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WHAT MAISIE KNEW

by

Henry James

 

 


 

CONTENTS

 

 


 

 

The litigation seemed interminable and had in fact been complicated; but by the decision on the appeal the judgement of the divorce-court was confirmed as to the assignment of the child. The father, who, though bespattered from head to foot, had made good his case, was, in pursuance of this triumph, appointed to keep her: it was not so much that the mother's character had been more absolutely damaged as that the brilliancy of a lady's complexion (and this lady's, in court, was immensely remarked) might be more regarded as showing the spots. Attached, however, to the second pronouncement was a condition that detracted, for Beale Farange, from its sweetness—an order that he should refund to his late wife the twenty-six hundred pounds put down by her, as it was called, some three years before, in the interest of the child's maintenance and precisely on a proved understanding that he would take no proceedings: a sum of which he had had the administration and of which he could render not the least account. The obligation thus attributed to her adversary was no small balm to Ida's resentment; it drew a part of the sting from her defeat and compelled Mr. Farange perceptibly to lower his crest. He was unable to produce the money or to raise it in any way; so that after a squabble scarcely less public and scarcely more decent than the original shock of battle his only issue from his predicament was a compromise proposed by his legal advisers and finally accepted by hers.

The lawsuit felt endless and had actually become complicated; however, the appeal confirmed the divorce court's decision regarding the child's custody. The father, who was covered in mud but had made his case successfully, was appointed to take care of her. It wasn't just that the mother's reputation had been significantly harmed, but also that the brightness of a lady's complexion (and this lady's, in court, was notably discussed) made her flaws more visible. However, connected to the second ruling was a condition that took away some of the joy for Beale Farange—an order for him to pay back his ex-wife the £2,600 she had put down three years earlier for the child's care, based on a clear agreement that he wouldn't take any legal action. This was money he had managed but couldn't account for at all. The obligation placed on him was a small comfort to Ida’s anger; it took some of the sting out of her loss and forced Mr. Farange to visibly lower his pride. He couldn’t produce the money or raise it in any way, so after a public and not particularly polite squabble, his only way out was a compromise suggested by his lawyers and eventually accepted by hers.

His debt was by this arrangement remitted to him and the little girl disposed of in a manner worthy of the judgement-seat of Solomon. She was divided in two and the portions tossed impartially to the disputants. They would take her, in rotation, for six months at a time; she would spend half the year with each. This was odd justice in the eyes of those who still blinked in the fierce light projected from the tribunal—a light in which neither parent figured in the least as a happy example to youth and innocence. What was to have been expected on the evidence was the nomination, in loco parentis, of some proper third person, some respectable or at least some presentable friend. Apparently, however, the circle of the Faranges had been scanned in vain for any such ornament; so that the only solution finally meeting all the difficulties was, save that of sending Maisie to a Home, the partition of the tutelary office in the manner I have mentioned. There were more reasons for her parents to agree to it than there had ever been for them to agree to anything; and they now prepared with her help to enjoy the distinction that waits upon vulgarity sufficiently attested. Their rupture had resounded, and after being perfectly insignificant together they would be decidedly striking apart. Had they not produced an impression that warranted people in looking for appeals in the newspapers for the rescue of the little one—reverberation, amid a vociferous public, of the idea that some movement should be started or some benevolent person should come forward? A good lady came indeed a step or two: she was distantly related to Mrs. Farange, to whom she proposed that, having children and nurseries wound up and going, she should be allowed to take home the bone of contention and, by working it into her system, relieve at least one of the parents. This would make every time, for Maisie, after her inevitable six months with Beale, much more of a change.

His debt was canceled by this arrangement, and the little girl was dealt with in a way that would make Solomon proud. She was split in two, and the pieces were tossed to the arguing parents. They would take her, one at a time, for six months each; she would spend half the year with one, then the other. This seemed like a strange form of justice to those still reeling from the harsh spotlight of the court—a light that made neither parent look like a good example for youth and innocence. What was expected from the evidence was the appointment, in loco parentis, of some suitable third party, someone respectable or at least presentable. However, it appeared that the Faranges had looked in vain for such a figure; thus, after considering the option of sending Maisie to a home, the only solution that resolved all the issues was the division of the guardianship as I've mentioned. There were more reasons for her parents to agree to this than there had ever been for them to agree to anything else; with her help, they were now ready to embrace the attention that comes from being wildly unforgettable. Their breakup had made waves, and after being completely insignificant together, they would surely stand out apart. Had they not made such an impression that people felt justified in looking for newspaper appeals to rescue the little one—echoing a loud public sentiment that something should be done or that a kind person should step in? A kind woman did indeed come forward: she was a distant relative of Mrs. Farange, and she suggested that, now that her own children were grown and her nursery was shut down, she should be allowed to take home the source of contention and, by integrating her into her family, relieve at least one of the parents. This would make each change for Maisie, after her unavoidable six months with Beale, feel much fresher.

"More of a change?" Ida cried. "Won't it be enough of a change for her to come from that low brute to the person in the world who detests him most?"

"More of a change?" Ida exclaimed. "Isn't it enough of a change for her to go from that low brute to the person in the world who hates him the most?"

"No, because you detest him so much that you'll always talk to her about him. You'll keep him before her by perpetually abusing him."

"No, because you hate him so much that you'll always bring him up when you talk to her. You'll keep him in her mind by constantly putting him down."

Mrs. Farange stared. "Pray, then, am I to do nothing to counteract his villainous abuse of me?"

Mrs. Farange stared. "So, am I supposed to just sit back and do nothing about his terrible mistreatment of me?"

The good lady, for a moment, made no reply: her silence was a grim judgement of the whole point of view. "Poor little monkey!" she at last exclaimed; and the words were an epitaph for the tomb of Maisie's childhood. She was abandoned to her fate. What was clear to any spectator was that the only link binding her to either parent was this lamentable fact of her being a ready vessel for bitterness, a deep little porcelain cup in which biting acids could be mixed. They had wanted her not for any good they could do her, but for the harm they could, with her unconscious aid, do each other. She should serve their anger and seal their revenge, for husband and wife had been alike crippled by the heavy hand of justice, which in the last resort met on neither side their indignant claim to get, as they called it, everything. If each was only to get half this seemed to concede that neither was so base as the other pretended, or, to put it differently, offered them both as bad indeed, since they were only as good as each other. The mother had wished to prevent the father from, as she said, "so much as looking" at the child; the father's plea was that the mother's lightest touch was "simply contamination." These were the opposed principles in which Maisie was to be educated—she was to fit them together as she might. Nothing could have been more touching at first than her failure to suspect the ordeal that awaited her little unspotted soul. There were persons horrified to think what those in charge of it would combine to try to make of it: no one could conceive in advance that they would be able to make nothing ill.

The good lady, for a moment, didn’t respond; her silence was a harsh judgment of the entire situation. "Poor little monkey!" she finally exclaimed, and those words served as an epitaph for Maisie's childhood. She was left to face her fate alone. What was obvious to any onlooker was that the only connection between her and either parent was this sad reality of her being a ready vessel for bitterness, like a delicate porcelain cup meant for mixing harsh substances. They didn’t want her for any good they could do for her, but for the damage they could inflict on each other with her unaware help. She was to serve as a tool for their anger and a means to seal their revenge, for both husband and wife had been equally crippled by the heavy hand of justice, which ultimately met neither of their outraged demands to get, as they put it, everything. If each was only to receive half, it seemed to imply that neither was as wicked as the other claimed, or, to put it another way, it showed that they were both equally bad since they were only as good as each other. The mother wanted to prevent the father from, as she put it, "even looking" at the child; the father argued that the mother's slightest touch was "just contamination." These were the opposing principles by which Maisie was meant to be raised—she was to somehow reconcile them. Nothing could have been more touching at first than her failure to foresee the ordeal that awaited her innocent soul. There were people horrified at the thought of what those in charge would conspire to do with her: no one could imagine in advance that they would leave her completely unharmed.

This was a society in which for the most part people were occupied only with chatter, but the disunited couple had at last grounds for expecting a time of high activity. They girded their loins, they felt as if the quarrel had only begun. They felt indeed more married than ever, inasmuch as what marriage had mainly suggested to them was the unbroken opportunity to quarrel. There had been "sides" before, and there were sides as much as ever; for the sider too the prospect opened out, taking the pleasant form of a superabundance of matter for desultory conversation. The many friends of the Faranges drew together to differ about them; contradiction grew young again over teacups and cigars. Everybody was always assuring everybody of something very shocking, and nobody would have been jolly if nobody had been outrageous. The pair appeared to have a social attraction which failed merely as regards each other: it was indeed a great deal to be able to say for Ida that no one but Beale desired her blood, and for Beale that if he should ever have his eyes scratched out it would be only by his wife. It was generally felt, to begin with, that they were awfully good-looking—they had really not been analysed to a deeper residuum. They made up together for instance some twelve feet three of stature, and nothing was more discussed than the apportionment of this quantity. The sole flaw in Ida's beauty was a length and reach of arm conducive perhaps to her having so often beaten her ex-husband at billiards, a game in which she showed a superiority largely accountable, as she maintained, for the resentment finding expression in his physical violence. Billiards was her great accomplishment and the distinction her name always first produced the mention of. Notwithstanding some very long lines everything about her that might have been large and that in many women profited by the licence was, with a single exception, admired and cited for its smallness. The exception was her eyes, which might have been of mere regulation size, but which overstepped the modesty of nature; her mouth, on the other hand, was barely perceptible, and odds were freely taken as to the measurement of her waist. She was a person who, when she was out—and she was always out—produced everywhere a sense of having been seen often, the sense indeed of a kind of abuse of visibility, so that it would have been, in the usual places rather vulgar to wonder at her. Strangers only did that; but they, to the amusement of the familiar, did it very much: it was an inevitable way of betraying an alien habit. Like her husband she carried clothes, carried them as a train carries passengers: people had been known to compare their taste and dispute about the accommodation they gave these articles, though inclining on the whole to the commendation of Ida as less overcrowded, especially with jewellery and flowers. Beale Farange had natural decorations, a kind of costume in his vast fair beard, burnished like a gold breastplate, and in the eternal glitter of the teeth that his long moustache had been trained not to hide and that gave him, in every possible situation, the look of the joy of life. He had been destined in his youth for diplomacy and momentarily attached, without a salary, to a legation which enabled him often to say "In my time in the East": but contemporary history had somehow had no use for him, had hurried past him and left him in perpetual Piccadilly. Every one knew what he had—only twenty-five hundred. Poor Ida, who had run through everything, had now nothing but her carriage and her paralysed uncle. This old brute, as he was called, was supposed to have a lot put away. The child was provided for, thanks to a crafty godmother, a defunct aunt of Beale's, who had left her something in such a manner that the parents could appropriate only the income.

This was a society where most people were mainly focused on gossip, but the separated couple finally had reasons to expect a time of intense activity. They prepared themselves, feeling as if their argument had just begun. They felt more married than ever, as what marriage had primarily suggested to them was the endless opportunity to argue. There had been "sides" before, and sides still existed; for those on either side, the prospects were appealing, presenting an abundance of topics for casual conversation. The many friends of the Faranges gathered to discuss them, and debates sprang up again over teacups and cigars. Everyone was constantly assuring everyone else of something quite shocking, and no one would have been cheerful if no one had been outrageous. The couple seemed to have a social appeal, except when it came to each other: it was quite a point for Ida to say that only Beale wanted her blood, and for Beale to claim that if he ever got his eyes scratched out, it would be only by his wife. It was generally agreed, to start with, that they were extremely good-looking—they hadn’t been analyzed to a deeper level. Together they stood around twelve feet three inches tall, and nothing was more discussed than the division of that height. The only flaw in Ida's beauty was the length and reach of her arms, which possibly contributed to her often defeating her ex-husband in billiards—a skill she attributed for the resentment that occasionally led to his physical violence. Billiards was her standout talent, and it was often the first thing mentioned when her name came up. Despite some very long lines, everything about her that could have been large—and that in many women would have benefited from the freedom to be—was, with one exception, admired and noted for its smallness. The exception was her eyes, which may have been merely standard size but surpassed the modesty of nature; her mouth, in contrast, was hardly noticeable, and bets were made on the measurement of her waist. She was someone who, when she was out—and she was always out—created a sense of having been frequently seen, almost a sense of abusing visibility, making it somewhat rude in common places to marvel at her. Only strangers did that; but they tended to amuse the familiar by doing so excessively, revealing their outsider status. Like her husband, she carried her clothes like a train carries passengers: people had been known to compare their fashions and argue about how well they suited these garments, though, overall, they leaned toward praising Ida for being less cluttered, especially with jewelry and flowers. Beale Farange had natural adornments, like a costume in his large light beard, shining like a gold breastplate, and in the constant shine of his teeth that his long mustache was trained not to cover, which gave him, in every situation, a look of joy in life. He had been intended for a diplomatic career and was briefly attached, without pay, to a legation, which allowed him frequently to say, “In my time in the East”; however, contemporary history seemed to have no need for him, passing him by and leaving him stuck in perpetual Piccadilly. Everyone knew what he had—only twenty-five hundred. Poor Ida, who had spent everything, now had nothing but her carriage and her paralyzed uncle. This old brute, as he was called, was believed to have a considerable amount saved up. The child was taken care of, thanks to a shrewd godmother, a deceased aunt of Beale's, who left her something in such a way that the parents could only access the income.

 

 

I
 

The child was provided for, but the new arrangement was inevitably confounding to a young intelligence intensely aware that something had happened which must matter a good deal and looking anxiously out for the effects of so great a cause. It was to be the fate of this patient little girl to see much more than she at first understood, but also even at first to understand much more than any little girl, however patient, had perhaps ever understood before. Only a drummer-boy in a ballad or a story could have been so in the thick of the fight. She was taken into the confidence of passions on which she fixed just the stare she might have had for images bounding across the wall in the slide of a magic-lantern. Her little world was phantasmagoric—strange shadows dancing on a sheet. It was as if the whole performance had been given for her—a mite of a half-scared infant in a great dim theatre. She was in short introduced to life with a liberality in which the selfishness of others found its account, and there was nothing to avert the sacrifice but the modesty of her youth.

The child was taken care of, but the new situation was confusing for a young mind that was keenly aware something important had happened and was anxiously watching for the effects of such a huge event. This patient little girl was destined to see much more than she initially understood, but even in the beginning, she grasped more than any little girl, no matter how patient, had perhaps ever grasped before. Only a drummer-boy from a ballad or a story could have been so deeply involved in the conflict. She was brought into the midst of emotions that she gazed at as if they were images moving across the wall in a magic lantern show. Her little world was surreal—strange shadows dancing on a screen. It felt like the entire show was performed for her—a tiny, half-scared child in a large, dim theater. In short, she was introduced to life with a generosity that exploited the selfishness of others, and nothing could prevent the sacrifice except for her youthful modesty.

Her first term was with her father, who spared her only in not letting her have the wild letters addressed to her by her mother: he confined himself to holding them up at her and shaking them, while he showed his teeth, and then amusing her by the way he chucked them, across the room, bang into the fire. Even at that moment, however, she had a scared anticipation of fatigue, a guilty sense of not rising to the occasion, feeling the charm of the violence with which the stiff unopened envelopes, whose big monograms—Ida bristled with monograms—she would have liked to see, were made to whizz, like dangerous missiles, through the air. The greatest effect of the great cause was her own greater importance, chiefly revealed to her in the larger freedom with which she was handled, pulled hither and thither and kissed, and the proportionately greater niceness she was obliged to show. Her features had somehow become prominent; they were so perpetually nipped by the gentlemen who came to see her father and the smoke of whose cigarettes went into her face. Some of these gentlemen made her strike matches and light their cigarettes; others, holding her on knees violently jolted, pinched the calves of her legs till she shrieked—her shriek was much admired—and reproached them with being toothpicks. The word stuck in her mind and contributed to her feeling from this time that she was deficient in something that would meet the general desire. She found out what it was: it was a congenital tendency to the production of a substance to which Moddle, her nurse, gave a short ugly name, a name painfully associated at dinner with the part of the joint that she didn't like. She had left behind her the time when she had no desires to meet, none at least save Moddle's, who, in Kensington Gardens, was always on the bench when she came back to see if she had been playing too far. Moddle's desire was merely that she shouldn't do that, and she met it so easily that the only spots in that long brightness were the moments of her wondering what would become of her if, on her rushing back, there should be no Moddle on the bench. They still went to the Gardens, but there was a difference even there; she was impelled perpetually to look at the legs of other children and ask her nurse if they were toothpicks. Moddle was terribly truthful; she always said: "Oh my dear, you'll not find such another pair as your own." It seemed to have to do with something else that Moddle often said: "You feel the strain—that's where it is; and you'll feel it still worse, you know."

Her first term was with her dad, who only spared her the trouble of dealing with the wild letters her mom sent her. He limited himself to holding them up and shaking them at her while grinning, then entertained himself by tossing them across the room right into the fire. Even then, she sensed a looming fatigue and felt guilty for not rising to the occasion, captivated by the force with which the stiff, unopened envelopes—Ida was covered in monograms—were hurled through the air like dangerous projectiles. The most significant impact of the big situation was her own heightened importance, mainly shown through the increased freedom with which she was treated—pulled around and kissed—and the greater politeness she had to display. Her features had somehow become pronounced; they were often squeezed by the men who visited her dad, and the smoke from their cigarettes filled her face. Some of these men made her strike matches and light their cigarettes; others, bouncing her violently on their knees, pinched her calves until she screamed—her scream was quite the spectacle—and chastised them for being toothpicks. That term stuck with her and contributed to her feeling that she was lacking something that met everyone’s expectations. She figured out what it was: a natural tendency to produce a substance that Moddle, her nurse, called by a short, unpleasant name, a term painfully tied to the part of the joint she disliked during dinner. She had moved past the time when she had no desires to fulfill, except for Moddle's, who was always on the bench in Kensington Gardens whenever she returned to check if she had been playing too far. Moddle's desire was simply for her not to do that, and she met it so effortlessly that the only dark moments in that long stretch of happiness were when she wondered what would happen if there were no Moddle on the bench when she dashed back. They still went to the Gardens, but even there, things changed; she constantly felt the urge to look at the legs of other kids and ask her nurse if those were toothpicks. Moddle was brutally honest; she always replied, “Oh my dear, you'll never find another pair as nice as your own.” This seemed linked to something else Moddle often said: “You feel the strain—that's where it's at; and you’ll feel it even more, you know.”

Thus from the first Maisie not only felt it, but knew she felt it. A part of it was the consequence of her father's telling her he felt it too, and telling Moddle, in her presence, that she must make a point of driving that home. She was familiar, at the age of six, with the fact that everything had been changed on her account, everything ordered to enable him to give himself up to her. She was to remember always the words in which Moddle impressed upon her that he did so give himself: "Your papa wishes you never to forget, you know, that he has been dreadfully put about." If the skin on Moddle's face had to Maisie the air of being unduly, almost painfully, stretched, it never presented that appearance so much as when she uttered, as she often had occasion to utter, such words. The child wondered if they didn't make it hurt more than usual; but it was only after some time that she was able to attach to the picture of her father's sufferings, and more particularly to her nurse's manner about them, the meaning for which these things had waited. By the time she had grown sharper, as the gentlemen who had criticised her calves used to say, she found in her mind a collection of images and echoes to which meanings were attachable—images and echoes kept for her in the childish dusk, the dim closet, the high drawers, like games she wasn't yet big enough to play. The great strain meanwhile was that of carrying by the right end the things her father said about her mother—things mostly indeed that Moddle, on a glimpse of them, as if they had been complicated toys or difficult books, took out of her hands and put away in the closet. A wonderful assortment of objects of this kind she was to discover there later, all tumbled up too with the things, shuffled into the same receptacle, that her mother had said about her father.

Thus, from the start, Maisie not only felt it but also knew she felt it. Part of this was due to her father telling her that he felt it too, and telling Moddle, in her presence, that she needed to make a point of reinforcing that. By the age of six, she was aware that everything had changed for her sake, everything organized to allow him to devote himself to her. She was to always remember the words in which Moddle emphasized that he truly did devote himself: "Your dad wants you to never forget, you know, that he has been really upset." If the skin on Moddle's face seemed to Maisie to be unduly, almost painfully, stretched, it never looked that way more than when she said, as she often had to say, those words. The child wondered if they didn't make things hurt more than usual; but it was only after some time that she was able to attach to the image of her father's suffering, and especially to her nurse's way of talking about it, the meaning that these things had been waiting for. By the time she had become sharper, as the gentlemen who had criticized her calves used to say, she found in her mind a collection of images and echoes to which meanings could be attached—images and echoes kept for her in the childish dusk, the dim closet, the high drawers, like games she wasn't yet old enough to play. The main challenge, in the meantime, was figuring out the right way to understand what her father said about her mother—things that Moddle often took from her hands at a glance, as if they were complicated toys or difficult books, and put away in the closet. A wonderful array of objects of this kind she was to discover there later, all mixed up along with the things her mother had said about her father.

She had the knowledge that on a certain occasion which every day brought nearer her mother would be at the door to take her away, and this would have darkened all the days if the ingenious Moddle hadn't written on a paper in very big easy words ever so many pleasures that she would enjoy at the other house. These promises ranged from "a mother's fond love" to "a nice poached egg to your tea," and took by the way the prospect of sitting up ever so late to see the lady in question dressed, in silks and velvets and diamonds and pearls, to go out: so that it was a real support to Maisie, at the supreme hour, to feel how, by Moddle's direction, the paper was thrust away in her pocket and there clenched in her fist. The supreme hour was to furnish her with a vivid reminiscence, that of a strange outbreak in the drawing-room on the part of Moddle, who, in reply to something her father had just said, cried aloud: "You ought to be perfectly ashamed of yourself—you ought to blush, sir, for the way you go on!" The carriage, with her mother in it, was at the door; a gentleman who was there, who was always there, laughed out very loud; her father, who had her in his arms, said to Moddle: "My dear woman, I'll settle you presently!"—after which he repeated, showing his teeth more than ever at Maisie while he hugged her, the words for which her nurse had taken him up. Maisie was not at the moment so fully conscious of them as of the wonder of Moddle's sudden disrespect and crimson face; but she was able to produce them in the course of five minutes when, in the carriage, her mother, all kisses, ribbons, eyes, arms, strange sounds and sweet smells, said to her: "And did your beastly papa, my precious angel, send any message to your own loving mamma?" Then it was that she found the words spoken by her beastly papa to be, after all, in her little bewildered ears, from which, at her mother's appeal, they passed, in her clear shrill voice, straight to her little innocent lips. "He said I was to tell you, from him," she faithfully reported, "that you're a nasty horrid pig!"

She knew that on a specific day, which was getting closer every day, her mom would be at the door to take her away, and this would have darkened all her days if it weren't for the clever Moddle. Moddle had written on a paper in very big, easy words all the fun things she would enjoy at her mom's house. These promises included everything from "a mother's loving care" to "a nice poached egg with your tea," and even the idea of staying up really late to see the lady dressed in silks, velvets, diamonds, and pearls, ready to go out. This really helped Maisie at the crucial moment as she felt how, by Moddle's guidance, the paper was tucked away in her pocket and clenched tightly in her fist. That critical moment would give her a vivid memory of a strange outburst from Moddle in the drawing-room, who, in response to something her father had just said, shouted, "You should be absolutely ashamed of yourself—you should be blushing, sir, for your behavior!" The carriage, with her mother inside, was at the door; a man who was always there laughed loudly; her father, holding her in his arms, said to Moddle, "My dear woman, I'll deal with you in a moment!"—after which he grinned even wider at Maisie while hugging her, repeating the words that had gotten Moddle so upset. At that moment, Maisie was more aware of Moddle's sudden disrespect and red face than the words themselves, but she managed to recall them just five minutes later when, in the carriage, her mom, full of kisses, ribbons, warmth, strange sounds, and sweet smells, asked her: "And did your awful papa, my precious angel, send any message to your loving mama?" That’s when she realized the words her awful papa had said were, after all, in her confused little ears, from which they came, at her mother’s request, in her clear, high voice, right to her innocent lips. "He told me to tell you, from him," she reported honestly, "that you're a nasty, horrid pig!"

 

 

II
 

In that lively sense of the immediate which is the very air of a child's mind the past, on each occasion, became for her as indistinct as the future: she surrendered herself to the actual with a good faith that might have been touching to either parent. Crudely as they had calculated they were at first justified by the event: she was the little feathered shuttlecock they could fiercely keep flying between them. The evil they had the gift of thinking or pretending to think of each other they poured into her little gravely-gazing soul as into a boundless receptacle, and each of them had doubtless the best conscience in the world as to the duty of teaching her the stern truth that should be her safeguard against the other. She was at the age for which all stories are true and all conceptions are stories. The actual was the absolute, the present alone was vivid. The objurgation for instance launched in the carriage by her mother after she had at her father's bidding punctually performed was a missive that dropped into her memory with the dry rattle of a letter falling into a pillar-box. Like the letter it was, as part of the contents of a well-stuffed post-bag, delivered in due course at the right address. In the presence of these overflowings, after they had continued for a couple of years, the associates of either party sometimes felt that something should be done for what they called "the real good, don't you know?" of the child. The only thing done, however, in general, took place when it was sighingly remarked that she fortunately wasn't all the year round where she happened to be at the awkward moment, and that, furthermore, either from extreme cunning or from extreme stupidity, she appeared not to take things in.

In that lively sense of the present that fills a child's mind, the past became just as unclear as the future for her: she completely immersed herself in the moment with a trust that could have been endearing to either parent. As clumsily as they had planned, they were initially justified by the outcome: she was the little feathered shuttlecock they could fiercely keep flying between them. The negativity they thought or pretended to think about each other poured into her little, serious soul like it was an endless container, and each of them likely felt completely justified in their duty to teach her the harsh truths that should protect her from the other. She was at an age where every story felt true and all ideas were narratives. The actual moment was everything, the present was the only thing that stood out. For example, the rebuke launched in the carriage by her mother after she had promptly followed her father's request was like a message that dropped into her memory with the dry sound of a letter falling into a mailbox. Like the letter, it was delivered as part of the contents of a well-packed post-bag to the right address in due time. In light of these situations, after they had gone on for a couple of years, the associates of either parent sometimes felt that something should be done for what they called "the real good, you know?" of the child. However, the only actions taken generally happened when it was resignedly noted that she luckily wasn’t always where she happened to be at those awkward moments, and that, moreover, either from cleverness or sheer naivety, she seemed not to pick up on things.

The theory of her stupidity, eventually embraced by her parents, corresponded with a great date in her small still life: the complete vision, private but final, of the strange office she filled. It was literally a moral revolution and accomplished in the depths of her nature. The stiff dolls on the dusky shelves began to move their arms and legs; old forms and phrases began to have a sense that frightened her. She had a new feeling, the feeling of danger; on which a new remedy rose to meet it, the idea of an inner self or, in other words, of concealment. She puzzled out with imperfect signs, but with a prodigious spirit, that she had been a centre of hatred and a messenger of insult, and that everything was bad because she had been employed to make it so. Her parted lips locked themselves with the determination to be employed no longer. She would forget everything, she would repeat nothing, and when, as a tribute to the successful application of her system, she began to be called a little idiot, she tasted a pleasure new and keen. When therefore, as she grew older, her parents in turn announced before her that she had grown shockingly dull, it was not from any real contraction of her little stream of life. She spoiled their fun, but she practically added to her own. She saw more and more; she saw too much. It was Miss Overmore, her first governess, who on a momentous occasion had sown the seeds of secrecy; sown them not by anything she said, but by a mere roll of those fine eyes which Maisie already admired. Moddle had become at this time, after alternations of residence of which the child had no clear record, an image faintly embalmed in the remembrance of hungry disappearances from the nursery and distressful lapses in the alphabet, sad embarrassments, in particular, when invited to recognise something her nurse described as "the important letter haitch." Miss Overmore, however hungry, never disappeared: this marked her somehow as of higher rank, and the character was confirmed by a prettiness that Maisie supposed to be extraordinary. Mrs. Farange had described her as almost too pretty, and some one had asked what that mattered so long as Beale wasn't there. "Beale or no Beale," Maisie had heard her mother reply, "I take her because she's a lady and yet awfully poor. Rather nice people, but there are seven sisters at home. What do people mean?"

The theory of her stupidity, eventually accepted by her parents, matched a significant moment in her small, simple life: the complete, private, but final vision of the strange role she played. It was literally a moral breakthrough and happened deep within her being. The stiff dolls on the dusty shelves began to move their arms and legs; old shapes and phrases started to carry a meaning that scared her. She felt something new, a sense of danger, which brought forth a new response: the idea of an inner self or, in other words, the concept of hiding. She figured out, with imperfect signs but incredible determination, that she had been a center of hatred and a bearer of insults, and that everything was wrong because she had been tasked with making it so. Her lips, once parted, now closed with the resolve to not be used anymore. She would forget everything, she wouldn’t repeat anything, and when, as a result of her successful approach, she began to be called a little idiot, she experienced a sharp and new sense of pleasure. So when, as she got older, her parents announced that she had become shockingly dull, it wasn’t due to any real decrease in her small stream of life. She ruined their fun, but she practically enhanced her own. She started to see more and more; in fact, she saw too much. It was Miss Overmore, her first governess, who on a crucial occasion had planted the seeds of secrecy; she didn't do it through words, but just with a simple roll of those beautiful eyes that Maisie already admired. Moddle had become, during this time, after various moves that the child couldn't clearly remember, an image faintly preserved in her memory of hungry disappearances from the nursery and distressing gaps in the alphabet, particularly awkward moments when she was asked to recognize something her nurse called "the important letter haitch." Miss Overmore, however hungry, never disappeared: this somehow marked her as being of a higher status, and her character was reinforced by a prettiness that Maisie thought was extraordinary. Mrs. Farange had described her as almost too pretty, and someone had asked what that mattered as long as Beale wasn't around. "Beale or no Beale," Maisie heard her mother reply, "I take her because she's a lady and yet incredibly poor. Quite nice people, but there are seven sisters at home. What do people mean?"

Maisie didn't know what people meant, but she knew very soon all the names of all the sisters; she could say them off better than she could say the multiplication-table. She privately wondered moreover, though she never asked, about the awful poverty, of which her companion also never spoke. Food at any rate came up by mysterious laws; Miss Overmore never, like Moddle, had on an apron, and when she ate she held her fork with her little finger curled out. The child, who watched her at many moments, watched her particularly at that one. "I think you're lovely," she often said to her; even mamma, who was lovely too, had not such a pretty way with the fork. Maisie associated this showier presence with her now being "big," knowing of course that nursery-governesses were only for little girls who were not, as she said, "really" little. She vaguely knew, further, somehow, that the future was still bigger than she, and that a part of what made it so was the number of governesses lurking in it and ready to dart out. Everything that had happened when she was really little was dormant, everything but the positive certitude, bequeathed from afar by Moddle, that the natural way for a child to have her parents was separate and successive, like her mutton and her pudding or her bath and her nap.

Maisie didn't understand what people meant, but she quickly learned all the names of the sisters; she could recite them better than she could the multiplication table. She often wondered, though she never asked, about the terrible poverty that her companion also never mentioned. Food, at least, arrived by mysterious means; Miss Overmore never wore an apron like Moddle did, and when she ate, she held her fork with her little finger curled out. The child, who observed her at various times, particularly noticed that moment. "I think you're lovely," she frequently said to her; even her mom, who was lovely too, didn't have such a pretty way of using a fork. Maisie linked this fancier demeanor to her now being "big," knowing, of course, that nursery governesses were only for little girls who were, as she put it, "not really" little. She also had a vague sense that the future was even bigger than her, and part of what made it so was the number of governesses lurking in it, ready to spring out. Everything that had happened when she was really little was dormant, except for the firm belief, passed down from afar by Moddle, that the natural way for a child to have her parents was separate and in succession, like her mutton and her pudding or her bath and her nap.

"Does he know he lies?"—that was what she had vivaciously asked Miss Overmore on the occasion which was so suddenly to lead to a change in her life.

"Does he know he’s lying?"—that was what she had eagerly asked Miss Overmore on the occasion that was about to bring a sudden change to her life.

"Does he know—" Miss Overmore stared; she had a stocking pulled over her hand and was pricking at it with a needle which she poised in the act. Her task was homely, but her movement, like all her movements, graceful.

"Does he know—" Miss Overmore stared; she had a stocking pulled over her hand and was poking it with a needle that she held in mid-air. Her task was simple, but her movement, like all her movements, was graceful.

"Why papa."

"Why, Dad?"

"That he 'lies'?"

"That he 'lies'?"

"That's what mamma says I'm to tell him—'that he lies and he knows he lies.'" Miss Overmore turned very red, though she laughed out till her head fell back; then she pricked again at her muffled hand so hard that Maisie wondered how she could bear it. "Am I to tell him?" the child went on. It was then that her companion addressed her in the unmistakeable language of a pair of eyes of deep dark grey. "I can't say No," they replied as distinctly as possible; "I can't say No, because I'm afraid of your mamma, don't you see? Yet how can I say Yes after your papa has been so kind to me, talking to me so long the other day, smiling and flashing his beautiful teeth at me the time we met him in the Park, the time when, rejoicing at the sight of us, he left the gentlemen he was with and turned and walked with us, stayed with us for half an hour?" Somehow in the light of Miss Overmore's lovely eyes that incident came back to Maisie with a charm it hadn't had at the time, and this in spite of the fact that after it was over her governess had never but once alluded to it. On their way home, when papa had quitted them, she had expressed the hope that the child wouldn't mention it to mamma. Maisie liked her so, and had so the charmed sense of being liked by her, that she accepted this remark as settling the matter and wonderingly conformed to it. The wonder now lived again, lived in the recollection of what papa had said to Miss Overmore: "I've only to look at you to see you're a person I can appeal to for help to save my daughter." Maisie's ignorance of what she was to be saved from didn't diminish the pleasure of the thought that Miss Overmore was saving her. It seemed to make them cling together as in some wild game of "going round."

"That's what Mom says I should tell him—'that he lies and he knows he lies.'" Miss Overmore turned very red, but laughed so hard her head fell back; then she poked her muffled hand again so hard that Maisie wondered how she could stand it. "Am I supposed to tell him?" the child continued. It was then that her companion communicated with her through the unmistakable look in her deep dark grey eyes. "I can't say No," they seemed to say clearly; "I can't say No because I'm afraid of your mom, don't you get it? But how can I say Yes after your dad has been so nice to me, talking to me for so long the other day, smiling and showing off his beautiful teeth the time we ran into him at the Park, when he was so happy to see us that he left the guys he was with to walk with us and stayed for half an hour?" Somehow, in the light of Miss Overmore's lovely eyes, that moment came back to Maisie with a charm it hadn't had at the time, even though her governess had only mentioned it once since then. On their way home, after Dad had left them, she had hoped that the child wouldn't mention it to Mom. Maisie liked her so much and felt so appreciated by her that she took this comment as final and curiously went along with it. The wonder resurfaced, growing from the memory of what Dad had said to Miss Overmore: "I only have to look at you to see you're someone I can turn to for help to save my daughter." Maisie's lack of understanding about what she needed saving from didn't lessen the pleasure of knowing that Miss Overmore was saving her. It somehow made them feel connected like they were playing some wild game of "going round."

 

 

III
 

She was therefore all the more startled when her mother said to her in connexion with something to be done before her next migration: "You understand of course that she's not going with you."

She was even more shocked when her mother told her about something that needed to be done before her next move: "You do realize that she’s not going with you."

Maisie turned quite faint. "Oh I thought she was."

Maisie felt a bit faint. "Oh, I thought she was."

"It doesn't in the least matter, you know, what you think," Mrs. Farange loudly replied; "and you had better indeed for the future, miss, learn to keep your thoughts to yourself." This was exactly what Maisie had already learned, and the accomplishment was just the source of her mother's irritation. It was of a horrid little critical system, a tendency, in her silence, to judge her elders, that this lady suspected her, liking as she did, for her own part, a child to be simple and confiding. She liked also to hear the report of the whacks she administered to Mr. Farange's character, to his pretensions to peace of mind: the satisfaction of dealing them diminished when nothing came back. The day was at hand, and she saw it, when she should feel more delight in hurling Maisie at him than in snatching her away; so much so that her conscience winced under the acuteness of a candid friend who had remarked that the real end of all their tugging would be that each parent would try to make the little girl a burden to the other—a sort of game in which a fond mother clearly wouldn't show to advantage. The prospect of not showing to advantage, a distinction in which she held she had never failed, begot in Ida Farange an ill humour of which several persons felt the effect. She determined that Beale at any rate should feel it; she reflected afresh that in the study of how to be odious to him she must never give way. Nothing could incommode him more than not to get the good, for the child, of a nice female appendage who had clearly taken a fancy to her. One of the things Ida said to the appendage was that Beale's was a house in which no decent woman could consent to be seen. It was Miss Overmore herself who explained to Maisie that she had had a hope of being allowed to accompany her to her father's, and that this hope had been dashed by the way her mother took it. "She says that if I ever do such a thing as enter his service I must never expect to show my face in this house again. So I've promised not to attempt to go with you. If I wait patiently till you come back here we shall certainly be together once more."

"It really doesn’t matter at all what you think," Mrs. Farange said loudly. "You should definitely learn to keep your thoughts to yourself from now on, miss." This was exactly what Maisie had already learned, and that was precisely what irritated her mother. Mrs. Farange suspected her daughter of having a horrible little critical mindset, a tendency to silently judge her elders, even though she preferred a child who was innocent and trusting. She also enjoyed hearing about the criticisms she directed at Mr. Farange's character and his claims to be at peace; the satisfaction of delivering those critiques faded when there was no response. The day was approaching when she would find more pleasure in throwing Maisie at him than in pulling her away, to the point that her conscience pricked after a candid friend pointed out that the true outcome of their struggle would be that each parent would try to make the little girl a burden to the other—a sort of game in which a loving mother clearly wouldn’t come off well. The thought of not coming off well, a distinction she believed she had never failed at, put Ida Farange in a bad mood that several people noticed. She resolved that Beale would definitely feel it; she reminded herself again that in figuring out how to annoy him, she must never back down. Nothing would bother him more than not getting the benefit, for the child, of a nice female companion who clearly liked her. One of the things Ida told the companion was that Beale lived in a house where no decent woman could be seen. It was Miss Overmore herself who explained to Maisie that she had hoped to be allowed to go with her to her father’s, a hope that had been dashed by her mother's reaction. "She says that if I ever do something as crazy as joining his household, I must never expect to step foot in this house again. So I’ve promised not to try to go with you. If I wait patiently until you come back here, we’ll definitely be together again."

Waiting patiently, and above all waiting till she should come back there, seemed to Maisie a long way round—it reminded her of all the things she had been told, first and last, that she should have if she'd be good and that in spite of her goodness she had never had at all. "Then who'll take care of me at papa's?"

Waiting patiently, and especially waiting until she came back there, felt like a long detour to Maisie—it made her think of all the things she had been told, over and over, that she would get if she was good, and that despite her goodness, she had never received at all. "Then who's going to take care of me at Dad's?"

"Heaven only knows, my own precious!" Miss Overmore replied, tenderly embracing her. There was indeed no doubt that she was dear to this beautiful friend. What could have proved it better than the fact that before a week was out, in spite of their distressing separation and her mother's prohibition and Miss Overmore's scruples and Miss Overmore's promise, the beautiful friend had turned up at her father's? The little lady already engaged there to come by the hour, a fat dark little lady with a foreign name and dirty fingers, who wore, throughout, a bonnet that had at first given her a deceptive air, too soon dispelled, of not staying long, besides asking her pupil questions that had nothing to do with lessons, questions that Beale Farange himself, when two or three were repeated to him, admitted to be awfully low—this strange apparition faded before the bright creature who had braved everything for Maisie's sake. The bright creature told her little charge frankly what had happened—that she had really been unable to hold out. She had broken her vow to Mrs. Farange; she had struggled for three days and then had come straight to Maisie's papa and told him the simple truth. She adored his daughter; she couldn't give her up; she'd make for her any sacrifice. On this basis it had been arranged that she should stay; her courage had been rewarded; she left Maisie in no doubt as to the amount of courage she had required. Some of the things she said made a particular impression on the child—her declaration for instance that when her pupil should get older she'd understand better just how "dreadfully bold" a young lady, to do exactly what she had done, had to be.

"Heaven only knows, my dear!" Miss Overmore replied, hugging her tightly. There was definitely no doubt that she was cherished by this beautiful friend. What could prove it better than the fact that just a week later, despite their distressing separation, her mother's disapproval, Miss Overmore's hesitations, and her promise, the beautiful friend showed up at her father's house? The little lady there was already booked by the hour—a plump, dark-skinned woman with a foreign name and dirty fingers—who wore a bonnet that initially gave her a misleading impression of not staying long, besides asking her student questions unrelated to lessons, questions that Beale Farange himself, when a couple of them were repeated to him, admitted were incredibly silly. This strange figure faded away in comparison to the bright girl who had risked everything for Maisie's sake. The bright girl spoke to her young friend honestly about what had occurred—she simply couldn't hold back. She had broken her promise to Mrs. Farange; she had fought for three days and then went straight to Maisie's dad and told him the plain truth. She adored his daughter; she couldn’t give her up; she would make any sacrifice for her. It was decided that she could stay; her bravery was rewarded; she made sure Maisie knew just how much courage it took. Some of the things she said left a strong impression on the child—like her statement that when her student grew older, she'd better understand just how "incredibly bold" a girl had to be to do exactly what she had done.

"Fortunately your papa appreciates it; he appreciates it immensely"—that was one of the things Miss Overmore also said, with a striking insistence on the adverb. Maisie herself was no less impressed with what this martyr had gone through, especially after hearing of the terrible letter that had come from Mrs. Farange. Mamma had been so angry that, in Miss Overmore's own words, she had loaded her with insult—proof enough indeed that they must never look forward to being together again under mamma's roof. Mamma's roof, however, had its turn, this time, for the child, of appearing but remotely contingent, so that, to reassure her, there was scarce a need of her companion's secret, solemnly confided—the probability there would be no going back to mamma at all. It was Miss Overmore's private conviction, and a part of the same communication, that if Mr. Farange's daughter would only show a really marked preference she would be backed up by "public opinion" in holding on to him. Poor Maisie could scarcely grasp that incentive, but she could surrender herself to the day. She had conceived her first passion, and the object of it was her governess. It hadn't been put to her, and she couldn't, or at any rate she didn't, put it to herself, that she liked Miss Overmore better than she liked papa; but it would have sustained her under such an imputation to feel herself able to reply that papa too liked Miss Overmore exactly as much. He had particularly told her so. Besides she could easily see it.

"Fortunately, your dad really appreciates it; he appreciates it immensely,” Miss Overmore said this with a strong emphasis on the adverb. Maisie was also struck by what this devoted person had gone through, especially after hearing about the awful letter from Mrs. Farange. Mom had been so furious that, in Miss Overmore's own words, she had loaded her with insults—clear proof that they could never expect to be together again under Mom's roof. However, Mom's roof seemed far away this time for the child, so to reassure her, there was barely any need for her companion’s serious secret—it was likely there would be no going back to Mom at all. Miss Overmore privately believed, and this was part of the same conversation, that if Mr. Farange’s daughter would just show a real preference, she would have "public opinion" backing her up in holding on to him. Poor Maisie could hardly understand that motivation, but she could lose herself in the day. She had developed her first crush, and the object of it was her governess. It hadn't been spelled out for her, and she couldn’t, or at least she didn't, admit to herself that she liked Miss Overmore more than she liked Dad; but it would have helped her if she could have replied that Dad liked Miss Overmore just as much. He had specifically told her so. Plus, she could easily see it.

 

 

IV
 

All this led her on, but it brought on her fate as well, the day when her mother would be at the door in the carriage in which Maisie now rode on no occasions but these. There was no question at present of Miss Overmore's going back with her: it was universally recognised that her quarrel with Mrs. Farange was much too acute. The child felt it from the first; there was no hugging nor exclaiming as that lady drove her away—there was only a frightening silence, unenlivened even by the invidious enquiries of former years, which culminated, according to its stern nature, in a still more frightening old woman, a figure awaiting her on the very doorstep. "You're to be under this lady's care," said her mother. "Take her, Mrs. Wix," she added, addressing the figure impatiently and giving the child a push from which Maisie gathered that she wished to set Mrs. Wix an example of energy. Mrs. Wix took her and, Maisie felt the next day, would never let her go. She had struck her at first, just after Miss Overmore, as terrible; but something in her voice at the end of an hour touched the little girl in a spot that had never even yet been reached. Maisie knew later what it was, though doubtless she couldn't have made a statement of it: these were things that a few days' talk with Mrs. Wix quite lighted up. The principal one was a matter Mrs. Wix herself always immediately mentioned: she had had a little girl quite of her own, and the little girl had been killed on the spot. She had had absolutely nothing else in all the world, and her affliction had broken her heart. It was comfortably established between them that Mrs. Wix's heart was broken. What Maisie felt was that she had been, with passion and anguish, a mother, and that this was something Miss Overmore was not, something (strangely, confusingly) that mamma was even less.

All of this urged her on, but it also sealed her fate for the day when her mother would be at the door in the carriage that Maisie only rode in on these occasions. There was no question of Miss Overmore going back with her: everyone knew that her conflict with Mrs. Farange was too intense. The child sensed it from the start; there were no hugs or exclamations as that lady drove her away—only an unsettling silence, even devoid of the annoying questions from previous years, which, according to its strict nature, ended with an even more daunting old woman waiting for her on the very doorstep. "You're going to be under this lady's care," said her mother. "Take her, Mrs. Wix," she added, addressing the figure impatiently and giving the child a push that made Maisie realize her mother wanted to show Mrs. Wix some energy. Mrs. Wix took her, and the next day, Maisie felt, would never let her go. At first, she saw her, right after Miss Overmore, as terrifying; but something in her voice after an hour touched the little girl in a way she had never experienced before. Maisie later understood what it was, though she couldn't have articulated it: these were things that a few days of conversation with Mrs. Wix made very clear. The main point was one Mrs. Wix always mentioned right away: she had a little girl of her own, and that little girl had been killed instantly. She had nothing else in the world, and her grief had shattered her heart. It was comfortably established between them that Mrs. Wix's heart was, indeed, broken. What Maisie felt was that she had been, with love and pain, a mother, and that this was something Miss Overmore was not, something (strangely and confusingly) that her own mother was even less.

So it was that in the course of an extraordinarily short time she found herself as deeply absorbed in the image of the little dead Clara Matilda, who, on a crossing in the Harrow Road, had been knocked down and crushed by the cruellest of hansoms, as she had ever found herself in the family group made vivid by one of seven. "She's your little dead sister," Mrs. Wix ended by saying, and Maisie, all in a tremor of curiosity and compassion, addressed from that moment a particular piety to the small accepted acquisition. Somehow she wasn't a real sister, but that only made her the more romantic. It contributed to this view of her that she was never to be spoken of in that character to any one else—least of all to Mrs. Farange, who wouldn't care for her nor recognise the relationship: it was to be just an unutterable and inexhaustible little secret with Mrs. Wix. Maisie knew everything about her that could be known, everything she had said or done in her little mutilated life, exactly how lovely she was, exactly how her hair was curled and her frocks were trimmed. Her hair came down far below her waist—it was of the most wonderful golden brightness, just as Mrs. Wix's own had been a long time before. Mrs. Wix's own was indeed very remarkable still, and Maisie had felt at first that she should never get on with it. It played a large part in the sad and strange appearance, the appearance as of a kind of greasy greyness, which Mrs. Wix had presented on the child's arrival. It had originally been yellow, but time had turned that elegance to ashes, to a turbid sallow unvenerable white. Still excessively abundant, it was dressed in a manner of which the poor lady appeared not yet to have recognised the supersession, with a glossy braid, like a large diadem, on the top of the head, and behind, at the nape of the neck, a dingy rosette like a large button. She wore glasses which, in humble reference to a divergent obliquity of vision, she called her straighteners, and a little ugly snuff-coloured dress trimmed with satin bands in the form of scallops and glazed with antiquity. The straighteners, she explained to Maisie, were put on for the sake of others, whom, as she believed, they helped to recognise the bearing, otherwise doubtful, of her regard; the rest of the melancholy garb could only have been put on for herself. With the added suggestion of her goggles it reminded her pupil of the polished shell or corslet of a horrid beetle. At first she had looked cross and almost cruel; but this impression passed away with the child's increased perception of her being in the eyes of the world a figure mainly to laugh at. She was as droll as a charade or an animal toward the end of the "natural history"—a person whom people, to make talk lively, described to each other and imitated. Every one knew the straighteners; every one knew the diadem and the button, the scallops and satin bands; every one, though Maisie had never betrayed her, knew even Clara Matilda.

