engines throbbed, and carters, jamming the brakes down, pulled their horses sharp up. A harsh and unhappy voice cried something unintelligible. And then suddenly all the leaves seemed to raise themselves.

Bonamy walked over to the window. Pickford's van turned down the street. The buses were stuck together at Mudie's corner. Engines pulsed, and drivers slammed on the brakes, pulling their horses up quickly. A harsh and upset voice shouted something unclear. And then, all of a sudden, it felt like all the leaves lifted themselves up.

"Jacob! Jacob!" cried Bonamy, standing by the window. The leaves sank down again.

"Jacob! Jacob!" shouted Bonamy, standing by the window. The leaves fell down again.

"Such confusion everywhere!" exclaimed Betty Flanders, bursting open the bedroom door.

"There's so much confusion everywhere!" exclaimed Betty Flanders, throwing open the bedroom door.

Bonamy turned away from the window.

Bonamy turned away from the window.

"What am I to do with these, Mr. Bonamy?"

"What should I do with these, Mr. Bonamy?"

She held out a pair of Jacob's old shoes.

She reached out with a pair of Jacob's old shoes.


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