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THIRTY STRANGE STORIES

CONTENTS
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The Odd Orchid | 1 |
Aepyornis Island | 15 |
The Plattner Tale | 34 |
The Air Argonauts | 66 |
The Tale of the Late Mr. Elvesham | 86 |
The Stolen Bacillus | 114 |
The Red Room | 125 |
An Unknown Moth | 140 |
In the Void | 157 |
Surgery | 183 |
The Reconciliation | 205 |
A Slip Under the Microscope | 216 |
At the Avu Observatory | 247 |
The Wins of a Taxidermist | 259 |
A Deal in Ostriches | 266 |
The Rajah's Treasure | 274 |
The Story of Davidson’s Eyes | 291 |
The Cone | 307 |
The Purple Mushroom | 326 |
A disaster | 345 |
The Terrible Husband | 359 |
viThe Apple | 366 |
The Heartbreaking Tale of a Drama Critic | 379 |
Jane's Rejection | 393 |
The Lost Inheritance | 405 |
Pollock and the Porroh Guy | 416 |
The Sea Raiders | 442 |
In the Modern Style | 459 |
The Master of the Dynamos | 476 |
The Treasure in the Woods | 491 |
THE STRANGE ORCHID
The buying of orchids always has in it a certain speculative flavour. You have before you the brown shrivelled lump of tissue, and for the rest you must trust your judgment, or the auctioneer, or your good-luck, as your taste may incline. The plant may be moribund or dead, or it may be just a respectable purchase, fair value for your money, or perhaps—for the thing has happened again and again—there slowly unfolds before the delighted eyes of the happy purchaser, day after day, some new variety, some novel richness, a strange twist of the labellum, or some subtler colouration or unexpected mimicry. Pride, beauty, and profit blossom together on one delicate green spike, and, it may be, even immortality. For the new miracle of Nature may stand in need of a new specific name, and what so convenient as that of its discoverer? “Johnsmithia”! There have been worse names.
Buying orchids always has a bit of a speculative vibe. You see a brown, shriveled lump of tissue, and from there, you have to rely on your judgment, the auctioneer, or your luck, depending on your taste. The plant could be dying or dead, or it might be a decent buy, fair value for your money, or maybe—this has happened time and again—something new and extraordinary gradually reveals itself to the delighted buyer's eyes, day after day: a new variety, a unique richness, an unusual twist of the labellum, or some subtler coloration or unexpected mimicry. Pride, beauty, and profit all bloom together on one delicate green spike, and maybe even a sense of immortality. The new miracle of Nature might need a specific name, and what could be more convenient than that of its discoverer? “Johnsmithia”! There have been worse names.
2It was perhaps the hope of some such happy discovery that made Winter-Wedderburn such a frequent attendant at these sales—that hope, and also, maybe, the fact that he had nothing else of the slightest interest to do in the world. He was a shy, lonely, rather ineffectual man, provided with just enough income to keep off the spur of necessity, and not enough nervous energy to make him seek any exacting employments. He might have collected stamps or coins, or translated Horace, or bound books, or invented new species of diatoms. But, as it happened, he grew orchids, and had one ambitious little hothouse.
2Maybe it was the hope of finding something amazing that made Winter-Wedderburn such a regular at these auctions—that hope, and perhaps the fact that he really had nothing else remotely interesting to do in the world. He was a shy, lonely, and somewhat ineffective man, with just enough income to avoid financial hardship, but not enough energy to pursue any demanding work. He could have collected stamps or coins, translated Horace, bound books, or invented new types of diatoms. Instead, he grew orchids and had a small, ambitious greenhouse.
“I have a fancy,” he said over his coffee, “that something is going to happen to me to-day.” He spoke—as he moved and thought—slowly.
“I have a feeling,” he said over his coffee, “that something is going to happen to me today.” He spoke—as he moved and thought—slowly.
“Oh, don’t say that!” said his housekeeper—who was also his remote cousin. For “something happening” was a euphemism that meant only one thing to her.
“Oh, don’t say that!” said his housekeeper—who was also his distant cousin. For “something happening” was a euphemism that meant only one thing to her.
“You misunderstand me. I mean nothing unpleasant—though what I do mean I scarcely know.
"You don't get what I'm saying. I have no bad intentions—although I'm not sure what I actually do mean."
“To-day,” he continued after a pause, “Peters are going to sell a batch of plants from the Andamans and the Indies. I shall go up and see what they have. It may be I shall buy something good, unawares. That may be it.”
“To-day,” he continued after a pause, “Peters are going to sell a bunch of plants from the Andamans and the Indies. I’ll go up and see what they have. I might end up buying something good without realizing it. That could be it.”
He passed his cup for his second cupful of coffee.
He handed his cup over for a refill of coffee.
3“Are these the things collected by that poor young fellow you told me of the other day?” asked his cousin as she filled his cup.
3“Are these the things gathered by that poor guy you mentioned the other day?” asked his cousin as she filled his cup.
“Yes,” he said, and became meditative over a piece of toast.
“Yes,” he said, falling into thought as he stared at a piece of toast.
“Nothing ever does happen to me,” he remarked presently, beginning to think aloud. “I wonder why? Things enough happen to other people. There is Harvey. Only the other week, on Monday he picked up sixpence, on Wednesday his chicks all had the staggers, on Friday his cousin came home from Australia, and on Saturday he broke his ankle. What a whirl of excitement!—compared to me.”
“Nothing ever happens to me,” he said, starting to think out loud. “I wonder why? A lot happens to other people. Look at Harvey. Just the other week, on Monday he found a sixpence, on Wednesday his chicks all got sick, on Friday his cousin came back from Australia, and on Saturday he broke his ankle. What a whirlwind of excitement!—compared to my life.”
“I think I would rather be without so much excitement,” said his housekeeper. “It can’t be good for you.”
“I think I’d prefer to live with less excitement,” said his housekeeper. “It can’t be good for you.”
“I suppose it’s troublesome. Still—you see, nothing ever happens to me. When I was a little boy I never had accidents. I never fell in love as I grew up. Never married—I wonder how it feels to have something happen to you, something really remarkable.
“I guess it’s annoying. Still—you know, nothing ever happens to me. When I was a kid, I never had accidents. I never fell in love growing up. Never got married—I wonder what it’s like to have something happen to you, something truly remarkable."
“That orchid-collector was only thirty-six—twenty years younger than myself—when he died. And he had been married twice and divorced once; he had had malarial fever four times, and once he broke his thigh. He killed a Malay once, and once he was wounded by a poisoned dart. And in the end he was killed by 4jungle-leeches. It must have all been very troublesome, but then it must have been very interesting, you know—except, perhaps, the leeches.”
“That orchid collector was only thirty-six—twenty years younger than me—when he died. He had been married twice and divorced once; he had malaria four times, and once he broke his thigh. He killed a Malay once and was wounded by a poisoned dart. In the end, he was killed by jungle leeches. It must have all been really troublesome, but it also must have been very interesting, you know—except, maybe, for the leeches.”
“I am sure it was not good for him,” said the lady, with conviction.
“I’m sure it wasn’t good for him,” the lady said confidently.
“Perhaps not.” And then Wedderburn looked at his watch. “Twenty-three minutes past eight. I am going up by the quarter to twelve train, so that there is plenty of time. I think I shall wear my alpaca jacket—it is quite warm enough—and my grey felt hat and brown shoes. I suppose—”
“Maybe not.” Then Wedderburn checked his watch. “It's twenty-three minutes past eight. I'm taking the quarter to twelve train, so I have plenty of time. I think I’ll wear my alpaca jacket—it’s warm enough—and my grey felt hat and brown shoes. I guess—”
He glanced out of the window at the serene sky and sunlit garden, and then nervously at his cousin’s face.
He looked out the window at the peaceful sky and sunlit garden, and then nervously at his cousin’s face.
“I think you had better take an umbrella if you are going to London,” she said in a voice that admitted of no denial. “There’s all between here and the station coming back.”
“I think you should take an umbrella if you’re going to London,” she said in a tone that left no room for disagreement. “There’s everything between here and the station on your way back.”
When he returned he was in a state of mild excitement. He had made a purchase. It was rare that he could make up his mind quickly enough to buy, but this time he had done so.
When he got back, he felt a bit excited. He had made a purchase. It was rare for him to decide quickly enough to buy something, but this time he did.
“There are Vandas,” he said, “and a Dendrobe and some Palæonophis.” He surveyed his purchases lovingly as he consumed his soup. They were laid out on the spotless table-cloth before him, and he was telling his cousin all about them as he slowly meandered through his dinner. It was his custom to live all his visits to London over 5again in the evening for her and his own entertainment.
“There are Vandas,” he said, “and a Dendrobe and some Palæonophis.” He looked at his purchases fondly as he ate his soup. They were spread out on the clean tablecloth in front of him, and he was explaining everything to his cousin while he slowly enjoyed his dinner. It was his habit to relive all his visits to London in the evening for both her and his own enjoyment. 5
“I knew something would happen to-day. And I have bought all these. Some of them—some of them—I feel sure, do you know, that some of them will be remarkable. I don’t know how it is, but I feel just as sure as if some one had told me that some of these will turn out remarkable.
“I knew something would happen today. And I have bought all of these. Some of them—I’m sure of it, you know—some of them will be amazing. I don’t know how I know, but I feel just as certain as if someone had told me that some of these will turn out to be extraordinary."
“That one”—he pointed to a shrivelled rhizome—“was not identified. It may be a Palæonophis—or it may not. It may be a new species, or even a new genus. And it was the last that poor Batten ever collected.”
“That's the one,” he said, pointing to a dried-up rhizome. “It hasn't been identified. It could be a Palæonophis—or maybe not. It might even be a new species or a whole new genus. And it was the last one that poor Batten ever collected.”
“I don’t like the look of it,” said his housekeeper. “It’s such an ugly shape.”
“I don’t like how it looks,” said his housekeeper. “It’s such a weird shape.”
“To me it scarcely seems to have a shape.”
“To me, it hardly seems to have a shape.”
“I don’t like those things that stick out,” said his housekeeper.
“I don’t like those things that stick out,” said his housekeeper.
“It shall be put away in a pot to-morrow.”
“It will be stored in a pot tomorrow.”
“It looks,” said the housekeeper, “like a spider shamming dead.”
“It looks,” said the housekeeper, “like a fake dead spider.”
Wedderburn smiled and surveyed the root with his head on one side. “It is certainly not a pretty lump of stuff. But you can never judge of these things from their dry appearance. It may turn out to be a very beautiful orchid indeed. How busy I shall be to-morrow! I must see to-night just exactly what to do with these things, and to-morrow I shall set to work.
Wedderburn smiled and tilted his head to look at the root. “It’s definitely not a nice-looking piece of material. But you can’t judge these things just by their dry look. It might actually turn out to be a really beautiful orchid. I’ll be so busy tomorrow! I need to figure out exactly what to do with these things tonight, and then I’ll get started tomorrow.”
“They found poor Batten lying dead, or dying, 6in a mangrove swamp—I forget which,” he began again presently, “with one of these very orchids crushed up under his body. He had been unwell for some days with some kind of native fever, and I suppose he fainted. These mangrove swamps are very unwholesome. Every drop of blood, they say, was taken out of him by the jungle-leeches. It may be that very plant that cost him his life to obtain.”
“They found poor Batten lying dead, or dying, 6in a mangrove swamp—I can’t remember which,” he started again after a moment, “with one of these very orchids crushed underneath him. He had been feeling unwell for a few days with some type of tropical fever, and I guess he fainted. These mangrove swamps are really unhealthy. They say the jungle leeches drained every drop of blood out of him. It could be that very plant that ended up costing him his life to get.”
“I think none the better of it for that.”
"I don’t think any better of it for that."
“Men must work though women may weep,” said Wedderburn, with profound gravity.
"Guys have to work, even if women are crying," said Wedderburn seriously.
“Fancy dying away from every comfort in a nasty swamp! Fancy being ill of fever with nothing to take but chlorodyne and quinine—if men were left to themselves they would live on chlorodyne and quinine—and no one round you but horrible natives! They say the Andaman islanders are most disgusting wretches—and, anyhow, they can scarcely make good nurses, not having the necessary training. And just for people in England to have orchids!”
“Imagine dying in a miserable swamp, far from any comfort! Picture being sick with fever and having only chlorodyne and quinine to rely on—if people were left to their own devices, they would only survive on chlorodyne and quinine—and no one around you except awful natives! They say the Andaman islanders are really unpleasant and, anyway, they can hardly be good nurses since they don't have the proper training. And all this just so people in England can have orchids!”
“I don’t suppose it was comfortable, but some men seem to enjoy that kind of thing,” said Wedderburn. “Anyhow, the natives of his party were sufficiently civilised to take care of all his collection until his colleague, who was an ornithologist, came back again from the interior; though they could not tell the species of the orchid, and had let it wither. And it makes these things more interesting.”
“I don’t think it was comfortable, but some guys seem to enjoy that kind of thing,” Wedderburn said. “Anyway, the locals on his team were civilized enough to take care of all his stuff until his colleague, who was a bird expert, returned from the interior; although they couldn’t identify the orchid species and let it die. And that makes these things more interesting.”
7“It makes them disgusting. I should be afraid of some of the malaria clinging to them. And just think, there has been a dead body lying across that ugly thing! I never thought of that before. There! I declare I cannot eat another mouthful of dinner.”
7“It makes them gross. I should be worried about some of the malaria stuck to them. And just think, there’s been a dead body lying across that nasty thing! I never thought of that before. There! I swear I can’t eat another bite of dinner.”
“I will take them off the table if you like, and put them in the window-seat. I can see them just as well there.”
“I can take them off the table if you want and put them on the window seat. I can see them just as well there.”
The next few days he was indeed singularly busy in his steamy little hothouse, fussing about with charcoal, lumps of teak, moss, and all the other mysteries of the orchid cultivator. He considered he was having a wonderfully eventful time. In the evening he would talk about these new orchids to his friends, and over and over again he reverted to his expectation of something strange.
The next few days, he was really busy in his small, humid greenhouse, messing around with charcoal, chunks of teak, moss, and all the other secrets of growing orchids. He thought he was having an incredibly exciting time. In the evenings, he would tell his friends about these new orchids, and time and again, he returned to his anticipation of something unusual.
Several of the Vandas and the Dendrobium died under his care, but presently the strange orchid began to show signs of life. He was delighted, and took his housekeeper right away from jam-making to see it at once, directly he made the discovery.
Several of the Vandas and the Dendrobium died under his care, but soon the strange orchid started to show signs of life. He was thrilled and immediately pulled his housekeeper away from making jam to see it as soon as he made the discovery.
“That is a bud,” he said, “and presently there will be a lot of leaves there, and those little things coming out here are aërial rootlets.”
“That is a bud,” he said, “and soon there will be a lot of leaves there, and those little things coming out here are aerial rootlets.”
“They look to me like little white fingers poking out of the brown. I don’t like them,” said his housekeeper.
“They look to me like little white fingers sticking out of the brown. I don’t like them,” said his housekeeper.
“Why not?”
"Why not?"
8“I don’t know. They look like fingers trying to get at you. I can’t help my likes and dislikes.”
8“I don't know. They look like fingers reaching out for you. I can't control what I like and dislike.”
“I don’t know for certain, but I don’t think there are any orchids I know that have aërial rootlets quite like that. It may be my fancy, of course. You see they are a little flattened at the ends.”
“I’m not sure, but I don’t think there are any orchids I know of that have aerial rootlets quite like that. It might just be my imagination, of course. You can see they are a little flattened at the ends.”
“I don’t like ’em,” said his housekeeper, suddenly shivering and turning away. “I know it’s very silly of me—and I’m very sorry, particularly as you like the thing so much. But I can’t help thinking of that corpse.”
“I don’t like them,” said his housekeeper, suddenly shivering and turning away. “I know it’s really silly of me—and I’m very sorry, especially since you like it so much. But I can’t stop thinking about that corpse.”
“But it may not be that particular plant. That was merely a guess of mine.”
“But it might not be that specific plant. That was just my guess.”
His housekeeper shrugged her shoulders.
His housekeeper shrugged.
“Anyhow I don’t like it,” she said.
“Anyway, I don’t like it,” she said.
Wedderburn felt a little hurt at her dislike to the plant. But that did not prevent his talking to her about orchids generally, and this orchid in particular, whenever he felt inclined.
Wedderburn felt a bit hurt by her dislike for the plant. But that didn't stop him from talking to her about orchids in general, and this specific orchid, whenever he felt like it.
“There are such queer things about orchids,” he said one day; “such possibilities of surprises. You know, Darwin studied their fertilisation, and showed that the whole structure of an ordinary orchid-flower was contrived in order that moths might carry the pollen from plant to plant. Well, it seems that there are lots of orchids known the flower of which cannot possibly be used for fertilisation in that way. Some of the Cypripediums, for instance; there are no insects known that can 9possibly fertilise them, and some of them have never been found with seed.”
“There are some really strange things about orchids,” he said one day. “They come with so many surprises. You know, Darwin looked into how they get fertilized and showed that the whole structure of a regular orchid flower is designed for moths to carry pollen from one plant to another. Well, it turns out there are a lot of orchids whose flowers can’t possibly get fertilized that way. Take some of the Cypripediums, for example; there are no known insects that can fertilize them, and some of them have never been found with seeds.”
“But how do they form new plants?”
“But how do they create new plants?”
“By runners and tubers, and that kind of outgrowth. That is easily explained. The puzzle is, what are the flowers for?
“By runners and tubers, and that kind of growth. That’s easy to explain. The mystery is, what are the flowers for?
“Very likely,” he added, “my orchid may be something extraordinary in that way. If so, I shall study it. I have often thought of making researches as Darwin did. But hitherto I have not found the time, or something else has happened to prevent it. The leaves are beginning to unfold now. I do wish you would come and see them!”
“Probably,” he added, “my orchid might be something really special in that way. If it is, I’ll study it. I’ve often thought about doing research like Darwin did. But so far, I haven’t found the time, or something else has come up to stop me. The leaves are starting to open now. I really wish you would come and see them!”
But she said that the orchid-house was so hot it gave her the headache. She had seen the plant once again, and the aërial rootlets, which were now some of them more than a foot long, had unfortunately reminded her of tentacles reaching out after something; and they got into her dreams, growing after her with incredible rapidity. So that she had settled to her entire satisfaction that she would not see that plant again, and Wedderburn had to admire its leaves alone. They were of the ordinary broad form, and a deep glossy green, with splashes and dots of deep red towards the base. He knew of no other leaves quite like them. The plant was placed on a low bench near the thermometer, and close by was a simple arrangement by which a tap dripped 10on the hot-water pipes and kept the air steamy. And he spent his afternoons now with some regularity meditating on the approaching flowering of this strange plant.
But she said that the orchid house was so hot it gave her a headache. She had seen the plant again, and the aerial roots, which were now over a foot long, unfortunately reminded her of tentacles reaching out for something. They invaded her dreams, growing after her at an incredible speed. So, she had fully decided that she wouldn't see that plant again, and Wedderburn had to admire its leaves by himself. They were the usual broad shape, a deep glossy green, with splashes and dots of deep red near the base. He didn't know of any other leaves quite like them. The plant was placed on a low bench near the thermometer, and close by was a simple setup where a tap dripped onto the hot-water pipes, keeping the air steamy. He now spent his afternoons fairly regularly contemplating the upcoming flowering of this strange plant.
And at last the great thing happened. Directly he entered the little glass house he knew that the spike had burst out, although his great Palæonophis Lowii hid the corner where his new darling stood. There was a new odour in the air, a rich, intensely sweet scent, that overpowered every other in that crowded, steaming little greenhouse.
And finally, the big moment arrived. As soon as he stepped into the small glass house, he realized that the spike had burst out, even though his prized Palæonophis Lowii obscured the spot where his new favorite was. There was a new fragrance in the air, a rich, intensely sweet scent that overwhelmed everything else in that crowded, steamy little greenhouse.
Directly he noticed this he hurried down to the strange orchid. And, behold! the trailing green spikes bore now three great splashes of blossom, from which this overpowering sweetness proceeded. He stopped before them in an ecstasy of admiration.
As soon as he noticed this, he hurried down to the strange orchid. And, look! the trailing green spikes now had three large splashes of blossoms, from which this overwhelming sweetness was coming. He stopped in front of them, filled with admiration.
The flowers were white, with streaks of golden orange upon the petals; the heavy labellum was coiled into an intricate projection, and a wonderful bluish purple mingled there with the gold. He could see at once that the genus was altogether a new one. And the insufferable scent! How hot the place was! The blossoms swam before his eyes.
The flowers were white, with streaks of golden orange on the petals; the heavy labellum twisted into a complex shape, and a beautiful bluish purple blended with the gold. He immediately recognized that this was a completely new genus. And the unbearable smell! It was so hot in there! The blossoms swirled in front of his eyes.
He would see if the temperature was right. He made a step towards the thermometer. Suddenly everything appeared unsteady. The bricks on the floor were dancing up and down. Then the white blossoms, the green leaves behind them, 11the whole greenhouse, seemed to sweep sideways, and then in a curve upward.
He was going to check if the temperature was right. He took a step towards the thermometer. Suddenly, everything felt unstable. The bricks on the floor were bouncing up and down. Then the white flowers and the green leaves behind them, 11 the entire greenhouse, seemed to tilt sideways and then curve upward.
At half-past four his cousin made the tea, according to their invariable custom. But Wedderburn did not come in for his tea.
At 4:30, his cousin made the tea, following their usual routine. But Wedderburn didn’t come in for his tea.
“He is worshipping that horrid orchid,” she told herself, and waited ten minutes. “His watch must have stopped. I will go and call him.”
“He's obsessing over that ugly orchid,” she thought, and waited ten minutes. “His watch must be broken. I’ll go and get him.”
She went straight to the hothouse, and, opening the door, called his name. There was no reply. She noticed that the air was very close, and loaded with an intense perfume. Then she saw something lying on the bricks between the hot-water pipes.
She went directly to the greenhouse and, opening the door, called his name. There was no answer. She realized that the air was heavy and thick with an overwhelming scent. Then she noticed something lying on the bricks between the hot-water pipes.
For a minute, perhaps, she stood motionless.
For a moment, maybe, she stood still.
He was lying, face upward, at the foot of the strange orchid. The tentacle-like aërial rootlets no longer swayed freely in the air, but were crowded together, a tangle of grey ropes, and stretched tight with their ends closely applied to his chin and neck and hands.
He was lying on his back at the base of the strange orchid. The tentacle-like aerial rootlets no longer swayed freely in the air; instead, they were all bunched together, a tangle of gray ropes, stretching tight with their ends pressed against his chin, neck, and hands.
She did not understand. Then she saw from under one of the exultant tentacles upon his cheek there trickled a little thread of blood.
She didn't understand. Then she noticed a small trickle of blood coming from beneath one of the triumphant tentacles on his cheek.
With an inarticulate cry she ran towards him, and tried to pull him away from the leech-like suckers. She snapped two of these tentacles, and their sap dripped red.
With a muffled cry, she rushed toward him and tried to pull him away from the leech-like suckers. She broke two of those tentacles, and their liquid oozed red.
Then the overpowering scent of the blossom 12began to make her head reel. How they clung to him! She tore at the tough ropes, and he and the white inflorescence swam about her. She felt she was fainting, knew she must not. She left him and hastily opened the nearest door, and, after she had panted for a moment in the fresh air, she had a brilliant inspiration. She caught up a flower-pot and smashed in the windows at the end of the greenhouse. Then she re-entered. She tugged now with renewed strength at Wedderburn’s motionless body, and brought the strange orchid crashing to the floor. It still clung with the grimmest tenacity to its victim. In a frenzy, she lugged it and him into the open air.
Then the overpowering scent of the blossom 12started to make her head spin. How they clung to him! She yanked at the tough ropes, and he and the white flower swirled around her. She felt like she was about to faint but knew she had to hold it together. She left him and quickly opened the nearest door, and after catching her breath for a moment in the fresh air, she had a great idea. She grabbed a flower pot and smashed the windows at the end of the greenhouse. Then she went back inside. She pulled with renewed strength at Wedderburn’s still body and brought the strange orchid crashing to the floor. It still held on with an iron grip to its victim. In a frenzy, she dragged both it and him into the open air.
Then she thought of tearing through the sucker rootlets one by one, and in another minute she had released him and was dragging him away from the horror.
Then she thought about ripping through the little roots one by one, and in another minute, she had freed him and was pulling him away from the nightmare.
He was white and bleeding from a dozen circular patches.
He was pale and bleeding from a dozen round wounds.
The odd-job man was coming up the garden, amazed at the smashing of glass, and saw her emerge, hauling the inanimate body with red-stained hands. For a moment he thought impossible things.
The handyman was walking up the garden, shocked by the sound of breaking glass, and saw her come out, pulling the lifeless body with her hands covered in blood. For a moment, he imagined the unthinkable.
“Bring some water!” she cried, and her voice dispelled his fancies. When, with unnatural alacrity, he returned with the water, he found her weeping with excitement, and with Wedderburn’s 13head upon her knee, wiping the blood from his face.
“Get me some water!” she shouted, and her voice shattered his daydreams. When he hurried back with the water, he found her crying from excitement, with Wedderburn’s 13 head in her lap, cleaning the blood off his face.
“What’s the matter?” said Wedderburn, opening his eyes feebly, and closing them again at once.
“What’s wrong?” asked Wedderburn, opening his eyes weakly and closing them again immediately.
“Go and tell Annie to come out here to me, and then go for Dr. Haddon at once,” she said to the odd-job man so soon as he brought the water; and added, seeing he hesitated, “I will tell you all about it when you come back.”
“Go and tell Annie to come out here to me, and then go get Dr. Haddon right away,” she said to the handyman as soon as he brought the water. She added, noticing his hesitation, “I’ll explain everything when you get back.”
Presently Wedderburn opened his eyes again, and, seeing that he was troubled by the puzzle of his position, she explained to him, “You fainted in the hothouse.”
Presently, Wedderburn opened his eyes again and, noticing that he was confused about his situation, she said to him, “You fainted in the hothouse.”
“And the orchid?”
"And the flower?"
“I will see to that,” she said.
“I'll take care of that,” she said.
Wedderburn had lost a good deal of blood, but beyond that he had suffered no very great injury. They gave him brandy mixed with some pink extract of meat, and carried him upstairs to bed. His housekeeper told her incredible story in fragments to Dr. Haddon. “Come to the orchid-house and see,” she said.
Wedderburn had lost a lot of blood, but aside from that, he hadn't been seriously hurt. They gave him brandy mixed with some pink meat extract and took him upstairs to bed. His housekeeper told her unbelievable story in bits to Dr. Haddon. “Come to the orchid house and see,” she said.
The cold outer air was blowing in through the open door, and the sickly perfume was almost dispelled. Most of the torn aërial rootlets lay already withered amidst a number of dark stains upon the bricks. The stem of the inflorescence was broken by the fall of the plant, and the flowers were growing limp and brown at the 14edges of the petals. The doctor stooped towards it, then saw that one of the aërial rootlets still stirred feebly, and hesitated.
The cold outside air was blowing in through the open door, and the sickly scent was almost gone. Most of the torn aerial rootlets were already wilted among several dark stains on the bricks. The stem of the flower cluster was broken from the plant's fall, and the flowers were turning limp and brown at the edges of the petals. The doctor bent down to look at it, then noticed that one of the aerial rootlets was still moving weakly, and he hesitated.
The next morning the strange orchid still lay there, black now and putrescent. The door banged intermittingly in the morning breeze, and all the array of Wedderburn’s orchids was shrivelled and prostrate. But Wedderburn himself was bright and garrulous upstairs in the story of his strange adventure.
The next morning, the strange orchid still lay there, now black and decaying. The door banged sporadically in the morning breeze, and all of Wedderburn’s orchids were shriveled and flattened. But Wedderburn himself was cheerful and chatty upstairs as he recounted his bizarre adventure.
ÆPYORNIS ISLAND
The man with the scarred face leant over the table and looked at my bundle.
The man with the scarred face leaned over the table and looked at my bundle.
“Orchids?” he asked.
"Orchids?" he asked.
“A few,” I said.
"Just a few," I said.
“Cypripediums?” he said.
"Cypripediums?" he asked.
“Chiefly,” said I.
“Mainly,” I said.
“Anything new?—I thought not. I did these islands twenty-five—twenty-seven years ago. If you find anything new here—well, it’s brand new. I didn’t leave much.”
“Anything new?—I figured not. I explored these islands twenty-five—twenty-seven years ago. If you discover anything new here—well, it’s completely fresh. I didn’t leave much.”
“I’m not a collector,” said I.
“I’m not a collector,” I said.
“I was young then,” he went on. “Lord! how I used to fly round.” He seemed to take my measure. “I was in the East Indies two years, and in Brazil seven. Then I went to Madagascar.”
“I was young back then,” he continued. “Wow! I used to run all over the place.” He seemed to size me up. “I spent two years in the East Indies and seven years in Brazil. After that, I went to Madagascar.”
“I know a few explorers by name,” I said anticipating a yarn. “Who did you collect for?”
“I know a few explorers by name,” I said, expecting a good story. “Who did you gather them for?”
“Dawsons. I wonder if you’ve heard the name of Butcher ever?”
“Dawsons. I’m curious if you’ve ever heard the name Butcher?”
“Butcher—Butcher?” The name seemed vaguely present in my memory; then I recalled Butcher v. Dawson. “Why!” said I, “you are 16the man who sued them for four years’ salary—got cast away on a desert island—”
“Butcher—Butcher?” The name felt somewhat familiar to me; then I remembered Butcher v. Dawson. “Wait!” I said, “you’re the guy who sued them for four years’ salary—ended up stranded on a deserted island—”
“Your servant,” said the man with the scar, bowing. “Funny case, wasn’t it? Here was me, making a little fortune on that island, doing nothing for it neither, and them quite unable to give me notice. It often used to amuse me thinking over it while I was there. I did calculations of it—big—all over the blessed atoll in ornamental figuring.”
“Your servant,” said the scar-faced man, bowing. “Strange situation, wasn’t it? Here I was, making a small fortune on that island without doing anything for it, and they couldn’t even give me notice. It used to make me laugh sometimes while I was there. I did the math—big time—all over the beautiful atoll, like it was some kind of art.”
“How did it happen?” said I. “I don’t rightly remember the case.”
“How did it happen?” I asked. “I don’t really remember the details.”
“Well—you’ve heard of the Æpyornis?”
“Well—you’ve heard of the Elephant Bird?”
“Rather. Andrews was telling me of a new species he was working on only a month or so ago. Just before I sailed. They’ve got a thigh bone, it seems, nearly a yard long. Monster the thing must have been!”
“Actually, Andrews was telling me about a new species he was working on just a month or so ago. Right before I left. They’ve found a thigh bone that’s almost a yard long. It must have been a monster!”
“I believe you,” said the man with the scar. “It was a monster. Sinbad’s roc was just a legend of ’em. But when did they find these bones?”
“I believe you,” said the man with the scar. “It was a monster. Sinbad’s roc was just a legend about them. But when did they find these bones?”
“Three or four years ago—’91 I fancy. Why?”
“Three or four years ago—I think it was ’91. Why?”
“Why?—Because I found ’em—Lord!—it’s nearly twenty years ago. If Dawsons hadn’t been silly about that salary they might have made a perfect ring in ’em.—I couldn’t help the infernal boat going adrift.”
“Why?—Because I found them—wow!—it’s almost twenty years ago. If the Dawsons hadn’t been foolish about that salary, they could have made a perfect fit for them.—I couldn’t help that stupid boat getting loose.”
He paused. “I suppose it’s the same place. 17A kind of swamp about ninety miles north of Antananarivo. Do you happen to know? You have to go to it along the coast by boats. You don’t happen to remember, perhaps?”
He paused. “I guess it’s the same place. 17A sort of swamp about ninety miles north of Antananarivo. Do you know it? You have to get there by boat along the coast. You don’t remember, do you?”
“I don’t. I fancy Andrews said something about a swamp.”
“I don’t. I think Andrews mentioned something about a swamp.”
“It must be the same. It’s on the east coast. And somehow there’s something in the water that keeps things from decaying. Like creosote it smells. It reminded me of Trinidad. Did they get any more eggs? Some of the eggs I found were a foot and a half long. The swamp goes circling round, you know, and cuts off this bit. It’s mostly salt, too. Well—What a time I had of it! I found the things quite by accident. We went for eggs, me and two native chaps, in one of those rum canoes all tied together, and found the bones at the same time. We had a tent and provisions for four days, and we pitched on one of the firmer places. To think of it brings that odd tarry smell back even now. It’s funny work. You go probing into the mud with iron rods, you know. Usually the egg gets smashed. I wonder how long it is since these Æpyornises really lived. The missionaries say the natives have legends about when they were alive, but I never heard any such stories myself.[1] But certainly those eggs we got were 18as fresh as if they had been new-laid. Fresh! Carrying them down to the boat one of my nigger chaps dropped one on a rock and it smashed. How I lammed into the beggar! But sweet it was as if it was new-laid, not even smelly, and its mother dead these four hundred years perhaps. Said a centipede had bit him. However, I’m getting off the straight with the story. It had taken us all day to dig into the slush and get these eggs out unbroken, and we were all covered with beastly black mud, and naturally I was cross. So far as I knew they were the only eggs that had ever been got out not even cracked. I went afterwards to see the ones they have at the Natural History Museum in London: all of them were cracked and just stuck together like a mosaic, and bits missing. Mine were perfect, and I meant to blow them when I got back. Naturally I was annoyed at the silly devil dropping three hours’ work just on account of a centipede. I hit him about rather.”
“It must be the same. It’s on the east coast. And somehow there’s something in the water that keeps things from decaying. It smells like creosote. It reminded me of Trinidad. Did they get any more eggs? Some of the eggs I found were a foot and a half long. The swamp circles around, you know, and cuts off this bit. It’s mostly salt, too. Well—What a time I had! I found everything quite by accident. We went for eggs, me and two local guys, in one of those rum canoes all tied together, and we found the bones at the same time. We had a tent and supplies for four days, and we set up on one of the firmer spots. Just thinking about it brings that odd tarry smell back even now. It’s funny work. You probe into the mud with iron rods, you know. Usually the egg gets smashed. I wonder how long it’s been since these Æpyornises actually lived. The missionaries say the locals have legends about when they were alive, but I’ve never heard any such stories myself. But certainly those eggs we got were as fresh as if they had just been laid. Fresh! Carrying them down to the boat, one of my local guys dropped one on a rock and it smashed. I really gave him a hard time! But it was sweet, as if it was new-laid, not even smelly, and its mother dead for maybe four hundred years. He said a centipede had bitten him. Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked with the story. It took us all day to dig through the slush and get these eggs out unbroken, and we were all covered with nasty black mud, and naturally I was annoyed. As far as I knew, they were the only eggs that had ever been taken out not even cracked. I later went to see the ones they have at the Natural History Museum in London: all of them were cracked and just stuck together like a mosaic, with bits missing. Mine were perfect, and I planned to blow them when I got back. Naturally, I was irritated at the silly guy for dropping three hours of work just because of a centipede. I gave him a bit of a hit.”
The man with the scar took out a clay pipe. I placed my pouch before him. He filled up absent-mindedly.
The man with the scar pulled out a clay pipe. I set my pouch in front of him. He filled it up absentmindedly.
“How about the others? Did you get those home? I don’t remember—”
“How about the others? Did you manage to get those home? I can’t recall—”
“That’s the queer part of the story. I had three others. Perfectly fresh eggs. Well, we put ’em in the boat, and then I went up to the tent to make some coffee, leaving my two heathens 19down by the beach—the one fooling about with his sting and the other helping him. It never occurred to me that the beggars would take advantage of the peculiar position I was in to pick a quarrel. But I suppose the centipede poison and the kicking I’d given him had upset the one—he was always a cantankerous sort—and he persuaded the other.
“That’s the strange part of the story. I had three others. Perfectly fresh eggs. Well, we put them in the boat, and then I went up to the tent to make some coffee, leaving my two troublemakers down by the beach—one messing around with his sting and the other helping him. It never crossed my mind that those guys would take advantage of the situation I was in to start a fight. But I guess the centipede poison and the kicking I’d given him had rattled the one—he was always a difficult sort—and he convinced the other.”
“I remember I was sitting and smoking and boiling up the water over a spirit-lamp business I used to take on these expeditions. Incidentally I was admiring the swamp under the sunset. All black and blood red it was, in streaks—a beautiful sight. And up beyond, the land rose grey and hazy to the hills, and the sky behind them red, like a furnace mouth. And fifty yards behind the back of me was these blessed heathen—quite regardless of the tranquil air of things—plotting to cut off with the boat and leave me all alone with three days’ provisions and a canvas tent, and nothing to drink whatsoever, beyond a little keg of water. I heard a kind of yelp behind me, and there they were in this canoe affair—it wasn’t properly a boat—and perhaps twenty yards from land. I realised what was up in a moment. My gun was in the tent, and besides I had no bullets—only duck shot. They knew that. But I had a little revolver in my pocket and I pulled that out as I ran down to the beach.
“I remember I was sitting there smoking and heating water over a camping stove I used to bring on these trips. By the way, I was admiring the swamp at sunset. It was all black and blood red in streaks—a stunning sight. Up ahead, the land rose grey and hazy to the hills, and the sky behind them was red, like a furnace. And fifty yards behind me were those blessed heathens—completely unconcerned about the calmness of everything—planning to take off with the boat and leave me all alone with three days' worth of supplies, a canvas tent, and nothing to drink except a small keg of water. I heard a sort of yelp behind me, and there they were in this canoe—it wasn’t really a boat—maybe twenty yards from shore. I figured out what was going on in an instant. My gun was in the tent, and besides, I didn’t have any bullets—just duck shot. They knew that. But I had a small revolver in my pocket, and I pulled it out as I rushed down to the beach.”
20“‘Come back!’ says I, flourishing it.
20“‘Come back!’ I said, waving it around.
“They jabbered something at me, and the man that broke the egg jeered. I aimed at the other—because he was unwounded and had the paddle, and I missed. They laughed. However, I wasn’t beat. I knew I had to keep cool, and I tried him again and made him jump with the whang of it. The third time I got his head, and over he went, and the paddle with him. It was a precious lucky shot for a revolver. I reckon it was fifty yards. He went right under. I don’t know if he was shot, or simply stunned and drowned. Then I began to shout to the other chap to come back, but he huddled up in the canoe and refused to answer. So I fired out my revolver at him and never got near him.
“They were chattering at me, and the guy who broke the egg laughed. I aimed at the other one—since he was unhurt and had the paddle—but I missed. They laughed again. Still, I wasn’t defeated. I knew I had to stay calm, so I tried again and made him jump with the sound of it. The third time I hit his head, and he fell over, paddle and all. It was a pretty lucky shot for a revolver. I’d say it was about fifty yards. He went right under. I’m not sure if he got shot or if he was just stunned and drowned. Then I started shouting for the other guy to come back, but he just huddled in the canoe and didn’t respond. So I fired my revolver at him but missed completely.”
“I felt a precious fool, I can tell you. There I was on this rotten, black beach, flat swamp all behind me, and the flat sea, cold after the sunset, and just this black canoe drifting steadily out to sea. I tell you I damned Dawsons and Jamrachs and Museums and all the rest of it just to rights. I bawled to this nigger to come back, until my voice went up into a scream.
“I felt like a complete fool, I can tell you. There I was on this awful, black beach, a flat swamp behind me, and the cold, flat sea after sunset, with just this black canoe drifting steadily out to sea. I cursed Dawsons and Jamrachs and Museums and everything else just to vent. I yelled for this guy to come back until my voice turned into a scream.
“There was nothing for it but to swim after him and take my luck with the sharks. So I opened my clasp-knife and put it in my mouth and took off my clothes and waded in. As soon as I was in the water I lost sight of the canoe, but I aimed, as I judged, to head it off. I hoped 21the man in it was too bad to navigate it, and that it would keep on drifting in the same direction. Presently it came up over the horizon again to the south-westward about. The afterglow of sunset was well over now and the dim of night creeping up. The stars were coming through the blue. I swam like a champion, though my legs and arms were soon aching.
“There was nothing to do but swim after him and take my chances with the sharks. So I opened my pocket knife and put it in my mouth, took off my clothes, and waded in. Once I was in the water, I lost sight of the canoe, but I aimed, as best I could, to cut it off. I hoped the guy in it was too messed up to steer properly and that it would keep drifting in the same direction. Soon it reappeared over the horizon to the southwest. The sunset glow was fading now, and the darkness of night was creeping in. The stars were starting to come out in the blue sky. I swam like a pro, even though my legs and arms began to ache. 21”
“However, I came up to him by the time the stars were fairly out. As it got darker I began to see all manner of glowing things in the water—phosphorescence, you know. At times it made me giddy. I hardly knew which was stars and which was phosphorescence, and whether I was swimming on my head or my heels. The canoe was as black as sin, and the ripple under the bows like liquid fire. I was naturally chary of clambering up into it. I was anxious to see what he was up to first. He seemed to be lying cuddled up in a lump in the bows, and the stern was all out of water. The thing kept turning round slowly as it drifted—kind of waltzing, don’t you know. I went to the stern and pulled it down, expecting him to wake up. Then I began to clamber in with my knife in my hand, and ready for a rush. But he never stirred. So there I sat in the stern of the little canoe, drifting away over the calm phosphorescent sea, and with all the host of the stars above me, waiting for something to happen.
“However, I approached him by the time the stars were clearly visible. As it got darker, I started to see all kinds of glowing things in the water—phosphorescence, you know. At times, it made me feel dizzy. I could hardly tell which were stars and which was phosphorescence, and whether I was swimming upside down or right side up. The canoe was as dark as night, and the ripples under the bow looked like liquid fire. I was understandably cautious about climbing into it. I wanted to see what he was doing first. He seemed to be curled up in a ball at the front, and the back was completely out of the water. The canoe kept turning slowly as it floated—kind of like it was dancing, you know. I went to the back and pulled it down, expecting him to wake up. Then I began to climb in with my knife in hand, ready for anything. But he never moved. So there I sat in the back of the little canoe, drifting over the calm phosphorescent sea, with all the stars above me, waiting for something to happen.”
“After a long time I called him by name, but 22he never answered. I was too tired to take any risks by going along to him. So we sat there. I fancy I dozed once or twice. When the dawn came I saw he was as dead as a doornail and all puffed up and purple. My three eggs and the bones were lying in the middle of the canoe, and the keg of water and some coffee and biscuits wrapped in a Cape ‘Argus’ by his feet, and a tin of methylated spirit underneath him. There was no paddle, nor in fact anything except the spirit tin that one could use as one, so I settled to drift until I was picked up. I held an inquest on him, brought in a verdict against some snake, scorpion, or centipede unknown, and sent him overboard.
“After a long time, I called his name, but 22 he never replied. I was too exhausted to take any chances by going over to him. So we just sat there. I think I dozed off a couple of times. When dawn broke, I saw he was as dead as a doornail, all puffy and purple. My three eggs and the bones were in the middle of the canoe, along with a keg of water and some coffee and biscuits wrapped in a Cape ‘Argus’ at his feet, and a tin of methylated spirit under him. There was no paddle, or really anything else to use as one, so I decided to just drift until someone picked me up. I held an inquest on him, returned a verdict against some snake, scorpion, or centipede unknown, and sent him overboard.
“After that I had a drink of water and a few biscuits, and took a look round. I suppose a man low down as I was don’t see very far; leastways, Madagascar was clean out of sight, and any trace of land at all. I saw a sail going south-westward—looked like a schooner, but her hull never came up. Presently the sun got high in the sky and began to beat down upon me. Lord!—it pretty near made my brains boil. I tried dipping my head in the sea, but after a while my eye fell on the Cape ‘Argus,’ and I lay down flat in the canoe and spread this over me. Wonderful things these newspapers. I never read one through thoroughly before, but it’s odd what you get up to when you’re alone, as I was. I suppose I read that blessed old Cape ‘Argus’ twenty times. The 23pitch in the canoe simply reeked with the heat and rose up into big blisters.
“After that, I had a drink of water and a few biscuits, then took a look around. I guess a guy in my position doesn’t see very far; at least, Madagascar was completely out of sight, along with any sign of land at all. I spotted a sail heading southwest—looked like a schooner, but I couldn’t see her hull. After a bit, the sun got high in the sky and started to really beat down on me. Man!—it almost made my head explode. I tried dipping my head in the sea, but eventually my eyes landed on the Cape ‘Argus,’ so I lay down flat in the canoe and spread it over me. Newspapers are amazing things. I’ve never read one all the way through before, but it’s funny what you end up doing when you’re all alone, like I was. I think I read that old Cape ‘Argus’ twenty times. The 23 cockpit in the canoe was just sweltering and breaking out into huge blisters.”
“I drifted ten days,” said the man with the scar. “It’s a little thing in the telling, isn’t it? Every day was like the last. Except in the morning and the evening I never kept a look-out even—the blaze was so infernal. I didn’t see a sail after the first three days, and those I saw took no notice of me. About the sixth night a ship went by scarcely half a mile away from me, with all its lights ablaze and its ports open, looking like a big firefly. There was music aboard. I stood up and shouted and screamed at it. The second day I broached one of the Æpyornis eggs, scraped the shell away at the end bit by bit, and tried it, and I was glad to find it was good enough to eat. A bit flavoury—not bad, I mean, but with something of the taste of a duck’s egg. There was a kind of circular patch about six inches across on one side of the yolk, and with streaks of blood and a white mark like a ladder in it that I thought queer, but I didn’t understand what this meant at the time, and I wasn’t inclined to be particular. The egg lasted me three days, with biscuits and a drink of water. I chewed coffee berries too—invigorating stuff. The second egg I opened about the eighth day. And it scared me.”
“I drifted for ten days,” said the man with the scar. “It’s a small detail in the telling, isn’t it? Every day felt the same. Except in the mornings and evenings, I didn’t even keep a lookout—the glare was just too intense. I didn’t see another ship after the first three days, and the ones I did see ignored me. On about the sixth night, a ship passed by less than half a mile away, all its lights on and its portholes open, looking like a giant firefly. There was music coming from it. I stood up and yelled and shouted at it. The next day, I cracked open one of the Æpyornis eggs, slowly scraping away the shell bit by bit, and tried it; I was relieved to find it was good to eat. It had a bit of flavor—not bad, really—but with a taste similar to a duck's egg. There was a circular patch about six inches across on one side of the yolk, with streaks of blood and a white mark like a ladder in it that I found strange, but I didn’t know what it meant at that moment, and I wasn’t in a position to be picky. That egg lasted me three days, along with some biscuits and a drink of water. I also chewed on coffee berries—those were pretty energizing. I opened the second egg on about the eighth day. And it scared me.”
The man with the scar paused. “Yes,” he said—“developing.
The man with the scar paused. “Yeah,” he said—“developing.
“I daresay you find it hard to believe. I did, 24with the thing before me. There the egg had been, sunk in that cold black mud, perhaps three hundred years. But there was no mistaking it. There was the—what is it?—embryo, with its big head and curved back and its heart beating under its throat, and the yolk shrivelled up and great membranes spreading inside of the shell and all over the yolk. Here was I hatching out the eggs of the biggest of all extinct birds, in a little canoe in the midst of the Indian Ocean. If old Dawson had known that! It was worth four years’ salary. What do you think?
“I bet you find it hard to believe. I did, 24 when I saw it in front of me. There the egg was, sunk in that cold black mud for maybe three hundred years. But there was no doubt about it. There was the—what is it?—embryo, with its large head and curved back, its heart beating under its throat, and the yolk dried up with large membranes spreading inside the shell and all over the yolk. Here I was hatching the eggs of the largest extinct birds, in a small canoe out in the Indian Ocean. If old Dawson had known that! It was worth four years’ salary. What do you think?
“However, I had to eat that precious thing up, every bit of it, before I sighted the reef, and some of the mouthfuls were beastly unpleasant. I left the third one alone. I held it up to the light, but the shell was too thick for me to get any notion of what might be happening inside; and though I fancied I heard blood pulsing, it might have been the rustle in my own ears, like what you listen to in a seashell.
“However, I had to eat that precious thing up, every bit of it, before I saw the reef, and some of the bites were really unpleasant. I left the third one alone. I held it up to the light, but the shell was too thick for me to get any idea of what might be happening inside; and even though I thought I heard blood pulsing, it could have just been the sound in my own ears, like what you hear in a seashell.”
“Then came the atoll. Came out of the sunrise, as it were, suddenly, close up to me. I drifted straight towards it until I was about half a mile from shore—not more, and then the current took a turn, and I had to paddle as hard as I could with my hands and bits of the Æpyornis shell to make the place. However, I got there. It was just a common atoll about four miles round, with a few trees growing and a spring in one place and 25the lagoon full of parrot fish. I took the egg ashore and put it in a good place well above the tide lines and in the sun, to give it all the chance I could, and pulled the canoe up safe, and loafed about prospecting. It’s rum how dull an atoll is. When I was a kid I thought nothing could be finer or more adventurous than the Robinson Crusoe business, but that place was as monotonous as a book of sermons. I went round finding eatable things and generally thinking; but I tell you I was bored to death before the first day was out. It shows my luck—the very day I landed the weather changed. A thunderstorm went by to the north and flicked its wing over the island, and in the night there came a drencher and a howling wind slap over us. It wouldn’t have taken much, you know, to upset that canoe.
“Then I reached the atoll. It appeared out of the sunrise, suddenly close to me. I drifted straight toward it until I was about half a mile from shore—not more, and then the current changed, and I had to paddle as hard as I could with my hands and bits of the Æpyornis shell to reach it. But I made it. It was just an ordinary atoll about four miles around, with a few trees growing, a spring in one spot, and the lagoon filled with parrotfish. I took the egg ashore and placed it in a good spot well above the tide lines and in the sun, to give it every chance I could, and pulled the canoe up safely, then wandered around exploring. It’s funny how dull an atoll can be. As a kid, I thought nothing could be more amazing or adventurous than the whole Robinson Crusoe thing, but that place was as monotonous as a book of sermons. I spent my time looking for edible things and just thinking; but honestly, I was bored to death before the first day was over. It really shows my luck—the very day I arrived, the weather changed. A thunderstorm went by to the north and brushed over the island, and during the night, there came a downpour and a howling wind that hit us hard. It wouldn’t have taken much, you know, to flip that canoe over."
“I was sleeping under the canoe, and the egg was luckily among the sand higher up the beach, and the first thing I remember was a sound like a hundred pebbles hitting the boat at once and a rush of water over my body. I’d been dreaming of Antananarivo, and I sat up and holloaed to Intoshi to ask her what the devil was up, and clawed out at the chair where the matches used to be. Then I remembered where I was. There were phosphorescent waves rolling up as if they meant to eat me, and all the rest of the night as black as pitch. The air was simply yelling. The clouds seemed down on your head almost, and the rain 26fell as if heaven was sinking and they were baling out the waters above the firmament. One great roller came writhing at me, like a fiery serpent, and I bolted. Then I thought of the canoe, and ran down to it as the water went hissing back again, but the thing had gone. I wondered about the egg then, and felt my way to it. It was all right and well out of reach of the maddest waves, so I sat down beside it and cuddled it for company. Lord! What a night that was!
“I was sleeping under the canoe, and luckily the egg was up higher on the beach in the sand. The first thing I remember was a sound like a hundred pebbles hitting the boat all at once and a rush of water over my body. I had been dreaming about Antananarivo, and I sat up and shouted to Intoshi to ask her what was going on, clawing at the spot where the matches used to be. Then I remembered where I was. There were phosphorescent waves rolling in as if they wanted to swallow me, and the rest of the night was as dark as pitch. The air felt like it was screaming. The clouds seemed to be right above my head, and the rain fell as if heaven was collapsing and they were bailing out the waters above the sky. One huge wave came rushing at me, like a fiery serpent, and I panicked. Then I thought about the canoe and ran down to it as the water hissed back again, but it was gone. I started to worry about the egg and felt my way to it. It was fine and well out of reach of the wildest waves, so I sat down beside it and cuddled it for company. Wow! What a night that was!
“The storm was over before the morning. There wasn’t a rag of cloud left in the sky when the dawn came, and all along the beach there were bits of plank scattered—which was the disarticulated skeleton, so to speak, of my canoe. However, that gave me something to do, for, taking advantage of two of the trees being together, I rigged up a kind of storm shelter with these vestiges. And that day the egg hatched.
“The storm had passed by morning. There wasn’t a single cloud in the sky when dawn broke, and all along the beach, pieces of wood were scattered—which was the broken remains, so to speak, of my canoe. However, that gave me something to work on, so I took advantage of two trees being close together and set up a sort of storm shelter using those remnants. And that day, the egg hatched.”
“Hatched, sir, when my head was pillowed on it and I was asleep. I heard a whack and felt a jar and sat up, and there was the end of the egg pecked out and a rum little brown head looking out at me. ‘Lord!’ I said, ‘you’re welcome,’ and with a little difficulty he came out.
“Hatched, sir, when my head was resting on it and I was asleep. I heard a thud and felt a jolt and sat up, and there was the end of the egg broken open and a funny little brown head peeking out at me. ‘Wow!’ I said, ‘you’re welcome,’ and with a bit of effort, he came out.”
“He was a nice friendly little chap, at first, about the size of a small hen—very much like most other young birds, only bigger. His plumage was a dirty brown to begin with, with a sort of grey scab that fell off it very soon, and scarcely 27feathers—a kind of downy hair. I can hardly express how pleased I was to see him. I tell you, Robinson Crusoe don’t make near enough of his loneliness. But here was interesting company. He looked at me and winked his eye from the front backwards like a hen, and gave a chirp and began to peck about at once, as though being hatched three hundred years too late was just nothing. ‘Glad to see you, Man Friday!’ says I, for I had naturally settled he was to be called Man Friday if ever he was hatched, as soon as ever I found the egg in the canoe had developed. I was a bit anxious about his feed, so I gave him a lump of raw parrot fish at once. He took it and opened his beak for more. I was glad of that, for, under the circumstances, if he’d been fanciful, I should have had to eat him after all.
“He was a nice, friendly little guy at first, about the size of a small hen—very similar to most other young birds, only bigger. His feathers were a dirty brown at first, with a kind of gray scab that quickly fell off, and he hardly had any feathers—more like downy hair. I can hardly express how happy I was to see him. I tell you, Robinson Crusoe doesn't capture the feeling of loneliness nearly enough. But here was some interesting company. He looked at me and winked one eye like a hen, chirped, and started pecking around right away, as if being hatched three hundred years too late was no big deal. ‘Glad to see you, Man Friday!’ I said, since I had naturally decided to call him Man Friday as soon as I found the egg in the canoe had developed. I was a little worried about what he would eat, so I gave him a piece of raw parrot fish immediately. He took it and opened his beak for more. I was relieved by that because, given the circumstances, if he had been picky, I would have had to eat him after all.”
“You’d be surprised what an interesting bird that Æpyornis chick was. He followed me about from the very beginning. He used to stand by me and watch while I fished in the lagoon and go shares in anything I caught. And he was sensible, too. There were nasty green warty things, like pickled gherkins, used to lie about on the beach, and he tried one of these and it upset him. He never even looked at any of them again.
“You’d be surprised at how interesting that Æpyornis chick was. He followed me around from the very start. He would stand by me and watch while I fished in the lagoon and share in anything I caught. And he was sensible, too. There were nasty green warty things, like pickled gherkins, lying around on the beach, and he tried one of those and it upset him. He never even looked at any of them again.”
“And he grew. You could almost see him grow. And as I was never much of a society man, his quiet, friendly ways suited me to a T. For nearly two years we were as happy as we could be on that 28island. I had no business worries, for I knew my salary was mounting up at Dawsons’. We would see a sail now and then, but nothing ever came near us. I amused myself too by decorating the island with designs worked in sea-urchins and fancy shells of various kinds. I put Æpyornis Island all round the place very nearly, in big letters, like what you see done with coloured stones at railway stations in the old country. And I used to lie watching the blessed bird stalking round and growing, growing, and think how I could make a living out of him by showing him about if ever I got taken off. After his first moult he began to get handsome, with a crest and a blue wattle, and a lot of green feathers at the behind of him. And then I used to puzzle whether Dawsons had any right to claim him or not. Stormy weather and in the rainy season we lay snug under the shelter I had made out of the old canoe, and I used to tell him lies about my friends at home. It was a kind of idyll, you might say. If only I had had some tobacco it would have been simply just like Heaven.
“And he grew. You could almost see him grow. As I wasn't really a social person, his quiet, friendly nature was a perfect fit for me. For nearly two years, we were as happy as we could be on that 28island. I had no worries about work because I knew my salary was building up at Dawsons’. We would see a sail now and then, but nothing ever got close to us. I also kept myself entertained by decorating the island with designs made from sea urchins and various fancy shells. I put Aepyornis Island all over the place in big letters, like the colorful stone displays you see at train stations back in the old country. I would lie there watching the wonderful bird as he wandered around, growing, growing, and think about how I could make a living by showing him off if I ever got rescued. After his first molt, he started to look handsome, with a crest and a blue wattle, and a lot of green feathers at his backside. Then, I would wonder whether Dawsons had any right to claim him. During stormy weather and the rainy season, we stayed cozy under the shelter I made out of the old canoe, and I would tell him stories about my friends back home. It was kind of an idyll, you might say. If only I had some tobacco, it would have been just like Heaven.
“It was about the end of the second year our little Paradise went wrong. Friday was then about fourteen feet high to the bill of him, with a big broad head like the end of a pickaxe, and two huge brown eyes with yellow rims set together like a man’s—not out of sight of each other like a hen’s. His plumage was fine—none of the half 29mourning style of your ostrich—more like a cassowary as far as colour and texture go. And then it was he began to cock his comb at me and give himself airs and show signs of a nasty temper.
“It was around the end of the second year that our little Paradise started to go wrong. Friday was about fourteen feet tall to the top of his head, with a big broad head like the end of a pickaxe, and two huge brown eyes with yellow rims that were positioned like a man's—not separated like a hen’s. His plumage was impressive—none of the half mourning style of your ostrich—more like a cassowary in terms of color and texture. That was when he began to strut his stuff and show off, acting quite cocky and displaying signs of a bad temper.”
“At last came a time when my fishing had been rather unlucky and he began to hang about me in a queer, meditative way. I thought he might have been eating sea-cucumbers or something, but it was really just discontent on his part. I was hungry too, and when at last I landed a fish I wanted it for myself. Tempers were short that morning on both sides. He pecked at it and grabbed it, and I gave him a whack on the head to make him leave go. And at that he went for me. Lord!
“At last, a time came when my fishing wasn’t going well, and he started hanging around me in a strange, thoughtful way. I thought he might have been eating sea cucumbers or something, but it was really just his discontent. I was hungry too, and when I finally caught a fish, I wanted it for myself. Both of us were in a bad mood that morning. He pecked at it and grabbed it, so I gave him a smack on the head to make him let go. And then he came at me. Wow!
“He gave me this in the face.” The man indicated his scar. “Then he kicked me. It was like a cart horse. I got up, and seeing he hadn’t finished I started off full tilt with my arms doubled up over my face. But he ran on those gawky legs of his faster than a race horse, and kept landing out at me with sledge-hammer kicks, and bringing his pickaxe down on the back of my head. I made for the lagoon, and went in up to my neck. He stopped at the water, for he hated getting his feet wet, and began to make a shindy, something like a peacock’s, only hoarser. He started strutting up and down the beach. I’ll admit I felt small to see this blessed fossil lording it there. And my head and face were all bleeding, and—well, my body just one jelly of bruises.
“He hit me right in the face.” The man pointed to his scar. “Then he kicked me. It felt like a cart horse. I got up, and seeing he wasn’t done, I took off running with my arms protecting my face. But he ran on those awkward legs of his faster than a racehorse, landing big kicks at me and bringing his pickaxe down on the back of my head. I headed for the lagoon and went in up to my neck. He stopped at the water because he hated getting his feet wet, and he started making a scene, kind of like a peacock, but louder. He began strutting up and down the beach. I’ll admit I felt small seeing this blessed fossil acting all high and mighty. And my head and face were all bleeding, and—well, my body was just a mess of bruises.
30“I decided to swim across the lagoon and leave him alone for a bit, until the affair blew over. I shinned up the tallest palm-tree and sat there thinking of it all. I don’t suppose I ever felt so hurt by anything before or since. It was the brutal ingratitude of the creature. I’d been more than a brother to him. I’d hatched him. Educated him. A great, gawky, out-of-date bird! And me a human being—heir of the ages and all that.
30 “I decided to swim across the lagoon and leave him alone for a while, until everything calmed down. I climbed up the tallest palm tree and sat there thinking about it all. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so hurt by anything before or since. It was the sheer ingratitude of that creature. I’d been more than a brother to him. I’d raised him. Taught him. A big, awkward, outdated bird! And I’m a human being—heir to all of history and everything.”
“I thought after a time he’d begin to see things in that light himself, and feel a little sorry for his behaviour. I thought if I was to catch some nice little bits of fish, perhaps, and go to him presently in a casual kind of way, and offer them to him, he might do the sensible thing. It took me some time to learn how unforgiving and cantankerous an extinct bird can be. Malice!
“I thought after a while he’d start to see things that way himself and feel a bit sorry for how he acted. I figured if I caught some nice little fish, maybe, and went to him in a casual way, and offered them to him, he might do the sensible thing. It took me some time to realize how unforgiving and grumpy an extinct bird can be. Malice!”
“I won’t tell you all the little devices I tried to get that bird round again. I simply can’t. It makes my cheek burn with shame even now to think of the snubs and buffets I had from this infernal curiosity. I tried violence. I chucked lumps of coral at him from a safe distance, but he only swallowed them. I shied my open knife at him and almost lost it, though it was too big for him to swallow. I tried starving him out and struck fishing, but he took to picking along the beach at low water after worms, and rubbed along on that. Half my time I spent up to my neck in the lagoon, and the rest up the palm-trees. One 31of them was scarcely high enough, and when he caught me up it he had a regular Bank Holiday with the calves of my legs. It got unbearable. I don’t know if you have ever tried sleeping up a palm-tree. It gave me the most horrible nightmares. Think of the shame of it too! Here was this extinct animal mooning about my island like a sulky duke, and me not allowed to rest the sole of my foot on the place. I used to cry with weariness and vexation. I told him straight that I didn’t mean to be chased about a desert island by any damned anachronisms. I told him to go and peck a navigator of his own age. But he only snapped his beak at me. Great ugly bird—all legs and neck!
“I won’t go into all the little tricks I tried to get that bird to come back. I just can’t. It still makes my cheeks burn with embarrassment to think about the insults and hits I got from this annoying creature. I tried being aggressive. I threw chunks of coral at him from a safe distance, but he just swallowed them. I threw my open knife at him and almost lost it, though it was too big for him to swallow. I tried to starve him out and went fishing, but he started pecking along the beach at low tide after worms and managed to survive on that. I spent half my time in the lagoon and the other half up in the palm trees. One of them was barely tall enough, and when he caught me up there, he really made a mess of my legs. It became unbearable. I don’t know if you’ve ever tried sleeping in a palm tree, but it gave me the worst nightmares. Just think of the humiliation! Here was this extinct animal wandering around my island like a grumpy duke, and I wasn’t allowed to set foot on the place. I used to cry from exhaustion and frustration. I told him directly that I didn’t intend to be chased around a desert island by any damned relics. I told him to go bother a navigator from his own time. But he just snapped his beak at me. What an ugly bird—just all legs and neck!
“I shouldn’t like to say how long that went on altogether. I’d have killed him sooner if I’d known how. However, I hit on a way of settling him at last. It’s a South American dodge. I joined all my fishing lines together with stems of seaweed and things, and made a stoutish string, perhaps twelve yards in length or more, and I fastened two lumps of coral rock to the ends of this. It took me some time to do, because every now and then I had to go into the lagoon or up a tree as the fancy took me. This I whirled rapidly round my head and then let it go at him. The first time I missed, but the next time the string caught his legs beautifully and wrapped round them again and again. Over he went. I threw it standing 32waist-deep in the lagoon, and as soon as he went down I was out of the water and sawing at his neck with my knife—
“I can’t say how long that lasted in total. I would have taken him out sooner if I had known how. But eventually, I figured out a way to deal with him. It’s a trick from South America. I tied all my fishing lines together with seaweed and other stuff, creating a strong string, maybe about twelve yards long or more, and I attached two chunks of coral rock to the ends. It took a while because I had to jump into the lagoon or climb a tree whenever I felt like it. I spun it quickly around my head and then threw it at him. The first time I missed, but the next time, the string caught his legs perfectly and wrapped around them again and again. Down he went. I threw it while standing waist-deep in the lagoon, and as soon as he fell, I was out of the water, sawing at his neck with my knife— 32
“I don’t like to think of that even now. I felt like a murderer while I did it, though my anger was hot against him. When I stood over him and saw him bleeding on the white sand and his beautiful great legs and neck writhing in his last agony—Pah!
“I don’t like to think about that even now. I felt like a killer while I was doing it, even though I was really angry at him. When I stood over him and saw him bleeding on the white sand, his beautiful long legs and neck twisting in his final moments—Ugh!
“With that tragedy, Loneliness came upon me like a curse. Good Lord! you can’t imagine how I missed that bird. I sat by his corpse and sorrowed over him, and shivered as I looked round the desolate, silent reef. I thought of what a jolly little bird he had been when he was hatched, and of a thousand pleasant tricks he had played before he went wrong. I thought if I’d only wounded him I might have nursed him round into a better understanding. If I’d had any means of digging into the coral rock I’d have buried him. I felt exactly as if he was human. As it was I couldn’t think of eating him, so I put him in the lagoon and the little fishes picked him clean. Then one day a chap cruising about in a yacht had a fancy to see if my atoll still existed.
“With that tragedy, loneliness hit me like a curse. Good Lord! you can’t imagine how much I missed that bird. I sat by his body and mourned for him, shivering as I looked around the desolate, silent reef. I remembered what a cheerful little bird he had been when he was born and all the fun tricks he had played before things went wrong. I thought that if I’d just wounded him, I might have been able to nurse him back to a better state. If I’d had any way to dig into the coral rock, I would have buried him. I felt exactly as if he was human. As it was, I couldn’t think of eating him, so I placed him in the lagoon and the little fish picked him clean. Then one day a guy cruising around in a yacht wanted to check if my atoll was still there.”
“He didn’t come a moment too soon, for I was about sick enough of the desolation of it, and only hesitating whether I should walk out into the sea and finish up the business that way, or fall back on the green things.
“He didn’t arrive a moment too soon, because I was about fed up with the emptiness of it all, and I was only deciding whether to walk into the sea and end it that way, or rely on the green things.”
33“I sold the bones to a man named Winslow—a dealer near the British Museum, and he says he sold them to old Havers. It seems Havers didn’t understand they were extra large, and it was only after his death they attracted attention. They called ’em Æpyornis—what was it?”
33“I sold the bones to a guy named Winslow—a dealer near the British Museum, and he says he sold them to old Havers. It turns out Havers didn’t realize they were extra large, and it was only after he died that they got noticed. They called them Æpyornis—what was it?”
“Æpyornis vastus,” said I. “It’s funny, the very thing was mentioned to me by a friend of mine. When they found an Æpyornis with a thigh a yard long they thought they had reached the top of the scale and called him Æpyornis maximus. Then some one turned up another thigh bone four feet six or more, and that they called Æpyornis Titan. Then your vastus was found after old Havers died, in his collection, and then a vastissimus turned up.”
“elephant bird,” I said. “It's funny, a friend of mine just mentioned that. When they found an Æpyornis with a thigh a yard long, they thought they had hit the jackpot and named it Aepyornis maximus. Then someone found another thigh bone that was four feet six inches or more, and they named that one Æpyornis Titan. After old Havers passed away, your vast was found in his collection, and then a very vast popped up.”
“Winslow was telling me as much,” said the man with the scar. “If they get any more Æpyornises, he reckons some scientific swell will go and burst a blood-vessel. But it was a queer thing to happen to a man; wasn’t it—altogether?”
“Winslow was saying the same thing to me,” said the man with the scar. “If they get any more Æpyornises, he thinks some scientific hotshot will end up having a fit. But it was a strange thing to happen to someone, wasn’t it—totally?”
THE PLATTNER STORY
Whether the story of Gottfried Plattner is to be credited or not, is a pretty question in the value of evidence. On the one hand, we have seven witnesses—to be perfectly exact, we have six and a half pairs of eyes, and one undeniable fact; and on the other we have—what is it?—prejudice, common sense, the inertia of opinion. Never were there seven more honest-seeming witnesses; never was there a more undeniable fact than the inversion of Gottfried Plattner’s anatomical structure, and—never was there a more preposterous story than the one they have to tell! The most preposterous part of the story is the worthy Gottfried’s contribution (for I count him as one of the seven). Heaven forbid that I should be led into giving countenance to superstition by a passion for impartiality, and so come to share the fate of Eusapia’s patrons! Frankly, I believe there is something crooked about this business of Gottfried Plattner; but what that crooked factor is, I will admit as frankly, I do not know. I have been surprised at the credit accorded to the story in the most unexpected and authoritative quarters. The fairest way to the reader, however, will be for me to tell it without further comment.
Whether we should believe the story of Gottfried Plattner is an interesting question about the value of evidence. On one side, we have seven witnesses—actually, six and a half pairs of eyes and one undeniable fact; on the other side, we have what? Prejudice, common sense, and the inertia of public opinion. Never have there been seven more honest-looking witnesses; never was there a more undeniable fact than the strange change in Gottfried Plattner's anatomy, and—never was there a more ridiculous story than the one they tell! The most ridiculous part of the story is Gottfried’s own account (since I count him as one of the seven). God forbid that my desire for impartiality should lead me to support superstition, putting me in the same situation as Eusapia’s supporters! Honestly, I think there’s something off about this whole Gottfried Plattner situation, but I will admit, I don’t know what that issue is. I’ve been surprised by the credibility given to this story in some unexpected and authoritative circles. However, the fairest approach for the reader will be for me to share the story without any further commentary.
35Gottfried Plattner is, in spite of his name, a freeborn Englishman. His father was an Alsatian who came to England in the Sixties, married a respectable English girl of unexceptionable antecedents, and died, after a wholesome and uneventful life (devoted, I understand, chiefly to the laying of parquet flooring), in 1887. Gottfried’s age is seven-and-twenty. He is, by virtue of his heritage of three languages, Modern Languages Master in a small private school in the South of England. To the casual observer he is singularly like any other Modern Languages Master in any other small private school. His costume is neither very costly nor very fashionable, but, on the other hand, it is not markedly cheap or shabby; his complexion, like his height and his bearing, is inconspicuous. You would notice, perhaps, that, like the majority of people, his face was not absolutely symmetrical, his right eye a little larger than the left, and his jaw a trifle heavier on the right side. If you, as an ordinary careless person, were to bare his chest and feel his heart beating, you would probably find it quite like the heart of any one else. But here you and the trained observer would part company. If you found his heart quite ordinary, the trained observer would find it quite otherwise. And once the thing was pointed out to you, you too would perceive the peculiarity easily enough. It is that Gottfried’s heart beats on the right side of his body.
35Gottfried Plattner is, despite his name, a freeborn Englishman. His father was an Alsatian who came to England in the 1860s, married a respectable English woman of solid background, and passed away in 1887 after a healthy and uneventful life (devoted, I hear, mainly to laying parquet flooring). Gottfried is twenty-seven years old. Thanks to his background in three languages, he works as a Modern Languages Master at a small private school in southern England. To an outsider, he looks pretty much like any other Modern Languages Master at any other small private school. His clothes are neither very expensive nor particularly trendy, but they’re also not noticeably cheap or worn-out; his complexion, height, and posture are quite unremarkable. You might notice that, like most people, his face isn’t perfectly symmetrical—his right eye is slightly bigger than the left, and his jaw is a bit bulkier on the right side. If you, as an ordinary person, were to expose his chest and feel his heart beating, you would probably find it just like anyone else's. But this is where you and the trained observer would differ. If you found his heart quite typical, the trained observer would see it in a completely different light. And once it’s pointed out to you, you would easily recognize the difference yourself. The peculiarity is that Gottfried's heart beats on the right side of his body.
36Now, that is not the only singularity of Gottfried’s structure, although it is the only one that would appeal to the untrained mind. Careful sounding of Gottfried’s internal arrangements, by a well-known surgeon, seems to point to the fact that all the other unsymmetrical parts of his body are similarly misplaced. The right lobe of his liver is on the left side, the left on his right; while his lungs, too, are similarly contraposed. What is still more singular, unless Gottfried is a consummate actor, we must believe that his right hand has recently become his left. Since the occurrences we are about to consider (as impartially as possible), he has found the utmost difficulty in writing, except from right to left across the paper with his left hand. He cannot throw with his right hand, he is perplexed at meal times between knife and fork, and his ideas of the rule of the road—he is a cyclist—are still a dangerous confusion. And there is not a scrap of evidence to show that before these occurrences Gottfried was at all left-handed.
36Now, that's not the only unusual aspect of Gottfried’s body, although it’s the only one that would catch the attention of someone without training. A detailed examination of Gottfried’s internal arrangements by a well-known surgeon suggests that all the other odd parts of his body are also out of place. The right lobe of his liver is on the left side, and the left lobe is on the right; his lungs are similarly switched. Even more strangely, unless Gottfried is an exceptional actor, we have to believe that his right hand has recently started functioning as his left. Since the events we’re about to discuss (as fairly as possible), he has struggled to write, except from right to left on the paper with his left hand. He can't throw with his right hand, he gets confused at mealtimes between the knife and fork, and his understanding of the rules of the road—he’s a cyclist—remains a dangerous mix-up. There’s no evidence to suggest that before these events, Gottfried was left-handed at all.
There is yet another wonderful fact in this preposterous business. Gottfried produces three photographs of himself. You have him at the age of five or six, thrusting fat legs at you from under a plaid frock, and scowling. In that photograph his left eye is a little larger than his right, and his jaw is a trifle heavier on the left side. This is the reverse of his present living conditions. The photograph of Gottfried at fourteen seems to contradict 37these facts, but that is because it is one of those cheap “Gem” photographs that were then in vogue, taken direct upon metal, and therefore reversing things just as a looking-glass would. The third photograph represents him at one-and-twenty, and confirms the record of the others. There seems here evidence of the strongest confirmatory character that Gottfried has exchanged his left side for his right. Yet how a human being can be so changed, short of a fantastic and pointless miracle, it is exceedingly hard to suggest.
There’s another interesting fact in this ridiculous situation. Gottfried has three photographs of himself. One shows him at five or six, with chubby legs sticking out from under a plaid dress, frowning. In that picture, his left eye is a bit larger than his right, and his jaw is slightly more pronounced on the left side. This is the opposite of his current living condition. The photo of Gottfried at fourteen seems to contradict these details, but that’s because it’s one of those cheap “Gem” photos that were popular back then, taken directly on metal, which flips things like a mirror does. The third photo shows him at twenty-one, confirming the details of the others. This seems to provide strong evidence that Gottfried has swapped his left side for his right. Yet, it's hard to explain how a person could change so much without some kind of bizarre and pointless miracle.
In one way, of course, these facts might be explicable on the supposition that Plattner has undertaken an elaborate mystification, on the strength of his heart’s displacement. Photographs may be fudged, and left-handedness imitated. But the character of the man does not lend itself to any such theory. He is quiet, practical, unobtrusive, and thoroughly sane, from the Nordau standpoint. He likes beer, and smokes moderately, takes walking exercise daily, and has a healthily high estimate of the value of his teaching. He has a good but untrained tenor voice, and takes a pleasure in singing airs of a popular and cheerful character. He is fond, but not morbidly fond, of reading,—chiefly fiction pervaded with a vaguely pious optimism,—sleeps well, and rarely dreams. He is, in fact, the very last person to evolve a fantastic fable. Indeed, so far from forcing this story upon the world, he has been singularly reticent on the 38matter. He meets enquirers with a certain engaging—bashfulness is almost the word, that disarms the most suspicious. He seems genuinely ashamed that anything so unusual has occurred to him.
In one way, these facts could be explained if we assume that Plattner has created an elaborate hoax based on his heart condition. Photos can be altered, and someone can fake being left-handed. But the man's character doesn't support that idea. He's quiet, practical, unobtrusive, and completely sane, at least by Nordau's standards. He enjoys beer, smokes in moderation, exercises daily, and has a healthy appreciation for his teaching. He has a good but untrained tenor voice and enjoys singing popular, cheerful songs. He likes reading, but not obsessively—mainly fiction that has a vaguely optimistic and moral tone—he sleeps well and rarely dreams. In reality, he’s the last person to come up with a wild story. In fact, rather than pushing this story onto others, he's been unusually reserved about it. When questioned, he responds with a charming sort of bashfulness that puts even the most skeptical at ease. He seems genuinely embarrassed that something so unusual has happened to him.
It is to be regretted that Plattner’s aversion to the idea of post-mortem dissection may postpone, perhaps for ever, the positive proof that his entire body has had its left and right sides transposed. Upon that fact mainly the credibility of his story hangs. There is no way of taking a man and moving him about in space, as ordinary people understand space, that will result in our changing his sides. Whatever you do, his right is still his right, his left his left. You can do that with a perfectly thin and flat thing, of course. If you were to cut a figure out of paper, any figure with a right and left side, you could change its sides simply by lifting it up and turning it over. But with a solid it is different. Mathematical theorists tell us that the only way in which the right and left sides of a solid body can be changed is by taking that body clean out of space as we know it,—taking it out of ordinary existence, that is, and turning it somewhere outside space. This is a little abstruse, no doubt, but any one with any knowledge of mathematical theory will assure the reader of its truth. To put the thing in technical language, the curious inversion of Plattner’s right and left sides is proof that he has moved out of our space into what is called the Fourth Dimension, 39and that he has returned again to our world. Unless we choose to consider ourselves the victims of an elaborate and motiveless fabrication, we are almost bound to believe that this has occurred.
It’s unfortunate that Plattner’s dislike of the idea of post-mortem dissection might delay, possibly forever, the definitive proof that his entire body has had its left and right sides switched. The credibility of his story largely depends on this fact. There’s no way to pick up a person and move them around in space, as most people understand it, that would change which side is which. No matter what you do, his right side is still his right, and his left side is still his left. You can change the sides of a perfectly flat object, of course. If you were to cut out a shape from paper—any shape with a right and left side—you could switch its sides just by lifting it up and flipping it over. But it’s different with a solid object. Mathematicians tell us that the only way to switch the right and left sides of a solid body is by completely removing it from our known space—taking it out of normal existence, that is, and turning it somewhere beyond our space. This is a bit complicated, no doubt, but anyone with a grasp of mathematical theory will confirm its validity. To put it technically, Plattner’s strange inversion of his right and left sides suggests that he has moved out of our space into what is referred to as the Fourth Dimension, 39and that he has returned to our world. Unless we decide to think of ourselves as victims of a complex and pointless fabrication, we are nearly forced to believe that this has happened.
So much for the tangible facts. We come now to the account of the phenomena that attended his temporary disappearance from the world. It appears that in the Sussexville Proprietary School Plattner not only discharged the duties of Modern Languages Master, but also taught chemistry, commercial geography, book-keeping, shorthand, drawing, and any other additional subject to which the changing fancies of the boys’ parents might direct attention. He knew little or nothing of these various subjects, but in secondary as distinguished from Board or elementary schools, knowledge in the teacher is, very properly, by no means so necessary as high moral character and gentlemanly tone. In chemistry he was particularly deficient, knowing, he says, nothing beyond the Three Gases (whatever the three gases may be). As, however, his pupils began by knowing nothing, and derived all their information from him, this caused him (or any one) but little inconvenience for several terms. Then a little boy named Whibble joined the school, who had been educated (it seems) by some mischievous relative into an enquiring habit of mind. This little boy followed Plattner’s lessons with marked and sustained interest, and in order to exhibit his zeal on 40the subject, brought, at various times, substances for Plattner to analyse. Plattner, flattered by this evidence of his power of awakening interest, and trusting to the boy’s ignorance, analysed these, and even made general statements as to their composition. Indeed, he was so far stimulated by his pupil as to obtain a work upon analytical chemistry and study it during his supervision of the evening’s preparation. He was surprised to find chemistry quite an interesting subject.
So much for the straightforward facts. Now we move on to the account of the unusual events surrounding his brief disappearance from the world. It seems that at the Sussexville Proprietary School, Plattner not only handled the role of Modern Languages Master, but also taught chemistry, commercial geography, bookkeeping, shorthand, drawing, and any other additional subjects that the changing whims of the boys' parents might demand. He knew very little about these various subjects, but in secondary schools, as opposed to Board or elementary schools, it's entirely appropriate that having knowledge isn't as crucial as possessing a strong moral character and a gentlemanly demeanor. He was particularly lacking in chemistry, claiming he knew nothing beyond the Three Gases (whatever those three gases might be). However, since his students initially knew nothing and got all their information from him, this didn't cause him (or anyone else) much trouble for several terms. Then a little boy named Whibble joined the school, who had apparently been influenced by some mischievous relative to develop a curious mindset. This little boy followed Plattner's lessons with noticeable and sustained interest, and to show his enthusiasm for the subject, he brought various substances for Plattner to analyze. Flattered by this display of interest and assuming the boy was clueless, Plattner analyzed these substances and even made broad statements about their composition. In fact, he was so inspired by his student that he got a book on analytical chemistry and studied it while overseeing the evening's preparations. He was surprised to find chemistry to be quite an interesting subject.
So far the story is absolutely commonplace. But now the greenish powder comes upon the scene. The source of that greenish powder seems, unfortunately, lost. Master Whibble tells a tortuous story of finding it done up in a packet in a disused limekiln near the Downs. It would have been an excellent thing for Plattner, and possibly for Master Whibble’s family, if a match could have been applied to that powder there and then. The young gentleman certainly did not bring it to school in a packet, but in a common eight-ounce graduated medicine bottle, plugged with masticated newspaper. He gave it to Plattner at the end of the afternoon school. Four boys had been detained after school prayers in order to complete some neglected tasks, and Plattner was supervising these in the small classroom in which the chemical teaching was conducted. The appliances for the practical teaching of chemistry in the Sussexville Proprietary School, 41as in most small schools in this country, are characterised by a severe simplicity. They are kept in a small cupboard standing in a recess, and having about the same capacity as a common travelling trunk. Plattner, being bored with his passive superintendence, seems to have welcomed the intervention of Whibble with his green powder as an agreeable diversion, and, unlocking this cupboard, proceeded at once with his analytical experiments. Whibble sat, luckily for himself, at a safe distance, regarding him. The four malefactors, feigning a profound absorption in their work, watched him furtively with the keenest interest. For even within the limits of the Three Gases, Plattner’s practical chemistry was, I understand, temerarious.
So far, the story is completely ordinary. But now the greenish powder enters the picture. The source of that greenish powder seems, unfortunately, to be lost. Master Whibble tells a complicated story about finding it packed in a container in an abandoned limekiln near the Downs. It would have been great for Plattner, and possibly for Master Whibble’s family, if a match could have been lit on that powder right then. The young man definitely didn’t bring it to school in a packet, but in a standard eight-ounce graduated medicine bottle, sealed with chewed-up newspaper. He gave it to Plattner at the end of the afternoon class. Four boys had been held back after school prayers to finish some unfinished tasks, and Plattner was supervising them in the small classroom where the chemistry lessons were held. The equipment for practical chemistry at the Sussexville Proprietary School, 41 like in most small schools in this country, is characterized by a strict simplicity. It's stored in a small cupboard in a recess, roughly the size of a typical travel trunk. Plattner, feeling bored with his passive supervision, seemed to welcome the interruption from Whibble with his green powder as a pleasant distraction, and, unlocking this cupboard, immediately began with his analytical experiments. Luckily for him, Whibble sat at a safe distance, watching. The four troublemakers, pretending to be deeply focused on their work, watched him closely with great interest. Even within the confines of the Three Gases, Plattner’s practical chemistry was, I understand, quite daring.
They are practically unanimous in their account of Plattner’s proceedings. He poured a little of the green powder into a test-tube, and tried the substance with water, hydrochloric acid, nitric acid, and sulphuric acid in succession. Getting no result, he emptied out a little heap—nearly half the bottleful, in fact—upon a slate and tried a match. He held the medicine bottle in his left hand. The stuff began to smoke and melt, and then—exploded with deafening violence and a blinding flash.
They all pretty much agree on what Plattner did. He poured some of the green powder into a test tube and tested it with water, hydrochloric acid, nitric acid, and sulfuric acid one after the other. When nothing happened, he dumped out a small pile—almost half the bottle, actually—onto a slate and tried to ignite it with a match. He held the medicine bottle in his left hand. The substance started to smoke and melt, and then—exploded with a huge bang and a blinding flash.
The five boys, seeing the flash and being prepared for catastrophes, ducked below their desks, and were none of them seriously hurt. The window 42was blown out into the playground, and the blackboard on its easel was upset. The slate was smashed to atoms. Some plaster fell from the ceiling. No other damage was done to the school edifice or appliances, and the boys at first, seeing nothing of Plattner, fancied he was knocked down and lying out of their sight below the desks. They jumped out of their places to go to his assistance, and were amazed to find the space empty. Being still confused by the sudden violence of the report, they hurried to the open door, under the impression that he must have been hurt, and have rushed out of the room. But Carson, the foremost, nearly collided in the doorway with the principal, Mr. Lidgett.
The five boys, noticing the flash and ready for disasters, ducked under their desks, and none of them were seriously hurt. The window was blown out into the playground, and the blackboard on its easel was knocked over. The slate was shattered into pieces. Some plaster fell from the ceiling. No other damage was done to the school building or equipment, and at first, the boys, seeing no sign of Plattner, thought he had been knocked down and was lying out of sight under the desks. They jumped out of their seats to help him and were shocked to find the area empty. Still confused by the sudden loud noise, they rushed to the open door, assuming he must have been hurt and had rushed out of the room. But Carson, being the first to reach the door, almost bumped into the principal, Mr. Lidgett.
Mr. Lidgett is a corpulent, excitable man with one eye. The boys describe him as stumbling into the room mouthing some of those tempered expletives irritable schoolmasters accustom themselves to use—lest worse befall. “Wretched mumchancer!” he said. “Where’s Mr. Plattner?” The boys are agreed on the very words. (“Wobbler,” “snivelling puppy,” and “mumchancer” are, it seems, among the ordinary small change of Mr. Lidgett’s scholastic commerce.)
Mr. Lidgett is a heavyset, hyper guy with one eye. The boys describe him as bursting into the room mumbling some of those filtered swear words that cranky teachers tend to use—just to avoid something worse. “Wretched scam artist!” he said. “Where’s Mr. Plattner?” The boys all agree on exactly what he said. (“Wobbler,” “sniveling puppy,” and “scammer” seem to be part of Mr. Lidgett’s usual vocabulary in teaching.)
Where’s Mr. Plattner? That was a question that was to be repeated many times in the next few days. It really seemed as though that frantic hyperbole, “blown to atoms,” had for once realised itself. There was not a visible particle of 43Plattner to be seen; not a drop of blood nor a stitch of clothing to be found. Apparently he had been blown clean out of existence and left not a wrack behind. Not so much as would cover a sixpenny piece, to quote a proverbial expression! The evidence of his absolute disappearance, as a consequence of that explosion, is indubitable.
Where’s Mr. Plattner? That question would be asked many times over the next few days. It really felt like that dramatic phrase “blown to atoms” had actually come true for once. There wasn’t a single trace of Plattner to be found; not a drop of blood nor a piece of clothing anywhere. It seemed like he had been completely erased from existence, leaving no sign behind. Not even enough to cover a sixpence, to use a common saying! The proof of his total disappearance as a result of that explosion is undeniable.
It is not necessary to enlarge here upon the commotion excited in the Sussexville Proprietary School, and in Sussexville and elsewhere, by this event. It is quite possible, indeed, that some of the readers of these pages may recall the hearing of some remote and dying version of that excitement during the last summer holidays. Lidgett, it would seem, did everything in his power to suppress and minimise the story. He instituted a penalty of twenty-five lines for any mention of Plattner’s name among the boys, and stated in the schoolroom that he was clearly aware of his assistant’s whereabouts. He was afraid, he explains, that the possibility of an explosion happening, in spite of the elaborate precautions taken to minimise the practical teaching of chemistry, might injure the reputation of the school; and so might any mysterious quality in Plattner’s departure. Indeed, he did everything in his power to make the occurrence seem as ordinary as possible. In particular, he cross-examined the five eye-witnesses of the occurrence so searchingly that they began to doubt the plain evidence of 44their senses. But, in spite of these efforts, the tale, in a magnified and distorted state, made a nine days’ wonder in the district, and several parents withdrew their sons on colourable pretexts. Not the least remarkable point in the matter is the fact that a large number of people in the neighbourhood dreamed singularly vivid dreams of Plattner during the period of excitement before his return, and that these dreams had a curious uniformity. In almost all of them Plattner was seen, sometimes singly, sometimes in company, wandering about through a coruscating iridescence. In all cases his face was pale and distressed, and in some he gesticulated towards the dreamer. One or two of the boys, evidently under the influence of nightmare, fancied that Plattner approached them with remarkable swiftness, and seemed to look closely into their very eyes. Others fled with Plattner from the pursuit of vague and extraordinary creatures of a globular shape. But all these fancies were forgotten in enquiries and speculations when, on the Wednesday next but one after the Monday of the explosion, Plattner returned.
It’s unnecessary to elaborate on the uproar caused in the Sussexville Proprietary School, and in Sussexville and elsewhere, by this event. It’s quite possible that some readers might remember hearing some distant and exaggerated version of that excitement during last summer’s break. Lidgett, it seems, did everything he could to suppress and downplay the story. He imposed a punishment of twenty-five lines for any mention of Plattner’s name among the boys and stated in the classroom that he was fully aware of his assistant's whereabouts. He was worried, he explained, that the chance of an explosion occurring, despite all the precautions taken to limit the practical teaching of chemistry, could damage the school’s reputation; as could any mysterious aspect of Plattner’s departure. He went to great lengths to make the incident appear as ordinary as possible. In particular, he grilled the five witnesses so intensely that they began to doubt their own memories. However, despite these efforts, the story spread throughout the area, blown out of proportion, and several parents withdrew their sons under questionable pretenses. One particularly notable aspect of the situation was that a significant number of people in the neighborhood experienced remarkably vivid dreams about Plattner during the height of the excitement before his return, and these dreams shared a strange consistency. In almost all of them, Plattner was seen, sometimes alone, sometimes with others, wandering through a shimmering iridescence. In every instance, his face appeared pale and troubled, and in some dreams, he gestured towards the dreamer. A couple of the boys, clearly under the influence of nightmares, believed that Plattner approached them with alarming speed and seemed to peer closely into their eyes. Others ran alongside Plattner from the pursuit of vague and bizarre, globular-shaped creatures. But all these visions faded into speculation and inquiry when, on the Wednesday ten days after the Monday of the explosion, Plattner returned.
The circumstances of his return were as singular as those of his departure. So far as Mr. Lidgett’s somewhat choleric outline can be filled in from Plattner’s hesitating statements, it would appear that on Wednesday evening, towards the hour of sunset, the former gentleman, having dismissed 45evening preparation, was engaged in his garden, picking and eating strawberries, a fruit of which he is inordinately fond. It is a large old-fashioned garden, secured from observation, fortunately, by a high and ivy-covered red-brick wall. Just as he was stooping over a particularly prolific plant, there was a flash in the air and a heavy thud, and before he could look round, some heavy body struck him violently from behind. He was pitched forward, crushing the strawberries he held in his hand, and that so roughly, that his silk hat—Mr. Lidgett adheres to the older ideas of scholastic costume—was driven violently down upon his forehead, and almost over one eye. This heavy missile, which slid over him sideways and collapsed into a sitting posture among the strawberry plants, proved to be our long-lost Mr. Gottfried Plattner, in an extremely dishevelled condition. He was collarless and hatless, his linen was dirty, and there was blood upon his hands. Mr. Lidgett was so indignant and surprised that he remained on all-fours, and with his hat jammed down on his eye, while he expostulated vehemently with Plattner for his disrespectful and unaccountable conduct.
The circumstances of his return were as unusual as those of his departure. From what Mr. Lidgett’s rather irritable character reveals in Plattner’s uncertain statements, it seems that on Wednesday evening, around sunset, Mr. Lidgett, having finished his evening routine, was in his garden, picking and eating strawberries, a fruit he loves dearly. It’s a large, old-fashioned garden, thankfully shielded from view by a high, ivy-covered red-brick wall. Just as he was leaning over a particularly fruitful plant, there was a flash in the sky and a loud thud, and before he could react, a heavy object struck him hard from behind. He was thrown forward, crushing the strawberries he held in his hand so violently that his silk hat—Mr. Lidgett prefers traditional academic attire—was forced down onto his forehead, nearly covering one eye. This heavy object, which slid off him and ended up sitting among the strawberry plants, turned out to be our long-lost Mr. Gottfried Plattner, looking extremely disheveled. He was without a collar and hat, his clothes were dirty, and there was blood on his hands. Mr. Lidgett was so shocked and furious that he remained on all fours, with his hat shoved over his eye, while he passionately criticized Plattner for his disrespectful and baffling behavior.
This scarcely idyllic scene completes what I may call the exterior version of the Plattner story—its exoteric aspect. It is quite unnecessary to enter here into all the details of his dismissal by Mr. Lidgett. Such details, with the full names 46and dates and references, will be found in the larger report of these occurrences that was laid before the Society for the Investigation of Abnormal Phenomena. The singular transposition of Plattner’s right and left sides was scarcely observed for the first day or so, and then first in connection with his disposition to write from right to left across the blackboard. He concealed rather than ostended this curious confirmatory circumstance, as he considered it would unfavourably affect his prospects in a new situation. The displacement of his heart was discovered some months after, when he was having a tooth extracted under anæsthetics. He then, very unwillingly, allowed a cursory surgical examination to be made of himself, with a view to a brief account in the “Journal of Anatomy.” That exhausts the statement of the material facts; and we may now go on to consider Plattner’s account of the matter.
This somewhat imperfect scene wraps up what I can call the surface version of the Plattner story—its outward aspect. There's no need to go into all the details of his dismissal by Mr. Lidgett here. Such details, complete with names, dates, and references, can be found in the larger report on these events that was submitted to the Society for the Investigation of Abnormal Phenomena. The unusual switching of Plattner’s right and left sides was hardly noticed for the first day or so, and only became apparent when he started writing from right to left on the blackboard. He chose to hide this strange confirming detail rather than show it off, thinking it might negatively impact his chances in a new position. The displacement of his heart was discovered several months later when he was getting a tooth pulled under anesthesia. At that point, he reluctantly allowed a quick surgical examination to be done on him for a short article in the “Journal of Anatomy.” That covers the basic facts, and now we can move on to looking at Plattner’s perspective on the situation.
But first let us clearly differentiate between the preceding portion of this story and what is to follow. All I have told thus far is established by such evidence as even a criminal lawyer would approve. Every one of the witnesses is still alive; the reader, if he have the leisure, may hunt the lads out to-morrow, or even brave the terrors of the redoubtable Lidgett, and cross-examine and trap and test to his heart’s content; Gottfried Plattner, himself, and his twisted heart 47and his three photographs are producible. It may be taken as proved that he did disappear for nine days as the consequence of an explosion; that he returned almost as violently, under circumstances in their nature annoying to Mr. Lidgett, whatever the details of those circumstances may be; and that he returned inverted, just as a reflection returns from a mirror. From the last fact, as I have already stated, it follows almost inevitably that Plattner, during those nine days, must have been in some state of existence altogether out of space. The evidence to these statements is, indeed, far stronger than that upon which most murderers are hanged. But for his own particular account of where he had been, with its confused explanations and well-nigh self-contradictory details, we have only Mr. Gottfried Plattner’s word. I do not wish to discredit that, but I must point out—what so many writers upon obscure psychic phenomena fail to do—that we are passing here from the practically undeniable to that kind of matter which any reasonable man is entitled to believe or reject as he thinks proper. The previous statements render it plausible; its discordance with common experience tilts it towards the incredible. I would prefer not to sway the beam of the reader’s judgment either way, but simply to tell the story as Plattner told it me.
But first, let’s clearly distinguish between what we've just discussed and what’s coming next. Everything I've shared so far is backed by evidence that even a criminal lawyer would trust. All the witnesses are still alive; the reader, if they have the time, can track them down tomorrow, or even face the formidable Lidgett, and question and challenge them to their heart's content; Gottfried Plattner himself, along with his complex feelings and three photographs, can be produced. It can be established that he did go missing for nine days due to an explosion; that he returned almost just as dramatically, under circumstances that were certainly frustrating for Mr. Lidgett, no matter the specific details; and that he returned in a reversed state, just like a reflection from a mirror. From this last fact, as I've already mentioned, it almost necessarily follows that Plattner, during those nine days, must have existed in a state entirely outside of our usual space. The evidence supporting these claims is indeed much stronger than that on which most murderers are convicted. However, for his own explanation of where he had been, with its confusing details and almost contradictory elements, we only have Mr. Gottfried Plattner’s word to go on. I don’t want to discredit that, but I must point out—something many writers on obscure psychic phenomena often overlook—that we are moving here from what is practically undeniable to a realm of thought that any reasonable person can choose to believe or dismiss as they see fit. The previous statements make it believable; its clash with common experience pushes it toward the unbelievable. I would prefer not to influence the reader’s judgment in either direction, but simply to recount the story as Plattner shared it with me.
He gave me his narrative, I may state, at my 48house at Chislehurst, and so soon as he had left me that evening, I went into my study and wrote down everything as I remembered it. Subsequently he was good enough to read over a typewritten copy, so that its substantial correctness is undeniable.
He shared his story with me, I can say, at my 48 place in Chislehurst, and as soon as he left that evening, I went to my study and wrote down everything from my memory. Later, he kindly read through a typed copy, so its overall accuracy is beyond question.
He states that at the moment of the explosion he distinctly thought he was killed. He felt lifted off his feet and driven forcibly backward. It is a curious fact for psychologists that he thought clearly during his backward flight, and wondered whether he should hit the chemistry cupboard or the blackboard easel. His heels struck ground, and he staggered and fell heavily into a sitting position on something soft and firm. For a moment the concussion stunned him. He became aware at once of a vivid scent of singed hair, and he seemed to hear the voice of Lidgett asking for him. You will understand that for a time his mind was greatly confused.
He says that at the moment of the explosion, he clearly thought he was dead. He felt himself lifted off his feet and thrown backward. Interestingly, he was able to think clearly during this backward motion and wondered if he would hit the chemistry cabinet or the blackboard easel. His heels hit the ground, and he staggered and fell heavily into a sitting position on something soft yet firm. For a moment, the impact stunned him. He quickly became aware of a strong smell of burnt hair and seemed to hear Lidgett’s voice calling for him. You can imagine that for a while, his mind was quite confused.
At first he was distinctly under the impression that he was still in the classroom. He perceived quite distinctly the surprise of the boys and the entry of Mr. Lidgett. He is quite positive upon that score. He did not hear their remarks; but that he ascribed to the deafening effect of the experiment. Things about him seemed curiously dark and faint, but his mind explained that on the obvious but mistaken idea that the explosion had engendered a huge volume of dark smoke. 49Through the dimness the figures of Lidgett and the boys moved, as faint and silent as ghosts. Plattner’s face still tingled with the stinging heat of the flash. He was, he says, “all muddled.” His first definite thoughts seem to have been of his personal safety. He thought he was perhaps blinded and deafened. He felt his limbs and face in a gingerly manner. Then his perceptions grew clearer, and he was astonished to miss the old familiar desks and other schoolroom furniture about him. Only dim, uncertain, grey shapes stood in the place of these. Then came a thing that made him shout aloud, and awoke his stunned faculties to instant activity. Two of the boys, gesticulating, walked one after the other clean through him! Neither manifested the slightest consciousness of his presence. It is difficult to imagine the sensation he felt. They came against him, he says, with no more force than a wisp of mist.
At first, he was clearly under the impression that he was still in the classroom. He distinctly noticed the surprise on the boys' faces and the arrival of Mr. Lidgett. He is completely sure about that. He didn’t hear what they were saying, but he blamed that on the overwhelming noise from the experiment. Things around him seemed strangely dark and blurry, but his mind explained that by the obvious yet mistaken idea that the explosion had created a massive cloud of dark smoke. 49Through the haze, the figures of Lidgett and the boys moved, as faint and silent as ghosts. Plattner's face still tingled from the burning heat of the flash. He said he was “all muddled.” His first clear thoughts seemed to focus on his safety. He thought he might be blinded and deafened. He carefully felt his limbs and face. Then his awareness sharpened, and he was surprised to see that the familiar desks and other classroom furniture were gone. Only vague, uncertain gray shapes were in their place. Then something happened that made him shout out loud and jolted his stunned mind into immediate action. Two of the boys, waving their arms, walked right through him, one after the other! Neither showed the slightest awareness of his presence. It’s hard to describe the sensation he felt. They bumped into him, he said, with no more force than a wisp of mist.
Plattner’s first thought after that was that he was dead. Having been brought up with thoroughly sound views in these matters, however, he was a little surprised to find his body still about him. His second conclusion was that he was not dead, but that the others were: that the explosion had destroyed the Sussexville Proprietary School and every soul in it except himself. But that, too, was scarcely satisfactory. He was thrown back upon astonished observation.
Plattner’s first thought after that was that he was dead. However, since he had been raised with solid beliefs about these things, he was a bit surprised to find his body still with him. His second conclusion was that he wasn’t dead, but that everyone else was: that the explosion had wiped out the Sussexville Proprietary School and everyone inside it except for him. But that, too, wasn’t very reassuring. He was left with a sense of bewilderment.
Everything about him was extraordinarily dark: 50at first it seemed to have an altogether ebony blackness. Overhead was a black firmament. The only touch of light in the scene was a faint greenish glow at the edge of the sky in one direction, which threw into prominence a horizon of undulating black hills. This, I say, was his impression at first. As his eye grew accustomed to the darkness, he began to distinguish a faint quality of differentiating greenish colour in the circumambient night. Against this background the furniture and occupants of the classroom, it seems, stood out like phosphorescent spectres, faint and impalpable. He extended his hand, and thrust it without an effort through the wall of the room by the fireplace.
Everything about him was incredibly dark: 50at first, it seemed to have an overall ebony blackness. Above was a pitch-black sky. The only hint of light in the scene was a faint greenish glow in one direction, which highlighted a horizon of rolling black hills. This, I say, was his impression at first. As his eyes adjusted to the darkness, he began to notice a subtle greenish tint in the surrounding night. Against this backdrop, the furniture and people in the classroom stood out like ghostly figures, faint and insubstantial. He reached out his hand and effortlessly pushed it through the wall of the room by the fireplace.
He describes himself as making a strenuous effort to attract attention. He shouted to Lidgett, and tried to seize the boys as they went to and fro. He only desisted from these attempts when Mrs. Lidgett, whom he (as an Assistant Master) naturally disliked, entered the room. He says the sensation of being in the world, and yet not a part of it, was an extraordinarily disagreeable one. He compared his feelings, not inaptly, to those of a cat watching a mouse through a window. Whenever he made a motion to communicate with the dim, familiar world about him, he found an invisible, incomprehensible barrier preventing intercourse.
He describes himself as making a strong effort to get attention. He yelled to Lidgett and tried to grab the boys as they moved back and forth. He only stopped these attempts when Mrs. Lidgett, whom he (as an Assistant Master) naturally disliked, came into the room. He says the feeling of being in the world but not really part of it was incredibly unpleasant. He compared his feelings, quite appropriately, to those of a cat watching a mouse through a window. Whenever he tried to reach out to the dim, familiar world around him, he found an invisible, incomprehensible barrier blocking communication.
He then turned his attention to his solid environment. 51He found the medicine bottle still unbroken in his hand, with the remainder of the green powder therein. He put this in his pocket, and began to feel about him. Apparently, he was sitting on a boulder of rock covered with a velvety moss. The dark country about him he was unable to see, the faint, misty picture of the schoolroom blotting it out, but he had a feeling (due perhaps to a cold wind) that he was near the crest of a hill, and that a steep valley fell away beneath his feet. The green glow along the edge of the sky seemed to be growing in extent and intensity. He stood up, rubbing his eyes.
He then focused on his solid surroundings. 51He noticed the medicine bottle still unbroken in his hand, with the leftover green powder inside. He pocketed it and started to feel around him. It seemed he was sitting on a boulder covered in soft moss. He couldn't see the dark landscape around him; the faint, blurry image of the classroom blocked it out, but he had a sense (maybe because of a chill in the air) that he was near the top of a hill, and that a steep valley dropped away below him. The green light at the edge of the sky appeared to be expanding and brightening. He stood up, rubbing his eyes.
It would seem that he made a few steps, going steeply downhill, and then stumbled, nearly fell, and sat down again upon a jagged mass of rock to watch the dawn. He became aware that the world about him was absolutely silent. It was as still as it was dark, and though there was a cold wind blowing up the hill-face, the rustle of grass, the soughing of the boughs that should have accompanied it, were absent. He could hear, therefore, if he could not see, that the hillside upon which he stood was rocky and desolate. The green grew brighter every moment, and as it did so, a faint, transparent blood-red mingled with, but did not mitigate, the blackness of the sky overhead and the rocky desolations about him. Having regard to what follows, I am inclined to think that that redness may have been 52an optical effect due to contrast. Something black fluttered momentarily against the livid yellow-green of the lower sky, and then the thin and penetrating voice of a bell rose out of the black gulf below him. An oppressive expectation grew with the growing light.
He seemed to take a few steps, going steeply downhill, and then stumbled, almost fell, and sat down again on a jagged rock to watch the dawn. He noticed that the world around him was completely silent. It was as still as it was dark, and although a cold wind was blowing up the slope, the rustling of the grass and the soft sound of the branches that should have been there were missing. He could hear, even if he couldn’t see, that the hillside he was on was rocky and barren. The green became brighter by the moment, and as it did, a faint, transparent blood-red blended with, but didn’t lessen, the darkness of the sky above and the rocky desolation surrounding him. Considering what happens next, I think that redness might have been an optical illusion created by contrast. Something black fluttered briefly against the pale yellow-green of the lower sky, and then the thin, piercing sound of a bell rose from the dark void below him. A heavy sense of expectation grew as the light increased.
It is probable that an hour or more elapsed while he sat there, the strange green light growing brighter every moment, and spreading slowly, in flamboyant fingers, upward towards the zenith. As it grew, the spectral vision of our world became relatively or absolutely fainter. Probably both, for the time must have been about that of our earthly sunset. So far as his vision of our world went, Plattner, by his few steps downhill, had passed through the floor of the classroom, and was now, it seemed, sitting in mid-air in the larger schoolroom downstairs. He saw the boarders distinctly, but much more faintly than he had seen Lidgett. They were preparing their evening tasks, and he noticed with interest that several were cheating with their Euclid riders by means of a crib, a compilation whose existence he had hitherto never suspected. As the time passed, they faded steadily, as steadily as the light of the green dawn increased.
It’s likely that an hour or more passed while he sat there, the strange green light getting brighter every moment and slowly spreading upward like flamboyant fingers reaching for the sky. As it intensified, the ghostly image of our world became dimmer, either relatively or completely. Probably both, since it was around the time of our earthly sunset. From what he could see of our world, Plattner had taken a few steps downhill, and now it seemed he was sitting in mid-air in the larger schoolroom downstairs. He could clearly see the boarders, but they looked much fainter than Lidgett. They were getting ready for their evening tasks, and he noticed with interest that several were cheating with their Euclid riders using a crib, a cheat sheet he had never suspected existed. As time went by, they faded steadily, just as the light of the green dawn grew brighter.
Looking down into the valley, he saw that the light had crept far down its rocky sides, and that the profound blackness of the abyss was now broken by a minute green glow, like the light 53of a glow-worm. And almost immediately the limb of a huge heavenly body of blazing green rose over the basaltic undulations of the distant hills, and the monstrous hill-masses about him came out gaunt and desolate, in green light and deep, ruddy black shadows. He became aware of a vast number of ball-shaped objects drifting as thistledown drifts over the high ground. There were none of these nearer to him than the opposite side of the gorge. The bell below twanged quicker and quicker, with something like impatient insistence, and several lights moved hither and thither. The boys at work at their desks were now almost imperceptibly faint.
Looking down into the valley, he noticed that the light had crept far down its rocky slopes, and that the deep blackness of the abyss was now interrupted by a tiny green glow, like the light of a firefly. Almost immediately, the edge of a massive, blazing green celestial body rose over the rugged hills in the distance, and the enormous hill masses around him emerged stark and bleak, illuminated in green light and deep, reddish-black shadows. He became aware of countless ball-shaped objects floating like dandelion fluff over the high ground. None of these were closer to him than the far side of the gorge. The bell below chimed faster and faster, with an air of impatient urgency, and several lights moved back and forth. The boys working at their desks were now barely visible. 53
This extinction of our world, when the green sun of this other universe rose, is a curious point upon which Plattner insists. During the Other-World night, it is difficult to move about, on account of the vividness with which the things of this world are visible. It becomes a riddle to explain why, if this is the case, we in this world catch no glimpse of the Other-World. It is due, perhaps, to the comparatively vivid illumination of this world of ours. Plattner describes the midday of the Other-World, at its brightest, as not being nearly so bright as this world at full moon, while its night is profoundly black. Consequently, the amount of light, even in an ordinary dark room, is sufficient to render the things of the Other-World invisible, on the same principle that 54faint phosphorescence is only visible in the profoundest darkness. I have tried, since he told me his story, to see something of the Other-World by sitting for a long space in a photographer’s dark room at night. I have certainly seen indistinctly the form of greenish slopes and rocks, but only, I must admit, very indistinctly indeed. The reader may possibly be more successful. Plattner tells me that since his return he has dreamt and seen and recognised places in the Other-World, but this is probably due to his memory of these scenes. It seems quite possible that people with unusually keen eyesight may occasionally catch a glimpse of this strange Other-World about us.
This extinction of our world, when the green sun of this other universe rose, is an interesting point that Plattner emphasizes. During the Other-World night, it’s hard to move around because the things in this world are so vivid. It becomes a puzzle to explain why, if that’s true, we in this world don’t see any sign of the Other-World. It might be because of the relatively bright light in our world. Plattner describes the midday of the Other-World, at its brightest, as not being nearly as bright as our world during a full moon, while its night is incredibly dark. As a result, even a little light in a typical dark room is enough to make the things of the Other-World invisible, much like how faint phosphorescence is only seen in total darkness. Since he shared his story, I've tried to see something of the Other-World by spending a long time in a photographer's dark room at night. I've definitely seen the outline of greenish slopes and rocks, but I must admit it was very unclear. The reader might have better luck. Plattner tells me that since his return, he has dreamt of and recognized places in the Other-World, but this is probably because he remembers those scenes. It seems quite possible that people with unusually sharp eyesight might occasionally catch a glimpse of this strange Other-World around us.
However, this is a digression. As the green sun rose, a long street of black buildings became perceptible, though only darkly and indistinctly, in the gorge, and, after some hesitation, Plattner began to clamber down the precipitous descent towards them. The descent was long and exceedingly tedious, being so not only by the extraordinary steepness, but also by reason of the looseness of the boulders with which the whole face of the hill was strewn. The noise of his descent—now and then his heels struck fire from the rocks—seemed now the only sound in the universe, for the beating of the bell had ceased. As he drew nearer, he perceived that the various edifices had a singular resemblance to tombs and mausoleums and monuments, saving 55only that they were all uniformly black instead of being white, as most sepulchres are. And then he saw, crowding out of the largest building, very much as people disperse from church, a number of pallid, rounded, pale-green figures. These dispersed in several directions about the broad street of the place, some going through side alleys and reappearing upon the steepness of the hill, others entering some of the small black buildings which lined the way.
However, this is a digression. As the green sun rose, a long street of black buildings became visible, though only faintly and indistinctly, in the gorge, and after some hesitation, Plattner began to climb down the steep slope toward them. The descent was long and incredibly tedious, not only because of how steep it was, but also due to the loose boulders scattered across the entire face of the hill. The noise of his descent—his heels striking sparks from the rocks now and then—seemed to be the only sound in the universe, as the ringing of the bell had stopped. As he got closer, he noticed that the various structures looked oddly like tombs, mausoleums, and monuments, except that they were all uniformly black instead of white, like most graves are. Then he saw a number of pale, rounded, pale-green figures coming out of the largest building, much like people leaving church. They spread out in different directions along the wide street, some going into side alleys and reappearing on the steep hillside, while others entered some of the small black buildings lining the street.
At the sight of these things drifting up towards him, Plattner stopped, staring. They were not walking, they were indeed limbless, and they had the appearance of human heads, beneath which a tadpole-like body swung. He was too astonished at their strangeness, too full, indeed, of strangeness, to be seriously alarmed by them. They drove towards him, in front of the chill wind that was blowing uphill, much as soap-bubbles drive before a draught. And as he looked at the nearest of those approaching, he saw it was indeed a human head, albeit with singularly large eyes, and wearing such an expression of distress and anguish as he had never seen before upon mortal countenance. He was surprised to find that it did not turn to regard him, but seemed to be watching and following some unseen moving thing. For a moment he was puzzled, and then it occurred to him that this creature was watching with its enormous eyes something that was happening 56in the world he had just left. Nearer it came, and nearer, and he was too astonished to cry out. It made a very faint fretting sound as it came close to him. Then it struck his face with a gentle pat,—its touch was very cold,—and drove past him, and upward towards the crest of the hill.
At the sight of those things floating toward him, Plattner paused, staring. They weren’t walking; they were actually limbless, resembling human heads, with tadpole-like bodies swinging beneath them. He was too astonished by their oddness, too overwhelmed by how strange they were, to feel genuinely scared. They moved toward him, pushed by the chilly wind blowing uphill, much like soap bubbles do when caught in a draft. As he looked at the closest one, he saw it was indeed a human head, though it had exceptionally large eyes and wore an expression of distress and anguish he had never seen before on a human face. He was surprised to realize it didn’t turn to look at him but seemed to be focused on something unseen. For a moment he was confused, then it dawned on him that this creature was fixated on something happening in the world he had just left. It came closer and closer, and he was too stunned to shout. It made a faint, fretful sound as it neared him. Then it lightly touched his face—a chill ran through him—and drifted past him, heading upward toward the hilltop.
An extraordinary conviction flashed across Plattner’s mind that this head had a strong likeness to Lidgett. Then he turned his attention to the other heads that were now swarming thickly up the hillside. None made the slightest sign of recognition. One or two, indeed, came close to his head and almost followed the example of the first, but he dodged convulsively out of the way. Upon most of them he saw the same expression of unavailing regret he had seen upon the first, and heard the same faint sounds of wretchedness from them. One or two wept, and one rolling swiftly uphill wore an expression of diabolical rage. But others were cold, and several had a look of gratified interest in their eyes. One, at least, was almost in an ecstasy of happiness. Plattner does not remember that he recognised any more likenesses in those he saw at this time.
An intense thought flashed through Plattner’s mind that this head looked a lot like Lidgett. Then he focused on the other heads that were now crowding up the hillside. None showed the slightest sign of recognition. A couple came close to him and almost repeated what the first did, but he quickly dodged out of the way. Most of them had the same look of helpless regret he had noticed on the first one, and he heard the same faint sounds of misery from them. A few were crying, and one rushing up the hill had a look of pure rage. But others seemed indifferent, and several had looks of satisfied curiosity in their eyes. At least one appeared to be almost in blissful happiness. Plattner doesn’t remember recognizing any more familiar faces among those he saw at that moment.
For several hours, perhaps, Plattner watched these strange things dispersing themselves over the hills, and not till long after they had ceased to issue from the clustering black buildings in the 57gorge, did he resume his downward climb. The darkness about him increased so much that he had a difficulty in stepping true. Overhead the sky was now a bright, pale green. He felt neither hunger nor thirst. Later, when he did, he found a chilly stream running down the centre of the gorge, and the rare moss upon the boulders, when he tried it at last in desperation, was good to eat.
For several hours, Plattner watched these strange things scattering over the hills, and it wasn't until long after they had stopped coming out of the clustered dark buildings in the 57gorge that he continued his descent. The darkness around him grew so much that he had trouble keeping his footing. Above him, the sky was now a bright, pale green. He felt neither hunger nor thirst. Later, when he did, he found a cold stream flowing down the middle of the gorge, and the rare moss on the rocks, which he finally tried out of desperation, was edible.
He groped about among the tombs that ran down the gorge, seeking vaguely for some clue to these inexplicable things. After a long time he came to the entrance of the big mausoleum-like building from which the heads had issued. In this he found a group of green lights burning upon a kind of basaltic altar, and a bell-rope from a belfry overhead hanging down into the centre of the place. Round the wall ran a lettering of fire in a character unknown to him. While he was still wondering at the purport of these things, he heard the receding tramp of heavy feet echoing far down the street. He ran out into the darkness again, but he could see nothing. He had a mind to pull the bell-rope, and finally decided to follow the footsteps. But, although he ran far, he never overtook them; and his shouting was of no avail. The gorge seemed to extend an interminable distance. It was as dark as earthly starlight throughout its length, while the ghastly green day lay along the upper edge of its precipices. There 58were none of the heads, now, below. They were all, it seemed, busily occupied along the upper slopes. Looking up, he saw them drifting hither and thither, some hovering stationary, some flying swiftly through the air. It reminded him, he said, of “big snowflakes;” only these were black and pale green.
He stumbled around the tombs lining the gorge, vaguely searching for some hint about these puzzling events. After a long time, he reached the entrance of a large mausoleum-like building from which the heads had emerged. Inside, he saw a group of green lights glowing on a sort of basalt altar, and a bell-rope hanging down from a belfry overhead into the center of the room. Around the walls, there was a fire lettering in a script he didn’t recognize. While he was still trying to make sense of everything, he heard the fading sound of heavy footsteps echoing far down the street. He rushed back into the darkness but couldn’t see anything. He considered pulling the bell-rope but ultimately decided to chase after the footsteps. However, despite running a long way, he never caught up to them, and his shouting went unanswered. The gorge seemed to stretch endlessly. It was as dark as earthly starlight along its entire length, while the eerie green day hovered at the top of its cliffs. There 58 were none of the heads below now. They all appeared to be busy along the upper slopes. Looking up, he saw them moving around, some hovering in place and others flying swiftly through the air. It reminded him, he said, of “big snowflakes;” except these were black and pale green.
In pursuing the firm, undeviating footsteps that he never overtook, in groping into new regions of this endless devil’s dyke, in clambering up and down the pitiless heights, in wandering about the summits, and in watching the drifting faces, Plattner states that he spent the better part of seven or eight days. He did not keep count, he says. Though once or twice he found eyes watching him, he had word with no living soul. He slept among the rocks on the hillside. In the gorge things earthly were invisible, because, from the earthly standpoint, it was far underground. On the altitudes, so soon as the earthly day began, the world became visible to him. He found himself sometimes stumbling over the dark-green rocks, or arresting himself on a precipitous brink, while all about him the green branches of the Sussexville lanes were swaying; or, again, he seemed to be walking through the Sussexville streets, or watching unseen the private business of some household. And then it was he discovered, that to almost every human being in our world there pertained some of these drifting 59heads: that every one in the world is watched intermittently by these helpless disembodiments.
In chasing the steady, unchanging footsteps that he never caught up to, exploring new areas of this endless abyss, climbing up and down the unforgiving heights, wandering around the peaks, and observing the drifting faces, Plattner mentions that he spent most of seven or eight days doing this. He didn’t keep track, he says. Even though he occasionally felt eyes on him, he never spoke to anyone. He slept among the rocks on the hillside. In the gorge, earthly things were hidden from view because it was far below ground. At higher altitudes, as soon as day broke, the world came into view for him. He sometimes found himself tripping over dark-green rocks or stopping at a steep edge, while all around him the green branches of the Sussexville lanes swayed; at other times, he felt like he was walking through the streets of Sussexville or observing the private lives of some households without being seen. It was then that he realized that almost every person in our world was connected to one of these drifting heads: that everyone in the world is occasionally watched by these helpless spirits. 59
What are they—these Watchers of the Living? Plattner never learned. But two, that presently found and followed him, were like his childhood’s memory of his father and mother. Now and then other faces turned their eyes upon him: eyes like those of dead people who had swayed him, or injured him, or helped him in his youth and manhood. Whenever they looked at him, Plattner was overcome with a strange sense of responsibility. To his mother he ventured to speak; but she made no answer. She looked sadly, steadfastly, and tenderly—a little reproachfully, too, it seemed—into his eyes.
What are they—these Watchers of the Living? Plattner never figured it out. But two that eventually found him and followed him reminded him of his childhood memories of his parents. Now and then, other faces turned their gaze toward him: eyes like those of the dead who had influenced him, hurt him, or supported him in his youth and adulthood. Whenever they looked at him, Plattner was hit with a strange sense of responsibility. He dared to speak to his mother; but she didn't respond. She looked at him sadly, steadily, and tenderly—a bit reproachfully, too, it seemed.
He simply tells this story: he does not endeavour to explain. We are left to surmise who these Watchers of the Living may be, or if they are indeed the Dead, why they should so closely and passionately watch a world they have left for ever. It may be—indeed to my mind it seems just—that, when our life has closed, when evil or good is no longer a choice for us, we may still have to witness the working out of the train of consequences we have laid. If human souls continue after death, then surely human interests continue after death. But that is merely my own guess at the meaning of the things seen. Plattner offers no interpretation, for none was given him. It is well the reader should understand this clearly. 60Day after day, with his head reeling, he wandered about this strange-lit world outside the world, weary and, towards the end, weak and hungry. By day—by our earthly day, that is—the ghostly vision of the old familiar scenery of Sussexville, all about him, irked and worried him. He could not see where to put his feet, and ever and again with a chilly touch one of these Watching Souls would come against his face. And after dark the multitude of these Watchers about him, and their intent distress, confused his mind beyond describing. A great longing to return to the earthly life that was so near and yet so remote consumed him. The unearthliness of things about him produced a positively painful mental distress. He was worried beyond describing by his own particular followers. He would shout at them to desist from staring at him, scold at them, hurry away from them. They were always mute and intent. Run as he might over the uneven ground, they followed his destinies.
He just shares this story: he doesn’t try to explain it. We’re left to guess who these Watchers of the Living might be, or if they’re actually the Dead, why they watch so closely and passionately a world they’ve left behind forever. It could be—actually, it seems to me that it is—that when our lives end, when we no longer have the choice between good or evil, we might still have to witness the consequences of our actions. If human souls exist after death, then human interests must continue afterward too. But that’s just my own interpretation of what I’ve seen. Plattner offers no explanation, as none was given to him. It’s important for the reader to understand this clearly. 60Day after day, with his head spinning, he wandered through this strangely lit world outside of our world, tired and, toward the end, weak and hungry. During the day—our earthly day, that is—the ghostly images of the familiar scenery of Sussexville all around him frustrated and troubled him. He couldn’t figure out where to place his feet, and now and then, with a cold touch, one of these Watching Souls would brush against his face. And after dark, the multitude of these Watchers surrounding him and their intense distress confused his mind beyond description. A deep longing to return to earthly life, which was so close yet so far away, overwhelmed him. The otherworldliness of everything around him caused him real mental pain. He was deeply unsettled by his own particular followers. He would shout at them to stop staring, scold them, and try to run away from them. They remained silent and focused. No matter how fast he ran over the uneven ground, they followed his every move.
On the ninth day, towards evening, Plattner heard the invisible footsteps approaching, far away down the gorge. He was then wandering over the broad crest of the same hill upon which he had fallen in his entry into this strange Other-World of his. He turned to hurry down into the gorge, feeling his way hastily, and was arrested by the sight of the thing that was happening in a room in a back street near the school. Both of 61the people in the room he knew by sight. The windows were open, the blinds up, and the setting sun shone clearly into it, so that it came out quite brightly at first, a vivid oblong of room, lying like a magic-lantern picture upon the black landscape and the livid green dawn. In addition to the sunlight, a candle had just been lit in the room.
On the ninth day, toward evening, Plattner heard the sound of footsteps approaching, far away down the gorge. He was wandering over the wide top of the same hill where he had fallen when he first entered this strange Other-World. He turned to hurry down into the gorge, moving quickly, and was stopped by the sight of something happening in a room on a back street near the school. He recognized both people in the room. The windows were open, the blinds were up, and the setting sun shone brightly into the room, making it stand out vividly at first, a bright rectangle of space resembling a magic-lantern image against the dark landscape and the pale green dawn. In addition to the sunlight, a candle had just been lit in the room.
On the bed lay a lank man, his ghastly white face terrible upon the tumbled pillow. His clenched hands were raised above his head. A little table beside the bed carried a few medicine bottles, some toast and water, and an empty glass. Every now and then the lank man’s lips fell apart, to indicate a word he could not articulate. But the woman did not notice that he wanted anything, because she was busy turning out papers from an old-fashioned bureau in the opposite corner of the room. At first the picture was very vivid indeed, but as the green dawn behind it grew brighter and brighter, so it became fainter and more and more transparent.
On the bed lay a skinny man, his ghostly white face looking terrible on the messed-up pillow. His clenched hands were raised above his head. A small table next to the bed held a few medicine bottles, some toast and water, and an empty glass. Every now and then, the skinny man’s lips parted, indicating a word he couldn’t say. But the woman didn’t notice that he needed anything because she was busy pulling out papers from an old-fashioned dresser in the opposite corner of the room. At first, the scene was very vivid, but as the green dawn behind it got brighter and brighter, it became fainter and more transparent.
As the echoing footsteps paced nearer and nearer, those footsteps that sound so loud in that Other-World and come so silently in this, Plattner perceived about him a great multitude of dim faces gathering together out of the darkness and watching the two people in the room. Never before had he seen so many of the Watchers of the Living. A multitude had eyes only for the sufferer in the room, another multitude, in infinite 62anguish, watched the woman as she hunted with greedy eyes for something she could not find. They crowded about Plattner, they came across his sight and buffeted his face, the noise of their unavailing regrets was all about him. He saw clearly only now and then. At other times the picture quivered dimly, through the veil of green reflections upon their movements. In the room it must have been very still, and Plattner says the candle flame streamed up into a perfectly vertical line of smoke, but in his ears each footfall and its echoes beat like a clap of thunder. And the faces! Two, more particularly near the woman’s: one a woman’s also, white and clear-featured, a face which might have once been cold and hard, but which was now softened by the touch of a wisdom strange to earth. The other might have been the woman’s father. Both were evidently absorbed in the contemplation of some act of hateful meanness, so it seemed, which they could no longer guard against and prevent. Behind were others, teachers, it may be, who had taught ill, friends whose influence had failed. And over the man, too—a multitude, but none that seemed to be parents or teachers! Faces that might once have been coarse, now purged to strength by sorrow! And in the forefront one face, a girlish one, neither angry nor remorseful, but merely patient and weary, and, as it seemed to Plattner, waiting for relief. His powers of description fail him at 63the memory of this multitude of ghastly countenances. They gathered on the stroke of the bell. He saw them all in the space of a second. It would seem that he was so worked on by his excitement that, quite involuntarily, his restless fingers took the bottle of green powder out of his pocket and held it before him. But he does not remember that.
As the echoing footsteps approached closer and closer, those footsteps that sounded so loud in that Other-World and came so quietly here, Plattner noticed a huge crowd of dim faces gathering from the darkness, watching the two people in the room. He had never seen so many of the Watchers of the Living before. One crowd focused solely on the suffering person in the room, while another, filled with deep anguish, watched the woman as she searched with desperate eyes for something she couldn’t find. They crowded around Plattner, passing through his vision and brushing against his face, the sound of their unfulfilled regrets surrounding him. He could see clearly only now and then. At other times, the scene flickered faintly through the green reflections of their movements. It must have been very quiet in the room, and Plattner said the candle flame rose into a perfectly straight line of smoke, but in his ears, each footstep and its echoes sounded like thunder. And the faces! Two stood out particularly near the woman: one was also a woman, with a white, clear face that might have once seemed cold and hard, but was now softened by a wisdom unfamiliar to the living. The other might have been the woman's father. Both seemed deeply absorbed in watching some act of petty meanness that they could no longer stop or prevent. Behind them were others, perhaps teachers who had taught poorly, or friends whose influence had failed. And there was also a crowd around the man, though none appeared to be parents or teachers! Faces that might once have looked rough were now transformed by sorrow into strength! And at the forefront was one face, a girlish one, neither angry nor remorseful, just patient and weary, as it seemed to Plattner, waiting for relief. His ability to describe the memory of this crowd of ghastly faces faltered. They gathered just as the bell struck. He saw them all in the flash of a second. It seemed that he was so affected by his excitement that, without even realizing it, his restless fingers took the bottle of green powder out of his pocket and held it in front of him. But he doesn’t remember that.
Abruptly the footsteps ceased. He waited for the next, and there was silence, and then suddenly, cutting through the unexpected stillness like a keen, thin blade, came the first stroke of the bell. At that the multitudinous faces swayed to and fro and a louder crying began all about him. The woman did not hear; she was burning something now in the candle flame. At the second stroke everything grew dim, and a breath of wind, icy cold, blew through the host of watchers. They swirled about him like an eddy of dead leaves in the spring, and at the third stroke something was extended through them to the bed. You have heard of a beam of light. This was like a beam of darkness, and looking again at it, Plattner saw that it was a shadowy arm and hand.
Suddenly, the footsteps stopped. He waited for the next sound, but there was only silence. Then, out of the unexpected quiet, the first chime of the bell rang out like a sharp, thin blade. At that moment, the countless faces around him swayed back and forth, and a louder crying began all around him. The woman didn’t hear it; she was now burning something in the candle flame. With the second stroke, everything turned dim, and a cold breath of wind swept through the crowd of onlookers. They swirled around him like a whirl of dead leaves in spring, and at the third stroke, something reached out through them toward the bed. You’ve heard of a beam of light. This was like a beam of darkness, and looking again at it, Plattner saw it was a shadowy arm and hand.
