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The Princess Casamassima
A Novel
by Henry James
1886
Contents
I
“Oh yes, I dare say I can find the child, if you would like to see him,” Miss Pynsent said; she had a fluttering wish to assent to every suggestion made by her visitor, whom she regarded as a high and rather terrible personage. To look for the little boy she came out of her small parlour, which she had been ashamed to exhibit in so untidy a state, with paper ‘patterns’ lying about on the furniture and snippings of stuff scattered over the carpet—she came out of this somewhat stuffy sanctuary, dedicated at once to social intercourse and to the ingenious art to which her life had been devoted, and, opening the house-door, turned her eyes up and down the little street. It would presently be tea-time, and she knew that at that solemn hour Hyacinth narrowed the circle of his wanderings. She was anxious and impatient, and in a fever of excitement and complacency, not wanting to keep Mrs Bowerbank waiting, though she sat there, heavily and consideringly, as if she meant to stay; and wondering not a little whether the object of her quest would have a dirty face. Mrs Bowerbank had intimated so definitely that she thought it remarkable on Miss Pynsent’s part to have taken care of him gratuitously for so many years, that the humble dressmaker, whose imagination took flights about every one but herself, and who had never been conscious of an exemplary benevolence, suddenly aspired to appear, throughout, as devoted to the child as she had struck her solemn, substantial guest as being, and felt how much she should like him to come in fresh and frank, and looking as pretty as he sometimes did. Miss Pynsent, who blinked confusedly as she surveyed the outer prospect, was very much flushed, partly with the agitation of what Mrs Bowerbank had told her, and partly because, when she offered that lady a drop of something refreshing, at the end of so long an expedition, she had said she couldn’t think of touching anything unless Miss Pynsent would keep her company. The cheffonier (as Amanda was always careful to call it), beside the fireplace, yielded up a small bottle which had formerly contained eau-de-cologne and which now exhibited half a pint of a rich gold-coloured liquid. Miss Pynsent was very delicate; she lived on tea and watercress, and she kept the little bottle in the cheffonier only for great emergencies. She didn’t like hot brandy and water, with a lump or two of sugar, but she partook of half a tumbler on the present occasion, which was of a highly exceptional kind. At this time of day the boy was often planted in front of the little sweet-shop on the other side of the street, an establishment where periodical literature, as well as tough toffy and hard lollipops, was dispensed, and where song-books and pictorial sheets were attractively exhibited in the small-paned, dirty window. He used to stand there for half an hour at a time, spelling out the first page of the romances in the Family Herald and the London Journal, and admiring the obligatory illustration in which the noble characters (they were always of the highest birth) were presented to the carnal eye. When he had a penny he spent only a fraction of it on stale sugar-candy; with the remaining halfpenny he always bought a ballad, with a vivid woodcut at the top. Now, however, he was not at his post of contemplation; nor was he visible anywhere to Miss Pynsent’s impatient glance.
“Oh yes, I can definitely find the child if you’d like to see him,” Miss Pynsent said. She felt a strong urge to agree with everything her visitor suggested, seeing her as a person of high status and a bit intimidating. To look for the little boy, she stepped out of her small parlor, which she had been embarrassed to show in its messy state, with paper patterns scattered on the furniture and fabric scraps all over the carpet. She left this somewhat stuffy space, which was meant for socializing and the craft she devoted her life to, and opened the house door, glancing up and down the small street. Tea-time was approaching, and she knew that during that solemn hour, Hyacinth limited his wandering. She felt anxious and impatient, caught up in a mix of excitement and satisfaction, not wanting to keep Mrs. Bowerbank waiting, even though she sat there, heavy and thoughtful, as if she intended to stay a while; she couldn't help but wonder if the child would have a dirty face. Mrs. Bowerbank had made it clear that she found it remarkable that Miss Pynsent had cared for him for so many years without pay, which made the humble dressmaker, whose imagination often soared about others but never about herself, suddenly want to appear as devoted to the boy as Mrs. Bowerbank viewed her. She really hoped he would come in looking fresh and charming, just as he sometimes did. Miss Pynsent, blinking in confusion as she surveyed the outside, was quite flushed, partly from the anxiety of what Mrs. Bowerbank had told her, and partly because when she offered her guest a refreshing drink after such a long journey, Mrs. Bowerbank insisted she wouldn’t touch anything unless Miss Pynsent joined her. The cheffonier (as Amanda always made sure to call it) next to the fireplace revealed a small bottle that once held eau-de-cologne and now contained half a pint of a rich gold liquid. Miss Pynsent was very delicate; she lived on tea and watercress, keeping the little bottle for emergencies only. She wasn’t fond of hot brandy and water, even with sugar, but on this occasion, she poured herself half a tumbler of it, which was highly unusual for her. At this time of day, the boy often stood in front of the little sweet shop across the street, a place that sold magazines alongside tough toffy and hard lollipops, with songbooks and illustrated sheets attractively displayed in its small, dirty window. He would spend half an hour there, deciphering the first page of the romances in the Family Herald and the London Journal, admiring the required illustrations that presented noble characters (always of high birth) for all to see. When he had a penny, he would spend only part of it on stale sugar candy and use the remaining halfpenny to buy a ballad with an eye-catching woodcut at the top. However, he was not at his usual spot of contemplation this time; he was nowhere to be seen by Miss Pynsent’s impatient gaze.
“Millicent Henning, tell me quickly, have you seen my child?” These words were addressed by Miss Pynsent to a little girl who sat on the doorstep of the adjacent house, nursing a dingy doll, and who had an extraordinary luxuriance of dark brown hair, surmounted by a torn straw hat. Miss Pynsent pronounced her name Enning.
“Millicent Henning, can you tell me quickly, have you seen my child?” Miss Pynsent asked a little girl sitting on the doorstep of the next house, cradling a dirty doll, with an impressive amount of dark brown hair topped off by a torn straw hat. Miss Pynsent pronounced her name as Enning.
The child looked up from her dandling and patting, and after a stare of which the blankness was somewhat exaggerated, replied: “Law no, Miss Pynsent, I never see him.”
The child looked up from her playing and patting, and after a stare that was a bit exaggeratedly blank, replied: “Oh no, Miss Pynsent, I’ve never seen him.”
“Aren’t you always messing about with him, you naughty little girl?” the dressmaker returned, with sharpness. “Isn’t he round the corner, playing marbles, or—or some jumping game?” Miss Pynsent went on, trying to be suggestive.
“Aren’t you always fooling around with him, you cheeky little girl?” the dressmaker shot back, sharply. “Isn’t he around the corner, playing marbles, or some jumping game?” Miss Pynsent continued, trying to hint at something.
“I assure you, he never plays nothing,” said Millicent Henning, with a mature manner which she bore out by adding, “And I don’t know why I should be called naughty, neither.”
“I assure you, he never plays anything,” said Millicent Henning, with a grown-up attitude that she emphasized by adding, “And I don’t know why I should be called naughty, either.”
“Well, if you want to be called good, please go and find him and tell him there’s a lady here come on purpose to see him, this very instant.” Miss Pynsent waited a moment, to see if her injunction would be obeyed, but she got no satisfaction beyond another gaze of deliberation, which made her feel that the child’s perversity was as great as the beauty, somewhat soiled and dimmed, of her insolent little face. She turned back into the house, with an exclamation of despair, and as soon as she had disappeared Millicent Henning sprang erect and began to race down the street in the direction of another, which crossed it. I take no unfair advantage of the innocence of childhood in saying that the motive of this young lady’s flight was not a desire to be agreeable to Miss Pynsent, but an extreme curiosity on the subject of the visitor who wanted to see Hyacinth Robinson. She wished to participate, if only in imagination, in the interview that might take place, and she was moved also by a quick revival of friendly feeling for the boy, from whom she had parted only half an hour before with considerable asperity. She was not a very clinging little creature, and there was no one in her own domestic circle to whom she was much attached; but she liked to kiss Hyacinth when he didn’t push her away and tell her she was tiresome. It was in this action and epithet he had indulged half an hour ago; but she had reflected rapidly (while she stared at Miss Pynsent) that this was the worst he had ever done. Millicent Henning was only eight years of age, but she knew there was worse in the world than that.
“Well, if you want to be called good, please go find him and tell him there’s a lady here specifically to see him, right this minute.” Miss Pynsent waited a moment, hoping to see if her request would be fulfilled, but all she got was another thoughtful stare, which made her feel that the child’s stubbornness was as great as the beauty, somewhat tarnished and dimmed, of her insolent little face. She turned back into the house with an exclamation of despair, and as soon as she was gone, Millicent Henning sprang up and began racing down the street toward another one that crossed it. I’m not taking unfair advantage of the innocence of childhood when I say that this young lady’s escape was not motivated by a desire to please Miss Pynsent, but rather by her intense curiosity about the visitor who wanted to see Hyacinth Robinson. She wanted to share, even if just in her imagination, in the conversation that might happen, and she was also driven by a quick resurgence of friendly feelings for the boy, from whom she had parted just half an hour earlier with significant annoyance. She wasn’t a very clingy little girl, and there was no one in her own family that she was particularly attached to; but she enjoyed giving Hyacinth a kiss when he didn’t push her away and tell her she was annoying. It was this action and comment he had indulged in half an hour ago; but she had quickly realized (while she was staring at Miss Pynsent) that this was the worst he had ever done. Millicent Henning was only eight years old, but she knew there was worse in the world than that.
Mrs Bowerbank, in a leisurely, roundabout way, wandered off to her sister, Mrs Chipperfield, whom she had come into that part of the world to see, and the whole history of the dropsical tendencies of whose husband, an undertaker with a business that had been a blessing because you could always count on it, she unfolded to Miss Pynsent between the sips of a second glass. She was a high-shouldered, towering woman, and suggested squareness as well as a pervasion of the upper air, so that Amanda reflected that she must be very difficult to fit, and had a sinking at the idea of the number of pins she would take. Her sister had nine children and she herself had seven, the eldest of whom she left in charge of the others when she went to her service. She was on duty at the prison only during the day; she had to be there at seven in the morning, but she got her evenings at home, quite regular and comfortable. Miss Pynsent thought it wonderful she could talk of comfort in such a life as that, but could easily imagine she should be glad to get away at night, for at that time the place must be much more terrible.
Mrs. Bowerbank, taking her time, made her way to her sister, Mrs. Chipperfield, whom she had come to visit in this part of the world. She shared with Miss Pynsent the whole story about her brother-in-law's health issues, a funeral director with a reliable business that was always dependable. As she sipped her second glass, she appeared to be a tall, broad-shouldered woman, exuding a sense of being square, and it struck Amanda that finding clothes that fit her must be quite a challenge, giving her a sinking feeling at the thought of how many pins it would require. Her sister had nine kids, and she herself had seven, leaving the oldest in charge of the younger ones while she was at work. She only had to be at the prison during the day, starting at seven in the morning, but she enjoyed her evenings at home, which were quite regular and comfortable. Miss Pynsent thought it was amazing she could talk about comfort in such a life, but she could easily imagine that by night, she would be eager to escape, as the atmosphere must be much more daunting then.
“And aren’t you frightened of them—ever?” she inquired, looking up at her visitor with her little heated face.
“And aren’t you ever scared of them?” she asked, looking up at her visitor with her flushed face.
Mrs Bowerbank was very slow, and considered her so long before replying, that she felt herself to be, in an alarming degree, in the eye of the law; for who could be more closely connected with the administration of justice than a female turnkey, especially so big and majestic a one? “I expect they are more frightened of me,” she replied at last; and it was an idea into which Miss Pynsent could easily enter.
Mrs. Bowerbank was very slow, and took so long to reply that she felt uncomfortably scrutinized by the law; after all, who could be more intertwined with justice than a female prison guard, especially one as big and imposing as her? “I bet they’re more scared of me,” she finally said, and it was a thought that Miss Pynsent could easily understand.
“And at night I suppose they rave, quite awful,” the little dressmaker suggested, feeling vaguely that prisons and madhouses came very much to the same.
“And at night I guess they go wild, pretty terrible,” the little dressmaker suggested, vaguely feeling that prisons and asylums were pretty much the same.
“Well, if they do, we hush ’em up,” Mrs Bowerbank remarked, rather portentously; while Miss Pynsent fidgeted to the door again, without results, to see if the child had become visible. She observed to her guest that she couldn’t call it anything but contrary that he should not turn up, when he knew so well, most days in the week, when his tea was ready. To which Mrs Bowerbank rejoined, fixing her companion again with the steady orb of justice, “And do he have his tea, that way, by himself, like a little gentleman?”
"Well, if they do, we’ll silence them," Mrs. Bowerbank said with a serious tone, as Miss Pynsent fidgeted at the door again, trying to see if the child had appeared. She remarked to her guest that it was just ridiculous that he hadn’t shown up, especially when he usually knew when his tea was ready on most days of the week. Mrs. Bowerbank responded, locking eyes with her companion with a look of serious intent, "And does he really have his tea that way, all alone, like a little gentleman?"
“Well, I try to give it to him tidy-like, at a suitable hour,” said Miss Pynsent, guiltily. “And there might be some who would say that, for the matter of that, he is a little gentleman,” she added, with an effort at mitigation which, as she immediately became conscious, only involved her more deeply.
“Well, I try to give it to him neatly, at a decent hour,” said Miss Pynsent, feeling guilty. “And there might be some who would say that, honestly, he is a little gentleman,” she added, attempting to soften her statement, which, as she quickly realized, only drew her in deeper.
“There are people silly enough to say anything. If it’s your parents that settle your station, the child hasn’t much to be thankful for,” Mrs Bowerbank went on, in the manner of a woman accustomed to looking facts in the face.
“There are people foolish enough to say anything. If your parents determine your status, the child doesn’t have much to be grateful for,” Mrs. Bowerbank continued, in the way of someone used to facing the truth.
Miss Pynsent was very timid, but she adored the aristocracy, and there were elements in the boy’s life which she was not prepared to sacrifice even to a person who represented such a possibility of grating bolts and clanking chains. “I suppose we oughtn’t to forget that his father was very high,” she suggested, appealingly, with her hands clasped tightly in her lap.
Miss Pynsent was really shy, but she loved the upper class, and there were parts of the boy’s life she wasn't ready to give up, even for someone who represented the chance of uncomfortable restrictions. “I guess we shouldn’t forget that his dad was really important,” she said, looking hopeful, with her hands tightly clasped in her lap.
“His father? Who knows who he was? He doesn’t set up for having a father, does he?”
“His father? Who knows who he was? He doesn’t seem to have a father, does he?”
“But, surely, wasn’t it proved that Lord Frederick—?”
“But, surely, wasn’t it proven that Lord Frederick—?”
“My dear woman, nothing was proved except that she stabbed his lordship in the back with a very long knife, that he died of the blow, and that she got the full sentence. What does such a piece as that know about fathers? The less said about the poor child’s ancestors the better!”
“My dear woman, nothing was proven except that she stabbed his lordship in the back with a very long knife, he died from the wound, and she received the maximum sentence. What would someone like that know about fathers? It’s best not to talk about the poor child's family!”
This view of the case caused Miss Pynsent fairly to gasp, for it pushed over with a touch a certain tall imaginative structure which she had been piling up for years. Even as she heard it crash around her she couldn’t forbear the attempt to save at least some of the material. “Really—really,” she panted, “she never had to do with any one but the nobility!”
This perspective on the situation made Miss Pynsent gasp, as it knocked down a tall, imaginative structure she had been building for years. As she listened to it fall apart around her, she couldn’t help but try to salvage at least some of it. “Honestly—honestly,” she gasped, “she never had to deal with anyone but the nobility!”
Mrs Bowerbank surveyed her hostess with an expressionless eye. “My dear young lady, what does a respectable little body like you, that sits all day with her needle and scissors, know about the doings of a wicked low foreigner that carries a knife? I was there when she came in, and I know to what she had sunk. Her conversation was choice, I assure you.”
Mrs. Bowerbank looked at her hostess with a blank expression. “My dear young lady, what could a respectable little thing like you, who sits all day with her needle and scissors, possibly know about the actions of a wicked low foreigner who's carrying a knife? I was there when she walked in, and I saw how low she had sunk. Her conversation was quite something, I assure you.”
“Oh, it’s very dreadful, and of course I know nothing in particular,” Miss Pynsent quavered. “But she wasn’t low when I worked at the same place with her, and she often told me she would do nothing for any one that wasn’t at the very top.”
“Oh, it’s really terrible, and of course I don’t know anything specific,” Miss Pynsent said nervously. “But she wasn’t low when I worked at the same place as her, and she often told me she wouldn’t do anything for anyone who wasn’t at the very top.”
“She might have talked to you of something that would have done you both more good,” Mrs Bowerbank remarked, while the dressmaker felt rebuked in the past as well as in the present. “At the very top, poor thing! Well, she’s at the very bottom now. If she wasn’t low when she worked, it’s a pity she didn’t stick to her work; and as for pride of birth, that’s an article I recommend your young friend to leave to others. You had better believe what I say, because I’m a woman of the world.”
“She might have talked to you about something that would have benefited you both more,” Mrs. Bowerbank commented, while the dressmaker felt criticized for both the past and the present. “At the very top, poor thing! Well, she’s at the very bottom now. If she didn’t have low status when she worked, it’s too bad she didn’t stay focused on her work; and as for pride in family background, that’s something I suggest your young friend let others have. You should trust what I say, because I’m a woman of the world.”
Indeed she was, as Miss Pynsent felt, to whom all this was very terrible, letting in the cold light of the penal system on a dear, dim little theory. She had cared for the child because maternity was in her nature, and this was the only manner in which fortune had put it in her path to become a mother. She had as few belongings as the baby, and it had seemed to her that he would add to her importance in the little world of Lomax Place (if she kept it a secret how she came by him), quite in the proportion in which she should contribute to his maintenance. Her weakness and loneliness went out to his, and in the course of time this united desolation was peopled by the dressmaker’s romantic mind with a hundred consoling evocations. The boy proved neither a dunce nor a reprobate; but what endeared him to her most was her conviction that he belonged, ‘by the left hand’, as she had read in a novel, to an ancient and exalted race, the list of whose representatives and the record of whose alliances she had once (when she took home some work and was made to wait, alone, in a lady’s boudoir) had the opportunity of reading in a fat red book, eagerly and tremblingly consulted. She bent her head before Mrs Bowerbank’s overwhelming logic, but she felt in her heart that she shouldn’t give the child up for all that, that she believed in him still, and that she recognised, as distinctly as she revered, the quality of her betters. To believe in Hyacinth, for Miss Pynsent, was to believe that he was the son of the extremely immoral Lord Frederick. She had, from his earliest age, made him feel that there was a grandeur in his past, and as Mrs Bowerbank would be sure not to approve of such aberrations Miss Pynsent prayed she might not question her on that part of the business. It was not that, when it was necessary, the little dressmaker had any scruple about using the arts of prevarication; she was a kind and innocent creature, but she told fibs as freely as she invented trimmings. She had, however, not yet been questioned by an emissary of the law, and her heart beat faster when Mrs Bowerbank said to her, in deep tones, with an effect of abruptness, “And pray, Miss Pynsent, does the child know it?”
Indeed she was, as Miss Pynsent felt, to whom all this was very terrible, letting in the harsh reality of the penal system on a dear, fuzzy little theory. She had cared for the child because being a mother was in her nature, and this was the only way that fate had allowed her to become one. She had as few belongings as the baby, and it had seemed to her that he would add to her importance in the small world of Lomax Place (if she kept it a secret how she got him), quite in the same way that she should contribute to his upkeep. Her weakness and loneliness mirrored his, and over time, this shared desolation was filled by the dressmaker’s romantic imagination with countless comforting fantasies. The boy proved to be neither a fool nor a troublemaker; but what endeared him to her most was her belief that he belonged, 'by the left hand,' as she had read in a novel, to an ancient and noble lineage, the list of whose members and record of whose alliances she had once (when she took home some work and had to wait, alone, in a lady’s boudoir) eagerly and nervously read in a big red book. She yielded to Mrs. Bowerbank’s overwhelming logic, but deep down, she felt that she shouldn’t give the child up for anything, that she still believed in him, and that she recognized, as clearly as she respected, the qualities of those better than herself. To believe in Hyacinth, for Miss Pynsent, was to believe that he was the son of the extremely immoral Lord Frederick. From his earliest age, she had made him feel that there was greatness in his past, and since Mrs. Bowerbank would surely disapprove of such deviations, Miss Pynsent hoped she wouldn’t question her about that part of things. It wasn't that, when necessary, the little dressmaker had any issues with bending the truth; she was a kind and innocent person, but she told lies as freely as she created embellishments. However, she had not yet been interrogated by an agent of the law, and her heart raced when Mrs. Bowerbank said to her, in deep tones, with an air of suddenness, “And pray, Miss Pynsent, does the child know it?”
“Know about Lord Frederick?” Miss Pynsent palpitated.
“Do you know about Lord Frederick?” Miss Pynsent asked, feeling anxious.
“Bother Lord Frederick! Know about his mother.”
“Forget Lord Frederick! Know about his mother.”
“Oh, I can’t say that. I have never told him.”
“Oh, I can’t say that. I’ve never told him.”
“But has any one else told him?”
“But has anyone else told him?”
To this inquiry Miss Pynsent’s answer was more prompt and more proud; it was with an agreeable sense of having conducted herself with extraordinary wisdom and propriety that she replied, “How could any one know? I have never breathed it to a creature!”
To this question, Miss Pynsent responded quickly and with a sense of pride; she felt pleased with herself for handling the situation with remarkable wisdom and proper behavior as she replied, “How could anyone know? I’ve never told a soul!”
Mrs Bowerbank gave utterance to no commendation; she only put down her empty glass and wiped her large mouth with much thoroughness and deliberation. Then she said, as if it were as cheerful an idea as, in the premises, she was capable of expressing, “Ah, well, there’ll be plenty, later on, to give him all information!”
Mrs. Bowerbank didn't offer any praise; she just set her empty glass down and carefully wiped her big mouth. Then she said, as if it were the most cheerful thought she could come up with in the situation, “Ah, well, there’ll be plenty of time later to fill him in on everything!”
“I pray God he may live and die without knowing it!” Miss Pynsent cried, with eagerness.
“I hope to God he can live and die without ever realizing it!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, eagerly.
Her companion gazed at her with a kind of professional patience. “You don’t keep your ideas together. How can he go to her, then, if he’s never to know?”
Her companion looked at her with a sort of professional patience. “You don't organize your thoughts. How can he go to her, then, if he's never going to know?”
“Oh, did you mean she would tell him?” Miss Pynsent responded, plaintively.
“Oh, did you mean she was going to tell him?” Miss Pynsent replied, sadly.
“Tell him! He won’t need to be told, once she gets hold of him and gives him—what she told me.”
“Tell him! He won’t need to be told once she gets a hold of him and gives him—what she told me.”
“What she told you?” Miss Pynsent repeated, open-eyed.
“What did she tell you?” Miss Pynsent repeated, wide-eyed.
“The kiss her lips have been famished for, for years.”
“The kiss her lips have been craving for years.”
“Ah, poor desolate woman!” the little dressmaker murmured, with her pity gushing up again. “Of course he’ll see she’s fond of him,” she pursued, simply. Then she added, with an inspiration more brilliant, “We might tell him she’s his aunt!”
“Ah, poor lonely woman!” the little dressmaker murmured, filled with pity once more. “Of course he’ll notice that she cares for him,” she continued straightforwardly. Then she added, with a more brilliant idea, “We could tell him she’s his aunt!”
“You may tell him she’s his grandmother, if you like. But it’s all in the family.”
“You can tell him she’s his grandmother, if you want. But it’s all in the family.”
“Yes, on that side,” said Miss Pynsent, musingly and irrepressibly. “And will she speak French?” she inquired. “In that case he won’t understand.”
“Yes, over there,” said Miss Pynsent, thoughtfully and unable to contain herself. “And will she speak French?” she asked. “In that case, he won't understand.”
“Oh, a child will understand its own mother, whatever she speaks,” Mrs Bowerbank returned, declining to administer a superficial comfort. But she subjoined, opening the door for escape from a prospect which bristled with dangers, “Of course, it’s just according to your own conscience. You needn’t bring the child at all, unless you like. There’s many a one that wouldn’t. There’s no compulsion.”
“Oh, a child will understand its own mother, no matter what she says,” Mrs. Bowerbank replied, choosing not to offer a shallow comfort. But she added, opening the door for an exit from a situation that seemed full of threats, “Of course, it depends on your own conscience. You don’t have to bring the child at all, unless you want to. There are plenty who wouldn’t. There’s no pressure.”
“And would nothing be done to me, if I didn’t?” poor Miss Pynsent asked, unable to rid herself of the impression that it was somehow the arm of the law that was stretched out to touch her.
“And would nothing happen to me if I didn’t?” poor Miss Pynsent asked, unable to shake the feeling that the law’s hand was somehow reaching out to touch her.
“The only thing that could happen to you would be that he might throw it up against you later,” the lady from the prison observed, with a gloomy impartiality.
“The only thing that could happen to you is that he might throw it back in your face later,” the woman from the prison remarked, with a bleak neutrality.
“Yes, indeed, if he were to know that I had kept him back.”
“Yes, for sure, if he found out that I had held him back.”
“Oh, he’d be sure to know, one of these days. We see a great deal of that—the way things come out,” said Mrs Bowerbank, whose view of life seemed to abound in cheerless contingencies. “You must remember that it is her dying wish, and that you may have it on your conscience.”
“Oh, he’ll definitely find out, sooner or later. We see that a lot—the way things play out,” said Mrs. Bowerbank, whose perspective on life seemed filled with bleak possibilities. “You have to remember that it’s her dying wish, and it could weigh on your conscience.”
“That’s a thing I never could abide!” the little dressmaker exclaimed, with great emphasis and a visible shiver; after which she picked up various scattered remnants of muslin and cut paper and began to roll them together with a desperate and mechanical haste. “It’s quite awful, to know what to do—if you are very sure she is dying.”
“That's something I can’t stand!” the little dressmaker exclaimed, emphasizing her words and visibly shivering; then she picked up various scattered pieces of muslin and cut paper and started rolling them together with a frantic and mechanical speed. “It’s really awful to know what to do—if you’re certain she is dying.”
“Do you mean she’s shamming? we have plenty of that—but we know how to treat ’em.”
“Are you saying she’s faking? We've seen a lot of that—but we know how to handle it.”
“Lord, I suppose so,” murmured Miss Pynsent; while her visitor went on to say that the unfortunate person on whose behalf she had undertaken this solemn pilgrimage might live a week and might live a fortnight, but if she lived a month, would violate (as Mrs Bowerbank might express herself) every established law of nature, being reduced to skin and bone, with nothing left of her but the main desire to see her child.
“Lord, I guess so,” murmured Miss Pynsent; while her visitor continued to say that the unfortunate person she had taken this serious journey for might live for a week or two, but if she lived for a month, it would go against (as Mrs. Bowerbank might put it) every natural law, being reduced to skin and bones, with nothing left of her except the strong desire to see her child.
“If you’re afraid of her talking, it isn’t much she’d be able to say. And we shouldn’t allow you more than about eight minutes,” Mrs Bowerbank pursued, in a tone that seemed to refer itself to an iron discipline.
“If you’re worried about her talking, there really isn’t much she could say. And we shouldn’t give you more than about eight minutes,” Mrs. Bowerbank continued, in a tone that suggested strict discipline.
“I’m sure I shouldn’t want more; that would be enough to last me many a year,” said Miss Pynsent, accommodatingly. And then she added, with another illumination, “Don’t you think he might throw it up against me that I did take him? People might tell him about her in later years; but if he hadn’t seen her he wouldn’t be obliged to believe them.”
“I’m sure I shouldn’t want more; that would be enough to last me for many years,” said Miss Pynsent, accommodatingly. And then she added, with another thought, “Don’t you think he might hold it against me that I did take him? People might mention her to him later on; but if he hadn’t seen her, he wouldn’t have to believe them.”
Mrs Bowerbank considered this a moment, as if it were rather a super-subtle argument, and then answered, quite in the spirit of her official pessimism, “There is one thing you may be sure of: whatever you decide to do, as soon as ever he grows up he will make you wish you had done the opposite.” Mrs Bowerbank called it opposite.
Mrs. Bowerbank thought about this for a moment, as if it were an extremely subtle argument, and then responded, very much in the tone of her usual pessimism, “One thing you can be sure of: whatever you choose to do, the moment he grows up, he will make you wish you had chosen the opposite.” Mrs. Bowerbank referred to it as opposite.
“Oh, dear, then, I’m glad it will be a long time.”
“Oh, dear, I’m glad it will be a while.”
“It will be ever so long, if once he gets it into his head! At any rate, you must do as you think best. Only, if you come, you mustn’t come when it’s all over.”
“It will take forever if he once gets it in his head! Anyway, you should do what you think is best. Just make sure that if you come, you don’t arrive after it’s all over.”
“It’s too impossible to decide.”
“It’s too hard to decide.”
“It is, indeed,” said Mrs Bowerbank, with superior consistency. And she seemed more placidly grim than ever when she remarked, gathering up her loosened shawl, that she was much obliged to Miss Pynsent for her civility, and had been quite freshened up: her visit had so completely deprived her hostess of that sort of calm. Miss Pynsent gave the fullest expression to her perplexity in the supreme exclamation—
“It really is,” said Mrs. Bowerbank, with a sense of superiority. She appeared more calmly stern than ever when she commented, adjusting her loose shawl, that she was very grateful to Miss Pynsent for her politeness and felt quite refreshed: her visit had completely robbed her hostess of that kind of calm. Miss Pynsent expressed her confusion with a powerful exclamation—
“If you could only wait and see the child, I’m sure it would help you to judge!”
“If you could just wait and see the kid, I’m sure it would help you judge better!”
“My dear woman, I don’t want to judge—it’s none of our business!” Mrs Bowerbank exclaimed; and she had no sooner uttered the words than the door of the room creaked open and a small boy stood there gazing at her. Her eyes rested on him a moment, and then, most unexpectedly, she gave an inconsequent cry. “Is that the child? Oh, Lord o’ mercy, don’t take him!”
“My dear woman, I don’t want to judge—it’s none of our business!” Mrs. Bowerbank exclaimed. No sooner had she spoken than the door creaked open, and a small boy stood there staring at her. She looked at him for a moment, and then, quite unexpectedly, she let out an inconsequential cry. “Is that the child? Oh, my goodness, don’t take him!”
“Now ain’t he shrinking and sensitive?” demanded Miss Pynsent, who had pounced upon him, and, holding him an instant at arm’s length, appealed eagerly to her visitor. “Ain’t he delicate and high-bred, and wouldn’t he be thrown into a state?” Delicate as he might be the little dressmaker shook him smartly for his naughtiness in being out of the way when he was wanted, and brought him to the big, square-faced, deep-voiced lady who took up, as it were, all that side of the room. But Mrs Bowerbank laid no hand upon him; she only dropped her gaze from a tremendous height, and her forbearance seemed a tribute to that fragility of constitution on which Miss Pynsent desired to insist, just as her continued gravity was an implication that this scrupulous woman might well not know what to do.
“Isn’t he just shrinking and sensitive?” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, having seized him and, holding him briefly at arm’s length, eagerly turned to her guest. “Isn’t he delicate and refined, and wouldn’t he just fall apart?” Delicate as he might be, the little dressmaker gave him a firm shake for being out of reach when he was needed and brought him over to the big, square-faced, deep-voiced lady who seemed to fill that side of the room. However, Mrs. Bowerbank didn't touch him; she just looked down from a great height, and her restraint appeared to respect that fragility Miss Pynsent wanted to highlight, just as her serious demeanor suggested that this meticulous woman might not know how to react.
“Speak to the lady nicely, and tell her you are very sorry to have kept her waiting.”
“Talk to the lady kindly and let her know you're really sorry for making her wait.”
The child hesitated a moment, while he reciprocated Mrs Bowerbank’s inspection, and then he said, with a strange, cool, conscious indifference (Miss Pynsent instantly recognised it as his aristocratic manner), “I don’t think she can have been in a very great hurry.”
The child paused for a moment as he returned Mrs. Bowerbank's stare, then said, with a strange, detached coolness (Miss Pynsent immediately recognized it as his upper-class attitude), “I don’t think she was in that much of a hurry.”
There was irony in the words, for it is a remarkable fact that even at the age of ten Hyacinth Robinson was ironical; but the subject of his allusion, who was not nimble withal, appeared not to interpret it; so that she rejoined only by remarking, over his head, to Miss Pynsent, “It’s the very face of her over again!”
There was irony in the words, as it's noteworthy that even at the age of ten, Hyacinth Robinson was sarcastic; however, the person he was referring to, who wasn't very quick on the uptake, didn't seem to get it. So she simply responded by saying, over his head, to Miss Pynsent, “It’s exactly her face all over again!”
“Of her? But what do you say to Lord Frederick?”
“About her? But what do you think about Lord Frederick?”
“I have seen lords that wasn’t so dainty!”
“I have seen lords who weren't so picky!”
Miss Pynsent had seen very few lords, but she entered, with a passionate thrill, into this generalisation; controlling herself, however, for she remembered the child was tremendously sharp, sufficiently to declare, in an edifying tone, that he would look more like what he ought to if his face were a little cleaner.
Miss Pynsent had encountered very few lords, but she eagerly embraced this idea; however, she managed to keep her composure since she remembered that the child was incredibly perceptive, enough to state, in a moralizing tone, that he would look more like he should if his face were a bit cleaner.
“It was probably Millicent Henning dirtied my face, when she kissed me,” the boy announced, with slow gravity, looking all the while at Mrs Bowerbank. He exhibited not a symptom of shyness.
“It was probably Millicent Henning who dirtied my face when she kissed me,” the boy said seriously, while looking at Mrs. Bowerbank. He showed no signs of shyness.
“Millicent Henning is a very bad little girl; she’ll come to no good,” said Miss Pynsent, with familiar decision, and also, considering that the young lady in question had been her effective messenger, with marked ingratitude.
“Millicent Henning is a very bad little girl; she won’t end up well,” said Miss Pynsent, with her usual certainty, and also, since the girl in question had been her helpful messenger, with noticeable ingratitude.
Against this qualification the child instantly protested. “Why is she bad? I don’t think she is bad; I like her very much.” It came over him that he had too hastily shifted to her shoulders the responsibility of his unseemly appearance, and he wished to make up to her for that betrayal. He dimly felt that nothing but that particular accusation could have pushed him to it, for he hated people who were not fresh, who had smutches and streaks. Millicent Henning generally had two or three, which she borrowed from her doll, into whom she was always rubbing her nose and whose dinginess was contagious. It was quite inevitable she should have left her mark under his own nose when she claimed her reward for coming to tell him about the lady who wanted him.
Against this criticism, the child immediately objected. “Why is she bad? I don’t think she’s bad; I really like her.” It struck him that he had too quickly placed the blame for his messy appearance on her, and he wanted to make it up to her for that mistake. He vaguely sensed that only that specific accusation could have pushed him to do it, since he couldn’t stand people who were unkempt, who had smudges and stains. Millicent Henning usually had two or three herself, which she picked up from her doll, into which she was always rubbing her nose, and whose dirtiness seemed to spread. It was almost certain that she had left her mark on him when she asked for her reward for coming to tell him about the lady who wanted to see him.
Miss Pynsent held the boy against her knee, trying to present him so that Mrs Bowerbank should agree with her about his having the air of race. He was exceedingly diminutive, even for his years, and though his appearance was not positively sickly it seemed written in his attenuated little person that he would never be either tall or strong. His dark blue eyes were separated by a wide interval, which increased the fairness and sweetness of his face, and his abundant curly hair, which grew thick and long, had the golden brownness predestined to elicit exclamations of delight from ladies when they take the inventory of a child. His features were smooth and pretty; his head was set upon a slim little neck; his expression, grave and clear, showed a quick perception as well as a great credulity; and he was altogether, in his innocent smallness, a refined and interesting figure.
Miss Pynsent held the boy on her knee, trying to show him off in a way that would make Mrs. Bowerbank agree with her about his noble heritage. He was incredibly small for his age, and while he didn’t look sickly, it was clear from his slender little frame that he would never be tall or strong. His dark blue eyes were set wide apart, which made his face look even sweeter, and his thick, curly hair had a golden brown shade that was sure to inspire compliments from women when they admired a child. His features were smooth and pretty; his head sat on a delicate little neck; and his serious, clear expression revealed both keen perception and great innocence. Overall, in his delicate smallness, he was a refined and captivating figure.
“Yes, he’s one that would be sure to remember,” said Mrs Bowerbank, mentally contrasting him with the undeveloped members of her own brood, who had never been retentive of anything but the halfpence which they occasionally contrived to filch from her. Her eyes descended to the details of his toilet: the careful mending of his short breeches and his long, coloured stockings, which she was in a position to appreciate, as well as the knot of bright ribbon which the dressmaker had passed into his collar, slightly crumpled by Miss Henning’s embrace. Of course Miss Pynsent had only one to look after, but her visitor was obliged to recognise that she had the highest standard in respect to buttons. “And you do turn him out so it’s a pleasure,” she went on, noting the ingenious patches in the child’s shoes, which, to her mind, were repaired for all the world like those of a little nobleman.
“Yes, he’s definitely someone who would be remembered,” said Mrs. Bowerbank, thinking about how different he was from her own kids, who only seemed to hang on to the pennies they managed to steal from her. Her gaze went to the details of his outfit: the careful repairs on his short pants and his long, colorful stockings, which she could really appreciate, not to mention the bright ribbon the dressmaker had put in his collar, slightly wrinkled from Miss Henning’s hug. Of course, Miss Pynsent only had to take care of one, but Mrs. Bowerbank had to admit that she had the highest standards when it came to buttons. “And you do dress him up so well, it’s a pleasure,” she continued, noticing the clever patches on the child’s shoes that, in her opinion, made them look fit for a little nobleman.
“I’m sure you’re very civil,” said Miss Pynsent, in a state of severe exaltation. “There’s never a needle but mine has come near him. That’s exactly what I think: the impression would go so deep.”
“I’m sure you’re very polite,” said Miss Pynsent, clearly excited. “No needle except mine has ever come close to him. That’s exactly what I believe: the impact would be so profound.”
“Do you want to see me only to look at me?” Hyacinth inquired, with a candour which, though unstudied, had again much of the force of satire.
“Do you want to see me just to look at me?” Hyacinth asked, with a sincerity that, while unplanned, still carried a lot of the sharpness of satire.
“I’m sure it’s very kind of the lady to notice you at all!” cried his protectress, giving him an ineffectual jerk. “You’re no bigger than a flea; there are many that wouldn’t spy you out.”
“I’m sure it’s really nice of the lady to notice you at all!” exclaimed his protector, giving him a useless tug. “You’re no bigger than a flea; there are plenty of people who wouldn’t even see you.”
“You’ll find he’s big enough, I expect, when he begins to go,” Mrs Bowerbank remarked, tranquilly; and she added that now she saw how he was turned out she couldn’t but feel that the other side was to be considered. In her effort to be discreet, on account of his being present (and so precociously attentive), she became slightly enigmatical; but Miss Pynsent gathered her meaning, which was that it was very true the child would take everything in and keep it: but at the same time it was precisely his being so attractive that made it a kind of sin not to gratify the poor woman, who, if she knew what he looked like to-day, wouldn’t forgive his adoptive mamma for not producing him. “Certainly, in her place, I should go off easier if I had seen them curls,” Mrs Bowerbank declared, with a flight of maternal imagination which brought her to her feet, while Miss Pynsent felt that she was leaving her dreadfully ploughed up, and without any really fertilising seed having been sown. The little dressmaker packed the child upstairs to tidy himself for his tea, and while she accompanied her visitor to the door told her that if she would have a little more patience with her she would think a day or two longer what was best and write to her when she should have decided. Mrs Bowerbank continued to move in a realm superior to poor Miss Pynsent’s vacillations and timidities, and her impartiality gave her hostess a high idea of her respectability; but the way was a little smoothed when, after Amanda had moaned once more, on the threshold, helplessly and irrelevantly, “Ain’t it a pity she’s so bad?” the ponderous lady from the prison rejoined, in those tones which seemed meant to resound through corridors of stone, “I assure you there’s a many that’s much worse!”
“You’ll find he’s big enough, I think, when he starts to leave,” Mrs. Bowerbank said calmly; and she added that now she saw how he turned out, she felt the other side needed to be considered. In her attempt to be discreet, since he was present (and so unusually attentive), she became a bit cryptic; but Miss Pynsent understood her meaning, which was that it was very true the child would absorb everything and retain it: but at the same time, it was precisely his charm that made it somewhat wrong not to please the poor woman, who, if she knew what he looked like today, wouldn’t forgive his adoptive mom for not showing him. “Honestly, in her position, I would feel much better if I had seen those curls,” Mrs. Bowerbank declared, with a burst of maternal imagination that got her on her feet, while Miss Pynsent felt dreadfully unsettled and without any real progress being made. The little dressmaker sent the child upstairs to freshen up for his tea, and while she walked her visitor to the door, she told her that if she could be a bit more patient, she would think for a day or two longer about what was best and would write to her when she decided. Mrs. Bowerbank continued to operate on a level above poor Miss Pynsent’s indecisions and hesitations, and her fairness gave her hostess a high opinion of her respectability; but things got a little easier when, as Amanda once again lamented helplessly and irrelevantly on the threshold, “Isn’t it a shame she’s so sick?” the heavy lady from the institution replied in tones that seemed meant to echo through stone corridors, “I assure you there are many who are much worse!”
II
Miss Pynsent, when she found herself alone, felt that she was really quite upside down; for the event that had just occurred had never entered into her calculations: the very nature of the case had seemed to preclude it. All she knew, and all she wished to know, was that in one of the dreadful institutions constructed for such purposes her quondam comrade was serving out the sentence that had been substituted for the other (the unspeakable horror) almost when the halter was already round her neck. As there was no question of that concession being stretched any further, poor Florentine seemed only a little more dead than other people, having no decent tombstone to mark the place where she lay. Miss Pynsent had therefore never thought of her dying again; she had no idea to what prison she had been committed on being removed from Newgate (she wished to keep her mind a blank about the matter, in the interest of the child), and it could not occur to her that out of such silence and darkness a second voice would reach her, especially a voice that she should really have to listen to. Miss Pynsent would have said, before Mrs Bowerbank’s visit, that she had no account to render to any one; that she had taken up the child (who might have starved in the gutter) out of charity, and had brought him up, poor and precarious as her own subsistence had been, without a penny’s help from another source; that the mother had forfeited every right and title; and that this had been understood between them—if anything, in so dreadful an hour, could have been said to be understood—when she went to see her at Newgate (that terrible episode, nine years before, overshadowed all Miss Pynsent’s other memories): went to see her because Florentine had sent for her (a name, face and address coming up out of the still recent but sharply separated past of their working-girl years) as the one friend to whom she could appeal with some chance of a pitying answer. The effect of violent emotion, with Miss Pynsent, was not to make her sit with idle hands or fidget about to no purpose; under its influence, on the contrary, she threw herself into little jobs, as a fugitive takes to by-paths, and clipped and cut, and stitched and basted, as if she were running a race with hysterics. And while her hands, her scissors, her needle flew, an infinite succession of fantastic possibilities trotted through her confused little head; she had a furious imagination, and the act of reflection, in her mind, was always a panorama of figures and scenes. She had had her picture of the future, painted in rather rosy hues, hung up before her now for a good many years; but it seemed to her that Mrs Bowerbank’s heavy hand had suddenly punched a hole in the canvas. It must be added, however, that if Amanda’s thoughts were apt to be bewildering visions they sometimes led her to make up her mind, and on this particular September evening she arrived at a momentous decision. What she made up her mind to was to take advice, and in pursuance of this view she rushed downstairs, and, jerking Hyacinth away from his simple but unfinished repast, packed him across the street to tell Mr Vetch (if he had not yet started for the theatre) that she begged he would come in to see her when he came home that night, as she had something very particular she wished to say to him. It didn’t matter if he should be very late, he could come in at any hour—he would see her light in the window—and he would do her a real mercy. Miss Pynsent knew it would be of no use for her to go to bed; she felt as if she should never close her eyes again. Mr Vetch was her most distinguished friend; she had an immense appreciation of his cleverness and knowledge of the world, as well as of the purity of his taste in matters of conduct and opinion; and she had already consulted him about Hyacinth’s education. The boy needed no urging to go on such an errand, for he, too, had his ideas about the little fiddler, the second violin in the orchestra of the Bloomsbury Theatre. Mr Vetch had once obtained for the pair an order for two seats at a pantomime, and for Hyacinth the impression of that ecstatic evening had consecrated him, placed him for ever in the golden glow of the footlights. There were things in life of which, even at the age of ten, it was a conviction of the boy’s that it would be his fate never to see enough, and one of them was the wonder-world illuminated by those playhouse lamps. But there would be chances, perhaps, if one didn’t lose sight of Mr Vetch; he might open the door again; he was a privileged, magical mortal, who went to the play every night.
Miss Pynsent, when she found herself alone, felt completely disoriented; the recent event had never been part of her plans: the very nature of the situation had seemed to rule it out. All she knew, and all she wanted to know, was that in one of the horrible institutions built for such purposes, her former friend was serving the sentence that had replaced the other (the unimaginable horror) almost as soon as the noose was around her neck. Since there was no chance of that leniency being extended any further, poor Florentine seemed just a little more dead than anyone else, without a decent headstone to mark where she rested. So, Miss Pynsent had never considered her dying again; she had no idea to which prison she had been taken from Newgate (she preferred to keep her mind blank about it, for the sake of the child), and it didn’t occur to her that from such silence and darkness a second voice would reach her, especially a voice she would actually have to listen to. Before Mrs. Bowerbank’s visit, Miss Pynsent would have claimed that she didn’t owe anyone an explanation; she had taken the child (who might have starved in the gutter) out of charity and raised him, as spare as her own means had been, without a penny from anyone else; that the mother had lost every right and claim; and that this had been understood between them—if anything, during such a dreadful time, could be said to be understood—when she went to see her at Newgate (that awful episode, nine years prior, cast a shadow over all of Miss Pynsent’s other memories): she visited because Florentine had requested her (a name, face, and address resurfacing from their sharply separated past as working girls) as the one friend who might respond with some compassion. For Miss Pynsent, intense emotions didn’t make her sit idle or fidget aimlessly; rather, in such moments, she threw herself into small tasks, like a fugitive finding hidden paths, cutting, stitching, and basting as if racing against hysteria. And while her hands, scissors, and needle moved quickly, countless wild possibilities raced through her muddled mind; her imagination was fierce, and her reflections were always a vivid panorama of figures and scenes. She had kept a picture of the future, painted in rosy hues, in front of her for several years; but it felt like Mrs. Bowerbank’s heavy hand had suddenly torn a hole in the canvas. However, it’s worth noting that while Amanda’s thoughts could be bewildering visions, they sometimes prompted her to make decisions, and on this particular September evening, she arrived at a significant resolution. What she resolved was to seek advice, and with this in mind, she rushed downstairs, yanked Hyacinth away from his simple yet unfinished meal, and sent him across the street to tell Mr. Vetch (if he hadn’t left for the theater yet) that she would really like him to come over to see her when he got home that night, as she had something very important to discuss with him. It didn’t matter how late he might be; he could come at any hour—he would see her light in the window—and he would be doing her a huge favor. Miss Pynsent knew it would be pointless to go to bed; she felt like she would never close her eyes again. Mr. Vetch was her most distinguished friend; she greatly admired his intelligence and worldly knowledge, as well as his impeccable taste in matters of conduct and opinions; she had already consulted him about Hyacinth’s education. The boy needed no encouragement to run such an errand, as he, too, had his thoughts about the little fiddler, the second violin in the orchestra of the Bloomsbury Theatre. Mr. Vetch had once gotten them both tickets for a pantomime, and for Hyacinth, the memory of that thrilling evening had forever placed him in the warm glow of the stage lights. Even at the age of ten, the boy was convinced there were things in life he would never see enough of, and one of them was the magical world illuminated by those theater lamps. But there might be opportunities, perhaps, if one didn’t lose track of Mr. Vetch; he might open the door again; he was a special, magical person who went to the theater every night.
He came in to see Miss Pynsent about midnight; as soon as she heard the lame tinkle of the bell she went to the door to let him in. He was an original, in the fullest sense of the word: a lonely, disappointed, embittered, cynical little man, whose musical organisation had been sterile, who had the nerves, the sensibilities, of a gentleman, and whose fate had condemned him, for the last ten years, to play a fiddle at a second-rate theatre for a few shillings a week. He had ideas of his own about everything, and they were not always very improving. For Amanda Pynsent he represented art, literature (the literature of the play-bill) and philosophy, and she always felt about him as if he belonged to a higher social sphere, though his earnings were hardly greater than her own and he lived in a single back-room, in a house where she had never seen a window washed. He had, for her, the glamour of reduced gentility and fallen fortunes; she was conscious that he spoke a different language (though she couldn’t have said in what the difference consisted) from the other members of her humble, almost suburban circle; and the shape of his hands was distinctly aristocratic. (Miss Pynsent, as I have intimated, was immensely preoccupied with that element in life.) Mr Vetch displeased her only by one of the facets of his character—his blasphemous republican, radical views, and the contemptuous manner in which he expressed himself about the nobility. On that ground he worried her extremely, though he never seemed to her so clever as when he horrified her most. These dreadful theories (expressed so brilliantly that, really, they might have been dangerous if Miss Pynsent had not known her own place so well) constituted no presumption against his refined origin; they were explained, rather, to a certain extent, by a just resentment at finding himself excluded from his proper place. Mr Vetch was short, fat and bald, though he was not much older than Miss Pynsent, who was not much older than some people who called themselves forty-five; he always went to the theatre in evening-dress, with a flower in his button-hole, and wore a glass in one eye. He looked placid and genial, and as if he would fidget at the most about the ‘get up’ of his linen; you would have thought him finical but superficial, and never have suspected that he was a revolutionist, or even a critic of life. Sometimes, when he could get away from the theatre early enough, he went with a pianist, a friend of his, to play dance-music at small parties; and after such expeditions he was particularly cynical and startling; he indulged in diatribes against the British middle-class, its Philistinism, its snobbery. He seldom had much conversation with Miss Pynsent without telling her that she had the intellectual outlook of a caterpillar; but this was his privilege after a friendship now of seven years’ standing, which had begun (the year after he came to live in Lomax Place) with her going over to nurse him, on learning from the milk-woman that he was alone at Number 17—laid up with an attack of gastritis. He always compared her to an insect or a bird, and she didn’t mind, because she knew he liked her, and she herself liked all winged creatures. How indeed could she complain, after hearing him call the Queen a superannuated form and the Archbishop of Canterbury a grotesque superstition?
He arrived to see Miss Pynsent around midnight; as soon as she heard the faint chime of the bell, she went to the door to let him in. He was truly one of a kind: a lonely, disappointed, embittered, cynical little man whose musical talent had gone to waste, endowed with the nerves and sensibilities of a gentleman, yet condemned for the past ten years to play the violin at a second-rate theater for just a few shillings a week. He had his own ideas about everything, and they weren't always very uplifting. To Amanda Pynsent, he embodied art, literature (the literature of the playbill), and philosophy, and she always felt he belonged to a higher social class, even though his earnings were barely more than her own, and he lived in a single back room in a house where she had never seen a window cleaned. For her, he radiated the allure of diminished gentility and lost fortunes; she was aware that he spoke a different language (though she couldn’t pinpoint the differences) than the others in her modest, almost suburban circle; and the shape of his hands was distinctly aristocratic. (Miss Pynsent, as I've mentioned, was extremely focused on that aspect of life.) Mr. Vetch only bothered her with one aspect of his character—his blasphemous republican, radical views, and the contemptuous way he spoke about the nobility. This deeply troubled her, though he never struck her as so clever as when he appalled her most. These dreadful theories (expressed so brilliantly that they could have posed a danger if Miss Pynsent hadn’t been so aware of her own position) didn't contradict his refined background; they were rather explained by a just resentment of being excluded from his rightful place. Mr. Vetch was short, overweight, and bald, although he was not much older than Miss Pynsent, who was not much older than some people who claimed to be forty-five; he always attended the theater in formal attire, with a flower in his buttonhole, and wore a monocle. He appeared calm and friendly, and seemed to care most about the state of his linen; one might have thought him fastidious yet superficial, never suspecting that he was a revolutionary or even a critic of life. Sometimes, when he could leave the theater early enough, he would go with a pianist friend to play dance music at small gatherings; after such outings, he was particularly cynical and shocking; he would launch into rants against the British middle class, its Philistinism, and its snobbery. He rarely had a conversation with Miss Pynsent without telling her that she had the intellectual outlook of a caterpillar; but this was his privilege after a seven-year friendship that began (the year after he moved to Lomax Place) when she went to nurse him after learning from the milkwoman that he was alone at Number 17—laid up with gastritis. He always compared her to an insect or a bird, and she didn’t mind, because she knew he liked her, and she herself liked all winged creatures. How could she possibly complain after hearing him call the Queen an outdated relic and the Archbishop of Canterbury a ridiculous superstition?
He laid his violin-case on the table, which was covered with a confusion of fashion-plates and pincushions, and glanced toward the fire, where a kettle was gently hissing. Miss Pynsent, who had put it on half an hour before, read his glance, and reflected with complacency that Mrs Bowerbank had not absolutely drained the little bottle in the cheffonier. She placed it on the table again, this time with a single glass, and told her visitor that, as a great exception, he might light his pipe. In fact, she always made the exception, and he always replied to the gracious speech by inquiring whether she supposed the greengrocers’ wives, the butchers’ daughters, for whom she worked, had fine enough noses to smell, in the garments she sent home, the fumes of his tobacco. He knew her ‘connection’ was confined to small shopkeepers, but she didn’t wish others to know it, and would have liked them to believe it was important that the poor little stuffs she made up (into very queer fashions, I am afraid) should not surprise the feminine nostril. But it had always been impossible to impose on Mr Vetch; he guessed the truth, the untrimmed truth, about everything in a moment. She was sure he would do so now, in regard to this solemn question which had come up about Hyacinth; he would see that though she was agreeably flurried at finding herself whirled in the last eddies of a case that had been so celebrated in its day, her secret wish was to shirk her duty (if it was a duty): to keep the child from ever knowing his mother’s unmentionable history, the shame that attached to his origin, the opportunity she had had of letting him see the wretched woman before she died. She knew Mr Vetch would read her troubled thoughts, but she hoped he would say they were natural and just; she reflected that as he took an interest in Hyacinth he wouldn’t desire him to be subjected to a mortification that might rankle for ever and perhaps even crush him to the earth. She related Mrs Bowerbank’s visit, while he sat upon the sofa in the very place where that majestic woman had reposed, and puffed his smoke-wreaths into the dusky little room. He knew the story of the child’s birth, had known it years before, so she had no startling revelation to make. He was not in the least agitated at learning that Florentine was dying in prison and had managed to get a message conveyed to Amanda; he thought this so much in the usual course that he said to Miss Pynsent, “Did you expect her to live on there for ever, working out her terrible sentence, just to spare you the annoyance of a dilemma, or any reminder of her miserable existence, which you have preferred to forget?” That was just the sort of question Mr Vetch was sure to ask, and he inquired, further, of his dismayed hostess, whether she were sure her friend’s message (he called the unhappy creature her friend) had come to her in the regular way. The warders, surely, had no authority to introduce visitors to their captives; and was it a question of her going off to the prison on the sole authority of Mrs Bowerbank? The little dressmaker explained that this lady had merely come to sound her, Florentine had begged so hard. She had been in Mrs Bowerbank’s ward before her removal to the infirmary, where she now lay ebbing away, and she had communicated her desire to the Catholic chaplain, who had undertaken that some satisfaction—of inquiry, at least—should be given her. He had thought it best to ascertain first whether the person in charge of the child would be willing to bring him, such a course being perfectly optional, and he had some talk with Mrs Bowerbank on the subject, in which it was agreed between them that if she would approach Miss Pynsent and explain to her the situation, leaving her to do what she thought best, he would answer for it that the consent of the governor of the prison should be given to the interview. Miss Pynsent had lived for fourteen years in Lomax Place, and Florentine had never forgotten that this was her address at the time she came to her at Newgate (before her dreadful sentence had been commuted), and promised, in an outgush of pity for one whom she had known in the days of her honesty and brightness, that she would save the child, rescue it from the workhouse and the streets, keep it from the fate that had swallowed up the mother. Mrs Bowerbank had a half-holiday, and a sister living also in the north of London, to whom she had been for some time intending a visit; so that after her domestic duty had been performed it had been possible for her to drop in on Miss Pynsent in a natural, casual way and put the case before her. It would be just as she might be disposed to view it. She was to think it over a day or two, but not long, because the woman was so ill, and then write to Mrs Bowerbank, at the prison. If she should consent, Mrs Bowerbank would tell the chaplain, and the chaplain would obtain the order from the governor and send it to Lomax Place; after which Amanda would immediately set out with her unconscious victim. But should she—must she—consent? That was the terrible, the heart-shaking question, with which Miss Pynsent’s unaided wisdom had been unable to grapple.
He put his violin case on the table, which was cluttered with fashion magazines and pincushions, and looked towards the fire, where a kettle was quietly hissing. Miss Pynsent, who had set it on half an hour ago, noticed his glance and felt a sense of satisfaction that Mrs. Bowerbank hadn’t completely emptied the little bottle in the cheffonier. She put it back on the table along with a glass and told her guest that, as a rare exception, he could light his pipe. In fact, she always made the exception, and he always responded to her kind offer by asking if she thought the greengrocers' wives and the butchers' daughters, for whom she worked, had delicate enough noses to smell the tobacco fumes in the clothes she sent back. He knew her clientele was limited to small shopkeepers, but she didn’t want others to know that and preferred them to believe it was crucial that the cheap fabrics she made into rather odd styles shouldn’t offend women’s noses. But Mr. Vetch was impossible to fool; he saw straight through the unvarnished truth about everything instantly. She was certain he would do the same now regarding the serious matter concerning Hyacinth; he would realize that, while she felt pleasantly flustered to find herself caught up in a case that had been famous in its time, her true desire was to avoid her responsibility (if it really was a responsibility): to shield the child from knowing his mother's unspeakable past, the stigma of his origin, and the chance she had to let him meet the wretched woman before she passed away. She knew Mr. Vetch would pick up on her troubled thoughts, but she hoped he would consider them natural and reasonable; she reflected that since he took an interest in Hyacinth, he wouldn’t want the child to suffer a humiliation that could linger forever and maybe even break him. She recounted Mrs. Bowerbank’s visit while he sat on the sofa in the exact spot where that impressive woman had rested, blowing smoke rings into the dim little room. He already knew about the child’s birth; he had learned it years ago, so she had no shocking news to deliver. He wasn’t surprised at all to hear that Florentine was dying in prison and had sent a message to Amanda; he thought this was entirely typical, stating to Miss Pynsent, “Did you think she was going to live there forever, serving her awful sentence just to spare you the headache of a tough decision or any reminder of her miserable life, which you’ve chosen to forget?” That was exactly the kind of question Mr. Vetch would ask, and he also wanted to know from his startled hostess if she was certain that her friend’s message (he referred to the unfortunate woman as her friend) had reached her properly. Surely, the guards had no right to let visitors see their prisoners; would she really go to the prison based solely on Mrs. Bowerbank’s word? The petite dressmaker explained that this lady had come to feel her out since Florentine had pleaded so earnestly. She had been in Mrs. Bowerbank’s care before being moved to the infirmary, where she was now slowly passing away, and she had expressed her wish to the Catholic chaplain, who had promised some response—at least an inquiry—would be provided to her. He thought it best to first check if the person responsible for the child would be willing to bring him, as that was entirely up to her, and he had discussed this with Mrs. Bowerbank, agreeing that if she spoke to Miss Pynsent and explained the situation, allowing her to decide what she thought was best, he would ensure the governor of the prison would authorize the meeting. Miss Pynsent had lived in Lomax Place for fourteen years, and Florentine had never forgotten that this was her address when she came to her at Newgate (before her terrible sentence was changed), promising, in a burst of compassion for someone she had known in her honest and bright days, that she would save the child, rescue him from the workhouse and the streets, and prevent him from meeting the same fate as his mother. Mrs. Bowerbank had a half-day off and a sister living in North London, whom she had been meaning to visit for a while; so after fulfilling her domestic responsibilities, she could easily swing by to see Miss Pynsent in a casual, friendly way to lay out the case. It would depend entirely on how Miss Pynsent viewed it. She was to think it over for a couple of days, but not too long, because the woman was very sick, and then write to Mrs. Bowerbank at the prison. If she agreed, Mrs. Bowerbank would inform the chaplain, who would get the order from the governor and send it to Lomax Place; after that, Amanda would set out immediately with her unconscious charge. But should she—must she—agree? That was the awful, heart-wrenching question that Miss Pynsent’s own reasoning had been unable to resolve.
“After all, he isn’t hers any more—he’s mine, mine only, and mine always. I should like to know if all I have done for him doesn’t make him so!” It was in this manner that Amanda Pynsent delivered herself, while she plied her needle, faster than ever, in a piece of stuff that was pinned to her knee.
“After all, he’s not hers anymore—he’s mine, only mine, and always mine. I’d like to know if everything I’ve done for him doesn’t make him that way!” This is how Amanda Pynsent expressed herself as she worked her needle even faster on a piece of fabric pinned to her knee.
Mr Vetch watched her awhile, blowing silently at his pipe, with his head thrown back on the high, stiff, old-fashioned sofa, and his little legs crossed under him like a Turk’s. “It’s true you have done a good deal for him. You are a good little woman, my dear Pinnie, after all.” He said ‘after all’, because that was a part of his tone. In reality he had never had a moment’s doubt that she was the best little woman in the north of London.
Mr. Vetch watched her for a bit, blowing quietly on his pipe, with his head thrown back against the high, stiff, old-fashioned sofa, and his little legs crossed underneath him like a Turk’s. “It’s true you’ve done a lot for him. You really are a good little woman, my dear Pinnie, after all.” He said “after all” because that was part of his tone. In reality, he had never had a moment’s doubt that she was the best little woman in north London.
“I have done what I could, and I don’t want no fuss made about it. Only it does make a difference when you come to look at it—about taking him off to see another woman. And such another woman—and in such a place! I think it’s hardly right to take an innocent child.”
“I've done what I could, and I don’t want any fuss about it. But it really makes a difference when you think about taking him to see another woman. And such a woman—and in such a place! I don't think it's right to take an innocent child.”
“I don’t know about that; there are people that would tell you it would do him good. If he didn’t like the place as a child, he would take more care to keep out of it later.”
“I’m not so sure about that; there are people who would say it would benefit him. If he didn’t like the place as a kid, he’d be more careful to stay away from it later.”
“Lord, Mr Vetch, how can you think? And him such a perfect little gentleman!” Miss Pynsent cried.
“Seriously, Mr. Vetch, how could you even think that? He's such a perfect little gentleman!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed.
“Is it you that have made him one?” the fiddler asked. “It doesn’t run in the family, you’d say.”
“Did you make him one?” the fiddler asked. “It doesn’t run in the family, right?”
“Family? what do you know about that?” she replied, quickly, catching at her dearest, her only hobby.
“Family? What do you know about that?” she responded quickly, holding onto her dearest, her one true hobby.
“Yes, indeed, what does any one know? what did she know herself?” And then Miss Pynsent’s visitor added, irrelevantly, “Why should you have taken him on your back? Why did you want to be so good? No one else thinks it necessary.”
“Yes, really, what does anyone know? What did she know herself?” And then Miss Pynsent’s guest added, off-topic, “Why did you carry him? Why did you feel the need to be so kind? No one else thinks it’s necessary.”
“I didn’t want to be good. That is, I do want to, of course, in a general way: but that wasn’t the reason then. But I had nothing of my own—I had nothing in the world but my thimble.”
“I didn’t want to be good. Well, I do want to be, of course, in a general sense: but that wasn’t the reason back then. I just had nothing of my own—I had nothing in the world except my thimble.”
“That would have seemed to most people a reason for not adopting a prostitute’s bastard.”
"Most people would have seen that as a reason not to adopt a prostitute's child."
“Well, I went to see him at the place where he was (just where she had left him, with the woman of the house), and I saw what kind of a shop that was, and felt it was a shame an innocent child should grow up in such a place.” Miss Pynsent defended herself as earnestly as if her inconsistency had been of a criminal cast. “And he wouldn’t have grown up, neither. They wouldn’t have troubled themselves long with a helpless baby. They’d have played some trick on him, if it was only to send him to the workhouse. Besides, I always was fond of tiny creatures, and I have been fond of this one,” she went on, speaking as if with a consciousness, on her own part, of almost heroic proportions. “He was in my way the first two or three years, and it was a good deal of a pull to look after the business and him together. But now he’s like the business—he seems to go of himself.”
“Well, I went to see him where she had left him, with the woman of the house, and I noticed what kind of place that was, and I thought it was a shame for an innocent child to grow up in such an environment.” Miss Pynsent defended her actions as passionately as if her inconsistency were criminal. “And he wouldn’t have grown up either. They wouldn’t have bothered with a helpless baby for long. They’d have pulled some trick on him, even if it was just to send him to the workhouse. Besides, I’ve always loved little creatures, and I’ve been fond of this one,” she continued, speaking as if she felt almost heroic. “He was in my way the first couple of years, and it was quite a struggle to manage both the business and him at the same time. But now he’s like the business—he seems to take care of himself.”
“Oh, if he flourishes as the business flourishes, you can just enjoy your peace of mind,” said the fiddler, still with his manner of making a small dry joke of everything.
“Oh, if he thrives as the business does, you can just relax and enjoy your peace of mind,” said the fiddler, still making a light dry joke out of everything.
“That’s all very well, but it doesn’t close my eyes to that poor woman lying there and moaning just for the touch of his little ’and before she passes away. Mrs Bowerbank says she believes I will bring him.”
“That’s great and all, but it doesn’t make me ignore that poor woman lying there and groaning just for the feel of his little hand before she passes away. Mrs. Bowerbank says she believes I will bring him.”
“Who believes? Mrs Bowerbank?”
"Who believes? Mrs. Bowerbank?"
“I wonder if there’s anything in life holy enough for you to take it seriously,” Miss Pynsent rejoined, snapping off a thread, with temper. “The day you stop laughing I should like to be there.”
“I wonder if there’s anything in life that's meaningful enough for you to take it seriously,” Miss Pynsent replied, snapping off a thread in frustration. “I’d like to be there the day you stop laughing.”
“So long as you are there, I shall never stop. What is it you want me to advise you? to take the child, or to leave the mother to groan herself out?”
“So long as you’re there, I’ll never stop. What do you want me to advise you? To take the child, or to leave the mother to suffer through it?”
“I want you to tell me whether he’ll curse me when he grows older.”
“I want you to tell me if he’ll curse me when he gets older.”
“That depends upon what you do. However, he will probably do it in either case.”
“That depends on what you do. Still, he will probably do it in either case.”
“You don’t believe that, because you like him,” said Amanda, with acuteness.
“You don’t believe that because you like him,” Amanda said sharply.
“Precisely; and he’ll curse me too. He’ll curse every one. He won’t be happy.”
“Exactly; and he’ll curse me too. He’ll curse everyone. He won’t be happy.”
“I don’t know how you think I bring him up,” the little dressmaker remarked, with dignity.
“I don’t know how you think I bring him up,” the little dressmaker said, proudly.
“You don’t bring him up; he brings you up.”
“You don’t bring him up; he brings you up.”
“That’s what you have always said; but you don’t know. If you mean that he does as he likes, then he ought to be happy. It ain’t kind of you to say he won’t be,” Miss Pynsent added, reproachfully.
“That’s what you’ve always said; but you don’t really know. If you mean that he does what he wants, then he should be happy. It’s not nice of you to say he won’t,” Miss Pynsent added, reproachfully.
“I would say anything you like, if what I say would help the matter. He’s a thin-skinned, morbid, mooning little beggar, with a good deal of imagination and not much perseverance, who will expect a good deal more of life than he will find in it. That’s why he won’t be happy.”
“I would say anything you want if what I say would help. He’s a sensitive, gloomy, daydreaming little guy, with a lot of imagination and not much persistence, who will expect a lot more from life than he will actually find. That’s why he won’t be happy.”
Miss Pynsent listened to this description of her protégé with an appearance of criticising it mentally; but in reality she didn’t know what ‘morbid’ meant, and didn’t like to ask. “He’s the cleverest person I know, except yourself,” she said in a moment, for Mr Vetch’s words had been in the key of what she thought most remarkable in him. What that was she would have been unable to say.
Miss Pynsent listened to this description of her protégé as if she were mentally judging it; but in reality, she didn’t know what ‘morbid’ meant and didn’t want to ask. “He’s the smartest person I know, besides you,” she said after a moment, because Mr. Vetch’s words reflected what she thought was most impressive about him. What that was, she wouldn’t have been able to explain.
“Thank you very much for putting me first,” the fiddler rejoined, after a series of puffs. “The youngster is interesting, one sees that he has a mind, and in that respect he is—I won’t say unique, but peculiar. I shall watch him with curiosity, to see what he grows into. But I shall always be glad that I’m a selfish brute of a bachelor; that I never invested in that class of goods.”
“Thanks a lot for prioritizing me,” the fiddler replied, after taking a few puffs. “The kid is interesting; you can tell he’s smart, and in that way he’s—not unique, but definitely different. I’ll keep an eye on him to see what he becomes. But I’ll always be grateful that I’m a self-centered, stubborn bachelor; that I never got involved with that kind of thing.”
“Well, you are comforting. You would spoil him more than I do,” said Amanda.
“Well, you are comforting. You would spoil him even more than I do,” Amanda said.
“Possibly, but it would be in a different way. I wouldn’t tell him every three minutes that his father was a duke.”
“Maybe, but it would be different. I wouldn’t remind him every three minutes that his dad was a duke.”
“A duke I never mentioned!” the little dressmaker cried, with eagerness. “I never specified any rank, nor said a word about any one in particular. I never so much as insinuated the name of his lordship. But I may have said that if the truth was to be found out, he might be proved to be connected—in the way of cousinship, or something of the kind—with the highest in the land. I should have thought myself wanting if I hadn’t given him a glimpse of that. But there is one thing I have always added—that the truth never is found out.”
“A duke I never mentioned!” the little dressmaker exclaimed, excitedly. “I never specified any rank, nor did I say anything about anyone in particular. I didn’t even hint at his lordship's name. But I might have suggested that if the truth were uncovered, he could be shown to be related—like a cousin or something similar—to the highest in the land. I would have thought it was my duty to give him a hint of that. But there’s one thing I’ve always added—that the truth never is uncovered.”
“You are still more comforting than I!” Mr Vetch exclaimed. He continued to watch her, with his charitable, round-faced smile, and then he said, “You won’t do what I say; so what is the use of my telling you?”
“You're still way more comforting than I am!” Mr. Vetch said, still looking at her with his kind, round-faced smile. Then he added, “You won’t listen to what I say, so what’s the point of me telling you?”
“I assure you I will, if you say you believe it’s the only right.”
“I promise I will, if you think it's the only right thing to do.”
“Do I often say anything so asinine? Right—right? what have you to do with that? If you want the only right, you are very particular.”
“Do I really say anything that foolish? Right—right? What does that have to do with you? If you want to be the only one that's right, you're being really picky.”
“Please, then, what am I to go by?” the dressmaker asked, bewildered.
“Please, so what am I supposed to go by?” the dressmaker asked, confused.
“You are to go by this, by what will take the youngster down.”
“You should follow this, based on what will bring the kid down.”
“Take him down, my poor little pet?”
“Should I take him down, my poor little pet?”
“Your poor little pet thinks himself the flower of creation. I don’t say there is any harm in that: a fine, blooming, odoriferous conceit is a natural appendage of youth and cleverness. I don’t say there is any great harm in it, but if you want a guide as to how you are to treat a boy, that’s as good a guide as any other.”
“Your poor little pet thinks he’s the best thing since sliced bread. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that: a nice, blossoming, fragrant sense of self-importance is a normal part of being young and smart. I’m not saying it’s a big deal, but if you’re looking for advice on how to handle a boy, that’s as good a guideline as any.”
“You want me to arrange the interview, then?”
“You want me to set up the interview, then?”
“I don’t want you to do anything but give me another sip of brandy. I just say this: that I think it’s a great gain, early in life, to know the worst; then we don’t live in a fool’s paradise. I did that till I was nearly forty; then I woke up and found I was in Lomax Place.” Whenever Mr Vetch said anything that could be construed as a reference to a former position which had had elements of distinction, Miss Pynsent observed a respectful, a tasteful, silence, and that is why she did not challenge him now, though she wanted very much to say that Hyacinth was no more ‘presumptuous’ (that was the term she should have used) than he had reason to be, with his genteel figure and his wonderful intelligence; and that as for thinking himself a ‘flower’ of any kind, he knew but too well that he lived in a small black-faced house, miles away from the West End, rented by a poor little woman who took lodgers, and who, as they were of such a class that they were not always to be depended upon to settle her weekly account, had a strain to make two ends meet, in spite of the sign between her windows—
“I don’t want you to do anything but give me another sip of brandy. I just want to say this: I think it’s a huge advantage to know the worst early in life; that way, we don’t live in a fool’s paradise. I did that until I was nearly forty; then I woke up and realized I was in Lomax Place.” Whenever Mr. Vetch mentioned anything that could be seen as a reference to a previous position that had some distinction, Miss Pynsent maintained a respectful, tasteful silence, which is why she didn’t challenge him now, even though she really wanted to point out that Hyacinth was no more ‘presumptuous’ (that was the word she should have used) than he had a right to be, given his refined appearance and impressive intelligence; and as for thinking he was a ‘flower’ of any kind, he knew very well that he lived in a small, run-down house, far from the West End, rented from a poor woman who took in lodgers, and who, since they often couldn’t be counted on to pay her rent weekly, struggled to make ends meet, despite the sign between her windows—
MISS AMANDA PYNSENT.
Modes et Robes.
DRESSMAKING IN ALL ITS BRANCHES.
COURT-DRESSES,
MANTLES AND FASHIONABLE BONNETS.
MISS AMANDA PYNSENT.
Fashion and Dresses.
DRESSMAKING IN ALL ITS BRANCHES.
COURT-DRESSES,
MANTLES AND FASHIONABLE BONNETS.
Singularly enough, her companion, before she had permitted herself to interpose, took up her own thought (in one of its parts) and remarked that perhaps she would say of the child that he was, so far as his actual circumstances were concerned, low enough down in the world, without one’s wanting him to be any lower. “But by the time he’s twenty, he’ll persuade himself that Lomax Place was a bad dream, that your lodgers and your dressmaking were as imaginary as they are vulgar, and that when an old friend came to see you late at night it was not your amiable practice to make him a glass of brandy and water. He’ll teach himself to forget all this: he’ll have a way.”
Interestingly, her companion, before she had a chance to speak up, picked up on her thoughts (in part) and mentioned that it might be said of the child that, given his current situation, he was as low in the world as anyone would wish him to be. “But by the time he turns twenty, he’ll convince himself that Lomax Place was just a bad dream, that your tenants and your dressmaking were as fake as they are tacky, and that when an old friend came to visit you late at night, it wasn’t your usual practice to offer him a glass of brandy and water. He’ll find a way to forget all of this.”
“Do you mean he’ll forget me, he’ll deny me?” cried Miss Pynsent, stopping the movement of her needle, short off, for the first time.
“Do you mean he’ll forget me, he’ll deny me?” cried Miss Pynsent, stopping her needlework abruptly for the first time.
“As the person designated in that attractive blazonry on the outside of your house, decidedly he will; and me, equally, as a bald-headed, pot-bellied fiddler, who regarded you as the most graceful and refined of his acquaintance. I don’t mean he’ll disown you and pretend he never knew you: I don’t think he will ever be such an odious little cad as that; he probably won’t be a sneak, and he strikes me as having some love, and possibly even some gratitude, in him. But he will, in his imagination (and that will always persuade him), subject you to some extraordinary metamorphosis; he will dress you up.”
“As the person associated with that attractive decoration on the outside of your house, of course he will; and for me, as a bald, pot-bellied fiddler who thinks of you as the most graceful and refined person he knows. I don’t mean he’ll deny you and act like he never knew you: I don’t think he’d be such a despicable little jerk as that; he probably won’t be a backstabber, and he seems to have some affection, and maybe even some gratitude, for you. But in his mind (and that will always convince him), he will put you through some kind of extraordinary change; he will make you over.”
“He’ll dress me up!” Amanda ejaculated, quite ceasing to follow the train of Mr Vetch’s demonstration. “Do you mean that he’ll have the property—that his relations will take him up?”
“He’ll dress me up!” Amanda exclaimed, completely forgetting about Mr. Vetch’s demonstration. “Are you saying that he’ll own the property—that his family will support him?”
“My dear, delightful, idiotic Pinnie, I am speaking in a figurative manner. I don’t pretend to say what his precise position will be when we are relegated; but I affirm that relegation will be our fate. Therefore don’t stuff him with any more illusions than are necessary to keep him alive; he will be sure to pick up enough on the way. On the contrary, give him a good stiff dose of the truth at the start.”
“My dear, charming, naive Pinnie, I'm speaking metaphorically. I can’t say exactly what his situation will be when we’re downgraded, but I’m certain being downgraded is what will happen. So don’t fill him with any more illusions than are needed to keep him going; he’ll inevitably gather enough along the way. Instead, give him a strong dose of the truth from the beginning.”
“Dear me, dear me, of course you see much further into it than I could ever do,” Pinnie murmured, as she threaded a needle.
“Dear me, dear me, of course you understand it much better than I ever could,” Pinnie said softly, as she threaded a needle.
Mr Vetch paused a minute, but apparently not out of deference to this amiable interruption. He went on suddenly, with a ring of feeling in his voice. “Let him know, because it will be useful to him later, the state of the account between society and himself; he can then conduct himself accordingly. If he is the illegitimate child of a French good-for-naught who murdered one of her numerous lovers, don’t shuffle out of sight so important a fact. I regard that as a most valuable origin.”
Mr. Vetch paused for a moment, but it didn't seem like he was being polite about this friendly interruption. He continued abruptly, his voice filled with emotion. “Make sure he knows, because it will be important for him later, the relationship between society and himself; then he can behave accordingly. If he is the illegitimate child of a worthless Frenchman who killed one of her many lovers, don’t hide such an important fact. I see that as a very valuable background.”
“Lord, Mr Vetch, how you talk!” cried Miss Pynsent, staring. “I don’t know what one would think, to hear you.”
“Wow, Mr. Vetch, the way you talk!” exclaimed Miss Pynsent, staring. “I can’t imagine what someone would think if they heard you.”
“Surely, my dear lady, and for this reason: that those are the people with whom society has to count. It hasn’t with you and me.” Miss Pynsent gave a sigh which might have meant either that she was well aware of that, or that Mr Vetch had a terrible way of enlarging a subject, especially when it was already too big for her; and her philosophic visitor went on: “Poor little devil, let him see her, let him see her.”
“Of course, my dear lady, and for this reason: those are the people society has to consider. It doesn’t include you and me.” Miss Pynsent sighed, which could have meant either that she knew that well or that Mr. Vetch had a knack for making a topic more complicated, especially when it was already too much for her; and her thoughtful visitor continued: “Poor little guy, let him see her, let him see her.”
“And if later, when he’s twenty, he says to me that if I hadn’t meddled in it he need never have known, he need never have had that shame, pray what am I to say to him then? That’s what I can’t get out my head.”
“And if later, when he’s twenty, he says to me that if I hadn’t interfered, he would never have known and wouldn’t have had to feel that shame, what am I supposed to say to him then? That’s what I can’t stop thinking about.”
“You can say to him that a young man who is sorry for having gone to his mother when, in her last hours, she lay groaning for him on a pallet in a penitentiary, deserves more than the sharpest pang he can possibly feel.” And the little fiddler, getting up, went over to the fireplace and shook out the ashes of his pipe.
“You can tell him that a young man who regrets going to his mother when, in her final hours, she was calling out for him on a mat in a prison, deserves more than the worst pain he could ever experience.” And the little fiddler, standing up, walked over to the fireplace and emptied the ashes from his pipe.
“Well, I am sure it’s natural he should feel badly,” said Miss Pynsent, folding up her work with the same desperate quickness that had animated her throughout the evening.
“Well, I’m sure it’s natural for him to feel bad,” said Miss Pynsent, folding up her work with the same frantic urgency that had driven her all evening.
“I haven’t the least objection to his feeling badly; that’s not the worst thing in the world! If a few more people felt badly, in this sodden, stolid, stupid race of ours, the world would wake up to an idea or two, and we should see the beginning of the dance. It’s the dull acceptance, the absence of reflection, the impenetrable density.” Here Mr Vetch stopped short; his hostess stood before him with eyes of entreaty, with clasped hands.
“I have no problem with him feeling upset; that's not the worst thing ever! If more people felt upset in this heavy, unthinking, foolish society of ours, the world might finally catch on to a few ideas, and we could start to see some change. It’s the mindless acceptance, the lack of reflection, the thick ignorance.” Here Mr. Vetch paused; his hostess stood before him with pleading eyes and clasped hands.
“Now, Anastasius Vetch, don’t go off into them dreadful wild theories!” she cried, always ungrammatical when she was strongly moved. “You always fly away over the house-tops. I thought you liked him better—the dear little unfortunate.”
“Now, Anastasius Vetch, don’t go off into those awful wild theories!” she exclaimed, always ungrammatical when she was really upset. “You always run away over the rooftops. I thought you liked him more—the poor little guy.”
Anastasius Vetch had pocketed his pipe; he put on his hat with the freedom of old acquaintance and of Lomax Place, and took up his small coffin-like fiddle-case. “My good Pinnie, I don’t think you understand a word I say. It’s no use talking—do as you like!”
Anastasius Vetch had tucked away his pipe; he put on his hat casually like an old friend of Lomax Place and picked up his little coffin-shaped fiddle case. “My dear Pinnie, I don’t think you get a single thing I’m saying. There’s no point in talking—do what you want!”
“Well, I must say I don’t think it was worth your coming in at midnight only to tell me that. I don’t like anything—I hate the whole dreadful business!”
“Well, I have to say I don’t think it was worth you coming in at midnight just to tell me that. I don’t like anything—I hate the whole awful situation!”
He bent over, in his short plumpness, to kiss her hand, as he had seen people do on the stage. “My dear friend, we have different ideas, and I never shall succeed in driving mine into your head. It’s because I am fond of him, poor little devil; but you will never understand that. I want him to know everything, and especially the worst—the worst, as I have said. If I were in his position, I shouldn’t thank you for trying to make a fool of me!”
He leaned down, in his short, stocky build, to kiss her hand, just like he had seen people do on stage. “My dear friend, we have different opinions, and I’ll never manage to get mine through to you. It’s because I care about him, the poor little guy; but you'll never get that. I want him to know everything, especially the worst—exactly the worst, as I mentioned. If I were in his shoes, I wouldn’t thank you for trying to make a fool out of me!”
“A fool of you? as if I thought of anything but his ’appiness!” Amanda Pynsent exclaimed. She stood looking at him, but following her own reflections; she had given up the attempt to enter into his whims. She remembered, what she had noticed before, in other occurrences, that his reasons were always more extraordinary than his behaviour itself; if you only considered his life you wouldn’t have thought him so fanciful. “Very likely I think too much of that,” she added. “She wants him and cries for him: that’s what keeps coming back to me.” She took up her lamp to light Mr Vetch to the door (for the dim luminary in the passage had long since been extinguished), and before he left the house he turned, suddenly, stopping short, and said, his composed face taking a strange expression from the quizzical glimmer of his little round eyes—
“A fool of you? As if I cared about anything but his happiness!” Amanda Pynsent exclaimed. She stood there looking at him, but lost in her own thoughts; she had given up trying to understand his quirks. She recalled, as she had before in other situations, that his reasoning was always more out there than his actual behavior; if you just looked at his life, you wouldn’t think he was so eccentric. “I probably think too much about that,” she added. “She wants him and cries for him: that’s what keeps coming back to me.” She picked up her lamp to guide Mr. Vetch to the door (because the dim light in the hallway had long since gone out), and before he left the house, he suddenly turned, stopping short, and said, his calm face taking on a strange look from the playful glint in his little round eyes—
“What does it matter after all, and why do you worry? What difference can it make what happens—on either side—to such low people?”
“What does it matter anyway, and why are you so worried? What difference does it make what happens—on either side—to such insignificant people?”
III
Mrs Bowerbank had let her know she would meet her, almost at the threshold of the dreadful place; and this thought had sustained Miss Pynsent in her long and devious journey, performed partly on foot, partly in a succession of omnibuses. She had had ideas about a cab, but she decided to reserve the cab for the return, as then, very likely, she should be so shaken with emotion, so overpoweringly affected, that it would be a comfort to escape from observation. She had no confidence that if once she passed the door of the prison she should ever be restored to liberty and her customers; it seemed to her an adventure as dangerous as it was dismal, and she was immensely touched by the clear-faced eagerness of the child at her side, who strained forward as brightly as he had done on another occasion, still celebrated in Miss Pynsent’s industrious annals, a certain sultry Saturday in August, when she had taken him to the Tower. It had been a terrible question with her, when once she made up her mind, what she should tell him about the nature of their errand. She determined to tell him as little as possible, to say only that she was going to see a poor woman who was in prison on account of a crime she had committed years before, and who had sent for her, and caused her to be told at the same time that if there was any child she could see—as children (if they were good) were bright and cheering—it would make her very happy that such a little visitor should come as well. It was very difficult, with Hyacinth, to make reservations or mysteries; he wanted to know everything about everything, and he projected the light of a hundred questions upon Miss Pynsent’s incarcerated friend. She had to admit that she had been her friend (for where else was the obligation to go to see her?); but she spoke of the acquaintance as if it were of the slightest (it had survived in the memory of the prisoner only because every one else—the world was so very hard!—had turned away from her), and she congratulated herself on a happy inspiration when she represented the crime for which such a penalty had been exacted as the theft of a gold watch, in a moment of irresistible temptation. The woman had had a wicked husband, who maltreated and deserted her, and she was very poor, almost starving, dreadfully pressed. Hyacinth listened to her history with absorbed attention, and then he said—
Mrs. Bowerbank had informed her that she would meet her almost at the entrance of that awful place; and this thought had kept Miss Pynsent going during her long, winding journey, which she had made partly on foot and partly on a series of buses. She had considered taking a cab, but she decided to save that for the return trip because, by then, she would probably be so overwhelmed with emotion that it would feel nice to avoid being seen. She had no confidence that once she stepped through the prison doors, she would ever be free or able to return to her customers; it felt like an adventure as dangerous as it was grim, and she was deeply moved by the eager, bright-faced child beside her, who leaned forward just as enthusiastically as he had on that memorable hot Saturday in August when she had taken him to the Tower. It had been a challenging decision for her; once she resolved to go, she was unsure what to tell him about their purpose. She decided to keep it minimal, explaining only that she was going to see a poor woman who was in prison for a crime she had committed years ago, and who had asked for her to visit. She added that if there was any child she could see—since children (if they were good) were bright and uplifting—it would make that woman very happy to have such a little visitor too. It was very difficult with Hyacinth to hold back or keep secrets; he wanted to know everything about everything and bombarded Miss Pynsent with a hundred questions about her imprisoned friend. She had to admit that she had been her friend (for that was the only reason she felt obligated to visit her), but she spoke of the acquaintance as if it were trivial (the prisoner remembered her only because everyone else—the world is so harsh!—had turned away). She patted herself on the back for a clever idea when she described the crime that had led to such punishment as the theft of a gold watch in a moment of overwhelming temptation. The woman had a terrible husband who abused and abandoned her, leaving her very poor, nearly starving, and in dire straits. Hyacinth listened to her story with rapt attention, and then he said—
“And hadn’t she any children—hadn’t she a little boy?”
“And didn’t she have any kids—didn’t she have a little boy?”
This inquiry seemed to Miss Pynsent a portent of future embarrassments, but she met it as bravely as she could, and replied that she believed the wretched victim of the law had had (once upon a time) a very small baby, but she was afraid she had completely lost sight of it. He must know they didn’t allow babies in prisons. To this Hyacinth rejoined that of course they would allow him, because he was—really—big. Miss Pynsent fortified herself with the memory of her other pilgrimage, to Newgate, upwards of ten years before; she had escaped from that ordeal, and had even had the comfort of knowing that in its fruits the interview had been beneficent. The responsibility, however, was much greater now, and, after all, it was not on her own account she was in a nervous tremor, but on that of the urchin over whom the shadow of the house of shame might cast itself.
This question made Miss Pynsent feel anxious about future troubles, but she faced it as bravely as she could and replied that she believed the unfortunate person caught up in the law had once had a very small baby, but she was afraid she had completely lost track of it. He must know they didn’t allow babies in prisons. To this, Hyacinth replied that of course, they would allow him because he was—really—big. Miss Pynsent reminded herself of her previous visit to Newgate, over ten years ago; she had gotten through that experience and even found comfort in knowing it had some positive outcomes. However, the responsibility was much greater now, and, after all, it wasn’t for herself that she felt so nervous, but for the child who might be overshadowed by the disgrace of the house of shame.
They made the last part of their approach on foot, having got themselves deposited as near as possible to the river and keeping beside it (according to advice elicited by Miss Pynsent, on the way, in a dozen confidential interviews with policemen, conductors of omnibuses, and small shopkeepers), till they came to a big, dark building with towers, which they would know as soon as they looked at it. They knew it, in fact, soon enough, when they saw it lift its dusky mass from the bank of the Thames, lying there and sprawling over the whole neighbourhood, with brown, bare, windowless walls, ugly, truncated pinnacles, and a character unspeakably sad and stern. It looked very sinister and wicked, to Miss Pynsent’s eyes, and she wondered why a prison should have such an evil face if it was erected in the interest of justice and order—an expression of the righteous forces of society. This particular penitentiary struck her as about as bad and wrong as those who were in it; it threw a blight over the whole place and made the river look foul and poisonous, and the opposite bank, with its protrusion of long-necked chimneys, unsightly gasometers and deposits of rubbish, wear the aspect of a region at whose expense the jail had been populated. She looked up at the dull, closed gates, tightening her grasp of Hyacinth’s small hand; and if it was hard to believe anything so blind and deaf and closely fastened would relax itself to let her in, there was a dreadful premonitory sinking of the heart attached to the idea of its taking the same trouble to let her out. As she hung back, murmuring vague ejaculations, at the very goal of her journey, an incident occurred which fanned all her scruples and reluctances into life again. The child suddenly jerked his hand out of her own, and placing it behind him, in the clutch of the other, said to her respectfully but resolutely, while he planted himself at a considerable distance—
They made the last part of their journey on foot, having gotten as close to the river as possible and walking alongside it (based on advice gathered by Miss Pynsent during a dozen private chats with policemen, bus drivers, and small shopkeepers) until they reached a large, dark building with towers, which they would recognize as soon as they saw it. In fact, they recognized it quickly when they saw its gloomy silhouette rise from the bank of the Thames, sprawling over the entire area with its brown, bare, windowless walls, ugly, chopped-off peaks, and a character that was profoundly sad and serious. To Miss Pynsent, it looked very sinister and wicked, and she wondered why a prison would have such an evil appearance if it was built in the name of justice and order—representing the righteous forces of society. This particular jail struck her as just as bad and wrong as the people inside it; it cast a shadow over the whole area, making the river seem foul and toxic, and the opposite bank, with its long-necked chimneys, unsightly gas storage tanks, and piles of garbage, look like a place made miserable by the prison's presence. She looked up at the dull, closed gates, tightening her grip on Hyacinth’s small hand; and while it was hard to believe that something so blind and locked up could open to let her in, there was a terrifying feeling in her heart associated with the thought of it making the same effort to let her out. As she hesitated, mumbling vague protestations, right at the end of her journey, something happened that reignited all her doubts and hesitations. The child suddenly pulled his hand away from hers, placing it behind him, now in the grip of the other, and said to her respectfully yet firmly, as he positioned himself at a good distance—
“I don’t like this place.”
"I don't like this spot."
“Neither do I like it, my darling,” cried the dressmaker, pitifully. “Oh, if you knew how little!”
“Neither do I like it, my dear,” the dressmaker exclaimed, feeling sorry. “Oh, if you only knew how little!”
“Then we will go away. I won’t go in.”
“Then we’ll leave. I’m not going in.”
She would have embraced this proposition with alacrity if it had not become very vivid to her while she stood there, in the midst of her shrinking, that behind those sullen walls the mother who bore him was even then counting the minutes. She was alive, in that huge, dark tomb, and it seemed to Miss Pynsent that they had already entered into relation with her. They were near her, and she knew it; in a few minutes she would taste the cup of the only mercy (except the reprieve from hanging!) she had known since her fall. A few, a very few minutes would do it, and it seemed to Miss Pynsent that if she should fail of her charity now the watches of the night, in Lomax Place, would be haunted with remorse—perhaps even with something worse. There was something inside that waited and listened, something that would burst, with an awful sound, a shriek, or a curse, if she were to lead the boy away. She looked into his pale face for a moment, perfectly conscious that it would be vain for her to take the tone of command; besides, that would have seemed to her shocking. She had another inspiration, and she said to him in a manner in which she had had occasion to speak before—
She would have jumped at this offer if it hadn’t become so clear to her while she stood there, feeling herself shrink, that behind those gloomy walls, the mother who gave him life was even then counting down the minutes. She was alive, in that huge, dark prison, and Miss Pynsent felt like they were already connected to her. They were close, and she was aware of it; in a few minutes, she would experience the only mercy she had known since her downfall (besides the stay of execution!). Just a couple of minutes would make it happen, and Miss Pynsent thought that if she didn’t show her compassion now, the hours of the night in Lomax Place would be filled with regret—maybe even something worse. There was something inside that waited and listened, something that would explode, with a terrible sound, a scream, or a curse, if she tried to take the boy away. She glanced at his pale face for a moment, fully aware that it would be pointless for her to try to give orders; besides, that would seem shocking to her. Then she had another idea, and she spoke to him in a way she had used before—
“The reason why we have come is only to be kind. If we are kind we shan’t mind its being disagreeable.”
“The reason we're here is simply to be kind. If we're kind, we won’t mind if it’s unpleasant.”
“Why should we be kind, if she’s a bad woman?” Hyacinth inquired. “She must be very low; I don’t want to know her.”
“Why should we be nice, if she’s a terrible person?” Hyacinth asked. “She must be really low; I don’t want to get to know her.”
“Hush, hush,” groaned poor Amanda, edging toward him with clasped hands. “She is not bad now; it has all been washed away—it has been expiated.”
“Hush, hush,” groaned poor Amanda, moving closer to him with her hands clasped. “She’s not bad now; it’s all been washed away—it’s been made right.”
“What’s expiated?” asked the child, while she almost kneeled down in the dust, catching him to her bosom.
“What’s expiated?” asked the child, as she nearly knelt in the dirt, pulling him close to her chest.
“It’s when you have suffered terribly—suffered so much that it has made you good again.”
“It’s when you’ve been through so much pain—pain that has made you a better person again.”
“Has she suffered very much?”
“Has she been through a lot?”
“For years and years. And now she is dying. It proves she is very good now, that she should want to see us.”
“For years and years. And now she is dying. It shows how much she cares now that she wants to see us.”
“Do you mean because we are good?” Hyacinth went on, probing the matter in a way that made his companion quiver, and gazing away from her, very seriously, across the river, at the dreary waste of Battersea.
“Are you saying it’s because we are good?” Hyacinth continued, delving into the issue in a way that made his companion shiver, while he stared intently away from her, very seriously, across the river at the bleak expanse of Battersea.
“We shall be good if we are pitiful, if we make an effort,” said the dressmaker, seeming to look up at him rather than down.
“We’ll be better if we show compassion and make an effort,” said the dressmaker, seeming to look up at him rather than down.
“But if she is dying? I don’t want to see any one die.”
“But what if she's dying? I don’t want to watch anyone die.”
Miss Pynsent was bewildered, but she rejoined, desperately, “If we go to her, perhaps she won’t. Maybe we shall save her.”
Miss Pynsent was confused, but she replied urgently, “If we go to her, maybe she won’t. Perhaps we can save her.”
He transferred his remarkable little eyes—eyes which always appeared to her to belong to a person older than herself, to her face; and then he inquired, “Why should I save her, if I don’t like her?”
He moved his striking little eyes—eyes that always seemed to her to belong to someone older than herself—toward her face; and then he asked, “Why should I save her if I don’t like her?”
“If she likes you, that will be enough.”
“If she likes you, that will be enough.”
At this Miss Pynsent began to see that he was moved. “Will she like me very much?”
At this, Miss Pynsent started to realize that he was affected. “Will she like me a lot?”
“More, much more than any one.”
"Way more than anyone else."
“More than you, now?”
"More than you now?"
“Oh,” said Amanda quickly, “I mean more than she likes any one.”
“Oh,” Amanda said quickly, “I mean more than she likes anyone.”
Hyacinth had slipped his hands into the pockets of his scanty knickerbockers, and, with his legs slightly apart, he looked from his companion back to the immense dreary jail. A great deal, to Miss Pynsent’s sense, depended on that moment. “Oh, well,” he said, at last, “I’ll just step in.”
Hyacinth had shoved his hands into the pockets of his short pants and, with his legs a little apart, glanced from his friend back to the huge, gloomy jail. A lot was riding on that moment for Miss Pynsent. “Oh, well,” he finally said, “I’ll just go in.”
“Deary, deary!” the dressmaker murmured to herself, as they crossed the bare semicircle which separated the gateway from the unfrequented street. She exerted herself to pull the bell, which seemed to her terribly big and stiff, and while she waited, again, for the consequences of this effort, the boy broke out, abruptly—
“Goodness gracious!” the dressmaker whispered to herself as they crossed the empty semicircle that separated the entrance from the quiet street. She strained to pull the bell, which felt incredibly large and stiff to her, and while she waited for the result of this effort, the boy suddenly exclaimed—
“How can she like me so much if she doesn’t know me?”
“How can she like me so much if she doesn’t really know me?”
Miss Pynsent wished the gate would open before an answer to this question should become imperative, but the people within were a long time arriving, and their delay gave Hyacinth an opportunity to repeat it. So the dressmaker rejoined, seizing the first pretext that came into her head, “It’s because the little baby she had, of old, was also named Hyacinth.”
Miss Pynsent hoped the gate would open before she had to answer this question, but the people inside took a long time to arrive, and their delay gave Hyacinth a chance to ask again. So the dressmaker responded, grabbing the first excuse that popped into her head, “It’s because the little baby she had before was also named Hyacinth.”
“That’s a queer reason,” the boy murmured, staring across again at the Battersea shore.
"That's a strange reason," the boy murmured, staring across at the Battersea shore again.
A moment afterwards they found themselves in a vast interior dimness, with a grinding of keys and bolts going on behind them. Hereupon Miss Pynsent gave herself up to an overruling providence, and she remembered, later, no circumstance of what happened to her until the great person of Mrs Bowerbank loomed before her in the narrowness of a strange, dark corridor. She only had a confused impression of being surrounded with high black walls, whose inner face was more dreadful than the other, the one that overlooked the river; of passing through gray, stony courts, in some of which dreadful figures, scarcely female, in hideous brown, misfitting uniforms and perfect frights of hoods, were marching round in a circle; of squeezing up steep, unlighted staircases at the heels of a woman who had taken possession of her at the first stage, and who made incomprehensible remarks to other women, of lumpish aspect, as she saw them erect themselves, suddenly and spectrally, with dowdy untied bonnets, in uncanny corners and recesses of the draughty labyrinth. If the place had seemed cruel to the poor little dressmaker outside, it may be believed that it did not strike her as an abode of mercy while she pursued her tortuous way into the circular shafts of cells, where she had an opportunity of looking at captives through grated peepholes and of edging past others who had temporarily been turned into the corridors—silent women, with fixed eyes, who flattened themselves against the stone walls at the brush of the visitor’s dress and whom Miss Pynsent was afraid to glance at. She never had felt so immured, so made sure of; there were walls within walls and galleries on top of galleries; even the daylight lost its colour, and you couldn’t imagine what o’clock it was. Mrs Bowerbank appeared to have failed her, and that made her feel worse; a panic seized her, as she went, in regard to the child. On him, too, the horror of the place would have fallen, and she had a sickening prevision that he would have convulsions after they got home. It was a most improper place to have brought him, no matter who had sent for him and no matter who was dying. The stillness would terrify him, she was sure—the penitential dumbness of the clustered or isolated women. She clasped his hand more tightly, and she felt him keep close to her, without speaking a word. At last, in an open doorway, darkened by her ample person, Mrs Bowerbank revealed herself, and Miss Pynsent thought it (afterwards) a sign of her place and power that she should not condescend to apologise for not having appeared till that moment, or to explain why she had not met the bewildered pilgrims near the principal entrance, according to her promise. Miss Pynsent could not embrace the state of mind of people who didn’t apologise, though she vaguely envied and admired it, she herself spending much of her time in making excuses for obnoxious acts she had not committed. Mrs Bowerbank, however, was not arrogant, she was only massive and muscular; and after she had taken her timorous friends in tow the dressmaker was able to comfort herself with the reflection that even so masterful a woman couldn’t inflict anything gratuitously disagreeable on a person who had made her visit in Lomax Place pass off so pleasantly.
A moment later, they found themselves in a vast, dim interior, with the sound of keys and bolts grinding behind them. At that point, Miss Pynsent surrendered to an overwhelming fate, and later she remembered nothing about what happened to her until Mrs. Bowerbank appeared before her in the narrow darkness of a strange corridor. She only had a jumbled impression of being surrounded by high black walls, which looked more terrifying than the side facing the river; of moving through gray, stony courtyards, where unsettling figures, barely resembling women, in ugly, ill-fitting uniforms and frightening hoods, were marching in circles; of squeezing up steep, dark staircases trailing behind a woman who seized her at the beginning and made incomprehensible comments to other women who looked lumpish as they suddenly rose up, almost ghostlike, with dowdy, untied bonnets, in eerie corners of the drafty maze. If the place had felt harsh to the poor little dressmaker outside, it certainly didn’t seem like a refuge while she made her way into the round shafts of cells, where she could catch glimpses of captives through grated peepholes and sidestep others who had temporarily been pushed into the corridors—silent women with vacant stares who pressed themselves against the stone walls at the brush of the visitor’s dress, and whom Miss Pynsent feared to look at. She had never felt so confined, so trapped; there were walls within walls and galleries stacked on top of one another; even the daylight seemed drained of color, and she couldn’t tell what time it was. Mrs. Bowerbank seemed to have failed her, which made her feel worse; panic gripped her regarding the child. The horror of the place would have affected him too, and she had a sickening premonition that he would have convulsions after they got home. This was a completely inappropriate place to have brought him, regardless of who had sent for him or who was dying. The eerie silence would surely terrify him—the oppressive stillness of the clustered or isolated women. She held his hand tighter, feeling him stay close to her without saying a word. Finally, in a darkened doorway obscured by her ample figure, Mrs. Bowerbank revealed herself, and Miss Pynsent thought it (later) indicated her status and authority that she didn’t bother to apologize for not appearing until that moment, or to explain why she hadn’t greeted the bewildered visitors near the main entrance as she had promised. Miss Pynsent couldn’t understand the mindset of people who didn’t apologize, even though she somewhat envied and admired it, as she often spent her time making excuses for unpleasant things she hadn’t done. However, Mrs. Bowerbank wasn’t arrogant; she was simply imposing and strong; and after she took her anxious friends under her wing, the dressmaker was able to reassure herself that even such a dominant woman couldn’t impose anything unpleasant on someone who had made her visit in Lomax Place so enjoyable.
It was on the outskirts of the infirmary that she had been hovering, and it was into certain dismal chambers dedicated to sick criminals, that she presently ushered her companions. These chambers were naked and grated, like all the rest of the place, and caused Miss Pynsent to say to herself that it must be a blessing to be ill in such a hole, because you couldn’t possibly pick up again, and then your case was simple. Such simplification, however, had for the moment been offered to very few of Florentine’s fellow-sufferers, for only three of the small, stiff beds were occupied—occupied by white-faced women in tight, sordid caps, on whom, in the stale, ugly room, the sallow light itself seemed to rest without pity. Mrs Bowerbank discreetly paid no attention whatever to Hyacinth; she only said to Miss Pynsent, with her hoarse distinctness, “You’ll find her very low; she wouldn’t have waited another day.” And she guided them, through a still further door, to the smallest room of all, where there were but three beds, placed in a row. Miss Pynsent’s frightened eyes rather faltered than inquired, but she became aware that a woman was lying on the middle bed, and that her face was turned toward the door. Mrs Bowerbank led the way straight up to her, and, giving a business-like pat to her pillow, looked invitation and encouragement to the visitors, who clung together not far within the threshold. Their conductress reminded them that very few minutes were allowed them, and that they had better not dawdle them away; whereupon, as the boy still hung back, the little dressmaker advanced alone, looking at the sick woman with what courage she could muster. It seemed to her that she was approaching a perfect stranger, so completely had nine years of prison transformed Florentine. She felt, immediately, that it was a mercy she hadn’t told Hyacinth she was pretty (as she used to be), for there was no beauty left in the hollow, bloodless mask that presented itself without a movement. She had told him that the poor woman was good, but she didn’t look so, nor, evidently, was he struck with it as he stared back at her across the interval he declined to traverse, kept (at the same time) from retreating by her strange, fixed eyes, the only portion of all her wasted person in which there was still any appearance of life. She looked unnatural to Amanda Pynsent, and terribly old; a speechless, motionless creature, dazed and stupid, whereas Florentine Vivier, in the obliterated past, had been her idea of personal, as distinguished from social, brilliancy. Above all she seemed disfigured and ugly, cruelly misrepresented by her coarse cap and short, rough hair. Amanda, as she stood beside her, thought with a sort of scared elation that Hyacinth would never guess that a person in whom there was so little trace of smartness—or of cleverness of any kind—was his mother. At the very most it might occur to him, as Mrs Bowerbank had suggested, that she was his grandmother. Mrs Bowerbank seated herself on the further bed, with folded hands, like a monumental timekeeper, and remarked, in the manner of one speaking from a sense of duty, that the poor thing wouldn’t get much good of the child unless he showed more confidence. This observation was evidently lost upon the boy; he was too intensely absorbed in watching the prisoner. A chair had been placed at the head of her bed, and Miss Pynsent sat down without her appearing to notice it. In a moment, however, she lifted her hand a little, pushing it out from under the coverlet, and the dressmaker laid her own hand softly upon it. This gesture elicited no response, but after a little, still gazing at the boy, Florentine murmured, in words no one present was in a position to understand—
It was on the edge of the infirmary that she had been lingering, and it was into some gloomy rooms designated for sick criminals that she now led her companions. These rooms were bare and fitted with bars, just like the rest of the place, making Miss Pynsent think to herself that it must be a relief to be ill in such a setting, because you couldn’t possibly recover, and then your situation was straightforward. However, this simplification had so far been available to very few of Florentine’s fellow patients, as only three of the small, stiff beds were occupied—occupied by pale-faced women in tight, shabby caps, on whom, in the stale, uninviting room, the sickly light itself seemed to linger without compassion. Mrs. Bowerbank discreetly ignored Hyacinth; she only said to Miss Pynsent, in her hoarse tone, “You’ll find her very low; she wouldn’t have waited another day.” And she led them through another door to the smallest room of all, where there were only three beds lined up in a row. Miss Pynsent’s frightened eyes hesitated more than they questioned, but she noticed that a woman was lying on the middle bed, facing the door. Mrs. Bowerbank moved straight to her, and, giving a practical pat to her pillow, looked at the visitors with an invitation and encouragement, who huddled close together just inside the doorway. Their guide reminded them that they only had a few minutes and should not waste them; then, as the boy still lingered back, the little dressmaker moved forward alone, mustering whatever courage she could to look at the sick woman. It felt to her like she was approaching a complete stranger, as nine years of imprisonment had completely changed Florentine. She suddenly realized it was a mercy she hadn’t told Hyacinth she was pretty (as she used to be), for there was no beauty left in the hollow, pale mask that lay there without a motion. She had told him that the poor woman was good, but she didn’t appear that way, nor was he evidently struck by it as he stared back at her across the distance he hesitated to cross, held back (at the same time) from retreating by her strange, fixed gaze, the only part of her wasted body that still had any sign of life. She looked unnatural to Amanda Pynsent, and frightfully old; a silent, still being, dazed and blank, whereas Florentine Vivier, in the distant past, had been her idea of personal, as opposed to social, brilliance. Above all, she seemed disfigured and unattractive, cruelly misrepresented by her coarse cap and short, rough hair. Amanda, as she stood beside her, thought with a sort of anxious thrill that Hyacinth would never guess that someone who showed so little sign of style—or of any cleverness—could be his mother. At the very most, it might occur to him, as Mrs. Bowerbank had suggested, that she was his grandmother. Mrs. Bowerbank sat on the far bed, with her hands folded, like a monumental timekeeper, and remarked, in a tone of duty, that the poor woman wouldn’t benefit much from the child unless he showed more confidence. This comment seemed to be lost on the boy; he was too deeply focused on watching the prisoner. A chair had been placed at the head of her bed, and Miss Pynsent sat down without the woman appearing to notice. In a moment, however, she slightly lifted her hand, pushing it out from under the cover, and the dressmaker softly laid her own hand on top of it. This gesture drew no response, but after a little while, still gazing at the boy, Florentine murmured words that no one present could understand—
“Dieu de Dieu, qu’il est beau!”
God of God, how beautiful he is!
“She won’t speak nothing but French since she has been so bad—you can’t get a natural word out of her,” Mrs Bowerbank said.
“She won’t say anything but French since she’s been so bad—you can’t get a real word out of her,” Mrs. Bowerbank said.
“It used to be so pretty when she spoke English—and so very amusing,” Miss Pynsent ventured to announce, with a feeble attempt to brighten up the scene. “I suppose she has forgotten it all.”
“It used to be so lovely when she spoke English—and so entertaining,” Miss Pynsent dared to say, trying weakly to lighten the mood. “I guess she has forgotten everything.”
“She may well have forgotten it—she never gave her tongue much exercise. There was little enough trouble to keep her from chattering,” Mrs Bowerbank rejoined, giving a twitch to the prisoner’s counterpane. Miss Pynsent settled it a little on the other side and considered, in the same train, that this separation of language was indeed a mercy; for how could it ever come into her small companion’s head that he was the offspring of a person who couldn’t so much as say good morning to him? She felt, at the same time, that the scene might have been somewhat less painful if they had been able to communicate with the object of their compassion. As it was, they had too much the air of having been brought together simply to look at each other, and there was a grewsome awkwardness in that, considering the delicacy of Florentine’s position. Not, indeed, that she looked much at her old comrade; it was as if she were conscious of Miss Pynsent’s being there, and would have been glad to thank her for it—glad even to examine her for her own sake, and see what change, for her, too, the horrible years had brought, but felt, more than this, that she had but the thinnest pulse of energy left and that not a moment that could still be of use to her was too much to take in her child. She took him in with all the glazed entreaty of her eyes, quite giving up his poor little protectress, who evidently would have to take her gratitude for granted. Hyacinth, on his side, after some moments of embarrassing silence—there was nothing audible but Mrs Bowerbank’s breathing—had satisfied himself, and he turned about to look for a place of patience while Miss Pynsent should finish her business, which as yet made so little show. He appeared to wish not to leave the room altogether, as that would be a confession of a vanquished spirit, but to take some attitude that should express his complete disapproval of the unpleasant situation. He was not in sympathy, and he could not have made it more clear than by the way he presently went and placed himself on a low stool, in a corner, near the door by which they had entered.
“She might have forgotten it—she never used her words much. There was hardly any reason to stop her from talking,” Mrs. Bowerbank replied, adjusting the prisoner’s blanket. Miss Pynsent smoothed it a bit on the other side and thought, at the same time, that the language barrier was indeed a mercy; how could her little companion ever understand that he was the child of someone who couldn’t even say good morning to him? She also felt that the situation might have been less painful if they could have talked to the person they were concerned about. As it was, they just seemed to be there to stare at each other, and that felt awkward given Florentine's delicate situation. Not that she looked much at her old friend; it was as if she was aware of Miss Pynsent being there and would have liked to thank her for being there—happy even to see how much had changed for her over the horrible years—but she felt, even more than that, that she had only the faintest spark of energy left, and every moment should be focused on her child. She took him in with the earnest look in her eyes, completely ignoring his poor little protector, who clearly had to take her gratitude for granted. Hyacinth, on his part, after a few moments of uncomfortable silence—where only Mrs. Bowerbank’s breathing was audible—had come to terms with the situation, and he turned to find a spot to wait while Miss Pynsent finished her task, which was still making little progress. He seemed to want to stay in the room, as leaving would be a sign of surrender, but also to find a position that would show his complete disapproval of the awkward situation. He was not on board with this, and he couldn't have made it clearer than by moving to sit on a low stool in a corner, near the door they had entered through.
“Est-il possible, mon Dieu, qu’il soit gentil comme ça?” his mother moaned, just above her breath.
“Is it possible, my God, that he's this nice?” his mother moaned, just above a whisper.
“We are very glad you should have cared—that they look after you so well,” said Miss Pynsent, confusedly, at random; feeling, first, that Hyacinth’s coldness was perhaps excessive and his scepticism too marked, and then that allusions to the way the poor woman was looked after were not exactly happy. They didn’t matter, however, for she evidently heard nothing, giving no sign of interest even when Mrs Bowerbank, in a tone between a desire to make the interview more lively and an idea of showing that she knew how to treat the young, referred herself to the little boy.
“We’re really glad you care—that they take such good care of you,” said Miss Pynsent, awkwardly, trying to say something; first feeling that Hyacinth’s coldness might be too much and his skepticism too obvious, and then realizing that mentions of how well the poor woman was looked after weren’t exactly appropriate. It didn’t matter, though, since she clearly wasn’t paying attention, showing no interest even when Mrs. Bowerbank, trying to make the conversation more engaging while also demonstrating her knowledge of how to interact with young people, mentioned the little boy.
“Is there nothing the little gentleman would like to say, now, to the unfortunate? Hasn’t he any pleasant remark to make to her about his coming so far to see her when she’s so sunk? It isn’t often that children are shown over the place (as the little man has been), and there’s many that would think they were lucky if they could see what he has seen.”
“Does the little gentleman have nothing to say now to the unfortunate one? Doesn't he have any nice comment for her about coming this far to see her while she’s feeling so low? It’s not every day that children get shown around like he has, and a lot of people would feel lucky just to see what he has seen.”
“Mon pauvre joujou, mon pauvre chéri,” the prisoner went on, in her tender, tragic whisper.
“My poor little toy, my poor darling,” the prisoner continued, in her soft, heartbreaking whisper.
“He only wants to be very good; he always sits that way at home,” said Miss Pynsent, alarmed at Mrs Bowerbank’s address and hoping there wouldn’t be a scene.
“He just wants to be really good; he always sits like that at home,” said Miss Pynsent, worried about Mrs. Bowerbank’s tone and hoping there wouldn’t be a scene.
“He might have stayed at home then—with this wretched person moaning after him,” Mrs Bowerbank remarked, with some sternness. She plainly felt that the occasion threatened to be wanting in brilliancy, and wished to intimate that though she was to be trusted for discipline, she thought they were all getting off too easily.
“He could have just stayed home to avoid this miserable person whining after him,” Mrs. Bowerbank said firmly. She clearly felt that the situation was lacking excitement and wanted to suggest that although she could be counted on for keeping things in order, she believed they were all getting off too easily.
“I came because Pinnie brought me,” Hyacinth declared, from his low perch. “I thought at first it would be pleasant. But it ain’t pleasant—I don’t like prisons.” And he placed his little feet on the cross-piece of the stool, as if to touch the institution at as few points as possible.
“I came because Pinnie brought me,” Hyacinth said from his low seat. “At first, I thought it would be nice. But it’s not nice—I don’t like prisons.” And he placed his little feet on the cross-bar of the stool, as if to touch the place at as few points as possible.
The woman in bed continued her strange, almost whining plaint. “Il ne veut pas s’approcher, il a honte de moi.”
The woman in bed continued her strange, almost whining complaint. “He doesn’t want to come near me, he’s ashamed of me.”
“There’s a many that begin like that!” laughed Mrs Bowerbank, who was irritated by the boy’s contempt for one of her Majesty’s finest establishments.
“There are a lot of people who start like that!” laughed Mrs. Bowerbank, who was annoyed by the boy’s disrespect for one of her Majesty’s best establishments.
Hyacinth’s little white face exhibited no confusion; he only turned it to the prisoner again, and Miss Pynsent felt that some extraordinary dumb exchange of meanings was taking place between them. “She used to be so elegant; she was a fine woman,” she observed, gently and helplessly.
Hyacinth’s small white face showed no confusion; he just turned it back to the prisoner, and Miss Pynsent sensed that some extraordinary silent communication was happening between them. “She used to be so elegant; she was a fine woman,” she remarked, softly and helplessly.
“Il a honte de moi—il a honte, Dieu le pardonne!” Florentine Vivier went on, never moving her eyes.
He's ashamed of me—he's ashamed, God forgive him! Florentine Vivier continued, never taking her eyes away.
“She’s asking for something, in her language. I used to know a few words,” said Miss Pynsent, stroking down the bed, very nervously.
“She’s asking for something in her own language. I used to know a few words,” said Miss Pynsent, nervously smoothing down the bed.
“Who is that woman? what does she want?” Hyacinth asked, his small, clear voice ringing over the dreary room.
“Who is that woman? What does she want?” Hyacinth asked, his small, clear voice echoing through the gloomy room.
“She wants you to come near her, she wants to kiss you, sir,” said Mrs Bowerbank, as if it were more than he deserved.
“She wants you to come closer, she wants to kiss you, sir,” said Mrs. Bowerbank, as if it were more than he deserved.
“I won’t kiss her; Pinnie says she stole a watch!” the child answered with resolution.
“I’m not going to kiss her; Pinnie says she stole a watch!” the child replied firmly.
“Oh, you dreadful—how could you ever?” cried Pinnie, blushing all over and starting out of her chair.
“Oh, you terrible person—how could you do that?” Pinnie exclaimed, her face turning bright red as she jumped out of her chair.
It was partly Amanda’s agitation, perhaps, which, by the jolt it administered, gave an impulse to the sick woman, and partly the penetrating and expressive tone in which Hyacinth announced his repugnance: at any rate, Florentine, in the most unexpected and violent manner, jerked herself up from her pillow, and, with dilated eyes and waving hands, shrieked out, “Ah, quelle infamie! I never stole a watch, I never stole anything—anything! Ah, par exemple!” Then she fell back, sobbing with the passion that had given her a moment’s strength.
It was partly Amanda's agitation, maybe, which, by shocking her, gave the sick woman an impulse, and partly the intense and expressive tone in which Hyacinth expressed his disgust: regardless, Florentine suddenly and violently jerked herself up from her pillow and, with widened eyes and flailing hands, shouted, “Ah, quelle infamie! I never stole a watch, I never stole anything—anything! Ah, par exemple!” Then she collapsed back, sobbing from the passion that had given her a brief surge of strength.
“I’m sure you needn’t put more on her than she has by rights,” said Mrs Bowerbank, with dignity, to the dressmaker, laying a large red hand upon the patient, to keep her in her place.
“I’m sure you don’t need to add anything more than what she deserves,” said Mrs. Bowerbank, with dignity, to the dressmaker, placing a large red hand on the patient to keep her in her place.
“Mercy, more? I thought it so much less!” cried Miss Pynsent, convulsed with confusion and jerking herself, in a wild tremor, from the mother to the child, as if she wished to fling herself upon one for contrition and upon the other for revenge.
“More mercy? I thought it was way less!” cried Miss Pynsent, shaking with confusion and jerking herself, in a wild tremor, from the mother to the child, as if she wanted to throw herself at one for forgiveness and at the other for revenge.
“Il a honte de moi—il a honte de moi!” Florentine repeated, in the misery of her sobs, “Dieu de bonté, quelle horreur!”
“He’s ashamed of me—he’s ashamed of me!” Florentine repeated, through her sobs of despair, “Good God, what a nightmare!”
Miss Pynsent dropped on her knees beside the bed and, trying to possess herself of Florentine’s hand again, protested with a passion almost equal to that of the prisoner (she felt that her nerves had been screwed up to the snapping-point, and now they were all in shreds) that she hadn’t meant what she had told the child, that he hadn’t understood, that Florentine herself hadn’t understood, that she had only said she had been accused and meant that no one had ever believed it. The Frenchwoman paid no attention to her whatever, and Amanda buried her face and her embarrassment in the side of the hard little prison-bed, while, above the sound of their common lamentation, she heard the judicial tones of Mrs Bowerbank.
Miss Pynsent dropped to her knees beside the bed and, trying to take Florentine’s hand again, insisted with a passion nearly as intense as that of the prisoner (she felt like her nerves were stretched to the breaking point, and now they were completely frayed) that she hadn’t meant what she told the child, that he hadn’t understood, that Florentine herself hadn’t understood, and that she only meant to say she had been accused and meant that no one had ever believed it. The Frenchwoman ignored her completely, and Amanda buried her face in the side of the hard little prison bed, embarrassed, while, over the sound of their shared lamentation, she heard the authoritative tones of Mrs. Bowerbank.
“The child is delicate, you might well say! I’m disappointed in the effect—I was in hopes you’d hearten her up. The doctor’ll be down on me, of course; so we’ll just pass out again.”
"The kid is fragile, you might say! I’m let down by the result—I was hoping you’d boost her spirits. The doctor is going to be mad at me, of course; so let’s just leave again."
“I’m very sorry I made you cry. And you must excuse Pinnie—I asked her so many questions.”
“I’m really sorry I made you cry. And you should forgive Pinnie—I asked her a ton of questions.”
These words came from close beside the prostrate dressmaker, who, lifting herself quickly, found the little boy had advanced to her elbow and was taking a nearer view of the mysterious captive. They produced upon the latter an effect even more powerful than his unfortunate speech of a moment before; for she found strength to raise herself, partly, in her bed again, and to hold out her arms to him, with the same thrilling sobs. She was talking still, but she had become quite inarticulate, and Miss Pynsent had but a glimpse of her white, ravaged face, with the hollows of its eyes and the rude crop of her hair. Amanda caught the child with an eagerness almost as great as Florentine’s, and drawing him to the head of the bed, pushed him into his mother’s arms. “Kiss her—kiss her, and we’ll go home!” she whispered desperately, while they closed about him, and the poor dishonoured head pressed itself against his young cheek. It was a terrible, irresistible embrace, to which Hyacinth submitted with instant patience. Mrs Bowerbank had tried at first to keep her protégée from rising, evidently wishing to abbreviate the scene; then, as the child was enfolded, she accepted the situation and gave judicious support from behind, with an eye to clearing the room as soon as this effort should have spent itself. She propped up her patient with a vigorous arm; Miss Pynsent rose from her knees and turned away, and there was a minute’s stillness, during which the boy accommodated himself as he might to his strange ordeal. What thoughts were begotten at that moment in his wondering little mind Miss Pynsent was destined to learn at another time. Before she had faced round to the bed again she was swept out of the room by Mrs Bowerbank, who had lowered the prisoner, exhausted, with closed eyes, to her pillow, and given Hyacinth a business-like little push, which sent him on in advance. Miss Pynsent went home in a cab—she was so shaken; though she reflected, very nervously, on getting into it, on the opportunities it would give Hyacinth for the exercise of inquisitorial rights. To her surprise, however, he completely neglected them; he sat in silence, looking out of the window, till they re-entered Lomax Place.
These words came from right next to the collapsed dressmaker, who quickly lifted herself up and saw that the little boy had moved closer to her elbow, getting a better look at the mysterious captive. This had an even stronger effect on her than his unfortunate words moments earlier; she found the strength to raise part of herself in bed again and extend her arms to him, with the same heartbreaking sobs. She was still talking, but her words had become almost incoherent, and Miss Pynsent caught only a glimpse of her pale, ravaged face, with hollow eyes and a rough haircut. Amanda grabbed the child with eagerness almost as intense as Florentine’s, pulling him to the head of the bed and nudging him into his mother’s arms. “Kiss her—kiss her, and we’ll go home!” she whispered urgently, as they closed around him, and the poor, dishonored head pressed against his young cheek. It was a terrible, irresistible hug that Hyacinth accepted with immediate patience. Mrs. Bowerbank had initially tried to keep her protégée from getting up, clearly wanting to shorten the scene; but when the child was embraced, she accepted the situation and provided support from behind, aiming to clear the room as soon as this effort had run its course. She braced her patient with a strong arm; Miss Pynsent rose from her knees and turned away, and there was a minute of silence during which the boy tried to adjust to his strange experience. What thoughts crossed his curious little mind at that moment, Miss Pynsent would find out later. Before she could turn back to the bed, Mrs. Bowerbank pulled her out of the room, having lowered the exhausted prisoner, with her eyes closed, back to her pillow, and gave Hyacinth a practical little push to send him ahead. Miss Pynsent went home in a cab—she was so shaken; even as she nervously thought about getting in, she considered the chances it would give Hyacinth to ask questions. To her surprise, though, he completely ignored them; he sat in silence, looking out the window until they got back to Lomax Place.
IV
“Well, you’ll have to guess my name before I’ll tell you,” the girl said, with a free laugh, pushing her way into the narrow hall and leaning against the tattered wall-paper, which, representing blocks of marble with bevelled edges, in streaks and speckles of black and gray, had not been renewed for years and came back to her out of the past. As Miss Pynsent closed the door, seeing her visitor was so resolute, the light filtered in from the street, through the narrow, dusty glass above it, and then the very smell and sense of the place returned to Millicent; a kind of musty dimness, with the vision of a small, steep staircase at the end, covered with a strip of oilcloth which she recognised, and made a little less dark by a window in the bend (you could see it from the hall), from which you could almost bump your head against the house behind. Nothing was changed except Miss Pynsent, and of course the girl herself. She had noticed, outside, that the sign between the windows had not even been touched up; there was still the same preposterous announcement of ‘fashionable bonnets’—as if the poor little dressmaker had the slightest acquaintance with that style of head-dress, of which Miss Henning’s own knowledge was now so complete. She could see Miss Pynsent was looking at her hat, which was a wonderful composition of flowers and ribbons; her eyes had travelled up and down Millicent’s whole person, but they rested in fascination upon this ornament. The girl had forgotten how small the dressmaker was; she barely came up to her shoulder. She had lost her hair, and wore a cap, which Millicent noticed in return, wondering if that were a specimen of what she thought the fashion. Miss Pynsent stared up at her as if she had been six feet high; but she was used to that sort of surprised admiration, being perfectly conscious that she was a magnificent young woman.
“Well, you’ll have to guess my name before I tell you,” the girl said with a carefree laugh, pushing her way into the narrow hall and leaning against the worn wallpaper, which, depicting blocks of marble with beveled edges in streaks and speckles of black and gray, hadn’t been updated in years and brought back memories for her. As Miss Pynsent closed the door, noticing her visitor was so determined, the light streamed in from the street through the narrow, dusty glass above it, and the familiar smell and feel of the place returned to Millicent; a kind of musty dimness, with a view of a small, steep staircase at the end, covered with a strip of oilcloth that she recognized, and made a little less dark by a window in the bend (you could see it from the hall), from which you could almost bump your head against the house behind. Nothing had changed except Miss Pynsent, and of course the girl herself. She had noticed outside that the sign between the windows hadn't even been touched; there was still the same ridiculous announcement of ‘fashionable bonnets’—as if the poor little dressmaker had the slightest clue about that style of headwear, of which Miss Henning now had complete knowledge. She could see Miss Pynsent looking at her hat, which was an amazing mix of flowers and ribbons; her eyes traveled up and down Millicent’s entire figure, but they lingered in fascination on this accessory. The girl had forgotten how short the dressmaker was; she barely reached her shoulder. She had lost her hair and wore a cap, which Millicent noted in return, wondering if that was what she thought was fashionable. Miss Pynsent stared up at her as if she were six feet tall; but she was used to that kind of surprised admiration, fully aware that she was a striking young woman.
“Won’t you take me into your shop?” she asked. “I don’t want to order anything; I only want to inquire after your ’ealth; and isn’t this rather an awkward place to talk?” She made her way further in, without waiting for permission, seeing that her startled hostess had not yet guessed.
“Won’t you take me into your shop?” she asked. “I don’t want to order anything; I just want to check on your health, and isn’t this a pretty awkward place to talk?” She moved further in, without waiting for permission, noticing that her surprised hostess hadn’t figured it out yet.
“The show-room is on the right hand,” said Miss Pynsent, with her professional manner, which was intended, evidently, to mark a difference. She spoke as if on the other side, where the horizon was bounded by the partition of the next house, there were labyrinths of apartments. Passing in after her guest she found the young lady already spread out upon the sofa, the everlasting sofa, in the right-hand corner as you faced the window, covered with a light, shrunken shroud of a strange yellow stuff, the tinge of which revealed years of washing, and surmounted by a coloured print of Rebekah at the Well, balancing, in the opposite quarter, with a portrait of the Empress of the French, taken from an illustrated newspaper and framed and glazed in the manner of 1853. Millicent looked about her, asking herself what Miss Pynsent had to show and acting perfectly the part of the most brilliant figure the place had ever contained. The old implements were there on the table: the pincushions and needle-books; the pink measuring-tape with which, as children, she and Hyacinth used to take each other’s height; and the same collection of fashion-plates (she could see in a minute), crumpled, sallow and fly-blown. The little dressmaker bristled, as she used to do, with needles and pins (they were stuck all over the front of her dress), but there were no rustling fabrics tossed in heaps about the room—nothing but the skirt of a shabby dress (it might have been her own), which she was evidently repairing and had flung upon the table when she came to the door. Miss Henning speedily arrived at the conclusion that her hostess’s business had not increased, and felt a kind of good-humoured, luxurious scorn of a person who knew so little what was to be got out of London. It was Millicent’s belief that she herself was already perfectly acquainted with the resources of the metropolis.
“The showroom is on the right,” Miss Pynsent said, in her professional tone, clearly meant to highlight a difference. She spoke as if, on the other side, where the view was blocked by the next house, there were endless apartments. After her guest entered, she found the young woman already stretched out on the sofa—the same old sofa—in the right-hand corner by the window, covered with a thin, faded shroud made of a strange yellow fabric, its color revealing years of washing. Above it was a colored print of Rebekah at the Well, balanced on the other side with a portrait of the Empress of the French, taken from an illustrated newspaper and framed in the style of 1853. Millicent looked around, wondering what Miss Pynsent had to show her and perfectly playing the part of the most glamorous figure the place had ever seen. The old tools were there on the table: pincushions and needlebooks; the pink measuring tape with which, as kids, she and Hyacinth used to measure each other's height; and the same collection of fashion plates (she could see at a glance) that were crumpled, yellowed, and dusty. The little dressmaker was bristling with needles and pins (they were stuck all over the front of her dress), but there were no swatches of fabric tossed around the room—only the skirt of a worn dress (which might have been her own) that she had clearly been repairing and had tossed onto the table when she came to the door. Miss Henning quickly concluded that her hostess’s business hadn’t picked up, and she felt a kind of good-natured, luxurious disdain for someone who knew so little about the opportunities in London. Millicent believed she herself was already well-acquainted with the resources of the city.
“Now tell me, how is Hyacinth? I should like so much to see him,” she remarked, extending a pair of large protrusive feet and supporting herself on the sofa by her hands.
“Now tell me, how is Hyacinth? I would really love to see him,” she said, stretching out a pair of large, prominent feet and propping herself up on the sofa with her hands.
“Hyacinth?” Miss Pynsent repeated, with majestic blankness, as if she had never heard of such a person. She felt that the girl was cruelly, scathingly, well dressed; she couldn’t imagine who she was, nor with what design she could have presented herself.
“Hyacinth?” Miss Pynsent repeated, with an air of complete confusion, as if she had never heard of such a person. She thought the girl was dressed in a painfully stylish way; she couldn’t figure out who she was or what her purpose could be for showing up like this.
“Perhaps you call him Mr Robinson, to-day—you always wanted him to hold himself so high. But to his face, at any rate, I’ll call him as I used to: you see if I don’t!”
“Maybe you refer to him as Mr. Robinson today—you always wanted him to carry himself that way. But in front of him, at least, I’ll call him what I used to: just watch me!”
“Bless my soul, you must be the little ’Enning!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, planted before her and going now into every detail.
“Bless my soul, you must be the little 'Enning!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, standing in front of her and now going into every detail.
“Well, I’m glad you have made up your mind. I thought you’d know me directly. I had a call to make in this part, and it came into my ’ead to look you up. I don’t like to lose sight of old friends.”
“Well, I’m glad you’ve made your decision. I thought you’d reach out to me directly. I had a call to make in this area, and it crossed my mind to find you. I don’t like to lose touch with old friends.”
“I never knew you—you’ve improved so,” Miss Pynsent rejoined, with a candour justified by her age and her consciousness of respectability.
“I never knew you—you’ve really changed,” Miss Pynsent replied, with a straightforwardness that her age and sense of respectability warranted.
“Well, you haven’t changed; you were always calling me something horrid.”
“Well, you haven’t changed; you were always calling me something awful.”
“I dare say it doesn’t matter to you now, does it?” said the dressmaker, seating herself, but quite unable to take up her work, absorbed as she was in the examination of her visitor.
“I bet it doesn’t matter to you now, does it?” said the dressmaker, sitting down, but unable to focus on her work, as she was completely absorbed in examining her visitor.
“Oh, I’m all right now,” Miss Henning replied, with the air of one who had nothing to fear from human judgments.
“Oh, I’m fine now,” Miss Henning replied, with the confidence of someone who had nothing to worry about regarding people's opinions.
“You were a pretty child—I never said the contrary to that; but I had no idea you’d turn out like this. You’re too tall for a woman,” Miss Pynsent added, much divided between an old prejudice and a new appreciation.
“You were a pretty kid—I never said otherwise; but I had no idea you’d end up like this. You’re too tall for a woman,” Miss Pynsent added, caught between an old bias and a new admiration.
“Well, I enjoy beautiful ’ealth,” said the young lady; “every one thinks I’m twenty.” She spoke with a certain artless pride in her bigness and her bloom, and as if, to show her development, she would have taken off her jacket or let you feel her upper arm. She was very handsome, with a shining, bold, good-natured eye, a fine, free, facial oval, an abundance of brown hair, and a smile which showed the whiteness of her teeth. Her head was set upon a fair, strong neck, and her tall young figure was rich in feminine curves. Her gloves, covering her wrists insufficiently, showed the redness of those parts, in the interstices of the numerous silver bracelets that encircled them, and Miss Pynsent made the observation that her hands were not more delicate than her feet. She was not graceful, and even the little dressmaker, whose preference for distinguished forms never deserted her, indulged in the mental reflection that she was common, for all her magnificence; but there was something about her indescribably fresh, successful and satisfying. She was, to her blunt, expanded finger-tips, a daughter of London, of the crowded streets and hustling traffic of the great city; she had drawn her health and strength from its dingy courts and foggy thoroughfares, and peopled its parks and squares and crescents with her ambitions; it had entered into her blood and her bone, the sound of her voice and the carriage of her head; she understood it by instinct and loved it with passion; she represented its immense vulgarities and curiosities, its brutality and its knowingness, its good-nature and its impudence, and might have figured, in an allegorical procession, as a kind of glorified townswoman, a nymph of the wilderness of Middlesex, a flower of the accumulated parishes, the genius of urban civilisation, the muse of cockneyism. The restrictions under which Miss Pynsent regarded her would have cost the dressmaker some fewer scruples if she had guessed the impression she made upon Millicent, and how the whole place seemed to that prosperous young lady to smell of poverty and failure. Her childish image of Miss Pynsent had represented her as delicate and dainty, with round loops of hair fastened on her temples by combs, and associations of brilliancy arising from the constant manipulation of precious stuffs—tissues at least which Millicent regarded with envy. But the little woman before her was bald and white and pinched; she looked shrunken and sickly and insufficiently nourished; her small eyes were sharp and suspicious, and her hideous cap did not disguise her meagreness. Miss Henning thanked her stars, as she had often done before, that she had not been obliged to get her living by drudging over needlework year after year in that undiscoverable street, in a dismal little room where nothing had been changed for ages; the absence of change had such an exasperating effect upon her vigorous young nature. She reflected with complacency upon her good fortune in being attached to a more exciting, a more dramatic, department of the dressmaking business, and noticed that though it was already November there was no fire in the neatly-kept grate beneath the chimney-piece, on which a design, partly architectural, partly botanical, executed in the hair of Miss Pynsent’s parents, was flanked by a pair of vases, under glass, containing muslin flowers.
“Well, I enjoy good health,” said the young lady; “everyone thinks I’m twenty.” She spoke with a certain innocent pride in her size and her complexion, as if she would have taken off her jacket or let you feel her upper arm to show off her development. She was very attractive, with bright, bold, friendly eyes, a nice, strong face, an abundance of brown hair, and a smile that revealed her white teeth. Her head was set on a fair, strong neck, and her tall figure was curvy in a feminine way. Her gloves, which barely covered her wrists, revealed the redness of that area between the many silver bracelets that surrounded them, and Miss Pynsent noted that her hands were not any more delicate than her feet. She wasn't graceful, and even the little dressmaker, who always preferred elegant forms, couldn’t help but think she was common despite her beauty. Yet there was something about her that was indescribably fresh, confident, and satisfying. She was, right down to her blunt, extended fingertips, a daughter of London, born from the busy streets and bustling traffic of the great city; she had gained her health and strength from its dingy alleys and foggy roads, filling its parks, squares, and crescents with her aspirations; it was woven into her blood and bones, the sound of her voice and the way she held her head; she understood it instinctively and loved it passionately; she embodied its vast vulgarities and curiosities, its brutality and its wisdom, its warmth and its boldness, and could have represented, in an allegorical parade, a kind of glorified townswoman, a nymph of the Middlesex wilderness, a flower born of the city’s many neighborhoods, the spirit of urban civilization, the muse of Cockney culture. The limitations that Miss Pynsent saw in her would have bothered the dressmaker less if she had realized the impression she made on Millicent, who saw the entire place as a scent of poverty and failure. In her childish imagination, she had pictured Miss Pynsent as delicate and dainty, with round loops of hair pinned at her temples and the glamorous aura that came with always handling luxurious materials—fabrics at least that Millicent viewed with envy. But the little woman in front of her was bald, pale, and pinched; she looked small and frail, and poorly nourished; her small eyes were sharp and wary, and her ugly cap did nothing to hide her thinness. Miss Henning thanked her lucky stars, as she had often done before, that she didn’t have to make a living by toiling over needlework year after year in that obscure street, in a dreary little room where nothing had changed for ages; the lack of change had such a frustrating impact on her lively young spirit. She reflected with satisfaction on her good luck in being part of a more exciting, more dramatic part of the dressmaking business, and noticed that even though it was already November, there was no fire in the neatly-kept grate beneath the chimney, where a design, partly architectural and partly botanical, made from the hair of Miss Pynsent’s parents, was flanked by a pair of vases, under glass, holding muslin flowers.
If she thought Miss Pynsent’s eyes suspicious it must be confessed that this lady felt very much upon her guard in the presence of so unexpected and undesired a reminder of one of the least honourable episodes in the annals of Lomax Place. Miss Pynsent esteemed people in proportion to their success in constituting a family circle—in cases, that is, when the materials were under their hand. This success, among the various members of the house of Henning, had been of the scantiest, and the domestic broils in the establishment adjacent to her own, whose vicissitudes she was able to follow, as she sat at her window at work, by simply inclining an ear to the thin partition behind her—these scenes, amid which the crash of crockery and the imprecations of the wounded were frequently audible, had long been the scandal of a humble but harmonious neighbourhood. Mr Henning was supposed to occupy a place of confidence in a brush-factory, while his wife, at home, occupied herself with the washing and mending of a considerable brood, mainly of sons. But economy and sobriety, and indeed a virtue more important still, had never presided at their councils. The freedom and frequency of Mrs Henning’s relations with a stove-polisher in the Euston Road were at least not a secret to a person who lived next door and looked up from her work so often that it was a wonder it was always finished so quickly. The little Hennings, unwashed and unchidden, spent most of their time either in pushing each other into the gutter or in running to the public-house at the corner for a pennyworth of gin, and the borrowing propensities of their elders were a theme for exclamation. There was no object of personal or domestic use which Mrs Henning had not at one time or another endeavoured to elicit from the dressmaker; beginning with a mattress, on an occasion when she was about to take to her bed for a considerable period, and ending with a flannel petticoat and a pewter teapot. Lomax Place had, eventually, from its over-peeping windows and doorways, been present at the seizure, by a long-suffering landlord, of the chattels of this interesting family and at the ejectment of the whole insolvent group, who departed in a straggling, jeering, unabashed, cynical manner, carrying with them but little of the sympathy of the street. Millicent, whose childish intimacy with Hyacinth Robinson Miss Pynsent had always viewed with vague anxiety—she thought the girl a ‘nasty little thing’, and was afraid she would teach the innocent orphan low ways—Millicent, with her luxuriant tresses, her precocious beauty, her staring, mocking manner on the doorstep, was at this time twelve years of age. She vanished with her vanishing companions; Lomax Place saw them turn the corner, and returned to its occupations with a conviction that they would make shipwreck on the outer reefs. But neither spar nor splinter floated back to their former haunts, and they were engulfed altogether in the fathomless deeps of the town. Miss Pynsent drew a long breath; it was her conviction that none of them would come to any good, and Millicent least of all.
If she thought Miss Pynsent's eyes were suspicious, it's true that this lady was very much on guard in the presence of such an unexpected and unwanted reminder of one of the least honorable moments in the history of Lomax Place. Miss Pynsent judged people based on how successful they were at creating a family unit—when they had the means to do so, that is. This success, among the various members of the Henning family, had been minimal, and the domestic fights in the house next to hers, which she could overhear by simply leaning her ear against the thin wall behind her while working at her window—these scenes, punctuated by the crashes of dishes and the shouts of the injured, had long been the talk of a modest but close-knit neighborhood. Mr. Henning was thought to have a reliable job at a brush factory, while his wife stayed home to wash and mend for a large family, mostly sons. However, thriftiness and restraint, along with a virtue more significant, had never ruled their household. Mrs. Henning's frequent and open relationship with a stove polisher on Euston Road was certainly no secret to the neighbor who often looked up from her work—it was a wonder she finished her tasks so quickly. The young Hennings, unwashed and unruly, spent most of their time either pushing each other into the gutter or running to the pub on the corner for a shot of gin, and the borrowing habits of their parents were a constant source of gossip. There was no household item that Mrs. Henning had not at some point tried to request from the dressmaker, starting with a mattress when she was about to be bedridden for a long time and ending with a flannel petticoat and a pewter teapot. Eventually, the residents of Lomax Place, peeking through their windows and doorways, witnessed the long-suffering landlord seizing the belongings of this intriguing family and evicting the entire insolvent group, who left in a disorganized, mocking, and shameless way, taking little sympathy from the neighborhood. Millicent, whose childhood friendship with Hyacinth Robinson had always made Miss Pynsent a bit anxious—she thought the girl was a “nasty little thing” and worried she would teach the innocent orphan bad habits—was twelve years old at this time, with her flowing hair, early beauty, and bold, mocking demeanor on the doorstep. She disappeared with her vanishing friends; Lomax Place saw them turn the corner and returned to its daily routine, convinced they would face hardship ahead. But no fragments or remnants returned to their old haunts, and they were completely lost in the depths of the city. Miss Pynsent exhaled deeply; she was sure that none of them would thrive, and Millicent would fare the worst.
When, therefore, this young lady reappeared, with all the signs of accomplished survival, she could not fail to ask herself whether, under a specious seeming, the phenomenon did not simply represent the triumph of vice. She was alarmed, but she would have given her silver thimble to know the girl’s history, and between her alarm and her curiosity she passed an uncomfortable half-hour. She felt that the familiar, mysterious creature was playing with her; revenging herself for former animadversions, for having been snubbed and miscalled by a peering little spinster who now could make no figure beside her. If it was not the triumph of vice it was at least the triumph of impertinence, as well as of youth, health, and a greater acquaintance with the art of dress than Miss Pynsent could boast, for all her ridiculous signboards. She perceived, or she believed she perceived, that Millicent wanted to scare her, to make her think she had come after Hyacinth; that she wished to inveigle, to corrupt him. I should be sorry to impute to Miss Henning any motive more complicated than the desire to amuse herself, of a Saturday afternoon, by a ramble which her vigorous legs had no occasion to deprecate; but it must be confessed that when it occurred to her that Miss Pynsent regarded her as a ravening wolf and her early playmate as an unspotted lamb, she laughed out, in her hostess’s anxious face, irrelevantly and good-humouredly, without deigning to explain. But what, indeed, had she come for, if she had not come after Hyacinth? It was not for the love of the dressmaker’s pretty ways. She remembered the boy and some of their tender passages, and in the wantonness of her full-blown freedom—her attachment, also, to any tolerable pretext for wandering through the streets of London and gazing into shop-windows—she had said to herself that she would dedicate an afternoon to the pleasures of memory, would revisit the scenes of her childhood. She considered that her childhood had ended with the departure of her family from Lomax Place. If the tenants of that obscure locality never learned what their banished fellows went through, Millicent retained a deep impression of those horrible intermediate years. The family, as a family, had gone down-hill, to the very bottom; and in her humbler moments Millicent sometimes wondered what lucky star had checked her own descent, and indeed enabled her to mount the slope again. In her humbler moments, I say, for as a general thing she was provided with an explanation of any good fortune that might befall her. What was more natural than that a girl should do well when she was at once so handsome and so clever? Millicent thought with compassion of the young persons whom a niggardly fate had endowed with only one of these advantages. She was good-natured, but she had no idea of gratifying Miss Pynsent’s curiosity; it seemed to her quite a sufficient kindness to stimulate it.
When this young lady came back, clearly having survived some ordeal, she couldn't help but wonder if, beneath a deceptive appearance, this situation was just the victory of bad behavior. She felt uneasy but would have given anything to know the girl's story, and between her unease and curiosity, she spent a restless half-hour. She sensed that this familiar, enigmatic figure was toying with her, getting back at her for past judgments, for having been dismissed and misunderstood by a nosy little spinster who now looked insignificant beside her. If it wasn’t a triumph of vice, it was at least a win for rudeness, as well as youth, health, and a better grasp of fashion than Miss Pynsent could claim, despite her silly displays. She thought, or believed she thought, that Millicent was trying to intimidate her, to make her believe she was after Hyacinth; that she wanted to lure him away, to corrupt him. I wouldn’t want to suggest that Miss Henning had any motive more complex than wanting to enjoy herself on a Saturday afternoon with a stroll that her strong legs welcomed; but I must admit that when it dawned on her that Miss Pynsent saw her as a predatory wolf and her childhood friend as a pure lamb, she laughed out loud at her hostess's worried expression, cheerfully and irrelevantly, without feeling the need to explain. But really, what had she come for if not to see Hyacinth? It wasn’t out of admiration for the dressmaker's charming ways. She remembered the boy and some of their sweet moments together, and in her newfound freedom—along with her fondness for any excuse to roam the streets of London and window shop—she decided to dedicate an afternoon to reliving memories and revisiting her childhood haunts. She felt her childhood had ended when her family moved out of Lomax Place. If the residents of that obscure area never found out what their ex-neighbors experienced, Millicent carried a vivid memory of those awful years in between. The family had really hit rock bottom together; and in her more modest moments, Millicent occasionally wondered what lucky star had prevented her own decline, and allowed her to rise again. In her modest moments, I say, because generally, she had a ready explanation for any good fortune that came her way. What could be more natural than a girl doing well when she was both pretty and smart? Millicent felt sympathy for those who only had one of these advantages due to a stingy fate. She was kind-hearted, but she had no intention of satisfying Miss Pynsent’s curiosity; it seemed like enough of a kindness to stir it up.
She told the dressmaker that she had a high position at a great haberdasher’s in the neighbourhood of Buckingham Palace; she was in the department for jackets and mantles; she put on all these articles to show them off to the customers, and on her person they appeared to such advantage that nothing she took up ever failed to go off. Miss Pynsent could imagine, from this, how highly her services were prized. She had had a splendid offer from another establishment, in Oxford Street, and she was just thinking whether she should accept it. “We have to be beautifully dressed, but I don’t care, because I like to look nice,” she remarked to her hostess, who at the end of half an hour, very grave, behind the clumsy glasses which she had been obliged to wear of late years, seemed still not to know what to make of her. On the subject of her family, of her history during the interval that was to be accounted for, the girl was large and vague, and Miss Pynsent saw that the domestic circle had not even a shadow of sanctity for her. She stood on her own feet, and she stood very firm. Her staying so long, her remaining over the half-hour, proved to the dressmaker that she had come for Hyacinth; for poor Amanda gave her as little information as was decent, told her nothing that would encourage or attract. She simply mentioned that Mr Robinson (she was careful to speak of him in that manner) had given his attention to bookbinding, and had served an apprenticeship at an establishment where they turned out the best work of that kind that was to be found in London.
She told the dressmaker that she had a high position at a fancy shop near Buckingham Palace; she worked in the jackets and outerwear department; she tried on all these items to show them off to customers, and they looked so good on her that everything she picked up sold out. Miss Pynsent could tell how much her skills were valued from this. She had received a great job offer from another store on Oxford Street and was considering whether to take it. “We have to dress beautifully, but I don’t mind because I like looking nice,” she said to her hostess, who, after half an hour, looked very serious behind the thick glasses she had to wear recently and still seemed unsure of what to think of her. When it came to her family and the time she needed to explain, the girl was vague and distant, and Miss Pynsent noticed that family life didn’t seem to mean much to her. She was independent and very self-assured. The fact that she stayed longer than necessary showed the dressmaker that she was there for Hyacinth; poor Amanda provided her with as little information as was polite, sharing nothing that would encourage interest. She merely mentioned that Mr. Robinson (she was careful to refer to him that way) had focused on bookbinding and had apprenticed at a place known for producing the finest work of that sort in London.
“A bookbindery? Laws!” said Miss Henning. “Do you mean they get them up for the shops? Well, I always thought he would have something to do with books.” Then she added, “But I didn’t think he would ever follow a trade.”
“A bookbindery? Seriously!” said Miss Henning. “Are you saying they prepare them for stores? I always thought he would have something to do with books.” Then she added, “But I never expected him to pursue a trade.”
“A trade?” cried Miss Pynsent. “You should hear Mr Robinson speak of it. He considers it one of the fine arts.”
“A trade?” exclaimed Miss Pynsent. “You should listen to Mr. Robinson talk about it. He thinks of it as one of the fine arts.”
Millicent smiled, as if she knew how people often considered things, and remarked that very likely it was tidy, comfortable work, but she couldn’t believe there was much to be seen in it. “Perhaps you will say there is more than there is here,” she went on, finding at last an effect of irritation, of reprehension, an implication of aggressive respectability, in the image of the patient dressmaker, sitting for so many years in her close, brown little den, with the foggy familiarities of Lomax Place on the other side of the pane. Millicent liked to think that she herself was strong, and she was not strong enough for that.
Millicent smiled, as if she understood how people often viewed things, and said it was probably neat and comfortable work, but she couldn't believe there was much to see in it. “Maybe you’ll argue there’s more than meets the eye,” she continued, finally feeling a sense of irritation, reproach, and a hint of forced respectability in the image of the patient dressmaker, sitting for so many years in her small, brown den, with the foggy familiarity of Lomax Place on the other side of the window. Millicent liked to think of herself as strong, but she knew she wasn't strong enough for that.
This allusion to her shrunken industry seemed to Miss Pynsent very cruel; but she reflected that it was natural one should be insulted if one talked to a vulgar girl. She judged this young lady in the manner of a person who was not vulgar herself, and if there was a difference between them she was right in feeling it to be in her favour. Miss Pynsent’s ‘cut’, as I have intimated, was not truly fashionable, and in the application of gimp and the distribution of ornament she was not to be trusted; but, morally, she had the best taste in the world. “I haven’t so much work as I used to have, if that’s what you mean. My eyes are not so good, and my health has failed with advancing years.”
This reference to her diminished business struck Miss Pynsent as quite harsh; however, she realized it was understandable to feel insulted when talking to a common girl. She judged this young woman as someone who wasn’t common herself, and if there was a difference between them, she was justified in thinking it was in her favor. Miss Pynsent’s style, as I mentioned, wasn’t exactly trendy, and she couldn’t be relied upon for the right use of gimp or decoration; but morally, her taste was impeccable. “I don’t have as much work as I used to, if that’s what you mean. My eyesight isn’t as good, and my health has declined with age.”
I know not to what extent Millicent was touched by the dignity of this admission, but she replied, without embarrassment, that what Miss Pynsent wanted was a smart young assistant, some nice girl with a pretty taste, who would brighten up the business and give her new ideas. “I can see you have got the same old ones, always: I can tell that by the way you have stuck the braid on that dress;” and she directed a poke of her neat little umbrella to the drapery in the dressmaker’s lap. She continued to patronise and exasperate her, and to offer her consolation and encouragement with the heaviest hand that had ever been applied to Miss Pynsent’s sensitive surface. Poor Amanda ended by gazing at her as if she were a public performer of some kind, a ballad-singer or a conjurer, and went so far as to ask herself whether the hussy could be (in her own mind) the ‘nice girl’ who was to regild the tarnished sign. Miss Pynsent had had assistants, in the past—she had even, once, for a few months, had a ‘forewoman’; and some of these damsels had been precious specimens, whose misdemeanours lived vividly in her memory. Never, all the same, in her worst hour of delusion, had she trusted her interests to such an extravagant baggage as this. She was quickly reassured as to Millicent’s own views, perceiving more and more that she was a tremendous highflyer, who required a much larger field of action than the musty bower she now honoured, heaven only knew why, with her presence. Miss Pynsent held her tongue, as she always did, when the sorrow of her life had been touched, the thought of the slow, inexorable decline on which she had entered that day, nearly ten years before, when her hesitations and scruples resolved themselves into a hideous mistake. The deep conviction of error, on that unspeakably important occasion, had ached and throbbed within her ever since like an incurable disease. She had sown in her boy’s mind the seeds of shame and rancour; she had made him conscious of his stigma, of his exquisitely vulnerable spot, and condemned him to know that for him the sun would never shine as it shone for most others. By the time he was sixteen years old she had learned—or believed she had learned—the judgment he passed upon her, and at that period she had lived through a series of horrible months, an ordeal in which every element of her old prosperity perished. She cried her eyes out, on coming to a sense of her aberration, blinded and weakened herself with weeping, so that for a moment it seemed as if she should never be able to touch a needle again. She lost all interest in her work, and that artistic imagination which had always been her pride deserted her, together with the reputation of keeping the tidiest lodgings in Lomax Place. A couple of commercial gentlemen and a Welsh plumber, of religious tendencies, who for several years had made her establishment their home, withdrew their patronage on the ground that the airing of her beds was not what it used to be, and disseminated cruelly this injurious legend. She ceased to notice or to care how sleeves were worn, and on the question of flounces and gores her mind was a blank. She fell into a grievous debility, and then into a long, low, languid fever, during which Hyacinth tended her with a devotion which only made the wrong she had done him seem more bitter, and in which, so soon as she was able to hold up her head a little, Mr Vetch came and sat with her through the dull hours of convalescence. She re-established to a certain extent, after a while, her connection, so far as the letting of her rooms was concerned (from the other department of her activity the tide had ebbed apparently forever); but nothing was the same again, and she knew it was the beginning of the end. So it had gone on, and she watched the end approach; she felt it was very near indeed when a child she had seen playing in the gutters came to flaunt it over her in silk and lace. She gave a low, inaudible sigh of relief when at last Millicent got up and stood before her, smoothing the glossy cylinder of her umbrella.
I don’t know how much Millicent was moved by the seriousness of this admission, but she replied, without any embarrassment, that what Miss Pynsent needed was a stylish young assistant, a nice girl with good taste, who would liven up the business and bring in fresh ideas. “I can tell you’re sticking to the same old ones: I can see that by the way you’ve placed the braid on that dress,” she said, poking the fabric in the dressmaker’s lap with her neat little umbrella. She kept patronizing and irritating her, offering her cheap consolation and encouragement with the heaviest hand that had ever been laid on Miss Pynsent’s sensitive nature. Poor Amanda ended up staring at her as if she were some kind of public performer, a singer or a magician, even questioning if this bold girl could really be the ‘nice girl’ meant to restore the tarnished sign. Miss Pynsent had had assistants in the past—she had even once had a ‘forewoman’ for a few months; some of these girls had been memorable examples of everything wrong, whose misdeeds were vividly etched in her mind. Still, in her worst moments of denial, she had never placed her trust in such a flashy character as this. She quickly reassured herself about Millicent’s views, more and more realizing that she was quite an ambitious person who needed a much bigger stage than the dusty little shop she now honored, for reasons only heaven knew, with her presence. Miss Pynsent kept quiet, as she always did when faced with the sorrows of her life, the thought of the slow, unavoidable decline she had started nearly ten years earlier when her hesitations and doubts turned into a terrible mistake. The deep conviction of her error on that tremendously significant day had ached within her ever since like a chronic illness. She had planted the seeds of shame and resentment in her son’s mind; she had made him aware of his stigma, his painfully sensitive spot, and doomed him to know that for him, the sun would never shine as it did for most others. By the time he turned sixteen, she had learned—or believed she had learned—the judgment he had passed on her, and during that time she lived through a series of nightmarish months, an ordeal in which every aspect of her former success vanished. She cried endlessly upon realizing her mistake, blinding and weakening herself with tears to the point where it felt like she would never be able to hold a needle again. She lost all interest in her work, and the artistic imagination that had always been her pride deserted her, along with her reputation for maintaining the tidiest lodgings in Lomax Place. A couple of business men and a Welsh plumber with strong religious beliefs, who had made her place their home for several years, pulled their support, claiming that the quality of her bed linens was no longer up to par, spreading this cruel rumor. She stopped noticing or caring how sleeves were worn, and when it came to flounces and gores, her mind went blank. She fell into a serious weakness, followed by a long, weak fever, during which Hyacinth cared for her with such devotion that it only made the wrong she had done him feel even harsher. As soon as she was able to lift her head a little, Mr. Vetch came and sat with her through the dull hours of recovery. After a while, she managed to somewhat restore her renting business (the other part of her work seemed to have ebbed away forever); but nothing was the same, and she knew it marked the beginning of the end. This pattern continued, and she watched the end get closer; she sensed it was very near when a child she had seen playing in the gutters came to flaunt her silk and lace in front of her. She let out a low, inaudible sigh of relief when Millicent finally got up and stood before her, smoothing the shiny surface of her umbrella.
“Mind you give my love to Hyacinth,” the girl said, with an assurance which showed all her insensibility to tacit protests. “I don’t care if you do guess that if I have stopped so long it was in the hope he would be dropping in to his tea. You can tell him I sat an hour, on purpose, if you like; there’s no shame in my wanting to see my little friend. He may know I call him that!” Millicent continued, with her show-room laugh, as Miss Pynsent judged it to be; conferring these permissions, successively, as if they were great indulgences. “Do give him my love, and tell him I hope he’ll come and see me. I see you won’t tell him anything. I don’t know what you’re afraid of; but I’ll leave my card for him, all the same.” She drew forth a little bright-coloured pocket-book, and it was with amazement that Miss Pynsent saw her extract from it a morsel of engraved pasteboard—so monstrous did it seem that one of the squalid little Hennings should have lived to display this emblem of social consideration. Millicent enjoyed the effect she produced as she laid the card on the table, and gave another ringing peal of merriment at the sight of her hostess’s half-angry, half-astonished look. “What do you think I want to do with him? I could swallow him at a single bite!” she cried.
“Make sure to send my love to Hyacinth,” the girl said confidently, completely oblivious to any silent objections. “I don’t mind if you guess that I’ve been hanging around this long hoping he would drop by for tea. You can tell him I stayed for an hour on purpose if you want; there’s no shame in wanting to see my little friend. He can know I call him that!” Millicent continued, laughing as if she were in a showroom, granting these permissions one after another like they were major favors. “Please give him my love and tell him I hope he comes to visit me. I see you’re not going to tell him anything. I don’t know what you’re worried about; but I’ll leave my card for him anyway.” She pulled out a small, brightly colored pocketbook, and Miss Pynsent was amazed to see her pull out a piece of engraved cardstock—so shocking that one of the shabby little Hennings could possess this symbol of social status. Millicent reveled in the effect she created as she placed the card on the table and burst into another fit of laughter at the sight of her hostess’s mixed expression of anger and surprise. “What do you think I want to do with him? I could swallow him whole!” she exclaimed.
Poor Amanda gave no second glance at the document on the table, though she had perceived it contained, in the corner, her visitor’s address, which Millicent had amused herself, ingeniously, with not mentioning: she only got up, laying down her work with a trembling hand, so that she should be able to see Miss Henning well out of the house. “You needn’t think I shall put myself out to keep him in the dark. I shall certainly tell him you have been here, and exactly how you strike me.”
Poor Amanda didn’t give the document on the table a second thought, even though she noticed it had her visitor’s address in the corner, which Millicent had cleverly chosen not to mention. She simply got up, putting down her work with a trembling hand, so she could see Miss Henning safely out of the house. “Don’t think for a second that I’ll go out of my way to keep him in the dark. I will definitely tell him you were here and exactly what I think of you.”
“Of course you’ll say something nasty—like you used to when I was a child. You let me ’ave it then, you know!”
“Of course you’re going to say something mean—just like you always did when I was a kid. You really laid into me back then, you know!”
“Ah, well,” said Miss Pynsent, nettled at being reminded of an acerbity which the girl’s present development caused to appear ridiculously ineffectual, “you are very different now, when I think what you’ve come from.”
“Ah, well,” said Miss Pynsent, irritated at being reminded of a harshness that the girl’s current growth made seem completely pointless, “you are very different now, considering what you’ve come from.”
“What I’ve come from?” Millicent threw back her head, and opened her eyes very wide, while all her feathers and ribbons nodded. “Did you want me to stick fast in this low place for the rest of my days? You have had to stay in it yourself, so you might speak civilly of it.” She coloured, and raised her voice, and looked magnificent in her scorn. “And pray what have you come from yourself, and what has he come from—the mysterious ‘Mr Robinson’, that used to be such a puzzle to the whole Place? I thought perhaps I might clear it up, but you haven’t told me that yet!”
“What do you mean by ‘where I’ve come from’?” Millicent tossed her head back and opened her eyes wide, making all her feathers and ribbons sway. “Did you expect me to be stuck in this miserable place for the rest of my life? You’ve had to endure it yourself, so you could at least speak respectfully about it.” She blushed, raised her voice, and looked impressive in her disdain. “And what about you? Where did you come from, and what about him—the mysterious ‘Mr. Robinson’ who used to baffle everyone in this town? I thought I might get some clarity, but you still haven’t told me that!”
Miss Pynsent turned straight away, covering her ears with her hands. “I have nothing to tell you! Leave my room—leave my house!” she cried, with a trembling voice.
Miss Pynsent spun around, covering her ears with her hands. “I have nothing to say to you! Get out of my room—get out of my house!” she shouted, her voice shaking.
V
It was in this way that the dressmaker failed either to see or to hear the opening of the door of the room, which obeyed a slow, apparently cautious impulse given it from the hall, and revealed the figure of a young man standing there with a short pipe in his teeth. There was something in his face which immediately told Millicent Henning that he had heard, outside, her last resounding tones. He entered as if, young as he was, he knew that when women were squabbling men were not called upon to be headlong, and evidently wondered who the dressmaker’s brilliant adversary might be. She recognised on the instant her old playmate, and without reflection, confusion or diplomacy, in the fullness of her vulgarity and sociability, she exclaimed, in no lower pitch, “Gracious, Hyacinth Robinson, is that your form?”
It was like this that the dressmaker didn’t notice the door of the room slowly opening, as if pushed carefully from the hall, revealing a young man standing there with a short pipe in his mouth. There was something in his expression that instantly informed Millicent Henning that he had overheard her last loud remarks. He walked in as if, despite his youth, he understood that when women were arguing, men shouldn’t rush in, and clearly wondered who the dressmaker's impressive opponent could be. She instantly recognized her old playmate, and without thinking, feeling embarrassed, or trying to be diplomatic, in her usual straightforward and friendly way, she exclaimed, just as loudly, “Wow, Hyacinth Robinson, is that really you?”
Miss Pynsent turned round, in a flash, but kept silent; then, very white and trembling, took up her work again and seated herself in her window.
Miss Pynsent spun around quickly, but remained quiet; then, very pale and shaking, picked up her work again and sat down by her window.
Hyacinth Robinson stood staring; then he blushed all over. He knew who she was, but he didn’t say so; he only asked, in a voice which struck the girl as quite different from the old one—the one in which he used to tell her she was beastly tiresome—“Is it of me you were speaking just now?”
Hyacinth Robinson stood there, staring, and then he turned bright red. He recognized her, but he didn’t say anything; he just asked, in a tone that sounded completely different from his usual one—the one where he would tell her she was incredibly annoying—“Were you talking about me just now?”
“When I asked where you had come from? That was because we ’eard you in the ’all,” said Millicent, smiling. “I suppose you have come from your work.”
“Why did I ask where you’d come from? It’s because we heard you in the hall,” Millicent said with a smile. “I guess you just got off work.”
“You used to live in the Place—you always wanted to kiss me,” the young man remarked, with an effort not to show all the surprise and agitation that he felt. “Didn’t she live in the Place, Pinnie!”
“You used to live in the Place—you always wanted to kiss me,” the young man said, trying hard not to reveal his surprise and agitation. “Didn’t she live in the Place, Pinnie!”
Pinnie, for all answer, fixed a pair of strange, pleading eyes upon him, and Millicent broke out, with her recurrent laugh, in which the dressmaker had been right in discovering the note of affectation, “Do you want to know what you look like? You look for all the world like a little Frenchman! Don’t he look like a little Frenchman, Miss Pynsent?” she went on, as if she were on the best possible terms with the mistress of the establishment.
Pinnie, in response, fixed a pair of strange, pleading eyes on him, and Millicent burst out laughing again, in a way that the dressmaker had rightly noted was a bit affected, "Do you want to know what you look like? You look just like a little Frenchman! Doesn't he look like a little Frenchman, Miss Pynsent?" she continued, as if she were on the best possible terms with the owner of the place.
Hyacinth exchanged a look with that afflicted woman; he saw something in her face which he knew very well by this time, and the sight of which always gave him an odd, perverse, unholy satisfaction. It seemed to say that she prostrated herself, that she did penance in the dust, that she was his to trample upon, to spit upon. He did neither of these things, but she was constantly offering herself, and her permanent humility, her perpetual abjection, was a sort of counter-irritant to the soreness lodged in his own heart for ever, which had often made him cry with rage at night, in his little room under the roof. Pinnie meant that, to-day, as a matter of course, and she could only especially mean it in the presence of Miss Henning’s remark about his looking like a Frenchman. He knew he looked like a Frenchman, he had often been told so before, and a large part of the time he felt like one—like one of those he had read about in Michelet and Carlyle. He had picked up the French tongue with the most extraordinary facility, with the aid of one of his mates, a refugee from Paris, in the workroom, and of a second-hand dog’s-eared dictionary, bought for a shilling in the Brompton Road, in one of his interminable, restless, melancholy, moody, yet all-observant strolls through London. He spoke it (as he believed) as if by instinct, caught the accent, the gesture, the movement of eyebrow and shoulder; so that if it should become necessary in certain contingencies that he should pass for a foreigner he had an idea that he might do so triumphantly, once he could borrow a blouse. He had never seen a blouse in his life, but he knew exactly the form and colour of such a garment, and how it was worn. What these contingencies might be which should compel him to assume the disguise of a person of a social station lower still than his own, Hyacinth would not for the world have mentioned to you; but as they were very present to the mind of our imaginative, ingenious youth we shall catch a glimpse of them in the course of a further acquaintance with him. At the present moment, when there was no question of masquerading, it made him blush again that such a note should be struck by a loud, laughing, handsome girl, who came back out of his past. There was more in Pinnie’s weak eyes, now, than her usual profession; there was a dumb intimation, almost as pathetic as the other, that if he cared to let her off easily he would not detain their terrible visitor very long. He had no wish to do that; he kept the door open, on purpose; he didn’t enjoy talking to girls under Pinnie’s eyes, and he could see that this one had every disposition to talk. So without responding to her observation about his appearance he said, not knowing exactly what to say, “Have you come back to live in the Place?”
Hyacinth exchanged a look with that troubled woman; he recognized something in her face that he knew all too well by now, and seeing it always gave him a strange, twisted, unholy satisfaction. It seemed to say that she laid herself bare, that she was doing penance in the dirt, that she was his to walk over, to spit on. He did neither of these things, but she was constantly offering herself, and her constant humility, her endless submissiveness, was a sort of counter-irritant to the pain lodged in his own heart that often made him cry with anger at night in his little room under the roof. Pinnie meant that, today, as a matter of course, and she could only particularly mean it in light of Miss Henning’s comment about his looking like a Frenchman. He knew he looked like a Frenchman; he had often been told so before, and much of the time he felt like one—like one of those he had read about in Michelet and Carlyle. He had picked up the French language with remarkable ease, thanks to one of his friends, a refugee from Paris, in the workshop, and a used, dog-eared dictionary he bought for a shilling on Brompton Road during his endless, restless, melancholy, moody, yet observant walks around London. He spoke it (as he believed) almost instinctively, picking up the accent, the gestures, the movements of eyebrow and shoulder; so that if it ever became necessary for him to pass as a foreigner, he thought he could pull it off quite successfully, once he could borrow a blouse. He had never seen a blouse in his life, but he knew exactly what it looked like, its shape and color, and how it was worn. He wouldn’t mention what situations might force him to disguise himself as someone of an even lower social status, but they were very much on the mind of our imaginative, clever youth, and we will catch a glimpse of them as we get to know him better. Right now, with no thought of pretending, it made him blush again that such a remark should come from a loud, laughing, attractive girl who had returned from his past. There was more in Pinnie’s weak eyes now than her usual demeanor; there was a mute suggestion, almost as moving as the other, that if he wanted to let her off easily, he wouldn’t keep their terrible visitor around for too long. He had no intention of doing that; he kept the door open deliberately; he didn’t enjoy talking to girls under Pinnie’s gaze, and he could tell this one was eager to chat. So without acknowledging her comment about his appearance, he said, not quite knowing what to say, “Have you come back to live in the Place?”
“Heaven forbid I should ever do that!” cried Miss Henning, with genuine emotion. “I have to live near the establishment in which I’m employed.”
“Heaven forbid I ever do that!” cried Miss Henning, with real emotion. “I have to live near the place where I work.”
“And what establishment is that, now?” the young man asked, gaining confidence and perceiving, in detail, how handsome she was. He hadn’t roamed about London for nothing, and he knew that when a girl was so handsome as that, a jocular tone of address, a pleasing freedom, was de rigueur; so he added, “Is it the Bull and Gate, or the Elephant and Castle?”
“And what place is that, then?” the young man asked, feeling more confident and noticing just how beautiful she was. He hadn’t wandered around London for nothing, and he knew that when a girl was as stunning as that, a funny way of speaking and a friendly attitude were de rigueur; so he added, “Is it the Bull and Gate, or the Elephant and Castle?”
“A public house! Well, you haven’t got the politeness of a Frenchman, at all events!” Her good-nature had come back to her perfectly, and her resentment of his imputation of her looking like a bar-maid—a blowzy beauty who handled pewter—was tempered by her more and more curious consideration of Hyacinth’s form. He was exceedingly ‘rum’, but this quality took her fancy, and since he remembered so well that she had been fond of kissing him, in their early days she would have liked to say to him that she stood prepared to repeat this form of attention. But she reminded herself, in time, that her line should be, religiously, the ladylike, and she was content to exclaim, simply, “I don’t care what a man looks like so long as he’s clever. That’s the form I like!”
“A pub! Well, you definitely don’t have the politeness of a Frenchman!” Her good nature had returned completely, and her annoyance at his suggestion that she looked like a barmaid—a messy beauty who served drinks—was softened by her growing curiosity about Hyacinth’s appearance. He was definitely ‘quirky,’ but she found that appealing, and since he clearly remembered that she used to enjoy kissing him in their early days, she felt tempted to tell him that she was open to doing that again. But she quickly reminded herself that she should stick to being ladylike, so she settled for simply exclaiming, “I don’t care what a guy looks like as long as he’s smart. That’s the kind of guy I like!”
Miss Pynsent had promised herself the satisfaction of taking no further notice of her brilliant invader; but the temptation was great to expose her to Hyacinth, as a mitigation of her brilliancy, by remarking sarcastically, according to opportunity, “Miss ’Enning wouldn’t live in Lomax Place for the world. She thinks it too abominably low.”
Miss Pynsent had promised herself the satisfaction of ignoring her dazzling intruder; but the temptation was strong to reveal her to Hyacinth, as a way to lessen her brilliance, by remarking sarcastically, whenever the chance arose, “Miss ’Enning wouldn’t live in Lomax Place for anything. She thinks it’s just too horrid.”
“So it is; it’s a beastly hole,” said the young man.
“So it is; it’s a terrible place,” said the young man.
The poor dressmaker’s little dart fell to the ground, and Millicent exclaimed, jovially, “Right you are!” while she directed to the object of her childhood’s admiration a smile that put him more and more at his ease.
The poor dressmaker’s little dart dropped to the ground, and Millicent said cheerfully, “You got it!” as she gave a smile to the object of her childhood admiration that made him feel more and more comfortable.
“Don’t you suppose I’m clever?” he asked, planted before her with his little legs slightly apart, while, with his hands behind him, he made the open door waver to and fro.
“Don’t you think I’m clever?” he asked, standing in front of her with his legs slightly apart, while he swayed the open door back and forth with his hands behind him.
“You? Oh, I don’t care whether you are or not!” said Millicent Henning; and Hyacinth was at any rate quick-witted enough to see what she meant by that. If she meant he was so good-looking that he might pass on this score alone her judgment was conceivable, though many women would strongly have dissented from it. He was as small as he had threatened—he had never got his growth—and she could easily see that he was not what she, at least, would call strong. His bones were small, his chest was narrow, his complexion pale, his whole figure almost childishly slight; and Millicent perceived afterward that he had a very delicate hand—the hand, as she said to herself, of a gentleman. What she liked was his face, and something jaunty and entertaining, almost theatrical in his whole little person. Miss Henning was not acquainted with any member of the dramatic profession, but she supposed, vaguely, that that was the way an actor would look in private life. Hyacinth’s features were perfect; his eyes, large and much divided, had as their usual expression a kind of witty candour, and a small, soft, fair moustache disposed itself upon his upper lip in a way that made him look as if he were smiling even when his heart was heavy. The waves of his dense, fine hair clustered round a forehead which was high enough to suggest remarkable things, and Miss Henning had observed that when he first appeared he wore his little soft circular hat in a way that left these frontal locks very visible. He was dressed in an old brown velveteen jacket, and wore exactly the bright-coloured necktie which Miss Pynsent’s quick fingers used of old to shape out of hoarded remnants of silk and muslin. He was shabby and work-stained, but the observant eye would have noted an idea in his dress (his appearance was plainly not a matter of indifference to himself), and a painter (not of the heroic) would have liked to make a sketch of him. There was something exotic about him, and yet, with his sharp young face, destitute of bloom, but not of sweetness, and a certain conscious cockneyism which pervaded him, he was as strikingly as Millicent, in her own degree, a product of the London streets and the London air. He looked both ingenuous and slightly wasted, amused, amusing, and indefinably sad. Women had always found him touching; yet he made them—so they had repeatedly assured him—die of laughing.
“You? Oh, I don’t care whether you are or not!” said Millicent Henning; and Hyacinth was quick enough to understand what she meant by that. If she meant he was so good-looking that he might get by on that alone, her opinion was understandable, though many women would strongly disagree. He was just as small as he seemed—he had never grown taller—and she could easily tell that he was not what she would consider strong. His bones were small, his chest was narrow, his complexion was pale, and his whole figure was almost childishly slight; Millicent later noticed that he had a very delicate hand—the hand, as she thought to herself, of a gentleman. What she liked was his face, and something carefree and entertaining, almost theatrical about his whole small presence. Miss Henning didn’t know any actors, but she vaguely assumed that’s how they would look in real life. Hyacinth’s features were perfect; his large, deep-set eyes usually had a witty honesty, and a small, soft, light moustache rested on his upper lip, making him look as if he were smiling even when he felt down. The waves of his thick, fine hair framed a forehead high enough to suggest remarkable things, and Miss Henning had noticed that when he first appeared, he wore his soft, round hat in a way that made his forehead hair very noticeable. He was dressed in an old brown velveteen jacket, and wore exactly the brightly colored necktie that Miss Pynsent's nimble fingers used to create from saved scraps of silk and muslin. He looked shabby and worn, but a keen observer would have seen a thoughtfulness in his outfit (it was clear his appearance mattered to him), and a painter (not in a grand style) would have liked to sketch him. There was something exotic about him, and yet, with his sharp young face, lacking in color but full of sweetness, and a certain conscious cockney flair, he was as noticeably a product of the London streets and air as Millicent was in her own way. He looked both innocent and slightly worn, amused, entertaining, and indefinably sad. Women had always found him touching; yet he made them—so they had told him repeatedly—burst out laughing.
“I think you had better shut the door,” said Miss Pynsent, meaning that he had better shut their departing visitor out.
“I think you should shut the door,” said Miss Pynsent, implying that he should keep their departing visitor out.
“Did you come here on purpose to see us?” Hyacinth asked, not heeding this injunction, of which he divined the spirit, and wishing the girl would take her leave, so that he might go out again with her. He should like talking with her much better away from Pinnie, who evidently was ready to stick a bodkin into her, for reasons he perfectly understood. He had seen plenty of them before, Pinnie’s reasons, even where girls were concerned who were not nearly so good-looking as this one. She was always in a fearful ‘funk’ about some woman getting hold of him, and persuading him to make a marriage beneath his station. His station!—poor Hyacinth had often asked himself, and Miss Pynsent, what it could possibly be. He had thought of it bitterly enough, and wondered how in the world he could marry ‘beneath’ it. He would never marry at all—to that his mind was absolutely made up; he would never hand on to another the burden which had made his own young spirit so intolerably sore, the inheritance which had darkened the whole threshold of his manhood. All the more reason why he should have his compensation; why, if the soft society of women was to be enjoyed on other terms, he should cultivate it with a bold, free mind.
“Did you come here on purpose to see us?” Hyacinth asked, ignoring the warning he sensed and hoping the girl would leave so he could go out with her again. He preferred talking to her away from Pinnie, who clearly wanted to poke her with a stick for reasons he completely understood. He had seen plenty of Pinnie’s motives before, even with girls who were far less attractive than this one. She always freaked out about some woman getting close to him and convincing him to marry someone beneath his station. His station!—poor Hyacinth often wondered, along with Miss Pynsent, what that even meant. He had thought about it bitterly and was puzzled about how he could ever marry ‘beneath’ it. He decided he would never marry at all; he was completely convinced of that. He would never pass on to someone else the burden that had made his own youth so painfully difficult, the inheritance that had cast a shadow over his entire entrance into manhood. All the more reason he should seek his own happiness; if he was to enjoy the company of women in different ways, he should embrace it with a bold, open mind.
“I thought I would just give a look at the old shop; I had an engagement not far off,” Millicent said. “But I wouldn’t have believed any one who had told me I should find you just where I left you.”
“I thought I’d take a quick look at the old shop since I had an appointment nearby,” Millicent said. “But I wouldn’t have believed anyone who told me I’d find you exactly where I left you.”
“We needed you to look after us!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, irrepressibly.
“We needed you to take care of us!” Miss Pynsent exclaimed, unable to hold it back.
“Oh, you’re such a swell yourself!” Hyacinth observed, without heeding the dressmaker.
“Oh, you’re really great yourself!” Hyacinth noted, ignoring the dressmaker.
“None of your impudence! I’m as good a girl as there is in London!” And to corroborate this, Miss Henning went on: “If you were to offer to see me a part of the way home, I should tell you I don’t knock about that way with gentlemen.”
“Don’t be so cheeky! I’m as good a girl as there is in London!” And to back this up, Miss Henning continued: “If you were to offer to walk me part of the way home, I’d tell you I don’t hang out like that with guys.”
“I’ll go with you as far as you like,” Hyacinth replied, simply, as if he knew how to treat that sort of speech.
“I'll go with you as far as you want,” Hyacinth said easily, as if he understood how to handle that kind of conversation.
“Well, it’s only because I knew you as a baby!” And they went out together, Hyacinth careful not to look at poor Pinnie at all (he felt her glaring whitely and tearfully at him out of her dim corner—it had by this time grown too dusky to work without a lamp), and his companion giving her an outrageously friendly nod of farewell over her shoulder.
“Well, it’s just because I knew you when you were a baby!” And they left together, Hyacinth making sure not to glance at poor Pinnie at all (he could sense her staring at him, white-faced and tearful from her dim corner—it had gotten too dark to work without a lamp), while his companion gave her a ridiculously friendly nod of goodbye over her shoulder.
It was a long walk from Lomax Place to the quarter of the town in which (to be near the haberdasher’s in the Buckingham Palace Road) Miss Henning occupied a modest back-room; but the influences of the hour were such as to make the excursion very agreeable to our young man, who liked the streets at all times, but especially at nightfall, in the autumn, of a Saturday, when, in the vulgar districts, the smaller shops and open-air industries were doubly active, and big, clumsy torches flared and smoked over hand-carts and costermongers’ barrows, drawn up in the gutters. Hyacinth had roamed through the great city since he was an urchin, but his imagination had never ceased to be stirred by the preparations for Sunday that went on in the evening among the toilers and spinners, his brothers and sisters, and he lost himself in all the quickened crowding and pushing and staring at lighted windows and chaffering at the stalls of fishmongers and hucksters. He liked the people who looked as if they had got their week’s wage and were prepared to lay it out discreetly; and even those whose use of it would plainly be extravagant and intemperate; and, best of all, those who evidently hadn’t received it at all and who wandered about, disinterestedly, vaguely, with their hands in empty pockets, watching others make their bargains and fill their satchels, or staring at the striated sides of bacon, at the golden cubes and triangles of cheese, at the graceful festoons of sausage, in the most brilliant of the windows. He liked the reflection of the lamps on the wet pavements, the feeling and smell of the carboniferous London damp; the way the winter fog blurred and suffused the whole place, made it seem bigger and more crowded, produced halos and dim radiations, trickles and evaporations, on the plates of glass. He moved in the midst of these impressions this evening, but he enjoyed them in silence, with an attention taken up mainly by his companion, and pleased to be already so intimate with a young lady whom people turned round to look at. She herself affected to speak of the rush and crush of the week’s end with disgust: she said she liked the streets, but she liked the respectable ones; she couldn’t abide the smell of fish, and the whole place seemed full of it, so that she hoped they would soon get into the Edgware Road, towards which they tended and which was a proper street for a lady. To Hyacinth she appeared to have no connection with the long-haired little girl who, in Lomax Place, years before, was always hugging a smutty doll and courting his society; she was like a stranger, a new acquaintance, and he observed her curiously, wondering by what transitions she had reached her present pitch.
It was a long walk from Lomax Place to the part of town where Miss Henning had a small back room (to be close to the haberdasher’s on Buckingham Palace Road); but the atmosphere at that hour made the trip very enjoyable for our young man, who liked the streets at all times, especially at dusk in the autumn on a Saturday, when, in the less fancy neighborhoods, the smaller shops and outdoor vendors were especially busy, with large, awkward torches flickering and smoking over handcarts and street vendors' stalls set up in the gutters. Hyacinth had roamed through the city since he was a kid, but he was always captivated by the preparations for Sunday happening in the evening among the workers, his peers, and he found himself lost in the bustling crowds and the pushing and staring at brightly lit windows, haggling at the fishmongers and market stalls. He liked the people who seemed to have just received their weekly pay and were ready to spend it wisely; he also appreciated those who would clearly spend it recklessly; and most of all, he empathized with those who obviously hadn’t gotten paid at all, wandering aimlessly with their hands in empty pockets, watching others make their purchases and fill their bags, or gazing at the slabs of bacon, the golden cubes and triangles of cheese, and the elegant strings of sausages displayed in the brightest shop windows. He enjoyed the reflections of the lamps on the wet sidewalks, the feeling and scent of the carbon-laden London damp; the way the winter fog softened and enveloped everything, making the place seem larger and more crowded, creating halos and dim glows, trickles and evaporations on the glass panes. He navigated through these impressions that evening, but he experienced them in silence, primarily focused on his companion, pleased to be so close to a young lady who attracted attention from passersby. She pretended to disdain the busyness of the weekend: she said she liked the streets, but preferred the more respectable ones; she couldn’t stand the smell of fish, and the whole area seemed filled with it, hoping they would soon reach Edgware Road, which she deemed a proper street for a lady. To Hyacinth, she seemed completely disconnected from the long-haired little girl in Lomax Place years before, who had always clutched a dirty doll and sought his company; she felt like a stranger, a new acquaintance, and he observed her with curiosity, wondering how she had transformed into the person she was now.
She enlightened him but little on this point, though she talked a great deal on a variety of subjects, and mentioned to him her habits, her aspirations, her likes and dislikes. The latter were very numerous. She was tremendously particular, difficult to please, he could see that; and she assured him that she never put up with anything a moment after it had ceased to be agreeable to her. Especially was she particular about gentlemen’s society, and she made it plain that a young fellow who wanted to have anything to say to her must be in receipt of wages amounting at the least to fifty shillings a week. Hyacinth told her that he didn’t earn that, as yet; and she remarked again that she made an exception for him, because she knew all about him (or if not all, at least a great deal), and he could see that her good-nature was equal to her beauty. She made such an exception that when, after they were moving down the Edgware Road (which had still the brightness of late closing, but with more nobleness), he proposed that she should enter a coffee-house with him and ‘take something’ (he could hardly tell himself, afterwards, what brought him to this point), she acceded without a demur—without a demur even on the ground of his slender earnings. Slender as they were, Hyacinth had them in his pocket (they had been destined in some degree for Pinnie), and he felt equal to the occasion. Millicent partook profusely of tea and bread and butter, with a relish of raspberry jam, and thought the place most comfortable, though he himself, after finding himself ensconced, was visited by doubts as to its respectability, suggested, among other things, by photographs, on the walls, of young ladies in tights. Hyacinth himself was hungry, he had not yet had his tea, but he was too excited, too preoccupied, to eat; the situation made him restless and gave him palpitations; it seemed to be the beginning of something new. He had never yet ‘stood’ even a glass of beer to a girl of Millicent’s stamp—a girl who rustled and glittered and smelt of musk—and if she should turn out as jolly a specimen of the sex as she seemed it might make a great difference in his leisure hours, in his evenings, which were often very dull. That it would also make a difference in his savings (he was under a pledge to Pinnie and to Mr Vetch to put by something every week) it didn’t concern him, for the moment, to reflect; and indeed, though he thought it odious and insufferable to be poor, the ways and means of becoming rich had hitherto not greatly occupied him. He knew what Millicent’s age must be, but felt, nevertheless, as if she were older, much older, than himself—she appeared to know so much about London and about life; and this made it still more of a sensation to be entertaining her like a young swell. He thought of it, too, in connection with the question of the respectability of the establishment; if this element was deficient she would perceive it as soon as he, and very likely it would be a part of the general initiation she had given him an impression of that she shouldn’t mind it so long as the tea was strong and the bread and butter thick. She described to him what had passed between Miss Pynsent and herself (she didn’t call her Pinnie, and he was glad, for he wouldn’t have liked it) before he came in, and let him know that she should never dare to come to the place again, as his mother would tear her eyes out. Then she checked herself. “Of course she ain’t your mother! How stupid I am! I keep forgetting.”
She didn’t share much with him about this topic, even though she talked a lot about various things and told him about her habits, dreams, likes, and dislikes. She had plenty of dislikes. She was extremely particular and hard to please, which he noticed; and she made it clear that she wouldn’t tolerate anything the moment it stopped being enjoyable for her. She was especially choosy about the company of men, making it clear that if a young guy wanted to talk to her, he needed to earn at least fifty shillings a week. Hyacinth admitted he didn’t make that much yet; she then indicated she was making an exception for him because she knew quite a bit about him (if not everything). He could see that her kind nature matched her beauty. She made such an exception that when they were walking down the Edgware Road, which still had the buzz of late-night activity but felt classier, he suggested they stop by a coffee house and ‘have something’ (he wasn’t quite sure what made him say that), and she agreed without hesitation—even despite his low income. Even though his earnings were scant (they had been somewhat intended for Pinnie), he felt ready for it. Millicent enjoyed a lot of tea and bread and butter with raspberry jam and thought the place was very cozy, while Hyacinth, after settling in, started to have doubts about its respectability—sparked by some photos on the walls of young women in tights. Hyacinth was hungry since he hadn’t had any tea yet, but he felt too excited and distracted to eat; the situation made him restless and gave him butterflies; it felt like the start of something new. He had never treated a girl of Millicent’s caliber—a girl who sparkled, rustled, and smelled of musk—to even a glass of beer, and if she turned out to be as fun as she seemed, it could really change his free time during those often dull evenings. He wasn’t thinking about the impact it would have on his savings (he had promised Pinnie and Mr. Vetch to save something each week) at that moment, though he certainly found being poor annoying and unbearable; he hadn’t seriously thought about how to get rich. He knew Millicent’s age but somehow felt she was much older—she seemed so knowledgeable about London and life, making it even more thrilling to entertain her like a young gentleman. He also considered the respectability of the place; if things were lacking in that area, she would notice just as quickly as he would, and it likely reflected the general impression she had given him that she wouldn’t mind as long as the tea was strong and the bread and butter was thick. She shared with him what had happened between her and Miss Pynsent (she didn’t call her Pinnie, which he was grateful for) before he arrived, letting him know she wouldn’t dare come back since his mother would be furious. Then she paused. “Of course, she’s not your mother! How silly of me! I keep forgetting.”
Hyacinth had long since convinced himself that he had acquired a manner with which he could meet allusions of this kind: he had had, first and last, so many opportunities to practise it. Therefore he looked at his companion very steadily while he said, “My mother died many years ago; she was a great invalid. But Pinnie has been awfully good to me.”
Hyacinth had long convinced himself that he had developed a way to handle references like this; he had many chances to practice it over the years. So, he looked at his companion firmly and said, “My mother passed away many years ago; she was very sick. But Pinnie has been really good to me.”
“My mother’s dead, too,” Miss Henning remarked. “She died very suddenly. I dare say you remember her in the Place.” Then, while Hyacinth disengaged from the past the wavering figure of Mrs Henning, of whom he mainly remembered that she used to strike him as dirty, the girl added, smiling, but with more sentiment, “But I have had no Pinnie.”
“My mom's dead, too,” Miss Henning said. “She passed away really suddenly. I bet you remember her from the Place.” Then, while Hyacinth tried to recall the hazy image of Mrs. Henning, mostly remembering that she seemed dirty to him, the girl added with a smile, but more emotionally, “But I haven't had a Pinnie.”
“You look as if you could take care of yourself.”
“You look like you can handle yourself.”
“Well, I’m very confiding,” said Millicent Henning. Then she asked what had become of Mr Vetch. “We used to say that if Miss Pynsent was your mamma, he was your papa. In our family we used to call him Miss Pynsent’s young man.”
“Well, I’m really open,” said Millicent Henning. Then she asked what happened to Mr. Vetch. “We used to say that if Miss Pynsent was your mom, he was your dad. In our family, we used to call him Miss Pynsent’s boyfriend.”
“He’s her young man still,” Hyacinth said. “He’s our best friend—or supposed to be. He got me the place I’m in now. He lives by his fiddle, as he used to do.”
“He's still her guy,” Hyacinth said. “He's our best friend—or at least he's supposed to be. He got me the place I'm in now. He makes a living with his fiddle, like he always did.”
Millicent looked a little at her companion, after which she remarked, “I should have thought he would have got you a place at his theatre.”
Millicent glanced at her companion and then said, “I would have thought he would have gotten you a spot at his theater.”
“At his theatre? That would have been no use. I don’t play any instrument.”
“At his theater? That wouldn't have helped. I don’t play any instrument.”
“I don’t mean in the orchestra, you gaby! You would look very nice in a fancy costume.” She had her elbows on the table, and her shoulders lifted, in an attitude of extreme familiarity. He was on the point of replying that he didn’t care for fancy costumes, he wished to go through life in his own character; but he checked himself, with the reflection that this was exactly what, apparently, he was destined not to do. His own character? He was to cover that up as carefully as possible; he was to go through life in a mask, in a borrowed mantle; he was to be, every day and every hour, an actor. Suddenly, with the utmost irrelevance, Miss Henning inquired, “Is Miss Pynsent some relation? What gave her any right over you?”
“I don’t mean in the orchestra, you idiot! You would look great in a fancy costume.” She had her elbows on the table, and her shoulders raised, acting very familiar. He was about to say that he wasn’t into fancy costumes and wanted to live life as himself; but he stopped himself, realizing that this was exactly what he seemed destined not to do. His own character? He had to hide that as much as possible; he was meant to go through life wearing a mask, in borrowed clothes; he was supposed to be, every day and every hour, an actor. Suddenly, out of nowhere, Miss Henning asked, “Is Miss Pynsent some relative? What gives her any right over you?”
Hyacinth had an answer ready for this question; he had determined to say, as he had several times said before, “Miss Pynsent is an old friend of my family. My mother was very fond of her, and she was very fond of my mother.” He repeated the formula now, looking at Millicent with the same inscrutable calmness (as he fancied), though what he would have liked to say to her would have been that his mother was none of her business. But she was too handsome to talk that way to, and she presented her large fair face to him, across the table, with an air of solicitation to be cosy and comfortable. There were things in his heart and a torment and a hidden passion in his life which he should be glad enough to lay open to some woman. He believed that perhaps this would be the cure ultimately; that in return for something he might drop, syllable by syllable, into a listening feminine ear, certain other words would be spoken to him which would make his pain for ever less sharp. But what woman could he trust, what ear would be safe? The answer was not in this loud, fresh laughing creature, whose sympathy couldn’t have the fineness he was looking for, since her curiosity was vulgar. Hyacinth objected to the vulgar as much as Miss Pynsent herself; in this respect she had long since discovered that he was after her own heart. He had not taken up the subject of Mrs Henning’s death; he felt himself incapable of inquiring about that lady, and had no desire for knowledge of Millicent’s relationships. Moreover he always suffered, to sickness, when people began to hover about the question of his origin, the reasons why Pinnie had had the care of him from a baby. Mrs Henning had been untidy, but at least her daughter could speak of her. “Mr Vetch has changed his lodgings: he moved out of No. 17, three years ago,” he said, to vary the topic. “He couldn’t stand the other people in the house; there was a man that played the accordeon.”
Hyacinth had a ready answer for the question; he had decided to say, as he had many times before, “Miss Pynsent is an old family friend. My mother really liked her, and she really liked my mother.” He repeated this now, looking at Millicent with what he thought was an inscrutable calmness, though deep down, he wanted to tell her that his mother was none of her business. But she was too attractive to talk to that way, presenting her large fair face to him across the table, with a vibe of wanting to be cozy and comfortable. He had feelings in his heart and a torment and hidden passion in his life that he would gladly share with some woman. He believed that maybe this would eventually help; that in return for something he might slowly share, syllable by syllable, with a listening woman, certain other words would be spoken to him that would make his pain forever less sharp. But which woman could he trust, what ear would be safe? The answer was not in this loud, fresh, laughing woman, whose sympathy couldn’t have the subtlety he was looking for, since her curiosity was shallow. Hyacinth disliked the superficial as much as Miss Pynsent did; in this regard, she had long ago realized that he was on the same page as her. He hadn't brought up the subject of Mrs. Henning's death; he felt incapable of asking about that lady and had no desire to know about Millicent's relationships. Furthermore, he always felt sick when people started getting into questions about his origins, the reasons why Pinnie had taken care of him since he was a baby. Mrs. Henning might have been disorganized, but at least her daughter could talk about her. “Mr. Vetch changed his lodgings; he moved out of No. 17 three years ago,” he said, trying to change the subject. “He couldn’t stand the other people in the house; there was a guy who played the accordion.”
Millicent, however, was but moderately interested in this anecdote, and she wanted to know why people should like Mr Vetch’s fiddle any better. Then she added, “And I think that while he was about it he might have put you into something better than a bookbinder’s.”
Millicent, however, was only somewhat interested in this story, and she wanted to know why people liked Mr. Vetch’s fiddle any better. Then she added, “And I think that while he was at it, he could have put you into something better than a bookbinder’s.”
“He wasn’t obliged to put me into anything. It’s a very good place.”
“He didn’t have to put me in anything. It’s a really great place.”
“All the same, it isn’t where I should have looked to find you,” Millicent declared, not so much in the tone of wishing to pay him a compliment as of resentment at having miscalculated.
“All the same, it’s not where I should have looked to find you,” Millicent said, not really trying to compliment him but more out of frustration for having gotten it wrong.
“Where should you have looked to find me? In the House of Commons? It’s a pity you couldn’t have told me in advance what you would have liked me to be.”
“Where should you have looked to find me? In the House of Commons? It’s a shame you couldn’t have told me in advance what you wanted me to be.”
She looked at him, over her cup, while she drank, in several sips. “Do you know what they used to say in the Place? That your father was a lord.”
She looked at him over her cup as she took a few sips. “Do you know what they used to say in the Place? That your dad was a lord.”
“Very likely. That’s the kind of rot they talk in that precious hole,” the young man said, without blenching.
“Very likely. That’s the kind of nonsense they talk in that fancy place,” the young man said, without flinching.
“Well, perhaps he was,” Millicent ventured.
"Well, maybe he was," Millicent suggested.
“He may have been a prince, for all the good it has done me.”
“He might as well have been a prince, considering how much good it has done me.”
“Fancy your talking as if you didn’t know!” said Millicent.
“Imagine you talking as if you didn’t know!” said Millicent.
“Finish your tea—don’t mind how I talk.”
“Finish your tea—don't worry about how I sound.”
“Well, you ’ave got a temper!” the girl exclaimed, archly. “I should have thought you’d be a clerk at a banker’s.”
“Well, you have got a temper!” the girl exclaimed, playfully. “I would have thought you’d be a clerk at a bank.”
“Do they select them for their tempers?”
“Do they choose them for their tempers?”
“You know what I mean. You used to be too clever to follow a trade.”
“You know what I mean. You used to be too smart to follow a career.”
“Well, I’m not clever enough to live on air.”
“Well, I’m not smart enough to live on air.”
“You might be, really, for all the tea you drink! Why didn’t you go in for some high profession?”
“You could be, honestly, with all the tea you drink! Why didn’t you aim for a serious career?”
“How was I to go in? Who the devil was to help me?” Hyacinth inquired, with a certain vibration.
“How was I supposed to get in? Who the hell was going to help me?” Hyacinth asked, with a certain intensity.
“Haven’t you got any relations?” said Millicent, after a moment.
“Haven’t you got any family?” Millicent asked after a moment.
“What are you doing? Are you trying to make me swagger?”
“What are you doing? Are you trying to make me strut?”
When he spoke sharply she only laughed, not in the least ruffled, and by the way she looked at him seemed to like it. “Well, I’m sorry you’re only a journeyman,” she went on, pushing away her cup.
When he spoke sharply, she just laughed, completely unfazed, and the way she looked at him made it seem like she enjoyed it. “Well, I’m sorry you’re just a journeyman,” she continued, pushing her cup away.
“So am I,” Hyacinth rejoined; but he called for the bill as if he had been an employer of labour. Then, while it was being brought, he remarked to his companion that he didn’t believe she had an idea of what his work was and how charming it could be. “Yes, I get up books for the shops,” he said, when she had retorted that she perfectly understood. “But the art of the binder is an exquisite art.”
“So am I,” Hyacinth replied; but he asked for the bill as if he were an employer. Then, while they were bringing it, he told his companion that he didn't think she had any idea what his job was and how delightful it could be. “Yes, I arrange books for the shops,” he said, when she shot back that she understood perfectly. “But the art of bookbinding is truly an exquisite art.”
“So Miss Pynsent told me. She said you had some samples at home. I should like to see them.”
“So Miss Pynsent told me. She said you have some samples at home. I’d like to see them.”
“You wouldn’t know how good they are,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“You wouldn’t know how great they are,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
He expected that she would exclaim, in answer, that he was an impudent wretch, and for a moment she seemed to be on the point of doing so. But the words changed on her lips, and she replied, almost tenderly, “That’s just the way you used to speak to me, years ago in the Plice.”
He thought she would respond by calling him an arrogant jerk, and for a moment, it seemed like she was about to. But the words shifted on her lips, and she replied, almost gently, “That’s exactly how you used to talk to me, years ago in the Plice.”
“I don’t care about that. I hate all that time.”
“I don’t care about that. I can’t stand all that time.”
“Oh, so do I, if you come to that,” said Millicent, as if she could rise to any breadth of view. And then she returned to her idea that he had not done himself justice. “You used always to be reading: I never thought you would work with your ’ands.”
“Oh, so do I, if you think about it,” said Millicent, as if she could grasp any larger perspective. Then she went back to her thought that he hadn’t really shown his true potential. “You used to always be reading: I never thought you would work with your hands.”
This seemed to irritate him, and, having paid the bill and given threepence, ostentatiously, to the young woman with a languid manner and hair of an unnatural yellow, who had waited on them, he said, “You may depend upon it I shan’t do it an hour longer than I can help.”
This seemed to annoy him, and after paying the bill and giving three pence, showily, to the young woman with a laid-back attitude and unnaturally yellow hair who had served them, he said, “You can count on it; I won’t do it for a minute longer than I have to.”
“What will you do then?”
“What are you going to do?”
“Oh, you’ll see, some day.” In the street, after they had begun to walk again, he went on, “You speak as if I could have my pick. What was an obscure little beggar to do, buried in a squalid corner of London, under a million of idiots? I had no help, no influence, no acquaintance of any kind with professional people, and no means of getting at them. I had to do something; I couldn’t go on living on Pinnie. Thank God, I help her now, a little. I took what I could get.” He spoke as if he had been touched by the imputation of having derogated.
“Oh, you’ll see, someday.” In the street, after they had started walking again, he continued, “You talk like I had a choice. What was a nobody like me supposed to do, stuck in a filthy corner of London, surrounded by a million idiots? I had no help, no connections, no contacts with professionals, and no way to reach them. I had to figure something out; I couldn’t keep relying on Pinnie. Thank God, I can help her a bit now. I took whatever I could get.” He spoke as if he were offended by the suggestion that he had lowered himself.
Millicent seemed to imply that he defended himself successfully when she said, “You express yourself like a gentleman”—a speech to which he made no response. But he began to talk again afterwards, and, the evening having definitely set in, his companion took his arm for the rest of the way home. By the time he reached her door he had confided to her that, in secret, he wrote: he had a dream of literary distinction. This appeared to impress her, and she branched off to remark, with an irrelevance that characterised her, that she didn’t care anything about a man’s family if she liked the man himself; she thought families were played out. Hyacinth wished she would leave his alone; and while they lingered in front of her house, before she went in, he said—
Millicent seemed to suggest that he defended himself well when she said, “You express yourself like a gentleman”—a comment to which he didn't reply. Yet, he started talking again afterward, and as evening definitely settled in, his companion took his arm for the rest of the way home. By the time he reached her door, he had revealed to her that, secretly, he wrote: he had a dream of literary success. This seemed to impress her, and she went on to say, with a randomness that was typical of her, that she didn’t care about a man’s family if she liked the man himself; she thought families were outdated. Hyacinth wished she wouldn’t bring his up; and while they lingered in front of her house, before she went in, he said—
“I have no doubt you’re a jolly girl, and I am very happy to have seen you again. But you have awfully little tact.”
“I have no doubt you’re a cheerful girl, and I’m really glad to have seen you again. But you lack a lot of tact.”
“I have little tact? You should see me work off an old jacket!”
“I have no tact? You should watch me take off an old jacket!”
He was silent a moment, standing before her with his hands in his pockets. “It’s a good job you’re so handsome.”
He paused for a moment, standing in front of her with his hands in his pockets. “Good thing you’re so handsome.”
Millicent didn’t blush at this compliment, and probably didn’t understand all it conveyed, but she looked into his eyes a while, with a smile that showed her teeth, and then said, more inconsequently than ever, “Come now, who are you?”
Millicent didn’t blush at the compliment, and she probably didn’t grasp everything it meant, but she looked into his eyes for a moment, with a smile that revealed her teeth, and then said, more randomly than ever, “Come on, who are you?”
“Who am I? I’m a wretched little bookbinder.”
“Who am I? I’m just a miserable little bookbinder.”
“I didn’t think I ever could fancy any one in that line!” Miss Henning exclaimed. Then she let him know that she couldn’t ask him in, as she made it a point not to receive gentlemen, but she didn’t mind if she took another walk with him and she didn’t care if she met him somewhere—if it were handy. As she lived so far from Lomax Place she didn’t care if she met him half-way. So, in the dusky by-street in Pimlico, before separating, they took a casual tryst; the most interesting, the young man felt, that had yet been—he could scarcely call it granted him.
“I never thought I could like someone in that line!” Miss Henning exclaimed. Then she let him know that she couldn’t invite him in, as she made it a point not to receive gentlemen, but she didn’t mind taking another walk with him and wouldn’t care if they ran into each other somewhere—if it was convenient. Since she lived so far from Lomax Place, she didn’t mind meeting him halfway. So, in the dimly lit side street in Pimlico, before parting ways, they casually arranged to meet again; the young man felt it was the most interesting encounter he had experienced yet—he could hardly believe it was happening.
VI
One day, shortly after this, at the bindery, his friend Poupin was absent, and sent no explanation, as was customary in case of illness or domestic accident. There were two or three men employed in the place whose non-appearance, usually following close upon pay-day, was better unexplained, and was an implication of moral feebleness; but as a general thing Mr Crookenden’s establishment was a haunt of punctuality and sobriety. Least of all had Eustache Poupin been in the habit of asking for a margin. Hyacinth knew how little indulgence he had ever craved, and this was part of his admiration for the extraordinary Frenchman, an ardent stoic, a cold conspirator and an exquisite artist, who was by far the most interesting person in the ranks of his acquaintance and whose conversation, in the workshop, helped him sometimes to forget the smell of leather and glue. His conversation! Hyacinth had had plenty of that, and had endeared himself to the passionate refugee—Poupin had come to England after the Commune of 1871, to escape the reprisals of the government of M. Thiers, and had remained there in spite of amnesties and rehabilitations—by the solemnity and candour of his attention. He was a Republican of the old-fashioned sort, of the note of 1848, humanitary and idealistic, infinitely addicted to fraternity and equality, and inexhaustibly surprised and exasperated at finding so little enthusiasm for them in the land of his exile. Poupin had a high claim upon Hyacinth’s esteem and gratitude, for he had been his godfather, his protector at the bindery. When Anastasius Vetch found something for Miss Pynsent’s protégé to do, it was through the Frenchman, with whom he had accidentally formed an acquaintance, that he found it.
One day, not long after this, at the bindery, his friend Poupin was missing and didn’t send any explanation, which was usual in cases of illness or domestic troubles. There were a couple of guys who worked there whose absence, often right after payday, was better left unexplained, hinting at moral weakness. But generally, Mr. Crookenden’s shop was known for its punctuality and sobriety. Eustache Poupin was least likely to ask for exceptions. Hyacinth understood how little leniency he had ever sought, which was part of why he admired the remarkable Frenchman—a passionate stoic, a cool conspirator, and a skilled artist—who was by far the most intriguing person he knew, and whose conversations sometimes helped him forget the smell of leather and glue. His conversations! Hyacinth had lots of those and had won the passionate refugee’s friendship—Poupin had come to England after the 1871 Commune to escape the government reprisals from M. Thiers, and stayed even with offers of amnesty and rehabilitation—through the seriousness and sincerity of his attention. He was an old-school Republican, from the spirit of 1848, humanitarian and idealistic, deeply committed to fraternity and equality, and endlessly shocked and frustrated by the lack of enthusiasm for those ideals in his new home. Poupin had a significant place in Hyacinth’s respect and gratitude since he had been his godfather and his mentor at the bindery. When Anastasius Vetch found something for Miss Pynsent’s protégé to do, it was through the Frenchman, with whom he had randomly become acquainted, that he got it.
When the boy was about fifteen years of age Mr Vetch made him a present of the essays of Lord Bacon, and the purchase of this volume had important consequences for Hyacinth. Anastasius Vetch was a poor man, and the luxury of giving was for the most part denied him; but when once in a way he tasted it he liked the sensation to be pure. No man knew better the difference between the common and the rare, or was more capable of appreciating a book which opened well—of which the margin was not hideously chopped and of which the lettering on the back was sharp. It was only such a book that he could bring himself to offer even to a poor little devil whom a fifth-rate dressmaker (he knew Pinnie was fifth-rate) had rescued from the workhouse. So when it became a question of fitting the great Elizabethan with a new coat—a coat of full morocco, discreetly, delicately gilt—he went with his little cloth-bound volume, a Pickering, straight to Mr Crookenden, whom every one that knew anything about the matter knew to be a prince of binders, though they also knew that his work, limited in quantity, was mainly done for a particular bookseller and only through the latter’s agency. Anastasius Vetch had no idea of paying the bookseller’s commission, and though he could be lavish (for him) when he made a present, he was capable of taking an immense deal of trouble to save sixpence. He made his way into Mr Crookenden’s workshop, which was situated in a small superannuated square in Soho, and where the proposal of so slender a job was received at first with coldness. Mr Vetch, however, insisted, and explained with irresistible frankness the motive of his errand: the desire to obtain the best possible binding for the least possible money. He made his conception of the best possible binding so vivid, so exemplary, that the master of the shop at last confessed to that disinterested sympathy which, under favouring circumstances, establishes itself between the artist and the connoisseur. Mr Vetch’s little book was put in hand as a particular service to an eccentric gentleman whose visit had been a smile-stirring interlude (for the circle of listening workmen) in a merely mechanical day; and when he went back, three weeks later, to see whether it were done, he had the pleasure of finding that his injunctions, punctually complied with, had even been bettered. The work had been accomplished with a perfection of skill which made him ask whom he was to thank for it (he had been told that one man should do the whole of it), and in this manner he made the acquaintance of the most brilliant craftsman in the establishment, the incorruptible, the imaginative, the unerring Eustache Poupin.
When the boy was about fifteen, Mr. Vetch gave him a copy of Lord Bacon's essays, and buying this book had significant effects on Hyacinth. Anastasius Vetch was a poor man, and he rarely had the luxury of giving gifts; but when he did, he wanted it to be meaningful. No one knew better than him the difference between the ordinary and the exceptional, or appreciated a well-made book—one with a neat margin and sharp lettering on the spine. Only such a book could he bring himself to give to a poor kid whom a mediocre dressmaker (he knew Pinnie was mediocre) had saved from the workhouse. So, when it came time to dress the great Elizabethan in a new coat—a full morocco cover, discreetly and delicately gilt—he went with his little cloth-bound volume, a Pickering, directly to Mr. Crookenden, who everyone in the know recognized as a master binder, although they also knew that his limited work mainly went through a specific bookseller. Anastasius Vetch didn’t plan on paying the bookseller’s commission, and even though he could be generous (for him) when giving a gift, he was also very meticulous about saving money. He entered Mr. Crookenden’s workshop, located in a small, old square in Soho, where the request for such a small job was initially met with indifference. However, Mr. Vetch persisted and openly explained his motive: to get the best binding for the least money. He described his idea of the perfect binding so vividly that the shop owner eventually admitted to a genuine appreciation that can develop between an artist and a connoisseur. Mr. Vetch’s little book was taken on as a special project for an eccentric gentleman whose visit brightened the day for the listening workers; and when he returned three weeks later to check on its progress, he was pleased to find that everything he requested had been done even better than he expected. The craftsmanship was so skillful that he inquired who to thank for it (since he had been told that one person would handle the entire job), and thus he met the most talented craftsman in the shop, the incorruptible, imaginative, and precise Eustache Poupin.
In response to an appreciation which he felt not to be banal M. Poupin remarked that he had at home a small collection of experiments in morocco, Russia, parchment, of fanciful specimens with which, for the love of the art, he had amused his leisure hours and which he should be happy to show his interlocutor if the latter would do him the honour to call upon him at his lodgings in Lisson Grove. Mr Vetch made a note of the address and, for the love of the art, went one Sunday afternoon to see the binder’s esoteric studies. On this occasion he made the acquaintance of Madame Poupin, a small, fat lady with a bristling moustache, the white cap of an ouvrière, a knowledge of her husband’s craft that was equal to his own, and not a syllable of English save the words, “What you think, what you think?” which she introduced with startling frequency. He also discovered that his new acquaintance had been a political proscript and that he regarded the iniquitous fabric of Church and State with an eye scarcely more reverent than the fiddler’s own. M. Poupin was a socialist, which Anastasius Vetch was not, and a constructive democrat (instead of being a mere scoffer at effete things) and a theorist and an optimist and a visionary; he believed that the day was to come when all the nations of the earth would abolish their frontiers and armies and custom-houses, and embrace on both cheeks, and cover the globe with boulevards, radiating from Paris, where the human family would sit, in groups, at little tables, according to affinities, drinking coffee (not tea, par exemple!) and listening to the music of the spheres. Mr Vetch neither prefigured nor desired this organised felicity; he was fond of his cup of tea, and only wanted to see the British constitution a good deal simplified; he thought it a much overrated system, but his heresies rubbed shoulders, sociably, with those of the little bookbinder, and his friend in Lisson Grove became for him the type of the intelligent foreigner whose conversation completes our culture. Poupin’s humanitary zeal was as unlimited as his English vocabulary was the reverse, and the new friends agreed with each other enough, and not too much, to discuss, which was much better than an unspeakable harmony. On several other Sunday afternoons the fiddler went back to Lisson Grove, and having, at his theatre, as a veteran, a faithful servant, an occasional privilege, he was able to carry thither, one day in the autumn, an order for two seats in the second balcony. Madame Poupin and her husband passed a lugubrious evening at the English comedy, where they didn’t understand a word that was spoken, and consoled themselves by gazing at their friend in the orchestra. But this adventure did not arrest the development of a friendship into which, eventually, Amanda Pynsent was drawn. Madame Poupin, among the cold insularies, lacked female society, and Mr Vetch proposed to his amiable friend in Lomax Place to call upon her. The little dressmaker, who in the course of her life had known no Frenchwoman but the unhappy Florentine (so favourable a specimen till she began to go wrong), adopted his suggestion, in the hope that she should get a few ideas from a lady whose appearance would doubtless exemplify (as Florentine’s originally had done) the fine taste of her nation; but she found the bookbinder and his wife a bewildering mixture of the brilliant and the relaxed, and was haunted, long afterwards, by the memory of the lady’s calico jacket, her uncorseted form and her carpet slippers.
In response to an appreciation he didn’t think was banal, M. Poupin noted that he had a small collection of experiments at home made from morocco, Russian leather, and parchment, consisting of fanciful pieces that he enjoyed working on during his free time for the love of the craft. He would be happy to show them to his conversation partner if the latter would honor him with a visit to his place in Lisson Grove. Mr. Vetch jotted down the address and, for the love of the art, went to see the binder’s unique creations one Sunday afternoon. During this visit, he met Madame Poupin, a small, plump woman with a bristling moustache, wearing the white cap of a seamstress. She shared her husband’s knowledge of his craft and spoke no English except for the phrase, “What you think, what you think?” which she used quite often. He also learned that she had been a political exile and looked at the corrupt structure of Church and State with little more reverence than her husband did. M. Poupin was a socialist, unlike Anastasius Vetch, and he was a constructive democrat who theorized, was optimistic, and envisioned a future where all nations would eliminate their borders, armies, and customs houses, greeting each other warmly. He imagined the world filled with boulevards radiating from Paris, where people would sit in groups at little tables, according to their interests, drinking coffee (not tea, par exemple!) and enjoying the music of the spheres. Mr. Vetch neither envisioned nor wished for this organized happiness; he liked his tea and simply wanted the British constitution to be simplified. He saw it as an overrated system, yet his unconventional views blended comfortably with those of the little bookbinder, making his friend in Lisson Grove a prime example of the intelligent foreigner whose conversation enriches our culture. Poupin’s humanitarian enthusiasm was as vast as his English vocabulary was limited, and the new friends found enough common ground to discuss ideas, which was preferable to a dull harmony. On several other Sunday afternoons, the fiddler returned to Lisson Grove, and being a veteran with a reliable servant at his theater, he managed to get two seats in the second balcony one autumn day. Madame Poupin and her husband had a dismal evening at the English comedy, where they didn’t understand a single word, but they found comfort in watching their friend in the orchestra. However, this experience didn’t stop the friendship from growing, eventually drawing in Amanda Pynsent. Madame Poupin, feeling isolated among the cold locals, lacked female companionship, so Mr. Vetch suggested his pleasant friend from Lomax Place pay her a visit. The little dressmaker, who had only known one Frenchwoman, the unfortunate Florentine (who had initially seemed such a good example until she started to go wrong), took his suggestion, hoping to gain some ideas from a woman whose appearance would surely represent the fine taste of her country. Instead, she found the bookbinder and his wife to be an overwhelming mix of the sophisticated and the casual, and she was left with vivid memories of the lady’s calico jacket, her unstructured shape, and her carpet slippers for a long time after.
The acquaintance, none the less, was sealed three months later by a supper, one Sunday night, in Lisson Grove, to which Mr Vetch brought his fiddle, at which Amanda presented to her hosts her adoptive son, and which also revealed to her that Madame Poupin could dress a Michaelmas goose, if she couldn’t dress a fat Frenchwoman. This lady confided to the fiddler that she thought Miss Pynsent exceedingly comme il faut—dans le genre anglais; and neither Amanda nor Hyacinth had ever passed an evening of such splendour. It took its place, in the boy’s recollection, beside the visit, years before, to Mr Vetch’s theatre. He drank in the conversation which passed between that gentleman and M. Poupin. M. Poupin showed him his bindings, the most precious trophies of his skill, and it seemed to Hyacinth that on the spot he was initiated into a fascinating mystery. He handled the books for half an hour; Anastasius Vetch watched him, without giving any particular sign. When, therefore, presently, Miss Pynsent consulted her friend for the twentieth time on the subject of Hyacinth’s ‘career’—she spoke as if she were hesitating between the diplomatic service, the army and the church—the fiddler replied with promptitude, “Make him, if you can, what the Frenchman is.” At the mention of a handicraft poor Pinnie always looked very solemn, yet when Mr Vetch asked her if she were prepared to send the boy to one of the universities, or to pay the premium required for his being articled to a solicitor, or to make favour, on his behalf, with a bank-director or a mighty merchant, or, yet again, to provide him with a comfortable home while he should woo the muse and await the laurels of literature—when, I say, he put the case before her with this cynical, ironical lucidity, she only sighed and said that all the money she had ever saved was ninety pounds, which, as he knew perfectly well, it would cost her his acquaintance for evermore to take out of the bank. The fiddler had, in fact, declared to her in a manner not to be mistaken that if she should divest herself, on the boy’s account, of this sole nest-egg of her old age, he would wash his hands of her and her affairs. Her standard of success for Hyacinth was vague, save on one point, as regards which she was passionately, fiercely firm; she was perfectly determined he should never go into a small shop. She would rather see him a bricklayer or a costermonger than dedicated to a retail business, tying up candles at a grocer’s, or giving change for a shilling across a counter. She would rather, she declared on one occasion, see him articled to a shoemaker or a tailor.
The acquaintance, however, was solidified three months later by a dinner one Sunday night in Lisson Grove, where Mr. Vetch brought his fiddle, Amanda introduced her hosts to her adopted son, and it also made her realize that Madame Poupin could cook a Michaelmas goose, even if she couldn’t dress a plump Frenchwoman. This lady told the fiddler that she thought Miss Pynsent was very comme il faut—dans le genre anglais; and neither Amanda nor Hyacinth had ever experienced an evening as splendid. It stood out in the boy’s memory alongside the visit to Mr. Vetch’s theater years earlier. He absorbed the conversation between that gentleman and M. Poupin. M. Poupin showed him his bindings, the most treasured results of his craft, and it felt to Hyacinth like he was being introduced to an enchanting mystery. He handled the books for half an hour; Anastasius Vetch observed him without revealing any particular reaction. So when, after a while, Miss Pynsent asked her friend for the twentieth time about Hyacinth’s ‘career’—she sounded as though she was weighing options between the diplomatic service, the army, and the church—the fiddler responded quickly, “Make him, if you can, what the Frenchman is.” Whenever a craft was mentioned, poor Pinnie always looked very serious, but when Mr. Vetch asked her if she was willing to send the boy to one of the universities, or to pay the fee required for him to become an apprentice to a solicitor, or to pull strings on his behalf with a bank director or a prominent merchant, or even to provide him with a comfortable home while he pursued his literary ambitions—when I say, he presented the situation to her with this cynical, ironic clarity, she merely sighed and said that all the money she had ever saved was ninety pounds, which, as he knew all too well, it would cost her for good to withdraw from the bank. The fiddler had indeed told her in no uncertain terms that if she were to part with this last bit of savings for the boy’s sake, he would cut ties with her and her affairs. Her definition of success for Hyacinth was vague, except for one point where she was passionately and fiercely adamant; she was absolutely determined that he should never work in a small shop. She would rather see him as a bricklayer or a costermonger than be tied to a retail job, wrapping candles at a grocer’s or giving change across the counter. She would rather, she once declared, see him become an apprentice to a shoemaker or a tailor.