So it was that in just a very short time, she became completely absorbed in the image of the little dead Clara Matilda, who had been hit and crushed by the cruelest of hansom cabs on a crossing in the Harrow Road, just as deeply as she had ever been in the family group brought to life by one of seven. "She's your little dead sister," Mrs. Wix eventually said, and Maisie, trembling with curiosity and compassion, from that moment on, devoted a special reverence to the small accepted addition. She wasn't exactly a real sister, but that made her seem even more romantic. It added to her uniqueness that she was never to be referred to in that way with anyone else—especially not with Mrs. Farange, who wouldn’t care or acknowledge the relationship: it was just going to be an unspeakable and endless little secret with Mrs. Wix. Maisie knew everything there was to know about her, everything Clara Matilda had said or done in her little broken life, how beautiful she was, how her hair was styled, and how her dresses were made. Her hair fell far below her waist—it was the most amazing golden brightness, just like Mrs. Wix's had been long before. Mrs. Wix's hair was still quite remarkable, and Maisie initially felt she wouldn’t be able to deal with it. It contributed significantly to the sad and strange look, the sort of greasy grey appearance, that Mrs. Wix had shown when the child arrived. It had once been yellow, but time had turned that elegance into ashes, into a murky, sickly, unremarkable white. Still excessively thick, it was styled in a way that the poor lady didn’t seem to have realized was outdated, with a shiny braid like a big tiara on the top of her head and, at the back of her neck, a dingy rosette like a large button. She wore glasses which, in a humble nod to her differing vision, she referred to as her straighteners, and a little unattractive snuff-colored dress trimmed with satin bands in a scallop pattern that looked antiquated. The straighteners, she explained to Maisie, were worn for the sake of others, whom she believed they helped to understand the otherwise uncertain way she looked at them; the rest of her sad appearance could only have been for herself. With the addition of her goggles, she reminded her pupil of the polished shell or body armor of a horrible beetle. At first, she had looked grumpy and almost cruel; but this impression faded as the child began to see her as someone people mainly laughed at. She was as funny as a charade or an animal at the end of a "natural history" presentation—a person people described to each other and imitated to make conversation lively. Everyone knew the straighteners; everyone recognized the tiara and the button, the scallops and satin bands; everyone, although Maisie had never revealed it, even knew Clara Matilda.

It was on account of these things that mamma got her for such low pay, really for nothing: so much, one day when Mrs. Wix had accompanied her into the drawing-room and left her, the child heard one of the ladies she found there—a lady with eyebrows arched like skipping-ropes and thick black stitching, like ruled lines for musical notes on beautiful white gloves—announce to another. She knew governesses were poor; Miss Overmore was unmentionably and Mrs. Wix ever so publicly so. Neither this, however, nor the old brown frock nor the diadem nor the button, made a difference for Maisie in the charm put forth through everything, the charm of Mrs. Wix's conveying that somehow, in her ugliness and her poverty, she was peculiarly and soothingly safe; safer than any one in the world, than papa, than mamma, than the lady with the arched eyebrows; safer even, though so much less beautiful, than Miss Overmore, on whose loveliness, as she supposed it, the little girl was faintly conscious that one couldn't rest with quite the same tucked-in and kissed-for-good-night feeling. Mrs. Wix was as safe as Clara Matilda, who was in heaven and yet, embarrassingly, also in Kensal Green, where they had been together to see her little huddled grave. It was from something in Mrs. Wix's tone, which in spite of caricature remained indescribable and inimitable, that Maisie, before her term with her mother was over, drew this sense of a support, like a breast-high banister in a place of "drops," that would never give way. If she knew her instructress was poor and queer she also knew she was not nearly so "qualified" as Miss Overmore, who could say lots of dates straight off (letting you hold the book yourself), state the position of Malabar, play six pieces without notes and, in a sketch, put in beautifully the trees and houses and difficult parts. Maisie herself could play more pieces than Mrs. Wix, who was moreover visibly ashamed of her houses and trees and could only, with the help of a smutty forefinger, of doubtful legitimacy in the field of art, do the smoke coming out of the chimneys. They dealt, the governess and her pupil, in "subjects," but there were many the governess put off from week to week and that they never got to at all: she only used to say "We'll take that in its proper order." Her order was a circle as vast as the untravelled globe. She had not the spirit of adventure—the child could perfectly see how many subjects she was afraid of. She took refuge on the firm ground of fiction, through which indeed there curled the blue river of truth. She knew swarms of stories, mostly those of the novels she had read; relating them with a memory that never faltered and a wealth of detail that was Maisie's delight. They were all about love and beauty and countesses and wickedness. Her conversation was practically an endless narrative, a great garden of romance, with sudden vistas into her own life and gushing fountains of homeliness. These were the parts where they most lingered; she made the child take with her again every step of her long, lame course and think it beyond magic or monsters. Her pupil acquired a vivid vision of every one who had ever, in her phrase, knocked against her—some of them oh so hard!—every one literally but Mr. Wix, her husband, as to whom nothing was mentioned save that he had been dead for ages. He had been rather remarkably absent from his wife's career, and Maisie was never taken to see his grave.

It was for these reasons that Mom hired her for such low pay, really for nothing. One day, when Mrs. Wix had brought her into the drawing-room and left her, the child overheard one of the ladies there—a woman with eyebrows arched like skipping ropes and thick black stitching, resembling ruled lines for musical notes on beautiful white gloves—telling another lady how governesses were poor; Miss Overmore was inconceivably poor and Mrs. Wix quite publicly so. However, none of this, nor the old brown dress, nor the tiara, nor the button, affected Maisie in the charm that radiated from everything, the charm of Mrs. Wix's conveying that somehow, in her ugliness and her poverty, she felt uniquely and comforting safe; safer than anyone else in the world, safer than Dad, than Mom, and even safer than the lady with the arched eyebrows; even though she was much less beautiful than Miss Overmore, about whose loveliness, as she thought of it, the little girl was vaguely aware that one couldn’t feel quite the same tucked-in and kissed-goodnight feeling. Mrs. Wix felt as safe as Clara Matilda, who was in heaven and yet, embarrassingly, also in Kensal Green, where they had been together to see her little huddled grave. It was from something in Mrs. Wix's tone, which despite being caricatured remained indescribable and unique, that Maisie, before her time with her mother was up, developed a sense of support, like a breast-high banister in a place filled with “drops,” that would never give way. If she knew her teacher was poor and odd, she also realized that Mrs. Wix wasn’t nearly as “qualified” as Miss Overmore, who could instantly list lots of dates (letting you hold the book yourself), explain the location of Malabar, play six pieces without notes and sketch beautifully rendered trees and buildings and tricky bits. Maisie herself could play more pieces than Mrs. Wix, who was also visibly embarrassed by her sketches of houses and trees and could only, with the help of a dirty forefinger, of questionable legitimacy in art, depict the smoke coming from chimneys. The governess and her student worked on “subjects,” but there were many subjects the governess postponed week after week, and they never got to at all; she would just say, “We’ll take that in its proper order.” Her order was a circle as vast as the untraveled globe. She lacked the spirit of adventure—the child could clearly see how many subjects she was afraid of. She took refuge in the solid ground of fiction, through which indeed flowed the blue river of truth. She knew countless stories, mostly from the novels she had read; telling them with a memory that never wavered and a richness of detail that delighted Maisie. They were all about love and beauty and countesses and wickedness. Her conversation was practically an endless storybook, a vast garden of romance, with sudden glimpses into her own life and bubbling fountains of comfort. These were the parts where they stayed the longest; she made the child revisit every step of her long, difficult journey and imagine it beyond magic or monsters. Her student developed a vivid image of everyone who had ever, in Mrs. Wix's words, knocked against her—some of them, oh so hard!—everyone except Mr. Wix, her husband, of whom nothing was mentioned except that he had been dead for ages. He had been remarkably absent from his wife’s life, and Maisie was never taken to see his grave.

 

 

V
 

The second parting from Miss Overmore had been bad enough, but this first parting from Mrs. Wix was much worse. The child had lately been to the dentist's and had a term of comparison for the screwed-up intensity of the scene. It was dreadfully silent, as it had been when her tooth was taken out; Mrs. Wix had on that occasion grabbed her hand and they had clung to each other with the frenzy of their determination not to scream. Maisie, at the dentist's, had been heroically still, but just when she felt most anguish had become aware of an audible shriek on the part of her companion, a spasm of stifled sympathy. This was reproduced by the only sound that broke their supreme embrace when, a month later, the "arrangement," as her periodical uprootings were called, played the part of the horrible forceps. Embedded in Mrs. Wix's nature as her tooth had been socketed in her gum, the operation of extracting her would really have been a case for chloroform. It was a hug that fortunately left nothing to say, for the poor woman's want of words at such an hour seemed to fall in with her want of everything. Maisie's alternate parent, in the outermost vestibule—he liked the impertinence of crossing as much as that of his late wife's threshold—stood over them with his open watch and his still more open grin, while from the only corner of an eye on which something of Mrs. Wix's didn't impinge the child saw at the door a brougham in which Miss Overmore also waited. She remembered the difference when, six months before, she had been torn from the breast of that more spirited protectress. Miss Overmore, then also in the vestibule, but of course in the other one, had been thoroughly audible and voluble; her protest had rung out bravely and she had declared that something—her pupil didn't know exactly what—was a regular wicked shame. That had at the time dimly recalled to Maisie the far-away moment of Moddle's great outbreak: there seemed always to be "shames" connected in one way or another with her migrations. At present, while Mrs. Wix's arms tightened and the smell of her hair was strong, she further remembered how, in pacifying Miss Overmore, papa had made use of the words "you dear old duck!"—an expression which, by its oddity, had stuck fast in her young mind, having moreover a place well prepared for it there by what she knew of the governess whom she now always mentally characterised as the pretty one. She wondered whether this affection would be as great as before: that would at all events be the case with the prettiness Maisie could see in the face which showed brightly at the window of the brougham.

The second goodbye to Miss Overmore had been tough enough, but this first goodbye to Mrs. Wix felt much worse. The child had recently been to the dentist's and had a reference point for the tense intensity of the moment. It was eerily silent, just like when her tooth got pulled; on that occasion, Mrs. Wix had grabbed her hand and they clung to each other, frantically trying not to scream. Maisie had stayed incredibly still at the dentist, but just when she felt the most pain, she heard her companion’s loud shriek, a spasm of shared sympathy. This was echoed by the only sound that broke their deep embrace when, a month later, the "arrangement," as her regular upheavals were called, acted like the horrible forceps. The extraction of Mrs. Wix, embedded in her nature like a tooth in a gum, would really have required chloroform. It was a hug that thankfully left nothing to be said, as the poor woman’s lack of words at such a moment seemed to match her lack of everything else. Maisie’s other parent, in the farthest hallway—he enjoyed the cheekiness of crossing thresholds just like his late wife's—stood over them with his open watch and an even broader grin, while from the only corner of an eye not blocked by Mrs. Wix, the child saw a carriage outside where Miss Overmore was also waiting. She recalled the difference when, six months earlier, she had been torn away from the embrace of that more spirited protector. Miss Overmore, then also in the hallway, but of course in the other one, had been loud and expressive; her protest had boldly rang out, declaring that something—her pupil didn’t quite know what—was a complete shame. That had vaguely reminded Maisie of the distant moment of Moddle's big outburst: there seemed to always be "shames" connected in some way to her relocations. Now, while Mrs. Wix's arms tightened and the scent of her hair was strong, she remembered how, while calming Miss Overmore, dad had said, "you dear old duck!"—a phrase that, due to its oddness, had stuck in her young mind, further reinforced by what she knew of the governess she always thought of as the pretty one. She wondered if this affection would be as strong as before: at least that would definitely be true for the prettiness Maisie noticed in the face that brightly showed at the carriage window.

The brougham was a token of harmony, of the fine conditions papa would this time offer: he had usually come for her in a hansom, with a four-wheeler behind for the boxes. The four-wheeler with the boxes on it was actually there, but mamma was the only lady with whom she had ever been in a conveyance of the kind always of old spoken of by Moddle as a private carriage. Papa's carriage was, now that he had one, still more private, somehow, than mamma's; and when at last she found herself quite on top, as she felt, of its inmates and gloriously rolling away, she put to Miss Overmore, after another immense and talkative squeeze, a question of which the motive was a desire for information as to the continuity of a certain sentiment. "Did papa like you just the same while I was gone?" she enquired—full of the sense of how markedly his favour had been established in her presence. She had bethought herself that this favour might, like her presence and as if depending on it, be only intermittent and for the season. Papa, on whose knee she sat, burst into one of those loud laughs of his that, however prepared she was, seemed always, like some trick in a frightening game, to leap forth and make her jump. Before Miss Overmore could speak he replied: "Why, you little donkey, when you're away what have I left to do but just to love her?" Miss Overmore hereupon immediately took her from him, and they had a merry little scrimmage over her of which Maisie caught the surprised perception in the white stare of an old lady who passed in a victoria. Then her beautiful friend remarked to her very gravely: "I shall make him understand that if he ever again says anything as horrid as that to you I shall carry you straight off and we'll go and live somewhere together and be good quiet little girls." The child couldn't quite make out why her father's speech had been horrid, since it only expressed that appreciation which their companion herself had of old described as "immense." To enter more into the truth of the matter she appealed to him again directly, asked if in all those months Miss Overmore hadn't been with him just as she had been before and just as she would be now. "Of course she has, old girl—where else could the poor dear be?" cried Beale Farange, to the still greater scandal of their companion, who protested that unless he straightway "took back" his nasty wicked fib it would be, this time, not only him she would leave, but his child too and his house and his tiresome trouble—all the impossible things he had succeeded in putting on her. Beale, under this frolic menace, took nothing back at all; he was indeed apparently on the point of repeating his extravagance, but Miss Overmore instructed her little charge that she was not to listen to his bad jokes: she was to understand that a lady couldn't stay with a gentleman that way without some awfully proper reason.

The brougham symbolized the harmony and great conditions Dad was going to offer this time: he usually picked her up in a hansom, with a four-wheeler behind for the luggage. The four-wheeler with the boxes was indeed there, but Mom was the only woman she had ever shared a ride in a vehicle that Moddle used to refer to as a private carriage. Dad’s carriage, now that he had one, seemed even more private than Mom’s; and when she finally felt like she was on top of the world, rolling away with its passengers, she turned to Miss Overmore, after another enthusiastic and chatty squeeze, to ask a question motivated by her need to know if a certain feeling would last. "Did Dad like you just the same while I was gone?" she asked, fully aware of how clearly his affection had shown when she was around. She had realized that this affection might, like her presence, depend on the moment and only last for a season. Dad, with her sitting on his lap, burst into one of his loud laughs that, no matter how prepared she was, always seemed to jump out at her unexpectedly, like a surprise in a scary game. Before Miss Overmore could respond, he answered, "Why, you little donkey, when you're away, what else do I have to do but just love her?" Miss Overmore quickly took her from him, and they had a playful little tussle over her, which Maisie noticed in the astonished look of an old lady passing by in a victoria. Then her beautiful friend said seriously, "I’ll make him understand that if he ever says anything as awful as that to you again, I’ll take you away and we’ll go live somewhere together and be good little girls." The child couldn't quite grasp why her dad's remark was awful since it only expressed the appreciation that their companion had previously described as "immense." To clarify, she directly asked him if Miss Overmore hadn’t been with him just like before and would be now. "Of course she has, kid—where else would the poor dear be?" exclaimed Beale Farange, to the further shock of their companion, who insisted that unless he immediately "took back" his nasty, wicked lie, she would not only leave him but also his child, his house, and all the annoying troubles he had caused her. Under this playful threat, Beale didn’t take anything back at all; in fact, he seemed ready to double down on his exaggeration, but Miss Overmore told her little charge not to listen to his bad jokes: she was to understand that a lady couldn’t stay with a gentleman like that without a very proper reason.

Maisie looked from one of her companions to the other; this was the freshest gayest start she had yet enjoyed, but she had a shy fear of not exactly believing them. "Well, what reason is proper?" she thoughtfully demanded.

Maisie looked from one of her friends to the other; this was the most exciting and fun beginning she had experienced so far, but she felt a shy fear of not fully trusting them. "So, what reason is appropriate?" she asked thoughtfully.

"Oh a long-legged stick of a tomboy: there's none so good as that." Her father enjoyed both her drollery and his own and tried again to get possession of her—an effort deprecated by their comrade and leading again to something of a public scuffle. Miss Overmore declared to the child that she had been all the while with good friends; on which Beale Farange went on: "She means good friends of mine, you know—tremendous friends of mine. There has been no end of them about—that I will say for her!" Maisie felt bewildered and was afterwards for some time conscious of a vagueness, just slightly embarrassing, as to the subject of so much amusement and as to where her governess had really been. She didn't feel at all as if she had been seriously told, and no such feeling was supplied by anything that occurred later. Her embarrassment, of a precocious instinctive order, attached itself to the idea that this was another of the matters it was not for her, as her mother used to say, to go into. Therefore, under her father's roof during the time that followed, she made no attempt to clear up her ambiguity by an ingratiating way with housemaids; and it was an odd truth that the ambiguity itself took nothing from the fresh pleasure promised her by renewed contact with Miss Overmore. The confidence looked for by that young lady was of the fine sort that explanation can't improve, and she herself at any rate was a person superior to any confusion. For Maisie moreover concealment had never necessarily seemed deception; she had grown up among things as to which her foremost knowledge was that she was never to ask about them. It was far from new to her that the questions of the small are the peculiar diversion of the great: except the affairs of her doll Lisette there had scarcely ever been anything at her mother's that was explicable with a grave face. Nothing was so easy to her as to send the ladies who gathered there off into shrieks, and she might have practised upon them largely if she had been of a more calculating turn. Everything had something behind it: life was like a long, long corridor with rows of closed doors. She had learned that at these doors it was wise not to knock—this seemed to produce from within such sounds of derision. Little by little, however, she understood more, for it befell that she was enlightened by Lisette's questions, which reproduced the effect of her own upon those for whom she sat in the very darkness of Lisette. Was she not herself convulsed by such innocence? In the presence of it she often imitated the shrieking ladies. There were at any rate things she really couldn't tell even a French doll. She could only pass on her lessons and study to produce on Lisette the impression of having mysteries in her life, wondering the while whether she succeeded in the air of shading off, like her mother, into the unknowable. When the reign of Miss Overmore followed that of Mrs. Wix she took a fresh cue, emulating her governess and bridging over the interval with the simple expectation of trust. Yes, there were matters one couldn't "go into" with a pupil. There were for instance days when, after prolonged absence, Lisette, watching her take off her things, tried hard to discover where she had been. Well, she discovered a little, but never discovered all. There was an occasion when, on her being particularly indiscreet, Maisie replied to her—and precisely about the motive of a disappearance—as she, Maisie, had once been replied to by Mrs. Farange: "Find out for yourself!" She mimicked her mother's sharpness, but she was rather ashamed afterwards, though as to whether of the sharpness or of the mimicry was not quite clear.

"Oh, that long-legged tomboy: there's no one better than that." Her dad enjoyed both her humor and his own and tried again to grab her—an effort that their friend disapproved of, leading to a bit of a public struggle. Miss Overmore told the child that she had been with good friends all along; to which Beale Farange added, "She means my good friends, you know—really good friends of mine. There has been no shortage of them around—that I can say for her!" Maisie felt confused and later was aware of a slight, awkward uncertainty about what all the laughter was about and where her governess had actually been. She didn’t feel particularly like she’d been told anything serious, and nothing that happened later gave her that impression. Her embarrassment, coming from a precocious instinct, was attached to the idea that this was one of those topics it wasn’t for her, as her mother would say, to explore. So, while under her father's roof during the following time, she didn’t try to resolve her confusion by being friendly with the housemaids; and strangely, that confusion didn’t take away from the excitement of reconnecting with Miss Overmore. The confidence that young lady sought was the kind that explanations can’t make better, and she herself was a person above any mix-up. For Maisie, hiding things never really meant lying; she had grown up surrounded by things she knew she wasn’t supposed to ask about. It was far from new to her that the inquiries of children were the peculiar entertainment of adults: aside from her doll Lisette's affairs, there was hardly anything at her mother’s that could be explained with a straight face. Nothing was easier for her than to make the ladies gathered there burst into laughter, and she could have entertained them more if she had been more calculating. Everything had something lurking beneath it: life was like a long corridor with rows of closed doors. She had learned that it was smart not to knock on these doors—this always brought out sounds of ridicule from within. Gradually, however, she understood more, as she found herself enlightened by Lisette's questions, which mirrored the effect of her own when she sat in the very darkness of Lisette. Was she not struck by such innocence? In its presence, she often copied the shrieking ladies. There were definitely things she couldn't share even with a French doll. She could only pass on her lessons and try to give Lisette the impression that she had mysteries in her life, all the while wondering if she succeeded in veiling the unknowable like her mother did. When Miss Overmore took over from Mrs. Wix, she took a new approach, reflecting her governess and bridging the gap with a simple expectation of trust. Yes, there were things one couldn’t "go into" with a student. For instance, there were days when, after being away for a while, Lisette, as she watched her take off her things, tried really hard to find out where she had been. Well, she discovered a little, but never everything. There was one time, when she was especially nosy, Maisie replied to her—specifically about why she had disappeared—just as she had once been answered by Mrs. Farange: "Find out for yourself!" She mimicked her mother’s sharpness, but later felt a bit embarrassed, though it was unclear whether it was because of the sharpness or the imitation.

 

 

VI
 

She became aware in time that this phase wouldn't have shone by lessons, the care of her education being now only one of the many duties devolving on Miss Overmore; a devolution as to which she was present at various passages between that lady and her father—passages significant, on either side, of dissent and even of displeasure. It was gathered by the child on these occasions that there was something in the situation for which her mother might "come down" on them all, though indeed the remark, always dropped by her father, was greeted on his companion's part with direct contradiction. Such scenes were usually brought to a climax by Miss Overmore's demanding, with more asperity than she applied to any other subject, in what position under the sun such a person as Mrs. Farange would find herself for coming down. As the months went on the little girl's interpretations thickened, and the more effectually that this stretch was the longest she had known without a break. She got used to the idea that her mother, for some reason, was in no hurry to reinstate her: that idea was forcibly expressed by her father whenever Miss Overmore, differing and decided, took him up on the question, which he was always putting forward, of the urgency of sending her to school. For a governess Miss Overmore differed surprisingly; far more for instance than would have entered into the bowed head of Mrs. Wix. She observed to Maisie many times that she was quite conscious of not doing her justice, and that Mr. Farange equally measured and equally lamented this deficiency. The reason of it was that she had mysterious responsibilities that interfered—responsibilities, Miss Overmore intimated, to Mr. Farange himself and to the friendly noisy little house and those who came there. Mr. Farange's remedy for every inconvenience was that the child should be put at school—there were such lots of splendid schools, as everybody knew, at Brighton and all over the place. That, however, Maisie learned, was just what would bring her mother down: from the moment he should delegate to others the housing of his little charge he hadn't a leg to stand on before the law. Didn't he keep her away from her mother precisely because Mrs. Farange was one of these others?

She realized over time that this period wouldn't shine through lessons, as caring for her education was now just one of the many responsibilities falling to Miss Overmore. She witnessed various exchanges between that lady and her father—exchanges that revealed disagreement and even displeasure on both sides. The child gathered from these moments that there was something in the situation for which her mother might "come down" on them all, although her father’s comment was always met with direct contradiction from his companion. These scenes usually escalated when Miss Overmore, with more sharpness than she used on any other topic, demanded to know what position under the sun someone like Mrs. Farange would find herself in for coming down. As the months passed, the little girl's understanding deepened, especially since this stretch was the longest she had experienced without a break. She became accustomed to the idea that her mother, for some reason, was in no rush to reinstate her; this idea was forcefully stated by her father whenever Miss Overmore, differing and determined, challenged him on the urgent need to send her to school. Surprisingly, Miss Overmore disagreed more than you would expect from someone like Mrs. Wix. She told Maisie many times that she was well aware of not doing her justice, and that Mr. Farange equally noted and lamented this shortcoming. The reason for this was that she had mysterious responsibilities that interfered—responsibilities, as Miss Overmore hinted, to Mr. Farange himself, the noisy little house, and the visitors there. Mr. Farange's solution for every issue was to put the child in school—there were so many great schools, as everyone knew, in Brighton and everywhere else. However, Maisie learned that this was precisely what would provoke her mother. From the moment he would delegate the care of his little charge to others, he wouldn’t have a leg to stand on legally. Wasn’t he keeping her away from her mother exactly because Mrs. Farange was one of those others?

There was also the solution of a second governess, a young person to come in by the day and really do the work; but to this Miss Overmore wouldn't for a moment listen, arguing against it with great public relish and wanting to know from all comers—she put it even to Maisie herself—they didn't see how frightfully it would give her away. "What am I supposed to be at all, don't you see, if I'm not here to look after her?" She was in a false position and so freely and loudly called attention to it that it seemed to become almost a source of glory. The way out of it of course was just to do her plain duty; but that was unfortunately what, with his excessive, his exorbitant demands on her, which every one indeed appeared quite to understand, he practically, he selfishly prevented. Beale Farange, for Miss Overmore, was now never anything but "he," and the house was as full as ever of lively gentlemen with whom, under that designation, she chaffingly talked about him. Maisie meanwhile, as a subject of familiar gossip on what was to be done with her, was left so much to herself that she had hours of wistful thought of the large loose discipline of Mrs. Wix; yet she none the less held it under her father's roof a point of superiority that none of his visitors were ladies. It added to this odd security that she had once heard a gentleman say to him as if it were a great joke and in obvious reference to Miss Overmore: "Hanged if she'll let another woman come near you—hanged if she ever will. She'd let fly a stick at her as they do at a strange cat!" Maisie greatly preferred gentlemen as inmates in spite of their also having their way—louder but sooner over—of laughing out at her. They pulled and pinched, they teased and tickled her; some of them even, as they termed it, shied things at her, and all of them thought it funny to call her by names having no resemblance to her own. The ladies on the other hand addressed her as "You poor pet" and scarcely touched her even to kiss her. But it was of the ladies she was most afraid.

There was also the option of hiring a second governess, a young person to come in during the day and actually do the work; but Miss Overmore wouldn’t entertain that idea for a second, arguing against it with great enthusiasm and wanting to know from everyone—she even asked Maisie herself—how terribly it would undermine her authority. "What am I supposed to be at all, don’t you see, if I’m not here to look after her?" She was in a tricky position and so openly and loudly drew attention to it that it seemed to turn into a source of pride. The way out of it was simply to do her job; but unfortunately, with his excessive and unreasonable demands on her, which everyone seemed to fully understand, he practically, selfishly prevented that. Beale Farange, for Miss Overmore, was now always referred to as "he," and the house was still filled with lively gentlemen with whom, in that context, she jokingly discussed him. Meanwhile, Maisie, as a frequent topic of light-hearted conversation about what to do with her, was often left to her own thoughts, leading her to spend hours wistfully considering the loose structure of Mrs. Wix’s care; yet she still felt it was a point of pride that none of her father's guests were women. It added to this strange sense of security that she once heard a gentleman jokingly say to him, clearly referencing Miss Overmore: "No way she'll let another woman get near you—no way she ever will. She’d throw something at her like they do at a stray cat!" Maisie definitely preferred gentlemen as housemates despite their tendency to be loud and make a fuss over her. They pulled her hair, pinched her, teased her, and tickled her; some even, as they put it, threw things at her, and they all thought it was funny to call her by names that weren’t anything like her own. The ladies, on the other hand, called her "You poor pet" and hardly ever touched her, even to give her a kiss. But it was the ladies that she was most afraid of.

She was now old enough to understand how disproportionate a stay she had already made with her father; and also old enough to enter a little into the ambiguity attending this excess, which oppressed her particularly whenever the question had been touched upon in talk with her governess. "Oh you needn't worry: she doesn't care!" Miss Overmore had often said to her in reference to any fear that her mother might resent her prolonged detention. "She has other people than poor little you to think about, and has gone abroad with them; so you needn't be in the least afraid she'll stickle this time for her rights." Maisie knew Mrs. Farange had gone abroad, for she had had weeks and weeks before a letter from her beginning "My precious pet" and taking leave of her for an indeterminate time; but she had not seen in it a renunciation of hatred or of the writer's policy of asserting herself, for the sharpest of all her impressions had been that there was nothing her mother would ever care so much about as to torment Mr. Farange. What at last, however, was in this connexion bewildering and a little frightening was the dawn of a suspicion that a better way had been found to torment Mr. Farange than to deprive him of his periodical burden. This was the question that worried our young lady and that Miss Overmore's confidences and the frequent observations of her employer only rendered more mystifying. It was a contradiction that if Ida had now a fancy for waiving the rights she had originally been so hot about her late husband shouldn't jump at the monopoly for which he had also in the first instance so fiercely fought; but when Maisie, with a subtlety beyond her years, sounded this new ground her main success was in hearing her mother more freshly abused. Miss Overmore had up to now rarely deviated from a decent reserve, but the day came when she expressed herself with a vividness not inferior to Beale's own on the subject of the lady who had fled to the Continent to wriggle out of her job. It would serve this lady right, Maisie gathered, if that contract, in the shape of an overgrown and underdressed daughter, should be shipped straight out to her and landed at her feet in the midst of scandalous excesses.

She was now old enough to realize how unfairly long she had stayed with her father; and also old enough to grasp the confusion surrounding this situation, which weighed on her especially whenever the topic came up in conversations with her governess. "Oh, you don’t need to worry: she doesn't care!" Miss Overmore had often told her regarding any concerns that her mother might resent her extended stay. "She has other people besides poor little you to think about, and she’s gone abroad with them; so you shouldn’t be at all afraid that she'll insist on her rights this time." Maisie knew Mrs. Farange had gone abroad because she had received a letter weeks ago that began with "My precious pet" and said goodbye for an uncertain amount of time; but she hadn’t perceived it as a declaration of hatred or a change in her mother’s tendency to assert herself, since her strongest impression was that there was nothing her mother cared about more than tormenting Mr. Farange. What was ultimately confusing and a bit scary was the emerging suspicion that a better way had been found to annoy Mr. Farange than just keeping him from his regular burden. This was the worry that troubled our young lady, and Miss Overmore's reassurances, along with her employer's frequent comments, only added to the mystery. It was a contradiction that if Ida was now inclined to give up the rights she had originally fought hard for, her late husband shouldn’t want to grab the monopoly for which he had also fiercely contested; but when Maisie, with a wisdom beyond her years, explored this new idea, her main takeaway was hearing her mother criticized in even stronger terms. Miss Overmore had usually kept a decent distance, but the day came when she expressed herself as vividly as Beale did about the woman who had run off to the Continent to escape her responsibilities. Maisie gathered that it would serve this woman right if the contract, in the form of an overgrown and underdressed daughter, should be shipped straight to her and dropped at her feet amidst scandalous situations.

The picture of these pursuits was what Miss Overmore took refuge in when the child tried timidly to ascertain if her father were disposed to feel he had too much of her. She evaded the point and only kicked up all round it the dust of Ida's heartlessness and folly, of which the supreme proof, it appeared, was the fact that she was accompanied on her journey by a gentleman whom, to be painfully plain on it, she had—well, "picked up." The terms on which, unless they were married, ladies and gentlemen might, as Miss Overmore expressed it, knock about together, were the terms on which she and Mr. Farange had exposed themselves to possible misconception. She had indeed, as has been noted, often explained this before, often said to Maisie: "I don't know what in the world, darling, your father and I should do without you, for you just make the difference, as I've told you, of keeping us perfectly proper." The child took in the office it was so endearingly presented to her that she performed a comfort that helped her to a sense of security even in the event of her mother's giving her up. Familiar as she had grown with the fact of the great alternative to the proper, she felt in her governess and her father a strong reason for not emulating that detachment. At the same time she had heard somehow of little girls—of exalted rank, it was true—whose education was carried on by instructors of the other sex, and she knew that if she were at school at Brighton it would be thought an advantage to her to be more or less in the hands of masters. She turned these things over and remarked to Miss Overmore that if she should go to her mother perhaps the gentleman might become her tutor.

The image of these activities was what Miss Overmore relied on when the child tried hesitantly to find out if her father felt overwhelmed by her presence. She avoided the subject and instead stirred up all around it the dust of Ida's callousness and foolishness, which seemed to be summed up by the fact that she was traveling with a man whom, to put it bluntly, she had—well, "picked up." The conditions under which, unless they were married, men and women could, as Miss Overmore put it, hang out together were the same conditions that she and Mr. Farange had exposed themselves to potential misunderstanding. She had, as noted before, often explained this point, frequently telling Maisie: "I don't know what in the world, darling, your father and I would do without you, because you make the difference, as I've said, in keeping us completely proper." The child absorbed the role it was so affectionately presented to her, providing her with a sense of security even if her mother were to abandon her. Familiar as she had become with the alternative to propriety, she sensed in her governess and her father a solid reason for not mimicking that detachment. At the same time, she had somehow heard of little girls—of noble birth, to be fair—whose education was conducted by male instructors, and she knew that if she were at school in Brighton, it would be seen as a benefit for her to be more or less taught by male teachers. She mulled over these thoughts and told Miss Overmore that if she went to her mother, perhaps the gentleman might become her tutor.

"The gentleman?" The proposition was complicated enough to make Miss Overmore stare.

"The gentleman?" The suggestion was complex enough to make Miss Overmore gape.

"The one who's with mamma. Mightn't that make it right—as right as your being my governess makes it for you to be with papa?"

"The one who's with mom. Could that make it okay—as okay as you being my governess makes it for you to be with dad?"

Miss Overmore considered; she coloured a little; then she embraced her ingenious friend. "You're too sweet! I'm a real governess."

Miss Overmore thought for a moment, blushed slightly, then hugged her clever friend. "You're so kind! I'm a real governess."

"And couldn't he be a real tutor?"

"And couldn't he actually be a real tutor?"

"Of course not. He's ignorant and bad."

"Definitely not. He's clueless and mean."

"Bad—?" Maisie echoed with wonder.

"Bad—?" Maisie repeated in awe.

Her companion gave a queer little laugh at her tone. "He's ever so much younger—" But that was all.

Her companion let out a strange little laugh at her tone. "He's way younger—" But that was it.

"Younger than you?"

"Is she younger than you?"

Miss Overmore laughed again; it was the first time Maisie had seen her approach so nearly to a giggle.

Miss Overmore laughed again; it was the first time Maisie had seen her come so close to giggling.

"Younger than—no matter whom. I don't know anything about him and don't want to," she rather inconsequently added. "He's not my sort, and I'm sure, my own darling, he's not yours." And she repeated the free caress into which her colloquies with Maisie almost always broke and which made the child feel that her affection at least was a gage of safety. Parents had come to seem vague, but governesses were evidently to be trusted. Maisie's faith in Mrs. Wix for instance had suffered no lapse from the fact that all communication with her had temporarily dropped. During the first weeks of their separation Clara Matilda's mamma had repeatedly and dolefully written to her, and Maisie had answered with an enthusiasm controlled only by orthographical doubts; but the correspondence had been duly submitted to Miss Overmore, with the final effect of its not suiting her. It was this lady's view that Mr. Farange wouldn't care for it at all, and she ended by confessing—since her pupil pushed her—that she didn't care for it herself. She was furiously jealous, she said; and that weakness was but a new proof of her disinterested affection. She pronounced Mrs. Wix's effusions moreover illiterate and unprofitable; she made no scruple of declaring it monstrous that a woman in her senses should have placed the formation of her daughter's mind in such ridiculous hands. Maisie was well aware that the proprietress of the old brown dress and the old odd headgear was lower in the scale of "form" than Miss Overmore; but it was now brought home to her with pain that she was educationally quite out of the question. She was buried for the time beneath a conclusive remark of her critic's: "She's really beyond a joke!" This remark was made as that charming woman held in her hand the last letter that Maisie was to receive from Mrs. Wix; it was fortified by a decree proscribing the preposterous tie. "Must I then write and tell her?" the child bewilderedly asked: she grew pale at the dreadful things it appeared involved for her to say. "Don't dream of it, my dear—I'll write: you may trust me!" cried Miss Overmore; who indeed wrote to such purpose that a hush in which you could have heard a pin drop descended upon poor Mrs. Wix. She gave for weeks and weeks no sign whatever of life: it was as if she had been as effectually disposed of by Miss Overmore's communication as her little girl, in the Harrow Road, had been disposed of by the terrible hansom. Her very silence became after this one of the largest elements of Maisie's consciousness; it proved a warm and habitable air, into which the child penetrated further than she dared ever to mention to her companions. Somewhere in the depths of it the dim straighteners were fixed upon her; somewhere out of the troubled little current Mrs. Wix intensely waited.

Younger than—no matter who. I don’t know anything about him and don’t want to,” she added, somewhat casually. “He’s not my type, and I’m sure, my dear, he’s not yours.” Then she gave the familiar affectionate touch that her conversations with Maisie almost always ended with, making the child feel that at least her love was a sign of safety. Parents had started to feel distant, but governesses were clearly to be trusted. Maisie’s faith in Mrs. Wix, for instance, hadn’t wavered despite the fact that all communication with her had temporarily stopped. During the first few weeks of their separation, Clara Matilda’s mom had repeatedly and sadly written to her, and Maisie had responded with enthusiasm kept in check only by concerns about spelling; but the correspondence had been appropriately submitted to Miss Overmore, who decided it wasn’t suitable. This lady believed that Mr. Farange wouldn’t care for it at all, and she ultimately admitted—when pressed by her pupil—that she didn’t care for it either. She admitted to being incredibly jealous, which she considered just another sign of her selfless affection. Furthermore, she deemed Mrs. Wix’s letters illiterate and useless; she had no hesitation in stating it was outrageous for a sane woman to leave her daughter’s education in such ridiculous hands. Maisie knew that the woman in the old brown dress and quirky hat was lower in the social hierarchy than Miss Overmore, but it was painfully brought to her attention that she was educationally completely unqualified. She felt overwhelmed by her critic’s decisive comment: “She’s really beyond a joke!” This was said as that lovely woman held the last letter that Maisie would receive from Mrs. Wix; it was backed up by a decision forbidding the ridiculous connection. “Must I then write and tell her?” the child asked, bewildered, growing pale at the awful implications it seemed to involve for her to say. “Don’t even think about it, my dear—I’ll write: you can trust me!” exclaimed Miss Overmore, who indeed wrote so effectively that a silence fell, in which you could hear a pin drop, over poor Mrs. Wix. For weeks and weeks, she showed no sign of life whatsoever: it was as if Miss Overmore’s message had disposed of her just as much as her little girl, in Harrow Road, had been disposed of by the terrible hansom. Her very silence then became one of the largest parts of Maisie's awareness; it created a warm and comfortable atmosphere, into which the child ventured more deeply than she ever dared to mention to her friends. Somewhere in the depths of it, the distant quiet was focused on her; somewhere amidst the little turbulent flow, Mrs. Wix waited intensely.

 

 

VII
 

It quite fell in with this intensity that one day, on returning from a walk with the housemaid, Maisie should have found her in the hall, seated on the stool usually occupied by the telegraph-boys who haunted Beale Farange's door and kicked their heels while, in his room, answers to their missives took form with the aid of smoke-puffs and growls. It had seemed to her on their parting that Mrs. Wix had reached the last limits of the squeeze, but she now felt those limits to be transcended and that the duration of her visitor's hug was a direct reply to Miss Overmore's veto. She understood in a flash how the visit had come to be possible—that Mrs. Wix, watching her chance, must have slipped in under protection of the fact that papa, always tormented in spite of arguments with the idea of a school, had, for a three days' excursion to Brighton, absolutely insisted on the attendance of her adversary. It was true that when Maisie explained their absence and their important motive Mrs. Wix wore an expression so peculiar that it could only have had its origin in surprise. This contradiction indeed peeped out only to vanish, for at the very moment that, in the spirit of it, she threw herself afresh upon her young friend a hansom crested with neat luggage rattled up to the door and Miss Overmore bounded out. The shock of her encounter with Mrs. Wix was less violent than Maisie had feared on seeing her and didn't at all interfere with the sociable tone in which, under her rival's eyes, she explained to her little charge that she had returned, for a particular reason, a day sooner than she first intended. She had left papa—in such nice lodgings—at Brighton; but he would come back to his dear little home on the morrow. As for Mrs. Wix, papa's companion supplied Maisie in later converse with the right word for the attitude of this personage: Mrs. Wix "stood up" to her in a manner that the child herself felt at the time to be astonishing. This occurred indeed after Miss Overmore had so far raised her interdict as to make a move to the dining-room, where, in the absence of any suggestion of sitting down, it was scarcely more than natural that even poor Mrs. Wix should stand up. Maisie at once enquired if at Brighton, this time, anything had come of the possibility of a school; to which, much to her surprise, Miss Overmore, who had always grandly repudiated it, replied after an instant, but quite as if Mrs. Wix were not there:

It was with a certain intensity that one day, after coming back from a walk with the housemaid, Maisie found her in the hall, sitting on the stool typically occupied by the telegram boys who usually lingered by Beale Farange's door, kicking their heels while answers to their messages formed in his room accompanied by smoke puffs and grumbles. It had seemed to her when they parted that Mrs. Wix had reached her limit, but now she felt that those limits had been exceeded and that the length of her visitor's embrace was a direct answer to Miss Overmore's disapproval. She quickly understood how the visit had been made possible—that Mrs. Wix, seizing her opportunity, must have slipped in knowing that Papa, always troubled by the idea of sending her to school, had insisted on her rival's company for a three-day trip to Brighton. It was true that when Maisie explained their absence and the important reason behind it, Mrs. Wix had an expression that could only come from surprise. This contradiction peeked out only to disappear, for at that very moment she threw herself at her young friend again, just as a taxi with neatly packed luggage arrived at the door and Miss Overmore jumped out. The shock of running into Mrs. Wix was less intense than Maisie had feared upon seeing her and didn't affect the friendly tone in which, under her rival's gaze, she explained to her little charge that she had come back a day early than she initially planned for a specific reason. She had left Papa—in such nice accommodations—at Brighton; but he would return to his dear little home the next day. As for Mrs. Wix, Papa's companion later gave Maisie the perfect word for how this person was acting: Mrs. Wix "stood up" to her in a way that even the child found surprising at the time. This happened after Miss Overmore had relaxed her restriction enough to move to the dining room, where, with no suggestion of sitting down, it was hardly surprising that even poor Mrs. Wix should stand. Maisie immediately asked if anything had come out of the possibility of a school during their time in Brighton; to which, much to her surprise, Miss Overmore, who had always strongly rejected the idea, responded after a moment, as if Mrs. Wix weren't there:

"It may be, darling, that something will come. The objection, I must tell you, has been quite removed."

"It might be, babe, that something will happen. I have to tell you, the objection is pretty much gone."

At this it was still more startling to hear Mrs. Wix speak out with great firmness. "I don't think, if you'll allow me to say so, that there's any arrangement by which the objection can be 'removed.' What has brought me here to-day is that I've a message for Maisie from dear Mrs. Farange."

At this, it was even more surprising to hear Mrs. Wix speak up with great conviction. "I honestly don't think, if you'll permit me to say so, that there's any way to 'remove' the objection. The reason I came here today is that I have a message for Maisie from dear Mrs. Farange."

The child's heart gave a great thump. "Oh mamma's come back?"

The child's heart raced. "Oh, is mom back?"

"Not yet, sweet love, but she's coming," said Mrs. Wix, "and she has—most thoughtfully, you know—sent me on to prepare you."

"Not yet, sweet love, but she's on her way," Mrs. Wix said, "and she has—very thoughtfully, you know—asked me to get you ready."

"To prepare her for what, pray?" asked Miss Overmore, whose first smoothness began, with this news, to be ruffled.

"To get her ready for what, I ask?" said Miss Overmore, whose initial composure started to get unsettled with this news.

Mrs. Wix quietly applied her straighteners to Miss Overmore's flushed beauty. "Well, miss, for a very important communication."

Mrs. Wix quietly used her straighteners on Miss Overmore's flushed beauty. "Well, miss, for a very important message."

"Can't dear Mrs. Farange, as you so oddly call her, make her communications directly? Can't she take the trouble to write to her only daughter?" the younger lady demanded. "Maisie herself will tell you that it's months and months since she has had so much as a word from her."

"Can't dear Mrs. Farange, as you so strangely call her, communicate directly? Can't she take the time to write to her only daughter?" the younger lady asked. "Maisie herself will tell you that it's been months and months since she has heard a single word from her."

"Oh but I've written to mamma!" cried the child as if this would do quite as well.

"Oh, but I've written to Mom!" the child exclaimed, as if that would be just as good.

"That makes her treatment of you all the greater scandal," the governess in possession promptly declared.

"That makes her treatment of you even more scandalous," the governess readily declared.

"Mrs. Farange is too well aware," said Mrs. Wix with sustained spirit, "of what becomes of her letters in this house."

"Mrs. Farange knows all too well," said Mrs. Wix with steady determination, "what happens to her letters in this house."

Maisie's sense of fairness hereupon interposed for her visitor. "You know, Miss Overmore, that papa doesn't like everything of mamma's."

Maisie's sense of fairness stepped in for her guest. "You know, Miss Overmore, that Dad doesn't like everything Mom does."

"No one likes, my dear, to be made the subject of such language as your mother's letters contain. They were not fit for the innocent child to see," Miss Overmore observed to Mrs. Wix.

"No one likes, my dear, to be the subject of the kind of language found in your mother's letters. They weren't suitable for an innocent child to read," Miss Overmore remarked to Mrs. Wix.

"Then I don't know what you complain of, and she's better without them. It serves every purpose that I'm in Mrs. Farange's confidence."

"Then I don't understand what you're complaining about, and she's better off without them. It fulfills every purpose that I have Mrs. Farange's trust."

Miss Overmore gave a scornful laugh. "Then you must be mixed up with some extraordinary proceedings!"

Miss Overmore laughed dismissively. "Then you must be involved in some really unusual activities!"

"None so extraordinary," cried Mrs. Wix, turning very pale, "as to say horrible things about the mother to the face of the helpless daughter!"

"Nothing is more outrageous," Mrs. Wix exclaimed, going very pale, "than to say terrible things about the mother right in front of the helpless daughter!"

"Things not a bit more horrible, I think," Miss Overmore returned, "than those you, madam, appear to have come here to say about the father!"

"Things aren’t any more horrible, I believe," Miss Overmore replied, "than what you, ma'am, seem to have come here to say about the father!"

Mrs. Wix looked for a moment hard at Maisie, and then, turning again to this witness, spoke with a trembling voice. "I came to say nothing about him, and you must excuse Mrs. Farange and me if we're not so above all reproach as the companion of his travels."

Mrs. Wix stared intently at Maisie for a moment, then turned back to this witness and spoke with a shaky voice. "I didn't come here to say anything about him, and you need to forgive Mrs. Farange and me if we're not as blameless as the person who traveled with him."

The young woman thus described stared at the apparent breadth of the description—she needed a moment to take it in. Maisie, however, gazing solemnly from one of the disputants to the other, noted that her answer, when it came, perched upon smiling lips. "It will do quite as well, no doubt, if you come up to the requirements of the companion of Mrs. Farange's!"

The young woman being described looked at the extent of the description—she needed a moment to process it. Maisie, however, watched intently from one speaker to the other, noticing that her answer, when it finally arrived, was delivered with a smile. "It will work just as well, of course, if you meet the expectations of Mrs. Farange's companion!"

Mrs. Wix broke into a queer laugh; it sounded to Maisie an unsuccessful imitation of a neigh. "That's just what I'm here to make known—how perfectly the poor lady comes up to them herself." She held up her head at the child. "You must take your mamma's message, Maisie, and you must feel that her wishing me to come to you with it this way is a great proof of interest and affection. She sends you her particular love and announces to you that she's engaged to be married to Sir Claude."

Mrs. Wix burst into an odd laugh; it sounded to Maisie like a failed attempt at a neigh. "That's exactly why I'm here—to let you know how wonderfully the poor lady matches up to them herself." She raised her head towards the child. "You need to take your mom's message, Maisie, and you should understand that her wanting me to come to you like this is a huge sign of interest and affection. She sends you her special love and tells you that she's engaged to be married to Sir Claude."

"Sir Claude?" Maisie wonderingly echoed. But while Mrs. Wix explained that this gentleman was a dear friend of Mrs. Farange's, who had been of great assistance to her in getting to Florence and in making herself comfortable there for the winter, she was not too violently shaken to perceive her old friend's enjoyment of the effect of this news on Miss Overmore. That young lady opened her eyes very wide; she immediately remarked that Mrs. Farange's marriage would of course put an end to any further pretension to take her daughter back. Mrs. Wix enquired with astonishment why it should do anything of the sort, and Miss Overmore gave as an instant reason that it was clearly but another dodge in a system of dodges. She wanted to get out of the bargain: why else had she now left Maisie on her father's hands weeks and weeks beyond the time about which she had originally made such a fuss? It was vain for Mrs. Wix to represent—as she speciously proceeded to do—that all this time would be made up as soon as Mrs. Farange returned: she, Miss Overmore, knew nothing, thank heaven, about her confederate, but was very sure any person capable of forming that sort of relation with the lady in Florence would easily agree to object to the presence in his house of the fruit of a union that his dignity must ignore. It was a game like another, and Mrs. Wix's visit was clearly the first move in it. Maisie found in this exchange of asperities a fresh incitement to the unformulated fatalism in which her sense of her own career had long since taken refuge; and it was the beginning for her of a deeper prevision that, in spite of Miss Overmore's brilliancy and Mrs. Wix's passion, she should live to see a change in the nature of the struggle she appeared to have come into the world to produce. It would still be essentially a struggle, but its object would now be not to receive her.