The green sun was now topping the black desolations of the horizon, and the vision of the room was very faint. Plattner could see that the white of the bed struggled, and was convulsed; and that the woman looked round over her shoulder at it, startled.
The green sun was now rising above the dark wasteland of the horizon, and the view of the room was very dim. Plattner could see the white of the bed twitching and convulsing, and the woman turned her head to look back at it, startled.
64The cloud of watchers lifted high like a puff of green dust before the wind, and swept swiftly downward towards the temple in the gorge. Then suddenly Plattner understood the meaning of the shadowy black arm that stretched across his shoulder and clutched its prey. He did not dare turn his head to see the Shadow behind the arm. With a violent effort, and covering his eyes, he set himself to run, made, perhaps, twenty strides, then slipped on a boulder, and fell. He fell forward on his hands; and the bottle smashed and exploded as he touched the ground.
64The crowd of spectators rose up like a puff of green dust in the wind and swept quickly down toward the temple in the gorge. Then Plattner suddenly realized what the shadowy black arm was that stretched across his shoulder and grabbed its target. He didn't dare turn his head to see the Shadow behind the arm. With a desperate effort, covering his eyes, he took off running, maybe managing twenty strides before he slipped on a boulder and fell. He landed forward on his hands, and the bottle shattered and burst when it hit the ground.
In another moment he found himself, stunned and bleeding, sitting face to face with Lidgett in the old walled garden behind the school.
In a moment, he found himself, dazed and bleeding, sitting face to face with Lidgett in the old walled garden behind the school.
There the story of Plattner’s experiences ends. I have resisted, I believe successfully, the natural disposition of a writer of fiction to dress up incidents of this sort. I have told the thing as far as possible in the order in which Plattner told it to me. I have carefully avoided any attempt at style, effect, or construction. It would have been easy, for instance, to have worked the scene of the death-bed into a kind of plot in which Plattner might have been involved. But, quite apart from the objectionableness of falsifying a most extraordinary true story, any such trite devices would spoil, to my mind, the peculiar effect of this dark world, with its livid green illumination and its drifting 65Watchers of the Living, which, unseen and unapproachable to us, is yet lying all about us.
There the story of Plattner’s experiences comes to a close. I have resisted, and I think successfully, the natural tendency of a fiction writer to embellish events like these. I’ve told the story as closely as I could in the order Plattner shared it with me. I’ve carefully avoided any attempts at style, effect, or structure. It would have been easy, for example, to twist the deathbed scene into a plot in which Plattner was a key player. But aside from the issue of distorting a truly extraordinary story, such clichés would ruin, in my view, the unique impact of this dark world, with its eerie green light and its drifting 65 Watchers of the Living, which, unseen and unreachable to us, surrounds us.
It remains to add, that a death did actually occur in Vincent Terrace, just beyond the school garden, and, so far as can be proved, at the moment of Plattner’s return. Deceased was a rate-collector and insurance agent. His widow, who was much younger than himself, married last month a Mr. Whymper, a veterinary surgeon of Allbeeding. As the portion of this story given here has in various forms circulated orally in Sussexville, she has consented to my use of her name, on condition that I make it distinctly known that she emphatically contradicts every detail of Plattner’s account of her husband’s last moments. She burnt no will, she says, although Plattner never accused her of doing so; her husband made but one will, and that just after their marriage. Certainly, from a man who had never seen it, Plattner’s account of the furniture of the room was curiously accurate.
It’s worth noting that a death did actually happen in Vincent Terrace, just beyond the school garden, and, as far as we can tell, at the exact moment of Plattner’s return. The deceased was a rate-collector and insurance agent. His widow, who was much younger than he was, married Mr. Whymper, a veterinary surgeon from Allbeeding, last month. Since this part of the story has been circulated in various forms orally in Sussexville, she agreed to let me use her name, as long as I make it clear that she strongly denies every detail of Plattner’s account of her husband’s last moments. She claims she did not burn any will, even though Plattner never accused her of that; her husband made only one will, right after their wedding. Interestingly, Plattner’s description of the furniture in the room was oddly accurate, considering he had never seen it.
One other thing, even at the risk of an irksome repetition, I must insist upon, lest I seem to favour the credulous, superstitious view. Plattner’s absence from the world for nine days is, I think, proved. But that does not prove his story. It is quite conceivable that even outside space hallucinations may be possible. That, at least, the reader must bear distinctly in mind.
One more thing, and I know this might sound repetitive, but I have to emphasize this to avoid seeming to support the gullible, superstitious perspective. Plattner’s disappearance from the world for nine days is, I believe, a fact. But that doesn't confirm his story. It's entirely possible that even outside of our known space, hallucinations could occur. That is something the reader should keep clearly in mind.
THE ARGONAUTS OF THE AIR
One saw Monson’s flying-machine from the windows of the trains passing either along the South-Western main line or along the line between Wimbledon and Worcester Park,—to be more exact, one saw the huge scaffoldings which limited the flight of the apparatus. They rose over the tree-tops, a massive alley of interlacing iron and timber, and an enormous web of ropes and tackle, extending the best part of two miles. From the Leatherhead branch this alley was foreshortened and in part hidden by a hill with villas; but from the main line one had it in profile, a complex tangle of girders and curving bars, very impressive to the excursionists from Portsmouth and Southampton and the West. Monson had taken up the work where Maxim had left it, had gone on at first with an utter contempt for the journalistic wit and ignorance that had irritated and hampered his predecessor, and had spent (it was said) rather more than half his immense fortune upon his experiments. The results, to an impatient generation, seemed inconsiderable. When some five years had passed after the growth of the colossal iron groves at Worcester Park, and Monson still failed to put in a fluttering appearance 67over Trafalgar Square, even the Isle of Wight trippers felt their liberty to smile. And such intelligent people as did not consider Monson a fool stricken with the mania for invention, denounced him as being (for no particular reason) a self-advertising quack.
One could see Monson’s flying machine from the windows of trains traveling along the South-Western main line or between Wimbledon and Worcester Park—specifically, one could see the huge scaffolding that restricted the aircraft's flight. They towered above the tree tops, forming a massive structure of interwoven iron and wood, along with an enormous web of ropes and equipment, stretching for nearly two miles. From the Leatherhead branch, this structure appeared shortened and partly obscured by a hill with houses; however, from the main line, it was visible in profile, a complicated tangle of girders and curved bars that was quite impressive to the tourists from Portsmouth, Southampton, and the West. Monson had continued the work that Maxim had started, initially ignoring the journalistic jokes and ignorance that had frustrated his predecessor, and reportedly spent more than half of his vast fortune on his experiments. The outcomes, to a restless generation, seemed minimal. After about five years since the massive iron constructions at Worcester Park began, and with Monson still not making an appearance fluttering over Trafalgar Square, even the Isle of Wight tourists felt free to laugh. And those who didn’t think Monson was a fool obsessed with inventing, labeled him a self-promoting fraud for no specific reason.
Yet now and again a morning trainload of season-ticket holders would see a white monster rush headlong through the airy tracery of guides and bars, and hear the further stays, nettings, and buffers snap, creak, and groan with the impact of the blow. Then there would be an efflorescence of black-set white-rimmed faces along the sides of the train, and the morning papers would be neglected for a vigorous discussion of the possibility of flying (in which nothing new was ever said by any chance), until the train reached Waterloo, and its cargo of season-ticket holders dispersed themselves over London. Or the fathers and mothers in some multitudinous train of weary excursionists returning exhausted from a day of rest by the sea, would find the dark fabric, standing out against the evening sky, useful in diverting some bilious child from its introspection, and be suddenly startled by the swift transit of a huge black flapping shape that strained upward against the guides. It was a great and forcible thing beyond dispute, and excellent for conversation; yet, all the same, it was but flying in leading-strings, and most of those who witnessed it 68scarcely counted its flight as flying. More of a switchback it seemed to the run of the folk.
Yet now and then, a morning train filled with season-ticket holders would see a white monstrosity rush through the airy framework of guides and bars, and hear the further stays, netting, and buffers snap, creak, and groan from the impact of the collision. Then, there would be a burst of black-set white-rimmed faces along the sides of the train, and the morning papers would be ignored for a lively discussion about the possibility of flight (in which nothing new was ever said, by the way), until the train reached Waterloo, and its load of season-ticket holders scattered across London. Or the parents in some crowded train of tired excursionists returning exhausted from a day at the beach would find the dark silhouette, standing out against the evening sky, useful in distracting some grumpy child from its brooding, and be suddenly startled by the quick passage of a massive black flapping shape that strained upward against the guides. It was undeniably a grand and powerful sight, and great for conversation; yet, all the same, it was just flying with restrictions, and most of those who witnessed it barely considered its flight as actual flying. To the majority, it seemed more like a rollercoaster. 68
Monson, I say, did not trouble himself very keenly about the opinions of the press at first. But possibly he, even, had formed but a poor idea of the time it would take before the tactics of flying were mastered, the swift assured adjustment of the big soaring shape to every gust and chance movement of the air; nor had he clearly reckoned the money this prolonged struggle against gravitation would cost him. And he was not so pachydermatous as he seemed. Secretly he had his periodical bundles of cuttings sent him by Romeike, he had his periodical reminders from his banker; and if he did not mind the initial ridicule and scepticism, he felt the growing neglect as the months went by and the money dribbled away. Time was when Monson had sent the enterprising journalist, keen after readable matter, empty from his gates. But when the enterprising journalist ceased from troubling, Monson was anything but satisfied in his heart of hearts. Still day by day the work went on, and the multitudinous subtle difficulties of the steering diminished in number. Day by day, too, the money trickled away, until his balance was no longer a matter of hundreds of thousands, but of tens. And at last came an anniversary.
Monson, I have to say, didn't really concern himself too much with the opinions of the press at first. But maybe he even had a poor understanding of how long it would take to master flying, the quick and sure adjustment of the large soaring shape to every gust and random movement of the air; he also hadn't accurately calculated the money that this extended struggle against gravity would cost him. And he wasn't as thick-skinned as he appeared. Secretly, he received regular bundles of news clippings from Romeike, and he got frequent reminders from his banker; while he could handle the initial mockery and skepticism, he felt the increasing neglect as the months passed and the money dwindled away. There was a time when Monson had sent the ambitious journalist, eager for interesting material, away empty-handed. But when the ambitious journalist stopped reaching out, Monson was far from satisfied in his heart. Still, day by day, the work continued, and the numerous subtle difficulties of steering decreased in number. Day by day, too, the money trickled away, until his balance was no longer in the hundreds of thousands, but in the tens. And finally, an anniversary arrived.
Monson, sitting in the little drawing-shed, suddenly noticed the date on Woodhouse’s calendar.
Monson, sitting in the small drawing shed, suddenly noticed the date on Woodhouse's calendar.
69“It was five years ago to-day that we began,” he said to Woodhouse suddenly.
69“It was five years ago today that we started,” he said to Woodhouse suddenly.
“Is it?” said Woodhouse.
"Is it?" Woodhouse asked.
“It’s the alterations play the devil with us,” said Monson, biting a paper-fastener.
“It’s the changes that drive us crazy,” said Monson, biting a paper clip.
The drawings for the new vans to the hinder screw lay on the table before him as he spoke. He pitched the mutilated brass paper-fastener into the waste-paper basket and drummed with his fingers. “These alterations! Will the mathematicians ever be clever enough to save us all this patching and experimenting. Five years—learning by rule of thumb, when one might think that it was possible to calculate the whole thing out beforehand. The cost of it! I might have hired three senior wranglers for life. But they’d only have developed some beautifully useless theorems in pneumatics. What a time it has been, Woodhouse!”
The sketches for the new vans to the rear screw were on the table in front of him as he spoke. He tossed the mangled brass paper clip into the trash can and drummed his fingers. “These changes! Will the mathematicians ever be smart enough to spare us all this fixing and testing? Five years—learning by trial and error, when you’d think it would be possible to figure everything out in advance. The cost of this! I could have hired three top graduates for life. But they’d just end up creating some beautifully useless theories in pneumatics. What a time it’s been, Woodhouse!”
“These mouldings will take three weeks,” said Woodhouse. “At special prices.”
“These moldings will take three weeks,” said Woodhouse. “At special prices.”
“Three weeks!” said Monson, and sat drumming.
“Three weeks!” Monson exclaimed, sitting there drumming his fingers.
“Three weeks certain,” said Woodhouse, an excellent engineer, but no good as a comforter. He drew the sheets towards him and began shading a bar.
“Three weeks for sure,” said Woodhouse, a skilled engineer, but not great at providing comfort. He pulled the sheets closer and started shading a bar.
Monson stopped drumming and began to bite his finger-nails, staring the while at Woodhouse’s head.
Monson stopped drumming and started biting his fingernails, all the while staring at Woodhouse's head.
70“How long have they been calling this Monson’s Folly?” he said suddenly.
70“How long have they been calling this Monson’s Mistake?” he said suddenly.
“Oh! Year or so,” said Woodhouse, carelessly, without looking up.
“Oh! A year or so,” said Woodhouse, casually, without looking up.
Monson sucked the air in between his teeth, and went to the window. The stout iron columns carrying the elevated rails upon which the start of the machine was made rose up close by, and the machine was hidden by the upper edge of the window. Through the grove of iron pillars, red painted and ornate with rows of bolts, one had a glimpse of the pretty scenery towards Esher. A train went gliding noiselessly across the middle distance, its rattle drowned by the hammering of the workmen overhead. Monson could imagine the grinning faces at the windows of the carriages. He swore savagely under his breath, and dabbed viciously at a blowfly that suddenly became noisy on the window-pane.
Monson sucked in air through his teeth and walked over to the window. The thick iron columns supporting the elevated tracks where the machine started loomed nearby, and the machine was hidden by the top edge of the window. Through the grove of red-painted iron pillars, adorned with rows of bolts, he caught a glimpse of the lovely scenery toward Esher. A train glided silently through the middle distance, its noise drowned out by the hammering of the workers above. Monson could picture the grinning faces in the windows of the carriages. He swore under his breath in frustration and swatted angrily at a blowfly that suddenly buzzed on the windowpane.
“What’s up?” said Woodhouse, staring in surprise at his employer.
“What’s up?” Woodhouse said, staring in surprise at his boss.
“I’m about sick of this.”
“I’m really fed up with this.”
Woodhouse scratched his cheek. “Oh!” he said, after an assimilating pause. He pushed the drawing away from him.
Woodhouse scratched his cheek. “Oh!” he said after a thoughtful pause. He pushed the drawing away from him.
“Here these fools—I’m trying to conquer a new element—trying to do a thing that will revolutionise life. And instead of taking an intelligent interest, they grin and make their stupid jokes, and call me and my appliances names.”
“Here are these fools—I’m trying to conquer a new element—trying to do something that will change life completely. And instead of showing any real interest, they just grin and make their dumb jokes, and call me and my inventions names.”
71“Asses!” said Woodhouse, letting his eye fall again on the drawing.
71“Donkeys!” said Woodhouse, looking back at the drawing.
The epithet, curiously enough, made Monson wince. “I’m about sick of it, Woodhouse, anyhow,” he said, after a pause.
The nickname, strangely enough, made Monson flinch. “I’m pretty tired of it, Woodhouse, anyway,” he said after a moment.
Woodhouse shrugged his shoulders.
Woodhouse shrugged.
“There’s nothing for it but patience, I suppose,” said Monson, sticking his hands in his pockets. “I’ve started. I’ve made my bed, and I’ve got to lie on it. I can’t go back. I’ll see it through, and spend every penny I have and every penny I can borrow. But I tell you, Woodhouse, I’m infernally sick of it, all the same. If I’d paid a tenth part of the money towards some political greaser’s expenses—I’d have been a baronet before this.”
“There's no choice but to be patient, I guess,” said Monson, putting his hands in his pockets. “I've started this. I’ve made my bed, and now I’ve got to lie in it. I can’t go back. I'll stick it out and spend every penny I have and every penny I can borrow. But I tell you, Woodhouse, I'm absolutely sick of it, just the same. If I had spent just a fraction of that money on some political opportunist’s expenses—I would have been a baronet by now.”
Monson paused. Woodhouse stared in front of him with a blank expression he always employed to indicate sympathy, and tapped his pencil-case on the table. Monson stared at him for a minute.
Monson paused. Woodhouse stared ahead with the same blank expression he always used to show sympathy and tapped his pencil case on the table. Monson looked at him for a minute.
“Oh, damn!” said Monson, suddenly, and abruptly rushed out of the room.
“Oh, damn!” Monson exclaimed suddenly, and then he rushed out of the room without warning.
Woodhouse continued his sympathetic rigour for perhaps half a minute. Then he sighed and resumed the shading of the drawings. Something had evidently upset Monson. Nice chap, and generous, but difficult to get on with. It was the way with every amateur who had anything to do with engineering—wanted everything finished at 72once. But Monson had usually the patience of the expert. Odd he was so irritable. Nice and round that aluminium rod did look now! Woodhouse threw back his head, and put it, first this side and then that, to appreciate his bit of shading better.
Woodhouse kept up his considerate focus for maybe half a minute. Then he sighed and went back to shading the drawings. Something clearly bothered Monson. He was a nice guy and generous, but hard to get along with. That was typical of every amateur involved in engineering—they all wanted everything done immediately. But Monson usually had the patience of a pro. It was strange that he was so irritable. That aluminum rod did look nice and smooth now! Woodhouse tilted his head back and forth to better appreciate his shading.
“Mr. Woodhouse,” said Hooper, the foreman of the labourers, putting his head in at the door.
“Mr. Woodhouse,” said Hooper, the foreman of the workers, sticking his head in at the door.
“Hullo!” said Woodhouse, without turning round.
“Hullo!” said Woodhouse, not looking back.
“Nothing happened, sir?” said Hooper.
"Nothing happened, sir?" Hooper asked.
“Happened?” said Woodhouse.
"What happened?" said Woodhouse.
“The governor just been up the rails swearing like a tornader.”
“The governor just went off the rails swearing like a tornado.”
“Oh!” said Woodhouse.
“Oh!” said Woodhouse.
“It ain’t like him, sir.”
"It’s not like him, sir."
“No?”
"Really?"
“And I was thinking perhaps—”
“And I was thinking maybe—”
“Don’t think,” said Woodhouse, still admiring the drawings.
“Don’t think,” said Woodhouse, still admiring the drawings.
Hooper knew Woodhouse, and he shut the door suddenly with a vicious slam. Woodhouse stared stonily before him for some further minutes, and then made an ineffectual effort to pick his teeth with his pencil. Abruptly he desisted, pitched that old, tried, and stumpy servitor across the room, got up, stretched himself, and followed Hooper.
Hooper knew Woodhouse, and he slammed the door shut with a violent bang. Woodhouse stared blankly ahead for a few more minutes, then made a useless attempt to pick his teeth with his pencil. Suddenly, he stopped, tossed that old, worn-out pencil aside, got up, stretched, and went after Hooper.
He looked ruffled—it was visible to every workman he met. When a millionaire who has been spending thousands on experiments that employ 73quite a little army of people suddenly indicates that he is sick of the undertaking, there is almost invariably a certain amount of mental friction in the ranks of the little army he employs. And even before he indicates his intentions there are speculations and murmurs, a watching of faces and a study of straws. Hundreds of people knew before the day was out that Monson was ruffled, Woodhouse ruffled, Hooper ruffled. A workman’s wife, for instance (whom Monson had never seen), decided to keep her money in the savings-bank instead of buying a velveteen dress. So far-reaching are even the casual curses of a millionaire.
He looked disheveled—any worker he encountered could see that. When a millionaire, who has been spending thousands on projects that employ a small army of people, suddenly shows he’s fed up with the whole thing, it almost always creates some mental unrest among those he hires. Even before he expresses his thoughts, there are speculations and whispers, people watching each other's reactions and reading between the lines. By the end of the day, hundreds of people already knew that Monson was upset, Woodhouse was upset, Hooper was upset. For example, a worker’s wife (whom Monson had never met) decided to save her money instead of buying a velveteen dress. Such are the far-reaching effects of even a millionaire's casual complaints.
Monson found a certain satisfaction in going on the works and behaving disagreeably to as many people as possible. After a time even that palled upon him, and he rode off the grounds, to every one’s relief there, and through the lanes south-eastward, to the infinite tribulation of his house steward at Cheam.
Monson took a twisted pleasure in visiting the site and being as unpleasant as he could to everyone around him. Eventually, that got old too, so he left the premises, much to everyone’s relief, and rode off through the lanes southeast, creating endless frustration for his house steward at Cheam.
And the immediate cause of it all, the little grain of annoyance that had suddenly precipitated all this discontent with his life-work was—these trivial things that direct all our great decisions!—half a dozen ill-considered remarks made by a pretty girl, prettily dressed, with a beautiful voice and something more than prettiness in her soft grey eyes. And of these half-dozen remarks, two words especially—“Monson’s Folly.” She had 74felt she was behaving charmingly to Monson; she reflected the next day how exceptionally effective she had been, and no one would have been more amazed than she, had she learned the effect she had left on Monson’s mind. I hope, considering everything, that she never knew.
And the immediate cause of it all, the little grain of annoyance that suddenly triggered all this discontent with his life’s work was—these trivial things that guide all our major decisions!—a handful of thoughtless comments made by a pretty girl, nicely dressed, with a beautiful voice and something more than just looks in her soft gray eyes. And out of those comments, two words in particular—“Monson’s Folly.” She thought she was being charming to Monson; the next day, she reflected on how effective she had been, and no one would have been more surprised than her if she had known the impact she had left on Monson’s mind. I hope, considering everything, that she never found out.
“How are you getting on with your flying-machine?” she asked. (“I wonder if I shall ever meet any one with the sense not to ask that,” thought Monson.) “It will be very dangerous at first, will it not?” (“Thinks I’m afraid.”) “Jorgon is going to play presently; have you heard him before?” (“My mania being attended to, we turn to rational conversation.”) Gush about Jorgon; gradual decline of conversation, ending with—“You must let me know when your flying-machine is finished, Mr. Monson, and then I will consider the advisability of taking a ticket.” (“One would think I was still playing inventions in the nursery.”) But the bitterest thing she said was not meant for Monson’s ears. To Phlox, the novelist, she was always conscientiously brilliant. “I have been talking to Mr. Monson, and he can think of nothing, positively nothing, but that flying-machine of his. Do you know, all his workmen call that place of his ‘Monson’s Folly’? He is quite impossible. It is really very, very sad. I always regard him myself in the light of sunken treasure—the Lost Millionaire, you know.”
“How’s your flying machine coming along?” she asked. (“I wonder if I’ll ever meet someone who has the sense not to ask that,” thought Monson.) “It’s going to be really dangerous at first, isn’t it?” (“She thinks I’m scared.”) “Jorgon is going to play soon; have you heard him before?” (“As my obsession gets some attention, we move to a sensible conversation.”) Gushing about Jorgon; a slow decline in the conversation, ending with—“You must let me know when your flying machine is done, Mr. Monson, and then I’ll think about getting a ticket.” (“One would think I was still playing with inventions in the nursery.”) But the harshest thing she said wasn’t meant for Monson to hear. To Phlox, the novelist, she was always impressively sharp. “I’ve been talking to Mr. Monson, and he can think of nothing, absolutely nothing, except that flying machine of his. Did you know, all his workers call that place of his ‘Monson’s Folly’? He’s completely impossible. It’s really very, very sad. I always see him as a piece of lost treasure—the Lost Millionaire, you know.”
75She was pretty and well educated,—indeed, she had written an epigrammatic novelette; but the bitterness was that she was typical. She summarised what the world thought of the man who was working sanely, steadily, and surely towards a more tremendous revolution in the appliances of civilisation, a more far-reaching alteration in the ways of humanity than has ever been effected since history began. They did not even take him seriously. In a little while he would be proverbial. “I must fly now,” he said on his way home, smarting with a sense of absolute social failure. “I must fly soon. If it doesn’t come off soon, by God! I shall run amuck.”
75She was attractive and well-educated—she had even written a witty novella—but the frustrating part was that she was just a stereotype. She embodied what society believed about the man who was quietly, steadily, and surely working towards a more significant revolution in the tools of civilization, a change that would affect humanity more deeply than anything that has happened since the beginning of history. They didn’t even take him seriously. Soon enough, he would become a figure of speech. “I need to get out of here now,” he said on his way home, feeling a deep sense of social failure. “I need to leave soon. If it doesn’t happen soon, for real! I might lose it.”
He said that before he had gone through his pass-book and his litter of papers. Inadequate as the cause seems, it was that girl’s voice and the expression of her eyes that precipitated his discontent. But certainly the discovery that he had no longer even one hundred thousand pounds’ worth of realisable property behind him was the poison that made the wound deadly.
He mentioned that before he went through his bank statement and his pile of papers. While the reason might seem insufficient, it was that girl’s voice and the look in her eyes that triggered his unhappiness. However, finding out that he no longer had even one hundred thousand pounds’ worth of assets to his name was the poison that made the injury fatal.
It was the next day after this that he exploded upon Woodhouse and his workmen, and thereafter his bearing was consistently grim for three weeks, and anxiety dwelt in Cheam and Ewell, Malden, Morden, and Worcester Park, places that had thriven mightily on his experiments.
It was the next day after this that he blew up at Woodhouse and his workers, and after that, he was consistently serious for three weeks, and worry hung over Cheam and Ewell, Malden, Morden, and Worcester Park, places that had greatly benefited from his experiments.
Four weeks after that first swearing of his, he stood with Woodhouse by the reconstructed 76machine as it lay across the elevated railway, by means of which it gained its initial impetus. The new propeller glittered a brighter white than the rest of the machine, and a gilder, obedient to a whim of Monson’s, was picking out the aluminium bars with gold. And looking down the long avenue between the ropes (gilded now with the sunset), one saw red signals, and two miles away an anthill of workmen busy altering the last falls of the run into a rising slope.
Four weeks after his first swearing-in, he stood with Woodhouse by the rebuilt 76 machine, which was positioned over the elevated railway that gave it its initial push. The new propeller shone a brighter white than the rest of the machine, and a painter, catering to Monson’s whim, was highlighting the aluminum bars with gold. Looking down the long avenue between the ropes, now gilded by the sunset, you could see red signals and, two miles away, a busy crowd of workers changing the last drops of the run into an upward slope.
“I’ll come,” said Woodhouse. “I’ll come right enough. But I tell you it’s infernally foolhardy. If only you would give another year—”
“I’ll come,” said Woodhouse. “I’ll definitely come. But I’m telling you it’s incredibly reckless. If only you would wait another year—”
“I tell you I won’t. I tell you the thing works. I’ve given years enough—”
“I’m telling you I won’t. I’m telling you the thing works. I’ve put in enough years—”
“It’s not that,” said Woodhouse. “We’re all right with the machine. But it’s the steering—”
“It’s not that,” said Woodhouse. “We’re good with the machine. But it’s the steering—”
“Haven’t I been rushing, night and morning, backwards and forwards, through this squirrel’s cage? If the thing steers true here, it will steer true all across England. It’s just funk, I tell you, Woodhouse. We could have gone a year ago. And besides—”
“Haven’t I been rushing, night and morning, back and forth through this crazy maze? If it works well here, it will work well all across England. It’s just fear, I’m telling you, Woodhouse. We could have done this a year ago. And besides—”
“Well?” said Woodhouse.
"Well?" Woodhouse asked.
“The money!” snapped Monson, over his shoulder.
“The money!” snapped Monson, looking back.
“Hang it! I never thought of the money,” said Woodhouse, and then, speaking now in a very different tone to that with which he had said the words before, he repeated, “I’ll come. Trust me.”
“Darn it! I never thought about the money,” said Woodhouse, and then, speaking in a completely different tone from before, he added, “I’ll come. You can count on me.”
77Monson turned suddenly, and saw all that Woodhouse had not the dexterity to say, shining on his sunset-lit face. He looked for a moment, then impulsively extended his hand. “Thanks,” he said.
77Monson turned suddenly and saw everything that Woodhouse didn't have the skill to express, lighting up his face in the glow of the sunset. He looked for a moment, then impulsively reached out his hand. “Thanks,” he said.
“All right,” said Woodhouse, gripping the hand, and with a queer softening of his features. “Trust me.”
“All right,” said Woodhouse, gripping the hand, and with a strange softening of his features. “Trust me.”
Then both men turned to the big apparatus that lay with its flat wings extended upon the carrier, and stared at it meditatively. Monson, guided perhaps by a photographic study of the flight of birds, and by Lilienthal’s methods, had gradually drifted from Maxim’s shapes towards the bird form again. The thing, however, was driven by a huge screw behind in the place of the tail; and so hovering, which needs an almost vertical adjustment of a flat tail, was rendered impossible. The body of the machine was small, almost cylindrical, and pointed. Forward and aft on the pointed ends were two small petroleum engines for the screw, and the navigators sat deep in a canoe-like recess, the foremost one steering, and being protected by a low screen, with two plate-glass windows, from the blinding rush of air. On either side a monstrous flat framework with a curved front border could be adjusted so as either to lie horizontally, or to be tilted upward or down. These wings worked rigidly together, or, by releasing a pin, one could 78be tilted through a small angle independently of its fellow. The front edge of either wing could also be shifted back so as to diminish the wing-area about one-sixth. The machine was not only not designed to hover, but it was also incapable of fluttering. Monson’s idea was to get into the air with the initial rush of the apparatus, and then to skim, much as a playingcard may be skimmed, keeping up the rush by means of the screw at the stern. Rooks and gulls fly enormous distances in that way with scarcely a perceptible movement of the wings. The bird really drives along on an aërial switchback. It glides slanting downward for a space, until it has gained considerable momentum, and then altering the inclination of its wings, glides up again almost to its original altitude. Even a Londoner who has watched the birds in the aviary in Regent’s Park knows that.
Then both men turned to the large apparatus that lay with its flat wings extended on the carrier and stared at it thoughtfully. Monson, inspired perhaps by a photographic study of bird flight and by Lilienthal’s techniques, had gradually moved from Maxim’s designs back towards the shape of a bird. However, this machine was powered by a large screw at the back instead of a tail, making hovering— which requires a near-vertical adjustment of a flat tail—impossible. The body of the machine was small, almost cylindrical, and pointed. At both ends, there were two small petroleum engines for the screw, and the navigators sat deep in a canoe-like recess, with the front one steering and protected by a low screen with two plate-glass windows from the blinding rush of air. On either side, a massive flat framework with a curved front edge could be adjusted to lie horizontally or to tilt up or down. These wings could work rigidly together, or, by releasing a pin, one could be tilted slightly independently of the other. The front edge of either wing could also be moved back to reduce the wing area by about one-sixth. The machine was designed not only to avoid hovering but also to prevent fluttering. Monson’s plan was to take off with the initial rush of the apparatus and then skim along, much like how you might skim a playing card, maintaining speed with the screw at the back. Rooks and gulls fly massive distances this way with barely a noticeable movement of their wings. Birds really glide along on an aerial rollercoaster. They slope down for a bit to gain momentum, and then by changing the angle of their wings, they glide back up almost to their original height. Even a Londoner who has watched the birds in the aviary in Regent’s Park knows that.
But the bird is practising this art from the moment it leaves its nest. It has not only the perfect apparatus, but the perfect instinct to use it. A man off his feet has the poorest skill in balancing. Even the simple trick of the bicycle costs him some hours of labour. The instantaneous adjustments of the wings, the quick response to a passing breeze, the swift recovery of equilibrium, the giddy, eddying movements that require such absolute precision—all that he must learn, learn with infinite labour and 79infinite danger, if ever he is to conquer flying. The flying-machine that will start off some fine day, driven by neat “little levers,” with a nice open deck like a liner, and all loaded up with bomb-shells and guns, is the easy dreaming of a literary man. In lives and in treasure the cost of the conquest of the empire of the air may even exceed all that has been spent in man’s great conquest of the sea. Certainly it will be costlier than the greatest war that has ever devastated the world.
But the bird has been practicing this skill since the moment it left its nest. It possesses not only the perfect structure but also the instinct to use it. A person who isn’t stable has the worst ability to balance. Even the simple trick of riding a bicycle takes him hours of effort. The quick adjustments of the wings, the fast reaction to a passing breeze, the rapid recovery of balance, and the dizzying movements that require complete precision—all of this he has to learn, with endless effort and danger, if he ever wants to master flying. The flying machine that will take off someday, controlled by neat little levers, with a nice open deck like a ship, loaded with bombs and guns, is just a fantasy of a writer. In terms of lives and resources, the cost of conquering the skies could even surpass what has been spent on humanity's great conquest of the seas. It will certainly be more expensive than the biggest war that has ever ravaged the world.
No one knew these things better than these two practical men. And they knew they were in the front rank of the coming army. Yet there is hope even in a forlorn hope. Men are killed outright in the reserves sometimes, while others who have been left for dead in the thickest corner crawl out and survive.
No one understood these things better than these two practical guys. And they knew they were at the forefront of the upcoming army. Still, there's a glimmer of hope even in a losing battle. Sometimes, men are killed right away in the reserves, while others left for dead in the toughest spots manage to crawl out and survive.
“If we miss these meadows—” said Woodhouse, presently in his slow way.
“If we miss these meadows—” said Woodhouse, taking his time.
“My dear chap,” said Monson, whose spirits had been rising fitfully during the last few days, “we mustn’t miss these meadows. There’s a quarter of a square mile for us to hit, fences removed, ditches levelled. We shall come down all right—rest assured. And if we don’t—”
“My dear friend,” said Monson, whose mood had been fluctuating over the past few days, “we can’t pass up these meadows. There’s a quarter of a square mile for us to reach, fences taken away, ditches smoothed out. We’ll be fine—don’t worry. And if we’re not—”
“Ah!” said Woodhouse. “If we don’t!”
“Ah!” said Woodhouse. “If we don’t!”
Before the day of the start, the newspaper people got wind of the alterations at the northward end of the framework, and Monson was cheered by a 80decided change in the comments Romeike forwarded him. “He will be off some day,” said the papers. “He will be off some day,” said the South-Western season-ticket holders one to another; the seaside excursionists, the Saturday-to-Monday trippers from Sussex and Hampshire and Dorset and Devon, the eminent literary people from Hazlemere, all remarked eagerly one to another, “He will be off some day,” as the familiar scaffolding came in sight. And actually, one bright morning, in full view of the ten-past-ten train from Basingstoke, Monson’s flying-machine started on its journey.
Before the day of the launch, the newspaper reporters caught wind of the changes at the north end of the structure, and Monson was encouraged by a noticeable shift in the comments Romeike sent him. “He'll be taking off soon,” the papers said. “He'll be taking off soon,” said the South-Western season-ticket holders to each other; the seaside tourists, the Saturday-to-Monday travelers from Sussex, Hampshire, Dorset, and Devon, the famous literary figures from Hazlemere, all eagerly commented to one another, “He'll be taking off soon,” as the familiar scaffolding came into view. And actually, one bright morning, right in front of the ten-past-ten train from Basingstoke, Monson’s flying machine began its journey.
They saw the carrier running swiftly along its rail, and the white-and-gold screw spinning in the air. They heard the rapid rumble of wheels, and a thud as the carrier reached the buffers at the end of its run. Then a whirr as the flying-machine was shot forward into the networks. All that the majority of them had seen and heard before. The thing went with a drooping flight through the framework and rose again, and then every beholder shouted, or screamed, or yelled, or shrieked after his kind. For instead of the customary concussion and stoppage, the flying-machine flew out of its five years’ cage like a bolt from a crossbow, and drove slantingly upward into the air, curved round a little, so as to cross the line, and soared in the direction of Wimbledon Common.
They saw the carrier quickly moving along its track, with the white-and-gold screw spinning in the air. They heard the fast rumble of wheels and a thud as the carrier hit the buffers at the end of its run. Then there was a whirr as the flying machine was launched into the networks. Most of them had seen and heard this before. The machine glided through the structure and lifted up again, and then everyone watching shouted, screamed, yelled, or shrieked in excitement. Instead of the usual jolt and stop, the flying machine burst out of its five-year cage like a bolt from a crossbow, angled upward into the sky, curved a bit to cross the line, and soared off toward Wimbledon Common.
It seemed to hang momentarily in the air and 81grow smaller, then it ducked and vanished over the clustering blue tree-tops to the east of Coombe Hill, and no one stopped staring and gasping until long after it had disappeared.
It hung in the air for a moment and 81got smaller, then it dipped down and disappeared over the dense blue treetops to the east of Coombe Hill, and nobody stopped staring and gasping until long after it was gone.
That was what the people in the train from Basingstoke saw. If you had drawn a line down the middle of that train, from engine to guard’s van, you would not have found a living soul on the opposite side to the flying-machine. It was a mad rush from window to window as the thing crossed the line. And the engine-driver and stoker never took their eyes off the low hills about Wimbledon, and never noticed that they had run clean through Coombe and Malden and Raynes Park, until, with returning animation, they found themselves pelting, at the most indecent pace, into Wimbledon station.
That’s what the people on the train from Basingstoke saw. If you had drawn a line down the middle of that train, from the engine to the guard’s van, you wouldn’t have found a single person on the side opposite the flying machine. It was a crazy scramble from window to window as the thing crossed the line. The engineer and stoker never took their eyes off the low hills around Wimbledon and didn’t even realize they had rushed right through Coombe, Malden, and Raynes Park until, suddenly alert, they found themselves speeding, at an incredibly reckless pace, into Wimbledon station.
From the moment when Monson had started the carrier with a “Now!” neither he nor Woodhouse said a word. Both men sat with clenched teeth. Monson had crossed the line with a curve that was too sharp, and Woodhouse had opened and shut his white lips; but neither spoke. Woodhouse simply gripped his seat, and breathed sharply through his teeth, watching the blue country to the west rushing past, and down, and away from him. Monson knelt at his post forward, and his hands trembled on the spoked wheel that moved the wings. He could see nothing before him but a mass of white clouds in the sky.
From the moment Monson shouted “Now!” to start the carrier, neither he nor Woodhouse said a word. Both men sat there with their teeth clenched. Monson had taken a turn that was too sharp, and Woodhouse had briefly opened and closed his white lips, but neither of them spoke. Woodhouse just held on to his seat and breathed sharply through his teeth, watching the blue landscape to the west rush past, going down and away from him. Monson was crouched at his position in the front, his hands trembling on the spoked wheel that controlled the wings. All he could see ahead was a mass of white clouds in the sky.
82The machine went slanting upward, travelling with an enormous speed still, but losing momentum every moment. The land ran away underneath with diminishing speed.
82The machine tilted upward, moving at a tremendous speed, but slowing down little by little. The ground rushed by beneath it, also losing speed.
“Now!” said Woodhouse at last, and with a violent effort Monson wrenched over the wheel and altered the angle of the wings. The machine seemed to hang for half a minute motionless in mid-air, and then he saw the hazy blue house-covered hills of Kilburn and Hampstead jump up before his eyes and rise steadily, until the little sunlit dome of the Albert Hall appeared through his windows. For a moment he scarcely understood the meaning of this upward rush of the horizon, but as the nearer and nearer houses came into view, he realised what he had done. He had turned the wings over too far, and they were swooping steeply downward towards the Thames.
“Now!” said Woodhouse at last, and with a strong effort, Monson jerked the wheel and adjusted the angle of the wings. The machine seemed to hang motionless in mid-air for half a minute, and then he saw the hazy blue, house-covered hills of Kilburn and Hampstead suddenly appear before him, rising steadily until the bright dome of the Albert Hall came into view through his windows. For a moment, he could barely comprehend the meaning of this rapid upward movement of the horizon, but as the closer houses became visible, he realized what he had done. He had tilted the wings too far, and they were diving steeply down toward the Thames.
The thought, the question, the realisation were all the business of a second of time. “Too much!” gasped Woodhouse. Monson brought the wheel half-way back with a jerk, and forthwith the Kilburn and Hampstead ridge dropped again to the lower edge of his windows. They had been a thousand feet above Coombe and Malden station; fifty seconds after they whizzed, at a frightful pace, not eighty feet above the East Putney station, on the Metropolitan District line, to the screaming astonishment of a platform full of people. Monson flung up the vans against the air, and over Fulham they 83rushed up their atmospheric switchback again, steeply—too steeply. The ’busses went floundering across the Fulham Road, the people yelled.
The thought, the question, the realization all happened in just a second. “Too much!” gasped Woodhouse. Monson jerked the wheel halfway back, and immediately the Kilburn and Hampstead ridge dropped out of view from his windows. They had been a thousand feet above Coombe and Malden station; just fifty seconds later, they zoomed by at a terrifying speed, barely eighty feet above East Putney station, shocking a platform full of people. Monson pushed the vans up against the air, and over Fulham, they rushed back up their atmospheric switchback again, too steeply this time. The buses floundered across Fulham Road, and people yelled.
Then down again, too steeply still, and the distant trees and houses about Primrose Hill leapt up across Monson’s window, and then suddenly he saw straight before him the greenery of Kensington Gardens and the towers of the Imperial Institute. They were driving straight down upon South Kensington. The pinnacles of the Natural History Museum rushed up into view. There came one fatal second of swift thought, a moment of hesitation. Should he try and clear the towers, or swerve eastward?
Then down again, still too steep, and the distant trees and houses around Primrose Hill jumped into view outside Monson’s window, and then suddenly he saw right in front of him the green space of Kensington Gardens and the towers of the Imperial Institute. They were driving straight toward South Kensington. The spires of the Natural History Museum came into view rapidly. There was one crucial second of quick thinking, a moment of doubt. Should he try to go over the towers, or swerve eastward?
He made a hesitating attempt to release the right wing, left the catch half released, and gave a frantic clutch at the wheel.
He made a hesitant attempt to release the right wing, left the catch partially released, and grabbed the wheel in a panic.
The nose of the machine seemed to leap up before him. The wheel pressed his hand with irresistible force, and jerked itself out of his control.
The front of the machine seemed to jump up in front of him. The wheel gripped his hand with an unstoppable force and pulled itself out of his control.
Woodhouse, sitting crouched together, gave a hoarse cry, and sprang up towards Monson. “Too far!” he cried, and then he was clinging to the gunwale for dear life, and Monson had been jerked clean overhead, and was falling backwards upon him.
Woodhouse, huddled close together, let out a rough shout and jumped up toward Monson. “Too far!” he yelled, and then he was gripping the edge of the boat for dear life, while Monson was yanked up into the air and was falling backward onto him.
So swiftly had the thing happened that barely a quarter of the people going to and fro in Hyde Park, and Brompton Road, and the Exhibition 84Road saw anything of the aërial catastrophe. A distant winged shape had appeared above the clustering houses to the south, had fallen and risen, growing larger as it did so; had swooped swiftly down towards the Imperial Institute, a broad spread of flying wings, had swept round in a quarter circle, dashed eastward, and then suddenly sprang vertically into the air. A black object shot out of it, and came spinning downward. A man! Two men clutching each other! They came whirling down, separated as they struck the roof of the Students’ Club, and bounded off into the green bushes on its southward side.
So quickly had it all happened that hardly a quarter of the people walking around Hyde Park, Brompton Road, and the Exhibition Road noticed the aerial disaster. A distant winged shape appeared above the cluster of houses to the south, fell and then rose, growing larger as it ascended; it swooped down towards the Imperial Institute, a broad spread of wings, curved in a quarter circle, dashed eastward, and then suddenly shot straight up into the sky. A black object shot out of it and came spiraling down. A man! Two men holding onto each other! They whirled down, separated as they hit the roof of the Students’ Club, and bounced into the green bushes on its southern side.
For perhaps half a minute, the pointed stem of the big machine still pierced vertically upward, the screw spinning desperately. For one brief instant, that yet seemed an age to all who watched, it had hung motionless in mid-air. Then a spout of yellow flame licked up its length from the stern engine, and swift, swifter, swifter, and flaring like a rocket, it rushed down upon the solid mass of masonry which was formerly the Royal College of Science. The big screw of white and gold touched the parapet, and crumpled up like wet linen. Then the blazing spindle-shaped body smashed and splintered, smashing and splintering in its fall, upon the north-westward angle of the building.
For maybe half a minute, the pointed tip of the big machine shot straight up, the screw spinning frantically. For a brief moment, which felt like an eternity to everyone watching, it hung still in mid-air. Then a burst of yellow flame shot up from the rear engine, and quickly, faster, even faster, and lighting up like a rocket, it dove down toward the solid mass of bricks that used to be the Royal College of Science. The large white and gold screw hit the parapet and crumpled like wet cloth. Then the blazing, spindle-shaped body crashed and splintered as it fell onto the north-west corner of the building.
But the crash, the flame of blazing paraffin that shot heavenward from the shattered engines of the machine, the crushed horrors that were found in 85the garden beyond the Students’ Club, the masses of yellow parapet and red brick that fell headlong into the roadway, the running to and fro of people like ants in a broken anthill, the galloping of fire-engines, the gathering of crowds—all these things do not belong to this story, which was written only to tell how the first of all successful flying-machines was launched and flew. Though he failed, and failed disastrously, the record of Monson’s work remains—a sufficient monument—to guide the next of that band of gallant experimentalists who will sooner or later master this great problem of flying. And between Worcester Park and Malden there still stands that portentous avenue of iron-work, rusting now, and dangerous here and there, to witness to the first desperate struggle for man’s right of way through the air.
But the crash, the flames of blazing fuel that shot up from the broken engines of the machine, the horrific wreckage found in the garden beyond the Students’ Club, the chunks of yellow parapet and red brick that fell onto the road, the chaotic movement of people like ants in a disturbed anthill, the rushing of fire trucks, the gathering of crowds—all these things don’t belong to this story, which was only meant to tell how the first successful flying machine was launched and flew. Although he failed, and failed spectacularly, Monson’s work remains a significant achievement—a lasting tribute—to guide the next group of brave innovators who will eventually conquer this great challenge of flight. And between Worcester Park and Malden, that impressive iron structure still stands, now rusty and occasionally unsafe, as a testament to the first bold attempt for humanity's right to travel through the sky.
THE STORY OF THE LATE MR. ELVESHAM
I set this story down, not expecting it will be believed, but, if possible, to prepare a way of escape for the next victim. He, perhaps, may profit by my misfortune. My own case, I know, is hopeless, and I am now in some measure prepared to meet my fate.
I wrote this story down, not expecting anyone to believe it, but hopefully to create a way out for the next victim. He might be able to learn from my misfortune. I know my own situation is hopeless, and I’m somewhat ready to face my fate.
My name is Edward George Eden. I was born at Trentham, in Staffordshire, my father being employed in the gardens there. I lost my mother when I was three years old, and my father when I was five, my uncle, George Eden, then adopting me as his own son. He was a single man, self-educated, and well known in Birmingham as an enterprising journalist; he educated me generously, fired my ambition to succeed in the world, and at his death, which happened four years ago, left me his entire fortune, a matter of about five hundred pounds after all outgoing charges were paid. I was then eighteen. He advised me in his will to expend the money in completing my education. I had already chosen the profession of medicine, and through his posthumous generosity, and my good fortune in a scholarship competition, I became a medical student at 87University College, London. At the time of the beginning of my story I lodged at 11A University Street, in a little upper room, very shabbily furnished, and draughty, overlooking the back of Shoolbred’s premises. I used this little room both to live in and sleep in, because I was anxious to eke out my means to the very last shillingsworth.
My name is Edward George Eden. I was born in Trentham, Staffordshire, where my dad worked in the gardens. I lost my mom when I was three and my dad when I was five. My uncle, George Eden, took me in as his own son. He was single, self-taught, and well-known in Birmingham as an ambitious journalist. He generously educated me, inspired me to achieve my goals, and when he passed away four years ago, he left me his entire fortune, which amounted to about five hundred pounds after all expenses were settled. I was eighteen at the time. In his will, he recommended that I use the money to finish my education. I had already decided to pursue a career in medicine, and thanks to his posthumous kindness and my luck in a scholarship competition, I became a medical student at 87 University College, London. When my story begins, I was living in a small upper room at 11A University Street, which was very poorly furnished and drafty, overlooking the back of Shoolbred’s premises. I used this little room for both living and sleeping because I wanted to stretch my budget as far as I could go.
I was taking a pair of shoes to be mended at a shop in the Tottenham Court Road when I first encountered the little old man with the yellow face, with whom my life has now become so inextricably entangled. He was standing on the kerb, and staring at the number on the door in a doubtful way, as I opened it. His eyes—they were dull grey eyes, and reddish under the rims—fell to my face, and his countenance immediately assumed an expression of corrugated amiability.
I was taking a pair of shoes to be repaired at a shop on Tottenham Court Road when I first met the little old man with the yellow face, who has now become such a big part of my life. He was standing on the curb, looking at the number on the door with a puzzled expression as I opened it. His eyes—dull grey and a bit red around the edges—met my gaze, and his face instantly settled into a crinkled smile.
“You come,” he said, “apt to the moment. I had forgotten the number of your house. How do you do, Mr. Eden?”
“You're here,” he said, “just in time. I had forgotten your house number. How are you, Mr. Eden?”
I was a little astonished at his familiar address, for I had never set eyes on the man before. I was a little annoyed, too, at his catching me with my boots under my arm. He noticed my lack of cordiality.
I was a bit surprised by his casual way of speaking to me, since I had never seen the guy before. I was also somewhat annoyed that he caught me with my boots under my arm. He picked up on my cold reaction.
“Wonder who the deuce I am, eh? A friend, let me assure you. I have seen you before, though you haven’t seen me. Is there anywhere where I can talk to you?”
“Wonder who the heck I am, huh? A friend, let me tell you. I've seen you before, even though you haven't seen me. Is there somewhere I can chat with you?”
88I hesitated. The shabbiness of my room upstairs was not a matter for every stranger. “Perhaps,” said I, “we might walk down the street. I’m unfortunately prevented—” My gesture explained the sentence before I had spoken it.
88I hesitated. The state of my room upstairs wasn’t something I wanted to share with just anyone. “Maybe,” I said, “we could take a walk down the street. I’m unfortunately unable—” My gesture made my point clear before I finished speaking.
“The very thing,” he said, and faced this way and then that. “The street? Which way shall we go?” I slipped my boots down in the passage. “Look here!” he said abruptly; “this business of mine is a rigmarole. Come and lunch with me, Mr. Eden. I’m an old man, a very old man, and not good at explanations, and what with my piping voice and the clatter of the traffic—”
“The very thing,” he said, looking around. “The street? Which way should we go?” I pulled my boots on in the hallway. “Hey!” he said suddenly; “this situation of mine is a mess. Come have lunch with me, Mr. Eden. I’m an old man, really old, and I’m not great at explaining things, and with my shaky voice and all the traffic noise—”
He laid a persuasive, skinny hand that trembled a little upon my arm.
He placed a convincing, slender hand that shook slightly on my arm.
I was not so old that an old man might not treat me to a lunch. Yet at the same time I was not altogether pleased by this abrupt invitation. “I had rather—” I began. “But I had rather,” he said, catching me up, “and a certain civility is surely due to my grey hairs.” And so I consented, and went with him.
I wasn't so old that an older man couldn't take me out for lunch. But at the same time, I wasn't exactly thrilled about this sudden invitation. “I would prefer—” I started. “But I would prefer,” he interrupted me, “and a little courtesy is definitely owed to my gray hairs.” So I agreed and went with him.
He took me to Blavitski’s; I had to walk slowly to accommodate myself to his paces; and over such a lunch as I had never tasted before, he fended off my leading questions, and I took a better note of his appearance. His clean-shaven face was lean and wrinkled, his shrivelled lips fell over a set of false teeth, and his white hair was thin and rather long; he seemed small to me,—though, 89indeed, most people seemed small to me,—and his shoulders were rounded and bent. And watching him, I could not help but observe that he too was taking note of me, running his eyes, with a curious touch of greed in them, over me, from my broad shoulders to my sun-tanned hands, and up to my freckled face again. “And now,” said he, as we lit our cigarettes, “I must tell you of the business in hand.
He took me to Blavitski's; I had to walk slowly to keep up with his pace; and over a lunch unlike anything I had ever had before, he skillfully avoided my probing questions, while I paid closer attention to his appearance. His clean-shaven face was lean and wrinkled, his thin lips drooped over a set of false teeth, and his white hair was sparse and somewhat long; he seemed small to me—though, in fact, most people seemed small to me—and his shoulders were slouched. Watching him, I couldn't help but notice that he was also examining me, his eyes scanning me with an almost greedy curiosity, moving from my broad shoulders to my sun-tanned hands, and then back up to my freckled face. "And now," he said as we lit our cigarettes, "I need to tell you about the matter at hand."
“I must tell you, then, that I am an old man, a very old man.” He paused momentarily. “And it happens that I have money that I must presently be leaving, and never a child have I to leave it to.” I thought of the confidence trick, and resolved I would be on the alert for the vestiges of my five hundred pounds. He proceeded to enlarge on his loneliness, and the trouble he had to find a proper disposition of his money. “I have weighed this plan and that plan, charities, institutions, and scholarships, and libraries, and I have come to this conclusion at last,”—he fixed his eyes on my face,—“that I will find some young fellow, ambitious, pure-minded, and poor, healthy in body and healthy in mind, and, in short, make him my heir, give him all that I have.” He repeated, “Give him all that I have. So that he will suddenly be lifted out of all the trouble and struggle in which his sympathies have been educated, to freedom and influence.”
“I need to tell you that I’m an old man, a very old man.” He paused for a moment. “I have money that I need to leave behind, and I don’t have a child to pass it on to.” I thought about the possibility of a scam and decided I’d keep an eye out for any signs of my five hundred pounds. He went on about his loneliness and the difficulty he faced in finding a good way to use his money. “I’ve considered this plan and that plan, charities, organizations, scholarships, and libraries, and I’ve finally come to this conclusion,”—he looked directly at me—“that I will find some young guy, ambitious, good-hearted, and poor, healthy in body and mind, and, in short, make him my heir and give him everything I have.” He said again, “Give him everything I have. So that he will be suddenly lifted out of all the struggles and hardships that have shaped his life, to freedom and influence.”
I tried to seem disinterested. With a transparent 90hypocrisy, I said, “And you want my help, my professional services, maybe, to find that person.”
I tried to act uninterested. With obvious insincerity, I said, “So you want my help, my professional services, perhaps, to find that person.”
He smiled, and looked at me over his cigarette, and I laughed at his quiet exposure of my modest pretence.
He smiled and glanced at me over his cigarette, and I laughed at his subtle revelation of my humble facade.
“What a career such a man might have!” he said. “It fills me with envy to think how I have accumulated that another man may spend—
“What a career a man like that could have!” he said. “It makes me envious to think about how I've saved up so another man can spend—"
“But there are conditions, of course, burdens to be imposed. He must, for instance, take my name. You cannot expect everything without some return. And I must go into all the circumstances of his life before I can accept him. He must be sound. I must know his heredity, how his parents and grandparents died, have the strictest inquiries made into his private morals—”
“But there are conditions, of course, things that need to be established. He must, for example, take my name. You can’t expect everything without giving something back. And I need to go into all the details of his life before I can accept him. He must be solid. I need to know about his background, how his parents and grandparents died, and have a thorough investigation into his personal morals—”
This modified my secret congratulations a little. “And do I understand,” said I, “that I—?”
This changed my private congratulations a bit. “And do I get it,” I said, “that I—?”
“Yes,” he said, almost fiercely. “You. You.”
“Yes,” he said, almost fiercely. “You. You.”
I answered never a word. My imagination was dancing wildly, my innate scepticism was useless to modify its transports. There was not a particle of gratitude in my mind—I did not know what to say nor how to say it. “But why me in particular?” I said at last.
I didn’t say a word. My imagination was racing, and my natural skepticism couldn’t tame its excitement. I felt no gratitude—I didn’t know what to say or how to say it. “But why me, specifically?” I finally asked.
He had chanced to hear of me from Professor Haslar, he said, as a typically sound and sane young man, and he wished, as far as possible, to leave his money where health and integrity were assured.
He happened to hear about me from Professor Haslar, he said, as a typically smart and sensible young man, and he wanted to keep his money where it would be safe and trustworthy.
91That was my first meeting with the little old man. He was mysterious about himself; he would not give his name yet, he said, and after I had answered some questions of his, he left me at the Blavitski portal. I noticed that he drew a handful of gold coins from his pocket when it came to paying for the lunch. His insistence upon bodily health was curious. In accordance with an arrangement we had made I applied that day for a life policy in the Loyal Insurance Company for a large sum, and I was exhaustively overhauled by the medical advisers of that company in the subsequent week. Even that did not satisfy him, and he insisted I must be re-examined by the great Dr. Henderson. It was Friday in Whitsun week before he came to a decision. He called me down, quite late in the evening,—nearly nine it was,—from cramming chemical equations for my Preliminary Scientific examination. He was standing in the passage under the feeble gas lamp, and his face was a grotesque interplay of shadows. He seemed more bowed than when I had first seen him, and his cheeks had sunk in a little.
91That was my first encounter with the little old man. He was secretive about himself; he wouldn’t reveal his name just yet, he said, and after I answered some of his questions, he left me at the Blavitski portal. I noticed he pulled out a handful of gold coins from his pocket when it was time to pay for lunch. His focus on physical health was odd. As we had agreed, I applied that day for a life insurance policy with the Loyal Insurance Company for a significant amount, and I was thoroughly examined by the company’s medical advisers the following week. Even that didn’t satisfy him, and he insisted that I needed to be re-examined by the renowned Dr. Henderson. It was Friday during Whitsun week before he made a decision. He called me down, quite late in the evening—almost nine—while I was cramming chemical equations for my Preliminary Scientific exam. He was standing in the hallway under the dim gas lamp, and his face was a strange mix of shadows. He seemed more hunched over than when I first saw him, and his cheeks had sunk in a bit.
His voice shook with emotion. “Everything is satisfactory, Mr. Eden,” he said. “Everything is quite, quite satisfactory. And this night of all nights, you must dine with me and celebrate your—accession.” He was interrupted by a cough. “You won’t have long to wait, either,” he said, 92wiping his handkerchief across his lips, and gripping my hand with his long bony claw that was disengaged. “Certainly not very long to wait.”
His voice trembled with emotion. “Everything is great, Mr. Eden,” he said. “Everything is really, really great. And on a night like this, you absolutely must have dinner with me to celebrate your—rise to power.” He was cut off by a cough. “You won’t have to wait long, either,” he said, 92wiping his handkerchief across his lips and gripping my hand with his long, bony fingers that were free. “Definitely not much longer to wait.”
We went into the street and called a cab. I remember every incident of that drive vividly, the swift, easy motion, the vivid contrast of gas, and oil, and electric light, the crowds of people in the streets, the place in Regent Street to which we went, and the sumptuous dinner we were served there. I was disconcerted at first by the well-dressed waiters’ glances at my rough clothes, bothered by the stones of the olives, but as the champagne warmed my blood, my confidence revived. At first the old man talked of himself. He had already told me his name in the cab; he was Egbert Elvesham, the great philosopher, whose name I had known since I was a lad at school. It seemed incredible to me that this man, whose intelligence had so early dominated mine, this great abstraction, should suddenly realise itself as this decrepit, familiar figure. I daresay every young fellow who has suddenly fallen among celebrities has felt something of my disappointment. He told me now of the future that the feeble streams of his life would presently leave dry for me, houses, copyrights, investments; I had never suspected that philosophers were so rich. He watched me drink and eat with a touch of envy. “What a capacity for living you have!” 93he said; and then, with a sigh, a sigh of relief I could have thought it, “It will not be long.”
We stepped out into the street and called a cab. I remember every detail of that ride clearly: the smooth, easy movement, the bright mix of gas, oil, and electric light, the crowds of people on the streets, the spot on Regent Street where we went, and the lavish dinner we had there. At first, I felt a bit out of place with the well-dressed waiters eyeing my rough clothes and was annoyed by the olive pits, but as the champagne warmed me up, my confidence came back. Initially, the old man talked about himself. He had already told me his name in the cab; he was Egbert Elvesham, the renowned philosopher, a name I'd known since I was a kid in school. It seemed unbelievable to me that this man, whose intelligence had so easily overshadowed mine, this grand idea, could be reduced to this frail, familiar figure. I guess every young person who suddenly finds themselves in the presence of celebrities feels a bit of what I felt—disappointment. He now shared with me about the future that the dwindling streams of his life would soon leave behind for me: properties, copyrights, investments; I had never realized philosophers could be so wealthy. He watched me eat and drink with a hint of envy. “You have such a knack for living!” he remarked; then, with a sigh that could almost be interpreted as relief, he added, “It won’t be long.” 93
“Ay,” said I, my head swimming now with champagne; “I have a future perhaps—of a passing agreeable sort, thanks to you. I shall now have the honour of your name. But you have a past. Such a past as is worth all my future.”
“Yeah,” I said, my head spinning from the champagne; “I might have a future—probably a nice one, thanks to you. I’ll now have the honor of your name. But you have a past. A past that’s worth more than my entire future.”
He shook his head and smiled, as I thought, with half-sad appreciation of my flattering admiration. “That future,” he said, “would you in truth change it?” The waiter came with liqueurs. “You will not perhaps mind taking my name, taking my position, but would you indeed—willingly—take my years?”
He shook his head and smiled, as I assumed, with a mix of sadness and appreciation for my flattering admiration. “That future,” he said, “would you really want to change it?” The waiter arrived with liqueurs. “You might not mind taking my name or my position, but would you truly—willingly—take my years?”
“With your achievements,” said I, gallantly.
“With your achievements,” I said, confidently.
He smiled again. “Kummel—both,” he said to the waiter, and turned his attention to a little paper packet he had taken from his pocket. “This hour,” said he, “this after-dinner hour is the hour of small things. Here is a scrap of my unpublished wisdom.” He opened the packet with his shaking yellow fingers, and showed a little pinkish powder on the paper. “This,” said he—“well, you must guess what it is. But Kummel—put but a dash of this powder in it—is Himmel.” His large greyish eyes watched mine with an inscrutable expression.
He smiled again. “Kummel—both,” he said to the waiter, then turned his attention to a small paper packet he had taken from his pocket. “This hour,” he said, “this after-dinner hour is the hour of small things. Here’s a piece of my unpublished wisdom.” He opened the packet with his shaky yellow fingers and revealed a small amount of pinkish powder on the paper. “This,” he said—“well, you’ll have to guess what it is. But Kummel—just add a dash of this powder to it—it’s heavenly.” His large grayish eyes watched mine with an unreadable expression.
It was a bit of a shock to me to find this great teacher gave his mind to the flavour of liqueurs. 94However, I feigned a great interest in his weakness, for I was drunk enough for such small sycophancy.
It surprised me to discover that this amazing teacher was really into the taste of liqueurs. 94Still, I pretended to be very interested in his little quirk, since I was tipsy enough for such minor flattery.
He parted the powder between the little glasses, and, rising suddenly, with a strange, unexpected dignity, held out his hand towards me. I imitated his action, and the glasses rang. “To a quick succession,” said he, and raised his glass towards his lips.
He divided the powder between the small glasses, and, standing up abruptly with an odd, surprising dignity, extended his hand towards me. I copied his movement, and the glasses clinked. “To a quick succession,” he said, lifting his glass to his lips.
“Not that,” I said hastily. “Not that.”
“Not that,” I said quickly. “Not that.”
He paused, with the liqueur at the level of his chin, and his eyes blazing into mine.
He paused, holding the liqueur up to his chin, with his eyes locked onto mine.
“To a long life,” said I.
"Here’s to a long life," I said.
He hesitated. “To a long life,” said he, with a sudden bark of laughter, and with eyes fixed on one another we tilted the little glasses. His eyes looked straight into mine, and as I drained the stuff off, I felt a curiously intense sensation. The first touch of it set my brain in a furious tumult; I seemed to feel an actual physical stirring in my skull, and a seething humming filled my ears. I did not notice the flavour in my mouth, the aroma that filled my throat; I saw only the grey intensity of his gaze that burnt into mine. The draught, the mental confusion, the noise and stirring in my head, seemed to last an interminable time. Curious vague impressions of half-forgotten things danced and vanished on the edge of my consciousness. At last he broke the spell. With a sudden explosive sigh he put down his glass.
He hesitated. “To a long life,” he said with a sudden laugh, and as we looked into each other's eyes, we raised our small glasses. His gaze bore into mine, and as I gulped down the drink, I felt an oddly intense sensation. The first sip sent my mind into a wild chaos; I could actually feel something stirring inside my head, and a loud buzzing filled my ears. I didn’t notice the taste in my mouth or the smell that lingered in my throat; all I saw was the intense grey of his eyes burning into mine. The drink, the confusion, the noise and turmoil in my head seemed to stretch on forever. Strange, faded memories danced and disappeared at the edges of my awareness. Finally, he broke the moment. With a sudden, explosive sigh, he set down his glass.
95“Well?” he said.
“Well?” he asked.
“It’s glorious,” said I, though I had not tasted the stuff.
“It’s amazing,” I said, even though I hadn’t tried it.
My head was spinning. I sat down. My brain was chaos. Then my perception grew clear and minute as though I saw things in a concave mirror. His manner seemed to have changed into something nervous and hasty. He pulled out his watch and grimaced at it. “Eleven-seven! And to-night I must—Seven—twenty-five. Waterloo! I must go at once.” He called for the bill, and struggled with his coat. Officious waiters came to our assistance. In another moment I was wishing him good-bye, over the apron of a cab, and still with an absurd feeling of minute distinctness, as though—how can I express it?—I not only saw but felt through an inverted opera-glass.
My head was spinning. I sat down. My mind was a mess. Then my perception became clear and detailed, almost like I was looking through a concave mirror. His demeanor seemed to shift to something anxious and rushed. He pulled out his watch and grimaced at it. “Eleven-seven! And tonight I must—Seven—twenty-five. Waterloo! I have to go right now.” He called for the bill and struggled with his coat. Overly eager waiters rushed to help us. A moment later, I was saying goodbye to him over the side of a cab, still feeling an absurd sense of sharp clarity, as if—how can I put it?—I not only saw but felt through an inverted opera-glass.
“That stuff,” he said. He put his hand to his forehead. “I ought not to have given it to you. It will make your head split to-morrow. Wait a minute. Here.” He handed me out a little flat thing like a seidlitz-powder. “Take that in water as you are going to bed. The other thing was a drug. Not till you’re ready to go to bed, mind. It will clear your head. That’s all. One more shake—Futurus!”
“That stuff,” he said. He put his hand to his forehead. “I shouldn’t have given it to you. It’s going to make your head hurt tomorrow. Hold on a second. Here.” He handed me a small flat thing that looked like a seidlitz powder. “Take that in water right before you go to bed. The other thing was a drug. Only take it when you’re ready for bed, okay? It’ll help clear your head. That’s all. One more shake—Futurus!”
I gripped his shrivelled claw. “Good-bye,” he said, and by the droop of his eyelids I judged he too was a little under the influence of that brain-twisting cordial.
I held his withered hand tightly. “Goodbye,” he said, and by the way his eyelids sagged, I guessed he was also feeling a bit loopy from that mind-bending drink.
96He recollected something else with a start, felt in his breast-pocket, and produced another packet, this time a cylinder the size and shape of a shaving-stick. “Here,” said he. “I’d almost forgotten. Don’t open this until I come to-morrow—but take it now.”
96He suddenly remembered something else, reached into his breast pocket, and pulled out another package, this time a cylinder the size and shape of a shaving stick. “Here,” he said. “I almost forgot. Don’t open this until I come tomorrow—but take it now.”
It was so heavy that I well-nigh dropped it. “All ri’!” said I, and he grinned at me through the cab-window as the cabman flicked his horse into wakefulness. It was a white packet he had given me, with red seals at either end and along its edge. “If this isn’t money,” said I, “it’s platinum or lead.”
It was so heavy that I almost dropped it. “All right!” I said, and he grinned at me through the cab window as the driver urged his horse to wake up. It was a white package he had given me, with red seals at both ends and along its edge. “If this isn’t money,” I said, “it’s platinum or lead.”
I stuck it with elaborate care into my pocket, and with a whirling brain walked home through the Regent Street loiterers and the dark back streets beyond Portland Road. I remember the sensations of that walk very vividly, strange as they were. I was still so far myself that I could notice my strange mental state, and wonder whether this stuff I had had was opium—a drug beyond my experience. It is hard now to describe the peculiarity of my mental strangeness—mental doubling vaguely expresses it. As I was walking up Regent Street I found in my mind a queer persuasion that it was Waterloo station, and had an odd impulse to get into the Polytechnic as a man might get into a train. I put a knuckle in my eye, and it was Regent Street. How can I express it? You see a skilful actor looking 97quietly at you, he pulls a grimace, and lo!—another person. Is it too extravagant if I tell you that it seemed to me as if Regent Street had, for the moment, done that? Then, being persuaded it was Regent Street again, I was oddly muddled about some fantastic reminiscences that cropped up. “Thirty years ago,” thought I, “it was here that I quarrelled with my brother.” Then I burst out laughing, to the astonishment and encouragement of a group of night prowlers. Thirty years ago I did not exist, and never in my life had I boasted a brother. The stuff was surely liquid folly, for the poignant regret for that lost brother still clung to me. Along Portland Road the madness took another turn. I began to recall vanished shops, and to compare the street with what it used to be. Confused, troubled thinking is comprehensible enough after the drink I had taken, but what puzzled me were these curiously vivid phantasm memories that had crept into my mind, and not only the memories that had crept in, but also the memories that had slipped out. I stopped opposite Stevens’, the natural history dealer’s, and cudgelled my brains to think what he had to do with me. A ‘bus went by, and sounded exactly like the rumbling of a train. I seemed to be dipped into some dark, remote pit for the recollection. “Of course,” said I, at last, “he has promised me three frogs to-morrow. Odd I should have forgotten.”
I carefully tucked it into my pocket and walked home through the crowds on Regent Street and the dark side streets beyond Portland Road, my mind spinning. I remember that walk clearly, although it was quite strange. I was aware enough of myself to notice my odd mental state and to wonder if what I had taken was opium—a drug I had never experienced before. It’s hard to describe how weird my mind felt—“mental doubling” vaguely captures it. As I walked up Regent Street, I oddly convinced myself that I was at Waterloo Station and strangely felt the urge to enter the Polytechnic, like a person might board a train. I rubbed my eye, and it was definitely Regent Street. How can I explain it? You see a skilled actor looking quietly at you, he makes a funny face, and suddenly—he’s someone else. Is it too much to say that it felt like Regent Street had done that for a moment? Then, once I was sure it was Regent Street again, I became strangely confused by some bizarre memories that popped up. “Thirty years ago,” I thought, “I had a fight with my brother here.” Then I burst out laughing, surprising and amusing a group of night owls. Thirty years ago, I didn’t exist, and I’ve never had a brother. That stuff was surely liquid madness because I still felt an intense longing for that lost brother. As I walked along Portland Road, my insanity took another twist. I started recalling old shops and comparing the street to how it used to be. It makes sense to have confused, troubled thoughts after what I had drunk, but what puzzled me were these strangely vivid phantom memories that had slipped into my mind, along with the memories that had faded away. I stopped in front of Stevens’ natural history shop and racked my brain to figure out what he had to do with me. A bus went by, sounding just like a rumbling train. It felt like I was searching in some dark, distant pit for the memory. “Oh, right,” I finally said, “he promised me three frogs tomorrow. How odd that I forgot.”
98Do they still show children dissolving views? In those I remember one view would begin like a faint ghost, and grow and oust another. In just that way it seemed to me that a ghostly set of new sensations was struggling with those of my ordinary self.
98Do they still show kids fading images? I remember one image starting off as a faint ghost and then growing, pushing another one out of the way. It felt like a ghostly mix of new sensations was battling against my usual self.
I went on through Euston Road to Tottenham Court Road, puzzled, and a little frightened, and scarcely noticed the unusual way I was taking, for commonly I used to cut through the intervening network of back streets. I turned into University Street, to discover that I had forgotten my number. Only by a strong effort did I recall 11A, and even then it seemed to me that it was a thing some forgotten person had told me. I tried to steady my mind by recalling the incidents of the dinner, and for the life of me I could conjure up no picture of my host’s face; I saw him only as a shadowy outline, as one might see oneself reflected in a window through which one was looking. In his place, however, I had a curious exterior vision of myself sitting at a table, flushed, bright-eyed, and talkative.
I walked down Euston Road to Tottenham Court Road, feeling confused and a bit scared, hardly noticing the unusual route I was taking since I usually went through the maze of back streets. I turned onto University Street and realized I’d forgotten my number. It took a lot of effort to remember that it was 11A, and even then, it felt like something a distant person had told me. I tried to calm my thoughts by recalling the dinner, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t picture my host’s face; all I saw was a blurry outline, like seeing myself reflected in a window. Instead, I had a strange vision of myself sitting at the table, flushed, bright-eyed, and chatty.
“I must take this other powder,” said I. “This is getting impossible.”
“I need to take this other powder,” I said. “This is becoming unbearable.”
I tried the wrong side of the hall for my candle and the matches, and had a doubt of which landing my room might be on. “I’m drunk,” I said, “that’s certain,” and blundered needlessly on the staircase to sustain the proposition.
I tried the wrong side of the hall for my candle and the matches, and I wasn't sure which landing my room was on. “I’m definitely drunk,” I said, and stumbled clumsily on the staircase to prove my point.
99At the first glance my room seemed unfamiliar. “What rot!” I said, and stared about me. I seemed to bring myself back by the effort, and the odd phantasmal quality passed into the concrete familiar. There was the old glass still, with my notes on the albumens stuck in the corner of the frame, my old everyday suit of clothes pitched about the floor. And yet it was not so real after all. I felt an idiotic persuasion trying to creep into my mind, as it were, that I was in a railway carriage in a train just stopping, that I was peering out of the window at some unknown station. I gripped the bed-rail firmly to reassure myself. “It’s clairvoyance, perhaps,” I said. “I must write to the Psychical Research Society.”
99At first glance, my room felt unfamiliar. “What nonsense!” I said, looking around. I pushed myself to focus, and the strange, dream-like quality faded into something recognizable. There was the old glass still sitting there, with my notes on the albumens stuck in the corner of the frame, and my old everyday clothes scattered on the floor. And yet, it still didn’t feel completely real. I felt an absurd notion creeping into my mind, as if I were in a train carriage that was just stopping, peering out at some unknown station. I held onto the bed rail tightly to calm myself. “Maybe it’s clairvoyance,” I said. “I should write to the Psychical Research Society.”
I put the rouleau on my dressing-table, sat on my bed and began to take off my boots. It was as if the picture of my present sensations was painted over some other picture that was trying to show through. “Curse it!” said I; “my wits are going, or am I in two places at once?” Half-undressed, I tossed the powder into a glass and drank it off. It effervesced, and became a fluorescent amber colour. Before I was in bed my mind was already tranquillised. I felt the pillow at my cheek, and thereupon I must have fallen asleep.
I placed the tube on my dresser, sat on my bed, and started taking off my boots. It felt like my current feelings were layered over something else that was trying to come through. “Damn it!” I exclaimed; “am I losing my mind, or am I in two places at once?” Half-undressed, I poured the powder into a glass and downed it. It fizzed and turned a bright amber color. By the time I got into bed, my mind was already calming down. I felt the pillow against my cheek, and that’s when I must have drifted off to sleep.
I awoke abruptly out of a dream of strange beasts, and found myself lying on my back. Probably every one knows that dismal, emotional 100dream from which one escapes, awake indeed, but strangely cowed. There was a curious taste in my mouth, a tired feeling in my limbs, a sense of cutaneous discomfort. I lay with my head motionless on my pillow, expecting that my feeling of strangeness and terror would probably pass away, and that I should then doze off again to sleep. But instead of that, my uncanny sensations increased. At first I could perceive nothing wrong about me. There was a faint light in the room, so faint that it was the very next thing to darkness, and the furniture stood out in it as vague blots of absolute darkness. I stared with my eyes just over the bedclothes.
I woke up suddenly from a dream about strange creatures and found myself lying on my back. Everyone probably knows that unsettling, emotional dream you escape from; you’re awake but still oddly shaken. There was a weird taste in my mouth, a tired feeling in my limbs, and an uncomfortable sensation on my skin. I lay there with my head still on the pillow, thinking that this feeling of strangeness and fear would fade away, and I’d drift back into sleep. But instead, my weird feelings intensified. At first, I couldn’t see anything wrong. There was a dim light in the room, so faint that it was almost dark, and the furniture looked like vague patches of complete blackness. I stared with my eyes just over the bedcovers.
It came into my mind that some one had entered the room to rob me of my rouleau of money, but after lying for some moments, breathing regularly to simulate sleep, I realised this was mere fancy. Nevertheless, the uneasy assurance of something wrong kept fast hold of me. With an effort I raised my head from the pillow, and peered about me at the dark. What it was I could not conceive. I looked at the dim shapes around me, the greater and lesser darknesses that indicated curtains, table, fireplace, bookshelves, and so forth. Then I began to perceive something unfamiliar in the forms of the darkness. Had the bed turned round? Yonder should be the bookshelves, and something shrouded and pallid rose there, something that would not answer to 101the bookshelves, however I looked at it. It was far too big to be my shirt thrown on a chair.
It crossed my mind that someone had come into the room to steal my roll of money, but after lying still for a few moments, breathing steadily to fake sleep, I realized it was just my imagination. Still, the nagging feeling that something was off wouldn’t let go of me. With effort, I lifted my head from the pillow and squinted into the darkness around me. I couldn’t figure out what it was. I looked at the dim shapes surrounding me, the varying shadows that suggested curtains, a table, a fireplace, bookshelves, and so on. Then I started to notice something strange in the shapes of the darkness. Had the bed somehow turned around? The bookshelves should be over there, but something pale and shrouded rose up in that spot, something that didn’t match the bookshelves no matter how I looked at it. It was way too big to be my shirt tossed on a chair.
Overcoming a childish terror, I threw back the bedclothes and thrust my leg out of bed. Instead of coming out of my truckle-bed upon the floor, I found my foot scarcely reached the edge of the mattress. I made another step, as it were, and sat up on the edge of the bed. By the side of my bed should be the candle, and the matches upon the broken chair. I put out my hand and touched—nothing. I waved my hand in the darkness, and it came against some heavy hanging, soft and thick in texture, which gave a rustling noise at my touch. I grasped this and pulled it; it appeared to be a curtain suspended over the head of my bed.
Overcoming a childish fear, I threw back the blanket and swung my leg out of bed. Instead of stepping onto the floor from my small bed, I found that my foot barely reached the edge of the mattress. I tried again and sat up at the edge of the bed. I knew the candle and matches were supposed to be on the broken chair next to me. I reached out and touched—nothing. I waved my hand in the darkness and felt something heavy and soft, thick in texture, that made a rustling sound when I touched it. I grabbed it and pulled; it seemed to be a curtain hanging above my bed.
I was now thoroughly awake, and beginning to realise that I was in a strange room. I was puzzled. I tried to recall the overnight circumstances, and I found them now, curiously enough, vivid in my memory: the supper, my reception of the little packages, my wonder whether I was intoxicated, my slow undressing, the coolness to my flushed face of my pillow. I felt a sudden distrust. Was that last night, or the night before? At any rate, this room was strange to me, and I could not imagine how I had got into it. The dim, pallid outline was growing paler, and I perceived it was a window, with the dark shape of an oval toilet-glass against the weak intimation of the 102dawn that filtered through the blind. I stood up, and was surprised by a curious feeling of weakness and unsteadiness. With trembling hands outstretched, I walked slowly towards the window, getting, nevertheless, a bruise on the knee from a chair by the way. I fumbled round the glass, which was large, with handsome brass sconces, to find the blind-cord. I could not find any. By chance I took hold of the tassel, and with the click of a spring the blind ran up.
I was completely awake now and starting to realize I was in a strange room. It puzzled me. I tried to remember what had happened the night before, and, oddly enough, the details came back to me clearly: the dinner, receiving the small packages, wondering if I was drunk, slowly getting undressed, the cool feel of my pillow against my warm face. Suddenly, I felt a wave of distrust. Was it last night or the night before? Either way, this room was unfamiliar to me, and I couldn’t figure out how I ended up here. The dim, pale outline was getting fainter, and I realized it was a window, with the dark shape of an oval mirror against the weak light of dawn that seeped through the blind. I got up and was surprised by a strange sense of weakness and unsteadiness. With shaky hands outstretched, I walked slowly toward the window, but I ended up bumping my knee on a chair along the way. I fumbled around the glass, which was large and had beautiful brass sconces, trying to find the cord for the blind. I couldn’t locate it. By chance, I grabbed the tassel, and with the click of a spring, the blind went up.
I found myself looking out upon a scene that was altogether strange to me. The night was overcast, and through the flocculent grey of the heaped clouds there filtered a faint half-light of dawn. Just at the edge of the sky, the cloud-canopy had a blood-red rim. Below, everything was dark and indistinct, dim hills in the distance, a vague mass of buildings running up into pinnacles, trees like spilt ink, and below the window a tracery of black bushes and pale grey paths. It was so unfamiliar that for the moment I thought myself still dreaming. I felt the toilet-table; it appeared to be made of some polished wood, and was rather elaborately furnished—there were little cut-glass bottles and a brush upon it. There was also a queer little object, horse-shoe-shaped it felt, with smooth, hard projections, lying in a saucer. I could find no matches nor candlestick.
I found myself looking out at a scene that was completely unfamiliar to me. The night was cloudy, and through the thick gray of the piled-up clouds, a faint light of dawn was filtering through. Right at the edge of the sky, the clouds had a blood-red outline. Below, everything was dark and unclear—dim hills in the distance, a vague mass of buildings rising into points, trees like spilled ink, and below the window, a pattern of black bushes and pale gray paths. It was so strange that for a moment I thought I was still dreaming. I felt the vanity table; it seemed to be made of polished wood and was rather elaborately decorated—there were small cut-glass bottles and a brush on it. There was also a strange little object that felt horse-shoe-shaped, with smooth, hard bumps, sitting in a saucer. I couldn't find any matches or a candlestick.
I turned my eyes to the room again. Now the blind was up, faint spectres of its furnishing came 103out of the darkness. There was a huge curtained bed, and the fireplace at its foot had a large white mantel with something of the shimmer of marble.
I looked back at the room. The blinds were now up, and the faint outlines of the furniture emerged from the darkness. There was a big curtained bed, and at its foot, the fireplace had a large white mantel that glimmered like marble. 103
I leant against the toilet-table, shut my eyes and opened them again, and tried to think. The whole thing was far too real for dreaming. I was inclined to imagine there was still some hiatus in my memory, as a consequence of my draught of that strange liqueur; that I had come into my inheritance perhaps, and suddenly lost my recollection of everything since my good fortune had been announced. Perhaps if I waited a little, things would be clearer to me again. Yet my dinner with old Elvesham was now singularly vivid and recent. The champagne, the observant waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs—I could have staked my soul it all happened a few hours ago.
I leaned against the bathroom counter, closed my eyes, opened them again, and tried to think. Everything felt way too real to be a dream. I started to think there might still be a gap in my memory because of that strange liqueur I drank; maybe I had inherited something and suddenly forgot everything since my good luck was announced. Perhaps if I waited a bit, things would become clearer to me again. But my dinner with old Elvesham was still pretty vivid and fresh in my mind. The champagne, the attentive waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs—I could have sworn it all happened just a few hours ago.
And then occurred a thing so trivial and yet so terrible to me that I shiver now to think of that moment. I spoke aloud. I said, “How the devil did I get here?”—And the voice was not my own.
And then something so small and yet so horrifying happened that I shiver now just thinking about that moment. I spoke out loud. I said, “How the hell did I get here?”—And the voice wasn't mine.
It was not my own, it was thin, the articulation was slurred, the resonance of my facial bones was different. Then, to reassure myself, I ran one hand over the other, and felt loose folds of skin, the bony laxity of age. “Surely,” I said, in that horrible voice that had somehow established itself in my throat, “surely this thing is a dream!” 104Almost as quickly as if I did it involuntarily, I thrust my fingers into my mouth. My teeth had gone. My finger-tips ran on the flaccid surface of an even row of shrivelled gums. I was sick with dismay and disgust.
It wasn’t mine; it felt thin, my speech was slurred, and the shape of my facial bones had changed. To calm myself, I ran one hand over the other and felt loose skin, the bony slackness of age. “This can’t be real,” I said, in that awful voice that had somehow taken residence in my throat, “this has to be a dream!” 104Almost instinctively, I shoved my fingers into my mouth. My teeth were gone. My fingertips brushed against the soft surface of a row of shriveled gums. I felt sick with shock and revulsion.
I felt then a passionate desire to see myself, to realise at once in its full horror the ghastly change that had come upon me. I tottered to the mantel, and felt along it for matches. As I did so, a barking cough sprang up in my throat, and I clutched the thick flannel nightdress I found about me. There were no matches there, and I suddenly realised that my extremities were cold. Sniffing and coughing, whimpering, a little, perhaps, I fumbled back to bed. “It is surely a dream,” I whimpered to myself as I clambered back, “surely a dream.” It was a senile repetition. I pulled the bedclothes over my shoulders, over my ears, I thrust my withered hand under the pillow, and determined to compose myself to sleep. Of course it was a dream. In the morning the dream would be over, and I should wake up strong and vigorous again to my youth and studies. I shut my eyes, breathed regularly, and, finding myself wakeful, began to count slowly through the powers of three.
I then felt a strong urge to see myself, to fully grasp the terrible change that had happened to me. I stumbled over to the mantel and searched for matches. As I did that, a barking cough emerged from my throat, and I grabbed the thick flannel nightdress I had on. There were no matches in sight, and I suddenly noticed that my fingers were cold. Sniffing and coughing, maybe whimpering a bit, I fumbled my way back to bed. “It must be a dream,” I said to myself as I climbed back in, “just a dream.” It was a repetitive thought. I pulled the blankets over my shoulders and ears, tucked my withered hand under the pillow, and decided to try to fall asleep. Of course, it was a dream. In the morning, it would all be over, and I would wake up strong and full of life again, ready for my youth and studies. I closed my eyes, breathed steadily, and, feeling awake, started to count slowly by threes.
But the thing I desired would not come. I could not get to sleep. And the persuasion of the inexorable reality of the change that had happened to me grew steadily. Presently I found 105myself with my eyes wide open, the powers of three forgotten, and my skinny fingers upon my shrivelled gums. I was, indeed, suddenly and abruptly, an old man. I had in some unaccountable manner fallen through my life and come to old age, in some way I had been cheated of all the best of my life, of love, of struggle, of strength, and hope. I grovelled into the pillow and tried to persuade myself that such hallucination was possible. Imperceptibly, steadily, the dawn grew clearer.
But the thing I wanted wouldn’t come. I couldn’t get to sleep. And the reality of the change that had happened to me became more undeniable. Eventually, I found myself lying there with my eyes wide open, completely forgetting the powers of three, my bony fingers resting on my withered gums. I was suddenly and abruptly an old man. Somehow, I had fallen through my life and reached old age, as if I’d been robbed of all the best parts of my life—love, struggle, strength, and hope. I buried my face in the pillow and tried to convince myself that such a hallucination was possible. Gradually, steadily, the dawn started to brighten.
At last, despairing of further sleep, I sat up in bed and looked about me. A chill twilight rendered the whole chamber visible. It was spacious and well-furnished, better furnished than any room I had ever slept in before. A candle and matches became dimly visible upon a little pedestal in a recess. I threw back the bedclothes, and, shivering with the rawness of the early morning, albeit it was summer-time, I got out and lit the candle. Then, trembling horribly, so that the extinguisher rattled on its spike, I tottered to the glass and saw—Elvesham’s face! It was none the less horrible because I had already dimly feared as much. He had already seemed physically weak and pitiful to me, but seen now, dressed only in a coarse flannel nightdress that fell apart and showed the stringy neck, seen now as my own body, I cannot describe its desolate decrepitude. The hollow cheeks, the straggling tail of dirty grey hair, the rheumy bleared eyes, the quivering, 106shrivelled lips, the lower displaying a gleam of the pink interior lining, and those horrible dark gums showing. You who are mind and body together, at your natural years, cannot imagine what this fiendish imprisonment meant to me. To be young and full of the desire and energy of youth, and to be caught, and presently to be crushed in this tottering ruin of a body....
At last, giving up on getting more sleep, I sat up in bed and looked around. A chilly twilight made the entire room visible. It was spacious and well-furnished, better than any room I had ever slept in before. A candle and matches were faintly visible on a small pedestal in a nook. I threw back the blankets and, shivering from the coldness of the early morning, even though it was summer, I got out and lit the candle. Then, shaking uncontrollably, so much that the candle snuffer rattled on its spike, I stumbled to the mirror and saw—Elvesham’s face! It was no less horrifying because I had already suspected as much. He had already seemed physically weak and pitiful to me, but now, dressed only in a rough flannel nightgown that hung loosely, exposing his thin neck, the sight of what felt like my own body was beyond description in its sad decline. The hollow cheeks, the messy gray hair, the watery, bleary eyes, the trembling, shriveled lips—with the lower one revealing a hint of the pink inner lining—and those terrible dark gums visible. You who are a healthy mind and body, at your natural age, cannot imagine what this torturous confinement meant to me. To be young and filled with the desire and energy of youth, yet to be trapped and soon crushed in this decaying wreck of a body...
But I wander from the course of my story. For some time I must have been stunned at this change that had come upon me. It was daylight when I did so far gather myself together as to think. In some inexplicable way I had been changed, though how, short of magic, the thing had been done, I could not say. And as I thought, the diabolical ingenuity of Elvesham came home to me. It seemed plain to me that as I found myself in his, so he must be in possession of my body, of my strength, that is, and my future. But how to prove it? Then, as I thought, the thing became so incredible, even to me, that my mind reeled, and I had to pinch myself, to feel my toothless gums, to see myself in the glass, and touch the things about me, before I could steady myself to face the facts again. Was all life hallucination? Was I indeed Elvesham, and he me? Had I been dreaming of Eden overnight? Was there any Eden? But if I was Elvesham, I should remember where I was on the previous morning, the name of the town in which I lived, what happened 107before the dream began. I struggled with my thoughts. I recalled the queer doubleness of my memories overnight. But now my mind was clear. Not the ghost of any memories but those proper to Eden could I raise.
But I’m getting off track with my story. For a while, I must have been shocked by this change that had happened to me. It was daytime when I finally managed to collect my thoughts. In some strange way, I had been transformed, though I couldn’t say how, except for some kind of magic. And as I thought about it, the clever trickery of Elvesham hit me. It became clear to me that just as I found myself in his situation, he must be taking over my body, my strength, and my future. But how could I prove it? Then, as I pondered this, it became so unbelievable, even to me, that my mind spun, and I had to pinch myself, feel my toothless gums, look at myself in the mirror, and touch the things around me before I could steady myself to confront the facts again. Was all of life just an illusion? Was I really Elvesham, and was he me? Had I been dreaming of Eden all night? Did Eden even exist? But if I was Elvesham, I should remember where I was the previous morning, the name of the town I lived in, and what happened 107 before the dream started. I grappled with my thoughts. I remembered the strange doubleness of my memories from the night before. But now my mind was clear. I could only recall memories proper to Eden, nothing else.
“This way lies insanity!” I cried in my piping voice. I staggered to my feet, dragged my feeble, heavy limbs to the washhand-stand, and plunged my grey head into a basin of cold water. Then, towelling myself, I tried again. It was no good. I felt beyond all question that I was indeed Eden, not Elvesham. But Eden in Elvesham’s body.
"This path leads to madness!" I shouted in my high-pitched voice. I got unsteadily to my feet, pulled my weak, heavy limbs to the sink, and plunged my gray head into a basin of cold water. After drying myself off, I tried again. It didn't work. I felt absolutely certain that I was actually Eden, not Elvesham. But Eden in Elvesham's body.
Had I been a man of any other age, I might have given myself up to my fate as one enchanted. But in these sceptical days miracles do not pass current. Here was some trick of psychology. What a drug and a steady stare could do, a drug and a steady stare, or some similar treatment, could surely undo. Men have lost their memories before. But to exchange memories as one does umbrellas! I laughed. Alas! not a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, senile titter. I could have fancied old Elvesham laughing at my plight, and a gust of petulant anger, unusual to me, swept across my feelings. I began dressing eagerly in the clothes I found lying about on the floor, and only realised when I was dressed that it was an evening suit I had assumed. I opened the wardrobe and found some more ordinary clothes, a pair of plaid trousers, and an old-fashioned dressing-gown. I put 108a venerable smoking-cap on my venerable head, and, coughing a little from my exertions, tottered out upon the landing.
Had I been a man of any other era, I might have surrendered to my fate like someone under a spell. But in these skeptical times, miracles aren't taken seriously. This was just some kind of psychological trick. What a drug and a steady gaze could achieve, a drug and a steady gaze, or some similar method, could definitely reverse. People have lost their memories before. But to trade memories like one does umbrellas? I laughed. Sadly, it wasn't a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, old-man chuckle. I could almost picture old Elvesham laughing at my situation, and an unusual surge of petulant anger swept over me. I started eagerly putting on the clothes I found scattered on the floor, and only realized when I was dressed that I had put on an evening suit. I opened the wardrobe and found some more casual clothes, a pair of plaid pants, and an old-fashioned robe. I placed a vintage smoking cap on my aged head and, coughing a bit from my efforts, wobbled out onto the landing.
It was then, perhaps, a quarter to six, and the blinds were closely drawn and the house quite silent. The landing was a spacious one, a broad, richly-carpeted staircase went down into the darkness of the hall below, and before me a door ajar showed me a writing-desk, a revolving bookcase, the back of a study chair, and a fine array of bound books, shelf upon shelf.
It was around a quarter to six, and the blinds were tightly shut, making the house completely quiet. The landing was spacious, with a wide, plush carpeted staircase leading down into the dark hall below. In front of me, a slightly open door revealed a writing desk, a revolving bookcase, the back of a study chair, and a beautiful collection of bound books, stacked shelf after shelf.
“My study,” I mumbled, and walked across the landing. Then at the sound of my voice a thought struck me, and I went back to the bedroom and put in the set of false teeth. They slipped in with the ease of old habit. “That’s better,” said I, gnashing them, and so returned to the study.
“My study,” I mumbled, and walked across the landing. Then, at the sound of my voice, a thought hit me, and I went back to the bedroom and put in the set of dentures. They slid in effortlessly, like an old habit. “That’s better,” I said, grinding them together, and then returned to the study.
The drawers of the writing-desk were locked. Its revolving top was also locked. I could see no indications of the keys, and there were none in the pockets of my trousers. I shuffled back at once to the bedroom, and went through the dress suit, and afterwards the pockets of all the garments I could find. I was very eager, and one might have imagined that burglars had been at work, to see my room when I had done. Not only were there no keys to be found, but not a coin, nor a scrap of paper—save only the receipted bill of the overnight dinner.
The drawers of the writing desk were locked. Its revolving top was also locked. I couldn’t see any sign of the keys, and there weren't any in my pants pockets. I quickly shuffled back to the bedroom and searched through the dress suit, and then through the pockets of all the clothes I could find. I was really eager, and you might have thought a burglar had been through my room by the time I was done. Not only could I not find any keys, but there wasn't a single coin or even a scrap of paper—just the receipted bill from last night's dinner.
A curious weariness asserted itself. I sat down 109and stared at the garments flung here and there, their pockets turned inside out. My first frenzy had already flickered out. Every moment I was beginning to realise the immense intelligence of the plans of my enemy, to see more and more clearly the hopelessness of my position. With an effort I rose and hurried hobbling into the study again. On the staircase was a housemaid pulling up the blinds. She stared, I think, at the expression of my face. I shut the door of the study behind me, and, seizing a poker, began an attack upon the desk. That is how they found me. The cover of the desk was split, the lock smashed, the letters torn out of the pigeon-holes and tossed about the room. In my senile rage I had flung about the pens and other such light stationery, and overturned the ink. Moreover, a large vase upon the mantel had got broken—I do not know how. I could find no cheque-book, no money, no indications of the slightest use for the recovery of my body. I was battering madly at the drawers, when the butler, backed by two women-servants, intruded upon me.
A strange tiredness came over me. I sat down 109 and stared at the clothes scattered everywhere, their pockets turned inside out. My initial burst of energy had already faded. With each passing moment, I was realizing just how clever my enemy’s plans were and seeing more clearly the hopelessness of my situation. With some effort, I got up and hurried, limping, back into the study. On the staircase, I saw a housemaid pulling up the blinds. She stared, I think, at the look on my face. I shut the study door behind me and, grabbing a poker, began to attack the desk. That’s how they found me. The desk's cover was split, the lock broken, the letters ripped from their cubbyholes and scattered around the room. In my furious rage, I had thrown pens and other light stationery everywhere and knocked over the ink. Additionally, a large vase on the mantel was shattered—I have no idea how that happened. I couldn't find any cheque-book, any money, or anything that would help me recover myself. I was furiously smashing at the drawers when the butler, followed by two housemaids, barged in on me.
That simply is the story of my change. No one will believe my frantic assertions. I am treated as one demented, and even at this moment I am under restraint. But I am sane, absolutely sane, and to prove it I have sat down to write this story minutely as the things happened to me. I appeal 110to the reader, whether there is any trace of insanity in the style or method of the story he has been reading. I am a young man locked away in an old man’s body. But the clear fact is incredible to every one. Naturally I appear demented to those who will not believe this, naturally I do not know the names of my secretaries, of the doctors who come to see me, of my servants and neighbours, of this town (wherever it is) where I find myself. Naturally I lose myself in my own house, and suffer inconveniences of every sort. Naturally I ask the oddest questions. Naturally I weep and cry out, and have paroxysms of despair. I have no money and no cheque-book. The bank will not recognise my signature, for I suppose that, allowing for the feeble muscles I now have, my handwriting is still Eden’s. These people about me will not let me go to the bank personally. It seems, indeed, that there is no bank in this town, and that I have an account in some part of London. It seems that Elvesham kept the name of his solicitor secret from all his household—I can ascertain nothing. Elvesham was, of course, a profound student of mental science, and all my declarations of the facts of the case merely confirm the theory that my insanity is the outcome of overmuch brooding upon psychology. Dreams of the personal identity indeed! Two days ago I was a healthy youngster, with all life before me; now I am a furious old man, unkempt, and desperate, 111and miserable, prowling about a great luxurious strange house, watched, feared, and avoided as a lunatic by every one about me. And in London is Elvesham beginning life again in a vigorous body, and with all the accumulated knowledge and wisdom of threescore and ten. He has stolen my life.
That's basically the story of my transformation. No one is going to believe my frantic claims. I'm treated like I'm insane, and even right now, I'm being restrained. But I'm completely sane, and to prove it, I've started writing this story in detail, just as everything happened to me. I ask the reader if there's any hint of madness in the style or method of the story they’ve been reading. I'm a young man trapped in an old man's body. But the obvious truth seems unbelievable to everyone. Naturally, I seem crazy to those who refuse to believe this; naturally, I don't know the names of my secretaries, the doctors who visit me, my servants, and neighbors, or even this town (wherever it is) where I find myself. Naturally, I get lost in my own house and face all sorts of inconveniences. Naturally, I ask the strangest questions. Naturally, I cry out and experience fits of despair. I have no money and no checkbook. The bank won’t accept my signature because, considering the weak muscles I have now, my handwriting is still Eden's. The people around me won’t let me go to the bank myself. It seems there’s actually no bank in this town, and I have an account somewhere in London. Apparently, Elvesham kept his lawyer’s name secret from everyone in his household—I can't find out anything. Elvesham was definitely a deep thinker in mental science, and all my statements about the situation just reinforce the idea that my insanity is a result of too much thinking about psychology. Dreams of personal identity indeed! Two days ago, I was a healthy young man with my whole life ahead of me; now I’m a wild old man, unkempt and desperate, wandering around a huge, luxurious, unfamiliar house, watched, feared, and avoided by everyone around me as if I’m a lunatic. And in London, Elvesham is starting life over in a strong body, with all the acquired knowledge and wisdom of seventy years. He has stolen my life.
What has happened I do not clearly know. In the study are volumes of manuscript notes referring chiefly to the psychology of memory, and parts of what may be either calculations or ciphers in symbols absolutely strange to me. In some passages there are indications that he was also occupied with the philosophy of mathematics. I take it he has transferred the whole of his memories, the accumulation that makes up his personality, from this old withered brain of his to mine, and, similarly, that he has transferred mine to his discarded tenement. Practically, that is, he has changed bodies. But how such a change may be possible is without the range of my philosophy. I have been a materialist for all my thinking life, but here, suddenly, is a clear case of man’s detachability from matter.
What has happened, I don't clearly know. In the study are volumes of handwritten notes mainly about the psychology of memory, along with what seems to be either calculations or codes in symbols that are totally unfamiliar to me. In some sections, there are hints that he was also looking into the philosophy of mathematics. I think he has transferred all his memories, the collection that makes up his personality, from his old, withered brain to mine, and similarly, he has transferred mine to his abandoned body. Essentially, he has switched bodies. But how such a change could be possible is beyond my understanding. I've been a materialist my whole life, but here, suddenly, is a clear example of a person's separation from matter.
One desperate experiment I am about to try. I sit writing here before putting the matter to issue. This morning, with the help of a table-knife that I had secreted at breakfast, I succeeded in breaking open a fairly obvious secret drawer in this wrecked writing-desk. I discovered nothing 112save a little green glass phial containing a white powder. Round the neck of the phial was a label, and thereon was written this one word, “Release.” This may be—is most probably, poison. I can understand Elvesham placing poison in my way, and I should be sure that it was his intention so to get rid of the only living witness against him, were it not for this careful concealment. The man has practically solved the problem of immortality. Save for the spite of chance, he will live in my body until it has aged, and then, again, throwing that aside, he will assume some other victim’s youth and strength. When one remembers his heartlessness, it is terrible to think of the ever-growing experience, that—How long has he been leaping from body to body? But I tire of writing. The powder appears to be soluble in water. The taste is not unpleasant.
I'm about to try a desperate experiment. I sit here writing before I take action. This morning, with the help of a table knife I had hidden at breakfast, I managed to open an obvious secret drawer in this broken writing desk. I found nothing except a small green glass vial containing a white powder. There was a label around the neck of the vial, and it had just one word written on it: “Release.” This might be—most likely is—poison. I can see Elvesham putting poison in my path, and I would be sure this was his plan to get rid of the only living witness against him, if it weren't for this careful concealment. The man has practically achieved immortality. Unless fate intervenes, he’ll live in my body until it ages, and then, tossing that aside, he’ll take on another victim’s youth and strength. Considering his heartlessness, it’s frightening to think of the ever-growing experience he’s gaining—How long has he been jumping from body to body? But I’m getting tired of writing. The powder seems to dissolve in water. The taste isn’t unpleasant.
There the narrative found upon Mr. Elvesham’s desk ends. His dead body lay between the desk and the chair. The latter had been pushed back, probably by his last convulsions. The story was written in pencil, and in a crazy hand, quite unlike his usual minute characters. There remain only two curious facts to record. Indisputably there was some connection between Eden and Elvesham, since the whole of Elvesham’s property was bequeathed to the young man. But he never 113inherited. When Elvesham committed suicide, Eden was, strangely enough, already dead. Twenty-four hours before, he had been knocked down by a cab and killed instantly, at the crowded crossing at the intersection of Gower Street and Euston Road. So that the only human being who could have thrown light upon this fantastic narrative is beyond the reach of questions. Without further comment I leave this extraordinary matter to the reader’s individual judgment.
There the narrative found on Mr. Elvesham’s desk ends. His lifeless body lay between the desk and the chair. The chair had been pushed back, likely by his last convulsions. The story was written in pencil, in a frantic hand, quite different from his usual small, precise letters. There are only two strange facts to note. Without a doubt, there was some connection between Eden and Elvesham, as Elvesham left all his property to the young man. But he never inherited. When Elvesham took his own life, Eden was, oddly enough, already dead. Twenty-four hours earlier, he had been struck by a cab and killed instantly at the busy intersection of Gower Street and Euston Road. So the only person who could have shed light on this bizarre narrative is no longer available for questioning. Without further comment, I leave this extraordinary matter to the reader’s own judgment.
THE STOLEN BACILLUS
“This again,” said the Bacteriologist, slipping a glass slide under the microscope, “is a preparation of the celebrated Bacillus of cholera—the cholera germ.”
“This again,” said the Bacteriologist, sliding a glass slide under the microscope, “is a sample of the famous cholera bacillus—the cholera germ.”
The pale-faced man peered down the microscope. He was evidently not accustomed to that kind of thing, and held a limp white hand over his disengaged eye. “I see very little,” he said.
The pale-faced man looked through the microscope. He clearly wasn’t used to this and held a limp white hand over his other eye. “I see very little,” he said.
“Touch this screw,” said the Bacteriologist; “perhaps the microscope is out of focus for you. Eyes vary so much. Just the fraction of a turn this way or that.”
“Touch this screw,” said the Bacteriologist; “maybe the microscope is out of focus for you. Eyes can vary a lot. Just a tiny turn this way or that.”
“Ah! now I see,” said the visitor. “Not so very much to see, after all. Little streaks and shreds of pink. And yet those little particles, those mere atomies, might multiply and devastate a city! Wonderful!”
“Ah! now I get it,” said the visitor. “It’s not really much to look at, after all. Just small streaks and bits of pink. And yet those tiny particles, those mere specks, could multiply and destroy a city! Amazing!”
He stood up, and releasing the glass slip from the microscope, held it in his hand towards the window. “Scarcely visible,” he said, scrutinising the preparation. He hesitated. “Are these—alive? Are they dangerous now?”
He stood up and took the glass slide out of the microscope, holding it towards the window. “Barely visible,” he said, examining the sample closely. He paused. “Are these—alive? Are they dangerous now?”
“Those have been stained and killed,” said the Bacteriologist. “I wish, for my own part, we 115could kill and stain every one of them in the universe.”
“Those have been stained and killed,” said the Bacteriologist. “I wish, for my part, we could kill and stain every last one of them in the universe.”
“I suppose,” the pale man said with a slight smile, “that you scarcely care to have such things about you in the living—in the active state?”
“I guess,” the pale man said with a faint smile, “that you probably don’t want to have such things around you while you’re alive—in the active state?”
“On the contrary, we are obliged to,” said the Bacteriologist. “Here, for instance—” He walked across the room and took up one of several sealed tubes. “Here is the living thing. This is a cultivation of the actual living disease bacteria.” He hesitated. “Bottled cholera, so to speak.”
“On the contrary, we have to,” said the Bacteriologist. “Look at this—” He walked across the room and picked up one of the sealed tubes. “This is the living organism. This is a culture of the actual living disease bacteria.” He paused. “Bottled cholera, so to speak.”
A slight gleam of satisfaction appeared momentarily in the face of the pale man. “It’s a deadly thing to have in your possession,” he said, devouring the little tube with his eyes. The Bacteriologist watched the morbid pleasure in his visitor’s expression. This man, who had visited him that afternoon with a note of introduction from an old friend, interested him from the very contrast of their dispositions. The lank black hair and deep grey eyes, the haggard expression and nervous manner, the fitful yet keen interest of his visitor were a novel change from the phlegmatic deliberations of the ordinary scientific worker with whom the Bacteriologist chiefly associated. It was perhaps natural, with a hearer evidently so impressionable to the lethal nature of his topic, to take the most effective aspect of the matter.
A slight gleam of satisfaction briefly appeared on the pale man's face. “It’s a dangerous thing to have,” he said, fixating on the small tube. The Bacteriologist observed the morbid pleasure in his visitor’s expression. This man, who had come to see him that afternoon with a note of introduction from an old friend, intrigued him because of the stark contrast in their personalities. The lank black hair and deep gray eyes, the haggard look and nervous demeanor, along with the unpredictable yet intense interest of his visitor, were a refreshing change from the calm deliberations of the typical scientific worker that the Bacteriologist usually dealt with. It was probably natural, with a listener so clearly affected by the deadly nature of his subject, to highlight the most striking aspects of the discussion.
He held the tube in his hand thoughtfully. 116“Yes, here is the pestilence imprisoned. Only break such a little tube as this into a supply of drinking-water, say to these minute particles of life that one must needs stain and examine with the highest powers of the microscope even to see, and that one can neither smell nor taste—say to them, ‘Go forth, increase and multiply, and replenish the cisterns,’ and Death—mysterious, untraceable Death, Death swift and terrible, Death full of pain and indignity—would be released upon this city, and go hither and thither seeking his victims. Here he would take the husband from the wife, here the child from its mother, here the statesman from his duty, and here the toiler from his trouble. He would follow the water-mains, creeping along streets, picking out and punishing a house here and a house there where they did not boil their drinking-water, creeping into the wells of the mineral-water makers, getting washed into salad, and lying dormant in ices. He would wait ready to be drunk in the horse-troughs, and by unwary children in the public fountains. He would soak into the soil, to reappear in springs and wells at a thousand unexpected places. Once start him at the water-supply, and before we could ring him in and catch him again he would have decimated the metropolis.”
He held the tube in his hand thoughtfully. 116“Yes, here is the disease trapped. Just break this small tube into a supply of drinking water, tell these tiny particles of life that you need to stain and examine with the highest-powered microscope just to see, and that you can neither smell nor taste—tell them, ‘Go forth, multiply, and fill the reservoirs,’ and then Death—mysterious, untraceable Death, swift and terrible Death, full of pain and indignity—would be unleashed upon this city, moving here and there in search of his victims. Here he would take the husband from the wife, the child from its mother, the statesman from his duty, and the worker from his struggle. He would follow the water mains, creeping along the streets, choosing and punishing a house here and there where they didn’t boil their drinking water, slipping into the wells of the mineral water makers, getting mixed into salads, and lying dormant in ice. He would wait, ready to be drunk from horse troughs and by unsuspecting children at public fountains. He would soak into the soil, reemerging in springs and wells at a thousand unexpected places. Once you set him loose in the water supply, before we could contain him and catch him again, he would have decimated the city.”
He stopped abruptly. He had been told rhetoric was his weakness.
He stopped suddenly. He had been told that his speaking skills were his weak point.
“But he is quite safe here, you know—quite safe.”
“But he’s perfectly safe here, you know—totally safe.”
117The pale-faced man nodded. His eyes shone. He cleared his throat. “These Anarchist—rascals,” said he, “are fools, blind fools—to use bombs when this kind of thing is attainable. I think—”
117The pale-faced man nodded. His eyes sparkled. He cleared his throat. “These anarchist troublemakers,” he said, “are idiots, blind idiots—to use bombs when something like this is possible. I think—”
A gentle rap, a mere light touch of the finger-nails was heard at the door. The Bacteriologist opened it. “Just a minute, dear,” whispered his wife.
A soft knock, just a light tap of fingernails, was heard at the door. The Bacteriologist opened it. “Just a minute, dear,” his wife whispered.
When he re-entered the laboratory his visitor was looking at his watch. “I had no idea I had wasted an hour of your time,” he said. “Twelve minutes to four. I ought to have left here by half-past three. But your things were really too interesting. No, positively, I cannot stop a moment longer. I have an engagement at four.”
When he walked back into the lab, his visitor was checking his watch. “I didn’t realize I had taken up an hour of your time,” he said. “It’s twelve minutes to four. I should have left by half-past three. But your stuff was just too fascinating. Honestly, I can’t stay even one more minute. I have a meeting at four.”
He passed out of the room reiterating his thanks, and the Bacteriologist accompanied him to the door, and then returned thoughtfully along the passage to his laboratory. He was musing on the ethnology of his visitor. Certainly the man was not a Teutonic type nor a common Latin one. “A morbid product, anyhow, I am afraid,” said the Bacteriologist to himself. “How he gloated on those cultivations of disease-germs!” A disturbing thought struck him. He turned to the bench by the vapour-bath, and then very quickly to his writing-table. Then he felt hastily in his pockets, and then rushed to the door. “I may have put it down on the hall table,” he said.
He walked out of the room, thanking everyone again, and the Bacteriologist walked with him to the door before returning thoughtfully down the hallway to his lab. He was contemplating the background of his visitor. The guy was definitely not of Teutonic descent or a typical Latin type. “A troubling outcome, for sure,” the Bacteriologist thought to himself. “He really seemed to revel in those cultures of disease germs!” A concerning thought hit him. He turned to the bench by the vapor bath and then quickly to his writing desk. He fumbled through his pockets and then rushed to the door. “I might have left it on the hall table,” he said.
118“Minnie!” he shouted hoarsely in the hall.
118“Minnie!” he shouted hoarsely in the hallway.
“Yes, dear,” came a remote voice.
“Yes, dear,” replied a distant voice.
“Had I anything in my hand when I spoke to you, dear, just now?”
“Did I have anything in my hand when I talked to you just now, dear?”
Pause.
Wait.
“Nothing, dear, because I remember—”
"Nothing, dear, because I remember—"
“Blue ruin!” cried the Bacteriologist, and incontinently ran to the front door and down the steps of his house to the street.
“Blue ruin!” shouted the Bacteriologist, and he quickly ran to the front door and down the steps of his house to the street.
Minnie, hearing the door slam violently, ran in alarm to the window. Down the street a slender man was getting into a cab. The Bacteriologist, hatless, and in his carpet slippers, was running and gesticulating wildly towards this group. One slipper came off, but he did not wait for it. “He has gone mad!” said Minnie; “it’s that horrid science of his;” and, opening the window, would have called after him. The slender man, suddenly glancing round, seemed struck with the same idea of mental disorder. He pointed hastily to the Bacteriologist, said something to the cabman, the apron of the cab slammed, the whip swished, the horse’s feet clattered, and in a moment cab, and Bacteriologist hotly in pursuit, had receded up the vista of the roadway and disappeared round the corner.
Minnie, hearing the door slam loudly, rushed to the window in a panic. Down the street, a slim man was getting into a cab. The Bacteriologist, without a hat and in his slippers, was running and waving his arms wildly at the group. One slipper came off, but he didn’t stop to pick it up. “He has gone mad!” Minnie exclaimed; “it’s that awful science of his;” and, opening the window, she was about to shout after him. The slim man, suddenly looking back, seemed to have the same thought about mental instability. He quickly pointed to the Bacteriologist, said something to the cab driver, the cab door slammed shut, the whip cracked, the horse’s hooves clattered, and in no time, the cab, with the Bacteriologist hotly chasing after it, had disappeared around the corner.
Minnie remained straining out of the window for a minute. Then she drew her head back into the room again. She was dumbfounded. “Of course he is eccentric,” she meditated. “But running 119about London—in the height of the season, too—in his socks!” A happy thought struck her. She hastily put her bonnet on, seized his shoes, went into the hall, took down his hat and light overcoat from the pegs, emerged upon the doorstep, and hailed a cab that opportunely crawled by. “Drive me up the road and round Havelock Crescent, and see if we can find a gentleman running about in a velveteen coat and no hat.”
Minnie stayed leaning out of the window for a minute. Then she pulled her head back inside the room. She was speechless. “Of course he’s eccentric,” she thought. “But running around London—especially during peak season—in his socks!” A clever idea hit her. She quickly put on her bonnet, grabbed his shoes, went into the hall, took his hat and light overcoat off the pegs, stepped outside onto the doorstep, and signaled a cab that happened to be passing by. “Take me up the road and around Havelock Crescent, and see if we can spot a guy running around in a velveteen coat and no hat.”
“Velveteen coat, ma’am, and no ’at. Very good, ma’am.” And the cabman whipped up at once in the most matter-of-fact way, as if he drove to this address every day in his life.
“Velveteen coat, ma’am, and no hat. Very good, ma’am.” And the cab driver immediately went to work with a straightforward attitude, as if he went to this address every day of his life.
Some few minutes later the little group of cabmen and loafers that collects round the cabmen’s shelter at Haverstock Hill were startled by the passing of a cab with a ginger-coloured screw of a horse, driven furiously.
A few minutes later, the small group of cab drivers and onlookers gathered around the cabmen's shelter at Haverstock Hill were surprised by a cab passing by, pulled by a ginger-colored horse, going at full speed.
They were silent as it went by, and then as it receded—“That’s ’Arry ’Icks. Wot’s he got?” said the stout gentleman known as Old Tootles.
They stayed quiet as it passed, and then as it faded away—“That’s Harry Hicks. What’s he got?” said the chubby guy known as Old Tootles.
“He’s a-using his whip, he is, to rights,” said the ostler boy.
“ He’s using his whip, he is, for sure,” said the stable boy.
“Hullo!” said poor old Tommy Byles; “here’s another bloomin’ loonattic. Blowed if there ain’t.”
“Hullo!” said poor old Tommy Byles; “here’s another blooming lunatic. I’ll be damned if there isn’t.”
“It’s old George,” said Old Tootles, “and he’s drivin’ a loonattic, as you say. Ain’t he a-clawin’ out of the keb? Wonder if he’s after ’Arry ’Icks?”
“It’s old George,” said Old Tootles, “and he’s driving a lunatic, as you say. Isn’t he clawing out of the cab? I wonder if he’s after Harry Hicks?”
120The group round the cabmen’s shelter became animated. Chorus: “Go it, George!” “It’s a race.” “You’ll ketch ’em!” “Whip up!”
120The group around the cabmen’s shelter got excited. Chorus: “Go for it, George!” “It’s a race.” “You’ll catch them!” “Hurry up!”
“She’s a goer, she is!” said the ostler boy.
“She’s really something, isn’t she?” said the stableboy.
“Strike me giddy!” cried Old Tootles. “Here! I’m a-goin’ to begin in a minute. Here’s another comin’. If all the kebs in Hampstead ain’t gone mad this morning!”
“Wow!” shouted Old Tootles. “Hey! I’m about to start in a minute. Here comes another one. If all the kids in Hampstead aren’t going crazy this morning!”
“It’s a fieldmale this time,” said the ostler boy.
“It’s a male horse this time,” said the stable boy.
“She’s a followin’ him,” said Old Tootles. “Usually the other way about.”
“She’s following him,” said Old Tootles. “Usually it’s the other way around.”
“What’s she got in her ’and?”
“What does she have in her hand?”
“Looks like a ’igh ’at.”
"Looks like a high hat."
“What a bloomin’ lark it is! Three to one on old George,” said the ostler boy. “Nexst!”
“What a blooming joke it is! Three to one on old George,” said the stable boy. “Next!”
Minnie went by in a perfect roar of applause. She did not like it, but she felt that she was doing her duty, and whirled on down Haverstock Hill and Camden Town High Street, with her eyes ever intent on the animated back view of old George, who was driving her vagrant husband so incomprehensibly away from her.
Minnie passed by to a huge round of applause. She didn’t enjoy it, but she felt it was her duty, and she hurried down Haverstock Hill and Camden Town High Street, her eyes focused on the lively figure of old George, who was driving her wandering husband inexplicably away from her.
The man in the foremost cab sat crouched in the corner, his arms tightly folded, and the little tube that contained such vast possibilities of destruction gripped in his hand. His mood was a singular mixture of fear and exultation. Chiefly he was afraid of being caught before he could accomplish his purpose, but behind this was a vaguer but larger fear of the awfulness of his crime. 121But his exultation far exceeded his fear. No Anarchist before him had ever approached this conception of his. Ravachol, Vaillant, all those distinguished persons whose fame he had envied dwindled into insignificance beside him. He had only to make sure of the water-supply, and break the little tube into a reservoir. How brilliantly he had planned it, forged the letter of introduction and got into the laboratory, and how brilliantly he had seized his opportunity! The world should hear of him at last. All those people who had sneered at him, neglected him, preferred other people to him, found his company undesirable, should consider him at last. Death, death, death! They had always treated him as a man of no importance. All the world had been in a conspiracy to keep him under. He would teach them yet what it is to isolate a man. What was this familiar street? Great Saint Andrew’s Street, of course! How fared the chase? He craned out of the cab. The Bacteriologist was scarcely fifty yards behind. That was bad. He would be caught and stopped yet. He felt in his pocket for money, and found half-a-sovereign. This he thrust up through the trap in the top of the cab into the man’s face. “More,” he shouted, “if only we get away.”
The man in the front cab was huddled in the corner, arms crossed tightly, gripping the small tube that contained such enormous potential for destruction. He felt a strange mix of fear and excitement. Mostly, he was scared of getting caught before he could carry out his plan, but deeper down was a vague but greater fear of the horror of his crime. 121 But his excitement overshadowed his fear. No anarchist before him had ever had such a grand idea. Ravachol, Vaillant, all those famous figures he had envied faded into nothing compared to him. He just had to secure the water supply and break the little tube into a reservoir. He had planned it so well, forged the introduction letter and got into the lab, and seized his chance brilliantly! The world would finally know his name. All those people who had mocked him, ignored him, and preferred others over him would have to pay attention at last. Death, death, death! They had always treated him like he was nothing. The whole world had conspired to keep him down. He would show them what it’s like to isolate a person. What was this familiar street? Great Saint Andrew’s Street, of course! How was the chase going? He leaned out of the cab. The Bacteriologist was barely fifty yards behind. That was bad. He would be caught and stopped yet. He searched his pocket for money and found half a sovereign. He shoved it up through the trap in the top of the cab into the man’s face. “More,” he shouted, “if only we get away.”
The money was snatched out of his hand. “Right you are,” said the cabman, and the trap slammed, and the lash lay along the glistening 122side of the horse. The cab swayed, and the Anarchist, half-standing under the trap, put the hand containing the little glass tube upon the apron to preserve his balance. He felt the brittle thing crack, and the broken half of it rang upon the floor of the cab. He fell back into the seat with a curse, and stared dismally at the two or three drops of moisture on the apron.
The money was yanked out of his hand. “Right you are,” said the cab driver, and the door slammed shut while the whip cracked against the shiny side of the horse. The cab rocked, and the Anarchist, partially standing under the door, placed the hand with the little glass tube on the seat to steady himself. He felt the fragile thing break, and the shattered piece clattered on the cab floor. He fell back into the seat with a curse and stared gloomily at the couple of drops of liquid on the seat.
He shuddered.
He shivered.
“Well! I suppose I shall be the first. Phew! Anyhow, I shall be a Martyr. That’s something. But it is a filthy death, nevertheless. I wonder if it hurts as much as they say.”
“Well! I guess I'll be the first. Phew! Anyway, I'll be a Martyr. That's something. But it's a nasty way to die, still. I wonder if it hurts as much as they claim.”
Presently a thought occurred to him—he groped between his feet. A little drop was still in the broken end of the tube, and he drank that to make sure. It was better to make sure. At any rate, he would not fail.
Presently, a thought popped into his head—he reached down between his feet. A tiny bit was still in the broken end of the tube, and he drank that to be certain. It was better to be sure. In any case, he wouldn't fail.
Then it dawned upon him that there was no further need to escape the Bacteriologist. In Wellington Street he told the cabman to stop, and got out. He slipped on the step, and his head felt queer. It was rapid stuff, this cholera poison. He waved his cabman out of existence, so to speak, and stood on the pavement with his arms folded upon his breast awaiting the arrival of the Bacteriologist. There was something tragic in his pose. The sense of imminent death gave him a certain dignity. He greeted his pursuer with a defiant laugh.
Then it hit him that he no longer needed to run from the Bacteriologist. On Wellington Street, he told the cab driver to stop and got out. He stumbled on the step, and his head felt strange. This cholera poison was acting fast. He dismissed the cab driver with a wave, so to speak, and stood on the sidewalk with his arms crossed over his chest, waiting for the Bacteriologist to arrive. There was something tragic about his stance. The sense of impending death gave him a certain dignity. He greeted his pursuer with a defiant laugh.
123“Vive l’Anarchie! You are too late, my friend. I have drunk it. The cholera is abroad!”
123“Long live Anarchy! You’ve arrived too late, my friend. I’ve already taken it. The cholera is out there!”
The Bacteriologist from his cab beamed curiously at him through his spectacles. “You have drunk it! An Anarchist! I see now.” He was about to say something more, and then checked himself. A smile hung in the corner of his mouth. He opened the apron of his cab as if to descend, at which the Anarchist waved him a dramatic farewell and strode off towards Waterloo Bridge, carefully jostling his infected body against as many people as possible. The Bacteriologist was so preoccupied with the vision of him that he scarcely manifested the slightest surprise at the appearance of Minnie upon the pavement with his hat and shoes and overcoat. “Very good of you to bring my things,” he said, and remained lost in contemplation of the receding figure of the Anarchist.
The Bacteriologist peered curiously at him from his cab, adjusting his glasses. “You’ve drunk it! An Anarchist! I see now.” He was about to say more but stopped himself. A smile lingered at the corner of his mouth. He opened the door of his cab as if to get out, prompting the Anarchist to wave him a dramatic goodbye before striding off toward Waterloo Bridge, making sure to bump into as many people as he could with his infected body. The Bacteriologist was so consumed by the sight of him that he barely registered any surprise when Minnie appeared on the sidewalk with his hat, shoes, and overcoat. “Thanks for bringing my things,” he said, still lost in thought about the vanishing figure of the Anarchist.
“You had better get in,” he said, still staring. Minnie felt absolutely convinced now that he was mad, and directed the cabman home on her own responsibility. “Put on my shoes? Certainly, dear,” said he, as the cab began to turn, and hid the strutting black figure, now small in the distance, from his eyes. Then suddenly something grotesque struck him, and he laughed. Then he remarked, “It is really very serious, though.
“You should get in,” he said, still staring. Minnie was now totally convinced he was crazy, so she told the cab driver to take her home. “Put on my shoes? Of course, dear,” he said as the cab started to turn, hiding the proud black figure, now small in the distance, from his view. Then suddenly, something absurd hit him, and he laughed. Then he added, “It’s actually quite serious, though.”
“You see, that man came to my house to see me, and he is an Anarchist. No—don’t faint, or I cannot possibly tell you the rest. And I wanted 124to astonish him, not knowing he was an Anarchist, and took up a cultivation of that new species of Bacterium I was telling you of, that infest, and I think cause, the blue patches upon various monkeys; and, like a fool, I said it was Asiatic cholera. And he ran away with it to poison the water of London, and he certainly might have made things look blue for this civilised city. And now he has swallowed it. Of course I cannot say what will happen, but you know it turned that kitten blue, and the three puppies—in patches, and the sparrow—bright blue. But the bother is I shall have all the trouble and expense of preparing some more.
“You see, that guy came to my house to see me, and he’s an Anarchist. No—don’t faint, or I won’t be able to tell you the rest. I wanted to impress him, not knowing he was an Anarchist, so I started working with that new type of Bacterium I mentioned, which infests and I think causes the blue patches on various monkeys; and, like an idiot, I said it was Asiatic cholera. And he ran off with it to poison the water in London, and he definitely could have made things look blue for this civilized city. And now he’s swallowed it. Of course, I can’t say what will happen, but you know it turned that kitten blue, and the three puppies—in patches, and the sparrow—bright blue. But the problem is I’ll have all the trouble and cost of preparing some more.”
“Put on my coat on this hot day! Why? Because we might meet Mrs. Jabber. My dear, Mrs. Jabber is not a draught. But why should I wear a coat on a hot day because of Mrs. ——. Oh! very well.”
“Put on my coat on this hot day! Why? Because we might run into Mrs. Jabber. My dear, Mrs. Jabber is not a breeze. But why should I wear a coat on a hot day just because of Mrs. ——. Oh! fine.”
THE RED ROOM
“I can assure you,” said I, “that it will take a very tangible ghost to frighten me.” And I stood up before the fire with my glass in my hand.
"I can assure you," I said, "that it will take a very real ghost to scare me." And I stood in front of the fire with my drink in my hand.
“It is your own choosing,” said the man with the withered arm, and glanced at me askance.
“It’s up to you,” said the man with the withered arm, giving me a sidelong glance.
“Eight-and-twenty years,” said I, “I have lived, and never a ghost have I seen as yet.”
“Twenty-eight years,” I said, “I’ve lived, and I’ve never seen a ghost yet.”
The old woman sat staring hard into the fire, her pale eyes wide open. “Ay,” she broke in; “and eight-and-twenty years you have lived and never seen the likes of this house, I reckon. There’s a many things to see, when one’s still but eight-and-twenty.” She swayed her head slowly from side to side. “A many things to see and sorrow for.”
The old woman sat staring intently into the fire, her pale eyes wide open. “Yeah,” she interrupted; “and you’ve lived twenty-eight years and never seen anything like this house, I guess. There are many things to see when you’re still just twenty-eight.” She moved her head slowly from side to side. “So many things to see and feel sorrow for.”
I half-suspected the old people were trying to enhance the spiritual terrors of their house by their droning insistence. I put down my empty glass on the table and looked about the room, and caught a glimpse of myself, abbreviated and broadened to an impossible sturdiness, in the queer old mirror at the end of the room. “Well,” I said, “if I see anything to-night, I shall be so much the 126wiser. For I come to the business with an open mind.”
I kinda thought the older folks were trying to amp up the spooky vibes of their house with their constant chatter. I set down my empty glass on the table, glanced around the room, and caught a weird reflection of myself in the strange old mirror at the far end—shortened and strangely bulky. “Well,” I said, “if I see anything tonight, I'll definitely be a lot wiser. I'm approaching this with an open mind.”126
“It’s your own choosing,” said the man with the withered arm once more.
“It’s your choice,” said the man with the withered arm again.
I heard the sound of a stick and a shambling step on the flags in the passage outside, and the door creaked on its hinges as a second old man entered, more bent, more wrinkled, more aged even than the first. He supported himself by a single crutch, his eyes were covered by a shade, and his lower lip, half-averted, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. He made straight for an arm-chair on the opposite side of the table, sat down clumsily, and began to cough. The man with the withered arm gave this new-comer a short glance of positive dislike; the old woman took no notice of his arrival, but remained with her eyes fixed steadily on the fire.
I heard the sound of a stick and a shuffling step on the floor outside, and the door creaked as a second old man came in, even more hunched over, wrinkled, and frail than the first. He used a single crutch for support, his eyes covered by a shade, and his lower lip, slightly turned away, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. He headed straight for an armchair on the other side of the table, sat down awkwardly, and started to cough. The man with the shriveled arm shot this newcomer a quick look of clear dislike; the old woman didn’t acknowledge his arrival, keeping her eyes fixed on the fire.
“I said—it’s your own choosing,” said the man with the withered arm, when the coughing had ceased for awhile.
“I said—it’s your own choice,” said the man with the thin arm when the coughing had stopped for a bit.
“It’s my own choosing,” I answered.
“It’s my own choice,” I replied.