A stationer in a neighbouring street had affixed to his window a written notice that he was in want of a smart errand-boy, and Pinnie, on hearing of it, had presented Hyacinth to his consideration. The stationer was a dreadful bullying man, with a patch over his eye, who seemed to think the boy would be richly remunerated with three shillings a week; a contemptible measure, as it seemed to the dressmaker, of his rare abilities and acquirements. His schooling had been desultory, precarious, and had had a certain continuity mainly in his early years, while he was under the care of an old lady who combined with the functions of pew-opener at a neighbouring church the manipulation, in the Place itself, where she resided with her sister, a monthly nurse, of such pupils as could be spared (in their families) from the more urgent exercise of holding the baby and fetching the beer. Later, for a twelvemonth, Pinnie had paid five shillings a week for him at an ‘Academy’ in a genteel part of Islington, where there was an ‘instructor in the foreign languages’, a platform for oratory, and a high social standard, but where Hyacinth suffered from the fact that almost all his mates were the sons of dealers in edible articles—pastry-cooks, grocers and fishmongers—and in this capacity subjected him to pangs and ignominious contrasts by bringing to school, for their exclusive consumption, or for exchange and barter, various buns, oranges, spices, and marine animals, which the boy, with his hands in his empty pockets and the sense of a savourless home in his heart, was obliged to see devoured without his participation. Miss Pynsent would not have pretended that he was highly educated, in the technical sense of the word, but she believed that at fifteen he had read almost every book in the world. The limits of his reading were, in fact, only the limits of his opportunity. Mr Vetch, who talked with him more and more as he grew older, knew this, and lent him every volume he possessed or could pick up for the purpose. Reading was his happiness, and the absence of any direct contact with a library his principal source of discontent; that is, of that part of his discontent which he could speak out. Mr Vetch knew that he was really clever, and therefore thought it a woful pity that he could not have furtherance in some liberal walk; but he would have thought it a greater pity still that so bright a lad should be condemned to measure tape or cut slices of cheese. He himself had no influence which he could bring into play, no connection with the great world of capital or the market of labour. That is, he touched these mighty institutions at but one very small point—a point which, such as it was, he kept well in mind.
A storeowner on a nearby street had put up a notice in his window stating that he needed a sharp errand boy, and Pinnie had suggested Hyacinth for the job. The storeowner was a really intimidating guy with an eye patch, who seemed to believe that paying the boy three shillings a week was a generous offer; a pitifully small amount, as the dressmaker thought, considering his unique skills and knowledge. Hyacinth's education had been inconsistent and shaky, with a certain continuity mainly during his early years when he was looked after by an elderly woman who worked as a pew-opener at a neighboring church and also tutored kids in her home, where she lived with her sister, a monthly nurse, taking on those children whose families didn’t need them urgently holding babies or fetching beer. Later, for a year, Pinnie paid five shillings a week for him to attend an ‘Academy’ in a respectable part of Islington, which had a ‘foreign languages’ teacher, a speaking platform, and a high social standard, but where Hyacinth struggled because most of his classmates were the sons of food vendors—pastry chefs, grocers, and fishmongers. This made him feel jealous as they brought to school various buns, oranges, spices, and seafood, which they consumed themselves or traded with each other, all while he stood by with empty pockets and a longing for home. Miss Pynsent wouldn’t have claimed he was highly educated in the formal sense, but she felt that by the age of fifteen, he had read nearly every book out there. The extent of his reading was really just limited by the opportunities available to him. Mr. Vetch, who spoke with him more as he got older, recognized this and loaned him every book he had or could find for him. Reading was what brought him joy, and the lack of direct access to a library was his main source of frustration—well, at least the part he could articulate. Mr. Vetch realized he was genuinely smart, and thought it was a real shame that he couldn’t pursue some noble path; but he believed it would be an even bigger shame for such a bright kid to end up measuring tape or slicing cheese. He himself had no influence to help him, no connections to the vast world of wealth or job markets. In fact, he only touched on these powerful systems in a very limited way—a point he was always aware of.
When Pinnie replied to the stationer round the corner, after he had mentioned the ‘terms’ on which he was prepared to receive applications from errand-boys, that, thank heaven, she hadn’t sunk so low as that—so low as to sell her darling into slavery for three shillings a week—he felt that she only gave more florid expression to his own sentiment. Of course, if Hyacinth did not begin by carrying parcels he could not hope to be promoted, through the more refined nimbleness of tying them up, to a position as accountant or bookkeeper; but both the fiddler and his friend—Miss Pynsent, indeed, only in the last resort—resigned themselves to the forfeiture of this prospect. Mr Vetch saw clearly that a charming handicraft was a finer thing than a vulgar ‘business’, and one day, after his acquaintance with Eustache Poupin had gone a considerable length, he inquired of the Frenchman whether there would be a chance of the lad’s obtaining a footing, under his own wing, in Mr Crookenden’s workshop. There could be no better place for him to acquire a knowledge of the most delightful of the mechanical arts; and to be received into such an establishment, and at the instance of such an artist, would be a real start in life. M. Poupin meditated, and that evening confided his meditations to the companion who reduplicated all his thoughts and understood him better even than he understood himself. The pair had no children, and had felt the defect; moreover, they had heard from Mr Vetch the dolorous tale of the boy’s entrance into life. He was one of the disinherited, one of the expropriated, one of the exceptionally interesting; and, moreover he was one of themselves, a child, as it were, of France, an offshoot of the sacred race. It is not the most authenticated point in this veracious history, but there is strong reason to believe that tears were shed that night, in Lisson Grove, over poor little Hyacinth Robinson. In a day or two M. Poupin replied to the fiddler that he had now been several years in Mr Crookenden’s employ; that during that time he had done work for him that he would have had bien du mal to get done by another, and had never asked for an indulgence, an allowance, a remission, an augmentation. It was time, if only for the dignity of the thing, he should ask for something, and he would make their little friend the subject of his demand. “La société lui doit bien cela,” he remarked afterwards, when, Mr Crookenden proving drily hospitable and the arrangement being formally complete, Mr Vetch thanked him, in his kindly, casual, bashful English way. He was paternal when Hyacinth began to occupy a place in the malodorous chambers in Soho; he took him in hand, made him a disciple, the recipient of a precious tradition, discovered in him a susceptibility to philosophic as well as technic truth. He taught him French and socialism, encouraged him to spend his evenings in Lisson Grove, invited him to regard Madame Poupin as a second, or rather as a third, mother, and in short made a very considerable mark on the boy’s mind. He elicited the latent Gallicism of his nature, and by the time he was twenty Hyacinth, who had completely assimilated his influence, regarded him with a mixture of veneration and amusement. M. Poupin was the person who consoled him most when he was miserable; and he was very often miserable.
When Pinnie responded to the stationer around the corner, after he mentioned the ‘terms’ he was willing to offer for applications from errand-boys, that, thank goodness, she hadn’t sunk that low—so low as to sell her beloved into slavery for three shillings a week—he felt that she was just putting into words what he himself felt. Of course, if Hyacinth didn’t start by carrying parcels, he could never expect to be promoted, through the more refined skill of wrapping them, to a job as an accountant or bookkeeper; but both the fiddler and his friend—Miss Pynsent, only when absolutely necessary—accepted the loss of this opportunity. Mr. Vetch understood that a charming craft was a more valuable pursuit than a common ‘business,’ and one day, after he had become well-acquainted with Eustache Poupin, he asked the Frenchman if there would be a chance for the boy to get a position under his guidance in Mr. Crookenden’s workshop. There couldn’t be a better place for him to learn the most delightful mechanical arts, and being accepted into such a workshop, especially at the request of such an artist, would be a great start in life. M. Poupin thought about it, and that evening he shared his thoughts with the companion who mirrored all his ideas and understood him even better than he understood himself. The pair had no children and had felt the absence; furthermore, they had heard from Mr. Vetch the sad story of the boy’s entry into life. He was one of the disinherited, one of the expropriated, one of the exceptionally interesting; and he was also one of them, a child, in a sense, of France, a descendant of the sacred lineage. It’s not the most confirmed detail in this true story, but strong evidence suggests that tears were shed that night in Lisson Grove for poor little Hyacinth Robinson. In a couple of days, M. Poupin told the fiddler that he had been in Mr. Crookenden’s employment for several years; that during that time he had done work for him that he would have had bien du mal to have completed with someone else, and had never asked for any leniency, allowances, remissions, or increases. It was time, for the sake of dignity, that he asked for something, and he intended to make their little friend the focus of his request. “La société lui doit bien cela,” he later noted, when Mr. Crookenden turned out to be dryly accommodating and the arrangement was formally settled, and Mr. Vetch thanked him in his kind, casual, bashful English way. He took on a paternal role when Hyacinth began to live in the unpleasant rooms in Soho; he took him under his wing, made him a disciple, the recipient of a precious tradition, and discovered in him a sensitivity to both philosophical and technical truths. He taught him French and socialism, encouraged him to spend his evenings in Lisson Grove, invited him to see Madame Poupin as a second, or rather a third, mother, and in short, made a significant impact on the boy’s mind. He brought out the latent Gallic side of his nature, and by the time he was twenty, Hyacinth, who had fully absorbed his influence, regarded him with a blend of respect and amusement. M. Poupin was the person who comforted him the most when he was unhappy; and he was often very unhappy.
His staying away from his work was so rare that, in the afternoon, before he went home, Hyacinth walked to Lisson Grove to see what ailed him. He found his friend in bed, with a plaster on his chest, and Madame Poupin making tisane over the fire. The Frenchman took his indisposition solemnly but resignedly, like a man who believed that all illness was owing to the imperfect organisation of society, and lay covered up to his chin, with a red cotton handkerchief bound round his head. Near his bed sat a visitor, a young man unknown to Hyacinth. Hyacinth, naturally, had never been to Paris, but he always supposed that the intérieur of his friends in Lisson Grove gave rather a vivid idea of that city. The two small rooms which constituted their establishment contained a great many mirrors, as well as little portraits (old-fashioned prints) of revolutionary heroes. The chimney-piece, in the bedroom, was muffled in some red drapery, which appeared to Hyacinth extraordinarily magnificent; the principal ornament of the salon was a group of small and highly-decorated cups, on a tray, accompanied by gilt bottles and glasses, the latter still more diminutive—the whole intended for black coffee and liqueurs. There was no carpet on the floor, but rugs and mats, of various shapes and sizes, disposed themselves at the feet of the chairs and sofas; and in the sitting-room, where there was a wonderful gilt clock, of the Empire, surmounted with a ‘subject’ representing Virtue receiving a crown of laurel from the hands of Faith, Madame Poupin, with the aid of a tiny stove, a handful of charcoal, and two or three saucepans, carried on a triumphant cuisine. In the windows were curtains of white muslin, much fluted and frilled, and tied with pink ribbon.
His absence from work was so unusual that, in the afternoon, before heading home, Hyacinth walked to Lisson Grove to check on him. He found his friend in bed, with a bandage on his chest, while Madame Poupin prepared herbal tea over the fire. The Frenchman took his illness seriously but with acceptance, like someone who believed that all sickness was due to the flaws in society, lying covered up to his chin, with a red cotton handkerchief wrapped around his head. Sitting near his bed was a visitor, a young man Hyacinth didn’t recognize. Naturally, Hyacinth had never been to Paris, but he always thought that the interior of his friends' homes in Lisson Grove gave a pretty vivid idea of that city. The two small rooms that made up their place were filled with mirrors and old-fashioned prints of revolutionary heroes. The fireplace in the bedroom was draped in red fabric, which Hyacinth found extraordinarily beautiful; the main decoration in the salon was a group of small, ornate cups on a tray, along with gilded bottles and even smaller glasses—all meant for black coffee and liqueurs. There was no carpet on the floor, just various rugs and mats scattered under the chairs and sofas; in the sitting room, a stunning gilt clock from the Empire period topped with a figure of Virtue receiving a laurel crown from Faith stood proud, while Madame Poupin, using a tiny stove, a handful of charcoal, and a few saucepans, skillfully prepared meals. The windows were dressed with white muslin curtains, intricately fluted and frilled, tied back with pink ribbon.
VII
“I am suffering extremely, but we must all suffer, so long as the social question is so abominably, so iniquitously neglected,” Poupin remarked, speaking French and rolling toward Hyacinth his salient, excited-looking eyes, which always had the same proclaiming, challenging expression, whatever his occupation or his topic. Hyacinth had seated himself near his friend’s pillow, opposite the strange young man, who had been accommodated with a chair at the foot of the bed.
“I’m in a lot of pain, but we all have to endure it as long as the social issue is so horribly, so unjustly ignored,” Poupin said, speaking in French and rolling his prominent, animated eyes toward Hyacinth, which always had the same bold, confrontational look, no matter what he was doing or discussing. Hyacinth had taken a seat close to his friend’s pillow, across from the unusual young man, who had been given a chair at the foot of the bed.
“Ah, yes; with their filthy politics the situation of the pauvre monde is the last thing they ever think of!” his wife exclaimed, from the fire. “There are times when I ask myself how long it will go on.”
“Ah, yes; with their corrupt politics, the situation of the pauvre monde is the last thing they ever consider!” his wife exclaimed from the fireplace. “Sometimes I wonder how long this will continue.”
“It will go on till the measure of their imbecility, their infamy, is full. It will go on till the day of justice, till the reintegration of the despoiled and disinherited, is ushered in with an irresistible force.”
“It will continue until their foolishness and shame reach their peak. It will go on until the day of justice arrives, when those who have been robbed and stripped of their rights are restored with unstoppable power.”
“Oh, we always see things go on; we never see them change,” said Madame Poupin, making a very cheerful clatter with a big spoon in a saucepan.
“Oh, we always see things happening; we never see them changing,” said Madame Poupin, making a cheerful noise with a big spoon in a saucepan.
“We may not see it, but they’ll see it,” her husband rejoined. “But what do I say, my children? I do see it,” he pursued. “It’s before my eyes, in its luminous reality, especially as I lie here—the revendication, the rehabilitation, the rectification.”
“We might not notice it, but they’ll notice it,” her husband responded. “But what should I tell my kids? I do see it,” he continued. “It’s right in front of me, in its bright reality, especially as I lie here—the claim, the healing, the correction.”
Hyacinth ceased to pay attention, not because he had a differing opinion about what M. Poupin called the avènement of the disinherited, but, on the contrary, precisely on account of his familiarity with that prospect. It was the constant theme of his French friends, whom he had long since perceived to be in a state of chronic spiritual inflammation. For them the social question was always in order, the political question always abhorrent, the disinherited always present. He wondered at their zeal, their continuity, their vivacity, their incorruptibility; at the abundant supply of conviction and prophecy which they always had on hand. He believed that at bottom he was sorer than they, yet he had deviations and lapses, moments when the social question bored him and he forgot not only his own wrongs, which would have been pardonable, but those of the people at large, of his brothers and sisters in misery. They, however, were perpetually in the breach, and perpetually consistent with themselves and, what is more, with each other. Hyacinth had heard that the institution of marriage in France was rather lightly considered, but he was struck with the closeness and intimacy of the union in Lisson Grove, the passionate identity of interest: especially on the day when M. Poupin informed him, in a moment of extreme but not indiscreet expansion, that the lady was his wife only in a spiritual, transcendental sense. There were hypocritical concessions and debasing superstitions of which this exalted pair wholly disapproved. Hyacinth knew their vocabulary by heart, and could have said everything, in the same words, that on any given occasion M. Poupin was likely to say. He knew that ‘they’, in their phraseology, was a comprehensive allusion to every one in the world but the people—though who, exactly, in their length and breadth, the people were was less definitely established. He himself was of this sacred body, for which the future was to have such compensations; and so, of course, were the Frenchman and his consort, and so was Pinnie, and so were most of the inhabitants of Lomax Place and the workmen in old Crookenden’s shop. But was old Crookenden himself, who wore an apron rather dirtier than the rest of them and was a master-hand at ‘forwarding’, but who, on the other side, was the occupant of a villa almost detached, in Putney, with a wife known to have secret aspirations toward a page in buttons? Above all, was Mr Vetch, who earned a weekly wage, and not a large one, with his fiddle, but who had mysterious affinities of another sort, reminiscences of a phase in which he smoked cigars, had a hat-box and used cabs—besides visiting Boulogne? Anastasius Vetch had interfered in his life, atrociously, in a terrible crisis; but Hyacinth, who strove to cultivate justice in his own conduct, believed he had acted conscientiously and tried to esteem him, the more so as the fiddler evidently felt that he had something to make up to him and had treated him with marked benevolence for years. He believed, in short, that Mr Vetch took a sincere interest in him, and if he should meddle again would meddle in a different way: he used to see him sometimes looking at him with the kindest eyes. It would make a difference, therefore, whether he were of the people or not, inasmuch as in the day of the great revenge it would only be the people who should be saved. It was for the people the world was made: whoever was not of them was against them; and all others were cumberers, usurpers, exploiters, accapareurs, as M. Poupin used to say. Hyacinth had once put the question directly to Mr Vetch, who looked at him a while through the fumes of his eternal pipe and then said, “Do you think I’m an aristocrat?”
Hyacinth stopped paying attention, not because he disagreed with what M. Poupin called the avènement of the disinherited, but rather because he was all too familiar with that idea. It was a constant topic among his French friends, whom he had long noticed were in a state of chronic spiritual unrest. For them, the social question was always relevant, the political question always repugnant, and the disinherited always front and center. He marveled at their passion, their consistency, their energy, and their unyielding beliefs; at the endless supply of conviction and prophecy they always seemed to possess. He believed deep down that he felt their pain more acutely than they did, yet he had his moments of distraction and indifference—times when the social question bored him and he forgot not just his own grievances, which could be forgiven, but also those of the broader public, of his brothers and sisters in hardship. They, on the other hand, were continually engaged, always true to themselves and, more importantly, to each other. Hyacinth had heard that marriage in France was often taken lightly, but he was struck by the closeness and intimacy of the union in Lisson Grove, their passionate shared interests, especially on the day when M. Poupin told him, in a moment of extreme yet unobtrusive openness, that the lady was his wife only in a spiritual and transcendent sense. There were hypocritical compromises and degrading superstitions that this high-minded couple entirely rejected. Hyacinth knew their vocabulary by heart and could have repeated everything M. Poupin was likely to say on any occasion. He understood that ‘they,’ in their talk, referred broadly to everyone in the world except the common people—though who exactly the people were remained somewhat unclear. He considered himself part of this privileged group, which was expected to receive such rewards in the future; and so were the Frenchman and his partner, and so was Pinnie, and most of the residents of Lomax Place and the workers in old Crookenden’s shop. But what about old Crookenden himself, who wore an apron that was dirtier than the others and was skilled at ‘forwarding,’ yet lived in a nearly detached villa in Putney with a wife known to have secret ambitions for a page in buttons? Above all, what about Mr. Vetch, who earned a modest weekly income playing the fiddle but who had mysterious connections to another life, one where he smoked cigars, had a hatbox, and took cabs—plus visits to Boulogne? Anastasius Vetch had intervened painfully in Hyacinth's life during a terrible crisis; however, Hyacinth, striving for fairness in his dealings, believed he acted in good faith and tried to respect him, especially since the fiddler clearly felt he owed Hyacinth something and had treated him with notable kindness for years. He ultimately believed that Mr. Vetch genuinely cared about him, and if he were to intervene again, it would be in a different manner: Hyacinth sometimes caught him looking at him with the kindest eyes. Thus, it mattered whether he belonged to the people or not, as on the day of the great reckoning, it would be the people who would be saved. The world was made for the people: anyone not among them was against them; all others were nuisances, usurpers, exploiters, accapareurs, as M. Poupin liked to say. Hyacinth once directly asked Mr. Vetch, who regarded him for a moment through the smoke of his ever-present pipe, “Do you think I’m an aristocrat?”
“I didn’t know but you were a bourgeois,” the young man answered.
“I didn’t know you were a bourgeois,” the young man replied.
“No, I’m neither. I’m a Bohemian.”
“No, I’m neither. I’m a Bohemian.”
“With your evening dress, every night?”
“With your evening dress, every night?”
“My dear boy,” said the fiddler, “those are the most confirmed.”
“My dear boy,” said the fiddler, “those are the most certain.”
Hyacinth was only half satisfied with this, for it was by no means definite to him that Bohemians were also to be saved; if he could be sure, perhaps he would become one himself. Yet he never suspected Mr Vetch of being a ‘spy’, though Eustache Poupin had told him that there were a great many who looked a good deal like that: not, of course, with any purpose of incriminating the fiddler, whom he had trusted from the first and continued to trust. The middle-class spy became a very familiar type to Hyacinth, and though he had never caught one of the infamous brotherhood in the act, there were plenty of persons to whom, on the very face of the matter, he had no hesitation in attributing the character. There was nothing of the Bohemian, at any rate, about the Poupins, whom Hyacinth had now known long enough not to be surprised at the way they combined the socialistic passion, a red-hot impatience for the general rectification, with an extraordinary decency of life and a worship of proper work. The Frenchman spoke, habitually, as if the great swindle practised upon the people were too impudent to be endured a moment longer, and yet he found patience for the most exquisite ‘tooling’, and took a book in hand with the deliberation of one who should believe that everything was immutably constituted. Hyacinth knew what he thought of priests and theologies, but he had the religion of conscientious craftsmanship, and he reduced the boy, on his side, to a kind of prostration before his delicate, wonder-working fingers. “What will you have? J’ai la main parisienne,” M. Poupin would reply modestly, when Hyacinth’s admiration broke out; and he was good enough, after he had seen a few specimens of what our hero could do, to inform him that he had the same happy conformation. “There is no reason why you shouldn’t be a good workman, il n’y a que ça;” and his own life was practically governed by this conviction. He delighted in the use of his hands and his tools and the exercise of his taste, which was faultless, and Hyacinth could easily imagine how it must torment him to spend a day on his back. He ended by perceiving, however, that consolation was, on this occasion, in some degree conveyed by the presence of the young man who sat at the foot of the bed, and with whom M. Poupin exhibited such signs of acquaintance as to make our hero wonder why he had not seen him before, nor even heard of him.
Hyacinth was only partially satisfied with this, as he wasn't entirely sure that Bohemians were also going to be saved; if he could be certain, maybe he would join them. Still, he never suspected Mr. Vetch of being a ‘spy,’ even though Eustache Poupin had told him that many people looked a lot like that: not that he intended to get the fiddler in trouble, whom he had trusted from the beginning and continued to trust. The middle-class spy became a well-known type to Hyacinth, and even though he had never caught one of the infamous group in the act, there were plenty of people he had no hesitation in labeling as suspicious based on their demeanor. There was no hint of the Bohemian in the Poupins, whom Hyacinth had known long enough not to be surprised by how they combined a socialistic passion and a fiery impatience for fixing things with an extraordinary sense of decency and a reverence for proper work. The Frenchman often spoke as if the massive swindle being played on the people was too outrageous to be tolerated any longer, yet he still found patience for the most intricate craftsmanship and picked up a book as if he believed that everything was permanently established. Hyacinth knew how Poupin felt about priests and religions, but he had a devotion to conscientious craftsmanship that left the boy in awe of his delicate, skillful hands. “What do you want? J’ai la main parisienne,” M. Poupin would reply modestly whenever Hyacinth’s admiration surfaced; and he was kind enough, after seeing a few examples of what our hero could do, to tell him that he had the same fortunate talent. “There’s no reason why you can’t be a good worker, il n’y a que ça;” and his own life was practically ruled by this belief. He took great pleasure in using his hands and tools, as well as expressing his impeccable taste, and Hyacinth could easily imagine how much it must torture him to spend a day lying on his back. However, he ultimately realized that a bit of comfort was provided in this instance by the young man sitting at the foot of the bed, with whom M. Poupin showed enough familiarity to make our hero wonder why he had never noticed him before or even heard of him.
“What do you mean by an irresistible force?” the young man inquired, leaning back in his chair, with raised arms and his interlocked hands behind him, supporting his head. M. Poupin had spoken French, which he always preferred to do, the insular tongue being an immense tribulation to him; but his visitor spoke English, and Hyacinth immediately perceived that there was nothing French about him—M. Poupin could never tell him he had la main parisienne.
“What do you mean by an irresistible force?” the young man asked, leaning back in his chair with his arms raised and his hands interlocked behind his head. M. Poupin had spoken French, which he always preferred, as the English language was a huge struggle for him; but his visitor spoke English, and Hyacinth quickly realized that there was nothing French about him—M. Poupin could never tell him he had la main parisienne.
“I mean a force that will make the bourgeois go down into their cellars and hide, pale with fear, behind their barrels of wine and their heaps of gold!” cried M. Poupin, rolling terrible eyes.
“I mean a power that will make the bourgeoisie run down into their basements and hide, pale with fear, behind their barrels of wine and piles of gold!” shouted M. Poupin, his eyes wide with intensity.
“And in this country, I hope in their coal-bins. Là-là, we shall find them even there,” his wife remarked.
“And in this country, I hope in their coal-bins. Là-là, we’ll find them even there,” his wife said.
“’89 was an irresistible force,” said M. Poupin. “I believe you would have thought so if you had been there.”
“’89 was an unstoppable force,” said M. Poupin. “I think you would have felt the same if you had been there.”
“And so was the entrance of the Versaillais, which sent you over here, ten years ago,” the young man rejoined. He saw that Hyacinth was watching him, and he met his eyes, smiling a little, in a way that added to our hero’s interest.
“And that was how the Versaillais came in, which brought you over here ten years ago,” the young man replied. He noticed that Hyacinth was watching him, and he met his gaze, smiling a bit, in a way that piqued our hero’s interest.
“Pardon, pardon, I resist!” cried Eustache Poupin, glaring, in his improvised nightcap, out of his sheets; and Madame repeated that they resisted—she believed well that they resisted! The young man burst out laughing; whereupon his host declared, with a dignity which even his recumbent position did not abate, that it was really frivolous of him to ask such questions as that, knowing as he did—what he did know.
“Pardon, pardon, I'm resisting!” shouted Eustache Poupin, glaring from under his makeshift nightcap and sheets; and Madame insisted that they were indeed resisting—she was sure they were! The young man erupted in laughter; then his host, maintaining a dignity that wasn’t lost even in his lying position, declared that it was truly silly of him to ask such questions, given what he already knew.
“Yes, I know—I know,” said the young man, good-naturedly, lowering his arms and thrusting his hands into his pockets, while he stretched his long legs a little. “But everything is yet to be tried.”
“Yes, I get it—I get it,” said the young man, cheerfully, lowering his arms and putting his hands in his pockets while he stretched his long legs a bit. “But there’s still a lot to try.”
“Oh, the trial will be on a great scale—soyez tranquille! It will be one of those experiments that constitute a proof.”
“Oh, the trial will be on a grand scale—don't worry! It will be one of those experiments that serve as evidence.”
Hyacinth wondered what they were talking about, and perceived that it must be something important, for the stranger was not a man who would take an interest in anything else. Hyacinth was immensely struck with him—he could see that he was remarkable—and felt slightly aggrieved that he should be a stranger: that is, that he should be, apparently, a familiar of Lisson Grove and yet that M. Poupin should not have thought his young friend from Lomax Place worthy, up to this time, to be made acquainted with him. I know not to what degree the visitor in the other chair discovered these reflections in Hyacinth’s face, but after a moment, looking across at him, he said in a friendly yet just slightly diffident way, a way our hero liked, “And do you know, too?”
Hyacinth wondered what they were discussing and realized it must be something important, since the stranger wasn't the type to be interested in anything else. Hyacinth was deeply impressed by him—he could tell he was exceptional—and felt a bit slighted that this remarkable person was a stranger. It bothered him that the visitor, clearly familiar with Lisson Grove, had yet to introduce Hyacinth, his young friend from Lomax Place. I’m not sure how much the visitor in the other chair could read these thoughts on Hyacinth’s face, but after a moment, he looked over at him and said in a friendly yet slightly reserved way, which Hyacinth appreciated, “And do you know, too?”
“Do I know what?” asked Hyacinth, wondering.
“Do I know what?” asked Hyacinth, curious.
“Oh, if you did, you would!” the young man exclaimed, laughing again. Such a rejoinder, from any one else, would have irritated our sensitive hero, but it only made Hyacinth more curious about his interlocutor, whose laugh was loud and extraordinarily gay.
“Oh, if you did, you would!” the young man exclaimed, laughing again. Such a response from anyone else would have annoyed our sensitive hero, but it only made Hyacinth more curious about his conversation partner, whose laugh was loud and incredibly cheerful.
“Mon ami, you ought to present ces messieurs,” Madame Poupin remarked.
“My friend, you should introduce these gentlemen,” Madame Poupin said.
“Ah ça, is that the way you trifle with state secrets?” her husband cried out, without heeding her. Then he went on, in a different tone: “ M. Hyacinthe is a gifted child, un enfant très-doué, in whom I take a tender interest—a child who has an account to settle. Oh, a thumping big one! Isn’t it so, mon petit?”
“Ah ça, is that how you mess around with state secrets?” her husband exclaimed, ignoring her. Then he continued, in a different tone: “M. Hyacinthe is a talented kid, un enfant très-doué, who I care for—a child who has a score to settle. Oh, a huge one! Right, mon petit?”
This was very well meant, but it made Hyacinth blush, and, without knowing exactly what to say, he murmured shyly, “Oh, I only want them to let me alone!”
This was very well meant, but it made Hyacinth blush, and, not quite sure what to say, he shyly murmured, “Oh, I just want them to leave me alone!”
“He is very young,” said Eustache Poupin.
“He's really young,” said Eustache Poupin.
“He is the person we have seen in this country whom we like the best,” his wife added.
“He’s the person we’ve seen in this country that we like the most,” his wife added.
“Perhaps you are French,” suggested the strange young man.
“Maybe you’re French,” suggested the strange young man.
The trio seemed to Hyacinth to be waiting for his answer to this; it was as if a listening stillness had fallen upon them. He found it a difficult moment, partly because there was something exciting and embarrassing in the attention of the other visitor, and partly because he had never yet had to decide that important question. He didn’t really know whether he were French or English, or which of the two he should prefer to be. His mother’s blood, her suffering in an alien land, the unspeakable, irremediable misery that consumed her, in a place, among a people, she must have execrated—all this made him French; yet he was conscious at the same time of qualities that did not mix with it. He had evolved, long ago, a legend about his mother, built it up slowly, adding piece to piece, in passionate musings and broodings, when his cheeks burned and his eyes filled; but there were times when it wavered and faded, when it ceased to console him and he ceased to trust it. He had had a father too, and his father had suffered as well, and had fallen under a blow, and had paid with his life; and him also he felt in his mind and his body, when the effort to think it out did not simply end in darkness and confusion, challenging still even while they baffled, and inevitable freezing horror. At any rate, he seemed rooted in the place where his wretched parents had expiated, and he knew nothing about any other. Moreover, when old Poupin said, ‘M. Hyacinthe’, as he had often done before, he didn’t altogether enjoy it; he thought it made his name, which he liked well enough in English, sound like the name of a hairdresser. Our young friend was under a cloud and a stigma, but he was not yet prepared to admit that he was ridiculous. “Oh, I dare say I ain’t anything,” he replied in a moment.
The trio seemed to Hyacinth to be waiting for his response; it felt like a heavy silence had settled around them. He found it a tough moment, partly because the other visitor's intense focus was both thrilling and awkward, and partly because he had never had to confront that crucial question. He wasn’t sure if he was French or English, or which one he would prefer to be. His mother’s heritage, her struggles in a foreign land, the unbearable suffering that consumed her in a place and among people she must have despised—all of this made him feel French; yet he also sensed traits within himself that didn’t quite fit. He had created, long ago, a story about his mother, building it up slowly with each passionate thought and moment of reflection, when his cheeks burned and his eyes filled; but there were times when that story wavered and faded, when it stopped comforting him and he lost faith in it. He had a father too, who had endured pain and had fallen to violence, paying with his life; he felt his father’s presence in his mind and body, especially when trying to sort it all out led only to darkness and confusion, a haunting challenge accompanied by a chilling sense of horror. In any case, he felt deeply connected to the place where his suffering parents had atoned, and he knew nothing of any other place. Additionally, when old Poupin called out, "M. Hyacinthe," as he had often done before, Hyacinth didn’t fully like it; it made his name, which he was okay with in English, sound like that of a hairdresser. Our young friend felt burdened and stigmatized, but he wasn’t ready to admit he was ridiculous. “Oh, I suppose I’m nothing,” he replied after a moment.
“En v’là des bêtises!” cried Madame Poupin. “Do you mean to say you are not as good as any one in the world? I should like to see!”
“What nonsense!” cried Madame Poupin. “Are you really saying you aren't as good as anyone else in the world? I’d love to see that!”
“We all have an account to settle, don’t you know?” said the strange young man.
“We all have something to resolve, don’t you think?” said the strange young man.
He evidently meant this to be encouraging to Hyacinth, whose quick desire to avert M. Poupin’s allusions had not been lost upon him; but our hero could see that he himself would be sure to be one of the first to be paid. He would make society bankrupt, but he would be paid. He was tall and fair and good-natured looking, but you couldn’t tell—or at least Hyacinth couldn’t—whether he were handsome or ugly, with his large head and square forehead, his thick, straight hair, his heavy mouth and rather vulgar nose, his admirably clear, bright eye, light-coloured and set very deep; for though there was a want of fineness in some of its parts, his face had a marked expression of intelligence and resolution, and denoted a kind of joyous moral health. He was dressed like a workman in his Sunday toggery, having evidently put on his best to call in Lisson Grove, where he was to meet a lady, and wearing in particular a necktie which was both cheap and pretentious, and of which Hyacinth, who noticed everything of that kind, observed the crude, false blue. He had very big shoes—the shoes, almost, of a country labourer—and spoke with a provincial accent, which Hyacinth believed to be that of Lancashire. This didn’t suggest cleverness, but it didn’t prevent Hyacinth from perceiving that he was the reverse of stupid; that he probably, indeed, had a tremendous head. Our little hero had a great desire to know superior people, and he interested himself on the spot in this strong, humorous fellow, who had the complexion of a ploughboy and the glance of a commander-in-chief and who might have been (Hyacinth thought) a distinguished young savant in the disguise of an artisan. The disguise would have been very complete, for he had several brown stains on his fingers. Hyacinth’s curiosity, on this occasion, was both excited and gratified; for after two or three allusions, which he didn’t understand, had been made to a certain place where Poupin and the stranger had met and expected to meet again, Madame Poupin exclaimed that it was a shame not to take in M. Hyacinthe, who, she would answer for it, had in him the making of one of the pure.
He clearly intended this to be encouraging for Hyacinth, whose quick wish to change the subject from M. Poupin’s comments hadn’t gone unnoticed by him; but our hero could see that he would definitely be one of the first to be paid. He would make society bankrupt, but he would still get paid. He was tall, fair, and looked friendly, but you couldn’t really tell—or at least Hyacinth couldn’t—if he was handsome or ugly, with his large head, square forehead, thick straight hair, heavy mouth, and somewhat crude nose. He had a remarkably clear, bright eye, light-colored and set very deep; although some features lacked refinement, his face showed a strong expression of intelligence and determination, indicating a kind of joyful moral vitality. He was dressed like a worker in his Sunday best, clearly having put on his finest to visit Lisson Grove, where he was supposed to meet a lady, and he wore a necktie that was both cheap and showy, with a harsh, fake blue that Hyacinth, who noticed these details, picked up on. He had oversized shoes—almost like a country laborer’s—and spoke with a regional accent that Hyacinth thought was from Lancashire. This didn’t imply cleverness, but it didn’t stop Hyacinth from realizing that he was very sharp; he probably had a formidable mind. Our little hero was eager to know people who were superior, and he immediately took an interest in this strong, humorous guy who had the looks of a farmhand and the gaze of a leader and who might have been (Hyacinth thought) a distinguished young scholar disguised as a laborer. The disguise would have been perfect because he had several brown stains on his fingers. Hyacinth’s curiosity was both piqued and satisfied; after a couple of allusions, which he didn’t understand, to a certain place where Poupin and the stranger had met and expected to meet again, Madame Poupin exclaimed that it was a shame not to include M. Hyacinthe, who, she guaranteed, had the potential to be one of the pure.
“All in good time, in good time, ma bonne,” the invalid replied. “M. Hyacinthe knows that I count upon him, whether or no I make him an interne to-day or wait a while longer.”
“All in good time, in good time, my dear,” the invalid replied. “Mr. Hyacinthe knows that I’m relying on him, whether I make him an interne today or wait a bit longer.”
“What do you mean by an interne?” Hyacinth asked.
“What do you mean by an intern?” Hyacinth asked.
“Mon Dieu, what shall I say!” and Eustache Poupin stared at him solemnly, from his pillow. “You are very sympathetic, but I am afraid you are too young.”
“My God, what should I say!” Eustache Poupin said solemnly as he looked at him from his pillow. “You’re very understanding, but I’m afraid you’re too young.”
“One is never too young to contribute one’s obole,” said Madame Poupin.
“One is never too young to contribute one’s obole,” said Madame Poupin.
“Can you keep a secret?” asked the other visitor, smilingly.
“Can you keep a secret?” the other visitor asked with a smile.
“Is it a plot—a conspiracy?” Hyacinth broke out.
“Is it a scheme—a conspiracy?” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“He asks that as if he were asking if it’s a plum-pudding,” said M. Poupin. “It isn’t good to eat, and we don’t do it for our amusement. It’s terribly serious, my child.”
“He asks that as if he were asking if it’s a plum pudding,” said M. Poupin. “It’s not something you eat, and we don’t do it for fun. It’s really serious, my child.”
“It’s a kind of society, to which he and I and a good many others belong. There is no harm in telling him that,” the young man went on.
“It’s a type of society that he, I, and quite a few others are part of. There's nothing wrong with telling him that,” the young man continued.
“I advise you not to tell it to Mademoiselle; she is quite in the old ideas,” Madame Poupin suggested to Hyacinth, tasting her tisane.
“I recommend you not to mention it to Mademoiselle; she holds onto old-fashioned views,” Madame Poupin suggested to Hyacinth, sipping her tisane.
Hyacinth sat baffled and wondering, looking from his fellow-labourer in Soho to his new acquaintance opposite. “If you have some plan, something to which one can give one’s self, I think you might have told me,” he remarked, in a moment, to Poupin.
Hyacinth sat confused and pondering, glancing from his coworker in Soho to the new acquaintance across from him. “If you have a plan, something to commit to, I think you could have mentioned it,” he said to Poupin after a moment.
The latter merely gazed at him a while; then he said to the strange young man, “He is a little jealous of you. But there is no harm in that; it’s of his age. You must know him, you must like him. We will tell you his history some other day; it will make you feel that he belongs to us in fact. It is an accident that he hasn’t met you here before.”
The latter just stared at him for a moment; then he said to the unfamiliar young man, “He’s a bit jealous of you. But that’s nothing to worry about; it’s just his age. You need to get to know him, you need to like him. We’ll share his story with you another day; it’ll make you feel like he really belongs with us. It’s just a coincidence that he hasn’t run into you here before.”
“How could ces messieurs have met, when M. Paul never comes? He doesn’t spoil us!” Madame Poupin cried.
“How could these gentlemen have met when Mr. Paul never shows up? He doesn’t treat us well!” Madame Poupin exclaimed.
“Well, you see I have my little sister at home to take care of, when I ain’t at the shop,” M. Paul explained. “This afternoon it was just a chance; there was a lady we know came in to sit with her.”
“Well, you see I have my little sister at home to take care of when I'm not at the shop,” M. Paul explained. “This afternoon it was just a coincidence; a lady we know came in to keep her company.”
“A lady—a real lady?”
“A woman—a real woman?”
“Oh yes, every inch,” said M. Paul, laughing.
“Oh yeah, every bit,” said M. Paul, laughing.
“Do you like them to thrust themselves into your apartment like that, because you have the désagrément of being poor? It seems to be the custom in this country, but it wouldn’t suit me at all,” Madame Poupin continued. “I should like to see one of ces dames—the real ones—coming in to sit with me!”
“Do you like it when they barge into your apartment like that because you’re dealing with the hassle of being poor? It seems to be the norm in this country, but it wouldn’t work for me at all,” Madame Poupin continued. “I would love to see one of those women—the genuine ones—coming in to sit with me!”
“Oh, you are not a cripple; you have got the use of your legs!”
“Oh, you’re not disabled; you can use your legs!”
“Yes, and of my arms!” cried the Frenchwoman.
“Yes, and of my arms!” shouted the Frenchwoman.
“This lady looks after several others in our court, and she reads to my sister.”
“This woman takes care of several others in our social circle, and she reads to my sister.”
“Oh, well, you are patient, you English.”
“Oh, well, you are so patient, you English.”
“We shall never do anything without that,” said M. Paul, with undisturbed good-humour.
“We won’t do anything without that,” said M. Paul, in perfectly good spirits.
“You are perfectly right; you can’t say that too often. It will be a tremendous job, and only the strong will prevail,” his host murmured, a little wearily, turning his eyes to Madame Poupin, who approached slowly, holding the tisane in a rather full bowl, and tasting it again and yet again as she came.
“You're absolutely right; you can’t say that too often. It will be a huge task, and only the strong will succeed,” his host said wearily, glancing at Madame Poupin, who was slowly approaching with a rather full bowl of tisane, tasting it over and over as she came.
Hyacinth had been watching his fellow-visitor with deepening interest; a fact of which M. Paul apparently became aware, for he said, presently, giving a little nod in the direction of the bed, “He says we ought to know each other. I’m sure I have nothing against it. I like to know folk, when they’re worth it!”
Hyacinth had been watching the other visitor with increasing curiosity; a fact that M. Paul seemed to notice, because he said, after a moment, giving a slight nod toward the bed, “He says we should get to know each other. I don't have any issues with that. I enjoy meeting people when they’re worth it!”
Hyacinth was too pleased with this even to take it up; it seemed to him, for a moment, that he couldn’t touch it gracefully enough. But he said, with sufficient eagerness, “Will you tell me all about your plot?”
Hyacinth was so happy about this that he didn’t even want to pick it up; for a moment, it felt to him like he couldn't handle it elegantly enough. But he said, with plenty of enthusiasm, “Can you tell me all about your plan?”
“Oh, it’s no plot. I don’t think I care much for plots.” And with his mild, steady, light-blue English eye, M. Paul certainly had not much the appearance of a conspirator.
“Oh, it’s not a scheme. I don’t really care for schemes.” And with his calm, steady, light-blue English eye, M. Paul definitely didn’t look much like a conspirator.
“Isn’t it a new era?” asked Hyacinth, rather disappointed.
“Isn’t it a new era?” asked Hyacinth, feeling a bit let down.
“Well, I don’t know; it’s just a little movement.”
“Well, I don’t know; it’s just a small movement.”
“Ah bien, voilà du propre; between us we have thrown him into a fever!” cried Madame Poupin, who had put down her bowl on a table near her husband’s bed and was bending over him, with her hand on his forehead. Eustache was flushed, he had closed his eyes, and it was evident there had been more than enough conversation. Madame Poupin announced as much, with the addition that if the young men wished to make acquaintance they must do it outside; the invalid must be perfectly quiet. They accordingly withdrew, with apologies and promises to return for further news on the morrow, and two minutes afterward Hyacinth found himself standing face to face with his new friend on the pavement in front of M. Poupin’s residence, under a street-lamp which struggled ineffectually with the brown winter dusk.
“Well, this is a mess; together we've thrown him into a fever!” exclaimed Madame Poupin, who had set her bowl down on a table near her husband’s bed and was leaning over him, her hand on his forehead. Eustache was flushed, his eyes closed, and it was clear that there had been more than enough talking. Madame Poupin stated as much, adding that if the young men wanted to get to know each other, they should do it outside; the patient needed complete quiet. They accordingly left, offering apologies and promises to return for updates the next day, and two minutes later, Hyacinth found himself standing face to face with his new friend on the pavement in front of M. Poupin’s house, under a street lamp that struggled ineffectively against the brown winter dusk.
“Is that your name—M. Paul?” he asked, looking up at him.
“Is your name M. Paul?” he asked, looking up at him.
“Oh, bless you, no; that’s only her Frenchified way of putting it. My name is Paul, though—Paul Muniment.”
“Oh, no way; that’s just her fancy way of saying it. My name is Paul, though—Paul Muniment.”
“And what’s your trade?” Hyacinth demanded, with a jump into familiarity; for his companion seemed to have told him a great deal more than was usually conveyed in that item of information.
“And what’s your job?” Hyacinth asked, jumping into familiarity; his companion seemed to have shared a lot more than what is usually revealed with that bit of information.
Paul Muniment looked down at him from above broad shoulders. “I work at a wholesale chemist’s, at Lambeth.”
Paul Muniment looked down at him from above his broad shoulders. “I work at a wholesale pharmacy in Lambeth.”
“And where do you live?”
“And where do you stay?”
“I live over the water, too; in the far south of London.”
“I live by the water, too; in the southern part of London.”
“And are you going home now?”
“And are you going home now?”
“Oh yes, I am going to toddle.”
“Oh yes, I am going to walk.”
“And may I toddle with you?”
“And can I walk with you?”
Mr Muniment considered him further; then he gave a laugh. “I’ll carry you, if you like.”
Mr. Muniment thought about it some more, then he laughed. "I'll carry you if you want."
“Thank you; I expect I can walk as far as you,” said Hyacinth.
“Thanks; I think I can walk as far as you,” said Hyacinth.
“Well, I admire your spirit, and I dare say I shall like your company.”
“Well, I admire your attitude, and I must say I will enjoy your company.”
There was something in his face, taken in connection with the idea that he was concerned in a little movement, which made Hyacinth feel the desire to go with him till he dropped; and in a moment they started away together and took the direction Muniment had mentioned. They discoursed as they went, and exchanged a great many opinions and anecdotes; but they reached the south-westerly court in which the young chemist lived with his infirm sister before he had told Hyacinth anything definite about his little movement, or Hyacinth, on his side, had related to him the circumstances connected with his being, according to M. Poupin, one of the disinherited. Hyacinth didn’t wish to press him; he would not for the world have appeared to him indiscreet; and, moreover, though he had taken so great a fancy to Muniment, he was not quite prepared, as yet, to be pressed. Therefore it did not become very clear to him how his companion had made Poupin’s acquaintance and how long he had enjoyed it. Paul Muniment nevertheless was to a certain extent communicative about himself, and forewarned Hyacinth that he lived in a very poor little corner. He had his sister to keep—she could do nothing for herself; and he paid a low rent because she had to have doctors, and doses, and all sorts of little comforts. He spent a shilling a week for her on flowers. It was better, too, when you got upstairs, and from the back windows you could see the dome of St Paul’s. Audley Court, with its pretty name, which reminded Hyacinth of Tennyson, proved to be a still dingier nook than Lomax Place; and it had the further drawback that you had to pass through a narrow alley, a passage between high, black walls, to enter it. At the door of one of the houses the young men paused, lingering a little, and then Muniment said, “I say, why shouldn’t you come up? I like you well enough for that, and you can see my sister; her name is Rosy.” He spoke as if this would be a great privilege, and added, humorously, that Rosy enjoyed a call from a gentleman, of all things. Hyacinth needed no urging, and he groped his way, at his companion’s heels, up a dark staircase, which appeared to him—for they stopped only when they could go no further—the longest and steepest he had ever ascended. At the top Paul Muniment pushed open a door, but exclaimed, “Hullo, have you gone to roost?” on perceiving that the room on the threshold of which they stood was unlighted.
There was something in his face, combined with the fact that he was involved in a small project, that made Hyacinth feel a strong urge to stay with him until he couldn't anymore. Soon, they set off together in the direction Muniment had mentioned. They talked as they walked, sharing lots of opinions and stories; however, they reached the southwestern courtyard where the young chemist lived with his disabled sister before Muniment had shared anything specific about his little project, or Hyacinth, for his part, had told him about the circumstances surrounding his status as one of the disinherited, according to M. Poupin. Hyacinth didn’t want to press him; he would never want to come off as intrusive, and besides, even though he had taken a real liking to Muniment, he wasn’t quite ready to be pushed. So, it was never entirely clear to him how his companion had met Poupin or how long their friendship had lasted. Nonetheless, Paul Muniment was somewhat open about himself and warned Hyacinth that he lived in a very small, poor place. He had to take care of his sister—she couldn’t manage on her own; and he paid a low rent because she needed doctors, medications, and various small comforts. He spent a shilling a week on flowers for her. It was better too once you got upstairs, and from the back windows, you could see the dome of St. Paul’s. Audley Court, with its charming name that reminded Hyacinth of Tennyson, turned out to be an even dingier spot than Lomax Place; additionally, it had the disadvantage of requiring passage through a narrow alleyway between tall, dark walls to get to it. At the door of one of the houses, the young men paused for a moment, then Muniment said, “Hey, why don’t you come up? I like you enough for that, and you can meet my sister; her name is Rosy.” He said this as if it were a big honor and added humorously that Rosy really liked having a gentleman visitor. Hyacinth didn’t need any convincing, and he followed his companion up a dark staircase, which seemed to him—their stop only coming when they couldn’t go any higher—the longest and steepest he had ever climbed. At the top, Paul Muniment opened a door but exclaimed, “Hullo, have you gone to roost?” upon noticing that the room they stood at the entrance to was unlit.
“Oh, dear, no; we are sitting in the dark,” a small, bright voice instantly replied. “Lady Aurora is so kind; she’s here still.”
“Oh, no; we’re sitting in the dark,” a small, cheerful voice quickly answered. “Lady Aurora is so kind; she’s still here.”
The voice came out of a corner so pervaded by gloom that the speaker was indistinguishable. “Dear me, that’s beautiful!” Paul Muniment rejoined. “You’ll have a party, then, for I have brought some one else. We are poor, you know, but I dare say we can manage a candle.”
The voice came from a corner so filled with darkness that the speaker was hard to make out. “Wow, that’s beautiful!” Paul Muniment replied. “You’ll be having a party, then, because I brought someone else. We may be broke, but I think we can handle a candle.”
At this, in the dim firelight, Hyacinth saw a tall figure erect itself—a figure angular and slim, crowned with a large, vague hat, surmounted, apparently, with a flowing veil. This unknown person gave a singular laugh, and said, “Oh, I brought some candles; we could have had a light if we had wished it.” Both the tone and the purport of the words announced to Hyacinth that they proceeded from the lips of Lady Aurora.
At this moment, in the dim firelight, Hyacinth saw a tall figure stand up—a slender, angular figure topped with a large, indistinct hat that seemed to have a flowing veil. This stranger let out a strange laugh and said, “Oh, I brought some candles; we could have had light if we wanted.” Both the tone and the meaning of the words made it clear to Hyacinth that they came from Lady Aurora.
VIII
Paul Muniment took a match out of his pocket and lighted it on the sole of his shoe; after which he applied it to a tallow candle which stood in a tin receptacle on the low mantel-shelf. This enabled Hyacinth to perceive a narrow bed in a corner, and a small figure stretched upon it—a figure revealed to him mainly by the bright fixedness of a pair of large eyes, of which the whites were sharply contrasted with the dark pupil, and which gazed at him across a counterpane of gaudy patchwork. The brown room seemed crowded with heterogeneous objects, and had, moreover, for Hyacinth, thanks to a multitude of small prints, both plain and coloured, fastened all over the walls, a highly-decorated appearance. The little person in the corner had the air of having gone to bed in a picture-gallery, and as soon as Hyacinth became aware of this his impression deepened that Paul Muniment and his sister were very remarkable people. Lady Aurora hovered before him with a kind of drooping erectness, laughing a good deal, vaguely and shyly, as if there were something rather awkward in her being found still on the premises. “Rosy, girl, I’ve brought you a visitor,” Paul Muniment said. “This young man has walked all the way from Lisson Grove to make your acquaintance.” Rosy continued to look at Hyacinth from over her counterpane, and he felt slightly embarrassed, for he had never yet been presented to a young lady in her position. “You mustn’t mind her being in bed—she’s always in bed,” her brother went on. “She’s in bed just the same as a little trout is in the water.”
Paul Muniment took a match out of his pocket and struck it on the sole of his shoe; then he used it to light a tallow candle sitting in a tin holder on the low mantel. This allowed Hyacinth to notice a narrow bed in the corner and a small figure lying on it—a figure mostly illuminated by a pair of large, bright eyes, the whites sharply contrasting with the dark pupils, staring at him across a colorful patchwork quilt. The brown room felt full of various objects and had, for Hyacinth, a very decorative look due to a multitude of small prints, both plain and colorful, plastered all over the walls. The little person in the corner seemed as if she had gone to bed in an art gallery, and once Hyacinth realized this, his impression intensified that Paul Muniment and his sister were quite remarkable people. Lady Aurora lingered in front of him with a sort of relaxed poise, laughing a lot, vaguely and shyly, as if it felt a bit awkward for her to be found still there. “Rosy, girl, I’ve brought you a visitor,” Paul Muniment said. “This young man has walked all the way from Lisson Grove to meet you.” Rosy kept looking at Hyacinth from over her quilt, making him feel a bit awkward, as he had never been introduced to a young lady in her situation. “You shouldn’t mind her being in bed—she’s always in bed,” her brother continued. “She’s in bed just like a little trout is in the water.”
“Dear me, if I didn’t receive company because I was in bed, there wouldn’t be much use, would there, Lady Aurora?”
“Goodness, if I don’t have visitors because I’m in bed, what’s the point, right, Lady Aurora?”
Rosy made this inquiry in a light, gay tone, darting her brilliant eyes at her companion, who replied instantly, with still greater hilarity, and in a voice which struck Hyacinth as strange and affected, “Oh, dear, no, it seems quite the natural place!” Then she added, “And it’s such a pretty bed, such a comfortable bed!”
Rosy asked this in a cheerful, playful tone, flashing her bright eyes at her friend, who responded right away with even more excitement in a voice that Hyacinth found odd and exaggerated, “Oh, no, it seems totally normal here!” Then she added, “And it’s such a pretty bed, such a comfy bed!”
“Indeed it is, when your ladyship makes it up,” said Rosy; while Hyacinth wondered at this strange phenomenon of a peer’s daughter (for he knew she must be that) performing the functions of a housemaid.
“Yeah, it is, when you make it so,” said Rosy; while Hyacinth was amazed by the odd sight of a nobleman's daughter (since he knew she had to be that) doing the work of a maid.
“I say, now, you haven’t been doing that again to-day?” Muniment asked, punching the mattress of the invalid with a vigorous hand.
“I can’t believe you’re doing that again today?” Muniment asked, punching the mattress of the patient with a strong hand.
“Pray, who would, if I didn’t?” Lady Aurora inquired. “It only takes a minute, if one knows how.” Her manner was jocosely apologetic, and she seemed to plead guilty to having been absurd; in the dim light Hyacinth thought he saw her blush, as if she were much embarrassed. In spite of her blushing, her appearance and manner suggested to him a personage in a comedy. She sounded the letter r peculiarly.
“Please, who would, if I didn’t?” Lady Aurora asked. “It only takes a minute, if you know how.” She had a lighthearted way of apologizing, almost like she was admitting to being ridiculous; in the dim light, Hyacinth thought he saw her blush, as if she were quite embarrassed. Despite her blushing, her appearance and behavior reminded him of a character in a comedy. She pronounced the letter r in a unique way.
“I can do it, beautifully. I often do it, when Mrs Major doesn’t come up,” Paul Muniment said, continuing to thump his sister’s couch in an appreciative but somewhat subversive manner.
“I can do it, beautifully. I often do it when Mrs. Major doesn’t come by,” Paul Muniment said, continuing to thump his sister’s couch in an appreciative but somewhat rebellious manner.
“Oh, I have no doubt whatever!” Lady Aurora exclaimed, quickly. “Mrs Major must have so very much to do.”
“Oh, I have no doubt about it!” Lady Aurora said quickly. “Mrs. Major must have so much on her plate.”
“Not in the making-up of beds, I’m afraid; there are only two or three, down there, for so many,” Paul Muniment remarked loudly, and with a kind of incongruous cheerfulness.
“Not in making the beds, I’m afraid; there are only two or three down there for so many,” Paul Muniment remarked loudly, with a sort of mismatched cheerfulness.
“Yes, I have thought a great deal about that. But there wouldn’t be room for more, you know,” said Lady Aurora, this time in a very serious tone.
“Yes, I’ve thought a lot about that. But there wouldn’t be room for more, you know,” said Lady Aurora, this time in a very serious tone.
“There’s not much room for a family of that sort anywhere—thirteen people of all ages and sizes,” the young man rejoined. “The world’s pretty big, but there doesn’t seem room.”
“There’s not much space for a family like that anywhere—thirteen people of all ages and sizes,” the young man replied. “The world’s pretty huge, but it doesn't seem to have enough room.”
“We are also thirteen at home;” said Lady Aurora, laughing again. “We are also rather crowded.”
“We are also thirteen at home,” said Lady Aurora, laughing again. “We are also a bit cramped.”
“Surely you don’t mean at Inglefield?” Rosy inquired eagerly, in her dusky nook.
“Surely you don’t mean at Inglefield?” Rosy asked eagerly from her shadowy corner.
“I don’t know about Inglefield. I am so much in town.” Hyacinth could see that Inglefield was a subject she wished to turn off, and to do so she added, “We too are of all ages and sizes.”
“I don’t know about Inglefield. I spend so much time in town.” Hyacinth could tell that Inglefield was a topic she wanted to avoid, so she added, “We’re all different ages and sizes too.”
“Well, it’s fortunate you are not all your size!” Paul Muniment exclaimed, with a freedom at which Hyacinth was rather shocked, and which led him to suspect that, though his new friend was a very fine fellow, a delicate tact was not his main characteristic. Later he explained this by the fact that he was rural and provincial, and had not had, like himself, the benefit of metropolitan culture; and later still he asked himself what, after all, such a character as that had to do with tact or with compliments, and why its work in the world was not most properly performed by the simple exercise of a rude, manly strength.
“Well, it’s a good thing you’re not all your size!” Paul Muniment exclaimed, with a boldness that shocked Hyacinth and made him think that, while his new friend was really a great guy, refined sensitivity wasn’t his strongest suit. Later, he justified this by noting that Paul was from a rural area and hadn’t experienced, like he had, the advantages of city life; and even later he wondered what, after all, someone like that had to do with sensitivity or compliments, and why their contribution to the world wasn’t best done through the straightforward display of raw, manly strength.
At this familiar allusion to her stature Lady Aurora turned hither and thither, a little confusedly; Hyacinth saw her high, lean figure sway to and fro in the dim little room. Her commotion carried her to the door, and with ejaculations of which it was difficult to guess the meaning she was about to depart, when Rosy detained her, having evidently much more social art than Paul. “Don’t you see it’s only because her ladyship is standing up that she’s so, you gawk? We are not thirteen, at any rate, and we have got all the furniture we want, so that there’s a chair for every one. Do be seated again, Lady Aurora, and help me to entertain this gentleman. I don’t know your name, sir; perhaps my brother will mention it when he has collected his wits. I am very glad to see you, though I don’t see you very well. Why shouldn’t we light one of her ladyship’s candles? It’s very different to that common thing.”
At this familiar mention of her height, Lady Aurora looked around a bit confused. Hyacinth noticed her tall, thin figure swaying back and forth in the small, dim room. Her movement brought her to the door, and just as she seemed about to leave with some exclamations that were hard to interpret, Rosy stopped her, clearly much more skilled in social situations than Paul. “Can’t you see it’s just because she’s standing that she looks that way, you idiot? We’re not kids anymore, and we have plenty of furniture, so there’s a chair for everyone. Please sit down again, Lady Aurora, and help me entertain this gentleman. I don’t know your name, sir; maybe my brother will tell us once he collects his thoughts. I’m really happy to see you, even if I can’t see you very well. Why don’t we light one of her ladyship’s candles? It’s much nicer than that ordinary one.”
Hyacinth thought Miss Muniment very charming: he had begun to make her out better by this time, and he watched her little wan, pointed face, framed, on the pillow, by thick black hair. She was a diminutive dark person, pale and wasted with a lifelong infirmity; Hyacinth thought her manner denoted high cleverness—he judged it impossible to tell her age. Lady Aurora said she ought to have gone, long since; but she seated herself, nevertheless, on the chair that Paul pushed towards her.
Hyacinth thought Miss Muniment was very charming: he had started to understand her better by now, and he observed her small, pale, pointed face, framed by thick black hair on the pillow. She was a petite woman with dark features, pale and frail due to a lifelong illness; Hyacinth believed her demeanor showed a lot of intelligence—he found it hard to guess her age. Lady Aurora said she should have left a long time ago; but she still sat down on the chair that Paul pulled over for her.
“Here’s a go!” this young man exclaimed. “You told me your name, but I’ve clean forgotten it.” Then, when Paul had announced it again, he said to his sister, “That won’t tell you much; there are bushels of Robinsons in the north. But you’ll like him; he’s a very smart little fellow; I met him at the Poupins.” ‘Puppin’ would represent the sound by which he designated the French bookbinder, and that was the name by which Hyacinth always heard him called at Mr Crookenden’s. Hyacinth knew how much nearer to the right thing he himself came.
“Here’s a chance!” this young man exclaimed. “You told me your name, but I’ve completely forgotten it.” Then, when Paul said it again, he told his sister, “That doesn’t really help; there are tons of Robinsons up north. But you’ll like him; he’s a really sharp guy; I met him at the Poupins.” ‘Puppin’ was how he pronounced the name of the French bookbinder, and that was the name Hyacinth always heard him use at Mr. Crookenden’s. Hyacinth knew how much closer he himself was to the correct one.
“Your name, like mine, represents a flower,” said the little woman in the bed. “Mine is Rose Muniment, and her ladyship’s is Aurora Langrish. That means the morning, or the dawn; it’s the most beautiful of all, don’t you think so?” Rose Muniment addressed this inquiry to Hyacinth, while Lady Aurora gazed at her shyly and mutely, as if she admired her manner, her self-possession and flow of conversation. Her brother lighted one of the visitor’s candles, and the girl went on, without waiting for Hyacinth’s response: “Isn’t it right that she should be called the dawn, when she brings light where she goes? The Puppins are the charming foreigners I have told you about,” she explained to her friend.
“Your name, like mine, represents a flower,” said the little woman in the bed. “Mine is Rose Muniment, and her ladyship’s is Aurora Langrish. That means the morning or the dawn; it’s the most beautiful of all, don’t you think?” Rose Muniment directed this question to Hyacinth, while Lady Aurora looked at her shyly and silently, as if she admired her demeanor, her confidence, and her way of speaking. Her brother lit one of the visitor’s candles, and the girl continued, without waiting for Hyacinth’s reply: “Isn’t it fitting that she should be called the dawn, when she brings light wherever she goes? The Puppins are the delightful foreigners I mentioned to you,” she explained to her friend.
“Oh, it’s so pleasant knowing a few foreigners!” Lady Aurora exclaimed, with a spasm of expression. “They are often so very fresh.”
“Oh, it’s so nice to know a few foreigners!” Lady Aurora exclaimed, her expression full of enthusiasm. “They’re often so refreshing.”
“Mr Robinson’s a sort of foreigner, and he’s very fresh,” said Paul Muniment. “He meets Mr Puppin quite on his own ground. If I had his command of the lingo it would give me a lift.”
“Mr. Robinson is kind of a foreigner, and he’s really lively,” said Paul Muniment. “He connects with Mr. Puppin on his level. If I had his knack for the language, it would really boost my confidence.”
“I’m sure I should be very happy to help you with your French. I feel the advantage of knowing it,” Hyacinth remarked, finely, and became conscious that his declaration drew the attention of Lady Aurora towards him; so that he wondered what he could go on to say, to keep at that level. This was the first time he had encountered, socially, a member of that aristocracy to which he had now for a good while known it was Miss Pynsent’s theory that he belonged; and the occasion was interesting, in spite of the lady’s appearing to have so few of the qualities of her caste. She was about thirty years of age; her nose was large and, in spite of the sudden retreat of her chin, her face was long and lean. She had the manner of extreme near-sightedness; her front teeth projected from her upper gums, which she revealed when she smiled, and her fair hair, in tangled, silky skeins (Rose Muniment thought it too lovely), drooped over her pink cheeks. Her clothes looked as if she had worn them a good deal in the rain, and the note of a certain disrepair in her apparel was given by a hole in one of her black gloves, through which a white finger gleamed. She was plain and diffident, and she might have been poor; but in the fine grain and sloping, shrinking slimness of her whole person, the delicacy of her curious features, and a kind of cultivated quality in her sweet, vague, civil expression, there was a suggestion of race, of long transmission, of an organism highly evolved. She was not a common woman; she was one of the caprices of an aristocracy. Hyacinth did not define her in this manner to himself, but he received from her the impression that, though she was a simple creature (which he learned later she was not), aristocracies were complicated things. Lady Aurora remarked that there were many delightful books in French, and Hyacinth rejoined that it was a torment to know that (as he did, very well) when you didn’t see your way to getting hold of them. This led Lady Aurora to say, after a moment’s hesitation, that she had a good lot of her own and that if he liked she should be most happy to lend them to him. Hyacinth thanked her—thanked her even too much, and felt both the kindness and the brilliant promise of the offer (he knew the exasperation of having volumes in his hands, for external treatment, which he couldn’t take home at night, having tried that system, surreptitiously, during his first weeks at Mr Crookenden’s and come very near losing his place in consequence), while he wondered how it could be put into practice—whether she would expect him to call at her house and wait in the hall till the books were sent out to him. Rose Muniment exclaimed that that was her ladyship all over—always wanting to make up to people for being less fortunate than herself: she would take the shoes off her feet for any one that might take a fancy to them. At this the visitor declared that she would stop coming to see her, if the girl caught her up, that way, for everything; and Rosy, without heeding this remonstrance, explained to Hyacinth that she thought it the least she could do to give what she had. She was so ashamed of being rich that she wondered the lower classes didn’t break into Inglefield and take possession of all the treasures in the Italian room. She was a tremendous socialist; she was worse than any one—she was worse, even, than Paul.
“I’m sure I’d be really happy to help you with your French. I see the benefit of knowing it,” Hyacinth commented nicely, aware that his statement caught Lady Aurora's attention; he then wondered what else he could say to maintain that level of engagement. This was the first time he had socially met someone from the aristocracy, which Miss Pynsent had long claimed he belonged to; the occasion was intriguing, even though the lady seemed to lack many qualities typical of her class. She was around thirty years old, had a large nose, and despite her chin's sudden retreat, her face was long and thin. She carried herself as if she were extremely near-sighted; her front teeth protruded from her upper gums, showing when she smiled, and her fair hair, tangled and silky (Rose Muniment thought it was lovely), fell over her pink cheeks. Her clothes looked like they had been worn numerous times in the rain, and a sense of disrepair was evident in her attire, highlighted by a hole in one of her black gloves through which a white finger peeked through. She was plain and shy, possibly poor, yet in the delicate proportions and slenderness of her whole figure, the peculiar elegance of her features, and a kind of refined quality in her sweet, vague, polite expression, there was a hint of lineage, of long descent, of a highly evolved being. She was not an ordinary woman; she was one of the whims of an aristocracy. Hyacinth didn’t think of her this way, but he sensed that though she seemed simple (which he later learned she was not), aristocracies were complex. Lady Aurora mentioned that there were many wonderful books in French, and Hyacinth replied that it was frustrating to know that (as he did very well) when he couldn’t figure out how to get them. This prompted Lady Aurora to say, after a brief pause, that she had quite a few of her own, and if he wished, she would be more than happy to lend them to him. Hyacinth thanked her—thanked her perhaps too much—and felt both the kindness and the exciting promise of the offer (he understood the frustration of holding volumes that he couldn’t take home at night, having covertly tried that system during his first weeks at Mr. Crookenden’s and nearly lost his position because of it), while he wondered how it could actually work—if she would expect him to visit her house and wait in the hall while the books were brought out to him. Rose Muniment exclaimed that this was typical of her ladyship—always wanting to make up for others being less fortunate: she would give the shoes off her feet to anyone who might fancy them. To this, the visitor declared she would stop visiting if the girl kept calling her out like that, and Rosy, ignoring the protest, explained to Hyacinth that she believed it was the least she could do to share what she had. She felt so embarrassed about being rich that she wondered why the lower classes didn’t break into Inglefield and take all the treasures from the Italian room. She was a huge socialist; she was worse than anyone—worse even than Paul.
“I wonder if she is worse than me,” Hyacinth said, at a venture, not understanding the allusions to Inglefield and the Italian room, which Miss Muniment made as if she knew all about these places. After Hyacinth knew more of the world he remembered this tone of Muniment’s sister (he was to have plenty of observation of it on other occasions) as that of a person who was in the habit of visiting the nobility at their country-seats; she talked about Inglefield as if she had stayed there.
“I wonder if she’s worse than me,” Hyacinth said, taking a chance, not really getting the references to Inglefield and the Italian room that Miss Muniment mentioned like she was familiar with them. After Hyacinth learned more about the world, he remembered this tone of Muniment’s sister (he would have plenty of opportunities to observe it later) as belonging to someone who was used to visiting nobility at their country estates; she spoke about Inglefield as if she had been there.
“Hullo, I didn’t know you were so advanced!” exclaimed Paul Muniment, who had been sitting silent, sidewise, in a chair that was too narrow for him, with his big arm hugging the back. “Have we been entertaining an angel unawares?”
“Hey, I didn’t realize you were so advanced!” exclaimed Paul Muniment, who had been sitting quietly, sideways, in a chair that was too small for him, with his big arm wrapped around the back. “Have we been hosting an angel without even knowing it?”
Hyacinth seemed to see that he was laughing at him, but he knew the way to face that sort of thing was to exaggerate his meaning. “You didn’t know I was advanced? Why, I thought that was the principal thing about me. I think I go about as far as it is possible to go.”
Hyacinth seemed to realize that he was laughing at him, but he knew the best way to handle that kind of situation was to exaggerate his point. “You didn’t know I was progressive? I figured that was the main thing about me. I believe I push the boundaries as far as anyone can.”
“I thought the principal thing about you was that you knew French,” Paul Muniment said, with an air of derision which showed Hyacinth that he wouldn’t put that ridicule upon him unless he liked him, at the same time that it revealed to him that he himself had just been posturing a little.
“I thought the main thing about you was that you spoke French,” Paul Muniment said, with a mocking tone that made Hyacinth realize he wouldn’t be teasing him unless he actually liked him, while also showing him that he had just been putting on a bit of a show himself.
“Well, I don’t know it for nothing. I’ll say something very neat and sharp to you, if you don’t look out—just the sort of thing they say so much in French.”
“Well, I didn’t learn it for nothing. I’ll say something really clever and biting to you if you’re not careful—just the kind of thing they say a lot in French.”
“Oh, do say something of that kind; we should enjoy it so much!” cried Rosy, in perfect good faith, clasping her hands in expectation.
“Oh, please say something like that; we would enjoy it so much!” cried Rosy, genuinely excited, clasping her hands in anticipation.
The appeal was embarrassing, but Hyacinth was saved from the consequences of it by a remark from Lady Aurora, who quavered out the words after two or three false starts, appearing to address him, now that she spoke to him directly, with a sort of overdone consideration. “I should like so very much to know—it would be so interesting—if you don’t mind—how far exactly you do go.” She threw back her head very far, and thrust her shoulders forward, and if her chin had been more adapted to such a purpose would have appeared to point it at him.
The appeal was awkward, but Hyacinth was spared from its fallout thanks to a comment from Lady Aurora. After a couple of false starts, she finally managed to spit out her words, seeming to address him with an exaggerated kind of politeness now that she was speaking directly to him. “I would really love to know—it would be so fascinating—if you don’t mind—how far exactly you go.” She tilted her head back dramatically and pushed her shoulders forward, and if her chin had been more suited for it, it would have looked like she was pointing it at him.
This challenge was hardly less alarming than the other, for Hyacinth was far from having ascertained the extent of his advance. He replied, however, with an earnestness with which he tried to make up as far as possible for his vagueness: “Well, I’m very strong indeed. I think I see my way to conclusions, from which even Monsieur and Madame Poupin would shrink. Poupin, at any rate; I’m not so sure about his wife.”
This challenge was just as concerning as the other one, since Hyacinth still hadn’t figured out how far he’d progressed. Still, he responded with a seriousness that he tried to use to cover up his uncertainty: “Well, I’m really quite strong. I think I can reach conclusions that even Monsieur and Madame Poupin would be afraid of. Poupin, at least; I’m not so sure about his wife.”
“I should like so much to know Madame,” Lady Aurora murmured, as if politeness demanded that she should content herself with this answer.
“I would really like to know, Madame,” Lady Aurora murmured, as if being polite meant she had to accept this answer.
“Oh, Puppin isn’t strong,” said Muniment; “you can easily look over his head! He has a sweet assortment of phrases—they are really pretty things to hear, some of them; but he hasn’t had a new idea these thirty years. It’s the old stock that has been withering in the window. All the same, he warms one up; he has got a spark of the sacred fire. The principal conclusion that Mr Robinson sees his way to,” he added to Lady Aurora, “is that your father ought to have his head chopped off and carried on a pike.”
“Oh, Puppin isn’t strong,” Muniment said. “You can easily look over his head! He has a nice collection of phrases—they're really lovely to hear, some of them; but he hasn’t had a new idea in thirty years. It's the same old stuff that’s been fading in the window. Still, he has a way of lighting things up; he has a bit of the sacred fire. The main point that Mr. Robinson believes is that your father should have his head cut off and displayed on a pike,” he added to Lady Aurora.
“Ah, yes, the French Revolution.”
“Ah, yes, the French Revolution.”
“Lord, I don’t know anything about your father, my lady!” Hyacinth interposed.
“Lord, I don’t know anything about your dad, my lady!” Hyacinth interrupted.
“Didn’t you ever hear of the Earl of Inglefield?” cried Rose Muniment.
“Have you ever heard of the Earl of Inglefield?” cried Rose Muniment.
“He is one of the best,” said Lady Aurora, as if she were pleading for him.
“He's one of the best,” Lady Aurora said, almost as if she were begging for him.
“Very likely, but he is a landlord, and he has an hereditary seat and a park of five thousand acres all to himself, while we are bundled together into this sort of kennel.” Hyacinth admired the young man’s consistency until he saw that he was chaffing; after which he still admired the way he mixed up merriment with the tremendous opinions our hero was sure he entertained. In his own imagination Hyacinth associated bitterness with the revolutionary passion; but the young chemist, at the same time that he was planning far ahead, seemed capable of turning revolutionists themselves into ridicule, even for the entertainment of the revolutionised.
“Very likely, but he’s a landlord, and he has an inherited estate and a five-thousand-acre park all to himself, while we’re cramped together in this kind of kennel.” Hyacinth admired the young man’s consistency until he realized he was joking; after that, he still admired how he blended humor with the serious opinions our hero was sure he held. In his mind, Hyacinth connected bitterness with revolutionary passion, but the young chemist, while planning for the future, seemed able to mock revolutionaries themselves, even for the amusement of those who had embraced the revolution.
“Well, I have told you often enough that I don’t go with you at all,” said Rose Muniment, whose recumbency appeared not in the least to interfere with her sense of responsibility. “You’ll make a tremendous mistake if you try to turn everything round. There ought to be differences, and high and low, and there always will be, true as ever I lie here. I think it’s against everything, pulling down them that’s above.”
“Well, I’ve told you many times that I’m not going with you at all,” said Rose Muniment, who seemed completely unfazed by her lying down while still feeling responsible. “You’ll make a huge mistake if you try to change everything. There should be differences, with some people above and others below, and there always will be, as sure as I’m lying here. I think it goes against everything to bring down those who are above.”
“Everything points to great changes in this country, but if once our Rosy’s against them, how can you be sure? That’s the only thing that makes me doubt,” her brother went on, looking at her with a placidity which showed the habit of indulgence.
“Everything indicates significant changes coming to this country, but if our Rosy is opposed to them, how can you be certain? That’s the only thing that makes me hesitate,” her brother continued, looking at her with a calmness that reflected his tendency to be indulgent.
“Well, I may be ill, but I ain’t buried, and if I’m content with my position—such a position as it is—surely other folk might be with theirs. Her ladyship may think I’m as good as her, if she takes that notion; but she’ll have a deal to do to make me believe it.”
“Well, I might be sick, but I’m not dead, and if I’m okay with my situation—no matter how it is—then surely other people can be okay with theirs. She might think I’m as good as she is, if that’s what she believes; but she’ll have a lot to do to make me believe that.”
“I think you are much better than I, and I know very few people so good as you,” Lady Aurora remarked, blushing, not for her opinions, but for her timidity. It was easy to see that, though she was original, she would have liked to be even more original than she was. She was conscious, however, that such a declaration might appear rather gross to persons who didn’t see exactly how she meant it; so she added, as quickly as her hesitating manner permitted, to cover it up, “You know there’s one thing you ought to remember, à propos of revolutions and changes and all that sort of thing; I just mention it because we were talking of some of the dreadful things that were done in France. If there were to be a great disturbance in this country—and of course one hopes there won’t—it would be my impression that the people would behave in a different way altogether.”
“I think you’re much better than I am, and I know very few people as good as you,” Lady Aurora said, blushing, not because of her opinions, but from her shyness. It was clear that, even though she was original, she wanted to be even more unique than she was. She realized, though, that such a statement might seem rather harsh to those who didn’t fully understand her intent; so she quickly added, as fast as her hesitant manner allowed, to soften it, “You know there’s one thing you should keep in mind, à propos of revolutions and changes and all that—I'm just bringing it up because we were discussing some of the awful things that happened in France. If there were to be a major upheaval in this country—and of course, we hope there won’t be—I believe the people would react in a completely different way.”
“What people do you mean?” Hyacinth allowed himself to inquire.
“What people are you talking about?” Hyacinth permitted himself to ask.
“Oh, the upper class, the people that have got all the things.”
“Oh, the upper class, the ones who have everything.”
“We don’t call them the people,” observed Hyacinth, reflecting the next instant that his remark was a little primitive.
“We don’t refer to them as the people,” Hyacinth noted, immediately realizing that his comment seemed a bit outdated.
“I suppose you call them the wretches, the villains!” Rose Muniment suggested, laughing merrily.
“I guess you call them the wretches, the villains!” Rose Muniment said, laughing happily.
“All the things, but not all the brains,” her brother said.
“All the stuff, but not all the smarts,” her brother said.
“No, indeed, aren’t they stupid?” exclaimed her ladyship. “All the same, I don’t think they would go abroad.”
“No, seriously, aren’t they dumb?” exclaimed her ladyship. “Still, I don’t think they would travel overseas.”
“Go abroad?”
"Travel overseas?"
“I mean like the French nobles, who emigrated so much. They would stay at home and resist; they would make more of a fight. I think they would fight very hard.”
“I mean like the French nobles who emigrated a lot. They would stay home and resist; they would put up more of a fight. I think they would fight really hard.”
“I’m delighted to hear it, and I’m sure they would win!” cried Rosy.
“I’m so happy to hear that, and I’m sure they would win!” cried Rosy.
“They wouldn’t collapse, don’t you know,” Lady Aurora continued. “They would struggle till they were beaten.”
“They wouldn’t give up, you know,” Lady Aurora continued. “They would fight until they were defeated.”
“And you think they would be beaten in the end?” Hyacinth asked.
“And you think they would lose in the end?” Hyacinth asked.
“Oh dear, yes,” she replied, with a familiar brevity at which he was greatly surprised. “But of course one hopes it won’t happen.”
“Oh dear, yes,” she replied, with a familiar shortness that he found quite surprising. “But of course, we hope it won’t happen.”
“I infer from what you say that they talk it over a good deal among themselves, to settle the line they will take,” said Paul Muniment.
“I can tell from what you’re saying that they discuss it a lot among themselves to decide which approach they’ll take,” said Paul Muniment.
But Rosy intruded before Lady Aurora could answer. “I think it’s wicked to talk it over, and I’m sure we haven’t any business to talk it over here! When her ladyship says that the aristocracy will make a fine stand, I like to hear her say it, and I think she speaks in a manner that becomes her own position. But there is something else in her tone which, if I may be allowed to say so, I think a great mistake. If her ladyship expects, in case of the lower classes coming up in that odious manner, to be let off easily, for the sake of the concessions she may have made in advance, I would just advise her to save herself the disappointment and the trouble. They won’t be a bit the wiser, and they won’t either know or care. If they are going to trample over their betters, it isn’t on account of her having seemed to give up everything to us here that they will let her off. They will trample on her just the same as on the others, and they’ll say that she has got to pay for her title and her grand relations and her fine appearance. Therefore I advise her not to waste her good nature in trying to let herself down. When you’re up so high as that you’ve got to stay there; and if Providence has made you a lady, the best thing you can do is to hold up your head. I can promise your ladyship I would!”
But Rosy interrupted before Lady Aurora could reply. “I think it’s wrong to discuss this, and I’m sure we shouldn’t be talking about it here! When her ladyship says that the aristocracy will stand firm, I enjoy hearing her say it, and I believe she expresses herself in a way that suits her position. However, there’s something else in her tone that, if I may say so, I think is a big mistake. If her ladyship thinks that if the lower classes rise up in that unpleasant manner, she’ll be let off easily because of the concessions she might have made, I’d advise her to save herself the disappointment and the trouble. They won’t be any wiser and won’t know or care. If they decide to trample over their superiors, it won’t be because she has seemed to give up everything to us here that they’ll let her off. They’ll treat her just like the others, expecting her to pay for her title, her wealthy connections, and her fine looks. So I advise her not to waste her kindness trying to lower herself. When you’re at such a high status, you have to stay there; and if Providence has made you a lady, the best thing you can do is to hold your head high. I can promise your ladyship I would!”
The close logic of this speech and the quaint self-possession with which the little bedridden speaker delivered it struck Hyacinth as amazing, and confirmed his idea that the brother and sister were a most extraordinary pair. It had a terrible effect upon poor Lady Aurora, by whom so stern a lesson from so humble a quarter had evidently not been expected, and who sought refuge from her confusion in a series of bewildered laughs, while Paul Muniment, with his humorous density, which was deliberate, and clever too, not seeing, or at any rate not heeding, that she had been sufficiently snubbed by his sister, inflicted a fresh humiliation by saying, “Rosy’s right, my lady. It’s no use trying to buy yourself off. You can’t do enough; your sacrifices don’t count. You spoil your fun now, and you don’t get it made up to you later. To all you people nothing will ever be made up. Enjoy your privileges while they last; it may not be for long.”
The tight logic of this speech and the quirky calm with which the little bedridden speaker delivered it amazed Hyacinth and solidified his belief that the brother and sister were a truly remarkable duo. It had a devastating impact on poor Lady Aurora, who clearly didn’t expect such a harsh lesson from such a humble source and sought to escape her embarrassment with a series of confused laughs. Meanwhile, Paul Muniment, with his intentionally humorous yet clever obliviousness, didn’t notice or didn’t care that she had already been sufficiently put in her place by his sister, and added to her humiliation by saying, “Rosy’s right, my lady. There’s no point in trying to buy your way out. You can’t do enough; your sacrifices don’t mean anything. You ruin your fun now, and it won’t come back to you later. For all you people, nothing will ever be compensated. Enjoy your privileges while you can; it might not last long.”
Lady Aurora listened to him with her eyes on his face; and as they rested there Hyacinth scarcely knew what to make of her expression. Afterwards he thought he could attach a meaning to it. She got up quickly when Muniment had ceased speaking; the movement suggested that she had taken offence, and he would have liked to show her that he thought she had been rather roughly used. But she gave him no chance, not glancing at him for a moment. Then he saw that he was mistaken and that, if she had flushed considerably, it was only with the excitement of pleasure, the enjoyment of such original talk and of seeing her friends at last as free and familiar as she wished them to be. “You are the most delightful people—I wish every one could know you!” she broke out. “But I must really be going.” She went to the bed, and bent over Rosy and kissed her.
Lady Aurora listened to him, her gaze fixed on his face, and as she did, Hyacinth struggled to understand her expression. Later, he thought he could interpret it. She stood up quickly when Muniment stopped speaking; her movement made it seem like she was offended, and he wanted to show her that he thought she had been treated unfairly. But she didn’t give him a chance, not even glancing at him. Then he realized he was wrong, and that if she had flushed deeply, it was only from the thrill of enjoyment, from the pleasure of such unique conversation and finally seeing her friends as open and at ease as she wanted them to be. “You are the most delightful people—I wish everyone could know you!” she exclaimed. “But I really have to go.” She approached the bed, leaned over Rosy, and kissed her.
“Paul will see you as far as you like on your way home,” this young woman remarked.
“Paul will walk you as far as you want on your way home,” this young woman said.
Lady Aurora protested against this, but Paul, without protesting in return, only took up his hat and looked at her, smiling, as if he knew his duty; upon which her ladyship said, “Well, you may see me downstairs; I forgot it was so dark.”
Lady Aurora objected to this, but Paul, without arguing back, simply grabbed his hat and looked at her, smiling, as if he knew what he had to do. In response, she said, “Alright, you can walk me downstairs; I didn't realize it was so dark.”
“You must take her ladyship’s own candle, and you must call a cab,” Rosy directed.
“You need to grab her ladyship’s own candle, and you have to call a cab,” Rosy instructed.
“Oh, I don’t go in cabs. I walk.”
“Oh, I don’t take cabs. I walk.”
“Well, you may go on the top of a ’bus, if you like; you can’t help being superb,” Miss Muniment declared, watching her sympathetically.
“Well, you can sit on top of a bus if you want; you can’t help being amazing,” Miss Muniment said, watching her sympathetically.
“Superb? Oh, mercy!” cried the poor devoted, grotesque lady, leaving the room with Paul, who asked Hyacinth to wait for him a little. She neglected to bid good-night to our young man, and he asked himself what was to be hoped from that sort of people, when even the best of them—those that wished to be agreeable to the demos—reverted inevitably to the supercilious. She had said no more about lending him her books.
“Superb? Oh, goodness!” exclaimed the poor devoted, quirky lady, leaving the room with Paul, who asked Hyacinth to wait for him for a moment. She forgot to say goodnight to our young man, and he wondered what could be expected from people like that, when even the best of them—those who wanted to be nice to the demos
IX
“She lives in Belgrave Square; she has ever so many brothers and sisters; one of her sisters is married to Lord Warmington,” Rose Muniment instantly began, not apparently in the least discomposed at being left alone with a strange young man in a room which was now half dark again, thanks to her brother’s having carried off the second and more brilliant candle. She was so interested, for the time, in telling Hyacinth the history of Lady Aurora, that she appeared not to remember how little she knew about himself. Her ladyship had dedicated her life and her pocket-money to the poor and sick; she cared nothing for parties, and races, and dances, and picnics, and life in great houses, the usual amusements of the aristocracy; she was like one of the saints of old come to life again out of a legend. She had made their acquaintance, Paul’s and hers, about a year before, through a friend of theirs, such a fine, brave, young woman, who was in St Thomas’s Hospital for a surgical operation. She had been laid up there for weeks, during which Lady Aurora, always looking out for those who couldn’t help themselves, used to come and talk to her and read to her, till the end of her time in the ward, when the poor girl, parting with her kind friend, told her how she knew of another unfortunate creature (for whom there was no place there, because she was incurable) who would be mighty thankful for any little attention of that sort. She had given Lady Aurora the address in Audley Court, and the very next day her ladyship had knocked at their door. It wasn’t because she was poor—though in all conscience they were pinched enough—but because she had so little satisfaction in her limbs. Lady Aurora came very often, for several months, without meeting Paul, because he was always at his work; but one day he came home early, on purpose to find her, to thank her for her goodness, and also to see (Miss Muniment rather shyly intimated) whether she were really so good as his extravagant little sister made her out. Rosy had a triumph after that: Paul had to admit that her ladyship was beyond anything that any one in his waking senses would believe. She seemed to want to give up everything to those who were below her, and never to expect any thanks at all. And she wasn’t always preaching and showing you your duty; she wanted to talk to you sociable-like, as if you were just her own sister. And her own sisters were the highest in the land, and you might see her name in the newspapers the day they were presented to the Queen. Lady Aurora had been presented too, with feathers in her head and a long tail to her gown; but she had turned her back upon it all with a kind of terror—a sort of shivering, sinking feeling, which she had often described to Miss Muniment. The day she had first seen Paul was the day they became so intimate (the three of them together), if she might apply such a word as that to such a peculiar connection. The little woman, the little girl, as she lay there (Hyacinth scarcely knew how to characterise her), told our young man a very great secret, in which he found himself too much interested to think of criticising so headlong a burst of confidence. The secret was that, of all the people she had ever seen in the world, her ladyship thought Rosy’s Paul the very cleverest. And she had seen the greatest, the most famous, the brightest of every kind, for they all came to stay at Inglefield, thirty and forty of them at once. She had talked with them all and heard them say their best (and you could fancy how they would try to give it out at such a place as that, where there was nearly a mile of conservatories and a hundred wax candles were lighted at time), and at the end of it all she had made the remark to herself—and she had made it to Rosy too—that there was none of them had such a head on his shoulders as the young man in Audley Court. Rosy wouldn’t spread such a rumour as that in the court itself, but she wanted every friend of her brother’s (and she could see Hyacinth was that, by the way he listened) to know what was thought of him by them that had an experience of talent. She didn’t wish to give it out that her ladyship had lowered herself in any manner to a person that earned his bread in a dirty shop (clever as he might be), but it was easy to see she minded what he said as if he had been a bishop—or more, indeed, for she didn’t think much of bishops, any more than Paul himself, and that was an idea she had got from him. Oh, she took it none so ill if he came back from his work before she had gone; and to-night Hyacinth could see for himself how she had lingered. This evening, she was sure, her ladyship would let him walk home with her half the way. This announcement gave Hyacinth the prospect of a considerable session with his communicative hostess; but he was very glad to wait, for he was vaguely, strangely excited by her talk, fascinated by the little queer-smelling, high-perched interior, encumbered with relics, treasured and polished, of a poor north-country home, bedecked with penny ornaments and related in so unexpected a manner to Belgrave Square and the great landed estates. He spent half an hour with Paul Muniment’s small, odd, crippled, chattering, clever, trenchant sister, who gave him an impression of education and native wit (she expressed herself far better than Pinnie, or than Millicent Henning), and who startled, puzzled, and at the same time rather distressed, him by the manner in which she referred herself to the most abject class—the class that prostrated itself, that was in a fever and flutter in the presence of its betters. That was Pinnie’s attitude, of course; but Hyacinth had long ago perceived that his adoptive mother had generations of plebeian patience in her blood, and that though she had a tender soul she had not a great one. He was more entertained than afflicted, however, by Miss Muniment’s tone, and he was thrilled by the frequency and familiarity of her allusions to a kind of life he had often wondered about; this was the first time he had heard it described with that degree of authority. By the nature of his mind he was perpetually, almost morbidly, conscious that the circle in which he lived was an infinitesimally small, shallow eddy in the roaring vortex of London, and his imagination plunged again and again into the waves that whirled past it and round it, in the hope of being carried to some brighter, happier vision—the vision of societies in which, in splendid rooms, with smiles and soft voices, distinguished men, with women who were both proud and gentle, talked about art, literature and history. When Rosy had delivered herself to her complete satisfaction on the subject of Lady Aurora, she became more quiet, asking, as yet, however, no questions about Hyacinth, whom she seemed to take very much for granted. He presently remarked that she must let him come very soon again, and he added, to explain this wish, “You know you seem to me very curious people.”
“She lives in Belgrave Square; she has so many brothers and sisters; one of her sisters is married to Lord Warmington,” Rose Muniment immediately began, not seeming the least bit bothered by being left alone with a stranger in a room that was now half dark again, thanks to her brother taking the second, brighter candle. She was so engrossed in telling Hyacinth the story of Lady Aurora that she didn’t appear to remember how little she knew about him. Her ladyship had dedicated her life and her spending money to helping the poor and sick; she cared nothing for parties, races, dances, picnics, or life in grand houses—those usual pastimes of the upper class; she was like a saint from a story come back to life. She had met both Paul and Rosy about a year earlier through a brave young friend who was in St Thomas’s Hospital for surgery. She had been stuck there for weeks, during which Lady Aurora, always looking out for those who couldn’t care for themselves, would visit, talk, and read to her until her time in the ward was over. When the poor girl had to part with her kind friend, she mentioned another unfortunate soul (who had no place in the hospital because she was incurable) who would be very grateful for any little attention. She gave Lady Aurora the address in Audley Court, and the very next day, her ladyship knocked on their door. It wasn’t because they were poor—though they certainly were struggling—but because she had so little comfort in her limbs. Lady Aurora visited often for several months without running into Paul, since he was always at work; but one day he came home early, intending to find her, to thank her for her kindness, and also to see (Miss Muniment hinted slightly) whether she was really as good as his enthusiastic little sister claimed. Rosy had a triumph after that: Paul had to agree that her ladyship was beyond anything anyone in his right mind would believe. She seemed eager to give everything to those below her and never expected any thanks at all. Plus, she wasn’t constantly preaching or telling you what to do; she wanted to talk to you casually, like you were just her own sister. And her own sisters were the highest in society, and you could see her name in the news the day they were presented to the Queen. Lady Aurora had been presented too, adorned with feathers in her hair and wearing a long train on her gown; but she had turned away from it all with a kind of fear—a shivering, sinking feeling she had often described to Miss Muniment. The day she first met Paul was the day the three of them became close, if such a term could apply to their unique relationship. The little woman, the little girl, as she lay there (Hyacinth didn't really know how to describe her), shared a very big secret with him, which he found himself too interested in to think about criticizing such a sudden outpouring of trust. The secret was that, of everyone she had met in the world, her ladyship thought Rosy’s Paul was the cleverest. And she had seen the most famous and brightest individuals because they all came to stay at Inglefield, sometimes thirty or forty at once. She had talked with them all and heard them perform their best (imagine how they’d try to show off in a place like that, with nearly a mile of greenhouses and a hundred wax candles lit at a time), and at the end of it, she remarked to herself—and she had told Rosy too—that none of them had as sharp a mind as the young man in Audley Court. Rosy wouldn’t spread such gossip in the court itself, but she wanted every friend of her brother’s (and she could tell Hyacinth was one, by the way he listened) to know what those with experience of talent thought of him. She didn’t want to imply that her ladyship had lowered herself to someone who earned his living in a dirty shop (no matter how clever he might be), but it was clear she valued what he said as if he were a bishop—or even more, since she didn’t think much of bishops, just like Paul himself, and that was an idea she had picked up from him. Oh, she didn’t mind at all if he came back from work before she had left; and tonight, Hyacinth could see for himself how she had lingered. This evening, she was sure her ladyship would let him walk her part of the way home. This invitation gave Hyacinth the chance for a nice chat with his open-hearted host; he was very happy to wait, as he felt oddly and intensely drawn to her conversation, captivated by her quaint, oddly scented, high-up home, filled with trinkets, kept and polished, from a modest northern background, yet unexpectedly linked to Belgrave Square and grand estates. He spent half an hour with Paul Muniment’s small, odd, disabled, chattering, clever, sharp-tongued sister, who gave him the impression of being educated and witty (she expressed herself far better than Pinnie or Millicent Henning), and who startled, puzzled, and somewhat distressed him with how she referred to herself as part of the most downtrodden class—the class that bowed down, that was in a frenzy and flutter in the presence of those above it. That was Pinnie’s attitude, of course; but Hyacinth had long realized that his adoptive mother had generations of working-class patience in her blood, and though she had a gentle heart, she didn’t have a large one. However, he was more entertained than troubled by Miss Muniment’s tone, and he was thrilled by how frequently she alluded to a kind of life he had often wondered about; this was the first time he had heard it described with such authority. By the nature of his mind, he was constantly, almost obsessively, aware that the circle he lived in was a minuscule, shallow eddy in the swirling chaos of London, and his imagination repeatedly dove into the waves that rushed past it and around it, hoping to be carried to a brighter, happier vision—the vision of societies where, in splendid rooms, with smiles and soft voices, distinguished men talked about art, literature, and history with proud and graceful women. When Rosy had expressed herself fully regarding Lady Aurora, she became quieter, not yet asking anything about Hyacinth, whom she seemed to assume was just there. He soon remarked that she must let him come back very soon, and he added, to clarify his desire, “You know, you seem to me very curious people.”
Miss Muniment did not in the least repudiate the imputation. “Oh yes, I dare say we seem very curious. I think we are generally thought so; especially me, being so miserable and yet so lively.” And she laughed till her bed creaked again.
Miss Muniment didn’t at all deny the accusation. “Oh yes, I suppose we do seem quite curious. I think that’s how people generally see us; especially me, being so unhappy yet so full of life.” And she laughed until her bed creaked again.
“Perhaps it’s lucky you are ill; perhaps if you had your health you would be all over the place,” Hyacinth suggested. And he went on, candidly, “I can’t make it out, your being so up in everything.”
“Maybe it’s a good thing you’re sick; if you were healthy, you might be everywhere at once,” Hyacinth suggested. Then he added, honestly, “I just can’t understand why you’re so into everything.”
“I don’t see why you need make it out! But you would, perhaps, if you had known my father and mother.”
“I don’t see why you need to act like that! But you might, maybe, if you had known my dad and mom.”
“Were they such a rare lot?”
“Were they really that rare?”
“I think you would say so if you had ever been in the mines. Yes, in the mines, where the filthy coal is dug out. That’s where my father came from—he was working in the pit when he was a child of ten. He never had a day’s schooling in his life; but he climbed up out of his black hole into daylight and air, and he invented a machine, and he married my mother, who came out of Durham, and (by her people) out of the pits and misery too. My father had no great figure, but she was magnificent—the finest woman in the country, and the bravest, and the best. She’s in her grave now, and I couldn’t go to look at it even if it were in the nearest churchyard. My father was as black as the coal he worked in: I know I’m just his pattern, barring that he did have his legs, when the liquor hadn’t got into them. But between him and my mother, for grand, high intelligence there wasn’t much to choose. But what’s the use of brains if you haven’t got a backbone? My poor father had even less of that than I, for with me it’s only the body that can’t stand up, and with him it was the spirit. He discovered a kind of wheel, and he sold it, at Bradford, for fifteen pounds: I mean the whole right of it, and every hope and pride of his family. He was always straying, and my mother was always bringing him back. She had plenty to do, with me a puny, ailing brat from the moment I opened my eyes. Well, one night he strayed so far that he never came back; or only came back a loose, bloody bundle of clothes. He had fallen into a gravel-pit; he didn’t know where he was going. That’s the reason my brother will never touch so much as you could wet your finger with, and that I only have a drop once a week or so, in the way of a strengthener. I take what her ladyship brings me, but I take no more. If she could have come to us before my mother went, that would have been a saving! I was only nine when my father died, and I’m three years older than Paul. My mother did for us with all her might, and she kept us decent—if such a useless little mess as me can be said to be decent. At any rate, she kept me alive, and that’s a proof she was handy. She went to the wash-tub, and she might have been a queen, as she stood there with her bare arms in the foul linen and her long hair braided on her head. She was terrible handsome, but he would have been a bold man that would have taken upon himself to tell her so. And it was from her we got our education—she was determined we should rise above the common. You might have thought, in her position, that she couldn’t go into such things; but she was a rare one for keeping you at your book. She could hold to her idea when my poor father couldn’t; and her idea, for us, was that Paul should get learning and should look after me. You can see for yourself that that’s what has come about. How he got it is more than I can say, as we never had a penny to pay for it; and of course my mother’s cleverness wouldn’t have been of much use if he hadn’t been clever himself. Well, it was all in the family. Paul was a boy that would learn more from a yellow placard pasted on a wall, or a time-table at a railway station, than many a young fellow from a year at college. That was his only college, poor lad—picking up what he could. Mother was taken when she was still needed, nearly five years ago. There was an epidemic of typhoid, and of course it must pass me over, the goose of a thing—only that I’d have made a poor feast—and just lay that gallant creature on her back. Well, she never again made it ache over her soapsuds, straight and broad as it was. Not having seen her, you wouldn’t believe,” said Rose Muniment, in conclusion; “but I just wanted you to understand that our parents had intellect, at least, to give us.”
“I think you’d agree if you had ever been in the mines. Yes, in the mines, where the dirty coal is dug out. That’s where my father came from—he was working in the pit when he was just ten years old. He never had a day of schooling in his life, but he climbed out of his dark hole into the light and fresh air, invented a machine, and married my mother, who came from Durham and (through her family) also came out of the pits and hardship. My father didn’t have a grand appearance, but she was stunning—the finest woman in the country, and the bravest, and the best. She’s in her grave now, and I couldn’t visit it even if it were in the closest churchyard. My father was as dark as the coal he worked with: I know I’m just like him, except that he could stand on his legs, when the drink hadn’t gotten to him. But between him and my mother, there wasn’t much difference in their brilliance. But what’s the point of being smart if you lack strength? My poor father had even less of that than I do; with me, it’s just the body that can’t stand up, and with him, it was the spirit. He invented a kind of wheel and sold it in Bradford for fifteen pounds: I mean the whole right to it, along with every hope and pride of his family. He was always wandering off, and my mother was always bringing him back. She had a lot on her plate, with me being a tiny, sickly kid from the moment I opened my eyes. One night, he wandered off so far that he never returned; or only came back as a loose, bloody bundle of clothes. He fell into a gravel pit; he didn’t know where he was headed. That’s why my brother will never touch even a drop, and I only have a little once a week or so, just as a pick-me-up. I take what her ladyship brings me, but nothing more. If she could have arrived before my mother passed away, it would have helped! I was only nine when my father died, and I’m three years older than Paul. My mother did everything she could for us, and she kept us respectable—if such a useless little mess as me can be called respectable. At least she kept me alive, and that shows she was resourceful. She worked at the wash-tub, and she could have been a queen, standing there with her bare arms in the dirty laundry and her long hair braided on her head. She was incredibly beautiful, but it would have taken a brave man to tell her so. And it was from her that we got our education—she was determined we should rise above the ordinary. You might have thought that, in her position, she couldn’t pursue such things; but she was truly devoted to making sure we stayed on top of our studies. She could hold onto her vision when my poor father couldn’t; and her vision for us was that Paul should get an education and look after me. You can see for yourself that’s what happened. How he managed it is beyond me, since we never had a penny to pay for it; and, of course, my mother’s cleverness wouldn’t have mattered much if he hadn’t been smart himself. Well, it was all in the family. Paul was a boy who would learn more from a yellow poster on a wall or a train schedule than many a young fellow would learn in a year at college. That was his only college, poor lad—gathering whatever he could. Mother passed away when she was still needed, nearly five years ago. There was a typhoid epidemic, and of course it had to miss me, that silly thing—only because I wouldn’t have made a good feast—and just left that brave woman lying on her back. Well, she never again made it ache from her soapsuds, straight and broad as it was. If you hadn’t seen her, you wouldn’t believe,” said Rose Muniment, concluding; “but I just wanted you to know that our parents had intellect, at least, to give us.”
Hyacinth listened to this recital with the deepest interest, and without being in the least moved to allow for filial exaggeration; inasmuch as his impression of the brother and sister was such as it would have taken a much more marvellous tale to account for. The very way Rose Muniment sounded the word ‘intellect’ made him feel this; she pronounced it as if she were distributing prizes for a high degree of it. No doubt the tipsy inventor and the regal laundress had been fine specimens, but that didn’t diminish the merit of their highly original offspring. The girl’s insistence upon her mother’s virtues (even now that her age had become more definite to him he thought of her as a girl) touched in his heart a chord that was always ready to throb—the chord of melancholy, bitter, aimless wonder as to the difference it would have made in his spirit if there had been some pure, honourable figure like that to shed her influence over it.
Hyacinth listened to this account with great interest, not at all swayed by any sense of family bias; his impression of the brother and sister was such that it would take an even more incredible story to explain. The way Rose Muniment emphasized the word ‘intellect’ made him feel this; she said it as if she were handing out awards for excellence in it. Sure, the tipsy inventor and the dignified laundress had been interesting characters, but that didn’t take away from the brilliance of their uniquely talented child. The girl's emphasis on her mother's qualities (even now that her age felt clearer to him, he still thought of her as a girl) struck a chord in his heart that was always ready to resonate—the chord of melancholy, bitter, aimless wonder about how much of a difference a pure, honorable figure like that could have made on his own spirit.
“Are you very fond of your brother?” he inquired, after a little.
“Do you really care about your brother?” he asked after a moment.
The eyes of his hostess glittered at him for a moment. “If you ever quarrel with him, you’ll see whose side I’ll take.”
The eyes of his hostess sparkled at him for a moment. “If you ever fight with him, you’ll see whose side I’ll be on.”
“Ah, before that I shall make you like me.”
“Ah, before that I will make you like me.”
“That’s very possible, and you’ll see how I’ll fling you over!”
“That’s totally possible, and you’ll see how I’ll throw you over!”
“Why, then, do you object so to his views—his ideas about the way the people will come up?”
“Why, then, do you object so much to his views—his ideas about how people will rise up?”
“Because I think he’ll get over them.”
“Because I think he’ll move past them.”
“Never—never!” cried Hyacinth. “I have only known him an hour or two, but I deny that, with all my strength.”
“Never—never!” shouted Hyacinth. “I’ve only known him for an hour or two, but I refuse that, with all my strength.”
“Is that the way you are going to make me like you—contradicting me so?” Miss Muniment inquired, with familiar archness.
“Is that how you're going to get me to like you—by contradicting me like that?” Miss Muniment asked, with a playful tone.
“What’s the use, when you tell me I shall be sacrificed? One might as well perish for a lamb as for a sheep.”
“What’s the point in telling me I’m going to be sacrificed? I might as well die for a lamb as for a sheep.”
“I don’t believe you’re a lamb at all. Certainly you are not, if you want all the great people pulled down, and the most dreadful scenes enacted.”
“I don’t believe you’re innocent at all. You definitely aren’t, if you want all the great people brought down, and the most horrific events to take place.”
“Don’t you believe in human equality? Don’t you want anything done for the groaning, toiling millions—those who have been cheated and crushed and bamboozled from the beginning of time?”
“Don’t you believe in human equality? Don’t you want anything to be done for the struggling, working millions—those who have been cheated, oppressed, and deceived since the dawn of time?”
Hyacinth asked this question with considerable heat, but the effect of it was to send his companion off into a new fit of laughter. “You say that just like a man that my brother described to me three days ago; a little man at some club, whose hair stood up—Paul imitated the way he glowered and screamed. I don’t mean that you scream, you know; but you use almost the same words that he did.” Hyacinth scarcely knew what to make of this allusion, or of the picture offered to him of Paul Muniment casting ridicule upon those who spoke in the name of the down-trodden. But Rosy went on, before he had time to do more than reflect that there would evidently be a great deal more to learn about her brother: “I haven’t the least objection to seeing the people improved, but I don’t want to see the aristocracy lowered an inch. I like so much to look at it up there.”
Hyacinth asked this question with a lot of intensity, but it made his companion burst into a fresh fit of laughter. “You sound just like a guy my brother told me about three days ago; a little guy at some club whose hair was all standing up—Paul mimicked the way he scowled and shouted. I don’t mean that you shout, you know; but you use almost the same words he did.” Hyacinth barely knew how to react to this reference, or to the image of Paul Muniment mocking those who spoke for the oppressed. But Rosy continued before he could think too much about the fact that there was obviously a lot more to understand about her brother: “I don’t have any problem with improving people's lives, but I don’t want to see the aristocracy brought down even a little. I enjoy looking at it from up there.”
“You ought to know my aunt Pinnie—she’s just such another benighted idolater!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“You should really meet my Aunt Pinnie—she’s such a clueless worshipper!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Oh, you are making me like you very fast! And pray, who is your aunt Pinnie?”
“Oh, you’re making me like you really quickly! And by the way, who is your Aunt Pinnie?”
“She’s a dressmaker, and a charming little woman. I should like her to come and see you.”
“She’s a dressmaker and a lovely little woman. I’d like her to come and see you.”
“I’m afraid I’m not in her line—I never had on a dress in my life. But, as a charming woman, I should be delighted to see her.”
“I’m sorry, but I’m not really her type—I’ve never worn a dress in my life. However, as a charming woman, I would be happy to meet her.”
“I will bring her some day,” said Hyacinth. And then he added, rather incongruously, for he was irritated by the girl’s optimism, thinking it a shame that her sharpness should be enlisted on the wrong side, “Don’t you want, for yourself, a better place to live in?”
“I'll bring her someday,” said Hyacinth. Then he added, somewhat out of place, since he was annoyed by the girl's optimism and thought it was a pity her cleverness was used for the wrong purpose, “Don’t you want a better place to live for yourself?”
She jerked herself up, and for a moment he thought she would jump out of her bed at him. “A better place than this? Pray, how could there be a better place? Every one thinks it’s lovely; you should see our view by daylight—you should see everything I’ve got. Perhaps you are used to something very fine, but Lady Aurora says that in all Belgrave Square there isn’t such a cosy little room. If you think I’m not perfectly content, you are very much mistaken!”
She sat up abruptly, and for a moment, he thought she might leap out of bed at him. “A better place than this? Seriously, how could there be a better place? Everyone thinks it’s great; you should see our view in the daytime—you should see everything I have. Maybe you’re used to something really fancy, but Lady Aurora says there isn’t a cozier little room in all of Belgrave Square. If you think I’m not completely happy, you’re very much mistaken!”
Such a sentiment as that could only exasperate Hyacinth, and his exasperation made him indifferent to the fact that he had appeared to cast discredit on Miss Muniment’s apartment. Pinnie herself, submissive as she was, had spared him that sort of displeasure; she groaned over the dinginess of Lomax Place sufficiently to remind him that she had not been absolutely stultified by misery. “Don’t you sometimes make your brother very angry?” he asked, smiling, of Rose Muniment.
Such a feeling could only frustrate Hyacinth, and his frustration made him ignore the fact that he seemed to undermine Miss Muniment’s apartment. Pinnie, for her part, even though she was compliant, had saved him from that kind of annoyance; she complained about the drabness of Lomax Place enough to remind him that she hadn’t been completely numbed by despair. “Don’t you ever make your brother really mad?” he asked, smiling, at Rose Muniment.
“Angry? I don’t know what you take us for! I never saw him lose his temper in his life.”
“Angry? I don’t know what you think we are! I’ve never seen him lose his cool in his life.”
“He must be a rum customer! Doesn’t he really care for—for what we were talking about?”
“He must be a strange guy! Doesn’t he really care about—about what we were discussing?”
For a moment Rosy was silent; then she replied, “What my brother really cares for—well, one of these days, when you know, you’ll tell me.”
For a moment, Rosy was quiet; then she responded, “What my brother really cares about—well, someday, when you know, you’ll tell me.”
Hyacinth stared. “But isn’t he tremendously deep in—” He hesitated.
Hyacinth stared. “But isn’t he really deep in—” He hesitated.
“Deep in what?”
"Deep in what, exactly?"
“Well, in what’s going on, beneath the surface. Doesn’t he belong to things?”
“Well, with everything happening beneath the surface. Doesn’t he belong to something?”
“I’m sure I don’t know what he belongs to—you may ask him!” cried Rosy, laughing gaily again, as the opening door readmitted the subject of their conversation. “You must have crossed the water with her ladyship,” she went on. “I wonder who enjoyed their walk most.”
“I have no idea what he’s into—you can ask him!” Rosy exclaimed, laughing cheerfully again as the door swung open and let back in the topic of their discussion. “You must have crossed the water with her ladyship,” she continued. “I wonder who had the better time on their walk.”
“She’s a handy old girl, and she has a goodish stride,” said the young man.
“She’s a reliable old girl, and she has a pretty good stride,” said the young man.
“I think she’s in love with you, simply, Mr Muniment.”
“I think she's in love with you, plain and simple, Mr. Muniment.”
“Really, my dear, for an admirer of the aristocracy you allow yourself a license,” Paul murmured, smiling at Hyacinth.
“Honestly, my dear, for someone who admires the aristocracy, you give yourself quite a bit of freedom,” Paul murmured with a smile at Hyacinth.
Hyacinth got up, feeling that really he had paid a long visit; his curiosity was far from satisfied, but there was a limit to the time one should spend in a young lady’s sleeping apartment. “Perhaps she is; why not?” he remarked.
Hyacinth got up, feeling like he had overstayed his welcome; his curiosity was still not satisfied, but there’s only so much time you should spend in a young lady’s bedroom. “Maybe she is; why not?” he said.
“Perhaps she is, then; she’s daft enough for anything.”
“Maybe she is; she’s crazy enough for anything.”
“There have been fine folks before who have patted the people on the back and pretended to enter into their life,” Hyacinth said. “Is she only playing with that idea, or is she in earnest?”
“There have been great people before who have patted others on the back and pretended to connect with their lives,” Hyacinth said. “Is she just toying with that idea, or is she serious?”
“In earnest—in terrible earnest, my dear fellow. I think she must be rather crowded out at home.”
“In all seriousness—really serious, my dear friend. I think she must feel quite overwhelmed at home.”
“Crowded out of Inglefield? Why, there’s room for three hundred!” Rosy broke in.
“Crowded out of Inglefield? Come on, there’s room for three hundred!” Rosy interrupted.
“Well, if that’s the kind of mob that’s in possession, no wonder she prefers Camberwell. We must be kind to the poor lady,” Paul added, in a tone which Hyacinth noticed. He attributed a remarkable meaning to it; it seemed to say that people such as he were now so sure of their game that they could afford to be magnanimous; or else it expressed a prevision of the doom which hung over her ladyship’s head. Muniment asked if Hyacinth and Rosy had made friends, and the girl replied that Mr Robinson had made himself very agreeable. “Then you must tell me all about him after he goes, for you know I don’t know him much myself,” said her brother.
“Well, if that’s the kind of crowd that’s around, it’s no surprise she prefers Camberwell. We should be nice to the poor lady,” Paul added, in a tone that Hyacinth picked up on. He found it quite significant; it seemed to imply that people like him were now so confident in their status that they could afford to be generous; or maybe it hinted at the trouble that was looming over her ladyship. Muniment asked if Hyacinth and Rosy had hit it off, and the girl replied that Mr. Robinson had been quite pleasant. “Then you have to tell me all about him after he leaves, because you know I don’t know him well myself,” her brother said.
“Oh yes, I’ll tell you everything; you know how I like describing.”
“Oh yeah, I’ll tell you everything; you know how much I enjoy describing things.”
Hyacinth was laughing to himself at the young lady’s account of his efforts to please her, the fact being that he had only listened to her own eager discourse, without opening his mouth; but Paul, whether or no he guessed the truth, said to him very pertinently, “It’s very wonderful: she can describe things she has never seen. And they are just like the reality.”
Hyacinth was chuckling to himself at the young lady’s story about his attempts to impress her, when in reality he had just listened to her enthusiastic talk without saying a word. However, Paul, whether or not he knew the truth, pointed out to him, “It’s quite amazing: she can describe things she’s never seen. And they’re just like the real thing.”
“There’s nothing I’ve never seen,” Rosy rejoined. “That’s the advantage of my lying here in such a manner. I see everything in the world.”
“There’s nothing I haven’t seen,” Rosy replied. “That’s the benefit of lying here like this. I see everything in the world.”
“You don’t seem to see your brother’s meetings—his secret societies and clubs. You put that aside when I asked you.”
“You don’t seem to notice your brother’s meetings—his secret clubs and societies. You brushed that off when I brought it up.”
“Oh, you mustn’t ask her that sort of thing,” said Paul, lowering at Hyacinth with a fierce frown—an expression which he perceived in a moment to be humorously assumed.
“Oh, you shouldn’t ask her that kind of thing,” Paul said, looking at Hyacinth with a fierce frown—an expression he quickly realized was playfully put on.
“What am I to do, then, since you won’t tell me anything definite yourself?”
“What am I supposed to do now if you won't tell me anything clear?”
“It will be definite enough when you get hanged for it!” Rosy exclaimed, mockingly.
“It will be clear enough when you get hung for it!” Rosy exclaimed, teasingly.
“Why do you want to poke your head into black holes?” Muniment asked, laying his hand on Hyacinth’s shoulder, and shaking it gently.
“Why do you want to stick your head into black holes?” Muniment asked, putting his hand on Hyacinth’s shoulder and shaking it gently.
“Don’t you belong to the party of action?” said Hyacinth, solemnly.
“Don’t you belong to the party of action?” Hyacinth said seriously.
“Look at the way he has picked up all the silly bits of catchwords!” Paul cried, laughing, to his sister. “You must have got that precious phrase out of the newspapers, out of some drivelling leader. Is that the party you want to belong to?” he went on, with his clear eyes ranging over his diminutive friend.
“Look at how he's picked up all these silly buzzwords!” Paul exclaimed, laughing, to his sister. “You must have gotten that precious phrase from the newspapers, from some ridiculous editorial. Is that the group you want to join?” he continued, his clear eyes scanning his tiny friend.
“If you’ll show me the thing itself I shall have no more occasion to mind the newspapers,” Hyacinth pleaded. It was his view of himself, and it was not an unfair one, that his was a character that would never beg for a favour; but now he felt that in any relation he might have with Paul Muniment such a law would be suspended. This man he could entreat, pray to, go on his knees to, without a sense of humiliation.
“If you show me the thing itself, I won’t need to pay attention to the newspapers anymore,” Hyacinth begged. He believed, and it wasn't an unfair judgment, that he had a character that would never ask for a favor; but now he felt that in any relationship he might have with Paul Muniment, that principle would be put on hold. This was a man he could beg, plead with, even go on his knees to, without feeling humiliated.
“What thing do you mean, infatuated, deluded youth?” Paul went on, refusing to be serious.
“What do you mean, lovesick, confused kid?” Paul continued, not wanting to be serious.
“Well, you know you do go to places you had far better keep out of, and that often when I lie here and listen to steps on the stairs I’m sure they are coming in to make a search for your papers,” Miss Muniment lucidly interposed.
“Well, you know you go to places you should really avoid, and often when I lie here and hear footsteps on the stairs, I’m convinced they’re coming in to search for your papers,” Miss Muniment clearly added.
“The day they find my papers, my dear, will be the day you’ll get up and dance.”
“The day they find my papers, my dear, will be the day you get up and dance.”
“What did you ask me to come home with you for?” Hyacinth demanded, twirling his hat. It was an effort for him, for a moment, to keep the tears out of his eyes; he found himself forced to put such a different construction on his new friend’s hospitality. He had had a happy impression that Muniment perceived in him a possible associate, of a high type, in a subterranean crusade against the existing order of things, and now it came over him that the real use he had been put to was to beguile an hour for a pert invalid. That was all very well, and he would sit by Miss Rosy’s bedside, were it a part of his service, every day in the week; only in such a case it should be his reward to enjoy the confidence of her brother. This young man, at the present juncture, justified the high estimate that Lady Aurora Langrish had formed of his intelligence: whatever his natural reply to Hyacinth’s question would have been, he invented, at the moment, a better one, and said, at random, smiling, and not knowing exactly what his visitor had meant—
“What did you invite me to come home with you for?” Hyacinth asked, twirling his hat. It was hard for him, for a moment, to hold back his tears; he found himself having to think of his new friend’s hospitality in a very different way. He had thought that Muniment saw in him a potential ally, someone important, in a hidden fight against the current way of things, and now he realized that his real purpose had been to entertain a cheeky invalid for a while. That was fine, and he would gladly sit by Miss Rosy’s bedside every day if that was part of his role; still, in that case, he expected to earn the trust of her brother. This young man, at that moment, proved the high opinion that Lady Aurora Langrish had formed of his smarts: whatever his instinctive response to Hyacinth’s question would have been, he came up with a better one on the spot, smiled, and said, without really knowing what his visitor meant—
“What did I ask you to come with me for? To see if you would be afraid.”
“What did I ask you to come with me for? To see if you'd be scared.”
What there was to be afraid of was to Hyacinth a quantity equally vague; but he rejoined, quickly enough, “I think you have only to try me to see.”
What Hyacinth found frightening was just as unclear; but he quickly replied, “I think you just need to give me a chance to prove it.”
“I’m sure if you introduce him to some of your low, wicked friends, he’ll be quite satisfied after he has looked round a bit,” Miss Muniment remarked, irrepressibly.
“I’m sure if you introduce him to some of your shady, wicked friends, he’ll be pretty satisfied after he checks things out a bit,” Miss Muniment said, unable to hold back.
“Those are just the kind of people I want to know,” said Hyacinth, ingenuously.
“Those are exactly the kind of people I want to know,” said Hyacinth, genuinely.
His ingenuousness appeared to touch Paul Muniment. “Well, I see you’re a good ’un. Just meet me some night.”
His sincerity seemed to affect Paul Muniment. “Well, I see you’re a good one. Just meet me some night.”
“Where, where?” asked Hyacinth, eagerly.
“Where, where?” asked Hyacinth, excitedly.
“Oh, I’ll tell you where when we get away from her,” said his friend, laughing, but leading him out of the room again.
“Oh, I’ll tell you where when we get away from her,” said his friend, laughing, but leading him out of the room again.
X
Several months after Hyacinth had made the acquaintance of Paul Muniment, Millicent Henning remarked to him that it was high time he should take her to some place of amusement. He proposed the Canterbury Music Hall; whereupon she tossed her head and affirmed that when a young lady had done for a young man what she had done for him, the least he could do was to take her to some theatre in the Strand. Hyacinth would have been a good deal at a loss to say exactly what she had done for him, but it was familiar to him by this time that she regarded him as under great obligations. From the day she came to look him up in Lomax Place she had taken a position, largely, in his life, and he had seen poor Pinnie’s wan countenance grow several degrees more blank. Amanda Pynsent’s forebodings had been answered to the letter; that bold-faced apparition had become a permanent influence. She never spoke to him about Millicent but once, several weeks after her interview with the girl; and this was not in a tone of rebuke, for she had divested herself for ever of any maternal prerogative. Tearful, tremulous, deferential inquiry was now her only weapon, and nothing could be more humble and circumspect than the manner in which she made use of it. He was never at home of an evening, at present, and he had mysterious ways of spending his Sundays, with which church-going had nothing to do. The time had been when, often, after tea, he sat near the lamp with the dressmaker, and, while her fingers flew, read out to her the works of Dickens and of Scott; happy hours when he appeared to have forgotten the wrong she had done him and she almost forgot it herself. But now he gulped down his tea so fast that he hardly took off his hat while he sat there, and Pinnie, with her quick eye for all matters of costume, noticed that he wore it still more gracefully askew than usual, with a little victorious, exalted air. He hummed to himself; he fingered his moustache; he looked out of the window when there was nothing to look at; he seemed pre-occupied, absorbed in intellectual excursions, half anxious and half delighted. During the whole winter Miss Pynsent explained everything by three words murmured beneath her breath: “That forward jade!” On the single occasion, however, on which she sought relief from her agitation in an appeal to Hyacinth, she did not trust herself to designate the girl by any epithet or title.
Several months after Hyacinth met Paul Muniment, Millicent Henning told him it was about time he took her somewhere fun. He suggested the Canterbury Music Hall, to which she tossed her head and insisted that after everything she had done for him, he could at least take her to a theater in the Strand. Hyacinth would have struggled to recall exactly what she had done for him, but he was now well aware that she saw him as being heavily indebted to her. From the day she came to find him in Lomax Place, she had established herself as a significant presence in his life, and he had noticed poor Pinnie’s expression grow increasingly blank. Amanda Pynsent’s worries had been confirmed; that bold-faced presence had become a lasting influence. She only mentioned Millicent to him once, several weeks after her first meeting with the girl, and it wasn't in a tone of reproach since she had completely stripped herself of any maternal authority. Tearful, shaky, respectful inquiries were all she had left, and she approached them in the most humble and cautious way. He was hardly ever home in the evenings now, and he had mysterious ways of spending his Sundays that had nothing to do with church. There was a time when he often sat near the lamp with the dressmaker after tea, while she worked quickly, reading her the works of Dickens and Scott; those were happy hours when he seemed to have forgotten the wrong she had done him, and she nearly forgot it too. But now he gulped down his tea so quickly that he barely removed his hat while sitting there, and Pinnie, with her keen eye for fashion, noticed that he wore it even more stylishly askew than usual, with a bit of a triumphant, elevated air. He hummed to himself, fiddled with his mustache, and stared out the window at nothing in particular; he seemed preoccupied, lost in thought, half anxious and half pleased. Throughout the entire winter, Miss Pynsent explained everything with three words whispered under her breath: “That forward jade!” However, on the one occasion she sought relief from her agitation by talking to Hyacinth, she didn't dare to label the girl with any name or title.
“There is only one thing I want to know,” she said to him, in a manner which might have seemed casual if in her silence, knowing her as well as he did, he had not already perceived the implication of her thought. “Does she expect you to marry her, dearest?”
“There’s just one thing I want to know,” she told him, in a way that might have seemed casual if he hadn't already picked up on what she was really thinking from her silence, knowing her as well as he did. “Does she expect you to marry her, darling?”
“Does who expect me? I should like to see the woman who does!”
“Who expects me? I’d like to see the woman who does!”
“Of course you know who I mean. The one that came after you—and picked you right up—from the other end of London.” And at the remembrance of that insufferable scene poor Pinnie flamed up for a moment. “Isn’t there plenty of young fellows down in that low part where she lives, without her ravaging over here? Why can’t she stick to her own beat, I should like to know?” Hyacinth had flushed at this inquiry, and she saw something in his face which made her change her tone. “Just promise me this, my precious child: that if you get into any sort of mess with that piece you’ll immediately confide it to your poor old Pinnie.”
“Of course you know who I’m talking about. The one who came after you—and picked you right up—from the other end of London.” At the memory of that dreadful scene, poor Pinnie got a bit heated for a moment. “Aren’t there plenty of young guys down in that rundown area where she lives, without her coming over here? Why can’t she just stick to her own territory, I wonder?” Hyacinth blushed at this question, and she noticed something in his expression that made her change her tone. “Just promise me this, my dear child: that if you get into any sort of trouble with that girl, you’ll immediately tell your poor old Pinnie.”
“My poor old Pinnie sometimes makes me quite sick,” Hyacinth remarked, for answer. “What sort of a mess do you suppose I’ll get into?”
“My poor old Pinnie sometimes makes me feel really sick,” Hyacinth said in response. “What kind of trouble do you think I'll get into?”
“Well, suppose she does come it over you that you promised to marry her?”
“Well, what if she says that you promised to marry her?”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about. She doesn’t want to marry any one to-day.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about. She doesn’t want to marry anyone today.”
“Then what does she want to do?”
“Then what does she want to do?”
“Do you imagine I would tell a lady’s secrets?” the young man inquired.
“Do you think I would share a lady’s secrets?” the young man asked.
“Dear me, if she was a lady, I shouldn’t be afraid!” said Pinnie.
“Wow, if she was a lady, I wouldn’t be scared!” said Pinnie.
“Every woman’s a lady when she has placed herself under one’s protection,” Hyacinth rejoined, with his little manner of a man of the world.
“Every woman’s a lady when she has put herself under someone’s protection,” Hyacinth replied, with his slightly sophisticated demeanor.
“Under your protection? Laws!” cried Pinnie, staring. “And pray, who’s to protect you?”
“Under your protection? Laws!” exclaimed Pinnie, staring. “And tell me, who’s going to protect you?”
As soon as she had said this she repented, because it seemed just the sort of exclamation that would have made Hyacinth bite her head off. One of the things she loved him for, however, was that he gave you touching surprises in this line, had sudden inconsistencies of temper that were all for your advantage. He was by no means always mild when he ought to have been, but he was sometimes so when there was no obligation. At such moments Pinnie wanted to kiss him, and she had often tried to make Mr Vetch understand what a fascinating trait of character this was on the part of their young friend. It was rather difficult to describe, and Mr Vetch never would admit that he understood, or that he had observed anything that seemed to correspond to the dressmaker’s somewhat confused psychological sketch. It was a comfort to her in these days, and almost the only one she had, that she was sure Anastasius Vetch understood a good deal more than he felt bound to acknowledge. He was always up to his old game of being a great deal cleverer than cleverness itself required; and it consoled her present weak, pinched feeling to know that, although he still talked of the boy as if it would be a pity to take him too seriously, that wasn’t the way he thought of him. He also took him seriously, and he had even a certain sense of duty in regard to him. Miss Pynsent went so far as to say to herself that the fiddler probably had savings, and that no one had ever known of any one else belonging to him. She wouldn’t have mentioned it to Hyacinth for the world, for fear of leading up to a disappointment; but she had visions of a foolscap sheet, folded away in some queer little bachelor’s box (she couldn’t fancy what men kept in such places), on which Hyacinth’s name would have been written down, in very big letters, before a solicitor.
As soon as she said this, she regretted it, because it seemed like the kind of comment that would make Hyacinth really angry. One of the things she loved about him, though, was that he often surprised her with emotional moments; he had sudden mood swings that ended up working in her favor. He wasn’t always gentle when he should have been, but sometimes he was unexpectedly nice when there was no reason for it. In those moments, Pinnie felt like kissing him, and she had often tried to explain to Mr. Vetch how charming this quality was in their young friend. It was a bit tricky to describe, and Mr. Vetch would never admit that he understood or that he noticed anything that matched the dressmaker’s somewhat muddled psychological profile. It was comforting to her these days, and almost the only thing that brought her comfort, to know that Anastasius Vetch understood a lot more than he let on. He always played the role of being much smarter than he needed to be, and it eased her current fragile, tense feelings to realize that, even though he still spoke of the boy as if it would be a shame to take him too seriously, that wasn’t truly how he regarded him. He did take him seriously, and he even felt a sense of responsibility toward him. Miss Pynsent went so far as to tell herself that the fiddler probably had savings and that no one ever knew of anyone else connected to him. She wouldn’t have dared mention it to Hyacinth for fear of creating disappointment, but she pictured a sheet of paper, folded away in some odd little bachelor’s box (she couldn’t imagine what men kept in such places), with Hyacinth's name written in big letters, before a lawyer.
“Oh, I’m unprotected, in the nature of things,” he replied, smiling at his too scrupulous companion. Then he added, “At any rate, it isn’t from that girl any danger will come to me.”
“Oh, I’m exposed, it’s just how things are,” he replied, smiling at his overly cautious companion. Then he added, “In any case, I’m not worried about that girl causing me any trouble.”
“I can’t think why you like her,” Pinnie remarked, as if she had spent on the subject treasures of impartiality.
“I can’t understand why you like her,” Pinnie said, as if she had invested a lot of unbiased thought into the topic.
“It’s jolly to hear one woman on the subject of another,” Hyacinth said. “You’re kind and good, and yet you’re ready—” He gave a philosophic sigh.
“It’s great to hear one woman talk about another,” Hyacinth said. “You’re kind and good, and yet you’re ready—” He let out a thoughtful sigh.
“Well, what am I ready to do? I’m not ready to see you gobbled up before my eyes!”
“Well, what am I supposed to do? I’m not going to watch you get eaten right in front of me!”
“You needn’t be afraid; she won’t drag me to the altar.”
“You don’t need to worry; she won’t force me to the altar.”
“And pray, doesn’t she think you good enough—for one of the beautiful Hennings?”
“And really, doesn’t she think you’re good enough—for one of the beautiful Hennings?”
“You don’t understand, my poor Pinnie,” said Hyacinth, wearily. “I sometimes think there isn’t a single thing in life that you understand. One of these days she’ll marry an alderman.”
“You don’t get it, my poor Pinnie,” Hyacinth said tiredly. “Sometimes I think there’s not a single thing in life that you understand. One of these days she’ll marry a city council member.”
“An alderman—that creature?”
"An alderman—that guy?"
“An alderman, or a banker, or a bishop, or some one of that kind. She doesn’t want to end her career to-day; she wants to begin it.”
“An alderman, or a banker, or a bishop, or someone like that. She doesn’t want to end her career today; she wants to start it.”
“Well, I wish she would take you later!” the dressmaker exclaimed.
“Well, I wish she would take you later!” the dressmaker said.
Hyacinth said nothing for a moment; then he broke out: “What are you afraid of? Look here, we had better clear this up, once for all. Are you afraid of my marrying a girl out of a shop?”
Hyacinth was silent for a moment; then he said, “What are you scared of? Look, we should settle this once and for all. Are you worried about me marrying a girl who works in a shop?”
“Oh, you wouldn’t, would you?” cried Pinnie, with a kind of conciliatory eagerness. “That’s the way I like to hear you talk!”
“Oh, you wouldn’t, would you?” shouted Pinnie, with a sort of friendly eagerness. “That’s how I love to hear you talk!”
“Do you think I would marry any one who would marry me?” Hyacinth went on. “The kind of girl who would look at me is the kind of girl I wouldn’t look at.” He struck Pinnie as having thought it all out; which did not surprise her, as she had been familiar, from his youth, with his way of following things up. But she was always delighted when he made a remark which showed he was conscious of being of fine clay—flashed out an allusion to his not being what he seemed. He was not what he seemed, but even with Pinnie’s valuable assistance he had not succeeded in representing to himself, very definitely, what he was. She had placed at his disposal, for this purpose, a passionate idealism which, employed in some case where it could have consequences, might have been termed profligate, and which never cost her a scruple or a compunction.
“Do you really think I’d marry anyone who’d marry me?” Hyacinth continued. “The kind of girl who would be interested in me is exactly the type of girl I wouldn’t consider.” Pinnie felt he had thought it all through, which didn’t surprise her since she had known him well from his youth and how he tended to follow through on his thoughts. But she was always thrilled when he made a comment that revealed he was aware of his own worth—hinting at the fact that he wasn’t what he appeared to be. He wasn’t what he seemed, but even with Pinnie’s helpful insights, he hadn’t been able to clearly understand who he really was. She had offered him a passionate idealism that, if applied where it could have real consequences, might have been called reckless, and it never caused her any moral hesitation or guilt.
“I’m sure a princess might look at you and be none the worse!” she declared, in her delight at this assurance, more positive than any she had yet received, that he was safe from the worst danger. This the dressmaker considered to be the chance of his marrying some person like herself. Still it came over her that his taste might be lowered, and before the subject was dropped, on this occasion, she said to him that of course he must be quite aware of all that was wanting to such a girl as Millicent Henning—she pronounced her name at last.
“I’m sure a princess would look at you and think nothing bad!” she said, thrilled by this assurance, more confident than any she had received yet, that he was safe from the worst danger. The dressmaker saw this as a chance for him to marry someone like her. Still, she couldn’t shake the thought that his standards might drop, and before they moved on from the topic this time, she mentioned that he must be aware of everything a girl like Millicent Henning would want—she finally said her name.
“Oh, I don’t bother about what’s wanting to her; I’m content with what she has.”
“Oh, I don’t worry about what she wants; I’m happy with what she has.”
“Content, dearest—how do you mean?” the little dressmaker quavered. “Content to make an intimate friend of her?”
“Content, dear—what do you mean?” the little dressmaker asked nervously. “Content to become close friends with her?”
“It is impossible I should discuss these matters with you,” Hyacinth replied, grandly.
“It’s impossible for me to talk about these things with you,” Hyacinth replied, dramatically.
“Of course I see that. But I should think she would bore you sometimes,” Miss Pynsent murmured, cunningly.
“Of course I see that. But I would think she would get boring for you sometimes,” Miss Pynsent murmured, slyly.
“She does, I assure you, to extinction!”
"She really does, I promise you, to the point of completely wearing out!"
“Then why do you spend every evening with her?”
“Then why do you spend every evening with her?”
“Where should you like me to spend my evenings? At some beastly public-house—or at the Italian opera?” His association with Miss Henning was not so close as that, but nevertheless he wouldn’t take the trouble to prove to poor Pinnie that he enjoyed her society only two or three times a week; that on other evenings he simply strolled about the streets (this boyish habit clung to him), and that he had even occasionally the resource of going to the Poupins’, or of gossiping and smoking a pipe at some open house-door, when the night was not cold, with a fellow-mechanic. Later in the winter, after he had made Paul Muniment’s acquaintance, the aspect of his life changed considerably, though Millicent continued to be exceedingly mixed up with it. He hated the taste of liquor and still more the taste of the places where it was sold; besides which the types of misery and vice that one was liable to see collected in them frightened and harrowed him, made him ask himself questions that pierced the deeper because they were met by no answer. It was both a blessing and a drawback to him that the delicate, charming character of the work he did at Mr Crookenden’s, under Eustache Poupin’s influence, was a kind of education of the taste, trained him in the finest discriminations, in the perception of beauty and the hatred of ugliness. This made the brutal, garish, stodgy decoration of public-houses, with their deluge of gaslight, their glittering brass and pewter, their lumpish woodwork and false colours, detestable to him; he was still very young when the ‘gin-palace’ ceased to convey to him an idea of the palatial.
“Where do you want me to spend my evenings? At some awful bar—or at the Italian opera?” He wasn't that close to Miss Henning, but he wouldn't bother to show poor Pinnie that he only enjoyed her company two or three times a week; that on other nights he just wandered the streets (this childish habit stuck with him), and that he sometimes even ended up at the Poupins’, or chatting and smoking a pipe at someone’s doorway when the weather was mild, with a fellow mechanic. Later in the winter, after meeting Paul Muniment, his life changed a lot, even though Millicent remained very much a part of it. He hated the taste of alcohol and even more the places that sold it; the sight of the misery and vice often found there terrified and distressed him, leading him to questions that cut deeper because there were no answers. It was both a blessing and a curse that the delicate, charming nature of his work at Mr. Crookenden’s, under Eustache Poupin’s guidance, educated his taste, training him in the finest details, in recognizing beauty and hating ugliness. This made the brutal, garish, clunky decor of bars, with their overload of gaslight, shiny brass and pewter, clumsy woodwork, and fake colors, utterly repulsive to him; he was still very young when the ‘gin-palace’ stopped suggesting something grand to him.
For this unfortunate but remarkably organised youth, every displeasure or gratification of the visual sense coloured his whole mind, and though he lived in Pentonville and worked in Soho, though he was poor and obscure and cramped and full of unattainable desires, it may be said of him that what was most important in life for him was simply his impressions. They came from everything he touched, they kept him thrilling and throbbing during a considerable part of his waking consciousness, and they constituted, as yet, the principal events and stages of his career. Fortunately, they were sometimes very delightful. Everything in the field of observation suggested this or that; everything struck him, penetrated, stirred; he had, in a word, more impressions than he knew what to do with—felt sometimes as if they would consume or asphyxiate him. He liked to talk about them, but it was only a few, here and there, that he could discuss with Millicent Henning. He let Miss Pynsent imagine that his hours of leisure were almost exclusively dedicated to this young lady, because, as he said to himself, if he were to account to her for every evening in the week it would make no difference—she would stick to her suspicion; and he referred this perversity to the general weight of misconception under which (at this crude period of his growth) he held it was his lot to languish. It didn’t matter to one whether one were a little more or a little less misunderstood. He might have remembered that it mattered to Pinnie, who, after her first relief at hearing him express himself so properly on the subject of a matrimonial connection with Miss Henning, allowed her faded, kind, weak face, little by little, to lengthen out to its old solemnity. This came as the days went on, for it wasn’t much comfort that he didn’t want to marry the young woman in Pimlico, when he allowed himself to be held as tight as if he did. For the present, indeed, she simply said, “Oh, well, if you see her as she is, I don’t care what you do”—a sentiment implying a certain moral recklessness on the part of the good little dressmaker. She was irreproachable herself, but she had lived for more than fifty years in a world of wickedness; like an immense number of London women of her class and kind, she had acquired a certain innocent cynicism, and she judged it quite a minor evil that Millicent should be left lamenting, if only Hyacinth might get out of the scrape. Between a forsaken maiden and a premature, lowering marriage for her beloved little boy, she very well knew which she preferred. It should be added that her impression of Millicent’s power to take care of herself was such as to make it absurd to pity her in advance. Pinnie thought Hyacinth the cleverest young man in the world, but her state of mind implied somehow that the young lady in Pimlico was cleverer. Her ability, at any rate, was of a kind that precluded the idea of suffering, whereas Hyacinth’s was rather associated with it.
For this unfortunate but impressively organized young man, every pleasure or disappointment from what he saw impacted his entire mindset. Even though he lived in Pentonville and worked in Soho, and despite being poor and unknown, constantly feeling cramped and filled with unachievable dreams, the most important thing in his life was simply his impressions. They came from everything he encountered, keeping him excited and alive throughout a good portion of his waking hours, forming the main moments and milestones of his life. Luckily, some of these impressions were really enjoyable. Everything he observed suggested something; everything resonated with him, affected him deeply; in short, he had more impressions than he knew how to handle—sometimes feeling like they would overwhelm or suffocate him. He enjoyed discussing them, but there were only a few he could actually talk about with Millicent Henning. He let Miss Pynsent believe that his free time was almost entirely devoted to this young woman since he thought that if he accounted for every evening in the week, it wouldn’t change anything—she would still cling to her suspicions. He attributed this stubbornness to the general weight of misunderstandings that he felt he had to endure during this awkward stage of his life. It didn’t really matter whether someone was a little more or a little less misunderstood. He might have realized that it mattered to Pinnie, who, after her initial relief at hearing him speak so properly about a marriage with Miss Henning, gradually let her worn, kind, frail face return to its former seriousness. This change came as time went on, for it brought her little comfort that he didn’t want to marry the young woman in Pimlico when he allowed himself to be perceived as if he did. For now, she simply said, “Oh, well, if you see her as she is, I don’t care what you do”—a statement that implied a certain moral carelessness on the part of the good little dressmaker. She was beyond reproach herself, but she had spent more than fifty years in a wicked world; like many women in London of her class, she had developed a certain innocent cynicism, deeming it a lesser evil for Millicent to be left sorrowing, as long as Hyacinth could escape trouble. She clearly preferred a forsaken maiden to a hasty, unpleasant marriage for her beloved son. It’s worth noting that her view of Millicent’s ability to fend for herself was such that it made pitying her in advance seem ridiculous. Pinnie thought Hyacinth was the smartest young man in the world, but somehow she believed the woman in Pimlico was actually smarter. Her capabilities, at least, made the idea of suffering seem impossible, while Hyacinth’s were closely linked to it.
By the time he had enjoyed for three months the acquaintance of the brother and sister in Audley Court the whole complexion of his life seemed changed; it was pervaded by an interest, an excitement, which overshadowed, though it by no means supplanted, the brilliant figure of Miss Henning. It was pitched in a higher key, altogether, and appeared to command a view of horizons equally fresh and vast. Millicent, therefore, shared her dominion, without knowing exactly what it was that drew her old play-fellow off, and without indeed demanding of him an account which, on her own side, she was not prepared to give. Hyacinth was, in the language of the circle in which she moved, her fancy, and she was content to occupy, as regards himself, the same graceful and somewhat irresponsible position. She had an idea that she was a most beneficent friend: fond of him and careful of him as an elder sister might be; warning him as no one else could do against the dangers of the town; putting that stiff common sense, of which she was convinced that she possessed an extraordinary supply, at the service of his incurable verdancy; and looking after him, generally, as no one, poor child, had ever done. Millicent made light of the little dressmaker, in this view of Hyacinth’s past (she thought Pinnie no better than a starved cat), and enjoyed herself immensely in the character of guide and philosopher, while she pushed the young man with a robust elbow or said to him, “Well, you are a sharp one, you are!” Her theory of herself, as we know, was that she was the sweetest girl in the world, as well as the cleverest and handsomest, and there could be no better proof of her kindness of heart than her disinterested affection for a snippet of a bookbinder. Her sociability was certainly great, and so were her vanity, her grossness, her presumption, her appetite for beer, for buns, for entertainment of every kind. She represented, for Hyacinth, during this period, the eternal feminine, and his taste, considering that he was fastidious, will be wondered at; it will be judged that she did not represent it very favourably.
By the time he had spent three months getting to know the brother and sister in Audley Court, his life felt completely different; it was filled with an interest and excitement that overshadowed, though certainly didn't replace, the captivating presence of Miss Henning. Everything felt elevated and offered a fresh, expansive outlook. Millicent shared in this new dynamic, even though she didn’t fully understand what was pulling her old playmate away, nor did she feel the need to ask him for an explanation, especially since she wasn't ready to provide one herself. In the circles she moved in, Hyacinth was her special interest, and she was happy to maintain a somewhat carefree and graceful relationship with him. She thought of herself as a nurturing friend, fond of him and protective like an older sister should be; she warned him about the city's dangers in a way no one else could, offering her practical wisdom—which she believed she had in abundance—to help guide his naivety, and generally looking out for him like no one else ever had. Millicent dismissed the little dressmaker from Hyacinth’s past (she considered Pinnie no better than a starving cat) and thoroughly enjoyed her role as his mentor, often nudging him playfully or teasingly saying, “Well, you are a sharp one, you are!” Her self-image, as we know, was that she was the sweetest, smartest, and prettiest girl in the world, and her genuine affection for a struggling bookbinder was her proof of a kind heart. She was certainly sociable, but so were her vanity, crudeness, arrogance, and her cravings for beer, buns, and all kinds of entertainment. During this time, she represented, for Hyacinth, the essence of femininity, and given his particular tastes, people might be surprised; they might judge that she didn’t embody it very favorably.
It may easily be believed that he scrutinised his infatuation even while he gave himself up to it, and that he often wondered he should care for a girl in whom he found so much to object to. She was vulgar, clumsy and grotesquely ignorant; her conceit was proportionate, and she had not a grain of tact or of quick perception. And yet there was something so fine about her, to his imagination, and she carried with such an air the advantages she did possess, that her figure constantly mingled itself even with those bright visions that hovered before him after Paul Muniment had opened a mysterious window. She was bold, and free, and generous, and if she was coarse she was neither false nor cruel. She laughed with the laugh of the people, and if you hit her hard enough she would cry with its tears. When Hyacinth was not letting his imagination wander among the haunts of the aristocracy, and fancying himself stretched in the shadow of an ancestral beech, reading the last number of the Revue des Deux Mondes, he was occupied with contemplations of a very different kind; he was absorbed in the struggles and sufferings of the millions whose life flowed in the same current as his, and who, though they constantly excited his disgust, and made him shrink and turn away, had the power to chain his sympathy, to make it glow to a kind of ecstasy, to convince him, for the time at least, that real success in the world would be to do something with them and for them. All this, strange to say, was never so vivid to him as when he was in Millicent’s company; which is a proof of his fantastic, erratic way of seeing things. She had no such ideas about herself; they were almost the only ideas she didn’t have. She had no theories about redeeming or uplifting the people; she simply loathed them, because they were so dirty, with the outspoken violence of one who had known poverty, and the strange bedfellows it makes, in a very different degree from Hyacinth, brought up, comparatively, with Pinnie to put sugar in his tea, and keep him supplied with neckties, like a little swell.
It’s easy to believe that he analyzed his crush even while he was fully immersed in it, and he often found himself wondering why he cared for a girl with so many flaws. She was tacky, awkward, and incredibly ignorant; her self-importance matched her shortcomings, and she lacked any sense of tact or insight. And yet, to his imagination, there was something uniquely appealing about her, and she carried herself with such confidence regarding her few attributes, that her image continuously blended with the vibrant visions that danced in his mind after Paul Muniment had revealed a mysterious glimpse into another world. She was bold, free, and generous, and although she was crass, she was neither deceitful nor cruel. She laughed like common folks, and if you hurt her enough, she would cry their tears. When Hyacinth wasn’t daydreaming about mingling with the elite, picturing himself lounging under the shade of an ancestral beech while reading the latest issue of the Revue des Deux Mondes, he was lost in thoughts of a completely different nature; he was absorbed in the struggles and suffering of the countless people whose lives were intertwined with his own, who, despite often disgusted him and made him want to look away, had the ability to capture his empathy, igniting it to a sort of ecstasy, convincing him, at least temporarily, that true success in life would come from doing something with and for them. Strangely enough, this was never more intense for him than when he was with Millicent; this only highlights his wildly imaginative, unpredictable perspective. She didn’t share such thoughts about herself; in fact, they were among the few ideas she completely lacked. She had no theories about saving or uplifting the masses; she simply despised them for their filth, with the blunt ferocity of someone who had experienced poverty, and the strange associations it creates, unlike Hyacinth, who had been raised with Pinnie to put sugar in his tea and keep him well-stocked with neckties, like a little gentleman.
Millicent, to hear her talk, only wanted to keep her skirts clear and marry some respectable tea-merchant. But for our hero she was magnificently plebeian, in the sense that implied a kind of loud recklessness of danger and the qualities that shine forth in a row. She summed up the sociable, humorous, ignorant chatter of the masses, their capacity for offensive and defensive passion, their instinctive perception of their strength on the day they should really exercise it; and as much as any of this, their ideal of something smug and prosperous, where washed hands, and plates in rows on dressers, and stuffed birds under glass, and family photographs, would symbolise success. She was none the less plucky for being at bottom a shameless Philistine, ambitious of a front-garden with rockwork; and she presented the plebeian character in none the less plastic a form. Having the history of the French Revolution at his fingers’ ends, Hyacinth could easily see her (if there should ever be barricades in the streets of London) with a red cap of liberty on her head and her white throat bared so that she should be able to shout the louder the Marseillaise of that hour, whatever it might be. If the festival of the Goddess of Reason should ever be enacted in the British metropolis (and Hyacinth could consider such possibilities without a smile, so much was it a part of the little religion he had to remember, always, that there was no knowing what might happen)—if this solemnity, I say, should be revived in Hyde Park, who was better designated than Miss Henning to figure in a grand statuesque manner, as the heroine of the occasion? It was plain that she had laid her inconsequent admirer under a peculiar spell, since he could associate her with such scenes as that while she consumed beer and buns at his expense. If she had a weakness, it was for prawns; and she had, all winter, a plan for his taking her down to Gravesend, where this luxury was cheap and abundant, when the fine long days should arrive. She was never so frank and facetious as when she dwelt on the details of a project of this kind; and then Hyacinth was reminded afresh that it was an immense good fortune for her that she was handsome. If she had been ugly he couldn’t have listened to her; but her beauty glorified even her accent, interfused her cockney genius with prismatic hues, gave her a large and constant impunity.
Millicent, by her own account, just wanted to keep her skirts clean and marry a respectable tea merchant. But to our hero, she was wonderfully typical of the working class, which suggested a sort of loud disregard for danger and the qualities that stand out strongly. She embodied the social, funny, and ignorant chatter of the masses, their ability to fight back and defend themselves, their instinctive awareness of their strength on the day they might actually use it; and as much as anything, their vision of something smug and well-off, where clean hands, neatly arranged plates on dressers, stuffed birds in glass cases, and family photos would symbolize success. She was still brave even if, at her core, she was a brazen Philistine, dreaming of a front garden with rockwork; and she expressed the working-class character in a striking way. With the history of the French Revolution at his fingertips, Hyacinth could easily imagine her (if there were ever barricades in the streets of London) wearing a red liberty cap and baring her neck to shout the loudest Marseillaise of the moment, whatever it might be. If the festival of the Goddess of Reason were ever celebrated in Britain (and Hyacinth considered such possibilities seriously, as it was part of his little belief that anything could happen)—if this event, I say, were revived in Hyde Park, who could be more suited than Miss Henning to appear in a grand, statuesque way as the heroine of the day? It was clear that she had put her fleeting admirer under a unique spell, as he could envision her in such scenes while she munched on beer and buns at his expense. If she had a weakness, it was for prawns; and she had, all winter, been planning on him taking her to Gravesend, where this treat was cheap and plentiful when the long, sunny days came. She was never as open and playful as when she talked about the details of such a plan; and then Hyacinth was reminded once again that it was an immense stroke of luck for her that she was beautiful. If she had been unattractive, he wouldn’t have been able to listen to her; but her beauty elevated even her accent, infused her working-class spirit with vibrant colors, and granted her a significant and constant leeway.
XI
She desired at last to raise their common experience to a loftier level, to enjoy what she called a high-class treat. Their conversation was condemned, for the most part, to go forward in the streets, the wintry, dusky, foggy streets, which looked bigger and more numerous in their perpetual obscurity, and in which everything was covered with damp, gritty smut, an odour extremely agreeable to Miss Henning. Happily she shared Hyacinth’s relish of vague perambulation, and was still more addicted than he to looking into the windows of shops, before which, in long, contemplative halts, she picked out freely the articles she shouldn’t mind calling her own. Hyacinth always pronounced the objects of her selection hideous, and made no scruple to tell her that she had the worst taste of any girl in the place. Nothing that he could say to her affronted her so much, as her pretensions in the way of a cultivated judgment were boundless. Had not, indeed, her natural aptitude been fortified, in the neighbourhood of Buckingham Palace (there was scarcely anything they didn’t sell in the great shop of which she was an ornament), by daily contact with the freshest products of modern industry? Hyacinth laughed this establishment to scorn, and told her there was nothing in it, from top to bottom, that a real artist would look at. She inquired, with answering derision, if this were a description of his own few inches; but in reality she was fascinated, as much as she was provoked, by his air of being difficult to please, of seeing indescribable differences among things. She had given herself out, originally, as very knowing, but he could make her feel stupid. When once in a while he pointed out a commodity that he condescended to like (this didn’t happen often, because the only shops in which there was a chance of his making such a discovery were closed at nightfall) she stared, bruised him more or less with her elbow, and declared that if any one should give her such a piece of rubbish she would sell it for fourpence. Once or twice she asked him to be so good as to explain to her in what its superiority consisted—she could not rid herself of a suspicion that there might be something in his opinion, and she was angry at not finding herself as positive as any one. But Hyacinth replied that it was no use attempting to tell her; she wouldn’t understand, and she had better continue to admire the insipid productions of an age which had lost the sense of quality—a phrase which she remembered, proposing to herself even to make use of it, on some future occasion, but was quite unable to interpret.
She finally wanted to elevate their shared experiences to a higher level, to enjoy what she called a classy outing. Most of their conversations took place as they walked along the wintery, dark, foggy streets, which seemed larger and more numerous in their constant gloom, and everything was covered in damp, gritty dirt—an odor that Miss Henning found quite pleasant. Fortunately, she and Hyacinth both enjoyed aimless wandering, but she was even more into peering into shop windows. She would stand there for a long time, thinking about the things she wouldn’t mind having for herself. Hyacinth always called her choices ugly and readily told her she had the worst taste of any girl around. Nothing offended her more than his comments, as her belief in her own cultivated judgment was limitless. After all, hadn’t her natural talent been strengthened by living near Buckingham Palace? In the massive store, where she was a regular, they sold just about everything, including the latest in modern products. Hyacinth mocked this place, claiming there was nothing there worth an artist's attention. She responded with her own teasing, questioning whether this was just a commentary on his limited perspective, but deep down, she was captivated, as much as she was irritated, by his discerning nature and the way he noticed subtle differences in things. She initially presented herself as quite knowledgeable, but he had a way of making her feel foolish. Whenever he pointed out something he actually liked (which didn’t happen often since the only stores with any potential closed at night), she would look at it in disbelief, jab him with her elbow, and declare that if someone gave her such junk, she’d sell it for fourpence. A couple of times, she asked him to explain what made it superior—she couldn’t shake the feeling that he might be onto something, and it frustrated her not to feel as certain as others. But Hyacinth told her it was pointless to try to explain; she wouldn’t get it anyway, and she should keep admiring the bland products of an era that had lost its sense of quality—a phrase she remembered, even thinking she might use it someday, but she struggled to grasp its meaning.
When her companion demeaned himself in this manner it was not with a view of strengthening the tie which united him to his childhood’s friend; but the effect followed, on Millicent’s side, and the girl was proud to think that she was in possession of a young man whose knowledge was of so high an order that it was inexpressible. In spite of her vanity she was not so convinced of her perfection as not to be full of ungratified aspirations; she had an idea that it might be to her advantage some day to exhibit a sample of that learning; and at the same time, when, in consideration, for instance, of a jeweller’s gas-lighted display in Great Portland Street, Hyacinth lingered for five minutes in perfect silence, while she delivered herself according to her wont at such junctures, she was a thousand miles from guessing the feelings which made it impossible for him to speak. She could long for things she was not likely to have; envy other people for possessing them, and say it was a regular shame (she called it a shime); draw brilliant pictures of what she should do with them if she did have them; and pass immediately, with a mind unencumbered by superfluous inductions, to some other topic, equally intimate and personal. The sense of privation, with her, was often extremely acute; but she could always put her finger on the remedy. With the imaginative, irresponsible little bookbinder the case was very different; the remedy, with him, was terribly vague and impracticable. He was liable to moods in which the sense of exclusion from all that he would have liked most to enjoy in life settled upon him like a pall. They had a bitterness, but they were not invidious—they were not moods of vengeance, of imaginary spoliation: they were simply states of paralysing melancholy, of infinite sad reflection, in which he felt that in this world of effort and suffering life was endurable, the spirit able to expand, only in the best conditions, and that a sordid struggle, in which one should go down to the grave without having tasted them, was not worth the misery it would cost, the dull demoralisation it would entail.
When her companion acted this way, it wasn't to strengthen the bond with his childhood friend; however, Millicent felt differently and was proud to have a young man with such impressive knowledge. Despite her vanity, she didn't believe she was perfect and was filled with unfulfilled aspirations. She thought it might be beneficial someday to show off that knowledge. Meanwhile, as she gazed at a jeweller's display in Great Portland Street, Hyacinth stayed silent for five minutes, and while she spoke as she usually did in those moments, she had no idea about the feelings preventing him from speaking. She could long for things she probably wouldn’t get, envy others for having them, and call it a regular shame (she called it a shime); she'd imagine all the things she would do with them if she had them and then smoothly switch to another equally personal topic. The sense of lack was often sharp for her, but she always knew how to fix it. In contrast, with the imaginative, carefree little bookbinder, the situation was very different; his solutions felt vague and unrealistic. He often experienced moods where the feeling of being excluded from the things he most wanted in life weighed heavy on him. These feelings were bitter, but they weren’t about revenge or envy; rather, they were deep, paralyzing sadness and endless reflection. He felt that in this world of effort and suffering, life was only worthwhile when good conditions allowed the spirit to thrive, and that a miserable struggle that led to the grave without enjoying those moments wasn't worth the pain it would bring and the dulling demoralization it would cause.
In such hours the great, roaring, indifferent world of London seemed to him a huge organisation for mocking at his poverty, at his inanition; and then its vulgarest ornaments, the windows of third-rate jewellers, the young man in a white tie and a crush-hat who dandled by, on his way to a dinner-party, in a hansom that nearly ran over one—these familiar phenomena became symbolic, insolent, defiant, took upon themselves to make him smart with the sense that he was out of it. He felt, moreover, that there was no consolation or refutation in saying to himself that the immense majority of mankind were out of it with him, and appeared to put up well enough with the annoyance. That was their own affair; he knew nothing of their reasons or their resignation, and if they chose neither to rebel nor to compare, he, at least, among the disinherited, would keep up the standard. When these fits were upon the young man, his brothers of the people fared, collectively, badly at his hands; their function then was to represent in massive shape precisely the grovelling interests which attracted one’s contempt, and the only acknowledgment one owed them was for the completeness of the illustration. Everything which, in a great city, could touch the sentient faculty of a youth on whom nothing was lost ministered to his conviction that there was no possible good fortune in life of too ‘quiet’ an order for him to appreciate—no privilege, no opportunity, no luxury, to which he should not do justice. It was not so much that he wished to enjoy as that he wished to know; his desire was not to be pampered, but to be initiated. Sometimes, of a Saturday, in the long evenings of June and July, he made his way into Hyde Park at the hour when the throng of carriages, of riders, of brilliant pedestrians, was thickest; and though lately, on two or three of these occasions, he had been accompanied by Miss Henning, whose criticism of the scene was rich and distinct, a tremendous little drama had taken place, privately, in his soul. He wanted to drive in every carriage, to mount on every horse, to feel on his arm the hand of every pretty woman in the place. In the midst of this his sense was vivid that he belonged to the class whom the upper ten thousand, as they passed, didn’t so much as rest their eyes upon for a quarter of a second. They looked at Millicent, who was safe to be looked at anywhere, and was one of the handsomest girls in any company, but they only reminded him of the high human walls, the deep gulfs of tradition, the steep embankments of privilege and dense layers of stupidity, which fenced him off from social recognition.
In moments like these, the vast, loud, and indifferent world of London felt to him like a massive system set up to mock his poverty and emptiness. The most basic sights, like the displays in low-end jewelry shops and a young man in a white tie and top hat who strolled by on his way to a dinner party, seemed symbolic and defiant, making him painfully aware that he was excluded. He felt that it offered no comfort to tell himself that the overwhelming majority of people were also out of it with him and seemed to manage just fine with the frustration. That was their business; he didn’t know their reasons or how they coped, and while they chose not to rebel or compare, he, at least, among the disenfranchised, would maintain his standards. When these feelings hit him, he judged his fellow common people harshly; they represented the very base interests that drew his scorn, and he felt he only owed them acknowledgment for the completeness of the example they set. Everything in the great city that could touch the senses of a young man who noticed everything confirmed his belief that there was no potential good fortune in life too "quiet" for him to appreciate—no privilege, no opportunity, no luxury that he shouldn’t recognize. It wasn’t that he particularly wanted to enjoy; rather, he wanted to understand. His desire wasn’t for indulgence but for initiation. Sometimes, on Saturdays during the long evenings of June and July, he ventured into Hyde Park at the peak time when the crowd of carriages, riders, and glamorous pedestrians was thickest. Although he had recently been accompanied by Miss Henning, whose take on the scene was insightful and clear, a significant internal drama was happening within him. He wanted to ride in every carriage, mount every horse, and feel the hand of every attractive woman around. Amid all this, he was acutely aware that he belonged to a class that the upper ten thousand didn’t even glance at for a split second as they passed by. They noticed Millicent, who was always a sight to behold and one of the most beautiful girls in any crowd, but her presence only reminded him of the towering walls of society, the deep chasms of tradition, the steep barriers of privilege, and the heavy layers of ignorance that separated him from social recognition.
And this was not the fruit of a morbid vanity on his part, or of a jealousy that could not be intelligent; his personal discomfort was the result of an exquisite admiration for what he had missed. There were individuals whom he followed with his eyes, with his thoughts, sometimes even with his steps; they seemed to tell him what it was to be the flower of a high civilisation. At moments he was aghast when he reflected that the cause he had secretly espoused, the cause from which M. Poupin and Paul Muniment (especially the latter) had within the last few months drawn aside the curtain, proposed to itself to bring about a state of things in which that particular scene would be impossible. It made him even rather faint to think that he must choose; that he couldn’t (with any respect for his own consistency) work, underground, for the enthronement of the democracy, and continue to enjoy, in however platonic a manner, a spectacle which rested on a hideous social inequality. He must either suffer with the people, as he had suffered before, or he must apologise to others, as he sometimes came so near doing to himself, for the rich; inasmuch as the day was certainly near when these two mighty forces would come to a death-grapple. Hyacinth thought himself obliged, at present, to have reasons for his feelings; his intimacy with Paul Muniment, which had now grown very great, laid a good deal of that sort of responsibility upon him. Muniment laughed at his reasons, whenever he produced them, but he appeared to expect him, nevertheless, to have them ready, on demand, and Hyacinth had an immense desire to do what he expected. There were times when he said to himself that it might very well be his fate to be divided, to the point of torture, to be split open by sympathies that pulled him in different ways; for hadn’t he an extraordinarily mingled current in his blood, and from the time he could remember was there not one half of him that seemed to be always playing tricks on the other, or getting snubs and pinches from it?
And this wasn’t the result of a twisted vanity on his part or of a jealousy that wasn’t justified; his personal discomfort stemmed from a deep admiration for what he had missed out on. There were people he followed with his eyes, with his thoughts, and sometimes even with his steps; they seemed to show him what it was like to be the best of a great civilization. At times, he was shocked when he realized that the cause he had secretly supported—one that M. Poupin and Paul Muniment (especially the latter) had recently revealed—aimed to create a situation where that particular scene would be impossible. It made him feel a bit faint to think that he had to make a choice; that he couldn’t (while respecting his own integrity) work underground for the rise of democracy and still enjoy, even in a purely platonic way, a spectacle that relied on a horrifying social inequality. He would either have to suffer with the people, as he had before, or he would have to apologize to others, as he often came close to doing for himself, for the rich—since the day was certainly approaching when these two powerful forces would clash. Hyacinth felt compelled, at this moment, to have reasons for his feelings; his close relationship with Paul Muniment, which had now become very significant, placed a lot of that responsibility on him. Muniment laughed off his reasons whenever he shared them, but he seemed to expect him to have them ready when needed, and Hyacinth had a strong desire to meet those expectations. There were times he told himself that it could very well be his fate to be torn apart, to the point of agony, by sympathies pulling him in different directions; for didn’t he have an unusually mixed heritage, and hadn’t one part of him always seemed to be playing tricks on the other, or getting teased and pinched?
That dim, dreadful, confused legend of his mother’s history, as regards which what Pinnie had been able to tell him when he first began to question her was at once too much and too little—this stupefying explanation had supplied him, first and last, with a hundred different theories of his identity. What he knew, what he guessed, sickened him, and what he didn’t know tormented him; but in his illuminated ignorance he had fashioned forth an article of faith. This had gradually emerged from the depths of darkness in which he found himself plunged as a consequence of the challenge he had addressed to Pinnie—while he was still only a child—on the memorable day which transformed the whole face of his future. It was one January afternoon. He had come in from a walk; she was seated at her lamp, as usual with her work, and she began to tell him of a letter that one of the lodgers had got, describing the manner in which his brother-in-law’s shop, at Nottingham, had been rifled by burglars. He listened to her story, standing in front of her, and then, by way of response, he said to her, “Who was that woman you took me to see ever so long ago?” The expression of her white face, as she looked up at him, her fear of such an attack all dormant, after so many years—her strange, scared, sick glance was a thing he could never forget, any more than the tone, with her breath failing her, in which she had repeated, “That woman?”
That dim, terrifying, confusing legend about his mother’s past, which Pinnie had shared with him when he first started asking questions, was both too much and not enough—this bewildering explanation had given him countless theories about his identity. What he knew and what he guessed made him feel sick, and the unknown tormented him; yet in his cluelessness, he had created a belief. This belief gradually emerged from the darkness he found himself in after he had challenged Pinnie—when he was still just a child—on that memorable day that changed his entire future. It was one January afternoon. He had just come in from a walk; she was sitting by her lamp, as usual with her work, and she began telling him about a letter one of the lodgers received, describing how his brother-in-law’s shop in Nottingham had been robbed by burglars. He listened to her story, standing in front of her, and then, in response, he asked her, “Who was that woman you took me to see ages ago?” The look on her pale face as she glanced up at him, her long-dormant fear suddenly resurfacing after all those years—her strange, frightened, pained expression was something he could never forget, just like the way she breathed out the words, “That woman?”
“That woman, in the prison, years ago—how old was I?—who was dying, and who kissed me so—as I have never been kissed, as I never shall be again! Who was she, who WAS she?” Poor Pinnie, to do her justice, had made, after she recovered her breath, a gallant fight: it lasted a week; it was to leave her spent and sore for evermore, and before it was over Anastasius Vetch had been called in. At his instance she retracted the falsehoods with which she had tried to put him off, and she made, at last, a confession, a report, which he had reason to believe was as complete as her knowledge. Hyacinth could never have told you why the crisis occurred on such a day, why his question broke out at that particular moment. The strangeness of the matter to himself was that the germ of his curiosity should have developed so slowly; that the haunting wonder, which now, as he looked back, appeared to fill his whole childhood, should only after so long an interval have crept up to the air. It was only, of course, little by little that he had recovered his bearings in his new and more poignant consciousness; little by little that he reconstructed his antecedents, took the measure, so far as was possible, of his heredity. His having the courage to disinter, in the Times, in the reading-room of the British Museum, a report of his mother’s trial for the murder of Lord Frederick Purvis, which was very copious, the affair having been quite a cause célèbre; his resolution in sitting under that splendid dome, and, with his head bent to hide his hot eyes, going through every syllable of the ghastly record, had been an achievement of comparatively recent years. There were certain things that Pinnie knew which appalled him; and there were others, as to which he would have given his hand to have some light, that it made his heart ache supremely to find she was honestly ignorant of. He scarcely knew what sort of favour Mr Vetch wished to make with him (as a compensation for the precious part he had played in the business years before), when the fiddler permitted himself to pass judgment on the family of the wretched young nobleman for not having provided in some manner for the infant child of his assassin. Why should they have provided, when it was evident that they refused absolutely to recognise his lordship’s responsibility? Pinnie had to admit this, under Hyacinth’s terrible cross-questioning; she could not pretend, with any show of evidence, that Lord Whiteroy and the other brothers (there had been no less than seven, most of them still living) had, at the time of the trial, given any symptom of believing Florentine Vivier’s asseverations. That was their affair; he had long since made up his mind that his own was very different. One couldn’t believe at will, and fortunately, in the case, he had no effort to make; for from the moment he began to consider the established facts (few as they were, and poor and hideous) he regarded himself, irresistibly, as the son of the recreant, sacrificial Lord Frederick.
“That woman in prison, years ago—how old was I?—who was dying and kissed me like no one ever has, and probably never will again! Who was she, who WAS she?” Poor Pinnie, to give her credit, had put up a brave fight after she caught her breath: it lasted a week, leaving her exhausted and hurting forever, and by the end, Anastasius Vetch had been called in. At his urging, she took back the lies she had used to brush him off and finally made a confession, a report that he had reason to believe was as complete as her knowledge. Hyacinth could never explain why the crisis happened that day or why his question erupted at that specific moment. What puzzled him was that the spark of his curiosity had developed so slowly; the haunting wonder that, looking back, seemed to fill his entire childhood had only recently surged to the surface. It had only been gradually that he had regained his bearings in his new, sharper awareness; little by little he reconstructed his past and assessed his heritage as much as he could. He had mustered the courage to dig up a report of his mother’s trial for the murder of Lord Frederick Purvis in the Times, in the reading room of the British Museum, which was quite detailed, as the case had been a real cause célèbre; his determination to sit under that magnificent dome, with his head bowed to hide his tearful eyes, and read through every word of the grim record had been an achievement of relatively recent years. There were certain things Pinnie knew that horrified him; and there were others, about which he would have given anything to have clarity, that made his heart ache deeply to discover she was genuinely unaware. He hardly understood what kind of favor Mr. Vetch intended to offer him (as a kind of compensation for the significant role he had played in the events of years past) when the fiddler dared to criticize the family of the unfortunate young nobleman for not making some provision for the infant child of his killer. Why should they have provided anything when it was clear they absolutely refused to acknowledge his lordship’s responsibility? Pinnie had to concede this under Hyacinth’s harsh questioning; she couldn’t pretend, with any credible evidence, that Lord Whiteroy and the other brothers (there had been at least seven, most of whom were still alive) had shown any sign of believing Florentine Vivier’s claims at the time of the trial. That was their business; he had long since decided that his was quite different. One couldn’t force belief, and fortunately, in this case, he didn’t need to try; for from the moment he began to consider the undeniable facts (few as they were, and ugly), he saw himself, inevitably, as the son of the unfaithful, sacrificial Lord Frederick.
He had no need to reason about it; all his nerves and pulses pleaded and testified. His mother had been a daughter of the wild French people (all that Pinnie could tell him of her parentage was that Florentine had once mentioned that in her extreme childhood her father had fallen, in the blood-stained streets of Paris, on a barricade, with his gun in his hand); but on the other side it took an English aristocrat—though a poor specimen, apparently, had to suffice—to account for him. This, with its further implications, became Hyacinth’s article of faith; the reflection that he was a bastard involved in a remarkable manner the reflection that he was a gentleman. He was conscious that he didn’t hate the image of his father, as he might have been expected to do; and he supposed this was because Lord Frederick had paid so tremendous a penalty. It was in the exaction of that penalty that the moral proof, for Hyacinth, resided; his mother would not have armed herself on account of any injury less cruel than the episode of which her miserable baby was the living sign. She had avenged herself because she had been thrown over, and the bitterness of that wrong had been in the fact that he, Hyacinth, lay there in her lap. He was the one to have been killed: that remark our young man often made to himself. That his attitude on this whole subject was of a tolerably exalted, transcendent character, and took little account of any refutation that might be based on a vulgar glance at three or four obtrusive items, is proved by the importance that he attached, for instance, to the name by which his mother had told poor Pinnie (when this excellent creature consented to take him) that she wished him to be called. Hyacinth had been the name of her father, a republican clockmaker, the martyr of his opinions, whose memory she professed to worship; and when Lord Frederick insinuated himself into her confidence he had reasons for preferring to be known as plain Mr Robinson—reasons, however, which, in spite of the light thrown upon them at the trial, it was difficult, after so many years, to enter into.
He didn't need to think it over; his instincts and feelings said it all. His mother was a daughter of the wild French people (the only thing Pinnie could tell him about her background was that Florentine once mentioned that when she was very young, her father had died on a barricade in the blood-stained streets of Paris, with his gun in his hand); but on the other side, it took an English aristocrat—though a poor one, apparently—to explain his existence. This, along with its deeper meanings, became Hyacinth’s core belief; the fact that he was a bastard somehow also suggested that he was a gentleman. He realized he didn’t hate the image of his father, which might have been expected; and he figured this was because Lord Frederick had paid such a heavy price. For Hyacinth, that price was the moral proof of it all; his mother wouldn’t have fought back over anything less cruel than the situation that left her miserable child as a living reminder. She had sought revenge because she had been abandoned, and the bitterness lay in the truth that he, Hyacinth, was there in her arms. He was the one who was supposed to have died: that was something he often reminded himself. His perspective on this entire issue was notably elevated and disregarded any counterarguments that could be made from a basic view of a few obvious details, which is evident in how much significance he placed on the name his mother had told poor Pinnie (when this wonderful person agreed to take him) that she wanted him to be called. Hyacinth was the name of her father, a republican clockmaker who was a martyr for his beliefs, and whose memory she claimed to honor; and when Lord Frederick wormed his way into her trust, he had his reasons for wanting to be known simply as Mr. Robinson—reasons that, despite the clarity given during the trial, were hard to fully grasp after so many years.
Hyacinth never knew that Mr Vetch had said more than once to Pinnie, “If her contention as regards that dissolute young swell was true, why didn’t she make the child bear his real name, instead of his false one?”—an inquiry which the dressmaker answered with some ingenuity, by remarking that she couldn’t call him after a man she had murdered, and that she supposed the unhappy girl didn’t wish to publish to every one the boy’s connection with a crime that had been so much talked about. If Hyacinth had assisted at this little discussion it is needless to say that he would have sided with Miss Pynsent; though that his judgment was independently formed is proved by the fact that Pinnie’s fearfully indiscreet attempts at condolence should not have made him throw up his version in disgust. It was after the complete revelation that he understood the romantic innuendoes with which his childhood had been surrounded, and of which he had never caught the meaning; they having seemed but part and parcel of the habitual and promiscuous divagations of his too constructive companion. When it came over him that, for years, she had made a fool of him, to himself and to others, he could have beaten her, for grief and shame; and yet, before he administered this rebuke he had to remember that she only chattered (though she professed to have been extraordinarily dumb) about a matter which he spent nine-tenths of his time in brooding over. When she tried to console him for the horror of his mother’s history by descanting on the glory of the Purvises, and reminding him that he was related, through them, to half the aristocracy of England, he felt that she was turning the tragedy of his life into a monstrous farce; and yet he none the less continued to cherish the belief that he was a gentleman born. He allowed her to tell him nothing about the family in question, and his stoicism on this subject was one of the reasons of the deep dejection of her later years. If he had only let her idealise him a little to himself she would have felt that she was making up, by so much, for her grand mistake. He sometimes saw the name of his father’s relations in the newspaper, but he always turned away his eyes from it. He had nothing to ask of them, and he wished to prove to himself that he could ignore them (who had been willing to let him die like a rat) as completely as they ignored him. Decidedly, he cried to himself at times, he was with the people, and every possible vengeance of the people, as against such shameless egoism as that; but all the same he was happy to feel that he had blood in his veins which would account for the finest sensibilities.
Hyacinth never realized that Mr. Vetch had asked Pinnie several times, “If her claim about that reckless young guy was true, why didn’t she have the child bear his real name instead of a fake one?”—to which the dressmaker cleverly replied that she couldn’t name him after a man she’d killed and assumed the unfortunate girl didn’t want to reveal to everyone that the boy was linked to such a talked-about crime. If Hyacinth had been present during this conversation, it’s clear he would have sided with Miss Pynsent; though his independent judgment is shown by the fact that Pinnie’s shockingly indiscreet attempts to comfort him didn’t make him reject his view in disgust. It was only after the full truth came out that he realized the romantic hints from his childhood, which he had never understood; they had seemed just part of his overly imaginative companion's usual ramblings. When he understood that, for years, she had made a fool of him, both to himself and others, he felt like he could have hit her, out of grief and shame; yet, before he could scold her, he had to remember that she only babbled (even though she claimed to have been incredibly speechless) about something he spent most of his time thinking about. When she tried to comfort him regarding the horror of his mother’s past by talking about how great the Purvises were and reminding him that he was related through them to half the aristocracy of England, he felt she was turning the tragedy of his life into a ridiculous farce; yet, he still held onto the belief that he was a born gentleman. He let her tell him nothing about the family in question, and his stoic attitude towards this topic was part of the reason for the deep sadness in her later years. If he had only allowed her to romanticize him a little, she would have felt she was somewhat making up for her huge mistake. He occasionally saw the names of his father’s family in the newspaper, but he always looked away. He had no questions for them and wanted to prove to himself that he could completely ignore them (who were willing to let him suffer) just as they ignored him. Definitely, he often told himself he was with the people, and every possible wrath of the people, against such blatant selfishness as that; but still, he was glad to feel that he had noble blood in his veins that justified the finest feelings.
He had no money to pay for places at a theatre in the Strand; Millicent Henning having made it clear to him that on this occasion she expected something better than the pit. “Should you like the royal box, or a couple of stalls at ten shillings apiece?” he asked of her, with a frankness of irony which, with this young lady, fortunately, it was perfectly possible to practise. She had answered that she would content herself with a seat in the second balcony, in the very front; and as such a position involved an expenditure which he was still unable to meet, he waited one night upon Mr Vetch, to whom he had already, more than once, had recourse in moments of pecuniary embarrassment. His relations with the caustic fiddler were peculiar; they were much better in fact than they were in theory. Mr Vetch had let him know—long before this, and with the purpose of covering Pinnie to the utmost—the part he had played when the question of the child’s being taken to Mrs Bowerbank’s institution was so distressingly presented; and Hyacinth, in the face of this information, had inquired, with some sublimity, what the devil the fiddler had to do with his private affairs. Anastasius Vetch had replied that it was not as an affair of his, but as an affair of Pinnie’s, that he had considered the matter; and Hyacinth afterwards had let the question drop, though he had never been formally reconciled to his officious neighbour. Of course his feeling about him had been immensely modified by the trouble Mr Vetch had taken to get him a place with old Crookenden; and at the period of which I write it had long been familiar to him that the fiddler didn’t care a straw what he thought of his advice at the famous crisis, and entertained himself with watching the career of a youth put together of such queer pieces. It was impossible to Hyacinth not to perceive that the old man’s interest was kindly; and to-day, at any rate, our hero would have declared that nothing could have made up to him for not knowing the truth, horrible as the truth might be. His miserable mother’s embrace seemed to furnish him with an inexhaustible fund of motive, and under the circumstances that was a benefit. What he chiefly objected to in Mr Vetch was a certain air of still regarding him as extremely juvenile; he would have got on with him much better if the fiddler had consented to recognise the degree in which he was already a man of the world. Vetch knew an immense deal about society, and he seemed to know the more because he never swaggered—it was only little by little you discovered it; but that was no reason for his looking as if his chief entertainment resided in a private, diverting commentary on the conversation of his young friend. Hyacinth felt that he himself gave considerable evidence of liking his fellow-resident in Lomax Place when he asked him to lend him half-a-crown. Somehow, circumstances, of old, had tied them together, and though this partly vexed the little bookbinder it also touched him; he had more than once solved the problem of deciding how to behave (when the fiddler exasperated him) by simply asking him some service. The old man had never refused. It was satisfactory to Hyacinth to remember this, as he knocked at his door, very late, after he had allowed him time to come home from the theatre. He knew his habits: Mr Vetch never went straight to bed, but sat by his fire an hour, smoking his pipe, mixing a grog, and reading some old book. Hyacinth knew when to go up by the light in his window, which he could see from a court behind.
He had no money to buy tickets for a theater in the Strand; Millicent Henning had made it clear that this time she expected something better than the cheap seats. “Would you prefer the royal box, or a couple of stalls at ten shillings each?” he asked her, with a frank sense of irony that he could express around this young lady without any issue. She replied that she would be satisfied with a seat in the second balcony, right at the front; and since that option cost more than he could afford, he decided to wait one night for Mr. Vetch, to whom he had previously turned for help during financial difficulties. His relationship with the sharp-tongued fiddler was unusual; it was much better in practice than in theory. Mr. Vetch had let him know—long before this, and in order to cover Pinnie as much as possible—the role he had played when the issue of the child being sent to Mrs. Bowerbank’s institution was distressingly discussed; and Hyacinth, faced with this information, had asked, rather loftily, what the fiddler had to do with his personal matters. Anastasius Vetch replied that he viewed it not as his business, but as Pinnie’s, and Hyacinth had eventually let the matter go, even though he had never completely reconciled with his overly involved neighbor. His feelings about Mr. Vetch had changed significantly because of the trouble Vetch took to secure him a position with old Crookenden; and during the time I’m describing, Hyacinth was well aware that the fiddler didn’t care at all about what he thought of his advice during that significant moment, and instead took amusement in observing the life of a young man made up of such odd pieces. It was impossible for Hyacinth not to see that the old man’s interest was genuine; and today, at least, our hero would have said that nothing could compensate for not knowing the truth, no matter how horrible it might be. His desperate mother’s embrace seemed to provide him with an endless source of motivation, and given the circumstances, that was a relief. What he mainly disliked about Mr. Vetch was his tendency to still treat him like a child; he would have had a much better rapport with him if the fiddler had agreed to acknowledge how much he was already a part of the adult world. Vetch was very knowledgeable about society, and he seemed to know even more because he never bragged—it was only gradually that you discovered his insights; but that didn’t mean he should look as if his main enjoyment came from a private, amusing commentary on the conversations of his young friend. Hyacinth felt that he demonstrated a considerable amount of fondness for his fellow resident in Lomax Place when he asked him to lend him half-a-crown. Somehow, circumstances from the past had tied them together, and while this sometimes annoyed the little bookbinder, it also moved him; he had often resolved the dilemma of how to act (when the fiddler frustrated him) simply by asking him for a favor. The old man had never said no. Hyacinth found that reassuring as he knocked on his door very late, having given him time to return from the theater. He knew his routine: Mr. Vetch never went straight to bed but would sit by his fire for an hour, smoking his pipe, mixing a drink, and reading some old book. Hyacinth was aware of when to go upstairs by the light in his window, which he could see from a courtyard behind.
“Oh, I know I haven’t been to see you for a long time,” he said, in response to the remark with which the fiddler greeted him; “and I may as well tell you immediately what has brought me at present—in addition to the desire to ask after your health. I want to take a young lady to the theatre.”
“Oh, I know I haven’t visited you in a while,” he said, responding to the fiddler’s greeting; “and I might as well tell you right away why I'm here—besides wanting to check on your health. I want to bring a young lady to the theater.”
Mr Vetch was habited in a tattered dressing-gown; his apartment smelt strongly of the liquor he was consuming. Divested of his evening-gear he looked to our hero so plucked and blighted that on the spot Hyacinth ceased to hesitate as to his claims in the event of a social liquidation; he, too, was unmistakably a creditor. “I’m afraid you find your young lady rather expensive.”
Mr. Vetch was wearing a worn-out bathrobe; his room had a strong smell of the drink he was consuming. Without his evening attire, he looked so worn and defeated that right then, Hyacinth stopped doubting his claims in case of a social fallout; he, too, was clearly a creditor. “I’m afraid your young lady is quite expensive.”
“I find everything expensive,” said Hyacinth, as if to finish that subject.
“I think everything is overpriced,” said Hyacinth, as if to wrap up that topic.
“Especially, I suppose, your secret societies.”
“Especially, I guess, your secret societies.”
“What do you mean by that?” the young man asked, staring.
“What do you mean by that?” the young man asked, staring.
“Why, you told me, in the autumn, that you were just about to join a few.”
“Why, you told me in the fall that you were just about to join a few.”
“A few? How many do you suppose?” And Hyacinth checked himself. “Do you suppose if I had been serious I would tell?”
“A few? How many do you think?” And Hyacinth held back. “Do you really think I would share if I was being serious?”
“Oh dear, oh dear,” Mr Vetch murmured, with a sigh. Then he went on: “You want to take her to my shop, eh?”
“Oh man, oh man,” Mr. Vetch said, with a sigh. Then he added, “You want to take her to my shop, right?”
“I’m sorry to say she won’t go there. She wants something in the Strand: that’s a great point. She wants very much to see the Pearl of Paraguay. I don’t wish to pay anything, if possible; I am sorry to say I haven’t a penny. But as you know people at the other theatres, and I have heard you say that you do each other little favours, from place to place—à charge de revanche, as the French say—it occurred to me that you might be able to get me an order. The piece has been running a long time, and most people (except poor devils like me) must have seen it: therefore there probably isn’t a rush.”
“I’m sorry to say she won’t go there. She wants something in the Strand: that’s a big deal. She really wants to see the Pearl of Paraguay. I don’t wish to pay anything, if possible; I'm sorry to say I don’t have a penny. But since you know people at the other theaters, and I’ve heard you say that you help each other out with little favors—à charge de revanche, as the French say—it occurred to me that you might be able to get me an order. The show has been running for a while, and most people (except for poor souls like me) must have seen it: therefore, there probably isn’t a rush.”
Mr Vetch listened in silence, and presently he said, “Do you want a box?”
Mr. Vetch listened quietly, and then he said, “Do you want a box?”
“Oh no; something more modest.”
“Oh no; something simpler.”
“Why not a box?” asked the fiddler, in a tone which Hyacinth knew.
“Why not a box?” asked the fiddler, in a voice that Hyacinth recognized.
“Because I haven’t got the clothes that people wear in that sort of place, if you must have such a definite reason.”
“Because I don’t have the clothes that people wear in that kind of place, if you really need a specific reason.”
“And your young lady—has she got the clothes?”
“And your girl—does she have the clothes?”
“Oh, I dare say; she seems to have everything.”
“Oh, I definitely think she has it all.”
“Where does she get them?”
“Where does she buy them?”
“Oh, I don’t know. She belongs to a big shop; she has to be fine.”
“Oh, I don’t know. She works at a big store; she has to be classy.”
“Won’t you have a pipe?” Mr Vetch asked, pushing an old tobacco-pouch across the table to his visitor; and while the young man helped himself he puffed a while in silence. “What will she do with you?” he inquired at last.
“Won’t you take a pipe?” Mr. Vetch asked, sliding an old tobacco pouch across the table to his guest; and while the young man helped himself, he smoked in silence for a moment. “What will she do with you?” he finally asked.
“What will who do with me?”
“What will anyone do with me?”
“Your big beauty—Miss Henning. I know all about her from Pinnie.”
“Your great beauty—Miss Henning. I’ve heard all about her from Pinnie.”
“Then you know what she’ll do with me!” Hyacinth returned, with rather a scornful laugh.
“Then you know what she’s going to do with me!” Hyacinth replied, with a pretty scornful laugh.
“Yes, but, after all, it doesn’t very much matter.”
“Yes, but honestly, it doesn't really matter that much.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about,” said Hyacinth.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” said Hyacinth.
“Well, now the other matter—the International—are you very deep in that?” the fiddler went on, as if he had not heard him.
“Well, about the other thing—the International—are you really involved in that?” the fiddler continued, as if he hadn't heard him.
“Did Pinnie tell you all about that?” his visitor asked.
“Did Pinnie fill you in on that?” his visitor asked.
“No, our friend Eustace has told me a good deal. He knows you have put your head into something. Besides, I see it,” said Mr Vetch.
“No, our friend Eustace has shared quite a bit with me. He knows you’ve gotten involved in something. Plus, I can see it,” said Mr. Vetch.
“How do you see it, pray?”
“How do you see it, please?”
“You have got such a speaking eye. Any one can tell, to look at you, that you have become a nihilist, that you’re a member of a secret society. You seem to say to every one, ‘Slow torture won’t induce me to tell where it meets!’”
“You have such an expressive eye. Anyone can tell just by looking at you that you've become a nihilist, that you're part of a secret society. You seem to be saying to everyone, ‘No amount of slow torture will make me reveal where it gathers!’”
“You won’t get me an order, then?” Hyacinth said, in a moment.
“You're not going to get me an order, then?” Hyacinth said, after a moment.
“My dear boy, I offer you a box. I take the greatest interest in you.”
“My dear boy, I have a gift for you. I’m really interested in you.”
They smoked together a while, and at last Hyacinth remarked, “It has nothing to do with the International.”
They smoked together for a bit, and eventually Hyacinth said, “It has nothing to do with the International.”
“Is it more terrible—more deadly secret?” his companion inquired, looking at him with extreme seriousness.
“Is it worse—more deadly?” his companion asked, looking at him with intense seriousness.
“I thought you pretended to be a radical,” answered Hyacinth.
“I thought you were pretending to be a radical,” Hyacinth replied.
“Well, so I am—of the old-fashioned, constitutional, milk-and-water, jog-trot sort. I’m not an exterminator.”
“Well, that's me—old-fashioned, constitutional, kind of bland, and steady. I'm not someone who takes extreme measures.”
“We don’t know what we may be when the time comes,” Hyacinth rejoined, more sententiously than he intended.
“We don’t know who we might be when the time comes,” Hyacinth replied, more seriously than he meant to.
“Is the time coming, then, my dear boy?”
“Is the time coming, then, my dear boy?”
“I don’t think I have a right to give you any more of a warning than that,” said our hero, smiling.
“I don’t think I have any more of a warning to give you than that,” our hero said, smiling.
“It’s very kind of you to do so much, I’m sure, and to rush in here at the small hours for the purpose. Meanwhile, in the few weeks, or months, or years, or whatever they are, that are left, you wish to put in as much enjoyment as you can squeeze, with the young ladies: that’s a very natural inclination.” Then, irrelevantly, Mr Vetch inquired, “Do you see many foreigners?”
“It’s really nice of you to do so much, I'm sure, and to rush in here at this early hour for it. In the time we have left—whether it's weeks, months, or years—you want to make the most of it and enjoy yourself with the young ladies. That’s completely understandable.” Then, somewhat out of the blue, Mr. Vetch asked, “Do you meet many foreigners?”
“Yes, I see a good many.”
“Yes, I see quite a few.”
“And what do you think of them?”
“And what do you think about them?”
“Oh, all sorts of things. I rather like Englishmen better.”
“Oh, all kinds of things. I actually prefer Englishmen.”
“Mr Muniment, for example?”
"Mr. Muniment, for instance?"
“I say, what do you know about him?” Hyacinth asked.
“I mean, what do you know about him?” Hyacinth asked.
“I’ve seen him at Eustace’s. I know that you and he are as thick as thieves.”
“I’ve seen him at Eustace’s. I know that you two are really close.”
“He will distinguish himself some day, very much,” said Hyacinth, who was perfectly willing, and indeed very proud, to be thought a close ally of the chemist’s assistant.
“He will stand out someday, for sure,” said Hyacinth, who was more than happy, and actually quite proud, to be seen as a close ally of the chemist’s assistant.
“Very likely—very likely. And what will he do with you?” the fiddler inquired.
“Probably—probably. And what will he do with you?” the fiddler asked.
Hyacinth got up; the two men looked at each other for an instant. “Do get me two good places in the second balcony,” said Hyacinth.
Hyacinth got up; the two men exchanged a glance for a moment. “Please, get me two good seats in the second balcony,” Hyacinth said.
Mr Vetch replied that he would do what he could, and three days afterwards he gave the coveted order to his young friend. As he placed it in his hands he said, “You had better put in all the fun you can, you know!”
Mr. Vetch replied that he would do what he could, and three days later he gave the desired order to his young friend. As he handed it over, he said, “You’d better include as much fun as you can, you know!”
XII
Hyacinth and his companion took their seats with extreme promptitude before the curtain rose upon the Pearl of Paraguay. Thanks to Millicent’s eagerness not to be late they encountered the discomfort which had constituted her main objection to going into the pit: they waited for twenty minutes at the door of the theatre, in a tight, stolid crowd, before the official hour of opening. Millicent, bareheaded and very tightly laced, presented a most splendid appearance and, on Hyacinth’s part, gratified a certain youthful, ingenuous pride of possession in every respect save a tendency, while ingress was denied them, to make her neighbours feel her elbows and to comment, loudly and sarcastically, on the situation. It was more clear to him even than it had been before that she was a young lady who in public places might easily need a champion or an apologist. Hyacinth knew there was only one way to apologise for a ‘female’, when the female was attached very closely and heavily to one’s arm, and was reminded afresh how little constitutional aversion Miss Henning had to a row. He had an idea she might think his own taste ran even too little in that direction, and had visions of violent, confused scenes, in which he should in some way distinguish himself: he scarcely knew in what way, and imagined himself more easily routing some hulking adversary by an exquisite application of the retort courteous than by flying at him with a pair of very small fists.
Hyacinth and his companion quickly took their seats before the curtain went up on the Pearl of Paraguay. Thanks to Millicent’s eagerness not to be late, they faced the discomfort that had been her main reason for avoiding the pit: they waited for twenty minutes at the theater door, stuck in a tight, unyielding crowd, before the scheduled opening time. Millicent, bareheaded and very tightly laced, looked stunning, and Hyacinth felt a youthful, innocent pride in having her by his side—except for the fact that, while they were waiting to get in, she was elbowing her neighbors and making loud, sarcastic comments about the situation. It was clearer to him than before that she was a young lady who might easily need a protector or an excuse in public. Hyacinth knew there was only one way to apologize for a 'female' when she was closely and heavily linked to his arm, and he was reminded again of Miss Henning's complete lack of hesitation when it came to causing a scene. He thought she might believe his own taste leaned too little that way and had visions of chaotic, loud confrontations where he would somehow stand out: he wasn’t sure how, and he imagined he would be better at elegantly delivering witty comebacks than at attacking someone with his very small fists.
By the time they had reached their places in the balcony Millicent was rather flushed and a good deal ruffled; but she had composed herself in season for the rising of the curtain upon the farce which preceded the melodrama and which the pair had had no intention of losing. At this stage a more genial agitation took possession of her, and she surrendered her sympathies to the horse-play of the traditional prelude. Hyacinth found it less amusing, but the theatre, in any conditions, was full of sweet deception for him. His imagination projected itself lovingly across the footlights, gilded and coloured the shabby canvas and battered accessories, and lost itself so effectually in the fictive world that the end of the piece, however long, or however short, brought with it a kind of alarm, like a stoppage of his personal life. It was impossible to be more friendly to the dramatic illusion. Millicent, as the audience thickened, rejoiced more largely and loudly, held herself as a lady, surveyed the place as if she knew all about it, leaned back and leaned forward, fanned herself with majesty, gave her opinion upon the appearance and coiffure of every woman within sight, abounded in question and conjecture, and produced, from her pocket, a little paper of peppermint-drops, of which, under cruel threats, she compelled Hyacinth to partake. She followed with attention, though not always with success, the complicated adventures of the Pearl of Paraguay, through scenes luxuriantly tropical, in which the male characters wore sombreros and stilettos, and the ladies either danced the cachucha or fled from licentious pursuit; but her eyes wandered, during considerable periods, to the occupants of the boxes and stalls, concerning several of whom she had theories which she imparted to Hyacinth while the play went on, greatly to his discomfiture, he being unable to conceive of such levity. She had the pretension of knowing who every one was; not individually and by name, but as regards their exact social station, the quarter of London in which they lived, and the amount of money they were prepared to spend in the neighbourhood of Buckingham Palace. She had seen the whole town pass through her establishment there, and though Hyacinth, from his infancy, had been watching it from his own point of view, his companion made him feel that he had missed a thousand characteristic points, so different were most of her interpretations from his, and so very bold and irreverent. Miss Henning’s observation of human society had not been of a nature to impress her with its high moral tone, and she had a free off-hand cynicism which imposed itself. She thought most ladies were hypocrites, and had, in all ways, a low opinion of her own sex, which, more then once, before this, she had justified to Hyacinth by narrating observations of the most surprising kind, gathered during her career as a shop-girl. There was a pleasing inconsequence, therefore, in her being moved to tears in the third act of the play, when the Pearl of Paraguay, dishevelled and distracted, dragging herself on her knees, implored the stern hidalgo her father, to believe in her innocence in spite of the circumstances which seemed to condemn her—a midnight meeting with the wicked hero in the grove of cocoanuts. It was at this crisis, none the less, that she asked Hyacinth who his friends were in the principal box on the left of the stage, and let him know that a gentleman seated there had been watching him, at intervals, for the past half-hour.
By the time they took their seats in the balcony, Millicent was a bit flushed and pretty ruffled; however, she managed to collect herself just in time for the curtain to rise on the farce that came before the melodrama, which they definitely didn’t want to miss. At this point, a more cheerful excitement took over her, and she let herself enjoy the playful antics of the typical pre-show. Hyacinth found it less entertaining, but for him, the theater was always filled with sweet illusions. His imagination lovingly reached across the stage, gilding and coloring the worn-out canvas and battered props, completely immersing him in the fictional world, so much so that the end of the performance, no matter how long or short, felt like a personal jolt, almost interrupting his own life. It was impossible to be more supportive of the dramatic illusion. As the audience grew larger, Millicent became more animated and vocal, behaving like a lady, taking in her surroundings as if she knew everything, leaning back and forward, fanning herself grandly, sharing her opinions on the looks and hairstyles of every woman in sight, overflowing with questions and speculations. From her pocket, she pulled out a small packet of peppermint drops, which she forced Hyacinth to try, despite his protests. She followed, though not always successfully, the complicated adventures of the Pearl of Paraguay through lush, tropical scenes where the male characters wore sombreros and stilettos, and the women either danced the cachucha or fled from shameless pursuits. But her gaze frequently drifted to the people in the boxes and stalls, about whom she had theories that she shared with Hyacinth during the play, much to his discomfort, as he couldn’t fathom such frivolity. She pretended to know exactly who everyone was—not personally and by name, but regarding their precise social standing, the neighborhood in London where they lived, and how much money they were willing to spend near Buckingham Palace. She had seen the whole town pass through her shop, and although Hyacinth had been observing it from his perspective since he was a child, his companion made him feel that he had overlooked countless distinctive details, as most of her interpretations were so different from his and quite bold and irreverent. Miss Henning's observations of society hadn’t led her to believe in its high moral standards, and she had a straightforward, cynical attitude that was quite imposing. She thought most women were hypocrites and held a low opinion of her own gender, which she had justified to Hyacinth before by sharing the most surprising observations she'd made throughout her time as a shop girl. Therefore, it was somewhat contradictory that she was moved to tears during the third act of the play when the Pearl of Paraguay, disheveled and distraught, crawled on her knees, begging her stern father, the hidalgo, to believe in her innocence despite the circumstances that seemed to condemn her—a midnight rendezvous with the wicked hero in the coconut grove. It was at this moment, nonetheless, that she asked Hyacinth who his friends were in the main box to the left of the stage and let him know that a gentleman sitting there had been watching him for the past half-hour.
“Watching me! I like that!” said the young man. “When I want to be watched I take you with me.”
“Watching me! I like that!” said the young man. “When I want attention, I take you with me.”
“Of course he has looked at me,” Millicent answered, as if she had no interest in denying that. “But you’re the one he wants to get hold of.”
“Of course he’s looked at me,” Millicent replied, as if she had no interest in denying it. “But you’re the one he wants to get to.”
“To get hold of!”
“Get your hands on!”
“Yes, you ninny: don’t hang back. He may make your fortune.”
“Yes, you fool: don’t hold back. He might change your life.”
“Well, if you would like him to come and sit by you I’ll go and take a walk in the Strand,” said Hyacinth, entering into the humour of the occasion but not seeing, from where he was placed, any gentleman in the box. Millicent explained that the mysterious observer had just altered his position; he had gone into the back of the box, which had considerable depth. There were other persons in it, out of sight; she and Hyacinth were too much on the same side. One of them was a lady, concealed by the curtain; her arm, bare save for its bracelets, was visible at moments on the cushioned ledge. Hyacinth saw it, in effect, reappear there, and even while the play went on contemplated it with a certain interest; but until the curtain fell at the end of the act there was no further symptom that a gentleman wished to get hold of him.
“Well, if you want him to come and sit next to you, I’ll take a walk in the Strand,” Hyacinth said, playing along but not seeing any guy in the box from where he was. Millicent explained that the mysterious observer had just moved; he had gone to the back of the box, which was quite deep. There were other people in it, out of sight; she and Hyacinth were too far on the same side. One of them was a lady, hidden by the curtain; her bare arm, only adorned with bracelets, occasionally appeared on the cushioned ledge. Hyacinth noticed it reappear there and, even while the play continued, found himself somewhat intrigued by it; but until the curtain fell at the end of the act, there was no other sign that a gentleman wanted to reach out to him.
“Now do you say it’s me he’s after?” Millicent asked abruptly, giving him a sidelong dig, as the fiddlers in the orchestra began to scrape their instruments for the interlude.
“Now are you saying he’s after me?” Millicent asked suddenly, giving him a sideways shove as the fiddlers in the orchestra started to play their instruments for the break.
“Of course; I am only the pretext,” Hyacinth replied, after he had looked a moment, in a manner which he flattered himself was a proof of quick self-possession. The gentleman designated by his companion was once more at the front, leaning forward, with his arms on the edge. Hyacinth saw that he was looking straight at him, and our young man returned his gaze—an effort not rendered the more easy by the fact that, after an instant, he recognised him.
“Of course; I’m just the excuse,” Hyacinth replied, after he paused briefly, thinking it showed he was quick on his feet. The gentleman his friend pointed out was back in front, leaning forward with his arms resting on the edge. Hyacinth noticed he was staring directly at him, and our young man met his gaze—an effort made more challenging when, after a moment, he recognized him.
“Well, if he knows us he might give some sign, and if he doesn’t he might leave us alone,” Millicent declared, abandoning the distinction she had made between herself and her companion. She had no sooner spoken than the gentleman complied with the first mentioned of these conditions; he smiled at Hyacinth across the house—he nodded to him with unmistakable friendliness. Millicent, perceiving this, glanced at the young man from Lomax Place and saw that the demonstration had brought a deep colour to his cheek. He was blushing, flushing; whether with pleasure or embarrassment was not immediately apparent to her. “I say, I say—is it one of your grand relations?” she promptly exclaimed. “Well, I can stare as well as him;” and she told Hyacinth it was a ‘shime’ to bring a young lady to the play when you hadn’t so much as an opera-glass for her to look at the company. “Is he one of those lords your aunt was always talking about in the Plice? Is he your uncle, or your grandfather, or your first or second cousin? No, he’s too young for your grandfather. What a pity I can’t see if he looks like you!”
“Well, if he knows us, he might give us a sign, and if he doesn’t, he might just leave us alone,” Millicent said, dropping the distinction between herself and her companion. No sooner had she spoken than the gentleman met her expectation; he smiled at Hyacinth from across the room—he nodded at him with clear friendliness. Millicent, noticing this, looked at the young man from Lomax Place and saw that the gesture had brought a deep color to his cheeks. He was blushing; whether it was from pleasure or embarrassment wasn’t immediately clear to her. “I say, I say—is he one of your fancy relatives?” she exclaimed. “Well, I can stare just as well as he can;” and she told Hyacinth it was a ‘shame’ to bring a young lady to the theater when you didn’t even have an opera glass for her to see the actors. “Is he one of those lords your aunt always talked about in the Plice? Is he your uncle, your grandfather, or your first or second cousin? No, he’s too young to be your grandfather. What a pity I can’t see if he looks like you!”
At any other time Hyacinth would have thought these inquiries in the worst possible taste, but now he was too much given up to other reflections. It pleased him that the gentleman in the box should recognise and notice him, because even so small a fact as this was an extension of his social existence; but it also surprised and puzzled him, and it produced, generally, in his easily-excited organism, an agitation of which, in spite of his attempted self-control, the appearance he presented to Millicent was the sign. They had met three times, he and his fellow-spectator; but they had met under circumstances which, to Hyacinth’s mind, would have made a furtive wink, a mere tremor of the eyelid, a more judicious reference to the fact than so public a salutation. Hyacinth would never have permitted himself to greet him first; and this was not because the gentleman in the box belonged—conspicuously as he did so—to a different walk of society. He was apparently a man of forty, tall and lean and loose-jointed; he fell into lounging, dawdling attitudes, and even at a distance he looked lazy. He had a long, smooth, amused, contented face, unadorned with moustache or whisker, and his brown hair parted itself evenly over his forehead, and came forward on either temple in a rich, well-brushed lock which gave his countenance a certain analogy to portraits of English gentlemen about the year 1820. Millicent Henning had a glance of such range and keenness that she was able to make out the details of his evening-dress, of which she appreciated the ‘form’; to observe the character of his large hands; and to note that he appeared to be perpetually smiling, that his eyes were extraordinarily light in colour, and that in spite of the dark, well-marked brows arching over them, his fine skin never had produced, and never would produce, a beard. Our young lady pronounced him mentally a ‘swell’ of the first magnitude, and wondered more than ever where he had picked up Hyacinth. Her companion seemed to echo her thought when he exclaimed, with a little surprised sigh, almost an exhalation of awe, “Well, I had no idea he was one of that lot!”
At any other time, Hyacinth would have thought these questions were in really bad taste, but right now he was too caught up in his own thoughts. He liked that the man in the box recognized and noticed him because even such a small fact felt like an extension of his social life; but it also surprised and confused him, causing a general agitation that, despite his efforts to stay composed, was evident to Millicent. They had met three times, he and his fellow spectator, but under circumstances that, in Hyacinth’s mind, would have made a discreet wink or a slight twitch of the eyelid a more appropriate acknowledgment than such a public greeting. Hyacinth would never have allowed himself to say hello first, and this wasn’t just because the man in the box clearly belonged to a different social class. He looked to be about forty, tall and lean with loose joints; he adopted lazy, lounging postures, and even from a distance, he seemed relaxed. He had a long, smooth, amused, and content face, without a mustache or beard, and his brown hair was neatly parted over his forehead, framing his temples with well-groomed locks that gave his face a resemblance to portraits of English gentlemen from around 1820. Millicent Henning had such sharp and keen vision that she could see the details of his evening suit, appreciate its style, observe the nature of his large hands, and note that he always seemed to be smiling, that his eyes were an unusually light color, and that despite his dark, prominent eyebrows, his fine skin had never produced and would never produce a beard. Our young lady mentally labeled him a major “swell” and wondered even more about where he had met Hyacinth. Her companion seemed to share her thoughts when he exclaimed, with a hint of surprise and awe, “Well, I had no idea he was one of that lot!”
“You might at least tell me his name, so that I shall know what to call him when he comes round to speak to us,” the girl said, provoked at her companion’s incommunicativeness.
“You could at least tell me his name, so I’ll know what to call him when he comes by to talk to us,” the girl said, annoyed by her friend’s unwillingness to share.
“Comes round to speak to us—a chap like that!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Comes around to talk to us—a guy like that!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Well, I’m sure if he had been your own brother he couldn’t have grinned at you more! He may want to make my acquaintance after all; he won’t be the first.”
“Well, I’m sure if he had been your own brother, he couldn’t have smiled at you more! Maybe he actually wants to get to know me after all; he won’t be the first.”
The gentleman had once more retreated from sight, and there was as much evidence as that of the intention Millicent attributed to him. “I don’t think I’m at all clear that I have a right to tell his name,” he remarked, with sincerity, but with a considerable disposition at the same time to magnify an incident which deepened the brilliancy of the entertainment he had been able to offer Miss Henning. “I met him in a place where he may not like to have it known that he goes.”
The guy had once again disappeared from view, and there was as much proof of the intention Millicent believed he had. “I’m not sure I really have the right to reveal his name,” he said honestly, but he also seemed pretty inclined to make a bigger deal out of something that added to the excitement of the event he had hosted for Miss Henning. “I ran into him in a spot where he might not want it known that he hangs out.”
“Do you go to places that people are ashamed of? Is it one of your political clubs, as you call them, where that dirty young man from Camberwell, Mr Monument (what do you call him?), fills your head with ideas that’ll bring you to no good? I’m sure your friend over there doesn’t look as if he’d be on your side.”
“Do you go to places that people are embarrassed about? Is it one of your political clubs, as you call them, where that scruffy young guy from Camberwell, Mr. Monument (what do you call him?), fills your head with ideas that won’t lead to anything good? I’m sure your friend over there doesn’t look like he would be on your side.”
Hyacinth had indulged in this reflection himself; but the only answer he made to Millicent was, “Well, then, perhaps he’ll be on yours!”
Hyacinth had thought about this himself; but the only response he gave to Millicent was, “Well, then, maybe he’ll be on yours!”
“Laws, I hope she ain’t one of the aristocracy!” Millicent exclaimed, with apparent irrelevance; and following the direction of her eyes Hyacinth saw that the chair his mysterious acquaintance had quitted in the stage-box was now occupied by a lady hitherto invisible—not the one who had given them a glimpse of her shoulder and bare arm. This was an ancient personage, muffled in a voluminous, crumpled white shawl—a stout, odd, foreign-looking woman, whose head apparently was surmounted with a light-coloured wig. She had a placid, patient air and a round, wrinkled face, in which, however, a small, bright eye moved quickly enough. Her rather soiled white gloves were too large for her, and round her head, horizontally arranged, as if to keep her wig in its place, she wore a narrow band of tinsel, decorated, in the middle of the forehead, by a jewel which the rest of her appearance would lead the spectator to suppose false. “Is the old woman his mother? Where did she dig up her clothes? They look as if she had hired them for the evening. Does she come to your wonderful club, too? I dare say she cuts it fine, don’t she?” Millicent went on; and when Hyacinth suggested, sportively, that the old lady might be, not the gentleman’s mother, but his wife or his ‘fancy’, she declared that in that case, if he should come to see them, she wasn’t afraid. No wonder he wanted to get out of that box! The woman in the wig was sitting there on purpose to look at them, but she couldn’t say she was particularly honoured by the notice of such an old guy. Hyacinth pretended that he liked her appearance and thought her very handsome; he offered to bet another paper of peppermints that if they could find out she would be some tremendous old dowager, some one with a handle to her name. To this Millicent replied, with an air of experience, that she had never thought the greatest beauty was in the upper class; and her companion could see that she was covertly looking over her shoulder to watch for his political friend and that she would be disappointed if he did not come. This idea did not make Hyacinth jealous, for his mind was occupied with another side of the business; and if he offered sportive suggestions it was because he was really excited, dazzled, by an incident of which the reader will have failed as yet to perceive the larger relations. What moved him was not the pleasure of being patronised by a rich man; it was simply the prospect of new experience—a sensation for which he was always ready to exchange any present boon; and he was convinced that if the gentleman with whom he had conversed in a small occult back-room in Bloomsbury as Captain Godfrey Sholto—the Captain had given him his card—had more positively than in Millicent’s imagination come out of the stage-box to see him, he would bring with him rare influences. This nervous presentiment, lighting on our young man, was so keen that it constituted almost a preparation; therefore, when at the end of a few minutes he became aware that Millicent, with her head turned (her face was in his direction), was taking the measure of some one who had come in behind them, he felt that fate was doing for him, by way of a change, as much as could be expected. He got up in his place, but not too soon to see that Captain Sholto had been standing there a moment in contemplation of Millicent, and that this young lady had performed with deliberation the ceremony of taking his measure. The Captain had his hands in his pockets, and wore a crush-hat, pushed a good deal backward. He laughed at the young couple in the balcony in the friendliest way, as if he had known them both for years, and Millicent could see, on a nearer view, that he was a fine, distinguished, easy, genial gentleman, at least six feet high, in spite of a habit, or an affectation, of carrying himself in a casual, relaxed, familiar manner. Hyacinth felt a little, after the first moment, as if he were treating them rather too much as a pair of children whom he had stolen upon, to startle; but this impression was speedily removed by the air with which he said, laying his hand on our hero’s shoulder as he stood in the little passage at the end of the bench where the holders of Mr Vetch’s order occupied the first seats, “My dear fellow, I really thought I must come round and speak to you. My spirits are all gone with this brute of a play. And those boxes are fearfully stuffy, you know,” he added, as if Hyacinth had had at least an equal experience of that part of the theatre.
“Laws, I hope she isn’t one of those aristocrats!” Millicent exclaimed, clearly unrelated to the conversation; and following her gaze, Hyacinth noticed that the chair his mysterious acquaintance had just vacated in the stage-box was now occupied by a lady previously unseen—different from the one who had shown them a glimpse of her shoulder and bare arm. This was an elderly woman, wrapped in a large, wrinkled white shawl—a stout, peculiar-looking foreigner, whose head appeared to be topped with a light-colored wig. She had a calm, patient demeanor and a round, wrinkled face, in which, however, a small, bright eye moved quickly. Her somewhat dirty white gloves were too big for her, and around her head, arranged horizontally to keep her wig in place, she wore a narrow band of tinsel, adorned in the center of her forehead with a jewel that her overall appearance led one to think was fake. “Is that old lady his mother? Where did she get her clothes? They look like they were rented for the night. Does she come to your fancy club too? I bet she sticks out, doesn’t she?” Millicent continued; and when Hyacinth jokingly suggested that the old lady might be not the man’s mother, but his wife or his ‘fancy,’ she responded that in that case, if he came to see them, she wouldn’t be worried. No wonder he wanted to escape that box! The woman in the wig was sitting there just to stare at them, but she couldn’t say she felt particularly honored by the attention from such an old guy. Hyacinth pretended to appreciate her appearance and thought she was quite attractive; he wagered another pack of peppermints that if they looked deeper, she would turn out to be some grand old dowager, someone with a title. To this, Millicent replied, with an air of wisdom, that she had never believed that the greatest beauty was found in the upper class; and her companion could see that she was subtly glancing over her shoulder to look for his political friend and that she would be disappointed if he didn’t show up. This notion didn’t make Hyacinth jealous, as his mind was focused on another aspect of the situation; and if he made light-hearted comments, it was because he was truly excited, dazzled by a moment whose broader connections the reader has yet to grasp. What moved him wasn’t the thrill of being noticed by a wealthy man; it was simply the promise of a new experience—a feeling for which he was always eager to trade any current blessing; and he was convinced that if the gentleman he had talked to in a small, obscure back-room in Bloomsbury as Captain Godfrey Sholto—the Captain had given him his card—had more decisively than in Millicent’s imagination come out of the stage-box to see him, he would bring with him rare influences. This nervous feeling, striking our young man, was so intense that it almost served as a preparation; thus, when after a few minutes he noticed that Millicent, her head turned (her face facing him), was sizing up someone who had come in behind them, he sensed that fate was doing for him, in a change of pace, as much as he could hope for. He stood up in his spot, but not before seeing that Captain Sholto had been standing there for a moment, observing Millicent, and that this young lady had deliberately taken his measure. The Captain had his hands in his pockets and wore a crush hat, pushed back quite a bit. He laughed at the young couple in the balcony in the friendliest way, as if he had known them both for ages, and Millicent could see, with a closer look, that he was a fine, distinguished, easy-going gentleman, at least six feet tall, despite a tendency, or affectation, to carry himself in a laid-back, casual manner. Hyacinth felt a bit, after the initial moment, as if he were treating them a little too much like a pair of kids he had snuck up on, to surprise; but this feeling quickly faded by the way he spoke, resting his hand on Hyacinth’s shoulder as he stood in the small corridor at the end of the bench where the holders of Mr. Vetch’s order occupied the front seats, saying, “My dear fellow, I really felt I had to come over and talk to you. I’m completely drained by this wretched play. And those boxes are incredibly stuffy, you know,” he added, as if Hyacinth had at least as much experience with that part of the theater.
“It’s hot here, too,” Millicent’s companion murmured. He had suddenly become much more conscious of the high temperature, of his proximity to the fierce chandelier, and he added that the plot of the play certainly was unnatural, though he thought the piece rather well acted.
“It’s hot here, too,” Millicent’s companion said quietly. He had suddenly become much more aware of the heat, of how close he was to the glaring chandelier, and he added that the story of the play was definitely strange, although he thought it was acted quite well.
“Oh, it’s the good old stodgy British tradition. This is the only place where you find it still, and even here it can’t last much longer; it can’t survive old Baskerville and Mrs Ruffler. ’Gad, how old they are! I remember her, long past her prime, when I used to be taken to the play, as a boy, in the Christmas holidays. Between them, they must be something like a hundred and eighty, eh? I believe one is supposed to cry a good deal about the middle,” Captain Sholto continued, in the same friendly, familiar, encouraging way, addressing himself to Millicent, upon whom, indeed, his eyes had rested almost uninterruptedly from the first. She sustained his glance with composure, but with just enough of an expression of reserve to intimate (what was perfectly true) that she was not in the habit of conversing with gentlemen with whom she was not acquainted. She turned away her face at this (she had already given the visitor the benefit of a good deal of it) and left him, as in the little passage he leaned against the parapet of the balcony with his back to the stage, confronted with Hyacinth, who was now wondering, with rather more vivid a sense of the relations of things, what he had come for. He wanted to do him honour, in return for his civility, but he did not know what one could talk about, at such short notice, to a person whom he immediately perceived to be, in a most extensive, a really transcendent sense of the term, a man of the world. He instantly saw Captain Sholto did not take the play seriously, so that he felt himself warned off that topic, on which, otherwise, he might have had much to say. On the other hand he could not, in the presence of a third person, allude to the matters they had discussed at the ‘Sun and Moon’; nor could he suppose his visitor would expect this, though indeed he impressed him as a man of humours and whims, who was amusing himself with everything, including esoteric socialism and a little bookbinder who had so much more of the gentleman about him than one would expect. Captain Sholto may have been a little embarrassed, now that he was completely launched in his attempt at fraternisation, especially after failing to elicit a smile from Millicent’s respectability; but he left to Hyacinth the burden of no initiative, and went on to say that it was just this prospect of the dying-out of the old British tradition that had brought him to-night. He was with a friend, a lady who had lived much abroad, who had never seen anything of the kind, and who liked everything that was characteristic. “You know the foreign school of acting is a very different affair,” he said, again to Millicent, who this time replied, “Oh yes, of course,” and considering afresh the old lady in the box, reflected that she looked as if there were nothing in the world that she, at least, hadn’t seen.
“Oh, it’s the classic, stuffy British tradition. This is the only place you’ll still find it, and even here it won’t last much longer; it can’t survive old Baskerville and Mrs. Ruffler. Goodness, how old they are! I remember her, long past her prime, when I was a boy taken to the theater during the Christmas holidays. Between them, they must be around a hundred and eighty, right? I believe people are supposed to cry quite a bit about the middle,” Captain Sholto continued in the same friendly, familiar, and encouraging tone, addressing Millicent, on whom his eyes had almost continuously rested from the start. She maintained his gaze with composure, but with just enough expression of reserve to indicate (which was perfectly true) that she wasn’t used to talking with gentlemen she didn’t know. She turned her face away at this (having already given the visitor quite a lot of her attention) and left him standing in the small passage where he leaned against the balcony railing with his back to the stage, facing Hyacinth, who was now wondering, with a clearer sense of context, what he was there for. He wanted to show respect in return for the civilities, but he wasn’t sure what to talk about on such short notice with someone he immediately sensed was, in an extensive and truly exceptional sense, a sophisticated man of the world. He quickly realized Captain Sholto didn’t take the play seriously, which made him feel like avoiding that topic, even though he otherwise could have talked a lot about it. On the other hand, he couldn’t, in front of a third person, reference their previous discussions at the ‘Sun and Moon’; nor could he think that his visitor would expect this, although he definitely came off as a man of quirks and idiosyncrasies, someone who was enjoying everything, including esoteric socialism and a little bookbinder who was much more of a gentleman than you’d expect. Captain Sholto might have felt a bit awkward now that he was fully engaged in his attempt to socialize, especially after failing to get a smile from Millicent’s propriety; but he left the initiation to Hyacinth and continued, saying that it was precisely this idea of the decline of the old British tradition that had brought him out tonight. He was with a friend, a lady who had lived abroad a lot, who had never experienced anything like this, and who liked everything characteristic. “You know, the foreign school of acting is a very different beast,” he said again to Millicent, who this time responded, “Oh yes, of course,” and upon further consideration of the old lady in the box, reflected that she looked like she had seen absolutely everything there was to see in the world.
“We have never been abroad,” said Hyacinth, candidly, looking into his friend’s curious light-coloured eyes, the palest in tint he had ever encountered.
“We’ve never been overseas,” Hyacinth said honestly, gazing into his friend’s curious, light-colored eyes, the palest shade he had ever seen.
“Oh, well, there’s a lot of nonsense talked about that!” Captain Sholto replied; while Hyacinth remained uncertain as to exactly what he referred to, and Millicent decided to volunteer a remark.
“Oh, well, there’s a lot of nonsense talked about that!” Captain Sholto replied, while Hyacinth felt unsure about what he was actually talking about, and Millicent chose to chime in with a comment.
“They are making a tremendous row on the stage. I should think it would be very bad in those boxes.” There was a banging and thumping behind the curtain, the sound of heavy scenery pushed about.
“They're making a huge noise on the stage. I bet it's really bad in those boxes.” There was a banging and thumping behind the curtain, the sound of heavy scenery being moved around.
“Oh yes; it’s much better here, every way. I think you have the best seats in the house,” said Captain Sholto. “I should like very much to finish my evening beside you. The trouble is I have ladies—a pair of them,” he went on, as if he were seriously considering this possibility. Then, laying his hand again on Hyacinth’s shoulder, he smiled at him a moment and indulged in a still greater burst of frankness: “My dear fellow, that is just what, as a partial reason, has brought me up here to see you. One of my ladies has a great desire to make your acquaintance!”
“Oh yeah; it’s way better here in every way. I think you have the best seats in the house,” said Captain Sholto. “I’d really like to spend my evening next to you. The problem is I’ve got ladies—two of them,” he continued, as if he were seriously thinking about it. Then, putting his hand back on Hyacinth’s shoulder, he smiled at him for a moment and then got even more open: “My dear friend, that’s actually part of why I came up here to see you. One of my ladies really wants to meet you!”