"Sir Claude?" Maisie echoed with surprise. But while Mrs. Wix explained that this man was a close friend of Mrs. Farange's who had been very helpful in getting her to Florence and settling her in for the winter, she wasn’t too shaken to notice her old friend’s enjoyment of how this news affected Miss Overmore. The young woman widened her eyes and immediately pointed out that Mrs. Farange's marriage would obviously end any chance of her taking her daughter back. Mrs. Wix asked in disbelief why that should be the case, and Miss Overmore quickly suggested that it was clearly just another trick in a series of tricks. She wanted to back out of the arrangement: why else had she left Maisie with her father for weeks beyond when she originally made such a fuss? It was useless for Mrs. Wix to argue—as she somewhat misleadingly tried to do—that all this time would be compensated as soon as Mrs. Farange returned: Miss Overmore, thankfully ignorant of her accomplice, was certain that anyone willing to form that kind of relationship with the lady in Florence would easily object to having the product of a union that would diminish his status in his home. It was merely a game, and Mrs. Wix's visit was clearly the opening move. Maisie found in this exchange of harshness a renewed push toward the unspoken fatalism her sense of purpose had long embraced; it marked the start of a deeper awareness that, despite Miss Overmore's brilliance and Mrs. Wix's fervor, she would live to witness a change in the nature of the struggle she seemed destined to face. It would still be fundamentally a struggle, but its goal would now be not to accept her.

Mrs. Wix, after Miss Overmore's last demonstration, addressed herself wholly to the little girl, and, drawing from the pocket of her dingy old pelisse a small flat parcel, removed its envelope and wished to know if that looked like a gentleman who wouldn't be nice to everybody—let alone to a person he would be so sure to find so nice. Mrs. Farange, in the candour of new-found happiness, had enclosed a "cabinet" photograph of Sir Claude, and Maisie lost herself in admiration of the fair smooth face, the regular features, the kind eyes, the amiable air, the general glossiness and smartness of her prospective stepfather—only vaguely puzzled to suppose herself now with two fathers at once. Her researches had hitherto indicated that to incur a second parent of the same sex you had usually to lose the first. "Isn't he sympathetic?" asked Mrs. Wix, who had clearly, on the strength of his charming portrait, made up her mind that Sir Claude promised her a future. "You can see, I hope," she added with much expression, "that he's a perfect gentleman!" Maisie had never before heard the word "sympathetic" applied to anybody's face; she heard it with pleasure and from that moment it agreeably remained with her. She testified moreover to the force of her own perception in a small soft sigh of response to the pleasant eyes that seemed to seek her acquaintance, to speak to her directly. "He's quite lovely!" she declared to Mrs. Wix. Then eagerly, irrepressibly, as she still held the photograph and Sir Claude continued to fraternise, "Oh can't I keep it?" she broke out. No sooner had she done so than she looked up from it at Miss Overmore: this was with the sudden instinct of appealing to the authority that had long ago impressed on her that she mustn't ask for things. Miss Overmore, to her surprise, looked distant and rather odd, hesitating and giving her time to turn again to Mrs. Wix. Then Maisie saw that lady's long face lengthen; it was stricken and almost scared, as if her young friend really expected more of her than she had to give. The photograph was a possession that, direly denuded, she clung to, and there was a momentary struggle between her fond clutch of it and her capability of every sacrifice for her precarious pupil. With the acuteness of her years, however, Maisie saw that her own avidity would triumph, and she held out the picture to Miss Overmore as if she were quite proud of her mother. "Isn't he just lovely?" she demanded while poor Mrs. Wix hungrily wavered, her straighteners largely covering it and her pelisse gathered about her with an intensity that strained its ancient seams.

Mrs. Wix, after Miss Overmore's last demonstration, turned her full attention to the little girl. She pulled a small flat parcel from the pocket of her old, worn coat, took off its envelope, and asked if that looked like a gentleman who wouldn’t be nice to everyone—especially to someone he’d surely find so nice. Mrs. Farange, in her newfound happiness, had included a "cabinet" photograph of Sir Claude, and Maisie was captivated by his fair, smooth face, his regular features, kind eyes, friendly demeanor, and the polished, put-together appearance of her future stepfather—though she was only vaguely confused about having two fathers at once. Her earlier findings suggested that to get a second parent of the same gender, you usually had to lose the first. "Isn't he sympathetic?" asked Mrs. Wix, who had clearly decided, based on his charming picture, that Sir Claude was going to be a great future for her. "You can see, I hope," she added with enthusiasm, "that he's a perfect gentleman!" Maisie had never heard the word "sympathetic" used to describe someone’s face before; she enjoyed hearing it, and from that moment on, it stuck with her. She also showed her appreciation with a small, soft sigh in response to the kind eyes that seemed to reach out to her, inviting her in. "He's just lovely!" she exclaimed to Mrs. Wix. Then, eagerly and uncontrollably, still holding the photograph while Sir Claude seemed to engage with her, she said, "Oh, can’t I keep it?" As soon as she blurted that out, she looked up at Miss Overmore, instinctively seeking the approval of someone who had long taught her not to ask for things. To her surprise, Miss Overmore looked distant and a bit odd, hesitating and giving her time to turn back to Mrs. Wix. Then, Maisie noticed the lengthening of Mrs. Wix’s long face; it appeared stricken and almost scared, as if her young friend genuinely expected more from her than she could provide. The photograph was something that, stripped of other belongings, she held onto tightly, creating a moment of conflict between her fond attachment to it and her willingness to sacrifice anything for her fragile pupil. However, with the sharpness of her years, Maisie sensed that her own eagerness would win out, and she proudly extended the picture to Miss Overmore, as if she were showcasing her mother. "Isn't he just lovely?" she insisted while poor Mrs. Wix hesitated, her hands largely covering the photo, her coat wrapped around her tightly, straining at its old seams.

"It was to me, darling," the visitor said, "that your mamma so generously sent it; but of course if it would give you particular pleasure—" she faltered, only gasping her surrender.

"It was to me, darling," the visitor said, "that your mom so generously sent it; but of course, if it would make you really happy—" she hesitated, barely managing to accept.

Miss Overmore continued extremely remote. "If the photograph's your property, my dear, I shall be happy to oblige you by looking at it on some future occasion. But you must excuse me if I decline to touch an object belonging to Mrs. Wix."

Miss Overmore remained very distant. "If the photograph is yours, my dear, I'd be happy to look at it on another occasion. But you'll have to forgive me if I refuse to handle something that belongs to Mrs. Wix."

That lady had by this time grown very red. "You might as well see him this way, miss," she retorted, "as you certainly never will, I believe, in any other! Keep the pretty picture, by all means, my precious," she went on: "Sir Claude will be happy himself, I dare say, to give me one with a kind inscription." The pathetic quaver of this brave boast was not lost on Maisie, who threw herself so gratefully on the speaker's neck that, when they had concluded their embrace, the public tenderness of which, she felt, made up for the sacrifice she imposed, their companion had had time to lay a quick hand on Sir Claude and, with a glance at him or not, whisk him effectually out of sight. Released from the child's arms Mrs. Wix looked about for the picture; then she fixed Miss Overmore with a hard dumb stare; and finally, with her eyes on the little girl again, achieved the grimmest of smiles. "Well, nothing matters, Maisie, because there's another thing your mamma wrote about. She has made sure of me." Even after her loyal hug Maisie felt a bit of a sneak as she glanced at Miss Overmore for permission to understand this. But Mrs. Wix left them in no doubt of what it meant. "She has definitely engaged me—for her return and for yours. Then you'll see for yourself." Maisie, on the spot, quite believed she should; but the prospect was suddenly thrown into confusion by an extraordinary demonstration from Miss Overmore.

That lady had by then turned very red. "You might as well see him like this, miss," she shot back, "because I don’t believe you will in any other way! Keep the pretty picture, by all means, my dear," she continued: "Sir Claude will be happy to give me one with a nice note." The sad tremor in this brave statement didn’t go unnoticed by Maisie, who threw herself so gratefully into the speaker's embrace that, once they had finished their hug, which she felt made up for what she had asked, their companion had time to quickly grab Sir Claude and, with or without a glance at him, effectively whisk him out of sight. Once released from the child’s arms, Mrs. Wix looked around for the picture; then she fixed Miss Overmore with a hard, silent stare; and finally, looking back at the little girl, she managed the grimmest of smiles. "Well, nothing matters, Maisie, because there’s one more thing your mom wrote about. She has made sure of me." Even after her loyal hug, Maisie felt a bit sneaky as she glanced at Miss Overmore for permission to understand this. But Mrs. Wix made it clear what it meant. "She has definitely hired me—for her return and for yours. Then you'll see for yourself." Maisie instantly believed she would; but the prospect was suddenly thrown off course by an extraordinary reaction from Miss Overmore.

"Mrs. Wix," said that young lady, "has some undiscoverable reason for regarding your mother's hold on you as strengthened by the fact that she's about to marry. I wonder then—on that system—what our visitor will say to your father's."

"Mrs. Wix," the young lady said, "has some secret reason for thinking that your mother's influence over you is increased by her upcoming marriage. I wonder then—based on that idea—what our guest will think about your father's."

Miss Overmore's words were directed to her pupil, but her face, lighted with an irony that made it prettier even than ever before, was presented to the dingy figure that had stiffened itself for departure. The child's discipline had been bewildering—had ranged freely between the prescription that she was to answer when spoken to and the experience of lively penalties on obeying that prescription. This time, nevertheless, she felt emboldened for risks; above all as something portentous seemed to have leaped into her sense of the relations of things. She looked at Miss Overmore much as she had a way of looking at persons who treated her to "grown up" jokes. "Do you mean papa's hold on me—do you mean he's about to marry?"

Miss Overmore's words were aimed at her student, but her face, lit up with an irony that made her look even prettier than usual, was turned toward the dull figure that had stiffened itself for leaving. The child's discipline had been confusing—oscillating between the rule that she should answer when spoken to and the experiences of severe penalties for following that rule. This time, however, she felt brave enough to take risks; especially since something significant seemed to have surged into her understanding of how things were connected. She looked at Miss Overmore much like she looked at people who shared "grown-up" jokes with her. "Are you saying that dad's hold on me—are you saying he's about to get married?"

"Papa's not about to marry—papa is married, my dear. Papa was married the day before yesterday at Brighton." Miss Overmore glittered more gaily; meanwhile it came over Maisie, and quite dazzlingly, that her "smart" governess was a bride. "He's my husband, if you please, and I'm his little wife. So now we'll see who's your little mother!" She caught her pupil to her bosom in a manner that was not to be outdone by the emissary of her predecessor, and a few moments later, when things had lurched back into their places, that poor lady, quite defeated of the last word, had soundlessly taken flight.

"Papa's not about to marry—papa is married, my dear. Papa got married the day before yesterday in Brighton." Miss Overmore sparkled even more; meanwhile, it suddenly hit Maisie, and quite brightly, that her "fancy" governess was a bride. "He's my husband, if you please, and I'm his little wife. So now we'll see who's your little mother!" She pulled her student into her arms in a way that was just as impressive as the previous governess's approach, and a few moments later, when everything settled back into place, that poor lady, completely outdone, had silently slipped away.

 

 

VIII
 

After Mrs. Wix's retreat Miss Overmore appeared to recognise that she was not exactly in a position to denounce Ida Farange's second union; but she drew from a table-drawer the photograph of Sir Claude and, standing there before Maisie, studied it at some length.

After Mrs. Wix left, Miss Overmore seemed to realize that she wasn't really in a position to criticize Ida Farange's second marriage; but she pulled out Sir Claude's photograph from a drawer and stood there in front of Maisie, examining it for quite a while.

"Isn't he beautiful?" the child ingenuously asked.

"Isn't he beautiful?" the child asked innocently.

Her companion hesitated. "No—he's horrid," she, to Maisie's surprise, sharply returned. But she debated another minute, after which she handed back the picture. It appeared to Maisie herself to exhibit a fresh attraction, and she was troubled, having never before had occasion to differ from her lovely friend. So she only could ask what, such being the case, she should do with it: should she put it quite away—where it wouldn't be there to offend? On this Miss Overmore again cast about; after which she said unexpectedly: "Put it on the schoolroom mantelpiece."

Her friend hesitated. "No—he's awful," she replied sharply, to Maisie's surprise. But after thinking for another minute, she handed the picture back. Maisie noticed it seemed to have a new charm, and she felt conflicted, having never disagreed with her beautiful friend before. So she could only ask what she should do with it: should she stash it away—where it wouldn't be around to upset anyone? Miss Overmore thought for a moment again and then said unexpectedly, "Put it on the schoolroom mantelpiece."

Maisie felt a fear. "Won't papa dislike to see it there?"

Maisie felt scared. "Won't Dad mind seeing it there?"

"Very much indeed; but that won't matter now." Miss Overmore spoke with peculiar significance and to her pupil's mystification.

"Definitely; but that doesn't matter now." Miss Overmore said with unusual emphasis, leaving her student puzzled.

"On account of the marriage?" Maisie risked.

"Was it because of the marriage?" Maisie asked.

Miss Overmore laughed, and Maisie could see that in spite of the irritation produced by Mrs. Wix she was in high spirits. "Which marriage do you mean?"

Miss Overmore laughed, and Maisie could see that despite the irritation caused by Mrs. Wix, she was in a great mood. "Which marriage are you talking about?"

With the question put to her it suddenly struck the child she didn't know, so that she felt she looked foolish. So she took refuge in saying: "Shall you be different—" This was a full implication that the bride of Sir Claude would be.

With the question directed at her, it suddenly hit the girl that she didn't have an answer, which made her feel foolish. So she sought safety in saying, "Will you be different—" This strongly suggested that Sir Claude's bride would be.

"As your father's wedded wife? Utterly!" Miss Overmore replied. And the difference began of course in her being addressed, even by Maisie, from that day and by her particular request, as Mrs. Beale. It was there indeed principally that it ended, for except that the child could reflect that she should presently have four parents in all, and also that at the end of three months the staircase, for a little girl hanging over banisters, sent up the deepening rustle of more elaborate advances, everything made the same impression as before. Mrs. Beale had very pretty frocks, but Miss Overmore's had been quite as good, and if papa was much fonder of his second wife than he had been of his first Maisie had foreseen that fondness, had followed its development almost as closely as the person more directly involved. There was little indeed in the commerce of her companions that her precocious experience couldn't explain, for if they struck her as after all rather deficient in that air of the honeymoon of which she had so often heard—in much detail, for instance, from Mrs. Wix—it was natural to judge the circumstance in the light of papa's proved disposition to contest the empire of the matrimonial tie. His honeymoon, when he came back from Brighton—not on the morrow of Mrs. Wix's visit, and not, oddly, till several days later—his honeymoon was perhaps perceptibly tinged with the dawn of a later stage of wedlock. There were things dislike of which, as the child knew it, wouldn't matter to Mrs. Beale now, and their number increased so that such a trifle as his hostility to the photograph of Sir Claude quite dropped out of view. This pleasing object found a conspicuous place in the schoolroom, which in truth Mr. Farange seldom entered and in which silent admiration formed, during the time I speak of, almost the sole scholastic exercise of Mrs. Beale's pupil.

"As your father's wife? Absolutely!" Miss Overmore replied. And the difference started, of course, in how she was addressed, even by Maisie, from that day on at her specific request, as Mrs. Beale. It primarily ended there, because aside from the fact that the child realized she would soon have a total of four parents, and also that after three months the staircase—for a little girl leaning over banisters—brought forth the growing rustle of more elaborate steps, everything else felt the same as before. Mrs. Beale had very pretty dresses, but Miss Overmore's had been just as nice, and while Dad seemed much more fond of his second wife than he had been of his first, Maisie had anticipated that affection and had tracked its development almost as closely as the person directly involved. There was little in the interactions of her friends that her advanced understanding couldn't clarify, for if they struck her as somewhat lacking the air of the honeymoon she had often heard about—in great detail, for example, from Mrs. Wix—it was natural to interpret the situation in light of Dad's established tendency to challenge the sanctity of marriage. His honeymoon, when he returned from Brighton—not the day after Mrs. Wix's visit, and not, oddly, until several days later—was perhaps subtly tinged with the beginnings of a later stage of marriage. There were things that, as the child understood, wouldn’t bother Mrs. Beale now, and their number increased so much that even his dislike for the photograph of Sir Claude faded from her mind. This charming object had a prominent place in the schoolroom, which Mr. Farange rarely entered, and during the time I’m referring to, silent admiration became almost the only form of study for Mrs. Beale's pupil.

Maisie was not long in seeing just what her stepmother had meant by the difference she should show in her new character. If she was her father's wife she was not her own governess, and if her presence had had formerly to be made regular by the theory of a humble function she was now on a footing that dispensed with all theories and was inconsistent with all servitude. That was what she had meant by the drop of the objection to a school; her small companion was no longer required at home as—it was Mrs. Beale's own amusing word—a little duenna. The argument against a successor to Miss Overmore remained: it was composed frankly of the fact, of which Mrs. Beale granted the full absurdity, that she was too awfully fond of her stepdaughter to bring herself to see her in vulgar and mercenary hands. The note of this particular danger emboldened Maisie to put in a word for Mrs. Wix, the modest measure of whose avidity she had taken from the first; but Mrs. Beale disposed afresh and effectually of a candidate who would be sure to act in some horrible and insidious way for Ida's interest and who moreover was personally loathsome and as ignorant as a fish. She made also no more of a secret of the awkward fact that a good school would be hideously expensive, and of the further circumstance, which seemed to put an end to everything, that when it came to the point papa, in spite of his previous clamour, was really most nasty about paying. "Would you believe," Mrs. Beale confidentially asked of her little charge, "that he says I'm a worse expense than ever, and that a daughter and a wife together are really more than he can afford?" It was thus that the splendid school at Brighton lost itself in the haze of larger questions, though the fear that it would provoke Ida to leap into the breach subsided with her prolonged, her quite shameless non-appearance. Her daughter and her successor were therefore left to gaze in united but helpless blankness at all Maisie was not learning.

Maisie quickly understood what her stepmother meant by the difference she was supposed to show in her new role. If she was her father’s wife, she wasn’t a governess to her—her presence no longer needed to be justified by a humble role. Instead, she was in a position that eliminated all theories and didn’t align with servitude. That’s what she meant about dropping the idea of a school; her little companion was no longer required at home as, in Mrs. Beale’s amusing words, a little duenna. The argument against hiring someone to replace Miss Overmore remained: it was based on the absurd truth, which Mrs. Beale admitted, that she was just too fond of her stepdaughter to see her in the hands of someone vulgar and greedy. This particular danger encouraged Maisie to suggest Mrs. Wix, whose modest ambition she had sensed from the beginning; however, Mrs. Beale quickly dismissed this candidate, knowing she would only act in sneaky ways for Ida’s benefit and was also personally unpleasant and as clueless as a fish. She openly acknowledged the awkward fact that a good school would be incredibly expensive, and the further issue that ultimately stopped everything was that when it came down to it, Papa, despite his earlier protests, was truly nasty about paying. “Would you believe,” Mrs. Beale confidentially asked her little charge, “that he says I’m a bigger expense than ever, and that having both a daughter and a wife is really more than he can handle?” This is how the wonderful school in Brighton faded away amidst broader questions, even though the worry that it might prompt Ida to jump into action diminished with her prolonged, shameless absence. So, both her daughter and her successor were left staring in shared helplessness at all the things Maisie wasn’t learning.

This quantity was so great as to fill the child's days with a sense of intermission to which even French Lisette gave no accent—with finished games and unanswered questions and dreaded tests; with the habit, above all, in her watch for a change, of hanging over banisters when the door-bell sounded. This was the great refuge of her impatience, but what she heard at such times was a clatter of gaiety downstairs; the impression of which, from her earliest childhood, had built up in her the belief that the grown-up time was the time of real amusement and above all of real intimacy. Even Lisette, even Mrs. Wix had never, she felt, in spite of hugs and tears, been so intimate with her as so many persons at present were with Mrs. Beale and as so many others of old had been with Mrs. Farange. The note of hilarity brought people together still more than the note of melancholy, which was the one exclusively sounded, for instance, by poor Mrs. Wix. Maisie in these days preferred none the less that domestic revels should be wafted to her from a distance: she felt sadly unsupported for facing the inquisition of the drawing-room. That was a reason the more for making the most of Susan Ash, who in her quality of under-housemaid moved at a very different level and who, none the less, was much depended upon out of doors. She was a guide to peregrinations that had little in common with those intensely definite airings that had left with the child a vivid memory of the regulated mind of Moddle. There had been under Moddle's system no dawdles at shop-windows and no nudges, in Oxford Street, of "I say, look at 'er!" There had been an inexorable treatment of crossings and a serene exemption from the fear that—especially at corners, of which she was yet weakly fond—haunted the housemaid, the fear of being, as she ominously said, "spoken to." The dangers of the town equally with its diversions added to Maisie's sense of being untutored and unclaimed.

This amount was so overwhelming that it filled the child's days with a sense of pause that even French Lisette couldn’t make sense of—filled with completed games, unanswered questions, and dreaded tests; primarily, her habit of peering over the banisters whenever the doorbell rang in anticipation of a change. This became her main escape for her impatience, but what she heard during those moments was the sounds of joy coming from downstairs; the impression of which, from her earliest childhood, led her to believe that the adult world was where real fun and, above all, true closeness happened. Even Lisette and Mrs. Wix, despite their hugs and tears, never felt as close to her as many people were with Mrs. Beale now or as others had been with Mrs. Farange in the past. The cheerful sounds brought people together more than the sadness that was solely expressed by poor Mrs. Wix. Despite that, Maisie still preferred to enjoy the household celebrations from afar: she felt quite unsupported when facing the scrutiny of the drawing-room. This was yet another reason to appreciate Susan Ash, who, as a housemaid, operated on a very different level but was still relied upon outside. She guided excursions that had little in common with the highly structured outings that had left the child with a vivid memory of Moddle’s regulated mindset. Under Moddle’s system, there had been no lingering at shop windows and no nudges in Oxford Street of “I say, look at 'er!” There had been strict rules about crossing streets and a calm avoidance of the fear that—especially at corners, of which she was still weakly fond—haunted the housemaid, the fear of being, as she ominously put it, “spoken to.” The dangers of the town, just like its amusements, only added to Maisie's feeling of being untrained and unclaimed.

The situation however, had taken a twist when, on another of her returns, at Susan's side, extremely tired, from the pursuit of exercise qualified by much hovering, she encountered another emotion. She on this occasion learnt at the door that her instant attendance was requested in the drawing-room. Crossing the threshold in a cloud of shame she discerned through the blur Mrs. Beale seated there with a gentleman who immediately drew the pain from her predicament by rising before her as the original of the photograph of Sir Claude. She felt the moment she looked at him that he was by far the most shining presence that had ever made her gape, and her pleasure in seeing him, in knowing that he took hold of her and kissed her, as quickly throbbed into a strange shy pride in him, a perception of his making up for her fallen state, for Susan's public nudges, which quite bruised her, and for all the lessons that, in the dead schoolroom, where at times she was almost afraid to stay alone, she was bored with not having. It was as if he had told her on the spot that he belonged to her, so that she could already show him off and see the effect he produced. No, nothing else that was most beautiful ever belonging to her could kindle that particular joy—not Mrs. Beale at that very moment, not papa when he was gay, nor mamma when she was dressed, nor Lisette when she was new. The joy almost overflowed in tears when he laid his hand on her and drew her to him, telling her, with a smile of which the promise was as bright as that of a Christmas-tree, that he knew her ever so well by her mother, but had come to see her now so that he might know her for himself. She could see that his view of this kind of knowledge was to make her come away with him, and, further, that it was just what he was there for and had already been some time: arranging it with Mrs. Beale and getting on with that lady in a manner evidently not at all affected by her having on the arrival of his portrait thought of him so ill. They had grown almost intimate—or had the air of it—over their discussion; and it was still further conveyed to Maisie that Mrs. Beale had made no secret, and would make yet less of one, of all that it cost to let her go. "You seem so tremendously eager," she said to the child, "that I hope you're at least clear about Sir Claude's relation to you. It doesn't appear to occur to him to give you the necessary reassurance."

The situation, however, took a turn when, on another one of her returns, extremely tired from the exercise that involved a lot of hovering, she felt a different emotion. This time, she learned at the door that her immediate presence was requested in the drawing room. Stepping inside with a cloud of shame, she could barely see Mrs. Beale sitting there with a gentleman who quickly eased her discomfort by standing up before her as the man in the photograph of Sir Claude. The moment she looked at him, she felt he was by far the most captivating presence she had ever encountered, and her joy in seeing him, in knowing he embraced her and kissed her, quickly turned into a strange, shy pride in him—a realization that he compensated for her fallen state, for Susan’s public nudges that hurt her, and for all the lessons she was bored with in the dead schoolroom, where she sometimes felt afraid to be alone. It was as if he had told her right there that he belonged to her, allowing her to show him off and see the effect he had on others. No other beautiful thing she had ever possessed could spark that specific joy—neither Mrs. Beale at that moment, nor her dad when he was cheerful, nor her mom when she was dressed up, nor Lisette when she was new. The joy nearly overflowed in tears when he placed his hand on her and pulled her close, telling her, with a smile bright as a Christmas tree, that he knew her very well through her mother but had come to know her for himself. She realized his idea of this kind of knowledge was to take her away with him, and that was exactly why he was there, having already arranged things with Mrs. Beale and getting along with her in a way that clearly didn’t seem affected by how poorly she had thought of him when she first saw his portrait. They had become almost familiar—or at least appeared to be—over their conversation; and it was also clear to Maisie that Mrs. Beale had made no secret, and would make even less of one, about what it took to let her go. "You seem so incredibly eager," she said to the child, "that I hope you're at least aware of Sir Claude's relationship to you. It doesn’t seem to occur to him to give you the reassurance you need."

Maisie, a trifle mystified, turned quickly to her new friend. "Why it's of course that you're married to her, isn't it?"

Maisie, a bit confused, quickly turned to her new friend. "So, you’re married to her, right?"

Her anxious emphasis started them off, as she had learned to call it; this was the echo she infallibly and now quite resignedly produced; moreover Sir Claude's laughter was an indistinguishable part of the sweetness of his being there. "We've been married, my dear child, three months, and my interest in you is a consequence, don't you know? of my great affection for your mother. In coming here it's of course for your mother I'm acting."

Her nervous emphasis got them going, as she had come to call it; this was the response she always and now somewhat resignedly created; also, Sir Claude's laughter was an inseparable part of the joy of having him there. "We've been married, my dear child, for three months now, and my interest in you is, you know, a result of my deep affection for your mother. I'm here, of course, acting on behalf of your mother."

"Oh I know," Maisie said with all the candour of her competence. "She can't come herself—except just to the door." Then as she thought afresh: "Can't she come even to the door now?"

"Oh, I know," Maisie said, confidently. "She can't come herself—just to the door." Then as she thought again, "Can't she come to the door at all now?"

"There you are!" Mrs. Beale exclaimed to Sir Claude. She spoke as if his dilemma were ludicrous.

"There you are!" Mrs. Beale exclaimed to Sir Claude. She spoke as if his problem were ridiculous.

His kind face, in a hesitation, seemed to recognise it; but he answered the child with a frank smile. "No—not very well."

His kind face showed a moment of hesitation as if he recognized it; but he replied to the child with an open smile. "No—not really."

"Because she has married you?"

"Because she married you?"

He promptly accepted this reason. "Well, that has a good deal to do with it."

He quickly accepted this reason. "Well, that has a lot to do with it."

He was so delightful to talk to that Maisie pursued the subject. "But papa—he has married Miss Overmore."

He was such a pleasure to talk to that Maisie kept the conversation going. "But dad—he married Miss Overmore."

"Ah you'll see that he won't come for you at your mother's," that lady interposed.

"Ah, you'll see that he won't come for you at your mom's," that lady interrupted.

"Yes, but that won't be for a long time," Maisie hastened to respond.

"Yeah, but that's not going to happen for a while," Maisie quickly replied.

"We won't talk about it now—you've months and months to put in first." And Sir Claude drew her closer.

"We won't talk about it now—you have months and months to figure it out first." And Sir Claude pulled her closer.

"Oh that's what makes it so hard to give her up!" Mrs. Beale made this point with her arms out to her stepdaughter. Maisie, quitting Sir Claude, went over to them and, clasped in a still tenderer embrace, felt entrancingly the extension of the field of happiness. "I'll come for you," said her stepmother, "if Sir Claude keeps you too long: we must make him quite understand that! Don't talk to me about her ladyship!" she went on to their visitor so familiarly that it was almost as if they must have met before. "I know her ladyship as if I had made her. They're a pretty pair of parents!" cried Mrs. Beale.

"Oh, that's what makes it so hard to let her go!" Mrs. Beale said, her arms open to her stepdaughter. Maisie, leaving Sir Claude, walked over to them and, wrapped in an even more tender hug, felt the delightful expansion of her happiness. "I'll come for you," her stepmother said, "if Sir Claude keeps you too long: we need to make sure he totally gets that! Don't even get me started on her ladyship!" she continued to their visitor so casually that it felt like they must have met before. "I know her ladyship as if I created her. They're quite the pair of parents!" exclaimed Mrs. Beale.

Maisie had so often heard them called so that the remark diverted her but an instant from the agreeable wonder of this grand new form of allusion to her mother; and that, in its turn, presently left her free to catch at the pleasant possibility, in connexion with herself, of a relation much happier as between Mrs. Beale and Sir Claude than as between mamma and papa. Still the next thing that happened was that her interest in such a relation brought to her lips a fresh question.

Maisie had heard them called that so many times that the comment only distracted her for a moment from the delightful surprise of this new way of referring to her mother; and soon after, it allowed her to consider the nice possibility of a much happier relationship between Mrs. Beale and Sir Claude compared to that of her mom and dad. Still, the next thing that happened was that her curiosity about this relationship led her to ask a new question.

"Have you seen papa?" she asked of Sir Claude.

"Have you seen Dad?" she asked Sir Claude.

It was the signal for their going off again, as her small stoicism had perfectly taken for granted that it would be. All that Mrs. Beale had nevertheless to add was the vague apparent sarcasm: "Oh papa!"

It was the cue for them to leave again, as her little resilience had totally assumed that it would happen. All Mrs. Beale had to add was a hint of sarcastic disbelief: "Oh, dad!"

"I'm assured he's not at home," Sir Claude replied to the child; "but if he had been I should have hoped for the pleasure of seeing him."

"I'm sure he's not home," Sir Claude said to the child; "but if he were, I would have looked forward to the pleasure of seeing him."

"Won't he mind your coming?" Maisie asked as with need of the knowledge.

"Won't he mind that you're coming?" Maisie asked, clearly wanting to know.

"Oh you bad little girl!" Mrs. Beale humorously protested.

"Oh, you naughty little girl!" Mrs. Beale playfully protested.

The child could see that at this Sir Claude, though still moved to mirth, coloured a little; but he spoke to her very kindly. "That's just what I came to see, you know—whether your father would mind. But Mrs. Beale appears strongly of the opinion that he won't."

The child noticed that Sir Claude, although still amused, blushed a bit; however, he spoke to her very kindly. "That's exactly what I came to find out—whether your father would mind. But Mrs. Beale seems quite sure that he won't."

This lady promptly justified that view to her stepdaughter. "It will be very interesting, my dear, you know, to find out what it is to-day that your father does mind. I'm sure I don't know!"—and she seemed to repeat, though with perceptible resignation, her plaint of a moment before. "Your father, darling, is a very odd person indeed." She turned with this, smiling, to Sir Claude. "But perhaps it's hardly civil for me to say that of his not objecting to have you in the house. If you knew some of the people he does have!"

This woman quickly explained her viewpoint to her stepdaughter. "It will be really interesting, my dear, to find out what it is today that your father objects to. I'm sure I don't know!"—and she seemed to echo, though with noticeable resignation, her complaint from a moment ago. "Your father, sweetheart, is certainly a very strange person." She turned to Sir Claude with a smile at this. "But maybe it's not very polite for me to say that about his not minding having you in the house. If you knew some of the people he actually does invite!"

Maisie knew them all, and none indeed were to be compared to Sir Claude. He laughed back at Mrs. Beale; he looked at such moments quite as Mrs. Wix, in the long stories she told her pupil, always described the lovers of her distressed beauties—"the perfect gentleman and strikingly handsome." He got up, to the child's regret, as if he were going. "Oh I dare say we should be all right!"

Maisie knew them all, and none could really compare to Sir Claude. He laughed back at Mrs. Beale; in those moments, he looked just like how Mrs. Wix always described the handsome lovers of her troubled heroines in the long stories she told her student—“the perfect gentleman and strikingly handsome.” He stood up, much to the child’s disappointment, as if he were leaving. “Oh, I’m sure we’ll be just fine!”

Mrs. Beale once more gathered in her little charge, holding her close and looking thoughtfully over her head at their visitor. "It's so charming—for a man of your type—to have wanted her so much!"

Mrs. Beale once again gathered her little charge, holding her close and thoughtfully looking over her head at their visitor. "It's so lovely—for a man like you—to have wanted her so much!"

"What do you know about my type?" Sir Claude laughed. "Whatever it may be I dare say it deceives you. The truth about me is simply that I'm the most unappreciated of—what do you call the fellows?—'family-men.' Yes, I'm a family-man; upon my honour I am!"

"What do you know about my type?" Sir Claude laughed. "Whatever it is, I bet it misleads you. The truth is, I'm just the most underappreciated of—what do you call them?—'family men.' Yes, I’m a family man; I swear I am!"

"Then why on earth," cried Mrs. Beale, "didn't you marry a family-woman?"

"Then why on earth," shouted Mrs. Beale, "didn't you marry a family woman?"

Sir Claude looked at her hard. "You know who one marries, I think. Besides, there are no family-women—hanged if there are! None of them want any children—hanged if they do!"

Sir Claude looked at her intensely. "You know who people marry, I think. Besides, there aren't any family-oriented women—no way! None of them want any kids—no chance!"

His account of the matter was most interesting, and Maisie, as if it were of bad omen for her, stared at the picture in some dismay. At the same time she felt, through encircling arms, her protectress hesitate. "You do come out with things! But you mean her ladyship doesn't want any—really?"

His take on the situation was really intriguing, and Maisie, feeling it was a bad sign for her, stared at the picture with some concern. At the same time, she sensed her protector hesitating around her. "You really bring up some things! But you mean she doesn't want any—really?"

"Won't hear of them—simply. But she can't help the one she has got." And with this Sir Claude's eyes rested on the little girl in a way that seemed to her to mask her mother's attitude with the consciousness of his own. "She must make the best of her, don't you see? If only for the look of the thing, don't you know? one wants one's wife to take the proper line about her child."

"Won't listen to them—plain and simple. But she can’t ignore the one she’s got." And with this, Sir Claude's gaze fell on the little girl in a way that seemed to her to hide her mother's feelings behind his own awareness. "She has to make the best of her, you see? Just for appearances, you know? People want their wives to respond the right way about their children."

"Oh I know what one wants!" Mrs. Beale cried with a competence that evidently impressed her interlocutor.

"Oh, I know what you want!" Mrs. Beale exclaimed with a confidence that clearly impressed the person she was speaking to.

"Well, if you keep him up—and I dare say you've had worry enough—why shouldn't I keep Ida? What's sauce for the goose is sauce for the gander—or the other way round, don't you know? I mean to see the thing through."

"Well, if you keep him up—and I bet you’ve had enough to worry about—why shouldn’t I keep Ida? What’s good for the goose is good for the gander—or the other way around, you know? I plan to see this through."

Mrs. Beale, for a minute, still with her eyes on him as he leaned upon the chimneypiece, appeared to turn this over. "You're just a wonder of kindness—that's what you are!" she said at last. "A lady's expected to have natural feelings. But your horrible sex—! Isn't it a horrible sex, little love?" she demanded with her cheek upon her stepdaughter's.

Mrs. Beale, for a moment, still watching him as he leaned against the fireplace, seemed to think about this. "You're just a remarkable person—that's what you are!" she finally said. "A lady is expected to have natural feelings. But your awful gender—! Isn't it an awful gender, my dear?" she asked, resting her cheek against her stepdaughter's.

"Oh I like gentlemen best," Maisie lucidly replied.

"Oh, I like gentlemen the most," Maisie clearly replied.

The words were taken up merrily. "That's a good one for you!" Sir Claude exclaimed to Mrs. Beale.

The words were taken up cheerfully. "That's a good one for you!" Sir Claude said to Mrs. Beale.

"No," said that lady: "I've only to remember the women she sees at her mother's."

"No," said that lady. "I just have to think about the women she sees at her mom's."

"Ah they're very nice now," Sir Claude returned.

"Ah, they're really nice now," Sir Claude replied.

"What do you call 'nice'?"

"What do you mean by 'nice'?"

"Well, they're all right."

"Well, they're okay."

"That doesn't answer me," said Mrs. Beale; "but I dare say you do take care of them. That makes you more of an angel to want this job too." And she playfully whacked her smaller companion.

"That doesn’t answer my question," said Mrs. Beale; "but I guess you do take care of them. That makes you even more of an angel for wanting this job too." And she playfully hit her smaller companion.

"I'm not an angel—I'm an old grandmother," Sir Claude declared. "I like babies—I always did. If we go to smash I shall look for a place as responsible nurse."

"I'm not an angel—I'm just an old grandmother," Sir Claude said. "I like babies—I always have. If we fall apart, I'll be looking for a job as a responsible nurse."

Maisie, in her charmed mood, drank in an imputation on her years which at another moment might have been bitter; but the charm was sensibly interrupted by Mrs. Beale's screwing her round and gazing fondly into her eyes, "You're willing to leave me, you wretch?"

Maisie, in her delightful mood, absorbed a suggestion about her age that at another time might have been unpleasant; however, the charm was clearly disrupted by Mrs. Beale turning her around and gazing affectionately into her eyes, "You're going to leave me, you scoundrel?"

The little girl deliberated; even this consecrated tie had become as a cord she must suddenly snap. But she snapped it very gently. "Isn't it my turn for mamma?"

The little girl thought it over; even this special bond felt like a rope she had to cut. But she did it very gently. "Isn't it my turn for mom?"

"You're a horrible little hypocrite! The less, I think, now said about 'turns' the better," Mrs. Beale made answer. "I know whose turn it is. You've not such a passion for your mother!"

"You're such a terrible hypocrite! Honestly, the less said about 'turns,' the better," Mrs. Beale replied. "I know whose turn it is. You don't care so much about your mother!"

"I say, I say: do look out!" Sir Claude quite amiably protested.

"I say, I say: do look out!" Sir Claude said pleasantly.

"There's nothing she hasn't heard. But it doesn't matter—it hasn't spoiled her. If you knew what it costs me to part with you!" she pursued to Maisie.

"There's nothing she hasn't heard. But it doesn't matter—it hasn't ruined her. If you only knew what it costs me to be away from you!" she continued to Maisie.

Sir Claude watched her as she charmingly clung to the child. "I'm so glad you really care for her. That's so much to the good."

Sir Claude watched her as she sweetly held onto the child. "I'm really glad you care about her. That's definitely a good thing."

Mrs. Beale slowly got up, still with her hands on Maisie, but emitting a soft exhalation. "Well, if you're glad, that may help us; for I assure you that I shall never give up any rights in her that I may consider I've acquired by my own sacrifices. I shall hold very fast to my interest in her. What seems to have happened is that she has brought you and me together."

Mrs. Beale slowly got up, still with her hands on Maisie, but let out a soft sigh. "Well, if you're happy, that might help us; because I promise you that I will never give up any rights to her that I believe I've earned through my own sacrifices. I will hold on tight to my interest in her. What seems to have happened is that she has brought you and me together."

"She has brought you and me together," said Sir Claude.

"She has brought us together," Sir Claude said.

His cheerful echo prolonged the happy truth, and Maisie broke out almost with enthusiasm: "I've brought you and her together!"

His joyful excitement extended the happy truth, and Maisie exclaimed almost with enthusiasm: "I've brought you and her together!"

Her companions of course laughed anew and Mrs. Beale gave her an affectionate shake. "You little monster—take care what you do! But that's what she does do," she continued to Sir Claude. "She did it to me and Beale."

Her friends laughed again, and Mrs. Beale gave her a loving shake. "You little troublemaker—watch out for what you do! But that's exactly what she does," she went on to Sir Claude. "She did it to me and Beale."

"Well then," he said to Maisie, "you must try the trick at our place." He held out his hand to her again. "Will you come now?"

"Well then," he said to Maisie, "you should try the trick at our place." He extended his hand to her again. "Will you come now?"

"Now—just as I am?" She turned with an immense appeal to her stepmother, taking a leap over the mountain of "mending," the abyss of packing that had loomed and yawned before her. "Oh may I?"

"Now—just like I am?" She turned with a huge appeal to her stepmother, jumping over the pile of "mending" and the vast task of packing that had seemed so daunting. "Oh can I?"

Mrs. Beale addressed her assent to Sir Claude. "As well so as any other way. I'll send on her things to-morrow." Then she gave a tug to the child's coat, glancing at her up and down with some ruefulness.

Mrs. Beale nodded towards Sir Claude. "Just as good as any other way. I'll send her things tomorrow." Then she tugged at the child's coat, looking her up and down with a bit of sadness.

"She's not turned out as I should like—her mother will pull her to pieces. But what's one to do—with nothing to do it on? And she's better than when she came—you can tell her mother that. I'm sorry to have to say it to you—but the poor child was a sight."

"She hasn't turned out how I would have liked—her mother is going to tear her apart. But what can you do—without the right resources? And she’s definitely better than when she first arrived—you can tell her mother that. I hate to say it to you—but the poor girl was a mess."

"Oh I'll turn her out myself!" the visitor cordially said.

"Oh, I'll kick her out myself!" the visitor cheerfully said.

"I shall like to see how!"—Mrs. Beale appeared much amused. "You must bring her to show me—we can manage that. Good-bye, little fright!" And her last word to Sir Claude was that she would keep him up to the mark.

"I'd like to see how!"—Mrs. Beale seemed really amused. "You have to bring her to show me—we can figure that out. Bye for now, little fright!" And her final comment to Sir Claude was that she would keep him on his toes.

 

 

IX
 

The idea of what she was to make up and the prodigious total it came to were kept well before Maisie at her mother's. These things were the constant occupation of Mrs. Wix, who arrived there by the back stairs, but in tears of joy, the day after her own arrival. The process of making up, as to which the good lady had an immense deal to say, took, through its successive phases, so long that it heralded a term at least equal to the child's last stretch with her father. This, however, was a fuller and richer time: it bounded along to the tune of Mrs. Wix's constant insistence on the energy they must both put forth. There was a fine intensity in the way the child agreed with her that under Mrs. Beale and Susan Ash she had learned nothing whatever; the wildness of the rescued castaway was one of the forces that would henceforth make for a career of conquest. The year therefore rounded itself as a receptacle of retarded knowledge—a cup brimming over with the sense that now at least she was learning. Mrs. Wix fed this sense from the stores of her conversation and with the immense bustle of her reminder that they must cull the fleeting hour. They were surrounded with subjects they must take at a rush and perpetually getting into the attitude of triumphant attack. They had certainly no idle hours, and the child went to bed each night as tired as from a long day's play. This had begun from the moment of their reunion, begun with all Mrs. Wix had to tell her young friend of the reasons of her ladyship's extraordinary behaviour at the very first.

The idea of what she had to make up and the huge total it resulted in were always on Maisie's mind at her mother's place. These thoughts were the constant focus of Mrs. Wix, who showed up by the back stairs, but in tears of happiness, the day after she arrived. The process of making up, about which the good lady had a lot to say, took so long in its various stages that it almost lasted as long as the child’s previous stretch with her father. However, this time was fuller and richer: it moved forward to the rhythm of Mrs. Wix's constant push for energy from both of them. The child passionately agreed that under Mrs. Beale and Susan Ash, she had learned absolutely nothing; the wildness of the saved castaway became one of the forces driving her future success. Thus, the year became a collection of delayed knowledge—a cup overflowing with the feeling that she was finally learning. Mrs. Wix nurtured this feeling with her conversations and her vigorous reminder that they needed to seize the moment. They were surrounded by topics they had to tackle quickly and were continually getting into a mindset of victorious engagement. They definitely had no idle hours, and the child went to bed each night as exhausted as if from a long day of play. This all started from the moment they reunited, beginning with everything Mrs. Wix had to share about her ladyship's unusual behavior right from the beginning.

It took the form of her ladyship's refusal for three days to see her little girl—three days during which Sir Claude made hasty merry dashes into the schoolroom to smooth down the odd situation, to say "She'll come round, you know; I assure you she'll come round," and a little even to compensate Maisie for the indignity he had caused her to suffer. There had never in the child's life been, in all ways, such a delightful amount of reparation. It came out by his sociable admission that her ladyship had not known of his visit to her late husband's house and of his having made that person's daughter a pretext for striking up an acquaintance with the dreadful creature installed there. Heaven knew she wanted her child back and had made every plan of her own for removing her; what she couldn't for the present at least forgive any one concerned was such an officious underhand way of bringing about the transfer. Maisie carried more of the weight of this resentment than even Mrs. Wix's confidential ingenuity could lighten for her, especially as Sir Claude himself was not at all ingenious, though indeed on the other hand he was not at all crushed. He was amused and intermittent and at moments most startling; he impressed on his young companion, with a frankness that agitated her much more than he seemed to guess, that he depended on her not letting her mother, when she should see her, get anything out of her about anything Mrs. Beale might have said to him. He came in and out; he professed, in joke, to take tremendous precautions; he showed a positive disposition to romp. He chaffed Mrs. Wix till she was purple with the pleasure of it, and reminded Maisie of the reticence he expected of her till she set her teeth like an Indian captive. Her lessons these first days and indeed for long after seemed to be all about Sir Claude, and yet she never really mentioned to Mrs. Wix that she was prepared, under his inspiring injunction, to be vainly tortured. This lady, however, had formulated the position of things with an acuteness that showed how little she needed to be coached. Her explanation of everything that seemed not quite pleasant—and if her own footing was perilous it met that danger as well—that her ladyship was passionately in love. Maisie accepted this hint with infinite awe and pressed upon it much when she was at last summoned into the presence of her mother.

It took Lady's refusal to see her little girl for three days—three days during which Sir Claude made quick visits to the schoolroom to smooth over the awkward situation, saying, "She'll come around, you know; I assure you she'll come around," and even trying to make up for the humiliation he had caused Maisie. In all her life, there had never been such a delightful attempt at making things right. It came out through his friendly admission that Lady hadn’t known about his visit to her late husband's house and that he had used that person's daughter as an excuse to connect with the dreadful woman living there. God knows she wanted her child back and had made her own plans for getting her; what she couldn't forgive anyone involved was the meddlesome, sneaky way of making that happen. Maisie carried the weight of this resentment more than even Mrs. Wix's cleverness could ease, especially since Sir Claude wasn’t very clever himself, though he certainly wasn’t defeated. He was amused and unpredictable, and at times surprisingly shocking; he impressed upon his young friend, with a straightforwardness that unsettled her more than he realized, that she needed to make sure her mother, when she finally saw her, didn’t get anything out of her about what Mrs. Beale might have said to him. He came and went; he jokingly claimed to take huge precautions; he had a clear tendency to play around. He teased Mrs. Wix until she turned purple with enjoyment, and reminded Maisie of the silence he expected from her until she felt like a captor in a distant land. Her lessons during those first days and indeed for a long time afterward seemed to revolve entirely around Sir Claude, yet she never truly told Mrs. Wix that she was ready, under his inspiring direction, to suffer in vain. This lady, however, had clearly understood the situation without needing instruction. Her explanation for everything that felt a bit uncomfortable—and if her own position was precarious, it dealt with that danger too—was that Lady was deeply in love. Maisie accepted this suggestion with immense awe and held onto it tightly when she was finally called into her mother's presence.

There she encountered matters amid which it seemed really to help to give her a clue—an almost terrifying strangeness, full, none the less, after a little, of reverberations of Ida's old fierce and demonstrative recoveries of possession. They had been some time in the house together, and this demonstration came late. Preoccupied, however, as Maisie was with the idea of the sentiment Sir Claude had inspired, and familiar, in addition, by Mrs. Wix's anecdotes, with the ravages that in general such a sentiment could produce, she was able to make allowances for her ladyship's remarkable appearance, her violent splendour, the wonderful colour of her lips and even the hard stare, the stare of some gorgeous idol described in a story-book, that had come into her eyes in consequence of a curious thickening of their already rich circumference. Her professions and explanations were mixed with eager challenges and sudden drops, in the midst of which Maisie recognised as a memory of other years the rattle of her trinkets and the scratch of her endearments, the odour of her clothes and the jumps of her conversation. She had all her old clever way—Mrs. Wix said it was "aristocratic"—of changing the subject as she might have slammed the door in your face. The principal thing that was different was the tint of her golden hair, which had changed to a coppery red and, with the head it profusely covered, struck the child as now lifted still further aloft. This picturesque parent showed literally a grander stature and a nobler presence, things which, with some others that might have been bewildering, were handsomely accounted for by the romantic state of her affections. It was her affections, Maisie could easily see, that led Ida to break out into questions as to what had passed at the other house between that horrible woman and Sir Claude; but it was also just here that the little girl was able to recall the effect with which in earlier days she had practised the pacific art of stupidity. This art again came to her aid: her mother, in getting rid of her after an interview in which she had achieved a hollowness beyond her years, allowed her fully to understand she had not grown a bit more amusing.