The man with the shade became aware of my presence for the first time, and threw his head back for a moment and sideways, to see me. I caught a momentary glimpse of his eyes, small and bright and inflamed. Then he began to cough and splutter again.
The man in the hat noticed me for the first time and tilted his head back and to the side to look at me. I caught a quick glimpse of his eyes, which were small, bright, and red. Then he started to cough and splutter again.
“Why don’t you drink?” said the man with the withered arm, pushing the beer towards him. The 127man with the shade poured out a glassful with a shaky arm that splashed half as much again on the deal table. A monstrous shadow of him crouched upon the wall and mocked his action as he poured and drank. I must confess I had scarce expected these grotesque custodians. There is to my mind something inhuman in senility, something crouching and atavistic; the human qualities seem to drop from old people insensibly day by day. The three of them made me feel uncomfortable, with their gaunt silences, their bent carriage, their evident unfriendliness to me and to one another.
“Why don’t you drink?” said the guy with the withered arm, pushing the beer towards him. The 127man in the shades poured a glass with a shaky hand, spilling half of it onto the deal table. A huge shadow of him crouched on the wall and seemed to mock him as he poured and drank. I have to admit I didn’t expect these bizarre guardians. To me, there’s something inhuman about old age, something crouched and primal; you can almost see the human qualities fading from elderly people day by day. The three of them made me feel uneasy, with their thin silences, their hunched figures, and their clear unfriendliness towards me and each other.
“If,” said I, “you will show me to this haunted room of yours, I will make myself comfortable there.”
“If,” I said, “you'll take me to this haunted room of yours, I’ll make myself comfortable there.”
The old man with the cough jerked his head back so suddenly that it startled me, and shot another glance of his red eyes at me from under the shade; but no one answered me. I waited a minute, glancing from one to the other.
The old man with the cough suddenly jerked his head back so quickly that it surprised me, and shot me another look with his red eyes from under the shade; but no one replied. I waited a minute, looking from one person to another.
“If,” I said a little louder, “if you will show me to this haunted room of yours, I will relieve you from the task of entertaining me.”
“If,” I said a bit louder, “if you show me this haunted room of yours, I’ll free you from having to entertain me.”
“There’s a candle on the slab outside the door,” said the man with the withered arm, looking at my feet as he addressed me. “But if you go to the red room to-night—”
“There’s a candle on the slab outside the door,” said the man with the withered arm, looking at my feet as he spoke to me. “But if you go to the red room tonight—”
(“This night of all nights!” said the old woman.)
(“This night of all nights!” said the old woman.)
“You go alone.”
“Go solo.”
128“Very well,” I answered. “And which way do I go?”
128“Alright,” I replied. “So which way should I go?”
“You go along the passage for a bit,” said he, “until you come to a door, and through that is a spiral staircase, and half-way up that is a landing and another door covered with baize. Go through that and down the long corridor to the end, and the red room is on your left up the steps.”
“You walk down the hallway for a bit,” he said, “until you reach a door, and through that is a spiral staircase. Halfway up, there’s a landing with another door covered in green fabric. Go through that and down the long corridor to the end, and the red room is on your left up the steps.”
“Have I got that right?” I said, and repeated his directions. He corrected me in one particular.
“Did I get that right?” I asked, repeating his directions. He corrected me on one detail.
“And are you really going?” said the man with the shade, looking at me again for the third time, with that queer, unnatural tilting of the face.
“And are you actually going?” said the man in the shade, looking at me again for the third time, with that strange, unnatural tilt of his head.
(“This night of all nights!” said the old woman.)
(“This night of all nights!” said the old woman.)
“It is what I came for,” I said, and moved towards the door. As I did so, the old man with the shade rose and staggered round the table, so as to be closer to the others and to the fire. At the door I turned and looked at them, and saw they were all close together, dark against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders, with an intent expression on their ancient faces.
“It’s what I came for,” I said, and walked toward the door. As I did, the old man with the glasses stood up and stumbled around the table to get closer to the others and the fire. At the door, I turned and looked at them, and saw they were all huddled together, silhouetted against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders, with a focused look on their wrinkled faces.
“Good-night,” I said, setting the door open.
“Good night,” I said, standing by the open door.
“It’s your own choosing,” said the man with the withered arm.
“It’s your choice,” said the man with the withered arm.
I left the door wide open until the candle was well alight, and then I shut them in and walked down the chilly, echoing passage.
I left the door wide open until the candle was burning brightly, and then I closed it and walked down the cold, echoing hallway.
I must confess that the oddness of these three 129old pensioners in whose charge her ladyship had left the castle, and the deep-toned, old-fashioned furniture of the housekeeper’s room in which they foregathered, affected me in spite of my efforts to keep myself at a matter-of-fact phase. They seemed to belong to another age, an older age, an age when things spiritual were different from this of ours, less certain; an age when omens and witches were credible, and ghosts beyond denying. Their very existence was spectral; the cut of their clothing, fashions born in dead brains. The ornaments and conveniences of the room about them were ghostly—the thoughts of vanished men, which still haunted rather than participated in the world of to-day. But with an effort I sent such thoughts to the right-about. The long, draughty subterranean passage was chilly and dusty, and my candle flared and made the shadows cower and quiver. The echoes rang up and down the spiral staircase, and a shadow came sweeping up after me, and one fled before me into the darkness overhead. I came to the landing and stopped there for a moment, listening to a rustling that I fancied I heard; then, satisfied of the absolute silence, I pushed open the baize-covered door and stood in the corridor.
I have to admit that the strangeness of these three old pensioners, who had been left in charge of the castle by her ladyship, and the dark, old-fashioned furniture in the housekeeper’s room where they gathered, affected me despite my attempts to remain practical. They seemed to belong to a different era, a bygone time when spiritual matters felt different from ours, less certain; a time when omens and witches were believable, and ghosts undeniable. Their very presence felt ghostly; the way they were dressed reflected styles from a long-gone past. The decor and amenities in the room around them felt eerie—the remnants of vanished lives that still haunted rather than engaged with the present. But I forced those thoughts away. The long, drafty underground passage was cold and dusty, and my candle flickered, making the shadows tremble. Echoes bounced up and down the spiral staircase, a shadow swept up behind me, and another fled into the darkness above. I reached the landing and paused for a moment, listening to what I thought was a rustling sound; then, convinced of the complete silence, I pushed open the baize-covered door and stood in the corridor.
The effect was scarcely what I expected, for the moonlight, coming in by the great window on the grand staircase, picked out everything in vivid black shadow or silvery illumination. 130Everything was in its place: the house might have been deserted on the yesterday instead of eighteen months ago. There were candles in the sockets of the sconces, and whatever dust had gathered on the carpets or upon the polished flooring was distributed so evenly as to be invisible in the moonlight. I was about to advance, and stopped abruptly. A bronze group stood upon the landing, hidden from me by the corner of the wall, but its shadow fell with marvellous distinctness upon the white panelling, and gave me the impression of some one crouching to waylay me. I stood rigid for half a minute perhaps. Then, with my hand in the pocket that held my revolver, I advanced, only to discover a Ganymede and Eagle glistening in the moonlight. That incident for a time restored my nerve, and a porcelain Chinaman on a buhl table, whose head rocked silently as I passed him, scarcely startled me.
The effect was hardly what I expected, as the moonlight streaming through the large window on the grand staircase brought everything into sharp black shadows or silvery light. 130Everything was exactly where it should be: the house could have been abandoned just yesterday instead of eighteen months ago. There were candles in the sconces, and any dust that had settled on the carpets or polished floors was spread out so evenly that it became invisible in the moonlight. I was about to move forward when I suddenly stopped. A bronze sculpture stood on the landing, hidden from my view by the corner of the wall, but its shadow cast a strikingly clear shape on the white paneling, making me feel like someone was crouching there to ambush me. I stood frozen for maybe half a minute. Then, with my hand in the pocket where I kept my revolver, I moved closer, only to find a Ganymede and Eagle glistening in the moonlight. That moment helped me regain my nerve, and a porcelain Chinese figurine on a buhl table, whose head tilted silently as I walked by, hardly startled me.
The door to the red room and the steps up to it were in a shadowy corner. I moved my candle from side to side, in order to see clearly the nature of the recess in which I stood before opening the door. Here it was, thought I, that my predecessor was found, and the memory of that story gave me a sudden twinge of apprehension. I glanced over my shoulder at the Ganymede in the moonlight, and opened the door of the red room rather hastily, with my face half turned to the pallid silence of the landing.
The door to the red room and the stairs leading up to it were in a dim corner. I moved my candle back and forth to get a clear look at the nook where I stood before opening the door. This is where my predecessor was found, I thought, and that memory gave me a sudden jolt of fear. I glanced over my shoulder at the Ganymede in the moonlight and opened the door to the red room quickly, with my face partly turned towards the pale silence of the landing.
131I entered, closed the door behind me at once, turned the key I found in the lock within, and stood with the candle held aloft, surveying the scene of my vigil, the great red room of Lorraine Castle, in which the young duke had died. Or, rather, in which he had begun his dying, for he had opened the door and fallen headlong down the steps I had just ascended. That had been the end of his vigil, of his gallant attempt to conquer the ghostly tradition of the place, and never, I thought, had apoplexy better served the ends of superstition. And there were other and older stories that clung to the room, back to the half-credible beginning of it all, the tale of a timid wife and the tragic end that came to her husband’s jest of frightening her. And looking around that large shadowy room, with its shadowy window bays, its recesses and alcoves, one could well understand the legends that had sprouted in its black corners, its germinating darkness. My candle was a little tongue of light in its vastness, that failed to pierce the opposite end of the room, and left an ocean of mystery and suggestion beyond its island of light.
131I came in, quickly shut the door behind me, turned the key I found in the lock, and stood with the candle raised, looking around at the scene of my watch, the big red room of Lorraine Castle, where the young duke had died. Or, more accurately, where he had started to die, since he had opened the door and fallen headfirst down the steps I had just climbed. That marked the end of his watch, his brave attempt to fight the ghostly legends of the place, and I thought that never had apoplexy done better for superstition. There were older stories attached to the room too, reaching back to the almost-believable origins, the tale of a timid wife and the tragic outcome of her husband’s prank to scare her. As I glanced around that large, shadowy room, with its dim window bays, its nooks, and alcoves, it was easy to see how legends grew in its dark corners, its lurking shadows. My candle was a small flicker of light in its expanse, failing to reach the far end of the room and leaving an ocean of mystery and suggestion beyond its island of illumination.
I resolved to make a systematic examination of the place at once, and dispel the fanciful suggestions of its obscurity before they obtained a hold upon me. After satisfying myself of the fastening of the door, I began to walk about the room, peering round each article of furniture, 132tucking up the valances of the bed, and opening its curtains wide. I pulled up the blinds and examined the fastenings of the several windows before closing the shutters, leant forward and looked up the blackness of the wide chimney, and tapped the dark oak panelling for any secret opening. There were two big mirrors in the room, each with a pair of sconces bearing candles, and on the mantel-shelf, too, were more candles in china candlesticks. All these I lit one after the other. The fire was laid,—an unexpected consideration from the old housekeeper,—and I lit it, to keep down any disposition to shiver, and when it was burning well, I stood round with my back to it and regarded the room again. I had pulled up a chintz-covered armchair and a table, to form a kind of barricade before me, and on this lay my revolver ready to hand. My precise examination had done me good, but I still found the remoter darkness of the place, and its perfect stillness, too stimulating for the imagination. The echoing of the stir and crackling of the fire was no sort of comfort to me. The shadow in the alcove, at the end in particular, had that undefinable quality of a presence, that odd suggestion of a lurking living thing, that comes so easily in silence and solitude. At last, to reassure myself, I walked with a candle into it, and satisfied myself that there was nothing tangible there. I stood that candle upon the floor of the alcove, and left it in that position.
I decided to thoroughly check out the place right away and shake off any fanciful ideas about its mystery before they started to get to me. After making sure the door was locked, I began to walk around the room, inspecting every piece of furniture, lifting up the bed's valances, and pulling back the curtains. I opened the blinds and checked the locks on the windows before shutting the shutters, leaned in to peer up the dark chimney, and tapped the dark oak paneling for any hidden openings. There were two large mirrors in the room, each with a pair of candle-holding sconces, and there were more candles on the mantel in china candlesticks. I lit each of them one by one. The fire was set up—an unexpected kindness from the old housekeeper—and I lit it to fend off any shivers. Once it was crackling nicely, I stood with my back to it and looked around the room again. I had pulled a chintz-covered armchair and a table in front of me to create a sort of barricade, with my revolver resting on top. My careful inspection had improved my mood, but I still found the deep shadows of the place and its eerie silence too much for my imagination. The sounds of the fire crackling were no comfort to me. The shadow in the alcove, especially at the far end, had that strange feeling of a presence, that unsettling suggestion of a lurking creature that easily emerges in quiet and solitude. Finally, to reassure myself, I walked in with a candle and confirmed there was nothing real there. I placed the candle on the floor of the alcove and left it there.
133By this time I was in a state of considerable nervous tension, although to my reason there was no adequate cause for the condition. My mind, however, was perfectly clear. I postulated quite unreservedly that nothing supernatural could happen, and to pass the time I began to string some rhymes together, Ingoldsby fashion, of the original legend of the place. A few I spoke aloud, but the echoes were not pleasant. For the same reason I also abandoned, after a time, a conversation with myself upon the impossibility of ghosts and haunting. My mind reverted to the three old and distorted people downstairs, and I tried to keep it upon that topic. The sombre reds and blacks of the room troubled me; even with seven candles the place was merely dim. The one in the alcove flared in a draught, and the fire-flickering kept the shadows and penumbra perpetually shifting and stirring. Casting about for a remedy, I recalled the candles I had seen in the passage, and, with a slight effort, walked out into the moonlight, carrying a candle and leaving the door open, and presently returned with as many as ten. These I put in various knick-knacks of china with which the room was sparsely adorned, lit and placed where the shadows had lain deepest, some on the floor, some in the window recesses, until at last my seventeen candles were so arranged that not an inch of the room but had the direct light of at 134least one of them. It occurred to me that when the ghost came, I could warn him not to trip over them. The room was now quite brightly illuminated. There was something very cheery and reassuring in these little streaming flames, and snuffing them gave me an occupation, and afforded a reassuring sense of the passage of time.
133At this point, I was feeling pretty anxious, even though logically I knew there was no real reason for it. My mind was completely clear. I confidently assumed that nothing supernatural could occur, so to pass the time, I started putting some rhymes together in the style of Ingoldsby about the original legend of the place. I recited a few out loud, but the echoes weren’t pleasant. For the same reason, I eventually stopped debating with myself about the impossibility of ghosts and hauntings. My thoughts went back to the three old and twisted people downstairs, and I tried to stay focused on that topic. The dark reds and blacks of the room unsettled me; even with seven candles, it was still dim. The one in the alcove flickered in the draft, and the flickering fire kept the shadows shifting and moving continually. Looking for a solution, I remembered the candles I had seen in the hallway. After a bit of effort, I stepped out into the moonlight with a candle, leaving the door open, and soon came back with ten. I placed them in various china knick-knacks that sparsely decorated the room, lighting them and positioning them in the deepest shadows, some on the floor and some in the window recesses, until finally my seventeen candles were arranged so that not a single inch of the room was without direct light from at least one of them. It occurred to me that if a ghost showed up, I could warn them not to trip over them. The room was now quite brightly lit. There was something very uplifting and reassuring about these little flames, and snuffing them gave me something to do while offering a comforting sense of the passing time. 134
Even with that, however, the brooding expectation of the vigil weighed heavily upon me. It was after midnight that the candle in the alcove suddenly went out, and the black shadow sprang back to its place there. I did not see the candle go out; I simply turned and saw that the darkness was there, as one might start and see the unexpected presence of a stranger. “By Jove!” said I aloud; “that draught’s a strong one!” and, taking the matches from the table, I walked across the room in a leisurely manner to relight the corner again. My first match would not strike, and as I succeeded with the second, something seemed to blink on the wall before me. I turned my head involuntarily, and saw that the two candles on the little table by the fireplace were extinguished. I rose at once to my feet.
Even so, the heavy expectation of the vigil hung over me. It was after midnight when the candle in the nook suddenly went out, and the dark shadow snapped back into its spot. I didn’t see the candle go out; I just turned and noticed the darkness, like suddenly encountering an unexpected stranger. “Wow!” I exclaimed; “that draft is a strong one!” I grabbed the matches from the table and strolled across the room to relight the corner. My first match wouldn’t strike, and as I managed to get the second one to light, something seemed to flicker on the wall in front of me. I involuntarily turned my head and saw that the two candles on the small table by the fireplace were extinguished. I immediately stood up.
“Odd!” I said. “Did I do that myself in a flash of absent-mindedness?”
“Strange!” I said. “Did I really do that myself in a moment of zoning out?”
I walked back, relit one, and as I did so, I saw the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors wink and go right out, and almost immediately its 135companion followed it. There was no mistake about it. The flame vanished, as if the wicks had been suddenly nipped between a finger and a thumb, leaving the wick neither glowing nor smoking, but black. While I stood gaping, the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to take another step towards me.
I walked back, lit one again, and as I did, I noticed the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors flicker and then go out. Almost immediately, the one next to it followed suit. There was no doubt about it. The flame disappeared as if the wicks had been suddenly pinched out, leaving them neither glowing nor smoking, just black. As I stood there in shock, the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to inch closer to me.
“This won’t do!” said I, and first one and then another candle on the mantel-shelf followed.
“This isn’t going to work!” I said, and then I knocked over one candle after another on the mantel.
“What’s up?” I cried, with a queer high note getting into my voice somehow. At that the candle on the wardrobe went out, and the one I had relit in the alcove followed.
“What’s going on?” I shouted, with a strange high pitch sneaking into my voice. At that, the candle on the wardrobe went out, and the one I had just lit in the alcove went out too.
“Steady on!” I said. “These candles are wanted,” speaking with a half-hysterical facetiousness, and scratching away at a match the while for the mantel candlesticks. My hands trembled so much that twice I missed the rough paper of the matchbox. As the mantel emerged from darkness again, two candles in the remoter end of the window were eclipsed. But with the same match I also relit the larger mirror candles, and those on the floor near the doorway, so that for the moment I seemed to gain on the extinctions. But then in a volley there vanished four lights at once in different corners of the room, and I struck another match in quivering haste, and stood hesitating whither to take it.
“Hold on!” I said. “These candles are important,” I spoke with a nervous joking tone, while trying to strike a match for the mantel candlesticks. My hands were shaking so much that twice I missed the rough paper of the matchbox. As the mantel came back into the light, two candles at the far end of the window went out. But with the same match, I also relit the larger mirror candles and the ones on the floor by the doorway, so for a moment it felt like I was winning against the darkness. But then, all of a sudden, four lights went out at once in different corners of the room, and I struck another match in a shaky rush, standing there unsure of where to take it.
As I stood undecided, an invisible hand seemed to sweep out the two candles on the table. With 136a cry of terror, I dashed at the alcove, then into the corner, and then into the window, relighting three, as two more vanished by the fireplace; then, perceiving a better way, I dropped the matches on the iron-bound deed-box in the corner, and caught up the bedroom candlestick. With this I avoided the delay of striking matches; but for all that the steady process of extinction went on, and the shadows I feared and fought against returned, and crept in upon me, first a step gained on this side of me and then on that. It was like a ragged stormcloud sweeping out the stars. Now and then one returned for a minute, and was lost again. I was now almost frantic with the horror of the coming darkness, and my self-possession deserted me. I leaped, panting and dishevelled, from candle to candle, in a vain struggle against that remorseless advance.
As I stood there unsure, it felt like an invisible hand snuffed out the two candles on the table. With a scream of fear, I rushed to the alcove, then to the corner, and then to the window, relighting three candles as two more went out by the fireplace. Realizing a better approach, I dropped the matches on the iron-bound deed-box in the corner and grabbed the bedroom candlestick. This way, I could skip the hassle of lighting matches; but even so, the steady process of extinguishing continued, and the shadows I dreaded crept back in on me, first getting a foothold on one side, then the other. It was like a ragged storm cloud blotting out the stars. Occasionally, one would flicker back to life for a minute, only to vanish again. I was now nearly frantic with the dread of the impending darkness, and I lost my composure. I jumped, breathless and messy, from candle to candle, in a futile fight against that relentless approach.
I bruised myself on the thigh against the table, I sent a chair headlong, I stumbled and fell and whisked the cloth from the table in my fall. My candle rolled away from me, and I snatched another as I rose. Abruptly this was blown out, as I swung it off the table, by the wind of my sudden movement, and immediately the two remaining candles followed. But there was light still in the room, a red light that staved off the shadows from me. The fire! Of course, I could still thrust my candle between the bars and relight it!
I bumped my thigh on the table, I knocked a chair over, I stumbled and fell, pulling the cloth off the table as I went down. My candle rolled away from me, and I grabbed another one as I got up. Suddenly, that one got blown out when I swung it off the table due to my quick movement, and right after that, the other two candles went out too. But there was still light in the room, a red light that pushed the shadows away from me. The fire! Of course, I could still stick my candle between the bars and relight it!
I turned to where the flames were still dancing between the glowing coals, and splashing red reflections 137upon the furniture, made two steps towards the grate, and incontinently the flames dwindled and vanished, the glow vanished, the reflections rushed together and vanished, and as I thrust the candle between the bars, darkness closed upon me like the shutting of an eye, wrapped about me in a stifling embrace, sealed my vision, and crushed the last vestiges of reason from my brain. The candle fell from my hand. I flung out my arms in a vain effort to thrust that ponderous blackness away from me, and, lifting up my voice, screamed with all my might—once, twice, thrice. Then I think I must have staggered to my feet. I know I thought suddenly of the moonlit corridor, and, with my head bowed and my arms over my face, made a run for the door.
I turned to where the flames were still flickering between the glowing coals, casting red reflections on the furniture. I took two steps towards the fireplace, and just like that, the flames faded and disappeared, the glow faded, and the reflections rushed together and vanished. As I pushed the candle between the bars, darkness closed in on me like an eye blinking shut, wrapping around me in a suffocating embrace, sealing my sight and crushing the last bits of reason from my mind. The candle slipped from my hand. I threw out my arms in a futile attempt to push that heavy darkness away, and, raising my voice, I screamed with all my strength—once, twice, three times. Then I think I staggered to my feet. I suddenly remembered the moonlit hallway, and with my head down and my arms over my face, I sprinted towards the door.
But I had forgotten the exact position of the door, and struck myself heavily against the corner of the bed. I staggered back, turned, and was either struck or struck myself against some other bulky furniture. I have a vague memory of battering myself thus, to and fro in the darkness, of a cramped struggle, and of my own wild crying as I darted to and fro, of a heavy blow at last upon my forehead, a horrible sensation of falling that lasted an age, of my last frantic effort to keep my footing, and then I remember no more.
But I had forgotten exactly where the door was and accidentally hit my head hard against the corner of the bed. I stumbled back, turned, and either bumped into or hit myself against some other large piece of furniture. I vaguely remember struggling like this, back and forth in the dark, my own frantic cries as I moved around, a heavy blow to my forehead, a terrible feeling of falling that seemed to go on forever, my last desperate attempt to regain my balance, and then I don’t remember anything else.
I opened my eyes in daylight. My head was roughly bandaged, and the man with the withered 138arm was watching my face. I looked about me, trying to remember what had happened, and for a space I could not recollect. I rolled my eyes into the corner, and saw the old woman, no longer abstracted, pouring out some drops of medicine from a little blue phial into a glass. “Where am I?” I asked. “I seem to remember you, and yet I cannot remember who you are.”
I opened my eyes to daylight. My head was wrapped in a rough bandage, and the man with the withered arm was watching my face. I looked around, trying to remember what had happened, but for a moment, I couldn’t recall anything. I turned my eyes to the corner and saw the old woman, now focused, pouring some drops of medicine from a tiny blue vial into a glass. “Where am I?” I asked. “I feel like I remember you, but I can’t recall who you are.”
They told me then, and I heard of the haunted red room as one who hears a tale. “We found you at dawn,” said he, “and there was blood on your forehead and lips.”
They told me then, and I heard about the haunted red room like someone hearing a story. “We found you at dawn,” he said, “and you had blood on your forehead and lips.”
It was very slowly I recovered my memory of my experience. “You believe now,” said the old man, “that the room is haunted?” He spoke no longer as one who greets an intruder, but as one who grieves for a broken friend.
It was really slowly that I started to remember my experience. “You believe now,” said the old man, “that the room is haunted?” He no longer spoke like someone welcoming an intruder, but like someone mourning a lost friend.
“Yes,” said I; “the room is haunted.”
“Yes,” I said; “the room is haunted.”
“And you have seen it. And we, who have lived here all our lives, have never set eyes upon it. Because we have never dared.—Tell us, is it truly the old earl who—”
“And you’ve seen it. But we, who have lived here our whole lives, have never laid eyes on it. Because we’ve never had the courage.—Tell us, is it really the old earl who—”
“No,” said I; “it is not.”
“No,” I said; “it’s not.”
“I told you so,” said the old lady, with the glass in her hand. “It is his poor young countess who was frightened—”
“I told you so,” said the old lady, holding the glass in her hand. “It’s his poor young countess who was scared—”
“It is not,” I said. “There is neither ghost of earl nor ghost of countess in that room, there is no ghost there at all; but worse, far worse—”
“It’s not,” I said. “There’s neither a ghost of an earl nor a ghost of a countess in that room, there’s no ghost there at all; but worse, much worse—”
“Well?” they said.
"Well?" they asked.
139“The worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal man,” said I; “and that is, in all its nakedness—Fear! Fear that will not have light nor sound, that will not bear with reason, that deafens and darkens and overwhelms. It followed me through the corridor, it fought against me in the room—”
139“The worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal man,” I said; “and that is, in all its rawness—Fear! Fear that avoids light and sound, that won't listen to reason, that deafens, darkens, and overwhelms. It chased me down the hallway, it battled me in the room—”
I stopped abruptly. There was an interval of silence. My hand went up to my bandages.
I stopped suddenly. There was a moment of silence. My hand went to my bandages.
Then the man with the shade sighed and spoke. “That is it,” said he. “I knew that was it. A Power of Darkness. To put such a curse upon a woman! It lurks there always. You can feel it even in the daytime, even of a bright summer’s day, in the hangings, in the curtains, keeping behind you however you face about. In the dusk it creeps along the corridor and follows you, so that you dare not turn. There is Fear in that room of hers—black Fear, and there will be—so long as this house of sin endures.”
Then the man in the hat sighed and said, “That’s it. I knew it was. A Power of Darkness. To cast such a curse on a woman! It’s always lurking there. You can sense it even during the day, even on a bright summer day, in the drapes, in the curtains, lurking behind you no matter which way you turn. In the twilight, it sneaks down the hallway and follows you, making you afraid to look back. There’s Fear in her room—deep, dark Fear, and it will be there—as long as this house of sin exists.”
A MOTH
(GENUS UNKNOWN)
Probably you have heard of Hapley—not W. T. Hapley, the son, but the celebrated Hapley, the Hapley of Periplaneta Hapliia, Hapley the entomologist. If so, you know at least of the great feud between Hapley and Professor Pawkins, though certain of its consequences may be new to you. For those who have not, a word or two of explanation is necessary, which the idle reader may go over with a glancing eye, if his indolence so incline him.
You’ve probably heard of Hapley—not W. T. Hapley, the son, but the famous Hapley, the one from Periplaneta Hapliia, the entomologist. If you have, then you’re aware of the major feud between Hapley and Professor Pawkins, though some of the outcomes might be new to you. For those who haven’t, a brief explanation is needed, which the casual reader can skim over if they feel too lazy to engage.
It is amazing how very widely diffused is the ignorance of such really important matters as this Hapley-Pawkins feud. Those epoch-making controversies, again, that have convulsed the Geological Society, are, I verily believe, almost entirely unknown outside the fellowship of that body. I have heard men of fair general education even refer to the great scenes at these meetings as vestry-meeting squabbles. Yet the great Hate of the English and Scotch geologists has lasted now half a century, and has “left deep and abundant marks upon the body of the science.” And this Hapley-Pawkins business, though perhaps a more personal affair, stirred passions as profound, if not 141profounder. Your common man has no conception of the zeal that animates a scientific investigator, the fury of contradiction you can arouse in him. It is the odium theologicum in a new form. There are men, for instance, who would gladly burn Professor Ray Lankester at Smithfield for his treatment of the Mollusca in the Encyclopædia. That fantastic extension of the Cephalopods to cover the Pterpodos—But I wander from Hapley and Pawkins.
It's surprising how widespread the ignorance is about really important issues like the Hapley-Pawkins feud. Those groundbreaking debates that have shaken the Geological Society are, I genuinely believe, almost entirely unknown outside that group. I've heard well-educated people refer to the major events at these meetings as petty arguments. Yet, the intense rivalry between English and Scottish geologists has been going on for half a century and has "left deep and abundant marks upon the body of the science." And while the Hapley-Pawkins situation may be more personal, it stirred just as intense emotions, if not more. The average person has no idea of the passion that drives a scientific researcher or the anger you can provoke in them. It’s like a new version of the theological hatred. There are people, for example, who would happily burn Professor Ray Lankester at Smithfield for his views on Mollusca in the Encyclopædia. That outrageous categorization of Cephalopods to include the Pteropods—But I’m getting off track from Hapley and Pawkins.
It began years and years ago, with a revision of the Microlepidoptera (whatever these may be) by Pawkins, in which he extinguished a new species created by Hapley. Hapley, who was always quarrelsome, replied by a stinging impeachment of the entire classification of Pawkins.[2] Pawkins, in his “Rejoinder,”[3] suggested that Hapley’s microscope was as defective as his powers of observation, and called him an “irresponsible meddler”—Hapley was not a professor at that time. Hapley, in his retort,[4] spoke of “blundering collectors,” and described, as if inadvertently, Pawkins’s revision as a “miracle of ineptitude.” It was war to the knife. However, it would scarcely interest the reader to detail how these two great men quarrelled, and how the split 142between them widened until from the Microlepidoptera, they were at war upon every open question in entomology. There were memorable occasions. At times the Royal Entomological Society meetings resembled nothing so much as the Chamber of Deputies. On the whole, I fancy Pawkins was nearer the truth than Hapley. But Hapley was skilful with his rhetoric, had a turn for ridicule rare in a scientific man, was endowed with vast energy, and had a fine sense of injury in the matter of the extinguished species; while Pawkins was a man of dull presence, prosy of speech, in shape not unlike a water-barrel, overconscientious with testimonials, and suspected of jobbing museum appointments. So the young men gathered round Hapley and applauded him. It was a long struggle, vicious from the beginning, and growing at last to pitiless antagonism. The successive turns of fortune, now an advantage to one side and now to another—now Hapley tormented by some success of Pawkins, and now Pawkins outshone by Hapley—belong rather to the history of entomology than to this story.
It all started many years ago with a revision of the Microlepidoptera (whatever those are) by Pawkins, who invalidated a new species proposed by Hapley. Hapley, who was always confrontational, responded with a scathing critique of Pawkins’ entire classification.[2] In his “Rejoinder,”[3] Pawkins suggested that Hapley’s microscope was as flawed as his ability to observe, calling him an “irresponsible meddler”—note that Hapley was not a professor at the time. In his reply,[4] Hapley referred to “blundering collectors” and, almost accidentally, described Pawkins’s revision as a “miracle of ineptitude.” It became a fierce rivalry. However, it wouldn’t interest the reader to dive deep into how these two great figures clashed and how their disagreements expanded until they were at odds over every significant issue in entomology. There were memorable moments, and at times, meetings of the Royal Entomological Society felt more like debates in the Chamber of Deputies. Overall, I suspect Pawkins was closer to the truth than Hapley. But Hapley was skilled with his words, had a knack for humor that was rare in a scientist, was full of energy, and took great offense regarding the invalidated species. Meanwhile, Pawkins had a dull presence, was prosy in his speech, resembled a water barrel, was overly meticulous with credentials, and was suspected of manipulating museum appointments. As a result, young men flocked around Hapley, cheering him on. It was a long battle, vicious from the start, eventually escalating to relentless hostility. The ups and downs of fortune—sometimes favoring one side, sometimes the other—where Hapley was troubled by some success of Pawkins, and at other times, Pawkins was overshadowed by Hapley—are better suited for the history of entomology than for this story.
4. “Further Remarks,” &c. Ibid.
__A_TAG_PLACEHOLDER_0__. “Additional Comments,” etc. Ibid.
But in 1891 Pawkins, whose health had been bad for some time, published some work upon the “mesoblast” of the Death’s Head Moth. What the mesoblast of the Death’s Head Moth may be, does not matter a rap in this story. But the work was far below his usual standard, and gave Hapley an opening he had coveted for years. He must have 143worked night and day to make the most of his advantage.
But in 1891, Pawkins, whose health had been poor for a while, published some research on the "mesoblast" of the Death’s Head Moth. What the mesoblast of the Death’s Head Moth is doesn't really matter in this story. However, the work was far below his usual standard and gave Hapley an opportunity he had wanted for years. He must have worked night and day to capitalize on his advantage.
In an elaborate critique he rent Pawkins to tatters,—one can fancy the man’s disordered black hair, and his queer dark eyes flashing as he went for his antagonist,—and Pawkins made a reply, halting, ineffectual, with painful gaps of silence, and yet malignant. There was no mistaking his will to wound Hapley, nor his incapacity to do it. But few of those who heard him—I was absent from that meeting—realised how ill the man was.
In a detailed critique, he completely tore Pawkins apart—one can imagine the guy's messy black hair and his strange dark eyes flashing as he went after his opponent—and Pawkins responded with a reply that was hesitant, ineffective, filled with awkward pauses, and yet spiteful. There was no doubt about his desire to hurt Hapley, but it was clear he wasn't capable of doing it. However, few of those who heard him—I wasn't at that meeting—understood how unwell the man really was.
Hapley had got his opponent down, and meant to finish him. He followed with a simply brutal attack upon Pawkins, in the form of a paper upon the development of moths in general, a paper showing evidence of a most extraordinary amount of mental labour, and yet couched in a violently controversial tone. Violent as it was, an editorial note witnesses that it was modified. It must have covered Pawkins with shame and confusion of face. It left no loophole; it was murderous in argument, and utterly contemptuous in tone; an awful thing for the declining years of a man’s career.
Hapley had taken his opponent down and was determined to finish him off. He launched a brutally aggressive attack on Pawkins, presenting a paper on the development of moths in general, which demonstrated an incredible amount of mental effort, yet was written in a highly confrontational style. Despite its intensity, an editorial note indicates that it was toned down. It must have left Pawkins feeling utterly ashamed and embarrassed. There were no escape routes; it was ruthless in its argument and completely dismissive in tone; a devastating blow for a man in the later years of his career.
The world of entomologists waited breathlessly for the rejoinder from Pawkins. He would try one, for Pawkins had always been game. But when it came it surprised them. For the rejoinder of Pawkins was to catch the influenza, to proceed to pneumonia, and to die.
The world of entomologists waited anxiously for Pawkins' response. He would definitely give it a shot, since Pawkins had always been up for a challenge. But when it finally came, it shocked them. Pawkins' response was to catch the flu, develop pneumonia, and then die.
144It was perhaps as effectual a reply as he could make under the circumstances, and largely turned the current of feeling against Hapley. The very people who had most gleefully cheered on those gladiators became serious at the consequence. There could be no reasonable doubt the fret of the defeat had contributed to the death of Pawkins. There was a limit even to scientific controversy, said serious people. Another crushing attack was already in the press and appeared on the day before the funeral. I don’t think Hapley exerted himself to stop it. People remembered how Hapley had hounded down his rival, and forgot that rival’s defects. Scathing satire reads ill over fresh mould. The thing provoked comment in the daily papers. This it was that made me think that you had probably heard of Hapley and this controversy. But, as I have already remarked, scientific workers live very much in a world of their own; half the people, I dare say, who go along Piccadilly to the Academy every year, could not tell you where the learned societies abide. Many even think that Research is a kind of happy-family cage in which all kinds of men lie down together in peace.
144It was probably the best response he could give given the situation, and it significantly shifted public opinion against Hapley. The same individuals who had excitedly cheered on those competitors grew serious about the aftermath. There was no doubt that the stress of the loss had played a part in Pawkins's death. Even serious folks acknowledged that there’s a limit to scientific debates. Another harsh criticism was already being printed and came out the day before the funeral. I doubt Hapley tried to stop it. People recalled how Hapley had relentlessly pursued his rival, overlooking that rival’s shortcomings. Bitter satire doesn’t sit well over fresh graves. This stirred up discussions in the daily newspapers. This made me think you might have heard about Hapley and this controversy. But, as I mentioned before, scientists often exist in their own bubble; I’d wager that half of the people strolling along Piccadilly to the Academy every year couldn’t tell you where the academic societies are located. Many even believe that Research is some kind of utopia where different people coexist peacefully.
In his private thoughts Hapley could not forgive Pawkins for dying. In the first place, it was a mean dodge to escape the absolute pulverisation Hapley had in hand for him, and in the second, it left Hapley’s mind with a queer gap in it. For 145twenty years he had worked hard, sometimes far into the night, and seven days a week, with microscope, scalpel, collecting-net, and pen, and almost entirely with reference to Pawkins. The European reputation he had won had come as an incident in that great antipathy. He had gradually worked up to a climax in this last controversy. It had killed Pawkins, but it had also thrown Hapley out of gear, so to speak, and his doctor advised him to give up work for a time, and rest. So Hapley went down into a quiet village in Kent, and thought day and night of Pawkins, and good things it was now impossible to say about him.
In his private thoughts, Hapley couldn't forgive Pawkins for dying. First of all, it was a cowardly way to avoid the total defeat Hapley had planned for him, and secondly, it left a strange gap in Hapley's mind. For twenty years, he had worked hard, often late into the night and seven days a week, using his microscope, scalpel, collecting-net, and pen, and almost entirely focused on Pawkins. The European reputation he had gained was just a byproduct of that deep rivalry. He had gradually built up to a peak in their last conflict. It had killed Pawkins, but it had also thrown Hapley off balance, so to speak, and his doctor advised him to take a break and rest. So, Hapley went down to a quiet village in Kent and thought day and night about Pawkins, and the nice things he could no longer say about him.
At last Hapley began to realise in what direction the preoccupation tended. He determined to make a fight for it, and started by trying to read novels. But he could not get his mind off Pawkins, white in the face, and making his last speech—every sentence a beautiful opening for Hapley. He turned to fiction—and found it had no grip on him. He read the “Island Nights’ Entertainments” until his “sense of causation” was shocked beyond endurance by the Bottle Imp. Then he went to Kipling, and found he “proved nothing,” besides being irreverent and vulgar. These scientific people have their limitations. Then, unhappily, he tried Besant’s “Inner House,” and the opening chapter set his mind upon learned societies and Pawkins at once.
At last, Hapley started to realize where his thoughts were leading him. He decided to make an effort and began by trying to read novels. But he couldn't stop thinking about Pawkins, pale and making his final speech—every line a perfect opportunity for Hapley. He turned to fiction and discovered it didn’t engage him. He read the “Island Nights’ Entertainments” until the Bottle Imp completely shattered his “sense of causation.” Then he tried Kipling but found that he “proved nothing,” and was also irreverent and crude. These scientific people have their limits. Then, unfortunately, he attempted Besant’s “Inner House,” and the first chapter immediately turned his thoughts to scholarly societies and Pawkins.
146So Hapley turned to chess, and found it a little more soothing. He soon mastered the moves and the chief gambits and commoner closing positions, and began to beat the Vicar. But then the cylindrical contours of the opposite king began to resemble Pawkins standing up and gasping ineffectually against checkmate, and Hapley decided to give up chess.
146So Hapley turned to chess, and found it a bit more relaxing. He quickly learned the moves, the main strategies, and basic endgame positions, and he started to beat the Vicar. But then the round shape of the opposing king began to look like Pawkins standing up and struggling helplessly against checkmate, and Hapley decided to quit chess.
Perhaps the study of some new branch of science would after all be better diversion. The best rest is change of occupation. Hapley determined to plunge at diatoms, and had one of his smaller microscopes and Halibut’s monograph sent down from London. He thought that perhaps if he could get up a vigorous quarrel with Halibut, he might be able to begin life afresh and forget Pawkins. And very soon he was hard at work, in his habitual strenuous fashion, at these microscopic denizens of the wayside pool.
Perhaps studying a new branch of science would be a better distraction after all. The best way to rest is to change your activity. Hapley decided to dive into diatoms and had one of his smaller microscopes and Halibut’s monograph sent down from London. He thought that if he could start a heated argument with Halibut, he might be able to start fresh and forget about Pawkins. And before long, he was hard at work, in his usual intense manner, with these microscopic residents of the wayside pool.
It was on the third day of the diatoms that Hapley became aware of a novel addition to the local fauna. He was working late at the microscope, and the only light in the room was the brilliant little lamp with the special form of green shade. Like all experienced microscopists, he kept both eyes open. It is the only way to avoid excessive fatigue. One eye was over the instrument, and bright and distinct before that was the circular field of the microscope, across which a brown diatom was slowly moving. With the 147other eye Hapley saw, as it were, without seeing.[5] He was only dimly conscious of the brass side of the instrument, the illuminated part of the table-cloth, a sheet of notepaper, the foot of the lamp, and the darkened room beyond.
It was on the third day of studying the diatoms that Hapley noticed a new addition to the local wildlife. He was working late at the microscope, and the only light in the room came from a bright little lamp with a unique green shade. Like all seasoned microscopists, he kept both eyes open. This is the only way to prevent too much fatigue. One eye was focused on the instrument, and clearly in view was the circular field of the microscope, across which a brown diatom was slowly moving. With his other eye, Hapley saw, in a sense, without actually seeing. He was only vaguely aware of the brass side of the instrument, the lit part of the tablecloth, a sheet of notepaper, the lamp's base, and the dim room beyond.
5. The reader unaccustomed to microscopes may easily understand this by rolling a newspaper in the form of a tube and looking through it at a book, keeping the other eye open.
5. A reader who isn't used to microscopes can easily grasp this by rolling a newspaper into a tube and looking through it at a book while keeping the other eye open.
Suddenly his attention drifted from one eye to the other. The table-cloth was of the material called tapestry by shopmen, and rather brightly coloured. The pattern was in gold, with a small amount of crimson and pale-blue upon a greyish ground. At one point the pattern seemed displaced, and there was a vibrating movement of the colours at this point.
Suddenly, his focus shifted from one eye to the other. The tablecloth was made of a fabric known as tapestry by sellers, and it was quite colorful. The pattern featured gold, with a little bit of crimson and light blue on a grayish background. At one spot, the pattern looked off, and there was a flickering movement of the colors at that spot.
Hapley suddenly moved his head back and looked with both eyes. His mouth fell open with astonishment.
Hapley abruptly tilted his head back and stared with both eyes. His mouth dropped open in surprise.
It was a large moth or butterfly; its wings spread in butterfly fashion!
It was a large moth or butterfly; its wings spread out like a butterfly!
It was strange it should be in the room at all, for the windows were closed. Strange that it should not have attracted his attention when fluttering to its present position. Strange that it should match the table-cloth. Stranger far to him, Hapley, the great entomologist, it was altogether unknown. There was no delusion. It was crawling slowly towards the foot of the lamp.
It was weird that it was in the room at all, since the windows were shut. Odd that he hadn't noticed it fluttering to its current spot. Odd that it matched the tablecloth. Even stranger to him, Hapley, the renowned entomologist, it was completely unknown. There was no mistake. It was crawling slowly toward the base of the lamp.
148“Genus unknown, by heavens! And in England!” said Hapley, staring.
148“Genus unknown, I can't believe it! And in England!” said Hapley, staring.
Then he suddenly thought of Pawkins. Nothing would have maddened Pawkins more—And Pawkins was dead!
Then he suddenly thought of Pawkins. Nothing would have driven Pawkins crazier—And Pawkins was dead!
Something about the head and body of the insect became singularly suggestive of Pawkins, just as the chess king had been.
Something about the head and body of the insect made it strikingly reminiscent of Pawkins, just like the chess king had been.
“Confound Pawkins!” said Hapley. “But I must catch this.” And, looking round him for some means of capturing the moth, he rose slowly out of his chair. Suddenly the insect rose, struck the edge of the lamp-shade—Hapley heard the “ping”—and vanished into the shadow.
“Damn Pawkins!” said Hapley. “But I have to catch this.” And, looking around for something to capture the moth with, he slowly got up from his chair. Suddenly, the insect flew up, hit the edge of the lamp shade—Hapley heard the “ping”—and disappeared into the darkness.
In a moment Hapley had whipped off the shade, so that the whole room was illuminated. The thing had disappeared, but soon his practised eye detected it upon the wall-paper near the door. He went towards it, poising the lamp-shade for capture. Before he was within striking distance, however, it had risen and was fluttering round the room. After the fashion of its kind, it flew with sudden starts and turns, seeming to vanish here and reappear there. Once Hapley struck, and missed; then again.
In an instant, Hapley had pulled off the shade, flooding the room with light. The thing had vanished, but soon his trained eye spotted it on the wallpaper near the door. He moved closer, holding the lamp-shade ready to catch it. Before he got within reach, though, it lifted and started fluttering around the room. Like it usually did, it flew with quick bursts and twists, seeming to disappear in one spot and reappear in another. Hapley swung at it once and missed; then he tried again.
The third time he hit his microscope. The instrument swayed, struck and overturned the lamp, and fell noisily upon the floor. The lamp turned over on the table and, very luckily, went out. Hapley was left in the dark. With a 149start he felt the strange moth blunder into his face.
The third time he bumped into his microscope. The device wobbled, hit the lamp, and toppled over, crashing loudly onto the floor. The lamp fell off the table and, fortunately, went out. Hapley was left in the dark. Suddenly, he felt the weird moth collide with his face.
It was maddening. He had no lights. If he opened the door of the room the thing would get away. In the darkness he saw Pawkins quite distinctly laughing at him. Pawkins had ever an oily laugh. He swore furiously and stamped his foot on the floor.
It was infuriating. He had no lights. If he opened the door to the room, it would escape. In the darkness, he could see Pawkins clearly laughing at him. Pawkins always had a slimy laugh. He cursed angrily and stomped his foot on the floor.
There was a timid rapping at the door.
There was a soft knock at the door.
Then it opened, perhaps a foot, and very slowly. The alarmed face of the landlady appeared behind a pink candle flame; she wore a night-cap over her grey hair and had some purple garment over her shoulders. “What was that fearful smash?” she said. “Has anything—” The strange moth appeared fluttering about the chink of the door. “Shut that door!” said Hapley, and suddenly rushed at her.
Then it opened, maybe a foot, and very slowly. The worried face of the landlady showed behind a pink candle flame; she had a nightcap on over her gray hair and a purple wrap over her shoulders. “What was that awful crash?” she asked. “Has anything—” The strange moth started fluttering around the crack in the door. “Shut that door!” Hapley shouted and suddenly rushed at her.
The door slammed hastily. Hapley was left alone in the dark. Then in the pause he heard his landlady scuttle upstairs, lock her door and drag something heavy across the room and put against it.
The door slammed shut quickly. Hapley was left alone in the dark. In the silence, he heard his landlady rush upstairs, lock her door, drag something heavy across the room, and put it against the door.
It became evident to Hapley that his conduct and appearance had been strange and alarming. Confound the moth! and Pawkins! However, it was a pity to lose the moth now. He felt his way into the hall and found the matches, after sending his hat down upon the floor with a noise like a drum. With the lighted candle he returned 150to the sitting-room. No moth was to be seen. Yet once for a moment it seemed that the thing was fluttering round his head. Hapley very suddenly decided to give up the moth and go to bed. But he was excited. All night long his sleep was broken by dreams of the moth, Pawkins, and his landlady. Twice in the night he turned out and soused his head in cold water.
It became clear to Hapley that his behavior and appearance had been odd and concerning. Curse the moth! and Pawkins! Still, it was a shame to lose the moth now. He carefully made his way into the hall and found the matches, after dropping his hat on the floor with a loud thud. With the lit candle, he went back to the sitting room. No moth was in sight. Yet for a brief moment, it felt like the creature was fluttering around his head. Hapley quickly decided to forget about the moth and go to bed. But he was restless. All night, his sleep was interrupted by dreams of the moth, Pawkins, and his landlady. Twice during the night, he got up and splashed his face with cold water.
One thing was very clear to him. His landlady could not possibly understand about the strange moth, especially as he had failed to catch it. No one but an entomologist would understand quite how he felt. She was probably frightened at his behaviour, and yet he failed to see how he could explain it. He decided to say nothing further about the events of last night. After breakfast he saw her in her garden, and decided to go out to talk to her to reassure her. He talked to her about beans and potatoes, bees, caterpillars, and the price of fruit. She replied in her usual manner, but she looked at him a little suspiciously, and kept walking as he walked, so that there was always a bed of flowers, or a row of beans, or something of the sort, between them. After a while he began to feel singularly irritated at this, and to conceal his vexation went indoors and presently went out for a walk.
One thing was really clear to him. His landlady could not possibly understand the weird moth, especially since he hadn't managed to catch it. No one but an entomologist would truly get how he felt. She was probably scared by his behavior, and yet he couldn’t see how to explain it. He decided not to say anything more about what happened last night. After breakfast, he saw her in her garden and decided to go out to talk to her to put her at ease. He chatted with her about beans and potatoes, bees, caterpillars, and fruit prices. She responded as usual, but she looked at him a bit suspiciously and kept walking alongside him, so there was always a flowerbed or a row of beans or something similar between them. After a while, he started to feel oddly irritated by this, and to hide his annoyance, he went back inside and eventually went out for a walk.
The moth—or butterfly, trailing an odd flavour of Pawkins with it, kept coming into that walk, though he did his best to keep his mind off it. 151Once he saw it quite distinctly, with its wings flattened out, upon the old stone wall that runs along the west edge of the park, but going up to it he found it was only two lumps of grey and yellow lichen. “This,” said Hapley, “is the reverse of mimicry. Instead of a butterfly looking like a stone, here is a stone looking like a butterfly!” Once something hovered and fluttered round his head, but by an effort of will he drove that impression out of his mind again.
The moth—or butterfly, carrying a strange scent of Pawkins with it, kept appearing in that walk, although he tried his best to ignore it. 151 Once he saw it clearly, with its wings spread out, on the old stone wall that runs along the west side of the park, but when he got closer, he realized it was just two patches of grey and yellow lichen. “This,” said Hapley, “is the opposite of mimicry. Instead of a butterfly resembling a stone, here’s a stone that looks like a butterfly!” At one point, something hovered and fluttered around his head, but he managed to push that thought out of his mind.
In the afternoon Hapley called upon the Vicar, and argued with him upon theological questions. They sat in the little arbour covered with briar, and smoked as they wrangled. “Look at that moth!” said Hapley, suddenly, pointing to the edge of the wooden table.
In the afternoon, Hapley visited the Vicar and debated theological questions with him. They sat in the small arbor covered in briars, smoking as they argued. “Look at that moth!” Hapley said suddenly, pointing to the edge of the wooden table.
“Where?” said the Vicar.
"Where?" asked the Vicar.
“You don’t see a moth on the edge of the table there?” said Hapley.
“You don’t see a moth on the edge of the table there?” Hapley asked.
“Certainly not,” said the Vicar.
"Definitely not," said the Vicar.
Hapley was thunderstruck. He gasped. The Vicar was staring at him. Clearly the man saw nothing. “The eye of faith is no better than the eye of science,” said Hapley, awkwardly.
Hapley was shocked. He gasped. The Vicar was staring at him. Clearly, the man saw nothing. “Faith isn’t any better than science,” said Hapley, awkwardly.
“I don’t see your point,” said the Vicar, thinking it was part of the argument.
“I don’t get your point,” said the Vicar, assuming it was part of the argument.
That night Hapley found the moth crawling over his counterpane. He sat on the edge of the bed in his shirt-sleeves and reasoned with himself. Was it pure hallucination? He knew he was 152slipping, and he battled for his sanity with the same silent energy he had formerly displayed against Pawkins. So persistent is mental habit, that he felt as if it were still a struggle with Pawkins. He was well versed in psychology. He knew that such visual illusions do come as a result of mental strain. But the point was, he did not only see the moth, he had heard it when it touched the edge of the lamp-shade, and afterwards when it hit against the wall, and he had felt it strike his face in the dark.
That night, Hapley found a moth crawling on his blanket. He sat on the edge of the bed in his undershirt and thought it through. Was it just a hallucination? He knew he was losing his grip, and he fought for his sanity with the same quiet determination he had once shown against Pawkins. Mental habits are so persistent that it felt like he was still wrestling with Pawkins. He was knowledgeable about psychology. He understood that such visual illusions can result from mental strain. But the thing was, he didn’t just see the moth; he heard it when it brushed against the lampshade, and later when it bumped into the wall, and he felt it hit his face in the dark.
He looked at it. It was not at all dreamlike, but perfectly clear and solid-looking in the candlelight. He saw the hairy body, and the short, feathery antennæ, the jointed legs, even a place where the down was rubbed from the wing. He suddenly felt angry with himself for being afraid of a little insect.
He looked at it. It wasn’t dreamlike at all, but completely clear and solid in the candlelight. He saw the hairy body, the short, feathery antennae, the jointed legs, even a spot where the down was rubbed off the wing. Suddenly, he felt angry with himself for being scared of a tiny insect.
His landlady had got the servant to sleep with her that night, because she was afraid to be alone. In addition she had locked the door, and put the chest of drawers against it. They listened and talked in whispers after they had gone to bed, but nothing occurred to alarm them. About eleven they had ventured to put the candle out, and had both dozed off to sleep. They woke up with a start, and sat up in bed, listening in the darkness.
His landlady had gotten the servant to sleep over that night because she was scared to be alone. Plus, she had locked the door and pushed the chest of drawers against it. They whispered and talked after getting into bed, but nothing happened to scare them. Around eleven, they decided to put out the candle and both dozed off. They jolted awake and sat up in bed, listening in the dark.
Then they heard slippered feet going to and fro in Hapley’s room. A chair was overturned, and there was a violent dab at the wall. Then a china 153mantel ornament smashed upon the fender. Suddenly the door of the room opened, and they heard him upon the landing. They clung to one another, listening. He seemed to be dancing upon the staircase. Now he would go down three or four steps quickly, then up again, then hurry down into the hall. They heard the umbrella-stand go over, and the fanlight break. Then the bolt shot and the chain rattled. He was opening the door.
Then they heard footsteps in slippers moving back and forth in Hapley’s room. A chair toppled over, and there was a loud thump against the wall. Then a china mantel ornament shattered against the fender. Suddenly the door to the room opened, and they heard him on the landing. They clung to each other, listening. It sounded like he was dancing on the staircase. He would rush down three or four steps quickly, then up again, then hurry down into the hall. They heard the umbrella stand fall over and the fanlight shatter. Then the bolt clicked, and the chain rattled. He was opening the door.
They hurried to the window. It was a dim grey night; an almost unbroken sheet of watery cloud was sweeping across the moon, and the hedge and trees in front of the house were black against the pale roadway. They saw Hapley, looking like a ghost in his shirt and white trousers, running to and fro in the road, and beating the air. Now he would stop, now he would dart very rapidly at something invisible, now he would move upon it with stealthy strides. At last he went out of sight up the road towards the down. Then, while they argued who should go down and lock the door, he returned. He was walking very fast, and he came straight into the house, closed the door carefully, and went quietly up to his bedroom. Then everything was silent.
They rushed to the window. It was a dim gray night; a nearly continuous sheet of cloudy mist was covering the moon, and the hedge and trees in front of the house were black against the pale road. They saw Hapley, looking like a ghost in his shirt and white pants, running back and forth in the street, waving his arms. Sometimes he would stop, sometimes he would quickly dart at something invisible, and other times he would creep up on it quietly. Finally, he disappeared up the road toward the hill. Then, while they debated who should go down and lock the door, he came back. He was walking very quickly, and he came straight into the house, closed the door gently, and went quietly up to his bedroom. Then everything went silent.
“Mrs. Colville,” said Hapley, calling down the staircase next morning. “I hope I did not alarm you last night.”
“Mrs. Colville,” Hapley said, calling down the staircase the next morning. “I hope I didn’t scare you last night.”
“You may well ask that!” said Mrs. Colville.
"You might really ask that!" said Mrs. Colville.
154“The fact is, I am a sleep-walker, and the last two nights I have been without my sleeping mixture. There is nothing to be alarmed about, really. I am sorry I made such an ass of myself. I will go over the down to Shoreham, and get some stuff to make me sleep soundly. I ought to have done that yesterday.”
154“The truth is, I'm a sleepwalker, and for the past two nights, I haven't had my sleeping medicine. There's nothing to worry about, honestly. I apologize for how foolish I acted. I'll head down to Shoreham and pick up something to help me sleep well. I should have done that yesterday.”
But half-way over the down, by the chalk-pits, the moth came upon Hapley again. He went on, trying to keep his mind upon chess problems, but it was no good. The thing fluttered into his face, and he struck at it with his hat in self-defence. Then rage, the old rage—the rage he had so often felt against Pawkins—returned once more. He went on, leaping and striking at the eddying insect. Suddenly he trod on nothing, and fell headlong.
But halfway across the hill, near the chalk pits, the moth encountered Hapley again. He kept trying to focus on chess problems, but it wasn't working. The moth flew into his face, and he swatted at it with his hat to defend himself. Then the familiar rage—the rage he had often felt toward Pawkins—came back. He continued, jumping and swatting at the swirling insect. Suddenly, he stepped on nothing and fell flat on his face.
There was a gap in his sensations, and Hapley found himself sitting on the heap of flints in front of the opening of the chalk-pits, with a leg twisted back under him. The strange moth was still fluttering round his head. He struck at it with his hand, and turning his head saw two men approaching him. One was the village doctor. It occurred to Hapley that this was lucky. Then it came into his mind, with extraordinary vividness, that no one would ever be able to see the strange moth except himself, and that it behoved him to keep silent about it.
There was a gap in his feelings, and Hapley found himself sitting on a pile of flints in front of the chalk-pit opening, with one leg twisted awkwardly underneath him. The strange moth was still fluttering around his head. He swatted at it with his hand and turned his head to see two men walking toward him. One was the village doctor. Hapley thought that this was fortunate. Then it hit him, with startling clarity, that no one would ever be able to see the strange moth except for him, and that he should keep quiet about it.
Late that night, however, after his broken leg was set, he was feverish and forgot his self-restraint. 155He was lying flat on his bed, and he began to run his eyes round the room to see if the moth was still about. He tried not to do this, but it was no good. He soon caught sight of the thing resting close to his hand, by the night-light, on the green table-cloth. The wings quivered. With a sudden wave of anger he smote at it with his fist, and the nurse woke up with a shriek. He had missed it.
Late that night, after his broken leg was set, he was feverish and lost his self-control. 155 He was lying flat on his bed and started scanning the room to see if the moth was still around. He tried to avoid doing this, but it was futile. He soon spotted the creature resting close to his hand, by the night-light, on the green tablecloth. The wings fluttered. With a sudden surge of anger, he swung at it with his fist, and the nurse woke up with a scream. He had missed it.
“That moth!” he said; and then, “It was fancy. Nothing!”
“That moth!” he said, and then, “It was just a figment of my imagination. Nothing!”
All the time he could see quite clearly the insect going round the cornice and darting across the room, and he could also see that the nurse saw nothing of it and looked at him strangely. He must keep himself in hand. He knew he was a lost man if he did not keep himself in hand. But as the night waned the fever grew upon him, and the very dread he had of seeing the moth made him see it. About five, just as the dawn was grey, he tried to get out of bed and catch it, though his leg was afire with pain. The nurse had to struggle with him.
All the time, he could clearly see the insect moving around the edge of the ceiling and darting across the room, and he could tell that the nurse didn’t notice it and looked at him strangely. He had to stay in control. He knew he was finished if he couldn’t keep himself together. But as the night went on, the fever intensified, and the very fear he had of seeing the moth made him see it. Around five, just as dawn was breaking, he tried to get out of bed and catch it, even though his leg was burning with pain. The nurse had to struggle with him.
On account of this, they tied him down to the bed. At this the moth grew bolder, and once he felt it settle in his hair. Then, because he struck out violently with his arms, they tied these also. At this the moth came and crawled over his face, and Hapley wept, swore, screamed, prayed for them to take it off him, unavailingly.
On account of this, they tied him down to the bed. At this, the moth grew bolder, and he felt it settle in his hair. Then, since he flailed his arms wildly, they tied those up too. The moth then crawled over his face, and Hapley cried, cursed, screamed, and prayed for them to get it off him, but to no avail.
156The doctor was a blockhead, a half-qualified general practitioner, and quite ignorant of mental science. He simply said there was no moth. Had he possessed the wit, he might still, perhaps, have saved Hapley from his fate by entering into his delusion and covering his face with gauze, as he prayed might be done. But, as I say, the doctor was a blockhead, and until the leg was healed Hapley was kept tied to his bed, and with the imaginary moth crawling over him. It never left him while he was awake and it grew to a monster in his dreams. While he was awake he longed for sleep, and from sleep he awoke screaming.
156The doctor was clueless, a barely qualified general practitioner, and completely unaware of mental health. He just stated that there was no moth. If he had been smarter, he might have saved Hapley from his fate by engaging with his delusion and covering his face with gauze, as he wished could be done. But, as I said, the doctor was clueless, and until the leg healed, Hapley was stuck tied to his bed, with the imaginary moth crawling over him. It never left him while he was awake and turned into a monster in his dreams. While awake, he longed for sleep, and when he did sleep, he woke up screaming.
So now Hapley is spending the remainder of his days in a padded room, worried by a moth that no one else can see. The asylum doctor calls it hallucination; but Hapley, when he is in his easier mood, and can talk, says it is the ghost of Pawkins, and consequently a unique specimen and well worth the trouble of catching.
So now Hapley is spending the rest of his days in a padded room, bothered by a moth that no one else can see. The asylum doctor refers to it as a hallucination, but Hapley, when he’s in a better mood and can talk, says it’s the ghost of Pawkins, and therefore a unique specimen and definitely worth the effort to catch.
IN THE ABYSS
The lieutenant stood in front of the steel sphere and gnawed a piece of pine splinter. “What do you think of it, Steevens?” he asked.
The lieutenant stood in front of the steel sphere and chewed on a piece of pine splinter. “What do you think of it, Steevens?” he asked.
“It’s an idea,” said Steevens, in the tone of one who keeps an open mind.
“It’s an idea,” Steevens said, sounding like someone who’s keeping an open mind.
“I believe it will smash—flat,” said the lieutenant.
"I think it will crash—hard," said the lieutenant.
“He seems to have calculated it all out pretty well,” said Steevens, still impartial.
“He seems to have figured it all out pretty well,” said Steevens, still neutral.
“But think of the pressure,” said the lieutenant. “At the surface of the water it’s fourteen pounds to the inch, thirty feet down it’s double that; sixty, treble; ninety, four times; nine hundred, forty times; five thousand three hundred—that’s a mile—it’s two hundred and forty times fourteen pounds; that’s—let’s see—thirty hundredweight—a ton and a half, Steevens; a ton and a half to the square inch. And the ocean where he’s going is five miles deep. That’s seven and a half—”
“But think about the pressure,” said the lieutenant. “At the surface of the water, it’s fourteen pounds per square inch; thirty feet down, it’s double that; sixty feet, three times; ninety feet, four times; nine hundred feet, forty times; five thousand three hundred feet—that’s a mile—it’s two hundred and forty times fourteen pounds. That’s—let’s see—thirty hundredweight—a ton and a half, Steevens; a ton and a half per square inch. And the ocean where he’s heading is five miles deep. That’s seven and a half—”
“Sounds a lot,” said Steevens, “but it’s jolly thick steel.”
“Sounds like a lot,” said Steevens, “but it’s really tough steel.”
The lieutenant made no answer, but resumed his pine splinter. The object of their conversation 158was a huge globe of steel, having an exterior diameter of perhaps eight feet. It looked like the shot for some Titanic piece of artillery. It was elaborately nested in a monstrous scaffolding built into the framework of the vessel, and the gigantic spars that were presently to sling it overboard gave the stern of the ship an appearance that had raised the curiosity of every decent sailor who had sighted it, from the pool of London to the Tropic of Capricorn. In two places, one above the other, the steel gave place to a couple of circular windows of enormously thick glass, and one of these, set in a steel frame of great solidity, was now partially unscrewed. Both the men had seen the interior of this globe for the first time that morning. It was elaborately padded with air cushions, with little studs sunk between bulging pillows to work the simple mechanism of the affair. Everything was elaborately padded, even the Myer’s apparatus which was to absorb carbonic acid and replace the oxygen inspired by its tenant, when he had crept in by the glass manhole, and had been screwed in. It was so elaborately padded that a man might have been fired from a gun in it with perfect safety. And it had need to be, for presently a man was to crawl in through that glass manhole, to be screwed up tightly, and to be flung overboard, and to sink down—down—down, for five miles, even as the lieutenant said. It had taken the strongest hold of his imagination; it made him a bore at 159mess; and he found Steevens, the new arrival aboard, a godsend to talk to about it, over and over again.
The lieutenant didn’t respond but went back to his pine splinter. Their conversation was about a massive steel globe, roughly eight feet in diameter. It looked like a projectile for some gigantic cannon. It was intricately set within a huge scaffolding built into the ship's framework, and the enormous beams that were meant to hoist it overboard gave the back of the ship an appearance that captured the curiosity of every decent sailor who had seen it, from the pool of London to the Tropic of Capricorn. In two places, one above the other, the steel was replaced by a couple of circular windows made of extremely thick glass, and one of these, framed in robust steel, was partially unscrewed. Both men had seen the inside of this globe for the first time that morning. It was padded with air cushions, featuring little studs nestled between bulging pillows to operate the simple mechanism. Everything was heavily padded, even the Myer’s apparatus that would absorb carbon dioxide and replace the oxygen for its occupant, when he crawled in through the glass manhole and got secured inside. It was so well-padded that a person could have been shot from a cannon in it without any danger. And it was necessary, as soon a man would crawl in through that glass manhole, be tightly secured, then thrown overboard, sinking down—down—down for five miles, just as the lieutenant had said. It had taken complete hold of his imagination; it made him a bore at the mess; and he found Steevens, the new arrival aboard, a great person to talk to about it repeatedly.
“It’s my opinion,” said the lieutenant, “that that glass will simply bend in and bulge and smash, under a pressure of that sort. Daubrée has made rocks run like water under big pressures—and, you mark my words—”
“It’s my opinion,” said the lieutenant, “that glass will just bend in, bulge, and break under that kind of pressure. Daubrée has made rocks flow like water under high pressures—and you can take my word for it—”
“If the glass did break in,” said Steevens, “what then?”
“If the glass broke in,” said Steevens, “what then?”
“The water would shoot in like a jet of iron. Have you ever felt a straight jet of high pressure water? It would hit as hard as a bullet. It would simply smash him and flatten him. It would tear down his throat, and into his lungs; it would blow in his ears—”
“The water would blast in like a jet of iron. Have you ever experienced a direct high-pressure water jet? It would strike as forcefully as a bullet. It would completely crush him and flatten him. It would surge down his throat and into his lungs; it would burst into his ears—”
“What a detailed imagination you have,” protested Steevens, who saw things vividly.
“What a vivid imagination you have,” protested Steevens, who saw things clearly.
“It’s a simple statement of the inevitable,” said the lieutenant.
“It’s a simple statement of the inevitable,” said the lieutenant.
“And the globe?”
"And what about the globe?"
“Would just give out a few little bubbles, and it would settle down, comfortably against the day of judgment, among the oozes and the bottom clay—with poor Elstead spread over his own smashed cushions like butter over bread.”
“Would just let out a few little bubbles, and it would settle down, comfortably preparing for the day of judgment, among the sludge and the bottom clay—with poor Elstead sprawled over his own crushed cushions like butter on bread.”
He repeated this sentence as though he liked it very much. “Like butter over bread,” he said.
He said this line like he really enjoyed it. “Like butter on bread,” he said.
“Having a look at the jigger?” said a voice behind them, and Elstead stood behind them, 160spick and span in white, with a cigarette between his teeth, and his eyes smiling out of the shadow of his ample hat-brim. “What’s that about bread and butter, Weybridge? Grumbling as usual about the insufficient pay of naval officers? It won’t be more than a day now before I start. We are to get the slings ready to-day. This clean sky and gentle swell is just the kind of thing for swinging off twenty tons of lead and iron; isn’t it?”
“Checking out the jigger?” said a voice behind them, and Elstead stood there, all dressed up in white, with a cigarette between his teeth and a smile peeking out from under the wide brim of his hat. “What’s this about bread and butter, Weybridge? Complaining again about how little naval officers get paid? It won't be long now before I leave. We need to get the slings ready today. This clear sky and gentle swell are perfect for swinging off twenty tons of lead and iron; don’t you think?”
“It won’t affect you much,” said Weybridge.
“It won’t impact you that much,” said Weybridge.
“No. Seventy or eighty feet down, and I shall be there in a dozen seconds, there’s not a particle moving, though the wind shriek itself hoarse up above, and the water lifts halfway to the clouds. No. Down there—.” He moved to the side of the ship and the other two followed him. All three leant forward on their elbows and stared down into the yellow-green water.
"No. Seventy or eighty feet down, and I'll be there in about twelve seconds. Nothing is moving, even though the wind is screaming itself hoarse up above, and the water rises halfway to the clouds. No. Down there—." He moved to the side of the ship, and the other two followed him. All three leaned forward on their elbows and stared down into the yellow-green water.
“Peace,” said Elstead, finishing his thought aloud.
“Peace,” said Elstead, completing his thought out loud.
“Are you dead certain that clockwork will act?” asked Weybridge, presently.
“Are you absolutely sure that the clockwork will work?” asked Weybridge, just then.
“It has worked thirty-five times,” said Elstead. “It’s bound to work.”
“It has worked thirty-five times,” Elstead said. “It’s sure to work.”
“But if it doesn’t?”
“But what if it doesn’t?”
“Why shouldn’t it?”
"Why not?"
“I wouldn’t go down in that confounded thing,” said Weybridge, “for twenty thousand pounds.”
“I wouldn’t go down in that ridiculous thing,” said Weybridge, “for twenty thousand pounds.”
“Cheerful chap you are,” said Elstead, and spat sociably at a bubble below.
“Cheerful guy you are,” said Elstead, and spat casually at a bubble below.
161“I don’t understand yet how you mean to work the thing,” said Steevens.
161“I still don’t get how you plan to do this,” said Steevens.
“In the first place I’m screwed into the sphere,” said Elstead, “and when I’ve turned the electric light off and on three times to show I’m cheerful, I’m swung out over the stern by that crane, with all those big lead sinkers slung below me. The top lead weight has a roller carrying a hundred fathoms of strong cord rolled up, and that’s all that joins the sinkers to the sphere, except the slings that will be cut when the affair is dropped. We use cord rather than wire rope because it’s easier to cut and more buoyant—necessary points as you will see.
“In the first place, I'm strapped into the sphere,” said Elstead, “and after I flip the electric light off and on three times to show I'm feeling upbeat, I'm hoisted out over the stern by that crane, with all those heavy lead sinkers hanging below me. The top lead weight has a roller that holds a hundred fathoms of strong cord rolled up, and that’s all that connects the sinkers to the sphere, besides the slings that will be cut when the whole thing is released. We use cord instead of wire rope because it’s easier to cut and more buoyant—important factors, as you’ll see.”
“Through each of these lead weights you notice there is a hole, and an iron rod will be run through that and will project six feet on the lower side. If that rod is rammed up from below it knocks up a lever and sets the clockwork in motion at the side of the cylinder on which the cord winds.
“Through each of these lead weights, you’ll see there’s a hole, and an iron rod will be passed through that, projecting six feet on the lower side. If that rod is pushed up from below, it activates a lever and starts the clockwork on the side of the cylinder where the cord wraps around.”
“Very well. The whole affair is lowered gently into the water, and the slings are cut. The sphere floats—with the air in it, it’s lighter than water; but the lead weights go down straight and the cord runs out. When the cord is all paid out, the sphere will go down too, pulled down by the cord.”
“Alright. The whole setup is gently lowered into the water, and the straps are cut. The sphere floats—filled with air, it’s lighter than water; but the lead weights sink straight down and the rope extends. Once the rope is fully unwound, the sphere will sink too, pulled down by the rope.”
“But why the cord?” asked Steevens. “Why not fasten the weights directly to the sphere?”
“But why the cord?” asked Steevens. “Why not attach the weights directly to the sphere?”
“Because of the smash down below. The 162whole affair will go rushing down, mile after mile, at a headlong pace at last. It would be knocked to pieces on the bottom if it wasn’t for that cord. But the weights will hit the bottom, and directly they do the buoyancy of the sphere will come into play. It will go on sinking slower and slower; come to a stop at last and then begin to float upward again.
“Because of the crash down below. The 162whole situation will go racing down, mile after mile, at a breakneck speed eventually. It would be shattered at the bottom if it weren’t for that cord. But the weights will hit the bottom, and as soon as they do, the buoyancy of the sphere will kick in. It will continue sinking slower and slower; come to a stop eventually and then start to float back up again.
“That’s where the clockwork comes in. Directly the weights smash against the sea bottom, the rod will be knocked through and will kick up the clockwork, and the cord will be rewound on the reel. I shall be lugged down to the sea bottom. There I shall stay for half an hour, with the electric light on, looking about me. Then the clockwork will release a spring knife, the cord will be cut, and up I shall rush again, like a soda-water bubble. The cord itself will help the flotation.”
“That’s where the clock mechanism comes in. As soon as the weights hit the seabed, the rod will be pushed through, activating the clock mechanism, and the line will be rewound on the reel. I’ll be pulled down to the seabed. I’ll stay there for half an hour, with the electric light on, looking around. Then the clock mechanism will release a spring knife, the line will be cut, and I’ll shoot back up, like a soda bubble. The line itself will aid in my floatation.”
“And if you should chance to hit a ship?” said Weybridge.
“And what if you happen to hit a ship?” said Weybridge.
“I should come up at such a pace, I should go clean through it,” said Elstead, “like a cannon ball. You needn’t worry about that.”
“I should come up so fast, I should go right through it,” said Elstead, “like a cannonball. You don’t need to worry about that.”
“And suppose some nimble crustacean should wriggle into your clockwork—”
“And imagine if a quick little crab were to squirm into your clockwork—”
“It would be a pressing sort of invitation for me to stop,” said Elstead, turning his back on the water and staring at the sphere.
“It would be a strong invitation for me to stop,” Elstead said, turning away from the water and looking at the sphere.
They had swung Elstead overboard by eleven 163o’clock. The day was serenely bright and calm, with the horizon lost in haze. The electric glare in the little upper compartment beamed cheerfully three times. Then they let him down slowly to the surface of the water, and a sailor in the stern chains hung ready to cut the tackle that held the lead weights and the sphere together. The globe, which had looked so large on deck, looked the smallest thing conceivable under the stern of the ship. It rolled a little, and its two dark windows, which floated uppermost, seemed like eyes turned up in round wonderment at the people who crowded the rail. A voice wondered how Elstead liked the rolling. “Are you ready?” sang out the Commander. “Aye, aye, sir!” “Then let her go!”
They had tossed Elstead overboard by eleven 163o’clock. The day was beautifully bright and calm, with the horizon fading into haze. The bright light in the small upper compartment flashed cheerfully three times. Then they lowered him slowly to the water's surface, and a sailor at the stern prepared to cut the rope that connected the lead weights and the sphere. The globe, which had seemed so large on deck, looked tiny under the back of the ship. It rolled a little, and its two dark windows, floating on top, looked like eyes gazing up in surprise at the people gathered at the railing. Someone asked how Elstead was handling the rolling. “Are you ready?” called the Commander. “Yes, sir!” “Then let her go!”
The rope of the tackle tightened against the blade and was cut, and an eddy rolled over the globe in a grotesquely helpless fashion. Some one waved a handkerchief, some one else tried an ineffectual cheer, a middy was counting slowly: “Eight, nine, ten!” Another roll, then with a jerk and a splash the thing righted itself.
The tackle's rope tightened against the blade and got cut, causing an eddy to roll over the globe in a bizarrely helpless way. Someone waved a handkerchief, someone else attempted a weak cheer, a midshipman was counting slowly: “Eight, nine, ten!” Another roll, then with a jerk and a splash, it righted itself.
It seemed to be stationary for a moment, to grow rapidly smaller, and then the water closed over it, and it became visible, enlarged by refraction and dimmer, below the surface. Before one could count three it had disappeared. There was a flicker of white light far down in the water, that diminished to a speck and vanished. Then there 164was nothing but a depth of water going down into blackness, through which a shark was swimming.
It appeared to hover for a moment, then shrank quickly, and soon the water enveloped it, making it visible, distorted by refraction and less bright, beneath the surface. In less than three seconds, it was gone. There was a flash of white light deep in the water that faded to a dot and disappeared. After that, all that remained was a deep expanse of water descending into darkness, through which a shark was gliding. 164
Then suddenly the screw of the cruiser began to rotate, the water was crickled, the shark disappeared in a wrinkled confusion, and a torrent of foam rushed across the crystalline clearness that had swallowed up Elstead. “What’s the idee?” said one A. B. to another.
Then suddenly, the screw of the cruiser started to rotate, the water rippled, the shark vanished in a wrinkled confusion, and a surge of foam rushed across the clear water that had swallowed up Elstead. “What’s the deal?” asked one A. B. to another.
“We’re going to lay off about a couple of miles, ’fear he should hit us when he comes up,” said his mate.
“We’re going to pull back a couple of miles, in case he hits us when he gets closer,” said his buddy.
The ship steamed slowly to her new position. Aboard her almost every one who was unoccupied remained watching the breathing swell into which the sphere had sunk. For the next half hour it is doubtful if a word was spoken that did not bear directly or indirectly on Elstead. The December sun was now high in the sky, and the heat very considerable.
The ship moved slowly to its new spot. Onboard, almost everyone who wasn’t busy kept watching the rolling waves where the sphere had disappeared. For the next half hour, it’s likely that every word exchanged was related to Elstead, either directly or indirectly. The December sun was now high in the sky, and it was quite warm.
“He’ll be cold enough down there,” said Weybridge. “They say that below a certain depth sea-water’s always just about freezing.”
“He’ll be cold enough down there,” said Weybridge. “They say that below a certain depth, sea water’s always just about freezing.”
“Where’ll he come up?” asked Steevens. “I’ve lost my bearings.”
“Where’s he gonna show up?” asked Steevens. “I’ve lost track.”
“That’s the spot,” said the Commander, who prided himself on his omniscience. He extended a precise finger south-eastward. “And this, I reckon, is pretty nearly the moment,” he said. “He’s been thirty-five minutes.”
“That’s the spot,” said the Commander, who took pride in knowing everything. He pointed accurately southeast. “And this, I think, is just about the moment,” he said. “He’s been gone for thirty-five minutes.”
165“How long does it take to reach the bottom of the ocean?” asked Steevens.
165“How long does it take to get to the bottom of the ocean?” asked Steevens.
“For a depth of five miles, and reckoning—as we did—an acceleration to two foot per second, both ways, is just about three-quarters of a minute.”
“For a depth of five miles, and considering—as we did—a speed of two feet per second in both directions, it takes roughly three-quarters of a minute.”
“Then he’s overdue,” said Weybridge.
"Then he's late," said Weybridge.
“Pretty nearly,” said the Commander. “I suppose it takes a few minutes for that cord of his to wind in.”
“Pretty much,” said the Commander. “I guess it takes a few minutes for that cord of his to reel in.”
“I forgot that,” said Weybridge, evidently relieved.
“I forgot that,” Weybridge said, clearly relieved.
And then began the suspense. A minute slowly dragged itself out, and no sphere shot out of the water. Another followed, and nothing broke the low oily swell. The sailors explained to one another that little point about the winding-in of the cord. The rigging was dotted with expectant faces. “Come up, Elstead!” called one hairy-chested salt, impatiently, and the others caught it up, and shouted as though they were waiting for the curtain of a theatre to rise.
And then the suspense began. A minute slowly dragged on, and no sphere emerged from the water. Another minute followed, and nothing disturbed the calm, oily surface. The sailors discussed the details about winding in the cord. The rigging was filled with eager faces. “Come up, Elstead!” shouted one bearded sailor, impatiently, and the others echoed him, yelling as though they were waiting for the curtain to go up at a theater.
The Commander glanced irritably at them.
The Commander looked at them irritably.
“Of course, if the acceleration’s less than two,” he said, “he’ll be all the longer. We aren’t absolutely certain that was the proper figure. I’m no slavish believer in calculations.”
“Of course, if the acceleration’s less than two,” he said, “he’ll take even longer. We aren’t completely sure that was the right number. I’m not a blind follower of calculations.”
Steevens agreed concisely. No one on the quarter-deck spoke for a couple of minutes. Then Steevens’s watch-case clicked.
Steevens nodded in agreement. No one on the quarter-deck said anything for a couple of minutes. Then Steevens’s watch-case clicked.
When, twenty-one minutes after, the sun reached 166the zenith, they were still waiting for the globe to reappear, and not a man aboard had dared to whisper that hope was dead. It was Weybridge who first gave expression to that realisation. He spoke while the sound of eight bells still hung in the air. “I always distrusted that window,” he said quite suddenly to Steevens.
When, twenty-one minutes later, the sun hit the peak, they were still waiting for the globe to show up, and not a single person on board had dared to say that hope was lost. It was Weybridge who first voiced that realization. He spoke while the sound of eight bells still lingered in the air. “I always had a bad feeling about that window,” he suddenly said to Steevens.
“Good God!” said Steevens, “you don’t think—”
“Good God!” said Steevens, “you can’t be serious—”
“Well!” said Weybridge, and left the rest to his imagination.
“Well!” said Weybridge, leaving the rest to his imagination.
“I’m no great believer in calculations myself,” said the Commander, dubiously, “so that I’m not altogether hopeless yet.” And at midnight the gunboat was steaming slowly in a spiral round the spot where the globe had sunk, and the white beam of the electric light fled and halted and swept discontentedly onward again over the waste of phosphorescent waters under the little stars.
“I’m not really a big believer in calculations,” said the Commander, skeptically, “so I’m not completely out of hope yet.” And at midnight, the gunboat was slowly cruising in a spiral around the spot where the globe had sunk, while the white beam of the searchlight flickered, paused, and then moved reluctantly onward again over the expanse of glowing waters beneath the tiny stars.
“If his window hasn’t burst and smashed him,” said Weybridge, “then it’s a cursed sight worse, for his clockwork has gone wrong and he’s alive now, five miles under our feet, down there in the cold and dark, anchored in that little bubble of his, where never a ray of light has shone or a human being lived, since the waters were gathered together. He’s there without food, feeling hungry and thirsty and scared, wondering whether he’ll starve or stifle. Which will it be? The Myer’s apparatus is running out, I suppose. How long do they last?
“If his window hasn't exploded and killed him,” said Weybridge, “then things are a lot worse, because his machine has malfunctioned and he's alive now, five miles beneath us, down there in the cold and dark, trapped in that little bubble of his, where no light has ever shone or human being has lived since the waters were gathered. He’s there without food, feeling hungry and thirsty and scared, wondering if he'll die of starvation or suffocation. Which will it be? The Myer’s device must be running out soon. How long do they last?
167“Good Heavens!” he exclaimed, “what little things we are! What daring little devils! Down there, miles and miles of water—all water, and all this empty water about us and this sky. Gulfs!” He threw his hands out, and as he did so a little white streak swept noiselessly up the sky, travelling more slowly, stopped, became a motionless dot as though a new star had fallen up into the sky. Then it went sliding back again and lost itself amidst the reflections of the stars, and the white haze of the sea’s phosphorescence.
167“Good grief!” he shouted, “how small we are! What brave little troublemakers! Down there, miles and miles of water—all water, and all this vast emptiness around us and this sky. Oceans!” He threw his arms out, and as he did, a small white streak quietly shot up into the sky, moving slowly, stopped, and became a still dot as if a new star had just appeared. Then it slid back down and disappeared into the reflections of the stars and the white glow of the sea’s phosphorescence.
At the sight he stopped, arm extended and mouth open. He shut his mouth, opened it again and waved his arms with an impatient gesture. Then he turned, shouted, “Elstead ahoy,” to the first watch, and went at a run to Lindley and the search light. “I saw him,” he said. “Starboard there! His light’s on and he’s just shot out of the water. Bring the light round. We ought to see him drifting, when he lifts on the swell.”
At the sight, he stopped, arm outstretched and mouth open. He closed his mouth, opened it again, and waved his arms with an impatient gesture. Then he turned and shouted, “Elstead ahoy,” to the first watch, and ran over to Lindley and the searchlight. “I saw him,” he said. “Off to starboard! His light's on and he just shot out of the water. Bring the light around. We should be able to see him drifting when he rises on the swell.”
But they never picked up the explorer until dawn. Then they almost ran him down. The crane was swung out and a boat’s crew hooked the chain to the sphere. When they had shipped the sphere they unscrewed the manhole and peered into the darkness of the interior (for the electric light chamber was intended to illuminate the water about the sphere, and was shut off entirely from its general cavity).
But they didn’t pick up the explorer until dawn. Then they almost ran him over. The crane swung out, and a boat crew hooked the chain to the sphere. Once they had brought the sphere on board, they unscrewed the manhole and looked into the darkness inside (since the electric light chamber was meant to light up the water around the sphere and was completely separated from the main cavity).
168The air was very hot within the cavity, and the india-rubber at the lip of the manhole was soft. There was no answer to their eager questions and no sound of movement within. Elstead seemed to be lying motionless, crumpled up in the bottom of the globe. The ship’s doctor crawled in and lifted him out to the men outside. For a moment or so they did not know whether Elstead was alive or dead. His face, in the yellow glow of the ship’s lamps, glistened with perspiration. They carried him down to his own cabin.
168The air inside the cavity was extremely hot, and the rubber around the manhole was soft. There was no response to their eager questions and no noise coming from inside. Elstead appeared to be lying still, crumpled up at the bottom of the globe. The ship’s doctor crawled in and lifted him out to the men waiting outside. For a moment, they weren't sure if Elstead was alive or dead. His face, illuminated by the ship's lamps, was slick with sweat. They carried him down to his cabin.
He was not dead they found, but in a state of absolute nervous collapse, and besides cruelly bruised. For some days he had to lie perfectly still. It was a week before he could tell his experiences.
He wasn't dead, they discovered, but in a state of complete nervous breakdown, and also badly bruised. For several days, he had to lie completely still. It took a week before he could share what had happened to him.
Almost his first words were that he was going down again. The sphere would have to be altered, he said, in order to allow him to throw off the cord if need be, and that was all. He had had the most marvellous experience. “You thought I should find nothing but ooze,” he said. “You laughed at my explorations, and I’ve discovered a new world!” He told his story in disconnected fragments, and chiefly from the wrong end, so that it is impossible to re-tell it in his words. But what follows is the narrative of his experience.
Almost his first words were that he was going down again. He said the sphere would need to be changed so he could throw off the cord if he needed to, and that was it. He had an amazing experience. “You thought I would find nothing but mud,” he said. “You laughed at my explorations, and I’ve discovered a new world!” He shared his story in broken pieces and mostly from the wrong angle, so it’s impossible to retell it exactly as he did. But what follows is the account of his experience.
It began atrociously, he said. Before the cord ran out the thing kept rolling over. He felt like 169a frog in a football. He could see nothing but the crane and the sky overhead, with an occasional glimpse of the people on the ship’s rail. He couldn’t tell a bit which way the thing would roll next. Suddenly he would find his feet going up and try to step, and over he went rolling, head over heels and just anyhow on the padding. Any other shape would have been more comfortable, but no other shape was to be relied upon under the huge pressure of the nethermost abyss.
It started off horribly, he said. Before the cord ran out, the thing just kept flipping over. He felt like a frog in a football. All he could see was the crane and the sky above him, with an occasional view of the people on the ship's railing. He couldn’t figure out at all which way the thing would roll next. Suddenly, he'd find his feet going up and try to step, and then he’d end up rolling over, head over heels, just any which way on the padding. Any other shape would have been more comfortable, but no other shape could be trusted under the immense pressure of the deepest abyss.
Suddenly the swaying ceased; the globe righted, and when he had picked himself up, he saw the water all about him greeny-blue with an attenuated light filtering down from above, and a shoal of little floating things went rushing up past him, as it seemed to him, towards the light. And even as he looked it grew darker and darker, until the water above was as dark as the midnight sky, albeit of a greener shade, and the water below black. And little transparent things in the water developed a faint glint of luminosity, and shot past him in faint greenish streaks.
Suddenly, the swaying stopped; the globe stabilized, and when he picked himself up, he saw the water around him was a greenish-blue, illuminated by a faint light filtering down from above. A swarm of tiny floating things rushed past him, seemingly heading toward the light. As he watched, it grew darker and darker until the water above was as dark as a midnight sky, though with a greener tone, and the water below turned black. Tiny transparent creatures in the water began to shimmer faintly with light, shooting past him in subtle green streaks.
And the feeling of falling! It was just like the start of a lift, he said, only it kept on. One has to imagine what that means, that keeping on. It was then of all times that Elstead repented of his adventure. He saw the chances against him in an altogether new light. He thought of the big cuttle-fish people knew to exist in the middle waters, the kind of things they find half-digested 170in whales at times, or floating dead and rotten and half eaten by fish. Suppose one caught hold and wouldn’t leave go. And had the clockwork really been sufficiently tested? But whether he wanted to go on or go back mattered not the slightest now.
And that feeling of falling! It was just like the start of a elevator ride, he said, except it just kept going. You have to understand what it means, that endlessness. It was then, of all times, that Elstead regretted his adventure. He saw the odds stacked against him in a completely different way. He thought about the massive cuttlefish people knew were out there in the deep waters, the kind of things they sometimes find half-digested in whales, or floating dead and rotting, partially eaten by fish. What if one grabbed hold and wouldn't let go? And had the clockwork really been thoroughly tested? But whether he wanted to move forward or turn back didn’t matter at all now.
In fifty seconds everything was as black as night outside, except where the beam from his light struck through the waters, and picked out every now and then some fish or scrap of sinking matter. They flashed by too fast for him to see what they were. Once he thought he passed a shark. And then the sphere began to get hot by friction against the water. They had underestimated this, it seems.
In fifty seconds, everything outside was pitch black, except where the beam from his light cut through the water, occasionally revealing a fish or a piece of debris sinking below. They moved by too quickly for him to identify them. At one point, he thought he saw a shark. Then the sphere started to heat up from the friction against the water. It seemed they had underestimated this.
The first thing he noticed was that he was perspiring, and then he heard a hissing, growing louder, under his feet, and saw a lot of little bubbles—very little bubbles they were—rushing upward like a fan through the water outside. Steam! He felt the window and it was hot. He turned on the minute glow lamp that lit his own cavity, looked at the padded watch by the studs, and saw he had been travelling now for two minutes. It came into his head that the window would crack through the conflict of temperatures, for he knew the bottom water was very near freezing.
The first thing he noticed was that he was sweating, and then he heard a hissing sound getting louder beneath his feet. He saw a bunch of tiny bubbles—really tiny bubbles—rising like a fan through the water outside. Steam! He felt the window, and it was hot. He turned on the small glow lamp that lit up his space, glanced at the padded watch by the buttons, and saw he had been traveling for two minutes. It crossed his mind that the window might crack due to the temperature difference, since he knew the water below was almost freezing.
Then suddenly the floor of the sphere seemed to press against his feet, the rush of bubbles outside 171grew slower and slower and the hissing diminished. The sphere rolled a little. The window had not cracked, nothing had given, and he knew that the dangers of sinking, at any rate, were over.
Then suddenly the floor of the sphere felt like it was pushing against his feet, the flow of bubbles outside 171 slowed down more and more and the hissing noise faded. The sphere rolled a bit. The window hadn’t cracked, nothing had broken, and he realized that the risk of sinking, at least, was over.
In another minute or so, he would be on the floor of the abyss. He thought, he said, of Steevens and Weybridge and the rest of them five miles overhead, higher to him than the very highest clouds that ever floated over land are to us, steaming slowly and staring down and wondering what had happened to him.
In about a minute, he would be on the floor of the abyss. He thought about Steevens and Weybridge and the others, five miles above him, higher than the highest clouds that ever floated over land are to us, slowly drifting and staring down, wondering what had happened to him.
He peered out of the window. There were no more bubbles now, and the hissing had stopped. Outside there was a heavy blackness—as black as black velvet—except where the electric light pierced the empty water and showed the colour of it—a yellow-green. Then three things like shapes of fire swam into sight, following each other through the water. Whether they were little and near, or big and far off, he could not tell.
He looked out the window. There were no more bubbles now, and the hissing had stopped. Outside was a deep darkness—black as velvet—except where the electric light broke through the empty water and revealed its color—a yellow-green. Then three fiery shapes swam into view, following each other through the water. He couldn’t tell if they were small and close or big and far away.
Each was outlined in a bluish light almost as bright as the lights of a fishing-smack, a light which seemed to be smoking greatly, and all along the sides of them were specks of this, like the lighted portholes of a ship. Their phosphorescence seemed to go out as they came into the radiance of his lamp, and he saw then that they were indeed fish of some strange sort, with 172huge heads, vast eyes, and dwindling bodies and tails. Their eyes were turned towards him, and he judged they were following him down. He supposed they were attracted by his glare.
Each was lit up in a bluish glow almost as bright as the lights of a fishing boat, a light that looked like it was smoking heavily, and along the sides of them were little spots of this, like the illuminated portholes of a ship. Their glow seemed to fade as they entered the brightness of his lamp, and he realized that they were indeed some strange kind of fish, with huge heads, big eyes, and tapering bodies and tails. Their eyes were fixed on him, and he thought they were following him down. He assumed they were drawn in by his light.
Presently others of the same sort joined them. As he went on down he noticed that the water became of a pallid colour, and that little specks twinkled in his ray like motes in sunbeam. This was probably due to the clouds of ooze and mud that the impact of his leaden sinkers had disturbed.
Currently, others like him joined them. As he continued downward, he noticed the water turning a pale color, with tiny specks shimmering in his light like dust in a sunbeam. This was likely caused by the clouds of silt and mud stirred up by the weight of his leaden sinkers.
By the time he was drawn down to the lead weights he was in a dense fog of white that his electric light failed altogether to pierce for more than a few yards, and many minutes elapsed before the hanging sheets of sediment subsided to any extent. Then, lit by his light and by the transient phosphorescence of a distant shoal of fishes, he was able to see under the huge blackness of the super-incumbent water an undulating expanse of greyish-white ooze, broken here and there by tangled thickets of a growth of sea lilies, waving hungry tentacles in the air.
By the time he was pulled down to the lead weights, he was surrounded by a thick fog of white that his electric light couldn't penetrate for more than a few yards, and it took several minutes for the hanging clouds of sediment to settle at all. Then, illuminated by his light and the fleeting glow of a distant school of fish, he was finally able to see beneath the deep blackness of the water above—a rolling expanse of grayish-white sludge, interrupted here and there by tangled patches of sea lilies, their hungry tentacles waving in the currents.
Farther away were the graceful translucent outlines of a group of gigantic sponges. About this floor there were scattered a number of bristling flattish tufts of rich purple and black, which he decided must be some sort of sea-urchin, and small, large-eyed or blind things, having a curious resemblance, some to woodlice, and others to 173lobsters, crawled sluggishly across the track of the light and vanished into the obscurity again, leaving furrowed trails behind them.
Farther away were the elegant, see-through shapes of a group of huge sponges. Scattered across this floor were several bristly, flat clumps of deep purple and black, which he concluded must be some kind of sea urchin. Small, big-eyed, or blind creatures, some looking a bit like woodlice and others resembling lobsters, moved slowly across the beam of light and disappeared into the darkness again, leaving behind furrowed trails.
Then suddenly the hovering swarm of little fishes veered about and came towards him as a flight of starlings might do. They passed over him like a phosphorescent snow, and then he saw behind them some larger creature advancing towards the sphere.
Then suddenly the hovering swarm of little fishes changed direction and headed toward him like a flock of starlings might. They flew over him like glowing snow, and then he noticed a larger creature coming up behind them, moving toward the sphere.
At first he could see it only dimly, a faintly moving figure remotely suggestive of a walking man, and then it came into the spray of light that the lamp shot out. As the glare struck it, it shut its eyes, dazzled. He stared in rigid astonishment.
At first, he could only make it out vaguely, a faintly moving shape that vaguely resembled a man walking, and then it stepped into the beam of light from the lamp. As the bright light hit it, it shut its eyes, blinded. He stared in complete disbelief.
It was a strange, vertebrated animal. Its dark purple head was dimly suggestive of a chameleon, but it had such a high forehead and such a brain-case as no reptile ever displayed before; the vertical pitch of its face gave it a most extraordinary resemblance to a human being.
It was a peculiar animal with a backbone. Its dark purple head vaguely resembled a chameleon, but it had a notably high forehead and a brain case unlike any reptile seen before; the upright angle of its face made it look very much like a human.
Two large and protruding eyes projected from sockets in chameleon fashion, and it had a broad reptilian mouth with horny lips beneath its little nostrils. In the position of the ears were two huge gill covers, and out of these floated a branching tree of coralline filaments, almost like the tree-like gills that very young rays and sharks possess.
Two large, bulging eyes stuck out from the sockets in a chameleon-like way, and it had a wide reptilian mouth with tough lips below its small nostrils. Instead of ears, there were two big gill covers, and from these hung a branching structure of coral-like filaments, almost resembling the tree-like gills found in very young rays and sharks.
But the humanity of the face was not the most 174extraordinary thing about the creature. It was a biped, its almost globular body was poised on a tripod of two frog-like legs and a long thick tail, and its fore limbs, which grotesquely caricatured the human hand much as a frog’s do, carried a long shaft of bone, tipped with copper. The colour of the creature was variegated: its head, hands, and legs were purple; but its skin, which hung loosely upon it, even as clothes might do, was a phosphorescent grey. And it stood there, blinded by the light.
But the human-like face wasn’t the most extraordinary thing about the creature. It stood on two frog-like legs and a long, thick tail, with its almost rounded body balanced on this tripod. Its forelimbs, which exaggerated the shape of a human hand, similar to a frog's, held a long bone shaft tipped with copper. The creature's coloration was diverse: its head, hands, and legs were purple, while its skin, which hung loosely like clothing, was a glowing grey. And it stood there, blinded by the light.
At last this unknown creature of the abyss blinked its eyes open, and, shading them with its disengaged hand, opened its mouth and gave vent to a shouting noise, articulate almost as speech might be, that penetrated even the steel case and padded jacket of the sphere. How a shouting may be accomplished without lungs Elstead does not profess to explain. It then moved sideways out of the glare into the mystery of shadow that bordered it on either side, and Elstead felt rather than saw that it was coming towards him. Fancying the light had attracted it, he turned the switch that cut off the current. In another moment something soft dabbed upon the steel, and the globe swayed.
At last, this unknown creature from the depths opened its eyes. Shielding them with its free hand, it opened its mouth and let out a shout that was almost as clear as speech, loud enough to penetrate the steel casing and padded jacket of the sphere. Elstead couldn't explain how it shouted without lungs. It then moved sideways, escaping the bright light and into the shadows on either side, and Elstead felt, more than saw, that it was coming toward him. Thinking the light had drawn it in, he turned off the switch to cut the power. In a moment, something soft touched the steel, and the globe swayed.
Then the shouting was repeated, and it seemed to him that a distant echo answered it. The dabbing recurred, and the globe swayed and ground against the spindle over which the wire 175was rolled. He stood in the blackness, and peered out into the everlasting night of the abyss. And presently he saw, very faint and remote, other phosphorescent quasi-human forms hurrying towards him.
Then the shouting happened again, and it felt like a far-off echo replied. The tapping started again, and the globe swayed and rubbed against the spindle where the wire was rolled. He stood in the darkness, looking out into the endless night of the void. Soon, he saw, very faint and distant, other glowing, almost human figures rushing towards him.
Hardly knowing what he did, he felt about in his swaying prison for the stud of the exterior electric light, and came by accident against his own small glow lamp in its padded recess. The sphere twisted, and then threw him down; he heard shouts like shouts of surprise, and when he rose to his feet he saw two pairs of stalked eyes peering into the lower window and reflecting his light.
Hardly aware of what he was doing, he fumbled around in his unstable prison for the knob of the outside electric light and accidentally bumped into his own small glow lamp in its cushioned spot. The sphere turned, then knocked him down; he heard shouts that sounded surprised, and when he got back up, he saw two pairs of elongated eyes looking into the lower window, reflecting his light.
In another moment hands were dabbing vigorously at his steel casing, and there was a sound, horrible enough in his position, of the metal protection of the clockwork being vigorously hammered. That, indeed, sent his heart into his mouth, for if these strange creatures succeeded in stopping that his release would never occur. Scarcely had he thought as much when he felt the sphere sway violently, and the floor of it press hard against his feet. He turned off the small glow lamp that lit the interior, and sent the ray of the large light in the separate compartment out into the water. The sea floor and the manlike creatures had disappeared, and a couple of fish chasing each other dropped suddenly by the window.
In another moment, hands were frantically hitting his metal casing, and there was a terrifying sound, quite dreadful in his situation, of the metal shield of the clockwork being hammered hard. This made his heart race, because if these strange beings managed to stop it, his chance of escaping would be lost forever. No sooner had he thought that than he felt the sphere sway violently, and the floor pressed hard against his feet. He turned off the small glow lamp that lit the inside and directed the beam of the larger light in the separate compartment out into the water. The sea floor and the humanoid creatures were gone, and a couple of fish chasing each other suddenly drifted past the window.
176He thought at once that these strange denizens of the deep sea had broken the wire rope, and that he had escaped. He drove up faster and faster, and then stopped with a jerk that sent him flying against the padded roof of his prison. For half a minute perhaps he was too astonished to think.
176He immediately thought that these bizarre creatures from the deep sea had severed the wire rope, and that he had made his escape. He accelerated faster and faster, then came to a sudden stop that launched him against the padded roof of his confinement. For maybe half a minute, he was too shocked to think.
Then he felt that the sphere was spinning slowly, and rocking, and it seemed to him that it was also being drawn through the water. By crouching close to the window he managed to make his weight effective and roll that part of the sphere downward, but he could see nothing save the pale ray of his light striking down ineffectively into the darkness. It occurred to him that he would see more if he turned the lamp off and allowed his eyes to grow accustomed to the profound obscurity.
Then he felt the sphere spinning slowly and rocking, and it seemed to him that it was being pulled through the water. By crouching close to the window, he managed to shift his weight and roll that part of the sphere downward, but he could see nothing except the faint beam of his light hitting the darkness ineffectively. It occurred to him that he would see more if he turned off the lamp and let his eyes adjust to the deep darkness.
In this he was wise. After some minutes the velvety blackness became a translucent blackness, and then far away, and as faint as the zodiacal light of an English summer evening, he saw shapes moving below. He judged these creatures had detached his cable and were towing him along the sea bottom.
In this, he was smart. After a few minutes, the deep blackness turned into a see-through blackness, and then far away, as faint as the zodiacal light on a summer evening in England, he saw shapes moving below. He figured these creatures had cut his cable and were pulling him along the sea floor.
And then he saw something faint and remote across the undulations of the submarine plain, a broad horizon of pale luminosity that extended this way and that way as far as the range of his little window permitted him to see. To this he 177was being towed, as a balloon might be towed by men out of the open country into a town. He approached it very slowly, and very slowly the dim irradiation was gathered together into more definite shapes.
And then he noticed something faint and distant across the waves of the underwater plain, a wide horizon of soft light that stretched this way and that as far as his small window allowed him to see. He was being pulled toward it, like a balloon being pulled by people from the countryside into a city. He moved closer very slowly, and gradually, the faint glow began to form into clearer shapes.
It was nearly five o’clock before he came over this luminous area, and by that time he could make out an arrangement suggestive of streets and houses grouped about a vast roofless erection that was grotesquely suggestive of a ruined abbey. It was spread out like a map below him. The houses were all roofless inclosures of walls, and their substance being, as he afterwards saw, of phosphorescent bones, gave the place an appearance as if it were built of drowned moonshine.
It was almost five o’clock when he reached this bright area, and by then he could see a layout that looked like streets and houses arranged around a huge roofless structure that eerily resembled a ruined abbey. It spread out like a map beneath him. The houses were all roofless enclosures made of walls, and their material, which he later realized was made of glowing bones, made the place look like it was built from trapped moonlight.
Among the inner caves of the place waving trees of crinoid stretched their tentacles, and tall, slender, glassy sponges shot like shining minarets and lilies of filmy light out of the general glow of the city. In the open spaces of the place he could see a stirring movement as of crowds of people, but he was too many fathoms above them to distinguish the individuals in those crowds.
Among the inner caves of the place, waving crinoid trees stretched their tentacles, and tall, slender, glassy sponges shot up like shining minarets and lilies of light from the overall glow of the city. In the open spaces, he could see a bustling movement that resembled crowds of people, but he was too far above them to make out the individuals within those crowds.
Then slowly they pulled him down, and as they did so the details of the place crept slowly upon his apprehension. He saw that the courses of the cloudy buildings were marked out with beaded lines of round objects, and then he perceived 178that at several points below him in broad open spaces were forms like the encrusted shapes of ships.
Then slowly they pulled him down, and as they did, the details of the place gradually came into focus for him. He noticed that the outlines of the cloudy buildings were marked with beaded lines of round objects, and then he realized that in several open areas below him were shapes resembling the covered forms of ships.
Slowly and surely he was drawn down, and the forms below him became brighter, clearer, were more distinct. He was being pulled down, he perceived, towards the large building in the centre of the town, and he could catch a glimpse ever and again of the multitudinous forms that were lugging at his cord. He was astonished to see that the rigging of one of the ships, which formed such a prominent feature of the place, was crowded with a host of gesticulating figures regarding him, and then the walls of the great building rose about him silently, and hid the city from his eyes.
Slowly and steadily, he was drawn down, and the shapes below him became brighter, clearer, and more defined. He realized he was being pulled toward the large building in the center of town, and he could occasionally catch a glimpse of the numerous figures tugging at his cord. He was surprised to see that the rigging of one of the ships, a prominent feature of the area, was filled with a crowd of waving figures looking at him. Then the walls of the big building rose around him silently, blocking his view of the city.
And such walls they were, of water-logged wood, and twisted wire rope and iron spars, and copper, and the bones and skulls of dead men.
And those walls were made of waterlogged wood, twisted wire rope, iron spars, copper, and the bones and skulls of dead men.
The skulls ran in curious zigzag lines and spirals and fantastic curves over the building; and in and out of their eye-sockets, and over the whole surface of the place, lurked and played a multitude of silvery little fishes.
The skulls wove in intriguing zigzag lines and spirals and amazing curves across the building; and in and out of their eye-sockets, and over the entire surface of the place, swam and played countless tiny silvery fish.
And now he was at such a level that he could see these strange people of the abyss plainly once more. To his astonishment, he perceived that they were prostrating themselves before him, all save one, dressed as it seemed in a robe of 179placoid scales, and crowned with a luminous diadem, who stood with his reptilian mouth opening and shutting as though he led the chanting of the worshippers.
And now he was at a point where he could see these strange beings from the abyss clearly once again. To his surprise, he noticed that they were bowing down before him, except for one, who appeared to be wearing a robe made of placoid scales and was crowned with a glowing diadem. This one stood with his reptilian mouth opening and closing as if he was leading the chant of the worshippers.
They continued worshipping him, without rest or intermission, for the space of three hours.
They kept worshipping him non-stop for three hours.
Most circumstantial was Elstead’s account of this astounding city and its people, these people of perpetual night, who have never seen sun or moon or stars, green vegetation, nor any living air-breathing creatures, who know nothing of fire, nor any light but the phosphorescent light of living things.
Most notably, Elstead described this incredible city and its inhabitants, these people of constant darkness, who have never seen the sun, moon, or stars, green plants, or any living creatures that breathe air. They know nothing of fire or any light except for the glow of living beings.
Startling as is his story, it is yet more startling to find that scientific men, of such eminence as Adams and Jenkins, find nothing incredible in it. They tell me they see no reason why intelligent, water-breathing, vertebrated creatures inured to a low temperature and enormous pressure, and of such a heavy structure, that neither alive nor dead would they float, might not live upon the bottom of the deep sea, and quite unsuspected by us, descendants like ourselves of the great Theriomorpha of the New Red Sandstone age.
Startling as his story is, it's even more surprising that respected scientists like Adams and Jenkins find nothing unbelievable in it. They told me they see no reason why intelligent, water-breathing, vertebrate creatures that are adapted to low temperatures and immense pressure, and so heavy that they neither float when alive nor dead, couldn’t exist on the ocean floor, completely undetected by us, the descendants of the great Theriomorpha from the New Red Sandstone era.
We should be known to them, however, as strange meteoric creatures wont to fall catastrophically dead out of the mysterious blackness of their watery sky. And not only we ourselves, but our ships, our metals, our appliances, would come raining down out of the night. Sometimes 180sinking things would smite down and crush them, as if it were the judgment of some unseen power above, and sometimes would come things of the utmost rarity or utility or shapes of inspiring suggestion. One can understand, perhaps, something of their behaviour at the descent of a living man, if one thinks what a barbaric people might do, to whom an enhaloed shining creature came suddenly out of the sky.
We should be seen by them as strange, otherworldly beings that unexpectedly fall from the dark depths of their watery sky. And it’s not just us; our ships, our metals, our gadgets would come crashing down from the night. Sometimes heavy objects would strike and crush them, as if it were the judgment of some hidden force above, and other times, items of the rarest value or inspiration would descend. One can imagine, perhaps, how they might react when a living person descends, if one considers what a primitive society might do if a radiant, shining figure suddenly appeared from the sky.
At one time or another Elstead probably told the officers of the Ptarmigan every detail of his strange twelve hours in the abyss. That he also intended to write them down is certain, but he never did, and so unhappily we have to piece together the discrepant fragments of his story from the reminiscences of Commander Simmons, Weybridge, Steevens, Lindley, and the others.
At some point, Elstead likely shared all the details of his bizarre twelve hours in the abyss with the officers of the Ptarmigan. It's clear that he meant to write everything down, but he never did. Unfortunately, we’re left to piece together the conflicting bits of his story from the memories of Commander Simmons, Weybridge, Steevens, Lindley, and the others.
We see the thing darkly in fragmentary glimpses—the huge ghostly building, the bowing, chanting people, with their dark, chameleon-like heads and faintly luminous forms, and Elstead, with his light turned on again, vainly trying to convey to their minds that the cord by which the sphere was held was to be severed. Minute after minute slipped away, and Elstead, looking at his watch, was horrified to find that he had oxygen only for four hours more. But the chant in his honour kept on as remorselessly as if it was the marching song of his approaching death.
We see it dimly in fragmented glimpses—the massive, ghostly building, the bowing, chanting crowd, with their dark, chameleon-like heads and faintly glowing forms, and Elstead, with his light switched back on, desperately trying to communicate to them that the cord holding the sphere was about to be cut. Minute after minute passed, and Elstead, checking his watch, was horrified to realize that he had oxygen for only four more hours. But the chant in his honor continued relentlessly, as if it were the march of his impending death.
The manner of his release he does not understand, 181but to judge by the end of cord that hung from the sphere, it had been cut through by rubbing against the edge of the altar. Abruptly the sphere rolled over, and he swept up, out of their world, as an ethereal creature clothed in a vacuum would sweep through our own atmosphere back to its native ether again. He must have torn out of their sight as a hydrogen bubble hastens upwards from our air. A strange ascension it must have seemed to them.
The way he was released doesn’t make sense to him, 181 but judging by the frayed end of the cord that hung from the sphere, it must have gotten cut while rubbing against the edge of the altar. Suddenly, the sphere tipped over, and he surged up, out of their world, like an ethereal being dressed in a vacuum sweeping through our atmosphere back to its home in the ether. He must have shot out of sight like a hydrogen bubble racing upwards from our air. It must have looked like a strange ascent to them.
The sphere rushed up with even greater velocity than, when weighed with the lead sinkers, it had rushed down. It became exceedingly hot. It drove up with the windows uppermost, and he remembers the torrent of bubbles frothing against the glass. Every moment he expected this to fly. Then suddenly something like a huge wheel seemed to be released in his head, the padded compartment began spinning about him, and he fainted. His next recollection was of his cabin, and of the doctor’s voice.
The sphere shot up even faster than it had dropped with the lead weights. It got really hot. It went flying up with the windows on top, and he remembers the waves of bubbles crashing against the glass. Every moment, he thought it would explode. Then, all of a sudden, something like a massive wheel felt like it released in his head, and the padded space started spinning around him, and he passed out. His next memory was of his cabin and the doctor’s voice.
But that is the substance of the extraordinary story that Elstead related in fragments to the officers of the Ptarmigan. He promised to write it all down at a later date. His mind was chiefly occupied with the improvement of his apparatus, which was effected at Rio.
But that’s the essence of the amazing story that Elstead shared in bits and pieces with the officers of the Ptarmigan. He promised to write it all down later. His thoughts were mostly focused on enhancing his device, which was done in Rio.
It remains only to tell that on February 2d, 1896, he made his second descent into the ocean abyss, with the improvements his first experience 182suggested. What happened we shall probably never know. He never returned. The Ptarmigan beat about over the point of his submersion, seeking him in vain for thirteen days. Then she returned to Rio, and the news was telegraphed to his friends. So the matter remains for the present. But it is hardly probable that any further attempt will be made to verify his strange story of these hitherto unsuspected cities of the deep sea.
It only remains to mention that on February 2nd, 1896, he made his second dive into the ocean's depths, equipped with the improvements his first experience suggested. What happened after that we may never know. He never came back. The Ptarmigan searched the area where he went underwater, looking for him in vain for thirteen days. Then she returned to Rio, and the news was sent to his friends. So, for now, that's where things stand. However, it's unlikely that any further attempts will be made to confirm his strange story about these previously undiscovered cities of the deep sea.
UNDER THE KNIFE
“What if I die under it!” The thought recurred again and again as I walked home from Haddon’s. It was a purely personal question. I was spared the deep anxieties of a married man, and I knew there were few of my intimate friends but would find my death troublesome chiefly on account of the duty of regret. I was surprised indeed, and perhaps a little humiliated, as I turned the matter over, to think how few could possibly exceed the conventional requirement. Things came before me stripped of glamour, in a clear dry light, during that walk from Haddon’s house over Primrose Hill. There were the friends of my youth: I perceived now that our affection was a tradition, which we foregathered rather laboriously to maintain. There were the rivals and helpers of my later career. I suppose I had been cold-blooded or undemonstrative—one perhaps implies the other. It may be that even the capacity for friendship is a question of physique. There had been a time in my own life when I had grieved bitterly enough at the loss of a friend; but as I walked home that afternoon the emotional side of my imagination was dormant. 184I could not pity myself, nor feel sorry for my friends, nor conceive of them as grieving for me.
“What if I die under it!” That thought kept popping into my head as I walked home from Haddon’s. It was a personal concern. I wasn't burdened by the deep worries of a married man, and I realized that for most of my close friends, my death would mainly be an inconvenience because of the obligation to feel sad. I was honestly surprised, and maybe a bit embarrassed, as I considered this, to realize how few people would truly care beyond what was expected of them. Everything became clear and stripped of glamour during my walk from Haddon’s house over Primrose Hill. There were the friends from my youth: I saw that our bond was more of a tradition we tried hard to maintain. Then there were the rivals and supporters from my later life. I guess I had been a bit cold or emotionally reserved—one likely leads to the other. It’s possible that even the ability to form friendships comes down to physical chemistry. There was a time in my life when I felt deep sorrow at losing a friend, but as I walked home that afternoon, my emotional side felt completely inactive. I couldn’t feel sorry for myself, nor for my friends, nor could I imagine them grieving for me.
I was interested in this deadness of my emotional nature,—no doubt a concomitant of my stagnating physiology; and my thoughts wandered off along the line it suggested. Once before, in my hot youth, I had suffered a sudden loss of blood, and had been within an ace of death. I remembered now that my affections as well as my passions had drained out of me, leaving scarce anything but a tranquil resignation and the faintest dreg of self-pity. It had been weeks before the old ambitions, and tendernesses, and all the complex moral interplay of a man had reasserted themselves. It occurred to me that the real meaning of this numbness might be a gradual slipping away from the pleasure-pain guidance of the animal man. It has been proven, I take it, as thoroughly as anything can be proven in this world, that the higher emotions, the moral feelings, even the subtle tenderness of love, are evolved from the elemental desires and fears of the simple animal: they are the harness in which man’s mental freedom goes. And, it may be that, as death overshadows us, as our possibility of acting diminishes, this complex growth of balanced impulse, propensity, and aversion, whose interplay inspires our acts, goes with it. Leaving what?
I was intrigued by this emptiness in my emotional state—probably a result of my stagnating physical health; and my thoughts drifted along that line. Once before, in my fiery youth, I had experienced a sudden loss of blood and had come close to death. I now remembered that my emotions, as well as my desires, had drained away, leaving me with little more than a calm acceptance and a slight sense of self-pity. It took weeks for my old ambitions, affections, and all the complex moral interactions of a man to return. It struck me that the true meaning of this numbness might be a gradual detachment from the pleasure-pain guidance of our animal instincts. It’s been proven, I believe, as thoroughly as anything can be proven in this world, that our higher emotions, moral feelings, and even the delicate nature of love evolve from the basic desires and fears of the simple animal: they are the framework within which a man’s mental freedom operates. And perhaps, as death looms over us and our ability to act diminishes, this intricate growth of balanced impulse, desire, and aversion—whose dynamics drive our actions—fades away. Leaving what?
I was suddenly brought back to reality by an imminent collision with a butcher-boy’s tray. I 185found that I was crossing the bridge over the Regent’s Park Canal which runs parallel with the bridge in the Zoölogical Gardens. The boy in blue had been looking over his shoulder at a black barge advancing slowly, towed by a gaunt white horse. In the Gardens a nurse was leading three happy little children over the bridge. The trees were bright green; the spring hopefulness was still unstained by the dusts of summer; the sky in the water was bright and clear, but broken by long waves, by quivering bands of black, as the barge drove through. The breeze was stirring; but it did not stir me as the spring breeze used to do.
I was suddenly jolted back to reality by the near impact with a butcher-boy's tray. I found myself crossing the bridge over the Regent's Park Canal, which runs parallel to the bridge in the Zoo. The boy in blue had been looking back at a slow-moving black barge, pulled by a lean white horse. In the Gardens, a nurse was leading three cheerful little kids across the bridge. The trees were bright green; the fresh hope of spring still untouched by the dust of summer; the sky reflected in the water was bright and clear, but disrupted by long waves, creating shimmering bands of black as the barge moved through. The breeze was stirring; but it didn’t move me like the spring breeze used to.
Was this dulness of feeling in itself an anticipation? It was curious that I could reason and follow out a network of suggestion as clearly as ever; so, at least, it seemed to me. It was calmness rather than dulness that was coming upon me. Was there any ground for the belief in the presentiment of death? Did a man near to death begin instinctively to withdraw himself from the meshes of matter and sense, even before the cold hand was laid upon his? I felt strangely isolated—isolated without regret—from the life and existence about me. The children playing in the sun and gathering strength and experience for the business of life, the park-keeper gossiping with a nurse-maid, the nursing mother, the young couple intent upon each other as they passed me, the trees by the wayside spreading new pleading leaves 186to the sunlight, the stir in their branches—I had been part of it all, but I had nearly done with it now.
Was this numbness of feeling itself a kind of anticipation? It was strange that I could still think clearly and connect a web of ideas just as I always did; at least, that’s how it felt to me. It was more like calmness than numbness that was washing over me. Was there any truth to the idea of sensing one’s own death? Do people nearing death instinctively start to pull away from the physical world, even before they feel the cold grip of it? I felt oddly alone—alone without any sense of loss—from the life and reality around me. The kids playing in the sun, gaining strength and experience for life's challenges, the park ranger chatting with a nanny, the nursing mother, the young couple focused on each other as they walked past me, the trees by the path stretching new, eager leaves towards the sunlight, and the rustle in their branches—I had been part of it all, but I was almost done with it now. 186
Some way down the Broad Walk I perceived that I was tired, and that my feet were heavy. It was hot that afternoon, and I turned aside and sat down on one of the green chairs that line the way. In a minute I had dozed into a dream, and the tide of my thoughts washed up a vision of the Resurrection. I was still sitting in the chair, but I thought myself actually dead, withered, tattered, dried, one eye (I saw) pecked out by birds. “Awake!” cried a voice; and incontinently the dust of the path and the mould under the grass became insurgent. I had never before thought of Regent’s Park as a cemetery, but now, through the trees, stretching as far as eye could see, I beheld a flat plain of writhing graves and heeling tombstones. There seemed to be some trouble, the rising dead appeared to stifle as they struggled upward, they bled in their struggles, the red flesh was tattered away from the white bones. “Awake!” cried a voice; but I determined I would not rise to such horrors. “Awake!” They would not let me alone. “Wike up!” said an angry voice. A cockney angel! The man who sells the tickets was shaking me, demanding my penny.
Some way down the Broad Walk, I noticed that I was tired and my feet felt heavy. It was a hot afternoon, so I turned to sit down on one of the green chairs lining the path. In a minute, I had dozed off and my thoughts washed up a vision of the Resurrection. I was still sitting in the chair, but I imagined I was actually dead—withered, tattered, and dried, with one eye pecked out by birds. “Wake up!” cried a voice, and suddenly the dust of the path and the mold under the grass became restless. I had never thought of Regent’s Park as a cemetery, but now, through the trees, I saw a flat plain of writhing graves and tilting tombstones stretching as far as I could see. There seemed to be some commotion; the rising dead appeared to be gasping as they struggled upward, bleeding as they fought, their red flesh torn away from their white bones. “Wake up!” cried the voice again, but I resolved not to rise to such horrors. “Wake up!” They wouldn't let me be. “Wike up!” said an irritated voice. A cockney angel! The man selling tickets was shaking me, demanding my penny.
I paid my penny, pocketed my ticket, yawned, stretched my legs, and feeling now rather less 187torpid, got up and walked on towards Langham Place. I speedily lost myself again in a shifting maze of thoughts about death. Going across Marylebone Road into that crescent at the end of Langham Place, I had the narrowest escape from the shaft of a cab, and went on my way with a palpitating heart and a bruised shoulder. It struck me that it would have been curious if my meditations on my death on the morrow had led to my death that day.
I paid my penny, pocketed my ticket, yawned, stretched my legs, and feeling a bit less sluggish, got up and walked toward Langham Place. I quickly lost myself again in a jumble of thoughts about death. As I crossed Marylebone Road into that crescent at the end of Langham Place, I narrowly avoided being hit by a cab, continuing on my way with a racing heart and a sore shoulder. It occurred to me that it would have been strange if my thoughts about dying tomorrow had resulted in my death today.
But I will not weary you with more of my experiences that day and the next. I knew more and more certainly that I should die under the operation; at times I think I was inclined to pose to myself. The doctors were coming at eleven, and I did not get up. It seemed scarce worth while to trouble about washing and dressing, and, though I read my newspapers and the letters that came by the first post, I did not find them very interesting. There was a friendly note from Addison, my old school friend, calling my attention to two discrepancies and a printer’s error in my new book; with one from Langridge, venting some vexation over Minton. The rest were business communications. I breakfasted in bed. The glow of pain at my side seemed more massive. I knew it was pain, and yet, if you can understand, I did not find it very painful. I had been awake and hot and thirsty in the night, but in the morning bed felt comfortable. In the night-time I had lain 188thinking of things that were past; in the morning I dozed over the question of immortality. Haddon came, punctual to the minute, with a neat black bag; and Mowbray soon followed. Their arrival stirred me up a little. I began to take a more personal interest in the proceedings. Haddon moved the little octagonal table close to the bedside, and with his broad black back to me began taking things out of his bag. I heard the light click of steel upon steel. My imagination, I found, was not altogether stagnant. “Will you hurt me much?” I said, in an off-hand tone.
But I won’t bore you with more of my experiences from that day and the next. I became more and more sure that I was going to die during the surgery; sometimes I think I was even trying to convince myself. The doctors were coming at eleven, and I just stayed in bed. It didn’t seem worth it to worry about washing and getting dressed, and even though I read my newspapers and the letters that came by the first post, I didn’t find them interesting. There was a friendly note from Addison, my old school friend, pointing out two mistakes and a printing error in my new book; and one from Langridge, expressing some annoyance over Minton. The rest were business messages. I had breakfast in bed. The ache at my side felt more intense. I recognized it as pain, but, if you can understand, it didn’t feel very painful. I had been awake and hot and thirsty during the night, but in the morning, the bed felt comfortable. During the night, I had been lying there thinking about things that had happened in the past; in the morning, I dozed off thinking about immortality. Haddon arrived, right on time, with a neat black bag; and Mowbray soon followed. Their arrival got me a bit more engaged. I started to take a more personal interest in what was happening. Haddon moved the little octagonal table close to the bedside, and with his broad black back to me, began taking things out of his bag. I heard the light click of steel against steel. I found my imagination was not entirely stagnant. “Will you hurt me much?” I asked in a casual tone.
“Not a bit,” Haddon answered over his shoulder. “We shall chloroform you. Your heart’s as sound as a bell.” And, as he spoke, I had a whiff of the pungent sweetness of the anæsthetic.
“Not at all,” Haddon replied, glancing back. “We’ll put you under with chloroform. Your heart’s perfectly healthy.” And just then, I caught a whiff of the strong, sweet smell of the anesthetic.
They stretched me out, with a convenient exposure of my side, and, almost before I realised what was happening, the chloroform was being administered. It stings the nostrils and there is a suffocating sensation, at first. I knew I should die,—that this was the end of consciousness for me. And suddenly I felt that I was not prepared for death; I had a vague sense of a duty overlooked—I knew not what. What was it I had not done? I could think of nothing more to do, nothing desirable left in life; and yet I had the strangest disinclination to death. And the physical sensation was painfully oppressive. Of course the doctors 189did not know they were going to kill me. Possibly I struggled. Then I fell motionless, and a great silence, a monstrous silence, and an impenetrable blackness, came upon me.
They laid me flat, conveniently exposing my side, and almost before I realized what was happening, the chloroform was being applied. It burns the nostrils and feels suffocating at first. I knew I was going to die—that this was the end of my awareness. Suddenly, I felt that I wasn’t ready for death; I had a vague sense that I had overlooked something important—I just didn’t know what it was. What had I not done? I couldn’t think of anything else to do, nothing else I wanted from life; yet I felt a strange reluctance to die. The physical sensation was painfully overwhelming. Of course, the doctors didn’t realize they were about to kill me. Maybe I fought against it. Then I went still, and a great silence, a monstrous silence, and an impenetrable darkness enveloped me. 189
There must have been an interval of absolute unconsciousness, seconds or minutes. Then, with a chilly, unemotional clearness, I perceived that I was not yet dead. I was still in my body; but all the multitudinous sensations that come sweeping from it to make up the background of consciousness, had gone, leaving me free of it all. No, not free of it all; for as yet something still held me to the poor stark flesh upon the bed, held me, yet not so closely that I did not feel myself external to it, independent of it, straining away from it. I do not think I saw, I do not think I heard; but I perceived all that was going on, and it was as if I both heard and saw. Haddon was bending over me, Mowbray behind me; the scalpel—it was a large scalpel—was cutting my flesh at the side under the flying ribs. It was interesting to see myself cut like cheese, without a pang, without even a qualm. The interest was much of a quality with that one might feel in a game of chess between strangers. Haddon’s face was firm, and his hand steady; but I was surprised to perceive (how I know now) that he was feeling the gravest doubt as to his own wisdom in the conduct of the operation.
There must have been a moment of complete unconsciousness, just seconds or minutes. Then, with a cold, emotionless clarity, I realized that I wasn’t dead yet. I was still in my body, but all the countless sensations that normally make up awareness had faded away, leaving me detached from it all. No, not completely detached; something was still tethering me to the poor, stark flesh on the bed, holding me, but not so tightly that I couldn’t feel myself separate from it, independent of it, pulling away from it. I don’t think I saw or heard anything, but I sensed everything happening around me, as if I both heard and saw. Haddon was leaning over me, Mowbray was behind me; the scalpel—it was a large one—was slicing into my flesh at the side beneath the ribs. It was oddly fascinating to watch myself being cut open like cheese, without any pain, without even a flinch. The interest was similar to what one might feel in a chess game between strangers. Haddon’s face was determined, and his hand steady; but I was surprised to realize (how I know now) that he was experiencing serious doubt about his own judgment in carrying out the operation.
Mowbray’s thoughts, too, I could see. He was 190thinking that Haddon’s manner showed too much of the specialist. New suggestions came up like bubbles through a stream of frothing meditation, and burst one after another in the little bright spot of his consciousness. He could not help noticing and admiring Haddon’s swift dexterity, in spite of his envious quality and his disposition to detract. I saw my liver exposed. I was puzzled at my own condition. I did not feel that I was dead, but I was different in some way from my living self. The grey depression that had weighed on me for a year or more, and coloured all my thoughts, was gone. I perceived and thought without any emotional tint at all. I wondered if every one perceived things in this way under chloroform, and forgot it again when he came out of it. It would be inconvenient to look into some heads, and not forget.
Mowbray's thoughts were clear to me. He was190thinking that Haddon’s approach seemed overly specialized. New ideas popped up like bubbles in a stream of swirling thoughts, only to burst one after another in the small bright space of his mind. He couldn’t help but notice and admire Haddon’s quick skill, even though he felt envious and had a tendency to undermine him. I saw my liver exposed. I was confused about my own state. I didn’t feel dead, but I sensed I was somehow different from my living self. The gray heaviness that had burdened me for over a year, tinting all my thoughts, had lifted. I perceived and thought without any emotional coloring. I wondered if everyone experienced things like this under chloroform and simply forgot it once they woke up. It would be inconvenient to glimpse into some minds and not forget.