“To make my acquaintance?” Hyacinth felt himself turning pale; the first impulse he could have, in connection with such an announcement as that—and it lay far down, in the depths of the unspeakable—was a conjecture that it had something to do with his parentage on his father’s side. Captain Sholto’s smooth, bright face, irradiating such unexpected advances, seemed for an instant to swim before him. The Captain went on to say that he had told the lady of the talks they had had, that she was immensely interested in such matters—“You know what I mean, she really is”—and that as a consequence of what he had said she had begged him to come and ask his—a—his young friend (Hyacinth saw in a moment that the Captain had forgotten his name) to descend into her box for a little while.
“To make my acquaintance?” Hyacinth felt himself go pale; his first instinct in response to such a statement—something buried deep within him—was to wonder if it had anything to do with his father's side of the family. Captain Sholto's smooth, bright face, beaming with such unexpected friendliness, seemed to blur for a moment. The Captain continued, saying he had mentioned their conversations to the lady, who was very interested in those topics—“You know what I mean, she really is”—and that because of what he had told her, she had asked him to come and invite his—a—his young friend (Hyacinth realized instantly that the Captain had forgotten his name) to join her in her box for a little while.
“She has a tremendous desire to talk with some one who looks at the whole business from your standpoint, don’t you see? And in her position she scarcely ever has a chance, she doesn’t come across them—to her great annoyance. So when I spotted you to-night she immediately said that I must introduce you at any cost. I hope you don’t mind, for a quarter of an hour. I ought perhaps to tell you that she is a person who is used to having nothing refused her. ‘Go up and bring him down,’ you know, as if it were the simplest thing in the world. She is really very much in earnest: I don’t mean about wishing to see you—that goes without saying—but about the whole matter that you and I care for. Then I should add—it doesn’t spoil anything—that she is the most charming woman in the world, simply! Honestly, my dear boy, she is perhaps the most remarkable woman in Europe.”
“She really wants to talk to someone who sees things from your perspective, you know? And in her position, she hardly ever gets that chance—it frustrates her a lot. So when I saw you tonight, she immediately insisted that I introduce you, no matter what. I hope you don’t mind chatting for about fifteen minutes. I should probably mention that she’s someone who’s not used to being turned down. ‘Go up and bring him down,’ you know, as if it’s the easiest thing ever. She’s genuinely serious about this—I don’t just mean wanting to meet you, which is obvious—but about the whole thing that you and I care about. Also, I should say—this doesn’t change anything—that she’s the most charming woman in the world, really! Honestly, my dear boy, she’s probably the most remarkable woman in Europe.”
So Captain Sholto delivered himself, with the highest naturalness and plausibility, and Hyacinth, listening, felt that he himself ought perhaps to resent the idea of being served up for the entertainment of imperious triflers, but that somehow he didn’t, and that it was more worthy of the part he aspired to play in life to meet such occasions calmly and urbanely than to take the trouble of dodging and going roundabout. Of course the lady in the box couldn’t be sincere; she might think she was, though even that was questionable; but you couldn’t really care for the cause that was exemplified in the little back-room in Bloomsbury if you came to the theatre in that style. It was Captain Sholto’s style as well, but it had been by no means clear to Hyacinth hitherto that he really cared. All the same, this was no time for going into the question of the lady’s sincerity, and at the end of sixty seconds our young man had made up his mind that he could afford to humour her. None the less, I must add, the whole proposal continued to make things dance, to appear fictive, delusive; so that it sounded, in comparison, like a note of reality when Millicent, who had been looking from one of the men to the other, exclaimed—
So Captain Sholto spoke with complete naturalness and convincing charm, and Hyacinth, listening, felt that he should probably be upset by the idea of being put on display for the amusement of demanding people, but for some reason, he wasn’t, and he thought it was more fitting for the role he wanted to play in life to handle such situations calmly and gracefully than to go out of his way to avoid them. Of course the woman in the box couldn’t be sincere; she might believe she was, although even that was questionable; but you couldn’t really care for the cause being represented in that small back room in Bloomsbury if you showed up at the theater like that. It was Captain Sholto’s way too, but Hyacinth hadn’t clearly understood until now that he actually cared. Still, this wasn’t the time to question the woman’s sincerity, and within sixty seconds, our young man decided that he could indulge her. Nevertheless, I must say, the whole proposal still felt superficial and misleading; it sounded more real when Millicent, who had been glancing between the two men, exclaimed—
“That’s all very well, but who is to look after me?” Her assumption of the majestic had broken down, and this was the cry of nature.
“That’s all great, but who’s going to take care of me?” Her grand demeanor had cracked, and this was the genuine plea of her true self.
Nothing could have been pleasanter and more indulgent of her alarm than the manner in which Captain Sholto reassured her: “My dear young lady, can you suppose I have been unmindful of that? I have been hoping that after I have taken down our friend and introduced him you would allow me to come back and, in his absence, occupy his seat.”
Nothing could have been nicer and more understanding of her worries than the way Captain Sholto reassured her: “My dear young lady, do you think I haven’t considered that? I've been hoping that once I’ve taken care of our friend and introduced him, you’d let me come back and, while he’s away, take his seat.”
Hyacinth was preoccupied with the idea of meeting the most remarkable woman in Europe; but at this juncture he looked at Millicent Henning with some curiosity. She rose to the situation, and replied, “I am much obliged to you, but I don’t know who you are.”
Hyacinth was focused on the thought of meeting the most extraordinary woman in Europe; however, at this moment, he glanced at Millicent Henning with a bit of curiosity. She addressed the situation and said, "Thank you, but I don't know who you are."
“Oh, I’ll tell you all about that!” the Captain exclaimed, benevolently.
“Oh, I’ll tell you all about that!” the Captain said warmly.
“Of course I should introduce you,” said Hyacinth, and he mentioned to Miss Henning the name of his distinguished acquaintance.
“Of course I should introduce you,” said Hyacinth, and he told Miss Henning the name of his notable friend.
“In the army?” the young lady inquired, as if she must have every guarantee of social position.
“In the army?” the young woman asked, as if she needed to ensure her social status.
“Yes—not in the navy! I have left the army, but it always sticks to one.”
“Yes—not in the navy! I’ve left the army, but it always stays with you.”
“Mr Robinson, is it your intention to leave me?” Millicent asked, in a tone of the highest propriety.
“Mr. Robinson, are you planning to leave me?” Millicent asked, in a tone that was very proper.
Hyacinth’s imagination had taken such a flight that the idea of what he owed to the beautiful girl who had placed herself under his care for the evening had somehow effaced itself. Her words put it before him in a manner that threw him quickly and consciously back upon his honour; yet there was something in the way she uttered them that made him look at her harder still before he replied, “Oh dear, no, of course it would never do. I must defer to some other occasion the honour of making the acquaintance of your friend,” he added, to Captain Sholto.
Hyacinth's imagination had soared so high that he seemed to forget what he owed to the beautiful girl who had entrusted herself to him for the evening. Her words brought it back to him in a way that made him confront his sense of honor quickly and clearly; yet there was something in how she said them that made him stare at her even more intently before he replied, “Oh no, of course not, that wouldn’t be right. I should save the pleasure of meeting your friend for another time,” he added, to Captain Sholto.
“Ah, my dear fellow, we might manage it so easily now,” this gentleman murmured, with evident disappointment. “It is not as if Miss—a—Miss—a—were to be alone.”
“Ah, my dear friend, we could easily pull this off now,” this man said, clearly disappointed. “It's not like Miss—a—Miss—a—would be alone.”
It flashed upon Hyacinth that the root of the project might be a desire of Captain Sholto to insinuate himself into Millicent’s graces; then he asked himself why the most remarkable woman in Europe should lend herself to that design, consenting even to receive a visit from a little bookbinder for the sake of furthering it. Perhaps, after all, she was not the most remarkable; still, even at a lower estimate, of what advantage could such a complication be to her? To Hyacinth’s surprise, Millicent’s eye made acknowledgment of his implied renunciation; and she said to Captain Sholto, as if she were considering the matter very impartially, “Might one know the name of the lady who sent you?”
It occurred to Hyacinth that the whole idea might stem from Captain Sholto’s desire to win Millicent’s favor. He then wondered why the most impressive woman in Europe would go along with that plan, even agreeing to meet a little bookbinder to help it along. Maybe she wasn’t the most impressive after all; still, even if she was less exceptional, how could such a situation benefit her? To Hyacinth’s surprise, Millicent’s gaze acknowledged his unspoken refusal, and she asked Captain Sholto, as if she were weighing the situation fairly, “Could I know the name of the lady who sent you?”
“The Princess Casamassima.”
“Princess Casamassima.”
“Laws!” cried Millicent Henning. And then, quickly, as if to cover up the crudity of this ejaculation, “And might one also know what it is, as you say, that she wants to talk to him about?”
“Goodness!” exclaimed Millicent Henning. Then, quickly, as if to soften the harshness of her outburst, she added, “And might I also ask what it is, as you say, that she wants to talk to him about?”
“About the lower orders, the rising democracy, the spread of nihilism, and all that.”
“About the working class, the growing democracy, the rise of nihilism, and all that.”
“The lower orders? Does she think we belong to them?” the girl demanded, with a strange, provoking laugh.
“The lower classes? Does she think we’re part of them?” the girl asked, laughing in a strange, teasing way.
Captain Sholto was certainly the readiest of men. “If she could see you, she would think you one of the first ladies in the land.”
Captain Sholto was definitely the most prepared of men. “If she could see you, she would think you were one of the most distinguished women in the country.”
“She’ll never see me!” Millicent replied, in a manner which made it plain that she, at least, was not to be whistled for.
“She’ll never see me!” Millicent replied, making it clear that she, at least, was not someone to be called.
Being whistled for by a princess presented itself to Hyacinth as an indignity endured gracefully enough by the heroes of several French novels in which he had found a thrilling interest; nevertheless, he said, incorruptibly, to the Captain, who hovered there like a Mephistopheles converted to disinterested charity, “Having been in the army, you will know that one can’t desert one’s post.”
Being whistled for by a princess felt like a humiliation to Hyacinth, something gracefully endured by the heroes of several French novels he had found thrilling; still, he said, steadfastly, to the Captain, who loomed like a Mephistopheles turned into an uninterested benefactor, “Since you've been in the army, you know that you can't abandon your post.”
The Captain, for the third time, laid his hand on his young friend’s shoulder, and for a minute his smile rested, in silence, on Millicent Henning. “If I tell you simply I want to talk with this young lady, that certainly won’t help me, particularly, and there is no reason why it should. Therefore I’ll tell you the whole truth: I want to talk with her about you!” And he patted Hyacinth in a way which conveyed at once that this idea must surely commend him to the young man’s companion and that he himself liked him infinitely.
The Captain, for the third time, placed his hand on his young friend's shoulder, and for a moment his smile lingered, silently, on Millicent Henning. “If I simply say that I want to talk to this young lady, that won’t really help me, especially, and there’s no reason it should. So, I’ll tell you the whole truth: I want to talk to her about you!” And he gave Hyacinth a pat that clearly showed this idea would surely win him favor with the young man’s companion and that he genuinely liked him a lot.
Hyacinth was conscious of the endearment, but he remarked to Millicent that he would do just as she liked; he was determined not to let a member of the bloated upper class suppose that he held any daughter of the people cheap.
Hyacinth noticed the affection in her words, but he told Millicent that he would do whatever she wanted; he was set on not letting a member of the privileged upper class think he looked down on any daughter of the common people.
“Oh, I don’t care if you go,” said Miss Henning. “You had better hurry—the curtain’s going to rise.”
“Oh, I don’t mind if you go,” said Miss Henning. “You should hurry—the curtain’s about to go up.”
“That’s charming of you! I’ll rejoin you in three minutes!” Captain Sholto exclaimed.
"That's really nice of you! I'll be back in three minutes!" Captain Sholto said.
He passed his hand into Hyacinth’s arm, and as our hero lingered still, a little uneasy and questioning Millicent always with his eyes, the girl went on, with her bright boldness, “That kind of princess—I should like to hear all about her.”
He slipped his hand into Hyacinth's arm, and as our hero hesitated, still feeling a bit uneasy and always glancing at Millicent with questions in his eyes, the girl continued with her bright confidence, "I'd love to hear all about that kind of princess."
“Oh, I’ll tell you that, too,” the Captain rejoined, with his imperturbable pleasantness, as he led his young friend away. It must be confessed that Hyacinth also rather wondered what kind of princess she was, and his suspense on this point made his heart beat fast when, after traversing steep staircases and winding corridors, they reached the small door of the stage-box.
“Oh, I’ll tell you that too,” the Captain replied, with his unshakeable cheerfulness, as he guided his young friend away. It has to be admitted that Hyacinth was also curious about what kind of princess she was, and his anxiety about this kept his heart racing as, after navigating steep staircases and winding corridors, they finally reached the small door of the stage box.
XIII
Hyacinth’s first consciousness, after his companion had opened it, was of his nearness to the stage, on which the curtain had now risen again. The play was in progress, the actors’ voices came straight into the box, and it was impossible to speak without disturbing them. This at least was his inference from the noiseless way his conductor drew him in, and, without announcing or introducing him, simply pointed to a chair and whispered, “Just drop into that; you’ll see and hear beautifully.” He heard the door close behind him, and became aware that Captain Sholto had already retreated. Millicent, at any rate, would not be left to languish in solitude very long. Two ladies were seated in the front of the box, which was so large that there was a considerable space between them; and as he stood there, where Captain Sholto had planted him—they appeared not to have noticed the opening of the door—they turned their heads and looked at him. The one on whom his eyes first rested was the old lady whom he had already contemplated at a distance; she looked queerer still on a closer view, and gave him a little friendly, jolly nod. Her companion was partly overshadowed by the curtain of the box, which she had drawn forward with the intention of shielding herself from the observation of the house; she had still the air of youth, and the simplest way to express the instant effect upon Hyacinth of her fair face of welcome is to say that she was dazzling. He remained as Sholto had left him, staring rather confusedly and not moving an inch; whereupon the younger lady put out her hand—it was her left, the other rested on the ledge of the box—with the expectation, as he perceived, to his extreme mortification, too late, that he would give her his own. She converted the gesture into a sign of invitation, and beckoned him, silently but graciously, to move his chair forward. He did so, and seated himself between the two ladies; then, for ten minutes, stared straight before him, at the stage, not turning his eyes sufficiently even to glance up at Millicent in the balcony. He looked at the play, but he was far from seeing it; he had no sense of anything but the woman who sat there, close to him, on his right, with a fragrance in her garments and a light about her which he seemed to see even while his head was averted. The vision had been only of a moment, but it hung before him, threw a vague white mist over the proceedings on the stage. He was embarrassed, overturned, bewildered, and he knew it; he made a great effort to collect himself, to consider the situation lucidly. He wondered whether he ought to speak, to look at her again, to behave differently, in some way; whether she would take him for a clown, for an idiot; whether she were really as beautiful as she had seemed or if it were only a superficial glamour, which a renewed inspection would dissipate. While he asked himself these questions the minutes went on, and neither of his hostesses spoke; they watched the play in perfect stillness, so that Hyacinth divined that this was the proper thing and that he himself must remain dumb until a word should be bestowed upon him. Little by little he recovered himself, took possession of his predicament, and at last transferred his eyes to the Princess. She immediately perceived this, and returned his glance, with a soft smile. She might well be a princess—it was impossible to conform more to the finest evocations of that romantic word. She was fair, brilliant, slender, with a kind of effortless majesty. Her beauty had an air of perfection; it astonished and lifted one up, the sight of it seemed a privilege, a reward. If the first impression it had given Hyacinth was to make him feel strangely transported, he need not have been too much agitated, for this was the effect the Princess Casamassima produced upon persons of a wider experience and greater pretensions. Her dark eyes, blue or gray, something that was not brown, were as sweet as they were splendid, and there was an extraordinary light nobleness in the way she held her head. That head, where two or three diamond stars glittered in the thick, delicate hair which defined its shape, suggested to Hyacinth something antique and celebrated, which he had admired of old—the memory was vague—in a statue, in a picture, in a museum. Purity of line and form, of cheek and chin and lip and brow, a colour that seemed to live and glow, a radiance of grace and eminence and success—these things were seated in triumph in the face of the Princess, and Hyacinth, as he held himself in his chair, trembling with the revelation, wondered whether she were not altogether of some different substance from the humanity he had hitherto known. She might be divine, but he could see that she understood human needs—that she wished him to be at his ease and happy; there was something familiar in her smile, as if she had seen him many times before. Her dress was dark and rich; she had pearls round her neck, and an old rococo fan in her hand. Hyacinth took in all these things, and finally said to himself that if she wanted nothing more of him than that, he was content, he would like it to go on; so pleasant was it to sit with fine ladies, in a dusky, spacious receptacle which framed the bright picture of the stage and made one’s own situation seem a play within the play. The act was a long one, and the repose in which his companions left him might have been a calculated indulgence, to enable him to get used to them, to see how harmless they were. He looked at Millicent, in the course of time, and saw that Captain Sholto, seated beside her, had not the same standard of propriety, inasmuch as he made a remark to her every few minutes. Like himself, the young lady in the balcony was losing the play, thanks to her eyes being fixed on her friend from Lomax Place, whose position she thus endeavoured to gauge. Hyacinth had quite given up the Paraguayan complications; by the end of the half-hour his attention might have come back to them, had he not then been engaged in wondering what the Princess would say to him after the descent of the curtain—or whether she would say anything. The consideration of this problem, as the moment of the solution drew nearer, made his heart again beat faster. He watched the old lady on his left, and supposed it was natural that a princess should have an attendant—he took for granted she was an attendant—as different as possible from herself. This ancient dame was without majesty or grace; huddled together, with her hands folded on her stomach and her lips protruding, she solemnly followed the performance. Several times, however, she turned her head to Hyacinth, and then her expression changed; she repeated the jovial, encouraging, almost motherly nod with which she had greeted him when he made his bow, and by which she appeared to wish to intimate that, better than the serene beauty on the other side, she could enter into the oddity, the discomfort, of his situation. She seemed to say to him that he must keep his head, and that if the worst should come to the worst she was there to look after him. Even when, at last, the curtain descended, it was some moments before the Princess spoke, though she rested her smile upon Hyacinth as if she were considering what he would best like her to say. He might at that instant have guessed what he discovered later—that among this lady’s faults (he was destined to learn that they were numerous) not the least eminent was an exaggerated fear of the commonplace. He expected she would make some remark about the play, but what she said was, very gently and kindly, “I like to know all sorts of people.”
Hyacinth’s first awareness, after his companion had opened the door, was of how close he was to the stage, where the curtain had just gone up again. The play was ongoing, and the actors’ voices came directly into the box, making it impossible to speak without interrupting them. This was at least what he gathered from the quiet way his guide brought him in, and, without any announcement or introduction, simply pointed to a chair and whispered, “Just sit in that; you’ll see and hear perfectly.” He heard the door close behind him and realized that Captain Sholto had already stepped back. Millicent, at least, wouldn’t be left alone for long. Two women were seated at the front of the box, which was so spacious that there was a good distance between them; as he stood there, where Captain Sholto had placed him—they didn’t seem to notice the door had opened—they turned their heads and looked at him. The first one he focused on was the older lady he had already seen from a distance; she looked even more peculiar up close and gave him a little friendly, cheerful nod. Her companion was partly hidden by the curtain of the box, which she had pulled forward to shield herself from the audience; she still had a youthful presence, and the simplest way to describe the immediate effect her lovely face had on Hyacinth is to say she was stunning. He remained as Sholto had left him, staring somewhat confusedly and not moving at all; then the younger lady extended her hand—it was her left hand, while the other rested on the ledge of the box—with the expectation, as he realized to his extreme embarrassment, that he would give her his own. She turned the gesture into an invitation and signaled, silently but graciously, for him to move his chair closer. He complied and sat between the two ladies; then, for ten minutes, he stared straight ahead at the stage, not even glancing up at Millicent in the balcony. He was looking at the play, but he wasn’t really seeing it; all he was aware of was the woman sitting next to him on his right, surrounded by a fragrance in her clothes and a glow about her that he felt even while his head was turned away. The vision lasted only a moment, but it lingered, casting a vague white mist over the events on stage. He felt embarrassed, overwhelmed, and confused, and he knew it; he made a strong effort to collect himself, to think clearly about the situation. He wondered if he should speak, look at her again, or behave in some other way; whether she would think he was foolish or clueless; whether she was really as beautiful as she appeared or if it was just a superficial charm that a closer look would shatter. While he wrestled with these thoughts, time ticked on, and neither of his hosts spoke; they watched the play in perfect silence, which led Hyacinth to conclude that staying quiet was the right thing to do until they offered him a word. Gradually, he regained his composure, took stock of his situation, and finally shifted his gaze to the Princess. She immediately noticed this and met his stare with a soft smile. She could easily be a princess—it was impossible for anyone to embody the romantic essence of that word more than she did. She was fair, radiant, slender, with an effortless majesty. Her beauty seemed perfect; it amazed and elevated those who saw it, making it feel like a privilege, a reward. If the initial impression she left on Hyacinth made him feel strangely uplifted, he needn’t have been overly disturbed, as this was the effect Princess Casamassima had on more seasoned people with greater expectations. Her dark eyes—blue or gray, but definitely not brown—were as sweet as they were stunning, and there was an extraordinary noble grace in how she held her head. That head, adorned with two or three diamond stars gleaming in her thick, delicate hair, reminded Hyacinth of something ancient and renowned that he had previously admired—though the memory was vague—from a statue, a painting, or a museum. Purity in line and form, in cheek and chin and lip and brow, a color that seemed to live and shine, an aura of grace, prominence, and success—these qualities radiated triumph from the Princess’s face, and as Hyacinth held himself in his chair, trembling with the revelation, he wondered if she was of a completely different substance than any humanity he had known before. She might be divine, but he could tell that she understood human needs—that she wanted him to feel relaxed and happy; there was something familiar in her smile, as if she had seen him many times before. Her dress was dark and luxurious; she had pearls around her neck and a vintage rococo fan in her hand. Hyacinth absorbed all these details and ultimately concluded that if she wanted nothing more from him than this, he was content; he would like it to continue, as enjoyable as it was to sit with elegant women in a dusky, spacious enclave that framed the bright scene of the stage, making his own situation feel like a play within the play. The act was lengthy, and the calm his companions gave him might have been a deliberate indulgence, allowing him to grow accustomed to them and see how harmless they were. He glanced over at Millicent after a while and noticed that Captain Sholto, seated next to her, did not share the same standard of propriety, as he commented on her every few minutes. Like him, the young lady in the balcony was missing the play, with her gaze fixed on her friend from Lomax Place, trying to gauge her situation. By the end of the half-hour, Hyacinth had completely stopped considering the Paraguayan issues; his thoughts were now occupied with wondering what the Princess would say to him when the curtain came down—or if she would say anything at all. The thought of this problem, as the moment of revelation drew closer, made his heart race again. He watched the older lady on his left and assumed it was only natural for a princess to have an attendant—he assumed she was an attendant—who was as different from her as possible. This elderly woman lacked majesty or grace; huddled together with her hands folded on her stomach and her lips protruding, she solemnly followed the performance. However, several times she turned her head to Hyacinth, and then her expression changed; she repeated the cheerful, encouraging, almost motherly nod she had given him when he first arrived, as if to indicate that, unlike the serene beauty on the other side, she could relate to the oddity and discomfort of his situation. It seemed she was telling him to keep his composure, and that if things turned out badly, she was there to take care of him. Even when, at last, the curtain fell, it took a moment before the Princess spoke, although her smile remained on Hyacinth as if she were contemplating what he would most like her to say. At that instant, he might have guessed what he later discovered—that among this lady’s flaws (he was destined to learn that they were many), her most pronounced one was an exaggerated fear of the ordinary. He expected she would say something about the play, but instead, she said, very gently and kindly, “I like to know all sorts of people.”
“I shouldn’t think you would find the least difficulty in that,” Hyacinth replied.
“I don't think you'll have any trouble with that,” Hyacinth replied.
“Oh, if one wants anything very much, it’s sure to be difficult. Every one isn’t as obliging as you.”
“Oh, if you really want something, it’s bound to be tough. Not everyone is as helpful as you are.”
Hyacinth could think, immediately, of no proper rejoinder to this; but the old lady saved him the trouble by declaring, with a foreign accent, “I think you were most extraordinarily good-natured. I had no idea you would come—to two strange women.”
Hyacinth couldn't think of a suitable response right away; however, the old lady relieved him of the burden by saying, with a foreign accent, “I think you were incredibly kind. I had no idea you would come—to two unfamiliar women.”
“Yes, we are strange women,” said the Princess, musingly.
“Yeah, we are pretty strange women,” said the Princess, thoughtfully.
“It’s not true that she finds things difficult; she makes every one do everything,” her companion went on.
“It’s not true that she finds things hard; she gets everyone to do everything,” her companion continued.
The Princess glanced at her; then remarked to Hyacinth, “Her name is Madame Grandoni.” Her tone was not familiar, but there was a friendly softness in it, as if he had really taken so much trouble for them that it was only just he should be entertained a little at their expense. It seemed to imply, also, that Madame Grandoni’s fitness for supplying such entertainment was obvious.
The Princess looked at her and said to Hyacinth, “Her name is Madame Grandoni.” Her tone wasn't casual, but there was a warm friendliness in it, as if he had gone through a lot for them and it was only fair that he should be entertained a bit at their expense. It also suggested that Madame Grandoni was clearly suited for providing such entertainment.
“But I am not Italian—ah no!” the old lady cried. “In spite of my name, I am an honest, ugly, unfortunate German. But it doesn’t matter. She also, with such a name, isn’t Italian, either. It’s an accident; the world is full of accidents. But she isn’t German, poor lady, any more.” Madame Grandoni appeared to have entered into the Princess’s view, and Hyacinth thought her exceedingly amusing. In a moment she added, “That was a very charming person you were with.”
“But I'm not Italian—oh no!” the old lady exclaimed. “Despite my name, I'm just an honest, ugly, unfortunate German. But that's fine. She too, with a name like that, isn't Italian either. It's just one of those things; the world is full of coincidences. But she isn't German anymore, poor lady.” Madame Grandoni seemed to match the Princess’s perspective, and Hyacinth found her quite amusing. In a moment, she added, “That was a really charming person you were with.”
“Yes, she is very charming,” Hyacinth replied, not sorry to have a chance to say it.
“Yes, she is very charming,” Hyacinth replied, glad to have the opportunity to say so.
The Princess made no remark on this subject, and Hyacinth perceived not only that from her position in the box she could have had no glimpse of Millicent, but that she would never take up such an allusion as that. It was as if she had not heard it that she asked, “Do you consider the play very interesting?”
The Princess said nothing about this topic, and Hyacinth realized that from her seat in the box, she couldn't have seen Millicent at all, and that she would never acknowledge such a reference. It was as if she hadn't heard it when she asked, “Do you think the play is interesting?”
Hyacinth hesitated a moment, and then told the simple truth. “I must confess that I have lost the whole of this last act.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment, then shared the straightforward truth. “I have to admit that I've forgotten the entire last act.”
“Ah, poor bothered young man!” cried Madame Grandoni. “You see—you see!”
“Ah, poor troubled young man!” exclaimed Madame Grandoni. “You see—you see!”
“What do I see?” the Princess inquired. “If you are annoyed at being here now, you will like us later; probably, at least. We take a great interest in the things you care for. We take a great interest in the people,” the Princess went on.
“What do I see?” the Princess asked. “If you’re annoyed at being here now, you’ll probably like us later. We really care about the things that matter to you. We really care about the people,” the Princess continued.
“Oh, allow me, allow me, and speak only for yourself!” the elder lady interposed. “I take no interest in the people; I don’t understand them, and I know nothing about them. An honourable nature, of any class, I always respect it; but I will not pretend to a passion for the ignorant masses, because I have it not. Moreover, that doesn’t touch the gentleman.”
“Oh, let me speak for myself!” the older woman interrupted. “I have no interest in the people; I don’t understand them, and I know nothing about them. I always respect an honorable nature, no matter the class, but I won’t fake a passion for the uneducated masses because I don’t feel it. Besides, that doesn’t concern the gentleman.”
The Princess Casamassima had, evidently, a faculty of completely ignoring things of which she wished to take no account; it was not in the least the air of contempt, but a kind of thoughtful, tranquil absence, after which she came back to the point where she wished to be. She made no protest against her companion’s speech, but said to Hyacinth, as if she were only vaguely conscious that the old lady had been committing herself in some absurd way, “She lives with me; she is everything to me; she is the best woman in the world.”
The Princess Casamassima clearly had a talent for completely ignoring things she didn't want to deal with; it wasn't so much a look of contempt, but a sort of calm, reflective absence, after which she returned to the topic she preferred. She didn’t object to her companion’s comments, but turned to Hyacinth and, as if only vaguely aware that the older woman had been saying something silly, remarked, “She lives with me; she means everything to me; she’s the best woman in the world.”
“Yes, fortunately, with many superficial defects, I am very good,” Madame Grandoni remarked.
“Yes, luckily, despite having some minor flaws, I’m doing really well,” Madame Grandoni said.
Hyacinth, by this time, was less embarrassed than when he presented himself to the Princess Casamassima, but he was not less mystified; he wondered afresh whether he were not being practised upon for some inconceivable end; so strange did it seem to him that two such fine ladies should, of their own movement, take the trouble to explain each other to a miserable little bookbinder. This idea made him flush; it was as if it had come over him that he had fallen into a trap. He was conscious that he looked frightened, and he was conscious the moment afterwards that the Princess noticed it. This was, apparently, what made her say, “If you have lost so much of the play I ought to tell you what has happened.”
Hyacinth, by this point, felt less embarrassed than when he first met Princess Casamassima, but he was still just as confused; he wondered again if he was being set up for some unimaginable purpose; it seemed so strange to him that two such elegant ladies would bother to explain each other to a poor little bookbinder. This thought made him blush; it felt like he had walked into a trap. He knew he looked scared, and he was immediately aware that the Princess noticed it. This was seemingly what prompted her to say, “If you’ve missed so much of the play, I should tell you what has happened.”
“Do you think he would follow that any more?” Madame Grandoni exclaimed.
“Do you think he would care about that any more?” Madame Grandoni exclaimed.
“If you would tell me—if you would tell me—” And then Hyacinth stopped. He had been going to say, ‘If you would tell me what all this means and what you want of me, it would be more to the point!’ but the words died on his lips, and he sat staring, for the woman at his right was simply too beautiful. She was too beautiful to question, to judge by common logic; and how could he know, moreover, what was natural to a person in that exaltation of grace and splendour? Perhaps it was her habit to send out every evening for some naïf stranger, to amuse her; perhaps that was the way the foreign aristocracy lived. There was no sharpness in her face, at the present moment at least; there was nothing but luminous sweetness, yet she looked as if she knew what was going on in his mind. She made no eager attempt to reassure him, but there was a world of delicate consideration in the tone in which she said, “Do you know, I am afraid I have already forgotten what they have been doing in the play? It’s terribly complicated; some one or other was hurled over a precipice.”
“If you could just tell me—if you could just tell me—” And then Hyacinth stopped. He was about to say, ‘If you could tell me what all this means and what you want from me, that would be more helpful!’ but the words died in his throat, and he just sat there staring, because the woman next to him was simply too beautiful. She was too beautiful to question or judge by common sense; and how could he know, besides, what was normal for someone in that level of grace and splendor? Maybe it was her routine to invite some naïve stranger every evening for entertainment; perhaps that’s how foreign aristocracy operated. Her face didn’t show any sharpness at that moment; it only radiated sweet luminosity, yet she looked like she knew exactly what he was thinking. She didn’t rush to reassure him, but there was a whole lot of gentle consideration in the way she said, “You know, I’m afraid I’ve already forgotten what’s been happening in the play. It’s incredibly complicated; someone was thrown over a cliff.”
“Ah, you’re a brilliant pair,” Madame Grandoni remarked, with a laugh of long experience. “I could describe everything. The person who was hurled over the precipice was the virtuous hero, and you will see, in the next act, that he was only slightly bruised.”
“Ah, you two are quite the duo,” Madame Grandoni said with a knowing laugh. “I could tell you everything. The person who was thrown over the cliff was the noble hero, and you’ll see in the next act that he was just a bit hurt.”
“Don’t describe anything; I have so much to ask.” Hyacinth had looked away, in tacit deprecation, at hearing himself ‘paired’ with the Princess, and he felt that she was watching him. “What do you think of Captain Sholto?” she went on, suddenly, to his surprise, if anything, in his position, could excite that sentiment more than anything else; and as he hesitated, not knowing what to say, she added, “Isn’t he a very curious type?”
“Don’t say anything; I have so much to ask.” Hyacinth looked away, silently embarrassed at being ‘paired’ with the Princess, and he sensed that she was watching him. “What do you think of Captain Sholto?” she continued, unexpectedly, as if anything could spark that emotion more than this situation; and as he hesitated, unsure of what to say, she added, “Isn’t he a really interesting guy?”
“I know him very little,” Hyacinth replied; and he had no sooner uttered the words than it struck him they were far from brilliant—they were poor and flat, and very little calculated to satisfy the Princess. Indeed, he reflected that he had said nothing at all that could place him in a favourable light; so he continued, at a venture: “I mean, I have never seen him at home.” That sounded still more silly.
“I don’t know him very well,” Hyacinth replied; and as soon as he said it, he realized the words weren’t impressive—they sounded weak and dull, and definitely wouldn’t impress the Princess. In fact, he thought about how he hadn’t said anything that would put him in a good light, so he added, trying to improve things: “I mean, I’ve never seen him at home.” That sounded even more stupid.
“At home? Oh, he is never at home; he is all over the world. To-night he was as likely to have been in Paraguay, for instance, as here. He is what they call a cosmopolite. I don’t know whether you know that species; very modern, more and more frequent, and exceedingly tiresome. I prefer the Chinese! He had told me he had had a great deal of interesting talk with you. That was what made me say to him, ‘Oh, do ask him to come in and see me. A little interesting talk, that would be a change!’”
“At home? Oh, he’s never home; he’s all over the world. Tonight he could just as easily be in Paraguay, for example, as here. He’s what they call a cosmopolitan. I don’t know if you’re familiar with that type; very modern, increasingly common, and super tiresome. I prefer the Chinese! He mentioned that he had some really interesting conversations with you. That’s why I said to him, ‘Oh, do ask him to come in and see me. A little interesting conversation would be a nice change!’”
“She is very complimentary to me!” said Madame Grandoni.
“She always says nice things about me!” said Madame Grandoni.
“Ah, my dear, you and I, you know, we never talk: we understand each other without that!” Then the Princess pursued, addressing herself to Hyacinth, “Do you never admit women?”
“Ah, my dear, you and I never talk, you know? We get each other without words!” Then the Princess continued, speaking to Hyacinth, “Do you never let women in?”
“Admit women?”
“Allow women in?”
“Into those séances—what do you call them?—those little meetings that Captain Sholto described to me. I should like so much to be present. Why not?”
“Into those séances—what do you call them?—those little meetings that Captain Sholto told me about. I would really love to be there. Why not?”
“I haven’t seen any ladies,” Hyacinth said. “I don’t know whether it’s a rule, but I have seen nothing but men;” and he added, smiling, though he thought the dereliction rather serious, and couldn’t understand the part Captain Sholto was playing, nor, considering the grand company he kept, how he had originally secured admittance into the subversive little circle in Bloomsbury, “You know I’m not sure Captain Sholto ought to go about reporting our proceedings.”
“I haven’t seen any women,” Hyacinth said. “I don’t know if it’s a rule, but I’ve only seen men.” He added, smiling, even though he thought the omission was quite serious and couldn’t figure out what role Captain Sholto was playing. Given the high-profile company he kept, he couldn’t understand how he had initially gotten into the rebellious little circle in Bloomsbury. “You know, I’m not sure Captain Sholto should be going around reporting our activities.”
“I see. Perhaps you think he’s a spy, or something of that sort.”
“I get it. Maybe you think he’s a spy or something like that.”
“No,” said Hyacinth, after a moment. “I think a spy would be more careful—would disguise himself more. Besides, after all, he has heard very little.” And Hyacinth smiled again.
“No,” Hyacinth said after a moment. “I think a spy would be more careful—would cover their identity better. Besides, he hasn’t really heard that much.” Hyacinth smiled again.
“You mean he hasn’t really been behind the scenes?” the Princess asked, bending forward a little, and now covering the young man steadily with her deep, soft eyes, as if by this time he must have got used to her and wouldn’t flinch from such attention. “Of course he hasn’t, and he never will be; he knows that, and that it’s quite out of his power to tell any real secrets. What he repeated to me was interesting, but of course I could see that there was nothing the authorities, anywhere, could put their hand on. It was mainly the talk he had had with you which struck him so very much, and which struck me, as you see. Perhaps you didn’t know how he was drawing you out.”
“You mean he hasn’t really been working behind the scenes?” the Princess asked, leaning in a bit and looking at the young man intently with her deep, soft eyes, as if by now he should be used to her gaze and wouldn’t shy away from such attention. “Of course he hasn’t, and he never will; he knows that it’s completely out of his power to share any real secrets. What he told me was interesting, but I could tell that there was nothing any authorities could act on. It was mainly the conversation he had with you that impressed him so much, and that impressed me as well, as you can see. Maybe you didn’t realize how he was drawing you out.”
“I am afraid that’s rather easy,” said Hyacinth, with perfect candour, as it came over him that he had chattered, with a vengeance, in Bloomsbury, and had thought it natural enough then that his sociable fellow-visitor should offer him cigars and attach importance to the views of a clever and original young artisan.
“I think that’s pretty straightforward,” said Hyacinth, being completely honest, as it dawned on him that he had really talked a lot, intensely, in Bloomsbury, and had thought it was totally normal for his friendly co-visitor to offer him cigars and care about the opinions of a smart and unique young tradesman.
“I am not sure that I find it so! However, I ought to tell you that you needn’t have the least fear of Captain Sholto. He’s a perfectly honest man, so far as he goes; and even if you had trusted him much more than you appear to have done, he would be incapable of betraying you. However, don’t trust him: not because he’s not safe, but because—No matter, you will see for yourself. He has gone into that sort of thing simply to please me. I should tell you, merely to make you understand, that he would do anything for that. That’s his own affair. I wanted to know something, to learn something, to ascertain what really is going on; and for a woman everything of that sort is so difficult, especially for a woman in my position, who is known, and to whom every sort of bad faith is sure to be imputed. So Sholto said he would look into the subject for me; poor man, he has had to look into so many subjects! What I particularly wanted was that he should make friends with some of the leading spirits, really characteristic types.” The Princess’s voice was low and rather deep, and her tone very quick; her manner of speaking was altogether new to her listener, for whom the pronunciation of her words and the very punctuation of her sentences were a kind of revelation of ‘society’.
“I’m not sure I feel that way! But I should tell you that you don’t need to worry about Captain Sholto at all. He’s a totally honest man, as far as he goes; and even if you had trusted him a lot more than you seem to have, he would never betray you. Still, don’t trust him—not because he isn’t reliable, but because—Never mind, you’ll see for yourself. He got involved in that whole thing just to please me. I want you to understand that he would do anything for that. That’s his business. I wanted to know something, to learn something, to figure out what’s really happening; and for a woman, especially one in my position, everything like that is so hard, especially since I’m known and people are always quick to assume the worst. So Sholto said he would look into it for me; poor guy, he has had to research so many things! What I really hoped for was that he would connect with some of the key figures, authentic types.” The Princess’s voice was low and somewhat deep, and her tone was very fast; her way of speaking was completely new to her listener, whose understanding of her pronunciation and the very structure of her sentences felt like a revelation of ‘society’.
“Surely Captain Sholto doesn’t suppose that I am a leading spirit!” Hyacinth exclaimed, with the determination not to be laughed at any more than he could help.
“Surely Captain Sholto doesn’t think that I am a main player!” Hyacinth exclaimed, determined not to be laughed at any more than he could avoid.
The Princess hesitated a moment; then she said, “He told me you were very original.”
The Princess paused for a moment; then she said, “He told me you were really unique.”
“He doesn’t know, and—if you will allow me to say so—I don’t think you know. How should you? I am one of many thousands of young men of my class—you know, I suppose, what that is—in whose brains certain ideas are fermenting. There is nothing original about me at all. I am very young and very ignorant; it’s only a few months since I began to talk of the possibility of a social revolution with men who have considered the whole ground much more than I have done. I’m a mere particle in the immensity of the people. All I pretend to is my good faith, and a great desire that justice shall be done.”
“He doesn’t know, and—if I may say so—I don’t think you know either. How could you? I’m just one of many thousands of young men from my background—you know what that is, I assume—who are grappling with certain ideas. There’s nothing unique about me at all. I’m very young and very ignorant; it’s only been a few months since I started discussing the possibility of a social revolution with people who have thought about this much more deeply than I have. I’m just a tiny part of the vast population. All I claim is my good intentions and a strong desire for justice to be served.”
The Princess listened to him intently, and her attitude made him feel how little he, in comparison, expressed himself like a person who had the habit of conversation; he seemed to himself to stammer and emit common sounds. For a moment she said nothing, only looking at him with her pure smile. “I do draw you out!” she exclaimed, at last. “You are much more interesting to me than if you were an exception.” At these last words Hyacinth flinched a hair’s breadth; the movement was shown by his dropping his eyes. We know to what extent he really regarded himself as of the stuff of the common herd. The Princess doubtless guessed it as well, for she quickly added, “At the same time, I can see that you are remarkable enough.”
The Princess listened to him closely, and her demeanor made him feel how little he, in comparison, spoke like someone who was used to having a conversation; he felt like he was stuttering and just making ordinary sounds. For a moment she didn’t say anything, just looking at him with her genuine smile. “I do draw you out!” she finally said. “You’re much more interesting to me than if you were someone special.” At those last words, Hyacinth flinched slightly; you could see it in the way he dropped his gaze. We know how much he truly thought of himself as just one of the common people. The Princess probably sensed it, too, because she quickly added, “At the same time, I can see that you’re quite remarkable.”
“What do you think I am remarkable for?”
“What do you think makes me remarkable?”
“Well, you have general ideas.”
"Well, you have some ideas."
“Every one has them to-day. They have them in Bloomsbury to a terrible degree. I have a friend (who understands the matter much better than I) who has no patience with them: he declares they are our danger and our bane. A few very special ideas—if they are the right ones—are what we want.”
“Everyone has them these days. They have them in Bloomsbury to an extreme degree. I have a friend (who understands the situation much better than I do) who has no patience for them: he says they are our danger and our downfall. A few very specific ideas—if they are the right ones—are what we need.”
“Who is your friend?” the Princess asked, abruptly.
“Who’s your friend?” the Princess asked, suddenly.
“Ah, Christina, Christina,” Madame Grandoni murmured from the other side of the box.
“Ah, Christina, Christina,” Madame Grandoni said softly from the other side of the box.
Christina took no notice of her, and Hyacinth, not understanding the warning, and only remembering how personal women always are, replied, “A young man who lives in Camberwell, an assistant at a wholesale chemist’s.”
Christina ignored her, and Hyacinth, not getting the hint, and only recalling how personal women tend to be, responded, “A young man who lives in Camberwell, an assistant at a wholesale pharmacy.”
If he had expected that this description of his friend was a bigger dose than his hostess would be able to digest, he was greatly mistaken. She seemed to look tenderly at the picture suggested by his words, and she immediately inquired whether the young man were also clever, and whether she might not hope to know him. Hadn’t Captain Sholto seen him; and if so, why hadn’t he spoken of him, too? When Hyacinth had replied that Captain Sholto had probably seen him, but that he believed he had had no particular conversation with him, the Princess inquired, with startling frankness, whether her visitor wouldn’t bring his friend, some day, to see her.
If he thought that his description of his friend would be too much for his hostess to handle, he was very wrong. She appeared to gaze fondly at the image his words painted, and she quickly asked if the young man was also smart and if she might have the chance to meet him. Hadn’t Captain Sholto seen him? And if he had, why didn’t he mention him? When Hyacinth answered that Captain Sholto had probably seen him but didn’t really talk to him, the Princess boldly asked if his visitor would bring his friend to see her someday.
Hyacinth glanced at Madame Grandoni, but that worthy woman was engaged in a survey of the house, through an old-fashioned eye-glass with a long gilt handle. He had perceived, long before this, that the Princess Casamassima had no desire for vain phrases, and he had the good taste to feel that, from himself to such a personage, compliments, even if he had wished to pay them, would have had no suitability. “I don’t know whether he would be willing to come. He’s the sort of man that, in such a case, you can’t answer for.”
Hyacinth glanced at Madame Grandoni, but that respectable woman was busy inspecting the house through an old-fashioned monocle with a long gold handle. He had realized long before this that Princess Casamassima wasn’t interested in empty words, and he had the good sense to know that compliments from him to someone like her would be completely inappropriate, even if he wanted to offer them. “I’m not sure if he would be willing to come. He’s the kind of person you can’t count on in a situation like this.”
“That makes me want to know him all the more. But you’ll come yourself, at all events, eh?”
“That makes me want to know him even more. But you’re definitely coming yourself, right?”
Poor Hyacinth murmured something about the unexpected honour; for, after all, he had a French heredity, and it was not so easy for him to make unadorned speeches. But Madame Grandoni, laying down her eye-glass, almost took the words out of his mouth, with the cheerful exhortation, “Go and see her—go and see her once or twice. She will treat you like an angel.”
Poor Hyacinth mumbled something about the unexpected honor; after all, he had French heritage, and it wasn't easy for him to make plain speeches. But Madame Grandoni, putting down her eyeglass, nearly said the words for him with her cheerful encouragement, “Go and see her—go and visit her once or twice. She’ll treat you like an angel.”
“You must think me very peculiar,” the Princess remarked, sadly.
“You probably think I’m really strange,” the Princess said, sadly.
“I don’t know what I think. It will take a good while.”
“I’m not sure what I think. It’s going to take some time.”
“I wish I could make you trust me—inspire you with confidence,” she went on. “I don’t mean only you, personally, but others who think as you do. You would find I would go with you—pretty far. I was answering just now for Captain Sholto; but who in the world is to answer for me?” And her sadness merged itself in a smile which appeared to Hyacinth extraordinarily magnanimous and touching.
“I wish I could make you trust me—give you confidence,” she continued. “I don’t just mean you, personally, but others who think like you. You’d see I would support you—quite a lot. I just answered for Captain Sholto; but who’s going to answer for me?” And her sadness turned into a smile that seemed to Hyacinth remarkably generous and moving.
“Not I, my dear, I promise you!” her ancient companion ejaculated, with a laugh which made the people in the stalls look up at the box.
“Not me, my dear, I promise you!” her elderly companion exclaimed, laughing in a way that made the people in the stalls look up at the box.
Her mirth was contagious; it gave Hyacinth the audacity to say to her, “I would trust you, if you did!” though he felt, the next minute, that this was even a more familiar speech than if he had said he wouldn’t trust her.
Her laughter was infectious; it gave Hyacinth the boldness to say to her, “I would trust you, if you did!” even though he felt, the next moment, that this was an even more casual remark than if he had said he wouldn’t trust her.
“It comes, then, to the same thing,” the Princess went on. “She would not show herself with me in public if I were not respectable. If you knew more about me you would understand what has led me to turn my attention to the great social question. It is a long story, and the details wouldn’t interest you; but perhaps some day, if we have more talk, you will put yourself a little in my place. I am very serious, you know; I am not amusing myself with peeping and running away. I am convinced that we are living in a fool’s paradise, that the ground is heaving under our feet.”
“It’s all the same,” the Princess continued. “She wouldn’t be seen with me in public if I weren’t respectable. If you knew more about me, you’d see what’s made me focus on the big social issues. It’s a long story, and the details probably wouldn’t interest you; but maybe one day, if we talk more, you’ll try to see things from my perspective. I’m very serious about this, you know; I’m not just having fun sneaking around and then disappearing. I truly believe we’re living in a fool’s paradise, that the ground is shaking beneath us.”
“It’s not the ground, my dear; it’s you that are turning somersaults,” Madame Grandoni interposed.
“It’s not the ground, my dear; it’s you who are doing flips,” Madame Grandoni interrupted.
“Ah, you, my friend, you have the happy faculty of believing what you like to believe. I have to believe what I see.”
“Ah, you, my friend, you have the wonderful ability to believe what you want to believe. I have to believe what I see.”
“She wishes to throw herself into the revolution, to guide it, to enlighten it,” Madame Grandoni said to Hyacinth, speaking now with imperturbable gravity.
“She wants to dive into the revolution, to lead it, to shed light on it,” Madame Grandoni told Hyacinth, now speaking with unwavering seriousness.
“I am sure she could direct it in any sense she would wish!” the young man responded, in a glow. The pure, high dignity with which the Princess had just spoken, and which appeared to cover a suppressed tremor of passion, set Hyacinth’s pulses throbbing, and though he scarcely saw what she meant—her aspirations seeming so vague—her tone, her voice, her wonderful face, showed that she had a generous soul.
“I’m sure she could lead it in any direction she wanted!” the young man replied, feeling excited. The pure, high dignity with which the Princess had just spoken, which seemed to hide a suppressed wave of emotion, made Hyacinth’s heart race. Even though he barely understood what she meant—her dreams feeling so unclear—her tone, her voice, her stunning face revealed that she had a big heart.
She answered his eager declaration with a serious smile and a melancholy head-shake. “I have no such pretensions, and my good old friend is laughing at me. Of course that is very easy; for what, in fact, can be more absurd, on the face of it, than for a woman with a title, with diamonds, with a carriage, with servants, with a position, as they call it, to sympathise with the upward struggles of those who are below? ‘Give all that up, and we’ll believe you,’ you have a right to say. I am ready to give them up the moment it will help the cause; I assure you that’s the least difficulty. I don’t want to teach, I want to learn; and, above all, I want to know à quoi m’en tenir. Are we on the eve of great changes, or are we not? Is everything that is gathering force, underground, in the dark, in the night, in little hidden rooms, out of sight of governments and policemen and idiotic ‘statesmen’—heaven save them!—is all this going to burst forth some fine morning and set the world on fire? Or is it to sputter out and spend itself in vain conspiracies, be dissipated in sterile heroisms and abortive isolated movements? I want to know à quoi m’en tenir,” she repeated, fixing her visitor with more brilliant eyes, as if he could tell her on the spot. Then, suddenly, she added in a totally different tone, “Excuse me, I have an idea you speak French. Didn’t Captain Sholto tell me so?”
She responded to his eager confession with a serious smile and a sad shake of her head. “I don’t have any such illusions, and my good old friend is laughing at me. Of course, that’s easy to do because what could be more ridiculous than a woman with a title, diamonds, a carriage, servants, and a so-called position feeling sympathy for those struggling to rise from below? ‘Give all that up, and we’ll believe you,’ you have every right to say. I’m ready to give it all up as soon as it helps the cause; I assure you, that’s the least of my worries. I don’t want to teach; I want to learn. Above all, I want to know à quoi m’en tenir. Are we on the brink of significant changes, or are we not? Is everything that’s building up, underground, in the dark, in little hidden rooms, out of sight of governments and cops and clueless ‘statesmen’—heaven help us!—is all of this going to explode one fine morning and change the world? Or will it fizzle out and waste itself on fruitless conspiracies, spread itself thin in pointless acts of heroism, and abortive isolated movements? I want to know à quoi m’en tenir,” she repeated, looking at her visitor intently, as if he could give her the answer right then. Then, suddenly, she shifted to a completely different tone, “Excuse me, I have a feeling you speak French. Didn’t Captain Sholto mention that to me?”
“I have some little acquaintance with it,” Hyacinth murmured. “I have French blood in my veins.”
“I know a bit about it,” Hyacinth murmured. “I have French ancestry.”
She considered him as if he had proposed to her some kind of problem. “Yes, I can see that you are not le premier venu. Now, your friend, of whom you were speaking, is a chemist; and you, yourself—what is your occupation?”
She looked at him like he had just presented her with some sort of puzzle. “Yes, I can tell you're not just anyone. Now, your friend, the one you mentioned, is a chemist; and you—what do you do for a living?”
“I’m just a bookbinder.”
“I’m just a book binder.”
“That must be delightful. I wonder if you would bind some books for me.”
"That sounds amazing! I was wondering if you could bind some books for me."
“You would have to bring them to our shop, and I can do there only the work that’s given out to me. I might manage it by myself, at home,” Hyacinth added, smiling.
“You would have to bring them to our shop, and I can only do the work that’s assigned to me there. I might be able to handle it on my own at home,” Hyacinth added, smiling.
“I should like that better. And what do you call home?”
“I would prefer that. And how do you define home?”
“The place I live in, in the north of London: a little street you certainly never heard of.”
“The place I live in, in the north of London: a small street you definitely haven’t heard of.”
“What is it called?”
“What’s it called?”
“Lomax Place, at your service,” said Hyacinth, laughing.
“Lomax Place, at your service,” Hyacinth said with a laugh.
She laughed back at him, and he didn’t know whether her brightness or her gravity were the more charming. “No, I don’t think I have heard of it. I don’t know London very well; I haven’t lived here long. I have spent most of my life abroad. My husband is a foreigner, an Italian. We don’t live together much. I haven’t the manners of this country—not of any class; have I, eh? Oh, this country—there is a great deal to be said about it; and a great deal to be done, as you, of course, understand better than any one. But I want to know London; it interests me more than I can say—the huge, swarming, smoky, human city. I mean real London, the people and all their sufferings and passions; not Park Lane and Bond Street. Perhaps you can help me—it would be a great kindness: that’s what I want to know men like you for. You see it isn’t idle, my having given you so much trouble to-night.”
She laughed back at him, and he couldn’t decide whether her brightness or her seriousness was more charming. “No, I don’t think I’ve heard of it. I don’t know London very well; I haven’t lived here long. I’ve spent most of my life abroad. My husband is a foreigner, an Italian. We don’t spend much time together. I don’t have the manners of this country—not from any class; do I? Oh, this country—there’s a lot to say about it; and a lot to do, as you, of course, understand better than anyone. But I want to know London; it interests me more than I can say—the huge, bustling, smoky, human city. I mean real London, the people and all their struggles and passions; not Park Lane and Bond Street. Maybe you can help me—it would be a great kindness: that’s why I wanted to get to know someone like you. You see, it’s not idle, my having troubled you so much tonight.”
“I shall be very glad to show you all I know. But it isn’t much, and above all it isn’t pretty,” said Hyacinth.
“I'd be really happy to share everything I know. But it’s not a lot, and honestly, it’s not pretty,” said Hyacinth.
“Whom do you live with, in Lomax Place?” the Princess asked, by way of rejoinder to this.
“Who do you live with in Lomax Place?” the Princess asked in response to this.
“Captain Sholto is leaving the young lady—he is coming back here,” Madame Grandoni announced, inspecting the balcony with her instrument. The orchestra had been for some time playing the overture to the following act.
“Captain Sholto is leaving the young lady—he's coming back here,” Madame Grandoni announced, checking the balcony with her instrument. The orchestra had been playing the overture to the next act for a while now.
Hyacinth hesitated a moment. “I live with a dressmaker.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “I live with a dressmaker.”
“With a dressmaker? Do you mean—do you mean—?” And the Princess paused.
“With a dressmaker? Do you mean—do you mean—?” And the Princess paused.
“Do you mean she’s your wife?” asked Madame Grandoni, humorously.
“Are you saying she’s your wife?” asked Madame Grandoni, jokingly.
“Perhaps she gives you rooms,” remarked the Princess.
“Maybe she gives you rooms,” said the Princess.
“How many do you think I have? She gives me everything, or she has done so in the past. She brought me up; she is the best little woman in the world.”
“How many do you think I have? She gives me everything, or she used to. She raised me; she's the best woman in the world.”
“You had better command a dress!” exclaimed Madame Grandoni.
“You should really get a dress!” exclaimed Madame Grandoni.
“And your family, where are they?” the Princess continued.
“And your family, where are they?” the Princess asked.
“I have no family.”
"I don't have any family."
“None at all?”
“Not even one?”
“None at all. I never had.”
“Not at all. I never did.”
“But the French blood that you speak of, and which I see perfectly in your face—you haven’t the English expression, or want of expression—that must have come to you through some one.”
“But the French blood you’re talking about, which I can see clearly in your face—you don’t have the typical English look, or lack of expression—that must have come to you from someone else.”
“Yes, through my mother.”
“Yes, via my mom.”
“And she is dead?”
"And she's dead?"
“Long ago.”
“Once upon a time.”
“That’s a great loss, because French mothers are usually so much to their sons.” The Princess looked at her painted fan a moment, as she opened and closed it; after which she said, “Well, then, you’ll come some day. We’ll arrange it.”
"That's a big loss because French mothers usually mean so much to their sons." The Princess glanced at her painted fan for a moment as she opened and closed it; then she said, "Well, you'll come someday. We'll make it happen."
Hyacinth felt that the answer to this could be only a silent inclination of his little person; and to make it he rose from his chair. As he stood there, conscious that he had stayed long enough and yet not knowing exactly how to withdraw, the Princess, with her fan closed, resting upright on her knee, and her hands clasped on the end of it, turned up her strange, lovely eyes at him, and said—
Hyacinth understood that the response to this could only be a quiet nod from his small self; and to express it, he got up from his chair. As he stood there, aware that he had lingered long enough but unsure of how to leave, the Princess, with her fan closed and resting upright on her knee, her hands folded on the end of it, looked up at him with her unusual, beautiful eyes and said—
“Do you think anything will occur soon?”
“Do you think anything is going to happen soon?”
“Will occur?”
“Will it happen?”
“That there will be a crisis—that you’ll make yourselves felt?”
"Are you saying there will be a crisis and that you’ll make your presence known?"
In this beautiful woman’s face there was to Hyacinth’s bewildered perception something at once inspiring, tempting and mocking; and the effect of her expression was to make him say, rather clumsily, “I’ll try and ascertain;” as if she had asked him whether her carriage were at the door.
In this beautiful woman's face, Hyacinth saw something that was both inspiring and tempting, yet also mocking, which left him bewildered. Her expression made him say, somewhat awkwardly, “I’ll try to find out;” as though she had asked him if her carriage was at the door.
“I don’t quite know what you are talking about; but please don’t have it for another hour or two. I want to see what becomes of the Pearl!” Madame Grandoni interposed.
“I’m not really sure what you mean, but please don’t have it for another hour or two. I want to see what happens with the Pearl!” Madame Grandoni interrupted.
“Remember what I told you: I would give up everything—everything!” the Princess went on, looking up at the young man in the same way. Then she held out her hand, and this time he knew sufficiently what he was about to take it.
“Remember what I told you: I would give up everything—everything!” the Princess continued, gazing up at the young man in the same manner. Then she extended her hand, and this time he understood well enough what he was about to do with it.
When he bade good-night to Madame Grandoni the old lady exclaimed to him, with a comical sigh, “Well, she is respectable!” and out in the lobby, when he had closed the door of the box behind him, he found himself echoing these words and repeating mechanically, “She is respectable!” They were on his lips as he stood, suddenly, face to face with Captain Sholto, who laid his hand on his shoulder once more and shook him a little, in that free yet insinuating manner for which this officer appeared to be remarkable.
When he said goodnight to Madame Grandoni, the old lady exclaimed with a playful sigh, “Well, she is respectable!” Once he stepped out into the lobby and closed the box door behind him, he found himself repeating her words, almost automatically, “She is respectable!” They were on his lips as he suddenly came face to face with Captain Sholto, who placed his hand on his shoulder again and gave him a little shake in that casual yet suggestive way for which this officer seemed to have a knack.
“My dear fellow, you were born under a lucky star.”
“My dear friend, you were born under a lucky star.”
“I never supposed it,” said Hyacinth, changing colour.
“I never thought that,” said Hyacinth, changing color.
“Why, what in the world would you have? You have the faculty, the precious faculty, of inspiring women with an interest—but an interest!”
“Why, what on earth do you want? You have this amazing ability, this precious ability, to inspire women with an interest—but just an interest!”
“Yes, ask them in the box there! I behaved like a cretin,” Hyacinth declared, overwhelmed now with a sense of opportunities missed.
“Yeah, ask them in that box over there! I acted like an idiot,” Hyacinth said, now feeling overwhelmed with a sense of missed opportunities.
“They won’t tell me that. And the lady upstairs?”
“They won’t tell me that. And what about the lady upstairs?”
“Well,” said Hyacinth gravely, “what about her?”
“Well,” Hyacinth said seriously, “what about her?”
The Captain considered him a moment. “She wouldn’t talk to me of anything but you. You may imagine how I liked it!”
The Captain thought about him for a moment. “She wouldn't talk to me about anything except you. You can imagine how I felt about that!”
“I don’t like it, either. But I must go up.”
“I don’t like it either. But I have to go up.”
“Oh yes, she counts the minutes. Such a charming person!” Captain Sholto added, with more propriety of tone. As Hyacinth left him he called after him, “Don’t be afraid—you’ll go far.”
“Oh yes, she counts the minutes. What a lovely person!” Captain Sholto added, with a more respectful tone. As Hyacinth walked away, he called after him, “Don’t worry—you’ll go far.”
When the young man took his place in the balcony beside Millicent this damsel gave him no greeting, nor asked any question about his adventures in the more aristocratic part of the house. She only turned her fine complexion upon him for some minutes, and as he himself was not in the mood to begin to chatter, the silence continued—continued till after the curtain had risen on the last act of the play. Millicent’s attention was now, evidently, not at her disposal for the stage, and in the midst of a violent scene, which included pistol-shots and shrieks, she said at last to her companion, “She’s a tidy lot, your Princess, by what I learn.”
When the young man settled into the balcony next to Millicent, she didn’t greet him or ask about his experiences in the fancier part of the house. Instead, she just looked at him for a few moments, and since he wasn't in the mood to start a conversation, the silence stretched on—staying that way even after the curtain went up for the last act of the play. It was clear that Millicent's focus wasn't on the stage anymore, and in the middle of an intense scene filled with gunfire and screams, she finally said to him, “Your Princess is quite a piece of work, from what I hear.”
“Pray, what do you know about her?”
“Please, what do you know about her?”
“I know what that fellow told me.”
“I know what that guy told me.”
“And pray, what was that?”
“What was that?”
“Well, she’s a bad ’un, as ever was. Her own husband has had to turn her out of the house.”
“Well, she’s trouble, just like always. Her own husband had to kick her out of the house.”
Hyacinth remembered the allusion the lady herself had made to her matrimonial situation; nevertheless, what he would have liked to reply to Miss Henning was that he didn’t believe a word of it. He withheld the doubt, and after a moment remarked quietly, “I don’t care.”
Hyacinth recalled the mention the lady had made about her marriage situation; still, what he really wanted to say to Miss Henning was that he didn’t believe any of it. He kept his doubts to himself and after a moment said calmly, “I don’t care.”
“You don’t care? Well, I do, then!” Millicent cried. And as it was impossible, in view of the performance and the jealous attention of their neighbours, to continue the conversation in this pitch, she contented herself with ejaculating, in a somewhat lower key, at the end of five minutes, during which she had been watching the stage, “Gracious, what dreadful common stuff!”
“You don’t care? Well, I do!” Millicent shouted. And since it was impossible, given the show and the jealous stares from their neighbors, to keep talking at that volume, she settled for exclaiming, in a slightly quieter tone, after five minutes of watching the stage, “Wow, what terrible, ordinary stuff!”
XIV
Hyacinth did not mention to Pinnie or Mr Vetch that he had been taken up by a great lady; but he mentioned it to Paul Muniment, to whom he now confided a great many things. He had, at first, been in considerable fear of his straight, loud, north-country friend, who showed signs of cultivating logic and criticism to a degree that was hostile to free conversation; but he discovered later that he was a man to whom one could say anything in the world, if one didn’t think it of more importance to be sympathised with than to be understood. For a revolutionist, he was strangely good-natured. The sight of all the things he wanted to change had seemingly no power to irritate him, and if he joked about questions that lay very near his heart his pleasantry was not bitter nor invidious; the fault that Hyacinth sometimes found with it, rather, was that it was innocent to puerility. Our hero envied his power of combining a care for the wide misery of mankind with the apparent state of mind of the cheerful and virtuous young workman who, on Sunday morning, has put on a clean shirt, and, not having taken the gilt off his wages the night before, weighs against each other, for a happy day, the respective attractions of Epping Forest and Gravesend. He was never sarcastic about his personal lot and his daily life; it had not seemed to occur to him, for instance, that ‘society’ was really responsible for the condition of his sister’s spinal column, though Eustache Poupin and his wife (who practically, however, were as patient as he) did everything they could to make him say so, believing, evidently, that it would relieve him. Apparently he cared nothing for women, talked of them rarely, and always decently, and had never a sign of a sweetheart, unless Lady Aurora Langrish might pass for one. He never drank a drop of beer nor touched a pipe; he always had a clear tone, a fresh cheek and a smiling eye, and once excited on Hyacinth’s part a kind of elder-brotherly indulgence by the open-mouthed glee and credulity with which, when the pair were present, in the sixpenny gallery, at Astley’s, at an equestrian pantomime, he followed the tawdry spectacle. He once told the young bookbinder that he was a suggestive little beggar, and Hyacinth’s opinion of him, by this time, was so exalted that the remark had almost the value of a patent of nobility. Our hero treated himself to an unlimited belief in him; he had always dreamed of having some grand friendship, and this was the best opening he had ever encountered. No one could entertain a sentiment of that sort better than Hyacinth, or cultivate a greater luxury of confidence. It disappointed him, sometimes, that it was not more richly repaid; that on certain important points of the socialistic programme Muniment would never commit himself; and that he had not yet shown the fond du sac, as Eustache Poupin called it, to so ardent an admirer. He answered particular questions freely enough, and answered them occasionally in a manner that made Hyacinth jump, as when, in reply to an inquiry in regard to his view of capital punishment, he said that, so far from wishing it abolished, he should go in for extending it much further—he should impose it on those who habitually lied or got drunk; but his friend had always a feeling that he kept back his best card and that even in the listening circle in Bloomsbury, when only the right men were present, there were unspoken conclusions in his mind which he didn’t as yet think any one good enough to be favoured with. So far, therefore, from suspecting him of half-heartedness, Hyacinth was sure that he had extraordinary things in his head; that he was thinking them out to the logical end, wherever it might land him; and that the night he should produce them, with the door of the club-room guarded and the company bound by a tremendous oath, the others would look at each other and turn pale.
Hyacinth didn’t tell Pinnie or Mr. Vetch that he had been taken up by a high-society woman, but he did share it with Paul Muniment, to whom he now confided many things. At first, he was quite afraid of his straightforward, loud, northern friend, who seemed to be developing logic and criticism in a way that threatened free conversation. However, he later realized Muniment was the kind of person with whom you could share anything, as long as you valued being understood over simply being sympathized with. For a revolutionary, he was surprisingly cheerful. The sight of everything he wanted to change didn’t seem to annoy him at all, and even when he joked about topics close to his heart, his humor wasn’t bitter or spiteful; instead, Hyacinth often found it almost childishly innocent. He envied Muniment’s ability to care about the widespread suffering of humanity while having the mindset of a happy, virtuous working-class guy who, on a Sunday morning, puts on a clean shirt and weighs the delights of Epping Forest against Gravesend for a pleasant day. He was never sarcastic about his own situation or daily life; it didn’t seem to occur to him that ‘society’ was genuinely responsible for his sister’s spinal issues, even though Eustache Poupin and his wife, who were as patient as he was, tried their best to get him to say so, clearly believing it would ease his mind. He seemed indifferent to women, rarely talked about them, and always did so respectfully, showing no signs of a sweetheart unless Lady Aurora Langrish could be considered one. He never drank beer or smoked; he always had a clear voice, a fresh complexion, and a joyful expression. Once, he sparked a kind of older-brotherly affection in Hyacinth when, at a sixpenny gallery show at Astley’s for an equestrian pantomime, he watched the flashy performance with wide-eyed enthusiasm and belief. He once told the young bookbinder that he was a suggestive little rascal, and by that time, Hyacinth held him in such high regard that the comment felt almost like a mark of nobility. Hyacinth indulged in an unwavering faith in him; he'd always dreamed of having a significant friendship, and this felt like his best chance yet. No one could nurture a sentiment like that better than Hyacinth or cultivate a greater luxury of trust. Sometimes he felt disappointed that it wasn't reciprocated more openly; that on certain key points of the socialist agenda, Muniment would never fully commit; and that he hadn’t yet revealed the fond du sac, as Eustache Poupin called it, to such an eager admirer. He would answer specific questions quite freely and sometimes in a way that surprised Hyacinth, like when he said, in response to a question about capital punishment, that he not only didn’t want it abolished but thought it should actually be extended—imposing it on habitual liars and drunks. Yet Hyacinth always felt Muniment was holding back his best ideas, and even in the company of the right people in Bloomsbury, there were unspoken thoughts in his mind that he didn’t yet think anyone was worthy enough to hear. Far from suspecting him of being half-hearted, Hyacinth was convinced he had extraordinary ideas brewing; that he was thinking them through to a logical conclusion, wherever that might lead him; and that on the night he finally shared them, with the club-room door secured and the attendees sworn to secrecy, everyone would look at one another and feel a chill of fear.
“She wants to see you; she asked me to bring you; she was very serious,” Hyacinth said, relating his interview with the ladies in the box at the play; which, however, now that he looked back upon it, seemed as queer as a dream, and not much more likely than that sort of experience to have a continuation in one’s waking hours.
“She wants to see you; she asked me to bring you; she was really serious,” Hyacinth said, sharing his conversation with the ladies in the box at the play; which, however, now that he thought about it, seemed as strange as a dream, and not much more likely than that kind of experience to continue into real life.
“To bring me—to bring me where?” asked Muniment. “You talk as if I were a sample out of your shop, or a little dog you had for sale. Has she ever seen me? Does she think I’m smaller than you? What does she know about me?”
“To take me—to take me where?” asked Muniment. “You talk like I’m a product from your store, or a little dog you’re trying to sell. Has she ever seen me? Does she think I’m smaller than you? What does she know about me?”
“Well, principally, that you’re a friend of mine—that’s enough for her.”
“Well, mainly, that you’re my friend—that’s enough for her.”
“Do you mean that it ought to be enough for me that she’s a friend of yours? I have a notion you’ll have some queer ones before you’re done; a good many more than I have time to talk to. And how can I go to see a delicate female, with those paws?” Muniment inquired, exhibiting ten work-stained fingers.
“Are you saying it should be enough for me that she’s your friend? I have a feeling you’ll have some odd ones before you’re done; a lot more than I have time to chat with. And how can I go visit a delicate woman with these hands?” Muniment asked, showing off his ten stained fingers.
“Buy a pair of gloves,” said Hyacinth, who recognised the serious character of this obstacle. But after a moment he added, “No, you oughtn’t to do that; she wants to see dirty hands.”
“Buy a pair of gloves,” said Hyacinth, who recognized the seriousness of this obstacle. But after a moment, he added, “No, you shouldn’t do that; she wants to see dirty hands.”
“That’s easy enough; she needn’t send for me for the purpose. But isn’t she making game of you?”
“That’s easy enough; she doesn’t need to call for me for that. But isn’t she just playing with you?”
“It’s very possible, but I don’t see what good it can do her.”
“It’s definitely possible, but I don’t see how it can help her.”
“You are not obliged to find excuses for the pampered classes. Their bloated luxury begets evil, impudent desires; they are capable of doing harm for the sake of harm. Besides, is she genuine?”
“You don’t have to make excuses for the privileged classes. Their excessive luxury creates selfish, arrogant desires; they can hurt others just to do harm. Plus, is she for real?”
“If she isn’t, what becomes of your explanation?” asked Hyacinth.
“If she isn’t, what happens to your explanation?” asked Hyacinth.
“Oh, it doesn’t matter; at night all cats are gray. Whatever she is, she’s an idle, bedizened jade.”
“Oh, it doesn’t matter; at night all cats look the same. Whatever she is, she’s a lazy, flashy gold digger.”
“If you had seen her, you wouldn’t talk of her that way.”
“If you had seen her, you wouldn’t talk about her like that.”
“God forbid I should see her, then, if she’s going to corrupt me!”
“God forbid I see her then, if she’s going to mess me up!”
“Do you suppose she’ll corrupt me?” Hyacinth demanded, with an expression of face and a tone of voice which produced, on his friend’s part, an explosion of mirth.
“Do you think she’ll corrupt me?” Hyacinth asked, his expression and tone making his friend burst into laughter.
“How can she, after all, when you are already such a little mass of corruption?”
“How can she, after all, when you're already such a small bundle of corruption?”
“You don’t think that,” said Hyacinth, looking very grave.
“You don’t really believe that,” said Hyacinth, looking very serious.
“Do you mean that if I did I wouldn’t say it? Haven’t you noticed that I say what I think?”
“Are you saying that if I did, I wouldn’t say it? Haven’t you noticed that I speak my mind?”
“No, you don’t, not half of it: you’re as close as a fish.”
“No, you don’t, not at all: you’re as distant as a fish.”
Paul Muniment looked at his companion a moment, as if he were rather struck with the penetration of that remark; then he said, “Well, then, if I should give you the other half of my opinion of you, do you think you’d fancy it?”
Paul Muniment glanced at his companion for a moment, as if he was taken aback by the insight of that remark; then he said, “So, if I shared the other half of my opinion about you, do you think you’d like it?”
“I’ll save you the trouble. I’m a very clever, conscientious, promising young chap, and any one would be proud to claim me as a friend.”
“I’ll make it easy for you. I’m a smart, responsible, promising young guy, and anyone would be lucky to have me as a friend.”
“Is that what your Princess told you? She must be a precious piece of goods!” Paul Muniment exclaimed. “Did she pick your pocket meanwhile?”
“Is that what your Princess said? She must be quite a catch!” Paul Muniment exclaimed. “Did she rob you while she was at it?”
“Oh yes; a few minutes later I missed a silver cigar-case, engraved with the arms of the Robinsons. Seriously,” Hyacinth continued, “don’t you consider it possible that a woman of that class should want to know what is going on among the like of us?”
“Oh yes; a few minutes later I noticed that a silver cigar case, engraved with the Robinsons' coat of arms, was missing. Seriously,” Hyacinth continued, “don’t you think it’s possible that a woman like her would want to know what’s happening with people like us?”
“It depends upon what class you mean.”
“It depends on what class you're referring to.”
“Well, a woman with a lot of jewels and the manners of an angel. It’s queer of course, but it’s conceivable; why not? There may be unselfish natures; there may be disinterested feelings.”
“Well, a woman with a lot of jewelry and the manners of an angel. It’s strange, of course, but it’s possible; why not? There might be selfless people; there might be genuine feelings.”
“And there may be fine ladies in an awful funk about their jewels, and even about their manners. Seriously, as you say, it’s perfectly conceivable. I am not in the least surprised at the aristocracy being curious to know what we are up to, and wanting very much to look into it; in their place I should be very uneasy, and if I were a woman with angelic manners very likely I too should be glad to get hold of a soft, susceptible little bookbinder, and pump him dry, bless his heart!”
“And there might be elegant women feeling really worried about their jewelry, and even about their behavior. Honestly, as you say, it’s totally believable. I’m not surprised at all that the aristocracy is curious about what we’re doing and wants to check it out; if I were them, I’d be quite anxious, and if I were a woman with impeccable manners, I’d probably be eager to get my hands on a sensitive little bookbinder and really get him to spill all his secrets, bless his heart!”
“Are you afraid I’ll tell her secrets?” cried Hyacinth, flushing with virtuous indignation.
“Are you worried I’m going to reveal her secrets?” shouted Hyacinth, blushing with righteous anger.
“Secrets? What secrets could you tell her, my pretty lad?”
“Secrets? What secrets do you have to share with her, my handsome boy?”
Hyacinth stared a moment. “You don’t trust me—you never have.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “You don’t trust me—you never have.”
“We will, some day—don’t be afraid,” said Muniment, who, evidently, had no intention of unkindness, a thing that appeared to be impossible to him. “And when we do, you’ll cry with disappointment.”
“We will, someday—don’t worry,” said Muniment, who clearly had no intention of being unkind, something he thought was impossible. “And when we do, you’ll cry out of disappointment.”
“Well, you won’t,” Hyacinth declared. And then he asked whether his friend thought the Princess Casamassima a spy; and why, if she were in that line, Mr Sholto was not—inasmuch as it must be supposed he was not, since they had seen fit to let him walk in and out, at that rate, in the place in Bloomsbury. Muniment did not even know whom he meant, not having had any relations with the gentleman; but he summoned a sufficient image when his companion had described the Captain’s appearance. He then remarked, with his usual geniality, that he didn’t take him for a spy—he took him for an ass; but even if he had edged himself into the place with every intention to betray them, what handle could he possibly get—what use, against them, could he make of anything he had seen or heard? If he had a fancy to dip into working-men’s clubs (Muniment remembered, now, the first night he came; he had been brought by that German cabinet-maker, who had a stiff neck and smoked a pipe with a bowl as big as a stove); if it amused him to put on a bad hat, and inhale foul tobacco, and call his ‘inferiors’ ‘my dear fellow’; if he thought that in doing so he was getting an insight into the people and going half-way to meet them and preparing for what was coming—all this was his own affair, and he was very welcome, though a man must be a flat who would spend his evening in a hole like that when he might enjoy his comfort in one of those flaming big shops, full of arm-chairs and flunkies, in Pall Mall. And what did he see, after all, in Bloomsbury? Nothing but a ‘social gathering’, where there were clay pipes, and a sanded floor, and not half enough gas, and the principal newspapers; and where the men, as any one would know, were advanced radicals, and mostly advanced idiots. He could pat as many of them on the back as he liked, and say the House of Lords wouldn’t last till midsummer; but what discoveries would he make? He was simply on the same lay as Hyacinth’s Princess; he was nervous and scared, and he thought he would see for himself.
“Well, you won’t,” Hyacinth declared. Then he asked whether his friend thought Princess Casamassima was a spy, and why, if she was, Mr. Sholto wasn’t—since it had to be assumed he wasn’t, considering they let him come and go in that place in Bloomsbury. Muniment didn't even know who he meant, not having interacted with the guy; but he created a decent image when his friend described the Captain’s look. He then remarked, with his usual friendliness, that he didn’t see him as a spy—he thought he was an idiot; but even if he managed to get into the place with every intention of betraying them, what leverage could he possibly have—what good could he possibly do against them with anything he had seen or heard? If he wanted to check out working-men’s clubs (Muniment recalled now, the first night he came; he had been brought by that German cabinetmaker, who had a stiff neck and smoked a pipe with a bowl as big as a stove); if it entertained him to wear a bad hat, inhale crappy tobacco, and call his ‘inferiors’ ‘my dear fellow’; if he thought that by doing so he was getting a glimpse into the lives of the people and halfway meeting them, preparing for what was ahead—all of that was his own business, and he was welcome to it, though it would be foolish for a guy to waste his evening in a dump like that when he could enjoy his comfort in one of those flashy big places, full of armchairs and waitstaff, in Pall Mall. And what did he see, after all, in Bloomsbury? Nothing but a ‘social gathering,’ where there were clay pipes, a sanded floor, not enough gaslights, and the main newspapers; and where the men, as anyone would know, were radical liberals, and mostly just foolish. He could pat as many of them on the back as he wanted and say the House of Lords wouldn’t last until midsummer; but what new things would he uncover? He was simply in the same position as Hyacinth’s Princess; he was nervous and scared, thinking he would see for himself.
“Oh, he isn’t the same sort as the Princess. I’m sure he’s in a very different line!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Oh, he’s not like the Princess at all. I’m sure he does something completely different!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Different, of course: she’s a handsome woman, I suppose, and he’s an ugly man; but I don’t think that either of them will save us or spoil us. Their curiosity is natural, but I have got other things to do than to show them over; therefore you can tell her serene highness that I’m much obliged.”
“Different, of course: she’s a good-looking woman, I guess, and he’s an unattractive man; but I don’t think either of them will help us or hurt us. Their curiosity is understandable, but I have other things to do than to give them a tour; so you can tell her highness that I really appreciate it.”
Hyacinth reflected a moment, and then he said, “You show Lady Aurora over; you seem to wish to give her the information she desires; and what’s the difference? If it’s right for her to take an interest, why isn’t it right for my Princess?”
Hyacinth thought for a moment, then said, “You’re showing Lady Aurora around; you obviously want to give her the information she’s looking for; so what’s the difference? If it’s okay for her to be interested, why isn’t it okay for my Princess?”
“If she’s already yours, what more can she want?” Muniment asked. “All I know of Lady Aurora, and all I look at, is that she comes and sits with Rosy, and brings her tea, and waits upon her. If the Princess will do as much I’ll tell her she’s a woman of genius; but apart from that I shall never take a grain of interest in her interest in the masses—or in this particular mass!” And Paul Muniment, with his discoloured thumb, designated his own substantial person. His tone was disappointing to Hyacinth, who was surprised at his not appearing to think the episode at the theatre more remarkable and romantic. Muniment seemed to regard his explanation of such a proceeding as all-sufficient; but when, a moment later, he made use, in referring to the mysterious lady, of the expression that she was ‘quaking’, Hyacinth broke out—“Never in the world; she’s not afraid of anything!”
“If she’s already yours, what else could she want?” Muniment asked. “All I see of Lady Aurora is that she comes and sits with Rosy, brings her tea, and takes care of her. If the Princess does just that, I’ll say she’s a woman of genius; but other than that, I’ll never care a bit about her interest in the people—or in this particular group!” And Paul Muniment, with his stained thumb, pointed to his own hefty self. His tone disappointed Hyacinth, who was surprised he didn't find the theater incident more impressive and romantic. Muniment seemed to think his explanation was enough; but when he later referred to the mysterious lady as ‘quaking’, Hyacinth exclaimed, “Never in the world; she’s not scared of anything!”
“Ah, my lad, not afraid of you, evidently!”
“Ah, my boy, clearly not scared of you!”
Hyacinth paid no attention to this coarse sally, but asked in a moment, with a candour that was proof against further ridicule, “Do you think she can do me a hurt of any kind, if we follow up our acquaintance?”
Hyacinth ignored this crude remark and asked after a moment, with a sincerity that couldn't be mocked further, “Do you think she can harm me in any way if we continue getting to know each other?”
“Yes, very likely, but you must hit her back! That’s your line, you know: to go in for what’s going, to live your life, to gratify the women. I’m an ugly, grimy brute; I’ve got to watch the fires and mind the shop; but you are one of those taking little beggars who ought to run about and see the world; you ought to be an ornament to society, like a young man in an illustrated story-book. Only,” Muniment added in a moment, “you know, if she should hurt you very much, then I would go and see her!”
“Yes, that's very possible, but you have to hit her back! That's your role, you know: to go for what's happening, to live your life, to please the women. I’m an ugly, gritty guy; I’ve got to keep an eye on the fires and run the shop; but you’re one of those little guys who should be out and about exploring the world; you should be a gem in society, like a young man in a picture book. Just,” Muniment added after a moment, “if she really hurts you, then I would go and talk to her!”
Hyacinth had been intending for some time to take Pinnie to call on the prostrate damsel in Audley Court, to whom he had promised that his benefactress (he had told Rose Muniment that she was ‘a kind of aunt’) should pay this civility; but the affair had been delayed by wan hesitations on the part of the dressmaker, for the poor woman had hard work to imagine, to-day, that there were people in London so forlorn that her countenance could be of value to them. Her social curiosities had become very nearly extinct, and she knew that she no longer made the same figure in public as when her command of the fashions enabled her to illustrate them in her own little person, by the aid of a good deal of whalebone. Moreover she felt that Hyacinth had strange friends and still stranger opinions; she suspected that he took an unnatural interest in politics and was somehow not on the right side, little as she knew about parties or causes; and she had a vague conviction that this kind of perversity only multiplied the troubles of the poor, who, according to theories which Pinnie had never reasoned out, but which, in her bosom, were as deep as religion, ought always to be of the same way of thinking as the rich. They were unlike them enough in their poverty, without trying to add other differences. When at last she accompanied Hyacinth to Camberwell, one Saturday evening at midsummer, it was in a sighing, sceptical, second-best manner; but if he had told her he wished it she would have gone with him to a soirée at a scavenger’s. There was no more danger of Rose Muniment’s being out than of one of the bronze couchant lions in Trafalgar Square having walked down Whitehall; but he had let her know in advance, and he perceived, as he opened her door in obedience to a quick, shrill summons, that she had had the happy thought of inviting Lady Aurora to help her to entertain Miss Pynsent. Such, at least, was the inference he drew from seeing her ladyship’s memorable figure rise before him for the first time since his own visit. He presented his companion to their reclining hostess, and Rosy immediately repeated her name to the representative of Belgrave Square. Pinnie curtsied down to the ground, as Lady Aurora put out her hand to her, and slipped noiselessly into a chair beside the bed. Lady Aurora laughed and fidgeted, in a friendly, cheerful, yet at the same time rather pointless manner, and Hyacinth gathered that she had no recollection of having met him before. His attention, however, was mainly given to Pinnie: he watched her jealously, to see whether, on this important occasion, she would not put forth a certain stiff, quaint, polished politeness, of which she possessed the secret and which made her resemble a pair of old-fashioned sugar-tongs. Not only for Pinnie’s sake, but for his own as well, he wished her to pass for a superior little woman, and he hoped she wouldn’t lose her head if Rosy should begin to talk about Inglefield. She was, evidently, much impressed by Rosy, and kept repeating, “Dear, dear!” under her breath, as the small, strange person in the bed rapidly explained to her that there was nothing in the world she would have liked so much as to follow her delightful profession, but that she couldn’t sit up to it, and had never had a needle in her hand but once, when at the end of three minutes it had dropped into the sheets and got into the mattress, so that she had always been afraid it would work out again and stick into her; but it hadn’t done so yet, and perhaps it never would—she lay so quiet, she didn’t push it about much. “Perhaps you would think it’s me that trimmed the little handkerchief I wear round my neck,” Miss Muniment said; “perhaps you would think I couldn’t do less, lying here all day long, with complete command of my time. Not a stitch of it. I’m the finest lady in London; I never lift my finger for myself. It’s a present from her ladyship—it’s her ladyship’s own beautiful needlework. What do you think of that? Have you ever met any one so favoured before? And the work—just look at the work, and tell me what you think of that!” The girl pulled off the bit of muslin from her neck and thrust it at Pinnie, who looked at it confusedly and exclaimed, “Dear, dear, dear!” partly in sympathy, partly as if, in spite of the consideration she owed every one, those were very strange proceedings.
Hyacinth had been planning for a while to take Pinnie to visit the ailing woman in Audley Court, to whom he had promised that his benefactor (he had told Rose Muniment she was ‘kind of like an aunt’) would pay a visit; however, the plan had been delayed by the dressmaker's hesitations, as the poor woman struggled to believe that there were people in London who were so unfortunate that her presence could mean something to them. Her curiosity about social matters had nearly vanished, and she was aware that she no longer made the same impression in public as she did when she could showcase the latest fashions on herself, aided by plenty of whalebone. Furthermore, she felt that Hyacinth had odd friends and even stranger opinions; she suspected he had an unnatural interest in politics and was somehow not on the right side, even though she knew little about political parties or causes. She harbored a vague belief that this kind of contrariness only added to the troubles of the poor, who, according to theories that Pinnie had never fully considered but which felt as deep as religion in her heart, should always think the same way as the wealthy. They were different enough in their poverty without wanting to add more divides. When she finally joined Hyacinth for a trip to Camberwell one Saturday evening in the summer, she did so with a reluctant, skeptical attitude; however, if he had asked, she would have gone with him to a gathering at a garbage collector’s. There was no chance of Rose Muniment being out, similar to a bronze lion in Trafalgar Square walking down Whitehall; he had informed her in advance, and, as he opened the door in response to a brisk, sharp call, he realized she had the clever idea of inviting Lady Aurora to help entertain Miss Pynsent. At least, that was the conclusion he drew from seeing her ladyship’s familiar silhouette appear before him for the first time since his own visit. He introduced his companion to their reclining hostess, and Rosy quickly repeated her name to the representative of Belgrave Square. Pinnie curtsied deeply as Lady Aurora extended her hand, and quietly slipped into a chair beside the bed. Lady Aurora laughed and fidgeted in a friendly, cheerful, but somewhat aimless way, and Hyacinth sensed she didn't remember ever meeting him before. His main focus, however, was on Pinnie: he watched her closely, anxious to see if she would display a certain stiff, old-fashioned politeness that she possessed, which made her remind him of a set of antique sugar tongs. For Pinnie’s sake, and his own, he hoped she would present herself as a refined little lady, and he prayed she wouldn’t lose her composure if Rosy started talking about Inglefield. She was clearly impressed by Rosy, softly muttering “Dear, dear!” under her breath as the small, unusual person in the bed quickly explained that there was nothing in the world she would have loved more than to pursue 'her' lovely profession, but that she couldn’t sit up to it, having only held a needle once; three minutes into it, it had fallen into the sheets and gotten stuck in the mattress, leaving her always worried it might pop out and prick her again; but it hadn’t yet, and perhaps it never would—she lay so still that it didn’t shift around much. “You might think it’s me who trimmed this little handkerchief I wear around my neck,” Miss Muniment said; “maybe you’d think I should do something, lying here all day with all the time in the world. Not a stitch. I’m the finest lady in London; I don’t lift a finger for myself. It’s a gift from her ladyship—it’s her ladyship’s own beautiful needlework. What do you think of that? Have you ever met anyone so lucky before? And the work—just look at the work, and tell me what you think of it!” The girl removed the piece of muslin from her neck and held it out to Pinnie, who looked at it in confusion and exclaimed, “Dear, dear, dear!” partly in sympathy, partly as if, despite her respect for everyone, these were very peculiar happenings.
“It’s very badly done; surely you see that,” said Lady Aurora. “It was only a joke.”
“It’s really poorly done; you can see that, right?” said Lady Aurora. “It was just a joke.”
“Oh yes, everything’s a joke!” cried the irrepressible invalid—“everything except my state of health; that’s admitted to be serious. When her ladyship sends me five shillings’ worth of coals it’s only a joke; and when she brings me a bottle of the finest port, that’s another; and when she climbs up seventy-seven stairs (there are seventy-seven, I know perfectly, though I never go up or down), at the height of the London season, to spend the evening with me, that’s the best of all. I know all about the London season, though I never go out, and I appreciate what her ladyship gives up. She is very jocular indeed, but, fortunately, I know how to take it. You can see that it wouldn’t do for me to be touchy, can’t you, Miss Pynsent?”
“Oh yes, everything’s a joke!” exclaimed the lively invalid. “Everything except my health; that’s clearly serious. When her ladyship sends me five shillings’ worth of coals, it’s just a joke; and when she brings me a bottle of the finest port, that’s another joke; and when she climbs up seventy-seven stairs (I know there are seventy-seven, even though I never go up or down), during the busy London season, to spend the evening with me, that’s the best joke of all. I know all about the London season, even though I never go out, and I recognize what her ladyship sacrifices. She’s very playful indeed, but luckily, I know how to handle it. You can see that it wouldn’t be good for me to be sensitive, can’t you, Miss Pynsent?”
“Dear, dear, I should be so glad to make you anything myself; it would be better—it would be better—” Pinnie murmured, hesitating.
“Dear, dear, I would be so happy to make you whatever you want myself; it would be better—it would be better—” Pinnie murmured, hesitating.
“It would be better than my poor work. I don’t know how to do that sort of thing, in the least,” said Lady Aurora.
“It would be better than my weak efforts. I don’t know how to do that kind of thing at all,” said Lady Aurora.
“I’m sure I didn’t mean that, my lady—I only meant it would be more convenient. Anything in the world she might fancy,” the dressmaker went on, as if it were a question of the invalid’s appetite.
“I’m sure I didn’t mean that, my lady—I just thought it would be more convenient. Anything in the world she might want,” the dressmaker continued, as if it were a matter of the invalid’s appetite.
“Ah, you see I don’t wear things—only a flannel jacket, to be a bit tidy,” Miss Muniment rejoined. “I go in only for smart counterpanes, as you can see for yourself;” and she spread her white hands complacently over her coverlet of brilliant patchwork. “Now doesn’t that look to you, Miss Pynsent, as if it might be one of her ladyship’s jokes?”
“Ah, you see, I don’t wear much—just a flannel jacket to keep things neat,” Miss Muniment replied. “I'm all about stylish bedcovers, as you can tell;” and she gracefully spread her white hands over her vibrant patchwork quilt. “Now, doesn’t that look to you, Miss Pynsent, like it could be one of her ladyship’s jokes?”
“Oh, my good friend, how can you? I never went so far as that!” Lady Aurora interposed, with visible anxiety.
“Oh, my good friend, how can you? I never went that far!” Lady Aurora interrupted, clearly anxious.
“Well, you’ve given me almost everything; I sometimes forget. This only cost me sixpence; so it comes to the same thing as if it had been a present. Yes, only sixpence, in a raffle in a bazaar at Hackney, for the benefit of the Wesleyan Chapel, three years ago. A young man who works with my brother, and lives in that part, offered him a couple of tickets; and he took one, and I took one. When I say ‘I’, of course I mean that he took the two; for how should I find (by which I mean, of course, how should he find) a sixpence in that little cup on the chimney-piece unless he had put it there first? Of course my ticket took a prize, and of course, as my bed is my dwelling-place, the prize was a beautiful counterpane, of every colour of the rainbow. Oh, there never was such luck as mine!” Rosy exclaimed, flashing her gay, strange eyes at Hyacinth, as if on purpose to irritate him with her contradictious optimism.
“Well, you’ve given me almost everything; I sometimes forget. This only cost me sixpence, so it’s like it was a gift. Yeah, just sixpence, from a raffle at a bazaar in Hackney for the Wesleyan Chapel three years ago. A guy who works with my brother and lives in that area offered him a couple of tickets; he took one, and I took one. When I say ‘I,’ I mean he took both, because how would I find (I mean, how would he find) a sixpence in that little cup on the mantel if he hadn’t put it there first? Of course my ticket won a prize, and since my bed is where I live, the prize was a gorgeous quilt in every color of the rainbow. Oh, there’s never been luck like mine!” Rosy exclaimed, flashing her bright, quirky eyes at Hyacinth, as if trying to annoy him with her conflicting optimism.
“It’s very lovely; but if you would like another, for a change, I’ve got a great many pieces,” Pinnie remarked, with a generosity which made the young man feel that she was acquitting herself finely.
“It’s really lovely; but if you’d like something different, I have a lot of other options,” Pinnie said, with a kindness that made the young man feel that she was doing well.
Rose Muniment laid her little hand on the dressmaker’s arm, and responded, quickly, “No, not a change, not a change. How can there be a change when there’s already everything? There’s everything here—every colour that was ever seen, or composed, or dreamed of, since the world began.” And with her other hand she stroked, affectionately, her variegated quilt. “You have a great many pieces, but you haven’t as many as there are here; and the more you should patch them together the more the whole thing would resemble this dear, dazzling old friend. I have another idea, very, very charming, and perhaps her ladyship can guess what it is.” Rosy kept her fingers on Pinnie’s arm, and, smiling, turned her brilliant eyes from one of her female companions to the other, as if she wished to associate them as much as possible in their interest in her. “In connection with what we were talking about a few minutes ago—couldn’t your ladyship just go a little further, in the same line?” Then, as Lady Aurora looked troubled and embarrassed, blushing at being called upon to answer a conundrum, as it were, so publicly, her infirm friend came to her assistance. “It will surprise you at first, but it won’t when I have explained it: my idea is just simply a pink dressing-gown!”
Rose Muniment placed her small hand on the dressmaker’s arm and replied quickly, “No, not a change, not at all. How can there be a change when everything is already here? There’s everything here—every color that’s ever been seen, created, or imagined since the beginning of time.” With her other hand, she affectionately stroked her colorful quilt. “You have a lot of pieces, but not as many as there are here; and the more you patch them together, the more it would look like this dear, dazzling old friend. I have another idea that’s very, very charming, and maybe your ladyship can guess what it is.” Rosy kept her fingers on Pinnie’s arm and, smiling, turned her bright eyes from one of her female companions to the other, as if she wanted to involve them as much as possible in her excitement. “In relation to what we were just discussing a few minutes ago—couldn’t your ladyship go a little further in that direction?” Then, as Lady Aurora looked wary and embarrassed, blushing for having to answer such a riddle so publicly, her frail friend came to her aid. “It might surprise you at first, but it won’t once I explain: my idea is simply a pink dressing gown!”
“A pink dressing-gown!” Lady Aurora repeated.
“A pink robe!” Lady Aurora repeated.
“With a neat black trimming! Don’t you see the connection with what we were talking of before our good visitors came in?”
“With a tidy black trim! Don’t you see the link with what we were discussing before our nice guests arrived?”
“That would be very pretty,” said Pinnie. “I have made them like that, in my time. Or blue, trimmed with white.”
"That would be really nice," Pinnie said. "I've made them like that before. Or blue with white trim."
“No, pink and black, pink and black—to suit my complexion. Perhaps you didn’t know I have a complexion; but there are very few things I haven’t got! Anything at all I should fancy, you were so good as to say. Well now, I fancy that! Your ladyship does see the connection by this time, doesn’t she?”
“No, pink and black, pink and black—to match my skin tone. Maybe you didn't realize I have a skin tone; but there are very few things I don’t have! Anything at all I could want, you were kind enough to say. Well now, I want that! Your ladyship understands the connection by now, don’t you?”
Lady Aurora looked distressed, as if she felt that she certainly ought to see it but was not sure that even yet it didn’t escape her, and as if, at the same time, she were struck with the fact that this sudden evocation might result in a strain on the little dressmaker’s resources. “A pink dressing-gown would certainly be very becoming, and Miss Pynsent would be very kind,” she said; while Hyacinth made the mental comment that it was a largeish order, as Pinnie would have, obviously, to furnish the materials as well as the labour. The amiable coolness with which the invalid laid her under contribution was, however, to his sense, quite in character, and he reflected that, after all, when you were stretched on your back like that you had the right to reach out your hands (it wasn’t far you could reach at best) and seize what you could get. Pinnie declared that she knew just the article Miss Muniment wanted, and that she would undertake to make a sweet thing of it; and Rosy went on to say that she must explain of what use such an article would be, but for this purpose there must be another guess. She would give it to Miss Pynsent and Hyacinth—as many times as they liked: What had she and Lady Aurora been talking about before they came in? She clasped her hands, and her eyes glittered with her eagerness, while she continued to turn them from Lady Aurora to the dressmaker. What would they imagine? What would they think natural, delightful, magnificent—if one could only end, at last, by making out the right place to put it? Hyacinth suggested, successively, a cage of Java sparrows, a music-box and a shower-bath—or perhaps even a full-length portrait of her ladyship; and Pinnie looked at him askance, in a frightened way, as if perchance he were joking too broadly. Rosy at last relieved their suspense and announced, “A sofa, just a sofa, now! What do you say to that? Do you suppose that’s an idea that could have come from any one but her ladyship? She must have all the credit of it; she came out with it in the course of conversation. I believe we were talking of the peculiar feeling that comes just under the shoulder-blades if one never has a change. She mentioned it as she might have mentioned a plaster, or another spoonful of that American stuff. We are thinking it over, and one of these days, if we give plenty of time to the question, we shall find the place, the very nicest and snuggest of all, and no other. I hope you see the connection with the pink dressing-gown,” she remarked to Pinnie, “and I hope you see the importance of the question, Shall anything go? I should like you to look round a bit, and tell me what you would answer if I were to say to you, Can anything go?”
Lady Aurora looked upset, as if she felt she should definitely see it but wasn't sure if it had escaped her, and at the same time, she seemed to realize that this sudden request might put a strain on the little dressmaker’s resources. “A pink dressing gown would definitely look great, and Miss Pynsent would be really sweet,” she said; while Hyacinth thought to himself that it was quite a big order since Pinnie would obviously have to provide the materials as well as the labor. The calm way the invalid asked her for a favor felt typical to him, and he reflected that, after all, when you were lying on your back like that, you had every right to reach out your hands (after all, you couldn't reach far) and grab whatever you could get. Pinnie said she knew exactly what Miss Muniment needed, and that she would make it look beautiful; and Rosy added that she had to explain how useful such an item would be, but for that, there had to be another guess. She would give it to Miss Pynsent and Hyacinth as many times as they wanted: What were she and Lady Aurora discussing before they came in? She clasped her hands, her eyes sparkling with excitement, as she kept looking back and forth from Lady Aurora to the dressmaker. What would they imagine? What would they think was natural, delightful, magnificent—if they could just figure out the right place to put it? Hyacinth suggested a cage of Java sparrows, a music box, and a shower bath—or maybe even a full-length portrait of her ladyship; and Pinnie glanced at him nervously, as if she thought he might be joking too much. Finally, Rosy eased their tension and announced, “A sofa, just a sofa! What do you think of that? Do you think that could have come from anyone but her ladyship? She deserves all the credit; she brought it up in conversation. I think we were discussing that odd feeling that you get under the shoulder blades if you haven't had a change. She mentioned it as casually as she would mention needing a bandage or another spoonful of that American stuff. We're thinking it over, and one of these days, if we give it enough thought, we'll find the perfect spot for it, the coziest one of all. I hope you see the connection with the pink dressing gown," she said to Pinnie, "and I hope you recognize how important the question is: Shall anything be discarded? I’d like you to look around a bit and tell me what you would answer if I were to ask you, Can anything be discarded?”
XV
“I’m sure there’s nothing I should like to part with,” Pinnie returned; and while she surveyed the scene Lady Aurora, with delicacy, to lighten Amanda’s responsibility, got up and turned to the window, which was open to the summer-evening and admitted still the last rays of the long day. Hyacinth, after a moment, placed himself beside her, looking out with her at the dusky multitude of chimney-pots and the small black houses, roofed with grimy tiles. The thick, warm air of a London July floated beneath them, suffused with the everlasting uproar of the town, which appeared to have sunk into quietness but again became a mighty voice as soon as one listened for it; here and there, in poor windows, glimmered a turbid light, and high above, in a clearer, smokeless zone, a sky still fair and luminous, a faint silver star looked down. The sky was the same that, far away in the country, bent over golden fields and purple hills and gardens where nightingales sang; but from this point of view everything that covered the earth was ugly and sordid, and seemed to express, or to represent, the weariness of toil. In an instant, to Hyacinth’s surprise, Lady Aurora said to him, “You never came, after all, to get the books.”
“I’m sure there’s nothing I want to part with,” Pinnie replied. As she took in the scene, Lady Aurora gently stood up and turned to the window, which was open to the summer evening and let in the last rays of the long day. After a moment, Hyacinth joined her, looking out at the dark array of chimney pots and the small black houses with grimy roofs. The thick, warm air of a July evening in London surrounded them, filled with the constant noise of the city, which seemed to fall silent but roared back to life as soon as one listened closely; here and there, faint lights flickered in shabby windows, and high above, in a clearer, smokeless sky, a faint silver star shone down. This sky was the same one that, far away in the countryside, arched over golden fields, purple hills, and gardens where nightingales sang; but from this view, everything on the ground looked ugly and rundown, reflecting the exhaustion of hard work. Suddenly, to Hyacinth’s surprise, Lady Aurora said to him, “You never came to get the books after all.”
“Those you kindly offered to lend me? I didn’t know it was an understanding.”
“Those you kindly offered to lend me? I didn't realize that was a given.”
Lady Aurora gave an uneasy laugh. “I have picked them out; they are quite ready.”
Lady Aurora let out a nervous laugh. “I’ve chosen them; they’re all set.”
“It’s very kind of you,” the young man rejoined. “I will come and get them some day, with pleasure.” He was not very sure that he would; but it was the least he could say.
“It’s really nice of you,” the young man said in response. “I’ll come and pick them up someday, for sure.” He wasn’t entirely certain he would, but it was the least he could say.
“She’ll tell you where I live, you know,” Lady Aurora went on, with a movement of her head in the direction of the bed, as if she were too shy to mention it herself.
“She’ll tell you where I live, you know,” Lady Aurora continued, nodding toward the bed, as if she were too shy to say it herself.
“Oh, I have no doubt she knows the way—she could tell me every street and every turn!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Oh, I’m sure she knows the way—she could give me directions for every street and every turn!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“She has made me describe to her, very often, how I come and go. I think that few people know more about London than she. She never forgets anything.”
“She often asks me to describe how I come and go. I think very few people know more about London than she does. She never forgets anything.”
“She’s a wonderful little witch—she terrifies me!” said Hyacinth.
“She’s an amazing little witch—she scares me!” said Hyacinth.
Lady Aurora turned her modest eyes upon him. “Oh, she’s so good, she’s so patient!”
Lady Aurora turned her humble eyes towards him. “Oh, she’s so sweet, she’s so understanding!”
“Yes, and so wise, and so self-possessed.”
“Yes, and so wise, and so composed.”
“Oh, she’s immensely clever,” said her ladyship. “Which do you think the cleverest?”
“Oh, she's really clever,” said her ladyship. “Which one do you think is the cleverest?”
“The cleverest?”
"The smartest?"
“I mean of the girl and her brother.”
“I mean the girl and her brother.”
“Oh, I think he, some day, will be prime minister of England.”
“Oh, I think he’ll be the Prime Minister of England one day.”
“Do you really? I’m so glad!” cried Lady Aurora, with a flush of colour in her face. “I’m so glad you think that will be possible. You know it ought to be, if things were right.”
“Do you really? I’m so happy!” exclaimed Lady Aurora, color rising to her cheeks. “I’m so happy you believe that could happen. You know it should be possible if everything were right.”
Hyacinth had not professed this high faith for the purpose of playing upon her ladyship’s feelings, but when he perceived her eager responsiveness he felt almost as if he had been making sport of her. Still, he said no more than he believed when he remarked, in a moment, that he had the greatest expectations of Paul Muniment’s future: he was sure that the world would hear of him, that England would feel him, that the public, some day, would acclaim him. It was impossible to associate with him without feeling that he was very strong, that he must play an important part.
Hyacinth didn't express this strong belief to manipulate her feelings, but when he noticed how eager she was, he almost felt like he was making fun of her. Still, he said nothing more than what he truly believed when he mentioned, after a moment, that he had very high hopes for Paul Muniment's future: he was certain that the world would notice him, that England would feel his impact, and that someday the public would celebrate him. It was impossible to be with him without sensing that he was very powerful and destined to play an important role.
“Yes, people wouldn’t believe—they wouldn’t believe,” Lady Aurora murmured softly, appreciatively. She was evidently very much pleased with what Hyacinth was saying. It was moreover a pleasure to himself to place on record his opinion of his friend; it seemed to make that opinion more clear, to give it the force of an invocation, a prophecy. This was especially the case when he asked why on earth nature had endowed Paul Muniment with such extraordinary powers of mind, and powers of body too—because he was as strong as a horse—if it had not been intended that he should do something great for his fellow-men. Hyacinth confided to her ladyship that he thought the people in his own class generally very stupid—what he should call third-rate minds. He wished it were not so, for heaven knew that he felt kindly to them and only asked to cast his lot with theirs; but he was obliged to confess that centuries of poverty, of ill-paid toil, of bad, insufficient food and wretched homes, had not a favourable effect upon the higher faculties. All the more reason that when there was a splendid exception, like Paul Muniment, it should count for a tremendous force—it had so much to make up for, to act for. And then Hyacinth repeated that in his own low walk of life people had really not the faculty of thought; their minds had been simplified—reduced to two or three elements. He saw that this declaration made his interlocutress very uncomfortable; she turned and twisted herself, vaguely, as if she wished to protest, but she was far too considerate to interrupt him. He had no desire to distress her, but there were times in which it was impossible for him to withstand the perverse satisfaction he took in insisting on his lowliness of station, in turning the knife about in the wound inflicted by such explicit reference, and in letting it be seen that if his place in the world was immeasurably small he at least had no illusions about either himself or his fellows. Lady Aurora replied, as quickly as possible, that she knew a great deal about the poor—not the poor like Rose Muniment, but the terribly, hopelessly poor, with whom she was more familiar than Hyacinth would perhaps believe—and that she was often struck with their great talents, with their quick wit, with their conversation being really much more entertaining, to her at least, than what one usually heard in drawing-rooms. She often found them immensely clever.
“Yes, people wouldn’t believe—they wouldn’t believe,” Lady Aurora said softly, appreciatively. She was clearly very pleased with what Hyacinth was saying. It was also a pleasure for him to express his opinion of his friend; it made that opinion clearer, giving it the weight of a call to action, a prophecy. This was especially true when he questioned why nature had gifted Paul Muniment with such incredible mental and physical abilities—because he was as strong as an ox—if it wasn’t meant for him to achieve something great for his fellow humans. Hyacinth confided in her that he thought people in his own class were generally very dull—what he would label as third-rate minds. He wished it weren’t this way, because heaven knew he felt kindly toward them and only wanted to be part of their world; but he had to admit that centuries of poverty, poorly paid labor, inadequate food, and miserable living conditions didn’t positively influence their higher faculties. This made it all the more significant that when there was an outstanding exception like Paul Muniment, it should count for a powerful force—it had so much to compensate for, to act on. Then Hyacinth reiterated that in his humble position in life, people really lacked the ability to think; their minds had been simplified—reduced to just two or three elements. He noticed that this statement made Lady Aurora very uncomfortable; she shifted around, hesitantly, as if she wanted to object, but she was too thoughtful to interrupt him. He didn’t want to upset her, but sometimes he couldn’t resist the twisted pleasure he took in emphasizing his low status, in digging into the wound created by such a direct reference, and in showing that even though his place in the world was extremely small, he had no illusions about himself or his peers. Lady Aurora quickly responded that she knew a lot about the poor—not like Rose Muniment, but the truly, hopelessly poor, with whom she was more familiar than Hyacinth might believe—and that she was often struck by their great talents, their quick wit, and how their conversations were often far more entertaining, at least to her, than what one usually heard in drawing rooms. She frequently found them immensely clever.
Hyacinth smiled at her, and said, “Ah, when you get to the lowest depths of poverty, they may become very brilliant again. But I’m afraid I haven’t gone so far down. In spite of my opportunities, I don’t know many absolute paupers.”
Hyacinth smiled at her and said, “Ah, when you hit rock bottom in poverty, things can look pretty bright again. But I’m afraid I haven’t gone that low. Despite my chances, I don’t know many total broke people.”
“I know a great many.” Lady Aurora hesitated, as if she didn’t like to boast, and then she added, “I dare say I know more than any one.” There was something touching, beautiful, to Hyacinth, in this simple, diffident admission; it confirmed his impression that Lady Aurora was in some mysterious, incongruous, and even slightly ludicrous manner a heroine, a creature of a noble ideal. She perhaps guessed that he was indulging in reflections that might be favourable to her, for she said, precipitately, the next minute, as if there were nothing she dreaded so much as the danger of a compliment, “I think your aunt’s so very attractive—and I’m sure Rose Muniment thinks so.” No sooner had she spoken than she blushed again; it appeared to have occurred to her that he might suppose she wished to contradict him by presenting this case of his aunt as a proof that the baser sort, even in a prosaic upper layer, were not without redeeming points. There was no reason why she should not have had this intention; so without sparing her, Hyacinth replied—
“I know a lot of them.” Lady Aurora paused, as if she didn’t want to brag, and then added, “I’d say I know more than anyone else.” There was something touching and beautiful to Hyacinth in this simple, modest acknowledgment; it reinforced his impression that Lady Aurora was in some mysterious, mismatched, and even slightly ridiculous way a heroine, a being of noble ideals. She might have sensed he was having thoughts that favored her, because she quickly said the next moment, as if nothing scared her more than the risk of a compliment, “I think your aunt is really attractive—and I’m sure Rose Muniment thinks so too.” As soon as she said it, she blushed again; it seemed to dawn on her that he might think she was trying to contradict him by presenting his aunt as an example that the less refined, even in a mundane upper class, weren't without redeeming qualities. There was no reason she couldn't have intended that; so without holding back, Hyacinth replied—
“You mean that she’s an exception to what I was saying?”
“You mean she’s different from what I was talking about?”
Lady Aurora stammered a little; then, at last, as if, since he wouldn’t spare her, she wouldn’t spare him, either, “Yes, and you’re an exception, too; you’ll not make me believe you’re wanting in intelligence. The Muniments don’t think so,” she added.
Lady Aurora stuttered for a moment; then, finally, as if he wouldn't let up on her, she wouldn't hold back on him either, “Yeah, and you’re an exception too; you’re not going to convince me that you lack intelligence. The Muniments don’t think so,” she added.
“No more do I myself; but that doesn’t prove that exceptions are not frequent. I have blood in my veins that is not the blood of the people.”
“No longer do I myself; but that doesn’t prove that exceptions aren’t common. I have blood in my veins that isn’t the blood of the people.”
“Oh, I see,” said Lady Aurora, sympathetically. And with a smile she went on: “Then you’re all the more of an exception—in the upper class!”
“Oh, I see,” said Lady Aurora, sympathetically. And with a smile, she continued, “Then you’re even more of an exception—in the upper class!”
Her smile was the kindest in the world, but it did not blind Hyacinth to the fact that from his own point of view he had been extraordinarily indiscreet. He believed a moment before that he would have been proof against the strongest temptation to refer to the mysteries of his lineage, inasmuch as, if made in a boastful spirit (and he had no desire as yet to make it an exercise in humility), any such reference would inevitably contain an element of the grotesque. He had never opened his lips to any one about his birth (since the dreadful days when the question was discussed, with Mr Vetch’s assistance, in Lomax Place); never even to Paul Muniment, never to Millicent Henning nor to Eustache Poupin. He had an impression that people had ideas about him, and with some of Miss Henning’s he had been made acquainted: they were of such a nature that he sometimes wondered whether the tie which united him to her were not, on her own side, a secret determination to satisfy her utmost curiosity before she had done with him. But he flattered himself that he was impenetrable, and none the less he had begun to swagger, idiotically, the first time a temptation (to call a temptation) presented itself. He turned crimson as soon as he had spoken, partly at the sudden image of what he had to swagger about, and partly at the absurdity of a challenge having appeared to proceed from the bashful gentlewoman before him. He hoped she didn’t particularly regard what he had said (and indeed she gave no sign whatever of being startled by his claim to a pedigree—she had too much quick delicacy for that; she appeared to notice only the symptoms of confusion that followed it), but as soon as possible he gave himself a lesson in humility by remarking, “I gather that you spend most of your time among the poor, and I am sure you carry blessings with you. But I frankly confess that I don’t understand a lady giving herself up to people like us when there is no obligation. Wretched company we must be, when there is so much better to be had.”
Her smile was the kindest in the world, but it didn’t blind Hyacinth to the fact that, from his perspective, he had been incredibly indiscreet. Just a moment earlier, he had thought he could resist the strongest temptation to mention the mysteries of his background because, if he did so in a bragging way (and he didn’t want it to be an exercise in humility just yet), any mention would definitely have a hint of the ridiculous. He had never talked to anyone about his birth (since those terrible days when the topic came up, with Mr. Vetch's help, in Lomax Place); not even to Paul Muniment, Millicent Henning, or Eustache Poupin. He had the feeling that people had opinions about him, and he had learned some of Miss Henning’s ideas: they were such that he sometimes wondered if the connection that tied him to her was, on her part, a secret determination to satisfy her absolute curiosity before she was done with him. But he told himself that he was hard to read, and yet he had started to act cocky, foolishly, the first time a temptation (if you could call it that) came up. He turned red as soon as he spoke, partly because of the sudden image of what he had to boast about, and partly because it seemed ridiculous that a challenge had come from the shy lady in front of him. He hoped she didn’t pay much attention to what he had said (and in fact, she didn’t show any sign of being shocked by his claim to a lineage—she had too much quick sensitivity for that; she seemed to notice only the signs of confusion that followed it), but as soon as he could, he gave himself a lesson in humility by saying, “I gather that you spend most of your time among the poor, and I’m sure you carry blessings with you. But I honestly admit that I don’t understand why a lady would dedicate herself to people like us when there’s no obligation. We must be miserable company, when there’s so much better to choose from.”
“I like it very much—you don’t understand.”
“I really like it—you just don’t get it.”
“Precisely—that is what I say. Our little friend on the bed is perpetually talking about your house, your family, your splendours, your gardens and green-houses; they must be magnificent, of course—”
“Exactly—that's what I mean. Our little friend on the bed is always talking about your house, your family, your grandeur, your gardens and greenhouses; they must be amazing, of course—”
“Oh, I wish she wouldn’t; really, I wish she wouldn’t. It makes one feel dreadfully!” Lady Aurora interposed, with vehemence.
“Oh, I wish she wouldn’t; really, I wish she wouldn’t. It makes me feel awful!” Lady Aurora interrupted passionately.
“Ah, you had better give her her way; it’s such a pleasure to her.”
“Hey, you should let her have what she wants; it makes her really happy.”
“Yes, more than to any of us!” sighed her ladyship, helplessly.
"Yes, more than to any of us!" her ladyship sighed, feeling helpless.
“Well, how can you leave all those beautiful things, to come and breathe this beastly air, surround yourself with hideous images, and associate with people whose smallest fault is that they are ignorant, brutal and dirty? I don’t speak of the ladies here present,” Hyacinth added, with the manner which most made Millicent Henning (who at once admired and hated it) wonder where on earth he had got it.
“Well, how can you leave all those beautiful things to come and breathe this awful air, be surrounded by ugly images, and hang out with people whose biggest flaw is that they’re ignorant, rude, and dirty? I’m not talking about the ladies here,” Hyacinth added, in a way that made Millicent Henning (who both admired and disliked it) wonder where he had picked it up.
“Oh, I wish I could make you understand!” cried Lady Aurora, looking at him with troubled, appealing eyes, as if he were unexpectedly discouraging.
“Oh, I wish I could make you understand!” Lady Aurora exclaimed, gazing at him with worried, pleading eyes, as if he had suddenly become disheartening.
“After all, I do understand! Charity exists in your nature as a kind of passion.”
“After all, I get it! Kindness is part of who you are, almost like a passion.”
“Yes, yes, it’s a kind of passion!” her ladyship repeated, eagerly, very thankful for the word. “I don’t know whether it’s charity—I don’t mean that. But whatever it is, it’s a passion—it’s my life—it’s all I care for.” She hesitated a moment, as if there might be something indecent in the confession, or dangerous in the recipient; and then, evidently, she was mastered by the comfort of being able to justify herself for an eccentricity that had excited notice, as well as by the luxury of discharging her soul of a long accumulation of timid, sacred sentiment. “Already, when I was fifteen years old, I wanted to sell all I had and give to the poor. And ever since, I have wanted to do something; it has seemed as if my heart would break if I shouldn’t be able!”
“Yes, yes, it’s a kind of passion!” her ladyship repeated, eagerly, very grateful for the word. “I don’t know if it’s charity—I don’t mean that. But whatever it is, it’s a passion—it’s my life—it’s all I care about.” She paused for a moment, as if there might be something inappropriate in the confession, or risky in the person she was telling; and then, clearly, she found comfort in being able to justify her eccentricity that had caught attention, as well as in the release of sharing her long-held, timid, sacred feelings. “Even when I was fifteen, I wanted to sell everything I had and give to the poor. And ever since then, I’ve wanted to do something; it has felt like my heart would break if I couldn’t!”
Hyacinth was struck with a great respect, which, however, did not prevent him (the words sounded patronising, even to himself) from saying in a moment, “I suppose you are very religious.”
Hyacinth felt a deep respect, which, however, didn’t stop him (the words sounded condescending, even to him) from saying after a moment, “I guess you’re really religious.”
Lady Aurora looked away, into the thickening dusk, at the smutty housetops, the blurred emanation, above the streets, of lamp-light. “I don’t know—one has one’s ideas—some of them may be strange. I think a great many clergymen do good, but there are others I don’t like at all. I dare say we had too many, always, at home; my father likes them so much. I think I have known too many bishops; I have had the church too much on my back. I dare say they wouldn’t think at home, you know, that one was quite what one ought to be; but of course they consider me very odd, in every way, as there’s no doubt I am. I should tell you that I don’t tell them everything; for what’s the use, when people don’t understand? We are twelve at home, and eight of us are girls; and if you think it’s so very splendid, and she thinks so, I should like you both to try it for a little! My father isn’t rich, and there is only one of us married, and we are not at all handsome, and—oh, there are all kinds of things,” the young woman went on, looking round at him an instant, shyly but excitedly. “I don’t like society; and neither would you if you were to see the kind there is in London—at least in some parts,” Lady Aurora added, considerately. “I dare say you wouldn’t believe all the humbuggery and the tiresomeness that one has to go through. But I’ve got out of it; I do as I like, though it has been rather a struggle. I have my liberty, and that is the greatest blessing in life, except the reputation of being queer, and even a little mad, which is a greater advantage still. I’m a little mad, you know; you needn’t be surprised if you hear it. That’s because I stop in town when they go into the country; all the autumn, all the winter, when there’s no one here (except three or four millions), and the rain drips, drips, drips, from the trees in the big, dull park, where my people live. I dare say I oughtn’t to say such things to you, but, as I tell you, I’m a little mad, and I might as well keep up my character. When one is one of eight daughters, and there’s very little money (for any of us, at least), and there’s nothing to do but to go out with three or four others in a mackintosh, one can easily go off one’s head. Of course there’s the village, and it’s not at all a nice one, and there are the people to look after, and heaven knows they’re in want of it; but one must work with the vicarage, and at the vicarage there are four more daughters, all old maids, and it’s dreary, and it’s dreadful, and one has too much of it, and they don’t understand what one thinks or feels, or a single word one says to them! Besides they are stupid, I admit—the country poor; they are very, very dense. I like Camberwell better,” said Lady Aurora, smiling and taking breath, at the end of her nervous, hurried, almost incoherent speech, of which she had delivered herself pantingly, with strange intonations and grotesque movements of her neck, as if she were afraid from one moment to the other that she would repent, not of her confidence, but of her egotism.
Lady Aurora looked away into the deepening dusk at the grimy rooftops and the blurred glow of street lamps. “I don’t know—everyone has their own ideas, some of them might be a bit strange. I think many clergymen do good work, but there are some I really don't like. I guess we had too many of them at home; my dad really likes them. I think I’ve known too many bishops; I’ve had the church weighing on me too heavily. I suppose they wouldn’t think back home that I’m quite what I should be; but they definitely see me as pretty odd, which I certainly am. I should tell you that I don’t share everything with them, because what’s the point when people don’t understand? There are twelve of us at home, and eight of us are girls; and if you think it’s so wonderful, and she thinks so too, I’d love for both of you to experience it for a bit! My dad isn’t wealthy, and only one of us is married, and we aren’t at all pretty, and—oh, there are all sorts of things,” the young woman continued, glancing at him shyly but with excitement. “I don’t like society; and I doubt you would either if you saw the kind that exists in London—at least in some places,” Lady Aurora added thoughtfully. “You probably wouldn't believe all the nonsense and the boredom you’d have to deal with. But I’ve managed to get out of it; I do what I want, though it’s been quite a fight. I have my freedom, and that’s the best blessing in life, aside from being known as a bit strange or even a little mad, which is an even bigger advantage. I’m a bit mad, just so you know; don’t be surprised if you hear it. That’s because I stay in town when everyone else goes to the countryside; all autumn and winter, when there’s hardly anyone here (except for a few million), and the rain just drips, drips, drips from the trees in the big, dull park where my family lives. I guess I shouldn’t say things like this to you, but I’m a bit mad, and I might as well keep up that reputation. When you’re one of eight daughters and there’s very little money (at least for any of us), and the only thing to do is go out with a few others in a raincoat, it’s easy to lose your mind. Of course, there’s the village, and it’s not nice at all, and there are people to look after, and God knows they need it. But one has to work with the vicarage, and at the vicarage, there are four more daughters, all old maids, and it’s dreary and dreadful, and you just have too much of it, and they don’t understand what you think or feel, or even a word you say! Besides, they really are clueless, I admit—the country people; they are very, very dense. I like Camberwell better,” said Lady Aurora, smiling and catching her breath at the end of her nervous, rushed, almost incoherent speech, which she had delivered breathlessly, with strange tones and awkward movements of her neck, as if she were afraid at any moment that she might regret not her openness, but her self-absorption.
It placed her, for Hyacinth, in an unexpected light, and made him feel that her awkward, aristocratic spinsterhood was the cover of tumultuous passions. No one could have less the appearance of being animated by a vengeful irony; but he saw that this delicate, shy, generous, and evidently most tender creature was not a person to spare, wherever she could prick them, the institutions among which she had been brought up and against which she had violently reacted. Hyacinth had always supposed that a reactionary meant a backslider from the liberal faith, but Rosy’s devotee gave a new value to the term; she appeared to have been driven to her present excesses by the squire and the parson and the conservative influences of that upper-class British home which our young man had always supposed to be the highest fruit of civilisation. It was clear that her ladyship was an original, and an original with force; but it gave Hyacinth a real pang to hear her make light of Inglefield (especially the park), and of the opportunities that must have abounded in Belgrave Square. It had been his belief that in a world of suffering and injustice these things were, if not the most righteous, at least the most fascinating. If they didn’t give one the finest sensations, where were such sensations to be had? He looked at Lady Aurora with a face which was a tribute to her sudden vividness, and said, “I can easily understand your wanting to do some good in the world, because you’re a kind of saint.”
It put her, for Hyacinth, in an unexpected light and made him feel that her awkward, aristocratic singlehood was masking intense emotions. No one seemed less capable of being driven by a bitter irony, but he realized that this delicate, shy, generous, and obviously very tender person was not one to hold back from criticizing the institutions she grew up in and which she had strongly opposed. Hyacinth had always thought that a reactionary was someone who had turned away from liberal beliefs, but Rosy's follower gave a new meaning to the term; she seemed to have been pushed to her current extremes by the squire, the parson, and the conservative influences of that upper-class British home that our young man had always believed represented the pinnacle of civilization. It was clear that her ladyship was someone unique, and someone with strength; but it genuinely hurt Hyacinth to hear her dismiss Inglefield (especially the park) and the opportunities that must have existed in Belgrave Square. He had always believed that in a world filled with suffering and injustice, these things were, if not the most virtuous, at least the most intriguing. If they didn’t provide the greatest sensations, where else could such sensations be found? He looked at Lady Aurora with a face that acknowledged her sudden vibrancy and said, “I can easily understand why you want to make a positive impact in the world, because you’re a kind of saint.”
“A very curious kind!” laughed her ladyship.
“A very interesting type!” her ladyship laughed.
“But I don’t understand your not liking what your position gives you.”
“But I don’t get why you don’t like what your position offers you.”
“I don’t know anything about my position. I want to live!”
“I don’t know anything about my situation. I want to live!”
“And do you call this life?”
“Is this what you call life?”
“I’ll tell you what my position is, if you want to know: it’s the deadness of the grave!”
“I'll tell you my stance, if you want to know: it feels like the emptiness of the grave!”
Hyacinth was startled by her tone, but he nevertheless laughed back at her, “Ah, as I say, you’re a kind of saint!” She made no reply, for at that moment the door opened, and Paul Muniment’s tall figure emerged from the blackness of the staircase into the twilight, now very faint, of the room. Lady Aurora’s eyes, as they rested upon him, seemed to declare that such a vision as that, at least, was life. Another person, as tall as himself, appeared behind him, and Hyacinth recognised with astonishment their insinuating friend Captain Sholto. Muniment had brought him up for Rosy’s entertainment, being ready, and more than ready, always, to usher in any one in the world, from the prime minister to the common hangman, who might give that young lady a sensation. They must have met at the ‘Sun and Moon’, and if the Captain, some accident smoothing the way, had made him half as many advances as he had made some other people Hyacinth could see that it wouldn’t take long for Paul to lay him under contribution. But what the mischief was the Captain up to? It cannot be said that our young man arrived, this evening, at an answer to that question. The occasion proved highly festal, and the hostess rose to it without lifting her head from the pillow. Her brother introduced Captain Sholto as a gentleman who had a great desire to know extraordinary people, and she made him take possession of the chair at her bedside, out of which Miss Pynsent quickly edged herself, and asked him who he was, and where he came from, and how Paul had made his acquaintance, and whether he had many friends in Camberwell. Sholto had not the same grand air that hovered about him at the theatre; he was shabbily dressed, very much like Hyacinth himself; but his appearance gave our young man an opportunity to wonder what made him so unmistakably a gentleman in spite of his seedy coat and trousers—in spite too, of his rather overdoing the manner of being appreciative even to rapture and thinking everything and every one most charming and curious. He stood out, in poor Rosy’s tawdry little room, among her hideous attempts at decoration, and looked to Hyacinth a being from another sphere, playing over the place and company a smile (one couldn’t call it false or unpleasant, yet it was distinctly not natural), of which he had got the habit in camps and courts. It became brilliant when it rested on Hyacinth, and the Captain greeted him as he might have done a dear young friend from whom he had been long and painfully separated. He was easy, he was familiar, he was exquisitely benevolent and bland, and altogether incomprehensible.
Hyacinth was taken aback by her tone, but he still laughed at her, “Ah, as I say, you’re some kind of saint!” She didn’t respond, as just then the door opened, and Paul Muniment’s tall figure stepped out of the dark staircase into the faint twilight of the room. Lady Aurora’s gaze on him seemed to suggest that seeing him was, at the very least, a sign of life. Another person, equally tall, appeared behind him, and Hyacinth was astonished to recognize their sly friend Captain Sholto. Muniment had brought him in for Rosy’s entertainment, always ready to introduce anyone from the prime minister to the common hangman who might delight the young lady. They must have met at the ‘Sun and Moon,’ and if Captain Sholto, by some chance smoothing the way, had made him as many advances as he had to some others, Hyacinth could tell it wouldn’t take long for Paul to put him to use. But what on earth was the Captain up to? It can't be said that our young man figured that out that evening. The occasion felt festive, and the hostess rose to the occasion without lifting her head from the pillow. Her brother introduced Captain Sholto as someone eager to meet extraordinary people, and she made him take the chair by her bedside, out of which Miss Pynsent quickly scooted herself, and asked him who he was, where he was from, how Paul had met him, and if he had many friends in Camberwell. Sholto didn’t have the same grand air he had at the theater; he was dressed shabby, much like Hyacinth himself, but his presence made Hyacinth wonder what made him so unmistakably a gentleman, despite his worn coat and trousers—also, despite his tendency to overly express appreciation, as if everything and everyone were utterly charming and fascinating. He stood out in poor Rosy’s tacky little room, among her grotesque decoration attempts, looking to Hyacinth like a being from another world, casting a smile (which couldn’t really be called false or unpleasant, yet was definitely not genuine) that he had probably picked up in camps and courts. It shone even brighter when it landed on Hyacinth, and the Captain greeted him as if he were a dear young friend from whom he had been long and painfully separated. He was relaxed, familiar, extraordinarily kind and pleasant, and altogether confusing.
Rosy was a match for him, however. He evidently didn’t puzzle her in the least; she thought his visit the most natural thing in the world. She expressed all the gratitude that decency required, but appeared to assume that people who climbed her stairs would always find themselves repaid. She remarked that her brother must have met him for the first time that day, for the way that he sealed a new acquaintance was usually by bringing the person immediately to call upon her. And when the Captain said that if she didn’t like them he supposed the poor wretches were dropped on the spot, she admitted that this would be true if it ever happened that she disapproved; as yet, however, she had not been obliged to draw the line. This was perhaps partly because he had not brought up any of his political friends—people that he knew only for political reasons. Of these people, in general, she had a very small opinion, and she would not conceal from Captain Sholto that she hoped he was not one of them. Rosy spoke as if her brother represented the Camberwell district in the House of Commons and she had discovered that a parliamentary career lowered the moral tone. The Captain, however, entered quite into her views, and told her that it was as common friends of Mr Hyacinth Robinson that Mr Muniment and he had come together; they were both so fond of him that this had immediately constituted a kind of tie. On hearing himself commemorated in such a brilliant way Mr Hyacinth Robinson averted himself; he saw that Captain Sholto might be trusted to make as great an effort for Rosy’s entertainment as he gathered that he had made for that of Millicent Henning, that evening at the theatre. There were not chairs enough to go round, and Paul fetched a three-legged stool from his own apartment, after which he undertook to make tea for the company, with the aid of a tin kettle and a spirit-lamp; these implements having been set out, flanked by half a dozen cups, in honour, presumably, of the little dressmaker, who was to come such a distance. The little dressmaker, Hyacinth observed with pleasure, fell into earnest conversation with Lady Aurora, who bent over her, flushed, smiling, stammering, and apparently so nervous that Pinnie, in comparison, was majestic and serene. They communicated presently to Hyacinth a plan they had unanimously evolved, to the effect that Miss Pynsent should go home to Belgrave Square with her ladyship, to settle certain preliminaries in regard to the pink dressing-gown, toward which, if Miss Pynsent assented, her ladyship hoped to be able to contribute sundry morsels of stuff which had proved their quality in honourable service and might be dyed to the proper tint. Pinnie, Hyacinth could see, was in a state of religious exaltation; the visit to Belgrave Square and the idea of co-operating in such a manner with the nobility were privileges she could not take solemnly enough. The latter luxury, indeed, she began to enjoy without delay; Lady Aurora suggesting that Mr Muniment might be rather awkward about making tea, and that they should take the business off his hands. Paul gave it up to them, with a pretence of compassion for their conceit, remarking that at any rate it took two women to supplant one man; and Hyacinth drew him to the window, to ask where he had encountered Sholto and how he liked him.
Rosy was a match for him, though. He clearly didn’t confuse her at all; she thought his visit was the most natural thing in the world. She showed all the gratitude that was socially expected, but seemed to assume that anyone who climbed her stairs would naturally find themselves rewarded. She noted that her brother must have met him for the first time that day, since he typically introduced new acquaintances by bringing them straight to see her. And when the Captain mentioned that if she didn’t like them, the poor souls were probably dropped right away, she agreed that would be true if it ever happened that she disapproved; so far, however, she hadn’t needed to set any boundaries. This was partly because he hadn’t introduced any of his political friends—people he only knew for political reasons. She generally had a low opinion of those people and wouldn’t hide from Captain Sholto that she hoped he wasn’t one of them. Rosy talked as if her brother represented the Camberwell district in the House of Commons, and she had concluded that a political career lowered the moral standards. The Captain, however, fully supported her views and told her that he and Mr. Muniment had come together as mutual friends of Mr. Hyacinth Robinson; they both liked him so much that it had quickly formed a sort of bond. When Hyacinth heard himself mentioned so flatteringly, he looked away; he realized that Captain Sholto was likely to put as much effort into entertaining Rosy as he had gathered he had for Millicent Henning that evening at the theatre. There weren’t enough chairs to go around, so Paul fetched a three-legged stool from his own room, then took on the task of making tea for everyone, using a tin kettle and a spirit lamp; these items had been set out, alongside half a dozen cups, presumably in honor of the little dressmaker who was coming such a distance. Hyacinth noticed with pleasure that the little dressmaker had fallen into a serious conversation with Lady Aurora, who leaned over her, flushed, smiling, stammering, and seeming so nervous that Pinnie, in comparison, appeared majestic and calm. They soon shared with Hyacinth a plan they had all agreed upon: Miss Pynsent would go home to Belgrave Square with her ladyship to sort out some details regarding the pink dressing-gown, for which her ladyship hoped to contribute various pieces of fabric that had proven themselves in quality and could be dyed the right shade. Hyacinth could see that Pinnie was in a state of religious excitement; the visit to Belgrave Square and the thought of collaborating in such a way with the nobility were privileges she could hardly take lightly. In fact, she began to enjoy that luxury right away, with Lady Aurora suggesting that Mr. Muniment might be a bit clumsy when it came to making tea, and that they should take that duty off his hands. Paul relinquished it to them, pretending to feel sorry for their arrogance, remarking that at least it took two women to replace one man; and Hyacinth pulled him to the window to ask where he had run into Sholto and what he thought of him.
They had met in Bloomsbury, as Hyacinth supposed, and Sholto had made up to him very much as a country curate might make up to an archbishop. He wanted to know what he thought of this and that: of the state of the labour market at the East End, of the terrible case of the old woman who had starved to death at Walham Green, of the practicability of more systematic out-of-door agitation, and the prospects of their getting one of their own men—one of the Bloomsbury lot—into Parliament. “He was mighty civil,” Muniment said, “and I don’t find that he has picked my pocket. He looked as if he would like me to suggest that he should stand as one of our own men, one of the Bloomsbury lot. He asks too many questions, but he makes up for it by not paying any attention to the answers. He told me he would give the world to see a working-man’s ‘interior’. I didn’t know what he meant at first: he wanted a favourable specimen, one of the best; he had seen one or two that he didn’t believe to be up to the average. I suppose he meant Schinkel, the cabinet-maker, and he wanted to compare. I told him I didn’t know what sort of a specimen my place would be, but that he was welcome to look round, and that it contained at any rate one or two original features. I expect he has found that’s the case—with Rosy and the noble lady. I wanted to show him off to Rosy; he’s good for that, if he isn’t good for anything else. I told him we expected a little company this evening, so it might be a good time; and he assured me that to mingle in such an occasion as that was the dream of his existence. He seemed in a rare hurry, as if I were going to show him a hidden treasure, and insisted on driving me over in a hansom. Perhaps his idea is to introduce the use of cabs among the working-classes; certainly, I’ll vote for him for Parliament, if that’s his line. On our way over he talked to me about you; told me you were an intimate friend of his.”
They had met in Bloomsbury, as Hyacinth thought, and Sholto had approached him much like a rural curate would approach an archbishop. He wanted to know what he thought about various topics: the job market in the East End, the tragic story of the elderly woman who starved to death at Walham Green, the feasibility of more organized outdoor activism, and the chances of getting one of their own—someone from Bloomsbury—into Parliament. “He was really polite,” Muniment said, “and I don't think he has taken advantage of me. He looked like he wanted me to suggest that he should run as one of our candidates, one of the Bloomsbury crowd. He asked too many questions, but he made up for it by ignoring the answers. He told me he would give anything to see a working-man’s ‘interior’. At first, I didn't understand what he meant; he wanted a good example, one of the best; he had seen a couple that he didn’t think were typical. I guess he meant Schinkel, the cabinet-maker, and he wanted a comparison. I told him I didn’t know what kind of example my place would be, but he was welcome to look around, as it had at least a couple of unique features. I expect he’s found that’s true—with Rosy and the noble lady. I wanted to introduce him to Rosy; he’s good for that, if he’s good for anything else. I told him we were expecting some company this evening, so it might be a good time; and he assured me that mingling in such an event was the dream of his life. He seemed really eager, as if I were about to show him a hidden treasure, and insisted on taking me over in a cab. Maybe he’s trying to promote the use of cabs among the working class; I’d definitely support him for Parliament if that’s his plan. On our way over, he talked to me about you; he told me you were a close friend of his.”
“What did he say about me?” Hyacinth inquired, with promptness.
“What did he say about me?” Hyacinth asked quickly.
“Vain little beggar!”
“Selfish little beggar!”
“Did he call me that?” said Hyacinth, ingenuously.
“Did he really call me that?” said Hyacinth, honestly.
“He said you were simply astonishing.”
“He said you were just amazing.”
“Simply astonishing?” Hyacinth repeated.
"Simply amazing?" Hyacinth repeated.
“For a person of your low extraction.”
“For someone from your humble background.”
“Well, I may be queer, but he is certainly queerer. Don’t you think so, now you know him?”
“Well, I might be gay, but he’s definitely gayer. Don't you agree now that you know him?”
Paul Muniment looked at his young friend a moment. “Do you want to know what he is? He’s a tout.”
Paul Muniment looked at his young friend for a moment. “Do you want to know what he is? He’s a scam artist.”
“A tout? What do you mean?”
“A tout? What do you mean?”
“Well, a cat’s-paw, if you like better.”
“Well, a cat's-paw, if you prefer.”
Hyacinth stared. “For whom, pray?”
Hyacinth stared. “For whom, exactly?”
“Or a fisherman, if you like better still. I give you your choice of comparisons. I made them up as we came along in the hansom. He throws his nets and hauls in the little fishes—the pretty little shining, wriggling fishes. They are all for her; she swallows ’em down.”
“Or a fisherman, if you prefer that. I’m giving you your pick of comparisons. I came up with them while we were riding in the cab. He casts his nets and pulls in the small fish—the pretty little shiny, wriggling fish. They’re all for her; she gobbles them up.”
“For her? Do you mean the Princess?”
“For her? Are you talking about the Princess?”
“Who else should I mean? Take care, my tadpole!”
“Who else could I be talking about? Take care, my little tadpole!”
“Why should I take care? The other day you told me not to.”
“Why should I care? The other day you told me not to.”
“Yes, I remember. But now I see more.”
“Yes, I remember. But now I understand more.”
“Did he speak of her? What did he say?” asked Hyacinth, eagerly.
“Did he talk about her? What did he say?” Hyacinth asked eagerly.
“I can’t tell you now what he said, but I’ll tell you what I guessed.”
“I can’t tell you what he said right now, but I’ll share what I figured out.”
“And what’s that?”
"What's that?"
They had been talking, of course, in a very low tone, and their voices were covered by Rosy’s chatter in the corner, by the liberal laughter with which Captain Sholto accompanied it, and by the much more discreet, though earnest, intermingled accents of Lady Aurora and Miss Pynsent. But Paul Muniment spoke more softly still—Hyacinth felt a kind of suspense—as he replied in a moment, “Why, she’s a monster!”
They had been speaking, of course, in a very quiet voice, and their conversation was drowned out by Rosy’s chatter in the corner, by the hearty laughter from Captain Sholto, and by the much more subtle, yet sincere, voices of Lady Aurora and Miss Pynsent. But Paul Muniment spoke even more softly—Hyacinth felt a sense of suspense—as he answered after a moment, “Well, she’s a monster!”
“A monster?” repeated our young man, from whom, this evening, Paul Muniment seemed destined to elicit ejaculations and echoes.
“A monster?” repeated our young man, from whom, that evening, Paul Muniment seemed destined to draw out exclamations and responses.
Muniment glanced toward the Captain, who was apparently more and more fascinated by Rosy. “In him I think there’s no great harm. He’s only a conscientious fisherman!”
Muniment glanced at the Captain, who seemed increasingly captivated by Rosy. “I don't think he's a threat. He's just a dedicated fisherman!”
It must be admitted that Captain Sholto justified to a certain extent this definition by the manner in which he baited his hook for such little facts as might help him to a more intimate knowledge of his host and hostess. When the tea was made, Rose Muniment asked Miss Pynsent to be so good as to hand it about. They must let her poor ladyship rest a little, must they not?—and Hyacinth could see that in her innocent but inveterate self-complacency she wished to reward and encourage the dressmaker, draw her out and present her still more, by offering her this graceful exercise. Sholto sprang up at this, and begged Pinnie to let him relieve her, taking a cup from her hand; and poor Pinnie, who perceived in a moment that he was some kind of masquerading gentleman, who was bewildered by the strange mixture of elements that surrounded her and unused to being treated like a duchess (for the Captain’s manner was a triumph of respectful gallantry), collapsed, on the instant, into a chair, appealing to Lady Aurora with a frightened smile and conscious that, deeply versed as she might be in the theory of decorum, she had no precedent that could meet such an occasion. “Now, how many families would there be in such a house as this, and what should you say about the sanitary arrangements? Would there be others on this floor—what is it, the third, the fourth?—beside yourselves, you know, and should you call it a fair specimen of a tenement of its class?” It was with such inquiries as this that Captain Sholto beguiled their tea-drinking, while Hyacinth made the reflection that, though he evidently meant them very well, they were characterised by a want of fine tact, by too patronising a curiosity. The Captain requested information as to the position in life, the avocations and habits, of the other lodgers, the rent they paid, their relations with each other, both in and out of the family. “Now, would there be a good deal of close packing, do you suppose, and any perceptible want of—a—sobriety?”
It has to be said that Captain Sholto somewhat justified this description by how he fished for little details that could help him understand his hosts better. Once the tea was ready, Rose Muniment asked Miss Pynsent to serve it. They really should let her poor ladyship rest a bit, right?—and Hyacinth noticed that Rose, in her innocent yet persistent self-satisfaction, wanted to reward and encourage the dressmaker, draw her out, and showcase her further by offering her this nice task. Sholto quickly stood up at this and asked Pinnie to let him help her by taking a cup from her hand; and poor Pinnie, who realized immediately that he was some kind of gentleman in disguise, confused by the unusual mix of people around her and not used to being treated like a duchess (as the Captain’s demeanor exuded respectful charm), sank into a chair right away, looking at Lady Aurora with a nervous smile, aware that, despite her knowledge of social decorum, she had no example to follow in such a situation. “So, how many families live in a house like this, and what do you think about the sanitary facilities? Are there others on this floor—what is it, the third, the fourth?—besides yourselves, and would you consider it a typical example of a tenement in its class?” It was with questions like these that Captain Sholto lightened their tea time, while Hyacinth reflected that, although he clearly meant well, his questions lacked subtlety and came off as too patronizingly curious. The Captain sought details about the other lodgers’ social standing, occupations, habits, the rent they paid, and their relationships with one another, both within the family and outside it. “So, do you think there would be a lot of crowding and any noticeable lack of—uh—sobriety?”
Paul Muniment, who had swallowed his cup of tea at a single gulp—there was no offer of a second—gazed out of the window into the dark, which had now come on, with his hands in his pockets, whistling, impolitely, no doubt, but with brilliant animation. He had the manner of having made over their visitor altogether to Rosy and of thinking that whatever he said or did it was all so much grist to her indefatigable little mill. Lady Aurora looked distressed and embarrassed, and it is a proof of the degree to which our little hero had the instincts of a man of the world that he guessed exactly how vulgar she thought this new acquaintance. She was doubtless rather vexed, also—Hyacinth had learned this evening that Lady Aurora could be vexed—at the alacrity of Rosy’s responses; the little person in the bed gave the Captain every satisfaction, considered his questions as a proper tribute to humble respectability, and supplied him, as regards the population of Audley Court, with statistics and anecdotes which she had picked up by mysterious processes of her own. At last Lady Aurora, upon whom Paul Muniment had not been at pains to bestow much conversation, took leave of her, and signified to Hyacinth that for the rest of the evening she would assume the care of Miss Pynsent. Pinnie looked very tense and solemn, now that she was really about to be transported to Belgrave Square, but Hyacinth was sure she would acquit herself only the more honourably; and when he offered to call for her there, later, she reminded him, under her breath, with a little sad smile, of the many years during which, after nightfall, she had carried her work, pinned up in a cloth, about London.
Paul Muniment, who had downed his cup of tea in one go—there was no offer for a refill—stared out the window into the darkness that had settled in, hands in his pockets, whistling rudely, but with a lively spirit. He acted like he had completely handed their visitor over to Rosy and thought that whatever he said or did was just fuel for her tireless little endeavors. Lady Aurora seemed upset and uncomfortable, and it showed how much our little hero had the instincts of a worldly person that he accurately sensed how tacky she found this new acquaintance. She was probably also a bit annoyed—Hyacinth had discovered that evening that Lady Aurora could indeed be annoyed—by how quickly Rosy responded; the little girl in the bed pleased the Captain with her answers, treated his questions with a sense of humble respect, and gave him, in terms of the people of Audley Court, stats and stories she had gathered through her own mysterious ways. Finally, after Paul Muniment had shown little interest in talking to her, Lady Aurora said goodbye and signaled to Hyacinth that she would take care of Miss Pynsent for the rest of the evening. Pinnie looked quite tense and serious, now that she was really about to be taken to Belgrave Square, but Hyacinth was confident she would handle it honorably; and when he offered to come by for her later, she reminded him softly, with a little sad smile, of the many years she had spent, after dark, carrying her work pinned up in a cloth around London.
Paul Muniment, according to his habit, lighted Lady Aurora downstairs, and Captain Sholto and Hyacinth were alone for some minutes with Rosy; which gave the former, taking up his hat and stick, an opportunity to say to his young friend, “Which way are you going? Not my way, by chance?” Hyacinth saw that he hoped for his company, and he became conscious that, strangely as Muniment had indulged him and too promiscuously investigating as he had just shown himself, this ingratiating personage was not more easy to resist than he had been the other night at the theatre. The Captain bent over Rosy’s bed as if she had been a fine lady on a satin sofa, promising to come back very soon and very often, and the two men went downstairs. On their way they met Paul Muniment coming up, and Hyacinth felt rather ashamed, he could scarcely tell why, that his friend should see him marching off with the ‘tout’. After all, if Muniment had brought him to see his sister, might not he at least walk with him? “I’m coming again, you know, very often. I dare say you’ll find me a great bore!” the Captain announced, as he bade good-night to his host. “Your sister is a most interesting creature, one of the most interesting creatures I have ever seen, and the whole thing, you know, exactly the sort of thing I wanted to get at, only much more—really, much more—original and curious. It has been a great success, a grand success!”
Paul Muniment, as he usually did, took Lady Aurora downstairs, leaving Captain Sholto and Hyacinth alone for a few minutes with Rosy. This gave the Captain, while grabbing his hat and stick, a chance to ask his young friend, “Which way are you going? Not my way, I hope?” Hyacinth noticed he was looking forward to his company, and he realized that, even though Muniment had just been a bit nosy, this charming guy was just as hard to say no to as he had been the other night at the theater. The Captain leaned over Rosy’s bed as if she were a high-class lady lounging on a satin sofa, promising to come back very soon and frequently, and then the two men headed downstairs. On their way, they bumped into Paul Muniment coming up, and Hyacinth felt a bit embarrassed—he couldn’t exactly say why—that his friend was seeing him leave with the “tout.” After all, if Muniment had brought him to visit his sister, couldn’t he at least walk with him? “I’m coming back, you know, very often. I bet you’ll find me really annoying!” the Captain said as he said goodnight to his host. “Your sister is a fascinating person, one of the most fascinating people I’ve ever seen, and the whole situation is just exactly what I wanted to dig into, only much more—truly, much more—original and interesting. It’s been a great success, a huge success!”
And the Captain felt his way down the dusky shaft, while Paul Muniment, above, gave him the benefit of rather a wavering candlestick, and answered his civil speech with an “Oh, well, you take us as you find us, you know!” and an outburst of frank but not unfriendly laughter.
And the Captain carefully made his way down the dark shaft, while Paul Muniment, above, provided him with a somewhat shaky candlestick and responded to his polite remark with, “Oh, well, you take us as you find us, you know!” followed by an outburst of honest but not unfriendly laughter.
Half an hour later Hyacinth found himself in Captain Sholto’s chambers, seated on a big divan covered with Persian rugs and cushions and smoking the most delectable cigar that had ever touched his lips. As they left Audley Court the Captain had taken his arm, and they had walked along together in a desultory, colloquial manner, till on Westminster Bridge (they had followed the embankment, beneath St Thomas’s Hospital) Sholto said, “By the way, why shouldn’t you come home with me and see my little place? I’ve got a few things that might amuse you—some pictures, some odds and ends I’ve picked up, and a few bindings; you might tell me what you think of them.” Hyacinth assented, without hesitation; he had still in his ear the reverberation of the Captain’s inquiries in Rose Muniment’s room, and he saw no reason why he, on his side, should not embrace an occasion of ascertaining how, as his companion would have said, a man of fashion would live now.
Half an hour later, Hyacinth found himself in Captain Sholto’s room, lounging on a big couch covered with Persian rugs and cushions, smoking the most amazing cigar he had ever had. As they left Audley Court, the Captain had taken his arm, and they strolled together casually until they reached Westminster Bridge (they had followed the waterfront under St Thomas’s Hospital) when Sholto said, “By the way, why don’t you come home with me and check out my place? I have a few things that might interest you—some paintings, some random stuff I've collected, and a few bookbindings; maybe you could let me know what you think of them.” Hyacinth agreed without hesitation; he still had the Captain’s questions from Rose Muniment’s room echoing in his ears, and he saw no reason not to take the opportunity to see how, as his companion would put it, a fashionable man lives nowadays.
This particular specimen lived in a large, old-fashioned house in Queen Anne Street, of which he occupied the upper floors, and whose high, wainscoted rooms he had filled with the spoils of travel and the ingenuities of modern taste. There was not a country in the world he did not appear to have ransacked, and to Hyacinth his trophies represented a wonderfully long purse. The whole establishment, from the low-voiced, inexpressive valet who, after he had poured brandy into tall tumblers, gave dignity to the popping of soda-water corks, to the quaint little silver receptacle in which he was invited to deposit the ashes of his cigar, was such a revelation for our appreciative hero that he felt himself hushed and made sad, so poignant was the thought that it took thousands of things which he, then, should never possess nor know to make an accomplished man. He had often, in evening-walks, wondered what was behind the walls of certain spacious, bright-windowed houses in the West End, and now he got an idea. The first effect of the idea was to overwhelm him.
This particular specimen lived in a large, old-style house on Queen Anne Street, where he occupied the upper floors, and the high, paneled rooms were filled with treasures from his travels and the creativity of modern design. There wasn't a country in the world that he didn't seem to have explored, and to Hyacinth, his collection represented an impressively wealthy lifestyle. The entire setup, from the soft-spoken, expressionless valet who, after pouring brandy into tall glasses, added a touch of sophistication to the sound of soda-water corks popping, to the charming little silver container where he was invited to dispose of his cigar ashes, was such a revelation for our appreciative hero that it left him feeling quiet and a bit melancholic, so intense was the realization that it took countless things he would never own or experience to become a truly refined man. He often wondered during his evening walks about what lay behind the walls of certain spacious, brightly lit houses in the West End, and now he had an inkling. The initial impact of this realization was overwhelming.
“Well, now, tell me what you thought of our friend the Princess,” the Captain said, thrusting out the loose yellow slippers which his servant had helped to exchange for his shoes. He spoke as if he had been waiting impatiently for the proper moment to ask that question, so much might depend on the answer.
"Well, now, tell me what you thought of our friend the Princess," the Captain said, pushing out the loose yellow slippers his servant had helped him swap out for his shoes. He sounded like he had been waiting impatiently for the right moment to ask that question, as so much could hinge on the answer.
“She’s beautiful—beautiful,” Hyacinth answered, almost dreamily, with his eyes wandering all over the room.
“She’s stunning—stunning,” Hyacinth replied, almost dreamily, with his eyes roaming around the room.
“She was so interested in all you said to her; she would like so much to see you again. She means to write to you—I suppose she can address to the ‘Sun and Moon’?—and I hope you’ll go to her house, if she proposes a day.”
“She was really interested in everything you told her; she would really like to see you again. She plans to write to you—I guess she can address it to the ‘Sun and Moon’?—and I hope you’ll visit her house if she suggests a day.”
“I don’t know—I don’t know. It seems so strange.”
“I don’t know—I don’t know. It feels so weird.”
“What seems strange, my dear fellow?”
"What seems off, my friend?"
“Everything! My sitting here with you; my introduction to that lady; the idea of her wanting, as you say, to see me again, and of her writing to me; and this whole place of yours, with all these dim, rich curiosities hanging on the walls and glinting in the light of that rose-coloured lamp. You yourself, too—you are strangest of all.”
“Everything! Sitting here with you; meeting that lady; the thought that she wants, as you say, to see me again, and that she would write to me; and this entire place of yours, with all these dim, rich curiosities hanging on the walls and shining in the light of that pink lamp. You yourself, too—you’re the strangest of all.”
The Captain looked at him, in silence, so fixedly for a while, through the fumes of their tobacco, after he had made this last charge, that Hyacinth thought he was perhaps offended; but this impression was presently dissipated by further manifestations of sociability and hospitality, and Sholto took occasion, later, to let him know how important it was, in the days they were living in, not to have too small a measure of the usual, destined as they certainly were—“in the whole matter of the relations of class with class, and all that sort of thing, you know”—to witness some very startling developments. The Captain spoke as if, for his part, he were a child of his age (so that he only wanted to see all it could show him), down to the point of his yellow slippers. Hyacinth felt that he himself had not been very satisfactory about the Princess; but as his nerves began to tremble a little more into tune with the situation he repeated to his host what Millicent Henning had said about her at the theatre—asked if this young lady had correctly understood him in believing that she had been turned out of the house by her husband.
The Captain stared at him in silence for a while, peering through the smoke of their cigarettes after making his last comment, leading Hyacinth to think he might be offended. However, that impression quickly faded as the Captain showed more friendliness and hospitality. Later, Sholto took the opportunity to point out how important it was in their current times not to underestimate the usual interactions, especially given the expected—“in terms of class relations and all that”—to witness some pretty shocking changes. The Captain spoke as if he were completely of his time (wanting nothing more than to see everything it had to offer), right down to his yellow slippers. Hyacinth realized he hadn't been very convincing about the Princess, but as his nerves settled a bit more into the atmosphere, he repeated what Millicent Henning had told him about her at the theater—asking if this young lady had correctly understood that she had been kicked out of her house by her husband.
“Yes, he literally pushed her into the street—or into the garden; I believe the scene took place in the country. But perhaps Miss Henning didn’t mention, or perhaps I didn’t mention, that the Prince would at the present hour give everything he owns in the world to get her back. Fancy such a scene!” said the Captain, laughing in a manner that struck Hyacinth as rather profane.
“Yes, he actually pushed her into the street—or into the garden; I think the scene happened in the countryside. But maybe Miss Henning didn’t say, or maybe I didn’t mention, that the Prince would give everything he has right now just to get her back. Can you imagine such a scene?” said the Captain, laughing in a way that seemed quite inappropriate to Hyacinth.
He stared, with dilated eyes, at this picture, which seemed to evoke a comparison with the only incident of the sort that had come within his experience—the forcible ejection of intoxicated females from public houses. “That magnificent being—what had she done?”
He stared, wide-eyed, at this image, which seemed to remind him of the only similar incident he had ever experienced—the forceful removal of drunk women from bars. “That amazing woman—what had she done?”
“Oh, she had made him feel he was an ass!” the Captain answered, promptly. He turned the conversation to Miss Henning; said he was so glad Hyacinth gave him an opportunity to speak of her. He got on with her famously; perhaps she had told him. They became immense friends—en tout bien tout honneur, s’entend. Now, there was another London type, plebeian but brilliant; and how little justice one usually did it, how magnificent it was! But she, of course, was a wonderful specimen. “My dear fellow, I have seen many women, and the women of many countries,” the Captain went on, “and I have seen them intimately, and I know what I am talking about; and when I tell you that that one—that one—” Then he suddenly paused, laughing in his democratic way. “But perhaps I am going too far: you must always pull me up, you know, when I do. At any rate, I congratulate you; I do, heartily. Have another cigar. Now what sort of—a—salary would she receive at her big shop, you know? I know where it is; I mean to there and buy some pocket-handkerchiefs.”
“Oh, she made him feel like such a fool!” the Captain replied quickly. He shifted the topic to Miss Henning, expressing how glad he was that Hyacinth gave him a chance to talk about her. He got along with her really well; maybe she had mentioned that. They became great friends—in every way, of course. Now, there was another type from London, working-class but brilliant; and how often people overlook its true value, how amazing it really is! But she, of course, was a fantastic example. “My dear friend, I’ve met many women, from many different countries,” the Captain continued, “and I’ve known them closely, so I know what I’m talking about; and when I say that one—that one—” Then he suddenly stopped, laughing in his down-to-earth way. “But maybe I’m going too far: you must always rein me in if I do. At any rate, I truly congratulate you. Have another cigar. So what kind of—a—salary does she make at her big shop, you know? I know where it is; I plan to go there and buy some pocket-handkerchiefs.”
Hyacinth knew neither how far Captain Sholto had been going, nor exactly on what he congratulated him; and he pretended, at least, an equal ignorance on the subject of Millicent’s salary. He didn’t want to talk about her, moreover, nor about his own life; he wanted to talk about the Captain’s, and to elicit information that would be in harmony with his romantic chambers, which reminded our hero somehow of Bulwer’s novels. His host gratified this desire most liberally, and told him twenty stories of things that had happened to him in Albania, in Madagascar, and even in Paris. Hyacinth induced him easily to talk about Paris (from a different point of view from M. Poupin’s), and sat there drinking in enchantments. The only thing that fell below the high level of his entertainment was the bindings of the Captain’s books, which he told him frankly, with the conscience of an artist, were not very good. After he left Queen Anne Street he was quite too excited to go straight home; he walked about with his mind full of images and strange speculations, till the gray London streets began to grow clear with the summer dawn.
Hyacinth didn't know how far Captain Sholto had gone or exactly what he was congratulating him for; he pretended to be equally clueless about Millicent’s salary. He didn't want to discuss her or his own life; he wanted to focus on the Captain’s life and draw out information that matched the romantic atmosphere of his surroundings, which somehow reminded him of Bulwer’s novels. His host generously obliged, sharing twenty stories about things that had happened to him in Albania, Madagascar, and even Paris. Hyacinth easily got him to talk about Paris (from a different perspective than M. Poupin’s) and absorbed the enchanting tales. The only thing that didn’t meet the high standard of his entertainment was the covers of the Captain’s books, which he candidly pointed out, with the honesty of an artist, weren’t very good. After leaving Queen Anne Street, he was too exhilarated to head straight home; he wandered around with his mind full of vivid images and strange thoughts until the gray London streets began to brighten with the summer dawn.
XVI
The aspect of South Street, Mayfair, on a Sunday afternoon in August, is not enlivening, yet the Prince had stood for ten minutes gazing out of the window at the genteel vacancy of the scene; at the closed blinds of the opposite houses, the lonely policeman on the corner, covering a yawn with a white cotton hand, the low-pitched light itself, which seemed conscious of an obligation to observe the decency of the British Sabbath. The Prince, however, had a talent for that kind of attitude; it was one of the things by which he had exasperated his wife; he could remain motionless, with the aid of some casual support for his high, lean person, considering serenely and inexpressively any object that might lie before him and presenting his aristocratic head at a favourable angle, for periods of extraordinary length. On first coming into the room he had given some attention to its furniture and decorations, perceiving at a glance that they were rich and varied; some of the things he recognised as old friends, odds and ends the Princess was fond of, which had accompanied her in her remarkable wanderings, while others were unfamiliar, and suggested vividly that she had not ceased to ‘collect’. The Prince made two reflections: one was that she was living as expensively as ever; the other that, however this might be, no one had such a feeling as she for the mise-en-scène of life, such a talent for arranging a room. She had still the most charming salon in Europe.
The scene on South Street, Mayfair, on a Sunday afternoon in August isn’t exactly exciting, yet the Prince had been staring out the window for ten minutes, taking in the genteel emptiness before him: the closed blinds of the houses across the street, the solitary policeman at the corner stifling a yawn with a white cotton handkerchief, and the dim light that seemed obliged to respect the British Sabbath’s decorum. The Prince had a knack for this kind of contemplation; it was one of the things that frustrated his wife. He could remain still, leaning casually against something to support his tall, lean frame, calmly and expressionlessly considering any object in sight, tilting his aristocratic head at just the right angle for an unusually long time. When he first entered the room, he had noticed its rich and varied furniture and decor at a glance; some items were familiar, old friends the Princess loved, which had accompanied her on her remarkable journeys, while others were new, vividly suggesting she hadn’t stopped collecting. The Prince had two thoughts: one was that she was living as extravagantly as ever; the other was that, regardless of anything else, no one had the same sense of the mise-en-scène of life as she did, no one could arrange a room quite like her. She still had the most charming salon in Europe.
It was his impression that she had taken the house in South Street but for three months; yet, gracious heaven, what had she not put into it? The Prince asked himself this question without violence, for that was not to be his line to-day. He could be angry to a point at which he himself was often frightened, but he honestly believed that this was only when he had been baited beyond endurance and that as a usual thing he was really as mild and accommodating as the extreme urbanity of his manner appeared to announce. There was indeed nothing to suggest to the world in general that he was an impracticable or vindictive nobleman: his features were not regular, and his complexion had a bilious tone; but his dark brown eye, which was at once salient and dull, expressed benevolence and melancholy; his head drooped from his long neck in a considerate, attentive style; and his close-cropped black hair, combined with a short, fine, pointed beard, completed his resemblance to some old portrait of a personage of distinction under the Spanish dominion at Naples. To-day, at any rate, he had come in conciliation, almost in humility, and that is why he did not permit himself even to murmur at the long delay to which he was subjected. He knew very well that if his wife should consent to take him back it would be only after a probation to which this little wait in her drawing-room was a trifle. It was a quarter of an hour before the door opened, and even then it was not the Princess who appeared, but only Madame Grandoni.
It seemed to him that she had rented the house on South Street for just three months; yet, my goodness, what all had she put into it? The Prince pondered this without getting worked up, as that wasn't his mood today. He could get angry to a point that often scared him, but he truly believed that was only when he had been provoked beyond his limits, and otherwise, he was really as gentle and agreeable as his extremely polite demeanor suggested. There was nothing about him that would imply to the general public that he was an unreasonable or vengeful nobleman: his features weren't regular, and his complexion had a sickly tint; but his dark brown eyes, being both prominent and dull, conveyed kindness and sadness; his head leaned gracefully from his long neck in a considerate, attentive manner; and his closely cropped black hair, along with a short, fine, pointed beard, made him resemble some old portrait of a notable figure from the Spanish rule in Naples. Today, at least, he had come in a spirit of reconciliation, almost humility, which is why he didn’t even complain about the long wait he was enduring. He knew full well that if his wife were to agree to take him back, it would only be after a trial period, and this little wait in her drawing-room was insignificant. It was a quarter of an hour before the door finally opened, and even then, it wasn’t the Princess who came out, but only Madame Grandoni.
Their greeting was a very silent one. She came to him with both hands outstretched, and took his own and held them awhile, looking up at him in a kindly, motherly manner. She had elongated her florid, humorous face to a degree that was almost comical, and the pair might have passed, in their speechless solemnity, for acquaintances meeting in a house in which a funeral was about to take place. It was indeed a house on which death had descended, as he very soon learned from Madame Grandoni’s expression; something had perished there for ever, and he might proceed to bury it as soon as he liked. His wife’s ancient German friend, however, was not a person to keep up a manner of that sort very long, and when, after she had made him sit down on the sofa beside her, she shook her head, slowly and definitely, several times, it was with a face in which a more genial appreciation of the circumstances had already begun to appear.
Their greeting was very quiet. She approached him with both hands outstretched, took his hands, and held them for a moment, looking up at him in a warm, motherly way. She had stretched her colorful, funny face to the point of being almost comical, and the two of them might have seemed like acquaintances meeting in a house where a funeral was about to happen. It was indeed a place touched by death, as he quickly learned from Madame Grandoni’s expression; something had permanently vanished from there, and he could go ahead and bury it whenever he wanted. However, his wife’s old German friend wasn’t someone who maintained that sort of demeanor for long, and when, after she made him sit down on the sofa next to her, she shook her head slowly and surely several times, a more friendly understanding of the situation had already begun to show on her face.
“Never—never—never?” said the Prince, in a deep, hoarse voice, which was at variance with his aristocratic slimness. He had much of the aspect which, in late-coming members of long-descended races, we qualify to-day as effete; but his speech might have been the speech of some deep-chested fighting ancestor.
“Never—never—never?” said the Prince, in a deep, hoarse voice that seemed out of place with his aristocratic slimness. He resembled those late-arriving members of old, established families that we now consider to be weary; yet his way of speaking could have belonged to a strong, brave ancestor.
“Surely you know your wife as well as I,” she replied, in Italian, which she evidently spoke with facility, though with a strong guttural accent. “I have been talking with her: that is what has made me keep you. I have urged her to see you. I have told her that this could do no harm and would pledge her to nothing. But you know your wife,” Madame Grandoni repeated, with a smile which was now distinctly facetious.
“Surely you know your wife as well as I do,” she replied in Italian, which she spoke easily, though with a noticeable guttural accent. “I’ve been talking to her: that’s why I’ve kept you here. I encouraged her to meet with you. I told her this wouldn’t hurt and wouldn’t commit her to anything. But you know your wife,” Madame Grandoni added with a smile that was now clearly playful.
Prince Casamassima looked down at his boots. “How can one ever know a person like that? I hoped she would see me for five minutes.”
Prince Casamassima looked down at his boots. “How can you really know someone like that? I just wanted her to notice me for five minutes.”
“For what purpose? Have you anything to propose?”
“For what reason? Do you have any suggestions?”
“For what purpose? To rest my eyes on her beautiful face.”
“For what reason? To take in her beautiful face.”
“Did you come to England for that?”
“Did you come to England for that?”
“For what else should I have come?” the Prince inquired, turning his blighted gaze to the opposite side of South Street.
“For what else was I supposed to come?” the Prince asked, turning his troubled gaze to the other side of South Street.
“In London, such a day as this, già,” said the old lady, sympathetically. “I am very sorry for you; but if I had known you were coming I would have written to you that you might spare yourself the pain.”
“In London, a day like this, già,” said the old lady, sympathetically. “I feel really sorry for you; but if I had known you were coming, I would have let you know so you could avoid the discomfort.”
The Prince gave a low, interminable sigh. “You ask me what I wish to propose. What I wish to propose is that my wife does not kill me inch by inch.”
The Prince let out a long, endless sigh. “You want to know what I want to propose. What I want to propose is that my wife doesn’t slowly kill me.”
“She would be much more likely to do that if you lived with her!” Madame Grandoni cried.
“She would be much more likely to do that if you lived with her!” Madame Grandoni exclaimed.
“Cara signora, she doesn’t appear to have killed you,” the melancholy nobleman rejoined.
“Dear lady, she doesn’t seem to have killed you,” the sad nobleman replied.
“Oh, me? I am past killing. I am as hard as a stone. I went through my miseries long ago; I suffered what you have not had to suffer; I wished for death many times, and I survived it all. Our troubles don’t kill us, Prince; it is we who must try to kill them. I have buried not a few. Besides Christina is fond of me, God knows why!” Madame Grandoni added.
“Oh, me? I’m beyond killing. I’m as tough as nails. I went through my hardships a long time ago; I endured things you haven’t had to face; I wished for death many times, and I made it through it all. Our troubles don’t kill us, Prince; it’s up to us to try and conquer them. I’ve buried quite a few. Besides, Christina cares about me, God knows why!” Madame Grandoni added.
“And you are so good to her,” said the Prince, laying his hand on her fat, wrinkled fist.
“And you’re so good to her,” said the Prince, placing his hand on her plump, wrinkled fist.
“Che vuole? I have known her so long. And she has some such great qualities.”
“What does she want? I've known her for so long. And she has some really amazing qualities.”
“Ah, to whom do you say it?” And Prince Casamassima gazed at his boots again, for some moments, in silence. Suddenly he inquired, “How does she look to-day?”
“Ah, who are you talking about?” And Prince Casamassima stared at his boots again, in silence, for a few moments. Then he suddenly asked, “How does she look today?”
“She always looks the same: like an angel who came down from heaven yesterday and has been rather disappointed in her first day on earth!”
“She always looks the same: like an angel who just came down from heaven yesterday and has been a bit let down on her first day on earth!”
The Prince was evidently a man of a simple nature, and Madame Grandoni’s rather violent metaphor took his fancy. His face lighted up for a moment, and he replied with eagerness, “Ah, she is the only woman I have ever seen whose beauty never for a moment falls below itself. She has no bad days. She is so handsome when she is angry!”
The Prince was clearly a straightforward guy, and Madame Grandoni’s pretty intense metaphor caught his attention. His face lit up for a moment, and he responded eagerly, “Ah, she’s the only woman I’ve ever seen whose beauty never dips. She doesn’t have any off days. She looks so beautiful when she’s angry!”
“She is very handsome to-day, but she is not angry,” said the old lady.
“She looks really pretty today, but she’s not upset,” said the old lady.
“Not when my name was announced?”
“Not when they announced my name?”
“I was not with her then; but when she sent for me and asked me to see you, it was quite without passion. And even when I argued with her, and tried to persuade her (and she doesn’t like that, you know), she was still perfectly quiet.”
“I wasn't with her at that time; but when she reached out to me and asked me to meet you, it was completely emotionless. And even when I debated with her and tried to convince her (and she really doesn't like that, you know), she remained totally calm.”
“She hates me, she despises me too much, eh?”
“She hates me, she really despises me, doesn’t she?”
“How can I tell, dear Prince, when she never mentions you?”
“How can I know, dear Prince, when she never talks about you?”
“Never, never?”
"Never, ever?"
“That’s much better than if she railed at you and abused you.”
"That’s way better than if she yelled at you and insulted you."
“You mean it should give me more hope for the future?” the young man asked, quickly.
“You mean it should give me more hope for the future?” the young man asked quickly.
Madame Grandoni hesitated a moment. “I mean it’s better for me,” she answered, with a laugh of which the friendly ring covered as much as possible her equivocation.
Madame Grandoni paused for a moment. “I mean it’s better for me,” she replied, with a laugh that tried to mask her uncertainty as much as possible.
“Ah, you like me enough to care,” he murmured, turning on her his sad, grateful eyes.
“Ah, you actually care about me,” he whispered, looking at her with his sad, thankful eyes.
“I am very sorry for you. Ma che vuole?”
“I feel really sorry for you. But what do you want?”
The Prince had, apparently, nothing to suggest, and he only exhaled, in reply, another gloomy groan. Then he inquired whether his wife pleased herself in that country, and whether she intended to pass the summer in London. Would she remain long in England, and—might he take the liberty to ask?—what were her plans? Madame Grandoni explained that the Princess had found the British metropolis much more to her taste than one might have expected, and that as for plans, she had as many, or as few, as she had always had. Had he ever known her to carry out any arrangement, or to do anything, of any kind, she had selected or determined upon? She always, at the last moment, did the other thing, the one that had been out of the question; and it was for this that Madame Grandoni herself privately made her preparations. Christina, now that everything was over, would leave London from one day to the other; but they should not know where they were going until they arrived. The old lady concluded by asking the Prince if he himself liked England. He thrust forward his thick lips. “How can I like anything? Besides, I have been here before: I have friends,” he said.
The Prince had, it seemed, nothing to say, and he just let out a deep sigh in response. Then he asked if his wife was enjoying her time in that country and if she planned to spend the summer in London. Would she be staying long in England, and—could he ask?—what were her plans? Madame Grandoni explained that the Princess liked the British capital much more than one might think, and as for plans, she had as many, or as few, as she usually did. Had he ever seen her follow through on any arrangement or do anything she had chosen or decided upon? At the last moment, she usually chose the option that had been completely off the table; and it was for this reason that Madame Grandoni privately made her own preparations. Christina, now that everything was settled, would leave London any day now; but they wouldn’t know where they were headed until they got there. The old lady finished by asking the Prince if he liked England. He pushed out his thick lips. “How can I like anything? Besides, I've been here before: I have friends,” he replied.
His companion perceived that he had more to say to her, to extract from her, but that he was hesitating nervously, because he feared to incur some warning, some rebuff, with which his dignity—which, in spite of his position of discomfiture, was really very great—might find it difficult to square itself. He looked vaguely round the room, and presently he remarked, “I wanted to see for myself how she is living.”
His companion noticed that he had more to say to her and wanted to get something out of her, but he was hesitating nervously because he feared he might receive some kind of warning or rejection that his dignity—despite his uncomfortable situation—would struggle to handle. He glanced around the room and eventually said, “I wanted to see for myself how she’s living.”
“Yes, that is very natural.”
"Yes, that's totally natural."
“I have heard—I have heard—” and Prince Casamassima stopped.
“I’ve heard—I’ve heard—” and Prince Casamassima stopped.
“You have heard great rubbish, I have no doubt.” Madame Grandoni watched him, as if she foresaw what was coming.
“You've definitely heard some nonsense,” Madame Grandoni said, watching him like she knew what was about to happen.
“She spends a terrible deal of money,” said the young man.
“She spends an awful lot of money,” said the young man.
“Indeed she does.” The old lady knew that, careful as he was of his very considerable property, which at one time had required much nursing, his wife’s prodigality was not what lay heaviest on his mind. She also knew that expensive and luxurious as Christina might be she had never yet exceeded the income settled upon her by the Prince at the time of their separation—an income determined wholly by himself and his estimate of what was required to maintain the social consequence of his name, for which he had a boundless reverence. “She thinks she is a model of thrift—that she counts every shilling,” Madame Grandoni continued. “If there is a virtue she prides herself upon, it’s her economy. Indeed, it’s the only thing for which she takes any credit.”
“Absolutely,” the elderly woman acknowledged. She was aware that, despite his careful management of his substantial wealth, which had once needed a lot of attention, it wasn't his wife's spending habits that troubled him the most. She also realized that, while Christina could be extravagant and indulgent, she had never overspent the allowance the Prince had given her during their separation—an allowance he had defined entirely based on his own judgment of what was necessary to uphold the prestige of his name, which he held in the highest regard. “She believes she’s a paragon of frugality—that she keeps track of every penny,” Madame Grandoni continued. “If there’s one virtue she truly values, it’s her ability to save. In fact, it’s the only thing she takes any pride in.”
“I wonder if she knows that I”—the Prince hesitated a moment, then he went on—“that I spend really nothing. But I would rather live on dry bread than that, in a country like this, in this English society, she should not make a proper appearance.”
“I wonder if she knows that I”—the Prince paused for a moment, then continued—“that I actually spend nothing. But I would rather live on plain bread than have her not make a proper appearance in a country like this, in this English society.”
“Her appearance is all you could wish. How can it help being proper, with me to set her off?”
“Her looks are just what you could ask for. How can she help but be impressive, with me there to highlight her?”
“You are the best thing she has, dear lady. So long as you are with her I feel a certain degree of security; and one of the things I came for was to extract from you a promise that you won’t leave her.”
“You're the best thing she has, dear lady. As long as you're with her, I feel a certain level of security; and one of the reasons I came was to get you to promise me that you won’t leave her.”
“Ah, let us not tangle ourselves up with promises!” Madame Grandoni exclaimed. “You know the value of any engagement one may take with regard to the Princess; it’s like promising you I will stay in the bath when the hot water is turned on. When I begin to be scalded, I have to jump out! I will stay while I can; but I shouldn’t stay if she were to do certain things.” Madame Grandoni uttered these last words very gravely, and for a minute she and her companion looked deep into each other’s eyes.
“Ah, let’s not get caught up in promises!” Madame Grandoni exclaimed. “You know how meaningful any commitment regarding the Princess really is; it’s like promising I’ll stay in the bath once the hot water is on. When I start to get burned, I have to jump out! I’ll stay as long as I can, but I won’t if she does certain things.” Madame Grandoni said these last words very seriously, and for a moment, she and her companion stared deeply into each other’s eyes.
“What things do you mean?”
"What do you mean?"
“I can’t say what things. It is utterly impossible to predict, on any occasion, what Christina will do. She is capable of giving us great surprises. The things I mean are things I should recognise as soon as I saw them, and they would make me leave the house on the instant.”
“I can’t say what things. It’s totally impossible to predict what Christina will do at any moment. She’s capable of surprising us in big ways. The things I’m talking about would be something I’d recognize the second I saw them, and they’d make me leave the house immediately.”
“So that if you have not left it yet—?” the Prince asked, in a low tone, with extreme eagerness.
“So if you haven't left yet—?” the Prince asked, in a quiet voice, with intense eagerness.
“It is because I have thought I may do some good by staying.”
“It’s because I thought I might help by staying.”
The young man seemed only half satisfied with this answer; nevertheless he said in a moment—“To me it makes all the difference. And if anything of the kind you speak of should happen, that would be only the greater reason for your staying—that you might interpose, that you might arrest—” He stopped short; Madame Grandoni was laughing, with her Teutonic homeliness, in his face.
The young man appeared only somewhat satisfied with this response; still, he said after a moment, “To me, it makes all the difference. And if anything like what you’re talking about were to happen, that would give you even more reason to stay—so you could intervene, so you could stop—” He trailed off; Madame Grandoni was laughing at him, her down-to-earth charm on full display.
“You must have been in Rome, more than once, when the Tiber had overflowed, è vero? What would you have thought then if you had heard people telling the poor wretches in the Ghetto, on the Ripetta, up to their knees in liquid mud, that they ought to interpose, to arrest?”
“You must have been to Rome more than once when the Tiber flooded, right? What would you have thought if you heard people telling the poor souls in the Ghetto, on the Ripetta, knee-deep in muddy water, that they should intervene to stop it?”
“Capisco bene,” said the Prince, dropping his eyes. He appeared to have closed them, for some moments, as if a slow spasm of pain were passing through him. “I can’t tell you what torments me most,” he presently went on, “the thought that sometimes makes my heart rise into my mouth. It’s a haunting fear.” And his pale face and disturbed respiration might indeed have been those of a man before whom some horrible spectre had risen.
“I understand well,” said the Prince, lowering his gaze. He seemed to have shut his eyes for a moment, as if a slow wave of pain was washing over him. “I can't explain which torment affects me the most,” he continued, “it's the thought that sometimes makes my heart race. It's a persistent fear.” And his pale face and troubled breathing could really belong to someone confronted by a terrible apparition.
“You needn’t tell me. I know what you mean, my poor friend.”
“You don’t have to tell me. I know what you mean, my poor friend.”
“Do you think, then, there is a danger—that she will drag my name, do what no one has ever dared to do? That I would never forgive,” said the young man, almost under his breath; and the hoarseness of his whisper lent a great effect to the announcement.
“Do you think, then, that there is a danger—that she will drag my name through the mud, do what no one has ever dared to do? That I could never forgive,” said the young man, almost under his breath; and the roughness of his whisper made the statement even more impactful.
Madame Grandoni wondered for a moment whether she had not better tell him (as it would prepare him for the worst) that his wife cared about as much for his name as for any old label on her luggage; but after an instant’s reflection she reserved this information for another hour. Besides, as she said to herself, the Prince ought already to know perfectly to what extent Christina attached the idea of an obligation or an interdict to her ill-starred connection with an ignorant and superstitious Italian race whom she despised for their provinciality, their parsimony and their tiresomeness (she thought their talk the climax of puerility), and whose fatuous conception of their importance in the great modern world she had on various public occasions sufficiently covered with her derision. The old lady finally contented herself with remarking, “Dear Prince, your wife is a very proud woman.”
Madame Grandoni briefly considered whether she should tell him (since it would prepare him for the worst) that his wife cared about his name as much as any old label on her luggage; but after a moment of thought, she decided to hold off on this information for another hour. Besides, as she reminded herself, the Prince should already know how much Christina linked the idea of an obligation or a restriction to her unfortunate connection with an ignorant and superstitious Italian race, which she looked down upon for their provincialism, frugality, and dullness (she found their conversations to be the height of silliness), and whose absurd belief in their significance in the modern world she had publicly ridiculed on several occasions. The old lady finally settled for saying, “Dear Prince, your wife is a very proud woman.”
“Ah, how could my wife be anything else? But her pride is not my pride. And she has such ideas, such opinions! Some of them are monstrous.”
“Ah, how could my wife be anything else? But her pride isn’t my pride. And she has such ideas, such opinions! Some of them are outrageous.”
Madame Grandoni smiled. “She doesn’t think it so necessary to have them when you are not there.”
Madame Grandoni smiled. “She doesn’t think it’s really important to have them when you're not around.”
“Why then do you say that you enter into my fears—that you recognise the stories I have heard?”
“Why do you say that you understand my fears and know the stories I've heard?”
I know not whether the good lady lost patience with his persistence; at all events, she broke out, with a certain sharpness, “Understand this—understand this: Christina will never consider you—your name, your illustrious traditions—in any case in which she doesn’t consider, much more, herself!”
I don't know if the good lady lost her patience with his persistence; in any case, she exclaimed, with a certain sharpness, “Understand this—understand this: Christina will never think about you—your name, your distinguished background—in any situation where she doesn’t think about, even more, herself!”
The Prince appeared to study, for a moment, this somewhat ambiguous yet portentous phrase; then he slowly got up, with his hat in his hand, and walked about the room, softly, solemnly, as he were suffering from his long thin feet. He stopped before one of the windows, and took another survey of South Street; then, turning, he suddenly inquired, in a voice into which he had evidently endeavoured to infuse a colder curiosity, “Is she admired in this place? Does she see many people?”
The Prince seemed to think for a moment about this somewhat unclear yet significant phrase; then he slowly stood up, holding his hat, and walked around the room quietly and seriously, as if he were in pain from his long, thin feet. He paused in front of one of the windows and took another look at South Street; then, turning around, he suddenly asked, trying to sound more coolly curious, “Is she admired here? Does she see a lot of people?”
“She is thought very strange, of course. But she sees whom she likes. And they mostly bore her to death!” Madame Grandoni added, with a laugh.
“She seems really strange, of course. But she hangs out with whoever she wants. And they mostly drive her crazy!” Madame Grandoni added with a laugh.
“Why then do you tell me this country pleases her?”
“Then why do you tell me this country makes her happy?”
Madame Grandoni left her place. She had promised Christina, who detested the sense of being under the same roof with her husband, that the Prince’s visit should be kept within narrow limits; and this movement was intended to signify as kindly as possible that it had better terminate. “It is the common people that please her,” she replied, with her hands folded on her crumpled satin stomach and her humorous eyes raised to his face. “It is the lower orders, the basso popolo.”
Madame Grandoni left her home. She had promised Christina, who hated the idea of being under the same roof as her husband, that the Prince’s visit would be kept brief; and this move was meant to indicate as gently as possible that it should come to an end. “It’s the common folks who please her,” she said, with her hands resting on her wrinkled satin dress and her amused eyes looking up at his face. “It’s the lower classes, the basso popolo.”
“The basso popolo?” The Prince stared, at this fantastic announcement.
“The basso popolo?” The Prince stared at this unbelievable announcement.
“The povera gente,” pursued the old lady, laughing at his amazement.
“The povera gente,” the old lady continued, laughing at his surprise.
“The London mob—the most horrible, the most brutal—?”
“The London mob—the worst, the most violent—?”
“Oh, she wishes to raise them.”
“Oh, she wants to raise them.”
“After all, something like that is no more than I had heard,” said the Prince gravely.
“After all, something like that is no more than I had heard,” said the Prince seriously.
“Che vuole? Don’t trouble yourself; it won’t be for long!”
“What do you want? Don’t worry about it; it won’t take long!”
Madame Grandoni saw that this comforting assurance was lost upon him; his face was turned to the door of the room, which had been thrown open, and all his attention was given to the person who crossed the threshold. Madame Grandoni transferred her own to the same quarter, and recognised the little artisan whom Christina had, in a manner so extraordinary and so profoundly characteristic, drawn into her box that night at the theatre, and whom she had since told her old friend she had sent for to come and see her.
Madame Grandoni noticed that her comforting reassurance didn't register with him; his gaze was fixed on the open door, fully focused on the person entering the room. Madame Grandoni followed his gaze and recognized the little craftsman whom Christina had, in such an extraordinary and deeply characteristic way, invited into her box that night at the theater, and whom she had since mentioned to her old friend that she had called to come and see her.
“Mr Robinson!” the butler, who had had a lesson, announced in a loud, colourless tone.
“Mr. Robinson!” the butler, who had been trained, announced in a loud, flat tone.
“It won’t be for long,” Madame Grandoni repeated, for the Prince’s benefit; but it was to Mr Robinson the words had the air of being addressed.
“It won’t be for long,” Madame Grandoni repeated, for the Prince’s benefit; but it sounded like the words were directed at Mr. Robinson.
He stood there while Madame Grandoni signalled to the servant to leave the door open and wait, looking from the queer old lady, who was as queer as before, to the tall foreign gentleman (he recognised his foreignness at a glance), whose eyes seemed to challenge him, to devour him; wondering whether he had made some mistake, and needing to remind himself that he had the Princess’s note in his pocket, with the day and hour as clear as her magnificent handwriting could make them.
He stood there while Madame Grandoni signaled to the servant to leave the door open and wait, glancing from the odd old lady, who was just as strange as before, to the tall foreign man (he recognized his foreignness right away), whose eyes seemed to challenge him, to consume him; wondering if he had made some mistake, and needing to remind himself that he had the Princess’s note in his pocket, with the date and time clearly written in her beautiful handwriting.
“Good-morning, good-morning. I hope you are well,” said Madame Grandoni, with quick friendliness, but turning her back upon him at the same time, to ask of the Prince, in Italian, as she extended her hand, “And do you not leave London soon—in a day or two?”
“Good morning, good morning. I hope you’re doing well,” said Madame Grandoni, with a cheerful friendliness, but she turned her back on him at the same time to ask the Prince, in Italian, as she reached out her hand, “Aren’t you leaving London soon—in a day or two?”
The Prince made no answer; he still scrutinised the little bookbinder from head to foot, as if he were wondering who the deuce he could be. His eyes seemed to Hyacinth to search for the small neat bundle he ought to have had under his arm, and without which he was incomplete. To the reader, however, it may be confided that, dressed more carefully than he had ever been in his life before, stamped with that extraordinary transformation which the British Sunday often operates in the person of the wage-earning cockney, with his handsome head uncovered and suppressed excitement in his brilliant little face, the young man from Lomax Place might have passed for anything rather than a carrier of parcels. “The Princess wrote to me, madam, to come and see her,” he remarked, as a precaution, in case he should have incurred the reproach of bad taste, or at least of precipitation.
The Prince didn't respond; he continued to examine the little bookbinder from head to toe, as if he were trying to figure out who in the world he could be. Hyacinth felt like the Prince's gaze was searching for the small neat bundle he should have had under his arm, which made him feel incomplete. However, to the reader, it can be noted that, dressed more carefully than he ever had been in his life, marked by the remarkable transformation that the British Sunday often brings to the working-class Londoner, with his handsome head uncovered and a controlled excitement on his bright little face, the young man from Lomax Place could have been mistaken for anything other than a parcel carrier. “The Princess wrote to me, madam, to come and see her,” he said, as a precaution, in case he ended up being criticized for bad taste, or at least for being too eager.
“Oh yes, I dare say.” And Madame Grandoni guided the Prince to the door, with an expression of the hope that he would have a comfortable journey back to Italy.
“Oh yes, I definitely say so.” And Madame Grandoni led the Prince to the door, with a hopeful look that he would have a safe journey back to Italy.
A faint flush had come into his face; he appeared to have satisfied himself on the subject of Mr Robinson. “I must see you once more—I must—it’s impossible!”
A slight blush spread across his face; he seemed to have come to terms with his thoughts about Mr. Robinson. “I need to see you one more time—I have to—it’s unavoidable!”
“Ah, well, not in this house, you know.”
“Ah, well, not in this house, you know.”
“Will you do me the honour to meet me, then?” And as the old lady hesitated, he added, with sudden passion, “Dearest friend, I entreat you on my knees!” After she had agreed that if he would write to her, proposing a day and place, she would see him, he raised her ancient knuckles to his lips and, without further notice of Hyacinth, turned away. Madame Grandoni requested the servant to announce the other visitor to the Princess, and then approached Mr Robinson, rubbing her hands and smiling, with her head on one side. He smiled back at her, vaguely; he didn’t know what she might be going to say. What she said was, to his surprise—
“Will you do me the honor of meeting me, then?” And as the old lady paused, he added, with sudden intensity, “Dearest friend, I beg you on my knees!” After she agreed that if he wrote to her with a proposed date and location, she would see him, he raised her wrinkled knuckles to his lips and, without acknowledging Hyacinth further, turned away. Madame Grandoni asked the servant to announce the other visitor to the Princess, then approached Mr. Robinson, rubbing her hands and smiling, tilting her head to the side. He smiled back at her, unsure of what she was about to say. To his surprise, she said—
“My poor young man, may I take the liberty of asking your age?”
“My poor young man, can I ask how old you are?”
“Certainly, madam; I am twenty-four.”
"Sure, ma'am; I'm twenty-four."
“And I hope you are industrious, and sober, and—what do you call it in English?—steady.”
“And I hope you are hardworking, responsible, and—what do you call it in English?—steady.”
“I don’t think I am very wild,” said Hyacinth, smiling still. He thought the old woman patronising, but he forgave her.
“I don’t think I’m that wild,” Hyacinth said, still smiling. He found the old woman condescending, but he let it go.
“I don’t know how one speaks, in this country, to young men like you. Perhaps one is considered meddling, impertinent.”
“I don’t know how to talk to young men like you in this country. Maybe it’s seen as intrusive or disrespectful.”
“I like the way you speak,” Hyacinth interposed.
“I like how you talk,” Hyacinth interjected.
She stared, and then with a comical affectation of dignity, replied, “You are very good. I am glad it amuses you. You are evidently intelligent and clever,” she went on, “and if you are disappointed it will be a pity.”
She stared, then with a funny sense of dignity, replied, “You’re very kind. I’m glad it makes you laugh. You clearly have a sharp mind and wit,” she continued, “and if you’re let down, that would be a shame.”
“How do you mean, if I am disappointed?” Hyacinth looked more grave.
“How do you mean, if I'm disappointed?” Hyacinth looked more serious.
“Well, I dare say you expect great things, when you come into a house like this. You must tell me if I wound you. I am very old-fashioned, and I am not of this country. I speak as one speaks to young men, like you, in other places.”
“Well, I bet you expect amazing things when you walk into a house like this. You have to let me know if I offend you. I’m quite old-fashioned, and I’m not from around here. I talk to you like I would to young men in other countries.”
“I am not so easily wounded!” Hyacinth exclaimed, with a flight of imagination. “To expect anything, one must know something, one must understand: isn’t it so? And I am here without knowing, without understanding. I have come only because a lady who seems to me very beautiful and very kind has done me the honour to send for me.”
“I’m not that easily hurt!” Hyacinth said, using a bit of imagination. “To expect anything, you need to know something, you need to understand, right? And I’m here without knowing, without understanding. I’ve come only because a lady who seems very beautiful and very kind has honored me by asking for my presence.”
Madame Grandoni examined him a moment, as if she were struck by his good looks, by something delicate that was stamped upon him everywhere. “I can see you are very clever, very intelligent; no, you are not like the young men I mean. All the more reason—” And she paused, giving a little sigh. “I want to warn you a little, and I don’t know how. If you were a young Roman, it would be different.”
Madame Grandoni looked him over for a moment, as if she were taken aback by his good looks, by something subtle that was evident in every part of him. “I can tell you’re really smart, very bright; no, you’re not like the young men I’m referring to. All the more reason—” And she paused, letting out a small sigh. “I want to give you a little warning, but I’m not sure how. If you were a young Roman, it would be a different story.”
“A young Roman?”
"A young Roman?"
“That’s where I live, properly, in Rome. If I hurt you, you can explain it that way. No, you are not like them.”
“That’s where I really live, in Rome. If I hurt you, you could put it that way. No, you’re not like them.”
“You don’t hurt me—please believe that; you interest me very much,” said Hyacinth, to whom it did not occur that he himself might appear patronising. “Of what do you want to warn me?”
“You don’t hurt me—please believe that; you’re really interesting to me,” said Hyacinth, not realizing that he might come off as patronizing. “What do you want to warn me about?”
“Well—only to advise you a little. Do not give up anything.”
"Well—just to give you a bit of advice. Don't give up on anything."
“What can I give up?”
“What should I sacrifice?”
“Do not give up yourself. I say that to you in your interest. I think you have some little trade—I forget what; but whatever it may be, remember that to do it well is the best thing—it is better than paying visits, better even than a Princess!”
“Don’t lose yourself. I’m saying this for your own good. I believe you have some small business—I can't recall what it is; but whatever it is, remember that doing it well is the most important thing—it’s even better than social visits, better than being a Princess!”
“Ah yes, I see what you mean!” Hyacinth exclaimed, exaggerating a little. “I am very fond of my trade, I assure you.”
“Ah yes, I get what you mean!” Hyacinth said, exaggerating a bit. “I really love my job, I promise you.”
“I am delighted to hear it. Hold fast to it, then, and be quiet; be diligent, and honest, and good. I gathered the other night that you are one of the young men who want everything changed—I believe there are a great many in Italy, and also in my own dear old Deutschland—and even think it’s useful to throw bombs into innocent crowds, and shoot pistols at their rulers, or at any one. I won’t go into that. I might seem to be speaking for myself, and the fact is that for myself I don’t care; I am so old that I may hope to spend the few days that are left me without receiving a bullet. But before you go any further please think a little whether you are right.”
“I’m glad to hear that. Hold onto it, and stay calm; be hardworking, honest, and kind. I gathered the other night that you're one of those young men who want everything to change—I believe there are a lot of them in Italy and also in my beloved old Germany—and some even think it’s okay to throw bombs into innocent crowds and shoot at their leaders or anyone else. I won't get into that. I might come off as if I’m speaking for myself, and honestly, I don’t care; I’m old enough that I can hope to spend my remaining days without getting shot. But before you go any further, please take a moment to consider whether you’re right.”
“It isn’t just that you should impute to me ideas which I may not have,” said Hyacinth, turning very red, but taking more and more of a fancy, all the same, to Madame Grandoni. “You talk at your ease about our ways and means, but if we were only to make use of those that you would like to see—” And while he blushed, smiling, the young man shook his head two or three times, with great significance.
“It’s not just that you should assume I have ideas that I might not actually have,” Hyacinth said, turning very red but increasingly attracted to Madame Grandoni nonetheless. “You casually discuss our options, but if we only used the ones you prefer—” As he blushed and smiled, the young man shook his head two or three times with great emphasis.
“I shouldn’t like to see any!” the old lady cried. “I like people to bear their troubles as one has done one’s self. And as for injustice, you see how kind I am to you when I say to you again, don’t, don’t give anything up. I will tell them to send you some tea,” she added, as she took her way out of the room, presenting to him her round, low, aged back, and dragging over the carpet a scanty and lustreless train.
“I wouldn’t want to see any!” the old lady exclaimed. “I believe people should handle their problems just like I have. And when it comes to injustice, you can see how kind I’m being when I tell you again, don’t, don’t give anything up. I’ll ask them to send you some tea,” she added, as she made her way out of the room, facing him with her round, hunched back and dragging a worn, dull train across the carpet.
XVII
Hyacinth had been warned by Mr Vetch as to what brilliant women might do with him (it was only a word on the old fiddler’s lips, but the word had had a point), he had been warned by Paul Muniment, and now he was admonished by a person supremely well placed for knowing—a fact that could not fail to deepen the emotion which, any time these three days, had made him draw his breath more quickly. That emotion, however, was now not of a kind to make him fear remote consequences; as he looked over the Princess Casamassima’s drawing-room and inhaled an air that seemed to him inexpressibly delicate and sweet, he hoped that his adventure would throw him upon his mettle only half as much as the old lady had wished to intimate. He considered, one after the other, the different chairs, couches and ottomans the room contained—he wished to treat himself to the most sumptuous—and then, for reasons he knew best, sank into a seat covered with rose-coloured brocade, of which the legs and frame appeared to be of pure gold. Here he sat perfectly still, with only his heart beating very sensibly and his eyes coursing again and again from one object to another. The splendours and suggestions of Captain Sholto’s apartment were thrown completely into the shade by the scene before him, and as the Princess did not scruple to keep him waiting for twenty minutes (during which the butler came in and set out, on a small table, a glittering tea-service), Hyacinth had time to count over the innumerable bibelots (most of which he had never dreamed of) involved in the personality of a woman of high fashion, and to feel that their beauty and oddity revealed not only whole provinces of art, but refinements of choice, on the part of their owner, complications of mind, and—almost—terrible depths of character.
Hyacinth had been warned by Mr. Vetch about what clever women might do with him (it was just a word on the old fiddler’s lips, but it carried weight), he’d been warned by Paul Muniment, and now he was being advised by someone who really knew—something that could only heighten the feeling that had made him breathe faster over the past three days. But that feeling wasn’t something that made him fear distant consequences; as he looked around the Princess Casamassima’s drawing-room and breathed in an air that felt incredibly delicate and sweet, he hoped his adventure would challenge him only half as much as the old lady had hinted. He considered, one by one, the different chairs, couches, and ottomans in the room—he wanted to indulge himself with the most luxurious—and then, for reasons he understood best, he sank into a seat covered in rose-colored brocade, its legs and frame seemingly made of pure gold. Here, he sat completely still, only his heart beating noticeably and his eyes darting from one object to another. The splendor and allure of Captain Sholto’s apartment were completely overshadowed by the scene before him, and as the Princess didn’t hesitate to keep him waiting for twenty minutes (during which the butler entered and set out a sparkling tea service on a small table), Hyacinth had enough time to look over the countless bibelots (most of which he had never imagined) that came with the persona of a high-fashion woman, and to feel that their beauty and peculiarity revealed not just whole realms of art but also the owner’s refined taste, complexities of thought, and—almost—terrifying depths of character.
When at last the door opened and the servant, reappearing, threw it far back, as if to make a wide passage for a person of the importance of his mistress, Hyacinth’s suspense became very acute; it was much the same feeling with which, at the theatre, he had sometimes awaited the entrance of a celebrated actress. In this case the actress was to perform for him alone. There was still a moment before she came on, and when she did so she was so simply dressed—besides his seeing her now on her feet—that she looked like a different person. She approached him rapidly, and a little stiffly and shyly, but in the manner in which she shook hands with him there was an evident desire to be frank, and even fraternal. She looked like a different person, but that person had a beauty even more radiant; the fairness of her face shone forth at our young man as if to dissipate any doubts that might have crept over him as to the reality of the vision bequeathed to him by his former interview. And in this brightness and richness of her presence he could not have told you whether she struck him as more proud or more kind.
When the door finally opened and the servant reappeared, throwing it wide open as if to let in someone as important as his mistress, Hyacinth’s anticipation grew intense; it was similar to how he felt when waiting for a famous actress to step onto the stage. This time, the actress was performing just for him. There was still a brief moment before she appeared, and when she did, her simple outfit—and the fact that he was seeing her standing—made her seem like a completely different person. She walked towards him quickly, albeit a bit stiffly and shyly, but her handshake conveyed a clear desire to be open and even friendly. Although she seemed like a different person, this version of her had an even more dazzling beauty; the brightness of her face radiated towards him, chasing away any doubts that may have lingered from their previous meeting. In the glow and warmth of her presence, he couldn’t say whether she seemed prouder or kinder.
“I have kept you a long time, but it’s supposed not, usually, to be a bad place, my salon; there are various things to look at, and perhaps you have noticed them. Over on that side, for instance, there is rather a curious collection of miniatures.” She spoke abruptly, quickly, as if she were conscious that their communion might be awkward and she were trying to strike, instantly (to conjure that element away), the sort of note that would make them both most comfortable. Quickly, too, she sat down before her tea-tray and poured him out a cup, which she handed him without asking whether he would have it. He accepted it with a trembling hand, though he had no desire for it; he was too nervous to swallow the tea, but it would not have occurred to him that it was possible to decline. When he had murmured that he had indeed looked at all her things but that it would take hours to do justice to such treasures, she asked if he were fond of works of art; adding, however, immediately, that she was afraid he had not many opportunities of seeing them, though of course there were the public collections, open to all. Hyacinth said, with perfect veracity, that some of the happiest moments of his life had been spent at the British Museum and the National Gallery, and this reply appeared to interest her greatly, so that she immediately begged him to tell her what he thought of certain pictures and antiques. In this way it was that in an incredibly short space of time, as it appeared to him, he found himself discussing the Bacchus and Ariadne and the Elgin marbles with one of the most remarkable woman in Europe. It is true that she herself talked most, passing precipitately from one point to another, asking him questions and not waiting for answers; describing and qualifying things, expressing feelings, by the aid of phrases that he had never heard before but which seemed to him illuminating and happy—as when, for instance, she asked what art was, after all, but a synthesis made in the interest of pleasure, or said that she didn’t like England at all, but loved it. It did not occur to him to think these discriminations pedantic. Suddenly she remarked, “Madame Grandoni told me you saw my husband.”
“I’ve kept you for a while, but it’s usually not a bad place, my salon; there are various things to look at, and maybe you’ve noticed them. Over there, for example, is a pretty interesting collection of miniatures.” She spoke quickly and a bit abruptly, as if she was aware that their connection might be awkward and was trying to change the vibe right away to make them both more comfortable. She quickly sat down in front of her tea tray and poured him a cup, handing it to him without asking if he wanted it. He accepted it with a shaky hand, even though he had no desire for it; he was too nervous to drink the tea, but it never crossed his mind that he could refuse it. When he quietly mentioned that he had indeed looked at all her things but that it would take hours to truly appreciate such treasures, she asked if he liked art; immediately adding, though, that she was afraid he didn’t have many chances to see it, although there were the public collections open to everyone. Hyacinth replied, honestly, that some of the happiest moments of his life had been spent at the British Museum and the National Gallery, and this response seemed to interest her a lot, so she quickly asked him to share his thoughts on certain paintings and antiques. This way, in what felt like an incredibly short amount of time, at least to him, he found himself discussing the Bacchus and Ariadne and the Elgin marbles with one of the most remarkable women in Europe. It’s true that she did most of the talking, jumping quickly from one topic to another, asking him questions without waiting for answers; describing and defining things, expressing feelings with phrases he had never heard before that seemed enlightening and joyful—like when she asked what art was, after all, but a synthesis made for the sake of pleasure, or said she didn’t like England at all but loved it. He didn’t think these observations were pretentious. Suddenly she remarked, “Madame Grandoni told me you saw my husband.”
“Ah, was the gentleman your husband?”
“Ah, was that man your husband?”
“Unfortunately! What do you think of him?”
“Unfortunately! What do you think of him?”
“Oh, I can’t think—” Hyacinth murmured.
“Oh, I can’t think—” Hyacinth whispered.
“I wish I couldn’t, either! I haven’t seen him for nearly three years. He wanted to see me to-day, but I refused.”
“I wish I couldn't either! I haven't seen him in almost three years. He wanted to see me today, but I said no.”
“Ah!” said Hyacinth, staring and not knowing how he ought to receive so unexpected a confidence. Then, as the suggestions of inexperience are sometimes the happiest of all, he spoke simply what was in his mind and said, gently, “It has made you very nervous.” Afterwards, when he had left the house, he wondered how, at that stage, he could have ventured on such a familiar remark.
“Ah!” said Hyacinth, staring and unsure how to respond to such an unexpected confession. Then, as sometimes happens, his inexperience led him to say exactly what he was thinking, and he gently remarked, “It has made you very nervous.” Later, after he had left the house, he wondered how he could have dared to make such a familiar comment at that moment.
The Princess took it with a quick, surprised laugh. “How do you know that?” But before he had time to tell how, she added, “Your saying that—that way—shows me how right I was to ask you to come to see me. You know, I hesitated. It shows me you have perceptions; I guessed as much the other night at the theatre. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have asked you. I may be wrong, but I like people who understand what one says to them, and also what one doesn’t say.”
The Princess took it with a quick, surprised laugh. “How do you know that?” But before he could explain, she added, “The way you said that shows me I was right to ask you to come see me. You know, I hesitated. It shows me you have insight; I suspected that the other night at the theater. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have invited you. I might be wrong, but I like people who get what you say and also what you don’t say.”
“Don’t think I understand too much. You might easily exaggerate that,” Hyacinth declared, conscientiously.
“Don’t think I understand too much. You might be exaggerating that,” Hyacinth said earnestly.
“You confirm, completely, my first impression,” the Princess returned, smiling in a way that showed him he really amused her. “We shall discover the limits of your comprehension! I am atrociously nervous. But it will pass. How is your friend the dressmaker?” she inquired, abruptly. And when Hyacinth had briefly given some account of poor Pinnie—told her that she was tolerably well for her, but old and tired and sad, and not very successful—she exclaimed, impatiently, “Ah, well, she’s not the only one!” and came back, with irrelevance, to the former question. “It’s not only my husband’s visit—absolutely unexpected!—that has made me fidgety, but the idea that now you have been so kind as to come here you may wonder why, after all, I made such a point of it, and even think any explanation I might be able to give you entirely insufficient.”
“You totally confirm my first impression,” the Princess replied, smiling in a way that showed she was genuinely amused. “We’ll see how far your understanding goes! I’m really nervous. But I’ll get over it. How is your friend the dressmaker?” she asked suddenly. And when Hyacinth briefly updated her on poor Pinnie—saying she was doing as well as could be expected, but old, tired, sad, and not very successful—she exclaimed, impatiently, “Well, she’s not the only one!” and returned, somewhat off-topic, to her earlier question. “It’s not just my husband’s visit—totally unexpected!—that’s making me anxious, but the thought that now you’ve been so kind as to come here, you might wonder why I made such a fuss about it, and even think any explanation I could give you would be totally inadequate.”
“I don’t want any explanation,” said Hyacinth.
“I don’t want any explanation,” Hyacinth said.
“It’s very nice of you to say that, and I shall take you at your word. Explanations usually make things worse. All the same, I don’t want you to think (as you might have done so easily the other evening) that I wish only to treat you as a curious animal.”
“It’s really nice of you to say that, and I’ll take your word for it. Explanations usually complicate things. Still, I don’t want you to think (as you might have easily done the other evening) that I only want to see you as a curious animal.”
“I don’t care how you treat me!” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“I don’t care how you treat me!” said Hyacinth, smiling.
There was a considerable silence, after which the Princess remarked, “All I ask of my husband is to let me alone. But he won’t. He won’t reciprocate my indifference.”
There was a long silence, after which the Princess said, “All I want from my husband is to leave me alone. But he won’t. He doesn’t return my indifference.”
Hyacinth asked himself what reply he ought to make to such an announcement as that, and it seemed to him that the least civility demanded was that he should say—as he could with such conviction—“It can’t be easy to be indifferent to you.”
Hyacinth wondered what response he should give to an announcement like that, and it seemed to him that the bare minimum of politeness required was that he should say—honestly—“It must be tough to feel indifferent towards you.”
“Why not, if I am odious? I can be—oh, there is no doubt of that! However, I can honestly say that with the Prince I have been exceedingly reasonable, and that most of the wrongs—the big ones, those that settled the question—have been on his side. You may tell me of course that that’s the pretension of every woman who has made a mess of her marriage. But ask Madame Grandoni.”
“Why not, if I'm terrible? I can be—oh, there's no doubt about that! However, I can honestly say that I've been very reasonable with the Prince, and most of the major issues—the big ones that really matter—have been on his side. You might say that’s just what every woman says when her marriage has gone wrong. But ask Madame Grandoni.”
“She will tell me it’s none of my business.”
“She'll tell me it’s none of my business.”
“Very true—she might!” the Princess admitted, laughing. “And I don’t know, either, why I should talk to you about my domestic affairs; except that I have been wondering what I could do to show confidence in you, in return for your showing so much in me. As this matter of my separation from my husband happens to have been turned uppermost by his sudden descent upon me, I just mention it, though the subject is tiresome enough. Moreover I ought to let you know that I have very little respect for distinctions of class—the sort of thing they make so much of in this country. They are doubtless convenient in some ways, but when one has a reason—a reason of feeling—for overstepping them, and one allows one’s self to be deterred by some dreary superstition about one’s place, or some one else’s place, then I think it’s ignoble. It always belongs to one’s place not to be a poor creature. I take it that if you are a socialist you think about this as I do; but lest, by chance, as the sense of those differences is the English religion, it may have rubbed off even on you, though I am more and more impressed with the fact that you are scarcely more British than I am; lest you should, in spite of your theoretic democracy, be shocked at some of the applications that I, who cherish the creed, am capable of making of it, let me assure you without delay that in that case we shouldn’t get on together at all, and had better part company before we go further.” She paused, long enough for Hyacinth to declare, with a great deal of emphasis, that he was not easily shocked; and then, restlessly, eagerly, as if it relieved her to talk, and made their queer interview less abnormal that she should talk most, she arrived at the point that she wanted to know the people, and know them intimately—the toilers and strugglers and sufferers—because she was convinced they were the most interesting portion of society, and at the inquiry, “What could possibly be in worse taste than for me to carry into such an undertaking a pretension of greater delicacy and finer manners? If I must do that,” she continued, “it’s simpler to leave them alone. But I can’t leave them alone; they press upon me, they haunt me, they fascinate me. There it is (after all, it’s very simple): I want to know them, and I want you to help me!”
“Very true—she might!” the Princess admitted, laughing. “And I don't really know why I should talk to you about my personal issues, except that I've been thinking about how I could show my trust in you, as you've shown so much in me. Since the topic of my separation from my husband has come up due to his sudden appearance, I just wanted to mention it, even though it’s a tiring subject. Also, I should let you know that I have very little respect for class distinctions—the kind of thing they emphasize so much in this country. They might be convenient in some ways, but when someone has a reason—an emotional reason—to rise above them, and they hold back because of some dreary belief about their place or someone else’s, then I think it’s unworthy. It’s always fitting for one’s position not to be that of a weak person. I assume that if you’re a socialist, you feel similarly; but just in case, since the awareness of those differences is like the English way of thinking, it might have rubbed off on you too. I’m becoming more and more convinced that you’re barely more British than I am; so just to make sure you don't get shocked by some of the applications I’m capable of making of the creed I hold dear, let me reassure you right away that if that’s the case, we won't get along at all, and we should part ways before going any further.” She paused long enough for Hyacinth to emphasize that he was not easily shocked, and then, restlessly and eagerly, as if it relieved her to talk and made their strange meeting feel less abnormal if she spoke most of the time, she got to the point where she wanted to know the people, and know them intimately—the workers and the strugglers and the suffering—because she was convinced they were the most interesting part of society. At the thought, “What could be more in bad taste than for me to approach such a venture with pretensions of greater delicacy and finer manners? If I must do that,” she continued, “it’s simpler to leave them alone. But I can’t leave them alone; they pull at me, they haunt me, they fascinate me. There it is (after all, it’s very simple): I want to know them, and I want you to help me!”
“I will help you with pleasure, to the best of my humble ability. But you will be awfully disappointed,” Hyacinth said. Very strange it seemed to him that within so few days two ladies of rank should have found occasion to express to him the same mysterious longing. A breeze from a thoroughly unexpected quarter was indeed blowing over the aristocracy. Nevertheless, though there was much of the accent of passion in the Princess Casamassima’s communication that there had been in Lady Aurora’s, and though he felt bound to discourage his present interlocutress as he had done the other, the force that pushed her struck him as a very different mixture from the shy, conscientious, anxious heresies of Rose Muniment’s friend. The temper varied in the two women as much as the face and the manner, and that perhaps made their curiosity the more significant.
“I’ll help you gladly, to the best of my ability. But you’re going to be really disappointed,” Hyacinth said. It struck him as very strange that in just a few days, two women of high status had expressed the same mysterious desire to him. A breeze from a completely unexpected direction was definitely sweeping through the aristocracy. Still, even though there was a sense of passion in Princess Casamassima’s message similar to that of Lady Aurora’s, and even though he felt the need to discourage the woman in front of him just like he had with the other, the pressure she exerted felt like a very different mix compared to the shy, earnest, and anxious notions of Rose Muniment’s friend. The temperament of the two women varied as much as their looks and manners, and perhaps that made their curiosity all the more intriguing.
“I haven’t the least doubt of it: there is nothing in life in which I have not been awfully disappointed. But disappointment for disappointment I shall like it better than some others. You’ll not persuade me, either, that among the people I speak of, characters and passions and motives are not more natural, more complete, more naïf. The upper classes are so insipid! My husband traces his descent from the fifth century, and he’s the greatest bore on earth. That is the kind of people I was condemned to live with after my marriage. Oh, if you knew what I have been through, you would allow that intelligent mechanics (of course I don’t want to know idiots) would be a pleasant change. I must begin with some one—mustn’t I?—so I began, the other night, with you!” As soon as she had uttered these words the Princess added a correction, with the consciousness of her mistake in her face. It made that face, to Hyacinth, more nobly, tenderly pure. “The only objection to you, individually, is that you have nothing of the people about you—to-day not even the dress.” Her eyes wandered over him from head to foot, and their friendly beauty made him ashamed. “I wish you had come in the clothes you wear at your work!”
“I have no doubt about it: I've been incredibly disappointed by everything in life. But if I have to choose between disappointments, I’d prefer this one over others. You won’t convince me that the people I’m talking about don’t have more natural, complete, and genuine characters, passions, and motivations. The upper classes are so dull! My husband can trace his lineage back to the fifth century, and he’s the biggest bore you can imagine. That’s the kind of people I was stuck with after marrying. Oh, if you knew what I’ve been through, you’d agree that intelligent tradespeople (just to be clear, I don’t mean idiots) would be a refreshing change. I need to start somewhere—don’t I?—so I started the other night with you!” As soon as she said this, the Princess realized her mistake and added a correction, which showed on her face. It made her seem, to Hyacinth, more nobly and tenderly pure. “The only problem with you, specifically, is that you don’t have any of the vibe of the people—today, not even the clothes.” Her eyes scanned him from head to toe, and their warm beauty made him feel embarrassed. “I wish you had come in the clothes you wear at your job!”
“You see you do regard me as a curious animal,” he answered.
“You see, you really think of me as a strange creature,” he replied.
It was perhaps to contradict this that, after a moment, she began to tell him more about her domestic affairs. He ought to know who she was, unless Captain Sholto had told him; and she related her parentage—American on the mother’s side, Italian on the father’s—and how she had led, in her younger years, a wandering, Bohemian life, in a thousand different places (always in Europe; she had never been in America and knew very little about it, though she wanted greatly to cross the Atlantic), and largely, at one period, in Rome. She had been married by her people, in a mercenary way, for the sake of a fortune and a title, and it had turned out as badly as her worst enemy could wish. Her parents were dead, luckily for them, and she had no one near her of her own except Madame Grandoni, who belonged to her only in the sense that she had known her as a girl; was an association of her—what should she call them?—her innocent years. Not that she had ever been very innocent; she had had a horrible education. However, she had known a few good people—people she respected, then; but Madame Grandoni was the only one who had stuck to her. She, too, was liable to leave her any day; the Princess appeared to intimate that her destiny might require her to take some step which would test severely the old lady’s adhesive property. It would detain her too long to make him understand the stages by which she had arrived at her present state of mind: her disgust with a thousand social arrangements, her rebellion against the selfishness, the corruption, the iniquity, the cruelty, the imbecility, of the people who, all over Europe, had the upper hand. If he could have seen her life, the milieu in which, for several years, she had been condemned to move, the evolution of her opinions (Hyacinth was delighted to hear her use that term) would strike him as perfectly logical. She had been humiliated, outraged, tortured; she considered that she too was one of the numerous class who could be put on a tolerable footing only by a revolution. At any rate, she had some self-respect left, and there was still more that she wanted to recover; the only way to arrive at that was to throw herself into some effort which would make her forget her own affairs and comprehend the troubles and efforts of others. Hyacinth listened to her with a wonderment which, as she went on, was transformed into fascinated submission; she seemed so natural, so vivid, so exquisitely generous and sincere. By the time he had been with her for half an hour she had made the situation itself appear natural and usual, and a third person who should have joined them at this moment would have observed nothing to make him suppose that friendly social intercourse between little bookbinders and Neapolitan princesses was not, in London, a matter of daily occurrence.
It was probably to contradict this that, after a moment, she started to share more about her personal life. He should know who she was, unless Captain Sholto had already told him; she talked about her background—American on her mom's side, Italian on her dad's—and how she had led a wandering, Bohemian life in countless places (always in Europe; she had never been to America and knew very little about it, though she really wanted to cross the Atlantic), spending a significant time in Rome. Her family had married her off for money and a title, and it had turned out as badly as her worst enemy could have wished. Fortunately for them, her parents were dead, and the only person she had close to her was Madame Grandoni, who was hers only in the sense that she had known her since she was a girl; she was a connection to her—what should she call them?—her innocent years. Not that she had ever been very innocent; her education had been terrible. Still, she had met a few good people—people she respected back then; but Madame Grandoni was the only one who had stuck by her. She, too, could leave her any day; the Princess seemed to suggest that her fate might require her to take some step that would seriously test the old lady’s loyalty. It would take too long to explain to him the journey that had brought her to her current mindset: her disgust with numerous social norms, her rebellion against the selfishness, corruption, injustice, cruelty, and stupidity of the people who had the power all over Europe. If he could have seen her life, the environment where she had been trapped for several years, the evolution of her opinions (Hyacinth was thrilled to hear her use that word) would seem perfectly logical to him. She had been humiliated, harmed, tormented; she believed she was one of the many people who could only achieve a decent life through revolution. At least she still had some self-respect left and wanted to regain even more; the only path to that was to immerse herself in something that would make her forget her own problems and understand the struggles and efforts of others. Hyacinth listened to her with a wonder that, as she continued, turned into fascinated submission; she seemed so real, so vivid, so genuinely generous and sincere. By the time he had been with her for half an hour, she had made the situation itself seem normal and ordinary, and if a third person had joined them at that moment, they wouldn't have suspected anything unusual about a friendly interaction between small bookbinders and Neapolitan princesses in London.
Hyacinth had seen plenty of women who chattered about themselves and their affairs—a vulgar garrulity of confidence was indeed a leading characteristic of the sex as he had hitherto learned to know it—but he was quick to perceive that the great lady who now took the trouble to open herself to him was not of a gossiping habit; that she must be, on the contrary, as a general thing, proudly, ironically, reserved, even to the point of passing, with many people, for a model of the unsatisfactory. It was very possible she was capricious; yet the fact that her present sympathies and curiosities might be a caprice wore, in Hyacinth’s eyes, no sinister aspect. Why was it not a noble and interesting whim, and why might he not stand, for the hour at any rate, in the silvery moonshine it threw upon his path? It must be added that he was far from understanding everything she said, and some of her allusions and implications were so difficult to seize that they mainly served to reveal to him the limits of his own acquaintance with life. Her words evoked all sorts of shadowy suggestions of things he was condemned not to know, touching him most when he had not the key to them. This was especially the case with her reference to her career in Italy, on her husband’s estates, and her relations with his family; who considered that they had done her a great honour in receiving her into their august circle (putting the best face on a bad business), after they had moved heaven and earth to keep her out of it. The position made for her among these people, and what she had had to suffer from their family tone, their opinions and customs (though what these might be remained vague to her listener), had evidently planted in her soul a lasting resentment and contempt; and Hyacinth gathered that the force of reaction and revenge might carry her far, make her modern and democratic and heretical à outrance—lead her to swear by Darwin and Spencer as well as by the revolutionary spirit. He surely need not have been so sensible of the weak spots in his comprehension of the Princess, when he could already surmise that personal passion had counted for so much in the formation of her views. This induction, however, which had no harshness, did not make her appear to him any the less a creature compounded of the finest elements; brilliant, delicate, complicated, but complicated with something divine. It was not until after he had left her that he became conscious she had forced him to talk, as well as talked herself. He drew a long breath as he reflected that he had not made quite such an ass of himself as might very well have happened; he had been saved by his enjoyment and admiration, which had not gone to his head and prompted him to show that he too, in his improbable little way, was remarkable, but had kept him in a state of anxious, delicious tension, as if the occasion had been a great solemnity. He had said, indeed, much more than he had warrant for, when she questioned him about his socialistic affiliations; he had spoken as if the movement were vast and mature, whereas, in fact, so far, at least, as he was as yet concerned with it, and could answer for it from personal knowledge, it was circumscribed by the hideously papered walls of the little club-room at the ‘Sun and Moon’. He reproached himself with this laxity, but it had not been engendered by vanity. He was only afraid of disappointing his hostess too much; of making her say, ‘Why in the world, then, did you come to see me, if you have nothing more remarkable to relate?’—an inquiry to which, of course, he would have had an answer ready, if it had not been impossible to him to say that he had never asked to come: his coming was her own affair. He wanted too much to come a second time to have the courage to make that speech. Nevertheless, when she exclaimed, changing the subject abruptly, as she always did, from something else they had been talking about, “I wonder whether I shall ever see you again!”, he replied, with perfect sincerity, that it was very difficult for him to believe anything so delightful could be repeated. There were some kinds of happiness that to many people never came at all, and to others could come only once. He added, “It is very true I had just that feeling after I left you the other night at the theatre. And yet here I am!”