There she faced situations where it felt like it really helped to give her a hint—an almost frightening strangeness that, nonetheless, after a moment, echoed Ida’s old intense and demonstrative regaining of control. They had been living together in the house for some time, and this display came late. However, since Maisie was focused on the feelings Sir Claude had stirred in her, and was additionally familiar, thanks to Mrs. Wix’s stories, with the damage such feelings could generally cause, she could make allowances for her ladyship’s striking appearance, her intense beauty, the vibrant color of her lips, and even the hard gaze, the gaze of some beautiful idol described in a storybook, that had come into her eyes due to a curious thickening of their already rich shape. Her declarations and explanations were mixed with eager challenges and sudden stops, in the middle of which Maisie recognized, as a memory from earlier years, the clinking of her jewelry and the scratching of her affectionate words, the scent of her clothes, and the leaps in her speech. She still had her old clever way—Mrs. Wix said it was “aristocratic”—of changing the subject as if she were slamming a door in your face. The main thing that was different was the shade of her golden hair, which had turned a coppery red and, along with the head it abundantly covered, made the girl feel that it was now lifted even higher. This striking mother literally displayed a greater stature and a more noble presence—things that, along with some other possibly confusing traits, were nicely explained by the romantic state of her emotions. It was her emotions, Maisie could easily see, that prompted Ida to burst into questions about what had happened at the other house between that awful woman and Sir Claude; but it was also here that the little girl remembered the effect with which, in earlier days, she had practiced the peaceful art of being deliberately dull. This skill came to her aid again: her mother, while dismissing her after an encounter in which she had displayed a hollowness beyond her years, made it clear that she hadn’t become any more entertaining.

She could bear that; she could bear anything that helped her to feel she had done something for Sir Claude. If she hadn't told Mrs. Wix how Mrs. Beale seemed to like him she certainly couldn't tell her ladyship. In the way the past revived for her there was a queer confusion. It was because mamma hated papa that she used to want to know bad things of him; but if at present she wanted to know the same of Sir Claude it was quite from the opposite motive. She was awestruck at the manner in which a lady might be affected through the passion mentioned by Mrs. Wix; she held her breath with the sense of picking her steps among the tremendous things of life. What she did, however, now, after the interview with her mother, impart to Mrs. Wix was that, in spite of her having had her "good" effect, as she called it—the effect she studied, the effect of harmless vacancy—her ladyship's last words had been that her ladyship's duty by her would be thoroughly done. Over this announcement governess and pupil looked at each other in silent profundity; but as the weeks went by it had no consequences that interfered gravely with the breezy gallop of making up. Her ladyship's duty took at times the form of not seeing her child for days together, and Maisie led her life in great prosperity between Mrs. Wix and kind Sir Claude. Mrs. Wix had a new dress and, as she was the first to proclaim, a better position; so it all struck Maisie as a crowded brilliant life, with, for the time, Mrs. Beale and Susan Ash simply "left out" like children not invited to a Christmas party. Mrs. Wix had a secret terror which, like most of her secret feelings, she discussed with her little companion, in great solemnity, by the hour: the possibility of her ladyship's coming down on them, in her sudden highbred way, with a school. But she had also a balm to this fear in a conviction of the strength of Sir Claude's grasp of the situation. He was too pleased—didn't he constantly say as much?—with the good impression made, in a wide circle, by Ida's sacrifices; and he came into the schoolroom repeatedly to let them know how beautifully he felt everything had gone off and everything would go on.

She could handle that; she could handle anything that made her feel like she had done something for Sir Claude. If she hadn’t told Mrs. Wix how much Mrs. Beale seemed to like him, she definitely couldn’t tell her ladyship. In the way the past came back to her, there was a strange confusion. It was because her mom hated her dad that she used to want to know bad things about him; but if she currently wanted to know the same about Sir Claude, it was for completely different reasons. She was amazed at how a lady could be affected by the feelings mentioned by Mrs. Wix; she held her breath, aware of treading carefully among the significant things in life. What she shared with Mrs. Wix after her talk with her mother was that, despite having had her "good" effect, as she referred to it—the effect she studied, the effect of harmless emptiness—her ladyship’s last words had been that her ladyship’s duty to her would be completely fulfilled. Over this announcement, the governess and pupil exchanged a deep, silent look; but as the weeks passed, it didn’t lead to anything that seriously interrupted the easy flow of their lives. Her ladyship’s duty sometimes looked like not seeing her child for days, and Maisie enjoyed a fulfilling life between Mrs. Wix and kind Sir Claude. Mrs. Wix had a new dress and, as she was the first to announce, an improved position; so it all felt to Maisie like a vibrant, busy life, with Mrs. Beale and Susan Ash just “left out” like kids not invited to a Christmas party. Mrs. Wix harbored a secret fear, which, like most of her hidden feelings, she solemnly discussed with her little companion for hours: the possibility of her ladyship suddenly coming down on them with a school. But she also found comfort in her belief that Sir Claude had a strong grip on the situation. He was too pleased—didn’t he always say so?—with the positive impression made by Ida’s sacrifices; and he frequently came into the schoolroom to let them know how beautifully he felt everything had gone and would continue to go.

He disappeared at times for days, when his patient friends understood that her ladyship would naturally absorb him; but he always came back with the drollest stories of where he had been, a wonderful picture of society, and even with pretty presents that showed how in absence he thought of his home. Besides giving Mrs. Wix by his conversation a sense that they almost themselves "went out," he gave her a five-pound note and the history of France and an umbrella with a malachite knob, and to Maisie both chocolate-creams and story-books, besides a lovely greatcoat (which he took her out all alone to buy) and ever so many games in boxes, with printed directions, and a bright red frame for the protection of his famous photograph. The games were, as he said, to while away the evening hour; and the evening hour indeed often passed in futile attempts on Mrs. Wix's part to master what "it said" on the papers. When he asked the pair how they liked the games they always replied "Oh immensely!" but they had earnest discussions as to whether they hadn't better appeal to him frankly for aid to understand them. This was a course their delicacy shrank from; they couldn't have told exactly why, but it was a part of their tenderness for him not to let him think they had trouble. What dazzled most was his kindness to Mrs. Wix, not only the five-pound note and the "not forgetting" her, but the perfect consideration, as she called it with an air to which her sounding of the words gave the only grandeur Maisie was to have seen her wear save on a certain occasion hereafter to be described, an occasion when the poor lady was grander than all of them put together. He shook hands with her, he recognised her, as she said, and above all, more than once, he took her, with his stepdaughter, to the pantomime and, in the crowd, coming out, publicly gave her his arm. When he met them in sunny Piccadilly he made merry and turned and walked with them, heroically suppressing his consciousness of the stamp of his company, a heroism that—needless for Mrs. Wix to sound those words—her ladyship, though a blood-relation, was little enough the woman to be capable of. Even to the hard heart of childhood there was something tragic in such elation at such humanities: it brought home to Maisie the way her humble companion had sidled and ducked through life. But it settled the question of the degree to which Sir Claude was a gentleman: he was more of one than anybody else in the world—"I don't care," Mrs. Wix repeatedly remarked, "whom you may meet in grand society, nor even to whom you may be contracted in marriage." There were questions that Maisie never asked; so her governess was spared the embarrassment of telling her if he were more of a gentleman than papa. This was not moreover from the want of opportunity, for there were no moments between them at which the topic could be irrelevant, no subject they were going into, not even the principal dates or the auxiliary verbs, in which it was further off than the turn of the page. The answer on the winter nights to the puzzle of cards and counters and little bewildering pamphlets was just to draw up to the fire and talk about him; and if the truth must be told this edifying interchange constituted for the time the little girl's chief education.

He sometimes vanished for days, and his patient friends understood that she would naturally occupy his time; but he always returned with the funniest stories about where he had been, painting a vivid picture of society. He brought back thoughtful gifts that showed he thought of home while he was away. In her conversations with Mrs. Wix, he made her feel like they almost "went out" themselves. He gave Mrs. Wix a five-pound note, the history of France, and an umbrella with a malachite handle. For Maisie, he brought chocolate creams and storybooks, a beautiful greatcoat (which he took her out to buy alone), and a bunch of boxed games with printed instructions, along with a bright red frame for his famous photograph. He insisted the games were meant to pass the evening, though many evenings ended with Mrs. Wix futilely trying to understand the instructions. Whenever he asked how they liked the games, they always responded with "Oh, immensely!" but they seriously discussed whether they should just ask him for help. Their sensitivity prevented them from doing that; they couldn't quite explain why, but it was part of their affection for him not to let him know they were struggling. What stood out most was his kindness toward Mrs. Wix—not just the five-pound note and remembering her, but the perfect consideration she mentioned with a tone that gave her an air of dignity, a grandeur Maisie would only see her portray on a future occasion yet to be described, where the poor woman seemed more impressive than all of them combined. He shook her hand, recognized her, and most importantly, more than once took her with his stepdaughter to the pantomime, publicly offering her his arm in the crowd as they exited. When he encountered them in sunny Piccadilly, he joked and walked with them, heroically suppressing any awareness of what people might think about who he was with—a bravery that, needless to say, Mrs. Wix didn’t have to point out—his ladyship, despite being related by blood, was hardly the kind of woman capable of such a thing. Even to the innocent eyes of childhood, there was something tragic in how happy he was to show such affection; it made Maisie acutely aware of how her humble companion had navigated life. But it confirmed how much of a gentleman Sir Claude was: more than anyone else in the world—"I don't care," Mrs. Wix often remarked, "whom you may encounter in high society, or even who you may be engaged to." There were questions Maisie never asked, which spared her governess the awkwardness of explaining whether he was more of a gentleman than her father. This wasn't due to a lack of opportunity; there were no moments when the topic wouldn't be relevant, no subject they could discuss, not even the most basic dates or auxiliary verbs, that didn't lead back to him. On winter nights, instead of solving puzzles with cards, counters, and confusing pamphlets, they would simply gather by the fire and talk about him; and to be honest, this enlightening exchange became the little girl's main form of education for the time being.

It must also be admitted that he took them far, further perhaps than was always warranted by the old-fashioned conscience, the dingy decencies, of Maisie's simple instructress. There were hours when Mrs. Wix sighingly testified to the scruples she surmounted, seemed to ask what other line one could take with a young person whose experience had been, as it were, so peculiar. "It isn't as if you didn't already know everything, is it, love?" and "I can't make you any worse than you are, can I, darling?"—these were the terms in which the good lady justified to herself and her pupil her pleasant conversational ease. What the pupil already knew was indeed rather taken for granted than expressed, but it performed the useful function of transcending all textbooks and supplanting all studies. If the child couldn't be worse it was a comfort even to herself that she was bad—a comfort offering a broad firm support to the fundamental fact of the present crisis: the fact that mamma was fearfully jealous. This was another side of the circumstance of mamma's passion, and the deep couple in the schoolroom were not long in working round to it. It brought them face to face with the idea of the inconvenience suffered by any lady who marries a gentleman producing on other ladies the charming effect of Sir Claude. That such ladies wouldn't be able to help falling in love with him was a reflexion naturally irritating to his wife. One day when some accident, some crash of a banged door or some scurry of a scared maid, had rendered this truth particularly vivid, Maisie, receptive and profound, suddenly said to her companion: "And you, my dear, are you in love with him too?" Even her profundity had left a margin for a laugh; so she was a trifle startled by the solemn promptitude with which Mrs. Wix plumped out: "Over head and ears. I've never since you ask me, been so far gone."

It has to be acknowledged that he pushed their boundaries pretty far, maybe even more than was actually justified by the old-fashioned morals and shabby standards of Maisie's straightforward teacher. There were moments when Mrs. Wix would sigh and mention the scruples she managed to overcome, almost asking what alternative approach one could take with a young person whose experiences had been, in a way, so unique. "It’s not like you don’t already know everything, is it, dear?" and "I can't make you any worse than you already are, can I, darling?"—these were the thoughts that the kind lady used to convince herself and her student of her relaxed approach to conversation. What the student already understood was more assumed than stated, but it played a helpful role in going beyond all the textbooks and replacing all the lessons. If the child couldn’t be any worse, it was at least comforting for Mrs. Wix herself that she was considered bad—a comfort that provided strong support for the core issue at hand: that mamma was extremely jealous. This was another aspect of mamma's intense feelings, and it didn’t take long for the close duo in the classroom to arrive at this topic. It prompted them to confront the idea of how inconvenient it could be for any lady who married a man like Sir Claude, who had such a charming effect on other women. The thought that those women wouldn’t be able to help falling for him was something that naturally annoyed his wife. One day, when some incident—like a slammed door or a frightened maid rushing around—had made this truth particularly obvious, Maisie, open and thoughtful, suddenly asked her companion: "And you, my dear, are you in love with him too?" Even her depth left room for humor, so she was a little taken aback by the serious eagerness with which Mrs. Wix replied: "Head over heels. I’ve *never* been so smitten since you asked me."

This boldness had none the less no effect of deterrence for her when, a few days later—it was because several had elapsed without a visit from Sir Claude—her governess turned the tables. "May I ask you, miss, if you are?" Mrs. Wix brought it out, she could see, with hesitation, but clearly intending a joke. "Why rather!" the child made answer, as if in surprise at not having long ago seemed sufficiently to commit herself; on which her friend gave a sigh of apparent satisfaction. It might in fact have expressed positive relief. Everything was as it should be.

This boldness didn’t deter her when, a few days later—it was because several days had gone by without a visit from Sir Claude—her governess turned the tables. "May I ask you, miss, if you are?" Mrs. Wix said, clearly hesitant but intending it as a joke. "Why of course!" the child replied, as if surprised that she hadn't made her feelings clear long ago; her friend sighed with what seemed like satisfaction. It might have even shown relief. Everything was as it should be.

Yet it was not with them, they were very sure, that her ladyship was furious, nor because she had forbidden it that there befell at last a period—six months brought it round—when for days together he scarcely came near them. He was "off," and Ida was "off," and they were sometimes off together and sometimes apart; there were seasons when the simple students had the house to themselves, when the very servants seemed also to be "off" and dinner became a reckless forage in pantries and sideboards. Mrs. Wix reminded her disciple on such occasions—hungry moments often, when all the support of the reminder was required—that the "real life" of their companions, the brilliant society in which it was inevitable they should move and the complicated pleasures in which it was almost presumptuous of the mind to follow them, must offer features literally not to be imagined without being seen. At one of these times Maisie found her opening it out that, though the difficulties were many, it was Mrs. Beale who had now become the chief. Then somehow it was brought fully to the child's knowledge that her stepmother had been making attempts to see her, that her mother had deeply resented it, that her stepfather had backed her stepmother up, that the latter had pretended to be acting as the representative of her father, and that her mother took the whole thing, in plain terms, very hard. The situation was, as Mrs. Wix declared, an extraordinary muddle to be sure. Her account of it brought back to Maisie the happy vision of the way Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale had made acquaintance—an incident to which, with her stepfather, though she had had little to say about it to Mrs. Wix, she had during the first weeks of her stay at her mother's found more than one opportunity to revert. As to what had taken place the day Sir Claude came for her, she had been vaguely grateful to Mrs. Wix for not attempting, as her mother had attempted, to put her through. That was what Sir Claude had called the process when he warned her of it, and again afterwards when he told her she was an awfully good "chap" for having foiled it. Then it was that, well aware Mrs. Beale hadn't in the least really given her up, she had asked him if he remained in communication with her and if for the time everything must really be held to be at an end between her stepmother and herself. This conversation had occurred in consequence of his one day popping into the schoolroom and finding Maisie alone.

Yet they were very sure that her ladyship wasn't furious with them, nor was it because she had forbidden it that there eventually came a time—after six months—when he barely came near them for days at a time. He was "off," and Ida was "off," and sometimes they were off together and sometimes separately; there were times when the simple students had the house to themselves, and even the servants seemed to be "off," making dinner a wild search through pantries and sideboards. Mrs. Wix reminded her student during these occasions—often during hungry moments when the reminder was greatly needed—that the "real life" of their companions, the glamorous society they were bound to encounter, and the complicated pleasures that it was almost presumptuous for their minds to pursue, must include aspects that could only be fully grasped through experience. During one of these moments, Maisie opened up about the fact that, despite the many difficulties, it was Mrs. Beale who had now become the main issue. Then, somehow, it became clear to the child that her stepmother had been trying to see her, that her mother had strongly resented this, that her stepfather supported her stepmother, and that the latter had pretended to act on her father's behalf, while her mother took the entire situation very hard. Mrs. Wix said the situation was certainly an extraordinary mess. Her explanation reminded Maisie of the happy memory of how Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale had met—a moment she had often discussed with her stepfather during the first weeks of her stay with her mother, even though she had said little about it to Mrs. Wix. As for what happened the day Sir Claude came for her, she had been vaguely grateful to Mrs. Wix for not trying to put her through the same process her mother had attempted. Sir Claude had referred to that process when he warned her about it and again later when he called her an awfully good "chap" for having avoided it. It was then that, fully aware that Mrs. Beale hadn't really given her up, she asked him if he was still in touch with her and if everything truly had to be considered over between her stepmother and herself. This conversation happened when he one day stopped by the schoolroom and found Maisie alone.

 

 

X
 

He was smoking a cigarette and he stood before the fire and looked at the meagre appointments of the room in a way that made her rather ashamed of them. Then before (on the subject of Mrs. Beale) he let her "draw" him—that was another of his words; it was astonishing how many she gathered in—he remarked that really mamma kept them rather low on the question of decorations. Mrs. Wix had put up a Japanese fan and two rather grim texts; she had wished they were gayer, but they were all she happened to have. Without Sir Claude's photograph, however, the place would have been, as he said, as dull as a cold dinner. He had said as well that there were all sorts of things they ought to have; yet governess and pupil, it had to be admitted, were still divided between discussing the places where any sort of thing would look best if any sort of thing should ever come and acknowledging that mutability in the child's career which was naturally unfavourable to accumulation. She stayed long enough only to miss things, not half long enough to deserve them. The way Sir Claude looked about the schoolroom had made her feel with humility as if it were not very different from the shabby attic in which she had visited Susan Ash. Then he had said in abrupt reference to Mrs. Beale: "Do you think she really cares for you?"

He was smoking a cigarette, standing in front of the fire, and looking at the sparse furnishings of the room in a way that made her feel a bit embarrassed about them. Then, when the subject of Mrs. Beale came up, he let her "draw" him—that was another one of his terms; it was amazing how many she picked up—he commented that their mother really kept things rather basic when it came to decorations. Mrs. Wix had hung up a Japanese fan and two pretty grim quotes; she had wished for something more colorful, but that was all she had. Without Sir Claude's photograph, though, the place would have been, as he put it, as dull as a cold dinner. He also mentioned there were all sorts of things they should have; yet, the governess and the student had to admit they were still stuck between discussing where any sort of decoration would look best if they ever got any and acknowledging the child's unpredictable future, which naturally didn’t favor collecting things. She stayed long enough to notice what was missing, but not long enough to deserve them. The way Sir Claude looked around the schoolroom made her feel humbly as if it wasn’t much different from the shabby attic she had visited with Susan Ash. Then he suddenly asked about Mrs. Beale: "Do you think she really cares for you?"

"Oh awfully!" Maisie had replied.

"Oh no!" Maisie had replied.

"But, I mean, does she love you for yourself, as they call it, don't you know? Is she as fond of you, now, as Mrs. Wix?"

"But, I mean, does she love you for who you are, you know what I mean? Is she as crazy about you now as Mrs. Wix is?"

The child turned it over. "Oh I'm not every bit Mrs. Beale has!"

The child flipped it over. "Oh, I'm not even close to being like Mrs. Beale!"

Sir Claude seemed much amused at this. "No; you're not every bit she has!"

Sir Claude seemed quite amused by this. "No; you're not even close to what she has!"

He laughed for some moments, but that was an old story to Maisie, who was not too much disconcerted to go on: "But she'll never give me up."

He laughed for a while, but that was an old story to Maisie, who wasn't too bothered to continue: "But she'll never give me up."

"Well, I won't either, old boy: so that's not so wonderful, and she's not the only one. But if she's so fond of you, why doesn't she write to you?"

"Well, I won't either, man: so that's not so great, and she's not the only one. But if she cares about you so much, why doesn't she write to you?"

"Oh on account of mamma." This was rudimentary, and she was almost surprised at the simplicity of Sir Claude's question.

"Oh, because of mom." This was basic, and she was almost taken aback by how straightforward Sir Claude's question was.

"I see—that's quite right," he answered. "She might get at you—there are all sorts of ways. But of course there's Mrs. Wix."

"I understand—that's true," he replied. "She could reach you—there are plenty of ways. But then, there's Mrs. Wix."

"There's Mrs. Wix," Maisie lucidly concurred. "Mrs. Wix can't abide her."

"There's Mrs. Wix," Maisie clearly agreed. "Mrs. Wix can't stand her."

Sir Claude seemed interested. "Oh she can't abide her? Then what does she say about her?"

Sir Claude seemed interested. "Oh, she can't stand her? Then what does she say about her?"

"Nothing at all—because she knows I shouldn't like it. Isn't it sweet of her?" the child asked.

"Nothing at all—because she knows I wouldn't like it. Isn't that sweet of her?" the child asked.

"Certainly; rather nice. Mrs. Beale wouldn't hold her tongue for any such thing as that, would she?"

"Sure, that's pretty nice. Mrs. Beale wouldn't stay quiet about anything like that, would she?"

Maisie remembered how little she had done so; but she desired to protect Mrs. Beale too. The only protection she could think of, however, was the plea: "Oh at papa's, you know, they don't mind!"

Maisie recalled how little she had done to help; but she wanted to protect Mrs. Beale as well. The only way she could think to do that, though, was to say, "Oh, at dad's, you know, they don't mind!"

At this Sir Claude only smiled. "No, I dare say not. But here we mind, don't we?—we take care what we say. I don't suppose it's a matter on which I ought to prejudice you," he went on; "but I think we must on the whole be rather nicer here than at your father's. However, I don't press that; for it's the sort of question on which it's awfully awkward for you to speak. Don't worry, at any rate: I assure you I'll back you up." Then after a moment and while he smoked he reverted to Mrs. Beale and the child's first enquiry. "I'm afraid we can't do much for her just now. I haven't seen her since that day—upon my word I haven't seen her." The next instant, with a laugh the least bit foolish, the young man slightly coloured: he must have felt this profession of innocence to be excessive as addressed to Maisie. It was inevitable to say to her, however, that of course her mother loathed the lady of the other house. He couldn't go there again with his wife's consent, and he wasn't the man—he begged her to believe, falling once more, in spite of himself, into the scruple of showing the child he didn't trip—to go there without it. He was liable in talking with her to take the tone of her being also a man of the world. He had gone to Mrs. Beale's to fetch away Maisie, but that was altogether different. Now that she was in her mother's house what pretext had he to give her mother for paying calls on her father's wife? And of course Mrs. Beale couldn't come to Ida's—Ida would tear her limb from limb. Maisie, with this talk of pretexts, remembered how much Mrs. Beale had made of her being a good one, and how, for such a function, it was her fate to be either much depended on or much missed. Sir Claude moreover recognised on this occasion that perhaps things would take a turn later on; and he wound up by saying: "I'm sure she does sincerely care for you—how can she possibly help it? She's very young and very pretty and very clever: I think she's charming. But we must walk very straight. If you'll help me, you know, I'll help you," he concluded in the pleasant fraternising, equalising, not a bit patronising way which made the child ready to go through anything for him and the beauty of which, as she dimly felt, was that it was so much less a deceitful descent to her years than a real indifference to them.

At this, Sir Claude just smiled. "No, I certainly don’t think so. But here we are careful, right?—we watch what we say. I don’t think it’s something I should bias you on," he continued; "but I believe we have a nicer situation here than at your father's. Still, I won't push it; it's a tricky topic for you to discuss. Don't stress about it, though: I promise I’ll support you." After a moment, while he smoked, he brought the conversation back to Mrs. Beale and the child's initial question. "I'm afraid we can't do much for her at the moment. I haven't seen her since that day—I really haven’t." The next second, with a slightly silly laugh, the young man blushed a bit: he must have felt that this declaration of innocence was a bit much when talking to Maisie. However, it was necessary to tell her that, of course, her mother couldn't stand the woman from the other house. He couldn’t go back there without his wife's permission, and he honestly hoped she'd believe he wouldn’t go there without it. In talking with her, he risked sounding like someone who was also worldly. He had gone to Mrs. Beale's to pick up Maisie, but that was entirely different. Now that she was at her mother's house, what excuse could he give her mother for visiting her father's wife? And of course, Mrs. Beale couldn’t come to Ida’s—Ida would absolutely tear her apart. Maisie, with this talk of excuses, recalled how much Mrs. Beale had emphasized that she was a good one, and how, for such a role, it was her fate to either be heavily relied upon or deeply missed. Sir Claude also acknowledged this time that things might change later; and he wrapped up by saying: "I'm sure she really cares about you—how could she not? She's very young, very pretty, and very clever: I think she's lovely. But we have to be really careful. If you help me, you know I’ll help you," he finished in a friendly, equal way that made the child willing to do anything for him, and the beauty of which, as she vaguely sensed, was that it was much less a deceptive approach to her age than a true indifference to it.

It gave her moments of secret rapture—moments of believing she might help him indeed. The only mystification in this was the imposing time of life that her elders spoke of as youth. For Sir Claude then Mrs. Beale was "young," just as for Mrs. Wix Sir Claude was: that was one of the merits for which Mrs. Wix most commended him. What therefore was Maisie herself, and, in another relation to the matter, what therefore was mamma? It took her some time to puzzle out with the aid of an experiment or two that it wouldn't do to talk about mamma's youth. She even went so far one day, in the presence of that lady's thick colour and marked lines, as to wonder if it would occur to any one but herself to do so. Yet if she wasn't young then she was old; and this threw an odd light on her having a husband of a different generation. Mr. Farange was still older—that Maisie perfectly knew; and it brought her in due course to the perception of how much more, since Mrs. Beale was younger than Sir Claude, papa must be older than Mrs. Beale. Such discoveries were disconcerting and even a trifle confounding: these persons, it appeared, were not of the age they ought to be. This was somehow particularly the case with mamma, and the fact made her reflect with some relief on her not having gone with Mrs. Wix into the question of Sir Claude's attachment to his wife. She was conscious that in confining their attention to the state of her ladyship's own affections they had been controlled—Mrs. Wix perhaps in especial—by delicacy and even by embarrassment. The end of her colloquy with her stepfather in the schoolroom was her saying: "Then if we're not to see Mrs. Beale at all it isn't what she seemed to think when you came for me."

It gave her moments of secret joy—moments when she believed she might actually help him. The only confusing part was the significant stage of life that her elders referred to as youth. For Sir Claude, Mrs. Beale was "young," just as Mrs. Wix regarded Sir Claude: that was one of the reasons Mrs. Wix praised him. So what was Maisie herself, and in relation to the matter, what was her mom? It took her some time to figure out, with the help of a few experiments, that it wouldn’t be appropriate to talk about her mom's youth. One day, in the presence of her mom’s flushed complexion and noticeable wrinkles, she even wondered if anyone else would think to bring it up. Yet if she wasn’t young, then she must be old; and this shed an odd light on the fact that her mom had a husband from a different generation. Mr. Farange was even older—that much Maisie knew for sure; and in due time, it made her realize how much older her dad must be than Mrs. Beale since Mrs. Beale was younger than Sir Claude. Such realizations were unsettling and even a bit confusing: it seemed these people were not the ages they ought to be. This was especially true for her mom, which made her feel some relief for not having discussed Sir Claude's feelings for his wife with Mrs. Wix. She sensed that by focusing only on her ladyship's feelings, they had been guided—especially Mrs. Wix—by sensitivity and even embarrassment. The end of her conversation with her stepdad in the schoolroom was her saying: "So if we’re not going to see Mrs. Beale at all, then it’s not what she seemed to think when you came for me."

He looked rather blank. "What did she seem to think?"

He looked a bit confused. "What did she seem to think?"

"Why that I've brought you together."

"That's why I brought you all together."

"She thought that?" Sir Claude asked.

"She thought that?" Sir Claude asked.

Maisie was surprised at his already forgetting it. "Just as I had brought papa and her. Don't you remember she said so?"

Maisie was surprised that he had already forgotten it. "I had just brought Dad and her. Don't you remember she said that?"

It came back to Sir Claude in a peal of laughter. "Oh yes—she said so!"

It hit Sir Claude with a burst of laughter. "Oh yeah—she said that!"

"And you said so," Maisie lucidly pursued.

"And you said so," Maisie pursued.

He recovered, with increasing mirth, the whole occasion. "And you said so!" he retorted as if they were playing a game.

He remembered the whole event with growing amusement. "And you said that!" he replied as if they were playing a game.

"Then were we all mistaken?"

"Then were we all wrong?"

He considered a little. "No, on the whole not. I dare say it's just what you have done. We are together—it's really most odd. She's thinking of us—of you and me—though we don't meet. And I've no doubt you'll find it will be all right when you go back to her."

He thought for a moment. "No, not really. I guess it's just what you have done. We are together—it’s quite strange. She’s thinking about us—about you and me—even though we don’t see each other. And I’m sure you’ll find everything will be fine when you go back to her."

"Am I going back to her?" Maisie brought out with a little gasp which was like a sudden clutch of the happy present.

"Am I going back to her?" Maisie said with a slight gasp, as if she had suddenly grasped the joy of the moment.

It appeared to make Sir Claude grave a moment; it might have made him feel the weight of the pledge his action had given. "Oh some day, I suppose! We've plenty of time."

It seemed to make Sir Claude serious for a moment; it might have made him feel the weight of the promise his action had created. "Oh, someday, I guess! We have plenty of time."

"I've such a tremendous lot to make up," Maisie said with a sense of great boldness.

"I have a lot to catch up on," Maisie said confidently.

"Certainly, and you must make up every hour of it. Oh I'll see that you do!"

"Of course, and you need to make up for every single hour of it. Oh, I’ll make sure you do!"

This was encouraging; and to show cheerfully that she was reassured she replied: "That's what Mrs. Wix sees too."

This was encouraging, and to show happily that she felt reassured, she replied, "That's what Mrs. Wix sees too."

"Oh yes," said Sir Claude; "Mrs. Wix and I are shoulder to shoulder."

"Oh yeah," said Sir Claude; "Mrs. Wix and I are side by side."

Maisie took in a little this strong image; after which she exclaimed: "Then I've done it also to you and her—I've brought you together!"

Maisie absorbed this powerful image for a moment; then she exclaimed, "So I've done it to you and her too—I've brought you together!"

"Blest if you haven't!" Sir Claude laughed. "And more, upon my word, than any of the lot. Oh you've done for us! Now if you could—as I suggested, you know, that day—only manage me and your mother!"

"Blessed if you haven't!" Sir Claude laughed. "And honestly, more than any of the others. Oh, you've really taken care of us! Now, if you could—like I suggested that day—just manage me and your mom!"

The child wondered. "Bring you and her together?"

The child wondered, "Bring you and her together?"

"You see we're not together—not a bit. But I oughtn't to tell you such things; all the more that you won't really do it—not you. No, old chap," the young man continued; "there you'll break down. But it won't matter—we'll rub along. The great thing is that you and I are all right."

"You see, we’re not together—not at all. But I shouldn't share this with you; especially since you won't actually go through with it—not you. No, my friend," the young man continued, "that's where you'll stumble. But it won’t be a big deal—we’ll manage. The important thing is that you and I are okay."

"We're all right!" Maisie echoed devoutly. But the next moment, in the light of what he had just said, she asked: "How shall I ever leave you?" It was as if she must somehow take care of him.

"We're all good!" Maisie repeated sincerely. But just then, thinking about what he had just mentioned, she asked, "How can I ever leave you?" It felt like she needed to watch over him in some way.

His smile did justice to her anxiety. "Oh well, you needn't! It won't come to that."

His smile reflected her anxiety. "Oh, don't worry! It won't come to that."

"Do you mean that when I do go you'll go with me?"

"Are you saying that when I leave, you'll come with me?"

Sir Claude cast about. "Not exactly 'with' you perhaps; but I shall never be far off."

Sir Claude looked around. "Maybe not exactly 'with' you, but I’ll never be far away."

"But how do you know where mamma may take you?"

"But how do you know where Mom might take you?"

He laughed again. "I don't, I confess!" Then he had an idea, though something too jocose. "That will be for you to see—that she shan't take me too far."

He laughed again. "I don't, I admit!" Then he had an idea, even if it was a bit silly. "You'll see—that she won't take me too far."

"How can I help it?" Maisie enquired in surprise. "Mamma doesn't care for me," she said very simply. "Not really." Child as she was, her little long history was in the words; and it was as impossible to contradict her as if she had been venerable.

"How can I help it?" Maisie asked, surprised. "Mom doesn't care about me," she said very plainly. "Not really." Even as a child, her little long history was in those words; and it was just as impossible to argue with her as if she were an elder.

Sir Claude's silence was an admission of this, and still more the tone in which he presently replied: "That won't prevent her from—some time or other—leaving me with you."

Sir Claude's silence confirmed this, and even more so the way he answered: "That won't stop her from—sooner or later—leaving me with you."

"Then we'll live together?" she eagerly demanded.

"Are we going to live together then?" she asked eagerly.

"I'm afraid," said Sir Claude, smiling, "that that will be Mrs. Beale's real chance."

"I'm afraid," said Sir Claude, smiling, "that will be Mrs. Beale's real opportunity."

Her eagerness just slightly dropped at this; she remembered Mrs. Wix's pronouncement that it was all an extraordinary muddle. "To take me again? Well, can't you come to see me there?"

Her eagerness waned a bit at this; she recalled Mrs. Wix's statement that it was all an incredible mess. "You want to take me again? Well, can't you just come visit me there?"

"Oh I dare say!"

"Oh, I must say!"

Though there were parts of childhood Maisie had lost she had all childhood's preference for the particular promise. "Then you will come—you'll come often, won't you?" she insisted; while at the moment she spoke the door opened for the return of Mrs. Wix. Sir Claude hereupon, instead of replying, gave her a look which left her silent and embarrassed.

Though there were parts of her childhood that Maisie had lost, she still had all of childhood's desire for a specific promise. "Then you will come—you'll come often, won't you?" she insisted; just as she spoke, the door opened for Mrs. Wix to come back. Sir Claude, instead of answering, gave her a look that made her feel silent and embarrassed.

When he again found privacy convenient, however—which happened to be long in coming—he took up their conversation very much where it had dropped. "You see, my dear, if I shall be able to go to you at your father's it yet isn't at all the same thing for Mrs. Beale to come to you here." Maisie gave a thoughtful assent to this proposition, though conscious she could scarcely herself say just where the difference would lie. She felt how much her stepfather saved her, as he said with his habitual amusement, the trouble of that. "I shall probably be able to go to Mrs. Beale's without your mother's knowing it."

When he finally found a moment of privacy, which took a while, he picked up their conversation right where they left off. "You see, my dear, it’s not at all the same for Mrs. Beale to come to you here as it would be for me to visit you at your father's." Maisie nodded thoughtfully, even though she wasn't quite sure where the difference was. She appreciated how her stepfather, with his usual amusement, spared her the trouble of figuring that out. "I’ll probably be able to go to Mrs. Beale's without your mother finding out."

Maisie stared with a certain thrill at the dramatic element in this. "And she couldn't come here without mamma's—" She was unable to articulate the word for what mamma would do.

Maisie stared with excitement at the dramatic aspect of this. "And she couldn't come here without mom's—" She couldn't find the words for what mom would do.

"My dear child, Mrs. Wix would tell of it."

"My dear child, Mrs. Wix would share the story."

"But I thought," Maisie objected, "that Mrs. Wix and you—"

"But I thought," Maisie said, "that Mrs. Wix and you—"

"Are such brothers-in-arms?"—Sir Claude caught her up. "Oh yes, about everything but Mrs. Beale. And if you should suggest," he went on, "that we might somehow or other hide her peeping in from Mrs. Wix—"

"Are those brothers-in-arms?" Sir Claude interrupted her. "Oh yes, about everything except Mrs. Beale. And if you were to suggest," he continued, "that we might somehow keep her from spying on Mrs. Wix—"

"Oh, I don't suggest that!" Maisie in turn cut him short.

"Oh, I wouldn't recommend that!" Maisie interrupted him.

Sir Claude looked as if he could indeed quite see why. "No; it would really be impossible." There came to her from this glance at what they might hide the first small glimpse of something in him that she wouldn't have expected. There had been times when she had had to make the best of the impression that she was herself deceitful; yet she had never concealed anything bigger than a thought. Of course she now concealed this thought of how strange it would be to see him hide; and while she was so actively engaged he continued: "Besides, you know, I'm not afraid of your father."

Sir Claude looked like he could totally see why. "No; that would really be impossible." From this look at what they might be hiding, she caught a small glimpse of something in him that surprised her. There had been times when she had to make the best of the impression that she was deceitful herself; yet she had never hidden anything bigger than a thought. Of course, she was now hiding this thought about how odd it would be to see him hide; and while she was focused on that, he continued: "Besides, you know, I'm not afraid of your dad."

"And you are of my mother?"

"Are you my mother's?"

"Rather, old man!" Sir Claude returned.

"Definitely not, old man!" Sir Claude replied.

 

 

XI
 

It must not be supposed that her ladyship's intermissions were not qualified by demonstrations of another order—triumphal entries and breathless pauses during which she seemed to take of everything in the room, from the state of the ceiling to that of her daughter's boot-toes, a survey that was rich in intentions. Sometimes she sat down and sometimes she surged about, but her attitude wore equally in either case the grand air of the practical. She found so much to deplore that she left a great deal to expect, and bristled so with calculation that she seemed to scatter remedies and pledges. Her visits were as good as an outfit; her manner, as Mrs. Wix once said, as good as a pair of curtains; but she was a person addicted to extremes—sometimes barely speaking to her child and sometimes pressing this tender shoot to a bosom cut, as Mrs. Wix had also observed, remarkably low. She was always in a fearful hurry, and the lower the bosom was cut the more it was to be gathered she was wanted elsewhere. She usually broke in alone, but sometimes Sir Claude was with her, and during all the earlier period there was nothing on which these appearances had had so delightful a bearing as on the way her ladyship was, as Mrs. Wix expressed it, under the spell. "But isn't she under it!" Maisie used in thoughtful but familiar reference to exclaim after Sir Claude had swept mamma away in peals of natural laughter. Not even in the old days of the convulsed ladies had she heard mamma laugh so freely as in these moments of conjugal surrender, to the gaiety of which even a little girl could see she had at last a right—a little girl whose thoughtfulness was now all happy selfish meditation on good omens and future fun.

It shouldn’t be thought that her ladyship's breaks weren’t marked by other kinds of expressions—triumphant entrances and breathless pauses during which she seemed to take in everything around her, from the condition of the ceiling to her daughter's boot tips, with a gaze full of intentions. Sometimes she would sit down and other times she would move around energetically, but her demeanor always carried a grand, practical air. She observed so much to lament that she left plenty to hope for, and her demeanor was so calculating that it seemed she was distributing solutions and promises. Her visits were like receiving a great gift; her presence, as Mrs. Wix once put it, was like having a nice set of curtains; but she was someone who swung between extremes—sometimes barely acknowledging her child and other times pulling this delicate young thing close to a neckline that, as Mrs. Wix noted, was quite low. She was always in a hurry, and the lower the neckline, the clearer it became that she was needed elsewhere. Typically, she entered alone, but sometimes Sir Claude accompanied her, and during those earlier days, nothing seemed to have such a delightful impact as the way her ladyship appeared, as Mrs. Wix described it, to be under a spell. “But isn’t she under it!” Maisie would exclaim thoughtfully, yet casually, after Sir Claude had whisked her mother away, making her laugh like never before. Not even in the old days of the troubled ladies had she heard her mother laugh so openly as during these moments of marital surrender, where even a little girl could see she finally had a place— a little girl whose deep thinking was now filled with joyful, selfish daydreams about good signs and future fun.

Unaccompanied, in subsequent hours, and with an effect of changing to meet a change, Ida took a tone superficially disconcerting and abrupt—the tone of having, at an immense cost, made over everything to Sir Claude and wishing others to know that if everything wasn't right it was because Sir Claude was so dreadfully vague. "He has made from the first such a row about you," she said on one occasion to Maisie, "that I've told him to do for you himself and try how he likes it—see? I've washed my hands of you; I've made you over to him; and if you're discontented it's on him, please, you'll come down. So don't haul poor me up—I assure you I've worries enough." One of these, visibly, was that the spell rejoiced in by the schoolroom fire was already in danger of breaking; another was that she was finally forced to make no secret of her husband's unfitness for real responsibilities. The day came indeed when her breathless auditors learnt from her in bewilderment that what ailed him was that he was, alas, simply not serious. Maisie wept on Mrs. Wix's bosom after hearing that Sir Claude was a butterfly; considering moreover that her governess but half-patched it up in coming out at various moments the next few days with the opinion that it was proper to his "station" to be careless and free. That had been proper to every one's station that she had yet encountered save poor Mrs. Wix's own, and the particular merit of Sir Claude had seemed precisely that he was different from every one. She talked with him, however, as time went on, very freely about her mother; being with him, in this relation, wholly without the fear that had kept her silent before her father—the fear of bearing tales and making bad things worse. He appeared to accept the idea that he had taken her over and made her, as he said, his particular lark; he quite agreed also that he was an awful fraud and an idle beast and a sorry dunce. And he never said a word to her against her mother—he only remained dumb and discouraged in the face of her ladyship's own overtopping earnestness. There were occasions when he even spoke as if he had wrenched his little charge from the arms of a parent who had fought for her tooth and nail.

Unaccompanied, in the following hours, and feeling the need to adapt, Ida adopted a tone that was superficially troubling and abrupt—like someone who, at great expense, had turned everything over to Sir Claude and wanted others to know that if things weren't going well, it was because Sir Claude was so dreadfully vague. "He's made such a fuss about you from the start," she told Maisie one time, "that I've told him to handle you himself and see how he likes it—get it? I’ve washed my hands of you; I’ve handed you over to him; and if you’re unhappy, it's his problem now, so please don't pull me into this—I assure you I have enough of my own worries." One of those worries, visibly, was that the charm of the schoolroom fire was already at risk of fading; another was that she was finally forced to acknowledge her husband's unfitness for real responsibilities. The day came when her breathless listeners learned from her, in confusion, that what was wrong with him was that he was, unfortunately, simply not serious. Maisie cried on Mrs. Wix's shoulder after discovering that Sir Claude was a butterfly; moreover, her governess only partially repaired it by coming out over the next few days with the opinion that being careless and carefree was appropriate for his "station." That had been suitable for everyone else she had met except for poor Mrs. Wix, and the specific quality of Sir Claude had seemed to be that he was different from everyone else. However, as time went on, she talked very openly with him about her mother; being with him in this context, she felt completely free of the fear that had kept her silent around her father—the fear of telling tales and worsening things. He seemed to accept that he had taken her on and made her, as he put it, his special adventure; he also agreed that he was a terrible fraud, a lazy slacker, and a sorry fool. And he never said a word against her mother—he just stayed silent and discouraged in the face of her ladyship's overwhelming seriousness. There were times when he even spoke as if he had rescued his little charge from a parent who had fought tooth and nail for her.

This was the very moral of a scene that flashed into vividness one day when the four happened to meet without company in the drawing-room and Maisie found herself clutched to her mother's breast and passionately sobbed and shrieked over, made the subject of a demonstration evidently sequent to some sharp passage just enacted. The connexion required that while she almost cradled the child in her arms Ida should speak of her as hideously, as fatally estranged, and should rail at Sir Claude as the cruel author of the outrage. "He has taken you from me," she cried; "he has set you against me, and you've been won away and your horrid little mind has been poisoned! You've gone over to him, you've given yourself up to side against me and hate me. You never open your mouth to me—you know you don't; and you chatter to him like a dozen magpies. Don't lie about it—I hear you all over the place. You hang about him in a way that's barely decent—he can do what he likes with you. Well then, let him, to his heart's content: he has been in such a hurry to take you that we'll see if it suits him to keep you. I'm very good to break my heart about it when you've no more feeling for me than a clammy little fish!" She suddenly thrust the child away and, as a disgusted admission of failure, sent her flying across the room into the arms of Mrs. Wix, whom at this moment and even in the whirl of her transit Maisie saw, very red, exchange a quick queer look with Sir Claude.

This was the exact lesson of a scene that suddenly became clear one day when the four happened to meet alone in the living room. Maisie found herself held tightly in her mother’s arms, sobbing and screaming, the focus of an emotional outburst clearly following some intense argument that just happened. The situation required that while she nearly cradled the child, Ida would talk about her as being horribly, tragically distant and would criticize Sir Claude as the cruel reason for this distress. “He has taken you from me,” she exclaimed; “he has turned you against me, and you’ve been taken away and your awful little mind has been poisoned! You’ve sided with him, you’ve completely given yourself up to hate me. You never say a word to me—you know you don’t; yet you talk to him like a flock of magpies. Don’t deny it—I can hear you everywhere. You follow him around in a way that’s hardly proper—he can do whatever he wants with you. Well then, let him, if that’s what he’s in such a rush for: we'll see if he can handle keeping you. I’m really heartbroken over this when you show no more feeling for me than a slimy little fish!” She abruptly pushed the child away and, in a frustrated show of defeat, sent her flying across the room into Mrs. Wix's arms, who at that moment, even in the midst of the chaos, Maisie noticed, exchanged a quick, strange look with Sir Claude.

The impression of the look remained with her, confronting her with such a critical little view of her mother's explosion that she felt the less ashamed of herself for incurring the reproach with which she had been cast off. Her father had once called her a heartless little beast, and now, though decidedly scared, she was as stiff and cold as if the description had been just. She was not even frightened enough to cry, which would have been a tribute to her mother's wrongs: she was only, more than anything else, curious about the opinion mutely expressed by their companions. Taking the earliest opportunity to question Mrs. Wix on this subject she elicited the remarkable reply: "Well, my dear, it's her ladyship's game, and we must just hold on like grim death."

The memory of that look stuck with her, making her face a critical little view of her mother's outburst, which made her feel less ashamed of being cast aside. Her father had once called her a heartless little beast, and now, even though she was definitely scared, she felt as stiff and cold as if his words were true. She wasn't even scared enough to cry, which would have shown some respect for her mother's wrongs; she was just, more than anything, curious about what their companions silently thought. Seizing the first chance to ask Mrs. Wix about it, she got the surprising answer: "Well, my dear, it's her ladyship's game, and we just have to hold on like grim death."

Maisie could interpret at her leisure these ominous words. Her reflexions indeed at this moment thickened apace, and one of them made her sure that her governess had conversations, private, earnest and not infrequent, with her denounced stepfather. She perceived in the light of a second episode that something beyond her knowledge had taken place in the house. The things beyond her knowledge—numerous enough in truth—had not hitherto, she believed, been the things that had been nearest to her: she had even had in the past a small smug conviction that in the domestic labyrinth she always kept the clue. This time too, however, she at last found out—with the discreet aid, it had to be confessed, of Mrs. Wix. Sir Claude's own assistance was abruptly taken from her, for his comment on her ladyship's game was to start on the spot, quite alone, for Paris, evidently because he wished to show a spirit when accused of bad behaviour. He might be fond of his stepdaughter, Maisie felt, without wishing her to be after all thrust on him in such a way; his absence therefore, it was clear, was a protest against the thrusting. It was while this absence lasted that our young lady finally discovered what had happened in the house to be that her mother was no longer in love.

Maisie could take her time to interpret these ominous words. At that moment, her thoughts were piling up quickly, and one of them made her certain that her governess had private, serious, and not infrequent discussions with her accused stepfather. She understood, after another incident, that something beyond her awareness had occurred in the house. The unknown things—plentiful enough, really—had not previously been the things nearest to her: she had even had a small, smug belief that she always had the key to the domestic maze. This time, however, she finally figured it out—with the discreet help, it must be said, of Mrs. Wix. Sir Claude’s support was suddenly taken away from her, as his response to her ladyship’s situation was to leave immediately for Paris, clearly because he wanted to show a brave face when accused of wrongdoing. Maisie sensed he might care for his stepdaughter but didn’t want her to be forced upon him that way; his absence clearly served as a protest against that pressure. During this absence, our young lady finally discovered that what had happened in the house was that her mother was no longer in love.

The limit of a passion for Sir Claude had certainly been reached, she judged, some time before the day on which her ladyship burst suddenly into the schoolroom to introduce Mr. Perriam, who, as she announced from the doorway to Maisie, wouldn't believe his ears that one had a great hoyden of a daughter. Mr. Perriam was short and massive—Mrs. Wix remarked afterwards that he was "too fat for the pace"; and it would have been difficult to say of him whether his head were more bald or his black moustache more bushy. He seemed also to have moustaches over his eyes, which, however, by no means prevented these polished little globes from rolling round the room as if they had been billiard-balls impelled by Ida's celebrated stroke. Mr. Perriam wore on the hand that pulled his moustache a diamond of dazzling lustre, in consequence of which and of his general weight and mystery our young lady observed on his departure that if he had only had a turban he would have been quite her idea of a heathen Turk.