Although I did not think that I was dead, I still perceived, quite clearly, that I was soon to die. This brought me back to the consideration of Haddon’s proceedings. I looked into his mind, and saw that he was afraid of cutting a branch of the portal vein. My attention was distracted from details by the curious changes going on in his mind. His consciousness was like the quivering little spot of light which is thrown by the mirror of a galvanometer. His thoughts ran under it like a stream, some through the focus bright and distinct, some shadowy in the half-light of the edge. Just now the little glow was steady; but the least movement 191on Mowbray’s part, the slightest sound from outside, even a faint difference in the slow movement of the living flesh he was cutting, set the light-spot shivering and spinning. A new sense-impression came rushing up through the flow of thoughts; and lo! the light-spot jerked away towards it, swifter than a frightened fish. It was wonderful to think that upon that unstable, fitful thing depended all the complex motions of the man, that for the next five minutes, therefore, my life hung upon its movements. And he was growing more and more nervous in his work. It was as if a little picture of a cut vein grew brighter, and struggled to oust from his brain another picture of a cut falling short of the mark. He was afraid: his dread of cutting too little was battling with his dread of cutting too far.
Although I didn’t think I was dead, I could clearly tell that I was about to die. This made me focus again on Haddon’s actions. I looked into his mind and saw that he was scared of cutting a branch of the portal vein. I got distracted from the details by the strange changes happening in his mind. His consciousness was like the tiny flickering spot of light produced by a galvanometer's mirror. His thoughts flowed beneath it like a stream, some bright and clear in the focus, others dimly visible in the half-light at the edges. Right now, the little glow was steady; but even the slightest movement from Mowbray, the faintest sound from outside, or a slight change in the slow motion of the living flesh he was cutting made the light spot tremble and spin. A new sense impression surged up through the flow of thoughts, and suddenly, the light spot jerked towards it, quicker than a startled fish. It was incredible to realize that all the complex actions of the man depended on that unstable, flickering thing, meaning my life hung in the balance of its movements for the next five minutes. And he was becoming more and more anxious about his work. It was as if a vivid image of a cut vein grew stronger in his mind, fighting to push out another image of a cut that fell short. He was afraid: his fear of cutting too little clashed with his fear of cutting too much.
Then, suddenly, like an escape of water from under a lock gate, a great uprush of horrible realisation set all his thoughts swirling, and simultaneously I perceived that the vein was cut. He started back with a hoarse exclamation, and I saw the brown-purple blood gather in a swift bead, and run trickling. He was horrified. He pitched the red-stained scalpel on to the octagonal table; and instantly both doctors flung themselves upon me, making hasty and ill-conceived efforts to remedy the disaster. “Ice,” said Mowbray, gasping. But I knew that I was killed, though my body still clung to me.
Then, suddenly, like a rush of water breaking through a dam, a wave of horrifying realization sent all his thoughts spinning, and at the same time, I noticed that the vein was severed. He stepped back with a choked shout, and I watched as the dark red blood formed a quick bead and started to trickle. He was in shock. He tossed the blood-stained scalpel onto the octagonal table, and immediately both doctors rushed to me, making frantic and poorly thought-out attempts to fix the situation. “Ice,” Mowbray gasped. But I knew I was done for, even though my body was still there with me.
192I will not describe their belated endeavours to save me, though I perceived every detail. My perceptions were sharper and swifter than they had ever been in life; my thoughts rushed through my mind with incredible swiftness, but with perfect definition. I can only compare their crowded clarity to the effects of a reasonable dose of opium. In a moment it would all be over, and I should be free. I knew I was immortal, but what would happen I did not know. Should I drift off presently, like a puff of smoke from a gun, in some kind of half-material body, an attenuated version of my material self? Should I find myself suddenly among the innumerable hosts of the dead, and know the world about me for the phantasmagoria it had always seemed? Should I drift to some spiritualistic séance, and there make foolish, incomprehensible attempts to affect a purblind medium? It was a state of unemotional curiosity, of colourless expectation. And then I realised a growing stress upon me, a feeling as though some huge human magnet was drawing me upward out of my body. The stress grew and grew. I seemed an atom, for which monstrous forces were fighting. For one brief, terrible moment sensation came back to me. That feeling of falling headlong which comes in nightmares, that feeling a thousand times intensified, that and a black horror swept across my thoughts in a torrent. Then the two 193doctors, the naked body with its cut side, the little room, swept away from under me, and vanished, as a speck of foam vanishes down an eddy.
192I won’t talk about their late efforts to save me, even though I noticed every detail. My perceptions were sharper and faster than they'd ever been in life; my thoughts raced through my mind at incredible speed, yet with perfect clarity. I can only compare that clarity to the effect of a decent dose of opium. In a moment, it would all be over, and I would be free. I knew I was immortal, but I didn’t know what would happen next. Would I drift off like a wisp of smoke from a gun, in some kind of half-physical form, a thinner version of my physical self? Would I suddenly find myself among countless dead, experiencing the world around me as the illusion it had always felt like? Would I float to some spiritualistic spiritual session, trying in vain to influence an oblivious medium? It was a state of detached curiosity, a bland expectation. Then I felt an increasing pressure on me, as if some enormous human magnet was pulling me upward out of my body. The pressure intensified. I felt like an atom, fighting against monstrous forces. For a brief, terrifying moment, sensation hit me again. That feeling of falling headfirst that comes in nightmares, heightened a thousand times, along with a deep horror flooded my thoughts. Then the two doctors, the naked body with its open wound, the small room, all vanished beneath me, disappearing like a speck of foam going down a swirl. 193
I was in mid-air. Far below was the West End of London, receding rapidly,—for I seemed to be flying swiftly upward,—and, as it receded, passing westward like a panorama. I could see through the faint haze of smoke the innumerable roofs chimney-set, the narrow roadways stippled with people and conveyances, the little specks of squares, and the church steeples like thorns sticking out of the fabric. But it spun away as the earth rotated on its axis, and in a few seconds (as it seemed) I was over the scattered clumps of town about Ealing, the little Thames a thread of blue to the south, and the Chiltern Hills and the North Downs coming up like the rim of a basin, far away and faint with haze. Up I rushed. And at first I had not the faintest conception what this headlong upward rush could mean.
I was in mid-air. Far below was the West End of London, rapidly shrinking as I seemed to soar swiftly upward, and as it faded away, it moved westward like a moving picture. I could see through the light haze of smoke the countless rooftops with chimneys, the narrow streets dotted with people and vehicles, the small patches of squares, and church steeples poking up like thorns from the landscape. But it spun away as the earth turned on its axis, and in just a few seconds (or so it felt) I found myself over the scattered clusters of buildings around Ealing, the little Thames looking like a thread of blue to the south, and the Chiltern Hills and the North Downs rising up like the edge of a basin, far away and faint in the haze. I shot up. And at first, I had no idea what this rapid upward rush could mean.
Every moment the circle of scenery beneath me grew wider and wider, and the details of town and field, of hill and valley, got more and more hazy and pale and indistinct, a luminous grey was mingled more and more with the blue of the hills and the green of the open meadows; and a little patch of cloud, low and far to the west, shone ever more dazzlingly white. Above, as the veil 194of atmosphere between myself and outer space grew thinner, the sky, which had been a fair springtime blue at first, grew deeper and richer in colour, passing steadily through the intervening shades, until presently it was as dark as the blue sky of midnight, and presently as black as the blackness of a frosty starlight, and at last as black as no blackness I had ever beheld. And first one star, and then many, and at last an innumerable host, broke out upon the sky: more stars than any one has ever seen from the face of the earth. For the blueness of the sky is the light of the sun and stars sifted and spread abroad blindingly; there is diffused light even in the darkest skies of winter, and we do not see their light by day because of the dazzling irradiation of the sun. But now I saw things—I know not how; assuredly with no mortal eyes—and that defect of bedazzlement blinded me no longer. The sun was incredibly strange and wonderful. The body of it was a disc of blinding white light; not yellowish as it seems to those who live upon the earth, but livid white, all streaked with scarlet streaks, and rimmed about with a fringe of writhing tongues of red fire. And, shooting halfway across the heavens from either side of it, and brighter than the Milky Way, were two pinions of silver-white, making it look more like those winged globes I have seen in Egyptian sculpture, than anything else I can remember upon earth. 195These I knew for the solar corona, though I had never seen anything of it but a picture during the days of my earthly life.
Every moment, the view below me expanded, and the details of the town, fields, hills, and valleys became more and more faded and vague. A bright grey merged increasingly with the blue of the hills and the green of the open meadows; and a small patch of cloud, low and far in the west, shone ever more brilliantly white. As the layer of atmosphere between me and outer space thinned, the sky, which had started as a clear springtime blue, deepened in color, transitioning through various shades, until it became as dark as the blue sky of midnight, and then as black as the darkness of a frosty starlit night, eventually reaching a level of blackness I had never seen before. First one star appeared, then many, and eventually an endless swarm broke out in the sky—more stars than anyone has ever seen from the surface of the earth. The blueness of the sky is actually the light of the sun and stars filtered and scattered so intensely; there is diffuse light even in the darkest winter skies, and we don’t notice that light during the day because of the sun's blinding brightness. But now I was seeing things—I can't explain how; definitely not with normal human eyes—and that dazzling effect no longer blinded me. The sun appeared incredibly strange and amazing. Its body was a disc of blinding white light; not yellowish as it appears to those on Earth, but a ghastly white, streaked with scarlet lines and surrounded by a fringe of writhing tongues of red fire. Shooting halfway across the sky from either side of it, brighter than the Milky Way, were two wings of silver-white, making it resemble the winged globes I’ve seen in Egyptian art more than anything I can recall from Earth. I recognized these as the solar corona, though I had only seen pictures of it during my life on Earth.
When my attention came back to the earth again, I saw that it had fallen very far away from me. Field and town were long since indistinguishable, and all the varied hues of the country were merging into a uniform bright grey, broken only by the brilliant white of the clouds that lay scattered in flocculent masses over Ireland and the west of England. For now I could see the outlines of the north of France and Ireland, and all this island of Britain, save where Scotland passed over the horizon to the north, or where the coast was blurred or obliterated by cloud. The sea was a dull grey, and darker than the land; and the whole panorama was rotating slowly towards the east.
When I refocused on the earth, I realized it was far away from me. Fields and towns had become indistinguishable, and all the different colors of the countryside were blending into a bright uniform grey, interrupted only by the brilliant white clouds scattered like fluffy masses over Ireland and the west of England. Now I could make out the outlines of northern France and Ireland, as well as all of Great Britain, except where Scotland faded over the horizon to the north or where the coast was obscured by clouds. The sea looked dull grey, darker than the land, and the entire view was slowly rotating eastward.
All this had happened so swiftly that, until I was some thousand miles or so from the earth, I had no thought for myself. But now I perceived I had neither hands nor feet, parts nor organs, and that I felt neither alarm nor pain. All about me, I perceived that the vacancy (for I had already left the air behind) was cold beyond the imagination of man; but it troubled me not. The sun’s rays shot through the void, powerless to light or heat until they should strike on matter in their course. I saw things with a serene self-forgetfulness, even as if I were God. And down 196below there, rushing away from me,—countless miles in a second,—where a little dark spot on the grey marked the position of London, two doctors were struggling to restore life to the poor hacked and outworn shell I had abandoned. I felt then such release, such serenity, as I can compare to no earthly delight I have ever known.
All this happened so quickly that, until I was about a thousand miles away from the earth, I didn't think about myself at all. But now I realized I had no hands or feet, no body parts or organs, and I felt neither alarm nor pain. All around me, I sensed that the emptiness (since I had already left the atmosphere behind) was colder than anyone could imagine; but it didn't bother me. The sun's rays shot through the void, unable to light or heat anything until they hit some matter along the way. I observed everything with a calm self-forgetfulness, almost as if I were God. And down below there, speeding away from me—countless miles in a second—where a little dark spot on the gray marked the position of London, two doctors were trying to revive the poor, battered shell I had left behind. In that moment, I felt such release, such serenity, that I can't compare it to any earthly pleasure I've ever known.
It was only after I had perceived all these things that the meaning of that headlong rush of the earth grew into comprehension. Yet it was so simple, so obvious, that I was amazed at my never anticipating the thing that was happening to me. I had suddenly been cut adrift from matter: all that was material of me was there upon earth, whirling away through space, held to the earth by gravitation, partaking of the earth-inertia, moving in its wreath of epicycles round the sun, and with the sun and the planets on their vast march through space. But the immaterial has no inertia, feels nothing of the pull of matter for matter: where it parts from its garment of flesh there it remains (so far as space concerns it any longer) immovable in space. I was not leaving the earth: the earth was leaving me, and not only the earth but the whole solar system was streaming past. And about me in space, invisible to me, scattered in the wake of the earth upon its journey, there must be an innumerable multitude of souls, stripped like myself of the material, stripped like myself of 197the passions of the individual and the generous emotions of the gregarious brute, naked intelligences, things of newborn wonder and thought, marvelling at the strange release that had suddenly come on them!
It was only after I noticed all these things that the meaning of the earth's rapid movement became clear to me. Yet it was so simple, so obvious, that I was surprised I never saw it coming. I had suddenly been cut loose from the physical world: everything material about me was there on earth, spinning away through space, held to the earth by gravity, moving in its loops around the sun, and with the sun and the planets on their immense journey through space. But the immaterial has no inertia and doesn’t feel the pull of matter: once it separates from its physical form, it remains (as far as space is concerned) fixed in place. I wasn’t leaving the earth: the earth was leaving me, and not just the earth but the entire solar system was flowing past. And around me in space, invisible to me, scattered in the trail of the earth on its journey, there must be countless souls, stripped like me of the material, stripped like me of the instincts of the individual and the warm feelings of the social creature, bare intelligences, entities filled with fresh wonder and thought, amazed at the strange liberation that had suddenly come over them!
As I receded faster and faster from the strange white sun in the black heavens, and from the broad and shining earth upon which my being had begun, I seemed to grow, in some incredible manner, vast: vast as regards this world I had left, vast as regards the moments and periods of a human life. Very soon I saw the full circle of the earth, slightly gibbous, like the moon when she nears her full, but very great; and the silvery shape of America was now in the noonday blaze, wherein (as it seemed) little England had been basking but a few minutes ago. At first the earth was large, and shone in the heavens, filling a great part of them; but every moment she grew smaller and more distant. As she shrunk, the broad moon in its third quarter crept into view over the rim of her disc. I looked for the constellations. Only that part of Aries directly behind the sun and the Lion which the earth covered were hidden. I recognised the tortuous, tattered band of the Milky Way, with Vega very bright between sun and earth; and Sirius and Orion shone splendid against the unfathomable blackness in the opposite quarter of the heavens. The Polestar was overhead, and the Great Bear hung over the circle of the earth. And 198away beneath and beyond the shining corona of the sun were strange groupings of stars I had never seen in my life; notably a dagger-shaped group that I knew for the Southern Cross. All these were no larger than when they had shone on earth; but the little stars that one scarce sees shone now as brightly as the first magnitudes had done, while the larger worlds were points of indescribable glory and colour. Aldebaran was a spot of blood-red fire, and Sirius condensed to one point the light of a world of sapphires. And they shone steadily: they did not scintillate, they were calmly glorious. My impressions had an adamantine hardness and brightness; there was no blurring softness, no atmosphere, nothing but infinite darkness set with the myriads of these acute and brilliant points and specks of light. Presently, when I looked again, the little earth seemed no bigger than the sun, and it dwindled, and turned as I looked, until, in a second’s space (as it seemed to me), it was halved; and so it went on swiftly dwindling. Far away in the opposite direction a little pinkish pin’s head of light, shining steadily, was the planet Mars. I swam motionless in vacancy, and without a trace of terror or astonishment, watched the speck of cosmic dust we call the world fall away from me.
As I moved away faster and faster from the strange white sun in the dark sky and from the broad, shining Earth where my life had begun, I felt myself somehow becoming vast: vast compared to the world I had left behind, and vast compared to the moments and stretches of a human life. Soon, I saw the full circle of the Earth, slightly rounded like the moon nearing fullness, but much larger; and the silvery shape of America was now blazing in the midday sun, where (it seemed) little England had been basking just moments before. At first, the Earth looked large and bright in the sky, taking up a significant part of it; but with every moment, it grew smaller and more distant. As it shrank, the broad moon in its third quarter came into view over the edge of its disc. I looked for the star constellations. Only the part of Aries directly behind the sun and the Lion that the Earth covered was hidden. I recognized the twisted, tattered band of the Milky Way, with Vega shining brightly between the sun and Earth; and Sirius and Orion sparkled brilliantly against the unfathomable darkness on the opposite side of the sky. The North Star was directly above, and the Big Dipper hung over the circle of the Earth. Away beneath and beyond the shining halo of the sun were strange clusters of stars I had never seen before; notably, a dagger-shaped group that I recognized as the Southern Cross. All of these looked no larger than when they had been visible from Earth; yet, the little stars that were barely noticeable now shone as brightly as the larger stars had once done, while the bigger worlds appeared as points of indescribable brilliance and color. Aldebaran was a spot of deep red fire, and Sirius condensed the light of a world full of sapphires into one point. They shone steadily: they did not twinkle, they were calmly magnificent. My impressions were sharp and bright; there was no soft blurriness, no atmosphere—just infinite darkness dotted with countless sharp and brilliant points of light. Eventually, when I looked again, the small Earth seemed no bigger than the sun, and it diminished and rotated as I watched, until, in what felt like just a second, it was halved; and it continued to shrink swiftly. Far away in the opposite direction, a tiny pink pinprick of light, shining steadily, was the planet Mars. I floated motionless in the void, without a hint of fear or astonishment, as I watched the speck of cosmic dust we call the world drift away from me.
Presently it dawned upon me that my sense of duration had changed: that my mind was moving not faster, but infinitely slower; that between each separate impression there was a period of many 199days. The moon spun once round the earth as I noted this; and I perceived, clearly, the motion of Mars in his orbit. Moreover it appeared as if the time between thought and thought grew steadily greater, until at last a thousand years was but a moment in my perception.
Right then, it hit me that my sense of time had shifted: my mind was moving not faster, but infinitely slower; that between each individual thought there was a span of many 199 days. The moon completed a full orbit around the earth as I realized this; and I could clearly see Mars moving in its orbit. Additionally, it seemed like the time between thoughts kept stretching out, until finally, a thousand years felt like just a moment to me.
At first the constellations had shone motionless against the black background of infinite space; but presently it seemed as though the group of stars about Hercules and the Scorpion was contracting, while Orion and Aldebaran and their neighbours were scattering apart. Flashing suddenly out of the darkness, there came a flying multitude of particles of rock, glittering like dust-specks in a sunbeam and encompassed in a faintly luminous haze. They swirled all about me and vanished again in a twinkling far behind. And then I saw that a bright spot of light, that shone a little to one side of my path, was growing very rapidly larger, and perceived that it was the planet Saturn rushing towards me. Larger and larger it grew, swallowing up the heavens behind it, and hiding every moment a fresh multitude of stars. I perceived its flattened whirling body, its disc-like belt, and seven of its little satellites. It grew and grew, till it towered enormous, and then I plunged amid a streaming multitude of clashing stones and dancing dust-particles and gas-eddies, and saw for a moment the mighty triple belt like three concentric arches of moonlight above me, its shadow black on the boiling 200tumult below. These things happened in one tenth of the time it takes to tell of them. The planet went by like a flash of lightning; for a few seconds it blotted out the sun, and there and then became a mere black, dwindling, winged patch against the light. The earth, the mother mote of my being, I could no longer see.
At first, the constellations shone still against the black backdrop of endless space; but soon it seemed like the group of stars around Hercules and the Scorpion was pulling together, while Orion, Aldebaran, and their neighbors were spreading apart. Suddenly, a swarm of rock particles shot out of the darkness, sparkling like dust in a sunbeam and surrounded by a faint glow. They swirled around me and disappeared in an instant far behind. Then I noticed a bright spot of light, shining just off my path, quickly growing larger, and I realized it was the planet Saturn rushing toward me. It got bigger and bigger, swallowing the heavens behind it and hiding more and more stars. I saw its flattened, spinning shape, its disc-like rings, and seven of its small moons. It kept growing until it loomed enormous, and then I plunged into a chaotic mix of crashing rocks, swirling dust particles, and gas clouds, catching a glimpse of the impressive triple ring like three concentric arches of moonlight above me, its shadow dark on the churning chaos below. These events happened in a fraction of the time it takes to describe them. The planet zipped past like a flash of lightning; for a few seconds, it blocked out the sun and then became just a small, dark, dwindling shape against the light. I could no longer see the Earth, the very essence of my existence.
So with a stately swiftness, in the profoundest silence, the solar system fell from me, as it had been a garment, until the sun was a mere star amid the multitude of stars, with its eddy of planet-specks lost in the confused glittering of the remoter light. I was no longer a denizen of the solar system: I had come to the Outer Universe, I seemed to grasp and comprehend the whole world of matter. Ever more swiftly the stars closed in about the spot where Antares and Vega had vanished in a luminous haze, until that part of the sky had the semblance of a whirling mass of nebulæ, and ever before me yawned vaster gaps of vacant blackness, and the stars shone fewer and fewer. It seemed as if I moved towards a point between Orion’s belt and sword; and the void about that region opened vaster and vaster every second, an incredible gulf of nothingness into which I was falling. Faster and ever faster the universe rushed by, a hurry of whirling motes at last, speeding silently into the void. Stars, glowing brighter and brighter, with their circling planets catching the light in a ghostly fashion as I neared them, shone out and 201vanished again into inexistence; faint comets, clusters of meteorites, winking specks of matter, eddying light points whizzed past, some perhaps a hundred millions of miles or so from me at most, few nearer, travelling with unimaginable rapidity, shooting constellations, momentary darts of fire through the black night. More than anything else it was like a dusty draught, sunbeam-lit. Broader and wider and deeper grew the starless space, the vacant Beyond, into which I was being drawn. At last a quarter of the heavens was black and blank, and the whole headlong rush of stellar universe closed in behind me like a veil of light that is gathered together. It drove away from me like a monstrous Jack-o’-lantern driven by the wind. I had come out into the wilderness of space. Even the vacant blackness grew broader, until the hosts of the stars seemed only like a swarm of fiery specks hurrying away from me, inconceivably remote, and the darkness, the nothingness and emptiness, was about me on every side. Soon the little universe of matter, the cage of points in which I had begun to be, was dwindling, now to a whirling disc of luminous glittering, and now to one minute disc of hazy light. In a little while it would shrink to a point, and at last would vanish altogether.
So with a dignified speed, in the deepest silence, the solar system slipped away from me like a garment, until the sun became just another star among countless others, with its swirl of tiny planets lost in the confusing sparkle of distant light. I was no longer part of the solar system: I had entered the Outer Universe, and it felt like I could understand the entire world of matter. The stars closed in around the spot where Antares and Vega had faded into a glowing haze, until that area of the sky looked like a spinning mass of nebulae, and greater and greater gaps of empty blackness yawned before me, with fewer and fewer stars shining. It felt like I was moving toward a point between Orion’s belt and sword; and the emptiness in that region grew wider and wider every second, an unbelievable gulf of nothingness into which I was falling. The universe rushed by faster and faster, a flurry of whirling particles, silently speeding into the void. Stars, glowing brighter and brighter, with their surrounding planets catching the light in an eerie way as I approached them, appeared and then vanished back into nothingness; faint comets, clusters of meteorites, blinking bits of matter, swirling points of light zoomed by, some perhaps a hundred million miles away at most, few closer, moving with unimaginable speed, shooting constellations, brief flashes of fire through the dark night. More than anything else, it felt like a dusty draft, illuminated by sunlight. The starless expanse, the empty Beyond, into which I was being pulled, grew broader, wider, and deeper. Eventually, a quarter of the sky was dark and blank, and the entire rush of the star-filled universe closed in behind me like a light-draped veil gathering together. It surged away from me like a giant Jack-o’-lantern blown by the wind. I had ventured out into the wilderness of space. Even the empty blackness expanded, until the hosts of stars seemed just like a swarm of fiery specks racing away from me, unimaginably distant, while darkness, nothingness, and emptiness surrounded me on all sides. Soon, the small universe of matter, the cage of points where I had begun, was shrinking, now to a swirling disc of glowing light, and then to a tiny disc of hazy illumination. In a little while, it would shrink to a point, and eventually disappear altogether.
Suddenly feeling came back to me: feeling in the shape of overwhelming terror,—such a dread of those dark vastitudes as no words can describe, 202a passionate resurgence of sympathy and social desire. Were there other souls, invisible to me as I to them, about me in the blackness? or was I indeed, even as I felt, alone? Had I passed out of being into something that was neither being nor not-being? The covering of the body, the covering of matter had been torn from me, and the hallucinations of companionship and security. Everything was black and silent. I had ceased to be. I was nothing. There was nothing, save only that infinitesimal dot of light that dwindled in the gulf. I strained myself to hear and see, and for a while there was naught but infinite silence, intolerable darkness, horror, and despair.
Suddenly, I felt everything come rushing back to me: feeling in the form of overwhelming terror—such a fear of those dark expanses that no words can capture, a passionate wave of sympathy and desire for connection. Were there other souls, invisible to me as I was to them, around me in the darkness? Or was I truly, just as I felt, alone? Had I slipped out of existence into something that was neither being nor not-being? The cover of the body, the cover of matter had been stripped away from me, along with the illusions of companionship and safety. Everything was black and silent. I had ceased to exist. I was nothing. There was nothing, except that tiny flicker of light that faded in the void. I strained to hear and see, and for a while, there was only infinite silence, unbearable darkness, horror, and despair. 202
Then I saw that about the spot of light into which the whole world of matter had shrunk, there was a faint glow. And in a band on either side of that the darkness was not absolute. I watched it for ages, as it seemed to me, and through the long waiting the haze grew imperceptibly more distinct. And then about the band appeared an irregular cloud of the faintest, palest brown. I felt a passionate impatience; but the things grew brighter so slowly that they scarce seemed to change. What was unfolding itself? What was this strange reddish dawn in the interminable night of space?
Then I noticed that around the spot of light where the entire world of matter had condensed, there was a faint glow. And on either side of that, the darkness wasn’t complete. I watched it for what felt like ages, and through the long wait, the haze gradually became a bit clearer. Then an irregular cloud of the faintest, lightest brown appeared around the band. I felt a deep impatience; but the things brightened so slowly that they barely seemed to change. What was being revealed? What was this strange reddish dawn in the endless night of space?
The cloud’s shape was grotesque. It seemed to be looped along its lower side into four projecting masses, and, above, it ended in a straight line. What phantom was it? I felt assured I had seen 203that figure before; but I could not think what, nor where, nor when it was. Then the realisation rushed upon me. It was a clenched hand. I was alone, in space, alone with this huge, shadowy Hand, upon which the whole Universe of Matter lay like an unconsidered speck of dust. It seemed as though I watched it through vast periods of time. On the forefinger glittered a ring; and the universe from which I had come was but a spot of light upon the ring’s curvature. And the thing that the Hand gripped had the likeness of a black rod. Through a long eternity I watched the Hand, with the ring and the rod, marvelling and fearing and waiting helplessly on what might follow. It seemed as though nothing could follow: that I should watch forever, seeing only the Hand and the thing it held, and understanding nothing of its import. Was the whole universe but a refracting speck upon some greater Being? Were our worlds but the atoms of another universe, and those again of another, and so on through an endless progression? And what was I? Was I indeed immaterial? A vague persuasion of a body gathering about me came into my suspense. The abysmal darkness about the Hand filled with impalpable suggestions, with uncertain, fluctuating shapes.
The cloud's shape was bizarre. It appeared to have four protruding masses along its lower side, and above, it ended in a straight line. What was this shadow? I was sure I had seen that figure before, but I couldn’t remember when or where. Then the realization hit me. It was a clenched hand. I was alone in space, alone with this massive, shadowy Hand, upon which the entire Universe of Matter lay like an insignificant speck of dust. It felt as if I was observing it across vast stretches of time. A ring sparkled on the forefinger, and the universe I came from was just a spot of light on the ring's curve. The thing that the Hand held looked like a black rod. For what felt like an eternity, I stared at the Hand, with the ring and the rod, both marveling and fearing, helplessly waiting for whatever might come next. It felt like nothing could follow: that I would just keep watching, seeing only the Hand and the thing it gripped, without understanding its meaning. Was the entire universe just a reflective speck on some greater Being? Were our worlds merely the atoms of another universe, and those again of yet another, in an endless progression? And what was I? Was I truly immaterial? A vague sense of a body started to gather around me amidst the suspense. The profound darkness surrounding the Hand filled with faint suggestions, with uncertain, shifting shapes.
Then, suddenly, came a sound, like the sound of a tolling bell: faint, as if infinitely far; muffled, as though heard through thick swathings of darkness,—a deep vibrating resonance with vast gulfs of 204silence between each stroke. And the Hand appeared to tighten on the rod. And I saw far above the Hand, towards the apex of the darkness, a circle of dim phosphorescence, a ghostly sphere whence these sounds came throbbing; and at the last stroke the Hand vanished, for the hour had come, and I heard a noise of many waters. But the black rod remained as a great band across the sky. And then a voice, which seemed to run to the uttermost parts of space, spoke, saying: “There will be no more pain.”
Then, suddenly, there was a sound, like a ringing bell: faint, as if it were infinitely far away; muffled, as if heard through heavy layers of darkness—a deep, resonating echo with vast stretches of silence between each strike. And the Hand seemed to tighten on the rod. I saw far above the Hand, toward the peak of the darkness, a circle of dim light, a ghostly sphere from which these sounds pulsed; and with the last stroke, the Hand disappeared, for the time had come, and I heard the noise of many waters. But the black rod remained like a thick band across the sky. Then a voice, which seemed to reach the farthest corners of space, spoke, saying: “There will be no more pain.”
At that an almost intolerable gladness and radiance rushed in upon me, and I saw the circle shining white and bright, and the rod black and shining, and many other things else distinct and clear. And the circle was the face of the clock, and the rod the rail of my bed. Haddon was standing at the foot, against the rail, with a small pair of scissors on his fingers; and the hands of my clock on the mantel over his shoulder were clasped together over the hour of twelve. Mowbray was washing something in a basin at the octagonal table, and at my side I felt a subdued feeling that could scarce be spoken of as pain.
At that moment, an almost overwhelming joy and brightness washed over me, and I saw the circle shining white and bright, and the rod black and shining, along with many other things that were clear and distinct. The circle was the face of the clock, and the rod was the rail of my bed. Haddon was standing at the foot of the bed, leaning against the rail, holding a small pair of scissors; and the hands of my clock on the mantel above his shoulder were joined together at twelve o'clock. Mowbray was washing something in a basin at the octagonal table, and beside me, I felt a subdued sensation that was hardly describable as pain.
The operation had not killed me. And I perceived suddenly that the dull melancholy of half a year was lifted from my mind.
The operation hadn’t killed me. And I suddenly realized that the dull sadness of the last six months was gone from my mind.
THE RECONCILIATION
Temple had scarcely been with Findlay five minutes before he felt his old resentments, and the memory of that unforgettable wrong growing vivid again. But with the infatuation of his good resolution still upon him, he maintained the air of sham reconciliation that Findlay had welcomed so eagerly. They talked of this and that, carefully avoiding the matter of the separation. Temple at first spoke chiefly of his travels. He stood between the cabinet of minerals and the fireplace, his whiskey on the mantel-board, while Findlay sat with his chair pushed back from his writing-desk, on which were scattered the dozen little skulls of hedgehogs and shrew mice upon which he had been working.
Temple had barely been with Findlay for five minutes when his old resentments and the memory of that unforgettable wrong started flooding back. But fueled by the determination of his newfound resolution, he kept up the pretense of reconciliation that Findlay had welcomed so eagerly. They chatted about this and that, carefully steering clear of the topic of their separation. At first, Temple mostly talked about his travels. He stood between the mineral cabinet and the fireplace, his whiskey on the mantel, while Findlay sat with his chair pushed back from his writing desk, where a dozen little skulls of hedgehogs and shrew mice were scattered, remnants of his work.
Temple’s eye fell upon them, and abruptly brought his mind round from the topic of West Africa. “And you—” said Temple. “While I have been wandering I suppose you have been going on steadily.”
Temple’s gaze landed on them, pulling his thoughts away from West Africa. “And you—” said Temple. “While I’ve been off exploring, I guess you’ve been keeping things steady.”
“Drumming along,” said Findlay.
“Beating the drums,” said Findlay.
“To the Royal Society and fame and all the things we used to dream about—How long is it?”
“To the Royal Society, fame, and all the things we used to dream about—How long is it?”
“Five years—since our student days.”
"Five years since college."
206Temple glanced round the room, and his eye rested for a moment on a round greyish-drab object that lay in the corner near the door. “The same fat books and folios, only more of them, the same smell of old bones, and a dissection—is it the same one?—in the window. Fame is your mistress?”
206Temple looked around the room, and his gaze landed for a moment on a round grayish-brown object in the corner near the door. “The same thick books and folios, just more of them, the same smell of old bones, and a dissection—is it the same one?—in the window. Fame is your mistress?”
“Fame,” said Findlay. “But it’s hardly fame. The herd outside say, ‘Eminence in comparative anatomy.’”
“Fame,” Findlay said. “But it’s hardly fame. The crowd outside says, ‘Notable in comparative anatomy.’”
“Eminence in comparative anatomy. No marrying—no avarice.”
“Excellence in comparative anatomy. No marriage—no greed.”
“None,” said Findlay, glancing askance at him.
“None,” Findlay said, looking at him sideways.
“I suppose it’s the happiest way of living. But it wouldn’t be the thing for me. Excitement—but, I say!”—his eye had fallen again on that fungoid shape of drabbish-grey—“there’s a limit to scientific inhumanity. You really mustn’t keep your door open with a human brainpan.”
“I guess that’s the happiest way to live. But it wouldn’t be for me. Excitement—but, I must say!”—his gaze had landed again on that fungus-like, dull grey shape—“there’s a limit to scientific inhumanity. You really shouldn’t prop your door open with a human skull.”
He went across the room as he spoke and picked the thing up. “Brainpan!” said Findlay. “Oh, that! Man alive, that’s not a brainpan. Where’s your science?”
He walked across the room while he talked and picked it up. “Brainpan!” said Findlay. “Oh, that! Are you kidding me, that’s not a brainpan. Where’s your science?”
“No. I see it’s not,” said Temple, carrying the object in his hand as he came back to his former position and scrutinising it curiously. “But what the devil is it?”
“No. I see it’s not,” said Temple, holding the object in his hand as he returned to his previous spot and examining it with curiosity. “But what the heck is it?”
“Don’t you know?” said Findlay.
“Don’t you know?” Findlay asked.
The thing was about thrice the size of a man’s hand, like a rough watch-pocket of thick bone.
The thing was about three times the size of a man's hand, like a rough watch pocket made of thick bone.
207Findlay laughed almost naturally. “You have a bad memory—It’s a whale’s ear-bone.”
207Findlay laughed almost effortlessly. “You have a terrible memory—It’s a whale’s earbone.”
“Of course,” said Temple, his appearance of interest vanishing. “The bulla of a whale. I’ve forgotten a lot of these things.”
“Of course,” said Temple, his interest fading away. “The bulla of a whale. I’ve forgotten a lot of this stuff.”
He half turned, and put the thing on the top of the cabinet beside Findlay’s dumb-bells.
He turned slightly and placed the item on top of the cabinet next to Findlay’s dumbbells.
“If you are serious in your music-hall proposal,” he said, reverting to a jovial suggestion of Findlay’s, “I am at your service. I’m afraid—I may find myself a little old for that sort of thing—I haven’t tried one for ages.”
“If you’re serious about your music-hall idea,” he said, going back to Findlay’s cheerful suggestion, “I’m here to help. I’m afraid—I might be a bit too old for that kind of thing—I haven’t done one in ages.”
“But we are meeting to commemorate youth,” said Findlay.
“But we are getting together to celebrate youth,” said Findlay.
“And bury our early manhood,” said Temple. “Well, well—yes, let us go to the music hall, by all means, if you desire it. It is trivial—and appropriate. We want no tragic issues.”
“And bury our youthful days,” said Temple. “Well, well—yes, let’s go to the music hall, of course, if that’s what you want. It's light-hearted—and fitting. We don’t need any dramatic conclusions.”
When the men returned to Findlay’s study the little clock in the dimness on the mantel-shelf was pointing to half-past one. After the departure the little brown room, with its books and bones, was undisturbed, save for the two visits Findlay’s attentive servant paid, to see to the fire and to pull down the blinds and draw the curtains. The ticking of the clock was the only sound in the quiet. Now and then the fire flickered and stirred, sending blood-red reflections chasing the shadows across the ceiling, and 208bringing into ghostly transitory prominence some grotesque grouping of animals’ bones or skulls upon the shelves. At last the stillness was broken by the unlatching and slamming of the heavy street door and the sound of unsteady footsteps approaching along the passage. Then the door opened, and the two men came into the warm firelight.
When the men came back to Findlay’s study, the little clock on the mantelpiece was showing half-past one. After they left, the small brown room, filled with books and bones, remained undisturbed, except for the two times Findlay’s attentive servant came in to check the fire, pull down the blinds, and draw the curtains. The ticking of the clock was the only sound in the quiet space. Every now and then, the fire flickered and danced, casting deep red reflections that chased the shadows across the ceiling and momentarily highlighting some bizarre arrangement of animal bones or skulls on the shelves. Finally, the stillness was interrupted by the sound of the heavy street door unlatching and slamming shut, followed by the sound of unsteady footsteps approaching in the hallway. Then the door opened, and the two men stepped into the warm firelight.
Temple came in first, his brown face flushed with drink, his coat unbuttoned, his hands deep in his trousers’ pockets. His Christmas resolution had long since dissolved in alcohol. He was a little puzzled to find himself in Findlay’s company. And his fuddled brain insisted upon inopportune reminiscence. He walked straight to the fire and stood before it, an exaggerated black figure, staring down into the red glow. “After all,” he said, “we are fools to quarrel—fools to quarrel about a little thing like that. Damned fools!”
Temple walked in first, his brown face flushed from drinks, his coat unbuttoned, and his hands shoved deep in his pants pockets. His Christmas resolution had completely faded away in alcohol. He felt a bit confused to find himself in Findlay’s company. And his hazy mind kept bringing up memories at the worst times. He walked straight to the fire and stood in front of it, a striking black figure, staring down into the red glow. “After all,” he said, “we're idiots to argue—idiots to argue about something so trivial. Damn fools!”
Findlay went to the writing-table and felt about for the matches with quivering hands.
Findlay went to the writing desk and fumbled for the matches with trembling hands.
“It wasn’t my doing,” he said.
“It wasn’t my fault,” he said.
“It wasn’t your doing,” said Temple. “Nothing ever was your doing. You are always in the right—Findlay the all-right.”
“It wasn’t your fault,” said Temple. “Nothing ever was your fault. You’re always in the right—Findlay the always-right.”
Findlay’s attention was concentrated upon the lamp. His hand was unsteady, and he had some difficulty in turning up the wicks; one got jammed down and the other flared furiously. When at 209last it was lit and turned up, he came up to Temple. “Take your coat off, old man, and have some more whiskey,” he said. “That was a ripping little girl in the skirt dance.”
Findlay was focused on the lamp. His hand was shaky, and he struggled to adjust the wicks; one got stuck down and the other burned wildly. When he finally got it lit and adjusted, he walked over to Temple. “Take off your coat, man, and have some more whiskey,” he said. “That girl during the skirt dance was amazing.”
“Fools to quarrel,” said Temple, slowly, and then woke up to Findlay’s words. “Heigh?”
“Fools to fight,” Temple said slowly, then realized what Findlay had said. “Huh?”
“Take off your coat and sit down,” said Findlay, moving up the little metal table and producing cigars and a syphon and whiskey. “That lamp gives an infernally bad light, but it is all I have. Something wrong with the oil. Did you notice the drudge of that stone-smashing trick?”
“Take off your coat and have a seat,” said Findlay, sliding the small metal table closer and pulling out cigars, a siphon, and whiskey. “That lamp gives a terrible light, but it’s all I've got. There’s something off with the oil. Did you notice how tough that stone-smashing trick was?”
Temple remained erect and gloomy, staring into the fire. “Fools to quarrel,” he said. Findlay was now half drunk, and his finesse began to leave him. Temple had been drinking heavily, and was now in a curious rambling stage. And Findlay’s one idea now was to close this curious reunion.
Temple stood stiff and somber, gazing into the fire. “What fools to argue,” he remarked. Findlay was now somewhat drunk, and his smoothness was starting to fade. Temple had been drinking hard and was now in a strange, rambling mood. Findlay’s only thought at this point was to wrap up this unusual gathering.
“There’s no woman worth a man’s friendship,” said Temple, abruptly.
“There’s no woman worth a man’s friendship,” said Temple, suddenly.
He sat down in an easy chair, poured out and drank a dose of whiskey and lithia. The idea of friendship took possession of him, and he became reminiscent of student days and student adventures. For some time it was, “Do you remember” this, and “Do you remember” that. And Findlay grew cheerful again.
He sat down in a comfortable chair, poured himself a drink of whiskey and lithia, and the thought of friendship filled his mind. He started reminiscing about his college days and adventures. For a while, it was all about “Do you remember” this and “Do you remember” that. And Findlay began to feel cheerful again.
“They were glorious times,” said Findlay, pouring whiskey into Temple’s glass.
“They were amazing times,” said Findlay, pouring whiskey into Temple’s glass.
210Then Temple startled him by abruptly reverting to that bitter quarrel. “No woman in the world,” he said. “Curse them!”
210Then Temple surprised him by suddenly bringing up that bitter argument again. “No woman in the world,” he said. “Damn them!”
He began to laugh stupidly. “After all—” he said, “in the end.”
He started to laugh foolishly. “After all—” he said, “in the end.”
“Oh, damn!” said Findlay.
“Oh, shoot!” said Findlay.
“All very well for you to swear,” said Temple, “but you forget about me. ’Tain’t your place to swear. If only you’d left things alone—”
“All well and good for you to swear,” said Temple, “but you’re forgetting about me. It’s not your place to swear. If only you’d just left things alone—”
“I thought the pass-word was forget,” said Findlay.
“I thought the password was forget,” said Findlay.
Temple stared into the fire for a space, “Forget,” he said, and then with a curious return to a clarity of speech, “Findlay, I’m getting drunk.”
Temple stared into the fire for a while. “Forget,” he said, then, with a surprisingly clear tone, “Findlay, I’m getting drunk.”
“Nonsense, man, take some more.”
"Nonsense, dude, have some more."
Temple rose out of his chair with the look of one awakening. “There’s no reason why I should get drunk, because—”
Temple stood up from his chair, looking like someone just waking up. “There’s no reason for me to get drunk, because—”
“Drink,” said Findlay, “and forget it.”
“Drink,” said Findlay, “and forget about it.”
“Faugh! I want to stick my head in water. I want to think. What the deuce am I doing here, with you of all people.”
“Yuck! I want to stick my head in water. I want to think. What on earth am I doing here, with you of all people.”
“Nonsense! Talk and forget it, if you won’t drink. Do you remember old Jason and the boxing-gloves? I wonder whether you could put up your fives now.”
“Nonsense! Talk and forget it, if you won’t drink. Do you remember old Jason and the boxing gloves? I wonder if you could throw some punches now.”
Temple stood with his back to the fire, his brain spinning with drink, and the old hatred of Findlay came back in flood. He sought in his 211mind for some offensive thing to say, and his face grew dark. Findlay saw that a crisis was upon him and he cursed under his breath. His air of conviviality, his pose of hearty comforter, grew more and more difficult. But what else was there to do?
Temple stood with his back to the fire, his mind spinning from the alcohol, and the old hatred for Findlay washed over him. He searched in his head for something offensive to say, and his expression turned grim. Findlay realized a crisis was upon him and muttered a curse under his breath. His cheerful demeanor, his act of being a comforting friend, became harder to maintain. But what else was there to do?
“Old Jason—full of science and as slow as an elephant!—but he made boxers of us. Do you remember our little set-to—at that place in Gower Street?”
“Old Jason—full of knowledge and as slow as an elephant!—but he turned us into boxers. Do you remember our little showdown—at that spot on Gower Street?”
To show his innocent liveliness, his freedom from preoccupation, Findlay pushed his chair aside, and stepped out into the middle of the room. There he began to pose in imitation of Jason, and to give a colourable travesty of the old prize-fighter’s instructions. He picked up his boxing-gloves from the shelf in the recess, and slipped them on. Temple, lowering there, on the brink of an explosion, was almost too much for his nerves. He felt his display of high spirits was a mistake, but he must go through with it now.
To demonstrate his innocent energy and carefree attitude, Findlay pushed his chair aside and stepped into the center of the room. There, he started to pose like Jason and mimic the old prizefighter's instructions in a playful way. He grabbed his boxing gloves from the shelf in the nook and put them on. Temple, sitting nearby and about to explode with frustration, was almost too much for his nerves. He realized his show of enthusiasm was a mistake, but he felt he had to see it through now.
“Don’t stand glooming there, man. You’re in just that state when the world looks black as ink. Drink yourself merry again. There’s no woman in the world worth a man’s friendship—that’s agreed upon. Come and have a bout with these gloves of mine—four-ounce gloves. There’s nothing sets the blood and spirits stirring like that.”
“Don’t just stand there looking so down, man. You’re in that mood where everything seems bleak. Have a drink and cheer up. No woman is worth a guy losing his friendships—that's a fact. Come on and have a match with my gloves—four-ounce gloves. There’s nothing that gets your blood pumping and lifts your spirits like that.”
212“All right,” said Temple, quite mechanically. And then, waking up to what he was doing, “Where are the other gloves?”
212“Okay,” Temple said, almost automatically. Then, realizing what he was doing, he asked, “Where are the other gloves?”
“Over there in the corner. On the top of the mineral cabinet. By Jove! Temple, this is like old times!”
“Over there in the corner. On top of the mineral cabinet. Wow! Temple, this is just like old times!”
Temple, quivering strangely, went to the corner. He meant to thrash Findlay, and knew that in spite of his lighter weight he would do it. Yet it seemed puerile and inadequate to the pitch of absurdity for the wrong Findlay had done him was great. And, putting his hand on something pale in the shadow, he touched the bulla of the whale. The temptation was like a lightning flash. He slipped one glove on his left hand, and thrust the fingers of his right into the cavity of the bulla. It took all his fingers, and covered his knuckles and all the back of his hand. And it was so oddly like a thumbless boxing-glove! Just the very shape of the padded part. His spirits rose abruptly at the sudden prospect of a savage joke,—how savage it could be, he did not know. Meanwhile Findlay, with a nervous alacrity, moved the lamp into the corner behind the armchair, and thrust his writing-desk into the window bay.
Temple, shaking oddly, went to the corner. He intended to hit Findlay and believed that despite his lighter weight, he could do it. Yet it felt childish and insufficient compared to the absurdity of the wrongs Findlay had done him, which were significant. As he placed his hand on something pale in the shadows, he touched the bulla of the whale. The temptation struck him like a flash of lightning. He slipped a glove on his left hand and pushed the fingers of his right hand into the cavity of the bulla. It fit all his fingers, covering his knuckles and the back of his hand. It was so strangely like a thumbless boxing glove! Just the right shape for the padded part. His spirits lifted suddenly at the prospect of a savage joke—how savage it could be, he didn’t know. Meanwhile, Findlay, with a nervous eagerness, moved the lamp into the corner behind the armchair and shoved his writing desk into the window bay.
“Come on,” said Findlay, behind him, and abruptly he turned.
“Come on,” said Findlay from behind him, and he turned around suddenly.
Findlay looked straight into his eyes, on guard, his hands half open. He did not see the strange 213substitute for a glove that covered Temple’s right hand. Both men were gone so far towards drunkenness that their power of observation was obscured. For a moment they stood squaring at one another, the host smiling, and his guest smiling also, but with his teeth set; two dark figures swaying in the firelight and the dim lamplight. Then Findlay struck at his opponent’s face with his left hand. As he did so Temple ducked slightly to the left, and struck savagely over Findlay’s shoulder at his temple with the bone-covered fist. The blow was given with such tremendous force that it sent Findlay reeling sideways, half stunned, and overcome with astonishment. The thing struck his ear, and the side of his face went white at the blow. He struggled to keep his footing, and as he did so Temple’s gloved right hand took him in the chest and sent him spinning to the foot of the cigar cabinet.
Findlay looked straight into his eyes, on edge, his hands half open. He didn't notice the strange substitute for a glove on Temple's right hand. Both men were so far gone in drunkenness that their ability to observe was clouded. For a moment, they faced each other, the host smiling, and his guest also smiling, but with his teeth clenched; two dark figures swaying in the firelight and the dim lamplight. Then Findlay swung at his opponent’s face with his left hand. As he did, Temple ducked slightly to the left and struck viciously over Findlay’s shoulder at his temple with his bone-covered fist. The blow was delivered with such immense force that it sent Findlay reeling sideways, half stunned, and filled with shock. The impact hit his ear, and the side of his face turned pale from the blow. He struggled to maintain his balance, and as he did, Temple’s gloved right hand hit him in the chest, sending him spinning to the foot of the cigar cabinet.
Findlay’s eyes were wide open with astonishment. Temple was a lighter man by a stone or more than himself, and he did not understand how he had been felled. He was not stunned, although he was so dulled by the blow as not to notice the blood running down his cheek from his ear. He laughed insincerely, and, almost pulling the cigar cabinet over, scrambled to his feet, made as if he would speak, and put up his hand instinctively as Temple struck out at him again, a feint with the left hand. Findlay was an expert boxer, 214and, anticipating another right-hand blow over the ear, struck sharply at once with his own left hand in Temple’s face, throwing his full weight into the blow, and dodging Temple’s reply.
Findlay's eyes were wide with shock. Temple was at least a stone lighter than him, and he couldn’t figure out how he had been taken down. He wasn't dazed, but the impact had numbed him enough that he didn’t even notice the blood trickling down his cheek from his ear. He laughed awkwardly, nearly tipping over the cigar cabinet as he scrambled to his feet, acted like he was going to say something, and instinctively raised his hand as Temple swung at him again, feinting with his left hand. Findlay was a skilled boxer, and, predicting another right hook to his ear, he quickly hit Temple in the face with his own left hand, putting all his weight behind the punch while dodging Temple’s response.
Temple’s upper lip was cut against his teeth, and the taste of blood and the sight of it trickling down Findlay’s cheek destroyed the last vestiges of restraint that drink had left him, stripped off all that education had ever done for him. There remained now only the savage man-animal, the creature that thirsts for blood. With a half bestial cry, he flung himself upon Findlay as he jumped back, and with a sudden sweep of his right arm cut down the defence, breaking Findlay’s arm just above the wrist, and following with three rapid blows of the bulla upon the face. Findlay gave an inarticulate cry of astonishment, countered weakly once, and then went down like a felled ox. As he fell, Temple fell kneeling upon the top of him. There was a smash as the lamp went reeling.
Temple’s upper lip was cut against his teeth, and the taste of blood along with the sight of it dripping down Findlay’s cheek shattered the last bits of restraint that the alcohol had left him, stripping away everything education had ever done for him. What was left now was just the savage man-animal, the creature that craves blood. With a half-bestial cry, he lunged at Findlay as he backed away, and with a quick swing of his right arm, he broke through Findlay's defense, snapping his arm just above the wrist, and then followed up with three rapid blows of the bulla to his face. Findlay let out an inarticulate cry of shock, made a weak counterattack once, and then went down like a felled ox. As he fell, Temple dropped down on top of him. There was a crash as the lamp went careening.
The lamp was extinguished as it fell, and left the room red and black. Findlay struck heavily at Temple’s ribs, and Temple, with his left elbow at Findlay’s neck, swung up his right arm and struck down a sledge-hammer blow upon the face, and again and yet again, until the body beneath his knees had ceased to writhe.
The lamp went out as it fell, leaving the room in shades of red and black. Findlay hit Temple hard in the ribs, and with his left elbow pressed against Findlay’s neck, Temple lifted his right arm and delivered a powerful blow to Findlay's face, again and again, until the body beneath his knees stopped moving.
Then suddenly his frenzy left him at the voice of a woman shrieking so that it filled the room. 215He looked up and crouched motionless as he heard and saw the study door closing and heard the patter of feet retreating in panic. Then he looked down and saw the thing that had once been the face of Findlay. For an awful minute he remained kneeling agape.
Then suddenly his rage faded at the sound of a woman screaming, filling the room. 215He looked up and froze as he heard the study door close and the sound of footsteps hurriedly retreating. Then he looked down and saw what had once been Findlay's face. For a terrible minute, he stayed kneeling, staring.
Then he staggered to his feet and stood over Findlay’s body in the glow of the dying fire, like a man awakening from a nightmare. Suddenly he perceived the bulla on his hand, covered with blood and hair, and began to understand what had happened. In a sudden horror he flung the diabolical thing from him. It struck the floor near the cigar cabinet, rolled for a yard or so on its edge, and came to rest in almost the position it had occupied when he had first set eyes on it. To Temple’s excited imagination it seemed to be lying at exactly the same spot, the sole and sufficient cause of Findlay’s death and his own.
Then he stumbled to his feet and stood over Findlay’s body in the light of the fading fire, like a man waking up from a nightmare. Suddenly, he noticed the bulla on his hand, stained with blood and hair, and started to grasp what had happened. In a burst of horror, he threw the wicked thing away from him. It hit the floor by the cigar cabinet, rolled for a bit on its edge, and came to rest almost in the same position it had been when he first saw it. To Temple’s frenzied imagination, it felt like it was lying in exactly the same spot, the sole and decisive reason for Findlay’s death and his own.
A SLIP UNDER THE MICROSCOPE
Outside the laboratory windows was a watery grey fog, and within a close warmth and the yellow light of the green-shaded gas lamps that stood two to each table down its narrow length. On each table stood a couple of glass jars containing the mangled vestiges of the crayfish, mussels, frogs, and guinea-pigs, upon which the students had been working, and down the side of the room, facing the windows, were shelves bearing bleached dissections in spirit, surmounted by a row of beautifully executed anatomical drawings in white wood frames and overhanging a row of cubical lockers. All the doors of the laboratory were panelled with blackboard, and on these were the half-erased diagrams of the previous day’s work. The laboratory was empty, save for the demonstrator, who sat near the preparation-room door, and silent, save for a low, continuous murmur, and the clicking of the rocker microtome at which he was working. But scattered about the room were traces of numerous students: hand-bags, polished boxes of instruments, in one place a large drawing covered by newspaper, and in another a prettily bound copy of “News from 217Nowhere,” a book oddly at variance with its surroundings. These things had been put down hastily as the students had arrived and hurried at once to secure their seats in the adjacent lecture-theatre. Deadened by the closed door, the measured accents of the professor sounded as a featureless muttering.
Outside the lab windows was a murky grey fog, and inside was a warm atmosphere lit by yellow light from the green-shaded gas lamps that were positioned two at each table along the narrow space. Each table had a couple of glass jars containing the mangled remains of crayfish, mussels, frogs, and guinea pigs that the students had been studying, and along one side of the room, facing the windows, were shelves filled with bleached dissections preserved in spirit, topped by a series of beautifully crafted anatomical drawings in white wood frames, hanging above a line of cubical lockers. All the doors of the lab were covered in blackboard paint, featuring the half-erased diagrams from the previous day's work. The lab was empty except for the demonstrator, who sat near the preparation-room door, and it was quiet except for a low, continuous hum and the clicking of the rocker microtome he was working on. Scattered throughout the room were signs of many students: hand bags, polished instrument boxes, a large drawing covered with newspaper in one corner, and a nicely bound copy of “News from Nowhere,” a book surprisingly out of place here. These items had been hastily dropped as the students rushed in to grab seats in the nearby lecture theatre. Muffled by the closed door, the measured tones of the professor sounded like a featureless mumble.
Presently, faint through the closed windows came the sound of the Oratory clock striking the hour of eleven. The clicking of the microtome ceased, and the demonstrator looked at his watch, rose, thrust his hands into his pockets, and walked slowly down the laboratory towards the lecture-theatre door. He stood listening for a moment, and then his eye fell on the little volume by William Morris. He picked it up, glanced at the title, smiled, opened it, looked at the name on the fly-leaf, ran the leaves through with his hand, and put it down. Almost immediately the even murmur of the lecturer ceased, there was a sudden burst of pencils rattling on the desks in the lecture-theatre, a stirring, a scraping of feet, and a number of voices speaking together. Then a firm footfall approached the door, which began to open, and stood ajar, as some indistinctly heard question arrested the new-comer.
Right now, a faint sound from the Oratory clock could be heard through the closed windows, striking eleven. The clicking of the microtome stopped, and the demonstrator checked his watch, stood up, shoved his hands into his pockets, and walked slowly down the lab towards the lecture-theatre door. He paused for a moment to listen, then noticed the little book by William Morris. He picked it up, glanced at the title, smiled, opened it, looked at the name on the flyleaf, flipped through the pages with his hand, and set it down. Almost immediately, the even murmur of the lecturer stopped, and there was a sudden clatter of pencils on the desks in the lecture-theatre, a shuffling, a scraping of feet, and a jumble of voices speaking at once. Then a determined footstep approached the door, which began to open and stood partially ajar, as an indistinct question caught the newcomer's attention.
The demonstrator turned, walked slowly back past the microtome and left the laboratory by the preparation-room door. As he did so, first one, and then several students carrying note-books, 218entered the laboratory from the lecture-theatre, and distributed themselves among the little tables, or stood in a group about the doorway. They were an exceptionally heterogeneous assembly,—for while Oxford and Cambridge still recoil from the blushing prospect of mixed classes, the College of Science anticipated America in the matter years ago,—mixed socially, too, for the prestige of the College is high, and its scholarships, free of any age limit, dredge deeper even than do those of the Scotch universities. The class numbered one and twenty, but some remained in the theatre questioning the professor, copying the blackboard diagrams before they were washed off, or examining the special specimens he had produced to illustrate the day’s teaching. Of the nine who had come into the laboratory, three were girls, one of whom, a little fair woman wearing spectacles and dressed in greyish green, was peering out of the window at the fog, while the other two, both wholesome-looking, plain-faced school-girls, unrolled and put on the brown holland aprons they wore while dissecting. Of the men, two went down the laboratory and sat down in their places, one a pallid, dark-bearded man who had once been a tailor, the other a pleasant-featured, ruddy young man of twenty, dressed in a well-fitting brown suit, young Wedderburn, the son of Wedderburn the eye-specialist. The others formed a little knot near the theatre door. 219One of these, a dwarfed, spectacled figure with a hunch back, sat on a bent wood stool, two others, one a short, dark youngster, and the other a flaxen-haired, reddish-complexioned young man, stood leaning side by side against the slate sink, while the fourth stood facing them and maintained the larger share of the conversation.
The demonstrator turned, walked slowly back past the microtome, and left the lab through the preparation-room door. As he did this, one by one, several students carrying notebooks entered the lab from the lecture theater and spread out among the small tables or gathered in a group near the doorway. They were a particularly diverse group — while Oxford and Cambridge still shy away from the idea of mixed classes, the College of Science had embraced it years ago, even before America did — socially mixed as well, since the College holds a high reputation and its scholarships, which have no age restrictions, reach deeper than those at the Scottish universities. The class consisted of twenty-one students, but some remained in the theater asking the professor questions, copying the diagrams from the blackboard before they were wiped off, or examining the special specimens he had prepared to illustrate the day’s lessons. Of the nine who entered the lab, three were girls; one of them, a petite blonde wearing glasses and dressed in grayish-green, was looking out the window at the fog, while the other two, both healthy-looking, plain-faced schoolgirls, took off the brown holland aprons they wore for dissection and put them on. Among the men, two went down the lab and sat in their spots: one was a pale, dark-bearded man who had once been a tailor, and the other was a handsome, red-faced young man of twenty, dressed in a well-fitting brown suit, young Wedderburn, the son of Wedderburn the eye specialist. The others formed a small group near the theater door. One of them, a short, bespectacled figure with a hunchback, sat on a bent wooden stool, while two others, one a short dark-haired guy and the other a flaxen-haired young man with a reddish complexion, leaned against the slate sink side by side, and a fourth stood facing them, dominating most of the conversation.
This last person was named Hill. He was a sturdily built young fellow of the same age as Wedderburn, he had a white face, dark grey eyes, hair of an indeterminate colour, and prominent, irregular features. He talked rather louder than was needful, and thrust his hands deeply into his pockets. His collar was frayed and blue with the starch of a careless laundress, his clothes were evidently ready-made, and there was a patch on the side of his boot near the toe. And as he talked or listened to the others, he glanced now and again towards the lecture-theatre door. They were discussing the depressing peroration of the lecture they had just heard, the last lecture it was in the introductory course in Zoölogy. “From ovum to ovum is the goal of the higher vertebrata,” the lecturer had said in his melancholy tones, and so had neatly rounded off the sketch of comparative anatomy he had been developing. The spectacled hunchback had repeated it, with noisy appreciation, had tossed it towards the fair-haired student with an evident provocation, and had started one of those vague, rambling discussions 220on generalities so unaccountably dear to the student mind all the world over.
This last person was named Hill. He was a solidly built young guy, about the same age as Wedderburn. He had a pale face, dark gray eyes, hair of an unclear color, and prominent, uneven features. He spoke a bit louder than necessary and shoved his hands deep into his pockets. His collar was frayed and blue from a careless laundress, his clothes looked like they were store-bought, and there was a patch on the side of his boot near the toe. As he talked or listened to the others, he occasionally glanced toward the lecture-theater door. They were discussing the gloomy conclusion of the lecture they had just attended—the final one in the introductory course in Zoölogy. “From ovum to ovum is the goal of the higher vertebrates,” the lecturer had said in his somber tone, neatly wrapping up the overview of comparative anatomy he had been presenting. The bespectacled hunchback had repeated it with exaggerated enthusiasm, tossed it toward the fair-haired student with a clear challenge, and kicked off one of those vague, meandering discussions about generalities that students everywhere seem to love. 220
“That is our goal, perhaps,—I admit it,—as far as science goes,” said the fair-haired student, rising to the challenge. “But there are things above science.”
“That’s our goal, I guess—I’ll admit it—as far as science is concerned,” said the blond student, accepting the challenge. “But there are things beyond science.”
“Science,” said Hill, confidently, “is systematic knowledge. Ideas that don’t come into the system must anyhow—be loose ideas.” He was not quite sure whether that was a clever saying or a fatuity, until his hearers took it seriously.
“Science,” said Hill, confidently, “is organized knowledge. Ideas that don’t fit into the system are basically just random thoughts.” He wasn't entirely sure if that was a smart remark or a silly one, until his listeners took it to heart.
“The thing I cannot understand,” said the hunchback, at large, “is whether Hill is a materialist or not.”
“The thing I can't understand,” said the hunchback, “is whether Hill is a materialist or not.”
“There is one thing above matter,” said Hill, promptly, feeling he had a better thing this time, aware too of some one in the doorway behind him, and raising his voice a trifle for her benefit, “and that is—the delusion that there is something above matter.”
“There is one thing above matter,” said Hill, quickly, feeling he had a better point this time, also aware of someone in the doorway behind him, and raising his voice slightly for her benefit, “and that is—the illusion that there is something above matter.”
“So we have your gospel at last,” said the fair-haired student. “It’s all a delusion, is it? All our aspirations to lead something more than dogs’ lives, all our work for anything beyond ourselves. But see how inconsistent you are! Your socialism, for instance. Why do you trouble about the interests of the race? Why do you concern yourself about the beggar in the gutter? Why are you bothering yourself to lend that book”—he indicated William Morris by a 221movement of the head—“to every one in the lab?”
“So we finally have your gospel,” said the fair-haired student. “It’s all just an illusion, right? All our hopes to live more than just animalistic lives, all our efforts for something greater than ourselves. But look at how inconsistent you are! Your socialism, for example. Why do you care about the interests of humanity? Why do you worry about the beggar in the gutter? Why are you going out of your way to lend that book”—he nodded towards William Morris—“to everyone in the lab?”
“Girl,” said the hunchback, indistinctly, and glanced guiltily over his shoulder.
“Girl,” said the hunchback, mumbling, and glanced nervously over his shoulder.
The girl in brown, with the brown eyes, had come into the laboratory, and stood on the other side of the table behind him with her rolled-up apron in one hand, looking over her shoulder, listening to the discussion. She did not notice the hunchback, because she was glancing from Hill to his interlocutor. Hill’s consciousness of her presence betrayed itself to her only in his studious ignorance of the fact; but she understood that and it pleased her. “I see no reason,” said he, “why a man should live like a brute because he knows of nothing beyond matter, and does not expect to exist a hundred years hence.”
The girl in brown, with brown eyes, had entered the lab and stood on the other side of the table behind him, holding her rolled-up apron in one hand, glancing over her shoulder, listening to the conversation. She didn’t notice the hunchback because she was looking from Hill to his conversation partner. Hill’s awareness of her presence only showed through his pretended ignorance of it; but she picked up on that and found it satisfying. “I don’t see any reason,” he said, “why someone should live like an animal just because he only understands the physical world and doesn’t expect to exist a hundred years from now.”
“Why shouldn’t he?” said the fair-haired student.
“Why shouldn’t he?” said the blonde student.
“Why should he?” said Hill.
“Why should he?” said Hill.
“What inducement has he?”
“What incentive does he have?”
“That’s the way with all you religious people. It’s all a business of inducements. Cannot a man seek after righteousness for righteousness’ sake?”
"That’s how it is with all you religious folks. It’s all about incentives. Can’t a person pursue righteousness just for the sake of righteousness?"
There was a pause. The fair man answered with a kind of vocal padding, “But—you see—inducement—when I said inducement—” to gain time. And then the hunchback came to his rescue and inserted a question. He was a terrible person in the debating society with his questions, 222and they invariably took one form,—a demand for a definition. “What’s your definition of righteousness?” said the hunchback, at this stage.
There was a pause. The fair man responded with some hesitance, saying, “But—you see—inducement—when I mentioned inducement—” to buy himself some time. Then the hunchback came to his aid and asked a question. He was a formidable figure in the debating society with his questions, and they always followed the same pattern—a request for a definition. “What’s your definition of righteousness?” the hunchback asked at this point. 222
Hill experienced a sudden loss of complacency at this question, but even as it was asked, relief came in the person of Brooks, the laboratory attendant, who entered by the preparation-room door, carrying a number of freshly-killed guinea-pigs by their hind-legs. “This is the last batch of material this session,” said the youngster who had not previously spoken. Brooks advanced up the laboratory, smacking down a couple of guinea-pigs at each table, and the discussion perished abruptly as the students who were not already in their places hurried to them to secure the choice of a specimen. There was a noise of keys rattling on split rings as lockers were opened, and dissecting instruments taken out. Hill was already standing by his table, and his box of scalpels was sticking out of his pocket. The girl in brown came a step towards him, and leaning over his table, said softly, “Did you see that I returned your book, Mr. Hill?”
Hill suddenly felt a wave of unease at the question, but just as it was asked, relief arrived in the form of Brooks, the lab attendant, who came in through the preparation room door, carrying several freshly-killed guinea pigs by their hind legs. “This is the last batch of material for this session,” said the young man who hadn’t spoken before. Brooks walked up the lab, dropping a couple of guinea pigs on each table, and the conversation abruptly stopped as the students who weren’t already seated rushed to claim their specimen. There was a clattering of keys on split rings as lockers were opened and dissection tools were retrieved. Hill was already standing by his table, and his box of scalpels was sticking out of his pocket. The girl in brown took a step toward him and leaned over his table, softly saying, “Did you see that I returned your book, Mr. Hill?”
During the whole scene, she and the book had been vividly present in his consciousness, but he made a clumsy pretence of looking at the book and seeing it for the first time. “Oh, yes,” he said, taking it up. “I see. Did you like it?”
During the entire scene, she and the book had been clearly in his mind, but he awkwardly pretended to look at the book as if he was seeing it for the first time. “Oh, yeah,” he said, picking it up. “I get it. Did you like it?”
“I want to ask you some questions about it—sometime.”
“I want to ask you some questions about it—sometime.”
223“Certainly,” said Hill. “I shall be glad.” He stopped awkwardly. “You liked it?” he said.
223“Of course,” said Hill. “I’d be happy to.” He paused awkwardly. “Did you enjoy it?” he asked.
“It’s a wonderful book. Only some things I don’t understand.”
“It’s a great book. There are just a few things I don’t get.”
Then suddenly the laboratory was hushed by a curious braying noise. It was the demonstrator. He was at the blackboard ready to begin the day’s instruction, and it was his custom to demand silence by a sound midway between the “Er” of common intercourse, and the blast of a trumpet. The girl in brown slipped back to her place, it was immediately in front of Hill’s, and Hill, forgetting her forthwith, took a note-book out of the drawer of his table, turned over its leaves hastily, drew a stumpy pencil from his pocket, and prepared to make a copious note of the coming demonstration. For demonstrations and lectures are the sacred text of the College students. Books, saving only the professor’s own, you may—it is even expedient to—ignore.
Then suddenly the laboratory went quiet with a strange braying noise. It was the demonstrator. He was at the blackboard, ready to start the day's lesson, and it was his habit to demand silence with a sound that was somewhere between a casual "Um" and the blast of a trumpet. The girl in brown slipped back into her seat, which was right in front of Hill’s, and Hill, forgetting about her completely, pulled a notebook out of his desk drawer, flipped through the pages quickly, took a stubby pencil from his pocket, and got ready to take extensive notes for the upcoming demonstration. Demonstrations and lectures are the holy scripture for college students. You can—and it’s even advisable to—ignore other books, except for the professor’s own.
Hill was the son of a Landport cobbler, and had been hooked by a chance blue paper the authorities had thrown out to the Landport Technical College. He kept himself in London on his allowance of a guinea a week, and found that with proper care this also covered his clothing allowance, an occasional waterproof collar, that is, and ink and needles and cotton and such-like necessaries for a man about town. This was his first year and his 224first session, but the brown old man in Landport had already got himself detested in many public-houses by boasting of his son “the professor.” Hill was a vigorous youngster, with a serene contempt for the clergy of all denominations, and a fine ambition to reconstruct the world. He regarded his scholarship as a brilliant opportunity. He had begun to read at seven, and had read steadily whatever came in his way, good or bad, since then. His worldly experience had been limited to the Island of Portsea, and acquired chiefly in the wholesale boot factory in which he had worked by day, after passing the seventh standard of the Board School. He had a considerable gift of speech, as the College Debating Society, which met amidst the crushing machines and mine models in the Metallurgical Theatre downstairs, already recognised, recognised by a violent battering of desks whenever he rose. And he was just at that fine emotional age when life opens at the end of a narrow pass, like a broad valley at one’s feet, full of the promise of wonderful discoveries and tremendous achievements. And his own limitations, save that he knew that he knew neither Latin or French, were all unknown to him.
Hill was the son of a Landport cobbler and had been pulled into the Landport Technical College by a random blue paper the authorities had thrown out. He managed to live in London on his allowance of a guinea a week, and found that with careful budgeting, it also covered his clothing expenses, a waterproof collar now and then, and ink, needles, cotton, and other essentials for a guy in the city. This was his first year and his first semester, but the old man back in Landport had already made himself unpopular in many pubs by bragging about his son “the professor.” Hill was a lively young man, who had a calm disdain for clergy of all types and a strong desire to change the world. He saw his scholarship as a fantastic opportunity. He had started reading at seven and had been devouring everything he could find, good or bad, ever since. His real-world experience was mostly limited to the Island of Portsea and mainly came from working during the day in a wholesale boot factory after finishing the seventh standard at the Board School. He had a real talent for speaking, which the College Debating Society recognized during meetings held among the noisy machines and mine models in the Metallurgical Theatre downstairs, evident by the loud banging of desks whenever he stood up. He was at that exciting age when life opens up like a wide valley at your feet, filled with the promise of amazing discoveries and significant achievements. He was unaware of his own limitations, except for knowing that he didn’t speak Latin or French.
At first his interest had been divided pretty equally between his biological work at the College and social and theological theorising, an employment which he took in deadly earnest. Of a night, when the big museum library was not open, he 225would sit on the bed of his room in Chelsea with his coat and a muffler on, and write out the lecture notes and revise his dissection memoranda until Thorpe called him out by a whistle,—the landlady objected to open the door to attic visitors,—and then the two would go prowling about the shadowy, shiny, gas-lit streets, talking, very much in the fashion of the sample just given, of the God Idea and Righteousness and Carlyle and the Reorganisation of Society. And in the midst of it all, Hill, arguing not only for Thorpe but for the casual passer-by, would lose the thread of his argument, glancing at some pretty, painted face that looked meaningly at him as he passed. Science and Righteousness! But once or twice lately there had been signs that a third interest was creeping into his life, and he had found his attention wandering from the fate of the mesoblastic somites or the probable meaning of the blastopore, to the thought of the girl with the brown eyes who sat at the table before him.
At first, he was equally interested in his biology work at the College and in social and theological theories, which he took very seriously. At night, when the big museum library was closed, he would sit on his bed in Chelsea, wearing his coat and scarf, writing lecture notes and revising his dissection records until Thorpe called him with a whistle — the landlady refused to open the door for visitors in the attic — and then the two of them would wander the shadowy, gas-lit streets, discussing, just like in the example given, the idea of God, righteousness, Carlyle, and the reorganization of society. In the middle of all this, Hill, arguing not only for Thorpe but for any passerby, would occasionally lose track of his argument, glancing at some pretty painted face that looked at him meaningfully as he walked by. Science and righteousness! However, lately there had been signs that a third interest was emerging in his life, and he found his thoughts drifting away from the fate of the mesoblastic somites or the probable meaning of the blastopore to thoughts of the girl with the brown eyes sitting at the table in front of him.
She was a paying student; she descended inconceivable social altitudes to speak to him. At the thought of the education she must have had and the accomplishments she must possess, the soul of Hill became abject within him. She had spoken to him first over a difficulty about the alisphenoid of a rabbit’s skull, and he had found that, in biology at least, he had no reason for self-abasement. And from that, after the manner of young 226people starting from any starting-point, they got to generalities, and while Hill attacked her upon the question of socialism,—some instinct told him to spare her a direct assault upon her religion,—she was gathering resolution to undertake what she told herself was his æsthetic education. She was a year or two older than he, though the thought never occurred to him. The loan of “News from Nowhere” was the beginning of a series of cross loans. Upon some absurd first principle of his, Hill had never “wasted time” upon poetry, and it seemed an appalling deficiency to her. One day in the lunch hour, when she chanced upon him alone in the little museum where the skeletons were arranged, shamefully eating the bun that constituted his midday meal, she retreated and returned, to lend him, with a slightly furtive air, a volume of Browning. He stood sideways towards her and took the book rather clumsily, because he was holding the bun in the other hand. And in the retrospect his voice lacked the cheerful clearness he could have wished.
She was a paying student; she came down from unimaginable social heights to talk to him. Just thinking about her education and the achievements she must have made made Hill feel small inside. She’d first approached him over a problem about the alisphenoid of a rabbit's skull, and he realized that, at least in biology, he had no reason to feel inferior. From there, like young people do, they moved on to broader topics, and while Hill grilled her about socialism—something inside him told him to avoid directly confronting her beliefs—she was summoning the courage to tackle what she thought was his aesthetic education. She was a year or two older than he was, though he never considered that. Lending him "News from Nowhere" marked the start of a series of book exchanges. On some ridiculous principle of his, Hill had never "wasted time" on poetry, and that seemed like a huge gap to her. One day during lunch, when she found him alone in the small museum where the skeletons were displayed, awkwardly eating a bun that was his lunch, she hesitated then returned to offer him, with a slightly secretive vibe, a volume of Browning. He turned sideways to her and took the book somewhat clumsily because he was holding the bun in his other hand. In hindsight, his voice lacked the cheerful clarity he would have preferred.
That occurred after the examination in comparative anatomy, on the day before the College turned out its students and was carefully locked up by the officials, for the Christmas holidays. The excitement of cramming for the first trial of strength had for a little while dominated Hill to the exclusion of his other interests. In the forecasts of the 227result in which every one indulged, he was surprised to find that no one regarded him as a possible competitor for the Harvey Commemoration Medal, of which this and the two subsequent examinations disposed. It was about this time that Wedderburn, who so far had lived inconspicuously on the uttermost margin of Hill’s perceptions, began to take on the appearance of an obstacle. By a mutual agreement the nocturnal prowlings with Thorpe ceased for the three weeks before the examination, and his landlady pointed out that she really could not supply so much lamp-oil at the price. He walked to and fro from the College with little slips of mnemonics in his hand, lists of crayfish appendages, rabbits’ skull-bones, and vertebrate nerves, for example, and became a positive nuisance to foot-passengers in the opposite direction.
That happened after the exam in comparative anatomy, just before the College released its students and locked up for the Christmas holidays. The stress of cramming for the first real challenge had temporarily taken over Hill's life, pushing his other interests aside. As everyone speculated about the outcome, he was surprised to see that no one considered him a possible contender for the Harvey Commemoration Medal, which would be determined by this exam and the two that followed. Around this time, Wedderburn, who had previously been barely on Hill's radar, started to seem like a real competitor. By mutual agreement, his late-night outings with Thorpe stopped for the three weeks leading up to the exam, and his landlady mentioned that she just couldn’t provide that much lamp oil for the price. He walked back and forth to the College with little notes in his hand, lists of crayfish parts, rabbit skull bones, and vertebrate nerves, for example, becoming a real distraction to pedestrians coming the other way.
But by a natural reaction Poetry and the girl with the brown eyes ruled the Christmas holiday. The pending results of the examination became such a secondary consideration that Hill marvelled at his father’s excitement. Even had he wished it, there was no comparative anatomy to read in Landport, and he was too poor to buy books, but the stock of poets in the library was extensive and Hill’s attack was magnificently sustained. He saturated himself with the fluent numbers of Longfellow and Tennyson, and fortified himself with Shakespeare, found a kindred soul in Pope and a master in Shelley, and heard and fled the siren 228voices of Eliza Cook and Mrs. Hemans. But he read no more Browning, because he hoped for the loan of other volumes from Miss Haysman when he returned to London.
But naturally, Poetry and the girl with the brown eyes took over the Christmas holiday. The upcoming exam results became such a minor concern that Hill was amazed by his father's excitement. Even if he had wanted to, there was no comparative anatomy to study in Landport, and he was too broke to buy books. However, the library had a huge collection of poets, and Hill's exploration was beautifully deep. He immersed himself in the smooth verses of Longfellow and Tennyson, strengthened himself with Shakespeare, found a kindred spirit in Pope, and discovered a master in Shelley, while he heard and avoided the tempting voices of Eliza Cook and Mrs. Hemans. But he read no more Browning because he hoped to borrow other volumes from Miss Haysman when he got back to London.
He walked from his lodgings to the College with that volume of Browning in his shiny black bag, and his mind teeming with the finest general propositions about poetry. Indeed he framed first this little speech and then that with which to grace the return. The morning was an exceptionally pleasant one for London, there was a clear, hard frost and undeniable blue in the sky, a thin haze softened every outline, and warm shafts of sunlight struck between the houseblocks and turned the sunny side of the street to amber and gold. In the hall of the College he pulled off his glove and signed his name with fingers so stiff with cold that the characteristic dash under the signature he cultivated became a quivering line. He imagined Miss Haysman about him everywhere. He turned at the staircase, and there, below, he saw a crowd struggling at the foot of the notice board. This, possibly, was the biology list. He forgot Browning and Miss Haysman for the moment, and joined the scrimmage. And at last with his cheek flattened against the sleeve of the man on the step above him, he read the list:
He walked from his place to the College with a copy of Browning in his shiny black bag, and his mind buzzing with great ideas about poetry. He was actually rehearsing various little speeches to use when he returned. The morning was unusually nice for London; there was a clear, sharp frost and a brilliant blue sky, a light haze softened every outline, and warm rays of sunlight filtered between the buildings, turning the sunny side of the street to shades of amber and gold. In the College hall, he took off his glove and signed his name with fingers so cold and stiff that the distinctive flourish he practiced turned into a shaky line. He pictured Miss Haysman everywhere around him. He paused at the staircase, and down below, he spotted a crowd gathered at the notice board. This might be the biology list. He momentarily forgot about Browning and Miss Haysman and joined the fray. Finally, with his cheek pressed against the sleeve of the man on the step above him, he read the list:
229And thereafter followed a second class that is outside our present sympathies. It was characteristic that he did not trouble to look for Thorpe on the Physics list, but backed out of the struggle at once, and in a curious emotional state between pride over common second-class humanity and acute disappointment at Wedderburn’s success, went on his way upstairs. At the top, as he was hanging up his coat in the passage, the zoölogical demonstrator, a young man from Oxford, who secretly regarded him as a blatant “mugger” of the very worst type, offered his heartiest congratulations.
229Then there came a second class that didn’t resonate with us at all. It was telling that he didn’t bother looking for Thorpe on the Physics list, but instead stepped back from the competition right away. In a strange emotional mix of pride over ordinary second-class folks and sharp disappointment at Wedderburn’s success, he continued on his way upstairs. At the top, while he was hanging up his coat in the hallway, the zoological demonstrator, a young man from Oxford who secretly thought of him as a loud “mugger” of the worst kind, offered his warmest congratulations.
At the laboratory door Hill stopped for a second to get his breath, and then entered. He looked straight up the laboratory and saw all five girl students grouped in their places, and Wedderburn, the once retiring Wedderburn, leaning rather gracefully against the window, playing with the blind tassel and talking, apparently, to the five of them. Now Hill could talk bravely enough and even overbearingly to one girl, and he could have made a speech to a roomful of girls, but this business of standing at ease and appreciating, fencing, and returning quick remarks round a group, was, he knew, altogether beyond him. Coming up the staircase his feelings for Wedderburn had been generous, a certain admiration perhaps, a willingness to shake his hand conspicuously and heartily as one who had fought but the first round. But before Christmas Wedderburn had never gone up 230to that end of the room to talk. In a flash Hill’s mist of vague excitement condensed abruptly to a vivid dislike of Wedderburn. Possibly his expression changed. As he came up to his place Wedderburn nodded carelessly to him, and the others glanced round. Miss Haysman looked at him and away again, the faintest touch of her eyes. “I can’t agree with you, Mr. Wedderburn,” she said.
At the lab door, Hill paused for a moment to catch his breath before entering. He looked around the lab and saw all five female students gathered in their spots, with Wedderburn—once shy—leaning gracefully against the window, fiddling with the blind tassel and seemingly talking to all of them. Hill could confidently and even domineeringly talk to a single girl, and he could give a speech to a room full of them, but the skill of casually chatting, joking, and exchanging quick remarks with a group was something he knew he couldn't handle. As he climbed the stairs, he felt a tinge of admiration for Wedderburn and was ready to shake his hand openly and warmly as someone who's just started to compete. However, before Christmas, Wedderburn never approached that part of the room to engage in conversation. Suddenly, Hill’s vague excitement transformed into a strong dislike for Wedderburn. His expression might have changed as he approached his spot, and Wedderburn casually nodded to him while the others looked over. Miss Haysman glanced at him and then away again, her eyes barely touching. “I can’t agree with you, Mr. Wedderburn,” she said.
“I must congratulate you on your first class, Mr. Hill,” said the spectacled girl in green, turning round and beaming at him.
“I need to congratulate you on your first class, Mr. Hill,” said the girl in green with glasses, turning around and smiling at him.
“It’s nothing,” said Hill, staring at Wedderburn and Miss Haysman talking together, and eager to hear what they talked about.
“It’s nothing,” said Hill, watching Wedderburn and Miss Haysman chatting together, and curious to hear what they were discussing.
“We poor folks in the second class don’t think so,” said the girl in spectacles.
“We poor people in second class don’t think that way,” said the girl in glasses.
What was it Wedderburn was saying? Something about William Morris! Hill did not answer the girl in spectacles, and the smile died out of his face. He could not hear and failed to see how he could “cut in.” Confound Wedderburn! He sat down, opened his bag, hesitated whether to return the volume of Browning forthwith, in the sight of all, and instead drew out his new note-books for the short course in elementary botany that was now beginning, and which would terminate in February. As he did so a fat heavy man with a white face and pale grey eyes, Bindon, the professor of Botany who came up from Kew for January and February, came in by the lecture-theatre 231door and passed, rubbing his hands together and smiling in silent affability, down the laboratory.
What was Wedderburn talking about? Something regarding William Morris! Hill didn't reply to the girl with glasses, and the smile faded from his face. He couldn't hear and struggled to figure out how he could join the conversation. Damn Wedderburn! He sat down, opened his bag, hesitated on whether to pull out the Browning volume right then, in front of everyone, and instead took out his new notebooks for the upcoming short course in basic botany that was starting now and would end in February. As he did this, a heavyset man with a pale face and light grey eyes, Bindon, the botany professor who came up from Kew for January and February, walked in through the lecture-theatre door and passed by, rubbing his hands together and smiling in silent friendliness, down the laboratory.
In the subsequent six weeks Hill experienced some very rapid and curiously complex emotional developments. For the most part he had Wedderburn in focus—a fact that Miss Haysman never suspected. She told Hill (for in the comparative privacy of the museum she talked a good deal to him of socialism and Browning and general propositions) that she had met Wedderburn at the house of some people she knew, and “He’s inherited his cleverness; for his father, you know, is the great eye-specialist.”
In the next six weeks, Hill went through some very fast and oddly complicated emotional changes. Most of the time, he was focused on Wedderburn—a fact that Miss Haysman never noticed. She talked to Hill a lot about socialism, Browning, and general ideas in the somewhat private setting of the museum. She mentioned that she had met Wedderburn at the home of some people she knew, and said, “He’s inherited his cleverness; his father, you know, is the famous eye specialist.”
“My father is a cobbler,” said Hill, quite irrelevantly, and perceived the want of dignity even as he said it. But the gleam of jealousy did not offend her. She conceived herself the fundamental source of it. He suffered bitterly from a sense of Wedderburn’s unfairness and a realisation of his own handicap. Here was this Wedderburn had picked up a prominent man for a father, and instead of his losing so many marks on the score of that advantage, it was counted to him for righteousness! And while Hill had to introduce himself and talk to Miss Haysman clumsily over mangled guinea-pigs in the laboratory, this Wedderburn, in some backstairs way, had access to her social altitudes, and could converse in a polished 232argot that Hill understood perhaps, but felt incapable of speaking. Not of course that he wanted to. Then it seemed to Hill that for Wedderburn to come there day after day with cuffs unfrayed, neatly tailored, precisely barbered, quietly perfect, was in itself an ill-bred, sneering sort of proceeding. Moreover, it was a stealthy thing for Wedderburn to behave insignificantly for a space, to mock modesty, to lead Hill to fancy that he himself was beyond dispute the man of the year, and then suddenly to dart in front of him, and incontinently to swell up in this fashion. In addition to these things Wedderburn displayed an increasing disposition to join in any conversational grouping that included Miss Haysman, and would venture, and indeed seek occasion to pass opinions derogatory to Socialism and Atheism. He goaded Hill to incivilities by neat, shallow, and exceedingly effective personalities about the socialist leaders, until Hill hated Bernard Shaw’s graceful egotisms, William Morris’s limited editions and luxurious wall-papers, and Walter Crane’s charmingly absurd ideal working-men, about as much as he hated Wedderburn. The dissertations in the laboratory that had been his glory in the previous term, became a danger, degenerated into inglorious tussles with Wedderburn, and Hill kept to them only out of an obscure perception that his honour was involved. In the Debating Society Hill knew quite clearly that, to a thunderous 233accompaniment of banged desks, he could have pulverised Wedderburn. Only Wedderburn never attended the Debating Society to be pulverised, because—nauseous affectation!—he “dined late.”
“My dad is a shoemaker,” Hill said, feeling it was irrelevant and realizing even as he spoke that it lacked dignity. But the hint of jealousy didn’t bother her; she thought of herself as the main reason for it. He was deeply pained by Wedderburn’s unfairness and aware of his own limitations. Here was Wedderburn, who had a prominent man as a father, and instead of losing points for that advantage, it was seen as a virtue! While Hill had to awkwardly introduce himself and make small talk with Miss Haysman over messed-up guinea pigs in the lab, Wedderburn somehow had easy access to her social circles and could speak in a polished way that Hill might understand but felt powerless to emulate. Not that he really wanted to. To Hill, it seemed rude for Wedderburn to show up every day looking perfectly put together—his cuffs intact, clothes tailored, hair neatly styled. Moreover, it felt sneaky for Wedderburn to act modest for a while, to make Hill think he was unquestionably the standout, and then suddenly show off like this. On top of that, Wedderburn showed an increasing tendency to join any group discussions that included Miss Haysman, unafraid to voice opinions critical of Socialism and Atheism. He nudged Hill into rudeness through sharp, shallow remarks about socialist leaders, until Hill loathed Bernard Shaw’s charming self-importance, William Morris’s limited editions and fancy wallpapers, and Walter Crane's delightfully ridiculous ideal working men nearly as much as he hated Wedderburn. The discussions in the lab that had once made him feel glorious turned into frustrating confrontations with Wedderburn, and Hill only stuck with them because he felt his pride was at stake. In the Debating Society, Hill knew very well that, with a loud bang of desks for effect, he could have crushed Wedderburn. But Wedderburn never showed up at the Debating Society to be crushed because—what a nauseating pretension!—he “dined late.”
You must not imagine that these things presented themselves in quite such a crude form to Hill’s perception. Hill was a born generaliser. Wedderburn to him was not so much an individual obstacle as a type, the salient angle of a class. The economic theories that, after infinite ferment, had shaped themselves in Hill’s mind, became abruptly concrete at the contact. The world became full of easy-mannered, graceful, gracefully dressed, conversationally dexterous, finally shallow Wedderburns, Bishops Wedderburn, Wedderburns, M.P., Professors Wedderburn, Wedderburn landlords, all with finger-bowl shibboleths and epigrammatic cities of refuge from a sturdy debater. And every one ill clothed or ill dressed, from the cobbler to the cab runner, was a man and a brother, a fellow-sufferer, to Hill’s imagination. So that he became, as it were, a champion of the fallen and oppressed, albeit to outward seeming only a self-assertive, ill-mannered young man, and an unsuccessful champion at that. Again and again, a skirmish over the afternoon tea that the girl-students had inaugurated, left Hill with flushed cheeks and a tattered temper, and the Debating Society noticed a new quality of sarcastic bitterness in his speeches.
You shouldn't think that Hill saw things in such a simplistic way. Hill was a natural generalizer. To him, Wedderburn wasn't just a single obstacle but rather a representative of a whole group. The economic theories that had taken shape in his mind after endless contemplation became suddenly clear when he encountered these types. The world filled up with easy-going, stylish, well-dressed, smooth talkers like Wedderburn—be they Bishops, Members of Parliament, Professors, or wealthy landlords—each with their pretentious phrases and clever retreats from a strong debater. Meanwhile, every person who was poorly dressed or struggling, from the cobbler to the cab driver, represented a brother in hardship to Hill's imagination. So, he became, in a sense, a champion for the downtrodden and oppressed, even though to others he appeared to be nothing more than a self-assertive, ill-mannered young man—and a rather ineffective champion at that. Time and again, skirmishes over the afternoon tea that the female students had started left Hill with flushed cheeks and a frayed temper, and the Debating Society began to notice a new edge of sarcastic bitterness in his speeches.
234You will understand now how it was necessary, if only in the interests of humanity, that Hill should demolish Wedderburn in the forthcoming examination and outshine him in the eyes of Miss Haysman, and you will perceive, too, how Miss Haysman fell into some common feminine misconceptions. The Hill-Wedderburn quarrel, for in his unostentatious way Wedderburn reciprocated Hill’s ill-veiled rivalry, became a tribute to her indefinable charm. She was the Queen of Beauty in a tournament of scalpels and stumpy pencils. To her confidential friend’s secret annoyance, it even troubled her conscience, for she was a good girl, and painfully aware, from Ruskin and contemporary fiction, how entirely men’s activities are determined by women’s attitudes. And if Hill never by any chance mentioned the topic of love to her, she only credited him with the finer modesty for that omission.
234Now you can see why it was essential, for the sake of humanity, that Hill should defeat Wedderburn in the upcoming exam and impress Miss Haysman. You’ll also notice how Miss Haysman fell for some typical misconceptions that many women share. The rivalry between Hill and Wedderburn, as Wedderburn subtly mirrored Hill's obvious competition, became a tribute to her indescribable charm. She was the Beauty Queen in a contest of scalpels and dull pencils. To her close friend's secret irritation, it even weighed on her conscience, because she was a good person and painfully aware, thanks to Ruskin and current literature, of how much men's actions are influenced by women's perceptions. And even if Hill never mentioned love to her, she attributed his silence to a certain noble modesty.
So the time came on for the second examination, and Hill’s increasing pallor confirmed the general rumour that he was working hard. In the Aërated Bread Shop near South Kensington Station you would see him, breaking his bun and sipping his milk, with his eyes intent upon a paper of closely written notes. In his bedroom there were propositions about buds and stems round his looking-glass, a diagram to catch his eye, if soap should chance to spare it, above his washing-basin. He missed several meetings of 235the Debating Society, but he found the chance encounters with Miss Haysman in the spacious ways of the adjacent Art Museum, or in the little Museum at the top of the College, or in the College corridors, more frequent and very restful. In particular they used to meet in a little gallery full of wrought-iron chests and gates, near the Art Library, and there Hill used to talk, under the gentle stimulus of her flattering attention, of Browning and his personal ambitions. A characteristic she found remarkable in him was his freedom from avarice. He contemplated quite calmly the prospect of living all his life on an income below a hundred pounds a year. But he was determined to be famous, to make, recognisably in his own proper person, the world a better place to live in. He took Bradlaugh and John Burns for his leaders and models, poor, even impecunious, Great Men. But Miss Haysman thought that such lives were deficient on the æsthetic side, by which, though she did not know it, she meant good wall-paper and upholstery, pretty books, tasteful clothes, concerts, and meals nicely cooked and respectfully served.
So the time came for the second exam, and Hill’s growing paleness confirmed the widespread rumor that he was studying hard. At the Aërated Bread Shop near South Kensington Station, you could see him breaking his bun and sipping milk, his eyes glued to a paper filled with tightly written notes. In his room, there were diagrams about buds and stems around his mirror, and a chart above his sink to catch his eye if soap happened to leave it free. He skipped several meetings of the Debating Society but found his chance encounters with Miss Haysman in the spacious areas of the nearby Art Museum, or in the small Museum at the top of the College, or in the College corridors to be more frequent and very comforting. They particularly liked to meet in a little gallery filled with wrought-iron chests and gates near the Art Library, where Hill would talk, buoyed by her flattering attention, about Browning and his personal ambitions. One quality she found remarkable in him was his lack of greed. He calmly considered the possibility of living his whole life on an income of less than a hundred pounds a year. But he was determined to be famous, to unmistakably make the world a better place in his own way. He looked up to Bradlaugh and John Burns as his leaders and role models, two great men who were poor, even broke. However, Miss Haysman thought that such lives lacked in terms of aesthetics, which, although she didn’t realize it, meant she valued nice wallpaper and upholstery, pretty books, stylish clothes, well-cooked meals, and respectful service.
At last came the day of the second examination, and the professor of botany, a fussy conscientious man, rearranged all the tables in the long narrow laboratory to prevent copying, and put his demonstrator on a chair on a table 236(where he felt, he said, like a Hindoo god) to see all the cheating, and stuck a notice outside the door, “Door Closed,” for no earthly reason that any human being could discover. And all the morning from ten to one the quill of Wedderburn shrieked defiance at Hill’s, and the quills of the others chased their leaders in a tireless pack. So also it was in the afternoon. Wedderburn was a little quieter than usual, and Hill’s face was hot all day, and his overcoat bulged with text-books and note-books against the last moment’s revision. And the next day, in the morning and in the afternoon, was the practical examination, when sections had to be cut and slides identified. In the morning Hill was depressed because he knew he had cut a thick section, and in the afternoon came the Mysterious Slip.
At last, the day of the second exam arrived, and the botany professor, a fussy, detail-oriented man, rearranged all the tables in the long, narrow lab to prevent cheating. He placed his demonstrator on a chair on a table 236 (where he claimed to feel like a Hindu god) to keep an eye on any dishonesty, and put up a "Door Closed" sign outside for no apparent reason anyone could figure out. The whole morning, from ten to one, Wedderburn's quill screeched defiance at Hill's, while the other students' quills chased after their leaders in an endless race. The same happened in the afternoon. Wedderburn was a bit quieter than usual, while Hill's face was flushed all day, and his overcoat bulged with textbooks and notebooks for last-minute studying. The next day, both the morning and afternoon featured the practical exam, where they had to cut sections and identify slides. In the morning, Hill felt down because he knew he cut a thick section, and in the afternoon, the Mysterious Slip occurred.
It was just the kind of thing that the botanical professor was always doing. Like the income tax, it offered a premium to the cheat. It was a preparation under the microscope, a little glass slip, held in its place on the stage of the instrument by light steel clips, and the inscription set forth that the slip was not to be moved. Each student was to go in turn to it, sketch it, write in his book of answers what he considered it to be, and return to his place. Now to move such a slip is a thing one can do by a chance movement of the finger, and in a fraction of a second. 237The professor’s reason for decreeing that the slip should not be moved depended on the fact that the object he wanted identified was characteristic of a certain tree stem. In the position in which it was placed it was a difficult thing to recognise, but once the slip was moved so as to bring other parts of the preparation into view, its nature was obvious enough.
It was just the kind of thing that the botany professor always did. Like the income tax, it encouraged cheating. It was a specimen under the microscope, on a small glass slide, held in place on the stage of the device by light steel clips, with a note stating that the slide should not be moved. Each student was to take turns looking at it, sketching it, writing in their answer book what they thought it was, and then return to their seat. However, moving such a slide can happen with just a slight movement of a finger in a fraction of a second. 237 The professor's reason for insisting that the slide not be moved was that the specimen he wanted identified was typical of a certain tree stem. In its fixed position, it was hard to recognize, but once the slide was shifted to reveal other parts of the specimen, its nature became quite clear.
Hill came to this, flushed from a contest with staining reagents, sat down on the little stool before the microscope, turned the mirror to get the best light, and then out of sheer habit shifted the slip. At once he remembered the prohibition, and with an almost continuous motion of his hands, moved it back, and sat paralysed with astonishment at his action.
Hill came to this, flushed from a struggle with staining reagents, sat down on the small stool in front of the microscope, adjusted the mirror for the best light, and then, out of habit, moved the slide. Immediately, he recalled the prohibition, and with a nearly fluid motion of his hands, placed it back, sitting there frozen in astonishment at what he had done.
Then slowly he turned his head. The professor was out of the room, the demonstrator sat aloft on his impromptu rostrum, reading the “Q. Jour. Mi. Sci.,” the rest of the examinees were busy and with their backs to him. Should he own up to the accident now? He knew quite clearly what the thing was. It was a lenticel, a characteristic preparation from the elder-tree. His eye roved over his intent fellow-students and Wedderburn suddenly glanced over his shoulder at him with a queer expression in his eyes. The mental excitement that had kept Hill at an abnormal pitch of vigour these two days gave way to a curious nervous tension. His book of 238answers was beside him. He did not write down what the thing was, but with one eye at the microscope he began making a hasty sketch of it. His mind was full of this grotesque puzzle in ethics that had suddenly been sprung upon him. Should he identify it? Or should he leave this question unanswered? In that case Wedderburn would probably come out first in the botanical list. How could he tell now whether he might not have identified the thing without shifting it? It was possible that Wedderburn had failed to recognise it, of course. Suppose Wedderburn, too, had shifted the slide? He looked up at the clock. There were fifteen minutes in which to make up his mind. He gathered up his book of answers and the coloured pencils he used in illustrating his replies, and walked back to his seat.
Then slowly, he turned his head. The professor was out of the room, the demonstrator sat high on his makeshift podium, reading the “Q. Jour. Mi. Sci.,” and the rest of the students were focused on their work, facing away from him. Should he admit to the accident now? He knew exactly what it was. It was a lenticel, a typical specimen from the elder tree. His gaze moved over his focused classmates, and Wedderburn suddenly glanced back at him with a strange look in his eyes. The mental energy that had kept Hill in a heightened state for the past two days shifted into a strange nervous tension. His answer book was beside him. He didn't write down what it was, but with one eye on the microscope, he started making a quick sketch of it. His mind was consumed by this bizarre ethical dilemma that had just been presented to him. Should he identify it? Or should he leave this question unanswered? In that case, Wedderburn would likely come out on top in the botanical ranking. How could he know if he might not have identified it without moving it? It was possible that Wedderburn hadn’t recognized it, of course. What if Wedderburn had also moved the slide? He glanced at the clock. There were fifteen minutes to decide. He gathered his answer book and the colored pencils he used to illustrate his responses, and walked back to his seat.
He read through his manuscript and then sat thinking and gnawing his knuckle. It would look queer now if he owned up. He must beat Wedderburn. He forgot the examples of those starry gentlemen, John Burns and Bradlaugh. Besides, he reflected, the glimpse of the rest of the slip he had had, was after all quite accidental, forced upon him by chance, a kind of providential revelation rather than an unfair advantage. It was not nearly so dishonest to avail himself of that as it was of Broome, who believed in the efficacy of prayer, to pray daily for a First-Class. 239“Five minutes more,” said the demonstrator, folding up his paper and becoming observant. Hill watched the clock hands until two minutes remained, then he opened the book of answers, and with hot ears and an affectation of ease, gave his drawing of the lenticel its name.
He went through his manuscript and then sat there, thinking and chewing on his knuckle. It would look strange now if he admitted it. He had to outdo Wedderburn. He forgot about those famous guys, John Burns and Bradlaugh. Besides, he thought, the glimpse of the rest of the slip he had seen was just a coincidence, something that happened by luck, more of a fortunate insight than an unfair advantage. It wasn't nearly as dishonest to take advantage of that as it was for Broome, who believed in the power of prayer, to pray every day for a First-Class. 239 “Five more minutes,” said the demonstrator, folding his paper and becoming attentive. Hill watched the clock hands until there were two minutes left, then he opened the book of answers, and with flushed ears and a fake sense of calm, gave the name of his drawing of the lenticel.
When the second pass list appeared, the previous positions of Wedderburn and Hill were reversed, and the spectacled girl in green who knew the demonstrator in private life (where he was practically human) said that in the result of the two examinations taken together, Hill had the advantage of a mark, 167 to 166, out of a possible 200. Every one admired Hill in a way, though the suspicion of “mugging” clung to him. But Hill was to find congratulations and Miss Haysman’s enhanced opinion of him, and even the decided decline in the crest of Wedderburn tainted by an unhappy memory. He felt a remarkable access of energy at first, and the note of a Democracy marching to Triumph returned to his Debating Society speeches; he worked at his comparative anatomy with tremendous zeal and effect, and he went on with his æsthetic education. But through it all, a vivid little picture was continually coming before his mind’s eye, of a sneakish person manipulating a slide....
When the second pass list came out, Wedderburn and Hill's positions were flipped, and the girl in green with glasses who knew the demonstrator personally (where he was almost human) said that when considering both exams together, Hill edged out with a score of 167 to 166, out of a possible 200. Everyone admired Hill in some way, although there was a lingering suspicion that he was just “mugging.” However, Hill was about to experience congratulations and Miss Haysman thinking more highly of him, and even the noticeable drop in Wedderburn's status was tainted by an unpleasant memory. Initially, he felt an amazing boost of energy, and the tone of a Democracy marching to Triumph returned to his Debating Society speeches; he dove into his comparative anatomy studies with great enthusiasm and effectiveness, and he continued his aesthetic education. But throughout it all, a vivid little image kept flashing in his mind of a sneaky person manipulating a slide...
No human being had witnessed the act, and he was cocksure that no Higher Power existed to 240see it, but for all that it worried him. Memories are not dead things, but alive; they dwindle in disuse, but they harden and develop in all sorts of queer ways if they are being continually fretted. Curiously enough, though at the time he perceived clearly that the shifting was accidental, as the days wore on his memory became confused about it, until at last he was not sure, although he assured himself that he was sure, whether the movement had been absolutely involuntary. Then it is possible that Hill’s dietary was conducive to morbid conscientiousness,—a breakfast frequently eaten in a hurry, a midday bun, and, at such hours after five as chanced to be convenient, such meat as his means determined, usually in a chophouse in a back street off the Brompton Road. Occasionally he treated himself to threepenny and ninepenny classics, and they usually represented a suppression of potatoes or chops. It is indisputable that outbreaks of self-abasement and emotional revival have a distinct relation to periods of scarcity. But apart from this influence on the feelings, there was in Hill a distinct aversion to falsity, that the blasphemous Landport cobbler had inculcated by strap and tongue from his earliest years. Of one fact about professed Atheists I am convinced: they may be, they usually are, fools, void of subtlety, revilers of holy institutions, brutal speakers, and mischievous knaves; but they lie with difficulty. If it were not so, if they had 241the faintest grasp of the idea of compromise, they would simply be liberal Churchmen. And, moreover, this memory poisoned his regard for Miss Haysman. For she now preferred him to Wedderburn so evidently that he felt sure he cared for her, and began reciprocating her attentions by timid marks of personal regard,—at one time he even bought a bunch of violets, carried it about in his pocket, and produced it with a stumbling explanation, withered and dead, in the gallery of old iron. It poisoned, too, the denunciation of capitalist dishonesty that had been one of his life’s pleasures. And, lastly, it poisoned his triumph over Wedderburn. Previously he had been Wedderburn’s superior in his own eyes, and had raged simply at a want of recognition. Now he began to fret at the darker suspicion of a positive inferiority. He fancied he found justification for his position in Browning; but they vanished on analysis. At last, moved curiously enough by exactly the same motive forces that had resulted in his dishonesty, he went to Professor Bindon and made a clean breast of the whole affair. As Hill was a paid student, Professor Bindon did not ask him to sit down, and he stood before the Professor’s desk as he made his confession.
No one had seen what happened, and he was absolutely sure that no Higher Power was around to witness it either, but it still bothered him. Memories aren't dead; they're alive. They fade when neglected, but they can harden and twist in strange ways if you keep worrying over them. Interestingly, although he initially thought the movement was just a coincidence, as time went on, his memory got all mixed up. Eventually, he wasn't sure—despite telling himself he *was* sure—whether the movement had truly been unintentional. It’s possible that Hill's eating habits contributed to his anxious conscience—a quick breakfast, a bun for lunch, and whatever meat he could afford, usually from a chophouse in a side street off Brompton Road after five. Occasionally, he treated himself to cheaper meals, which often meant cutting back on potatoes or chops. It's clear that feelings of shame and emotional ups and downs are linked to times of need. Aside from this emotional influence, Hill had a strong dislike for dishonesty, something the blasphemous Landport cobbler had drilled into him from a young age. I’m convinced of one thing about self-proclaimed Atheists: they might be foolish, lacking in nuance, disparagers of sacred institutions, harsh speakers, and troublemakers, but they find it hard to lie. If it were any different, if they understood the concept of compromise at all, they'd just be progressive churchgoers. Moreover, this memory soured his feelings towards Miss Haysman. She clearly preferred him over Wedderburn, and he was sure he had feelings for her. He started to respond to her affection with shy gestures of interest—at one point, he even bought a bunch of violets, carried them around in his pocket, and awkwardly presented them, wilted and lifeless, in an old iron gallery. It also tainted his critique of capitalist dishonesty, which had been one of his life's joys. And finally, it tainted his sense of victory over Wedderburn. He had previously felt superior to Wedderburn and was angry about not being recognized. Now, he began to worry about the deeper suspicion that he was actually inferior. He thought he found proof of his stance in Browning's work, but that justification disappeared upon reflection. Eventually, oddly enough, driven by the same motivations that led to his dishonesty, he went to Professor Bindon and confessed everything. Since Hill was a paid student, Professor Bindon didn’t invite him to sit down, so he stood at the Professor’s desk while making his confession.
“It’s a curious story,” said Professor Bindon, slowly realising how the thing reflected on himself, and then letting his anger rise. “A most remarkable story. I can’t understand your doing it, and 242I can’t understand this avowal. You’re a type of student—Cambridge men would never dream—I suppose I ought to have thought—Why did you cheat?”
“It’s an interesting story,” said Professor Bindon, slowly realizing how it reflected on him, and then letting his anger surface. “A truly remarkable story. I can’t understand why you did it, and I can’t understand this admission. You’re a certain kind of student—Cambridge guys would never even think about it—I guess I should have anticipated this—Why did you cheat?”
“I didn’t—cheat,” said Hill.
"I didn’t cheat," said Hill.
“But you have just been telling me you did.”
“But you just told me you did.”
“I thought I explained—”
“I thought I explained—”
“Either you cheated or you did not cheat.”
“Either you cheated or you didn't cheat.”
“I said my motion was involuntary—”
“I said my movement was involuntary—”
“I am not a metaphysician, I am a servant of science—of fact. You were told not to move the slip. You did move the slip. If that is not cheating—”
“I’m not a philosopher; I’m a servant of science—of facts. You were told not to touch the slip. You did touch the slip. If that’s not cheating—”
“If I was a cheat,” said Hill, with the note of hysterics in his voice, “should I come here and tell you?”
“If I were a cheat,” Hill said, his voice tinged with hysteria, “would I come here and confess it to you?”
“Your repentance, of course, does you credit,” said Professor Bindon; “but it does not alter the original facts.”
“Your regret, of course, reflects well on you,” said Professor Bindon; “but it doesn’t change the original facts.”
“No, sir,” said Hill, giving in, in utter self-abasement.
“No, sir,” said Hill, conceding, completely humbled.
“Even now you cause an enormous amount of trouble. The examination list will have to be revised.”
“Even now you’re causing a huge amount of trouble. The exam list will need to be updated.”
“I suppose so, sir.”
"I guess so, sir."
“Suppose so! Of course it must be revised. And I don’t see how I can conscientiously pass you.”
“Sure! It definitely needs to be revised. And I really don’t see how I can honestly pass you.”
“Not pass me!” said Hill. “Fail me!”
“Don’t pass me!” said Hill. “Fail me!”
“It’s the rule in all examinations. Or where 243should we be? What else did you expect? You don’t want to shirk the consequences of your own acts?”
“It’s the rule in all tests. Or where else should we be? What else did you think would happen? You don’t want to avoid facing the consequences of your own actions?”
“I thought perhaps,” said Hill. And then, “Fail me! I thought, as I told you, you would simply deduct the marks given for that slip—”
“I thought maybe,” said Hill. And then, “Let me down! I thought, as I told you, you would just take away the points given for that mistake—”
“Impossible!” said Bindon. “Besides, it would still leave you above Wedderburn. Deduct only the marks! Preposterous! The Departmental Regulations distinctly say—”
“Impossible!” said Bindon. “Besides, it would still put you ahead of Wedderburn. Just take away the points! Ridiculous! The Departmental Regulations clearly state—”
“But it’s my own admission, sir.”
"But it's my own admission, sir."
“The Regulations say nothing whatever of the manner in which the matter comes to light. They simply provide—”
“The Regulations say nothing at all about how the issue comes to light. They just state—”
“It will ruin me. If I fail this examination, they won’t renew my scholarship.”
“It will ruin me. If I fail this exam, they won’t renew my scholarship.”
“You should have thought of that before.”
“You should have thought about that earlier.”
“But, sir, consider all my circumstances—”
“But, sir, think about everything I'm going through—”
“I cannot consider anything. Professors in this College are machines. The Regulations will not even let us recommend our students for appointments. I am a machine, and you have worked me. I have to do—”
“I can't think about anything. The professors at this college are like machines. The regulations don’t even allow us to recommend our students for jobs. I’m a machine, and you’ve worked me hard. I have to do—”
“It’s very hard, sir.”
“It’s really hard, sir.”
“Possibly it is.”
"Maybe it is."
“If I am to be failed this examination I might as well go home at once.”
“If I’m going to fail this exam, I might as well just go home now.”
“That is as you think proper.” Bindon’s voice softened a little, he perceived he had been unjust, and, provided he did not contradict himself, 244he was disposed to amelioration. “As a private person,” he said, “I think this confession of yours goes far to mitigate your offence. But you have set the machinery in motion, you know, and now it must take its course. I—I am really sorry you gave way.”
“That is as you see fit.” Bindon’s voice softened a bit; he realized he had been unfair, and as long as he didn’t contradict himself, he was open to improvement. “As a private individual,” he said, “I believe this admission of yours goes a long way to lessen your wrongdoing. But you’ve set the wheels in motion, you know, and now it has to run its course. I—I genuinely regret that you gave in.”
A wave of emotion prevented Hill from answering. Suddenly very vividly he saw the heavily-lined face of the old Landport cobbler, his father. “Good God!—What a fool I have been!” he said hotly and abruptly.
A wave of emotion stopped Hill from answering. Suddenly, he clearly saw the deeply lined face of the old Landport cobbler, his father. “Good God! What a fool I’ve been!” he exclaimed angrily and abruptly.
“I hope,” said Bindon, “that it will be a lesson to you.”
“I hope,” said Bindon, “that it will teach you a lesson.”
But curiously enough they were not thinking of quite the same indiscretion.
But interestingly, they weren't thinking about the same mistake at all.
There was a pause.
There was a moment of silence.
“I would like a day to think, sir, and then I will let you know—about going home, I mean,” said Hill, moving towards the door.
“I need a day to think, sir, and then I’ll let you know—about going home, I mean,” said Hill, moving toward the door.
The next day Hill’s place was vacant. The spectacled girl in green was, as usual, first with the news. Wedderburn and Miss Haysman were talking of the Meistersingers, when she came up to them.
The next day, Hill's spot was empty. The girl in green with glasses was, as usual, the first to share the news. Wedderburn and Miss Haysman were discussing the Meistersingers when she approached them.
“Have you heard?” she said.
“Did you hear?” she said.
“Heard what?”
"What did you say?"
“There was cheating in the examination.”
“There was cheating on the exam.”
“Cheating!” said Wedderburn, with his face suddenly hot. “How?”
“Cheating!” Wedderburn exclaimed, his face heating up suddenly. “How?”
245“That slide—”
“That slide—”
“Moved? Never!”
"Moved? Not a chance!"
“It was. That slide that we weren’t to move—”
“It was. That slide that we weren't supposed to move—”
“Nonsense!” said Wedderburn. “Why! How could they find out? Who do they say—”
“Nonsense!” said Wedderburn. “How could they figure it out? Who do they say—”
“It was Mr. Hill.”
“It was Mr. Hill.”
“Hill!”
“Hill!”
“Mr. Hill!”
“Mr. Hill!”
“Not—surely not the immaculate Hill?” said Wedderburn, recovering.
“Not—definitely not the perfect Hill?” said Wedderburn, recovering.
“I don’t believe it,” said Miss Haysman. “How do you know?”
“I can’t believe it,” said Miss Haysman. “How do you know?”
“I didn’t,” said the girl in spectacles. “But I know it now for a fact. Mr. Hill went and confessed to Professor Bindon himself.”
“I didn’t,” said the girl in glasses. “But I know it for sure now. Mr. Hill went and told Professor Bindon himself.”
“By Jove!” said Wedderburn. “Hill of all people—But I am always inclined to distrust these philanthropists-on-principle—”
“By Jove!” said Wedderburn. “Hill of all people—But I always tend to be suspicious of these philanthropists for the principle of it—”
“Are you quite sure?” said Miss Haysman, with a catch in her breath.
“Are you completely sure?” said Miss Haysman, catching her breath.
“Quite. It’s dreadful, isn’t it? But you know, what can you expect? His father is a cobbler—”
“Totally. It's awful, isn’t it? But you know, what can you expect? His dad is a shoemaker—”
Then Miss Haysman astonished the girl in spectacles.
Then Miss Haysman shocked the girl in glasses.
“I don’t care. I will not believe it,” she said, flushing darkly under her warm-tinted skin. “I will not believe it until he has told me so himself—face to face. I would scarcely believe it then,” 246and abruptly she turned her back on the girl in spectacles, and walked to her own place.
“I don’t care. I won’t believe it,” she said, her warm-toned skin turning red. “I won’t believe it until he tells me himself—face to face. I’d hardly believe it then,” 246 and she abruptly turned her back on the girl in glasses and walked to her own spot.
“It’s true, all the same,” said the girl in spectacles, peering and smiling at Wedderburn.
“It’s true, anyway,” said the girl in glasses, looking closely and smiling at Wedderburn.
But Wedderburn did not answer her. She was, indeed, one of those people who are destined to make unanswered remarks.
But Wedderburn didn’t respond to her. She was, after all, one of those people who are bound to make comments that go unanswered.
IN THE AVU OBSERVATORY
The observatory at Avu, in Borneo, stands on the spur of the mountain. To the north rises the old crater, black against the unfathomable blue of the sky. From the little circular building, with its mushroom dome, the slopes plunge steeply downward into the black mysteries of the tropical forest beneath. The little house in which the observer and his assistant live is about fifty yards from the observatory, and beyond this are the huts of their native attendants.
The observatory at Avu, in Borneo, is positioned on the side of the mountain. To the north, the old crater rises, dark against the deep blue sky. From the small circular building with its dome shaped like a mushroom, the slopes drop sharply into the dark secrets of the tropical forest below. The small house where the observer and his assistant live is about fifty yards from the observatory, and beyond that are the huts of their local staff.
Thaddy, the chief observer, was down with a slight fever. His assistant, Woodhouse, paused for a moment in silent contemplation of the tropical night before commencing his solitary vigil. The night was very silent. Now and then voices and laughter came from the native huts, or the cry of some strange animal was heard from the midst of the mystery of the forest. Nocturnal insects appeared in ghostly fashion out of the darkness, and fluttered round his light. He thought, perhaps, of all the possibilities of discovery that still lay in the black tangle beneath him; for to the naturalist the virgin forests of Borneo are still a wonderland, full of strange questions and 248half-suspected discoveries. Woodhouse carried a small lantern in his hand, and its yellow glow contrasted vividly with the infinite series of tints between lavender-blue and black in which the landscape was painted. His hands and face were smeared with ointment against the attacks of the mosquitoes.
Thaddy, the chief observer, was feeling a bit under the weather with a mild fever. His assistant, Woodhouse, took a moment to silently reflect on the tropical night before starting his lone watch. The night was very quiet. Occasionally, voices and laughter drifted from the native huts, or the call of some unusual animal broke through the mysterious silence of the forest. Nocturnal insects appeared eerily from the darkness, fluttering around his light. He considered, perhaps, the countless possibilities of discovery still hidden in the dark tangle below him; for a naturalist, the untouched forests of Borneo are still a wonderland, full of strange questions and half-realized discoveries. Woodhouse held a small lantern, and its yellow light stood out sharply against the endless shades of lavender-blue and black that painted the landscape. His hands and face were covered in ointment to ward off the mosquitoes.
Even in these days of celestial photography, work done in a purely temporary erection, and with only the most primitive appliances in addition to the telescope, still involves a very large amount of cramped and motionless watching. He sighed as he thought of the physical fatigues before him, stretched himself, and entered the observatory.
Even in today’s world of space photography, work done with a quick setup and just basic tools alongside the telescope still requires a lot of cramped and stationary observation. He sighed at the thought of the physical exhaustion ahead of him, stretched out, and walked into the observatory.
The reader is probably familiar with the structure of an ordinary astronomical observatory. The building is usually cylindrical in shape, with a very light hemispherical roof capable of being turned round from the interior. The telescope is supported upon a stone pillar in the centre, and a clockwork arrangement compensates for the earth’s rotation, and allows a star once found to be continuously observed. Besides this, there is a compact tracery of wheels and screws about its point of support, by which the astronomer adjusts it. There is, of course, a slit in the movable roof which follows the eye of the telescope in its survey of the heavens. The observer sits or lies on a sloping wooden arrangement, which he can wheel to any part of the observatory as the position of 249the telescope may require. Within it is advisable to have things as dark as possible, in order to enhance the brilliance of the stars observed.
The reader is probably familiar with how an ordinary astronomical observatory is set up. The building is usually cylindrical, topped with a lightweight, hemispherical roof that can be rotated from the inside. The telescope is mounted on a stone pillar in the center, and a clockwork mechanism adjusts for the Earth’s rotation, allowing a star to be continuously tracked once it’s found. Additionally, there’s a compact arrangement of wheels and screws at its base, which the astronomer uses to make adjustments. There’s also a slit in the movable roof that follows the telescope's view of the sky. The observer sits or lies on a sloped wooden platform that can be moved to any spot in the observatory as needed for the telescope’s position. Inside, it's best to keep things as dark as possible to enhance the visibility of the observed stars.
The lantern flared as Woodhouse entered his circular den, and the general darkness fled into black shadows behind the big machine, from which it presently seemed to creep back over the whole place again as the light waned. The slit was a profound transparent blue, in which six stars shone with tropical brilliance, and their light lay, a pallid gleam, along the black tube of the instrument. Woodhouse shifted the roof, and then proceeding to the telescope, turned first one wheel and then another, the great cylinder slowly swinging into a new position. Then he glanced through the finder, the little companion telescope, moved the roof a little more, made some further adjustments, and set the clockwork in motion. He took off his jacket, for the night was very hot, and pushed into position the uncomfortable seat to which he was condemned for the next four hours. Then with a sigh he resigned himself to his watch upon the mysteries of space.
The lantern flared as Woodhouse stepped into his circular room, and the general darkness retreated into black shadows behind the large machine, which soon seemed to reclaim the entire space as the light faded. The slit was a deep, transparent blue, where six stars shone with tropical brightness, and their light cast a faint glow along the black tube of the instrument. Woodhouse adjusted the roof, then went over to the telescope, turning one wheel and then another, the large cylinder slowly shifting into a new position. He then peered through the finder, the smaller accompanying telescope, adjusted the roof a bit more, made some additional tweaks, and started the clockwork. He took off his jacket since it was an extremely hot night and repositioned the uncomfortable seat where he would be stuck for the next four hours. Then, with a sigh, he settled in for his watch over the mysteries of space.
There was no sound now in the observatory, and the lantern waned steadily. Outside there was the occasional cry of some animal in alarm or pain, or calling to its mate, and the intermittent sounds of the Malay and Dyak servants. Presently one of the men began a queer chanting song, in which the others joined at intervals. After this 250it would seem that they turned in for the night, for no further sound came from their direction, and the whispering stillness became more and more profound.
There was complete silence now in the observatory, and the lantern flickered steadily. Outside, every now and then, there was the cry of some animal in distress or calling for its mate, along with the occasional noises from the Malay and Dyak servants. Soon one of the men started a strange chanting song, with the others joining in at intervals. After this, 250 it seemed like they settled in for the night, as no more sounds came from their direction, and the whispering stillness grew deeper.
The clockwork ticked steadily. The shrill hum of a mosquito explored the place and grew shriller in indignation at Woodhouse’s ointment. Then the lantern went out and all the observatory was black.
The clock ticked steadily. The annoying buzz of a mosquito moved around the room, getting louder in protest against Woodhouse’s ointment. Then the lantern went out, and the entire observatory was dark.
Woodhouse shifted his position presently, when the slow movement of the telescope had carried it beyond the limits of his comfort.
Woodhouse adjusted his position soon after, as the slow movement of the telescope had moved it out of his comfort zone.
He was watching a little group of stars in the Milky Way, in one of which his chief had seen or fancied a remarkable colour variability. It was not a part of the regular work for which the establishment existed, and for that reason perhaps Woodhouse was deeply interested. He must have forgotten things terrestrial. All his attention was concentrated upon the great blue circle of the telescope field—a circle powdered, so it seemed, with an innumerable multitude of stars, and all luminous against the blackness of its setting. As he watched he seemed to himself to become incorporeal, as if he too were floating in the ether of space. Infinitely remote was the faint red spot he was observing.
He was watching a small group of stars in the Milky Way, one of which his boss had noticed or thought had some noticeable color changes. This wasn't part of the usual work the place was meant for, and maybe that's why Woodhouse was so intrigued. He must have forgotten all about Earthly things. His focus was entirely on the large blue circle of the telescope's field—a circle that seemed scattered with an endless number of stars, all shining against the darkness around them. As he watched, he felt like he was becoming immaterial, as if he too was floating in the vastness of space. The faint red spot he was observing felt infinitely distant.
Suddenly the stars were blotted out. A flash of blackness passed, and they were visible again.
Suddenly, the stars disappeared. A quick wave of darkness swept by, and then they reappeared.
“Queer,” said Woodhouse. “Must have been a bird.”
“Strange,” said Woodhouse. “It must have been a bird.”
251The thing happened again, and immediately after the great tube shivered as though it had been struck. Then the dome of the observatory resounded with a series of thundering blows. The stars seemed to sweep aside as the telescope swung round and away from the slit in the roof.
251The event occurred again, and right after, the large tube shook as if it had been hit. Then the observatory's dome echoed with a series of loud bangs. The stars seemed to move aside as the telescope pivoted away from the opening in the roof.
“Great Scott!” cried Woodhouse. “What’s this?”
“Wow!” exclaimed Woodhouse. “What is this?”
Some huge, vague, black shape, with a flapping something like a wing, seemed to be struggling in the aperture of the roof. In another moment the slit was clear again, and the luminous haze of the Milky Way shone warm and bright.
Some huge, vague, black shape, with something flapping like a wing, seemed to be struggling in the roof opening. In another moment, the slit was clear again, and the glowing haze of the Milky Way shone warm and bright.
The interior of the roof was perfectly black, and only a scraping sound marked the whereabouts of the unknown creature.
The inside of the roof was completely dark, and the only sound was a scraping noise that indicated the presence of the unknown creature.
Woodhouse had scrambled from the seat to his feet. He was trembling violently and in a perspiration with the suddenness of the occurrence. Was the thing, whatever it was, inside or out? It was big, whatever else it might be. Something shot across the skylight, and the telescope swayed. He started violently and put his arm up. It was in the observatory, then, with him. It was clinging to the roof, apparently. What the devil was it? Could it see him?
Woodhouse had jumped from his seat to his feet. He was shaking uncontrollably and sweating from the suddenness of the event. Was whatever it was inside or outside? It was large, that much he knew. Something zipped across the skylight, and the telescope rocked. He flinched and raised his arm. It was in the observatory with him, then. It seemed to be clinging to the roof. What on earth was it? Could it see him?
He stood for perhaps a minute in a state of stupefaction. The beast, whatever it was, clawed at the interior of the dome, and then something flapped almost into his face, and he saw the 252momentary gleam of starlight on a skin like oiled leather. His water-bottle was knocked off his little table with a smash.
He stood for maybe a minute in shock. The creature, whatever it was, clawed at the inside of the dome, and then something flapped almost into his face, revealing a brief flash of starlight on a skin that looked like oiled leather. His water bottle was knocked off his small table with a crash.
The sense of some strange bird-creature hovering a few yards from his face in the darkness was indescribably unpleasant to Woodhouse. As his thought returned he concluded that it must be some night-bird or large bat. At any risk he would see what it was, and pulling a match from his pocket, he tried to strike it on the telescope seat. There was a smoking streak of phosphorescent light, the match flared for a moment, and he saw a vast wing sweeping towards him, a gleam of grey-brown fur, and then he was struck in the face and the match knocked out of his hand. The blow was aimed at his temple, and a claw tore sideways down to his cheek. He reeled and fell, and he heard the extinguished lantern smash. Another blow followed as he fell. He was partly stunned, he felt his own warm blood stream out upon his face. Instinctively he felt his eyes had been struck at, and, turning over on his face to protect them, tried to crawl under the protection of the telescope.
The feeling of some strange bird-like creature hovering a few feet from his face in the dark was indescribably unsettling to Woodhouse. As he focused his thoughts, he figured it must be some night bird or a large bat. He decided he had to find out what it was, so he pulled a match from his pocket and tried to strike it against the telescope seat. A smoking streak of phosphorescent light appeared, the match flared for a moment, and he saw a huge wing sweeping toward him, a flash of gray-brown fur, and then he was hit in the face, the match knocked out of his hand. The blow was aimed at his temple, and a claw scraped down to his cheek. He staggered and fell, hearing the lantern shatter as it went out. Another blow came as he fell. He was partly dazed and felt his own warm blood streaming down his face. Instinctively, he sensed that his eyes had been targeted, so he turned onto his face to protect them and tried to crawl under the safety of the telescope.
He was struck again upon the back, and he heard his jacket rip, and then the thing hit the roof of the observatory. He edged as far as he could between the wooden seat and the eyepiece of the instrument, and turned his body round so that it was chiefly his feet that were exposed. 253With these he could at least kick. He was still in a mystified state. The strange beast banged about in the darkness, and presently clung to the telescope, making it sway and the gear rattle. Once it flapped near him, and he kicked out madly and felt a soft body with his feet. He was horribly scared now. It must be a big thing to swing the telescope like that. He saw for a moment the outline of a head black against the starlight, with sharply-pointed upstanding ears and a crest between them. It seemed to him to be as big as a mastiff’s. Then he began to bawl out as loudly as he could for help.
He was hit again in the back, and he heard his jacket tear, and then the thing slammed into the roof of the observatory. He squeezed as far as he could between the wooden seat and the eyepiece of the instrument, turning his body around so that only his feet were mostly exposed. 253With them, he could at least kick. He was still confused. The strange creature thrashed around in the dark, then grabbed onto the telescope, making it sway and the gears rattle. At one point, it flapped close to him, and he kicked out wildly, feeling a soft body with his feet. He was terrified now. It had to be big to sway the telescope like that. He caught a glimpse of a head's outline, dark against the starlight, with sharply pointed ears standing up and a crest between them. It seemed as big as a mastiff's. Then he started shouting as loud as he could for help.
At that the thing came down upon him again. As it did so his hand touched something beside him on the floor. He kicked out, and the next moment his ankle was gripped and held by a row of keen teeth. He yelled again, and tried to free his leg by kicking with the other. Then he realised he had the broken water-bottle at his hand, and, snatching it, he struggled into a sitting posture, and feeling in the darkness towards his foot, gripped a velvety ear, like the ear of a big cat. He had seized the water-bottle by its neck and brought it down with a shivering crash upon the head of the strange beast. He repeated the blow, and then stabbed and jobbed with the jagged end of it, in the darkness, where he judged the face might be.