Hyacinth had encountered plenty of women who liked to talk about themselves and their lives—an annoying kind of self-confidence that he had learned was common among women—but he quickly realized that this great lady, who was now willing to share herself with him, was not one to gossip; rather, she was generally proud, ironically reserved, and often seen by many as somewhat unsatisfactory. It was possible that she was fickle; however, the fact that her current interests and curiosities might be a whim didn't seem to him to be a bad thing. Why couldn't it be a noble and intriguing fancy, and why couldn't he, at least for now, enjoy the silver glow it cast on his path? He should also mention that he didn't understand everything she said, and many of her references and implications were so complex that they mostly highlighted how little he knew about life. Her words brought forth all sorts of vague ideas about things he wasn't meant to understand, which struck him the hardest when he couldn't grasp them. This was particularly true regarding her mention of her time in Italy, on her husband's estates, and her dealings with his family, who claimed to have honored her by allowing her into their prestigious circle (while trying desperately to keep her out). The role they assigned her and what she endured from their attitudes and customs (though her listener remained uncertain about what these included) had clearly instilled in her a lasting resentment and disdain; and Hyacinth sensed that the desire for reaction and revenge could push her far, making her modern, democratic, and exceedingly heretical—leading her to embrace both Darwin and Spencer alongside the revolutionary spirit. He certainly shouldn’t have felt so aware of his own misunderstandings about the Princess when he could already assume that personal feelings had influenced her views so much. This conclusion, which lacked harshness, still made her seem to him like a being made of exquisite elements; brilliant, delicate, and intricate, yet intricately touched by something divine. It wasn't until he left her that he realized she had gotten him to talk as much as she had. He sighed, reflecting that he hadn’t embarrassed himself as much as he could have; he had been saved by his enjoyment and admiration, which had kept him grounded instead of letting him try to show off that he, in his unlikely way, was special, maintaining a state of anxious, pleasurable tension, as if the moment had been a significant event. He had said much more than he had reason to when she asked him about his socialist affiliations; he had spoken as if the movement were vast and developed, while in reality, at least from his own experience, it was confined to the horrendously decorated walls of the little clubroom at the ‘Sun and Moon’. He regretted this carelessness, but it hadn’t come from arrogance. He was simply too afraid of disappointing his hostess too much; of making her ask, "Why on earth did you come to see me if you have nothing more interesting to say?"—a question to which he would have had a ready answer, if it weren’t for the fact that he had never actually requested to come: his visit was her decision. He wanted very much to return a second time, so he lacked the courage to speak up. However, when she suddenly changed the subject, as she often did, from something else they had been discussing, and exclaimed, “I wonder if I’ll ever see you again!” he answered, with complete honesty, that it was hard for him to believe anything so wonderful could happen again. Some kinds of happiness never come to many people at all, and for others, it may only come once. He added, “It’s true I felt that way after I left you the other night at the theater. And yet here I am!”
“Yes, there you are,” said the Princess thoughtfully, as if this might be a still graver and more embarrassing fact than she had yet supposed it. “I take it there is nothing essentially impossible in my seeing you again; but it may very well be that you will never again find it so pleasant. Perhaps that’s the happiness that comes but once. At any rate, you know, I am going away.”
“Yes, there you are,” the Princess said thoughtfully, as if this might be an even more serious and awkward fact than she had realized. “I assume there’s nothing truly impossible about seeing you again; but it’s quite possible you won’t find it as enjoyable next time. Maybe that’s the kind of happiness that only happens once. Anyway, just so you know, I’m leaving.”
“Oh yes, of course; every one leaves town,” Hyacinth commented, sagaciously.
“Oh yes, of course; everyone leaves town,” Hyacinth said wisely.
“Do you, Mr Robinson?” asked the Princess.
“Do you, Mr. Robinson?” asked the Princess.
“Well, I don’t as a general thing. Nevertheless, it is possible that, this year, I may get two or three days at the seaside. I should like to take my old lady. I have done it before.”
“Well, I generally don’t. However, it’s possible that I might get two or three days at the beach this year. I’d like to take my wife. I’ve done it before.”
“And except for that you shall be always at work?”
“And except for that, you’re always going to be working?”
“Yes; but you must understand that I like my work. You must understand that it’s a great blessing for a young fellow like me to have it.”
“Yes; but you need to understand that I enjoy my work. You have to realize that it's a huge blessing for a young guy like me to have it.”
“And if you didn’t have it, what would you do? Should you starve?”
“And if you didn’t have it, what would you do? Should you go hungry?”
“Oh, I don’t think I should starve,” the young man replied, judicially.
“Oh, I don’t think I should go hungry,” the young man replied, thoughtfully.
The Princess looked a little chagrined, but after a moment she remarked, “I wonder whether you would come to see me, in the country, somewhere.”
The Princess looked a bit embarrassed, but after a moment she said, “I wonder if you would come to visit me in the countryside, somewhere.”
“Oh, dear!” Hyacinth exclaimed, catching his breath. “You are so kind, I don’t know what to do.”
“Oh, wow!” Hyacinth exclaimed, catching his breath. “You’re so sweet, I don’t know how to react.”
“Don’t be banal, please. That’s what other people are. What’s the use of my looking for something fresh in other walks of life, if you are going to be banal too? I ask you, would you come?”
“Don’t be ordinary, please. That’s what everyone else is. What’s the point of me searching for something new in other areas of life if you’re just going to be ordinary too? I’m asking you, would you join me?”
Hyacinth hesitated a moment. “Yes, I think I would come. I don’t know, at all, how I should do it—there would be several obstacles; but wherever you should call for me, I would come.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “Yeah, I think I would come. I really have no idea how I’d manage it—there would be a few hurdles; but wherever you need me, I’d be there.”
“You mean you can’t leave your work, like that; you might lose it, if you did, and be in want of money and much embarrassed?”
“You mean you can’t just leave your job like that; you could lose it and end up short on cash and really stressed out?”
“Yes, there would be little difficulties of that kind. You see that immediately, in practice, great obstacles come up, when it’s a question of a person like you making friends with a person like me.”
“Yes, there would be small challenges like that. You can see right away that in real life, significant obstacles arise when it comes to someone like you becoming friends with someone like me.”
“That’s the way I like you to talk,” said the Princess, with a pitying gentleness that seemed to her visitor quite sacred. “After all, I don’t know where I shall be. I have got to pay stupid visits, myself, where the only comfort will be that I shall make the people jump. Every one here thinks me exceedingly odd—as there is no doubt I am! I might be ever so much more so if you would only help me a little. Why shouldn’t I have my bookbinder, after all? In attendance, you know, it would be awfully chic. We might have immense fun, don’t you think so? No doubt it will come. At any rate, I shall return to London when I have got through that corvée; I shall be here next year. In the meantime, don’t forget me,” she went on, rising to her feet. “Remember, on the contrary, that I expect you to take me into the slums—into very bad places.” Why the idea of these scenes of misery should have lighted up her face is more than may be explained; but she smiled down at Hyacinth—who, even as he stood up, was of slightly smaller stature—with all her strange, radiant sweetness. Then, in a manner almost equally incongruous, she added a reference to what she had said a moment before: “I recognise perfectly the obstacles, in practice, as you call them; but though I am not, by nature, persevering, and am really very easily put off, I don’t consider that they will prove insurmountable. They exist on my side as well, and if you will help me to overcome mine I will do the same for you, with yours.”
“That’s how I want you to talk,” said the Princess, with a gentle pity that felt quite sacred to her visitor. “After all, I have no idea where I’ll end up. I have to go on boring visits myself, where the only comfort will be that I’ll make people jump. Everyone here thinks I’m really strange—which I definitely am! I could be even more strange if you’d just help me a bit. Why can’t I have my bookbinder, after all? It would be super chic. We could have a lot of fun, don’t you think? It’ll probably happen. Anyway, I’ll be back in London once I’ve finished that corvée; I’ll be here next year. In the meantime, don’t forget me,” she continued, standing up. “Remember, I expect you to take me into the slums—into really rough places.” Why the thought of those scenes of misery brightened her face is hard to explain, but she smiled down at Hyacinth—who was slightly shorter as he stood up—with all her unusual, radiant sweetness. Then, in a way that didn’t quite fit, she added to what she had just said: “I completely understand the obstacles, as you call them; but even though I’m not naturally persistent and can be easily discouraged, I don’t think they’ll be impossible to overcome. They’re there on my side too, and if you help me tackle mine, I’ll help you with yours.”
These words, repeating themselves again and again in Hyacinth’s consciousness, appeared to give him wings, to help him to float and soar, as he turned that afternoon out of South Street. He had at home a copy of Tennyson’s poems—a single, comprehensive volume, with a double column on the page, in a tolerably neat condition, though he had handled it much. He took it to pieces that same evening, and during the following week, in his hours of leisure, at home in his little room, with the tools he kept there for private use, and a morsel of delicate, blue-tinted Russia leather, of which he obtained possession at the place in Soho, he devoted himself to the task of binding the book as perfectly as he knew how. He worked with passion, with religion, and produced a masterpiece of firmness and finish, of which his own appreciation was as high as that of M. Poupin, when, at the end of the week, he exhibited the fruit of his toil, and much more freely expressed than that of old Crookenden, who grunted approbation, but was always too long-headed to create precedents. Hyacinth carried the volume to South Street, as an offering to the Princess; hoping she would not yet have left London, in which case he would ask the servant to deliver it to her, along with a little note he had sat up all night to compose. But the majestic butler, in charge of the house, opening the door yet looking down at him as if from a second-storey window, took the life out of his vision and erected himself as an impenetrable medium. The Princess had been absent for some days; the butler was so good as to inform the young man with the parcel that she was on a visit to a ‘juke’, in a distant part of the country. He offered however to receive, and even to forward, anything Hyacinth might wish to leave; but our hero felt a sudden indisposition to launch his humble tribute into the vast, the possibly cold, unknown of a ducal circle. He decided to retain his little package for the present; he would give it to her when he should see her again, and he turned away without parting with it. Later, it seemed to create a sort of material link between the Princess and himself, and at the end of three months it almost appeared to him, not that the exquisite book was an intended present from his own hand, but that it had been placed in that hand by the most remarkable woman in Europe. Rare sensations and impressions, moments of acute happiness, almost always, with Hyacinth, in retrospect, became rather mythic and legendary; and the superior piece of work he had done after seeing her last, in the immediate heat of his emotion, turned into a kind of proof and gage, as if a ghost, in vanishing from sight, had left a palpable relic.
These words, echoing repeatedly in Hyacinth’s mind, seemed to give him wings, allowing him to float and soar as he turned that afternoon out of South Street. He had at home a copy of Tennyson’s poems—a single, comprehensive volume, neatly organized in a double column on the page, despite how much he had handled it. That same evening, he took it apart, and during the following week, in his free time at home in his small room, using the tools he kept there for personal projects and a piece of delicate, blue-tinted Russia leather that he had gotten in Soho, he dedicated himself to the task of binding the book as perfectly as he knew how. He worked passionately, almost reverently, and produced a masterpiece of strength and finish, which he valued as highly as M. Poupin did when he showed off the result of his labor at the end of the week—much more openly than old Crookenden, who grunted in approval but was always too practical to set precedents. Hyacinth brought the volume to South Street as a gift for the Princess, hoping she hadn’t yet left London; if she had, he planned to ask the servant to deliver it to her, along with a little note he had stayed up all night to write. However, the majestic butler, who opened the door while looking down at him as if from a second-floor window, drained the energy from his vision and stood there as an impenetrable barrier. The Princess had been away for a few days; the butler kindly informed the young man with the parcel that she was visiting a ‘duke’ in a distant part of the country. He offered to accept and even forward anything Hyacinth might want to leave, but our hero suddenly felt reluctant to send his humble offering into the vast, possibly cold, unknown of a ducal circle. He decided to hold on to his little package for now; he would give it to her when he saw her again, and he turned away without parting with it. Later, it seemed to create a sort of tangible connection between the Princess and himself, and after three months, it almost felt to him not that the beautiful book was a gift from his own hand, but that it had been placed there by the most remarkable woman in Europe. Rare feelings and impressions, moments of intense joy, almost always became somewhat mythical and legendary for Hyacinth in retrospect; and the superior piece of work he had completed after seeing her last, fueled by his strong emotions, transformed into a kind of proof and reminder, as if a ghost, disappearing from sight, had left behind a tangible relic.
XVIII
The matter concerned him only indirectly, but it may concern the reader more closely to know that before the visit to the duke took place Madame Grandoni granted to Prince Casamassima the private interview she had promised him on that sad Sunday afternoon. She crept out of South Street after breakfast—a repast which under the Princess’s roof was served at twelve o’clock, in the foreign fashion—crossed the sultry solitude into which, at such a season, that precinct resolves itself, and entered the Park, where the grass was already brown and a warm, smoky haze prevailed, a sort of summer edition of what was most characteristic in the London air. The Prince met her, by appointment, at the gate, and they went and sat down together under the trees beside the drive, amid a wilderness of empty chairs and with nothing to distract their attention from an equestrian or two, left over from the cavalcades of a fortnight before, and whose vain agitation in the saddle the desolate scene seemed to throw into high relief. They remained there for nearly an hour, though Madame Grandoni, in spite of her leaning to friendly interpretations, could not have told herself what comfort it was to the depressed, embarrassed young man at her side. She had nothing to say to him which could better his case, as he bent his mournful gaze on a prospect which was not, after all, perceptibly improved by its not being Sunday, and could only feel that, with her, he must seem to himself to be nearer his wife—to be touching something she had touched. The old lady wished he would resign himself more, but she was willing to minister to that thin illusion, little as she approved of the manner in which he had conducted himself at the time of the last sharp crisis in the remarkable history of his relations with Christina. He had behaved like a spoiled child, with a bad little nature, in a rage; he had been fatally wanting in dignity and wisdom, and had given the Princess an advantage which she took on the spot and would keep for ever. He had acted without manly judgment, had put his uncles upon her (as if she cared for his uncles! though one of them was a powerful prelate), had been suspicious and jealous on exactly the wrong occasions—occasions on which such ideas were a gratuitous injury. He had not been clever enough or strong enough to make good his valid rights, and had transferred the whole quarrel to a ground where his wife was far too accomplished a woman not to obtain the appearance of victory.
The situation only affected him indirectly, but it might matter more to the reader to know that before her visit to the duke, Madame Grandoni had the private meeting with Prince Casamassima that she had promised him on that sad Sunday afternoon. She slipped out of South Street after breakfast—a meal that the Princess served at noon, in the foreign way—crossed the sweltering emptiness that this area turned into during the season, and entered the Park, where the grass was already brown and a warm, smoky haze hung in the air, a sort of summer version of what was typical in London. The Prince met her as arranged at the gate, and they sat together under the trees by the drive, surrounded by a jungle of empty chairs and with nothing to distract them apart from a few riders, remnants from the parades of two weeks ago, whose restless movements in the saddle highlighted the desolate scene. They stayed there for almost an hour, although Madame Grandoni, despite her tendency to think the best of situations, couldn’t have told herself how much comfort she was providing to the troubled, awkward young man beside her. She had nothing to say that could improve his situation as he cast a mournful look over a view that was not noticeably better just because it wasn’t Sunday, and he could only feel that being with her made him closer to his wife—touching something she had touched. The old lady wished he would accept things more, but she was willing to support that fragile illusion, even though she disapproved of the way he had acted during the last tense moment in his complicated relationship with Christina. He had behaved like a spoiled child with a bad temperament, throwing a tantrum; he had lacked dignity and wisdom, giving the Princess an advantage that she immediately seized and would hold onto forever. He hadn’t acted with a man’s judgment, had involved his uncles with her (as if she cared about his uncles! even though one of them was a powerful bishop), had been suspicious and jealous at completely inappropriate moments—moments when such feelings were an unnecessary blow. He hadn’t been clever or strong enough to assert his rightful claims, and he had shifted the entire conflict onto ground where his wife was far too skilled a woman not to seem victorious.
There was another reflection that Madame Grandoni made, as her interview with her dejected friend prolonged itself. She could make it the more freely as, besides being naturally quick and appreciative, she had always, during her Roman career, in the dear old days (mingled with bitterness as they had been for her), lived with artists, archæologists, ingenious strangers, people who abounded in good talk, threw out ideas and played with them. It came over her that, really, even if things had not come to that particular crisis, Christina’s active, various, ironical mind, with all its audacities and impatiences, could not have tolerated for long the simple dullness of the Prince’s company. The old lady had said to him, on meeting him, “Of course, what you want to know immediately is whether she has sent you a message. No, my poor friend, I must tell you the truth. I asked her for one, but she told me that she had nothing whatever, of any kind, to say to you. She knew I was coming out to see you. I haven’t done so en cachette. She doesn’t like it, but she accepts the necessity for this once, since you have made the mistake, as she considers it, of approaching her again. We talked about you, last night, after your note came to me—for five minutes; that is, I talked, and Christina was good enough to listen. At the end she said this (what I shall tell you) with perfect calmness, and the appearance of being the most reasonable woman in the world. She didn’t ask me to repeat it to you, but I do so because it is the only substitute I can offer you for a message. ‘I try to occupy my life, my mind, to create interests, in the odious position in which I find myself; I endeavour to get out of myself, my small personal disappointments and troubles, by the aid of such poor faculties as I possess. There are things in the world more interesting, after all, and I hope to succeed in giving my attention to them. It appears to me not too much to ask that the Prince, on his side, should make the same conscientious effort—and leave me alone!’ Those were your wife’s remarkable words; they are all I have to give you.”
There was another thought that Madame Grandoni had as her conversation with her unhappy friend went on. She felt able to express it more freely because, being naturally sharp and perceptive, she had always, during her time in Rome, especially in the dear old days (even if they had been mixed with some bitterness for her), surrounded herself with artists, archaeologists, and clever strangers—people who were full of engaging conversation, who shared ideas and played with them. It struck her that, even if things hadn’t reached that particular crisis, Christina's lively, diverse, and ironic mind, with all its boldness and impatience, wouldn’t have been able to stand the plain dullness of the Prince’s company for long. The old lady had told him, upon meeting, “Of course, what you want to know right away is whether she sent you a message. No, my poor friend, I have to tell you the truth. I asked her for one, but she said she had nothing at all to say to you. She knew I was coming out to see you. I haven’t done it en cachette. She doesn’t like it, but she accepts the necessity this once, since you made the mistake, as she sees it, of approaching her again. We talked about you last night, after I got your note—for five minutes; that is, I talked, and Christina was generous enough to listen. At the end, she said this (what I’m about to tell you) with perfect calm, looking like the most reasonable woman in the world. She didn’t ask me to tell you again, but I will because it’s the only substitute for a message I can offer you. ‘I’m trying to fill my life and my mind, to create interests, in the terrible situation I find myself in; I’m trying to escape my small personal disappointments and troubles with whatever poor abilities I have. There are more interesting things in the world, after all, and I hope to succeed in focusing on them. I think it’s not too much to ask that the Prince, for his part, should make the same sincere effort—and leave me alone!’ Those were your wife’s remarkable words; they are all I have to give you.”
After she had given them Madame Grandoni felt a pang of regret; the Prince turned upon her a face so white, bewildered and wounded. It had seemed to her that they might form a wholesome admonition, but it was now impressed upon her that, as coming from his wife, they were cruel, and she herself felt almost cruel for having repeated them. What they amounted to was an exquisite taunt of his mediocrity—a mediocrity which was, after all, not a crime. How could the Prince occupy himself, what interests could he create, and what faculties, gracious heaven, did he possess? He was as ignorant as a fish, and as narrow as his hat-band. His expression became pitiful; it was as if he dimly measured the insult, felt it more than saw it—felt that he could not plead incapacity without putting the Princess largely in the right. He gazed at Madame Grandoni, his face worked, and for a moment she thought he was going to burst into tears. But he said nothing—perhaps because he was afraid of that—so that suffering silence, during which she gently laid her hand upon his own, remained his only answer. He might doubtless do so much he didn’t, that when Christina touched upon this she was unanswerable. The old lady changed the subject: told him what a curious country England was, in so many ways; offered information as to their possible movements during the summer and autumn, which, within a day or two, had become slightly clearer. But at last, abruptly, as if he had not heard her, he inquired, appealingly, who the young man was who had come in the day he called, just as he was going.
After she had given them, Madame Grandoni felt a pang of regret; the Prince looked at her with a pale, bewildered, and wounded expression. It seemed to her that they might serve as a helpful reminder, but it was now clear to her that, coming from his wife, they were hurtful, and she felt almost cruel for saying them. What they really pointed out was an exquisite jab at his mediocrity—a mediocrity that wasn’t really a crime. How could the Prince keep himself occupied? What interests could he develop, and what abilities, for heaven's sake, did he have? He was as clueless as a fish and as narrow-minded as his hat-band. His face became pitiful; it was as if he vaguely understood the insult, felt it more than he saw it—understood that he couldn’t claim incompetence without making the Princess largely right. He looked at Madame Grandoni, his face contorted, and for a moment, she thought he was going to cry. But he said nothing—maybe because he was scared of that—so enduring the silence, during which she gently laid her hand on his, was his only response. He probably could do much more than he actually did, making Christina's comments unanswerable. The old lady changed the subject, telling him what a fascinating place England was in many ways; she shared information about their possible plans for the summer and autumn, which had become a bit clearer in the last couple of days. But then, suddenly, as if he hadn’t heard her, he asked, with an anxious look, who the young man was who had come in the day he called, just as he was leaving.
Madame Grandoni hesitated a moment. “He was the Princess’s bookbinder.”
Madame Grandoni paused for a moment. “He was the Princess's bookbinder.”
“Her bookbinder? Do you mean her lover?”
“Her bookbinder? Are you talking about her lover?”
“Prince, how can you dream she will ever live with you again?” the old lady asked, in reply to this.
“Prince, how can you think she will ever live with you again?” the old lady asked in response.
“Why, then, does she have him in her drawing-room—announced like an ambassador, carrying a hat in his hand like mine? Where were his books, his bindings? I shouldn’t say this to her,” the Prince added, as if the declaration justified him.
“Why does she have him in her living room—introduced like an ambassador, holding a hat in his hand like I am? Where are his books, his collections? I shouldn’t say this to her,” the Prince added, as if that statement made it okay.
“I told you the other day that she is making studies of the people—the lower orders. The young man you saw is a study.” Madame Grandoni could not help laughing out as she gave her explanation this turn; but her mirth elicited no echo from her interlocutor.
“I told you the other day that she is studying the people—the working class. The young man you saw is part of her study.” Madame Grandoni couldn't help but laugh as she explained this; however, her laughter got no response from her conversation partner.
“I have thought that over—over and over; but the more I think the less I understand. Would it be your idea that she is quite crazy? I must tell you I don’t care if she is!”
“I’ve thought about it a lot—repeatedly; but the more I think, the less I get it. Do you think she’s completely nuts? I have to tell you, I don’t care if she is!”
“We are all quite crazy, I think,” said Madame Grandoni; “but the Princess no more than the rest of us. No, she must try everything; at present she is trying democracy and socialism.”
“We're all a bit crazy, I think,” said Madame Grandoni; “but the Princess is no crazier than the rest of us. No, she has to try everything; right now, she's experimenting with democracy and socialism.”
“Santo Dio!” murmured the young man. “And what do they say here when they see her bookbinder?”
“Holy God!” murmured the young man. “And what do they say here when they see her bookbinder?”
“They haven’t seen him, and perhaps they won’t. But if they do, it won’t matter, because here everything is forgiven. That a person should be singular is all they want. A bookbinder will do as well as anything else.”
“They haven’t seen him, and maybe they won’t. But if they do, it won’t matter, because here everything is forgiven. All they want is for a person to be unique. A bookbinder is just as good as anything else.”
The Prince mused a while, and then he said, “How can she bear the dirt, the bad smell?”
The Prince thought for a moment, then said, “How can she stand the dirt and the awful smell?”
“I don’t know what you are talking about. If you mean the young man you saw at the house (I may tell you, by the way, that it was only the first time he had been there, and that the Princess had only seen him once)—if you mean the little bookbinder, he isn’t dirty, especially what we should call. The people of that kind, here, are not like our dear Romans. Every one has a sponge, as big as your head; you can see them in the shops.”
“I have no idea what you're talking about. If you mean the young man you saw at the house (by the way, it was only the first time he had been there, and the Princess had only seen him once)—if you mean the little bookbinder, he’s not dirty, at least not in the way we think of it. The people around here are nothing like our dear Romans. Everyone has a sponge as big as your head; you can see them in the shops.”
“They are full of gin; their faces are purple,” said the Prince; after which he immediately asked, “If she had only seen him once, how could he have come into her drawing-room that way?”
“They’re loaded with gin; their faces are all purple,” said the Prince; after which he quickly asked, “If she had only seen him once, how could he have walked into her drawing room like that?”
The old lady looked at him with a certain severity. “Believe, at least, what I say, my poor friend! Never forget that this was how you spoiled your affairs most of all—by treating a person (and such a person!) as if, as a matter of course, she lied. Christina has many faults, but she hasn’t that one; that’s why I can live with her. She will speak the truth always.”
The old lady looked at him with a bit of sternness. “At least believe what I say, my poor friend! Never forget that this is how you messed up your situation the most—by treating someone (and such a person!) as if she automatically lied. Christina has many flaws, but that's not one of them; that's why I can live with her. She will always tell the truth.”
It was plainly not agreeable to the Prince to be reminded so sharply of his greatest mistake, and he flushed a little as Madame Grandoni spoke. But he did not admit his error, and she doubted whether he even perceived it. At any rate he remarked rather grandly, like a man who has still a good deal to say for himself, “There are things it is better to conceal.”
It was clearly uncomfortable for the Prince to be reminded so pointedly of his biggest mistake, and he blushed slightly as Madame Grandoni spoke. However, he didn't acknowledge his error, and she questioned whether he even recognized it. Regardless, he remarked somewhat grandly, like someone who still has a lot to defend, “Some things are better left unsaid.”
“It all depends on whether you are afraid. Christina never is. Oh, I admit that she is very strange, and when the entertainment of watching her, to see how she will carry out some of her inspirations, is not stronger than anything else, I lose all patience with her. When she doesn’t fascinate she can only exasperate. But, as regards yourself, since you are here, and as I may not see you again for a long time, or perhaps ever (at my age—I’m a hundred and twenty!), I may as well give you the key of certain parts of your wife’s conduct. It may make it seem to you a little less fantastic. At the bottom, then, of much that she does is the fact that she is ashamed of having married you.”
“It all comes down to whether you're scared. Christina never is. I’ll admit she’s pretty strange, and when the thrill of watching her and seeing how she pulls off some of her ideas isn’t stronger than anything else, I completely lose my patience with her. When she’s not captivating, she’s just frustrating. But about you, since you’re here, and because I might not see you again for a long time, or maybe ever (at my age—I’m a hundred and twenty!), I might as well let you in on some insights about your wife’s behavior. It might help make it seem a bit less bizarre. At the core of a lot of what she does is the fact that she’s embarrassed about having married you.”
“Less fantastic?” the young man repeated, staring.
“Less fantastic?” the young man repeated, staring.
“You may say that there can be nothing more eccentric than that. But you know—or, if not, it isn’t for want of her having told you—that the Princess considers that in the darkest hour of her life she sold herself for a title and a fortune. She regards her doing so as such a horrible piece of frivolity that she can never, for the rest of her days, be serious enough to make up for it.”
“You might think there’s nothing more eccentric than that. But you know—or if you don’t, it’s not for lack of her telling you—that the Princess believes that at the darkest moment of her life, she sold herself for a title and wealth. She views this decision as such a terrible act of silliness that she feels she can never be serious enough for the rest of her days to make up for it.”
“Yes, I know that she pretends to have been forced. And does she think she’s so serious now?”
“Yes, I know she’s acting like she was forced. And does she really think she’s so serious now?”
“The young man you saw the other day thinks so,” said the old woman, smiling. “Sometimes she calls it by another name: she says she has thrown herself with passion into being ‘modern’. That sums up the greatest number of things that you and your family are not.”
“The young man you saw the other day thinks so,” said the old woman, smiling. “Sometimes she calls it by another name: she says she has thrown herself with passion into being ‘modern.’ That sums up the greatest number of things that you and your family are not.”
“Yes, we are not, thank God! Dio mio, Dio mio!” groaned the Prince. He seemed so exhausted by his reflections that he remained sitting in his chair after his companion, lifting her crumpled corpulence out of her own, had proposed that they should walk about a little. She had no ill-nature, but she had already noticed that whenever she was with Christina’s husband the current of conversation made her, as she phrased it, bump against him. After administering these small shocks she always steered away, and now, the Prince having at last got up and offered her his arm, she tried again to talk with him of things he could consider without bitterness. She asked him about the health and habits of his uncles, and he replied, for the moment, with the minuteness which he had been taught that in such a case courtesy demanded; but by the time that, at her request, they had returned to the gate nearest to South Street (she wished him to come no farther) he had prepared a question to which she had not opened the way.
“Yes, thankfully we’re not! Dio mio, Dio mio!” groaned the Prince. He seemed so worn out by his thoughts that he stayed seated in his chair after his companion, pulling herself up from her own seat, suggested they take a little walk. She wasn’t unpleasant, but she had noticed that whenever she was with Christina’s husband, the flow of conversation made her, as she put it, bump into him. After giving these small jostles, she always veered off, and now, as the Prince finally got up and offered her his arm, she tried again to discuss topics he could think about without feeling bitter. She asked him about the health and habits of his uncles, and he responded, for the moment, with the detail he had learned was required in such situations. But by the time they had made their way back to the gate closest to South Street at her request (she didn’t want him to come any farther), he had formulated a question she hadn’t mentioned.
“And who and what, then, is this English captain? About him there is a great deal said.”
“And who is this English captain, and what is he all about? There's a lot being said about him.”
“This English captain?”
"This English captain?"
“Godfrey Gerald Cholto—you see I know a good deal about him,” said the Prince, articulating the English names with difficulty.
“Godfrey Gerald Cholto—you see, I know quite a bit about him,” said the Prince, struggling to pronounce the English names.
They had stopped near the gate, on the edge of Park Lane, and a couple of predatory hansoms dashed at them from opposite quarters. “I thought that was coming, and at bottom it is he that has occupied you most!” Madame Grandoni exclaimed, with a sigh. “But in reality he is the last one you need trouble about; he doesn’t count.”
They had stopped near the gate, on the edge of Park Lane, and a couple of fast-moving hansom cabs came at them from opposite directions. “I saw that coming, and really, it's him who's been on your mind the most!” Madame Grandoni said with a sigh. “But honestly, he's the last person you should worry about; he doesn't matter.”
“Why doesn’t he count?”
“Why doesn't he include himself?”
“I can’t tell you—except that some people don’t, you know. He doesn’t even think he does.”
“I can’t explain it—just that some people really don’t, you know. He doesn’t even realize he doesn’t.”
“Why not, when she receives him always—lets him go wherever she goes?”
“Why not, when she always welcomes him—takes him wherever she goes?”
“Perhaps that is just the reason. When people give her a chance to get tired of them she takes it rather easily. At any rate, you needn’t be any more jealous of him than you are of me. He’s a convenience, a factotum, but he works without wages.”
“Maybe that's just the point. When people let her get bored with them, she takes it pretty easily. Anyway, you don't need to be any more jealous of him than you are of me. He’s just a handy helper, a factotum, but he works for free.”
“Isn’t he, then, in love with her?”
“Isn’t he in love with her?”
“Naturally. He has, however, no hope.”
“Naturally. However, he has no hope.”
“Ah, poor gentleman!” said the Prince, lugubriously.
“Ah, poor guy!” said the Prince, sadly.
“He accepts the situation better than you. He occupies himself—as she has strongly recommended him, in my hearing, to do—with other women.”
“He handles the situation better than you do. He keeps himself busy—just like she strongly advised him, while I was listening—to mingle with other women.”
“Oh, the brute!” the Prince exclaimed. “At all events, he sees her.”
“Oh, the brute!” the Prince exclaimed. “Anyway, he sees her.”
“Yes, but she doesn’t see him!” laughed Madame Grandoni, as she turned away.
“Yes, but she doesn’t see him!” laughed Madame Grandoni, as she turned away.
XIX
The pink dressing-gown which Pinnie had engaged to make for Rose Muniment became, in Lomax Place, a conspicuous object, supplying poor Amanda with a constant theme for reference to one of the great occasions of her life—her visit to Belgrave Square with Lady Aurora, after their meeting at Rosy’s bedside. She described this episode vividly to her companion, repeating a thousand times that her ladyship’s affability was beyond anything she could have expected. The grandeur of the house in Belgrave Square figured in her recital as something oppressive and fabulous, tempered though it had been by shrouds of brown holland and the nudity of staircases and saloons of which the trappings had been put away. “If it’s so noble when they’re out of town, what can it be when they are all there together and everything is out?” she inquired suggestively; and she permitted herself to be restrictive only on two points, one of which was the state of Lady Aurora’s gloves and bonnet-strings. If she had not been afraid to appear to notice the disrepair of these objects, she would have been so happy to offer to do any little mending. “If she would only come to me every week or two, I would keep up her rank for her,” said Pinnie, with visions of a needle that positively flashed in the disinterested service of the aristocracy. She added that her ladyship got all dragged out with her long expeditions to Camberwell; she might be in tatters, for all they could do to help her at the top of those dreadful stairs, with that strange sick creature (she was too unnatural) thinking only of her own finery and talking about her complexion. If she wanted pink, she should have pink; but to Pinnie there was something almost unholy in it, like decking out a corpse, or the next thing to it. This was the other element that left Miss Pynsent cold; it could not be other than difficult for her to enter into the importance her ladyship appeared to attach to those pushing people. The girl was unfortunate, certainly, stuck up there like a kitten on a shelf, but in her ladyship’s place she would have found some topic more in keeping, while they walked about under those tremendous gilded ceilings. Lady Aurora, seeing how she was struck, showed her all over the house, carrying the lamp herself and telling an old woman who was there—a kind of housekeeper, with ribbons in her cap, who would have pushed Pinnie out if you could push with your eyes—that they would do very well without her. If the pink dressing-gown, in its successive stages of development, filled up the little brown parlour (it was terribly long on the stocks), making such a pervasive rose-coloured presence as had not been seen there for many a day, this was evidently because it was associated with Lady Aurora, not because it was dedicated to her humble friend.
The pink dressing gown that Pinnie had made for Rose Muniment became a noticeable sight in Lomax Place, providing poor Amanda with a constant topic to reference one of the biggest moments of her life—her visit to Belgrave Square with Lady Aurora after their meeting at Rosy’s bedside. She described this experience vividly to her companion, repeating countless times that her ladyship's kindness was beyond anything she could have imagined. The grandeur of the house in Belgrave Square seemed overwhelming and almost mythical, even though it had been covered in brown holland and the naked staircases and halls had their decorations put away. “If it looks so impressive when they're out of town, what must it be like when they’re all together and everything is on display?” she suggested; and she only held back on two points, one being the state of Lady Aurora’s gloves and bonnet strings. If she hadn't been worried about seeming rude by acknowledging how worn they were, she would have been thrilled to offer to do a little mending. “If she would just come to me every week or two, I would help maintain her status,” Pinnie said, envisioning a needle flashing in dedicated service to the aristocracy. She added that her ladyship looked completely worn out from her long trips to Camberwell; she might as well have been in shambles, given how little they could assist her up those terrible stairs, with that peculiar sick person (who was too unusual) only thinking about her own appearance and talking about her complexion. If she wanted pink, she should have pink; but to Pinnie, there was something almost wrong about it, like dressing up a corpse, or close to it. This was the other aspect that left Miss Pynsent feeling cold; it must have been hard for her to grasp the importance her ladyship seemed to place on those demanding people. The girl was certainly in a tough spot, perched there like a kitten on a shelf, but in her ladyship's position, she would have chosen some conversation more fitting while they strolled beneath those massive gilded ceilings. Lady Aurora, noticing how taken she was, showed her around the house, carrying the lamp herself and telling an older woman who was there—a kind of housekeeper, with ribbons in her cap, who would have pushed Pinnie out if she could have done so with her glare—that they could manage just fine without her. If the pink dressing gown, in its various stages of creation, filled up the little brown parlor (it had been terribly long in the making), creating such a pervasive rose-colored presence that hadn’t been seen there for ages, it was clearly because it was linked to Lady Aurora, not because it was intended for her humble friend.
One day, when Hyacinth came home from his work, Pinnie announced to him as soon as he entered the room that her ladyship had been there to look at it—to pass judgment before the last touches were conferred. The dressmaker intimated that in such a case as that her judgment was rather wild, and she had made an embarrassing suggestion about pockets. Whatever could poor Miss Muniment want of pockets, and what had she to put in them? But Lady Aurora had evidently found the garment far beyond anything she expected, and she had been more affable than ever, and had wanted to know about every one in the Place; not in a meddling, prying way, either, like some of those upper-class visitors, but quite as if the poor people were the high ones and she was afraid her curiosity might be ‘presumptious’. It was in the same discreet spirit that she had invited Amanda to relate her whole history, and had expressed an interest in the career of her young friend.
One day, when Hyacinth got home from work, Pinnie told him right away as soon as he walked in that her ladyship had come by to check it out—to give her opinion before the final touches were added. The dressmaker hinted that in situations like that, her judgment was a bit off, and she had made an awkward suggestion about pockets. What on earth could poor Miss Muniment need pockets for, and what would she put in them? But Lady Aurora clearly found the dress far beyond what she expected, and she had been friendlier than ever, wanting to know about everyone in the Place; not in a nosy, prying way like some upper-class visitors, but more as if the lower-class folks were actually the important ones and she was worried her curiosity might be ‘presumptuous’. It was with the same thoughtful intention that she had asked Amanda to share her entire story, showing genuine interest in her young friend's life.
“She said you had charming manners,” Miss Pynsent hastened to remark; “but, before heaven, Hyacinth Robinson, I never mentioned a scrap that it could give you pain that any one should talk about.” There was an heroic explicitness in this, on Pinnie’s part, for she knew in advance just how Hyacinth would look at her—fixedly, silently, hopelessly, as if she were still capable of tattling horribly (with the idea that her revelations would increase her importance), and putting forward this hollow theory of her supreme discretion to cover it up. His eyes seemed to say, ‘How can I believe you, and yet how can I prove you are lying? I am very helpless, for I can’t prove that without applying to the person to whom your incorrigible folly has probably led you to brag, to throw out mysterious and tantalising hints. You know, of course, that I would never condescend to that.’ Pinnie suffered, acutely, from this imputation; yet she exposed herself to it often, because she could never deny herself the pleasure, keener still than her pain, of letting Hyacinth know that he was appreciated, admired and, for those ‘charming manners’ commended by Lady Aurora, even wondered at; and this kind of interest always appeared to imply a suspicion of his secret—something which, when he expressed to himself the sense of it, he called, resenting it at once and yet finding a certain softness in it, ‘a beastly attendrissement’. When Pinnie went on to say to him that Lady Aurora appeared to feel a certain surprise at his never yet having come to Belgrave Square for the famous books, he reflected that he must really wait upon her without more delay, if he wished to keep up his reputation for charming manners; and meanwhile he considered much the extreme oddity of this new phase of his life (it had opened so suddenly, from one day to the other); a phase in which his society should have become indispensable to ladies of high rank and the obscurity of his condition only an attraction the more. They were taking him up then, one after the other, and they were even taking up poor Pinnie, as a means of getting at him; so that he wondered, with humorous bitterness, whether it meant that his destiny was really seeking him out—that the aristocracy, recognising a mysterious affinity (with that fineness of flair for which they were remarkable), were coming to him to save him the trouble of coming to them.
“She said you had charming manners,” Miss Pynsent quickly noted; “but honestly, Hyacinth Robinson, I never said anything that should hurt you if someone talked about it.” There was an impressive clarity in what Pinnie said, as she already knew how Hyacinth would look at her—staring at her, silently, hopelessly, as if he could still gossip horribly (thinking that his revelations would somehow elevate his status), and pushing this empty idea of his supreme discretion to hide it. His eyes seemed to express, ‘How can I trust you, and yet how can I prove you’re lying? I’m very powerless because I can’t prove that without going to the person to whom your endless foolishness has probably led you to brag, to drop mysterious and teasing hints. You know that I would never stoop to that.’ Pinnie felt acute distress from this accusation; yet she often put herself in that position because she could never resist the pleasure, even keener than her pain, of letting Hyacinth know that he was appreciated, admired and, for those ‘charming manners’ praised by Lady Aurora, even marveled at; and this kind of attention always seemed to suggest a suspicion of his secret—something which, when he acknowledged it to himself, he called, both resenting it and finding some softness in it, ‘a beastly attendrissement.’ When Pinnie continued to say that Lady Aurora seemed surprised he had never come to Belgrave Square for the famous books, he realized he really needed to visit her soon if he wanted to maintain his reputation for charming manners; and in the meantime, he reflected on the extreme strangeness of this new phase of his life (which had opened so suddenly, overnight); a phase where his company had become essential to high-ranking ladies and the obscurity of his background only made him more appealing. They were taking him on, one by one, and they were even adopting poor Pinnie as a way to reach him; so he wondered, with a wry bitterness, whether this meant that his fate was truly seeking him out—that the aristocracy, recognizing a mysterious connection (with that knack for flair they were known for), were coming to him to save him the effort of approaching them.
It was late in the day (the beginning of an October evening), and Lady Aurora was at home. Hyacinth had made a mental calculation of the time at which she would have risen from dinner; the operation of ‘rising from dinner’ having always been, in his imagination, for some reason or other, highly characteristic of the nobility. He was ignorant of the fact that Lady Aurora’s principal meal consisted of a scrap of fish and a cup of tea, served on a little stand in the dismantled breakfast-parlour. The door was opened for Hyacinth by the invidious old lady whom Pinnie had described, and who listened to his inquiry, conducted him through the house, and ushered him into her ladyship’s presence, without the smallest relaxation of a pair of tightly-closed lips. Hyacinth’s hostess was seated in the little breakfast-parlour, by the light of a couple of candles, immersed apparently in a collection of tolerably crumpled papers and account-books. She was ciphering, consulting memoranda, taking notes; she had had her head in her hands, and the silky entanglement of her tresses resisted the rapid effort she made to smooth herself down as she saw the little bookbinder come in. The impression of her fingers remained in little rosy streaks on her pink skin. She exclaimed, instantly, “Oh, you have come about the books—it’s so very kind of you;” and she hurried him off to another room, to which, as she explained, she had had them brought down for him to choose from. The effect of this precipitation was to make him suppose at first that she might wish him to execute his errand as quickly as possible and take himself off; but he presently perceived that her nervousness, her shyness, were of an order that would always give false ideas. She wanted him to stay, she wanted to talk with him, and she had rushed with him at the books in order to gain time and composure for exercising some subtler art. Hyacinth stayed half an hour, and became more and more convinced that her ladyship was, as he had ventured to pronounce her on the occasion of their last meeting, a regular saint. He was privately a little disappointed in the books, though he selected three or four, as many as he could carry, and promised to come back for others: they denoted, on Lady Aurora’s part, a limited acquaintance with French literature and even a certain puerility of taste. There were several volumes of Lamartine and a set of the spurious memoirs of the Marquise de Créqui; but for the rest the little library consisted mainly of Marmontel and Madame de Genlis, the Récit d’une Sœur and the tales of M. J. T. de Saint-Germain. There were certain members of an intensely modern school, advanced and scientific realists, of whom Hyacinth had heard and on whom he had long desired to put his hand; but, evidently, none of them had ever stumbled into Lady Aurora’s candid collection, though she did possess a couple of Balzac’s novels, which, by ill-luck, happened to be just those that Hyacinth had read more than once.
It was late in the day (the start of an October evening), and Lady Aurora was at home. Hyacinth had mentally calculated the time she would have finished dinner, as he found the idea of "finishing dinner" to be particularly associated with nobility for some reason. He didn’t know that Lady Aurora’s main meal consisted of a small piece of fish and a cup of tea, served on a little stand in the empty breakfast room. The door was opened for Hyacinth by the unpleasant old woman Pinnie had described, who listened to his inquiry, led him through the house, and brought him into Lady Aurora’s presence without loosening her tightly closed lips even slightly. Hyacinth’s hostess was seated in the small breakfast room, illuminated only by a couple of candles, seemingly absorbed in a collection of somewhat wrinkled papers and account books. She was calculating, checking notes, and writing things down; she had her head in her hands, and her silky hair resisted her quick attempt to smooth herself down as she saw the little bookbinder enter. The impressions of her fingers left rosy streaks on her pink skin. She immediately exclaimed, “Oh, you’ve come about the books—it’s so kind of you;” and she hurried him off to another room, where she explained she had brought the books for him to choose from. This rush made him initially think she wanted him to get his errand done quickly and leave; but he soon realized that her nervousness and shyness would always create misunderstandings. She wanted him to stay, to talk with him, and she had rushed him to the books to buy herself some time and composure for some subtler approach. Hyacinth stayed for half an hour, growing more convinced that she was, as he had previously stated during their last meeting, truly a saint. He was a bit let down by the books, even though he picked out three or four that he could carry and promised to return for more: they showed that Lady Aurora had a limited knowledge of French literature and even a somewhat childish taste. There were several volumes of Lamartine and a set of the fake memoirs of the Marquise de Créqui; but the rest of the little library mainly consisted of Marmontel and Madame de Genlis, the Récit d’une Sœur and the tales of M. J. T. de Saint-Germain. There were some members of a very modern school, advanced and scientific realists, whom Hyacinth had heard about and had long wanted to check out; but clearly, none of them had ever found their way into Lady Aurora’s candid collection, although she did own a couple of Balzac’s novels, which, by bad luck, happened to be the very ones Hyacinth had read multiple times.
There was, nevertheless, something very agreeable to him in the moments he passed in the big, dim, cool, empty house, where, at intervals, monumental pieces of furniture—not crowded and miscellaneous, as he had seen the appurtenances of the Princess—loomed and gleamed, and Lady Aurora’s fantastic intonations awakened echoes which gave him a sense of privilege, of rioting, decently, in the absence of jealous influences. She talked again about the poor people in the south of London, and about the Muniments in particular; evidently, the only fault she had to find with these latter was that they were not poor enough—not sufficiently exposed to dangers and privations against which she could step in. Hyacinth liked her for this, even though he wished she would talk of something else—he hardly knew what, unless it was that, like Rose Muniment, he wanted to hear more about Inglefield. He didn’t mind, with the poor, going into questions of poverty—it even gave him at times a strange, savage satisfaction—but he saw that in discussing them with the rich the interest must inevitably be less; they could never treat them à fond. Their mistakes and illusions, their thinking they had got hold of the sensations of the destitute when they hadn’t at all, would always be more or less irritating. It came over Hyacinth that if he found this want of perspective in Lady Aurora’s deep conscientiousness, it would be a queer enough business when he should come to go into the detail of such matters with the Princess Casamassima.
There was, however, something really pleasant for him in the moments he spent in the large, dim, cool, empty house, where, at times, monumental pieces of furniture—not cluttered and random, like the things he had seen at the Princess's—stood out and shone, and Lady Aurora's fanciful tones sparked memories that made him feel privileged, enjoying himself decently without any jealous influences. She talked again about the poor people in south London, especially about the Muniments; clearly, the only issue she had with them was that they weren’t poor enough—not exposed enough to dangers and hardships that she could step in to help with. Hyacinth appreciated her for this, even though he wished she would discuss something else—he wasn’t sure what that would be, unless like Rose Muniment, he wanted to hear more about Inglefield. He didn't mind diving into questions of poverty with the poor—it even gave him a strange, fierce satisfaction sometimes—but he realized that discussing these topics with the rich could never be as engaging; they could never truly grasp the feelings of the destitute. Their mistakes and misconceptions, their belief that they understood the experiences of the needy when they really didn’t, were always somewhat irritating. It struck Hyacinth that if he noticed this lack of perspective in Lady Aurora’s deep sense of responsibility, it would be quite strange when he had to delve into these issues with Princess Casamassima.
His present hostess said not a word to him about Pinnie, and he guessed that she had an instinctive desire to place him on the footing on which people do not express approbation or surprise at the decency or good-breeding of each other’s relatives. He saw that she would always treat him as a gentleman, and that even if he should be basely ungrateful she would never call his attention to the fact that she had done so. He should not have occasion to say to her, as he had said to the Princess, that she regarded him as a curious animal; and it gave him immediately that sense, always so delightful to him, of learning more about life, to perceive there were such different ways (which implied still a good many more) of being a lady of rank. The manner in which Lady Aurora appeared to wish to confer with him on the great problems of pauperism might have implied that he was a benevolent nobleman (of the type of Lord Shaftesbury), who had endowed many charities and was noted, in philanthropic schemes, for his practical sense. It was not less present to him that Pinnie might have tattled, put forward his claims to high consanguinity, than it had been when the dressmaker herself descanted on her ladyship’s condescensions; but he remembered now that he too had only just escaped being asinine, when, the other day, he flashed out an allusion to his accursed origin. At all events, he was much touched by the delicacy with which the earl’s daughter comported herself, simply assuming that he was ‘one of themselves’; and he reflected that if she did know his history (he was sure he might pass twenty years in her society without discovering whether she did or not), this shade of courtesy, this natural tact, coexisting even with extreme awkwardness, illustrated that ‘best breeding’ which he had seen alluded to in novels portraying the aristocracy. The only remark on Lady Aurora’s part that savoured in the least of looking down at him from a height was when she said, cheerfully, encouragingly, “I suppose that one of these days you will be setting up in business for yourself;” and this was not so cruelly patronising that he could not reply, with a smile equally free from any sort of impertinence, “Oh dear, no, I shall never do that. I should make a great mess of any attempt to carry on a business. I haven’t a particle of that kind of aptitude.”
His current hostess didn't bring up Pinnie at all, and he sensed that she had an instinctive wish to treat him as someone with whom people don’t express approval or surprise at each other’s relatives’ decency or manners. He realized she would always treat him like a gentleman, and even if he were ungrateful, she would never point out that she had done so. He wouldn't have to tell her, as he had told the Princess, that she saw him as a curious specimen; this gave him that enchanting feeling he always liked, of discovering more about life, recognizing that there were so many different ways (implying even more) to be a lady of rank. The way Lady Aurora seemed to want to discuss the big issues of poverty might have indicated that he was a charitable nobleman (like Lord Shaftesbury), someone who had funded many charities and was known for his practical approach to philanthropic efforts. He was also keenly aware that Pinnie might have gossiped, presenting his claims to high lineage, just as she had when the dressmaker talked about her ladyship’s kindnesses; but he now recalled that he, too, had narrowly avoided acting foolishly when he recently made an offhand comment about his unfortunate background. In any case, he was really touched by the grace with which the earl’s daughter treated him, simply assuming he was “one of them”; and he thought that if she did know his past (he was sure he could spend twenty years around her without finding out), this subtle courtesies and natural tact, even amidst extreme awkwardness, reflected that “best breeding” he had read about in novels about the aristocracy. The only thing Lady Aurora said that hinted at looking down on him was when she cheerfully and encouragingly remarked, “I suppose one of these days you’ll start your own business;” and this wasn’t so condescending that he couldn’t respond, with a smile equally devoid of any snobbery, “Oh no, I could never do that. I’d completely mess up any effort to run a business. I don’t have a bit of that kind of skill.”
Lady Aurora looked a little surprised; then she said, “Oh, I see; you don’t like—you don’t like—” She hesitated: he saw she was going to say that he didn’t like the idea of going in, to that extent, for a trade; but he stopped her in time from attributing to him a sentiment so foolish, and declared that what he meant was simply that the only faculty he possessed was the faculty of doing his little piece of work, whatever it was, of liking to do it skillfully and prettily, and of liking still better to get his money for it when it was done. His conception of ‘business’, or of rising in the world, didn’t go beyond that. “Oh yes, I can fancy!” her ladyship exclaimed; but she looked at him a moment with eyes which showed that he puzzled her, that she didn’t quite understand his tone. Before he went away she inquired of him, abruptly (nothing had led up to it), what he thought of Captain Sholto, whom she had seen that other evening in Audley Court. Didn’t Hyacinth think he was very odd? Hyacinth confessed to this impression; whereupon Lady Aurora went on anxiously, eagerly: “Don’t you consider that—that—he is decidedly vulgar?”
Lady Aurora looked a bit surprised; then she said, “Oh, I see; you don’t like—you don’t like—” She hesitated: he realized she was about to say that he didn’t like the idea of going in for a trade to that extent; but he stopped her just in time from pinning such a silly sentiment on him, and stated that what he meant was simply that the only talent he had was the ability to do his little bit of work, whatever it was, to enjoy doing it well and neatly, and to enjoy even more getting paid for it when it was finished. His idea of ‘business’ or moving up in the world didn’t go beyond that. “Oh yes, I can imagine!” she exclaimed; but she looked at him for a moment with eyes that showed he puzzled her, that she didn’t quite understand his tone. Before he left, she abruptly asked him (nothing had led up to it) what he thought of Captain Sholto, whom she had seen the other evening in Audley Court. Didn’t Hyacinth think he was very strange? Hyacinth admitted he had that impression; whereupon Lady Aurora continued anxiously, eagerly: “Don’t you think that—that—he is definitely vulgar?”
“How can I know?”
"How can I find out?"
“You can know perfectly—as well as any one!” Then she added, “I think it’s a pity they should—a—form relations with any one of that kind.”
“You can know just as well as anyone!” Then she added, “I think it’s a shame they should—uh—get involved with anyone like that.”
‘They’, of course, meant Paul Muniment and his sister. “With a person that may be vulgar?” Hyacinth asked, regarding this solicitude as exquisite. “But think of the people they know—think of those they are surrounded with—think of all Audley Court!”
‘They,’ of course, referred to Paul Muniment and his sister. “With someone who might be considered vulgar?” Hyacinth asked, viewing this concern as quite refined. “But consider the people they know—think of those around them—think of all Audley Court!”
“The poor, the unhappy, the labouring classes? Oh, I don’t call them vulgar!” cried her ladyship, with radiant eyes. The young man, lying awake a good deal that night, laughed to himself, on his pillow, not unkindly, at her fear that he and his friends would be contaminated by the familiar of a princess. He even wondered whether she would not find the Princess herself rather vulgar.
“The poor, the unhappy, the working class? Oh, I don’t think of them as vulgar!” exclaimed her ladyship, her eyes shining. The young man, who lay awake for quite a while that night, chuckled to himself on his pillow, not unkindly, at her worry that he and his friends would be tainted by being around a princess. He even wondered if she might see the Princess herself as somewhat vulgar.
XX
It must not be supposed that Hyacinth’s relations with Millicent Henning had remained unaffected by the remarkable incident she had witnessed at the theatre. It had made a great impression on the young lady from Pimlico; he never saw her, for several weeks afterwards, that she had not an immense deal to say about it; and though it suited her to take the line of being shocked at the crudity of such proceedings, and of denouncing the Princess for a bold-faced foreigner, of a kind to which any one who knew anything of what could go on in London would give a wide berth, it was easy to see that she was pleased at being brought even into roundabout contact with a person so splendid and at finding her own discriminating approval of Hyacinth confirmed in such high quarters. She professed to derive her warrant for her low opinion of the lady in the box from information given her by Captain Sholto as he sat beside her—information of which at different moments she gave a different version; her anecdotes having nothing in common, at least, save that they were alike unflattering to the Princess. Hyacinth had many doubts of the Captain’s pouring such confidences into Miss Henning’s ear; under the circumstances it would be such a very unnatural thing for him to do. He was unnatural—that was true—and he might have told Millicent, who was capable of having plied him with questions, that his distinguished friend was separated from her husband; but, for the rest, it was more probable that the girl had given the rein to a certain inventive faculty which she had already showed him she possessed, when it was a question of exercising her primitive, half-childish, half-plebeian impulse of destruction, the instinct of pulling down what was above her, the reckless energy that would, precisely, make her so effective in revolutionary scenes. Hyacinth (it has been mentioned) did not consider that Millicent was false, and it struck him as a proof of positive candour that she should make up absurd, abusive stories about a person concerning whom she knew nothing at all, save that she disliked her, and could not hope for esteem, or, indeed, for recognition of any kind, in return. When people were really false you didn’t know where you stood with them, and on such a point as this Miss Henning could never be accused of leaving you in obscurity. She said little else about the Captain, and did not pretend to repeat the remainder of his conversation; taking it with an air of grand indifference when Hyacinth amused himself with repaying her strictures on his new acquaintance by drawing a sufficiently derisive portrait of hers.
It shouldn't be assumed that Hyacinth’s relationship with Millicent Henning was unaffected by the striking event she had witnessed at the theater. It made a big impression on the young woman from Pimlico; he never saw her for several weeks afterward without her having a lot to say about it. Although she claimed to be shocked by the crudeness of such actions and criticized the Princess for being a shameless foreigner, someone whom anyone familiar with London would avoid, it was clear she was thrilled to be even indirectly connected to such a magnificent person and to have her own discerning opinion of Hyacinth validated in such prestigious circles. She claimed her low opinion of the lady in the box was based on information provided by Captain Sholto while he sat next to her—information that she recounted differently at various points; her stories had nothing in common except that they were all unflattering to the Princess. Hyacinth had many doubts about the Captain sharing such confidences with Miss Henning; under the circumstances, it would have been very unnatural for him to do so. He was, indeed, unnatural—that was true—and he might have mentioned to Millicent, who likely pressed him with questions, that his distinguished friend was separated from her husband; however, beyond that, it was more likely that the girl had indulged in a certain creative tendency she had already shown him, especially when it came to exercising her basic, half-childish, half-common impulse to tear down what was above her, the reckless energy that would make her particularly effective in revolutionary situations. Hyacinth (as mentioned) didn’t think Millicent was insincere, and he saw it as a sign of genuine honesty that she would fabricate absurd, derogatory stories about someone she knew nothing about, other than that she disliked her and could not expect any kind of respect or recognition in return. When people are genuinely insincere, you can’t tell where you stand with them, and in this regard, Miss Henning couldn’t be accused of leaving anyone in doubt. She said little else about the Captain and didn’t pretend to repeat the rest of their conversation, responding with an air of grand indifference when Hyacinth entertained himself by humorously critiquing her portrayal of his new acquaintance.
He took the ground that Sholto’s admiration for the high-coloured beauty in the second balcony had been at the bottom of the whole episode: he had persuaded the Princess to pretend she was a socialist and should like therefore to confer with Hyacinth, in order that he might slip into the seat of this too easily deluded youth. At the same time, it never occurred to our young man to conceal the fact that the lady in the box had followed him up; he contented himself with saying that this had been no part of the original plot, but a simple result—not unnatural, after all—of his turning out so much more fascinating than one might have supposed. He narrated, with sportive variations, his visit in South Street, and felt that he would never feel the need, with his childhood’s friend, of glossing over that sort of experience. She might make him a scene of jealousy and welcome—there were things that would have much more terror for him than that; her jealousy, with its violence, its energy, even a certain inconsequent, dare-devil humour that played through it, entertained him, illustrated the frankness, the passion and pluck, that he admired her for. He should never be on the footing of sparing Miss Henning’s susceptibilities; how fond she might really be of him he could not take upon himself to say, but her affection would never take the form of that sort of delicacy, and their intercourse was plainly foredoomed to be an exchange of thumps and concussions, of sarcastic shouts and mutual défis. He liked her, at bottom, strangely, absurdly; but after all it was only well enough to torment her—she could bear so much—not well enough to spare her. Of there being any justification of her jealousy of the Princess he never thought; it could not occur to him to weigh against each other the sentiments he might excite in such opposed bosoms or those that the spectacle of either emotion might have kindled in his own. He had, no doubt, his share of fatuity, but he found himself unable to associate, mentally, a great lady and a shop-girl in a contest for a prize which should present analogies with his own personality. How could they have anything in common—even so small a thing as a desire to possess themselves of Hyacinth Robinson? A fact that he did not impart to Millicent, and that he could have no wish to impart to her, was the matter of his pilgrimage to Belgrave Square. He might be in love with the Princess (how could he qualify, as yet, the bewildered emotion she had produced in him?), and he certainly never would conceive a passion for poor Lady Aurora; yet it would have given him pain much greater than any he felt in the other case, to hear the girl make free with the ministering angel of Audley Court. The difference was, perhaps, somehow in that she appeared really not to touch or arrive at the Princess at all, whereas Lady Aurora was within her range and compass.
He believed that Sholto’s infatuation with the striking beauty in the second balcony was the root of the whole situation: he got the Princess to pretend she was a socialist who wanted to discuss things with Hyacinth, so he could take advantage of this easily fooled young man. Meanwhile, it never crossed our young man’s mind to hide the fact that the lady in the box had followed him; he simply said that this wasn’t part of the original plan, but a natural outcome of his being way more interesting than anyone would have expected. He recounted, with playful twists, his visit to South Street, feeling that he wouldn't need to sugarcoat that experience with his childhood friend. She could certainly make a scene about jealousy if she wanted to—there were things that would scare him much more than that; her jealousy, with its intensity and even a certain reckless humor, amused him, highlighting the honesty, passion, and bravery he admired in her. He would never hold back when it came to Miss Henning’s feelings; how much she really liked him, he couldn’t say, but her affection wouldn’t be delicate, and their interactions were clearly destined to be filled with playful blows, sarcastic exchanges, and mutual challenges. At his core, he strangely, absurdly liked her; but it was just enough to tease her—she could handle it—not enough to hold back. He never considered whether her jealousy of the Princess was justified; he didn’t think to compare the feelings he might evoke in such different women or those that watching either emotion might stir in him. No doubt he had his moments of foolishness, but he found it hard to mentally link a high-class lady and a shop girl in a competition for someone like Hyacinth Robinson. What could they possibly have in common—even something as trivial as wanting to win him over? One thing he didn’t share with Millicent, and had no intention of sharing, was his journey to Belgrave Square. He might be in love with the Princess (how could he explain the confusion she stirred in him?), and he certainly would never develop feelings for poor Lady Aurora; yet it would pain him more than anything he felt about the Princess to hear the girl speak casually about the angel of Audley Court. The difference was perhaps that Lady Aurora seemed completely out of reach for her, while the Princess was within her grasp.
After paying him that visit at his rooms Hyacinth lost sight of Captain Sholto, who had not again reappeared at the ‘Sun and Moon’, the little tavern which presented so common and casual a face to the world and yet, in its unsuspected rear, offered a security as yet unimpugned to machinations going down to the very bottom of things. Nothing was more natural than that the Captain should be engaged at this season in the recreations of his class; and our young man took for granted that if he were not hanging about the Princess, on that queer footing as to which he himself had a secret hope that he should some day have more light, he was probably ploughing through northern seas on a yacht or creeping after stags in the Highlands; our hero’s acquaintance with the light literature of his country being such as to assure him that in one or other of these occupations people of leisure, during the autumn, were necessarily immersed. If the Captain were giving his attention to neither, he must have started for Albania, or at least for Paris. Happy Captain, Hyacinth reflected, while his imagination followed him through all kinds of vivid exotic episodes and his restless young feet continued to tread, through the stale, flat weeks of September and October, the familiar pavements of Soho, Islington and Pentonville, and the shabby sinuous ways which unite these laborious districts. He had told the Princess that he sometimes had a holiday at this period and that there was a chance of his escorting his respectable companion to the seaside; but as it turned out, at present, the spare cash for such an excursion was wanting. Hyacinth had indeed, for the moment, an exceptionally keen sense of the absence of this article, and was forcibly reminded that it took a good deal of money to cultivate the society of agreeable women. He not only had not a penny, but he was much in debt, and the explanation of his pinched feeling was in a vague, half-remorseful, half-resigned reference to the numerous occasions when he had had to put his hand in his pocket under penalty of disappointing a young lady whose needs were positive, and especially to a certain high crisis (as it might prove to be) in his destiny, when it came over him that one couldn’t call on a princess just as one was. So, this year, he did not ask old Crookenden for the week which some of the other men took (Eustache Poupin, who had never quitted London since his arrival, launched himself, precisely that summer, supported by his brave wife, into the British unknown, on the strength of a return ticket to Worthing); simply because he shouldn’t know what to do with it. The best way not to spend money, though it was no doubt not the best in the world to make it, was still to take one’s daily course to the old familiar, shabby shop, where, as the days shortened and November thickened the air to a livid yellow, the uncovered flame of the gas, burning often from the morning on, lighted up the ugliness amid which the hand of practice endeavoured to disengage a little beauty—the ugliness of a dingy, belittered interior, of battered, dispapered walls, of work-tables stained and hacked, of windows opening into a foul, drizzling street, of the bared arms, the sordid waistcoat-backs, the smeared aprons, the personal odour, the patient, obstinate, irritating shoulders and vulgar, narrow, inevitable faces, of his fellow-labourers. Hyacinth’s relations with his comrades would form a chapter by itself, but all that may be said of the matter here is that the clever little operator from Lomax Place had a kind of double identity, and that much as he lived in Mr Crookenden’s establishment he lived out of it still more. In this busy, pasty, sticky, leathery little world, where wages and beer were the main objects of consideration, he played his part in a manner which caused him to be regarded as a queer lot, but capable of queerness in the line of good-nature too. He had not made good his place there without discovering that the British workman, when animated by the spirit of mirth, has rather a heavy hand, and he tasted of the practical joke in every degree of violence. During his first year he dreamed, with secret passion and suppressed tears, of a day of bliss when at last they would let him alone—a day which arrived in time, for it is always an advantage to be clever, if only one is clever enough. Hyacinth was sufficiently so to have invented a modus vivendi in respect to which M. Poupin said to him, “Enfin vous voilà ferme!” (the Frenchman himself, terribly éprouvé at the beginning, had always bristled with firmness and opposed to insular grossness a refined dignity), and under the influence of which the scenery of Soho figured as a daily, dusky phantasmagoria, relegated to the mechanical, passive part of experience and giving no hostages to reality, or at least to ambition, save an insufficient number of shillings on Saturday night and spasmodic reminiscences of delicate work that might have been more delicate still, as well as of certain applications of the tool which he flattered himself were unsurpassed, unless by the supreme Eustache.
After visiting him at his place, Hyacinth lost track of Captain Sholto, who hadn’t shown up again at the ‘Sun and Moon’, the small tavern that seemed so ordinary and casual to the world but, in its hidden corners, provided a security that remained untouched by any plots going to the very core of things. It was completely normal for the Captain to be engrossed in his seasonal activities, and Hyacinth assumed that if he wasn’t spending time around the Princess—on that odd basis he secretly hoped he would one day understand better—he was likely sailing through northern waters on a yacht or hunting stags in the Highlands. Our hero’s familiarity with the light literature of his country assured him that people of leisure were often preoccupied with one or the other during autumn. If the Captain wasn’t doing either, he must have traveled to Albania or, at the very least, to Paris. "Lucky Captain," Hyacinth mused, while his imagination took him through various vivid and exotic adventures, and his restless young feet continued to walk, through the stale, dreary weeks of September and October, the familiar streets of Soho, Islington, and Pentonville, along with the shabby winding paths connecting these industrious areas. He had mentioned to the Princess that he sometimes had a holiday at this time and that he might take his respectable companion to the seaside; however, as it turned out, he currently lacked the extra cash for such a trip. At that moment, Hyacinth felt an exceptionally acute awareness of this absence and was painfully reminded that enjoying the company of pleasant women required quite a bit of money. Not only did he not have a penny to his name, but he was also heavily in debt, and the reason for his strained situation was a vague mix of remorse and resignation about the numerous times he had been compelled to spend money to avoid letting down a young lady with genuine needs—especially during a certain pivotal moment (which might turn out to be) in his life when he realized one couldn’t just visit a princess as he currently was. So, this year, he didn’t ask old Crookenden for the week that some of the other men took (Eustache Poupin, who had never left London since arriving, took a plunge into the great unknown that summer, with the support of his brave wife, on the strength of a return ticket to Worthing); he simply didn’t know what he would do with it. The best way to avoid spending money—though it probably wasn’t the best way to earn it—was still to follow his usual routine to the familiar, shabby shop, where, as the days grew shorter and November turned the air a sickly yellow, the bare flame of the gas, often lit from morning on, illuminated the ugliness that the hand of practice attempted to extract a little beauty from—namely, the dingy, litter-strewn interior, the battered and torn walls, the worktables scuffed and stained, the windows opening into a dirty, drizzling street, the bare arms, the shabby backs of waistcoats, the stained aprons, the personal odors, the patient, persistent, irritating shoulders, and the vulgar, narrow, inevitable faces of his fellow workers. Hyacinth's relationships with his coworkers could fill a chapter on their own, but all that can be said here is that the clever little worker from Lomax Place had a kind of double identity, and while he spent much of his time at Mr. Crookenden’s establishment, he spent even more time outside of it. In this busy, pasty, sticky, leathery world, where wages and beer were the main focus, he played his part in a way that made him seem somewhat odd, but still capable of good-natured strangeness. He realized that he hadn’t secured his place without discovering that the British worker, when filled with joy, has a surprisingly heavy hand, and he experienced practical jokes in various degrees of brutality. During his first year, he dreamed, with a secret passion and silent tears, of the day when they would finally leave him alone—a day that eventually came, because it’s always advantageous to be clever, as long as one is clever enough. Hyacinth was clever enough to create a modus vivendi regarding which M. Poupin remarked to him, “Enfin vous voilà ferme!” (the Frenchman, initially quite éprouvé, had always exuded firmness and countered insular coarseness with refined dignity), and through this influence, the scenery of Soho became a daily, dim phantasmagoria, relegated to the mechanical, passive side of experience, giving no debts to reality, or at least to ambition, save for an insufficient number of shillings on Saturday night and sporadic memories of delicate work that could have been even more delicate, alongside certain applications of the tools he flattered himself were unmatched, except perhaps by the supreme Eustache.
One evening in November, after discharging himself of a considerable indebtedness to Pinnie, he had still a sovereign in his pocket—a sovereign which seemed to spin there at the opposed solicitation of a dozen exemplary uses. He had come out for a walk, with a vague intention of pushing as far as Audley Court; and lurking within this nebulous design, on which the damp breath of the streets, making objects seem that night particularly dim and places particularly far, had blown a certain chill, was a sense that it would be rather nice to take something to Rose Muniment, who delighted in a sixpenny present and to whom, for some time, he had not rendered any such homage. At last, after he had wandered a while, hesitating between the pilgrimage to Camberwell and the possibility of still associating his evening in some way or other with that of Miss Henning, he reflected that if a sovereign was to be pulled to pieces it was a simplification to get it changed. He had been traversing the region of Mayfair, partly with the preoccupation of a short cut and partly from an instinct of self-defence; if one was in danger of spending one’s money precipitately it was so much gained to plunge into a quarter in which, at that hour especially, there were no shops for little bookbinders. Hyacinth’s victory, however, was imperfect when it occurred to him to turn into a public-house in order to convert his gold into convenient silver. When it was a question of entering these establishments he selected in preference the most decent; he never knew what unpleasant people he might find on the other side of the swinging door. Those which glitter, at intervals, amid the residential gloom of Mayfair partake of the general gentility of the neighbourhood, so that Hyacinth was not surprised (he had passed into the compartment marked ‘private bar’) to see but a single drinker leaning against the counter on which, with his request very civilly enunciated, he put down his sovereign. He was surprised, on the other hand, when, glancing up again, he became aware that this solitary drinker was Captain Godfrey Sholto.
One evening in November, after settling a significant debt to Pinnie, he still had a sovereign in his pocket—a coin that seemed to spin there, pulled in different directions by a dozen tempting uses. He had gone out for a walk, vaguely aiming to get as far as Audley Court; and hidden within this hazy plan, which the damp chill of the streets had made feel particularly bleak and the places seem especially distant, was the thought that it would be nice to bring something to Rose Muniment, who loved a little sixpence gift and to whom he hadn’t given any such token for a while. Eventually, after wandering a bit, torn between heading to Camberwell and possibly tying his evening in some way to Miss Henning's, he realized that if he was going to break up a sovereign, it would be easier to get it changed. He had been moving through Mayfair, partly looking for a shortcut and partly out of instinct for self-preservation; if he was at risk of spending his money too quickly, it was a win to head into an area, especially at that hour, where there weren't any shops for little bookbinders. However, Hyacinth's victory wasn’t complete when he thought about going into a pub to swap his gold for handy silver. When it came to entering such places, he preferred the more respectable ones; he never knew what unpleasant people he might run into on the other side of the swinging door. Those that shine, amid the residential dimness of Mayfair, share in the overall gentility of the area, so Hyacinth wasn’t surprised (after stepping into the 'private bar') to see just one person leaning against the counter where he politely placed his sovereign. On the other hand, he was shocked when he looked up again and realized that the solitary drinker was Captain Godfrey Sholto.
“Why, my dear boy, what a remarkable coincidence!” the Captain exclaimed. “For once in five years that I come into a place like this!”
“Wow, my dear boy, what an amazing coincidence!” the Captain exclaimed. “It’s been five years since I’ve been in a place like this!”
“I don’t come in often myself. I thought you were in Madagascar,” said Hyacinth.
“I don’t come in here often either. I thought you were in Madagascar,” said Hyacinth.
“Ah, because I have not been at the ‘Sun and Moon’? Well, I have been constantly out of town, you know. And then—don’t you see what I mean?—I want to be tremendously careful. That’s the way to get on, isn’t it? But I dare say you don’t believe in my discretion!” Sholto laughed. “What shall I do to make you understand? I say, have a brandy and soda,” he continued, as if this might assist Hyacinth’s comprehension. He seemed a trifle flurried, and, if it were possible to imagine such a thing of so independent and whimsical a personage, the least bit abashed or uneasy at having been found in such a low place. It was not any lower, after all, than the ‘Sun and Moon’. He was dressed on this occasion according to his station, without the pot-hat and the shabby jacket, and Hyacinth looked at him with a sense that a good tailor must really add a charm to life. Our hero was struck more than ever before with his being the type of man whom, as he strolled about, observing people, he had so often regarded with wonder and envy—the sort of man of whom one said to one’s self that he was the ‘finest white’, feeling that he had the world in his pocket. Sholto requested the bar-maid to please not dawdle in preparing the brandy and soda which Hyacinth had thought to ease off the situation by accepting: this, indeed, was perhaps what the finest white would naturally do. And when the young man had taken the glass from the counter Sholto appeared to encourage him not to linger as he drank it, and smiled down at him very kindly and amusedly, as if the combination of a very small bookbinder and a big tumbler were sufficiently droll. The Captain took time, however, to ask Hyacinth how he had spent his autumn and what was the news in Bloomsbury; he further inquired about those delightful people over the river. “I can’t tell you what an impression they made upon me—that evening, you know.” After this he remarked to Hyacinth, suddenly, irrelevantly, “And so you are just going to stay on for the winter, quietly?” Our young man stared: he wondered what other project any one could attribute to him; he could not reflect, immediately, that this was the sort of thing the finest whites said to each other when they met, after their fashionable dispersals, and that his friend had only been guilty of a momentary inadvertence. In point of fact the Captain recovered himself: “Oh, of course you have got your work, and that sort of thing;” and, as Hyacinth did not succeed in swallowing at a gulp the contents of his big tumbler, he asked him presently whether he had heard anything from the Princess. Hyacinth replied that he could have no news except what the Captain might be good enough to give him; but he added that he did go to see her just before she left town.
“Ah, so you think I haven’t been to the ‘Sun and Moon’? Well, I’ve been out of town a lot, you know. And then—don’t you get what I’m saying?—I want to be super careful. That’s how you succeed, right? But I guess you don’t trust my judgment!” Sholto laughed. “What can I do to help you understand? Here, have a brandy and soda,” he continued, as if that would help Hyacinth grasp the situation. He seemed a little flustered and, if it were possible to imagine it of such an independent and quirky person, slightly embarrassed or uneasy about being spotted in such a low place. Still, it wasn't any worse than the ‘Sun and Moon’. He was dressed more appropriately this time, without the top hat and shabby jacket, and Hyacinth felt that a good tailor really added to life’s charm. Our hero was struck more than ever by Sholto being the kind of man he often admired and envied while strolling around and watching people—the sort of man you’d think of as the ‘finest white’, someone who seemed to have the world at his fingertips. Sholto asked the barmaid to hurry up with the brandy and soda that Hyacinth had thought would ease the situation: this was exactly what the finest white would naturally do. Once Hyacinth had taken the glass from the counter, Sholto seemed to urge him not to take his time drinking it, smiling down at him kindly and playfully, as if the combination of a small bookbinder and a big tumbler was amusing. The Captain did take a moment, though, to ask Hyacinth how he had spent his autumn and what was happening in Bloomsbury; he also inquired about those lovely people across the river. “I can’t explain how much of an impression they left on me that night, you know.” Then he suddenly asked Hyacinth, without much relevance, “So, you’re just going to stay for the winter, huh?” Our young man stared, wondering what other plan anyone could assume he had; he couldn’t immediately think that this was exactly the kind of thing the finest whites said to each other when they met after their fashionable gatherings, and that his friend had simply made a momentary mistake. In fact, the Captain quickly recovered: “Oh, of course, you’ve got your work and all that;” and as Hyacinth struggled to down the contents of his big tumbler, he eventually asked him if he had heard anything from the Princess. Hyacinth replied that he had no news except what the Captain could pass along, but he added that he did visit her just before she left town.
“Ah, you did go to see her? That’s quite right—quite right.”
“Ah, you actually went to see her? That’s absolutely right—absolutely right.”
“I went because she very kindly wrote to me to come.”
“I went because she kindly invited me to come.”
“Ah, she wrote to you to come?” The Captain fixed Hyacinth for a moment with his curious colourless eyes. “Do you know you are a devilish privileged mortal?”
“Ah, she wrote to you to come?” The Captain looked at Hyacinth for a moment with his strangely pale eyes. “Do you realize you’re a pretty lucky person?”
“Certainly, I know that.” Hyacinth blushed and felt foolish; the bar-maid, who had heard this odd couple talking about a princess, was staring at him too, with her elbows on the counter.
“Of course, I know that.” Hyacinth blushed and felt embarrassed; the barmaid, who had overheard this strange couple talking about a princess, was also staring at him, with her elbows resting on the counter.
“Do you know there are people who would give their heads that she should write to them to come?”
“Do you know there are people who would do anything just to get her to write to them to come?”
“I have no doubt of it whatever!” Hyacinth exclaimed, taking refuge in a laugh which did not sound as natural as he would have liked, and wondering whether his interlocutor were not precisely one of these people. In this case the bar-maid might well stare; for deeply convinced as our young man might be that he was the son of Lord Frederick Purvis, there was really no end to the oddity of his being preferred—and by a princess—to Captain Sholto. If anything could have reinforced, at that moment, his sense of this anomaly, it would have been the indescribably gentlemanly way, implying all sorts of common initiations, in which his companion went on—
“I have no doubt about it at all!” Hyacinth said, laughing in a way that didn’t come off as genuine as he wished and thinking about whether his conversation partner might be one of those people. In that case, the bar-maid would certainly be surprised; because even though this young man was convinced he was the son of Lord Frederick Purvis, it was still incredibly odd that he was preferred—and by a princess—to Captain Sholto. If anything could have made him more aware of this strange situation at that moment, it would have been the undeniably refined way, suggesting all kinds of shared experiences, that his companion continued on—
“Ah, well, I see you know how to take it! And if you are in correspondence with her why do you say that you can hear from her only through me? My dear fellow, I am not in correspondence with her. You might think I would naturally be, but I am not.” He subjoined, as Hyacinth had laughed again, in a manner that might have passed for ambiguous, “So much the worse for me—is that what you mean?” Hyacinth replied that he himself had had the honour of hearing from the Princess only once, and he mentioned that she had told him that her letter-writing came only in fits, when it was sometimes very profuse: there were months together that she didn’t touch a pen. “Oh, I can imagine what she told you!” the Captain exclaimed. “Look out for the next fit! She is visiting about. It’s a great thing to be in the same house with her—an immense comedy.” He remarked that he had heard, now he remembered, that she either had taken, or was thinking of taking, a house in the country for a few months, and he added that if Hyacinth didn’t propose to finish his brandy and soda they might as well turn out. Hyacinth’s thirst had been very superficial, and as they turned out the Captain observed, by way of explanation of his having been found in a public-house (it was the only attempt of this kind he made), that any friend of his would always know him by his love of curious out-of-the-way nooks. “You must have noticed that,” he said—“my taste for exploration. If I hadn’t explored I never should have known you, should I? That was rather a nice little girl in there; did you twig her figure? It’s a pity they always have such beastly hands.” Hyacinth, instinctively, had made a motion to go southward, but Sholto, passing a hand into his arm, led him the other way. The house they had quitted was near a corner, which they rounded, the Captain pushing forward as if there were some reason for haste. His haste was checked, however, by an immediate collision with a young woman who, coming in the opposite direction, turned the angle as briskly as themselves. At this moment the Captain gave Hyacinth a great jerk, but not before he had caught a glimpse of the young woman’s face—it seemed to flash upon him out of the dusk—and given quick voice to his surprise.
“Ah, well, I see you know how to handle it! And if you’re in touch with her, why do you say you can only hear from her through me? My dear friend, I'm not in touch with her. You might think I would be, but I'm not.” He added, as Hyacinth laughed again in a way that could have been taken variously, “So much the worse for me—is that what you mean?” Hyacinth replied that he himself had only had the honor of hearing from the Princess once, mentioning that she had told him her letter-writing came in bursts, sometimes very profusely: there were months when she didn’t write at all. “Oh, I can imagine what she told you!” the Captain exclaimed. “Watch out for the next burst! She’s visiting around. It’s a big deal to be in the same house with her—an immense comedy.” He noted that he had heard, now that he remembered, that she either had taken or was considering renting a house in the countryside for a few months, and he added that if Hyacinth didn’t plan to finish his brandy and soda, they might as well leave. Hyacinth had only a mild thirst, and as they stepped out, the Captain explained why he had been found in a pub (it was the only attempt he made to justify himself), saying that any friend of his would know him by his love for quirky, off-the-beaten-path spots. “You must have noticed that,” he said—“my taste for exploration. If I hadn’t explored, I never would have met you, right? That was a rather nice girl in there; did you see her figure? It’s a shame they always have such awful hands.” Hyacinth instinctively moved to head south, but Sholto, linking his arm with Hyacinth's, led him the other way. The pub they had just left was near a corner, which they rounded, the Captain pushing ahead as if there was some reason to hurry. However, his haste was interrupted by a sudden collision with a young woman who, coming from the opposite direction, rounded the corner just as briskly as they did. At that moment, the Captain gave Hyacinth a strong tug, but not before he caught a glimpse of the young woman’s face—it seemed to appear out of the gloom—and voiced his surprise.
“Hallo, Millicent!” This was the simple cry that escaped from his lips, while the Captain, still going on, inquired, “What’s the matter? Who’s your pretty friend?” Hyacinth declined to go on, and repeated Miss Henning’s baptismal name so loudly that the young woman, who had passed them without looking back, was obliged to stop. Then Hyacinth saw that he was not mistaken, though Millicent gave no audible response. She stood looking at him, with her head very high, and he approached her, disengaging himself from Sholto, who however hung back only an instant before joining them. Hyacinth’s heart had suddenly begun to beat very fast; there was a sharp shock in the girl’s turning up just in that place at that moment. Yet when she began to laugh, abruptly, with violence, and to ask him why he was looking at her as if she were a kicking horse, he recognised that there was nothing so very extraordinary, after all, in a casual meeting between persons who were such frequenters of the London streets. Millicent had never concealed the fact that she ‘trotted about’, on various errands, at night; and once, when he had said to her that the less a respectable young woman took the evening air alone the better for her respectability, she had asked how respectable he thought she pretended to be, and had remarked that if he would make her a present of a brougham, or even call for her three or four times a week in a cab, she would doubtless preserve more of her social purity. She could turn the tables quickly enough, and she exclaimed, now, professing, on her own side, great astonishment—
“Hey, Millicent!” This was the simple shout that slipped from his lips, while the Captain, still moving forward, asked, “What’s going on? Who’s your pretty friend?” Hyacinth chose not to continue and said Miss Henning’s name so loudly that the young woman, who had walked past them without looking back, had to stop. Then Hyacinth realized he wasn’t mistaken, even though Millicent didn’t reply out loud. She stood there looking at him, her head held high, and he approached her, pulling away from Sholto, who only hesitated for a moment before joining them. Hyacinth’s heart suddenly started pounding fast; there was a jolt in seeing her show up right there at that moment. But when she started laughing abruptly and asked him why he looked at her like she was a restless horse, he recognized that there was nothing so unusual, after all, about a random encounter between people who often roamed the streets of London. Millicent had never hidden that she 'roamed about' at night for various errands, and once, when he told her that a respectable young woman should avoid being out alone at night, she asked how respectable he thought she was pretending to be and remarked that if he gifted her a carriage, or even called for her a few times a week in a cab, she’d probably keep more of her social integrity. She could turn things around quickly enough, and now she exclaimed, professing her own great surprise—
“What are you prowling about here for? You’re after no good, I’ll be bound!”
"What are you wandering around here for? You’re up to no good, I’m sure!"
“Good evening, Miss Henning; what a jolly meeting!” said the Captain, removing his hat with a humorous flourish.
“Good evening, Miss Henning; what a great meeting!” said the Captain, taking off his hat with a playful gesture.
“Oh, how d’ye do?” Millicent returned, as if she did not immediately place him.
“Oh, how do you do?” Millicent replied, as if she didn't recognize him right away.
“Where were you going so fast? What are you doing?” asked Hyacinth, who had looked from one to the other.
“Where are you rushing off to? What are you up to?” asked Hyacinth, who had glanced from one person to the other.
“Well, I never did see such a manner—from one that knocks about like you!” cried Miss Henning. “I’m going to see a friend of mine—a lady’s-maid in Curzon Street. Have you anything to say to that?”
“Well, I’ve never seen anything like it—from someone who acts like you!” exclaimed Miss Henning. “I’m off to visit a friend of mine—a lady’s maid on Curzon Street. Got anything to say about that?”
“Don’t tell us—don’t tell us!” Sholto interposed, after she had spoken (she had not hesitated an instant). “I, at least, disavow the indiscretion. Where may not a charming woman be going when she trips with a light foot through the gathering dusk?”
“Don’t tell us—don’t tell us!” Sholto interrupted after she spoke (she didn’t hesitate for a moment). “I, at least, reject the indiscretion. Where can a charming woman be going when she walks lightly through the gathering dusk?”
“I say, what are you talking about?” the girl inquired, with dignity, of Hyacinth’s companion. She spoke as if with a resentful suspicion that her foot had not really been perceived to be light.
“I say, what are you talking about?” the girl asked, with dignity, of Hyacinth’s companion. She spoke as if she was frustrated and suspicious that her foot hadn’t actually been seen as light.
“On what errand of mercy, of secret tenderness?” the Captain went on, laughing.
“On what mission of kindness, of hidden affection?” the Captain continued, laughing.
“Secret yourself!” cried Millicent. “Do you two always hunt in couples?”
“Keep it to yourself!” shouted Millicent. “Do you two always go hunting together?”
“All right, we’ll turn round and go with you as far as your friend’s,” Hyacinth said.
“All right, we’ll turn around and go with you to your friend’s place,” Hyacinth said.
“All right,” Millicent replied.
“Okay,” Millicent replied.
“All right,” the Captain added; and the three took their way together in the direction of Curzon Street. They walked for a few moments in silence, though the Captain whistled, and then Millicent suddenly turned to Hyacinth—
“All right,” the Captain said, and the three of them started walking toward Curzon Street. They walked for a few moments in silence, although the Captain was whistling, and then Millicent suddenly turned to Hyacinth—
“You haven’t told me where you were going, yet.”
“You still haven’t told me where you were heading.”
“We met in that public-house,” the Captain said, “and we were each so ashamed of being found in such a place by the other that we tumbled out together, without much thinking what we should do with ourselves.”
“We met in that pub,” the Captain said, “and we were each so embarrassed to be caught in such a place by the other that we rushed out together, without really thinking about what we should do next.”
“When he’s out with me he pretends he can’t abide them houses,” Miss Henning declared. “I wish I had looked in that one, to see who was there.”
“When he’s out with me, he pretends he can’t stand those houses,” Miss Henning declared. “I wish I had checked that one to see who was there.”
“Well, she’s rather nice,” the Captain went on. “She told me her name was Georgiana.”
“Well, she’s pretty nice,” the Captain continued. “She told me her name is Georgiana.”
“I went to get a piece of money changed,” Hyacinth said, with a sense that there was a certain dishonesty in the air; glad that he, at least, could afford to speak the truth.
“I went to get some money exchanged,” Hyacinth said, feeling a sense of dishonesty in the air; relieved that he, at least, could afford to be honest.
“To get your grandmother’s nightcap changed! I recommend you to keep your money together—you’ve none too much of it!” Millicent exclaimed.
"To get your grandmother's nightcap changed! I suggest you hold onto your money—you don't have a lot of it!" Millicent exclaimed.
“Is that the reason you are playing me false?” Hyacinth flashed out. He had been thinking, with still intentness, as they walked; at once nursing and wrestling with a kindled suspicion. He was pale with the idea that he was being bamboozled; yet he was able to say to himself that one must allow, in life, for the element of coincidence, and that he might easily put himself immensely in the wrong by making a groundless charge. It was only later that he pieced his impressions together, and saw them—as it appeared—justify each other; at present, as soon as he had uttered it, he was almost ashamed of his quick retort to Millicent’s taunt. He ought at least to have waited to see what Curzon Street would bring forth.
“Is that why you’re playing me for a fool?” Hyacinth shot back. He had been deep in thought as they walked, grappling with a growing suspicion. He felt pale at the thought of being deceived, yet he reminded himself that life often includes coincidences, and he could easily be wrong if he made an unfounded accusation. It wasn't until later that he connected his impressions and saw how they seemed to support each other; at that moment, as soon as he spoke, he almost regretted his quick comeback to Millicent’s tease. He should have at least waited to see what Curzon Street would reveal.
The girl broke out upon him immediately, repeating “False, false?” with high derision, and wanting to know whether that was the way to knock a lady about in public. She had stopped short on the edge of a crossing, and she went on, with a voice so uplifted that he was glad they were in a street that was rather empty at such an hour: “You’re a pretty one to talk about falsity, when a woman has only to leer at you out of an opera-box!”
The girl immediately challenged him, mocking, “False, false?” and asking if that's how you treat a lady in public. She had halted right at the edge of a crosswalk and continued, her voice so loud that he was relieved they were in a street that was kind of empty at that hour: “You’re the last person to talk about being fake when a woman only has to give you a look from an opera box!”
“Don’t say anything about her,” the young man interposed, trembling.
“Don’t say anything about her,” the young man interrupted, shaking.
“And pray why not about ‘her’, I should like to know? You don’t pretend she’s a decent woman, I suppose?” Millicent’s laughter rang through the quiet neighbourhood.
“And why not talk about ‘her’? I’d like to know. You’re not suggesting she’s a decent woman, are you?” Millicent’s laughter echoed through the quiet neighborhood.
“My dear fellow, you know you have been to her,” Captain Sholto remarked, smiling.
“My dear friend, you know you have been to her,” Captain Sholto said with a smile.
Hyacinth turned upon him, staring, at once challenged and baffled by his ambiguous part in an incident it was doubtless possible to magnify but it was not possible to treat as perfectly simple. “Certainly, I have been to the Princess Casamassima, thanks to you. When you came and begged me, when you dragged me, do you make it a reproach? Who the devil are you, any way, and what do you want of me?” our hero cried—his mind flooded in a moment with everything in the Captain that had puzzled him and eluded him. This swelling tide obliterated on the spot everything that had entertained and gratified him.
Hyacinth turned to him, staring, both challenged and confused by his unclear role in an incident that could easily be exaggerated, but couldn't be seen as completely straightforward. “Of course, I've been to see Princess Casamassima, thanks to you. When you came and begged me, when you dragged me there, do you want to make that a complaint? Who the hell are you anyway, and what do you want from me?” our hero exclaimed—his mind suddenly flooded with everything about the Captain that had puzzled and evaded him. This overwhelming tide erased everything that had entertained and satisfied him moments before.
“My dear fellow, whatever I am, I am not an ass,” this gentleman replied, with imperturbable good-humour. “I don’t reproach you with anything. I only wanted to put in a word as a peacemaker. My good friends—my good friends,” and he laid a hand, in his practised way, on Hyacinth’s shoulder, while, with the other pressed to his heart, he bent on the girl a face of gallantry which had something paternal in it, “I am determined this absurd misunderstanding shall end as lovers’ quarrels ought always to end.”
“My dear friend, no matter what you think of me, I am definitely not a fool,” this gentleman replied, with unshakeable good humor. “I’m not blaming you for anything. I just wanted to step in as a mediator. My dear friends—my dear friends,” and he placed a hand, in his usual manner, on Hyacinth’s shoulder, while with the other hand pressed to his heart, he gave the girl a gallant look that had a somewhat fatherly vibe, “I am determined that this ridiculous misunderstanding will resolve like all lovers’ quarrels should.”
Hyacinth withdrew himself from the Captain’s touch and said to Millicent, “You are not really jealous of—of any one. You pretend that, only to throw dust in my eyes.”
Hyacinth pulled away from the Captain’s touch and said to Millicent, “You’re not actually jealous of anyone. You’re just pretending that to throw me off.”
To this sally Miss Henning returned him an answer which promised to be lively, but the Captain swept it away in the profusion of his protests. He pronounced them a dear delightful, abominable young couple; he declared it was most interesting to see how, in people of their sort, the passions lay near the surface; he almost pushed them into each other’s arms; and he wound up by proposing that they should all terminate their little differences by proceeding together to the Pavilion music-hall, the nearest place of entertainment in that neighbourhood, leaving the lady’s-maid in Curzon Street to dress her mistress’s wig in peace. He has been presented to the reader as an accomplished man, and it will doubtless be felt that the picture is justified when I relate that he placed this idea in so attractive a light that his companions finally entered a hansom with him and rattled toward the haunt of pleasure, Hyacinth sandwiched, on the edge of the seat, between the others. Two or three times his ears burned; he felt that if there was an understanding between them they had now, behind him, a rare opportunity for carrying it out. If it was at his expense, the whole evening constituted for them, indeed, an opportunity, and this thought rendered his diversion but scantily absorbing, though at the Pavilion the Captain engaged a private box and ordered ices to be brought in. Hyacinth cared so little for his little pink pyramid that he suffered Millicent to consume it after she had disposed of her own. It was present to him, however, that if he should make a fool of himself the folly would be of a very gross kind, and this is why he withheld a question which rose to his lips repeatedly—a disposition to inquire of his entertainer why the mischief he had hurried him so out of the public-house, if he had not been waiting there, preconcertedly, for Millicent. We know that in Hyacinth’s eyes one of this young lady’s compensatory merits had been that she was not deceitful, and he asked himself if a girl could change, that way, from one month to the other. This was optimistic, but, all the same, he reflected, before leaving the Pavilion, that he could see quite well what Lady Aurora meant by thinking Captain Sholto vulgar.
To this comment, Miss Henning gave a response that seemed promising, but the Captain brushed it aside with his many protests. He called them a charmingly horrible young couple and found it fascinating how strongly the emotions were displayed in people like them. He nearly pushed them into each other's arms and suggested they resolve their little disputes by heading to the Pavilion music-hall, the closest entertainment spot around, leaving the lady’s maid in Curzon Street to calmly style her mistress's wig. The Captain has been introduced as a cultured man, and it will surely be seen as justified when I mention he presented this idea in such an appealing way that his companions eventually got into a cab with him and headed off to the place of fun, with Hyacinth squeezed between the two of them on the edge of the seat. A couple of times his ears burned; he sensed that if there was a mutual understanding between them, they had an excellent chance to act on it behind him. If that was at his expense, the whole evening indeed provided them with an opportunity, and this realization made his entertainment somewhat less engaging, even though at the Pavilion the Captain booked a private box and ordered ices to be served. Hyacinth couldn’t care less about his little pink dessert, allowing Millicent to finish it after she had eaten her own. However, he was aware that if he made a fool of himself, it would be quite evident, which is why he held back a question that kept popping in his mind—a desire to ask his host why he had rushed him out of the pub if he hadn't been there, previously set up for Millicent. Hyacinth believed one of that young lady’s redeeming qualities was her honesty, and he wondered if a girl could really change like that from one month to the next. This was a hopeful thought, but still, he reflected, before leaving the Pavilion, that he understood perfectly why Lady Aurora found Captain Sholto rude.
XXI
Paul Muniment had fits of silence, while the others were talking; but on this occasion he had not opened his lips for half an hour. When he talked Hyacinth listened, almost holding his breath; and when he said nothing Hyacinth watched him fixedly, listening to the others only through the medium of his candid countenance. At the ‘Sun and Moon’ Muniment paid very little attention to his young friend, doing nothing that should cause it to be perceived they were particular pals; and Hyacinth even thought, at moments, that he was bored or irritated by the serious manner in which the little bookbinder could not conceal from the world that he regarded him. He wondered whether this were a system, a calculated prudence, on Muniment’s part, or only a manifestation of that superior brutality, latent in his composition, which never had an intention of unkindness but was naturally intolerant of palaver. There was plenty of palaver at the ‘Sun and Moon’; there were nights when a blast of imbecility seemed to blow over the place, and one felt ashamed to be associated with so much insistent ignorance and flat-faced vanity. Then every one, with two or three exceptions, made an ass of himself, thumping the table and repeating over some inane phrase which appeared for the hour to constitute the whole furniture of his mind. There were men who kept saying, “Them was my words in the month of February last, and what I say I stick to—what I say I stick to;” and others who perpetually inquired of the company, “And what the plague am I to do with seventeen shillings—with seventeen shillings? What am I to do with them—will ye tell me that?” an interrogation which, in truth, usually ended by eliciting a ribald reply. There were still others who remarked, to satiety, that if it was not done to-day it would have to be done to-morrow, and several who constantly proclaimed their opinion that the only way was to pull up the Park rails again—just to pluck them straight up. A little shoemaker, with red eyes and a grayish face, whose appearance Hyacinth deplored, scarcely ever expressed himself but in the same form of words: “Well, are we in earnest, or ain’t we in earnest?—that’s the thing I want to know.” He was terribly in earnest himself, but this was almost the only way he had of showing it; and he had much in common (though they were always squabbling) with a large red-faced man, of uncertain attributes and stertorous breathing, who was understood to know a good deal about dogs, had fat hands, and wore on his forefinger a big silver ring, containing some one’s hair—Hyacinth believed it to be that of a terrier, snappish in life. He had always the same refrain: “Well, now, are we just starving, or ain’t we just starving? I should like the ’vice of the company on that question.”
Paul Muniment was often quiet while everyone else was talking, but this time he hadn’t said a word for half an hour. When he spoke, Hyacinth listened intently, nearly holding his breath; and when he was silent, Hyacinth stared at him, only half-listening to others through the expression on his face. At the ‘Sun and Moon,’ Muniment paid little attention to his young friend, doing nothing to show they were close pals; at times, Hyacinth thought he seemed bored or annoyed by how seriously the little bookbinder regarded him. He wondered if this was a strategy or just a sign of the roughness in Muniment's character, which wasn't meant to be unkind but was naturally intolerant of chatter. There was a lot of chatter at the ‘Sun and Moon’; some nights felt full of stupidity, making you embarrassed to be around such persistent ignorance and blatant vanity. Almost everyone, except for a couple of people, made a fool of themselves, banging the table and repeating some stupid phrase that seemed to be the only thing on their mind for the hour. Some kept saying, “Those were my words back in February, and what I say I stick to—what I say I stick to;” while others endlessly asked the group, “What the hell am I supposed to do with seventeen shillings—what am I supposed to do with them—can anyone tell me?” This question usually led to some crude answer. There were still others who kept saying that if it didn’t happen today, it would have to be done tomorrow, and more who constantly declared that the only way to handle things was to pull up the Park rails again—just yank them straight out. A little shoemaker, with red eyes and a grayish face, whose look Hyacinth found unfortunate, rarely said anything except: “Well, are we being serious, or aren’t we?—that’s what I want to know.” He was very serious himself, but this was nearly the only way he could express it; and he had a lot in common (even though they always argued) with a large, red-faced man with an unclear background and heavy breathing, who was thought to know quite a bit about dogs. He had fat hands and wore a big silver ring on his forefinger that contained someone’s hair—Hyacinth believed it was a terrier's, snappy in life. He always had the same line: “Well, now, are we just starving, or aren’t we just starving? I’d like the group’s opinion on that.”
When the tone fell as low as this Paul Muniment held his peace, except that he whistled a little, leaning back, with his hands in his pockets and his eyes on the table. Hyacinth often supposed him to be on the point of breaking out and letting the company know what he thought of them—he had a perfectly clear vision of what he must think; but Muniment never compromised his popularity to that degree: he judged it—this he once told Hyacinth—too valuable an instrument, and cultivated the faculty of patience, which had the advantage of showing one more and more that one must do one’s thinking for one’s self. His popularity, indeed, struck Hyacinth as rather an uncertain quantity, and the only mistake he had seen a symptom of on his friend’s part was a tendency to overestimate it. Muniment thought many of their colleagues asinine, but it was Hyacinth’s belief that he himself knew still better how asinine they were; and this inadequate conception supported, in some degree, on Paul’s part, his theory of his influence—an influence that would be stronger than any other on the day he should choose to exert it. Hyacinth only wished that day would come; it would not be till then, he was sure, that they would all know where they were, and that the good they were striving for, blindly, obstructedly, in a kind of eternal dirty intellectual fog, would pass from the stage of crude discussion and mere sharp, tantalising desirableness into that of irresistible reality. Muniment was listened to unanimously, when he spoke, and was much talked about, usually with a knowing, implicit allusiveness, when he was absent; it was generally admitted that he could see further than most. But it was suspected that he wanted to see further than was necessary; as one of the most inveterate frequenters of the club remarked one evening, if a man could see as far as he could chuck a brick, that was far enough. There was an idea that he had nothing particular to complain of, personally, or that if he had he didn’t complain of it—an attitude which perhaps contained the germs of a latent disaffection. Hyacinth could easily see that he himself was exposed to the same imputation, but he couldn’t help it; it would have been impossible to him to keep up his character for sincerity by revealing, at the ‘Sun and Moon’, the condition of his wardrobe, or announcing that he had not had a pennyworth of bacon for six months. There were members of the club who were apparently always in the enjoyment of involuntary leisure—narrating the vainest peregrinations in search of a job, the cruelest rebuffs, the most vivid anecdotes of the insolence of office. They made Hyacinth uncomfortably conscious, at times, that if he should be out of work it would be wholly by his own fault; that he had in his hand a bread-winning tool on which he might absolutely count. He was also aware, however, that his position in this little band of malcontents (it was little only if measured by the numbers that were gathered together on any one occasion; he liked to think it was large in its latent possibilities, its mysterious ramifications and affiliations) was peculiar and distinguished; it would be favourable if he had the kind of energy and assurance that would help him to make use of it. He had an intimate conviction—the proof of it was in the air, in the sensible facility of his footing at the ‘Sun and Moon’—that Eustache Poupin had taken upon himself to disseminate the anecdote of his origin, of his mother’s disaster; in consequence of which, as the victim of social infamy, of heinous laws, it was conceded to him that he had a larger account to settle even than most. He was ab ovo a revolutionist, and that balanced against his smart neckties, a certain suspicious security that was perceived in him as to the h (he had had from his earliest years a natural command of it), and the fact that he possessed the sort of hand on which there is always a premium—an accident somehow to be guarded against in a thorough-going system of equality. He never challenged Poupin on the subject, for he owed the Frenchman too much to reproach him with any officious step that was meant in kindness; and moreover his fellow-labourer at old Crookenden’s had said to him, as if to anticipate such an impugnment of his discretion, “Remember, my child, that I am incapable of drawing aside any veil that you may have preferred to drop over your lacerated personality. Your moral dignity will always be safe with me. But remember at the same time that among the disinherited there is a mystic language which dispenses with proofs—a freemasonry, a reciprocal divination; they understand each other with half a word.” It was with half a word, then, in Bloomsbury, that Hyacinth had been understood; but there was a certain delicacy within him that forbade him to push his advantage, to treat implications of sympathy, none the less definite for being roundabout, as steps in the ladder of success. He had no wish to be a leader because his mother had murdered her lover and died in penal servitude: these circumstances recommended intentness but they also suggested modesty. When the gathering at the ‘Sun and Moon’ was at its best, and its temper seemed really an earnest of what was the basis of all its calculations—that the people was only a sleeping lion, already breathing shorter and beginning to stretch its limbs—at these hours, some of them thrilling enough, Hyacinth waited for the voice that should allot to him the particular part he was to play. His ambition was to play it with brilliancy, to offer an example—an example, even, that might survive him—of pure youthful, almost juvenile, consecration. He was conscious of no commission to give the promises, to assume the responsibilities, of a redeemer, and he had no envy of the man on whom this burden should rest. Muniment, indeed, might carry it, and it was the first article of his faith that to help him to carry it the better he himself was ready for any sacrifice. Then it was—on these nights of intenser vibration—that Hyacinth waited for a sign.
When the mood dropped this low, Paul Muniment kept quiet, only whistling a bit while leaning back with his hands in his pockets and his eyes on the table. Hyacinth often thought he was about to speak out and let everyone know what he really thought of them—he had a perfectly clear idea of what that was. But Muniment never risked his popularity that much: he believed, as he once told Hyacinth, that it was too important a tool to compromise, so he practiced patience, which had the benefit of showing him more and more that he had to think for himself. His popularity actually struck Hyacinth as somewhat shaky, and the only flaw he noticed in his friend was a tendency to overvalue it. Muniment thought many of their colleagues were foolish, but Hyacinth believed he himself understood just how foolish they really were; this flawed perception supported, to some extent, Paul’s idea of his own influence—an influence that would be greater than any other if he ever chose to use it. Hyacinth just wished that day would come; he was sure that only then would everyone realize where they stood, and that the good they were blindly and awkwardly trying to achieve in a constant fog of confusion would shift from mere discussion and tantalizing desire to solid reality. Muniment was listened to with unanimous attention when he spoke and was often discussed, usually in a knowing, indirect manner, when he wasn’t there; it was generally accepted that he had a broader vision than most. But some suspected that he wanted to see more than was necessary; as one of the club's regulars remarked one evening, if a man could see as far as he could throw a brick, that was far enough. There was a sense that he had nothing specific to complain about personally, or if he did, he kept it to himself—an attitude that perhaps hinted at a hidden dissatisfaction. Hyacinth realized he was susceptible to the same judgment, but there was little he could do about it; he couldn’t maintain his image of honesty by revealing, at the ‘Sun and Moon,’ the state of his wardrobe or admitting that he hadn’t had a bite of bacon for six months. Some club members seemed to always enjoy unintentional leisure, sharing tales of their fruitless job hunts, harsh rejections, and the most vivid anecdotes of managerial arrogance. They made Hyacinth acutely aware that if he found himself out of work, it would be entirely his fault; he held a money-making skill he could rely on. However, he also knew that his standing among this little group of discontent (it seemed small only when considering the numbers present at any given time; he liked to think it was large in its untapped potential and mysterious connections) was unique and notable; it would be beneficial if he had the kind of energy and confidence needed to make the most of it. He had a strong belief—evidenced in the atmosphere and how easily he fit in at the ‘Sun and Moon’—that Eustache Poupin had shared the story of his origins, about his mother’s misfortune; because of this, as someone marked by social shame and unjust laws, he was acknowledged to have even more to resolve than most. He was a revolutionary from the start, which contrasted with his stylish ties, a certain dubious comfort noticed in his demeanor about the ‘h’ (he had always naturally mastered it), and the fact that he had the kind of appearance that was always in demand—something to be careful about in a thorough equality system. He never confronted Poupin about it because he owed him too much to criticize any well-meaning intervention; besides, his fellow worker at the old Crookenden’s had told him, anticipating any challenge to his judgment, “Remember, my child, that I won’t reveal anything you’d prefer to keep private about your troubled past. Your moral dignity will always be protected with me. But also remember that among the dispossessed, there exists a secret language that needs no evidence—a form of brotherhood and mutual understanding; they can communicate with just half a word.” It was with just half a word that Hyacinth had been understood in Bloomsbury; yet there was a certain sensitivity within him that held him back from exploiting this understanding, from treating hints of sympathy, though indirect, as steps toward success. He had no desire to be a leader simply because his mother had killed her lover and died in prison; these facts called for focus but also implied modesty. When the gathering at the ‘Sun and Moon’ was at its peak, and its vibe truly reflected the thought that the people were just a sleeping lion, already breathing shorter and starting to stretch, during these vibrant times, Hyacinth waited to hear what role he was meant to play. His ambition was to shine in that role, to provide an example—an example, even, that might outlast him—of pure youthful dedication. He felt no obligation to make promises, to take on the responsibilities, of a savior, nor did he envy the one that would carry that burden. Muniment could carry it, and Hyacinth was fully willing to make any sacrifice to help him do so. That was when—on these nights of heightened sentiment—Hyacinth waited for a sign.
They came oftener, this second winter, for the season was terribly hard; and as in that lower world one walked with one’s ear nearer the ground, the deep perpetual groan of London misery seemed to swell and swell and form the whole undertone of life. The filthy air came into the place in the damp coats of silent men, and hung there till it was brewed to a nauseous warmth, and ugly, serious faces squared themselves through it, and strong-smelling pipes contributed their element in a fierce, dogged manner which appeared to say that it now had to stand for everything—for bread and meat and beer, for shoes and blankets and the poor things at the pawnbroker’s and the smokeless chimney at home. Hyacinth’s colleagues seemed to him wiser then, and more permeated with intentions boding ill to the satisfied classes; and though the note of popularity was still most effectively struck by the man who could demand oftenest, unpractically, “What the plague am I to do with seventeen shillings?” it was brought home to our hero on more than one occasion that revolution was ripe at last. This was especially the case on the evening I began by referring to, when Eustache Poupin squeezed in and announced, as if it were a great piece of news, that in the east of London, that night, there were forty thousand men out of work. He looked round the circle with his dilated foreign eye, as he took his place; he seemed to address the company individually as well as collectively, and to make each man responsible for hearing him. He owed his position at the ‘Sun and Moon’ to the brilliancy with which he represented the political exile, the magnanimous immaculate citizen wrenched out of bed at dead of night, torn from his hearthstone, his loved ones and his profession, and hurried across the frontier with only the coat on his back. Poupin had performed in this character now for many years, but he had never lost the bloom of the outraged proscript, and the passionate pictures he had often drawn of the bitterness of exile were moving even to those who knew with what success he had set up his household gods in Lisson Grove. He was recognised as suffering everything for his opinions; and his hearers in Bloomsbury—who, after all, even in their most concentrated hours, were very good-natured—appeared never to have made the subtle reflection, though they made many others, that there was a want of tact in his calling upon them to sympathise with him for being one of themselves. He imposed himself by the eloquence of his assumption that if one were not in the beautiful France one was nowhere worth speaking of, and ended by producing an impression that that country had an almost supernatural charm. Muniment had once said to Hyacinth that he was sure Poupin would be very sorry if he should be enabled to go home again (as he might, from one week to the other, the Republic being so indulgent and the amnesty to the Communards constantly extended), for over there he couldn’t be a refugee; and however this might be he certainly flourished a good deal in London on the basis of this very fact that he was miserable there.
They came more often that second winter because the season was incredibly tough; and just like in that lower world, where you walked with your ear closer to the ground, the deep, constant groan of London’s suffering seemed to grow and become the backdrop of life. The filthy air entered the place on the damp coats of silent men and lingered until it became an unpleasant warmth. Serious, grim faces pushed through it, and strong-smelling pipes added their share in a fierce, stubborn way that suggested they had to represent everything—food, drink, warm clothes, and the poor items at the pawnshop and the smoke-free chimney back home. Hyacinth thought his co-workers seemed wiser then and more filled with thoughts that pointed to trouble for the satisfied classes; although the note of popularity was still most clearly struck by the man who could often, if impractically, ask, “What the heck am I supposed to do with seventeen shillings?” it was made clear to our hero more than once that revolution was finally in the air. This was especially true that evening I mentioned at the start, when Eustache Poupin squeezed in and announced, as if it were breaking news, that forty thousand men were out of work in East London that night. He looked around the circle with his wide foreign eyes as he took his place; he seemed to address each person individually and collectively, making each man responsible for hearing him. He owed his position at the ‘Sun and Moon’ to the flashiness with which he represented the political exile, the noble, flawless citizen wrenched out of bed in the dead of night, torn from his home, his loved ones, and his job, and hurried across the border with just the coat on his back. Poupin had played this role for many years, but he never lost the intensity of the aggrieved exile, and the passionate stories he often told about the bitterness of being exiled moved even those who knew how successfully he had built his new life in Lisson Grove. He was seen as suffering everything for his beliefs; and his listeners in Bloomsbury—who, after all, even in their most focused moments, were quite good-natured—seemed never to have made the subtle realization, even though they made many others, that there was something tactless about his calling on them to sympathize with him for being one of them. He impressed them with the eloquence of his belief that if one was not in beautiful France, they weren't worth mentioning, and he ended up creating an impression that that country had an almost magical charm. Muniment had once told Hyacinth that he was sure Poupin would be very sorry if he were ever able to go home again (which could happen at any moment, as the Republic was so forgiving and the amnesty for the Communards was constantly extended), because over there he wouldn’t be a refugee; and however true that might be, he certainly thrived a lot in London based on the very fact that he was miserable there.
“Why do you tell us that, as if it was so very striking? Don’t we know it, and haven’t we known it always? But you are right; we behave as if we knew nothing at all,” said Mr Schinkel, the German cabinet-maker, who had originally introduced Captain Sholto to the ‘Sun and Moon’. He had a long, unhealthy, benevolent face and greasy hair, and constantly wore a kind of untidy bandage round his neck, as if for a local ailment. “You remind us—that is very well; but we shall forget it in half an hour. We are not serious.”
“Why are you telling us that, like it’s some huge revelation? Don’t we already know it, and haven’t we always known it? But you’re right; we act as if we don’t know anything at all,” said Mr. Schinkel, the German cabinet-maker, who had first introduced Captain Sholto to the ‘Sun and Moon’. He had a long, unhealthy-looking face and greasy hair, and he always wore a sort of messy bandage around his neck, as if he had a local issue. “You remind us—that’s great; but we’ll forget it in half an hour. We’re not serious.”
“Pardon, pardon; for myself, I do not admit that!” Poupin replied, striking the table with his finger-tips several times, very fast. “If I am not serious, I am nothing.”
“Pardon, pardon; as for me, I can't accept that!” Poupin replied, tapping the table with his fingertips quickly several times. “If I’m not serious, I’m nothing.”
“Oh no, you are something,” said the German, smoking his monumental pipe with a contemplative air. “We are all something; but I am not sure it is anything very useful.”
“Oh no, you’re something,” said the German, smoking his giant pipe with a thoughtful look. “We’re all something; but I’m not sure it’s anything very useful.”
“Well, things would be worse without us. I’d rather be in here, in this kind of muck, than outside,” remarked the fat man who understood dogs.
“Well, things would be worse without us. I’d rather be in here, in this kind of mess, than outside,” said the fat man who understood dogs.
“Certainly, it is very pleasant, especially if you have your beer; but not so pleasant in the east, where fifty thousand people starve. It is a very unpleasant night,” the cabinet-maker went on.
“Sure, it’s really nice, especially if you have your beer; but it’s not as nice in the east, where fifty thousand people are starving. It’s a really unpleasant night,” the cabinet-maker continued.
“How can it be worse?” Eustache Poupin inquired, looking defiantly at the German, as if to make him responsible for the fat man’s reflection. “It is so bad that the imagination recoils, refuses.”
“How can it be worse?” Eustache Poupin asked, staring defiantly at the German, as if to hold him accountable for the fat man’s thoughts. “It’s so bad that the imagination pulls back, refuses.”
“Oh, we don’t care for the imagination!” the fat man declared. “We want a compact body, in marching order.”
“Oh, we don’t care about imagination!” the fat man said. “We want a solid body, ready to go.”
“What do you call a compact body?” the little gray-faced shoemaker demanded. “I dare say you don’t mean your kind of body.”
“What do you call a compact body?” the little gray-faced shoemaker asked. “I assume you don’t mean your type of body.”
“Well, I know what I mean,” said the fat man, severely.
“Well, I know what I mean,” said the overweight man, sternly.
“That’s a grand thing. Perhaps one of these days you’ll tell us.”
“That’s awesome. Maybe one of these days you’ll share it with us.”
“You’ll see it for yourself, perhaps, before that day comes,” the gentleman with the silver ring rejoined. “Perhaps when you do, you’ll remember.”
“You might see it for yourself, maybe, before that day arrives,” the guy with the silver ring replied. “Maybe when you do, you’ll remember.”
“Well, you know, Schinkel says we don’t,” said the shoemaker, nodding at the cloud-compelling German.
“Well, you know, Schinkel says we don’t,” said the shoemaker, nodding at the cloud-summoning German.
“I don’t care what no man says!” the dog-fancier exclaimed, gazing straight before him.
“I don’t care what anyone says!” the dog-lover exclaimed, looking straight ahead.
“They say it’s a bad year—the blockheads in the newspapers,” Mr Schinkel went on, addressing himself to the company at large. “They say that on purpose—to convey the impression that there are such things as good years. I ask the company, has any gentleman present ever happened to notice that article? The good year is yet to come: it might begin to-night, if we like; it all depends on our being able to be serious for a few hours. But that is too much to expect. Mr Muniment is very serious; he looks as if he were waiting for the signal; but he doesn’t speak—he never speaks, if I want particularly to hear him. He only considers, very deeply, I am sure. But it is almost as bad to think without speaking as to speak without thinking.”
“They say it’s a rough year—the idiots in the newspapers,” Mr. Schinkel continued, addressing everyone in the room. “They say that on purpose—to give the impression that there are such things as good years. I ask everyone here, has anyone ever noticed that article? The good year is yet to come: it could start tonight, if we want it to; it all depends on whether we can be serious for a few hours. But that’s too much to expect. Mr. Muniment is very serious; he looks like he’s waiting for a signal; but he doesn’t speak—he never speaks when I particularly want to hear him. He just thinks, very deeply, I'm sure. But it’s almost as bad to think without speaking as it is to speak without thinking.”
Hyacinth always admired the cool, easy way in which Muniment comported himself when the attention of the public was directed towards him. These manifestations of curiosity, or of hostility, would have put him out immensely, himself. When a lot of people, especially the kind of people who were collected at the ‘Sun and Moon’, looked at him, or listened to him, at once, he always blushed and stammered, feeling that if he couldn’t have a million of spectators (which would have been inspiring) he should prefer to have but two or three; there was something very embarrassing in twenty.
Hyacinth always admired how relaxed and composed Muniment was when the public's attention was on him. The curiosity or hostility from others would have made him extremely uncomfortable. Whenever a crowd, especially the type of crowd that gathered at the ‘Sun and Moon,’ stared at him or listened, he would blush and stammer, feeling that if he couldn’t have a million spectators (which would have been exhilarating), he’d rather just have two or three; there was something really awkward about twenty.
Muniment smiled, for an instant, good-humouredly; then, after a moment’s hesitation, looking across at the German, and the German only, as if his remark were worth noticing, but it didn’t matter if the others didn’t understand the reply, he said simply, “Hoffendahl’s in London.”
Muniment smiled good-naturedly for a moment; then, after a brief pause, he looked at the German, and the German only, as if his comment was the only one worth acknowledging, but it didn’t matter if the others didn’t get the response. He said simply, “Hoffendahl’s in London.”
“Hoffendahl? Gott in Himmel!” the cabinet-maker exclaimed, taking the pipe out of his mouth. And the two men exchanged a longish glance. Then Mr Schinkel remarked, “That surprises me, sehr. Are you very sure?”
“Hoffendahl? God in heaven!” the cabinet-maker exclaimed, taking the pipe out of his mouth. The two men shared a long look. Then Mr. Schinkel said, “That surprises me, very. Are you really sure?”
Muniment continued, for a moment, to look at him. “If I keep quiet for half an hour, with so many valuable suggestions flying all round me, you think I say too little. Then if I open my head to give out three words, you appear to think I say too much.”
Muniment continued, for a moment, to look at him. “If I stay quiet for half an hour, while so many valuable suggestions are being thrown around me, you think I say too little. Then if I say just a few words, you seem to think I say too much.”
“Ah, no; on the contrary, I want you to say three more. If you tell me you have seen him I shall be perfectly satisfied.”
“Ah, no; actually, I want you to say three more. If you tell me you’ve seen him, I’ll be completely satisfied.”
“Upon my word, I should hope so! Do you think he’s the kind of party a fellow says he has seen?”
“Honestly, I really hope so! Do you think he's the type of guy someone claims to have met?”
“Yes, when he hasn’t!” said Eustache Poupin, who had been listening. Every one was listening now.
“Yes, when he hasn’t!” said Eustache Poupin, who had been listening. Everyone was listening now.
“It depends on the fellow he says it to. Not even here?” the German asked.
“It depends on who he’s saying it to. Not even here?” the German asked.
“Oh, here!” Paul Muniment exclaimed, in a peculiar tone, and resumed his muffled whistle again.
“Oh, here!” Paul Muniment said, in a strange tone, and started his muffled whistle again.
“Take care—take care; you will make me think you haven’t!” cried Poupin, with his excited expression.
“Be careful—be careful; you’re going to make me think you haven’t!” cried Poupin, with his excited look.
“That’s just what I want,” said Muniment.
“That’s exactly what I want,” said Muniment.
“Nun, I understand,” the cabinet-maker remarked, restoring his pipe to his lips after an interval almost as momentous as the stoppage of a steamer in mid-ocean.
Now, I get it,” the cabinet-maker said, putting his pipe back in his mouth after a pause that felt as significant as a ship halting in the middle of the ocean.
“’Ere, ’ere!” repeated the small shoemaker, indignantly. “I dare say it is as good as the place he came from. He might look in and see what he thinks of it.”
“Here, here!” repeated the small shoemaker, indignantly. “I’m sure it’s just as good as the place he came from. He could drop in and see what he thinks of it.”
“That’s a place you might tell us a little about, now,” the fat man suggested, as if he had been waiting for his chance.
"That's a place you might want to tell us about now," the fat man suggested, as if he had been waiting for his moment.
Before the shoemaker had time to notice this challenge some one inquired, with a hoarse petulance, who the blazes they were talking about; and Mr Schinkel took upon himself to reply that they were talking about a man who hadn’t done what he had done by simply exchanging abstract ideas, however valuable, with his friends in a respectable pot-house.
Before the shoemaker could realize what was happening, someone with a gruff tone asked who the heck they were talking about; and Mr. Schinkel stepped in to say that they were discussing a man who hadn’t achieved what he had by merely trading abstract ideas, no matter how valuable, with his friends at a respectable pub.
“What the devil has he done, then?” some one else demanded; and Muniment replied, quietly, that he had spent twelve years in a Prussian prison, and was consequently still an object of a good deal of interest to the police.
“What the hell has he done, then?” someone else asked; and Muniment replied, calmly, that he had spent twelve years in a Prussian prison, and was therefore still a subject of quite a bit of interest to the police.
“Well, if you call that very useful, I must say I prefer a pot-house!” cried the shoemaker, appealing to all the company and looking, as it appeared to Hyacinth, particularly hideous.
“Well, if you think that’s really useful, I have to say I’d rather have a bar!” the shoemaker shouted, turning to the whole group and looking, as it seemed to Hyacinth, especially ugly.
“Doch, doch, it is useful,” the German remarked, philosophically, among his yellow clouds.
“But, but, it is useful,” the German said, philosophically, among his yellow clouds.
“Do you mean to say you are not prepared for that, yourself?” Muniment inquired of the shoemaker.
“Are you saying you’re not ready for that, yourself?” Muniment asked the shoemaker.
“Prepared for that? I thought we were going to smash that sort of shop altogether; I thought that was the main part of the job.”
“Ready for that? I thought we were going to shut down that kind of shop completely; I thought that was the main part of the job.”
“They will smash best, those who have been inside,” the German declared; “unless, perhaps, they are broken, enervated. But Hoffendahl is not enervated.”
“They will perform the best, those who have been inside,” the German declared; “unless, of course, they are broken or drained. But Hoffendahl is not drained.”
“Ah, no; no smashing, no smashing,” Muniment went on. “We want to keep them standing, and even to build a few more; but the difference will be that we shall put the correct sort in.”
“Ah, no; no breaking things, no breaking things,” Muniment continued. “We want to keep them intact and even build a few more; but the difference will be that we’ll put in the right kind.”
“I take your idea—that Griffin is one of the correct sort,” the fat man remarked, indicating the shoemaker.
“I get what you're saying—that Griffin is one of the good ones,” the fat man said, pointing at the shoemaker.
“I thought we was going to ’ave their ’eads—all that bloomin’ lot!” Mr Griffin declared, protesting; while Eustache Poupin began to enlighten the company as to the great Hoffendahl, one of the purest martyrs of their cause, a man who had been through everything—who had been scarred and branded, tortured, almost flayed, and had never given them the names they wanted to have. Was it possible they didn’t remember that great combined attempt, early in the sixties, which took place in four Continental cities at once and which, in spite of every effort to smother it up—there had been editors and journalists transported even for hinting at it—had done more for the social question than anything before or since? “Through him being served in the manner you describe?” some one asked, with plainness; to which Poupin replied that it was one of those failures that are more glorious than any success. Muniment said that the affair had been only a flash in the pan, but that the great value of it was this—that whereas some forty persons (and of both sexes) had been engaged in it, only one had been seized and had suffered. It had been Hoffendahl himself who was collared. Certainly he had suffered much, he had suffered for every one; but from that point of view—that of the economy of material—the thing had been a rare success.
“I thought we were going to take them all down!” Mr. Griffin declared, protesting, while Eustache Poupin started to fill everyone in about the great Hoffendahl, one of the truest martyrs of their cause. He was a man who had endured everything—scarred and branded, tortured, nearly flayed, and he never revealed the names they wanted. Could they really not remember that major coordinated effort back in the early sixties, which happened in four European cities at once? Despite all attempts to cover it up—there were editors and journalists exiled just for mentioning it—it achieved more for the social cause than anything else before or after. “Did his treatment really contribute to that?” someone asked straightforwardly, to which Poupin answered that it was one of those failures that are more glorious than any success. Muniment commented that the event had been just a flash in the pan, but its true value was that about forty people (from both genders) were involved, yet only one was caught and made to suffer. It was Hoffendahl himself who was arrested. He certainly endured a lot; he suffered for everyone. But from the perspective of resource management, the outcome had been a unique success.
“Do you know what I call the others? I call ’em bloody sneaks!” the fat man cried; and Eustache Poupin, turning to Muniment, expressed the hope that he didn’t really approve of such a solution—didn’t consider that an economy of heroism was an advantage to any cause. He himself esteemed Hoffendahl’s attempt because it had shaken, more than anything—except, of course, the Commune—had shaken it since the French Revolution, the rotten fabric of the actual social order, and because that very fact of the impunity, the invisibility, of the persons concerned in it had given the predatory classes, had given all Europe, a shudder that had not yet subsided; but for his part, he must regret that some of the associates of the devoted victim had not come forward and insisted on sharing with him his tortures and his captivity.
“Do you know what I call the others? I call them bloody sneaks!” the fat man shouted; and Eustache Poupin, turning to Muniment, expressed the hope that he didn’t really back such a solution—didn’t think that cutting back on heroism was beneficial to any cause. He personally valued Hoffendahl’s effort because it had shaken, more than anything—except, of course, the Commune—more than anything since the French Revolution, the rotten structure of the current social order, and because that very fact of the impunity, the invisibility, of the individuals involved had given the predatory classes, had given all of Europe, an unsettling feeling that had yet to fade; but for his part, he regretted that some of the companions of the devoted victim hadn’t come forward and insisted on sharing with him his suffering and captivity.
“C’aurait été d’un bel exemple!” said the Frenchman, with an impressive moderation of statement which made even those who could not understand him see that he was saying something fine; while the cabinet-maker remarked that in Hoffendahl’s place any of them would have stood out just the same. He didn’t care if they set it down to self-love (Mr Schinkel called it ‘loaf’), but he might say that he himself would have done so if he had been trusted and had been bagged.
“That would have been a great example!” said the Frenchman, with a calm way of speaking that made even those who didn’t understand him realize he was saying something important; while the cabinet-maker pointed out that in Hoffendahl’s position, any of them would have reacted the same way. He didn’t mind if they attributed it to self-love (Mr. Schinkel referred to it as ‘loaf’), but he could say that he would have done the same if he had been trusted and had been caught.
“I want to have it all drawn up clear first; then I’ll go in,” said the fat man, who seemed to think it was expected of him to be reassuring.
“I want everything to be laid out clearly first; then I’ll go in,” said the overweight man, who seemed to feel it was his responsibility to be comforting.
“Well, who the dickens is to draw it up, eh? That’s what we happen to be talking about,” returned his antagonist the shoemaker.
“Well, who the heck is going to figure it out, huh? That’s exactly what we’re discussing,” replied his opponent, the shoemaker.
“A fine example, old man? Is that your idea of a fine example?” Muniment, with his amused face, asked of Poupin. “A fine example of asininity! Are there capable people, in such plenty, about the place?”
“A great example, old man? Is that what you consider a great example?” Muniment, with his amused expression, asked Poupin. “A great example of foolishness! Are there really so many capable people around here?”
“Capable of greatness of soul, I grant you not.”
“Sure, I won't say you're capable of greatness of soul.”
“Your greatness of soul is usually greatness of blundering. A man’s foremost duty is not to get collared. If you want to show you’re capable, that’s the way.”
“Your greatness of character often comes from making mistakes. A person's main responsibility is to avoid getting trapped. If you want to prove you’re capable, that’s the way to do it.”
At this Hyacinth suddenly felt himself moved to speak. “But some one must be caught, always, must he not? Hasn’t some one always been?”
At this, Hyacinth suddenly felt the urge to speak. “But someone always has to be caught, right? Hasn’t someone always been?”
“Oh, I dare say you’ll be, if you like it!” Muniment replied, without looking at him. “If they succeed in potting you, do as Hoffendahl did, and do it as a matter of course; but if they don’t, make it your supreme duty, make it your religion, to lie close and keep yourself for another go. The world is full of unclean beasts whom I shall be glad to see shovelled away by the thousand; but when it’s a question of honest men and men of courage, I protest against the idea that two should be sacrificed where one will serve.”
“Oh, I bet you will, if you want to!” Muniment replied, not looking at him. “If they manage to catch you, do what Hoffendahl did and treat it as a routine; but if they don’t, make it your top priority, make it your mission, to stay low and save yourself for another chance. The world is filled with filthy creatures that I would be happy to see cleared out by the thousands; but when it comes to honest men and men of courage, I strongly oppose the idea that two should be sacrificed when one will do.”
“Trop d’arithmétique—trop d’arithmétique! That is fearfully English!” Poupin cried.
“Too much arithmetic—too much arithmetic! That is dreadfully English!” Poupin exclaimed.
“No doubt, no doubt; what else should it be? You shall never share my fate, if I have a fate and I can prevent it!” said Muniment, laughing.
“No doubt, no doubt; what else could it be? You will never share my fate, if I have a fate and I can stop it!” said Muniment, laughing.
Eustache Poupin stared at him and his merriment, as if he thought the English frivolous as well as calculating; then he rejoined, “If I suffer, I trust it may be for suffering humanity, but I trust it may also be for France.”
Eustache Poupin looked at him and his laughter, as if he thought the English were both superficial and shrewd; then he replied, “If I have to endure pain, I hope it’s for the sake of suffering humanity, but I also hope it’s for France.”
“Oh, I hope you ain’t going to suffer any more for France,” said Mr Griffin. “Hasn’t it done that insatiable old country of yours some good, by this time, all you’ve had to put up with?”
“Oh, I hope you’re not going to suffer any more for France,” said Mr. Griffin. “Hasn’t that greedy old country of yours gotten enough out of you by now, considering everything you’ve been through?”
“Well, I want to know what Hoffendahl has come over for; it’s very kind of him, I’m sure. What is he going to do for us?—that’s what I want to know,” remarked in a loud, argumentative tone a personage at the end of the table most distant from Muniment’s place. His name was Delancey, and he gave himself out as holding a position in a manufactory of soda-water; but Hyacinth had a secret belief that he was really a hairdresser—a belief connected with a high, lustrous curl, or crest, which he wore on the summit of his large head, and the manner in which he thrust over his ear, as if it were a barber’s comb, the pencil with which he was careful to take notes of the discussions carried on at the ‘Sun and Moon’. His opinions were distinct and frequently expressed; he had a watery (Muniment had once called it a soda-watery) eye, and a personal aversion to a lord. He desired to change everything except religion, of which he approved.
“Well, I want to know why Hoffendahl is here; it’s really nice of him, I’m sure. What is he going to do for us?—that’s what I want to know,” said a person at the far end of the table away from Muniment’s spot, speaking loudly and arguing. His name was Delancey, and he claimed to work in a soda-water factory; but Hyacinth secretly believed he was actually a hairdresser—a belief that came from the high, shiny curl on top of his large head and the way he pushed a pencil over his ear like a barber’s comb to take notes on the discussions happening at the 'Sun and Moon.' He had clear opinions which he shared often; he had a watery eye (Muniment had once called it soda-watery) and disliked lords. He wanted to change everything except for religion, which he was in favor of.
Muniment answered that he was unable to say, as yet, what the German revolutionist had come to England for, but that he hoped to be able to give some information on the matter the next time they should meet. It was very certain Hoffendahl hadn’t come for nothing, and he would undertake to declare that they would all feel, within a short time, that he had given a lift to the cause they were interested in. He had had a great experience, and they might very well find it useful to consult. If there was a way for them, then and there, he was sure to know the way. “I quite agree with the majority of you—as I take it to be,” Muniment went on, with his fresh, cheerful, reasonable manner—“I quite agree with you that the time has come to settle upon it and to follow it. I quite agree with you that the actual state of things is”—he paused a moment, and then went on in the same pleasant tone—“is hellish.”
Muniment said he couldn't yet say why the German revolutionary had come to England, but he hoped to provide some information the next time they met. It was clear that Hoffendahl hadn’t come for no reason, and he was confident that soon they would all see how he had boosted the cause they cared about. Muniment had considerable experience, and it would likely be helpful to consult him. If there was a way forward, he was sure he would know it. “I completely agree with most of you,” Muniment continued in his upbeat, rational tone, “I totally agree that the time has come to make a decision and act on it. I completely agree that the current situation is”—he paused for a moment, then continued in the same friendly tone—“is terrible.”
These remarks were received with a differing demonstration: some of the company declaring that if the Dutchman cared to come round and smoke a pipe they would be glad to see him—perhaps he’d show where the thumb-screws had been put on; others being strongly of the opinion that they didn’t want any more advice—they had already had advice enough to turn a donkey’s stomach. What they wanted was to put forth their might without any more palaver; to do something, or for some one; to go out somewhere and smash something, on the spot—why not?—that very night. While they sat there and talked, there were about half a million of people in London that didn’t know where the h—— the morrow’s meal was to come from; what they wanted to do, unless they were just a collection of pettifogging old women, was to show them where to get it, to take it to them with heaped-up hands. Hyacinth listened, with a divided attention, to interlaced iterations, while the talk blew hot and cold; there was a genuine emotion, to-night, in the rear of the ‘Sun and Moon’, and he felt the contagion of excited purpose. But he was following a train of his own; he was wondering what Muniment had in reserve (for he was sure he was only playing with the company), and his imagination, quickened by the sense of impending relations with the heroic Hoffendahl and the discussion as to the alternative duty of escaping or of facing one’s fate, had launched itself into possible perils—into the idea of how he might, in a given case, settle for himself that question of paying for the lot. The loud, contradictory, vain, unpractical babble went on about him, but he was definitely conscious only that the project of breaking into the bakers’ shops was well before the assembly and was receiving a vigorous treatment, and that there was likewise a good deal of reference to the butchers and grocers, and even to the fishmongers. He was in a state of inward exaltation; he was seized by an intense desire to stand face to face with the sublime Hoffendahl, to hear his voice, to touch his mutilated hand. He was ready for anything: he knew that he himself was safe to breakfast and dine, poorly but sufficiently, and that his colleagues were perhaps even more crude and clumsy than usual; but a breath of popular passion had passed over him, and he seemed to see, immensely magnified, the monstrosity of the great ulcers and sores of London—the sick, eternal misery crying, in the darkness, in vain, confronted with granaries and treasure-houses and places of delight, where shameless satiety kept guard. In such a mood as this Hyacinth felt that there was no need to consider, to reason: the facts themselves were as imperative as the cry of the drowning; for while pedantry gained time didn’t starvation gain it too? He knew that Muniment disapproved of delay, that he held the day had come for a forcible rectification of horrible inequalities. In the last conversation they had had together his chemical friend had given him a more definite warrant than he had ever done before for numbering him in the party of immediate action, though indeed he remarked on this occasion, once more, that that particular formula which the little bookbinder appeared to have taken such a fancy to was mere gibberish. He hated that sort of pretentious label; it was fit only for politicians and amateurs. None the less he had been as plain as possible on the point that their game must be now to frighten society, and frighten it effectually; to make it believe that the swindled classes were at last fairly in league—had really grasped the idea that, closely combined, they would be irresistible. They were not in league, and they hadn’t in their totality grasped any idea at all—Muniment was not slow to make that equally plain. All the same, society was scareable, and every great scare was a gain for the people. If Hyacinth had needed warrant to-night for a faith that transcended logic, he would have found it in his recollection of this quiet profession; but his friend’s words came back to him mainly to make him wonder what that friend had in his head just now. He took no part in the violence of the talk; he had called Schinkel to come round and sit beside him, and the two appeared to confer together in comfortable absorption, while the brown atmosphere grew denser, the passing to and fro of fire-brands more lively, and the flush of faces more portentous. What Hyacinth would have liked to know most of all was why Muniment had not mentioned to him, first, that Hoffendahl was in London, and that he had seen him; for he had seen him, though he had dodged Schinkel’s question—of that Hyacinth instantly felt sure. He would ask for more information later; and meanwhile he wished, without resentment, but with a certain helpless, patient longing, that Muniment would treat him with a little more confidence. If there were a secret in regard to Hoffendahl (and there evidently was: Muniment, quite rightly, though he had dropped the announcement of his arrival, for a certain effect, had no notion of sharing the rest of what he knew with that raw roomful), if there was something to be silent and devoted about, Hyacinth ardently hoped that to him a chance would be given to show how he could practise this superiority. He felt hot and nervous; he got up suddenly, and, through the dark, tortuous, greasy passage which communicated with the outer world, he went forth into the street. The air was foul and sleety, but it refreshed him, and he stood in front of the public-house and smoked another pipe. Bedraggled figures passed in and out, and a damp, tattered, wretched man, with a spongy, purple face, who had been thrust suddenly across the threshold, stood and whimpered in the brutal blaze of the row of lamps. The puddles glittered roundabout, and the silent vista of the street, bordered with low black houses, stretched away, in the wintry drizzle, to right and left, losing itself in the huge tragic city, where unmeasured misery lurked beneath the dirty night, ominously, monstrously, still, only howling, in its pain, in the heated human cockpit behind him. Ah, what could he do? What opportunity would rise? The blundering, divided counsels he had been listening to only made the helplessness of every one concerned more abject. If he had a definite wish while he stood there it was that that exalted, deluded company should pour itself forth, with Muniment at its head, and surge through the sleeping city, gathering the myriad miserable out of their slums and burrows, and roll into the selfish squares, and lift a tremendous hungry voice, and awaken the gorged indifferent to a terror that would bring them down. Hyacinth lingered a quarter of an hour, but this grand spectacle gave no sign of coming off, and he finally returned to the noisy club-room, in a state of tormented wonder as to what better idea than this very bad one (which seemed to our young man to have at the least the merit that it was an idea) Muniment could be revolving in that too-comprehensive brain of his.
These comments were met with mixed reactions: some in the group said that if the Dutchman wanted to come by and smoke a pipe, they'd be happy to see him—maybe he’d show them where the thumb-screws had been applied; others strongly believed they didn’t want any more advice—they’d already received enough to make a donkey sick. What they wanted was to unleash their strength without any more talk; to take action, or to act for someone; to go out and smash something right then—why not?—that very night. While they talked, there were about half a million people in London who didn’t know where their next meal was coming from; what they needed was not just to be a bunch of petty old women, but to show them where to get it and to bring it to them with open hands. Hyacinth listened with mixed attention to the back-and-forth chatter, as the conversation swung between heated and cool; there was a real emotion tonight in the back of the ‘Sun and Moon’, and he felt the thrill of their excited purpose. But he was following his own thoughts; he wondered what Muniment had planned (he was sure he was just toying with the group), and his imagination, sparked by thoughts of potential relationships with the heroic Hoffendahl and the ongoing debate over whether to flee or face one’s fate, had launched into possible dangers—he considered how he might, in certain circumstances, handle paying for the whole situation. The loud, contradictory, pointless chatter continued around him, but he was only clearly aware that the idea of breaking into bakeries was very much on everyone’s mind and was being energetically discussed, along with some talk about butchers and grocers, and even fishmongers. He felt an inner excitement; he yearned to be face to face with the magnificent Hoffendahl, to hear his voice, to touch his maimed hand. He was ready for anything: he knew he’d have enough to eat, even if it was meager, and that his companions were possibly even more crude and awkward than usual; but he was swept up in a breath of popular passion, and he could see, magnified, the horrible problems of London—endless misery crying out in the dark, helpless against stockpiles of food and places of pleasure, where gluttony kept watch. In this mood, Hyacinth felt there was no need for analysis or reasoning: the very facts were as urgent as the cries of drowning people; while pedantry gained time, didn’t starvation do the same? He knew that Muniment disapproved of inaction, that he believed the time had come for a drastic correction of terrible inequalities. In their last conversation, his scientific friend had given him clearer support than ever before for joining the immediate action group, though he repeated, yet again, that the specific formula that the little bookbinder seemed to fancy was just nonsense. He hated that kind of pretentious label; it was suited only for politicians and amateurs. Nevertheless, he had been very clear on the point that their strategy must now be to scare society, and scare it effectively; to make it believe that the wronged classes were truly united—had genuinely grasped that they would be unstoppable if closely connected. They were not united, and they hadn’t really grasped any idea at all—Muniment made that clear. Still, society could be scared, and every major scare was a win for the people. If Hyacinth had needed justification tonight for a belief that went beyond logic, he would have found it in his memory of this calm declaration; however, his friend’s words returned to him mainly to make him wonder what Muniment was currently thinking. He did not engage in the violent conversation; he had called Schinkel over to sit with him, and the two appeared to be deep in quiet conversation, while the smoky atmosphere thickened, the passing to and fro of torches became livelier, and the expressions on people's faces grew more intense. What Hyacinth wanted to know most was why Muniment hadn’t told him, first, that Hoffendahl was in London and that he had seen him; because he *had* seen him, even though he dodged Schinkel’s question—Hyacinth felt certain of that. He would ask for more details later; meanwhile, he wished, without feeling resentful but with a kind of helpless patience, that Muniment would confide in him a little more. If there was a secret about Hoffendahl (and there clearly was: Muniment, quite reasonably, although he hinted at Hoffendahl’s arrival for effect, had no intention of sharing what he knew with the unrefined crowd), if there was something worthy of silence and loyalty, Hyacinth eagerly hoped he would get a chance to show how he could embody that loyalty. He felt hot and anxious; he suddenly got up, and through the dark, twisted, greasy passage that led to the outside world, he stepped out into the street. The air was foul and sleety, but it revitalized him, and he stood in front of the pub and smoked another pipe. Shabby figures moved in and out, and a damp, ragged, miserable man, with a spongy, purple face, who had been abruptly shoved across the threshold, stood and whimpered in the harsh glare of the row of lamps. The puddles sparkled around him, and the silent stretch of the street, lined with low black houses, faded away in the winter rain, to the right and left, disappearing into the vast, tragic city, where immeasurable suffering hid beneath the filthy night, ominously, grotesquely still, only howling, in its pain, in the heated human chaos behind him. Ah, what could he do? What opportunities were waiting? The clumsy, conflicting discussions he had been listening to only made the desperation of everyone involved more painful. If he had a specific wish while he stood there, it was that that lofty, misguided group should pour out, with Muniment leading them, and flood through the sleeping city, gathering the countless wretched souls from their slums and dens, and roll into the selfish squares, raising a tremendous hungry voice to awaken the indifferent to a terror that would bring them down. Hyacinth lingered for a quarter of an hour, but this grand spectacle showed no signs of happening, and he eventually returned to the noisy club room, in a state of agonized curiosity about what better idea than this very bad one (which seemed to him to have at least the merit of being an idea) Muniment could be considering in that overly expansive mind of his.
As he re-entered the place he saw that the meeting was breaking up in disorder, or at all events in confusion, and that, certainly, no organised attempt at the rescue of the proletariat would take place that night. All the men were on their feet and were turning away, amid a shuffling of benches and chairs, a hunching of shaggy shoulders, a frugal lowering of superfluous gas, and a varied vivacity of disgust and resignation. The moment after Hyacinth came in, Mr Delancey, the supposititious hairdresser, jumped upon a chair at the far end of the room, and shrieked out an accusation which made every one stop and stare at him—
As he walked back into the room, he noticed that the meeting was breaking up chaotically, or at least in a state of confusion, and it was clear that no organized effort to save the working class would happen that night. All the men were on their feet and turning away, with benches and chairs being shuffled around, hunching their shaggy shoulders, reducing the excess gas lights, and showing a mix of disgust and resignation. Just after Hyacinth entered, Mr. Delancey, the supposed hairdresser, jumped onto a chair at the far end of the room and shouted an accusation that made everyone stop and stare at him—
“Well, I want you all to know what strikes me, before we part company. There isn’t a man in the blessed lot that isn’t afraid of his bloody skin—afraid, afraid, afraid! I’ll go anywhere with any one, but there isn’t another, by G—— by what I can make out! There isn’t a mother’s son of you that’ll risk his precious bones!”
“Well, I want you all to know what stands out to me before we go our separate ways. There isn’t a single one of you who isn’t scared of his own skin—scared, scared, scared! I’ll go anywhere with anyone, but there’s no one else, by God, from what I can tell! There isn’t a single one of you who will risk your precious bones!”
This little oration affected Hyacinth like a quick blow in the face; it seemed to leap at him personally, as if a three-legged stool, or some hideous hob-nailed boot, had been shied at him. The room surged round, heaving up and down, while he was conscious of a loud explosion of laughter and scorn; of cries of “Order, order!” of some clear word of Muniment’s, “I say, Delancey, just step down;” of Eustache Poupin shouting out, “Vous insultez le peuple—vous insultez le peuple!” of other retorts, not remarkable for refinement. The next moment Hyacinth found that he had sprung up on a chair, opposite to the barber, and that at the sight of so rare a phenomenon the commotion had suddenly checked itself. It was the first time he had asked the ear of the company, and it was given on the spot. He was sure he looked very white, and it was even possible they could see him tremble. He could only hope that this didn’t make him ridiculous when he said, “I don’t think it’s right of him to say that. There are others, besides him. At all events, I want to speak for myself: it may do some good; I can’t help it. I’m not afraid; I’m very sure I’m not. I’m ready to do anything that will do any good; anything, anything—I don’t care a rap. In such a cause I should like the idea of danger. I don’t consider my bones precious in the least, compared with some other things. If one is sure one isn’t afraid, and one is accused, why shouldn’t one say so?”
This little speech hit Hyacinth like a sudden slap to the face; it felt personal, as if someone had thrown a three-legged stool or an ugly, heavy boot at him. The room swayed around him, rising and falling, while he could hear loud laughter and mockery; shouts of “Order, order!” along with Muniment’s clear voice saying, “I say, Delancey, just step down;” and Eustache Poupin yelling, “Vous insultez le peuple—vous insultez le peuple!” among other responses that were hardly elegant. In the next moment, Hyacinth realized he had jumped up on a chair, facing the barber, and that this unusual sight had suddenly quieted the crowd. It was the first time he had asked for the audience’s attention, and he was granted it right away. He was sure he looked very pale, and it was even possible they could see him shaking. He could only hope that this didn’t make him seem ridiculous when he said, “I don’t think it’s right for him to say that. There are others besides him. Anyway, I want to speak for myself: it might do some good; I can’t help it. I’m not afraid; I’m quite certain I’m not. I’m ready to do anything that will help; anything, anything—I don’t care at all. In such a cause, I would welcome the idea of danger. I don’t think my bones are precious at all, compared to other things. If you’re sure you’re not afraid and you’re being accused, why shouldn’t you say so?”
It appeared to Hyacinth that he was talking a long time, and when it was over he scarcely knew what happened. He felt himself, in a moment, down almost under the feet of the other men; stamped upon with intentions of applause, of familiarity; laughed over and jeered over, hustled and poked in the ribs. He felt himself also pressed to the bosom of Eustache Poupin, who apparently was sobbing, while he heard some say, “Did ye hear the little beggar, as bold as a lion?” A trial of personal prowess between him and Mr Delancey was proposed, but somehow it didn’t take place, and at the end of five minutes the club-room emptied itself, not, evidently, to be reconstituted, outside, in a revolutionary procession. Paul Muniment had taken hold of Hyacinth, and said, “I’ll trouble you to stay, you little desperado. I’ll be blowed if I ever expected to see you on the stump!” Muniment remained, and M. Poupin and Mr Schinkel lingered in their overcoats, beneath a dim, surviving gasburner, in the unventilated medium in which, at each renewed gathering, the Bloomsbury club seemed to recognise itself.
Hyacinth felt like he was talking for a long time, and when it ended, he barely knew what had happened. In a moment, he found himself almost beneath the feet of the other men; being trampled by their intentions of applause and ease; laughed at and mocked, poked in the ribs. He also felt himself being hugged by Eustache Poupin, who seemed to be crying, as he heard someone say, “Did you hear the little guy, as bold as a lion?” There was a suggestion for a personal showdown between him and Mr. Delancey, but somehow that never happened, and within five minutes, the clubroom cleared out, seemingly not to come together again, outside, in a revolutionary march. Paul Muniment grabbed Hyacinth and said, “I need you to stick around, you little troublemaker. I can’t believe I ever expected to see you on the stump!” Muniment stayed, while M. Poupin and Mr. Schinkel hung around in their overcoats, beneath a dim, lingering gas lamp, in the stale air where, with each new meeting, the Bloomsbury club seemed to recognize itself.
“Upon my word, I believe you’re game,” said Muniment, looking down at him with a serious face.
“Honestly, I think you're up for it,” said Muniment, looking down at him with a serious expression.
“Of course you think it’s swagger, ‘self-loaf’, as Schinkel says. But it isn’t.” Then Hyacinth asked, “In God’s name, why don’t we do something?”
“Of course you think it’s swagger, ‘self-loaf,’ as Schinkel says. But it isn’t.” Then Hyacinth asked, “In God’s name, why don’t we do something?”
“Ah, my child, to whom do you say it?” Eustache Poupin exclaimed, folding his arms, despairingly.
“Ah, my child, who are you talking to?” Eustache Poupin exclaimed, folding his arms in despair.
“Whom do you mean by ‘we’?” said Muniment.
“Who do you mean by ‘we’?” said Muniment.
“All the lot of us. There are plenty of them ready.”
“All of us. There are a lot of them ready.”
“Ready for what? There is nothing to be done here.”
“Ready for what? There’s nothing to do here.”
Hyacinth stared. “Then why the deuce do you come?”
Hyacinth stared. “Then why on earth are you here?”
“I dare say I shan’t come much more. This is a place you have always overestimated.”
“I honestly don’t think I’ll be coming here much anymore. This is a place you’ve always overhyped.”
“I wonder if I have overestimated you,” Hyacinth murmured, gazing at his friend.
“I wonder if I have overestimated you,” Hyacinth murmured, looking at his friend.
“Don’t say that—he’s going to introduce us to Hoffendahl!” Schinkel exclaimed, putting away his pipe in a receptacle almost as large as a fiddle-case.
“Don’t say that—he’s going to introduce us to Hoffendahl!” Schinkel exclaimed, stashing his pipe in a container nearly the size of a violin case.
“Should you like to see the genuine article, Robinson?” Muniment asked, with the same unusual absence of jocosity in his tone.
“Do you want to see the real thing, Robinson?” Muniment asked, his tone lacking any hint of humor.
“The genuine article?” Hyacinth looked from one of his companions to the other.
“The real deal?” Hyacinth looked from one of his friends to the other.
“You have never seen it yet—though you think you have.”
“You’ve never seen it yet—even though you think you have.”
“And why haven’t you shown it to me before?”
“And why didn’t you show it to me before?”
“Because I had never seen you on the stump.” This time Muniment smiled.
“Because I had never seen you campaigning.” This time Muniment smiled.
“Bother the stump! I was trusting you.”
“Forget the stump! I was counting on you.”
“Exactly so. That gave me time.”
"Exactly. That gave me time."
“Don’t come unless your mind is made up, mon petit,” said Poupin.
“Don’t come unless you’re sure about it, mon petit,” said Poupin.
“Are you going now—to see Hoffendahl?” Hyacinth cried.
“Are you leaving now—to see Hoffendahl?” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Don’t shout it all over the place. He wants a genteel little customer like you,” Muniment went on.
“Don’t shout it everywhere. He wants a classy little customer like you,” Muniment continued.
“Is it true? Are we all going?” Hyacinth demanded eagerly.
“Is it true? Are we all going?” Hyacinth asked eagerly.
“Yes, these two are in it; they are not very artful, but they are safe,” said Muniment, looking at Poupin and Schinkel.
“Yes, these two are involved; they aren’t very clever, but they’re reliable,” said Muniment, looking at Poupin and Schinkel.
“Are you the genuine article, Muniment?” asked Hyacinth, catching this look.
“Are you the real deal, Muniment?” asked Hyacinth, noticing this look.
Muniment dropped his eyes on him; then he said, “Yes, you’re the boy he wants. It’s at the other end of London; we must have a growler.”
Muniment looked down at him; then he said, “Yeah, you’re the kid he’s looking for. It’s at the other end of London; we need a cab.”
“Be calm, my child; me voici!” And Eustache Poupin led Hyacinth out.
“Stay calm, my child; here I am!” And Eustache Poupin guided Hyacinth out.
They all walked away from the ‘Sun and Moon’, and it was not for some five minutes that they encountered the four-wheeled cab which deepened so the solemnity of their expedition. After they were seated in it, Hyacinth learned that Hoffendahl was in London but for three days, was liable to hurry away on the morrow, and was accustomed to receive visits at all kinds of queer hours. It was getting to be midnight; the drive seemed interminable, to Hyacinth’s impatience and curiosity. He sat next to Muniment, who passed his arm round him, as if by way of tacit expression of indebtedness. They all ended by sitting silent, as the cab jogged along murky miles, and by the time it stopped Hyacinth had wholly lost, in the drizzling gloom, a sense of their whereabouts.
They all walked away from the ‘Sun and Moon,’ and it wasn’t until about five minutes later that they found the four-wheeled cab, which added to the seriousness of their mission. Once they were seated in it, Hyacinth discovered that Hoffendahl was in London for only three days, was likely to leave the next day, and was known to receive visitors at all sorts of odd hours. It was getting close to midnight; the ride felt endless to Hyacinth’s impatience and curiosity. He sat next to Muniment, who put his arm around him, as if to silently show his appreciation. They all ended up sitting in silence as the cab bumped along dark miles, and by the time it stopped, Hyacinth completely lost track of where they were in the drizzly darkness.
XXII
Hyacinth got up early—an operation attended with very little effort, as he had scarcely closed his eyes all night. What he saw from his window made him dress as rapidly as a young man could do who desired more than ever that his appearance should not give strange ideas about him: an old garden, with parterres in curious figures, and little intervals of lawn which appeared to our hero’s cockney vision fantastically green. At one end of the garden was a parapet of mossy brick, which looked down on the other side into a canal, or moat, or quaint old pond; and from the same standpoint there was also a view of a considerable part of the main body of the house (Hyacinth’s room appeared to be in a wing commanding the extensive, irregular back), which was richly gray wherever it was not green with ivy and other dense creepers, and everywhere infinitely like a picture, with a high-piled, ancient, russet roof, broken by huge chimneys and queer peep-holes and all manner of odd gables and windows on different lines and antique patches and protrusions, and a particularly fascinating architectural excrescence in which a wonderful clock-face was lodged—a clock-face covered with gilding and blazonry but showing many traces of the years and the weather. Hyacinth had never in his life been in the country—the real country, as he called it, the country which was not the mere ravelled fringe of London—and there entered through his open casement the breath of a world enchantingly new and, after his recent feverish hours, inexpressibly refreshing to him; a sense of sweet, sunny air and mingled odours, all strangely pure and agreeable, and a kind of musical silence, the greater part of which seemed to consist of the voices of birds. There were tall, quiet trees near by, and afar off, and everywhere; and the group of objects which greeted Hyacinth’s eyes evidently formed only a corner of larger spaces and a more complicated scene. There was a world to be revealed to him: it lay waiting, with the dew upon it, under his windows, and he must go down and take his first steps in it.
Hyacinth woke up early—something that took almost no effort since he had barely slept all night. What he saw from his window got him dressed as quickly as possible, as he wanted to avoid any strange impressions about himself: an old garden with oddly shaped flower beds and patches of grass that looked incredibly green to his city-bred eyes. At one end of the garden was a mossy brick wall that overlooked a canal, moat, or quaint old pond; from this spot, he could also see a good part of the main house (Hyacinth’s room was in a wing that overlooked the large, irregular back), which was a rich gray where it wasn't covered in ivy and other dense plants. It looked like a painting, with its high, aged, russet roof interrupted by large chimneys, quirky peep-holes, and all sorts of odd gables and windows in different styles that added to its antique charm, including a particularly intriguing section where a beautiful clock-face was set—a clock-face adorned in gold and intricate designs but showing many signs of age and weathering. Hyacinth had never really been to the country—the real country, as he called it, not just the frayed edges of London—and the fresh air pouring in through his open window felt enchantingly new and incredibly refreshing after his recent restless nights. There was a sweet, sunny breeze and a mix of scents, all strangely pure and pleasant, along with a kind of melodic silence that was mostly filled with the sounds of birds. Nearby, there were tall, peaceful trees, and in the distance and all around, the collection of sights that greeted Hyacinth clearly made up just a small part of larger spaces and a more complex scene. A whole world was waiting to be discovered: it lay there, dew-covered, just outside his window, and he needed to go down and take his first steps into it.
The night before, at ten o’clock, when he arrived, he had only got the impression of a mile-long stretch of park, after turning in at a gate; of the cracking of gravel under the wheels of the fly; and of the glow of several windows, suggesting in-door cheer, in a façade that lifted a variety of vague pinnacles into the starlight. It was much of a relief to him then to be informed that the Princess, in consideration of the lateness of the hour, begged to be excused till the morrow; the delay would give him time to recover his balance and look about him. This latter opportunity was offered him first as he sat at supper in a vast dining-room, with the butler, whose acquaintance he had made in South Street, behind his chair. He had not exactly wondered how he should be treated: there was too much vagueness in his conception of the way in which, at a country-house, insidious distinctions might be made and shades of importance illustrated; but it was plain that the best had been ordered for him. He was, at all events, abundantly content with his reception and more and more excited by it. The repast was delicate (though his other senses were so awake that hunger dropped out and he ate, as it were, without eating), and the grave mechanical servant filled his glass with a liquor that reminded him of some lines in Keats—in the Ode to a Nightingale. He wondered whether he should hear a nightingale at Medley (he knew nothing about the seasons of this vocalist), and also whether the butler would attempt to talk to him, had ideas about him, knew or suspected who he was and what; which, after all, there was no reason for his doing, unless it might be the poverty of the luggage that had been transported from Lomax Place. Mr Withers, however (it was in this manner that Hyacinth heard him addressed by the cabman who conveyed the visitor from the station), gave no further symptom of sociability than to ask him at what time he would be called in the morning; to which our young man replied that he preferred not to be called at all—he would get up by himself. The butler rejoined, “Very good, sir,” while Hyacinth thought it probable that he puzzled him a good deal, and even considered the question of giving him a glimpse of his identity, lest it should be revealed, later, in a manner less graceful. The object of this anticipatory step, in Hyacinth’s mind, was that he should not be oppressed and embarrassed with attentions to which he was unused; but the idea came to nothing, for the simple reason that before he spoke he found that he already was inured to being waited upon. His impulse to deprecate attentions departed, and he became conscious that there were none he should care to miss, or was not quite prepared for. He knew he probably thanked Mr Withers too much, but he couldn’t help this—it was an irrepressible tendency and an error he should doubtless always commit.
The night before, at ten o’clock, when he arrived, he only got the impression of a mile-long stretch of park after turning in at a gate; the sound of gravel crunching under the wheels of the cab; and the warm glow from several windows that hinted at cozy indoor life, rising in various vague peaks into the starlight. It was such a relief to him to learn that the Princess, considering how late it was, requested to be excused until the next day; the delay would give him time to regain his composure and take in his surroundings. This opportunity first presented itself while he was having dinner in a large dining room, with the butler, whom he had met on South Street, standing behind his chair. He hadn’t exactly wondered how he would be treated; there was too much uncertainty about how, at a country house, subtle distinctions might be made and shades of importance highlighted; but it was clear that the best had been arranged for him. He was, in any case, thoroughly satisfied with his welcome and increasingly excited by it. The meal was exquisite (though his other senses were so alert that hunger faded away, and he ate, in a way, without eating), and the serious, efficient servant filled his glass with a drink that reminded him of some lines in Keats—in the Ode to a Nightingale. He wondered if he would hear a nightingale at Medley (he knew nothing about when this singer appeared), and also if the butler would try to engage him in conversation, had thoughts about him, knew or suspected who he was and what; which, after all, was unnecessary unless it was due to the meagerness of the luggage brought from Lomax Place. Mr. Withers, however (that’s how Hyacinth heard him addressed by the cab driver who brought him from the station), showed no further signs of friendliness, asking only what time he should be called in the morning; to which Hyacinth replied that he preferred not to be called at all—he would get up by himself. The butler responded, “Very good, sir,” while Hyacinth thought he probably puzzled him quite a bit, and even considered revealing his identity to prevent it from coming out later in a less elegant way. The purpose of this preemptive step, in Hyacinth’s mind, was to avoid being weighed down and embarrassed by attentions he wasn’t used to; but the idea didn’t get very far, simply because before he could speak, he realized he was already used to being waited on. His urge to downplay attention faded, and he became aware that there was nothing he would want to miss or wasn’t quite ready for. He knew he probably thanked Mr. Withers too often, but he couldn’t help it—it was an irresistible tendency and a mistake he would surely always make.
He lay in a bed constituted in a manner so perfect to insure rest that it was probably responsible in some degree for his restlessness, and in a large, high room, where long dressing-glasses emitted ghostly glances even after the light was extinguished. Suspended on the walls were many prints, mezzotints and old engravings, which Hyacinth supposed, possibly without reason, to be fine and rare. He got up several times in the night, lighted his candle and walked about looking at them. He looked at himself in one of the long glasses, and in a place where everything was on such a scale it seemed to him more than ever that Mademoiselle Vivier’s son was a tiny particle. As he came downstairs he encountered housemaids, with dusters and brooms, or perceived them, through open doors, on their knees before fireplaces; and it was his belief that they regarded him more boldly than if he had been a guest of the usual kind. Such a reflection as that, however, ceased to trouble him after he had passed out of doors and begun to roam through the park, into which he let himself loose at first, and then, in narrowing circles, through the nearer grounds. He rambled for an hour, in a state of breathless ecstasy; brushing the dew from the deep fern and bracken and the rich borders of the garden, tasting the fragrant air, and stopping everywhere, in murmuring rapture, at the touch of some exquisite impression. His whole walk was peopled with recognitions; he had been dreaming all his life of just such a place and such objects, such a morning and such a chance. It was the last of April, and everything was fresh and vivid; the great trees, in the early air, were a blur of tender shoots. Round the admirable house he revolved repeatedly; catching every point and tone, feasting on its expression, and wondering whether the Princess would observe his proceedings from the window, and whether, if she did, they would be offensive to her. The house was not hers, but only hired for three months, and it could flatter no princely pride that he should be struck with it. There was something in the way the gray walls rose from the green lawn that brought tears to his eyes; the spectacle of long duration unassociated with some sordid infirmity or poverty was new to him; he had lived with people among whom old age meant, for the most part, a grudged and degraded survival. In the majestic preservation of Medley there was a kind of serenity of success, an accumulation of dignity and honour.
He lay in a bed designed so perfectly for comfort that it probably contributed to his restlessness, in a large, high room where tall mirrors cast ghostly reflections even when the lights were off. The walls were adorned with many prints, mezzotints, and old engravings, which Hyacinth thought, perhaps without good reason, were fine and rare. He got up several times during the night, lit his candle, and wandered around looking at them. He looked at himself in one of the tall mirrors, and in a place where everything felt so grand, he felt more than ever that Mademoiselle Vivier’s son was just a tiny speck. As he went downstairs, he encountered housemaids with dusters and brooms, or saw them through open doors on their knees by the fireplaces; he felt that they looked at him more openly than if he had been a regular guest. However, that thought stopped bothering him once he stepped outside and started to explore the park. At first, he roamed freely, and then, in gradually smaller circles, through the nearby grounds. He wandered for an hour, filled with ecstatic wonder; brushing the dew off the lush ferns and bracken and the vibrant borders of the garden, savoring the fragrant air, and pausing everywhere in joyful amazement at the beauty around him. His entire walk was filled with familiarities; he had been dreaming all his life of just such a place, such sights, such a morning, and such an opportunity. It was the end of April, and everything was fresh and bright; the huge trees, in the cool morning air, blurred with tender new growth. He walked around the beautiful house repeatedly, taking in every detail, enjoying its charm, and wondering if the Princess would notice him from the window and whether his actions would offend her. The house wasn’t hers, just rented for three months, and it wouldn’t inflate any royal pride that he was so taken with it. There was something about the way the gray walls rose from the green lawn that brought tears to his eyes; experiencing a space of lasting beauty not tied to any sordid decline or poverty was new to him; he had lived with people for whom old age was mostly a begrudged and degraded existence. In the majestic preservation of Medley, there was a sense of serene success, an accumulation of dignity and honor.
A footman sought him out, in the garden, to tell him that breakfast was ready. He had never thought of breakfast, and as he walked back to the house, attended by the inscrutable flunkey, this offer appeared a free, extravagant gift, unexpected and romantic. He found he was to breakfast alone, and he asked no questions; but when he had finished the butler came in and informed him that the Princess would see him after luncheon, but that in the meanwhile she wished him to understand that the library was entirely at his service. ‘After luncheon’—that threw the hour he had come for very far into the future, and it caused him some confusion of mind that the Princess should think it worth while to invite him to stay at her house from Saturday evening to Monday morning if it had been her purpose that so much of his visit should elapse without their meeting. But he felt neither slighted nor impatient; the impressions that had already crowded upon him were in themselves a sufficient reward, and what could one do better, precisely, in such a house as that, than wait for a princess? The butler showed him the way to the library, and left him planted in the middle of it, staring at the treasures that he instantly perceived it contained. It was an old brown room, of great extent—even the ceiling was brown, though there were figures in it dimly gilt—where row upon row of finely-lettered backs returned his discriminating professional gaze. A fire of logs crackled in a great chimney, and there were alcoves with deep window-seats, and arm-chairs such as he had never seen, luxurious, leather-covered, with an adjustment for holding one’s volume; and a vast writing-table, before one of the windows, furnished with a perfect magazine of paper and pens, inkstands and blotters, seals, stamps, candlesticks, reels of twine, paper-weights, book-knives. Hyacinth had never imagined so many aids to correspondence, and before he turned away he had written a note to Millicent, in a hand even more beautiful than usual—his penmanship was very minute, but at the same time wonderfully free and fair—largely for the pleasure of seeing ‘Medley Hall’ stamped in crimson, heraldic-looking characters at the top of his paper. In the course of an hour he had ravaged the collection, taken down almost every book, wishing he could keep it a week, and put it back quickly, as his eye caught the next, which appeared even more desirable. He discovered many rare bindings, and gathered several ideas from an inspection of them—ideas which he felt himself perfectly capable of reproducing. Altogether, his vision of true happiness, at that moment, was that, for a month or two, he should be locked into the library at Medley. He forgot the outer world, and the morning waned—the beautiful vernal Sunday—while he lingered there.
A footman found him in the garden to let him know that breakfast was ready. He had never thought about breakfast, and as he walked back to the house with the mysterious servant, this invitation felt like a generous, unexpected gift—almost romantic. He discovered he would be having breakfast alone and didn’t ask any questions; however, after he finished, the butler entered and informed him that the Princess would see him after lunch, but in the meantime, she wanted him to know that the library was completely at his disposal. “After lunch”—that pushed the hour he was looking forward to much further into the future, and it confused him that the Princess would invite him to stay at her house from Saturday evening to Monday morning if she intended for so much of his visit to go by without seeing him. But he didn’t feel slighted or impatient; the impressions he had already experienced were rewarding enough, and what could be better, really, in a house like that, than waiting for a princess? The butler showed him to the library and left him standing in the middle of it, staring at the treasures it held. It was a large, old brown room—even the ceiling was brown, though there were faintly gilded figures in it—where row after row of finely lettered spines attracted his discerning professional eye. Logs crackled in a large fireplace, and there were alcoves with deep window seats and armchairs he had never seen before, luxurious and leather-covered, designed for holding a book; and a huge writing desk in front of one of the windows was stocked with an impressive array of paper, pens, inkstands, blotters, seals, stamps, candlesticks, rolls of twine, and paperweights. Hyacinth had never imagined so many tools for writing, and before he stepped away, he wrote a note to Millicent, in a handwriting even more beautiful than usual—his penmanship was delicate yet remarkably free and clear—largely for the pleasure of seeing ‘Medley Hall’ stamped in crimson, heraldic-looking letters at the top of his paper. In about an hour, he had thoroughly explored the collection, taken down almost every book, wishing he could keep them for a week, and returned them quickly as his gaze caught the next, which looked even more appealing. He found many rare bindings and gathered several ideas from examining them—ideas he felt he could easily reproduce. Altogether, at that moment, his vision of true happiness was to be locked in the library at Medley for a month or two. He forgot the outside world, and the beautiful spring Sunday faded by as he lingered there.
He was on the top of a ladder when he heard a voice remark, “I am afraid they are very dusty; in this house, you know, it is the dust of centuries;” and, looking down, he saw Madame Grandoni stationed in the middle of the room. He instantly prepared to descend, to make her his salutation, when she exclaimed, “Stay, stay, if you are not giddy; we can talk from here! I only came in to show you we are in the house, and to tell you to keep up your patience. The Princess will probably see you in a few hours.”
He was at the top of a ladder when he heard a voice say, “I’m afraid they’re really dusty; in this house, you know, it’s the dust of centuries;” and, looking down, he saw Madame Grandoni standing in the middle of the room. He immediately got ready to come down to greet her, but she shouted, “Wait, wait, if you’re not feeling dizzy; we can talk from here! I just came in to show you we are in the house, and to tell you to be patient. The Princess will probably see you in a few hours.”
“I really hope so,” said Hyacinth, from his perch, rather dismayed at the ‘probably’.
“I really hope so,” said Hyacinth from his perch, feeling pretty disheartened by the ‘probably’.
“Natürlich,” the old lady rejoined; “but people have come, sometimes, and gone away without seeing her. It all depends upon her mood.”
“Of course,” the old lady replied; “but people have come and gone without seeing her. It all depends on her mood.”
“Do you mean even when she has sent for them?”
“Do you mean even when she has called for them?”
“Oh, who can tell whether she has sent for them or not?”
“Oh, who can say if she has called for them or not?”
“But she sent for me, you know,” Hyacinth declared, staring down—struck with the odd effect of Madame Grandoni’s wig in that bird’s-eye view.
“But she sent for me, you know,” Hyacinth declared, looking down—struck by the strange look of Madame Grandoni’s wig from that angle.
“Oh yes, she sent for you, poor young man!” The old lady looked up at him with a smile, and they remained a moment exchanging a silent scrutiny. Then she added, “Captain Sholto has come, like that, more than once; and he has gone away no better off.”
“Oh yes, she called for you, poor young man!” The old lady smiled as she looked up at him, and they shared a moment of silent observation. Then she continued, “Captain Sholto has come like that more than once, and he left no better off.”
“Captain Sholto?” Hyacinth repeated.
“Captain Sholto?” Hyacinth echoed.
“Very true, if we talk at this distance I must shut the door.” She took her way back to it (she had left it open) and pushed it to; then advanced into the room again, with her superannuated, shuffling step, walking as if her shoes were too big for her. Hyacinth meanwhile descended the ladder. “Ecco! She’s a capricciosa,” said the old lady.
“Very true, if we’re going to talk from this distance, I need to close the door.” She walked back to it (she had left it open) and pushed it shut; then she came back into the room with her old, shuffling walk, as if her shoes were too big for her. Meanwhile, Hyacinth climbed down the ladder. “Ecco! She’s a capricciosa,” said the old lady.
“I don’t understand how you speak of her,” Hyacinth remarked, gravely. “You seem to be her friend, yet you say things that are not favourable to her.”
“I don’t get how you talk about her,” Hyacinth said seriously. “You act like her friend, but you say things that aren’t nice about her.”
“Dear young man, I say much worse to her about herself than I should ever say to you. I am rude, oh yes—even to you, to whom, no doubt, I ought to be particularly kind. But I am not false. It is not our German nature. You will hear me some day. I am the friend of the Princess; it would be well enough if she never had a worse one! But I should like to be yours, too—what will you have? Perhaps it is of no use. At any rate, here you are.”
“Dear young man, I say much worse things to her about herself than I would ever say to you. I can be rude, oh yes—even to you, to whom I should probably be especially kind. But I'm not insincere. That's just not in our nature. You’ll hear me out someday. I am the friend of the Princess; it would be better for her if she never had a worse one! But I’d like to be your friend too—what do you want? Maybe it’s pointless. Anyway, here you are.”
“Yes, here I am, decidedly!” Hyacinth laughed, uneasily.
“Yes, here I am, for sure!” Hyacinth laughed, a bit nervously.
“And how long shall you stay? Excuse me if I ask that; it is part of my rudeness.”
“And how long are you planning to stay? Sorry if I’m being rude by asking that.”
“I shall stay till to-morrow morning. I must be at my work by noon.”
“I’ll stay until tomorrow morning. I need to be at work by noon.”
“That will do very well. Don’t you remember, the other time, how I told you to remain faithful?”
“That’s perfect. Don’t you remember the other time when I told you to stay loyal?”
“That was very good advice. But I think you exaggerate my danger.”
"That was great advice. But I think you're overestimating my danger."
“So much the better,” said Madame Grandoni; “though now that I look at you well I doubt it a little. I see you are one of those types that ladies like. I can be sure of that, because I like you myself. At my age—a hundred and twenty—can I not say that? If the Princess were to do so, it would be different; remember that—that any flattery she may ever offer you will be on her lips much less discreet. But perhaps she will never have the chance; you may never come again. There are people who have come only once. Vedremo bene. I must tell you that I am not in the least against a young man taking a holiday, a little quiet recreation, once in a while,” Madame Grandoni continued, in her disconnected, discursive, confidential way. “In Rome they take it every five days; that is, no doubt, too often. In Germany, less often. In this country, I cannot understand whether it is an increase of effort: the English Sunday is so difficult! This one will, however, in any case, have been beautiful for you. Be happy, make yourself comfortable; but go home to-morrow!” And with this injunction Madame Grandoni took her way again to the door, while Hyacinth went to open it for her. “I can say that, because it is not my house. I am only here like you. And sometimes I think I also shall go to-morrow!”
“So much the better,” said Madame Grandoni; “though now that I really look at you, I have some doubts. You seem like one of those types that women are drawn to. I can say that for sure because I like you myself. At my age—a hundred and twenty—can I not say that? If the Princess were to say it, it would be different; just remember that any compliments she may give you will be much less subtle. But maybe she won’t even get the chance; you might never come back. There are people who only visit once. Vedremo bene. I should tell you that I’m not at all against a young man taking some time off for a little quiet fun every now and then,” Madame Grandoni continued, in her usual disjointed, rambling, confidential style. “In Rome, they take a break every five days; that’s probably too often. In Germany, it’s less frequent. Here, I can't quite figure out whether it’s about putting in more effort: the English Sunday can be so challenging! This one, however, has undoubtedly been lovely for you. Enjoy yourself, make yourself at home; but go back tomorrow!” And with that, Madame Grandoni made her way to the door, while Hyacinth opened it for her. “I can say that because this isn’t my house. I’m only here like you. Sometimes I think I should leave tomorrow too!”
“I imagine you have not, like me, your living to get, every day. That is reason enough for me,” said Hyacinth.
“I guess you don’t have to worry about making a living every day like I do. That’s enough reason for me,” said Hyacinth.
She paused in the doorway, with her expressive, ugly, kindly little eyes on his face. “I believe I am nearly as poor as you. And I have not, like you, the appearance of nobility. Yet I am noble,” said the old lady, shaking her wig.
She stopped in the doorway, her expressive, unattractive, kind little eyes fixed on his face. “I think I’m almost as poor as you. And I don’t have your noble appearance. But I am noble,” said the old lady, shaking her wig.
“And I am not!” Hyacinth rejoined, smiling.
“And I’m not!” Hyacinth replied with a smile.
“It is better not to be lifted up high, like our friend. It does not give happiness.”
“It’s better not to be raised up high, like our friend. It doesn’t bring happiness.”
“Not to one’s self, possibly; but to others!” From where they stood, Hyacinth looked out into the great panelled and decorated hall, lighted from above and roofed with a far-away dim fresco, and the reflection of this grandeur came into his appreciative eyes.
“Not to oneself, perhaps; but to others!” From where they stood, Hyacinth gazed into the grand, panelled, and decorated hall, illuminated from above and topped with a distant, faded fresco, and the reflection of this splendor shone in his admiring eyes.
“Do you admire everything here very much—do you receive great pleasure?” asked Madame Grandoni.
“Do you really admire everything here—do you get a lot of pleasure from it?” asked Madame Grandoni.
“Oh, so much—so much!”
“Oh, so much—so much!”
She considered him a moment longer. “Poverino!” she murmured, as she turned away.
She looked at him for a moment longer. “Poor thing!” she murmured as she turned away.
A couple of hours later the Princess sent for Hyacinth, and he was conducted upstairs, through corridors carpeted with crimson and hung with pictures, and ushered into a kind of bright drawing-room, which he afterwards learned that his hostess regarded as her boudoir. The sound of music had come to him outside the door, so that he was prepared to find her seated at the piano, if not to see her continue to play after he appeared. Her face was turned in the direction from which he entered, and she smiled at him while the servant, as if he had just arrived, formally pronounced his name, without lifting her hands from the keys. The room, placed in an angle of the house and lighted from two sides, was large and sunny, upholstered in fresh, gay chintz, furnished with all sorts of sofas and low, familiar seats and convenient little tables, most of them holding great bowls of early flowers, littered over with books, newspapers, magazines, photographs of celebrities, with their signatures, and full of the marks of luxurious and rather indolent habitation. Hyacinth stood there, not advancing very far, and the Princess, still playing and smiling, nodded toward a seat near the piano. “Put yourself there and listen to me.” Hyacinth obeyed, and she played a long time without glancing at him. This left him the more free to rest his eyes on her own face and person, while she looked about the room, vaguely, absently, but with an expression of quiet happiness, as if she were lost in her music, soothed and pacified by it. A window near her was half open, and the soft clearness of the day and all the odour of the spring diffused themselves, and made the place cheerful and pure. The Princess struck him as extraordinarily young and fair, and she seemed so slim and simple, and friendly too, in spite of having neither abandoned her occupation nor offered him her hand, that he sank back in his seat at last, with the sense that all his uneasiness, his nervous tension, was leaving him, and that he was safe in her kindness, in the free, original way with which she evidently would always treat him. This peculiar manner—half consideration, half fellowship—seemed to him already to have the sweetness of familiarity. She played ever so movingly, with different pieces succeeding each other; he had never listened to music, nor to a talent, of that order. Two or three times she turned her eyes upon him, and then they shone with the wonderful expression which was the essence of her beauty; that profuse, mingled light which seemed to belong to some everlasting summer, and yet to suggest seasons that were past and gone, some experience that was only an exquisite memory. She asked him if he cared for music, and then added, laughing, that she ought to have made sure of this before; while he answered—he had already told her so in South Street; she appeared to have forgotten—that he was awfully fond of it.
A couple of hours later, the Princess summoned Hyacinth, and he was led upstairs through corridors lined with crimson carpet and adorned with artwork, finally entering a bright drawing-room that he later found out was her boudoir. He had heard music coming from behind the door, so he expected to find her at the piano, if not continuing to play when he arrived. She was facing the entrance, smiling at him as the servant formally announced his name without her lifting her hands from the keys. The room, positioned at an angle of the house and lit from two sides, was spacious and sunny, decorated in fresh, colorful chintz, filled with various sofas, cozy chairs, and handy little tables, most of which held large bowls of early flowers, scattered with books, newspapers, magazines, and celebrity photographs with their signatures, reflecting a luxurious and somewhat lazy lifestyle. Hyacinth stood there, not moving very far, and the Princess, still playing and smiling, nodded toward a chair near the piano. “Take a seat and listen to me.” Hyacinth complied, and she played for a long time without looking at him. This allowed him to freely admire her face and figure while she gazed around the room absentmindedly, yet with a look of peaceful happiness, as if she were absorbed in her music, comforted by it. A window nearby was half open, letting in the soft clarity of the day and the fresh scent of spring, which made the place feel cheerful and pure. The Princess struck him as incredibly young and beautiful, and she seemed so slender and straightforward, warm even, despite not having abandoned her playing or offered him her hand. Eventually, he settled into his seat, feeling all his tension and unease melt away, reassured by her kindness and the casual, genuine way she treated him. This unique blend of consideration and camaraderie already felt sweetly familiar. She played movingly, shifting through various pieces; he had never experienced such music or talent before. A few times, she glanced his way, her eyes sparkling with the wonderful expression that encapsulated her beauty—a rich, mixed radiance that felt like an eternal summer while also hinting at memories of seasons long past. She asked if he liked music, then chuckled that she should have confirmed this beforehand; he reminded her—having already shared this in South Street—that he was really fond of it.
The sense of the beauty of women had been given to our young man in a high degree; it was a faculty that made him conscious, to adoration, of every element of loveliness, every delicacy of feature, every shade and tone, that contributed to charm. Even, therefore, if he had appreciated less the deep harmonies the Princess drew from the piano, there would have been no lack of interest in his situation, in such an opportunity to watch her admirable outline and movement, the noble form of her head and face, the gathered-up glories of her hair, the living, flower-like freshness which had no need to turn from the light. She was dressed in fair colours, as simply as a young girl. Before she ceased playing she asked Hyacinth what he would like to do in the afternoon: would he have any objection to taking a drive with her? It was very possible he might enjoy the country. She seemed not to attend to his answer, which was covered by the sound of the piano; but if she had done so it would have left her very little doubt as to the reality of his inclination. She remained gazing at the cornice of the room, while her hands wandered to and fro; then suddenly she stopped, got up and came toward her companion. “It is probable that is the most I shall ever bore you; you know the worst. Would you very kindly close the piano?” He complied with her request, and she went to another part of the room and sank into an arm-chair. When he approached her again she said, “Is it really true that you have never seen a park, nor a garden, nor any of the beauties of nature, and that sort of thing?” She was alluding to something he had said in his letter, when he answered the note by which she proposed to him to run down to Medley; and after he assured her that it was perfectly true she exclaimed, “I’m so glad—I’m so glad! I have never been able to show any one anything new, and I have always thought I should like it so—especially to a sensitive nature. Then you will come and drive with me?” She asked this as if it would be a great favour.
The young man had a strong appreciation for the beauty of women; it was a trait that made him aware, almost reverently, of every aspect of loveliness, every nuance of features, every color and tone that added to charm. So even if he didn’t fully appreciate the deep melodies the Princess brought forth from the piano, his situation still held plenty of interest, giving him the chance to observe her graceful form and movements, the elegant shape of her head and face, the glorious way her hair was styled, and the lively, flower-like freshness that didn’t shy away from the light. She was dressed in soft colors, simply like a young girl. Before she finished playing, she asked Hyacinth what he would like to do in the afternoon: would he mind taking a drive with her? It was likely he would enjoy the countryside. She seemed not to pay attention to his response, which was drowned out by the sound of the piano; but if she had, she would have had little doubt about his feelings. She kept her gaze fixed on the room’s cornice while her fingers moved back and forth over the keys; then suddenly she stopped, got up, and walked over to him. “That’s probably the most I’ll ever bore you; you know the worst. Would you be so kind as to close the piano?” He did as she asked, and she went to another part of the room and sank into an armchair. When he approached her again, she asked, “Is it really true that you’ve never seen a park, or a garden, or any of the beauties of nature?” She was referring to something he had mentioned in his letter when he replied to her invitation to visit Medley; and after he confirmed that it was indeed true, she exclaimed, “I’m so glad—I’m so glad! I’ve never been able to show anyone anything new, and I’ve always thought I would love to—especially to someone with a sensitive nature. So you will come and drive with me?” She asked this as if it would be a big favor.
That was the beginning of the communion—so singular, considering their respective positions—which he had come to Medley to enjoy; and it passed into some very remarkable phases. The Princess had the most extraordinary way of taking things for granted, of ignoring difficulties, of assuming that her preferences might be translated into fact. After Hyacinth had remained with her ten minutes longer—a period mainly occupied with her exclamations of delight at his having seen so little of the sort of thing of which Medley consisted (Where should he have seen it, gracious heaven? he asked himself); after she had rested, thus briefly, from her exertions at the piano, she proposed that they should go out-of-doors together. She was an immense walker—she wanted her walk. She left him for a short time, giving him the last number of the Revue des Deux Mondes to entertain himself withal, and calling his attention, in particular, to a story of M. Octave Feuillet (she should be so curious to know what he thought of it); and reappeared with her hat and parasol, drawing on her long gloves, and presenting herself to our young man, at that moment, as a sudden incarnation of the heroine of M. Feuillet’s novel, in which he had instantly become immersed. On their way downstairs it occurred to her that he had not yet seen the house and that it would be amusing for her to show it to him; so she turned aside and took him through it, up and down and everywhere, even into the vast, old-fashioned kitchen, where there was a small, red-faced man in a white jacket and apron and a white cap (he removed the latter ornament to salute the little bookbinder), with whom his companion spoke Italian, which Hyacinth understood sufficiently to perceive that she addressed her cook in the second person singular, as if he had been a feudal retainer. He remembered that was the way the three Musketeers spoke to their lackeys. The Princess explained that the gentleman in the white cap was a delightful creature (she couldn’t endure English servants, though she was obliged to have two or three), who would make her plenty of risottos and polentas—she had quite the palate of a contadina. She showed Hyacinth everything: the queer transmogrified corner that had once been a chapel; the secret stairway which had served in the persecutions of the Catholics (the owners of Medley were, like the Princess herself, of the old persuasion); the musicians’ gallery, over the hall; the tapestried room, which people came from a distance to see; and the haunted chamber (the two were sometimes confounded, but they were quite distinct), where a dreadful individual at certain times made his appearance—a dwarfish ghost, with an enormous head, a dispossessed brother, of long ago (the eldest), who had passed for an idiot, which he wasn’t, and had somehow been made away with. The Princess offered her visitor the privilege of sleeping in this apartment, declaring, however, that nothing would induce her even to enter it alone, she being a benighted creature, consumed with abject superstitions. “I don’t know whether I am religious, and whether, if I were, my religion would be superstitious, but my superstitions are certainly religious.” She made her young friend pass through the drawing-room very cursorily, remarking that they should see it again: it was rather stupid—drawing-rooms in English country-houses were always stupid; indeed, if it would amuse him, they would sit there after dinner. Madame Grandoni and she usually sat upstairs, but they would do anything that he should find more comfortable.
That was the start of the unique time they were about to share—given their different backgrounds—that he had come to Medley to experience, and it quickly moved into some very interesting moments. The Princess had an incredible way of taking things for granted, ignoring challenges, and assuming that her wishes could instantly become reality. After Hyacinth spent another ten minutes with her—a time mostly filled with her delighted surprise that he had experienced so little of what Medley offered (Where else would he have seen it, good heavens? he wondered); after she had briefly paused from her piano playing, she suggested they go outside together. She was a serious walker—she needed her walk. She left him for a moment, giving him the latest issue of the Revue des Deux Mondes to keep himself entertained, specifically pointing out a story by M. Octave Feuillet (she would be very curious to hear his thoughts on it); then she returned with her hat and parasol, putting on her long gloves, presenting herself to him as if she had stepped right out of M. Feuillet’s novel, which he had just become absorbed in. As they walked downstairs, it occurred to her that he hadn’t seen the house yet and it would be fun for her to give him a tour; so she detoured and took him through it, up and down and all around, even into the large, old-fashioned kitchen, where a small, red-faced man was wearing a white jacket, apron, and cap (he took off the cap to greet the little bookbinder), with whom she spoke Italian, which Hyacinth understood enough to notice that she addressed her cook informally, as if he were a loyal servant. He remembered that’s how the three Musketeers talked to their attendants. The Princess explained that the gentleman in the white cap was wonderful (she couldn’t stand English servants, though she had to keep a couple), who would make her lots of risottos and polentas—she really had the taste of a peasant woman. She showed Hyacinth everything: the strange, transformed corner that used to be a chapel; the secret staircase that had been used during the persecution of Catholics (the owners of Medley were, like the Princess herself, of the traditional belief); the musicians’ gallery above the hall; the tapestried room that visitors came from far away to see; and the haunted room (the two were sometimes confused, but they were clearly different), where a terrifying figure appeared at certain times—a short ghost with a huge head, a long-lost brother from ages ago (the eldest), who had been thought of as an idiot, which he wasn’t, and had somehow been gotten rid of. The Princess offered her guest the chance to sleep in this room, stating, however, that nothing would convince her to even step inside alone, as she was a lost soul plagued by irrational superstitions. “I don’t know if I’m religious, and even if I were, whether my beliefs would be superstitions, but my superstitions are definitely religious.” She made her young friend quickly pass through the drawing-room, saying they would come back to it later: it was rather dull—drawing-rooms in English country houses were always dull; in fact, if it would amuse him, they could sit there after dinner. Madame Grandoni and she usually sat upstairs, but they would do whatever would make him feel more comfortable.
At last they went out of the house together, and as they did so she explained, as if she wished to justify herself against the imputation of extravagance, that, though the place doubtless struck him as absurdly large for a couple of quiet women, and the whole thing was not in the least what she would have preferred, yet it was all far cheaper than he probably imagined; she would never have looked at it if it hadn’t been cheap. It must appear to him so preposterous for a woman to associate herself with the great uprising of the poor and yet live in palatial halls—a place with forty or fifty rooms. This was one of only two allusions she made that day to her democratic sympathies; but it fell very happily, for Hyacinth had been reflecting precisely upon the anomaly she mentioned. It had been present to him all day; it added much to the way life practised on his sense of the tragic-comical to think of the Princess’s having retired to that magnificent residence in order to concentrate her mind upon the London slums. He listened, therefore, with great attention while she related that she had taken the house for only three months, in any case, because she wanted to rest, after a winter of visiting and living in public (as the English spent their lives, with all their celebrated worship of the ‘home’), and yet didn’t wish as yet to return to town—though she was obliged to confess that she had still the place in South Street on her hands, thanks to her deciding unexpectedly to go on with it rather than move out her things. But one had to keep one’s things somewhere, and why wasn’t that as good a receptacle as another? Medley was not what she would have chosen if she had been left to herself; but she had not been left to herself—she never was; she had been bullied into taking it by the owners, whom she had met somewhere and who had made up to her immensely, persuading her that she might really have it for nothing—for no more than she would give for the little honeysuckle cottage, the old parsonage embowered in clematis, which were really what she had been looking for. Besides it was one of those old musty mansions, ever so far from town, which it was always difficult to let, or to get a price for; and then it was a wretched house for living in. Hyacinth, for whom his three hours in the train had been a series of happy throbs, had not been struck with its geographical remoteness, and he asked the Princess what she meant, in such a connection, by using the word ‘wretched’. To this she replied that the place was tumbling to pieces, inconvenient in every respect, full of ghosts and bad smells. “That is the only reason I come to have it. I don’t want you to think me more luxurious than I am, or that I throw away money. Never, never!” Hyacinth had no standard by which he could measure the importance his opinion would have for her, and he perceived that though she judged him as a creature still open to every initiation, whose naïveté would entertain her, it was also her fancy to treat him as an old friend, a person to whom she might have had the habit of referring her difficulties. Her performance of the part she had undertaken to play was certainly complete, and everything lay before him but the reason she had for playing it.
Finally, they stepped out of the house together, and as they did, she explained, as if she wanted to defend herself against accusations of being extravagant, that even though the place probably seemed absurdly large for two quiet women, and it wasn’t at all what she would have preferred, it was actually much cheaper than he might think; she wouldn’t have considered it at all if it hadn’t been affordable. It must seem ridiculous to him for a woman to be part of the great movement for the poor and yet live in extravagant halls—a place with forty or fifty rooms. This was one of only two times she hinted at her democratic sympathies that day, but it was quite fitting, as Hyacinth had been contemplating exactly the contradiction she mentioned. It had crossed his mind all day; it made life feel even more tragic-comical to think of the Princess settling into that magnificent house to focus on the London slums. He listened intently as she shared that she had only rented the house for three months because she wanted to rest after a winter filled with visits and public life (the way the English live, despite their famous love for the ‘home’), but she didn’t yet want to go back to the city—though she had to admit that she still had her place on South Street, since she decided unexpectedly to keep it rather than move her things out. But you have to store your things somewhere, and why shouldn’t this place be as good as any? Medley wasn’t her first choice if she’d been given the option; but she hadn’t been given a choice—she never was; she had been pressured into taking it by the owners, whom she had met somewhere and who had been very flattering, convincing her that she could really have it for practically nothing—no more than she would pay for the little honeysuckle cottage, the old parsonage covered in clematis, which was what she had actually been searching for. Besides, it was one of those old, dusty mansions far from town that were always hard to rent or sell; and on top of that, it was a terrible place to live in. Hyacinth, who had spent his three hours on the train feeling excited, didn’t see its geographical distance as a drawback, and he asked the Princess what she meant by calling it ‘wretched’ in that context. She replied that the place was falling apart, inconvenient in every way, filled with ghosts and bad odors. “That’s the only reason I agreed to take it. I don’t want you to think I’m more extravagant than I am, or that I waste money. Never, never!” Hyacinth had no way of knowing how much his opinion mattered to her, and he realized that while she viewed him as someone still open to new ideas, whose naïveté would entertain her, she also seemed to treat him like an old friend, someone with whom she might typically share her troubles. She was definitely committed to the role she was playing, and everything was laid out before him except for the reason behind why she was playing it.
One of the gardens at Medley took the young man’s heart beyond the others; it had high brick walls, on the sunny sides of which was a great training of apricots and plums, and straight walks, bordered with old-fashioned homely flowers, inclosing immense squares where other fruit-trees stood upright and mint and lavender floated in the air. In the southern quarter it overhung a small, disused canal, and here a high embankment had been raised, which was also long and broad and covered with fine turf; so that the top of it, looking down at the canal, made a magnificent grassy terrace, than which, on a summer’s day, there could be no more delightful place for strolling up and down with a companion—all the more that, at either end, was a curious pavilion, in the manner of a tea-house, which completed the scene in an old-world sense and offered rest and privacy, a refuge from sun or shower. One of these pavilions was an asylum for gardeners’ tools and superfluous flower-pots; the other was covered, inside, with a queer Chinese paper, representing ever so many times over a group of people with faces like blind kittens, having tea while they sat on the floor. It also contained a big, clumsy inlaid cabinet, in which cups and saucers showed themselves through doors of greenish glass, together with a carved cocoanut and a pair of outlandish idols. On a shelf, over a sofa, not very comfortable though it had cushions of faded tapestry, which looked like samplers, was a row of novels, out of date and out of print—novels that one couldn’t have found any more and that were only there. On the chimney-piece was a bowl of dried rose-leaves, mixed with some aromatic spice, and the whole place suggested a certain dampness.
One of the gardens at Medley captured the young man's heart more than the others; it had tall brick walls, on the sunny sides of which grew a lot of apricots and plums, with straight paths lined with old-fashioned flowers, enclosing large squares where more fruit trees stood tall and mint and lavender scented the air. In the southern part, it overlooked a small, unused canal, and here a high embankment had been built, broad and long and covered with lush grass; so that the top of it, looking down at the canal, created a beautiful grassy terrace, which on a summer's day was the most pleasant place to stroll with a companion—especially since at both ends there were quirky pavilions styled like tea houses, completing the scene with an old-world charm and offering rest and privacy, a refuge from sun or rain. One of these pavilions was a storage for gardening tools and extra flower pots; the other was lined inside with a strange Chinese paper, depicting a group of people with faces resembling blind kittens, having tea while sitting on the floor. It also held a big, awkward inlaid cabinet, where cups and saucers peeked through greenish glass doors, alongside a carved coconut and a pair of unusual idols. Above a not-so-comfortable sofa, despite its faded tapestry cushions that looked like samplers, was a shelf filled with novels that were outdated and out of print—books that couldn't be found anymore and that were simply there. On the mantelpiece was a bowl of dried rose leaves mixed with some fragrant spice, and the place overall had a certain dampness to it.
On the terrace Hyacinth paced to and fro with the Princess until she suddenly remembered that he had not had his luncheon. He protested that this was the last thing he wished to think of, but she declared that she had not asked him down to Medley to starve him and that he must go back and be fed. They went back, but by a very roundabout way, through the park, so that they really had half an hour’s more talk. She explained to him that she herself breakfasted at twelve o’clock, in the foreign fashion, and had tea in the afternoon; as he too was so foreign he might like that better, and in this case, on the morrow, they would breakfast together. He could have coffee, and anything else he wanted, brought to his room when he woke up. When Hyacinth had sufficiently composed himself, in the presence of this latter image—he thought he saw a footman arranging a silver service at his bedside—he mentioned that really, as regarded the morrow, he should have to be back in London. There was a train at nine o’clock; he hoped she didn’t mind his taking it. She looked at him a moment, gravely and kindly, as if she were considering an abstract idea, and then she said, “Oh yes, I mind it very much. Not to-morrow—some other day.” He made no rejoinder, and the Princess spoke of something else; that is, his rejoinder was private, and consisted of the reflection that he would leave Medley in the morning, whatever she might say. He simply couldn’t afford to stay; he couldn’t be out of work. And then Madame Grandoni thought it so important; for though the old lady was obscure she was decidedly impressive. The Princess’s protest, however, was to be reckoned with; he felt that it might take a form less cursory than the words she had just uttered, which would make it embarrassing. She was less solemn, less explicit, than Madame Grandoni had been, but there was something in her slight seriousness and the delicate way in which she signified a sort of command that seemed to tell him his liberty was going—the liberty he had managed to keep (till the other day, when he gave Hoffendahl a mortgage on it), and the possession of which had in some degree consoled him for other forms of penury. This made him uneasy; what would become of him if he should add another servitude to the one he had undertaken, at the end of that long, anxious cab-drive in the rain, in that dim back-bedroom of a house as to whose whereabouts he was even now not clear, while Muniment and Poupin and Schinkel, all visibly pale, listened and accepted the vow? Muniment and Poupin and Schinkel—how disconnected, all the same, he felt from them at the present hour; how little he was the young man who had made the pilgrimage in the cab; and how the two latter, at least, if they could have a glimpse of him now, would wonder what he was up to!
On the terrace, Hyacinth paced back and forth with the Princess until she suddenly remembered that he hadn’t had lunch. He insisted that this was the last thing he wanted to think about, but she insisted she hadn’t invited him to Medley just to let him starve, and that he needed to go back and eat. They returned, but took a very roundabout route through the park, allowing for another half-hour of conversation. She explained that she had breakfast at noon, in a foreign style, and had tea in the afternoon; since he was also foreign, he might prefer that, and they could have breakfast together the next day. He could have coffee or anything else he wanted brought to his room when he woke up. Once Hyacinth calmed down, imagining a footman setting a silver service by his bedside, he mentioned that he would have to return to London the next day. There was a train at nine o'clock, and he hoped she wouldn’t mind him taking it. She looked at him for a moment, seriously and kindly, as if considering an abstract thought, and then said, “Oh yes, I mind it very much. Not tomorrow—some other day.” He didn’t respond, and the Princess changed the subject; his unspoken reply was that he would leave Medley in the morning, no matter what she said. He simply couldn’t afford to stay; he couldn’t be out of work. And Madame Grandoni thought it was very important; despite being somewhat obscure, she was quite impressive. However, the Princess's objection had to be taken seriously; he felt it might manifest in a more pointed way than the words she had just spoken, which would lead to an awkward situation. She seemed less serious and less direct than Madame Grandoni had been, but there was something in her subtle seriousness and the delicate way she expressed a sort of command that suggested his freedom might be slipping away—the freedom he had managed to hold onto (until recently, when he gave Hoffendahl a mortgage on it), which had somewhat consoled him for other forms of deprivation. This thought made him uneasy; what would happen to him if he added another obligation to the one he had just taken on after that long, stressful cab ride in the rain, in that dim back bedroom of a house whose location he was still unclear about, while Muniment, Poupin, and Schinkel, all looking visibly pale, listened and accepted his vow? Muniment, Poupin, and Schinkel—how disconnected he felt from them now; how little he resembled the young man who had made the journey in the cab; and how the latter two, at least, if they could see him now, would wonder what he was up to!
As to this, Hyacinth wondered sufficiently himself, while the Princess touched upon the people and places she had seen, the impressions and conclusions she had gathered, since their former meeting. It was to such matters as these that she directed the conversation; she appeared to wish to keep it off his own concerns, and he was surprised at her continued avoidance of the slums and the question of her intended sacrifices. She mentioned none of her friends by name, but she talked of their character, their houses, their manners, taking for granted, as before, that Hyacinth would always follow. So far as he followed he was edified, but he had to admit to himself that half the time he didn’t know what she was talking about. At all events, if he had been with the dukes (she didn’t call her associates dukes, but Hyacinth was sure they were of that order), he would have got more satisfaction from them. She appeared, on the whole, to judge the English world severely; to think poorly of its wit, and even worse of its morals. “You know people oughtn’t to be both corrupt and dull,” she said; and Hyacinth turned this over, feeling that he certainly had not yet caught the point of view of a person for whom the aristocracy was a collection of bores. He had sometimes taken great pleasure in hearing that it was fabulously profligate, but he was rather disappointed in the bad account the Princess gave of it. She remarked that she herself was very corrupt—she ought to have mentioned that before—but she had never been accused of being stupid. Perhaps he would discover it, but most of the people she had had to do with thought her only too lively. The second allusion that she made to their ulterior designs (Hyacinth’s and hers) was when she said, “I determined to see it”—she was speaking still of English society—“to learn for myself what it really is, before we blow it up. I have been here now a year and a half, and, as I tell you, I feel that I have seen. It is the old régime again, the rottenness and extravagance, bristling with every iniquity and every abuse, over which the French Revolution passed like a whirlwind; or perhaps even more a reproduction of Roman society in its decadence, gouty, apoplectic, depraved, gorged and clogged with wealth and spoils, selfishness and scepticism, and waiting for the onset of the barbarians. You and I are the barbarians, you know.” The Princess was pretty general, after all, in her animadversions, and regaled him with no anecdotes (he rather missed them) that would have betrayed the hospitality she had enjoyed. She couldn’t treat him absolutely as if he had been an ambassador. By way of defending the aristocracy he said to her that it couldn’t be true they were all a bad lot (he used that expression because she had let him know that she liked him to speak in the manner of the people), inasmuch as he had an acquaintance among them—a noble lady—who was one of the purest, kindest, most conscientious human beings it was possible to imagine. At this she stopped short and looked at him; then she asked, “Whom do you mean—a noble lady?”
As for this, Hyacinth wondered to himself, while the Princess talked about the people and places she had seen, along with the impressions and conclusions she had formed since they last met. She focused the conversation on those topics, seemingly wanting to steer clear of his own issues, and he was surprised by her ongoing avoidance of the slums and her intended sacrifices. She mentioned none of her friends by name, but she described their personalities, their homes, their manners, assuming, as before, that Hyacinth would always keep up. As far as he did follow, he was interested, but he had to admit to himself that half the time he didn’t understand what she was talking about. In any case, if he had been with the dukes (she didn’t call her friends dukes, but Hyacinth was sure they were of that sort), he would have gotten more satisfaction from them. Overall, she seemed to judge the English society harshly, thinking little of its wit and even less of its morals. “You know people shouldn’t be both corrupt and dull,” she said, and Hyacinth pondered this, realizing he hadn’t yet grasped the perspective of someone who viewed the aristocracy as a group of boring individuals. He had sometimes taken pleasure in hearing it was extremely debauched, but he felt somewhat let down by the negative picture the Princess painted of it. She noted that she herself was very corrupt—she should have mentioned that earlier—but she had never been accused of being stupid. Maybe he would find out, but most of the people she dealt with thought she was too lively. The second hint she gave about their underlying intentions (his and hers) was when she said, “I decided to see it”—she was still talking about English society—“to find out for myself what it really is, before we blow it up. I’ve been here for a year and a half now, and, as I said, I feel I’ve seen enough. It’s the old regime again, the decay and extravagance, filled with every injustice and abuse, over which the French Revolution swept like a storm; or maybe even more like a replica of Roman society in its decline, sickly, overindulged, corrupt, stuffed and weighed down with wealth and spoils, selfishness and skepticism, just waiting for the barbarians to arrive. You and I are the barbarians, you know.” The Princess was quite general in her criticisms and didn’t share any stories (he missed those) that would reveal the hospitality she had experienced. She couldn’t treat him entirely as if he were an ambassador. In defense of the aristocracy, he told her that it couldn’t be true that they were all a bad bunch (he used that term because she had indicated she liked him to speak like common people), since he had a friend among them—a noble lady—who was one of the purest, kindest, most conscientious people imaginable. At this, she paused and looked at him; then she asked, “Who do you mean—a noble lady?”
“I suppose there is no harm saying. Lady Aurora Langrish.”
“I guess there’s no harm in saying. Lady Aurora Langrish.”
“I don’t know her. Is she nice?”
“I don’t know her. Is she cool?”
“I like her ever so much.”
“I really like her a lot.”
“Is she pretty, clever?”
"Is she pretty and smart?"
“She isn’t pretty, but she is very uncommon,” said Hyacinth.
“She’s not pretty, but she’s really unique,” said Hyacinth.
“How did you make her acquaintance?” As he hesitated, she went on, “Did you bind some books for her?”
“How did you meet her?” As he paused, she continued, “Did you bind some books for her?”
“No. I met her in a place called Audley Court.”
“No. I met her at a place called Audley Court.”
“Where is that?”
“Where's that?”
“In Camberwell.”
“In Camberwell.”
“And who lives there?”
"Who lives there?"
“A young woman I was calling on, who is bedridden.”
“A young woman I was visiting who is confined to her bed.”
“And the lady you speak of—what do you call her, Lydia Languish?—goes to see her?”
“And the woman you're talking about—what do you call her, Lydia Languish?—does she go to see her?”
“Yes, very often.”
"Yeah, all the time."
The Princess was silent a moment, looking at him. “Will you take me there?”
The Princess was quiet for a moment, staring at him. “Will you take me there?”
“With great pleasure. The young woman I speak of is the sister of the chemist’s assistant you will perhaps remember that I mentioned to you.”
“With great pleasure. The young woman I’m talking about is the sister of the chemist’s assistant you might remember I mentioned to you.”
“Yes, I remember. It must be one of the first places we go to. I am sorry,” the Princess added, walking on. Hyacinth inquired what she might be sorry for, but she took no notice of his question, and presently remarked, “Perhaps she goes to see him.”
“Yes, I remember. It must be one of the first places we go to. I’m sorry,” the Princess added, continuing on. Hyacinth asked what she was sorry about, but she ignored his question and soon said, “Maybe she’s going to see him.”
“Goes to see whom?”
“Who are they going to see?”
“The chemist’s assistant—the brother.” She said this very seriously.
“The chemist’s assistant—the brother.” She said this very seriously.
“Perhaps she does,” Hyacinth rejoined, laughing. “But she is a fine sort of woman.”
“Maybe she does,” Hyacinth replied, laughing. “But she’s a really great woman.”
The Princess repeated that she was sorry, and he again asked her for what—for Lady Aurora’s being of that sort? To which she replied, “No; I mean for my not being the first—what is it you call them?—noble lady that you have encountered.”
The Princess said she was sorry again, and he asked her what she was sorry for—was it because Lady Aurora was like that? She answered, "No; I mean because I’m not the first—what do you call them?—noble lady you’ve met."
“I don’t see what difference that makes. You needn’t be afraid you don’t make an impression on me.”
“I don’t see how that matters. You don’t need to worry about not making an impression on me.”
“I was not thinking of that. I was thinking that you might be less fresh than I thought.”
“I wasn't thinking about that. I was thinking you might not be as fresh as I assumed.”
“Of course I don’t know what you thought,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“Of course I don’t know what you were thinking,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“No; how should you?”
"No, how would you?"
XXIII
He was in the library, after luncheon, when word was brought to him that the carriage was at the door, for their drive; and when he went into the hall he found Madame Grandoni, bonneted and cloaked, awaiting the descent of the Princess. “You see I go with you. I am always there,” she remarked, jovially. “The Princess has me with her to take care of her, and this is how I do it. Besides, I never miss my drive.”
He was in the library after lunch when he got word that the carriage was at the door for their outing. When he stepped into the hall, he found Madame Grandoni, fully dressed and ready, waiting for the Princess to come down. “You see I'm going with you. I'm always around,” she said cheerfully. “The Princess has me with her to look after her, and this is how I do it. Plus, I never miss my drive.”
“You are different from me; this will be the first I have ever had in my life.” He could establish that distinction without bitterness, because he was too pleased with his prospect to believe the old lady’s presence could spoil it. He had nothing to say to the Princess that she might not hear. He didn’t dislike her for coming, even after she had said to him, in answer to his own announcement, speaking rather more sententiously than was her wont, “It doesn’t surprise me that you have not spent your life in carriages. They have nothing to do with your trade.”
“You’re different from me; this is the first time I’ve ever experienced this in my life.” He could make that distinction without any resentment, because he was too excited about his future to think the old lady's presence would ruin it. He had nothing to say to the Princess that she wouldn’t overhear. He didn’t mind her coming, even after she responded to his announcement, sounding a bit more serious than usual, “I’m not surprised you haven’t spent your life in carriages. They don’t really relate to your profession.”
“Fortunately not,” he answered. “I should have made a ridiculous coachman.”
“Luckily not,” he replied. “I would have made a ridiculous driver.”
The Princess appeared, and they mounted into a great square barouche, an old-fashioned, high-hung vehicle, with a green body, a faded hammer-cloth and a rumble where the footman sat (the Princess mentioned that it had been let with the house), which rolled ponderously and smoothly along the winding avenue and through the gilded gates (they were surmounted with an immense escutcheon) of the park. The progress of this oddly composed trio had a high respectability, and that is one of the reasons why Hyacinth felt the occasion to be tremendously memorable. There might still be greater joys in store for him—he was by this time quite at sea, and could recognise no shores—but he would never again in his life be so respectable. The drive was long and comprehensive, but very little was said while it lasted. “I shall show you the whole country: it is exquisitely beautiful; it speaks to the heart.” Of so much as this his hostess had informed him at the start; and she added, in French, with a light, allusive nod at the rich, humanised landscape, “Voilà ce que j’aime en Angleterre.” For the rest, she sat there opposite to him, in quiet fairness, under her softly-swaying, lace-fringed parasol: moving her eyes to where she noticed that his eyes rested; allowing them, when the carriage passed anything particularly charming, to meet his own; smiling as if she enjoyed the whole affair very nearly as much as he; and now and then calling his attention to some prospect, some picturesque detail, by three words of which the cadence was sociable. Madame Grandoni dozed most of the time, with her chin resting on rather a mangy ermine tippet, in which she had enveloped herself; expanding into consciousness at moments, however, to greet the scenery with comfortable polyglot ejaculations. If Hyacinth was exalted, during these delightful hours, he at least measured his exaltation, and it kept him almost solemnly still, as if with the fear that a wrong movement of any sort would break the charm, cause the curtain to fall upon the play. This was especially the case when his senses oscillated back from the objects that sprang up by the way, every one of which was a rich image of something he had longed for, to the most beautiful woman in England, who sat there, close to him, as completely for his benefit as if he had been a painter engaged to make her portrait. More than once he saw everything through a mist; his eyes were full of tears.
The Princess showed up, and they got into a large, old-fashioned carriage with a green body, a worn-out canopy, and a seat for the footman (the Princess mentioned that it came with the house). The carriage rolled heavily but smoothly along the winding road and through the golden gates (which featured a huge coat of arms) of the park. The unusual trio had an air of respectability, which is one reason Hyacinth felt like this moment was incredibly significant. There might be even greater joys ahead—he was lost in thought and couldn’t see any shore—but he would never again be this respectable in his life. The drive was long, but not much was said during it. “I’ll show you the whole countryside: it’s stunningly beautiful; it touches the heart.” His host had informed him of this at the outset, adding in French, with a light, suggestive nod towards the rich, vibrant landscape, “Voilà ce que j’aime en Angleterre.” For the rest of the ride, she sat across from him, calmly elegant, under her softly-swaying lace parasol: shifting her gaze to where she noticed his eyes lingered; allowing their eyes to meet when the carriage passed something particularly lovely; smiling as if she enjoyed the entire experience nearly as much as he did; and occasionally drawing his attention to some view or picturesque detail with a few words that felt friendly. Madame Grandoni dozed for most of the ride, her chin resting on a somewhat shabby ermine wrap she had bundled herself in; waking up now and then to greet the scenery with comfortable, multilingual exclamations. If Hyacinth felt uplifted during these enjoyable hours, he at least measured that feeling, and it kept him almost solemnly still, as if fearing that any wrong movement would shatter the magic and end the performance. This was especially true when his senses shifted back from the captivating sights they passed, each one a vivid representation of something he had yearned for, to the most beautiful woman in England who sat next to him, completely there for his benefit as if he were a painter commissioned to create her portrait. More than once, he found everything blurring; his eyes filled with tears.
That evening they sat in the drawing-room after dinner, as the Princess had promised, or, as he was inclined to consider it, threatened him. The force of the threat was in his prevision that the ladies would make themselves fine, and that in contrast with the setting and company he should feel dingier than ever; having already on his back the only tolerably decent coat he possessed, and being unable to exchange it for a garment of the pattern that civilised people (so much he knew, if he couldn’t emulate them) put on about eight o’clock. The ladies, when they came to dinner, looked festal indeed; but Hyacinth was able to make the reflection that he was more pleased to be dressed as he was dressed, meanly and unsuitably as it was, than he should have been to present such a figure as Madame Grandoni, in whose toggery there was something comical. He was coming more and more round to the sense that if the Princess didn’t mind his poorness, in every way, he had no call to mind it himself. His present circumstances were not of his seeking—they had been forced upon him; they were not the fruit of a disposition to push. How little the Princess minded—how much, indeed, she enjoyed the consciousness that in having him about her in that manner she was playing a trick upon society, the false and conventional society she had measured and despised—was manifest from the way she had introduced him to the people they found awaiting them in the hall on the return from their drive: four ladies, a mother and three daughters, who had come over to call, from Broome, a place some five miles off. Broome was also a great house, as he gathered, and Lady Marchant, the mother, was the wife of a county magnate. She explained that they had come in on the persuasion of the butler, who had represented the return of the Princess as imminent, and who then had administered tea without waiting for this event. The evening had drawn in chill; there was a fire in the hall, and they all sat near it, round the tea-table, under the great roof which rose to the top of the house. Hyacinth conversed mainly with one of the daughters, a very fine girl with a straight back and long arms, whose neck was encircled so tightly with a fur boa that, to look a little to one side, she was obliged to move her whole body. She had a handsome, inanimate face, over which the firelight played without making it more lively, a beautiful voice, and the occasional command of a few short words. She asked Hyacinth with what pack he hunted, and whether he went in much for tennis, and she ate three muffins.
That evening, they sat in the living room after dinner, as the Princess had promised—or, as he liked to think of it, threatened him. The threat loomed in his mind with the expectation that the ladies would dress up, making him feel even more out of place compared to the surroundings and company; he was already wearing the only decent coat he owned and couldn't swap it for something more fashionable that civilized people typically wore around eight o'clock. When the ladies arrived for dinner, they looked quite festive; however, Hyacinth was more content being dressed as he was, shabby and inappropriate as it felt, than he would have been being seen like Madame Grandoni, whose outfit was somewhat ridiculous. He was increasingly realizing that if the Princess didn’t care about his poverty—socially or otherwise—then he didn’t have to care either. His current situation wasn't by choice; it had been thrust upon him and wasn't a result of a pushy attitude. How little the Princess cared—or how much she actually loved the idea that having him around in that way was a playful jab at the pretentious society she had assessed and looked down upon—was clear from how she introduced him to the group waiting for them in the hall after their drive: four ladies, a mother and her three daughters, who had come over from Broome, a place about five miles away. Broome was also a notable residence, as he learned, and Lady Marchant, the mother, was the wife of a notable figure in the county. She explained that they had come over at the butler's suggestion, who had mentioned that the Princess was returning soon, and then had served tea without waiting for that event. The evening had grown chilly; there was a fire in the hall, and they all gathered around the tea table, underneath the grand ceiling that rose all the way to the top of the house. Hyacinth mostly talked with one of the daughters, a striking girl with a straight back and long arms, her neck tightly wrapped in a fur boa that forced her to move her whole body when she wanted to turn her head. She had a beautiful, expressionless face that the firelight illuminated without bringing it to life, a lovely voice, and the occasional use of a few short phrases. She asked Hyacinth which pack he hunted with and whether he played tennis much, while she ate three muffins.
Our young man perceived that Lady Marchant and her daughters had already been at Medley, and even guessed that their reception by the Princess, who probably thought them of a tiresome type, had not been enthusiastic; and his imagination projected itself, further still, into the motives which, in spite of this tepidity, must have led them, in consideration of the rarity of princesses in that country, to come a second time. The talk, in the firelight, while Hyacinth laboured, rather recklessly (for the spirit of the occasion, on his hostess’s part, was passing into his own blood), with his muffin-eating beauty—the conversation, accompanied with the light click of delicate tea-cups, was as well-bred as could be consistent with an odd, evident parti-pris of the Princess’s to make poor Lady Marchant explain everything. With great urbanity of manner, she professed complete inability to understand the sense in which her visitor meant her thin remarks; and Hyacinth was scarcely able to follow her here, he wondered so what interest she could have in trying to appear dense. It was only afterwards he learned that the Marchant family produced a very peculiar, and at moments almost maddening, effect upon her nerves. He asked himself what would happen to that member of it with whom he was engaged if it should be revealed to her that she was conversing (how little soever) with a beggarly London artisan; and though he was rather pleased at her not having discovered his station (for he didn’t attribute her brevity to this idea), he entertained a little the question of its being perhaps his duty not to keep it hidden from her, not to flourish in a cowardly disguise. What did she take him for—or, rather, what didn’t she take him for—when she asked him if he hunted? Perhaps that was because it was rather dark; if there had been more light in the great vague hall she would have seen he was not one of themselves. Hyacinth felt that by this time he had associated a good deal with swells, but they had always known what he was and had been able to elect how to treat him. This was the first occasion on which a young gentlewoman had not been warned, and, as a consequence, he appeared to pass muster. He determined not to unmask himself, on the simple ground that he should by the same stroke betray the Princess. It was quite open to her to lean over and say to Miss Marchant, “You know he’s a wretched little bookbinder, earning a few shillings a week in a horrid street in Soho. There are all kinds of low things—and I suspect even something very horrible—connected with his birth. It seems to me I ought to mention it.” He almost wished she would mention it, for the sake of the strange, violent sensation of the thing, a curiosity quivering within him to know what Miss Marchant would do at such a pinch, and what chorus of ejaculations—or, what appalled, irremediable silence—would rise to the painted roof. The responsibility, however, was not his; he had entered a phase of his destiny where responsibilities were suspended. Madame Grandoni’s tea had waked her up; she came, at every crisis, to the rescue of the conversation, and talked to the visitors about Rome, where they had once spent a winter, describing with much drollery the manner in which the English families she had seen there for nearly half a century (and had met, of an evening, in the Roman world) inspected the ruins and monuments and squeezed into the great ceremonies of the church. Clearly, the four ladies didn’t know what to make of the Princess; but, though they perhaps wondered if she were a paid companion, they were on firm ground in the fact that the queer, familiar, fat person had been acquainted with the Millingtons, the Bunburys and the Tripps.