The limit of Sir Claude's passion had definitely been reached, she thought, some time before the day her ladyship suddenly entered the schoolroom to introduce Mr. Perriam, who, as she announced from the doorway to Maisie, could hardly believe that someone had such a wild daughter. Mr. Perriam was short and hefty—Mrs. Wix later commented that he was "too fat for the pace"; and it was hard to tell whether his head was more bald or his black moustache more bushy. He also seemed to have moustaches over his eyes, which didn't stop those shiny little spheres from rolling around the room as if they were billiard balls propelled by Ida's famous stroke. Mr. Perriam wore a dazzling diamond on the hand that tugged at his moustache, and because of this and his overall bulk and enigma, our young lady noted on his way out that if he had just had a turban, he would have perfectly fit her idea of a heathen Turk.

"He's quite my idea," Mrs. Wix replied, "of a heathen Jew."

"He's exactly what I imagine a heathen Jew to be," Mrs. Wix replied.

"Well, I mean," said Maisie, "of a person who comes from the East."

"Well, I mean," said Maisie, "of someone who comes from the East."

"That's where he must come from," her governess opined—"he comes from the City." In a moment she added as if she knew all about him. "He's one of those people who have lately broken out. He'll be immensely rich."

"That's where he must be from," her governess said. "He comes from the City." A moment later, she added as if she knew everything about him, "He's one of those people who have recently made a fortune. He'll be super wealthy."

"On the death of his papa?" the child interestedly enquired.

"On the death of his dad?" the child asked with interest.

"Dear no—nothing hereditary. I mean he has made a mass of money."

"Dear no—nothing inherited. I mean he has made a lot of money."

"How much, do you think?" Maisie demanded.

"How much do you think?" Maisie asked.

Mrs. Wix reflected and sketched it. "Oh many millions."

Mrs. Wix thought about it and wrote it down. "Oh, so many millions."

"A hundred?"

"One hundred?"

Mrs. Wix was not sure of the number, but there were enough of them to have seemed to warm up for the time the penury of the schoolroom—to linger there as an afterglow of the hot heavy light Mr. Perriam sensibly shed. This was also, no doubt, on his part, an effect of that enjoyment of life with which, among her elders, Maisie had been in contact from her earliest years—the sign of happy maturity, the old familiar note of overflowing cheer. "How d'ye do, ma'am? How d'ye do, little miss?"—he laughed and nodded at the gaping figures. "She has brought me up for a peep—it's true I wouldn't take you on trust. She's always talking about you, but she'd never produce you; so to-day I challenged her on the spot. Well, you ain't a myth, my dear—I back down on that," the visitor went on to Maisie; "nor you either, miss, though you might be, to be sure!"

Mrs. Wix wasn’t sure of the exact number, but there were enough of them to have felt like a warm-up after the harshness of the classroom—like a lingering afterglow from the heavy light Mr. Perriam sensibly let in. This was also, no doubt, part of that enjoyment of life that Maisie had noticed among her elders since she was little—the sign of happy maturity, the familiar ring of overflowing cheer. "How are you, ma'am? How are you, little miss?" he laughed and nodded at the surprised faces. "She brought me here for a look—it's true I wouldn't just take your word for it. She's always talking about you, but she never shows you; so today I called her out on it. Well, you’re not a myth, my dear—I’ll admit that," the visitor said to Maisie; "nor you either, miss, although you could be, for sure!"

"I bored him with you, darling—I bore every one," Ida said, "and to prove that you are a sweet thing, as well as a fearfully old one, I told him he could judge for himself. So now he sees that you're a dreadful bouncing business and that your poor old Mummy's at least sixty!"—and her ladyship smiled at Mr. Perriam with the charm that her daughter had heard imputed to her at papa's by the merry gentlemen who had so often wished to get from him what they called a "rise." Her manner at that instant gave the child a glimpse more vivid than any yet enjoyed of the attraction that papa, in remarkable language, always denied she could put forth.

"I bored him with you, darling—I bore everyone," Ida said, "and to prove that you are a sweet thing, as well as pretty old, I told him he could figure that out for himself. So now he sees that you're a total handful and that your poor old Mummy's at least sixty!"—and her ladyship smiled at Mr. Perriam with the charm that her daughter had heard described at home by the cheerful gentlemen who often wished to get from him what they called a "raise." Her manner at that moment gave the child a clearer glimpse than ever before of the appeal that Dad, in unusual words, always claimed she couldn’t have.

Mr. Perriam, however, clearly recognised it in the humour with which he met her. "I never said you ain't wonderful—did I ever say it, hey?" and he appealed with pleasant confidence to the testimony of the schoolroom, about which itself also he evidently felt something might be expected of him. "So this is their little place, hey? Charming, charming, charming!" he repeated as he vaguely looked round. The interrupted students clung together as if they had been personally exposed; but Ida relieved their embarrassment by a hunch of her high shoulders. This time the smile she addressed to Mr. Perriam had a beauty of sudden sadness. "What on earth is a poor woman to do?"

Mr. Perriam, however, clearly recognized it in the way he joked with her. "I never said you’re not wonderful—did I ever say that, huh?" He confidently looked to the schoolroom for support, knowing he was expected to respond. "So this is their little place, huh? Charming, charming, charming!" he repeated as he glanced around vaguely. The interrupted students huddled together, feeling exposed; but Ida eased their awkwardness with a shrug of her shoulders. This time, the smile she gave Mr. Perriam held a sudden beauty tinged with sadness. "What on earth is a poor woman supposed to do?"

The visitor's grimace grew more marked as he continued to look, and the conscious little schoolroom felt still more like a cage at a menagerie. "Charming, charming, charming!" Mr. Perriam insisted; but the parenthesis closed with a prompt click. "There you are!" said her ladyship. "By-bye!" she sharply added. The next minute they were on the stairs, and Mrs. Wix and her companion, at the open door and looking mutely at each other, were reached by the sound of the large social current that carried them back to their life.

The visitor's grimace became more pronounced as he kept looking, and the little schoolroom felt even more like a cage at a zoo. "Absolutely charming!" Mr. Perriam insisted; but that comment ended with a quick snap. "There you go!" her ladyship said. "Bye!" she added sharply. A moment later, they were on the stairs, and Mrs. Wix and her companion, standing at the open door and silently looking at each other, were filled with the sound of the bustling social scene that pulled them back into their lives.

It was singular perhaps after this that Maisie never put a question about Mr. Perriam, and it was still more singular that by the end of a week she knew all she didn't ask. What she most particularly knew—and the information came to her, unsought, straight from Mrs. Wix—was that Sir Claude wouldn't at all care for the visits of a millionaire who was in and out of the upper rooms. How little he would care was proved by the fact that under the sense of them Mrs. Wix's discretion broke down altogether; she was capable of a transfer of allegiance, capable, at the altar of propriety, of a desperate sacrifice of her ladyship. As against Mrs. Beale, she more than once intimated, she had been willing to do the best for her, but as against Sir Claude she could do nothing for her at all. It was extraordinary the number of things that, still without a question, Maisie knew by the time her stepfather came back from Paris—came bringing her a splendid apparatus for painting in water-colours and bringing Mrs. Wix, by a lapse of memory that would have been droll if it had not been a trifle disconcerting, a second and even a more elegant umbrella. He had forgotten all about the first, with which, buried in as many wrappers as a mummy of the Pharaohs, she wouldn't for the world have done anything so profane as use it. Maisie knew above all that though she was now, by what she called an informal understanding, on Sir Claude's "side," she had yet not uttered a word to him about Mr. Perriam. That gentleman became therefore a kind of flourishing public secret, out of the depths of which governess and pupil looked at each other portentously from the time their friend was restored to them. He was restored in great abundance, and it was marked that, though he appeared to have felt the need to take a stand against the risk of being too roughly saddled with the offspring of others, he at this period exposed himself more than ever before to the presumption of having created expectations.

It was rather strange that Maisie never asked any questions about Mr. Perriam, and even stranger that by the end of the week, she knew everything she hadn’t asked about. What she particularly knew—and this information came to her unsolicited straight from Mrs. Wix—was that Sir Claude really wouldn’t care for the visits of a millionaire who was coming and going from the upper rooms. How little he cared was shown by the fact that under the weight of those visits, Mrs. Wix's discretion completely fell apart; she was ready to shift her loyalty and could, at the altar of propriety, make a desperate sacrifice of her ladyship. In contrast to Mrs. Beale, she hinted more than once that she was willing to do the best for her, but against Sir Claude, she felt powerless. It was astonishing how many things Maisie had figured out without asking questions by the time her stepfather returned from Paris—bringing her a magnificent set of watercolour painting supplies and bringing Mrs. Wix, in a lapse of memory that might have been funny if it wasn’t a bit unsettling, a second and even fancier umbrella. He had completely forgotten the first one, which she wouldn’t for the world have dared to use, wrapped up as it was like a mummy of the Pharaohs. Maisie also understood that even though she was now, by what she called an informal understanding, on Sir Claude's "side," she still hadn’t said a word to him about Mr. Perriam. That gentleman thus became a kind of thriving public secret, from which governess and pupil exchanged ominous glances from the moment their friend was returned to them. He came back in great abundance, and it was clear that although he seemed to feel the need to avoid being too closely associated with the children of others, at this time, he exposed himself more than ever to the risk of having created expectations.

If it had become now, for that matter, a question of sides, there was at least a certain amount of evidence as to where they all were. Maisie of course, in such a delicate position, was on nobody's; but Sir Claude had all the air of being on hers. If therefore Mrs. Wix was on Sir Claude's, her ladyship on Mr. Perriam's and Mr. Perriam presumably on her ladyship's, this left only Mrs. Beale and Mr. Farange to account for. Mrs. Beale clearly was, like Sir Claude, on Maisie's, and papa, it was to be supposed, on Mrs. Beale's. Here indeed was a slight ambiguity, as papa's being on Mrs. Beale's didn't somehow seem to place him quite on his daughter's. It sounded, as this young lady thought it over, very much like puss-in-the-corner, and she could only wonder if the distribution of parties would lead to a rushing to and fro and a changing of places. She was in the presence, she felt, of restless change: wasn't it restless enough that her mother and her stepfather should already be on different sides? That was the great thing that had domestically happened. Mrs. Wix, besides, had turned another face: she had never been exactly gay, but her gravity was now an attitude as public as a posted placard. She seemed to sit in her new dress and brood over her lost delicacy, which had become almost as doleful a memory as that of poor Clara Matilda. "It is hard for him," she often said to her companion; and it was surprising how competent on this point Maisie was conscious of being to agree with her. Hard as it was, however, Sir Claude had never shown to greater advantage than in the gallant generous sociable way he carried it off: a way that drew from Mrs. Wix a hundred expressions of relief at his not having suffered it to embitter him. It threw him more and more at last into the schoolroom, where he had plainly begun to recognise that if he was to have the credit of perverting the innocent child he might also at least have the amusement. He never came into the place without telling its occupants that they were the nicest people in the house—a remark which always led them to say to each other "Mr. Perriam!" as loud as ever compressed lips and enlarged eyes could make them articulate. He caused Maisie to remember what she had said to Mrs. Beale about his having the nature of a good nurse, and, rather more than she intended before Mrs. Wix, to bring the whole thing out by once remarking to him that none of her good nurses had smoked quite so much in the nursery. This had no more effect than it was meant to on his cigarettes: he was always smoking, but always declaring that it was death to him not to lead a domestic life.

If it had become a matter of sides, at least there was some evidence about where everyone stood. Maisie, in such a sensitive position, wasn’t on anyone’s side; but Sir Claude certainly seemed to be on hers. So, if Mrs. Wix was on Sir Claude's side, her ladyship on Mr. Perriam's, and Mr. Perriam presumably on her ladyship's side, that left only Mrs. Beale and Mr. Farange to address. Clearly, Mrs. Beale, like Sir Claude, was on Maisie's side, and it was assumed that Dad was on Mrs. Beale's side. There was a bit of ambiguity because Dad being on Mrs. Beale’s side didn’t quite imply he was on his daughter's side. As this young lady considered the situation, it sounded a lot like a game of musical chairs, and she could only wonder if the arrangement of sides would lead to a lot of movement and switching places. She felt the atmosphere was charged with change: wasn’t it already restless that her mother and stepfather were on different sides? That was the main domestic shift. Besides, Mrs. Wix had taken on a new demeanor: she had never been exactly cheerful, but her seriousness now was as obvious as a posted notice. It seemed she sat in her new dress and contemplated her lost lightness, which had become almost as sad a memory as that of poor Clara Matilda. "It is hard for him," she often said to her companion; and it was surprising how capable Maisie felt in agreeing with her. However hard it was, Sir Claude had never looked better than in the brave, generous, sociable way he handled it: a manner that elicited countless expressions of relief from Mrs. Wix, glad he hadn’t allowed it to sour him. This made him spend more time in the schoolroom, where he had clearly started to realize that if he was going to be blamed for influencing the innocent child, he might as well enjoy himself. He never entered the room without telling its occupants they were the nicest people in the house—a comment that always made them say to each other “Mr. Perriam!” as loudly as they could manage with pressed lips and wide eyes. He reminded Maisie of what she had told Mrs. Beale about him having the nature of a good nurse, and, more than she intended in front of Mrs. Wix, she once remarked to him that none of her good nurses had smoked quite so much in the nursery. This had no more effect than it was meant to on his cigarette habit: he was always smoking, but always insisting that it was torture for him not to live a domestic life.

He led one after all in the schoolroom, and there were hours of late evening, when she had gone to bed, that Maisie knew he sat there talking with Mrs. Wix of how to meet his difficulties. His consideration for this unfortunate woman even in the midst of them continued to show him as the perfect gentleman and lifted the subject of his courtesy into an upper air of beatitude in which her very pride had the hush of anxiety. "He leans on me—he leans on me!" she only announced from time to time; and she was more surprised than amused when, later on, she accidentally found she had given her pupil the impression of a support literally supplied by her person. This glimpse of a misconception led her to be explicit—to put before the child, with an air of mourning indeed for such a stoop to the common, that what they talked about in the small hours, as they said, was the question of his taking right hold of life. The life she wanted him to take right hold of was the public: "she" being, I hasten to add, in this connexion, not the mistress of his fate, but only Mrs. Wix herself. She had phrases about him that were full of easy understanding, yet full of morality. "He's a wonderful nature, but he can't live like the lilies. He's all right, you know, but he must have a high interest." She had more than once remarked that his affairs were sadly involved, but that they must get him—Maisie and she together apparently—into Parliament. The child took it from her with a flutter of importance that Parliament was his natural sphere, and she was the less prepared to recognise a hindrance as she had never heard of any affairs whatever that were not involved. She had in the old days once been told by Mrs. Beale that her very own were, and with the refreshment of knowing that she had affairs the information hadn't in the least overwhelmed her. It was true and perhaps a little alarming that she had never heard of any such matters since then. Full of charm at any rate was the prospect of some day getting Sir Claude in; especially after Mrs. Wix, as the fruit of more midnight colloquies, once went so far as to observe that she really believed it was all that was wanted to save him. This critic, with these words, struck her disciple as cropping up, after the manner of mamma when mamma talked, quite in a new place. The child stared as at the jump of a kangaroo. "Save him from what?"

He was in charge in the classroom, and there were late evenings when she had gone to bed, during which Maisie knew he sat there talking with Mrs. Wix about how to handle his challenges. His care for this unfortunate woman, even amidst his own struggles, continued to show him as a true gentleman and elevated his courtesy to a level where her pride was mixed with worry. "He relies on me—he relies on me!" she would occasionally announce, and she was more shocked than amused when she later discovered that she had given her student the impression that her support was something physical. This realization prompted her to clarify—to explain to the child, with a mournful tone for having to stoop to something so ordinary, that their late-night talks revolved around how he could take charge of his life. The version of life she wanted him to seize was the public one: "she" being, I want to stress, not the one controlling his fate, but just Mrs. Wix herself. She had phrases about him that reflected easy understanding yet were also moral. "He's a wonderful person, but he can't live like the lilies. He's fine, you know, but he needs high stakes." She had often noted that his situation was quite complicated, but they needed to get him—Maisie and her together, apparently—into Parliament. The child absorbed it with a sense of importance, thinking that Parliament was where he truly belonged, and she was less inclined to see any obstacles since she had never heard of any situations that were straightforward. In the past, Mrs. Beale had told her that her own situation was complicated, and knowing she had issues didn't overwhelm her at all. It was true and maybe a little concerning that she hadn't heard of any such matters since. The idea of one day getting Sir Claude into Parliament was certainly enticing, especially after Mrs. Wix, following more late-night discussions, once suggested that it might be just what he needed to be saved. This observation struck the child as coming from a different perspective, similar to how her mother spoke. The child blinked in surprise, like seeing a kangaroo jump. "Save him from what?"

Mrs. Wix debated, then covered a still greater distance. "Why just from awful misery."

Mrs. Wix thought for a moment, then went even further. "Why just from terrible sadness."

 

 

XII
 

She had not at the moment explained her ominous speech, but the light of remarkable events soon enabled her companion to read it. It may indeed be said that these days brought on a high quickening of Maisie's direct perceptions, of her sense of freedom to make out things for herself. This was helped by an emotion intrinsically far from sweet—the increase of the alarm that had most haunted her meditations. She had no need to be told, as on the morrow of the revelation of Sir Claude's danger she was told by Mrs. Wix, that her mother wanted more and more to know why the devil her father didn't send for her: she had too long expected mamma's curiosity on this point to express itself sharply. Maisie could meet such pressure so far as meeting it was to be in a position to reply, in words directly inspired, that papa would be hanged before he'd again be saddled with her. She therefore recognised the hour that in troubled glimpses she had long foreseen, the hour when—the phrase for it came back to her from Mrs. Beale—with two fathers, two mothers and two homes, six protections in all, she shouldn't know "wherever" to go. Such apprehension as she felt on this score was not diminished by the fact that Mrs. Wix herself was suddenly white with terror: a circumstance leading Maisie to the further knowledge that this lady was still more scared on her own behalf than on that of her pupil. A governess who had only one frock was not likely to have either two fathers or two mothers: accordingly if even with these resources Maisie was to be in the streets, where in the name of all that was dreadful was poor Mrs. Wix to be? She had had, it appeared, a tremendous brush with Ida, which had begun and ended with the request that she would be pleased on the spot to "bundle." It had come suddenly but completely, this signal of which she had gone in fear. The companions confessed to each other the dread each had hidden the worst of, but Mrs. Wix was better off than Maisie in having a plan of defence. She declined indeed to communicate it till it was quite mature; but meanwhile, she hastened to declare, her feet were firm in the schoolroom. They could only be loosened by force: she would "leave" for the police perhaps, but she wouldn't leave for mere outrage. That would be to play her ladyship's game, and it would take another turn of the screw to make her desert her darling. Her ladyship had come down with extraordinary violence: it had been one of many symptoms of a situation strained—"between them all," as Mrs. Wix said, "but especially between the two"—to the point of God only knew what.

She hadn't explained her ominous words at that moment, but soon the unfolding events allowed her companion to understand them. It could definitely be said that these days sparked a heightened awareness in Maisie, giving her a sense of freedom to figure things out for herself. This was fueled by an emotion that was anything but pleasant—the growing anxiety that had haunted her thoughts. She didn't need anyone to tell her, like Mrs. Wix had the day after Sir Claude's danger was revealed, that her mother increasingly needed to know why her father hadn’t sent for her; she had anticipated her mom’s curiosity on this issue long enough for it to become sharp. Maisie could handle that pressure well enough to respond, with words inspired by the moment, that her dad would rather be hanged than have to deal with her again. She therefore recognized the moment she had long seen in troubled glimpses, the moment when— a phrase she remembered from Mrs. Beale—she would have two fathers, two mothers, and two homes, making for a total of six ways to feel protected, yet she wouldn't know "wherever" to go. The apprehension she felt about this was only heightened by the fact that Mrs. Wix suddenly appeared pale with fear, which led Maisie to realize that this lady was even more frightened for herself than for her student. A governess with only one dress wasn’t likely to have two fathers or two mothers: so if even with those resources Maisie might end up on the streets, where would poor Mrs. Wix be? It turned out she had an intense showdown with Ida, which started and ended with a demand that she quickly "pack up." This situation had come on suddenly but completely, matching the fears she had harbored. The two friends admitted to each other the anxieties they had each kept hidden, but Mrs. Wix had a better situation than Maisie as she had a plan for defense. She refused to share it until it was fully developed; however, in the meantime, she was quick to declare that her position in the schoolroom was firm. It would only be shaken by force: she might "leave" for the police, but she wouldn’t leave just because of a scandal. That would be playing into her ladyship’s hands, and it would take more pressure to make her abandon her beloved student. Her ladyship had come down with remarkable intensity: it was one of many signs of a situation tense—"between them all," as Mrs. Wix put it, "but especially between the two"—to a point that only God knew what would happen next.

Her description of the crisis made the child blanch. "Between which two?—papa and mamma?"

Her description of the crisis made the child go pale. "Between which two?—Dad and Mom?"

"Dear no. I mean between your mother and him."

"Dear no. I mean between your mom and him."

Maisie, in this, recognised an opportunity to be really deep. "'Him'?—Mr. Perriam?"

Maisie saw this as a chance to get really deep. "'Him'?—Mr. Perriam?"

She fairly brought a blush to the scared face. "Well, my dear, I must say what you don't know ain't worth mentioning. That it won't go on for ever with Mr. Perriam—since I must meet you—you can suppose? But I meant dear Sir Claude."

She definitely made the scared face blush. "Well, my dear, I have to say what you don't know isn't worth talking about. That it won't last forever with Mr. Perriam—since I have to meet you—you can guess? But I was talking about dear Sir Claude."

Maisie stood corrected rather than abashed. "I see. But it's about Mr. Perriam he's angry?"

Maisie accepted the correction without embarrassment. "I understand. But is it because of Mr. Perriam that he's angry?"

Mrs. Wix waited. "He says he's not."

Mrs. Wix waited. "He says he's not."

"Not angry? He has told you so?"

"Not angry? Did he actually say that to you?"

Mrs. Wix looked at her hard. "Not about him!"

Mrs. Wix looked at her seriously. "Not about him!"

"Then about some one else?"

"Then about someone else?"

Mrs. Wix looked at her harder. "About some one else."

Mrs. Wix stared at her more intently. "About someone else."

"Lord Eric?" the child promptly brought forth.

"Lord Eric?" the child quickly said.

At this, of a sudden, her governess was more agitated. "Oh why, little unfortunate, should we discuss their dreadful names?"—and she threw herself for the millionth time on Maisie's neck. It took her pupil but a moment to feel that she quivered with insecurity, and, the contact of her terror aiding, the pair in another instant were sobbing in each other's arms. Then it was that, completely relaxed, demoralised as she had never been, Mrs. Wix suffered her wound to bleed and her resentment to gush. Her great bitterness was that Ida had called her false, denounced her hypocrisy and duplicity, reviled her spying and tattling, her lying and grovelling to Sir Claude. "Me, me!" the poor woman wailed, "who've seen what I've seen and gone through everything only to cover her up and ease her off and smooth her down? If I've been an 'ipocrite it's the other way round: I've pretended, to him and to her, to myself and to you and to every one, not to see! It serves me right to have held my tongue before such horrors!"

At this, suddenly, her governess became more agitated. "Oh why, poor thing, should we bring up their terrible names?"—and she threw herself for the millionth time onto Maisie's neck. It took Maisie just a moment to realize that she was shaking with insecurity, and with the touch of her fear helping, they were soon sobbing in each other's arms. Then, completely relaxed and more demoralized than ever, Mrs. Wix let her wounds show and her resentment overflow. Her great bitterness was that Ida had called her a liar, condemned her for being hypocritical and duplicitous, berated her for spying and gossiping, her lying and crawling to Sir Claude. "Me, me!" the poor woman cried, "who’s seen what I’ve seen and endured everything just to protect her and help her out and smooth things over? If I've been a hypocrite, it's the other way around: I've pretended, to him and to her, to myself and to you and to everyone, not to see! I deserve this for keeping quiet in the face of such horrors!"

What horrors they were her companion forbore too closely to enquire, showing even signs not a few of an ability to take them for granted. That put the couple more than ever, in this troubled sea, in the same boat, so that with the consciousness of ideas on the part of her fellow mariner Maisie could sit close and wait. Sir Claude on the morrow came in to tea, and then the ideas were produced. It was extraordinary how the child's presence drew out their full strength. The principal one was startling, but Maisie appreciated the courage with which her governess handled it. It simply consisted of the proposal that whenever and wherever they should seek refuge Sir Claude should consent to share their asylum. On his protesting with all the warmth in nature against this note of secession she asked what else in the world was left to them if her ladyship should stop supplies.

What horrors her companion held back from asking about were evident, as he showed signs of being able to accept them. This brought the couple even closer together in this troubled situation, allowing Maisie to sit nearby and wait, aware of the thoughts of her fellow companion. The next day, Sir Claude came in for tea, and the ideas were shared. It was amazing how the child's presence brought out their full intensity. The main idea was shocking, but Maisie admired how her governess addressed it with courage. It was simply the suggestion that whenever and wherever they sought refuge, Sir Claude should agree to share their shelter. When he protested passionately against this idea of separation, she asked what else they could turn to if her ladyship stopped their resources.

"Supplies be hanged, my dear woman!" said their delightful friend. "Leave supplies to me—I'll take care of supplies."

"Forget about the supplies, my dear!" said their charming friend. "Leave the supplies to me—I’ll handle everything."

Mrs. Wix rose to it. "Well, it's exactly because I knew you'd be so glad to do so that I put the question before you. There's a way to look after us better than any other. The way's just to come along with us."

Mrs. Wix got right to it. "Well, it's precisely because I knew you'd be so happy to do this that I brought it up with you. There's a better way to take care of us than any other. The way is simply to come with us."

It hung before Maisie, Mrs. Wix's way, like a glittering picture, and she clasped her hands in ecstasy. "Come along, come along, come along!"

It hung in front of Maisie, just like Mrs. Wix's style, sparkling like a picture, and she clasped her hands in delight. "Come on, come on, come on!"

Sir Claude looked from his stepdaughter back to her governess. "Do you mean leave this house and take up my abode with you?"

Sir Claude looked from his stepdaughter back to her governess. "Are you saying I should leave this house and move in with you?"

"It will be the right thing—if you feel as you've told me you feel." Mrs. Wix, sustained and uplifted, was now as clear as a bell.

"It'll be the right thing—if you feel the way you said you do." Mrs. Wix, feeling supported and uplifted, was now as clear as a bell.

Sir Claude had the air of trying to recall what he had told her; then the light broke that was always breaking to make his face more pleasant. "It's your happy thought that I shall take a house for you?"

Sir Claude seemed to be trying to remember what he had told her; then the light returned, which always made his face look more pleasant. "Is it your cheerful idea that I'll get a house for you?"

"For the wretched homeless child. Any roof—over our heads—will do for us; but of course for you it will have to be something really nice."

"For the unfortunate homeless child. Any roof—over our heads—works for us; but of course, for you, it needs to be something really nice."

Sir Claude's eyes reverted to Maisie, rather hard, as she thought; and there was a shade in his very smile that seemed to show her—though she also felt it didn't show Mrs. Wix—that the accommodation prescribed must loom to him pretty large. The next moment, however, he laughed gaily enough. "My dear lady, you exaggerate tremendously my poor little needs." Mrs. Wix had once mentioned to her young friend that when Sir Claude called her his dear lady he could do anything with her; and Maisie felt a certain anxiety to see what he would do now. Well, he only addressed her a remark of which the child herself was aware of feeling the force. "Your plan appeals to me immensely; but of course—don't you see—I shall have to consider the position I put myself in by leaving my wife."

Sir Claude's gaze turned back to Maisie, a bit cold, as she thought; and there was a hint in his smile that seemed to indicate to her—though she sensed it didn’t apply to Mrs. Wix—that the arrangement he was facing must be pretty significant for him. However, the next moment, he laughed cheerfully enough. "My dear lady, you’re really exaggerating my little needs." Mrs. Wix had once told her young friend that when Sir Claude called her his dear lady, he could get away with anything; and Maisie felt a certain apprehension about what he might do now. Well, he only made a comment that the child herself felt had weight. "Your plan sounds great to me; but of course—don't you see—I have to think about the position I’d put myself in by leaving my wife."

"You'll also have to remember," Mrs. Wix replied, "that if you don't look out your wife won't give you time to consider. Her ladyship will leave you."

"You'll also need to keep in mind," Mrs. Wix replied, "that if you're not careful, your wife won't give you a moment to think. She'll walk away from you."

"Ah my good friend, I do look out!" the young man returned while Maisie helped herself afresh to bread and butter. "Of course if that happens I shall have somehow to turn round; but I hope with all my heart it won't. I beg your pardon," he continued to his stepdaughter, "for appearing to discuss that sort of possibility under your sharp little nose. But the fact is I forget half the time that Ida's your sainted mother."

"Ah, my good friend, I am definitely looking out!" the young man replied as Maisie helped herself to more bread and butter. "Of course, if that happens, I’ll have to somehow turn around; but I really hope it won't. I’m sorry," he added to his stepdaughter, "for seeming to talk about that kind of possibility right in front of you. But the truth is, I forget half the time that Ida’s your beloved mother."

"So do I!" said Maisie, her mouth full of bread and butter and to put him the more in the right.

"So do I!" said Maisie, her mouth full of bread and butter, trying to make him feel more justified.

Her protectress, at this, was upon her again. "The little desolate precious pet!" For the rest of the conversation she was enclosed in Mrs. Wix's arms, and as they sat there interlocked Sir Claude, before them with his tea-cup, looked down at them in deepening thought. Shrink together as they might they couldn't help, Maisie felt, being a very large lumpish image of what Mrs. Wix required of his slim fineness. She knew moreover that this lady didn't make it better by adding in a moment: "Of course we shouldn't dream of a whole house. Any sort of little lodging, however humble, would be only too blest."

Her protector was on her again. "The little lonely darling!" For the rest of the chat, she was wrapped in Mrs. Wix's arms, and as they sat there intertwined, Sir Claude, in front of them with his teacup, looked down at them, lost in thought. No matter how much they huddled together, Maisie felt they were still a big, clumsy representation of what Mrs. Wix expected from his slender elegance. She also knew that this lady didn’t help matters by adding shortly after: "Of course, we wouldn't dream of a whole house. Any kind of small place, no matter how basic, would be more than enough."

"But it would have to be something that would hold us all," said Sir Claude.

"But it would have to be something that would keep us all together," said Sir Claude.

"Oh yes," Mrs. Wix concurred; "the whole point's our being together. While you're waiting, before you act, for her ladyship to take some step, our position here will come to an impossible pass. You don't know what I went through with her for you yesterday—and for our poor darling; but it's not a thing I can promise you often to face again. She cast me out in horrible language—she has instructed the servants not to wait on me."

"Oh yes," Mrs. Wix agreed; "the whole point is that we're together. While you're waiting, before you do anything, for her ladyship to make a move, our situation here will become unbearable. You have no idea what I went through with her for you yesterday—and for our poor darling; but it's not something I can promise to endure again. She dismissed me in terrible words—she has told the servants not to help me."

"Oh the poor servants are all right!" Sir Claude eagerly cried.

"Oh, the poor servants are fine!" Sir Claude exclaimed eagerly.

"They're certainly better than their mistress. It's too dreadful that I should sit here and say of your wife, Sir Claude, and of Maisie's own mother, that she's lower than a domestic; but my being betrayed into such remarks is just a reason the more for our getting away. I shall stay till I'm taken by the shoulders, but that may happen any day. What also may perfectly happen, you must permit me to repeat, is that she'll go off to get rid of us."

"They're definitely better than their owner. It’s just awful that I should sit here and say about your wife, Sir Claude, and about Maisie's own mother, that she's beneath a servant; but my being pushed into such comments is just another reason for us to leave. I’ll stick around until someone pulls me away, but that could happen any day now. What can also easily happen, I must stress again, is that she'll leave to get away from us."

"Oh if she'll only do that!" Sir Claude laughed. "That would be the very making of us!"

"Oh, if she would just do that!" Sir Claude laughed. "That would be the best thing for us!"

"Don't say it—don't say it!" Mrs. Wix pleaded. "Don't speak of anything so fatal. You know what I mean. We must all cling to the right. You mustn't be bad."

"Don’t say it—don’t say it!” Mrs. Wix urged. “Don’t talk about anything so disastrous. You know what I mean. We all have to hold on to what’s right. You can’t act out.”

Sir Claude set down his tea-cup; he had become more grave and he pensively wiped his moustache. "Won't all the world say I'm awful if I leave the house before—before she has bolted? They'll say it was my doing so that made her bolt."

Sir Claude set down his tea cup, looking more serious as he thoughtfully wiped his mustache. "Isn't everyone going to think I'm terrible if I leave the house before—before she locks up? They'll say it was my fault that made her leave."

Maisie could grasp the force of this reasoning, but it offered no check to Mrs. Wix. "Why need you mind that—if you've done it for so high a motive? Think of the beauty of it," the good lady pressed.

Maisie understood the strength of this reasoning, but it didn’t stop Mrs. Wix. “Why should you care about that—if you did it for such a noble reason? Think of how beautiful it is,” the kind woman insisted.

"Of bolting with you?" Sir Claude ejaculated.

"Are you talking about running away with you?" Sir Claude exclaimed.

She faintly smiled—she even faintly coloured. "So far from doing you harm it will do you the highest good. Sir Claude, if you'll listen to me, it will save you."

She smiled softly—her cheeks even flushed slightly. "Instead of harming you, this will actually do you a lot of good. Sir Claude, if you’ll hear me out, it could save you."

"Save me from what?"

"Save me from what?"

Maisie, at this question, waited with renewed suspense for an answer that would bring the thing to some finer point than their companion had brought it to before. But there was on the contrary only more mystification in Mrs. Wix's reply. "Ah from you know what!"

Maisie, hearing this question, waited with heightened anticipation for an answer that would clarify things more than their companion had done previously. However, Mrs. Wix's response only added to the confusion. "Ah, from you know what!"

"Do you mean from some other woman!"

"Are you talking about another woman!"

"Yes—from a real bad one."

"Yes—from a really bad one."

Sir Claude at least, the child could see, was not mystified; so little indeed that a smile of intelligence broke afresh in his eyes. He turned them in vague discomfort to Maisie, and then something in the way she met them caused him to chuck her playfully under the chin. It was not till after this that he good-naturedly met Mrs. Wix. "You think me much worse than I am."

Sir Claude, at least, the child could see, wasn't confused at all; in fact, a knowing smile lit up his eyes. He glanced at Maisie with a hint of discomfort, and then something in the way she looked back made him playfully tap her under the chin. It was only after that that he cheerfully approached Mrs. Wix. "You think I'm much worse than I really am."

"If that were true," she returned, "I wouldn't appeal to you. I do, Sir Claude, in the name of all that's good in you—and oh so earnestly! We can help each other. What you'll do for our young friend here I needn't say. That isn't even what I want to speak of now. What I want to speak of is what you'll get—don't you see?—from such an opportunity to take hold. Take hold of us—take hold of her. Make her your duty—make her your life: she'll repay you a thousand-fold!"

"If that were true," she replied, "I wouldn't be reaching out to you. I do, Sir Claude, in the name of everything good in you—and I'm being so serious! We can help each other. I don't even need to mention what you’ll do for our young friend here. That's not even what I want to talk about right now. What I want to talk about is what you'll gain—don't you see?—from such a chance to take action. Take action with us—take action with her. Make her your responsibility—make her your life: she'll reward you a thousand times over!"

It was to Mrs. Wix, during this appeal, that Maisie's contemplation transferred itself: partly because, though her heart was in her throat for trepidation, her delicacy deterred her from appearing herself to press the question; partly from the coercion of seeing Mrs. Wix come out as Mrs. Wix had never come before—not even on the day of her call at Mrs. Beale's with the news of mamma's marriage. On that day Mrs. Beale had surpassed her in dignity, but nobody could have surpassed her now. There was in fact at this moment a fascination for her pupil in the hint she seemed to give that she had still more of that surprise behind. So the sharpened sense of spectatorship was the child's main support, the long habit, from the first, of seeing herself in discussion and finding in the fury of it—she had had a glimpse of the game of football—a sort of compensation for the doom of a peculiar passivity. It gave her often an odd air of being present at her history in as separate a manner as if she could only get at experience by flattening her nose against a pane of glass. Such she felt to be the application of her nose while she waited for the effect of Mrs. Wix's eloquence. Sir Claude, however, didn't keep her long in a position so ungraceful: he sat down and opened his arms to her as he had done the day he came for her at her father's, and while he held her there, looking at her kindly, but as if their companion had brought the blood a good deal to his face, he said:

It was to Mrs. Wix, during this moment, that Maisie's thoughts shifted: partly because, even though her heart raced with anxiety, her sensitivity kept her from bringing up the question herself; partly because she felt compelled to see Mrs. Wix reveal herself in a way she never had before—not even on the day Mrs. Wix visited Mrs. Beale with the news of her mom's marriage. On that day, Mrs. Beale had shown more dignity, but no one could top Mrs. Wix now. In fact, at this moment, there was something captivating for Maisie in the suggestion that Mrs. Wix had even more surprises in store. So, the intense feeling of being a bystander was the child’s main support, the long habit of seeing herself in discussions and finding in the chaos of it—she had caught a glimpse of a football game—a form of compensation for her unusual passivity. It often gave her a strange feeling of being present in her own story as if she could only experience it by pressing her nose against a window. That’s how she felt as she waited for the impact of Mrs. Wix’s words. However, Sir Claude didn’t leave her in such an awkward position for long: he sat down and opened his arms to her like he did the day he came for her at her father’s, and while he held her there, looking at her kindly, but as if their companion had flushed his face quite a bit, he said:

"Dear Mrs. Wix is magnificent, but she's rather too grand about it. I mean the situation isn't after all quite so desperate or quite so simple. But I give you my word before her, and I give it to her before you, that I'll never, never, forsake you. Do you hear that, old fellow, and do you take it in? I'll stick to you through everything."

"Dear Mrs. Wix is amazing, but she's a bit too dramatic about it. I mean, the situation isn’t as hopeless or as straightforward as she thinks. But I promise you in front of her, and I promise her in front of you, that I will never, ever abandon you. Do you hear me, old friend, and do you understand? I’ll stand by you no matter what."

Maisie did take it in—took it with a long tremor of all her little being; and then as, to emphasise it, he drew her closer she buried her head on his shoulder and cried without sound and without pain. While she was so engaged she became aware that his own breast was agitated, and gathered from it with rapture that his tears were as silently flowing. Presently she heard a loud sob from Mrs. Wix—Mrs. Wix was the only one who made a noise.

Maisie absorbed it all—a deep shudder ran through her whole being; and then, to emphasize it, he pulled her closer, and she buried her head on his shoulder, crying silently and painlessly. While she was lost in this moment, she noticed that his chest was also trembling, and she felt with joy that his tears were flowing just as quietly. Soon, she heard a loud sob from Mrs. Wix—Mrs. Wix was the only one making any noise.

She was to have made, for some time, none other but this, though within a few days, in conversation with her pupil, she described her intercourse with Ida as little better than the state of being battered. There was as yet nevertheless no attempt to eject her by force, and she recognised that Sir Claude, taking such a stand as never before, had intervened with passion and with success. As Maisie remembered—and remembered wholly without disdain—that he had told her he was afraid of her ladyship, the little girl took this act of resolution as a proof of what, in the spirit of the engagement sealed by all their tears, he was really prepared to do. Mrs. Wix spoke to her of the pecuniary sacrifice by which she herself purchased the scant security she enjoyed and which, if it was a defence against the hand of violence, yet left her exposed to incredible rudeness. Didn't her ladyship find every hour of the day some artful means to humiliate and trample upon her? There was a quarter's salary owing her—a great name, even Maisie could suspect, for a small matter; she should never see it as long as she lived, but keeping quiet about it put her ladyship, thank heaven, a little in one's power. Now that he was doing so much else she could never have the grossness to apply for it to Sir Claude. He had sent home for schoolroom consumption a huge frosted cake, a wonderful delectable mountain with geological strata of jam, which might, with economy, see them through many days of their siege; but it was none the less known to Mrs. Wix that his affairs were more and more involved, and her fellow partaker looked back tenderly, in the light of these involutions, at the expression of face with which he had greeted the proposal that he should set up another establishment. Maisie felt that if their maintenance should hang by a thread they must still demean themselves with the highest delicacy. What he was doing was simply acting without delay, so far as his embarrassments permitted, on the inspiration of his elder friend. There was at this season a wonderful month of May—as soft as a drop of the wind in a gale that had kept one awake—when he took out his stepdaughter with a fresh alacrity and they rambled the great town in search, as Mrs. Wix called it, of combined amusement and instruction.

She had planned for a while to do nothing but this, but a few days later, in a conversation with her student, she described her interactions with Ida as not much better than being beaten down. Nevertheless, there was still no attempt to force her out, and she acknowledged that Sir Claude, taking a stand like never before, had intervened passionately and successfully. As Maisie recalled—and fully without disdain—that he had told her he was scared of her ladyship, the little girl saw this act of determination as proof of what, in the spirit of their tearful commitment, he was really willing to do. Mrs. Wix talked to her about the financial sacrifice she made for the little bit of security she had, which, while it protected her from violence, still left her open to unbelievable rudeness. Didn’t her ladyship find some clever way to humiliate and belittle her every hour of the day? There was a quarter's salary owed to her—a significant sum, even Maisie could suspect, for something so minor; she would never see it as long as she lived, but keeping quiet about it gave her ladyship, thank God, a bit of leverage. Now that he was doing so much else, she could never stoop so low as to ask Sir Claude for it. He had sent home a massive frosted cake for everyone at school, a wonderful, delicious mountain with layers of jam that could, with careful rationing, last them through many days of their ordeal; but Mrs. Wix knew all too well that his affairs were becoming more complicated, and her fellow participant looked back fondly, given these complications, at the expression on his face when the idea of starting another establishment was proposed. Maisie felt that even if their survival depended on a thread, they must still conduct themselves with utmost grace. What he was doing was simply acting promptly, as much as his struggles allowed, on the advice of his older friend. During this time, there was a lovely month of May—gentle as a breath of wind on a stormy night that had kept one awake—when he took his stepdaughter out with renewed eagerness, and they wandered around the big city in search, as Mrs. Wix called it, of fun and learning.

They rode on the top of 'buses; they visited outlying parks; they went to cricket-matches where Maisie fell asleep; they tried a hundred places for the best one to have tea. This was his direct way of rising to Mrs. Wix's grand lesson—of making his little accepted charge his duty and his life. They dropped, under incontrollable impulses, into shops that they agreed were too big, to look at things that they agreed were too small, and it was during these hours that Mrs. Wix, alone at home, but a subject of regretful reference as they pulled off their gloves for refreshment, subsequently described herself as least sheltered from the blows her ladyship had achieved such ingenuity in dealing. She again and again repeated that she wouldn't so much have minded having her "attainments" held up to scorn and her knowledge of every subject denied, hadn't she been branded as "low" in character and tone. There was by this time no pretence on the part of any one of denying it to be fortunate that her ladyship habitually left London every Saturday and was more and more disposed to a return late in the week. It was almost equally public that she regarded as a preposterous "pose," and indeed as a direct insult to herself, her husband's attitude of staying behind to look after a child for whom the most elaborate provision had been made. If there was a type Ida despised, Sir Claude communicated to Maisie, it was the man who pottered about town of a Sunday; and he also mentioned how often she had declared to him that if he had a grain of spirit he would be ashamed to accept a menial position about Mr. Farange's daughter. It was her ladyship's contention that he was in craven fear of his predecessor—otherwise he would recognise it as an obligation of plain decency to protect his wife against the outrage of that person's barefaced attempt to swindle her. The swindle was that Mr. Farange put upon her the whole intolerable burden; "and even when I pay for you myself," Sir Claude averred to his young friend, "she accuses me the more of truckling and grovelling." It was Mrs. Wix's conviction, they both knew, arrived at on independent grounds, that Ida's weekly excursions were feelers for a more considerable absence. If she came back later each week the week would be sure to arrive when she wouldn't come back at all. This appearance had of course much to do with Mrs. Wix's actual valour. Could they but hold out long enough the snug little home with Sir Claude would find itself informally established.

They rode on top of buses, visited parks on the outskirts, attended cricket matches where Maisie nodded off, and tried out various places for the best tea. This was his straightforward way of taking on Mrs. Wix's important lesson—making his small responsibility his duty and his life. They impulsively wandered into shops they agreed were too big, checking out things they thought were too small, and during these outings, Mrs. Wix, alone at home and often mentioned with regret as they took off their gloves for a snack, described herself as the least sheltered from the blows that her ladyship had remarkably managed to deliver. She repeatedly said that she wouldn’t have minded having her "achievements" ridiculed and her knowledge of every topic dismissed if she hadn't been labeled as "low" in character and tone. By this time, no one pretended it wasn't fortunate that her ladyship usually left London every Saturday and seemed increasingly inclined to return late in the week. It was also widely known that she considered her husband's decision to stay behind to care for a child for whom comprehensive arrangements had been made to be a ridiculous "pose" and, in fact, a direct insult to herself. If there was one type Ida loathed, Sir Claude informed Maisie, it was the man who lingered about town on a Sunday; he also noted how often she had told him that if he had any spirit at all, he would be embarrassed to accept a subordinate role regarding Mr. Farange's daughter. Her ladyship believed he was terrified of his predecessor—otherwise, he would see it as his decent obligation to protect his wife from that person’s shameless attempts to cheat her. The cheating involved Mr. Farange placing the entire unbearable burden on her; "and even when I pay for you myself," Sir Claude insisted to his young friend, "she blames me even more for sucking up and crawling." They both understood that it was Mrs. Wix's firm belief, arrived at independently, that Ida's weekly outings were just feelers for a longer absence. If she came back later each week, there would inevitably be a week when she wouldn’t return at all. This situation significantly contributed to Mrs. Wix’s true courage. If they could just hold out long enough, her cozy little home with Sir Claude would become informally established.

 

 

XIII
 

This might moreover have been taken to be the sense of a remark made by her stepfather as—one rainy day when the streets were all splash and two umbrellas unsociable and the wanderers had sought shelter in the National Gallery—Maisie sat beside him staring rather sightlessly at a roomful of pictures which he had mystified her much by speaking of with a bored sigh as a "silly superstition." They represented, with patches of gold and cataracts of purple, with stiff saints and angular angels, with ugly Madonnas and uglier babies, strange prayers and prostrations; so that she at first took his words for a protest against devotional idolatry—all the more that he had of late often come with her and with Mrs. Wix to morning church, a place of worship of Mrs. Wix's own choosing, where there was nothing of that sort; no haloes on heads, but only, during long sermons, beguiling backs of bonnets, and where, as her governess always afterwards observed, he gave the most earnest attention. It presently appeared, however, that his reference was merely to the affectation of admiring such ridiculous works—an admonition that she received from him as submissively as she received everything. What turn it gave to their talk needn't here be recorded: the transition to the colourless schoolroom and lonely Mrs. Wix was doubtless an effect of relaxed interest in what was before them. Maisie expressed in her own way the truth that she never went home nowadays without expecting to find the temple of her studies empty and the poor priestess cast out. This conveyed a full appreciation of her peril, and it was in rejoinder that Sir Claude uttered, acknowledging the source of that peril, the reassurance at which I have glanced. "Don't be afraid, my dear: I've squared her." It required indeed a supplement when he saw that it left the child momentarily blank. "I mean that your mother lets me do what I want so long as I let her do what she wants."

This might have been understood as the implication of a comment made by her stepfather one rainy day when the streets were all puddles and two umbrellas were unfriendly, and the travelers sought refuge in the National Gallery. Maisie sat next to him, staring blankly at a room full of paintings that he had confused her with by describing them, with a bored sigh, as a "silly superstition." They showed, with patches of gold and splashes of purple, stiff saints and angular angels, ugly Madonnas and even uglier babies, along with strange prayers and prostration; so at first, she took his words to be a protest against devotional idolatry—especially since he had recently often joined her and Mrs. Wix at morning church, a place of worship chosen by Mrs. Wix, where there was nothing of the sort; no halos on heads, just, during the long sermons, distracting backs of bonnets, and where, as her governess always noted afterward, he paid the most earnest attention. It soon became clear, however, that his comment was merely about the pretentiousness of admiring such ridiculous works—an admonition she accepted from him as submissively as she accepted everything else. The direction their conversation took doesn’t need to be mentioned here: the shift to the dull schoolroom and lonely Mrs. Wix was likely a result of a diminished interest in what was in front of them. Maisie expressed in her own way the truth that she never went home these days without expecting to find her study area empty and the poor priestess cast out. This reflected a clear understanding of her danger, and in response, Sir Claude said, acknowledging the source of that danger, the reassurance I mentioned before. "Don't be afraid, my dear: I’ve made arrangements." It indeed needed a clarification when he saw that it left the child momentarily confused. "I mean that your mother lets me do what I want as long as I let her do what she wants."

"So you are doing what you want?" Maisie asked.

"So you are doing what you want?" Maisie asked.

"Rather, Miss Farange!"

"Actually, Miss Farange!"

Miss Farange turned it over. "And she's doing the same?"

Miss Farange flipped it over. "And she's doing the same?"

"Up to the hilt!"

"Full throttle!"

Again she considered. "Then, please, what may it be?"

Again she thought about it. "So, what could it be?"