At that, the thing came down on him again. As it did, his hand brushed against something on the floor next to him. He kicked out, and in the next moment, his ankle was caught and held by a row of sharp teeth. He yelled again and tried to free his leg by kicking with the other. Then he realized he had the broken water bottle within reach, and grabbing it, he struggled into a sitting position. Feeling around in the darkness for his foot, he grabbed a velvety ear, like that of a big cat. He had taken the water bottle by its neck and brought it down with a shattering crash on the head of the strange creature. He struck again, then jabbed and poked with the jagged end in the darkness, aiming for where he thought the face might be.
The small teeth relaxed their hold, and at once 254Woodhouse pulled his leg free and kicked hard. He felt the sickening feel of fur and bone giving under his boot. There was a tearing bite at his arm, and he struck over it at the face, as he judged, and hit damp fur.
The small teeth loosened their grip, and immediately 254Woodhouse yanked his leg free and kicked hard. He felt the gross sensation of fur and bone breaking under his boot. There was a painful bite on his arm, and he swung at what he thought was its face, and hit wet fur.
There was a pause; then he heard the sound of claws and the dragging of a heavy body away from him over the observatory floor. Then there was silence, broken only by his own sobbing breathing, and a sound like licking. Everything was black except the parallelogram of the blue skylight with the luminous dust of stars, against which the end of the telescope now appeared in silhouette. He waited, as it seemed, an interminable time.
There was a pause; then he heard the sound of claws and the dragging of a heavy body away from him over the observatory floor. Then there was silence, broken only by his own sobbing breaths and a sound that resembled licking. Everything was dark except for the parallelogram of the blue skylight with the glowing dust of stars, against which the end of the telescope now appeared in silhouette. He waited, what felt like an endless amount of time.
Was the thing coming on again? He felt in his trouser-pocket for some matches, and found one remaining. He tried to strike this, but the floor was wet, and it spat and went out. He cursed. He could not see where the door was situated. In his struggle he had quite lost his bearings. The strange beast, disturbed by the splutter of the match, began to move again. “Time!” called Woodhouse, with a sudden gleam of mirth, but the thing was not coming at him again. He must have hurt it, he thought, with the broken bottle. He felt a dull pain in his ankle. Probably he was bleeding there. He wondered if it would support him if he tried to stand up. The night outside was very still. There was no sound of any one 255moving. The sleepy fools had not heard those wings battering upon the dome, nor his shouts. It was no good wasting strength in shouting. The monster flapped its wings and startled him into a defensive attitude. He hit his elbow against the seat, and it fell over with a crash. He cursed this, and then he cursed the darkness.
Was the thing coming at him again? He checked his trouser pocket for matches and found one left. He tried to strike it, but the floor was wet, and it fizzled out. He cursed. He couldn't tell where the door was located. In his struggle, he had completely lost his bearings. The strange creature, disturbed by the match's sputter, started to move again. “Time!” Woodhouse called out, a sudden glimmer of amusement flashing through him, but the thing wasn’t charging at him again. He must have hurt it with the broken bottle, he thought. He felt a dull pain in his ankle. He was probably bleeding there. He wondered if it would hold him if he tried to stand up. The night outside was very quiet. There was no sound of anyone moving. The sleepy fools hadn’t heard those wings battering against the dome or his shouts. It was pointless to waste energy shouting. The monster flapped its wings and startled him into a defensive stance. He bumped his elbow against the seat, and it toppled over with a crash. He cursed that, and then he cursed the darkness.
Suddenly the oblong patch of starlight seemed to sway to and fro. Was he going to faint? It would never do to faint. He clenched his fists and set his teeth to hold himself together. Where had the door got to? It occurred to him he could get his bearings by the stars visible through the skylight. The patch of stars he saw was in Sagittarius and south-eastward; the door was north—or was it north by west? He tried to think. If he could get the door open he might retreat. It might be the thing was wounded. The suspense was beastly. “Look here!” he said, “if you don’t come on, I shall come at you.”
Suddenly, the rectangular patch of starlight seemed to sway back and forth. Was he about to faint? He couldn't afford to faint. He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth to keep himself steady. Where had the door gone? It occurred to him that he could find his bearings by the stars visible through the skylight. The patch of stars he saw was in Sagittarius and southeast; the door was to the north—or was it north by northwest? He tried to think. If he could get the door open, he might be able to escape. It was possible that the thing was injured. The suspense was unbearable. “Listen!” he said, “if you don’t come out, I’ll come at you.”
Then the thing began clambering up the side of the observatory, and he saw its black outline gradually blot out the skylight. Was it in retreat? He forgot about the door, and watched as the dome shifted and creaked. Somehow he did not feel very frightened or excited now. He felt a curious sinking sensation inside him. The sharply-defined patch of light, with the black form moving across it, seemed to be growing smaller and smaller. That was curious. He began to feel very thirsty, 256and yet he did not feel inclined to get anything to drink. He seemed to be sliding down a long funnel.
Then the thing started climbing up the side of the observatory, and he watched as its dark shape slowly covered the skylight. Was it backing off? He forgot about the door and stared as the dome shifted and creaked. Strangely, he didn't feel much fear or excitement now. Instead, he felt a bizarre sinking sensation inside him. The sharply defined patch of light, with the dark form moving across it, seemed to be getting smaller and smaller. That was odd. He began to feel really thirsty, 256 but he had no desire to get a drink. It was like he was sliding down a long funnel.
He felt a burning sensation in his throat, and then he perceived it was broad daylight, and that one of the Dyak servants was looking at him with a curious expression. Then there was the top of Thaddy’s face upside down. Funny fellow Thaddy, to go about like that! Then he grasped the situation better, and perceived that his head was on Thaddy’s knee, and Thaddy was giving him brandy. And then he saw the eyepiece of the telescope with a lot of red smears on it. He began to remember.
He felt a burning sensation in his throat, and then he realized it was bright daylight, and that one of the Dyak servants was looking at him with a curious expression. Then he saw the top of Thaddy’s face upside down. Funny Thaddy, to be like that! Then he understood the situation better and realized that his head was on Thaddy’s knee, and Thaddy was giving him brandy. And then he noticed the eyepiece of the telescope with a lot of red smears on it. He started to remember.
“You’ve made this observatory in a pretty mess,” said Thaddy.
“You’ve turned this observatory into quite a mess,” said Thaddy.
The Dyak boy was beating up an egg in brandy. Woodhouse took this and sat up. He felt a sharp twinge of pain. His ankle was tied up, so were his arm and the side of his face. The smashed glass, red-stained, lay about the floor, the telescope seat was overturned, and by the opposite wall was a dark pool. The door was open, and he saw the grey summit of the mountain against a brilliant background of blue sky.
The Dyak boy was mixing an egg with brandy. Woodhouse took it and sat up. He felt a sharp pain. His ankle was wrapped up, and so were his arm and the side of his face. Broken glass, stained with red, was scattered on the floor, the telescope seat was flipped over, and there was a dark pool by the opposite wall. The door was open, and he could see the gray peak of the mountain against a bright blue sky.
“Pah!” said Woodhouse. “Who’s been killing calves here? Take me out of it.”
“Ugh!” said Woodhouse. “Who’s been killing calves around here? Count me out of it.”
Then he remembered the Thing, and the fight he had had with it.
Then he remembered the Thing and the struggle he had with it.
“What was it?” he said to Thaddy—“the Thing I fought with?”
“What was it?” he said to Thaddy—“the thing I fought with?”
257“You know that best,” said Thaddy. “But, anyhow, don’t worry yourself now about it. Have some more to drink.”
257“You know that better than anyone,” Thaddy said. “But, either way, don’t stress over it right now. Have another drink.”
Thaddy, however, was curious enough, and it was a hard struggle between duty and inclination to keep Woodhouse quiet until he was decently put away in bed, and had slept upon the copious dose of meat-extract Thaddy considered advisable. They then talked it over together.
Thaddy, however, was curious enough, and it was a difficult battle between responsibility and desire to keep Woodhouse quiet until he was properly settled into bed and had rested after the generous amount of meat extract Thaddy thought was necessary. They then discussed it together.
“It was,” said Woodhouse, “more like a big bat than anything else in the world. It had sharp, short ears, and soft fur, and its wings were leathery. Its teeth were little, but devilish sharp, and its jaw could not have been very strong or else it would have bitten through my ankle.”
“It was,” said Woodhouse, “more like a big bat than anything else in the world. It had sharp, short ears, soft fur, and leathery wings. Its teeth were small but incredibly sharp, and its jaw couldn't have been very strong, otherwise it would have bitten through my ankle.”
“It has pretty nearly,” said Thaddy.
“It’s basically,” said Thaddy.
“It seemed to me to hit out with its claws pretty freely. That is about as much as I know about the beast. Our conversation was intimate, so to speak, and yet not confidential.”
“It felt like it was swiping at me with its claws pretty freely. That’s about all I know about the creature. Our chat was close, in a way, but not private.”
“The Dyak chaps talk about a Big Colugo, a Klang-utang—whatever that may be. It does not often attack man, but I suppose you made it nervous. They say there is a Big Colugo and a Little Colugo, and a something else that sounds like gobble. They all fly about at night. For my own part I know there are flying foxes and flying lemurs about here; but they are none of them very big beasts.”
“The Dyak guys talk about a Big Colugo, a Klang-utang—whatever that is. It doesn't usually attack people, but I guess you made it nervous. They say there's a Big Colugo, a Little Colugo, and something else that sounds like gobble. They all fly around at night. Personally, I know there are flying foxes and flying lemurs around here, but none of them are very big creatures.”
“There are more things in heaven and earth,” 258said Woodhouse,—and Thaddy groaned at the quotation,—“and more particularly in the forests of Borneo, than are dreamt of in our philosophies. On the whole, if the Borneo fauna is going to disgorge any more of its novelties upon me, I should prefer that it did so when I was not occupied in the observatory at night and alone.”
“There are more things in heaven and earth,” 258 said Woodhouse, and Thaddy sighed at the quote, “and especially in the forests of Borneo, than we can imagine in our philosophies. Overall, if the wildlife in Borneo is going to surprise me with any more new discoveries, I would rather it happened when I wasn’t alone in the observatory at night.”
THE TRIUMPHS OF A TAXIDERMIST
Here are some of the secrets of taxidermy. They were told me by the taxidermist in a mood of elation. He told me them in the time between the first glass of whiskey and the fourth, when a man is no longer cautious and yet not drunk. We sat in his den together; his library it was, his sitting and his eating room—separated by a bead curtain, so far as the sense of sight went, from the noisome den where he plied his trade.
Here are some of the secrets of taxidermy. The taxidermist shared them with me when he was feeling really good. He told me during the time between the first and fourth glasses of whiskey, when a person is no longer careful but isn't really drunk yet. We sat together in his den, which was also his library, living room, and dining room—separated by a beaded curtain, at least as far as sight goes, from the unpleasant workshop where he did his work.
He sat on a deck chair, and when he was not tapping refractory bits of coal with them, he kept his feet—on which he wore, after the manner of sandals, the holey relics of a pair of carpet slippers—out of the way upon the mantel-piece, among the glass eyes. And his trousers, by-the-by—though they have nothing to do with his triumphs—were a most horrible yellow plaid, such as they made when our fathers wore side-whiskers and there were crinolines in the land. Further, his hair was black, his face rosy, and his eye a fiery brown; and his coat was chiefly of grease upon a basis of velveteen. And his pipe had a bowl of china showing the Graces, and his spectacles were 260always askew, the left eye glaring nakedly at you, small and penetrating; the right, seen through a glass darkly, magnified and mild. Thus his discourse ran: “There never was a man who could stuff like me, Bellows, never. I have stuffed elephants and I have stuffed moths, and the things have looked all the livelier and better for it. And I have stuffed human beings—chiefly amateur ornithologists. But I stuffed a nigger once.
He sat in a deck chair, and when he wasn’t poking at stubborn pieces of coal, he kept his feet—wearing the tattered remains of a pair of carpet slippers as makeshift sandals—out of the way on the mantel, among the glass eyes. By the way, his trousers—though they have nothing to do with his achievements—were a terribly bright yellow plaid, the kind that was worn when our fathers sported sideburns and crinolines were all the rage. Furthermore, his hair was black, his face was rosy, and his eye was a fiery brown; his coat was mostly grease on a velveteen base. His pipe had a china bowl displaying the Graces, and his glasses were always crooked, with the left eye glaring at you, small and piercing, while the right, viewed through a dark lens, appeared magnified and gentle. And so, his conversation went: “There has never been a man who could stuff like me, Bellows, never. I have stuffed elephants and I have stuffed moths, and they’ve all looked much livelier and better for it. And I’ve stuffed humans—mostly amateur ornithologists. But I stuffed a Black man once.
“No, there is no law against it. I made him with all his fingers out and used him as a hat-rack, but that fool Homersby got up a quarrel with him late one night and spoilt him. That was before your time. It is hard to get skins, or I would have another.
“No, there’s no law against it. I made him with all his fingers out and used him as a hat rack, but that idiot Homersby started a fight with him late one night and messed him up. That was before your time. It’s tough to find skins, or I would get another one.”
“Unpleasant? I don’t see it. Seems to me taxidermy is a promising third course to burial or cremation. You could keep all your dear ones by you. Bric-à-brac of that sort stuck about the house would be as good as most company, and much less expensive. You might have them fitted up with clockwork to do things.
"Unpleasant? I don't see it that way. To me, taxidermy is a viable alternative to burial or cremation. You could keep all your loved ones close. Decorations like that around the house would be just as good as most company, and a lot cheaper. You could even have them rigged with clockwork to move around."
“Of course they would have to be varnished, but they need not shine more than lots of people do naturally. Old Manningtree’s bald head—Anyhow, you could talk to them without interruption. Even aunts. There is a great future before taxidermy, depend upon it. There is fossils again—”
“Of course, they would need to be varnished, but they don’t have to shine more than a lot of people do naturally. Old Manningtree’s bald head—Anyway, you could talk to them without any interruptions. Even aunts. Taxidermy has a bright future ahead, trust me on that. And then there are fossils—”
He suddenly became silent.
He went silent all of a sudden.
261“No, I don’t think I ought to tell you that.” He sucked at his pipe thoughtfully. “Thanks, yes. Not too much water.
261“No, I don’t think I should tell you that.” He pondered while sucking on his pipe. “Thanks, yes. Just a little water.”
“Of course, what I tell you now will go no further. You know I have made some dodos and a great auk? No! Evidently you are an amateur at taxidermy. My dear fellow, half the great auks in the world are about as genuine as the handkerchief of Saint Veronica, as the Holy Coat of Treves. We make ’em of grebes’ feathers and the like. And the great auk’s eggs too!”
“Of course, what I’m telling you now won’t go any further. You know I’ve made some dodos and a great auk? No! Clearly, you’re not experienced in taxidermy. My dear friend, half of the great auks in the world are as real as Saint Veronica’s handkerchief or the Holy Coat of Treves. We make them from grebes’ feathers and similar materials. And the great auk’s eggs too!”
“Good heavens!”
“Oh my gosh!”
“Yes, we make them out of fine porcelain. I tell you it is worth while. They fetch—one fetched £300 only the other day. That one was really genuine, I believe, but of course one is never certain. It is very fine work, and afterwards you have to get them dusty, for no one who owns one of these precious eggs has ever the temerity to clean the thing. That’s the beauty of the business. Even if they suspect an egg they do not like to examine it too closely. It’s such brittle capital at the best.
“Yes, we make them out of fine porcelain. I promise you it’s worth it. They can sell for—one sold for £300 just the other day. That one was truly genuine, I believe, but of course, you can never be sure. It’s very intricate work, and afterward, you have to let them get dusty, because no one who owns one of these precious eggs ever has the guts to clean it. That’s the beauty of the business. Even if they think an egg is suspicious, they don’t want to examine it too closely. It’s such fragile capital at best.”
“You did not know that taxidermy rose to heights like that. My boy, it has risen higher. I have rivalled the hands of Nature herself. One of the genuine great auks—” his voice fell to a whisper—“one of the genuine great auks was made by me.
“You didn’t know that taxidermy could reach such heights. My friend, it has gone even further. I have competed with the very hands of Nature. One of the real great auks—” his voice dropped to a whisper—“one of the real great auks was created by me.
“No. You must study ornithology, and find 262out which it is yourself. And what is more, I have been approached by a syndicate of dealers to stock one of the unexplored skerries to the north of Iceland with specimens. I may—some day. But I have another little thing in hand just now. Ever heard of the dinornis?
“No. You need to study ornithology and figure out which one you are. Plus, a group of dealers has contacted me about stocking one of the unexplored islands north of Iceland with specimens. I might—someday. But I have something else in the works right now. Ever heard of the dinornis? 262
“It is one of those big birds recently extinct in New Zealand. ‘Moa’ is its common name, so-called because extinct; there is no moa now. See? Well, they have got bones of it, and from some of the marshes even feathers and dried bits of skin. Now, I am going to—well, there is no need to make any bones about it—going to forge a complete stuffed moa. I know a chap out there who will pretend to make the find in a kind of antiseptic swamp, and say he stuffed it at once, as it threatened to fall to pieces. The feathers are peculiar, but I have got a simply lovely way of dodging up singed bits of ostrich plume. Yes, that is the new smell you noticed. They can only discover the fraud with a microscope, and they will hardly care to pull a nice specimen to bits for that.
“It’s one of those large birds that recently went extinct in New Zealand. ‘Moa’ is its common name, which is fitting since there are no moas left now. See? Well, they have bones of it, and from some of the marshes, even feathers and dried bits of skin. Now, I’m going to—well, there’s no need to beat around the bush—I’m going to forge a complete stuffed moa. I know a guy out there who will pretend to discover it in a kind of sterile swamp and say he stuffed it immediately, as it was about to fall apart. The feathers are unique, but I have a fabulous way of faking burnt bits of ostrich plume. Yes, that’s the new scent you noticed. They can only detect the fraud with a microscope, and they’re unlikely to want to dissect a nice specimen for that.”
“In this way, you see, I give my little push in the advancement of science.
“In this way, you see, I make my small contribution to the advancement of science.
“But all this is merely imitating Nature. I have done more than that in my time. I have—beaten her.”
“But all this is just copying Nature. I've done more than that in my time. I've—overcome her.”
He took his feet down from the mantel-board, and leant over confidentially towards me. “I 263have created birds,” he said in a low voice. “New birds. Improvements. Like no birds that was ever seen before.”
He took his feet off the mantel and leaned in closer to me. “I’ve created birds,” he said quietly. “New birds. Improvements. Like none that have ever been seen before.”
He resumed his attitude during an impressive silence.
He took up his stance again during a powerful silence.
“Enrich the universe; rath-er. Some of the birds I made were new kinds of humming-birds, and very beautiful little things, but some of them were simply rum. The rummest, I think, was the Anomalopteryx Jejuna. Jejunus-a-um—empty—so-called because there was really nothing in it; a thoroughly empty bird—except for stuffing. Old Javvers has the thing now, and I suppose he is almost as proud of it as I am. It is a masterpiece, Bellows. It has all the silly clumsiness of your pelican, all the solemn want of dignity of your parrot, all the gaunt ungainliness of a flamingo, with all the extravagant chromatic conflict of a mandarin duck. Such a bird. I made it out of the skeletons of a stork and a toucan and a job lot of feathers. Taxidermy of that kind is just pure joy, Bellows, to a real artist in the art.
“Enrich the universe; rather. Some of the birds I created were new types of hummingbirds, and they were incredibly beautiful little things, but some of them were just odd. The oddest one, I think, was the Anomalopteryx Jejuna. Jejunus-a-um—empty—named so because there was really nothing to it; a completely empty bird—except for stuffing. Old Javvers has it now, and I suppose he’s almost as proud of it as I am. It’s a masterpiece, Bellows. It has all the silly clumsiness of your pelican, all the serious lack of grace of your parrot, all the awkwardness of a flamingo, and all the outrageous color clashes of a mandarin duck. Such a bird. I made it from the skeletons of a stork and a toucan, along with a bunch of feathers. Taxidermy like that is just pure joy, Bellows, for a true artist in the craft.
“How did I come to make it? Simple enough, as all great inventions are. One of those young genii who write us Science Notes in the papers got hold of a German pamphlet about the birds of New Zealand, and translated some of it by means of a dictionary and his mother-wit—he must have been one of a very large family with a small mother—and he got mixed between the living apteryx and 264the extinct anomalopteryx; talked about a bird five feet high, living in the jungles of the North Island, rare, shy, specimens difficult to obtain, and so on. Javvers, who even for a collector, is a miraculously ignorant man, read these paragraphs, and swore he would have the thing at any price. Raided the dealers with inquiries. It shows what a man can do by persistence—will-power. Here was a bird-collector swearing he would have a specimen of a bird that did not exist, that never had existed, and which for very shame of its own profane ungainliness, probably would not exist now if it could help itself. And he got it. He got it.
“How did I come to create it? It's pretty straightforward, like all great inventions are. A young genius who writes Science Notes for the newspapers found a German pamphlet about the birds of New Zealand and translated some parts using a dictionary and his own cleverness—he must have come from a big family with a small mother. He mixed up the living apteryx and the extinct anomalopteryx; he wrote about a five-foot-tall bird living in the jungles of the North Island, rare, shy, and hard to find specimens, and so on. Javvers, who is remarkably clueless even for a collector, read these paragraphs and vowed he would get that bird at any cost. He bombarded the dealers with questions. It shows what persistence and willpower can accomplish. Here was a bird collector swearing he would obtain a specimen of a bird that didn’t exist, that had never existed, and which, out of embarrassment for its own ridiculous form, probably wouldn’t exist now if it had any choice. And he got it. He got it.”
“Have some more whiskey, Bellows?” said the taxidermist, rousing himself from a transient contemplation of the mysteries of will-power and the collecting turn of mind. And, replenished, he proceeded to tell me of how he concocted a most attractive mermaid, and how an itinerant preacher, who could not get an audience because of it, smashed it because it was idolatry, or worse, at Burslem Wakes. But as the conversation of all the parties to this transaction, creator, would-be preserver, and destroyer, was uniformly unfit for publication, this cheerful incident must still remain unprinted.
“Want some more whiskey, Bellows?” said the taxidermist, shaking himself out of a brief daydream about the mysteries of willpower and collecting. After pouring another drink, he went on to tell me how he created a really eye-catching mermaid, and how a traveling preacher, who couldn't get a crowd because of it, smashed it because he considered it idolatry, or even worse, at Burslem Wakes. But since the conversations among everyone involved—creator, would-be preserver, and destroyer—were all too inappropriate for publication, this upbeat story will have to remain untold.
The reader, unacquainted with the dark ways of the collector, may perhaps be inclined to doubt my taxidermist; but so far as great auks’ eggs, and 265the bogus stuffed birds are concerned, I find that he has the confirmation of distinguished ornithological writers. And the note about the New Zealand bird certainly appeared in a morning paper of unblemished reputation, for the taxidermist keeps a copy and has shown it to me.
The reader, unfamiliar with the shady practices of the collector, might be skeptical of my taxidermist; however, when it comes to great auks’ eggs and the fake stuffed birds, I see that he has support from notable bird experts. Plus, the mention of the New Zealand bird definitely appeared in a morning newspaper with a solid reputation, as the taxidermist has a copy and has shown it to me. 265
A DEAL IN OSTRICHES
“Talking of the prices of birds, I’ve seen an ostrich that cost three hundred pounds,” said the taxidermist, recalling his youth of travel. “Three hundred pounds!”
“Speaking of bird prices, I once saw an ostrich that cost three hundred pounds,” said the taxidermist, reminiscing about his traveling days. “Three hundred pounds!”
He looked at me over his spectacles. “I’ve seen another that was refused at four.”
He looked at me over his glasses. “I’ve seen another one that got turned down at four.”
“No,” he said, “it wasn’t any fancy points. They was just plain ostriches. A little off colour, too—owing to dietary. And there wasn’t any particular restriction of the demand either. You’d have thought five ostriches would have ruled cheap on an East Indiaman. But the point was, one of ’em had swallowed a diamond.
“No,” he said, “it wasn’t anything fancy. They were just regular ostriches. A bit discolored, too—because of their diet. And there wasn’t any specific restriction on the demand either. You’d think five ostriches would have gone for cheap on an East Indiaman. But the thing was, one of them had swallowed a diamond.”
“The chap it got it off was Sir Mohini Padishah, a tremendous swell, a Piccadilly swell you might say up to the neck of him, and then an ugly black head and a whopping turban, with this diamond in it. The blessed bird pecked suddenly and had it, and when the chap made a fuss it realised it had done wrong, I suppose, and went and mixed itself with the others to preserve its incog. It all happened in a minute. I was among the first to arrive, and there was this heathen going over his gods, and two sailors and 267the man who had charge of the birds laughing fit to split. It was a rummy way of losing a jewel, come to think of it. The man in charge hadn’t been about just at the moment, so that he didn’t know which bird it was. Clean lost, you see. I didn’t feel half sorry, to tell you the truth. The beggar had been swaggering over his blessed diamond ever since he came aboard.
“The guy he got it from was Sir Mohini Padishah, a major celebrity, a real high-class type you could say, and then there was this ugly black head and a huge turban with a diamond in it. The darn bird pecked suddenly and grabbed it, and when the guy started making a scene, I guess the bird realized it had done something wrong and mixed back in with the others to keep its incog. It all happened in a flash. I was one of the first to get there, and there was this heathen going over his gods, and two sailors and the guy in charge of the birds laughing their heads off. It was a strange way to lose a jewel, if you think about it. The guy in charge hadn't been around at that moment, so he didn’t know which bird it was. Totally lost, you see. I didn’t feel too bad, to be honest. The guy had been showing off his precious diamond ever since he got on board.
“A thing like that goes from stem to stem of a ship in no time. Every one was talking about it. Padishah went below to hide his feelings. At dinner—he pigged at a table by himself, him and two other Hindoos—the captain kind of jeered at him about it, and he got very excited. He turned round and talked into my ear. He would not buy the birds; he would have his diamond. He demanded his rights as a British subject. His diamond must be found. He was firm upon that. He would appeal to the House of Lords. The man in charge of the birds was one of those wooden-headed chaps you can’t get a new idea into anyhow. He refused any proposal to interfere with the birds by way of medicine. His instructions were to feed them so-and-so and treat them so-and-so, and it was as much as his place was worth not to feed them so-and-so, and treat them so-and-so. Padishah had wanted a stomach-pump—though you can’t do that to a bird, you know. This Padishah was full of bad law, like most of these blessed Bengalis, and talked of 268having a lien on the birds, and so forth. But an old boy, who said his son was a London barrister, argued that what a bird swallowed became ipso facto part of the bird, and that Padishah’s only remedy lay in an action for damages, and even then it might be possible to show contributory negligence. He hadn’t any right of way about an ostrich that didn’t belong to him. That upset Padishah extremely, the more so as most of us expressed an opinion that that was the reasonable view. There wasn’t any lawyer aboard to settle the matter, so we all talked pretty free. At last, after Aden, it appears that he came round to the general opinion, and went privately to the man in charge and made an offer for all five ostriches.
“A thing like that spreads from ship to ship in no time. Everyone was talking about it. Padishah went below to hide his feelings. At dinner—he gorged at a table by himself, along with two other Hindoos—the captain kind of mocked him about it, and he got really upset. He turned around and whispered in my ear. He wouldn't buy the birds; he wanted his diamond. He demanded his rights as a British subject. His diamond had to be found. He was adamant about that. He would appeal to the House of Lords. The guy in charge of the birds was one of those clueless types you can't get a new idea into. He rejected any suggestion to interfere with the birds medically. His orders were to feed them a certain way and treat them a certain way, and it was as much as his job was worth to do otherwise. Padishah had wanted a stomach pump—although you can’t do that to a bird, you know. This Padishah was full of bad legal arguments, like most of these blessed Bengalis, and talked about having a lien on the birds, and so on. But an older guy, who said his son was a barrister in London, argued that whatever a bird swallowed became by that fact part of the bird, and that Padishah’s only remedy was a lawsuit for damages, and even then it might be possible to argue contributory negligence. He had no right regarding an ostrich that didn’t belong to him. That upset Padishah a lot, especially since most of us agreed that was the reasonable view. There wasn’t any lawyer on board to settle the matter, so we all spoke pretty freely. Finally, after Aden, it seems he came around to the general opinion and went privately to the guy in charge and made an offer for all five ostriches.”
“The next morning there was a fine shindy at breakfast. The man hadn’t any authority to deal with the birds, and nothing on earth would induce him to sell; but it seems he told Padishah that a Eurasian named Potter had already made him an offer, and on that Padishah denounced Potter before us all. But I think the most of us thought it rather smart of Potter, and I know that when Potter said that he’d wired at Aden to London to buy the birds, and would have an answer at Suez, I cursed pretty richly at a lost opportunity.
The next morning, there was quite a commotion at breakfast. The man had no authority to handle the birds, and nothing would make him sell; however, it seems he told Padishah that a Eurasian named Potter had already made him an offer, which led Padishah to condemn Potter in front of all of us. But I think most of us felt it was pretty clever of Potter, and I know that when Potter said he’d sent a telegram from Aden to London to buy the birds and would receive a response in Suez, I felt really frustrated about the missed opportunity.
“At Suez, Padishah gave way to tears—actual wet tears—when Potter became the owner of the birds, and offered him two hundred and fifty right off for the five, being more than two hundred per 269cent. on what Potter had given. Potter said he’d be hanged if he parted with a feather of them—that he meant to kill them off one by one, and find the diamond; but afterwards, thinking it over, he relented a little. He was a gambling hound, was this Potter, a little queer at cards, and this kind of prize-packet business must have suited him down to the ground. Anyhow, he offered, for a lark, to sell the birds separately to separate people by auction at a starting price of £80 for a bird. But one of them, he said, he meant to keep for luck.
“At Suez, the Padishah cried actual tears when Potter became the owner of the birds and offered him two hundred and fifty right off for the five, which was more than two hundred percent on what Potter had given. Potter said he'd rather be hanged than give up a single feather—he planned to kill them one by one and find the diamond. But later, after thinking it over, he softened a bit. Potter was a gambling addict, a bit odd at cards, and this kind of prize packet deal must have suited him perfectly. Anyway, he jokingly offered to sell the birds individually at auction to different people, starting at £80 each. But he mentioned that he meant to keep one for luck.
“You must understand this diamond was a valuable one—a little Jew chap, a diamond merchant, who was with us, had put it at three or four thousand when Padishah had shown it to him—and this idea of an ostrich gamble caught on. Now it happened that I’d been having a few talks on general subjects with the man who looked after these ostriches, and quite incidentally he’d said one of the birds was ailing, and he fancied it had indigestion. It had one feather in its tail almost all white, by which I knew it, and so when, next day, the auction started with it, I capped Padishah’s eighty-five by ninety. I fancy I was a bit too sure and eager with my bid, and some of the others spotted the fact that I was in the know. And Padishah went for that particular bird like an irresponsible lunatic. At last the Jew diamond merchant got it for £175, and Padishah said 270£180 just after the hammer came down—so Potter declared. At any rate, the Jew merchant secured it, and there and then he got a gun and shot it. Potter made a Hades of a fuss because he said it would injure the sale of the other three, and Padishah, of course, behaved like an idiot; but all of us were very much excited. I can tell you I was precious glad when that dissection was over, and no diamond had turned up—precious glad. I’d gone to one-forty on that particular bird myself.
“You have to understand that this diamond was really valuable—a little Jewish guy, a diamond dealer, who was with us said it was worth three or four thousand when Padishah showed it to him—and this idea of betting on an ostrich took off. It turned out that I had been chatting a bit with the guy who took care of these ostriches, and he casually mentioned that one of the birds wasn’t doing well and he thought it had indigestion. There was one feather in its tail that was almost all white, so I recognized it. The next day, when the auction started with that bird, I outbid Padishah’s eighty-five with ninety. I think I was a little too confident and eager with my bid, and some of the others realized that I knew something. Padishah went after that specific bird like a crazy person. In the end, the Jewish diamond dealer got it for £175, and Padishah immediately bid £180 just after the hammer came down—so Potter said. Anyway, the Jewish dealer secured it and right then got a gun and shot it. Potter made a huge fuss because he claimed it would hurt the sale of the other three, and of course, Padishah acted like a fool; but we were all super excited. I can tell you I was really glad when that dissection was over and no diamond was found—really glad. I had gone up to one-forty on that particular bird myself."
“The little Jew was like most Jews—he didn’t make any great fuss over bad luck; but Potter declined to go on with the auction until it was understood that the goods could not be delivered until the sale was over. The little Jew wanted to argue that the case was exceptional, and as the discussion ran pretty even, the thing was postponed until the next morning. We had a lively dinner-table that evening, I can tell you, but in the end Potter got his way, since it would stand to reason he would be safer if he stuck to all the birds, and that we owed him some consideration for his sportsman-like behaviour. And the old gentleman whose son was a lawyer said he’d been thinking the thing over and that it was very doubtful if, when a bird had been opened and the diamond recovered, it ought not to be handed back to the proper owner. I remember I suggested it came under the laws of treasure-trove—which was really the truth of the matter. There was a 271hot argument, and we settled it was certainly foolish to kill the bird on board the ship. Then the old gentleman, going at large through his legal talk, tried to make out the sale was a lottery and illegal, and appealed to the captain; but Potter said he sold the birds as ostriches. He didn’t want to sell any diamonds, he said, and didn’t offer that as an inducement. The three birds he put up, to the best of his knowledge and belief, did not contain a diamond. It was in the one he kept—so he hoped.
“The little Jew was like most Jews—he didn’t make a big deal out of bad luck; but Potter refused to continue the auction until it was clear that the goods couldn’t be delivered until after the sale was finished. The little Jew wanted to argue that the situation was unique, and since the discussion was fairly balanced, it was postponed until the next morning. We had a lively dinner that evening, I can tell you, but in the end, Potter got his way, since it made sense to him that he’d be better off if he kept all the birds, and we owed him some respect for his sportsman-like behavior. The old gentleman whose son was a lawyer said he had been thinking it over and that it was very questionable whether, once a bird had been opened and the diamond found, it shouldn’t be returned to the rightful owner. I remember I suggested it fell under the laws of treasure-trove—which was really the truth of the matter. There was a hot argument, and we decided it was definitely foolish to kill the bird on board the ship. Then the old gentleman, going on with his legal talk, tried to argue that the sale was a lottery and therefore illegal, and he appealed to the captain; but Potter said he sold the birds as ostriches. He didn’t want to sell any diamonds, he said, and didn’t present that as a selling point. The three birds he offered, to the best of his knowledge, did not contain a diamond. It was in the one he kept—so he hoped.”
“Prices ruled high next day all the same. The fact that now there were four chances instead of five of course caused a rise. The blessed birds averaged 227, and, oddly enough, this Padishah didn’t secure one of ’em—not one. He made too much shindy, and when he ought to have been bidding he was talking about liens, and, besides, Potter was a bit down on him. One fell to a quiet little officer chap, another to the little Jew, and the third was syndicated by the engineers. And then Potter seemed suddenly sorry for having sold them, and said he’d flung away a clear thousand pounds, and that very likely he’d draw a blank, and that he always had been a fool, but when I went and had a bit of a talk to him, with the idea of getting him to hedge on his last chance, I found he’d already sold the bird he’d reserved to a political chap that was on board, a chap who’d 272been studying Indian morals and social questions in his vacation. That last was the three hundred pounds bird. Well, they landed three of the blessed creatures at Brindisi—though the old gentleman said it was a breach of the Customs regulations—and Potter and Padishah landed too. The Hindoo seemed half mad as he saw his blessed diamond going this way and that, so to speak. He kept on saying he’d get an injunction—he had injunction on the brain—and giving his name and address to the chaps who’d bought the birds, so that they’d know where to send the diamond. None of them wanted his name and address, and none of them would give their own. It was a fine row I can tell you—on the platform. They all went off by different trains. I came on to Southampton, and there I saw the last of the birds, as I came ashore; it was the one the engineers bought, and it was standing up near the bridge, in a kind of crate, and looking as leggy and silly a setting for a valuable diamond as ever you saw—if it was a setting for a valuable diamond.
Prices were still high the next day. The fact that there were now four chances instead of five naturally caused a rise. The blessed birds averaged 227, and, strangely enough, this Padishah didn’t get any of them—not one. He made too much noise, and when he should have been bidding, he was talking about liens, and, on top of that, Potter wasn’t too keen on him. One went to a quiet little officer, another to a little Jew, and the third was shared by the engineers. Then Potter suddenly seemed regretful for having sold them, claiming he’d thrown away a clear thousand pounds, that he’d probably end up with nothing, and that he’d always been a fool. But when I went to talk to him, hoping to persuade him to hedge on his last chance, I found he’d already sold the bird he had reserved to a political guy on board, who had been studying Indian morals and social issues during his vacation. That last one was the three hundred pounds bird. Well, they managed to land three of the blessed creatures at Brindisi—though the old gentleman claimed it violated Customs regulations—and Potter and Padishah landed too. The Hindoo looked half crazy as he saw his precious diamond going here and there, so to speak. He kept insisting he’d get an injunction—he was obsessed with the idea—and giving his name and address to the guys who bought the birds, so they’d know where to send the diamond. None of them wanted his details, and none would share their own. It was a big mess, I can tell you—on the platform. They all left on different trains. I continued on to Southampton, and that’s where I saw the last of the birds as I disembarked; it was the one the engineers bought, and it was standing near the bridge, in a sort of crate, looking as awkward and silly a setting for a valuable diamond as you’ve ever seen—if it even was a setting for a valuable diamond.
“How did it end? Oh! like that. Well—perhaps. Yes, there’s one more thing that may throw light on it. A week or so after landing I was down Regent Street doing a bit of shopping, and who should I see arm in arm and having a purple time of it but Padishah and Potter. If you come to think of it—
“How did it end? Oh! like that. Well—maybe. Yes, there’s one more thing that might help clarify it. About a week after arriving, I was on Regent Street doing some shopping, and who should I see walking together and having a great time but Padishah and Potter. If you really think about it—
273“Yes. I’ve thought that. Only, you see, there’s no doubt the diamond was real. And Padishah was an eminent Hindoo. I’ve seen his name in the papers—often. But whether the bird swallowed the diamond certainly is another matter, as you say.”
273“Yes. I’ve thought that. But, you know, there's no doubt the diamond was real. And Padishah was a prominent Hindu. I’ve seen his name in the news—many times. But whether the bird actually swallowed the diamond is definitely another issue, as you mentioned.”
THE RAJAH’S TREASURE
Between Jehun and Bimabur on the Himalayan slopes, and between the jungles and the higher country where the pines and deodars are gathered together, ruled the petty Rajah, of whose wonderful treasure I am telling. Very great was the treasure, people said, for the Rajah had prospered all his days. He had found Mindapore a village, and, behold! it was a city. Below his fort of unhewn stone the flat-roofed huts of mud had multiplied; and now there sprang up houses with upstairs rooms, and the place which had once boasted no more than one buniah man, engendered a bazaar in the midst of it, as a fat oyster secretes a pearl. And the Holy Place up the river prospered, and the road up the passes was made safe. Merchants and fakirs multiplied about the wells, men came and went, twice even white men from the plain on missions to the people over beyond the deodars, and the streets of the town were ever denser with poultry and children, and little dogs dyed yellow, and with all the multitudinous rich odours of human increase. As at last, at the crown of his prosperity, this legend of his treasures began.
Between Jehun and Bimabur on the Himalayan slopes, and between the jungles and the higher ground where the pines and deodars grew, ruled the small Rajah, of whose amazing treasure I’m telling. People said the treasure was very great, for the Rajah had thrived all his life. He had found Mindapore a village, and, look! it became a city. Below his fort of rough stone, the flat-roofed mud huts multiplied; and now there were houses with upstairs rooms, and the place that had once had no more than one buniah man generated a bazaar in the middle of it, like a fat oyster secreting a pearl. And the Holy Place up the river thrived, and the road through the passes was made safe. Merchants and fakirs gathered around the wells, people came and went, twice even white men from the plain on missions to the people beyond the deodars, and the streets of the town grew ever denser with poultry, children, and little dogs dyed yellow, along with all the rich scents of human growth. At last, at the peak of his prosperity, this legend of his treasures began.
275He was a portly, yellow-faced man, with a long black beard, now steadily growing grey, thick lips, and shifty eyes. He was pious, very pious in his daily routine, and swift and unaccountable in his actions. None dared withstand him to his face, even in little things. Golam Shah, his vizier, was but a servant, a carrier of orders; and Samud Singh, his master of horse, but a driller of soldiers. They were tools, he would tell them outright in his pride of power, staves in his hand that he could break at his will. He was childless. And his cousin, the youth Azim Khan, feared him, and only in the remotest recesses of his heart dared to wish the Rajah would presently die and make a way for the cyons.
275He was a stout man with a yellowish complexion, a long black beard that was now turning grey, thick lips, and shifting eyes. He was very religious in his daily life but unpredictable in his actions. No one dared to confront him directly, even about minor matters. Golam Shah, his advisor, was merely a servant, just someone to carry out orders; and Samud Singh, his horse master, was just in charge of training soldiers. He would openly tell them, full of pride in his authority, that they were his tools, like sticks he could easily break whenever he wanted. He had no children. His cousin, the young Azim Khan, was afraid of him and only deep down wished the Rajah would die soon to make way for the heirs.
It would be hard to say when first the rumour spread that the Rajah of little Mindapore was making a hoard. None knew how it began or where. Perhaps from merchants of whom he had bought. It began long before the days of the safe. It was said that rubies had been bought and hidden away; and then not only rubies, but ornaments of gold, and then pearls, and diamonds from Golconda, and all manner of precious stones. Even the Deputy-Commissioner at Allapore heard of it. At last the story re-entered the palace at Mindapore itself, and Azim Khan, who was the Rajah’s cousin and his heir, and nominally his commander-in-chief, and 276Golam Shah, the chief minister, talked it over one with another in a tentative way.
It’s hard to say when the rumor started that the Rajah of little Mindapore was hoarding wealth. No one knew how it began or where it originated. Maybe it came from merchants he had made purchases from. It was circulating long before the safe was ever mentioned. People said he had bought and hidden rubies; then it was rumored he had not just rubies, but gold ornaments, pearls, diamonds from Golconda, and all kinds of precious stones. Even the Deputy-Commissioner at Allapore caught wind of it. Eventually, the story made its way back to the palace in Mindapore, where Azim Khan, the Rajah’s cousin and heir, who also held the title of commander-in-chief, and Golam Shah, the chief minister, discussed it cautiously with one another. 276
“He has something new,” said Golam Shah, querulously; “he has something new, and he is keeping it from me.”
“He's got something new,” Golam Shah said, irritated; “he's got something new, and he's not sharing it with me.”
Azira Khan watched him cunningly. “I have told you what I have heard,” he said. “For my own part I know nothing.”
Azira Khan watched him slyly. “I’ve told you what I heard,” he said. “As for me, I don’t know anything.”
“He goes to and fro musing and humming to himself,” said Golam, meditatively, “as one who thinks of a pleasure.”
“He goes back and forth, lost in thought and humming to himself,” said Golam, thoughtfully, “like someone reflecting on a joy.”
“More rubies, they are saying,” said Azim, dreamily, and repeated, as if for his own pleasure, “Rubies.” For Azim was the heir.
“More rubies, they’re saying,” said Azim, dreamily, and repeated, as if for his own pleasure, “Rubies.” For Azim was the heir.
“Especially is it since that Englishman came,” said Golam, “three months ago. A big old man, not wrinkled as an old man should be, but red, and with red hair streaking his grey, and with a tight skin and a big body sticking out before. So. An elephant of a man, a great quivering mud-bank of a man, who laughed mightily, so that the people stopped and listened in the street. He came, he laughed, and as he went away we heard them laugh together—”
“Especially since that Englishman showed up,” said Golam, “three months ago. A big old guy, not wrinkled like an old man usually is, but red-faced, with red hair mixed in with the gray, tight skin, and a big belly sticking out in front. Like an elephant of a man, a huge, swaying mound of a man, who laughed so loudly that people stopped and listened in the street. He came, he laughed, and as he left, we heard them laughing together—”
“Well?” said Azim.
“Well?” Azim asked.
“He was a diamond merchant, perhaps—or a dealer in rubies. Do Englishmen deal in such things?”
“He was a diamond dealer, maybe—or a ruby trader. Do Englishmen actually deal in stuff like that?”
“Would I had seen him!” said Azim.
“I wish I had seen him!” said Azim.
“He took gold away,” said Golam.
“He took the gold,” said Golam.
277Both were silent for a space, and the purring noise of the wheel of the upper well, and the chatter of voices about it rising and falling, made a pleasant sound in the air. “Since the Englishman went,” said Golam, “he has been different. He hides something from me—something in his robe. Rubies! What else can it be?”
277Both were quiet for a moment, and the soft sound of the wheel from the upper well, along with the chatter of voices around it, created a nice ambiance. “Ever since the Englishman left,” Golam said, “he's been acting differently. He's hiding something from me—something in his robe. Rubies! What else could it be?”
“He has not buried it?” said Azim.
“He hasn’t buried it?” said Azim.
“He will. Then he will want to dig it up again and look at it,” said Golam, for he was a man of experience. “I go softly. Sometimes almost I come upon him. Then he starts—”
“He will. Then he’ll want to dig it up again and look at it,” said Golam, since he was a man of experience. “I move quietly. Sometimes I almost come upon him. Then he jumps—”
“He grows old and nervous,” said Azim, and there was a pause.
“He's getting old and anxious," said Azim, and there was a pause.
“Before the English came,” said Golam, looking at the rings upon his fingers, as he recurred to his constant preoccupation; “there were no Rajahs nervous and old.”
“Before the English arrived,” Golam said, looking at the rings on his fingers as he returned to his usual concern, “there were no anxious and old Rajahs.”
That, I say, was even before the coming of the safe. It came in a packing case. Such a case it was as had never been seen before on all the slopes of the Himalayan mountains, it was an elephant’s burden even on the plain. It was days drawing nearer and nearer. At Allapore crowds went to see it pass upon the railway. Afterwards elephants and then a great multitude of men dragged it up the hills. And this great case being opened in the Hall of Audience revealed within itself a monstrous iron box, like no other box that had ever come to the city. It had been made, so the 278story went, by necromancers in England, expressly to the order of the Rajah, that he might keep his treasure therein and sleep in peace. It was so hard that the hardest files powdered upon its corners, and so strong that cannon fired point-blank at it would have produced no effect upon it. And it locked with a magic lock. There was a word, and none knew the word but the Rajah. With that word, and a little key that hung about his neck, one could open the lock; but without it none could do so.
That, I say, was even before the safe arrived. It came in a packing case. It was a case like no other seen on the Himalayan slopes; it was an elephant's load even on flat ground. Days went by, getting closer and closer. In Allapore, crowds gathered to watch it go by on the railway. Then elephants and a huge crowd of men pulled it up the hills. When this massive case was opened in the Hall of Audience, it revealed a giant iron box, unlike anything ever seen in the city. According to the story, it was made by necromancers in England, specifically for the Rajah, so he could keep his treasure safe and sleep peacefully. It was so tough that the hardest files would wear down on its corners, and so strong that cannon fire point-blank would have no effect on it. It locked with a magical lock. There was a word, and only the Rajah knew it. With that word and a little key that he wore around his neck, he could open the lock; but without it, no one could.
The Rajah caused this safe to be built into the wall of his palace in a little room beyond the Hall of Audience. He superintended the building up of it with jealous eyes. And thereafter he would go thither day by day, once at least every day, coming back with brighter eyes. “He goes to count his treasure,” said Golam Shah, standing beside the empty daïs.
The Rajah had this safe built into the wall of his palace in a small room behind the Hall of Audience. He watched over its construction with intense interest. After that, he would visit it daily, at least once every day, returning with a more cheerful expression. “He goes to count his treasure,” said Golam Shah, standing next to the empty dais.
And in those days it was that the Rajah began to change. He who had been cunning and subtle became choleric and outspoken. His judgment grew harsh, and a taint that seemed to all about him to be assuredly the taint of avarice crept into his acts. Moreover, which inclined Golam Shah to hopefulness, he seemed to take a dislike to Azim Khan. Once indeed he made a kind of speech in the Hall of Audience. Therein he declared many times over in a peculiarly husky voice, husky yet full of conviction, that Azim Khan was not 279worth a half anna, not worth a half anna to any human soul.
And during that time, the Rajah started to change. He, who had been clever and sly, became angry and direct. His judgment turned severe, and a trait that everyone around him saw as definitely greed crept into his actions. Furthermore, which made Golam Shah feel hopeful, he seemed to develop a dislike for Azim Khan. Once, he even gave a sort of speech in the Hall of Audience. In it, he repeatedly declared in a particularly hoarse voice, hoarse yet filled with conviction, that Azim Khan was worth less than a half anna, not worth a half anna to anyone. 279
In these latter days of the Rajah’s decline, moreover, when merchants came, he would go aside with them secretly into the little room, and speak low, so that those in the Hall of Audience, howsoever they strained their ears, could hear nothing of his speech. These things Golam Shah and Azim Khan and Samud Singh, who had joined their councils, treasured in their hearts.
In these final days of the Rajah’s decline, whenever merchants arrived, he would discreetly step aside with them into a small room and talk quietly, so that even those in the Hall of Audience, no matter how hard they tried to listen, couldn’t catch a word of their conversation. Golam Shah, Azim Khan, and Samud Singh, who had become part of his council, held these moments close to their hearts.
“It is true about the treasure,” said Azim; “they talked of it round the well of the travellers, even the merchants from Tibet had heard the tale, and had come this way with jewels of price, and afterwards they went secretly telling no one.” And ever and again, it was said, came a negro mute from the plains, with secret parcels for the Rajah. “Another stone,” was the rumour that went the round of the city.
“It’s true about the treasure,” said Azim; “they talked about it by the travelers' well, even the merchants from Tibet had heard the story, and came this way with valuable jewels, and then left quietly without telling anyone.” And time and again, it was said, a mute Black man would come from the plains, carrying secret parcels for the Rajah. “Another stone,” was the rumor that spread through the city.
“The bee makes hoards,” said Azim Khan, the Rajah’s heir, sitting in the upper chamber of Golam Shah. “Therefore, we will wait awhile.” For Azim was more coward than traitor.
“The bee collects honey,” said Azim Khan, the Rajah’s heir, sitting in the upper room of Golam Shah. “So, we will wait a bit.” For Azim was more of a coward than a traitor.
At last there were men in the Deccan even who could tell you particulars of the rubies and precious stones that the Rajah had gathered together. But so circumspect was the Rajah that Azim Khan and Golam Shah had never even set eyes on the glittering heaps that they knew were accumulating in the safe.
At last, there were guys in the Deccan who could share details about the rubies and precious stones that the Rajah had collected. But the Rajah was so cautious that Azim Khan and Golam Shah had never even laid eyes on the brilliant piles they knew were building up in the safe.
280The Rajah always went into the little room alone, and even then he locked the door of the little room—it had a couple of locks—before he went to the safe and used the magic word. How all the ministers and officers and guards listened and looked at one another as the door of the room behind the curtain closed!
280The Rajah always entered the small room by himself, and even then, he locked the door of the little room—it had a couple of locks—before he went to the safe and used the magic word. Everyone, including the ministers, officers, and guards, would listen and exchange glances as the door of the room behind the curtain shut!
The Rajah changed indeed, in these days, not only in the particulars of his rule, but in his appearance. “He is growing old. How fast he grows old! The time is almost ripe,” whispered Samud Singh. The Rajah’s hand became tremulous, his step was now sometimes unsteady, and his memory curiously defective. He would come back out from the treasure-room, and his hand would tighten fiercely on the curtain, and he would stumble on the steps of the daïs. “His eyesight fails,” said Golam. “See!—His turban is askew. He is sleepy even in the forenoon, before the heat of the day. His judgments are those of a child.”
The Rajah has changed lately, not just in how he rules but also in how he looks. “He’s getting old. He’s aging so quickly! The time is nearly here,” whispered Samud Singh. The Rajah’s hand has started to shake, his steps are sometimes unsteady, and his memory is oddly faulty. He would exit the treasure room, grip the curtain tightly, and trip on the steps of the platform. “His eyesight is failing,” remarked Golam. “Look! His turban is crooked. He’s even sleepy in the morning, before the heat of the day. His judgments are like those of a child.”
It was a painful sight to see a man so suddenly old and enfeebled still ruling men.
It was a painful sight to see a man who had so suddenly become old and weak still leading others.
“He may go on yet, a score of years,” said Golam Shah.
“He might keep going for another twenty years,” said Golam Shah.
“Should a ruler hoard riches,” said Shere Ali, in the guardroom, “and leave his soldiers unpaid?” That was the beginning of the end.
“Should a ruler stockpile wealth,” said Shere Ali, in the guardroom, “and leave his soldiers unpaid?” That was the beginning of the end.
It was the thought of the treasure won over the soldiers, even as it did the mollahs and the eunuchs. Why had the Rajah not buried it in some unthinkable 281place, as his father had done before him, and killed the diggers with his hand? “He has hoarded,” said Samud, with a chuckle,—for the old Rajah had once pulled his beard,—“only to pay for his own undoing.” And in order to insure confidence, Golam Shah went beyond the truth perhaps, and gave a sketchy account of the treasures to this man and that, even as a casual eyewitness might do.
The idea of the treasure got the soldiers excited, just like it did the religious leaders and the eunuchs. Why didn’t the Rajah bury it in some impossible-to-find spot, like his father did, and take care of the diggers himself? “He’s hoarding it,” Samud said with a laugh—since the old Rajah once grabbed his beard—“only to bring about his own destruction.” To build trust, Golam Shah might have exaggerated a bit and shared a rough description of the treasures with this person and that one, just like a casual observer would.
Then, suddenly and swiftly, the palace revolution was accomplished. When the lonely old Rajah was killed, a shot was to be fired from the harem lattice, bugles were to be blown, and the sepoys were to turn out in the square before the palace, and fire a volley in the air. The murder was done in the dark save for a little red lamp that burnt in the corner. Azim knelt on the body and held up the wet beard, and cut the throat wide and deep to make sure. It was so easy! Why had he waited so long? And then, with his hands covered with warm blood, he sprang up eagerly—Rajah at last!—and followed Golam and Samud and the eunuchs down the long, faintly moonlit passage, towards the Hall of Audience.
Then, suddenly and quickly, the palace revolution was completed. When the lonely old Rajah was killed, a shot was fired from the harem lattice, bugles were blown, and the sepoys turned out in the square before the palace, firing a volley into the air. The murder was carried out in the dark except for a small red lamp burning in the corner. Azim knelt over the body, lifted the wet beard, and cut the throat wide and deep to ensure it was done. It was so easy! Why had he waited so long? Then, with his hands covered in warm blood, he eagerly sprang up—Rajah at last!—and followed Golam, Samud, and the eunuchs down the long, dimly moonlit passage toward the Hall of Audience.
As they did so, the crack of a rifle sounded far away, and after a pause came the first awakening noises of the town. One of the eunuchs had an iron bar, and Samud carried a pistol in his hand. He fired into the locks of the treasure-room, and wrecked them, and the eunuch smashed the door 282in. Then they all rushed in together, none standing aside for Azim. It was dark, and the second eunuch went reluctantly to get a torch, in fear lest his fellow murderers should open the safe in his absence.
As they did this, a rifle shot rang out in the distance, and after a moment, the first sounds of the town waking up began. One of the eunuchs had an iron bar, and Samud held a pistol in his hand. He shot at the locks of the treasure room, breaking them, and the eunuch smashed the door in. Then they all rushed inside together, with no one letting Azim through. It was dark, and the second eunuch hesitated before getting a torch, worried that his fellow accomplices might open the safe while he was gone. 282
But he need have had no fear. The cardinal event of that night is the triumphant vindication of the advertised merits of Chobbs’ unrivalled safes. The tumult that occurred between the Mindapore sepoys and the people need not concern us. The people loved not the new Rajah—let that suffice. The conspirators got the key from round the dead Rajah’s neck, and tried a multitude of the magic words of the English that Samud Singh knew, even such words as “Kemup” and “Gorblimey”—in vain.
But he didn’t need to worry. The main event of that night was the victorious proof of the advertised benefits of Chobbs’ unmatched safes. The clash between the Mindapore sepoys and the locals isn’t our focus. The people didn’t like the new Rajah—that’s enough. The conspirators took the key from around the dead Rajah’s neck and tried a bunch of the magic English words that Samud Singh knew, including “Kemup” and “Gorblimey”—all without success.
In the morning, the safe in the treasure-room remained intact and defiant, the woodwork about it smashed to splinters, and great chunks of stone knocked out of the wall, dents abundantly scattered over its impregnable door, and a dust of files below. And the shifty Golam had to explain the matter to the soldiers and mollahs as best he could. This was an extremely difficult thing to do, because in no kind of business is prompt cash so necessary as in the revolutionary line.
In the morning, the safe in the treasure room was still standing strong, the wood surrounding it shattered into pieces, and large chunks of stone knocked out of the wall, with numerous dents all over its secure door and a layer of dust below. The sneaky Golam had to explain the situation to the soldiers and clerics as best he could. This was a really tough task because there's no business where quick cash is more crucial than in revolutionary activities.
The state of affairs for the next few days in Mindapore was exceedingly strained. One fact stands out prominently, that Azim Khan was hopelessly feeble. The soldiers would not at first believe 283in the exemplary integrity of the safe, and a deputation insisted in the most occidental manner in verifying the new Rajah’s statements. Moreover, the populace clamoured, and then by a naked man running, came the alarming intelligence that the new Deputy-Commissioner at Allapore was coming headlong and with soldiers to verify the account of the revolution Golam Shah and Samud Singh had sent him in the name of Azim.
The situation in Mindapore was extremely tense over the next few days. One thing was clear: Azim Khan was completely ineffectual. At first, the soldiers couldn’t believe in the strict honesty of the safe, and a group insisted on checking the new Rajah’s claims in a very Western way. Meanwhile, the crowd was restless, and then, with the shocking news brought by a naked man running, it was revealed that the new Deputy-Commissioner in Allapore was rushing over with soldiers to confirm the report of the revolution that Golam Shah and Samud Singh had sent him in Azim’s name.
The new Deputy-Commissioner was a raw young man, partly obscured by a pith helmet, and chock full of zeal and the desire for distinction; and he had heard of the treasure. He was going, he said, to sift the matter thoroughly. On the arrival of this distressing intelligence there was a hasty and informal council of state (at which Azim was not present), a counter-revolution was arranged, and all that Azim ever learnt of it was the sound of a footfall behind him, and the cold touch of a pistol barrel on the neck.
The new Deputy Commissioner was a young guy, mostly hidden by a pith helmet, full of enthusiasm and eager to make a name for himself; and he had heard about the treasure. He said he was going to investigate the situation thoroughly. When this troubling news reached them, there was a quick and informal meeting of the leaders (where Azim wasn’t there), a counter-revolution was planned, and all Azim ever knew about it was the sound of footsteps behind him and the cold pressure of a gun barrel against his neck.
When the Commissioner arrived, that dexterous statesman, Golam Shah, and that honest soldier, Samud Singh, were ready to receive him, and they had two corpses, several witnesses, and a neat little story. In addition to Azim they had shot an unpopular officer of the Mindapore sepoys. They told the Commissioner how Azim had plotted against the Rajah and raised a military revolt, and how the people, who loved the old Rajah, even as Golam Shah and Samud Singh loved him, had 284quelled the revolt, and how peace was restored again. And Golam explained how Azim had fought for life even in the Hall of Audience, and how he, Golam, had been wounded in the struggle, and how Samud had shot Azim with his own hand.
When the Commissioner showed up, the skilled politician Golam Shah and the honest soldier Samud Singh were ready to greet him. They had two dead bodies, several witnesses, and a straightforward story. Along with Azim, they had also killed an unpopular officer from the Mindapore sepoys. They explained to the Commissioner how Azim had plotted against the Rajah and incited a military uprising, and how the people, who cherished the old Rajah just like Golam Shah and Samud Singh did, had put down the revolt and restored peace. Golam went on to explain how Azim had fought for his life right in the Hall of Audience, how he had been wounded during the struggle, and how Samud had shot Azim himself.
And the Deputy-Commissioner, being weak in his dialect, had swallowed it all. All round the Deputy-Commissioner, in the minds of the people, the palace, and the city, hung the true story of the case, as it seemed to Golam Shah, like an avalanche ready to fall; and yet the Deputy-Commissioner did not learn of it for four days. And Golam and Samud went to and fro, whispering and pacifying, promising to get at the treasure as soon as the Deputy-Commissioner could be got out of the way. And as they went to and fro so also the report went to and fro—that Golam and Samud had opened the safe and hidden the treasure, and closed and locked it again; and bright eyes watched them curiously and hungrily even as they had watched the Rajah in the days that were gone.
And the Deputy Commissioner, struggling with his language skills, believed everything he was told. In the minds of the people, the palace, and the city, the real story of the situation loomed over the Deputy Commissioner like an impending avalanche, yet he didn’t find out for four days. Golam and Samud went back and forth, whispering and calming tensions, promising to access the treasure as soon as they could get the Deputy Commissioner out of the way. As they moved back and forth, so did the rumors—that Golam and Samud had opened the safe, hidden the treasure, and then locked it again; and curious, hungry eyes watched them just as they had once watched the Rajah in the past.
“This city is no longer an abiding place for you and me,” said Golam Shah, in a moment of clear insight. “They are mad about this treasure. Golconda would not satisfy them.”
“This city is no longer a lasting home for you and me,” said Golam Shah, in a moment of clarity. “They are obsessed with this treasure. Golconda wouldn’t be enough for them.”
The Deputy-Commissioner, when he heard their story, did indeed make knowing inquiries (as knowing as the knowingness of the English goes) in order to show himself not too credulous; but he elicited nothing. He had heard tales of treasure, 285had the Commissioner, and of a great box? So had Golam and Samud, but where it was they could not tell. They too had certainly heard tales of treasure—many tales indeed. Perhaps there was treasure.
The Deputy Commissioner, when he heard their story, asked some probing questions (as much as the English tend to) to show that he wasn't too gullible; but he got nowhere. He had heard rumors of treasure, 285 and of a big box? So had Golam and Samud, but they couldn't say where it was. They had definitely heard stories of treasure—lots of stories, actually. Maybe there really was treasure.
Had the Deputy-Commissioner had the scientific turn of mind, he would have observed that a strong smell of gunpowder still hung about the Audience Chamber, more than was explained by the narrative told him; and had he explored the adjacent apartments, he would presently have discovered the small treasure-room with its smashed locks, and the ceiling now dependent ruins, and amid the ruins the safe, bulging perilously from the partly collapsed walls, but still unconquered, and with its treasures unexplored. Also it is a fact that Golam Shah’s bandaged hand was not the consequence of heroism in combat, but of certain private blasting operations too amateurishly prosecuted.
Had the Deputy Commissioner had a scientific mindset, he would have noticed that a strong smell of gunpowder still lingered in the Audience Chamber, more than could be explained by the story he was told; and if he had checked the nearby rooms, he would soon have found the small treasure room with its broken locks, and the ceiling now hanging down in ruins, with the safe precariously bulging from the partially collapsed walls, but still intact, and with its treasures untouched. Also, it’s a fact that Golam Shah’s bandaged hand wasn't due to heroism in battle, but from some private blasting activities that were done too clumsily.
So you have the situation: Deputy-Commissioner installed in the palace, sending incorrect information to headquarters and awaiting instructions, the safe as safe as ever; assistant conspirators grumbling louder and louder; and Golam and Samud getting more and more desperate lest this voice should reach the Deputy’s ears.
So here's the situation: the Deputy Commissioner is set up in the palace, sending wrong information to headquarters and waiting for instructions, the safe is as secure as ever; the assistant conspirators are complaining more and more; and Golam and Samud are getting increasingly desperate that this news doesn't reach the Deputy’s ears.
Then came the night when the Commissioner heard a filing and a tapping, and being a brave man, rose and went forthwith, alone and very quietly, across the Hall of Audience, pistol in hand, 286in search of the sound. Across the Hall a light came from an open door that had been hidden in the day by a curtain. Stopping silently in the darkness of the outer apartment, he looked into the treasure-room. And there stood Golam with his arm in a sling, holding a lantern, while Samud fumbled with pieces of wire and some little keys. They were without boots, but otherwise they were dressed ready for a journey.
Then came the night when the Commissioner heard a shuffling and a tapping. Being a brave man, he got up and quietly went alone across the Hall of Audience, pistol in hand, to find out what it was. A light shone from an open door that had been hidden by a curtain during the day. He paused silently in the darkness of the outer room and peered into the treasure room. There stood Golam with his arm in a sling, holding a lantern, while Samud fumbled with some wires and a few small keys. They were barefoot but otherwise dressed for a journey.
The Deputy-Commissioner was, for a Government official, an exceedingly quick-witted man. He slipped back in the darkness again, and within five minutes, Golam and Samud, still fumbling, heard footsteps hurrying across the Hall of Audience, and saw a flicker of light. Out went their lantern, with a groan because of a bandaged arm, but it was too late. In another moment Lieutenant Earl, in pyjamas and boots, but with a brace of revolvers and a couple of rifles behind him, stood in the doorway of the treasure-room, and Golam and Samud were caught. Samud clicked his pistol and then threw it down, for it was three to one—Golam being not only a bandaged man, but fundamentally a man of peace.
The Deputy Commissioner was, for a government official, an incredibly quick-witted guy. He slipped back into the darkness again, and within five minutes, Golam and Samud, still fumbling around, heard footsteps rushing across the Hall of Audience and saw a flicker of light. Their lantern went out with a groan because of a bandaged arm, but it was too late. In a moment, Lieutenant Earl, dressed in pajamas and boots but with a couple of revolvers and rifles behind him, stood in the doorway of the treasure room, and Golam and Samud were caught. Samud clicked his pistol and then dropped it, knowing it was three against one—Golam was not only a bandaged man but also essentially a man of peace.
When the intelligence of this treachery filtered from the palace into the town, there was an outbreak of popular feeling, and a dozen officious persons set out to tell the Deputy-Commissioner the true connection between Golam, Samud, and the death of the Rajah. The first to penetrate to 287the Deputy-Commissioner’s presence was an angry fakir, from the colony that dwelt about the Holy place. And after a patient hearing the Deputy-Commissioner extracted the thread of the narrative from the fabric of curses in which the holy man presented it.
When word of this betrayal spread from the palace to the town, there was a surge of public emotion, and a handful of eager individuals rushed to inform the Deputy-Commissioner about the real connection between Golam, Samud, and the Rajah's death. The first to reach the Deputy-Commissioner's office was an upset fakir from the community near the Holy place. After listening carefully, the Deputy-Commissioner managed to untangle the story from the barrage of curses the holy man shared.
“This is most singular,” said the Deputy-Commissioner to the Lieutenant, standing in the treasure-room (which looked as though the palace had been bombarded), and regarding the battered but still inviolable safe. “Here we seem to have the key of the whole position.”
“This is really strange,” said the Deputy-Commissioner to the Lieutenant, standing in the treasure room (which looked like the palace had been bombed), and looking at the damaged but still secure safe. “Here we seem to have the key to the whole situation.”
“Key!” said the Lieutenant. “It’s the key they haven’t got.”
“Key!” said the Lieutenant. “It’s the key they don’t have.”
“Curious mingling of the new and the old,” said the Deputy-Commissioner. “Patent safe—and a hoard.”
“Interesting mix of the new and the old,” said the Deputy Commissioner. “A patent safe—and a treasure.”
“Send to Allapore and wire Chobbs, I suppose?” said the Lieutenant.
“Should I send to Allapore and text Chobbs, I guess?” said the Lieutenant.
The Deputy-Commissioner signified that was his intention, and they set guards before and behind and all about the treasure-room, until the proper instructions about the lock should come.
The Deputy-Commissioner indicated that this was his plan, and they stationed guards in front, behind, and around the treasure room until the proper instructions for the lock arrived.
So it was that the Pax Britannica solemnly took possession of the Rajah’s hoard, and men in Simla heard the news, and envied that Deputy-Commissioner his adventure with all their hearts. For his promptitude and decision was a matter of praise, and they said that Mindapore would certainly be annexed and added to the district over which he 288ruled. Only a fat old man named MacTurk, living in Allapore, a big man with a noisy quivering laugh, and a secret trade with certain native potentates, did not hear the news, excepting only the news of the murder of the Rajah and the departure of the Deputy-Commissioner, for several days. He heard nothing of the disposition of the treasure—an unfortunate thing, since, among other things, he had sold the Rajah his safe, and may even have known the word by which the lock was opened.
So it was that the British Peace officially took control of the Rajah’s treasure, and people in Simla heard the news and envied that Deputy-Commissioner for his adventure with all their hearts. His quick thinking and decisiveness were praised, and they confidently said that Mindapore would definitely be annexed and added to the district he governed. Only a heavyset old man named MacTurk, who lived in Allapore, a big guy with a loud, shaky laugh and a secret business with some local leaders, didn’t hear the news, except for the murder of the Rajah and the Deputy-Commissioner leaving, for several days. He had no idea about what happened to the treasure—an unfortunate situation, since, among other things, he had sold the Rajah his safe and might even have known the word that opened the lock.
The Deputy-Commissioner had theatrical tastes. These he gratified under the excuse that display was above all things necessary in dealing with Orientals. He imprisoned his four malefactors theatrically, and when the instructions came from Chobbs he had the safe lugged into the Hall of Audience, in order to open it with more effect. The Commissioner sat on the daïs, while the engineer worked at the safe on the crimson steps.
The Deputy Commissioner had a flair for the dramatic. He justified it by saying that a show was essential when dealing with people from the East. He dramatically locked up his four criminals, and when the orders arrived from Chobbs, he had the safe brought into the Hall of Audience to open it with more flair. The Commissioner sat on the platform while the engineer struggled with the safe on the red steps.
In the central space was stretched a large white cloth. It reminded the Deputy-Commissioner of a picture he had seen of Alexander at Damascus receiving the treasures of Darius.
In the middle of the room, there was a large white cloth spread out. It made the Deputy-Commissioner think of a picture he had seen of Alexander in Damascus, accepting the treasures of Darius.
“It is gold,” said one bystander to another. “There was a sound of chinking as they brought the safe in. My brother was among those who hauled.”
“It’s gold,” said one onlooker to another. “You could hear the clinking as they brought the safe in. My brother was one of those who carried it.”
The engineer clicked the lock. Every eye in the Hall of Audience grew brighter and keener, excepting the eyes of the Deputy-Commissioner. 289He felt the dignity of his responsibilities, and sat upon the daïs looking as much like the Pax Britannica as possible.
The engineer clicked the lock. Every eye in the Hall of Audience became brighter and more focused, except for the Deputy-Commissioner's. 289 He felt the weight of his responsibilities and sat on the platform trying to look as much like British Peace as he could.
“Holy Smoke!” said the engineer, and slammed the safe again. A murmur of exclamations ran round the hall. Every one was asking every one else what they had seen.
“Holy smoke!” the engineer exclaimed, slamming the safe again. A buzz of gasps filled the hall. Everyone was asking each other what they had seen.
“An asp!” said some one.
"An asp!" someone exclaimed.
The Deputy-Commissioner lost his imperturbability. “What is it?” he said, springing to his feet. The engineer leant across the safe and whispered two words, something indistinct and with a blasphemous adjective in front.
The Deputy-Commissioner lost his composure. “What is it?” he said, jumping to his feet. The engineer leaned over the safe and whispered two words, something unclear with a profanity in front.
“What?” said the Deputy-Commissioner, sharply.
“What?” said the Deputy Commissioner, sharply.
“Glass!” said the engineer, in a bitter whisper. “Broken bottles. ’Undreds!”
“Glass!” said the engineer, in a bitter whisper. “Broken bottles. Hundreds!”
“Let me see!” said the Deputy-Commissioner, losing all his dignity.
“Let me see!” said the Deputy-Commissioner, completely losing his dignity.
“Scotch, if I’m not mistaken,” said the engineer, sniffing curiously.
“Scotch, if I'm not wrong,” said the engineer, sniffing with curiosity.
“Curse it!” said the Deputy-Commissioner, and looked up to meet a multitude of ironical eyes. “Er—
“Damn it!” said the Deputy-Commissioner, and looked up to meet a crowd of sarcastic stares. “Um—
“The assembly is dismissed,” said the Deputy-Commissioner.
“The meeting is over,” said the Deputy-Commissioner.
“What a fool he must have looked!” wheezed MacTurk, who did not like the Deputy-Commissioner. “What a fool he must have looked!
“What a fool he must have looked!” wheezed MacTurk, who wasn’t fond of the Deputy-Commissioner. “What a fool he must have looked!”
290“Simple enough,” said MacTurk, “when you know how it came about.”
290 “It's pretty straightforward,” said MacTurk, “once you understand how it happened.”
“But how did it come about?” asked the station-master.
“But how did it happen?” asked the station-master.
“Secret drinking,” said MacTurk. “Bourbon whiskey. I taught him how to take it myself. But he didn’t dare let on that he was doing it, poor old chap! Mindapore’s one of the most fanatically Mahometan states in the hills you see. And he always was a secretive kind of chap, and given to doing things by himself. So he got that safe to hide it in, and keep the bottles. Broke ’em up to pack, I s’pose, when it got too full. Lord! I might ha’ known. When people spoke of his treasure—I never thought of putting that and the safe and the Bourbon together! But how plain it is! And what a sell for Parkinson. Pounded glass! The accumulation of years! Lord!—I’d, ’a’ given a couple of stone off my weight to see him open that safe!”
“Secret drinking,” said MacTurk. “Bourbon whiskey. I taught him how to drink it myself. But he didn’t dare let anyone know he was doing it, poor guy! Mindapore’s one of the most fanatically Muslim places in the hills, you see. And he always was a secretive kind of guy, and liked to do things on his own. So he got that safe to hide it in and keep the bottles. He probably broke them up to pack when it got too full. Wow! I should have guessed. When people talked about his treasure—I never connected that with the safe and the bourbon! But it's so obvious! And what a trick it was for Parkinson. Ground glass! The buildup from years! Wow! I would have given a couple of stone off my weight to see him open that safe!”
THE STORY OF DAVIDSON’S EYES
I
The transitory mental aberration of Sidney Davidson, remarkable enough in itself, is still more remarkable if Wade’s explanation is to be credited. It sets one dreaming of the oddest possibilities of intercommunication in the future, of spending an intercalary five minutes on the other side of the world, or being watched in our most secret operations by unsuspected eyes. It happened that I was the immediate witness of Davidson’s seizure, and so it falls naturally to me to put the story upon paper.
The temporary mental disturbance of Sidney Davidson, impressive in its own right, becomes even more intriguing if we take Wade’s explanation seriously. It makes one think about the strangest possibilities of communication in the future, like spending an extra five minutes on the other side of the world, or being observed in our most private moments by unseen eyes. I happened to be the closest witness to Davidson’s episode, so it’s only natural that I should write down the story.
When I say that I was the immediate witness of his seizure, I mean that I was the first on the scene. The thing happened at the Harlow Technical College just beyond the Highgate Archway. He was alone in the larger laboratory when the thing happened. I was in the smaller room, where the balances are, writing up some notes. The thunderstorm had completely upset my work, of course. It was just after one of the louder peals that I thought I heard some glass smash in the other room. I stopped writing, and turned round to listen. For a moment I heard nothing; the hail was playing the devil’s tattoo on the corrugated 292zinc of the roof. Then came another sound, a smash—no doubt of it this time. Something heavy had been knocked off the bench. I jumped up at once and went and opened the door leading into the big laboratory.
When I say I was there when he had his seizure, I mean I was the first one to arrive. It happened at Harlow Technical College, just past Highgate Archway. He was alone in the larger lab when it occurred. I was in the smaller room where the scales are, jotting down some notes. The thunderstorm had completely disrupted my work, of course. It was just after one of the louder thunderclaps that I thought I heard some glass break in the other room. I stopped writing and turned around to listen. For a moment, I heard nothing; the hail was beating a crazy rhythm on the corrugated 292 zinc roof. Then I heard another sound, a crash—no doubt about it this time. Something heavy had fallen off the bench. I jumped up immediately and opened the door to the big lab.
I was surprised to hear a queer sort of laugh, and saw Davidson standing unsteadily in the middle of the room, with a dazzled look on his face. My first impression was that he was drunk. He did not notice me. He was clawing out at something invisible a yard in front of his face. He put out his hand, slowly, rather hesitatingly, and then clutched nothing. “What’s come to it?” he said. He held up his hands to his face, fingers spread out. “Great Scott!” he said. The thing happened three or four years ago, when every one swore by that personage. Then he began raising his feet clumsily, as though he had expected to find them glued to the floor.
I was surprised to hear a strange kind of laugh and saw Davidson standing unsteadily in the middle of the room, with a dazed look on his face. My first thought was that he was drunk. He didn’t notice me. He was reaching out for something invisible about a yard in front of him. He slowly extended his hand, seeming unsure, and then grabbed at nothing. “What’s going on?” he said. He held his hands up to his face, fingers spread out. “Oh my God!” he exclaimed. This happened three or four years ago, when everyone was talking about that person. Then he awkwardly started lifting his feet, as if he expected them to be stuck to the floor.
“Davidson!” cried I. “What’s the matter with you?” He turned round in my direction and looked about for me. He looked over me and at me and on either side of me, without the slightest sign of seeing me. “Waves,” he said; “and a remarkably neat schooner. I’d swear that was Bellows’s voice. Hullo!” He shouted suddenly at the top of his voice.
“Davidson!” I yelled. “What’s wrong with you?” He turned to my direction and looked around for me. He scanned past me, at me, and on either side of me, without showing any sign of actually seeing me. “Waves,” he said, “and a really neat schooner. I’d swear that was Bellows’s voice. Hey!” He suddenly shouted at the top of his lungs.
I thought he was up to some foolery. Then I saw littered about his feet the shattered remains of the best of our electrometers. “What’s up, 293man?” said I. “You’ve smashed the electrometer!”
I thought he was just messing around. Then I saw the broken pieces of our best electrometer scattered around his feet. “What’s going on, 293man?” I said. “You’ve destroyed the electrometer!”
“Bellows again!” said he. “Friends left, if my hands are gone. Something about electrometers. Which way are you, Bellows?” He suddenly came staggering towards me. “The damned stuff cuts like butter,” he said. He walked straight into the bench and recoiled. “None so buttery, that!” he said, and stood swaying.
“Bellows again!” he exclaimed. “Friends are gone if my hands are. Something about electrometers. Which way are you, Bellows?” He suddenly staggered towards me. “The damn stuff cuts like butter,” he said. He walked straight into the bench and pulled back. “None so buttery as that!” he said, swaying as he stood.
I felt scared. “Davidson,” said I, “what on earth’s come over you?”
I felt scared. “Davidson,” I said, “what on earth has gotten into you?”
He looked round him in every direction. “I could swear that was Bellows. Why don’t you show yourself like a man, Bellows?”
He looked around him in every direction. “I could swear that was Bellows. Why don’t you show yourself like a man, Bellows?”
It occurred to me that he must be suddenly struck blind. I walked round the table and laid my hand upon his arm. I never saw a man more startled in my life. He jumped away from me, and came round into an attitude of self-defence, his face fairly distorted with terror. “Good God!” he cried. “What was that?”
It hit me that he must have suddenly gone blind. I walked around the table and touched his arm. I’ve never seen a man more shocked in my life. He jumped away from me and took a defensive stance, his face completely twisted in fear. “Oh my God!” he shouted. “What was that?”
“It’s I—Bellows. Confound it, Davidson!”
“It’s me—Bellows. Damn it, Davidson!”
He jumped when I answered him and stared—how can I express it?—right through me. He began talking, not to me, but to himself. “Here in broad daylight on a clear beach. Not a place to hide in.” He looked about him wildly. “Here! I’m off.” He suddenly turned and ran headlong into the big electro-magnet—so 294violently that, as we found afterwards, he bruised his shoulder and jawbone cruelly. At that he stepped back a pace, and cried out with almost a whimper, “What, in Heaven’s name, has come over me?” He stood, blanched with terror and trembling violently, with his right arm clutching his left, where that had collided with the magnet.
He jumped when I answered and stared—how can I put it?—right through me. He started talking, not to me, but to himself. “Here in broad daylight on a clear beach. Not a place to hide.” He looked around wildly. “Here! I’m outta here.” He suddenly turned and ran straight into the huge electromagnet—so violently that, as we found out later, he seriously bruised his shoulder and jaw. He stepped back a bit and cried out with almost a whimper, “What on Earth is happening to me?” He stood there, pale with fear and shaking violently, with his right arm clutching his left, where it had collided with the magnet.
By that time I was excited, and fairly excited. “Davidson,” said I, “don’t be afraid.”
By that time, I was really excited, and quite thrilled. “Davidson,” I said, “don’t be scared.”
He was startled at my voice, but not so excessively as before. I repeated my words in as clear and firm a tone as I could assume. “Bellows,” he said, “is that you?”
He was surprised by my voice, but not as much as before. I repeated my words in the clearest and firmest tone I could manage. “Bellows,” he said, “is that you?”
“Can’t you see it’s me?”
"Don't you see it's me?"
He laughed. “I can’t even see it’s myself. Where the devil are we?”
He laughed. “I can’t even recognize myself. Where on earth are we?”
“Here,” said I, “in the laboratory.”
“Here,” I said, “in the lab.”
“The laboratory!” he answered, in a puzzled tone, and put his hand to his forehead. “I was in the laboratory—till that flash came, but I’m hanged if I’m there now. What ship is that?”
“The laboratory!” he replied, confused, and touched his forehead. “I was in the laboratory—until that flash hit, but I can’t figure out where I am now. What ship is that?”
“There’s no ship,” said I. “Do be sensible, old chap.”
“There’s no ship,” I said. “Come on, be reasonable, buddy.”
“No ship!” he repeated, and seemed to forget my denial forthwith. “I suppose,” said he, slowly, “we’re both dead. But the rummy part is I feel just as though I still had a body. Don’t get used to it all at once, I suppose. The old shop was struck by lightning, I suppose. Jolly quick thing, Bellows—eigh?”
“No ship!” he repeated, and instantly seemed to ignore my denial. “I guess,” he said slowly, “we're both dead. But the weird part is I feel just like I still have a body. I suppose you don’t get used to it all at once. The old place was hit by lightning, I guess. Pretty quick thing, Bellows—right?”
295“Don’t talk nonsense. You’re very much alive. You are in the laboratory, blundering about. You’ve just smashed a new electrometer. I don’t envy you when Boyce arrives.”
295“Stop talking nonsense. You’re very much alive. You’re in the lab, stumbling around. You just broke a new electrometer. I don’t envy you when Boyce shows up.”
He stared away from me towards the diagrams of cryohydrates. “I must be deaf,” said he. “They’ve fired a gun, for there goes the puff of smoke, and I never heard a sound.”
He looked away from me at the diagrams of cryohydrates. "I must be deaf," he said. "They fired a gun; there's the puff of smoke, and I didn't hear a thing."
I put my hand on his arm again, and this time he was less alarmed. “We seem to have a sort of invisible bodies,” said he. “By Jove! there’s a boat coming round the headland! It’s very much like the old life after all—in a different climate.”
I placed my hand on his arm again, and this time he was less startled. “It feels like we have some kind of invisible bodies,” he said. “Wow! There’s a boat coming around the headland! It’s actually quite similar to the old life—just in a different setting.”
I shook his arm. “Davidson,” I cried, “wake up!”
I shook his arm. “Davidson,” I shouted, “wake up!”
II
It was just then that Boyce came in. So soon as he spoke Davidson exclaimed: “Old Boyce! Dead too! What a lark!” I hastened to explain that Davidson was in a kind of somnambulistic trance. Boyce was interested at once. We both did all we could to rouse the fellow out of his extraordinary state. He answered our questions, and asked us some of his own, but his attention seemed distracted by his hallucination about a beach and a ship. He kept interpolating observations concerning some boat and the davits and sails filling with the wind. It made one feel queer, 296in the dusky laboratory, to hear him saying such things.
It was just then that Boyce walked in. As soon as he spoke, Davidson shouted, “Old Boyce! Dead too! What a joke!” I quickly tried to explain that Davidson was in a sort of daze. Boyce was immediately intrigued. We both did everything we could to bring him out of his strange state. He responded to our questions and asked some of his own, but his focus seemed to be pulled away by his vision of a beach and a ship. He kept throwing in comments about some boat and the davits and sails catching the wind. It felt odd in the dimly lit lab to hear him saying such things. 296
He was blind and helpless. We had to walk him down the passage, one at each elbow, to Boyce’s private room, and while Boyce talked to him there, and humoured him about this ship idea, I went along the corridor and asked old Wade to come and look at him. The voice of our Dean sobered him a little, but not very much. He asked where his hands were, and why he had to walk about up to his waist in the ground. Wade thought over him a long time—you know how he knits his brows—and then made him feel the couch, guiding his hands to it. “That’s a couch,” said Wade. “The couch in the private room of Professor Boyce. Horsehair stuffing.”
He was blind and helpless. We had to guide him down the hallway, one of us at each elbow, to Boyce’s private room. While Boyce talked to him and joked about the ship idea, I went down the corridor to ask old Wade to come take a look at him. The voice of our Dean made him a bit more serious, but not by much. He asked where his hands were and why he felt like he was walking around waist-deep in the ground. Wade thought for a long time—you know how he knits his brows—then helped him feel the couch, guiding his hands to it. “That’s a couch,” Wade said. “The couch in Professor Boyce’s private room. Horsehair stuffing.”
Davidson felt about, and puzzled over it, and answered presently that he could feel it all right, but he couldn’t see it.
Davidson thought about it, confused, and eventually replied that he could sense it just fine, but he couldn’t see it.
“What do you see?” asked Wade. Davidson said he could see nothing but a lot of sand and broken-up shells. Wade gave him some other things to feel, telling him what they were, and watching him keenly.
“What do you see?” asked Wade. Davidson said he could see nothing but a bunch of sand and broken shells. Wade handed him some other items to feel, explaining what they were, and watched him closely.
“The ship is almost hull down,” said Davidson, presently, apropos of nothing.
“The ship is almost out of sight,” said Davidson, suddenly, for no particular reason.
“Never mind the ship,” said Wade. “Listen to me, Davidson. Do you know what hallucination means?”
“Forget about the ship,” said Wade. “Pay attention to me, Davidson. Do you know what hallucination means?”
“Rather,” said Davidson.
"Actually," said Davidson.
297“Well, everything you see is hallucinatory.”
297“Well, everything you see is a hallucination.”
“Bishop Berkeley,” said Davidson.
“Bishop Berkeley,” Davidson said.
“Don’t mistake me,” said Wade. “You are alive, and in this room of Boyce’s. But something has happened to your eyes. You cannot see; you can feel and hear, but not see. Do you follow me?”
“Don’t get me wrong,” said Wade. “You’re alive, and you’re in this room with Boyce. But something has happened to your eyes. You can’t see; you can feel and hear, but you can’t see. Do you understand me?”
“It seems to me that I see too much.” Davidson rubbed his knuckles into his eyes. “Well?” he said.
“It feels like I see too much.” Davidson rubbed his knuckles into his eyes. “Well?” he said.
“That’s all. Don’t let it perplex you. Bellows, here, and I will take you home in a cab.”
“That’s it. Don’t let it confuse you. Bellows, come on, and I’ll get you home in a cab.”
“Wait a bit.” Davidson thought. “Help me to sit down,” said he, presently; “and now—I’m sorry to trouble you—but will you tell me all that over again?”
“Just a moment.” Davidson thought. “Can you help me sit down?” he said after a moment; “and now—I hate to bother you, but could you go through all that again?”
Wade repeated it very patiently. Davidson shut his eyes, and pressed his hands upon his forehead. “Yes,” said he. “It’s quite right. Now my eyes are shut I know you’re right. That’s you, Bellows, sitting by me on the couch. I’m in England again. And we’re in the dark.”
Wade said it again very patiently. Davidson closed his eyes and pressed his hands against his forehead. “Yes,” he said. “That’s correct. Now that my eyes are closed, I can tell you’re right. That’s you, Bellows, sitting next to me on the couch. I’m back in England. And it’s dark.”
Then he opened his eyes. “And there,” said he, “is the sun just rising, and the yards of the ship, and a tumbled sea, and a couple of birds flying. I never saw anything so real. And I’m sitting up to my neck in a bank of sand.”
Then he opened his eyes. “And look,” he said, “there’s the sun just rising, the ship's rigging, a choppy sea, and a couple of birds flying. I’ve never seen anything so real. And I’m sitting up to my neck in a pile of sand.”
He bent forward and covered his face with his hands. Then he opened his eyes again. “Dark sea and sunrise! And yet I’m sitting on a sofa in old Boyce’s room!—God help me!”
He leaned forward and covered his face with his hands. Then he opened his eyes again. “Dark sea and sunrise! And yet I’m sitting on a couch in old Boyce’s room!—God help me!”
III
That was the beginning. For three weeks this strange affection of Davidson’s eyes continued unabated. It was far worse than being blind. He was absolutely helpless, and had to be fed like a newly-hatched bird, and led about and undressed. If he attempted to move he fell over things or struck himself against walls or doors. After a day or so he got used to hearing our voices without seeing us, and willingly admitted he was at home, and that Wade was right in what he told him. My sister, to whom he was engaged, insisted on coming to see him, and would sit for hours every day while he talked about this beach of his. Holding her hand seemed to comfort him immensely. He explained that when we left the College and drove home,—he lived in Hampstead Village,—it appeared to him as if we drove right through a sandhill—it was perfectly black until he emerged again—and through rocks and trees and solid obstacles, and when he was taken to his own room it made him giddy and almost frantic with the fear of falling, because going upstairs seemed to lift him thirty or forty feet above the rocks of his imaginary island. He kept saying he should smash all the eggs. The end was that he had to be taken down into his father’s consulting room and laid upon a couch that stood there.
That was the beginning. For three weeks, Davidson's strange affection for his eyes didn’t let up. It was much worse than being blind. He was completely helpless and had to be fed like a newly-hatched bird, guided around, and undressed. If he tried to move, he would trip over things or bang into walls and doors. After a day or so, he got used to hearing our voices without seeing us and willingly admitted he was at home, agreeing that Wade was right about what he told him. My sister, to whom he was engaged, insisted on visiting him and would sit for hours every day while he talked about his beach. Holding her hand seemed to bring him immense comfort. He explained that when we left the College and drove home—he lived in Hampstead Village—it felt to him like we drove right through a sandhill—it was completely dark until he came out on the other side—and through rocks and trees and solid obstacles. When he was taken to his own room, it made him dizzy and almost frantic with the fear of falling, because going upstairs felt like it lifted him thirty or forty feet above the rocks of his imaginary island. He kept saying he should smash all the eggs. In the end, he had to be taken down into his father's consulting room and laid on a couch that was there.
He described the island as being a bleak kind 299of place on the whole, with very little vegetation, except some peaty stuff, and a lot of bare rock. There were multitudes of penguins, and they made the rocks white and disagreeable to see. The sea was often rough, and once there was a thunderstorm, and he lay and shouted at the silent flashes. Once or twice seals pulled up on the beach, but only on the first two or three days. He said it was very funny the way in which the penguins used to waddle right through him, and how he seemed to lie among them without disturbing them.
He described the island as a pretty desolate place overall, with very little plant life, except for some peat, and lots of bare rock. There were tons of penguins, and they made the rocks look white and unpleasant. The sea was often rough, and once there was a thunderstorm, and he lay there shouting at the silent flashes. A couple of times seals came up on the beach, but only during the first two or three days. He thought it was hilarious how the penguins would waddle right past him, and how he seemed to just lie there among them without bothering them.
I remember one odd thing, and that was when he wanted very badly to smoke. We put a pipe in his hands—he almost poked his eye out with it—and lit it. But he couldn’t taste anything. I’ve since found it’s the same with me—I don’t know if it’s the usual case—that I cannot enjoy tobacco at all unless I can see the smoke.
I remember one strange thing, and that was when he really wanted to smoke. We put a pipe in his hands—he almost poked his eye out with it—and lit it. But he couldn’t taste anything. I’ve since realized it’s the same for me—I don’t know if it’s normal—but I can't enjoy tobacco at all unless I can see the smoke.
But the queerest part of his vision came when Wade sent him out in a bath-chair to get fresh air. The Davidsons hired a chair, and got that deaf and obstinate dependent of theirs, Widgery, to attend to it. Widgery’s ideas of healthy expeditions were peculiar. My sister, who had been to the Dog’s Home, met them in Camden Town, towards King’s Cross. Widgery trotting along complacently, and Davidson evidently most distressed, trying in his feeble, blind way to attract Widgery’s attention.
But the strangest part of his experience came when Wade sent him out in a wheelchair to get some fresh air. The Davidsons rented a chair and got their stubborn, hard-of-hearing helper, Widgery, to manage it. Widgery's ideas of healthy outings were unusual. My sister, who had visited the Dog’s Home, spotted them in Camden Town, near King’s Cross. Widgery trotting along confidently, while Davidson looked extremely upset, trying in his frail, blind way to get Widgery’s attention.
He positively wept when my sister spoke to him. 300“Oh, get me out of this horrible darkness!” he said, feeling for her hand. “I must get out of it, or I shall die.” He was quite incapable of explaining what was the matter, but my sister decided he must go home, and presently, as they went up the hill towards Hampstead, the horror seemed to drop from him. He said it was good to see the stars again, though it was then about noon and a blazing day.
He was really crying when my sister talked to him. 300“Oh, please get me out of this terrible darkness!” he said, reaching for her hand. “I need to get out of it, or I’ll die.” He couldn’t explain what was wrong, but my sister decided he needed to go home, and eventually, as they walked up the hill toward Hampstead, the fear seemed to lift from him. He said it felt good to see the stars again, even though it was around noon and a really hot day.
“It seemed,” he told me afterwards, “as if I was being carried irresistibly towards the water. I was not very much alarmed at first. Of course it was night there—a lovely night.”
“It felt,” he told me later, “like I was being pulled uncontrollably toward the water. I wasn’t too worried at first. It was nighttime there—an amazing night.”
“Of course?” I asked, for that struck me as odd.
“Of course?” I asked, since that seemed strange to me.
“Of course,” said he. “It’s always night there when it is day here— Well, we went right into the water, which was calm and shining under the moonlight—just a broad swell that seemed to grow broader and flatter as I came down into it. The surface glistened just like a skin—it might have been empty space underneath for all I could tell to the contrary. Very slowly, for I rode slanting into it, the water crept up to my eyes. Then I went under, and the skin seemed to break and heal again about my eyes. The moon gave a jump up in the sky and grew green and dim, and fish, faintly glowing, came darting round me—and things that seemed made of luminous glass, and I passed through a tangle of seaweeds that shone with 301an oily lustre. And so I drove down into the sea, and the stars went out one by one, and the moon grew greener and darker, and the seaweed became a luminous purple-red. It was all very faint and mysterious, and everything seemed to quiver. And all the while I could hear the wheels of the bath-chair creaking, and the footsteps of people going by, and a man with a bell crying coals.
“Of course,” he said. “It’s always night there when it’s day here— Well, we went right into the water, which was calm and sparkling under the moonlight—just a broad swell that seemed to get wider and flatter as I moved into it. The surface shimmered like a skin—it could have been empty space underneath for all I could tell. Very slowly, as I angled into it, the water rose to my eyes. Then I went under, and the skin seemed to break and mend around my eyes. The moon jumped up in the sky and turned green and dim, and fish, softly glowing, darted around me—along with things that looked like they were made of luminous glass, and I passed through a tangle of seaweed that shone with an oily sheen. And so I sank deeper into the sea, and the stars went out one by one, and the moon turned greener and darker, and the seaweed became a glowing purple-red. It was all very faint and mysterious, and everything seemed to quiver. And all the while, I could hear the wheels of the bath-chair creaking, the footsteps of people walking by, and a man with a bell calling for coals.
“I kept sinking down deeper and deeper into the water. It became inky black about me, not a ray from above came down into that darkness, and the phosphorescent things grew brighter and brighter. The snaky branches of the deeper weeds flickered like the flames of spirit lamps; but, after a time, there were no more weeds. The fishes came staring and gaping towards me, and into me and through me. I never imagined such fishes before. They had lines of fire along the sides of them as though they had been outlined with a luminous pencil. And there was a ghastly thing swimming backwards with a lot of twining arms. And then I saw, coming very slowly towards me through the gloom, a hazy mass of light that resolved itself as it drew nearer into multitudes of fishes, struggling and darting round something that drifted. I drove on straight towards it, and presently I saw in the midst of the tumult, and by the light of the fish, a bit of splintered spar looming over me, and a dark hull tilting over, and some glowing phosphorescent forms that were shaken and writhed as the 302fish bit at them. Then it was I began to try to attract Widgery’s attention. A horror came upon me. Ugh! I should have driven right into those half-eaten—things. If your sister had not come! They had great holes in them, Bellows, and—Never mind. But it was ghastly!”
“I kept sinking deeper and deeper into the water. It turned pitch black around me; not a single ray of light came down into that darkness, and the glowing creatures became brighter and brighter. The slithery branches of the deeper weeds flickered like the flames of spirit lamps; but eventually, there were no more weeds. The fish came, staring and gaping at me, into me, and through me. I’d never imagined such fish before. They had lines of fire along their sides as if outlined with a glowing pencil. And there was a grotesque creature swimming backward with a bunch of twisting arms. Then I saw, moving very slowly towards me through the darkness, a hazy mass of light that, as it got closer, resolved into countless fish, struggling and darting around something that was drifting. I swam straight toward it, and soon I saw in the midst of the chaos, illuminated by the fish, a piece of broken wood looming over me, a dark hull tipping over, and some glowing, phosphorescent shapes that were writhing as the fish bit at them. That’s when I started trying to get Widgery’s attention. A wave of horror washed over me. Ugh! I nearly swam right into those half-eaten things. If your sister hadn’t come! They had huge holes in them, Bellows, and—Never mind. But it was terrifying!”
IV
For three weeks Davidson remained in this singular state, seeing what at the time we imagined was an altogether phantasmal world, and stone blind to the world around him. Then, one Tuesday, when I called, I met old Davidson in the passage. “He can see his thumb!” the old gentleman said, in a perfect transport. He was struggling into his overcoat. “He can see his thumb, Bellows!” he said, with the tears in his eyes. “The lad will be all right yet.”
For three weeks, Davidson was in this strange state, perceiving what we thought was a completely imaginary world, completely unaware of the reality around him. Then, one Tuesday, when I visited, I ran into old Davidson in the hallway. "He can see his thumb!" the old man exclaimed, overjoyed. He was putting on his overcoat. "He can see his thumb, Bellows!" he said, with tears in his eyes. "The kid will be alright after all."
I rushed in to Davidson. He was holding up a little book before his face, and looking at it and laughing in a weak kind of way.
I rushed in to see Davidson. He was holding a small book up to his face, glancing at it and laughing lightly.
“It’s amazing,” said he. “There’s a kind of patch come there.” He pointed with his finger. “I’m on the rocks as usual, and the penguins are staggering and flapping about as usual, and there’s been a whale showing every now and then, but it’s got too dark now to make him out. But put something there, and I see it—I do see it. It’s very dim and broken in places, but I see it all the 303same, like a faint spectre of itself. I found it out this morning while they were dressing me. It’s like a hole in this infernal phantom world. Just put your hand by mine. No—not there. Ah! Yes! I see it. The base of your thumb and a bit of cuff! It looks like the ghost of a bit of your hand sticking out of the darkening sky. Just by it there’s a group of stars like a cross coming out.”
“It’s incredible,” he said. “There’s a kind of patch over there.” He pointed with his finger. “I’m on the rocks as usual, and the penguins are staggering and flapping around like always, and there’s been a whale showing up every now and then, but it’s too dark now to see him. But put something there, and I see it—I really see it. It’s very faint and broken in places, but I see it all the 303same, like a dim ghost of itself. I discovered it this morning while they were dressing me. It’s like a hole in this damn phantom world. Just put your hand next to mine. No—not there. Ah! Yes! I see it. The base of your thumb and a bit of your cuff! It looks like the ghost of a piece of your hand reaching out from the darkening sky. Right next to it there’s a group of stars that looks like a cross appearing.”
From that time Davidson began to mend. His account of the change, like his account of the vision, was oddly convincing. Over patches of his field of vision the phantom world grew fainter, grew transparent, as it were, and through these translucent gaps he began to see dimly the real world about him. The patches grew in size and number, ran together and spread until only here and there were blind spots left upon his eyes. He was able to get up and steer himself about, feed himself once more, read, smoke, and behave like an ordinary citizen again. At first it was very confusing to him to have these two pictures overlapping each other like the changing views of a lantern, but in a little while he began to distinguish the real from the illusory.
From that time, Davidson started to improve. His description of the change, like his description of the vision, was surprisingly convincing. Over parts of his field of vision, the phantom world became fainter and more transparent, and through these clear gaps, he began to dimly see the real world around him. The patches increased in size and number, merged together, and spread out until only a few blind spots remained. He was able to get up and move around, feed himself again, read, smoke, and act like a normal citizen. At first, it was very confusing for him to have these two images overlapping like the changing views of a lantern, but soon he started to recognize the real from the illusionary.
At first he was unfeignedly glad, and seemed only too anxious to complete his cure by taking exercise and tonics. But as that odd island of his began to fade away from him, he became queerly interested in it. He wanted particularly to go 304down into the deep sea again, and would spend half his time wandering about the low-lying parts of London, trying to find the water-logged wreck he had seen drifting. The glare of real daylight very soon impressed him so vividly as to blot out everything of his shadowy world, but of a night-time, in a darkened room, he could still see the white-splashed rocks of the island, and the clumsy penguins staggering to and fro. But even these grew fainter and fainter, and, at last, soon after he married my sister, he saw them for the last time.
At first, he was honestly happy and seemed eager to finish his recovery by getting some exercise and taking tonics. But as that strange island of his started to fade from his memory, he became oddly fascinated by it. He especially wanted to go back down into the deep sea and spent a lot of his time wandering around the low areas of London, looking for the waterlogged wreck he had seen drifting. The bright light of the real world quickly overwhelmed him, erasing everything from his shadowy memories, but at night, in a dark room, he could still picture the white-splashed rocks of the island and the awkward penguins waddling around. However, even those memories grew fainter and fainter, and soon after he married my sister, he saw them for the last time.
V
And now to tell of the queerest thing of all. About two years after his cure, I dined with the Davidsons, and after dinner a man named Atkins called in. He is a lieutenant in the Royal Navy, and a pleasant, talkative man. He was on friendly terms with my brother-in-law, and was soon on friendly terms with me. It came out that he was engaged to Davidson’s cousin, and incidentally he took out a kind of pocket photograph case to show us a new rendering of his fiancée. “And, by-the-by,” said he, “here’s the old Fulmar.”
And now to share the strangest thing of all. About two years after his recovery, I had dinner with the Davidsons, and after dinner, a man named Atkins stopped by. He's a lieutenant in the Royal Navy and a friendly, chatty guy. He was on good terms with my brother-in-law and quickly got on well with me too. We learned that he was engaged to Davidson’s cousin, and by the way, he pulled out a sort of pocket photo case to show us a new picture of his fiancé. “And, by the way,” he said, “here’s the old Fulmar.”
Davidson looked at it casually. Then suddenly his face lit up. “Good heavens!” said he. “I could almost swear—”
Davidson looked at it nonchalantly. Then, all of a sudden, his face lit up. “Wow!” he exclaimed. “I could almost swear—”
“What?” said Atkins.
“What?” Atkins asked.
“That I had seen that ship before.”
“That I had seen that ship before.”
305“Don’t see how you can have. She hasn’t been out of the South Seas for six years, and before then—”
305“I don’t understand how you could. She hasn’t been out of the South Seas for six years, and before that—”
“But,” began Davidson, and then, “Yes—that’s the ship I dreamt of. I’m sure that’s the ship I dreamt of. She was standing off an island that swarmed with penguins, and she fired a gun.”
“But,” started Davidson, and then, “Yeah—that’s the ship I dreamed of. I’m certain that’s the ship I dreamed of. She was anchored near an island packed with penguins, and she fired a cannon.”
“Good Lord!” said Atkins, who had never heard the particulars of the seizure. “How the deuce could you dream that?”
“Good Lord!” said Atkins, who had never heard the details of the seizure. “How on earth could you dream that?”
And then, bit by bit, it came out that on the very day Davidson was seized, H. M. S. Fulmar had actually been off a little rock to the south of Antipodes Island. A boat had landed overnight to get penguins’ eggs, had been delayed, and a thunderstorm drifting up, the boat’s crew had waited until the morning before rejoining the ship. Atkins had been one of them, and he corroborated, word for word, the descriptions Davidson had given of the island and the boat. There is not the slightest doubt in any of our minds that Davidson has really seen the place. In some unaccountable way, while he moved hither and thither in London, his sight moved hither and thither in a manner that corresponded, about this distant island. How is absolutely a mystery.
And then, little by little, it came to light that on the exact day Davidson was captured, H. M. S. Fulmar had actually been near a small rock south of Antipodes Island. A boat had landed overnight to collect penguin eggs, got delayed, and with a thunderstorm approaching, the crew decided to wait until morning before heading back to the ship. Atkins was one of them, and he confirmed, word for word, the descriptions Davidson had provided about the island and the boat. There is no doubt in any of our minds that Davidson truly saw the place. In some inexplicable way, while he was moving around in London, his sight seemed to connect with this distant island. How is completely a mystery.
That completes the remarkable story of Davidson’s eyes. It is perhaps the best authenticated case in existence of a real vision at a distance. Explanation there is none forthcoming, except 306what Professor Wade has thrown out. But his explanation invokes the Fourth Dimension, and a dissertation on theoretical kinds of space. To talk of there being “a kink in space” seems mere nonsense to me; it may be because I am no mathematician. When I said that nothing would alter the fact that the place is eight thousand miles away, he answered that two points might be a yard away on a sheet of paper and yet be brought together by bending the paper round. The reader may grasp his argument, but I certainly do not. His idea seems to be that Davidson, stooping between the poles of the big electro-magnet, had some extraordinary twist given to his retinal elements through the sudden change in the field of force due to the lightning.
That wraps up the incredible story of Davidson’s eyes. It's probably the most well-documented case of real long-distance vision out there. There’s no clear explanation, except for what Professor Wade has suggested. But his explanation brings in the Fourth Dimension and a whole discussion on theoretical types of space. Talking about “a kink in space” sounds like nonsense to me; maybe that’s because I’m not a mathematician. When I said that nothing could change the fact that the place is eight thousand miles away, he replied that two points might be a yard apart on a piece of paper, yet they could be connected by bending the paper. The reader might understand his point, but I certainly don’t. His idea seems to be that Davidson, leaning between the poles of the large electro-magnet, experienced some unusual twist in his retinal elements due to the sudden change in the field of force caused by the lightning.
He thinks, as a consequence of this, that it may be possible to live visually in one part of the world, while one lives bodily in another. He has even made some experiments in support of his views; but, so far, he has simply succeeded in blinding a few dogs. I believe that is the net result of his work, though I have not seen him for some weeks. Latterly, I have been so busy with my work in connection with the Saint Pancras installation that I have had little opportunity of calling to see him. But the whole of his theory seems fantastic to me. The facts concerning Davidson stand on an altogether different footing, and I can testify personally to the accuracy of every detail I have given.
He thinks that it might be possible to experience one part of the world visually while living physically in another. He has even conducted some experiments to support his ideas, but so far, he’s only managed to blind a few dogs. I believe that’s the main outcome of his work, although I haven’t seen him in a few weeks. Recently, I've been so busy with my work related to the Saint Pancras installation that I haven't had much chance to visit him. But his whole theory seems unrealistic to me. The facts about Davidson are on a completely different level, and I can personally confirm the accuracy of every detail I’ve provided.
THE CONE
The night was hot and overcast, the sky redrimmed with the lingering sunset of midsummer. They sat at the open window trying to fancy the air was fresher there. The trees and shrubs of the garden stood stiff and dark; beyond in the roadway a gas lamp burnt, bright orange against the hazy blue of the evening. Further were the three lights of the railway signal against the lowering sky. The man and woman spoke to one another in low tones.
The night was hot and cloudy, with the sky still glowing from the fading midsummer sunset. They sat by the open window, trying to convince themselves that the air felt fresher there. The trees and bushes in the garden stood still and dark; beyond them, a streetlamp shone bright orange against the hazy blue of the evening. In the distance were the three lights of the railway signal against the dimming sky. The man and woman spoke to each other in quiet voices.
“He does not suspect?” said the man, a little nervously.
“He doesn't suspect?” said the man, a bit nervously.
“Not he,” she said peevishly, as though that too irritated her. “He thinks of nothing but the works and the prices of fuel. He has no imagination, no poetry—”
“Not him,” she said irritably, as if that also annoyed her. “He thinks about nothing but the work and the cost of fuel. He has no imagination, no poetry—”
“None of these men of iron have,” he said sententiously. “They have no hearts.”
“None of these tough guys have,” he said decisively. “They have no feelings.”
“He has not,” she said. She turned her discontented face towards the window. The distant sound of a roaring and rushing drew nearer and grew in volume; the house quivered; one heard the metallic rattle of the tender. As the train passed there was a glare of light above the cutting 308and a driving tumult of smoke; one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight black oblongs—eight trucks—passed across the dim grey of the embankment, and were suddenly extinguished one by one in the throat of the tunnel, which, with the last, seemed to swallow down train, smoke, and sound in one abrupt gulp.
“He hasn’t,” she said. She turned her unhappy face towards the window. The distant sound of a roaring and rushing got closer and louder; the house shook; you could hear the metallic clatter of the train cars. As the train went by, there was a flash of light above the cutting and a heavy cloud of smoke; one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight black rectangles—eight cars—crossed the dull grey of the embankment, and then were suddenly swallowed one by one in the mouth of the tunnel, which, with the last, seemed to gulp down the train, smoke, and sound all at once. 308
“This country was all fresh and beautiful once,” he said; “and now—it is Gehenna. Down that way—nothing but pot-banks and chimneys belching fire and dust into the face of heaven— But what does it matter? An end comes, an end to all this cruelty—to-morrow.” He spoke the last word in a whisper.
“This country was once so fresh and beautiful,” he said; “and now—it’s hell on earth. Down that way—nothing but pottery factories and chimneys spewing fire and dust into the sky— But what does it matter? An end comes, an end to all this cruelty—tomorrow.” He spoke the last word in a whisper.
“To-morrow,” she said, speaking in a whisper too, and still staring out of the window.
“Tomorrow,” she said, whispering as well, and still staring out the window.
“Dear!” he said, putting his hand on hers.
“Hey!” he said, placing his hand on hers.
She turned with a start, and their eyes searched one another’s. Hers softened to his gaze. “My dear one,” she said, and then: “It seems so strange—that you should have come into my life like this—to open—” She paused.
She turned quickly, and their eyes met each other. Hers softened under his gaze. “My dear,” she said, and then: “It feels so strange—that you arrived in my life like this—to open—” She paused.
“To open?” he said.
“Open?” he asked.
“All this wonderful world—” she hesitated and spoke still more softly—“this world of love to me.”
“All this amazing world—” she hesitated and spoke even more softly—“this world of love to me.”
Then suddenly the door clicked and closed. They turned their heads, and he started violently back. In the shadow of the room stood a great shadowy figure—silent. They saw the face dimly 309in the half-light, with unexpressive dark patches under the pent-house brows. Every muscle in Raut’s body suddenly became tense. When could the door have opened? What had he heard? Had he heard all? What had he seen? A tumult of questions.
Then suddenly the door clicked and shut. They turned their heads, and he jerked back in shock. In the shadows of the room stood a large, indistinct figure—silent. They could make out the face faintly in the half-light, with dark, unreadable patches beneath its brow. Every muscle in Raut’s body tensed up. When could the door have opened? What had he heard? Had he heard everything? What had he seen? A whirlwind of questions.
The new-comer’s voice came at last, after a pause that seemed interminable. “Well?” he said.
The newcomer finally spoke up after what felt like an endless pause. “Well?” he said.
“I was afraid I had missed you, Horrocks,” said the man at the window, gripping the window-ledge with his hand. His voice was unsteady.
“I was worried I had missed you, Horrocks,” said the man at the window, gripping the ledge with his hand. His voice was shaky.
The clumsy figure of Horrocks came forward out of the shadow. He made no answer to Raut’s remark. For a moment he stood above them.
The awkward figure of Horrocks stepped out of the shadow. He didn’t respond to Raut’s comment. For a moment, he loomed over them.
The woman’s heart was cold within her. “I told Mr. Raut it was just possible you might come back,” she said, in a voice that never quivered.
The woman's heart was cold inside her. “I told Mr. Raut it was possible you might come back,” she said, in a voice that didn’t waver.
Horrocks, still silent, sat down abruptly in the chair by her little work-table. His big hands were clenched; one saw now the fire of his eyes under the shadow of his brows. He was trying to get his breath. His eyes went from the woman he had trusted to the friend he had trusted, and then back to the woman.
Horrocks, still quiet, suddenly sat down in the chair next to her small worktable. His large hands were clenched; you could now see the intensity in his eyes beneath his furrowed brows. He was trying to catch his breath. His gaze shifted from the woman he had trusted to the friend he had trusted, and then back to the woman.
By this time and for the moment all three half understood one another. Yet none dared say a word to ease the pent-up things that choked them.
By this time, all three of them somewhat understood each other. Still, none of them dared to say anything to ease the bottled-up feelings that were suffocating them.
310It was the husband’s voice that broke the silence at last.
310It was the husband’s voice that finally broke the silence.
“You wanted to see me?” he said to Raut.
“You wanted to see me?” he asked Raut.
Raut started as he spoke. “I came to see you,” he said, resolved to lie to the last.
Raut started as he spoke. “I came to see you,” he said, determined to lie until the end.
“Yes?” said Horrocks.
"Yes?" Horrocks replied.
“You promised,” said Raut, “to show me some fine effects of moonlight and smoke.”
“You promised,” Raut said, “to show me some cool effects of moonlight and smoke.”
“I promised to show you some fine effects of moonlight and smoke,” repeated Horrocks, in a colourless voice.
“I promised to show you some amazing effects of moonlight and smoke,” repeated Horrocks, in a flat voice.
“And I thought I might catch you to-night before you went down to the works,” proceeded Raut, “and come with you.”
“And I thought I might catch you tonight before you went down to the works,” Raut continued, “and come with you.”
There was another pause. Did the man mean to take the thing coolly? Did he after all know? How long had he been in the room? Yet even at the moment when they heard the door, their attitudes—Horrocks glanced at the profile of the woman, shadowy pallid in the half-light. Then he glanced at Raut, and seemed to recover himself suddenly. “Of course,” he said, “I promised to show you the works under their proper dramatic conditions. It’s odd how I could have forgotten.”
There was another pause. Did the man plan to stay calm about it? Did he actually know? How long had he been in the room? Yet at the moment they heard the door, their stances changed—Horrocks looked at the woman’s face, pale and shadowy in the dim light. Then he looked at Raut and seemed to snap back to reality. “Of course,” he said, “I promised to show you the works under the right dramatic conditions. It’s strange how I could have forgotten.”
“If I’m troubling you—” began Raut.
“If I’m bothering you—” began Raut.
Horrocks started again. A new light had suddenly come into the sultry gloom of his eyes. “Not in the least,” he said.
Horrocks began again. A new spark had suddenly appeared in the heavy darkness of his eyes. “Not at all,” he said.
“Have you been telling Mr. Raut of all these 311contrasts of flame and shadow you think so splendid?” said the woman, turning now to her husband for the first time, her confidence creeping back again, her voice just one half-note too high. “That dreadful theory of yours that machinery is beautiful and everything else in the world ugly. I thought he would not spare you, Mr. Raut. It’s his great Theory, his one discovery in Art—”
“Have you been explaining to Mr. Raut all these contrasts of light and shadow that you find so amazing?” said the woman, finally turning to her husband, her confidence returning but her voice slightly strained. “That awful idea of yours that machines are beautiful and everything else in the world is ugly. I figured he wouldn’t hold back on you, Mr. Raut. It’s his big Theory, his only discovery in Art—”
“I am slow to make discoveries,” said Horrocks, grimly, damping her suddenly. “But what I discover—” He stopped.
“I take my time to make discoveries,” said Horrocks, flatly, putting a damper on her enthusiasm. “But what I do discover—” He paused.
“Well?” she said.
"Well?" she said.
“Nothing,” and suddenly he rose to his feet.
“Nothing,” and suddenly he got up.
“I promised to show you the works,” he said to Raut, and put his big, clumsy hand on his friend’s shoulder. “And you are ready to go?”
“I promised to show you the works,” he said to Raut, placing his large, awkward hand on his friend’s shoulder. “Are you ready to go?”
“Quite,” said Raut, and stood up also.
“Definitely,” said Raut, and stood up too.
There was another pause. Each of them peered through the indistinctness of the dusk at the other two. Horrocks’s hand still rested on Raut’s shoulder. Raut half fancied still that the incident was trivial after all. But Mrs. Horrocks knew her husband better, knew that grim quiet in his voice, and the confusion in her mind took a vague shape of physical evil. “Very well,” said Horrocks, and, dropping his hand, turned towards the door.
There was another pause. Each of them looked through the haze of dusk at the other two. Horrocks’s hand still rested on Raut’s shoulder. Raut half convinced himself that the incident was trivial after all. But Mrs. Horrocks knew her husband better, recognized that grim quiet in his voice, and the confusion in her mind started to take on a vague form of physical danger. “Okay,” said Horrocks, and, dropping his hand, turned toward the door.
“My hat?” Raut looked round in the half-light.
“My hat?” Raut glanced around in the dim light.
312“That’s my work-basket,” said Mrs. Horrocks, with a gust of hysterical laughter. The hands came together on the back of the chair. “Here it is!” he said. She had an impulse to warn him in an undertone, but she could not frame a word. “Don’t go!” and “Beware of him!” struggled in her mind, and the swift moment passed.
312“That’s my work-basket,” Mrs. Horrocks said, bursting into hysterical laughter. Her hands rested on the back of the chair. “Here it is!” he exclaimed. She felt a strong urge to warn him quietly, but couldn’t find the words. “Don’t go!” and “Be careful of him!” battled in her mind, and the fleeting moment slipped away.
“Got it?” said Horrocks, standing with door half open.
“Got it?” Horrocks said, standing with the door half open.
Raut stepped towards him. “Better say good-bye to Mrs. Horrocks,” said the ironmaster, even more grimly quiet in his tone than before.
Raut walked over to him. “You should probably say goodbye to Mrs. Horrocks,” the ironmaster said, with an even quieter and more serious tone than before.
Raut started and turned. “Good evening, Mrs. Horrocks,” he said, and their hands touched.
Raut started and turned. “Good evening, Mrs. Horrocks,” he said, and their hands touched.
Horrocks held the door open with a ceremonial politeness unusual in him towards men. Raut went out and then, after a wordless look at her, her husband followed. She stood motionless while Raut’s light footfall and her husband’s heavy tread, like bass and treble, passed down the passage together. The front door slammed heavily. She went to the window, moving slowly, and stood watching—leaning forward. The two men appeared for a moment at the gateway in the road, passed under the street lamp, and were hidden by the black masses of the shrubbery. The lamplight fell for a moment on their faces, showing only unmeaning pale 313patches, telling nothing of what she still feared, and doubted, and craved vainly to know. Then she sank down into a crouching attitude in the big arm-chair, her eyes wide open and staring out at the red lights from the furnaces that flickered in the sky. An hour after she was still there, her attitude scarcely changed.
Horrocks held the door open with an unusually formal politeness towards men. Raut went out, and then, after sharing a silent glance with her, her husband followed. She stood still while Raut’s light footsteps and her husband’s heavy steps, like bass and treble, moved down the hallway together. The front door slammed heavily. She walked slowly to the window and stood watching—leaning forward. The two men appeared for a moment in the gateway on the road, passed under the streetlamp, and then were hidden by the dark shapes of the shrubbery. The lamplight briefly illuminated their faces, revealing only blank pale patches, not revealing any of what she still feared, doubted, or desperately wanted to understand. Then she sank into a crouched position in the large armchair, her eyes wide open and staring out at the red lights from the furnaces flickering in the sky. An hour later, she was still there, her position hardly changed.
The oppressive stillness of the evening weighed heavily upon Raut. They went side by side down the road in silence, and in silence turned into the cinder-made by-way that presently opened out the prospect of the valley.
The heavy stillness of the evening hung over Raut. They walked side by side down the road in silence and silently turned into the cinder-made back road that soon revealed the view of the valley.
A blue haze, half dust, half mist, touched the long valley with mystery. Beyond were Hanley and Etruria, grey and dark masses, outlined thinly by the rare golden dots of the street lamps, and here and there a gas-lit window, or the yellow glare of some late-working factory or crowded public-house. Out of the masses, clear and slender against the evening sky, rose a multitude of tall chimneys, many of them reeking, a few smokeless during a season of “play.” Here and there a pallid patch and ghostly stunted beehive shapes showed the position of a pot-bank, or a wheel, black and sharp against the hot lower sky, marked some colliery where they raise the iridescent coal of the place. Nearer at hand was the broad stretch of railway, and half invisible trains shunted—a steady puffing and rumbling, with every run a ringing concussion 314and a rhythmic series of impacts, and a passage of intermittent puffs of white steam across the further view. And to the left, between the railway and the dark mass of the low hill beyond, dominating the whole view, colossal, inky black, and crowned with smoke and fitful flames, stood the great cylinders of the Jeddah Company Blast Furnaces, the central edifices of the big ironworks of which Horrocks was the manager. They stood heavy and threatening, full of an incessant turmoil of flames and seething molten iron, and about the feet of them rattled the rolling mills, and the steam hammer beat heavily and splashed the white iron sparks hither and thither. Even as they looked a truckful of fuel was shot into one of the giants, and the red flames gleamed out, and a confusion of smoke and black dust came boiling upwards towards the sky.
A blue haze, part dust, part mist, enveloped the long valley in mystery. In the distance were Hanley and Etruria, gray and dark shapes, faintly highlighted by the rare golden dots of street lamps, and occasionally a lit window or the yellow glow from some late-running factory or busy pub. Out of these shapes, clear and tall against the evening sky, rose numerous smokestacks, many belching smoke, while a few stood smoke-free during a period of “play.” Here and there, pale patches and ghostly, stunted beehive forms indicated the location of a pottery, or a wheel, sharply outlined against the hot, low sky, marking some coal mine that produces the region's shimmering coal. Closer was the wide stretch of railway, where half-visible trains shuffled along—a constant puffing and rumbling, with each movement causing a ringing impact and a rhythmic sequence of thuds, accompanied by intermittent puffs of white steam crossing the distant view. To the left, between the railway and the dark mass of the low hill beyond, dominating the entire scene, stood the massive, black cylinders of the Jeddah Company Blast Furnaces, the central structures of the large ironworks managed by Horrocks. They loomed heavy and ominous, filled with a nonstop chaos of flames and bubbling molten iron, and at their base, the rolling mills rattled, while the steam hammer pounded heavily, sending white-hot iron sparks flying. Just then, a truckload of fuel was dumped into one of the giants, igniting bright red flames and sending a swirl of smoke and black dust boiling upward toward the sky.
“Certainly you get some fine effects of colour with your furnaces,” said Raut, breaking a silence that had become apprehensive.
“Sure, you get some great color effects with your furnaces,” said Raut, interrupting a silence that had turned tense.
Horrocks grunted. He stood with his hands in his pockets, frowning down at the dim steaming railway and the busy ironworks beyond, frowning as if he were thinking out some knotty problem.
Horrocks grunted. He stood with his hands in his pockets, frowning down at the dim, steaming railroad and the bustling ironworks in the distance, looking as if he was pondering a tough problem.
Raut glanced at him and away again. “At present your moonlight effect is hardly ripe,” he continued, looking upward; “the moon is still smothered by the vestiges of daylight.”
Raut glanced at him and then looked away again. “Right now, your moonlight effect isn’t quite ready,” he went on, looking up; “the moon is still covered by the remnants of daylight.”
315Horrocks stared at him with the expression of a man who has suddenly awakened. “Vestiges of daylight! Of course, of course.” He too looked up at the moon, pale still in the midsummer sky. “Come along,” he said suddenly, and, gripping Raut’s arm in his hand, made a move towards the path that dropped from them towards the railway.
315Horrocks stared at him like someone who just woke up. “Shadows of daylight! Of course, of course.” He also looked up at the moon, still pale in the midsummer sky. “Let’s go,” he said suddenly, and, grabbing Raut’s arm, started toward the path that led down to the railway.
Raut hung back. Their eyes met and saw a thousand things in a moment that their lips came near to say. Horrocks’s hand tightened and then relaxed. He left go, and before Raut was aware, they were arm in arm, and walking, one unwillingly enough, down the path.
Raut held back. Their eyes met and in that instant, they understood a thousand unsaid things. Horrocks’s hand tightened and then let go. Suddenly, before Raut even realized it, they were walking arm in arm down the path, one of them reluctant to be doing so.
“You see the fine effect of the railway signals towards Burslem,” said Horrocks, suddenly breaking into loquacity, striding fast and tightening the grip of his elbow the while. “Little green lights and red and white lights, all against the haze. You have an eye for effect, Raut. It’s a fine effect. And look at those furnaces of mine, how they rise upon us as we come down the hill. That to the right is my pet—seventy feet of him. I packed him myself, and he’s boiled away cheerfully with iron in his guts for five long years. I’ve a particular fancy for him. That line of red there,—a lovely bit of warm orange you’d call it, Raut,—that’s the puddler’s furnaces, and there, in the hot light, three black figures—did you see the white splash of the steam hammer then?—that’s 316the rolling mills. Come along! Clang, clatter, how it goes rattling across the floor! Sheet tin, Raut,—amazing stuff. Glass mirrors are not in it when that stuff comes from the mill. And, squelch!—there goes the hammer again. Come along!”
“You see the amazing effect of the railway signals toward Burslem,” Horrocks said, suddenly becoming chatty, striding quickly while tightening his elbow grip. “Little green lights and red and white lights, all against the haze. You’ve got an eye for effect, Raut. It really is a stunning effect. And look at my furnaces, how they rise up as we come down the hill. That one to the right is my favorite—seventy feet tall. I packed him myself, and he’s been running smoothly with iron in his guts for five long years. I have a special fondness for him. That line of red there—a lovely warm orange, you’d call it, Raut—that’s the puddler’s furnaces, and there, in the hot light, three black figures—did you see the white flash of the steam hammer just now?—that’s the rolling mills. Come on! Clang, clatter, listen to it rattling across the floor! Sheet tin, Raut—amazing stuff. Glass mirrors don’t compare when that stuff comes from the mill. And, squelch!—there goes the hammer again. Let’s go!”
He had to stop talking to catch at his breath. His arm twisted into Raut’s with benumbing tightness. He had come striding down the black path towards the railway as though he was possessed. Raut had not spoken a word, had simply hung back against Horrocks’s pull with all his strength.
He had to pause to catch his breath. His arm clamped tightly around Raut’s, feeling numb. He had marched down the dark path toward the railway as if he was driven by something. Raut hadn’t said a word; he just held back against Horrocks’s pull with all his strength.
“I say,” he said now, laughing nervously, but with an undernote of snarl in his voice, “why on earth are you nipping my arm off, Horrocks, and dragging me along like this?”
“I say,” he said now, laughing nervously, but with a hint of anger in his voice, “why on earth are you yanking my arm, Horrocks, and pulling me along like this?”
At length Horrocks released him. His manner changed again. “Nipping your arm off!” he said. “Sorry. But it’s you taught me the trick of walking in that friendly way.”
At last, Horrocks let him go. His tone shifted once more. “I almost took your arm off!” he said. “Sorry about that. But you’re the one who taught me how to walk in that friendly way.”
“You haven’t learnt the refinements of it yet then,” said Raut, laughing artificially again. “By Jove! I’m black and blue.” Horrocks offered no apology. They stood now near the bottom of the hill, close to the fence that bordered the railway. The ironworks had grown larger and spread out with their approach. They looked up to the blast furnaces now instead of down; the further view of Etruria and Hanley had dropped 317out of sight with their descent. Before them, by the stile, rose a notice board, bearing, still dimly visible, the words “BEWARE OF THE TRAINS,” half hidden by splashes of coaly mud.
“You haven't figured it out yet, have you?” Raut said, chuckling awkwardly again. “Wow! I'm bruised all over.” Horrocks didn’t apologize. They stood at the bottom of the hill, next to the fence that separated them from the railway. The ironworks had gotten bigger and spread out as they got closer. Now they were looking up at the blast furnaces instead of down; the view of Etruria and Hanley had vanished as they descended. In front of them, by the stile, was a notice board, with the words “WATCH OUT FOR THE TRAINS” still partially visible, mostly obscured by splashes of coal mud.
“Fine effects,” said Horrocks, waving his arm. “Here comes a train. The puffs of smoke, the orange glare, the round eye of light in front of it, the melodious rattle. Fine effects! But these furnaces of mine used to be finer, before we shoved cones in their throats and saved the gas.”
“Great effects,” said Horrocks, waving his arm. “Here comes a train. The puffs of smoke, the orange glow, the bright light in front of it, the musical rattle. Great effects! But my furnaces used to be better, before we stuffed cones in their throats and saved the gas.”
“How?” said Raut. “Cones?”
"How?" asked Raut. "Cones?"
“Cones, my man, cones. I’ll show you one nearer. The flames used to flare out of the open throats, great—what is it?—pillars of cloud by day, red and black smoke, and pillars of fire by night. Now we run it off in pipes and burn it to heat the blast, and the top is shut by a cone. You’ll be interested in that cone.”
“Cones, my dude, cones. I’ll show you one closer. The flames used to shoot out of the open throats, huge—what is it?—tall columns of smoke during the day, red and black fumes, and columns of fire at night. Now we channel it through pipes and burn it to heat the blast, and the top is capped by a cone. You’ll find that cone interesting.”