Our young man noticed that Lady Marchant and her daughters had already been to Medley and even guessed that their reception by the Princess, who probably found them boring, had not been enthusiastic. His imagination reached further into the reasons that, despite this lukewarm reception, must have prompted them to come a second time, given the rarity of princesses in that country. The conversation by the firelight, while Hyacinth engaged rather recklessly (as the spirit of the occasion from his hostess was flowing into him), with his muffin-eating companion—the exchange, accompanied by the light clink of delicate tea cups, was as polite as could be, albeit with a noticeable inclination of the Princess to make poor Lady Marchant explain everything. With great politeness, she claimed she couldn't understand the sense of her visitor's vague remarks, and Hyacinth could barely keep up, so puzzled was he by her insistence on appearing slow-witted. It was only later that he discovered the Marchant family had a peculiar and at times almost infuriating effect on her nerves. He wondered what would happen to the member of its family he was talking to if she found out she was conversing (even if only slightly) with a poor artisan from London; and while he felt a bit relieved that she hadn’t realized his status (he didn’t think her briefness was due to that), he entertained the idea that it might be his duty not to keep it hidden from her, to avoid living in a cowardly disguise. What did she think he was—or rather, what did she think he wasn’t—when she asked him if he hunted? Perhaps it was because it was kind of dark; if there had been more light in the large, undefined hall, she would have recognized he wasn’t one of them. Hyacinth felt that by this point, he had mingled quite a bit with high-status people, but they always knew who he was and could choose how to treat him. This was the first time a young lady hadn’t been warned, and as a result, he seemed to blend in. He decided not to reveal his true identity, simply because doing so would also betray the Princess. It was completely within her right to lean over and say to Miss Marchant, “You know he’s a pathetic little bookbinder, making a few shillings a week in a dreadful street in Soho. There are all kinds of low things—and I suspect something really horrible—connected with his origins. I think I should mention it.” He almost wished she would, just for the intense, strange thrill of it; he felt a curiosity stirring within him to see what Miss Marchant would do in such a situation and what reactions—or what stunned silence—would ripple beneath the painted ceiling. However, the responsibility wasn't his; he had entered a phase of his life where responsibilities were set aside. Madame Grandoni’s tea had invigorated her; she stepped in to rescue the conversation at every critical moment, talking to the guests about Rome, where they had once spent a winter, humorously describing how the English families she’d seen there over the past fifty years (and had met in the evenings within the Roman society) explored the ruins and monuments and squeezed into the grand ceremonies of the church. Clearly, the four ladies didn't know what to make of the Princess; but though they might have wondered if she was a paid companion, they were on solid ground in knowing that the odd, familiar, plump woman had connections with the Millingtons, the Bunburys, and the Tripps.
After dinner (during which the Princess allowed herself a considerable license of pleasantry on the subject of her recent visitors, declaring that Hyacinth must positively go with her to return their call, and must see their interior, their manner at home), Madame Grandoni sat down to the piano, at Christina’s request, and played to her companions for an hour. The spaces were large in the big drawing-room, and our friends had placed themselves at a distance from each other. The old lady’s music trickled forth discreetly into the pleasant dimness of the candlelight; she knew dozens of Italian local airs, which sounded like the forgotten tunes of a people, and she followed them by a series of tender, plaintive German Lieder, awaking, without violence, the echoes of the high, pompous apartment. It was the music of an old woman, and seemed to quaver a little, as her singing might have done. The Princess, buried in a deep chair, listened, behind her fan. Hyacinth at least supposed she listened; at any rate, she never moved. At last Madame Grandoni left the piano and came toward the young man. She had taken up, on the way, a French book, in a pink cover, which she nursed in the hollow of her arm, and she stood looking at Hyacinth.
After dinner (during which the Princess had a good laugh about her recent visitors, insisting that Hyacinth absolutely had to accompany her to return their call and see their home and how they live), Madame Grandoni sat down at the piano, at Christina’s request, and played for her friends for an hour. The drawing-room was spacious, and our friends were sitting at a distance from one another. The old lady’s music flowed gently into the cozy dimness of the candlelight; she knew dozens of Italian folk songs that sounded like forgotten melodies of a people, and she followed them with a series of tender, sorrowful German songs, softly awakening the echoes of the grand apartment. It was the music of an older woman and had a slight quiver, much like her singing might have had. The Princess, settled into a deep chair, listened behind her fan. Hyacinth assumed she was listening; at least, she didn’t move. Eventually, Madame Grandoni left the piano and approached the young man. On her way, she picked up a pink-covered French book, which she cradled in her arm, and stood there looking at Hyacinth.
“My poor little friend, I must bid you good-night. I shall not see you again for the present, as, to take your early train, you will have left the house before I put on my wig—and I never show myself to gentlemen without it. I have looked after the Princess pretty well, all day, to keep her from harm, and now I give her up to you, for a little. Take the same care, I beg you. I must put myself into my dressing-gown; at my age, at this hour, it is the only thing. What will you have? I hate to be tight,” pursued Madame Grandoni, who appeared even in her ceremonial garment to have evaded this discomfort successfully enough. “Do not sit up late,” she added; “and do not keep him, Christina. Remember that for an active young man like Mr Robinson, going every day to his work, there is nothing more exhausting than such an unoccupied life as ours. For what do we do, after all? His eyes are very heavy. Basta!”
“My poor little friend, I have to say goodnight. I won’t see you again for now, since you’ll have left the house before I put on my wig to catch your early train—and I never show myself to guys without it. I’ve taken pretty good care of the Princess all day to keep her safe, and now I’m handing her over to you for a little while. Please take the same care, I beg you. I have to change into my dressing gown; at my age, at this hour, it’s the only thing to wear. What do you want? I can’t stand being tight,” continued Madame Grandoni, who seemed to have managed to avoid that discomfort even in her formal outfit. “Don’t stay up too late,” she added; “and don’t keep him, Christina. Remember, for an active young man like Mr. Robinson, who goes to work every day, there’s nothing more exhausting than this idle life we lead. After all, what do we do? His eyes are very heavy. Basta!”
During this little address the Princess, who made no rejoinder to that part of it which concerned herself, remained hidden behind her fan; but after Madame Grandoni had wandered away she lowered this emblazoned shield and rested her eyes for a while on Hyacinth. At last she said, “Don’t sit half a mile off. Come nearer to me. I want to say something to you that I can’t shout across the room.” Hyacinth instantly got up, but at the same moment she also rose; so that, approaching each other, they met half-way, before the great marble chimney-piece. She stood a little, opening and closing her fan; then she remarked, “You must be surprised at my not having yet spoken to you about our great interest.”
During this little speech, the Princess, who didn’t respond to the part that was about her, stayed hidden behind her fan; but after Madame Grandoni moved away, she lowered this decorative shield and looked at Hyacinth for a moment. Finally, she said, “Don’t sit so far away. Come closer. I want to tell you something that I can’t shout across the room.” Hyacinth immediately stood up, but at the same time, she also rose; so they met each other halfway, in front of the big marble fireplace. She paused for a moment, opening and closing her fan; then she said, “You must be surprised that I haven’t talked to you yet about our shared interest.”
“No, indeed, I am not surprised at anything.”
“No, I’m definitely not surprised by anything.”
“When you take that tone I feel as if we should never, after all, become friends,” said the Princess.
“When you speak like that, it makes me feel like we’ll never really become friends,” said the Princess.
“I hoped we were, already. Certainly, after the kindness you have shown me, there is no service of friendship that you might ask of me—”
“I hoped we were, already. Definitely, after the kindness you've shown me, there’s no favor of friendship you could ask from me—”
“That you wouldn’t gladly perform? I know what you are going to say, and have no doubt you speak truly. But what good would your service do me if, all the while, you think of me as a hollow-headed, hollow-hearted trifler, behaving in the worst possible taste and oppressing you with her attentions? Perhaps you can think of me as—what shall I call it?—as a kind of coquette.”
"That you wouldn’t willingly do? I know what you're about to say, and I’m sure you're being honest. But what good would your help be to me if, all along, you see me as a shallow, heartless flirt, acting in the worst way and smothering you with my attention? Maybe you consider me as—what should I call it?—a sort of tease."
Hyacinth demurred. “That would be very conceited.”
Hyacinth hesitated. “That would be really arrogant.”
“Surely, you have the right to be as conceited as you please, after the advances I have made you! Pray, who has a better one? But you persist in remaining humble, and that is very provoking.”
“Surely, you have the right to be as full of yourself as you want, after the efforts I've made for you! Seriously, who has it better? But you keep acting all humble, and that’s really frustrating.”
“It is not I that am provoking; it is life, and society, and all the difficulties that surround us.”
“It’s not me who’s causing the trouble; it’s life, society, and all the challenges that surround us.”
“I am precisely of that opinion—that they are exasperating; that when I appeal to you, frankly, candidly, disinterestedly—simply because I like you, for no other reason in the world—to help me to disregard and surmount these obstructions, to treat them with the contempt they deserve, you drop your eyes, you even blush a little, and make yourself small, and try to edge out of the situation by pleading general devotion and insignificance. Please remember this: you cease to be insignificant from the moment I have anything to do with you. My dear fellow,” the Princess went on, in her free, audacious, fraternising way, to which her beauty and simplicity gave nobleness, “there are people who would be very glad to enjoy, in your place, that form of obscurity.”
“I totally feel that way too—they can be really frustrating; when I ask you, honestly, openly, without any ulterior motive—just because I like you, and for no other reason at all—to help me ignore and overcome these obstacles, to treat them with the disregard they deserve, you look down, even blush a bit, and shrink away from the situation by talking about your general loyalty and how unimportant you are. Just remember this: you stop being unimportant the moment I engage with you. My dear friend,” the Princess continued, in her relaxed, bold, friendly manner, which her beauty and simplicity made dignified, “there are people who would be very happy to experience, in your position, that kind of obscurity.”
“What do you wish me to do?” Hyacinth asked, as quietly as he could.
“What do you want me to do?” Hyacinth asked, as quietly as he could.
If he had had an idea that this question, to which, as coming from his lips, and even as being uttered with perceptible impatience, a certain unexpectedness might attach, would cause her a momentary embarrassment, he was completely out in his calculation. She answered on the instant: “I want you to give me time! That’s all I ask of my friends, in general—all I ever asked of the best I have had. But none of them ever did it; none of them, that is, save the excellent creature who has just left us. She understood me long ago.”
If he had any idea that this question, coming from him and said with a noticeable impatience, might catch her off guard and cause her a moment of embarrassment, he completely misjudged it. She replied immediately, "I just want you to give me time! That’s all I ask from my friends, in general—all I’ve ever asked from the best ones I’ve had. But none of them ever did; well, none except for the wonderful person who just left us. She understood me a long time ago."
“That’s all I, on my side, ask of you,” said Hyacinth, smiling. “Give me time, give me time,” he murmured, looking up at her splendour.
“That’s all I, on my side, ask of you,” said Hyacinth, smiling. “Give me time, give me time,” he murmured, looking up at her beauty.
“Dear Mr Hyacinth, I have given you mouths!—months since our first meeting. And at present, haven’t I given you the whole day? It has been intentional, my not speaking to you of our plans. Yes, our plans; I know what I am saying. Don’t try to look stupid; you will never succeed. I wished to leave you free to amuse yourself.”
“Dear Mr. Hyacinth, I gave you months!—months since our first meeting. And right now, haven’t I given you the whole day? I’ve intentionally not talked to you about our plans. Yes, our plans; I know what I’m saying. Don’t try to look clueless; you’ll never pull that off. I wanted you to have the freedom to enjoy yourself.”
“Oh, I have amused myself,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, I’ve entertained myself,” said Hyacinth.
“You would have been very fastidious if you hadn’t! However, that is precisely, in the first place, what I wished you to come here for. To observe the impression made by such a place as this on such a nature as yours, introduced to it for the first time, has been, I assure you, quite worth my while. I have already given you a hint of how extraordinary I think it that you should be what you are without having seen—what shall I call them?—beautiful, delightful old things. I have been watching you; I am frank enough to tell you that. I want you to see more—more—more!” the Princess exclaimed, with a sudden flicker of passion. “And I want to talk with you about this matter, as well as others. That will be for to-morrow.”
“You would have been really picky if you hadn’t! But that’s exactly why I wanted you to come here in the first place. Seeing how a place like this impacts someone like you, experiencing it for the first time, has been totally worth my time. I’ve already hinted at how remarkable I find it that you are who you are without having seen—what should I call them?—beautiful, charming old things. I’ve been watching you; I’m honest enough to admit that. I want you to discover more—more—more!” the Princess exclaimed, with a sudden burst of passion. “And I want to discuss this and other things with you. We’ll do that tomorrow.”
“To-morrow?”
“Tomorrow?”
“I noticed Madame Grandoni took for granted just now that you are going. But that has nothing to do with the business. She has so little imagination!”
“I noticed Madame Grandoni assumed just now that you’re going. But that’s irrelevant to the matter at hand. She has such a lack of imagination!”
Hyacinth shook his head, smiling. “I can’t stay!” He had an idea his mind was made up.
Hyacinth shook his head and smiled. “I can’t stay!” He had a feeling his mind was made up.
She returned his smile, but there was something strangely touching—it was so sad, yet, as a rebuke, so gentle—in the tone in which she replied, “You oughtn’t to force me to beg. It isn’t nice.”
She smiled back at him, but there was something oddly moving—it was so sad, yet, as a gentle criticism, so soft—in the way she answered, “You shouldn’t make me beg. It’s not nice.”
He had reckoned without that tone; all his reasons suddenly seemed to fall from under him, to liquefy. He remained a moment, looking on the ground; then he said, “Princess, you have no idea—how should you have?—into the midst of what abject, pitiful preoccupations you thrust yourself. I have no money—I have no clothes.”
He hadn't anticipated that tone; all his reasons suddenly seemed to crumble beneath him, to dissolve. He paused for a moment, staring at the ground; then he said, “Princess, you have no idea—how could you?—of the miserable, pathetic worries you’re stepping into. I have no money—I have no clothes.”
“What do you want of money? This isn’t an hotel.”
“What do you want with money? This isn’t a hotel.”
“Every day I stay here I lose a day’s wages; and I live on my wages from day to day.”
“Every day I stay here, I lose a day’s pay; and I rely on my pay to get by each day.”
“Let me, then, give you wages. You will work for me.”
“Let me, then, pay you. You will work for me.”
“What do you mean—work for you?”
“What do you mean—work for you?”
“You will bind all my books. I have ever so many foreign ones, in paper.”
“You will put covers on all my books. I have a lot of foreign ones, in paperback.”
“You speak as if I had brought my tools!”
"You talk like I brought my tools!"
“No, I don’t imagine that. I will give you the wages now, and you can do the work, at your leisure and convenience, afterwards. Then, if you want anything, you can go over to Bonchester and buy it. There are very good shops; I have used them.” Hyacinth thought of a great many things at this juncture; the Princess had that quickening effect upon him. Among others, he thought of these two: first, that it was indelicate (though such an opinion was not very strongly held either in Pentonville or in Soho) to accept money from a woman; and second, that it was still more indelicate to make such a woman as that go down on her knees to him. But it took more than a minute for one of these convictions to prevail over the other, and before that he had heard the Princess continue, in the tone of mild, disinterested argument: “If we believe in the coming democracy, if it seems to us right and just, and we hold that in sweeping over the world the great wave will wash away a myriad iniquities and cruelties, why not make some attempt, with our own poor means—for one must begin somewhere—to carry out the spirit of it in our lives and our manners? I want to do that. I try to do it—in my relations with you, for instance. But you hang back; you are not democratic!”
“No, I don’t think that. I’ll give you the money now, and you can do the work whenever it suits you later. Then, if you need anything, you can go over to Bonchester and buy it. There are some really good shops; I’ve used them.” Hyacinth thought of a lot of things at this moment; the Princess had that energizing effect on him. Among other thoughts, he considered two things: first, that it was inappropriate (though not many in Pentonville or Soho felt strongly about this) to accept money from a woman; and second, that it was even more inappropriate to make such a woman as her go down on her knees to him. But it took more than a moment for one of these thoughts to win out over the other, and before that happened, he heard the Princess continue, with a tone of gentle, unbiased reasoning: “If we believe in the upcoming democracy, if it feels right and just to us, and we think that this great wave washing over the world will eliminate countless wrongs and cruelties, why not try, with our own limited resources—since we have to start somewhere—to embody that spirit in our lives and our behavior? I want to do that. I try to do it—like in my interactions with you, for example. But you hold back; you aren’t democratic!”
The Princess accusing him of a patrician offishness was a very fine stroke; nevertheless it left him lucidity enough (though he still hesitated an instant, wondering whether the words would not offend her) to say, with a smile, “I have been strongly warned against you.”
The Princess accusing him of being aloof was quite a clever move; however, it gave him enough clarity (even though he paused for a moment, considering whether the words might upset her) to say, with a smile, “I’ve been strongly warned about you.”
The offence seemed not to touch her. “I can easily understand that. Of course my proceedings—though, after all, I have done little enough as yet—must appear most unnatural. Che vuole? as Madame Grandoni says.”
The offense didn’t seem to affect her. “I can totally see that. Of course my actions—though, really, I haven't done much so far—must seem very strange. Che vuole? as Madame Grandoni says.”
A certain knot of light blue ribbon, which formed part of the trimming of her dress, hung down, at her side, in the folds of it. On these glossy loops Hyacinth’s eyes happened for a moment to have rested, and he now took one of them up and carried it to his lips. “I will do all the work for you that you will give me. If you give it on purpose, by way of munificence, that is your own affair. I myself will estimate the price. What decides me is that I shall do it so well; at least it shall be better than any one else can do—so that if you employ me there will have been that reason. I have brought you a book—so you can see. I did it for you last year, and went to South Street to give it to you, but you had already gone.”
A certain knot of light blue ribbon, which was part of her dress's trim, hung down at her side among the folds. Hyacinth's eyes happened to rest on these shiny loops for a moment, and he picked one up and brought it to his lips. “I’ll handle all the work you give me. If you give it out of kindness, that’s up to you. I’ll figure out the value myself. What motivates me is that I’ll do it really well; at least it’ll be better than anyone else can do—so if you hire me, that’ll be the reason. I brought you a book—so you can see. I did it for you last year and went to South Street to give it to you, but you had already left.”
“Give it to me to-morrow.” These words appeared to express so exclusively the calmness of relief at finding that he could be reasonable, as well as that of a friendly desire to see the proof of his talent, that he was surprised when she said, in the next breath, irrelevantly, “Who was it warned you against me?”
“Give it to me tomorrow.” These words seemed to convey the calm relief of realizing that he could be reasonable, along with a friendly eagerness to see proof of his talent. He was taken aback when she followed up with, completely out of the blue, “Who warned you about me?”
He feared she might suppose he meant Madame Grandoni, so he made the plainest answer, having no desire to betray the old lady, and reflecting that, as the likelihood was small that his friend in Camberwell would ever consent to meet the Princess (in spite of her plan of going there), no one would be hurt by it. “A friend of mine in London—Paul Muniment.”
He worried she might think he was talking about Madame Grandoni, so he gave the simplest answer, not wanting to put the old lady in a bad spot, and considering that it was unlikely his friend in Camberwell would ever agree to meet the Princess (despite her plan to go there), no one would be affected by it. “A friend of mine in London—Paul Muniment.”
“Paul Muniment?”
“Paul Muniment?”
“I think I mentioned him to you the first time we met.”
“I think I told you about him the first time we met.”
“The person who said something good? I forget what it was.”
“The person who said something nice? I can’t remember what it was.”
“It was sure to be something good if he said it; he is very wise.”
“It has to be something good if he said it; he’s really wise.”
“That makes his warning very flattering to me! What does he know about me?”
"That's really flattering to me! What does he know about me?"
“Oh, nothing, of course, except the little that I could tell him. He only spoke on general grounds.”
“Oh, nothing really, except for the little I was able to tell him. He only spoke in general terms.”
“I like his name—Paul Muniment,” the Princess said. “If he resembles it, I think I should like him.”
“I like his name—Paul Muniment,” the Princess said. “If he lives up to it, I think I would like him.”
“You would like him much better than me.”
“You would like him a lot more than you like me.”
“How do you know how much—or how little—I like you? I am determined to keep hold of you, simply for what you can show me.” She paused a moment, with her beautiful, intelligent eyes smiling into his own, and then she continued, “On general grounds, bien entendu, your friend was quite right to warn you. Now those general grounds are just what I have undertaken to make as small as possible. It is to reduce them to nothing that I talk to you, that I conduct myself with regard to you as I have done. What in the world is it I am trying to do but, by every device that my ingenuity suggests, fill up the inconvenient gulf that yawns between my position and yours? You know what I think of ‘positions’; I told you in London. For Heaven’s sake, let me feel that I have—a little—succeeded!” Hyacinth satisfied her sufficiently to enable her, five minutes later, apparently to entertain no further doubt on the question of his staying over. On the contrary, she burst into a sudden ebullition of laughter, exchanging her bright, lucid insistence for one of her singular sallies. “You must absolutely go with me to call on the Marchants; it will be too delightful to see you there!”
“How do you know how much—or how little—I like you? I’m determined to hold on to you, simply for what you can show me.” She paused for a moment, her beautiful, intelligent eyes smiling into his own, and then continued, “On general grounds, of course, your friend was right to warn you. Now those general grounds are exactly what I’m trying to minimize as much as possible. It’s to eliminate them completely that I talk to you, that I act towards you in the way I have. What am I trying to do but, by every means I can think of, bridge the awkward gap that exists between my situation and yours? You know what I think about ‘situations’; I told you in London. For Heaven’s sake, let me feel that I have—at least a little—succeeded!” Hyacinth satisfied her enough for her, five minutes later, to seem to have no further doubt about his staying over. On the contrary, she suddenly burst into laughter, swapping her bright, clear insistence for one of her unique outbursts. “You absolutely must come with me to visit the Marchants; it will be so wonderful to see you there!”
As he walked up and down the empty drawing-room it occurred to him to ask himself whether that was mainly what she was keeping him for—so that he might help her to play one of her tricks on the good people at Broome. He paced there, in the still candlelight, for a longer time than he measured; until the butler came and stood in the doorway, looking at him silently and fixedly, as if to let him know that he interfered with the custom of the house. He had told the Princess that what determined him was the thought of the manner in which he might exercise his craft in her service; but this was only half the influence that pressed him into forgetfulness of what he had most said to himself when, in Lomax Place, in an hour of unprecedented introspection, he wrote the letter by which he accepted the invitation to Medley. He would go there (so he said) because a man must be gallant, especially if he be a little bookbinder; but after he should be there he would insist at every step upon knowing what he was in for. The change that had taken place in him now, from one moment to another, was that he had simply ceased to care what he was in for. All warnings, reflections, considerations of verisimilitude, of the delicate, the natural and the possible, of the value of his independence, had become as nothing to him. The cup of an exquisite experience—a week in that enchanted palace, a week of such immunity from Lomax Place and old Crookenden as he had never dreamed of—was at his lips; it was purple with the wine of novelty, of civilisation, and he couldn’t push it aside without drinking. He might go home ashamed, but he would have for evermore in his mouth the taste of nectar. He went upstairs, under the eye of the butler, and on his way to his room, at the turning of a corridor, found himself face to face with Madame Grandoni. She had apparently just issued from her own apartment, the door of which stood open, near her; she might have been hovering there in expectation of his footstep. She had donned her dressing-gown, which appeared to give her every facility for respiration, but she had not yet parted with her wig. She still had her pink French book under her arm; and her fat little hands, tightly locked together in front of her, formed the clasp of her generous girdle.
As he walked back and forth in the empty drawing-room, he started to wonder if this was mainly why she was keeping him around—so he could help her play one of her tricks on the nice people at Broome. He paced there in the soft candlelight longer than he intended; until the butler showed up in the doorway, looking at him silently and intently, as if to remind him that he was interrupting the house's routine. He had told the Princess that what motivated him was the thought of how he could use his skills to assist her; but that was only part of what pushed him to forget what he had promised himself when, in Lomax Place, during a rare moment of deep thinking, he wrote the letter accepting the invitation to Medley. He told himself he would go there (so he claimed) because a man should be chivalrous, especially if he’s just a small bookbinder; but once he was there, he would insist on knowing what he was getting into. The shift that had occurred in him, just like that, was that he simply stopped caring about what he was getting into. All the warnings, reflections, thoughts about realism, about what was delicate, natural, and possible, about the value of his independence, meant nothing to him now. The chance for an extraordinary experience—a week in that magical palace, a week completely free from Lomax Place and old Crookenden, something he had never even imagined—was right there for him; it was rich with the flavor of newness and culture, and he couldn’t push it away without tasting it. He might go home feeling ashamed, but he would forever remember the taste of something wonderful. He headed upstairs, with the butler watching him, and on his way to his room, he found himself unexpectedly face to face with Madame Grandoni at a hallway junction. She had just come out of her own room, the door of which stood open nearby; she might have been waiting for him. She wore her dressing gown, which seemed to allow her to breathe easily, but she hadn’t taken off her wig yet. She still held her pink French book under her arm, and her chubby little hands, tightly clasped in front of her, formed the fastenings of her ample belt.
“Do tell me it is positive, Mr Robinson!” she said, stopping short.
“Please tell me it’s good news, Mr. Robinson!” she said, coming to a sudden halt.
“What is positive, Madame Grandoni?”
"What's positive, Madame Grandoni?"
“That you take the train in the morning.”
“That you take the train in the morning.”
“I can’t tell you that, because it wouldn’t be true. On the contrary, it has been settled that I shall stay over. I am very sorry if it distresses you—but che vuole?” Hyacinth added, smiling.
“I can’t tell you that, because it wouldn’t be true. On the contrary, it’s been decided that I’ll be staying over. I’m really sorry if it bothers you—but che vuole?” Hyacinth added, smiling.
Madame Grandoni was a humorous woman, but she gave him no smile in return; she only looked at him a moment, and then, shrugging her shoulders silently but expressively, shuffled back to her room.
Madame Grandoni was a funny woman, but she didn’t smile back at him; she just looked at him for a moment, then shrugged her shoulders quietly but meaningfully and shuffled back to her room.
XXIV
“I can give you your friend’s name—in a single guess. He is Diedrich Hoffendahl!” They had been strolling more and more slowly, the next morning, and as she made this announcement the Princess stopped altogether, standing there under a great beech with her eyes upon Hyacinth’s and her hands full of primroses. He had breakfasted at noon, with his hostess and Madame Grandoni, but the old lady had fortunately not joined them when the Princess afterwards proposed that he should accompany her on her walk in the park. She told him that her venerable friend had let her know, while the day was still very young, that she thought it in the worst possible taste of the Princess not to have allowed Mr Robinson to depart; to which Christina had replied that concerning tastes there was no disputing and that they had disagreed on such matters before without any one being the worse. Hyacinth expressed the hope that they wouldn’t dispute about him—of all thankless subjects in the world; and the Princess assured him that she never disputed about anything. She held that there were other ways than that of arranging one’s relations with people; and Hyacinth guessed that she meant that when a difference became sharp she broke off altogether. On her side, then, there was as little possibility as on his that they should ever quarrel; their acquaintance would be a solid friendship or it would be nothing at all. The Princess gave it from hour to hour more of this quality, and it may be imagined how safe Hyacinth felt by the time he began to tell her that something had happened to him, in London, three months before, one night (or rather in the small hours of the morning), that had altered his life altogether—had, indeed, as he might say, changed the terms on which he held it. He was aware that he didn’t know exactly what he meant by this last phrase; but it expressed sufficiently well the new feeling that had come over him since that interminable, tantalising cab-drive in the rain.
“I can tell you your friend’s name—in just one guess. He’s Diedrich Hoffendahl!” They had been walking slower and slower the next morning, and when she made this announcement, the Princess stopped completely, standing under a big beech tree with her eyes on Hyacinth and her hands full of primroses. He had eaten breakfast at noon with his hostess and Madame Grandoni, but fortunately, the old lady hadn’t joined them when the Princess later suggested he accompany her on her walk in the park. She told him that her elderly friend had expressed, while it was still early in the day, that she thought it was in very poor taste for the Princess not to have allowed Mr. Robinson to leave; to which Christina had replied that taste was subjective and they had disagreed on such matters before without anyone suffering for it. Hyacinth hoped they wouldn’t argue about him—of all thankless subjects in the world; and the Princess assured him that she never argued about anything. She believed there were better ways to manage relationships with people; and Hyacinth guessed that she meant when a disagreement became too heated, she would just cut ties. So, on her side, there was as little chance as on his that they would ever have a falling out; their relationship would be a strong friendship or nothing at all. The Princess increasingly gave it that quality with every hour, and it’s easy to imagine how secure Hyacinth felt by the time he started to tell her that something had happened to him in London three months earlier, one night (or rather in the early hours of the morning), that completely changed his life—had, in fact, as he might say, changed the terms on which he held it. He was aware that he didn’t know exactly what he meant by that last phrase; but it articulated well enough the new feeling that had come over him since that endless, frustrating cab ride in the rain.
The Princess had led to this, almost as soon as they left the house; making up for her avoidance of such topics the day before by saying, suddenly, “Now tell me what is going on among your friends. I don’t mean your worldly acquaintances, but your colleagues, your brothers. Où en êtes-vous, at the present time? Is there anything new, is anything going to be done; I am afraid you are always simply dawdling and muddling.” Hyacinth felt as if, of late, he had by no means either dawdled or muddled; but before he had committed himself so far as to refute the imputation the Princess exclaimed, in another tone, “How annoying it is that I can’t ask you anything without giving you the right to say to yourself, ‘After all, what do I know? May she not be in the pay of the police?’”
The Princess brought this up almost as soon as they left the house, making up for her avoidance of such topics the day before by suddenly saying, “Now tell me what’s going on with your friends. I don’t mean your casual acquaintances, but your colleagues, your peers. Where do you stand, right now? Is there anything new happening, is anything going to be done; I’m afraid you’re always just wasting time and making a mess of things.” Hyacinth felt like he hadn’t wasted time or made a mess recently at all; but before he could argue that point, the Princess exclaimed in a different tone, “How frustrating it is that I can’t ask you anything without you thinking, ‘After all, what do I know? Could she be working for the police?’”
“Oh, that doesn’t occur to me,” said Hyacinth, with a smile.
“Oh, that doesn’t cross my mind,” said Hyacinth, with a smile.
“It might, at all events; by which I mean it may, at any moment. Indeed, I think it ought.”
“It might, in any case; by which I mean it could happen at any moment. In fact, I believe it should.”
“If you were in the pay of the police you wouldn’t trouble your head about me.”
“If you were on the police's payroll, you wouldn’t waste your time worrying about me.”
“I should make you think that, certainly! That would be my first care. However, if you have no tiresome suspicions so much the better,” said the Princess; and she pressed him again for some news from behind the scenes.
“I should definitely make you think that! That would be my top priority. However, if you have no annoying suspicions, even better,” said the Princess; and she pressed him again for some updates from behind the scenes.
In spite of his absence of doubt on the subject of her honesty—he felt that he should never again entertain any such trumpery idea as that she might be an agent on the wrong side—he did not open himself immediately; but at the end of half an hour he let her know that the most important event of his life had taken place, scarcely more than the other day, in the most unexpected manner. And to explain in what it had consisted, he said, “I pledged myself, by everything that is sacred.”
In spite of having no doubt about her honesty—he felt he could never entertain the ridiculous idea that she might be working against him—he didn’t open up right away. But after about half an hour, he let her know that the biggest event of his life had just happened in a very unexpected way. To explain what it was, he said, “I promised, by everything that’s sacred.”
“To what did you pledge yourself?”
“To what did you commit yourself?”
“I took a vow—a tremendous, terrible vow—in the presence of four witnesses,” Hyacinth went on.
“I made a vow—a huge, serious vow—in front of four witnesses,” Hyacinth continued.
“And what was it about, your vow?”
“And what was your vow about?”
“I gave my life away,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“I gave my life away,” Hyacinth said, smiling.
She looked at him askance, as if to see how he would make such an announcement as that; but she wore no smile—her face was politely grave. They moved together a moment, exchanging a glance, in silence, and then she said, “Ah, well, then, I’m all the more glad you stayed!”
She looked at him sideways, trying to gauge how he could make such an announcement; but she wasn't smiling—her expression was seriously polite. They walked together for a moment, sharing a glance in silence, and then she said, “Ah, well, then, I’m even more glad you stayed!”
“That was one of the reasons.”
“That was one of the reasons.”
“I wish you had waited—till after you had been here,” the Princess remarked.
“I wish you had waited—until after you had been here,” the Princess said.
“Why till after I had been here?”
“Why wait until after I had been here?”
“Perhaps then you wouldn’t have given away your life. You might have seen reasons for keeping it.” And now, at last, she treated the matter gaily, as Hyacinth had done. He replied that he had not the least doubt that, on the whole, her influence was relaxing; but without heeding this remark she went on: “Be so good as to tell me what you are talking about.”
“Maybe then you wouldn’t have given away your life. You could have found reasons to hold onto it.” And now, finally, she approached the topic lightheartedly, just like Hyacinth had. He responded that he had no doubt her influence was, overall, easing up; but without acknowledging this comment, she continued, “Please tell me what you’re talking about.”
“I’m not afraid of you, but I’ll give you no names,” said Hyacinth; and he related what had happened in the back-room in Bloomsbury, in the course of that evening of which I have given some account. The Princess listened, intently, while they strolled under the budding trees with a more interrupted step. Never had the old oaks and beeches, renewing themselves in the sunshine as they did to-day, or naked in some gray November, witnessed such an extraordinary series of confidences, since the first pair that sought isolation wandered over the grassy slopes and ferny dells beneath them. Among other things Hyacinth mentioned to his companion that he didn’t go to the ‘Sun and Moon’ any more; he now perceived, what he ought to have perceived long before, that this particular temple of their faith, and everything that pretended to get hatched there, was a hopeless sham. He had been a rare muff, from the first, to take it seriously. He had done so mainly because a friend of his, in whom he had confidence, appeared to set him the example; but now it turned out that this friend (it was Paul Muniment again, by the way) had always thought the men who went there a pack of duffers and was only trying them because he tried everything. There was nobody you could begin to call a first-rate man there, putting aside another friend of his, a Frenchman named Poupin—and Poupin was magnificent, but he wasn’t first-rate. Hyacinth had a standard, now that he had seen a man who was the very incarnation of his programme. You felt that he was a big chap the very moment you came into his presence.
“I’m not scared of you, but I won’t give you any names,” said Hyacinth; and he told her what happened in the back room in Bloomsbury that evening, which I’ve already mentioned. The Princess listened closely as they walked beneath the budding trees with a more uneven pace. Never before had the old oaks and beeches, rejuvenating in the sunlight today or bare in some gray November, witnessed such an incredible exchange of secrets since the first couple that sought solitude wandered over the grassy hills and fern-filled dells below. Among other things, Hyacinth told her that he didn’t go to the ‘Sun and Moon’ anymore; he now realized, something he should have recognized long ago, that this particular place of their beliefs, and everything that claimed to emerge there, was completely fake. He had been quite foolish from the start to take it seriously. He had done so mainly because a friend he trusted seemed to set the example, but it turned out that this friend (it was Paul Muniment, by the way) had always thought the people who went there were a bunch of idiots and was just trying it out because he tried everything. There wasn’t anyone there who you could really call a top-notch person, except for another friend of his, a Frenchman named Poupin—and while Poupin was impressive, he wasn’t top-notch. Hyacinth had a standard now that he had encountered a man who embodied his vision perfectly. You could sense he was important the moment you entered his presence.
“Into whose presence, Mr Robinson?” the Princess inquired.
“Into whose presence, Mr. Robinson?” the Princess asked.
“I don’t know that I ought to tell you, much as I believe in you! I am speaking of the very remarkable individual with whom I entered into that engagement.”
“I’m not sure I should tell you, even though I have so much faith in you! I’m talking about the very remarkable person I got engaged to.”
“To give away your life?”
"To give up your life?"
“To do something which in a certain contingency he will require of me. He will require my poor little carcass.”
“To do something that, in a particular situation, he will need from me. He will need my poor little body.”
“Those plans have a way of failing—unfortunately,” the Princess murmured, adding the last word more quickly.
“Those plans tend to fall through—unfortunately,” the Princess whispered, saying the last word faster.
“Is that a consolation, or a lament?” Hyacinth asked. “This one shall not fail, so far as it depends on me. They wanted an obliging young man—the place was vacant—I stepped in.”
“Is that a consolation or a complaint?” Hyacinth asked. “This one won’t fail, as far as it’s up to me. They wanted a willing young man—the position was open—I took it.”
“I have no doubt you are right. We must pay for what we do.” The Princess made that remark calmly and coldly; then she said, “I think I know the person in whose power you have placed yourself.”
“I have no doubt you’re right. We have to take responsibility for our actions.” The Princess said this calmly and with detachment; then she added, “I believe I know the person you’ve put yourself at the mercy of.”
“Possibly, but I doubt it.”
"Maybe, but I doubt it."
“You can’t believe I have already gone so far? Why not? I have given you a certain amount of proof that I don’t hang back.”
“You can’t believe I’ve already come this far? Why not? I’ve shown you enough proof that I don’t hold back.”
“Well, if you know my friend, you have gone very far indeed.”
“Well, if you know my friend, you’ve come quite a long way.”
The Princess appeared to be on the point of pronouncing a name; but she checked herself, and asked suddenly, smiling, “Don’t they also want, by chance, an obliging young woman?”
The Princess seemed about to say a name; however, she stopped herself and suddenly asked, smiling, “Don’t they also need, by any chance, a helpful young woman?”
“I happen to know he doesn’t think much of women, my first-rate man. He doesn’t trust them.”
“I happen to know he doesn’t think highly of women, my top-notch guy. He doesn’t trust them.”
“Is that why you call him first-rate? You have very nearly betrayed him to me.”
"Is that why you call him top-notch? You've almost given him away to me."
“Do you imagine there is only one of that opinion?” Hyacinth inquired.
“Do you think there's only one person with that opinion?” Hyacinth asked.
“Only one who, having it, still remains a superior man. That’s a very difficult opinion to reconcile with others that it is important to have.”
“Only someone who possesses it can still be considered a superior person. That’s a really tough perspective to align with other important beliefs.”
“Schopenhauer did so, successfully,” said Hyacinth.
“Schopenhauer did that, and he succeeded,” said Hyacinth.
“How delightful that you should know Schopenhauer!” the Princess exclaimed. “The gentleman I have in my eye is also German.” Hyacinth let this pass, not challenging her, because he wished not to be challenged in return, and the Princess went on: “Of course such an engagement as you speak of must make a tremendous difference, in everything.”
“How wonderful that you know Schopenhauer!” the Princess said. “The guy I have in mind is also German.” Hyacinth let this slide, not confronting her, because he didn’t want to be confronted back, and the Princess continued: “Of course, an engagement like the one you’re talking about must change everything.”
“It has made this difference, that I have now a far other sense from any I had before of the reality, the solidity, of what is being prepared. I was hanging about outside, on the steps of the temple, among the loafers and the gossips, but now I have been in the innermost sanctuary—I have seen the holy of holies.”
“It’s made a huge difference; I now have a completely different understanding of the reality and substance of what’s being created. I used to linger outside on the temple steps, surrounded by idle talkers and gossipers, but now I’ve been to the innermost sanctuary—I’ve seen the holy of holies.”
“And it’s very dazzling?”
"And it's super amazing?"
“Ah, Princess!” sighed the young man.
“Ah, Princess!” sighed the young man.
“Then it is real, it is solid?” she pursued. “That’s exactly what I have been trying to make up my mind about, for so long.”
“Then it is real, it is solid?” she pressed. “That's exactly what I've been trying to figure out, for so long.”
“It is more strange than I can say. Nothing of it appears above the surface; but there is an immense underworld, peopled with a thousand forms of revolutionary passion and devotion. The manner in which it is organised is what astonished me; I knew that, or thought I knew it, in a general way, but the reality was a revelation. And on top of it all, society lives! People go and come, and buy and sell, and drink and dance, and make money and make love, and seem to know nothing and suspect nothing and think of nothing; and iniquities flourish, and the misery of half the world is prated about as a ‘necessary evil’, and generations rot away and starve, in the midst of it, and day follows day, and everything is for the best in the best of possible worlds. All that is one-half of it; the other half is that everything is doomed! In silence, in darkness, but under the feet of each one of us, the revolution lives and works. It is a wonderful, immeasurable trap, on the lid of which society performs its antics. When once the machinery is complete, there will be a great rehearsal. That rehearsal is what they want me for. The invisible, impalpable wires are everywhere, passing through everything, attaching themselves to objects in which one would never think of looking for them. What could be more strange and incredible, for instance, than that they should exist just here?”
“It’s more strange than I can express. Nothing shows on the surface, but there's a vast underworld filled with countless forms of revolutionary passion and dedication. I was amazed by how it’s organized; I thought I understood it in a general way, but the reality was eye-opening. And despite it all, life goes on! People come and go, buy and sell, drink and dance, make money and fall in love, acting like they know nothing, suspect nothing, think nothing; meanwhile, injustices thrive, and half the world's suffering is dismissed as a ‘necessary evil,’ while generations waste away and starve in the midst of it all, and one day follows another, with everything deemed for the best in the best of possible worlds. That’s one half of it; the other half is that everything is doomed! In silence, in darkness, but beneath our feet, the revolution is alive and working. It’s a magnificent, immeasurable trap on which society performs its acts. Once the machinery is set, there will be a great rehearsal. That rehearsal is why they want me involved. The invisible, intangible threads are everywhere, weaving through everything, connecting to things we’d never think to look for them. What could be more strange and unbelievable, for instance, than that they exist right here?”
“You make me believe it,” said the Princess, thoughtfully.
“You make me believe it,” said the Princess, thinking deeply.
“It matters little whether one believes it or not!”
"It doesn't really matter if someone believes it or not!"
“You have had a vision,” the Princess continued.
“You've had a vision,” the Princess continued.
“Parbleu, I have had a vision! So would you, if you had been there.”
“Wow, I had a vision! You would too, if you had been there.”
“I wish I had!” she declared, in a tone charged with such ambiguous implications that Hyacinth, catching them a moment after she had spoken, rejoined, with a quick, incongruous laugh—
“I wish I had!” she exclaimed, in a tone loaded with so many mixed meanings that Hyacinth, realizing it just after she finished speaking, responded with a quick, unexpected laugh—
“No, you would have spoiled everything. He made me see, he made me feel, he made me do, everything he wanted.”
“No, you would have ruined everything. He made me see, he made me feel, he made me do everything he wanted.”
“And why should he have wanted you, in particular?”
“And why would he want you, specifically?”
“Simply because I struck him as the right person. That’s his affair: I can’t tell you. When he meets the right person he chalks him. I sat on the bed. (There were only two chairs in the dirty little room, and by way of a curtain his overcoat was hung up before the window.) He didn’t sit, himself; he leaned against the wall, straight in front of me, with his hands behind him. He told me certain things, and his manner was extraordinarily quiet. So was mine, I think I may say; and indeed it was only poor Poupin who made a row. It was for my sake, somehow: he didn’t think we were all conscious enough; he wanted to call attention to my sublimity. There was no sublimity about it—I simply couldn’t help myself. He and the other German had the two chairs, and Muniment sat on a queer old battered, hair-covered trunk, a most foreign-looking article.” Hyacinth had taken no notice of the little ejaculation with which his companion greeted, in this last sentence, the word ‘other’.
“Simply because I seemed like the right person. That’s his issue: I can’t explain it. When he finds the right person, he acknowledges them. I sat on the bed. (There were only two chairs in the dirty little room, and his overcoat hung as a makeshift curtain over the window.) He didn’t sit; he leaned against the wall, staring straight at me, with his hands behind him. He shared some things, and his demeanor was incredibly calm. Mine was too, I could say; really, it was only poor Poupin who made a fuss. He was doing it for my sake somehow: he didn’t think we were aware enough; he wanted to highlight my greatness. There was no greatness about it—I simply couldn’t help myself. He and the other German had the two chairs, and Muniment sat on a strange old battered trunk covered in hair, a very unusual-looking piece.” Hyacinth didn’t pay attention to the little exclamation his companion made in response to the word ‘other’ in this last sentence.
“And what did Mr Muniment say?” she presently inquired.
“And what did Mr. Muniment say?” she asked.
“Oh, he said it was all right. Of course he thought that, from the moment he determined to bring me. He knew what the other fellow was looking for.”
“Oh, he said it was fine. Of course, he thought that from the moment he decided to bring me. He knew what the other guy was after.”
“I see.” Then the Princess remarked, “We have a curious way of being fond of you.”
“I see.” Then the Princess said, “We have a strange way of being fond of you.”
“Whom do you mean by ‘we’?”
“Who do you mean by ‘we’?”
“Your friends. Mr Muniment and I, for instance.”
“Your friends. Mr. Muniment and I, for example.”
“I like it as well as any other. But you don’t feel alike. I have an idea you are sorry.”
“I like it just as much as anything else. But you don’t feel the same way. I have a feeling you’re sorry.”
“Sorry for what?”
“Sorry for what?”
“That I have put my head in a noose.”
“That I have put my head in a noose.”
“Ah, you’re severe—I thought I concealed it so well!” the Princess exclaimed. He admitted that he had been severe, and begged her pardon, for he was by no means sure that there was not a hint of tears in her voice. She looked away from him for a minute, and it was after this that, stopping short, she remarked, as I have related, “He is Diedrich Hoffendahl.”
“Wow, you’re harsh—I thought I was hiding it really well!” the Princess said. He acknowledged that he had been harsh and apologized, as he wasn’t sure if there was a hint of tears in her voice. She looked away from him for a moment, and it was after this that, stopping suddenly, she said, as I have mentioned, “He is Diedrich Hoffendahl.”
Hyacinth stared for a moment, with parted lips. “Well, you are in it, more than I supposed!”
Hyacinth stared for a moment, with her mouth slightly open. “Well, you are deeper in this than I thought!”
“You know he doesn’t trust women,” his companion smiled.
“You know he doesn’t trust women,” his friend smiled.
“Why in the world should you have cared for any light I can throw, if you have ever been in relation with him?”
“Why in the world would you have cared about any insight I can offer, if you have ever been involved with him?”
She hesitated a little. “Oh, you are very different. I like you better,” she added.
She paused for a moment. “Oh, you’re really different. I like you more,” she said.
“Ah, if it’s for that!” murmured Hyacinth.
“Ah, if that’s the case!” murmured Hyacinth.
The Princess coloured, as he had seen her colour before, and in this accident, on her part, there was an unexpectedness, something touching. “Don’t try to fix my inconsistencies on me,” she said, with an humility which matched her blush. “Of course there are plenty of them, but it will always be kinder of you to let them pass. Besides, in this case they are not so serious as they seem. As a product of the ‘people’, and of that strange, fermenting underworld (what you say of it is so true!), you interest me more, and have more to say to me, even than Hoffendahl—wonderful creature as he assuredly is.”
The Princess blushed, just like he had seen her blush before, and in this moment, there was something unexpected and touching about it. “Don’t blame me for my inconsistencies,” she said, her humility matching her blush. “Of course, I have plenty of them, but it’s always kinder of you to overlook them. Besides, in this case, they aren’t as serious as they seem. Since you come from the ‘people’ and that strange, bubbling underworld (what you say about it is so true!), you interest me more and have more to share with me than even Hoffendahl—amazing as he truly is.”
“Would you object to telling me how and where you came to know him?”
“Would you mind telling me how and where you met him?”
“Through a couple of friends of mine in Vienna, two of the affiliated, both passionate revolutionists and clever men. They are Neapolitans, originally poveretti, like yourself, who emigrated, years ago, to seek their fortune. One of them is a teacher of singing, the wisest, most accomplished person in his line I have ever known. The other, if you please, is a confectioner! He makes the most delicious pâtisserie fine. It would take long to tell you how I made their acquaintance, and how they put me into relation with the Maestro, as they called him, of whom they spoke with bated breath. It is not from yesterday—though you don’t seem able to believe it—that I have had a care for all this business. I wrote to Hoffendahl, and had several letters from him; the singing-master and the pastry-cook went bail for my sincerity. The next year I had an interview with him at Wiesbaden; but I can’t tell you the circumstances of our meeting, in that place, without implicating another person, to whom, at present at least, I have no right to give you a clue. Of course Hoffendahl made an immense impression on me; he seemed to me the Master indeed, the very genius of a new social order, and I fully understand the manner in which you were affected by him. When he was in London, three months ago, I knew it, and I knew where to write to him. I did so, and asked him if he wouldn’t see me somewhere. I said I would meet him in any hole he should designate. He answered by a charming letter, which I will show you—there is nothing in the least compromising in it—but he declined my offer, pleading his short stay and a press of engagements. He will write to me, but he won’t trust me. However, he shall some day!”
“Through a couple of friends in Vienna, two of the connected ones, both passionate revolutionaries and smart guys. They’re originally from Naples, poveretti like you, who moved away years ago to find their fortune. One of them is a singing teacher, the wisest and most skilled person in his field I’ve ever met. The other, if you want to know, is a pastry chef! He makes the most delicious pâtisserie fine. It would take a while to explain how I met them and how they connected me with the Maestro, as they called him, and whom they spoke about with such respect. I’ve been interested in all this for quite some time, even if you don’t seem to believe it. I wrote to Hoffendahl and received several letters from him; the singing teacher and the pastry chef vouched for my sincerity. The following year, I met with him in Wiesbaden, but I can’t share the details of that meeting without dragging another person into it, to whom, for now at least, I have no right to give you any hints. Hoffendahl made a huge impression on me; he truly seemed like the Master, the very essence of a new social order, and I completely understand how he affected you. When he was in London three months ago, I knew about it, and I knew where to contact him. I did, and asked if he would meet me somewhere. I told him I was willing to meet him anywhere he suggested. He replied with a lovely letter, which I’ll show you—there’s nothing compromising in it—but he declined my offer, citing his short stay and a busy schedule. He will write to me, but he won’t trust me. However, he will someday!”
Hyacinth was thrown quite off his balance by this representation of the ground the Princess had already traversed, and the explanation was still but half restorative when, on his asking her why she hadn’t exhibited her titles before, she replied, “Well, I thought my being quiet was the better way to draw you out.” There was but little difficulty in drawing him out now, and before their walk was over he had told her more definitely what Hoffendahl demanded. This was simply that he should hold himself ready, for the next five years, to do, at a given moment, an act which would in all probability cost him his life. The act was as yet indefinite, but one might get an idea of it from the penalty involved, which would certainly be capital. The only thing settled was that it was to be done instantly and absolutely, without a question, a hesitation or a scruple, in the manner that should be prescribed, at the moment, from headquarters. Very likely it would be to kill some one—some humbug in a high place; but whether the individual should deserve it or should not deserve it was not Hyacinth’s affair. If he recognised generally Hoffendahl’s wisdom—and the other night it had seemed to shine like a northern aurora—it was not in order that he might challenge it in the particular case. He had taken a vow of blind obedience, as the Jesuit fathers did to the head of their order. It was because they had carried out their vows (having, in the first place, great administrators) that their organisation had been mighty, and that sort of mightiness was what people who felt as Hyacinth and the Princess felt should go in for. It was not certain that he should be collared, any more than it was certain that he should bring down his man; but it was much to be looked for, and it was what he counted on and indeed preferred. He should probably take little trouble to escape, and he should never enjoy the idea of hiding (after the fact) or running away. If it were a question of putting a bullet into some one, he himself should naturally deserve what would come to him. If one did that sort of thing there was an indelicacy in not being ready to pay for it; and he, at least, was perfectly willing. He shouldn’t judge; he should simply execute. He didn’t pretend to say what good his little job might do, or what portée it might have; he hadn’t the data for appreciating it, and simply took upon himself to believe that at headquarters they knew what they were about. The thing was to be a feature in a very large plan, of which he couldn’t measure the scope—something that was to be done simultaneously in a dozen different countries. The effect was to be very much in this immense coincidence. It was to be hoped it wouldn’t be spoiled. At any rate, he wouldn’t hang fire, whatever the other fellows might do. He didn’t say it because Hoffendahl had done him the honour of giving him the business to do, but he believed the Master knew how to pick out his men. To be sure, Hoffendahl had known nothing about him in advance; he had only been suggested by those who were looking out, from one day to the other. The fact remained however that when Hyacinth stood before him he recognised him as the sort of little chap that he had in his eye (one who could pass through a small orifice). Humanity, in his scheme, was classified and subdivided with a truly German thoroughness, and altogether of course from the point of view of the revolution, as it might forward or obstruct it. Hyacinth’s little job was a very small part of what Hoffendahl had come to England for; he had in his hand innumerable other threads. Hyacinth knew nothing of these, and didn’t much want to know, except that it was marvellous, the way Hoffendahl kept them apart. He had exactly the same mastery of them that a great musician—that the Princess herself—had of the keyboard of the piano; he treated all things, persons, institutions, ideas, as so many notes in his great symphonic revolt. The day would come when Hyacinth, far down in the treble, would feel himself touched by the little finger of the composer, would become audible (with a small, sharp crack) for a second.
Hyacinth was completely thrown off balance by the Princess’s account of the ground she had already covered, and even after her explanation, he still didn’t feel fully restored. When he asked her why she hadn’t shown her titles earlier, she replied, “I thought being quiet was a better way to draw you out.” It wasn’t hard to get him to open up now, and by the end of their walk, he had clearly explained what Hoffendahl expected from him. Essentially, he was to be ready for the next five years to perform an act that would likely cost him his life at a specified moment. The details of the act were still unclear, but the penalty for failure was definitely death. The only certainty was that it needed to be done instantly and completely, without question, hesitation, or doubt, exactly as instructed from headquarters at the time. Most likely, the task would involve killing someone—perhaps a fraud in a high position; but whether the target deserved it or not wasn’t Hyacinth’s concern. While he generally recognized Hoffendahl’s wisdom—and it had shone especially brightly the other night—it wasn’t so he could challenge it in this particular case. He had taken a vow of blind obedience, similar to the Jesuit fathers’ vow to the head of their order. It was because they had honored their vows (and had strong leadership) that their organization had become powerful, and that kind of power was what people who shared Hyacinth and the Princess’s views should strive for. It wasn’t certain he would get caught, just as it wasn’t a given he’d need to take down his target; but it was very likely, and that’s what he was counting on and even preferred. He probably wouldn’t bother trying to escape, and the idea of hiding after the fact or fleeing never appealed to him. If it came to shooting someone, he felt he would naturally deserve whatever consequences awaited him. If someone chose to do that sort of thing, it was improper not to be ready to pay the price; and he was perfectly willing to face it. He wouldn’t judge; he would just act. He couldn’t honestly say what good his small role might accomplish or what impact it would have; he didn’t have the information to assess it and simply chose to believe that those at headquarters knew what they were doing. This task was part of a much larger plan, the scope of which he couldn’t measure—something that was to be carried out simultaneously in a dozen different countries. The impact heavily relied on this enormous coincidence. He hoped it wouldn’t be ruined. At the very least, he wouldn’t delay, regardless of what the others might do. He didn’t say this just because Hoffendahl had honored him with this assignment, but he trusted that the Master knew how to select his team. Of course, Hoffendahl hadn’t known anything about him beforehand; he had been suggested by those who were scouting for potential operatives. Nevertheless, when Hyacinth stood before him, Hoffendahl recognized him as the kind of small guy he wanted (someone who could fit through a tight space). In his plan, humanity was categorized and subdivided with a truly German thoroughness, all from the perspective of how it could help or hinder the revolution. Hyacinth’s role was just a tiny part of what Hoffendahl had come to England for; he had countless other threads to manage. Hyacinth didn’t know anything about them and didn’t care to know, except that it was impressive how Hoffendahl kept them organized. He had the same mastery over them as a great musician—or the Princess herself—had over the piano keyboard; he treated everything—people, institutions, ideas—as notes in his grand symphonic rebellion. One day, Hyacinth, far down in the melody, would feel the composer’s little finger touch him and would become audible (with a small, sharp crack) for a brief moment.
It was impossible that our young man should not feel, at the end of ten minutes, that he had charmed the Princess into the deepest, most genuine attention; she was listening to him as she had never listened before. He enjoyed having that effect upon her, and his sense of the tenuity of the thread by which his future hung, renewed by his hearing himself talk about it, made him reflect that at present anything in the line of enjoyment was so much gained. The reader may judge whether he had passed through a phase of excitement after finding himself on his new footing of utility in the world; but that had finally spent itself, through a hundred forms of restlessness, of vain conjecture—through an exaltation which alternated with despair and which, equally with the despair, he concealed more successfully than he supposed. He would have detested the idea that his companion might have heard his voice tremble while he told his story; but though to-day he had really grown used to his danger and resigned, as it were, to his consecration, and though it could not fail to be agreeable to him to perceive that he was thrilling, he could still not guess how very remarkable, in such a connection, the Princess thought his composure, his lucidity and good-humour. It is true she tried to hide her wonder, for she owed it to her self-respect to let it still appear that even she was prepared for a personal sacrifice as complete. She had the air—or she endeavoured to have it—of accepting for him everything that he accepted for himself; nevertheless, there was something rather forced in the smile (lovely as it was) with which she covered him, while she said, after a little, “It’s very serious—it’s very serious indeed, isn’t it?” He replied that the serious part was to come—there was no particular grimness for him (comparatively) in strolling in that sweet park and gossiping with her about the matter; and it occurred to her presently to suggest to him that perhaps Hoffendahl would never give him any sign at all, and he would wait all the while, sur les dents, in a false suspense. He admitted that this would be a sell, but declared that either way he would be sold, though differently; and that at any rate he would have conformed to the great religious rule—to live each hour as if it were to be one’s last.
It was impossible for the young man not to feel, after ten minutes, that he had captivated the Princess’s complete, genuine attention; she was listening to him like never before. He enjoyed having that effect on her, and the awareness of how precarious his future was, especially as he heard himself talk about it, made him think that anything enjoyable right now was a win. The reader can imagine whether he had experienced a wave of excitement after discovering his new sense of purpose in the world; but that excitement had ultimately drained away through a myriad of restless thoughts, endless speculation—through a high that alternated with despair, both of which he managed to hide better than he realized. He would have hated to think that his companion might have noticed his voice shaking while he shared his story; but even though he had become somewhat accustomed to his danger and resigned, in a way, to his situation, and even though it was undeniably nice to see that he was making an impression, he still couldn’t guess how remarkable the Princess found his composure, clarity, and good humor in that moment. It was true she tried to mask her surprise, as she felt it was important for her self-respect to seem like she was ready for any personal sacrifice he was willing to make. She put on the appearance—or at least she tried to—of accepting everything for him that he accepted for himself; however, there was something a bit forced in the smile (lovely as it was) she gave him when she said, after a moment, “This is very serious—it really is serious, isn’t it?” He replied that the serious part was yet to come—there wasn’t really any particular heaviness for him (comparatively) in wandering the lovely park and chatting with her about it; then she suggested that maybe Hoffendahl would never give him any sign at all, leaving him in false suspense, sur les dents. He agreed that would be frustrating but insisted that no matter what, he would be at a loss, just in different ways; and that in any case, he would have stuck to the great moral principle—to live each hour as if it were his last.
“In holiness, you mean—in great recueillement?” the Princess asked.
“In holiness, you mean—in great recueillement?” the Princess asked.
“Oh dear, no; simply in extreme thankfulness for every minute that’s added.”
“Oh no, not at all; just incredibly grateful for every minute that's given.”
“Ah, well, there will probably be a great many,” she rejoined.
“Ah, well, there will probably be a lot,” she replied.
“The more the better—if they are like this.”
“The more, the better—if they’re like this.”
“That won’t be the case with many of them, in Lomax Place.”
"That won't be true for many of them in Lomax Place."
“I assure you that since that night Lomax Place has improved.” Hyacinth stood there, smiling, with his hands in his pockets and his hat pushed back a little.
“I promise you that since that night, Lomax Place has gotten better.” Hyacinth stood there, smiling, with his hands in his pockets and his hat pushed back a bit.
The Princess appeared to consider this fact with an extreme intellectual curiosity. “If, after all, then, you are not called, you will have been positively happy.”
The Princess seemed to think about this fact with great intellectual curiosity. “If, in the end, you aren't summoned, then you will have been truly happy.”
“I shall have had some fine moments. Perhaps Hoffendahl’s plot is simply for that; Muniment may have put him up to it!”
“I will have had some great moments. Maybe Hoffendahl’s plan is just for that; Muniment might have encouraged him to do it!”
“Who knows? However, with me you must go on as if nothing were changed.”
“Who knows? Still, you have to act like nothing has changed around me.”
“Changed from what?”
“Changed from what?”
“From the time of our first meeting at the theatre.”
“Since our first meeting at the theater.”
“I’ll go on in any way you like,” said Hyacinth; “only the real difference will be there.”
“I’ll continue however you want,” said Hyacinth; “but the real difference will be there.”
“The real difference?”
"What's the real difference?"
“That I shall have ceased to care for what you care about.”
“That I won’t care about what you care about anymore.”
“I don’t understand,” said the Princess.
“I don't get it,” said the Princess.
“Isn’t it enough, now, to give my life to the beastly cause,” the young man broke out, “without giving my sympathy?”
“Isn’t it enough now to give my life to this savage cause,” the young man exclaimed, “without also giving my sympathy?”
“The beastly cause?” the Princess murmured, opening her deep eyes.
“The beastly cause?” the Princess whispered, opening her dark eyes.
“Of course it is really just as holy as ever; only the people I find myself pitying now are the rich, the happy.”
“Of course, it’s just as sacred as ever; the people I feel sorry for now are the rich and the happy.”
“I see. You are very curious. Perhaps you pity my husband,” the Princess added in a moment.
“I see. You’re very curious. Maybe you feel sorry for my husband,” the Princess added after a moment.
“Do you call him one of the happy?” Hyacinth inquired, as they walked on again.
“Do you consider him one of the happy ones?” Hyacinth asked as they continued walking.
In answer to this she only repeated, “You are very curious!”
In response to this, she just said, “You’re really curious!”
I have related the whole of this conversation, because it supplies a highly important chapter of Hyacinth’s history, but it will not be possible to trace all the stages through which the friendship of the Princess Casamassima with the young man she had constituted her bookbinder was confirmed. By the end of a week the standard of fitness she had set up in the place of exploded proprieties appeared the model of justice and convenience; and during this period many other things happened. One of them was that Hyacinth drove over to Broome with his hostess, and called on Lady Marchant and her daughters; an episode from which the Princess appeared to derive an exquisite gratification. When they came away he asked her why she hadn’t told the ladies who he was. Otherwise, where was the point? And she replied, “Simply because they wouldn’t have believed me. That’s your fault!” This was the same note she had struck when, the third day of his stay (the weather had changed for the worse, and a rainy afternoon kept them in-doors), she remarked to him, irrelevantly and abruptly, “It is most extraordinary, your knowing about Schopenhauer!” He answered that she really seemed quite unable to accustom herself to his little talents; and this led to a long talk, longer than the one I have already narrated, in which he took her still further into his confidence. Never had the pleasure of conversation (the greatest he knew) been so largely opened to him. The Princess admitted, frankly, that he would, to her sense, take a great deal of accounting for; she observed that he was, no doubt, pretty well used to himself, but he must give other people time. “I have watched you, constantly, since you have been here, in every detail of your behaviour, and I am more and more intriguée. You haven’t a vulgar intonation, you haven’t a common gesture, you never make a mistake, you do and say everything exactly in the right way. You come out of the hole you have described to me, and yet you might have stayed in country-houses all your life. You are much better than if you had! Jugez donc, from the way I talk to you! I have to make no allowances. I have seen Italians with that sort of natural tact and taste, but I didn’t know one ever found it in any Anglo-Saxon in whom it hadn’t been cultivated at a vast expense; unless, indeed, in certain little American women.”
I’ve shared the entire conversation because it’s a crucial part of Hyacinth’s story, but we can’t follow every step of how Princess Casamassima’s friendship with the young man she had chosen as her bookbinder developed. By the end of the week, the standards she replaced with outdated norms seemed like the perfect blend of fairness and practicality; and during this time, many other events took place. One of them was when Hyacinth drove with his hostess to Broome to visit Lady Marchant and her daughters; the Princess seemed to derive great pleasure from this visit. When they left, he asked her why she hadn’t introduced him properly. Otherwise, what was the point? She replied, “Simply because they wouldn’t have believed me. That’s your fault!” This echoed what she had said on the third day of his stay (the weather had turned for the worse, and a rainy afternoon kept them indoors) when she abruptly remarked, “It’s so extraordinary that you know about Schopenhauer!” He responded that she seemed unable to get used to his little talents, leading to a longer discussion than the one I’ve already mentioned, where he confided even more in her. He had never experienced such a rich exchange of conversation (the greatest pleasure he knew). The Princess honestly admitted that he would take a lot of explaining to her; she noted that he was probably used to himself, but he needed to give others time. “I’ve been observing you constantly since you arrived, in every detail of your behavior, and I’m becoming even more intrigued. You don’t have a common tone, you don’t make any ordinary gestures, you never make a mistake; you say and do everything just right. You came out of the situation you described to me, yet you could’ve spent your life in country homes. You’re much better off for it! Just look at how I speak to you! I don’t have to make any allowances. I’ve seen Italians with that kind of natural tact and taste, but I didn’t think I’d find it in any Anglo-Saxon who hasn’t cultivated it at great expense; unless, of course, in some little American women.”
“Do you mean I’m a gentleman?” asked Hyacinth, in a peculiar tone, looking out into the wet garden.
“Are you saying I’m a gentleman?” asked Hyacinth, in a strange tone, looking out into the rainy garden.
She hesitated, and then she said, “It’s I who make the mistakes!” Five minutes later she broke into an exclamation which touched him almost more than anything she had ever done, giving him the highest opinion of her delicacy and sympathy and putting him before himself as vividly as if the words were a little portrait: “Fancy the strange, the bitter fate: to be constituted as you are constituted, to feel the capacity that you must feel, and yet to look at the good things of life only through the glass of the pastry-cook’s window!”
She paused and then said, “I’m the one who makes the mistakes!” Five minutes later, she burst out with an exclamation that moved him more than anything she had ever done, impressing him with her sensitivity and empathy and putting him in a clearer light as if her words painted a little picture: “Imagine the strange, bitter fate: to be made the way you are, to feel what you must feel, and yet to see the good things in life only through the glass of the pastry chef’s window!”
“Every class has its pleasures,” Hyacinth rejoined, with perverse sententiousness, in spite of his emotion; but the remark didn’t darken their mutual intelligence, and before they separated that evening he told her the things that had never yet passed his lips—the things to which he had awaked when he made Pinnie explain to him the visit to the prison. He told her, in a word, what he was.
“Every class has its pleasures,” Hyacinth replied, with a bit of a pretentious tone, despite his feelings; but the comment didn’t weaken their understanding of each other, and before they parted ways that evening, he shared with her the things he had never revealed before—the realizations he had after Pinnie made him understand the visit to the prison. He told her, in short, who he really was.
XXV
Hyacinth took several long walks by himself, beyond the gates of the park and through the neighbouring country—walks during which, committed as he was to reflection on the general ‘rumness’ of his destiny, he had still a delighted attention to spare for the green dimness of leafy lanes; the attraction of meadow-paths that led from stile to stile and seemed a clue to some pastoral happiness, some secret of the fields; the hedges thick with flowers, bewilderingly common, for which he knew no names; the picture-making quality of thatched cottages, the mystery and sweetness of blue distances, the bloom of rural complexions, the quaintness of little girls bobbing curtsies by waysides (a sort of homage he had never prefigured); the soft sense of the turf under feet that had never ached but from paving-stones. One morning, as he had his face turned homeward, after a long stroll, he heard behind him the sound of a horse’s hoofs, and, looking back, perceived a gentleman, who would presently pass him, advancing up the road which led to the lodge-gates of Medley. He went his way, and, as the horse overtook him, noticed that the rider slackened pace. Then he turned again, and recognised in this personage his brilliant occasional friend Captain Sholto. The Captain pulled up alongside of him, saluting him with a smile and a movement of the whip-handle. Hyacinth stared with surprise, not having heard from the Princess that she was expecting him. He gathered, however, in a moment, that she was not; and meanwhile he received an impression, on Sholto’s part, of riding-gear that was ‘knowing’—of gaiters and spurs and a curious waistcoat; perceiving that this was a phase of the Captain’s varied nature which he had not yet had an opportunity to observe. He struck him as very high in the air, perched on his big, lean chestnut, and Hyacinth noticed that if the horse was heated the rider was cool.
Hyacinth took several long walks by himself, going beyond the park gates and through the surrounding countryside—walks where, despite his commitment to thinking about the general ‘rumness’ of his destiny, he still found joy in the green dimness of tree-lined paths; the allure of meadow paths that led from stile to stile, hinting at some pastoral happiness, some secret of the fields; the hedges thick with flowers, bewilderingly common, none of which he could name; the picturesque thatched cottages, the mystery and beauty of blue distances, the glow of rural faces, the quaintness of little girls curtsying by the roadside (a kind of tribute he had never anticipated); the soft feel of the grass under his feet, which had only ever ached from walking on pavement. One morning, as he headed home after a long walk, he heard the sound of a horse’s hooves behind him. Looking back, he saw a gentleman who was about to pass him, riding up the road leading to the lodge gates of Medley. He continued on his path, and as the horse caught up with him, he noticed that the rider slowed down. Turning again, he recognized the rider as his charming, occasional friend Captain Sholto. The Captain pulled up next to him, greeting him with a smile and a flick of his whip. Hyacinth was surprised, having not heard from the Princess that she was expecting him. However, he quickly gathered that she wasn’t; meanwhile, he got the impression from Sholto’s attire that it was quite stylish—gaiters and spurs, along with an unusual waistcoat; he realized this was a side of the Captain's varied nature he had yet to witness. He seemed very high in the saddle, perched on his big, lean chestnut horse, and Hyacinth noticed that while the horse was heated, the rider remained calm.
“Good-morning, my dear fellow. I thought I should find you here!” the Captain exclaimed. “It’s a good job I’ve met you this way, without having to go to the house.”
“Good morning, my dear friend. I figured I'd find you here!” the Captain said. “It’s great that I bumped into you like this, without having to go to the house.”
“Who gave you reason to think I was here?” Hyacinth asked; partly occupied with the appositeness of this inquiry and partly thinking, as his eyes wandered over his handsome friend, bestriding so handsome a beast, what a jolly thing it would be to know how to ride. He had already, during the few days he had been at Medley, had time to observe that the knowledge of luxury and the extension of one’s sensations beget a taste for still newer pleasures.
“Who made you think I was here?” Hyacinth asked, partly focused on the relevance of the question and partly wondering, as he looked at his attractive friend riding such a beautiful horse, how great it would be to know how to ride. During the few days he had been at Medley, he had already noticed that the knowledge of luxury and the broadening of one’s experiences lead to a craving for even more new pleasures.
“Why, I knew the Princess was capable of asking you,” Sholto said; “and I learned at the ‘Sun and Moon’ that you had not been there for a long time. I knew furthermore that as a general thing you go there a good deal, don’t you? So I put this and that together, and judged you were out of town.”
“Look, I knew the Princess could ask you,” Sholto said; “and I found out at the ‘Sun and Moon’ that you hadn’t been there in a while. I also knew that generally speaking, you go there quite often, right? So I pieced things together and figured you were out of town.”
This was very luminous and straightforward, and might have satisfied Hyacinth, were it not for that irritating reference to the Princess’s being ‘capable of asking him’. He knew as well as the Captain that it had been tremendously eccentric in her to do so, but somehow a transformation had lately taken place in him which made it disagreeable for him to receive that view from another, and particularly from a gentleman of whom, on a certain occasion, several months before, he had had strong grounds for thinking unfavourably. He had not seen Sholto since the evening when a queer combination of circumstances caused him, more queerly still, to sit and listen to comic songs in the company of Millicent Henning and this admirer. The Captain did not conceal his admiration; Hyacinth had his own ideas about his taking that line in order to look more innocent. That evening, when he accompanied Millicent to her lodgings (they parted with Sholto on coming out of the Pavilion), the situation was tense between the young lady and her childhood’s friend. She let him have it, as she said; she gave him a dressing which she evidently intended should be memorable, for having suspected her, for having insulted her before a military gentleman. The tone she took, and the magnificent audacity with which she took it, reduced him to a kind of gratified helplessness; he watched her at last with something of the excitement with which he would have watched a clever but uncultivated actress, while she worked herself into a passion which he believed to be fictitious. He gave more credence to his jealousy and to the whole air of the case than to her vehement repudiations, enlivened though these were by tremendous head-tossings and skirt-shakings. But he felt baffled and outfaced, and took refuge in sarcasms which after all proved as little as her high gibes; seeking a final solution in one of those beastly little French shrugs, as Millicent called them, with which she had already reproached him with interlarding his conversation.
This was very clear and straightforward, and might have pleased Hyacinth if it weren't for that annoying comment about the Princess being "capable of asking him." He knew, just like the Captain, that it was really unusual for her to do that, but somehow he had changed recently in a way that made it uncomfortable for him to hear that perspective from someone else, especially from a guy whom, a few months ago, he had strong reasons to think poorly of. He hadn't seen Sholto since the night when a strange mix of circumstances had led him, even more strangely, to sit and listen to funny songs with Millicent Henning and this admirer. The Captain didn't hide his admiration; Hyacinth suspected he was acting that way to seem more innocent. That evening, when he walked Millicent to her place (they parted ways with Sholto after leaving the Pavilion), the air was tense between the young lady and her childhood friend. She let him have it, as she put it; she gave him a lecture that she clearly wanted him to remember for accusing her and insulting her in front of a military guy. The way she spoke and the boldness she displayed left him feeling a mix of satisfaction and helplessness; he watched her with the same excitement he would have had for a talented but unrefined actress as she worked herself into a fit that he thought was exaggerated. He believed more in his jealousy and in the whole situation than in her passionate denials, even though they were livened up by dramatic hair tosses and skirt shakes. But he felt confused and challenged, resorting to sarcasm that turned out to be just as meaningless as her high-and-mighty comments; he sought a final escape in one of those annoying little French shrugs, as Millicent called them, which she had already criticized him for using in his speech.
The air was never cleared, though the subject of their dispute was afterwards dropped, Hyacinth promising himself to watch his playmate as he had never done before. She let him know, as may well be supposed, that she had her eye on him, and it must be confessed that as regards the exercise of a right of supervision he had felt himself at a disadvantage ever since the night at the theatre. It mattered little that she had pushed him into the Princess’s box (for she herself had not been jealous beforehand; she had wanted too much to know what such a person could be ‘up to’, desiring, perhaps, to borrow a hint), and it mattered little, also, that his relations with the great lady were all for the sake of suffering humanity; the atmosphere, none the less, was full of thunder for many weeks, and it scarcely signified from which quarter the flash and the explosion proceeded. Hyacinth was a good deal surprised to find that he should care whether Millicent deceived him or not, and even tried to persuade himself that he didn’t; but there was a grain of conviction in his heart that some kind of personal affinity existed between them and that it would torment him more never to see her at all than to see her go into tantrums in order to cover her tracks. An inner sense told him that her mingled beauty and grossness, her vulgar vitality, the spirit of contradiction yet at the same time of attachment that was in her, had ended by making her indispensable to him. She bored him as much as she irritated him; but if she was full of execrable taste she was also full of life, and her rustlings and chatterings, her wonderful stories, her bad grammar and good health, her insatiable thirst, her shrewd perceptions and grotesque opinions, her mistakes and her felicities, were now all part of the familiar human sound of his little world. He could say to himself that she came after him much more than he went after her, and this helped him, a little, to believe, though the logic was but lame, that she was not making a fool of him. If she were really taking up with a swell he didn’t see why she wished to retain a bookbinder. Of late, it must be added, he had ceased to devote much consideration to Millicent’s ambiguities; for although he was lingering on at Medley for the sake of suffering humanity he was quite aware that to say so (if she should ask him for a reason) would have almost as absurd a sound as some of the girl’s own speeches. As regards Sholto, he was in the awkward position of having let him off, as it were, by accepting his hospitality, his bounty; so that he couldn’t quarrel with him except on a fresh pretext. This pretext the Captain had apparently been careful not to give, and Millicent had told him, after the triple encounter in the street, that he had driven him out of England, the poor gentleman whom he insulted by his low insinuations even more (why ‘even more’ Hyacinth hardly could think) than he outraged herself. When he asked her what she knew about the Captain’s movements she made no scruple to announce to him that the latter had come to her great shop to make a little purchase (it was a pair of silk braces, if she remembered rightly, and she admitted, perfectly, the transparency of the pretext), and had asked her with much concern whether his gifted young friend (that’s what he called him—Hyacinth could see he meant well) was still in a huff. Millicent had answered that she was afraid he was—the more shame to him; and then the Captain had said that it didn’t matter, for he himself was on the point of leaving England for several weeks (Hyacinth—he called him Hyacinth this time—couldn’t have ideas about a man in a foreign country, could he?), and he hoped that by the time he returned the little cloud would have blown over. Sholto had added that she had better tell him frankly—recommending her at the same time to be gentle with their morbid friend—about his visit to the shop. Their candour, their humane precautions, were all very well; but after this, two or three evenings, Hyacinth passed and repassed the Captain’s chambers in Queen Anne Street, to see if, at the window, there were signs of his being in London. Darkness, however, prevailed, and he was forced to comfort himself a little when, at last making up his mind to ring at the door and inquire, by way of a test, for the occupant, he was informed, by the superior valet whose acquaintance he had already made, and whose air of wearing a jacket left behind by his master confirmed the statement, that the gentleman in question was at Monte Carlo.
The air was never cleared, even though they eventually dropped the topic of their argument. Hyacinth promised himself that he would keep a closer watch on his playmate than ever before. She made it clear, as one might expect, that she was keeping an eye on him, and he had to admit that since the night at the theater, he felt at a disadvantage when it came to keeping an eye on her. It didn't matter much that she had pushed him into the Princess’s box (because she hadn’t been jealous beforehand; she was just too curious about what someone like that could be up to, possibly hoping for insight), nor did it matter that his connection with the important lady was all for the sake of helping humanity; the atmosphere was still charged with tension for weeks, and it hardly mattered where the lightning and thunder were coming from. Hyacinth was quite surprised to realize he cared whether Millicent was deceiving him or not, and he tried to convince himself that he didn’t. But there was a small part of him that believed there was some sort of personal bond between them, and it would bother him more to never see her than to witness her throwing fits to hide her tracks. Deep down, he sensed that her mix of beauty and coarseness, her vibrant energy, and her contradictory spirit—both rebellious and loyal—had made her essential to him. She bored him just as much as she annoyed him; yet despite her terrible taste, she was full of life. Her rustling and chattering, her incredible stories, her bad grammar and good health, her endless thirst, her sharp perceptions, and her bizarre opinions—her mistakes and her joys—had all become a familiar part of his small world. He could tell himself that she pursued him way more than he pursued her, which somewhat helped him believe, although it wasn't a solid argument, that she wasn't making a fool out of him. If she was really involved with someone wealthy, he didn't see why she wanted to keep a bookbinder around. Recently, he had stopped worrying much about Millicent’s ambiguities; even though he stayed at Medley for the sake of helping humanity, he knew that if she asked him why, it would sound almost as ridiculous as some of her own remarks. As for Sholto, he found himself in the awkward position of having let Sholto off the hook, so to speak, by accepting his hospitality and generosity. This meant he couldn’t argue with him unless he found a new reason to do so. Sholto seemed careful not to provide that reason, and after their three encounters in the street, Millicent told him that Sholto had driven the poor man out of the country because of the horrible insinuations he made, even more than he had offended her. When Hyacinth asked her what she knew about Sholto’s movements, she readily shared that he had come to her big store to buy something small (it was a pair of silk suspenders, if she remembered correctly, and she fully recognized how transparent the excuse was), and he had asked her with genuine concern if his talented young friend (that’s what he called him—Hyacinth could see he had good intentions) was still upset. Millicent replied that she feared he was, and it was shameful; then Sholto indicated it didn’t matter because he was about to leave England for several weeks (Hyacinth—he called him Hyacinth this time—couldn’t have thoughts about someone in a foreign country, could he?), and he hoped the little cloud would have passed by the time he returned. Sholto also suggested that she should honestly tell him—while advising her to be gentle with their sensitive friend—about his visit to the shop. Their openness, their good intentions, were nice enough, but after that, for two or three evenings, Hyacinth walked past the Captain’s chambers on Queen Anne Street to see if there was any sign he was back in London. However, darkness remained, and he had to console himself a bit when, finally deciding to knock at the door to ask about the occupant as a test, he was informed by the head valet, who he had already met, and whose unremarkable jacket suggested he was only wearing one left by his boss, that the gentleman in question was at Monte Carlo.
“Have you still got your back up a little?” the Captain demanded, without rancour; and in a moment he had swung a long leg over the saddle and dismounted, walking beside his young friend and leading his horse by the bridle. Hyacinth pretended not to know what he meant, for it came over him that after all, even if he had not condoned, at the time, the Captain’s suspected treachery, he was in no position, sitting at the feet of the Princess, to sound the note of jealousy in relation to another woman. He reflected that the Princess had originally been, in a manner, Sholto’s property, and if he did en fin de compte wish to quarrel with him about Millicent he would have to cease to appear to poach on the Captain’s preserves. It now occurred to him, for the first time, that the latter had intended a kind of exchange; though it must be added that the Princess, who on a couple of occasions had alluded slightingly to her military friend, had given him no sign of recognising this gentleman’s claim. Sholto let him know, at present, that he was staying at Bonchester, seven miles off; he had come down from London and put up at the inn. That morning he had ridden over on a hired horse (Hyacinth had supposed this steed was a very fine animal, but Sholto spoke of it as an infernal screw); he had been taken by the sudden fancy of seeing how his young friend was coming on.
“Are you still a bit upset?” the Captain asked, without any bitterness; and before long he swung a long leg over the saddle and got off, walking next to his young friend while leading his horse by the reins. Hyacinth pretended he didn’t understand the question, because he realized that even if he hadn’t condoned the Captain’s suspected betrayal at the time, he wasn’t in a position to express jealousy over another woman while sitting at the feet of the Princess. He thought about how the Princess had originally, in a way, belonged to Sholto, and if he really wanted to argue with him about Millicent, he would have to stop pretending to invade the Captain’s territory. For the first time, he considered that Sholto might have meant to suggest some sort of exchange; although it should be noted that the Princess, who had occasionally made dismissive comments about her military friend, hadn’t shown any signs of acknowledging his claim. Sholto let him know that he was staying at Bonchester, seven miles away; he had come down from London and checked into the inn. That morning he had ridden over on a rented horse (Hyacinth thought it was a really nice animal, but Sholto called it a terrible screw); he had suddenly decided he wanted to see how his young friend was doing.
“I’m coming on very well, thank you,” said Hyacinth, with some shortness, not knowing exactly what business it was of the Captain’s.
“I’m doing quite well, thank you,” said Hyacinth, a bit curtly, unsure of why it was any of the Captain’s business.
“Of course you understand my interest in you, don’t you? I’m responsible for you—I put you forward.”
“Of course you understand why I'm interested in you, right? I'm the one in charge of you—I’m the one who recommended you.”
“There are a great many things in the world that I don’t understand, but I think the thing I understand least is your interest in me. Why the devil—” And Hyacinth paused, breathless with the force of his inquiry. Then he went on, “If I were you, I shouldn’t care a filbert for the sort of person that I happen to be.”
“There are a lot of things in the world that I don’t understand, but I think the one I understand the least is why you’re interested in me. Why on earth—” And Hyacinth paused, breathless from the intensity of his question. Then he continued, “If I were you, I wouldn’t care at all about the kind of person I am.”
“That proves how different my nature is from yours! But I don’t believe it, my boy; you are too generous for that.” Sholto’s imperturbability always appeared to grow with the irritation it produced, and it was proof even against the just resentment excited by his want of tact. That want of tact was sufficiently marked when he went on to say, “I wanted to see you here, with my own eyes. I wanted to see how it looked; it is a rum sight! Of course you know what I mean, though you are always trying to make a fellow explain. I don’t explain well, in any sense, and that’s why I go in only for clever people, who can do without it. It’s very grand, her having brought you down.”
"That shows how different I am from you! But I don’t believe it, my friend; you’re too kind for that." Sholto’s calm demeanor seemed to grow along with the irritation it caused, and it stood strong against the rightful anger triggered by his lack of sensitivity. His lack of sensitivity was obvious when he continued, "I wanted to see you here, with my own eyes. I wanted to see what it looked like; it’s a strange sight! Of course, you know what I mean, even though you’re always making someone explain. I’m not good at explaining, in any way, and that’s why I only hang out with smart people who can get it without needing me to spell it out. It’s really impressive that she brought you here."
“Grand, no doubt, but hardly surprising, considering that, as you say, I was put forward by you.”
“Impressive, for sure, but not unexpected, given that, as you mentioned, I was recommended by you.”
“Oh, that’s a great thing for me, but it doesn’t make any difference to her!” Sholto exclaimed. “She may care for certain things for themselves, but it will never signify a jot to her what I may have thought about them. One good turn deserves another. I wish you would put me forward!”
“Oh, that’s awesome for me, but it doesn’t matter to her at all!” Sholto exclaimed. “She might care about certain things for their own sake, but it will never mean anything to her what I might have thought about them. One good turn deserves another. I wish you would promote me!”
“I don’t understand you, and I don’t think I want to,” said Hyacinth, as his companion strolled beside him.
“I don’t get you, and I don’t think I want to,” said Hyacinth, as his companion walked beside him.
The latter put a hand on his arm, stopping him, and they stood face to face a moment. “I say, my dear Robinson, you’re not spoiled already, at the end of a week—how long is it? It isn’t possible you’re jealous!”
The latter placed a hand on his arm, stopping him, and they stood face to face for a moment. “I say, my dear Robinson, you’re not already spoiled after just a week—how long has it been? It’s impossible that you’re jealous!”
“Jealous of whom?” asked Hyacinth, whose failure to comprehend was perfectly genuine.
“Jealous of who?” asked Hyacinth, whose lack of understanding was completely real.
Sholto looked at him a moment; then, with a laugh, “I don’t mean Miss Henning.” Hyacinth turned away, and the Captain resumed his walk, now taking the young man’s arm and passing his own through the bridle of the horse. “The courage of it, the insolence, the crânerie! There isn’t another woman in Europe who could carry it off.”
Sholto looked at him for a moment; then, laughing, said, “I don’t mean Miss Henning.” Hyacinth turned away, and the Captain continued his walk, now linking arms with the young man and taking the horse's bridle. “The guts of it, the audacity, the crânerie! There’s not another woman in Europe who could pull it off.”
Hyacinth was silent a little; after which he remarked, “This is nothing, here. You should have seen me the other day over at Broome, at Lady Marchant’s.”
Hyacinth was quiet for a moment, then he said, “This is nothing here. You should have seen me the other day at Broome, at Lady Marchant’s.”
“Gad, did she take you there? I’d have given ten pounds to see it. There’s no one like her!” cried the Captain, gaily, enthusiastically.
“Wow, did she take you there? I would’ve paid ten pounds to see it. There’s no one like her!” exclaimed the Captain, cheerfully, with excitement.
“There’s no one like me, I think—for going.”
“There’s no one like me, I think—for going.”
“Why, didn’t you enjoy it?”
"Why, didn’t you like it?"
“Too much—too much. Such excesses are dangerous.”
“Too much—way too much. Such excess is risky.”
“Oh, I’ll back you,” said the Captain; then, checking their pace, he inquired, “Is there any chance of our meeting her? I won’t go into the park.”
“Oh, I’ll support you,” said the Captain; then, slowing down, he asked, “Is there any chance we’ll run into her? I won’t go into the park.”
“You won’t go to the house?” Hyacinth demanded, staring.
“You’re not going to the house?” Hyacinth asked, staring.
“Oh dear, no, not while you’re there.”
“Oh no, not while you’re around.”
“Well, I shall ask the Princess about you, and have done with it, once for all.”
“Well, I’ll ask the Princess about you and get it over with, once and for all.”
“Lucky little beggar, with your fireside talks!” the Captain exclaimed. “Where does she sit now, in the evening? She won’t tell you anything except that I’m a nuisance; but even if she were willing to take the trouble to throw some light upon me it wouldn’t be of much use, because she doesn’t understand me herself.”
“Lucky little beggar, with your cozy chats by the fire!” the Captain exclaimed. “Where does she sit now in the evening? She won’t tell you anything except that I’m a bother; but even if she were willing to put in the effort to explain me, it wouldn’t be very helpful because she doesn’t understand me herself.”
“You are the only thing in the world then of which that can be said,” Hyacinth returned.
“You're the only thing in the world that can be said about,” Hyacinth replied.
“I dare say I am, and I am rather proud of it. So far as the head is concerned, the Princess is all there. I told you, when I presented you, that she was the cleverest woman in Europe, and that is still my opinion. But there are some mysteries you can’t see into unless you happen to have a little heart. The Princess hasn’t, though doubtless just now you think that’s her strong point. One of these days you’ll see. I don’t care a straw, myself, whether she has or not. She has hurt me already so much she can’t hurt me any more, and my interest in her is quite independent of that. To watch her, to adore her, to see her lead her life and act out her extraordinary nature, all the while she treats me like a brute, is the only thing I care for to-day. It doesn’t do me a scrap of good, but, all the same, it’s my principal occupation. You may believe me or not—it doesn’t in the least matter; but I’m the most disinterested human being alive. She’ll tell you I’m a tremendous ass, and so one is. But that isn’t all.”
“I dare say I am, and I’m quite proud of it. When it comes to brains, the Princess is all there. I told you when I introduced you that she’s the smartest woman in Europe, and I still think that. But there are some things you can’t understand without a little heart. The Princess doesn’t have that, though you probably think that’s her strength right now. One of these days you’ll see. I really don’t care whether she does or not. She’s already hurt me so much that she can’t hurt me anymore, and my interest in her isn’t based on that. Watching her, admiring her, seeing her live her life and express her unique nature, all while she treats me like garbage, is the only thing I care about today. It doesn’t do me any good, but still, it’s what I focus on the most. You can believe me or not—it doesn’t matter to me; but I’m the most selfless person you’ll ever meet. She’ll probably say I’m a huge fool, and maybe I am. But that’s not the whole story.”
It was Hyacinth who stopped this time, arrested by something new and natural in the tone of his companion, a simplicity of emotion which he had not hitherto associated with him. He stood there a moment looking up at him, and thinking again what improbable confidences it decidedly appeared to be his lot to receive from gentlefolks. To what quality in himself were they a tribute? The honour was one he could easily dispense with; though as he scrutinised Sholto he found something in his curious light eyes—an expression of cheerfulness not disconnected from veracity—which put him into a less fantastic relation with this jaunty, factitious personage. “Please go on,” he said, in a moment.
It was Hyacinth who paused this time, captivated by something fresh and genuine in his companion's tone, a straightforwardness of emotion he hadn't associated with him before. He stood there for a moment, looking up at him, reflecting on the unlikely confidences he seemed destined to receive from well-to-do individuals. What aspect of himself did they recognize? The honor was something he could easily do without; yet as he examined Sholto, he noticed something in his strangely bright eyes—an expression of happiness not disconnected from honesty—that made him feel more grounded with this lively, artificial character. “Please go on,” he said after a moment.
“Well, what I mentioned just now is my real and only motive, in anything. The rest is mere gammon and rubbish, to cover it up—or to give myself the change, as the French say.”
“Honestly, what I just said is my true and only motive in everything. The rest is just nonsense and distractions to hide it—or to make myself feel different, as the French say.”
“What do you mean by the rest?” asked Hyacinth, thinking of Millicent Henning.
“What do you mean by the rest?” Hyacinth asked, thinking of Millicent Henning.
“Oh, all the straw one chews, to cheat one’s appetite; all the rot one dabbles in, because it may lead to something which it never does lead to; all the beastly buncombe (you know) that you and I have heard together in Bloomsbury and that I myself have poured out, damme, with an eloquence worthy of a better cause. Don’t you remember what I have said to you—all as my own opinion—about the impending change of the relations of class with class? Impending fiddlesticks! I believe those that are on top the heap are better than those that are under it, that they mean to stay there, and that if they are not a pack of poltroons they will.”
“Oh, all the nonsense we put up with to satisfy our hunger; all the junk we get involved in, thinking it might lead to something, even though it never does; all the ridiculous nonsense (you know) that you and I have heard together in Bloomsbury and that I have rambled on about, damn it, with an eloquence that deserves a better cause. Don’t you remember what I’ve told you—all just my own opinion—about the upcoming shift in class relations? Upcoming nonsense! I believe those on top of the heap are better than those below it, that they intend to stay there, and that if they’re not a bunch of cowards, they will.”
“You don’t care for the social question, then?” Hyacinth inquired, with an aspect of which he was conscious of the blankness.
“You don’t care about the social issue, then?” Hyacinth asked, aware of the emptiness in his expression.
“I only took it up because she did. It hasn’t helped me,” Sholto remarked, smiling. “My dear Robinson,” he went on, “there is only one thing I care for in life: to have a look at that woman when I can, and when I can’t, to approach her in the sort of way I’m doing now.”
“I only got into it because she did. It hasn't done anything for me,” Sholto said with a smile. “My dear Robinson,” he continued, “there’s only one thing I really care about in life: to see that woman whenever I can, and when I can’t, to get close to her in the way I’m doing now.”
“It’s a very curious sort of way.”
“It’s a really cool way.”
“Indeed it is; but if it is good enough for me it ought to be good enough for you. What I want you to do is this—to induce her to ask me over to dine.”
“Sure it is; but if it’s good enough for me, it should be good enough for you. What I want you to do is this—get her to invite me over for dinner.”
“To induce her—?” Hyacinth murmured.
"To convince her—?" Hyacinth murmured.
“Tell her I’m staying at Bonchester and it would be an act of common humanity.”
“Tell her I’m staying at Bonchester, and it would be a simple act of kindness.”
They proceeded till they reached the gates, and in a moment Hyacinth said, “You took up the social question, then, because she did; but do you happen to know why she took it up?”
They continued until they reached the gates, and in a moment, Hyacinth said, “You got into the social question because she did; but do you know why she got into it?”
“Ah, my dear fellow, you must find that out for yourself. I found you the place, but I can’t do your work for you!”
“Ah, my friend, you need to figure that out on your own. I showed you the spot, but I can’t do the work for you!”
“I see—I see. But perhaps you’ll tell me this: if you had free access to the Princess a year ago, taking her to the theatre and that sort of thing, why shouldn’t you have it now?”
“I get it—I get it. But maybe you can explain this to me: if you were able to see the Princess freely a year ago, taking her to the theater and all that, why can’t you do it now?”
This time Sholto’s white pupils looked strange again. “You have it now, my dear fellow, but I’m afraid it doesn’t follow that you’ll have it a year hence. She was tired of me then, and of course she’s still more tired of me now, for the simple reason that I’m more tiresome. She has sent me to Coventry, and I want to come out for a few hours. See how conscientious I am—I won’t pass the gates.”
This time, Sholto's white pupils looked odd again. “You have it now, my friend, but I’m afraid that doesn’t mean you’ll still have it a year from now. She was tired of me then, and of course, she’s even more tired of me now, simply because I’m more annoying. She’s completely ignoring me, and I want to be let out for a few hours. See how responsible I am—I won’t go past the gates.”
“I’ll tell her I met you,” said Hyacinth. Then, irrelevantly, he added, “Is that what you mean by her having no heart?”
“I’ll tell her I met you,” said Hyacinth. Then, out of nowhere, he added, “Is that what you mean by her having no heart?”
“Her treating me as she treats me? Oh, dear, no; her treating you!”
“Her treating me the way she does? Oh no, it’s about how she treats you!”
This had a portentous sound, but it did not prevent Hyacinth from turning round with his visitor (for it was the greatest part of the oddity of the present meeting that the hope of a little conversation with him, if accident were favourable, had been the motive not only of Sholto’s riding over to Medley but of his coming down to stay, in the neighbourhood, at a musty inn in a dull market-town), it did not prevent him, I say, from bearing the Captain company for a mile on his backward way. Our young man did not pursue this particular topic much further, but he discovered still another reason or two for admiring the light, free action with which his companion had unmasked himself, and the nature of his interest in the revolutionary idea, after he had asked him, abruptly, what he had had in his head when he travelled over that evening, the summer before (he didn’t appear to have come back as often as he promised), to Paul Muniment’s place in Camberwell. What was he looking for, whom was he looking for, there?
This had a significant sound, but it didn’t stop Hyacinth from turning around with his visitor (the oddity of this meeting was that the hope for a little conversation with him, if things went well, was what motivated Sholto to ride over to Medley and to stay nearby at a rundown inn in a boring market town). It didn’t stop him, I mean, from keeping the Captain company for a mile on his way back. Our young man didn’t delve much deeper into this topic, but he found a couple more reasons to admire the light, carefree way his companion had revealed himself and his interest in the revolutionary idea, after he had asked him, out of the blue, what he had been thinking when he came over that evening, the summer before (he didn’t seem to come back as often as he had promised), to Paul Muniment’s place in Camberwell. What was he looking for, and who was he looking for, there?
“I was looking for anything that would turn up, that might take her fancy. Don’t you understand that I’m always looking? There was a time when I went in immensely for illuminated missals, and another when I collected horrible ghost-stories (she wanted to cultivate a belief in ghosts), all for her. The day I saw she was turning her attention to the rising democracy I began to collect little democrats. That’s how I collected you.”
“I was searching for anything that might catch her interest. Don’t you get that I’m always on the lookout? There was a time when I was really into illuminated manuscripts, and another when I gathered creepy ghost stories (she wanted to foster a belief in ghosts), all for her. The day I noticed she was focusing on the rising democracy, I started collecting little democrats. That’s how I gathered you.”
“Muniment read you exactly, then. And what did you find to your purpose in Audley Court?”
“Muniment read you correctly, then. And what did you discover that was useful to you in Audley Court?”
“Well, I think the little woman with the popping eyes—she reminded me of a bedridden grasshopper—will do. And I made a note of the other one, the old virgin with the high nose, the aristocratic sister of mercy. I’m keeping them in reserve for my next propitiatory offering.”
“Well, I think the little woman with the bulging eyes—she reminded me of a sick grasshopper—will do. And I noted the other one, the old virgin with the prominent nose, the classy sister of mercy. I’m saving them for my next appeasing offering.”
Hyacinth was silent a moment. “And Muniment himself—can’t you do anything with him?”
Hyacinth was quiet for a moment. “And what about Muniment—can’t you do anything with him?”
“Oh, my dear fellow, after you he’s poor!”
“Oh, my dear friend, after you, he’s nothing!”
“That’s the first stupid thing you have said. But it doesn’t matter, for he dislikes the Princess—what he knows of her—too much ever to consent to see her.”
“That’s the first dumb thing you’ve said. But it doesn’t matter, because he dislikes the Princess—what he knows about her—too much to ever agree to see her.”
“That’s his line, is it? Then he’ll do!” Sholto cried.
"Is that what he's saying? Then he's good to go!" Sholto exclaimed.
XXVI
“Of course he may come, and stay as long as he likes!” the Princess exclaimed, when Hyacinth, that afternoon, told her of his encounter, with the sweet, bright surprise her face always wore when people went through the form (supererogatory she apparently meant to declare it) of asking her leave. From the manner in which she granted Sholto’s petition—with a geniality that made light of it, as if the question were not worth talking of, one way or the other—it might have been supposed that the account he had given Hyacinth of their relations was an elaborate but none the less foolish hoax. She sent a messenger with a note over to Bonchester, and the Captain arrived just in time to dress for dinner. The Princess was always late, and Hyacinth’s toilet, on these occasions, occupied him considerably (he was acutely conscious of its deficiencies, and yet tried to persuade himself that they were positively honourable and that the only garb of dignity, for him, was the costume, as it were, of his profession); therefore, when the fourth member of the little party descended to the drawing-room Madame Grandoni was the only person he found there.
“Of course he can come and stay as long as he wants!” the Princess said excitedly when Hyacinth shared his encounter that afternoon, her face lit up with the sweet, bright surprise she always showed when people asked for her permission, which she seemed to think was unnecessary. The way she agreed to Sholto’s request—with an amiability that downplayed it, as if the question wasn’t really worth discussing—might have led one to believe that the story he had told Hyacinth about their relationship was an elaborate yet silly joke. She sent a messenger with a note to Bonchester, and the Captain arrived just in time to get ready for dinner. The Princess was always late, and Hyacinth’s preparations on these occasions took him quite a while (he was very aware of their shortcomings but tried to convince himself that they were still respectable and that the only dignified outfit for him was the uniform, so to speak, of his job); therefore, when the fourth person in their small group came down to the drawing-room, Madame Grandoni was the only one he found there.
“Santissima Vergine! I’m glad to see you! What good wind has sent you?” she exclaimed, as soon as Sholto came into the room.
Santissima Vergine! It’s great to see you! What brings you here? she exclaimed, as soon as Sholto entered the room.
“Didn’t you know I was coming?” he asked. “Has the idea of my arrival produced so little agitation?”
“Didn’t you know I was coming?” he asked. “Has the thought of my arrival stirred so little excitement?”
“I know nothing of the affairs of this house. I have given them up at last, and it was time. I remain in my room.” There was nothing at present in the old lady’s countenance of her usual spirit of cheer; it expressed anxiety, and even a certain sternness, and the excellent woman had perhaps at this moment more than she had ever had in her life of the air of a duenna who took her duties seriously. She looked almost august. “From the moment you come it’s a little better. But it is very bad.”
“I don’t know anything about what’s going on in this house. I’ve finally given up on it, and it was about time. I’m just staying in my room.” There was none of the usual cheerfulness on the old lady’s face; it showed anxiety and even a bit of sternness, and at that moment, she had more of the serious demeanor of a strict guardian than she ever had before. She looked almost majestic. “Since you arrived, things have improved a bit. But it’s still really bad.”
“Very bad, dear madam?”
“Very bad, dear lady?”
“Perhaps you will be able to tell me where Christina veut en venir. I have always been faithful to her—I have always been loyal. But to-day I have lost patience. It has no sense.”
“Maybe you can tell me what Christina wants. I've always been faithful to her—I’ve always been loyal. But today I've lost my patience. It makes no sense.”
“I am not sure I know what you are talking about,” Sholto said; “but if I understand you I must tell you I think it’s magnificent.”
“I’m not sure I understand what you’re talking about,” Sholto said; “but if I get you right, I have to say I think it’s amazing.”
“Yes, I know your tone; you are worse than she, because you are cynical. It passes all bounds. It is very serious. I have been thinking what I should do.”
“Yes, I recognize your tone; you’re worse than she is because you’re cynical. It crosses all limits. It’s quite serious. I’ve been thinking about what I should do.”
“Precisely; I know what you would do.”
“Exactly; I know what you would do.”
“Oh, this time I shouldn’t come back!” the old lady declared. “The scandal is too great; it is intolerable. My only fear is to make it worse.”
“Oh, this time I really shouldn’t come back!” the old lady said. “The scandal is too much; it's unbearable. My only worry is that I’ll make it worse.”
“Dear Madame Grandoni, you can’t make it worse, and you can’t make it better,” Sholto rejoined, seating himself on the sofa beside her. “In point of fact, no idea of scandal can possibly attach itself to our friend. She is above and outside of all such considerations, such dangers. She carries everything off; she heeds so little, she cares so little. Besides, she has one great strength—she does no wrong.”
“Dear Madame Grandoni, you can’t make it worse, and you can’t make it better,” Sholto replied, sitting down on the sofa next to her. “In fact, there’s no way that any kind of scandal could ever be linked to our friend. She is beyond all of that, above any such concerns or risks. She handles everything effortlessly; she pays so little attention, she cares so little. Plus, she has one significant strength—she does no wrong.”
“Pray, what do you call it when a lady sends for a bookbinder to come and live with her?”
“Seriously, what do you call it when a woman invites a bookbinder to come live with her?”
“Why not for a bookbinder as well as for a bishop? It all depends upon who the lady is, and what she is.”
“Why not a bookbinder just like a bishop? It all depends on who the lady is and what she's like.”
“She had better take care of one thing first,” cried Madame Grandoni—“that she shall not have been separated from her husband!”
“She should take care of one thing first,” shouted Madame Grandoni—“that she hasn’t been separated from her husband!”
“The Princess can carry off even that. It’s unusual, it’s eccentric, it’s fantastic, if you will, but it isn’t necessarily wicked. From her own point of view our friend goes straight. Besides, she has her opinions.”
“The Princess can handle even that. It’s unusual, it’s quirky, it’s amazing, if you want to call it that, but it isn't necessarily wrong. From her perspective, our friend is doing just fine. Plus, she has her own beliefs.”
“Her opinions are perversity itself.”
“Her opinions are pure nonsense.”
“What does it matter,” asked Sholto, “if they keep her quiet?”
“What does it matter,” Sholto asked, “if they keep her quiet?”
“Quiet! Do you call this quiet?”
“Shh! Is this what you call quiet?”
“Surely, if you’ll only be so yourself. Putting the case at the worst, moreover, who is to know he’s her bookbinder? It’s the last thing you’d take him for.”
“Of course, if you just be yourself. Even if things are at their worst, who’s going to know he’s her bookbinder? That’s the last thing you’d think he is.”
“Yes, for that she chose him carefully,” the old lady murmured, still with a discontented eyebrow.
“Yes, for that she picked him out carefully,” the old lady murmured, still with a discontented eyebrow.
“She chose him? It was I who chose him, dear lady!” the Captain exclaimed, with a laugh which showed how little he shared her solicitude.
“She chose him? I was the one who chose him, dear lady!” the Captain exclaimed, laughing in a way that showed how little he shared her concern.
“Yes, I had forgotten; at the theatre,” said Madame Grandoni, gazing at him as if her ideas were confused but a certain repulsion from her interlocutor nevertheless disengaged itself. “It was a fine turn you did him there, poor young man!”
“Yes, I forgot; at the theater,” said Madame Grandoni, looking at him as if her thoughts were mixed up, but a certain repulsion from her conversation partner still came through. “That was quite the stunt you pulled on him, poor young man!”
“Certainly, he will have to be sacrificed. But why was I bound to consider him so much? Haven’t I been sacrificed myself?”
“Of course, he has to be sacrificed. But why did I feel so obligated to care about him? Haven’t I been sacrificed myself?”
“Oh, if he bears it like you!” cried the old lady, with a short laugh.
“Oh, if he handles it like you!” exclaimed the old lady, with a brief laugh.
“How do you know how I bear it? One does what one can,” said the Captain, settling his shirt-front. “At any rate, remember this: she won’t tell people who he is, for his own sake; and he won’t tell them, for hers. So, as he looks much more like a poet, or a pianist, or a painter, there won’t be that sensation you fear.”
“How do you know what I’m going through? You do what you can,” said the Captain, adjusting his shirt. “Anyway, just remember this: she won’t reveal who he is, for his sake; and he won’t say anything, for her sake. So, since he looks much more like a poet, or a pianist, or a painter, there won’t be that reaction you’re worried about.”
“Even so it’s bad enough,” said Madame Grandoni. “And he’s capable of bringing it out, suddenly, himself.”
“Still, it’s pretty bad,” said Madame Grandoni. “And he’s definitely capable of revealing it all himself, out of the blue.”
“Ah, if he doesn’t mind it, she won’t! But that’s his affair.”
“Ah, if he doesn’t care, she won’t either! But that’s up to him.”
“It’s too terrible, to spoil him for his station,” the old lady went on. “How can he ever go back?”
“It’s too awful to ruin him for his position,” the old lady continued. “How can he ever go back?”
“If you want him kept, then, indefinitely, you are inconsistent. Besides, if he pays for it, he deserves to pay. He’s an abominable little conspirator against society.”
“If you want to keep him around indefinitely, then you’re being inconsistent. Besides, if he’s paying for it, he should pay. He’s a terrible little conspirator against society.”
Madame Grandoni was silent a moment; then she looked at the Captain with a gravity which might have been impressive to him, had not his accomplished jauntiness suggested an insensibility to that sort of influence. “What, then, does Christina deserve?” she asked, with solemnity.
Madame Grandoni paused for a moment, then looked at the Captain with a seriousness that might have struck him as impressive, if his effortless confidence hadn't implied a disregard for that kind of effect. “So, what does Christina deserve?” she asked, earnestly.
“Whatever she may get; whatever, in the future, may make her suffer. But it won’t be the loss of her reputation. She is too distinguished.”
“Whatever she gets; whatever may cause her pain in the future. But it won't be the loss of her reputation. She's too exceptional.”
“You English are strange. Is it because she’s a princess?” Madame Grandoni reflected, audibly.
“You English are weird. Is it because she’s a princess?” Madame Grandoni thought out loud.
“Oh, dear, no, her princedom is nothing here. We can easily beat that. But we can’t beat—” And Sholto paused a moment.
“Oh, no way, her princedom doesn't mean anything here. We can totally top that. But we can’t beat—” And Sholto paused for a moment.
“What then?” his companion asked.
“What now?” his companion asked.
“Well, the perfection of her indifference to public opinion and the unaffectedness of her originality; the sort of thing by which she has bedeviled me.”
“Well, her complete disregard for public opinion and her genuine originality; that's what has driven me crazy.”
“Oh, you!” murmured Madame Grandoni.
“Oh, *you!*” murmured Madame Grandoni.
“If you think so poorly of me why did you say just now that you were glad to see me?” Sholto demanded, in a moment.
“If you think so little of me, why did you just say that you were glad to see me?” Sholto asked, a moment later.
“Because you make another person in the house, and that is more regular; the situation is by so much less—what did you call it?—eccentric. Nun,” the old lady went on, in a moment, “so long as you are here I won’t go off.”
“Because you have another person in the house, and that makes it more normal; the situation is therefore so much less—what did you call it?—weird. Nun,” the old lady continued after a moment, “as long as you’re here, I won’t leave.”
“Depend upon it that I shall be here until I’m turned out.”
“Count on it that I’ll be here until I’m kicked out.”
She rested her small, troubled eyes upon him, but they betrayed no particular enthusiasm at this announcement, “I don’t understand how, for yourself, on such an occasion, you should like it.”
She fixed her small, troubled eyes on him, but they showed no real excitement at this announcement. “I don’t get why you would want it for yourself on such an occasion.”
“Dear Madame Grandoni, the heart of man, without being such a hopeless labyrinth as the heart of woman, is still sufficiently complicated. Don’t I know what will become of the little beggar?”
“Dear Madame Grandoni, while a man's heart isn't as hopelessly complex as a woman's, it's still quite intricate. Don’t I know what will happen to the little beggar?”
“You are very horrible,” said the ancient woman. Then she added, in a different tone, “He is much too good for his fate.”
“You're really awful,” the old woman said. Then she added, in a different tone, “He's way too good for what’s coming to him.”
“And pray wasn’t I, for mine?” the Captain asked.
“And wasn’t I, for mine?” the Captain asked.
“By no manner of means!” Madame Grandoni answered, rising and moving away from him.
“Absolutely not!” Madame Grandoni replied, getting up and stepping away from him.
The Princess had come into the room, accompanied by Hyacinth. As it was now considerably past the dinner-hour the old lady judged that this couple, on their side, had met in the hall and had prolonged their conversation there. Hyacinth watched with extreme interest the way the Princess greeted the Captain—observed that it was very simple, easy and friendly. At dinner she made no stranger of him, including him in everything, as if he had been a useful familiar, like Madame Grandoni, only a little less venerable, yet not giving him any attention that might cause their eyes to meet. She had told Hyacinth that she didn’t like his eyes, nor indeed, very much, any part of him. Of course any admiration, from almost any source, could not fail to be in some degree agreeable to a woman, but of any little impression that one might ever have produced the mark she had made on Godfrey Sholto was the one that ministered least to her vanity. He had been useful, undoubtedly, at times, but at others he had been an intolerable bore. He was so uninteresting in himself, so shallow, so unoccupied and superfluous, and really so frivolous, in spite of his pretension (of which she was unspeakably weary) of being all wrapped up in a single idea. It had never, by itself, been sufficient to interest her in any man, the fact that he was in love with her; but indeed she could honestly say that most of the people who had liked her had had, on their own side, something—something in their character or circumstances—that one could care a little about. Not so far as would do any harm, save perhaps in one or two cases; but still, something.
The Princess entered the room, accompanied by Hyacinth. Now that it was well past dinner time, the old lady figured that this couple had probably bumped into each other in the hall and had kept their conversation going. Hyacinth watched with great interest as the Princess greeted the Captain—it was very simple, casual, and friendly. At dinner, she didn’t treat him like a stranger, including him in everything as if he were a familiar face, like Madame Grandoni, just a bit less dignified, but she didn’t give him any attention that might make their eyes meet. She had told Hyacinth that she didn’t like his eyes, nor really much of him at all. Of course, any admiration from almost anyone could be somewhat pleasing to a woman, but the mark she had made on Godfrey Sholto was the least satisfying to her vanity. He had been useful at times, but at others, he was an unbearable bore. He was so uninteresting, so shallow, so aimless and extra, and really so superficial, despite his tired pretension of being focused on a single idea. The fact that a man loved her had never been enough by itself to interest her; she could honestly say that most people who liked her had, on their side, something—something in their character or situation—that she could care a bit about. Not enough to cause any trouble, except perhaps in one or two cases; but still, something.
Sholto was a curious and not particularly edifying English type (as the Princess further described him); one of those strange beings produced by old societies that have run to seed, corrupt, exhausted civilisations. He was a cumberer of the earth, and purely selfish, in spite of his devoted, disinterested airs. He was nothing whatever in himself, and had no character or merit save by tradition, reflection, imitation, superstition. He had a longish pedigree—he came of some musty, mouldy ‘county family’, people with a local reputation and an immense lack of general importance; he had taken the greatest care of his little fortune. He had travelled all over the globe several times, ‘for the shooting’, in that brutal way of the English. That was a pursuit which was compatible with the greatest stupidity. He had a little taste, a little cleverness, a little reading, a little good furniture, a little French and Italian (he exaggerated these latter quantities), an immense deal of assurance, and complete leisure. That, at bottom, was all he represented—idle, trifling, luxurious, yet at the same time pretentious leisure, the sort of thing that led people to invent false, humbugging duties, because they had no real ones. Sholto’s great idea of himself (after his profession of being her slave) was that he was a cosmopolite—exempt from every prejudice. About the prejudices the Princess couldn’t say and didn’t care; but she had seen him in foreign countries, she had seen him in Italy, and she was bound to say he understood nothing about those people. It was several years before, shortly after her marriage, that she had first encountered him. He had not begun immediately to take the adoring line, but it had come little by little. It was only after she had separated from her husband that he had begun really to hang about her; since when she had suffered much from him. She would do him one justice, however: he had never, so far as she knew, had the impudence to represent himself as anything but hopeless and helpless. It was on this that he took his stand; he wished to pass for the great model of unrewarded constancy. She couldn’t imagine what he was waiting for; perhaps it was for the death of the Prince. But the Prince would never die, nor had she the least desire that he should. She had no wish to be harsh, for of course that sort of thing, from any one, was very flattering; but really, whatever feeling poor Sholto might have, four-fifths of it were purely theatrical. He was not in the least a natural human being, but had a hundred affectations and attitudes, the result of never having been obliged to put his hand to anything; having no serious tastes and yet being born to a little ‘position’. The Princess remarked that she was so glad Hyacinth had no position, and had been forced to do something in life but amuse himself; that was the way she liked her friends now. She had said to Sholto again and again, “There are plenty of others who will be much more pleased; why not go to them? It’s such a waste of time:” and she was sure he had taken her advice, and was by no means, as regards herself, the absorbed, annihilated creature he endeavoured to appear. He had told her once that he tried to take an interest in other women—though indeed he had added that it was of no use. Of what use did he expect anything he could possibly do to be? Hyacinth did not tell the Princess that he had reason to believe the Captain’s effort in this direction had not been absolutely vain; but he made that reflection, privately, with increased confidence. He recognised a further truth even when his companion said, at the end, that, with all she had touched upon, he was a queer combination. Trifler as he was, there was something sinister in him too; and she confessed she had had a vague feeling, at times, that some day he might do her a hurt. Hyacinth, at this, stopped short, on the threshold of the drawing-room, and asked in a low voice, “Are you afraid of him?”
Sholto was an odd and not particularly impressive English guy (as the Princess further described him); one of those peculiar individuals produced by outdated societies that have become corrupt and exhausted. He was a burden on the earth, purely selfish, despite his devoted, selfless facade. He didn’t have much of anything to offer himself and had no character or merit except through tradition, reflection, imitation, or superstition. He had a somewhat lengthy family history—he came from a dusty, outdated “county family,” people with a local reputation and a total lack of wider significance; he had taken great care of his modest fortune. He had traveled all over the world several times, “for the hunting,” in that brutal way typical of the English. That pursuit went hand in hand with a level of stupidity. He had a bit of taste, a bit of cleverness, a bit of reading, a bit of nice furniture, a little French and Italian (he exaggerated those last two), a tremendous amount of confidence, and all the free time in the world. That was fundamentally all he was—idle, shallow, luxurious, yet at the same time pretentious leisure, the kind of thing that made people invent false, pompous duties since they had no real ones. Sholto’s grand idea of himself (after claiming to be her slave) was that he was a cosmopolitan—free from any prejudice. As for those prejudices, the Princess couldn’t comment and didn’t care; but she had seen him in foreign countries, she had seen him in Italy, and she had to admit he understood nothing about those people. It had been several years before, shortly after her marriage, that she had first met him. He hadn’t jumped right into the adoring role, but it had developed gradually. Only after she separated from her husband did he really start to hang around her; since then, she had endured a lot because of him. She would give him one credit, though: he had never, as far as she knew, had the nerve to portray himself as anything but hopeless and helpless. That was his stance; he wanted to be seen as the great example of unappreciated loyalty. She couldn’t figure out what he was waiting for; maybe it was for the Prince to die. But the Prince would never die, nor did she want him to. She didn’t want to be harsh, because she knew that sort of attention was flattering; but honestly, whatever feelings poor Sholto might have, most of it was just for show. He wasn’t a natural human being at all, but had a hundred pretenses and poses, the result of never having to work for anything; he had no serious interests yet was born into a little “position.” The Princess noted that she was really glad Hyacinth had no position and had to actually do something in life beyond just having fun; that’s how she preferred her friends now. She had told Sholto again and again, “There are plenty of others who would be much more interested; why not go to them? It’s such a waste of time:” and she was sure he had taken her advice and wasn’t truly the absorbed, crushed person he tried to seem. He once told her that he tried to show interest in other women—though he had added that it was pointless. What did he expect anything he did to accomplish? Hyacinth didn’t tell the Princess that he thought the Captain’s attempts in that direction hadn’t been completely in vain; but he privately reflected on that with growing confidence. He recognized another truth even when his companion concluded that, in light of everything she had mentioned, he was a strange mix. Although he was a trifler, there was something unsettling about him too; and she admitted she had occasionally felt that someday he might cause her harm. At this, Hyacinth stopped short at the entrance of the drawing-room and asked softly, “Are you afraid of him?”
The Princess looked at him a moment; then smiling, “Dio mio, how you say that! Should you like to kill him for me?”
The Princess looked at him for a moment; then smiling, “Dio mio, how you say that! Would you like to kill him for me?”
“I shall have to kill some one, you know. Why not him, while I’m about it, if he troubles you?”
“I have to kill someone, you know. Why not him, since I’m at it, if he’s bothering you?”
“Ah, my friend, if you should begin to kill every one who had troubled me!” the Princess murmured, as they went into the room.
“Ah, my friend, if you were to start killing everyone who has upset me!” the Princess said softly as they entered the room.
XXVII
Hyacinth knew there was something out of the way as soon as he saw Lady Aurora’s face look forth at him, in answer to his tap, while she held the door ajar. What was she doing in Pinnie’s bedroom?—a very poor place, into which the dressmaker, with her reverence, would never have admitted a person of that quality unless things were pretty bad. She was solemn, too; she didn’t laugh, as usual; she had removed her large hat, with its limp, old-fashioned veil, and she raised her finger to her lips. Hyacinth’s first alarm had been immediately after he let himself into the house, with his latch-key, as he always did, and found the little room on the right of the passage, in which Pinnie had lived ever since he remembered, fireless and untenanted. As soon as he had paid the cabman, who put down his portmanteau for him in the hall (he was not used to paying cabmen, and was conscious he gave him too much, but was too impatient, in his sudden anxiety, to care), he hurried up the vile staircase, which seemed viler, even through his preoccupation, than ever, and gave the knock, accompanied by a call the least bit tremulous, immediately answered by Lady Aurora. She drew back into the room a moment, while he stared, in his dismay; then she emerged again, closing the door behind her—all with the air of enjoining him to be terribly quiet. He felt, suddenly, so sick at the idea of having lingered at Medley while there was distress at the wretched little house to which he owed so much, that he scarcely found strength for an articulate question, and obeyed, mechanically, the mute, urgent gesture by which Lady Aurora appealed to him to go downstairs with her. It was only when they stood together in the deserted parlour (it was as if he perceived for the first time what an inelegant odour prevailed there) that he asked, “Is she dying—is she dead?” That was the least the strained sadness looking out from the face of the noble visitor appeared to announce.
Hyacinth sensed something was wrong the moment he saw Lady Aurora’s face peering at him from behind the partially opened door. What was she doing in Pinnie’s bedroom? It was a very small place, and even the dressmaker, out of respect, wouldn’t have let someone like her in unless there was a serious issue. She looked serious too; she wasn’t laughing like she usually did, she had taken off her large hat with its limp, old-fashioned veil, and she raised a finger to her lips. Hyacinth’s first alarm hit him right after he let himself into the house with his latch-key, as he always did, and discovered the small room on the right of the hallway, where Pinnie had lived for as long as he could remember, cold and empty. After he paid the cab driver, who dropped his suitcase in the hallway (he wasn’t used to paying cab drivers and felt he gave him too much, but he was too anxious to care), he rushed up the filthy staircase, which seemed even more disgusting than usual, and knocked while calling out with a hint of tremor, immediately answered by Lady Aurora. She stepped back into the room for a moment while he stood there, dismayed; then she came out again, closing the door behind her, all while signaling him to be extremely quiet. He suddenly felt sick at the thought of having lingered at Medley when there was distress at the miserable little house that meant so much to him, so he could barely muster a coherent question and followed, almost without thinking, the silent, urgent gesture Lady Aurora made for him to come downstairs with her. It was only when they stood together in the empty parlor (it was as if he was noticing for the first time how unpleasant the smell was there) that he asked, “Is she dying—has she died?” That seemed to be the least the strained sadness reflected in Lady Aurora’s face was suggesting.
“Dear Mr Robinson, I’m so sorry for you. I wanted to write, but I promised her I wouldn’t. She is very ill—we are very anxious. It began ten days ago, and I suppose I must tell you how much she has gone down.” Lady Aurora spoke with more than all her usual embarrassments and precautions, eagerly, yet as if it cost her much pain: pausing a little after everything she said, to see how he would take it; then going on, with a little propitiatory rush. He learned presently what was the matter, what doctor she had sent for, and that if he would wait a little before going into the room it would be so much better; the invalid having sunk, within half an hour, into a doze of a less agitated kind than she had had for some time, from which it would be an immense pity to run the risk of waking her. The doctor gave her the right things, as it seemed to her ladyship, but he admitted that she had very little power of resistance. He was of course not a very large practitioner, Mr Buffery, from round the corner, but he seemed really clever; and she herself had taken the liberty (as she confessed to this she threw off one of her odd laughs, and her colour rose) of sending an elderly, respectable person—a kind of nurse. She was out just then; she had to go, for an hour, for the air—“only when I come, of course,” said Lady Aurora. Dear Miss Pynsent had had a cold hanging about her, and had not taken care of it. Hyacinth would know how plucky she was about that sort of thing; she took so little interest in herself. “Of course a cold is a cold, whoever has it; isn’t it?” said Lady Aurora. Ten days before, she had taken an additional chill through falling asleep in her chair, in the evening, down there, and letting the fire go out. “It would have been nothing if she had been like you or me, you know,” her ladyship went on; “but just as she was then, it made the difference. The day was horribly damp, and it had struck into the lungs, and inflammation had set in. Mr Buffery says she was impoverished, just rather low and languid, you know.” The next morning she had bad pains and a good deal of fever, yet she had got up. Poor Pinnie’s gracious ministrant did not make clear to Hyacinth what time had elapsed before she came to her relief, nor by what means she had been notified, and he saw that she slurred this over from the admirable motive of wishing him not to feel that the little dressmaker had suffered by his absence or called for him in vain. This, apparently, had indeed not been the case, if Pinnie had opposed, successfully, his being written to. Lady Aurora only said, “I came in very soon, it was such a delightful chance. Since then she has had everything; only it’s sad to see a person need so little. She did want you to stay; she has clung to that idea. I speak the simple truth, Mr Robinson.”
“Dear Mr. Robinson, I’m so sorry to hear about your situation. I wanted to get in touch, but I promised her I wouldn’t. She’s very sick—we’re really worried. This started ten days ago, and I guess I must tell you how much she has declined.” Lady Aurora spoke with more than her usual nervousness and caution, eagerly, yet as if it caused her a lot of pain: pausing slightly after everything she said to see how he would react; then continuing with a bit of a rushed tone. He soon learned what was going on, which doctor she called, and that it would be much better if he waited a bit before going into the room; the patient had fallen into a quieter doze after an hour, which was a welcome change and it would be a huge pity to risk waking her. The doctor seemed to give her the right medications, as far as Lady Aurora could tell, but he admitted she had very little ability to fight this off. He wasn’t a very prominent doctor, Mr. Buffery from around the corner, but he seemed genuinely skilled; she had also taken the liberty (she chuckled awkwardly, and her cheeks flushed as she admitted this) of sending an elderly, respectable woman—a sort of nurse. She was out at that moment; she had to step out for an hour to get some fresh air—“only when I come back, of course,” said Lady Aurora. Poor Miss Pynsent had been dealing with a lingering cold and hadn’t looked after herself. Hyacinth would know how tough she was about that sort of thing; she took so little interest in her own well-being. “Of course a cold is still a cold, no matter who has it; isn’t it?” Lady Aurora said. Ten days prior, she had caught an additional chill after dozing off in her chair in the evening and letting the fire go out. “It wouldn’t have been a big deal if she had been like you or me, you know,” her ladyship continued; “but given her condition, it made all the difference. The day was terribly damp, and it affected her lungs, leading to inflammation. Mr. Buffery said she was weakened, just feeling a bit low and tired, you know.” The next morning, she had severe pains and a lot of fever, yet she managed to get up. Poor Pinnie’s kind caretaker didn’t clarify to Hyacinth how much time had passed before she came to help her, nor how she had been informed, and he noticed she brushed this over to spare him the feeling that the little dressmaker had suffered from his absence or had called for him in vain. This, it seemed, had indeed not been the case, as Pinnie had successfully opposed being written to. Lady Aurora simply said, “I came in very soon, it was such a fortunate coincidence. Since then, she has had everything; it’s just sad to see someone need so little. She did want you to stay; she has really held onto that idea. I’m telling you the truth, Mr. Robinson.”
“I don’t know what to say to you—you are so extraordinarily good, so angelic,” Hyacinth replied, bewildered and made weak by a strange, unexpected shame. The episode he had just traversed, the splendour he had been living in and drinking so deep of, the unnatural alliance to which he had given himself up while his wretched little foster-mother struggled alone with her death-stroke—he could see it was that; the presentiment of it, the last stiff horror, was in all the place—the contrast seemed to cut him like a knife, and to make the horrible accident of his absence a perversity of his own. “I can never blame you, when you are so kind, but I wish to God I had known!” he broke out.
“I don’t know what to say to you—you’re so incredibly good, so angelic,” Hyacinth replied, confused and weakened by a strange, unexpected shame. The situation he had just gone through, the amazing life he had been living and fully indulging in, the unnatural bond he had committed to while his poor little foster-mother struggled alone with her final moments—he realized that’s what it was; the sense of it, the last terrible dread, was everywhere—the contrast felt like a knife cutting into him, making his absence seem like an awful personal failure. “I can never blame you when you’re so kind, but I wish to God I had known!” he exclaimed.
Lady Aurora clasped her hands, begging him to judge her fairly. “Of course it was a great responsibility for us, but we thought it right to consider what she urged upon us. She went back to it constantly, that your visit should not be cut short. When you should come of yourself, it would be time enough. I don’t know exactly where you have been, but she said it was such a pleasant house. She kept repeating that it would do you so much good.”
Lady Aurora clasped her hands, pleading with him to judge her fairly. “It was definitely a big responsibility for us, but we felt it was right to think about what she insisted. She kept bringing it up, saying that your visit should not be rushed. When you decide to come on your own, that will be the right time. I’m not sure where you’ve been, but she mentioned it was such a lovely place. She kept saying that it would be really good for you.”
Hyacinth felt his eyes filling with tears. “She’s dying—she’s dying! How can she live when she’s like that?”
Hyacinth felt tears welling up in his eyes. “She’s dying—she’s dying! How can she survive like that?”
He sank upon the old yellow sofa, the sofa of his lifetime and of so many years before, and buried his head on the shabby, tattered arm. A succession of sobs broke from his lips—sobs in which the accumulated emotion of months and the strange, acute conflict of feeling that had possessed him for the three weeks just past found relief and a kind of solution. Lady Aurora sat down beside him and laid her finger-tips gently on his hand. So, for a minute, while his tears flowed and she said nothing, he felt her timid, consoling touch. At the end of the minute he raised his head; it came back to him that she had said ‘we’ just before, and he asked her whom she meant.
He collapsed onto the old yellow sofa, the one he had cherished for years, and buried his head on the worn, tattered arm. A wave of sobs broke from his lips—sobs in which the built-up emotions of months and the intense, conflicting feelings that had overwhelmed him for the past three weeks found release and some sort of resolution. Lady Aurora sat down next to him and gently placed her fingertips on his hand. For a moment, while his tears fell and she remained silent, he felt her tentative, comforting touch. After that minute, he lifted his head; it occurred to him that she had mentioned ‘we’ earlier, so he asked her who she meant.
“Oh, Mr Vetch, don’t you know? I have made his acquaintance; it’s impossible to be more kind.” Then, while, for an instant, Hyacinth was silent, wincing, pricked with the thought that Pinnie had been beholden to the fiddler while he was masquerading in high life, Lady Aurora added, “He’s a charming musician. She asked him once, at first, to bring his violin; she thought it would soothe her.”
“Oh, Mr. Vetch, didn’t you know? I’ve met him; he couldn’t be kinder.” Then, as Hyacinth fell silent for a moment, feeling uncomfortable, stung by the thought that Pinnie had been indebted to the fiddler while he had been pretending to fit in with the elite, Lady Aurora added, “He’s a wonderful musician. She asked him at the start to bring his violin; she thought it would be calming for her.”
“I’m much obliged to him, but now that I’m here we needn’t trouble him,” said Hyacinth.
“I really appreciate what he’s done for me, but now that I’m here, we don’t need to bother him,” said Hyacinth.
Apparently there was a certain dryness in his tone, which was the cause of her ladyship’s venturing to reply, after an hesitation, “Do let him come, Mr Robinson; let him be near you! I wonder whether you know that—that he has a great affection for you.”
Apparently, there was a bit of dryness in his tone, which made her ladyship feel bold enough to reply, after a pause, “Do let him come, Mr. Robinson; let him be close to you! I wonder if you know that he has a deep affection for you.”
“The more fool he; I have always treated him like a brute!” Hyacinth exclaimed, colouring.
“The more of a fool he is; I’ve always treated him like an animal!” Hyacinth exclaimed, blushing.
The way Lady Aurora spoke proved to him, later, that she now definitely did know his secret, or one of them, rather; for at the rate things had been going for the last few months he was making a regular collection. She knew the smaller—not, of course, the greater; she had, decidedly, been illuminated by Pinnie’s divagations. At the moment he made that reflection, however, he was almost startled to perceive how completely he had ceased to resent such betrayals and how little it suddenly seemed to signify that the innocent source of them was about to be quenched. The sense of his larger secret swallowed up that particular anxiety, making him ask himself what it mattered, for the time that was left to him, that people should whisper to each other his little mystery. The day came quickly when he believed, and yet didn’t care, that it had been universally imparted.
The way Lady Aurora talked made him realize later that she definitely knew his secret, or at least one of them; he had been collecting them regularly over the past few months. She was aware of the smaller secrets—not, of course, the bigger ones; she had definitely picked up on Pinnie’s ramblings. At that moment of reflection, though, he was almost surprised to see how completely he had stopped resenting such betrayals and how little it seemed to matter that the innocent source of them was about to be silenced. The weight of his bigger secret overshadowed that specific worry, making him wonder what it really mattered, given the time he had left, that people were whispering about his little mystery. The day came soon when he believed, and yet didn’t care, that it had been shared by everyone.
After Lady Aurora left him, promising she would call him the first moment it should seem prudent, he walked up and down the cold, stale parlour, immersed in his meditations. The shock of the danger of losing Pinnie had already passed away; he had achieved so much, of late, in the line of accepting the idea of death that the little dressmaker, in taking her departure, seemed already to benefit by this curious discipline. What was most vivid to him, in the deserted scene of Pinnie’s unsuccessful industry, was the changed vision with which he had come back to objects familiar for twenty years. The picture was the same, and all its horrid elements, wearing a kind of greasy gloss in the impure air of Lomax Place, made, through the mean window-panes, a dismal chiaroscuro—showed, in their polished misery, the friction of his own little life; but the eyes with which he looked at it had new terms of comparison. He had known the place was hideous and sordid, but its aspect to-day was pitiful to the verge of the sickening; he couldn’t believe that for years together he had accepted and even, a little, revered it. He was frightened at the sort of service that his experience of grandeur had rendered him. It was all very well to have assimilated that element with a rapidity which had surprises even for himself; but with sensibilities now so improved what fresh arrangement could one come to with the very humble, which was in its nature uncompromising? Though the spring was far advanced the day was a dark drizzle, and the room had the clamminess of a finished use, an ooze of dampness from the muddy street, where the areas were a narrow slit. No wonder Pinnie had felt it at last, and her small under-fed organism had grown numb and ceased to act. At the thought of her limited, stinted life, the patient, humdrum effort of her needle and scissors, which had ended only in a show-room where there was nothing to show and a pensive reference to the cut of sleeves no longer worn, the tears again rose to his eyes; but he brushed them aside when he heard a cautious tinkle at the house-door, which was presently opened by the little besmirched slavey retained for the service of the solitary lodger—a domestic easily bewildered, who had a squint and distressed Hyacinth by wearing shoes that didn’t match, though they were of an equal antiquity and resembled each other in the facility with which they dropped off. Hyacinth had not heard Mr Vetch’s voice in the hall, apparently because he spoke in a whisper; but the young man was not surprised when, taking every precaution not to make the door creak, he came into the parlour. The fiddler said nothing to him at first; the two men only looked at each other for a long minute. Hyacinth saw what he most wanted to know—whether he knew the worst about Pinnie; but what was further in his eyes (they had an expression considerably different from any he had hitherto seen in them) defined itself to our hero only little by little.
After Lady Aurora left him, saying she would call as soon as it made sense, he paced back and forth in the chilly, musty parlor, lost in thought. The shock of the risk of losing Pinnie had faded; he had made significant progress recently in coming to terms with the idea of death, so the little dressmaker’s departure seemed to reflect this strange acceptance. What stood out to him in the empty space where Pinnie had unsuccessfully toiled was the fresh perspective he had gained on things he’d known for twenty years. The scene was unchanged, with all its grim details taking on a grim sheen in the polluted air of Lomax Place, creating a dismal chiaroscuro through the dirty window panes, revealing the dull struggle of his own little life; but he looked at it all with a different frame of reference. He had always recognized the place as ugly and grimy, but today it was pitiful to the point of being nauseating; he could hardly believe he had accepted, and even somewhat revered, it for so long. He felt uneasy at how his exposure to grandeur had affected him. It was one thing to absorb that element so quickly, which even surprised him; but with his newfound sensitivities, what kind of understanding could he achieve with the very humble, which was naturally unyielding? Despite spring being well underway, the day was dreary and drizzly, and the room felt damp and stale, exuding moisture from the muddy street outside, where the area was just a narrow gap. No wonder Pinnie had finally felt it, and her small, undernourished body had grown numb and stopped functioning. Thinking about her limited, constrained life, the steady, monotonous work of her needle and scissors that had led to a showroom with nothing to display and a wistful nod to styles no longer in fashion, tears pricked his eyes again; but he wiped them away when he heard a soft tinkle at the front door, which was soon opened by the little dirty maid retained for the service of the lonely lodger—an easily confused domestic who squinted and frustrated Hyacinth by wearing mismatched shoes, though they were both equally old and shared the same tendency to slip off. Hyacinth hadn’t heard Mr. Vetch’s voice in the hallway, apparently because he spoke in a whisper; however, he wasn’t surprised when Vetch entered the parlor, taking care not to let the door creak. The fiddler didn’t say anything to him right away; the two men simply stared at each other for a long moment. Hyacinth sought what he needed to know—whether he was aware of the worst about Pinnie; but what was more apparent in Vetch’s eyes (they held an expression quite different from any he had seen before) became clear to our hero only gradually.
“Don’t you think you might have written me a word?” said Hyacinth, at last. His anger at having been left in ignorance had quitted him, but he thought the question fair. None the less, he expected a sarcastic answer, and was surprised at the mild reasonableness with which Mr Vetch replied—
“Don’t you think you could have dropped me a word?” Hyacinth finally said. His anger about being kept in the dark had faded, but he thought the question was valid. Still, he anticipated a sarcastic response and was taken aback by the calm and reasonable way Mr. Vetch answered—
“I assure you, no responsibility, in the course of my life, ever did more to distress me. There were obvious reasons for calling you back, and yet I couldn’t help wishing you might finish your visit. I balanced one thing against the other; it was very difficult.”
“I promise you, no responsibility in my life has ever caused me more stress. There were clear reasons to ask you to come back, but I couldn’t help wishing you could finish your visit. I weighed one thing against the other; it was really tough.”
“I can imagine nothing more simple. When people’s nearest and dearest are dying, they are usually sent for.”
“I can’t think of anything more straightforward. When someone’s close family or friends are dying, they usually get called in.”
The fiddler gave a strange, argumentative smile. If Lomax Place and Miss Pynsent’s select lodging-house wore a new face of vulgarity to Hyacinth, it may be imagined whether the renunciation of the niceties of the toilet, the resigned seediness, which marked Mr Vetch’s old age was unlikely to lend itself to comparison. The glossy butler at Medley had had a hundred more of the signs of success in life. “My dear boy, this case was exceptional,” said the old man. “Your visit had a character of importance.”
The fiddler gave a strange, sarcastic smile. If Lomax Place and Miss Pynsent’s upscale lodging house seemed tacky to Hyacinth, just imagine how Mr. Vetch's resigned scruffiness in old age would compare. The polished butler at Medley displayed a hundred more signs of success in life. “My dear boy, this situation was unique,” said the old man. “Your visit was significant.”
“I don’t know what you know about it. I don’t remember that I told you anything.”
“I don’t know what you know about it. I don’t remember telling you anything.”
“No, certainly, you have never told me much. But if, as is probable, you have seen that kind lady who is now upstairs, you will have learned that Pinnie made a tremendous point of your not being disturbed. She threatened us with her displeasure if we should hurry you back. You know what Pinnie’s displeasure is!” As, at this, Hyacinth turned away with a gesture of irritation, Mr Vetch went on, “No doubt she is absurdly fanciful, poor dear thing; but don’t, now, cast any disrespect upon it. I assure you, if she had been here alone, suffering, sinking, without a creature to tend her, and nothing before her but to die in a corner, like a starved cat, she would still have faced that fate rather than cut short by a single hour your experience of novel scenes.”
“No, you definitely haven’t shared much with me. But if, as seems likely, you’ve seen that kind lady who’s upstairs now, you’ve learned that Pinnie was very adamant about you not being disturbed. She threatened us with her anger if we were to rush you back. You know how Pinnie gets when she's upset!” As Hyacinth turned away with a look of annoyance, Mr. Vetch continued, “Sure, she can be ridiculously sentimental, poor thing; but please, don’t show any disrespect toward it. I can assure you, if she had been here all alone, suffering, fading away, without anyone to care for her, and nothing ahead of her but to die in a corner like a starving cat, she would have faced that fate rather than cut your experience of new scenes short by even an hour.”
Hyacinth was silent for a moment. “Of course I know what you mean. But she spun her delusion—she always did, all of them—out of nothing. I can’t imagine what she knows about my ‘experience’ of any kind of scenes. I told her, when I went out of town, very little more than I told you.”
Hyacinth was quiet for a moment. “Of course I know what you mean. But she created her fantasy—she always did, just like them—all from nothing. I can’t imagine what she knows about my ‘experience’ with any kind of situations. I told her, when I left town, almost nothing more than I told you.”
“What she guessed, what she gathered, has been, at any rate, enough. She has made up her mind that you have formed a connection by means of which you will come, somehow or other, into your own. She has done nothing but talk about your grand kindred. To her mind, you know, it’s all one, the aristocracy, and nothing is simpler than that the person—very exalted, as she believes—with whom you have been to stay should undertake your business with her friends.”
“What she figured out, what she put together, has been enough, anyway. She has decided that you’ve made a connection that will somehow help you get what’s yours. She hasn’t stopped talking about your wealthy relatives. To her, it’s all the same, the aristocracy, and it’s perfectly logical that the very important person she believes you’ve been staying with should handle your matters with her friends.”
“Oh, well,” said Hyacinth, “I’m very glad not to have deprived you of that entertainment.”
“Oh, well,” said Hyacinth, “I’m really glad I didn’t take that fun away from you.”
“I assure you the spectacle was exquisite.” Then the fiddler added, “My dear fellow, please leave her the idea.”
“I assure you, the show was amazing.” Then the fiddler added, “My friend, please let her keep the idea.”
“Leave it? I’ll do much more!” Hyacinth exclaimed. “I’ll tell her my great relations have adopted me and that I have come back in the character of Lord Robinson.”
“Leave it? I’ll do way more!” Hyacinth exclaimed. “I’ll tell her my prominent relatives have adopted me and that I’ve returned as Lord Robinson.”
“She will need nothing more to die happy,” Mr Vetch observed.
“She won’t need anything else to die happy,” Mr. Vetch observed.
Five minutes later, after Hyacinth had obtained from his old friend a confirmation of Lady Aurora’s account of Miss Pynsent’s condition, Mr Vetch explaining that he came over, like that, to see how she was, half a dozen times a day—five minutes later a silence had descended upon the pair, while Hyacinth waited for some sign from Lady Aurora that he might come upstairs. The fiddler, who had lighted a pipe, looked out of the window, studying intently the physiognomy of Lomax Place; and Hyacinth, making his tread discreet, walked about the room with his hands in his pockets. At last Mr Vetch observed, without taking his pipe out of his lips or looking round, “I think you might be a little more frank with me at this time of day and at such a crisis.”
Five minutes later, after Hyacinth got his old friend to confirm Lady Aurora’s account of Miss Pynsent’s condition, Mr. Vetch explained that he came over to check on her about six times a day. Five minutes later, a silence fell over them while Hyacinth waited for some sign from Lady Aurora that he could go upstairs. The fiddler, who had lit a pipe, looked out the window, intently studying the scene at Lomax Place; and Hyacinth, trying to be discreet, walked around the room with his hands in his pockets. Finally, Mr. Vetch said, without taking the pipe out of his mouth or turning around, “I think you could be a bit more honest with me at this time of day and in such a crisis.”
Hyacinth stopped in his walk, wondering for a moment, sincerely, what his companion meant, for he had no consciousness at present of an effort to conceal anything he could possibly tell (there were some things, of course, he couldn’t); on the contrary, his life seemed to him particularly open to the public view and exposed to invidious comment. It was at this moment he first observed a certain difference; there was a tone in Mr Vetch’s voice that he had never perceived before—an absence of that note which had made him say, in other days, that the impenetrable old man was diverting himself at his expense. It was as if his attitude had changed, become more explicitly considerate, in consequence of some alteration or promotion on Hyacinth’s part, his having grown older, or more important, or even simply more surpassingly curious. If the first impression made upon him by Pinnie’s old neighbour, as to whose place in the list of the sacrificial (his being a gentleman or one of the sovereign people) he formerly was so perplexed; if the sentiment excited by Mr Vetch in a mind familiar now for nearly a month with forms of indubitable gentility was not favourable to the idea of fraternisation, this secret impatience on Hyacinth’s part was speedily corrected by one of the sudden reactions or quick conversions of which the young man was so often the victim. In the light of the fiddler’s appeal, which evidently meant more than it said, his musty antiquity, his typical look of having had, for years, a small, definite use and taken all the creases and contractions of it, his visible expression, even, of ultimate parsimony and of having ceased to care for the shape of his trousers because he cared more for something else—these things became so many reasons for turning round, going over to him, touching signs of an invincible fidelity, the humble, continuous, single-minded practice of daily duties and an art after all very charming; pursued, moreover, while persons of the species our restored prodigal had lately been consorting with fidgeted from one selfish sensation to another and couldn’t even live in the same place for three months together.
Hyacinth paused mid-walk, genuinely wondering for a moment what his companion meant, as he wasn’t currently aware of any attempt to hide anything he could share (there were certain things he definitely couldn’t); instead, his life felt especially open to public scrutiny and prone to criticism. It was at that moment he first noticed a distinct change; there was a tone in Mr. Vetch’s voice that he had never noticed before—an absence of the note that had once led him to think that the inscrutable old man was enjoying himself at his expense. It felt like Mr. Vetch's attitude had shifted, becoming more explicitly considerate, possibly due to some change or elevation on Hyacinth’s part, whether that was age, significance, or simply a deeper curiosity. If the first impression he had gotten from Pinnie’s old neighbor, whose status among the sacrificial (whether he was a gentleman or one of the common people) had confused him before; if the feeling Mr. Vetch inspired in him, after having been exposed to unmistakable gentility for nearly a month, was not inclined toward the notion of camaraderie, this secret impatience in Hyacinth was quickly adjusted by one of those sudden changes or transformations that often happened to him. In light of the fiddler’s appeal, which clearly meant more than it conveyed, his dusty old age, his typical appearance of having had a small, specific purpose for years—all the wrinkles and wear that came with it—his visible demeanor of ultimate frugality and indifference to the fit of his trousers because he valued something else more—these became ample reasons for turning around, approaching him, and expressing signs of unwavering loyalty, the humble, ongoing, single-minded pursuit of daily responsibilities, which turned out to be quite charming; especially when compared to the people Hyacinth had been mixing with lately, who flitted from one selfish feeling to another and couldn’t even stay in one place for three months at a time.
“What should you like me to do, to say, to tell you? Do you want to know what I have been doing in the country? I should have first to know, myself,” Hyacinth said.
“What do you want me to do, to say, to tell you? Do you want to know what I’ve been doing in the country? I need to figure that out first,” Hyacinth said.
“Have you enjoyed it very much?”
“Did you enjoy it a lot?”
“Yes, certainly, very much—not knowing anything about Pinnie. I have been in a beautiful house, with a beautiful woman.”
“Yes, definitely, a lot—not knowing anything about Pinnie. I’ve been in a gorgeous house with a stunning woman.”
Mr Vetch had turned round; he looked very impartial, through the smoke of his pipe.
Mr. Vetch had turned around; he looked quite unbiased through the smoke of his pipe.
“Is she really a princess?”
“Is she actually a princess?”
“I don’t know what you mean by ‘really’. I suppose all titles are great rot. But every one seems agreed to call her so.”
"I don't understand what you mean by 'really.' I guess all titles are just nonsense. But everyone seems to agree to call her that."
“You know I have always liked to enter into your life; and to-day the wish is stronger than ever,” the old man observed, presently, fixing his eyes very steadily on Hyacinth’s.
“You know I’ve always wanted to be a part of your life; and today, that desire is stronger than ever,” the old man said, looking intently into Hyacinth’s eyes.
The latter returned his gaze for a moment; then he asked, “What makes you say that just now?”
The latter met his gaze for a moment; then he asked, “Why do you say that right now?”
The fiddler appeared to deliberate, and at last he replied, “Because you are in danger of losing the best friend you have ever had.”
The fiddler seemed to think for a moment, and finally he said, “Because you might lose the best friend you've ever had.”
“Be sure I feel it. But if I have got you—” Hyacinth added.
“Trust me, I feel it. But if I've got you—” Hyacinth added.
“Oh, me! I’m very old, and very tired of life.”
“Oh, man! I’m so old, and I’m really tired of life.”
“I suppose that that’s what one arrives at. Well, if I can help you in any way you must lean on me, you must make use of me.”
“I guess that’s where things end up. Anyway, if I can help you in any way, you have to lean on me; you have to take advantage of my support.”
“That’s precisely what I was going to say to you,” said Mr Vetch. “Should you like any money?”
"That's exactly what I was going to say to you," Mr. Vetch said. "Would you like some money?"
“Of course I should! But why should you offer it to me?”
“Of course I should! But why are you offering it to me?”
“Because in saving it up, little by little, I have had you in mind.”
“Because by saving it up, bit by bit, I’ve had you in mind.”
“Dear Mr Vetch,” said Hyacinth, “you have me too much in mind. I’m not worth it, please believe that; for all sorts of reasons. I should make money enough for any uses I have for it, or have any right to have, if I stayed quietly in London and attended to my work. As you know, I can earn a decent living.”
“Dear Mr. Vetch,” Hyacinth said, “you think about me too much. I’m not worth it, really; for all kinds of reasons. I could make enough money for everything I actually need if I just stayed in London and focused on my work. As you know, I can earn a decent living.”
“Yes, I can see that. But if you stayed quietly in London what would become of your princess?”
“Yes, I see that. But if you stayed quietly in London, what would happen to your princess?”
“Oh, they can always manage, ladies in that position.”
“Oh, they can always handle it, women in that situation.”
“Hanged if I understand her position!” cried Mr Vetch, but without laughing. “You have been for three weeks without work, and yet you look uncommonly smart.”
“Hanging if I get her point!” exclaimed Mr. Vetch, but without laughing. “You’ve been out of work for three weeks, and still you look really sharp.”
“You see, my living has cost me nothing. When you stay with great people you don’t pay your score,” Hyacinth explained, with great gentleness. “Moreover, the lady whose hospitality I have been enjoying has made me a very handsome offer of work.”
“You see, living here hasn’t cost me anything. When you’re around wonderful people, you don’t have to settle your tab,” Hyacinth explained gently. “Plus, the woman whose generosity I’ve been benefiting from has given me an excellent job offer.”
“What kind of work?”
“What type of work?”
“The only kind I know. She is going to send me a lot of books, to do up for her.”
“The only type I know. She’s going to send me a bunch of books to fix up for her.”
“And to pay you fancy prices?”
“And to pay you high prices?”
“Oh, no; I am to fix the prices myself.”
“Oh, no; I have to set the prices myself.”
“Are not transactions of that kind rather disagreeable, with a lady whose hospitality one has been enjoying?” Mr Vetch inquired.
“Isn't it a bit unpleasant to have transactions like that with a lady whose hospitality you've been enjoying?” Mr. Vetch asked.
“Exceedingly! That is exactly why I shall do the books and then take no money.”
“Absolutely! That’s exactly why I’ll handle the books and then won’t take any payment.”
“Your princess is rather clever!” the fiddler exclaimed, in a moment, smiling.
“Your princess is pretty smart!” the fiddler exclaimed, smiling for a moment.
“Well, she can’t force me to take it if I won’t,” said Hyacinth.
"Well, she can't make me take it if I don't want to," said Hyacinth.
“No; you must only let me do that.”
“No, just let me handle that.”
“You have curious ideas about me,” the young man declared.
“You have some interesting ideas about me,” the young man said.
Mr Vetch turned about to the window again, remarking that he had curious ideas about everything. Then he added, after an interval—
Mr. Vetch turned back to the window, noting that he had strange thoughts about everything. Then he added, after a pause—
“And have you been making love to your great lady?”
“And have you been intimate with your lady?”
He had expected a flash of impatience in reply to this inquiry, and was rather surprised at the manner in which Hyacinth answered: “How shall I explain? It is not a question of that sort.”
He expected an impatient response to this question and was surprised by how Hyacinth replied: “How do I explain? It’s not that kind of question.”
“Has she been making love to you, then?”
“Has she been sleeping with you, then?”
“If you should ever see her you would understand how absurd that supposition is.”
“If you ever see her, you would get how ridiculous that idea is.”
“How shall I ever see her?” returned Mr Vetch. “In the absence of that privilege I think there is something in my idea.”
“How will I ever see her?” replied Mr. Vetch. “Without that privilege, I believe there’s something to my idea.”
“She looks quite over my head,” said Hyacinth, simply. “It’s by no means impossible you may see her. She wants to know my friends, to know the people who live in the Place. And she would take a particular interest in you, on account of your opinions.”
“She seems way out of my league,” said Hyacinth, simply. “It’s definitely possible for you to meet her. She wants to know my friends and those who live in the Place. And she would be especially interested in you because of your opinions.”
“Ah, I have no opinions now, none any more!” the old man broke out, sadly. “I only had them to frighten Pinnie.”
“Ah, I have no opinions anymore, none at all!” the old man exclaimed, sadly. “I only had them to scare Pinnie.”
“She was easily frightened,” said Hyacinth.
“She got scared easily,” said Hyacinth.
“Yes, and easily reassured. Well, I like to know about your life,” his neighbour sighed, irrelevantly. “But take care the great lady doesn’t lead you too far.”
“Yes, and easily reassured. Well, I like to know about your life,” his neighbor sighed, casually. “But be careful that the great lady doesn’t take you too far.”
“How do you mean, too far?”
“How do you mean, too far?”
“Isn’t she an anarchist—a nihilist? Doesn’t she go in for a general rectification, as Eustace calls it?”
“Isn’t she an anarchist—a nihilist? Doesn’t she support a complete overhaul, as Eustace calls it?”
Hyacinth was silent a moment. “You should see the place—you should see what she wears, what she eats and drinks.”
Hyacinth was quiet for a moment. “You have to see the place—you have to see what she wears, what she eats and drinks.”
“Ah, you mean that she is inconsistent with her theories? My dear boy, she would be a droll woman if she were not. At any rate, I’m glad of it.”
“Ah, you mean she doesn’t stick to her theories? My dear boy, she would be a funny woman if she did. Either way, I’m glad about it.”
“Glad of it?” Hyacinth repeated.
"Really glad about that?" Hyacinth repeated.
“For you, I mean, when you stay with her; it’s more luxurious!” Mr Vetch exclaimed, turning round and smiling. At this moment a little rap on the floor above, given by Lady Aurora, announced that Hyacinth might at last come up and see Pinnie. Mr Vetch listened and recognised it, and it led him to say, with considerable force, “There’s a woman whose theories and conduct do square!”
“For you, I mean, when you’re with her; it’s more luxurious!” Mr. Vetch exclaimed, turning around and smiling. At that moment, a little tap on the floor above, made by Lady Aurora, signaled that Hyacinth could finally come up and see Pinnie. Mr. Vetch listened and recognized it, which prompted him to say, with considerable emphasis, “There’s a woman whose theories and actions really align!”
Hyacinth, on the threshold, leaving the room, stopped long enough to reply, “Well, when the day comes for my friend to give up—you’ll see.”
Hyacinth, at the door, paused long enough to respond, “Well, when the day comes for my friend to give up—you’ll see.”
“Yes, I have no doubt there are things she will bring herself to sacrifice,” the old man remarked; but Hyacinth was already out of hearing.
“Yes, I’m sure there are things she would be willing to sacrifice,” the old man said; but Hyacinth was already out of earshot.
XXVIII
Mr Vetch waited below till Lady Aurora should come down and give him the news he was in suspense for. His mind was pretty well made up about Pinnie. It had seemed to him, the night before, that death was written in her face, and he judged it on the whole a very good moment for her to lay down her earthly burden. He had reasons for believing that the future could not be sweet to her. As regards Hyacinth, his mind was far from being at ease; for though he was aware in a general way that he had taken up with strange company, and though he had flattered himself of old that he should be pleased to see the boy act out his life and solve the problem of his queer inheritance, he was worried by the absence of full knowledge. He put out his pipe, in anticipation of Lady Aurora’s reappearance, and without this consoler he was more accessible still to certain fears that had come to him in consequence of a recent talk, or rather an attempt at a talk, with Eustache Poupin. It was through the Frenchman that he had gathered the little he knew about the occasion of Hyacinth’s unprecedented excursion. His ideas on the subject had been very inferential; for Hyacinth had made a mystery of his absence to Pinnie, merely letting her know that there was a lady in the case and that the best luggage he could muster and the best way his shirts could be done up would still not be good enough. Poupin had seen Godfrey Sholto at the ‘Sun and Moon’, and it had come to him, through Hyacinth, that there was a remarkable feminine influence in the Captain’s life, mixed up in some way with his presence in Bloomsbury—an influence, moreover, by which Hyacinth himself, for good or for evil, was in peril of being touched. Sholto was the young man’s visible link with a society for which Lisson Grove could have no importance in the scheme of the universe but as a short cut (too disagreeable to be frequently used) out of Bayswater; therefore if Hyacinth left town with a new hat and a pair of kid gloves it must have been to move in the direction of that superior circle and in some degree, at least, at the solicitation of the before-mentioned feminine influence. So much as this the Frenchman suggested, explicitly enough, as his manner was, to the old fiddler; but his talk had a flavour of other references which excited Mr Vetch’s curiosity much more than they satisfied it. They were obscure; they evidently were painful to the speaker; they were confused and embarrassed and totally wanting in the luminosity which usually characterised the lightest allusions of M. Poupin. It was the fiddler’s fancy that his friend had something on his mind which he was not at liberty to impart, and that it related to Hyacinth and might, for those who took an interest in the singular lad, constitute a considerable anxiety. Mr Vetch, on his own part, nursed this anxiety into a tolerably definite shape: he persuaded himself that the Frenchman had been leading the boy too far in the line of social criticism, had given him a push on some crooked path where a slip would be a likely accident. When on a subsequent occasion, with Poupin, he indulged in a hint of this suspicion, the bookbinder flushed a good deal and declared that his conscience was pure. It was one of his peculiarities that when his colour rose he looked angry, and Mr Vetch held that his displeasure was a proof that in spite of his repudiations he had been unwise; though before they parted Eustache gave this sign of softness, that he shed tears of emotion, of which the reason was not clear to the fiddler and which appeared in a general way to be dedicated to Hyacinth. The interview had taken place in Lisson Grove, where Madame Poupin, however, had not shown herself.
Mr. Vetch waited below until Lady Aurora came down to give him the news he was anxious about. He was pretty sure about Pinnie. The night before, he had thought that death was written on her face, and he believed it was a good time for her to let go of her earthly burdens. He had reasons to think that the future wouldn't be kind to her. As for Hyacinth, he was far from feeling at ease; while he generally knew he had gotten involved with some questionable company, he had previously convinced himself that he would be happy to see the boy live his life and tackle the challenges of his unusual inheritance. However, he was troubled by a lack of complete knowledge. He put out his pipe, anticipating Lady Aurora's return, and without its comfort, he was more vulnerable to certain fears that arose after a recent conversation, or more accurately, an attempt to converse, with Eustache Poupin. Through the Frenchman, he had gathered the little he knew about Hyacinth's unprecedented adventure. His thoughts on the matter had been largely speculative; Hyacinth had kept his absence a mystery from Pinnie, only letting her know that a lady was involved and that no matter how well he packed or ironed his shirts, it still wouldn't be good enough. Poupin had seen Godfrey Sholto at the ‘Sun and Moon’, and it had come to his attention, through Hyacinth, that there was a significant female influence in the Captain’s life, somehow linked to his presence in Bloomsbury—an influence that could affect Hyacinth, for better or worse. Sholto was the young man's visible connection to a social circle that Lisson Grove had no significance in the grand scheme of things, except as an unpleasant shortcut out of Bayswater; thus, if Hyacinth left town sporting a new hat and a pair of kid gloves, it must have been to move toward that elite circle, likely at the encouragement of the aforementioned female influence. The Frenchman hinted at this clearly enough to the old fiddler, but his words carried undertones that intrigued Mr. Vetch far more than they satisfied. They were vague, evidently painful to the speaker, confused and awkward, lacking the clarity that usually marked M. Poupin's lightest remarks. The fiddler had the feeling that his friend held back something he couldn’t share, something related to Hyacinth that might cause considerable concern for anyone interested in the unique young man. Mr. Vetch, for his part, nurtured this concern until it took a fairly definite form: he convinced himself that the Frenchman had been leading the boy too far down a path of social critique, nudging him onto a dangerous road where a misstep was likely. When on a later occasion he expressed this suspicion to Poupin, the bookbinder blushed noticeably and insisted that his conscience was clear. It was one of his quirks that when he blushed, he looked angry, and Mr. Vetch believed that his displeasure was proof that despite his denials, he had acted recklessly; yet before they parted, Eustache showed a softer side, shedding tears of emotion, the reason for which remained unclear to the fiddler and seemed generally dedicated to Hyacinth. The meeting had occurred in Lisson Grove, where Madame Poupin had not appeared.
Altogether the old man was a prey to suppositions which led him to feel how much he himself had outlived the democratic glow of his prime. He had ended by accepting everything (though, indeed, he couldn’t swallow the idea that a trick should be played upon Hyacinth), and even by taking an interest in current politics, as to which, of old, he had held the opinion (the same that the Poupins held to-day) that they had been invented on purpose to throw dust in the eyes of disinterested reformers and to circumvent the social solution. He had given up that problem some time ago; there was no way to clear it up that didn’t seem to make a bigger mess than the actual muddle of human affairs, which, by the time one had reached sixty-five, had mostly ceased to exasperate. Mr Vetch could still feel a certain sharpness on the subject of the prayer-book and the bishops; and if at moments he was a little ashamed of having accepted this world he could reflect that at all events he continued to repudiate every other. The idea of great changes, however, took its place among the dreams of his youth; for what was any possible change in the relations of men and women but a new combination of the same elements? If the elements could be made different the thing would be worth thinking of; but it was not only impossible to introduce any new ones—no means had yet been discovered for getting rid of the old. The figures on the chessboard were still the passions and jealousies and superstitions and stupidities of man, and their position with regard to each other, at any given moment, could be of interest only to the grim, invisible fates who played the game—who sat, through the ages, bow-backed over the table. This laxity had come upon the old man with the increase of his measurement round the waist, of the little heap of half-crowns and half-sovereigns that had accumulated in a tin box with a very stiff padlock, which he kept under his bed, and of the interwoven threads of sentiment and custom that united him to the dressmaker and her foster-son. If he was no longer pressing about the demands he felt he should have a right to make of society, as he had been in the days when his conversation scandalised Pinnie, so he was now not pressing for Hyacinth, either; reflecting that though, indeed, the constituted powers might have to ‘count’ with him, it would be in better taste for him not to be importunate about a settlement. What he had come to fear for him was that he should be precipitated by crude agencies, with results in which the deplorable might not exclude the ridiculous. It may even be said that Mr Vetch had a secret project of settling a little on his behalf.
Overall, the old man was troubled by thoughts that made him realize how much he had outlasted the energetic spirit of his youth. He had ultimately accepted everything (even though he couldn’t accept the idea that a trick could be played on Hyacinth) and even developed an interest in current politics, about which he had once believed (just like the Poupins do today) were designed to distract well-meaning reformers and prevent real social change. He had given up on that issue some time ago; any attempt to clarify it seemed to complicate things even more than the current chaos of human affairs, which, by the time he turned sixty-five, mostly no longer frustrated him. Mr. Vetch still felt a bit of irritation regarding the prayer book and the bishops, and while at times he felt a bit guilty about accepting this world, he reminded himself that he still rejected every other option. The thought of significant changes, however, had become just another youthful dream; after all, what could any possible change in male-female relationships be but a new arrangement of the same elements? If the elements could be changed, it would be worth thinking about; but it wasn’t just impossible to introduce new ones—no way had been found to get rid of the old ones. The pieces on the chessboard were still the passions, jealousies, superstitions, and foolishness of humanity, and their relationship to one another at any given moment could only interest the grim, unseen fates who played the game—who sat, throughout the ages, hunched over the table. This relaxed attitude had settled over the old man as his waistline expanded, as the small pile of half-crowns and half-sovereigns accumulated in a tin box with a very stiff padlock under his bed, and as the complex bonds of sentiment and custom formed between him, the dressmaker, and her foster son. If he was no longer insisting on the demands he felt entitled to make on society, as he did back when his conversations shocked Pinnie, he also wasn’t pressing for Hyacinth, realizing that although the powers that be might have to reckon with him, it would be more tasteful for him not to be demanding about a resolution. What he feared for him was that he might be pushed into situations by blunt forces, resulting in outcomes that could be both unfortunate and laughable. It could even be said that Mr. Vetch had a secret plan to secure a little something on his behalf.
Lady Aurora peeped into the room, very noiselessly, nearly half an hour after Hyacinth had left it, and let the fiddler know that she was called to other duties but that the nurse had come back and the doctor had promised to look in at five o’clock. She herself would return in the evening, and meanwhile Hyacinth was with his aunt, who had recognised him, without a protest; indeed seemed intensely happy that he should be near her again, and lay there with closed eyes, very weak and speechless, with his hand in hers. Her restlessness had passed and her fever abated, but she had no pulse to speak of and Lady Aurora did not disguise the fact that, in her opinion, she was rapidly sinking. Mr Vetch had already accepted it, and after her ladyship had quitted him he lighted another philosophic pipe upon it, lingering on, till the doctor came, in the dressmaker’s dismal, forsaken bower, where, in past years, he had indulged in so many sociable droppings-in and hot tumblers. The echo of all her little simple surprises and pointless contradictions, her gasping reception of contemplative paradox, seemed still to float in the air; but the place felt as relinquished and bereaved as if she were already beneath the sod. Pinnie had always been a wonderful hand at ‘putting away’; the litter that testified to her most elaborate efforts was often immense, but the reaction in favour of an unspeckled carpet was greater still; and on the present occasion, before taking to her bed, she had found strength to sweep and set in order as daintily as if she had been sure that the room would never again know her care. Even to the old fiddler, who had not Hyacinth’s sensibility to the scenery of life, it had the cold propriety of a place arranged for an interment. After the doctor had seen Pinnie, that afternoon, there was no doubt left as to its soon being the stage of dismal preliminaries.
Lady Aurora quietly peeked into the room almost half an hour after Hyacinth had left and informed the fiddler that she had been called away but that the nurse had returned and the doctor promised to check in at five o’clock. She would come back in the evening, and in the meantime, Hyacinth was with his aunt, who had recognized him without any objection; in fact, she seemed really happy to have him near her again, lying there with closed eyes, very weak and unable to speak, holding his hand. Her restlessness had faded, and her fever had gone down, but she had barely any pulse, and Lady Aurora didn’t hide the fact that, in her view, she was quickly declining. Mr. Vetch had already accepted it, and after Lady Aurora had left him, he lit another contemplative pipe, staying on until the doctor arrived, in the dressmaker’s gloomy, abandoned space, where in previous years he had enjoyed many pleasant visits and hot drinks. The memories of her simple surprises and pointless contradictions, her surprised reactions to thoughtful paradoxes, still seemed to linger in the air, but the place felt as empty and mournful as if she were already buried. Pinnie had always been skilled at tidying up; the mess that showed her most elaborate efforts was often huge, but her desire for a pristine carpet was even stronger; on this occasion, before going to bed, she had managed to clean and arrange everything as neatly as if she were sure the room would never again feel her care. Even to the old fiddler, who lacked Hyacinth’s sensitivity to the scenery of life, it had the cold formality of a place prepared for a funeral. After the doctor had seen Pinnie that afternoon, there was no doubt left that it would soon become the scene of bleak preliminaries.
Miss Pynsent, however, resisted her malady for nearly a fortnight more, during which Hyacinth was constantly in her room. He never went back to Mr Crookenden’s, with whose establishment, through violent causes, his relations seemed indefinitely suspended; and in fact, for the rest of the time that Pinnie demanded his care he absented himself but twice from Lomax Place for more than a few minutes. On one of these occasions he travelled over to Audley Court and spent an hour there; on the other he met Millicent Henning, by appointment, and took a walk with her on the Embankment. He tried to find a moment to go and thank Madame Poupin for a sympathetic offering, many times repeated, of tisane, concocted after a receipt thought supreme by the couple in Lisson Grove (though little appreciated in the neighbourhood generally); but he was obliged to acknowledge her kindness only by a respectful letter, which he composed with some trouble, though much elation, in the French tongue, peculiarly favourable, as he believed, to little courtesies of this kind. Lady Aurora came again and again to the darkened house, where she diffused her beneficent influence in nightly watches; in the most modern sanative suggestions, in conversations with Hyacinth, directed with more ingenuity than her fluttered embarrassments might have led one to attribute to her, to the purpose of diverting his mind, and in tea-makings (there was a great deal of this liquid consumed on the premises during Pinnie’s illness), after a system more enlightened than the usual fashion of Pentonville. She was the bearer of several messages and of a good deal of medical advice from Rose Muniment, whose interest in the dressmaker’s case irritated Hyacinth by its fine courage, which even at second-hand was still obtrusive; she appeared very nearly as resigned to the troubles of others as she was to her own.
Miss Pynsent, however, fought off her illness for nearly two more weeks, during which Hyacinth was constantly in her room. He never returned to Mr. Crookenden’s place, as his connection with them had become indefinitely strained due to various issues; in fact, throughout the time that Pinnie needed his care, he left Lomax Place only twice for more than a few minutes. On one occasion, he traveled to Audley Court and spent an hour there; on another, he met Millicent Henning, as planned, and took a walk with her along the Embankment. He tried multiple times to find a moment to thank Madame Poupin for her kind and repeatedly offered herbal tea, made from a recipe believed to be the best by the couple in Lisson Grove (though it was not well-regarded in the neighborhood); however, he could only acknowledge her kindness with a respectful letter, which he painstakingly wrote, though with a sense of accomplishment, in French, which he believed was particularly suitable for such small gestures. Lady Aurora visited the dimly lit house repeatedly, where she provided her generous support through nightly vigils, employing the most modern healing suggestions in her conversations with Hyacinth, demonstrating more cleverness than her nervousness might suggest, aimed at distracting him, along with preparing tea (which was consumed in large quantities during Pinnie’s illness) using a more enlightened method than typically practiced in Pentonville. She also relayed several messages and a lot of medical advice from Rose Muniment, whose concern for the dressmaker’s situation annoyed Hyacinth with its boldness, which even through second-hand communication still felt intrusive; she seemed almost as accepting of others' troubles as she was of her own.
Hyacinth had been seized, the day after his return from Medley, with a sharp desire to do something enterprising and superior on Pinnie’s behalf. He felt the pressure of a sort of angry sense that she was dying of her poor career, of her uneffaced remorse for the trick she had played him in his boyhood (as if he hadn’t long ago, and indeed at the time, forgiven it, judging it to have been the highest wisdom!), of something basely helpless in the attitude of her little circle. He wanted to do something which should prove to himself that he had got the best opinion about the invalid that it was possible to have: so he insisted that Mr Buffery should consult with a West End doctor, if the West End doctor would consent to meet Mr Buffery. A physician capable of this condescension was discovered through Lady Aurora’s agency (she had not brought him of her own movement, because on the one hand she hesitated to impose on the little household in Lomax Place the expense of such a visit, and on the other, with all her narrow personal economies for the sake of her charities, had not the means to meet it herself); and in prevision of the great man’s fee Hyacinth applied to Mr Vetch, as he had applied before, for a loan. The great man came, and was wonderfully civil to Mr Buffery, whose conduct of the case he pronounced judicious; he remained several minutes in the house, while he gazed at Hyacinth over his spectacles (he seemed rather more occupied with him than with the patient), and almost the whole of the Place turned out to stare at his chariot. After all, he consented to accept no fee. He put the question aside with a gesture full of urbanity—a course disappointing and displeasing to Hyacinth, who felt in a manner cheated of the full effect of the fine thing he had wished to do for Pinnie; though when he said as much (or something like it) to Mr Vetch, the caustic fiddler greeted the observation with a face of amusement which, considering the situation, verged upon the unseemly.
Hyacinth was hit, the day after he got back from Medley, with a strong urge to do something bold and significant for Pinnie. He felt a mix of anger and sadness realizing that she was suffering from her unfulfilling life, her lingering guilt for the trick she had played on him when they were kids (as if he hadn’t long ago forgiven her, considering it a wise decision at the time!), and something utterly helpless in the way her small circle seemed to manage things. He wanted to show himself that he had the best opinion about the situation that was possible, so he insisted that Mr. Buffery reach out to a West End doctor, if that doctor would agree to meet Mr. Buffery. A physician willing to make this visit was found through Lady Aurora's help (she hadn't taken it upon herself to bring him, as she was hesitant to burden the little household in Lomax Place with the cost of such a consultation, and on top of that, despite her careful budgeting for her charitable efforts, she didn't have the funds to cover it herself); anticipating the doctor’s fee, Hyacinth requested a loan from Mr. Vetch, just as he had done before. The doctor visited, and was quite polite to Mr. Buffery, praising his management of the case; he stayed for several minutes, looking at Hyacinth over his glasses (he seemed more focused on him than on the patient), and almost everyone in the Place turned out to gawk at his carriage. In the end, he chose not to accept a fee. He waved the offer away with a gracious gesture—a decision that disappointed and frustrated Hyacinth, who felt somewhat cheated out of the impact of the kind gesture he had wanted to make for Pinnie; though when he expressed this feeling (or something similar) to Mr. Vetch, the sharp-tongued musician responded with a look of amusement that, given the circumstances, bordered on inappropriate.
Hyacinth, at any rate, had done the best he could, and the fashionable doctor had left directions which foreshadowed relations with an expensive chemist in Bond Street—a prospect by which our young man was to some extent consoled. Poor Pinnie’s decline, however, was not arrested, and one evening, more than a week after his return from Medley, as he sat with her alone, it seemed to Hyacinth that her spirit must already have passed away. The nurse had gone down to her supper, and from the staircase a perceptible odour of fizzling bacon indicated that a more cheerful state of things prevailed in the lower regions. Hyacinth could not make out whether Miss Pynsent were asleep or awake; he believed she had not lost consciousness, yet for more than an hour she had given no sign of life. At last she put out her hand, as if she knew he was near her and wished to feel for his, and murmured, “Why did she come? I didn’t want to see her.” In a moment, as she went on, he perceived to whom she was alluding: her mind had travelled back, through all the years, to the dreadful day (she had described every incident of it to him) when Mrs Bowerbank had invaded her quiet life and startled her sensitive conscience with a message from the prison. “She sat there so long—so long. She was very large, and I was frightened. She moaned, and moaned, and cried—too dreadful. I couldn’t help it—I couldn’t help it!” Her thought wandered from Mrs Bowerbank in the discomposed show-room, enthroned on the yellow sofa, to the tragic creature at Milbank, whose accents again, for the hour, lived in her ears; and mixed with this mingled vision was still the haunting sense that she herself might have acted differently. That had been cleared up in the past, so far as Hyacinth’s intention was concerned; but what was most alive in Pinnie at the present moment was the passion of repentance, of still further expiation. It sickened Hyacinth that she should believe these things were still necessary, and he leaned over her and talked tenderly, with words of comfort and reassurance. He told her not to think of that dismal, far-off time, which had ceased long ago to have any consequences for either of them; to consider only the future, when she should be quite strong again and he would look after her and keep her all to himself and take care of her better, far better, than he had ever done before. He had thought of many things while he sat with Pinnie, watching the shadows made by the night-lamp—high, imposing shadows of objects low and mean—and among them he had followed, with an imagination that went further in that direction than ever before, the probable consequences of his not having been adopted in his babyhood by the dressmaker. The workhouse and the gutter, ignorance and cold, filth and tatters, nights of huddling under bridges and in doorways, vermin, starvation and blows, possibly even the vigorous efflorescence of an inherited disposition to crime—these things, which he saw with unprecedented vividness, suggested themselves as his natural portion. Intimacies with a princess, visits to fine old country-houses, intelligent consideration, even, of the best means of inflicting a scare on the classes of privilege, would in that case not have been within his compass; and that Pinnie should have rescued him from such a destiny and put these luxuries within his reach was an amelioration which really amounted to success, if he could only have the magnanimity to regard it so.
Hyacinth, anyway, had done the best he could, and the trendy doctor had left instructions that hinted at dealings with an expensive pharmacist on Bond Street—a prospect that somewhat consoled our young man. Unfortunately, poor Pinnie’s decline hadn’t stopped, and one evening, more than a week after his return from Medley, as he sat with her alone, it felt to Hyacinth like her spirit had already slipped away. The nurse had gone down for her supper, and from the stairs, a noticeable smell of sizzling bacon indicated that things were cheerier below. Hyacinth couldn’t tell whether Miss Pynsent was asleep or awake; he thought she hadn’t lost consciousness, yet for more than an hour, she hadn’t shown any sign of life. Finally, she reached out her hand, as if sensing that he was near and wanting to touch him, and murmured, “Why did she come? I didn’t want to see her.” In a moment, as she continued, he realized who she meant: her mind had traveled back through the years to that dreadful day (she had told him every detail) when Mrs. Bowerbank had burst into her quiet life and unsettled her sensitive conscience with a message from prison. “She sat there so long—so long. She was very big, and I was scared. She moaned and cried—it was awful. I couldn’t help it—I couldn’t help it!” Her thoughts drifted from Mrs. Bowerbank in the disheveled showroom, sitting on the yellow sofa, to the tragic figure at Milbank, whose voice again echoed in her ears; and mixed with this vision was still the nagging feeling that she could have acted differently. That had been resolved in the past, as far as Hyacinth’s intentions were concerned; but what was most alive in Pinnie at that moment was a strong sense of regret and the desire for further atonement. It made Hyacinth feel sick that she believed those things were still needed, and he leaned over her, speaking softly, with words of comfort and reassurance. He told her not to think about that grim, distant time, which had long stopped having any consequences for either of them; to focus only on the future, when she would be completely strong again, and he would take care of her all to himself and do a much better job than he ever had before. He had thought of many things while sitting with Pinnie, watching the shadows cast by the night lamp—tall, imposing shadows of small, ordinary objects—and among them, he had followed, with an imagination that reached further than ever before, the likely outcomes of not having been adopted in his infancy by the dressmaker. The workhouse and the gutter, ignorance and cold, filth and rags, nights huddled under bridges and in doorways, vermin, starvation, and violence, maybe even the chance of developing an inherited tendency toward crime—these things, which he saw with unprecedented clarity, loomed as his natural fate. Close ties with a princess, visits to beautiful old country estates, even thoughtful consideration of the best ways to create a stir among the privileged classes, wouldn’t have been in his reach; and the fact that Pinnie had saved him from such a fate and opened up these luxuries to him was an improvement that truly amounted to success, if he could just manage the generosity to see it that way.
Her eyes were open and fixed on him, but the sharp ray the little dressmaker used to direct into Lomax Place as she plied her needle at the window had completely left them. “Not there—what should I do there?” she inquired, very softly. “Not with the great—the great—” and her voice failed.
Her eyes were open and focused on him, but the intense gaze the little dressmaker used to cast into Lomax Place while she sewed at the window was completely gone. “Not there—what should I do there?” she asked softly. “Not with the big—the big—” and her voice trailed off.
“The great what? What do you mean?”
“The great what? What are you talking about?”
“You know—you know,” she went on, making another effort. “Haven’t you been with them? Haven’t they received you?”
“You know—you know,” she continued, trying again. “Haven’t you been with them? Haven’t they welcomed you?”
“Ah, they won’t separate us, Pinnie; they won’t come between us as much as that,” said Hyacinth, kneeling by her bed.
“Ah, they won’t keep us apart, Pinnie; they won’t interfere with us that much,” said Hyacinth, kneeling by her bed.
“You must be separate—that makes me happier. I knew they would find you at last.”
“You need to stay away—that makes me happier. I knew they would finally find you.”
“Poor Pinnie, poor Pinnie,” murmured the young man.
“Poor Pinnie, poor Pinnie,” the young man said softly.
“It was only for that—now I’m going,” she went on.
“It was just for that—now I’m leaving,” she continued.
“If you’ll stay with me you needn’t fear,” said Hyacinth, smiling at her.
“If you stay with me, you don’t have to worry,” Hyacinth said, smiling at her.
“Oh, what would they think?” asked the dressmaker.
“Oh, what would they think?” asked the dressmaker.
“I like you best,” said Hyacinth.
“I like you the most,” said Hyacinth.
“You have had me always. Now it’s their turn; they have waited.”
“You've always had me. Now it's their turn; they've been waiting.”
“Yes, indeed, they have waited!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“Yes, they really have waited!” Hyacinth exclaimed.
“But they will make it up; they will make up everything!” the invalid panted. Then she added, “I couldn’t—couldn’t help it!”—which was the last flicker of her strength. She gave no further sign of consciousness, and four days later she ceased to breathe. Hyacinth was with her, and Lady Aurora, but neither of them could recognise the moment.
“But they will fix everything; they will fix it all!” the sick woman gasped. Then she added, “I couldn’t—couldn’t help it!”—which was the last sign of her strength. She showed no further signs of awareness, and four days later she stopped breathing. Hyacinth was with her, and Lady Aurora, but neither of them could identify the moment.
Hyacinth and Mr Vetch carried her bier, with the help of Eustache Poupin and Paul Muniment. Lady Aurora was at the funeral, and Madame Poupin as well, and twenty neighbours from Lomax Place; but the most distinguished person (in appearance at least) in the group of mourners was Millicent Henning, the grave yet brilliant beauty of whose countenance, the high propriety of whose demeanour, and the fine taste and general style of whose black ‘costume’ excited no little attention. Mr Vetch had his idea; he had been nursing it ever since Hyacinth’s return from Medley, and three days after Pinnie had been consigned to the earth he broached it to his young friend. The funeral had been on a Friday, and Hyacinth had mentioned to him that he should return to Mr Crookenden’s on the Monday morning. This was Sunday night, and Hyacinth had been out for a walk, neither with Millicent Henning nor with Paul Muniment, but alone, after the manner of old days. When he came in he found the fiddler waiting for him, and burning a tallow candle, in the blighted show-room. He had three or four little papers in his hand, which exhibited some jottings of his pencil, and Hyacinth guessed, what was the truth but not all the truth, that he had come to speak to him about business. Pinnie had left a little will, of which she had appointed her old friend executor; this fact had already become known to our hero, who thought such an arrangement highly natural. Mr Vetch informed him of the purport of this simple and judicious document, and mentioned that he had been looking into the dressmaker’s ‘affairs’. They consisted, poor Pinnie’s affairs, of the furniture of the house in Lomax Place, of the obligation to pay the remainder of a quarter’s rent, and of a sum of money in the savings-bank. Hyacinth was surprised to learn that Pinnie’s economies had produced fruit at this late day (things had gone so ill with her in recent years, and there had been often such a want of money in the house), until Mr Vetch explained to him, with eager clearness, that he himself had watched over the little hoard, accumulated during the period of her comparative prosperity, with the stiff determination that it should be sacrificed only in case of desperate necessity. Work had become scarce with Pinnie, but she could still do it when it came, and the money was to be kept for the very possible period when she should be helpless. Mercifully enough, she had not lived to see that day, and the sum in the bank had survived her, though diminished by more than half. She had left no debts but the matter of the house and those incurred during her illness. Of course the fiddler had known—he hastened to give his young friend this assurance—that Pinnie, had she become infirm, would have been able to count absolutely upon him for the equivalent, in her old age, of the protection she had given him in his youth. But what if an accident had overtaken Hyacinth? What if he had incurred some nasty penalty for his revolutionary dabblings, which, little dangerous as they might be to society, were quite capable, in a country where authority, though good-natured, liked occasionally to make an example, to put him on the wrong side of a prison-wall? At any rate, for better or worse, by pinching and scraping, she had saved a little, and of that little, after everything was paid off, a fraction would still be left. Everything was bequeathed to Hyacinth—everything but a couple of plated candlesticks and the old ‘cheffonier’, which had been so handsome in its day; these Pinnie begged Mr Vetch to accept in recognition of services beyond all price. The furniture, everything he didn’t want for his own use, Hyacinth could sell in a lump, and with the proceeds he could wipe out old scores. The sum of money would remain to him; it amounted, in its reduced condition, to about thirty-seven pounds. In mentioning this figure Mr Vetch appeared to imply that Hyacinth would be master of a very pretty little fortune. Even to the young man himself, in spite of his recent initiations, it seemed far from contemptible; it represented sudden possibilities of still not returning to old Crookenden’s. It represented them, that is, till, presently, he remembered the various advances made him by the fiddler, and reflected that by the time these had been repaid there would hardly be twenty pounds left. That, however, was a far larger sum than he had ever had in his pocket at once. He thanked the old man for his information, and remarked—and there was no hypocrisy in the speech—that he was very sorry Pinnie had not given herself the benefit of the whole of the little fund in her lifetime. To this her executor replied that it had yielded her an interest far beyond any other investment; for he was persuaded she believed she should never live to enjoy it, and this faith was rich in pictures, visions of the effect such a windfall would produce in Hyacinth’s career.
Hyacinth and Mr. Vetch carried her coffin with help from Eustache Poupin and Paul Muniment. Lady Aurora and Madame Poupin were at the funeral, along with twenty neighbors from Lomax Place. However, the most noteworthy person (at least in appearance) among the mourners was Millicent Henning, whose serious yet striking beauty, proper demeanor, and elegant black outfit caught a lot of attention. Mr. Vetch had a plan he’d been considering since Hyacinth returned from Medley, and three days after Pinnie was buried, he brought it up with his young friend. The funeral was on a Friday, and Hyacinth had told him he'd return to Mr. Crookenden’s on Monday morning. Now it was Sunday night, and Hyacinth had gone out for a walk alone, like in old times, not with Millicent or Paul. When he returned, he found the fiddler waiting in the dimly lit showroom, burning a tallow candle. He had three or four small papers in his hand, filled with some notes, and Hyacinth guessed—though not all the truth—that he was there to discuss business. Pinnie had left a small will, naming her old friend as executor, a fact already known to Hyacinth, who thought it was a natural arrangement. Mr. Vetch explained the details of this straightforward and sensible document and mentioned he’d been looking into Pinnie’s affairs. Those affairs consisted of the furniture in her Lomax Place home, the responsibility to pay the remaining quarter’s rent, and some money in the bank. Hyacinth was surprised to learn that Pinnie’s efforts at saving had paid off at this late stage, especially since things had been tight for her in recent years. But Mr. Vetch clarified, with clear enthusiasm, that he had kept a close eye on her savings, which had built up during her relatively better times, determined that it would only be used in case of dire need. Work had been scarce for Pinnie, but she could still take it when it came, and the money was meant for the time when she might be unable to work. Thankfully, she hadn't lived to see that day, and the amount in the bank had survived her, though it was less than half what it could have been. She had no debts apart from the house and those incurred during her illness. Of course, the fiddler reassured his young friend that Pinnie would have been able to rely on him for support in her old age had she become frail. But what if something had happened to Hyacinth? What if he faced some punishment for his revolutionary activities, which, though not particularly dangerous to society, could easily land him in trouble with authority, which, while well-meaning, occasionally liked to make an example of someone? In any case, by being careful, she managed to save a little, and after debts were settled, a portion would still remain. Everything was left to Hyacinth—except for a couple of plated candlesticks and the old 'cheffonier,' which had once been quite nice; these Pinnie asked Mr. Vetch to take as a gesture of gratitude for his invaluable services. Hyacinth could sell any furniture he didn't want to keep, and with the proceeds, he could clear old debts. The remaining sum would be his—a little under thirty-seven pounds. By mentioning this amount, Mr. Vetch seemed to suggest that Hyacinth would be in possession of a nice little fortune. Even to Hyacinth, despite his recent experiences, it didn't seem insignificant; it represented new possibilities, including not returning to old Crookenden's. That is, until he remembered the various advances the fiddler had given him and realized that by the time he repaid those, he would have barely twenty pounds left. Nevertheless, that was still a lot more than he had ever had at once. He thanked the old man for the information and remarked—without any pretense—that he was sorry Pinnie hadn't used the entire little fund during her lifetime. To this, her executor replied that it had brought her an interest greater than any other investment; he believed she thought she wouldn’t live to enjoy it, and this belief was filled with visions of how such a sudden windfall would positively impact Hyacinth’s path.
“What effect did she mean—do you mean?” Hyacinth inquired. As soon as he had spoken he felt that he knew what the old man would say (it would be a reference to Pinnie’s belief in his reunion with his ‘relations’, and the facilities that thirty-seven pounds would afford him for cutting a figure among them); and for a moment Mr Vetch looked at him as if exactly that response were on his lips. At the end of the moment, however, he replied, quite differently—
“What did she mean by that—do you mean?” Hyacinth asked. As soon as he said it, he felt he knew what the old man would answer (it would reference Pinnie’s belief in his reunion with his ‘relatives’, and how the thirty-seven pounds would help him stand out among them); and for a moment, Mr. Vetch looked at him as if that was exactly the reply he was about to give. However, after a brief pause, he responded quite differently—
“She hoped you would go abroad and see the world.” The fiddler watched his young friend; then he added, “She had a particular wish that you should go to Paris.”
“She hoped you would travel abroad and see the world.” The fiddler watched his young friend; then he added, “She really wanted you to go to Paris.”
Hyacinth had turned pale at this suggestion, and for a moment he said nothing. “Ah, Paris!” he murmured, at last.
Hyacinth went pale at this suggestion, and for a moment he didn’t say anything. “Ah, Paris!” he finally murmured.
“She would have liked you even to take a little run down to Italy.”
“She would have liked you to take a quick trip down to Italy.”
“Doubtless that would be pleasant. But there is a limit to what one can do with twenty pounds.”
“Sure, that would be nice. But there's only so much you can do with twenty pounds.”
“How do you mean, with twenty pounds?” the old man asked, lifting his eyebrows, while the wrinkles in his forehead made deep shadows in the candlelight.
“How do you mean, with twenty pounds?” the old man asked, raising his eyebrows, while the wrinkles on his forehead created deep shadows in the candlelight.
“That’s about what will remain, after I have settled my account with you.”
"That’s what will be left after I take care of my business with you."
“How do you mean, your account with me? I shall not take any of your money.”
“How do you mean, your account with me? I won’t take any of your money.”
Hyacinth’s eyes wandered over his interlocutor’s suggestive rustiness. “I don’t want to be ungracious, but suppose you should lose your powers.”
Hyacinth’s eyes drifted over his conversational partner’s suggestive rustiness. “I don’t want to be rude, but what if you were to lose your abilities?”
“My dear boy, I shall have one of the resources that was open to Pinnie. I shall look to you to be the support of my old age.”
"My dear boy, I will have one of the resources that was available to Pinnie. I will rely on you to support me in my old age."
“You may do so with perfect safety, except for that danger you just mentioned, of my being imprisoned or hanged.”
“You can do that without any risk, except for the danger you just mentioned of me getting locked up or executed.”
“It’s precisely because I think it will be less if you go abroad that I urge you to take this chance. You will see the world, and you will like it better. You will think society, even as it is, has some good points,” said Mr Vetch.
“It’s exactly because I believe it will be less if you go abroad that I strongly encourage you to take this opportunity. You’ll experience the world, and you’ll appreciate it more. You’ll realize that society, even as it is, has some positive aspects,” said Mr. Vetch.
“I have never liked it better than the last few months.”
“I've never liked it more than I have in the last few months.”
“Ah well, wait till you see Paris!”
“Ah well, just wait until you see Paris!”
“Oh, Paris—Paris,” Hyacinth repeated, vaguely, staring into the turbid flame of the candle as if he made out the most brilliant scenes there; an attitude, accent and expression which the fiddler interpreted both as the vibration of a latent hereditary chord and a symptom of the acute sense of opportunity.
“Oh, Paris—Paris,” Hyacinth repeated, absentmindedly, staring into the murky flame of the candle as if he could see the most dazzling scenes within it; a posture, tone, and expression that the fiddler read as both the resonance of an inherited chord and a sign of a sharp awareness of opportunity.
XXIX
The boulevard was all alive, brilliant with illuminations, with the variety and gaiety of the crowd, the dazzle of shops and cafés seen through uncovered fronts or immense lucid plates, the flamboyant porches of theatres and the flashing lamps of carriages, the far-spreading murmur of talkers and strollers, the uproar of pleasure and prosperity, the general magnificence of Paris on a perfect evening in June. Hyacinth had been walking about all day—he had walked from rising till bed-time every day of the week that had elapsed since his arrival—and now an extraordinary fatigue, which, however, was not without its delight (there was a kind of richness, a sweet satiety, in it), a tremendous lassitude had fallen upon him, and he settled himself in a chair beside a little table in front of Tortoni’s, not so much to rest from it as to enjoy it. He had seen so much, felt so much, learned so much, thrilled and throbbed and laughed and sighed so much, during the past several days, that he was conscious at last of the danger of becoming incoherent to himself, of the need of balancing his accounts.
The boulevard was lively, vibrant with lights, filled with the variety and cheer of the crowd, the bright displays of shops and cafés visible through open fronts or large glass windows, the colorful porches of theaters and the flashing lights of carriages, the widespread murmur of conversations and leisurely strollers, the noise of fun and prosperity, and the overall grandeur of Paris on a perfect June evening. Hyacinth had been wandering around all day—he had walked from morning until bedtime every day of the week since he arrived—and now an incredible fatigue, which somehow also brought pleasure (there was a sort of richness, a sweet fullness to it), had settled over him. He plopped down in a chair beside a small table outside Tortoni’s, not just to rest but to take it all in. He had seen so much, felt so deeply, learned so much, thrilled and laughed and sighed so often over the past few days, that he finally realized the risk of losing coherence, the need to collect his thoughts.
To-night he came to a full stop; he simply sat at the door of the most dandified café in Paris and felt his pulse and took stock of his impressions. He had been intending to visit the Variétés theatre, which blazed through intermediate lights and through the thin foliage of trees not favoured by the asphalt, on the other side of the great avenue. But the impression of Chaumont—he relinquished that, for the present; it added to the luxury of his situation to reflect that he should still have plenty of time to see the succès du jour. The same effect proceeded from his determination to order a marquise, when the waiter, whose superior shirt-front and whisker emerged from the long white cylinder of an apron, came to take his commands. He knew the decoction was expensive—he had learnt as much at the moment he happened to overhear, for the first time, a mention of it; which had been the night before, in his place in a stall, during an entr’acte, at the Comédie Française. A gentleman beside him, a young man in evening-dress, conversing with an acquaintance in the row behind, recommended the latter to refresh himself with the article in question after the play: there was nothing like it, the speaker remarked, of a hot evening, in the open air, when one was thirsty. The waiter brought Hyacinth a tall glass of champagne, in which a pine-apple ice was in solution, and our hero felt that he had hoped for a sensation no less delicate when he looked for an empty table on Tortoni’s terrace. Very few tables were empty, and it was his belief that the others were occupied by high celebrities; at any rate they were just the types he had had a prevision of and had wanted most to meet, when the extraordinary opportunity to come abroad with his pocket full of money (it was more extraordinary, even, than his original meeting with the Princess) became real to him in Lomax Place. He knew about Tortoni’s from his study of the French novel, and as he sat there he had a vague sense of fraternising with Balzac and Alfred de Musset; there were echoes and reminiscences of their works in the air, confounding themselves with the indefinable exhalations, the strange composite odour, half agreeable, half impure, of the boulevard. ‘Splendid Paris, charming Paris’—that refrain, the fragment of an invocation, a beginning without an end, hummed itself perpetually in Hyacinth’s ears; the only articulate words that got themselves uttered in the hymn of praise which his imagination had been offering to the French capital from the first hour of his stay. He recognised, he greeted, with a thousand palpitations, the seat of his maternal ancestors—was proud to be associated with so much of the superb, so many proofs of a civilisation that had no visible rough spots. He had his perplexities, and he had even now and then a revulsion for which he had made no allowance, as when it came over him that the most brilliant city in the world was also the most blood-stained; but the great sense that he understood and sympathised was preponderant, and his comprehension gave him wings—appeared to transport him to still wider fields of knowledge, still higher sensations.
Tonight he came to a complete stop; he simply sat at the door of the most stylish café in Paris, felt his pulse, and took stock of his impressions. He had planned to visit the Variétés theatre, which glowed through the dim lights and the sparse foliage of trees that weren't blessed by the asphalt, on the other side of the grand avenue. But he decided to put off Chaumont for now; it felt luxurious to think that he would still have plenty of time to see the succès du jour. The same feeling came from his choice to order a marquise when the waiter, whose crisp shirt front and neatly groomed facial hair emerged from the long white apron, came to take his order. He knew the drink was pricey—he had learned that during a chance overhearing, the night before, while sitting in a stall during an entr’acte at the Comédie Française. A gentleman next to him, a young man in evening wear, was talking to someone behind him and suggested that the latter treat himself to the drink after the play: there was nothing quite like it on a warm evening, outdoors, when you felt thirsty. The waiter brought Hyacinth a tall glass of champagne, with a pineapple ice floating in it, and he thought he had hoped for an equally delicate sensation when he looked for an empty table on Tortoni’s terrace. Very few tables were vacant, and he suspected that the others were occupied by high-profile celebrities; at any rate, they were exactly the types he had envisioned and wanted to meet when he suddenly had the extraordinary chance to come abroad with pockets full of cash (even more extraordinary than his first meeting with the Princess) back in Lomax Place. He knew about Tortoni’s from reading French novels, and as he sat there, he felt a vague sense of connection with Balzac and Alfred de Musset; there were echoes and memories of their works in the air, blending with the undefinable scents, the strange mix of aromas, half pleasant, half unpleasant, of the boulevard. “Splendid Paris, charming Paris”—that refrain, a fragment of an invocation, a beginning without an end, hummed continuously in Hyacinth’s ears; the only actual words that surfaced in the hymn of praise his imagination had been offering to the French capital since the first hour of his stay. He recognized and embraced, with a thousand fluttering feelings, the legacy of his maternal ancestors—felt proud to be linked with so much magnificence, with numerous signs of a civilization that seemed flawless. He had his confusions and sometimes even felt a repulsion that surprised him, like when he realized that the most brilliant city in the world was also the most blood-soaked; but the overwhelming sense that he understood and felt a connection to it prevailed, and that understanding gave him wings—seemed to lift him to even broader fields of knowledge and higher sensations.
In other days, in London, he had thought again and again of his mother’s father, the revolutionary watch-maker who had known the ecstasy of the barricade and had paid for it with his life, and his reveries had not been sensibly chilled by the fact that he knew next to nothing about him. He figured him in his mind, had a conviction that he was very short, like himself, and had curly hair, an immense talent for his work and an extraordinary natural eloquence, together with many of the most attractive qualities of the French character. But he was reckless, and a little cracked, and probably immoral; he had difficulties and debts and irrepressible passions; his life had been an incurable fever and its tragic termination was a matter of course. None the less it would have been a charm to hear him talk, to feel the influence of a gaiety which even political madness could never quench; for his grandson had a theory that he spoke the French tongue of an earlier time, delightful and sociable in accent and phrase, exempt from the commonness of modern slang. This vague yet vivid personage became Hyacinth’s constant companion, from the day of his arrival; he roamed about with Florentine’s boy, hand in hand, sat opposite to him at dinner, at the small table in the restaurant, finished the bottle with him, made the bill a little longer, and treated him to innumerable revelations and counsels. He knew the lad’s secret without being told, and looked at him across the diminutive tablecloth, where the great tube of bread, pushed aside a little, left room for his elbows (it puzzled Hyacinth that the people of Paris should ever have had the fierceness of hunger when the loaves were so big), gazed at him with eyes of deep, kind, glowing comprehension and with lips which seemed to murmur that when one was to die to-morrow one was wise to eat and drink to-day. There was nothing venerable, no constraint of importance or disapproval, in this edifying and impalpable presence; the young man considered that Hyacinthe Vivier was of his own time of life and could enter into his pleasures as well as his pains. Wondering, repeatedly, where the barricade on which his grandfather fell had been erected, he at last satisfied himself (but I am unable to trace the process of the induction) that it had bristled across the Rue Saint-Honoré, very near to the church of Saint-Roch. The pair had now roamed together through all the museums and gardens, through the principal churches (the republican martyr was very good-natured about this), through the passages and arcades, up and down the great avenues, across all the bridges, and above all, again and again, along the river, where the quays were an endless entertainment to Hyacinth, who lingered by the half-hour beside the boxes of old books on the parapets, stuffing his pockets with five-penny volumes, while the bright industries of the Seine flashed and glittered beneath him, and on the other bank the glorious Louvre stretched either way for a league. Our young man took almost the same sort of satisfaction in the Louvre as if he had erected it; he haunted the museum during all the first days, and couldn’t look enough at certain pictures, nor sufficiently admire the high polish of the great floors in which the golden, frescoed ceilings repeated themselves. All Paris struck him as tremendously artistic and decorative; he felt as if hitherto he had lived in a dusky, frowsy, Philistine world, in which the taste was the taste of Little Pedlington and the idea of beautiful arrangement had never had an influence. In his ancestral city it had been active from the first, and that was why his quick sensibility responded; and he murmured again his constant refrain, when the fairness of the great monuments arrested him, in the pearly, silvery light, or he saw them take gray-blue, delicate tones at the end of stately vistas. It seemed to him that Paris expressed herself, and did it in the grand style, while London remained vague and blurred, inarticulate, blunt and dim.
In the past, in London, he had thought repeatedly about his grandfather, the revolutionary watchmaker who had experienced the thrill of rebellion and paid for it with his life. His daydreams weren’t really dampened by the fact that he knew almost nothing about him. He imagined him in his mind, convinced that he was quite short like him, with curly hair, immense talent for his craft, and extraordinary natural charm, along with many of the most appealing traits of the French character. But he was reckless, a bit unstable, and probably immoral; he had struggles, debts, and uncontrollable passions; his life had been like a constant fever and its tragic end was inevitable. Nevertheless, it would have been enchanting to hear him speak, to experience a joy that even political madness couldn't extinguish; for his grandson believed he spoke an older version of French, delightful and sociable in tone and phrasing, free from the banality of modern slang. This vague yet vivid figure became Hyacinth’s constant companion from the moment he arrived; he wandered around hand in hand with Florentine’s boy, sat across from him at dinner at the small restaurant table, shared a bottle of wine, added to the bill, and treated him to countless revelations and advice. He knew the boy’s secret without being told, and gazed at him across the tiny tablecloth, where the large loaf of bread, pushed aside a bit, left space for his elbows (Hyacinth found it puzzling that people in Paris had ever known hunger when the loaves were so large). He looked at him with deep, kind, glowing understanding, his lips seeming to suggest that when faced with death tomorrow, one should enjoy eating and drinking today. There was nothing venerable or imposing about this enlightening and intangible presence; the young man felt that Hyacinthe Vivier was of his time and could share in his joys as well as his sorrows. He often wondered where the barricade where his grandfather fell had been erected and eventually convinced himself (though I can’t trace his reasoning) that it had stood across Rue Saint-Honoré, very close to the church of Saint-Roch. The two of them had wandered together through all the museums and gardens, through the main churches (the republican martyr was very accommodating about this), through the passages and arcades, up and down the grand avenues, across all the bridges, and above all, time and again, along the river, where the quays endlessly entertained Hyacinth, who spent half an hour lingering next to the boxes of old books on the parapets, stuffing his pockets with five-penny novels, while the shimmering activities of the Seine sparkled below him, and on the opposite bank, the magnificent Louvre stretched for a league in either direction. Our young man took immense pleasure in the Louvre, as if he had built it himself; he roamed the museum during those first days, unable to get enough of certain paintings, or sufficiently admire the shiny surfaces of the grand floors, where the golden frescoed ceilings echoed themselves. All of Paris struck him as incredibly artistic and decorative; he felt as if he had previously lived in a dull, messy, Philistine world, where the taste was that of Little Pedlington and the idea of beautiful arrangement had never made an impact. In his ancestral city, this had been present from the very beginning, which was why his quick sensibility responded; and he repeated his familiar refrain whenever the beauty of the grand monuments caught his eye in the pearly, silvery light, or he saw them take on soft gray-blue tones at the end of majestic vistas. It seemed to him that Paris expressed herself in a grand style, while London remained vague and muted, inarticulate, blunt, and unclear.
Eustache Poupin had given him letters to three or four democratic friends, ardent votaries of the social question, who had by a miracle either escaped the cruelty of exile or suffered the outrage of pardon, and, in spite of republican mouchards, no less infamous than the imperial, and the periodical swoops of despotism which had only changed its buttons and postage-stamps, kept alive the sacred spark which would some day become a consuming flame. Hyacinth, however, had not had the thought of delivering these introductions; he had accepted them because Poupin had had such a solemn glee in writing them, and also because he had not the courage to let the couple in Lisson Grove know that since that terrible night at Hoffendahl’s a change had come over the spirit of his dream. He had not grown more concentrated, he had grown more relaxed, and it was inconsistent with relaxation that he should rummage out Poupin’s friends—one of whom lived in the Batignolles and the others in the Faubourg Saint-Antoine—and pretend that he cared for what they cared for in the same way as they cared for it. What was supreme in his mind to-day was not the idea of how the society that surrounded him should be destroyed; it was, much more, the sense of the wonderful, precious things it had produced, of the brilliant, impressive fabric it had raised. That destruction was waiting for it there was forcible evidence, known to himself and others, to show; but since this truth had risen before him, in its magnitude he had become conscious of a transfer, partial if not complete, of his sympathies; the same revulsion of which he had given a sign to the Princess in saying that now he pitied the rich, those who were regarded as happy. While the evening passed, therefore, as he kept his place at Tortoni’s, the emotion that was last to visit him was a compunction for not having put himself in relation with poor Poupin’s friends, for having neglected to make the acquaintance of earnest people.
Eustache Poupin had given him letters to three or four democratic friends, passionate supporters of social issues, who had somehow either escaped the harshness of exile or endured the humiliation of pardon. Despite the Republican informers, just as notorious as the imperial ones, and the regular crackdowns from a regime that had only changed its labels and postage, they kept the essential spark alive that would eventually ignite into a blazing fire. However, Hyacinth didn't consider delivering these introductions; he had accepted them because Poupin had taken such joyful pleasure in writing them, and also because he lacked the nerve to let the couple in Lisson Grove know that since that terrible night at Hoffendahl's, his dreams had shifted. He hadn’t become more focused; he had become more relaxed, and it didn't fit with that feeling of relaxation to seek out Poupin’s friends—one of whom lived in the Batignolles and the others in the Faubourg Saint-Antoine—and pretend to care about what they valued in the same way they did. What occupied his mind today wasn’t the idea of dismantling the society around him; it was much more about the wonderful, valuable things it had created, the impressive, brilliant structure it had built. There was clear evidence that destruction was waiting for it, known to him and others; but as this truth loomed large before him, he became aware of a partial, if not complete, shift in his sympathies. He felt the same repulsion he had expressed to the Princess when he said he now felt pity for the rich, those seen as happy. As the evening went on, while he remained at Tortoni’s, the last emotion to hit him was guilt for not connecting with poor Poupin’s friends, for failing to meet earnest people.
Who in the world, if one should come to that, was as earnest as he himself, or had given such signal even though secret proofs of it? He could lay that unction to his soul in spite of his having amused himself cynically, spent all his time in theatres, galleries, walks of pleasure. The feeling had not failed him with which he accepted Mr Vetch’s furtherance—the sense that since he was destined to perish in his flower he was right to make a dash at the beautiful, horrible world. That reflection had been natural enough, but what was strange was the fiddler’s own impulse, his desire to do something pleasant for him, to beguile him and ship him off. What had been most odd in that was the way Mr Vetch appeared to overlook the fact that his young friend had already had, that year, such an episode of dissipation as was surely rare in the experience of London artisans. This was one of the many things Hyacinth thought of; he thought of the others in turn and out of turn; it was almost the first time he had sat still long enough (except at the theatre) to collect himself. A hundred confused reverberations of the recent past crowded upon him, and he saw that he had lived more intensely in the previous six months than in all the rest of his existence. The succession of events finally straightened itself, and he tasted some of the rarest, strangest moments over again. His last week at Medley, in especial, had already become a kind of fable, the echo of a song; he could read it over like a story, gaze at it as he would have gazed at some exquisite picture. His visit there had been perfect to the end, and even the three days that Captain Sholto’s sojourn lasted had not broken the spell, for the three more that had elapsed before his own departure (the Princess herself had given him the signal) were the most important of all. It was then the Princess had made it clear to him that she was in earnest, was prepared for the last sacrifice. She was now his standard of comparison, his authority, his measure, his perpetual reference; and in taking possession of his mind to this extent she had completely renewed it. She was altogether a new term, and now that he was in a foreign country he observed how much her conversation, itself so foreign, had prepared him to understand it. In Paris he saw, of course, a great many women, and he noticed almost all of them, especially the actresses; confronting, mentally, their movement, their speech, their manner of dressing, with that of his extraordinary friend. He judged that she was beyond them in every respect, though there were one or two actresses who had the air of trying to copy her.
Who in the world, if we’re being honest, was as sincere as he was, or had shown such clear, even if hidden, signs of it? He could take that to heart despite having cynically entertained himself and spent all his time at theaters, galleries, and enjoying life. He still felt a sense of purpose when he accepted Mr. Vetch’s help—the feeling that since he was destined to fade away in his prime, he was right to jump into the beautiful, terrible world. That thought felt natural enough, but what was strange was the fiddler’s own urge to do something nice for him, to entertain him and send him off. What stood out was how Mr. Vetch seemed to ignore that his young friend had already experienced a spree of indulgence that year, an experience that was surely rare for London artisans. This was one of the many things Hyacinth thought about; he considered others in succession and out of order; it was almost the first time he had sat still long enough (except at the theater) to gather his thoughts. A hundred mixed reflections of the recent past flooded his mind, and he realized he had lived more intensely in the last six months than in all the rest of his life. The series of events finally sorted itself out, and he revisited some of the rarest, strangest moments. His last week at Medley, in particular, had turned into a kind of fable, the echo of a song; he could read it like a story, gaze at it as if it were some exquisite painting. His visit there had been perfect until the end, and even the three days that Captain Sholto stayed hadn’t broken the spell, for the three days that followed before his own departure (the Princess herself had signaled it) were the most significant of all. It was then the Princess made it clear to him that she was serious, ready for the ultimate sacrifice. She had become his standard, his authority, his measure, his constant reference; and by taking over his mind to this extent, she had completely transformed it. She represented something entirely new, and now that he was in a foreign country, he noticed how much her foreign conversation had prepared him to understand it. In Paris, he saw many women, especially actresses, and he mentally compared their movements, speech, and styles with those of his extraordinary friend. He concluded that she surpassed them in every way, although there were one or two actresses who seemed to be trying to imitate her.
The recollection of the last days he had spent with her affected him now like the touch of a tear-washed cheek. She had shed tears for him, and it was his suspicion that her secret idea was to frustrate the redemption of his vow to Hoffendahl, to the immeasurable body that Hoffendahl represented. She pretended to have accepted it, and what she said was simply that when he should have played his part she would engage to save him—to fling a cloud about him, as the goddess-mother of the Trojan hero used, in Virgil’s poem, to escamoter Æneas. What she meant was, in his view, to prevent him from playing his part at all. She was earnest for herself, not for him. The main result of his concentrated intimacy with her had been to make him feel that he was good enough for anything. When he had asked her, the last day, if he might write to her, she had said, Yes, but not for two or three weeks. He had written after Pinnie’s death, and again just before coming abroad, and in doing so had taken account of something else she had said in regard to their correspondence—that she didn’t wish vague phrases, protestations or compliments; she wanted the realities of his life, the smallest, most personal details. Therefore he had treated her to the whole business of the break-up in Lomax Place, including the sale of the rickety furniture. He had told her what that transaction brought—a beggarly sum, but sufficient to help a little to pay debts; and he had informed her furthermore that one of the ways Mr Vetch had taken to hurry him off to Paris was to offer him a present of thirty pounds out of his curious little hoard, to add to the sum already inherited from Pinnie—which, in a manner that none of Hyacinth’s friends, of course, could possibly regard as frugal, or even as respectable, was now consecrated to a mere excursion. He even mentioned that he had ended by accepting the thirty pounds, adding that he feared there was something demoralising in his peculiar situation (she would know what he meant by that): it disposed one to take what one could get, made one at least very tolerant of whims that happened to be munificent.
The memory of the last days he had spent with her felt to him now like the touch of a tear-streaked cheek. She had cried for him, and he suspected that her hidden agenda was to sabotage the fulfillment of his promise to Hoffendahl, to the overwhelming entity that Hoffendahl represented. She acted like she accepted it, claiming that when he was supposed to do his part, she would step in to save him—creating a cloud around him, like the goddess-mother of the Trojan hero did in Virgil’s poem to escamoter Æneas. What she really meant, in his view, was to stop him from playing his part altogether. She was looking out for herself, not for him. The main outcome of his close relationship with her was that he felt he was capable of anything. When he had asked her on the last day if he could write to her, she had said yes, but not for two or three weeks. He had written after Pinnie’s death and again just before coming abroad, keeping in mind what she had said about their correspondence—that she didn’t want vague phrases, declarations, or compliments; she wanted the realities of his life, even the smallest, most personal details. So he shared everything about the breakup in Lomax Place, including the sale of the old furniture. He told her how much that deal brought in—a pitiful amount, but enough to help pay off some debts; and he also informed her that one of the ways Mr. Vetch had rushed him off to Paris was by offering him a gift of thirty pounds from his odd little savings, to add to the money he had inherited from Pinnie—which, in a way that none of Hyacinth’s friends could possibly see as frugal or even respectable, was now earmarked for a mere trip. He even mentioned that he eventually accepted the thirty pounds, adding that he worried there was something demoralizing about his unusual situation (she would understand what he meant by that): it made one inclined to take whatever one could get and made one very tolerant of whims that happened to be generous.
What he did not mention to the Princess was the manner in which he had been received by Paul Muniment and by Millicent Henning on his return from Medley. Millicent’s reception had been the queerest; it had been quite unexpectedly mild. She made him no scene of violence, and appeared to have given up the line of throwing a blur of recrimination over her own nefarious doings. She treated him as if she liked him for having got in with the swells; she had an appreciation of success which would lead her to handle him more tenderly now that he was really successful. She tried to make him describe the style of life that was led in a house where people were invited to stay like that without having to pay, and she surprised him almost as much as she gratified him by not indulging in any of her former digs at the Princess. She was lavish of ejaculations when he answered certain of her questions—ejaculations that savoured of Pimlico, “Oh, I say!” and “Oh, my stars!”—and he was more than ever struck with her detestable habit of saying, “Aye, that’s where it is,” when he had made some remark to which she wished to give an intelligent and sympathetic assent. But she didn’t jeer at the Princess’s private character; she stayed her satire, in a case where there was such an opening for it. Hyacinth reflected that this was lucky for her: he couldn’t have stood it (nervous and anxious as he was about Pinnie) if she had had the bad taste, at such a time as that, to be profane and insulting. In that case he would have broken with her completely—he would have been too disgusted. She displeased him enough, as it was, by her vulgar tricks of speech. There were two or three little recurrent irregularities that aggravated him to a degree quite out of proportion to their importance, as when she said ‘full up’ for full, ‘sold out’ for sold, or remarked to him that she supposed he was now going to chuck up his work at old Crookenden’s. These phrases had fallen upon his ear many a time before, but now they seemed almost unpardonable enough to quarrel about. Not that he had any wish to quarrel, for if the question had been pushed he would have admitted that to-day his intimacy with the Princess had caused any rights he might have had upon Millicent to lapse. Millicent did not push it, however; she only, it was evident, wished to convey to him that it was better for both parties they should respect each other’s liberty. A genial understanding on this subject was what Miss Henning desired, and Hyacinth forbade himself to inquire what use she proposed to make of her freedom. During the month that elapsed between Pinnie’s death and his visit to Paris he had seen her several times, for the respect for each other’s freedom had somehow not implied cessation of intercourse, and it was only natural she should have been soft to him in his bereaved condition. Hyacinth’s sentiment about Pinnie was deep, and Millicent was clever enough to guess it; the consequence of which was that on these occasions she was very soft indeed. She talked to him almost as if she had been his mother and he a convalescent child; called him her dear, and a young rascal, and her old boy; moralised a good deal, abstained from beer (till she learned he had inherited a fortune), and when he remarked once (moralising a little, too) that after the death of a person we have loved we are haunted by the memory of our failures of kindness, of generosity, rejoined, with a dignity that made the words almost a contribution to philosophy, “Yes, that’s where it is!”
What he didn't tell the Princess was how Paul Muniment and Millicent Henning received him when he returned from Medley. Millicent's reaction was the strangest; it was surprisingly mild. She didn’t create a scene and seemed to have stopped throwing accusations about her own bad behavior. She treated him like she liked him for connecting with the elite; she appreciated success, which made her handle him more gently since he was now successful. She asked him to describe the lifestyle in a house where people could stay without paying, and he was nearly as shocked as he was pleased that she didn't make any of her usual jabs at the Princess. She was full of exclamations when he answered some of her questions—exclamations that sounded very Pimlico, like “Oh, I say!” and “Oh, my stars!”—and he was even more annoyed by her annoying habit of saying, “Aye, that’s where it is,” when he made a remark she wanted to agree with intelligently. But she didn't make fun of the Princess's character; she held back her sarcasm when there was such a chance to use it. Hyacinth thought this was lucky for her; he couldn't have handled it (being as nervous and anxious as he was about Pinnie) if she had been rude and insulting at that moment. In that case, he would have cut ties with her completely—he would have been too disgusted. She annoyed him enough already with her tacky speech. There were a couple of little annoying phrases she used that bothered him more than they should have, like when she said ‘full up’ instead of full, ‘sold out’ instead of sold, or suggested that he was going to quit his job at old Crookenden’s. He had heard these phrases many times before, but now they seemed almost annoying enough to argue about. Not that he wanted to fight, since if he had to confront it, he would have accepted that his closeness to the Princess had caused any claim he might have had on Millicent to fade away. However, Millicent didn’t push it; she just seemed to want to let him know that it was best for both of them to respect each other's freedom. Miss Henning wanted a friendly agreement on this, and Hyacinth stopped himself from asking what she intended to do with her freedom. During the month between Pinnie’s death and his trip to Paris, he had seen her several times because the respect for each other’s freedom didn’t mean cutting off contact, and it was only natural that she would be kind to him while he was grieving. Hyacinth felt deeply about Pinnie, and Millicent was clever enough to sense that; as a result, she was incredibly gentle during these visits. She talked to him almost like a mother would to a recovering child; she called him her dear, a young rascal, and her old boy; she moralized a lot, avoided beer (until she found out he had inherited a fortune), and when he mentioned once (also moralizing a bit) that after someone we love dies, we're haunted by our failures in kindness and generosity, she replied, with a seriousness that elevated her words to something philosophical, “Yes, that’s where it is!”
Something in her behaviour at this period had even made Hyacinth wonder whether there were not some mystical sign in his appearance, some subtle betrayal in the very expression of his face, of the predicament in which he had been placed by Diedrich Hoffendahl; he began to suspect afresh the operation of that ‘beastly attendrissement’ he had detected of old in people who had the benefit of Miss Pynsent’s innuendoes. The compassion Millicent felt for him had never been one of the reasons why he liked her; it had fortunately been corrected, moreover, by his power to make her furious. This evening, on the boulevard, as he watched the interminable successions, one of the ideas that came to him was that it was odd he should like her even yet; for heaven knew he liked the Princess better, and he had hitherto supposed that when a sentiment of this kind had the energy of a possession it made a clean sweep of all minor predilections. But it was clear to him that Millicent still existed for him; that he couldn’t feel he had quite done with her, or she with him; and that in spite of his having now so many other things to admire there was still a comfort in the recollection of her robust beauty and her primitive passions. Hyacinth thought of her as some clever young barbarian who in ancient days should have made a pilgrimage to Rome might have thought of a Dacian or Iberian mistress awaiting his return on the rough provincial shore. If Millicent considered his visit at a ‘hall’ a proof of the sort of success that was to attend him (how he reconciled this with the supposition that she perceived, as a ghostly irradiation, intermingled with his curly hair, the aureola of martyrdom, he would have had some difficulty in explaining), if Miss Henning considered, on his return from Medley, that he had taken his place on the winning side, it was only consistent of her to borrow a grandeur from his further travels; and, indeed, by the time he was ready to start she spoke of the plan as if she had invented it herself and even contributed materially to the funds required. It had been her theory, from the first, that she only liked people of spirit; and Hyacinth certainly had never had so much spirit as when he launched himself into Continental adventures. He could say to himself, quite without bitterness, that of course she would profit by his absence to put her relations with Sholto on a comfortable footing; yet, somehow, at this moment, as her face came back to him amid the crowd of faces about him, it had not that gentleman’s romantic shadow across it. It was the brilliancy of Paris, perhaps, that made him see things rosy; at any rate, he remembered with kindness something that she had said to him the last time he saw her and that had touched him exceedingly at the moment. He had happened to observe to her, in a friendly way, that now Miss Pynsent had gone she was, with the exception of Mr Vetch, the person in his whole circle who had known him longest. To this Millicent had replied that Mr Vetch wouldn’t live for ever, and then she should have the satisfaction of being his very oldest friend. “Oh, well, I shan’t live for ever, either,” said Hyacinth; which led her to inquire whether by chance he had a weakness of the chest. “Not that I know of, but I might get killed in a row;” and when she broke out into scorn of his silly notion of turning everything up (as if any one wanted to know what a costermonger would like, or any of that low sort at the East End!) he amused himself with asking her if she were satisfied with the condition of society and thought nothing ought to be done for people who, at the end of a lifetime of starvation-wages, had only the reward of the hideous workhouse and a pauper’s grave.