"I wouldn't tell you for the whole world."

"I wouldn't tell you for anything."

She gazed at a gaunt Madonna; after which she broke into a slow smile. "Well, I don't care, so long as you do let her."

She stared at a thin Madonna, then slowly smiled. "Well, I don't mind, as long as you let her do it."

"Oh you monster!"—and Sir Claude's gay vehemence brought him to his feet.

"Oh you monster!"—and Sir Claude's vibrant energy got him to his feet.

Another day, in another place—a place in Baker Street where at a hungry hour she had sat down with him to tea and buns—he brought out a question disconnected from previous talk. "I say, you know, what do you suppose your father would do?"

Another day, in another place—a place on Baker Street where, during a hungry hour, she had sat down with him for tea and buns—he suddenly asked a question that didn't follow the previous conversation. "Hey, you know, what do you think your dad would do?"

Maisie hadn't long to cast about or to question his pleasant eyes. "If you were really to go with us? He'd make a great complaint."

Maisie didn't have much time to look around or to wonder about his nice eyes. "What if you actually came with us? He'd definitely complain a lot."

He seemed amused at the term she employed. "Oh I shouldn't mind a 'complaint'!"

He appeared amused by the word she used. "Oh, I wouldn't mind a 'complaint'!"

"He'd talk to every one about it," said Maisie.

"He'd talk to everyone about it," said Maisie.

"Well, I shouldn't mind that either."

"Well, I wouldn't mind that either."

"Of course not," the child hastened to respond. "You've told me you're not afraid of him."

"Of course not," the child quickly replied. "You've told me you're not scared of him."

"The question is are you?" said Sir Claude.

"The question is, are you?" said Sir Claude.

Maisie candidly considered; then she spoke resolutely. "No, not of papa."

Maisie thought honestly for a moment; then she spoke firmly. "No, not of dad."

"But of somebody else?"

"But what about someone else?"

"Certainly, of lots of people."

"Definitely, among many people."

"Of your mother first and foremost of course."

"Of your mother, first and foremost, of course."

"Dear, yes; more of mamma than of—than of—"

"Dear, yes; more of mom than of—than of—"

"Than of what?" Sir Claude asked as she hesitated for a comparison.

"Than what?" Sir Claude asked as she paused to find a comparison.

She thought over all objects of dread. "Than of a wild elephant!" she at last declared. "And you are too," she reminded him as he laughed.

She thought about everything that scared her. "More than a wild elephant!" she finally said. "And you are too," she reminded him as he laughed.

"Oh yes, I am too."

"Oh yes, me too."

Again she meditated. "Why then did you marry her?"

Again she thought about it. "So why did you marry her?"

"Just because I was afraid."

"Just because I was scared."

"Even when she loved you?"

"Even when she loved you?"

"That made her the more alarming."

"That made her even more frightening."

For Maisie herself, though her companion seemed to find it droll, this opened up depths of gravity. "More alarming than she is now?"

For Maisie, even though her companion found it amusing, this revealed serious implications. "More concerning than she is right now?"

"Well, in a different way. Fear, unfortunately, is a very big thing, and there's a great variety of kinds."

"Well, in a different way. Fear, unfortunately, is a huge factor, and there are many different types."

She took this in with complete intelligence. "Then I think I've got them all."

She understood this fully. "Then I guess I've got them all."

"You?" her friend cried. "Nonsense! You're thoroughly 'game.'"

"You?" her friend exclaimed. "That's ridiculous! You're totally up for it."

"I'm awfully afraid of Mrs. Beale," Maisie objected.

"I'm really scared of Mrs. Beale," Maisie said.

He raised his smooth brows. "That charming woman?"

He raised his perfectly shaped eyebrows. "That lovely woman?"

"Well," she answered, "you can't understand it because you're not in the same state."

"Well," she replied, "you can't get it because you're not in the same situation."

She had been going on with a luminous "But" when, across the table, he laid his hand on her arm. "I can understand it," he confessed. "I am in the same state."

She had been continuing with a bright "But" when, across the table, he put his hand on her arm. "I can understand," he admitted. "I am feeling the same way."

"Oh but she likes you so!" Maisie promptly pleaded.

"Oh, but she really likes you!" Maisie quickly insisted.

Sir Claude literally coloured. "That has something to do with it."

Sir Claude literally blushed. "That has something to do with it."

Maisie wondered again. "Being liked with being afraid?"

Maisie wondered again. "Being liked and being afraid?"

"Yes, when it amounts to adoration."

"Yes, when it comes to love."

"Then why aren't you afraid of me?"

"Then why aren't you scared of me?"

"Because with you it amounts to that?" He had kept his hand on her arm. "Well, what prevents is simply that you're the gentlest spirit on earth. Besides—" he pursued; but he came to a pause.

"Is that what it comes down to with you?" He kept his hand on her arm. "Well, what's stopping us is that you're the sweetest person on the planet. Besides—" he continued; but then he stopped.

"Besides—?"

"Besides—?"

"I should be in fear if you were older—there! See—you already make me talk nonsense," the young man added. "The question's about your father. Is he likewise afraid of Mrs. Beale?"

"I should be scared if you were older—there! See—you already make me say foolish things," the young man added. "The question is about your dad. Is he also scared of Mrs. Beale?"

"I think not. And yet he loves her," Maisie mused.

"I don’t think so. And yet he loves her," Maisie reflected.

"Oh no—he doesn't; not a bit!" After which, as his companion stared, Sir Claude apparently felt that he must make this oddity fit with her recollections. "There's nothing of that sort now."

"Oh no—he doesn't; not at all!" After that, as his companion stared, Sir Claude seems to think he needs to align this weirdness with her memories. "There's nothing like that now."

But Maisie only stared the more. "They've changed?"

But Maisie just stared even harder. "They've changed?"

"Like your mother and me."

"Like your mom and I."

She wondered how he knew. "Then you've seen Mrs. Beale again?"

She wondered how he found out. "So you've seen Mrs. Beale again?"

He demurred. "Oh no. She has written to me," he presently subjoined. "She's not afraid of your father either. No one at all is—really." Then he went on while Maisie's little mind, with its filial spring too relaxed from of old for a pang at this want of parental majesty, speculated on the vague relation between Mrs. Beale's courage and the question, for Mrs. Wix and herself, of a neat lodging with their friend. "She wouldn't care a bit if Mr. Farange should make a row."

He hesitated. "Oh no. She has written to me," he added. "She's not scared of your father either. No one really is." Then he continued while Maisie's young mind, too used to being relaxed about parental authority, wondered about the unclear connection between Mrs. Beale's bravery and the issue of finding a tidy place to stay with their friend for Mrs. Wix and herself. "She wouldn't be bothered at all if Mr. Farange decided to cause a scene."

"Do you mean about you and me and Mrs. Wix? Why should she care? It wouldn't hurt her."

"Are you talking about you, me, and Mrs. Wix? Why would she care? It wouldn't hurt her."

Sir Claude, with his legs out and his hand diving into his trousers-pocket, threw back his head with a laugh just perceptibly tempered, as she thought, by a sigh. "My dear stepchild, you're delightful! Look here, we must pay. You've had five buns?"

Sir Claude, with his legs stretched out and his hand digging into his pants pocket, threw back his head with a laugh that she thought was just slightly softened by a sigh. "My dear stepchild, you're wonderful! Listen, we have to settle up. You've had five buns?"

"How can you?" Maisie demanded, crimson under the eye of the young woman who had stepped to their board. "I've had three."

"How can you?" Maisie demanded, blushing under the gaze of the young woman who had approached their table. "I've had three."

Shortly after this Mrs. Wix looked so ill that it was to be feared her ladyship had treated her to some unexampled passage. Maisie asked if anything worse than usual had occurred; whereupon the poor woman brought out with infinite gloom: "He has been seeing Mrs. Beale."

Shortly after this, Mrs. Wix looked so unwell that it seemed likely her ladyship had put her through some rare ordeal. Maisie asked if anything worse than usual had happened; to which the poor woman responded with deep sadness, "He has been seeing Mrs. Beale."

"Sir Claude?" The child remembered what he had said. "Oh no—not seeing her!"

"Sir Claude?" the child recalled what he had said. "Oh no—not seeing her!"

"I beg your pardon. I absolutely know it." Mrs. Wix was as positive as she was dismal.

"I’m sorry. I definitely know it." Mrs. Wix was as certain as she was gloomy.

Maisie nevertheless ventured to challenge her. "And how, please, do you know it?"

Maisie still dared to confront her. "And how, if you don't mind me asking, do you know that?"

She faltered a moment. "From herself. I've been to see her."

She hesitated for a moment. "From her. I went to see her."

Then on Maisie's visible surprise: "I went yesterday while you were out with him. He has seen her repeatedly."

Then, seeing Maisie's obvious surprise, he said, "I went yesterday while you were out with him. He's seen her many times."

It was not wholly clear to Maisie why Mrs. Wix should be prostrate at this discovery; but her general consciousness of the way things could be both perpetrated and resented always eased off for her the strain of the particular mystery. "There may be some mistake. He says he hasn't."

It wasn't totally clear to Maisie why Mrs. Wix was so upset by this discovery, but her overall awareness of how things could happen and be reacted to always made it easier for her to handle the specific mystery. "There might be some mistake. He says he hasn't."

Mrs. Wix turned paler, as if this were a still deeper ground for alarm. "He says so?—he denies that he has seen her?"

Mrs. Wix turned paler, as if this was an even deeper reason for concern. "He says that?—he claims he hasn't seen her?"

"He told me so three days ago. Perhaps she's mistaken," Maisie suggested.

"He told me that three days ago. Maybe she's wrong," Maisie suggested.

"Do you mean perhaps she lies? She lies whenever it suits her, I'm very sure. But I know when people lie—and that's what I've loved in you, that you never do. Mrs. Beale didn't yesterday at any rate. He has seen her."

"Are you suggesting that she lies? She lies whenever it’s convenient for her, I’m sure of that. But I can tell when people are lying—and that’s what I’ve appreciated about you, that you never do. Mrs. Beale didn’t yesterday, that’s for sure. He has seen her."

Maisie was silent a little. "He says not," she then repeated. "Perhaps—perhaps—" Once more she paused.

Maisie was quiet for a moment. "He says no," she repeated. "Maybe—maybe—" She paused again.

"Do you mean perhaps he lies?"

"Do you mean maybe he lies?"

"Gracious goodness, no!" Maisie shouted.

"Oh my goodness, no!" Maisie shouted.

Mrs. Wix's bitterness, however, again overflowed. "He does, he does," she cried, "and it's that that's just the worst of it! They'll take you, they'll take you, and what in the world will then become of me?" She threw herself afresh upon her pupil and wept over her with the inevitable effect of causing the child's own tears to flow. But Maisie couldn't have told you if she had been crying at the image of their separation or at that of Sir Claude's untruth. As regards this deviation it was agreed between them that they were not in a position to bring it home to him. Mrs. Wix was in dread of doing anything to make him, as she said, "worse"; and Maisie was sufficiently initiated to be able to reflect that in speaking to her as he had done he had only wished to be tender of Mrs. Beale. It fell in with all her inclinations to think of him as tender, and she forbore to let him know that the two ladies had, as she would never do, betrayed him.

Mrs. Wix's bitterness spilled over again. "He does, he does," she cried, "and that's just the worst part! They'll take you, they'll take you, and what on earth will happen to me then?" She threw herself on her pupil again and wept over her, inevitably causing the child to cry too. But Maisie couldn't tell you if she was crying because of the thought of their separation or because of Sir Claude's dishonesty. They both agreed that they couldn't hold it against him. Mrs. Wix was terrified of doing anything that might make him, as she put it, "worse," and Maisie was mature enough to understand that when he spoke to her like he did, he was really just trying to be considerate of Mrs. Beale. It suited all her feelings to think of him as caring, and she held back from letting him know that the two ladies had, as she would never do, betrayed him.

She had not long to keep her secret, for the next day, when she went out with him, he suddenly said in reference to some errand he had first proposed: "No, we won't do that—we'll do something else." On this, a few steps from the door, he stopped a hansom and helped her in; then following her he gave the driver over the top an address that she lost. When he was seated beside her she asked him where they were going; to which he replied "My dear child, you'll see." She saw while she watched and wondered that they took the direction of the Regent's Park; but she didn't know why he should make a mystery of that, and it was not till they passed under a pretty arch and drew up at a white house in a terrace from which the view, she thought, must be lovely that, mystified, she clutched him and broke out: "I shall see papa?"

She didn’t have long to keep her secret because the next day, when she went out with him, he suddenly said about an errand he had mentioned before: "No, we won't do that—we'll do something else." A few steps from the door, he stopped a cab and helped her in; then he followed and gave the driver an address that she missed. Once he was sitting next to her, she asked him where they were going, and he replied, "My dear child, you'll see." As she watched and wondered, she noticed they were heading toward Regent's Park, but she didn’t understand why he was making a mystery of it. It wasn’t until they passed under a pretty arch and arrived at a white house in a row, which she thought must have a lovely view, that she became confused and exclaimed, "Am I going to see Dad?"

He looked down at her with a kind smile. "No, probably not. I haven't brought you for that."

He looked down at her with a friendly smile. "No, probably not. That’s not why I brought you here."

"Then whose house is it?"

"Then whose house is this?"

"It's your father's. They've moved here."

"It's your dad's. They moved here."

She looked about: she had known Mr. Farange in four or five houses, and there was nothing astonishing in this except that it was the nicest place yet. "But I shall see Mrs. Beale?"

She looked around: she had met Mr. Farange in four or five different homes, and there was nothing surprising about that except that this was the nicest place so far. "But I will get to see Mrs. Beale?"

"It's to see her that I brought you."

"I'm bringing you to see her."

She stared, very white, and, with her hand on his arm, though they had stopped, kept him sitting in the cab. "To leave me, do you mean?"

She stared, very pale, and with her hand on his arm, even though they had stopped, kept him seated in the cab. "You mean leaving me?"

He could scarce bring it out. "It's not for me to say if you can stay. We must look into it."

He could barely get the words out. "I can't decide if you can stay. We need to figure it out."

"But if I do I shall see papa?"

"But if I do, will I see Dad?"

"Oh some time or other, no doubt." Then Sir Claude went on: "Have you really so very great a dread of that?"

"Oh, at some point, for sure." Then Sir Claude continued: "Are you really that scared of it?"

Maisie glanced away over the apron of the cab—gazed a minute at the green expanse of the Regent's Park and, at this moment colouring to the roots of her hair, felt the full, hot rush of an emotion more mature than any she had yet known. It consisted of an odd unexpected shame at placing in an inferior light, to so perfect a gentleman and so charming a person as Sir Claude, so very near a relative as Mr. Farange. She remembered, however, her friend's telling her that no one was seriously afraid of her father, and she turned round with a small toss of her head. "Oh I dare say I can manage him!"

Maisie looked away over the front of the cab—stared for a moment at the green stretch of Regent's Park and, feeling the heat rise to her cheeks, experienced a deep emotion that was more intense than anything she'd felt before. This emotion was a surprising sense of shame for putting someone as perfect and charming as Sir Claude in a lesser position compared to Mr. Farange, who was so closely related to her. Still, she remembered her friend saying that no one genuinely feared her father, so she turned around with a slight toss of her head. "Oh, I’m sure I can handle him!"

Sir Claude smiled, but she noted that the violence with which she had just changed colour had brought into his own face a slight compunctious and embarrassed flush. It was as if he had caught his first glimpse of her sense of responsibility. Neither of them made a movement to get out, and after an instant he said to her: "Look here, if you say so we won't after all go in."

Sir Claude smiled, but she noticed that the way she had just changed color had given his face a slight, guilty, and embarrassed blush. It was like he had just realized her sense of responsibility for the first time. Neither of them moved to get out, and after a moment, he said to her, "Well, if you want, we can skip going in after all."

"Ah but I want to see Mrs. Beale!" the child gently wailed.

"Ah, but I want to see Mrs. Beale!" the child softly cried.

"But what if she does decide to take you? Then, you know, you'll have to remain."

"But what if she decides to take you? Then, you know, you'll have to stay."

Maisie turned it over. "Straight on—and give you up?"

Maisie flipped it around. "Keep going—and give you up?"

"Well—I don't quite know about giving me up."

"Well—I’m not sure about letting me go."

"I mean as I gave up Mrs. Beale when I last went to mamma's. I couldn't do without you here for anything like so long a time as that." It struck her as a hundred years since she had seen Mrs. Beale, who was on the other side of the door they were so near and whom she yet had not taken the jump to clasp in her arms.

"I gave up Mrs. Beale when I last visited Mom. I couldn't possibly be without you for that long." It felt like a hundred years since she had seen Mrs. Beale, who was just on the other side of the door they were so close to, yet she still hadn't mustered the courage to hug her.

"Oh I dare say you'll see more of me than you've seen of Mrs. Beale. It isn't in me to be so beautifully discreet," Sir Claude said. "But all the same," he continued, "I leave the thing, now that we're here, absolutely with you. You must settle it. We'll only go in if you say so. If you don't say so we'll turn right round and drive away."

"Oh, I bet you'll see more of me than you've seen of Mrs. Beale. It's not in me to be that discreet," Sir Claude said. "But still," he continued, "I'm leaving this decision entirely with you now that we're here. You have to decide. We'll only go in if you say so. If you don't, we'll just turn around and drive away."

"So in that case Mrs. Beale won't take me?"

"So, does that mean Mrs. Beale isn't taking me?"

"Well—not by any act of ours."

"Well—not because of anything we did."

"And I shall be able to go on with mamma?" Maisie asked.

"And I can still go on with Mom?" Maisie asked.

"Oh I don't say that!"

"Oh, I wouldn't say that!"

She considered. "But I thought you said you had squared her?"

She thought for a moment. "But I thought you said you had taken care of her?"

Sir Claude poked his stick at the splashboard of the cab. "Not, my dear child, to the point she now requires."

Sir Claude poked his stick at the dashboard of the cab. "Not, my dear child, to the extent she now needs."

"Then if she turns me out and I don't come here—"

"Then if she kicks me out and I don't come here—"

Sir Claude promptly took her up. "What do I offer you, you naturally enquire? My poor chick, that's just what I ask myself. I don't see it, I confess, quite as straight as Mrs. Wix."

Sir Claude quickly responded to her. "What do I offer you, you naturally ask? My dear, that's exactly what I'm wondering myself. I don't see it, to be honest, quite as clearly as Mrs. Wix."

His companion gazed a moment at what Mrs. Wix saw. "You mean we can't make a little family?"

His companion looked for a moment at what Mrs. Wix was seeing. "You mean we can't start a little family?"

"It's very base of me, no doubt, but I can't wholly chuck your mother."

"It's really low of me, no doubt, but I can't completely let go of your mom."

Maisie, at this, emitted a low but lengthened sigh, a slight sound of reluctant assent which would certainly have been amusing to an auditor. "Then there isn't anything else?"

Maisie let out a long, soft sigh, a faint sound of unwilling agreement that would definitely have been amusing to anyone listening. "So there's nothing else?"

"I vow I don't quite see what there is."

"I swear I don't really see what the deal is."

Maisie waited; her silence seemed to signify that she too had no alternative to suggest. But she made another appeal. "If I come here you'll come to see me?"

Maisie waited; her silence suggested that she also had no other options to propose. But she made another request. "If I come here, will you come to see me?"

"I won't lose sight of you."

"I won't take my eyes off you."

"But how often will you come?" As he hung fire she pressed him. "Often and often?"

"But how often will you come?" As he hesitated, she pressed him. "Often and often?"

Still he faltered. "My dear old woman—" he began. Then he paused again, going on the next moment with a change of tone. "You're too funny! Yes then," he said; "often and often."

Still he hesitated. "My dear old woman—" he started. Then he paused again, continuing a moment later with a different tone. "You're so funny! Alright then," he said; "many times."

"All right!" Maisie jumped out. Mrs. Beale was at home, but not in the drawing-room, and when the butler had gone for her the child suddenly broke out: "But when I'm here what will Mrs. Wix do?"

"All right!" Maisie jumped out. Mrs. Beale was at home, but not in the living room, and when the butler went to get her, the child suddenly exclaimed, "But when I'm here, what will Mrs. Wix do?"

"Ah you should have thought of that sooner!" said her companion with the first faint note of asperity she had ever heard him sound.

"Ah, you should have thought of that earlier!" said her companion, with the first hint of annoyance she had ever heard from him.

 

 

XIV
 

Mrs Beale fairly swooped upon her and the effect of the whole hour was to show the child how much, how quite formidably indeed, after all, she was loved. This was the more the case as her stepmother, so changed—in the very manner of her mother—that she really struck her as a new acquaintance, somehow recalled more familiarity than Maisie could feel. A rich strong expressive affection in short pounced upon her in the shape of a handsomer, ampler, older Mrs. Beale. It was like making a fine friend, and they hadn't been a minute together before she felt elated at the way she had met the choice imposed on her in the cab. There was a whole future in the combination of Mrs. Beale's beauty and Mrs. Beale's hug. She seemed to Maisie charming to behold, and also to have no connexion at all with anybody who had once mended underclothing and had meals in the nursery. The child knew one of her father's wives was a woman of fashion, but she had always dimly made a distinction, not applying that epithet without reserve to the other. Mrs. Beale had since their separation acquired a conspicuous right to it, and Maisie's first flush of response to her present delight coloured all her splendour with meanings that this time were sweet. She had told Sir Claude she was afraid of the lady in the Regent's Park; but she had confidence enough to break on the spot, into the frankest appreciation. "Why, aren't you beautiful? Isn't she beautiful, Sir Claude, isn't she?"

Mrs. Beale practically swooped in on her, and the impact of the entire hour showed the child just how much, and quite impressively indeed, she was loved. This was especially true as her stepmother, so transformed—in the very way her mother had been—that she really seemed like a new acquaintance, somehow evoking more familiarity than Maisie could feel. A rich, strong, expressive affection suddenly enveloped her in the form of a more attractive, more ample, older Mrs. Beale. It felt like making a wonderful new friend, and they hadn't even been together a minute before she felt uplifted by how she had faced the choice forced upon her in the cab. There was an entire future in the combination of Mrs. Beale's beauty and her warm embrace. Maisie found her delightful to look at, and also felt that she had no connection at all to the woman who once mended underclothes and ate meals in the nursery. The child knew one of her father's wives was a stylish woman, but she had always vaguely distinguished, never using that term without reservation for the other. Mrs. Beale had, since their separation, clearly earned that distinction, and Maisie's initial spark of joy in her current happiness infused all her magnificence with meanings that were sweet this time. She had told Sir Claude she was afraid of the lady in Regent's Park; but she had enough confidence to immediately express her honest appreciation. "Wow, aren't you beautiful? Isn't she beautiful, Sir Claude, isn't she?"

"The handsomest woman in London, simply," Sir Claude gallantly replied. "Just as sure as you're the best little girl!"

"The most beautiful woman in London, no doubt," Sir Claude charmingly replied. "Just as you are definitely the sweetest little girl!"

Well, the handsomest woman in London gave herself up, with tender lustrous looks and every demonstration of fondness, to a happiness at last clutched again. There was almost as vivid a bloom in her maturity as in mamma's, and it took her but a short time to give her little friend an impression of positive power—an impression that seemed to begin like a long bright day. This was a perception on Maisie's part that neither mamma, nor Sir Claude, nor Mrs. Wix, with their immense and so varied respective attractions, had exactly kindled, and that made an immediate difference when the talk, as it promptly did, began to turn to her father. Oh yes, Mr. Farange was a complication, but she saw now that he wouldn't be one for his daughter. For Mrs. Beale certainly he was an immense one—she speedily made known as much; but Mrs. Beale from this moment presented herself to Maisie as a person to whom a great gift had come. The great gift was just for handling complications. Maisie felt how little she made of them when, after she had dropped to Sir Claude some recall of a previous meeting, he made answer, with a sound of consternation and yet an air of relief, that he had denied to their companion their having, since the day he came for her, seen each other till that moment.

Well, the most beautiful woman in London surrendered herself, with tender, glowing looks and every sign of affection, to a happiness she had finally recaptured. There was almost as vibrant a glow in her maturity as in her mother's, and it didn’t take long for her little friend to see her as someone with real influence—an impression that felt like the start of a long, bright day. This was something Maisie realized that neither her mother, nor Sir Claude, nor Mrs. Wix, with their immense and varied charms, had quite sparked in her, and it made a noticeable difference when the conversation, as it quickly did, turned to her father. Oh yes, Mr. Farange was a complication, but she now understood that he wouldn't be one for his daughter. For Mrs. Beale, he certainly was a huge one—she quickly made that clear; but from this moment on, Maisie saw Mrs. Beale as someone to whom a great gift had arrived. The great gift was simply about managing complications. Maisie sensed how little she cared about them when, after she had reminded Sir Claude of a previous meeting, he responded with a mix of alarm and relief, saying he had told their companion that they hadn’t seen each other since the day he came to fetch her, until this moment.

Mrs. Beale could but vaguely pity it. "Why did you do anything so silly?"

Mrs. Beale could only vaguely feel sorry for it. "Why did you do something so foolish?"

"To protect your reputation."

"To safeguard your reputation."

"From Maisie?" Mrs. Beale was much amused. "My reputation with Maisie is too good to suffer."

"From Maisie?" Mrs. Beale chuckled. "My reputation with Maisie is too solid to take a hit."

"But you believed me, you rascal, didn't you?" Sir Claude asked of the child.

"But you believed me, you little rascal, didn't you?" Sir Claude asked the child.

She looked at him; she smiled. "Her reputation did suffer. I discovered you had been here."

She looked at him and smiled. "Her reputation took a hit. I found out you had been here."

He was not too chagrined to laugh. "The way, my dear, you talk of that sort of thing!"

He wasn't so embarrassed that he couldn't laugh. "The way you talk about that kind of thing, my dear!"

"How should she talk," Mrs. Beale wanted to know, "after all this wretched time with her mother?"

"How should she speak," Mrs. Beale wanted to know, "after all this awful time with her mother?"

"It was not mamma who told me," Maisie explained. "It was only Mrs. Wix." She was hesitating whether to bring out before Sir Claude the source of Mrs. Wix's information; but Mrs. Beale, addressing the young man, showed the vanity of scruples.

"It wasn't Mom who told me," Maisie explained. "It was just Mrs. Wix." She was unsure whether to reveal to Sir Claude where Mrs. Wix got her information; however, Mrs. Beale, speaking to the young man, highlighted the foolishness of her doubts.

"Do you know that preposterous person came to see me a day or two ago?—when I told her I had seen you repeatedly."

"Do you know that ridiculous person came to see me a day or two ago?—when I told her I had seen you several times."

Sir Claude, for once in a way, was disconcerted. "The old cat! She never told me. Then you thought I had lied?" he demanded of Maisie.

Sir Claude, for once, was taken aback. "The old cat! She never told me. So you thought I had lied?" he asked Maisie.

She was flurried by the term with which he had qualified her gentle friend, but she took the occasion for one to which she must in every manner lend herself. "Oh I didn't mind! But Mrs. Wix did," she added with an intention benevolent to her governess.

She was taken aback by the way he described her gentle friend, but she saw it as a chance to step in and support her. "Oh, I didn't mind! But Mrs. Wix did," she added, wanting to be kind to her governess.

Her intention was not very effective as regards Mrs. Beale. "Mrs. Wix is too idiotic!" that lady declared.

Her intention didn't really work with Mrs. Beale. "Mrs. Wix is so clueless!" that lady said.

"But to you, of all people," Sir Claude asked, "what had she to say?"

"But to you, of all people," Sir Claude asked, "what did she have to say?"

"Why that, like Mrs. Micawber—whom she must, I think, rather resemble—she will never, never, never desert Miss Farange."

"Why, like Mrs. Micawber—whom I think she resembles—she will never, never, never abandon Miss Farange."

"Oh I'll make that all right!" Sir Claude cheerfully returned.

"Oh, I'll take care of that!" Sir Claude cheerfully replied.

"I'm sure I hope so, my dear man," said Mrs. Beale, while Maisie wondered just how he would proceed. Before she had time to ask Mrs. Beale continued: "That's not all she came to do, if you please. But you'll never guess the rest."

"I'm sure I hope so, my dear man," said Mrs. Beale, while Maisie wondered how he would go about it. Before she had a chance to ask, Mrs. Beale continued: "That's not everything she came to do, if you please. But you'll never guess the rest."

"Shall I guess it?" Maisie quavered.

"Should I guess it?" Maisie quavered.

Mrs. Beale was again amused. "Why you're just the person! It must be quite the sort of thing you've heard at your awful mother's. Have you never seen women there crying to her to 'spare' the men they love?"

Mrs. Beale was once again entertained. "You're exactly the right person for this! It must be just like what you've heard at your terrible mother's place. Have you never seen women there begging her to 'spare' the men they care about?"

Maisie, wondering, tried to remember; but Sir Claude was freshly diverted. "Oh they don't trouble about Ida! Mrs. Wix cried to you to spare me?"

Maisie, curious, tried to remember; but Sir Claude was newly distracted. "Oh, they don't care about Ida! Mrs. Wix pleaded with you to spare me?"

"She regularly went down on her knees to me."

"She often knelt down to me."

"The darling old dear!" the young man exclaimed.

"The sweet old dear!" the young man exclaimed.

These words were a joy to Maisie—they made up for his previous description of Mrs. Wix. "And will you spare him?" she asked of Mrs. Beale.

These words brought joy to Maisie—they made up for his earlier description of Mrs. Wix. "So, will you spare him?" she asked Mrs. Beale.

Her stepmother, seizing her and kissing her again, seemed charmed with the tone of her question. "Not an inch of him! I'll pick him to the bone!"

Her stepmother, grabbing her and kissing her again, appeared delighted by the tone of her question. "Not a bit of him! I'll strip him bare!"

"You mean that he'll really come often?" Maisie pressed.

"You mean he'll actually come by often?" Maisie pressed.

Mrs. Beale turned lovely eyes to Sir Claude. "That's not for me to say—its for him."

Mrs. Beale looked at Sir Claude with beautiful eyes. "That's not up to me to decide—it's for him."

He said nothing at once, however; with his hands in his pockets and vaguely humming a tune—even Maisie could see he was a little nervous—he only walked to the window and looked out at the Regent's Park. "Well, he has promised," Maisie said. "But how will papa like it?"

He didn’t say anything right away; with his hands in his pockets and softly humming a tune—even Maisie could tell he was a bit nervous—he just walked to the window and looked out at Regent's Park. "Well, he has promised," Maisie said. "But how will Dad feel about it?"

"His being in and out? Ah that's a question that, to be frank with you, my dear, hardly matters. In point of fact, however, Beale greatly enjoys the idea that Sir Claude too, poor man, has been forced to quarrel with your mother."

"His coming and going? Well, to be honest with you, my dear, it doesn’t really matter. But actually, Beale really enjoys the thought that Sir Claude, poor guy, has had to argue with your mother."

Sir Claude turned round and spoke gravely and kindly. "Don't be afraid, Maisie; you won't lose sight of me."

Sir Claude turned around and spoke seriously and kindly. "Don't worry, Maisie; you won't lose track of me."

"Thank you so much!" Maisie was radiant. "But what I meant—don't you know?—was what papa would say to me."

"Thank you so much!" Maisie was glowing. "But what I meant—don't you get it?—was what Dad would say to me."

"Oh I've been having that out with him," said Mrs. Beale. "He'll behave well enough. You see the great difficulty is that, though he changes every three days about everything else in the world, he has never changed about your mother. It's a caution, the way he hates her."

"Oh, I've been having that conversation with him," said Mrs. Beale. "He'll behave just fine. The real issue is that, even though he switches his opinions every few days about everything else, he's never changed his feelings about your mother. It's incredible how much he hates her."

Sir Claude gave a short laugh. "It certainly can't beat the way she still hates him!"

Sir Claude let out a quick laugh. "It definitely can't top how much she still hates him!"

"Well," Mrs. Beale went on obligingly, "nothing can take the place of that feeling with either of them, and the best way they can think of to show it is for each to leave you as long as possible on the hands of the other. There's nothing, as you've seen for yourself, that makes either so furious. It isn't, asking so little as you do, that you're much of an expense or a trouble; it's only that you make each feel so well how nasty the other wants to be. Therefore Beale goes on loathing your mother too much to have any great fury left for any one else. Besides, you know, I've squared him."

"Well," Mrs. Beale continued willingly, "nothing can replace that feeling with either of them, and the best way they can think to show it is by each leaving you as much as possible in the care of the other. There's nothing, as you've seen for yourself, that makes either of them so furious. It’s not that you’re causing much trouble or expense; it’s just that you make each of them very aware of how much the other wants to be unpleasant. So, Beale continues to dislike your mother too much to have any real anger left for anyone else. Besides, you know, I’ve got him under control."

"Oh Lord!" Sir Claude cried with a louder laugh and turning again to the window.

"Oh Lord!" Sir Claude exclaimed with an even louder laugh as he turned back to the window.

"I know how!" Maisie was prompt to proclaim. "By letting him do what he wants on condition that he lets you also do it."

I know how!" Maisie quickly said. "By letting him do what he wants as long as he lets you do it too."

"You're too delicious, my own pet!"—she was involved in another hug. "How in the world have I got on so long without you? I've not been happy, love," said Mrs. Beale with her cheek to the child's.

"You're so adorable, my little one!"—she had her in another hug. "How on earth have I gone so long without you? I haven't been happy, sweetheart," said Mrs. Beale, resting her cheek against the child's.

"Be happy now!"—she throbbed with shy tenderness.

"Be happy now!"—she felt a warm sense of tender shyness.

"I think I shall be. You'll save me."

"I think I will be. You’ll save me."

"As I'm saving Sir Claude?" the little girl asked eagerly.

"As I'm saving Sir Claude?" the little girl asked excitedly.

Mrs. Beale, a trifle at a loss, appealed to her visitor, "Is she really?"

Mrs. Beale, somewhat confused, turned to her visitor, "Is she really?"

He showed high amusement at Maisie's question. "It's dear Mrs. Wix's idea. There may be something in it."

He found Maisie's question very amusing. "It's the idea of dear Mrs. Wix. There might be something to it."

"He makes me his duty—he makes me his life," Maisie set forth to her stepmother.

"He makes me his responsibility—he makes me his whole world," Maisie told her stepmother.

"Why that's what I want to do!"—Mrs. Beale, so anticipated, turned pink with astonishment.

"Why, that's exactly what I want to do!"—Mrs. Beale, who everyone was eager to hear from, blushed in surprise.

"Well, you can do it together. Then he'll have to come!"

"Well, you can do it together. Then he'll have to come!"

Mrs. Beale by this time had her young friend fairly in her lap and she smiled up at Sir Claude. "Shall we do it together?"

Mrs. Beale had her young friend comfortably in her lap and smiled up at Sir Claude. "Should we do it together?"

His laughter had dropped, and for a moment he turned his handsome serious face not to his hostess, but to his stepdaughter. "Well, it's rather more decent than some things. Upon my soul, the way things are going, it seems to me the only decency!" He had the air of arguing it out to Maisie, of presenting it, through an impulse of conscience, as a connexion in which they could honourably see her participate; though his plea of mere "decency" might well have appeared to fall below her rosy little vision. "If we're not good for you" he exclaimed, "I'll be hanged if I know who we shall be good for!"

His laughter had faded, and for a moment he turned his handsome serious face not to his hostess, but to his stepdaughter. "Well, it's definitely better than some things. Honestly, with how things are going, it seems to me the only decent thing!" He seemed to be trying to convince Maisie, suggesting, out of a sense of duty, that this was a connection in which they could respectfully include her; although his argument of mere "decency" might have seemed beneath her cheerful little outlook. "If we're not good for you," he exclaimed, "then I have no idea who we will be good for!"

Mrs. Beale showed the child an intenser light. "I dare say you will save us—from one thing and another."

Mrs. Beale showed the child a brighter light. "I’m sure you will save us—from one thing or another."

"Oh I know what she'll save me from!" Sir Claude roundly asserted. "There'll be rows of course," he went on.

"Oh, I know what she'll save me from!" Sir Claude confidently stated. "There will be arguments, of course," he continued.

Mrs. Beale quickly took him up. "Yes, but they'll be nothing—for you at least—to the rows your wife makes as it is. I can bear what I suffer—I can't bear what you go through."

Mrs. Beale quickly responded, "Yes, but they won't mean anything—at least not to you—compared to the fights your wife causes already. I can handle what I go through—I can't stand watching what you endure."

"We're doing a good deal for you, you know, young woman," Sir Claude went on to Maisie with the same gravity.

"We're doing quite a lot for you, you know, young lady," Sir Claude continued to Maisie with the same seriousness.

She coloured with a sense of obligation and the eagerness of her desire it should be remarked how little was lost on her. "Oh I know!"

She colored with a sense of duty and the excitement of wanting people to notice how much she understood. "Oh, I know!"

"Then you must keep us all right!" This time he laughed.

"Then you have to take care of us all!" This time he laughed.

"How you talk to her!" cried Mrs. Beale.

"Watch how you talk to her!" shouted Mrs. Beale.

"No worse than you!" he gaily answered.

"No worse than you!" he cheerfully replied.

"Handsome is that handsome does!" she returned in the same spirit. "You can take off your things," she went on, releasing Maisie.

"Good looks are all about what you do!" she replied with the same attitude. "You can take off your stuff," she continued, letting go of Maisie.

The child, on her feet, was all emotion. "Then I'm just to stop—this way?"

The child stood, full of emotion. "So I just stop—like this?"

"It will do as well as any other. Sir Claude, to-morrow, will have your things brought."

"It'll do just as well as anything else. Sir Claude will have your things brought over tomorrow."

"I'll bring them myself. Upon my word I'll see them packed!" Sir Claude promised. "Come here and unbutton."

"I'll bring them myself. I promise I'll make sure they're packed!" Sir Claude said. "Come here and unbutton."

He had beckoned his young companion to where he sat, and he helped to disengage her from her coverings while Mrs. Beale, from a little distance, smiled at the hand he displayed. "There's a stepfather for you! I'm bound to say, you know, that he makes up for the want of other people."

He called over his young companion to where he was sitting and helped her get free from her layers while Mrs. Beale, at a short distance away, smiled at the hand he showed. "There's a stepdad for you! I have to say, you know, that he makes up for the lack of others."

"He makes up for the want of a nurse!" Sir Claude laughed. "Don't you remember I told you so the very first time?"

"He makes up for the lack of a nurse!" Sir Claude laughed. "Don't you remember I told you that the very first time?"

"Remember? It was exactly what made me think so well of you!"

"Remember? That’s exactly why I thought so highly of you!"

"Nothing would induce me," the young man said to Maisie, "to tell you what made me think so well of her." Having divested the child he kissed her gently and gave her a little pat to make her stand off. The pat was accompanied with a vague sigh in which his gravity of a moment before came back. "All the same, if you hadn't had the fatal gift of beauty—"

"Nothing would convince me," the young man said to Maisie, "to tell you what made me think so highly of her." After taking off the child, he kissed her gently and gave her a little pat to make her step back. The pat was accompanied by a vague sigh that brought back his seriousness from a moment before. "Still, if you hadn't had that troublesome gift of beauty—"

"Well, what?" Maisie asked, wondering why he paused. It was the first time she had heard of her beauty.

"Well, what?" Maisie asked, curious about why he stopped. It was the first time she had heard someone mention her beauty.

"Why, we shouldn't all be thinking so well of each other!"

"Come on, we shouldn't all be thinking so highly of one another!"

"He isn't speaking of personal loveliness—you've not that vulgar beauty, my dear, at all," Mrs. Beale explained. "He's just talking of plain dull charm of character."

"He isn't talking about personal beauty—you definitely don't have that kind of shallow looks, my dear," Mrs. Beale explained. "He's just referring to the simple, unremarkable charm of character."

"Her character's the most extraordinary thing in all the world," Sir Claude stated to Mrs. Beale.

"Her character is the most amazing thing in the entire world," Sir Claude said to Mrs. Beale.

"Oh I know all about that sort of thing!"—she fairly bridled with the knowledge.

"Oh, I know all about that kind of thing!"—she was practically bursting with confidence.

It gave Maisie somehow a sudden sense of responsibility from which she sought refuge. "Well, you've got it too, 'that sort of thing'—you've got the fatal gift: you both really have!" she broke out.

It suddenly made Maisie feel a sense of responsibility that she wanted to escape from. "Well, you have it too, 'that sort of thing'—you have the fatal gift: you both really do!" she exclaimed.

"Beauty of character? My dear boy, we haven't a pennyworth!" Sir Claude protested.

"Beauty of character? My dear boy, we don’t have a dime!" Sir Claude protested.

"Speak for yourself, sir!" she leaped lightly from Mrs. Beale. "I'm good and I'm clever. What more do you want? For you, I'll spare your blushes and not be personal—I'll simply say that you're as handsome as you can stick together."

"Speak for yourself, sir!" she jumped playfully from Mrs. Beale. "I'm good and I'm smart. What more do you want? For you, I'll save you the embarrassment and not get personal—I'll just say that you're as good-looking as you can be."

"You're both very lovely; you can't get out of it!"—Maisie felt the need of carrying her point. "And it's beautiful to see you side by side."

"You're both really lovely; there's no way around it!"—Maisie felt the need to make her point. "And it's wonderful to see you together."

Sir Claude had taken his hat and stick; he stood looking at her a moment. "You're a comfort in trouble! But I must go home and pack you."

Sir Claude had grabbed his hat and stick; he paused for a moment, looking at her. "You're such a comforting presence in tough times! But I need to go home and get you ready."

"And when will you come back?—to-morrow, to-morrow?"

"And when will you come back?—tomorrow, tomorrow?"

"You see what we're in for!" he said to Mrs. Beale.

"You see what we're up against!" he said to Mrs. Beale.

"Well, I can bear it if you can."

"Well, I can handle it if you can."

Their companion gazed from one of them to the other, thinking that though she had been happy indeed between Sir Claude and Mrs. Wix she should evidently be happier still between Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale. But it was like being perched on a prancing horse, and she made a movement to hold on to something. "Then, you know, shan't I bid goodbye to Mrs. Wix?"

Their companion looked from one to the other, realizing that although she had been quite happy with Sir Claude and Mrs. Wix, she'd obviously be even happier with Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale. But it felt like riding a spirited horse, and she reached out to grab something for balance. "So, does that mean I shouldn’t say goodbye to Mrs. Wix?"

"Oh I'll make it all right with her," said Sir Claude.

"Oh, I'll make it all right with her," said Sir Claude.

Maisie considered. "And with mamma?"

Maisie thought. "And with mom?"

"Ah mamma!" he sadly laughed.

"Ah mom!" he sadly laughed.

Even for the child this was scarcely ambiguous; but Mrs. Beale endeavoured to contribute to its clearness. "Your mother will crow, she'll crow—"

Even for the child, this was hardly unclear; but Mrs. Beale tried to make it clearer. "Your mom will be so proud, she'll be so proud—"

"Like the early bird!" said Sir Claude as she looked about for a comparison.

"Just like the early bird!" said Sir Claude as she searched for a comparison.

"She'll need no consolation," Mrs. Beale went on, "for having made your father grandly blaspheme."

"She won't need any comfort," Mrs. Beale continued, "for making your father swear so dramatically."

Maisie stared. "Will he grandly blaspheme?" It was impressive, it might have been out of the Bible, and her question produced a fresh play of caresses, in which Sir Claude also engaged. She wondered meanwhile who, if Mrs. Wix was disposed of, would represent in her life the element of geography and anecdote; and she presently surmounted the delicacy she felt about asking. "Won't there be any one to give me lessons?"

Maisie stared. "Is he going to blaspheme dramatically?" It was striking; it could have come straight out of the Bible, and her question sparked a new round of affectionate gestures that Sir Claude joined in on as well. She thought about who, if Mrs. Wix was no longer around, would bring the aspects of geography and stories into her life; and she soon overcame the hesitation she felt about asking. "Will there be anyone to give me lessons?"

Mrs. Beale was prepared with a reply that struck her as absolutely magnificent. "You shall have such lessons as you've never had in all your life. You shall go to courses."

Mrs. Beale was ready with a response that she thought was truly amazing. "You will have lessons like you've never experienced before. You'll take courses."

"Courses?" Maisie had never heard of such things.

"Courses?" Maisie had never heard of anything like that.

"At institutions—on subjects."

"At institutions—on topics."

Maisie continued to stare. "Subjects?"

Maisie kept staring. "Subjects?"

Mrs. Beale was really splendid. "All the most important ones. French literature—and sacred history. You'll take part in classes—with awfully smart children."

Mrs. Beale was truly amazing. "All the most important subjects—French literature and religious history. You'll join classes with really bright kids."

"I'm going to look thoroughly into the whole thing, you know." And Sir Claude, with characteristic kindness, gave her a nod of assurance accompanied by a friendly wink.

"I'm going to look into this completely, you know." And Sir Claude, being his usual kind self, gave her a reassuring nod along with a friendly wink.

But Mrs. Beale went much further. "My dear child, you shall attend lectures."

But Mrs. Beale went much further. "My dear, you will attend lectures."

The horizon was suddenly vast and Maisie felt herself the smaller for it. "All alone?"

The horizon suddenly seemed endless, and Maisie felt tiny in comparison. "All alone?"

"Oh no; I'll attend them with you," said Sir Claude. "They'll teach me a lot I don't know."

"Oh no, I'll go with you," said Sir Claude. "They'll teach me a lot that I don't know."

"So they will me," Mrs. Beale gravely admitted. "We'll go with her together—it will be charming. It's ages," she confessed to Maisie, "since I've had any time for study. That's another sweet way in which you'll be a motive to us. Oh won't the good she'll do us be immense?" she broke out uncontrollably to Sir Claude.

"So they will me," Mrs. Beale said seriously. "We'll go with her together—it'll be lovely. It's been so long," she admitted to Maisie, "since I've had any time to study. That's another lovely way you'll inspire us. Oh, the good she’ll bring us will be enormous," she exclaimed uncontrollably to Sir Claude.

He weighed it; then he replied: "That's certainly our idea."

He thought about it for a moment and then said, "That’s definitely our idea."

Of this idea Maisie naturally had less of a grasp, but it inspired her with almost equal enthusiasm. If in so bright a prospect there would be nothing to long for it followed that she wouldn't long for Mrs. Wix; but her consciousness of her assent to the absence of that fond figure caused a pair of words that had often sounded in her ears to ring in them again. It showed her in short what her father had always meant by calling her mother a "low sneak" and her mother by calling her father one. She wondered if she herself shouldn't be a low sneak in learning to be so happy without Mrs. Wix. What would Mrs. Wix do?—where would Mrs. Wix go? Before Maisie knew it, and at the door, as Sir Claude was off, these anxieties, on her lips, grew articulate and her stepfather had stopped long enough to answer them. "Oh I'll square her!" he cried; and with this he departed.

Of this idea, Maisie naturally understood less, but it filled her with almost the same excitement. If such a bright future meant there was nothing to miss, then she wouldn’t miss Mrs. Wix. However, her awareness of agreeing to that absence brought back a couple of words that had often echoed in her ears. It clarified what her father had always meant by calling her mother a "low sneak" and what her mother meant when she called her father one. She wondered if she herself shouldn’t be considered a low sneak for being so happy without Mrs. Wix. What would Mrs. Wix do? Where would she go? Before Maisie realized it, right at the door as Sir Claude was leaving, these worries spilled out, and her stepfather paused long enough to respond. "Oh, I’ll take care of her!" he said, and with that, he left.

Face to face with Mrs. Beale, Maisie, giving a sigh of relief, looked round at what seemed to her the dawn of a higher order. "Then every one will be squared!" she peacefully said. On which her stepmother affectionately bent over her again.

Face to face with Mrs. Beale, Maisie, letting out a sigh of relief, looked around at what felt like the start of a better situation. "So, everyone will be taken care of!" she said contentedly. At this, her stepmother lovingly leaned over her once more.

 

 

XV
 

It was Susan Ash who came to her with the news: "He's downstairs, miss, and he do look beautiful."

It was Susan Ash who brought her the news: "He's downstairs, miss, and he looks stunning."

In the schoolroom at her father's, which had pretty blue curtains, she had been making out at the piano a lovely little thing, as Mrs. Beale called it, a "Moonlight Berceuse" sent her through the post by Sir Claude, who considered that her musical education had been deplorably neglected and who, the last months at her mother's, had been on the point of making arrangements for regular lessons. She knew from him familiarly that the real thing, as he said, was shockingly dear and that anything else was a waste of money, and she therefore rejoiced the more at the sacrifice represented by this composition, of which the price, five shillings, was marked on the cover and which was evidently the real thing. She was already on her feet. "Mrs. Beale has sent up for me?"

In her father's classroom, with its pretty blue curtains, she had been working on a lovely little piece at the piano, which Mrs. Beale referred to as a "Moonlight Berceuse." Sir Claude had mailed it to her, believing that her musical education had been seriously overlooked. In the past few months at her mother's place, he had almost arranged for her to have regular lessons. He had told her that the genuine articles, as he put it, were shockingly expensive and that anything less was just a waste of money. So, she felt even happier about the sacrifice represented by this composition, which had a price of five shillings marked on the cover and was clearly the real deal. She was already getting up. "Mrs. Beale has sent for me?"

"Oh no—it's not that," said Susan Ash. "Mrs. Beale has been out this hour."