“But every now and then,” said Raut, “you get a burst of fire and smoke up there.”
“But every now and then,” said Raut, “you get a blast of fire and smoke up there.”
“The cone’s not fixed, it’s hung by a chain from a lever and balanced by an equipoise. You shall see it nearer. Else, of course, there’d be no way of getting fuel into the thing. Every now and then the cone dips and out comes the flare.”
“The cone isn’t fixed; it’s suspended by a chain from a lever and balanced by a counterweight. You’ll see it up close. Otherwise, there’d be no way to get fuel into it. Every now and then, the cone dips and the flare comes out.”
“I see,” said Raut. He looked over his shoulder. “The moon gets brighter,” he said.
“I see,” said Raut. He glanced back. “The moon is getting brighter,” he said.
“Come along,” said Horrocks, abruptly, gripping his shoulder again, and moving him suddenly towards the railway crossing. And then came one 318of those swift incidents, vivid, but so rapid that they leave one doubtful and reeling. Half-way across, Horrocks’s hand suddenly clenched upon him like a vice, and swung him backward and through a half turn, so that he looked up the line. And there a chain of lamp-lit carriage-windows telescoped swiftly as it came towards them, and the red and yellow lights of an engine grew larger and larger rushing down upon them. As he grasped what this meant, he turned his face to Horrocks and pushed with all his strength against the arm that held him back between the rails. The struggle did not last a moment. Just as certain as it was that Horrocks held him there, so certain was it that he had been violently lugged out of danger.
“Come on,” Horrocks said abruptly, gripping his shoulder again and suddenly moving him toward the railway crossing. Then came one of those quick moments, vivid but so fast that they leave you uncertain and disoriented. Halfway across, Horrocks's hand suddenly tightened around him like a vice, swinging him backward and around so he was looking up the track. A line of lamp-lit carriage windows rushed toward them, and the red and yellow lights of an engine grew larger and larger as it came barreling down. As he realized what this meant, he turned his face to Horrocks and pushed as hard as he could against the arm holding him back between the tracks. The struggle lasted mere seconds. Just as sure as it was that Horrocks was holding him there, it was equally clear he had been violently pulled out of danger.
“Out of the way!” said Horrocks, with a gasp, as the train came rattling by, and they stood panting by the gate into the ironworks.
“Get out of the way!” said Horrocks, gasping, as the train rattled by, and they stood there, panting by the gate to the ironworks.
“I did not see it coming,” said Raut, still, even in spite of his own apprehensions, trying to keep up an appearance of ordinary intercourse.
“I didn’t see it coming,” Raut said, still trying to maintain a facade of normal conversation despite his own worries.
Horrocks answered with a grunt. “The cone,” he said, and then as one who recovers himself—“I thought you did not hear.”
Horrocks replied with a grunt. “The cone,” he said, and then as if he regained his composure—“I thought you didn’t hear.”
“I didn’t,” said Raut.
“I didn't,” Raut said.
“I wouldn’t have had you run over then for the world,” said Horrocks.
“I wouldn’t have let you get run over for anything in the world,” said Horrocks.
“For a moment I lost my nerve,” said Raut.
“For a moment I lost my courage,” said Raut.
Horrocks stood for half a minute, then turned 319abruptly towards the ironworks again. “See how fine these great mounds of mine, these clinker heaps, look in the night! That truck yonder, up above there! Up it goes, and out-tilts the slag. See the palpitating red stuff go sliding down the slope. As we get nearer, the heap rises up and cuts the blast furnaces. See the quiver up above the big one. Not that way! This way, between the block heaps. That goes to the puddling furnaces, but I want to show you the canal first.” He came and took Raut by the elbow, and so they went along side by side. Raut answered Horrocks vaguely. What, he asked himself, had really happened on the line? Was he deluding himself with his own fancies, or had Horrocks actually held him back in the way of the train? Had he just been within an ace of being murdered?
Horrocks stood for half a minute, then suddenly turned back towards the ironworks again. “Look how impressive these huge mounds of mine, these piles of clinker, look at night! That truck over there, up top! Up it goes, and tips out the slag. Watch the pulsating red stuff slide down the slope. As we get closer, the pile rises up and blocks the blast furnaces. See that tremble above the big one. Not that way! This way, between the block heaps. That goes to the puddling furnaces, but I want to show you the canal first.” He came over and grabbed Raut by the elbow, and together they walked side by side. Raut responded to Horrocks vaguely. What, he wondered, had really happened on the line? Was he fooling himself with his own thoughts, or had Horrocks actually stopped him in the path of the train? Had he just narrowly escaped being killed?
Suppose this slouching, scowling monster did know anything? For a minute or two then Raut was really afraid for his life, but the mood passed as he reasoned with himself. After all, Horrocks might have heard nothing. At any rate, he had pulled him out of the way in time. His odd manner might be due to the mere vague jealousy he had shown once before. He was talking now of the ash-heaps and the canal. “Eigh?” said Horrocks.
Suppose this slouching, scowling monster actually knew something? For a minute or two, Raut was genuinely scared for his life, but that feeling faded as he talked himself down. After all, Horrocks might not have heard anything. At least he had managed to pull him out of the way just in time. His strange behavior could just be the lingering jealousy he had shown previously. He was now talking about the ash heaps and the canal. “What?” said Horrocks.
“What?” said Raut. “Rather! The haze in the moonlight. Fine!”
“What?” Raut said. “Absolutely! The mist in the moonlight. Perfect!”
320“Our canal,” said Horrocks, stopping suddenly. “Our canal by moonlight and firelight is an immense effect. You’ve never seen it? Fancy that! You’ve spent too many of your evenings philandering up in Newcastle there. I tell you, for real florid effects— But you shall see. Boiling water—”
320“Our canal,” Horrocks said, stopping abruptly. “Our canal looks amazing by moonlight and firelight. You’ve never seen it? Can you believe that? You’ve wasted too many of your evenings messing around up in Newcastle. Trust me, for some truly vibrant sights— But you’ll see. Boiling water—”
As they came out of the labyrinth of clinker heaps and mounds of coal and ore, the noises of the rolling mill sprang upon them suddenly, loud, near, and distinct. Three shadowy workmen went by and touched their caps to Horrocks. Their faces were vague in the darkness. Raut felt a futile impulse to address them, and before he could frame his words they passed into the shadows. Horrocks pointed to the canal close before them now: a weird-looking place it seemed, in the blood-red reflections of the furnaces. The hot water that cooled the tuyeres came into it, some fifty yards up—a tumultuous, almost boiling affluent, and the steam rose up from the water in silent white whisps and streaks, wrapping damply about them, an incessant succession of ghosts coming up from the black and red eddies, a white uprising that made the head swim. The shining black tower of the larger blast-furnace rose overhead out of the mist, and its tumultuous riot filled their ears. Raut kept away from the edge of the water and watched Horrocks.
As they emerged from the maze of clinker piles and mounds of coal and ore, the sounds of the rolling mill suddenly hit them—loud, close, and clear. Three shadowy workers walked past and tipped their caps to Horrocks. Their faces were indistinct in the darkness. Raut felt a pointless urge to speak to them, but before he could find the words, they disappeared into the shadows. Horrocks pointed to the canal right in front of them; it looked strange in the blood-red glow of the furnaces. Hot water that cooled the tuyeres flowed into it about fifty yards upstream—a turbulent, almost boiling stream, and steam billowed up from the water in silent white wisps and streaks, damply wrapping around them, an endless stream of ghosts rising from the dark and red swirls, a white surge that made his head spin. The gleaming black tower of the larger blast-furnace loomed above them out of the mist, and its chaotic noise filled their ears. Raut stayed away from the edge of the water and watched Horrocks.
“Here it is red,” said Horrocks, “blood-red 321vapour as red and hot as sin; but yonder there, where the moonlight falls on it and it drives across the clinker heaps, it is as white as death.”
“Here it’s red,” said Horrocks, “blood-red 321 vapor as red and hot as sin; but over there, where the moonlight hits it and it moves across the clinkers, it’s as white as death.”
Raut turned his head for a moment, and then came back hastily to his watch on Horrocks. “Come along to the rolling mills,” said Horrocks. The threatening hold was not so evident that time, and Raut felt a little reassured. But all the same, what on earth did Horrocks mean about “white as death” and “red as sin”? Coincidence, perhaps?
Raut turned his head for a moment and then quickly returned to keeping an eye on Horrocks. “Come on over to the rolling mills,” Horrocks said. The looming tension wasn’t as obvious this time, and Raut felt a bit more at ease. But still, what on earth did Horrocks mean by “white as death” and “red as sin”? Just a coincidence, maybe?
They went and stood behind the puddlers for a little while, and then through the rolling mills, where amidst an incessant din the deliberate steam hammer beat the juice out of the succulent iron, and black, half-naked Titans rushed the plastic bars, like hot sealing-wax, between the wheels. “Come on,” said Horrocks in Raut’s ear, and they went and peeped through the little glass hole behind the tuyeres, and saw the tumbled fire writhing in the pit of the blast-furnace. It left one eye blinded for a while. Then with green and blue patches dancing across the dark they went to the lift by which the trucks of ore and fuel and lime were raised to the top of the big cylinder.
They stood behind the puddlers for a bit, then moved through the rolling mills, where amid a constant noise the heavy steam hammer pounded the moisture out of the juicy iron, and muscular, half-clothed workers hurried the malleable bars, like hot sealing wax, between the wheels. “Let’s go,” Horrocks whispered in Raut’s ear, and they peeked through the small glass hole behind the tuyeres, catching a glimpse of the raging fire twisting in the blast furnace's pit. It left one eye temporarily blinded. Then, with green and blue spots flickering in the dark, they headed to the lift that raised the trucks of ore, fuel, and lime to the top of the large cylinder.
And out upon the narrow rail that overhung the furnace Raut’s doubts came upon him again. Was it wise to be here? If Horrocks did know—everything! Do what he would, he could not 322resist a violent trembling. Right underfoot was a sheer depth of seventy feet. It was a dangerous place. They pushed by a truck of fuel to get to the railing that crowned the place. The reek of the furnace, a sulphurous vapour streaked with pungent bitterness, seemed to make the distant hillside of Hanley quiver. The moon was riding out now from among a drift of clouds, half way up the sky above the undulating wooded outlines of Newcastle. The steaming canal ran away from below them under an indistinct bridge, and vanished into the dim haze of the flat fields towards Burslem.
And out on the narrow rail that hung over the furnace, Raut's doubts hit him again. Was it smart to be here? If Horrocks knew—everything! No matter what he did, he couldn’t stop shaking. Right below him was a sheer drop of seventy feet. It was a dangerous spot. They pushed past a fuel truck to reach the railing that edged the place. The smell of the furnace, a sulfurous vapor mixed with sharp bitterness, seemed to make the distant hillside of Hanley shimmer. The moon was now emerging from behind a cloud, halfway up in the sky above the rolling wooded outlines of Newcastle. The steaming canal flowed away from below them under a blurry bridge and disappeared into the hazy flat fields toward Burslem.
“That’s the cone I’ve been telling you of,” shouted Horrocks, “and, below that, sixty feet of fire and molten metal, with the air of the blast frothing through it like gas in soda-water.”
“That's the cone I've been telling you about,” shouted Horrocks, “and below that, sixty feet of fire and molten metal, with the blast air bubbling through it like gas in soda water.”
Raut gripped the handrail tightly, and stared down at the cone. The heat was intense. The boiling of the iron and the tumult of the blast made a thunderous accompaniment to Horrocks’s voice. But the thing had to be gone through now. Perhaps, after all—
Raut clenched the handrail and looked down at the cone. The heat was overwhelming. The iron was boiling, and the roar of the blast created a loud backdrop to Horrocks’s voice. But there was no way around it now. Maybe, after all—
“In the middle,” bawled Horrocks, “temperature near a thousand degrees. If you were dropped into it—flash into flame like a pinch of gunpowder in a candle. Put your hand out and feel the heat of his breath. Why even up here I’ve seen the rain-water boiling off the trucks. And that cone there. It’s a damned sight too 323hot for roasting cakes. The top side of it’s three hundred degrees.”
“In the middle,” yelled Horrocks, “the temperature is almost a thousand degrees. If you were thrown into it—you’d burst into flames like a tiny bit of gunpowder in a candle. Just put your hand out and feel the heat of his breath. Even up here, I’ve seen the rainwater boiling off the trucks. And that cone over there? It’s way too hot for baking cakes. The top side is three hundred degrees.”
“Three hundred degrees!” said Raut.
"Three hundred degrees!" said Raut.
“Three hundred centigrade, mind!” said Horrocks. “It will boil the blood out of you in no time.”
“Three hundred degrees Celsius, remember!” said Horrocks. “It will boil your blood in no time.”
“Eigh?” said Raut, and turned.
“Eight?” said Raut, and turned.
“Boil the blood out of you in— No you don’t!”
“Boil the blood out of you in— No, you don’t!”
“Let me go!” screamed Raut “Let go my arm.”
“Let me go!” screamed Raut. “Let go of my arm.”
With one hand he clutched at the handrail, then with both. For a moment the two men stood swaying. Then suddenly, with a violent jerk, Horrocks had twisted him from his hold. He clutched at Horrocks and missed, his foot went back into empty air; in mid-air he twisted himself, and then cheek and shoulder, and knee struck the hot cone together.
With one hand he grabbed the handrail, then with both. For a moment the two men stood swaying. Then suddenly, with a violent jerk, Horrocks yanked him off his hold. He reached for Horrocks but missed; his foot slipped into empty air. While in mid-air, he twisted himself, and then his cheek, shoulder, and knee hit the hot cone together.
He clutched the chain by which the cone hung, and the thing sank an infinitesimal amount as he struck it. A circle of glowing red appeared about him, and a tongue of flame, released from the chaos within, flickered up towards him. An intense pain assailed him at the knees, and he could smell the singeing of his hands. He raised himself to his feet and tried to climb up the chain, and then something struck his head. Black and shining with the moonlight the throat of the furnace rose about him.
He grabbed the chain from which the cone was hanging, and it sank just a tiny bit as he hit it. A circle of bright red light surrounded him, and a flame, freed from the chaos inside, flickered up towards him. A sharp pain shot through his knees, and he could smell his hands burning. He got to his feet and tried to climb up the chain, but then something hit his head. Black and glimmering in the moonlight, the throat of the furnace loomed around him.
324Horrocks he saw stood above him by one of the trucks of fuel on the rail. The gesticulating figure was bright and white in the moonlight, and shouting, “Fizzle, you fool! Fizzle, you hunter of women! You hot-blooded hound! Boil! boil! boil!”
324Horrocks stood above him by one of the fuel trucks on the rail. The lively figure was bright white in the moonlight, shouting, “Fizzle, you idiot! Fizzle, you woman chaser! You hot-blooded dog! Boil! Boil! Boil!”
Suddenly he caught up a handful of coal out of the truck and flung it deliberately, lump after lump, at Raut.
Suddenly, he grabbed a handful of coal from the truck and threw it intentionally, piece by piece, at Raut.
“Horrocks!” cried Raut, “Horrocks!”
“Horrocks!” yelled Raut, “Horrocks!”
He clung crying to the chain, pulling himself up from the burning of the cone. Each missile Horrocks flung hit him. His clothes charred and glowed, and as he struggled the cone dropped and a rush of hot suffocating gas whooped out and burned round him in a swift breath of flame.
He clung to the chain, crying, pulling himself up from the burning cone. Every missile Horrocks threw hit him. His clothes burned and glowed, and as he struggled, the cone dropped, releasing a rush of hot, suffocating gas that whooshed out and burned around him in a quick burst of flame.
His human likeness departed from him. When the momentary red had passed Horrocks saw a charred, blackened figure, its head streaked with blood, still clutching and fumbling with the chain and writhing in agony—a cindery animal, an inhuman, monstrous creature that began a sobbing, intermittent shriek.
His human shape left him. When the brief flash of red was gone, Horrocks saw a burned, blackened figure, its head stained with blood, still clutching and struggling with the chain and writhing in pain—a charred creature, an inhuman, monstrous being that let out a sobbing, intermittent scream.
Abruptly at the sight the ironmaster’s anger passed. A deadly sickness came upon him. The heavy odour of burning flesh came drifting up to his nostrils. His sanity returned to him.
Abruptly at the sight, the ironmaster's anger faded. A sickening feeling washed over him. The strong smell of burning flesh wafted up to his nose. His sanity returned to him.
“God have mercy upon me!” he cried. “Oh, God! what have I done?”
“God, have mercy on me!” he shouted. “Oh, God! What have I done?”
He knew the thing below him, save that it still 325moved and felt, was already a dead man—that the blood of the poor wretch must be boiling in his veins. An intense realisation of that agony came to his mind and overcame every other feeling. For a moment he stood irresolute, and then, turning to the truck, he hastily tilted its contents upon the struggling thing that had once been a man. The mass fell with a thud and went radiating over the cone. With the thud the shriek ended, and a boiling confusion of smoke, dust, and flame came rushing up towards him. As it passed he saw the cone clear again.
He knew that what was below him, even though it was still moving and feeling, was already a dead man—that the poor guy's blood must be boiling in his veins. A sharp realization of that pain hit him and overwhelmed all other feelings. For a moment, he hesitated, and then, turning to the truck, he quickly tipped its contents onto the struggling thing that had once been a man. The mass fell with a thud and spread out over the cone. With the thud, the shriek stopped, and a chaotic mix of smoke, dust, and flames rushed up toward him. As it passed, he saw the cone clear again.
Then he staggered back and stood trembling, clinging to the rail with both hands. His lips moved, but no words came to them.
Then he stumbled back and stood shaking, holding onto the rail with both hands. His lips moved, but no words came out.
Down below was the sound of voices and running steps. The clangour of rolling in the shed ceased abruptly.
Down below, there were sounds of voices and footsteps. The noise from the rolling in the shed stopped suddenly.
THE PURPLE PILEUS
Mr. Coombes was sick of life. He walked away from his unhappy home, and, sick not only of his own existence, but of everybody else’s, turned aside down Gaswork Lane to avoid the town, and, crossing the wooden bridge that goes over the canal to Starling’s Cottages, was presently alone in the damp pinewoods and out of sight and sound of human habitation. He would stand it no longer. He repeated aloud with blasphemies unusual to him that he would stand it no longer.
Mr. Coombes was fed up with life. He walked away from his unhappy home and, tired not just of his own existence but of everyone else's too, took a detour down Gaswork Lane to avoid the town. Crossing the wooden bridge over the canal to Starling’s Cottages, he soon found himself alone in the damp pinewoods, out of sight and sound of people. He couldn't take it anymore. He exclaimed out loud, using curses he typically wouldn’t, that he couldn’t stand it any longer.
He was a pale-faced little man, with dark eyes and a fine and very black moustache. He had a very stiff, upright collar slightly frayed, that gave him an illusory double chin, and his overcoat (albeit shabby) was trimmed with astrachan. His gloves were a bright brown with black stripes over the knuckles, and split at the finger-ends. His appearance, his wife had said once in the dear, dead days beyond recall,—before he married her, that is,—was military. But now she called him— It seems a dreadful thing to tell of between husband and wife, but she called him “a little grub.” It wasn’t the only thing she had called him, either.
He was a pale-faced little man, with dark eyes and a very fine black mustache. He wore a stiff, upright collar that was a bit frayed, which created the illusion of a double chin, and his overcoat (even if it was shabby) was trimmed with astrakhan. His gloves were a bright brown with black stripes over the knuckles, and they were split at the fingertips. His appearance, his wife had said once in the cherished, long-gone days before they got married, was military. But now she called him—It seems like a terrible thing to say about a husband, but she called him “a little grub.” It wasn’t the only thing she had called him, either.
327The row had arisen about that beastly Jennie again. Jennie was his wife’s friend, and, by no invitation of Mr. Coombes, she came in every blessed Sunday to dinner, and made a shindy all the afternoon. She was a big, noisy girl, with a taste for loud colours and a strident laugh; and this Sunday she had outdone all her previous intrusions by bringing in a fellow with her, a chap as showy as herself. And Mr. Coombes, in a starchy, clean collar and his Sunday frock-coat, had sat dumb and wrathful at his own table, while his wife and her guests talked foolishly and undesirably, and laughed aloud. Well, he stood that, and after dinner (which, “as usual,” was late), what must Miss Jennie do but go to the piano and play banjo tunes, for all the world as if it were a week-day! Flesh and blood could not endure such goings-on. They would hear next door; they would hear in the road; it was a public announcement of their disrepute. He had to speak.
327The argument had started about that annoying Jennie again. Jennie was his wife’s friend, and without any invitation from Mr. Coombes, she showed up every single Sunday for dinner and caused a racket all afternoon. She was a loud, big girl, with a love for bright colors and a piercing laugh; and this Sunday she had outdone herself by bringing along a guy just as flashy as she was. Mr. Coombes, in a stiff, clean collar and his Sunday suit, sat there silently fuming at his own table while his wife and her guests chatted nonsensically and laughed loudly. He tolerated that, but after dinner (which, “as usual,” was late), what did Miss Jennie do but head to the piano and start playing banjo tunes as if it were just another weekday? No one could put up with such behavior. People would hear next door; they would hear in the street; it was a public announcement of their disgrace. He had to say something.
He had felt himself go pale, and a kind of rigour had affected his respiration as he delivered himself. He had been sitting on one of the chairs by the window—the new guest had taken possession of the arm-chair. He turned his head. “Sun Day!” he said over the collar, in the voice of one who warns. “Sun Day!” What people call a “nasty” tone it was.
He felt himself go pale, and a kind of stiffness had affected his breathing as he spoke. He had been sitting on one of the chairs by the window—the new guest had taken over the armchair. He turned his head. “Sun Day!” he said over the collar, in a warning tone. “Sun Day!” People would call it a “nasty” tone.
Jennie had kept on playing; but his wife, who 328was looking through some music that was piled on the top of the piano, had stared at him. “What’s wrong now?” she said; “can’t people enjoy themselves?”
Jennie kept playing, but his wife, who was sifting through some sheet music piled on top of the piano, stared at him. “What’s wrong now?” she asked. “Can’t people have a good time?”
“I don’t mind rational ’njoyment, at all,” said little Coombes; “but I ain’t a-going to have week-day tunes playing on a Sunday in this house.”
“I don’t mind rational enjoyment at all,” said little Coombes; “but I’m not going to have week-day tunes playing on a Sunday in this house.”
“What’s wrong with my playing now?” said Jennie, stopping and twirling round on the music-stool with a monstrous rustle of flounces.
“What’s wrong with my playing now?” Jennie asked, stopping and spinning around on the music stool with a loud rustle of her frills.
Coombes saw it was going to be a row, and opened too vigorously, as is common with your timid, nervous men all the world over. “Steady on with that music-stool!” said he; “it ain’t made for ’eavy weights.”
Coombes realized it was going to be a fight and opened too forcefully, which is typical of shy, anxious guys everywhere. “Watch that music stool!” he said; “it’s not meant for heavyweights.”
“Never you mind about weights,” said Jennie, incensed. “What was you saying behind my back about my playing?”
“Don't worry about the weights,” Jennie said, annoyed. “What were you saying behind my back about my playing?”
“Surely you don’t ’old with not having a bit of music on a Sunday, Mr. Coombes?” said the new guest, leaning back in the arm-chair, blowing a cloud of cigarette smoke and smiling in a kind of pitying way. And simultaneously his wife said something to Jennie about “Never mind ’im. You go on, Jinny.”
“Surely you don’t think it’s right to not have a bit of music on a Sunday, Mr. Coombes?” said the new guest, leaning back in the armchair, blowing a cloud of cigarette smoke and smiling in a somewhat pitying way. At the same time, his wife said something to Jennie about “Never mind him. You go on, Jinny.”
“I do,” said Mr. Coombes, addressing the new guest.
"I do," Mr. Coombes said, speaking to the new guest.
“May I arst why?” said the new guest, evidently enjoying both his cigarette and the prospect of an argument. He was, by-the-by, a lank 329young man, very stylishly dressed in bright drab, with a white cravat and a pearl and silver pin. It had been better taste to come in a black coat, Mr. Coombes thought.
“Can I ask why?” said the new guest, clearly enjoying both his cigarette and the chance for an argument. By the way, he was a thin young man, very stylishly dressed in a bright, dull color, with a white cravat and a pearl and silver pin. It would have been better taste to wear a black coat, Mr. Coombes thought.
“Because,” began Mr. Coombes, “it don’t suit me. I’m a business man. I ’ave to study my connection. Rational ’njoyment—”
“Because,” started Mr. Coombes, “it doesn't suit me. I’m a businessman. I have to consider my connections. Rational enjoyment—”
“His connection!” said Mrs. Coombes, scornfully. “That’s what he’s always a-saying. We got to do this, and we got to do that—”
“His connection!” Mrs. Coombes said, with a hint of disdain. “That’s what he’s always saying. We have to do this, and we have to do that—”
“If you don’t mean to study my connection,” said Mr. Coombes, “what did you marry me for?”
“If you’re not interested in understanding my connections,” said Mr. Coombes, “then why did you marry me?”
“I wonder,” said Jennie, and turned back to the piano.
“I wonder,” Jennie said, turning back to the piano.
“I never saw such a man as you,” said Mrs. Coombes. “You’ve altered all round since we were married. Before—”
“I've never met anyone like you,” Mrs. Coombes said. “You've changed so much since we got married. Before—”
Then Jennie began at the tum, tum, tum again.
Then Jennie started with the tum, tum, tum again.
“Look here!” said Mr. Coombes, driven at last to revolt, standing up and raising his voice. “I tell you I won’t have that.” The frock-coat heaved with his indignation.
“Look here!” Mr. Coombes said, finally pushed to his breaking point, standing up and raising his voice. “I’m telling you, I won’t accept that.” His frock coat heaved with his anger.
“No vi’lence, now,” said the long young man in drab, sitting up.
“No violence now,” said the tall young man in dull clothes, sitting up.
“Who the juice are you?” said Mr. Coombes, fiercely.
“Who the heck are you?” said Mr. Coombes, fiercely.
Whereupon they all began talking at once. The new guest said he was Jennie’s “intended,” and meant to protect her, and Mr. Coombes said he 330was welcome to do so anywhere but in his (Mr. Coombes’) house; and Mrs. Coombes said he ought to be ashamed of insulting his guests, and (as I have already mentioned) that he was getting a regular little grub; and the end was, that Mr. Coombes ordered his visitors out of the house, and they wouldn’t go, and so he said he would go himself. With his face burning and tears of excitement in his eyes, he went into the passage, and as he struggled with his overcoat—his frock-coat sleeves got concertinaed up his arm—and gave a brush at his silk hat, Jennie began again at the piano, and strummed him insultingly out of the house. Tum, tum, tum. He slammed the shop-door so that the house quivered. That, briefly, was the immediate making of his mood. You will perhaps begin to understand his disgust with existence.
They all started talking at the same time. The new guest said he was Jennie’s fiancé and wanted to protect her, but Mr. Coombes told him he was welcome to do that anywhere except in his (Mr. Coombes’) house; and Mrs. Coombes said he should be ashamed for insulting his guests, and (as I’ve already mentioned) that he was turning into a complete coward; and in the end, Mr. Coombes kicked his visitors out of the house, but they wouldn’t leave, so he decided to leave instead. With his face flushed and tears of frustration in his eyes, he headed to the hallway, and as he struggled with his overcoat—his frock coat sleeves got all twisted up his arm—and brushed off his silk hat, Jennie started playing the piano again, strumming him obnoxiously out of the house. Tum, tum, tum. He slammed the shop door so hard that the house shook. That, in short, was the start of his bad mood. You might begin to grasp his disgust with life.
As he walked along the muddy path under the firs,—it was late October, and the ditches and heaps of fir-needles were gorgeous with clumps of fungi,—he recapitulated the melancholy history of his marriage. It was brief and commonplace enough. He now perceived with sufficient clearness that his wife had married him out of a natural curiosity and in order to escape from her worrying, laborious, and uncertain life in the workroom; and, like the majority of her class, she was far too stupid to realise that it was her duty to co-operate with him in his business. She was greedy of 331enjoyment, loquacious, and socially-minded, and evidently disappointed to find the restraints of poverty still hanging about her. His worries exasperated her, and the slightest attempt to control her proceedings resulted in a charge of “grumbling.” Why couldn’t he be nice—as he used to be? And Coombes was such a harmless little man, too, nourished mentally on “Self-Help,” and with a meagre ambition of self-denial and competition, that was to end in a “sufficiency.” Then Jennie came in as a female Mephistopheles, a gabbling chronicle of “fellers,” and was always wanting his wife to go to theatres, and “all that.” And in addition were aunts of his wife, and cousins (male and female), to eat up capital, insult him personally, upset business arrangements, annoy good customers, and generally blight his life. It was not the first occasion by many that Mr. Coombes had fled his home in wrath and indignation, and something like fear, vowing furiously and even aloud that he wouldn’t stand it, and so frothing away his energy along the line of least resistance. But never before had he been quite so sick of life as on this particular Sunday afternoon. The Sunday dinner may have had its share in his despair—and the greyness of the sky. Perhaps, too, he was beginning to realise his unendurable frustration as a business man as the consequence of his marriage. Presently bankruptcy, and after that— Perhaps she might have reason to repent 332when it was too late. And destiny, as I have already intimated, had planted the path through the wood with evil-smelling fungi, thickly and variously planted it, not only on the right side, but on the left.
As he walked along the muddy path under the fir trees—it was late October, and the ditches and piles of fir needles were stunning with clusters of mushrooms—he reflected on the sad story of his marriage. It was short and pretty ordinary. He now saw clearly that his wife had married him out of a natural curiosity and to escape her stressful, exhausting, and uncertain life in the workroom; and, like most women of her background, she was far too naive to realize that it was her responsibility to work with him in his business. She craved enjoyment, loved to talk, and was very social, and she was clearly disappointed to find the limitations of poverty still clinging to her. His worries frustrated her, and the slightest attempt to rein her in ended with her accusing him of “grumbling.” Why couldn’t he be nice like he used to be? And Coombes was such a harmless little man, too, mentally fed on “Self-Help,” with a minimal ambition of self-denial and competition, which was supposed to lead to a “sufficiency.” Then Jennie came in like a female Mephistopheles, chattering about “guys,” and always wanting his wife to go to theaters and “all that.” Additionally, there were his wife’s aunts and cousins (male and female) who drained his resources, insulted him personally, messed up business plans, annoyed good customers, and generally ruined his life. It wasn’t the first time Mr. Coombes had stormed out of his home in anger and frustration, and a bit of fear, swearing loudly that he wouldn’t put up with it, and wasting his energy on the easiest escape. But he had never felt so fed up with life as he did on this particular Sunday afternoon. The Sunday dinner might have contributed to his despair—and the grayness of the sky. Maybe he was starting to realize how frustrating his situation as a businessman had become because of his marriage. Soon bankruptcy might hit, and then—perhaps she would regret it when it was too late. And fate, as I’ve already suggested, had filled the path through the woods with foul-smelling mushrooms, thick and varied on both sides.
A small shopman is in such a melancholy position, if his wife turns out a disloyal partner. His capital is all tied up in his business, and to leave her, means to join the unemployed in some strange part of the earth. The luxuries of divorce are beyond him altogether. So that the good old tradition of marriage for better or worse holds inexorably for him, and things work up to tragic culminations. Bricklayers kick their wives to death, and dukes betray theirs; but it is among the small clerks and shopkeepers nowadays that it comes most often to a cutting of throats. Under the circumstances it is not so very remarkable—and you must take it as charitably as you can—that the mind of Mr. Coombes ran for awhile on some such glorious close to his disappointed hopes, and that he thought of razors, pistols, bread-knives, and touching letters to the coroner denouncing his enemies by name, and praying piously for forgiveness. After a time his fierceness gave way to melancholia. He had been married in this very overcoat, in his first and only frock-coat that was buttoned up beneath it. He began to recall their courting along this very walk, his years of penurious saving to get capital, and the 333bright hopefulness of his marrying days. For it all to work out like this! Was there no sympathetic ruler anywhere in the world? He reverted to death as a topic.
A small shopkeeper finds himself in a really sad situation if his wife turns out to be unfaithful. His entire savings are tied up in his business, and leaving her means joining the ranks of the unemployed in some unfamiliar place. The perks of divorce are completely out of reach for him. So, the old tradition of marriage for better or worse hits him hard, often leading to tragic outcomes. While bricklayers might violently lash out at their wives and dukes betray theirs, it's the small clerks and shopkeepers today who often resort to extreme measures. Given the circumstances, it's not surprising—and you should consider it as kindly as you can—that Mr. Coombes found his thoughts drifting toward some dramatic end to his shattered dreams. He was thinking about razors, guns, kitchen knives, and writing heartbreaking letters to the coroner, naming his enemies and asking for forgiveness. Eventually, his anger faded, giving way to sadness. He had been married in this very overcoat, with his first and only dress coat fastened underneath. He started to remember their courtship along this same path, the years of careful saving to build up his business, and the bright hope he had when getting married. For it all to turn out like this! Was there no kind ruler anywhere in the world? He circled back to thoughts of death.
He thought of the canal he had just crossed, and doubted whether he shouldn’t stand with his head out, even in the middle, and it was while drowning was in his mind that the purple pileus caught his eye. He looked at it mechanically for a moment, and stopped and stooped towards it to pick it up, under the impression that it was some such small leather object as a purse. Then he saw that it was the purple top of a fungus, a peculiarly poisonous-looking purple: slimy, shiny, and emitting a sour odour. He hesitated with his hand an inch or so from it, and the thought of poison crossed his mind. With that he picked the thing, and stood up again with it in his hand.
He thought about the canal he had just crossed and wondered if he should stick his head out, even in the middle. While drowning was on his mind, he noticed a purple fungus. He stared at it for a moment, then stopped and bent down to pick it up, thinking it was a small leather object like a purse. Then he realized it was actually the purple cap of a fungus, a strangely toxic-looking purple: slimy, shiny, and giving off a sour smell. He hesitated with his hand just above it, and the idea of poison crossed his mind. With that thought, he picked it up and stood back up, holding it in his hand.
The odour was certainly strong—acrid, but by no means disgusting. He broke off a piece, and the fresh surface was a creamy white, that changed like magic in the space of ten seconds to a yellowish-green colour. It was even an inviting-looking change. He broke off two other pieces to see it repeated. They were wonderful things, these fungi, thought Mr. Coombes, and all of them the deadliest poisons, as his father had often told him. Deadly poisons!
The smell was definitely strong—sharp, but not at all unpleasant. He broke off a piece, and the fresh surface was a creamy white that magically changed to a yellowish-green in just ten seconds. It was even an appealing transformation. He broke off two more pieces to see it happen again. These fungi were amazing, Mr. Coombes thought, and all of them the most dangerous poisons, as his father had often told him. Deadly poisons!
There is no time like the present for a rash resolve. Why not here and now? thought Mr. 334Coombes. He tasted a little piece, a very little piece indeed—a mere crumb. It was so pungent that he almost spat it out again, then merely hot and full-flavoured,—a kind of German mustard with a touch of horse-radish and—well, mushroom. He swallowed it in the excitement of the moment. Did he like it or did he not? His mind was curiously careless. He would try another bit. It really wasn’t bad—it was good. He forgot his troubles in the interest of the immediate moment. Playing with death it was. He took another bite, and then deliberately finished a mouthful. A curious tingling sensation began in his finger-tips and toes. His pulse began to move faster. The blood in his ears sounded like a mill-race. “Try bi’ more,” said Mr. Coombes. He turned and looked about him, and found his feet unsteady. He saw and struggled towards a little patch of purple a dozen yards away. “Jol’ goo’ stuff,” said Mr. Coombes. “E—lomore ye’.” He pitched forward and fell on his face, his hands outstretched towards the cluster of pilei. But he did not eat any more of them. He forgot forthwith.
There’s no time like the present for a hasty decision. Why not right here and now? thought Mr. 334Coombes. He tasted a small piece, really just a crumb. It was so strong that he almost spat it out, then it became just hot and full-flavored—a kind of German mustard with a hint of horseradish and—well, mushroom. He swallowed it in the excitement of the moment. Did he like it or not? His mind was oddly indifferent. He decided to try another piece. It wasn’t bad—it was good. He forgot his worries in the thrill of the moment. It felt dangerous. He took another bite and then purposefully finished a mouthful. A strange tingling started in his fingertips and toes. His heart began to race. The blood rushing in his ears sounded like a rushing river. “Try a bit more,” said Mr. Coombes. He looked around and realized his feet were unsteady. He spotted a little patch of purple about ten yards away and struggled toward it. “Jolly good stuff,” said Mr. Coombes. “E—lomore ye’.” He pitched forward and fell on his face, his hands reaching out toward the cluster of mushrooms. But he didn't eat any more of them. He forgot all about it right away.
He rolled over and sat up with a look of astonishment on his face. His carefully brushed silk hat had rolled away towards the ditch. He pressed his hand to his brow. Something had happened, but he could not rightly determine what it was. Anyhow, he was no longer dull—he 335felt bright, cheerful. And his throat was afire. He laughed in the sudden gaiety of his heart. Had he been dull? He did not know; but at any rate he would be dull no longer. He got up and stood unsteadily, regarding the universe with an agreeable smile. He began to remember. He could not remember very well, because of a steam roundabout that was beginning in his head. And he knew he had been disagreeable at home, just because they wanted to be happy. They were quite right; life should be as gay as possible. He would go home and make it up, and reassure them. And why not take some of this delightful toadstool with him, for them to eat? A hatful, no less. Some of those red ones with white spots as well, and a few yellow. He had been a dull dog, an enemy to merriment; he would make up for it. It would be gay to turn his coat sleeves inside out, and stick some yellow gorse into his waistcoat pockets. Then home—singing—for a jolly evening.
He rolled over and sat up, astonished. His carefully brushed silk hat had rolled away into the ditch. He pressed his hand to his forehead. Something had happened, but he couldn’t quite figure out what. Anyway, he no longer felt dull—he felt bright and cheerful. And his throat was on fire. He laughed at the sudden joy in his heart. Had he really been dull? He didn’t know; but either way, he wasn’t going to be dull any longer. He got up and stood unsteadily, looking at the world with a friendly smile. He started to remember. He couldn’t remember very clearly because of a dizzying sensation starting in his head. He knew he had been unpleasant at home just because they wanted to be happy. They were absolutely right; life should be as joyful as possible. He would go home and make amends, and reassure them. And why not bring some of these delightful mushrooms for them to eat? A whole hatful! Some of those red ones with white spots, too, and a few yellow ones. He had been a dull guy, an enemy of fun; he would make up for it. It would be great to turn his coat sleeves inside out and stuff some yellow gorse into his waistcoat pockets. Then home—singing—for a fun evening.
After the departure of Mr. Coombes, Jennie discontinued playing, and turned round on the music-stool again. “What a fuss about nothing,” said Jennie.
After Mr. Coombes left, Jennie stopped playing and turned back around on the music stool. “What a fuss about nothing,” Jennie said.
“You see, Mr. Clarence, what I’ve got to put up with,” said Mrs. Coombes.
“You see, Mr. Clarence, what I have to deal with,” said Mrs. Coombes.
“He is a bit hasty,” said Mr. Clarence, judicially.
“He's a little too quick to judge,” said Mr. Clarence, thoughtfully.
“He ain’t got the slightest sense of our position,” 336said Mrs. Coombes; “that’s what I complain of. He cares for nothing but his old shop; and if I have a bit of company, or buy anything to keep myself decent, or get any little thing I want out of the housekeeping money, there’s disagreeables. ‘Economy,’ he says; ‘struggle for life,’ and all that. He lies awake of nights about it, worrying how he can screw me out of a shilling. He wanted us to eat Dorset butter once. If once I was to give in to him—there!”
“He doesn’t have the slightest clue about our situation,” 336said Mrs. Coombes; “that’s what I’m complaining about. He only cares about his old shop; and if I have some company, or buy anything to keep myself looking decent, or get something I want out of the household money, there are always arguments. ‘Economy,’ he says; ‘struggle for survival,’ and all that. He lies awake at night worrying about how he can squeeze me out of a shilling. He once wanted us to eat Dorset butter. If I ever give in to him—there!”
“Of course,” said Jennie.
"Sure," said Jennie.
“If a man values a woman,” said Mr. Clarence, lounging back in the arm-chair, “he must be prepared to make sacrifices for her. For my own part,” said Mr. Clarence, with his eye on Jennie, “I shouldn’t think of marrying till I was in a position to do the thing in style. It’s downright selfishness. A man ought to go through the rough-and-tumble by himself, and not drag her—”
“If a man cares about a woman,” said Mr. Clarence, leaning back in the armchair, “he has to be ready to make sacrifices for her. As for me,” said Mr. Clarence, glancing at Jennie, “I wouldn’t even consider marriage until I could do it properly. It’s just plain selfish. A man should handle his struggles on his own and not pull her into it—”
“I don’t agree altogether with that,” said Jennie. “I don’t see why a man shouldn’t have a woman’s help, provided he doesn’t treat her meanly, you know. It’s meanness—”
“I don’t completely agree with that,” said Jennie. “I don’t understand why a man shouldn’t get help from a woman, as long as he doesn’t treat her badly, you know. It’s just being cruel—”
“You wouldn’t believe,” said Mrs. Coombes. “But I was a fool to ’ave ’im. I might ’ave known. If it ’adn’t been for my father, we shouldn’t have had not a carriage to our wedding.”
“You wouldn’t believe,” said Mrs. Coombes. “But I was a fool to have him. I should have known. If it hadn’t been for my father, we wouldn’t have had a carriage for our wedding.”
“Lord! he didn’t stick out at that?” said Mr. Clarence, quite shocked.
“Wow! He really didn’t stand out at all?” said Mr. Clarence, quite shocked.
337“Said he wanted the money for his stock, or some such rubbish. Why, he wouldn’t have a woman in to help me once a week if it wasn’t for my standing out plucky. And the fusses he makes about money—comes to me, well, pretty near crying, with sheets of paper and figgers. ‘If only we can tide over this year,’ he says, ‘the business is bound to go.’ ‘If only we can tide over this year,’ I says; ‘then it’ll be, if only we can tide over next year. I know you,’ I says. ‘And you don’t catch me screwing myself lean and ugly. Why didn’t you marry a slavey,’ I says, ‘if you wanted one—instead of a respectable girl?’ I says.”
337 “He said he needed the money for his stock or some nonsense like that. Honestly, he wouldn’t even hire a woman to help me once a week if I didn’t stand my ground. And the drama he creates about money—he comes to me, almost in tears, with sheets of paper and figures. ‘If only we can get through this year,’ he says, ‘the business is bound to succeed.’ ‘If only we can get through this year,’ I say; ‘then it’ll be, if only we can get through next year. I know you,’ I say. ‘And you’re not going to get me to starve myself and look terrible. Why didn’t you marry a maid,’ I say, ‘if that’s what you wanted—instead of a respectable girl?’ I say.”
So Mrs. Coombes. But we will not follow this unedifying conversation further. Suffice it that Mr. Coombes was very satisfactorily disposed of, and they had a snug little time round the fire. Then Mrs. Coombes went to get the tea, and Jennie sat coquettishly on the arm of Mr. Clarence’s chair until the tea-things clattered outside. “What was that I heard?” asked Mrs. Coombes, playfully, as she entered, and there was badinage about kissing. They were just sitting down to the little circular table when the first intimation of Mr. Coombes’ return was heard.
So, Mrs. Coombes. But we won’t continue with this awkward conversation. Let’s just say that Mr. Coombes was dealt with very satisfactorily, and they had a cozy little time by the fire. Then, Mrs. Coombes went to prepare the tea, and Jennie playfully perched on the arm of Mr. Clarence's chair until the tea things clattered outside. “What was that I heard?” Mrs. Coombes asked teasingly as she walked in, and they joked about kissing. They were just about to sit down at the small round table when they first heard Mr. Coombes coming back.
This was a fumbling at the latch of the front door.
This was a clumsy attempt to open the front door.
“’Ere’s my lord,” said Mrs. Coombes. “Went out like a lion and comes back like a lamb, I’ll lay.”
“Here’s my lord,” said Mrs. Coombes. “He went out like a lion and came back like a lamb, I bet.”
338Something fell over in the shop: a chair, it sounded like. Then there was a sound as of some complicated step exercise in the passage. Then the door opened and Coombes appeared. But it was Coombes transfigured. The immaculate collar had been torn carelessly from his throat. His carefully-brushed silk hat, half-full of a crush of fungi, was under one arm; his coat was inside out, and his waistcoat adorned with bunches of yellow-blossomed furze. These little eccentricities of Sunday costume, however, were quite overshadowed by the change in his face; it was livid white, his eyes were unnaturally large and bright, and his pale blue lips were drawn back in a cheerless grin. “Merry!” he said. He had stopped dancing to open the door. “Rational ’njoyment. Dance.” He made three fantastic steps into the room, and stood bowing.
338Something fell over in the shop: a chair, it sounded like. Then there was a noise that resembled a complicated workout in the hallway. Then the door opened and Coombes walked in. But it was a transformed Coombes. His pristine collar had been carelessly ripped from his neck. His meticulously styled silk hat, half-filled with a jumble of mushrooms, was tucked under one arm; his coat was inside out, and his waistcoat was covered with patches of yellow-blooming gorse. These oddities in his Sunday outfit, however, were completely overshadowed by the change in his face; it was a sickly white, his eyes were unnaturally large and bright, and his pale blue lips were pulled back in a grimace. “Merry!” he said. He had stopped dancing to open the door. “Rational enjoyment. Dance.” He took three exaggerated steps into the room and stood bowing.
“Jim!” shrieked Mrs. Coombes, and Mr. Clarence sat petrified, with a dropping lower jaw.
“Jim!” screamed Mrs. Coombes, while Mr. Clarence sat frozen, his jaw hanging open.
“Tea,” said Mr. Coombes. “Jol’ thing, tea. Tose-stools, too. Brosher.”
“Tea,” said Mr. Coombes. “Nice thing, tea. Toadstools, too. Brochure.”
“He’s drunk,” said Jennie, in a weak voice. Never before had she seen this intense pallor in a drunken man, or such shining, dilated eyes.
“He's drunk,” Jennie said weakly. Never before had she seen such an intense pale expression on a drunken man, or eyes that were so bright and dilated.
Mr. Coombes held out a handful of scarlet agaric to Mr. Clarence. “Jo’ stuff,” said he; “ta’ some.”
Mr. Coombes offered a handful of red mushrooms to Mr. Clarence. “Here’s some good stuff,” he said; “take some.”
At that moment he was genial. Then at the 339sight of their startled faces he changed, with the swift transition of insanity, into overbearing fury. And it seemed as if he had suddenly recalled the quarrel of his departure. In such a huge voice as Mrs. Coombes had never heard before, he shouted, “My house. I’m master ’ere. Eat what I give yer!” He bawled this, as it seemed, without an effort, without a violent gesture, standing there as motionless as one who whispers, holding out a handful of fungus.
At that moment, he was friendly. But when he saw their surprised faces, he quickly shifted, like someone driven mad, into raging anger. It was as if he had suddenly remembered the argument from when he left. In a booming voice that Mrs. Coombes had never heard before, he shouted, "This is my house. I’m in charge here. Eat what I give you!" He yelled this seemingly effortlessly, without any wild gestures, standing there as still as someone who whispers while holding out a handful of mushrooms.
Clarence approved himself a coward. He could not meet the mad fury in Coombes’ eyes; he rose to his feet, pushing back his chair, and turned, stooping. At that Coombes rushed at him. Jennie saw her opportunity, and, with the ghost of a shriek, made for the door. Mrs. Coombes followed her. Clarence tried to dodge. Over went the tea-table with a smash as Coombes clutched him by the collar and tried to thrust the fungus into his mouth. Clarence was content to leave his collar behind him, and shot out into the passage with red patches of fly agaric still adherent to his face. “Shut ’im in!” cried Mrs. Coombes, and would have closed the door, but her supports deserted her; Jennie saw the shop-door open, and vanished thereby, locking it behind her, while Clarence went on hastily into the kitchen. Mr. Coombes came heavily against the door, and Mrs. Coombes, finding the key was inside, fled upstairs and locked herself in the spare bedroom.
Clarence realized he was being a coward. He couldn't face the crazy anger in Coombes’ eyes; he got up, pushed back his chair, and turned, bending down. At that moment, Coombes charged at him. Jennie saw her chance and, with a faint shriek, headed for the door. Mrs. Coombes followed her. Clarence tried to dodge. The tea table crashed over as Coombes grabbed him by the collar and tried to shove the fungus in his mouth. Clarence decided to leave his collar behind and dashed into the hallway with red spots of fly agaric still on his face. “Lock him in!” shouted Mrs. Coombes, and would have closed the door, but her support vanished; Jennie saw the shop door open and slipped out, locking it behind her, while Clarence hurried into the kitchen. Mr. Coombes slammed into the door, and Mrs. Coombes, realizing the key was inside, ran upstairs and locked herself in the spare bedroom.
340So the new convert to joie de vivre emerged upon the passage, his decorations a little scattered, but that respectable hatful of fungi still under his arm. He hesitated at the three ways, and decided on the kitchen. Whereupon Clarence, who was fumbling with the key, gave up the attempt to imprison his host, and fled into the scullery, only to be captured before he could open the door into the yard. Mr. Clarence is singularly reticent of the details of what occurred. It seems that Mr. Coombes’ transitory irritation had vanished again, and he was once more a genial playfellow. And as there were knives and meat-choppers about, Clarence very generously resolved to humour him and so avoid anything tragic. It is beyond dispute that Mr. Coombes played with Mr. Clarence to his heart’s content; they could not have been more playful and familiar if they had known each other for years. He insisted gaily on Clarence trying the fungi, and after a friendly tussle, was smitten with remorse at the mess he was making of his guest’s face. It also appears that Clarence was dragged under the sink and his face scrubbed with the blacking-brush,—he being still resolved to humour the lunatic at any cost,—and that finally, in a somewhat dishevelled, chipped, and discoloured condition, he was assisted to his coat and shown out by the back door, the shopway being barred by Jennie. Mr. Coombes’ wandering thoughts then turned to 341Jennie. Jennie had been unable to unfasten the shop-door, but she shot the bolts against Mr. Coombes’ latch-key, and remained in possession of the shop for the rest of the evening.
340So the new convert to joy of living emerged in the passage, his decorations a bit scattered, but that respectable bundle of mushrooms still under his arm. He hesitated at the three paths and chose the kitchen. Meanwhile, Clarence, who was struggling with the key, gave up trying to lock his host in and ran to the scullery, only to be caught before he could open the door to the yard. Mr. Clarence is particularly tight-lipped about the details of what happened next. It seems that Mr. Coombes’ momentary irritation had disappeared, and he was once again a cheerful companion. With knives and meat-choppers around, Clarence decided to humor him to avoid any drama. It's undeniable that Mr. Coombes had a great time playing with Mr. Clarence; they were so playful and familiar that they might as well have known each other for years. He cheerfully insisted that Clarence try the mushrooms, and after a friendly struggle, felt guilty about the mess he was making of his guest's face. It also seems that Clarence was pulled under the sink and had his face scrubbed with a blacking brush—he was still determined to indulge the lunatic at any cost—and that finally, in a somewhat disheveled, chipped, and discolored state, he was helped into his coat and shown out through the back door, since the shop entrance was blocked by Jennie. Mr. Coombes then turned his wandering thoughts to 341Jennie. Jennie had been unable to unlock the shop door, but she bolted it against Mr. Coombes’ latch-key and kept control of the shop for the rest of the evening.
It would appear that Mr. Coombes then returned to the kitchen, still in pursuit of gaiety, and, albeit a strict Good Templar, drank (or spilt down the front of the first and only frock-coat) no less than five bottles of the stout Mrs. Coombes insisted upon having for her health’s sake. He made cheerful noises by breaking off the necks of the bottles with several of his wife’s wedding-present dinner-plates, and during the earlier part of this great drunk he sang divers merry ballads. He cut his finger rather badly with one of the bottles,—the only bloodshed in this story,—and what with that, and the systematic convulsion of his inexperienced physiology by the liquorish brand of Mrs. Coombes’ stout, it may be the evil of the fungus poison was somehow allayed. But we prefer to draw a veil over the concluding incidents of this Sunday afternoon. They ended in the coal cellar, in a deep and healing sleep.
It seems that Mr. Coombes then went back to the kitchen, still seeking some fun, and, even though he was a strict Good Templar, he drank (or spilled down the front of his only frock coat) no less than five bottles of the stout that Mrs. Coombes insisted he have for her health. He made cheerful noises by breaking the necks of the bottles with several of his wife's wedding-present dinner plates, and during the earlier part of this big drinking spree, he sang a variety of lively songs. He cut his finger pretty badly with one of the bottles—the only bloodshed in this story—and with that, plus the way his inexperienced body reacted to Mrs. Coombes' rich stout, it might have been that the harm from the fungus poison was somehow lessened. But we prefer to gloss over the final events of that Sunday afternoon. They ended in the coal cellar, in a deep and restorative sleep.
An interval of five years elapsed. Again it was a Sunday afternoon in October, and again Mr. Coombes walked through the pinewood beyond the canal. He was still the same dark-eyed, black-moustached little man that he was at the outset of the story, but his double chin was now scarcely so 342illusory as it had been. His overcoat was new, with a velvet lapel, and a stylish collar with turndown corners, free of any coarse starchiness, had replaced the original all-round article. His hat was glossy, his gloves newish—though one finger had split and been carefully mended. And a casual observer would have noticed about him a certain rectitude of bearing, a certain erectness of head that marks the man who thinks well of himself. He was a master now, with three assistants. Beside him walked a larger sunburnt parody of himself, his brother Tom, just back from Australia. They were recapitulating their early struggles, and Mr. Coombes had just been making a financial statement.
An interval of five years went by. It was once again a Sunday afternoon in October, and Mr. Coombes walked through the pine forest beyond the canal. He was still the same dark-eyed, black-moustached little man he was at the start of the story, but his double chin was now barely as noticeable as it had been. His overcoat was new, featuring a velvet lapel and a stylish collar with turned-down corners, free of any coarse starch. His hat was shiny, his gloves were relatively new—though one finger had split and been carefully repaired. A casual observer would have noticed a certain strong posture and an erectness in his head that reflects someone who feels good about themselves. He was a master now, with three assistants. Beside him walked a larger, sunburnt version of himself, his brother Tom, just back from Australia. They were reminiscing about their early struggles, and Mr. Coombes had just been sharing a financial update.
“It’s a very nice little business, Jim,” said brother Tom. “In these days of competition, you’re jolly lucky to have worked it up so. And you’re jolly lucky, too, to have a wife who’s willing to help like yours does.”
“It’s a really nice little business, Jim,” said brother Tom. “In today’s competitive world, you’re really lucky to have built it up like you have. And you’re really lucky, too, to have a wife who’s willing to help out like yours does.”
“Between ourselves,” said Mr. Coombes, “it wasn’t always so. It wasn’t always like this. To begin with, the missus was a bit giddy. Girls are funny creatures.”
“Just between us,” said Mr. Coombes, “it wasn’t always this way. It didn’t used to be like this. At first, my wife was a little scatterbrained. Women can be strange."
“Dear me!”
"Oh my!"
“Yes. You’d hardly think it, but she was downright extravagant, and always having slaps at me. I was a bit too easy and loving, and all that, and she thought the whole blessed show was run for her. Turned the ’ouse into a regular caravansary, 343always having her relations and girls from business in, and their chaps. Comic songs a’ Sunday, it was getting to, and driving trade away. And she was making eyes at the chaps, too! I tell you, Tom, the place wasn’t my own.”
“Yes. You’d hardly believe it, but she was incredibly extravagant and always taking jabs at me. I was a bit too easygoing and loving, and she thought the whole situation revolved around her. She turned the house into a real boarding house, always inviting her relatives and coworkers over, along with their guys. It was getting to be comic songs on Sundays, driving away customers. And she was flirting with the guys too! I’m telling you, Tom, the place didn’t feel like mine at all.” 343
“Shouldn’t ’a’ thought it.”
"Shouldn't have thought it."
“It was so. Well—I reasoned with her. I said, ‘I ain’t a duke, to keep a wife like a pet animal. I married you for ’elp and company.’ I said, ‘You got to ’elp and pull the business through.’ She would n’t ’ear of it. ‘Very well,’ I says; ‘I’m a mild man till I’m roused,’ I says, ‘and it’s getting to that.’ But she wouldn’t ’ear of no warnings.”
“It was true. Well—I tried to reason with her. I said, ‘I’m not a duke, to treat a wife like a pet. I married you for help and companionship.’ I said, ‘You need to help and get the business through.’ She wouldn’t hear of it. ‘Fine,’ I said; ‘I’m a calm man until I’m pushed,’ I said, ‘and it’s getting to that point.’ But she wouldn’t listen to any warnings.”
“Well?”
"What's up?"
“It’s the way with women. She didn’t think I ’ad it in me to be roused. Women of her sort (between ourselves, Tom) don’t respect a man until they’re a bit afraid of him. So I just broke out to show her. In comes a girl named Jennie, that used to work with her, and her chap. We ’ad a bit of a row, and I came out ’ere—it was just such another day as this—and I thought it all out. Then I went back and pitched into them.” “You did?”
“It’s just how women are. She didn’t believe I had it in me to get fired up. Women like her (just between us, Tom) don’t respect a man until they’re a little scared of him. So I just lost it to prove a point. Then a girl named Jennie, who used to work with her, came in with her boyfriend. We had a bit of a fight, and I came out here—it was just another day like this one—and I thought it all over. Then I went back and confronted them.” “You did?”
“I did. I was mad, I can tell you. I wasn’t going to ’it ’er, if I could ’elp it, so I went back and licked into this chap, just to show ’er what I could do. ’E was a big chap, too. Well, I chucked him, and smashed things about, and gave 344’er a scaring, and she ran up and locked ’erself into the spare room.”
“I did. I was really angry, believe me. I wasn’t going to hit her, if I could help it, so I went back and took it out on this guy, just to show her what I could do. He was a big guy, too. Well, I threw him around, broke some things, and scared her so much that she ran up and locked herself in the spare room.”
“Well?”
"What's up?"
“That’s all. I says to ’er the next morning, ‘Now you know,’ I says, ‘what I’m like when I’m roused.’ And I didn’t ’ave to say anything more.”
"That’s all. I told her the next morning, ‘Now you know what I’m like when I’m riled up.’ And I didn’t have to say anything more."
“And you’ve been happy ever after, eh?”
“And you’ve been happy ever since, huh?”
“So to speak. There’s nothing like putting your foot down with them. If it ’adn’t been for that afternoon I should ’a’ been tramping the roads now, and she’d ’a’ been grumbling at me, and all her family grumbling for bringing her to poverty—I know their little ways. But we’re all right now. And it’s a very decent little business, as you say.”
“So to speak. There’s nothing like standing your ground with them. If it hadn't been for that afternoon, I would have been wandering the roads now, and she would have been complaining about me, and all her family would have been upset for bringing her to poverty—I know how they are. But we’re good now. And it’s a pretty decent little business, as you said.”
They proceed on their way meditatively. “Women are funny creatures,” said brother Tom.
They continue on their path, lost in thought. “Women are strange beings,” said brother Tom.
“They want a firm hand,” says Coombes.
“They want strong leadership,” says Coombes.
“What a lot of these funguses there are about here!” remarked brother Tom, presently. “I can’t see what use they are in the world.”
“What a lot of these fungi there are around here!” brother Tom said after a moment. “I can’t see what purpose they serve in the world.”
Mr. Coombes looked. “I dessay they’re sent for some wise purpose,” said Mr. Coombes.
Mr. Coombes looked. “I bet they’re sent for some smart reason,” said Mr. Coombes.
And that was as much thanks as the purple pileus ever got for maddening this absurd little man to the pitch of decisive action, and so altering the whole course of his life.
And that was all the thanks the purple mushroom ever received for driving this ridiculous little guy to finally take action, changing the entire direction of his life.
A CATASTROPHE
The little shop was not paying. The realisation came insensibly. Winslow was not the man for definite addition and subtraction and sudden discovery. He became aware of the truth in his mind gradually, as though it had always been there. A lot of facts had converged and led him to conviction. There was that line of cretonnes—four half pieces—untouched, save for half-a-yard sold to cover a stool. There were those shirtings at 4¾d.—Bandersnatch, in the Broadway, was selling them at 2¾d.—under cost, in fact. (Surely Bandersnatch might let a man live!) Those servants’ caps, a selling line, needed replenishing, and that brought back the memory of Winslow’s sole wholesale dealers, Helter, Skelter, & Grab. Why! How about their account?
The little shop wasn't making any money. The realization hit him slowly. Winslow wasn't the type to do quick math or have sudden insights. He gradually became aware of the truth in his mind, as if it had always been there. A lot of facts had come together and led him to this conclusion. There was that line of fabric—four half pieces—untouched except for half a yard sold to cover a stool. There were those shirt fabrics at 4¾d.—Bandersnatch, in the Broadway, was selling them at 2¾d.—actually below cost. (Surely Bandersnatch could do better!) Those servant caps, which were supposed to sell well, needed restocking, and that reminded him of Winslow’s only wholesale suppliers, Helter, Skelter, & Grab. Wait! What about their account?
Winslow stood with a big green box open on the counter before him when he thought of it. His pale grey eyes grew a little rounder, his pale straggling moustache twitched. He had been drifting along, day after day. He went round to the ramshackle cash desk in the corner—it was Winslow’s weakness to sell his goods over the counter, give his customers a duplicate bill, and then dodge into 346the desk to receive the money, as though he doubted his own honesty. His lank forefinger with the prominent joints ran down the bright little calendar (“Clack’s Cottons last for All Time?”). “One—two—three; three weeks an’ a day!” said Winslow, staring. “March! Only three weeks and a day. It can’t be.”
Winslow stood with a big green box open on the counter in front of him when he thought of it. His pale gray eyes got a little rounder, and his thin, unruly mustache twitched. He had been going through the motions, day after day. He walked over to the rickety cash register in the corner—it was Winslow’s thing to sell his products over the counter, give his customers a duplicate receipt, and then duck into the register to collect the cash, as if he doubted his own honesty. His bony finger with the noticeable joints traced down the shiny little calendar (“Clack’s Cottons last for All Time?”). “One—two—three; three weeks and a day!” Winslow exclaimed, staring. “March! Only three weeks and a day. It can’t be.”
“Tea, dear,” said Mrs. Winslow, opening the door with the glass window and the white blind that communicated with the parlour.
“Tea, dear,” Mrs. Winslow said, opening the door with the glass window and the white blind that connected to the living room.
“One minute,” said Winslow, and began unlocking the desk.
"One minute," Winslow said, starting to unlock the desk.
An irritable old gentleman, very hot and red about the face, and in a heavy fur-lined cloak, came in noisily. Mrs. Winslow vanished.
An irritated old man, flushed and red in the face, wearing a heavy fur-lined coat, came in with a lot of noise. Mrs. Winslow disappeared.
“Ugh!” said the old gentleman. “Pocket-handkerchief.”
“Ugh!” said the old man. “Tissue.”
“Yes, sir,” said Winslow. “About what price—”
“Yes, sir,” Winslow replied. “About what price—”
“Ugh!” said the old gentleman. “Poggit handkerchief, quig!”
“Ugh!” said the old man. “Poggit handkerchief, quig!”
Winslow began to feel flustered. He produced two boxes.
Winslow started to feel overwhelmed. He pulled out two boxes.
“These, sir,” began Winslow.
“These, sir,” Winslow began.
“Sheed tin!” said the old gentleman, clutching the stiffness of the linen. “Wad to blow my nose—not haggit about.”
“Sheed tin!” said the old man, gripping the stiffness of the linen. “What, to blow my nose—not haggle about.”
“A cotton one, p’raps, sir?” said Winslow.
“A cotton one, maybe, sir?” said Winslow.
“How much?” said the old gentleman, over the handkerchief.
“How much?” asked the old man, over the handkerchief.
347“Sevenpence, sir. There’s nothing more I can show you? No ties, braces—”
347“Seven pence, sir. Is there anything else I can show you? No ties, suspenders—”
“Damn!” said the old gentleman, fumbling in his ticket-pocket, and finally producing half-a-crown. Winslow looked round for his little metallic duplicate book which he kept in various fixtures, according to circumstances, and then he caught the old gentleman’s eye. He went straight to the desk at once and got the change, with an entire disregard of the routine of the shop.
“Damn!” said the old gentleman, rummaging in his ticket pocket and finally pulling out a half-crown. Winslow looked around for his small metallic duplicate book, which he kept in different places depending on the situation, and then he caught the old gentleman’s eye. He went straight to the desk and got the change, completely ignoring the shop's usual routine.
Winslow was always more or less excited by a customer. But the open desk reminded him of his trouble. It did not come back to him all at once. He heard a finger-nail softly tapping on the glass, and, looking up, saw Minnie’s eyes over the blind. It seemed like retreat opening. He shut and locked the desk, and went into the little room to tea.
Winslow was usually a bit excited by a customer. But the open desk reminded him of his problems. They didn’t all hit him at once. He heard a fingernail softly tapping on the glass, and when he looked up, he saw Minnie’s eyes peeking over the blind. It felt like an escape was opening up. He shut and locked the desk and went into the small room for tea.
But he was preoccupied. Three weeks and a day. He took unusually large bites of his bread and butter, and stared hard at the little pot of jam. He answered Minnie’s conversational advances distractedly. The shadow of Helter, Skelter, & Grab lay upon the tea-table. He was struggling with this new idea of failure, the tangible realisation, that was taking shape and substance, condensing, as it were, out of the misty uneasiness of many days. At present it was simply one concrete fact; there were thirty-nine pounds left in the bank, and that day three weeks Messrs. Helter, 348Skelter, & Grab, those enterprising outfitters of young men, would demand their eighty pounds.
But he was preoccupied. Three weeks and a day. He took unusually big bites of his bread and butter and stared intently at the small pot of jam. He responded to Minnie’s attempts at conversation distractedly. The shadow of Helter, Skelter, & Grab loomed over the tea table. He was wrestling with this new idea of failure, the tangible realization that was forming and taking shape, condensing, so to speak, out of the misty uneasiness of many days. Right now, it was just one concrete fact: there were thirty-nine pounds left in the bank, and in three weeks, Messrs. Helter, 348Skelter, & Grab, those ambitious outfitters for young men, would demand their eighty pounds.
After tea there was a customer or so—little purchases: some muslin and buckram, dress-protectors, tape, and a pair of Lisle hose. Then, knowing that Black Care was lurking in the dusky corners of the shop, he lit the three lamps early and set to refolding his cotton prints, the most vigorous and least meditative proceeding of which he could think. He could see Minnie’s shadow in the other room as she moved about the table. She was busy turning an old dress. He had a walk after supper, looked in at the Y. M. C. A., but found no one to talk to, and finally went to bed. Minnie was already there. And there, too, waiting for him, nudging him gently, until about midnight he was hopelessly awake, sat Black Care.
After tea, there were a few customers—small purchases: some muslin and buckram, dress protectors, tape, and a pair of Lisle stockings. Then, aware that worry was lurking in the dark corners of the shop, he lit the three lamps early and started refolding his cotton prints, the most active and least reflective thing he could think of doing. He could see Minnie’s shadow in the other room as she moved around the table. She was busy reworking an old dress. After supper, he took a walk, stopped by the Y.M.C.A., but found no one to talk to, and eventually went to bed. Minnie was already there. And there, too, waiting for him and gently nudging him, was worry, until around midnight when he was wide awake.
He had had one or two nights lately in that company, but this was much worse. First came Messrs. Helter, Skelter, & Grab, and their demand for eighty pounds—an enormous sum when your original capital was only a hundred and seventy. They camped, as it were, before him, sat down and beleaguered him. He clutched feebly at the circumambient darkness for expedients. Suppose he had a sale, sold things for almost anything? He tried to imagine a sale miraculously successful in some unexpected manner, and mildly profitable in spite of reductions below cost. Then Bandersnatch, Limited, 101, 102, 103, 105, 106, 107, 349Broadway, joined the siege, a long caterpillar of frontage, a battery of shop fronts, wherein things were sold at a farthing above cost. How could he fight such an establishment? Besides, what had he to sell? He began to review his resources. What taking line was there to bait the sale? Then straightway came those pieces of cretonne, yellow and black with a bluish-green flower; those discredited shirtings, prints without buoyancy, skirmishing haberdashery, some despairful four-button gloves by an inferior maker—a hopeless crew. And that was his force against Bandersnatch, Helter, Skelter, & Grab, and the pitiless world behind them. What ever had made him think a mortal would buy such things? Why had he bought this and neglected that? He suddenly realised the intensity of his hatred for Helter, Skelter, & Grab’s salesman. Then he drove towards an agony of self-reproach. He had spent too much on that cash desk. What real need was there of a desk? He saw his vanity of that desk in a lurid glow of self-discovery. And the lamps? Five pounds! Then suddenly, with what was almost physical pain, he remembered the rent.
He had spent a couple of nights recently with that group, but this was way worse. First, there were Messrs. Helter, Skelter, & Grab, demanding eighty pounds—a massive amount when your original capital was only a hundred and seventy. They surrounded him, sitting down and pressuring him. He weakly grasped at the surrounding darkness for solutions. What if he had a sale and sold his stuff for almost anything? He tried to picture a suddenly successful sale in some unexpected way, even making a bit of profit despite selling below cost. Then Bandersnatch, Limited, 101, 102, 103, 105, 106, 107, 349Broadway, joined the pressure, a long line of storefronts, a barrage of shops where items were sold for just above cost. How could he compete with such a store? Plus, what did he even have to sell? He started to think about his inventory. What catchy item could he use to attract buyers for the sale? Then he immediately thought of those pieces of cretonne, yellow and black with a bluish-green flower; those unwanted shirtings, unexciting prints, cheap haberdashery, and some pathetic four-button gloves from a subpar maker—a hopeless bunch. And that was his defense against Bandersnatch, Helter, Skelter, & Grab, and the unforgiving world behind them. What had ever made him think someone would buy such things? Why had he bought this and ignored that? Suddenly, he realized how much he hated the salesman from Helter, Skelter, & Grab. Then he fell into a deep sense of self-blame. He had spent way too much on that cash desk. What real need was there for a desk? He saw how foolish he had been to buy that desk in a harsh light of self-awareness. And the lamps? Five pounds! Then, with what felt like physical pain, he suddenly remembered the rent.
He groaned and turned over. And there, dim in the darkness, was the hummock of Mrs. Winslow’s shoulders. That set him off in another direction. He became acutely sensible of Minnie’s want of feeling. Here he was, worried to death about business, and she sleeping like a little child. 350He regretted having married, with that infinite bitterness that only comes to the human heart in the small hours of the morning. That hummock of white seemed absolutely without helpfulness, a burden, a responsibility. What fools men were to marry! Minnie’s inert repose irritated him so much that he was almost provoked to wake her up and tell her that they were “Ruined.” She would have to go back to her uncle; her uncle had always been against him; and as for his own future, Winslow was exceedingly uncertain. A shop assistant who has once set up for himself finds the utmost difficulty in getting into a situation again. He began to figure himself “crib-hunting” again, going from this wholesale house to that, writing innumerable letters. How he hated writing letters! “Sir, referring to your advertisement in the ‘Christian World.’” He beheld an infinite vista of discomfort and disappointment, ending—in a gulf.
He groaned and rolled over. And there, faint in the dark, was the outline of Mrs. Winslow’s shoulders. That set his mind racing in a different direction. He became painfully aware of Minnie’s lack of concern. Here he was, stressed out over business, and she was sleeping like a child. 350He regretted marrying her, feeling a deep bitterness that only comes in the early hours of the morning. That white mound looked completely unhelpful, a burden, a responsibility. What fools men were to get married! Minnie’s lifeless sleep annoyed him so much that he was nearly tempted to wake her up and tell her they were “Ruined.” She would have to go back to her uncle; her uncle had always been against him; and as for his own future, Winslow seemed very uncertain. A shop assistant who has once tried to start their own business finds it incredibly hard to get another job. He started picturing himself “crib-hunting” again, going from one wholesale place to another, writing endless letters. How he hated writing letters! “Sir, regarding your ad in the ‘Christian World.’” He envisioned an endless path of discomfort and disappointment, leading—into an abyss.
He dressed, yawning, and went down to open the shop. He felt tired before the day began. As he carried the shutters in he kept asking himself what good he was doing. The end was inevitable, whether he bothered or not. The clear daylight smote into the place and showed how old, and rough, and splintered was the floor, how shabby the second-hand counter, how hopeless the whole enterprise. He had been dreaming these past six months of a bright little shop, of a 351happy couple, of a modest but comely profit flowing in. He had suddenly awakened from his dream. The braid that bound his decent black coat—it was a little loose—caught against the catch of the shop-door, and was torn loose. This suddenly turned his wretchedness to wrath. He stood quivering for a moment, then, with a spiteful clutch, tore the braid looser, and went in to Minnie.
He got dressed while yawning and went downstairs to open the shop. He already felt tired before the day had even started. As he brought in the shutters, he kept questioning what good he was really doing. The end was unavoidable, whether he put in the effort or not. The bright daylight flooded the place, highlighting how old, rough, and splintered the floor was, how shabby the second-hand counter looked, and how hopeless the whole venture seemed. For the past six months, he had been dreaming of a cheerful little shop, of a happy couple, and of a modest but nice profit coming in. He had abruptly woken up from that dream. The braid that held his decent black coat together was a bit loose and got caught on the shop door’s latch, tearing free. This quickly changed his frustration into anger. He stood there trembling for a moment, then, with a surge of spite, pulled the braid tighter and went inside to Minnie.
“Here,” he said, with infinite reproach, “look here! You might look after a chap a bit.”
“Here,” he said, with deep disappointment, “look at this! You could check on a guy a little.”
“I didn’t see it was torn,” said Minnie.
“I didn’t realize it was ripped,” said Minnie.
“You never do,” said Winslow, with gross injustice, “until things are too late.”
“You never do,” Winslow said unfairly, “until it’s too late.”
Minnie looked suddenly at his face. “I’ll sew it now, Sid, if you like.”
Minnie suddenly looked at his face. “I’ll sew it now, Sid, if you want.”
“Let’s have breakfast first,” said Winslow, “and do things at their proper time.”
“Let’s eat breakfast first,” Winslow said, “and handle things when they’re supposed to.”
He was preoccupied at breakfast, and Minnie watched him anxiously. His only remark was to declare his egg a bad one. It wasn’t; it was a little flavoury—being one of those at fifteen a shilling—but quite nice. He pushed it away from him, and then, having eaten a slice of bread and butter, admitted himself in the wrong by resuming the egg.
He was distracted during breakfast, and Minnie watched him with concern. The only thing he said was that his egg was bad. It wasn’t; it was a bit flavorful—one of those that cost fifteen for a shilling—but perfectly fine. He pushed it away from him, and after eating a slice of bread and butter, he acknowledged he was wrong by going back to the egg.
“Sid!” said Minnie, as he stood up to go into the shop again, “you’re not well.”
“Sid!” Minnie said as he got up to head back into the shop, “you’re not feeling well.”
“I’m well enough.” He looked at her as though he hated her.
“I’m fine.” He glared at her as if he despised her.
352“Then there’s something else the matter. You aren’t angry with me, Sid, are you?—about that braid. Do tell me what’s the matter. You were just like this at tea yesterday, and at supper-time. It wasn’t the braid then.”
352“Then something else is bothering you. You’re not mad at me, Sid, are you?—about that braid. Please tell me what’s wrong. You were acting like this at tea yesterday and at dinner, too. It wasn’t the braid then.”
“And I’m likely to be.”
"And I probably will be."
She looked interrogation. “Oh! what is the matter?” she said.
She looked interrogative. “Oh! what is wrong?” she said.
It was too good a chance to miss, and he brought the evil news out with dramatic force. “Matter!” he said. “I done my best, and here we are. That’s the matter! If I can’t pay Helter, Skelter, & Grab eighty pounds, this day three weeks—” Pause. “We shall be sold Up! Sold Up! That’s the matter, Min! Sold Up!”
It was too good of an opportunity to overlook, and he delivered the bad news with dramatic impact. “Listen!” he said. “I did my best, and here we are. That’s the issue! If I can’t pay Helter, Skelter, & Grab eighty pounds in three weeks—” He paused. “We’ll be sold! Sold! That’s the issue, Min! Sold!”
“Oh, Sid!” began Minnie.
“Oh, Sid!” Minnie started.
He slammed the door. For the moment he felt relieved of at least half his misery. He began dusting boxes that did not require dusting, and then re-blocked a cretonne already faultlessly blocked. He was in a state of grim wretchedness,—a martyr under the harrow of fate. At any rate, it should not be said he failed for want of industry. And how he had planned and contrived and worked! All to this end! He felt horrible doubts. Providence and Bandersnatch—surely they were incompatible! Perhaps he was being “tried”? That sent him off upon a new tack, a very comforting one. That martyr pose, the gold-in-the-furnace attitude, lasted all the morning.
He slammed the door. For a moment, he felt relieved of at least half his misery. He started dusting boxes that didn’t need dusting and then readjusted a fabric that was already perfectly arranged. He was in a state of grim despair—a victim under the weight of fate. At least it couldn't be said he lacked effort. And how he had planned, schemed, and worked! All for this! He felt terrible doubts. Providence and Bandersnatch—surely they didn’t mix! Maybe he was being “tested”? That thought sent him in a new, very comforting direction. That martyr mindset, the gold-in-the-furnace attitude, lasted all morning.
353At dinner—“potato pie”—he looked up suddenly, and saw Minnie regarding him. Pale she looked, and a little red about the eyes. Something caught him suddenly with a queer effect upon his throat. All his thoughts seemed to wheel round into quite a new direction.
353At dinner—“potato pie”—he suddenly looked up and saw Minnie watching him. She looked pale, with a bit of redness around her eyes. Something hit him unexpectedly, making his throat feel tight. All his thoughts seemed to shift into a completely new direction.
He pushed back his plate, and stared at her blankly. Then he got up, went round the table to her—she staring at him. He dropped on his knees beside her without a word. “Oh, Minnie!” he said, and suddenly she knew it was peace, and put her arms about him, as he began to sob and weep.
He pushed his plate away and stared at her blankly. Then he stood up, walked around the table to her—she was gazing at him. He dropped to his knees beside her without saying anything. “Oh, Minnie!” he said, and in that moment, she realized it was peace, and wrapped her arms around him as he started to sob and cry.
He cried like a little boy, slobbering on her shoulder that he was a knave to have married her and brought her to this, that he hadn’t the wits to be trusted with a penny, that it was all his fault, that he “had hoped so”—ending in a howl. And she, crying gently herself, patting his shoulders, said, “Ssh!” softly to his noisy weeping, and so soothed the outbreak. Then suddenly the crazy little bell upon the shop-door began, and Winslow had to jump to his feet, and be a man again.
He cried like a little boy, drooling on her shoulder, saying he was a fool for marrying her and bringing her to this, that he wasn’t smart enough to be trusted with a penny, that it was all his fault, that he “had hoped so”—ending with a wail. And she, gently crying herself, patted his shoulders and said, “Ssh!” softly to calm his loud sobs, and that helped ease the outburst. Then suddenly, the little bell on the shop door started ringing, and Winslow had to jump to his feet and be a man again.
After that scene they “talked it over” at tea, at supper, in bed, at every possible interval in between, solemnly—quite inconclusively—with set faces and eyes for the most part staring in front of them—and yet with a certain mutual comfort. “What to do I don’t know,” was Winslow’s main 354proposition. Minnie tried to take a cheerful view of service—with a probable baby. But she found she needed all her courage. And her uncle would help her again, perhaps, just at the critical time. It didn’t do for folks to be too proud. Besides, “something might happen,” a favourite formula with her.
After that scene, they “talked it over” at tea, at supper, in bed, and at any chance they got, seriously—though without reaching any conclusions—looking serious and mostly staring blankly ahead—and yet there was a certain comfort in being together. “I don’t know what to do,” was Winslow’s main thought. Minnie tried to stay positive about the situation—especially with a potential baby on the way. But she realized she needed all her courage. And her uncle might come through for her again, maybe at just the right moment. It wasn’t good for people to be too proud. Plus, “something might happen,” which was one of her go-to phrases. 354
One hopeful line was to anticipate a sudden afflux of customers. “Perhaps,” said Minnie, “you might get together fifty. They know you well enough to trust you a bit.” They debated that point. Once the possibility of Helter, Skelter, & Grab giving credit was admitted, it was pleasant to begin sweating the acceptable minimum. For some half hour over tea the second day after Winslow’s discoveries they were quite cheerful again, laughing even at their terrific fears. Even twenty pounds, to go on with, might be considered enough. Then in some mysterious way the pleasant prospect of Messrs. Helter, Skelter, & Grab tempering the wind to the shorn retailer vanished—vanished absolutely, and Winslow found himself again in the pit of despair.
One hopeful thought was to expect a sudden influx of customers. “Maybe,” said Minnie, “you could pull together fifty. They know you well enough to trust you a little.” They discussed that idea. Once they acknowledged the possibility of Helter, Skelter, & Grab extending credit, it was encouraging to start calculating the acceptable minimum. For about half an hour over tea, two days after Winslow's findings, they were feeling pretty cheerful again, even laughing at their overwhelming fears. Even twenty pounds to keep things going might be seen as sufficient. Then, for some mysterious reason, the nice prospect of Messrs. Helter, Skelter, & Grab easing the strain for the struggling retailer completely disappeared—totally vanished—and Winslow found himself back in the depths of despair.
He began looking about at the furniture, and wondering idly what it would fetch. The chiffonier was good, anyhow, and there were Minnie’s old plates that her mother used to have. Then he began to think of desperate expedients for putting off the evil day. He had heard somewhere of Bills of Sale—there was to his ears 355something comfortingly substantial in the phrase. Then why not “Go to the Money Lenders?”
He started looking around at the furniture, thinking casually about how much it would sell for. The dresser was nice, and there were Minnie's old plates that her mother used to own. Then he began to consider desperate measures to delay the inevitable. He had heard about Bills of Sale somewhere—there was something reassuringly solid about that term. So why not “Go to the Money Lenders?”
One cheering thing happened on Thursday afternoon; a little girl came in with a pattern of “print” and he was able to match it. He had not been able to match anything out of his meagre stock before. He went in and told Minnie. The incident is mentioned lest the reader should imagine it was uniform despair with him.
One encouraging thing happened on Thursday afternoon; a little girl came in with a print pattern, and he was able to match it. He hadn’t been able to match anything from his limited stock before. He went in and told Minnie. This incident is mentioned so the reader doesn’t think he was always in complete despair.
The next morning, and the next, after the discovery, Winslow opened shop late. When one has been awake most of the night, and has no hope, what is the good of getting up punctually? But as he went into the dark shop on Friday a strange event happened. He saw something lying on the floor, something lit by the bright light that came under the ill-fitting door—a black oblong. He stooped and picked up an envelope with a deep mourning edge. It was addressed to his wife. Clearly a death in her family—perhaps her uncle. He knew the man too well to have expectations. And they would have to get mourning and go to the funeral. The brutal cruelty of people dying! He saw it all in a flash—he always visualised his thoughts. Black trousers to get, black crape, black gloves,—none in stock,—the railway fares, the shop closed for the day.
The next morning, and the next, after the discovery, Winslow opened his shop late. When you've been awake most of the night and have no hope, what’s the point of getting up on time? But as he walked into the dark shop on Friday, something strange happened. He saw something lying on the floor, illuminated by the bright light that came through the poorly fitting door—a black rectangle. He bent down and picked up an envelope with a deep black border. It was addressed to his wife. Clearly, someone in her family had passed away—maybe her uncle. He knew the man too well to expect anything good. They would need to buy black clothes and go to the funeral. The harsh reality of death! He visualized it all in a split second—black trousers to buy, black fabric, black gloves—none in stock—the train fares, and the shop closed for the day.
“I’m afraid there’s bad news, Minnie,” he said.
“I’m afraid there’s bad news, Minnie,” he said.
356She was kneeling before the fireplace, blowing the fire. She had her housemaid’s gloves on and the old country sun-bonnet she wore of a morning, to keep the dust out of her hair. She turned, saw the envelope, gave a gasp, and pressed two bloodless lips together.
356She was kneeling in front of the fireplace, fanning the flames. She had on her housemaid's gloves and the old sunbonnet she wore in the morning to keep the dust out of her hair. She turned, saw the envelope, gasped, and pressed her pale lips together.
“I’m afraid it’s uncle,” she said, holding the letter and staring with eyes wide open into Winslow’s face. “It’s a strange hand!”
“I’m afraid it’s uncle,” she said, holding the letter and staring with wide eyes into Winslow’s face. “It’s a weird handwriting!”
“The postmark’s Hull,” said Winslow.
"The postmark is from Hull," said Winslow.
“The postmark’s Hull.”
"Hull is on the postmark."
Minnie opened the letter slowly, drew it out, hesitated, turned it over, saw the signature. “It’s Mr. Speight!”
Minnie slowly opened the letter, pulled it out, paused, turned it over, and saw the signature. “It’s Mr. Speight!”
“What does he say?” said Winslow.
“What does he say?” Winslow asked.
Minnie began to read. “Oh!” she screamed. She dropped the letter, collapsed into a crouching heap, her hands covering her eyes. Winslow snatched at it. “A most terrible accident has occurred,” he read; “Melchior’s chimney fell down yesterday evening right on the top of your uncle’s house, and every living soul was killed—your uncle, your cousin Mary, Will, and Ned, and the girl—every one of them, and smashed—you would hardly know them. I’m writing to you to break the news before you see it in the papers—.” The letter fluttered from Winslow’s fingers. He put out his hand against the mantel to steady himself.
Minnie started to read. “Oh!” she screamed. She dropped the letter and collapsed into a crouching position, her hands covering her eyes. Winslow grabbed it. “A terrible accident has happened,” he read; “Melchior’s chimney fell yesterday evening right onto your uncle’s house, and everyone was killed—your uncle, your cousin Mary, Will, and Ned, and the girl—every single one of them, and they were smashed—you would hardly recognize them. I’m writing to let you know before you see it in the papers—.” The letter slipped from Winslow’s fingers. He reached out to the mantel to steady himself.
All of them dead! Then he saw, as in a 357vision, a row of seven cottages, each let at seven shillings a week, a timber yard, two villas, and the ruins—still marketable—of the avuncular residence. He tried to feel a sense of loss and could not. They were sure to have been left to Minnie’s aunt. All dead! 7 × 7 × 52 ÷ 20 began insensibly to work itself out in his mind, but discipline was ever weak in his mental arithmetic; figures kept moving from one line to another, like children playing at Widdy, Widdy Way. Was it two hundred pounds about—or one hundred pounds? Presently he picked up the letter again, and finished reading it. “You being the next of kin,” said Mr. Speight.
All of them are gone! Then he saw, in a vision, a row of seven cottages, each rented for seven shillings a week, a lumber yard, two villas, and the remnants—still sellable—of the uncle’s house. He tried to feel a sense of loss but couldn't. They must have been left to Minnie’s aunt. All dead! 7 × 7 × 52 ÷ 20 started to work itself out in his mind, but his mental math was always weak; the numbers kept shifting from one line to another, like kids playing a game. Was it around two hundred pounds—or one hundred pounds? Eventually, he picked up the letter again and finished reading it. “You being the next of kin,” said Mr. Speight.
“How awful!” said Minnie, in a horror-struck whisper, and looking up at last. Winslow stared back at her, shaking his head solemnly. There were a thousand things running through his mind, but none that, even to his dull sense, seemed appropriate as a remark. “It was the Lord’s will,” he said at last.
“How awful!” Minnie said in a shocked whisper, finally looking up. Winslow stared back at her, shaking his head seriously. A thousand thoughts raced through his mind, but none felt right to say, even to his indifferent senses. “It was the Lord’s will,” he finally said.
“It seems so very, very terrible,” said Minnie; “auntie, dear auntie—Ted—poor, dear uncle—”
“It feels really, really awful,” said Minnie; “auntie, dear auntie—Ted—poor, dear uncle—”
“It was the Lord’s will, Minnie,” said Winslow, with infinite feeling. A long silence.
“It was the Lord’s will, Minnie,” Winslow said, with deep emotion. A long silence.
“Yes,” said Minnie, very slowly, staring thoughtfully at the crackling black paper in the grate. The fire had gone out. “Yes, perhaps it was the Lord’s will.”
“Yes,” said Minnie, very slowly, staring thoughtfully at the crackling black paper in the grate. The fire had gone out. “Yes, maybe it was the Lord’s will.”
358They looked gravely at one another. Each would have been terribly shocked at any mention of the property by the other. She turned to the dark fireplace and began tearing up an old newspaper slowly. Whatever our losses may be, the world’s work still waits for us. Winslow gave a deep sigh and walked in a hushed manner towards the front door. As he opened it a flood of sunlight came streaming into the dark shadows of the closed shop. Brandersnatch, Helter, Skelter, & Grab, had vanished out of his mind like the mists before the rising sun.
358They looked seriously at each other. Each would have been incredibly shocked if the other mentioned the property. She turned to the dark fireplace and started slowly tearing up an old newspaper. No matter our losses, the world’s work still waits for us. Winslow sighed deeply and quietly walked toward the front door. As he opened it, a flood of sunlight poured into the dark corners of the closed shop. Brandersnatch, Helter, Skelter, & Grab, had faded from his mind like mist before the rising sun.
Presently he was carrying in the shutters, and in the briskest way; the fire in the kitchen was crackling exhilaratingly with a little saucepan walloping above it, for Minnie was boiling two eggs—one for herself this morning, as well as one for him—and Minnie herself was audible, laying breakfast with the greatest éclat. The blow was a sudden and terrible one—but it behoves us to face such things bravely in this sad, unaccountable world. It was quite midday before either of them mentioned the cottages.
Right now, he was bringing in the shutters, and he was doing it quickly; the fire in the kitchen was crackling cheerfully with a little saucepan bouncing on top, since Minnie was boiling two eggs—one for herself this morning, and one for him—and Minnie was clearly busy setting the table for breakfast with great style. The blow was sudden and devastating—but we must confront such things bravely in this sad, unpredictable world. It was nearly noon before either of them brought up the cottages.
LE MARI TERRIBLE
“You are always so sympathetic,” she said; and added, reflectively, “and one can talk of one’s troubles to you without any nonsense.”
“You're always so understanding,” she said, and added thoughtfully, “and I can share my problems with you without any nonsense.”
I wondered dimly if she meant that as a challenge. I helped myself to a biscuit thing that looked neither poisonous nor sandy. “You are one of the most puzzling human beings I ever met,” I said,—a perfectly safe remark to any woman under any circumstances.
I vaguely wondered if she saw that as a challenge. I grabbed a biscuit that looked neither poisonous nor gritty. “You are one of the most confusing people I've ever met,” I said—completely safe to say to any woman at any time.
“Do you find me so hard to understand?” she said.
“Do you think I’m that hard to understand?” she asked.
“You are dreadfully complex.” I bit at the biscuit thing, and found it full of a kind of creamy bird-lime. (I wonder why women will arrange these unpleasant surprises for me—I sickened of sweets twenty years ago.)
“You are incredibly complicated.” I took a bite of the biscuit and discovered it was filled with a kind of creamy sticky substance. (I wonder why women always set up these annoying surprises for me—I lost my taste for sweets twenty years ago.)
“How so?” she was saying, and smiling her most brilliant smile.
“How come?” she asked, smiling her brightest smile.
I have no doubt she thought we were talking rather nicely. “Oh!” said I, and waved the cream biscuit thing. “You challenge me to dissect you.”
I have no doubt she thought we were having a nice conversation. “Oh!” I said, waving the cream biscuit. “You’re challenging me to analyze you.”
“Well?”
"What's up?"
“And that is precisely what I cannot do.”
“And that is exactly what I can’t do.”
360“I’m afraid you are very satirical,” she said, with a touch of disappointment. She is always saying that when our conversation has become absolutely idiotic—as it invariably does. I felt an inevitable desire to quote bogus Latin to her. It seemed the very language for her.
360“I think you’re pretty sarcastic,” she said, with a hint of disappointment. She always says that when our conversation gets completely ridiculous—like it always does. I felt a strong urge to toss some fake Latin her way. It just seemed like the perfect language for her.
“Malorum fiducia pars quosque libet,” I said, in a low voice, looking meaningly into her eyes.
“Malorum trust part anyone likes,” I said, in a quiet voice, looking deeply into her eyes.
“Ah!” she said, colouring a little, and turned to pour hot water into the teapot, looking very prettily at me over her arm as she did so.
“Ah!” she said, blushing slightly, and turned to pour hot water into the teapot, glancing at me sweetly over her arm as she did so.
“That is one of the truest things that has ever been said of sympathy,” I remarked. “Don’t you think so?”
“That is one of the truest things ever said about sympathy,” I said. “Don’t you think so?”
“Sympathy,” she said, “is a very wonderful thing, and a very precious thing.”
“Sympathy,” she said, “is a truly amazing thing, and a very valuable thing.”
“You speak,” said I (with a cough behind my hand), “as though you knew what it was to be lonely.”
“You speak,” I said (coughing into my hand), “as if you know what it’s like to be lonely.”
“There is solitude even in a crowd,” she said, and looked round at the six other people—three discreet pairs—who were in the room.
“There’s solitude even in a crowd,” she said, and glanced around at the six other people—three quiet pairs—who were in the room.
“I, too,” I was beginning, but Hopdangle came with a teacup, and seemed inclined to linger. He belongs to the “Nice Boy” class, and gives himself ridiculous airs of familiarity with grown-up people. Then the Giffens went.
“I, too,” I was starting to say, but Hopdangle showed up with a teacup and seemed like he wanted to stick around. He’s part of the “Nice Boy” group and acts all high and mighty like he knows grown-ups well. Then the Giffens left.
“Do you know, I always take such an interest in your work,” she was saying to me, when her husband(confound him!) came into the room.
“Do you know, I always find your work so interesting,” she was saying to me when her husband (damn him!) walked into the room.
361He was a violent discord. He wore a short brown jacket and carpet slippers, and three of his waistcoat buttons were (as usual) undone. “Got any tea left, Millie?” he said, and came and sat down in the arm-chair beside the table.
361He was a loud disruption. He wore a short brown jacket and house slippers, and three of his waistcoat buttons were (as usual) unbuttoned. “Got any tea left, Millie?” he asked, then came and sat down in the armchair next to the table.
“How do, Delalune?” he said to the man in the corner. “Damned hot, Bellows,” he remarked to me, subsiding creakily.
“How’s it going, Delalune?” he said to the guy in the corner. “It’s really hot, Bellows,” he replied to me, settling down with a creak.
She poured some more hot water into the teapot. (Why must charming married women always have these husbands?)
She poured more hot water into the teapot. (Why do charming married women always have these husbands?)
“It is very hot,” I said.
“It’s really hot,” I said.
There was a perceptible pause. He is one of those rather adipose people, who are not disconcerted by conversational gaps. “Are you, too, working at Argon?” I said. He is some kind of chemical investigator, I know.
There was a noticeable pause. He’s one of those somewhat overweight people who aren’t bothered by awkward silences in conversation. “Are you also working at Argon?” I asked. I know he’s some sort of chemical researcher.
He began at once to explain the most horribly complex things about elements to me. She gave him his tea, and rose and went and talked to the other people about autotypes. “Yes,” I said, not hearing what he was saying.
He immediately started explaining the most incredibly complicated things about elements to me. She handed him his tea, then got up and went to talk to the other people about autotypes. “Yeah,” I said, not really paying attention to what he was saying.
“‘No’ would be more appropriate,” he said. “You are absent-minded, Bellows. Not in love, I hope—at your age?”
“‘No’ would be more appropriate,” he said. “You’re absent-minded, Bellows. I hope you’re not in love—at your age?”
Really, I am not thirty, but a certain perceptible thinness in my hair may account for his invariably regarding me as a contemporary. But he should understand that nowadays the beginnings of baldness merely mark the virile epoch. 362“I say, Millie,” he said, out loud and across the room, “you haven’t been collecting Bellows here—have you?”
Honestly, I’m not thirty, but a noticeable thinning in my hair might explain why he always sees me as his peer. However, he should realize that these days, the first signs of baldness just signify a man’s prime years. 362 “Hey, Millie,” he called out loudly from across the room, “you haven’t been collecting Bellows here, have you?”
She looked round startled, and I saw a pained look come into her eyes. “For the bazaar?” she said. “Not yet, dear.” It seemed to me that she shot a glance of entreaty at him. Then she turned to the others again.
She looked around, surprised, and I noticed a pained expression in her eyes. “For the bazaar?” she asked. “Not yet, dear.” It felt like she shot him a pleading look. Then she turned back to the others again.
“My wife,” he said, “has two distinctive traits. She is a born poetess and a born collector. I ought to warn you.”
“My wife,” he said, “has two unique traits. She’s a natural poet and a natural collector. I should give you a heads up.”
“I did not know,” said I, “that she rhymed.”
“I didn’t know,” I said, “that she could rhyme.”
“I was speaking more of the imaginative quality, the temperament that finds a splendour in the grass, a glory in the flower, that clothes the whole world in a vestiture of interpretation.”
“I was referring more to the imaginative quality, the mindset that sees beauty in the grass, a glory in the flower, that dresses the entire world in a layer of meaning.”
“Indeed!” I said. I felt she was watching us anxiously. He could not, of course, suspect. But I was relieved to fancy he was simply talking nonsense.
“Really!” I said. I felt like she was watching us nervously. He could not, of course, suspect anything. But I was glad to think he was just talking nonsense.
“The magnificent figures of heroic, worshipful, and mysterious womanhood naturally appeal to her—Cleopatra, Messalina, Beatrice, the Madonna, and so forth.”
“The stunning images of heroic, revered, and enigmatic womanhood naturally draw her in—Cleopatra, Messalina, Beatrice, the Madonna, and so on.”
“And she is writing—”
"And she's writing—"
“No, she is acting. That is the real poetry of women and children. A platonic Cleopatra of infinite variety, spotless reputation, and a large following. Her make-believe is wonderful. She would use Falstaff for Romeo without a twinge, if 363no one else was at hand. She could exert herself to break the heart of a soldier. I assure you, Bellows—”
“No, she’s just acting. That's the true artistry of women and children. A platonic Cleopatra of endless variety, perfect reputation, and a huge fanbase. Her imagination is remarkable. She’d easily put Falstaff in the role of Romeo without a second thought, if no one else was available. She could totally move to break a soldier's heart. I promise you, Bellows—”
I heard her dress rustle behind me.
I heard her dress swish behind me.
“I want some more tea,” he said to her. “You misunderstood me about the collecting, Millie.”
“I want some more tea,” he said to her. “You misunderstood me about the collecting, Millie.”
“What were you saying about Cleopatra?” she said, trying, I think, to look sternly at him.
“What were you saying about Cleopatra?” she asked, trying, I think, to look serious at him.
“Scandal,” he said. “But about the collecting, Bellows—”
“Scandal,” he said. “But about the collecting, Bellows—”
“You must come to this bazaar,” she interrupted.
“You have to come to this market,” she interrupted.
“I shall be delighted,” I said, boldly. “Where is it, and when?”
"I'll be happy to," I said confidently. "Where is it, and when?"
“About this collecting,” he began.
"About this collection," he began.
“It is in aid of that delightful orphanage at Wimblingham,” she explained, and gave me an animated account of the charity. He emptied his second cup of tea. “May I have a third cup?” he said.
“It’s for that lovely orphanage at Wimblingham,” she explained, and shared an enthusiastic story about the charity. He finished his second cup of tea. “Can I have a third cup?” he asked.
The two girls signalled departure, and her attention was distracted. “She collects—and I will confess she does it with extraordinary skill—the surreptitious addresses—”
The two girls signaled they were leaving, and her focus shifted. “She collects—and I have to admit, she does it with impressive skill—the secret addresses—”
“John,” she said over her shoulder, “I wish you would tell Miss Smithers all those interesting things about Argon.” He gulped down his third cup, and rose with the easy obedience of the trained husband. Presently she returned to the tea-things. “Cannot I fill your cup?” she asked. 364“I really hope John was not telling you his queer notions about me. He says the most remarkable things. Quite lately he has got it into his head that he has a formula for my character.”
“John,” she said over her shoulder, “I wish you would tell Miss Smithers all those interesting things about Argon.” He gulped down his third cup and got up with the easy compliance of a trained husband. Soon, she returned to the tea things. “Can I refill your cup?” she asked. 364“I really hope John wasn’t sharing his strange ideas about me. He says the most remarkable things. Recently, he’s convinced he has a formula for understanding my character.”
“I wish I had,” I said, with a sigh.
“I wish I had,” I said, letting out a sigh.
“And he goes about explaining me to people, as though I was a mechanism. ‘Scalp collector,’ I think is the favourite phrase. Did he tell you? Don’t you think it perfectly horrid of him?”
“And he goes around explaining me to people, as if I were a machine. ‘Scalp collector,’ I believe, is his favorite phrase. Did he mention that to you? Don’t you think that’s absolutely horrible of him?”
“But he doesn’t understand you,” I said, not grasping his meaning quite at the minute.
“But he doesn’t get you,” I said, not quite understanding what he meant at that moment.
She sighed.
She sighed.
“You have,” I said, with infinite meaning, “my sincere sympathy—” I hesitated—“my whole sympathy.”
“You have,” I said, with deep meaning, “my sincere sympathy—” I paused—“my complete sympathy.”
“Thank you so much,” she said, quite as meaningly. I rose forthwith, and we clasped hands, like souls who strike a compact.
“Thank you so much,” she said, with a lot of meaning. I stood up immediately, and we shook hands, like people who make a promise.
Yet, thinking over what he said afterwards, I was troubled by a fancy that there was the faintest suggestion of a smile of triumph about her lips and mouth. Possibly it was only an honourable pride. I suppose he has poisoned my mind a little. Of course, I should not like to think of myself as one of a fortuitously selected multitude strung neatly together (if one may use the vulgarism) on a piece of string,—a stringful like a boy’s string of chestnuts,—nice old gentlemen, nice boys, sympathetic and humorous men of thirty, kind fellows, gifted dreamers, and dashing blades, 365all trailing after her. It is confoundedly bad form of him, anyhow, to guy her visitors. She certainly took it like a saint. Of course, I shall see her again soon, and we shall talk to one another about one another. Something or other cropped up and prevented my going there on her last Tuesday.
Yet, after thinking about what he said, I was bothered by the thought that there was a faint hint of a triumphant smile on her lips and mouth. Maybe it was just a sense of pride. I guess he has influenced my thoughts a little. Of course, I wouldn’t want to see myself as just part of a randomly selected group, neatly lined up (if you can call it that) on a string—like a boy’s string of chestnuts—composed of nice old gentlemen, good guys, sympathetic and funny men in their thirties, kind souls, talented dreamers, and charming fellows, all trailing after her. It’s really poor form for him to mock her visitors. She definitely handled it graciously. I’ll see her again soon, and we’ll talk about each other. Something came up that stopped me from going there last Tuesday.
THE APPLE
“I must get rid of it,” said the man in the corner of the carriage, abruptly breaking the silence.
“I need to get rid of it,” said the man in the corner of the carriage, suddenly breaking the silence.
Mr. Hinchcliff looked up, hearing imperfectly. He had been lost in the rapt contemplation of the college cap tied by a string to his portmanteau handles—the outward and visible sign of his newly-gained pedagogic position—in the rapt appreciation of the college cap and the pleasant anticipations it excited. For Mr. Hinchcliff had just matriculated at London University, and was going to be junior assistant at the Holmwood Grammar School—a very enviable position. He stared across the carriage at his fellow-traveller.
Mr. Hinchcliff looked up, struggling to hear. He had been deeply focused on the college cap tied with a string to the handles of his suitcase—the visible sign of his new teaching position—and the excitement it brought him. Mr. Hinchcliff had just enrolled at London University and was set to be a junior assistant at Holmwood Grammar School—a highly sought-after role. He gazed across the train carriage at the person sitting opposite him.
“Why not give it away?” said this person. “Give it away! Why not?”
“Why not just give it away?” said this person. “Give it away! Why not?”
He was a tall, dark, sunburnt man with a pale face. His arms were folded tightly, and his feet were on the seat in front of him. He was pulling at a lank, black moustache. He stared hard at his toes.
He was a tall, dark, sunburnt guy with a pale face. His arms were crossed tightly, and his feet were on the seat in front of him. He was tugging at a thin, black mustache. He focused intently on his toes.
“Why not?” he said.
"Why not?" he asked.
Mr. Hinchcliff coughed.
Mr. Hinchcliff coughed.
The stranger lifted his eyes—they were curious, dark grey eyes—and stared blankly at Mr. Hinchcliff 367for the best part of a minute, perhaps. His expression grew to interest.
The stranger looked up—his eyes were a deep, dark grey—and stared blankly at Mr. Hinchcliff 367for almost a minute. His expression shifted to one of interest.
“Yes,” he said slowly. “Why not? And end it.”
“Yes,” he said slowly. “Why not? Let’s finish this.”
“I don’t quite follow you, I’m afraid,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, with another cough.
“I’m not sure I understand you, I’m afraid,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, with another cough.
“You don’t quite follow me?” said the stranger, quite mechanically, his singular eyes wandering from Mr. Hinchcliff to the bag with its ostentatiously displayed cap, and back to Mr. Hinchcliff’s downy face.
“You don’t really get what I’m saying?” said the stranger, almost automatically, his unusual eyes drifting from Mr. Hinchcliff to the bag with its showy cap, and then back to Mr. Hinchcliff’s soft face.
“You’re so abrupt, you know,” apologised Mr. Hinchcliff.
“You're so blunt, you know,” Mr. Hinchcliff apologized.
“Why shouldn’t I?” said the stranger, following his thoughts. “You are a student?” he said, addressing Mr. Hinchcliff.
“Why shouldn’t I?” said the stranger, continuing his thoughts. “Are you a student?” he asked, directing his question at Mr. Hinchcliff.
“I am—by Correspondence—of the London University,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, with irrepressible pride, and feeling nervously at his tie.
“I am—by correspondence—of the London University,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, with uncontainable pride, nervously adjusting his tie.
“In pursuit of knowledge,” said the stranger, and suddenly took his feet off the seat, put his fist on his knees, and stared at Mr. Hinchcliff as though he had never seen a student before. “Yes,” he said, and flung out an index finger. Then he rose, took a bag from the hat-rack, and unlocked it. Quite silently, he drew out something round and wrapped in a quantity of silver-paper, and unfolded this carefully. He held it out towards Mr. Hinchcliff,—a small, very smooth, golden-yellow fruit.
“In pursuit of knowledge,” said the stranger, and suddenly took his feet off the seat, placed his fist on his knees, and stared at Mr. Hinchcliff as if he had never seen a student before. “Yes,” he said, pointing with his index finger. Then he got up, grabbed a bag from the hat rack, and unlocked it. Quietly, he pulled out something round wrapped in silver paper and carefully unfolded it. He held it out towards Mr. Hinchcliff—a small, very smooth, golden-yellow fruit.
368Mr. Hinchcliff’s eyes and mouth were open. He did not offer to take this object—if he was intended to take it.
368Mr. Hinchcliff’s eyes and mouth were open. He didn't make any move to grab this object—if he was supposed to take it.
“That,” said this fantastic stranger, speaking very slowly, “is the Apple of the Tree of Knowledge. Look at it—small, and bright, and wonderful—Knowledge—and I am going to give it to you.”
“That,” said the amazing stranger, speaking very slowly, “is the Apple of the Tree of Knowledge. Look at it—small, bright, and incredible—Knowledge—and I’m going to give it to you.”
Mr. Hinchcliff’s mind worked painfully for a minute, and then the sufficient explanation, “Mad!” flashed across his brain, and illuminated the whole situation. One humoured madmen. He put his head a little on one side.
Mr. Hinchcliff’s mind struggled for a minute, and then the simple explanation, “Crazy!” hit him and cleared up everything. One dealt with crazy people. He tilted his head slightly to the side.
“The Apple of the Tree of Knowledge, eigh!” said Mr. Hinchcliff, regarding it with a finely assumed air of interest, and then looking at the interlocutor. “But don’t you want to eat it yourself? And besides—how did you come by it?”
“The Apple of the Tree of Knowledge, huh!” said Mr. Hinchcliff, looking at it with an exaggerated sense of curiosity, and then glancing at the person he was talking to. “But don't you want to take a bite yourself? And also—where did you get it?”
“It never fades. I have had it now three months. And it is ever bright and smooth and ripe and desirable, as you see it.” He laid his hand on his knee and regarded the fruit musingly. Then he began to wrap it again in the papers, as though he had abandoned his intention of giving it away.
“It never fades. I've had it for three months now. And it's always bright, smooth, ripe, and desirable, just like you see it.” He placed his hand on his knee and looked at the fruit thoughtfully. Then he started wrapping it up in the papers again, as if he had given up on his plan to give it away.
“But how did you come by it?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, who had his argumentative side. “And how do you know that it is the Fruit of the Tree?”
“But how did you get it?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, who had a bit of a debating streak. “And how do you know that it is the Fruit of the Tree?”
“I bought this fruit,” said the stranger, “three months ago—for a drink of water and a crust of 369bread. The man who gave it to me—because I kept the life in him—was an Armenian. Armenia! that wonderful country, the first of all countries, where the ark of the Flood remains to this day, buried in the glaciers of Mount Ararat. This man, I say, fleeing with others from the Kurds who had come upon them, went up into desolate places among the mountains—places beyond the common knowledge of men. And fleeing from imminent pursuit, they came to a slope high among the mountain-peaks, green with a grass like knife-blades, that cut and slashed most pitilessly at any one who went into it. The Kurds were close behind, and there was nothing for it but to plunge in, and the worst of it was that the paths they made through it at the price of their blood served for the Kurds to follow. Every one of the fugitives was killed save this Armenian and another. He heard the screams and cries of his friends, and the swish of the grass about those who were pursuing them—it was tall grass rising overhead. And then a shouting and answers, and when presently he paused, everything was still. He pushed out again, not understanding, cut and bleeding, until he came out on a steep slope of rocks below a precipice, and then he saw the grass was all on fire, and the smoke of it rose like a veil between him and his enemies.”
“I bought this fruit,” said the stranger, “three months ago—for a drink of water and a piece of bread. The man who gave it to me—because I kept him alive—was an Armenian. Armenia! That incredible country, the first of all countries, where the ark of the Flood still lies, buried in the glaciers of Mount Ararat. This man, I say, fleeing with others from the Kurds who had attacked them, went up into desolate places in the mountains—places unknown to most people. While escaping from imminent danger, they reached a slope high among the mountain peaks, covered with sharp, knife-blade grass that cut and slashed mercilessly at anyone who entered it. The Kurds were close behind, and they had no choice but to plunge in, and the worst part was that the paths they made through it at the cost of their blood allowed the Kurds to follow. Every one of the fugitives was killed except for this Armenian and another. He heard the screams and cries of his friends, along with the rustling of the tall grass around those pursuing them. Then there was shouting and responses, and when he paused for a moment, everything went quiet. He pushed forward again, not understanding, cut and bleeding, until he emerged onto a steep slope of rocks below a cliff. Then he saw the grass was on fire, and the smoke rose like a veil between him and his enemies.”
The stranger paused. “Yes?” said Mr. Hinchcliff. “Yes?”
The stranger stopped. “Yes?” Mr. Hinchcliff replied. “Yes?”
370“There he was, all torn and bloody from the knife-blades of the grass, the rocks blazing under the afternoon sun,—the sky molten brass,—and the smoke of the fire driving towards him. He dared not stay there. Death he did not mind, but torture! Far away beyond the smoke he heard shouts and cries. Women screaming. So he went clambering up a gorge in the rocks—everywhere were bushes with dry branches that stuck out like thorns among the leaves—until he clambered over the brow of a ridge that hid him. And then he met his companion, a shepherd, who had also escaped. And, counting cold and famine and thirst as nothing against the Kurds, they went on into the heights, and among the snow and ice. They wandered three whole days.
370 “There he was, all torn and bloody from the sharp grass and the rocks blazing under the afternoon sun—the sky a molten brass—and the smoke from the fire drifting toward him. He couldn't stay there. He didn't mind death, but torture? Far away beyond the smoke, he heard shouts and cries. Women screaming. So he climbed up a gorge in the rocks—everywhere were bushes with dry branches that poked out like thorns among the leaves—until he scrambled over the top of a ridge that concealed him. Then he met his companion, a shepherd, who had also escaped. And, considering cold, hunger, and thirst as nothing compared to the Kurds, they continued into the heights, among the snow and ice. They wandered for three whole days.
“The third day came the vision. I suppose hungry men often do see visions, but then there is this fruit.” He lifted the wrapped globe in his hand. “And I have heard it, too, from other mountaineers who have known something of the legend. It was in the evening time, when the stars were increasing, that they came down a slope of polished rock into a huge, dark valley all set about with strange, contorted trees, and in these trees hung little globes like glow-worm spheres, strange, round, yellow lights.
“The third day, the vision came. I guess hungry people often see visions, but then there’s this fruit.” He held up the wrapped globe in his hand. “And I’ve heard it from other climbers who know something about the legend. It was in the evening, as the stars were coming out, that they descended a slope of smooth rock into a vast, dark valley surrounded by weird, twisted trees, and in those trees hung little globes like glow-worm spheres, unusual, round, yellow lights.
“Suddenly this valley was lit far away, many miles away, far down it, with a golden flame 371marching slowly athwart it, that made the stunted trees against it black as night, and turned the slopes all about them and their figures to the likeness of fiery gold. And at the vision they, knowing the legends of the mountains, instantly knew that it was Eden they saw, or the sentinel of Eden, and they fell upon their faces like men struck dead.
“Suddenly, this valley was lit up far away, many miles down the way, with a golden flame moving slowly across it, making the stunted trees look as black as night, and turning the slopes all around them and their figures into fiery gold. At the sight, they, knowing the legends of the mountains, instantly recognized that it was Eden they were seeing, or the guardian of Eden, and they fell to the ground like men struck dead. 371
“When they dared to look again, the valley was dark for a space, and then the light came again—returning, a burning amber.
“When they finally looked again, the valley was dark for a moment, and then the light returned—a fiery amber.”
“At that the shepherd sprang to his feet, and with a shout began to run down towards the light; but the other man was too fearful to follow him. He stood stunned, amazed, and terrified, watching his companion recede towards the marching glare. And hardly had the shepherd set out when there came a noise like thunder, the beating of invisible wings hurrying up the valley, and a great and terrible fear; and at that the man who gave me the fruit turned—if he might still escape. And hurrying headlong up the slope again, with that tumult sweeping after him, he stumbled against one of these stunted bushes, and a ripe fruit came off it into his hand. This fruit. Forthwith, the wings and the thunder rolled all about him. He fell and fainted, and when he came to his senses, he was back among the blackened ruins of his own village, and I and the others were attending to the wounded. A 372vision? But the golden fruit of the tree was still clutched in his hand. There were others there who knew the legend, knew what that strange fruit might be.” He paused. “And this is it,” he said.
“At that, the shepherd jumped up and shouted as he ran toward the light; but the other man was too scared to follow him. He stood there, stunned, amazed, and terrified, watching his friend move away toward the bright glow. Hardly had the shepherd started when a noise like thunder erupted, the sound of invisible wings rushing up the valley, bringing with it a massive, terrible fear; at that, the man who gave me the fruit turned—to see if he could still escape. He hurried back up the slope, with that chaos chasing after him, and stumbled into one of those stunted bushes, where a ripe fruit fell into his hand. This fruit. Immediately, the wings and thunder surrounded him. He fell and fainted, and when he regained consciousness, he was back among the charred remains of his own village, and I and the others were tending to the wounded. A 372vision? But the golden fruit from the tree was still clutched in his hand. There were others there who recognized the legend and understood what that strange fruit might be.” He paused. “And this is it,” he said.
It was a most extraordinary story to be told in a third-class carriage on a Sussex railway. It was as if the real was a mere veil to the fantastic, and here was the fantastic poking through. “Is it?” was all Mr. Hinchcliff could say.
It was an extraordinary story to be told in a third-class carriage on a Sussex railway. It was like the real was just a thin layer over the fantastic, and here was the fantastic breaking through. “Is it?” was all Mr. Hinchcliff could say.
“The legend,” said the stranger, “tells that those thickets of dwarfed trees growing about the garden sprang from the apple that Adam carried in his hand when he and Eve were driven forth. He felt something in his hand, saw the half-eaten apple, and flung it petulantly aside. And there they grow, in that desolate valley, girdled round with the everlasting snows; and there the fiery swords keep ward against the Judgment Day.”
“The legend,” said the stranger, “says that the stunted trees around the garden grew from the apple that Adam held when he and Eve were expelled. He felt something in his hand, saw the half-eaten apple, and threw it away in annoyance. And there they stand, in that barren valley, surrounded by everlasting snow; and there the fiery swords guard against Judgment Day.”
“But I thought these things were—” Mr. Hinchcliff paused—“fables—parables rather. Do you mean to tell me that there in Armenia—”
“But I thought these things were—” Mr. Hinchcliff paused—“fables—more like parables. Are you really telling me that there in Armenia—”
The stranger answered the unfinished question with the fruit in his open hand.
The stranger replied to the incomplete question with the fruit in his open hand.
“But you don’t know,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “that that is the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. The man may have had—a sort of mirage, say. Suppose—”
“But you don’t know,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “that that is the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. The man may have had—a kind of illusion, let’s say. Suppose—”
“Look at it,” said the stranger.
“Check it out,” said the stranger.
It was certainly a strange-looking globe, not 373really an apple, Mr. Hinchcliff saw, and a curious glowing golden colour, almost as though light itself was wrought into its substance. As he looked at it, he began to see more vividly the desolate valley among the mountains, the guarding swords of fire, the strange antiquities of the story he had just heard. He rubbed a knuckle into his eye. “But—” said he.
It was definitely a weird-looking globe, not really an apple, Mr. Hinchcliff noticed, and it had a strange glowing golden color, almost as if light itself was woven into it. As he stared at it, he started to see more clearly the barren valley surrounded by the mountains, the protective swords of fire, and the odd relics from the story he had just heard. He rubbed his knuckle against his eye. “But—” he said.
“It has kept like that, smooth and full, three months. Longer than that it is now by some days. No drying, no withering, no decay.”
“It has stayed like that, smooth and full, for three months. It’s now been longer than that by a few days. No drying, no withering, no decay.”
“And you yourself,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “really believe that—”
“And you yourself,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “actually believe that—”
“Is the Forbidden Fruit.”
"Is the Forbidden Fruit."
There was no mistaking the earnestness of the man’s manner and his perfect sanity. “The Fruit of Knowledge,” he said.
There was no doubt about the seriousness of the man’s behavior and his clear-mindedness. “The Fruit of Knowledge,” he said.
“Suppose it was?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, after a pause, still staring at it. “But after all,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “it’s not my kind of knowledge—not the sort of knowledge. I mean, Adam and Eve have eaten it already.”
“Suppose it was?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, after a pause, still staring at it. “But then again,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “it’s not my kind of knowledge—not the right kind of knowledge. I mean, Adam and Eve have already eaten it.”
“We inherit their sins—not their knowledge,” said the stranger. “That would make it all clear and bright again. We should see into everything, through everything, into the deepest meaning of everything—”
“We inherit their sins—not their knowledge,” said the stranger. “That would make everything clear and bright again. We should be able to see into everything, through everything, into the deepest meaning of everything—”
“Why don’t you eat it, then?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, with an inspiration.
“Why don’t you just eat it, then?” said Mr. Hinchcliff, feeling inspired.
“I took it intending to eat it,” said the stranger. 374“Man has fallen. Merely to eat again could scarcely—”
“I picked it up to eat it,” said the stranger. 374“Humanity has fallen. Just eating again could hardly—”
“Knowledge is power,” said Mr. Hinchcliff.
“Knowledge is power,” said Mr. Hinchcliff.
“But is it happiness? I am older than you—more than twice as old. Time after time I have held this in my hand, and my heart has failed me at the thought of all that one might know, that terrible lucidity—Suppose suddenly all the world became pitilessly clear?”
“But is this happiness? I'm older than you—more than twice your age. Again and again, I've held this in my hand, and my heart has sunk at the thought of everything one could know, that unbearable clarity—What if suddenly the whole world became mercilessly clear?”
“That, I think, would be a great advantage,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “on the whole.”
“That, I think, would be a great advantage,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, “overall.”
“Suppose you saw into the hearts and minds of every one about you, into their most secret recesses—people you loved, whose love you valued?”
“Imagine if you could see into the hearts and minds of everyone around you, into their most hidden corners—people you loved, whose affection you cherished?”
“You’d soon find out the humbugs,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, greatly struck by the idea.
“You’d quickly discover the fakes,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, deeply impressed by the idea.
“And worse—to know yourself, bare of your most intimate illusions. To see yourself in your place. All that your lusts and weaknesses prevented your doing. No merciful perspective.”
“And even worse—knowing yourself, stripped of your deepest illusions. Seeing yourself in your true position. Everything your desires and weaknesses held you back from doing. No kind perspective.”
“That might be an excellent thing too. ‘Know thyself,’ you know.”
"That could be a great idea as well. 'Know yourself,' you know."
“You are young,” said the stranger.
“You're young,” said the stranger.
“If you don’t care to eat it, and it bothers you, why don’t you throw it away?”
“If you don’t want to eat it and it annoys you, why not just throw it away?”
“There again, perhaps, you will not understand me. To me, how could one throw away a thing like that, glowing, wonderful? Once one has it, one is bound. But, on the other hand, to give it 375away! To give it away to some one who thirsted after knowledge, who found no terror in the thought of that clear perception—”
"There you go again, maybe you won’t get what I’m saying. To me, how could anyone just toss aside something like that, radiant and amazing? Once you have it, you're tied to it. But then again, to give it away! To give it to someone who craves knowledge, who doesn’t fear the idea of that clear understanding—"
“Of course,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, thoughtfully, “it might be some sort of poisonous fruit.”
“Of course,” said Mr. Hinchcliff, thinking it over, “it could be some kind of poisonous fruit.”
And then his eye caught something motionless, the end of a white board black-lettered outside the carriage-window. “—MWOOD,” he saw. He started convulsively. “Gracious!” said Mr. Hinchcliff. “Holmwood!”—and the practical present blotted out the mystic realisations that had been stealing upon him.
And then he noticed something still, the end of a white sign with black letters outside the train window. “—MWOOD,” he read. He jerked back in surprise. “Wow!” exclaimed Mr. Hinchcliff. "Holmwood!"—and the practical reality erased the mystical realizations that had been creeping in on him.
In another moment he was opening the carriage-door, portmanteau in hand. The guard was already fluttering his green flag. Mr. Hinchcliff jumped out. “Here!” said a voice behind him, and he saw the dark eyes of the stranger shining and the golden fruit, bright and bare, held out of the open carriage-door. He took it instinctively, the train was already moving.
In another moment, he was opening the carriage door with his suitcase in hand. The guard was already waving his green flag. Mr. Hinchcliff jumped out. “Hey!” called a voice from behind him, and he saw the stranger’s dark eyes shining and the bright, bare golden fruit being held out from the open carriage door. He took it instinctively as the train began to move.
“No!” shouted the stranger, and made a snatch at it as if to take it back.
“No!” shouted the stranger, reaching out to grab it as if to take it back.
“Stand away,” cried a country porter, thrusting forward to close the door. The stranger shouted something Mr. Hinchcliff did not catch, head and arm thrust excitedly out of the window, and then the shadow of the bridge fell on him, and in a trice he was hidden. Mr. Hinchcliff stood astonished, staring at the end of the last waggon receding round the bend, and with the wonderful fruit in 376his hand. For the fraction of a minute his mind was confused, and then he became aware that two or three people on the platform were regarding him with interest. Was he not the new Grammar School master making his début? It occurred to him that, so far as they could tell, the fruit might very well be the naïve refreshment of an orange. He flushed at the thought, and thrust the fruit into his side pocket, where it bulged undesirably. But there was no help for it, so he went towards them, awkwardly concealing his sense of awkwardness, to ask the way to the Grammar School, and the means of getting his portmanteau and the two tin boxes which lay up the platform thither. Of all the odd and fantastic yarns to tell a fellow!
“Step back,” yelled a country porter, pushing forward to close the door. The stranger shouted something Mr. Hinchcliff didn’t catch, his head and arm sticking excitedly out of the window, and then the shadow of the bridge fell over him, and in an instant he was gone. Mr. Hinchcliff stood there, shocked, staring at the end of the last wagon disappearing around the bend, with the amazing fruit in his hand. For a brief moment, he was confused, and then he noticed two or three people on the platform watching him with interest. Wasn’t he the new Grammar School teacher making his debut? It occurred to him that, from their perspective, the fruit could easily be just a simple orange. He flushed at the thought and shoved the fruit into his side pocket, where it bulged uncomfortably. But there was no way around it, so he walked toward them, awkwardly trying to hide his discomfort, to ask for directions to the Grammar School and how to retrieve his suitcase and the two tin boxes that were up the platform. What a strange and ridiculous situation to share with someone!
His luggage could be taken on a truck for sixpence, he found, and he could precede it on foot He fancied an ironical note in the voices. He was painfully aware of his contour.
His luggage could be transported by truck for sixpence, he discovered, and he could walk ahead of it. He sensed a sarcastic tone in their voices. He was acutely aware of his appearance.
The curious earnestness of the man in the train, and the glamour of the story he told, had, for a time, diverted the current of Mr. Hinchcliff’s thoughts. It drove like a mist before his immediate concerns. Fires that went to and fro! But the preoccupation of his new position, and the impression he was to produce upon Holmwood generally, and the school people in particular, returned upon him with reinvigorating power before he left the station and cleared his mental atmosphere. But it is extraordinary what an inconvenient 377thing the addition of a soft and rather brightly-golden fruit, not three inches in diameter, prove to a sensitive youth on his best appearance. In the pocket of his black jacket it bulged dreadfully, spoilt the lines altogether. He passed a little old lady in black, and he felt her eye drop upon the excrescence at once. He was wearing one glove and carrying the other, together with his stick, so that to bear the fruit openly was impossible. In one place, where the road into the town seemed suitably secluded, he took his encumbrance out of his pocket and tried it in his hat. It was just too large, the hat wobbled ludicrously, and just as he was taking it out again, a butcher’s boy came driving round the corner.
The curious seriousness of the man on the train and the charm of the story he told temporarily distracted Mr. Hinchcliff from his own thoughts. It pushed his immediate concerns aside like fog. Thoughts of fires moving back and forth! But the worries about his new role and the impression he needed to make on Holmwood and especially the school staff came back to him with renewed strength before he left the station, clearing his mind. It’s amazing how inconvenient a soft, shiny golden fruit about three inches in diameter can be for a sensitive young man trying to look his best. It stuck out in his black jacket pocket and ruined his silhouette completely. He passed a little old lady in black and felt her gaze immediately drop to the bulge. He was wearing one glove and carrying the other along with his cane, making it impossible to carry the fruit openly. At one spot where the road into town was conveniently secluded, he pulled the fruit out of his pocket and tried placing it in his hat. It was just too big, making the hat wobble absurdly, and just as he was taking it out again, a butcher's boy came around the corner.
“Confound it!” said Mr. Hinchcliff.
"Darn it!" said Mr. Hinchcliff.
He would have eaten the thing, and attained omniscience there and then, but it would seem so silly to go into the town sucking a juicy fruit—and it certainly felt juicy. If one of the boys should come by, it might do him a serious injury with his discipline so to be seen. And the juice might make his face sticky and get upon his cuffs—or it might be an acid juice as potent as lemon, and take all the colour out of his clothes.
He would have eaten it and gained all knowledge right then, but it just seemed so ridiculous to walk into town eating a juicy fruit—and it definitely felt juicy. If one of the guys happened to see him, it could really hurt his reputation. Plus, the juice might make his face sticky and get on his sleeves—or it could be an acidic juice as strong as lemon, and ruin the color of his clothes.
Then round a bend in the lane came two pleasant, sunlit, girlish figures. They were walking slowly towards the town and chattering—at any moment they might look round and see a hot-faced young man behind them carrying a kind of 378phosphorescent yellow tomato! They would be sure to laugh.
Then, around a curve in the road, two cheerful, sunny, young women appeared. They were walking slowly toward town and chatting—any moment now, they might turn around and notice a flushed young man behind them carrying a glowing yellow tomato! They would definitely laugh.
“Hang!” said Mr. Hinchcliff, and with a swift jerk sent the encumbrance flying over the stone wall of an orchard that there abutted on the road. As it vanished, he felt a faint twinge of loss that lasted scarcely a moment. He adjusted the stick and glove in his hand, and walked on, erect and self-conscious, to pass the girls.
“Stop!” said Mr. Hinchcliff, and with a quick jerk sent the burden flying over the stone wall of the orchard that bordered the road. As it disappeared, he felt a slight twinge of loss that lasted barely a moment. He readjusted the stick and glove in his hand and walked on, upright and self-aware, to pass the girls.
But in the darkness of the night Mr. Hinchcliff had a dream, and saw the valley, and the flaming swords, and the contorted trees, and knew that it really was the Apple of the Tree of Knowledge that he had thrown regardlessly away. And he awoke very unhappy.
But in the darkness of the night, Mr. Hinchcliff had a dream. He saw the valley, the flaming swords, and the twisted trees, and he realized that it was indeed the Apple of the Tree of Knowledge that he had carelessly thrown away. And he woke up feeling very unhappy.
In the morning his regret had passed, but afterwards it returned and troubled him; never, however, when he was happy or busily occupied. At last, one moonlight night about eleven, when all Holmwood was quiet, his regrets returned with redoubled force, and therewith an impulse to adventure. He slipped out of the house and over the playground wall, went through the silent town to Station Lane, and climbed into the orchard where he had thrown the fruit. But nothing was to be found of it there among the dewy grass and the faint intangible globes of dandelion down.