Something in her behavior at that time even made Hyacinth wonder if there was a mystical sign in his appearance, some subtle giveaway in the very expression of his face, about the situation he found himself in because of Diedrich Hoffendahl. He started to suspect again the operation of that ‘beastly attendrissement’ he had noticed before in people influenced by Miss Pynsent’s insinuations. The compassion Millicent felt for him had never been one of the reasons he liked her; luckily, it had been offset by his ability to make her furious. That evening, on the boulevard, as he observed the endless stream of people, one of the thoughts that crossed his mind was that it was strange he still liked her; for heaven knew he liked the Princess more, and he had thought that when a feeling like this had the force of a possession, it swept away all lesser preferences. But it was clear to him that Millicent still mattered to him; that he didn’t feel he was completely done with her, or she with him; and that despite having so many other things to admire, there was still comfort in remembering her strong beauty and her raw passions. Hyacinth thought of her as some clever young barbarian who, in ancient times, should have made a pilgrimage to Rome and might have thought of a Dacian or Iberian lover waiting for his return on the rough provincial shore. If Millicent saw his visit to a ‘hall’ as proof of the kind of success that awaited him (how he reconciled this with the idea that she perceived, like a ghostly glow, mingling with his curly hair, the halo of martyrdom, he would have found difficult to explain), if Miss Henning thought, upon his return from Medley, that he had aligned himself with the winning side, it was only consistent for her to borrow some grandeur from his further travels; indeed, by the time he was ready to go, she spoke of the plan as if she had come up with it herself and even contributed significantly to the funds needed. From the beginning, it had been her theory that she only liked spirited people; and Hyacinth certainly had never exhibited as much spirit as when he threw himself into Continental adventures. He could tell himself, without any bitterness, that of course she would take advantage of his absence to set her relationship with Sholto on a comfortable footing; yet, somehow, at that moment, as her face came back to him among the crowd, it didn’t carry that gentleman’s romantic shadow. Maybe it was the brilliance of Paris that made him see things more positively; at any rate, he remembered fondly something she had said to him the last time they met, which had deeply touched him at that moment. He had casually pointed out to her, in a friendly manner, that now Miss Pynsent was gone, she was, besides Mr. Vetch, the person in his entire circle who had known him the longest. To this, Millicent had responded that Mr. Vetch wouldn’t live forever, and then she would have the satisfaction of being his very oldest friend. “Oh, well, I won’t live forever, either,” said Hyacinth; which led her to ask whether he happened to have a weak chest. “Not that I know of, but I might get killed in a fight;” and when she scoffed at his ridiculous idea of turning everything up (as if anyone cared what a costermonger would like, or any of those low sorts in the East End!), he entertained himself by asking her if she was happy with the state of society and thought nothing should be done for people who, after a lifetime of starvation wages, had only the reward of the terrible workhouse and a pauper’s grave.
“I shouldn’t be satisfied with anything, if ever you was to slip up,” Millicent answered, simply, looking at him with her beautiful boldness. Then she added, “There’s one thing I can tell you, Mr Robinson: that if ever any one was to do you a turn—” And she paused again, tossing back the head she carried as if it were surmounted by a tiara, while Hyacinth inquired what would occur in that contingency. “Well, there’d be one left behind who would take it up!” she announced; and in the tone of the declaration there was something brave and genuine. It struck Hyacinth as a strange fate—though not stranger, after all, than his native circumstances—that one’s memory should come to be represented by a shop-girl overladen with bracelets of imitation silver; but he was reminded that Millicent was a fine specimen of a woman of a type opposed to the whining, and that in her free temperament many disparities were reconciled.
“I shouldn’t be satisfied with anything if you ever slip up,” Millicent replied simply, looking at him with her striking confidence. Then she added, “There’s one thing I can tell you, Mr. Robinson: if anyone ever did you a favor—” And she paused again, tossing her head back as if it were topped with a tiara, while Hyacinth asked what would happen in that situation. “Well, there’d be one person left behind who would take action!” she declared; and her tone had something brave and genuine about it. Hyacinth thought it was a strange fate—though not stranger than his own circumstances—that his memory would be represented by a shop girl loaded with imitation silver bracelets; but he was reminded that Millicent was a great example of a woman who opposed the whiners, and in her free spirit, many differences were balanced.
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On the other hand the brilliancy of Paris had not much power to transfigure the impression made upon him by such intercourse with Paul Muniment as he had enjoyed during the weeks that followed Pinnie’s death—an impression considerably more severe than any idea of renunciation or oblivion that could connect itself with Millicent. Why it should have had the taste of sadness was not altogether clear, for Muniment’s voice was as distinct as any in the chorus of approbation excited by the news that Hyacinth was about to cultivate the most characteristic of the pleasures of gentility—a sympathetic unanimity, of which the effect was to place his journey to Paris in a light almost ridiculous. What had got into them all, and did they think he was good for nothing but to amuse himself? Mr Vetch had been the most zealous, but the others clapped him on the back in almost exactly the same manner as he had seen his mates in Soho bring their palms down on one of their number when it was disclosed to them that his ‘missus’ had made him yet once again a father. That had been Poupin’s tone, and his wife’s as well; and even poor Schinkel, with his everlasting bandage, whom he had met in Lisson Grove, appeared to think it necessary to remark that a little run across the Rhine, while he was about it, would open his eyes to a great many wonders. The Poupins shed tears of joy, and the letters which have already been mentioned, and which lay day after day on the mantel-shelf of the little room our hero occupied in a hôtel garni, tremendously tall and somewhat lopsided, in the Rue Jacob (that recommendation proceeded also from Lisson Grove, the garni being kept by a second cousin of Madame Eustache), these valuable documents had been prepared by the obliging exile many days before his young friend was ready to start. It was almost refreshing to Hyacinth when old Crookenden, the sole outspoken dissentient, told him he was a blockhead to waste his money on the bloody French. This worthy employer of labour was evidently disgusted at such an innovation; if he wanted a little recreation why couldn’t he take it as it had been taken in Soho from the beginning of time, in the shape of a trip to Hampton Court or two or three days of alcoholic torpor? Old Crookenden was right. Hyacinth conceded freely that he was a blockhead, and was only a little uncomfortable that he couldn’t explain why he didn’t pretend not to be and had a kind of right to that compensatory luxury.
On the other hand, the brightness of Paris didn't really change the impression left on him by his time with Paul Muniment in the weeks after Pinnie’s death—an impression that felt more intense than any thoughts of giving up or forgetting that he could connect with Millicent. It wasn’t entirely clear why it felt so sad, since Muniment's voice stood out clearly among the chorus of praise when the news broke that Hyacinth was going to indulge in one of the typical pleasures of upper-class life—a weird kind of unity that made his upcoming trip to Paris seem almost silly. What was going on with everyone? Did they think he was just there to have fun? Mr. Vetch was the most enthusiastic, but the others patted him on the back in nearly the same way he'd seen his friends in Soho do when one of them revealed that his wife had once again made him a father. That had been the attitude of the Poupins, and his wife's as well; even poor Schinkel, with his perpetual bandage, whom he ran into in Lisson Grove, felt the need to suggest that a little trip across the Rhine, while he was at it, would show him a lot of amazing things. The Poupins were shedding tears of joy, and the letters already mentioned, which laid on the mantel in Hyacinth's small room at a hôtel garni, incredibly tall and slightly crooked, on Rue Jacob (that recommendation also came from Lisson Grove, with the garni run by a second cousin of Madame Eustache), had been prepared by the considerate exile many days before his young friend was set to leave. It was almost refreshing when old Crookenden, the only one who openly disagreed, told him he was an idiot for spending his money on the damn French. This honest employer was clearly frustrated by such a change; if he wanted a bit of fun, why couldn't he take it as it had traditionally been taken in Soho from time immemorial, like a trip to Hampton Court or a few days of drinking? Old Crookenden had a point. Hyacinth openly agreed he was an idiot and felt a bit uneasy that he couldn’t explain why he didn’t just pretend otherwise and felt entitled to that little indulgent luxury.
Paul guessed why, of course, and smiled approval with a candour which gave Hyacinth a strange, inexpressible heartache. He already knew that his friend’s view of him was that he was ornamental and adapted to the lighter kinds of socialistic utility—constituted to show that the revolution was not necessarily brutal and illiterate; but in the light of the cheerful stoicism with which Muniment regarded the sacrifice our hero was committed to, the latter had found it necessary to remodel a good deal his original conception of the young chemist’s nature. The result of this process was not that he admired it less but that he felt almost awe-stricken in the presence of it. There had been an element of that sort in his appreciation of Muniment from the first, but it had been infinitely deepened by the spectacle of his sublime consistency. Hyacinth felt that he himself could never have risen to that point. He was competent to make the promise to Hoffendahl, and he was equally competent to keep it; but he could not have had the same fortitude for another, could not have detached himself from personal prejudice so effectually as to put forward, in that way, for the terrible ‘job’, a little chap he liked. That Muniment liked him it never occurred to Hyacinth to doubt, and certainly he had all the manner of it to-day: he had never been more good-humoured, more placidly talkative; he was like an elder brother who knew that the ‘youngster’ was clever, and was rather proud of it even when there was no one there to see. That air of suspending their partnership for the moment, which had usually marked him at the ‘Sun and Moon’, was never visible in other places; in Audley Court he only chaffed Hyacinth occasionally for taking him too seriously. To-day his young friend hardly knew just how to take him; the episode of which Hoffendahl was the central figure had, as far as one could see, made so little change in his life. As a conspirator he was so extraordinarily candid, and bitterness and denunciation so rarely sat on his lips. It was as if he had been ashamed to complain; and indeed, for himself, as the months went on, he had nothing particular to complain of. He had had a rise, at the chemical works, and a plan of getting a larger room for Rosy was under serious consideration. On behalf of others he never sounded the pathetic note—he thought that sort of thing unbusiness-like; and the most that he did in the way of expatiation on the wrongs of humanity was occasionally to mention certain statistics, certain ‘returns’, in regard to the remuneration of industries, applications for employment and the discharge of hands. In such matters as these he was deeply versed, and he moved in a dry statistical and scientific air in which it cost Hyacinth an effort of respiration to accompany him. Simple and kindly as he was, and thoughtful of the woes of beasts, attentive and merciful to small insects, and addicted even to kissing dirty babies in Audley Court, he sometimes emitted a short satiric gleam which showed that his esteem for the poor was small and that if he had no illusions about the people who had got everything into their hands he had as few about those who had egregiously failed to do so. He was tremendously reasonable, which was largely why Hyacinth admired him, having a desire to be so himself but finding it terribly difficult.
Paul knew the reason and smiled back with an openness that gave Hyacinth a strange, indescribable heartache. He was aware that his friend considered him ornamental, suited for the lighter aspects of socialism—demonstrating that the revolution didn't have to be brutal or ignorant. However, given the cheerful stoicism with which Muniment accepted the sacrifice Hyacinth was committed to, he had to reshape much of his original view of the young chemist's character. The outcome of this shift didn’t lead him to admire it less; instead, he felt a sense of awe in its presence. From the beginning, there was a hint of that feeling in his appreciation of Muniment, but it deepened significantly when faced with his sublime consistency. Hyacinth realized he could never reach that level. He could promise Hoffendahl and was capable of keeping his word, but he wouldn't have had the same strength to support someone else in a “terrible job” when he had personal feelings involved. He never doubted that Muniment liked him, and today he certainly seemed to show it: he was in good spirits, talkative, like an older brother proud of his clever younger sibling even when no one was watching. The usual air of momentarily putting their partnership on hold that marked him at the “Sun and Moon” was absent here; at Audley Court, he only teased Hyacinth for taking him too seriously. Today, Hyacinth felt unsure of how to interpret him; the situation involving Hoffendahl seemed to have changed little in Muniment's life. As a conspirator, he was incredibly straightforward, and resentment rarely crossed his lips. It was almost as if he felt embarrassed to complain, and for himself, as time passed, he had nothing specific to complain about. He had received a promotion at the chemical works, and plans to secure a larger room for Rosy were being seriously considered. He didn't indulge in sentimentality on behalf of others—he viewed that as unprofessional. The most he did in discussing humanity's injustices was occasionally cite statistics related to industry wages, job applications, and layoffs. He was well-versed in these matters and moved through a dry, statistical, and scientific atmosphere that made it hard for Hyacinth to keep up. Though he was simple and kind-hearted, aware of the plight of animals and attentive to small insects, even kissing dirty babies in Audley Court, he sometimes revealed a brief satirical sharpness that indicated he held a low opinion of the poor and had no illusions about those who had everything or those who had utterly failed. He was tremendously logical, which was a big part of why Hyacinth admired him; he desired to be reasonable too but found it incredibly tough.
Muniment’s absence of passion, his fresh-coloured coolness, his easy, exact knowledge, the way he kept himself clean (except for the chemical stains on his hands) in circumstances of foul contact, constituted a group of qualities that had always appeared to Hyacinth singularly enviable. Most enviable of all was the force that enabled him to sink personal sentiment where a great public good was to be attempted and yet keep up the form of caring for that minor interest. It seemed to Hyacinth that if he had introduced a young fellow to Hoffendahl for his purposes, and Hoffendahl had accepted him on such a recommendation, and everything had been settled, he would have preferred never to look at the young fellow again. That was his weakness, and Muniment carried it off far otherwise. It must be added that he had never made an allusion to their visit to Hoffendahl; so that Hyacinth also, out of pride, held his tongue on the subject. If his friend didn’t wish to express any sympathy for him he was not going to beg for it (especially as he didn’t want it) by restless references. It had originally been a surprise to him that Muniment should be willing to countenance a possible assassination; but after all none of his ideas were narrow (Hyacinth had a sense that they ripened all the while), and if a pistol-shot would do any good he was not the man to raise pedantic objections. It is true that, as regards his quiet acceptance of the predicament in which Hyacinth might be placed by it, our young man had given him the benefit of a certain amount of doubt; it had occurred to him that perhaps Muniment had his own reasons for believing that the summons from Hoffendahl would never really arrive, so that he might only be treating himself to the entertainment of judging of a little bookbinder’s nerve. But in this case, why did he take an interest in the little bookbinder’s going to Paris? That was a thing he would not have cared for if he had held that in fact there was nothing to fear. He despised the sight of idleness, and in spite of the indulgence he had more than once been good enough to express on the subject of Hyacinth’s epicurean tendencies what he would have been most likely to say at present was, ‘Go to Paris? Go to the dickens! Haven’t you been out at grass long enough for one while, didn’t you lark enough in the country there with the noble lady, and hadn’t you better take up your tools again before you forget how to handle them?’ Rosy had said something of that sort, in her free, familiar way (whatever her intention, she had been, in effect, only a little less sarcastic than old Crookenden): that Mr Robinson was going in for a life of leisure, a life of luxury, like herself; she must congratulate him on having the means and the time. Oh, the time—that was the great thing! She could speak with knowledge, having always enjoyed these advantages herself. And she intimated—or was she mistaken?—that his good fortune emulated hers also in the matter of his having a high-born and beneficent friend (such a blessing, now he had lost dear Miss Pynsent), who covered him with little attentions. Rose Muniment, in short, had been more exasperating than ever.
Muniment’s lack of passion, his cool demeanor, his precise knowledge, and the way he stayed clean (except for the chemical stains on his hands) in nasty situations were traits that Hyacinth had always found surprisingly enviable. Most enviable of all was Muniment's ability to suppress personal feelings when it came to pursuing a significant public cause, all while maintaining the appearance of caring about smaller matters. To Hyacinth, if he had introduced a young guy to Hoffendahl for his own purposes, and Hoffendahl had accepted the recommendation, he would have preferred never to see the young guy again. That was his weakness, while Muniment was completely different. It should be noted that he never mentioned their visit to Hoffendahl, so Hyacinth, out of pride, kept quiet about it too. If his friend didn’t want to show any support for him, he wasn’t going to beg for it (especially since he didn’t really want it) with restless comments. It initially surprised him that Muniment would even consider a possible assassination; however, his ideas weren’t narrow-minded (Hyacinth felt they were maturing all the time), and if a gunshot could help, he was not the kind of person to raise pedantic objections. True, regarding his calm acceptance of the situation Hyacinth might find himself in, our young man had given him a bit of the benefit of the doubt; it crossed his mind that maybe Muniment had his reasons for thinking the call from Hoffendahl would never actually come, so he might just be getting entertainment from analyzing a little bookbinder's courage. But in that case, why did he care about the little bookbinder going to Paris? That was something he wouldn’t have bothered with if he believed there was truly nothing to fear. He held a disdain for idleness, and despite the leniency he had sometimes shown towards Hyacinth’s pleasure-seeking habits, what he would probably say now was, ‘Go to Paris? No way! Haven’t you had enough of that for a while? Didn’t you have enough fun in the country with that noble lady? Shouldn’t you pick up your tools again before you forget how to use them?’ Rosy had said something similar in her casual, familiar way (whatever her intent, she was only slightly less sarcastic than old Crookenden): that Mr. Robinson was settling into a life of leisure, a life of luxury like hers; she had to congratulate him on having the means and the time. Oh, the time—that was the crucial part! She spoke from experience, having always enjoyed those advantages herself. And she hinted—or was she mistaken?—that his good fortune was also similar to hers in having a high-born and generous friend (such a blessing now that he had lost dear Miss Pynsent) who showered him with little attentions. Rose Muniment, in short, had been more infuriating than ever.
The boulevard became even more brilliant as the evening went on, and Hyacinth wondered whether he had a right to occupy the same table for so many hours. The theatre on the other side discharged its multitude; the crowd thickened on the wide asphalt, on the terrace of the café; gentlemen, accompanied by ladies of whom he knew already how to characterise the type—des femmes très-chic—passed into the portals of Tortoni. The nightly emanation of Paris seemed to rise more richly, to float and hang in the air, to mingle with the universal light and the many-voiced sound, to resolve itself into a thousand solicitations and opportunities, addressed however mainly to those in whose pockets the chink of a little loose gold might respond. Hyacinth’s retrospections had not made him drowsy, but quite the reverse; he grew restless and excited, and a kind of pleasant terror of the place and hour entered into his blood. But it was nearly midnight, and he got up to walk home, taking the line of the boulevard toward the Madeleine. He passed down the Rue Royale, where comparative stillness reigned; and when he reached the Place de la Concorde, to cross the bridge which faces the Corps Législatif, he found himself almost isolated. He had left the human swarm and the obstructed pavements behind, and the wide spaces of the splendid square lay quiet under the summer stars. The plash of the great fountains was audible, and he could almost hear the wind-stirred murmur of the little wood of the Tuileries on one side, and of the vague expanse of the Champs Elysées on the other. The place itself—the Place Louis Quinze, the Place de la Révolution—had given him a sensible emotion, from the day of his arrival; he had recognised so quickly its tremendously historic character. He had seen, in a rapid vision, the guillotine in the middle, on the site of the inscrutable obelisk, and the tumbrils, with waiting victims, were stationed round the circle now made majestic by the monuments of the cities of France. The great legend of the French Revolution, sanguinary and heroic, was more real to him here than anywhere else; and, strangely, what was most present was not its turpitude and horror, but its magnificent energy, the spirit of life that had been in it, not the spirit of death. That shadow was effaced by the modern fairness of fountain and statue, the stately perspective and composition; and as he lingered, before crossing the Seine, a sudden sense overtook him, making his heart sink with a kind of desolation—a sense of everything that might hold one to the world, of the sweetness of not dying, the fascination of great cities, the charm of travel and discovery, the generosity of admiration. The tears rose to his eyes, as they had done more than once in the past six months, and a question, low but poignant, broke from his lips, ending in nothing: “How could he—how could he—?” It may be explained that ‘he’ was a reference to Paul Muniment; for Hyacinth had dreamed of the religion of friendship.
The boulevard became even more vibrant as the night went on, and Hyacinth wondered if it was right for him to stay at the same table for so long. The theater across the street spilled out its crowd; people packed the wide pavement and the café terrace. Men, accompanied by stylish women—des femmes très-chic—entered Tortoni. The nightlife of Paris seemed to rise more intensely, floating in the air, blending with the ambient light and sounds, turning into a thousand invitations and opportunities, mainly aimed at those with a bit of spare cash to spare. Hyacinth’s reflections didn’t make him sleepy; instead, they stirred his restlessness and excitement, and a pleasant sense of thrill about the place and time coursed through him. But it was nearly midnight, so he got up to walk home, heading along the boulevard toward the Madeleine. He moved down Rue Royale, where a calmness reigned; and when he reached Place de la Concorde to cross the bridge toward the Corps Législatif, he found himself almost alone. He had left behind the bustling crowd and crowded sidewalks, and the grand square was quiet under the summer stars. The sound of the grand fountains was clear, and he could almost hear the gentle rustle of the little wood of the Tuileries on one side and the vast expanse of the Champs Elysées on the other. The place itself—Place Louis Quinze, Place de la Révolution—had struck him with a tangible emotion since the day he arrived; he quickly recognized its immense historical significance. He saw in a flash the guillotine in the center, where the mysterious obelisk now stood, with carts of waiting victims surrounding the area now graced by monuments from cities across France. The grand tale of the French Revolution, bloody and heroic, felt more real to him here than anywhere else; and strangely enough, what stuck out the most was not its evil and horror, but its powerful energy, the spirit of life that infused it, not the spirit of death. That shadow faded against the modern beauty of fountains and statues, the impressive sightlines and arrangements; and as he paused before crossing the Seine, a sudden sense washed over him, making his heart feel a sense of loss—a realization of everything that could connect someone to the world, the sweetness of living, the allure of great cities, the charm of travel and discovery, and the gift of admiration. Tears welled up in his eyes, just as they had done multiple times during the past six months, and a quiet but intense question slipped from his lips, unanswered: “How could he—how could he—?” It’s worth noting that ‘he’ referred to Paul Muniment; for Hyacinth had dreamed of the bond of friendship.
Three weeks after this he found himself in Venice, whence he addressed to the Princess Casamassima a letter of which I reproduce the principal passages.
Three weeks later, he found himself in Venice, from where he wrote a letter to Princess Casamassima, and I’m including the main parts of it.
‘This is probably the last time I shall write to you before I return to London. Of course you have been in this place, and you will easily understand why here, especially here, the spirit should move me. Dear Princess, what an enchanted city, what ineffable impressions, what a revelation of the exquisite! I have a room in a little campo opposite to a small old church, which has cracked marble slabs let into the front; and in the cracks grow little wild delicate flowers, of which I don’t know the name. Over the door of the church hangs an old battered leather curtain, polished and tawny, as thick as a mattress, and with buttons in it, like a sofa; and it flops to and fro, laboriously, as women and girls, with shawls on their heads and their feet in little wooden shoes which have nothing but toes, pass in and out. In the middle of the campo is a fountain, which looks still older than the church; it has a primitive, barbaric air, and I have an idea it was put there by the first settlers—those who came to Venice from the mainland, from Aquileia. Observe how much historical information I have already absorbed; it won’t surprise you, however, for you never wondered at anything after you discovered I knew something of Schopenhauer. I assure you, I don’t think of that musty misogynist in the least to-day, for I bend a genial eye on the women and girls I just spoke of, as they glide, with a small clatter and with their old copper water-jars, to the fountain. The Venetian girl-face is wonderfully sweet and the effect is charming when its pale, sad oval (they all look under-fed) is framed in the old faded shawl. They also have very fascinating hair, which never has done curling, and they slip along together, in couples or threes, interlinked by the arms and never meeting one’s eye (so that its geniality doesn’t matter), dressed in thin, cheap cotton gowns, whose limp folds make the same delightful line that everything else in Italy makes. The weather is splendid and I roast—but I like it; apparently, I was made to be spitted and “done”, and I discover that I have been cold all my life, even when I thought I was warm. I have seen none of the beautiful patricians who sat for the great painters—the gorgeous beings whose golden hair was intertwined with pearls; but I am studying Italian in order to talk with the shuffling, clicking maidens who work in the bead-factories—I am determined to make one or two of them look at me. When they have filled their old water-pots at the fountain it is jolly to see them perch them on their heads and patter away over the polished Venetian stones. It’s a charm to be in a country where the women don’t wear the hideous British bonnet. Even in my own class (excuse the expression—I remember it used to offend you), I have never known a young female, in London, to put her nose out of the door without it; and if you had frequented such young females as much as I have you would have learned of what degradation that dreary necessity is the source. The floor of my room is composed of little brick tiles, and to freshen the air, in this temperature, one sprinkles it, as you no doubt know, with water. Before long, if I keep on sprinkling, I shall be able to swim about; the green shutters are closed, and the place makes a very good tank. Through the chinks the hot light of the campo comes in. I smoke cigarettes, and in the pauses of this composition recline on a faded magenta divan in the corner. Convenient to my hand, in that attitude, are the works of Leopardi and a second-hand dictionary. I am very happy—happier than I have ever been in my life save at Medley—and I don’t care for anything but the present hour. It won’t last long, for I am spending all my money. When I have finished this I shall go forth and wander about in the splendid Venetian afternoon; and I shall spend the evening in that enchanted square of St Mark’s, which resembles an immense open-air drawing-room, listening to music and feeling the sea-breeze blow in between those two strange old columns, in the piazzetta, which seem to make a portal for it. I can scarcely believe that it’s of myself that I am telling these fine things; I say to myself a dozen times a day that Hyacinth Robinson is not in it—I pinch my leg to see if I’m not dreaming. But a short time hence, when I have resumed the exercise of my profession, in sweet Soho, I shall have proof enough that it has been my very self: I shall know that by the terrible grind I shall feel my work to be.
‘This is probably the last time I’ll write to you before I head back to London. Of course you’ve been here, and you can easily understand why this place, especially here, moves me so deeply. Dear Princess, what an enchanting city, what indescribable impressions, what a revelation of beauty! I have a room in a little campo across from a tiny old church, which has cracked marble slabs at the front; and in those cracks grow delicate little wildflowers, of which I don’t know the name. An old, worn leather curtain hangs over the church door, polished and tawny, as thick as a mattress, and with buttons like a sofa; it moves back and forth as women and girls, with shawls on their heads and their feet in little wooden shoes that have only toes, pass in and out. In the middle of the campo is a fountain that looks even older than the church; it has a primitive, rustic vibe, and I suspect it was put there by the first settlers—those who came to Venice from the mainland, from Aquileia. Notice how much historical knowledge I've already picked up; it won’t surprise you, though, since you never had any doubts after you found out I knew a bit about Schopenhauer. I assure you, I’m not thinking about that dusty misogynist at all today, as I kindly observe the women and girls I just mentioned, gliding by with a slight clatter and their old copper water-jars to the fountain. The Venetian girls have wonderfully sweet faces, and it’s charming how their pale, sad oval (they all look a bit underfed) is framed by their old faded shawls. They also have incredibly captivating hair, which has never been curled, and they move along in pairs or groups of three, linked by their arms and avoiding eye contact (so the friendliness doesn’t matter), dressed in thin, cheap cotton dresses whose limp folds create the same delightful lines that everything else in Italy does. The weather is amazing, and I’m roasting—but I love it; apparently, I was made to be cooked and “done,” and I realize I’ve been cold my whole life, even when I thought I was warm. I haven’t seen any of the beautiful aristocrats who posed for the great painters—the stunning beings whose golden hair was intertwined with pearls; instead, I’m studying Italian so I can talk to the shuffling, clicking maidens who work in the bead factories—I’m determined to make one or two of them notice me. When they fill their old water jars at the fountain, it’s delightful to see them balance them on their heads and walk away over the polished Venetian stones. It’s such a pleasure to be in a country where the women don’t wear the hideous British bonnet. Even in my own class (I apologize for using that term—I remember it used to offend you), I’ve never known a young woman in London to step outside without one; and if you had spent as much time around such young women as I have, you would understand how degrading that dreary necessity is. The floor of my room is made of little brick tiles, and to cool off the air in this heat, you sprinkle it with water, as you probably know. Before long, if I keep sprinkling, I’ll be able to swim around; the green shutters are closed, and it’s basically a very good tank. The hot light from the campo seeps in through the cracks. I smoke cigarettes, and during breaks in writing, I recline on a faded magenta couch in the corner. Conveniently within reach, in that position, are the works of Leopardi and a second-hand dictionary. I’m very happy—happier than I’ve ever been in my life apart from Medley—and I don’t care about anything except this moment. It won’t last long, though, because I'm spending all my money. Once I finish this, I’ll go out and wander around in the beautiful Venetian afternoon; and I’ll spend the evening in that magical square of St Mark’s, which feels like a huge outdoor lounge, listening to music and feeling the sea breeze come through those two strange old columns in the piazzetta, which seem to create a gateway for it. I can hardly believe that I’m the one experiencing all these wonderful things; I tell myself dozens of times a day that Hyacinth Robinson isn’t part of it—I pinch my leg to see if I’m dreaming. But soon enough, when I return to my profession in lovely Soho, I’ll have enough proof that it’s really been me: I’ll know it by the arduous grind I’ll feel my work is.’
‘That will mean, no doubt, that I’m deeply demoralised. It won’t be for you, however, in this case, to cast the stone at me; for my demoralisation began from the moment I first approached you. Dear Princess, I may have done you good, but you haven’t done me much. I trust you will understand what I mean by that speech, and not think it flippant or impertinent. I may have helped you to understand and enter into the misery of the people (though I protest I don’t know much about it), but you have led my imagination into quite another train. However, I don’t mean to pretend that it’s all your fault if I have lost sight of the sacred cause almost altogether in my recent adventures. It is not that it has not been there to see, for that perhaps is the clearest result of extending one’s horizon—the sense, increasing as we go, that want and toil and suffering are the constant lot of the immense majority of the human race. I have found them everywhere, but I haven’t minded them. Excuse the cynical confession. What has struck me is the great achievements of which man has been capable in spite of them—the splendid accumulations of the happier few, to which, doubtless, the miserable many have also in their degree contributed. The face of Europe appears to be covered with them, and they have had much the greater part of my attention. They seem to me inestimably precious and beautiful, and I have become conscious, more than ever before, of how little I understand what, in the great rectification, you and Poupin propose to do with them. Dear Princess, there are things which I shall be sorry to see you touch, even you with your hands divine; and—shall I tell you le fond de ma pensée, as you used to say?—I feel myself capable of fighting for them. You can’t call me a traitor, for you know the obligation that I recognise. The monuments and treasures of art, the great palaces and properties, the conquests of learning and taste, the general fabric of civilisation as we know it, based, if you will, upon all the despotisms, the cruelties, the exclusions, the monopolies and the rapacities of the past, but thanks to which, all the same, the world is less impracticable and life more tolerable—our friend Hoffendahl seems to me to hold them too cheap and to wish to substitute for them something in which I can’t somehow believe as I do in things with which the aspirations and the tears of generations have been mixed. You know how extraordinary I think our Hoffendahl (to speak only of him); but if there is one thing that is more clear about him than another it is that he wouldn’t have the least feeling for this incomparable, abominable old Venice. He would cut up the ceilings of the Veronese into strips, so that every one might have a little piece. I don’t want every one to have a little piece of anything, and I have a great horror of that kind of invidious jealousy which is at the bottom of the idea of a redistribution. You will say that I talk of it at my ease, while, in a delicious capital, I smoke cigarettes on a magenta divan; and I give you leave to scoff at me if it turns out that, when I come back to London without a penny in my pocket, I don’t hold the same language. I don’t know what it comes from, but during the last three months there has crept over me a deep mistrust of that same grudging attitude—the intolerance of positions and fortunes that are higher and brighter than one’s own; a fear, moreover, that I may, in the past, have been actuated by such motives, and a devout hope that if I am to pass away while I am yet young it may not be with that odious stain upon my soul.’
‘That will mean, no doubt, that I’m feeling really down. But it’s not for you to judge me in this case; my feeling down started the moment I first approached you. Dear Princess, I may have done you some good, but you haven’t done much for me. I hope you understand what I mean by that, and don’t think it’s frivolous or rude. I might have helped you to grasp the misery of the people (though I insist I don’t know much about it), but you’ve taken my imagination in a completely different direction. Still, I don’t want to pretend it’s entirely your fault if I’ve lost sight of the noble cause almost completely in my recent adventures. It’s not like it hasn’t been there to see; perhaps the clearest result of broadening one’s perspective is the growing awareness that want, labor, and suffering are the constant reality for the vast majority of humanity. I’ve encountered them everywhere, but I haven’t let them trouble me. Please excuse my cynical confession. What’s struck me is the incredible achievements that humanity has accomplished despite these hardships—the amazing collections of the fortunate few, to which, undoubtedly, the unfortunate many have also contributed in their own way. Europe seems to be covered in them, and they’ve occupied much of my attention. They seem to me invaluable and beautiful, and I’ve become more aware than ever of how little I understand about what you and Poupin plan to do in the great correction. Dear Princess, there are things I’ll regret seeing you touch, even with your divine hands; and—shall I share what’s truly on my mind, as you used to say?—I feel capable of defending them. You can’t call me a traitor because you know the obligation I recognize. The monuments and treasures of art, the grand palaces and properties, the achievements in learning and taste, the very framework of our civilization which, if you like, is built upon all the past’s despotic regimes, cruelties, exclusions, monopolies, and greed, but thanks to which, the world is, nonetheless, less unmanageable and life more bearable—our friend Hoffendahl seems to undervalue them and wants to replace them with something I can’t bring myself to believe in as I do the things that have been shaped by the hopes and tears of generations. You know how extraordinary I find our Hoffendahl (just to talk about him); but if there’s one thing that’s clearer about him than anything else, it’s that he wouldn’t have the slightest appreciation for this incomparable, terrible old Venice. He would cut down the ceilings of the Veronese into strips so that everyone could have a small piece. I don’t want everyone to have just a small piece of anything, and I have a real aversion to that kind of envy that lies at the heart of the idea of redistribution. You might say that I speak of it easily while I enjoy myself in a charming city, smoking cigarettes on a magenta couch; and I give you permission to mock me if it turns out that when I return to London broke, I don’t say the same thing. I don’t know where this is coming from, but over the last three months, I’ve developed a deep distrust of that same grudging attitude—the intolerance of positions and fortunes that are higher and brighter than one’s own; a fear, too, that I might have been motivated by such feelings in the past, and a sincere hope that if I’m to pass away while still young, it won’t be with that dreadful stain on my soul.’
XXXI
Hyacinth spent three days, after his return to London, in a process which he supposed to be the quest of a lodging; but in reality he was pulling himself together for the business of his livelihood—an effort he found by no means easy or agreeable. As he had told the Princess, he was demoralised, and the perspective of Mr Crookenden’s dirty staircase had never seemed so steep. He lingered on the brink, before he plunged again into Soho; he wished not to go back to the shop till he should be settled, and he delayed to get settled in order not to go back to the shop. He saw no one during this interval, not even Mr Vetch; he waited to call upon the fiddler till he should have the appearance of not coming as a beggar or a borrower—have recovered his employment and be able to give an address, as he had heard Captain Sholto say. He went to South Street—not meaning to go in at once but wishing to look at the house—and there he had the surprise of perceiving a bill of sale in the window of the Princess’s late residence. He had not expected to find her in town (he had heard from her the last time three weeks before, and then she said nothing about her prospects), but he was puzzled by this indication that she had moved away altogether. There was something in this, however, which he felt that at bottom he had looked for; it appeared a proof of the justice of a certain suspicious, uneasy sentiment from which one could never be quite free, in one’s intercourse with the Princess—a vague apprehension that one might suddenly stretch out one’s hand and miss her altogether from one’s side. Hyacinth decided to ring at the door and ask for news of her; but there was no response to his summons: the stillness of an August afternoon (the year had come round again from his first visit) hung over the place, the blinds were down and the caretaker appeared to be absent. Under these circumstances Hyacinth was much at a loss; unless, indeed, he should address a letter to his wonderful friend at Medley. It would doubtless be forwarded, though her short lease of the country-house had terminated, as he knew, several weeks before. Captain Sholto was of course a possible medium of communication; but nothing would have induced Hyacinth to ask such a service of him.
Hyacinth spent three days after getting back to London looking for a place to stay, but really, he was just trying to gather himself for the task of making a living—something he found pretty difficult and unpleasant. As he had mentioned to the Princess, he felt demoralized, and the view of Mr. Crookenden’s filthy staircase felt more daunting than ever. He hesitated on the edge before diving back into Soho; he didn’t want to return to the shop until he felt settled, and he kept putting off getting settled so he wouldn’t have to go back to the shop. During this time, he didn’t see anyone, not even Mr. Vetch; he wanted to visit the fiddler only when he felt like he wasn’t going as a beggar or a borrower—when he had found a job again and could provide an address, as he had heard Captain Sholto mention. He headed to South Street—not planning to enter right away, just wanting to see the place—and was surprised to find a notice of sale in the window of the Princess's former home. He hadn’t expected her to be in town (the last time he heard from her was three weeks ago, and she hadn’t mentioned any plans), but this sign suggested she had completely moved away. However, there was something about it that he realized he had been low-key expecting; it seemed to confirm a certain uneasy feeling he'd had during his interactions with the Princess—a vague worry that one day he might reach out and find her missing from his life. Hyacinth decided to ring the doorbell to ask for news about her, but there was no answer; the quiet of an August afternoon (the year had come full circle since his first visit) hung over the place, the blinds were closed, and the caretaker seemed to be gone. Given this situation, Hyacinth felt quite uncertain, except he could always write a letter to his remarkable friend at Medley. It would surely be forwarded, even though he knew her short lease on the country house had ended several weeks earlier. Captain Sholto could be a possible way to communicate, but nothing could persuade Hyacinth to ask him for that favor.
He turned away from South Street with a curious sinking of the heart; his state of ignorance struck inward, as it were—had the force of a vague, disquieting portent. He went to old Crookenden’s only when he had arrived at his last penny. This, however, was very promptly the case. He had disembarked at London Bridge with only seventeen pence in his pocket, and he had lived on that sum for three days. The old fiddler in Lomax Place was having a chop before he went to the theatre, and he invited Hyacinth to share his repast, sending out at the same time for another pot of beer. He took the youth with him to the play, where, as at that season there were very few spectators, he had no difficulty in finding him a place. He seemed to wish to keep hold of him, and looked at him strangely, over his spectacles (Mr Vetch wore the homely double glass in these latter years), when he learned that Hyacinth had taken a lodging not in their old familiar quarter but in the unexplored purlieus of Westminster. What had determined our young man was the fact that from this part of the town the journey was comparatively a short one to Camberwell; he had suffered so much, before Pinnie’s death, from being separated by such a distance from his best friends. There was a pang in his heart connected with the image of Paul Muniment, but none the less the prospect of an evening hour in Audley Court, from time to time, appeared one of his most definite sources of satisfaction in the future. He could have gone straight to Camberwell to live, but that would carry him too far from the scene of his profession; and in Westminster he was much nearer to old Crookenden’s than he had been in Lomax Place. He said to Mr Vetch that if it would give him pleasure he would abandon his lodging and take another in Pentonville. But the old man replied, after a moment, that he should be sorry to put that constraint upon him; if he were to make such an exaction Hyacinth would think he wanted to watch him.
He turned away from South Street with a strange sinking feeling in his chest; his lack of knowledge felt like a vague, unsettling omen. He only went to old Crookenden’s when he had absolutely no money left. That moment came quickly. He had arrived at London Bridge with only seventeen pence in his pocket, and he managed to survive on that for three days. The old fiddler in Lomax Place was having a meal before heading to the theater, and he invited Hyacinth to join him, ordering another pot of beer at the same time. He brought the young man along to the play, where, since there weren’t many people attending that season, he easily found him a seat. He seemed eager to keep Hyacinth close and looked at him oddly over his glasses (Mr. Vetch wore the simple double lenses in these later years) when he found out that Hyacinth had rented a room not in their old neighborhood but in the uncharted areas of Westminster. What motivated the young man was that from this part of town, the trip to Camberwell was relatively short; he had suffered so much, before Pinnie’s death, from being too far away from his closest friends. There was a pang in his heart connected to the memory of Paul Muniment, but still, the thought of spending an evening in Audley Court from time to time seemed one of his clearest sources of future happiness. He could have moved straight to Camberwell, but that would take him too far from his work; and in Westminster, he was much closer to old Crookenden’s than he had been in Lomax Place. He told Mr. Vetch that if it would make him happy, he would give up his place and find another one in Pentonville. But the old man replied, after a moment, that he wouldn’t want to impose that on him; if he made such a demand, Hyacinth might think he wanted to keep an eye on him.
“How do you mean, to watch me?”
“How do you mean, to keep an eye on me?”
Mr Vetch had begun to tune his fiddle, and he scraped it a little before answering. “I mean it as I have always meant it. Surely you know that in Lomax Place I had my eyes on you. I watched you as a child on the edge of a pond watches the little boat he has constructed and set afloat.”
Mr. Vetch started tuning his fiddle and scraped it a bit before replying. “I mean it just like I always have. You must know that in Lomax Place, I was paying attention to you. I watched you like a child at the edge of a pond watches the little boat he has built and set adrift.”
“You couldn’t discover much. You saw, after all, very little of me,” Hyacinth said.
“You couldn’t learn much. You really saw very little of me,” Hyacinth said.
“I made what I could of that little; it was better than nothing.”
“I made the most of that little; it was better than nothing.”
Hyacinth laid his hand gently on the old man’s arm; he had never felt so kindly to him, not even when he accepted the thirty pounds, before going abroad, as at this moment. “Certainly I will come and see you.”
Hyacinth placed his hand softly on the old man's arm; he had never felt such warmth towards him, not even when he took the thirty pounds before leaving for abroad, as he did at this moment. “Of course I will come and see you.”
“I was much obliged to you for your letters,” Mr Vetch remarked, without heeding these words, and continuing to scrape. He had always, even into the shabbiness of his old age, kept that mark of English good-breeding (which is composed of some such odd elements), that there was a shyness, an aversion to possible phrase-making, in his manner of expressing gratitude for favours, and that in spite of this cursory tone his acknowledgment had ever the accent of sincerity.
“I really appreciated your letters,” Mr. Vetch said, not paying attention to these words, and kept scraping. Even in his old age, despite his shabby appearance, he maintained that sign of English good breeding (which consists of some unusual elements), showing a shyness and a reluctance to come up with flowery phrases when expressing gratitude for favors. Despite his casual tone, his acknowledgment always sounded sincere.
Hyacinth took but little interest in the play, which was an inanimate revival; he had been at the Théâtre Français and the tradition of that house was still sufficiently present to him to make any other style of interpretation appear of the clumsiest. He sat in one of the front stalls, close to the orchestra; and while the piece went forward—or backward, ever backward, as it seemed to him—his thoughts wandered far from the shabby scene and the dusty boards, revolving round a question which had come up immensely during the last few hours. The Princess was a capricciosa—that, at least, was Madame Grandoni’s account of her; and was that blank, expressionless house in South Street a sign that an end had come to the particular caprice in which he had happened to be involved? He had returned to London with an ache of eagerness to be with her again on the same terms as at Medley, a throbbing sense that unless she had been abominably dishonest he might count upon her. This state of mind was by no means complete security, but it was so sweet that it mattered little whether it were sound. Circumstances had favoured in an extraordinary degree his visit to her, and it was by no means clear that they would again be so accommodating or that what had been possible for a few days should be possible with continuity, in the midst of the ceremonies and complications of London. Hyacinth felt poorer than he had ever felt before, inasmuch as he had had money and spent it, whereas in previous times he had never had it to spend. He never for an instant regretted his squandered fortune, for he said to himself that he had made a good bargain and become master of a precious equivalent. The equivalent was a rich experience—an experience which would become richer still as he should talk it over, in a low chair, close to hers, with the all-comprehending, all-suggesting lady of his life. His poverty would be no obstacle to their intercourse so long as he should have a pair of legs to carry him to her door; for she liked him better shabby than when he was furbished up, and she had given him too many pledges, they had taken together too many appointments, worked out too many programmes, to be disconcerted (on either side) by obstacles that were merely a part of the general conventionality. He was to go with her into the slums, to introduce her to the worst that London contained (he should have, precisely, to make acquaintance with it first), to show her the reality of the horrors of which she dreamed that the world might be purged. He had ceased, himself, to care for the slums, and had reasons for not wishing to spend his remnant in the contemplation of foul things; but he would go through with his part of the engagement. He might be perfunctory, but any dreariness would have a gilding that should involve an association with her. What if she should have changed, have ceased to care? What if, from a kind of royal insolence which he suspected to lurk somewhere in the side-scenes of her nature, though he had really not once seen it peep out, she should toss back her perfect head with a movement signifying that he was too basely literal and that she knew him no more? Hyacinth’s imagination represented her this evening in places where a barrier of dazzling light shut her out from access, or even from any appeal. He saw her with other people, in splendid rooms, where ‘the dukes’ had possession of her, smiling, satisfied, surrounded, covered with jewels. When this vision grew intense he found a reassurance in reflecting that after all she would be unlikely to throw him personally over so long as she should remain mixed up with what was being planned in the dark, and that it would not be easy for her to liberate herself from that entanglement. She had of course told him more, at Medley, of the manner in which she had already committed herself, and he remembered, with a strange perverse elation, that she had gone very far indeed.
Hyacinth wasn’t really interested in the play, which felt lifeless to him; he had been to the Théâtre Français, and the tradition of that place was still fresh in his mind, making any other style of performance seem awkward by comparison. He sat in one of the front seats, close to the orchestra, and while the play went on—or seemed to drag backward, as it felt to him—his mind wandered far from the shabby stage and the dusty floor, focusing on a question that had grown significantly in the last few hours. The Princess was a capricciosa—at least, that was how Madame Grandoni described her; and did that empty, expressionless house on South Street indicate that the particular caprice he had been caught up in was over? He had returned to London with a strong desire to be with her again on the same terms as at Medley, feeling deeply that unless she had been incredibly dishonest, he could rely on her. This mindset wasn't complete reassurance, but it felt so nice that it didn’t really matter whether it was justified. Circumstances had significantly favored his visit to her, and it was unclear whether they would remain so accommodating or if what had been possible for a few days could continue amid the routines and complexities of London life. Hyacinth felt poorer than he ever had before, having spent money he had, whereas in the past he had never had any to spend. He never regretted his wasted fortune for a second, telling himself he had made a good deal and gained a valuable equivalent. That equivalent was rich experience—an experience that would get even richer as he talked it over in a low chair, close to hers, with the insightful woman who meant everything to him. His lack of money wouldn’t hinder their connection as long as he could walk to her door; she preferred him looking shabby rather than polished, and she had given him too many promises, they had set too many plans together, to be tossed off (by either of them) by obstacles that were just part of the usual social norms. He was supposed to take her into the slums, to show her the worst parts of London (he would have to familiarize himself with them first), to reveal the harsh realities of the horrors she envisioned might cleanse the world. He had stopped caring about the slums himself and had reasons for not wanting to spend his time revisiting such unpleasantness, but he would uphold his end of the deal. He might approach it half-heartedly, but any gloom would be brightened by the association with her. What if she had changed and stopped caring? What if, out of a kind of royal arrogance he suspected hid within her, though he had never seen it surface, she tossed her beautiful head back dismissively, signaling that he was too ordinary and that she no longer recognized him? Tonight, Hyacinth’s imagination pictured her in places surrounded by dazzling lights where she was unreachable, or even beyond appeal. He saw her with other people, in extravagant rooms, where 'the dukes' surrounded her, smiling, satisfied, adorned with jewels. As this vision intensified, he found comfort in thinking that she would probably not personally disregard him as long as she remained mixed up in the shadowy plans and that it wouldn’t be easy for her to extricate herself from that situation. She had, of course, told him more at Medley about how deeply she had already committed herself, and he remembered, with a strange, twisted thrill, how far she had really gone.
In the intervals of the foolish play Mr Vetch, who lingered in his place in the orchestra while his mates descended into the little hole under the stage, leaned over the rail and asked his young friend occasional questions, carrying his eyes at the same time up about the dingy house, at whose smoky ceiling and tarnished galleries he had been staring for so many a year. He came back to Hyacinth’s letters, and said, “Of course you know they were clever; they entertained me immensely. But as I read them I thought of poor Pinnie: I wished she could have listened to them; they would have made her so happy.”
During the silly play, Mr. Vetch, who stayed behind in the orchestra while his friends went down into the little space under the stage, leaned over the railing and asked his young friend some questions. At the same time, he looked up at the shabby theater, whose grimy ceiling and worn galleries he had been staring at for so many years. He returned to Hyacinth’s letters and said, “Of course you know they were clever; they entertained me a lot. But as I read them, I thought of poor Pinnie: I wished she could have heard them; they would have made her so happy.”
“Yes, poor Pinnie,” Hyacinth murmured, while Mr Vetch went on—
“Yes, poor Pinnie,” Hyacinth said softly, while Mr. Vetch continued—
“I was in Paris in 1840; I stayed at a small hotel in the Rue Mogador. I judge everything is changed, from your letters. Does the Rue Mogador still exist? Yes, everything is changed. I dare say it’s all much finer, but I liked it very much as it was then. At all events, I am right in supposing—am I not?—that it cheered you up considerably, made you really happy.”
“I was in Paris in 1840; I stayed at a small hotel on Rue Mogador. From your letters, I gather that everything has changed. Does Rue Mogador still exist? Yes, everything is different. I bet it’s all much nicer now, but I really liked it the way it was back then. In any case, I’m right in thinking—aren’t I?—that it made you feel a lot better, made you truly happy.”
“Why should I have wanted any cheering? I was happy enough,” Hyacinth replied.
“Why would I want any cheering? I was happy enough,” Hyacinth replied.
The fiddler turned his old white face upon him; it had the unhealthy smoothness which denotes a sedentary occupation, thirty years spent in a close crowd, amid the smoke of lamps and the odour of stage-paint. “I thought you were sad about Pinnie,” he remarked.
The fiddler turned his old pale face toward him; it had the unhealthy smoothness that comes from a lack of movement, thirty years spent in a packed space, surrounded by the smoke of lamps and the smell of stage makeup. “I thought you were upset about Pinnie,” he said.
“When I jumped, with that avidity, at your proposal that I should take a tour? Poor old Pinnie!” Hyacinth added.
"When I eagerly accepted your suggestion that I should take a trip? Poor old Pinnie!" Hyacinth added.
“Well, I hope you think a little better of the world. We mustn’t make up our mind too early in life.”
“Well, I hope you have a slightly more positive view of the world. We shouldn’t judge too quickly in life.”
“Oh, I have made up mine: it’s an awfully jolly place.”
“Oh, I’ve made up my mind: it’s a really fun place.”
“Awfully jolly, no; but I like it as I like an old pair of shoes—I like so much less the idea of putting on the new ones.”
“It's not super cheerful, right; but I like it like I like an old pair of shoes—I really dislike the idea of wearing new ones even more.”
“Why should I complain?” Hyacinth asked. “What have I known but kindness? People have done such a lot for me.”
“Why should I complain?” Hyacinth asked. “What do I know but kindness? People have done so much for me.”
“Oh, well, of course, they have liked you. But that’s all right,” murmured Mr Vetch, beginning to scrape again. What remained in Hyacinth’s mind from this conversation was the fact that the old man, whom he regarded distinctly as cultivated, had thought his letters clever. He only wished that he had made them cleverer still; he had no doubt of his ability to have done so.
“Oh, well, of course, they liked you. But that’s fine,” murmured Mr. Vetch, starting to scrape again. What stuck with Hyacinth from this conversation was the fact that the old man, whom he saw as cultured, thought his letters were clever. He just wished he had made them even cleverer; he had no doubt he could have done that.
It may be imagined whether the first hours he spent at old Crookenden’s, after he took up work again, were altogether to his taste, and what was the nature of the reception given him by his former comrades, whom he found exactly in the same attitudes and the same clothes (he knew and hated every article they wore), and with the same primitive pleasantries on their lips. Our young man’s feelings were mingled; the place and the people appeared to him loathsome, but there was something delightful in handling his tools. He gave a little private groan of relief when he discovered that he still liked his work and that the pleasant swarm of his ideas (in the matter of sides and backs) returned to him. They came in still brighter, more suggestive form, and he had the satisfaction of feeling that his taste had improved, that it had been purified by experience, and that the covers of a book might be made to express an astonishing number of high conceptions. Strange enough it was, and a proof surely, of our little hero’s being a genuine artist, that the impressions he had accumulated during the last few months appeared to mingle and confound themselves with the very sources of his craft and to be susceptible of technical representation. He had quite determined, by this time, to carry on his life as if nothing were hanging over him, and he had no intention of remaining a little bookbinder to the end of his days; for that medium, after all, would translate only some of his conceptions. Yet his trade was a resource, an undiminished resource, for the present, and he had a particular as well as a general motive in attempting new flights—the prevision of the exquisite work which he was to do during the coming year for the Princess and which it was very definite to him he owed her. When that debt should have been paid and his other arrears made up he proposed to himself to write something. He was far from having decided as yet what it should be; the only point settled was that it should be very remarkable and should not, at least on the face of it, have anything to do with a fresh deal of the social pack. That was to be his transition—into literature; to bind the book, charming as the process might be, was after all much less fundamental than to write it. It had occurred to Hyacinth more than once that it would be a fine thing to produce a brilliant death-song.
It’s hard to say whether the first hours he spent at old Crookenden’s after he got back to work were really to his liking, and what kind of welcome he received from his old coworkers, who were still in the same postures and the same clothes (he recognized and disliked every item they wore), and greeted him with the same basic jokes. Our young man felt a mix of emotions; the place and the people struck him as disgusting, yet there was something satisfying about handling his tools. He let out a small sigh of relief when he realized he still enjoyed his work and that the familiar flow of ideas (regarding sides and backs) was coming back to him. They came in even more vivid and inspiring forms, and he felt pleased that his taste had improved, refined by experience, and that the covers of a book could express a surprising number of profound ideas. It was quite strange, and surely a sign that our young hero was a true artist, that the impressions he had gathered over the last few months seemed to blend and confuse themselves with the very roots of his craft and could be represented technically. By this point, he was determined to live as if nothing were looming over him, and he had no plans to remain just a bookbinder for the rest of his life; that role, after all, would only capture some of his ideas. Still, his trade was a resource, an untapped resource for now, and he had both specific and general reasons for exploring new avenues—the anticipation of the exquisite work he was going to create in the coming year for the Princess, a debt he felt he owed her. Once that obligation was fulfilled and his other debts settled, he intended to write something. He hadn’t yet figured out what it would be; the only decision made was that it should be quite remarkable and, at least on the surface, unrelated to a new shuffle of the social scene. That would be his transition—into literature; binding the book, as enjoyable as it might be, was ultimately less essential than writing it. Hyacinth had often thought it would be wonderful to create a brilliant death-song.
It is not surprising that among such reveries as this he should have been conscious of a narrow range in the tone of his old workfellows. They had only one idea: that he had come into a thousand pounds and had gone to spend them in France with a regular high one. He was aware, in advance, of the diffusion of this legend, and did his best to allow for it, taking the simplest course, which was not to contradict it but to catch the ball as it came and toss it still further, enlarging and embroidering humorously until Grugan and Roker and Hotchkin and all the rest, who struck him as not having washed since he left them, seemed really to begin to understand how it was he could have spent such a rare sum in so short a time. The impressiveness of this achievement helped him greatly to slip into his place; he could see that, though the treatment it received was superficially irreverent, the sense that he was very sharp and that the springs of his sharpness were somehow secret gained a good deal of strength from it. Hyacinth was not incapable of being rather pleased that it should be supposed, even by Grugan, Roker and Hotchkin, that he could get rid of a thousand pounds in less than five months, especially as to his own conscience the fact had altogether yet to be proved. He got off, on the whole, easily enough to feel a little ashamed, and he reflected that the men at Crookenden’s, at any rate, showed no symptoms of the social jealousy lying at the bottom of the desire for a fresh deal. This was doubtless an accident, and not inherent in the fact that they were highly skilled workmen (old Crookenden had no others), and therefore sure of constant employment; for it was impossible to be more skilled, in one’s own line, than Paul Muniment was, and yet he (though not out of jealousy, of course) went in for the great restitution. What struck him most, after he had got used again to the sense of his apron and bent his back a while over his battered table, was the simple, synthetic patience of the others, who had bent their backs and felt the rub of that dirty drapery all the while he was lounging in the halls of Medley, dawdling through boulevards and museums, and admiring the purity of the Venetian girl-face. With Poupin, to be sure, his relations were special; but the explanations that he owed the sensitive Frenchman were not such as could make him very unhappy, once he had determined to resist as much as possible the friction of his remaining days. There was moreover more sorrow than anger in Poupin’s face when he learned that his young friend and pupil had failed to cultivate, in Paris, the rich opportunities he had offered him. “You are cooling off, my child; there is something about you! Have you the weakness to flatter yourself that anything has been done, or that humanity suffers a particle less? Enfin, it’s between you and your conscience.”
It's not surprising that amidst such daydreams he became aware of the limited views of his old colleagues. They all had one idea: he had inherited a thousand pounds and went to spend it in France with some fancy lifestyle. He knew this story would spread, so he decided not to contradict it but to go along with it, playing along and adding his own twist until Grugan, Roker, Hotchkin, and the rest, who he thought hadn’t cleaned up since he left, seemed to really grasp how he could have spent such a large amount in such a short time. The impressiveness of this narrative helped him fit in; he could see that although it was treated with casual irreverence, the idea that he was clever and that there was something secret behind his cleverness gained a lot of strength from it. Hyacinth didn’t mind that even Grugan, Roker, and Hotchkin thought he could blow through a thousand pounds in less than five months, especially since he still had to prove that to himself. He mostly got away with it easily enough to feel a bit ashamed, and he thought about how the guys at Crookenden’s showed no signs of the social jealousy usually lurking behind the desire for a new chance. This was likely just a coincidence, not because they were highly skilled workers (old Crookenden only hired the best), and therefore secure in their jobs; it was impossible to be more skilled in his field than Paul Muniment, yet he, not out of jealousy of course, sought the big comeback. What struck him most, after he got used to wearing his apron again and bent his back over his worn table, was the simple, patient endurance of the others, who had been working hard while he had been relaxing in the halls of Medley, strolling through boulevards and museums, and admiring the beauty of the Venetian women. His relationship with Poupin, of course, was special; but the explanations he owed the sensitive Frenchman weren’t enough to make him very unhappy, once he resolved to minimize the strain of his remaining days. Moreover, there was more sadness than anger on Poupin’s face when he found out that his young friend and pupil hadn’t taken advantage of the great opportunities he had presented to him in Paris. “You’re cooling off, my child; there’s something about you! Do you really think anything has been accomplished, or that humanity suffers even a tiny bit less? Finally, it's between you and your conscience.”
“Do you think I want to get out of it?” Hyacinth asked, smiling; Eustache Poupin’s phrases about humanity, which used to thrill him so, having grown of late strangely hollow and rococo.
“Do you think I want to get out of this?” Hyacinth asked, smiling; Eustache Poupin’s remarks about humanity, which used to excite him so much, had lately sounded oddly empty and rococo.
“You owe me no explanations; the conscience of the individual is absolute, except, of course, in those classes in which, from the very nature of the infamies on which they are founded, no conscience can exist. Speak to me, however, of my Paris; she is always divine,” Poupin went on; but he showed signs of irritation when Hyacinth began to praise to him the magnificent creations of the arch-fiend of December. In the presence of this picture he was in a terrible dilemma: he was gratified as a Parisian and a patriot but he was disconcerted as a lover of liberty; it cost him a pang to admit that anything in the sacred city was defective, yet he saw still less his way to concede that it could owe any charm to the perjured monster of the second Empire, or even to the hypocritical, mendacious republicanism of the régime before which the sacred Commune had gone down in blood and fire. “Ah, yes, it’s very fine, no doubt,” he remarked at last, “but it will be finer still when it’s ours!”—a speech which caused Hyacinth to turn back to his work with a slight feeling of sickness. Everywhere, everywhere, he saw the ulcer of envy—the passion of a party which hung together for the purpose of despoiling another to its advantage. In old Eustache, one of the ‘pure’, this was particularly sad.
“You don’t owe me any explanations; each person's conscience is absolute, except, of course, in those cases where, due to the very nature of the wrongs they’re based on, no conscience can exist. Talk to me about my Paris; she is always beautiful,” Poupin continued; but he showed signs of irritation when Hyacinth started praising the impressive creations of the arch-fiend of December. In the face of this image, he was in a terrible bind: he felt pleased as a Parisian and a patriot but was unsettled as a lover of freedom; it hurt him to admit that anything in the sacred city was lacking, yet he found it even harder to accept that it could owe any charm to the treacherous monster of the second Empire, or even to the hypocritical, deceitful republicanism of the regime that had caused the sacred Commune to fall in blood and fire. “Ah, yes, it’s very nice, no doubt,” he finally remarked, “but it will be even nicer when it’s ours!”—a comment that made Hyacinth return to his work feeling slightly sick. Everywhere, he saw the sore of envy—the drive of a group that united to plunder another for its own gain. In old Eustache, one of the ‘pure’, this was especially disheartening.
XXXII
The landing at the top of the stairs in Audley Court was always dark; but it seemed darker than ever to Hyacinth while he fumbled for the door-latch, after he had heard Rose Muniment’s penetrating voice bid him come in. During that instant his ear caught the sound—if it could trust itself—of another voice, which prepared him, a little, for the spectacle that offered itself as soon as the door (his attempt to reach the handle, in his sudden agitation, proving fruitless) was opened to him by Paul. His friend stood there, tall and hospitable, saying something loud and jovial, which he didn’t distinguish. His eyes had crossed the threshold in a flash, but his step faltered a moment, only to obey, however, the vigour of Muniment’s outstretched hand. Hyacinth’s glance had gone straight, and though with four persons in it Rosy’s little apartment looked crowded, he saw no one but the object of his quick preconception—no one but the Princess Casamassima, seated beside the low sofa (the grand feature introduced during his absence from London) on which, arrayed in the famous pink dressing-gown, Miss Muniment now received her visitors. He wondered afterwards why he should have been so startled; for he had said, often enough, both to himself and to the Princess, that so far as she was concerned he was proof against astonishment; it was so evident that, in her behaviour, the unexpected was the only thing to be looked for. In fact, now that he perceived she had made her way to Camberwell without his assistance, the feeling that took possession of him was a kind of embarrassment; he blushed a little as he entered the circle, the fourth member of which was inevitably Lady Aurora Langrish. Was it that his intimacy with the Princess gave him a certain sense of responsibility for her conduct in respect to people who knew her as yet but a little, and that there was something that required explanation in the confidence with which she had practised a descent upon them? It is true that it came over our young man that by this time, perhaps, they knew her a good deal; and moreover a woman’s conduct spoke for itself when she could sit looking, in that fashion, like a radiant angel dressed in a simple bonnet and mantle and immensely interested in an appealing corner of the earth. It took Hyacinth but an instant to perceive that her character was in a different phase from any that had yet been exhibited to him. There had been a brilliant mildness about her the night he made her acquaintance, and she had never ceased, at any moment since, to strike him as an exquisitely human, sentient, pitying organisation; unless it might be, indeed, in relation to her husband, against whom—for reasons, after all, doubtless, very sufficient—her heart appeared absolutely steeled. But now her face looked at him through a sort of glorious charity. She had put off her splendour, but her beauty was unquenchably bright; she had made herself humble for her pious excursion; she had, beside Rosy (who, in the pink dressing-gown, looked much the more luxurious of the two), almost the attitude of a hospital nurse; and it was easy to see, from the meagre line of her garments, that she was tremendously in earnest. If Hyacinth was flurried her own countenance expressed no confusion; for her, evidently, this queer little chamber of poverty and pain was a place in which it was perfectly natural that he should turn up. The sweet, still greeting her eyes offered him might almost have conveyed to him that she had been waiting for him, that she knew he would come and that there had been a tacit appointment for that very moment. They said other things beside, in their beautiful friendliness: they said, ‘Don’t notice me too much, or make any kind of scene. I have an immense deal to say to you, but remember that I have the rest of our life before me to say it in. Consider only what will be easiest and kindest to these people, these delightful people, whom I find enchanting (why didn’t you ever tell me more—I mean really more—about them?). It won’t be particularly complimentary to them if you have the air of seeing a miracle in my presence here. I am very glad of your return. The quavering, fidgety “ladyship” is as fascinating as the others.’
The landing at the top of the stairs in Audley Court was always dark, but it felt even darker to Hyacinth as he fumbled for the door latch after hearing Rose Muniment’s clear voice inviting him in. In that moment, he thought he heard another voice, which prepared him, a little, for the scene that unfolded as soon as the door—his attempt to reach the handle having failed in his sudden agitation—was opened to him by Paul. His friend was standing there, tall and welcoming, saying something loud and cheerful that he couldn’t make out. His eyes had crossed the threshold quickly, but his step hesitated for a moment before responding to Muniment’s enthusiastic greeting. Hyacinth's gaze went straight in, and although Rosy’s small apartment felt crowded with four people in it, he noticed only the focus of his quick assumption—none other than the Princess Casamassima, seated beside the low sofa (the impressive piece introduced during his time away from London), where Miss Muniment was now entertaining her guests in her famous pink dressing gown. He later wondered why he’d been so taken aback; he had often told himself and the Princess that he was immune to surprise where she was concerned, since it was obvious that her behavior was always unpredictable. In fact, now that he realized she had made her way to Camberwell without his help, he felt a wave of embarrassment; he blushed a bit as he joined the group, the fourth member of which was inevitably Lady Aurora Langrish. Was it that his closeness to the Princess gave him a sense of responsibility for how she acted around people who knew her only a little, and that there was something needing clarification about the confidence with which she had decided to join them? It occurred to our young man that by now, perhaps, they knew her quite well; and moreover, a woman’s actions spoke for themselves when she could sit looking, like a radiant angel dressed simply in a bonnet and coat, deeply interested in a charming corner of the world. It took Hyacinth just a moment to realize that her demeanor was in a different phase than anything he had seen before. There had been a bright gentleness about her the night they met, and she had never stopped impressing him as an exquisitely human, sensitive, and compassionate individual—unless it was in relation to her husband, against whom, for surely very good reasons, her heart seemed entirely hardened. But now her face looked at him with a kind of glorious kindness. She had set aside her elegance, but her beauty still shone brightly; she had humbled herself for her charitable mission; next to Rosy (who, in the pink dressing gown, looked far more luxurious), she had taken on almost the role of a hospital nurse; and it was easy to see, from the simplicity of her attire, that she was incredibly serious about it. If Hyacinth felt flustered, her expression showed no confusion; for her, it was clearly perfectly natural that he would appear in this odd little room of modesty and discomfort. The warm, calm look in her eyes could almost have conveyed to him that she had been waiting for him, that she knew he would come, and that there had been an unspoken agreement for this very moment. They communicated other things as well in their shared warmth: they indicated, 'Don’t pay too much attention to me or make a scene. I have so much to say to you, but remember, I have our whole future to say it in. Just think about what will be easiest and kindest for these delightful people, who I find enchanting (why didn’t you ever tell me more—I mean really more—about them?). It wouldn’t be particularly flattering to them if you looked like you were seeing a miracle with me here. I’m very glad you’re back. The jittery, fidgety lady is as fascinating as the rest of them.’
Hyacinth’s reception at the hands of his old friends was cordial enough quite to obliterate the element of irony that had lurked, three months before, in their godspeed; their welcome was not boisterous, but it seemed to express the idea that the occasion was already so rare and agreeable that his arrival was all that was needed to make it perfect. By the time he had been three minutes in the room he was able to measure the impression produced by the Princess, who, it was clear, had thrown a spell of adoration over the little company. This was in the air, in the face of each, in their excited, smiling eyes and heightened colour; even Rosy’s wan grimace, which was at all times screwed up to ecstasy, emitted a supererogatory ray. Lady Aurora looked more than ever dishevelled with interest and wonder; the long strands of her silky hair floated like gossamer, as, in her extraordinary, religious attention (her hands were raised and clasped to her bosom, as if she were praying), her respiration rose and fell. She had never seen any one like the Princess; but Hyacinth’s apprehension, of some months before, had been groundless—she evidently didn’t think her vulgar. She thought her divine, and a revelation of beauty and benignity; and the illuminated, amplified room could contain no dissentient opinion. It was her beauty, primarily, that ‘fetched’ them, Hyacinth could easily see, and it was not hidden from him that the sensation was as active in Paul Muniment as in his companions. It was not in Paul’s nature to be jerkily demonstrative, and he had not lost his head on the present occasion; but he had already appreciated the difference between one’s preconception of a meretricious, factitious fine lady and the actual influence of such a personage. She was gentler, fairer, wiser, than a chemist’s assistant could have guessed in advance. In short, she held the trio in her hand (she had reduced Lady Aurora to exactly the same simplicity as the others), and she performed, admirably, artistically, for their benefit. Almost before Hyacinth had had time to wonder how she had found the Muniments out (he had no recollection of giving her specific directions), she mentioned that Captain Sholto had been so good as to introduce her; doing so as if she owed him that explanation and were a woman who would be scrupulous in such a case. It was rather a blow to him to hear that she had been accepting the Captain’s mediation, and this was not softened by her saying that she was too impatient to wait for his own return; he was apparently so happy on the Continent that one couldn’t be sure it would ever take place. The Princess might at least have been sure that to see her again very soon was still more necessary to his happiness than anything the Continent could offer.
Hyacinth's reception by his old friends was friendly enough to completely erase the irony that had hung in the air three months earlier during their farewell; their welcome wasn't over the top, but it felt like the occasion was already so special and enjoyable that his arrival was all it needed to be perfect. By the time he had spent three minutes in the room, he could gauge the effect the Princess had on the little group, who, it was clear, had fallen under her spell. This feeling permeated the room, visible in everyone’s faces, in their excited, smiling eyes, and their flushed cheeks; even Rosy's pale grimace, which was always twisted in joy, radiated an extra sparkle. Lady Aurora looked more disheveled than ever, captivated by interest and wonder; her long, silky hair floated around her like gossamer as she focused intently (her hands were raised and clasped to her chest, as if in prayer), and her breathing was rhythmic. She had never seen anyone like the Princess, but Hyacinth's earlier fears had been unfounded—she clearly didn't view her as common. She saw her as divine, a revelation of beauty and kindness; and the bright, ample room echoed this unanimous sentiment. It was her beauty, first and foremost, that captivated them, Hyacinth could easily tell, and he realized that the feeling was just as strong in Paul Muniment as among his friends. Paul wasn't the type to be overly demonstrative, and he didn’t lose his composure this time; but he had already recognized the difference between a preconceived notion of a shallow, artificial beauty and the real-life impact of such a person. She was gentler, fairer, and wiser than a chemist's assistant could have imagined. In short, she had them all wrapped around her finger (she had reduced Lady Aurora to the same simplicity as the rest), and she performed wonderfully, almost artistically, for their enjoyment. Before Hyacinth had a chance to question how she had discovered the Muniments (since he had no memory of giving her specific directions), she mentioned that Captain Sholto had kindly introduced her; she said this as if she owed him that explanation and was the kind of woman who would be careful in such matters. It hit him hard to learn that she had accepted the Captain's help, and it didn’t ease the sting when she said she was too eager to wait for his own return; she suggested he seemed so happy on the Continent that one couldn’t be sure he would ever come back. The Princess could at least have recognized that seeing her again very soon was even more essential to his happiness than anything the Continent could provide.
It came out in the conversation he had with her, to which the others listened with respectful curiosity, that Captain Sholto had brought her a week before, but then she had seen only Miss Muniment. “I took the liberty of coming again, by myself, to-day, because I wanted to see the whole family,” the Princess remarked, looking from Paul to Lady Aurora, with a friendly gaiety in her face which purified the observation (as regarded her ladyship) of impertinence. The Princess added, frankly, that she had now been careful to arrive at an hour when she thought Mr Muniment might be at home. “When I come to see gentlemen, I like at least to find them,” she continued, and she was so great a lady that there was no small diffidence in her attitude; it was a simple matter for her to call on a chemist’s assistant, if she had a reason. Hyacinth could see that the reason had already been brought forward—her immense interest in problems that Mr Muniment had completely mastered, and in particular their common acquaintance with the extraordinary man whose mission it was to solve them. Hyacinth learned later that she had pronounced the name of Hoffendahl. A part of the lustre in Rosy’s eye came no doubt from the explanation she had inevitably been moved to make in respect to any sympathy with wicked theories that might be imputed to her; and of course the effect of this intensely individual little protest (such was always its effect), emanating from the sofa and the pink dressing-gown, was to render the Muniment interior still more quaint and original. In that spot Paul always gave the go-by, humorously, to any attempt to draw out his views, and you would have thought, to hear him, that he allowed himself the reputation of having them only in order to get a ‘rise’ out of his sister and let their visitors see with what wit and spirit she could repudiate them. This, however, would only be a reason the more for the Princess’s following up her scent. She would doubtless not expect to get at the bottom of his ideas in Audley Court; the opportunity would occur, rather, in case of his having the civility (on which surely she might count) to come and talk them over with her in her own house.
During their conversation, which the others listened to with respectful curiosity, it came up that Captain Sholto had brought her a week ago, but she had only met Miss Muniment then. “I took the liberty of coming back today on my own because I wanted to meet the whole family,” the Princess said, looking from Paul to Lady Aurora with a friendly smile that made her seem less rude, at least regarding her ladyship. The Princess went on to say that she had made sure to arrive at a time when she thought Mr. Muniment would be home. “When I visit gentlemen, I like to at least find them,” she continued, and she carried herself with such grace that even her high status made her appear approachable; it would be easy for her to drop by a chemist’s assistant if she had a reason to do so. Hyacinth sensed that the reason she was there was her strong interest in the topics that Mr. Muniment had fully explored, especially their shared connection to the remarkable man dedicated to addressing those issues. Hyacinth later learned that she had mentioned the name Hoffendahl. Part of the brightness in Rosy’s eyes undoubtedly came from the explanation she felt compelled to give about any sympathy with dubious theories that could be attributed to her; and naturally, this highly personal little protest (which always had this effect), coming from the sofa and the pink dressing-gown, made the Muniment home feel even more unique and original. In that setting, Paul humorously avoided any attempts to share his opinions, and you might think that he pretended to hold them just to provoke his sister and show their guests how witty and spirited she could be in rejecting them. However, this would only give the Princess more reason to pursue her curiosity. She likely didn’t expect to fully understand his views at Audley Court; rather, the chance would arise if he had the courtesy (which she could surely count on) to visit her and discuss them in her own home.
Hyacinth mentioned to her the disappointment he had had in South Street, and she replied, “Oh, I have given up that house, and taken quite a different one.” But she didn’t say where it was, and in spite of her having given him so much the right to expect she would communicate to him a matter so nearly touching them both as a change of address, he felt a great shyness about asking.
Hyacinth told her about his disappointment on South Street, and she replied, “Oh, I’ve given up that house and moved to a completely different one.” But she didn’t say where it was, and even though she had made him feel like she should share something so important to both of them, like a change of address, he felt too shy to ask.
Their companions watched them as if they considered that something rather brilliant, now, would be likely to come off between them; but Hyacinth was too full of regard to the Princess’s tacit notification to him that they must not appear too thick, which was after all more flattering than the most pressing inquiries or the most liberal announcements about herself could have been. She never asked him when he had come back; and indeed it was not long before Rose Muniment took that business upon herself. Hyacinth, however, ventured to assure himself whether Madame Grandoni were still with the Princess, and even to remark (when she had replied, “Oh yes, still, still. The great refusal, as Dante calls it, has not yet come off”), “You ought to bring her to see Miss Rosy. She is a person Miss Rosy would particularly appreciate.”
Their friends watched them like they thought something pretty exciting would happen between them; but Hyacinth was too aware of the Princess’s subtle hint that they shouldn’t seem too close, which was actually more flattering than any of her direct questions or generous comments about herself could have been. She never asked him when he had returned; and soon enough, Rose Muniment took care of that. Hyacinth, however, dared to check if Madame Grandoni was still with the Princess, and even pointed out (when she replied, “Oh yes, still, still. The big refusal, as Dante calls it, hasn't happened yet”), “You should bring her to see Miss Rosy. She’s someone Miss Rosy would really appreciate.”
“I am sure I should be most happy to receive any friend of the Princess Casamassima,” said this young lady, from the sofa; and when the Princess answered that she certainly would not fail to produce Madame Grandoni some day, Hyacinth (though he doubted whether the presentation would really take place) guessed how much she wished her old friend might have heard the strange bedizened little invalid make that speech.
“I’m sure I would be really happy to meet any friend of Princess Casamassima,” said the young lady from the sofa. When the Princess replied that she definitely wouldn’t forget to introduce Madame Grandoni one day, Hyacinth (even though he wasn’t sure the introduction would actually happen) imagined how much she hoped her old friend could have heard the odd-looking little invalid say that.
There were only three other seats, for the introduction of the sofa (a question so profoundly studied in advance) had rendered necessary the elimination of certain articles; so that Muniment, on his feet, hovered round the little circle, with his hands in his pockets, laughing freely and sociably but not looking at the Princess; though, as Hyacinth was sure, he was none the less agitated by her presence.
There were only three other seats because the addition of the sofa (a question that had been carefully considered beforehand) required the removal of some items; so Muniment, standing, moved around the small circle, with his hands in his pockets, laughing openly and friendly but not looking at the Princess; although, as Hyacinth was sure, he was still stirred by her presence.
“You ought to tell us about foreign parts and the grand things you have seen; except that, doubtless, our distinguished visitor knows all about them,” Muniment said to Hyacinth. Then he added, “Surely, at any rate, you have seen nothing more worthy of your respect than Camberwell.”
“You should tell us about other places and the amazing things you’ve seen; except, of course, our special guest probably knows all about them,” Muniment said to Hyacinth. Then he added, “Surely, at the very least, you haven’t seen anything more deserving of your respect than Camberwell.”
“Is this the worst part?” the Princess asked, looking up with her noble, interested face.
"Is this the worst part?" the Princess asked, looking up with her noble, curious expression.
“The worst, madam? What grand ideas you must have! We admire Camberwell immensely.”
“The worst, ma'am? What big ideas you must have! We think highly of Camberwell.”
“It’s my brother’s ideas that are grand!” cried Rose Muniment, betraying him conscientiously. “He does want everything changed, no less than you, Princess; though he is more cunning than you, and won’t give one a handle where one can take him up. He thinks all this part most objectionable—as if dirty people won’t always make everything dirty where they live! I dare say he thinks there ought to be no dirty people, and it may be so; only if every one was clean, where would be the merit? You would get no credit for keeping yourself tidy. At any rate, if it’s a question of soap and water, every one can begin by himself. My brother thinks the whole place ought to be as handsome as Brompton.”
“It’s my brother’s ideas that are grand!” Rose Muniment exclaimed, throwing him under the bus. “He wants everything to change, just like you, Princess; but he’s sneakier than you and won’t give anyone a reason to call him out. He thinks this part is totally unacceptable—as if messy people won’t always make everything messy wherever they are! I’m sure he believes there shouldn’t be any messy people at all, and maybe that’s true; but if everyone were clean, where would the achievement be? You wouldn’t get any credit for keeping yourself tidy. Anyway, if it’s about soap and water, everyone can start with themselves. My brother thinks the whole place should look as nice as Brompton.”
“Ah, yes, that’s where the artists and literary people live, isn’t it?” asked the Princess, attentively.
“Ah, yes, that’s where the artists and literary folks live, isn’t it?” asked the Princess, attentively.
“I have never seen it, but it’s very well laid out,” Rosy rejoined, with her competent air.
“I’ve never seen it, but it’s really well organized,” Rosy replied, with her confident demeanor.
“Oh, I like Camberwell better than that,” said Muniment, hilariously.
“Oh, I like Camberwell more than that,” said Muniment, laughing.
The Princess turned to Lady Aurora, and with the air of appealing to her for her opinion gave her a glance which travelled in a flash from the topmost bow of her large, misfitting hat to the crumpled points of her substantial shoes. “I must get you to tell me the truth,” she murmured. “I want so much to know London—the real London. It seems so difficult!”
The Princess turned to Lady Aurora and, in a way that suggested she was asking for her opinion, gave her a quick look that swept from the awkward top of her oversized hat to the crumpled toes of her sturdy shoes. “I need you to tell me the truth,” she whispered. “I really want to understand London—the real London. It feels so complicated!”
Lady Aurora looked a little frightened, but at the same time gratified, and after a moment she responded, “I believe a great many artists live in St John’s Wood.”
Lady Aurora looked a little scared, but at the same time pleased, and after a moment she replied, “I think a lot of artists live in St John’s Wood.”
“I don’t care about the artists!” the Princess exclaimed, shaking her head, slowly, with the sad smile which sometimes made her beauty so inexpressibly touching.
“I don’t care about the artists!” the Princess exclaimed, shaking her head slowly, with the sad smile that sometimes made her beauty so incredibly touching.
“Not when they have painted you such beautiful pictures?” Rosy demanded. “We know about your pictures—we have admired them so much. Mr Hyacinth has described to us your precious possessions.”
“Not when they’ve created such beautiful paintings of you?” Rosy asked. “We know about your paintings—we’ve admired them so much. Mr. Hyacinth has told us about your valuable treasures.”
The Princess transferred her smile to Rosy, and rested it on that young lady’s shrunken countenance with the same ineffable head-shake. “You do me too much honour. I have no possessions.”
The Princess passed her smile to Rosy and held it on the young lady’s thin face with the same unexplainable head-shake. “You give me too much credit. I own nothing.”
“Gracious, was it all a make-believe?” Rosy cried, flashing at Hyacinth an eye that was never so eloquent as when it demanded an explanation.
“Wow, was it all just pretend?” Rosy exclaimed, giving Hyacinth a look that was never so expressive as when she wanted an answer.
“I have nothing in the world—nothing but the clothes on my back!” the Princess repeated, very gravely, without looking at the young man.
“I have nothing in the world—nothing but the clothes on my back!” the Princess said again, very seriously, without looking at the young man.
The words struck him as an admonition, so that, though he was much puzzled, he made no attempt, for the moment, to reconcile the contradiction. He only replied, “I meant the things in the house. Of course I didn’t know whom they belonged to.”
The words felt like a warning to him, so even though he was very confused, he didn’t try to resolve the contradiction right then. He just answered, “I meant the stuff in the house. Of course, I didn’t know who they belonged to.”
“There are no things in my house now,” the Princess went on; and there was a touch of pure, high resignation in the words.
“There’s nothing in my house now,” the Princess continued; and there was a hint of true, deep acceptance in her words.
“Laws, I shouldn’t like that!” Rose Muniment declared, glancing, with complacency, over her own decorated walls. “Everything here belongs to me.”
“Laws, I wouldn’t want that!” Rose Muniment said, looking with satisfaction at her own decorated walls. “Everything here is mine.”
“I shall bring Madame Grandoni to see you,” said the Princess, irrelevantly but kindly.
“I'll bring Madame Grandoni to see you,” said the Princess, unrelatedly but kindly.
“Do you think it’s not right to have a lot of things about?” Lady Aurora, with sudden courage, queried of her distinguished companion, pointing her chin at her but looking into the upper angle of the room.
“Do you think it’s wrong to have so many things around?” Lady Aurora asked boldly, turning to her distinguished companion, pointing her chin at her while gazing at the upper corner of the room.
“I suppose one must always settle that for one’s self. I don’t like to be surrounded with objects I don’t care for; and I can care only for one thing—that is, for one class of things—at a time. Dear lady,” the Princess went on, “I fear I must confess to you that my heart is not in bibelots. When thousands and tens of thousands haven’t bread to put in their mouths, I can dispense with tapestry and old china.” And her fair face, bent charmingly, conciliatingly, on Lady Aurora, appeared to argue that if she was narrow at least she was candid.
“I guess you always have to figure that out for yourself. I don’t like being surrounded by things I don’t care about, and I can only truly care about one thing — or rather, one type of thing — at a time. Dear lady,” the Princess continued, “I’m afraid I have to admit that my heart isn’t in bibelots. When countless people are struggling to find bread to eat, I can do without tapestries and antique china.” And her lovely face, charmingly and amicably turned toward Lady Aurora, seemed to suggest that while she might be a bit narrow-minded, at least she was honest.
Hyacinth wondered, rather vulgarly, what strange turn she had taken, and whether this singular picture of her denuded personality were not one of her famous caprices, a whimsical joke, a nervous perversity. Meanwhile, he heard Lady Aurora urge, anxiously, “But don’t you think we ought to make the world more beautiful?”
Hyacinth thought, rather crudely, about what odd twist she had gone through, and whether this unusual view of her exposed self was just one of her well-known whims, a quirky joke, or a nervous quirk. In the meantime, he heard Lady Aurora anxiously say, “But don’t you think we should make the world more beautiful?”
“Doesn’t the Princess make it so by the mere fact of her existence?” Hyacinth demanded; his perplexity escaping, in a harmless manner, through this graceful hyperbole. He had observed that, though the lady in question could dispense with old china and tapestry, she could not dispense with a pair of immaculate gloves, which fitted her like a charm.
“Doesn’t the Princess make it happen just by being who she is?” Hyacinth asked, his confusion slipping out in a playful exaggeration. He had noticed that, although the woman in question could do without the antique china and tapestries, she couldn’t go without a perfect pair of gloves that fit her beautifully.
“My people have a mass of things, you know, but I have really nothing myself,” said Lady Aurora, as if she owed this assurance to such a representative of suffering humanity.
“My people have a ton of stuff, you know, but I really have nothing myself,” said Lady Aurora, as if she needed to assure such a representative of suffering humanity.
“The world will be beautiful enough when it becomes good enough,” the Princess resumed. “Is there anything so ugly as unjust distinctions, as the privileges of the few contrasted with the degradation of the many? When we want to beautify, we must begin at the right end.”
“The world will be beautiful enough when it becomes good enough,” the Princess continued. “Is there anything as ugly as unfair distinctions, as the privileges of a few compared to the struggles of the many? When we want to create beauty, we need to start from the right place.”
“Surely there are none of us but what have our privileges!” Rose Muniment exclaimed, with eagerness. “What do you say to mine, lying here between two members of the aristocracy, and with Mr Hyacinth thrown in?”
“Surely, none of us can deny our privileges!” Rose Muniment exclaimed eagerly. “What do you think about mine, sitting here between two members of the aristocracy, and with Mr. Hyacinth added in?”
“You are certainly lucky—with Lady Aurora Langrish. I wish she would come and see me,” the Princess murmured, getting up.
“You're really lucky—with Lady Aurora Langrish. I wish she would come and see me,” the Princess said softly as she got up.
“Do go, my lady, and tell me if it’s so poor!” Rosy went on, gaily.
“Please go, my lady, and let me know if it’s really that bad!” Rosy continued, cheerfully.
“I think there can’t be too many pictures and statues and works of art,” Hyacinth broke out. “The more the better, whether people are hungry or not. In the way of ameliorating influences, are not those the most definite?”
“I believe there can't be too many pictures, statues, and works of art,” Hyacinth exclaimed. “The more, the better, regardless of whether people are hungry or not. When it comes to positive influences, aren't those the most clear-cut?”
“A piece of bread and butter is more to the purpose, if your stomach’s empty,” the Princess declared.
“A piece of bread and butter is more relevant if you're hungry,” the Princess declared.
“Robinson has been corrupted by foreign influences,” Paul Muniment suggested. “He doesn’t care for bread and butter now; he likes French cookery.”
“Robinson has been corrupted by outside influences,” Paul Muniment suggested. “He doesn’t care about basic needs anymore; he prefers French cuisine.”
“Yes, but I don’t get it. And have you sent away the little man, the Italian, with the white cap and apron?” Hyacinth asked of the Princess.
“Yes, but I don’t understand. And have you sent away the little guy, the Italian, with the white cap and apron?” Hyacinth asked the Princess.
She hesitated a moment, and then she replied, laughing, and not in the least offended at his question, though it was an attempt to put her in the wrong from which Hyacinth had not been able to refrain, in his astonishment at these ascetic pretensions, “I have sent him away many times!”
She paused for a moment, then replied with a laugh, not at all offended by his question, even though it was an attempt to catch her off guard that Hyacinth couldn’t help but make, given his surprise at these strict beliefs. “I've sent him away many times!”
Lady Aurora had also got up: she stood there gazing at her beautiful fellow-visitor with a timidity which made her wonder only more apparent. “Your servants must be awfully fond of you,” she said.
Lady Aurora had also gotten up: she stood there gazing at her beautiful fellow guest with a shyness that made her wonder even more obvious. “Your staff must really adore you,” she said.
“Oh, my servants!” murmured the Princess, as if it were only by a stretch of the meaning of the word that she could be said to enjoy the ministrations of menials. Her manner seemed to imply that she had a charwoman for an hour a day. Hyacinth caught the tone, and determined that since she was going, as it appeared, he would break off his own visit and accompany her. He had flattered himself, at the end of three weeks of Medley, that he knew her in every phase, but here was a field of freshness. She turned to Paul Muniment and put out her hand to him, and while he took it in his own his face was visited by the most beautiful eyes that had ever rested there. “Will you come and see me, one of these days?” she asked, with a voice as sweet and clear as her glance.
“Oh, my servants!” the Princess murmured, as if it were only by a stretch of the word that she could say she appreciated the help of staff. Her expression suggested that she had a cleaner for just an hour a day. Hyacinth picked up on her tone and decided that since she was leaving, he would cut his visit short and go with her. He had convinced himself, after three weeks of being around her, that he understood her completely, but this felt like new territory. She turned to Paul Muniment and reached out her hand to him, and as he took it, his face was graced by the most beautiful eyes that had ever looked at him. “Will you come and see me, one of these days?” she asked, with a voice as sweet and clear as her gaze.
Hyacinth waited for Paul’s answer with an emotion that could only be accounted for by his affectionate sympathy, the manner in which he had spoken of him to the Princess and which he wished him to justify, the interest he had in his appearing, completely, the fine fellow he believed him. Muniment neither stammered nor blushed; he held himself straight, and looked back at his interlocutress with an eye almost as crystalline as her own. Then, by way of answer, he inquired, “Well, madam, pray what good will it do me?” And the tone of the words was so humorous and kindly, and so instinct with a plain manly sense, that though they were not gallant Hyacinth was not ashamed for him. At the same moment he observed that Lady Aurora was watching their friend as if she had at least an equal stake in what he might say.
Hyacinth waited for Paul’s response with an emotion that could only be explained by his warm sympathy, the way he had spoken about him to the Princess, and his wish for him to prove himself worthy of that praise. He was invested in Paul fully showing himself to be the great guy he believed him to be. Muniment neither stuttered nor flushed; he stood tall and met her gaze with eyes almost as clear as hers. Then, in response, he asked, “Well, madam, what good will it do me?” The tone of his words was so humorous and friendly, filled with straightforward, masculine sense, that even though they weren’t particularly charming, Hyacinth wasn’t embarrassed for him. At the same time, he noticed that Lady Aurora was observing their friend as if she had just as much at stake in what he might say.
“Ah, none; only me, perhaps, a little.” With this rejoinder, and with a wonderful sweet, indulgent dignity, in which there was none of the stiffness of pride or resentment, the Princess quitted him and approached Lady Aurora. She asked her if she wouldn’t do her the kindness to come. She should like so much to know her, and she had an idea there was a great deal they might talk about. Lady Aurora said she should be delighted, and the Princess took one of her cards out of her pocket and gave it to the noble spinster. After she had done so she stood a moment holding her hand, and remarked, “It has really been such a happiness to me to meet you. Please don’t think it’s very clumsy if I say I do like you so!” Lady Aurora was evidently exceedingly moved and impressed; but Rosy, when the Princess took farewell of her, and the irrepressible invalid had assured her of the pleasure with which she should receive her again, admonished her that in spite of this she could never conscientiously enter into such theories.
“Ah, none; just me, maybe, a little.” With this response, and a wonderful sweet, indulgent grace, without any trace of pride or resentment, the Princess left him and walked over to Lady Aurora. She asked her if she would be kind enough to join her. She was really eager to get to know her, and she thought there was a lot they could talk about. Lady Aurora said she would be delighted, and the Princess took one of her cards out of her pocket and handed it to the noble spinster. After doing so, she paused for a moment, holding her hand, and said, “It has truly been such a joy to meet you. Please don’t think it’s awkward if I say I do like you so!” Lady Aurora was clearly very touched and impressed; but Rosy, when the Princess said goodbye to her, and the unstoppable invalid assured her of the pleasure with which she would welcome her again, reminded her that despite this, she could never honestly subscribe to such theories.
“If every one was equal,” she asked, “where would be the gratification I feel in getting a visit from a grandee? That’s what I have often said to her ladyship, and I consider that I’ve kept her in her place a little. No, no; no equality while I’m about the place!”
“If everyone was equal,” she asked, “where would be the satisfaction I get from a visit from an important person? That’s what I’ve often told her ladyship, and I believe I’ve kept her in her place a bit. No, no; no equality while I’m around!”
The company appeared to comprehend that there was a natural fitness in Hyacinth’s seeing the great lady on her way, and accordingly no effort was made to detain him. He guided her, with the help of an attendant illumination from Muniment, down the dusky staircase, and at the door of the house there was a renewed brief leave-taking with the young chemist, who, however, showed no signs of relenting or recanting in respect to the Princess’s invitation. The warm evening had by this time grown thick, and the population of Audley Court appeared to be passing it, for the most part, in the open air. As Hyacinth assisted his companion to thread her way through groups of sprawling, chattering children, gossiping women with bare heads and babies at the breast, and heavily-planted men smoking very bad pipes, it seemed to him that their project of exploring the slums was already in the way of execution. He said nothing till they had gained the outer street, and then, pausing a moment, he inquired how she would be conveyed. Had she a carriage somewhere, or should he try and get a cab?
The company seemed to understand that it made sense for Hyacinth to see the great lady off, so they didn’t try to keep him. He guided her, with a little help from Muniment’s light, down the dark staircase, and at the door of the house, they quickly said goodbye to the young chemist, who still showed no signs of softening or changing his mind about the Princess’s invitation. By this time, the warm evening had become heavy, and the people of Audley Court appeared to be spending most of it outside. As Hyacinth helped his companion navigate through groups of sprawled-out, chattering children, gossiping women with uncovered heads and babies in their arms, and heavily built men smoking really bad pipes, it felt to him like their plan to explore the slums was already in motion. He said nothing until they reached the outer street, then paused for a moment and asked how she would be getting home. Did she have a carriage nearby, or should he try to find a cab?
“A carriage, my dear fellow? For what do you take me? I won’t trouble you about a cab: I walk everywhere now.”
“A carriage, my friend? What do you think I am? I won’t bother you about a cab: I walk everywhere these days.”
“But if I had not been here?”
“But what if I hadn’t been here?”
“I should have gone alone,” said the Princess, smiling at him through the turbid twilight of Camberwell.
“I should have gone alone,” said the Princess, smiling at him through the murky twilight of Camberwell.
“And where, please, gracious heaven? I may at least have the honour of accompanying you.”
“And where, please, gracious heaven? I can at least have the honor of accompanying you.”
“Certainly, if you can walk so far.”
“Sure, if you can walk that far.”
“So far as what, dear Princess?”
“So far as what, dear Princess?”
“As Madeira Crescent, Paddington.”
“As Madeira Crescent, Paddington.”
“Madeira Crescent, Paddington?” Hyacinth stared.
“Madeira Crescent, Paddington?” Hyacinth gaped.
“That’s what I call it when I’m with people with whom I wish to be fine, like you. I have taken a small house there.”
“That’s what I call it when I’m with people I want to get along with, like you. I’ve rented a cozy little house there.”
“Then it’s really true that you have given up your beautiful things?”
“Then it’s really true that you’ve given up your beautiful stuff?”
“I have sold them all, to give to the poor.”
“I’ve sold everything to give to those in need.”
“Ah, Princess!” the young man almost moaned; for the memory of some of her treasures was vivid within him.
“Ah, Princess!” the young man almost groaned; for the memory of some of her treasures was fresh in his mind.
She became very grave, even stern, and with an accent of reproach that seemed to show she had been wounded where she was most sensitive, she demanded, “When I said I was willing to make the last sacrifice, did you then believe I was lying?”
She became serious, even stern, and with a tone of reproach that made it clear she had been hurt in her most sensitive spots, she asked, “When I said I was willing to make the ultimate sacrifice, did you really think I was lying?”
“Haven’t you kept anything?” Hyacinth went on, without heeding this challenge.
“Haven’t you kept anything?” Hyacinth continued, ignoring this challenge.
She looked at him a moment. “I have kept you!” Then she took his arm, and they moved forward. He saw what she had done; she was living in a little ugly, bare, middle-class house and wearing simple gowns; and the energy and good faith of her behaviour, with the abruptness of the transformation, took away his breath. “I thought I should please you so much,” she added, after they had gone a few steps. And before he had time to reply, as they came to a part of the street where there were small shops, those of butchers, greengrocers and pork-pie men, with open fronts, flaring lamps and humble purchasers, she broke out, joyously, “Ah, this is the way I like to see London!”
She looked at him for a moment. “I’ve kept you!” Then she took his arm, and they moved forward. He noticed what she had done; she was living in a small, plain, middle-class house and wearing simple dresses; the energy and sincerity of her actions, along with the suddenness of the change, left him speechless. “I thought I would make you really happy,” she added after they had walked a few steps. And before he could respond, as they reached a part of the street filled with small shops—butchers, greengrocers, and pork-pie vendors—with open fronts, bright lamps, and modest customers, she exclaimed happily, “Ah, this is how I love to see London!”
XXXIII
The house in Madeira Crescent was a low, stucco-fronted edifice, in a shabby, shallow semicircle, and Hyacinth could see, as they approached it, that the window-place in the parlour (which was on a level with the street-door) was ornamented by a glass case containing stuffed birds and surmounted by an alabaster Cupid. He was sufficiently versed in his London to know that the descent in the scale of the gentility was almost immeasurable for a person who should have moved into that quarter from the neighbourhood of Park Lane. The street was not squalid, and it was strictly residential; but it was mean and meagre and fourth-rate, and had in the highest degree that paltry, parochial air, that absence of style and elevation, which is the stamp of whole districts of London and which Hyacinth had already more than once mentally compared with the high-piled, important look of the Parisian perspective. It possessed in combination every quality which should have made it detestable to the Princess; it was almost as bad as Lomax Place. As they stopped before the narrow, ill-painted door, on which the number of the house was marked with a piece of common porcelain, cut in a fanciful shape, it appeared to Hyacinth that he had felt, in their long walk, the touch of the passion which led his companion to divest herself of her superfluities, but that it would take the romantic out of one’s heroism to settle one’s self in such a mesquin, Philistine row. However, if the Princess had wished to mortify the flesh she had chosen an effective means of doing so, and of mortifying the spirit as well. The long light of the gray summer evening was still in the air, and Madeira Crescent wore a soiled, dusty expression. A hand-organ droned in front of a neighbouring house, and the cart of the local washerwoman, to which a donkey was harnessed, was drawn up opposite. The local children, as well, were dancing on the pavement, to the music of the organ, and the scene was surveyed, from one of the windows, by a gentleman in a dirty dressing-gown, smoking a pipe, who made Hyacinth think of Mr Micawber. The young man gave the Princess a deep look, before they went into the house, and she smiled, as if she understood everything that was passing in his mind.
The house on Madeira Crescent was a low, stucco-fronted building in a rundown, shallow semicircle. As they got closer, Hyacinth noticed that the parlor window (which was level with the front door) was decorated with a glass case holding stuffed birds, topped by an alabaster Cupid. He was familiar enough with London to realize that moving to this area from Park Lane would be a significant drop in social status. The street wasn’t rundown, and it was definitely residential, but it felt small-time and second-rate, lacking the style and sophistication that characterized many parts of London. Hyacinth had often compared this dreary atmosphere to the impressive views of Paris. It had every quality that would make it unbearable for the Princess; it was nearly as bad as Lomax Place. As they stood in front of the narrow, poorly painted door, marked with a piece of ordinary porcelain shaped fancifully to indicate the house number, Hyacinth sensed that during their long walk, he had absorbed some of the passion that inspired his companion to shed her excesses, but he also felt that settling in such a petty, Philistine area would strip the romance from any heroism. Still, if the Princess wanted to practice self-denial, she had chosen an effective way to do it—and it would be a blow to the spirit, too. The long light of the gray summer evening still lingered in the air, and Madeira Crescent seemed worn and dusty. A street musician played a hand-organ in front of a nearby house, while the local washerwoman's cart, pulled by a donkey, was parked across the street. Local kids danced on the sidewalk to the organ music, observed by a man in a dirty bathrobe smoking a pipe from one of the windows, who reminded Hyacinth of Mr. Micawber. Before they entered the house, the young man gave the Princess a meaningful look, and she smiled, as if she understood everything that was going through his mind.
The long, circuitous walk with her, from the far-away south of London, had been strange and delightful; it reminded Hyacinth, more queerly than he could have expressed, of some of the rambles he had taken on summer evenings with Millicent Henning. It was impossible to resemble this young lady less than the Princess resembled her, but in her enjoyment of her unwonted situation (she had never before, on a summer’s evening—to the best of Hyacinth’s belief, at least—lost herself in the unfashionable districts on the arm of a seedy artisan) the distinguished personage exhibited certain coincidences with the shop-girl. She stopped, as Millicent had done, to look into the windows of vulgar establishments, and amused herself with picking out abominable objects that she should like to possess; selecting them from a new point of view, that of a reduced fortune and the domestic arrangements of the ‘lower middle class’, deriving extreme diversion from the idea that she now belonged to that aggrieved body. She was in a state of light, fresh, sociable exhilaration which Hyacinth had hitherto, in the same degree, not seen in her, and before they reached Madeira Crescent it had become clear to him that her present phase was little more than a brilliant tour de force, which he could not imagine her keeping up long, for the simple reason that after the novelty and strangeness of the affair had passed away she would not be able to endure the contact of so much that was common and ugly. For the moment her discoveries in this line diverted her, as all discoveries did, and she pretended to be sounding, in a scientific spirit—that of the social philosopher, the student and critic of manners—the depths of British Philistia. Hyacinth was struck, more than ever, with the fund of life that was in her, the energy of feeling, the high, free, reckless spirit. These things expressed themselves, as the couple proceeded, in a hundred sallies and droll proposals, kindling the young man’s pulses and making him conscious of the joy with which, in any extravagance, he would bear her company to the death. She appeared to him, at this moment, to be playing with life so audaciously and defiantly that the end of it all would inevitably be some violent catastrophe.
The long, winding walk with her, from the distant south of London, had been strange and delightful; it oddly reminded Hyacinth of some of the strolls he had taken on summer evenings with Millicent Henning. It was impossible for this young lady to be less like the Princess than she was, but in her enjoyment of her unusual situation (she had never before, on a summer evening—to the best of Hyacinth’s knowledge—lost herself in the lower-class neighborhoods with a shabby artisan), the distinguished person showed some similarities to the shop girl. She stopped, as Millicent had done, to look into the windows of tacky stores and amused herself by picking out hideous items she’d like to own; seeing them from a new perspective, that of a limited budget and the living conditions of the ‘lower middle class,’ she found great amusement in the idea that she now belonged to that put-upon group. She was in a light, fresh, sociable high that Hyacinth had never seen in her before, and by the time they reached Madeira Crescent, it was clear to him that her current state was little more than a brilliant tour de force, which he couldn't imagine her maintaining for long, simply because after the novelty wore off, she wouldn’t be able to stand being around so much that was common and ugly. For now, her discoveries in this area entertained her, as all discoveries did, and she pretended to be exploring, in a scientific spirit—that of a social philosopher, a student and critic of manners—the depths of British Philistia. Hyacinth was struck, more than ever, by the vibrancy within her, the intensity of her feelings, and her high, free, reckless spirit. These qualities expressed themselves, as they moved along, in a hundred witty comments and playful suggestions, igniting the young man’s excitement and making him aware of the joy with which he would accompany her in any adventure until the end. At that moment, she seemed to be playing with life so boldly and defiantly that it felt like the outcome would inevitably be some catastrophic event.
She desired exceedingly that Hyacinth should take her to a music-hall or a coffee-tavern; she even professed a curiosity to see the inside of a public-house. As she still had self-possession enough to remember that if she stayed out beyond a certain hour Madame Grandoni would begin to worry about her, they were obliged to content themselves with the minor ‘lark’, as the Princess was careful to designate their peep into an establishment, glittering with polished pewter and brass, which bore the name of the ‘Happy Land’. Hyacinth had feared that she would be nervous after the narrow, befingered door had swung behind her, or that, at all events, she would be disgusted at what she might see and hear in such a place and would immediately wish to retreat. By good luck, however, there were only two or three convivial spirits in occupancy, and the presence of the softer sex was apparently not so rare as to excite surprise. The softer sex, furthermore, was embodied in a big, hard, red woman, the publican’s wife, who looked as if she were in the habit of dealing with all sorts and mainly interested in seeing whether even the finest put down their money before they were served. The Princess pretended to ‘have something’, and to admire the ornamentation of the bar; and when Hyacinth asked her in a low tone what disposal they should make, when the great changes came, of such an embarrassing type as that, replied, off-hand, “Oh, drown her in a barrel of beer!” She professed, when they came out, to have been immensely interested in the ‘Happy Land’, and was not content until Hyacinth had fixed an evening on which they might visit a music-hall together. She talked with him, largely, by fits and starts, about his adventures abroad and his impressions of France and Italy; breaking off, suddenly, with some irrelevant but almost extravagantly appreciative allusion to Rose Muniment and Lady Aurora; then returning with a question as to what he had seen and done, the answer to which, however, in many cases, she was not at pains to wait for. Yet it implied that she had paid considerable attention to what he told her that she should be able to say, towards the end, with that fraternising frankness which was always touching because it appeared to place her at one’s mercy, to show that she counted on one’s having an equal loyalty, “Well, my dear friend, you have not wasted your time; you know everything, you have missed nothing; there are lots of things you can tell me, and we shall have some famous talks in the winter evenings.” This last reference was apparently to the coming season, and there was something in the tone of quiet friendship with which it was uttered, and which seemed to involve so many delightful things, something that, for Hyacinth, bound them still closer together. To live out of the world with her that way, lost among the London millions, in a queer little cockneyfied retreat, was a refinement of intimacy, and better even than the splendid chance he had enjoyed at Medley.
She really wanted Hyacinth to take her to a music hall or a coffee shop; she even claimed she was curious to see the inside of a pub. Since she still had enough self-control to remember that if she stayed out too late, Madame Grandoni would start to worry about her, they had to settle for a smaller ‘lark,’ as the Princess carefully referred to their visit to a place shining with polished metal that was called the ‘Happy Land’. Hyacinth had worried that she would feel anxious after the narrow, grimy door closed behind her or that she would be disgusted by what she might see and hear in such a place and would immediately want to leave. Fortunately, though, there were only a couple of cheerful patrons inside, and the presence of women didn’t seem so rare as to cause surprise. The women were represented by a large, rough-looking, red-faced woman, the pub owner’s wife, who seemed used to dealing with all kinds of people and was mainly interested in making sure even the best dressed paid before being served. The Princess pretended to be interested in the decor of the bar, and when Hyacinth quietly asked her what they should do about such an awkward figure when the big changes came, she casually replied, “Oh, drown her in a barrel of beer!” She claimed, when they left, that she had found the ‘Happy Land’ immensely interesting and wouldn’t rest until Hyacinth set a date for them to go to a music hall together. She chatted with him intermittently about his travels and his thoughts on France and Italy; she would suddenly break off with some off-topic but overly enthusiastic mention of Rose Muniment and Lady Aurora, only to come back with another question about what he had seen and done, though often she didn’t wait for his answer. Still, it showed she had taken considerable notice of what he shared, since she was able to say, towards the end, with that friendly honesty that was always touching because it seemed to put her in a vulnerable position, “Well, my dear friend, you haven’t wasted your time; you know everything, you’ve missed nothing; you have a lot to tell me, and we’re going to have some great conversations on winter evenings.” This last comment seemed to refer to the upcoming season, and there was something in her tone of quiet friendship that suggested many delightful experiences ahead, something that, for Hyacinth, drew them even closer together. Living out of the world with her like this, lost among the millions in London, in a quirky little neighborhood retreat, felt like a unique form of intimacy and was even better than the splendid opportunity he had experienced at Medley.
They found Madame Grandoni sitting alone in the twilight, very patient and peaceful, and having, after all, it was clear, accepted the situation too completely to fidget at such a trifle as her companion’s not coming home at a ladylike hour. She had placed herself in the back part of the tawdry little drawing-room, which looked into a small, smutty garden, and from the front window, which was open, the sound of the hurdy-gurdy and the voices of the children, who were romping to its music, came in to her through the summer dusk. The influence of London was there, in a kind of mitigated, far-away hum, and for some reason or other, at that moment, the place, to Hyacinth, took on the semblance of the home of an exile—a spot and an hour to be remembered with a throb of fondness in some danger or sorrow of after years. The old lady never moved from her chair as she saw the Princess come in with the little bookbinder, and her eyes rested on Hyacinth as familiarly as if she had seen him go out with her in the afternoon. The Princess stood before Madame Grandoni a moment, smiling. “I have done a great thing. What do you think I have done?” she asked, as she drew off her gloves.
They found Madame Grandoni sitting alone in the twilight, very patient and serene, having clearly accepted the situation so completely that she didn't fidget over the fact that her companion hadn't returned home at a proper hour. She had positioned herself in the back of the shabby little drawing-room, which overlooked a small, dirty garden. From the open front window, the sounds of the street musicians and the laughter of children playing to the music drifted in through the summer dusk. The influence of London was present, creating a distant, muted buzz, and for some reason, at that moment, the place felt to Hyacinth like the home of an exile—a time and place he would remember fondly during some future hardship or sorrow. The old lady remained in her chair as she watched the Princess enter with the little bookbinder, her gaze resting on Hyacinth as if she had seen him leave with her earlier in the day. The Princess stood before Madame Grandoni for a moment, smiling. “I’ve accomplished something big. Can you guess what it is?” she asked, as she took off her gloves.
“God knows! I have ceased to think!” said the old woman, staring up, with her fat, empty hands on the arms of her chair.
“God knows! I’ve stopped thinking!” said the old woman, looking up, with her plump, empty hands resting on the arms of her chair.
“I have come on foot from the far south of London—how many miles? four or five—and I’m not a particle tired.”
“I’ve walked here from the far south of London—how many miles? Four or five—and I’m not the least bit tired.”
“Che forza, che forza!” murmured Madame Grandoni. “She will knock you up, completely,” she added, turning to Hyacinth with a kind of customary compassion.
What strength, what strength! murmured Madame Grandoni. “She’s going to exhaust you completely,” she added, turning to Hyacinth with a kind of familiar sympathy.
“Poor darling, she misses the carriage,” Christina remarked, passing out of the room.
“Poor thing, she misses the carriage,” Christina said, walking out of the room.
Madame Grandoni followed her with her eyes, and Hyacinth thought he perceived a considerable lassitude, a plaintive bewilderment and hébétement, in the old woman’s face. “Don’t you like to use cabs—I mean hansoms?” he asked, wishing to say something comforting to her.
Madame Grandoni watched her closely, and Hyacinth thought he noticed a significant tiredness, a sad confusion, and hébétement in the old woman's face. “Don’t you like taking cabs—I mean hansoms?” he asked, wanting to say something reassuring to her.
“It is not true that I miss anything; my life is only too full,” she replied. “I lived worse than this—in my bad days.” In a moment she went on: “It’s because you are here—she doesn’t like Assunta to come.”
“It’s not true that I miss anything; my life is just too full,” she said. “I’ve lived through worse than this—during my tough days.” After a moment, she continued, “It’s because you’re here—she doesn’t want Assunta to come.”
“Assunta—because I am here?” Hyacinth did not immediately catch her meaning.
“Assunta—am I here for a reason?” Hyacinth didn’t get her meaning right away.
“You must have seen her Italian maid at Medley. She has kept her, and she’s ashamed of it. When we are alone Assunta comes for her bonnet. But she likes you to think she waits on herself.”
“You must have seen her Italian maid at Medley. She’s still got her, and she feels embarrassed about it. When we're alone, Assunta comes to get her bonnet. But she wants you to think she does everything for herself.”
“That’s a weakness—when she’s so strong! And what does Assunta think of it?” Hyacinth asked, looking at the stuffed birds in the window, the alabaster Cupid, the wax flowers on the chimney-piece, the florid antimacassars on the chairs, the sentimental engravings on the walls—in frames of papier-mâché and ‘composition’, some of them enveloped in pink tissue-paper—and the prismatic glass pendants which seemed attached to everything.
“That’s a weakness—when she’s so strong! And what does Assunta think of it?” Hyacinth asked, looking at the stuffed birds in the window, the alabaster Cupid, the wax flowers on the mantelpiece, the elaborate antimacassars on the chairs, the sentimental engravings on the walls—in frames of papier-mâché and ‘composition’, some of them wrapped in pink tissue paper—and the prismatic glass pendants that seemed attached to everything.
“She says, ‘What on earth will it matter to-morrow?’”
“She says, ‘What on earth will it matter tomorrow?’”
“Does she mean that to-morrow the Princess will have her luxury back again? Hasn’t she sold all her beautiful things?”
“Does she mean that tomorrow the Princess will have her luxury back again? Hasn’t she sold all her beautiful things?”
Madame Grandoni was silent a moment. “She has kept a few. They are put away.”
Madame Grandoni was quiet for a moment. “She has saved a few. They’re put away.”
“A la bonne heure!” cried Hyacinth, laughing. He sat down with the ironical old woman; he spent nearly half an hour in desultory conversation with her, before candles were brought in, and while Christina was in Assunta’s hands. He noticed how resolutely the Princess had withheld herself from any attempt to sweeten the dose she had taken it into her head to swallow, to mitigate the ugliness of her vulgar little house. She had respected its horrible idiosyncrasies, and left, rigidly, in their places the gimcracks which found favour in Madeira Crescent. She had flung no draperies over the pretentious furniture and disposed no rugs upon the staring carpet; and it was plainly her theory that the right way to acquaint one’s self with the sensations of the wretched was to suffer the anguish of exasperated taste. Presently a female servant came in—not the sceptical Assunta, but a stunted young woman of the maid-of-all-work type, the same who had opened the door to the pair a short time before—and informed Hyacinth that the Princess wished him to understand that he was expected to remain to tea. He learned from Madame Grandoni that the custom of an early dinner, followed in the evening by the frugal repast of the lower orders, was another of Christina’s mortifications; and when, shortly afterwards, he saw the table laid in the back parlour, which was also the dining-room, and observed the nature of the crockery with which it was decorated, he perceived that whether or no her earnestness were durable, it was at any rate, for the time, intense. Madame Grandoni narrated to him, definitely, as the Princess had done only in scraps, the history of the two ladies since his departure from Medley, their relinquishment of that fine house and the sudden arrangements Christina had made to change her mode of life, after they had been only ten days in South Street. At the climax of the London season, in a society which only desired to treat her as one of its brightest ornaments, she had retired to Madeira Crescent, concealing her address (with only partial success, of course) from every one, and inviting a celebrated curiosity-monger to come and look at her bibelots and tell her what he would give her for the lot. In this manner she had parted with them at a fearful sacrifice. She had wished to avoid the nine days’ wonder of a public sale; for, to do her justice, though she liked to be original she didn’t like to be notorious, an occasion of vulgar chatter. What had precipitated her determination was a remonstrance received from her husband, just after she left Medley, on the subject of her excessive expenditure; he had written to her that it was past a joke (as she had appeared to consider it), and that she must really pull up. Nothing could gall her more than an interference on that head (she maintained that she knew the exact figure of the Prince’s income, and that her allowance was an insignificant part of it), and she had pulled up with a vengeance, as Hyacinth perceived. The young man divined on this occasion one of the Princess’s sharpest anxieties (he had never thought of it before), the danger of Casamassima’s really putting the screw on—attempting to make her come back and live with him by withholding supplies altogether. In this case she would find herself in a very tight place, though she had a theory that if she should go to law about the matter the courts would allow her a separate maintenance. This course, however, it would scarcely be in her character to adopt; she would be more likely to waive her right and support herself by lessons in music and the foreign tongues, supplemented by the remnant of property that had come to her from her mother. That she was capable of returning to the Prince some day, through not daring to face the loss of luxury, was an idea that could not occur to Hyacinth, in the midst of her assurances, uttered at various times, that she positively yearned for a sacrifice; and such an apprehension was less present to him than ever as he listened to Madame Grandoni’s account of the manner in which her rupture with the fashionable world had been effected. It must be added that the old lady remarked, with a sigh, that she didn’t know how it would all end, as some of Christina’s economies were very costly; and when Hyacinth pressed her a little she went on to say that it was not at present the question of complications arising from the Prince that troubled her most, but the fear that Christina was seriously compromised by her reckless, senseless correspondences—letters arriving from foreign countries, from God knew whom (Christina never told her, nor did she desire it), all about uprisings and liberations (of so much one could be sure) and other matters that were no concern of honest folk. Hyacinth scarcely knew what Madame Grandoni meant by this allusion, which seemed to show that, during the last few months, the Princess had considerably extended her revolutionary connection: he only thought of Hoffendahl, whose name, however, he was careful not to pronounce, and wondered whether his hostess had been writing to the Master to intercede for him, to beg that he might be let off. His cheeks burned at the thought, but he contented himself with remarking to Madame Grandoni that their extraordinary friend enjoyed the sense of danger. The old lady wished to know how she would enjoy the hangman’s rope (with which, du train dont elle allait, she might easily make acquaintance); and when he expressed the hope that she didn’t regard him as a counsellor of imprudence, replied, “You, my poor child? Oh, I saw into you at Medley. You are a simple codino!”
“Good timing!” Hyacinth exclaimed, laughing. He sat down with the sarcastic old woman and spent nearly half an hour chatting with her before the candles were brought in, while Christina was with Assunta. He noticed how determined the Princess was to not try to soften the harshness of her crude little house. She had respected its awful quirks and left the tacky decorations that were favored in Madeira Crescent untouched. She hadn’t draped any fabrics over the gaudy furniture or placed any rugs on the glaring carpet; clearly, her theory was that the best way to understand the feelings of the miserable was to endure the pain of bad taste. Soon, a female servant entered—not the skeptical Assunta, but a short young woman of the maid-of-all-work type, the same one who had opened the door for them earlier—and told Hyacinth that the Princess wanted him to know he was expected to stay for tea. He learned from Madame Grandoni that Christina’s early dinner custom, followed by the humble meal of the lower class, was another of her self-imposed hardships. And when he later saw the table set in the back parlor, which doubled as the dining room, and noticed the type of dishes it was adorned with, he realized that whether her seriousness would last or not, it was certainly intense for the moment. Madame Grandoni clearly explained the story of the two ladies since his departure from Medley, their giving up that nice house, and the sudden changes Christina had made to her lifestyle just ten days after they had moved to South Street. At the peak of the London season, in a society that only wanted to treat her as one of its most dazzling figures, she had retreated to Madeira Crescent, partially hiding her address from everyone and inviting a well-known curiosity-seeker to come look at her bibelots and tell her what he would pay for them all. This way, she had let them go at a huge loss. She wanted to avoid the nine days of public gossip that a public sale would bring; to be fair to her, although she liked being original, she didn’t want to be infamous, a subject of vulgar talk. What had hastened her decision was a complaint from her husband, delivered right after she had left Medley, about her excessive spending; he had written to her that it was no longer a joke (as she seemed to think), and that she really had to rein it in. Nothing bothered her more than interference on that front (she insisted she knew exactly how much income the Prince had and that her allowance was a tiny part of it), and she had pulled back dramatically, as Hyacinth observed. The young man realized on this occasion one of the Princess’s biggest worries (he had never thought of it before)—the risk that Casamassima might really tighten the screws on her, trying to make her return and live with him by completely cutting off her money. In such a case, she would find herself in a very difficult position, even though she believed that if she went to court over it, the legal system would grant her a separate maintenance. However, it was hardly in her character to take such an approach; she would be more likely to forgo her right and support herself through music lessons and teaching foreign languages, along with the remaining property her mother had left her. The idea that she might someday return to the Prince, out of fear of losing a luxurious lifestyle, never crossed Hyacinth's mind, especially in light of her assurances, given at various times, that she truly longed for a sacrifice; and such a concern was less on his mind than ever as he listened to Madame Grandoni share how her break from high society had unfolded. It should be noted that the old woman sighed as she remarked that she had no idea how it would all turn out, as some of Christina’s savings were incredibly costly; and when Hyacinth pressed her a bit, she continued saying that right now, the complications arising from the Prince didn’t trouble her the most, but the worry that Christina was seriously compromised by her reckless, foolish correspondences—letters arriving from abroad, from who knows whom (Christina never told her, nor did she want to), all about uprisings and liberations (that much one could be sure of) and other matters that were not any concern of decent people. Hyacinth barely understood what Madame Grandoni meant by this remark, which seemed to imply that over the past few months, the Princess had significantly expanded her revolutionary connections: he only thought of Hoffendahl, whose name, however, he was careful not to mention, and wondered if his hostess had been writing to the Master to plead for him, to ask that he be let off. His cheeks burned at the thought, but he settled for telling Madame Grandoni that their extraordinary friend reveled in the sense of danger. The old lady wanted to know how she would enjoy the hangman’s rope (with which, in the manner she was going, she could easily get acquainted); and when he expressed hope that she didn’t see him as a promoter of recklessness, she replied, “You, my poor child? Oh, I saw right through you at Medley. You are a simple codino!”
The Princess came in to tea in a very dull gown, with a bunch of keys at her girdle; and nothing could have suggested the thrifty housewife better than the manner in which she superintended the laying of the cloth and the placing on it of a little austere refreshment—a pile of bread and butter, flanked by a pot of marmalade and a morsel of bacon. She filled the teapot out of a little tin canister locked up in a cupboard, of which the key worked with difficulty, and made the tea with her own superb hands; taking pains, however, to explain to Hyacinth that she was far from imposing that régime on Madame Grandoni, who understood that the grocer had a standing order to supply her, for her private consumption, with any delicacy she might desire. For herself, she had never been so well as since she had followed a homely diet. On Sundays they had muffins, and sometimes, for a change, a smoked haddock, or even a fried sole. Hyacinth was lost in adoration of the Princess’s housewifely ways and of the exquisite figure that she made as a little bourgeoise; judging that if her attempt to combine plain living with high thinking were all a comedy, at least it was the most finished entertainment she had yet offered him. She talked to Madame Grandoni about Lady Aurora; described her with much drollery, even to the details of her dress; declared that she was a delightful creature and one of the most interesting persons she had seen for an age; expressed to Hyacinth the conviction that she should like her exceedingly, if Lady Aurora would only believe a little in her. “But I shall like her, whether she does or not,” said the Princess. “I always know when that’s going to happen; it isn’t so common. She will begin very well with me, and be ‘fascinated’—isn’t that the way people begin with me?—but she won’t understand me at all, or make out in the least what kind of a queer fish I am, though I shall try to show her. When she thinks she does, at last, she will give me up in disgust, and will never know that she has understood me quite wrong. That has been the way with most of the people I have liked; they have run away from me à toutes jambes. Oh, I have inspired aversions!” laughed the Princess, handing Hyacinth his cup of tea. He recognised it by the aroma as a mixture not inferior to that of which he had partaken at Medley. “I have never succeeded in knowing any one who would do me good; for by the time I began to improve, under their influence, they could put up with me no longer.”
The Princess walked in for tea wearing a very plain dress, with a bunch of keys on her belt; and nothing suggested the thrifty housewife better than the way she oversaw the setting of the table and the placing of a simple spread—a stack of bread and butter, alongside a pot of marmalade and a piece of bacon. She poured the tea from a small tin canister locked in a cupboard, which was tough to unlock, and made the tea with her own skilled hands; making sure to explain to Hyacinth that she wasn’t pushing that routine on Madame Grandoni, who knew that the grocer had a regular order to supply her, for her personal use, with any delicacy she wanted. For herself, she had never felt better since she started following a simple diet. On Sundays, they had muffins, and sometimes, just to mix things up, they’d enjoy smoked haddock, or even fried sole. Hyacinth was completely captivated by the Princess’s domestic skills and the charming figure she cut as a little bourgeoise; thinking that if her attempt to combine plain living with high ideals was just a show, at least it was the best act she had presented to him so far. She chatted with Madame Grandoni about Lady Aurora; described her with great humor, even detailing her outfit; proclaimed her to be a delightful person and one of the most interesting individuals she had encountered in ages; and conveyed to Hyacinth her belief that she would really like her, if only Lady Aurora would believe a little in her. “But I’ll like her, whether she does or not,” said the Princess. “I always know when that’s coming; it’s not so common. She’ll start off very well with me and be ‘fascinated’—isn’t that how people usually begin with me?—but she won’t have a clue who I really am, even though I’ll try to show her. When she thinks she finally gets it, she’ll end up giving up on me in disgust, and she’ll never realize she completely misunderstood me. That’s how it’s been with most of the people I’ve liked; they’ve run away from me à toutes jambes. Oh, I have inspired aversions!” laughed the Princess, handing Hyacinth his cup of tea. He recognized it by the smell as a blend just as good as what he had enjoyed at Medley. “I’ve never succeeded in connecting with anyone who would really help me; by the time I started to improve under their influence, they couldn’t stand me anymore.”
“You told me you were going to visit the poor. I don’t understand what your Gräfin was doing there,” said Madame Grandoni.
“You told me you were going to see the less fortunate. I don’t get what your Countess was doing there,” said Madame Grandoni.
“She had come out of charity—in the same way as I. She evidently goes about immensely over there; I shall entreat her to take me with her.”
“She had come out of kindness—just like me. She obviously has a lot of influence over there; I’ll ask her to take me along with her.”
“I thought you had promised to let me be your guide, in those explorations,” Hyacinth remarked.
“I thought you promised to let me be your guide in those explorations,” Hyacinth said.
The Princess looked at him a moment. “Dear Mr Robinson, Lady Aurora knows more than you.”
The Princess stared at him for a moment. “Dear Mr. Robinson, Lady Aurora knows more than you do.”
“There have been times, surely, when you have complimented me on my knowledge.”
"There have definitely been times when you've praised me for my knowledge."
“Oh, I mean more about the lower classes!” the Princess exclaimed; and, oddly enough, there was a sense in which Hyacinth was unable to deny the allegation. He presently returned to something she had said a moment before, declaring that it had not been the way with Madame Grandoni and him to take to their heels, and to this she replied, “Oh, you’ll run away yet; don’t be afraid!”
“Oh, I mean more about the lower classes!” the Princess exclaimed; and strangely enough, Hyacinth found it hard to deny her claim. He soon brought up something she had mentioned a moment earlier, saying that he and Madame Grandoni hadn’t just run away, to which she replied, “Oh, you’ll run away eventually; don’t worry!”
“I think that if I had been capable of quitting you I should have done it by this time; I have neglected such opportunities,” the old lady sighed. Hyacinth now perceived that her eye had quite lost its ancient twinkle; she was troubled about many things.
“I think that if I could have walked away from you, I would have by now; I’ve passed up so many chances,” the old lady sighed. Hyacinth now noticed that her eye had lost its former sparkle; she was worried about many things.
“It is true that if you didn’t leave me when I was rich, it wouldn’t look well for you to leave me at present,” the Princess suggested; and before Madame Grandoni could reply to this speech she said to Hyacinth, “I liked the man, your friend Muniment, so much for saying he wouldn’t come to see me. ‘What good would it do him,’ poor fellow? What good would it do him, indeed? You were not so difficult: you held off a little and pleaded obstacles, but one could see you would come down,” she continued, covering her guest with her mystifying smile. “Besides, I was smarter then, more splendid; I had on gewgaws and suggested worldly lures. I must have been more attractive. But I liked him for refusing,” she repeated; and of the many words she uttered that evening it was these that made most impression on Hyacinth. He remained for an hour after tea, for on rising from the table she had gone to the piano (she had not deprived herself of this resource, and had a humble instrument, of the so-called ‘cottage’ kind) and begun to play in a manner that reminded him of her playing the day of his arrival at Medley. The night had grown close, and as the piano was in the front room he opened, at her request, the window that looked into Madeira Crescent. Beneath it assembled the youth of both sexes, the dingy loiterers who had clustered an hour before around the hurdy-gurdy. But on this occasion they did not caper about; they remained still, leaning against the area-rails and listening to the wondrous music. When Hyacinth told the Princess of the spell she had thrown upon them she declared that it made her singularly happy; she added that she was really glad, almost proud, of her day; she felt as if she had begun to do something for the people. Just before he took leave she encountered some occasion for saying to him that she was certain the man in Audley Court wouldn’t come; and Hyacinth forbore contradict her, because he believed that in fact he wouldn’t.
“It’s true that if you didn’t leave me when I was rich, it wouldn’t look good for you to leave me now,” the Princess suggested. Before Madame Grandoni could respond, she turned to Hyacinth, “I really liked your friend Muniment for saying he wouldn’t come to see me. ‘What good would it do him?’ poor guy? What good would it do him, really? You weren’t so hard to read: you played hard to get for a bit and made excuses, but it was clear you’d eventually give in,” she continued, flashing her enigmatic smile at him. “Besides, I was more charming back then; I was dressed up and had worldly appeal. I must have been more captivating. But I liked him for refusing,” she emphasized again, and of all the things she said that evening, those words stuck with Hyacinth the most. He stayed for an hour after tea, and when she got up from the table, she went to the piano — she hadn’t given up this pastime and had a simple instrument of the ‘cottage’ type — and started playing in a way that reminded him of her performance on the day he arrived at Medley. The evening had become warm, and since the piano was in the front room, he opened the window looking out onto Madeira Crescent at her request. Below, a group of young people had gathered, the same dingy loiterers who had been around the hurdy-gurdy an hour earlier. But this time they weren’t dancing; they stood still, leaning against the area rails, listening to the enchanting music. When Hyacinth told the Princess about the spell she had cast on them, she said it made her unusually happy. She added that she was truly glad, almost proud of her day; she felt like she had started to do something for the people. Just before he left, she found a moment to tell him that she was sure the man in Audley Court wouldn’t come, and Hyacinth held back from contradicting her because he believed he really wouldn’t.
XXXIV
How right she had been to say that Lady Aurora would probably be fascinated at first was proved the first time Hyacinth went to Belgrave Square, a visit he was led to pay very promptly, by a deep sense of the obligations under which her ladyship had placed him at the time of Pinnie’s death. The circumstances in which he found her were quite the same as those of his visit the year before; she was spending the unfashionable season in her father’s empty house, amid a desert of brown holland and the dormant echoes of heavy conversation. He had seen so much of her during Pinnie’s illness that he felt (or had felt then) that he knew her almost intimately—that they had become real friends, almost comrades, and might meet henceforth without reserves or ceremonies; yet she was as fluttered and awkward as she had been on the other occasion: not distant, but entangled in new coils of shyness and apparently unmindful of what had happened to draw them closer. Hyacinth, however, always liked extremely to be with her, for she was the person in the world who quietly, delicately, and as a matter of course treated him most like a gentleman. She had never said the handsome, flattering things to him that had fallen from the lips of the Princess, and never explained to him her view of him; but her timid, cursory, receptive manner, which took all sorts of equalities for granted, was a homage to the idea of his refinement. It was in this manner that she now conversed with him on the subject of his foreign travels; he found himself discussing the political indications of Paris and the Ruskinian theories of Venice, in Belgrave Square, quite like one of the cosmopolites bred in that region. It took him, however, but a few minutes to perceive that Lady Aurora’s heart was not in these considerations; the deferential smile she bent upon him, while she sat with her head thrust forward and her long hands clasped in her lap, was slightly mechanical, her attitude perfunctory. When he gave her his views of some of the arrière-pensées of M. Gambetta (for he had views not altogether, as he thought, deficient in originality), she did not interrupt, for she never interrupted; but she took advantage of his first pause to say, quickly, irrelevantly, “Will the Princess Casamassima come again to Audley Court?”
How right she was to say that Lady Aurora would probably be intrigued at first was proven the first time Hyacinth went to Belgrave Square, a visit he felt compelled to make quickly, due to the debt of gratitude he owed her ladyship after Pinnie’s death. The situation he found her in was just like his visit the year before; she was spending the off-season in her father’s vacant house, surrounded by a dull atmosphere and lingering echoes of serious conversations. He had spent so much time with her during Pinnie’s illness that he believed (or had believed then) that they had gotten to know each other almost intimately—that they had become real friends, almost comrades, and could now meet without any barriers or formalities. Yet she seemed just as flustered and awkward as she had before: not distant, but caught up in new layers of shyness and seemingly unaware of what had brought them closer. However, Hyacinth always enjoyed being with her, because she was the person who quietly, delicately, and naturally treated him most like a gentleman. She had never said the flattering, charming things that the Princess had expressed, nor had she shared her perspective on him; but her shy, brief, and receptive manner, which assumed all kinds of qualities about him, was a tribute to his refinement. This was how she now engaged him in conversation about his travels; he found himself discussing the political happenings in Paris and the ideas of Ruskin about Venice, in Belgrave Square, just like one of the cosmopolitan locals. However, it took him only a few minutes to realize that Lady Aurora wasn’t really invested in these topics; the polite smile she offered him, while she sat with her head tilted forward and her long hands clasped in her lap, felt a bit mechanical, and her posture seemed routine. When he shared his thoughts on some of the underlying agendas of M. Gambetta (which he believed were not entirely lacking in originality), she didn’t interrupt, since she never interrupted; but she took advantage of his first pause to quickly and irrelevantly ask, “Will the Princess Casamassima come again to Audley Court?”
“I have no doubt she will come again, if they would like her to.”
"I’m sure she’ll come back if they want her to."
“I do hope she will. She is very wonderful,” Lady Aurora continued.
“I really hope she will. She’s amazing,” Lady Aurora continued.
“Oh, yes, she is very wonderful. I think she gave Rosy pleasure,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, yes, she’s really amazing. I think she brought Rosy happiness,” said Hyacinth.
“Rosy can talk of nothing else. It would really do her great good to see the Princess again. Don’t you think she is different from anybody that one has ever seen?” But her ladyship added, before waiting for an answer to this, “I liked her quite extraordinarily.”
“Rosy can’t stop talking about it. It would really help her a lot to see the Princess again. Don’t you think she’s different from anyone else you’ve ever seen?” But her ladyship added, without waiting for a response, “I liked her a lot.”
“She liked you just as much. I know it would give her great pleasure if you should go to see her.”
“She liked you just as much. I know it would make her really happy if you went to visit her.”
“Fancy!” exclaimed Lady Aurora; but she instantly obtained the Princess’s address from Hyacinth, and made a note of it in a small, shabby book. She mentioned that the card the Princess had given her in Camberwell proved to contain no address, and Hyacinth recognised that vagary—the Princess was so off-hand. Then she said, hesitating a little, “Does she really care for the poor?”
“Wow!” exclaimed Lady Aurora; but she quickly got the Princess’s address from Hyacinth and wrote it down in a small, worn-out notebook. She mentioned that the card the Princess had given her in Camberwell didn’t have an address on it, and Hyacinth recognized that quirk—the Princess was so casual. Then she said, hesitating a little, “Does she actually care about the poor?”
“If she doesn’t,” the young man replied, “I can’t imagine what interest she has in pretending to.”
“If she doesn’t,” the young man replied, “I can’t imagine why she would bother pretending to.”
“If she does, she’s very remarkable—she deserves great honour.”
“If she does, she’s really impressive—she deserves a lot of respect.”
“You really care; why is she more remarkable than you?” Hyacinth demanded.
“You actually care; what makes her more special than you?” Hyacinth asked.
“Oh, it’s very different—she’s so wonderfully attractive!” Lady Aurora replied, making, recklessly, the only allusion to the oddity of her own appearance in which Hyacinth was destined to hear her indulge. She became conscious of it the moment she had spoken, and said, quickly, to turn it off, “I should like to talk with her, but I’m rather afraid. She’s tremendously clever.”
“Oh, it’s really different—she’s just so incredibly attractive!” Lady Aurora replied, casually making the only reference to the peculiarities of her own appearance that Hyacinth was destined to hear her mention. She realized it right after she spoke and quickly added, to change the subject, “I’d love to talk to her, but I’m a bit intimidated. She’s super smart.”
“Ah, what she is you’ll find out when you know her!” Hyacinth sighed, expressively.
“Ah, you'll find out what she's really like when you get to know her!” Hyacinth sighed dramatically.
His hostess looked at him a little, and then, vaguely, exclaimed, “How very interesting!” The next moment she continued, “She might do so many other things; she might charm the world.”
His hostess glanced at him briefly and then, somewhat distractedly, said, “How fascinating!” In the next moment, she added, “She could do so many other things; she could enchant the world.”
“She does that, whatever she does,” said Hyacinth, smiling. “It’s all by the way; it needn’t interfere.”
“She does that, whatever she does,” said Hyacinth, smiling. “It’s just a side note; it doesn’t have to get in the way.”
“That’s what I mean, that most other people would be content—beautiful as she is. There’s great merit, when you give up something.”
“That’s what I’m saying, that most other people would be happy—she’s beautiful. There’s real value in letting go of something.”
“She has known a great many bad people, and she wants to know some good,” Hyacinth rejoined. “Therefore be sure to go to her soon.”
“She has known a lot of bad people, and she wants to meet some good ones,” Hyacinth replied. “So make sure to see her soon.”
“She looks as if she had known nothing bad since she was born,” said Lady Aurora, rapturously. “I can’t imagine her going into all the dreadful places that she would have to.”
“She looks like she hasn’t experienced anything bad her whole life,” said Lady Aurora, thrilled. “I can’t imagine her stepping into all the horrible places she would have to.”
“You have gone into them, and it hasn’t hurt you,” Hyacinth suggested.
“You’ve gone into them, and it hasn’t hurt you,” Hyacinth suggested.
“How do you know that? My family think it has.”
“How do you know that? My family thinks it has.”
“You make me glad that I haven’t a family,” said the young man.
“You make me glad that I don’t have a family,” said the young man.
“And the Princess—has she no one?”
“And the Princess—does she not have anyone?”
“Ah, yes, she has a husband. But she doesn’t live with him.”
“Ah, yes, she has a husband. But she doesn’t live with him.”
“Is he one of the bad persons?” asked Lady Aurora, as earnestly as a child listening to a tale.
“Is he one of the bad people?” asked Lady Aurora, as seriously as a child listening to a story.
“Well, I don’t like to abuse him, because he is down.”
“Well, I don’t want to take advantage of him while he’s down.”
“If I were a man, I should be in love with her,” said Lady Aurora. Then she pursued, “I wonder whether we might work together.”
“If I were a guy, I would totally be in love with her,” said Lady Aurora. Then she added, “I wonder if we could team up.”
“That’s exactly what she hopes.”
"That’s exactly what she wants."
“I won’t show her the worst places,” said her ladyship, smiling.
“I won’t show her the worst spots,” said her ladyship, smiling.
To which Hyacinth replied, “I suspect you will do what every one else has done, namely, exactly what she wants!” Before he took leave he said to her, “Do you know whether Paul Muniment liked the Princess?”
To which Hyacinth responded, “I think you’ll do what everyone else has done, which is exactly what she wants!” Before he left, he asked her, “Do you know if Paul Muniment liked the Princess?”
Lady Aurora meditated a moment, apparently with some intensity. “I think he considered her extraordinarily beautiful—the most beautiful person he had ever seen.”
Lady Aurora thought for a moment, clearly with some intensity. “I believe he thought she was incredibly beautiful—the most beautiful person he had ever seen.”
“Does he still believe her to be a humbug?”
“Does he still think she’s a phony?”
“Still?” asked Lady Aurora, as if she didn’t understand.
“Still?” asked Lady Aurora, seeming confused.
“I mean that that was the impression apparently made upon him last winter by my description of her.”
“I mean that was the impression I apparently made on him last winter with my description of her.”
“Oh, I’m sure he thinks her tremendously plucky!” That was all the satisfaction Hyacinth got just then as to Muniment’s estimate of the Princess.
“Oh, I’m sure he thinks she’s incredibly brave!” That was all the satisfaction Hyacinth got at that moment regarding Muniment’s opinion of the Princess.
A few days afterward he returned to Madeira Crescent, in the evening, the only time he was free, the Princess having given him a general invitation to take tea with her. He felt that he ought to be discreet in acting upon it, though he was not without reasons that would have warranted him in going early and often. He had a peculiar dread of her growing tired of him—boring herself in his society; yet at the same time he had rather a sharp vision of her boring herself without him, in the dull summer evenings, when even Paddington was out of town. He wondered what she did, what visitors dropped in, what pastimes she cultivated, what saved her from the sudden vagary of throwing up the whole of her present game. He remembered that there was a complete side of her life with which he was almost unacquainted (Lady Marchant and her daughters, at Medley, and three or four other persons who had called while he was there, being, in his experience, the only illustrations of it), and knew not to what extent she had, in spite of her transformation, preserved relations with her old friends; but he could easily imagine a day when she should discover that what she found in Madeira Crescent was less striking than what she missed. Going thither a second time Hyacinth perceived that he had done her great injustice; she was full of resources, she had never been so happy, she found time to read, to write, to commune with her piano, and above all to think—a delightful detachment from the invasive, vulgar, gossiping, distracting world she had known hitherto. The only interruption to her felicity was that she received quantities of notes from her former acquaintance, challenging her to give some account of herself, to say what had become of her, to come and stay with them in the country; but with these importunate missives she took a very short way—she simply burned them, without answering. She told Hyacinth immediately that Lady Aurora had called on her, two days before, at an hour when she was not in, and she had straightway addressed her, in return, an invitation to come to tea, any evening, at eight o’clock. That was the way the people in Madeira Crescent entertained each other (the Princess knew everything about them now, and was eager to impart her knowledge); and the evening, she was sure, would be much more convenient to Lady Aurora, whose days were filled with good works, peregrinations of charity. Her ladyship arrived ten minutes after Hyacinth; she told the Princess that her invitation had been expressed in a manner so irresistible that she was unwilling to wait more than a day to respond. She was introduced to Madame Grandoni, and tea was immediately served; Hyacinth being gratefully conscious the while of the super-subtle way in which Lady Aurora forbore to appear bewildered at meeting him in such society. She knew he frequented it, and she had been witness of his encounter with the Princess in Audley Court; but it might have startled her to have ocular evidence of the footing on which he stood. Everything the Princess did or said, at this time, had for effect, whatever its purpose, to make her seem more rare and fine; and she had seldom given him greater pleasure than by the exquisite art she put forward to win Lady Aurora’s confidence, to place herself under the pure and elevating influence of the noble spinster. She made herself small and simple; she spoke of her own little aspirations and efforts; she appealed and persuaded; she laid her white hand on Lady Aurora’s, gazing at her with an interest which was evidently deeply sincere, but which, all the same, derived half its effect from the contrast between the quality of her beauty, the whole air of her person, and the hard, dreary problems of misery and crime. It was touching, and Lady Aurora was touched; that was very evident as they sat together on the sofa, after tea, and the Princess protested that she only wanted to know what her new friend was doing—what she had done for years—in order that she might go and do likewise. She asked personal questions with a directness that was sometimes embarrassing to the subject—Hyacinth had seen that habit in her from the first—and Lady Aurora, though she was charmed and excited, was not quite comfortable at being so publicly probed and sounded. The public was formed of Madame Grandoni and Hyacinth; but the old lady (whose intercourse with the visitor had consisted almost wholly of watching her with a quiet, speculative anxiety) presently shuffled away, and was heard, through the thin partitions that prevailed in Madeira Crescent, to ascend to her own apartment. It seemed to Hyacinth that he ought also, in delicacy, to retire, and this was his intention, from one moment to the other; to him, certainly (and the second time she met him), Lady Aurora had made as much of her confession as he had a right to look for. After that one little flash of egotism he had never again heard her allude to her own feelings or circumstances.
A few days later, he returned to Madeira Crescent in the evening, the only time he was free since the Princess had given him a general invitation to have tea with her. He felt he should be careful about accepting, even though he had reasons that justified him going early and often. He had a strange fear that she would get tired of him—being bored in his company; yet at the same time, he vividly imagined her being bored without him during the dull summer evenings when even Paddington was out of town. He wondered what she did, who visited her, what hobbies she had, and what kept her from the sudden impulse to abandon her current life. He remembered there was an entire part of her life he barely knew about (Lady Marchant and her daughters at Medley, plus some other people who had visited while he was there, being the only examples he had) and he didn’t know how much she had maintained her connections with her old friends despite her transformation; but he could easily picture a day when she would realize that what she found in Madeira Crescent was less exciting than what she was missing. When he visited for a second time, Hyacinth realized he had done her a great disservice; she was full of energy, had never been happier, found time to read, write, play her piano, and above all, think—a delightful escape from the intrusive, gossip-filled, distracting world she had known before. The only interruption to her happiness was the numerous notes she received from her former acquaintances, asking her to update them on her life, to come visit them in the country; but she dealt with these persistent messages by simply burning them without a reply. She immediately told Hyacinth that Lady Aurora had come to see her two days ago when she wasn’t home, and she sent her back an invitation to come for tea any evening at eight o'clock. That was how people in Madeira Crescent entertained each other (the Princess now knew everything about them and was eager to share her knowledge); and she was sure the evening would be much more convenient for Lady Aurora, whose days were filled with charitable work. Her ladyship arrived ten minutes after Hyacinth; she told the Princess that the invitation had been so charmingly expressed that she didn’t want to wait more than a day to respond. She was introduced to Madame Grandoni, and tea was served immediately; Hyacinth, feeling grateful, noticed the subtle way Lady Aurora managed not to seem surprised to find him there. She knew he frequented that circle, and she had seen him meet the Princess in Audley Court; but it might have startled her to see firsthand the connection he had. Everything the Princess said and did at that moment made her seem even more unique and refined; and she had rarely given him greater joy than by the delicate way she worked to earn Lady Aurora’s trust, to seek the pure and uplifting influence of the noble spinster. She made herself appear small and simple; she spoke about her own little ambitions and efforts; she appealed and encouraged; she placed her white hand on Lady Aurora’s, gazing at her with a sincere interest, which, nonetheless, was partly effective due to the contrast between her beauty and the harsh, dreary realities of suffering and crime. It was touching, and it was clear Lady Aurora was moved; that was evident as they sat together on the sofa after tea, with the Princess saying she just wanted to know what her new friend was doing—what she had been doing for years—so she could do likewise. She asked personal questions directly, which sometimes put the subject in an awkward position—Hyacinth had noticed this from the start—and Lady Aurora, while charmed and excited, was not entirely comfortable being probed so openly. The audience consisted of Madame Grandoni and Hyacinth; but the older lady (whose interaction with the visitor had mainly involved observing her with quiet, thoughtful concern) soon shuffled away, and it was heard through the thin walls common in Madeira Crescent that she ascended to her own room. Hyacinth felt he should also, out of courtesy, take his leave, which was his intention at any moment; for Lady Aurora had given as much of her personal sentiment as he could reasonably expect. After that brief moment of self-focus, he had never heard her mention her own feelings or circumstances again.
“Do you stay in town, like this, at such a season, on purpose to attend to your work?” the Princess asked; and there was something archly rueful in the tone in which she made this inquiry, as if it cost her just a pang to find that in taking such a line she herself had not been so original as she hoped. “Mr Robinson has told me about your big house in Belgrave Square—you must let me come and see you there. Nothing would make me so happy as that you should allow me to help you a little—how little soever. Do you like to be helped, or do you like to go alone? Are you very independent, or do you need to look up, to cling, to lean upon some one? Excuse me if I ask impertinent questions; we speak that way—rather, you know—in Rome, where I have spent a large part of my life. That idea of your being there alone in your great dull house, with all your charities and devotions, makes a kind of picture in my mind; it’s quaint and touching, like something in some English novel. Englishwomen are so accomplished, are they not? I am really a foreigner, you know, and though I have lived here a while it takes one some time to find those things out au juste. Therefore, is your work for the people only one of your occupations, or is it everything, does it absorb your whole life? That’s what I should like it to be for me! Do your family like you to throw yourself into all this, or have you had to brave a certain amount of ridicule? I dare say you have; that’s where you English are strong, in braving ridicule. They have to do it so often, haven’t they? I don’t know whether I could do it. I never tried; but with you I would brave anything. Are your family clever and sympathetic? No? the kind of thing that one’s family generally is? Ah, well, dear lady, we must make a little family together. Are you encouraged or disgusted? Do you go on doggedly, or have you any faith, any great idea, that lifts you up? Are you religious, now, par exemple? Do you do your work in connection with any ecclesiasticism, any missions, or priests or sisters? I’m a Catholic, you know—but so little! I shouldn’t mind in the least joining hands with any one who is really doing anything. I express myself awkwardly, but perhaps you know what I mean. Possibly you don’t know that I am one of those who believe that a great social cataclysm is destined to take place, and that it can’t make things worse than they are already. I believe, in a word, in the people doing something for themselves (the others will never do anything for them), and I am quite willing to help them. If that shocks you I shall be immensely disappointed, because there is something in the impression you make on me that seems to say that you haven’t the usual prejudices, and that if certain things were to happen you wouldn’t be afraid. You are shy, are you not?—but you are not timorous. I suppose that if you thought the inequalities and oppressions and miseries which now exist were a necessary part of life, and were going on for ever, you wouldn’t be interested in those people over the river (the bedridden girl and her brother, I mean); because Mr Robinson tells me that they are advanced socialists—or at least the brother is. Perhaps you’ll say that you don’t care for him; the sister, to your mind, being the remarkable one. She is, indeed, a perfect little femme du monde—she talks so much better than most of the people in society. I hope you don’t mind my saying that, because I have an idea that you are not in society. You can imagine whether I am! Haven’t you judged it, like me, condemned it, and given it up? Are you not sick of the egotism, the snobbery, the meanness, the frivolity, the immorality, the hypocrisy? Isn’t there a great resemblance in our situation? I don’t mean in our nature, for you are far better than I shall ever be. Aren’t you quite divinely good? When I see a woman of your sort (not that I often do!) I try to be a little less bad. You have helped hundreds, thousands, of people; you must help me!”
“Are you staying in town at this time of year just to work?” the Princess asked, her tone playfully regretful, as if it pained her a bit to realize she wasn't as original as she thought. “Mr. Robinson mentioned your big house in Belgrave Square—you must let me come see you there. Nothing would make me happier than if you allowed me to help you a bit, no matter how small. Do you like being helped, or do you prefer to go solo? Are you very independent, or do you need to look up to someone, to lean on someone? Sorry if I’m asking impertinent questions; we talk this way—rather, you know—in Rome, where I’ve spent a lot of my life. The idea of you being alone in your big, dull house, with all your charity work and devotion, creates a picture in my mind; it’s quaint and moving, like something from an English novel. English women are so accomplished, aren’t they? I’m really a foreigner, you know, and even though I've lived here for a bit, it takes time to understand these things fully. So, is your work for the people just one of your interests, or is it everything? Does it consume your whole life? That’s what I’d love for it to be for me! Do your family approve of you throwing yourself into this work, or have you faced some ridicule? I imagine you have; that’s where you English are strong, in facing ridicule. You have to deal with it often, right? I’m not sure I could do that. I’ve never tried; but with you, I’d brave anything. Are your family smart and understanding? No? The typical family, I guess? Well, dear lady, we should make our own little family together. Are you encouraged or frustrated? Do you persevere stubbornly, or do you have faith, some grand idea that motivates you? Are you religious, for instance? Do you connect your work with any church, missions, priests, or nuns? I’m a Catholic, you know—but just a little! I wouldn’t mind at all joining forces with anyone who is genuinely taking action. I may express myself awkwardly, but I hope you understand what I mean. You may not know that I’m one of those who believes a major social upheaval is coming, and it can’t get worse than it already is. In short, I believe in people doing something for themselves (the others will never help them), and I’m totally willing to assist them. If that shocks you, I’ll be very disappointed because there’s something about you that makes me feel you don’t hold the usual prejudices, and that you wouldn’t be scared if certain things happened. You’re shy, aren’t you?—but you’re not fearful. I suppose if you thought the injustices and suffering we currently have were a necessary part of life and would last forever, you wouldn’t care about those people across the river (the bedridden girl and her brother, that is); because Mr. Robinson tells me they’re advanced socialists—or at least the brother is. Maybe you’ll say you don’t care about him; you think the sister is the remarkable one. She really is a perfect little socialite—she speaks much better than most people in society. I hope you don’t mind me saying that because I suspect you’re not part of society. You can imagine if I am! Haven’t you judged it, like I have, condemned it, and given it up? Aren’t you tired of the selfishness, snobbery, meanness, frivolity, immorality, and hypocrisy? Don’t our situations have a lot in common? I don’t mean in our nature, since you’re far better than I’ll ever be. Aren’t you just wonderfully good? When I see a woman like you (which isn’t often!), I try to be a little less bad. You’ve helped hundreds, thousands of people; you must help me!”
These remarks, which I have strung together, did not, of course, fall from the Princess’s lips in an uninterrupted stream; they were arrested and interspersed by frequent inarticulate responses and embarrassed protests. Lady Aurora shrank from them even while they gratified her, blinking and fidgeting in the brilliant, direct light of her hostess’s attentions. I need not repeat her answers, the more so as they none of them arrived at completion, but passed away into nervous laughter and averted looks, the latter directed at the ceiling, the floor, the windows, and appearing to constitute a kind of entreaty to some occult or supernatural power that the conversation should become more impersonal. In reply to the Princess’s allusion to the convictions prevailing in the Muniment family, she said that the brother and sister thought differently about public questions, but were of the same mind with regard to persons of the upper class taking an interest in the working people, attempting to enter into their life: they held it was a great mistake. At this information the Princess looked much disappointed; she wished to know if the Muniments thought it was impossible to do them any good. “Oh, I mean a mistake from our point of view,” said Lady Aurora. “They wouldn’t do it in our place; they think we had much better occupy ourselves with our own pleasures.” And as the Princess stared, not comprehending, she went on: “Rosy thinks we have a right to our own pleasures under all circumstances, no matter how badly off the poor may be; and her brother takes the ground that we will not have them long, and that in view of what may happen we are great fools not to make the most of them.”
These comments I’ve gathered together didn’t come from the Princess in a smooth flow; they were interrupted by frequent vague responses and awkward protests. Lady Aurora pulled away from them even as they pleased her, blinking and fidgeting in the bright, direct light of her hostess’s attention. I won’t repeat her responses, especially since they never fully formed, but faded into nervous laughter and averted gazes, those looks directed at the ceiling, the floor, the windows, seeming to send a sort of plea to some hidden or supernatural force that the conversation should become more detached. In response to the Princess’s hint about the beliefs within the Muniment family, she mentioned that the brother and sister had different views on public matters but agreed that it was a big mistake for people in the upper class to care about the working class and try to engage in their lives. The Princess looked quite let down by this; she wanted to know if the Muniments believed it was impossible to help them. “Oh, I mean it’s a mistake from our perspective,” Lady Aurora replied. “They wouldn’t do what we’re doing; they think we should focus on our own enjoyment.” And as the Princess stared, confused, she continued: “Rosy believes we’re entitled to our own pleasures no matter how poorly the poor are doing; and her brother argues that we won’t have them for long, and considering what might happen, we’d be fools not to enjoy them while we can.”
“I see, I see. That is very strong,” the Princess murmured, in a tone of high appreciation.
“I get it, I get it. That’s really impressive,” the Princess said, in a tone of genuine admiration.
“I dare say. But all the same, whatever is going to come, one must do something.”
“I agree. But still, whatever is ahead, one has to do something.”
“You do think, then, that something is going to come?” said the Princess.
"You really think that something is going to happen?" said the Princess.
“Oh, immense changes, I dare say. But I don’t belong to anything, you know.”
“Oh, huge changes, I must say. But I don’t belong to anything, you know.”
The Princess hesitated a moment. “No more do I. But many people do. Mr Robinson, for instance.” And she gave Hyacinth a familiar smile.
The Princess paused for a moment. “Neither do I. But a lot of people do. Mr. Robinson, for example.” Then she flashed Hyacinth a friendly smile.
“Oh, if the changes depend on me!” the young man exclaimed, blushing.
“Oh, if the changes depend on me!” the young man said, blushing.
“They won’t set the Thames on fire—I quite agree to that!”
“They’re not going to set the Thames on fire—I totally agree with that!”
Lady Aurora had the manner of not considering that she had a warrant for going into the question of Hyacinth’s affiliations; so she stared abstractly at the piano and in a moment remarked to the Princess, “I am sure you play awfully well; I should like so much to hear you.”
Lady Aurora didn’t think twice about asking Hyacinth about his connections; instead, she stared blankly at the piano and then said to the Princess, “I’m sure you play beautifully; I would love to hear you.”
Hyacinth felt that their hostess thought this banal. She had not asked Lady Aurora to spend the evening with her simply that they should fall back on the resources of the vulgar. Nevertheless, she replied with perfect good-nature that she should be delighted to play; only there was a thing she should like much better, namely, that Lady Aurora should narrate her life.
Hyacinth sensed that their hostess considered this banal. She hadn’t invited Lady Aurora to spend the evening with her just to rely on the resources of the ordinary. Still, she responded with complete kindness, saying she would be happy to play; but there was one thing she would prefer much more, which was for Lady Aurora to share her life story.
“Oh, don’t talk about mine; yours, yours!” her ladyship cried, colouring with eagerness and, for the first time since her arrival, indulging in the free gesture of laying her hand upon that of the Princess.
“Oh, don’t talk about mine; yours, yours!” her ladyship exclaimed, blushing with excitement and, for the first time since she arrived, openly placing her hand on the Princess's.
“With so many narratives in the air, I certainly had better take myself off,” said Hyacinth, and the Princess offered no opposition to his departure. She and Lady Aurora were evidently on the point of striking up a tremendous intimacy, and as he turned this idea over, walking away, it made him sad, for strange, vague reasons, which he could not have expressed.
“With so many stories going around, I really should get going,” said Hyacinth, and the Princess didn’t argue with his leaving. She and Lady Aurora were clearly about to become very close, and as he thought about this while walking away, it made him feel sad for unclear reasons he couldn’t put into words.
XXXV
The Sunday following this occasion Hyacinth spent almost entirely with the Muniments, with whom, since his return to his work, he had been able to have no long, fraternising talk, of the kind that had marked their earlier relations. The present, however, was a happy day; it refreshed exceedingly the sentiments with which he now regarded the inscrutable Paul. The warm, bright September weather gilded even the dinginess of Audley Court, and while, in the morning, Rosy’s brother and their visitor sat beside her sofa, the trio amused themselves with discussing a dozen different plans for giving a festive turn to the day. There had been moments, in the last six months, when Hyacinth had the sense that he should never again be able to enter into such ideas as that, and these moments had been connected with the strange perversion taking place in his mental image of the man whose hardness (of course he was obliged to be hard) he had never expected to see turned upon a passionate admirer. But now, for the hour at least, the darkness had cleared away, and Paul’s company was in itself a comfortable, inspiring influence. He had never been kinder, jollier, safer, as it were; it had never appeared more desirable to hold fast to him and trust him. Less than ever would an observer have guessed there was a reason why the two young men might have winced as they looked at each other. Rosy naturally took part in the question debated between her companions—the question whether they should limit their excursion to a walk in Hyde Park; should embark at Lambeth pier on the penny steamer, which would convey them to Greenwich; or should start presently for Waterloo station and go thence by train to Hampton Court. Miss Muniment had visited none of these places, but she contributed largely to the discussion, for which she seemed perfectly qualified; talked about the crowd on the steamer, and the inconvenience arising from drunken persons on the return, quite as if she had suffered from these drawbacks; said that the view from the hill at Greenwich was terribly smoky, and at that season the fashionable world—half the attraction, of course—was wholly absent from Hyde Park; and expressed strong views in favour of Wolsey’s old palace, with whose history she appeared intimately acquainted. She threw herself into her brother’s holiday with eagerness and glee, and Hyacinth marvelled again at the stoicism of the hard, bright creature, polished, as it were, by pain, whose imagination appeared never to concern itself with her own privations, so that she could lie in her close little room the whole golden afternoon, without bursting into sobs as she saw the western sunbeams slant upon the shabby, ugly, familiar paper of her wall and thought of the far-off fields and gardens which she should never see. She talked immensely of the Princess, for whose beauty, grace and benevolence she could find no sufficient praise; declaring that of all the fair faces that had ever hung over her couch (and Rosy spoke as from immense opportunities for comparison) she had far the noblest and most refreshing. She seemed to make a kind of light in the room and to leave it behind her after she had gone. Rosy could call up her image as she could hum a tune she had heard, and she expressed in her quaint, particular way how, as she lay there in the quiet hours, she repeated over to herself the beautiful air. The Princess might be anything, she might be royal or imperial, and Rosy was well aware how little she should complain of the dullness of her life when such apparitions as that could pop in any day. She made a difference in the place—it gave it a kind of finish for her to have come there; if it was good enough for a princess, it was good enough for her, and she hoped she shouldn’t hear again of Paul’s wishing her to move out of a room with which she should have henceforth such delightful associations. The Princess had found her way to Audley Court, and perhaps she wouldn’t find it to another lodging—they couldn’t expect her to follow them about London at their pleasure; and at any rate she had evidently been very much struck with the little room, so that if they were quiet and patient who could say but the fancy would take her to send them a bit of carpet, or a picture, or even a mirror with a gilt frame, to make it a bit more tasteful? Rosy’s transitions from pure enthusiasm to the imaginative calculation of benefit were performed with a serenity peculiar to herself. Her chatter had so much spirit and point that it always commanded attention, but to-day Hyacinth was less tolerant of it than usual, because so long as it lasted Muniment held his tongue, and what he had been anxious about was much more Paul’s impression of the Princess. Rosy made no remark to him on the monopoly he had so long enjoyed of this wonderful lady; she had always had the manner of a kind of indulgent incredulity about Hyacinth’s social adventures, and he saw the day might easily come when she would begin to talk of the Princess as if she herself had been the first to discover her. She had much to say, however, about the nature of the acquaintance Lady Aurora had formed with her, and she was mainly occupied with the glory she had drawn upon herself by bringing two such exalted persons together. She fancied them alluding, in the great world, to the occasion on which ‘we first met, at Miss Muniment’s, you know’; and she related how Lady Aurora, who had been in Audley Court the day before, had declared that she owed her a debt she could never repay. The two ladies had liked each other more, almost, than they liked any one; and wasn’t it a rare picture to think of them moving hand in hand, like twin roses, through the bright upper air? Muniment inquired, in rather a coarse, unsympathetic way, what the mischief she ever wanted of her; which led Hyacinth to demand in return, “What do you mean? What does who want of whom?”
The Sunday after that event, Hyacinth spent most of the day with the Muniments, with whom, since returning to work, he hadn’t had a good, friendly chat like they used to. However, it was a joyful day; it really lifted his spirits regarding the mysterious Paul. The warm, bright September weather lit up even the dreary Audley Court, and while in the morning, Rosy’s brother and their guest sat by her sofa, the three entertained themselves with various ideas to make the day festive. There had been moments in the past six months when Hyacinth felt he would never be able to enjoy such thoughts again, and these feelings were connected to the strange shift he saw in his perception of the man whose harshness (which he expected) he never thought would turn towards a devoted admirer. But now, at least for the moment, the gloom had lifted, and Paul’s company felt comforting and inspiring. He had never been kinder, happier, or more reassuring; it had never felt more appealing to hold onto him and trust him. Less than ever would an observer have guessed that the two young men might have flinched as they looked at each other. Rosy naturally joined in the debate between her companions—whether they should restrict their outing to a walk in Hyde Park, take the penny steamer from Lambeth pier to Greenwich, or head to Waterloo station and take a train to Hampton Court. Miss Muniment had never been to any of these places, but she contributed significantly to the discussion, seeming perfectly qualified; she talked about the crowd on the steamer and the troubles caused by drunken people on the way back as if she had dealt with these issues; she mentioned that the view from the hill at Greenwich was terribly smoky, and that at this time of year, the fashionable crowd—half the attraction, of course—was completely absent from Hyde Park; and she expressed strong opinions in favor of Wolsey’s old palace, whose history she seemed to know well. She fully engaged in her brother’s holiday with excitement and joy, and Hyacinth marveled once more at the stoicism of the tough, bright person she was, seemingly polished by pain, whose imagination didn’t seem to dwell on her own hardships, so she could lie in her small room the entire golden afternoon without breaking into tears as she watched the western sunbeams slanting onto the shabby, familiar wallpaper and thought of the distant fields and gardens she would never see. She talked endlessly about the Princess, for whose beauty, grace, and kindness she couldn't find enough praise; asserting that of all the beautiful faces that had ever looked down on her as she lay on her couch (and Rosy spoke as if she had had immense opportunities for comparison), she had the most noble and refreshing one. She seemed to bring a kind of light into the room and to leave some of it behind her after she left. Rosy could picture her as easily as she could hum a tune she'd heard, and she expressed in her unique, special way how, as she lay there in the quiet hours, she repeated the beautiful melody to herself. The Princess could be anything—royal or imperial—and Rosy was fully aware that she had little reason to complain about the dullness of her life when such extraordinary visits could pop up any day. She made a difference in the place—it felt more complete for her to have been there; if it was good enough for a princess, it was good enough for her, and she hoped she wouldn’t hear again about Paul wishing her to move out of a room that would now hold such delightful memories. The Princess had found her way to Audley Court, and maybe she wouldn’t find another place to stay—they couldn’t expect her to follow them around London on a whim; and in any case, she had clearly been very impressed with the little room, so if they were patient and quiet, who could say that she wouldn’t be inspired to send them a bit of carpet, a picture, or even a gilt-framed mirror to make it a bit more tasteful? Rosy’s shifts from pure excitement to imaginative calculations of benefits were done with a calmness unique to her. Her chatter was so lively and relevant that it always captured attention, but today Hyacinth was less tolerant of it than usual, because as long as she talked, Muniment stayed silent, and what he was really worried about was Paul’s impression of the Princess. Rosy didn’t say anything to him about the monopoly he had enjoyed on this remarkable lady; she had always had a kind of indulgent disbelief about Hyacinth’s social adventures, and he sensed the day would come when she would start discussing the Princess as if she had discovered her first. However, she had plenty to say about the relationship Lady Aurora had developed with her, and she was mostly concerned with the glory she had gained by bringing these two exalted individuals together. She imagined them mentioning, in high society, the time when “we first met, at Miss Muniment’s, you know”; and she recounted how Lady Aurora, who had been in Audley Court the day before, had declared that she owed her a debt she could never repay. The two ladies had liked each other almost more than anyone else; and wasn't it a rare sight to think of them walking hand in hand, like twin roses, through the bright upper air? Muniment asked, rather crudely and unsympathetically, what the heck she ever wanted of her, which prompted Hyacinth to retort, “What do you mean? What does who want of whom?”
“What does the beauty want of our poor lady? She has a totally different stamp. I don’t know much about women, but I can see that.”
“What does the beauty want from our poor lady? She’s a completely different type. I don’t know much about women, but I can see that.”
“How do you mean—a different stamp? They both have the stamp of their rank!” cried Rosy.
“How do you mean—a different stamp? They both have the mark of their rank!” cried Rosy.
“Who can ever tell what women want, at any time?” Hyacinth said, with the off-handedness of a man of the world.
“Who can ever know what women want, at any time?” Hyacinth said, with the casualness of a worldly man.
“Well, my boy, if you don’t know any more than I, you disappoint me! Perhaps if we wait long enough she will tell us some day herself.”
“Well, kid, if you don’t know any more than I do, you’re letting me down! Maybe if we wait long enough, she’ll tell us herself one day.”
“Tell you what she wants of Lady Aurora?”
“Want me to tell you what Lady Aurora wants?”
“I don’t mind about Lady Aurora so much; but what in the name of long journeys does she want with us?”
“I’m not really concerned about Lady Aurora, but what does she want with us?”
“Don’t you think you’re worth a long journey?” Rosy asked, gaily. “If you were not my brother, which is handy for seeing you, and I were not confined to my sofa, I would go from one end of England to the other to make your acquaintance! He’s in love with the Princess,” she went on, to Hyacinth, “and he asks those senseless questions to cover it up. What does any one want of anything?”
“Don’t you think you're worth a long trip?” Rosy asked cheerfully. “If you weren’t my brother, which makes it easy to see you, and I wasn’t stuck on my sofa, I would travel all across England just to meet you! He’s in love with the Princess,” she continued to Hyacinth, “and he asks those ridiculous questions to hide it. What does anyone really want from anything?”
It was decided, at last, that the two young men should go down to Greenwich, and after they had partaken of bread and cheese with Rosy they embarked on a penny steamer. The boat was densely crowded, and they leaned, rather squeezed together, in the fore part of it, against the rail of the deck, and watched the big black fringe of the yellow stream. The river was always fascinating to Hyacinth. The mystified entertainment which, as a child, he had found in all the aspects of London came back to him from the murky scenery of its banks and the sordid agitation of its bosom: the great arches and pillars of the bridges, where the water rushed, and the funnels tipped, and sounds made an echo, and there seemed an overhanging of interminable processions; the miles of ugly wharves and warehouses; the lean protrusions of chimney, mast, and crane; the painted signs of grimy industries, staring from shore to shore; the strange, flat, obstructive barges, straining and bumping on some business as to which everything was vague but that it was remarkably dirty; the clumsy coasters and colliers, which thickened as one went down; the small, loafing boats, whose occupants, somehow, looking up from their oars at the steamer, as they rocked in the oily undulations of its wake, appeared profane and sarcastic; in short, all the grinding, puffing, smoking, splashing activity of the turbid flood. In the good-natured crowd, amid the fumes of vile tobacco, beneath the shower of sooty particles, and to the accompaniment of a bagpipe of a dingy Highlander, who sketched occasionally a smothered reel, Hyacinth forbore to speak to his companion of what he had most at heart; but later, as they lay on the brown, crushed grass, on one of the slopes of Greenwich Park, and saw the river stretch away and shine beyond the pompous colonnades of the hospital, he asked him whether there was any truth in what Rosy had said about his being sweet on their friend the Princess. He said ‘their friend’ on purpose, speaking as if, now that she had been twice to Audley Court, Muniment might be regarded as knowing her almost as well as he himself did. He wished to conjure away the idea that he was jealous of Paul, and if he desired information on the point I have mentioned this was because it still made him almost as uncomfortable as it had done at first that his comrade should take the scoffing view. He didn’t easily see such a fellow as Muniment wheel about from one day to the other, but he had been present at the most exquisite exhibition he had ever observed the Princess make of that divine power of conciliation which was not perhaps in social intercourse the art she chiefly exercised but was certainly the most wonderful of her secrets, and it would be remarkable indeed that a sane young man should not have been affected by it. It was familiar to Hyacinth that Muniment was not easily touched by women, but this might perfectly have been the case without detriment to the Princess’s ability to work a miracle. The companions had wandered through the great halls and courts of the hospital; had gazed up at the glories of the famous painted chamber and admired the long and lurid series of the naval victories of England—Muniment remarking to his friend that he supposed he had seen the match to all that in foreign parts, offensive little travelled beggar that he was. They had not ordered a fish-dinner either at the ‘Trafalgar’ or the ‘Ship’ (having a frugal vision of tea and shrimps with Rosy, on their return), but they had laboured up and down the steep undulations of the shabby, charming park; made advances to the tame deer and seen them amble foolishly away; watched the young of both sexes, hilarious and red in the face, roll in promiscuous entanglement over the slopes; gazed at the little brick observatory, perched on one of the knolls, which sets the time of English history and in which Hyacinth could see that his companion took a kind of technical interest; wandered out of one of the upper gates and admired the trimness of the little villas at Blackheath, where Muniment declared that it was his idea of supreme social success to be able to live. He pointed out two or three small, semi-detached houses, faced with stucco, and with ‘Mortimer Lodge’ or ‘The Sycamores’ inscribed upon the gate-posts, and Hyacinth guessed that these were the sort of place where he would like to end his days—in high, pure air, with a genteel window for Rosy’s couch and a cheerful view of suburban excursions. It was when they came back into the park that, being rather hot and a little satiated, they stretched themselves under a tree and Hyacinth yielded to his curiosity.
It was finally decided that the two young men would head down to Greenwich, and after they had shared some bread and cheese with Rosy, they boarded a penny steamer. The boat was packed, and they leaned against the rail at the front, squeezed together, watching the dark edge of the yellow river. The river always captured Hyacinth’s attention. The sense of wonder he felt as a child, looking at all the different sights of London, returned to him as he observed the muddy scenery along the banks and the chaotic movement of the water: the massive arches and pillars of the bridges where the water rushed by, the smoke rising from the funnels, the sounds echoing around, and the impression of endless processions; the miles of grimy wharves and warehouses; the spindly chimneys, masts, and cranes reaching into the sky; the painted signs of dirty industries glaring from one side to the other; the strange, flat barges that seemed to be engaged in some vaguely understood but clearly filthy work; the awkward coasters and colliers that increased in number as they traveled downstream; and the small, aimless boats, whose occupants looked up from their oars at the steamer, rocking in its oily wake, appearing irreverent and mocking; in short, all the noisy, smoky, splashing activity of the murky water. In the good-natured crowd, amidst the stench of cheap tobacco, under a shower of sooty particles, accompanied by a dingy Highlander playing a bagpipe that occasionally stumbled into a muffled tune, Hyacinth refrained from discussing what was most on his mind with his companion. However, later, as they lay on the brown, trampled grass on one of the slopes of Greenwich Park, looking at the river stretching away and glistening beyond the grand columns of the hospital, he asked him whether there was any truth to what Rosy had said about him being interested in their friend, the Princess. He specifically said ‘their friend,’ as if now that she had visited Audley Court twice, Muniment might know her almost as well as he did. He wanted to dispel the notion that he was jealous of Paul, and if he sought clarification on this point, it was because it still made him almost as uneasy as before that his comrade would take such a mocking view. He couldn’t easily see someone like Muniment change his mind overnight, but he had witnessed the most brilliant display the Princess had ever shown of her extraordinary ability to bring people together. It wasn’t necessarily the skill she showcased the most in social situations, but it was certainly one of her most remarkable secrets, and it would indeed be hard to believe that a sane young man wouldn’t be moved by it. Hyacinth knew that Muniment wasn’t easily affected by women, but that didn’t mean the Princess couldn’t work wonders. The friends had wandered through the grand halls and courtyards of the hospital; looked up at the splendor of the famous painted chamber and admired the long, dramatic series of England's naval victories—Muniment commenting to his friend that he guessed he had seen something similar in his travels, unpleasant little vagrant that he was. They hadn’t ordered a fish dinner at either the ‘Trafalgar’ or the ‘Ship’ (having a simple vision of tea and shrimp with Rosy on their way back), but they had trudged up and down the hilly, charming park; approached the tame deer and watched them clumsily scamper away; observed the young people of both genders, laughing and rosy-cheeked, rolling in unrestrained piles over the hills; stared at the little brick observatory perched on one of the knolls, which marked significant moments in English history, and Hyacinth could tell his companion took a kind of technical interest in it; wandered out of one of the upper gates and admired the neat little villas at Blackheath, where Muniment claimed it was his idea of ultimate social success to be able to live. He pointed out two or three small, semi-detached houses, dressed in stucco, with names like ‘Mortimer Lodge’ or ‘The Sycamores’ on the gateposts, and Hyacinth guessed these were the types of places where he would like to spend his days—in fresh air, with a nice view of the suburbs from Rosy’s window. It was when they returned to the park, feeling a bit hot and somewhat satisfied, that they lay down beneath a tree and Hyacinth gave in to his curiosity.
“Sweet on her—sweet on her, my boy!” said Muniment. “I might as well be sweet on the dome of St Paul’s, which I just make out off there.”
“Crushing on her—crushing on her, my boy!” said Muniment. “I might as well be crushing on the dome of St Paul’s, which I can just see over there.”
“The dome of St Paul’s doesn’t come to see you, and doesn’t ask you to return the visit.”
“The dome of St. Paul’s doesn’t come to meet you and doesn’t ask you to come back.”
“Oh, I don’t return visits—I’ve got a lot of jobs of my own to do. If I don’t put myself out for the Princess, isn’t that a sufficient answer to your question?”
“Oh, I don’t return visits—I have a lot of my own tasks to handle. If I don’t make an effort for the Princess, isn’t that a good enough answer to your question?”
“I’m by no means sure,” said Hyacinth. “If you went to see her, simply and civilly, because she asked you, I shouldn’t regard it as a proof that you had taken a fancy to her. Your hanging off is more suspicious; it may mean that you don’t trust yourself—that you are in danger of falling in love if you go in for a more intimate acquaintance.”
“I’m not really sure,” said Hyacinth. “If you went to see her, just in a friendly and polite way, because she asked you, I wouldn’t see it as a sign that you’re interested in her. Your reluctance is more concerning; it could mean that you don’t trust yourself—that you’re at risk of falling in love if you pursue a closer relationship.”
“It’s a rum job, your wanting me to make up to her. I shouldn’t think it would suit your book,” Muniment rejoined, staring at the sky, with his hands clasped under his head.
“It’s a weird situation, you asking me to get close to her. I don’t think it would fit your story,” Muniment replied, staring at the sky with his hands behind his head.
“Do you suppose I’m afraid of you?” his companion asked. “Besides,” Hyacinth added in a moment, “why the devil should I care, now?”
“Do you think I'm scared of you?” his companion asked. “Besides,” Hyacinth added after a moment, “why should I even care now?”
Muniment, for a little, made no rejoinder; he turned over on his side, and with his arm resting on the ground leaned his head on his hand. Hyacinth felt his eyes on his face, but he also felt himself colouring, and didn’t meet them. He had taken a private vow never to indulge, to Muniment, in certain inauspicious references, and the words he had just spoken had slipped out of his mouth too easily. “What do you mean by that?” Paul demanded, at last; and when Hyacinth looked at him he saw nothing but his companion’s strong, fresh, irresponsible face. Muniment, before speaking, had had time to guess what he meant by it.
Muniment, for a moment, didn’t reply; he turned onto his side, resting his arm on the ground and leaning his head on his hand. Hyacinth felt Muniment’s gaze on his face, but he also felt himself blushing and didn’t look back. He had privately promised never to bring up certain unfortunate topics with Muniment, and the words he had just said had slipped out too easily. “What do you mean by that?” Paul finally asked; and when Hyacinth glanced at him, he saw nothing but Paul’s strong, youthful, carefree face. Muniment had taken a moment to figure out what Paul was referring to before responding.
Suddenly, an impulse that he had never known before, or rather that he had always resisted, took possession of him. There was a mystery which it concerned his happiness to clear up, and he became unconscious of his scruples, of his pride, of the strength that he had believed to be in him—the strength for going through his work and passing away without a look behind. He sat forward on the grass, with his arms round his knees, and bent upon Muniment a face lighted up by his difficulties. For a minute the two men’s eyes met with extreme clearness, and then Hyacinth exclaimed, “What an extraordinary fellow you are!”
Suddenly, he felt an impulse he had never experienced before, or rather one he had always resisted. There was a mystery that was crucial for his happiness to resolve, and he forgot about his doubts, his pride, and the strength he thought he had—the strength to go through his life without looking back. He leaned forward on the grass, wrapping his arms around his knees, and focused on Muniment with a face lit up by his struggles. For a moment, their eyes met with striking clarity, and then Hyacinth exclaimed, “What an extraordinary guy you are!”
“You’ve hit it there!” said Muniment, smiling.
“You’ve got it!” said Muniment, smiling.
“I don’t want to make a scene, or work on your feelings, but how will you like it when I’m strung up on the gallows?”
“I don’t want to cause a fuss or play with your emotions, but how will you feel when I'm hanging from the gallows?”
“You mean for Hoffendahl’s job? That’s what you were alluding to just now?” Muniment lay there, in the same attitude, chewing a long blade of dry grass, which he held to his lips with his free hand.
“You mean for Hoffendahl’s job? That’s what you were hinting at just now?” Muniment lay there, in the same position, chewing on a long piece of dry grass, which he held to his lips with his free hand.
“I didn’t mean to speak of it; but after all, why shouldn’t it come up? Naturally, I have thought of it a good deal.”
“I didn’t mean to bring it up; but really, why shouldn’t it? Of course, I’ve thought about it a lot.”
“What good does that do?” Muniment returned. “I hoped you didn’t, and I noticed you never spoke of it. You don’t like it; you would rather throw it up,” he added.
“What good does that do?” Muniment replied. “I was hoping you didn’t, and I noticed you never talked about it. You don’t like it; you’d rather just vomit it up,” he added.
There was not in his voice the faintest note of irony or contempt, no sign whatever that he passed judgment on such a tendency. He spoke in a quiet, human, memorising manner, as if it had originally quite entered into his thought to allow for weak regrets. Nevertheless the complete reasonableness of his tone itself cast a chill on his companion’s spirit; it was like the touch of a hand at once very firm and very soft, but strangely cold.
There wasn't a hint of irony or contempt in his voice, nor any indication that he judged such a tendency. He spoke in a calm, relatable way that made it seem like he genuinely acknowledged weak regrets. Still, the calmness of his tone left his companion feeling uneasy; it felt like a hand that was both firm and gentle, yet oddly cold.
“I don’t want in the least to throw the business up, but did you suppose I liked it?” Hyacinth asked, with rather a forced laugh.
“I don’t want to quit the business at all, but did you really think I enjoyed it?” Hyacinth asked, with a somewhat forced laugh.
“My dear fellow, how could I tell? You like a lot of things I don’t. You like excitement and emotion and change, you like remarkable sensations, whereas I go in for a holy calm, for sweet repose.”
“My dear friend, how can I possibly know? You enjoy many things that I don’t. You thrive on excitement, emotion, and change; you crave remarkable experiences, while I seek a sense of peacefulness and tranquility.”
“If you object, for yourself, to change, and are so fond of still waters, why have you associated yourself with a revolutionary movement?” Hyacinth demanded, with a little air of making rather a good point.
“If you don’t like change and prefer calm waters, why have you joined a revolutionary movement?” Hyacinth asked, sounding like he was making a pretty good point.
“Just for that reason!” Muniment answered, with a smile. “Isn’t our revolutionary movement as quiet as the grave? Who knows, who suspects, anything like the full extent of it?”
“Just for that reason!” Muniment replied, smiling. “Isn’t our revolutionary movement as silent as the grave? Who knows, who suspects, anything close to the full extent of it?”
“I see—you take only the quiet parts!”
“I get it—you only choose the calm moments!”
In speaking these words Hyacinth had had no derisive intention, but a moment later he flushed with the sense that they had a sufficiently petty sound. Muniment, however, appeared to see no offence in them, and it was in the gentlest, most suggestive way, as if he had been thinking over what might comfort his comrade, that he replied, “There’s one thing you ought to remember—that it’s quite on the cards it may never come off.”
In saying these words, Hyacinth didn’t mean to sound sarcastic, but a moment later he felt embarrassed because they sounded a bit small-minded. Muniment, however, seemed to take no offense, and in the kindest, most helpful way—as if he had been considering what might reassure his friend—he replied, “There’s one thing you should keep in mind—that it’s very possible it might never happen.”
“I don’t desire that reminder,” Hyacinth said; “and, moreover, you must let me say that, somehow, I don’t easily fancy you mixed up with things that don’t come off. Anything you have to do with will come off, I think.”
“I don’t want that reminder,” Hyacinth said; “and, besides, I have to say that, for some reason, I can’t imagine you being involved in things that don’t work out. Anything you’re involved in will succeed, I believe.”
Muniment reflected a moment, as if his little companion were charmingly ingenious. “Surely, I have nothing to do with this idea of Hoffendahl’s.”
Muniment paused for a moment, as if his small companion was delightfully clever. “I definitely have nothing to do with this idea of Hoffendahl's.”
“With the execution, perhaps not; but how about the conception? You seemed to me to have a great deal to do with it the night you took me to see him.”
“With the execution, maybe not; but what about the idea? You seemed really involved that night you took me to see him.”
Muniment changed his position, raising himself, and in a moment he was seated, Turk-fashion, beside his mate. He put his arm over his shoulder and held him, studying his face; and then, in the kindest manner in the world, he remarked, “There are three or four definite chances in your favour.”
Muniment shifted his position, propping himself up, and in no time he was sitting cross-legged next to his friend. He draped his arm over his shoulder, holding him close while examining his face; then, in the most gentle way possible, he said, “You’ve got three or four solid chances working for you.”
“I don’t want comfort, you know,” said Hyacinth, with his eyes on the distant atmospheric mixture that represented London.
“I don’t want comfort, you know,” said Hyacinth, gazing at the hazy blend that stood for London.
“What the devil do you want?” Muniment asked, still holding him, and with perfect good-humour.
“What the heck do you want?” Muniment asked, still holding him, and with perfect good humor.
“Well, to get inside of you a little; to know how a chap feels when he’s going to part with his best friend.”
“Well, to get inside of you a little; to understand how a guy feels when he’s about to say goodbye to his best friend.”
“To part with him?” Muniment repeated.
“To split from him?” Muniment repeated.
“I mean, putting it at the worst.”
"I mean, to put it bluntly."
“I should think you would know by yourself, if you’re going to part with me!”
“I think you’d know by now if you were going to break up with me!”
At this Hyacinth prostrated himself, tumbled over on the grass, on his face, which he buried in his arms. He remained in this attitude, saying nothing, for a long time; and while he lay there he thought, with a sudden, quick flood of association, of many strange things. Most of all, he had the sense of the brilliant, charming day; the warm stillness, touched with cries of amusement; the sweetness of loafing there, in an interval of work, with a friend who was a tremendously fine fellow, even if he didn’t understand the inexpressible. Muniment also kept silent, and Hyacinth perceived that he was unaffectedly puzzled. He wanted now to relieve him, so that he pulled himself together again and turned round, saying the first thing he could think of, in relation to the general subject of their conversation, that would carry them away from the personal question: “I have asked you before, and you have told me, but somehow I have never quite grasped it (so I just touch on the matter again), exactly what good you think it will do.”
At this, Hyacinth dropped to the ground, rolling over on the grass, face down, burying his face in his arms. He stayed in that position, saying nothing, for a long time; and while he lay there, a sudden rush of thoughts hit him, bringing to mind many strange things. Most of all, he felt the brilliance of the beautiful day; the warm stillness, punctuated by the sounds of laughter; the pleasure of relaxing there for a moment, taking a break from work, with a friend who was a truly great guy, even if he didn’t get the unexplainable. Muniment also stayed quiet, and Hyacinth noticed that he genuinely looked confused. He wanted to ease the tension, so he gathered himself and turned around, saying the first thing that came to his mind related to their ongoing conversation, something to steer them away from the personal issue: “I’ve asked you before, and you’ve answered, but somehow I still never really understood it (so I’ll just bring it up again), what exactly do you think it will achieve?”
“This idea of Hoffendahl’s? You must remember that as yet we know only very vaguely what it is. It is difficult, therefore, to measure closely the importance it may have, and I don’t think I have ever, in talking with you, pretended to fix that importance. I don’t suppose it will matter immensely whether your own engagement is carried out or not; but if it is it will have been a detail in a scheme of which the general effect will be decidedly useful. I believe, and you pretend to believe, though I am not sure you do, in the advent of the democracy. It will help the democracy to get possession that the classes that keep them down shall be admonished from time to time that they have a very definite and very determined intention of doing so. An immense deal will depend upon that. Hoffendahl is a capital admonisher.”
“This idea of Hoffendahl’s? You should remember that we only have a vague understanding of what it is. It’s hard to really assess how important it might be, and I don’t think I’ve ever tried to determine that importance in our conversations. I don’t think it will matter a whole lot whether your engagement goes through or not; but if it does, it will be just one detail in a larger plan that will definitely be beneficial. I believe, and you claim to believe, though I’m not entirely sure you do, in the rise of democracy. It will help democracy to have the classes that oppress it reminded occasionally that they have a very clear and strong intention of doing so. A lot will depend on that. Hoffendahl is a great reminder.”
Hyacinth listened to this explanation with an expression of interest that was not feigned; and after a moment he rejoined, “When you say you believe in the democracy, I take for granted you mean you positively wish for their coming into power, as I have always supposed. Now what I really have never understood is this—why you should desire to put forward a lot of people whom you regard, almost without exception, as donkeys.”
Hyacinth listened to this explanation with genuine interest, and after a moment he replied, “When you say you believe in democracy, I assume you mean you genuinely want them to come into power, as I’ve always thought. What I've never really understood is this—why do you want to support a bunch of people whom you see, almost without exception, as fools?”
“Ah, my dear lad,” laughed Muniment, “when one undertakes to meddle in human affairs one must deal with human material. The upper classes have the longest ears.”
“Ah, my dear boy,” laughed Muniment, “when you choose to get involved in people's lives, you have to work with real people. The upper classes have the sharpest hearing.”
“I have heard you say that you were working for an equality in human conditions, to abolish the immemorial inequality. What you want, then, for all mankind is a similar nuance of asininity.”
“I’ve heard you say that you’re working for equality among people to get rid of the age-old inequality. What you really want for everyone is the same nuance of foolishness.”
“That’s very clever; did you pick it up in France? The low tone of our fellow-mortals is a result of bad conditions; it is the conditions I want to alter. When those that have no start to speak of have a good one, it is but fair to infer that they will go further. I want to try them, you know.”
“That’s really smart; did you learn it in France? The low state of our fellow humans comes from poor circumstances; it’s those circumstances I want to change. When those who have nothing start with a solid foundation, it’s only fair to assume they’ll go further. I want to give them a chance, you know.”
“But why equality?” Hyacinth asked. “Somehow, that word doesn’t say so much to me as it used to. Inequality—inequality! I don’t know whether it’s by dint of repeating it over to myself, but that doesn’t shock me as it used.”
“But why equality?” Hyacinth asked. “Somehow, that word doesn’t mean as much to me as it used to. Inequality—inequality! I don’t know if it’s because I keep saying it to myself, but that doesn’t shock me like it used to.”
“They didn’t put you up to that in France, I’m sure!” Muniment exclaimed. “Your point of view has changed; you have risen in the world.”
“They didn’t suggest that to you in France, I’m sure!” Muniment exclaimed. “Your perspective has changed; you’ve moved up in the world.”
“Risen? Good God, what have I risen to?”
“Risen? Oh my God, what have I become?”
“True enough; you were always a bloated little swell!” And Muniment gave his young friend a sociable slap on the back. There was a momentary bitterness in its being imputed to such a one as Hyacinth, even in joke, that he had taken sides with the fortunate ones of the earth, and he had it on his tongue’s end to ask his friend if he had never guessed what his proud titles were—the bastard of a murderess, spawned in a gutter, out of which he had been picked by a sewing-girl. But his life-long reserve on this point was a habit not easily broken, and before such an inquiry could flash through it Muniment had gone on: “If you’ve ceased to believe we can do anything, it will be rather awkward, you know.”
“True enough; you were always a pompous little jerk!” And Muniment gave his young friend a friendly slap on the back. For a moment, Hyacinth felt a bitterness at the thought that, even as a joke, he was being linked to the lucky ones of the world. He almost asked his friend if he had never figured out what his proud titles were—the illegitimate child of a murderess, born in a gutter, from which a sewing-girl had rescued him. But his lifelong habit of keeping that part of himself reserved was hard to break, and before he could ask, Muniment continued: “If you’ve stopped believing we can do anything, it’s going to be a bit awkward, you know.”
“I don’t know what I believe, God help me!” Hyacinth remarked, in a tone of an effect so lugubrious that Paul gave one of his longest, most boyish-sounding laughs. And he added, “I don’t want you to think I have ceased to care for the people. What am I but one of the poorest and meanest of them?”
“I don’t know what I believe, God help me!” Hyacinth said, in a tone so gloomy that Paul let out one of his longest, most boyish laughs. He added, “I don’t want you to think I’ve stopped caring about people. What am I but one of the poorest and lowliest among them?”
“You, my boy? You’re a duke in disguise, and so I thought the first time I ever saw you. That night I took you to Hoffendahl you had a little way with you that made me forget it; I mean that your disguise happened to be better than usual. As regards caring for the people, there’s surely no obligation at all,” Muniment continued. “I wouldn’t if I could help it—I promise you that. It all depends on what you see. The way I’ve used my eyes in this abominable metropolis has led to my seeing that present arrangements won’t do. They won’t do,” he repeated, placidly.
“You, my boy? You’re a duke in disguise, and that’s what I thought the first time I saw you. That night I took you to Hoffendahl, you had a charm about you that made me forget; I mean your disguise was better than usual. As for caring about the people, there’s really no obligation,” Muniment continued. “I wouldn’t if I could help it—I promise you that. It all depends on what you notice. The way I’ve looked at things in this awful city has shown me that the current situation just won’t work. It won’t work,” he repeated, calmly.
“Yes, I see that, too,” said Hyacinth, with the same dolefulness that had marked his tone a moment before—a dolefulness begotten of the rather helpless sense that, whatever he saw, he saw (and this was always the case) so many other things beside. He saw the immeasurable misery of the people, and yet he saw all that had been, as it were, rescued and redeemed from it: the treasures, the felicities, the splendours, the successes, of the world. All this took the form, sometimes, to his imagination, of a vast, vague, dazzling presence, an irradiation of light from objects undefined, mixed with the atmosphere of Paris and of Venice. He presently added that a hundred things Muniment had told him about the foul horrors of the worst districts of London, pictures of incredible shame and suffering that he had put before him, came back to him now, with the memory of the passion they had kindled at the time.
“Yes, I see that, too,” said Hyacinth, with the same sadness that had marked his tone a moment before—a sadness born from the helpless feeling that, no matter what he saw, he was always aware of so many other things alongside it. He saw the immense suffering of the people, but he also saw all that had been, in a way, saved and redeemed from it: the treasures, the joys, the glories, the achievements of the world. All this sometimes took the form, in his imagination, of a vast, hazy, dazzling presence, a glow of light from undefined objects, mixed with the atmosphere of Paris and Venice. He then added that a hundred things Muniment had told him about the terrible horrors of the worst neighborhoods in London—images of unimaginable shame and suffering he had presented to him—came back to him now, along with the memory of the passion they had stirred at the time.
“Oh, I don’t want you to go by what I have told you; I want you to go by what you have seen yourself. I remember there were things you told me that weren’t bad in their way.” And at this Paul Muniment sprang to his feet, as if their conversation had drawn to an end, or they must at all events be thinking of their homeward way. Hyacinth got up, too, while his companion stood there. Muniment was looking off toward London, with a face that expressed all the healthy singleness of his vision. Suddenly Paul remarked, as if it occurred to him to complete, or at any rate confirm, the declaration he had made a short time before, “Yes, I don’t believe in the millennium, but I do believe in the democracy.”
“Oh, I don’t want you to just go by what I told you; I want you to go by what you’ve seen for yourself. I remember there were things you told me that weren’t bad in their own way.” With that, Paul Muniment jumped to his feet, as if their conversation had reached its conclusion, or they should at least be thinking about heading home. Hyacinth stood up too, while his friend remained there. Muniment was looking off toward London, with a face that reflected the clarity of his vision. Suddenly, Paul added, as if he needed to finish or at least affirm what he had said earlier, “Yeah, I don’t believe in the millennium, but I do believe in democracy.”
The young man, as he spoke these words, struck his comrade as such a fine embodiment of the spirit of the people; he stood there, in his powerful, sturdy newness, with such an air of having learnt what he had learnt and of good-nature that had purposes in it, that our hero felt the simple inrush of his old, frequent pride at having a person of that promise, a nature of that capacity, for a friend. He passed his hand into Muniment’s arm and said, with an imperceptible tremor in his voice, “It’s no use your saying I’m not to go by what you tell me. I would go by what you tell me, anywhere. There’s no awkwardness to speak of. I don’t know that I believe exactly what you believe, but I believe in you, and doesn’t that come to the same thing?”
The young man, while saying these words, struck his friend as a perfect representation of the people's spirit; he stood there, exuding a strong, fresh energy and a sense of having truly absorbed his experiences, coupled with a friendly demeanor that had purpose. Our hero felt a familiar surge of pride in having someone so promising, with such potential, as a friend. He linked his arm through Muniment's and said, with a slight quiver in his voice, “You can say I shouldn’t go by what you tell me, but I would follow your advice anywhere. There's nothing awkward about it. I might not completely believe what you believe, but I believe in you, and doesn't that mean the same thing?”
Muniment evidently appreciated the cordiality and candour of this little tribute, and the way he showed it was by a movement of his arm, to check his companion, before they started to leave the spot, and by looking down at him with a certain anxiety of friendliness. “I should never have taken you to Hoffendahl if I hadn’t thought you would jump at the job. It was that flaring little oration of yours, at the club, when you floored Delancey for saying you were afraid, that put me up to it.”
Muniment clearly appreciated the warmth and honesty of this small gesture, and he showed it by raising his arm to signal his companion to wait before they left the spot, while looking down at him with a mix of concern and friendliness. “I never would have taken you to Hoffendahl if I didn’t think you would be eager for the job. It was that bold little speech of yours at the club, when you shut down Delancey for saying you were scared, that inspired me to do it.”
“I did jump at it—upon my word I did; and it was just what I was looking for. That’s all correct!” said Hyacinth, cheerfully, as they went forward. There was a strain of heroism in these words—of heroism of which the sense was not conveyed to Muniment by a vibration in their interlocked arms. Hyacinth did not make the reflection that he was infernally literal; he dismissed the sentimental problem that had bothered him; he condoned, excused, admired—he merged himself, resting happy for the time in the consciousness that Paul was a grand fellow, that friendship was a purer feeling than love, and that there was an immense deal of affection between them. He did not even observe at that moment that it was preponderantly on his own side.
“I really jumped at the chance—honestly, I did; and it was exactly what I was looking for. That’s completely true!” said Hyacinth, happily, as they moved on. There was a hint of bravery in those words—a kind of bravery that Muniment didn’t pick up on through their linked arms. Hyacinth didn’t realize that he was incredibly literal; he pushed aside the emotional dilemma that had been troubling him; he forgave, understood, admired—he blended into the moment, feeling good knowing that Paul was a great guy, that friendship was a deeper feeling than love, and that there was a whole lot of love between them. He didn’t even notice at that moment that most of it was coming from him.
XXXVI
A certain Sunday in November, more than three months after she had gone to live in Madeira Crescent, was so important an occasion for the Princess Casamassima that I must give as complete an account of it as the limits of my space will allow. Early in the afternoon a loud peal from her door-knocker came to her ear; it had a sound of resolution, almost of defiance, which made her look up from her book and listen. She was sitting by the fire, alone, with a volume of a heavy work on Labour and Capital in her hand. It was not yet four o’clock, but she had had candles for an hour; a dense brown fog made the daylight impure, without suggesting an answer to the question whether the scheme of nature had been to veil or to deepen the sabbatical dreariness. She was not tired of Madeira Crescent—such an idea she would indignantly have repudiated; but the prospect of a visitor was rather pleasant to her—the possibility even of his being an ambassador, or a cabinet minister, or another of the eminent personages with whom she had associated before embracing the ascetic life. They had not knocked at her present door hitherto in any great numbers, for more reasons than one; they were out of town, and she had taken pains to diffuse the belief that she had left England. If the impression prevailed, it was exactly the impression she had desired; she forgot this fact whenever she felt a certain surprise, even, it may be, a certain irritation, in perceiving that people were not taking the way to Madeira Crescent. She was making the discovery, in which she had had many predecessors, that in London it is only too possible to hide one’s self. It was very much in that fashion that Godfrey Sholto was in the habit of announcing himself, when he reappeared after the intervals she explicitly imposed upon him; there was a kind of artlessness, for so world-worn a personage, in the point he made of showing that he knocked with confidence, that he had as good a right as any other. This afternoon she was ready to accept a visit from him: she was perfectly detached from the shallow, frivolous world in which he lived, but there was still a freshness in her renunciation which coveted reminders and enjoyed comparisons; he would prove to her how right she had been to do exactly what she was doing. It did not occur to her that Hyacinth Robinson might be at her door, for it was understood between them that, except by special appointment, he was to come to see her only in the evening. She heard in the hail, when the servant arrived, a voice that she failed to recognise; but in a moment the door of the room was thrown open and the name of Mr Muniment was pronounced. It may be said at once that she felt great pleasure in hearing it, for she had both wished to see more of Hyacinth’s extraordinary friend and had given him up, so little likely had it begun to appear that he would put himself out for her. She had been glad he wouldn’t come, as she had told Hyacinth three months before; but now that he had come she was still more glad.
One Sunday in November, more than three months after she had moved to Madeira Crescent, was such an important occasion for Princess Casamassima that I need to give as complete an account of it as my space allows. Early in the afternoon, a loud knock at her door grabbed her attention; it had a boldness, almost a challenge, that made her look up from her book and listen. She was sitting alone by the fire, holding a hefty volume on Labour and Capital. It wasn’t yet four o’clock, but she’d had candles lit for an hour; a thick brown fog made the daylight gloomy, without clarifying whether nature intended to obscure or deepen the dreariness of the Sabbath. She was not tired of Madeira Crescent—such an idea she would have vehemently rejected—but the thought of a visitor was quite pleasant to her; the possibility that it could be an ambassador, a cabinet minister, or another distinguished person she had mingled with before opting for an ascetic lifestyle. They hadn’t come knocking at her current door in any significant numbers for various reasons; many were out of town, and she had worked hard to spread the belief that she had left England. If that impression lingered, it was precisely what she wanted; she forgot this fact whenever she felt a bit surprised, and perhaps even a bit irritated, realizing that people were not coming her way to Madeira Crescent. She was discovering, as many had before her, that in London it’s all too easy to hide oneself. Godfrey Sholto usually made his presence known in much the same way when he showed up after the intervals she had imposed on him; there was a certain simplicity, for such a world-weary person, in the way he knocked confidently, as if he had just as much right to be there as anyone else. That afternoon, she was ready to accept a visit from him: she was completely detached from the shallow, superficial world he inhabited, but there remained a freshness in her renunciation that craved reminders and enjoyed comparisons; he would demonstrate how right she had been to choose exactly what she was doing. It didn’t occur to her that Hyacinth Robinson might be at her door, since they had agreed he would only come to see her in the evening, unless specifically arranged otherwise. When the servant announced the arrival, she heard a voice she didn’t recognize; but soon the door swung open and Mr. Muniment’s name was announced. It should be noted right away that she felt great pleasure upon hearing it, as she had hoped to see more of Hyacinth’s extraordinary friend but had given him up, as it seemed unlikely he would go out of his way for her. She had been relieved he wouldn't come, as she’d told Hyacinth three months earlier; but now that he had arrived, she was even more delighted.
Presently he was sitting opposite to her, on the other side of the fire, with his big foot crossed over his big knee, his large, gloved hands fumbling with each other, drawing and smoothing the gloves (of very red, new-looking dog-skin) in places, as if they hurt him. So far as the size of his extremities, and even his attitude and movement, went, he might have belonged to her former circle. With the details of his dress remaining vague in the lamp-light, which threw into relief mainly his powerful, important head, he might have been one of the most considerable men she had ever known. The first thing she said to him was that she wondered extremely what had brought him at last to come to see her: the idea, when she proposed it, evidently had so little attraction for him. She had only seen him once since then—the day she met him coming into Audley Court as she was leaving it, after a visit to his sister—and, as he probably remembered, she had not on that occasion repeated her invitation.
Right now, he was sitting across from her on the other side of the fire, with his big foot crossed over his knee and his large, gloved hands nervously fidgeting with each other, adjusting and smoothing out the bright red, new-looking leather gloves in spots, as if they were uncomfortable. Given the size of his limbs and even his posture and movements, he could have been part of her previous social circle. In the dim lamp light, which highlighted mostly his strong, prominent face, he might have been one of the most significant men she had ever known. The first thing she said to him was that she was really curious about what finally brought him to see her: when she suggested it, the idea clearly held little interest for him. She had only seen him once since then—on the day she ran into him at Audley Court while leaving after a visit to his sister—and, as he probably recalled, she hadn’t repeated her invitation that time.
“It wouldn’t have done any good, at the time, if you had,” Muniment rejoined, with his natural laugh.
“It wouldn’t have made any difference back then if you had,” Muniment replied, laughing as he usually did.
“Oh, I felt that; my silence wasn’t accidental!” the Princess exclaimed, joining in his merriment.
“Oh, I felt that; my silence wasn’t by chance!” the Princess exclaimed, joining in his laughter.
“I have only come now—since you have asked me the reason—because my sister hammered at me, week after week, dinning it into me that I ought to. Oh, I’ve been under the lash! If she had left me alone, I wouldn’t have come.”
“I’ve only come now—since you asked me why—because my sister kept nagging me, week after week, insisting that I should. Oh, it’s been tough! If she had just left me alone, I wouldn’t have shown up.”
The Princess blushed on hearing these words, but not with shame or with pain; rather with the happy excitement of being spoken to in a manner so fresh and original. She had never before had a visitor who practised so racy a frankness, or who, indeed, had so curious a story to tell. She had never before so completely failed, and her failure greatly interested her, especially as it seemed now to be turning a little to success. She had succeeded promptly with every one, and the sign of it was that every one had rendered her a monotony of homage. Even poor little Hyacinth had tried, in the beginning, to say sweet things to her. This very different type of man appeared to have his thoughts fixed on anything but sweetness; she felt the liveliest hope that he would move further and further away from it. “I remember what you asked me—what good it would do you. I couldn’t tell you then; and though I now have had a long time to turn it over, I haven’t thought of it yet.”
The Princess blushed upon hearing these words, but not out of shame or pain; rather, it was the joyful thrill of being spoken to in such a fresh and original way. She had never had a visitor who was so refreshingly blunt or who had such an intriguing story to share. She had never before completely failed, and her failure fascinated her, especially as it now seemed to be turning a bit into success. She had always succeeded easily with everyone, which showed in the fact that everyone had showered her with the same boring flattery. Even poor little Hyacinth had tried, at first, to say nice things to her. This very different man seemed focused on anything but niceness; she felt a lively hope that he would drift further and further away from it. “I remember what you asked me—what good it would do you. I couldn’t tell you then; and even though I’ve had a lot of time to think it over, I still haven’t come up with anything.”
“Oh, but I hope it will do me some,” said Paul. “A fellow wants a reward, when he has made a great effort.”
“Oh, but I hope it will benefit me in some way,” said Paul. “A person deserves a reward when they’ve put in a lot of effort.”
“It does me some,” the Princess remarked, gaily.
“It helps me a bit,” the Princess said cheerfully.
“Naturally, the awkward things I say amuse you. But I don’t say them for that, but just to give you an idea.”
“Of course, the awkward things I say make you laugh. But I don’t say them for that reason; I just want to give you an idea.”
“You give me a great many ideas. Besides, I know you already a good deal.”
“You give me a lot of ideas. Plus, I already know you quite well.”
“From little Robinson, I suppose,” said Muniment.
"From little Robinson, I guess," Muniment said.
The Princess hesitated. “More particularly from Lady Aurora.”
The Princess paused. “Specifically from Lady Aurora.”
“Oh, she doesn’t know much about me!” the young man exclaimed.
“Oh, she doesn’t know much about me!” the young man declared.
“It’s a pity you say that, because she likes you.”
“It’s too bad you feel that way, because she really likes you.”
“Yes, she likes me,” Muniment replied, serenely.
“Yes, she likes me,” Muniment replied calmly.
Again the Princess hesitated. “And I hope you like her.”
Again, the Princess paused. “And I hope you like her.”
“Ay, she’s a dear old girl!”
“Ay, she’s a sweet old girl!”
The Princess reflected that her visitor was not a gentleman, like Hyacinth; but this made no difference in her present attitude. The expectation that he would be a gentleman had had nothing to do with her interest in him; that, in fact, had rested largely on the supposition that he had a rich plebeian strain. “I don’t know that there is any one in the world I envy so much,” she remarked; an observation which her visitor received in silence. “Better than any one I have ever met she has solved the problem—which, if we are wise, we all try to solve, don’t we?—of getting out of herself. She has got out of herself more perfectly than any one I have ever known. She has merged herself in the passion of doing something for others. That’s why I envy her,” said the Princess, with an explanatory smile, as if perhaps he didn’t understand her.
The Princess thought about how her visitor wasn't a gentleman like Hyacinth, but that didn't change how she felt right now. The assumption that he would be a gentleman hadn't influenced her interest in him; instead, it was mainly based on the idea that he had a wealthy common background. “I can’t think of anyone in the world I envy more,” she said, a comment her visitor took in silence. “Better than anyone I’ve ever met, she has figured out the challenge—which, if we’re smart, we all try to figure out, right?—of stepping outside of herself. She has stepped outside of herself more completely than anyone I’ve ever known. She has immersed herself in the passion of doing something for others. That’s why I envy her,” said the Princess, giving an explanatory smile as if he might not get her point.
“It’s an amusement, like any other,” said Paul Muniment.
“It’s entertainment, just like any other,” said Paul Muniment.
“Ah, not like any other! It carries light into dark places; it makes a great many wretched people considerably less wretched.”
“Ah, not like any other! It brings light into dark places; it makes many miserable people significantly less miserable.”
“How many, eh?” asked the young man, not exactly as if he wished to dispute, but as if it were always in him to enjoy an argument.
“How many, huh?” asked the young man, not really as if he wanted to argue, but as if he always enjoyed a good debate.
The Princess wondered why he should desire to argue at Lady Aurora’s expense. “Well, one who is very near to you, to begin with.”
The Princess wondered why he would want to argue at Lady Aurora’s expense. “Well, someone who is very close to you, to start with.”
“Oh, she’s kind, most kind; it’s altogether wonderful. But Rosy makes her considerably less wretched,” Paul Muniment rejoined.
“Oh, she’s really nice, incredibly nice; it's just amazing. But Rosy makes her a lot less miserable,” Paul Muniment responded.
“Very likely, of course; and so she does me.”
“Very likely, of course; and that’s how she feels about me too.”
“May I inquire what you are wretched about?” Muniment went on.
“Can I ask what you're upset about?” Muniment continued.
“About nothing at all. That’s the worst of it. But I am much happier now than I have ever been.”
“About nothing at all. That’s the worst part. But I’m way happier now than I’ve ever been.”
“Is that also about nothing?”
"Is that also about nothing?"
“No, about a sort of change that has taken place in my life. I have been able to do some little things.”
“No, I'm talking about a kind of change that has happened in my life. I've been able to do a few small things.”
“For the poor, I suppose you mean. Do you refer to the presents you have made to Rosy?” the young man inquired.
"For the poor, I guess that's what you mean. Are you talking about the gifts you've given to Rosy?" the young man asked.
“The presents?” The Princess appeared not to remember. “Oh, those are trifles. It isn’t anything one has been able to give; it’s some talks one has had, some convictions one has arrived at.”
“The gifts?” The Princess seemed to forget. “Oh, those are just small things. It’s not about what you can give; it’s the conversations you’ve had, the beliefs you’ve come to.”
“Convictions are a source of very innocent pleasure,” said the young man, smiling at his interlocutress with his bold, pleasant eyes, which seemed to project their glance further than any she had seen.
“Beliefs bring a kind of simple joy,” said the young man, smiling at his conversation partner with his confident, charming eyes, which seemed to see deeper than any she had encountered.
“Having them is nothing. It’s the acting on them,” the Princess replied.
“Having them means nothing. It’s about acting on them,” the Princess replied.
“Yes; that doubtless, too, is good.” He continued to look at her peacefully, as if he liked to consider that this might be what she had asked him to come for. He said nothing more, and she went on—
“Yes, that’s probably good too.” He kept looking at her calmly, as if he enjoyed thinking that this could be why she had asked him to come. He didn’t say anything more, and she continued—
“It’s far better, of course, when one is a man.”
“It’s definitely better, of course, when you’re a guy.”
“I don’t know. Women do pretty well what they like. My sister and you have managed, between you, to bring me to this.”
“I don’t know. Women usually get what they want. My sister and you have somehow managed to get me to this point.”
“It’s more your sister, I suspect, than I. But why, after all, should you have disliked so much to come?”
“It’s probably more your sister than me. But really, why did you dislike coming so much?”
“Well, since you ask me,” said Paul Muniment, “I will tell you frankly, though I don’t mean it uncivilly, that I don’t know what to make of you.”
“Well, since you asked me,” Paul Muniment said, “I’ll be honest with you, though I don’t mean it rudely, that I don’t know what to think of you.”
“Most people don’t,” returned the Princess. “But they usually take the risk.”
“Most people don’t,” replied the Princess. “But they usually take the chance.”
“Ah, well, I’m the most prudent of men.”
“Ah, well, I’m the most careful of men.”
“I was sure of it; that is one of the reasons why I wanted to know you. I know what some of your ideas are—Hyacinth Robinson has told me; and the source of my interest in them is partly the fact that you consider very carefully what you attempt.”
“I was certain of it; that's one of the reasons I wanted to get to know you. I know some of your ideas—Hyacinth Robinson has shared them with me; and part of my interest in them is the fact that you really think through what you take on.”
“That I do—I do,” said Muniment, simply.
“That I do—I do,” said Muniment, plainly.
The tone in which he said this would have been almost ignoble, as regards a kind of northern canniness which it expressed, had it not been corrected by the character of his face, his youth and strength, and his military eye. The Princess recognised both the shrewdness and the latent audacity as she rejoined, “To do anything with you would be very safe. It would be sure to succeed.”
The way he said this came off as almost unworthy, reflecting a kind of northern cleverness, but that impression was balanced by the look on his face, his youth and strength, and his military gaze. The Princess saw both the cleverness and the hidden boldness as she replied, “Working with you would be very safe. It would definitely succeed.”
“That’s what poor Hyacinth thinks,” said Paul Muniment.
“That’s what poor Hyacinth thinks,” Paul Muniment said.
The Princess wondered a little that he could allude in that light tone to the faith their young friend had placed in him, considering the consequences such a trustfulness might yet have; but this curious mixture of qualities could only make her visitor, as a tribune of the people, more interesting to her. She abstained for the moment from touching on the subject of Hyacinth’s peculiar position, and only said, “Hasn’t he told you about me? Hasn’t he explained me a little?”
The Princess was a bit surprised that he could casually reference the trust their young friend had placed in him, given the potential consequences of such faith. However, this mix of qualities only made her visitor, as a representative of the people, more intriguing to her. She decided to hold off on discussing Hyacinth’s unusual situation and simply asked, “Hasn’t he told you about me? Hasn’t he explained me a bit?”
“Oh, his explanations are grand!” Muniment exclaimed, hilariously. “He’s fine sport when he talks about you.”
“Oh, his explanations are amazing!” Muniment exclaimed, laughing. “He’s really entertaining when he talks about you.”
“Don’t betray him,” said the Princess, gently.
“Don’t betray him,” the Princess said softly.
“There’s nothing to betray. You would be the first to admire it if you were there. Besides, I don’t betray,” the young man added.
“There’s nothing to expose. You would be the first to appreciate it if you were there. Plus, I don’t betray,” the young man added.
“I love him very much,” said the Princess; and it would have been impossible for the most impudent cynic to smile at the manner in which she made the declaration.
“I love him so much,” said the Princess; and it would have been impossible for even the most arrogant cynic to smirk at the way she expressed it.
Paul accepted it respectfully. “He’s a sweet little lad, and, putting her ladyship aside, quite the light of our home.”
Paul accepted it with respect. “He’s a sweet little guy, and if we set her ladyship aside, he’s definitely the brightness of our home.”
There was a short pause after this exchange of amenities, which the Princess terminated by inquiring, “Wouldn’t some one else do his work quite as well?”
There was a brief pause after this exchange of pleasantries, which the Princess broke by asking, “Wouldn’t someone else do his job just as well?”
“His work? Why, I’m told he’s a master-hand.”
“His work? Well, I’ve heard he’s a real expert.”
“Oh, I don’t mean his bookbinding.” Then the Princess added, “I don’t know whether you know it, but I am in correspondence with Hoffendahl. I am acquainted with many of our most important men.”
“Oh, I’m not referring to his bookbinding.” Then the Princess added, “I’m not sure if you’re aware, but I’m in touch with Hoffendahl. I know many of our most influential people.”
“Yes, I know it. Hyacinth has told me. Do you mention it as a guarantee, so that I may know you are genuine?”
“Yes, I know. Hyacinth has told me. Are you bringing it up as a guarantee so that I can be sure you're genuine?”
“Not exactly; that would be weak, wouldn’t it?” the Princess asked. “My genuineness must be in myself—a matter for you to appreciate as you know me better; not in my references and vouchers.”
“Not exactly; that would be weak, wouldn’t it?” the Princess asked. “My authenticity has to come from within—something for you to recognize as you get to know me better; not in my references and endorsements.”
“I shall never know you better. What business is it of mine?”
“I'll never know you better. What’s it to me?”
“I want to help you,” said the Princess, and as she made this earnest appeal her face became transfigured; it wore an expression of the most passionate yet the purest longing. “I want to do something for the cause you represent; for the millions that are rotting under our feet—the millions whose whole life is passed on the brink of starvation, so that the smallest accident pushes them over. Try me, test me; ask me to put my hand to something, to prove that I am as deeply in earnest as those who have already given proof. I know what I am talking about—what one must meet and face and count with, the nature and the immensity of your organisation. I am not playing. No, I am not playing.”
“I want to help you,” said the Princess, and as she made this heartfelt plea, her face transformed; it held a look of the most intense yet purest yearning. “I want to do something for the cause you stand for; for the millions who are suffering at our feet—the millions whose entire lives are spent on the edge of starvation, so that the smallest accident sends them over. Try me, test me; ask me to take on something, to show that I am just as serious as those who have already proven themselves. I know what I’m talking about—what you have to confront and deal with, the nature and the enormity of your organization. I’m not messing around. No, I’m not messing around.”
Paul Muniment watched her with his steady smile until this sudden outbreak had spent itself. “I was afraid you would be like this—that you would turn on the fountains and let off the fireworks.”
Paul Muniment watched her with his calm smile until this sudden outburst faded away. “I was worried you’d be like this—that you’d unleash the fountains and set off the fireworks.”
“Permit me to believe you thought nothing about it. There is no reason my fireworks should disturb you.”
“Let me believe you didn’t think anything of it. There’s no reason my fireworks should bother you.”
“I have always had a fear of women.”
“I've always been afraid of women.”
“I see—that’s a part of your prudence,” said the Princess, reflectively. “But you are the sort of man who ought to know how to use them.”
“I see—that’s part of your caution,” said the Princess, thoughtfully. “But you’re the kind of man who should know how to use them.”
Muniment said nothing, immediately, in answer to this; the way he appeared to consider the Princess suggested that he was not following closely what she said, so much as losing himself in certain matters which were beside that question—her beauty, for instance, her grace, her fragrance, the spectacle of a manner and quality so new to him. After a little, however, he remarked, irrelevantly, “I’m afraid I’m very rude.”
Muniment didn’t respond right away; it seemed he was more focused on the Princess herself than on what she was saying. He seemed to be getting lost in thoughts about her beauty, her grace, her scent, and the overall experience of encountering someone so different from anyone he knew. After a moment, though, he commented, somewhat out of the blue, “I’m afraid I’m being really rude.”
“Of course you are, but it doesn’t signify. What I mainly object to is that you don’t answer my questions. Would not some one else do Hyacinth Robinson’s work quite as well? Is it necessary to take a nature so delicate, so intellectual? Oughtn’t we to keep him for something finer?”
“Of course you are, but that doesn’t matter. What I mainly have an issue with is that you don’t answer my questions. Wouldn’t someone else do Hyacinth Robinson’s work just as well? Is it really necessary to take someone so delicate and intellectual? Shouldn’t we save him for something better?”
“Finer than what?”
"Better than what?"
“Than what Hoffendahl will call upon him to do.”
“Than what Hoffendahl will ask him to do.”
“And pray what is that?” the young man demanded. “You know nothing about it; no more do I,” he added in a moment. “It will require whatever it will. Besides, if some one else might have done it, no one else volunteered. It happened that Robinson did.”
“And what exactly is that?” the young man asked. “You don’t know anything about it; neither do I,” he added after a moment. “It will take whatever it will take. Plus, if someone else could have done it, they didn’t step up. It just so happened that Robinson did.”
“Yes, and you nipped him up!” the Princess exclaimed.
“Yes, and you caught him!” the Princess exclaimed.
At this expression Muniment burst out laughing. “I have no doubt you can easily keep him, if you want him.”
At this, Muniment broke out laughing. “I’m sure you can easily keep him if you want to.”
“I should like to do it in his place—that’s what I should like,” said the Princess.
“I would like to do it for him—that’s what I would like,” said the Princess.
“As I say, you don’t even know what it is.”
“As I said, you don’t even know what it is.”
“It may be nothing,” she went on, with her grave eyes fixed on her visitor. “I dare say you think that what I wanted to see you for was to beg you to let him off. But it wasn’t. Of course it’s his own affair, and you can do nothing. But oughtn’t it to make some difference, when his opinions have changed?”
“It might be nothing,” she continued, her serious eyes locked on her visitor. “I bet you think I wanted to see you to ask you to let him go. But that’s not it. Sure, it’s his own issue, and you can’t do anything about it. But shouldn’t it matter a little when his views have shifted?”
“His opinions? He never had any opinions,” Muniment replied. “He is not like you and me.”
“His opinions? He never had any,” Muniment replied. “He's not like you and me.”
“Well, then, his feelings, his attachments. He hasn’t the passion for democracy he had when I first knew him. He’s much more tepid.”
“Well, then, his feelings, his attachments. He doesn’t have the passion for democracy that he had when I first knew him. He’s much more lukewarm.”
“Ah, well, he’s quite right.”
“Ah, well, he’s totally right.”
The Princess stared. “Do you mean that you are giving up—?”
The Princess stared. “Do you mean that you are giving up—?”
“A fine stiff conservative is a thing I perfectly understand,” said Paul Muniment. “If I were on the top, I’d stick there.”
“A really rigid conservative is something I totally get,” said Paul Muniment. “If I were in charge, I’d stay there.”
“I see, you are not narrow,” the Princess murmured, appreciatively.
“I see, you’re not narrow-minded,” the Princess said, with appreciation.
“I beg your pardon, I am. I don’t call that wide. One must be narrow to penetrate.”
“I’m sorry, but I don’t think that’s very wide. You have to be narrow to get through.”
“Whatever you are, you’ll succeed,” said the Princess. “Hyacinth won’t, but you will.”