"Oh no, that's not it," said Susan Ash. "Mrs. Beale has been out this whole hour."

"Then papa!"

"Then dad!"

"Dear no—not papa. You'll do, miss, all but them wandering 'airs," Susan went on. "Your papa never came 'ome at all," she added.

"Not him—not dad. You'll do, miss, just not those wandering 'ights," Susan continued. "Your dad never came home at all," she added.

"Home from where?" Maisie responded a little absently and very excitedly. She gave a wild manual brush to her locks.

"Home from where?" Maisie replied a bit absentmindedly and quite excitedly. She gave her hair a quick, wild brush.

"Oh that, miss, I should be very sorry to tell you! I'd rather tuck away that white thing behind—though I'm blest if it's my work."

"Oh, miss, I’d be really sorry to tell you that! I’d rather hide that white thing away—though I swear it’s not my doing."

"Do then, please. I know where papa was," Maisie impatiently continued.

"Go ahead, please. I know where dad was," Maisie said impatiently.

"Well, in your place I wouldn't tell."

"Well, if I were you, I wouldn't say anything."

"He was at the club—the Chrysanthemum. So!"

"He was at the club—the Chrysanthemum. So!"

"All night long? Why the flowers shut up at night, you know!" cried Susan Ash.

"All night long? Why do the flowers close up at night, you know!" cried Susan Ash.

"Well, I don't care"—he child was at the door. "Sir Claude asked for me alone?"

"Well, I don't care," the child said at the door. "Did Sir Claude ask for me alone?"

"The same as if you was a duchess."

"The same as if you were a duchess."

Maisie was aware on her way downstairs that she was now quite as happy as one, and also, a moment later, as she hung round his neck, that even such a personage would scarce commit herself more grandly. There was moreover a hint of the duchess in the infinite point with which, as she felt, she exclaimed: "And this is what you call coming often?"

Maisie realized on her way downstairs that she was just as happy as anyone could be, and a moment later, as she wrapped her arms around his neck, she thought that even someone like him wouldn't express themselves more grandly. There was also a touch of the duchess in the very precise way she felt as she exclaimed, "And this is what you call coming often?"

Sir Claude met her delightfully and in the same fine spirit. "My dear old man, don't make me a scene—I assure you it's what every woman I look at does. Let us have some fun—it's a lovely day: clap on something smart and come out with me; then we'll talk it over quietly."

Sir Claude greeted her warmly and with the same cheerful attitude. "My dear old man, please don’t make a fuss—I promise you it’s how every woman I see acts. Let’s enjoy ourselves—it’s a beautiful day: put on something nice and come out with me; then we can discuss it calmly."

They were on their way five minutes later to Hyde Park, and nothing that even in the good days at her mother's they had ever talked over had more of the sweetness of tranquillity than his present prompt explanations. He was at his best in such an office and with the exception of Mrs. Wix the only person she had met in her life who ever explained. With him, however, the act had an authority transcending the wisdom of woman. It all came back—the plans that always failed, all the rewards and bribes that she was perpetually paying for in advance and perpetually out of pocket by afterwards—the whole great stress to be dealt with introduced her on each occasion afresh to the question of money. Even she herself almost knew how it would have expressed the strength of his empire to say that to shuffle away her sense of being duped he had only, from under his lovely moustache, to breathe upon it. It was somehow in the nature of plans to be expensive and in the nature of the expensive to be impossible. To be "involved" was of the essence of everybody's affairs, and also at every particular moment to be more involved than usual. This had been the case with Sir Claude's, with papa's, with mamma's, with Mrs. Beale's and with Maisie's own at the particular moment, a moment of several weeks, that had elapsed since our young lady had been re-established at her father's. There wasn't "two-and-tuppence" for anything or for any one, and that was why there had been no sequel to the classes in French literature with all the smart little girls. It was devilish awkward, didn't she see? to try, without even the limited capital mentioned, to mix her up with a remote array that glittered before her after this as the children of the rich. She was to feel henceforth as if she were flattening her nose upon the hard window-pane of the sweet-shop of knowledge. If the classes, however, that were select, and accordingly the only ones, were impossibly dear, the lectures at the institutions—at least at some of them—were directly addressed to the intelligent poor, and it therefore had to be easier still to produce on the spot the reason why she had been taken to none. This reason, Sir Claude said, was that she happened to be just going to be, though they had nothing to do with that in now directing their steps to the banks of the Serpentine. Maisie's own park, in the north, had been nearer at hand, but they rolled westward in a hansom because at the end of the sweet June days this was the direction taken by every one that any one looked at. They cultivated for an hour, on the Row and by the Drive, this opportunity for each observer to amuse and for one of them indeed, not a little hilariously, to mystify the other, and before the hour was over Maisie had elicited, in reply to her sharpest challenge, a further account of her friend's long absence.

They were on their way to Hyde Park five minutes later, and nothing they had ever discussed during her good days at her mom's had more of the peaceful sweetness than his current, eager explanations. He was at his best in this role, and except for Mrs. Wix, he was the only person she had ever met who truly explained things. With him, though, the act had an authority that went beyond any woman’s wisdom. It all came rushing back—the plans that always fell through, all the rewards and bribes she was constantly paying for in advance and always ended up out of pocket later—the whole big stress, which introduced her anew to the topic of money each time. Even she almost understood how powerful it would have been to say that to shake off her feeling of being tricked, he only needed to breathe on it from beneath his lovely mustache. Plans seemed to be inherently expensive, and the expensive things were naturally impossible. Being "involved" was essential to everyone's lives, and at any given moment, everyone was more involved than usual. This was true for Sir Claude, her dad, her mom, Mrs. Beale, and for Maisie herself during this particular time, which had spanned several weeks since she had been reestablished at her dad's. There wasn’t “two-and-tuppence” for anything or anyone, which was why there had been no follow-up to the classes in French literature with all the smart little girls. It was incredibly awkward, didn’t she realize?—to try, without even the small amount of capital mentioned, to link herself with a far-off group that sparkled before her like rich kids. From now on, she was to feel like she was pressing her nose against the hard window of the sweet-shop of knowledge. If the select classes, which were the only ones available, were impossibly expensive, the lectures at the institutions—at least at some of them—were directly aimed at the intelligent poor, making it easier to explain why she hadn’t been taken to any of them. Sir Claude said the reason was that she was just about to be, even though that was irrelevant now as they made their way to the banks of the Serpentine. Maisie’s own park in the north had been closer, but they headed west in a cab because at the end of the sweet June days, this was the direction everyone was going. They enjoyed this chance for people-watching on the Row and along the Drive for an hour, and one of them, not without some humor, even mystified the other. Before the hour was up, Maisie had drawn out, in response to her sharpest questions, another account of her friend’s long absence.

"Why I've broken my word to you so dreadfully—promising so solemnly and then never coming? Well, my dear, that's a question that, not seeing me day after day, you must very often have put to Mrs. Beale."

"Why have I broken my promise to you so badly—making such a serious commitment and then never showing up? Well, my dear, that's a question you must have often asked Mrs. Beale since you don't see me every day."

"Oh yes," the child replied; "again and again."

"Oh yes," the child replied; "over and over."

"And what has she told you?"

"And what did she say to you?"

"That you're as bad as you're beautiful."

"You're as bad as you are beautiful."

"Is that what she says?"

"Is that what she said?"

"Those very words."

"Those exact words."

"Ah the dear old soul!" Sir Claude was much diverted, and his loud, clear laugh was all his explanation. Those were just the words Maisie had last heard him use about Mrs. Wix. She clung to his hand, which was encased in a pearl-grey glove ornamented with the thick black lines that, at her mother's, always used to strike her as connected with the way the bestitched fists of the long ladies carried, with the elbows well out, their umbrellas upside down. The mere sense of his grasp in her own covered the ground of loss just as much as the ground of gain. His presence was like an object brought so close to her face that she couldn't see round its edges. He himself, however, remained showman of the spectacle even after they had passed out of the Park and begun, under the charm of the spot and the season, to stroll in Kensington Gardens. What they had left behind them was, as he said, only a pretty bad circus, and, through prepossessing gates and over a bridge, they had come in a quarter of an hour, as he also remarked, a hundred miles from London. A great green glade was before them, and high old trees, and under the shade of these, in the fresh turf, the crooked course of a rural footpath. "It's the Forest of Arden," Sir Claude had just delightfully observed, "and I'm the banished duke, and you're—what was the young woman called?—the artless country wench. And there," he went on, "is the other girl—what's her name, Rosalind?—and (don't you know?) the fellow who was making up to her. Upon my word he is making up to her!"

"Ah, the dear old soul!" Sir Claude was quite amused, and his loud, clear laugh spoke volumes. Those were exactly the words Maisie had last heard him say about Mrs. Wix. She held onto his hand, which was in a pearl-grey glove decorated with thick black lines that, at her mother's, always reminded her of how the finely dressed women carried their umbrellas upside down, elbows out. The simple feel of his hand in hers filled the gaps of both loss and gain. His presence was like an object brought so close to her face that she couldn't see around it. However, he remained the showman of the moment even after they left the Park and began to stroll in Kensington Gardens, enchanted by the place and the season. What they had left behind, as he said, was just a pretty bad circus, and they had, as he noted, come a hundred miles from London in a mere fifteen minutes through beautiful gates and over a bridge. A large green glade lay before them, with tall old trees and a winding rural footpath in the fresh grass. "It's the Forest of Arden," Sir Claude had just playfully remarked, "and I'm the banished duke, and you're—what was the young woman's name?—the innocent country girl. And there," he continued, "is the other girl—what's her name, Rosalind?—and (do you know?) the guy who's trying to win her over. I swear he is trying to win her over!"

His allusion was to a couple who, side by side, at the end of the glade, were moving in the same direction as themselves. These distant figures, in their slow stroll (which kept them so close together that their heads, drooping a little forward, almost touched), presented the back of a lady who looked tall, who was evidently a very fine woman, and that of a gentleman whose left hand appeared to be passed well into her arm while his right, behind him, made jerky motions with the stick that it grasped. Maisie's fancy responded for an instant to her friend's idea that the sight was idyllic; then, stopping short, she brought out with all her clearness: "Why mercy—if it isn't mamma!"

His reference was to a couple who, side by side, at the end of the clearing, were walking in the same direction as they were. These distant figures, in their leisurely stroll (which kept them so close together that their heads, slightly bowed forward, almost touched), showed the back of a woman who looked tall and was clearly a very impressive person, and that of a man whose left hand seemed to be comfortably hooked into her arm while his right, behind him, made quick movements with the stick he was holding. Maisie's imagination briefly responded to her friend's notion that the scene was picturesque; then, suddenly, she exclaimed with perfect clarity, "Oh my goodness—if it isn't mom!"

Sir Claude paused with a stare. "Mamma? But mamma's at Brussels."

Sir Claude paused and stared. "Mom? But Mom's in Brussels."

Maisie, with her eyes on the lady, wondered. "At Brussels?"

Maisie, looking at the woman, questioned, "In Brussels?"

"She's gone to play a match."

"She’s gone to play a game."

"At billiards? You didn't tell me."

"At billiards? You didn't mention that."

"Of course I didn't!" Sir Claude ejaculated. "There's plenty I don't tell you. She went on Wednesday."

"Of course I didn't!" Sir Claude exclaimed. "There’s a lot I don’t tell you. She left on Wednesday."

The couple had added to their distance, but Maisie's eyes more than kept pace with them. "Then she has come back."

The couple had increased the space between them, but Maisie's eyes followed them closely. "So she has returned."

Sir Claude watched the lady. "It's much more likely she never went!"

Sir Claude watched the woman. "It's way more likely she never went!"

"It's mamma!" the child said with decision.

"It's Mom!" the child said decisively.

They had stood still, but Sir Claude had made the most of his opportunity, and it happened that just at this moment, at the end of the vista, the others halted and, still showing only their backs, seemed to stay talking. "Right you are, my duck!" he exclaimed at last. "It's my own sweet wife!"

They stood still, but Sir Claude took advantage of the moment, and just then, at the end of the path, the others stopped and, still facing away, looked like they were chatting. "Absolutely right, my dear!" he finally said. "It's my lovely wife!"

He had spoken with a laugh, but he had changed colour, and Maisie quickly looked away from him. "Then who is it with her?"

He spoke with a laugh, but he turned pale, and Maisie quickly looked away from him. "Then who is she with?"

"Blest if I know!" said Sir Claude.

"Blessed if I know!" said Sir Claude.

"Is it Mr. Perriam?"

"Is this Mr. Perriam?"

"Oh dear no—Perriam's smashed."

"Oh no—Perriam's broken."

"Smashed?"

"Crushed?"

"Exposed—in the City. But there are quantities of others!" Sir Claude smiled.

"Exposed—in the City. But there are plenty of others!" Sir Claude smiled.

Maisie appeared to count them; she studied the gentleman's back. "Then is this Lord Eric?"

Maisie seemed to be counting them; she was looking at the gentleman's back. "Is this Lord Eric then?"

For a moment her companion made no answer, and when she turned her eyes again to him he was looking at her, she thought, rather queerly. "What do you know about Lord Eric?"

For a moment, her companion didn't respond, and when she looked back at him, she thought he was staring at her in a rather strange way. "What do you know about Lord Eric?"

She tried innocently to be odd in return. "Oh I know more than you think! Is it Lord Eric?" she repeated.

She tried to playfully be quirky in response. "Oh, I know more than you realize! Is it Lord Eric?" she asked again.

"It maybe. Blest if I care!"

"It might be. Blessed if I care!"

Their friends had slightly separated and now, as Sir Claude spoke, suddenly faced round, showing all the splendour of her ladyship and all the mystery of her comrade. Maisie held her breath. "They're coming!"

Their friends had drifted apart a bit, and now, as Sir Claude spoke, she suddenly turned around, showcasing all the elegance of her ladyship and the intrigue of her companion. Maisie held her breath. "They’re coming!"

"Let them come." And Sir Claude, pulling out his cigarettes, began to strike a light.

"Let them come." Sir Claude said, pulling out his cigarettes and starting to light one.

"We shall meet them!"

"We'll meet them!"

"No. They'll meet us."

"No. They'll meet us."

Maisie stood her ground. "They see us. Just look."

Maisie stood firm. "They see us. Just look."

Sir Claude threw away his match. "Come straight on." The others, in the return, evidently startled, had half-paused again, keeping well apart. "She's horribly surprised and wants to slope," he continued. "But it's too late."

Sir Claude tossed his match aside. "Let's keep moving forward." The others, startled by his words, hesitated again, staying far apart from each other. "She's really shocked and wants to leave," he added. "But it's too late for that."

Maisie advanced beside him, making out even across the interval that her ladyship was ill at ease. "Then what will she do?"

Maisie walked alongside him, noticing even from a distance that her ladyship was uncomfortable. "So what’s she going to do?"

Sir Claude puffed his cigarette. "She's quickly thinking." He appeared to enjoy it.

Sir Claude puffed his cigarette. "She's thinking fast." He seemed to enjoy it.

Ida had wavered but an instant; her companion clearly gave her moral support. Maisie thought he somehow looked brave, and he had no likeness whatever to Mr. Perriam. His face, thin and rather sharp, was smooth, and it was not till they came nearer that she saw he had a remarkably fair little moustache. She could already see that his eyes were of the lightest blue. He was far nicer than Mr. Perriam. Mamma looked terrible from afar, but even under her guns the child's curiosity flickered and she appealed again to Sir Claude. "Is it—is it Lord Eric?"

Ida hesitated for just a moment; her companion clearly supported her. Maisie thought he looked brave in some way, and he didn’t resemble Mr. Perriam at all. His face was thin and somewhat sharp, with a smooth complexion, and it wasn't until they got closer that she noticed he had a remarkably fair little mustache. She could already see that his eyes were the lightest blue. He was much nicer than Mr. Perriam. From a distance, Mama looked awful, but even under pressure, the child's curiosity sparked, and she turned to Sir Claude again. "Is it—is it Lord Eric?"

Sir Claude smoked composedly enough. "I think it's the Count."

Sir Claude smoked calmly. "I think it's the Count."

This was a happy solution—it fitted her idea of a count. But what idea, as she now came grandly on, did mamma fit?—unless that of an actress, in some tremendous situation, sweeping down to the footlights as if she would jump them. Maisie felt really so frightened that before she knew it she had passed her hand into Sir Claude's arm. Her pressure caused him to stop, and at the sight of this the other couple came equally to a stand and, beyond the diminished space, remained a moment more in talk. This, however, was the matter of an instant; leaving the Count apparently to come round more circuitously—an outflanking movement, if Maisie had but known—her ladyship resumed the onset. "What will she do now?" her daughter asked.

This was a great solution—it matched her idea of a count. But what idea, as she approached grandly, did mom fit?—unless it was that of an actress in some dramatic moment, sweeping down to the front of the stage as if she were about to leap over it. Maisie felt so scared that before she realized it, she had linked her arm with Sir Claude's. The pressure made him stop, and seeing this, the other couple paused too, remaining in conversation for a moment longer beyond the reduced space. This was just a matter of seconds; leaving the Count to come around in a roundabout way—an outflanking move, if only Maisie had known—her ladyship pressed on. "What will she do now?" her daughter asked.

Sir Claude was at present in a position to say: "Try to pretend it's me."

Sir Claude was currently in a position to say: "Try to act like it's me."

"You?"

"You?"

"Why that I'm up to something."

"Guess what, I'm up to something."

In another minute poor Ida had justified this prediction, erect there before them like a figure of justice in full dress. There were parts of her face that grew whiter while Maisie looked, and other parts in which this change seemed to make other colours reign with more intensity. "What are you doing with my daughter?" she demanded of her husband; in spite of the indignant tone of which Maisie had a greater sense than ever in her life before of not being personally noticed. It seemed to her Sir Claude also grew pale as an effect of the loud defiance with which Ida twice repeated this question. He put her, instead of answering it, an enquiry of his own: "Who the devil have you got hold of now?" and at this her ladyship turned tremendously to the child, glaring at her as at an equal plotter of sin. Maisie received in petrifaction the full force of her mother's huge painted eyes—they were like Japanese lanterns swung under festal arches. But life came back to her from a tone suddenly and strangely softened. "Go straight to that gentleman, my dear; I've asked him to take you a few minutes. He's charming—go. I've something to say to this creature."

In just a minute, poor Ida had proven this prediction right, standing there like a figure of justice in full attire. Parts of her face turned whiter as Maisie watched, while other parts seemed to have their colors intensified by this change. "What are you doing with my daughter?" she demanded of her husband; despite the outrage in her voice, Maisie felt more than ever before that she was not being personally acknowledged. It seemed to her that Sir Claude also went pale in response to the loud defiance with which Ida repeated her question twice. Instead of answering, he asked her his own question: "Who the hell are you with now?" At this, her ladyship turned dramatically to the child, glaring at her as if she were an equal conspirator in wrongdoing. Maisie stood frozen, overwhelmed by the intensity of her mother's heavily made-up eyes—they looked like Japanese lanterns hanging under festive lights. But then, life returned to her from a tone that suddenly and strangely softened. "Go right to that gentleman, dear; I've asked him to spend a few minutes with you. He's lovely—go. I need to talk to this creature."

Maisie felt Sir Claude immediately clutch her. "No, no—thank you: that won't do. She's mine."

Maisie felt Sir Claude immediately grab her. "No, no—thank you: that won't work. She's mine."

"Yours?" It was confounding to Maisie to hear her speak quite as if she had never heard of Sir Claude before.

"Yours?" It confused Maisie to hear her speak as if she had never heard of Sir Claude before.

"Mine. You've given her up. You've not another word to say about her. I have her from her father," said Sir Claude—a statement that startled his companion, who could also measure its lively action on her mother.

"She's mine. You've given her up. You have nothing more to say about her. I have her from her father," said Sir Claude—a statement that shocked his companion, who could also see how it affected her mother.

There was visibly, however, an influence that made Ida consider; she glanced at the gentleman she had left, who, having strolled with his hands in his pockets to some distance, stood there with unembarrassed vagueness. She directed to him the face that was like an illuminated garden, turnstile and all, for the frequentation of which he had his season-ticket; then she looked again at Sir Claude. "I've given her up to her father to keep—not to get rid of by sending about the town either with you or with any one else. If she's not to mind me let him come and tell me so. I decline to take it from another person, and I like your pretending that with your humbug of 'interest' you've a leg to stand on. I know your game and have something now to say to you about it."

There was clearly something that made Ida think; she glanced at the man she had left, who, after walking away with his hands in his pockets, stood there looking vaguely unconcerned. She aimed her garden-like, bright face at him, a place he had a season ticket to visit; then she looked back at Sir Claude. "I've handed her over to her father to keep—not so he can shuffle her around the town with you or anyone else. If she doesn't care about me, let him come and tell me so. I refuse to hear it from anyone else, and I don’t appreciate your pretending that with your nonsense of 'interest' you have any ground to stand on. I know your tricks, and I have something to say to you about it now."

Sir Claude gave a squeeze of the child's arm. "Didn't I tell you she'd have, Miss Farange?"

Sir Claude gave the child's arm a little squeeze. "Didn't I tell you she'd have it, Miss Farange?"

"You're uncommonly afraid to hear it," Ida went on; "but if you think she'll protect you from it you're mightily mistaken." She gave him a moment. "I'll give her the benefit as soon as look at you. Should you like her to know, my dear?" Maisie had a sense of her launching the question with effect; yet our young lady was also conscious of hoping that Sir Claude would declare that preference. We have already learned that she had come to like people's liking her to "know." Before he could reply at all, none the less, her mother opened a pair of arms of extraordinary elegance, and then she felt the loosening of his grasp. "My own child," Ida murmured in a voice—a voice of sudden confused tenderness—that it seemed to her she heard for the first time. She wavered but an instant, thrilled with the first direct appeal, as distinguished from the mere maternal pull, she had ever had from lips that, even in the old vociferous years, had always been sharp. The next moment she was on her mother's breast, where, amid a wilderness of trinkets, she felt as if she had suddenly been thrust, with a smash of glass, into a jeweller's shop-front, but only to be as suddenly ejected with a push and the brisk injunction: "Now go to the Captain!"

"You're pretty scared to hear it," Ida continued; "but if you think she’ll shield you from it, you’re very wrong." She paused for a moment. "I'll give her the benefit of the doubt just by looking at you. Would you like her to know, my dear?" Maisie sensed that she was making an impactful statement; however, our young lady also hoped that Sir Claude would express that preference. We’ve already seen that she had come to enjoy being liked for her ability to "know." Before he could respond, though, her mother opened her arms elegantly, and she felt his grip loosen. "My own child," Ida murmured in a voice—a voice filled with sudden, confused tenderness—that she felt she was hearing for the first time. She hesitated for just a moment, excited by the first direct appeal, unlike the usual maternal pull, she had ever received from lips that, even in the noisy years past, had always been sharp. The next moment, she was in her mother's embrace, where, surrounded by an array of trinkets, it felt like she was suddenly thrust, with a crash of glass, into a jeweler’s display, only to be swiftly pushed away with the brisk command: "Now go to the Captain!"

Maisie glanced at the gentleman submissively, but felt the want of more introduction. "The Captain?"

Maisie looked at the gentleman with a sense of submission but felt the need for more introduction. "The Captain?"

Sir Claude broke into a laugh. "I told her it was the Count."

Sir Claude burst into laughter. "I told her it was the Count."

Ida stared; she rose so superior that she was colossal. "You're too utterly loathsome," she then declared. "Be off!" she repeated to her daughter.

Ida stared; she stood so tall that she seemed massive. "You're just so disgusting," she then said. "Go away!" she repeated to her daughter.

Maisie started, moved backward and, looking at Sir Claude, "Only for a moment," she signed to him in her bewilderment. But he was too angry to heed her—too angry with his wife; as she turned away she heard his anger break out. "You damned old b––––"—she couldn't quite hear all. It was enough, it was too much: she fled before it, rushing even to a stranger for the shock of such a change of tone.

Maisie jumped back and, looking at Sir Claude, she signed to him in confusion, "Just for a moment." But he was too angry to pay attention—too angry with his wife; as she turned away, she heard his anger explode. "You damn old b––––"—she couldn't catch all of it. It was enough, too much: she ran away from it, seeking even a stranger for relief from such a sudden shift in tone.

 

 

XVI
 

As she met the Captain's light blue eyes the greatest marvel occurred; she felt a sudden relief at finding them reply with anxiety to the horror in her face. "What in the world has he done?" He put it all on Sir Claude.

As she looked into the Captain's light blue eyes, something amazing happened; she felt a wave of relief when she saw that they reflected the same anxiety she felt from the horror on her face. "What has he done?" He shifted all the blame to Sir Claude.

"He has called her a damned old brute." She couldn't help bringing that out.

"He called her a damn old brute." She couldn't resist mentioning that.

The Captain, at the same elevation as her ladyship, gaped wide; then of course, like every one else, he was convulsed. But he instantly caught himself up, echoing her bad words. "A damned old brute—your mother?"

The Captain, at the same level as her ladyship, stared in shock; then of course, like everyone else, he was overcome with laughter. But he quickly pulled himself together, repeating her harsh words. "A damn old brute—your mother?"

Maisie was already conscious of her second movement. "I think she tried to make him angry."

Maisie was already aware of her second movement. "I think she tried to get him mad."

The Captain's stupefaction was fine. "Angry—she? Why she's an angel!"

The Captain's shock was intense. "Angry—her? She's an angel!"

On the spot, as he said this, his face won her over; it was so bright and kind, and his blue eyes had such a reflexion of some mysterious grace that, for him at least, her mother had put forth. Her fund of observation enabled her as she gazed up at him to place him: he was a candid simple soldier; very grave—she came back to that—but not at all terrible. At any rate he struck a note that was new to her and that after a moment made her say: "Do you like her very much?"

Right then, as he said this, his face charmed her; it was so bright and kind, and his blue eyes held a reflection of some mysterious grace that, at least for him, her mother had brought forth. Her keen observation allowed her, as she looked up at him, to understand who he was: a straightforward, simple soldier; very serious — she thought about that again — but not at all frightening. In any case, he struck a chord that was unfamiliar to her and, after a moment, made her ask, "Do you like her a lot?"

He smiled down at her, hesitating, looking pleasanter and pleasanter. "Let me tell you about your mother."

He smiled down at her, pausing, looking nicer and nicer. "Let me tell you about your mom."

He put out a big military hand which she immediately took, and they turned off together to where a couple of chairs had been placed under one of the trees. "She told me to come to you," Maisie explained as they went; and presently she was close to him in a chair, with the prettiest of pictures—the sheen of the lake through other trees—before them, and the sound of birds, the plash of boats, the play of children in the air. The Captain, inclining his military person, sat sideways to be closer and kinder, and as her hand was on the arm of her seat he put his own down on it again to emphasise something he had to say that would be good for her to hear. He had already told her how her mother, from the moment of seeing her so unexpectedly with a person who was—well, not at all the right person, had promptly asked him to take charge of her while she herself tackled, as she said, the real culprit. He gave the child the sense of doing for the time what he liked with her; ten minutes before she had never seen him, but she could now sit there touching him, touched and impressed by him and thinking it nice when a gentleman was thin and brown—brown with a kind of clear depth that made his straw-coloured moustache almost white and his eyes resemble little pale flowers. The most extraordinary thing was the way she didn't appear just then to mind Sir Claude's being tackled. The Captain wasn't a bit like him, for it was an odd part of the pleasantness of mamma's friend that it resided in a manner in this friend's having a face so informally put together that the only kindness could be to call it funny. An odder part still was that it finally made our young lady, to classify him further, say to herself that, of all people in the world, he reminded her most insidiously of Mrs. Wix. He had neither straighteners nor a diadem, nor, at least in the same place as the other, a button; he was sun-burnt and deep-voiced and smelt of cigars, yet he marvellously had more in common with her old governess than with her young stepfather. What he had to say to her that was good for her to hear was that her poor mother (didn't she know?) was the best friend he had ever had in all his life. And he added: "She has told me ever so much about you. I'm awfully glad to know you."

He reached out a big military hand, which she promptly took, and they walked together to where a couple of chairs were set up under one of the trees. "She told me to come to you," Maisie said as they moved; soon, she was sitting close to him in a chair, looking at the prettiest view—the shimmering lake peeking through the trees—in the middle of the sound of birds, splashing boats, and playing children. The Captain tilted his military frame, sitting sideways to get closer and be more kind, and as her hand rested on the arm of her chair, he placed his on top to emphasize something good he wanted her to hear. He had already told her how her mother, upon seeing her unexpectedly with someone who was—well, definitely not the right person—had immediately asked him to look after her while she dealt with, as she put it, the real culprit. He made the girl feel like, for the time being, she could do whatever she liked with him; just ten minutes ago, she had never seen him, but now she could sit there, touching him, feeling impressed and thinking it nice when a gentleman was thin and tanned—tanned with a kind of clarity that made his straw-colored mustache almost white and his eyes look like little pale flowers. The most amazing thing was how she didn’t seem to care at that moment about Sir Claude being dealt with. The Captain was nothing like him; in fact, part of the charm of her mother’s friend was that his face was so casually put together that the only kind thing to call it would be funny. Even stranger was that it made her, to classify him further, think to herself that, of all people in the world, he reminded her most oddly of Mrs. Wix. He had no straighteners or diadem, nor, at least in the same place as the other, a button; he was sunburned and deep-voiced and smelled of cigars, yet he oddly had more in common with her old governess than with her young stepfather. What he had to say that was good for her to hear was that her poor mother (didn’t she know?) was the best friend he had ever had in his entire life. And he added, “She has told me so much about you. I’m really glad to meet you.”

She had never, she thought, been so addressed as a young lady, not even by Sir Claude the day, so long ago, that she found him with Mrs. Beale. It struck her as the way that at balls, by delightful partners, young ladies must be spoken to in the intervals of dances; and she tried to think of something that would meet it at the same high point. But this effort flurried her, and all she could produce was: "At first, you know, I thought you were Lord Eric."

She realized she had never been addressed like this as a young lady, not even by Sir Claude on that long-ago day when she found him with Mrs. Beale. It reminded her of how young ladies are spoken to at balls during the breaks between dances by charming partners, and she tried to come up with a response that matched that same level. But this made her flustered, and all she could think to say was, "At first, you know, I thought you were Lord Eric."

The Captain looked vague. "Lord Eric?"

The Captain seemed uncertain. "Lord Eric?"

"And then Sir Claude thought you were the Count."

"And then Sir Claude thought you were the Count."

At this he laughed out. "Why he's only five foot high and as red as a lobster!" Maisie laughed, with a certain elegance, in return—the young lady at the ball certainly would—and was on the point, as conscientiously, of pursuing the subject with an agreeable question. But before she could speak her companion challenged her. "Who in the world's Lord Eric?"

At this, he burst out laughing. "He's only five feet tall and as red as a lobster!" Maisie laughed back, with a bit of grace, just like a young lady at a ball would—and was about to ask him an interesting question about it. But before she could say anything, her companion interrupted her. "Who in the world is Lord Eric?"

"Don't you know him?" She judged her young lady would say that with light surprise.

"Don’t you know him?" She figured her young lady would say that with a hint of surprise.

"Do you mean a fat man with his mouth always open?" She had to confess that their acquaintance was so limited that she could only describe the bearer of the name as a friend of mamma's; but a light suddenly came to the Captain, who quickly spoke as knowing her man. "What-do-you-call-him's brother, the fellow that owned Bobolink?" Then, with all his kindness, he contradicted her flat. "Oh dear no; your mother never knew him."

"Are you talking about a big guy who's always got his mouth open?" She had to admit that her knowledge was so limited that she could only describe the guy as a friend of her mom's; but then a light bulb went off for the Captain, who quickly said he knew who she was talking about. "What’s-his-name’s brother, the guy who owned Bobolink?" Then, with all his kindness, he flat-out disagreed with her. "Oh no, your mom never knew him."

"But Mrs. Wix said so," the child risked.

"But Mrs. Wix said that," the child ventured.

"Mrs. Wix?"

"Ms. Wix?"

"My old governess."

"My former governess."

This again seemed amusing to the Captain. "She mixed him up, your old governess. He's an awful beast. Your mother never looked at him."

This thought amused the Captain again. "Your old governess really confused him. He's a terrible guy. Your mom never paid him any attention."

He was as positive as he was friendly, but he dropped for a minute after this into a silence that gave Maisie, confused but ingenious, a chance to redeem the mistake of pretending to know too much by the humility of inviting further correction. "And doesn't she know the Count?"

He was as upbeat as he was friendly, but he fell silent for a moment after this, giving Maisie, confused yet clever, a chance to fix her error of acting like she knew too much by humbly asking for more clarification. "And doesn’t she know the Count?"

"Oh I dare say! But he's another ass." After which abruptly, with a different look, he put down again on the back of her own the hand he had momentarily removed. Maisie even thought he coloured a little. "I want tremendously to speak to you. You must never believe any harm of your mother."

"Oh, I can't believe it! But he's another fool." After that, suddenly, with a different expression, he placed his hand back on her shoulder, where he had briefly taken it away. Maisie even thought he blushed a little. "I really want to talk to you. You must never believe anything bad about your mother."

"Oh I assure you I don't!" cried the child, blushing, herself, up to her eyes in a sudden surge of deprecation of such a thought.

"Oh I assure you I don't!" shouted the child, blushing all the way up to her eyes at the sudden wave of embarrassment over such a thought.

The Captain, bending his head, raised her hand to his lips with a benevolence that made her wish her glove had been nicer. "Of course you don't when you know how fond she is of you."

The Captain, lowering his head, brought her hand to his lips with a kindness that made her wish her glove had been nicer. "Of course you don't when you know how much she cares about you."

"She's fond of me?" Maisie panted.

"She likes me?" Maisie exclaimed.

"Tremendously. But she thinks you don't like her. You must like her. She has had too much to put up with."

"Tremendously. But she thinks you don’t like her. You must like her. She’s had way too much to deal with."

"Oh yes—I know!" She rejoiced that she had never denied it.

"Oh yes—I know!" She celebrated that she had never denied it.

"Of course I've no right to speak of her except as a particular friend," the Captain went on. "But she's a splendid woman. She has never had any sort of justice."

"Of course I don't have the right to talk about her except as a close friend," the Captain continued. "But she's an amazing woman. She's never received any kind of justice."

"Hasn't she?"—his companion, to hear the words, felt a thrill altogether new.

"Hasn't she?"—his friend felt a completely new thrill at hearing those words.

"Perhaps I oughtn't to say it to you, but she has had everything to suffer."

"Maybe I shouldn't say this to you, but she's been through a lot."

"Oh yes—you can say it to me!" Maisie hastened to profess.

"Oh yes—you can tell me!" Maisie quickly declared.

The Captain was glad. "Well, you needn't tell. It's all for you—do you see?"

The Captain was happy. "Well, you don't have to say anything. It's all for you—you understand?"

Serious and smiling she only wanted to take it from him. "It's between you and me! Oh there are lots of things I've never told!"

Serious and smiling, she just wanted to take it from him. "It's between you and me! Oh, there are so many things I've never shared!"

"Well, keep this with the rest. I assure you she has had the most infernal time, no matter what any one says to the contrary. She's the cleverest woman I ever saw in all my life. She's too charming." She had been touched already by his tone, and now she leaned back in her chair and felt something tremble within her. "She's tremendous fun—she can do all sorts of things better than I've ever seen any one. She has the pluck of fifty—and I know; I assure you I do. She has the nerve for a tiger-shoot—by Jove I'd take her! And she is awfully open and generous, don't you know? there are women that are such horrid sneaks. She'll go through anything for any one she likes." He appeared to watch for a moment the effect on his companion of this emphasis; then he gave a small sigh that mourned the limits of the speakable. But it was almost with the note of a fresh challenge that he wound up: "Look here, she's true!"

"Well, keep this with the rest. I promise you she’s had the toughest time, no matter what anyone else says. She's the smartest woman I've ever met. She's incredibly charming." She was already moved by his tone, and now she leaned back in her chair, feeling something stir inside her. "She’s a lot of fun—she can do all sorts of things better than I’ve ever seen anyone do. She’s got the courage of fifty—and I know; I really do. She has the guts for a tiger hunt—by God, I’d take her! And she’s really open and generous, you know? There are women who can be such terrible sneaks. She’ll go through anything for someone she cares about." He seemed to watch for a moment to see how this affected his companion; then he let out a small sigh that hinted at the limits of what could be said. But it was almost with a new challenge in his voice that he concluded: "Look, she’s true!"

Maisie had so little desire to assert the contrary that she found herself, in the intensity of her response, throbbing with a joy still less utterable than the essence of the Captain's admiration. She was fairly hushed with the sense that he spoke of her mother as she had never heard any one speak. It came over her as she sat silent that, after all, this admiration and this respect were quite new words, which took a distinction from the fact that nothing in the least resembling them in quality had on any occasion dropped from the lips of her father, of Mrs. Beale, of Sir Claude or even of Mrs. Wix. What it appeared to her to come to was that on the subject of her ladyship it was the first real kindness she had heard, so that at the touch of it something strange and deep and pitying surged up within her—a revelation that, practically and so far as she knew, her mother, apart from this, had only been disliked. Mrs. Wix's original account of Sir Claude's affection seemed as empty now as the chorus in a children's game, and the husband and wife, but a little way off at that moment, were face to face in hatred and with the dreadful name he had called her still in the air. What was it the Captain on the other hand had called her? Maisie wanted to hear that again. The tears filled her eyes and rolled down her cheeks, which burned under them with the rush of a consciousness that for her too, five minutes before, the vivid towering beauty whose assault she awaited had been, a moment long, an object of pure dread. She became on the spot indifferent to her usual fear of showing what in children was notoriously most offensive—presented to her companion, soundlessly but hideously, her wet distorted face. She cried, with a pang, straight at him, cried as she had never cried at any one in all her life. "Oh do you love her?" she brought out with a gulp that was the effect of her trying not to make a noise.

Maisie had so little desire to deny it that she found herself, in the intensity of her feelings, filled with a joy that was even harder to express than the essence of the Captain's admiration. She felt completely speechless, realizing he was talking about her mother in a way she had never heard anyone speak before. As she sat in silence, it struck her that this admiration and respect were completely new concepts, set apart by the fact that nothing even close to them had ever been said by her father, Mrs. Beale, Sir Claude, or even Mrs. Wix. It seemed to her that, regarding her ladyship, this was the first true kindness she had ever encountered, and with that realization, something strange, deep, and pitying surged up inside her—a revelation that, practically speaking and as far as she knew, her mother had only ever been disliked. Mrs. Wix's original description of Sir Claude's affection felt as empty now as a chant in a children's game, and the husband and wife, not far away at that moment, confronted each other in hatred, the awful name he had called her still hanging in the air. What had the Captain called her, on the other hand? Maisie wanted to hear that again. Tears filled her eyes and rolled down her cheeks, which burned with the awareness that just five minutes before, the striking and imposing beauty she was dreading had been, for a brief moment, an object of sheer fear. She instantly became indifferent to her usual fear of showing what is notoriously most upsetting in children—she presented her companion with her wet, distorted face, soundlessly but horrifically. She cried, with a pang, directly at him, cried as she had never cried at anyone in her entire life. "Oh, do you love her?" she choked out, trying not to make a noise.

It was doubtless another consequence of the thick mist through which she saw him that in reply to her question the Captain gave her such a queer blurred look. He stammered, yet in his voice there was also the ring of a great awkward insistence. "Of course I'm tremendously fond of her—I like her better than any woman I ever saw. I don't mind in the least telling you that," he went on, "and I should think myself a great beast if I did." Then to show that his position was superlatively clear he made her, with a kindness that even Sir Claude had never surpassed, tremble again as she had trembled at his first outbreak. He called her by her name, and her name drove it home. "My dear Maisie, your mother's an angel!"

It was definitely another result of the heavy fog that made her see him that the Captain gave her such a strange, fuzzy look in response to her question. He stuttered, but there was also a strong, awkward determination in his voice. "Of course, I care a lot about her—I like her more than any woman I've ever met. I have no problem admitting that," he continued, "and I would think I was a terrible person if I didn't." Then, to make it clear how certain he was, he caused her to tremble again with a kindness that even Sir Claude had never shown, just like she had at his initial outburst. He called her by her name, and hearing it hit hard. "My dear Maisie, your mother's an angel!"

It was an almost unbelievable balm—it soothed so her impression of danger and pain. She sank back in her chair, she covered her face with her hands. "Oh mother, mother, mother!" she sobbed. She had an impression that the Captain, beside her, if more and more friendly, was by no means unembarrassed; in a minute, however, when her eyes were clearer, he was erect in front of her, very red and nervously looking about him and whacking his leg with his stick. "Say you love her, Mr. Captain; say it, say it!" she implored.

It was an almost unbelievable comfort—it calmed her sense of danger and pain. She leaned back in her chair, covering her face with her hands. "Oh mom, mom, mom!" she cried. She got the feeling that the Captain, next to her, though increasingly friendly, was definitely uncomfortable; but in a moment, when her vision cleared, he was standing in front of her, very red and nervously looking around while tapping his leg with his stick. "Say you love her, Mr. Captain; say it, say it!" she begged.

Mr. Captain's blue eyes fixed themselves very hard. "Of course I love her, damn it, you know!"

Mr. Captain's blue eyes locked in with intensity. "Of course I love her, damn it, you know!"

At this she also jumped up; she had fished out somehow her pocket-handkerchief. "So do I then. I do, I do, I do!" she passionately asseverated.

At this, she also jumped up; she had somehow fished out her pocket tissue. "So do I then. I do, I do, I do!" she passionately declared.

"Then will you come back to her?"

"Are you going to come back to her?"

Maisie, staring, stopped the tight little plug of her handkerchief on the way to her eyes. "She won't have me."

Maisie, staring, halted the tight little plug of her handkerchief on the way to her eyes. "She won't want me."

"Yes she will. She wants you."

"Yes, she will. She wants you."

"Back at the house—with Sir Claude?"

"Back at the house—with Sir Claude?"

Again he hung fire. "No, not with him. In another place."

Again, he hesitated. "No, not with him. Somewhere else."

They stood looking at each other with an intensity unusual as between a Captain and a little girl. "She won't have me in any place."

They stood looking at each other with an intensity that's uncommon between a Captain and a little girl. "She won't have me anywhere."

"Oh yes she will if I ask her!"

"Oh yes she will if I ask her!"

Maisie's intensity continued. "Shall you be there?"

Maisie's intensity kept going. "Are you going to be there?"

The Captain's, on the whole, did the same. "Oh yes—some day."

The Captain’s, overall, did the same. "Oh yeah—someday."

"Then you don't mean now?"

"Then you don't mean now?"

He broke into a quick smile. "Will you come now?—go with us for an hour?"

He quickly smiled. "Are you coming now?—will you join us for an hour?"

Maisie considered. "She wouldn't have me even now." She could see that he had his idea, but that her tone impressed him. That disappointed her a little, though in an instant he rang out again.

Maisie thought about it. "She wouldn't want me even now." She could tell he had his own opinion, but her tone seemed to affect him. That let her down a bit, even though he quickly responded again.

"She will if I ask her," he repeated. "I'll ask her this minute."

"She will if I ask her," he said again. "I'll ask her right now."

Maisie, turning at this, looked away to where her mother and her stepfather had stopped. At first, among the trees, nobody was visible; but the next moment she exclaimed with expression: "It's over—here he comes!"

Maisie, turning at this, looked away to where her mom and her stepdad had stopped. At first, among the trees, no one was visible; but the next moment she exclaimed with excitement: "It's over—here he comes!"

The Captain watched the approach of her ladyship's husband, who lounged composedly over the grass, making to Maisie with his closed fingers a little movement in the air. "I've no desire to avoid him."

The Captain watched as her ladyship's husband casually sauntered across the grass, making a small gesture toward Maisie with his closed fingers. "I don't want to avoid him."

"Well, you mustn't see him," said Maisie.

"Well, you can't see him," said Maisie.

"Oh he's in no hurry himself!" Sir Claude had stopped to light another cigarette.

"Oh, he's not in any hurry!" Sir Claude had paused to light another cigarette.

She was vague as to the way it was proper he should feel; but she had a sense that the Captain's remark was rather a free reflexion on it. "Oh he doesn't care!" she replied.

She was unclear about how he should actually feel; however, she sensed that the Captain's comment was quite a casual observation about it. "Oh, he doesn't care!" she replied.

"Doesn't care for what?"

"Doesn't care about what?"

"Doesn't care who you are. He told me so. Go and ask mamma," she added.

"Doesn’t matter who you are. He told me that. Go ask Mom,” she added.

"If you can come with us? Very good. You really want me not to wait for him?"

"If you can come with us? Great. You really want me not to wait for him?"

"Please don't." But Sir Claude was not yet near, and the Captain had with his left hand taken hold of her right, which he familiarly, sociably swung a little. "Only first," she continued, "tell me this. Are you going to live with mamma?"

"Please don't." But Sir Claude wasn't close yet, and the Captain had taken her right hand with his left, which he swung a bit in a friendly, casual way. "Just first," she continued, "tell me this. Are you going to live with Mom?"

The immemorial note of mirth broke out at her seriousness. "One of these days."

The timeless sound of laughter interrupted her seriousness. "One of these days."

She wondered, wholly unperturbed by his laughter. "Then where will Sir Claude be?"

She thought, totally unfazed by his laughter. "So, where will Sir Claude be?"

"He'll have left her of course."

"He'll have left her, of course."

"Does he really intend to do that?"

"Does he actually plan to do that?"

"You've every opportunity to ask him."

"You have every chance to ask him."

Maisie shook her head with decision. "He won't do it. Not first."

Maisie shook her head firmly. "He won't do it. Not at first."

Her "first" made the Captain laugh out again. "Oh he'll be sure to be nasty! But I've said too much to you."

Her "first" made the Captain laugh again. "Oh, he's definitely going to be unpleasant! But I've said too much to you."

"Well, you know, I'll never tell," said Maisie.

"Well, you know, I’ll never tell," Maisie said.

"No, it's all for yourself. Good-bye."

"No, it's all for you. Goodbye."

"Good-bye." Maisie kept his hand long enough to add: "I like you too." And then supremely: "You do love her?"

"Goodbye." Maisie held his hand long enough to say, "I like you too." And then, with great emphasis, "You do love her?"

"My dear child—!" The Captain wanted words.

"My dear child—!" The Captain was at a loss for words.

"Then don't do it only for just a little."

"Then don’t do it just for a little while."

"A little?"

"Just a little?"

"Like all the others."

"Just like everyone else."

"All the others?"—he stood staring.

"Everyone else?"—he stood staring.

She pulled away her hand. "Do it always!" She bounded to meet Sir Claude, and as she left the Captain she heard him ring out with apparent gaiety:

She pulled her hand away. "Do it all the time!" She rushed to meet Sir Claude, and as she walked away from the Captain, she heard him call out with feigned cheerfulness:

"Oh I'm in for it!"

"Oh, I'm in trouble!"

As she joined Sir Claude she noted her mother in the distance move slowly off, and, glancing again at the Captain, saw him, swinging his stick, retreat in the same direction.

As she joined Sir Claude, she spotted her mother in the distance moving slowly away, and when she glanced back at the Captain, she saw him swinging his stick and walking in the same direction.

She had never seen Sir Claude look as he looked just then; flushed yet not excited—settled rather in an immoveable disgust and at once very sick and very hard. His conversation with her mother had clearly drawn blood, and the child's old horror came back to her, begetting the instant moral contraction of the days when her parents had looked to her to feed their love of battle. Her greatest fear for the moment, however, was that her friend would see she had been crying. The next she became aware that he had glanced at her, and it presently occurred to her that he didn't even wish to be looked at. At this she quickly removed her gaze, while he said rather curtly: "Well, who in the world is the fellow?"

She had never seen Sir Claude look like he did just then; flushed but not excited—more like he was settled in a deep disgust, feeling both sick and hardened. His conversation with her mother had clearly taken a toll, and the child's old fear returned, creating an instant discomfort reminiscent of the days when her parents expected her to fuel their love for conflict. However, her biggest worry at that moment was that her friend would notice she had been crying. Then she realized he had glanced at her, and it dawned on her that he didn’t even want to be looked at. Quickly, she averted her gaze, and he said rather bluntly, "Well, who in the world is that guy?"

She felt herself flooded with prudence. "Oh I haven't found out!" This sounded as if she meant he ought to have done so himself; but she could only face doggedly the ugliness of seeming disagreeable, as she used to face it in the hours when her father, for her blankness, called her a dirty little donkey, and her mother, for her falsity, pushed her out of the room.

She felt a wave of caution. "Oh, I haven't figured it out!" This came off like she thought he should have done it himself; but all she could do was stubbornly confront the awkwardness of appearing rude, just like she used to when her dad called her a dirty little donkey for being blank, and her mom pushed her out of the room for being dishonest.

"Then what have you been doing all this time?"

"Then what have you been up to all this time?"

"Oh I don't know!" It was of the essence of her method not to be silly by halves.

"Oh, I don’t know!" It was essential to her approach not to be half-heartedly silly.

"Then didn't the beast say anything?" They had got down by the lake and were walking fast.

"Did the beast not say anything?" They had arrived by the lake and were walking quickly.

"Well, not very much."

"Not much, really."

"He didn't speak of your mother?"

"He didn't say anything about your mom?"