In the morning, his regret had faded, but later on, it came back and bothered him; never, though, when he was happy or preoccupied. Finally, one moonlit night around eleven, when all of Holmwood was calm, his regrets returned with even more intensity, along with a strong urge to seek adventure. He quietly slipped out of the house and over the playground wall, walked through the silent town to Station Lane, and climbed into the orchard where he had discarded the fruit. But he couldn't find any of it there among the dewy grass and the faint, delicate balls of dandelion fluff.
THE SAD STORY OF A DRAMATIC CRITIC
I was—you shall hear immediately why I am not now—Egbert Craddock Cummins. The name remains. I am still (Heaven help me!) Dramatic Critic to the “Fiery Cross.” What I shall be in a little while I do not know. I write in great trouble and confusion of mind. I will do what I can to make myself clear in the face of terrible difficulties. You must bear with me a little. When a man is rapidly losing his own identity, he naturally finds a difficulty in expressing himself. I will make it perfectly plain in a minute, when once I get my grip upon the story. Let me see—where am I? I wish I knew. Ah, I have it! Dead self! Egbert Craddock Cummins!
I was—you’ll see shortly why I’m not anymore—Egbert Craddock Cummins. The name stays. I’m still (God help me!) the Drama Critic for the “Fiery Cross.” What I’ll become soon, I have no idea. I’m writing with a lot of trouble and confusion in my mind. I’ll do my best to make myself clear despite these huge challenges. You’ll have to be patient with me for a bit. When a person is quickly losing their sense of self, it’s hard to express themselves. I’ll clarify everything in a moment, once I get a handle on the story. Let me see—where am I? I wish I knew. Ah, got it! Dead self! Egbert Craddock Cummins!
In the past I should have disliked writing anything quite so full of “I” as this story must be. It is full of “I’s” before and behind, like the beast in Revelation—the one with a head like a calf, I am afraid. But my tastes have changed since I became a Dramatic Critic and studied the masters—G.R.S., G.B.S., G.A.S., and the others. Everything has changed since then. At least the story is about myself—so that there is some excuse 380for me. And it is really not egotism, because, as I say, since those days my identity has undergone an entire alteration.
In the past, I would have disliked writing something as full of "I" as this story is. It’s packed with "I's" before and after, like the beast in Revelation—the one with a head like a calf, unfortunately. But my preferences have changed since I became a Dramatic Critic and studied the greats—G.R.S., G.B.S., G.A.S., and the others. Everything has shifted since then. At least this story is about me—so there’s some justification for it. And it's really not egotism because, as I mentioned, my identity has completely changed since those days. 380
That past!—I was—in those days—rather a nice fellow, rather shy—taste for grey in my clothes, weedy little moustache, face “interesting,” slight stutter which I had caught in early life from a schoolfellow. Engaged to a very nice girl, named Delia. Fairly new, she was—cigarettes—liked me because I was human and original. Considered I was like Lamb—on the strength of the stutter, I believe. Father, an eminent authority on postage stamps. She read a great deal in the British Museum. (A perfect pairing ground for literary people, that British Museum—you should read George Egerton and Justin Huntly M’Carthy and Gissing and the rest of them.) We loved in our intellectual way, and shared the brightest hopes. (All gone now.) And her father liked me because I seemed honestly eager to hear about stamps. She had no mother. Indeed, I had the happiest prospects a young man could have. I never went to the theatres in those days. My Aunt Charlotte before she died had told me not to.
That past!—Back then, I was a pretty nice guy, a bit shy—had a taste for gray clothes, a skinny little mustache, an “interesting” face, and a slight stutter I picked up from a schoolmate. I was engaged to a really great girl named Delia. She was fairly new—smoked cigarettes—liked me because I was genuine and unique. People thought I was like Lamb—probably because of the stutter. My dad was a well-known expert on postage stamps. She read a lot at the British Museum. (That British Museum is a perfect place for literary folks—you should check out George Egerton, Justin Huntly M’Carthy, Gissing, and the others.) We loved each other in our intellectual way and shared the brightest dreams. (All gone now.) Her dad liked me because I seemed genuinely interested in stamps. She had no mother. Honestly, I had the best prospects a young man could ask for. I didn’t go to the theaters back then. My Aunt Charlotte, before she passed away, had told me not to.
Then Barnaby, the editor of the “Fiery Cross,” made me—in spite of my spasmodic efforts to escape—Dramatic Critic. He is a fine, healthy man, Barnaby, with an enormous head of frizzy black hair and a convincing manner; and he 381caught me on the staircase going to see Wembly. He had been dining, and was more than usually buoyant. “Hullo, Cummins!” he said. “The very man I want!” He caught me by the shoulder or the collar or something, ran me up the little passage, and flung me over the waste-paper basket into the arm-chair in his office. “Pray be seated,” he said, as he did so. Then he ran across the room and came back with some pink and yellow tickets and pushed them into my hand. “Opera Comique,” he said, “Thursday; Friday, the Surrey; Saturday, the Frivolity. That’s all, I think.”
Then Barnaby, the editor of the “Fiery Cross,” made me—despite my frantic attempts to get away—Dramatic Critic. He’s a strong, healthy guy, Barnaby, with a huge head of curly black hair and a convincing way about him; and he caught me on the staircase as I was heading to see Wembly. He had just had dinner and was feeling especially cheerful. “Hey, Cummins!” he said. “You’re exactly the person I need!” He grabbed me by the shoulder or collar or something, pulled me down the small hallway, and threw me into the armchair in his office, landing right over the waste-paper basket. “Please, have a seat,” he said as he did so. Then he dashed across the room and returned with some pink and yellow tickets, shoving them into my hand. “Opera Comique,” he said, “Thursday; Friday, the Surrey; Saturday, the Frivolity. That’s about it, I think.”
“But—” I began.
“But—” I started.
“Glad you’re free,” he said, snatching some proofs off the desk and beginning to read.
“Glad you’re free,” he said, grabbing some proofs off the desk and starting to read.
“I don’t quite understand,” I said.
"I don’t really get it," I said.
“Eigh?” he said, at the top of his voice, as though he thought I had gone, and was startled at my remark.
“What?” he said, loudly, as if he thought I had left and was surprised by my comment.
“Do you want me to criticise these plays?”
“Do you want me to review these plays?”
“Do something with ’em— Did you think it was a treat?”
“Do something with them— Did you think it was a special favor?”
“But I can’t.”
“But I can't.”
“Did you call me a fool?”
“Did you just call me a fool?”
“Well, I’ve never been to a theatre in my life.”
“Well, I’ve never been to a theater in my life.”
“Virgin soil.”
"Untouched land."
“But I don’t know anything about it, you know.”
“But I don't know anything about it, you know.”
382“That’s just it. New view. No habits. No clichés in stock. Ours is a live paper, not a bag of tricks. None of your clockwork, professional journalism in this office. And I can rely on your integrity—”
382“That’s exactly it. New perspective. No routines. No clichés to fall back on. Ours is a fresh approach, not a set of tricks. None of that mechanical, professional journalism in this office. And I can trust your integrity—”
“But I’ve conscientious scruples—”
“But I have moral concerns—”
He caught me up suddenly and put me outside his door. “Go and talk to Wembly about that,” he said. “He’ll explain.”
He suddenly grabbed me and put me outside his door. “Go talk to Wembly about that,” he said. “He'll explain.”
As I stood perplexed, he opened the door again, said, “I forgot this,” thrust a fourth ticket into my hand (it was for that night—in twenty minutes’ time), and slammed the door upon me. His expression was quite calm, but I caught his eye.
As I stood confused, he opened the door again, said, “I forgot this,” handed me a fourth ticket (it was for that night—in twenty minutes), and slammed the door on me. His expression was completely calm, but I caught his eye.
I hate arguments. I decided that I would take his hint and become (to my own destruction) a Dramatic Critic. I walked slowly down the passage to Wembly. That Barnaby has a remarkably persuasive way. He has made few suggestions during our very pleasant intercourse of four years that he has not ultimately won me round to adopting. It may be, of course, that I am of a yielding disposition; certainly I am too apt to take my colour from my circumstances. It is, indeed, to my unfortunate susceptibility to vivid impressions that all my misfortunes are due. I have already alluded to the slight stammer I had acquired from a schoolfellow in my youth. However, this is a digression—I went home in a cab to dress.
I hate conflicts. I decided to take his hint and become (to my own detriment) a Dramatic Critic. I walked slowly down the hallway to Wembly. That Barnaby has a remarkably convincing way. He has made few suggestions during our enjoyable four-year friendship that he hasn’t eventually convinced me to go along with. It may be that I have a compliant nature; I definitely tend to be influenced by my surroundings. It's really my unfortunate tendency to be easily swayed by strong impressions that has led to all my problems. I’ve already mentioned the slight stutter I picked up from a classmate in my youth. Anyway, that's a side note—I went home in a cab to get dressed.
383I will not trouble the reader with my thoughts about the first-night audience, strange assembly as it is,—those I reserve for my Memoirs,—nor the humiliating story of how I got lost during the entr’acte in a lot of red plush passages, and saw the third act from the gallery. The only point upon which I wish to lay stress was the remarkable effect of the acting upon me. You must remember I had lived a quiet and retired life, and had never been to the theatre before, and that I am extremely sensitive to vivid impressions. At the risk of repetition I must insist upon these points.
383I won't bore the reader with my thoughts on the first-night audience, which was quite an unusual group—I’ll save those for my memoirs—nor will I recount the embarrassing story of how I got lost in a maze of red plush hallways and ended up watching the third act from the balcony. The only thing I want to emphasize is the incredible impact the acting had on me. You should know that I had led a quiet and reclusive life, had never been to the theater before, and am very sensitive to strong impressions. I feel it’s important to stress these points.
The first effect was a profound amazement, not untinctured by alarm. The phenomenal unnaturalness of acting is a thing discounted in the minds of most people by early visits to the theatre. They get used to the fantastic gestures, the flamboyant emotions, the weird mouthings, melodious snortings, agonising yelps, lip-gnawings, glaring horrors, and other emotional symbolism of the stage. It becomes at last a mere deaf-and-dumb language to them, which they read intelligently pari passu with the hearing of the dialogue. But all this was new to me. The thing was called a modern comedy; the people were supposed to be English and were dressed like fashionable Americans of the current epoch, and I fell into the natural error of supposing that the actors were trying to represent human beings. I looked 384round on my first-night audience with a kind of wonder, discovered—as all new Dramatic Critics do—that it rested with me to reform the Drama, and, after a supper choked with emotion, went off to the office to write a column, piebald with “new paragraphs” (as all my stuff is—it fills out so) and purple with indignation. Barnaby was delighted.
The first effect was a deep sense of amazement, mixed with a bit of alarm. Most people get used to the bizarre nature of acting from their early visits to the theater. They become accustomed to the over-the-top gestures, exaggerated emotions, strange lines, melodic snorts, agonizing screams, nervous lip-biting, shocking scenes, and other emotional expressions of the stage. Eventually, it all becomes like a silent language to them, which they understand alongside the spoken dialogue. But all this was new to me. This performance was labeled a modern comedy; the characters were meant to be English but looked like stylish Americans from the present day, and I made the natural mistake of thinking the actors were trying to portray real people. I glanced around at my fellow audience members with a sense of wonder, realized—like all new drama critics do—that it was up to me to change the drama, and after a supper filled with strong feelings, I headed to the office to write a column, cluttered with “new paragraphs” (as is typical for my work—it expands so much) and full of outrage. Barnaby was thrilled.
But I could not sleep that night. I dreamt of actors,—actors glaring, actors smiting their chests, actors flinging out a handful of extended fingers, actors smiling bitterly, laughing despairingly, falling hopelessly, dying idiotically. I got up at eleven with a slight headache, read my notice in the “Fiery Cross,” breakfasted, and went back to my room to shave. (It’s my habit to do so.) Then an odd thing happened. I could not find my razor. Suddenly it occurred to me that I had not unpacked it the day before.
But I couldn’t sleep that night. I dreamed about actors—actors glaring, actors beating their chests, actors stretching out a handful of fingers, actors smiling bitterly, laughing hopelessly, falling despairingly, dying in such a ridiculous way. I got up at eleven with a slight headache, read my notice in the “Fiery Cross,” had breakfast, and went back to my room to shave. (It’s my routine to do so.) Then something strange happened. I couldn’t find my razor. It suddenly hit me that I hadn’t unpacked it the day before.
“Ah!” said I, in front of the looking-glass. Then “Hullo!”
“Ah!” I said, in front of the mirror. Then “Hey!”
Quite involuntarily, when I had thought of my portmanteau, I had flung up the left arm (fingers fully extended) and clutched at my diaphragm with my right hand. I am an acutely self-conscious man at all times. The gesture struck me as absolutely novel for me. I repeated it, for my own satisfaction. “Odd!” Then (rather puzzled) I turned to my portmanteau.
Quite unintentionally, when I thought of my suitcase, I raised my left arm (fingers fully extended) and grabbed my stomach with my right hand. I'm a very self-aware person all the time. The gesture felt completely new to me. I did it again, just for my own amusement. "Weird!" Then, feeling a bit confused, I turned to my suitcase.
After shaving, my mind reverted to the acting I 385had seen, and I entertained myself before the cheval glass with some imitations of Jafferay’s more exaggerated gestures. “Really, one might think it a disease,”—I said,—“Stage-Walkitis!” (There’s many a truth spoken in jest.) Then, if I remember rightly, I went off to see Wembly, and afterwards lunched at the British Museum with Delia. We actually spoke about our prospects, in the light of my new appointment.
After shaving, I found myself thinking about the acting I 385had just seen, and I amused myself in front of the mirror with some imitations of Jafferay’s more exaggerated gestures. “Honestly, you could think it was a disease,” I said, “Stage-Walkitis!” (There's often some truth in a joke.) Then, if I recall correctly, I headed off to see Wembly, and afterward had lunch at the British Museum with Delia. We actually discussed our future, considering my new appointment.
But that appointment was the beginning of my downfall. From that day I necessarily became a persistent theatre-goer, and almost insensibly I began to change. The next thing I noticed after the gesture about the razor, was to catch myself bowing ineffably when I met Delia, and stooping in an old-fashioned, courtly way over her hand. Directly I caught myself, I straightened myself up and became very uncomfortable. I remember she looked at me curiously. Then, in the office, I found myself doing “nervous business,” fingers on teeth, when Barnaby asked me a question I could not very well answer. Then, in some trifling difference with Delia, I clasped my hand to my brow. And I pranced through my social transactions at times singularly like an actor! I tried not to—no one could be more keenly alive to the arrant absurdity of the histrionic bearing. And I did!
But that appointment was the start of my downfall. From that day on, I became a regular theater-goer, and almost without realizing it, I began to change. The next thing I noticed after the gesture with the razor was that I caught myself bowing awkwardly when I met Delia and bending in an old-fashioned, formal way over her hand. As soon as I realized it, I straightened up and felt really uncomfortable. I remember she looked at me with curiosity. Then, in the office, I found myself doing “nervous business,” fingers on my teeth, when Barnaby asked me a question I couldn’t quite answer. Later, during a minor disagreement with Delia, I pressed my hand to my forehead. And sometimes, I moved through my social interactions in a way that resembled an actor! I tried not to—no one could recognize the ridiculousness of the dramatic behavior more than I did. And yet, I did!
It began to dawn on me what it all meant. The acting, I saw, was too much for my delicatelystrung 386nervous system. I have always, I know, been too amenable to the suggestions of my circumstances. Night after night of concentrated attention to the conventional attitudes and intonation of the English stage was gradually affecting my speech and carriage. I was giving way to the infection of sympathetic imitation. Night after night my plastic nervous system took the print of some new amazing gesture, some new emotional exaggeration—and retained it. A kind of theatrical veneer threatened to plate over and obliterate my private individuality altogether. I saw myself in a kind of vision. Sitting by myself one night, my new self seemed to me to glide, posing and gesticulating, across the room. He clutched his throat, he opened his fingers, he opened his legs in walking like a high-class marionette. He went from attitude to attitude. He might have been clockwork. Directly after this I made an ineffectual attempt to resign my theatrical work. But Barnaby persisted in talking about the Polywhiddle Divorce all the time I was with him, and I could get no opportunity of saying what I wished.
It started to become clear to me what it all meant. The acting was too much for my sensitive nervous system. I've always been too influenced by my surroundings. Night after night, focusing intently on the usual attitudes and tones of the English stage was starting to have an effect on my speech and behavior. I was succumbing to the influence of sympathetic imitation. Night after night, my adaptable nervous system absorbed some new striking gesture, some new emotional overreaction—and kept it. A kind of theatrical layer was threatening to cover and erase my personal individuality completely. I envisioned myself in a sort of daydream. Sitting alone one night, my new self seemed to glide, posing and gesturing, across the room. He clutched his throat, spread his fingers, and walked with his legs apart like a fancy puppet. He shifted from one pose to another. He could have been wind-up. Soon after this, I tried unsuccessfully to quit my acting work. But Barnaby kept bringing up the Polywhiddle Divorce the entire time I was with him, and I couldn't find a chance to say what I wanted.
And then Delia’s manner began to change towards me. The ease of our intercourse vanished. I felt she was learning to dislike me. I grinned, and capered, and scowled, and posed at her in a thousand ways, and knew—with what a voiceless agony!—that I did it all the time. I tried to 387resign again; and Barnaby talked about “X” and “Z” and “Y” in the “New Review,” and gave me a strong cigar to smoke, and so routed me. And then I walked up the Assyrian Gallery in the manner of Irving to meet Delia, and so precipitated the crisis.
And then Delia started to change her attitude toward me. The comfort of our conversations disappeared. I could feel she was starting to dislike me. I smiled, danced around, frowned, and posed in a hundred different ways, and knew—with a silent pain!—that I was doing it all the time. I tried to give up again; and Barnaby talked about “X,” “Z,” and “Y” in the “New Review,” and handed me a strong cigar to smoke, completely distracting me. Then I walked up the Assyrian Gallery like Irving to meet Delia, and that is how the crisis began.
“Ah!—Dear!” I said, with more sprightliness and emotion in my voice than had ever been in all my life before I became (to my own undoing) a Dramatic Critic.
“Ah!—Dear!” I said, with more energy and emotion in my voice than I had ever felt in my life before I became (to my own misfortune) a Dramatic Critic.
She held out her hand rather coldly, scrutinising my face as she did so. I prepared, with a new-won grace, to walk by her side.
She extended her hand somewhat coldly, studying my face as she did. I got ready, with a newly found confidence, to walk beside her.
“Egbert,” she said, standing still, and thought. Then she looked at me.
“Egbert,” she said, pausing to think. Then she looked at me.
I said nothing. I felt what was coming. I tried to be the old Egbert Craddock Cummins of shambling gait and stammering sincerity, whom she loved; but I felt, even as I did so, that I was a new thing, a thing of surging emotions and mysterious fixity—like no human being that ever lived, except upon the stage. “Egbert,” she said, “you are not yourself.”
I didn’t say anything. I could feel what was coming. I tried to be the old Egbert Craddock Cummins with his awkward walk and sincere stammer, the one she loved; but even as I did that, I realized I was something different, filled with intense emotions and an unfamiliar steadiness—like no one who ever lived, except on a stage. “Egbert,” she said, “you’re not yourself.”
“Ah!” Involuntarily I clutched my diaphragm and averted my head (as is the way with them).
“Ah!” I instinctively held my stomach and turned my head away (as they usually do).
“There!” she said.
"There!" she said.
“What do you mean?” I said, whispering in vocal italics,—you know how they do it,—turning on her, perplexity on face, right hand down, left on brow. I knew quite well what she meant. 388I knew quite well the dramatic unreality of my behaviour. But I struggled against it in vain. “What do you mean?” I said, and, in a kind of hoarse whisper, “I don’t understand!”
“What do you mean?” I said, whispering in a dramatic way—you know how they do it—turning to her, confusion on my face, my right hand down, left hand on my forehead. I knew exactly what she meant. 388I clearly recognized the over-the-top nature of my actions. But I fought against it without success. “What do you mean?” I said, and in a sort of rough whisper, “I don’t get it!”
She really looked as though she disliked me. “What do you keep on posing for?” she said. “I don’t like it. You didn’t use to.”
She really looked like she disliked me. “What are you always posing for?” she said. “I don’t like it. You didn’t used to.”
“Didn’t use to!” I said slowly, repeating this twice. I glared up and down the gallery, with short, sharp glances. “We are alone,” I said swiftly. “Listen!” I poked my forefinger towards her, and glared at her. “I am under a curse.”
“Didn’t use to!” I said slowly, repeating it twice. I shot quick, sharp glares up and down the gallery. “We’re alone,” I said quickly. “Listen!” I pointed my finger at her and stared. “I’m under a curse.”
I saw her hand tighten upon her sunshade. “You are under some bad influence or other,” said Delia. “You should give it up. I never knew any one change as you have done.”
I saw her grip tighten on her sunshade. "You’re really being influenced poorly," Delia said. "You should let it go. I’ve never seen anyone change like you have."
“Delia!” I said, lapsing into the pathetic. “Pity me. Augh! Delia! Pit—y me!”
“Delia!” I said, sounding a bit desperate. “Feel sorry for me. Ugh! Delia! Feel—sorry for me!”
She eyed me critically. “Why you keep playing the fool like this I don’t know,” she said. “Anyhow, I really cannot go about with a man who behaves as you do. You made us both ridiculous on Wednesday. Frankly, I dislike you, as you are now. I met you here to tell you so—as it’s about the only place where we can be sure of being alone together—”
She looked at me critically. “Why do you keep acting like this? I really don’t understand,” she said. “Anyway, I can’t go around with a guy who acts like you do. You made us both look foolish on Wednesday. Honestly, I don’t like you as you are now. I came here to tell you that—since it's pretty much the only place we can be sure of being alone together—"
“Delia!” said I, with intensity, knuckles of clenched hands white. “You don’t mean—”
“Delia!” I said intensely, my knuckles white from clenching my fists. “You can’t be serious—”
“I do,” said Delia. “A woman’s lot is sad enough at the best of times. But with you—”
“I do,” Delia said. “A woman’s situation is tough enough even in the best of times. But with you—”
389I clapped my hand on my brow.
389I slapped my hand on my forehead.
“So, good-bye,” said Delia, without emotion.
“Goodbye,” Delia said flatly.
“Oh, Delia!” I said. “Not this?”
“Oh, Delia!” I said. “Not this?”
“Good-bye, Mr. Cummins,” she said.
“Goodbye, Mr. Cummins,” she said.
By a violent effort I controlled myself and touched her hand. I tried to say some word of explanation to her. She looked into my working face and winced. “I must do it,” she said hopelessly. Then she turned from me and began walking rapidly down the gallery.
By sheer force, I managed to keep myself together and touched her hand. I attempted to say something to explain myself to her. She looked at my strained expression and flinched. “I have to do it,” she said, filled with despair. Then she turned away from me and started walking quickly down the hallway.
Heavens! How the human agony cried within me! I loved Delia. But nothing found expression—I was already too deeply crusted with my acquired self.
Heavens! How the human suffering cried out within me! I loved Delia. But nothing could come out—I was already too entrenched in my own developed persona.
“Good-baye!” I said at last, watching her retreating figure. How I hated myself for doing it! After she had vanished, I repeated in a dreamy way, “Good-baye!” looking hopelessly round me. Then, with a kind of heart-broken cry, I shook my clenched fists in the air, staggered to the pedestal of a winged figure, buried my face in my arms, and made my shoulders heave. Something within me said, “Ass!” as I did so. (I had the greatest difficulty in persuading the Museum policeman, who was attracted by my cry of agony, that I was not intoxicated, but merely suffering from a transient indisposition.)
“Goodbye!” I finally said, watching her walk away. I hated myself for it! After she disappeared, I absentmindedly repeated, “Goodbye!” looking around me in despair. Then, with a broken-hearted cry, I shook my clenched fists in the air, stumbled over to the base of a winged statue, buried my face in my arms, and let my shoulders shake. Something inside me called me an “ idiot” as I did this. (I had a difficult time convincing the Museum security guard, who came over because of my cry of distress, that I wasn’t drunk, just going through a brief bout of nausea.)
But even this great sorrow has not availed to save me from my fate. I see it, every one sees it; I grow more “theatrical” every day. And no 390one could be more painfully aware of the pungent silliness of theatrical ways. The quiet, nervous, but pleasing E. C. Cummins vanishes. I cannot save him. I am driven like a dead leaf before the winds of March. My tailor even enters into the spirit of my disorder. He has a peculiar sense of what is fitting. I tried to get a dull grey suit from him this spring, and he foisted a brilliant blue upon me, and I see he has put braid down the sides of my new dress trousers. My hairdresser insists upon giving me a “wave.”
But even this huge grief hasn’t saved me from my fate. I see it, everyone sees it; I get more “theatrical” every day. And no one could be more painfully aware of the ridiculousness of theatrical behavior. The quiet, nervous, but nice E. C. Cummins disappears. I can’t save him. I’m being blown around like a dead leaf in the March winds. My tailor even gets in on the act of my chaos. He has a strange sense of what looks good. I tried to get a plain grey suit from him this spring, and he pushed a bright blue suit on me instead, and I notice he added braid down the sides of my new dress trousers. My hairdresser insists on giving me a “wave.”
I am beginning to associate with actors. I detest them, but it is only in their company that I can feel I am not glaringly conspicuous. Their talk infects me. I notice a growing tendency to dramatic brevity, to dashes and pauses in my style, to a punctuation of bows and attitudes. Barnaby has remarked it too. I offended Wembly by calling him “Dear Boy” yesterday. I dread the end, but I cannot escape from it.
I’m starting to hang out with actors. I can’t stand them, but it’s only around them that I feel like I’m not standing out too much. Their conversation is getting to me. I can see that I’m picking up a habit of being more dramatic, using more dashes and pauses in my speech, and adding gestures and poses. Barnaby has noticed it as well. I upset Wembly by calling him “Dear Boy” yesterday. I’m terrified of what's to come, but I can’t avoid it.
The fact is, I am being obliterated. Living a grey, retired life all my youth, I came to the theatre a delicate sketch of a man, a thing of tints and faint lines. Their gorgeous colouring has effaced me altogether. People forget how much mode of expression, method of movement, are a matter of contagion. I have heard of stage-struck people before, and thought it a figure of speech. I spoke of it jestingly, as a disease. It is no jest. It is a disease. And I have got it bad! Deep 391down within me I protest against the wrong done to my personality—unavailingly. For three hours or more a week I have to go and concentrate my attention on some fresh play, and the suggestions of the drama strengthen their awful hold upon me. My manners grow so flamboyant, my passions so professional, that I doubt, as I said at the outset, whether it is really myself that behaves in such a manner. I feel merely the core to this dramatic casing, that grows thicker and presses upon me—me and mine. I feel like King John’s abbot in his cope of lead.
The truth is, I'm being completely erased. Living a dull, retired life throughout my youth, I came to the theater a fragile outline of a man, a blend of soft colors and faint lines. Their vibrant hues have washed me away completely. People forget how much expression and movement are contagious. I’ve heard of stage-struck individuals before and thought it was just a saying. I joked about it like it was an illness. But it’s not a joke. It is a disease. And I’m seriously affected! Deep down, I resist the harm done to my identity—without any success. For three hours or more each week, I have to go and focus on some new play, and the drama's suggestions tighten their dreadful grip on me. My mannerisms become so over-the-top, my emotions so theatrical, that I question, as I mentioned at the beginning, whether it’s really me acting like this. I feel just the core of myself under this dramatic shell, which grows thicker and weighs down on me—on me and my essence. I feel like King John’s abbot in his leaden robe.
I doubt, indeed, whether I should not abandon the struggle altogether—leave this sad world of ordinary life for which I am so ill-fitted, abandon the name of Cummins for some professional pseudonym, complete my self-effacement, and—a thing of tricks and tatters, of posing and pretence—go upon the stage. It seems my only resort—“to hold the mirror up to Nature.” For in the ordinary life, I will confess, no one now seems to regard me as both sane and sober. Only upon the stage, I feel convinced, will people take me seriously. That will be the end of it. I know that will be the end of it. And yet—I will frankly confess—all that marks off your actor from your common man—I detest. I am still largely of my Aunt Charlotte’s opinion, that play-acting is unworthy of a pure-minded man’s attention, much more participation. Even now I would resign my 392dramatic criticism and try a rest. Only I can’t get hold of Barnaby. Letters of resignation he never notices. He says it is against the etiquette of journalism to write to your Editor. And when I go to see him, he gives me another big cigar and some strong whiskey and soda, and then something always turns up to prevent my explanation.
I really wonder if I should just give up the fight altogether—leave this unhappy world of everyday life that I don’t fit into at all, ditch the name Cummins for some professional alias, disappear completely, and—as a figure of tricks and rags, of pretending and artifice—take to the stage. It seems to be my only option—to “hold the mirror up to Nature.” Because in ordinary life, I have to admit, no one really sees me as both sane and sober anymore. Only on stage, I’m sure, will people take me seriously. That would be the end of it. I know that would be the end of it. And yet—I will honestly say—all the things that separate your actor from your regular person—I hate. I still mostly agree with my Aunt Charlotte that acting is beneath a man of pure mind to even consider, let alone participate in. Even now, I would quit my dramatic criticism and take a break. But I can’t get a hold of Barnaby. He never pays attention to my resignation letters. He says it’s against journalism etiquette to write to your editor. And when I go to see him, he hands me another big cigar and some strong whiskey and soda, and then something always comes up that keeps me from explaining.
THE JILTING OF JANE
As I sit writing in my study, I can hear our Jane bumping her way downstairs with a brush and dustpan. She used in the old days to sing hymn tunes, or the British national song for the time being, to these instruments; but latterly she has been silent and even careful over her work. Time was when I prayed with fervour for such silence, and my wife with sighs for such care, but now they have come we are not so glad as we might have anticipated we should be. Indeed, I would rejoice secretly, though it may be unmanly weakness to admit it, even to hear Jane sing “Daisy,” or by the fracture of any plate but one of Euphemia’s best green ones, to learn that the period of brooding has come to an end.
As I sit writing in my study, I can hear Jane clattering her way down the stairs with a broom and dustpan. Back in the day, she would sing hymns or the national anthem while she worked, but lately, she's been quiet and really focused on her tasks. There was a time when I earnestly wished for this silence, and my wife sighed for this kind of care, but now that it's here, we aren’t as happy as we thought we’d be. In fact, I would secretly feel relieved, even if it seems unmanly to admit, just to hear Jane sing "Daisy," or even if she broke any plate except for one of Euphemia’s best green ones, just to realize that the period of brooding has finally come to an end.
Yet how we longed to hear the last of Jane’s young man before we heard the last of him! Jane was always very free with her conversation to my wife, and discoursed admirably in the kitchen on a variety of topics—so well, indeed, that I sometimes left my study door open—our house is a small one—to partake of it. But after William came, it was always William, nothing but William; William this and William that; and when we 394thought William was worked out and exhausted altogether, then William all over again. The engagement lasted altogether three years; yet how she got introduced to William, and so became thus saturated with him, was always a secret. For my part, I believe it was at the street corner where the Rev. Barnabas Baux used to hold an open-air service after evensong on Sundays. Young Cupids were wont to flit like moths round the paraffin flare of that centre of High Church hymn-singing. I fancy she stood singing hymns there, out of memory and her imagination, instead of coming home to get supper, and William came up beside her and said, “Hello!” “Hello yourself!” she said; and, etiquette being satisfied, they proceeded to talk together.
Yet how we longed to hear the last of Jane’s boyfriend before we heard the last of him! Jane was always very open with her conversations with my wife and chatted wonderfully in the kitchen about a variety of topics—so well, in fact, that I sometimes left my study door open—our house is small—to join in. But after William arrived, it was all about William, nothing but William; William this and William that; and just when we thought we had heard everything there was to say about William, there was more William again. Their engagement lasted a total of three years; yet how she got introduced to William, and became so wrapped up in him, was always a mystery. As for me, I believe it happened at the street corner where the Rev. Barnabas Baux used to hold an open-air service after evening prayer on Sundays. Young lovers would flit around the paraffin lights of that center of High Church hymn-singing. I imagine she was there singing hymns from memory and imagination instead of coming home to make dinner, when William came up beside her and said, “Hello!” “Hello yourself!” she replied; and with the pleasantries out of the way, they started chatting.
As Euphemia has a reprehensible way of letting her servants talk to her, she soon heard of him. “He is such a respectable young man, ma’am,” said Jane, “you don’t know.” Ignoring the slur cast on her acquaintance, my wife inquired further about this William.
As Euphemia has a questionable way of allowing her servants to speak to her, she soon found out about him. “He is such a respectable young man, ma’am,” said Jane, “you have no idea.” Overlooking the slight against her friend, my wife asked more about this William.
“He is second porter at Maynard’s, the draper’s,” said Jane, “and gets eighteen shillings—nearly a pound—a week, m’m; and when the head porter leaves he will be head porter. His relatives are quite superior people, m’m. Not labouring people at all. His father was a greengrosher, m’m, and had a chumor, and he was bankrup’ twice. And one of his sisters is in a 395Home for the Dying. It will be a very good match for me, m’m,” said Jane, “me being an orphan girl.”
“He's the second porter at Maynard’s, the drapery shop,” Jane said, “and he makes eighteen shillings—almost a pound—a week, ma'am; and when the head porter leaves, he’ll become the head porter. His family is quite respectable, ma'am. They’re not working-class at all. His dad was a greengrocer, ma'am, and had a shop, but he went bankrupt twice. One of his sisters is in a 395 Home for the Dying. It would be a really good match for me, ma'am,” Jane said, “being an orphan girl.”
“Then you are engaged to him?” asked my wife.
“Are you engaged to him now?” my wife asked.
“Not engaged, ma’am; but he is saving money to buy a ring—hammyfist.”
“Not engaged, ma’am; but he is saving money to buy a ring—hammyfist.”
“Well, Jane, when you are properly engaged to him you may ask him round here on Sunday afternoons, and have tea with him in the kitchen.” For my Euphemia has a motherly conception of her duty towards her maid-servants. And presently the amethystine ring was being worn about the house, even with ostentation, and Jane developed a new way of bringing in the joint, so that this gage was evident The elder Miss Maitland was aggrieved by it, and told my wife that servants ought not to wear rings. But my wife looked it up in “Enquire Within” and “Mrs. Motherly’s Book of Household Management,” and found no prohibition. So Jane remained with this happiness added to her love.
“Well, Jane, once you’re properly engaged to him, you can invite him over here on Sunday afternoons and have tea with him in the kitchen.” My Euphemia has a motherly view of her responsibilities toward her maids. Before long, the amethyst ring was being flaunted around the house, and Jane invented a new way to serve the roast, making the engagement obvious. The older Miss Maitland was not pleased about it and told my wife that servants shouldn’t wear rings. But my wife looked it up in “Enquire Within” and “Mrs. Motherly’s Book of Household Management” and found no restrictions. So Jane kept this happiness along with her love.
The treasure of Jane’s heart appeared to me to be what respectable people call a very deserving young man. “William, ma’am,” said Jane, one day suddenly, with ill-concealed complacency, as she counted out the beer bottles, “William, ma’am, is a teetotaller. Yes, m’m; and he don’t smoke. Smoking, ma’am,” said Jane, as one who reads the heart, “do make such a dust about. 396Beside the waste of money. And the smell. However, I suppose it’s necessary to some.”
The treasure of Jane’s heart seemed to me to be what decent people call a really great young man. “William, ma’am,” Jane suddenly said one day, with a barely hidden sense of pride as she counted out the beer bottles, “William, ma’am, is a teetotaler. Yes, m’m; and he doesn’t smoke. Smoking, ma’am,” Jane said, as if she could see right into people’s hearts, “does cause such a mess. 396Not to mention the waste of money. And the smell. But I guess it’s necessary for some.”
Possibly it dawned on Jane that she was reflecting a little severely upon Euphemia’s comparative ill-fortune; and she added kindly, “I’m sure the master is a hangel when his pipe’s alight. Compared to other times.”
Possibly it occurred to Jane that she was being a bit harsh about Euphemia’s luck; and she added kindly, “I’m sure the master is an angel when his pipe’s lit. Compared to other times.”
William was at first a rather shabby young man of the ready-made black-coat school of costume. He had watery grey eyes, and a complexion appropriate to the brother of one in a Home for the Dying. Euphemia did not fancy him very much, even at the beginning. His eminent respectability was vouched for by an alpaca umbrella, from which he never allowed himself to be parted.
William was initially a pretty scruffy young man dressed in a cheap black coat. He had watery gray eyes and a complexion that suggested he was the sibling of someone in a hospice. Euphemia didn’t really like him much, even from the start. His high respectability was confirmed by an alpaca umbrella that he never let out of his sight.
“He goes to chapel,” said Jane. “His papa, ma’am—”
“He goes to church,” said Jane. “His dad, ma’am—”
“His what, Jane?”
“His what, Jane?”
“His papa, ma’am, was Church; but Mr. Maynard is a Plymouth Brother, and William thinks it Policy, ma’am, to go there too. Mr. Maynard comes and talks to him quite friendly, when they ain’t busy, about using up all the ends of string, and about his soul He takes a lot of notice, do Mr. Maynard, of William, and the way he saves string and his soul, ma’am.”
“His dad, ma’am, was a Church guy; but Mr. Maynard is a Plymouth Brother, and William thinks it’s a good idea, ma’am, to go there too. Mr. Maynard comes and talks to him quite friendly when they’re not busy, about using up all the leftover string and about his soul. Mr. Maynard pays a lot of attention to William and how he saves string and his soul, ma’am.”
Presently we heard that the head porter at Maynard’s had left, and that William was head porter at twenty-three shillings a week. “He is really kind of over the man who drives the van,” 397said Jane, “and him married with three children.” And she promised in the pride of her heart to make interest for us with William to favour us so that we might get our parcels of drapery from Maynard’s with exceptional promptitude.
Right now, we heard that the head porter at Maynard’s had quit, and that William became the head porter for twenty-three shillings a week. “He’s basically in charge of the guy who drives the van,” 397 said Jane, “and he’s married with three kids.” She proudly promised to put in a good word for us with William so that we could get our fabric orders from Maynard’s really quickly.
After this promotion a rapidly increasing prosperity came upon Jane’s young man. One day, we learned that Mr. Maynard had given William a book. “Smiles’ ’Elp Yourself, it’s called,” said Jane; “but it ain’t comic. It tells you how to get on in the world, and some what William read to me was lovely, ma’am.”
After this promotion, Jane’s boyfriend started to prosper quickly. One day, we found out that Mr. Maynard had given William a book. “It’s called ‘Smile’s Help Yourself,’” said Jane, “but it’s not a comic. It teaches you how to succeed in life, and some of what William read to me was lovely, ma’am.”
Euphemia told me of this laughing, and then she became suddenly grave. “Do you know, dear,” she said, “Jane said one thing I did not like. She had been quiet for a minute, and then she suddenly remarked, ‘William is a lot above me, ma’am, ain’t he?’”
Euphemia told me about the laughter, and then she suddenly got serious. “You know, dear,” she said, “Jane said something I didn’t like. She had been quiet for a minute, and then she suddenly said, ‘William is way above me, ma’am, isn’t he?’”
“I don’t see anything in that,” I said, though later my eyes were to be opened.
“I don’t see anything in that,” I said, though later my eyes were going to be opened.
One Sunday afternoon about that time I was sitting at my writing-desk—possibly I was reading a good book—when a something went by the window. I heard a startled exclamation behind me, and saw Euphemia with her hands clasped together and her eyes dilated. “George,” she said in an awe-stricken whisper, “did you see?”
One Sunday afternoon around that time, I was sitting at my writing desk—maybe I was reading a good book—when something went by the window. I heard a surprised exclamation behind me and saw Euphemia with her hands clasped and her eyes wide. “George,” she said in a hushed, amazed voice, “did you see?”
Then we both spoke to one another at the same moment, slowly and solemnly: “A silk hat! Yellow gloves! A new umbrella!”
Then we both spoke to each other at the same time, slowly and seriously: “A silk hat! Yellow gloves! A new umbrella!”
398“It may be my fancy, dear,” said Euphemia; “but his tie was very like yours. I believe Jane keeps him in ties. She told me a little while ago, in a way that implied volumes about the rest of your costume, ‘The master do wear pretty ties, ma’am.’ And he echoes all your novelties.”
398“It might just be my imagination, dear,” said Euphemia; “but his tie looked a lot like yours. I think Jane stocks him up on ties. She mentioned to me not long ago, in a way that suggested a lot about the rest of your outfit, ‘The master does wear nice ties, ma’am.’ And he copies all your trends.”
The young couple passed our window again on their way to their customary walk. They were arm in arm. Jane looked exquisitely proud, happy, and uncomfortable, with new white cotton gloves, and William, in the silk hat, singularly genteel!
The young couple walked by our window again on their usual stroll. They were linked arm in arm. Jane looked beautifully proud, happy, and a bit uneasy, wearing new white cotton gloves, and William, in his silk hat, was particularly refined!
That was the culmination of Jane’s happiness. When she returned, “Mr. Maynard has been talking to William, ma’am,” she said, “and he is to serve customers, just like the young shop gentlemen, during the next sale. And if he gets on, he is to be made an assistant, ma’am, at the first opportunity. He has got to be as gentlemanly as he can, ma’am; and if he ain’t, ma’am, he says it won’t be for want of trying. Mr. Maynard has took a great fancy to him.”
That was the peak of Jane's happiness. When she came back, she said, "Mr. Maynard has been talking to William, ma'am, and he's going to serve customers, just like the young shop guys, during the next sale. And if he does well, he'll be made an assistant, ma'am, at the first chance. He has to be as gentlemanly as he can, ma'am; and if he isn't, ma'am, he says it won't be for lack of trying. Mr. Maynard has taken a real liking to him."
“He is getting on, Jane,” said my wife.
“He is getting older, Jane,” said my wife.
“Yes, ma’am,” said Jane, thoughtfully, “he is getting on.”
“Yes, ma’am,” Jane said, thinking, “he is getting older.”
And she sighed.
And she let out a sigh.
That next Sunday, as I drank my tea, I interrogated my wife. “How is this Sunday different from all other Sundays, little woman? What has happened? Have you altered the curtains, or 399rearranged the furniture, or where is the indefinable difference of it? Are you wearing your hair in a new way without warning me? I clearly perceive a change in my environment, and I cannot for the life of me say what it is.”
That next Sunday, while I was drinking my tea, I grilled my wife. “What makes this Sunday different from all the other Sundays, dear? What’s going on? Did you change the curtains, rearrange the furniture, or is there some subtle difference I can’t pinpoint? Are you wearing your hair differently without telling me? I definitely notice a change in my surroundings, and I just can’t figure out what it is.”
Then my wife answered in her most tragic voice: “George,” she said, “that—that William has not come near the place to-day! And Jane is crying her heart out upstairs.”
Then my wife replied in her most dramatic voice: “George,” she said, “that—that William hasn't come near the place today! And Jane is crying her heart out upstairs.”
There followed a period of silence. Jane, as I have said, stopped singing about the house, and began to care for our brittle possessions, which struck my wife as being a very sad sign indeed. The next Sunday, and the next, Jane asked to go out, “to walk with William;” and my wife, who never attempts to extort confidences, gave her permission, and asked no questions. On each occasion Jane came back looking flushed and very determined. At last one day she became communicative.
There was a quiet period after that. Jane, as I mentioned, stopped singing around the house and started taking care of our fragile belongings, which my wife saw as a really sad sign. The following Sunday, and the next, Jane wanted to go out "to walk with William," and my wife, who never tries to pry for information, let her go without asking any questions. Each time, Jane returned looking flushed and very resolute. Finally, one day she opened up.
“William is being led away,” she remarked abruptly, with a catching of the breath, apropos of table-cloths. “Yes, m’m. She is a milliner, and she can play on the piano.”
“William is being taken away,” she said suddenly, catching her breath, in reference to tablecloths. “Yes, ma’am. She’s a hat maker, and she can play the piano.”
“I thought,” said my wife, “that you went out with him on Sunday.”
“I thought,” said my wife, “that you went out with him on Sunday.”
“Not out with him, m’m—after him. I walked along by the side of them, and told her he was engaged to me.”
“Not out with him, ma'am—after him. I walked alongside them and told her he was engaged to me.”
“Dear me, Jane, did you? What did they do?”
“Wow, Jane, really? What happened next?”
400“Took no more notice of me than if I was dirt. So I told her she should suffer for it.”
400“Ignored me like I was trash. So I told her she should pay for that.”
“It could not have been a very agreeable walk, Jane.”
“It couldn’t have been a very pleasant walk, Jane.”
“Not for no parties, ma’am.
"Not for any parties, ma’am."
“I wish,” said Jane, “I could play the piano, ma’am. But anyhow, I don’t mean to let her get him away from me. She’s older than him, and her hair ain’t gold to the roots, ma’am.”
“I wish,” said Jane, “I could play the piano, ma’am. But either way, I’m not going to let her take him away from me. She’s older than him, and her hair isn’t golden to the roots, ma’am.”
It was on the August Bank Holiday that the crisis came. We do not clearly know the details of the fray, but only such fragments as poor Jane let fall. She came home dusty, excited, and with her heart hot within her.
It was on the August Bank Holiday that the crisis happened. We don’t know the exact details of the conflict, only bits and pieces that poor Jane shared. She came home dusty, excited, and with her heart racing.
The milliner’s mother, the milliner, and William had made a party to the Art Museum at South Kensington, I think. Anyhow, Jane had calmly but firmly accosted them somewhere in the streets, and asserted her right to what, in spite of the consensus of literature, she held to be her inalienable property. She did, I think, go so far as to lay hands on him. They dealt with her in a crushingly superior way. They “called a cab.” There was a “scene,” William being pulled away into the four-wheeler by his future wife and mother-in-law from the reluctant hands of our discarded Jane. There were threats of giving her “in charge.”
The milliner’s mother, the milliner, and William had planned a trip to the Art Museum at South Kensington, I think. Anyway, Jane had calmly but firmly approached them in the streets and claimed her right to what she believed to be her undeniable property, regardless of what literature suggested. She even went so far as to grab him. They responded to her in a condescendingly superior manner and “called a cab.” There was a “scene,” with William being pulled into the taxi by his future wife and mother-in-law, away from Jane’s reluctant grip. There were threats about having her “arrested.”
“My poor Jane!” said my wife, mincing veal as though she was mincing William. “It’s a 401shame of them. I would think no more of him. He is not worthy of you.”
“My poor Jane!” my wife said, chopping veal as if she were chopping up William. “It’s such a shame. I wouldn’t think twice about him. He’s not worth you.”
“No, m’m,” said Jane. “He is weak.
“No, ma’am,” said Jane. “He is weak."
“But it’s that woman has done it,” said Jane. She was never known to bring herself to pronounce “that woman’s” name or to admit her girlishness. “I can’t think what minds some women must have—to try and get a girl’s young man away from her. But there, it only hurts to talk about it,” said Jane.
“But that woman is the one who did it,” said Jane. She was never one to say “that woman’s” name or acknowledge her own girlishness. “I can’t imagine what some women must be thinking—to try to steal a girl’s boyfriend from her. But talking about it just makes it hurt more,” said Jane.
Thereafter our house rested from William. But there was something in the manner of Jane’s scrubbing the front doorstep or sweeping out the rooms, a certain viciousness, that persuaded me that the story had not yet ended.
Thereafter, our house was quiet without William. But there was something about the way Jane scrubbed the front doorstep or swept the rooms, a certain viciousness, that made me feel like the story wasn’t over yet.
“Please, m’m, may I go and see a wedding to-morrow?” said Jane, one day.
“Excuse me, ma'am, can I go see a wedding tomorrow?” Jane said one day.
My wife knew by instinct whose wedding. “Do you think it is wise, Jane?” she said.
My wife instinctively knew whose wedding it was. “Do you think that’s a good idea, Jane?” she asked.
“I would like to see the last of him,” said Jane.
“I want to see the last of him,” said Jane.
“My dear,” said my wife, fluttering into my room about twenty minutes after Jane had started, “Jane has been to the boot-hole and taken all the left-off boots and shoes, and gone off to the wedding with them in a bag. Surely she cannot mean—”
“My dear,” said my wife, coming into my room about twenty minutes after Jane had left, “Jane has gone to the boot-hole and taken all the leftover boots and shoes, and left for the wedding with them in a bag. Surely she can’t mean—”
“Jane,” I said, “is developing character. Let us hope for the best.”
“Jane,” I said, “is building her character. Let's hope for the best.”
Jane came back with a pale, hard face. All the boots seemed to be still in her bag, at which my 402wife heaved a premature sigh of relief. We heard her go upstairs and replace the boots with considerable emphasis.
Jane returned with a pale, hard expression. All the boots appeared to still be in her bag, prompting my 402wife to let out a premature sigh of relief. We heard her go upstairs and swap out the boots with noticeable force.
“Quite a crowd at the wedding, ma’am,” she said presently, in a purely conversational style, sitting in our little kitchen, and scrubbing the potatoes; “and such a lovely day for them.” She proceeded to numerous other details, clearly avoiding some cardinal incident.
“There's quite a crowd at the wedding, ma’am,” she said casually, sitting in our small kitchen and scrubbing the potatoes; “and it's such a beautiful day for them.” She went on to mention many other details, clearly sidestepping a key event.
“It was all extremely respectable and nice, ma’am; but her father didn’t wear a black coat, and looked quite out of place, ma’am. Mr. Piddingquirk—”
“It was all very respectable and nice, ma’am; but her father didn’t wear a black coat and looked quite out of place, ma’am. Mr. Piddingquirk—”
“Who?”
“Who?”
“Mr. Piddingquirk—William that was, ma’am—had white gloves, and a coat like a clergyman, and a lovely chrysanthemum. He looked so nice, ma’am. And there was red carpet down, just like for gentlefolks. And they say he gave the clerk four shillings, ma’am. It was a real kerridge they had—not a fly. When they came out of church, there was rice-throwing, and her two little sisters dropping dead flowers. And some one threw a slipper, and then I threw a boot—”
“Mr. Piddingquirk—William that was, ma’am—had white gloves, a coat like a priest, and a beautiful chrysanthemum. He looked really nice, ma’am. And there was a red carpet laid out, just like for the upper class. They say he gave the clerk four shillings, ma’am. It was a real carriage they had—not a cab. When they came out of church, there was rice throwing, and her two little sisters were dropping dead flowers. And someone threw a slipper, and then I threw a boot—”
“Threw a boot, Jane!”
"Threw a boot, Jane!"
“Yes, ma’am. Aimed at her. But it hit him. Yes, ma’am, hard. Gev him a black eye, I should think. I only threw that one. I hadn’t the heart to try again. All the little boys cheered when it hit him.”
“Yes, ma’am. I aimed at her. But it hit him. Yes, ma’am, really hard. Gave him a black eye, I think. I only threw that one. I didn’t have the heart to try again. All the little boys cheered when it hit him.”
403After an interval—“I am sorry the boot hit him.”
403After a moment—“I'm sorry the boot hit him.”
Another pause. The potatoes were being scrubbed violently. “He always was a bit above me, you know, ma’am. And he was led away.”
Another pause. The potatoes were being scrubbed vigorously. “He always was a bit above me, you know, ma’am. And he was taken away.”
The potatoes were more than finished. Jane rose sharply, with a sigh, and rapped the basin down on the table.
The potatoes were completely done. Jane stood up suddenly, sighed, and banged the basin down on the table.
“I don’t care,” she said. “I don’t care a rap. He will find out his mistake yet. It serves me right. I was stuck up about him. I ought not to have looked so high. And I am glad things are as things are.”
“I don’t care,” she said. “I don’t care at all. He’ll realize his mistake eventually. It’s my fault. I was too proud about him. I shouldn’t have aimed so high. And I’m glad things are the way they are.”
My wife was in the kitchen, seeing to the higher cookery. After the confession of the boot-throwing, she must have watched poor Jane fuming with a certain dismay in those brown eyes of hers. But I imagine they softened again very quickly, and then Jane’s must have met them.
My wife was in the kitchen, handling the more elaborate cooking. After admitting to throwing the boot, she must have watched poor Jane seething with a mix of frustration and concern in those brown eyes of hers. But I bet they softened again pretty fast, and then Jane’s eyes must have met hers.
“Oh, ma’am,” said Jane, with an astonishing change of note, “think of all that might have been! Oh, ma’am, I could have been so happy! I ought to have known, but I didn’t know—You’re very kind to let me talk to you, ma’am—for it’s hard on me, ma’am—it’s har-r-r-r-d—”
“Oh, ma’am,” said Jane, with a surprising shift in her tone, “think of all that could have been! Oh, ma’am, I could have been so happy! I should have known, but I didn’t—You’re really kind to let me talk to you, ma’am—for it’s tough for me, ma’am—it’s so hard—”
And I gather that Euphemia so far forgot herself as to let Jane sob out some of the fulness of her heart on a sympathetic shoulder. My Euphemia, thank Heaven, has never properly grasped the importance of “keeping up her position.” 404And since that fit of weeping, much of the accent of bitterness has gone out of Jane’s scrubbing and brush-work.
And I hear that Euphemia completely lost track of herself and allowed Jane to cry on her shoulder, sharing some of her feelings. Thank God my Euphemia has never fully understood the need to "maintain her position." 404 Since that moment of crying, a lot of the bitterness has disappeared from Jane’s scrubbing and cleaning.
Indeed, something passed the other day with the butcher-boy—but that scarcely belongs to this story. However, Jane is young still, and time and change are at work with her. We all have our sorrows, but I do not believe very much in the existence of sorrows that never heal.
Indeed, something happened the other day with the butcher-boy—but that hardly relates to this story. However, Jane is still young, and time and change are influencing her. We all have our struggles, but I don't really believe in sorrows that never heal.
THE LOST INHERITANCE
“My uncle,” said the man with the glass eye, “was what you might call a hemi-semi-demi millionaire. He was worth about a hundred and twenty thousand. Quite. And he left me all his money.”
“My uncle,” said the man with the glass eye, “was what you might call a half-semi-demi millionaire. He was worth about a hundred and twenty thousand. For sure. And he left me all his money.”
I glanced at the shiny sleeve of his coat, and my eye travelled up to the frayed collar.
I looked at the shiny sleeve of his coat, and my gaze moved up to the worn collar.
“Every penny,” said the man with the glass eye, and I caught the active pupil looking at me with a touch of offence.
“Every penny,” said the man with the glass eye, and I noticed the lively pupil looking at me with a hint of offense.
“I’ve never had any windfalls like that,” I said, trying to speak enviously and propitiate him.
“I’ve never had any lucky breaks like that,” I said, trying to sound envious and win him over.
“Even a legacy isn’t always a blessing,” he remarked with a sigh, and with an air of philosophical resignation he put the red nose and the wiry moustache into his tankard for a space.
“Even a legacy isn’t always a blessing,” he said with a sigh, and with a sense of philosophical resignation, he dipped the red nose and the wiry mustache into his tankard for a moment.
“Perhaps not,” I said.
"Maybe not," I said.
“He was an author, you see, and he wrote a lot of books.”
“He was an author, you know, and he wrote a lot of books.”
“Indeed!”
"Absolutely!"
“That was the trouble of it all.” He stared at me with the available eye, to see if I grasped his statement, then averted his face a little and produced a toothpick.
"That was the problem with it all." He looked at me with one eye, checking if I understood what he meant, then turned his face slightly and pulled out a toothpick.
406“You see,” he said, smacking his lips after a pause, “it was like this. He was my uncle—my maternal uncle. And he had—what shall I call it?—a weakness for writing edifying literature. Weakness is hardly the word—downright mania is nearer the mark. He’d been librarian in a Polytechnic, and as soon as the money came to him he began to indulge his ambition. It’s a simply extraordinary and incomprehensible thing to me. Here was a man of thirty-seven suddenly dropped into a perfect pile of gold, and he didn’t go—not a day’s bust on it. One would think a chap would go and get himself dressed a bit decent—say a couple of dozen pairs of trousers at a West End tailor’s; but he never did. You’d hardly believe it, but when he died he hadn’t even a gold watch. It seems wrong for people like that to have money. All he did was just to take a house, and order in pretty nearly five tons of books and ink and paper, and set to writing edifying literature as hard as ever he could write. I can’t understand it! But he did. The money came to him, curiously enough, through a maternal uncle of his, unexpected like, when he was seven-and-thirty. My mother, it happened, was his only relation in the wide, wide world, except some second cousins of his. And I was her only son. You follow all that? The second cousins had one only son, too; but they brought him to see the old man too soon. He was rather a spoilt youngster, 407was this son of theirs, and directly he set eyes on my uncle, he began bawling out as hard as he could. ‘Take ’im away—er,’ he says, ‘take ’im away,’ and so did for himself entirely. It was pretty straight sailing, you’d think, for me, eh? And my mother, being a sensible, careful woman, settled the business in her own mind long before he did.
406“You see,” he said, smacking his lips after a pause, “it was like this. He was my uncle—my mom’s brother. And he had—what should I call it?—a thing for writing inspiring literature. ‘Thing’ hardly captures it—‘obsession’ is closer to the truth. He’d worked as a librarian at a Polytechnic, and as soon as he came into some money, he started chasing his dream. It’s honestly an incredible and baffling thing to me. Here was a thirty-seven-year-old man suddenly sitting on a fortune, and he didn’t spend a dime. You’d think a guy would go and get himself some nice clothes—maybe a couple dozen pairs of pants from a fancy tailor in the West End; but he never did. You wouldn’t believe it, but when he died, he didn’t even own a gold watch. It just seems wrong for people like that to have money. All he did was buy a house, bring in nearly five tons of books, ink, and paper, and dive into writing inspirational literature as hard as he could. I can’t understand it! But he did. The money came to him, oddly enough, from a maternal uncle of his, unexpectedly, when he was thirty-seven. My mom was his only relative in the wide, wide world, except for some second cousins of his. And I was her only son. Got all that? The second cousins had one son too; but they brought him to see the old man way too soon. He was a bit of a spoiled kid, and as soon as he saw my uncle, he started crying his eyes out. ‘Take him away—er,’ he says, ‘take him away,’ and that totally did him in. You’d think it was a pretty clear path for me, right? And my mom, being a sensible, cautious woman, had figured everything out long before he did. 407
“He was a curious little chap, was my uncle, as I remember him. I don’t wonder at the kid being scared. Hair, just like these Japanese dolls they sell, black and straight and stiff all round the brim and none in the middle, and below, a whitish kind of face and rather large dark grey eyes moving about behind his spectacles. He used to attach a great deal of importance to dress, and always wore a flapping overcoat and a big-rimmed felt hat of a most extraordinary size. He looked a rummy little beggar, I can tell you. Indoors it was, as a rule, a dirty red flannel dressing-gown and a black skull-cap he had. That black skull-cap made him look like the portraits of all kinds of celebrated people. He was always moving about from house to house, was my uncle, with his chair which had belonged to Savage Landor, and his two writing-tables, one of Carlyle’s and the other of Shelley’s, so the dealer told him, and the completest portable reference library in England, he said he had,—and he lugged the whole caravan, now to a house at Down, near Darwin’s old place, then to Reigate, 408near Meredith, then off to Haslemere, then back to Chelsea for a bit, and then up to Hampstead. He knew there was something wrong with his stuff, but he never knew there was anything wrong with his brains. It was always the air, or the water, or the altitude, or some tommy-rot like that. ‘So much depends on environment,’ he used to say, and stare at you hard, as if he half-suspected you were hiding a grin at him somewhere under your face. ‘So much depends on environment to a sensitive mind like mine.’
“He was a curious little guy, my uncle, as I remember him. I can understand why the kid was scared. His hair was just like those Japanese dolls they sell—black, straight, and stiff all around the edges, but none in the middle. Below that, he had a paleish kind of face and rather large dark grey eyes that darted around behind his glasses. He put a lot of emphasis on his appearance and always wore a flowing overcoat and a big felt hat that was an incredibly odd size. He looked quite peculiar, I can tell you. Indoors, he usually wore a dirty red flannel robe and a black skull-cap. That skull-cap made him look like the portraits of all sorts of famous people. My uncle was always shuffling from place to place, with his chair that used to belong to Savage Landor, and his two writing desks—one from Carlyle and the other from Shelley, or so the dealer claimed—and the most complete portable reference library in England, he said he had. He dragged the whole setup from one house to another: first to a place in Down, near Darwin’s old home, then to Reigate, near Meredith, then off to Haslemere, then back to Chelsea for a bit, and then up to Hampstead. He knew something was off with his stuff, but he never realized there was anything wrong with his mind. It was always the air, or the water, or the altitude, or some nonsense like that. ‘So much depends on the surroundings,’ he would say, staring at you hard, as if he suspected you were hiding a laugh at him somewhere. ‘So much depends on the surroundings for a sensitive mind like mine.’
“What was his name? You wouldn’t know it if I told you. He wrote nothing that any one has ever read—nothing. No one could read it. He wanted to be a great teacher, he said, and he didn’t know what he wanted to teach any more than a child. So he just blethered at large about Truth and Righteousness, and the Spirit of History, and all that. Book after book he wrote and published at his own expense. He wasn’t quite right in his head, you know, really; and to hear him go on at the critics—not because they slated him, mind you—he liked that—but because they didn’t take any notice of him at all. ‘What do the nations want?’ he would ask, holding out his brown old claw. ‘Why, teaching—guidance! They are scattered upon the hills like sheep without a shepherd. There is War, and Rumours of War, the unlaid Spirit of Discord abroad in the land, Nihilism, Vivisection, Vaccination, 409Drunkenness, Penury, Want, Socialistic Error, Selfish Capital! Do you see the clouds, Ted?’—my name, you know—‘Do you see the clouds lowering over the land? and behind it all—the Mongol waits!’ He was always very great on Mongols, and the Spectre of Socialism, and such-like things.
“What was his name? You wouldn’t recognize it if I told you. He wrote nothing that anyone has ever read—nothing. No one could read it. He claimed he wanted to be a great teacher, but he didn’t even know what he wanted to teach any more than a child. So he just rambled on about Truth and Righteousness, the Spirit of History, and all that. He wrote book after book and published them at his own expense. He wasn’t quite right in the head, you know; and to hear him rant about the critics—not because they trashed him, mind you—he enjoyed that—but because they didn’t pay any attention to him at all. ‘What do the nations want?’ he would ask, extending his old brown hand. ‘Why, teaching—guidance! They are scattered on the hills like sheep without a shepherd. There is War, and Rumors of War, the unexorcised Spirit of Discord roaming the land, Nihilism, Vivisection, Vaccination, 409Drunkenness, Poverty, Need, Socialistic Error, Selfish Capital! Do you see the clouds, Ted?’—that’s my name, by the way—‘Do you see the clouds gathering over the land? And behind it all—the Mongol waits!’ He was always very passionate about Mongols and the Spectre of Socialism, and similar topics."
“Then out would come his finger at me, and, with his eyes all afire and his skull-cap askew, he would whisper: ‘And here am I. What do I want? Nations to teach. Nations! I say it with all modesty, Ted, I could. I would guide them; nay! but I will guide them to a safe haven, to the land of Righteousness, flowing with milk and honey.’
“Then his finger would point at me, and with his eyes blazing and his skull-cap askew, he would whisper, ‘And here I am. What do I want? Nations to teach. Nations! I say this with all humility, Ted, I could. I would guide them; no! I will guide them to a safe haven, to the land of Righteousness, flowing with milk and honey.’”
“That’s how he used to go on. Ramble, rave about the nations, and righteousness, and that kind of thing. Kind of mincemeat of Bible and blethers. From fourteen up to three-and-twenty, when I might have been improving my mind, my mother used to wash me and brush my hair (at least in the earlier years of it), with a nice parting down the middle, and take me, once or twice a week, to hear this old lunatic jabber about things he had read of in the morning papers, trying to do it as much like Carlyle as he could; and I used to sit according to instructions, and look intelligent and nice, and pretend to be taking it all in. Afterwards, I used to go of my own free will, out of a regard for the legacy. I was the only person 410that used to go and see him. He wrote, I believe, to every man who made the slightest stir in the world, sending him a copy or so of his books, and inviting him to come and talk about the nations to him; but half of them didn’t answer, and none ever came. And when the girl let you in—she was an artful bit of goods, that girl—there were heaps of letters on the hall-seat waiting to go off, addressed to Prince Bismark, the President of the United States, and such-like people. And one went up the staircase and along the cobwebby passage,—the housekeeper drank like fury, and his passages were always cobwebby,—and found him at last, with books turned down all over the room, and heaps of torn paper on the floor, and telegrams and newspapers littered about, and empty coffee-cups and half-eaten bits of toast on the desk and the mantel. You’d see his back humped up, and his hair would be sticking out quite straight between the collar of that dressing-gown thing and the edge of the skull-cap.
“That’s how he used to go on. Ramble, rave about the nations, and righteousness, and stuff like that. A mix of the Bible and nonsense. From fourteen to twenty-three, when I could have been improving my mind, my mom used to wash me and brush my hair (at least in the earlier years), with a nice part down the middle, and take me once or twice a week to hear this old lunatic ramble about things he read in the morning papers, trying to sound as much like Carlyle as he could; and I would sit as instructed, looking intelligent and pleasant, pretending to absorb it all. Later, I would go of my own free will, out of respect for the legacy. I was the only one who visited him. He wrote, I believe, to every person who made even the slightest stir in the world, sending them a copy or two of his books and inviting them to come and talk about the nations with him; but half of them didn’t respond, and none ever showed up. And when the girl let you in—she was quite the character, that girl—there were heaps of letters on the hall bench waiting to be sent out, addressed to Prince Bismarck, the President of the United States, and other notable figures. Then you’d go up the staircase and along the dusty passage—the housekeeper drank heavily, and his passages were always dusty—and finally find him, with books thrown all over the room, piles of torn paper on the floor, and newspapers and empty coffee cups littered everywhere, along with half-eaten bits of toast on the desk and mantle. You’d see his back hunched over, and his hair sticking out straight between the collar of that dressing gown and the edge of the skull cap.”
“‘A moment!’ he would say. ‘A moment!’ over his shoulder. ‘The mot juste, you know, Ted, le mot juste. Righteous thought righteously expressed—Aah!—concatenation. And now, Ted,’ he’d say, spinning round in his study chair, ‘how’s Young England?’ That was his silly name for me.
“‘Just a moment!’ he would say. ‘Just a moment!’ over his shoulder. ‘The right word, you know, Ted, the right word. Righteous thought righteously expressed—Aah!—concatenation. And now, Ted,’ he’d say, spinning around in his study chair, ‘how’s Young England?’ That was his silly name for me.”
“Well, that was my uncle, and that was how he talked—to me, at any rate. With others about 411he seemed a bit shy. And he not only talked to me, but he gave me his books, books of six hundred pages or so, with cock-eyed headings, ‘The Shrieking Sisterhood,’ ‘The Behemoth of Bigotry,’ ‘Crucibles and Cullenders,’ and so on. All very strong, and none of them original. The very last time but one that I saw him he gave me a book. He was feeling ill even then, and his hand shook and he was despondent. I noticed it because I was naturally on the look-out for those little symptoms. ‘My last book, Ted,’ he said. ‘My last book, my boy; my last word to the deaf and hardened nations;’ and I’m hanged if a tear didn’t go rolling down his yellow old cheek. He was regular crying because it was so nearly over, and he hadn’t only written about fifty-three books of rubbish. ‘I’ve sometimes thought, Ted—’ he said, and stopped.
“Well, that was my uncle, and that was how he talked—to me, anyway. With others, he seemed a bit shy. And he not only talked to me, but he also gave me his books, books of about six hundred pages or so, with silly titles like ‘The Shrieking Sisterhood,’ ‘The Behemoth of Bigotry,’ ‘Crucibles and Cullenders,’ and so on. All very intense, and none of them original. The very last time I saw him, he gave me a book. He was feeling ill even then, and his hand shook, and he looked really down. I noticed it because I was naturally watching for those little signs. ‘My last book, Ted,’ he said. ‘My last book, my boy; my last word to the deaf and hardened nations;’ and I swear a tear rolled down his yellow old cheek. He was really crying because it was almost over, and he hadn’t just written about fifty-three books of nonsense. ‘I’ve sometimes thought, Ted—’ he said, and then stopped.
“‘Perhaps I’ve been a bit hasty and angry with this stiff-necked generation. A little more sweetness, perhaps, and a little less blinding light. I’ve sometimes thought—I might have swayed them. But I’ve done my best, Ted.’
“‘Maybe I’ve been a bit quick and upset with this stubborn generation. A little more kindness, maybe, and a little less harshness. I’ve sometimes wondered—I could have won them over. But I’ve done my best, Ted.’”
“And then, with a burst, for the first and last time in his life he owned himself a failure. It showed he was really ill. He seemed to think for a minute, and then he spoke quietly and low, as sane and sober as I am now. ‘I’ve been a fool, Ted,’ he said. ‘I’ve been flapping nonsense all my life. Only He who readeth the 412heart knows whether this is anything more than vanity. Ted, I don’t. But He knows, He knows, and if I have done foolishly and vainly, in my heart—in my heart—’
“And then, suddenly, for the first and last time in his life, he recognized that he was a failure. It indicated that he was genuinely unwell. He paused for a moment, and then spoke quietly and softly, as rational and clear-headed as I am now. ‘I’ve been a fool, Ted,’ he said. ‘I’ve been talking nonsense my whole life. Only He who sees the 412heart knows whether this is anything more than vanity. Ted, I don’t. But He knows, He knows, and if I have acted foolishly and vainly, in my heart—in my heart—’
“Just like that he spoke, repeating himself, and he stopped quite short and handed the book to me, trembling. Then the old shine came back into his eye. I remember it all fairly well, because I repeated it and acted it to my old mother when I got home, to cheer her up a bit. ‘Take this book and read it,’ he said. ‘It’s my last word, my very last word. I’ve left all my property to you, Ted, and may you use it better than I have done.’ And then he fell a-coughing.
“Just like that, he spoke, repeating himself, then he stopped abruptly and handed the book to me, trembling. After that, the old spark returned to his eye. I remember it pretty well because I recounted it and acted it out for my mom when I got home to cheer her up a bit. ‘Take this book and read it,’ he said. ‘It’s my last word, my very last word. I’ve left all my belongings to you, Ted, and I hope you use them better than I have.’ And then he started coughing.
“I remember that quite well even now, and how I went home cock-a-hoop, and how he was in bed the next time I called. The housekeeper was downstairs drunk, and I fooled about—as a young man will—with the girl in the passage before I went to him. He was sinking fast. But even then his vanity clung to him.
“I remember that pretty clearly even now, and how I went home feeling really proud, and how he was in bed the next time I visited. The housekeeper was downstairs drunk, and I messed around—as young guys do—with the girl in the hallway before I went to see him. He was going downhill quickly. But even then his vanity still stuck with him.
“‘Have you read it?’ he whispered.
“‘Have you read it?’ he whispered."
“‘Sat up all night reading it,’ I said in his ear to cheer him. ‘It’s the last,’ said I, and then, with a memory of some poetry or other in my head, ‘but it’s the bravest and best.’
“‘I stayed up all night reading it,’ I said in his ear to lift his spirits. ‘It’s the last one,’ I added, and then, recalling some poem or other in my mind, ‘but it’s the bravest and the best.’”
“He smiled a little and tried to squeeze my hand as a woman might do, and left off squeezing in the middle, and lay still. ‘The bravest and the best,’ said I again, seeing it pleased him. But he didn’t 413answer. I heard the girl giggle outside the door, for occasionally we’d had just a bit of innocent laughter, you know, at his ways. I looked at his face, and his eyes were closed, and it was just as if somebody had punched in his nose on either side. But he was still smiling. It’s queer to think of—he lay dead, lay dead there, an utter failure, with the smile of success on his face.
“He smiled slightly and tried to hold my hand like a woman might, but stopped midway and lay still. ‘The bravest and the best,’ I said again, seeing it made him happy. But he didn’t reply. I heard the girl giggling outside the door, since we’d occasionally shared some innocent laughter about his ways. I looked at his face; his eyes were closed, and it looked like someone had punched his nose on either side. But he was still smiling. It’s strange to think about—he lay dead, just lying there, a complete failure, yet with the smile of success on his face.
“That was the end of my uncle. You can imagine me and my mother saw that he had a decent funeral. Then, of course, came the hunt for the will. We began decent and respectful at first, and before the day was out we were ripping chairs, and smashing bureau panels, and sounding walls. Every hour we expected those others to come in. We asked the housekeeper, and found she’d actually witnessed a will—on an ordinary half-sheet of notepaper it was written, and very short, she said—not a month ago. The other witness was the gardener, and he bore her out word for word. But I’m hanged if there was that or any other will to be found. The way my mother talked must have made him turn in his grave. At last a lawyer at Reigate sprang one on us that had been made years ago during some temporary quarrel with my mother. I’m blest if that wasn’t the only will to be discovered anywhere, and it left every penny he possessed to that ‘Take ’im away’ youngster of his second cousin’s—a chap 414who’d never had to stand his talking not for one afternoon of his life.”
“That was the end of my uncle. You can imagine my mother and I made sure he had a proper funeral. Then, of course, came the search for the will. We started off polite and respectful, but before the day was over, we were ripping apart chairs, smashing bureau panels, and knocking on walls. Every hour, we expected those others to show up. We asked the housekeeper, and she revealed that she’d actually seen a will—written on a regular half-sheet of notepaper, and very short, she said—not even a month ago. The other witness was the gardener, and he confirmed her account word for word. But I swear we couldn’t find that will or any other. The way my mother talked must have made him turn in his grave. Finally, a lawyer in Reigate presented us with a will that had been created years ago during some brief conflict with my mother. Believe it or not, that was the only will we could find, and it left every penny he had to that ‘Take ’im away’ kid of his second cousin—a guy who had never had to put up with him for even one afternoon in his life.”
The man with the glass eye stopped.
The man with the glass eye stopped.
“I thought you said—” I began.
“I thought you said—” I started.
“Half a minute,” said the man with the glass eye. “I had to wait for the end of the story till this very morning, and I was a blessed sight more interested than you are. You just wait a bit, too. They executed the will, and the other chap inherited, and directly he was one-and-twenty he began to blew it. How he did blew it, to be sure! He bet, he drank, he got in the papers for this and that. I tell you, it makes me wriggle to think of the times he had. He blewed every ha’penny of it before he was thirty, and the last I heard of him was—Holloway! Three years ago.
“Half a minute,” said the man with the glass eye. “I had to wait for the end of the story until this very morning, and I was a lot more interested than you are. Just hold on a bit. They executed the will, the other guy inherited, and as soon as he turned twenty-one, he started to blow it. And boy, did he blow it! He bet, he drank, he got in the papers for this and that. Honestly, it makes me squirm to think about the times he had. He wasted every penny of it before he hit thirty, and the last I heard of him was—Holloway! Three years ago.
“Well, I naturally fell on hard times, because, as you see, the only trade I knew was legacy-cadging. All my plans were waiting over to begin, so to speak, when the old chap died. I’ve had my ups and downs since then. Just now it’s a period of depression. I tell you frankly, I’m on the look-out for help. I was hunting round my room to find something to raise a bit on for immediate necessities, and the sight of all those presentation volumes—no one will buy them, not to wrap butter in, even—well, they annoyed me. I’d promised him not to part with them, and I never kept a promise easier. I let out at them with my boot, and sent them shooting across the 415room. One lifted at the kick, and spun through the air. And out of it flapped—You guess?
"Well, I naturally hit a rough patch because, as you can see, the only thing I knew how to do was mooch off the legacy. All my plans were just waiting to kick off, so to speak, until the old guy passed away. I've had my ups and downs since then. Right now, it’s a tough time. Honestly, I'm looking for some help. I was searching my room for something to sell to cover some immediate needs, and seeing all those presentation books—nobody would buy them, not even to wrap butter in—well, they really got on my nerves. I had promised him I wouldn’t sell them, and I’ve never kept a promise more easily. I kicked at them with my boot, and sent them flying across the room. One took off with the kick and spun through the air. And out of it flapped—You guess?" 415
“It was the will. He’d given it me himself in that very last volume of all.”
“It was the will. He gave it to me himself in that very last volume.”
He folded his arms on the table, and looked sadly with the active eye at his empty tankard. He shook his head slowly, and said softly, “I’d never opened the book, much more cut a page!” Then he looked up, with a bitter laugh, for my sympathy. “Fancy hiding it there! Eigh? Of all places.”
He crossed his arms on the table and looked sadly at his empty mug. He shook his head slowly and said quietly, “I’d never opened the book, let alone cut a page!” Then he looked up, letting out a bitter laugh, hoping for my sympathy. “Can you believe it? Hiding it there! Right? Of all places.”
He began to fish absently for a dead fly with his finger. “It just shows you the vanity of authors,” he said, looking up at me. “It wasn’t no trick of his. He’d meant perfectly fair. He’d really thought I was really going home to read that blessed book of his through. But it shows you, don’t it?”—his eye went down to the tankard again,—“it shows you, too, how we poor human beings fail to understand one another.”
He started to absentmindedly fish out a dead fly with his finger. “It just shows you how vain authors can be,” he said, looking at me. “It wasn’t any trick on his part. He meant well. He really thought I was actually going home to read that blessed book of his cover to cover. But it shows you, doesn’t it?”—his gaze dropped back to the tankard again—“it also shows how we poor humans fail to understand each other.”
But there was no misunderstanding the eloquent thirst of his eye. He accepted with ill-feigned surprise. He said, in the usual subtle formula, that he didn’t mind if he did.
But there was no mistaking the expressive thirst in his eyes. He acted surprised, but it was clearly not genuine. He said, with the usual subtle phrasing, that he didn’t mind if he did.
POLLOCK AND THE PORROH MAN
It was in a swampy village on the lagoon river behind the Turner Peninsula that Pollock’s first encounter with the Porroh man occurred. The women of that country are famous for their good looks—they are Gallinas with a dash of European blood that dates from the days of Vasco da Gama and the English slave-traders, and the Porroh man, too, was possibly inspired by a faint Caucasian taint in his composition. (It’s a curious thing to think that some of us may have distant cousins eating men on Sherboro Island or raiding with the Sofas.) At any rate, the Porroh man stabbed the woman to the heart as though he had been a mere low-class Italian, and very narrowly missed Pollock. But Pollock, using his revolver to parry the lightning stab which was aimed at his deltoid muscle, sent the iron dagger flying, and, firing, hit the man in the hand.
It was in a swampy village along the lagoon river behind the Turner Peninsula that Pollock first encountered the Porroh man. The women from that region are known for their beauty—they are Gallinas mixed with a bit of European ancestry tracing back to the days of Vasco da Gama and the English slave traders, and the Porroh man might also have been influenced by some distant Caucasian heritage. (It’s a strange thought that some of us might have distant relatives eating people on Sherboro Island or raiding with the Sofas.) In any case, the Porroh man stabbed the woman in the heart as if he were just a low-class Italian, and barely missed Pollock. But Pollock, using his revolver to deflect the quick stab aimed at his shoulder, sent the iron dagger flying and, while firing, hit the man in the hand.
He fired again and missed, knocking a sudden window out of the wall of the hut. The Porroh man stooped in the doorway, glancing under his arm at Pollock. Pollock caught a glimpse of his inverted face in the sunlight, and then the Englishman was alone, sick and trembling with the excitement 417of the affair, in the twilight of the place. It had all happened in less time than it takes to read about it.
He fired again and missed, shattering a sudden window out of the wall of the hut. The Porroh man bent in the doorway, looking back at Pollock. Pollock caught a glimpse of his upside-down face in the sunlight, and then the Englishman was alone, feeling sick and shaking with the thrill of the situation, in the dim light of the place. It all happened in less time than it takes to read about it. 417
The woman was quite dead, and having ascertained this, Pollock went to the entrance of the hut and looked out. Things outside were dazzling bright. Half a dozen of the porters of the expedition were standing up in a group near the green huts they occupied, and staring towards him, wondering what the shots might signify. Behind the little group of men was the broad stretch of black fetid mud by the river, a green carpet of rafts of papyrus and water-grass, and then the leaden water. The mangroves beyond the stream loomed indistinctly through the blue haze. There were no signs of excitement in the squat village, whose fence was just visible above the cane-grass.
The woman was definitely dead, and after confirming this, Pollock went to the entrance of the hut and looked outside. Everything out there was brilliantly bright. A group of half a dozen porters from the expedition was gathered near the green huts they were staying in, looking his way and wondering what the shots might mean. Behind the small group of men was the wide expanse of black, smelly mud by the river, a green spread of rafts made of papyrus and water grass, followed by the dull water. The mangroves across the stream appeared hazy in the blue mist. There were no signs of disturbance in the low village, whose fence was just visible above the tall cane grass.
Pollock came out of the hut cautiously and walked towards the river, looking over his shoulder at intervals. But the Porroh man had vanished. Pollock clutched his revolver nervously in his hand.
Pollock stepped out of the hut cautiously and walked toward the river, glancing over his shoulder every so often. But the Porroh man was gone. Pollock nervously gripped his revolver in his hand.
One of his men came to meet him, and as he came, pointed to the bushes behind the hut in which the Porroh man had disappeared. Pollock had an irritating persuasion of having made an absolute fool of himself; he felt bitter, savage, at the turn things had taken. At the same time, he would have to tell Waterhouse—the moral, exemplary, 418cautious Waterhouse—who would inevitably take the matter seriously. Pollock cursed bitterly at his luck, at Waterhouse, and especially at the West Coast of Africa. He felt consummately sick of the expedition. And in the back of his mind all the time was a speculative doubt where precisely within the visible horizon the Porroh man might be.
One of his men came to meet him, and as he approached, he pointed to the bushes behind the hut where the Porroh man had vanished. Pollock felt like he had made a complete fool of himself; he felt angry and frustrated about how things had turned out. At the same time, he would have to tell Waterhouse—the morally rigid, cautious Waterhouse—who would definitely take the situation seriously. Pollock cursed his bad luck, Waterhouse, and especially the West Coast of Africa. He felt utterly fed up with the expedition. And in the back of his mind, he couldn't shake off the nagging thought of where exactly the Porroh man could be hiding within sight.
It is perhaps rather shocking, but he was not at all upset by the murder that had just happened. He had seen so much brutality during the last three months, so many dead women, burnt huts, drying skeletons, up the Kittam River in the wake of the Sofa cavalry, that his senses were blunted. What disturbed him was the persuasion that this business was only beginning.
It’s pretty shocking, but he wasn’t upset at all by the murder that had just occurred. He had witnessed so much violence over the past three months—so many dead women, burned huts, drying skeletons, along the Kittam River following the Sofa cavalry—that he had become desensitized. What troubled him was the feeling that this was just the beginning.
He swore savagely at the black, who ventured to ask a question, and went on into the tent under the orange-trees where Waterhouse was lying, feeling exasperatingly like a boy going into the headmaster’s study.
He angrily cursed at the black man who dared to ask a question and continued into the tent under the orange trees where Waterhouse was lying, feeling frustratingly like a boy entering the headmaster’s office.
Waterhouse was still sleeping off the effects of his last dose of chlorodyne, and Pollock sat down on a packing-case beside him, and, lighting his pipe, waited for him to awake. About him were scattered the pots and weapons Waterhouse had collected from the Mendi people, and which he had been repacking for the canoe voyage to Sulyma.
Waterhouse was still sleeping off the effects of his last dose of chlorodyne, and Pollock sat down on a packing case next to him, lighting his pipe while he waited for him to wake up. Around them were the pots and weapons Waterhouse had collected from the Mendi people, which he had been repacking for the canoe trip to Sulyma.
Presently Waterhouse woke up, and after judicial stretching, decided he was all right again. 419Pollock got him some tea. Over the tea the incidents of the afternoon were described by Pollock, after some preliminary beating about the bush. Waterhouse took the matter even more seriously than Pollock had anticipated. He did not simply disapprove, he scolded, he insulted.
Presently, Waterhouse woke up, and after some stretching, decided he felt fine again. 419Pollock made him some tea. While having tea, Pollock described the events of the afternoon, after some hesitant small talk. Waterhouse took the situation even more seriously than Pollock had expected. He didn't just disapprove; he reprimanded and insulted.
“You’re one of those infernal fools who think a black man isn’t a human being,” he said. “I can’t be ill a day without you must get into some dirty scrape or other. This is the third time in a month that you have come crossways-on with a native, and this time you’re in for it with a vengeance. Porroh, too! They’re down upon you enough as it is, about that idol you wrote your silly name on. And they’re the most vindictive devils on earth! You make a man ashamed of civilisation. To think you come of a decent family! If ever I cumber myself up with a vicious, stupid young lout like you again—”
“You're one of those annoying idiots who think a Black man isn't a human being,” he said. “I can’t be sick for a day without you getting into some kind of trouble. This is the third time in a month that you've had a run-in with a local, and this time you're really going to regret it. Porroh, too! They're already furious with you about that idol you wrote your ridiculous name on. And they’re the most vengeful people on earth! You make someone ashamed of civilization. To think you come from a decent family! If I ever get involved with a reckless, stupid young punk like you again—”
“Steady on, now,” snarled Pollock, in the tone that always exasperated Waterhouse; “steady on.”
“Hold on a second,” Pollock snapped, in that tone that always drove Waterhouse crazy; “hold on.”
At that Waterhouse became speechless. He jumped to his feet.
At that, Waterhouse was speechless. He jumped to his feet.
“Look here, Pollock,” he said, after a struggle to control his breath. “You must go home. I won’t have you any longer. I’m ill enough as it is through you—”
“Listen, Pollock,” he said, after fighting to catch his breath. “You need to go home. I can't have you around anymore. I'm sick enough as it is because of you—”
“Keep your hair on,” said Pollock, staring in front of him. “I’m ready enough to go.”
“Chill out,” said Pollock, looking straight ahead. “I’m totally ready to go.”
420Waterhouse became calmer again. He sat down on the camp-stool. “Very well,” he said. “I don’t want a row, Pollock, you know; but it’s confoundedly annoying to have one’s plans put out by this kind of thing. I’ll come to Sulyma with you, and see you safe aboard—”
420Waterhouse relaxed again. He sat down on the camp-stool. “Alright,” he said. “I don’t want to fight, Pollock, you know that; but it’s incredibly frustrating to have my plans disrupted by this sort of thing. I’ll go to Sulyma with you and make sure you get on board safely—”
“You needn’t,” said Pollock. “I can go alone. From here.”
“You don’t have to,” said Pollock. “I can go by myself. From here.”
“Not far,” said Waterhouse. “You don’t understand this Porroh business.”
“Not far,” Waterhouse replied. “You don’t get this Porroh thing.”
“How should I know she belonged to a Porrohman?” said Pollock, bitterly.
“How am I supposed to know she belonged to a Porrohman?” said Pollock, bitterly.
“Well, she did,” said Waterhouse; “and you can’t undo the thing. Go alone, indeed! I wonder what they’d do to you. You don’t seem to understand that this Porroh hokey-pokey rules this country, is its law, religion, constitution, medicine, magic—They appoint the chiefs. The Inquisition, at its best, couldn’t hold a candle to these chaps. He will probably set Awajale, the chief here, on to us. It’s lucky our porters are Mendis. We shall have to shift this little settlement of ours—Confound you, Pollock! And, of course, you must go and miss him.”
“Well, she did,” said Waterhouse; “and you can’t change what’s done. Go alone, really? I wonder what would happen to you. You don’t seem to get that this Porroh nonsense controls this country; it’s its law, religion, constitution, medicine, and magic. They choose the chiefs. The Inquisition, at its best, couldn’t compare to these guys. He’ll probably get Awajale, the chief here, involved with us. It’s lucky our porters are Mendis. We’re going to need to move our little settlement—Damn you, Pollock! And of course, you had to go and miss him.”
He thought, and his thoughts seemed disagreeable. Presently he stood up and took his rifle. “I’d keep close for a bit, if I were you,” he said, over his shoulder, as he went out. “I’m going out to see what I can find out about it.”
He thought, and his thoughts felt unpleasant. Soon, he stood up and grabbed his rifle. “I’d stick close for a while, if I were you,” he said over his shoulder as he walked out. “I’m going to see what I can find out about it.”
Pollock remained sitting in the tent, meditating. 421“I was meant for a civilised life,” he said to himself, regretfully, as he filled his pipe. “The sooner I get back to London or Paris the better for me.”
Pollock stayed seated in the tent, deep in thought. 421“I was meant for a civilized life,” he said to himself, regretfully, as he filled his pipe. “The sooner I get back to London or Paris, the better for me.”
His eye fell on the sealed case in which Waterhouse had put the featherless poisoned arrows they had bought in the Mendi country. “I wish I had hit the beggar somewhere vital,” said Pollock, viciously.
His gaze landed on the sealed case where Waterhouse had stored the featherless poisoned arrows they had purchased in the Mendi region. “I wish I had shot the bastard somewhere critical,” Pollock said, angrily.
Waterhouse came back after a long interval. He was not communicative, though Pollock asked him questions enough. The Porroh man, it seems, was a prominent member of that mystical society. The village was interested, but not threatening. No doubt the witch-doctor had gone into the bush. He was a great witch-doctor. “Of course, he’s up to something,” said Waterhouse, and became silent.
Waterhouse returned after a long time away. He wasn't very talkative, even though Pollock asked him plenty of questions. It turns out the Porroh man was a key member of that mystical society. The village was curious but not hostile. Surely the witch-doctor had gone into the jungle. He was a powerful witch-doctor. "Of course, he's up to something," Waterhouse said, then fell silent.
“But what can he do?” asked Pollock, unheeded.
“But what can he do?” asked Pollock, ignored.
“I must get you out of this. There’s something brewing, or things would not be so quiet,” said Waterhouse, after a gap of silence. Pollock wanted to know what the brew might be. “Dancing in a circle of skulls,” said Waterhouse; “brewing a stink in a copper pot.” Pollock wanted particulars. Waterhouse was vague, Pollock pressing. At last Waterhouse lost his temper. “How the devil should I know?” he said to Pollock’s twentieth inquiry what the Porroh 422man would do. “He tried to kill you off-hand in the hut. Now, I fancy he will try something more elaborate. But you’ll see fast enough. I don’t want to help unnerve you. It’s probably all nonsense.”
“I need to get you out of this. Something's going on, or it wouldn’t be so quiet,” Waterhouse said after a pause. Pollock wanted to know what was happening. “Dancing around a circle of skulls,” Waterhouse replied; “cooking up something nasty in a copper pot.” Pollock pressed for details, but Waterhouse was vague. After several inquiries about what the Porroh man would do, Waterhouse finally lost his cool. “How the hell should I know?” he snapped. “He tried to kill you right there in the hut. Now, I guess he’ll try something more complicated. But you’ll find out soon enough. I don’t want to freak you out. It’s probably just silly nonsense.”
That night, as they were sitting at their fire, Pollock again tried to draw Waterhouse out on the subject of Porroh methods. “Better get to sleep,” said Waterhouse, when Pollock’s bent became apparent; “we start early to-morrow. You may want all your nerve about you.”
That night, as they sat by the fire, Pollock tried again to get Waterhouse to talk about Porroh methods. “You should get some sleep,” Waterhouse said, noticing Pollock's focus; “we're leaving early tomorrow. You might need all your courage.”
“But what line will he take?”
“But what will he choose?”
“Can’t say. They’re versatile people. They know a lot of rum dodges. You’d better get that copper-devil, Shakespear, to talk.”
“Can’t say. They’re resourceful people. They know a lot of tricks. You’d better get that guy, Shakespear, to chat.”
There was a flash and a heavy bang out of the darkness behind the huts, and a clay bullet came whistling close to Pollock’s head. This, at least, was crude enough. The blacks and half-breeds sitting and yarning round their own fire jumped up, and some one fired into the dark.
There was a flash and a loud bang from the darkness behind the huts, and a clay bullet whizzed past Pollock’s head. This was definitely primitive. The Black people and mixed-race individuals lounging and chatting around their own fire jumped up, and someone shot into the dark.
“Better go into one of the huts,” said Waterhouse, quietly, still sitting unmoved.
“Better go into one of the huts,” Waterhouse said quietly, still sitting unmoved.
Pollock stood up by the fire and drew his revolver. Fighting, at least, he was not afraid of. But a man in the dark is in the best of armour. Realising the wisdom of Waterhouse’s advice, Pollock went into the tent and lay down there.
Pollock stood up by the fire and pulled out his revolver. He wasn't afraid of a fight, at least. But a person in the dark has the best protection. Understanding the value of Waterhouse’s advice, Pollock went into the tent and lay down.
What little sleep he had was disturbed by dreams, variegated dreams, but chiefly of the Porroh 423man’s face, upside down, as he went out of the hut, and looked up under his arm. It was odd that this transitory impression should have stuck so firmly in Pollock’s memory. Moreover, he was troubled by queer pains in his limbs.
What little sleep he got was interrupted by dreams, strange dreams, but mostly of the Porroh man’s face, upside down, as he walked out of the hut and looked up under his arm. It was strange that this fleeting image had stayed so clearly in Pollock’s mind. Additionally, he was bothered by weird pains in his limbs.
In the white haze of the early morning, as they were loading the canoes, a barbed arrow suddenly appeared quivering in the ground close to Pollock’s foot. The boys made a perfunctory effort to clear out the thicket, but it led to no capture.
In the white haze of the early morning, as they were loading the canoes, a barbed arrow suddenly appeared, quivering in the ground near Pollock’s foot. The boys made a half-hearted attempt to clear out the thicket, but it didn’t lead to any capture.
After these two occurrences, there was a disposition on the part of the expedition to leave Pollock to himself, and Pollock became, for the first time in his life, anxious to mingle with blacks. Waterhouse took one canoe, and Pollock, in spite of a friendly desire to chat with Waterhouse, had to take the other. He was left all alone in the front part of the canoe, and he had the greatest trouble to make the men—who did not love him—keep to the middle of the river, a clear hundred yards or more from either shore. However, he made Shakespear, the Freetown half-breed, come up to his own end of the canoe and tell him about Porroh, which Shakespear, failing in his attempts to leave Pollock alone, presently did with considerable freedom and gusto.
After these two events, the expedition was inclined to leave Pollock to himself, and for the first time in his life, Pollock felt eager to connect with black people. Waterhouse took one canoe, and despite wanting to chat with Waterhouse, Pollock had to take the other. He was left all alone in the front of the canoe and had a hard time getting the men—who didn’t like him—to stay in the middle of the river, at least a hundred yards or more from either shore. However, he managed to get Shakespear, the half-breed from Freetown, to come to his end of the canoe and talk to him about Porroh, which Shakespear, unable to leave Pollock alone, eventually did with quite a bit of openness and enthusiasm.
The day passed. The canoe glided swiftly along the ribbon of lagoon water, between the drift of water-figs, fallen trees, papyrus, and palm-wine palms, and with the dark mangrove swamp 424to the left, through which one could hear now and then the roar of the Atlantic surf. Shakespear told, in his soft blurred English, of how the Porroh could cast spells; how men withered up under their malice; how they could send dreams and devils; how they tormented and killed the sons of Ijibu; how they kidnapped a white trader from Sulyma who had maltreated one of the sect, and how his body looked when it was found. And Pollock after each narrative cursed under his breath at the want of missionary enterprise that allowed such things to be, and at the inert British Government that ruled over this dark heathendom of Sierra Leone. In the evening they came to the Kasi Lake, and sent a score of crocodiles lumbering off the island on which the expedition camped for the night.
The day went by. The canoe moved quickly along the narrow stretch of lagoon water, between the drift of water-figs, fallen trees, papyrus, and palm-wine palms, with the dark mangrove swamp 424 on the left, where you could occasionally hear the roar of the Atlantic waves. Shakespear spoke, in his soft blurred English, about how the Porroh could cast spells; how people withered under their malice; how they could send dreams and devils; how they tormented and killed the sons of Ijibu; how they kidnapped a white trader from Sulyma who mistreated one of the sect, and what his body looked like when it was found. After each story, Pollock cursed quietly under his breath at the lack of missionary efforts that allowed such things to happen, and at the inactive British Government that ruled over this dark heathendom of Sierra Leone. In the evening, they arrived at Kasi Lake and sent a bunch of crocodiles lumbering off the island where the expedition camped for the night.
The next day they reached Sulyma, and smelt the sea breeze; but Pollock had to put up there for five days before he could get on to Freetown. Waterhouse, considering him to be comparatively safe here, and within the pale of Freetown influence, left him and went back with the expedition to Gbemma, and Pollock became very friendly with Perera, the only resident white trader at Sulyma—so friendly, indeed, that he went about with him everywhere. Perera was a little Portuguese Jew, who had lived in England, and he appreciated the Englishman’s friendliness as a great compliment.
The next day they arrived in Sulyma and enjoyed the sea breeze; however, Pollock had to stay there for five days before he could head to Freetown. Waterhouse, seeing him as relatively safe there and under the influence of Freetown, left him and returned with the expedition to Gbemma. In the meantime, Pollock became very close with Perera, the only white trader living in Sulyma—so close, in fact, that he accompanied him everywhere. Perera was a small Portuguese Jew who had lived in England, and he saw the Englishman’s kindness as a huge compliment.
425For two days nothing happened out of the ordinary; for the most part Pollock and Perera played Nap—the only game they had in common—and Pollock got into debt. Then, on the second evening, Pollock had a disagreeable intimation of the arrival of the Porroh man in Sulyma by getting a flesh-wound in the shoulder from a lump of filed iron. It was a long shot, and the missile had nearly spent its force when it hit him. Still it conveyed its message plainly enough. Pollock sat up in his hammock, revolver in hand, all that night, and next morning confided, to some extent, in the Anglo-Portuguese.
425For two days, nothing unusual happened; for the most part, Pollock and Perera played Nap—the only game they both knew—and Pollock racked up some debt. Then, on the second evening, Pollock got an unsettling feeling about the arrival of the Porroh man in Sulyma when he received a flesh wound in his shoulder from a chunk of filed iron. It was a long shot, and the projectile had almost lost all its force by the time it struck him. Still, it delivered its message loud and clear. Pollock sat up in his hammock, revolver in hand, all night, and the next morning he opened up a bit to the Anglo-Portuguese.
Perera took the matter seriously. He knew the local customs pretty thoroughly. “It is a personal question, you must know. It is revenge. And of course he is hurried by your leaving de country. None of de natives or half-breeds will interfere wid him very much—unless you make it wort deir while. If you come upon him suddenly, you might shoot him. But den he might shoot you.
Perera took the issue seriously. He was well-acquainted with the local customs. “It’s a personal matter, you should understand. It’s about revenge. And of course, he’s rushed because you’re leaving the country. None of the locals or mixed-race people will really interfere with him—unless you make it worth their while. If you encounter him unexpectedly, you might shoot him. But then he could shoot you.”
“Den dere’s dis—infernal magic,” said Perera. “Of course, I don’t believe in it—superstition; but still it’s not nice to tink dat wherever you are, dere is a black man, who spends a moonlight night now and den a-dancing about a fire to send you bad dreams—Had any bad dreams?”
“There's this—infernal magic,” said Perera. “Of course, I don't believe in it—superstition; but still it's not nice to think that wherever you are, there's a black man who spends a moonlit night now and then dancing around a fire to give you bad dreams—Had any bad dreams?”
“Rather,” said Pollock. “I keep on seeing the beggar’s head upside down grinning at me and 426showing all his teeth as he did in the hut, and coming close up to me, and then going ever so far off, and coming back. It’s nothing to be afraid of, but somehow it simply paralyses me with terror in my sleep. Queer things—dreams. I know it’s a dream all the time, and I can’t wake up from it.”
“Actually,” said Pollock. “I keep seeing the beggar’s head upside down grinning at me and showing all his teeth like he did in the hut, coming close to me, then moving way far off, and then coming back. It’s not something to be scared of, but for some reason, it just completely freezes me with terror in my sleep. Strange stuff—dreams. I know it’s a dream the whole time, and I can’t wake up from it.”
“It’s probably only fancy,” said Perera. “Den my niggers say Porroh men can send snakes. Seen any snakes lately?”
“It’s probably just a fancy story,” said Perera. “Then my guys say Porroh men can send snakes. Have you seen any snakes around lately?”
“Only one. I killed him this morning, on the floor near my hammock. Almost trod on him as I got up.”
“Just one. I killed him this morning, on the floor by my hammock. Almost stepped on him when I got up.”
“Ah!” said Perera, and then, reassuringly, “Of course it is a—coincidence. Still I would keep my eyes open. Den dere’s pains in de bones.”
“Ah!” said Perera, then added comfortingly, “Of course it’s just a coincidence. Still, I’d keep an eye out. There are pains in the bones.”
“I thought they were due to miasma,” said Pollock.
“I thought they were caused by bad air,” said Pollock.
“Probably dey are. When did dey begin?”
“Probably they are. When did they start?”
Then Pollock remembered that he first noticed them the night after the fight in the hut. “It’s my opinion he don’t want to kill you,” said Perera—“at least not yet. I’ve heard deir idea is to scare and worry a man wid deir spells, and narrow misses, and rheumatic pains, and bad dreams, and all dat, until he’s sick of life. Of course, it’s all talk, you know. You mustn’t worry about it—But I wonder what he’ll be up to next.”
Then Pollock remembered that he first noticed them the night after the fight in the cabin. “I don’t think he wants to kill you,” said Perera—“at least not yet. I’ve heard their idea is to scare and stress a guy with their spells, and near misses, and aches, and bad dreams, and all that, until he’s fed up with life. Of course, it’s all just talk, you know. You shouldn’t worry about it—But I’m curious about what he’ll do next.”
“I shall have to be up to something first,” said 427Pollock, staring gloomily at the greasy cards that Perera was putting on the table. “It don’t suit my dignity to be followed about, and shot at, and blighted in this way. I wonder if Porroh hokey-pokey upsets your luck at cards.”
“I need to come up with something first,” said 427Pollock, looking glumly at the greasy cards that Perera was laying on the table. “It doesn't fit my dignity to be followed around, shot at, and cursed like this. I wonder if Porroh hokey-pokey messes with your luck at cards.”
He looked at Perera suspiciously.
He eyed Perera suspiciously.
“Very likely it does,” said Perera, warmly, shuffling. “Dey are wonderful people.”
“Very likely it does,” said Perera, warmly, shuffling. “They are wonderful people.”
That afternoon Pollock killed two snakes in his hammock, and there was also an extraordinary increase in the number of red ants that swarmed over the place; and these annoyances put him in a fit temper to talk over business with a certain Mendi rough he had interviewed before. The Mendi rough showed Pollock a little iron dagger, and demonstrated where one struck in the neck, in a way that made Pollock shiver; and in return for certain considerations Pollock promised him a double-barrelled gun with an ornamental lock.
That afternoon, Pollock killed two snakes in his hammock, and there was also a surprising increase in the number of red ants swarming around; these annoyances put him in a bad mood to discuss business with a certain Mendi guy he had talked to before. The Mendi guy showed Pollock a small iron dagger and demonstrated where to strike in the neck, which made Pollock shiver; in exchange for certain favors, Pollock promised him a double-barreled gun with a decorative lock.
In the evening, as Pollock and Perera were playing cards, the Mendi rough came in through the doorway, carrying something in a blood-soaked piece of native cloth.
In the evening, while Pollock and Perera were playing cards, the Mendi tough guy came in through the doorway, holding something wrapped in a blood-soaked piece of local cloth.
“Not here!” said Pollock, very hurriedly. “Not here!”
“Not here!” Pollock said quickly. “Not here!”
But he was not quick enough to prevent the man, who was anxious to get to Pollock’s side of the bargain, from opening the cloth and throwing the head of the Porroh man upon the table. It bounded from there on to the floor, leaving a red 428trail on the cards, and rolled into a corner, where it came to rest upside down, but glaring hard at Pollock.
But he wasn't fast enough to stop the man, who was eager to finalize his deal with Pollock, from unwrapping the cloth and throwing the head of the Porroh man onto the table. It bounced off and hit the floor, leaving a red stain on the cards, and rolled into a corner, where it ended up upside down, glaring intensely at Pollock.
Perera jumped up as the thing fell among the cards, and began in his excitement to gabble in Portuguese. The Mendi was bowing, with the red cloth in his hand. “De gun!” he said. Pollock stared back at the head in the corner. It bore exactly the expression it had in his dreams. Something seemed to snap in his own brain as he looked at it.
Perera jumped up as the thing fell among the cards and started excitedly babbling in Portuguese. The Mendi was bowing, holding the red cloth. “The gun!” he said. Pollock stared back at the head in the corner. It had the exact same expression it did in his dreams. Something seemed to snap in his own mind as he looked at it.
Then Perera found his English again.
Then Perera got his English back.
“You got him killed?” he said. “You did not kill him yourself?”
“You got him killed?” he asked. “You didn't kill him yourself?”
“Why should I?” said Pollock.
"Why should I?" Pollock said.
“But he will not be able to take it off now!”
“But he can't take it off now!”
“Take what off?” said Pollock.
“Take what off?” said Pollock.
“And all dese cards are spoiled!”
“And all these cards are ruined!”
“What do you mean by taking off?” said Pollock.
“What do you mean by taking off?” Pollock asked.
“You must send me a new pack from Freetown. You can buy dem dere.”
“You need to send me a new pack from Freetown. You can buy them there.”
“But—‘take it off’?”
“But—‘take it off’?”
“It is only superstition. I forgot. De niggers say dat if de witches—he was a witch—But it is rubbish—You must make de Porroh man take it off, or kill him yourself—It is very silly.”
“It’s just superstition. I forgot. The black people say that if the witches—he was a witch—but it’s nonsense. You have to make the Porroh man take it off, or kill him yourself. It’s really silly.”
Pollock swore under his breath, still staring hard at the head in the corner.
Pollock cursed quietly, still glaring at the head in the corner.
“I can’t stand that glare,” he said. Then suddenly 429he rushed at the thing and kicked it. It rolled some yards or so, and came to rest in the same position as before, upside down, and looking at him.
“I can't stand that glare,” he said. Then suddenly 429he rushed at it and kicked it. It rolled a few yards and ended up in the same position as before, upside down, staring at him.
“He is ugly,” said the Anglo-Portuguese. “Very ugly. Dey do it on deir faces with little knives.”
“He's ugly,” said the Anglo-Portuguese. “Really ugly. They do it to their faces with little knives.”
Pollock would have kicked the head again, but the Mendi man touched him on the arm. “De gun?” he said, looking nervously at the head.
Pollock would have kicked the head again, but the Mendi man touched him on the arm. “The gun?” he said, glancing nervously at the head.
“Two—if you will take that beastly thing away,” said Pollock.
“Two—if you’ll take that disgusting thing away,” said Pollock.
The Mendi shook his head, and intimated that he only wanted one gun now due to him, and for which he would be obliged. Pollock found neither cajolery nor bullying any good with him. Perera had a gun to sell (at a profit of three hundred per cent.), and with that the man presently departed. Then Pollock’s eyes, against his will, were recalled to the thing on the floor.
The Mendi shook his head and indicated that he only wanted the one gun now owed to him, for which he would be grateful. Pollock found that neither flattery nor intimidation worked on him. Perera had a gun to sell (with a profit of three hundred percent), and with that, the man left. Then Pollock couldn’t help but glance back at the object on the floor.
“It is funny dat his head keeps upside down,” said Perera, with an uneasy laugh. “His brains must be heavy, like de weight in de little images one sees dat keep always upright wid lead in dem. You will take him wiv you when you go presently. You might take him now. De cards are all spoilt. Dere is a man sell dem in Freetown. De room is in a filty mess as it is. You should have killed him yourself.”
“It’s funny that his head keeps turning upside down,” said Perera with an uneasy laugh. “His brains must be heavy, like the weight in those little figures you see that always stay upright because they have lead in them. You should take him with you when you leave soon. You could take him now. The cards are all ruined. There’s a guy selling them in Freetown. The room is a filthy mess as it is. You should have killed him yourself.”
Pollock pulled himself together, and went and 430picked up the head. He would hang it up by the lamp-hook in the middle of the ceiling of his room, and dig a grave for it at once. He was under the impression that he hung it up by the hair, but that must have been wrong, for when he returned for it, it was hanging by the neck upside down.
Pollock collected himself, then went and 430picked up the head. He planned to hang it by the lamp hook in the center of his room and dig a grave for it right away. He thought he hung it by the hair, but that must have been a mistake, because when he came back for it, it was hanging by the neck, upside down.
He buried it before sunset on the north side of the shed he occupied, so that he should not have to pass the grave after dark when he was returning from Perera’s. He killed two snakes before he went to sleep. In the darkest part of the night he awoke with a start, and heard a pattering sound and something scraping on the floor. He sat up noiselessly, and felt under his pillow for his revolver. A mumbling growl followed, and Pollock fired at the sound. There was a yelp, and something dark passed for a moment across the hazy blue of the doorway. “A dog!” said Pollock, lying down again.
He buried it before sunset on the north side of the shed he lived in, so he wouldn't have to walk past the grave in the dark when he was coming back from Perera’s. He killed two snakes before going to sleep. In the darkest part of the night, he suddenly woke up and heard a pattering sound and something scraping on the floor. He sat up quietly and reached under his pillow for his gun. A low growl came next, and Pollock fired at the sound. There was a yelp, and something dark flashed for a moment across the dim blue of the doorway. “A dog!” Pollock said, lying back down.
In the early dawn he awoke again with a peculiar sense of unrest. The vague pain in his bones had returned. For some time he lay watching the red ants that were swarming over the ceiling, and then, as the light grew brighter, he looked over the edge of his hammock and saw something dark on the floor. He gave such a violent start that the hammock overset and flung him out.
In the early dawn, he woke up again feeling strangely restless. The dull ache in his bones had come back. For a while, he lay there watching the red ants crawling over the ceiling, and as the light got brighter, he leaned over the edge of his hammock and noticed something dark on the floor. He jumped so abruptly that the hammock tipped over and threw him out.
He found himself lying, perhaps, a yard away from the head of the Porroh man. It had been disinterred by the dog, and the nose was grievously 431battered. Ants and flies swarmed over it. By an odd coincidence, it was still upside down, and with the same diabolical expression in the inverted eyes.
He was lying about a yard away from the head of the Porroh man. The dog had dug it up, and the nose was badly damaged. Ants and flies were all over it. Strangely, it was still upside down, with the same sinister look in the turned eyes. 431
Pollock sat paralysed, and stared at the horror for some time. Then he got up and walked round it,—giving it a wide berth—and out of the shed. The clear light of the sunrise, the living stir of vegetation before the breath of the dying land-breeze, and the empty grave with the marks of the dog’s paws, lightened the weight upon his mind a little.
Pollock sat frozen, staring at the terrifying scene for a while. Then he stood up and walked around it, avoiding it completely, and exited the shed. The bright light of the sunrise, the vibrant movement of plants before the fading land breeze, and the empty grave marked by the dog's paws eased the heaviness in his mind a bit.
He told Perera of the business as though it was a jest,—a jest to be told with white lips. “You should not have frighten de dog,” said Perera, with poorly simulated hilarity.
He told Perera about the business like it was a joke—a joke to be told with pale lips. “You shouldn’t have scared the dog,” said Perera, trying to fake a laugh.
The next two days, until the steamer came, were spent by Pollock in making a more effectual disposition of his possession. Overcoming his aversion to handling the thing, he went down to the river mouth and threw it into the sea-water, but by some miracle it escaped the crocodiles, and was cast up by the tide on the mud a little way up the river, to be found by an intelligent Arab half-breed, and offered for sale to Pollock and Perera as a curiosity, just on the edge of night. The native hung about in the brief twilight, making lower and lower offers, and at last, getting scared in some way by the evident dread these wise white men had for the thing, went off, 432and, passing Pollock’s shed, threw his burden in there for Pollock to discover in the morning.
The next two days, until the steamer arrived, Pollock spent organizing his possession more effectively. Overcoming his dislike of dealing with it, he went down to the river mouth and tossed it into the seawater, but somehow it avoided the crocodiles and was washed ashore by the tide on the mud a bit up the river. There, it was found by an intelligent Arab half-breed who offered it for sale to Pollock and Perera as a curiosity, just as night was falling. The native lingered in the fading twilight, making lower and lower offers, until finally, feeling uneasy about the evident fear these knowledgeable white men had for the object, he left. As he passed Pollock’s shed, he dumped his burden there for Pollock to find in the morning. 432
At this Pollock got into a kind of frenzy. He would burn the thing. He went out straightway into the dawn, and had constructed a big pyre of brushwood before the heat of the day. He was interrupted by the hooter of the little paddle steamer from Monrovia to Bathurst, which was coming through the gap in the bar. “Thank Heaven!” said Pollock, with infinite piety, when the meaning of the sound dawned upon him. With trembling hands he lit his pile of wood hastily, threw the head upon it, and went away to pack his portmanteau and make his adieux to Perera.
At this, Pollock went into a kind of frenzy. He decided to burn the thing. He immediately went out into the early morning and built a large pyre of brushwood before it got too hot. He was interrupted by the whistle of the little paddle steamer from Monrovia to Bathurst, which was coming through the gap in the bar. “Thank Heaven!” Pollock exclaimed with great relief when he realized what the sound meant. With shaking hands, he quickly lit his pile of wood, threw the head on top, and went inside to pack his suitcase and say goodbye to Perera.
That afternoon, with a sense of infinite relief, Pollock watched the flat swampy foreshore of Sulyma grow small in the distance. The gap in the long line of white surge became narrower and narrower. It seemed to be closing in and cutting him off from his trouble. The feeling of dread and worry began to slip from him bit by bit. At Sulyma belief in Porroh malignity and Porroh magic had been in the air, his sense of Porroh had been vast, pervading, threatening, dreadful. Now manifestly the domain of Porroh was only a little place, a little black band between the sea and the blue cloudy Mendi uplands.
That afternoon, with a sense of endless relief, Pollock watched the flat, swampy shore of Sulyma shrink away in the distance. The gap in the long line of white waves became narrower and narrower. It felt like it was closing in and cutting him off from his troubles. The feeling of dread and worry began to fade from him bit by bit. At Sulyma, belief in Porroh's evil and Porroh's magic had been everywhere; his sense of Porroh had been vast, overwhelming, threatening, and terrifying. Now, clearly, the realm of Porroh was just a small place, a tiny dark strip between the sea and the blue, cloudy Mendi hills.
“Good-bye, Porroh!” said Pollock. “Good-bye—certainly not au revoir.”
“Goodbye, Porroh!” said Pollock. “Goodbye—definitely not goodbye.”
433The captain of the steamer came and leant over the rail beside him, and wished him good evening, and spat at the froth of the wake in token of friendly ease.
433The captain of the steamer came and leaned over the rail next to him, wished him good evening, and spat at the froth of the wake to show a sense of friendly relaxation.
“I picked up a rummy curio on the beach this go,” said the captain. “It’s a thing I never saw done this side of Indy before.”
“I found a strange collectible on the beach this time,” said the captain. “It’s something I’ve never seen done around here before.”
“What might that be?” said Pollock.
“What could that be?” Pollock asked.
“Pickled ’ed,” said the captain.
“Pickled head,” said the captain.
“What?” said Pollock.
“What?” Pollock replied.
“’Ed—smoked. ’Ed of one of these Porroh chaps, all ornamented with knife-cuts. Why! What’s up? Nothing? I shouldn’t have took you for a nervous chap. Green in the face. By gosh! you’re a bad sailor. All right, eh? Lord, how funny you went! Well, this ’ed I was telling you of is a bit rum in a way. I’ve got it, along with some snakes, in a jar of spirit in my cabin what I keeps for such curios, and I’m hanged if it don’t float upsy down. Hullo!”
“’Ed—smoked. ’Ed of one of these Porroh guys, all marked up with knife cuts. Why! What’s going on? Nothing? I wouldn’t have guessed you were a nervous guy. You look green in the face. Wow! You’re a terrible sailor. All good, right? Man, you were pretty funny! Well, this head I was telling you about is a bit strange in a way. I’ve got it, along with some snakes, in a jar of alcohol in my cabin that I keep for such curiosities, and I swear it floats upside down. Hey!”
Pollock had given an incoherent cry, and had his hands in his hair. He ran towards the paddle-boxes with a half-formed idea of jumping into the sea, and then he realised his position and turned back towards the captain.
Pollock let out a confused shout and ran his hands through his hair. He dashed toward the paddle boxes, partly thinking about jumping into the sea, but then he realized what he was doing and turned back to the captain.
“Here!” said the captain. “Jack Philips, just keep him off me! Stand off! No nearer, mister! What’s the matter with you? Are you mad?”
“Here!” said the captain. “Jack Philips, just keep him away from me! Stay back! No closer, mister! What’s wrong with you? Are you crazy?”
Pollock put his hand to his head. It was no 434good explaining. “I believe I am pretty nearly mad at times,” he said. “It’s a pain I have here. Comes suddenly. You’ll excuse me, I hope.”
Pollock rubbed his forehead. There was no point in explaining. “I think I’m pretty much losing my mind sometimes,” he said. “It’s a pain I get right here. It comes out of nowhere. I hope you can forgive me.”
He was white and in a perspiration. He saw suddenly very clearly all the danger he ran of having his sanity doubted. He forced himself to restore the captain’s confidence, by answering his sympathetic inquiries, noting his suggestions, even trying a spoonful of neat brandy in his cheek, and, that matter settled, asking a number of questions about the captain’s private trade in curiosities. The captain described the head in detail. All the while Pollock was struggling to keep under a preposterous persuasion that the ship was as transparent as glass, and that he could distinctly see the inverted face looking at him from the cabin beneath his feet.
He was pale and sweating. Suddenly, he realized just how much he risked having his sanity questioned. He forced himself to reassure the captain by responding to his sympathetic questions, acknowledging his suggestions, even trying a spoonful of straight brandy. With that settled, he began asking a bunch of questions about the captain’s personal business in curiosities. The captain described the head in detail. All the while, Pollock was battling an absurd belief that the ship was as clear as glass, and he could clearly see the upside-down face looking up at him from the cabin below his feet.
Pollock had a worse time almost on the steamer than he had at Sulyma. All day he had to control himself in spite of his intense perception of the imminent presence of that horrible head that was overshadowing his mind. At night his old nightmare returned, until, with a violent effort, he would force himself awake, rigid with the horror of it, and with the ghost of a hoarse scream in his throat.
Pollock had an even worse experience on the steamer than he did at Sulyma. All day, he had to keep himself in check despite his overwhelming awareness of that terrifying presence looming over his thoughts. At night, his old nightmare came back, and he would wake up with a sudden jolt, frozen in fear, with the echo of a strangled scream caught in his throat.
He left the actual head behind at Bathurst, where he changed ship for Teneriffe, but not his dreams nor the dull ache in his bones. At Teneriffe Pollock transferred to a Cape liner, but the head followed him. He gambled, he tried chess, 435he even read books; but he knew the danger of drink. Yet whenever a round black shadow, a round black object came into his range, there he looked for the head, and—saw it. He knew clearly enough that his imagination was growing traitor to him, and yet at times it seemed the ship he sailed in, his fellow-passengers, the sailors, the wide sea, were all part of a filmy phantasmagoria that hung, scarcely veiling it, between him and a horrible real world. Then the Porroh man, thrusting his diabolical face through that curtain, was the one real and undeniable thing. At that he would get up and touch things, taste something, gnaw something, burn his hand with a match, or run a needle into himself.
He left the actual head behind in Bathurst, where he switched ships for Tenerife, but not his dreams or the dull ache in his bones. In Tenerife, Pollock changed to a Cape liner, but the head still followed him. He gambled, tried chess, even read books; but he was aware of the dangers of drinking. Yet, whenever a round black shadow or object came into view, he searched for the head—and saw it. He realized that his imagination was betraying him, but sometimes it felt like the ship he was on, his fellow passengers, the sailors, and the vast sea were all part of a surreal illusion that barely concealed the horrific real world. Then the Porroh man, pushing his devilish face through that veil, was the only real and undeniable thing. At that moment, he would get up and touch things, taste something, gnaw on something, burn his hand with a match, or stick a needle into himself.
So, struggling grimly and silently with his excited imagination, Pollock reached England. He landed at Southampton, and went on straight from Waterloo to his banker’s in Cornhill in a cab. There he transacted some business with the manager in a private room; and all the while the head hung like an ornament under the black marble mantel and dripped upon the fender. He could hear the drops fall, and see the red on the fender.
So, struggling silently with his racing thoughts, Pollock arrived in England. He landed at Southampton and took a cab directly from Waterloo to his bank in Cornhill. There, he handled some business with the manager in a private room; all the while, his head hung like a decoration beneath the black marble mantel, dripping onto the fender. He could hear the drops fall and see the red on the fender.
“A pretty fern,” said the manager, following his eyes. “But it makes the fender rusty.”
“A nice fern,” said the manager, following his gaze. “But it makes the fender rusty.”
“Very,” said Pollock; “a very pretty fern. And that reminds me. Can you recommend me a physician for mind troubles? I’ve got a little—what is it?—hallucination.”
“Very,” said Pollock; “a really pretty fern. And that reminds me. Can you recommend a doctor for mental health issues? I’ve got a bit of—what is it?—hallucination.”
436The head laughed savagely, wildly. Pollock was surprised the manager did not notice it. But the manager only stared at his face.
436The head laughed cruelly and uncontrollably. Pollock was surprised the manager didn’t see it. But the manager just kept staring at his face.
With the address of a doctor, Pollock presently emerged in Cornhill. There was no cab in sight, and so he went on down to the western end of the street, and essayed the crossing opposite the Mansion House. The crossing is hardly easy even for the expert Londoner; cabs, vans, carriages, mailcarts, omnibuses go by in one incessant stream; to any one fresh from the malarious solitudes of Sierra Leone it is a boiling, maddening confusion. But when an inverted head suddenly comes bouncing, like an india-rubber ball, between your legs, leaving distinct smears of blood every time it touches the ground, you can scarcely hope to avoid an accident. Pollock lifted his feet convulsively to avoid it, and then kicked at the thing furiously. Then something hit him violently in the back, and a hot pain ran up his arm.
With the demeanor of a doctor, Pollock soon appeared in Cornhill. There was no cab in sight, so he made his way to the western end of the street and attempted to cross opposite the Mansion House. The crossing isn't easy, even for a seasoned Londoner; cabs, vans, carriages, mail carts, and buses go by in an endless flow. To anyone just coming from the swamps of Sierra Leone, it’s a chaotic, overwhelming mess. But when an upside-down head suddenly bounces between your legs like a rubber ball, leaving bloody smears with every bounce, it’s nearly impossible to avoid an accident. Pollock jerked his feet up to dodge it and then kicked at the thing in anger. Then something slammed into his back, and a sharp pain shot up his arm.
He had been hit by the pole of an omnibus, and three of the fingers of his left hand smashed by the hoof of one of the horses,—the very fingers, as it happened, that he shot from the Porroh man. They pulled him out from between the horses’ legs, and found the address of the physician in his crushed hand.
He had been struck by the pole of a bus, and three fingers on his left hand had been crushed by one of the horse's hooves—the exact fingers he had shot off the Porroh man. They pulled him out from between the horse's legs and found the address of the doctor in his mangled hand.
For a couple of days Pollock’s sensations were full of the sweet, pungent smell of chloroform, of painful operations that caused him no pain, of lying 437still and being given food and drink. Then he had a slight fever, and was very thirsty, and his old nightmare came back. It was only when it returned that he noticed it had left him for a day.
For a couple of days, Pollock's senses were filled with the sweet, strong smell of chloroform, the uncomfortable operations that didn't actually hurt him, and the experience of lying still while being given food and drink. Then he developed a slight fever and felt very thirsty, and his old nightmare came back. It was only when it returned that he realized it had been gone for a day.
“If my skull had been smashed instead of my fingers, it might have gone altogether,” said Pollock, staring thoughtfully at the dark cushion that had taken on for the time the shape of the head.
“If my skull had been shattered instead of my fingers, it might have been completely different,” said Pollock, staring intently at the dark cushion that for the moment had taken on the shape of his head.
Pollock at the first opportunity told the physician of his mind trouble. He knew clearly that he must go mad unless something should intervene to save him. He explained that he had witnessed a decapitation in Dahomey, and was haunted by one of the heads. Naturally, he did not care to state the actual facts. The physician looked grave.
Pollock immediately told the doctor about his mental issues. He was clear that he would go insane unless something helped him. He explained that he had seen a beheading in Dahomey and was haunted by one of the heads. Of course, he didn’t want to share the full truth. The doctor looked serious.
Presently he spoke hesitatingly. “As a child, did you get very much religious training?”
Currently, he spoke with uncertainty. “As a kid, did you receive a lot of religious education?”
“Very little,” said Pollock.
"Not much," said Pollock.
A shade passed over the physician’s face. “I don’t know if you have heard of the miraculous cures—it may be, of course, they are not miraculous—at Lourdes.”
A shadow crossed the doctor's face. "I don’t know if you’ve heard about the miraculous cures—though, of course, they might not be miraculous—at Lourdes."
“Faith-healing will hardly suit me, I am afraid,” said Pollock, with his eye on the dark cushion.
“I'm afraid faith-healing probably won't work for me,” said Pollock, keeping his gaze on the dark cushion.
The head distorted its scarred features in an abominable grimace. The physician went upon a new track. “It’s all imagination,” he said, speaking with sudden briskness. “A fair case for faith-healing, anyhow. Your nervous system has 438run down, you’re in that twilight state of health when the bogles come easiest. The strong impression was too much for you. I must make you up a little mixture that will strengthen your nervous system—especially your brain. And you must take exercise.”
The head twisted its scarred features into a terrible grimace. The doctor shifted his approach. “It’s all in your head,” he said, suddenly speaking more energetically. “It’s a perfect case for faith healing. Your nervous system is worn out; you’re in that hazy state of health where things like this hit you hardest. The strong impression was too much for you. I’ll prepare a mixture to help strengthen your nervous system—especially your brain. And you need to get some exercise.”
“I’m no good for faith-healing,” said Pollock.
“I’m not cut out for faith-healing,” said Pollock.
“And therefore we must restore tone. Go in search of stimulating air—Scotland, Norway, the Alps—”
“And so we need to get our energy back. Let’s find some invigorating places—Scotland, Norway, the Alps—”
“Jericho, if you like,” said Pollock, “where Naaman went.”
“Jericho, if you want,” said Pollock, “where Naaman went.”
However, so soon as his fingers would let him, Pollock made a gallant attempt to follow out the doctor’s suggestion. It was now November. He tried football; but to Pollock the game consisted in kicking a furious inverted head about a field. He was no good at the game. He kicked blindly, with a kind of horror, and when they put him back into goal, and the ball came swooping down upon him, he suddenly yelled and got out of its way. The discreditable stories that had driven him from England to wander in the tropics shut him off from any but men’s society, and now his increasingly strange behaviour made even his man friends avoid him. The thing was no longer a thing of the eye merely; it gibbered at him, spoke to him. A horrible fear came upon him that presently, when he took hold of the apparition, it would no longer become some mere article of 439furniture, but would feel like a real dissevered head. Alone, he would curse at the thing, defy it, entreat it; once or twice, in spite of his grim self-control, he addressed it in the presence of others. He felt the growing suspicion in the eyes of the people that watched him,—his landlady, the servant, his man.
However, as soon as his fingers allowed him, Pollock made a brave attempt to follow the doctor's suggestion. It was now November. He tried playing football, but to Pollock, the game was just about kicking a furious, upside-down head around a field. He wasn't good at it. He kicked blindly, almost in a panic, and when he was put back in goal, and the ball came flying toward him, he suddenly yelled and jumped out of the way. The embarrassing stories that had driven him from England to wander in the tropics cut him off from anyone but male company, and now his increasingly strange behavior made even his male friends avoid him. It was no longer just something he saw; it was speaking to him, taunting him. A terrible fear gripped him that soon, when he touched the apparition, it wouldn’t just feel like a piece of furniture but would feel like a real severed head. Alone, he would curse at the thing, challenge it, beg it; once or twice, despite his grim self-control, he spoke to it in front of others. He sensed the growing suspicion in the eyes of those around him—his landlady, the servant, his friend. 439
One day early in December his cousin Arnold—his next of kin—came to see him and draw him out, and watch his sunken, yellow face with narrow, eager eyes. And it seemed to Pollock that the hat his cousin carried in his hand was no hat at all, but a Gorgon head that glared at him upside down, and fought with its eyes against his reason. However, he was still resolute to see the matter out. He got a bicycle, and, riding over the frosty road from Wandsworth to Kingston, found the thing rolling along at his side, and leaving a dark trail behind it. He set his teeth and rode faster. Then suddenly, as he came down the hill towards Richmond Park, the apparition rolled in front of him and under his wheel, so quickly that he had no time for thought, and, turning quickly to avoid it, was flung violently against a heap of stones and broke his left wrist.
One day in early December, his cousin Arnold—his closest relative—came to visit him to draw him out and observe his sunken, yellow face with narrow, eager eyes. To Pollock, it felt like the hat his cousin was holding wasn’t a hat at all, but a Gorgon head glaring at him upside down, battling his logic with its stare. Nevertheless, he was determined to see this through. He grabbed a bike and rode along the frosty road from Wandsworth to Kingston, finding the thing rolling alongside him, leaving a dark trail behind. He gritted his teeth and pedaled faster. Then, suddenly, as he came down the hill toward Richmond Park, the vision rolled in front of him and under his wheel so quickly that he had no time to think. He turned quickly to dodge it and was violently thrown against a pile of stones, breaking his left wrist.
The end came on Christmas morning. All night he had been in a fever, the bandages encircling his wrist like a band of fire, his dreams more vivid and terrible than ever. In the cold, colourless, uncertain light that came before the sunrise, 440he sat up in his bed, and saw the head upon the bracket in the place of the bronze jar that had stood there overnight.
The end came on Christmas morning. All night he had been feverish, the bandages around his wrist feeling like a burning band, his dreams more intense and horrifying than ever. In the cold, gray, uncertain light that appeared before sunrise, 440 he sat up in his bed and saw the head on the bracket where the bronze jar had been placed the night before.