“Whoever you are, you’ll do great,” said the Princess. “Hyacinth won’t, but you will.”
“It depends upon what you call success!” the young man exclaimed. And in a moment, before she replied, he added, looking about the room, “You’ve got a very lovely dwelling.”
“It depends on what you consider success!” the young man exclaimed. And a moment later, before she could respond, he added, looking around the room, “You have a really lovely place.”
“Lovely? My dear sir, it’s hideous. That’s what I like it for,” the Princess added.
“Lovely? My dear sir, it’s terrible. That’s why I like it,” the Princess added.
“Well, I like it; but perhaps I don’t know the reason. I thought you had given up everything—pitched your goods out of the window, for a grand scramble.”
“Well, I like it; but maybe I’m not sure why. I thought you had thrown everything out—dumped your stuff out the window for a big rush.”
“Well, so I have. You should have seen me before.”
“Well, I have. You should've seen me back then.”
“I should have liked that,” said Muniment, smiling. “I like to see solid wealth.”
“I would have liked that,” said Muniment, smiling. “I enjoy seeing real wealth.”
“Ah, you’re as bad as Hyacinth. I am the only consistent one!” the Princess sighed.
“Ugh, you’re just as bad as Hyacinth. I’m the only one who’s consistent!” the Princess sighed.
“You have a great deal left, for a person who has given everything away.”
“You have a lot left, for someone who has given everything away.”
“These are not mine—these abominations—or I would give them, too!” Paul’s hostess rejoined, artlessly.
“These aren’t mine—these awful things—or I would give them away, too!” Paul’s hostess replied, innocently.
Muniment got up from his chair, still looking about the room. “I would give my nose for such a place as this. At any rate, you are not yet reduced to poverty.”
Muniment got up from his chair, still looking around the room. “I would give anything for a place like this. At least, you’re not completely broke yet.”
“I have a little left—to help you.”
“I've got a little bit left—to help you.”
“I dare say you’ve a great deal,” said Paul, with his north-country accent.
“I bet you have a lot,” said Paul, with his northern accent.
“I could get money—I could get money,” the Princess continued, gravely. She had also risen, and was standing before him.
“I could get money—I could get money,” the Princess continued, seriously. She had also stood up and was facing him.
These two remarkable persons faced each other, their eyes met again, and they exchanged a long, deep glance of mutual scrutiny. Each seemed to drop a plummet into the other’s mind. Then a strange and, to the Princess, unexpected expression passed over the countenance of the young man; his lips compressed themselves, as if he were making a strong effort, his colour rose, and in a moment he stood there blushing like a boy. He dropped his eyes and stared at the carpet, while he observed, “I don’t trust women—I don’t trust women!”
These two incredible people faced each other, their eyes locked again, and they exchanged a long, deep look of mutual examination. Each seemed to dive into the other's thoughts. Then a strange and, for the Princess, surprising expression crossed the young man's face; his lips pressed together, as if he were trying really hard, his face flushed, and in a moment he stood there blushing like a young boy. He looked down and stared at the carpet, while he remarked, “I don’t trust women—I don’t trust women!”
“I am sorry, but, after all, I can understand it,” said the Princess; “therefore I won’t insist on the question of your allowing me to work with you. But this appeal I will make to you: help me a little yourself—help me!”
“I’m sorry, but honestly, I get it,” said the Princess. “So I won’t push you to let me work with you. But I do have one request: please help me a bit—help me!”
“How do you mean, help you?” Muniment demanded, raising his eyes, which had a new, conscious look.
“How do you mean, help you?” Muniment asked, lifting his eyes, which had a new, aware expression.
“Advise me; you will know how. I am in trouble—I have gone very far.”
“Please help me; you know how to. I'm in trouble—I've come a long way.”
“I have no doubt of that!” said Paul, laughing.
“I have no doubt about that!” said Paul, laughing.
“I mean with some of those people abroad. I’m not frightened, but I’m perplexed; I want to know what to do.”
“I mean with some of those people overseas. I’m not scared, but I’m confused; I want to know what to do.”
“No, you are not frightened,” Muniment rejoined, after a moment.
“No, you’re not scared,” Muniment replied after a moment.
“I am, however, in a sad entanglement. I think you can straighten it out. I will give you the facts, but not now, for we shall be interrupted; I hear my old lady on the stairs. For this, you must come to see me again.”
“I’m in a bit of a sad situation. I believe you can help me sort it out. I’ll share the details, but not right now, as I think we’re about to be interrupted; I can hear my wife coming up the stairs. For this, you’ll need to visit me again.”
At this point the door opened, and Madame Grandoni appeared, cautiously, creepingly, as if she didn’t know what might be going on in the parlour. “Yes, I will come again,” said Paul Muniment, in a low but distinct tone; and he walked away, passing Madame Grandoni on the threshold, without having exchanged the hand-shake of farewell with his hostess. In the hall he paused an instant, feeling she was behind him; and he learned that she had not come to exact from him this omitted observance, but to say once more, dropping her voice, so that her companion, through the open door, might not hear—
At that moment, the door opened, and Madame Grandoni appeared cautiously, tiptoeing as if she wasn't sure what might be happening in the living room. “Yes, I’ll come again,” Paul Muniment said in a soft but clear voice, and he walked away, passing Madame Grandoni in the doorway without exchanging a farewell handshake with his hostess. In the hallway, he paused for a moment, sensing she was behind him; and he realized she hadn't come to make him apologize for this oversight, but to say once more, lowering her voice so that her companion outside the open door wouldn't hear—
“I could get money—I could!”
“I can get money—I can!”
Muniment passed his hand through his hair, and, as if he had not heard her, remarked, “I have not given you, after all, half Rosy’s messages.”
Muniment ran his fingers through his hair and, as if he hadn’t heard her, said, “I haven’t given you, after all, half of Rosy’s messages.”
“Oh, that doesn’t matter!” the Princess answered, turning back into the parlour.
“Oh, that doesn’t matter!” the Princess replied, turning back into the parlor.
Madame Grandoni was in the middle of the room, wrapped in an old shawl, looking vaguely around her, and the two ladies heard the house-door close. “And pray, who may that be? Isn’t it a new face?” the elder one inquired.
Madame Grandoni was in the middle of the room, wrapped in an old shawl, glancing around her, and the two ladies heard the front door shut. “And who might that be? Isn’t that a new face?” the older one asked.
“He’s the brother of the little person I took you to see over the river—the chattering cripple with the wonderful manners.”
“He's the brother of the little person I took you to see across the river—the chatty person with a disability who has amazing manners.”
“Ah, she had a brother! That, then, was why you went?”
“Ah, she had a brother! Is that why you went?”
It was striking, the good-humour with which the Princess received this rather coarse thrust, which could have been drawn from Madame Grandoni only by the petulance and weariness of increasing age, and the antipathy she now felt to Madeira Crescent and everything it produced. Christina bent a calm, charitable smile upon her ancient companion, and replied—
It was impressive how good-naturedly the Princess took this rather blunt comment, which could only have come from Madame Grandoni due to the irritability and fatigue of her advancing age, along with the dislike she now had for Madeira Crescent and everything it brought. Christina offered a calm, kind smile to her elderly friend and replied—
“There could have been no question of our seeing him. He was, of course, at his work.”
“There was no way we could see him. He was busy with his work, of course.”
“Ah, how do I know, my dear? And is he a successor?”
“Ah, how am I supposed to know, my dear? And is he a successor?”
“A successor?”
“A successor?”
“To the little bookbinder.”
“To the young bookbinder.”
“My darling,” said the Princess, “you will see how absurd that question is when I tell you he’s his greatest friend!”
“My darling,” said the Princess, “you’ll see how ridiculous that question is when I tell you he’s his best friend!”
XXXVII
Half an hour after Paul Muniment’s departure the Princess heard another rat-tat-tat at her door; but this was a briefer, discreeter peal, and was accompanied by a faint tintinnabulation. The person who had produced it was presently ushered in, without, however, causing Madame Grandoni to look round, or rather to look up, from an arm-chair as low as a sitz-bath, and of very much the shape of such a receptacle, in which, near the fire, she had been immersed. She left this care to the Princess, who rose on hearing the name of the visitor pronounced, inadequately, by her maid. ‘Mr Fetch’ Assunta called it; but the Princess recognised without difficulty the little fat, ‘reduced’ fiddler of whom Hyacinth had talked to her, who, as Pinnie’s most intimate friend, had been so mixed up with his existence, and whom she herself had always had a curiosity to see. Hyacinth had not told her he was coming, and the unexpectedness of the apparition added to its interest. Much as she liked seeing queer types and exploring out-of-the-way social corners, she never engaged in a fresh encounter, nor formed a new relation of this kind, without a fit of nervousness, a fear that she might be awkward and fail to hit the right tone. She perceived in a moment, however, that Mr Vetch would take her as she was and require no special adjustments; he was a gentleman and a man of experience, and she would only have to leave the tone to him. He stood there with his large, polished hat in his two hands, a hat of the fashion of ten years before, with a rusty sheen and an undulating brim—stood there without a salutation or a speech, but with a little fixed, acute, tentative smile, which seemed half to inquire and half to explain. What he explained was that he was clever enough to be trusted, and that if he had come to see her that way, abruptly, without an invitation, he had a reason which she would be sure to think good enough when she should hear it. There was even a certain jauntiness in this confidence—an insinuation that he knew how to present himself to a lady; and though it quickly appeared that he really did, that was the only thing about him that was inferior—it suggested a long experience of actresses at rehearsal, with whom he had formed habits of advice and compliment.
Half an hour after Paul Muniment left, the Princess heard another knock at her door; this one was shorter and more discreet, accompanied by a faint jingling sound. The person who knocked was soon brought in, without causing Madame Grandoni to look around or, more accurately, to look up from a low armchair that resembled a sitz-bath, where she had been sitting near the fire. She left it to the Princess to respond, who got up upon hearing the visitor's name spoken, albeit softly, by her maid. "Mr. Fetch," Assunta called him, but the Princess immediately recognized the little chubby, 'reduced' fiddler that Hyacinth had talked about, who had been such a close friend of Pinnie and who always piqued her curiosity. Hyacinth hadn't mentioned he was coming, and the surprise of his arrival made it more interesting. Despite her love for meeting unusual characters and discovering unique social circles, she always felt a bit anxious before new encounters, worried about being awkward and not getting the right vibe. However, she quickly realized that Mr. Vetch would accept her as she was without needing any adjustments; he was a gentleman and experienced, so she could leave the tone to him. He stood there holding his large, polished hat with both hands, a style that's been out for about ten years, with a rusty shine and a wavy brim—standing there without a greeting or any speech, just a little fixed, sharp, tentative smile that seemed to both ask and explain something. What he conveyed was that he was trustworthy, and that if he had come to see her uninvited, he had a reason that she'd surely find good enough once she heard it. There was even a bit of a swagger in his confidence, suggesting that he knew how to present himself to a lady; and while it soon became clear that he did, this was the only part of him that seemed less impressive—it hinted at a long history with actresses at rehearsals, where he'd developed habits of giving advice and compliments.
“I know who you are—I know who you are,” said the Princess, though she could easily see that he knew she did.
“I know who you are—I know who you are,” said the Princess, even though it was clear to her that he knew she did.
“I wonder whether you also know why I have come to see you,” Mr Vetch replied, presenting the top of his hat to her as if it were a looking-glass.
“I wonder if you know why I came to see you,” Mr. Vetch replied, tilting his hat toward her as if it were a mirror.
“No, but it doesn’t matter. I am very glad; you might even have come before.” Then the Princess added, with her characteristic honesty, “Don’t you know of the great interest I have taken in your nephew?”
“No, but it doesn’t matter. I’m really glad; you might have even come earlier.” Then the Princess added, with her usual honesty, “Don’t you know how much I care about your nephew?”
“In my nephew? Yes, my young friend Robinson. It is in regard to him that I have ventured to intrude upon you.”
“In my nephew? Yes, my young friend Robinson. It’s about him that I’ve taken the liberty to intrude upon you.”
The Princess had been on the point of pushing a chair toward him, but she stopped in the act, staring, with a smile. “Ah, I hope you haven’t come to ask me to give him up!”
The Princess was about to push a chair toward him, but she paused, staring at him with a smile. “Oh, I hope you’re not here to ask me to give him up!”
“On the contrary—on the contrary!” the old man rejoined, lifting his hand expressively, and with his head on one side, as if he were holding his violin.
“On the contrary—on the contrary!” the old man replied, raising his hand dramatically, tilting his head to one side as if he were holding his violin.
“How do you mean, on the contrary?” the Princess demanded, after he had seated himself and she had sunk into her former place. As if that might sound contradictious, she went on: “Surely he hasn’t any fear that I shall cease to be a good friend to him?”
“How do you mean, on the contrary?” the Princess asked, after he had taken his seat and she had settled back into her previous position. As if that might sound contradictory, she continued: “Surely he doesn’t think I’ll stop being a good friend to him?”
“I don’t know what he fears; I don’t know what he hopes,” said Mr Vetch, looking at her now with a face in which she could see there was something more tonic than old-fashioned politeness. “It will be difficult to tell you, but at least I must try. Properly speaking, I suppose, it’s no business of mine, as I am not a blood-relation to the boy; but I have known him since he was an urchin, and I can’t help saying that I thank you for your great kindness to him.”
“I don’t know what he fears; I don’t know what he hopes,” said Mr. Vetch, looking at her now with an expression that felt more refreshing than just old-fashioned politeness. “It’s going to be hard to explain, but I have to try. Technically, I guess it’s not my place to say, since I’m not related to the boy by blood; but I’ve known him since he was a little kid, and I just have to thank you for being so kind to him.”
“All the same, I don’t think you like it,” the Princess remarked. “To me it oughtn’t to be difficult to say anything.”
“All the same, I don’t think you like it,” the Princess said. “It shouldn’t be hard for me to say anything.”
“He has told me very little about you; he doesn’t know I have taken this step,” the fiddler said, turning his eyes about the room, and letting them rest on Madame Grandoni.
“He has told me very little about you; he doesn’t know I’ve taken this step,” the fiddler said, glancing around the room before settling his gaze on Madame Grandoni.
“Why do you call it a ‘step’?” the Princess asked. “That’s what people say when they have to do something disagreeable.”
“Why do you call it a ‘step’?” the Princess asked. “That’s what people say when they have to do something unpleasant.”
“I call very seldom on ladies. It’s long time since I have been in the house of a person like the Princess Casamassima. I remember the last time,” said the old man. “It was to get some money from a lady at whose party I had been playing—for a dance.”
“I rarely visit ladies. It's been a long time since I've been in the house of someone like Princess Casamassima. I remember the last time,” said the old man. “It was to get some money from a lady whose party I had played at—for a dance.”
“You must bring your fiddle, sometime, and play to us. Of course I don’t mean for money,” the Princess rejoined.
“You need to bring your fiddle sometime and play for us. Of course, I don’t mean for money,” the Princess replied.
“I will do it with pleasure, or anything else that will gratify you. But my ability is very small. I only know vulgar music—things that are played at theatres.”
“I'll happily do it, or anything else that makes you happy. But my skills are pretty limited. I only know popular music—stuff that’s played at theaters.”
“I don’t believe that; there must be things you play for yourself, in your room, alone.”
“I don’t believe that; there have to be things you play for yourself, in your room, alone.”
For a moment the old man made no reply; then he said, “Now that I see you, that I hear you, it helps me to understand.”
For a moment, the old man didn't respond; then he said, “Now that I see you and hear you, it helps me understand.”
“I don’t think you do see me!” cried the Princess, kindly, laughing; while the fiddler went on to ask whether there were any danger of Hyacinth’s coming in while he was there. The Princess replied that he only came, unless by prearrangement, in the evening, and Mr Vetch made a request that she would not let their young friend know that he himself had been with her. “It doesn’t matter; he will guess it, he will know it by instinct, as soon as he comes in. He is terribly subtle,” said the Princess; and she added that she had never been able to hide anything from him. Perhaps it served her right, for attempting to make a mystery of things that were not worth it.
“I don’t think you actually see me!” the Princess laughed kindly, while the fiddler asked if there was any chance of Hyacinth coming in while he was there. The Princess replied that he only came in the evening, unless they had arranged otherwise, and Mr. Vetch requested that she didn’t let their young friend know he had been with her. “It doesn’t matter; he’ll figure it out, he’ll know it instinctively as soon as he walks in. He’s incredibly perceptive,” said the Princess, adding that she had never been able to hide anything from him. Maybe it was her own fault for trying to create a mystery around things that weren’t worth it.
“How well you know him!” Mr Vetch murmured, with his eyes wandering again to Madame Grandoni, who paid no attention to him as she sat staring at the fire. He delayed, visibly, to say what he had come for, and his hesitation could only be connected with the presence of the old lady. He said to himself that the Princess might have divined this from his manner; he had an idea that he could trust himself to convey such an intimation with clearness and yet with delicacy. But the most she appeared to apprehend was that he desired to be presented to her companion.
“How well you know him!” Mr. Vetch murmured, his eyes once again drifting to Madame Grandoni, who was completely absorbed in the fire. He hesitated, clearly stalling to say what he came for, and this pause could only be linked to the old lady’s presence. He thought that the Princess might have picked up on this from his demeanor; he felt he could manage to communicate such a hint clearly but sensitively. However, the most she seemed to understand was that he wanted to be introduced to her companion.
“You must know the most delightful of women. She also takes a particular interest in Mr Robinson: of a different kind from mine—much more sentimental!” And then she explained to the old lady, who seemed absorbed in other ideas, that Mr Vetch was a distinguished musician, a person whom she, who had known so many in her day, and was so fond of that kind of thing, would like to talk with. The Princess spoke of ‘that kind of thing’ quite as if she herself had given it up, though Madame Grandoni heard her by the hour together improvising on the piano revolutionary battle-songs and pæans.
“You must know the most charming woman. She also has a special interest in Mr. Robinson, but it's a different kind from mine—much more sentimental!” Then she explained to the old lady, who seemed lost in her own thoughts, that Mr. Vetch was a renowned musician, someone she, who had met so many in her time and loved that sort of thing, would enjoy talking to. The Princess spoke of ‘that sort of thing’ as if she had given it up herself, even though Madame Grandoni would often hear her improvising on the piano for hours, playing revolutionary battle songs and hymns.
“I think you are laughing at me,” Mr Vetch said to the Princess, while Madame Grandoni twisted herself slowly round in her chair and considered him. She looked at him leisurely, up and down, and then she observed, with a sigh—
“I think you’re laughing at me,” Mr. Vetch said to the Princess, while Madame Grandoni slowly turned in her chair and looked him over. She took her time studying him, up and down, and then she remarked with a sigh—
“Strange people—strange people!”
“Odd people—odd people!”
“It is indeed a strange world, madam,” the fiddler replied; and he then inquired of the Princess whether he might have a little conversation with her in private.
“It’s really a strange world, ma'am,” the fiddler replied; and then he asked the Princess if he could have a brief conversation with her alone.
She looked about her, embarrassed and smiling. “My dear sir, I have only this one room to receive in. We live in a very small way.”
She glanced around, feeling embarrassed but smiling. “My dear sir, I only have this one room to entertain in. We live quite modestly.”
“Yes, your excellency is laughing at me. Your ideas are very large, too. However, I would gladly come at any other time that might suit you.”
“Yes, your excellency is laughing at me. Your ideas are very big, too. However, I would be happy to come at any other time that works for you.”
“You impute to me higher spirits than I possess. Why should I be so gay?” the Princess asked. “I should be delighted to see you again. I am extremely curious as to what you may have to say to me. I would even meet you anywhere—in Kensington Gardens or the British Museum.”
“You attribute to me a cheerfulness that I don’t have. Why should I be so happy?” the Princess asked. “I would love to see you again. I’m really curious about what you might have to say to me. I would even meet you anywhere—in Kensington Gardens or the British Museum.”
The fiddler looked at her a moment before replying; then, with his white old face flushing a little, he exclaimed, “Poor dear little Hyacinth!”
The fiddler looked at her for a moment before answering; then, with his old white face turning a bit red, he exclaimed, “Poor sweet little Hyacinth!”
Madame Grandoni made an effort to rise from her chair, but she had sunk so low that at first it was not successful. Mr Vetch gave her his hand, to help her, and she slowly erected herself, keeping hold of him for a moment after she stood there. “What did she tell me? That you are a great musician? Isn’t that enough for any man? You ought to be content, my dear gentleman. It has sufficed for people whom I don’t believe you surpass.”
Madame Grandoni tried to get up from her chair, but she had sunk so low that she couldn’t do it at first. Mr. Vetch offered his hand to help her, and she slowly pulled herself up, holding onto him for a moment after she stood there. “What did she say? That you’re a great musician? Isn’t that enough for any man? You should be satisfied, my dear sir. That’s been enough for people who I don’t think you’re any less talented than.”
“I don’t surpass any one,” said poor Mr Vetch. “I don’t know what you take me for.”
“I don’t outdo anyone,” said poor Mr. Vetch. “I don’t know what you think I am.”
“You are not a conspirator, then? You are not an assassin? It surprises me, but so much the better. In this house one can never know. It is not a good house, and if you are a respectable person it is a pity you should come here. Yes, she is very gay, and I am very sad. I don’t know how it will end. After me, I hope. The world is not good, certainly; but God alone can make it better.” And as the fiddler expressed the hope that he was not the cause of her leaving the room, she went on, “Doch, doch, you are the cause; but why not you as well as another? I am always leaving it for some one or for some thing, and I would sooner do so for an honest man, if you are one—but, as I say, who can tell?—than for a destroyer. I wander about. I have no rest. I have, however, a very nice room, the best in the house. Me, at least, she does not treat ill. It looks to-day like the end of all things. If you would turn your climate the other side up, the rest would do well enough. Good-night to you, whoever you are.”
“You’re not part of a conspiracy, are you? You’re not an assassin? That surprises me, but it's a relief. In this house, you never really know. It's not a good place, and if you’re a decent person, it’s a shame you ended up here. Yes, she’s very cheerful, and I’m quite the opposite. I don’t know how this will turn out. I hope I’ll be gone first. The world definitely isn’t a good place; only God can make it better.” And as the fiddler hoped he wasn’t the reason she was leaving the room, she continued, “Doch, doch, you are the reason; but why not you just like anyone else? I’m always leaving for someone or something, and I’d rather do it for an honest man, if you are one—but, as I said, who can say?—than for a destroyer. I drift around. I have no peace. But I do have a really nice room, the best in the house. At least she doesn’t treat me badly. Today feels like the end of everything. If you could just flip your climate upside down, everything else would be fine. Good night to you, whoever you are.”
The old lady shuffled away, in spite of Mr Vetch’s renewed apologies, and the Princess stood before the fire, watching her companions, while he opened the door. “She goes away, she comes back; it doesn’t matter. She thinks it’s a bad house, but she knows it would be worse without her. I remember now,” the Princess added. “Mr Robinson told me that you had been a great democrat in old days, but that now you had ceased to care for the people.”
The old lady shuffled away, despite Mr. Vetch's apologies, and the Princess stood by the fire, watching her friends as he opened the door. “She leaves and then comes back; it doesn’t really matter. She thinks this place is terrible, but she knows it would be worse without her. I remember now,” the Princess added. “Mr. Robinson mentioned that you used to be a strong democrat, but now you’ve stopped caring about the people.”
“The people—the people? That is a vague term. Whom do you mean?”
“The people—the people? That’s a vague term. Who are you talking about?”
The Princess hesitated. “Those you used to care for, to plead for; those who are underneath every one, every thing, and have the whole social mass crushing them.”
The Princess hesitated. “The people you once cared about, the ones you used to advocate for; those who are beneath everyone and everything, and have the entire social system weighing them down.”
“I see you think I’m a renegade. The way certain classes arrogate to themselves the title of the people has never pleased me. Why are some human beings the people, and the people only, and others not? I am of the people myself, I have worked all my days like a knife-grinder, and I have really never changed.”
“I see you think I’m a rebel. The way certain groups claim the title of the people has never sat well with me. Why are some people considered the people and others not? I am of the people myself; I have worked all my life like a knife grinder, and I have really never changed.”
“You must not let me make you angry,” said the Princess, laughing and sitting down again. “I am sometimes very provoking, but you must stop me off. You wouldn’t think it, perhaps, but no one takes a snub better than I.”
“You can’t let me get you upset,” said the Princess, laughing and sitting back down. “I can be pretty annoying sometimes, but you need to put a stop to it. You might not believe it, but I actually handle rejection better than anyone.”
Mr Vetch dropped his eyes a minute; he appeared to wish to show that he regarded such a speech as that as one of the Princess’s characteristic humours, and knew that he should be wanting in respect to her if he took it seriously or made a personal application of it. “What I want is this,” he began, after a moment: “that you will—that you will—” But he stopped before he had got further. She was watching him, listening to him, and she waited while he paused. It was a long pause, and she said nothing. “Princess,” the old man broke out at last, “I would give my own life many times for that boy’s!”
Mr. Vetch lowered his gaze for a moment; it seemed he wanted to indicate that he saw the Princess's remark as one of her typical quirks, and he knew it would be disrespectful to take it seriously or apply it to himself. “What I want is this,” he started, after a brief silence: “that you will—that you will—” But he halted before he could say more. She was watching him, listening intently, and remained silent as he hesitated. It was a long pause, and she said nothing. “Princess,” the old man finally exclaimed, “I would give my life many times over for that boy’s!”
“I always told him you must have been fond of him!” she cried, with bright exultation.
“I always told him you must have really liked him!” she exclaimed, with bright excitement.
“Fond of him? Pray, who can doubt it? I made him, I invented him!”
“Like him? Come on, who could doubt that? I created him, I came up with him!”
“He knows it, moreover,” said the Princess, smiling. “It is an exquisite organisation.” And as the old man gazed at her, not knowing, apparently, what to make of her tone, she continued: “It is a very interesting opportunity for me to learn certain things. Speak to me of his early years. How was he as a child? When I like people I want to know everything about them.”
“He knows it, too,” said the Princess, smiling. “It’s a really great setup.” And as the old man looked at her, seemingly unsure how to respond to her tone, she went on: “It’s a really interesting chance for me to learn some things. Tell me about his early years. What was he like as a kid? When I like people, I want to know everything about them.”
“I shouldn’t have supposed there was much left for you to learn about our young friend. You have taken possession of his life,” the fiddler added, gravely.
“I shouldn't have thought there was much left for you to learn about our young friend. You have taken over his life,” the fiddler said seriously.
“Yes, but as I understand you, you don’t complain of it? Sometimes one does so much more than one has intended. One must use one’s influence for good,” said the Princess, with the noble, gentle air of accessibility to reason that sometimes lighted up her face. And then she went on, irrelevantly: “I know the terrible story of his mother. He told it me himself, when he was staying with me; and in the course of my life I think I have never been more affected.”
“Yes, but as I understand it, you don’t complain about it? Sometimes, we end up doing so much more than we intended. We have to use our influence for good,” said the Princess, with the noble, gentle demeanor that sometimes lit up her face and made her seem open to reason. Then she continued, somewhat off-topic: “I know the terrible story of his mother. He told it to me himself when he stayed with me, and throughout my life, I don’t think I’ve ever been more affected.”
“That was my fault, that he ever learned it. I suppose he also told you that.”
“That was my mistake, letting him learn it in the first place. I guess he also told you that.”
“Yes, but I think he understood your idea. If you had the question to determine again, would you judge differently?”
“Yes, but I think he got your point. If you had to decide again, would you think differently?”
“I thought it would do him good,” said the old man, simply and rather wearily.
“I thought it would help him,” said the old man, straightforwardly and a bit tiredly.
“Well, I dare say it has,” the Princess rejoined, with the manner of wishing to encourage him.
“Well, I have to say it has,” the Princess replied, trying to encourage him.
“I don’t know what was in my head. I wanted him to quarrel with society. Now I want him to be reconciled to it,” Mr Vetch remarked, earnestly. He appeared to wish the Princess to understand that he made a great point of this.
“I don’t know what I was thinking. I wanted him to fight against society. Now I want him to be at peace with it,” Mr. Vetch said seriously. He seemed to want the Princess to realize that this was really important to him.
“Ah, but he is!” she immediately returned. “We often talk about that; he is not like me, who see all kinds of abominations. He’s a tremendous aristocrat. What more would you have?”
“Ah, but he is!” she quickly replied. “We talk about that a lot; he’s not like me, who sees all kinds of horrible things. He’s a total aristocrat. What else do you want?”
“Those are not the opinions that he expresses to me,” said Mr Vetch, shaking his head sadly. “I am greatly distressed, and I don’t understand. I have not come here with the presumptuous wish to cross-examine you, but I should like very much to know if I am wrong in believing that he has gone about with you in the bad quarters—in St Giles’s and Whitechapel.”
“Those aren’t the opinions he shares with me,” Mr. Vetch said, shaking his head sadly. “I’m really upset, and I don’t get it. I didn’t come here thinking I could interrogate you, but I really want to know if I am wrong in thinking he’s been hanging out with you in the rough areas—in St. Giles’s and Whitechapel.”
“We have certainly inquired and explored together,” the Princess admitted, “and in the depths of this huge, luxurious, wanton, wasteful city we have seen sights of unspeakable misery and horror. But we have been not only in the slums; we have been to a music-hall and a penny-reading.”
“We have definitely inquired and explored together,” the Princess confessed, “and in the depths of this vast, luxurious, indulgent, wasteful city, we have witnessed sights of unimaginable misery and horror. But we haven't just been to the slums; we’ve also been to a music hall and a penny reading.”
The fiddler received this information at first in silence, so that his hostess went on to mention some of the phases of life they had observed; describing with great vividness, but at the same time with a kind of argumentative moderation, several scenes which did little honour to ‘our boasted civilisation’. “What wonder is it, then, that he should tell me that things cannot go on any longer as they are?” he asked, when she had finished. “He said only the other day that he should regard himself as one of the most contemptible of human beings if he should do nothing to alter them, to better them.”
The fiddler took in this information quietly at first, prompting his hostess to continue discussing some of the life experiences they had seen; she described several scenes with a lot of detail but also with a sort of balanced reasoning, which did little to support ‘our so-called civilization.’ “Is it any surprise that he told me things can’t keep going like this?” he asked when she was done. “He mentioned just the other day that he would think of himself as one of the lowest human beings if he didn’t do something to change them, to improve them.”
“What wonder, indeed? But if he said that, he was in one of his bad days. He changes constantly, and his impressions change. The misery of the people is by no means always weighing on his heart. You tell me what he has told you; well, he has told me that the people may perish over and over, rather than the conquests of civilisation shall be sacrificed to them. He declares, at such moments, that they will be sacrificed—sacrificed utterly—if the ignorant masses get the upper hand.”
“What a surprise, right? But if he said that, he was having one of his off days. He changes all the time, and so do his feelings. The suffering of the people isn’t always on his mind. You tell me what he’s told you; well, he’s told me that the people can suffer again and again, rather than let the advances of civilization be compromised for them. He insists, in those moments, that they will be compromised—completely lost—if the ignorant masses gain control.”
“He needn’t be afraid! That will never happen.”
"He doesn't need to be afraid! That will never happen."
“I don’t know. We can at least try!”
“I don't know. At least we can give it a shot!”
“Try what you like, madam, but, for God’s sake, get the boy out of his mess!”
“Do whatever you want, ma'am, but for goodness' sake, get the boy out of this situation!”
The Princess had suddenly grown excited, in speaking of the cause she believed in, and she gave, for the moment, no heed to this appeal, which broke from Mr Vetch’s lips with a sudden passion of anxiety. Her beautiful head raised itself higher, and the deep expression that was always in her eyes became an extraordinary radiance. “Do you know what I say to Mr Robinson when he makes such remarks as that to me? I ask him what he means by civilisation. Let civilisation come a little, first, and then we will talk about it. For the present, face to face with those horrors, I scorn it, I deny it!” And the Princess laughed ineffable things, like some splendid syren of the Revolution.
The Princess suddenly became excited while talking about the cause she believed in, completely ignoring Mr. Vetch’s urgent appeal that came out with sudden anxiety. Her beautiful head lifted even higher, and the deep look in her eyes transformed into an extraordinary glow. “Do you know what I say to Mr. Robinson when he makes comments like that to me? I ask him what he means by civilization. Let civilization come a little first, and then we can talk about it. For now, faced with those horrors, I scorn it, I reject it!” And the Princess laughed enchanting things, like a magnificent siren of the Revolution.
“The world is very sad and very hideous, and I am happy to say that I soon shall have done with it. But before I go I want to save Hyacinth. If he’s a little aristocrat, as you say, there is so much the less fitness in his being ground in your mill. If he doesn’t even believe in what he pretends to do, that’s a pretty situation! What is he in for, madam? What devilish folly has he undertaken?”
“The world is really sad and ugly, and I’m happy to say that I will soon be done with it. But before I go, I want to save Hyacinth. If he’s a bit of an aristocrat, as you say, then it’s even more wrong for him to be caught up in your grind. If he doesn’t even believe in what he pretends to, that’s quite a situation! What’s he in for, ma'am? What crazy mess has he gotten himself into?”
“He is a strange mixture of contradictory impulses,” said the Princess, musingly. Then, as if calling herself back to the old man’s question, she continued: “How can I enter into his affairs with you? How can I tell you his secrets? In the first place, I don’t know them, and if I did—fancy me!”
“He's a weird mix of conflicting feelings,” the Princess said, lost in thought. Then, as if snapping back to the old man’s question, she continued, “How can I get involved in his matters with you? How can I share his secrets? First of all, I don’t know them, and even if I did—just imagine me!”
The fiddler gave a long, low sigh, almost a moan, of discouragement and perplexity. He had told the Princess that now he saw her he understood how Hyacinth should have become her slave, but he would not have been able to tell her that he understood her own motives and mysteries, that he embraced the immense anomaly of her behaviour. It came over him that she was incongruous and perverse, a more complicated form of the feminine character than any he had hitherto dealt with, and he felt helpless and baffled, foredoomed to failure. He had come prepared to flatter her without scruple, thinking that would be the clever, the efficacious, method of dealing with her; but he now had a sense that this primitive device had, though it was strange, no application to such a nature, while his embarrassment was increased rather than diminished by the fact that the lady at least made the effort to be accommodating. He had put down his hat on the floor beside him, and his two hands were clasped on the knob of an umbrella which had long since renounced pretensions to compactness; he collapsed a little, and his chin rested on his folded hands. “Why do you take such a line? Why do you believe such things?” he asked; and he was conscious that his tone was weak and his inquiry beside the question.
The fiddler let out a long, low sigh, almost a moan, of frustration and confusion. He had told the Princess that now that he saw her, he understood how Hyacinth could have become her slave, but he couldn't express that he understood her own motives and mysteries, that he accepted the huge contradiction of her behavior. It struck him that she was incongruous and unpredictable, a more complex version of femininity than any he had encountered before, and he felt helpless and confused, destined to fail. He had come ready to flatter her without hesitation, thinking that would be the smart, effective way to handle her; but now he sensed that this basic tactic was, although strange, useless for someone like her, while his embarrassment only grew because the lady at least tried to be accommodating. He had set his hat on the floor beside him, and his hands were clasped around the handle of an umbrella that had long since given up any idea of being compact; he slumped a little, resting his chin on his folded hands. “Why do you think that way? Why do you believe those things?” he asked; and he realized that his tone was weak and his question missed the point.
“My dear sir, how do you know what I believe? However, I have my reasons, which it would take too long to tell you, and which, after all, would not particularly interest you. One must see life as one can; it comes, no doubt, to each of us in different ways. You think me affected, of course, and my behaviour a fearful pose; but I am only trying to be natural. Are you not yourself a little inconsequent?” the Princess went on, with the bright mildness which had the effect of making Mr Vetch feel that he should not extract any pledge of assistance from her. “You don’t want our young friend to pry into the wretchedness of London, because it excites his sense of justice. It is a strange thing to wish, for a person of whom one is fond and whom one esteems, that his sense of justice shall not be excited.”
"My dear sir, how do you know what I believe? I have my reasons, but it would take too long to explain them, and honestly, you might not find them interesting. We all experience life differently; it comes to each of us in our own way. You probably think I'm putting on airs and that my behavior is a terrible pose; but I'm just trying to be myself. Aren't you being a bit inconsistent?” the Princess continued, with a gentle brightness that made Mr. Vetch feel like he shouldn't expect any promise of help from her. “You don’t want our young friend to look into the struggles of London, just because it stirs his sense of justice. It’s odd to wish that someone you care about should not feel that sense of justice."
“I don’t care a fig for his sense of justice—I don’t care a fig for the wretchedness of London; and if I were young, and beautiful, and clever, and brilliant, and of a noble position, like you, I should care still less. In that case I should have very little to say to a poor mechanic—a youngster who earns his living with a glue-pot and scraps of old leather.”
“I don’t care at all about his sense of justice—I don’t care at all about the misery in London; and if I were young, beautiful, smart, talented, and in a noble position like you, I wouldn’t care even more. In that case, I wouldn’t have much to say to a poor mechanic—a kid who makes his living with a glue pot and pieces of old leather.”
“Don’t misrepresent him; don’t make him out what you know he’s not!” the Princess retorted, with her baffling smile. “You know he’s one of the most civilised people possible.”
“Don’t misrepresent him; don’t make him into something you know he’s not!” the Princess shot back, with her confusing smile. “You know he’s one of the most civilized people there is.”
The fiddler sat breathing unhappily. “I only want to keep him—to get him free.” Then he added, “I don’t understand you very well. If you like him because he’s one of the lower orders, how can you like him because he’s a swell?”
The fiddler sat there, breathing unhappily. “I just want to keep him—to set him free.” Then he added, “I don’t really understand you. If you like him because he’s one of the lower class, how can you like him because he’s a rich guy?”
The Princess turned her eyes on the fire a moment, as if this little problem might be worth considering, and presently she answered, “Dear Mr Vetch, I am very sure you don’t mean to be impertinent, but some things you say have that effect. Nothing is more annoying than when one’s sincerity is doubted. I am not bound to explain myself to you. I ask of my friends to trust me, and of the others to leave me alone. Moreover, anything not very nice you may have said to me, out of awkwardness, is nothing to the insults I am perfectly prepared to see showered upon me before long. I shall do things which will produce a fine crop of them—oh, I shall do things, my dear sir! But I am determined not to mind them. Come, therefore, pull yourself together. We both take such an interest in young Robinson that I can’t see why in the world we should quarrel about him.”
The Princess looked at the fire for a moment, as if this little problem was worth thinking about, and then she said, “Dear Mr. Vetch, I’m sure you don’t mean to be rude, but some things you say come off that way. Nothing is more frustrating than when someone doubts your sincerity. I’m not obligated to explain myself to you. I ask my friends to trust me and others to just leave me alone. Besides, anything you might have said to me out of awkwardness is nothing compared to the insults I’m ready to face soon. I’m going to do things that will definitely bring those on—oh, I’m going to do things, my dear sir! But I’m determined not to let them bother me. So, come on, get a grip. We both care about young Robinson, so I don’t see why we should argue about him.”
“My dear lady,” the old man pleaded, “I have indeed not the least intention of failing in respect or courtesy, and you must excuse me if I don’t look after my manners. How can I when I am so worried, so haunted? God knows I don’t want to quarrel. As I tell you, I only want to get Hyacinth free.”
“My dear lady,” the old man pleaded, “I truly have no intention of being disrespectful or rude, and I hope you'll forgive me if I’m not acting properly. How can I when I’m so worried, so troubled? God knows I don’t want to fight. Like I said, I just want to get Hyacinth free.”
“Free from what?” the Princess asked.
“Free from what?” the Princess asked.
“From some abominable brotherhood or international league that he belongs to, the thought of which keeps me awake at night. He’s just the sort of youngster to be made a cat’s-paw.”
“From some awful brotherhood or global organization he’s part of, the thought of which keeps me up at night. He’s exactly the kind of kid who could be used as a pawn.”
“Your fears seem very vague.”
“Your fears seem pretty unclear.”
“I hoped you would give me chapter and verse.”
“I hoped you would provide me with the details.”
“On what do your suspicions rest? What grounds have you?” the Princess inquired.
“On what do your suspicions rest? What proof do you have?” the Princess asked.
“Well, a great many; none of them very definite, but all contributing something—his appearance, his manner, the way he strikes me. Dear madam, one feels those things, one guesses. Do you know that poor, infatuated phrase-monger, Eustache Poupin, who works at the same place as Hyacinth? He’s a very old friend of mine, and he’s an honest man, considering everything. But he is always conspiring, and corresponding, and pulling strings that make a tinkle which he takes for the death-knell of society. He has nothing in life to complain of, and he drives a roaring trade. But he wants folks to be equal, heaven help him; and when he has made them so I suppose he’s going to start a society for making the stars in the sky all of the same size. He isn’t serious, though he thinks that he’s the only human being who never trifles; and his machinations, which I believe are for the most part very innocent, are a matter of habit and tradition with him, like his theory that Christopher Columbus, who discovered America, was a Frenchman, and his hot foot-bath on Saturday nights. He has not confessed to me that Hyacinth has taken some secret engagement to do something for the cause which may have nasty consequences, but the way he turns off the idea makes me almost as uncomfortable as if he had. He and his wife are very sweet on Hyacinth, but they can’t make up their minds to interfere; perhaps for them, indeed, as for me, there is no way in which interference can be effective. Only I didn’t put him up to those devil’s tricks—or, rather, I did originally! The finer the work, I suppose, the higher the privilege of doing it; yet the Poupins heave socialistic sighs over the boy, and their peace of mind evidently isn’t all that it ought to be, if they have given him a noble opportunity. I have appealed to them, in good round terms, and they have assured me that every hair of his head is as precious to them as if he were their own child. That doesn’t comfort me much, however, for the simple reason that I believe the old woman (whose grandmother, in Paris, in the Revolution, must certainly have carried bloody heads on a pike) would be quite capable of chopping up her own child, if it would do any harm to proprietors. Besides, they say, what influence have they on Hyacinth any more? He is a deplorable little backslider; he worships false gods. In short, they will give me no information, and I dare say they themselves are tied up by some unholy vow. They may be afraid of a vengeance if they tell tales. It’s all sad rubbish, but rubbish may be a strong motive.”
"Well, quite a few; none of them very clear, but they all add something—his looks, his behavior, the way he affects me. Dear madam, you sense those things, you make guesses. Do you know that poor, love-struck wordsmith, Eustache Poupin, who works alongside Hyacinth? He’s an old friend of mine, and he’s an honest guy, considering everything. But he’s always plotting, corresponding, and pulling strings that make a noise he believes is the death knell of society. He has no complaints in life, and he’s doing quite well. But he wants everyone to be equal, heaven help him; and when he finally achieves that, I suppose he’ll create a society to make all the stars in the sky the same size. He doesn’t take it seriously, even though he thinks he’s the only person who doesn't mess around; and his schemes, which I believe are mostly innocent, are just habits and traditions for him, like his theory that Christopher Columbus, who discovered America, was French, and his hot foot-bath on Saturday nights. He has not admitted to me that Hyacinth has secretly agreed to do something for the cause that could have bad consequences, but the way he brushes off the idea makes me almost as uneasy as if he had. He and his wife really care about Hyacinth, but they can’t bring themselves to step in; perhaps for them, as for me, there’s no way interference can actually help. But I didn’t encourage him to go through with those devilish tricks—or, rather, I did at first! The better the work, I guess, the greater the honor of doing it; yet the Poupins sigh over the boy with socialist dreams, and their peace of mind clearly isn’t what it should be, even if they’ve given him a noble opportunity. I’ve appealed to them directly, and they’ve assured me that every hair on his head is as valuable to them as if he were their own child. That doesn’t reassure me much, though, because I believe the old woman (whose grandmother, during the Revolution in Paris, definitely carried bloody heads on a pike) would be fully capable of harming her own child if it hurt the owners. Besides, they say, what influence do they have over Hyacinth anymore? He’s a hopeless little turncoat; he worships false gods. In short, they refuse to give me any information, and I suspect they’re bound by some dark oath. They might fear retribution if they spill secrets. It’s all sad nonsense, but nonsense can be a powerful motive."
The Princess listened attentively, following her visitor with patience. “Don’t speak to me of the French; I have never liked them.”
The Princess listened closely, watching her visitor with patience. “Don’t talk to me about the French; I’ve never liked them.”
“That’s awkward, if you’re a socialist. You are likely to meet them.”
“That’s awkward if you're a socialist. You’re probably going to run into them.”
“Why do you call me a socialist? I hate labels and tickets,” she declared. Then she added, “What is it you suppose on Mr Robinson’s part?—for you must suppose something.”
“Why do you call me a socialist? I hate labels and tags,” she said. Then she added, “What do you think Mr. Robinson is doing?—because you must think something.”
“Well, that he may have drawn some accursed lot, to do some idiotic thing—something in which even he himself doesn’t believe.”
“Well, maybe he ended up with some terrible fate to do something stupid—something he doesn’t even believe in himself.”
“I haven’t an idea of what sort of thing you mean. But, if he doesn’t believe in it he can easily let it alone.”
“I have no idea what you're talking about. But, if he doesn't believe in it, he can just ignore it.”
“Do you think he’s a customer who will back out of an engagement?” the fiddler asked.
“Do you think he’s a customer who will back out of a deal?” the fiddler asked.
The Princess hesitated a moment. “One can never judge of people, in that way, until they are tested.” The next thing, she inquired, “Haven’t you even taken the trouble to question him?”
The Princess paused for a moment. “You can’t really judge people that way until they’ve been tested.” Then she asked, “Haven’t you even bothered to ask him?”
“What would be the use? He would tell me nothing. It would be like a man giving notice when he is going to fight a duel.”
“What would be the point? He wouldn’t tell me anything. It would be like a guy giving a heads-up before he’s about to duel.”
The Princess sat for some moments in thought; she looked up at Mr Vetch with a pitying, indulgent smile. “I am sure you are worrying about a mere shadow; but that never prevents, does it? I still don’t see exactly how I can help you.”
The Princess sat in thought for a moment, then looked up at Mr. Vetch with a sympathetic, understanding smile. “I’m sure you’re just worried about something insignificant; but that doesn’t really help, does it? I still don’t quite see how I can help you.”
“Do you want him to commit some atrocity, some infamy?” the old man murmured.
“Do you want him to do something terrible, something shameful?” the old man murmured.
“My dear sir, I don’t want him to do anything in all the wide world. I have not had the smallest connection with any arrangement of any kind, that he may have entered into. Do me the honour to trust me,” the Princess went on, with a certain dryness of tone. “I don’t know what I have done to deprive myself of your confidence. Trust the young man a little, too. He is a gentleman, and he will behave like a gentleman.”
“My dear sir, I don’t want him to do anything at all. I haven't been involved in any agreements or arrangements he might have made. Please do me the honor of trusting me,” the Princess continued, with a somewhat dry tone. “I don’t know what I’ve done to lose your trust. Trust the young man a bit too. He is a gentleman, and he will act like one.”
The fiddler rose from his chair, smoothing his hat, silently, with the cuff of his coat. He stood there, whimsical and piteous, as if the sense that he had still something to urge mingled with that of his having received his dismissal, and both of them were tinged with the oddity of another idea. “That’s exactly what I am afraid of!” he exclaimed. Then he added, continuing to look at her, “But he must be very fond of life.”
The fiddler got up from his chair, quietly smoothing his hat with the cuff of his coat. He stood there, both whimsical and sad, as if he felt he still had something to say while also sensing that he had been dismissed, with both feelings mixed with the strangeness of another thought. "That's exactly what I'm afraid of!" he said. Then he added, still looking at her, "But he must really love life."
The Princess took no notice of the insinuation contained in these words, and indeed it was of a sufficiently impalpable character. “Leave him to me—leave him to me. I am sorry for your anxiety, but it was very good of you to come to see me. That has been interesting, because you have been one of our friend’s influences.”
The Princess paid no attention to the suggestion in those words, and honestly, it was vague enough. "Leave him to me—just leave him to me. I understand your concern, but I appreciate you coming to see me. It's been interesting since you've been one of our friend's influences."
“Unfortunately, yes! If it had not been for me, he would not have known Poupin, and if he hadn’t known Poupin he wouldn’t have known his chemical friend—what’s his name? Muniment.”
“Unfortunately, yes! If it hadn't been for me, he wouldn't have met Poupin, and if he hadn't met Poupin he wouldn’t have known his chemistry buddy—what’s his name? Muniment.”
“And has that done him harm, do you think?” the Princess asked. She had got up.
“And do you think that has harmed him?” the Princess asked. She had gotten up.
“Surely: that fellow has been the main source of his infection.”
“Surely, that guy has been the main source of his infection.”
“I lose patience with you,” said the Princess, turning away.
“I’m losing patience with you,” said the Princess, turning away.
And indeed her visitor’s persistence was irritating. He went on, lingering, with his head thrust forward and his short arms out at his sides, terminating in his hat and umbrella, which he held grotesquely, as if they were intended for emphasis or illustration: “I have supposed for a long time that it was either Muniment or you that had got him into his scrape. It was you I suspected most—much the most; but if it isn’t you, it must be he.”
And honestly, her visitor's persistence was annoying. He kept on, hanging around with his head pushed forward and his short arms stretched out to the sides, ending in his hat and umbrella, which he held awkwardly, as if they were meant to emphasize his point: “I’ve thought for a while that it was either Muniment or you who got him into this mess. I suspected you the most—definitely the most; but if it’s not you, then it has to be him.”
“You had better go to him, then!”
“You should go to him, then!”
“Of course I will go to him. I scarcely know him—I have seen him but once—but I will speak my mind.”
“Of course I’ll go to him. I barely know him—I’ve only seen him once—but I’ll share my thoughts.”
The Princess rang for her maid to usher the fiddler out, but at the moment he laid his hand on the door of the room she checked him with a quick gesture. “Now that I think of it, don’t go to Mr Muniment. It will be better to leave him quiet. Leave him to me,” she added, smiling.
The Princess signaled for her maid to escort the fiddler out, but just as he put his hand on the door, she stopped him with a quick motion. “Actually, don’t go see Mr. Muniment. It’s better to let him be. Leave him to me,” she added with a smile.
“Why not, why not?” he pleaded. And as she could not tell him on the instant why not, he asked, “Doesn’t he know?”
“Why not, why not?” he begged. And since she couldn't instantly explain why not, he asked, “Doesn’t he know?”
“No, he doesn’t know; he has nothing to do with it.” She suddenly found herself desiring to protect Paul Muniment from the imputation that was in Mr Vetch’s mind—the imputation of an ugly responsibility; and though she was not a person who took the trouble to tell fibs, this repudiation, on his behalf, issued from her lips before she could check it. It was a result of the same desire, though it was also an inconsequence, that she added, “Don’t do that—you’ll spoil everything!” She went to him, suddenly eager, and herself opened the door for him. “Leave him to me—leave him to me,” she continued, persuasively, while the fiddler, gazing at her, dazzled and submissive, allowed himself to be wafted away. A thought that excited her had come to her with a bound, and after she had heard the house-door close behind Mr Vetch she walked up and down the room half an hour, restlessly, under the possession of it.
“No, he doesn’t know; he has nothing to do with it.” She suddenly felt the urge to protect Paul Muniment from the accusation that was in Mr. Vetch’s mind—that he was somehow ugly responsible; and even though she wasn’t someone who usually lied, this denial on his behalf slipped out before she could stop it. She added, “Don’t do that—you’ll ruin everything!” driven by the same impulse, and she went over to him, eager, and opened the door for him herself. “Leave him to me—leave him to me,” she continued, trying to persuade him, while the fiddler, staring at her, dazzled and compliant, let himself be led away. An exciting thought hit her all at once, and after she heard the house door close behind Mr. Vetch, she paced the room restlessly for half an hour, consumed by it.
XXXVIII
Hyacinth found, this winter, considerable occupation for his odd hours, his evenings and holidays and scraps of leisure, in putting in hand the books which he had promised himself, at Medley, to inclose in covers worthy of the high station and splendour of the lady of his life (these brilliant attributes had not then been shuffled out of sight), and of the confidence and generosity she showed him. He had determined she should receive from him something of value, and took pleasure in thinking that after he was gone they would be passed from hand to hand as specimens of rare work, while connoisseurs bent their heads over them, smiling and murmuring, handling them delicately. His invention stirred itself, and he had a hundred admirable ideas, many of which he sat up late at night to execute. He used all his skill, and by this time his skill was of a very high order. Old Crookenden recognised it by raising the rates at which he was paid; and though it was not among the traditions of the proprietor of the establishment in Soho, who to the end wore the apron with his workmen, to scatter sweet speeches, Hyacinth learned accidentally that several books that he had given him to do had been carried off and placed on a shelf of treasures at the villa, where they were exhibited to the members of the Crookenden circle who came to tea on Sundays. Hyacinth himself, indeed, was included in this company on a great occasion—invited to a musical party where he made the acquaintance of half a dozen Miss Crookendens, an acquaintance which consisted in his standing in a corner, behind several broad-backed old ladies, and watching the rotation, at the piano and the harp, of three or four of his master’s thick-fingered daughters. “You know it’s a tremendously musical house,” said one of the old ladies to another (she called it ‘’ouse’); but the principal impression made upon him by the performance of the Miss Crookendens was that it was wonderfully different from the Princess’s playing.
Hyacinth found that this winter, he had plenty to keep him busy during his free time, evenings, holidays, and little moments of leisure. He dedicated himself to creating the books he had promised himself at Medley, intending to bind them in covers worthy of the high status and brilliance of the lady in his life (these brilliant qualities hadn’t yet faded from view) and of the trust and kindness she had shown him. He had decided that she deserved something valuable from him and enjoyed thinking that, after he was gone, those books would be passed around as examples of rare craftsmanship, while admirers leaned in, smiling and murmuring as they handled them with care. His creativity was ignited, and he came up with a hundred great ideas, many of which he worked late into the night to finish. He used all his skill, which by then was quite advanced. Old Crookenden recognized this by raising the pay he received; and although it wasn’t typical for the owner of the establishment in Soho—who wore the same apron as his workers until the end—to sprinkle compliments around, Hyacinth discovered by chance that several books he had worked on were taken and placed on a shelf of treasures at the villa, where they were shown off to members of the Crookenden circle who came for tea on Sundays. Hyacinth himself was included in this group on a special occasion—he was invited to a music gathering where he met half a dozen Miss Crookendens, though his interaction was limited to standing in a corner behind several stout old ladies, watching as three or four of his boss’s clumsy-fingered daughters took turns at the piano and harp. “You know it’s a really musical house,” one of the old ladies said to another (she pronounced it ‘ouse’); but what struck him most about the Miss Crookendens’ performance was how incredibly different it was from the Princess’s playing.
He knew that he was the only young man from the shop who had been invited, not counting the foreman, who was sixty years old and wore a wig which constituted in itself a kind of social position, besides being accompanied by a little frightened, furtive wife, who closed her eyes, as if in the presence of a blinding splendour, when Mrs Crookenden spoke to her. The Poupins were not there—which, however, was not a surprise to Hyacinth, who knew that (even if they had been asked, which they were not) they had objections of principle to putting their feet chez les bourgeois. They were not asked because, in spite of the place Eustache had made for himself in the prosperity of the business, it had come to be known that his wife was somehow not his wife (though she was certainly no one’s else); and the evidence of this irregularity was conceived to reside, vaguely, in the fact that she had never been seen save in a camisole. There had doubtless been an apprehension that if she had come to the villa she would not have come with the proper number of hooks and eyes, though Hyacinth, on two or three occasions, notably the night he took the pair to Mr Vetch’s theatre, had been witness of the proportions to which she could reduce her figure when she wished to give the impression of a lawful tie.
He knew that he was the only young man from the shop who had been invited, not including the foreman, who was sixty years old and wore a wig that in itself represented a kind of social status, along with a timid, nervous wife who would close her eyes as if faced with blinding light whenever Mrs. Crookenden spoke to her. The Poupins weren’t there—which wasn’t a surprise to Hyacinth, who understood that (even if they had been invited, which they weren’t) they had principles against associating with the bourgeois. They hadn’t been invited because, despite the position Eustache had achieved in the business's success, it was known that his wife was somehow not his wife (even though she wasn’t anyone else's); and the evidence of this odd situation seemed to lie in the fact that she had only ever been seen in a camisole. There was probably a concern that if she came to the villa, she wouldn’t have the right number of hooks and eyes, although Hyacinth, on two or three occasions, especially the night he took the pair to Mr. Vetch’s theater, had witnessed how she could shape her figure to create the illusion of a legitimate marriage.
It was not clear to him how the distinction conferred upon him became known in Soho, where, however, it excited no sharpness of jealousy—Grugan, Roker, and Hotchkin being hardly more likely to envy a person condemned to spend a genteel evening than they were to envy a monkey performing antics on a barrel-organ: both forms of effort indicated an urbanity painfully acquired. But Roker took his young comrade’s breath half away with his elbow and remarked that he supposed he saw the old man had spotted him for one of the darlings at home; inquiring, furthermore, what would become in that case of the little thing he took to France, the one to whom he had stood champagne and lobster. This was the first allusion Hyacinth had heard made to the idea that he might some day marry his master’s daughter, like the virtuous apprentice of tradition; but the suggestion, somehow, was not inspiring, even when he had thought of an incident or two which gave colour to it. None of the Miss Crookendens spoke to him—they all had large faces and short legs and a comical resemblance to that elderly male with wide nostrils, their father, and, unlike the Miss Marchants, at Medley, they knew who he was—but their mother, who had on her head the plumage of a cockatoo, mingled with a structure of glass beads, looked at him with an almost awful fixedness and asked him three distinct times if he would have a glass of negus.
It wasn't clear to him how his newfound status became known in Soho, where, interestingly, it didn't stir up any jealousy—Grugan, Roker, and Hotchkin were hardly more likely to envy someone stuck at a fancy gathering than they would be to envy a monkey doing tricks on a barrel organ: both activities showed a refinement that was hard-earned. But Roker elbowed his young friend, nearly knocking the wind out of him, and pointed out that he guessed the old man had recognized him as one of the favorites back home; he then asked what would happen to the little thing he took to France, the one he treated to champagne and lobster. This was the first time Hyacinth had heard a suggestion that he might one day marry his master's daughter, like the virtuous apprentice from stories; however, the idea wasn't really exciting, even when he thought of a few incidents that made it seem possible. None of the Miss Crookendens spoke to him—they all had large faces and short legs that made them look comically similar to their father, the elderly man with wide nostrils, and unlike the Miss Marchants at Medley, they knew who he was—but their mother, who wore a wild combination of cockatoo feathers and glass beads on her head, stared at him with an almost terrifying intensity and asked him three times if he wanted a glass of negus.
He had much difficulty in getting his books from the Princess; for when he reminded her of the promise she had given him at Medley to make over to him as many volumes as he should require, she answered that everything was changed since then, that she was completely dépouillée, that she had now no pretension to have a library, and that, in fine, he had much better leave the matter alone. He was welcome to any books that were in the house, but, as he could see for himself, these were cheap editions, on which it would be foolish to expend such work as his. He asked Madame Grandoni to help him—to tell him, at least, whether there were not some good volumes among the things the Princess had sent to be warehoused; it being known to him, through casual admissions of her own, that she had allowed her maid to save certain articles from the wreck and pack them away at the Pantechnicon. This had all been Assunta’s work, the woman had begged so hard for a few reservations—a loaf of bread for their old days; but the Princess herself had washed her hands of the business. “Chè, chè, there are boxes, I am sure, in that place, with a little of everything,” said the old lady, in answer to his inquiry; and Hyacinth conferred with Assunta, who took a sympathetic, talkative, Italian interest in his undertaking and promised to fish out for him whatever worthy volumes should remain. She came to his lodging, one evening, in a cab, with an armful of pretty books, and when he asked her where they had come from waved her forefinger in front of her nose, in a manner both mysterious and expressive. He brought each volume to the Princess, as it was finished; but her manner of receiving it was to shake her head over it with a kind, sad smile. “It’s beautiful, I am sure, but I have lost my sense for such things. Besides, you must always remember what you once told me, that a woman, even the most cultivated, is incapable of feeling the difference between a bad binding and a good. I remember your once saying that fine ladies had brought shoemaker’s bindings to your shop, and wished them imitated. Certainly those are not the differences I most feel. My dear fellow, such things have ceased to speak to me; they are doubtless charming, but they leave me cold. What will you have? One can’t serve God and mammon.” Her thoughts were fixed on far other matters than the delight of dainty covers, and she evidently considered that in caring so much for them Hyacinth resembled the mad emperor who fiddled in the flames of Rome. European society, to her mind, was in flames, and no frivolous occupation could give the measure of the emotion with which she watched them. It produced occasionally demonstrations of hilarity, of joy and hope, but these always took some form connected with the life of the people. It was the people she had gone to see, when she accompanied Hyacinth to a music-hall in the Edgware Road; and all her excursions and pastimes, this winter, were prompted by her interest in the classes on whose behalf the revolution was to be wrought.
He had a hard time getting his books from the Princess because when he reminded her of the promise she made at Medley to give him as many volumes as he needed, she responded that everything had changed since then, that she was completely dépouillée, that she no longer pretended to have a library, and that, in short, he should just drop the whole thing. He was welcome to any books in the house, but as he could see for himself, they were cheap editions that it would be foolish to spend his effort on. He asked Madame Grandoni for help—to at least let him know if there were any good volumes among the things the Princess had sent to store; he knew from her casual admissions that she had allowed her maid to save certain items from the wreck and pack them away at the Pantechnicon. This had all been Assunta's doing; the woman had pleaded hard for a few items to be saved—a loaf of bread for their old days—but the Princess had completely washed her hands of it. “Chè, chè, I'm sure there are boxes in that place with a little of everything,” the old lady replied to his inquiry, and Hyacinth spoke with Assunta, who took a sympathetic, chatty, Italian interest in his effort and promised to dig out any worthy volumes that remained. One evening, she arrived at his place in a cab, carrying an armful of lovely books, and when he asked where they came from, she waved her forefinger in front of her face in a way that was both mysterious and expressive. He presented each volume to the Princess as he finished reading them, but her way of receiving them was to shake her head with a kind, sad smile. “It’s beautiful, I am sure, but I have lost my appreciation for such things. Besides, you must always remember what you once told me—that a woman, even the most educated, can’t tell the difference between a bad binding and a good one. I recall you saying that fine ladies brought shoemaker’s bindings to your shop and wanted them imitated. Those distinctions aren’t what I notice most. My dear fellow, such things no longer resonate with me; they are certainly charming, but they leave me cold. What can I say? One can’t serve both God and mammon.” Her thoughts were focused on much more serious matters than the pleasure of pretty covers, and she clearly believed that in caring so much about them, Hyacinth resembled the crazy emperor who fiddled while Rome burned. To her, European society was ablaze, and no trivial task could capture the depth of emotion with which she watched it all unfold. Occasionally, it produced moments of laughter, joy, and hope, but these were always tied to the lives of the people. It was the people she wanted to see when she went with Hyacinth to a music hall on Edgware Road; all her outings and pastimes that winter were inspired by her interest in the classes for whom the revolution was to be achieved.
To ask himself whether she were in earnest was now an old story to him, and, indeed, the conviction he might arrive at on this head had ceased to have any practical relevancy. It was just as she was, superficial or profound, that she held him, and she was, at any rate, sufficiently animated by a purpose for her doings to have consequences, actual and possible. Some of these might be serious, even if she herself were not, and there were times when Hyacinth was much visited by the apprehension of them. On the Sundays that she had gone with him into the darkest places, the most fetid holes, in London, she had always taken money with her, in considerable quantities, and always left it behind. She said, very naturally, that one couldn’t go and stare at people, for an impression, without paying them, and she gave alms right and left, indiscriminately, without inquiry or judgment, as simply as the abbess of some beggar-haunted convent, or a lady-bountiful of the superstitious, unscientific ages who should have hoped to be assisted to heaven by her doles. Hyacinth never said to her, though he sometimes thought it, that since she was so full of the modern spirit her charity should be administered according to the modern lights, the principles of economical science; partly because she was not a woman to be directed and regulated—she could take other people’s ideas, but she could never take their way. Besides, what did it matter? To himself, what did it matter to-day whether he were drawn into right methods or into wrong ones, his time being too short for regret or for cheer? The Princess was an embodied passion—she was not a system; and her behaviour, after all, was more addressed to relieving herself than to relieving others. And then misery was sown so thick in her path that wherever her money was dropped it fell into some trembling palm. He wondered that she should still have so much cash to dispose of, until she explained to him that she came by it through putting her personal expenditure on a rigid footing. What she gave away was her savings, the margin she had succeeded in creating; and now that she had tasted of the satisfaction of making little hoards for such a purpose she regarded her other years, with their idleness and waste, their merely personal motives, as a long, stupid sleep of the conscience. To do something for others was not only so much more human, but so much more amusing!
To question whether she was serious was an old thought for him, and honestly, any conclusion he might reach on this matter no longer held any real importance. It was simply how she was, whether superficial or deep, that captivated him, and she was certainly driven by a purpose behind her actions that had actual and potential consequences. Some of these could be significant, even if she herself wasn’t, and there were moments when Hyacinth was frequently anxious about them. On the Sundays when she had accompanied him into the darkest, most disgusting spots in London, she always took a substantial amount of money with her and consistently left it behind. She casually remarked that you couldn't just go and observe people without compensating them, and she distributed donations generously and without discernment, as effortlessly as the head of a convent with beggars or a charitable lady from the superstitious, unscientific past who had hoped her kindness would earn her a place in heaven. Hyacinth never told her, though he sometimes thought it, that since she was so embodying the modern spirit, her charity should align with contemporary principles, the insights of economic science; partly because she was not the type to be guided and controlled—she could adopt others' ideas, but she would never follow their methods. Besides, what did it matter? For him, what did it matter today whether he found himself following the right methods or the wrong ones, with his time too brief for regret or celebration? The Princess was a living passion—she wasn’t a system; and her actions were ultimately more about satisfying herself than helping others. Moreover, misery was so prevalent in her surroundings that wherever her money landed, it fell into some needy hand. He was amazed she still had so much cash to give away until she revealed that she managed it by strictly budgeting her personal expenses. What she donated was her savings, the surplus she had managed to create; and now that she had experienced the satisfaction of building small reserves for such purposes, she viewed her previous years, filled with idleness and waste and solely personal motives, as a long, pointless slumber of her conscience. Doing something for others was not only far more human but also much more enjoyable!
She made strange acquaintances, under Hyacinth’s conduct; she listened to extraordinary stories, and formed theories about them, and about the persons who narrated them to her, which were often still more extraordinary. She took romantic fancies to vagabonds of either sex, attempted to establish social relations with them, and was the cause of infinite agitation to the gentleman who lived near her in the Crescent, who was always smoking at the window, and who reminded Hyacinth of Mr Micawber. She received visits that were a scandal to the Crescent, and Hyacinth neglected his affairs, whatever they were, to see what tatterdemalion would next turn up at her door. This intercourse, it is true, took a more fruitful form as her intimacy with Lady Aurora deepened; her ladyship practised discriminations which she brought the Princess to recognise, and before the winter was over Hyacinth’s services in the slums were found unnecessary. He gave way with relief, with delight, to Lady Aurora, for he had not in the least understood his behaviour for the previous four months, nor taken himself seriously as a cicerone. He had plunged into a sea of barbarism without having any civilising energy to put forth. He was conscious that the people were miserable—more conscious, it often seemed to him, than they themselves were; so frequently was he struck with their brutal insensibility, a grossness impervious to the taste of better things or to any desire for them. He knew it so well that the repetition of contact could add no vividness to the conviction; it rather smothered and befogged his impression, peopled it with contradictions and difficulties, a violence of reaction, a sense of the inevitable and insurmountable. In these hours the poverty and ignorance of the multitude seemed so vast and preponderant, and so much the law of life, that those who had managed to escape from the black gulf were only the happy few, people of resource as well as children of luck; they inspired in some degree the interest and sympathy that one should feel for survivors and victors, those who have come safely out of a shipwreck or a battle. What was most in Hyacinth’s mind was the idea, of which every pulsation of the general life of his time was a syllable, that the flood of democracy was rising over the world; that it would sweep all the traditions of the past before it; that, whatever it might fail to bring, it would at least carry in its bosom a magnificent energy; and that it might be trusted to look after its own. When democracy should have its way everywhere, it would be its fault (whose else?) if want and suffering and crime should continue to be ingredients of the human lot. With his mixed, divided nature, his conflicting sympathies, his eternal habit of swinging from one view to another, Hyacinth regarded this prospect, in different moods, with different kinds of emotion. In spite of the example Eustache Poupin gave him of the reconcilement of disparities, he was afraid the democracy wouldn’t care for perfect bindings or for the finest sort of conversation. The Princess gave up these things in proportion as she advanced in the direction she had so audaciously chosen; and if the Princess could give them up it would take very transcendent natures to stick to them. At the same time there was joy, exultation, in the thought of surrendering one’s self to the wave of revolt, of floating in the tremendous tide, of feeling one’s self lifted and tossed, carried higher on the sun-touched crests of billows than one could ever be by a dry, lonely effort of one’s own. That vision could deepen to a kind of ecstasy; make it indifferent whether one’s ultimate fate, in such a heaving sea, were not almost certainly to be submerged in bottomless depths or dashed to pieces on resisting cliffs. Hyacinth felt that, whether his personal sympathy should rest finally with the victors or the vanquished, the victorious force was colossal and would require no testimony from the irresolute.
She made unusual friends, guided by Hyacinth; she listened to bizarre stories and developed theories about them and the people telling them, which were often even stranger. She became romantically interested in drifters of both genders, tried to establish social connections with them, and created endless worry for the man living nearby in the Crescent, who was always smoking by the window and reminded Hyacinth of Mr. Micawber. She received visitors that scandalized the Crescent, and Hyacinth neglected his business, whatever it was, to see which ragamuffin would show up at her door next. This interaction, it’s true, became more productive as her friendship with Lady Aurora grew; her ladyship helped the Princess recognize distinctions, and by the end of winter, Hyacinth's services in the slums were deemed unnecessary. He gladly stepped back for Lady Aurora, as he had not understood his own actions for the last four months nor taken himself seriously as a tour guide. He had plunged into a chaotic world without having any civilizing influence to contribute. He was aware that the people were suffering—more aware, he often felt, than they were themselves; he was frequently struck by their brutal indifference, a coarseness that seemed impervious to better tastes or any desire for them. He knew it so well that repeated exposure didn’t enhance his conviction; it rather dulled and clouded his impressions, filling them with contradictions and challenges, a reactionary violence, a sense of inevitability, and something insurmountable. During those moments, the poverty and ignorance of the masses felt so overwhelming and dominant, making it seem that those who managed to escape the black abyss were merely the fortunate few, people of resourcefulness and luck; they stirred some degree of interest and sympathy one would feel for survivors and victors, those who emerged safely from a shipwreck or a battle. What occupied Hyacinth most was the idea, echoed in every pulse of contemporary life, that the wave of democracy was rising across the world; that it would wash away all past traditions; that, no matter what else it might lack, it would at least bring a magnificent energy; and that it could be relied upon to care for itself. When democracy took hold everywhere, it would be its fault (whose else could it be?) if poverty, suffering, and crime remained part of the human experience. With his mixed, divided personality, conflicting sympathies, and constant habit of swinging from one viewpoint to another, Hyacinth viewed this prospect with various emotions. Despite Eustache Poupin's example of reconciling differences, he worried that democracy wouldn’t value perfect manners or high-level conversation. The Princess abandoned these things as she progressed along the bold path she had chosen; if she could give them up, then it would take remarkably exceptional individuals to hold on to them. At the same time, there was joy and exhilaration in the thought of surrendering oneself to the wave of upheaval, of floating in the overwhelming tide, of feeling oneself lifted and tossed, carried higher on the sunlit crests of waves than one could ever be by solitary, dry effort. That vision could deepen into a kind of ecstasy; it made one indifferent to whether one’s ultimate fate, in such turbulent waters, was almost sure to be submerged in bottomless depths or shattered against unyielding cliffs. Hyacinth sensed that, whether his personal sympathy ultimately lay with the victors or the defeated, the victorious force was immense and would require no validation from those hesitating in their stance.
The reader will doubtless smile at his mental debates and oscillations, and not understand why a little bastard bookbinder should attach importance to his conclusions. They were not important for either cause, but they were important for himself, if only because they would rescue him from the torment of his present life, the perpetual laceration of the rebound. There was no peace for him between the two currents that flowed in his nature, the blood of his passionate, plebeian mother and that of his long-descended, supercivilised sire. They continued to toss him from one side to the other; they arrayed him in intolerable defiances and revenges against himself. He had a high ambition: he wanted neither more nor less than to get hold of the truth and wear it in his heart. He believed, with the candour of youth, that it is brilliant and clear-cut, like a royal diamond; but in whatever direction he turned in the effort to find it, he seemed to know that behind him, bent on him in reproach, was a tragic, wounded face. The thought of his mother had filled him, originally, with the vague, clumsy fermentation of his first impulses toward social criticism; but since the problem had become more complex by the fact that many things in the world as it was constituted grew intensely dear to him, he had tried more and more to construct some conceivable and human countenance for his father—some expression of honour, of tenderness and recognition, of unmerited suffering, or at least of adequate expiation. To desert one of these presences for the other—that idea had a kind of shame in it, as an act of treachery would have had; for he could almost hear the voice of his father ask him if it were the conduct of a gentleman to take up the opinions and emulate the crudities of fanatics and cads. He had got over thinking that it would not have become his father to talk of what was proper to gentlemen, and making the mental reflection that from him, at least, the biggest cad in London could not have deserved less consideration. He had worked himself round to allowances, to interpretations, to such hypotheses as the evidence in the Times, read in the British Museum on that never-to-be-forgotten afternoon, did not exclude; though they had been frequent enough, and too frequent, his hours of hot resentment against the man who had attached to him the stigma he was to carry for ever, he threw himself, in other conditions, and with a certain success, into the effort to find condonations, excuses, for him. It was comparatively easy for him to accept himself as the son of a terribly light Frenchwoman; there seemed a deeper obloquy even than that in his having for his other parent a nobleman altogether wanting in nobleness. He was too poor to afford it. Sometimes, in his imagination, he sacrificed one to the other, throwing over Lord Frederick much the oftener; sometimes, when the theory failed that his father would have done great things for him if he had lived, or the assumption broke down that he had been Florentine Vivier’s only lover, he cursed and disowned them alike; sometimes he arrived at conceptions which presented them side by side, looking at him with eyes infinitely sad but quite unashamed—eyes which seemed to tell him that they had been hideously unfortunate but had not been base. Of course his worst moments now, as they had always been the worst, were those in which his grounds for thinking that Lord Frederick had really been his father perversely fell away from him. It must be added that they always passed, for the mixture that he felt himself so tormentingly, so insolubly, to be could be accounted for in no other manner.
The reader will surely smile at his mental struggles and back-and-forth thoughts, wondering why a little bastard bookbinder would care about his conclusions. They didn't matter for either side, but they were significant for him, if only because they could save him from the pain of his current life, the constant torment of the rebound. He found no peace between the two forces within him, the blood of his passionate, working-class mother and that of his long-line, overly refined father. They kept tossing him from one side to the other, forcing him into intolerable defiance and self-recrimination. He had high ambitions: he wanted nothing more than to find the truth and carry it in his heart. He believed, naively, that it was brilliant and clear, like a royal diamond; yet, no matter which way he turned in his search, he sensed a tragic, wounded face behind him, reproaching him. Initially, thoughts of his mother sparked the awkward, vague stirrings of his early social criticism; but as the dilemma grew more complicated, with many things in the world becoming intensely precious to him, he increasingly tried to shape a human image of his father—one expressing honor, tenderness, recognition, unearned suffering, or at least some meaningful atonement. The idea of abandoning one of these figures for the other felt shameful, like an act of betrayal; he could almost hear his father's voice asking him if it was the behavior of a gentleman to adopt the views and mimic the crude attitudes of fanatics and lowlifes. He had moved past the thought that it wouldn't have suited his father to discuss what was proper for gentlemen, and had realized that even the biggest jerk in London deserved some respect from him. He had worked through allowances, interpretations, and hypotheses, which the evidence in the Times, read in the British Museum on that unforgettable afternoon, did not rule out; despite his frequent outbursts of anger against the man who had placed on him the stigma he would bear forever, he occasionally found success in trying to forgive him and rationalize his actions. It was relatively easy for him to accept being the son of a notoriously promiscuous Frenchwoman; there seemed to be an even deeper shame in having as his other parent a nobleman who lacked nobility. He couldn’t afford that burden. Sometimes, in his mind, he sacrificed one parent for the other, often casting aside Lord Frederick; at other times, when the theory that his father would have accomplished great things for him if he had lived failed, or the idea that he had been Florentine Vivier’s only lover crumbled, he cursed and disowned them both; sometimes he imagined them together, looking at him with eyes that were infinitely sad yet unabashed—eyes that seemed to say they had been horribly unfortunate but had not been shameful. Of course, his worst moments, as they had always been, were those when he lost the reasons to believe that Lord Frederick had truly been his father. It should be noted that these moments always passed, as the mixture of feelings he struggled with so painfully, so inextricably, could only be explained in that way.
I mention these dim broodings not because they belong in an especial degree to the history of our young man during the winter of the Princess’s residence in Madeira Crescent, but because they were a constant element in his moral life and need to be remembered in any view of him at a given time. There were nights of November and December, as he trod the greasy pavements that lay between Westminster and Paddington, groping his way through the baffled lamp-light and tasting the smoke-seasoned fog, when there was more happiness in his heart than he had ever known. The influence of his permeating London had closed over him again; Paris and Milan and Venice had shimmered away into reminiscence and picture; and as the great city which was most his own lay round him under her pall, like an immeasurable breathing monster, he felt, with a vague excitement, as he had felt before, only now with more knowledge, that it was the richest expression of the life of man. His horizon had been immensely widened, but it was filled, again, by the expanse that sent dim night-gleams and strange blurred reflections and emanations into a sky without stars. He suspended, as it were, his small sensibility in the midst of it, and it quivered there with joy and hope and ambition, as well as with the effort of renunciation. The Princess’s quiet fireside glowed with deeper assurances, with associations of intimacy, through the dusk and the immensity; the thought of it was with him always, and his relations with the mistress of it were more organised than they had been in his first vision of her. Whether or no it was better for the cause she cherished that she should have been reduced to her present simplicity, it was better, at least, for Hyacinth. It made her more near and him more free; and if there had been a danger of her nature seeming really to take the tone of the vulgar things about her, he would only have had to remember her as she was at Medley to restore the perspective. In truth, her beauty always appeared to have the setting that best became it; her fairness made the element in which she lived and, among the meanest accessories, constituted a kind of splendour. Nature had multiplied the difficulties in the way of her successfully representing herself as having properties in common with the horrible populace of London. Hyacinth used to smile at this pretension in his night-walks to Paddington, or homeward; the populace of London were scattered upon his path, and he asked himself by what wizardry they could ever be raised to high participations. There were nights when every one he met appeared to reek with gin and filth, and he found himself elbowed by figures as foul as lepers. Some of the women and girls, in particular, were appalling—saturated with alcohol and vice, brutal, bedraggled, obscene. ‘What remedy but another deluge, what alchemy but annihilation?’ he asked himself, as he went his way; and he wondered what fate there could be, in the great scheme of things, for a planet overgrown with such vermin, what redemption but to be hurled against a ball of consuming fire. If it was the fault of the rich, as Paul Muniment held, the selfish, congested rich, who allowed such abominations to flourish, that made no difference, and only shifted the shame; for the terrestrial globe, a visible failure, produced the cause as well as the effect.
I mention these dark thoughts not because they were particularly tied to the story of our young man during the winter of the Princess’s stay in Madeira Crescent, but because they were a constant part of his moral life and need to be acknowledged when considering him at any point in time. There were nights in November and December when he walked the grimy pavements between Westminster and Paddington, feeling his way through the dim streetlights and tasting the smoke-filled fog, when he experienced more happiness in his heart than he had ever felt before. The influence of London surrounded him again; Paris, Milan, and Venice had faded into memories and images, and as the vast city that felt most like home enveloped him under its gloom, he felt a thrill, like he had before, but now with more understanding, that it was the richest expression of human life. His perspective had broadened immensely, but it was still filled with the darkness that sent faint night glimmers and strange blurred reflections into a starless sky. He held, as if in suspension, his sensitive feelings amidst it all, and they vibrated with joy, hope, and ambition, along with the struggle of letting go. The Princess’s quiet fireside radiated deeper assurances and intimate associations through the dusk and vastness; the thought of it was always with him, and his relationship with her was more structured than it had been in his initial vision of her. Whether or not it was better for her cause that she had been brought down to her current simplicity, it was at least better for Hyacinth. It made her feel closer and him feel freer; and if there was a risk of her nature seeming to adopt the tone of the common things around her, all he had to do was remember her as she was at Medley to regain his perspective. In reality, her beauty seemed to always be in the best setting; her fairness created the atmosphere in which she thrived and, even among the most unrefined surroundings, created a kind of splendor. Nature had multiplied the challenges in her successfully representing herself as sharing any traits with the wretched people of London. Hyacinth would smile at this notion during his nighttime walks to Paddington or home; the London populace littered his path, and he questioned how they could ever ascend to any higher state. There were nights when everyone he encountered seemed to reek of gin and grime, and he found himself pushed aside by figures as foul as lepers. Some of the women and girls, especially, were terrifying—soaked in alcohol and vice, brutal, disheveled, and obscene. “What remedy is there but another flood, what magic but destruction?” he wondered as he walked; and he contemplated what fate could possibly await a planet overwhelmed with such vermin, what redemption there could be but to be thrown into a ball of consuming fire. If it was the fault of the wealthy, as Paul Muniment claimed, the selfish, overcrowded rich who allowed such horrors to thrive, it didn’t change anything and only shifted the shame; for the earth, a visible failure, produced both the cause and the effect.
It did not occur to Hyacinth that the Princess had withdrawn her confidence from him because, for the work of investigating still further the condition of the poor, she placed herself in the hands of Lady Aurora. He could have no jealousy of the noble spinster; he had too much respect for her philanthropy, the thoroughness of her knowledge, and her capacity to answer any question it could come into the Princess’s extemporising head to ask, and too acute a consciousness of his own desultory and superficial attitude toward the great question. It was enough for him that the little parlour in Madeira Crescent was a spot round which his thoughts could revolve, and toward which his steps could direct themselves, with an unalloyed sense of security and privilege. The picture of it hung before him half the time, in colours to which the feeling of the place gave a rarity that doubtless did not literally characterise the scene. His relations with the Princess had long since ceased to appear to him to belong to the world of fable; they were as natural as anything else (everything in life was queer enough); he had by this time assimilated them, as it were, and they were an indispensable part of the happiness of each. ‘Of each’—Hyacinth risked that, for there was no particular vanity now involved in his perceiving that the most remarkable woman in Europe was, simply, very fond of him. The quiet, familiar, fraternal welcome he found on the nasty winter nights was proof enough of that. They sat together like very old friends, whom long pauses, during which they simply looked at each other with kind, acquainted eyes, could not make uncomfortable. Not that the element of silence was the principal part of their conversation, for it interposed only when they had talked a great deal. Hyacinth, on the opposite side of the fire, felt at times almost as if he were married to his hostess, so many things were taken for granted between them. For intercourse of that sort, intimate, easy, humorous, circumscribed by drawn curtains and shaded lamp-light, and interfused with domestic embarrassments and confidences, all turning to the jocular, the Princess was incomparable. It was her theory of her present existence that she was picnicking; but all the accidents of the business were happy accidents. There was a household quietude in her steps and gestures, in the way she sat, in the way she listened, in the way she played with the cat, or looked after the fire, or folded Madame Grandoni’s ubiquitous shawl; above all, in the inveteracy with which she spent her evenings at home, never dining out nor going to parties, ignorant of the dissipations of the town. There was something in the isolation of the room, when the kettle was on the hob and he had given his wet umbrella to the maid and the Princess made him sit in a certain place near the fire, the better to dry his shoes—there was something that evoked the idea of the vie de province, as he had read about it in French works. The French term came to him because it represented more the especial note of the Princess’s company, the cultivation, the facility, of talk. She expressed herself often in the French tongue itself; she could borrow that convenience, for certain shades of meaning, though she had told Hyacinth that she didn’t like the people to whom it was native. Certainly, the quality of her conversation was not provincial; it was singularly free and unrestricted; there was nothing one mightn’t say to her or that she was not liable to say herself. She had cast off prejudices and gave no heed to conventional danger-posts. Hyacinth admired the movement—his eyes seemed to see it—with which, in any direction, intellectually, she could fling open her windows. There was an extraordinary charm in this mixture of liberty and humility—in seeing a creature capable, socially, of immeasurable flights sit dove-like, with folded wings.
It never crossed Hyacinth’s mind that the Princess had pulled back her trust in him because she had chosen to work with Lady Aurora to further investigate the situation of the poor. He felt no jealousy toward the noble woman; he respected her philanthropy, her deep understanding, and her ability to answer any question the Princess could think of, and he was keenly aware of his own lackadaisical and superficial approach to such a significant issue. It was enough for him that the small sitting room in Madeira Crescent was a place he could center his thoughts around and to which he could head with a pure sense of comfort and privilege. The image of that room stayed in his mind most of the time, in colors that felt precious, even if they didn’t really capture the scene. His relationship with the Princess no longer felt like something out of a storybook; it felt as natural as anything else (and everything in life was strange enough), and he had absorbed that relationship, making it an essential part of both their happiness. ‘Of both’—Hyacinth felt confident in that, as there was no particular vanity in acknowledging that the most remarkable woman in Europe genuinely cared for him. The warm, familiar welcome he experienced on those dreary winter nights was proof enough. They sat together like very old friends, enduring long silences where they’d simply look at each other with kind, familiar eyes without feeling awkward. Silence wasn’t the main focus of their conversations; it only appeared after they had talked a lot. Hyacinth, sitting across from the fire, sometimes felt almost married to his hostess, as so much was taken for granted between them. For a relationship like that—intimate, easy, humorous, framed by drawn curtains and soft lamp-light, mixed with domestic awkwardness and shared secrets that always turned playful—the Princess was unmatched. She believed her current life was somewhat of a picnic, yet everything about it felt pleasantly accidental. There was a homey calmness in the way she moved and gestured, how she sat, listened, played with the cat, tended to the fire, or folded Madame Grandoni’s ever-present shawl; most notably, in how she preferred spending her evenings at home, avoiding dining out or attending parties, oblivious to the city's nightlife. There was something in the cozy isolation of the room when the kettle was boiling, and after he had handed his wet umbrella to the maid, the Princess had him sit in a specific spot near the fire to dry his shoes—something that reminded him of the vie de province, as he had read about it in French literature. The French term came to mind because it captured the distinct essence of the Princess’s company—its refinement and ease of conversation. She often spoke in French, easily borrowing that language for certain nuances, even though she had told Hyacinth that she didn’t care for the native speakers. Indeed, her conversations were not provincial; they were remarkably open and unrestricted; there was nothing he couldn’t say to her, and nothing she wouldn’t say herself. She had shed biases and ignored conventional warning signs. Hyacinth admired how effortlessly she could open her intellectual windows in any direction. There was an extraordinary charm in the mix of freedom and humility—seeing someone socially capable of immense heights sitting calmly, with folded wings.
The young man met Lady Aurora several times in Madeira Crescent (her days, like his own, were filled with work, and she came in the evening), and he knew that her friendship with the Princess had arrived at a rich maturity. The two ladies were a source of almost rapturous interest to each other, and each rejoiced that the other was not a bit different. The Princess prophesied freely that her visitor would give her up—all nice people did, very soon; but to Hyacinth the end of her ladyship’s almost breathless enthusiasm was not yet in view. She was bewildered, but she was fascinated; and she thought the Princess not only the most distinguished, the most startling, the most edifying and the most original person in the world, but the most amusing and the most delightful to have tea with. As for the Princess, her sentiment about Lady Aurora was the same that Hyacinth’s had been: she thought her a saint, the first she had ever seen, and the purest specimen conceivable; as good in her way as St Francis of Assisi, as tender and naïve and transparent, of a spirit of charity as sublime. She held that when one met a human flower as fresh as that in the dusty ways of the world one should pluck it and wear it; and she was always inhaling Lady Aurora’s fragrance, always kissing her and holding her hand. The spinster was frightened at her generosity, at the way her imagination embroidered; she wanted to convince her (as the Princess did on her own side) that such exaggerations destroyed their unfortunate subject. The Princess delighted in her clothes, in the way she put them on and wore them, in the economies she practised in order to have money for charity and the ingenuity with which these slender resources were made to go far, in the very manner in which she spoke, a kind of startled simplicity. She wished to emulate her in all these particulars; to learn how to economise still more cunningly, to get her bonnets at the same shop, to care as little for the fit of her gloves, to ask, in the same tone, “Isn’t it a bore Susan Crotty’s husband has got a ticket-of-leave?” She said Lady Aurora made her feel like a French milliner, and that if there was anything in the world she loathed it was a French milliner. Each of these persons was powerfully affected by the other’s idiosyncrasies, and each wanted the other to remain as she was while she herself should be transformed into the image of her friend.
The young man met Lady Aurora several times on Madeira Crescent (her days, like his own, were filled with work, and she came in the evening), and he knew that her friendship with the Princess had grown into something special. The two ladies were a source of almost overwhelming interest to each other, and each was glad that the other hadn't changed at all. The Princess boldly predicted that her visitor would eventually abandon her—all nice people did, pretty quickly; but for Hyacinth, the end of her ladyship’s nearly breathless enthusiasm was not in sight yet. She was confused, but she was captivated; and she thought the Princess was not only the most distinguished, the most surprising, the most inspiring, and the most original person in the world, but also the most entertaining and delightful to have tea with. As for the Princess, her feelings about Lady Aurora mirrored Hyacinth’s: she believed her to be a saint, the first she had ever encountered, and the purest example imaginable; just as good in her own way as St. Francis of Assisi, as gentle, naïve, and transparent, with a spirit of charity that was truly exceptional. She thought that when one came across such a fresh human flower in the gritty realities of life, one should pick it and wear it; and she was always inhaling Lady Aurora’s fragrance, always hugging her and holding her hand. The single woman was intimidated by her generosity, by the way her imagination embellished; she wanted to convince her (as the Princess did from her side) that such exaggerations harmed their unfortunate subject. The Princess was enchanted by her clothes, by the way she dressed and wore them, by the frugality she practiced to have money for charity, and by the creativity with which these limited resources were stretched, as well as by her very way of speaking, which had a kind of shocked simplicity. She wanted to emulate her in all these ways; to learn how to save even more cleverly, to get her hats at the same shop, to care as little about how her gloves fit, to ask, in the same tone, “Isn’t it a drag that Susan Crotty’s husband has a ticket-of-leave?” She remarked that Lady Aurora made her feel like a French milliner and that if there was anything she disliked, it was a French milliner. Each of these women was deeply affected by the other's quirks, and each wanted the other to stay the same while she herself transformed into her friend’s image.
One evening, going to Madeira Crescent a little later than usual, Hyacinth met Lady Aurora on the doorstep, leaving the house. She had a different air from any he had seen in her before; appeared flushed and even a little agitated, as if she had been learning a piece of bad news. She said, “Oh, how do you do?” with her customary quick, vague laugh; but she went her way, without stopping to talk.
One evening, while heading to Madeira Crescent a bit later than usual, Hyacinth ran into Lady Aurora on the doorstep as she was leaving the house. She looked different from how he had seen her before; she seemed flushed and a bit agitated, as if she had just received some bad news. She said, “Oh, how do you do?” with her usual quick, vague laugh, but then she continued on her way without stopping to chat.
Hyacinth, on going in, mentioned to the Princess that he had encountered her, and this lady replied, “It’s a pity you didn’t come a little sooner. You would have assisted at a scene.”
Hyacinth, upon entering, told the Princess that he had run into her, and she replied, “It’s too bad you didn’t arrive a bit earlier. You would have witnessed quite a scene.”
“At a scene?” Hyacinth repeated, not understanding what violence could have taken place between mutual adorers.
“At a scene?” Hyacinth repeated, not getting how any violence could happen between two people who admire each other.
“She made me a scene of tears, of earnest remonstrance—perfectly well meant, I needn’t tell you. She thinks I am going too far.”
“She gave me a tearful scene, full of serious protests—completely well-intentioned, I don’t need to tell you. She believes I am going too far.”
“I imagine you tell her things that you don’t tell me,” said Hyacinth.
“I guess you tell her things you don’t share with me,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, you, my dear fellow!” the Princess murmured. She spoke absent-mindedly, as if she were thinking of what had passed with Lady Aurora, and as if the futility of telling things to Hyacinth had become a commonplace.
“Oh, you, my dear friend!” the Princess murmured. She spoke absent-mindedly, as if she were reflecting on what had happened with Lady Aurora, and as if the uselessness of sharing things with Hyacinth had become a routine.
There was no annoyance for him in this, his pretension to keep pace with her ‘views’ being quite extinct. The tone they now, for the most part, took with each other was one of mutual derision, of shrugging commiseration for insanity on the one hand and benightedness on the other. In discussing with her he exaggerated deliberately, went to fantastic lengths in the way of reaction; and it was their habit and their entertainment to hurl all manner of denunciation at each other’s head. They had given up serious discussion altogether, and when they were not engaged in bandying, in the spirit of burlesque, the amenities I have mentioned, they talked of matters as to which it could not occur to them to differ. There were evenings when the Princess did nothing but relate her life and all that she had seen of humanity, from her earliest years, in a variety of countries. If the evil side of it appeared mainly to have been presented to her view, this did not diminish the interest and vividness of her reminiscences, nor her power, the greatest Hyacinth had ever encountered, of light pictorial, dramatic evocation. She was irreverent and invidious, but she made him hang on her lips; and when she regaled him with anecdotes of foreign courts (he delighted to know how sovereigns lived and conversed), there was often, for hours together, nothing to indicate that she would have liked to get into a conspiracy and he would have liked to get out of one. Nevertheless, his mind was by no means exempt from wonder as to what she was really doing in the dark and in what queer consequences she might find herself landed. When he questioned her she wished to know by what title, with his sentiments, he pretended to inquire. He did so but little, not being himself altogether convinced of the validity of his warrant; but on one occasion, when she challenged him, he replied, smiling and hesitating, “Well, I must say, it seems to me that, from what I have told you, it ought to strike you that I have a title.”
There was no annoyance for him in this; his pretense to keep up with her ‘views’ was completely gone. The way they mostly interacted with each other was one of mutual mockery, a shared shrug of sympathy for each other's insanity on one side and ignorance on the other. When discussing things with her, he would exaggerate on purpose, going to ridiculous lengths in his reactions; it became their habit and their entertainment to throw all kinds of insults at each other. They had completely given up on serious discussions, and when they weren’t making fun of each other with the playful jabs I mentioned, they talked about things they couldn’t possibly argue about. There were evenings when the Princess would do nothing but tell stories about her life and everything she had seen of humanity from her earliest years in various countries. Even if the darker side of life seemed to dominate her experiences, it didn’t lessen the interest and liveliness of her memories, nor her incredible ability to vividly paint dramatic scenes with her words, the best Hyacinth had ever encountered. She was irreverent and critical, but she had him hanging on her every word; when she entertained him with stories of foreign courts (he loved learning how royalty lived and talked), there were often hours where nothing hinted that she wanted to be part of a conspiracy and he wanted nothing more than to escape one. Still, he couldn’t help but wonder what she was really doing in the dark and what strange situations she might find herself in. When he asked her, she wanted to know by what right, given his feelings, he thought he could ask. He didn’t ask much, not being completely convinced of his reasoning; but on one occasion, when she pressed him, he replied, smiling and hesitating, “Well, I have to say, it seems to me that, based on what I’ve told you, you should see that I have a right to ask.”
“You mean your famous engagement, your vow? Oh, that will never come to anything.”
“You're talking about your famous engagement, your promise? Oh, that will never lead to anything.”
“Why won’t it come to anything?”
"Why isn't it moving?"
“It’s too absurd, it’s too vague. It’s like some silly humbug in a novel.”
“It’s too ridiculous, it’s too unclear. It’s like some silly trick in a book.”
“Vous me rendez la vie!” said Hyacinth, theatrically.
“You make my life!” said Hyacinth, dramatically.
“You won’t have to do it,” the Princess went on.
“You won’t have to do it,” the Princess continued.
“I think you mean I won’t do it. I have offered, at least; isn’t that a title?”
"I think you mean I won't do it. I've offered, at least; isn't that a title?"
“Well, then, you won’t do it,” said the Princess; and they looked at each other a couple of minutes in silence.
“Well, then, you’re not going to do it,” said the Princess; and they stared at each other for a couple of minutes in silence.
“You will, I think, at the pace you are going,” the young man resumed.
“You will, I think, at the rate you’re going,” the young man continued.
“What do you know about the pace? You are not worthy to know!”
“What do you know about the pace? You aren’t worthy to know!”
He did know, however; that is, he knew that she was in communication with foreign socialists and had, or believed she had, irons on the fire—that she held in her hand some of the strings that are pulled in great movements. She received letters that made Madame Grandoni watch her askance, of which, though she knew nothing of their contents and had only her general suspicions and her scent for disaster, now become constant, the old woman had spoken more than once to Hyacinth. Madame Grandoni had begun to have sombre visions of the interference of the police: she was haunted with the idea of a search for compromising papers; of being dragged, herself, as an accomplice in direful plots, into a court of justice—possibly into a prison. “If she would only burn—if she would only burn! But she keeps—I know she keeps!” she groaned to Hyacinth, in her helpless gloom. Hyacinth could only guess what it might be that she kept; asking himself whether she were seriously entangled, were being exploited by revolutionary Bohemians, predatory adventurers who counted on her getting frightened at a given moment and offering hush-money to be allowed to slip out (out of a complicity which they, of course, would never have taken seriously); or were merely coquetting with paper schemes, giving herself cheap sensations, discussing preliminaries which, for her, could have no second stage. It would have been easy for Hyacinth to smile at the Princess’s impression that she was ‘in it’, and to conclude that even the cleverest women do not know when they are superficial, had not the vibration remained which had been imparted to his nerves two years before, of which he had spoken to his hostess at Medley—the sense, vividly kindled and never quenched, that the forces secretly arrayed against the present social order were pervasive and universal, in the air one breathed, in the ground one trod, in the hand of an acquaintance that one might touch, or the eye of a stranger that might rest a moment upon one’s own. They were above, below, within, without, in every contact and combination of life; and it was no disproof of them to say it was too odd that they should lurk in a particular improbable form. To lurk in improbable forms was precisely their strength, and they would doubtless exhibit much stranger incidents than this of the Princess’s being a genuine participant even when she flattered herself that she was.
He did know, though; that is, he knew that she was in touch with foreign socialists and had, or thought she had, some connections—she was involved in some big movements. She got letters that made Madame Grandoni eye her suspiciously, and although Madame Grandoni had no idea what was in those letters and was basically just acting on her general suspicions and her growing sense of impending trouble, she had mentioned it more than once to Hyacinth. Madame Grandoni started to worry about police involvement: she was plagued with thoughts about a search for incriminating documents; about being dragged into a court as an accomplice in serious conspiracies—possibly even jail. “If she would just burn—if she would just burn! But she holds on—I know she holds on!” she moaned to Hyacinth, in her despair. Hyacinth could only guess what it was that she held on to; wondering if she was deeply involved or being used by revolutionary Bohemians, opportunistic adventurers who expected her to get scared at some point and offer payoff money to be let go (out of a situation they, of course, never took seriously); or if she was just playing around with ideas, indulging in cheap thrills, talking about plans that, for her, had no future. It would have been easy for Hyacinth to dismiss the Princess’s belief that she was ‘in it,’ and assume that even the smartest women sometimes don’t realize when they’re being shallow, if it weren’t for the unsettling feeling that had stirred in him two years earlier, which he had mentioned to his hostess at Medley—the vivid and unshakeable sense that the forces silently opposed to the current social order were everywhere, in the air we breathe, in the ground we walk on, in the hand of someone we touch, or the gaze of a stranger who might fix their eyes on us. They were above, below, within, without, in every interaction and combination of life; and it was no proof against their existence to say it was too strange for them to appear in a specific unlikely form. It was exactly their ability to hide in unlikely forms that gave them strength, and they would surely show even stranger occurrences than this idea of the Princess genuinely being involved, even when she convinced herself she was.
“You do go too far,” Hyacinth said to her, the evening Lady Aurora had passed him at the door.
“You're going too far,” Hyacinth said to her, the evening Lady Aurora had walked past him at the door.
To which she answered, “Of course I do—that’s exactly what I mean. How else does one know one has gone far enough? That poor, dear woman! She’s an angel, but she isn’t in the least in it,” she added, in a moment. She would give him no further satisfaction on the subject; when he pressed her she inquired whether he had brought the copy of Browning that he had promised the last time. If he had, he was to sit down and read it to her. In such a case as this Hyacinth had no disposition to insist; he was glad enough not to talk about the everlasting nightmare. He took Men and Women from his pocket, and read aloud for half an hour; but on his making some remark on one of the poems, at the end of this time he perceived the Princess had been paying no attention. When he charged her with this levity she only replied, looking at him musingly, “How can one, after all, go too far? That’s a word of cowards.”
To which she replied, “Of course I do—that’s exactly my point. How else do you know you’ve gone far enough? That poor, sweet woman! She’s amazing, but she’s not really involved at all,” she added after a moment. She wouldn’t give him any more satisfaction on that topic; when he pressed her, she asked if he had brought the copy of Browning he promised last time. If he had, he should sit down and read it to her. In this case, Hyacinth didn’t feel like insisting; he was more than happy not to discuss the constant nightmare. He took Men and Women out of his pocket and read aloud for half an hour, but when he made a comment about one of the poems, he realized the Princess hadn’t been paying attention. When he called her out on this distraction, she simply responded, looking at him thoughtfully, “How can anyone, after all, go too far? That’s a word for cowards.”
“Do you mean her ladyship is a coward?”
“Are you saying she’s a coward?”
“Yes, in not having the courage of her opinions, of her conclusions. The way the English can go half-way to a thing, and then stick in the middle!” the Princess exclaimed, impatiently.
“Yes, by not having the courage of her opinions or her conclusions. The way the English can go halfway to something and then just get stuck in the middle!” the Princess exclaimed, impatiently.
“That’s not your fault, certainly!” said Hyacinth. “But it seems to me that Lady Aurora, for herself, goes pretty far.”
"That's definitely not your fault!" said Hyacinth. "But it looks to me like Lady Aurora is going pretty far with this."
“We are all afraid of some things, and brave about others,” the Princess went on.
“We all have fears about some things and show courage in other areas,” the Princess continued.
“The thing Lady Aurora is most afraid of is the Princess Casamassima,” Hyacinth remarked.
“The thing Lady Aurora is most afraid of is Princess Casamassima,” Hyacinth remarked.
His companion looked at him, but she did not take this up. “There is one particular in which she would be very brave. She would marry her friend—your friend—Mr Muniment.”
His companion looked at him, but she didn't respond to that. “There’s one thing she would be really brave about. She would marry her friend—your friend—Mr. Muniment.”
“Marry him, do you think?”
“Should I marry him?”
“What else, pray?” the Princess asked. “She adores the ground he walks on.”
“What else, please?” the Princess asked. “She worships the ground he walks on.”
“And what would Belgrave Square, and Inglefield, and all the rest of it, say?”
“And what would Belgrave Square, and Inglefield, and everything else say?”
“What do they say already, and how much does it make her swerve? She would do it in a moment; and it would be fine to see it, it would be magnificent,” said the Princess, kindling, as she was apt to kindle, at the idea of any great freedom of action.
“What do they say already, and how much does it make her shift? She would do it in an instant; and it would be amazing to see it, it would be magnificent,” said the Princess, getting excited, as she often did, at the thought of any significant freedom of action.
“That certainly wouldn’t be a case of what you call sticking in the middle,” Hyacinth rejoined.
"That definitely wouldn't be what you call sitting on the fence," Hyacinth replied.
“Ah, it wouldn’t be a matter of logic; it would be a matter of passion. When it’s a question of that, the English, to do them justice, don’t stick!”
“Ah, it wouldn’t be about logic; it would be about passion. When it comes to that, the English, to be fair to them, don’t hold back!”
This speculation of the Princess’s was by no means new to Hyacinth, and he had not thought it heroic, after all, that their high-strung friend should feel herself capable of sacrificing her family, her name, and the few habits of gentility that survived in her life, of making herself a scandal, a fable, and a nine days’ wonder, for Muniment’s sake; the young chemist’s assistant being, to his mind, as we know, exactly the type of man who produced convulsions, made ruptures and renunciations easy. But it was less clear to him what ideas Muniment might have on the subject of a union with a young woman who should have come out of her class for him. He would marry some day, evidently, because he would do all the natural, human, productive things; but for the present he had business on hand which would be likely to pass first. Besides—Hyacinth had seen him give evidence of this—he didn’t think people could really come out of their class; he held that the stamp of one’s origin is ineffaceable and that the best thing one can do is to wear it and fight for it. Hyacinth could easily imagine how it would put him out to be mixed up, closely, with a person who, like Lady Aurora, was fighting on the wrong side. “She can’t marry him unless he asks her, I suppose—and perhaps he won’t,” he reflected.
This speculation of the Princess wasn’t new to Hyacinth, and he didn’t think it was heroic that their high-strung friend felt able to sacrifice her family, her name, and the few remnants of gentility in her life. She was willing to make herself a scandal, a fable, and a nine days' wonder for Muniment's sake; the young chemist's assistant was, in his view, exactly the type of guy who could make such drastic changes happen. But he wasn’t clear on what Muniment might think about being with a young woman who would be stepping down from her class for him. He would marry someday, obviously, because he would engage in all the natural, human, productive things; but for now, he had other priorities. Besides—Hyacinth had seen evidence of this—Muniment didn’t believe that people could really leave their class; he thought that one’s origins are indelible and that the best thing to do is to embrace it and fight for it. Hyacinth could easily picture how upset Muniment would be to be closely involved with someone like Lady Aurora, who was fighting on the wrong side. “She can’t marry him unless he asks her, I guess—and maybe he won’t,” he thought.
“Yes, perhaps he won’t,” said the Princess, thoughtfully.
“Yes, maybe he won’t,” said the Princess, thoughtfully.
XXXIX
On Saturday afternoons Paul Muniment was able to leave his work at four o’clock, and on one of these occasions, some time after his visit to Madeira Crescent, he came into Rosy’s room at about five, carefully dressed and brushed, and ruddy with the freshness of an abundant washing. He stood at the foot of her sofa, with a conscious smile, knowing how she chaffed him when his necktie was new; and after a moment, during which she ceased singing to herself as she twisted the strands of her long black hair together and let her eyes travel over his whole person, inspecting every detail, she said to him, “My dear Mr Muniment, you are going to see the Princess.”
On Saturday afternoons, Paul Muniment could finish his work at four o’clock, and on one of those occasions, sometime after his visit to Madeira Crescent, he entered Rosy’s room around five. He was neatly dressed and looked fresh after a good wash. He stood at the foot of her sofa with a knowing smile, aware of how she teased him when his necktie was new. After a moment where she paused her singing to twist her long black hair and take in his appearance, she said to him, “My dear Mr. Muniment, you’re off to see the Princess.”
“Well, have you anything to say against it?” Mr Muniment asked.
“Well, do you have anything to say against it?” Mr. Muniment asked.
“Not a word; you know I like princesses. But you have.”
“Not a word; you know I like princesses. But you have.”
“Well, my girl, I’ll not speak it to you,” the young man rejoined. “There’s something to be said against everything, if you’ll give yourself trouble enough.”
“Well, my girl, I won’t say it to you,” the young man replied. “There’s a downside to everything, if you care enough to look for it.”
“I should be very sorry if ever anything was said against you.”
“I would be really upset if anyone ever said anything bad about you.”
“The man’s a sneak who is only and always praised,” Muniment remarked. “If you didn’t hope to be finely abused, where would be the encouragement?”
“The guy’s a sneak who is only ever praised,” Muniment said. “If you didn’t expect to be treated badly, where would the motivation be?”
“Ay, but not with reason,” said Rosy, who always brightened to an argument.
“Yeah, but not for a good reason,” said Rosy, who always got excited about a debate.
“The better the reason, the greater the incentive to expose one’s self. However, you won’t hear it, if people do heave bricks at me.”
“The better the reason, the stronger the motivation to put yourself out there. However, you won’t hear it if people are throwing bricks at me.”
“I won’t hear it? Pray, don’t I hear everything? I should like any one to keep anything from me!” And Miss Muniment gave a toss of her recumbent head.
“I won’t hear it? Please, don’t I hear everything? I’d like to see anyone keep anything from me!” And Miss Muniment gave a toss of her reclining head.
“There’s a good deal I keep from you, my dear,” said Paul, rather dryly.
“There's a lot I don't share with you, my dear,” said Paul, a bit curtly.
“You mean there are things I don’t want, I don’t take any trouble, to know. Indeed and indeed there are: things that I wouldn’t know for the world—that no amount of persuasion would induce me, not if you was to go down on your knees. But if I did—if I did, I promise you that just as I lie here I should have them all in my pocket. Now there are others,” the young woman went on—“there are others that you will just be so good as to tell me. When the Princess asked you to come and see her you refused, and you wanted to know what good it would do. I hoped you would go, then; I should have liked you to go, because I wanted to know how she lived, and whether she had things handsome, or only in the poor way she said. But I didn’t push you, because I couldn’t have told you what good it would do you: that was only the good it would have done me. At present I have heard everything from Lady Aurora, and I know that it’s all quite decent and tidy (though not really like a princess a bit), and that she knows how to turn everything about and put it best end foremost, just as I do, like, though I oughtn’t to say it, no doubt. Well, you have been, and more than once, and I have had nothing to do with it; of which I am very glad now, for reasons that you perfectly know—you’re too honest a man to pretend you don’t. Therefore, when I see you going again, I just inquire of you, as you inquired of her, what good does it do you?”
“You mean there are things I don’t want to know about, and I don’t bother to find out. Absolutely, there are: things I wouldn’t want to know for anything in the world—that no amount of convincing could make me, not even if you got down on your knees. But if I did—if I did, I promise you that just as I lie here, I’d have them all in my pocket. Now there are others,” the young woman continued—“there are others that you will kindly tell me about. When the Princess asked you to come see her, you said no, wanting to know what good it would do. I hoped you would go; I would have liked you to go because I wanted to see how she lived and whether she had nice things, or just the poor stuff she mentioned. But I didn’t push you because I couldn’t explain what good it would do you: that was just the good it would have done me. Right now, I’ve heard everything from Lady Aurora, and I know it’s all quite decent and tidy (though not at all like a princess), and that she knows how to rearrange everything and put it in the best light, just like I do, though I probably shouldn’t say that. Well, you’ve been, more than once, and I’ve had nothing to do with it; and I’m glad now, for reasons you clearly understand—you’re too honest a man to act like you don’t. So, when I see you going again, I just want to ask you, as you asked her, what good does it do you?”
“I like it—I like it, my dear,” said Paul, with his fresh, unembarrassed smile.
“I like it—I like it, my dear,” Paul said, his bright, confident smile lighting up his face.
“I dare say you do. So should I, in your place. But it’s the first time I have heard you express the idea that we ought to do everything we like.”
“I would say you do. I definitely would, if I were you. But this is the first time I've heard you suggest that we should do whatever we want.”
“Why not, when it doesn’t hurt any one else?”
“Why not, if it doesn’t hurt anyone else?”
“Oh, Mr Muniment, Mr Muniment!” Rosy exclaimed, with exaggerated solemnity, holding up a straight, attenuated forefinger at him. Then she added, “No, she doesn’t do you good, that beautiful, brilliant woman.”
“Oh, Mr. Muniment, Mr. Muniment!” Rosy exclaimed, with exaggerated seriousness, holding up a straight, thin finger at him. Then she added, “No, that beautiful, brilliant woman isn't good for you.”
“Give her time, my dear—give her time,” said Paul, looking at his watch.
“Give her some time, my dear—give her time,” Paul said, checking his watch.
“Of course you are impatient, but you must hear me. I have no doubt she’ll wait for you; you won’t lose your turn. Please, what would you do if any one was to break down altogether?”
“Of course you’re impatient, but you have to listen to me. I’m sure she’ll wait for you; you won’t miss your chance. Please, what would you do if someone were to completely lose it?”
“My bonny lassie,” the young man rejoined, “if you only keep going, I don’t care who fails.”
“My lovely girl,” the young man replied, “if you just keep pushing forward, I don’t care who else falls behind.”
“Oh, I shall keep going, if it’s only to look after my friends and get justice for them,” said Miss Muniment—“the delicate, sensitive creatures who require support and protection. Have you really forgotten that we have such a one as that?”
“Oh, I’ll keep going, even if it’s just to take care of my friends and get justice for them,” said Miss Muniment—“the fragile, sensitive ones who need support and protection. Have you really forgotten that we have someone like that?”
The young man walked to the window, with his hands in his pockets, and looked out at the fading light. “Why does she go herself, then, if she doesn’t like her?”
The young man walked to the window, his hands in his pockets, and looked out at the fading light. “Why does she go by herself, then, if she doesn't like her?”
Rose Muniment hesitated a moment. “Well, I’m glad I’m not a man!” she broke out. “I think a woman on her back is cleverer than a man on his two legs. And you such a wonderful one, too!”
Rose Muniment paused for a moment. “Well, I’m glad I’m not a man!” she exclaimed. “I think a woman lying down is smarter than a man standing on two legs. And you're such a wonderful one, too!”
“You are all too clever for me, my dear. If she goes—and twenty times a week, too—why shouldn’t I go, once in ever so long? Especially as I like her, and Lady Aurora doesn’t.”
“You’re all way too smart for me, my dear. If she goes—and twenty times a week, at that—why shouldn’t I go once in a while? Especially since I like her, and Lady Aurora doesn’t.”
“Lady Aurora doesn’t? Do you think she’d be guilty of hypocrisy? Lady Aurora delights in her; she won’t let me say that she herself is fit to dust the Princess’s shoes. I needn’t tell you how she goes down before them she likes. And I don’t believe you care a button; you have got something in your head, some wicked game or other, that you think she can hatch for you.”
“Lady Aurora doesn’t? Do you think she’d be guilty of hypocrisy? Lady Aurora enjoys her company; she won’t let me suggest that she herself is worthy of dusting the Princess’s shoes. I don’t need to tell you how she acts around those she likes. And I doubt you care at all; you’ve got something on your mind, some devious plan or another, that you think she can help you with.”
At this Paul Muniment turned round and looked at his sister a moment, smiling still and whistling just audibly. “Why shouldn’t I care? Ain’t I soft, ain’t I susceptible?”
At this, Paul Muniment turned around and looked at his sister for a moment, still smiling and whistling softly. “Why shouldn’t I care? Am I not sensitive, am I not open-hearted?”
“I never thought I should hear you ask that, after what I have seen these four years. For four years she has come, and it’s all for you, as well it might be, and you never showing any more sense of what she’d be willing to do for you than if you had been that woollen cat on the hearth-rug!”
“I never thought I would hear you ask that, after everything I've seen over the last four years. For four years, she has come, and it's all for you, as it should be, and you haven't shown any more awareness of what she’d be willing to do for you than if you were that woolly cat on the hearth!”
“What would you like me to do? Would you like me to hang round her neck and hold her hand, the same as you do?” Muniment asked.
“What do you want me to do? Do you want me to hang around her neck and hold her hand, just like you do?” Muniment asked.
“Yes, it would do me good, I can tell you. It’s better than what I see—the poor lady getting spotted and dim, like a mirror that wants rubbing.”
“Yes, it would help me, I can tell you. It’s better than what I see—the poor lady getting faded and dull, like a mirror that needs polishing.”
“You know a good deal, Rosy, but you don’t know everything,” Muniment remarked in a moment, with a face that gave no sign of seeing a reason in what she said. “Your mind is too poetical. There’s nothing that I should care for that her ladyship would be willing to do for me.”
“You know a lot, Rosy, but you don’t know everything,” Muniment said after a moment, his expression revealing no understanding of her point. “Your thinking is too poetic. There’s nothing I’d want that she’d be willing to do for me.”
“She would marry you at a day’s notice—she’d do that.”
“She would marry you with just a day’s notice—she’d totally do that.”
“I shouldn’t care for that. Besides, if I was to ask her she would never come into the place again. And I shouldn’t care for that, for you.”
“I shouldn’t care about that. Besides, if I asked her, she would never come back here again. And I shouldn’t care about that, for you.”
“Never mind me; I’ll take the risk!” cried Rosy, gaily.
“Don't worry about me; I’ll take the chance!” shouted Rosy cheerfully.
“But what’s to be gained, if I can have her, for you, without any risk?”
“But what’s the benefit if I can have her for you, with no risk involved?”
“You won’t have her for me, or for any one, when she’s dead of a broken heart.”
“You won’t have her for me, or for anyone, when she’s dead from a broken heart.”
“Dead of a broken tea-cup!” said the young man. “And, pray, what should we live on, when you had got us set up?—the three of us, without counting the kids.”
“Dead from a broken tea cup!” said the young man. “And, pray, what are we supposed to live on once you’ve got us all set up?—the three of us, not counting the kids.”
He evidently was arguing from pure good-nature, and not in the least from curiosity; but his sister replied as eagerly as if he would be floored by her answer: “Hasn’t she got two hundred a year of her own? Don’t I know every penny of her affairs?”
He was clearly expressing his thoughts out of sheer good-nature, not out of curiosity at all; but his sister responded enthusiastically as if she would impress him with her reply: “Doesn’t she have two hundred a year of her own? Don’t I know every detail of her finances?”
Paul Muniment gave no sign of any mental criticism he may have made on Rosy’s conception of the delicate course, or of a superior policy; perhaps, indeed, for it is perfectly possible, her inquiry did not strike him as having a mixture of motives. He only rejoined, with a little pleasant, patient sigh, “I don’t want the dear old girl’s money.”
Paul Muniment didn't show any signs of disapproval about Rosy's idea of the delicate path or a better approach; it’s quite possible that her question didn’t seem to him to have mixed motives. He simply responded with a light, patient sigh, “I don’t want the dear old girl’s money.”
His sister, in spite of her eagerness, waited twenty seconds; then she flashed at him, “Pray, do you like the Princess’s better?”
His sister, despite her excitement, waited twenty seconds; then she shot a glance at him and asked, “So, do you like the Princess’s better?”
“If I did, there would be more of it,” he answered, quietly.
“If I did, there would be more of it,” he replied softly.
“How can she marry you? Hasn’t she got a husband?” Rosy cried.
“How can she marry you? Doesn’t she have a husband?” Rosy exclaimed.
“Lord, how you give me away!” laughed her brother. “Daughters of earls, wives of princes—I have only to pick.”
“Wow, you really expose my flaws!” her brother laughed. “Daughters of earls, wives of princes—I just have to choose.”
“I don’t speak of the Princess, so long as there’s a prince. But if you haven’t seen that Lady Aurora is a beautiful, wonderful exception, and quite unlike any one else in all the wide world—well, all I can say is that I have.”
“I don't talk about the Princess as long as there's a prince. But if you haven't noticed that Lady Aurora is a stunning, amazing exception, completely unlike anyone else in the entire world—well, all I can say is that I have.”
“I thought it was your opinion,” Paul objected, “that the swells should remain swells, and the high ones keep their place.”
“I thought it was your opinion,” Paul said, “that the high-class people should stay in their place, and the upper crust should keep their status.”
“And, pray, would she lose hers if she were to marry you?”
“And, please, would she lose hers if she were to marry you?”
“Her place at Inglefield, certainly,” said Paul, as patiently as if his sister could never tire him with any insistence or any minuteness.
“Her place at Inglefield, definitely,” said Paul, as patiently as if his sister could never exhaust him with any repetition or detail.
“Hasn’t she lost that already? Does she ever go there?”
“Hasn’t she already lost that? Does she actually go there?”
“Surely you appear to think so, from the way you always question her about it,” replied Paul.
“Surely you think so, given how you always ask her about it,” replied Paul.
“Well, they think her so mad already that they can’t think her any madder,” his sister continued. “They have given her up, and if she were to marry you—”
“Well, they already think she's so crazy that they can't imagine her being any crazier,” his sister continued. “They've given up on her, and if she were to marry you—”
“If she were to marry me, they wouldn’t touch her with a ten-foot pole,” Paul broke in.
“If she married me, they wouldn’t go near her with a ten-foot pole,” Paul interrupted.
Rosy flinched a moment; then she said, serenely, “Oh, I don’t care for that!”
Rosy flinched for a moment; then she said, calmly, “Oh, I don’t care about that!”
“You ought to, to be consistent, though, possibly, she shouldn’t, admitting that she wouldn’t. You have more imagination than logic—which of course, for a woman, is quite right. That’s what makes you say that her ladyship is in affliction because I go to a place that she herself goes to without the least compulsion.”
“You should be consistent, but maybe she shouldn’t, admitting that she wouldn’t. You have more imagination than logic—which, of course, for a woman, is perfectly fine. That’s why you say that her ladyship is upset because I go to a place that she goes to without any pressure.”
“She goes to keep you off,” said Rosy, with decision.
“She’s leaving to get you out of her head,” said Rosy firmly.
“To keep me off?”
“To keep me away?”
“To interpose, with the Princess; to be nice to her and conciliate her, so that she may not take you.”
“To step in with the Princess; to be kind to her and win her over, so that she won’t choose you.”
“Did she tell you any such rigmarole as that?” Paul inquired, this time staring a little.
“Did she tell you any nonsense like that?” Paul asked, this time staring a bit.
“Do I need to be told things, to know them? I am not a fine, strong, superior male; therefore I can discover them for myself,” answered Rosy, with a dauntless little laugh and a light in her eyes which might indeed have made it appear that she was capable of wizardry.
“Do I need someone to tell me things to understand them? I’m not some perfect, strong, superior guy; I can figure things out on my own,” Rosy replied, with a fearless little laugh and a spark in her eyes that could definitely make it seem like she had magical powers.
“You make her out at once too passionate and too calculating,” the young man rejoined. “She has no personal feelings, she wants nothing for herself. She only wants one thing in the world—to make the poor a little less poor.”
“You see her as both too emotional and too strategic,” the young man replied. “She doesn’t have any personal desires; she wants nothing for herself. All she wants in the world is to make the poor a little less poor.”
“Precisely; and she regards you, a helpless, blundering bachelor, as one of them.”
“Exactly; and she sees you, a clueless, awkward bachelor, as one of them.”
“She knows I am not helpless so long as you are about the place, and that my blunders don’t matter so long as you correct them.”
“She knows I’m not helpless as long as you’re around, and that my mistakes don’t matter as long as you fix them.”
“She wants to assist me to assist you, then!” the girl exclaimed, with the levity with which her earnestness was always interfused; it was a spirit that seemed, at moments, in argument, to mock at her own contention. “Besides, isn’t that the very thing you want to bring about?” she went on. “Isn’t that what you are plotting and working and waiting for? She wants to throw herself into it—to work with you.”
“She wants to help me help you, then!” the girl exclaimed, with the lightness that always mixed with her seriousness; it was a spirit that sometimes seemed to poke fun at her own arguments. “Besides, isn’t that exactly what you’re trying to achieve?” she continued. “Isn’t that what you’re scheming and working and waiting for? She wants to dive into it—to work with you.”
“My dear girl, she doesn’t understand a pennyworth of what I think. She couldn’t if she would.”
“My dear girl, she doesn’t get a bit of what I think. She wouldn’t be able to even if she tried.”
“And no more do I, I suppose you mean.”
“And I guess I don't either, that's what you mean.”
“No more do you; but with you it’s different. If you would, you could. However, it matters little who understands and who doesn’t, for there’s mighty little of it. I’m not doing much, you know.”
“No more do you; but with you it’s different. If you wanted to, you could. However, it doesn’t really matter who gets it and who doesn’t, because there’s not much of it. I’m not doing much, you know.”
Rosy lay there looking up at him. “It must be pretty thick, when you talk that way. However, I don’t care what happens, for I know I shall be looked after.”
Rosy lay there looking up at him. “It must be pretty dense, the way you talk like that. But I don’t care what happens, because I know I’ll be taken care of.”
“Nothing will happen—nothing will happen,” Paul remarked, simply.
“Nothing’s going to happen—nothing’s going to happen,” Paul said, plainly.
The girl’s rejoinder to this was to say in a moment, “You have a different tone since you have taken up the Princess.”
The girl replied almost immediately, "You've changed your tone since you've started seeing the Princess."
She spoke with a certain severity, but he broke out, as if he had not heard her, “I like your idea of the female aristocracy quarrelling over a dirty brute like me.”
She spoke with a certain seriousness, but he interrupted, as if he hadn’t heard her, “I like your idea of the upper-class women fighting over a filthy guy like me.”
“I don’t know how dirty you are, but I know you smell of soap,” said Rosy, with serenity. “They won’t quarrel; that’s not the way they do it. Yes, you are taking a different tone, for some purpose that I can’t discover just yet.”
“I don’t know how dirty you are, but I can tell you smell like soap,” Rosy said calmly. “They won’t fight; that’s not how they handle things. Yes, you’re changing your tone, and I can’t figure out why yet.”
“What do you mean by that? When did I ever take a tone?” her brother asked.
“What do you mean by that? When did I ever sound that way?” her brother asked.
“Why then do you speak as if you were not remarkable, immensely remarkable—more remarkable than anything any one, male or female, good or bad, of the aristocracy or of the vulgar sort, can ever do for you?”
“Then why do you talk as if you’re not remarkable, incredibly remarkable—more remarkable than anything anyone, whether male or female, good or bad, from the upper class or the lower class, could ever do for you?”
“What on earth have I ever done to show it?” Paul demanded.
“What on earth have I ever done to prove it?” Paul asked.
“Oh, I don’t know your secrets, and that’s one of them. But we’re out of the common beyond any one, you and I, and, between ourselves, with the door fastened, we might as well admit it.”
“Oh, I don’t know your secrets, and that’s one of them. But we’re out of the ordinary in a way that no one else is, you and I, and, just between us, with the door locked, we might as well admit it.”
“I admit it for you, with all my heart,” said the young man, laughing.
“I admit it for you, with all my heart,” said the young man, laughing.
“Well, then, if I admit it for you, that’s all that’s required.”
“Well, if I admit it for you, that’s all that’s needed.”
The brother and sister considered each other a while in silence, as if each were tasting, agreeably, the distinction the other conferred; then Muniment said, “If I’m such an awfully superior chap, why shouldn’t I behave in keeping?”
The brother and sister looked at each other in silence for a moment, as if enjoying the unique qualities the other brought out; then Muniment said, “If I'm such a superior guy, why shouldn't I act like it?”
“Oh, you do, you do!”
“Oh, you really do!”
“All the same, you don’t like it.”
“All the same, you don’t like it.”
“It isn’t so much what you do; it’s what she does.”
“It’s not really about what you do; it’s about what she does.”
“How do you mean, what she does?”
“How do you mean, what she does?”
“She makes Lady Aurora suffer.”
“She makes Lady Aurora struggle.”
“Oh, I can’t go into that,” said Paul. “A man feels like a muff, talking about the women that ‘suffer’ for him.”
“Oh, I can’t get into that,” said Paul. “A guy feels ridiculous talking about the women who ‘suffer’ for him.”
“Well, if they do it, I think you might bear it!” Rosy exclaimed. “That’s what a man is. When it comes to being sorry, oh, that’s too ridiculous!”
“Well, if they do it, I think you might handle it!” Rosy exclaimed. “That’s just how a man is. When it comes to feeling sorry, oh, that’s just ridiculous!”
“There are plenty of things in the world I’m sorry for,” Paul rejoined, smiling. “One of them is that you should keep me gossiping here when I want to go out.”
“There are a lot of things in the world I regret,” Paul replied with a smile. “One of them is that you’re making me chat here when I want to go out.”
“Oh, I don’t care if I worry her a little. Does she do it on purpose?” Rosy continued.
“Oh, I don’t mind bothering her a bit. Does she do it intentionally?” Rosy continued.
“You ladies must settle all that together,” Muniment answered, rubbing his hat with the cuff of his coat. It was a new one, the bravest he had ever possessed, and in a moment he put it on his head, as if to reinforce his reminder to his sister that it was time she should release him.
“You ladies need to figure all that out together,” Muniment replied, rubbing his hat with the sleeve of his coat. It was a new one, the nicest he had ever owned, and in a moment, he put it on his head, as if to emphasize to his sister that it was time for her to let him go.
“Well, you do look genteel,” she remarked, complacently, gazing up at him. “No wonder she has lost her head! I mean the Princess,” she explained. “You never went to any such expense for her ladyship.”
“Well, you do look refined,” she said, satisfied, looking up at him. “It’s no surprise she’s gone crazy! I’m talking about the Princess,” she clarified. “You never spent that much on her ladyship.”
“My dear, the Princess is worth it—she’s worth it,” said the young man, speaking seriously now, and reflectively.
“My dear, the Princess is worth it—she’s worth it,” said the young man, now speaking seriously and thoughtfully.
“Will she help you very much?” Rosy demanded, with a strange, sudden transition to eagerness.
“Will she help you a lot?” Rosy asked, her eagerness suddenly appearing.
“Well,” said Paul, “that’s rather what I look for.”
“Well,” Paul said, “that’s exactly what I’m looking for.”
She threw herself forward on her sofa, with a movement that was rare with her, and shaking her clasped hands she exclaimed, “Then go off, go off quickly!”
She lunged forward on her couch, a move that was unusual for her, and shaking her clasped hands, she shouted, “Then leave, leave quickly!”
He came round and kissed her, as if he were not more struck than usual with her freakish inconsequence. “It’s not bad to have a little person at home who wants a fellow to succeed.”
He came over and kissed her, as if he weren't any more surprised than usual by her quirky randomness. “It’s nice to have someone at home who wants you to succeed.”
“Oh, I know they will look after me,” she said, sinking back upon her pillow with an air of agreeable security.
“Oh, I know they’ll take care of me,” she said, sinking back onto her pillow with a sense of comfortable security.
He was aware that whenever she said ‘they’, without further elucidation, she meant the populace surging up in his rear, and he rejoined, always hilarious, “I don’t think we’ll leave it much to ‘them’.”
He knew that whenever she said ‘they’, without explaining further, she meant the crowd pushing behind him, and he responded, always amused, “I don’t think we’ll leave it much to ‘them’.”
“No, it’s not much you’ll leave to them, I’ll be bound.”
“No, you won’t leave them much, I’ll guarantee that.”
He gave a louder laugh at this, and said, “You’re the deepest of the lot, Miss Muniment.”
He laughed louder at this and said, “You’re the most profound one here, Miss Muniment.”
Her eyes kindled at his praise, and as she rested them on her brother’s she murmured, “Well, I pity the poor Princess, too, you know.”
Her eyes lit up at his praise, and as she looked at her brother, she murmured, “Well, I feel sorry for the poor Princess, too, you know.”
“Well, now, I’m not conceited, but I don’t,” Paul returned, passing in front of the little mirror on the mantel-shelf.
“Well, I'm not full of myself, but I don’t,” Paul replied, walking in front of the small mirror on the mantel.
“Yes, you’ll succeed, and so shall I—but she won’t,” Rosy went on.
“Yes, you’ll succeed, and so will I—but she won’t,” Rosy continued.
Muniment stopped a moment, with his hand on the latch of the door, and said, gravely, almost sententiously, “She is not only beautiful, as beautiful as a picture, but she is uncommon sharp, and she has taking ways, beyond anything that ever was known.”
Muniment paused for a moment, with his hand on the door latch, and said seriously, almost with a certain weight, “She’s not just beautiful, as beautiful as a painting, but she’s extremely clever, and she has a charm beyond anything ever seen.”
“I know her ways,” his sister replied. Then, as he left the room, she called after him, “But I don’t care for anything, so long as you become prime minister of England!”
“I know how she is,” his sister replied. Then, as he left the room, she called after him, “But I don’t care about anything, as long as you become prime minister of England!”
Three quarters of an hour after this Muniment knocked at the door in Madeira Crescent, and was immediately ushered into the parlour, where the Princess, in her bonnet and mantle, sat alone. She made no movement as he came in; she only looked up at him with a smile.
Three quarters of an hour after this Muniment knocked on the door in Madeira Crescent, he was quickly shown into the living room, where the Princess, in her hat and coat, sat by herself. She didn't move as he entered; she simply looked up at him with a smile.
“You are braver than I gave you credit for,” she said, in her rich voice.
“You're braver than I thought you were,” she said, in her warm voice.
“I shall learn to be brave, if I associate a while longer with you. But I shall never cease to be shy,” Muniment added, standing there and looking tall in the middle of the small room. He cast his eyes about him for a place to sit down, but the Princess gave him no help to choose; she only watched him, in silence, from her own place, with her hands quietly folded in her lap. At last, when, without remonstrance from her, he had selected the most uncomfortable chair in the room, she replied—
“I’ll learn to be brave if I spend a bit more time with you. But I’ll always be shy,” Muniment said, standing tall in the small room. He looked around for a place to sit, but the Princess didn’t help him choose; she just watched him silently from her spot, her hands folded neatly in her lap. Finally, after he chose the most uncomfortable chair in the room without any objection from her, she responded—
“That’s only another name for desperate courage. I put on my bonnet, on the chance, but I didn’t expect you.”
“That’s just another way of saying desperate courage. I put on my hat, just in case, but I didn’t expect you.”
“Well, here I am—that’s the great thing,” Muniment said, good-humouredly.
“Well, here I am—that’s the great thing,” Muniment said, in a good mood.
“Yes, no doubt it’s a very great thing. But it will be a still greater thing when you are there.”
“Yes, it’s definitely an amazing thing. But it will be even more amazing when you’re there.”
“I am afraid you hope too much,” the young man observed. “Where is it? I don’t think you told me.”
“I think you’re hoping too much,” the young man noted. “Where is it? I don’t think you mentioned it.”
The Princess drew a small folded letter from her pocket, and, without saying anything, held it out to him. He got up to take it from her, opened it, and, as he read it, remained standing in front of her. Then he went straight to the fire and thrust the paper into it. At this movement she rose quickly, as if to save the document, but the expression of his face, as he turned round to her, made her stop. The smile that came into her own was a little forced. “What are you afraid of?” she asked. “I take it the house is known. If we go, I suppose we may admit that we go.”
The Princess pulled out a small folded letter from her pocket and, without saying a word, handed it to him. He stood up to take it from her, opened it, and, while reading, stayed standing in front of her. Then he walked straight to the fire and threw the paper into it. At this, she stood up quickly, as if to save the letter, but the look on his face when he turned to her made her freeze. The smile that appeared on her face was a bit forced. “What are you afraid of?” she asked. “I assume the house is known. If we leave, I guess we can acknowledge that we’re leaving.”
Muniment’s face showed that he had been annoyed, but he answered, quietly enough, “No writing—no writing.”
Muniment's face indicated he was annoyed, but he replied softly, "No writing—no writing."
“You are terribly careful,” said the Princess.
"You are so cautious," said the Princess.
“Careful of you—yes.”
“Be careful of you—yes.”
She sank down upon her sofa again, asking her companion to ring for tea; they would do much better to have some before going out. When the order had been given, she remarked, “I see I shall have much less keen emotion than when I acted by myself.”
She sank back down on her sofa, asking her friend to call for tea; it would be better to have some before heading out. Once the order was placed, she commented, “I realize I won’t feel as intensely now that I’m not acting alone.”
“Is that what you go in for—keen emotion?”
“Is that what you’re into—intense feelings?”
“Surely, Mr Muniment. Don’t you?”
“Of course, Mr. Muniment. Don’t you?”
“God forbid! I hope to have as little of it as possible.”
“God forbid! I hope to have as little of it as I can.”
“Of course one doesn’t want any vague rodomontade; one wants to do something. But it would be hard if one couldn’t have a little pleasure by the way.”
“Of course, nobody wants any vague bragging; everyone wants to get things done. But it would be tough if we couldn’t enjoy ourselves a little along the way.”
“My pleasure is in quietness,” said Paul Muniment, smiling.
“My pleasure is in being quiet,” said Paul Muniment, smiling.
“So is mine. But it depends on how you understand it. Quietness, I mean, in the midst of a tumult.”
“So is mine. But it depends on how you interpret it. I mean, quietness in the middle of chaos.”
“You have rare ideas about tumults. They are not good in themselves.”
“You have unusual ideas about chaos. They aren’t good by themselves.”
The Princess considered this a moment; then she remarked, “I wonder if you are too prudent. I shouldn’t like that. If it is made an accusation against you that you have been—where we are going—shall you deny it?”
The Princess paused for a moment, then said, “I wonder if you're being too careful. I wouldn’t like that. If it’s brought up as an accusation that you’ve been—where we’re going—will you deny it?”
“With that prospect it would be simpler not to go at all, wouldn’t it?” Muniment inquired.
“With that in mind, it would be easier not to go at all, right?” Muniment asked.
“Which prospect do you mean? That of being found out, or that of having to lie?”
“Which possibility are you talking about? Being caught, or having to lie?”
“I suppose that if you lie you are not found out,” Muniment replied, humorously.
“I guess if you lie, you won't get caught,” Muniment replied, jokingly.
“You won’t take me seriously,” said the Princess. She spoke without irritation, without resentment, with a kind of resigned sadness. But there was a certain fineness of reproach in the tone in which she added, “I don’t believe you want to go at all.”
“You won’t take me seriously,” said the Princess. She spoke without irritation, without resentment, with a kind of resigned sadness. But there was a certain sharpness of reproach in the tone in which she added, “I don’t believe you want to go at all.”
“Why else should I have come, especially if I don’t take you seriously?”
“Why else would I have come, especially if I don’t take you seriously?”
“That has never been a reason for a man’s not going to see a woman,” said the Princess. “It’s usually a reason in favour of it.”
“That has never been a reason for a guy not to go see a girl,” said the Princess. “It’s usually a reason to do it.”
Muniment turned his smiling eyes over the room, looking from one article of furniture to another: this was a way he had when he was engaged in a discussion, and it suggested not so much that he was reflecting on what his interlocutor said as that his thoughts were pursuing a cheerfully independent course. Presently he observed, “I don’t know that I quite understand what you mean by that question of taking a woman seriously.”
Muniment looked around the room with a smile, glancing from one piece of furniture to another. This was how he operated during a discussion; it didn't really show that he was considering what the other person said, but rather that his thoughts were happily wandering on their own. After a moment, he said, “I’m not sure I fully get what you mean by the question of taking a woman seriously.”
“Ah, you are very perfect,” murmured the Princess. “Don’t you consider that the changes you look for will be also for our benefit?”
“Ah, you're really perfect,” the Princess murmured. “Don’t you think that the changes you want will be good for us too?”
“I don’t think they will alter your position.”
“I don’t think they’ll change your position.”
“If I didn’t hope for that, I wouldn’t do anything,” said the Princess.
“If I didn’t hope for that, I wouldn’t bother with anything,” said the Princess.
“Oh, I have no doubt you’ll do a great deal.”
“Oh, I'm sure you'll do a lot.”
The young man’s companion was silent for some minutes, during which he also was content to say nothing. “I wonder you can find it in your conscience to work with me,” she observed at last.
The young man’s companion was quiet for a few minutes, and he was fine with not saying anything either. “I’m surprised you can manage to work with me,” she finally said.
“It isn’t in my conscience I find it,” said Muniment, laughing.
“It’s not in my conscience that I find it,” Muniment said, laughing.
The maid-servant brought in the tea, and while the Princess was making a place for it on a little table beside her she exclaimed, “Well, I don’t care, for I think I have you in my power!”
The maid brought in the tea, and as the Princess was clearing a spot on a small table next to her, she exclaimed, “Well, I don’t care, because I think I have you under my control!”
“You have every one in your power,” returned Muniment.
“You have everyone under your control,” Muniment replied.
“Every one is no one,” the Princess replied, rather dryly; and a moment later she said to him, “That extraordinary little sister of yours—surely you take her seriously?”
“Everyone is no one,” the Princess replied, somewhat dryly; and a moment later she said to him, “That extraordinary little sister of yours—surely you take her seriously?”
“I’m wonderful fond of her, if that’s what you mean. But I don’t think her position will ever be altered.”
“I’m really fond of her, if that’s what you mean. But I don’t think her situation will ever change.”
“Are you alluding to her position in bed? If you consider that she will never recover her health,” the Princess said, “I am very sorry to hear it.”
“Are you hinting at her position in bed? Given that you think she will never get better,” the Princess said, “I’m really sorry to hear that.”
“Oh, her health will do. I mean that she will continue to be, like all the most amiable women, just a kind of ornament to life.”
“Oh, her health will be fine. What I mean is that she will remain, like all the most pleasant women, just a sort of decoration in life.”
The Princess had already perceived that he pronounced amiable ‘emiable’; but she had accepted this peculiarity of her visitor in the spirit of imaginative transfigurement in which she had accepted several others. “To your life, of course. She can hardly be said to be an ornament to her own.”
The Princess had already noticed that he pronounced amiable as ‘emiable’; but she had embraced this quirk of her visitor in the imaginative spirit with which she had accepted several others. “To your life, of course. She can hardly be said to be an asset to her own.”
“Her life and mine are all one.”
“Her life and mine are the same.”
“She is certainly magnificent,” said the Princess. While he was drinking his tea she remarked to him that for a revolutionist he was certainly most extraordinary; and he inquired, in answer, whether it were not rather in keeping for revolutionists to be extraordinary. He drank three cups, declaring that his hostess’s decoction was fine; it was better, even, than Lady Aurora’s. This led him to observe, as he put down his third cup, looking round the room again, lovingly, almost covetously, “You’ve got everything so handy, I don’t see what interest you can have.”
“She is really amazing,” said the Princess. While he was sipping his tea, she pointed out to him that for a revolutionist, he was quite exceptional; to which he responded by asking whether it isn't typical for revolutionists to be extraordinary. He drank three cups, stating that his hostess’s brew was excellent; it was even better than Lady Aurora’s. This prompted him to remark, as he set down his third cup and looked around the room again, with a fond and almost longing expression, “You’ve got everything so convenient, I don’t understand what could interest you.”
“How do you mean, what interest?”
“How do you mean, what interest?”
“In getting in so uncommon deep.”
“In getting in so unusually deep.”
On the instant the Princess’s expression flashed into pure passion. “Do you consider that I am in—really far?”
On the moment, the Princess’s expression turned into pure passion. “Do you think that I am in—really far?”
“Up to your neck, ma’am.”
"Up to your neck, ma'am."
“And do you think that il y va of my neck—I mean that it’s in danger?” she translated, eagerly.
“And do you think that il y va with my neck—I mean that it’s in danger?” she translated, eagerly.
“Oh, I understand your French. Well, I’ll look after you,” Muniment said.
“Oh, I get your French. Don’t worry, I’ll take care of you,” Muniment said.
“Remember, then, definitely, that I expect not to lie.”
“Remember clearly that I expect you not to lie.”
“Not even for me?” Then Muniment added, in the same familiar tone, which was not rough nor wanting in respect, but only homely and direct, suggestive of growing acquaintance, “If I was your husband I would come and take you away.”
“Not even for me?” Then Muniment added, in the same familiar tone, which was neither harsh nor disrespectful, but simply straightforward and friendly, hinting at a closer relationship, “If I were your husband, I would come and take you away.”
“Please don’t speak of my husband,” said the Princess, gravely. “You have no qualification for doing so; you know nothing whatever about him.”
“Please don’t talk about my husband,” the Princess said seriously. “You have no right to do that; you don’t know anything about him.”
“I know what Hyacinth has told me.”
“I know what Hyacinth has said to me.”
“Oh, Hyacinth!” the Princess murmured, impatiently. There was another silence of some minutes, not disconnected, apparently, from this reference to the little bookbinder; but when Muniment spoke, after the interval, it was not to carry on the allusion—
“Oh, Hyacinth!” the Princess murmured, impatiently. There was another silence of some minutes, not disconnected, apparently, from this reference to the little bookbinder; but when Muniment spoke, after the interval, it was not to carry on the allusion—
“Of course you think me very plain, very rude.”
“Of course you think I'm really plain, really rude.”
“Certainly, you have not such a nice address as Hyacinth,” the Princess rejoined, not desiring, on her side, to evade the topic. “But that is given to very few,” she added; “and I don’t know that pretty manners are exactly what we are working for.”
“Honestly, you don't have as nice an address as Hyacinth,” the Princess replied, not wanting to avoid the topic. “But that's something very few people have,” she continued; “and I’m not sure that having good manners is exactly what we’re aiming for.”
“Ay, it won’t be very endearing when we cut down a few allowances,” said Muniment. “But I want to please you; I want to be as much as possible like Hyacinth,” he went on.
“Ay, it won’t be very sweet when we reduce a few allowances,” said Muniment. “But I want to make you happy; I want to be as much like Hyacinth as I can,” he continued.
“That is not the way to please me. I don’t forgive him; he’s very silly.”
"That’s not how to make me happy. I won’t forgive him; he’s being really foolish."
“Ah, don’t say that; he’s a little brick!” Muniment exclaimed.
“Ah, don’t say that; he’s a tough guy!” Muniment exclaimed.
“He’s a dear fellow, with extraordinary qualities, but so deplorably conventional.”
“He’s a great guy, with amazing qualities, but unfortunately so conventional.”
“Yes, talking about taking things seriously—he takes them seriously,” remarked Muniment.
“Yes, speaking of taking things seriously—he takes them seriously,” said Muniment.
“Has he ever told you his life?” asked the Princess.
“Has he ever shared his life story with you?” asked the Princess.
“He hasn’t required to tell me. I’ve seen a good bit of it.”
"He didn't need to tell me. I've seen quite a bit of it."
“Yes, but I mean before you knew him.”
“Yes, but I mean before you met him.”
Muniment reflected a moment. “His birth, and his poor mother? I think it was Rosy told me about that.”
Muniment paused for a moment. “His birth, and his poor mother? I believe it was Rosy who told me about that.”
“And, pray, how did she know?”
“And, how did she know?”
“Ah, when you come to the way Rosy knows!” said Muniment, laughing. “She doesn’t like people in that predicament. She thinks we ought all to be finely born.”
“Ah, when you get to the way Rosy knows!” said Muniment, laughing. “She doesn’t like people in that situation. She believes we should all be well-born.”
“Then they agree, for so does poor Hyacinth.” The Princess hesitated an instant; then she said, as if with a quick effort, “I want to ask you something. Have you had a visit from Mr Vetch?”
“Then they agree, because poor Hyacinth does too.” The Princess paused for a moment; then she said, as if making a quick decision, “I want to ask you something. Have you heard from Mr. Vetch?”
“The old gentleman who fiddles? No, he has never done me that honour.”
“The old guy who plays the violin? No, he’s never done me that honor.”
“It was because I prevented him, then. I told him to leave it to me.”
“It was because I stopped him, then. I told him to let me handle it.”
“To leave what, now?” Muniment looked at her in placid perplexity.
“To leave what, now?” Muniment looked at her with calm confusion.
“He is in great distress about Hyacinth—about the danger he runs. You know what I mean.”
“He’s really worried about Hyacinth—about the risk he’s facing. You know what I’m talking about.”
“Yes, I know what you mean,” Muniment replied, slowly. “But what does he know about it? I thought it was supposed to be a deadly secret.”
"Yeah, I get what you're saying," Muniment replied, slowly. "But what does he really know about it? I thought it was supposed to be a huge secret."
“So it is. He doesn’t know anything; he only suspects.”
“So it is. He doesn’t know anything; he just suspects.”
“How do you know, then?”
“How do you know that?”
The Princess hesitated again. “Oh, I’m like Rosy—I find out. Mr Vetch, as I suppose you are aware, has known Hyacinth all his life; he takes a most affectionate interest in him. He believes there is something hanging over him, and he wants it to be turned off, to be stopped.” The Princess paused at this, but her visitor made no response, and she continued: “He was going to see you, to beg you to do something, to interfere; he seemed to think that your power, in such a matter, would be very great; but, as I tell you, I requested him, as a particular favour to me, to let you alone.”
The Princess hesitated again. “Oh, I’m like Rosy—I find out. Mr. Vetch, as you might know, has known Hyacinth his whole life; he cares about him a lot. He believes there’s something troubling him, and he wants it to stop. ” The Princess paused at this, but her visitor didn’t respond, so she continued: “He was going to see you to ask you to do something, to get involved; he thought your influence in this matter would be significant; but, as I mentioned, I asked him, as a special favor to me, to leave you out of it.”
“What favour would it be to you?” Muniment asked.
“What favor would that be for you?” Muniment asked.
“It would give me the satisfaction of feeling that you were not worried.”
“It would make me feel good knowing that you weren’t worried.”
Muniment appeared struck with the curious inadequacy of this explanation, considering what was at stake; he broke into a laugh and remarked, “That was considerate of you, beyond everything.”
Muniment looked baffled by this strange explanation, given what was at risk; he burst out laughing and said, “That was really thoughtful of you, more than anything.”
“It was not meant as consideration for you; it was a piece of calculation.” The Princess, having made this announcement, gathered up her gloves and turned away, walking to the chimney-piece, where she stood a moment arranging her bonnet-ribbons in the mirror with which it was decorated. Muniment watched her with evident curiosity; in spite both of his inaccessibility to nervous agitation and of the sceptical theories he entertained about her, he was not proof against her general faculty of creating a feeling of suspense, a tension of interest, on the part of those who associated with her. He followed her movements, but plainly he didn’t follow her calculations, so that he could only listen more attentively when she inquired suddenly, “Do you know why I asked you to come and see me? Do you know why I went to see your sister? It was all a plan,” said the Princess.
“It wasn’t meant as something personal for you; it was just a strategy.” The Princess said this as she picked up her gloves and turned away, walking over to the mantelpiece, where she paused for a moment to adjust her bonnet ribbons in the mirror that adorned it. Muniment watched her with clear curiosity; despite his emotional detachment and the skeptical ideas he had about her, he couldn’t escape the sense of suspense and interest that she created in those around her. He followed her actions, but clearly didn’t grasp her reasoning, so he listened more closely when she suddenly asked, “Do you know why I asked you to come see me? Do you know why I visited your sister? It was all a plan,” the Princess said.
“We hoped it was just an ordinary humane, social impulse,” the young man returned.
“We thought it was just a regular human, social instinct,” the young man replied.
“It was humane, it was even social, but it was not ordinary. I wanted to save Hyacinth.”
“It was kind, it was even supportive, but it wasn’t normal. I wanted to save Hyacinth.”
“To save him?”
"To save him?"
“I wanted to be able to talk with you just as I am talking now.”
“I wanted to talk with you just like I am now.”
“That was a fine idea!” Muniment exclaimed, ingenuously.
“That was a great idea!” Muniment exclaimed, genuinely.
“I have an exceeding, a quite inexpressible, regard for him. I have no patience with some of his opinions, and that is why I permitted myself to say just now that he is silly. But, after all, the opinions of our friends are not what we love them for, and therefore I don’t see why they should be what we hate them for. Hyacinth Robinson’s nature is singularly generous and his intelligence very fine, though there are some things that he muddles up. You just now expressed strongly your own regard for him; therefore we ought to be perfectly agreed. Agreed, I mean, about getting him out of his scrape.”
“I have an overwhelming, almost indescribable, fondness for him. I don't agree with some of his opinions, and that’s why I just called him silly. But really, we don’t love our friends for their opinions, so I don’t think we should dislike them for that either. Hyacinth Robinson is incredibly generous, and he's very smart, even though there are some things he mixes up. You just expressed your own strong feelings for him, so we should be on the same page. I mean, we should definitely agree on how to help him out of his mess.”
Muniment had the air of a man who felt that he must consider a little before he assented to these successive propositions; it being a limitation of his intellect that he could not respond without understanding. After a moment he answered, referring to the Princess’s last remark, in which the others appeared to culminate, and at the same time shaking his head a little and smiling, “His scrape isn’t important.”
Muniment had the vibe of a guy who felt he needed to think for a moment before agreeing to these ongoing suggestions; it was a limitation of his intelligence that he couldn’t respond without fully understanding. After a moment, he replied, referencing the Princess’s last comment, which seemed to sum up the others, and at the same time shaking his head slightly and smiling, “His problems aren’t a big deal.”
“You thought it was when you got him into it.”
“You thought it was when you got him involved.”
“I thought it would give him pleasure,” said Muniment.
“I thought it would make him happy,” said Muniment.
“That’s not a reason for letting people do what isn’t good for them.”
"That's not a reason to let people do things that aren't good for them."
“I wasn’t thinking so much about what would be good for him as about what would be bad for some others. He can do as he likes.”
“I wasn’t really thinking about what would be good for him, but more about what would be bad for others. He can do whatever he wants.”
“That’s easy to say. They must be persuaded not to call upon him.”
"That's easy to say. They need to be convinced not to call on him."
“Persuade them, then, dear madam.”
"Convince them, then, dear lady."
“How can I persuade them? If I could, I wouldn’t have approached you. I have no influence, and even if I had my motives would be suspected. You are the one to interpose.”
“How can I convince them? If I could, I wouldn’t have come to you. I have no power, and even if I did, my intentions would be questioned. You’re the one who needs to step in.”
“Shall I tell them he funks it?” Muniment asked.
“Should I tell them he’s scared?” Muniment asked.
“He doesn’t—he doesn’t!” exclaimed the Princess.
“He doesn’t—he doesn’t!” exclaimed the Princess.
“On what ground, then, shall I put it?”
“On what basis, then, should I place it?”
“Tell them he has changed his opinions.”
“Tell them he has changed his mind.”
“Wouldn’t that be rather like denouncing him as a traitor, and doing it hypocritically?”
“Wouldn’t that be kind of like calling him a traitor while being a hypocrite?”
“Tell them then it’s simply my wish.”
"Then tell them it's just what I want."
“That won’t do you much good,” Muniment said, with his natural laugh.
"That won’t do you much good," Muniment said, chuckling naturally.
“Will it put me in danger? That’s exactly what I want.”
“Will it put me at risk? That’s exactly what I want.”
“Yes; but as I understand you, you want to suffer for the people, not by them. You are very fond of Robinson; it couldn’t be otherwise,” the young man went on. “But you ought to remember that, in the line you have chosen, our affections, our natural ties, our timidities, our shrinkings—” His voice had become low and grave, and he paused a little, while the Princess’s deep and lovely eyes, attaching themselves to his face, showed that in an instant she was affected by this unwonted adjuration. He spoke now as if he were taking her seriously. “All those things are as nothing, and must never weigh a feather beside our service.”
“Yes; but as I understand it, you want to suffer for the people, not because of them. You really care about Robinson; it couldn’t be any other way,” the young man continued. “But you should remember that in the path you’ve chosen, our feelings, our natural connections, our fears, our hesitations—” His voice became low and serious, and he paused for a moment, while the Princess’s deep, beautiful eyes, fixating on his face, showed that she was momentarily moved by this unusual appeal. He spoke now as if he were addressing her with full seriousness. “All of those things mean nothing and should never weigh even the slightest against our duty.”
The Princess began to draw on her gloves. “You’re a most extraordinary man.”
The Princess started putting on her gloves. “You’re an incredible man.”
“That’s what Rosy tells me.”
“That’s what Rosy says.”
“Why don’t you do it yourself?”
“Why don't you just do it yourself?”
“Do Hyacinth’s job? Because it’s better to do my own.”
“Do Hyacinth’s job? Because it’s better to handle my own.”
“And, pray, what is your own?”
"And, what’s yours?"
“I don’t know,” said Paul Muniment, with perfect serenity and good-nature. “I expect to be instructed.”
"I don't know," said Paul Muniment, with complete calmness and a friendly demeanor. "I expect to be taught."
“Have you taken an oath, like Hyacinth?”
“Have you made an oath, like Hyacinth?”
“Ah, madam, the oaths I take I don’t tell,” said the young man, gravely.
“Ah, ma'am, the oaths I take, I don’t share,” said the young man, seriously.
“Oh, you . . .!” the Princess murmured, with an ambiguous cadence. She appeared to dismiss the question, but to suggest at the same time that he was very abnormal. This imputation was further conveyed by the next words she uttered: “And can you see a dear friend whirled away like that?”
“Oh, you . . .!” the Princess murmured, with a vague tone. She seemed to brush off the question, but at the same time, hinted that he was quite unusual. This implication was reinforced by the next words she said: “And can you watch a dear friend get taken away like that?”
At this, for the first time, Paul Muniment exhibited a certain irritation. “You had better leave my dear friend to me.”
At this, for the first time, Paul Muniment showed some irritation. “You should let me handle my dear friend.”
The Princess, with her eyes still fixed upon him, gave a long, soft sigh. “Well, then, shall we go?”
The Princess, still looking at him, let out a long, soft sigh. "Okay then, shall we go?"
Muniment took up his hat again, but he made no movement toward the door. “If you did me the honour to seek my acquaintance, to ask me to come and see you, only in order to say what you have just said about Hyacinth, perhaps we needn’t carry out the form of going to the place you proposed. Wasn’t this only your pretext?”
Muniment picked up his hat again, but he didn't make any move toward the door. "If you did me the honor of reaching out to me, inviting me to see you, just to say what you just said about Hyacinth, then maybe we don't need to bother going to the place you suggested. Wasn't that just your excuse?"
“I believe you are afraid!” the Princess exclaimed; but in spite of her exclamation the pair presently went out of the house. They quitted the door together, after having stood on the step for a moment, looking up and down, apparently for a cab. So far as the darkness, which was now complete, permitted the prospect to be scanned, there was no such vehicle within hail. They turned to the left, and after a walk of several minutes, during which they were engaged in small, dull by-streets, emerged upon a more populous way, where there were lighted shops and omnibuses and the evident chance of a hansom. Here they paused again, and very soon an empty hansom passed, and, at a sign, pulled up near them. Meanwhile, it should be recorded, they had been followed, at an interval, by a cautious figure, a person who, in Madeira Crescent, when they came out of the house, was stationed on the other side of the street, at a considerable distance. When they appeared he retreated a little, still however keeping them in sight. When they moved away he moved in the same direction, watching them but maintaining his distance. He drew nearer, seemingly because he could not control his eagerness, as they turned into Westbourne Grove, and during the minute they stood there he was exposed to recognition by the Princess if she had happened to turn her head. In the event of her having felt such an impulse she would have discovered, in the lamp-light, that her noble husband was hovering in her rear. But the Princess was otherwise occupied; she failed to see that at one moment he came so close as to suggest that he had an intention of addressing himself to the couple. The reader scarcely needs to be informed that his real intention was to satisfy himself as to the kind of person his wife was walking with. The time allowed him for this research was brief, especially as he had perceived, more rapidly than he sometimes perceived things, that they were looking for a vehicle and that with its assistance they would pass out of his range—a reflection which caused him to give half his attention to the business of hailing any second cab which should come that way. There are parts of London in which you may never see a cab at all, but there are none in which you may see only one; in accordance with which fortunate truth Prince Casamassima was able to wave his stick to good purpose as soon as the two objects of his pursuit had rattled away. Behind them now, in the gloom, he had no fear of being seen. In little more than an instant he had jumped into another hansom, the driver of which accompanied the usual exclamation of “All right, sir!” with a small, amused grunt, which the Prince thought eminently British, after he had hissed at him, over the hood, expressively, and in a manner by no means indicative of that nationality, the injunction, “Follow, follow, follow!”
“I know you are afraid!” the Princess shouted; but despite her shout, the two of them soon left the house. They stepped out together, pausing on the doorstep for a moment, looking around for a cab. As far as the complete darkness allowed them to see, there were no cabs in sight. They turned left, and after several minutes of walking through quiet backstreets, they arrived at a busier road, where there were lit-up shops, buses, and the clear possibility of catching a hansom cab. Here they paused again, and soon enough, an empty hansom came by, stopping near them when they signaled. Meanwhile, it should be noted that they had been followed at a distance by a cautious figure, a person who, in Madeira Crescent, was standing across the street when they left the house. When they appeared, he moved back a bit, still keeping them in sight. As they moved away, he followed in the same direction, watching them but staying far enough behind. He got closer, seemingly unable to hold back his curiosity, as they turned onto Westbourne Grove, and while they stood there for a minute, he was close enough for the Princess to recognize him if she had looked back. If she had felt the urge, she would have seen, in the lamplight, that her noble husband was lingering behind her. But the Princess was focused elsewhere; she missed the moment when he drew so close that it seemed he intended to approach the couple. The reader hardly needs to be reminded that his real aim was to figure out what kind of person his wife was with. The time he had for this investigation was short, especially since he had noticed more quickly than usual that they were searching for a cab and that once they found one, they would leave his sight—a thought that made him split his focus between watching them and trying to wave down a nearby cab. There are parts of London where you might not see a cab at all, but there are none where you see only one; based on this fortunate fact, Prince Casamassima was able to wave his stick effectively as soon as the two he was following drove off. Behind them now, in the darkness, he had no fear of being noticed. In just a moment, he jumped into another hansom, the driver of which added the usual, “All right, sir!” with a small, amused grunt, which the Prince thought was very British after he expressively hissed at him from over the hood, instructing in a way that was definitely not typical of that nationality, “Follow, follow, follow!”
XL
An hour after the Princess had left the house with Paul Muniment, Madame Grandoni came down to supper, a meal of which she partook, in gloomy solitude, in the little back parlour. She had pushed away her plate, and sat motionless, staring at the crumpled cloth, with her hands folded on the edge of the table, when she became aware that a gentleman had been ushered into the drawing-room and was standing before the fire in an attitude of discreet expectancy. At the same moment the maid-servant approached the old lady, remarking with bated breath, “The Prince, the Prince, mum! It’s you he ’ave asked for, mum!” Upon this, Madame Grandoni called out to the visitor from her place, addressed him as her poor illustrious friend and bade him come and give her his arm. He obeyed with solemn alacrity, and conducted her into the front room, near the fire. He helped her to arrange herself in her arm-chair and to gather her shawl about her; then he seated himself near her and remained with his dismal eyes bent upon her. After a moment she said, “Tell me something about Rome. The grass in the Villa Borghese must already be thick with flowers.”
An hour after the Princess left the house with Paul Muniment, Madame Grandoni came down for dinner, which she ate in gloomy solitude in the small back parlor. She had pushed her plate away and sat still, staring at the crumpled tablecloth with her hands folded on the edge of the table, when she noticed a gentleman being shown into the drawing-room, standing before the fire with a look of respectful expectation. At the same time, the maid approached the elderly lady, saying in a hushed voice, “The Prince, the Prince, ma’am! He’s here to see you, ma’am!” At this, Madame Grandoni called to the visitor from her seat, addressed him as her dear esteemed friend, and asked him to come give her his arm. He promptly obliged, guiding her into the front room by the fire. He helped her settle into her armchair and wrap her shawl around her, then took a seat nearby, his sad eyes fixed on her. After a moment, she said, “Tell me something about Rome. The grass in the Villa Borghese must be covered in flowers by now.”
“I would have brought you some, if I had thought,” he answered. Then he turned his gaze about the room. “Yes, you may well ask, in such a black little hole as this. My wife should not live here,” he added.
“I would have brought you some if I had thought of it,” he replied. Then he looked around the room. “Yeah, you have every right to ask, in such a dark little hole like this. My wife shouldn’t have to live here,” he added.
“Ah, my dear friend, for all that she’s your wife!” the old woman exclaimed.
“Ah, my dear friend, after everything, she’s still your wife!” the old woman exclaimed.
The Prince sprang up in sudden, passionate agitation, and then she saw that the rigid quietness with which he had come into the room and greeted her was only an effort of his good manners. He was really trembling with excitement. “It is true—it is true! She has lovers—she has lovers!” he broke out. “I have seen it with my eyes, and I have come here to know!”
The Prince jumped up, suddenly filled with intense emotion, and then she realized that the stiff calmness he had shown when entering the room and greeting her was just a display of his politeness. He was actually shaking with excitement. “It’s true—it’s true! She has lovers—she has lovers!” he exclaimed. “I saw it with my own eyes, and I came here to find out!”
“I don’t know what you have seen, but your coming here to know will not have helped you much. Besides, if you have seen, you know for yourself. At any rate, I have ceased to be able to tell you.”
“I don’t know what you’ve seen, but coming here to find out won’t really help you much. Besides, if you’ve seen it, you already know for yourself. Either way, I can’t tell you anymore.”
“You are afraid—you are afraid!” cried the visitor, with a wild accusatory gesture.
“You're scared—you’re scared!” shouted the visitor, with a dramatic accusing gesture.
Madame Grandoni looked up at him with slow speculation. “Sit down and be tranquil, very tranquil. I have ceased to pay attention—I take no heed.”
Madame Grandoni looked up at him with a thoughtful gaze. “Sit down and be calm, very calm. I've stopped paying attention—I don’t care.”
“Well, I do, then,” said the Prince, subsiding a little. “Don’t you know she has gone out to a house, in a horrible quarter, with a man?”
“Well, I do, then,” said the Prince, calming down a bit. “Don’t you know she went to some place in a sketchy neighborhood with a guy?”
“I think it highly probable, dear Prince.”
“I think it’s very likely, dear Prince.”
“And who is he? That’s what I want to discover.”
“And who is he? That’s what I want to find out.”
“How can I tell you? I haven’t seen him.”
“How am I supposed to tell you? I haven’t seen him.”
He looked at her a moment, with his distended eyes. “Dear lady, is that kind to me, when I have counted on you?”
He looked at her for a moment, his eyes wide. “Dear lady, is that fair to me, when I’ve relied on you?”
“Oh, I am not kind any more; it’s not a question of that. I am angry—as angry, almost, as you.”
“Oh, I’m not nice anymore; it’s not about that. I’m angry—almost as angry as you are.”
“Then why don’t you watch her, eh?”
“Then why don’t you keep an eye on her, huh?”
“It’s not with her I am angry. It’s with myself,” said Madame Grandoni, meditatively.
“It’s not her I’m angry with. It’s myself,” said Madame Grandoni, thoughtfully.
“For becoming so indifferent, do you mean?”
“For being so indifferent, is that what you mean?”
“On the contrary, for staying in the house.”
“On the contrary, for staying in the house.”
“Thank God, you are still here, or I couldn’t have come. But what a lodging for the Princess!” the visitor exclaimed. “She might at least live in a manner befitting.”
“Thank God you’re still here, or I wouldn’t have been able to come. But what a place for the Princess!” the visitor exclaimed. “She could at least live in a way that’s fitting.”
“Eh, the last time you were in London you thought it was too costly!” she cried.
“Hey, the last time you were in London you thought it was too expensive!” she exclaimed.
He hesitated a moment. “Whatever she does is wrong. Is it because it’s so bad that you must go?” he went on.
He paused for a moment. “Whatever she does is wrong. Is it so bad that you really have to leave?” he continued.
“It is foolish—foolish—foolish,” said Madame Grandoni, slowly, impressively.
“It’s ridiculous—ridiculous—ridiculous,” said Madame Grandoni, slowly and emphatically.
“Foolish, chè, chè! He was in the house nearly an hour, this one.”
“Foolish, chè, chè! He was in the house for almost an hour, this guy.”
“In the house? In what house?”
"In the house? What house?"
“Here, where you sit. I saw him go in, and when he came out it was after a long time, with her.”
“Here, where you’re sitting. I saw him go in, and when he came out, it was after a long time, with her.”
“And where were you, meanwhile?”
“And where were you in the meantime?”
Again Prince Casamassima hesitated. “I was on the other side of the street. When they came out I followed them. It was more than an hour ago.”
Again, Prince Casamassima hesitated. “I was on the other side of the street. When they came out, I followed them. It was more than an hour ago.”
“Was it for that you came to London?”
“Did you come to London for that?”
“Ah, what I came for! To put myself in hell!”
“Ah, what I came for! To put myself through hell!”
“You had better go back to Rome,” said Madame Grandoni.
“You should probably go back to Rome,” said Madame Grandoni.
“Of course I will go back, but if you will tell me who this one is! How can you be ignorant, dear friend, when he comes freely in and out of the house where I have to watch, at the door, for a moment that I can snatch? He was not the same as the other.”
“Of course I’ll go back, but can you tell me who this person is? How can you not know, my dear friend, when he comes and goes freely from the house where I have to keep watch at the door for a moment I can seize? He was different from the others.”
“As the other?”
"As the other one?"
“Doubtless there are fifty! I mean the little one whom I met in the other house, that Sunday afternoon.”
“Definitely there are fifty! I’m talking about the little one I met in the other house that Sunday afternoon.”
“I sit in my room almost always now,” said the old woman. “I only come down to eat.”
“I pretty much stay in my room all the time now,” said the old woman. “I just come down to eat.”
“Dear lady, it would be better if you would sit here,” the Prince remarked.
“Dear lady, it would be better for you to sit here,” the Prince said.
“Better for whom?”
"Better for who?"
“I mean that if you did not withdraw yourself you could at least answer my questions.”
“I mean that if you didn't pull away, you could at least answer my questions.”
“Ah, but I have not the slightest desire to answer them,” Madame Grandoni replied. “You must remember that I am not here as your spy.”
“Ah, but I have no interest in answering them,” Madame Grandoni replied. “You should remember that I’m not here as your spy.”
“No,” said the Prince, in a tone of extreme and simple melancholy. “If you had given me more information I should not have been obliged to come here myself. I arrived in London only this morning, and this evening I spent two hours walking up and down opposite the house, like a groom waiting for his master to come back from a ride. I wanted a personal impression. It was so that I saw him come in. He is not a gentleman—not even like some of the strange ones here.”
“No,” said the Prince, in a tone filled with deep sadness. “If you had given me more details, I wouldn’t have had to come here myself. I got to London only this morning, and this evening I spent two hours pacing back and forth outside the house, like a servant waiting for his boss to return from a ride. I wanted to get a personal feel for the situation. That’s how I saw him arrive. He is not a gentleman—not even like some of the unusual ones here.”
“I think he is Scotch,” remarked Madame Grandoni.
“I think he’s Scottish,” said Madame Grandoni.
“Ah, then, you have seen him?”
“Ah, so you’ve seen him?”
“No, but I have heard him. He speaks very loud—the floors of this house are not built as we build in Italy—and his voice is the same that I have heard in the people of that country. Besides, she has told me—some things. He is a chemist’s assistant.”
“No, but I’ve heard him. He speaks really loudly—the floors in this house aren’t built like they are in Italy—and his voice reminds me of what I’ve heard from people back home. Plus, she’s told me a few things. He’s a chemist’s assistant.”
“A chemist’s assistant? Santo Dio! And the other one, a year ago—more than a year ago—was a bookbinder.”
“A chemist’s assistant? Holy God! And the other one, a year ago—more than a year ago—was a bookbinder.”
“Oh, the bookbinder!” murmured Madame Grandoni.
“Oh, the bookbinder!” whispered Madame Grandoni.
“And does she associate with no people of good? Has she no other society?”
“And doesn't she spend time with any good people? Does she have no other friends?”
“For me to tell you more, Prince, you must wait till I am free,” said the old lady.
“For me to tell you more, Prince, you’ll have to wait until I’m free,” said the old lady.
“How do you mean, free?”
“How do you mean, free?”
“I must choose. I must either go away—and then I can tell you what I have seen—or if I stay here I must hold my tongue.”
“I have to decide. I can either leave—and then I can告诉你我看到的内容—or if I stay here, I have to keep quiet.”
“But if you go away you will have seen nothing,” the Prince objected.
“But if you leave, you won’t have seen anything,” the Prince countered.
“Ah, plenty as it is—more than I ever expected to!”
“Wow, this is more than I ever expected!”
The Prince clasped his hands together in tremulous suppliance; but at the same time he smiled, as if to conciliate, to corrupt. “Dearest friend, you torment my curiosity. If you will tell me this, I will never ask you anything more. Where did they go? For the love of God, what is that house?”
The Prince clasped his hands together in trembling submission; but at the same time, he smiled, as if to appease, to manipulate. “My dear friend, you’re driving me crazy with curiosity. If you tell me this, I promise I won’t ask you anything else. Where did they go? For the love of God, what is that house?”
“I know nothing of their houses,” she returned, with an impatient shrug.
“I don’t know anything about their houses,” she replied, shrugging impatiently.
“Then there are others—there are many?” She made no answer, but sat brooding, with her chin in her protrusive kerchief. Her visitor presently continued, in a soft, earnest tone, with his beautiful Italian distinctness, as if his lips cut and carved the sound, while his fine fingers quivered into quick, emphasising gestures, “The street is small and black, but it is like all the streets. It has no importance; it is at the end of an endless imbroglio. They drove for twenty minutes; then they stopped their cab and got out. They went together on foot some minutes more. There were many turns; they seemed to know them well. For me it was very difficult—of course I also got out; I had to stay so far behind—close against the houses. Chiffinch Street, N.E.—that was the name,” the Prince continued, pronouncing the word with difficulty; “and the house is number 32—I looked at that after they went in. It’s a very bad house—worse than this; but it has no sign of a chemist, and there are no shops in the street. They rang the bell—only once, though they waited a long time; it seemed to me, at least, that they did not touch it again. It was several minutes before the door was opened; and that was a bad time for me, because as they stood there they looked up and down. Fortunately you know the air of this place! I saw no light in the house—not even after they went in. Who let them enter I couldn’t tell. I waited nearly half an hour, to see how long they would stay and what they would do on coming out; then, at last, my impatience brought me here, for to know she was absent made me hope I might see you. While I was there two persons went in—two men, together, smoking, who looked like artisti (I didn’t see them near), but no one came out. I could see they took their cigars—and you can fancy what tobacco!—into the presence of the Princess. Formerly,” pursued Madame Grandoni’s visitor, with a touching attempt at a jocular treatment of this point, “she never tolerated smoking—never mine, at least. The street is very quiet—very few people pass. Now what is the house? Is it where that man lives?” he asked, almost in a whisper.
“Then there are others—there are many?” She didn’t respond but sat lost in thought, her chin resting on her prominent scarf. Her visitor continued in a soft, earnest tone, speaking with beautiful Italian clarity, almost as if he were sculpting the words with his lips, while his elegant fingers moved animatedly, “The street is small and dark, but it’s like all the others. It’s insignificant; it’s at the end of an endless mess. They drove for twenty minutes; then they stopped the cab and got out. They walked together for a few more minutes. There were many turns; they seemed to know them well. For me, it was very difficult—of course, I also got out; I had to stay quite far behind—close against the buildings. Chiffinch Street, N.E.—that was the name,” the Prince said, struggling with the pronunciation; “and the house is number 32—I looked at it after they went in. It’s a very bad house—worse than this one; but it has no sign of a pharmacy, and there are no shops on the street. They rang the bell—only once, though they waited a long time; at least, it seemed to me that they didn’t ring it again. It was several minutes before the door finally opened; and that was a tough moment for me because as they waited, they looked up and down. Fortunately, you know the vibe of this place! I saw no light in the house—not even after they went inside. I couldn’t tell who let them in. I waited nearly half an hour to see how long they would stay and what they would do when they came out; then, finally, my impatience brought me here because knowing she was gone made me hope I might see you. While I was there, two people went in—two men, together, smoking, who looked like artisti (I didn’t see them closely), but no one came out. I could tell they took their cigars—and you can imagine what kind of tobacco!—into the presence of the Princess. Formerly,” said Madame Grandoni’s visitor, trying to make light of this point, “she never tolerated smoking—certainly not mine. The street is very quiet—very few people pass. Now, what’s the house like? Is it where that man lives?” he asked, almost in a whisper.
He had been encouraged by her consenting, in spite of her first protests, to listen to him—he could see she was listening; and he was still more encouraged when, after a moment, she answered his question by a question of her own: “Did you cross the river to go there? I know that he lives over the water.”
He felt encouraged by her agreeing to listen to him, despite her initial resistance—he could tell she was listening; and he felt even more encouraged when, after a moment, she responded to his question with one of her own: “Did you cross the river to get there? I know he lives across the water.”
“Ah, no, it was not in that part. I tried to ask the cabman who brought me back to explain to me what it is called; but I couldn’t make him understand. They have heavy minds,” the Prince declared. Then he pursued, drawing a little closer to his hostess: “But what were they doing there? Why did she go with him?”
“Ah, no, it wasn’t in that part. I tried to ask the taxi driver who brought me back to explain what it’s called, but I couldn’t get him to understand. They’re not very bright,” the Prince said. Then he leaned in a bit closer to his hostess: “But what were they doing there? Why did she go with him?”
“They are plotting. There!” said Madame Grandoni.
“They're scheming. Look over there!” said Madame Grandoni.
“You mean a secret society, a band of revolutionists and murderers? Capisco bene—that is not new to me. But perhaps they only pretend it’s for that,” added the Prince.
“You mean a secret society, a group of revolutionaries and killers? I understand well—that’s not new to me. But maybe they’re just pretending it’s for that,” added the Prince.
“Only pretend? Why should they pretend? That is not Christina’s way.”
“Only pretend? Why would they pretend? That’s not how Christina operates.”
“There are other possibilities,” the Prince observed.
“There are other possibilities,” the Prince noted.
“Oh, of course, when your wife goes away with strange men, in the dark, to far-away houses, you can think anything you like, and I have nothing to say to your thoughts. I have my own, but they are my own affair, and I shall not undertake to defend Christina, for she is indefensible. When she does the things she does, she provokes, she invites, the worst construction; there let it rest, save for this one remark, which I will content myself with making: if she were a licentious woman she would not behave as she does now, she would not expose herself to irresistible interpretations; the appearance of everything would be good and proper. I simply tell you what I believe. If I believed that what she is doing concerned you alone, I should say nothing about it—at least sitting here. But it concerns others, it concerns every one, so I will open my mouth at last. She has gone to that house to break up society.”
“Oh, of course, when your wife goes off with strange men at night to faraway places, you can think whatever you want, and I won’t argue with your thoughts. I have my opinions, but they’re my business, and I won’t try to defend Christina because she’s beyond defense. When she behaves the way she does, she invites the worst interpretations; let’s leave it at that, except for this one point that I’ll make: if she were a promiscuous woman, she wouldn’t act like this; she wouldn’t put herself in situations that lead to unavoidable conclusions. Everything would look proper and acceptable. I’m just telling you what I believe. If I thought that what she’s doing only affected you, I wouldn’t say anything here. But it affects others, it affects everyone, so I’ll finally speak up. She’s gone to that house to disrupt society.”
“To break it up, yes, as she has wanted before?”
“To break it up, yes, as she has wanted before?”
“Oh, more than before! She is very much entangled. She has relations with people who are watched by the police. She has not told me, but I have perceived it by simply living with her.”
“Oh, more than before! She’s really caught up in it. She has connections with people who are being watched by the police. She hasn't said anything, but I’ve picked up on it just by living with her.”
Prince Casamassima stared. “And is she watched by the police?”
Prince Casamassima stared. “And is she being watched by the police?”
“I can’t tell you; it is very possible—except that the police here is not like that of other countries.”
“I can’t say for sure; it’s very likely—unless the police here are different from those in other countries.”
“It is more stupid,” said the Prince. He gazed at Madame Grandoni with a flush of shame on his face. “Will she bring us to that scandal? It would be the worst of all.”
“It is more foolish,” said the Prince. He looked at Madame Grandoni with a flush of shame on his face. “Will she lead us to that scandal? It would be the worst of all.”
“There is one chance—the chance that she will get tired of it,” the old lady remarked. “Only the scandal may come before that.”
“There’s one chance—the chance that she’ll get tired of it,” the old lady said. “But the scandal might happen before that.”
“Dear friend, she is the devil,” said the Prince, solemnly.
“Dear friend, she is the devil,” said the Prince, seriously.
“No, she is not the devil, because she wishes to do good.”
“No, she isn’t the devil because she wants to do good.”
“What good did she ever wish to do to me?” the Italian demanded, with glowing eyes.
“What good did she ever want to do for me?” the Italian asked, with fiery eyes.
Madame Grandoni shook her head very sadly. “You can do no good, of any kind, to each other. Each on your own side, you must be quiet.”
Madame Grandoni shook her head sadly. “You can't help each other at all. You both need to keep to yourselves and be quiet.”
“How can I be quiet when I hear of such infamies?” Prince Casamassima got up, in his violence, and, in a tone which caused his companion to burst into a short, incongruous laugh as soon as she heard the words, exclaimed, “She shall not break up society!”
“How can I stay silent when I hear of such atrocities?” Prince Casamassima stood up, his frustration evident, and exclaimed in a tone that made his companion burst into a short, awkward laugh as soon as she heard the words, “She will not disrupt society!”
“No, she will bore herself before the trick is played. Make up your mind to that.”
“No, she’ll get bored before the trick is done. Just accept that.”
“That is what I expected to find—that the caprice was over. She has passed through so many follies.”
"That’s what I expected to see—that the whim was done. She has gone through so many silly things."
“Give her time—give her time,” replied Madame Grandoni.
“Give her time—give her time,” responded Madame Grandoni.
“Time to drag my name into an assize-court? Those people are robbers, incendiaries, murderers!”
“Time to drag my name into a court trial? Those people are thieves, arsonists, and killers!”
“You can say nothing to me about them that I haven’t said to her.”
“You can’t tell me anything about them that I haven’t already told her.”
“And how does she defend herself?”
“And how does she protect herself?”
“Defend herself? Did you ever hear Christina do that?” Madame Grandoni asked. “The only thing she says to me is, ‘Don’t be afraid; I promise you by all that’s sacred that you shan’t suffer.’ She speaks as if she had it all in her hands. That is very well. No doubt I’m a selfish old woman, but, after all, one has a heart for others.”
“Defend herself? Did you ever hear Christina do that?” Madame Grandoni asked. “The only thing she says to me is, ‘Don’t worry; I promise you by everything that’s sacred that you won’t have to suffer.’ She talks as if she has everything under control. That’s all well and good. No doubt I’m a selfish old woman, but still, one has to care for others.”
“And so have I, I think I may pretend,” said the Prince. “You tell me to give her time, and it is certain that she will take it, whether I give it or not. But I can at least stop giving her money. By heaven, it’s my duty, as an honest man.”
“And so have I, I think I can fake it,” said the Prince. “You tell me to give her time, and it’s clear she will take it, whether I offer it or not. But at least I can stop giving her money. By god, it’s my duty, as an honest man.”
“She tells me that as it is you don’t give her much.”
“She tells me that, as it is, you don’t give her much.”
“Much, dear lady? It depends on what you call so. It’s enough to make all these scoundrels flock around her.”
"Much, dear lady? It depends on what you mean by that. It’s enough to make all these scoundrels gather around her."
“They are not all scoundrels, any more than she is. That is the strange part of it,” said the old woman, with a weary sigh.
“They're not all bad, just like she isn't. That's the weird part,” said the old woman, letting out a tired sigh.
“But this fellow, the chemist—to-night—what do you call him?”
“But this guy, the chemist—tonight—what do you call him?”
“She has spoken to me of him as a most estimable young man.”
“She has told me he’s a really admirable young man.”
“But she thinks it’s estimable to blow us all up,” the Prince returned. “Doesn’t he take her money?”
“But she thinks it’s commendable to blow us all up,” the Prince replied. “Doesn’t he take her money?”
“I don’t know what he takes. But there are some things—heaven forbid one should forget them! The misery of London is something fearful.”
“I don’t know what he takes. But there are some things—God forbid anyone should forget them! The misery of London is truly terrifying.”
“Che vuole? There is misery everywhere,” returned the Prince. “It is the will of God. Ci vuol’ pazienza! And in this country does no one give alms?”
“What does he want? There is misery everywhere,” replied the Prince. “It’s God’s will. One must have patience! And in this country, doesn’t anyone give to the poor?”
“Every one, I believe. But it appears that it is not enough.”
“Everyone, I believe. But it seems that it’s not enough.”
The Prince said nothing for a moment; this statement of Madame Grandoni’s seemed to present difficulties. The solution, however, soon suggested itself; it was expressed in the inquiry, “What will you have in a country which has not the true faith?”
The Prince was silent for a moment; Madame Grandoni’s statement seemed to pose some challenges. However, the solution quickly came to mind, and it was put forward in the question, “What can you expect in a country that doesn’t have the true faith?”
“Ah, the true faith is a great thing; but there is suffering even in countries that have it.”
“Ah, true faith is a wonderful thing; but there is suffering even in countries that embrace it.”
“Evidentemente. But it helps suffering to be borne, and, later, it makes it up; whereas here—!” said the old lady’s visitor, with a melancholy smile. “If I may speak of myself, it is to me, in my circumstances, a support.”
“Obviously. But enduring pain is easier when it has a purpose, and, eventually, it balances out; whereas here—!” said the old lady’s guest, with a sad smile. “If I can talk about myself, it's a comfort to me, given my situation.”
“That is good,” said Madame Grandoni.
"That's great," said Madame Grandoni.
He stood before her, resting his eyes for a moment on the floor. “And the famous Cholto—Godfrey Gerald—does he come no more?”
He stood in front of her, taking a moment to look at the floor. “And the famous Cholto—Godfrey Gerald—does he not come around anymore?”
“I haven’t seen him for months, and know nothing about him.”
“I haven’t seen him in months, and I don’t know anything about him.”
“He doesn’t like the chemists and the bookbinders, eh?” asked the Prince.
“He doesn't like the chemists and the bookbinders, right?” asked the Prince.
“Ah, it was he who first brought them—to gratify your wife.”
“Ah, he was the one who first brought them—to please your wife.”
“If they have turned him out, then, that is very well. Now, if only some one could turn them out!”
“If they’ve kicked him out, then that’s great. Now, if only someone could kick them out!”
“Aspetta, aspetta!” said the old woman.
“Wait, wait!” said the old woman.
“That is very good advice, but to follow it isn’t amusing.” Then the Prince added, “You alluded, just now, as to something particular, to quel giovane, the young artisan whom I met in the other house. Is he also estimable, or has he paid the penalty of his crimes?”
“That’s really good advice, but following it isn’t fun.” Then the Prince added, “You just mentioned something specific, about quel giovane, the young craftsman I met in the other house. Is he also respectable, or has he faced the consequences of his actions?”
“He has paid the penalty, but I don’t know of what. I have nothing bad to tell you of him, except that I think his star is on the wane.”
“He’s paid the price, but I’m not sure for what. I have nothing negative to say about him, except that I think his luck is fading.”
“Poverino!” the Prince exclaimed.
“Poor thing!” the Prince exclaimed.
“That is exactly the manner in which I addressed him the first time I saw him. I didn’t know how it would happen, but I felt that it would happen somehow. It has happened through his changing his opinions. He has now the same idea as you—that ci vuol’ pazienza.”
“That’s exactly how I spoke to him the first time I saw him. I didn’t know how it would play out, but I had a feeling it would happen somehow. It has happened because he changed his opinions. He now shares the same idea as you—that ci vuol’ pazienza.”
The Prince listened with the same expression of wounded eagerness, the same parted lips and excited eyes, to every added fact that dropped from Madame Grandoni’s lips. “That, at least, is more honest. Then he doesn’t go to Chiffinch Street?”
The Prince listened with the same look of eager vulnerability, the same parted lips and excited eyes, to every new piece of information that came from Madame Grandoni’s mouth. “At least that’s more honest. So he doesn’t go to Chiffinch Street?”
“I don’t know about Chiffinch Street; but it would be my impression that he doesn’t go anywhere that Christina and the other one—the Scotchman—go together. But these are delicate matters,” the old woman pursued.
“I’m not sure about Chiffinch Street; but I get the feeling that he doesn’t go anywhere that Christina and the other one—the Scotsman—go together. But these are sensitive issues,” the old woman continued.
They seemed much to interest her interlocutor. “Do you mean that the Scotchman is—what shall I call it?—his successor?”
They seemed to really intrigue her conversation partner. “Are you saying that the Scotsman is—what should I call it?—his successor?”
For a moment Madame Grandoni made no reply. “I think that this case is different. But I don’t understand; it was the other, the little one, that helped her to know the Scotchman.”
For a moment, Madame Grandoni didn’t say anything. “I believe this situation is different. But I don’t get it; it was the other one, the little one, who helped her meet the Scotsman.”
“And now they have quarrelled—about my wife? It is all tremendously edifying!” the Prince exclaimed.
"And now they've argued—over my wife? This is all incredibly enlightening!" the Prince exclaimed.
“I can’t tell you, and shouldn’t have attempted it, only that Assunta talks to me.”
“I can’t say, and I shouldn't have tried, only that Assunta talks to me.”
“I wish she would talk to me,” said the Prince, wistfully.
“I wish she would talk to me,” said the Prince, with a sense of longing.
“Ah, my friend, if Christina were to find you getting at her servants!”
“Ah, my friend, if Christina were to catch you with her servants!”
“How could it be worse for me than it is now? However, I don’t know why I speak as if I cared, for I don’t care any more. I have given her up. It is finished.”
“How could it be worse for me than it is now? But I don’t know why I’m talking like I care, because I don’t care anymore. I’ve let her go. It’s over.”
“I am glad to hear it,” said Madame Grandoni, gravely.
“I’m glad to hear that,” said Madame Grandoni, seriously.
“You yourself made the distinction, perfectly. So long as she endeavoured only to injure me, and in my private capacity, I could condone, I could wait, I could hope. But since she has so recklessly thrown herself into the most criminal undertakings, since she lifts her hand with a determined purpose, as you tell me, against the most sacred institutions—it is too much; ah, yes, it is too much! She may go her way; she is no wife of mine. Not another penny of mine shall go into her pocket, and into that of the wretches who prey upon her, who have corrupted her.”
“You made the distinction perfectly. As long as she was just trying to hurt me, personally, I could tolerate it, I could wait, I could hold on to hope. But now that she has recklessly involved herself in such criminal activities, now that she acts with a determined purpose, as you say, against the most sacred institutions—it’s too much; yes, it really is too much! She can go her own way; she is no longer my wife. Not another penny of mine will go into her pocket or into the pockets of the miserable people who take advantage of her, who have corrupted her.”
“Dear Prince, I think you are right. And yet I am sorry!” sighed the old woman, extending her hand for assistance to rise from her chair. “If she becomes really poor, it will be much more difficult for me to leave her. This is not poverty, and not even a good imitation of it, as she would like it to be. But what will be said of me if having remained with her through so much of her splendour, I turn away from her the moment she begins to want?”
“Dear Prince, I think you’re right. But I still feel sorry!” sighed the old woman, reaching out her hand for help to get up from her chair. “If she truly becomes poor, it will be much harder for me to leave her. This isn’t poverty, and it’s not even a convincing act, as she’d like it to be. But what will people say if, after staying with her through all her glory, I walk away the moment she starts to struggle?”
“Dear lady, do you ask that to make me relent?” the Prince inquired, after an hesitation.
“Dear lady, are you asking that to make me change my mind?” the Prince asked, after a moment of hesitation.
“Not in the least; for whatever is said and whatever you do, there is nothing for me in decency, at present, but to pack my trunk. Judge, by the way I have tattled.”
“Not at all; because no matter what is said or what you do, there's nothing decent for me to do right now except pack my suitcase. Just look at how I've been gossiping.”
“If you will stay on, she shall have everything.” The Prince spoke in a very low tone, with a manner that betrayed the shame he felt at his attempt at bribery.
“If you stay, she’ll get everything.” The Prince spoke in a very soft voice, his demeanor revealing the shame he felt over his attempt to bribe her.
Madame Grandoni gave him an astonished glance and moved away from him. “What does that mean? I thought you didn’t care.”
Madame Grandoni gave him a surprised look and stepped away from him. “What does that mean? I thought you didn’t care.”
I know not what explanation of his inconsequence her companion would have given her if at that moment the door of the room had not been pushed open to permit the entrance of Hyacinth Robinson. He stopped short on perceiving that Madame Grandoni had a visitor, but before he had time to say anything the old lady addressed him with a certain curtness: “Ah, you don’t fall well; the Princess isn’t at home.”
I don’t know what reason her friend would have given her for his inconsistency if, at that moment, the door had not swung open to let Hyacinth Robinson in. He halted when he saw that Madame Grandoni had company, but before he could say anything, the older woman spoke to him somewhat abruptly: “Oh, you’re not a great time; the Princess isn’t home.”
“That was mentioned to me, but I ventured to come in to see you, as I have done before,” Hyacinth replied. Then he added, as if he were retreating, “I beg many pardons. I was not told that you were not alone.”
“That was mentioned to me, but I took the chance to come in to see you, like I have before,” Hyacinth replied. Then he added, as if backing away, “I’m really sorry. I wasn’t told that you weren’t alone.”
“My visitor is going, but I am going too,” said Madame Grandoni. “I must take myself to my room—I am all falling to pieces. Therefore kindly excuse me.”
“My visitor is leaving, but I’m leaving too,” said Madame Grandoni. “I need to head to my room—I’m falling apart. So please excuse me.”
Hyacinth had had time to recognise the Prince, and this nobleman paid him the same compliment, as was proved by his asking of Madame Grandoni, in a rapid aside, in Italian, “Isn’t it the bookbinder?”
Hyacinth had time to recognize the Prince, and this nobleman gave him the same compliment, as shown by his quick question to Madame Grandoni, in a brief aside, in Italian, “Isn’t that the bookbinder?”
“Sicuro,” said the old lady; while Hyacinth, murmuring a regret that he should find her indisposed, turned back to the door.
“Of course,” said the old lady; while Hyacinth, softly expressing regret that he had found her unwell, turned back to the door.
“One moment—one moment, I pray!” the Prince interposed, raising his hand persuasively and looking at him with an unexpected, exaggerated smile. “Please introduce me to the gentleman,” he added, in English, to Madame Grandoni.
“One moment—one moment, please!” the Prince interrupted, raising his hand in a calming gesture and giving him an unexpected, exaggerated smile. “Could you please introduce me to the gentleman?” he added, in English, to Madame Grandoni.
She manifested no surprise at the request—she had none left, apparently, for anything—but pronounced the name of Prince Casamassima, and then added, for Hyacinth’s benefit, “He knows who you are.”
She showed no surprise at the request—she seemed to have none left for anything—but said the name Prince Casamassima, then added, for Hyacinth’s benefit, “He knows who you are.”
“Will you permit me to keep you a very little minute?” the Prince continued, addressing the other visitor; after which he remarked to Madame Grandoni, “I will speak with him a little. It is perhaps not necessary that we should incommode you, if you do not wish to stay.”
“Will you allow me to keep you for just a moment?” the Prince continued, speaking to the other guest; then he said to Madame Grandoni, “I’ll talk to him for a bit. It might not be necessary to inconvenience you if you’d prefer not to stay.”
She had for a moment, as she tossed off a satirical little laugh, a return of her ancient drollery: “Remember that if you talk long she may come back! Yes, yes, I will go upstairs. Felicissima notte, signori!” She took her way to the door, which Hyacinth, considerably bewildered, held open for her.
She briefly had a flash of her old humor as she let out a sarcastic little laugh: “Just remember, if you talk long enough, she might come back! Yes, yes, I’ll head upstairs. Felicissima notte, signori!” She walked toward the door, which Hyacinth, feeling quite confused, held open for her.
The reasons for which Prince Casamassima wished to converse with him were mysterious; nevertheless, he was about to close the door behind Madame Grandoni, as a sign that he was at the service of her companion. At this moment the latter extended again a courteous, remonstrant hand. “After all, as my visit is finished and as yours comes to nothing, might we not go out?”
The reasons Prince Casamassima wanted to talk to him were unclear; however, he was just about to close the door behind Madame Grandoni, signaling that he was available for her companion. At that moment, the latter once again reached out a polite, protesting hand. “Since my visit is over and yours isn't going anywhere, can't we just leave?”
“Certainly, I will go with you,” said Hyacinth. He spoke with an instinctive stiffness, in spite of the Prince’s queer affability, and in spite also of the fact that he felt sorry for the nobleman, to whose countenance Madame Grandoni’s last injunction, uttered in English, had brought a deep and painful blush. It is needless to go into the question of what Hyacinth, face to face with an aggrieved husband, may have had on his conscience, but he assumed, naturally enough, that the situation might be grave, though indeed the Prince’s manner was, for the moment, incongruously conciliatory. Hyacinth invited his new acquaintance to pass, and in a minute they were in the street together.
“Of course, I’ll go with you,” Hyacinth said. He spoke with an instinctive stiffness, despite the Prince’s strange friendliness, and also because he felt sympathy for the nobleman, whose face had flushed deeply and painfully at Madame Grandoni's last instruction, spoken in English. There's no need to delve into what might have weighed on Hyacinth’s conscience while facing an upset husband, but he naturally assumed the situation could be serious, even though the Prince’s demeanor was, at the moment, oddly accommodating. Hyacinth gestured for his new acquaintance to go ahead, and in a minute, they were out in the street together.
“Do you go here—do you go there?” the Prince inquired, as they stood a moment before the house. “If you will permit, I will take the same direction.” On Hyacinth’s answering that it was indifferent to him the Prince said, turning to the right, “Well, then, here, but slowly, if that pleases you, and only a little way.” His English was far from perfect, but his errors were mainly errors of pronunciation, and Hyacinth was struck with his effort to express himself very distinctly, so that in intercourse with a little representative of the British populace his foreignness should not put him at a disadvantage. Quick as he was to perceive and appreciate, Hyacinth noted how a certain quality of breeding that was in his companion enabled him to compass that coolness, and he mentally applauded his success in a difficult feat. Difficult he judged it because it seemed to him that the purpose for which the Prince wished to speak to him was one which must require a deal of explanation, and it was a sign of training to explain adequately, in a foreign tongue, especially if one were agitated, to a person in a social position very different from one’s own. Hyacinth knew what the Prince’s estimate of his importance must be (he could have no illusions as to the character of the people his wife received); but while he heard him carefully put one word after the other he was able to smile to himself at his needless precautions. Hyacinth reflected that at a pinch he could have encountered him in his own tongue; during his stay at Venice he had picked up an Italian vocabulary. “With Madame Grandoni I spoke of you,” the Prince announced, dispassionately, as they walked along. “She told me a thing that interested me,” he added; “that is why I walk with you.” Hyacinth said nothing, deeming that better by silence than in any other fashion he held himself at the disposal of his interlocutor. “She told me you have changed—you have no more the same opinions.”
“Do you go this way—do you go that way?” the Prince asked as they paused briefly in front of the house. “If you don’t mind, I’ll go in the same direction.” When Hyacinth replied that he didn’t care, the Prince said, turning to the right, “Well, then, let’s go this way, but slowly, if that’s okay with you, and just for a little bit.” His English wasn’t perfect, but his mistakes were mostly in pronunciation, and Hyacinth was impressed by his effort to speak clearly so that his foreignness wouldn’t put him at a disadvantage while talking to someone from the British community. Quick to notice and appreciate details, Hyacinth recognized that a certain level of composure in his companion allowed him to manage that calmness, and he mentally applauded his success in a challenging situation. He found it difficult because it seemed that the reason the Prince wanted to talk to him would require a lot of explanation, and it showed skill to properly explain that in a foreign language, especially when someone was nervous, to a person with a very different social standing. Hyacinth understood what the Prince must think of his own importance (he had no illusions about the kind of people his wife associated with); but while he listened to the Prince carefully stringing words together, he couldn’t help but smile at his unnecessary caution. Hyacinth thought that if it came down to it, he could have spoken to him in his own language; during his time in Venice, he had picked up some Italian. “I spoke about you with Madame Grandoni,” the Prince said casually as they walked. “She told me something that caught my interest,” he added; “that’s why I’m walking with you.” Hyacinth said nothing, thinking it was better to remain silent than to respond in any other way; he was ready for whatever the Prince wished to discuss. “She told me you’ve changed—you don’t have the same opinions anymore.”
“The same opinions?”
"Do we have the same opinions?"
“About the arrangement of society. You desire no more the assassination of the rich.”
“About how society is organized. You no longer want to kill the wealthy.”
“I never desired any such thing!” said Hyacinth, indignantly.
“I never wanted anything like that!” said Hyacinth, angrily.
“Oh, if you have changed, you can confess,” the Prince rejoined, in an encouraging tone. “It is very good for some people to be rich. It would not be right for all to be poor.”
“Oh, if you’ve changed, you can confess,” the Prince replied, encouragingly. “It’s really good for some people to be rich. It wouldn’t be fair for everyone to be poor.”
“It would be pleasant if all could be rich,” Hyacinth suggested.
“It would be great if everyone could be rich,” Hyacinth suggested.
“Yes, but not by stealing and shooting.”
“Yes, but not by stealing and shooting.”
“No, not by stealing and shooting. I never desired that.”
“No, not by stealing and shooting. I never wanted that.”
“Ah, no doubt she was mistaken. But to-day you think we must have patience,” the Prince went on, as if he hoped very much that Hyacinth would allow this valuable conviction to be attributed to him. “That is also my view.”
“Ah, she must have been mistaken. But today, you believe we should be patient,” the Prince continued, as if he really wanted Hyacinth to credit him with this important belief. “That’s my view too.”
“Oh, yes, we must have patience,” said Hyacinth, who was now smiling to himself in the dark.
“Oh, yes, we have to be patient,” said Hyacinth, who was now smiling to himself in the dark.
They had by this time reached the end of the little Crescent, where the Prince paused under the street-lamp. He considered Hyacinth’s countenance for a moment by its help, and then he pronounced, “If I am not mistaken, you know very well the Princess.”
They had by this time reached the end of the little Crescent, where the Prince paused under the streetlamp. He looked at Hyacinth’s face for a moment in the light, and then he said, “If I’m not mistaken, you know the Princess very well.”
Hyacinth hesitated a moment. “She has been very kind to me.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “She’s been really nice to me.”
“She is my wife—perhaps you know.”
"She's my wife—maybe you've heard of her."
Again Hyacinth hesitated, but after a moment he replied, “She has told me that she is married.” As soon as he had spoken these words he thought them idiotic.
Again Hyacinth hesitated, but after a moment he replied, “She has told me that she is married.” As soon as he said this, he found it to be ridiculous.
“You mean you would not know if she had not told you, I suppose. Evidently, there is nothing to show it. You can think if that is agreeable to me.”
“You mean you wouldn’t know if she hadn’t told you, I guess. Clearly, there’s no proof of that. You can decide whether that works for me.”
“Oh, I can’t think, I can’t judge,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, I can’t think, I can’t judge,” Hyacinth said.
“You are right—that is impossible.” The Prince stood before his companion, and in the pale gaslight the latter saw more of his face. It had an unnatural expression, a look of wasted anxiety; the eyes seemed to glitter, and Hyacinth conceived the unfortunate nobleman to be feverish and ill. He continued in a moment: “Of course you think it strange—my conversation. I want you to tell me something.”
“You're right—that's impossible.” The Prince stood in front of his companion, and in the dim gaslight, the latter saw more of his face. It had an unnatural look, a hint of exhausted worry; his eyes seemed to sparkle, and Hyacinth imagined the troubled nobleman was feverish and sick. He continued after a moment: “Of course you find my conversation strange. I want you to tell me something.”
“I am afraid you are very unwell,” said Hyacinth.
“I’m afraid you’re not feeling well,” said Hyacinth.
“Yes, I am unwell; but I shall be better if you will tell me. It is because you have come back to good ideas—that is why I ask you.”
“Yes, I’m not feeling well; but I’ll feel better if you tell me. It’s because you’ve returned to good ideas—that’s why I’m asking you.”
A sense that the situation of the Princess’s husband was really pitiful, that at any rate he suffered and was helpless, that he was a gentleman and even a person who would never have done any great harm—a perception of these appealing truths came into Hyacinth’s heart, and stirred there a desire to be kind to him, to render him any service that, in reason, he might ask. It appeared to Hyacinth that he must be pretty sick to ask any service at all, but that was his own affair. “If you would like me to see you safely home, I will do that,” our young man remarked; and even while he spoke he was struck with the oddity of his being already on such friendly terms with a person whom he had hitherto supposed to be the worst enemy of the rarest of women. He found himself unable to consider the Prince with resentment.
A realization hit Hyacinth that the situation of the Princess’s husband was truly sad, that he was suffering and helpless, that he was a gentleman and someone who would never intentionally cause serious harm—this awareness stirred a desire in him to be kind and to help him with any reasonable request he might have. Hyacinth thought he must be quite unwell to ask for any help at all, but that was his own concern. “If you want me to make sure you get home safely, I can do that,” he said. Even as he spoke, he was struck by how strange it was to be on friendly terms with someone he had previously thought to be the greatest enemy of the rarest of women. He found it impossible to feel any resentment toward the Prince.
This personage acknowledged the civility of his offer with a slight inclination of his high slimness. “I am very much obliged to you, but I will not go home. I will not go home till I know this—to what house she has gone. Will you tell me that?”
This person nodded slightly in appreciation of his offer. “Thanks so much, but I’m not going home. I won’t go home until I know this—what house she has gone to. Will you tell me that?”
“To what house?” Hyacinth repeated.
"Which house?" Hyacinth repeated.
“She has gone with a person whom you know. Madame Grandoni told me that. He is a Scotch chemist.”
“She’s gone with someone you know. Madame Grandoni told me that. He’s a Scottish chemist.”
“A Scotch chemist?” Hyacinth stared.
“A Scotch chemist?” Hyacinth gaped.
“I saw them myself—two hours, three hours, ago. Listen, listen; I will be very clear,” said the Prince, laying his forefinger on the other hand with an explanatory gesture. “He came to that house—this one, where we have been, I mean—and stayed there a long time. I was here in the street—I have passed my day in the street! They came out together, and I watched them, I followed them.”
“I saw them myself—two hours, three hours ago. Listen, listen; I’ll be very clear,” said the Prince, placing his finger on his other hand for emphasis. “He went to that house—this one, where we’ve been, I mean—and stayed there for a long time. I was here in the street—I spent my day in the street! They came out together, and I watched them, I followed them.”
Hyacinth had listened with wonder, and even with suspense; the Prince’s manner gave an air of such importance, such mystery, to what he had to relate. But at this he broke out: “This is not my business—I can’t hear it! I don’t watch, I don’t follow.”
Hyacinth listened in amazement and even with tension; the Prince's demeanor added a sense of significance and intrigue to what he was about to share. But then he interrupted, saying, “This isn’t my issue—I can’t deal with it! I don’t observe, I don’t pursue.”
The Prince stared a moment, in surprise; then he rejoined, more quickly than he had spoken yet, “But they went to a house where they conspire, where they prepare horrible acts. How can you like that?”
The Prince stared for a moment, surprised; then he responded, more quickly than he had spoken before, “But they went to a house where they plot, where they plan terrible things. How can you like that?”
“How do you know it, sir?” Hyacinth inquired, gravely.
"How do you know that, sir?" Hyacinth asked seriously.
“It is Madame Grandoni who has told me.”
“It’s Madame Grandoni who told me.”
“Why, then, do you ask me?”
“Then why do you ask me?”
“Because I am not sure, I don’t think she knows. I want to know more, to be sure of what is done in that house. Does she go there only for the revolution,” the Prince demanded, “or does she go there to be alone with him?”
“Because I’m not sure, I don’t think she knows. I want to find out more, to be certain about what happens in that house. Does she go there just for the revolution,” the Prince asked, “or does she go there to be alone with him?”
“With him?” The Prince’s tone and his excited eyes infused a kind of vividness into the suggestion.
“With him?” The Prince’s tone and his eager eyes added a sort of liveliness to the idea.
“With the tall man—the chemist. They got into a hansom together; the house is far away, in the lost quarters.”
“With the tall man—the chemist. They got into a cab together; the house is far away, in the remote parts.”
Hyacinth drew himself together. “I know nothing about the matter, and I don’t care. If that is all you wish to ask me, we had better separate.”
Hyacinth gathered himself. “I don’t know anything about it, and I’m not interested. If that's all you want to ask me, we should go our separate ways.”
The Prince’s face elongated; it seemed to grow paler. “Then it is not true that you hate those abominations!”
The Prince's face stretched out; it looked like it got paler. "So it's not true that you hate those horrors!"
Hyacinth hesitated a moment. “How can you know about my opinions? How can they interest you?”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “How do you know what I think? Why would you care?”
The Prince looked at him with sick eyes; he raised his arms a moment, a certain distance, and then let them drop at his sides. “I hoped you would help me.”
The Prince looked at him with tired eyes; he lifted his arms for a moment, a short distance, and then let them fall to his sides. “I hoped you would help me.”
“When we are in trouble we can’t help each other much!” our young man exclaimed. But this austere reflection was lost upon the Prince, who at the moment Hyacinth spoke had already turned to look in the direction from which they had proceeded, the other end of the Crescent, his attention apparently being called thither by the sound of a rapid hansom. The place was still and empty, and the wheels of this vehicle reverberated. The Prince peered at it through the darkness, and in an instant he cried, under his breath, excitedly, “They have come back—they have come back! Now you can see—yes, the two!” The hansom had slackened pace and pulled up; the house before which it stopped was clearly the house the two men had lately quitted. Hyacinth felt his arm seized by the Prince, who, hastily, by a strong effort, drew him forward several yards. At this moment a part of the agitation that possessed the unhappy Italian seemed to pass into his own blood; a wave of anxiety rushed through him—anxiety as to the relations of the two persons who had descended from the cab; he had, in short, for several instants, a very exact revelation of the state of feeling of a jealous husband. If he had been told, half an hour before, that he was capable of surreptitious peepings, in the interest of such jealousy, he would have resented the insult; yet he allowed himself to be checked by his companion just at the nearest point at which they might safely consider the proceedings of the couple who alighted. It was in fact the Princess, accompanied by Paul Muniment. Hyacinth noticed that the latter paid the cabman, who immediately drove away, from his own pocket. He stood with the Princess for some minutes at the door of the house—minutes during which Hyacinth felt his heart beat insanely, ignobly, he couldn’t tell why.
“When we’re in trouble, we can’t help each other much!” the young man exclaimed. But this serious thought went unnoticed by the Prince, who, at that moment when Hyacinth spoke, had already turned to look down the Crescent, seemingly distracted by the sound of a speeding hansom. The area was quiet and empty, and the wheels of the vehicle echoed loudly. The Prince squinted into the darkness and suddenly whispered excitedly, “They’ve come back—they’ve come back! Now you can see—yes, the two!” The hansom slowed and stopped; the house they were in front of was clearly the one the two men had just left. Hyacinth felt the Prince grab his arm and, with a strong effort, pull him forward several yards. At that moment, some of the agitation that the distressed Italian felt seemed to flow into him; a wave of anxiety rushed through him—concern about the relationship between the two people who had just gotten out of the cab. For a few moments, he had a clear sense of what it felt like to be a jealous husband. If someone had told him half an hour earlier that he could engage in sneaky watching out of jealousy, he would have taken offense; yet he let his friend pull him back to the closest spot where they could safely observe the couple who had just arrived. It was indeed the Princess, accompanied by Paul Muniment. Hyacinth noticed that the latter paid the cab driver from his own pocket. He stood with the Princess at the door for several minutes—minutes during which Hyacinth felt his heart race uncontrollably, inexplicably.
“What does he say? what does she say?” hissed the Prince; and when he demanded, the next moment, “Will he go in again, or will he go away?” our sensitive youth felt that a voice was given to his own most eager thought. The pair were talking together, with rapid sequences, and as the door had not yet been opened it was clear that, to prolong the conversation on the steps, the Princess delayed to ring. “It will make three, four, hours he has been with her,” moaned the Prince.
“What does he say? What does she say?” hissed the Prince; and when he asked, just a moment later, “Will he go in again, or will he leave?” our sensitive young man felt that someone was voicing his own most eager thought. The couple was having a quick conversation, and since the door hadn't been opened yet, it was obvious that the Princess was stalling on ringing the bell to keep the discussion going on the steps. “He has been with her for three, four hours,” groaned the Prince.
“He may be with her fifty hours!” Hyacinth answered, with a laugh, turning away, ashamed of himself.
“He might be with her for fifty hours!” Hyacinth replied with a laugh, turning away, embarrassed about himself.
“He has gone in—sangue di Dio!” cried the Prince, catching his companion again by the arm and making him look. All that Hyacinth saw was the door just closing; the Princess and Muniment were on the other side of it. “Is that for the revolution?” the trembling nobleman panted. But Hyacinth made no answer; he only gazed at the closed door an instant, and then, disengaging himself, walked straight away, leaving the Italian, in the darkness, to direct a great helpless, futile shake of his stick at the indifferent house.
“He's gone in—God's blood!” cried the Prince, grabbing his companion by the arm and making him look. All Hyacinth saw was the door just closing; the Princess and Muniment were on the other side. “Is that for the revolution?” the trembling nobleman panted. But Hyacinth didn’t answer; he only stared at the closed door for a moment, and then, pulling away, walked straight off, leaving the Italian in the darkness to aim a frustrated, pointless swing of his stick at the indifferent house.
XLI
Hyacinth waited a long time, but when at last Millicent came to the door the splendour of her appearance did much to justify her delay. He heard an immense rustling on the staircase, accompanied by a creaking of that inexpensive structure, and then she brushed forward into the narrow, dusky passage where he had been standing for a quarter of an hour. She looked flushed; she exhaled a strong, cheap perfume; and she instantly thrust her muff, a tight, fat, beribboned receptacle, at him, to be held while she adjusted her gloves to her large vulgar hands. Hyacinth opened the door—it was so natural an assumption that they would not be able to talk properly in the passage—and they came out to the low steps, lingering there in the yellow Sunday sunshine. A loud ejaculation on the beauty of the day broke from Millicent, though, as we know, she was not addicted to facile admirations. The winter was not over, but the spring had begun, and the smoky London air allowed the baffled citizens, by way of a change, to see through it. The town could refresh its recollections of the sky, and the sky could ascertain the geographical position of the town. The essential dimness of the low perspectives had by no means disappeared, but it had loosened its folds; it lingered as a blur of mist, interwoven with pretty sun-tints and faint transparencies. There was warmth and there was light, and a view of the shutters of shops, and the church bells were ringing. Miss Henning remarked that it was a ‘shime’ she couldn’t have a place to ask a gentleman to sit down; but what were you to do when you had such a grind for your living, and a room, to keep yourself tidy, no bigger than a pill-box? She couldn’t, herself, abide waiting outside; she knew something about it when she took things home to ladies to choose (the time they spent was long enough to choose a husband!) and it always made her feel quite miserable. It was something cruel. If she could have what she liked she knew what she would have; and she hinted at a mystic bower where a visitor could sit and enjoy himself—with the morning paper, or a nice view out of the window, or even a glass of sherry—so that, in an adjacent apartment, she could dress without getting in a fidget, which always made her red in the face.
Hyacinth waited a long time, but when Millicent finally came to the door, the brilliance of her appearance made up for her delay. He heard a lot of rustling on the staircase, mixed with the creaking of the cheap structure, and then she swept into the narrow, dim hallway where he had been standing for a quarter of an hour. She looked flushed; she smelled strongly of cheap perfume; and she immediately thrust her muff, a tight, plump, ribbon-adorned bag, at him to hold while she adjusted her gloves on her large, unattractive hands. Hyacinth opened the door—it was only natural to assume they wouldn’t be able to have a proper conversation in the hallway—and they stepped out onto the low steps, lingering there in the warm Sunday sunshine. Millicent exclaimed loudly about the beauty of the day, even though she wasn’t usually one for easy flattery. Winter wasn’t quite over, but spring had begun, and the smoky London air allowed the frustrated citizens to finally see through it. The town could reconnect with the sky, and the sky could check out the geographical layout of the town. The essential gloom of the low views hadn’t disappeared completely, but it had loosened up; it hung like a mist, mixed with pretty sun glimmers and faint transparencies. There was warmth and light, a view of shop shutters, and the church bells were ringing. Miss Henning said it was a shame she didn’t have a place to invite a gentleman to sit down; but what could you do when your job was so demanding, and a room to keep yourself tidy was no bigger than a pillbox? She couldn’t stand waiting outside herself; she knew what it was like when she took things home for ladies to choose (the time spent was long enough to find a husband!) and it always made her feel miserable. It was something cruel. If she could have it her way, she knew exactly what she would want; and she hinted at a cozy nook where a visitor could sit back and relax—with the morning paper, or a nice view out the window, or even a glass of sherry—so that, in a nearby room, she could dress without getting flustered, which always made her blush.
“I don’t know how I ’ave pitched on my things,” she remarked, presenting her magnificence to Hyacinth, who became aware that she had put a small plump book into her muff. He explained that, the day being so fine, he had come to propose to her to take a walk with him, in the manner of ancient times. They might spend an hour or two in the Park and stroll beside the Serpentine, or even paddle about on it, if she liked, and watch the lambkins, or feed the ducks, if she would put a crust in her pocket. The prospect of paddling Miss Henning entirely declined; she had no idea of wetting her flounces, and she left those rough pleasures, especially of a Sunday, to a lower class of young woman. But she didn’t mind if she did go for a turn, though he didn’t deserve any such favour, after the way he hadn’t been near her, if she had died in her garret. She was not one that was to be dropped and taken up at any man’s convenience—she didn’t keep one of those offices for servants out of place. Millicent expressed the belief that if the day had not been so lovely she would have sent Hyacinth about his business; it was lucky for him that she was always forgiving such was her sensitive, generous nature) when the sun was out. Only there was one thing—she couldn’t abide making no difference for Sunday; it was her personal habit to go to church, and she should have it on her conscience if she gave it up for a lark. Hyacinth had already been impressed, more than once, by the manner in which his blooming friend stickled for the religious observance: of all the queer disparities of her nature, her devotional turn struck him as perhaps the queerest. She held her head erect through the longest and dullest sermon, and came out of the place of worship with her fine face embellished by the publicity of her virtue. She was exasperated by the general secularity of Hyacinth’s behaviour, especially taken in conjunction with his general straightness, and was only consoled a little by the fact that if he didn’t drink, or fight, or steal, at least he indulged in unlimited wickedness of opinion—theories as bad as anything that people got ten years for. Hyacinth had not yet revealed to her that his theories had somehow lately come to be held with less tension; an instinct of kindness had forbidden him to deprive her of a grievance which ministered so much to sociability. He had not reflected that she would have been more aggrieved, and consequently more delightful, if her condemnation of his godlessness had been deprived of confirmatory indications.
“I don’t know how I have ended up with my things,” she said, showing off her beauty to Hyacinth, who noticed that she had slipped a small, chunky book into her muff. He explained that, since it was such a lovely day, he had come to ask her to take a walk with him, like in the old days. They could spend an hour or two in the Park, stroll by the Serpentine, or even paddle around on it if she wanted, and watch the little lambs or feed the ducks if she brought a piece of bread. The idea of paddling was something Miss Henning firmly rejected; she had no intention of getting her flounces wet, and she reserved those rough activities, especially on a Sunday, for a lower class of young women. But she didn't mind going for a walk, even if he didn't deserve such a favor after not visiting her, as if she had died alone in her room. She wasn’t someone to be picked up and dropped at any man's convenience—she didn't run a service for out-of-work servants. Millicent mentioned that if the day hadn't been so beautiful, she would have sent Hyacinth on his way; it was lucky for him that her sensitive, generous nature made her forgiving when the sun was shining. There was just one thing—she couldn't stand not treating Sunday differently; it was her personal habit to go to church, and she would feel guilty if she skipped it for fun. Hyacinth had been struck more than once by how strongly his attractive friend insisted on religious observance: of all the odd parts of her character, her devotion seemed the oddest. She held her head high through the longest and dullest sermons and left the place of worship with her lovely face glowing with the pride of her virtue. She was frustrated by Hyacinth's overall secular attitude, especially considering his general decency, and was only slightly comforted by the fact that while he didn’t drink, fight, or steal, he still engaged in a wealth of controversial opinions—theories worthy of serious punishment. Hyacinth hadn’t yet told her that recently, his views had become less intense; a sense of kindness prevented him from taking away a grievance that served to boost their social interaction. He hadn’t realized that she would have been more upset—and consequently more entertaining—if her criticism of his lack of faith hadn’t been bolstered by telltale signs.
On the present occasion she let him know that she would go for a walk with him if he would first accompany her to church; and it was in vain he represented to her that this proceeding would deprive them of their morning, inasmuch as after church she would have to dine, and in the interval there would be no time left. She replied, with a toss of her head, that she dined when she liked; besides on Sundays she had cold fare—it was left out for her; an argument to which Hyacinth had to assent, his ignorance of her domestic economy being complete, thanks to the maidenly mystery, the vagueness of reference and explanation, in which, in spite of great freedom of complaint, perpetual announcements of intended change, impending promotion and high bids for her services in other quarters, she had always enshrouded her private affairs. Hyacinth walked by her side to the place of worship she preferred—her choice was made apparently from a large experience; and as they went he remarked that it was a good job he wasn’t married to her. Lord, how she would bully him, how she would ‘squeeze’ him, in such a case! The worst of it would be that—such was his amiable, peace-loving nature—he would obey like a showman’s poodle. And pray, whom was a man to obey, asked Millicent, if he was not to obey his wife? She sat up in her pew with a majesty that carried out this idea; she seemed to answer, in her proper person, for creeds and communions and sacraments; she was more than devotional, she was almost pontifical. Hyacinth had never felt himself under such distinguished protection; the Princess Casamassima came back to him, in comparison, as a Bohemian, a shabby adventuress. He had come to see her to-day not for the sake of her austerity (he had had too gloomy a week for that), but for that of her genial side; yet now that she treated him to the severer spectacle it struck him for the moment as really grand sport—a kind of magnification of her rich vitality. She had her phases and caprices, like the Princess herself; and if they were not the same as those of the lady of Madeira Crescent they proved at least that she was as brave a woman. No one but a capital girl could give herself such airs; she would have a consciousness of the large reserve of pliancy required for making up for them. The Princess wished to destroy society and Millicent wished to uphold it; and as Hyacinth, by the side of his childhood’s friend, listened to practised intonings, he was obliged to recognise the liberality of a fate which had sometimes appeared invidious. He had been provided with the best opportunities for choosing between the beauty of the original and the beauty of the conventional.