“I know that is a bronze jar,” he said, with a chill doubt at his heart. Presently the doubt was irresistible. He got out of bed slowly, shivering, and advanced to the jar with his hand raised. Surely he would see now his imagination had deceived him, recognise the distinctive sheen of bronze. At last, after an age of hesitation, his fingers came down on the patterned cheek of the head. He withdrew them spasmodically. The last stage was reached. His sense of touch had betrayed him.
“I know that’s a bronze jar,” he said, feeling a chill of doubt in his heart. Soon, the doubt became overwhelming. He slowly got out of bed, shivering, and moved toward the jar with his hand raised. Surely now he would see that his imagination had tricked him, recognizing the unique shine of bronze. Finally, after what felt like an eternity of hesitation, his fingers landed on the patterned surface of the head. He jerked them back suddenly. The last stage had been reached. His sense of touch had let him down.
Trembling, stumbling against the bed, kicking against his shoes with his bare feet, a dark confusion eddying round him, he groped his way to the dressing-table, took his razor from the drawer, and sat down on the bed with this in his hand. In the looking-glass he saw his own face, colourless, haggard, full of the ultimate bitterness of despair.
Trembling and stumbling against the bed, kicking off his shoes with his bare feet, a dark confusion swirling around him, he fumbled his way to the dressing table, took his razor from the drawer, and sat down on the bed with it in his hand. In the mirror, he saw his own face, pale, worn-out, filled with the deepest bitterness of despair.
He beheld in swift succession the incidents in the brief tale of his experience. His wretched home, his still more wretched schooldays, the years of vicious life he had led since then, one act of selfish dishonour leading to another; it was all clear and pitiless now, all its squalid folly, in the cold light of the dawn. He came to the hut, to the fight with the Porroh man, to the retreat 441down the river to Sulyma, to the Mendi assassin and his red parcel, to his frantic endeavours to destroy the head, to the growth of his hallucination. It was a hallucination! He knew it was. A hallucination merely. For a moment he snatched at hope. He looked away from the glass, and on the bracket, the inverted head grinned and grimaced at him—With the stiff fingers of his bandaged hand he felt at his neck for the throb of his arteries. The morning was very cold, the steel blade felt like ice.
He quickly remembered the events from his life. His miserable home, his even more miserable school days, the years of reckless living that followed, each selfish act of dishonor leading to another; it all became clear and relentless now, all its grim foolishness, in the harsh light of dawn. He thought about the hut, the fight with the Porroh man, the escape down the river to Sulyma, the Mendi assassin and his red package, his desperate attempts to destroy the head, and the onset of his hallucination. It was a hallucination! He *knew* it was. Just for a moment he grasped at hope. He turned away from the mirror, and on the shelf, the upside-down head grinned and made faces at him—With the stiff fingers of his bandaged hand, he reached for his neck to feel the pulse of his arteries. The morning was very cold; the steel blade felt like ice.
THE SEA RAIDERS
I
Until the extraordinary affair at Sidmouth, the peculiar species Haploteuthis ferox was known to science only generically, on the strength of a half-digested tentacle obtained near the Azores, and a decaying body pecked by birds and nibbled by fish, found early in 1896 by Mr. Jennings, near Land’s End.
Until the remarkable incident at Sidmouth, the unique species Haploteuthis ferox was only recognized by science in general terms, based on a partially digested tentacle found near the Azores and a decomposing body that had been pecked by birds and nibbled by fish, discovered in early 1896 by Mr. Jennings, near Land’s End.
In no department of zoölogical science, indeed, are we quite so much in the dark as with regard to the deep-sea cephalopods. A mere accident, for instance, it was that led to the Prince of Monaco’s discovery of nearly a dozen new forms in the summer of 1895, a discovery in which the before-mentioned tentacle was included. It chanced that a cachalot was killed off Terceira by some sperm-whalers, and in its last struggles charged almost to the Prince’s yacht, missed it, rolled under, and died within twenty yards of his rudder. And in its agony it threw up a number of large objects, which the Prince, dimly perceiving they were strange and important, was, by a happy expedient, able to secure before they sank. He set his screws in motion, and kept them circling 443in the vortices thus created until a boat could be lowered. And these specimens were whole cephalopods and fragments of cephalopods, some of gigantic proportions, and almost all of them unknown to science!
In no area of zoological science are we as uninformed as we are about deep-sea cephalopods. It was pure luck, for example, that led to the Prince of Monaco discovering nearly a dozen new species in the summer of 1895, including the previously mentioned tentacle. A sperm whale was killed near Terceira by some whalers, and in its final moments, it charged nearly into the Prince’s yacht, missed it, rolled underneath, and died just twenty yards from his rudder. In its struggle, it released a number of large objects that the Prince sensed were strange and significant. Fortunately, he managed to collect them before they sank by setting his screws in motion and creating vortices until a boat could be lowered. These specimens included whole cephalopods and parts of cephalopods, some of enormous size, and nearly all of them unknown to science!
It would seem, indeed, that these large and agile creatures, living in the middle depths of the sea, must, to a large extent, for ever remain unknown to us, since under water they are too nimble for nets, and it is only by such rare unlooked-for accidents that specimens can be obtained. In the case of Haploteuthis ferox, for instance, we are still altogether ignorant of its habitat, as ignorant as we are of the breeding-ground of the herring or the sea-ways of the salmon. And zoölogists are altogether at a loss to account for its sudden appearance on our coast. Possibly it was the stress of a hunger migration that drove it hither out of the deep. But it will be, perhaps, better to avoid necessarily inconclusive discussion, and to proceed at once with our narrative.
It seems that these large and agile creatures, living in the mid-depths of the sea, will likely remain largely unknown to us because they’re too swift for nets underwater. We can only catch them through rare, unexpected incidents. For example, with Haploteuthis ferox, we still don’t know anything about where it lives, just as we don’t know where herring breed or the migration routes of salmon. Zoologists are completely puzzled by its sudden appearance on our coast. It might have been driven here by a hunger migration from the deep ocean. But it might be better to skip the inconclusive discussions and get right to the story.
The first human being to set eyes upon a living Haploteuthis—the first human being to survive, that is, for there can be little doubt now that the wave of bathing fatalities and boating accidents that travelled along the coast of Cornwall and Devon in early May was due to this cause—was a retired tea-dealer of the name of Fison, who was stopping at a Sidmouth boarding-house. It was in the afternoon, and he was walking along the 444cliff path between Sidmouth and Ladram Bay. The cliffs in this direction are very high, but down the red face of them in one place a kind of ladder staircase has been made. He was near this when his attention was attracted by what at first he thought to be a cluster of birds struggling over a fragment of food that caught the sunlight, and glistened pinkish-white. The tide was right out, and this object was not only far below him, but remote across a broad waste of rock reefs covered with dark seaweed and interspersed with silvery, shining, tidal pools. And he was, moreover, dazzled by the brightness of the further water.
The first person to see a living Haploteuthis—the first person to survive, that is—was a retired tea dealer named Fison, who was staying at a boarding house in Sidmouth. It was afternoon, and he was walking along the 444cliff path between Sidmouth and Ladram Bay. The cliffs in that direction are very high, but at one point, a sort of ladder staircase has been built down the steep red face of them. He was near this when he noticed what he initially thought was a group of birds fighting over a piece of food that shone pinkish-white in the sunlight. The tide was fully out, and the object was not only far below him but also distant across a wide expanse of rocky reefs covered in dark seaweed and dotted with bright, shiny tidal pools. Moreover, the brightness of the water farther out was dazzling him.
In a minute, regarding this again, he perceived that his judgment was in fault, for over this struggle circled a number of birds, jackdaws and gulls for the most part, the latter gleaming blindingly when the sunlight smote their wings, and they seemed minute in comparison with it. And his curiosity was, perhaps, aroused all the more strongly because of his first insufficient explanations.
In a minute, thinking about this again, he realized that he had judged incorrectly, for a number of birds, mostly jackdaws and gulls, circled over this struggle. The gulls shone brightly when the sunlight hit their wings, making them look small in comparison. His curiosity was probably stirred even more strongly because of his earlier inadequate explanations.
As he had nothing better to do than amuse himself, he decided to make this object, whatever it was, the goal of his afternoon walk, instead of Ladram Bay, conceiving it might perhaps be a great fish of some sort, stranded by some chance, and flapping about in its distress. And so he hurried down the long steep ladder, stopping at intervals of thirty feet or so to take breath and scan the mysterious movement.
As he had nothing else to keep him occupied, he decided to make this object, whatever it was, the focus of his afternoon walk instead of heading to Ladram Bay. He thought it might be some kind of large fish, stranded by chance and flopping around in distress. So, he hurried down the long, steep ladder, stopping every thirty feet or so to catch his breath and check out the mysterious movement.
445At the foot of the cliff he was, of course, nearer his object than he had been; but, on the other hand, it now came up against the incandescent sky, beneath the sun, so as to seem dark and indistinct. Whatever was pinkish of it was now hidden by a skerry of weedy boulders. But he perceived that it was made up of seven rounded bodies, distinct or connected, and that the birds kept up a constant croaking and screaming, but seemed afraid to approach it too closely.
445At the bottom of the cliff, he was closer to his goal than before; however, it now stood out against the bright sky, under the sun, appearing dark and unclear. Any pinkish parts were now obscured by a cluster of weedy rocks. Still, he noticed it was made up of seven round shapes, either separate or linked, and the birds were continuously croaking and screeching, yet seemed hesitant to get too close.
Mr. Fison, torn by curiosity, began picking his way across the wave-worn rocks, and, finding the wet seaweed that covered them thickly rendered them extremely slippery, he stopped, removed his shoes and socks, and coiled his trousers above his knees. His object was, of course, merely to avoid stumbling into the rocky pools about him, and perhaps he was rather glad, as all men are, of an excuse to resume, even for a moment, the sensations of his boyhood. At any rate, it is to this, no doubt, that he owes his life.
Mr. Fison, driven by curiosity, started making his way across the wave-worn rocks. He noticed that the wet seaweed covering them made the surface very slippery, so he stopped, took off his shoes and socks, and rolled up his trousers above his knees. His goal was simply to avoid tripping into the rocky pools around him, and perhaps he was somewhat pleased, like any man would be, to have an excuse to briefly relive the feelings of his childhood. At any rate, it’s likely that this is what saved his life.
He approached his mark with all the assurance which the absolute security of this country against all forms of animal life gives its inhabitants. The round bodies moved to and fro, but it was only when he surmounted the skerry of boulders I have mentioned that he realised the horrible nature of the discovery. It came upon him with some suddenness.
He walked toward his target with the confidence that the complete safety of this country from any kind of animal threat provides its people. The round shapes shifted back and forth, but it was only when he climbed over the pile of boulders I mentioned earlier that he understood the terrifying nature of what he had found. It hit him quite suddenly.
The rounded bodies fell apart as he came into 446sight over the ridge, and displayed the pinkish object to be the partially devoured body of a human being, but whether of a man or woman he was unable to say. And the rounded bodies were new and ghastly-looking creatures, in shape somewhat resembling an octopus, and with huge and very long and flexible tentacles, coiled copiously on the ground. The skin had a glistening texture, unpleasant to see, like shiny leather. The downward bend of the tentacle-surrounded mouth, the curious excrescence at the bend, the tentacles, and the large, intelligent eyes, gave the creatures a grotesque suggestion of a face. They were the size of a fair-sized swine about the body, and the tentacles seemed to him to be many feet in length. There were, he thinks, seven or eight at least of the creatures. Twenty yards beyond them, amid the surf of the now returning tide, two others were emerging from the sea.
The rounded bodies fell apart as he came into 446sight over the ridge, revealing a pinkish object that turned out to be the partially eaten body of a human, but he couldn't tell whether it was a man or a woman. The rounded bodies were new and ghastly-looking creatures, somewhat resembling an octopus, with huge, very long, and flexible tentacles coiled all over the ground. The skin had a shiny texture, unpleasant to look at, like slick leather. The way the tentacle-surrounded mouth bent downward, the odd bump at the curve, the tentacles, and the large, intelligent eyes gave the creatures a grotesque hint of a face. They were about the size of a decent-sized pig in terms of body, and the tentacles seemed to be several feet long. He thought there were at least seven or eight of the creatures. Twenty yards beyond them, in the surf of the now returning tide, two more were coming out of the sea.
Their bodies lay flatly on the rocks, and their eyes regarded him with evil interest; but it does not appear that Mr. Fison was afraid, or that he realised that he was in any danger. Possibly his confidence is to be ascribed to the limpness of their attitudes. But he was horrified, of course, and intensely excited and indignant at such revolting creatures preying upon human flesh. He thought they had chanced upon a drowned body. He shouted to them, with the idea of driving them off, and, finding they did not budge, cast 447about him, picked up a big rounded lump of rock, and flung it at one.
Their bodies lay flat on the rocks, and their eyes watched him with a sinister curiosity; but it didn’t seem like Mr. Fison was scared, or that he realized he was in any danger. Maybe his confidence came from how limp they looked. Still, he was understandably horrified, along with being intensely excited and angry at such disgusting beings feasting on human flesh. He thought they might have found a drowned body. He yelled at them, hoping to scare them off, but when they didn’t move, he looked around, picked up a big rounded rock, and threw it at one of them. 447
And then, slowly uncoiling their tentacles, they all began moving towards him—creeping at first deliberately, and making a soft, purring sound to each other.
And then, slowly unfurling their tentacles, they all started moving toward him—crawling at first deliberately, and making a soft, purring sound to each other.
In a moment Mr. Fison realised that he was in danger. He shouted again, threw both his boots, and started off, with a leap, forthwith. Twenty yards off he stopped and faced about, judging them slow, and, behold! the tentacles of their leader were already pouring over the rocky ridge on which he had just been standing!
In an instant, Mr. Fison realized he was in trouble. He shouted again, threw off both his boots, and immediately took off with a jump. Twenty yards away, he stopped and turned around, thinking they were slow, and, lo and behold! The tentacles of their leader were already spilling over the rocky ridge he had just been standing on!
At that he shouted again, but this time not threatening, but a cry of dismay, and began jumping, striding, slipping, wading across the uneven expanse between him and the beach. The tall red cliffs seemed suddenly at a vast distance, and he saw, as though they were creatures in another world, two minute workmen engaged in the repair of the ladder-way, and little suspecting the race for life that was beginning below them. At one time he could hear the creatures splashing in the pools not a dozen feet behind him, and once he slipped and almost fell.
At that, he yelled again, but this time it was out of despair, not as a threat, and he started jumping, striding, slipping, and wading across the uneven ground between him and the beach. The tall red cliffs suddenly felt like they were miles away, and he saw, as if they were beings from another world, two tiny workers busy fixing the ladder, unaware of the race for survival starting below them. At one point, he could hear the creatures splashing in the pools just a few feet behind him, and he slipped once, almost falling.
They chased him to the very foot of the cliffs, and desisted only when he had been joined by the workmen at the foot of the ladder-way up the cliff. All three of the men pelted them with stones for a time, and then hurried to the cliff top and along 448the path towards Sidmouth, to secure assistance and a boat, and to rescue the desecrated body from the clutches of these abominable creatures.
They chased him all the way to the base of the cliffs and only stopped when he was joined by the workers at the bottom of the ladder leading up the cliff. The three men threw stones at them for a while and then rushed to the top of the cliff and down the path toward Sidmouth to get help and a boat, aiming to rescue the defiled body from the grasp of those disgusting creatures.
II
And, as if he had not already been in sufficient peril that day, Mr. Fison went with the boat to point out the exact spot of his adventure.
And, as if he hadn't already been in enough danger that day, Mr. Fison took the boat to show exactly where his adventure happened.
As the tide was down, it required a considerable detour to reach the spot, and when at last they came off the ladder-way, the mangled body had disappeared. The water was now running in, submerging first one slab of slimy rock and then another, and the four men in the boat—the workmen, that is, the boatman, and Mr. Fison—now turned their attention from the bearings off shore to the water beneath the keel.
As the tide was low, it took a significant detour to get to the location, and when they finally got off the ladder, the mangled body was gone. The water was now coming in, covering one slimy rock slab after another, and the four men in the boat—the workers, the boatman, and Mr. Fison—shifted their focus from the shoreline to the water beneath the boat.
At first they could see little below them, save a dark jungle of laminaria, with an occasional darting fish. Their minds were set on adventure, and they expressed their disappointment freely. But presently they saw one of the monsters swimming through the water seaward, with a curious rolling motion that suggested to Mr. Fison the spinning roll of a captive balloon. Almost immediately after, the waving streamers of laminaria were extraordinarily perturbed, parted for a moment, and three of these beasts became darkly visible, struggling for what was probably some fragment of the 449drowned man. In a moment the copious olive-green ribbons had poured again over this writhing group.
At first, they could see very little below them except a dark jungle of kelp, with an occasional fish darting by. They were excited about their adventure and openly shared their disappointment. But soon, they noticed one of the creatures swimming seaward, moving in a strange rolling way that reminded Mr. Fison of a spinning balloon. Almost immediately after, the waving strands of kelp were disturbed, parted for a moment, and three of these creatures came into view, struggling for what was likely a piece of the drowned man. In an instant, the thick olive-green ribbons flowed back over this writhing group.
At that all four men, greatly excited, began beating the water with oars and shouting, and immediately they saw a tumultuous movement among the weeds. They desisted, to see more clearly, and as soon as the water was smooth, they saw, as it seemed to them, the whole sea bottom among the weeds set with eyes.
At that moment, all four men, really excited, started paddling the water with their oars and shouting. Right away, they noticed a chaotic movement among the weeds. They stopped to get a better look, and once the water settled down, they saw what looked like the entire sea floor among the weeds covered in eyes.
“Ugly swine!” cried one of the men. “Why, there’s dozens!”
“Ugly pigs!” shouted one of the men. “Look, there are so many!”
And forthwith the things began to rise through the water about them. Mr. Fison has since described to the writer this startling eruption out of the waving laminaria meadows. To him it seemed to occupy a considerable time, but it is probable that really it was an affair of a few seconds only. For a time nothing but eyes, and then he speaks of tentacles streaming out and parting the weed fronds this way and that. Then these things, growing larger, until at last the bottom was hidden by their intercoiling forms, and the tips of tentacles rose darkly here and there into the air above the swell of the waters.
And right away, things started to rise through the water around them. Mr. Fison has since described this shocking emergence from the waving seaweed meadows to the writer. To him, it felt like it lasted for quite a while, but it’s likely that it was really just a matter of seconds. At first, there were only eyes, and then he talked about tentacles streaming out and parting the seaweed fronds this way and that. Then these creatures grew larger until eventually the bottom was obscured by their intertwined forms, and the tips of the tentacles bobbed darkly here and there above the waves.
One came up boldly to the side of the boat, and, clinging to this with three of its sucker-set tentacles, threw four others over the gunwale, as if with an intention either of oversetting the boat or of clambering into it. Mr. Fison at once 450caught up the boathook, and, jabbing furiously at the soft tentacles, forced it to desist. He was struck in the back and almost pitched overboard by the boatman, who was using his oar to resist a similar attack on the other side of the boat. But the tentacles on either side at once relaxed their hold at this, slid out of sight, and splashed into the water.
One approached boldly to the side of the boat, and, gripping it with three of its sucker-covered tentacles, tossed four others over the edge, as if trying to tip the boat over or climb in. Mr. Fison immediately grabbed the boathook and, stabbing fiercely at the soft tentacles, forced it to stop. He was hit in the back and nearly thrown overboard by the boatman, who was using his oar to fend off a similar attack on the other side of the boat. But the tentacles on both sides quickly released their grip, disappeared from view, and splashed into the water.
“We’d better get out of this,” said Mr. Fison, who was trembling violently. He went to the tiller, while the boatman and one of the workmen seated themselves and began rowing. The other workman stood up in the fore part of the boat, with the boathook, ready to strike any more tentacles that might appear. Nothing else seems to have been said. Mr. Fison had expressed the common feeling beyond amendment. In a hushed, scared mood, with faces white and drawn, they set about escaping from the position into which they had so recklessly blundered.
“We should get out of here,” said Mr. Fison, trembling violently. He moved to the tiller while the boatman and one of the workers took their seats and started rowing. The other worker stood up in the front of the boat with the boathook, ready to fend off any tentacles that might show up. Nothing else seemed to be said. Mr. Fison had captured the shared concern perfectly. In a quiet, frightened mood, with pale and drawn faces, they set to work on escaping from the situation they had stumbled into so carelessly.
But the oars had scarcely dropped into the water before dark, tapering, serpentine ropes had bound them, and were about the rudder; and creeping up the sides of the boat with a looping motion came the suckers again. The men gripped their oars and pulled, but it was like trying to move a boat in a floating raft of weeds. “Help here!” cried the boatman, and Mr. Fison and the second workman rushed to help lug at the oar.
But the oars had barely hit the water before dark, slender, snake-like ropes wrapped around them and the rudder; and the suckers crept up the sides of the boat with a curling motion. The men gripped their oars and pulled, but it was like trying to move a boat in a mass of floating weeds. “Help here!” shouted the boatman, and Mr. Fison and the second worker rushed over to help pull at the oar.
Then the man with the boathook—his name 451was Ewan, or Ewen—sprang up with a curse, and began striking downward over the side, as far as he could reach, at the bank of tentacles that now clustered along the boat’s bottom. And, at the same time, the two rowers stood up to get a better purchase for the recovery of their oars. The boatman handed his to Mr. Fison, who lugged desperately, and, meanwhile, the boatman opened a big clasp-knife, and, leaning over the side of the boat, began hacking at the spiring arms upon the oar shaft.
Then the guy with the boathook—his name was Ewan, or Ewen—jumped up with a curse and started striking down over the side, as far as he could reach, at the mass of tentacles that had now gathered along the bottom of the boat. At the same time, the two rowers stood up to get a better grip for retrieving their oars. The boatman handed his oar to Mr. Fison, who struggled to pull it in, while the boatman opened a big clasp-knife and leaned over the side of the boat, starting to hack at the twisting arms around the oar shaft.
Mr. Fison, staggering with the quivering rocking of the boat, his teeth set, his breath coming short, and the veins starting on his hands as he pulled at his oar, suddenly cast his eyes seaward. And there, not fifty yards off, across the long rollers of the incoming tide, was a large boat standing in towards them, with three women and a little child in it. A boatman was rowing, and a little man in a pink-ribboned straw hat and whites stood in the stern, hailing them. For a moment, of course, Mr. Fison thought of help, and then he thought of the child. He abandoned his oar forthwith, threw up his arms in a frantic gesture, and screamed to the party in the boat to keep away “for God’s sake!” It says much for the modesty and courage of Mr. Fison that he does not seem to be aware that there was any quality of heroism in his action at this juncture. The oar he had abandoned was at once drawn 452under, and presently reappeared floating about twenty yards away.
Mr. Fison, struggling with the rocking of the boat, his teeth clenched, his breath short, and his veins bulging in his hands as he pulled at the oar, suddenly looked out to sea. There, not fifty yards away, across the rolling waves of the incoming tide, was a large boat heading toward them, carrying three women and a small child. A boatman was rowing, and a small man in a pink-ribboned straw hat and white clothes stood in the stern, calling out to them. For a moment, Mr. Fison thought about help, then he thought of the child. He immediately abandoned his oar, threw up his arms in a frantic gesture, and shouted to the people in the boat to stay away “for God’s sake!” It speaks volumes about Mr. Fison’s modesty and bravery that he doesn’t seem to realize there was anything heroic about his actions at that moment. The oar he had let go was quickly pulled under, and soon it reappeared floating about twenty yards away. 452
At the same moment Mr. Fison felt the boat under him lurch violently, and a hoarse scream, a prolonged cry of terror from Hill, the boatman, caused him to forget the party of excursionists altogether. He turned, and saw Hill crouching by the forward rowlock, his face convulsed with terror, and his right arm over the side and drawn tightly down. He gave now a succession of short, sharp cries, “Oh! oh! oh!—oh!” Mr. Fison believes that he must have been hacking at the tentacles below the water-line, and have been grasped by them, but, of course, it is quite impossible to say now certainly what had happened. The boat was heeling over, so that the gunwale was within ten inches of the water, and both Ewan and the other labourer were striking down into the water, with oar and boathook, on either side of Hill’s arm. Mr. Fison instinctively placed himself to counterpoise them.
At that moment, Mr. Fison felt the boat lurch violently beneath him, and a hoarse scream—a long cry of terror from Hill, the boatman—made him forget all about the group of tourists. He turned and saw Hill crouched by the front rowlock, his face twisted in fear, with his right arm hanging over the side and pulled tightly down. He let out a series of short, sharp cries, “Oh! oh! oh!—oh!” Mr. Fison thought he must have been trying to slash at the tentacles under the water and had gotten caught by them, but it's impossible to say for sure what really happened now. The boat was tilting over, with the gunwale just ten inches from the water, and both Ewan and the other laborer were plunging their oars and boathooks into the water on either side of Hill’s arm. Mr. Fison instinctively positioned himself to balance them out.
Then Hill, who was a burly, powerful man, made a strenuous effort, and rose almost to a standing position. He lifted his arm, indeed, clean out of the water. Hanging to it was a complicated tangle of brown ropes; and the eyes of one of the brutes that had hold of him, glaring straight and resolute, showed momentarily above the surface. The boat heeled more and more, and the green-brown water came pouring in a cascade over the side. 453Then Hill slipped and fell with his ribs across the side, and his arm and the mass of tentacles about it splashed back into the water. He rolled over; his boot kicked Mr. Fison’s knee as that gentleman rushed forward to seize him, and in another moment fresh tentacles had whipped about his waist and neck, and after a brief, convulsive struggle, in which the boat was nearly capsized, Hill was lugged overboard. The boat righted with a violent jerk that all but sent Mr. Fison over the other side, and hid the struggle in the water from his eyes.
Then Hill, a big, strong guy, made a huge effort and almost got up to a standing position. He lifted his arm completely out of the water. Tied to it was a tangled mess of brown ropes, and the eyes of one of the creatures holding him, staring straight and determined, briefly surfaced. The boat tilted more and more, and the green-brown water rushed in a cascade over the side. 453 Then Hill slipped and fell with his ribs across the edge, and his arm along with the mass of tentacles around it splashed back into the water. He rolled over; his boot kicked Mr. Fison’s knee as that gentleman moved forward to grab him, and in another moment, new tentacles whipped around his waist and neck. After a short, intense struggle that almost capsized the boat, Hill was pulled overboard. The boat righted itself with a sudden jerk that nearly sent Mr. Fison tumbling over the other side and concealed the underwater struggle from his view.
He stood staggering to recover his balance for a moment, and as he did so, he became aware that the struggle and the inflowing tide had carried them close upon the weedy rocks again. Not four yards off a table of rock still rose in rhythmic movements above the in-wash of the tide. In a moment Mr. Fison seized the oar from Ewan, gave one vigorous stroke, then, dropping it, ran to the bows and leapt. He felt his feet slide over the rock, and, by a frantic effort, leapt again towards a further mass. He stumbled over this, came to his knees, and rose again.
He stood, swaying to regain his balance for a moment, and as he did, he realized that the struggle and the incoming tide had swept them close to the weedy rocks again. Not four yards away, a table of rock still rose rhythmically above the incoming tide. In an instant, Mr. Fison grabbed the oar from Ewan, took one strong stroke, then dropped it, ran to the front, and jumped. He felt his feet slip over the rock, and with a desperate effort, jumped again towards a larger mass. He stumbled over it, fell to his knees, and got back up.
“Look out!” cried some one, and a large drab body struck him. He was knocked flat into a tidal pool by one of the workmen, and as he went down he heard smothered, choking cries, that he believed at the time came from Hill. Then he found himself 454marvelling at the shrillness and variety of Hill’s voice. Some one jumped over him, and a curving rush of foamy water poured over him, and passed. He scrambled to his feet, dripping, and, without looking seaward, ran as fast as his terror would let him shoreward. Before him, over the flat space of scattered rocks, stumbled the two workmen—one a dozen yards in front of the other.
“Watch out!” someone yelled, and a big, dull mass hit him. He was knocked flat into a tidal pool by one of the workers, and as he fell, he heard muffled, choking cries that he thought at the time were from Hill. Then he found himself 454wondering about the sharpness and range of Hill’s voice. Someone jumped over him, and a wave of frothy water rushed over him and moved on. He scrambled to his feet, soaking wet, and without looking out to sea, ran as fast as his fear allowed him towards the shore. In front of him, across the flat area of scattered rocks, stumbled the two workers—one about a dozen yards ahead of the other.
He looked over his shoulder at last, and, seeing that he was not pursued, faced about. He was astonished. From the moment of the rising of the cephalopods out of the water, he had been acting too swiftly to fully comprehend his actions. Now it seemed to him as if he had suddenly jumped out of an evil dream.
He finally looked over his shoulder and, seeing that no one was chasing him, turned around. He was shocked. Since the moment the cephalopods had emerged from the water, he had been moving so quickly that he hadn’t really understood what he was doing. Now it felt like he had just woken up from a nightmare.
For there were the sky, cloudless and blazing with the afternoon sun, the sea, weltering under its pitiless brightness, the soft creamy foam of the breaking water, and the low, long, dark ridges of rock. The righted boat floated, rising and falling gently on the swell about a dozen yards from shore. Hill and the monsters, all the stress and tumult of that fierce fight for life, had vanished as though they had never been.
For there was the sky, clear and shining with the bright afternoon sun, the sea, churning under its relentless glare, the soft, creamy foam of the crashing waves, and the long, dark ridges of rock. The boat sat upright, gently bobbing on the swell about twelve yards from the shore. Hill and the monsters, all the stress and chaos of that fierce fight for survival, had disappeared as if they had never existed.
Mr. Fison’s heart was beating violently; he was throbbing to the finger-tips, and his breath came deep.
Mr. Fison’s heart was racing; he felt it pulsing in his fingertips, and his breathing was deep.
There was something missing. For some seconds he could not think clearly enough what 455this might be. Sun, sky, sea, rocks—what was it? Then he remembered the boatload of excursionists. It had vanished. He wondered whether he had imagined it. He turned, and saw the two workmen standing side by side under the projecting masses of the tall pink cliffs. He hesitated whether he should make one last attempt to save the man Hill. His physical excitement seemed to desert him suddenly, and leave him aimless and helpless. He turned shoreward, stumbling and wading towards his two companions.
There was something off. For a few moments, he couldn’t think clearly about what it was. Sun, sky, sea, rocks—what was it? Then he remembered the boat full of tourists. It was gone. He questioned if he had imagined it. He turned and saw the two workers standing side by side beneath the overhanging tall pink cliffs. He hesitated about making one last effort to save the man Hill. His physical energy suddenly seemed to leave him, making him feel aimless and helpless. He turned toward the shore, stumbling and wading towards his two companions.
He looked back again, and there were now two boats floating, and the one farthest out at sea pitched clumsily, bottom upward.
He looked back again, and now there were two boats floating, with the one farthest out at sea capsizing awkwardly, bottom side up.
III
So it was Haploteuthis ferox made its appearance upon the Devonshire coast. So far, this has been its most serious aggression. Mr. Fison’s account, taken together with the wave of boating and bathing casualties to which I have already alluded, and the absence of fish from the Cornish coasts that year, points clearly to a shoal of these voracious deep-sea monsters prowling slowly along the sub-tidal coast-line. Hunger migration has, I know, been suggested as the force that drove them hither; but, for my own part, I prefer to believe the alternative theory of Hemsley. Hemsley holds that a pack or shoal of these creatures may have 456become enamoured of human flesh by the accident of a foundered ship sinking among them, and have wandered in search of it out of their accustomed zone; first waylaying and following ships, and so coming to our shores in the wake of the Atlantic traffic. But to discuss Hemsley’s cogent and admirably-stated arguments would be out of place here.
So it was Haploteuthis ferox that showed up on the Devonshire coast. Until now, this has been its most serious attack. Mr. Fison’s account, along with the wave of boating and swimming accidents I've mentioned earlier, and the lack of fish along the Cornish coasts that year, clearly points to a group of these hungry deep-sea creatures slowly moving along the underwater coastline. I've heard hunger migration suggested as the reason they came here, but personally, I prefer Hemsley’s alternative theory. Hemsley believes that a group or shoal of these creatures may have developed a taste for human flesh after a shipwreck occurred among them, leading them to wander outside their usual territory; first, they would wait for and follow ships, eventually making their way to our shores alongside Atlantic traffic. But discussing Hemsley’s compelling and well-articulated arguments would be inappropriate here.
It would seem that the appetites of the shoal were satisfied by the catch of eleven people—for so far as can be ascertained, there were ten people in the second boat, and certainly these creatures gave no further signs of their presence off Sidmouth that day. The coast between Seaton and Budleigh Salterton was patrolled all that evening and night by four Preventive Service boats, the men in which were armed with harpoons and cutlasses, and as the evening advanced, a number of more or less similarly equipped expeditions, organised by private individuals, joined them. Mr. Fison took no part in any of these expeditions.
It seems that the shoal's hunger was satisfied by the catch of eleven people—because, as far as we know, there were ten people in the second boat, and those creatures definitely didn't show any signs of being around Sidmouth that day. The coast between Seaton and Budleigh Salterton was patrolled all evening and night by four Preventive Service boats, whose crews were armed with harpoons and cutlasses. As the evening went on, several similarly equipped expeditions organized by private individuals joined them. Mr. Fison didn’t take part in any of these expeditions.
About midnight excited hails were heard from a boat about a couple of miles out at sea to the south-east of Sidmouth, and a lantern was seen waving in a strange manner to and fro and up and down. The nearer boats at once hurried towards the alarm. The venturesome occupants of the boat, a seaman, a curate, and two schoolboys, had actually seen the monsters passing under their boat. The creatures, it seems, like most deep-sea 457organisms, were phosphorescent, and they had been floating, five fathoms deep or so, like creatures of moonshine through the blackness of the water, their tentacles retracted and as if asleep, rolling over and over, and moving slowly in a wedge-like formation towards the south-east.
About midnight, excited shouts were heard from a boat a couple of miles out at sea to the southeast of Sidmouth, and a lantern was seen waving in a strange manner, back and forth, and up and down. The nearby boats quickly rushed toward the commotion. The daring occupants of the boat—a sailor, a curate, and two schoolboys—had actually seen the creatures passing beneath them. These beings, it seems, like most deep-sea organisms, were phosphorescent, floating about five fathoms deep, like moonlit entities through the darkness of the water, their tentacles retracted as if they were asleep, rolling over and moving slowly in a wedge-like formation toward the southeast.
These people told their story in gesticulated fragments, as first one boat drew alongside and then another. At last there was a little fleet of eight or nine boats collected together, and from them a tumult, like the chatter of a marketplace, rose into the stillness of the night. There was little or no disposition to pursue the shoal, the people had neither weapons nor experience for such a dubious chase, and presently—even with a certain relief, it may be—the boats turned shoreward.
These people shared their story through animated gestures, as one boat after another approached. Eventually, a small fleet of eight or nine boats gathered, and from them, a lively noise, like the buzz of a marketplace, filled the calm of the night. There was little interest in chasing the shoal; the people had neither weapons nor experience for such a risky pursuit, and soon—even with a sense of relief, perhaps—the boats headed back to shore.
And now to tell what is perhaps the most astonishing fact in this whole astonishing raid. We have not the slightest knowledge of the subsequent movements of the shoal, although the whole southwest coast was now alert for it. But it may, perhaps, be significant that a cachalot was stranded off Sark on June 3. Two weeks and three days after this Sidmouth affair, a living Haploteuthis came ashore on Calais sands. It was alive, because several witnesses saw its tentacles moving in a convulsive way. But it is probable that it was dying. A gentleman named Pouchet obtained a rifle and shot it.
And now to share what might be the most incredible fact in this entire extraordinary event. We have no idea what happened to the group afterward, even though the whole southwest coast was on high alert for it. However, it might be worth noting that a sperm whale was found stranded off Sark on June 3. Two weeks and three days after the Sidmouth incident, a living Haploteuthis washed up on the shores of Calais. It was alive since several witnesses saw its tentacles moving in a convulsive manner. But it was likely dying. A man named Pouchet got a rifle and shot it.
458That was the last appearance of a living Haploteuthis. No others were seen on the French coast. On the 15th of June a dead body, almost complete, was washed ashore near Torquay, and a few days later a boat from the Marine Biological station, engaged in dredging off Plymouth, picked up a rotting specimen, slashed deeply with a cutlass wound. How the former specimen had come by its death it is impossible to say. And on the last day of June, Mr. Egbert Caine, an artist, bathing near Newlyn, threw up his arms, shrieked, and was drawn under. A friend bathing with him made no attempt to save him, but swam at once for the shore. This is the last fact to tell of this extraordinary raid from the deeper sea. Whether it is really the last of these horrible creatures it is, as yet, premature to say. But it is believed, and certainly it is to be hoped, that they have returned now, and returned for good, to the sunless depths of the middle seas, out of which they have so strangely and so mysteriously arisen.
458That was the last sighting of a living Haploteuthis. No others were spotted along the French coast. On June 15th, a nearly intact dead body washed up near Torquay, and a few days later, a boat from the Marine Biological station, that was dredging near Plymouth, found a decaying specimen with a deep cutlass wound. It's impossible to determine how the first specimen met its end. Then, on the last day of June, Mr. Egbert Caine, an artist, was swimming near Newlyn when he suddenly threw up his arms, screamed, and was pulled under. A friend, who was also swimming with him, made no effort to help and immediately swam for the shore. This is the final incident to report from this unusual invasion from the deeper sea. Whether this truly marks the end of these terrifying creatures is still too soon to tell. However, there is a belief, and certainly hope, that they have now gone back, and for good, to the lightless depths of the middle seas from which they bizarrely and mysteriously emerged.
IN THE MODERN VEIN
A COLD LOVE STORY
Of course the cultivated reader has heard of Aubrey Vair. He has published on three several occasions volumes of delicate verses,—some, indeed, border on indelicacy,—and his column “Of Things Literary” in the “Climax” is well known. His Byronic visage and an interview have appeared in the “Perfect Lady.” It was Aubrey Vair, I believe, who demonstrated that the humour of Dickens was worse than his sentiment, and who detected “a subtle bourgeois flavour” in Shakespeare. However, it is not generally known that Aubrey Vair has had erotic experiences as well as erotic inspirations. He adopted Goethe some little time since as his literary prototype, and that may have had something to do with his temporary lapse from sexual integrity.
Of course, the cultured reader has heard of Aubrey Vair. He has published delicate poetry on three separate occasions—some of it even skews towards the risqué—and his column “Of Things Literary” in the “Climax” is well-known. His Byronic appearance and an interview have appeared in the “Perfect Lady.” It was Aubrey Vair, I believe, who showed that Dickens’s humor was worse than his sentiment, and who found “a subtle bourgeois flavor” in Shakespeare. However, it’s not widely known that Aubrey Vair has had both erotic experiences and inspirations. He adopted Goethe as his literary role model some time ago, and that may have contributed to his brief departure from sexual integrity.
For it is one of the commonest things that undermine literary men, giving us landslips and picturesque effects along the otherwise even cliff of their respectable life, ranking next to avarice, and certainly above drink, this instability called 460genius, or, more fully, the consciousness of genius, such as Aubrey Vair possessed. Since Shelley set the fashion, your man of gifts has been assured that his duty to himself and his duty to his wife are incompatible, and his renunciation of the Philistine has been marked by such infidelity as his means and courage warranted. Most virtue is lack of imagination. At any rate, a minor genius without his affections twisted into an inextricable muddle, and who did not occasionally shed sonnets over his troubles, I have never met.
For it's one of the most common things that undermine writers, causing landslips and striking moments along the otherwise steady path of their respectable lives, ranking just after greed and definitely above drinking, this instability called 460genius, or, more fully, the awareness of genius, like Aubrey Vair had. Ever since Shelley set the trend, a gifted man has been convinced that his responsibilities to himself and to his wife are at odds, and his rejection of the mainstream has been marked by infidelity as much as his resources and bravery allowed. Most virtue is just a lack of imagination. In any case, I have never met a lesser genius who didn't have his emotions tied up in a confusing mess, and who didn't occasionally pour out sonnets about his troubles.
Even Aubrey Vair did this, weeping the sonnets overnight into his blotting-book, and pretending to write literary causerie when his wife came down in her bath slippers to see what kept him up. She did not understand him, of course. He did this even before the other woman appeared, so ingrained is conjugal treachery in the talented mind. Indeed, he wrote more sonnets before the other woman came than after that event, because thereafter he spent much of his leisure in cutting down the old productions, retrimming them, and generally altering this ready-made clothing of his passion to suit her particular height and complexion.
Even Aubrey Vair did this, pouring out his sonnets overnight into his blotting book, and pretending to write casual literary pieces when his wife came down in her bath slippers to see what was keeping him up. She didn’t understand him, of course. He did this even before the other woman showed up, so entrenched is marital betrayal in the creative mind. In fact, he wrote more sonnets before the other woman appeared than after that, because afterward, he spent much of his free time editing the old works, reworking them, and generally tweaking this ready-made expression of his passion to fit her specific height and complexion.
Aubrey Vair lived in a little red villa with a lawn at the back and a view of the Downs behind Reigate. He lived upon discreet investment eked out by literary work. His wife was handsome, sweet, and gentle, and—such is the tender humility 461of good married women—she found her life’s happiness in seeing that little Aubrey Vair had well-cooked variety for dinner, and that their house was the neatest and brightest of all the houses they entered. Aubrey Vair enjoyed the dinners, and was proud of the house, yet nevertheless he mourned because his genius dwindled. Moreover, he grew plump, and corpulence threatened him.
Aubrey Vair lived in a small red villa with a backyard and a view of the Downs behind Reigate. He relied on smart investments supplemented by his writing. His wife was beautiful, kind, and gentle, and—such is the sweet humility of good wives—she found her happiness in making sure that Aubrey Vair had well-cooked and varied meals for dinner and that their home was the neatest and brightest of all the houses they visited. Aubrey Vair enjoyed the dinners and took pride in the house, but he still felt a sense of loss because his creativity was fading. Additionally, he was getting chubby, and his weight was becoming a concern. 461
We learn in suffering what we teach in song, and Aubrey Vair knew certainly that his soul could give no creditable crops unless his affections were harrowed. And how to harrow them was the trouble, for Reigate is a moral neighbourhood.
We learn through suffering what we express in song, and Aubrey Vair knew for sure that his soul couldn't produce anything worthwhile unless his feelings were stirred. The problem was figuring out how to stir them since Reigate is a morally strict neighborhood.
So Aubrey Vair’s romantic longings blew loose for a time, much as a seedling creeper might, planted in the midst of a flower-bed. But at last, in the fulness of time, the other woman came to the embrace of Aubrey Vair’s yearning heart-tendrils, and his romantic episode proceeded as is here faithfully written down.
So Aubrey Vair’s romantic desires got a bit wild for a while, like a young vine planted in a flower bed. But eventually, when the time was right, the other woman became part of Aubrey Vair’s longing heart, and his romantic story unfolded just as it’s been recorded here.
The other woman was really a girl, and Aubrey Vair met her first at a tennis party at Redhill. Aubrey Vair did not play tennis after the accident to Miss Morton’s eye, and because latterly it made him pant and get warmer and moister than even a poet should be; and this young lady had only recently arrived in England, and could not play. So they gravitated into the two vacant 462basket chairs beside Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, in front of the hollyhocks, and were presently talking at their ease together.
The other woman was actually a girl, and Aubrey Vair first met her at a tennis party at Redhill. Aubrey Vair stopped playing tennis after the accident that affected Miss Morton’s eye, and lately it made him breathe heavily and get warmer and more sweaty than even a poet should. This young lady had just arrived in England and couldn’t play. So, they found their way to two empty basket chairs beside Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, in front of the hollyhocks, and soon they were chatting comfortably together.
The other woman’s name was unpropitious,—Miss Smith,—but you would never have suspected it from her face and costume. Her parentage was promising, she was an orphan, her mother was a Hindoo, and her father an Indian civil servant; and Aubrey Vair—himself a happy mixture of Kelt and Teuton, as, indeed, all literary men have to be nowadays—naturally believed in the literary consequences of a mixture of races. She was dressed in white. She had finely moulded, pale features, great depth of expression, and a cloud of delicately frisé black hair over her dark eyes, and she looked at Aubrey Vair with a look half curious and half shy, that contrasted admirably with the stereotyped frankness of your common Reigate girl.
The other woman's name wasn’t very promising—Miss Smith—but you would never guess that from her face and outfit. Her background was impressive; she was an orphan, her mother was a Hindu, and her father was an Indian civil servant. Aubrey Vair—who was himself a happy blend of Celtic and Germanic heritage, as all literary people seem to be these days—naturally believed in the literary benefits of mixing races. She was dressed in white. She had finely shaped, pale features, great depth of expression, and a cloud of delicately frizzy black hair framing her dark eyes. She looked at Aubrey Vair with a mix of curiosity and shyness that contrasted beautifully with the typical openness of your average Reigate girl.
“This is a splendid lawn—the best in Redhill,” said Aubrey Vair, in the course of the conversation; “and I like it all the better because the daisies are spared.” He indicated the daisies with a graceful sweep of his rather elegant hand.
“This is a beautiful lawn—the best in Redhill,” said Aubrey Vair during the conversation; “and I appreciate it even more because the daisies are left alone.” He pointed to the daisies with a smooth gesture of his quite stylish hand.
“They are sweet little flowers,” said the lady in white, “and I have always associated them with England, chiefly, perhaps, through a picture I saw ‘over there’ when I was very little, of children making daisy chains. I promised myself 463that pleasure when I came home. But, alas! I feel now rather too large for such delights.”
“They’re sweet little flowers,” said the lady in white, “and I’ve always connected them with England, mainly, I guess, because of a picture I saw ‘over there’ when I was very little, of children making daisy chains. I promised myself that joy when I came home. But, sadly! I feel a bit too grown-up for such delights now.”
“I do not see why we should not be able to enjoy these simple pleasures as we grow older—why our growth should have in it so much forgetting. For my own part—”
“I don’t see why we shouldn’t be able to enjoy these simple pleasures as we get older—why our growth has to involve so much forgetting. As for me—”
“Has your wife got Jane’s recipe for stuffing trout?” asked Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, abruptly.
“Does your wife have Jane’s recipe for stuffing trout?” asked Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, abruptly.
“I really don’t know,” said Aubrey Vair.
“I really don’t know,” Aubrey Vair said.
“That’s all right,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt. “It ought to please even you.”
“That’s okay,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt. “It should even make you happy.”
“Anything will please me,” said Aubrey Vair; “I care very little—”
“Anything will make me happy,” said Aubrey Vair; “I don’t care much—”
“Oh, it’s a lovely dish,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, and relapsed into contemplation.
“Oh, it’s a great dish,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, and fell back into thought.
“I was saying,” said Aubrey Vair, “that I think I still find my keenest pleasures in childish pastimes. I have a little nephew that I see a great deal of, and when we fly kites together, I am sure it would be hard to tell which of us is the happier. By-the-by, you should get at your daisy chains in that way. Beguile some little girl.”
“I was saying,” Aubrey Vair said, “that I still find my greatest joys in things I enjoyed as a kid. I spend a lot of time with my little nephew, and when we’re flying kites together, it’s hard to tell who is having more fun. By the way, you should make some daisy chains like that. Charm a little girl.”
“But I did. I took that Morton mite for a walk in the meadows, and timidly broached the subject. And she reproached me for suggesting ‘frivolous pursuits.’ It was a horrible disappointment.”
“But I did. I took that Morton mite for a walk in the meadows and timidly brought up the topic. She scolded me for suggesting ‘frivolous pursuits.’ It was a terrible disappointment.”
“The governess here,” said Aubrey Vair, “is robbing that child of its youth in a terrible way. 464What will a life be that has no childhood at the beginning?
“The governess here,” said Aubrey Vair, “is robbing that child of its youth in a terrible way. 464What will a life be that has no childhood at the beginning?
“Some human beings are never young,” he continued, “and they never grow up. They lead absolutely colourless lives. They are—they are etiolated. They never love, and never feel the loss of it. They are—for the moment I can think of no better image—they are human flowerpots, in which no soul has been planted. But a human soul properly growing must begin in a fresh childishness.”
“Some people are never young,” he continued, “and they never mature. They live completely dull lives. They are—they are withered. They never love, and they never feel the absence of it. They are—at the moment, I can think of no better image—they are like human flowerpots, where no soul has been nurtured. But a human soul that is truly developing must start with a fresh sense of childlike wonder.”
“Yes,” said the dark lady, thoughtfully, “a careless childhood, running wild almost. That should be the beginning.”
“Yes,” said the dark lady, thoughtfully, “a carefree childhood, running wild most of the time. That should be the starting point.”
“Then we pass through the wonder and diffidence of youth.”
“Then we go through the amazement and uncertainty of being young.”
“To strength and action,” said the dark lady. Her dreamy eyes were fixed on the Downs, and her fingers tightened on her knees as she spoke. “Ah, it is a grand thing to live—as a man does—self-reliant and free.”
“To strength and action,” said the dark lady. Her dreamy eyes were focused on the Downs, and her fingers gripped her knees as she spoke. “Ah, it’s a wonderful thing to live—as a man does—self-reliant and free.”
“And so at last,” said Aubrey Vair, “come to the culmination and crown of life.” He paused and glanced hastily at her. Then he dropped his voice almost to a whisper—“And the culmination of life is love.”
“And so at last,” said Aubrey Vair, “we’ve reached the peak and highlight of life.” He paused and quickly glanced at her. Then he lowered his voice to almost a whisper—“And the peak of life is love.”
Their eyes met for a moment, but she looked away at once. Aubrey Vair felt a peculiar thrill and a catching in his breath, but his emotions were too complex for analysis. He had a certain 465sense of surprise, also, at the way his conversation had developed.
Their eyes connected briefly, but she instantly looked away. Aubrey Vair experienced a strange thrill and a catch in his breath, but his feelings were too complicated to analyze. He also felt a sense of surprise at how their conversation had unfolded.
Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt suddenly dug him in the chest with her ear-trumpet, and some one at tennis bawled, “Love all!”
Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt suddenly jabbed him in the chest with her hearing aid, and someone at tennis shouted, “Love all!”
“Did I tell you Jane’s girls have had scarlet fever?” asked Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt.
“Did I mention that Jane’s daughters have had scarlet fever?” asked Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt.
“No,” said Aubrey Vair.
“No,” said Aubrey Vair.
“Yes; and they are peeling now,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, shutting her lips tightly, and nodding in a slow, significant manner at both of them.
“Yes; and they are peeling now,” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, pressing her lips together and nodding slowly and meaningfully at both of them.
There was a pause. All three seemed lost in thought, too deep for words.
There was a pause. All three appeared to be deep in thought, too caught up to speak.
“Love,” began Aubrey Vair, presently, in a severely philosophical tone, leaning back in his chair, holding his hands like a praying saint’s in front of him, and staring at the toe of his shoe,—“love is, I believe, the one true and real thing in life. It rises above reason, interest, or explanation. Yet I never read of an age when it was so much forgotten as it is now. Never was love expected to run so much in appointed channels, never was it so despised, checked, ordered, and obstructed. Policemen say, ‘This way, Eros!’ As a result, we relieve our emotional possibilities in the hunt for gold and notoriety. And after all, with the best fortune in these, we only hold up the gilded images of our success, and are weary slaves, with unsatisfied hearts, in the pageant of life.”
“Love,” began Aubrey Vair, in a deeply philosophical tone, leaning back in his chair, hands clasped in front of him like a praying saint, staring at the toe of his shoe, “is, I think, the one true and real thing in life. It transcends reason, self-interest, or explanation. Yet I never read about a time when it was as overlooked as it is now. Never has love been expected to follow such strict paths, never has it been so disdained, controlled, regulated, and blocked. Policemen say, ‘This way, Eros!’ As a result, we express our emotional potential in the pursuit of wealth and fame. And in the end, even with the best success in these areas, we just showcase the flashy images of our achievements while remaining exhausted and unfulfilled in the spectacle of life.”
466Aubrey Vair sighed, and there was a pause. The girl looked at him out of the mysterious darkness of her eyes. She had read many books, but Aubrey Vair was her first literary man, and she took this kind of thing for genius—as girls have done before.
466Aubrey Vair sighed, and there was a pause. The girl looked at him from the mysterious darkness of her eyes. She had read many books, but Aubrey Vair was her first literary figure, and she viewed this sort of thing as genius—just as girls have done in the past.
“We are,” continued Aubrey Vair, conscious of a favourable impression,—“we are like fireworks, mere dead, inert things until the appointed spark comes; and then—if it is not damp—the dormant soul blazes forth in all its warmth and beauty. That is living. I sometimes think, do you know, that we should be happier if we could die soon after that golden time, like the Ephemerides. There is a decay sets in.”
“We are,” continued Aubrey Vair, aware of making a good impression, “we are like fireworks—just lifeless, inactive things until the right spark ignites us; and then—if there’s no dampness—the hidden soul bursts forth in all its warmth and beauty. That’s living. Sometimes, I think, you know, that we’d be happier if we could die shortly after that golden moment, like the Ephemerides. There’s a decay that follows.”
“Eigh?” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, startlingly. “I didn’t hear you.”
“Pardon?” said Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt, suddenly. “I didn’t catch that.”
“I was on the point of remarking,” shouted Aubrey Vair, wheeling the array of his thoughts,—“I was on the point of remarking that few people in Redhill could match Mrs. Morton’s fine broad green.”
“I was just about to say,” shouted Aubrey Vair, organizing his thoughts, “I was just about to say that not many people in Redhill can match Mrs. Morton’s stunning broad green.”
“Others have noticed it,” Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt shouted back. “It is since she has had in her new false teeth.”
“Others have noticed it,” Mrs. Bayne’s deaf aunt shouted back. “It’s since she got her new dentures.”
This interruption dislocated the conversation a little. However—
This interruption disrupted the conversation a bit. However—
“I must thank you, Mr. Vair,” said the dark girl, when they parted that afternoon, “for having given me very much to think about.”
“I really appreciate it, Mr. Vair,” said the dark girl when they said goodbye that afternoon, “for giving me a lot to think about.”
467And from her manner, Aubrey Vair perceived clearly he had not wasted his time.
467From her behavior, Aubrey Vair realized he hadn't wasted his time.
It would require a subtler pen than mine to tell how from that day a passion for Miss Smith grew like Jonah’s gourd in the heart of Aubrey Vair. He became pensive, and in the prolonged absence of Miss Smith, irritable. Mrs. Aubrey Vair felt the change in him, and put it down to a vitriolic Saturday Reviewer. Indisputably the “Saturday” does at times go a little far. He re-read “Elective Affinities,” and lent it to Miss Smith. Incredible as it may appear to members of the Areopagus Club, where we know Aubrey Vair, he did also beyond all question inspire a sort of passion in that sombre-eyed, rather clever, and really very beautiful girl.
It would take a more skilled writer than me to explain how, from that day on, Aubrey Vair developed an intense infatuation for Miss Smith that seemed to grow like Jonah’s gourd. He became thoughtful, and during Miss Smith’s long absence, he grew irritable. Mrs. Aubrey Vair noticed the change in him and attributed it to the biting critiques from the Saturday Reviewer. It’s true that the “Saturday” sometimes crosses the line. He re-read “Elective Affinities” and lent it to Miss Smith. As unbelievable as it may seem to the members of the Areopagus Club, where we know Aubrey Vair, he undeniably sparked a kind of passion in that dark-eyed, intelligent, and genuinely very beautiful girl.
He talked to her a lot about love and destiny, and all that bric-à-brac of the minor poet. And they talked together about his genius. He elaborately, though discreetly, sought her society, and presented and read to her the milder of his unpublished sonnets. We consider his Byronic features pasty, but the feminine mind has its own laws. I suppose, also, where a girl is not a fool, a literary man has an enormous advantage over any one but a preacher, in the show he can make of his heart’s wares.
He talked to her a lot about love and fate, and all that random stuff that minor poets go on about. They also discussed his talent together. He carefully, but subtly, sought out her company and shared some of his softer, unpublished sonnets with her. We think his Byronic looks are kind of off, but women have their own standards. I guess, too, when a girl isn’t naive, a literary guy has a huge edge over anyone except for a preacher, in how he can showcase his emotional offerings.
At last a day in that summer came when he met her alone, possibly by chance, in a quiet lane 468towards Horley. There were ample hedges on either side, rich with honeysuckle, vetch, and mullein.
At last, one day that summer, he ran into her alone, maybe by chance, in a quiet lane heading towards Horley. There were plenty of hedges on both sides, full of honeysuckle, vetch, and mullein. 468
They conversed intimately of his poetic ambitions, and then he read her those verses of his subsequently published in “Hobson’s Magazine:” “Tenderly ever, since I have met thee.” He had written these the day before; and though I think the sentiment is uncommonly trite, there is a redeeming note of sincerity about the lines not conspicuous in all Aubrey Vair’s poetry.
They talked closely about his poetic dreams, and then he read her those lines of his that were later published in “Hobson’s Magazine”: “Tenderly ever, since I have met you.” He had written these the day before; and while I think the sentiment is pretty cliché, there’s a genuine touch of sincerity in the lines that isn’t always present in all of Aubrey Vair’s poetry.
He read rather well, and a swell of genuine emotion crept into his voice as he read, with one white hand thrown out to point the rhythm of the lines. “Ever, my sweet, for thee,” he concluded, looking up into her face.
He read quite well, and a wave of genuine emotion came into his voice as he read, with one pale hand raised to emphasize the rhythm of the lines. “Always, my dear, for you,” he finished, looking up at her face.
Before he looked up, he had been thinking chiefly of his poem and its effect. Straightway he forgot it. Her arms hung limply before her, and her hands were clasped together. Her eyes were very tender.
Before he looked up, he had been mostly thinking about his poem and how it would be received. As soon as he looked up, he forgot all about it. Her arms hung loosely in front of her, and her hands were joined together. Her eyes were incredibly gentle.
“Your verses go to the heart,” she said softly.
“Your verses touch the heart,” she said softly.
Her mobile features were capable of wonderful shades of expression. He suddenly forgot his wife and his position as a minor poet as he looked at her. It is possible that his classical features may themselves have undergone a certain transfiguration. For one brief moment—and it was always to linger in his memory—destiny lifted him out of his vain little self to a nobler level of simplicity. 469The copy of “Tenderly ever” fluttered from his hand. Considerations vanished. Only one thing seemed of importance.
Her facial expressions were capable of amazing nuances. He suddenly forgot about his wife and his role as a minor poet as he stared at her. It’s possible that his own classic features might have experienced a kind of transformation. For one fleeting moment—and it would always stay in his memory—fate lifted him out of his insignificant self to a higher level of simplicity. 469The copy of “Tenderly ever” slipped from his hand. Thoughts disappeared. Only one thing felt important.
“I love you,” he said abruptly.
“I love you,” he said suddenly.
An expression of fear came into her eyes. The grip of her hands upon one another tightened convulsively. She became very pale.
An expression of fear appeared in her eyes. The grip of her hands on each other tightened anxiously. She turned very pale.
Then she moved her lips as if to speak, bringing her face slightly nearer to his. There was nothing in the world at that moment for either of them but one another. They were both trembling exceedingly. In a whisper she said, “You love me?”
Then she moved her lips as if to speak, bringing her face slightly closer to his. At that moment, there was nothing in the world for either of them but each other. They were both shaking a lot. In a whisper, she said, “You love me?”
Aubrey Vair stood quivering and speechless, looking into her eyes. He had never seen such a light as he saw there before. He was in a wild tumult of emotion. He was dreadfully scared at what he had done. He could not say another word. He nodded.
Aubrey Vair stood trembling and at a loss for words, staring into her eyes. He had never seen such a brightness there before. He was overwhelmed with emotion. He was deeply afraid of what he had done. He couldn't say anything else. He just nodded.
“And this has come to me?” she said presently, in the same awe-stricken whisper, and then, “Oh, my love, my love!”
“And this has come to me?” she said after a moment, in the same amazed whisper, and then, “Oh, my love, my love!”
And thereupon Aubrey Vair had her clasped to himself, her cheek upon his shoulder and his lips to hers.
And then Aubrey Vair held her close, her cheek on his shoulder and his lips on hers.
Thus it was that Aubrey Vair came by the cardinal memory of his life. To this day it recurs in his works.
Thus it was that Aubrey Vair gained the key memory of his life. To this day, it echoes in his works.
A little boy clambering in the hedge some way down the lane saw this group with surprise, and 470then with scorn and contempt. Recking nothing of his destiny, he turned away, feeling that he at least could never come to the unspeakable unmanliness of hugging girls. Unhappily for Reigate scandal, his shame for his sex was altogether too deep for words.
A little boy climbing in the bushes further down the lane saw this group and was surprised, then filled with scorn and contempt. Not caring about his fate, he turned away, feeling that he could never sink to the unspeakable weakness of hugging girls. Unfortunately for Reigate's gossip, his shame for his gender was far too intense to put into words.
An hour after, Aubrey Vair returned home in a hushed mood. There were muffins after his own heart for his tea—Mrs. Aubrey Vair had had hers. And there were chrysanthemums, chiefly white ones,—flowers he loved,—set out in the china bowl he was wont to praise. And his wife came behind him to kiss him as he sat eating.
An hour later, Aubrey Vair came home feeling quiet. There were muffins he loved waiting for his tea—Mrs. Aubrey Vair had already had hers. And there were chrysanthemums, mostly white ones—his favorite flowers—arranged in the china bowl he usually admired. His wife came up behind him to kiss him as he sat eating.
“De lill Jummuns,” she remarked, kissing him under the ear.
“Little Jummuns,” she said, kissing him under the ear.
Then it came into the mind of Aubrey Vair with startling clearness, while his ear was being kissed, and with his mouth full of muffin, that life is a singularly complex thing.
Then it suddenly struck Aubrey Vair, clearly, while his ear was being kissed and his mouth was full of muffin, that life is an incredibly complex thing.
The summer passed at last into the harvest-time, and the leaves began falling. It was evening, the warm sunset light still touched the Downs, but up the valley a blue haze was creeping. One or two lamps in Reigate were already alight.
The summer finally turned into harvest season, and the leaves started to fall. It was evening, with the warm sunset light still shining on the Downs, but a blue haze was creeping up the valley. A couple of lamps in Reigate were already lit.
About half-way up the slanting road that scales the Downs, there is a wooden seat where one may obtain a fine view of the red villas scattered below, and of the succession of blue hills beyond. Here the girl with the shadowy face was sitting.
About halfway up the slanting road that goes up the Downs, there's a wooden bench where you can get a great view of the red houses scattered below and the range of blue hills in the distance. That's where the girl with the mysterious face was sitting.
471She had a book on her knees, but it lay neglected. She was leaning forward, her chin resting upon her hand. She was looking across the valley into the darkening sky, with troubled eyes.
471She had a book on her lap, but it was ignored. She was leaning forward, her chin resting on her hand. She was gazing across the valley into the darkening sky, her eyes filled with worry.
Aubrey Vair appeared through the hazel-bushes, and sat down beside her. He held half a dozen dead leaves in his hand.
Aubrey Vair emerged from the hazel bushes and sat down next to her. He had half a dozen dead leaves in his hand.
She did not alter her attitude. “Well?” she said.
She didn’t change her attitude. “Well?” she said.
“Is it to be flight?” he asked.
“Is it going to be flight?” he asked.
Aubrey Vair was rather pale. He had been having bad nights latterly, with dreams of the Continental Express Mrs. Aubrey Vair possibly even in pursuit,—he always fancied her making the tragedy ridiculous by tearfully bringing additional pairs of socks, and any such trifles he had forgotten, with her,—all Reigate and Redhill in commotion. He had never eloped before, and he had visions of difficulties with hotel proprietors. Mrs. Aubrey Vair might telegraph ahead. Even he had had a prophetic vision of a headline in a halfpenny evening newspaper: “Young Lady abducts a Minor Poet.” So there was a quaver in his voice as he asked, “Is it to be flight?”
Aubrey Vair looked pretty pale. He had been having rough nights lately, dreaming about the Continental Express, with Mrs. Aubrey Vair possibly chasing after him—he always imagined her making the situation ridiculous by tearfully showing up with extra pairs of socks and other little things he had forgotten—causing chaos in Reigate and Redhill. He had never run away like this before, and he could picture the trouble he might have with hotel owners. Mrs. Aubrey Vair might even send a telegram in advance. He had even had a prophetic vision of a headline in a cheap evening newspaper: “Young Lady Abducts a Minor Poet.” So there was a tremor in his voice as he asked, “Is this going to be a flight?”
“As you will,” she answered, still not looking at him.
“As you wish,” she said, still not looking at him.
“I want you to consider particularly how this will affect you. A man,” said Aubrey Vair, slowly, and staring hard at the leaves in his hand, “even gains 472a certain éclat in these affairs. But to a woman it is ruin—social, moral.”
“I want you to think carefully about how this will affect you. A man,” said Aubrey Vair, slowly, staring intensely at the leaves in his hand, “even gains a certain reputation in these situations. But for a woman, it is complete ruin—socially and morally.”
“This is not love,” said the girl in white.
“This isn’t love,” said the girl in white.
“Ah, my dearest! Think of yourself.”
“Ah, my dear! Think of yourself.”
“Stupid!” she said, under her breath.
"Idiot!" she muttered.
“You spoke?”
"You actually spoke?"
“Nothing.”
"Nothing."
“But cannot we go on, meeting one another, loving one another, without any great scandal or misery? Could we not—”
“But can’t we keep going, meeting each other, loving each other, without any major scandals or misery? Could we not—”
“That,” interrupted Miss Smith, “would be unspeakably horrible.”
“That,” interrupted Miss Smith, “would be absolutely horrible.”
“This is a dreadful conversation to me. Life is so intricate, such a web of subtle strands binds us this way and that. I cannot tell what is right. You must consider—”
“This is a terrible conversation for me. Life is so complex, such a web of subtle threads ties us together in various ways. I can’t figure out what’s right. You need to think about—”
“A man would break such strands.”
“A man would break those strands.”
“There is no manliness,” said Aubrey Vair, with a sudden glow of moral exaltation, “in doing wrong. My love—”
“There is no manliness,” said Aubrey Vair, with a burst of moral pride, “in doing wrong. My love—”
“We could at least die together, dearest,” she said discontentedly.
“We could at least die together, my dear,” she said unhappily.
“Good Lord!” said Aubrey Vair. “I mean—consider my wife.”
“Good Lord!” said Aubrey Vair. “I mean—think about my wife.”
“You have not considered her hitherto.”
"You haven't thought about her until now."
“There is a flavour—of cowardice, of desertion, about suicide,” said Aubrey Vair. “Frankly, I have the English prejudice, and do not like any kind of running away.”
“There’s a flavor—of cowardice, of abandonment, about suicide,” said Aubrey Vair. “Honestly, I have the English bias, and I don’t like any kind of escaping.”
Miss Smith smiled very faintly. “I see clearly 473now what I did not see. My love and yours are very different things.”
Miss Smith smiled very slightly. “I now see clearly what I didn't see before. My love and yours are very different things.”
“Possibly it is a sexual difference,” said Aubrey Vair; and then, feeling the remark inadequate, he relapsed into silence.
“Maybe it’s a sexual difference,” Aubrey Vair said; and then, feeling like his comment fell short, he fell silent.
They sat for some time without a word. The two lights in Reigate below multiplied to a score of bright points, and, above, one star had become visible. She began laughing, an almost noiseless, hysterical laugh that jarred unaccountably upon Aubrey Vair.
They sat for a while without saying anything. The two lights in Reigate below transformed into a dozen bright points, and above, one star became visible. She started laughing, a nearly soundless, hysterical laugh that inexplicably disturbed Aubrey Vair.
Presently she stood up. “They will wonder where I am,” she said. “I think I must be going.”
Presently, she stood up. “They'll wonder where I am,” she said. “I think I should be going.”
He followed her to the road. “Then this is the end?” he said, with a curious mixture of relief and poignant regret.
He followed her to the road. “So, is this it?” he asked, with a strange mix of relief and deep sadness.
“Yes, this is the end,” she answered, and turned away.
“Yes, this is the end,” she replied, and turned away.
There straightway dropped into the soul of Aubrey Vair a sense of infinite loss. It was an altogether new sensation. She was perhaps twenty yards away, when he groaned aloud with the weight of it, and suddenly began running after her with his arms extended.
There immediately settled into Aubrey Vair's soul a feeling of immense loss. It was a completely new sensation. She was maybe twenty yards away when he groaned out loud under the weight of it and suddenly started running after her with his arms outstretched.
“Annie,” he cried,—“Annie! I have been talking rot. Annie, now I know I love you! I cannot spare you. This must not be. I did not understand.”
“Annie,” he shouted, — “Annie! I’ve been talking nonsense. Annie, now I realize I love you! I can’t let you go. This can't happen. I didn’t understand.”
The weight was horrible.
The weight was terrible.
474“Oh, stop, Annie!” he cried, with a breaking voice, and there were tears on his face.
474“Oh, stop, Annie!” he shouted, his voice trembling, and tears were streaming down his face.
She turned upon him suddenly, with a look of annoyance, and his arms fell by his side. His expression changed at the sight of her pale face.
She suddenly turned to him with an annoyed look, and his arms dropped to his sides. His expression changed when he saw her pale face.
“You do not understand,” she said. “I have said good-bye.”
"You don't understand," she said. "I've said goodbye."
She looked at him; he was evidently greatly distressed, a little out of breath, and he had just stopped blubbering. His contemptible quality reached the pathetic. She came up close to him, and, taking his damp Byronic visage between her hands, she kissed him again and again. “Good-bye, little man that I loved,” she said; “and good-bye to this folly of love.”
She looked at him; he was clearly very upset, a bit out of breath, and he had just stopped crying. His pathetic side was almost sad. She stepped closer to him, and, holding his wet Byronic face in her hands, she kissed him over and over. “Goodbye, little man I loved,” she said; “and goodbye to this foolish love.”
Then, with something that may have been a laugh or a sob,—she herself, when she came to write it all in her novel, did not know which,—she turned and hurried away again, and went out of the path that Aubrey Vair must pursue, at the cross-roads.
Then, with what could have been a laugh or a sob—she herself, when she wrote it all in her novel, didn't know which—it was, she turned and hurried away again, going off the path that Aubrey Vair would have to take at the crossroads.
Aubrey Vair stood, where she had kissed him, with a mind as inactive as his body, until her white dress had disappeared. Then he gave an involuntary sigh, a large, exhaustive expiration, and so awoke himself, and began walking, pensively dragging his feet through the dead leaves, home. Emotions are terrible things.
Aubrey Vair stood where she had kissed him, her mind as blank as his body, until her white dress faded from view. Then he let out an involuntary sigh, a deep, exhausting breath, and snapped back to reality, beginning to walk home, pensively dragging his feet through the fallen leaves. Emotions are harsh things.
“Do you like the potatoes, dear?” asked Mrs. 475Aubrey Vair at dinner. “I cooked them myself.”
“Do you like the potatoes, dear?” asked Mrs. 475Aubrey Vair at dinner. “I made them myself.”
Aubrey Vair descended slowly from cloudy, impalpable meditations to the level of fried potatoes. “These potatoes—” he remarked, after a pause during which he was struggling with recollection. “Yes. These potatoes have exactly the tints of the dead leaves of the hazel.”
Aubrey Vair slowly came back down from his abstract thoughts to the reality of fried potatoes. “These potatoes—” he said after a moment, as he tried to remember. “Yes. These potatoes have the exact colors of the dead leaves from the hazel tree.”
“What a fanciful poet it is!” said Mrs. Aubrey Vair. “Taste them. They are very nice potatoes indeed.”
“What a whimsical poet he is!” said Mrs. Aubrey Vair. “Try them. They’re really tasty potatoes.”
THE LORD OF THE DYNAMOS
The chief attendant of the three dynamos that buzzed and rattled at Camberwell, and kept the electric railway going, came out of Yorkshire, and his name was James Holroyd. He was a practical electrician, but fond of whiskey, a heavy red-haired brute with irregular teeth. He doubted the existence of the deity, but accepted Carnot’s cycle, and he had read Shakespeare and found him weak in chemistry. His helper came out of the mysterious East, and his name was Azuma-zi. But Holroyd called him Pooh-bah. Holroyd liked a nigger help because he would stand kicking—a habit with Holroyd—and did not pry into the machinery and try to learn the ways of it. Certain odd possibilities of the negro mind brought into abrupt contact with the crown of our civilisation Holroyd never fully realised, though just at the end he got some inkling of them.
The main operator of the three machines that buzzed and rattled at Camberwell, keeping the electric railway running, was from Yorkshire and was named James Holroyd. He was a practical electrician, but had a fondness for whiskey, a big red-haired guy with crooked teeth. He questioned the existence of God but accepted Carnot’s cycle, and he had read Shakespeare, finding him lacking in chemistry. His assistant was from the mysterious East, and his name was Azuma-zi. But Holroyd called him Pooh-bah. Holroyd preferred having a black helper because he would tolerate being kicked—a habit of Holroyd's—and didn’t meddle with the machinery or try to figure it out. Certain strange aspects of the black mind coming into direct contact with the peak of our civilization were something Holroyd never completely understood, though he started to grasp them towards the end.
To define Azuma-zi was beyond ethnology. He was, perhaps, more negroid than anything else, though his hair was curly rather than frizzy, and his nose had a bridge. Moreover, his skin was brown rather than black, and the whites of his eyes were yellow. His broad cheek-bones 477and narrow chin gave his face something of the viperine V. His head, too, was broad behind, and low and narrow at the forehead, as if his brain had been twisted round in the reverse way to a European’s. He was short of stature and still shorter of English. In conversation he made numerous odd noises of no known marketable value, and his infrequent words were carved and wrought into heraldic grotesqueness. Holroyd tried to elucidate his religious beliefs, and—especially after whiskey—lectured to him against superstition and missionaries. Azuma-zi, however, shirked the discussion of his gods, even though he was kicked for it.
Defining Azuma-zi was beyond the scope of ethnology. He was perhaps more of African descent than anything else, although his hair was curly rather than frizzy, and he had a pronounced nose. Additionally, his skin was brown rather than black, and the whites of his eyes had a yellow tint. His broad cheekbones and narrow chin gave his face a somewhat snake-like shape. His head was also broad at the back and low and narrow at the forehead, as if his brain had been twisted in the opposite direction of a European's. He was short in stature and even shorter in his grasp of English. In conversation, he made many odd sounds that had no known practical value, and his rare words were shaped into a bizarre form. Holroyd attempted to clarify his religious beliefs and—especially after drinking whiskey—lectured him against superstition and missionaries. Azuma-zi, however, avoided discussing his gods, even when pressured.
Azuma-zi had come, clad in white but insufficient raiment, out of the stoke-hole of the Lord Clive, from the Straits Settlements, and beyond, into London. He had heard even in his youth of the greatness and riches of London, where all the women are white and fair, and even the beggars in the streets are white; and he had arrived, with newly earned gold coins in his pocket, to worship at the shrine of civilisation. The day of his landing was a dismal one; the sky was dun, and a wind-worried drizzle filtered down to the greasy streets, but he plunged boldly into the delights of Shadwell, and was presently cast up, shattered in health, civilised in costume, penniless, and, except in matters of the direst necessity, practically a dumb animal, to toil for James 478Holroyd and to be bullied by him in the dynamo shed at Camberwell. And to James Holroyd bullying was a labour of love.
Azuma-zi had arrived, dressed in white but not enough clothing, coming from the stoke-hole of the Lord Clive, from the Straits Settlements and beyond, into London. Even as a child, he had heard about the greatness and wealth of London, where all the women are white and beautiful, and even the beggars on the streets are white; he had come, with freshly earned gold coins in his pocket, to pay homage to the shrine of civilization. The day he landed was gloomy; the sky was gray, and a drizzle blown by the wind fell onto the dirty streets, but he boldly dove into the excitement of Shadwell and soon found himself exhausted and unhealthy, dressed in fine clothes, broke, and, except in critical situations, practically mute, toiling for James 478 Holroyd and being bullied by him in the dynamo shed at Camberwell. For James Holroyd, bullying was a labor of love.
There were three dynamos with their engines at Camberwell. The two that have been there since the beginning are small machines; the larger one was new. The smaller machines made a reasonable noise; their straps hummed over the drums, every now and then the brushes buzzed and fizzled, and the air churned steadily, whoo! whoo! whoo! between their poles. One was loose in its foundations and kept the shed vibrating. But the big dynamo drowned these little noises altogether with the sustained drone of its iron core, which somehow set part of the iron-work humming. The place made the visitor’s head reel with the throb, throb, throb of the engines, the rotation of the big wheels, the spinning ball-valves, the occasional spittings of the steam, and over all the deep, unceasing, surging note of the big dynamo. This last noise was from an engineering point of view a defect; but Azuma-zi accounted it unto the monster for mightiness and pride.
There were three dynamos with their engines at Camberwell. The two that had been there since the start were small machines; the larger one was new. The smaller machines made a decent noise; their belts hummed over the drums, and every now and then the brushes buzzed and crackled, with the air steadily churning, whoo! whoo! whoo! between their poles. One was loose in its foundations and kept the shed vibrating. But the big dynamo completely drowned out these little noises with the constant drone of its iron core, which somehow made part of the ironwork hum. The place made the visitor’s head spin with the throb, throb, throb of the engines, the rotation of the big wheels, the spinning ball-valves, the occasional hissing of steam, and over all, the deep, unending, surging sound of the big dynamo. From an engineering perspective, this last noise was a defect; but Azuma-zi considered it a sign of strength and pride.
If it were possible we would have the noises of that shed always about the reader as he reads, we would tell all our story to such an accompaniment. It was a steady stream of din, from which the ear picked out first one thread and then another; there was the intermittent snorting, 479panting, and seething of the steam-engines, the suck and thud of their pistons, the dull beat on the air as the spokes of the great driving-wheels came round, a note the leather straps made as they ran tighter and looser, and a fretful tumult from the dynamos; and, over all, sometimes inaudible, as the ear tired of it, and then creeping back upon the senses again, was this trombone note of the big machine. The floor never felt steady and quiet beneath one’s feet, but quivered and jarred. It was a confusing, unsteady place, and enough to send any one’s thoughts jerking into odd zigzags. And for three months, while the big strike of the engineers was in progress, Holroyd, who was a blackleg, and Azuma-zi, who was a mere black, were never out of the stir and eddy of it, but slept and fed in the little wooden shanty between the shed and the gates.
If it were possible, we would have the sounds of that shed surrounding the reader as they read; we would tell our whole story with that backdrop. It was a constant noise, from which the ear picked out one sound after another; there was the sporadic snorting, panting, and hissing of the steam engines, the suck and thud of their pistons, the dull thump in the air as the big driving wheels turned, the note made by the leather straps as they tightened and loosened, and a restless clamor from the dynamos; and, sometimes barely noticeable, as the ear got tired of it, then coming back to the senses again, was the trombone note of the large machine. The floor never felt steady and quiet underfoot, but shook and rattled. It was a disorienting, unstable place, enough to send anyone’s thoughts zigzagging. For three months, while the major strike of the engineers was happening, Holroyd, who was a scab, and Azuma-zi, who was just a black, were constantly caught up in the turmoil, sleeping and eating in the little wooden shack between the shed and the gates.
Holroyd delivered a theological lecture on the text of his big machine soon after Azuma-zi came. He had to shout to be heard in the din. “Look at that,” said Holroyd; “where’s your ’eathen idol to match ’im?” And Azuma-zi looked. For a moment Holroyd was inaudible, and then Azuma-zi heard: “Kill a hundred men. Twelve per cent. on the ordinary shares,” said Holroyd, “and that’s something like a Gord!”
Holroyd gave a theological lecture about his big machine soon after Azuma-zi arrived. He had to shout to be heard over the noise. “Look at that,” said Holroyd; “where’s your heathen idol that can compare?” And Azuma-zi looked. For a moment, Holroyd was silent, and then Azuma-zi heard: “Kill a hundred men. Twelve percent on the regular shares,” said Holroyd, “and that’s something like a God!”
Holroyd was proud of his big dynamo, and expatiated upon its size and power to Azuma-zi until heaven knows what odd currents of thought 480that, and the incessant whirling and shindy, set up within the curly, black cranium. He would explain in the most graphic manner the dozen or so ways in which a man might be killed by it, and once he gave Azuma-zi a shock as a sample of its quality. After that, in the breathing-times of his labour—it was heavy labour, being not only his own but most of Holroyd’s—Azuma-zi would sit and watch the big machine. Now and then the brushes would sparkle and spit blue flashes, at which Holroyd would swear, but all the rest was as smooth and rhythmic as breathing. The band ran shouting over the shaft, and ever behind one as one watched was the complacent thud of the piston. So it lived all day in this big airy shed, with him and Holroyd to wait upon it; not prisoned up and slaving to drive a ship as the other engines he knew—mere captive devils of the British Solomon—had been, but a machine enthroned. Those two smaller dynamos, Azuma-zi by force of contrast despised; the large one he privately christened the Lord of the Dynamos. They were fretful and irregular, but the big dynamo was steady. How great it was! How serene and easy in its working! Greater and calmer even than the Buddahs he had seen at Rangoon, and yet not motionless, but living! The great black coils spun, spun, spun, the rings ran round under the brushes, and the deep note of its coil steadied the whole. It affected Azuma-zi queerly.
Holroyd took pride in his large dynamo and enthusiastically talked about its size and power to Azuma-zi until who knows what strange thoughts were swirling in his curly black head. He would explain in a vivid way the dozen or so ways a person could be killed by it, and once he even gave Azuma-zi a shock as a sample of its power. After that, during the breaks in his labor—which was tough since it was not only his work but most of Holroyd's work too—Azuma-zi would sit and watch the big machine. Every so often, the brushes would spark and spit blue flashes, which would make Holroyd curse, but everything else was smooth and rhythmic like breathing. The belt roared over the shaft, and in the background, you could hear the steady thud of the piston. So it operated all day in this big airy shed, with Holroyd and Azuma-zi attending to it—not trapped and struggling to power a ship like the other engines he knew—mere captive devils of the British Solomon—but a machine in its rightful place. Azuma-zi looked down on the two smaller dynamos by comparison; he secretly named the large one the Lord of the Dynamos. They were fussy and inconsistent, but the big dynamo was reliable. How impressive it was! How calm and effortless in its operation! Even greater and more peaceful than the Buddhas he had seen in Rangoon, and yet it was not still, but full of life! The great black coils spun, spun, spun, the rings whirled under the brushes, and the deep note of its coil kept everything steady. It affected Azuma-zi in a strange way.
481Azuma-zi was not fond of labour. He would sit about and watch the Lord of the Dynamos while Holroyd went away to persuade the yard porter to get whiskey, although his proper place was not in the dynamo shed but behind the engines, and, moreover, if Holroyd caught him skulking he got hit for it with a rod of stout copper wire. He would go and stand close to the colossus and look up at the great leather band running overhead. There was a black patch on the band that came round, and it pleased him somehow among all the clatter to watch this return again and again. Odd thoughts spun with the whirl of it. Scientific people tell us that savages give souls to rocks and trees—and a machine is a thousand times more alive than a rock or a tree. And Azuma-zi was practically a savage still; the veneer of civilisation lay no deeper than his slop suit, his bruises and the coal grime on his face and hands. His father before him had worshipped a meteoric stone, kindred blood, it may be, had splashed the broad wheels of Juggernaut.
481Azuma-zi didn’t like to work. He would just sit around and watch the Lord of the Dynamos while Holroyd went off to persuade the yard porter to get whiskey, even though he wasn’t supposed to be in the dynamo shed, but behind the engines. Plus, if Holroyd caught him slacking off, he would get hit with a thick copper wire. He’d stand close to the giant machine and look up at the big leather band running above. There was a dark spot on the band that came around, and somehow, he found it satisfying to see it return over and over amid all the noise. Strange thoughts spun in his mind with the motion. Scientists say that primitive people give souls to rocks and trees—and a machine is a thousand times more alive than a rock or a tree. And Azuma-zi was still pretty much a savage; the thin layer of civilization was only as deep as his work clothes, his bruises, and the coal dust on his face and hands. His father had worshipped a meteorite, and maybe some of that same blood had once splashed across the giant wheels of Juggernaut.
He took every opportunity Holroyd gave him of touching and handling the great dynamo that was fascinating him. He polished and cleaned it until the metal parts were blinding in the sun. He felt a mysterious sense of service in doing this. He would go up to it and touch its spinning coils gently. The gods he had worshipped were all far away. The people in London hid their gods.
He seized every chance Holroyd offered him to touch and handle the incredible dynamo that captivated him. He polished and cleaned it until the metal parts gleamed in the sunlight. He experienced a strange sense of purpose in doing this. He would approach it and gently touch its spinning coils. The gods he had once revered were all distant now. The people in London kept their gods hidden.
At last his dim feelings grew more distinct, and 482took shape in thoughts and acts. When he came into the roaring shed one morning he salaamed to the Lord of the Dynamos; and then, when Holroyd was away, he went and whispered to the thundering machine that he was its servant, and prayed it to have pity on him and save him from Holroyd. As he did so a rare gleam of light came in through the open archway of the throbbing machine-shed, and the Lord of the Dynamos, as he whirled and roared, was radiant with pale gold. Then Azuma-zi knew that his service was acceptable to his Lord. After that he did not feel so lonely as he had done, and he had indeed been very much alone in London. And even when his work time was over, which was rare, he loitered about the shed.
At last, his vague feelings became clearer and took the form of thoughts and actions. One morning, when he walked into the noisy shed, he bowed to the Lord of the Dynamos. Then, when Holroyd was away, he went and whispered to the roaring machine that he was its servant and prayed for it to have mercy on him and save him from Holroyd. As he did this, a rare beam of light streamed in through the open archway of the pulsating machine shed, and the Lord of the Dynamos, as it spun and roared, shone with a pale golden light. In that moment, Azuma-zi realized that his service was accepted by his Lord. After that, he didn’t feel as lonely as he had before, and he had truly felt very alone in London. Even when his work time was over, which was unusual, he hung around the shed.
Then, the next time Holroyd maltreated him, Azuma-zi went presently to the Lord of the Dynamos and whispered, “Thou seest, O my Lord!” and the angry whirr of the machinery seemed to answer him. Thereafter it appeared to him that whenever Holroyd came into the shed a different note came into the sounds of the great dynamo. “My Lord bides his time,” said Azuma-zi to himself. “The iniquity of the fool is not yet ripe.” And he waited and watched for the day of reckoning. One day there was evidence of short circuiting, and Holroyd, making an unwary examination—it was in the afternoon—got a rather severe shock. Azuma-zi from behind the engine saw him jump off and curse at the peccant coil.
Then, the next time Holroyd mistreated him, Azuma-zi went straight to the Lord of the Dynamos and whispered, “You see this, my Lord!” and the angry whirring of the machinery seemed to respond. After that, it felt to him that whenever Holroyd entered the shed, a different tone emerged from the sounds of the massive dynamo. “My Lord is waiting for the right moment,” Azuma-zi said to himself. “The fool's wrongdoing isn't quite ready for payback.” And he waited and watched for the day of reckoning. One day, there was evidence of a short circuit, and Holroyd, casually inspecting it—it was in the afternoon—received a pretty severe shock. Azuma-zi, hiding behind the engine, saw him jump back and curse at the faulty coil.
483“He is warned,” said Azuma-zi to himself. “Surely my Lord is very patient.”
483 “He’s been warned,” Azuma-zi thought to himself. “My Lord is really patient.”
Holroyd had at first initiated his “nigger” into such elementary conceptions of the dynamo’s working as would enable him to take temporary charge of the shed in his absence. But when he noticed the manner in which Azuma-zi hung about the monster, he became suspicious. He dimly perceived his assistant was “up to something,” and connecting him with the anointing of the coils with oil that had rotted the varnish in one place, he issued an edict, shouted above the confusion of the machinery, “Don’t ’ee go nigh that big dynamo any more, Pooh-bah, or a ’ll take thy skin off!” Besides, if it pleased Azuma-zi to be near the big machine, it was plain sense and decency to keep him away from it.
Holroyd had initially taught his assistant some basic concepts about how the dynamo worked so he could temporarily oversee the shed when he was away. However, when he noticed how Azuma-zi lingered around the machine, he became wary. He sensed that his assistant was “up to something,” and linking him to the oily treatment of the coils that had damaged the varnish in one spot, he shouted over the noise of the machinery, “Don’t get too close to that big dynamo anymore, Pooh-bah, or I’ll take your skin off!” Furthermore, if Azuma-zi liked being near the large machine, it made sense and was proper to keep him away from it.
Azuma-zi obeyed at the time, but later he was caught bowing before the Lord of the Dynamos. At which Holroyd twisted his arm and kicked him as he turned to go away. As Azuma-zi presently stood behind the engine and glared at the back of the hated Holroyd, the noises of the machinery took a new rhythm, and sounded like four words in his native tongue.
Azuma-zi went along with it at the time, but later he was caught bowing to the Lord of the Dynamos. At that point, Holroyd twisted his arm and kicked him as he turned to walk away. As Azuma-zi stood behind the engine, staring at the back of the despised Holroyd, the sounds of the machinery took on a new rhythm and sounded like four words in his native language.
It is hard to say exactly what madness is. I fancy Azuma-zi was mad. The incessant din and whirl of the dynamo shed may have churned up his little store of knowledge and big store of superstitious fancy, at last, into something akin to frenzy. 484At any rate, when the idea of making Holroyd a sacrifice to the Dynamo Fetich was thus suggested to him, it filled him with a strange tumult of exultant emotion.
It's difficult to define what madness really is. I think Azuma-zi was mad. The constant noise and activity in the dynamo shed may have stirred up his limited knowledge and large collection of superstitions into something close to frenzy. 484 Regardless, when the idea of making Holroyd a sacrifice to the Dynamo Fetich was suggested to him, it overwhelmed him with a strange mix of exhilarating emotions.
That night the two men and their black shadows were alone in the shed together. The shed was lit with one big arc light that winked and flickered purple. The shadows lay black behind the dynamos, the ball governors of the engines whirled from light to darkness, and their pistons beat loud and steady. The world outside seen through the open end of the shed seemed incredibly dim and remote. It seemed absolutely silent, too, since the riot of the machinery drowned every external sound. Far away was the black fence of the yard with grey, shadowy houses behind, and above was the deep blue sky and the pale little stars. Azuma-zi suddenly walked across the centre of the shed above which the leather bands were running, and went into the shadow by the big dynamo. Holroyd heard a click, and the spin of the armature changed.
That night, the two men and their dark shadows were alone in the shed. The shed was illuminated by one big arc light that blinked and flickered purple. The shadows stretched dark behind the dynamos, the ball governors of the engines spinning from light to darkness, while their pistons thudded loudly and steadily. The world outside, seen through the open end of the shed, felt incredibly dim and distant. It seemed completely silent, too, as the roar of the machinery drowned out any outside noise. Far away was the black fence of the yard, with gray, shadowy houses behind it, and above was the deep blue sky filled with tiny pale stars. Azuma-zi suddenly walked across the center of the shed where the leather bands were running and stepped into the shadow by the large dynamo. Holroyd heard a click, and the spin of the armature changed.
“What are you dewin’ with that switch?” he bawled in surprise. “Ha’n’t I told you—”
“What are you doing with that switch?” he yelled in surprise. “Haven’t I told you—”
Then he saw the set expression of Azuma-zi’s eyes as the Asiatic came out of the shadow towards him.
Then he noticed the fixed expression in Azuma-zi’s eyes as the Asian stepped out of the shadow toward him.
In another moment the two men were grappling fiercely in front of the great dynamo.
In a moment, the two men were wrestling intensely in front of the huge dynamo.
“You coffee-headed fool!” gasped Holroyd, 485with a brown hand at his throat. “Keep off those contact rings.” In another moment he was tripped and reeling back upon the Lord of the Dynamos. He instinctively loosened his grip upon his antagonist to save himself from the machine.
“You coffee-headed idiot!” gasped Holroyd, 485with a tanned hand at his throat. “Stay away from those contact rings.” In a moment, he was tripped and stumbled back toward the Lord of the Dynamos. He instinctively relaxed his grip on his opponent to avoid being pulled into the machine.
The messenger, sent in furious haste from the station to find out what had happened in the dynamo shed, met Azuma-zi at the porter’s lodge by the gate. Azuma-zi tried to explain something, but the messenger could make nothing of the black’s incoherent English, and hurried on to the shed. The machines were all noisily at work, and nothing seemed to be disarranged. There was, however, a queer smell of singed hair. Then he saw an odd-looking, crumpled mass clinging to the front of the big dynamo, and, approaching, recognised the distorted remains of Holroyd.
The messenger, sent in a rush from the station to find out what had happened in the dynamo shed, ran into Azuma-zi at the porter’s lodge by the gate. Azuma-zi tried to explain something, but the messenger couldn't understand his jumbled English, so he hurried on to the shed. The machines were all running loudly, and everything seemed to be in order. However, there was a strange smell of burnt hair. Then he noticed a weird, crumpled mass stuck to the front of the big dynamo, and as he got closer, he recognized the twisted remains of Holroyd.
The man stared and hesitated a moment. Then he saw the face and shut his eyes convulsively. He turned on his heel before he opened them, so that he should not see Holroyd again, and went out of the shed to get advice and help.
The man stared and paused for a moment. Then he saw the face and squeezed his eyes shut. He turned on his heel before opening them, so he wouldn't have to see Holroyd again, and stepped out of the shed to seek advice and assistance.
When Azuma-zi saw Holroyd die in the grip of the Great Dynamo he had been a little scared about the consequences of his act. Yet he felt strangely elated, and knew that the favour of the Lord Dynamo was upon him. His plan was already settled when he met the man coming from the station, and the scientific manager who speedily 486arrived on the scene jumped at the obvious conclusion of suicide. This expert scarcely noticed Azuma-zi except to ask a few questions. Did he see Holroyd kill himself? Azuma-zi explained he had been out of sight at the engine furnace until he heard a difference in the noise from the dynamo. It was not a difficult examination, being untinctured by suspicion.
When Azuma-zi saw Holroyd die in the grip of the Great Dynamo, he felt a bit scared about the consequences of his actions. Still, he felt strangely uplifted and knew that the favor of the Lord Dynamo was on him. His plan was already in place when he met the man coming from the station, and the scientific manager who quickly arrived on the scene jumped to the obvious conclusion of suicide. This expert hardly noticed Azuma-zi except to ask a few questions. Did he see Holroyd kill himself? Azuma-zi explained that he had been out of sight at the engine furnace until he heard a change in the noise from the dynamo. It was an easy examination, free from suspicion.
The distorted remains of Holroyd, which the electrician removed from the machine, were hastily covered by the porter with a coffee-stained table-cloth. Somebody, by a happy inspiration, fetched a medical man. The expert was chiefly anxious to get the machine at work again, for seven or eight trains had stopped midway in the stuffy tunnels of the electric railway. Azuma-zi, answering or misunderstanding the questions of the people who had by authority or impudence come into the shed, was presently sent back to the stoke-hole by the scientific manager. Of course a crowd collected outside the gates of the yard,—a crowd, for no known reason, always hovers for a day or two near the scene of a sudden death in London; two or three reporters percolated somehow into the engine-shed, and one even got to Azuma-zi; but the scientific expert cleared them out again, being himself an amateur journalist.
The damaged remains of Holroyd, which the electrician pulled from the machine, were quickly covered by the porter with a coffee-stained tablecloth. Someone, in a moment of inspiration, called for a doctor. The expert was mostly concerned about getting the machine running again since seven or eight trains had become stuck in the cramped tunnels of the electric railway. Azuma-zi, trying to respond to or misunderstand the questions from the people who had come into the shed either by authority or boldness, was soon sent back to the stoke-hole by the scientific manager. Naturally, a crowd gathered outside the yard's gates—people for some reason always linger near the site of a sudden death in London for a day or two; two or three reporters somehow managed to slip into the engine shed, and one even reached Azuma-zi; but the scientific expert kicked them out again, being an amateur journalist himself.
Presently the body was carried away, and public interest departed with it. Azuma-zi remained very quietly at his furnace, seeing over and over again 487in the coals a figure that wriggled violently and became still. An hour after the murder, to any one coming into the shed it would have looked exactly as if nothing remarkable had ever happened there. Peeping presently from his engine-room the black saw the Lord Dynamo spin and whirl beside his little brothers, the driving wheels were beating round, and the steam in the pistons went thud, thud, exactly as it had been earlier in the evening. After all, from the mechanical point of view, it had been a most insignificant incident—the mere temporary deflection of a current. But now the slender form and slender shadow of the scientific manager replaced the sturdy outline of Holroyd travelling up and down the lane of light upon the vibrating floor under the straps between the engines and the dynamos.
Right now, the body was taken away, and public interest faded with it. Azuma-zi stayed quietly at his furnace, repeatedly seeing in the coals a figure that thrashed violently and then went still. An hour after the murder, anyone walking into the shed would think nothing unusual had ever happened there. When he peeked out from his engine room, the black saw Lord Dynamo spinning and whirling next to his smaller brothers, the driving wheels turning, and the steam in the pistons going thud, thud, just like it had earlier in the evening. From a mechanical perspective, it had been a really minor event—the simple temporary disruption of a current. But now, the delicate form and shadow of the scientific manager replaced the strong figure of Holroyd moving up and down the beam of light on the vibrating floor between the engines and the dynamos.
“Have I not served my Lord?” said Azuma-zi, inaudibly, from his shadow, and the note of the great dynamo rang out full and clear. As he looked at the big, whirling mechanism the strange fascination of it that had been a little in abeyance since Holroyd’s death resumed its sway.
“Have I not served my Lord?” said Azuma-zi, silently, from his shadow, and the sound of the big dynamo echoed loud and clear. As he gazed at the massive, spinning machine, the strange fascination that had slightly faded since Holroyd’s death returned in full force.
Never had Azuma-zi seen a man killed so swiftly and pitilessly. The big, humming machine had slain its victim without wavering for a second from its steady beating. It was indeed a mighty god.
Never had Azuma-zi seen a man killed so quickly and mercilessly. The large, humming machine had taken its victim without pausing for even a moment in its steady rhythm. It was truly a powerful deity.
The unconscious scientific manager stood with his back to him, scribbling on a piece of paper. His shadow lay at the foot of the monster.
The unaware scientific manager stood with his back to him, hastily writing on a piece of paper. His shadow rested at the base of the monster.
488“Was the Lord Dynamo still hungry? His servant was ready.”
488“Was Lord Dynamo still hungry? His servant was prepared.”
Azuma-zi made a stealthy step forward, then stopped. The scientific manager suddenly stopped writing, and walked down the shed to the endmost of the dynamos, and began to examine the brushes.
Azuma-zi took a quiet step forward, then paused. The scientific manager suddenly stopped writing, walked down the shed to the farthest dynamo, and started checking the brushes.
Azuma-zi hesitated, and then slipped across noiselessly into the shadow by the switch. There he waited. Presently the manager’s footsteps could be heard returning. He stopped in his old position, unconscious of the stoker crouching ten feet away from him. Then the big dynamo suddenly fizzled, and in another moment Azuma-zi had sprung out of the darkness upon him.
Azuma-zi hesitated and then quietly moved into the shadows by the switch. There he waited. Soon, he could hear the manager’s footsteps returning. He stopped in his usual spot, unaware that the stoker was crouched ten feet away. Then the big dynamo suddenly fizzled, and moments later, Azuma-zi leaped out of the darkness at him.
First, the scientific manager was gripped round the body and swung towards the big dynamo, then, kicking with his knee and forcing his antagonist’s head down with his hands, he loosened the grip on his waist and swung round away from the machine. Then the black grasped him again, putting a curly head against his chest, and they swayed and panted as it seemed for an age or so. Then the scientific manager was impelled to catch a black ear in his teeth and bite furiously. The black yelled hideously.
First, the scientific manager was grabbed around the waist and pulled toward the large dynamo. Then, using his knee to kick and pushing his opponent's head down with his hands, he broke the hold around his waist and turned away from the machine. Just then, the attacker grabbed him again, pressing a curly head against his chest, and they swayed and breathed heavily as if for ages. Then the scientific manager felt compelled to bite down on a black ear and bit down hard. The attacker screamed in agony.
They rolled over on the floor, and the black, who had apparently slipped from the vice of the teeth or parted with some ear—the scientific manager wondered which at the time—tried to 489throttle him. The scientific manager was making some ineffectual efforts to claw something with his hands and to kick, when the welcome sound of quick footsteps sounded on the floor. The next moment Azuma-zi had left him and darted towards the big dynamo. There was a splutter amid the roar.
They tumbled on the floor, and the black guy, who had apparently slipped out of the grip of the teeth or lost an ear—the scientific manager was trying to figure that out at the moment—attempted to choke him. The scientific manager was making some useless attempts to grab something with his hands and kick, when the welcome sound of quick footsteps echoed on the floor. The next moment, Azuma-zi had left him and dashed towards the big dynamo. There was a splash amidst the noise.
The officer of the company, who had entered, stood staring as Azuma-zi caught the naked terminals in his hands, gave one horrible convulsion, and then hung motionless from the machine, his face violently distorted.
The company officer who had entered stood there staring as Azuma-zi grabbed the exposed terminals in his hands, convulsed horrifically, and then hung still from the machine, his face twisted in agony.
“I’m jolly glad you came in when you did,” said the scientific manager, still sitting on the floor.
“I’m really glad you came in when you did,” said the scientific manager, still sitting on the floor.
He looked at the still quivering figure. “It is not a nice death to die, apparently—but it is quick.”
He glanced at the still trembling figure. “It’s not a nice way to die, it seems—but it’s fast.”
The official was still staring at the body. He was a man of slow apprehension.
The official was still staring at the body. He was a man who took his time to understand things.
There was a pause.
There was a break.
The scientific manager got up on his feet rather awkwardly. He ran his fingers along his collar thoughtfully, and moved his head to and fro several times.
The scientific manager stood up a bit awkwardly. He thoughtfully ran his fingers along his collar and moved his head back and forth several times.
“Poor Holroyd! I see now.” Then almost mechanically he went towards the switch in the shadow and turned the current into the railway circuit again. As he did so the singed body loosened its grip upon the machine and fell forward 490on its face. The cone of the dynamo roared out loud and clear, and the armature beat the air.
“Poor Holroyd! I get it now.” Then almost robotically, he walked over to the switch in the shadows and turned the power back on for the railway circuit. As he did this, the charred body released its hold on the machine and collapsed face down. The dynamo's cone roared loudly and the armature thrashed through the air. 490
So ended prematurely the Worship of the Dynamo Deity, perhaps the most short-lived of all religions. Yet withal it could boast a Martyrdom and a Human Sacrifice.
So ended prematurely the worship of the Dynamo Deity, possibly the shortest-lived of all religions. Yet, despite this, it could claim a martyrdom and a human sacrifice.
THE TREASURE IN THE FOREST
The canoe was now approaching the land. The bay opened out, and a gap in the white surf of the reef marked where the little river ran out to the sea; the thicker and deeper green of the virgin forest showed its course down the distant hill-slope. The forest here came close to the beach. Far beyond, dim and almost cloudlike in texture, rose the mountains, like suddenly frozen waves. The sea was still save for an almost imperceptible swell. The sky blazed.
The canoe was now getting closer to the land. The bay widened, and a break in the white surf of the reef indicated where the small river flowed out to the sea; the darker, deeper green of the untouched forest revealed its path down the distant hillside. The forest here reached right up to the beach. Far in the distance, vague and almost cloud-like in appearance, the mountains rose like waves that had suddenly frozen. The sea was calm except for a barely noticeable swell. The sky was bright.
The man with the carved paddle stopped. “It should be somewhere here,” he said. He shipped the paddle and held his arms out straight before him.
The man with the carved paddle stopped. “It should be around here somewhere,” he said. He put the paddle away and held his arms out straight in front of him.
The other man had been in the fore part of the canoe, closely scrutinising the land. He had a sheet of yellow paper on his knee.
The other man was in the front of the canoe, closely examining the land. He had a sheet of yellow paper on his lap.
“Come and look at this, Evans,” he said.
“Come and check this out, Evans,” he said.
Both men spoke in low tones, and their lips were hard and dry.
Both men spoke in quiet voices, and their lips were stiff and parched.
The man called Evans came swaying along the canoe until he could look over his companion’s shoulder.
The guy named Evans came swaying along the canoe until he could look over his friend's shoulder.
492The paper had the appearance of a rough map. By much folding it was creased and worn to the pitch of separation, and the second man held the discoloured fragments together where they had parted. On it one could dimly make out, in almost obliterated pencil, the outline of the bay.
492The paper looked like a worn-out map. It was so creased and tattered from folding that it was nearly falling apart, and the second man held the faded pieces together where they had split. You could barely see the outline of the bay sketched in almost faded pencil on it.
“Here,” said Evans, “is the reef and here is the gap.” He ran his thumb-nail over the chart.
“Here,” said Evans, “is the reef and here is the gap.” He ran his thumbnail over the chart.
“This curved and twisting line is the river—I could do with a drink now!—and this star is the place.”
“This winding line is the river—I could really use a drink right now!—and this star marks the spot.”
“You see this dotted line,” said the man with the map; “it is a straight line, and runs from the opening of the reef to a clump of palm-trees. The star comes just where it cuts the river. We must mark the place as we go into the lagoon.”
“You see this dotted line,” said the man with the map; “it's a straight line that goes from the opening of the reef to a group of palm trees. The star is right where it crosses the river. We need to mark the spot as we enter the lagoon.”
“It’s queer,” said Evans, after a pause, “what these little marks down here are for. It looks like the plan of a house or something; but what all these little dashes, pointing this way and that, may mean I can’t get a notion. And what’s the writing?”
“It’s strange,” said Evans, after a pause, “what these little marks down here are for. It looks like a blueprint for a house or something, but I can’t figure out what all these little dashes, pointing this way and that, might mean. And what’s up with the writing?”
“Chinese,” said the man with the map.
“Chinese,” said the guy with the map.
“Of course! He was a Chinee,” said Evans.
"Of course! He was Chinese," said Evans.
“They all were,” said the man with the map.
“They all were,” said the guy with the map.
They both sat for some minutes staring at the land, while the canoe drifted slowly. Then Evans looked towards the paddle.
They both sat for a few minutes, staring at the land while the canoe drifted slowly. Then Evans glanced at the paddle.
“Your turn with the paddle now, Hooker,” said he.
“It's your turn with the paddle now, Hooker,” he said.
493And his companion quietly folded up his map, put it in his pocket, passed Evans carefully, and began to paddle. His movements were languid, like those of a man whose strength was nearly exhausted.
493His companion quietly folded up his map, put it in his pocket, walked past Evans carefully, and started to paddle. His movements were slow, like someone whose energy was almost gone.
Evans sat with his eyes half closed, watching the frothy breakwater of the coral creep nearer and nearer. The sky was like a furnace now, for the sun was near the zenith. Though they were so near the Treasure he did not feel the exaltation he had anticipated. The intense excitement of the struggle for the plan, and the long night voyage from the mainland in the unprovisioned canoe had, to use his own expression, “taken it out of him.” He tried to arouse himself by directing his mind to the ingots the Chinamen had spoken of, but it would not rest there; it came back headlong to the thought of sweet water rippling in the river, and to the almost unendurable dryness of his lips and throat. The rhythmic wash of the sea upon the reef was becoming audible now, and it had a pleasant sound in his ears; the water washed along the side of the canoe, and the paddle dripped between each stroke. Presently he began to doze.
Evans sat with his eyes half-closed, watching the frothy coral breakwater come closer and closer. The sky felt like a furnace now, with the sun nearing its highest point. Even though they were so close to the treasure, he didn’t feel the excitement he had expected. The intense thrill of working on the plan and the long night journey from the mainland in the unstocked canoe had, as he put it, “taken it out of him.” He tried to wake himself up by focusing on the ingots the Chinese had mentioned, but his mind kept drifting back to the thought of fresh water flowing in the river and the almost unbearable dryness of his lips and throat. The rhythmic sound of the sea washing against the reef was becoming noticeable now, and it had a pleasant sound to him; the water lapped against the side of the canoe, and the paddle dripped with each stroke. Soon, he started to doze off.
He was still dimly conscious of the island, but a queer dream texture interwove with his sensations. Once again it was the night when he and Hooker had hit upon the Chinamen’s secret; he saw the moonlit trees, the little fire burning, and 494the black figures of the three Chinamen—silvered on one side by moonlight, and on the other glowing from the firelight—and heard them talking together in pigeon-English—for they came from different provinces. Hooker had caught the drift of their talk first, and had motioned to him to listen. Fragments of the conversation were inaudible and fragments incomprehensible. A Spanish galleon from the Philippines hopelessly aground, and its treasure buried against the day of return, lay in the background of the story; a shipwrecked crew thinned by disease, a quarrel or so, and the needs of discipline, and at last taking to their boats never to be heard of again. Then Chang-hi, only a year since, wandering ashore, had happened upon the ingots hidden for two hundred years, had deserted his junk, and reburied them with infinite toil, single-handed but very safe. He laid great stress on the safety—it was a secret of his. Now he wanted help to return and exhume them. Presently the little map fluttered and the voices sank. A fine story for two stranded British wastrels to hear! Evans’ dream shifted to the moment when he had Chang-hi’s pigtail in his hand. The life of a Chinaman is scarcely sacred like a European’s. The cunning little face of Chang-hi, first keen and furious like a startled snake, and then fearful, treacherous, and pitiful, became overwhelmingly prominent in the dream. At the end Chang-hi had grinned, a most incomprehensible and startling 495grin. Abruptly things became very unpleasant, as they will do at times in dreams. Chang-hi gibbered and threatened him. He saw in his dream heaps and heaps of gold, and Chang-hi intervening and struggling to hold him back from it. He took Chang-hi by the pigtail—how big the yellow brute was, and how he struggled and grinned! He kept growing bigger, too. Then the bright heaps of gold turned to a roaring furnace, and a vast devil, surprisingly like Chang-hi, but with a huge black tail, began to feed him with coals. They burnt his mouth horribly. Another devil was shouting his name: “Evans, Evans, you sleepy fool!”—or was it Hooker?
He was still vaguely aware of the island, but a strange dreamlike quality mixed with his feelings. It was once again the night he and Hooker discovered the Chinamen’s secret; he saw the moonlit trees, the small fire burning, and the black silhouettes of the three Chinamen—illuminated on one side by moonlight and glowing from the firelight—and he heard them talking in broken English, as they came from different provinces. Hooker had picked up on their conversation first and gestured for him to listen. Pieces of the conversation were unclear and other parts were confusing. A Spanish galleon from the Philippines was hopelessly stranded, and its treasure was buried for the day of return, forming the backdrop of the story; a shipwrecked crew weakened by disease, a few arguments, the need for discipline, and eventually taking to their boats never to be heard from again. Then, only a year prior, Chang-hi had wandered ashore, stumbled upon the ingots hidden for two hundred years, deserted his junk, and reburied them after a tremendous effort, all by himself but very safely. He emphasized the safety—it was his secret. Now he wanted help to go back and dig them up. Soon the small map fluttered, and the voices faded. What a great story for two stranded British outcasts to listen to! Evans’ dream shifted to the moment when he held Chang-hi’s pigtail. The life of a Chinaman isn’t valued like a European’s. The cunning little face of Chang-hi, first sharp and furious like a startled snake, then fearful, deceitful, and pitiful, became overwhelmingly prominent in the dream. In the end, Chang-hi had grinned, a most confusing and startling grin. Suddenly things became very unpleasant, as they do in dreams. Chang-hi chattered and threatened him. In his dream, he saw piles and piles of gold, with Chang-hi intervening and struggling to keep him away from it. He grabbed Chang-hi by the pigtail—how huge the yellow brute was, and how he struggled and grinned! He kept growing bigger too. Then the bright piles of gold turned into a roaring furnace, and a giant devil, surprisingly similar to Chang-hi but with a massive black tail, started forcing coal into his mouth. They burnt his mouth horribly. Another devil was shouting his name: “Evans, Evans, you sleepy fool!”—or was it Hooker?
He woke up. They were in the mouth of the lagoon.
He woke up. They were at the entrance of the lagoon.
“There are the three palm-trees. It must be in a line with that clump of bushes,” said his companion. “Mark that. If we go to those bushes and then strike into the bush in a straight line from here, we shall come to it when we come to the stream.”
“There are the three palm trees. It has to be in line with that group of bushes,” said his companion. “Remember that. If we head to those bushes and then cut through the underbrush in a straight line from here, we’ll reach it when we get to the stream.”
They could see now where the mouth of the stream opened out. At the sight of it Evans revived. “Hurry up, man,” he said, “or, by heaven, I shall have to drink sea-water!” He gnawed his hand and stared at the gleam of silver among the rocks and green tangle.
They could now see where the stream flowed out. At the sight of it, Evans perked up. “Come on, man,” he said, “or, seriously, I’ll have to drink sea water!” He bit his hand and stared at the glint of silver among the rocks and green mess.
Presently he turned almost fiercely upon Hooker. “Give me the paddle,” he said.
Presently, he turned almost fiercely toward Hooker. “Give me the paddle,” he said.
496So they reached the river mouth. A little way up Hooker took some water in the hollow of his hand, tasted it, and spat it out. A little further he tried again. “This will do,” he said, and they began drinking eagerly.
496So they arrived at the river's mouth. A short distance in, Hooker scooped some water in his hand, tasted it, and spit it out. A bit further, he tried again. “This is good,” he said, and they began drinking eagerly.
“Curse this!” said Evans, suddenly. “It’s too slow.” And, leaning dangerously over the fore part of the canoe, he began to suck up the water with his lips.
“Damn this!” said Evans, suddenly. “It’s too slow.” And, leaning dangerously over the front of the canoe, he started to sip the water with his lips.
Presently they made an end of drinking, and, running the canoe into a little creek, were about to land among the thick growth that overhung the water.
Presently, they finished drinking and, steering the canoe into a small creek, were about to land among the dense vegetation that hung over the water.
“We shall have to scramble through this to the beach to find our bushes and get the line to the place,” said Evans.
“We’ll have to work our way through this to the beach to find our bushes and get the line to the spot,” said Evans.
“We had better paddle round,” said Hooker.
“We should paddle around,” said Hooker.
So they pushed out again into the river and paddled back down it to the sea, and along the shore to the place where the clump of bushes grew. Here they landed, pulled the light canoe far up the beach, and then went up towards the edge of the jungle until they could see the opening of the reef and the bushes in a straight line. Evans had taken a native implement out of the canoe. It was L-shaped, and the transverse piece was armed with polished stone. Hooker carried the paddle. “It is straight now in this direction,” said he; “we must push through this till we strike the stream. Then we must prospect.”
So they rowed out again into the river, paddled back down to the sea, and along the shore to where the cluster of bushes was. They landed, pulled the light canoe far up the beach, and then headed towards the edge of the jungle until they could see the opening of the reef and the bushes lined up straight. Evans had taken a native tool out of the canoe. It was shaped like an L, with the cross part fitted with polished stone. Hooker carried the paddle. "It's straight this way now," he said; "we need to push through this until we hit the stream. Then we can explore."
497They pushed through a close tangle of reeds, broad fronds, and young trees, and at first it was toilsome going; but very speedily the trees became larger and the ground beneath them opened out. The blaze of the sunlight was replaced by insensible degrees by cool shadow. The trees became at last vast pillars that rose up to a canopy of greenery far overhead. Dim white flowers hung from their stems, and ropy creepers swung from tree to tree. The shadow deepened. On the ground, blotched fungi and a red-brown incrustation became frequent.
497They pushed through a dense cluster of reeds, wide leaves, and young trees, and at first it was hard work; but soon the trees grew larger and the ground beneath them opened up. The bright sunlight was gradually replaced by cool shade. The trees eventually became massive pillars reaching up to a canopy of greenery far above. Pale white flowers hung from their stems, and thick vines swung from tree to tree. The shade deepened. On the ground, spotted fungi and a reddish-brown coating became more common.
Evans shivered. “It seems almost cold here after the blaze outside.”
Evans shivered. “It feels almost cold in here after the heat outside.”
“I hope we are keeping to the straight,” said Hooker.
“I hope we’re staying on course,” said Hooker.
Presently they saw, far ahead, a gap in the sombre darkness where white shafts of hot sunlight smote into the forest. There also was brilliant green undergrowth, and coloured flowers. Then they heard the rush of water.
Presently, they saw, far ahead, a break in the darkness where bright beams of hot sunlight shone into the forest. There was also vibrant green underbrush and colorful flowers. Then they heard the sound of rushing water.
“Here is the river. We should be close to it now,” said Hooker.
“Here’s the river. We should be near it now,” said Hooker.
The vegetation was thick by the river bank. Great plants, as yet unnamed, grew among the roots of the big trees, and spread rosettes of huge green fans towards the strip of sky. Many flowers and a creeper with shiny foliage clung to the exposed stems. On the water of the broad, quiet pool which the treasure-seekers now overlooked 498there floated big, oval leaves and a waxen, pinkish-white flower not unlike a water-lily. Further, as the river bent away from them, the water suddenly frothed and became noisy in a rapid.
The plants were dense along the riverbank. Large, unnamed plants grew among the roots of the tall trees, spreading large green fan-like leaves toward the open sky. Many flowers and a vine with shiny leaves clung to the exposed stems. On the surface of the wide, calm pool that the treasure-seekers were now overlooking 498, large oval leaves floated alongside a waxy, pinkish-white flower that resembled a water lily. Further along, as the river curved away from them, the water suddenly churned and became loud in a rapid.
“Well?” said Evans.
"Well?" Evans asked.
“We have swerved a little from the straight,” said Hooker. “That was to be expected.”
“We’ve strayed a bit from the path,” said Hooker. “That was to be expected.”
He turned and looked into the dim, cool shadows of the silent forest behind them. “If we beat a little way up and down the stream we should come to something.”
He turned and looked into the dim, cool shadows of the quiet forest behind them. “If we head a little up and down the stream, we should find something.”
“You said—” began Evans.
“You said—” Evans started.
“He said there was a heap of stones,” said Hooker.
“He said there was a pile of rocks,” said Hooker.
The two men looked at each other for a moment.
The two men stared at each other for a moment.
“Let us try a little down-stream first,” said Evans.
“Let’s try a little downstream first,” said Evans.
They advanced slowly, looking curiously about them. Suddenly Evans stopped. “What the devil’s that?” he said.
They moved forward slowly, glancing around with curiosity. Suddenly, Evans stopped. “What the hell is that?” he said.
Hooker followed his finger. “Something blue,” he said. It had come into view as they topped a gentle swell of the ground. Then he began to distinguish what it was.
Hooker followed his finger. “Something blue,” he said. It appeared as they crested a gentle rise in the terrain. Then he started to make out what it was.
He advanced suddenly with hasty steps, until the body that belonged to the limp hand and arm had become visible. His grip tightened on the implement he carried. The thing was the figure of a Chinaman lying on his face. The abandon of the pose was unmistakable.
He moved forward quickly, until the body connected to the limp hand and arm came into view. His grip tightened around the tool he was holding. It was the figure of a Chinese man lying on his stomach. The abandon of the pose was clear.
499The two men drew closer together, and stood staring silently at this ominous dead body. It lay in a clear space among the trees. Near by was a spade after the Chinese pattern, and further off lay a scattered heap of stones, close to a freshly dug hole.
499The two men moved closer together and stood silently staring at the menacing dead body. It was lying in an open area among the trees. Nearby was a spade in a Chinese design, and a little further away was a scattered pile of stones, next to a freshly dug hole.
“Somebody has been here before,” said Hooker, clearing his throat.
“Someone has been here before,” said Hooker, clearing his throat.
Then suddenly Evans began to swear and rave, and stamp upon the ground.
Then suddenly, Evans started to curse and rant, and stomp on the ground.
Hooker turned white but said nothing. He advanced towards the prostrate body. He saw the neck was puffed and purple, and the hands and ankles swollen. “Pah!” he said, and suddenly turned away and went towards the excavation. He gave a cry of surprise. He shouted to Evans, who was following him slowly.
Hooker turned pale but said nothing. He walked towards the lying body. He noticed the neck was swollen and purple, and the hands and ankles were puffy. “Ugh!” he exclaimed, and abruptly turned away to head towards the dig site. He let out a surprised shout. He called out to Evans, who was trailing behind him slowly.
“You fool! It’s all right. It’s here still.” Then he turned again and looked at the dead Chinaman, and then again at the hole.
“You idiot! It's fine. It's still here.” Then he turned back and looked at the dead Chinese man, and then again at the hole.
Evans hurried to the hole. Already half exposed by the ill-fated wretch beside them lay a number of dull yellow bars. He bent down in the hole, and, clearing off the soil with his bare hands, hastily pulled one of the heavy masses out. As he did so a little thorn pricked his hand. He pulled the delicate spike out with his fingers and lifted the ingot.
Evans rushed to the hole. Already partially uncovered by the unfortunate person next to them were several dull yellow bars. He leaned down into the hole and quickly cleared away the soil with his bare hands, pulling one of the heavy bars out. As he did so, a small thorn pricked his hand. He removed the tiny spike with his fingers and lifted the ingot.
“Only gold or lead could weigh like this,” he said exultantly.
“Only gold or lead could weigh like this,” he said with excitement.
500Hooker was still looking at the dead Chinaman. He was puzzled.
500Hooker was still staring at the dead Chinese man. He was confused.
“He stole a march on his friends,” he said at last. “He came here alone, and some poisonous snake has killed him—I wonder how he found the place.”
“He outsmarted his friends,” he finally said. “He came here by himself, and some venomous snake has killed him—I wonder how he found this place.”
Evans stood with the ingot in his hands. What did a dead Chinaman signify? “We shall have to take this stuff to the mainland piecemeal, and bury it there for a while. How shall we get it to the canoe?”
Evans stood with the ingot in his hands. What did a dead Chinese man mean? “We need to take this stuff to the mainland bit by bit and bury it there for some time. How are we going to get it to the canoe?”
He took his jacket off and spread it on the ground, and flung two or three ingots into it. Presently he found that another little thorn had punctured his skin.
He took off his jacket and laid it on the ground, then tossed two or three ingots onto it. Soon, he realized that another small thorn had punctured his skin.
“This is as much as we can carry,” said he. Then suddenly, with a queer rush of irritation, “What are you staring at?”
“This is all we can carry,” he said. Then suddenly, with a strange burst of irritation, “What are you looking at?”
Hooker turned to him. “I can’t stand—him.” He nodded towards the corpse. “It’s so like—”
Hooker turned to him. “I can’t stand—him.” He nodded towards the corpse. “It’s so like—”
“Rubbish!” said Evans. “All Chinamen are alike.”
“Rubbish!” said Evans. “All Chinese people are the same.”
Hooker looked into his face. “I’m going to bury that, anyhow, before I lend a hand with this stuff.”
Hooker looked into his face. “I’m going to bury that before I help with this stuff.”
“Don’t be a fool, Hooker,” said Evans. “Let that mass of corruption bide.”
“Don’t be an idiot, Hooker,” said Evans. “Let that pile of corruption wait.”
Hooker hesitated, and then his eye went carefully over the brown soil about them. “It scares me somehow,” he said.
Hooker paused, then he carefully looked over the brown soil around them. “It freaks me out a bit,” he said.
501“The thing is,” said Evans, “what to do with these ingots. Shall we re-bury them over here, or take them across the strait in the canoe?”
501“The thing is,” said Evans, “what should we do with these ingots? Should we bury them again here, or take them across the strait in the canoe?”
Hooker thought. His puzzled gaze wandered among the tall tree-trunks, and up into the remote sunlit greenery overhead. He shivered again as his eye rested upon the blue figure of the Chinaman. He stared searchingly among the grey depths between the trees.
Hooker thought. His confused gaze drifted among the tall tree trunks and up into the distant sunlit leaves above. He shivered again as his eyes landed on the blue figure of the Chinaman. He searched intently through the grey shadows between the trees.
“What’s come to you, Hooker?” said Evans. “Have you lost your wits?”
“What’s wrong with you, Hooker?” said Evans. “Have you lost your mind?”
“Let’s get the gold out of this place, anyhow,” said Hooker.
“Let’s get the gold out of here, anyway,” said Hooker.
He took the ends of the collar of the coat in his hands, and Evans took the opposite corners, and they lifted the mass. “Which way?” said Evans. “To the canoe?”
He grabbed the ends of the coat's collar, while Evans took the opposite corners, and they lifted the heavy load. “Which way?” Evans asked. “To the canoe?”
“It’s queer,” said Evans, when they had advanced only a few steps, “but my arms ache still with that paddling.”
“It’s strange,” said Evans, as they had only taken a few steps, “but my arms still ache from that paddling.”
“Curse it!” he said. “But they ache! I must rest.”
“Damn it!” he said. “But they hurt! I need to take a break.”
They let the coat down. Evans’ face was white, and little drops of sweat stood out upon his forehead. “It’s stuffy, somehow, in this forest.”
They lowered the coat. Evans' face was pale, and small beads of sweat appeared on his forehead. "It's strangely stuffy in this forest."
Then with an abrupt transition to unreasonable anger: “What is the good of waiting here all the day? Lend a hand, I say! You have done nothing but moon since we saw the dead Chinaman.”
Then with a sudden shift to unreasonable anger: “What’s the point of waiting here all day? Help out, I say! You’ve done nothing but daydream since we saw the dead Chinaman.”
502Hooker was looking steadfastly at his companion’s face. He helped raise the coat bearing the ingots, and they went forward perhaps a hundred yards in silence. Evans began to breathe heavily. “Can’t you speak?” he said.
502Hooker was staring intently at his friend's face. He helped lift the coat holding the ingots, and they moved ahead maybe a hundred yards in silence. Evans started to breathe heavily. “Can’t you say anything?” he asked.
“What’s the matter with you?” said Hooker.
“What’s wrong with you?” said Hooker.
Evans stumbled, and then with a sudden curse flung the coat from him. He stood for a moment staring at Hooker, and then with a groan clutched at his own throat.
Evans tripped, and then with a sudden curse threw the coat off. He stood for a moment staring at Hooker, and then with a groan grabbed at his own throat.
“Don’t come near me,” he said, and went and leant against a tree. Then in a steadier voice, “I’ll be better in a minute.”
“Stay away from me,” he said, and went and leaned against a tree. Then in a calmer voice, “I’ll be fine in a minute.”
Presently his grip upon the trunk loosened, and he slipped slowly down the stem of the tree until he was a crumpled heap at its foot. His hands were clenched convulsively. His face became distorted with pain. Hooker approached him.
Currently, his hold on the trunk loosened, and he slid slowly down the tree's stem until he landed in a crumpled heap at its base. His hands were clenched tightly. His face twisted in pain. Hooker walked over to him.
“Don’t touch me! Don’t touch me!” said Evans, in a stifled voice. “Put the gold back on the coat.”
“Don’t touch me! Don’t touch me!” said Evans, in a constrained voice. “Put the gold back on the coat.”
“Can’t I do anything for you?” said Hooker.
“Is there anything I can do for you?” said Hooker.
“Put the gold back on the coat.”
“Put the gold back on the coat.”
As Hooker handled the ingots he felt a little prick on the ball of his thumb. He looked at his hand and saw a slender thorn, perhaps two inches in length.
As Hooker handled the ingots, he felt a slight prick on the tip of his thumb. He looked at his hand and saw a thin thorn, maybe two inches long.
Evans gave an inarticulate cry and rolled over.
Evans let out an unintelligible cry and turned over.
Hooker’s jaw dropped. He stared at the thorn 503for a moment with dilated eyes. Then he looked at Evans, who was now crumpled together on the ground, his back bending and straitening spasmodically. Then he looked through the pillars of the trees and network of creeper stems, to where in the dim grey shadow the blue-clad body of the Chinaman was still indistinctly visible. He thought of the little dashes in the corner of the plan, and in a moment he understood.
Hooker’s jaw dropped. He stared at the thorn 503for a moment with wide eyes. Then he looked at Evans, who was now crumpled on the ground, his back bending and straightening erratically. Next, he looked through the tree trunks and tangled vines to where the blue-clad figure of the Chinaman was still faintly visible in the dim gray shadow. He thought of the little marks in the corner of the plan, and in that moment, he understood.
“God help me!” he said. For the thorns were similar to those the Dyaks poison and use in their blowing-tubes. He understood now what Chang-hi’s assurance of the safety of his treasure meant. He understood that grin now.
“God help me!” he said. The thorns were like those that the Dyaks poison and use in their blowguns. He realized now what Chang-hi’s promise about the safety of his treasure really meant. He understood that grin now.
“Evans!” he cried.
“Evans!” he shouted.
But Evans was silent and motionless now, save for a horrible spasmodic twitching of his limbs. A profound silence brooded over the forest.
But Evans was silent and still now, except for a horrible spasmodic twitching of his limbs. A deep silence hung over the forest.
Then Hooker began to suck furiously at the little pink spot on the ball of his thumb—sucking for dear life. Presently he felt a strange aching pain in his arms and shoulders, and his fingers seemed difficult to bend. Then he knew that sucking was no good.
Then Hooker started to suck intensely on the little pink spot on the ball of his thumb—sucking for all he was worth. Soon he felt a strange aching pain in his arms and shoulders, and his fingers seemed hard to bend. That’s when he realized that sucking wasn’t helping.
Abruptly he stopped, and sitting down by the pile of ingots, and resting his chin upon his hands and his elbows upon his knees, stared at the distorted but still stirring body of his companion. Chang-hi’s grin came in his mind again. The 504dull pain spread towards his throat and grew slowly in intensity. Far above him a faint breeze stirred the greenery, and the white petals of some unknown flower came floating down through the gloom.
Abruptly, he stopped, sitting down next to the pile of ingots. He rested his chin on his hands and his elbows on his knees, staring at the twisted but still alive body of his companion. Chang-hi's grin flashed in his mind again. The dull pain spread up to his throat and slowly grew stronger. Far above him, a light breeze stirred the greenery, and the white petals of some unknown flower drifted down through the darkness.
TRANSCRIBER’S NOTES
- P. 435, changed “was all part of a filmy phantasmagoria” to “were all part of a filmy phantasmagoria”.
- Silently corrected typographical errors and variations in spelling.
- Retained anachronistic, non-standard, and uncertain spellings as printed.
- Footnotes have been re-indexed using numbers.
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