On this occasion, she made it clear that she would go for a walk with him if he first accompanied her to church; he argued that this plan would take away their morning, since after church she would have to eat lunch, leaving no time in between. She tossed her head and replied that she dined whenever she wanted; besides, on Sundays, she had cold food—it was set out for her; an argument Hyacinth had to accept, as he was completely unaware of her home life, thanks to the feminine mystery and vague references in which, despite her frequent complaints, constant announcements of intended changes, and high offers for her services in other places, she had always wrapped up her private affairs. Hyacinth walked beside her to her chosen place of worship, her choice seemingly based on a wealth of experience; as they walked, he remarked that it was a good thing he wasn’t married to her. Lord, how she would boss him around, how she would "squeeze" him in that case! The worst part would be that—due to his good-natured, peace-loving nature—he would comply like a showman's poodle. “And who’s a man supposed to obey,” Millicent asked, “if he doesn't obey his wife?” She sat up in her pew with an authority that embodied this idea; she seemed to represent, in her own person, the creeds, communions, and sacraments; she was more than devotional, she was almost papal. Hyacinth had never felt such distinguished protection; by comparison, the Princess Casamassima seemed like a Bohemian, a shabby adventuress. He had come to see her today not for her sternness (he’d had too gloomy a week for that), but for her warm side. Yet now that she was presenting him with this serious spectacle, it struck him, for a moment, as truly grand—a kind of amplification of her rich vitality. She had her phases and whims, like the Princess herself; and while they weren’t the same as those of the lady from Madeira Crescent, they did show she was just as bold. No one but a great girl could carry herself with such airs; she must have been aware of the significant flexibility needed to balance them out. The Princess wanted to overthrow society, while Millicent wanted to uphold it; and as Hyacinth listened to the practiced tones beside his childhood friend, he had to recognize the generosity of a fate that sometimes seemed unfair. He had been given the best chances to choose between the beauty of the original and the beauty of the conventional.
Fortunately, on this particular Sunday, there was no sermon (fortunately, I mean, from the point of view of Hyacinth’s heretical impatience), so that after the congregation dispersed there was still plenty of time for a walk in the Park. Our friends traversed that barely-interrupted expanse of irrepressible herbage which stretches from the Birdcage Walk to Hyde Park Corner, and took their way to Kensington Gardens, beside the Serpentine. Once Millicent’s religious exercises were over for the day (she as rigidly forbore to repeat them in the afternoon as she made a point of the first service), once she had lifted her voice in prayer and praise, she changed her allure; moving to a different measure, uttering her sentiments in a high, free manner, and not minding that it should be perceived that she had on her very best gown and was out, if need be, for the day. She was mainly engaged, for some time, in overhauling Hyacinth for his long absence, demanding, as usual, some account of what he had been ‘up to’. He listened to her philosophically, liking and enjoying her chaff, which seemed to him, oddly enough, wholesome and refreshing, and absolutely declining to satisfy her. He remarked, as he had had occasion to do before, that if he asked no explanations of her the least he had a right to expect in return was that she should let him off as easily; and even the indignation with which she received this plea did not make him feel that an éclaircissement between them could be a serious thing. There was nothing to explain and nothing to forgive; they were a pair of very fallible individuals, united much more by their weaknesses than by any consistency or fidelity that they might pretend to practise toward each other. It was an old acquaintance—the oldest thing, to-day, except Mr Vetch’s friendship, in Hyacinth’s life; and strange as this may appear, it inspired our young man with a kind of indulgent piety. The probability that Millicent ‘kept company’ with other men had quite ceased to torment his imagination; it was no longer necessary to his happiness to be certain about it in order that he might dismiss her from his mind. He could be as happy without it as with it, and he felt a new modesty in regard to prying into her affairs. He was so little in a position to be stern with her that her assumption that he recognised a right on her own part to chide him seemed to him only a part of her perpetual clumsiness—a clumsiness that was not soothing but was nevertheless, in its rich spontaneity, one of the things he liked her for.
Fortunately, on this particular Sunday, there was no sermon (thankfully, I mean, from Hyacinth’s impatient perspective), so after the congregation left, there was still plenty of time for a walk in the Park. Our friends walked through that uninterrupted stretch of vibrant greenery that goes from Birdcage Walk to Hyde Park Corner and made their way to Kensington Gardens, next to the Serpentine. Once Millicent’s religious activities were done for the day (she strictly refrained from repeating them in the afternoon just as she prioritized the first service), and after she had lifted her voice in prayer and praise, she changed her allure; moving to a different beat, expressing her thoughts in a lively, free manner, not caring if people noticed she was wearing her very best dress and was out for the day. For a while, she was mainly focused on teasing Hyacinth about his long absence, demanding, as usual, to know what he had been ‘up to’. He listened to her with a philosophical attitude, genuinely enjoying her playful banter, which oddly felt refreshing to him, and he completely refused to give her any answers. He noted, as he had mentioned before, that if he didn’t ask her for explanations, the least she could do in return was let him off the hook easily; and even the irritation she showed towards this request didn’t make him think a serious éclaircissement between them was necessary. There was nothing to explain and nothing to forgive; they were a pair of very flawed individuals, connected more by their vulnerabilities than by any consistency or loyalty they might pretend to show each other. It was an old relationship—the longest one, apart from Mr. Vetch’s friendship, in Hyacinth’s life; and strangely enough, it filled him with a sort of indulgent compassion. The thought that Millicent was dating other guys no longer bothered him; he didn’t need to be sure about it to be able to forget her. He could be just as happy without knowing as he could be with it, and he felt a new sense of modesty about prying into her life. He was in no position to be stern with her, so her belief that she had the right to scold him just seemed like part of her usual clumsiness—a clumsiness that was not comforting but, in its rich spontaneity, was one of the things he appreciated about her.
“If you have come to see me only to make jokes at my expense, you had better have stayed away altogether,” she said, with dignity, as they came out of the Green Park. “In the first place it’s rude, in the second place it’s silly, and in the third place I see through you.”
“If you’ve come to see me just to make jokes at my expense, you might as well have stayed away,” she said, with dignity, as they walked out of Green Park. “First of all, it’s rude, second, it’s silly, and third, I see right through you.”
“My dear Millicent, the motions you go through, the resentment you profess, are purely perfunctory,” her companion replied. “But it doesn’t matter; go on—say anything you like. I came to see you for recreation, for a little entertainment without effort of my own. I scarcely ventured to hope, however, that you would make me laugh—I have been so dismal for a long time. In fact, I am dismal still. I wish I had your disposition! My mirth is feverish.”
"My dear Millicent, the things you're doing and the frustration you show are just for show," her companion replied. "But it doesn’t matter; go ahead—say whatever you want. I came to see you for some fun, for a bit of entertainment without putting in any effort myself. I hardly dared to hope that you'd make me laugh—I’ve been so gloomy for a long time. Actually, I’m still gloomy. I wish I had your attitude! My happiness feels forced."
“The first thing I require of any friend is that he should respect me,” Miss Henning announced. “You lead a bad life. I know what to think about that,” she continued, irrelevantly.
“The first thing I need from any friend is respect,” Miss Henning said. “You’re living a bad life. I know what to think about that,” she added, changing the subject.
“And is it out of respect for you that you wish me to lead a better one? To-day, then, is so much saved out of my wickedness. Let us get on the grass,” Hyacinth continued; “it is innocent and pastoral to feel it under one’s feet. It’s jolly to be with you; you understand everything.”
“And is it out of respect for you that you want me to lead a better life? So today, then, is a bit of good saved from my wickedness. Let’s go on the grass,” Hyacinth continued; “it feels nice and natural to have it under our feet. It’s great to be with you; you really get everything.”
“I don’t understand everything you say, but I understand everything you hide,” the young woman returned, as the great central expanse of Hyde Park, looking intensely green and browsable, stretched away before them.
“I don’t get everything you say, but I get everything you hide,” the young woman replied, as the vast green expanse of Hyde Park, looking vibrant and inviting, spread out in front of them.
“Then I shall soon become a mystery to you, for I mean from this time forth to cease to seek safety in concealment. You’ll know nothing about me then, for it will be all under your nose.”
“Then I’ll soon be a mystery to you, because from now on I’m not going to hide anymore. You won’t know anything about me then, because it will all be right in front of you.”
“Well, there’s nothing so pretty as nature,” Millicent observed, surveying the smutty sheep who find pasturage in the fields that extend from Knightsbridge to the Bayswater Road. “What will you do when you’re so bad you can’t go to the shop?” she added, with a sudden transition. And when he asked why he should ever be so bad as that, she said she could see he was in a fever; she hadn’t noticed it at first, because he never had had any more complexion than a cheese. Was it something he had caught in some of those back slums, where he went prying about with his wicked ideas? It served him right for taking as little good into such places as ever came out of them. Would his fine friends—a precious lot they were, that put it off on him to do all the nasty part!—would they find the doctor, and the port wine, and the money, and all the rest, when he was laid up—perhaps for months—through their putting such rot into his head and his putting it into others that could carry it even less? Millicent stopped on the grass, in the watery sunshine, and bent on her companion an eye in which he perceived, freshly, an awakened curiosity, a friendly, reckless ray, a pledge of substantial comradeship. Suddenly she exclaimed, quitting the tone of exaggerated derision which she had used a moment before, “You little rascal, you’ve got something on your heart! Has your Princess given you the sack?”
“Well, there’s nothing as beautiful as nature,” Millicent said, looking at the dirty sheep grazing in the fields stretching from Knightsbridge to Bayswater Road. “What will you do when you’re so bad you can’t go to the store?” she continued, shifting the subject abruptly. When he asked why he would ever get that bad, she remarked that she could see he was feverish; she hadn’t noticed it at first, since he never had much of a complexion at all. Was it something he picked up in those back alleys where he wandered with his wicked ideas? It served him right for bringing so little good into places that only delivered bad outcomes. Would his fancy friends—what a lovely bunch they were, leaving him to handle all the nasty stuff!—would they bother finding the doctor, and the port wine, and the money, and everything else when he was laid up—maybe for months—because of their nonsense and his spreading it to others who couldn’t handle it even less? Millicent stopped on the grass, in the weak sunshine, and looked at her companion with fresh curiosity, a friendly sparkle in her eye, a signal of real friendship. Suddenly she dropped the exaggerated mocking tone she’d used moments ago and exclaimed, “You little rascal, something’s bothering you! Did your Princess break up with you?”
“My poor girl, your talk is a queer mixture,” Hyacinth murmured. “But it may well be. It is not queerer than my life.”
“My poor girl, your words are a strange mix,” Hyacinth said quietly. “But it could be. It's not stranger than my life.”
“Well, I’m glad you admit that!” the young woman cried, walking on with a flutter of her ribbons.
“Well, I’m glad you admit that!” the young woman exclaimed, continuing on with a swirl of her ribbons.
“Your ideas about my ideas!” Hyacinth continued. “Yes, you should see me in the back slums. I’m a bigger Philistine than you, Miss Henning.”
“Your thoughts about my thoughts!” Hyacinth went on. “Yeah, you should see me in the back alleys. I’m more of a Philistine than you, Miss Henning.”
“You’ve got more ridiculous names, if that’s what you mean. I don’t believe that half the time you know what you do mean, yourself. I don’t believe you even know, with all your thinking, what you do think. That’s your disease.”
“You have more ridiculous names, if that’s what you’re talking about. I don’t think you even know what you really mean half the time. I don’t believe you truly understand what you’re thinking, despite all your pondering. That’s your issue.”
“It’s astonishing how you sometimes put your finger on the place,” Hyacinth rejoined. “I mean to think no more—I mean to give it up. Avoid it yourself, my dear Millicent—avoid it as you would a baleful vice. It confers no true happiness. Let us live in the world of irreflective contemplation—let us live in the present hour.”
“It’s amazing how you sometimes get it just right,” Hyacinth replied. “I mean to stop thinking about it—I mean to let it go. Stay away from it yourself, my dear Millicent—avoid it like a harmful habit. It doesn’t bring any real happiness. Let’s live in a state of unthinking reflection—let’s live in the moment.”
“I don’t care how I live, nor where I live,” said Millicent, “so long as I can do as I like. It’s them that are over you—it’s them that cut it fine! But you never were really satisfactory to me—not as one friend should be to another,” she pursued, reverting irresistibly to the concrete and turning still upon her companion that fine fairness which had no cause to shrink from a daylight exhibition. “Do you remember that day I came back to Lomax Place ever so long ago, and called on poor dear Miss Pynsent (she couldn’t abide me; she didn’t like my form), and waited till you came in, and went out for a walk with you, and had tea at a coffee-shop? Well, I don’t mind telling you that you weren’t satisfactory to me then, and that I consider myself remarkably good-natured, ever since, to have kept you so little up to the mark. You always tried to carry it off as if you were telling one everything, and you never told one nothing at all.”
“I don’t care how I live or where I live,” Millicent said, “as long as I can do what I want. It’s those who are in charge of you—it’s them who make things difficult! But you were never really good enough for me—not the way a friend should be,” she continued, shifting back to specifics and giving her companion that striking look that had no reason to shy away from being seen in the light of day. “Do you remember the day I came back to Lomax Place so long ago, visited poor dear Miss Pynsent (she couldn’t stand me; she didn’t like my appearance), and waited until you showed up, then went out for a walk with you and had tea at a coffee shop? Well, I’ll be honest with you; you weren’t good enough for me back then, and I consider myself incredibly patient since then to have kept my expectations for you so low. You always acted like you were being open with me, but you never really told me anything at all.”
“What is it you want me to tell, my dear child?” Hyacinth inquired, putting his hand into her arm. “I’ll tell you anything you like.”
“What do you want me to say, my dear child?” Hyacinth asked, placing his hand on her arm. “I’ll tell you whatever you want.”
“I dare say you’ll tell me a lot of trash! Certainly, I tried kindness,” Miss Henning declared.
“I bet you’ll tell me a bunch of nonsense! For sure, I tried being nice,” Miss Henning declared.
“Try it again; don’t give it up,” said her companion, strolling along with her in close association.
“Try it again; don’t give up,” said her friend, walking closely beside her.
She stopped short, detaching herself, though not with intention. “Well, then, has she—has she chucked you over?”
She abruptly pulled away, not on purpose. “So, has she—has she dumped you?”
Hyacinth turned his eyes away; he looked at the green expanse, misty and sunny, dotted with Sunday-keeping figures which made it seem larger; at the wooded boundary of the Park, beyond the grassy moat of Kensington Gardens; at a shining reach of the Serpentine on one side and the far façades of Bayswater, brightened by the fine weather and the privilege of their view, on the other. “Well, you know I rather think so,” he replied, in a moment.
Hyacinth turned his gaze away; he looked at the green stretch, hazy and sunny, sprinkled with people enjoying their Sunday, which made it feel more expansive; at the tree-lined edge of the Park, beyond the grassy moat of Kensington Gardens; at a glistening section of the Serpentine on one side and the distant facades of Bayswater, enhanced by the nice weather and their impressive view, on the other. “Well, you know, I think that’s true,” he replied after a moment.
“Ah, the nasty brute!” cried Millicent, as they resumed their walk.
“Ugh, that disgusting jerk!” exclaimed Millicent as they continued their walk.
Upwards of an hour later they were sitting under the great trees of Kensington Gardens, those scattered over the slope which rises gently from the side of the water most distant from the old red palace. They had taken possession of a couple of the chairs placed there for the convenience of that part of the public for which a penny is not, as the French say, an affair, and Millicent, of whom such speculations were highly characteristic, had devoted considerable conjecture to the question whether the functionary charged with collecting the said penny would omit to come and ask for his fee. Miss Henning liked to enjoy her pleasures gratis, as well as to see others do so, and even that of sitting in a penny chair could touch her more deeply in proportion as she might feel that nothing would be paid for it. The man came round, however, and after that her pleasure could only take the form of sitting as long as possible, to recover her money. This question had been settled, and two or three others, of a much weightier kind, had come up. At the moment we again participate in the conversation of the pair Millicent was leaning forward, earnest and attentive, with her hands clasped in her lap and her multitudinous silver bracelets tumbled forward upon her wrists. Her face, with its parted lips and eyes clouded to gentleness, wore an expression which Hyacinth had never seen there before and which caused him to say to her, “After all, dear Milly, you’re a good old fellow!”
Over an hour later, they were sitting under the big trees in Kensington Gardens, those scattered across the slope that gently rises from the water farthest from the old red palace. They had claimed a couple of the chairs set up for the part of the public that views a penny as no big deal, and Millicent, who often thought about such things, had speculated quite a bit about whether the person responsible for collecting that penny would come around to ask for it. Miss Henning liked to enjoy her pleasures for free, as well as watching others enjoy them, and even sitting in a penny chair meant more to her the less she felt she had to pay for it. However, the man did come around, so her enjoyment could now only be about sitting as long as possible to make up for her penny. This question had been settled, along with a couple of others that were even more significant. At the moment we step back into their conversation, Millicent was leaning forward, focused and attentive, with her hands clasped in her lap and her numerous silver bracelets tumbling forward on her wrists. Her face, with its slightly parted lips and gentle-eyed expression, wore a look that Hyacinth had never seen before, prompting him to say to her, “After all, dear Milly, you’re a good old friend!”
“Why did you never tell me before—years ago?” she asked.
“Why didn’t you ever tell me before—years ago?” she asked.
“It’s always soon enough to commit an imbecility! I don’t know why I tell you to-day, sitting here in a charming place, in balmy air, amid pleasing suggestions, without any reason or practical end. The story is hideous, and I have held my tongue for so long! It would have been an effort, an impossible effort, at any time, to do otherwise. Somehow, to-day it hasn’t been an effort; and indeed I have spoken just because the air is sweet, and the place ornamental, and the day a holiday, and your company exhilarating. All this has had the effect that an object has if you plunge it into a cup of water—the water overflows. Only in my case it’s not water, but a very foul liquid indeed. Excuse the bad odour!”
“It’s always too easy to do something foolish! I don’t know why I’m telling you this today, sitting here in this lovely spot, enjoying the nice weather, surrounded by pleasant distractions, without any specific reason or practical goal. The story is awful, and I’ve kept quiet for so long! It would have taken an effort, an impossible effort, at any time to do anything different. Somehow, today it hasn’t felt like an effort; in fact, I’ve spoken up just because the air is nice, the place is beautiful, the day is a holiday, and your company is refreshing. All this has caused a reaction similar to what happens when you put an object into a cup of water—the water spills over. Except in my case, it’s not water, but something truly unpleasant. Sorry about the bad smell!”
There had been a flush of excitement in Millicent’s face while she listened to what had gone before; it lingered there, and as a colour heightened by emotion is never unbecoming to a handsome woman, it enriched her exceptional expression. “I wouldn’t have been so rough with you,” she presently remarked.
There had been a rush of excitement in Millicent’s face as she listened to what had happened before; it stayed there, and since a flush brought on by emotion looks great on a beautiful woman, it enhanced her stunning expression. “I wouldn’t have treated you so harshly,” she said after a moment.
“My dear lass, this isn’t rough!” her companion exclaimed.
“My dear girl, this isn’t rough!” her friend exclaimed.
“You’re all of a tremble.” She put out her hand and laid it on his own, as if she had been a nurse feeling his pulse.
“You’re shaking all over.” She reached out and placed her hand on his, as if she were a nurse checking his pulse.
“Very likely. I’m a nervous little beast,” said Hyacinth.
“Probably. I’m a nervous little creature,” said Hyacinth.
“Any one would be nervous, to think of anything so awful. And when it’s yourself!” And the girl’s manner represented the dreadfulness of such a contingency. “You require sympathy,” she added, in a tone that made Hyacinth smile; the words sounded like a medical prescription.
“Anyone would be nervous thinking about something so terrible. And when it’s happening to you!” The girl’s demeanor captured the horror of such a situation. “You need sympathy,” she added, in a tone that made Hyacinth smile; her words sounded like a doctor's prescription.
“A tablespoonful every half-hour,” he rejoined, keeping her hand, which she was about to draw away.
“A tablespoon every half hour,” he replied, holding onto her hand, which she was about to pull back.
“You would have been nicer, too,” Millicent went on.
“You would have been nicer, too,” Millicent continued.
“How do you mean, I would have been nicer?”
“How do you mean, I should have been nicer?”
“Well, I like you now,” said Miss Henning. And this time she drew away her hand, as if, after such a speech, to recover her dignity.
“Well, I like you now,” said Miss Henning. And this time she pulled her hand back, as if to regain her dignity after saying that.
“It’s a pity I have always been so terribly under the influence of women,” Hyacinth murmured, folding his arms.
“It’s a shame I’ve always been so deeply influenced by women,” Hyacinth murmured, folding his arms.
He was surprised at the delicacy with which Millicent replied: “You must remember that they have a great deal to make up to you.”
He was surprised by the gentleness with which Millicent replied: “You have to remember that they have a lot to make up to you.”
“Do you mean for my mother? Ah, she would have made it up, if they had let her! But the sex in general have been very nice to me,” he continued. “It’s wonderful the kindness they have shown me, and the amount of pleasure I have derived from their society.”
“Are you talking about my mom? Ah, she would have figured it out if they had given her the chance! But overall, people have been really nice to me,” he added. “It’s amazing how kind they’ve been, and how much joy I’ve gotten from being around them.”
It would perhaps be inquiring too closely to consider whether this reference to sources of consolation other than those that sprang from her own bosom had an irritating effect on Millicent; at all events after a moment’s silence she answered it by asking, “Does she know—your trumpery Princess?”
It might be too much to ask if this mention of sources of comfort other than those that came from her own heart annoyed Millicent; in any case, after a brief silence, she responded by asking, “Does she know—your fake Princess?”
“Yes, but she doesn’t mind it.”
"Yeah, but she doesn’t care."
“That’s most uncommonly kind of her!” cried the girl, with a scornful laugh.
"That's really generous of her!" the girl exclaimed with a mocking laugh.
“It annoys me very much to hear you apply invidious epithets to her. You know nothing about her.”
“It really frustrates me to hear you use disrespectful names for her. You don’t know anything about her.”
“How do you know what I know, please?” Millicent asked this question with the habit of her natural pugnacity, but the next instant she dropped her voice, as if she remembered that she was in the presence of a great misfortune. “Hasn’t she treated you most shamefully, and you such a regular dear?”
“How do you know what I know, please?” Millicent asked this question with her usual stubbornness, but the next moment she lowered her voice, as if she realized she was in the presence of something serious. “Hasn’t she treated you incredibly badly, and you such a sweetheart?”
“Not in the least. It is I that, as you may say, have rounded on her. She made my acquaintance because I was interested in the same things as she was. Her interest has continued, has increased, but mine, for some reason or other, has declined. She has been consistent, and I have been fickle.”
“Not at all. I'm the one who turned away from her. She got to know me because we shared the same interests. Her interest has stayed strong and even grown, but for some reason, mine has faded. She's been steady, and I've been inconsistent.”
“Your interest has declined, in the Princess?” Millicent questioned, following imperfectly this somewhat complicated statement.
“Your interest in the Princess has faded?” Millicent asked, struggling to grasp this somewhat complicated statement.
“Oh dear, no. I mean only in some views that I used to have.”
“Oh no, not at all. I’m just talking about some perspectives I used to hold.”
“Ay, when you thought everything should go to the lowest! That’s a good job!” Miss Henning exclaimed, with an indulgent laugh, as if, after all, Hyacinth’s views and the changes in his views were not what was most important. “And your grand lady still holds for the costermongers?”
“Ay, when you thought everything should go to the lowest! That’s a great job!” Miss Henning said with a playful laugh, as if, after all, Hyacinth’s opinions and the changes in his opinions weren’t what really mattered. “And your fancy lady still supports the costermongers?”
“She wants to take hold of the great question of material misery; she wants to do something to make that misery less. I don’t care for her means, I don’t like her processes. But when I think of what there is to be done, and of the courage and devotion of those that set themselves to do it, it seems to me sometimes that with my reserves and scruples I’m a very poor creature.”
“She wants to tackle the big issue of material suffering; she wants to do something to alleviate that suffering. I don’t really care about her methods, and I don’t like her approach. But when I consider what needs to be done, and the bravery and dedication of those who strive to do it, I sometimes feel like my hesitations and concerns make me a very inadequate person.”
“You are a poor creature—to sit there and put such accusations on yourself!” the girl flashed out. “If you haven’t a spirit for yourself, I promise you I’ve got one for you! If she hasn’t chucked you over why in the name of common sense did you say just now that she has? And why is your dear old face as white as my stocking?”
“You are a pathetic person—to just sit there and blame yourself like that!” the girl exclaimed. “If you don’t have any self-respect, I swear I’ll lend you some! If she hasn’t abandoned you, then for heaven’s sake, why did you just say she has? And why is your face as pale as my white sock?”
Hyacinth looked at her awhile without answering, as if he took a placid pleasure in her violence. “I don’t know—I don’t understand.”
Hyacinth stared at her for a moment without responding, as if he found a calm enjoyment in her outburst. “I don’t know—I don’t understand.”
She put out her hand and took possession of his own; for a minute she held it, as if she wished to check herself, finding some influence in his touch that would help her. They sat in silence, looking at the ornamental water and the landscape-gardening beyond, which was reflected in it; until Millicent turned her eyes again upon her companion and remarked, “Well, that’s the way I’d have served him too!”
She reached out and took his hand; for a moment she held it, as if she wanted to pause and find some comfort in his touch. They sat in silence, gazing at the decorative water and the landscaped view beyond, which was mirrored in it; until Millicent turned her gaze back to her companion and said, “Well, that’s how I would have dealt with him too!”
It took him a moment to perceive that she was alluding to the vengeance wrought upon Lord Frederick. “Don’t speak of that; you’ll never again hear a word about it on my lips. It’s all darkness.”
It took him a moment to realize that she was referring to the revenge taken against Lord Frederick. “Don’t mention that; you’ll never hear me bring it up again. It’s all in the past.”
“I always knew you were a gentleman,” the girl went on.
“I always knew you were a gentleman,” the girl continued.
“A queer variety, cara mia,” her companion rejoined, not very candidly, as we know the theories he himself had cultivated on this point. “Of course you had heard poor Pinnie’s incurable indiscretions. They used to exasperate me when she was alive, but I forgive her now. It’s time I should, when I begin to talk myself. I think I’m breaking up.”
“A strange kind, cara mia,” her companion replied, not being very honest, considering the views he had developed on this topic himself. “Of course, you had heard about poor Pinnie’s endless mistakes. They used to drive me crazy when she was alive, but I forgive her now. It’s time I should, especially since I’m starting to ramble myself. I think I’m falling apart.”
“Oh, it wasn’t Miss Pynsent; it was just yourself.”
“Oh, it wasn’t Miss Pynsent; it was just you.”
“Pray, what did I ever say, in those days?”
“Seriously, what did I even say back then?”
“It wasn’t what you said,” Millicent answered, with refinement. “I guessed the whole business—except, of course, what she got her time for, and you being taken to that death-bed—that day I came back to the Place. Couldn’t you see I was turning it over? And did I ever throw it up at you, whatever high words we might have had? Therefore what I say now is no more than I thought then; it only makes you nicer.”
“It wasn’t what you said,” Millicent replied, gracefully. “I understood the whole thing—except, of course, what she was in trouble for, and you being brought to that deathbed—that day I came back to the Place. Couldn’t you see I was thinking it through? And did I ever bring it up to you, no matter what intense conversations we might have had? So what I’m saying now is just what I thought then; it just makes you look better.”
She was crude, she was common, she even had the vice of unskillful exaggeration, for he himself honestly could not understand how the situation he had described could make him nicer. But when the faculty of affection that was in her rose, as it were, to the surface, it diffused a sense of rest, almost of protection, deepening, at any rate, the luxury of the balmy holiday, the interlude in the grind of the week’s work; so that, though neither of them had dined, Hyacinth would have been delighted to sit with her there the whole afternoon. It seemed a pause in something bitter that was happening to him, making it stop awhile or pushing it off to a distance. His thoughts hovered about that with a pertinacity of which they themselves were weary; but they regarded it now with a kind of wounded indifference. It would be too much, no doubt, to say that Millicent’s society appeared a compensation, but it seemed at least a resource. She too, evidently, was highly content; she made no proposal to retrace their steps. She interrogated him about his father’s family, and whether they were going to let him go on like that always, without ever holding out so much as a little finger to him; and she declared, in a manner that was meant to gratify him by the indignation it conveyed, though the awkwardness of the turn made him smile, that if she were one of them she couldn’t ‘abear’ the thought of a relation of hers being in such a poor way. Hyacinth already knew what Miss Henning thought of his business at old Crookenden’s and of the feebleness of a young man of his parts contenting himself with a career which was after all a mere getting of one’s living by one’s ’ands. He had to do with books; but so had any shop-boy who should carry such articles to the residence of purchasers; and plainly Millicent had never discovered wherein the art he practised differed from that of a plumber, a glazier. He had not forgotten the shock he once administered to her by letting her know that he wore an apron; she looked down on such conditions from the summit of her own intellectual profession, for she wore mantles and jackets and shawls, and the long trains of robes exhibited in the window on dummies of wire and taken down to be transferred to her own undulating person, and had never a scrap to do with making them up, but just with talking about them and showing them off, and persuading people of their beauty and cheapness. It had been a source of endless comfort to her, in her arduous evolution, that she herself never worked with her ’ands. Hyacinth answered her inquiries, as she had answered his own of old, by asking her what those people owed to the son of a person who had brought murder and mourning into their bright sublimities, and whether she thought he was very highly recommended to them. His question made her reflect for a moment; after which she returned, with the finest spirit, “Well, if your position was so miserable, ain’t that all the more reason they should give you a lift? Oh, it’s something cruel!” she cried; and she added that in his place she would have found a way to bring herself under their notice. She wouldn’t have drudged out her life in Soho if she had had gentlefolks’ blood in her veins! “If they had noticed you they would have liked you,” she was so good as to observe; but she immediately remembered, also, that in that case he would have been carried away quite over her head. She was not prepared to say that she would have given him up, little good as she had ever got of him. In that case he would have been thick with real swells, and she emphasised the ‘real’ by way of a thrust at the fine lady of Madeira Crescent—an artifice which was wasted, however, inasmuch as Hyacinth was sure she had extracted from Sholto a tolerably detailed history of the personage in question. Millicent was tender and tenderly sportive, and he was struck with the fact that his base birth really made little impression upon her; she accounted it an accident much less grave than he had been in the habit of doing. She was touched and moved; but what moved her was his story of his mother’s dreadful revenge, her long imprisonment and his childish visit to the jail, with the later discovery of his peculiar footing in the world. These things produced a generous agitation—something the same in kind as the impressions she had occasionally derived from the perusal of the Family Herald. What affected her most, and what she came back to, was the whole element of Lord Frederick and the misery of Hyacinth’s having got so little good out of his affiliation to that nobleman. She couldn’t get over his friends not having done something, though her imagination was still vague as to what they might have done. It was the queerest thing in the world, to Hyacinth, to find her apparently assuming that if he had not been so inefficient he might have ‘worked’ the whole dark episode as a source of distinction, of glory. She wouldn’t have been a nobleman’s daughter for nothing! Oh, the left hand was as good as the right; her respectability, for the moment, didn’t care for that! His long silence was what most astonished her; it put her out of patience, and there was a strange candour in her wonderment at his not having bragged about his grand relations. They had become vivid and concrete to her now, in comparison with the timid shadows that Pinnie had set into spasmodic circulation. Millicent bumped about in the hushed past of her companion with the oddest mixture of sympathy and criticism, and with good intentions which had the effect of profane voices holloaing for echoes.
She was rough around the edges, ordinary, even had a tendency to exaggerate clumsily, since he honestly couldn’t see how the situation he described could make him a better person. But when her ability to show affection emerged, it created a feeling of comfort, almost a sense of protection, enhancing the ease of the relaxing holiday, serving as a break from the daily grind of the week’s work; so that, even though neither of them had eaten, Hyacinth would have been happy to spend the whole afternoon with her. It felt like a pause in something bitter happening to him, making it stop for a while or pushing it away. His thoughts lingered on that, and they were tired of it themselves; yet they looked at it now with a level of wounded indifference. It might be too much to say that Millicent’s company was a compensation, but it definitely felt like a fallback. She, too, was clearly very pleased; she didn’t suggest they leave. She asked him about his father’s family and whether they were really going to leave him in that situation forever, without even offering a little help; and she said, in a way that was meant to make him feel good due to the indignation it expressed, albeit in an awkward manner that made him smile, that if she were in their position she couldn’t stand the thought of one of her relatives being in such a poor situation. Hyacinth already knew what Miss Henning thought of his job at old Crookenden’s and how weak it seemed for a young man like him to be content with a career that was basically just getting by with manual work. He dealt with books; but so did any shop assistant who delivered them to customers’ houses; and clearly, Millicent had never realized how the art he practiced was different from that of a plumber or a glazier. He hadn’t forgotten the shock he gave her when he told her he wore an apron; she looked down on that kind of work from the height of her own intellectual profession, because she wore fancy clothes, and the long trains of dresses displayed in store windows were taken down to be fitted on her own graceful self, and she never had to actually make them but just talked about them, showcased them, and convinced people of their beauty and affordability. It had been a great comfort to her, during her difficult journey, that she never worked with her hands. Hyacinth answered her questions, just as she had answered his in the past, by asking her what those people owed the son of someone who had brought murder and grief into their bright lives, and whether she thought he was highly regarded by them. His question made her pause for a moment; then she responded, with great spirit, “Well, if your situation is so miserable, isn’t that even more reason for them to help you? Oh, that’s just cruel!” she exclaimed; and she added that if she were in his place, she would have found a way to get their attention. She wouldn’t have just worked her life away in Soho if she had noble blood! “If they had noticed you, they would have liked you,” she generously noted; but then she immediately realized that in that case, he would have been swept away and beyond her reach. She wasn’t ready to say she would have given him up, little good as she had ever gained from him. In that scenario, he would have been associated with real high society, and she emphasized “real” to throw shade at the refined woman from Madeira Crescent—an attempt that didn’t quite hit the mark, since Hyacinth was sure she had gotten a fairly detailed backstory on that woman from Sholto. Millicent was both caring and playfully teasing, and he was struck by how little his lower birth seemed to affect her; she viewed it as a minor detail, far less serious than he had typically thought. She was touched and moved; but what truly affected her was the story of his mother’s cruel revenge, her long imprisonment, and his childhood visits to the jail, along with the later realization of his unique status in the world. These tales stirred a generous emotion in her—similar to the feelings she sometimes got from reading the Family Herald. What struck her most, and what she kept returning to, was the whole matter of Lord Frederick and Hyacinth’s disappointment in having gained so little from his connection to that nobleman. She couldn’t fathom why his friends hadn’t done anything, although her imagination was still unclear about what they could have done. It was the strangest thing for Hyacinth to see her seemingly believing that if he had been more capable, he could have turned that entire dark chapter into a source of distinction and glory. She wouldn’t have been a nobleman’s daughter for nothing! Oh, the left hand was just as good as the right; for that moment, her respectability didn’t mind! His prolonged silence was what most surprised her; it made her impatient, and there was an unusual honesty in her astonishment that he hadn’t bragged about his prestigious relatives. They had become vivid and real to her now, contrasting sharply with the vague shadows that Pinnie had occasionally created. Millicent wandered through her companion’s quiet past with the oddest mix of sympathy and critique, filled with good intentions that echoed like loud voices seeking responses.
“Me only—me and her? Certainly, I ought to be obliged, even though it is late in the day. The first time you saw her I suppose you told her—that night you went into her box at the theatre, eh? She’d have worse to tell you, I’m sure, if she could ever bring herself to speak the truth. And do you mean to say you never broke it to your big friend in the chemical line?”
“Just me—me and her? Of course, I should be thankful, even if it’s late. The first time you saw her, I guess you told her—that night you visited her box at the theater, right? She’d have even more to share with you, I’m sure, if she could ever bring herself to be honest. And are you saying you never mentioned it to your big friend in the chemistry field?”
“No, we have never talked about it.”
“No, we’ve never talked about it.”
“Men are rare creatures!” Millicent cried. “You never so much as mentioned it?”
“Men are such a rare species!” Millicent exclaimed. “You never even brought it up?”
“It wasn’t necessary. He knew it otherwise—he knew it through his sister.”
“It wasn’t needed. He understood it differently—he understood it through his sister.”
“How do you know that, if he never spoke?”
“How do you know that if he never talked?”
“Oh, because he was jolly good to me,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, because he was really good to me,” said Hyacinth.
“Well, I don’t suppose that ruined him,” Miss Henning rejoined. “And how did his sister know it?”
“Well, I don't think that messed him up,” Miss Henning replied. “And how did his sister find out?”
“Oh, I don’t know; she guessed it.”
“Oh, I don’t know; she figured it out.”
Millicent stared. “It was none of her business.” Then she added, “He was jolly good to you? Ain’t he good to you now?” She asked this question in her loud, free voice, which rang through the bright stillness of the place.
Millicent stared. “It’s none of her business.” Then she added, “He was really good to you? Isn’t he good to you now?” She asked this in her loud, clear voice, which echoed through the bright stillness of the place.
Hyacinth delayed for a minute to answer her, and when at last he did so it was without looking at her: “I don’t know; I can’t make it out.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment before responding to her, and when he finally did, he didn’t look at her: “I don’t know; I just can’t figure it out.”
“Well, I can, then!” And Millicent jerked him round toward her and inspected him with her big bright eyes. “You silly baby, has he been serving you?” She pressed her question upon him; she asked if that was what disagreed with him. His lips gave her no answer, but apparently, after an instant, she found one in his face. “Has he been making up to her ladyship—is that his game?” she broke out. “Do you mean to say she’d look at the likes of him?”
“Well, I can, then!” Millicent exclaimed as she turned him to face her, examining him with her big, bright eyes. “You silly baby, has he been taking care of you?” She pressed for an answer, asking if that was what was bothering him. His lips didn’t respond, but after a moment, she seemed to read something in his expression. “Has he been trying to win over her ladyship—is that his angle?” she burst out. “Are you really saying she’d pay any attention to someone like him?”
“The likes of him? He’s as fine a man as stands!” said Hyacinth. “They have the same views, they are doing the same work.”
“The likes of him? He’s as good a man as there is!” said Hyacinth. “They share the same opinions, and they’re doing the same kind of work.”
“Oh, he hasn’t changed his opinions, then—not like you?”
“Oh, he hasn’t changed his opinions, then—not like you?”
“No, he knows what he wants; he knows what he thinks.”
“No, he knows what he wants; he knows what he thinks.”
“Very much the same work, I’ll be bound!” cried Millicent, in large derision. “He knows what he wants, and I dare say he’ll get it.”
“It's pretty much the same thing, I bet!” Millicent exclaimed, full of mocking laughter. “He knows what he wants, and I'm sure he'll get it.”
Hyacinth got up, turning away from her; but she also rose, and passed her hand into his arm. “It’s their own business; they can do as they please.”
Hyacinth got up, turning away from her; but she also stood up and slipped her hand into his arm. “It’s their own business; they can do what they want.”
“Oh, don’t try to be a saint; you put me out of patience!” the girl responded, with characteristic energy. “They’re a precious pair, and it would do me good to hear you say so.”
“Oh, don’t act like you’re so perfect; you’re testing my patience!” the girl replied, with her usual energy. “They’re a great couple, and it would really lift my spirits to hear you say that.”
“A man shouldn’t turn against his friends,” Hyacinth went on, with desperate sententiousness.
“A man shouldn’t betray his friends,” Hyacinth continued, with desperate seriousness.
“That’s for them to remember; there’s no danger of your forgetting it.” They had begun to walk, but she stopped him; she was suddenly smiling at him, and her face was radiant. She went on, with caressing inconsequence: “All that you have told me—it has made you nicer.”
“That’s for them to remember; there’s no way you’ll forget it.” They had started walking, but she stopped him; she was suddenly smiling at him, and her face was glowing. She continued, with a playful tone: “Everything you’ve told me—it has made you nicer.”
“I don’t see that, but it has certainly made you so. My dear girl, you’re a comfort,” Hyacinth added, as they strolled on again.
“I don’t see that, but it has definitely made you so. My dear girl, you’re a comfort,” Hyacinth added, as they walked on again.
XLII
He had no intention of going in the evening to Madeira Crescent, and that is why he asked his companion, before they separated, if he might not see her again, after tea. The evenings were bitter to him now, and he feared them in advance. The darkness had become a haunted element; it had visions for him that passed even before his closed eyes—sharp doubts and fears and suspicions, suggestions of evil, revelations of suffering. He wanted company, to light up his gloom, and this had driven him back to Millicent, in a manner not altogether consistent with the respect which it was still his theory that he owed to his nobler part. He felt no longer free to drop in at the Crescent, and tried to persuade himself, in case his mistrust should be overdone, that his reasons were reasons of magnanimity. If Paul Muniment were seriously occupied with the Princess, if they had work in hand for which their most earnest attention was required (and Sunday was very likely to be the day they would take: they had spent so much of the previous Sunday together), it would be delicate on his part to stay away, to leave his friend a clear field. There was something inexpressibly representative to him in the way that friend had abruptly decided to re-enter the house, after pausing outside with its mistress, at the moment he himself stood peering through the fog with the Prince. The movement repeated itself innumerable times, to his moral perception, suggesting to him things that he couldn’t bear to learn. Hyacinth was afraid of being jealous, even after he had become so, and to prove to himself that he was not he had gone to see the Princess one evening in the middle of the week. Hadn’t he wanted Paul to know her, months and months before, and now was he to entertain a vile feeling at the first manifestation of an intimacy which rested, in each party to it, upon aspirations that he respected? The Princess had not been at home, and he had turned away from the door without asking for Madame Grandoni; he had not forgotten that on the occasion of his previous visit she had excused herself from remaining in the drawing-room. After the little maid in the Crescent had told him the Princess was out he walked away with a quick curiosity—a curiosity which, if he had listened to it, would have led him to mount upon the first omnibus that travelled in the direction of Camberwell. Was Paul Muniment, who was such a rare one, in general, for stopping at home of an evening—was he also out, and would Rosy, in this case, be in the humour to mention (for of course she would know) where he had gone? Hyacinth let the omnibus pass, for he suddenly became aware, with a throb of horror, that he was in danger of playing the spy. He had not been near Muniment since, on purpose to leave his curiosity unsatisfied. He allowed himself however to notice that the Princess had now not written him a word of consolation, as she had been so kind as to do once or twice before when he had knocked at her door without finding her. At present he had missed her twice in succession, and yet she had given no sign of regret—regret even on his own behalf. This determined him to stay away awhile longer; it was such a proof that she was absorbingly occupied. Hyacinth’s glimpse of the Princess in earnest conversation with Muniment as they returned from the excursion described by the Prince, his memory of Paul’s relenting figure crossing the threshold once more, could leave him no doubt as to the degree of that absorption.
He didn't plan to go to Madeira Crescent in the evening, which is why he asked his companion, before they parted ways, if he could see her again after tea. Evenings felt bitter to him now, and he dreaded them in advance. The darkness had turned into something haunting; it brought him visions that flashed before his closed eyes—sharp doubts, fears, and suspicions, suggestions of evil, and glimpses of suffering. He craved company to lift his gloom, and this need pushed him back toward Millicent, in a way that wasn’t entirely respectful of his nobler self he believed he should uphold. He no longer felt free to drop in at the Crescent and tried to convince himself that, if his mistrust was excessive, his reasons were ones of generosity. If Paul Muniment was deeply involved with the Princess and they had important work that needed their full attention (and Sunday was likely the day they’d take for it, considering how much time they spent together last Sunday), it would be considerate for him to stay away, giving his friend some space. There was something profoundly symbolic to him in how that friend had suddenly chosen to go back inside after pausing outside with its mistress, right when he stood there peering through the fog with the Prince. That scene played out in his mind countless times, suggesting truths he couldn’t bear to confront. Hyacinth was scared of feeling jealous, even after he had become so, and to prove to himself that he wasn’t, he visited the Princess one evening during the week. Hadn’t he wanted Paul to know her months ago? Now, was he really going to feel bad at the first hint of an intimacy based on aspirations he respected? The Princess wasn’t home, and he left without asking for Madame Grandoni, remembering that during his last visit, she had excused herself from the drawing-room. When the little maid at the Crescent told him the Princess was out, he walked away, driven by a quick curiosity—one that, if he had listened to it, would have pushed him to catch the first bus heading to Camberwell. Was Paul Muniment, who usually didn’t stay home in the evenings, out too? Would Rosy, in that case, be in the mood to tell him (since she surely would know) where he had gone? Hyacinth let the bus pass by, suddenly realizing with a jolt of dread that he was in danger of acting like a spy. He hadn’t seen Muniment since, intentionally leaving his curiosity unfulfilled. However, he couldn’t help but notice that the Princess hadn’t sent him a word of comfort, as she had kindly done once or twice before when he had knocked on her door without finding her. Now he had missed her twice in a row, and still, she showed no sign of regret—regret even for him. This convinced him to stay away a bit longer; it seemed clear evidence that she was deeply occupied. Hyacinth’s memory of seeing the Princess in serious conversation with Muniment as they returned from an outing the Prince had described, along with his recollection of Paul’s yielding figure crossing the threshold again, left no doubt in his mind about the depth of that engagement.
Millicent hesitated when Hyacinth proposed to her that they should finish the day together. She smiled, and her splendid eyes rested on his with an air of indulgent interrogation; they seemed to ask whether it were worth her while, in face of his probable incredulity, to mention the real reason why she could not have the pleasure of acceding to his delightful suggestion. Since he would be sure to deride her explanation, would not some trumped-up excuse do as well, since he could knock that about without hurting her? I know not exactly in what sense Miss Henning decided; but she confessed at last that there was an odious obstacle to their meeting again later—a promise she had made to go and see a young lady, the forewoman of her department, who was kept in-doors with a bad face, and nothing in life to help her pass the time. She was under a pledge to spend the evening with her, and it was not her way to disappoint an expectation. Hyacinth made no comment on this speech; he received it in silence, looking at the girl gloomily.
Millicent paused when Hyacinth suggested they spend the rest of the day together. She smiled, and her beautiful eyes met his with an expression that seemed to ask if it was worth her time to share the true reason she couldn’t accept his wonderful offer, knowing he would probably ridicule her explanation. Wouldn’t a made-up excuse work just as well, since he could dismiss that without hurting her feelings? I’m not sure how Miss Henning ultimately decided, but she eventually admitted that there was indeed a bothersome reason for not being able to meet up later—a promise she made to visit a young woman, the forewoman of her department, who was stuck at home with a serious condition and had nothing to keep her occupied. She had pledged to spend the evening with her, and disappointing someone was not her style. Hyacinth didn’t respond to her statement; he listened in silence, looking at her with a gloomy expression.
“I know what’s passing in your mind!” Millicent suddenly broke out. “Why don’t you say it at once, and give me a chance to contradict it? I oughtn’t to care, but I do care!”
“I know what you're thinking!” Millicent suddenly exclaimed. “Why don’t you just say it and give me a chance to disagree? I shouldn't care, but I do care!”
“Stop, stop—don’t let us fight!” Hyacinth spoke in a tone of pleading weariness; she had never heard just that accent before.
“Stop, stop—don't let us fight!” Hyacinth said with a weariness that pleaded; she had never heard that tone before.
Millicent considered a moment. “I’ve a mind to play her false. She is a real lady, highly connected, and the best friend I have—I don’t count men,” the girl interpolated, smiling—“and there isn’t one in the world I’d do such a thing for but you.”
Millicent paused for a moment. “I’m thinking about deceiving her. She’s a true lady, well-connected, and my closest friend—I don’t count guys,” the girl added with a smile—“and there’s no one else in the world I’d ever do something like that for except you.”
“No, keep your promise; don’t play any one false,” said Hyacinth.
“No, keep your promise; don't deceive anyone,” said Hyacinth.
“Well, you are a gentleman!” Miss Henning murmured, with a sweetness that her voice occasionally took.
“Well, you are a gentleman!” Miss Henning murmured, with a sweetness that her voice occasionally had.
“Especially—” Hyacinth began; but he suddenly stopped.
“Especially—” Hyacinth started, but he suddenly paused.
“Especially what? Something impudent, I’ll engage! Especially as you don’t believe me?”
“Especially what? Something rude? I’ll take that on! Especially since you don’t believe me?”
“Oh, no! Don’t let’s fight!” he repeated.
“Oh no! Let’s not fight!” he said again.
“Fight, my darling? I’d fight for you!” Miss Henning declared.
“Fight, my darling? I’d fight for you!” Miss Henning declared.
Hyacinth offered himself, after tea, the choice between a visit to Lady Aurora and a pilgrimage to Lisson Grove. He was in a little doubt about the former experiment, having an idea that her ladyship’s family might have returned to Belgrave Square. He reflected, however, that he could not recognise that as a reason for not going to see her; his relations with her were not clandestine, and she had given him the kindest general invitation. If her august progenitors were at home she was probably at dinner with them; he would take that risk. He had taken it before, without disastrous results. He was determined not to spend the evening alone, and he would keep the Poupins as a more substantial alternative, in case her ladyship should not be able to receive him.
Hyacinth gave himself a choice after tea: a visit to Lady Aurora or a trip to Lisson Grove. He was a bit unsure about the first option, thinking her family might have returned to Belgrave Square. However, he realized he couldn’t use that as an excuse not to see her; his relationship with her wasn’t a secret, and she had extended the kindest general invitation. If her distinguished parents were home, she was likely having dinner with them; he would take that chance. He had done it before without any major issues. He was determined not to spend the evening alone and would keep the Poupins as a more reliable backup in case Lady Aurora couldn’t see him.
As soon as the great portal in Belgrave Square was drawn open before him, he perceived that the house was occupied and animated—if the latter term might properly be applied to a place which had hitherto given Hyacinth the impression of a magnificent mausoleum. It was pervaded by subdued light and tall domestics; Hyacinth found himself looking down a kind of colonnade of colossal footmen, an array more imposing even than the retinue of the Princess at Medley. His inquiry died away on his lips, and he stood there struggling with dumbness. It was manifest to him that some high festival was taking place, at which his presence could only be deeply irrelevant; and when a large official, out of livery, bending over him for a voice that faltered, suggested, not unencouragingly, that it might be Lady Aurora he wished to see, he replied in a low, melancholy accent, “Yes, yes, but it can’t be possible!” The butler took no pains to controvert this proposition verbally; he merely turned round, with a majestic air of leading the way, and as at the same moment two of the footmen closed the wings of the door behind the visitor, Hyacinth judged that it was his cue to follow him. In this manner, after traversing a passage where, in the perfect silence of the servants, he heard the shorter click of his plebeian shoes upon a marble floor, he found himself ushered into a small apartment, lighted by a veiled lamp, which, when he had been left there alone, without further remark on the part of his conductor, he recognised as the scene—only now more amply decorated—of one of his former interviews. Lady Aurora kept him waiting a few moments, and then fluttered in with an anxious, incoherent apology. The same transformation had taken place in her own appearance as in the aspect of her parental halls: she had on a light-coloured, crumpled-looking, faintly-rustling dress; her head was adorned with a kind of languid plume, terminating in little pink tips; and in her hand she carried a pair of white gloves. All her repressed eagerness was in her face, and she smiled as if she wished to anticipate any scruples or embarrassments on the part of her visitor; frankly recognising the brilliancy of her attire and the startling implications it might convey. Hyacinth said to her that, no doubt, on perceiving her family had returned to town, he ought to have backed out; he knew that must make a difference in her life. But he had been marched in, in spite of himself, and now it was clear that he had interrupted her at dinner. She answered that no one who asked for her at any hour was ever turned away; she had managed to arrange that, and she was very happy in her success. She didn’t usually dine—there were so many of them, and it took so long. Most of her friends couldn’t come at visiting-hours, and it wouldn’t be right that she shouldn’t ever receive them. On that occasion she had been dining, but it was all over; she was only sitting there because she was going to a party. Her parents were dining out, and she was just in the drawing-room with some of her sisters. When they were alone it wasn’t so long, though it was rather long afterwards, when they went up again. It wasn’t time yet: the carriage wouldn’t come for nearly half an hour. She hadn’t been to an evening thing for months and months, but—didn’t he know?—one sometimes had to do it. Lady Aurora expressed the idea that one ought to be fair all round and that one’s duties were not all of the same species; some of them would come up from time to time that were quite different from the others. Of course it wasn’t just, unless one did all, and that was why she was in for something to-night. It was nothing of consequence; only the family meeting the family, as they might do of a Sunday, at one of their houses. It was there that papa and mamma were dining. Since they had given her that room for any hour she wanted (it was really tremendously convenient), she had determined to do a party now and then, like a respectable young woman, because it pleased them—though why it should, to see her at a place, was more than she could imagine. She supposed it was because it would perhaps keep some people, a little, from thinking she was mad and not safe to be at large—which was of course a sort of thing that people didn’t like to have thought of their belongings. Lady Aurora explained and expatiated with a kind of nervous superabundance; she talked more continuously than Hyacinth had ever heard her do before, and the young man saw that she was not in her natural equilibrium. He thought it scarcely probable that she was excited by the simple prospect of again dipping into the great world she had forsworn, and he presently perceived that he himself had an agitating effect upon her. His senses were fine enough to make him feel that he revived certain associations and quickened certain wounds. She suddenly stopped talking, and the two sat there looking at each other, in a kind of occult community of suffering. Hyacinth made several mechanical remarks, explaining, insufficiently, why he had come, and in the course of a very few moments, quite independently of these observations, it seemed to him that there was a deeper, a measurelessly deep, confidence between them. A tacit confession passed and repassed, and each understood the situation of the other. They wouldn’t speak of it—it was very definite that they would never do that; for there was something in their common consciousness that was inconsistent with the grossness of accusation. Besides, the grievance of each was an apprehension, an instinct of the soul—not a sharp, definite wrong, supported by proof. It was in the air and in their restless pulses, and not in anything that they could exhibit or complain of. Strange enough it seemed to Hyacinth that the history of each should be the counterpart of that of the other. What had each done but lose that which he or she had never had? Things had gone ill with them; but even if they had gone well, if the Princess had not combined with his friend in that manner which made his heart sink and produced an effect exactly corresponding upon that of Lady Aurora—even in this case what would prosperity, what would success, have amounted to? They would have been very barren. He was sure the singular creature before him would never have had a chance to take the unprecedented social step for the sake of which she was ready to go forth from Belgrave Square for ever; Hyacinth had judged the smallness of Paul Muniment’s appetite for that complication sufficiently to have begun really to pity her ladyship long ago. And now, even when he most felt the sweetness of her sympathy, he might wonder what she could have imagined for him in the event of his not having been supplanted—what security, what completer promotion, what honourable, satisfying sequel. They were unhappy because they were unhappy, and they were right not to rail about that.
As soon as the great door in Belgrave Square swung open for him, he noticed that the house was busy and lively—if that could be said about a place that had previously given Hyacinth the impression of an impressive mausoleum. It was filled with dim light and tall servants; Hyacinth found himself looking down a sort of colonnade of towering footmen, a display even more impressive than the entourage of the Princess at Medley. His question faded on his lips, and he stood there, struggling with silence. It was clear to him that some grand celebration was happening, where his presence was definitely out of place; and when a large butler, out of uniform, leaned over to him with a shaky voice and suggested, not without encouragement, that he might want to see Lady Aurora, he replied in a low, somber tone, “Yes, yes, but that can't be right!” The butler didn’t bother to argue with him; he simply turned with an air of grandeur to lead the way, and as two footmen closed the door behind Hyacinth, he felt it was his moment to follow. In this way, after walking through a passage where, in the perfect silence of the staff, he heard the soft click of his common shoes on the marble floor, he found himself brought into a small room, lit by a shaded lamp, which, once alone, he recognized as the place—now more elaborately decorated—where he had previously met Lady Aurora. She made him wait a few moments, then breezed in with an anxious, confusing apology. The same change had happened to her appearance as to her family’s home: she wore a light, wrinkled dress that softly rustled; her hair was topped with a languid plume that ended in little pink tips; and she held a pair of white gloves. All her pent-up eagerness showed on her face, and she smiled as if trying to preempt any hesitations or awkwardness from her visitor; she openly acknowledged the brilliance of her outfit and the unexpected messages it might send. Hyacinth told her that he should have backed out when he realized her family had returned to town; he knew that made a difference in her life. But he had been ushered in against his will, and now it was clear that he had interrupted her dinner. She replied that anyone who asked for her at any time was never turned away; she had made arrangements for that, and she was very pleased with her success. She didn’t usually dine—there were so many of them, and it took too long. Most of her friends couldn’t visit during usual hours, and it wouldn’t be fair for her not to see them. On this occasion, she had been dining, but it was all over now; she was just sitting there because she was going to a party. Her parents were dining out, and she was in the drawing-room with some of her sisters. When they were alone, it wasn’t so long, though it felt longer afterwards when they went up again. It wasn’t time yet: the carriage wouldn’t arrive for almost half an hour. She hadn’t been to an evening event for months, but—didn’t he know?—sometimes one had to go. Lady Aurora expressed the idea that fairness was important and that not all duties were the same; some emerged now and then that were quite different from others. Of course, it wasn’t just, unless one did everything, which was why she was attending something tonight. It was nothing significant; just family meeting family, like they might do on a Sunday, at one of their houses. That’s where her parents were dining. Since they had given her that room whenever she needed it (which was really very convenient), she decided to host a party now and then, like a respectable young woman, because it made them happy—though why it should, to see her at a gathering, was beyond her understanding. She presumed it was to perhaps keep some people from thinking she was crazy and unsafe to be out—something that people didn’t like to think about their loved ones. Lady Aurora explained herself with a kind of nervous energy; she talked more continuously than Hyacinth had ever heard her do before, and he could see that she wasn’t quite herself. He thought it unlikely that she was just excited about returning to the high society she had turned her back on, and he soon realized that he had a stirring effect on her. He was sensitive enough to feel that he brought up certain memories and reopened certain wounds. She suddenly stopped talking, and they sat there looking at each other, sharing an unspoken bond of suffering. Hyacinth made several mechanical comments, insufficiently explaining why he had come, and in just a few moments, quite apart from these remarks, it seemed to him that there was a deeper, immeasurable trust between them. A silent understanding passed between them, and each recognized the situation of the other. They wouldn’t speak of it—it was clear they would never do that; for there was something in their shared awareness that was inconsistent with blatant accusations. Moreover, each person’s grievance was a fear, an instinct of the soul—not a sharp, clear wrong, supported by evidence. It was in the atmosphere and in their restless hearts, and not in anything they could show or complain about. It struck Hyacinth as strange that each of their histories mirrored the other’s. What had either of them done but lose what they never truly had? Things had not gone well for them; but even if they had, if the Princess hadn’t allied with his friend in a way that made his heart sink and had a perfectly corresponding effect on Lady Aurora—even then, what would success have really meant? It would have been empty. He was sure that the remarkable woman before him would never have had the opportunity to take the unprecedented social step for which she was willing to leave Belgrave Square for good; Hyacinth had assessed the limited ambitions of Paul Muniment well enough to genuinely pity her long ago. And now, even at the moment when he felt her sympathy most sweetly, he might wonder what she could have envisioned for him had he not been displaced—what stability, what greater recognition, what worthy, fulfilling outcome. They were unhappy simply because they were unhappy, and they were right not to complain about it.
“Oh, I like to see you—I like to talk with you,” said Lady Aurora, simply. They talked for a quarter of an hour, and he made her such a visit as any gentleman might have made to any lady. They exchanged remarks about the lateness of the spring, about the loan-exhibition at Burlington House—which Hyacinth had paid his shilling to see—about the question of opening the museums on Sunday, about the danger of too much coddling legislation on behalf of the working-classes. He declared that it gave him great pleasure to see any sign of her amusing herself; it was unnatural never to do that, and he hoped that now she had taken a turn she would keep it up. At this she looked down, smiling, at her frugal finery, and then she replied, “I dare say I shall begin to go to balls—who knows?”
“Oh, I enjoy seeing you—I enjoy talking with you,” Lady Aurora said simply. They chatted for about fifteen minutes, and he paid her a visit just like any gentleman would for any lady. They talked about the late arrival of spring, the loan exhibition at Burlington House—which Hyacinth had paid a shilling to see—discussed the issue of opening museums on Sundays, and the risks of too much protective legislation for the working class. He expressed how happy it made him to see her having fun; it was unnatural not to, and he hoped that now she had started, she would keep it going. At this, she looked down, smiling at her modest dress, and replied, “I suppose I might start going to balls—who knows?”
“That’s what our friends in Audley Court think, you know—that it’s the worst mistake you can make, not to drink deep of the cup while you have it.”
"That’s what our friends in Audley Court believe, you know—that it’s the biggest mistake you can make, not to fully enjoy the moment while you have it."
“Oh, I’ll do it, then—I’ll do it for them!” Lady Aurora exclaimed. “I dare say that, as regards all that, I haven’t listened to them enough.” This was the only allusion that passed on the subject of the Muniments.
“Oh, I’ll do it, then—I’ll do it for them!” Lady Aurora exclaimed. “I think that, when it comes to all that, I haven’t listened to them enough.” This was the only mention that was made about the Muniments.
Hyacinth got up—he had stayed long enough, as she was going out; and as he held out his hand to her she seemed to him a heroine. She would try to cultivate the pleasures of her class if the brother and sister in Camberwell thought it right—try even to be a woman of fashion in order to console herself. Paul Muniment didn’t care for her, but she was capable of considering that it might be her duty to regulate her life by the very advice that made an abyss between them. Hyacinth didn’t believe in the success of this attempt; there passed before his imagination a picture of the poor lady coming home and pulling off her feathers for ever, after an evening spent in watching the agitation of a ball-room from the outer edge of the circle, with a white, irresponsive face. “Let us eat and drink, for to-morrow we die,” he said, laughing.
Hyacinth got up—he had stayed long enough since she was about to leave; and as he reached out his hand to her, she seemed like a heroine to him. She would try to embrace the pleasures of her social class if her brother and sister in Camberwell thought it was right—she might even try to be a fashionable woman to console herself. Paul Muniment didn’t care about her, but she was capable of thinking that it might be her duty to live by the very advice that created a gap between them. Hyacinth didn’t believe this attempt would succeed; a scene flashed through his mind of the poor woman returning home and taking off her feathers forever after spending a night watching the chaos of a ballroom from the edge, with a blank, unresponsive face. “Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we die,” he said, laughing.
“Oh, I don’t mind dying.”
"Oh, I don't mind death."
“I think I do,” Hyacinth declared, as he turned away. There had been no mention whatever of the Princess.
“I think I do,” Hyacinth said, as he turned away. There had been no mention of the Princess at all.
It was early enough in the evening for him to risk a visit to Lisson Grove; he calculated that the Poupins would still be sitting up. When he reached their house he found this calculation justified; the brilliancy of the light in the window appeared to announce that Madame was holding a salon. He ascended to this apartment without delay (it was free to a visitor to open the house-door himself), and, having knocked, obeyed the hostess’s invitation to enter. Poupin and his wife were seated, with a third person, at a table in the middle of the room, round a staring kerosene lamp adorned with a globe of clear glass, of which the transparency was mitigated only by a circular pattern of bunches of grapes. The third person was his friend Schinkel, who had been a member of the little party that waited upon Hoffendahl. No one said anything as Hyacinth came in; but in their silence the three others got up, looking at him, as he thought, rather strangely.
It was early enough in the evening for him to take a chance on visiting Lisson Grove; he figured the Poupins would still be awake. When he got to their house, his assumption was confirmed; the brightness of the light in the window suggested that Madame was hosting a gathering. He quickly went up to the apartment (visitors could open the front door themselves), and after knocking, he responded to the hostess’s invitation to come in. Poupin and his wife were seated, along with a third person, at a table in the center of the room, surrounded by a glaring kerosene lamp topped with a clear glass globe, its transparency only softened by a circular design of grape clusters. The third person was his friend Schinkel, who had been part of the small group that attended to Hoffendahl. No one spoke as Hyacinth entered; however, in their silence, the other three stood up, looking at him, which he thought was a bit odd.
XLIII
“My child, you are always welcome,” said Eustache Poupin, taking Hyacinth’s hand in both his own and holding it for some moments. An impression had come to our young man, immediately, that they were talking about him before he appeared and that they would rather have been left to talk at their ease. He even thought he saw in Poupin’s face the kind of consciousness that comes from detection, or at least interruption, in a nefarious act. With Poupin, however, it was difficult to tell; he always looked so heated and exalted, so like a conspirator defying the approach of justice. Hyacinth contemplated the others: they were standing as if they had shuffled something on the table out of sight, as if they had been engaged in the manufacture of counterfeit coin. Poupin kept hold of his hand; the Frenchman’s ardent eyes, fixed, unwinking, always expressive of the greatness of the occasion, whatever the occasion was, had never seemed to him to protrude so far from his head. “Ah, my dear friend, nous causions justement de vous,” Eustache remarked, as if this were a very extraordinary fact.
“My child, you’re always welcome,” said Eustache Poupin, taking Hyacinth’s hand in both of his and holding it for a few moments. Hyacinth immediately felt that they had been talking about him before he arrived and that they would have preferred to continue their conversation without interruption. He even thought he saw in Poupin’s expression the kind of awareness that comes from being caught, or at least interrupted, during something wrong. With Poupin, though, it was hard to tell; he always looked so heated and excited, like a conspirator challenging the approach of justice. Hyacinth looked at the others: they stood as if they had hidden something on the table, as if they were involved in making counterfeit money. Poupin held onto his hand; the Frenchman’s intense, unblinking eyes, always reflecting the significance of the moment, regardless of what it was, seemed more protruding than usual. “Ah, my dear friend, nous causions justement de vous,” Eustache said, as if this were a very remarkable thing.
“Oh, nous causions—nous causions!” his wife exclaimed, as if to deprecate an indiscreet exaggeration. “One may mention a friend, I suppose, in the way of conversation, without taking such a liberty.”
“Oh, we were just talking—just talking!” his wife exclaimed, as if to downplay an inappropriate exaggeration. “I suppose one can bring up a friend in conversation without overstepping.”
“A cat may look at a king, as your English proverb says,” added Schinkel, jocosely. He smiled so hard at his own pleasantry that his eyes closed up and vanished—an effect which Hyacinth, who had observed it before, thought particularly unbecoming to him, appearing as it did to administer the last perfection to his ugliness. He would have consulted his interests by cultivating immobility of feature.
“A cat may look at a king, as your English saying goes,” Schinkel added playfully. He smiled so widely at his own joke that his eyes squinted shut and disappeared—something Hyacinth, who had seen it before, found particularly unattractive in him, as it seemed to complete his already unappealing looks. He would have done himself a favor by keeping a blank expression.
“Oh, a king, a king!” murmured Poupin, shaking his head up and down. “That’s what it’s not good to be, au point où nous en sommes.”
“Oh, a king, a king!” whispered Poupin, nodding his head. “That’s what it’s not good to be, au point où nous en sommes.”
“I just came in to wish you good-night,” said Hyacinth. “I’m afraid it’s rather late for a call, though Schinkel is here.”
“I just came in to say good night,” said Hyacinth. “I’m afraid it’s pretty late for a visit, even though Schinkel is here.”
“It’s always too late, my very dear, when you come,” the Frenchman rejoined. “You know if you have a place at our fireside.”
“It’s always too late, my dear, when you arrive,” the Frenchman replied. “You know you have a spot by our fire.”
“I esteem it too much to disturb it,” said Hyacinth, smiling and looking round at the three.
“I value it too much to disturb it,” said Hyacinth, smiling and looking around at the three.
“We can easily sit down again; we are a comfortable party. Put yourself beside me.” And the Frenchman drew a chair close to the one, at the table, that he had just quitted.
“We can easily sit down again; we’re a comfortable group. Come sit next to me.” And the Frenchman pulled a chair close to the one at the table that he had just left.
“He has had a long walk, he is tired—he will certainly accept a little glass,” Madame Poupin announced with decision, moving toward the tray containing the small gilded liqueur service.
“He's had a long walk, he's tired—he'll definitely take a little drink,” Madame Poupin said firmly, moving toward the tray with the small gilded liqueur set.
“We will each accept one, ma bonne; it is a very good occasion for a drop of fine,” her husband interposed, while Hyacinth seated himself in the chair his host had designated. Schinkel resumed his place, which was opposite; he looked across at Hyacinth without speaking, but his long face continued to flatten itself into a representation of mirth. He had on a green coat, which Hyacinth had seen before; it was a garment of ceremony, such as our young man judged it would have been impossible to procure in London or in any modern time. It was eminently German and of high antiquity, and had a tall, stiff, clumsy collar, which came up to the wearer’s ears and almost concealed his perpetual bandage. When Hyacinth had sat down Eustache Poupin did not take possession of his own chair, but stood beside him, resting his hand on his head. At that touch something came over Hyacinth, and his heart sprang into his throat. The idea that occurred to him, conveyed in Poupin’s whole manner as well as in the reassuring intention of that caress and in his wife’s uneasy, instant offer of refreshment, explained the embarrassment of the circle and reminded our young man of the engagement he had taken with himself to exhibit an extraordinary quietness when a certain crisis in his life should have arrived. It seemed to him that this crisis was in the air, very near—that he should touch it if he made another movement; the pressure of the Frenchman’s hand, which was meant as a solvent, only operated as a warning. As he looked across at Schinkel he felt dizzy and a little sick; for a moment, to his senses, the room whirled round. His resolution to be quiet appeared only too easy to keep; he couldn’t break it even to the extent of speaking. He knew that his voice would tremble, and that is why he made no answer to Schinkel’s rather honeyed words, uttered after an hesitation: “Also, my dear Robinson, have you passed your Sunday well—have you had an ’appy day?” Why was every one so endearing? His eyes questioned the table, but encountered nothing but its well-wiped surface, polished for so many years by the gustatory elbows of the Frenchman and his wife, and the lady’s dirty pack of cards for ‘patience’ (she had apparently been engaged in this exercise when Schinkel came in), which indeed gave a little the impression of gamblers surprised, who might have shuffled away the stakes. Madame Poupin, who had dived into a cupboard, came back with a bottle of green chartreuse, an apparition which led the German to exclaim, “Lieber Gott, you Vrench, you Vrench, how well you manage! What would you have more?”
“We'll each have one, my dear; it’s a great opportunity for a little fine,” her husband interrupted, while Hyacinth sat down in the chair his host had pointed out. Schinkel took his seat across from him; he looked at Hyacinth without saying a word, but his long face kept shaping itself into a picture of mirth. He was wearing a green coat that Hyacinth recognized; it was formal attire, something he thought would have been impossible to find in London or in any modern era. It was very German and quite old-fashioned, featuring a tall, stiff, clumsy collar that came up to the wearer’s ears and almost hid his constant bandage. When Hyacinth was seated, Eustache Poupin didn’t sit in his own chair but stood next to him, resting his hand on Hyacinth's head. At that touch, something happened to Hyacinth, and his heart leaped into his throat. The thought that flashed through his mind, reflected in Poupin's demeanor and the comforting intent behind that touch, as well as in his wife’s anxious, immediate offer of refreshments, clarified the awkwardness of the group and reminded our young man of the commitment he had made to himself to maintain a remarkable calm when a specific crisis in his life arrived. It felt to him like this crisis was in the air, very close—he would touch it with a single movement; the pressure of the Frenchman’s hand, intended to be soothing, only served as a warning. As he glanced at Schinkel, he felt dizzy and slightly nauseous; for a moment, the room seemed to spin around him. His determination to remain calm appeared surprisingly easy to uphold; he couldn’t even break it to the point of speaking. He knew his voice would shake, which is why he didn’t respond to Schinkel’s somewhat sweet remarks, made after a pause: “So, my dear Robinson, did you have a nice Sunday—did you enjoy your day?” Why was everyone so affectionate? His eyes searched the table but found nothing but its well-wiped surface, polished over many years by the culinary elbows of the Frenchman and his wife, and the lady’s worn-out pack of cards for ‘patience’ (she had seemingly been engaged in this activity when Schinkel arrived), which indeed gave the impression of surprised gamblers who might have hastily put away their stakes. Madame Poupin, having rummaged through a cupboard, returned with a bottle of green chartreuse, a sight that prompted the German to exclaim, “Dear God, you French, you French, how well you manage! What else could you want?”
The hostess distributed the liquor, but Hyacinth was scarcely able to swallow it, though it was highly appreciated by his companions. His indifference to this luxury excited much discussion and conjecture, the others bandying theories and contradictions, and even ineffectual jokes, about him, over his head, with a volubility which seemed to him unnatural. Poupin and Schinkel professed the belief that there must be something very curious the matter with a man who couldn’t smack his lips over a drop of that tap; he must either be in love or have some still more insidious complaint. It was true that Hyacinth was always in love—that was no secret to his friends—and it had never been observed to stop his thirst. The Frenchwoman poured scorn on this view of the case, declaring that the effect of the tender passion was to make one enjoy one’s victual (when everything went straight, bien entendu; and how could an ear be deaf to the whisperings of such a dear little bonhomme as Hyacinth?), in proof of which she deposed that she had never eaten and drunk with such relish as at the time—oh, it was far away now—when she had a soft spot in her heart for her rascal of a husband. For Madame Poupin to allude to her husband as a rascal indicated a high degree of conviviality. Hyacinth sat staring at the empty table with the feeling that he was, somehow, a detached, irresponsible witness of the evolution of his fate. Finally he looked up and said to his friends, collectively, “What on earth’s the matter with you all?” And he followed this inquiry by an invitation that they should tell him what it was they had been saying about him, since they admitted that he had been the subject of their conversation. Madame Poupin answered for them that they had simply been saying how much they loved him, but that they wouldn’t love him any more if he became suspicious and grincheux. She had been telling Mr Schinkel’s fortune on the cards, and she would tell Hyacinth’s if he liked. There was nothing much for Mr Schinkel, only that he would find something, some day, that he had lost, but would probably lose it again, and serve him right if he did! He objected that he had never had anything to lose, and never expected to have; but that was a vain remark, inasmuch as the time was fast coming when every one would have something—though indeed it was to be hoped that he would keep it when he had got it. Eustache rebuked his wife for her levity, reminded her that their young friend cared nothing for old women’s tricks, and said he was sure Hyacinth had come to talk over a very different matter—the question (he was so good as to take an interest in it, as he had done in everything that related to them) of the terms which M. Poupin might owe it to himself, to his dignity, to a just though not exaggerated sentiment of his value, to make in accepting Mr Crookenden’s offer of the foremanship of the establishment in Soho; an offer not yet formally enunciated but visibly in the air and destined—it would seem, at least—to arrive within a day or two. The old foreman was going to set up for himself. The Frenchman intimated that before accepting any such proposal he must have the most substantial guarantees. “Il me faudrait des conditions très-particulières.” It was singular to Hyacinth to hear M. Poupin talk so comfortably about these high contingencies, the chasm by which he himself was divided from the future having suddenly doubled its width. His host and hostess sat down on either side of him, and Poupin gave a sketch, in somewhat sombre tints, of the situation in Soho, enumerating certain elements of decomposition which he perceived to be at work there and which he would not undertake to deal with unless he should be given a completely free hand. Did Schinkel understand, and was that what Schinkel was grinning at? Did Schinkel understand that poor Eustache was the victim of an absurd hallucination and that there was not the smallest chance of his being invited to assume a lieutenancy? He had less capacity for tackling the British workman to-day than when he began to rub shoulders with him, and Mr Crookenden had never in his life made a mistake, at least in the use of his tools. Hyacinth’s responses were few and mechanical, and he presently ceased to try to look as if he were entering into the Frenchman’s ideas.
The hostess served the drinks, but Hyacinth barely managed to drink his, even though his friends really enjoyed it. His indifference to this luxury sparked a lot of discussion and speculation, with everyone throwing out theories, contradictions, and even some clumsy jokes about him, chatting away as if he weren’t there, which felt odd to him. Poupin and Schinkel claimed there must be something very unusual about a guy who couldn't savor a sip of that drink; he must either be in love or dealing with something even more troubling. It was true that Hyacinth was always in love—that was no secret among his friends—and it had never been seen to quench his thirst. The Frenchwoman dismissed this idea, insisting that love makes people enjoy their food (when things are going well, of course; how could someone not notice the charms of a sweet little guy like Hyacinth?), claiming she had never eaten and drank with such pleasure as when she had feelings for her cheeky husband. For Madame Poupin to call her husband a rascal showed just how lively the atmosphere was. Hyacinth sat there, staring at the empty table, feeling like a detached, uninvolved spectator of his own fate. Finally, he looked up and asked his friends, "What’s going on with you all?" He followed up by inviting them to share what they had been saying about him, since they admitted he had been the topic of their conversation. Madame Poupin responded for the group, saying they had just been talking about how much they loved him, but that they wouldn’t love him as much if he became suspicious and grumpy. She had been reading Mr. Schinkel’s fortune with cards and could do Hyacinth’s if he wanted. Mr. Schinkel didn’t have much in his reading, just that he might find something he had lost someday but would probably lose it again, which would serve him right! He countered that he had never had anything to lose and didn’t expect to; but that was a futile comment, considering the time was approaching when everyone would have something—though he hoped he would hold onto it when he did. Eustache scolded his wife for being so frivolous, reminding her that their young friend didn’t care about old women’s tricks, and said he was sure Hyacinth had come to discuss a very different issue—the terms M. Poupin should consider to maintain his dignity and recognize his worth when accepting Mr. Crookenden’s offer for the foreman position at the Soho establishment; an offer that hadn’t been officially presented yet but was definitely on the horizon and expected to arrive soon. The current foreman was going to start his own business. The Frenchman suggested that before accepting any such proposal, he needed solid guarantees. "Il me faudrait des conditions très-particulières." It struck Hyacinth as odd to hear M. Poupin talk so confidently about such lofty possibilities while the gap between him and the future felt like it was widening. His host and hostess sat down on either side of him, and Poupin laid out a somewhat gloomy overview of the situation in Soho, listing certain troubling factors he saw at work there which he wouldn’t tackle unless he had complete freedom. Did Schinkel understand, and was that what Schinkel was grinning about? Did Schinkel realize that poor Eustache was falling for a ridiculous illusion and that there was hardly any chance he would be invited to take a leadership role? He was less equipped to handle British workers now than when he first started interacting with them, and Mr. Crookenden had never made a mistake in using his tools, at least. Hyacinth’s replies were minimal and mechanical, and he soon stopped trying to appear engaged with the Frenchman’s thoughts.
“You have some news—you have some news about me,” he remarked, abruptly, to Schinkel. “You don’t like it, you don’t like to have to give it to me, and you came to ask our friends here whether they wouldn’t help you out with it. But I don’t think they will assist you particularly, poor dears! Why do you mind? You oughtn’t to mind more than I do. That isn’t the way.”
“You have some news—you have some news about me,” he said suddenly to Schinkel. “You’re not happy about it, you don’t want to tell me, and you came to see if our friends here would help you out with it. But I don’t think they’ll be much help, poor things! Why do you care? You shouldn’t care any more than I do. That’s not the way.”
“Qu’est-ce qu’il dit—qu’est-ce qu’il dit, le pauvre chéri?” Madame Poupin demanded, eagerly; while Schinkel looked very hard at her husband, as if to ask for direction.
“What is he saying—what is he saying, the poor dear?” Madame Poupin asked eagerly, while Schinkel stared intently at her husband, as if seeking guidance.
“My dear child, vous vous faites des idées!” the latter exclaimed, laying his hand on him remonstrantly.
“My dear child, you’re overthinking it!” the latter exclaimed, laying his hand on him in a reproachful way.
But Hyacinth pushed away his chair and got up. “If you have anything to tell me, it is cruel of you to let me see it, as you have done, and yet not to satisfy me.”
But Hyacinth pushed his chair away and stood up. “If you have anything to tell me, it’s cruel to let me see it, like you have, and then not to satisfy me.”
“Why should I have anything to tell you?” Schinkel asked.
“Why should I have anything to say to you?” Schinkel asked.
“I don’t know that, but I believe you have. I perceive things, I guess things, quickly. That’s my nature at all times, and I do it much more now.”
“I don’t know that, but I believe you have. I notice things, I make guesses, quickly. That’s just who I am, and I do it even more now.”
“You do it indeed; it is very wonderful,” said Schinkel.
“You really do; it’s amazing,” said Schinkel.
“Mr Schinkel, will you do me the pleasure to go away—I don’t care where—out of this house?” Madame Poupin broke out, in French.
“Mr. Schinkel, would you please do me the favor of leaving—anywhere will do—out of this house?” Madame Poupin exclaimed in French.
“Yes, that will be the best thing, and I will go with you,” said Hyacinth.
“Yes, that sounds like the best plan, and I’ll go with you,” said Hyacinth.
“If you would retire, my child, I think it would be a service that you would render us,” Poupin returned, appealing to his young friend. “Won’t you do us the justice to believe that you may leave your interests in our hands?”
“If you would step back, my child, I think it would be a favor to us,” Poupin replied, appealing to his young friend. “Won’t you do us the courtesy of believing that you can trust us with your interests?”
Hyacinth hesitated a moment; it was now perfectly clear to him that Schinkel had some sort of message for him, and his curiosity as to what it might be had become nearly intolerable. “I am surprised at your weakness,” he observed, as sternly as he could manage it, to Poupin.
Hyacinth paused for a moment; it was now completely obvious to him that Schinkel had some kind of message for him, and his curiosity about what it could be had become almost unbearable. “I’m surprised by your weakness,” he said, as sternly as he could to Poupin.
The Frenchman stared at him an instant, and then fell on his neck. “You are sublime, my young friend—you are sublime!”
The Frenchman looked at him for a moment, then threw his arms around him. “You’re amazing, my young friend—you’re amazing!”
“Will you be so good as to tell me what you are going to do with that young man?” demanded Madame Poupin, glaring at Schinkel.
“Could you please tell me what you plan to do with that young man?” asked Madame Poupin, glaring at Schinkel.
“It’s none of your business, my poor lady,” Hyacinth replied, disengaging himself from her husband. “Schinkel, I wish you would walk away with me.”
“It’s none of your business, my poor lady,” Hyacinth said, pulling away from her husband. “Schinkel, I wish you would come with me.”
“Calmons-nous, entendons-nous, expliquons-nous! The situation is very simple,” Poupin went on.
“Let's calm down, let's listen to each other, let's explain ourselves! The situation is very straightforward,” Poupin continued.
“I will go with you, if it will give you pleasure,” said Schinkel, very obligingly, to Hyacinth.
“I'll go with you if it makes you happy,” Schinkel said kindly to Hyacinth.
“Then you will give me that letter first!” Madame Poupin, erecting herself, declared to the German.
“Then you will give me that letter first!” Madame Poupin said to the German, standing tall.
“My wife, you are an imbecile!” Poupin groaned, lifting his hands and shoulders and turning away.
“Wife, you’re such an idiot!” Poupin groaned, throwing up his hands and shoulders before turning away.
“I may be an imbecile, but I won’t be a party—no, God help me, not to that!” protested the Frenchwoman, planted before Schinkel as if to prevent his moving.
“I might be an idiot, but I won’t be involved—no, God help me, not in that!” protested the Frenchwoman, standing in front of Schinkel as if to keep him from moving.
“If you have a letter for me, you ought to give it to me,” said Hyacinth to Schinkel. “You have no right to give it to any one else.”
“If you have a letter for me, you should give it to me,” said Hyacinth to Schinkel. “You have no right to give it to anyone else.”
“I will bring it to you in your house, my good friend,” Schinkel replied, with a little wink that seemed to say that Madame Poupin would have to be considered.
“I'll bring it to your place, my good friend,” Schinkel replied, giving a little wink that suggested they needed to think about Madame Poupin.
“Oh, in his house—I’ll go to his house!” cried the lady. “I regard you, I have always regarded you, as my child,” she declared to Hyacinth, “and if this isn’t an occasion for a mother!”
“Oh, at his place—I’ll go to his place!” the lady exclaimed. “I see you, I have always seen you, as my child,” she said to Hyacinth, “and if this isn’t a moment for a mother!”
“It’s you that are making it an occasion. I don’t know what you are talking about,” said Hyacinth. He had been questioning Schinkel’s eye, and he thought he saw there a little twinkle of assurance that he might really depend upon him. “I have disturbed you, and I think I had better go away.”
“It’s you who are making this a big deal. I don’t know what you’re talking about,” said Hyacinth. He had been studying Schinkel’s eye and thought he noticed a small glimmer of confidence that he could really count on him. “I’ve upset you, and I think I should just leave.”
Poupin had turned round again; he seized the young man’s arm eagerly, as if to prevent his retiring before he had given a certain satisfaction. “How can you care, when you know everything is changed?”
Poupin turned around again; he grabbed the young man’s arm eagerly, as if to stop him from leaving before he provided a certain satisfaction. “How can you care, when you know everything has changed?”
“What do you mean—everything is changed?”
“What do you mean—everything has changed?”
“Your opinions, your sympathies, your whole attitude. I don’t approve of it—je le constate. You have withdrawn your confidence from the people; you have said things in this spot, where you stand now, that have given pain to my wife and me.”
“Your opinions, your sympathies, your entire attitude. I don’t approve of it—je le constate. You have pulled away your trust from the people; you have said things right here, where you’re standing now, that have hurt my wife and me.”
“If we didn’t love you, we should say that you had betrayed us!” cried Madame Poupin, quickly, taking her husband’s idea.
“If we didn’t love you, we would say that you’ve betrayed us!” exclaimed Madame Poupin, quickly jumping on her husband’s idea.
“Oh, I shall never betray you,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“Oh, I will never betray you,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“You will never betray us—of course you think so. But you have no right to act for the people when you have ceased to believe in the people. Il faut être conséquent, nom de Dieu!” Poupin went on.
“You will never betray us—of course you believe that. But you have no right to speak for the people when you no longer believe in them. One must be consistent, for God's sake!” Poupin continued.
“You will give up all thoughts of acting for me—je ne permets pas ça!” exclaimed his wife.
“You need to stop thinking about acting for me—je ne permets pas ça!” his wife exclaimed.
“It is probably not of importance—only a little fraternal greeting,” Schinkel suggested, soothingly.
“It’s probably not a big deal—just a small friendly greeting,” Schinkel suggested, soothingly.
“We repudiate you, we deny you, we denounce you!” shouted Poupin, more and more excited.
“We reject you, we deny you, we condemn you!” shouted Poupin, getting more and more worked up.
“My poor friends, it is you who have broken down, not I,” said Hyacinth. “I am much obliged to you for your solicitude, but the inconsequence is yours. At all events, good-night.”
“My poor friends, it’s you who have fallen apart, not me,” said Hyacinth. “I really appreciate your concern, but the issue is yours. Anyway, goodnight.”
He turned away from them, and was leaving the room, when Madame Poupin threw herself upon him, as her husband had done a moment before, but in silence and with an extraordinary force of passion and distress. Being stout and powerful she quickly got the better of him, and pressed him to her ample bosom in a long, dumb embrace.
He turned away from them and was about to leave the room when Madame Poupin threw herself at him, just like her husband had done a moment before, but this time silently and with intense passion and distress. Being strong and robust, she quickly overpowered him and pulled him into a long, silent embrace against her ample chest.
“I don’t know what you want me to do,” said Hyacinth, as soon as he could speak. “It’s for me to judge of my convictions.”
“I don’t know what you want me to do,” Hyacinth said as soon as he could speak. “It’s up to me to evaluate my beliefs.”
“We want you to do nothing, because we know you have changed,” Poupin replied. “Doesn’t it stick out of you, in every glance of your eye and every breath of your lips? It’s only for that, because that alters everything.”
“We want you to do nothing because we know you’ve changed,” Poupin replied. “Doesn’t it show in your every glance and every breath? That’s the only reason, because it changes everything.”
“Does it alter my engagement? There are some things in which one can’t change. I didn’t promise to believe; I promised to obey.”
“Does it change my commitment? There are some things that can’t be changed. I didn’t promise to believe; I promised to follow.”
“We want you to be sincere—that is the great thing,” said Poupin, edifyingly. “I will go to see them—I will make them understand.”
“We want you to be genuine—that’s what really matters,” said Poupin, in a thoughtful way. “I’ll go see them—I’ll help them understand.”
“Ah, you should have done that before!” Madame Poupin groaned.
“Ugh, you should have done that earlier!” Madame Poupin groaned.
“I don’t know whom you are talking about, but I will allow no one to meddle in my affairs.” Hyacinth spoke with sudden vehemence; the scene was cruel to his nerves, which were not in a condition to bear it.
“I don’t know who you’re talking about, but I won’t let anyone interfere in my business.” Hyacinth said with sudden intensity; the situation was harsh on his nerves, which weren’t in a state to handle it.
“When it is Hoffendahl, it is no good to meddle,” Schinkel remarked, smiling.
“When it’s Hoffendahl, it’s no use getting involved,” Schinkel said with a smile.
“And pray, who is Hoffendahl, and what authority has he got?” demanded Madame Poupin, who had caught his meaning. “Who has put him over us all, and is there nothing to do but to lie down in the dust before him? Let him attend to his little affairs himself, and not put them off on innocent children, no matter whether they are with us or against us.”
“And tell me, who is Hoffendahl, and what right does he have?” demanded Madame Poupin, who understood his meaning. “Who appointed him over all of us, and do we have to just lay down in the dirt before him? He should handle his own problems and not expect innocent kids to deal with them, whether those kids are on our side or not.”
This protest went so far that, evidently, Poupin felt a little ashamed of his wife. “He has no authority but what we give him; but you know that we respect him, that he is one of the pure, ma bonne. Hyacinth can do exactly as he likes; he knows that as well as we do. He knows there is not a feather’s weight of compulsion; he knows that, for my part, I long since ceased to expect anything from him.”
This protest went so far that, clearly, Poupin felt a bit embarrassed by his wife. “He has no power except what we give him; but you know that we respect him, that he is one of the pure, ma bonne. Hyacinth can do whatever he wants; he knows that just as well as we do. He understands that there’s not a bit of pressure; he knows that, as for me, I stopped expecting anything from him a long time ago.”
“Certainly, there is no compulsion,” said Schinkel. “It’s to take or to leave. Only they keep the books.”
“Of course, there’s no pressure,” said Schinkel. “You can take it or leave it. The only thing is, they manage the books.”
Hyacinth stood there before the three, with his eyes on the floor. “Of course I can do as I like, and what I like is what I shall do. Besides, what are we talking about, with such sudden passion?” he asked, looking up. “I have no summons, I have no sign. When the call reaches me, it will be time to discuss it. Let it come or not come: it’s not my affair.”
Hyacinth stood there in front of the three, staring at the floor. “Of course, I can do what I want, and what I want is what I will do. But seriously, why the sudden passion?” he asked, looking up. “I haven’t been summoned, and I haven’t seen any signs. When the call comes to me, then we can talk about it. Let it come or not; it’s not my concern.”
“Certainly, it is not your affair,” said Schinkel.
“Of course, it's not your business,” said Schinkel.
“I can’t think why M. Paul has never done anything, all this time, knowing that everything is different now!” Madame Poupin exclaimed.
“I can’t figure out why M. Paul hasn’t done anything all this time, especially knowing that everything is different now!” Madame Poupin exclaimed.
“Yes, my dear boy, I don’t understand our friend,” her husband remarked, watching Hyacinth with suspicious, contentious eyes.
“Yes, my dear boy, I don’t get our friend,” her husband said, watching Hyacinth with doubtful, argumentative eyes.
“It’s none of his business, any more than ours; it’s none of any one’s business!” Schinkel declared.
“It’s none of his business, just like it’s not ours; it’s not anyone’s business!” Schinkel declared.
“Muniment walks straight; the best thing you can do is to imitate him,” said Hyacinth, trying to pass Poupin, who had placed himself before the door.
“Muniment walks straight; the best thing you can do is to copy him,” said Hyacinth, attempting to get past Poupin, who had positioned himself in front of the door.
“Promise me only this—not to do anything till I have seen you first,” the Frenchman begged, almost piteously.
“Promise me just this—not to do anything until I’ve seen you first,” the Frenchman pleaded, almost desperately.
“My poor old friend, you are very weak.” And Hyacinth opened the door, in spite of him, and passed out.
“My poor old friend, you look really weak.” And Hyacinth opened the door, regardless of him, and walked out.
“Ah, well, if you are with us, that’s all I want to know!” the young man heard him say, behind him, at the top of the stairs, in a different voice, a tone of sudden, exaggerated fortitude.
“Ah, well, if you are with us, that’s all I want to know!” the young man heard him say, behind him, at the top of the stairs, in a different voice, a tone of sudden, exaggerated strength.
XLIV
Hyacinth hurried down and got out of the house, but he had not the least intention of losing sight of Schinkel. The odd behaviour of the Poupins was a surprise and annoyance, and he had wished to shake himself free from it. He was candidly astonished at the alarm they were so good as to feel for him, for he had never perceived that they had gone round to the hope that the note he had signed (as it were) to Hoffendahl would not be presented. What had he said, what had he done, after all, to give them the right to fasten on him the charge of apostasy? He had always been a free critic of everything, and it was natural that, on certain occasions, in the little parlour in Lisson Grove, he should have spoken in accordance with that freedom; but it was only with the Princess that he had permitted himself really to rail at the democracy and given the full measure of his scepticism. He would have thought it indelicate to express contempt for the opinions of his old foreign friends, to whom associations that made them venerable were attached; and, moreover, for Hyacinth, a change of heart was, in the nature of things, much more an occasion for a hush of publicity and a kind of retrospective reserve; it couldn’t prompt one to aggression or jubilation. When one had but lately discovered what could be said on the opposite side one didn’t want to boast of one’s sharpness—not even when one’s new convictions cast shadows that looked like the ghosts of the old.
Hyacinth rushed downstairs and left the house, but he had no intention of losing track of Schinkel. The strange behavior of the Poupins surprised and annoyed him, and he wanted to distance himself from it. He was genuinely taken aback by the concern they seemed to feel for him, as he had never realized they were holding onto the hope that the note he had signed (so to speak) for Hoffendahl wouldn’t be presented. What had he said or done to justify their accusation of betrayal? He had always been a free critic of everything, and it was natural that, on certain occasions, in the small parlor in Lisson Grove, he would have spoken his mind. However, it was only with the Princess that he truly criticized democracy and expressed the full extent of his skepticism. He would have considered it inappropriate to express disdain for the views of his old foreign friends, to whom long-cherished connections were linked; furthermore, for Hyacinth, a change of heart was inherently more a reason for restraint and a kind of retrospective discretion; it didn’t lead one to aggression or celebration. When one had recently discovered what could be said from the opposing viewpoint, one didn’t want to boast about one’s cleverness—not even when one’s new beliefs cast shadows that resembled the remnants of the old.
Hyacinth lingered in the street, a certain distance from the house, watching for Schinkel’s exit and prepared to remain there if necessary till the dawn of another day. He had said to his friends, just before, that the manner in which the communication they looked so askance at should reach him was none of his business—it might reach him as it could. This was true enough in theory, but in fact his desire was overwhelming to know what Madame Poupin had meant by her allusion to a letter, destined for him, in Schinkel’s possession—an allusion confirmed by Schinkel’s own virtual acknowledgment. It was indeed this eagerness that had driven him out of the house, for he had reason to believe that the German would not fail him, and it galled his suspense to see the foolish Poupins try to interpose, to divert the missive from its course. He waited and waited, in the faith that Schinkel was dealing with them in his slow, categorical Teutonic way, and only objurgated the cabinet-maker for having in the first place paltered with his sacred trust. Why hadn’t he come straight to him—whatever the mysterious document was—instead of talking it over with French featherheads? Passers were rare, at this hour, in Lisson Grove, and lights were mainly extinguished; there was nothing to look at but the vista of the low black houses, the dim, interspaced street-lamps, the prowling cats who darted occasionally across the road, and the terrible, mysterious, far-off stars, which appeared to him more than ever to see everything and to tell nothing. A policeman creaked along on the opposite side of the way, looking across at him as he passed, and stood for some minutes on the corner, as if to keep an eye on him. Hyacinth had leisure to reflect that the day was perhaps not far off when a policeman might have his eye on him for a very good reason—might walk up and down, pass and repass, as he mounted guard over him.
Hyacinth hung around on the street, a good distance from the house, waiting for Schinkel to come out and prepared to stay there if needed until dawn broke. He had just told his friends that how the message they were so suspicious of reached him was not his concern—it could come to him however it wanted. This was true in theory, but in reality, he was desperate to understand what Madame Poupin meant when she mentioned a letter intended for him that was with Schinkel—something Schinkel seemed to acknowledge. It was this urgency that had pushed him out of the house, as he believed the German wouldn’t let him down, and it irritated him to see the foolish Poupins trying to interfere, to block the message from getting to him. He waited patiently, trusting that Schinkel was handling them in his slow, clear-cut Teutonic way, and he only cursed the cabinet-maker for messing with his sacred trust in the first place. Why hadn’t he come straight to him—whatever the mysterious document was—rather than discussing it with those French lightweights? There were hardly any passersby at this hour in Lisson Grove, and most lights were out; there was nothing to see but the row of low black houses, the faint street lamps, the cats that occasionally darted across the road, and the haunting, distant stars, which seemed to him more than ever to witness everything and say nothing. A policeman strolled by on the opposite side of the street, glanced at him, and lingered for a few minutes on the corner as if keeping an eye on him. Hyacinth had time to consider that the day might not be far off when a policeman would have a watchful eye on him for a very good reason—might walk back and forth, keeping guard over him.
It seemed horribly long before Schinkel came out of the house, but it was probably only half an hour. In the stillness of the street he heard Poupin let his visitor out, and at the sound he stepped back into the recess of a doorway on the same side, so that, in looking out, the Frenchman should not see him waiting. There was another delay, for the two stood talking together interminably and in a low tone on the doorstep. At last, however, Poupin went in again, and then Schinkel came down the street towards Hyacinth, who had calculated that he would proceed in that direction, it being, as Hyacinth happened to know, that of his own lodging. After he had heard Poupin go in he stopped and looked up and down; it was evidently his idea that Hyacinth would be waiting for him. Our hero stepped out of the shallow recess in which he had been flattening himself, and came straight to him, and the two men stood there face to face, in the dusky, empty, sordid street.
It felt like forever before Schinkel came out of the house, but it was probably just half an hour. In the quiet of the street, he heard Poupin let his guest out, and at that sound, he stepped back into the shadow of a doorway on the same side, so that the Frenchman wouldn’t see him waiting when he looked out. There was another delay as the two talked quietly on the doorstep for what felt like ages. Finally, Poupin went back inside, and then Schinkel walked down the street toward Hyacinth, who had figured he would head that way, since it was, as Hyacinth knew, the direction of his own place. After he heard Poupin go inside, he paused and looked around; he clearly thought Hyacinth would be waiting for him. Our hero stepped out from the shallow recess where he had been pressing himself against the wall and approached him directly, and the two men stood there face to face in the dim, empty, dreary street.
“You didn’t let them have the letter?”
“You didn’t let them see the letter?”
“Oh no, I retained it,” said Schinkel, with his eyes more than ever like invisible points.
“Oh no, I kept it,” said Schinkel, his eyes looking more than ever like invisible dots.
“Then hadn’t you better give it to me?”
“Then shouldn't you just give it to me?”
“We will talk of that—we will talk.” Schinkel made no motion to satisfy his friend; he had his hands in the pockets of his trousers, and his appearance was characterised by an exasperating assumption that they had the whole night before them. He was intolerably methodical.
“We'll talk about that—we'll talk.” Schinkel didn’t move to accommodate his friend; he had his hands in his pants pockets, and he seemed to have this annoying belief that they had all night to spare. He was frustratingly methodical.
“Why should we talk? Haven’t you talked enough with those people, all the evening? What have they to say about it? What right have you to detain a letter that belongs to me?”
“Why should we even talk? Haven’t you already chatted enough with those people all evening? What do they have to say about it? What right do you have to hold onto a letter that belongs to me?”
“Erlauben Sie: I will light my pipe,” the German remarked. And he proceeded to this business, methodically, while Hyacinth’s pale, excited face showed in the glow of the match that he ignited on the rusty railing beside them. “It is not yours unless I have given it to you,” Schinkel went on, as they walked along. “Be patient, and I will tell you,” he added, passing his hand into his companion’s arm. “Your way, not so? We will go down toward the Park.” Hyacinth tried to be patient, and he listened with interest when Schinkel said, “She tried to take it; she attacked me with her hands. But that was not what I went for, to give it up.”
“Excuse me: I’m going to light my pipe,” the German said. He went about it methodically, while Hyacinth’s pale, excited face lit up in the glow of the match he struck on the rusty railing beside them. “It's not yours unless I’ve given it to you,” Schinkel continued as they walked. “Be patient, and I’ll tell you,” he added, putting his hand on Hyacinth’s arm. “Your choice, right? Let’s head down toward the Park.” Hyacinth tried to be patient and listened with interest as Schinkel said, “She tried to take it; she attacked me with her hands. But that wasn’t what I came for, to just give it up.”
“Is she mad? I don’t recognise them,” Hyacinth murmured.
“Is she crazy? I don’t recognize them,” Hyacinth murmured.
“No, but they lofe you.”
“No, but they love you.”
“Why, then, do they try to disgrace me?”
“Why, then, do they try to shame me?”
“They think it is no disgrace, if you have changed.”
“They believe it’s not shameful if you’ve changed.”
“That’s very well for her; but it’s pitiful for him, and I declare it surprises me.”
"That's great for her; but it's sad for him, and I honestly can't believe it."
“Oh, he came round, and he helped me to resist. He pulled his wife off. It was the first shock,” said Schinkel.
“Oh, he showed up, and he helped me hold my ground. He pulled his wife away. It was the first shock,” said Schinkel.
“You oughtn’t to have shocked them, my dear fellow,” Hyacinth replied.
“You shouldn’t have shocked them, my dear friend,” Hyacinth replied.
“I was shocked myself—I couldn’t help it.”
“I was shocked myself—I couldn’t help it.”
“Lord, how shaky you all are!”
“Wow, you all are really shaky!”
“You take it well. I am very sorry. But it is a fine chance,” Schinkel went on, smoking away. His pipe, for the moment, seemed to absorb him, so that after a silence Hyacinth resumed—
“You handle it well. I’m really sorry about this. But it’s a great opportunity,” Schinkel continued, puffing away. His pipe, at that moment, seemed to consume his attention, so after a pause, Hyacinth spoke up again—
“Be so good as to reflect that all this while I don’t in the least understand what you are talking about.”
“Please keep in mind that all this time, I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Well, it was this morning, early,” said the German. “You know in my country we don’t lie in bed late, and what they do in my country I try to do everywhere. I think it is good enough. In winter I get up, of course, long before the sun, and in summer I get up almost at the same time. I should see the fine spectacle of the sunrise, if in London you could see. The first thing I do of a Sunday is to smoke a pipe at my window, which is at the front, you remember, and looks into a little dirty street. At that hour there is nothing to see there—you English are so slow to leave the bed. Not much, however, at any time; it is not important, my little street. But my first pipe is the one I enjoy most. I want nothing else when I have that pleasure. I look out at the new, fresh light—though in London it is not very fresh—and I think it is the beginning of another day. I wonder what such a day will bring; whether it will bring anything good to us poor devils. But I have seen a great many pass, and nothing has come. This morning, however, brought something—something, at least, to you. On the other side of the way I saw a young man, who stood just opposite to my house, looking up at my window. He looked at me straight, without any ceremony, and I smoked my pipe and looked at him. I wondered what he wanted, but he made no sign and spoke no word. He was a very nice young man; he had an umbrella, and he wore spectacles. We remained that way, face to face, perhaps for a quarter of an hour, and at last he took out his watch—he had a watch, too—and held it in his hand, just glancing at it every few minutes, as if to let me know that he would rather not give me the whole day. Then it came over me that he wanted to speak to me! You would have guessed that before, but we good Germans are slow. When we understand, however, we act; so I nodded to him, to let him know I would come down. I put on my coat and my shoes, for I was only in my shirt and stockings (though of course I had on my trousers), and I went down into the street. When he saw me come he walked slowly away, but at the end of a little distance he waited for me. When I came near him I saw that he was a very nice young man indeed—very young, with a very pleasant, friendly face. He was also very neat, and he had gloves, and his umbrella was of silk. I liked him very much. He said I should come round the corner, so we went round the corner together. I thought there would be some one there waiting for us; but there was nothing—only the closed shops and the early light and a little spring mist which told that the day would be fine. I didn’t know what he wanted; perhaps it was some of our business—that’s what I first thought—and perhaps it was only a little game. So I was very careful; I didn’t ask him to come into the house. Yet I told him that he must excuse me for not understanding more quickly that he wished to speak with me; and when I said that, he said it was not of consequence—he would have waited there, for the chance to see me all day. I told him I was glad I had spared him that, at least, and we had some very polite conversation. He was a very nice young man. But what he wanted was simply to put a letter in my hand; as he said himself, he was only a kind of private postman. He gave me the letter—it was not addressed; and when I had taken it I asked him how he knew, and if he wouldn’t be sorry if it should turn out that I was not the man for whom the letter was meant. But I didn’t give him a start; he told me he knew all it was necessary for him to know—he knew exactly what to do and how to do it. I think he is a valuable member. I asked him if the letter required an answer, and he told me he had nothing to do with that; he was only to put it in my hand. He recommended me to wait till I had gone into the house again to read it. We had a little more talk—always very polite; and he mentioned that he had come so early because he thought I might go out, if he delayed, and because, also, he had a great deal to do and had to take his time when he could. It is true that he looked as if he had plenty to do—as if he was in some very good occupation. I should tell you that he spoke to me always in English, but he is not English; he sounded his words like some kind of foreigner. I suppose he is not German, or he would have spoken to me in German. But there are so many, of all countries! I said if he had so much to do I wouldn’t keep him; I would go to my room and open my letter. He said it wasn’t important; and then I asked him if he wouldn’t come into my room, also, and rest. I told him it wasn’t very handsome, my room—because he looked like a young man who would have, for himself, a very neat lodging. Then I found he meant it wasn’t important that we should talk any more, and he went away without even offering to shake hands. I don’t know if he had other letters to give, but he went away, as I have said, like a postman on his rounds, without giving me any more information.”
"Well, it was early this morning," said the German. "You know, in my country we don’t lie in bed late, and whatever they do in my country, I try to do everywhere. I think it’s reasonable. In winter, I get up long before the sun, and in summer, I get up almost at the same time. I should see the beautiful sight of the sunrise, if only you could see it in London. The first thing I do on a Sunday is smoke a pipe at my window, which is in the front, remember, and looks out onto a little dirty street. At that hour, there’s nothing to see there—you English are so slow to get out of bed. Not much happens there at any time; it’s not important, my little street. But my first pipe is the one I enjoy the most. I don’t want anything else when I have that pleasure. I look out at the new, fresh light—though it’s not very fresh in London—and I think it’s the start of another day. I wonder what kind of day it will be; whether it will bring anything good for us poor souls. But I’ve seen many pass by, and nothing has come. This morning, however, brought something—something, at least, for you. Across the street, I saw a young man standing right outside my house, looking up at my window. He looked straight at me, without any formality, and I smoked my pipe and looked back at him. I wondered what he wanted, but he didn’t make any sign or say a word. He was a very nice young man; he had an umbrella and wore glasses. We stayed that way, face to face, for maybe a quarter of an hour, and finally he took out his watch—he had a watch, too—and held it in his hand, glancing at it every few minutes, as if to let me know that he wouldn’t wait all day. Then it hit me that he wanted to talk to me! You would have guessed that earlier, but we good Germans are slow. When we understand, though, we act; so I nodded to him to let him know I’d come down. I put on my coat and shoes, since I was only in my shirt and stockings (though, of course, I had my trousers on), and headed down to the street. When he saw me come, he walked off slowly, but after a short distance, he waited for me. As I got closer, I saw he was a very nice young man indeed—very young, with a friendly, pleasant face. He was also very neat, wearing gloves, and his umbrella was silk. I liked him a lot. He told me to come around the corner, so we went around the corner together. I thought someone would be waiting for us, but there was nothing—just closed shops, early light, and a little spring mist suggesting the day would be nice. I didn’t know what he wanted; perhaps it was some of our business—that’s what I first thought—and maybe it was just a little game. So I was cautious; I didn’t invite him inside. Yet I told him he must excuse me for not realizing sooner that he wanted to talk to me, and when I said that, he said it wasn’t a big deal—he would have waited there all day for the chance to see me. I told him I was glad I spared him that, at least, and we had some very polite conversation. He was a very nice young man. But what he really wanted was just to hand me a letter; as he said himself, he was simply a kind of private postman. He handed me the letter—it wasn’t addressed; and when I took it, I asked him how he knew, and if he wouldn’t be concerned if it turned out I wasn’t the person the letter was meant for. But I didn’t want to scare him; he told me he knew everything he needed to—he knew exactly what to do and how to do it. I think he’s a valuable member. I asked him if the letter needed a response, and he told me that wasn’t his concern; he was just supposed to give it to me. He suggested I wait until I was back inside to read it. We exchanged a little more polite conversation; he mentioned he had come early because he thought I might go out if he delayed, and also because he had a lot to do and had to take his time whenever he could. It’s true he looked like he had plenty to do—as if he was involved in some very good work. I should mention that he spoke to me in English, but he’s not English; his speech had a foreign accent. I figured he wasn’t German, or else he would have spoken in German. But there are so many from all over! I said if he had so much to do, I wouldn’t keep him; I’d go to my room and open my letter. He said it wasn’t important; and then I asked him if he wouldn’t come into my room and rest. I told him my room wasn’t very nice—because he looked like a young man who would have a very tidy place. Then I realized he meant it wasn’t necessary for us to talk any longer, and he left without even offering to shake hands. I don’t know if he had other letters to deliver, but he left, as I mentioned, like a postman on his rounds, without giving me any more information."
It took Schinkel a long time to unfold this story—his calm and conscientious thoroughness made no allowance for any painful acuteness of curiosity that Hyacinth might feel. He went from step to step, and treated his different points with friendly explicitness, as if each would have exactly the same interest for his companion. The latter made no attempt to hurry him, and indeed he listened, now, with a kind of intense patience; for he was interested, and, moreover, it was clear to him that he was safe with Schinkel; the German would satisfy him in time—wouldn’t worry him with attaching conditions to their transaction, in spite of the mistake he had made in going for guidance to Lisson Grove. Hyacinth learned in due course that on returning to his apartment and opening the little packet of which he had been put into possession, Mr Schinkel had found himself confronted with two separate articles: one a sealed letter superscribed with our young man’s name, the other a sheet of paper containing in three lines a request that within two days of receiving it he would hand the letter to the ‘young Robinson’. The three lines in question were signed D. H., and the letter was addressed in the same hand. Schinkel professed that he already knew the writing; it was that of Diedrich Hoffendahl. “Good, good,” he said, exerting a soothing pressure upon Hyacinth’s arm. “I will walk with you to your door, and I will give it to you there; unless you like better that I should keep it till to-morrow morning, so that you may have a quiet sleep—I mean in case it might contain anything that will be disagreeable to you. But it is probably nothing; it is probably only a word to say that you need think no more about your engagement.”
It took Schinkel a long time to tell this story—his calm and careful thoroughness didn’t account for any painful curiosity that Hyacinth might have. He moved through each step, treating his points with friendly clarity, as if each one would be equally interesting to his companion. Hyacinth didn’t try to rush him and actually listened with intense patience; he was interested and, more importantly, he felt safe with Schinkel. The German would get him what he needed in time—he wouldn’t burden him with any conditions tied to their deal, despite the mistake he made by seeking advice from Lisson Grove. Hyacinth eventually learned that when he returned to his apartment and opened the little packet he had received, Mr. Schinkel found two separate items: one was a sealed letter addressed to him, and the other was a sheet of paper with a three-line request asking him to deliver the letter to the “young Robinson” within two days of receiving it. The three lines were signed D. H., and the letter was written in the same hand. Schinkel claimed he already recognized the writing; it was from Diedrich Hoffendahl. “Good, good,” he said, gently pressing Hyacinth’s arm. “I’ll walk with you to your door and give it to you there; unless you’d prefer I keep it until tomorrow morning, so you can have a peaceful night’s sleep—I mean in case it contains anything unpleasant. But it’s probably nothing; it’s likely just a note saying you don’t need to worry about your engagement anymore.”
“Why should it be that?” Hyacinth asked.
“Why should it be that way?” Hyacinth asked.
“Probably he has heard that you repent.”
“Maybe he has heard that you're feeling sorry.”
“That I repent?” Hyacinth stopped him short; they had just reached the top of Park Lane. “To whom have I given a right to say that?”
“That I regret it?” Hyacinth interrupted; they had just reached the top of Park Lane. “Who has the right to say that to me?”
“Ah well, if you haven’t, so much the better. It may be, then, for some other reason.”
“Ah well, if you haven’t, that’s even better. It might be for some other reason, then.”
“Don’t be an idiot, Schinkel,” Hyacinth returned, as they walked along. And in a moment he went on, “What the devil did you go and tattle to the Poupins for?”
“Don’t be an idiot, Schinkel,” Hyacinth said as they walked along. After a moment, he continued, “What on earth made you go and spill the beans to the Poupins?”
“Because I thought they would like to know. Besides, I felt my responsibility; I thought I should carry it better if they knew it. And then, I’m like them—I lofe you.”
“Because I thought they would want to know. Also, I felt a sense of responsibility; I thought I should handle it better if they were aware. And then, I’m like them—I love you.”
Hyacinth made no answer to this profession; he asked the next instant, “Why didn’t your young man bring the letter directly to me?”
Hyacinth didn't respond to this statement; he immediately asked, “Why didn't your guy bring the letter straight to me?”
“Ah, I didn’t ask him that! The reason was probably not complicated, but simple—that those who wrote it knew my address and didn’t know yours. And wasn’t I one of your guarantors?”
“Ah, I didn’t ask him that! The reason was probably not complicated, just simple—that those who wrote it knew my address and didn’t know yours. And wasn’t I one of your guarantors?”
“Yes, but not the principal one. The principal one was Muniment. Why was the letter not sent to me through him?”
“Yes, but not the main one. The main one was Muniment. Why wasn’t the letter sent to me through him?”
“My dear Robinson, you want to know too many things. Depend upon it, there are always good reasons. I should have liked it better if it had been Muniment. But if they didn’t send to him—” Schinkel interrupted himself; the remainder of his sentence was lost in a cloud of smoke.
“My dear Robinson, you want to know too many things. Trust me, there are always good reasons. I would have preferred it if it had been Muniment. But if they didn’t reach out to him—” Schinkel interrupted himself; the rest of his sentence was lost in a cloud of smoke.
“Well, if they didn’t send to him,”—Hyacinth persisted.
“Well, if they didn’t reach out to him,”—Hyacinth insisted.
“You’re a great friend of his—how can I tell you?”
“You’re a really good friend of his—how can I explain it to you?”
At this Hyacinth looked up at his companion askance, and caught an odd glance, accompanied with a smile, which the mild, circumspect German directed toward him. “If it’s anything against him, my being his friend makes me just the man to hear it. I can defend him.”
At this Hyacinth looked up at his companion suspiciously and caught a strange glance, along with a smile, that the gentle, cautious German directed at him. “If it’s something negative about him, my friendship with him makes me the right person to hear it. I can defend him.”
“Well, it’s a possibility that they are not satisfied.”
“Well, it’s possible that they aren’t satisfied.”
“How do you mean it—not satisfied?”
“How do you mean it—not satisfied?”
“How shall I say it?—that they don’t trust him.”
“How should I put it?—that they don’t trust him.”
“Don’t trust him? And yet they trust me!”
“Don’t trust him? And yet they trust me!”
“Ah, my boy, depend upon it, there are reasons,” Schinkel replied; and in a moment he added, “They know everything—everything. Oh, they go straight!”
“Ah, my boy, trust me, there are reasons,” Schinkel replied; and a moment later he added, “They know everything—everything. Oh, they go right to the point!”
The pair pursued the rest of their course for the most part in silence, Hyacinth being considerably struck with something that dropped from his companion in answer to a question he asked as to what Eustache Poupin had said when Schinkel, that evening, first told him what he had come to see him about. “Il vaut du galme—il vaut du galme:” that was the German’s version of the Frenchman’s words; and Hyacinth repeated them over to himself several times, almost with the same accent. They had a certain soothing effect. In fact the good Schinkel was soothing altogether, as our hero felt when they stopped at last at the door of his lodging in Westminster and stood there face to face, while Hyacinth waited—waited. The sharpness of his impatience had passed away, and he watched without irritation the loving manner in which the German shook the ashes out of his big pipe and laid it to rest in its coffin. It was only after he had gone through this business with his usual attention to every detail of it that he said, “Also, now for the letter,” and, putting his hand inside of his waistcoat, drew forth the important document. It passed instantly into Hyacinth’s grasp, and our young man transferred it to his own pocket without looking at it. He thought he saw a shade of disappointment in Schinkel’s ugly, kindly face, at this indication that he should have no present knowledge of its contents; but he liked that better than his pretending to say again that it was nothing—that it was only a release. Schinkel had now the good sense, or the good taste, not to repeat that remark, and as the letter pressed against his heart Hyacinth felt still more distinctly that it was something—that it was a command. What Schinkel did say, in a moment, was: “Now that you have got it, I am very glad. It is more comfortable for me.”
The two of them continued on their way mostly in silence, with Hyacinth feeling quite struck by something his companion said in response to his question about what Eustache Poupin had mentioned when Schinkel first came to meet him that evening. “Il vaut du galme—il vaut du galme:” that was how the German interpreted the Frenchman’s words, and Hyacinth repeated them to himself several times, almost mimicking the accent. They had a calming effect. In fact, Schinkel was overall quite soothing, as Hyacinth sensed when they finally stopped at the door of his place in Westminster and stood there face to face, while Hyacinth waited—waited. The edge of his impatience had faded, and he observed without annoyance the affectionate way the German shook the ashes out of his large pipe and put it away. It was only after Schinkel meticulously finished this task that he said, “Also, now for the letter,” and reached inside his waistcoat to pull out the important document. It swiftly passed into Hyacinth’s hands, and he tucked it into his pocket without glancing at it. He thought he detected a hint of disappointment on Schinkel’s unattractive yet kind face at this sign that he wouldn’t learn its contents just yet; but he preferred that over Schinkel pretending to say again that it was nothing—that it was just a release. Schinkel wisely refrained from repeating that comment, and as the letter pressed against Hyacinth’s chest, he felt even more clearly that it was something significant—that it was a directive. What Schinkel did say, a moment later, was: “Now that you have it, I’m very glad. It’s more comfortable for me.”
“I should think so!” Hyacinth exclaimed. “If you hadn’t done your job you would have paid for it.”
“I think so!” Hyacinth exclaimed. “If you hadn’t done your job, you would have suffered the consequences.”
Schinkel hesitated a moment while he lingered; then, as Hyacinth turned away, putting in his door-key, he replied, “And if you don’t do yours, so will you.”
Schinkel hesitated for a moment as he waited; then, as Hyacinth turned away, using his door key, he replied, “And if you don’t do yours, neither will you.”
“Yes, as you say, they go straight! Good-night.” And our young man let himself in.
“Yes, as you say, they go straight! Goodnight.” And our young man let himself in.
The passage and staircase were never lighted, and the lodgers either groped their way bedward with the infallibility of practice or scraped the wall with a casual match which, in the milder gloom of day, was visible in a hundred rich streaks. Hyacinth’s room was on the second floor, behind, and as he approached it he was startled by seeing a light proceed from the crevice under the door, the imperfect fitting of which was in this manner vividly illustrated. He stopped and considered this mysterious brightness, and his first impulse was to connect it with the incident just ushered in by Schinkel; for what could anything that touched him now be but a part of the same business? It was natural that some punctual emissary should be awaiting him. Then it occurred to him that when he went out to call on Lady Aurora, after tea, he had simply left a tallow candle burning, and that it showed a cynical spirit on the part of his landlady, who could be so close-fisted for herself, not to have gone in and put it out. Lastly, it came over him that he had had a visitor, in his absence, and that the visitor had taken possession of his apartment till his return, seeking sources of comfort, as was perfectly just. When he opened the door he found that this last prevision was the right one, though his visitor was not one of the figures that had risen before him. Mr Vetch sat there, beside the little table at which Hyacinth did his writing, with his head resting on his hand and his eyes bent on the floor. He looked up when Hyacinth appeared, and said, “Oh, I didn’t hear you; you are very quiet.”
The hallway and staircase were never lit, and the tenants either found their way to bed by touch, thanks to routine, or struck a match against the wall that, in the dim light of day, revealed a hundred vibrant streaks. Hyacinth’s room was on the second floor, towards the back, and as he got closer, he was surprised to see a light shining from the gap under the door, showcasing the poorly fitting doorframe. He paused to think about this strange light, and his first instinct was to link it to the event he had just experienced with Schinkel; after all, how could anything that involved him not be connected to the same situation? It made sense that some timely messenger would be waiting for him. Then he remembered that when he left to visit Lady Aurora after tea, he had simply left a candle burning, and it showed a stingy side of his landlady, who could be so cheap for herself, not to have gone in and put it out. Finally, it dawned on him that he had had a visitor while he was gone, and that the visitor had occupied his apartment until he returned, seeking some comfort, which was only fair. When he opened the door, he found that his last thought had been correct, although his visitor wasn’t one of the people he had imagined. Mr. Vetch was sitting there, next to the small table where Hyacinth did his writing, with his head resting on his hand and his eyes focused on the floor. He looked up when Hyacinth entered and said, “Oh, I didn’t hear you; you're very quiet.”
“I come in softly, when I’m late, for the sake of the house—though I am bound to say I am the only lodger who has that refinement. Besides, you have been asleep,” Hyacinth said.
“I come in quietly when I'm late, out of respect for the house—though I have to say I'm the only one who does that. Besides, you’ve been asleep,” Hyacinth said.
“No, I have not been asleep,” returned the old man. “I don’t sleep much nowadays.”
“No, I haven't been asleep,” the old man replied. “I don't sleep much these days.”
“Then you have been plunged in meditation.”
“Then you have been deep in thought.”
“Yes, I have been thinking.” Then Mr Vetch explained that the woman of the house wouldn’t let him come in, at first, till he had given proper assurances that his intentions were pure and that he was moreover the oldest friend Mr Robinson had in the world. He had been there for an hour; he thought he might find him, coming so late.
“Yes, I’ve been thinking.” Then Mr. Vetch explained that the woman of the house wouldn’t let him in at first until he assured her that his intentions were genuine and that he was, in fact, Mr. Robinson’s oldest friend. He had been there for an hour; he thought he might find him since it was so late.
Hyacinth answered that he was very glad he had waited and that he was delighted to see him, and expressed regret that he hadn’t known in advance of his visit, so that he might have something to offer him. He sat down on his bed, vaguely expectant; he wondered what special purpose had brought the fiddler so far at that unnatural hour. But he only spoke the truth in saying that he was glad to see him. Hyacinth had come upstairs in a tremor of desire to be alone with the revelation that he carried in his pocket, yet the sight of Anastasius Vetch gave him a sudden relief by postponing solitude. The place where he had put his letter seemed to throb against his side, yet he was thankful to his old friend for forcing him still to leave it so. “I have been looking at your books,” the fiddler said; “you have two or three exquisite specimens of your own. Oh yes, I recognise your work when I see it; there are always certain little finer touches. You have a manner, like a master. With such a talent, such a taste, your future leaves nothing to be desired. You will make a fortune and become a great celebrity.”
Hyacinth responded that he was really glad he had waited and was happy to see him. He expressed regret that he hadn’t known about his visit ahead of time, so he could have offered him something. He sat down on his bed, feeling a bit expectant; he wondered what special reason had brought the fiddler over at such an odd hour. But he was being honest when he said he was glad to see him. Hyacinth had come upstairs anxious to be alone with the important revelation he had in his pocket, yet seeing Anastasius Vetch gave him a sudden relief by delaying his solitude. The spot where he had placed his letter seemed to thrum against his side, but he was grateful to his old friend for forcing him to leave it untouched for now. “I’ve been looking at your books,” the fiddler said; “you have two or three beautiful pieces that are your own. Oh yes, I can always recognize your work; there are always those little finer touches. You have a signature style, like a master. With such talent and taste, your future is incredibly bright. You’ll make a fortune and become a big celebrity.”
Mr Vetch sat forward, to sketch this vision; he rested his hands on his knees and looked very hard at his young friend, as if to challenge him to dispute his flattering views. The effect of what Hyacinth saw in his face was to give him immediately the idea that the fiddler knew something, though it was impossible to guess how he could know it. The Poupins, for instance, had had no time to communicate with him, even granting that they were capable of that baseness; an unwarrantable supposition, in spite of Hyacinth’s having seen them, less than an hour before, fall so much below their own standard. With this suspicion there rushed into Hyacinth’s mind an intense determination to dissemble before his visitor to the last; he might imagine what he liked, but he should not have a grain of satisfaction—or rather he should have that of being led to believe, if possible, that his suspicions were positively vain and idle. Hyacinth rested his eyes on the books that Mr Vetch had taken down from the shelf, and admitted that they were very pretty work and that so long as one didn’t become blind or maimed the ability to produce that sort of thing was a legitimate source of confidence. Then suddenly, as they continued simply to look at each other, the pressure of the old man’s curiosity, the expression of his probing, beseeching eyes, which had become strange and tragic in these latter times and completely changed their character, grew so intolerable that to defend himself Hyacinth took the aggressive and asked him boldly whether it were simply to look at his work, of which he had half a dozen specimens in Lomax Place, that he had made a nocturnal pilgrimage. “My dear old friend, you have something on your mind—some fantastic fear, some extremely erroneous idée fixe. Why has it taken you to-night, in particular? Whatever it is, it has brought you here, at an unnatural hour, you don’t know why. I ought of course to be thankful to anything that brings you here; and so I am, in so far as that it makes me happy. But I can’t like it if it makes you miserable. You’re like a nervous mother whose baby’s in bed upstairs; she goes up every five minutes to see if he’s all right—if he isn’t uncovered or hasn’t tumbled out of bed. Dear Mr Vetch, don’t, don’t worry; the blanket’s up to my chin, and I haven’t tumbled yet.”
Mr. Vetch leaned forward, eager to share his thoughts; he rested his hands on his knees and stared hard at his young friend, as if daring him to challenge his flattering opinions. The look on his face immediately made Hyacinth think that the fiddler knew something, although it was impossible to figure out how he would know. The Poupins, for example, hadn’t had time to talk to him, even if they were capable of such low behavior; that was an unfair assumption, despite Hyacinth having seen them just an hour earlier, fall well below their usual standards. This suspicion sparked in Hyacinth a strong determination to conceal his feelings from his visitor completely; he could think whatever he wanted, but he shouldn’t find any satisfaction—or rather, he should be led to believe that his suspicions were completely unfounded. Hyacinth focused on the books Mr. Vetch had pulled from the shelf, acknowledging that they were beautifully crafted and that as long as one didn’t become blind or disabled, the ability to create such things was a valid source of confidence. Then suddenly, as they simply stared at each other, the old man’s intense curiosity, the expression in his probing, pleading eyes— which had taken on a strange and tragic quality lately—grew so overwhelming that, to protect himself, Hyacinth decided to go on the offensive and boldly asked him if he had come for the sole purpose of looking at his work, of which he had half a dozen pieces at Lomax Place, making a late-night journey. “My dear old friend, you have something on your mind—some irrational fear, some extremely mistaken idée fixe. Why did it bring you here tonight, in particular? Whatever it is, it’s what brought you here at this odd hour, and you don’t know why. I should, of course, be grateful for anything that brings you here, and I am, to the extent that it makes me happy. But I can’t feel good about it if it makes you miserable. You’re like a worried mother checking on her child who’s upstairs in bed; she goes up every five minutes to make sure he’s okay—if he’s covered up or hasn’t fallen out of bed. Dear Mr. Vetch, don’t worry; the blanket’s up to my chin, and I haven’t fallen out yet.”
Hyacinth heard himself say these things as if he were listening to another person; the impudence of them, under the circumstances, seemed to him, somehow, so rare. But he believed himself to be on the edge of an episode in which impudence, evidently, must play a considerable part, and he might as well try his hand at it without delay. The way the old man gazed at him might have indicated that he too was able to take the measure of his perversity—that he knew he was false as he sat there declaring that there was nothing the matter, while a brand-new revolutionary commission burned in his pocket. But in a moment Mr Vetch said, very mildly, as if he had really been reassured, “It’s wonderful how you read my thoughts. I don’t trust you; I think there are beastly possibilities. It’s not true, at any rate, that I come to look at you every five minutes. You don’t know how often I have resisted my fears—how I have forced myself to let you alone.”
Hyacinth heard himself say these things as if he were listening to someone else; the boldness of them, given the context, seemed strangely rare to him. But he felt he was on the verge of a situation where boldness would definitely have a significant role, and he might as well dive in without hesitation. The way the old man looked at him suggested that he too could sense his deceit—that he was aware of his dishonesty as he sat there claiming that nothing was wrong while a brand-new revolutionary commission burned in his pocket. Then Mr. Vetch said gently, as if he had truly been reassured, “It’s amazing how well you read my mind. I don’t trust you; I think there are some awful possibilities. It’s not true, at least, that I check on you every five minutes. You have no idea how often I’ve fought against my fears—how I’ve made myself leave you alone.”
“You had better let me come and live with you, as I proposed after Pinnie’s death. Then you will have me always under your eyes,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“You should let me come and live with you, like I suggested after Pinnie’s death. That way, I’ll always be right there with you,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
The old man got up eagerly, and, as Hyacinth did the same, laid his hands upon his shoulders, holding him close. “Will you now, really, my boy? Will you come to-night?”
The old man got up eagerly, and, as Hyacinth did the same, placed his hands on his shoulders, pulling him close. “Will you really, my boy? Will you come tonight?”
“To-night, Mr Vetch?”
"Tonight, Mr. Vetch?"
“To-night has worried me more than any other, I don’t know why. After my tea I had my pipe and a glass, but I couldn’t keep quiet; I was very, very bad. I got to thinking of Pinnie—she seemed to be in the room. I felt as if I could put out my hand and touch her. If I believed in ghosts I should believe I had seen her. She wasn’t there for nothing; she was there to add her fears to mine—to talk to me about you. I tried to hush her up, but it was no use—she drove me out of the house. About ten o’clock I took my hat and stick and came down here. You may judge whether I thought it important, as I took a cab.”
“Tonight has bothered me more than any other night; I don’t know why. After my tea, I had my pipe and a drink, but I couldn’t settle down; I felt really, really bad. I started thinking about Pinnie—she felt like she was in the room. I felt like I could just reach out and touch her. If I believed in ghosts, I’d think I’d seen her. She wasn’t there for no reason; she was there to share her fears with mine—to talk to me about you. I tried to quiet her down, but it was no use—she drove me out of the house. Around ten o’clock, I grabbed my hat and stick and came down here. You can guess how important I thought it was, since I took a cab.”
“Ah, why do you spend your money so foolishly?” asked Hyacinth, in a tone of the most affectionate remonstrance.
“Ah, why do you waste your money like this?” asked Hyacinth, in a tone of the most caring disagreement.
“Will you come to-night?” said the old man, for all rejoinder, holding him still.
“Will you come tonight?” said the old man, holding him still in response.
“Surely, it would be simpler for you to stay here. I see perfectly that you are ill and nervous. You can take the bed, and I’ll spend the night in the chair.”
“Surely, it would be easier for you to stay here. I can see that you’re sick and anxious. You can take the bed, and I’ll spend the night in the chair.”
The fiddler thought a moment. “No, you’ll hate me if I subject you to such discomfort as that; and that’s just what I don’t want.”
The fiddler paused for a moment. “No, you’ll resent me if I put you through that kind of discomfort; and that’s the last thing I want.”
“It won’t be a bit different in your room; there, as here, I shall have to sleep in a chair.”
“It won’t be any different in your room; there, just like here, I’ll have to sleep in a chair.”
“I’ll get another room; we shall be close together,” the fiddler went on.
“I’ll get another room; we’ll be close together,” the fiddler continued.
“Do you mean you’ll get another room at this hour of the night, with your little house stuffed full and your people all in bed? My poor Anastasius, you are very bad; your reason totters on its throne,” said Hyacinth, humorously and indulgently.
“Are you saying you'll find another room at this hour of the night, with your place packed and everyone already in bed? My poor Anastasius, you're quite unreasonable; your sanity is hanging by a thread,” said Hyacinth, jokingly and kindly.
“Very good, we’ll get a room to-morrow. I’ll move into another house, where there are two, side by side.” Hyacinth’s tone was evidently soothing to him.
“Sounds great, we'll book a room tomorrow. I’ll move into another house where there are two right next to each other.” Hyacinth’s tone clearly put him at ease.
“Comme vous y allez!” the young man continued. “Excuse me if I remind you that in case of my leaving this place I have to give a fortnight’s notice.”
“Look at you go!” the young man continued. “Excuse me for reminding you that if I decide to leave this place, I need to give two weeks' notice.”
“Ah, you’re backing out!” the old man exclaimed, dropping his hands.
“Ah, you’re backing out!” the old man shouted, dropping his hands.
“Pinnie wouldn’t have said that,” Hyacinth returned. “If you are acting, if you are speaking, at the prompting of her pure spirit, you had better act and speak exactly as she would have done. She would have believed me.”
“Pinnie wouldn’t have said that,” Hyacinth replied. “If you’re acting or speaking because of her pure spirit, you better act and speak just like she would have. She would have believed me.”
“Believed you? Believed what? What is there to believe? If you’ll make me a promise, I will believe that.”
“Believe you? Believe what? What is there to believe? If you make me a promise, I will believe that.”
“I’ll make you any promise you like,” said Hyacinth.
“I'll promise you anything you want,” said Hyacinth.
“Oh, any promise I like—that isn’t what I want! I want just one very particular little pledge; and that is really what I came here for to-night. It came over me that I’ve been an ass, all this time, never to have demanded it of you before. Give it to me now, and I will go home quietly and leave you in peace.” Hyacinth, assenting in advance, requested again that he would formulate his demand, and then the old man said, “Well, promise me that you will never, under any circumstances whatever, do anything.”
“Oh, any promise I want—that's not what I need! I want just one very specific little promise; and that’s really why I came here tonight. I realized that I’ve been foolish, all this time, never having asked you for it before. Give it to me now, and I’ll go home quietly and leave you in peace.” Hyacinth, agreeing upfront, asked him to state his demand, and then the old man said, “Well, promise me that you will never, under any circumstances, do anything.”
“Do anything?”
“Do you want to do anything?”
“Anything that those people expect of you.”
“Anything those people expect from you.”
“Those people?” Hyacinth repeated.
“Those people?” Hyacinth echoed.
“Ah, don’t torment me with pretending not to understand!” the old man begged. “You know the people I mean. I can’t call them by their names, because I don’t know them. But you do, and they know you.”
“Ah, don’t torture me by pretending you don’t get it!” the old man pleaded. “You know the people I’m talking about. I can’t name them because I don’t know who they are. But you do, and they know you.”
Hyacinth had no desire to torment Mr Vetch, but he was capable of reflecting that to enter into his thought too easily would be tantamount to betraying himself. “I suppose I know the people you have in mind,” he said, in a moment; “but I’m afraid I don’t grasp the idea of the promise.”
Hyacinth didn’t want to annoy Mr. Vetch, but he realized that getting into his thoughts too easily would be like betraying himself. “I think I know the people you’re talking about,” he said after a moment, “but I’m not sure I understand the promise.”
“Don’t they want to make use of you?”
“Don’t they want to use you?”
“I see what you mean,” said Hyacinth. “You think they want me to touch off some train for them. Well, if that’s what troubles you, you may sleep sound. I shall never do any of their work.”
“I get what you're saying,” said Hyacinth. “You think they want me to start some trouble for them. Well, if that’s what’s bothering you, you can rest easy. I will never do any of their work.”
A radiant light came into the fiddler’s face, and he stared, as if this assurance were too fair for nature. “Do you take your oath on that? Never anything, anything, anything?”
A bright light shone on the fiddler's face, and he stared, as if this promise was too good to be true. “Are you really vowing to that? Never anything, anything, anything?”
“Never anything at all.”
"Nothing at all."
“Will you swear it to me by the memory of that good woman of whom we have been speaking and whom we both loved?”
“Will you promise me by the memory of that wonderful woman we've been talking about and whom we both loved?”
“My dear old Pinnie’s memory? Willingly.”
“My dear old Pinnie’s memory? Of course.”
The old man sank down in his chair and buried his face in his hands; the next moment his companion heard him sobbing. Ten minutes later he was content to take his departure, and Hyacinth went out with him to look for another cab. They found an ancient four-wheeler stationed languidly at a crossing of the ways, and before Mr Vetch got into it he asked his young friend to kiss him. That young friend watched the vehicle get itself into motion and rattle away; he saw it turn a neighbouring corner. Then he approached the nearest gas-lamp and drew from his breast-pocket the letter that Schinkel had given him.
The old man slumped in his chair and buried his face in his hands; a moment later, his companion heard him sobbing. Ten minutes later, he was ready to leave, and Hyacinth went out with him to find another cab. They spotted an old four-wheeler parked lazily at a crossroads, and before Mr. Vetch got in, he asked his young friend to give him a kiss. That young friend watched the vehicle start moving and rattle away; he saw it turn a nearby corner. Then he approached the nearest streetlight and pulled out the letter that Schinkel had given him from his jacket pocket.
XLV
“And Madame Grandoni, then?” asked Hyacinth, reluctant to turn away. He felt pretty sure that he should never knock at that door again, and the desire was strong in him to see once more, for the last time, the ancient, troubled suivante of the Princess, whom he had always liked. She had seemed to him ever to be in the slightly ridiculous position of a confidant of tragedy in whom the heroine should have ceased to confide.
“And what about Madame Grandoni?” Hyacinth asked, hesitating to leave. He was pretty sure he'd never knock on that door again, and he really wanted to see one last time the old, troubled suivante of the Princess, whom he had always liked. She had always seemed to him to be in the somewhat absurd role of a confidant of tragedy that the heroine should have stopped confiding in.
“E andata via, caro signorino,” said Assunta, smiling at him as she stood there holding the door open.
“She's gone, dear sir,” said Assunta, smiling at him as she stood there holding the door open.
“She has gone away? Bless me, when did she go?”
“She’s gone? Wow, when did she leave?”
“It is now five days, dear young sir. She has returned to our country.”
“It’s been five days now, dear young man. She has come back to our country.”
“Is it possible?” exclaimed Hyacinth, disappointedly.
“Is it really possible?” Hyacinth exclaimed, feeling disappointed.
“E possibilissimo!” said Assunta. Then she added, “There were many times when she almost went; but this time—capisce—” And without finishing her sentence the Princess’s Roman tirewoman indulged in a subtle, suggestive, indefinable play of expression, to which her hands and shoulders contributed, as well as her lips and eyebrows.
“E possibilissimo!” said Assunta. Then she added, “There were many times when she almost went; but this time—capisce—” And without finishing her sentence, the Princess’s Roman tirewoman engaged in a subtle, suggestive, and undefined play of expression, enhanced by her hands and shoulders, as well as her lips and eyebrows.
Hyacinth looked at her long enough to catch any meaning that she might have wished to convey, but gave no sign of apprehending it. He only remarked, gravely, “In short she is here no more.”
Hyacinth looked at her long enough to understand any message she might have wanted to communicate, but he showed no sign of getting it. He simply said, seriously, “In short, she’s no longer here.”
“And the worst is that she will probably never come back. She didn’t go for a long time, but when she decided herself it was finished,” Assunta declared. “Peccato!” she added, with a sigh.
“And the worst part is that she’ll probably never come back. She didn’t leave for long, but when she decided it was over, that was it,” Assunta declared. “What a shame!” she added, with a sigh.
“I should have liked to see her again—I should have liked to bid her good-bye.” Hyacinth lingered there in strange, melancholy vagueness; since he had been told the Princess was not at home he had no reason for remaining, save the possibility that she might return before he turned away. This possibility, however, was small, for it was only nine o’clock, the middle of the evening—too early an hour for her to reappear, if, as Assunta said, she had gone out after tea. He looked up and down the Crescent, gently swinging his stick, and became conscious in a moment that Assunta was regarding him with tender interest.
“I really wanted to see her again—I really wanted to say goodbye.” Hyacinth stayed there in a strange, sad confusion; since he had been told the Princess wasn't home, he had no reason to stick around except for the slim chance that she might come back before he left. This chance, however, was small, since it was only nine o’clock, right in the middle of the evening—too early for her to return, if, as Assunta said, she had gone out after tea. He looked up and down the Crescent, gently swinging his stick, and soon realized that Assunta was watching him with affectionate interest.
“You should have come back sooner; then perhaps she wouldn’t have gone, povera vecchia,” she rejoined in a moment. “It is too many days since you have been here. She liked you—I know that.”
“You should have come back sooner; then maybe she wouldn’t have left, poor thing,” she replied after a moment. “It’s been too many days since you’ve been here. She liked you—I know that.”
“She liked me, but she didn’t like me to come,” said Hyacinth. “Wasn’t that why she went, because we came?”
“She liked me, but she didn’t want me around,” said Hyacinth. “Wasn’t that why she left, because we showed up?”
“Ah, that other one—with the long legs—yes. But you are better.”
“Ah, that other one—with the long legs—yeah. But you’re better.”
“The Princess doesn’t think so, and she is the right judge,” Hyacinth replied, smiling.
“The Princess doesn’t think that way, and she’s the best judge,” Hyacinth said with a smile.
“Eh, who knows what she thinks? It is not for me to say. But you had better come in and wait. I dare say she won’t be long, and it would gratify her to find you.”
“Eh, who knows what she thinks? It’s not for me to say. But you should come in and wait. I’m sure she won’t be long, and it would make her happy to see you.”
Hyacinth hesitated. “I am not sure of that.” Then he asked, “Did she go out alone?”
Hyacinth paused. “I'm not sure about that.” Then he asked, “Did she go out by herself?”
“Sola, sola,” said Assunta, smiling. “Oh, don’t be afraid; you were the first!” And she flung open the door of the little drawing-room, with an air of irresistible solicitation and sympathy.
“Sola, sola,” said Assunta, smiling. “Oh, don’t worry; you were the first!” And she opened the door to the small drawing-room, with an air of irresistible warmth and understanding.
He sat there nearly an hour, in the chair the Princess habitually used, under her shaded lamp, with a dozen objects around him which seemed as much a part of herself as if they had been folds of her dress or even tones of her voice. His thoughts were tremendously active, but his body was too tired for restlessness; he had not been at work, and had been walking about all day, to fill the time; so that he simply reclined there, with his head on one of the Princess’s cushions, his feet on one of her little stools—one of the ugly ones, that belonged to the house—and his respiration coming quickly, like that of a man in a state of acute agitation. Hyacinth was agitated now, but it was not because he was waiting for the Princess; a deeper source of emotion had been opened to him, and he had not on the present occasion more sharpness of impatience than had already visited him at certain moments of the past twenty hours. He had not closed his eyes the night before, and the day had not made up for that torment. A fever of reflection had descended upon him, and the range of his imagination had been wide. It whirled him through circles of immeasurable compass; and this is the reason that, thinking of many things while he sat in the Princess’s chair, he wondered why, after all, he had come to Madeira Crescent, and what interest he could have in seeing the lady of the house. He had a very complete sense that everything was over between them; that the link had snapped which bound them so closely together for a while. And this was not simply because for a long time now he had received no sign nor communication from her, no invitation to come back, no inquiry as to why his visits had stopped. It was not because he had seen her go in and out with Paul Muniment, nor because it had suited Prince Casamassima to point the moral of her doing so, nor even because, quite independently of the Prince, he believed her to be more deeply absorbed in her acquaintance with that superior young man than she had ever been in her relations with himself. The reason, so far as he became conscious of it in his fitful meditations, could only be a strange, detached curiosity—strange and detached because everything else of his past had been engulfed in the abyss that opened before him as, after Mr Vetch had left him, he stood under the lamp in a paltry Westminster street. That had swallowed up all familiar feelings, and yet out of the ruin had sprung the impulse which brought him to where he sat.
He sat there for nearly an hour, in the chair the Princess usually used, under her shaded lamp, with a dozen objects around him that felt as much a part of her as if they were folds of her dress or even tones of her voice. His mind was racing, but his body was too tired to feel restless; he hadn’t been working and had spent the day walking around to pass the time. So, he just leaned back there, with his head on one of the Princess’s cushions, his feet on one of her small stools—one of the ugly ones that belonged to the house—and his breathing came quickly, like someone in a state of acute agitation. Hyacinth was agitated now, but it wasn’t because he was waiting for the Princess; a deeper source of emotion had stirred in him, and he felt no more impatience than he had at certain moments in the past twenty hours. He hadn’t closed his eyes the night before, and the day had not made up for that torment. A fever of reflection had come upon him, and the range of his imagination had been expansive. It whirled him through circles of limitless possibilities; and while he sat in the Princess’s chair, he wondered why he had come to Madeira Crescent, and what interest he could have in seeing the lady of the house. He felt completely certain that everything was over between them; that the connection that had bound them so closely for a while had snapped. This wasn’t just because he hadn’t received any signals or messages from her for a long time, no invitations to come back, no inquiries about why his visits had stopped. It wasn’t because he had seen her going in and out with Paul Muniment, nor because it suited Prince Casamassima to highlight her actions, nor even because, quite independently of the Prince, he believed she was more absorbed in her relationship with that superior young man than she had ever been with him. The reason, as he became aware of it in his erratic thoughts, could only be a strange, detached curiosity—strange and detached because everything else from his past had been swallowed by the abyss that opened before him as, after Mr. Vetch had left, he stood under the lamp in a dingy Westminster street. That had consumed all familiar feelings, and yet out of that ruin had emerged the impulse that brought him to where he sat.
The solution of his difficulty—he flattered himself he had arrived at it—involved a winding-up of his affairs; and though, even if no solution had been required, he would have felt clearly that he had been dropped, yet as even in that case it would have been sweet to him to bid her good-bye, so, at present, the desire for some last vision of her own hurrying fate could still appeal to him. If things had not gone well for him he was still capable of wondering whether they looked better for her. It is a singular fact, but there rose in his mind a sort of incongruous desire to pity her. All these were odd feelings enough, and by the time half an hour had elapsed they had throbbed themselves into weariness and into slumber. While he remembered that he was waiting now in a very different frame from that in which he waited for her in South Street the first time he went to see her, he closed his eyes and lost himself. His unconsciousness lasted, he afterwards perceived, nearly half an hour; it terminated in his becoming aware that the lady of the house was standing before him. Assunta was behind her, and as he opened his eyes she took from her mistress the bonnet and mantle of which the Princess divested herself. “It’s charming of you to have waited,” the latter said, smiling down at him with all her old kindness. “You are very tired—don’t get up; that’s the best chair, and you must keep it.” She made him remain where he was; she placed herself near him on a smaller seat; she declared that she was not tired herself, that she didn’t know what was the matter with her—nothing tired her now; she exclaimed on the time that had elapsed since he had last called, as if she were reminded of it simply by seeing him again; and she insisted that he should have some tea—he looked so much as if he needed it. She considered him with deeper attention, and wished to know what was the matter with him—what he had done to use himself up; adding that she must begin and look after him again, for while she had the care of him that kind of thing didn’t happen. In response to this Hyacinth made a great confession: he admitted that he had stayed away from work and simply amused himself—amused himself by loafing about London all day. This didn’t pay—he was beginning to discover it as he grew older; it was doubtless a sign of increasing years when one began to perceive that wanton pleasures were hollow and that to stick to one’s tools was not only more profitable but more refreshing. However, he did stick to them, as a general thing; that was no doubt partly why, from the absence of the habit of it, a day off turned out to be rather a grind. When Hyacinth had not seen the Princess for some time he always, on meeting her again, had a renewed, tremendous sense of her beauty, and he had it to-night in an extraordinary degree. Splendid as that beauty had ever been, it seemed clothed at present in transcendent glory, and (if that which was already supremely fine could be capable of greater refinement) to have worked itself free of all earthly grossness and been purified and consecrated by her new life. Her gentleness, when she was in the mood for it, was quite divine (it had always the irresistible charm that it was the humility of a high spirit), and on this occasion she gave herself up to it. Whether it was because he had the consciousness of resting his eyes upon her for the last time, or because she wished to be particularly pleasant to him in order to make up for having, amid other preoccupations, rather dropped him of late (it was probable the effect was a product of both causes), at all events the sight of her loveliness seemed none the less a privilege than it had done the night he went into her box, at the play, and her presence lifted the weight from his soul. He suffered himself to be coddled and absently, even if radiantly, smiled at, and his state of mind was such that it could produce no alteration of his pain to see that on the Princess’s part these were inexpensive gifts. She had sent Assunta to bring them tea, and when the tray arrived she gave him cup after cup, with every restorative demonstration; but he had not sat with her a quarter of an hour before he perceived that she scarcely measured a word he said to her or a word that she herself uttered. If she had the best intention of being nice to him, by way of compensation, this compensation was for a wrong that was far from vividly present to her mind. Two points became perfectly clear: one was that she was thinking of something very different from her present, her past, or her future relations with Hyacinth Robinson; the other was that he was superseded indeed. This was so completely the case that it did not even occur to her, it was evident, that the sense of supersession might be cruel to the young man. If she was charming to him it was because she was good-natured and he had been hanging off, and not because she had done him an injury. Perhaps, after all, she hadn’t, for he got the impression that it might be no great loss of comfort not to constitute part of her life to-day. It was manifest from her eye, from her smile, from every movement and tone, and indeed from all the irradiation of her beauty, that that life to-day was tremendously wound up. If he had come to Madeira Crescent because he was curious to see how she was getting on, it was sufficiently intimated to him that she was getting on well; that is that she was living more than ever on high hopes and bold plans and far-reaching combinations. These things, from his own point of view, ministered less to happiness, and to be mixed up with them was perhaps not so much greater a sign that one had not lived for nothing, than the grim arrangement which, in the interest of peace, he had just arrived at with himself. She asked him why he had not been to see her for so long, quite as if this failure were only a vulgar form of social neglect; and she scarcely seemed to notice whether it were a good or a poor excuse when he said he had stayed away because he knew her to be extremely busy. But she did not deny the impeachment; she admitted that she had been busier than ever in her life before. She looked at him as if he would know what that meant, and he remarked that he was very sorry for her.
The solution to his problem—he convinced himself he had figured it out—meant he needed to wrap up his affairs. Even if no solution had been necessary, he would still have sensed that he had been set aside. Yet, in that situation, it would have been nice to say goodbye to her, so now the wish for one last glimpse of her rushing fate still drew him in. Even if things hadn’t gone well for him, he still found himself wondering if they looked better for her. It’s a strange thing, but he felt a bizarre urge to feel sorry for her. All these were unusual emotions, and by the time about half an hour had passed, they had worn him out and lulled him to sleep. He realized he was waiting in a very different mindset than when he had waited for her in South Street the first time he visited her, and he closed his eyes and lost himself. His unconsciousness lasted, he later noticed, nearly half an hour; it ended when he became aware that the lady of the house was standing in front of him. Assunta was behind her, and as he opened his eyes, she took off the bonnet and coat that the Princess had just removed. “It’s so nice of you to have waited,” the Princess said, smiling down at him with all her usual kindness. “You look very tired—don’t get up; that’s the best chair, and you should keep it.” She insisted he stay where he was and took a smaller seat nearby. She claimed she wasn’t tired at all, that she didn’t know what was wrong with her—nothing tired her anymore; she commented on how much time had passed since his last visit, as if she was reminded simply by seeing him again; and she insisted he should have some tea—he looked like he really needed it. She studied him more closely and wanted to know what was wrong with him—what he had done to wear himself out, adding that she needed to start looking after him again because when she had done that, he didn't have these problems. In response, Hyacinth made a big confession: he admitted he had taken time off work and just entertained himself—wasting time loafing around London all day. This wasn’t a good idea—he was starting to realize it as he got older; it was likely a sign of aging when one began to see that aimless pleasures were empty and that sticking to one’s work was not only more rewarding but also invigorating. Still, he generally did stick to his work; that was probably why, since he wasn’t used to it, a day off felt more like a chore. Whenever Hyacinth hadn’t seen the Princess for a while, meeting her again always brought a renewed, intense realization of her beauty, and tonight it struck him particularly hard. As stunning as her beauty had always been, it seemed bathed in a divine light right now, which (if what was already incredibly beautiful could be made even more exquisite) had managed to shed all earthly imperfections and been elevated and sanctified by her new life. Her gentleness, when she chose to show it, was truly sublime (always carrying the irresistible charm of humility from a noble spirit), and this time she embraced it. Whether it was because he felt he was gazing at her for the last time, or because she wanted to be especially kind to him to make up for having somewhat neglected him lately, it was likely a mix of both causes. In any case, seeing her beauty felt just as much a privilege as it did that night he entered her box at the theater, and her presence lifted the heavy weight from his heart. He let himself be pampered and smiled absently, even radiantly, and his mindset was such that it didn’t change his pain to see that, from the Princess's perspective, these were simple gestures. She had sent Assunta to bring them tea, and when the tray arrived, she poured him cup after cup, offering every kind of comforting gesture; but it hadn’t been long before he noticed that she hardly paid attention to anything he said or the words she uttered. Even if she meant well in being nice to him as compensation, this compensation was for a wrong that was far from vividly present in her mind. Two things became crystal clear: one was that she was focused on something entirely different from her present, past, or future relationships with Hyacinth Robinson; the other was that he was indeed being pushed aside. It was so obvious that it didn't even seem to occur to her that the feeling of being sidelined might be painful for him. If she was charming to him, it was because she was in a good mood and he had been somewhat distant, not because she had wronged him. Maybe, after all, she hadn’t, since he felt it might not be such a huge loss to not be part of her life today. It was clear from her gaze, her smile, her every movement and tone, and indeed from the radiance of her beauty, that her life today was incredibly busy. If he had come to Madeira Crescent out of curiosity to see how she was doing, it was evident to him that she was doing well; she was living more than ever on high hopes, bold plans, and grand designs. From his perspective, these things contributed less to happiness, and being involved with them was perhaps not a significantly better indication that one hadn't lived in vain, than the difficult arrangement he had just made with himself in the interest of peace. She asked him why he hadn’t visited her in so long, as if this absence were merely a commonplace social slight; and she barely seemed to register whether his excuse was good or bad when he said he had stayed away because he knew she was extremely busy. But she didn’t deny the accusation; she admitted that she had been busier than ever before in her life. She looked at him as if he would understand what that meant, and he remarked that he was very sorry for her.
“Because you think it’s all a mistake? Yes, I know that. Perhaps it is; but if it is, it’s a magnificent one. If you were scared about me three or four months ago, I don’t know what you would think to-day—if you knew! I have risked everything.”
“Because you think it’s all a mistake? Yeah, I get that. Maybe it is; but if it is, it’s a spectacular one. If you were worried about me three or four months ago, I can’t imagine what you would think today—if you only knew! I’ve risked everything.”
“Fortunately I don’t know,” said Hyacinth.
“Luckily, I don’t know,” said Hyacinth.
“No, indeed, how should you?”
"No, really, how could you?"
“And to tell the truth,” he went on, “that is really the reason I haven’t been back here till to-night. I haven’t wanted to know—I have feared and hated to know.”
“And to be honest,” he continued, “that’s really why I haven’t come back until tonight. I didn’t want to know—I was afraid and hated the thought of knowing.”
“Then why did you come at last?”
“Then why did you finally come?”
Hyacinth hesitated a moment. “Out of a kind of inconsistent curiosity.”
Hyacinth paused for a moment. “Out of a sort of mixed curiosity.”
“I suppose then you would like me to tell you where I have been to-night, eh?”
“I guess you want me to tell you where I've been tonight, right?”
“No, my curiosity is satisfied. I have learned something—what I mainly wanted to know—without your telling me.”
“No, I'm good. I've learned what I mainly wanted to know without you having to tell me.”
She stared an instant. “Ah, you mean whether Madame Grandoni was gone? I suppose Assunta told you.”
She paused for a moment. “Oh, you’re asking if Madame Grandoni has left? I guess Assunta filled you in.”
“Yes, Assunta told me, and I was sorry to hear it.”
“Yes, Assunta told me, and I was sad to hear that.”
The Princess looked grave, as if her old friend’s departure had been indeed a very serious incident. “You may imagine how I feel it! It leaves me completely alone; it makes, in the eyes of the world, an immense difference in my position. However, I don’t consider the eyes of the world. At any rate, she couldn’t put up with me any more—it appears that I am more and more shocking; and it was written!” On Hyacinth’s asking what the old lady would do, she replied, “I suppose she will go and live with my husband.” Five minutes later she inquired of him whether the same reason that he had mentioned just before was the explanation of his absence from Audley Court. Mr Muniment had told her that he had not been near him and his sister for more than a month.
The Princess looked serious, as if her old friend's leaving was really a big deal. "You can imagine how I feel about it! It leaves me totally alone; it makes a huge difference in how people see me. But honestly, I don't care about how the world sees me. Anyway, she just couldn’t deal with me anymore—apparently, I’m becoming more and more shocking; it was bound to happen!” When Hyacinth asked what the old lady would do, she said, “I guess she’ll go live with my husband.” Five minutes later, she asked him if the same reason he mentioned earlier was why he hadn’t been at Audley Court. Mr. Muniment had told her that he hadn’t seen him or his sister in over a month.
“No, it isn’t the fear of learning something that would make me uneasy: because, somehow, in the first place it isn’t natural to feel uneasy about Paul, and in the second, if it were, he never lets one see anything. It is simply the general sense of real divergence of view. When that divergence becomes sharp, it is better not to pester each other.”
“No, it’s not the fear of learning something that makes me uncomfortable: because, for one thing, it doesn’t feel natural to be uneasy around Paul, and for another, if I were, he never shows it. It’s just the overall feeling of a real difference in perspective. When that difference becomes clear, it’s better not to bother each other.”
“I see what you mean. But you might go and see his sister.”
“I get what you’re saying. But you could go see his sister.”
“I don’t like her,” said Hyacinth, simply.
“I don’t like her,” Hyacinth said plainly.
“Ah, neither do I!” the Princess exclaimed; while her visitor remained conscious of the perfect composure, the absence of false shame, with which she had referred to their common friend. But she was silent after this, and he judged that he had stayed long enough and sufficiently taxed a preoccupied attention. He got up, and was bidding her good-night, when she checked him by saying, suddenly, “By the way, your not going to see so good a friend as Mr Muniment, because you disapprove to-day of his work, suggests to me that you will be in an awkward fix, with your disapprovals, the day you are called upon to serve the cause according to your vow.”
“Ah, neither do I!” the Princess exclaimed; while her visitor noticed the perfect composure and lack of false shame with which she had mentioned their mutual friend. But she fell silent after that, and he figured he had overstayed his welcome and occupied her thoughts enough. He stood up to say goodnight when she suddenly stopped him, saying, “By the way, since you don’t want to see such a good friend as Mr. Muniment today because you disapprove of his work, it makes me think you’ll be in a tough spot with your disapprovals on the day you’re called to serve the cause as you promised.”
“Oh, of course I have thought of that,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“Oh, of course I've thought about that,” said Hyacinth, smiling.
“And would it be indiscreet to ask what you have thought?”
“And would it be inappropriate to ask what you’ve been thinking?”
“Ah, so many things, Princess! It would take me a long time to say.”
“Wow, so much stuff, Princess! It would take me a while to explain.”
“I have never talked to you about this, because it seemed to me indelicate, and the whole thing too much a secret of your own breast for even so intimate a friend as I have been to have a right to meddle with it. But I have wondered much—seeing that you cared less and less for the people—how you would reconcile your change of heart with the performance of your engagement. I pity you, my poor friend,” the Princess went on, with a heavenly sweetness, “for I can imagine nothing more terrible than to find yourself face to face with such an engagement, and to feel at the same time that the spirit which prompted it is dead within you.”
“I’ve never brought this up with you because it felt inappropriate, and the whole situation seemed too private for even a close friend like me to interfere with. But I’ve often wondered—since you’ve grown more distant from people—how you would manage your change of heart with your commitment. I feel for you, my dear friend,” the Princess continued, with a gentle sweetness, “because I can’t imagine anything worse than facing such a commitment while feeling that the motivation behind it has vanished within you.”
“Terrible, terrible, most terrible,” said Hyacinth, gravely, looking at her.
“Awful, awful, really awful,” said Hyacinth, seriously, looking at her.
“But I pray God it may never be your fate!” The Princess hesitated a moment; then she added, “I see you feel it. Heaven help us all!” She paused, then went on: “Why shouldn’t I tell you, after all? A short time ago I had a visit from Mr Vetch.”
“But I pray God it may never be your fate!” The Princess paused for a moment, then added, “I see you feel it. Heaven help us all!” She stopped for a moment, then continued: “Why shouldn’t I tell you, after all? A little while ago, I had a visit from Mr. Vetch.”
“It was kind of you to see him,” said Hyacinth.
“It was nice of you to see him,” said Hyacinth.
“He was delightful, I assure you. But do you know what he came for? To beg me, on his knees, to snatch you away.”
“He was charming, I promise you. But do you know what he came for? To beg me, on his knees, to take you away.”
“To snatch me away?”
"To take me away?"
“From the danger that hangs over you. Poor man, he was very pathetic.”
“From the danger that surrounds you. Poor guy, he was really sad.”
“Oh yes, he has talked to me about it,” Hyacinth said. “He has picked up the idea, but he knows nothing whatever about it. And how did he expect that you would be able to snatch me?”
“Oh yeah, he’s mentioned it to me,” Hyacinth said. “He’s picked up the idea, but he knows absolutely nothing about it. And how did he think you would be able to grab me?”
“He left that to me; he had only a general conviction of my influence with you.”
“He left that to me; he only had a general belief in my influence over you.”
“And he thought you would exercise it to make me back out? He does you injustice; you wouldn’t!” Hyacinth exclaimed, with a laugh. “In that case, taking one false position with another, yours would be no better than mine.”
“And he thought you would use it to make me back out? He’s underestimating you; you wouldn’t!” Hyacinth said with a laugh. “In that case, putting one false position against another, yours wouldn’t be any better than mine.”
“Oh, speaking seriously, I am perfectly quiet about you and about myself. I know you won’t be called,” the Princess returned.
“Oh, to speak seriously, I'm totally hush-hush about you and myself. I know you won’t get called,” the Princess replied.
“May I inquire how you know it?”
"Can I ask how you know that?"
After a slight hesitation she replied, “Mr Muniment tells me so.”
After a moment of hesitation, she responded, “Mr. Muniment told me that.”
“And how does he know it?”
“And how does he know that?”
“We have information. My dear fellow,” the Princess went on, “you are so much out of it now that if I were to tell you, you wouldn’t understand.”
“We have information. My dear friend,” the Princess continued, “you’re so out of the loop now that if I were to tell you, you wouldn’t get it.”
“Yes, no doubt I am out of it; but I still have a right to say, all the same, in contradiction to your imputation of a moment ago, that I care for the people exactly as much as I ever did.”
“Yes, I may be out of touch, but I still have the right to say, in response to your earlier accusation, that I care for the people just as much as I always have.”
“My poor Hyacinth, my dear infatuated little aristocrat, was that ever very much?” the Princess asked.
“My poor Hyacinth, my dear lovesick little aristocrat, was that ever really a lot?” the Princess asked.
“It was enough, and it is still enough, to make me willing to lay down my life for anything that will really help them.”
“It’s enough, and it still is enough, to make me willing to give my life for anything that will truly help them.”
“Yes, and of course you must decide for yourself what that is; or, rather, what it’s not.”
“Yes, and of course you have to figure out what that is for yourself; or, rather, what it isn’t.”
“I didn’t decide when I gave my promise. I agreed to take the decision of others,” Hyacinth said.
“I didn’t choose when I made my promise. I went along with what others decided,” Hyacinth said.
“Well, you said just now that in relation to this business of yours you had thought of many things,” the Princess rejoined. “Have you ever, by chance, thought of anything that will help the people?”
“Well, you just said that in connection with this business of yours, you’ve thought of many things,” the Princess replied. “Have you ever, by any chance, thought of anything that will help the people?”
“You call me fantastic names, but I’m one of them myself.”
“You give me amazing titles, but I’m one of them too.”
“I know what you are going to say!” the Princess broke in. “You are going to say that it will help them to do what you do—to do their work and earn their wages. That’s beautiful so far as it goes. But what do you propose for the thousands and thousands for whom no work—on the overcrowded earth, under the pitiless heaven—is to be found? There is less and less work in the world, and there are more and more people to do the little that there is. The old ferocious selfishnesses must come down. They won’t come down gracefully, so they must be smashed!”
“I know what you’re going to say!” the Princess interrupted. “You’re going to say that it will help them to do what you do—to do their work and earn their wages. That’s nice up to a point. But what do you suggest for the thousands and thousands for whom there’s no work—on this overcrowded earth, under this unforgiving sky? There’s less and less work in the world, and more and more people to do the little that’s available. The old brutal selfishnesses must be broken down. They won’t fall apart easily, so they have to be smashed!”
The tone in which the Princess uttered these words made Hyacinth’s heart beat fast, and there was something so inspiring in her devoted fairness that the vision of a great heroism flashed up again before him, in all the splendour it had lost—the idea of a tremendous risk and an unregarded sacrifice. Such a woman as that, at such a moment, made every scruple seem a prudence and every compunction a cowardice. “I wish to God I could see it as you see it!” he exclaimed, after he had looked at her a minute in silent admiration.
The way the Princess spoke these words made Hyacinth's heart race, and there was something so uplifting in her sincere fairness that the image of great heroism resurfaced in his mind, shining with all the brilliance it had previously lost—the thought of a massive risk and an overlooked sacrifice. A woman like that, at a moment like this, turned every doubt into caution and every guilty feeling into cowardice. "I wish I could see it the way you do!" he exclaimed after gazing at her for a minute in silent admiration.
“I see simply this: that what we are doing is at least worth trying, and that as none of those who have the power, the place, the means, will try anything else, on their head be the responsibility, on their head be the blood!”
“I see it this way: what we're doing is at least worth a shot, and since none of those in power, with influence or resources, will attempt anything different, let them take the responsibility, let them take the blame!”
“Princess,” said Hyacinth, clasping his hands and feeling that he trembled, “dearest Princess, if anything should happen to you—” and his voice fell; the horror of it, a dozen hideous images of her possible perversity and her possible punishment were again before him, as he had already seen them in sinister musings; they seemed to him worse than anything he had imagined for himself.
“Princess,” said Hyacinth, clasping his hands and feeling a tremor, “dearest Princess, if anything were to happen to you—” and his voice trailed off; the horror of it, a dozen disturbing images of her potential downfall and her possible consequences were once again in front of him, just as he had envisioned them in dark thoughts; they seemed to him worse than anything he had imagined for himself.
She threw back her head, looking at him almost in anger. “To me! And pray why not to me? What title have I to exemption, to security, more than any one else? Why am I so sacrosanct and so precious?”
She threw her head back, looking at him almost in anger. “To me! And why not to me? What right do I have to be exempt, to feel secure, more than anyone else? Why am I so untouchable and so valuable?”
“Simply because there is no one in the world, and there has never been any one in the world, like you.”
“Simply because there’s no one else in the world, and there has never been anyone in the world, like you.”
“Oh, thank you!” said the Princess, with a kind of dry impatience, turning away.
“Oh, thanks!” said the Princess, with a hint of dry impatience, turning away.
The manner in which she spoke put an end to their conversation. It expressed an indifference to what it might interest him to think about her to-day, and even a contempt for it, which brought tears to his eyes. His tears, however, were concealed by the fact that he bent his head over her hand, which he had taken to kiss; after which he left the room without looking at her.
The way she spoke ended their conversation. It showed that she didn't care about what he might think of her today, and even had a bit of disdain for it, which brought tears to his eyes. However, he hid his tears by bending his head over her hand, which he had taken to kiss; after that, he left the room without looking at her.
XLVI
“I have received a letter from your husband,” Paul Muniment said to the Princess, the next evening, as soon as he came into the room. He announced this fact with a kind of bald promptitude and with a familiarity of manner which showed that his visit was one of a closely-connected series. The Princess was evidently not a little surprised by it, and immediately asked how in the world the Prince could know his address. “Couldn’t it have been by your old lady?” Muniment inquired. “He must have met her in Paris. It is from Paris that he writes.”
“I got a letter from your husband,” Paul Muniment said to the Princess the next evening as soon as he walked into the room. He stated this with a straightforwardness and casualness that indicated his visit was part of an ongoing connection. The Princess was clearly taken aback by this and quickly asked how in the world the Prince managed to get his address. “Couldn’t it have been through your old lady?” Muniment suggested. “He must have met her in Paris. He’s writing from Paris.”
“What an incorrigible cad!” the Princess exclaimed.
“What an unredeemable jerk!” the Princess exclaimed.
“I don’t see that—for writing to me. I have his letter in my pocket, and I will show it to you if you like.”
“I don’t understand that—about writing to me. I have his letter in my pocket, and I can show it to you if you want.”
“Thank you, nothing would induce me to touch anything he has touched,” the Princess replied.
“Thank you, but there’s nothing that could make me touch anything he has touched,” the Princess replied.
“You touch his money, my dear lady,” Muniment remarked, with the quiet smile of a man who sees things as they are.
“You touch his money, my dear lady,” Muniment said, with a calm smile of a man who understands things as they are.
The Princess hesitated a little. “Yes, I make an exception for that, because it hurts him, it makes him suffer.”
The Princess paused for a moment. “Yeah, I’ll make an exception for that because it hurts him; it makes him suffer.”
“I should think, on the contrary, it would gratify him by showing you in a condition of weakness and dependence.”
“I think, on the other hand, it would please him to see you in a state of weakness and dependence.”
“Not when he knows I don’t use it for myself. What exasperates him is that it is devoted to ends that he hates almost as much as he hates me and yet which he can’t call selfish.”
“Not when he knows I don’t use it for myself. What frustrates him is that it is dedicated to purposes that he despises almost as much as he despises me and yet which he can’t label as selfish.”
“He doesn’t hate you,” said Muniment, with that tone of pleasant reasonableness that he used when he was most imperturbable. “His letter satisfies me of that.” The Princess stared, at this, and asked him what he was coming to—whether he was leading up to advising her to go back and live with her husband. “I don’t know that I would go so far as to advise,” he replied; “when I have so much benefit from seeing you here, on your present footing, that wouldn’t sound well. But I’ll just make bold to prophesy that you will go before very long.”
“He doesn’t hate you,” Muniment said, using that calm and sensible tone he had when he was most unflappable. “His letter makes that clear to me.” The Princess stared at him and asked what he was getting at—if he was suggesting she should go back and live with her husband. “I’m not sure I’d go that far,” he replied, “since I benefit so much from seeing you here, in your current situation; that wouldn’t sound right. But I’ll just take a chance and predict that you will return before too long.”
“And on what does that extraordinary prediction rest?”
“And what is that amazing prediction based on?”
“On this plain fact—that you will have nothing to live upon. You decline to read the Prince’s letter, but if you were to look at it it would give you evidence of what I mean. He informs me that I need count upon no more supplies from your hands, as you yourself will receive no more.”
“Here's the simple truth—you won't have anything to live on. You refuse to read the Prince’s letter, but if you took a look at it, you'd see what I mean. He tells me that I shouldn't expect any more support from you, since you won’t be receiving any more either.”
“He addresses you that way, in plain terms?”
“He talks to you like that, in simple terms?”
“I can’t call them very plain, because the letter is written in French, and I naturally have had a certain difficulty in making it out, in spite of my persevering study of the tongue and the fine example set me by poor Robinson. But that appears to be the gist of the matter.”
“I can’t say they’re very plain because the letter is written in French, and I’ve naturally had some difficulty understanding it, despite my hard work studying the language and the great example set by poor Robinson. But that seems to be the main point.”
“And you can repeat such an insult to me without the smallest apparent discomposure? You’re the most remarkable man!” the Princess broke out.
"And you can throw that kind of insult at me without showing the slightest unease? You’re an amazing guy!" the Princess exclaimed.
“Why is it an insult? It is the simple truth. I do take your money,” said Paul Muniment.
“Why is that insulting? It’s just the plain truth. I do take your money,” said Paul Muniment.
“You take it for a sacred cause; you don’t take it for yourself.”
“You do it for a greater purpose; you’re not doing it for your own benefit.”
“The Prince isn’t obliged to look at that,” Muniment rejoined, laughing.
“The Prince doesn’t have to deal with that,” Muniment replied, laughing.
His companion was silent for a moment; then, “I didn’t know you were on his side,” she replied, gently.
His companion was quiet for a moment; then, “I didn't know you were on his side,” she responded softly.
“Oh, you know on what side I am!”
“Oh, you know whose side I'm on!”
“What does he know? What business has he to address you so?”
“What does he know? What right does he have to speak to you like that?”
“I suppose he knows from Madame Grandoni. She has told him that I have great influence upon you.”
"I guess he heard it from Madame Grandoni. She told him that I have a lot of influence over you."
“She was welcome to tell him that!” the Princess exclaimed.
“She was free to tell him that!” the Princess exclaimed.
“His reasoning, therefore, has been that when I find you have nothing more to give to the cause I will let you go.”
“His reasoning, then, is that when I see you have nothing more to contribute to the cause, I will let you go.”
“Nothing more? And does he count me, myself, and every pulse of my being, every capacity of my nature, as nothing?” the Princess cried, with shining eyes.
“Nothing more? And does he consider me, myself, and every beat of my being, every part of my nature, as nothing?” the Princess exclaimed, with bright eyes.
“Apparently he thinks that I do.”
“Looks like he thinks that I do.”
“Oh, as for that, after all, I have known that you care far more for my money than for me. But it has made no difference to me,” said the Princess.
“Oh, as for that, I’ve known for a while that you care way more about my money than about me. But it hasn't changed anything for me,” said the Princess.
“Then you see that by your own calculation the Prince is right.”
“Then you can see that based on your own calculations, the Prince is correct.”
“My dear sir,” Muniment’s hostess replied, “my interest in you never depended on your interest in me. It depended wholly on a sense of your great destinies. I suppose that what you began to tell me is that he stops my allowance.”
“My dear sir,” Muniment’s hostess replied, “my interest in you has never been based on your interest in me. It has always been driven by a recognition of your significant future. I assume what you were starting to tell me is that he is cutting off my allowance.”
“From the first of next month. He has taken legal advice. It is now clear—so he tells me—that you forfeit your settlements.”
“Starting from the first of next month. He’s gotten legal advice. It’s clear now—so he says—that you lose your settlements.”
“Can I not take legal advice, too?” the Princess asked. “Surely I can contest that. I can forfeit my settlements only by an act of my own. The act that led to our separation was his act; he turned me out of his house by physical violence.”
“Can I not get legal advice, too?” the Princess asked. “I can definitely challenge that. I can give up my settlements only by my own choice. The act that caused our separation was his act; he forced me out of his house with violence.”
“Certainly,” said Muniment, displaying even in this simple discussion his easy aptitude for argument; “but since then there have been acts of your own—” He stopped a moment, smiling; then he went on: “Your whole connection with a secret society constitutes an act, and so does your exercise of the pleasure, which you appreciate so highly, of feeding it with money extorted from an old Catholic and princely family. You know how little it is to be desired that these matters should come to light.”
“Of course,” said Muniment, showing his knack for argument even in this simple conversation. “But since then, you've done things yourself—” He paused for a moment, smiling, then continued: “Your entire involvement with a secret society counts as an act, and so does your enjoyment—something you clearly value—of funding it with money taken from an old Catholic noble family. You realize how undesirable it would be for these issues to be exposed.”
“Why in the world need they come to light? Allegations in plenty, of course, he would have, but not a particle of proof. Even if Madame Grandoni were to testify against me, which is inconceivable, she would not be able to produce a definite fact.”
“Why on earth do they need to come to light? Of course, he would have plenty of allegations, but not a shred of evidence. Even if Madame Grandoni were to testify against me, which is unimaginable, she wouldn’t be able to provide a concrete fact.”
“She would be able to produce the fact that you had a little bookbinder staying for a month in your house.”
“She could prove that you had a little bookbinder staying at your house for a month.”
“What has that to do with it?” the Princess demanded. “If you mean that that is a circumstance which would put me in the wrong as against the Prince, is there not, on the other side, this circumstance, that while our young friend was staying with me Madame Grandoni herself, a person of the highest and most conspicuous respectability, never saw fit to withdraw from me her countenance and protection? Besides, why shouldn’t I have my bookbinder, just as I might have (and the Prince should surely appreciate my consideration in not having) my physician and my chaplain?”
“What does that have to do with it?” the Princess asked. “If you think that’s something that would make me look bad compared to the Prince, isn’t there also the fact that while our young friend was staying with me, Madame Grandoni herself, a person of the highest respectability, never withdrew her support and protection from me? Besides, why shouldn’t I have my bookbinder, just like I could have (and the Prince should definitely appreciate my thoughtfulness in not having) my doctor and my chaplain?”
“Am I not your chaplain?” said Muniment, with a laugh. “And does the bookbinder usually dine at the Princess’s table?”
“Am I not your chaplain?” Muniment said with a laugh. “And does the bookbinder usually have dinner at the Princess’s table?”
“Why not, if he’s an artist? In the old times, I know, artists dined with the servants; but not to-day.”
“Why not, if he’s an artist? Back in the day, I know, artists had dinner with the servants; but not anymore.”
“That would be for the court to appreciate,” Muniment remarked. And in a moment he added, “Allow me to call your attention to the fact that Madame Grandoni has left you—has withdrawn her countenance and protection.”
“That’s for the court to decide,” Muniment said. Then he added, “Let me point out that Madame Grandoni has left you—has withdrawn her support and protection.”
“Ah, but not for Hyacinth!” the Princess returned, in a tone which would have made the fortune of an actress if an actress could have caught it.
“Ah, but not for Hyacinth!” the Princess replied, in a tone that would have made any actress famous if an actress could have captured it.
“For the bookbinder or for the chaplain, it doesn’t matter. But that’s only a detail,” said Muniment. “In any case, I shouldn’t in the least care for your going to law.”
“For the bookbinder or for the chaplain, it doesn’t matter. But that’s just a detail,” said Muniment. “In any case, I really wouldn’t mind if you decided to take legal action.”
The Princess rested her eyes upon him for a while in silence, and at last she replied, “I was speaking just now of your great destinies, but every now and then you do something, you say something, that makes me doubt of them. It’s when you seem afraid. That’s terribly against your being a first-rate man.”
The Princess looked at him in silence for a moment, and finally she said, “I was just talking about your big future, but sometimes you do or say things that make me question it. It’s when you seem afraid. That really goes against you being a top-notch guy.”
“Oh, I know you have thought me a coward from the first of your knowing me. But what does it matter? I haven’t the smallest pretension to being a first-rate man.”
“Oh, I know you’ve seen me as a coward since the moment you met me. But who cares? I don’t have any delusions about being a top-notch guy.”
“Oh, you are deep, and you are provoking!” murmured the Princess, with a sombre eye.
“Oh, you’re so profound, and you’re really pushing my buttons!” the Princess murmured, her gaze serious.
“Don’t you remember,” Muniment continued, without heeding this somewhat passionate ejaculation—“don’t you remember how, the other day, you accused me of being not only a coward but a traitor; of playing false; of wanting, as you said, to back out?”
“Don’t you remember,” Muniment continued, ignoring this somewhat intense outburst—“don’t you remember how, the other day, you called me not only a coward but a traitor; of playing it safe; of wanting, as you said, to back out?”
“Most distinctly. How can I help its coming over me, at times, that you have incalculable ulterior views and are only using me—only using us all? But I don’t care!”
“Most definitely. How can I help but feel sometimes that you have hidden motives and are just using me—just using all of us? But I don’t care!”
“No, no; I’m genuine,” said Paul Muniment, simply, yet in a tone which might have implied that the discussion was idle. And he immediately went on, with a transition too abrupt for perfect civility: “The best reason in the world for your not having a lawsuit with your husband is this: that when you haven’t a penny left you will be obliged to go back and live with him.”
“No, no; I’m serious,” said Paul Muniment, simply, but his tone suggested that the conversation was pointless. He quickly changed the subject, a bit too abruptly for full politeness: “The best reason not to have a lawsuit with your husband is this: when you’re broke, you’ll have no choice but to go back and live with him.”
“How do you mean, when I haven’t a penny left? Haven’t I my own property?” the Princess demanded.
“How do you mean, when I don’t have a penny left? Don’t I have my own property?” the Princess asked.
“The Prince tells me that you have drawn upon your own property at such a rate that the income to be derived from it amounts, to his positive knowledge, to no more than a thousand francs—forty pounds—a year. Surely, with your habits and tastes, you can’t live on forty pounds. I should add that your husband implies that your property, originally, was but a small affair.”
“The Prince tells me that you’ve been taking money from your property at such a rate that the income you get from it amounts, according to him, to only a thousand francs—forty pounds—a year. Surely, with your lifestyle and preferences, you can’t survive on forty pounds. I should also mention that your husband suggests that your property was initially just a small matter.”
“You have the most extraordinary tone,” observed the Princess, gravely. “What you appear to wish to express is simply this: that from the moment I have no more money to give you I am of no more value than the skin of an orange.”
“You have the most amazing tone,” the Princess said seriously. “What you seem to want to express is this: that as soon as I have no more money to give you, I am worth no more than the peel of an orange.”
Muniment looked down at his shoe awhile. His companion’s words had brought a flush into his cheek; he appeared to admit to himself and to her that, at the point at which their conversation had arrived, there was a natural difficulty in his delivering himself. But presently he raised his head, showing a face still slightly embarrassed but none the less bright and frank. “I have no intention whatever of saying anything harsh or offensive to you, but since you challenge me perhaps it is well that I should let you know that I do consider that in giving your money—or, rather, your husband’s—to our business you gave the most valuable thing you had to contribute.”
Muniment looked down at his shoe for a moment. His companion's words had reddened his cheeks; he seemed to acknowledge to himself and to her that, at this point in their conversation, he found it naturally difficult to express himself. But soon he lifted his head, revealing a face still a bit embarrassed but nonetheless bright and open. “I have no intention of saying anything harsh or hurtful to you, but since you’re challenging me, I think it’s fair to let you know that I do believe that by contributing your money—or, more accurately, your husband’s—to our business, you gave the most valuable thing you had to offer.”
“This is the day of plain truths!” the Princess exclaimed, with a laugh that was not expressive of pleasure. “You don’t count then any devotion, any intelligence, that I may have placed at your service, even rating my faculties modestly?”
“This is the day of straightforward truths!” the Princess said, with a laugh that didn’t show any happiness. “So you don't consider any devotion or intelligence that I might have offered you, even if I downplay my skills?”
“I count your intelligence, but I don’t count your devotion, and one is nothing without the other. You are not trusted at headquarters.”
“I appreciate your intelligence, but I don’t value your loyalty, and one means nothing without the other. You aren’t trusted at headquarters.”
“Not trusted!” the Princess repeated, with her splendid stare. “Why, I thought I could be hanged to-morrow!”
“Not trusted!” the Princess repeated, with her stunning gaze. “Why, I thought I could be hanged tomorrow!”
“They may let you hang, perfectly, without letting you act. You are liable to be weary of us,” Paul Muniment went on; “and, indeed, I think you are weary of us already.”
“They might just leave you hanging, totally, without letting you take action. You probably find us exhausting,” Paul Muniment continued; “and honestly, I think you’re already tired of us.”
“Ah, you must be a first-rate man—you are such a brute!” replied the Princess, who noticed, as she had noticed before, that he pronounced ‘weary’ weery.
“Ah, you must be a great guy—you’re such a brute!” replied the Princess, who noticed, as she had before, that he pronounced ‘weary’ as weery.
“I didn’t say you were weary of me,” said Muniment, blushing again. “You can never live poor—you don’t begin to know the meaning of it.”
“I didn’t say you were tired of me, ” Muniment said, blushing again. “You can never know what it’s like to be poor—you don’t even begin to understand its meaning.”
“Oh, no, I am not tired of you,” the Princess returned, in a strange tone. “In a moment you will make me cry with passion, and no man has done that for years. I was very poor when I was a girl,” she added, in a different manner. “You yourself recognised it just now, in speaking of the insignificant character of my fortune.”
“Oh, no, I’m not tired of you,” the Princess replied in an odd tone. “Soon you'll make me cry with emotion, and no man has done that for years. I was really poor when I was a girl,” she continued, switching to a different tone. “You just acknowledged that a moment ago when you talked about how little my fortune amounts to.”
“It had to be a fortune, to be insignificant,” said Muniment, smiling. “You will go back to your husband!”
“It must be a blessing to be unimportant,” said Muniment, smiling. “You’ll go back to your husband!”
To this declaration she made no answer whatever; she only sat looking at him in a sort of desperate calmness. “I don’t see, after all, why they trust you more than they trust me,” she remarked.
To this declaration, she didn’t respond at all; she just sat there staring at him with a kind of desperate calm. “I don’t understand why they trust you more than they trust me,” she said.
“I am not sure that they do,” said Muniment. “I have heard something this evening which suggests that.”
“I’m not sure they do,” said Muniment. “I heard something this evening that makes me think that.”
“And may one know what it is?”
“And can someone know what it is?”
“A communication which I should have expected to be made through me has been made through another person.”
“A message that I thought would come through me has actually been sent by someone else.”
“A communication?”
“Is this a message?”
“To Hyacinth Robinson.”
"To Hyacinth Robinson."
“To Hyacinth—” The Princess sprang up; she had turned pale in a moment.
“To Hyacinth—” The Princess jumped up; she had turned pale in an instant.
“He has got his ticket; but they didn’t send it through me.”
“He has his ticket, but they didn’t send it to me.”
“Do you mean his orders? He was here last night,” the Princess said.
“Are you talking about his orders? He was here last night,” the Princess said.
“A fellow named Schinkel, a German—whom you don’t know, I think, but who was a sort of witness, with me and another, of his undertaking—came to see me this evening. It was through him the summons came, and he put Hyacinth up to it on Sunday night.”
“A guy named Schinkel, a German—whom you probably don’t know, but who was kind of a witness, along with me and another person, to his undertaking—came to see me this evening. He was the one who brought the summons, and he got Hyacinth involved in it on Sunday night.”
“On Sunday night?” The Princess stared. “Why, he was here yesterday, and he talked of it, and he told me nothing.”
“On Sunday night?” The Princess looked stunned. “He was here yesterday, and he mentioned it, but he didn’t tell me anything.”
“That was quite right of him, bless him!” Muniment exclaimed.
“That was really nice of him, bless him!” Muniment exclaimed.
The Princess closed her eyes a moment, and when she opened them again Muniment had risen and was standing before her. “What do they want him to do?” she asked.
The Princess closed her eyes for a moment, and when she opened them again, Muniment had gotten up and was standing in front of her. “What do they want him to do?” she asked.
“I am like Hyacinth; I think I had better not tell you—at least till it’s over.”
“I’m like Hyacinth; I think it’s best if I don’t tell you—at least until it’s all over.”
“And when will it be over?”
“And when will it be over?”
“They give him several days and, I believe, minute instructions,” said Muniment, “with, however, considerable discretion in respect to seizing his chance. The thing is made remarkably easy for him. All this I know from Schinkel, who himself knew nothing on Sunday, being a mere medium of transmission, but who saw Hyacinth yesterday morning.”
“They give him several days and, I think, detailed instructions,” said Muniment, “but there's still a good amount of freedom for him to take advantage of his opportunities. It’s made really easy for him. I got all this from Schinkel, who didn’t know anything on Sunday, just passing on information, but who saw Hyacinth yesterday morning.”
“Schinkel trusts you, then?” the Princess remarked.
“Schinkel trusts you, then?” the Princess said.
Muniment looked at her steadily a moment. “Yes, but he won’t trust you. Hyacinth is to receive a card of invitation to a certain big house,” he went on, “a card with the name left in blank, so that he may fill it out himself. It is to be good for each of two grand parties which are to be given at a few days’ interval. That’s why they give him the job—because at a grand party he’ll look in his place.”
Muniment looked at her intently for a moment. “Yes, but he won’t trust you. Hyacinth is going to get an invitation card to a certain prestigious house,” he continued, “a card with the name left blank, so he can fill it in himself. It’ll be valid for two big parties happening a few days apart. That’s why they’re giving him the task—because at a fancy event, he’ll fit right in.”
“He will like that,” said the Princess, musingly—“repaying hospitality with a pistol-shot.”
“He’ll like that,” said the Princess, thoughtfully—“paying back hospitality with a gunshot.”
“If he doesn’t like it he needn’t do it.”
“If he doesn’t like it, he doesn’t have to do it.”
The Princess made no rejoinder to this, but in a moment she said, “I can easily find out the place you mean—the big house where two parties are to be given at a few days’ interval and where the master is worth your powder.”
The Princess didn't respond to this, but after a moment she said, “I can easily figure out the place you're talking about—the big house where two parties are happening a few days apart and where the owner is worth your time.”
“Easily, no doubt. And do you want to warn him?”
“Sure, no problem. Do you want to give him a heads up?”
“No, I want to do the business first, so that it won’t be left for another. If Hyacinth will look in his place at a grand party, should not I look still more in mine? And as I know the individual I should be able to approach him without exciting the smallest suspicion.”
“No, I want to handle the business first, so it won’t be left for someone else. If Hyacinth can look great at a big party, shouldn’t I look even better in my role? And since I know the person, I should be able to approach him without raising any suspicion.”
Muniment appeared to consider her suggestion a moment, as if it were practical and interesting; but presently he answered, placidly, “To fall by your hand would be too good for him.”
Muniment seemed to think about her suggestion for a moment, as if it were reasonable and intriguing; but then he replied calmly, “To fall by your hand would be too good for him.”
“However he falls, will it be useful, valuable?” the Princess asked.
“However he falls, will it be useful or valuable?” the Princess asked.
“It’s worth trying. He’s a very bad institution.”
“It’s worth a shot. He’s a really terrible institution.”
“And don’t you mean to go near Hyacinth?”
“And you don't plan to go near Hyacinth?”
“No, I wish to leave him free,” Muniment answered.
“No, I want to let him go free,” Muniment replied.
“Ah, Paul Muniment,” murmured the Princess, “you are a first-rate man!” She sank down upon the sofa and sat looking up at him. “In God’s name, why have you told me this?” she broke out.
“Ah, Paul Muniment,” the Princess said quietly, “you are a great guy!” She sat down on the sofa and looked up at him. “For heaven's sake, why did you tell me this?” she exclaimed.
“So that you should not be able to throw it up at me, later, that I had not.”
“So you can’t hold it against me later that I didn’t.”
She threw herself over, burying her face in the cushions, and remained so for some minutes, in silence. Muniment watched her awhile, without speaking; but at last he remarked, “I don’t want to aggravate you, but you will go back!” The words failed to cause her even to raise her head, and after a moment he quietly went out.
She flopped over, pressing her face into the cushions, and stayed like that for a few minutes in silence. Muniment watched her for a bit without saying anything; but eventually, he said, “I don’t want to upset you, but you will go back!” His words didn’t even make her lift her head, and after a moment, he quietly left.
XLVII
That the Princess had done with him, done with him for ever, remained the most vivid impression that Hyacinth had carried away from Madeira Crescent the night before. He went home, and he flung himself on his narrow bed, where the consolation of sleep again descended upon him. But he woke up with the earliest dawn, and the beginning of a new day was a quick revival of pain. He was over-past, he had become vague, he was extinct. The things that Sholto had said to him came back to him, and the compassion of foreknowledge that Madame Grandoni had shown him from the first. Of Paul Muniment he only thought to wonder whether he knew. An insurmountable desire to do justice to him, for the very reason that there might be a temptation to oblique thoughts, forbade him to challenge his friend even in imagination. He vaguely wondered whether he would ever be superseded; but this possibility faded away in a stronger light—a kind of dazzling vision of some great tribuneship, which swept before him now and again and in which the figure of the Princess herself seemed merged and extinguished. When full morning came at last, and he got up, it brought with it, in the restlessness which made it impossible to him to remain in his room, a return of that beginning of an answerless question, ‘After all—after all—?’ which the Princess had planted there the night before when she spoke so bravely in the name of the Revolution. ‘After all—after all, since nothing else was tried, or would, apparently, ever be tried—’ He had a sense of his mind, which had been made up, falling to pieces again; but that sense in turn lost itself in a shudder which was already familiar—the horror of the reappearance, on his part, of the imbrued hands of his mother. This loathing of the idea of a repetition had not been sharp, strangely enough, till his summons came; in all his previous meditations the growth of his reluctance to act for the ‘party of action’ had not been the fear of a personal stain, but the simple extension of his observation. Yet now the idea of the personal stain made him horribly sick; it seemed by itself to make service impossible. It rose before him like a kind of backward accusation of his mother; to suffer it to start out in the life of her son was in a manner to place her own forgotten, redeemed pollution again in the eye of the world. The thought that was most of all with him was that he had time—he had time; he was grateful for that, and saw a kind of delicacy in their having given him a margin—not condemned him to be pressed by the hours. He had another day, he had two days, he might take three, he might take several. He knew he should be terribly weary of them before they were over; but for that matter they would be over whenever he liked. Anyhow, he went forth again into the streets, into the squares, into the parks, solicited by an aimless desire to steep himself yet once again in the great indifferent city which he knew and loved and which had had so many of his smiles and tears and confidences. The day was gray and damp, though no rain fell, and London had never appeared to him to wear more proudly and publicly the stamp of her imperial history. He passed slowly to and fro over Westminster bridge and watched the black barges drift on the great brown river, and looked up at the huge fretted palace that rose there as a fortress of the social order which he, like the young David, had been commissioned to attack with a sling and a pebble. At last he made his way to St James’s Park, and he strolled about a long time. He revolved around it, and he went a considerable distance up the thoroughfare that communicates with Pimlico. He stopped at a certain point and came back again, and then he retraced his steps in the former direction. He looked in the windows of shops, and he looked in particular into the long, glazed expanse of that establishment in which, at that hour of the day, Millicent Henning discharged superior functions. Millicent’s image had descended upon him after he came out, and now it moved before him as he went, it clung to him, it refused to quit him. He made, in truth, no effort to drive it away; he held fast to it in return, and it murmured strange things in his ear. She had been so jolly to him on Sunday; she was such a strong, obvious, simple nature, with such a generous breast and such a freedom from the sophistries of civilisation. All that he had ever liked in her came back to him now with a finer air, and there was a moment, during which he hung over the rail of the bridge that spans the lake in St James’s Park and mechanically followed the movement of the swans, when he asked himself whether, at bottom, he hadn’t liked her better, almost, than any one. He tried to think he had, he wanted to think he had, and he seemed to see the look her eyes would have if he should tell her that he had. Something of that sort had really passed between them on Sunday; only the business that had come up since had superseded it. Now the taste of the vague, primitive comfort that his Sunday had given him came back to him, and he asked himself whether he mightn’t know it a second time. After he had thought he couldn’t again wish for anything, he found himself wishing that he might believe there was something Millicent could do for him. Mightn’t she help him—mightn’t she even extricate him? He was looking into a window—not that of her own shop—when a vision rose before him of a quick flight with her, for an undefined purpose, to an undefined spot; and he was glad, at that moment, to have his back turned to the people in the street, because his face suddenly grew red to the tips of his ears. Again and again, all the same, he indulged in the reflection that spontaneous, uncultivated minds often have inventions, inspirations. Moreover, whether Millicent should have any or not, he might at least feel her arms around him. He didn’t exactly know what good it would do him or what door it would open; but he should like it. The sensation was not one he could afford to defer, but the nearest moment at which he could enjoy it would be that evening. He had thrown over everything, but she would be busy all day; nevertheless, it would be a gain, it would be a kind of foretaste, to see her earlier, to have three words with her. He wrestled with the temptation to go into her haberdasher’s, because he knew she didn’t like it (he had tried it once, of old); as the visits of gentlemen, even when ostensible purchasers (there were people watching about who could tell who was who), compromised her in the eyes of her employers. This was not an ordinary case, however; and though he hovered about the place a long time, undecided, embarrassed, half ashamed, at last he went in, as by an irresistible necessity. He would just make an appointment with her, and a glance of the eye and a single word would suffice. He remembered his way through the labyrinth of the shop; he knew that her department was on the second floor. He walked through the place, which was crowded, as if he had as good a right as any one else; and as he had entertained himself, on rising, with putting on his holiday garments, in which he made such a distinguished little figure, he was not suspected of any purpose more nefarious than that of looking for some nice thing to give a lady. He ascended the stairs, and found himself in a large room where made-up articles were exhibited and where, though there were twenty people in it, a glance told him he shouldn’t find Millicent. She was perhaps in the next one, into which he passed by a wide opening. Here also were numerous purchasers, most of them ladies; the men were but three or four, and the disposal of the wares was in the hands of neat young women attired in black dresses with long trains. At first it appeared to Hyacinth that the young woman he sought was even here not within sight, and he was turning away, to look elsewhere, when suddenly he perceived that a tall gentleman, standing in the middle of the room, was none other than Captain Sholto. It next became plain to him that the person standing upright before the Captain, as still as a lay-figure and with her back turned to Hyacinth, was the object of his own quest. In spite of her averted face he instantly recognised Millicent; he knew her shop-attitude, the dressing of her hair behind, and the long, grand lines of her figure, draped in the last new thing. She was exhibiting this article to the Captain, and he was lost in contemplation. He had been beforehand with Hyacinth as a false purchaser, but he imitated a real one better than our young man, as, with his eyes travelling up and down the front of Millicent’s person, he frowned, consideringly, and rubbed his lower lip slowly with his walking-stick. Millicent stood admirably still, and the back-view of the garment she displayed was magnificent. Hyacinth, for a minute, stood as still as she. At the end of that minute he perceived that Sholto saw him, and for an instant he thought he was going to direct Millicent’s attention to him. But Sholto only looked at him very hard, for a few seconds, without telling her he was there; to enjoy that satisfaction he would wait till the interloper was gone. Hyacinth gazed back at him for the same length of time—what these two pairs of eyes said to each other requires perhaps no definite mention—and then turned away.
That the Princess was done with him, done with him forever, was the strongest impression that Hyacinth had taken away from Madeira Crescent the night before. He went home and threw himself onto his narrow bed, where the comfort of sleep returned to him. But he woke up with the first light of dawn, and the start of a new day quickly brought back his pain. He felt overwhelmed, vague, he felt like he was gone. The things Sholto had said to him replayed in his mind, along with the compassion forseeing that Madame Grandoni had shown him from the very beginning. He only wondered about Paul Muniment to consider whether he knew. A strong desire to be fair to him, especially since there might be a temptation to think otherwise, stopped him from questioning his friend even in his thoughts. He vaguely wondered if he would ever be replaced; but that possibility vanished in the brightness of a more compelling idea—a dazzling vision of some great leadership, which occasionally swept before him, in which the figure of the Princess herself seemed to blend into nothingness. When full morning finally came, and he got up, it brought back, in the restlessness that made it impossible for him to stay in his room, the start of an unanswered question, ‘After all—after all—?’ which the Princess had planted in his mind the night before when she spoke so boldly on behalf of the Revolution. ‘After all—after all, since nothing else was tried, or would apparently ever be tried—’ He felt like his made-up mind was falling apart again; but that feeling was soon lost in a familiar chill—the horror of recalling the bloodied hands of his mother. Strangely enough, this disgust at the thought of a repetition hadn’t been intense until his summons came; during all his earlier reflections, his growing reluctance to act for the ‘party of action’ hadn’t been a fear of a personal stain, but simply an expansion of his observation. Yet now the thought of a personal stain made him feel terribly sick; it seemed to make serving impossible all on its own. It surfaced like a backward accusation from his mother; to let it manifest in her son’s life was in a way to bring back her forgotten, redeemed shame into the world’s view. What lingered most in his mind was that he had time—he had time; he felt grateful for that, and saw a kind of grace in their allowing him a margin—not sentencing him to be pressured by the passing hours. He had another day, two days, he could take three, he could take several. He knew he would be exhausted by them long before they ended; but they would end whenever he chose. Regardless, he went out again into the streets, squares, and parks, driven by a random desire to immerse himself once more in the vast, indifferent city that he knew and loved and which had witnessed so many of his smiles, tears, and secrets. The day was gray and damp, though no rain fell, and London never seemed to wear the stamp of her imperial history more proudly and publicly. He strolled slowly back and forth over Westminster Bridge, watching the black barges drift along the great brown river, and gazing up at the massive, intricate palace that towered there like a fortress of the social order he, like young David, had been tasked to attack with a sling and a stone. Finally, he made his way to St. James’s Park, and wandered around for quite a while. He circled it, ventured a good distance up the road connecting to Pimlico. He paused at a certain spot and turned back, then retraced his steps in the opposite direction. He peered into shop windows and particularly glanced into the long, glass-fronted store where, at that time of day, Millicent Henning had important duties. Millicent’s image had appeared to him after he exited, and now it danced before him as he walked, clinging to him, refusing to leave. In fact, he didn’t really try to get rid of it; he held onto it, and it whispered strange things in his ear. She had been so cheerful with him on Sunday; she was such a strong, straightforward, simple person, with a big heart and a refreshing lack of the complexities of civilization. Everything he had ever liked about her came back to him now with a deeper resonance, and there was a moment, during which he leaned over the railing of the bridge over the lake in St. James’s Park and mechanically followed the movement of the swans, when he asked himself if, deep down, he didn’t almost like her better than anyone else. He tried to believe he did, wanted to believe he did, and he imagined the look her eyes would have if he told her that. Something similar had actually passed between them on Sunday; only the matters that had arisen since had overshadowed it. Now the taste of the vague, primitive comfort that his Sunday had provided returned to him, and he wondered if he might experience it a second time. After he thought he couldn’t wish for anything more, he found himself hoping that there was something Millicent could do for him. Could she help him—might she even rescue him? He was looking into a window—not her own shop—when a vision appeared before him of a swift escape with her, for an unspecified purpose, to an undefined place; and he was glad, at that moment, to have his back turned to the people on the street, because his face suddenly flushed red from the tips of his ears. Still, he repeatedly entertained the thought that spontaneous, unrefined minds often have ideas and inspirations. Moreover, whether Millicent had any or not, he could at least imagine her arms around him. He didn’t exactly know what good it would do him or what opportunities it would create; but he would like it. The feeling was one he couldn’t afford to postpone, but the soonest moment he could enjoy it would be that evening. He had thrown aside everything, but she would be busy all day; still, it would be a win, a sort of prelude, to see her earlier, to exchange a few words with her. He struggled with the temptation to enter her haberdashery, knowing she didn’t like it (he had tried it once, long ago); since the visits of gentlemen, even when they appeared as purchasers (there were people around who could identify who was who), compromised her in the eyes of her employers. This wasn’t an ordinary case, however; and although he hovered around the place for a long time, indecisive, awkward, half ashamed, he eventually walked in, as if compelled by an undeniable need. He would just arrange a meeting with her, and a glance and a single word would be enough. He remembered his way through the shop’s maze; he knew her department was on the second floor. He walked through the bustling store as if he had every right to be there; and since he had amused himself by putting on his best clothes that morning, in which he looked quite distinguished, no one suspected him of having any ulterior motives. He climbed the stairs and found himself in a large room displaying finished products, where, despite the presence of twenty people, a quick look told him he wouldn’t find Millicent. She might be in the next room, which he entered through a wide opening. Here too were many shoppers, most of them women; there were only three or four men, and the items were presented by neat young women dressed in black with long trains. At first, Hyacinth thought that the young woman he was looking for wasn’t visible even here, and he was turning to find her elsewhere when he suddenly realized that a tall man in the middle of the room was none other than Captain Sholto. It then became clear to him that the person standing stiffly in front of the Captain, with her back turned to Hyacinth, was the very one he sought. Despite her turned face, he instantly recognized Millicent; he recognized her shop stance, the way she styled her hair in the back, and the long, elegant lines of her figure draped in the latest fashion. She was displaying this garment to the Captain, who appeared lost in admiration. He had gotten there before Hyacinth under the guise of a buyer, but he was pretending to browse more convincingly than the young man, as he looked up and down Millicent’s figure while frowning thoughtfully and rubbing his lower lip slowly with his walking stick. Millicent stood incredibly still, and the view of the garment she modeled was stunning. For a moment, Hyacinth stood as still as she was. At the end of that moment, he saw that Sholto noticed him, and for an instant, he thought he would point Millicent out to him. But Sholto only stared hard at him for a few seconds, without mentioning to her that he was there; he would choose to enjoy that satisfaction only after the interloper left. Hyacinth gazed back at him for the same amount of time—what these two pairs of eyes communicated surely requires no further explanation—and then turned away.
That evening, about nine o’clock, the Princess Casamassima drove in a hansom to Hyacinth’s lodgings in Westminster. The door of the house was a little open, and a man stood on the step, smoking his big pipe and looking up and down. The Princess, seeing him while she was still at some distance, had hoped he was Hyacinth, but he proved to be a very different figure indeed from her devoted young friend. He had not a forbidding countenance, but he looked very hard at her as she descended from her hansom and approached the door. She was used to being looked at hard, and she didn’t mind this; she supposed he was one of the lodgers in the house. He edged away to let her pass, and watched her while she endeavoured to impart an elasticity of movement to the limp bell-pull beside the door. It gave no audible response, so that she said to him, “I wish to ask for Mr Hyacinth Robinson. Perhaps you can tell me—”
That evening, around nine o’clock, Princess Casamassima took a cab to Hyacinth’s place in Westminster. The door of the building was slightly open, and a man stood on the step, smoking his large pipe and scanning the street. The Princess, spotting him from a distance, had hoped he was Hyacinth, but he turned out to be quite a different person from her devoted young friend. He didn’t have a stern face, but he stared at her intently as she got out of her cab and approached the door. She was used to people looking closely at her and didn’t mind; she figured he was one of the residents in the house. He moved aside to let her through and watched her as she tried to create some movement in the limp bell-pull next to the door. It didn’t make any sound, so she said to him, “I’d like to ask for Mr. Hyacinth Robinson. Maybe you can help me—”
“Yes, I too,” the man replied, smiling. “I have come also for that.”
“Yes, I have too,” the man replied with a smile. “I came for that as well.”
The Princess hesitated a moment. “I think you must be Mr Schinkel. I have heard of you.”
The Princess paused for a moment. “I believe you must be Mr. Schinkel. I've heard of you.”
“You know me by my bad English,” her interlocutor remarked, with a sort of benevolent coquetry.
“You know me by my poor English,” her conversation partner said playfully, with a hint of charming flirtation.
“Your English is remarkably good—I wish I spoke German as well. Only just a hint of an accent, and evidently an excellent vocabulary.”
“Your English is really impressive—I wish I spoke German as well. You have just a slight accent, and clearly a great vocabulary.”
“I think I have heard, also, of you,” said Schinkel, appreciatively.
“I think I've heard of you, too,” said Schinkel, appreciatively.
“Yes, we know each other, in our circle, don’t we? We are all brothers and sisters.” The Princess was anxious, she was in a fever; but she could still relish the romance of standing in a species of back-slum and fraternising with a personage looking like a very tame horse whose collar galled him. “Then he’s at home, I hope; he is coming down to you?” she went on.
“Yes, we know each other in our circle, right? We’re all like brothers and sisters.” The Princess was feeling anxious; she was on edge, but she could still appreciate the oddity of standing in a rundown place and chatting with someone who looked like a very docile horse with an uncomfortable collar. “So he’s home, I hope? He’s coming down to see you?” she continued.
“That’s what I don’t know. I am waiting.”
“That’s what I don’t know. I’m waiting.”
“Have they gone to call him?”
“Have they gone to get him?”
Schinkel looked at her, while he puffed his pipe. “I have called him myself, but he will not say.”
Schinkel looked at her while he puffed on his pipe. “I called him myself, but he won’t say.”
“How do you mean—he will not say?”
“How do you mean—he won’t say?”
“His door is locked. I have knocked many times.”
“His door is locked. I've knocked multiple times.”
“I suppose he is out,” said the Princess.
“I guess he’s out,” said the Princess.
“Yes, he may be out,” Schinkel remarked, judicially.
“Yes, he might be out,” Schinkel said, thoughtfully.
He and the Princess stood a moment looking at each other, and then she asked, “Have you any doubt of it?”
He and the Princess paused for a moment, gazing at each other, and then she asked, “Are you in any doubt about it?”
“Oh, es kann sein. Only the woman of the house told me five minutes ago that he came in.”
“Oh, it could be. Just five minutes ago, the woman of the house told me that he came in.”
“Well, then, he probably went out again,” the Princess remarked.
“Well, then, he probably went out again,” the Princess said.
“Yes, but she didn’t hear him.”
“Yes, but she didn’t hear him.”
The Princess reflected, and was conscious that she was flushing. She knew what Schinkel knew about their young friend’s actual situation, and she wished to be very clear with him, and to induce him to be the same with her. She was rather baffled, however, by the sense that he was cautious, and justly cautious. He was polite and inscrutable, quite like some of the high personages—ambassadors and cabinet-ministers—whom she used to meet in the great world. “Has the woman been here, in the house, ever since?” she asked in a moment.
The Princess thought about it and realized she was blushing. She was aware of what Schinkel knew about their young friend’s real situation, and she wanted to be completely honest with him, hoping he would do the same with her. However, she felt somewhat confused by the fact that he was cautious—and rightly so. He was polite and mysterious, much like some of the influential figures—ambassadors and cabinet ministers—she used to encounter in the social elite. “Has the woman been here in the house this whole time?” she asked after a moment.
“No, she went out for ten minutes, half an hour ago.”
“No, she went out for ten minutes, half an hour ago.”
“Surely, then, he may have gone out again in that time!” the Princess exclaimed.
“Surely, he must have gone out again during that time!” the Princess exclaimed.
“That is what I have thought. It is also why I have waited here,” said Schinkel. “I have nothing to do,” he added, serenely.
“That’s what I’ve been thinking. That’s also why I’ve waited here,” said Schinkel. “I have nothing to do,” he added, calmly.
“Neither have I,” the Princess rejoined. “We can wait together.”
“Me neither,” the Princess replied. “We can wait together.”
“It’s a pity you haven’t got some room,” the German suggested.
“It’s a shame you don’t have some space,” the German suggested.
“No, indeed; this will do very well. We shall see him the sooner when he comes back.”
“No, really; this will work perfectly. We’ll get to see him sooner when he comes back.”
“Yes, but perhaps it won’t be for long.”
“Yes, but maybe it won’t last long.”
“I don’t care for that; I will wait. I hope you don’t object to my company,” she went on, smiling.
“I’m fine with that; I’ll wait. I hope you don’t mind having me around,” she continued, smiling.
“It is good, it is good,” Schinkel responded, through his smoke.
“It’s great, it’s great,” Schinkel replied, through his smoke.
“Then I will send away my cab.” She returned to the vehicle and paid the driver, who said, “Thank you, my lady,” with expression, and drove off.
“Then I’ll call for my cab.” She went back to the car and paid the driver, who said, “Thank you, my lady,” with feeling, and drove away.
“You gave him too much,” observed Schinkel, when she came back.
“You gave him too much,” Schinkel remarked when she returned.
“Oh, he looked like a nice man. I am sure he deserved it.”
“Oh, he seemed like a nice guy. I’m sure he deserved it.”
“It is very expensive,” Schinkel went on, sociably.
“It costs a lot,” Schinkel continued, friendly.
“Yes, and I have no money, but it’s done. Was there no one else in the house while the woman was away?” the Princess asked.
“Yes, and I don't have any money, but it's taken care of. Was there no one else in the house while the woman was gone?” the Princess asked.
“No, the people are out; she only has single men. I asked her that. She has a daughter, but the daughter has gone to see her cousin. The mother went only a hundred yards, round the corner there, to buy a pennyworth of milk. She locked this door, and put the key in her pocket; she stayed at the grocer’s, where she got the milk, to have a little conversation with a friend she met there. You know ladies always stop like that—nicht wahr? It was half an hour later that I came. She told me that he was at home, and I went up to his room. I got no sound, as I have told you. I came down and spoke to her again, and she told me what I say.”
“No, the people are out; she only has single men. I asked her about that. She has a daughter, but the daughter went to visit her cousin. The mother only went a hundred yards, around the corner, to buy a little milk. She locked the door and put the key in her pocket; she stayed at the grocer’s, where she got the milk, to chat with a friend she ran into. You know, ladies always stop like that—right? It was half an hour later when I arrived. She told me he was at home, so I went up to his room. I didn’t hear anything, as I mentioned before. I came down and spoke to her again, and she told me what I just said.”
“Then you determined to wait, as I have done,” said the Princess.
“Then you decided to wait, just like I did,” said the Princess.
“Oh, yes, I want to see him.”
“Oh, yes, I want to see him.”
“So do I, very much.” The Princess said nothing more, for a minute; then she added, “I think we want to see him for the same reason.”
“So do I, a lot.” The Princess said nothing more for a minute; then she added, “I think we want to see him for the same reason.”
“Das kann sein—das kann sein.”
"That could be— that could be."
The two continued to stand there in the brown evening, and they had some further conversation, of a desultory and irrelevant kind. At the end of ten minutes the Princess broke out, in a low tone, laying her hand on her companion’s arm, “Mr Schinkel, this won’t do. I’m intolerably nervous.”
The two kept standing there in the brown evening, having a bit more of a scattered and irrelevant chat. After ten minutes, the Princess suddenly said in a quiet voice, placing her hand on her companion's arm, “Mr. Schinkel, this isn't working. I'm extremely nervous.”
“Yes, that is the nature of ladies,” the German replied, imperturbably.
“Yes, that’s just how ladies are,” the German replied, unflustered.
“I wish to go up to his room,” the Princess pursued. “You will be so good as to show me where it is.”
“I want to go to his room,” the Princess continued. “Could you please show me where it is?”
“It will do you no good, if he is not there.”
“It won't help you if he’s not there.”
The Princess hesitated. “I am not sure he is not there.”
The Princess paused. “I’m not sure he isn’t there.”
“Well, if he won’t speak, it shows he likes better not to have visitors.”
“Well, if he doesn't want to talk, it means he prefers not to have visitors.”
“Oh, he may like to have me better than he does you!” the Princess exclaimed.
“Oh, he might prefer me over you!” the Princess exclaimed.
“Das kann sein—das kann sein.” But Schinkel made no movement to introduce her into the house.
“That could be— that could be.” But Schinkel didn’t make any effort to bring her inside the house.
“There is nothing to-night—you know what I mean,” the Princess remarked, after looking at him a moment.
“There’s nothing tonight—you know what I mean,” the Princess said, after looking at him for a moment.
“Nothing to-night?”
“Nothing tonight?”
“At the Duke’s. The first party is on Thursday, the other is next Tuesday.”
“At the Duke’s. The first party is on Thursday, and the other is next Tuesday.”
“Schön. I never go to parties,” said Schinkel.
“Schön. I never go to parties,” Schinkel said.
“Neither do I.”
“Me neither.”
“Except that this is a kind of party—you and me,” suggested Schinkel.
“Except that this is kind of a party—you and me,” suggested Schinkel.
“Yes, and the woman of the house doesn’t approve of it.” The footstep of the personage in question had been audible in the passage, through the open door, which was presently closed, from within, with a little reprehensive bang. Something in this incident appeared to quicken exceedingly the Princess’s impatience and emotion; the menace of exclusion from the house made her wish more even than before to enter it. “For God’s sake, Mr Schinkel, take me up there. If you won’t, I will go alone,” she pleaded.
“Yes, and the woman of the house doesn't like it.” The footsteps of the person in question had been heard in the hallway, through the open door, which was soon slammed shut from inside with a slight reprimanding bang. Something about this incident seemed to heighten the Princess’s impatience and emotion; the threat of being excluded from the house made her want to enter even more than before. “For God’s sake, Mr. Schinkel, take me up there. If you won't, I’ll go alone,” she pleaded.
Her face was white now, and it need hardly be added that it was beautiful. The German considered it a moment in silence; then turned and reopened the door and went in, followed closely by his companion.
Her face was pale now, and it hardly needed to be said that it was beautiful. The German paused for a moment in silence; then he turned around, reopened the door, and went inside, closely followed by his companion.
There was a light in the lower region, which tempered the gloom of the staircase—as high, that is, as the first floor; the ascent the rest of the way was so dusky that the pair went slowly and Schinkel led the Princess by the hand. She gave a suppressed exclamation as she rounded a sharp turn in the second flight. “Good God, is that his door, with the light?”
There was a light in the lower part that softened the darkness of the staircase—up to the first floor; the rest of the way was so dim that they moved slowly, and Schinkel held the Princess's hand. She let out a quiet gasp as she turned sharply on the second flight. “Oh my God, is that his door with the light?”
“Yes, you can see under it. There was a light before,” said Schinkel, without confusion.
“Yes, you can see underneath it. There was a light before,” Schinkel said, without any confusion.
“And why, in heaven’s name, didn’t you tell me?”
“And why on earth didn’t you tell me?”
“Because I thought it would worry you.”
“Because I figured it would stress you out.”
“And doesn’t it worry you?”
“And doesn’t it worry you?”
“A little, but I don’t mind,” said Schinkel. “Very likely he may have left it.”
“A little, but I don’t mind,” Schinkel said. “He probably left it behind.”
“He doesn’t leave candles!” the Princess returned, with vehemence. She hurried up the few remaining steps to the door, and paused there with her ear against it. Her hand grasped the handle, and she turned it, but the door resisted. Then she murmured, pantingly, to her companion, “We must go in—we must go in!”
“He doesn’t leave candles!” the Princess said, forcefully. She rushed up the last few steps to the door and stopped there, pressing her ear against it. Her hand grabbed the handle, and she turned it, but the door wouldn't budge. Then she whispered, breathlessly, to her companion, “We have to get in—we have to get in!”
“What will you do, when it’s locked?” he inquired.
“What will you do when it’s locked?” he asked.
“You must break it down.”
"Break it down."
“It is very expensive,” said Schinkel.
“It costs a lot,” Schinkel said.
“Don’t be abject!” cried the Princess. “In a house like this the fastenings are certainly flimsy; they will easily yield.”
“Don’t be so pathetic!” cried the Princess. “In a house like this, the locks are definitely weak; they will give way easily.”
“And if he is not there—if he comes back and finds what we have done?”
“And if he’s not here—if he comes back and sees what we’ve done?”
She looked at him a moment through the darkness, which was mitigated only by the small glow proceeding from the chink. “He is there! Before God, he is there!”
She stared at him for a moment through the darkness, which was barely softened by the small light coming from the crack. “He is there! I swear, he is there!”
“Schön, schön,” said her companion, as if he felt the contagion of her own dread but was deliberating and meant to remain calm. The Princess assured him that one or two vigorous thrusts with his shoulder would burst the bolt—it was sure to be some wretched morsel of tin—and she made way for him to come close. He did so, he even leaned against the door, but he gave no violent push, and the Princess waited, with her hand against her heart. Schinkel apparently was still deliberating. At last he gave a low sigh. “I know they found him the pistol; it is only for that,” he murmured; and the next moment Christina saw him sway sharply to and fro in the gloom. She heard a crack and saw that the lock had yielded. The door collapsed: they were in the light; they were in a small room, which looked full of things. The light was that of a single candle on the mantel; it was so poor that for a moment she made out nothing definite. Before that moment was over, however, her eyes had attached themselves to the small bed. There was something on it—something black, something ambiguous, something outstretched. Schinkel held her back, but only for an instant; she saw everything, and with the very act she flung herself beside the bed, upon her knees. Hyacinth lay there as if he were asleep, but there was a horrible thing, a mess of blood, on the bed, in his side, in his heart. His arm hung limp beside him, downwards, off the narrow couch; his face was white and his eyes were closed. So much Schinkel saw, but only for an instant; a convulsive movement of the Princess, bending over the body while a strange low cry came from her lips, covered it up. He looked about him for the weapon, for the pistol, but the Princess, in her rush at the bed, had pushed it out of sight with her knees. “It’s a pity they found it—if he hadn’t had it here!” he exclaimed to her. He had determined to remain calm, so that, on turning round at the quick advent of the little woman of the house, who had hurried up, white, scared, staring, at the sound of the crashing door, he was able to say, very quietly and gravely, “Mr Robinson has shot himself through the heart. He must have done it while you were fetching the milk.” The Princess got up, hearing another person in the room, and then Schinkel perceived the small revolver lying just under the bed. He picked it up and carefully placed it on the mantel-shelf, keeping, equally carefully, to himself the reflection that it would certainly have served much better for the Duke.
Beautiful, beautiful,” said her companion, as if he felt the weight of her fear but was trying to stay calm. The Princess reassured him that a strong shove with his shoulder would easily break the bolt—it was probably just some unfortunate piece of tin—and she stepped aside for him to get closer. He did so, even leaning against the door, but he didn’t push hard, and the Princess waited, her hand over her heart. It seemed Schinkel was still deep in thought. Finally, he let out a low sigh. “I know they found him with the pistol; that’s the only reason,” he murmured; and in the next moment, Christina saw him sway sharply in the dark. She heard a crack and realized the lock had given way. The door fell open: they were in the light; they found themselves in a small room filled with things. The light came from a single candle on the mantel; it was so dim that for a moment she couldn’t make out anything clearly. But before that moment ended, her gaze landed on the small bed. There was something on it—something black, something unclear, something sprawled out. Schinkel held her back for just a moment; she saw everything and immediately threw herself beside the bed, on her knees. Hyacinth lay there as if asleep, but there was a terrible sight, a pool of blood, on the bed, in his side, in his heart. His arm hung limp at his side, off the narrow couch; his face was pale and his eyes were closed. Schinkel noticed all this, but only briefly; a sudden movement from the Princess, leaning over the body while a strange, low cry slipped from her lips, obscured it. He looked around for the weapon, for the pistol, but the Princess, in her rush to the bed, had pushed it out of sight with her knees. “It’s a shame they found it—if he hadn’t had it here!” he said to her. He had resolved to stay calm, so when the little woman of the house hurried in, pale and terrified at the sound of the crashing door, he was able to say, very quietly and seriously, “Mr. Robinson has shot himself in the heart. He must have done it while you were getting the milk.” The Princess stood up, realizing someone else was in the room, and then Schinkel noticed the small revolver lying right under the bed. He picked it up and carefully placed it on the mantel, keeping to himself the thought that it would have been much better used by the Duke.
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