"Oh yes, a little!"

"Oh yes, definitely!"

"Then what I ask you, please, is how?" She kept silence—so long that he presently went on: "I say, you know—don't you hear me?" At this she produced: "Well, I'm afraid I didn't attend to him very much."

"Then what I'm asking you, please, is how?" She stayed silent—so long that he eventually continued: "I mean, you know—aren't you hearing me?" To this she replied: "Well, I'm afraid I didn't pay much attention to him."

Sir Claude, smoking rather hard, made no immediate rejoinder; but finally he exclaimed: "Then my dear—with such a chance—you were the perfection of a dunce!" He was so irritated—or she took him to be—that for the rest of the time they were in the Gardens he spoke no other word; and she meanwhile subtly abstained from any attempt to pacify him. That would only lead to more questions. At the gate of the Gardens he hailed a four-wheeled cab and, in silence, without meeting her eyes, put her into it, only saying "Give him that" as he tossed half a crown upon the seat. Even when from outside he had closed the door and told the man where to go he never took her departing look. Nothing of this kind had ever yet happened to them, but it had no power to make her love him less; so she could not only bear it, she felt as she drove away—she could rejoice in it. It brought again the sweet sense of success that, ages before, she had had at a crisis when, on the stairs, returning from her father's, she had met a fierce question of her mother's with an imbecility as deep and had in consequence been dashed by Mrs. Farange almost to the bottom.

Sir Claude, smoking quite heavily, didn’t respond right away; but eventually he burst out: "Then my dear—with an opportunity like that—you were the absolute definition of a fool!" He was so annoyed—or she thought he was—that for the rest of their time in the Gardens, he didn’t say another word; and she, in turn, cleverly refrained from trying to calm him down. That would just lead to more questions. At the gate of the Gardens, he called for a cab and, in silence, without looking at her, put her inside, simply saying "Give him that” as he tossed half a crown onto the seat. Even after he closed the door from the outside and told the driver where to go, he never glanced back at her as she left. Nothing like this had ever happened between them, but it didn’t make her love him any less; she wasn’t just able to handle it, she felt like she could actually take joy in it. It brought back the sweet feeling of success she had experienced long ago at a moment when, on the stairs returning from her father’s, she had faced a tough question from her mother with an equally deep foolishness and had consequently been nearly knocked down by Mrs. Farange.

 

 

XVII
 

If for reasons of her own she could bear the sense of Sir Claude's displeasure her young endurance might have been put to a serious test. The days went by without his knocking at her father's door, and the time would have turned sadly to waste if something hadn't conspicuously happened to give it a new difference. What took place was a marked change in the attitude of Mrs. Beale—a change that somehow, even in his absence, seemed to bring Sir Claude again into the house. It began practically with a conversation that occurred between them the day Maisie, came home alone in the cab. Mrs. Beale had by that time returned, and she was more successful than their friend in extracting from our young lady an account of the extraordinary passage with the Captain. She came back to it repeatedly, and on the very next day it grew distinct to the child that she was already in full possession of what at the same moment had been enacted between her ladyship and Sir Claude. This was the real origin of her final perception that though he didn't come to the house her stepmother had some rare secret for not being quite without him. This led to some rare passages with Mrs. Beale, the promptest of which had been—not on Maisie's part—a wonderful outbreak of tears. Mrs. Beale was not, as she herself said, a crying creature: she hadn't cried, to Maisie's knowledge, since the lowly governess days, the grey dawn of their connexion. But she wept now with passion, professing loudly that it did her good and saying remarkable things to her charge, for whom the occasion was an equal benefit, an addition to all the fine precautionary wisdom stored away. It somehow hadn't violated that wisdom, Maisie felt, for her to have told Mrs. Beale what she had not told Sir Claude, inasmuch as the greatest strain, to her sense, was between Sir Claude and Sir Claude's wife, and his wife was just what Mrs. Beale was unfortunately not. He sent his stepdaughter three days after the incident in Kensington Gardens a message as frank as it was tender, and that was how Mrs. Beale had had to bring out in a manner that seemed half an appeal, half a defiance: "Well yes, hang it—I do see him!"

If for her own reasons she could tolerate Sir Claude's displeasure, her patience would have been seriously tested. Days passed without him knocking at her father's door, and time would have felt wasted if something hadn't noticeably happened to change that. What occurred was a significant shift in Mrs. Beale's attitude—a change that somehow, even in his absence, made it feel like Sir Claude was still present in the house. It started with a conversation between them the day Maisie returned home alone in a cab. By then, Mrs. Beale had come back and was more successful than their friend in getting Maisie to share the bizarre encounter with the Captain. She revisited the topic multiple times, and the next day, it became clear to Maisie that Mrs. Beale was fully aware of what had transpired between her ladyship and Sir Claude. This realization led to her understanding that even though he didn't come to the house, her stepmother had some special secret that kept her connected to him. This sparked some rare interactions with Mrs. Beale, the most notable of which was—unexpectedly on Maisie's part—a remarkable outburst of tears. Mrs. Beale was not, as she put it, a crying person; to Maisie's knowledge, she hadn’t cried since their early days with the governess, at the beginning of their connection. But now she wept passionately, declaring it was good for her and saying remarkable things to Maisie, who found the occasion equally beneficial, adding to the valuable wisdom she had stored away. Maisie felt that she hadn’t violated that wisdom by sharing with Mrs. Beale what she hadn’t told Sir Claude, as the true tension, in her view, was between Sir Claude and his wife, who was exactly what Mrs. Beale unfortunately wasn’t. Three days after the incident in Kensington Gardens, he sent his stepdaughter a message that was as sincere as it was tender, prompting Mrs. Beale to respond in a way that felt like half an appeal, half a challenge: “Well yes, dang it—I do see him!”

How and when and where, however, were just what Maisie was not to know—an exclusion moreover that she never questioned in the light of a participation large enough to make him, while she shared the ample void of Mrs. Beale's rather blank independence, shine in her yearning eye like the single, the sovereign window-square of a great dim disproportioned room. As far as her father was concerned such hours had no interruption; and then it was clear between them that each was thinking of the absent and thinking the other thought, so that he was an object of conscious reference in everything they said or did. The wretched truth, Mrs. Beale had to confess, was that she had hoped against hope and that in the Regent's Park it was impossible Sir Claude should really be in and out. Hadn't they at last to look the fact in the face?—it was too disgustingly evident that no one after all had been squared. Well, if no one had been squared it was because every one had been vile. No one and every one were of course Beale and Ida, the extent of whose power to be nasty was a thing that, to a little girl, Mrs. Beale simply couldn't give chapter and verse for. Therefore it was that to keep going at all, as she said, that lady had to make, as she also said, another arrangement—the arrangement in which Maisie was included only to the point of knowing it existed and wondering wistfully what it was. Conspicuously at any rate it had a side that was responsible for Mrs. Beale's sudden emotion and sudden confidence—a demonstration this, however, of which the tearfulness was far from deterrent to our heroine's thought of how happy she should be if she could only make an arrangement for herself. Mrs. Beale's own operated, it appeared, with regularity and frequency; for it was almost every day or two that she was able to bring Maisie a message and to take one back. It had been over the vision of what, as she called it, he did for her that she broke down; and this vision was kept in a manner before Maisie by a subsequent increase not only of the gaiety, but literally—it seemed not presumptuous to perceive—of the actual virtue of her friend. The friend was herself the first to proclaim it: he had pulled her up immensely—he had quite pulled her round. She had charming tormenting words about him: he was her good fairy, her hidden spring—above all he was just her "higher" conscience. That was what had particularly come out with her startling tears: he had made her, dear man, think ever so much better of herself. It had been thus rather surprisingly revealed that she had been in a way to think ill, and Maisie was glad to hear of the corrective at the same time that she heard of the ailment.

How, when, and where, however, were exactly what Maisie didn’t know—something she never questioned, especially since her involvement was enough to make him, while she shared Mrs. Beale's rather empty independence, shine in her eager eyes like the single, standout window of a large, dimly lit room. As far as her father was concerned, those times never interrupted them; and it was clear between them that each was thinking about the absent person and assuming the other was too, so he was a constant reference in everything they said or did. The unfortunate truth, Mrs. Beale had to admit, was that she had hoped against hope and that in Regent's Park it was impossible for Sir Claude to really be coming and going. Didn’t they finally have to face the facts?—it was too obviously clear that no one had really been settled. Well, if no one had been settled, it was because everyone had been awful. No one and everyone were, of course, Beale and Ida, and Mrs. Beale simply couldn’t specify how far their ability to be nasty extended to a little girl. Therefore, in order to keep things moving at all, as she said, she had to make, as she also said, another arrangement—the arrangement in which Maisie was included only to the extent of knowing it existed and wondering wistfully what it involved. It clearly had a side that was responsible for Mrs. Beale’s sudden emotions and new confidence—a sign, though, that her tearfulness didn’t deter our heroine from thinking about how happy she would be if she could only make an arrangement for herself. Mrs. Beale’s own seemed to work with regularity and frequency; it was almost every day or two that she could bring Maisie a message and take one back. It was over the thought of what, as she called it, he did for her that she broke down; and this thought was kept in front of Maisie by an increase, not just in her cheerfulness, but literally—it didn’t seem too bold to notice—in the actual goodness of her friend. The friend was the first to announce it: he had lifted her spirits immensely—he had really turned her around. She had lovely, teasing words about him: he was her good fairy, her secret source—most of all, he was just her “higher” conscience. That was what came out especially with her startling tears: he had made her, dear man, think so much better of herself. It was surprisingly revealed that she had been, in a way, thinking poorly, and Maisie was glad to hear about the correction while she learned of the problem.

She presently found herself supposing, and in spite of her envy even hoping, that whenever Mrs. Beale was out of the house Sir Claude had in some manner the satisfaction of it. This was now of more frequent occurrence than ever before—so much so that she would have thought of her stepmother as almost extravagantly absent had it not been that, in the first place, her father was a superior specimen of that habit: it was the frequent remark of his present wife, as it had been, before the tribunals of their country, a prominent plea of her predecessor, that he scarce came home even to sleep. In the second place Mrs. Beale, when she was on the spot, had now a beautiful air of longing to make up for everything. The only shadow in such bright intervals was that, as Maisie put it to herself, she could get nothing by questions. It was in the nature of things to be none of a small child's business, even when a small child had from the first been deluded into a fear that she might be only too much initiated. Things then were in Maisie's experience so true to their nature that questions were almost always improper; but she learned on the other hand soon to recognise how at last, sometimes, patient little silences and intelligent little looks could be rewarded by delightful little glimpses. There had been years at Beale Farange's when the monosyllable "he" meant always, meant almost violently, the master; but all that was changed at a period at which Sir Claude's merits were of themselves so much in the air that it scarce took even two letters to name him. "He keeps me up splendidly—he does, my own precious," Mrs. Beale would observe to her comrade; or else she would say that the situation at the other establishment had reached a point that could scarcely be believed—the point, monstrous as it sounded, of his not having laid eyes upon her for twelve days. "She" of course at Beale Farange's had never meant any one but Ida, and there was the difference in this case that it now meant Ida with renewed intensity. Mrs. Beale—it was striking—was in a position to animadvert more and more upon her dreadfulness, the moral of all which appeared to be how abominably yet blessedly little she had to do with her husband. This flow of information came home to our two friends because, truly, Mrs. Beale had not much more to do with her own; but that was one of the reflexions that Maisie could make without allowing it to break the spell of her present sympathy. How could such a spell be anything but deep when Sir Claude's influence, operating from afar, at last really determined the resumption of his stepdaughter's studies? Mrs. Beale again took fire about them and was quite vivid for Maisie as to their being the great matter to which the dear absent one kept her up.

She found herself thinking and, despite her jealousy, even hoping that whenever Mrs. Beale was out, Sir Claude somehow enjoyed it. This was happening more often than ever before—so much so that she would have thought of her stepmother as almost overly absent if it weren't for the fact that her father was even more of a habitual absentee. His current wife often remarked, as had been a key point made by his previous wife in court, that he hardly came home even to sleep. On the other hand, when Mrs. Beale was around, she had a beautiful way of longing to make up for everything. The only downside during these happy times was that, as Maisie thought to herself, she couldn't get any answers through questions. It wasn’t something a small child should concern herself with, even if she had, from the start, been misled into fearing she might be too involved. In Maisie's experience, things were so true to their nature that questions were usually inappropriate; but she soon learned that sometimes, a little patience and a knowing look could lead to delightful insights. There had been years at Beale Farange's when the word "he" always, almost emphatically, referred to the master; but that changed during a time when Sir Claude’s merits were so well-known that it hardly took even two letters to name him. “He keeps me up wonderfully—he does, my darling,” Mrs. Beale would say to her friend; alternatively, she would mention that things at the other place had reached an unbelievable point—monstrously, as it seemed, he hadn't seen her for twelve days. “She,” of course, at Beale Farange's had always meant Ida, and now it meant Ida with even more intensity. Mrs. Beale—it was striking—was becoming increasingly vocal about Ida's dreadful ways, the moral of which seemed to be how appallingly yet happily little she had to do with her husband. This information resonated with the two friends because, honestly, Mrs. Beale had not much more to do with her own husband either; but that was a realization Maisie could entertain without letting it ruin the spell of her current sympathy. How could the spell be anything but profound when Sir Claude's influence from a distance finally determined the resumption of his stepdaughter’s education? Mrs. Beale reignited her interest in it and was quite enthusiastic to Maisie about how it was the main thing keeping her up for the dear absent one.

This was the second source—I have just alluded to the first—of the child's consciousness of something that, very hopefully, she described to herself as a new phase; and it also presented in the brightest light the fresh enthusiasm with which Mrs. Beale always reappeared and which really gave Maisie a happier sense than she had yet had of being very dear at least to two persons. That she had small remembrance at present of a third illustrates, I am afraid, a temporary oblivion of Mrs. Wix, an accident to be explained only by a state of unnatural excitement. For what was the form taken by Mrs. Beale's enthusiasm and acquiring relief in the domestic conditions still left to her but the delightful form of "reading" with her little charge on lines directly prescribed and in works profusely supplied by Sir Claude? He had got hold of an awfully good list—"mostly essays, don't you know?" Mrs. Beale had said; a word always august to Maisie, but henceforth to be softened by hazy, in fact by quite languorous edges. There was at any rate a week in which no less than nine volumes arrived, and the impression was to be gathered from Mrs. Beale that the obscure intercourse she enjoyed with Sir Claude not only involved an account and a criticism of studies, but was organised almost for the very purpose of report and consultation. It was for Maisie's education in short that, as she often repeated, she closed her door—closed it to the gentlemen who used to flock there in such numbers and whom her husband's practical desertion of her would have made it a course of the highest indelicacy to receive. Maisie was familiar from of old with the principle at least of the care that a woman, as Mrs. Beale phrased it, attractive and exposed must take of her "character," and was duly impressed with the rigour of her stepmother's scruples. There was literally no one of the other sex whom she seemed to feel at liberty to see at home, and when the child risked an enquiry about the ladies who, one by one, during her own previous period, had been made quite loudly welcome, Mrs. Beale hastened to inform her that, one by one, they had, the fiends, been found out, after all, to be awful. If she wished to know more about them she was recommended to approach her father.

This was the second source—I just mentioned the first—of the child's awareness of something that she hopefully referred to as a new phase; it also highlighted the excitement with which Mrs. Beale always returned, which gave Maisie a sense of being cherished by at least two people more than she had felt before. The fact that she barely remembered a third person illustrates, unfortunately, a temporary forgetfulness of Mrs. Wix, a situation that can only be explained by an unnatural level of excitement. What form did Mrs. Beale's enthusiasm and newfound relief in her still-limited domestic situation take? It came in the delightful shape of "reading" with her young charge, based on guidelines provided by Sir Claude. He had found a really impressive list—"mostly essays, you know?" Mrs. Beale had said; a term that always felt significant to Maisie, but from now on would seem to have softer, almost dreamy edges. Anyway, there was at least one week when no less than nine volumes arrived, and the impression from Mrs. Beale was that her mysterious interactions with Sir Claude involved not just sharing and critiquing studies, but were almost entirely organized for the sake of reporting and consulting. It was for Maisie's education, after all, that she frequently mentioned closing her door—to the gentlemen who used to come over in such numbers, and whom her husband's practical abandonment made it seem extremely inappropriate to host. Maisie had long been familiar with the principle that a woman, as Mrs. Beale put it, who is attractive and exposed must take care of her "character," and she was duly impressed by her stepmother's strictness. Literally, there was no one of the opposite sex she felt allowed to see at home, and when the child dared to ask about the ladies who had previously been welcomed one by one, Mrs. Beale quickly informed her that they had all, the monsters, turned out to be terrible after all. If she wanted to know more about them, she was advised to talk to her father.

Maisie had, however, at the very moment of this injunction much livelier curiosities, for the dream of lectures at an institution had at last become a reality, thanks to Sir Claude's now unbounded energy in discovering what could be done. It stood out in this connexion that when you came to look into things in a spirit of earnestness an immense deal could be done for very little more than your fare in the Underground. The institution—there was a splendid one in a part of the town but little known to the child—became, in the glow of such a spirit, a thrilling place, and the walk to it from the station through Glower Street (a pronunciation for which Mrs. Beale once laughed at her little friend) a pathway literally strewn with "subjects." Maisie imagined herself to pluck them as she went, though they thickened in the great grey rooms where the fountain of knowledge, in the form usually of a high voice that she took at first to be angry, plashed in the stillness of rows of faces thrust out like empty jugs. "It must do us good—it's all so hideous," Mrs. Beale had immediately declared; manifesting a purity of resolution that made these occasions quite the most harmonious of all the many on which the pair had pulled together. Maisie certainly had never, in such an association, felt so uplifted, and never above all been so carried off her feet, as at the moments of Mrs. Beale's breathlessly re-entering the house and fairly shrieking upstairs to know if they should still be in time for a lecture. Her stepdaughter, all ready from the earliest hours, almost leaped over the banister to respond, and they dashed out together in quest of learning as hard as they often dashed back to release Mrs. Beale for other preoccupations. There had been in short no bustle like these particular spasms, once they had broken out, since that last brief flurry when Mrs. Wix, blowing as if she were grooming her, "made up" for everything previously lost at her father's.

Maisie, however, had much more exciting curiosities at the very moment of this request, as the dream of attending lectures at an institution had finally become a reality, thanks to Sir Claude's newfound energy in figuring out what could be done. It was noticeable that when you approached things with genuine enthusiasm, a lot could be accomplished for little more than the cost of a subway ticket. The institution—there was an amazing one in a part of town not very well known to her—became, with that enthusiastic outlook, an exhilarating place, and the walk to it from the station down Glower Street (a name that Mrs. Beale once chuckled about with her little friend) felt like a path literally covered with "subjects." Maisie imagined she could gather them as she went, although they multiplied in the vast gray rooms where the fountain of knowledge, usually represented by a high-pitched voice that she initially thought was angry, echoed in the stillness of rows of faces leaning forward like empty jugs. "It must do us good—it's all so awful," Mrs. Beale had promptly declared, showing such strong determination that those occasions became the most harmonious of all the times they had worked together. Maisie had certainly never felt so inspired in that setting, and never more so than when Mrs. Beale breathlessly rushed back into the house and practically shouted upstairs to see if they would still make it in time for a lecture. Her stepdaughter, prepared since early morning, almost jumped over the banister to answer, and they raced out together in search of knowledge just as quickly as they often rushed back to free Mrs. Beale for other commitments. In short, there hadn’t been any excitement quite like these particular bursts of energy since that last brief flurry when Mrs. Wix, catching her breath as if she were preparing for an event, "made up" for everything that had been lost at her father's.

These weeks as well were too few, but they were flooded with a new emotion, part of which indeed came from the possibility that, through the long telescope of Glower Street, or perhaps between the pillars of the institution—which impressive objects were what Maisie thought most made it one—they should some day spy Sir Claude. That was what Mrs. Beale, under pressure, had said—doubtless a little impatiently: "Oh yes, oh yes, some day!" His joining them was clearly far less of a matter of course than was to have been gathered from his original profession of desire to improve in their company his own mind; and this sharpened our young lady's guess that since that occasion either something destructive had happened or something desirable hadn't. Mrs. Beale had thrown but a partial light in telling her how it had turned out that nobody had been squared. Maisie wished at any rate that somebody would be squared. However, though in every approach to the temple of knowledge she watched in vain for Sir Claude, there was no doubt about the action of his loved image as an incentive and a recompense. When the institution was most on pillars—or, as Mrs. Beale put it, on stilts—when the subject was deepest and the lecture longest and the listeners ugliest, then it was they both felt their patron in the background would be most pleased with them. One day, abruptly, with a glance at this background, Mrs. Beale said to her companion: "We'll go to-night to the thingumbob at Earl's Court"; an announcement putting forth its full lustre when she had made known that she referred to the great Exhibition just opened in that quarter, a collection of extraordinary foreign things in tremendous gardens, with illuminations, bands, elephants, switchbacks and side-shows, as well as crowds of people among whom they might possibly see some one they knew. Maisie flew in the same bound at the neck of her friend and at the name of Sir Claude, on which Mrs. Beale confessed that—well, yes, there was just a chance that he would be able to meet them. He never of course, in his terrible position, knew what might happen from hour to hour; but he hoped to be free and he had given Mrs. Beale the tip. "Bring her there on the quiet and I'll try to turn up"—this was clear enough on what so many weeks of privation had made of his desire to see the child: it even appeared to represent on his part a yearning as constant as her own. That in turn was just puzzling enough to make Maisie express a bewilderment. She couldn't see, if they were so intensely of the same mind, why the theory on which she had come back to Mrs. Beale, the general reunion, the delightful trio, should have broken down so in fact. Mrs. Beale furthermore only gave her more to think about in saying that their disappointment was the result of his having got into his head a kind of idea.

These weeks felt too short, but they were filled with a new emotion, partly because there was a possibility that, through the long telescope of Glower Street, or maybe between the pillars of the institution—which impressive structures Maisie believed were essential—they might one day spot Sir Claude. That was what Mrs. Beale had said under pressure, probably a bit impatiently: "Oh yes, oh yes, someday!" His joining them seemed clearly less certain than one would have thought given his original desire to improve his own mind in their company. This sharpened Maisie's suspicion that since that time, either something harmful had happened or something good hadn’t. Mrs. Beale had only provided partial clarity when she told her that it turned out nobody had been squared away. Maisie wished at least that someone would be squared away. However, even though she watched in vain for Sir Claude whenever she approached the temple of knowledge, there was no doubt about the effect his beloved image had as a motivation and a reward. When the institution was at its most elevated—or, as Mrs. Beale put it, on stilts—when the topic was the deepest, the lecture the longest, and the audience the most unappealing, that’s when they both felt their patron in the background would be most pleased with them. One day, suddenly, while glancing at this background, Mrs. Beale said to her companion: "We'll go tonight to the thingumbob at Earl's Court"; an announcement that shone brightly when she clarified that she was referring to the great Exhibition just opened in that area, a showcase of incredible foreign items in huge gardens, complete with lights, bands, elephants, roller coasters, side shows, and crowds of people among whom they might possibly see someone they knew. Maisie jumped with excitement at the mention of Sir Claude, prompting Mrs. Beale to admit that—well, yes, there was a chance he would meet them. He never really knew, given his difficult situation, what might happen from hour to hour; but he hoped to be free and had given Mrs. Beale the heads-up. "Bring her there quietly and I’ll try to show up"—this clearly demonstrated how weeks of longing had intensified his desire to see the child: it even seemed to express a longing on his part as strong as her own. That, in turn, was just perplexing enough for Maisie to express her confusion. She couldn’t understand, if they were so clearly on the same page, why the plan she had returned to Mrs. Beale with—the idea of a general reunion, the delightful trio—had fallen apart so completely. Mrs. Beale only gave her more to ponder by saying that their disappointment was due to him developing a particular notion in his mind.

"What kind of idea?"

"What type of idea?"

"Oh goodness knows!" She spoke with an approach to asperity. "He's so awfully delicate."

"Oh goodness!" She said a bit sharply. "He's so incredibly delicate."

"Delicate?"—that was ambiguous.

"Delicate?"—that was unclear.

"About what he does, don't you know?" said Mrs. Beale. She fumbled. "Well, about what we do."

"About what he does, don’t you know?" said Mrs. Beale. She fumbled. "Well, about what we do."

Maisie wondered. "You and me?"

Maisie wondered, "You and I?"

"Me and him, silly!" cried Mrs. Beale with, this time, a real giggle.

"Me and him, silly!" Mrs. Beale exclaimed, this time letting out a genuine giggle.

"But you don't do any harm—you don't," said Maisie, wondering afresh and intending her emphasis as a decorous allusion to her parents.

"But you don't do any harm—you don't," said Maisie, wondering again and meaning her emphasis as a polite reference to her parents.

"Of course we don't, you angel—that's just the ground I take!" her companion exultantly responded. "He says he doesn't want you mixed up."

"Of course we don't, you angel—that's just the ground I take!" her companion replied triumphantly. "He says he doesn't want you involved."

"Mixed up with what?"

"Confused about what?"

"That's exactly what I want to know: mixed up with what, and how you are any more mixed—?" Mrs. Beale paused without ending her question. She ended after an instant in a different way. "All you can say is that it's his fancy."

"That's exactly what I want to know: mixed up with what, and how are you any more mixed—?" Mrs. Beale paused without finishing her question. She concluded after a moment in a different way. "All you can say is that it's his whim."

The tone of this, in spite of its expressing a resignation, the fruit of weariness, that dismissed the subject, conveyed so vividly how much such a fancy was not Mrs. Beale's own that our young lady was led by the mere fact of contact to arrive at a dim apprehension of the unuttered and the unknown. The relation between her step-parents had then a mysterious residuum; this was the first time she really had reflected that except as regards herself it was not a relationship. To each other it was only what they might have happened to make it, and she gathered that this, in the event, had been something that led Sir Claude to keep away from her. Didn't he fear she would be compromised? The perception of such a scruple endeared him the more, and it flashed over her that she might simplify everything by showing him how little she made of such a danger. Hadn't she lived with her eyes on it from her third year? It was the condition most frequently discussed at the Faranges', where the word was always in the air and where at the age of five, amid rounds of applause, she could gabble it off. She knew as well in short that a person could be compromised as that a person could be slapped with a hair-brush or left alone in the dark, and it was equally familiar to her that each of these ordeals was in general held to have too little effect. But the first thing was to make absolutely sure of Mrs. Beale. This was done by saying to her thoughtfully: "Well, if you don't mind—and you really don't, do you?"

The tone of this, even though it showed a sense of resignation from exhaustion that brushed off the topic, clearly indicated how much this idea wasn’t Mrs. Beale’s own. Because of this connection, our young lady began to sense the unspoken and the unknown. The relationship between her step-parents had a mysterious quality; it was the first time she truly realized that, aside from herself, it wasn't really a relationship. For them, it was just whatever they had chosen to make of it, and she understood that this had, after all, been something that made Sir Claude keep his distance from her. Didn’t he worry she would be put in a compromising position? This realization made her like him even more, and it suddenly occurred to her that she could make everything simpler by showing him how little she cared about such risks. Hadn’t she been aware of it since she was three? It was a topic often discussed at the Faranges', where the word was always around, and where, at five years old, she could babble it off amid applause. She knew just as well that someone could be compromised as that someone could be hit with a hairbrush or left alone in the dark, and she was equally aware that both situations were generally considered to have minimal impact. But the first thing was to be absolutely sure about Mrs. Beale. This was done by saying to her thoughtfully: "Well, if you don't mind—and you really don’t, do you?"

Mrs. Beale, with a dawn of amusement, considered. "Mixing you up? Not a bit. For what does it mean?"

Mrs. Beale, feeling a hint of amusement, thought about it. "Confusing you? Not at all. What does that even mean?"

"Whatever it means I don't in the least mind being mixed. Therefore if you don't and I don't," Maisie concluded, "don't you think that when I see him this evening I had better just tell him we don't and ask him why in the world he should?"

"Whatever it means, I really don't mind being mixed. So if you don't mind, and I don't mind," Maisie concluded, "don't you think that when I see him this evening, I should just tell him we don't and ask him why in the world he should?"

 

 

XVIII
 

The child, however, was not destined to enjoy much of Sir Claude at the "thingumbob," which took for them a very different turn indeed. On the spot Mrs. Beale, with hilarity, had urged her to the course proposed; but later, at the Exhibition, she withdrew this allowance, mentioning as a result of second thoughts that when a man was so sensitive anything at all frisky usually made him worse. It would have been hard indeed for Sir Claude to be "worse," Maisie felt, as, in the gardens and the crowd, when the first dazzle had dropped, she looked for him in vain up and down. They had all their time, the couple, for frugal wistful wandering: they had partaken together at home of the light vague meal—Maisie's name for it was a "jam-supper"—to which they were reduced when Mr. Farange sought his pleasure abroad. It was abroad now entirely that Mr. Farange pursued this ideal, and it was the actual impression of his daughter, derived from his wife, that he had three days before joined a friend's yacht at Cowes.

The child, however, wasn’t meant to spend much time with Sir Claude at the "thingumbob," which took a very different turn for them. Right there, Mrs. Beale had enthusiastically encouraged her to go along with the plan; but later, at the Exhibition, she retracted this permission, saying after some second thoughts that when a man was so sensitive, any playful behavior usually made him worse. Maisie thought it would be hard for Sir Claude to be "worse," as she scanned the gardens and crowd, looking for him in vain after the initial excitement faded. The couple had plenty of time for their quiet, wistful strolls: they had shared a light, vague meal at home—Maisie called it a "jam-supper"—to which they were confined when Mr. Farange sought his pleasures elsewhere. Now, Mr. Farange was entirely off pursuing this ideal abroad, and Maisie understood from her mother that he had joined a friend's yacht at Cowes three days earlier.

The place was full of side-shows, to which Mrs. Beale could introduce the little girl only, alas, by revealing to her so attractive, so enthralling a name: the side-shows, each time, were sixpence apiece, and the fond allegiance enjoyed by the elder of our pair had been established from the earliest time in spite of a paucity of sixpences. Small coin dropped from her as half-heartedly as answers from bad children to lessons that had not been looked at. Maisie passed more slowly the great painted posters, pressing with a linked arm closer to her friend's pocket, where she hoped for the audible chink of a shilling. But the upshot of this was but to deepen her yearning: if Sir Claude would only at last come the shillings would begin to ring. The companions paused, for want of one, before the Flowers of the Forest, a large presentment of bright brown ladies—they were brown all over—in a medium suggestive of tropical luxuriance, and there Maisie dolorously expressed her belief that he would never come at all. Mrs. Beale hereupon, though discernibly disappointed, reminded her that he had not been promised as a certainty—a remark that caused the child to gaze at the Flowers through a blur in which they became more magnificent, yet oddly more confused, and by which moreover confusion was imparted to the aspect of a gentleman who at that moment, in the company of a lady, came out of the brilliant booth. The lady was so brown that Maisie at first took her for one of the Flowers; but during the few seconds that this required—a few seconds in which she had also desolately given up Sir Claude—she heard Mrs. Beale's voice, behind her, gather both wonder and pain into a single sharp little cry.

The place was packed with side-shows, which Mrs. Beale could only introduce to the little girl by revealing an enticing, captivating name. Each side-show cost sixpence, and the affection the older of the two had earned started early, despite a lack of sixpences. Small coins slipped from her as easily as half-hearted answers from misbehaving kids to lessons they hadn’t studied. Maisie lingered longer by the big colorful posters, clinging closer to her friend's pocket, hoping to hear the chime of a shilling. But this only deepened her desire: if only Sir Claude would finally show up, the shillings would start to jingle. The friends paused, lacking one, in front of the Flowers of the Forest, a large display of vibrant brown ladies—they were brown all over—set in a medium evoking tropical richness, and there Maisie sadly expressed her belief that he would never arrive. Mrs. Beale, though clearly disappointed, reminded her that he hadn’t been guaranteed—a comment that made the child stare at the Flowers through a haze, making them seem more magnificent yet strangely more confusing, and also giving a blurred effect to a gentleman who at that moment, with a lady, exited the bright booth. The lady was so brown that Maisie initially mistook her for one of the Flowers; but in those few seconds—where she had also resigned herself to the fact that Sir Claude would not come—she heard Mrs. Beale’s voice behind her, filled with both wonder and pain, let out a sharp little cry.

"Of all the wickedness—Beale!"

"Of all the wickedness—Beale!"

He had already, without distinguishing them in the mass of strollers, turned another way—it seemed at the brown lady's suggestion. Her course was marked, over heads and shoulders, by an upright scarlet plume, as to the ownership of which Maisie was instantly eager. "Who is she—who is she?"

He had already, without spotting them in the crowd of people walking around, turned in another direction—it seemed to be at the suggestion of the brown woman. Her path was noticeable, cutting through heads and shoulders, thanks to a tall scarlet feather. Maisie was immediately curious about who she was. "Who is she—who is she?"

But Mrs. Beale for a moment only looked after them. "The liar—the liar!"

But Mrs. Beale only watched them for a moment. "The liar—the liar!"

Maisie considered. "Because he's not—where one thought?" That was also, a month ago in Kensington Gardens, where her mother had not been. "Perhaps he has come back," she was quick to contribute.

Maisie thought for a moment. "Because he’s not—where one thought?" That was also a month ago in Kensington Gardens, where her mother hadn’t been. "Maybe he has come back," she quickly added.

"He never went—the hound!"

"He never went—the dog!"

That, according to Sir Claude, had been also what her mother had not done, and Maisie could only have a sense of something that in a maturer mind would be called the way history repeats itself.

That, according to Sir Claude, was also what her mother hadn’t done, and Maisie could only feel a sense of something that a more mature mind would describe as history repeating itself.

"Who is she?" she asked again.

"Who is she?" she asked again.

Mrs. Beale, fixed to the spot, seemed lost in the vision of an opportunity missed. "If he had only seen me!"—it came from between her teeth. "She's a brand-new one. But he must have been with her since Tuesday."

Mrs. Beale, rooted to the spot, looked like she was caught up in the thought of a missed opportunity. "If only he had noticed me!"—it slipped out through clenched teeth. "She's a total newcomer. But he must have been with her since Tuesday."

Maisie took it in. "She's almost black," she then reported.

Maisie processed it. "She's nearly black," she then said.

"They're always hideous," said Mrs. Beale.

"They're always awful," said Mrs. Beale.

This was a remark on which the child had again to reflect. "Oh not his wives!" she remonstrantly exclaimed. The words at another moment would probably have set her friend "off," but Mrs. Beale was now, in her instant vigilance, too immensely "on." "Did you ever in your life see such a feather?" Maisie presently continued.

This was a comment that the child had to think about again. "Oh, not his wives!" she exclaimed in protest. At another time, those words might have triggered her friend, but Mrs. Beale was currently too alert. "Have you ever seen such a feather?" Maisie continued after a moment.

This decoration appeared to have paused at some distance, and in spite of intervening groups they could both look at it. "Oh that's the way they dress—the vulgarest of the vulgar!"

This decoration seemed to have stopped at some distance, and despite the groups in between, they could both see it. "Oh, that's how they dress—the most basic of the basic!"

"They're coming back—they'll see us!" Maisie the next moment cried; and while her companion answered that this was exactly what she wanted and the child returned "Here they are—here they are!" the unconscious subjects of so much attention, with a change of mind about their direction, quickly retraced their steps and precipitated themselves upon their critics. Their unconsciousness gave Mrs. Beale time to leap, under her breath, to a recognition which Maisie caught.

"They're coming back—they'll see us!" Maisie shouted a moment later; and while her friend replied that this was exactly what she wanted, the child added, "Here they are—here they are!" The unsuspecting subjects of so much attention, deciding to change their direction, quickly turned around and hurried towards their critics. Their lack of awareness gave Mrs. Beale just enough time to silently acknowledge something that Maisie picked up on.

"It must be Mrs. Cuddon!"

"It has to be Mrs. Cuddon!"

Maisie looked at Mrs. Cuddon hard—her lips even echoed the name. What followed was extraordinarily rapid—a minute of livelier battle than had ever yet, in so short a span at least, been waged round our heroine. The muffled shock—lest people should notice—was violent, and it was only for her later thought that the steps fell into their order, the steps through which, in a bewilderment not so much of sound as of silence, she had come to find herself, too soon for comprehension and too strangely for fear, at the door of the Exhibition with her father. He thrust her into a hansom and got in after her, and then it was—as she drove along with him—that she recovered a little what had happened. Face to face with them in the gardens he had seen them, and there had been a moment of checked concussion during which, in a glare of black eyes and a toss of red plumage, Mrs. Cuddon had recognised them, ejaculated and vanished. There had been another moment at which she became aware of Sir Claude, also poised there in surprise, but out of her father's view, as if he had been warned off at the very moment of reaching them. It fell into its place with all the rest that she had heard Mrs. Beale say to her father, but whether low or loud was now lost to her, something about his having this time a new one; on which he had growled something indistinct but apparently in the tone and of the sort that the child, from her earliest years, had associated with hearing somebody retort to somebody that somebody was "another." "Oh I stick to the old!" Mrs. Beale had then quite loudly pronounced; and her accent, even as the cab got away, was still in the air, Maisie's effective companion having spoken no other word from the moment of whisking her off—none at least save the indistinguishable address which, over the top of the hansom and poised on the step, he had given the driver. Reconstructing these things later Maisie theorised that she at this point would have put a question to him had not the silence into which he charmed her or scared her—she could scarcely tell which—come from his suddenly making her feel his arm about her, feel, as he drew her close, that he was agitated in a way he had never yet shown her. It struck her he trembled, trembled too much to speak, and this had the effect of making her, with an emotion which, though it had begun to throb in an instant, was by no means all dread, conform to his portentous hush. The act of possession that his pressure in a manner advertised came back to her after the longest of the long intermissions that had ever let anything come back. They drove and drove, and he kept her close; she stared straight before her, holding her breath, watching one dark street succeed another and strangely conscious that what it all meant was somehow that papa was less to be left out of everything than she had supposed. It took her but a minute to surrender to this discovery, which, in the form of his present embrace, suggested a purpose in him prodigiously reaffirmed and with that a confused confidence. She neither knew exactly what he had done nor what he was doing; she could only, altogether impressed and rather proud, vibrate with the sense that he had jumped up to do something and that she had as quickly become a part of it. It was a part of it too that here they were at a house that seemed not large, but in the fresh white front of which the street-lamp showed a smartness of flower-boxes. The child had been in thousands of stories—all Mrs. Wix's and her own, to say nothing of the richest romances of French Elise—but she had never been in such a story as this. By the time he had helped her out of the cab, which drove away, and she heard in the door of the house the prompt little click of his key, the Arabian Nights had quite closed round her.

Maisie looked at Mrs. Cuddon intently—her lips even echoed the name. What happened next was incredibly fast—a minute of more intense action than had ever happened around our heroine in such a short time. The muffled impact—so people wouldn’t notice—was intense, and only later did she piece together the events that had led her, in a confusion more about silence than sound, to find herself, too quickly for full understanding and too oddly to be scared, at the door of the Exhibition with her father. He pushed her into a cab and climbed in after her, and it was as they drove along together that she started to piece together what had occurred. Face to face with them in the gardens, he had seen them, and there had been a moment of stunned recognition during which, amidst a flash of dark eyes and a flutter of red feathers, Mrs. Cuddon had recognized them, gasped, and disappeared. Then there was another moment when she noticed Sir Claude, also there in surprise, but out of her father’s sight, as if he had been warned away just as he was about to reach them. It all fell into place with everything else she had heard Mrs. Beale say to her father, though whether softly or loudly was now lost on her—something about him having a new one this time; to which he had grumbled something indistinct but apparently in a tone that, since she was a child, she had associated with hearing someone retort that someone was "another." “Oh, I stick to the old!” Mrs. Beale had then said rather loudly, and her accent still hung in the air as the cab pulled away, with Maisie’s effective companion having said no other word since whisking her off—none except the unclear instruction he had given the driver over the top of the cab and while balanced on the step. Later, as she tried to piece these things together, Maisie thought she might have asked him a question if not for the silence he had cast over her—she couldn't quite tell if it was charming or frightening, which came from the sudden way he wrapped his arm around her, holding her close, revealing a kind of agitation she had never seen in him before. It struck her that he was trembling, trembling too much to talk, and this made her, with an emotion that had started throbbing in an instant, comply with his weighty silence. The sense of possession that his closeness suggested returned to her after the longest pause in memory that had ever allowed anything to resurface. They drove on, and he kept her close; she stared straight ahead, holding her breath, watching one dark street after another and oddly aware that what it all meant was somehow that Papa was more integral to everything than she had thought. It took her only a minute to accept this realization, which, in his present embrace, hinted at a purpose in him that was remarkably reinforced, along with a confused confidence. She didn’t know exactly what he had done or what he was doing; she could only, genuinely impressed and somewhat proud, resonate with the feeling that he had jumped in to take action and that she had quickly become a part of it. It was also significant that they arrived at a house that didn’t appear large, but the fresh white facade was highlighted by the street lamp’s smart flower boxes. The child had been through thousands of stories—all of Mrs. Wix’s and her own, not to mention the richest romances of French Elise—but she had never been in a story like this. By the time he helped her out of the cab, which drove away, and she heard the quick little click of his key in the door of the house, she felt as though the Arabian Nights had completely enveloped her.

From this minute that pitch of the wondrous was in everything, particularly in such an instant "Open Sesame" and in the departure of the cab, a rattling void filled with relinquished step-parents; it was, with the vividness, the almost blinding whiteness of the light that sprang responsive to papa's quick touch of a little brass knob on the wall, in a place that, at the top of a short soft staircase, struck her as the most beautiful she had ever seen in her life. The next thing she perceived it to be was the drawing-room of a lady—of a lady, she could see in a moment, and not of a gentleman, not even of one like papa himself or even like Sir Claude—whose things were as much prettier than mamma's as it had always had to be confessed that mamma's were prettier than Mrs. Beale's. In the middle of the small bright room and the presence of more curtains and cushions, more pictures and mirrors, more palm-trees drooping over brocaded and gilded nooks, more little silver boxes scattered over little crooked tables and little oval miniatures hooked upon velvet screens than Mrs. Beale and her ladyship together could, in an unnatural alliance, have dreamed of mustering, the child became aware, with a sharp foretaste of compassion, of something that was strangely like a relegation to obscurity of each of those women of taste. It was a stranger operation still that her father should on the spot be presented to her as quite advantageously and even grandly at home in the dazzling scene and himself by so much the more separated from scenes inferior to it. She spent with him in it, while explanations continued to hang back, twenty minutes that, in their sudden drop of danger, affected her, though there were neither buns nor ginger-beer, like an extemporised expensive treat.

From that moment, the extraordinary was in everything, especially when "Open Sesame" was spoken and the cab departed, leaving behind a rattling emptiness filled with absent step-parents. It was marked by the brightness, the almost blinding whiteness of the light that responded to Dad's quick touch of a little brass knob on the wall, in a space that, at the top of a short, soft staircase, struck her as the most beautiful she had ever seen in her life. The next thing she recognized it to be was the drawing room of a lady—one that she could tell immediately, and not a gentleman's, not even one like Dad or Sir Claude—whose possessions were much prettier than Mom's, just as it had always been acknowledged that Mom's were nicer than Mrs. Beale's. In the middle of the small, bright room, filled with more curtains and cushions, more paintings and mirrors, more palm trees drooping over ornate and gilded corners, and more little silver boxes scattered across small, crooked tables and little oval miniatures mounted on velvet screens than Mrs. Beale and her ladyship could ever have imagined in an unholy alliance, the child felt a sharp incursion of sympathy for each of those tastefully adorned women. It was even stranger that her father should be introduced to her as truly, impressively at home in this dazzling scene, set so much further apart from lesser environments. She spent twenty minutes with him there, during which explanations remained unvoiced, feeling, despite the absence of buns or ginger beer, like an unexpected lavish treat.

"Is she very rich?" He had begun to strike her as almost embarrassed, so shy that he might have found himself with a young lady with whom he had little in common. She was literally moved by this apprehension to offer him some tactful relief.

"Is she really wealthy?" He seemed almost embarrassed, so shy that he might have felt out of place with a young woman he had little in common with. She was genuinely touched by this unease and felt compelled to offer him some considerate support.

Beale Farange stood and smiled at his young lady, his back to the fanciful fireplace, his light overcoat—the very lightest in London—wide open, and his wonderful lustrous beard completely concealing the expanse of his shirt-front. It pleased her more than ever to think that papa was handsome and, though as high aloft as mamma and almost, in his specially florid evening-dress, as splendid, of a beauty somehow less belligerent, less terrible.

Beale Farange stood and smiled at his young lady, his back to the whimsical fireplace, his very light coat—the lightest in London—wide open, and his amazing shiny beard completely hiding his shirt front. It made her even happier to think that her dad was handsome and, though as tall as her mom and almost as spectacular in his flashy evening attire, he had a beauty that was somehow less aggressive, less intimidating.

"The Countess? Why do you ask me that?"

"The Countess? Why do you want to know?"

Maisie's eyes opened wider. "Is she a Countess?"

Maisie's eyes widened. "Is she a Countess?"

He seemed to treat her wonder as a positive tribute. "Oh yes, my dear, but it isn't an English title."

He seemed to see her amazement as a compliment. "Oh yes, my dear, but it’s not an English title."

Her manner appreciated this. "Is it a French one?"

Her tone reflected this. "Is it from France?"

"No, nor French either. It's American."

"No, it's not French either. It's American."

She conversed agreeably. "Ah then of course she must be rich." She took in such a combination of nationality and rank. "I never saw anything so lovely."

She chatted pleasantly. "Well, she must be wealthy, then." She noticed the mix of nationality and social status. "I've never seen anything so beautiful."

"Did you have a sight of her?" Beale asked.

"Did you see her?" Beale asked.

"At the Exhibition?" Maisie smiled. "She was gone too quick."

"At the Exhibition?" Maisie smiled. "She left too soon."

Her father laughed. "She did slope!" She had feared he would say something about Mrs. Beale and Sir Claude, yet the way he spared them made her rather uneasy too. All he risked was, the next minute, "She has a horror of vulgar scenes."

Her father laughed. "She did slope!" She was worried he would mention Mrs. Beale and Sir Claude, but the way he avoided bringing them up made her feel uneasy too. All he risked was, the next moment, "She has a horror of tacky scenes."

This was something she needn't take up; she could still continue bland. "But where do you suppose she went?"

This was something she didn’t need to address; she could still stay neutral. “But where do you think she went?”

"Oh I thought she'd have taken a cab and have been here by this time. But she'll turn up all right."

"Oh, I thought she would have taken a cab and be here by now. But she’ll show up just fine."

"I'm sure I hope she will," Maisie said; she spoke with an earnestness begotten of the impression of all the beauty about them, to which, in person, the Countess might make further contribution. "We came awfully fast," she added.

"I'm sure I hope she will," Maisie said; she spoke with an intensity influenced by all the beauty surrounding them, to which the Countess might add even more in person. "We came really fast," she added.

Her father again laughed loud. "Yes, my dear, I made you step out!" He waited an instant, then pursued: "I want her to see you."

Her father laughed loudly again. "Yes, my dear, I made you step out!" He paused for a moment, then continued, "I want her to see you."

Maisie, at this, rejoiced in the attention that, for their evening out, Mrs. Beale, even to the extent of personally "doing up" her old hat, had given her appearance. Meanwhile her father went on: "You'll like her awfully."

Maisie, hearing this, was thrilled by the attention Mrs. Beale had paid to her appearance for their night out, even going so far as to personally "fix up" her old hat. Meanwhile, her father continued: "You'll really like her."

"Oh I'm sure I shall!" After which, either from the effect of having said so much or from that of a sudden glimpse of the impossibility of saying more, she felt an embarrassment and sought refuge in a minor branch of the subject. "I thought she was Mrs. Cuddon."

"Oh, I’m sure I will!" After that, either because of saying so much or because she suddenly realized how impossible it was to say more, she felt embarrassed and shifted to a less significant part of the conversation. "I thought she was Mrs. Cuddon."

Beale's gaiety rather increased than diminished. "You mean my wife did? My dear child, my wife's a damned fool!" He had the oddest air of speaking of his wife as of a person whom she might scarcely have known, so that the refuge of her scruple didn't prove particularly happy. Beale on the other hand appeared after an instant himself to feel a scruple. "What I mean is, to speak seriously, that she doesn't really know anything about anything." He paused, following the child's charmed eyes and tentative step or two as they brought her nearer to the pretty things on one of the tables. "She thinks she has good things, don't you know!" He quite jeered at Mrs. Beale's delusion.

Beale's cheerfulness seemed to grow rather than fade. "You mean my wife did? My dear child, my wife is a complete fool!" He spoke about his wife in such a way that it felt like she was someone the child barely knew, making her attempt to be proper feel rather awkward. On the other hand, Beale suddenly seemed to feel a bit guilty. "What I mean is, seriously, she doesn't really know anything about anything." He paused, watching the child's fascinated eyes and careful steps as she moved closer to the lovely items on one of the tables. "She thinks she has good things, you know!" He mocked Mrs. Beale's misconception.

Maisie felt she must confess that it was one; everything she had missed at the side-shows was made up to her by the Countess's luxuries. "Yes," she considered; "she does think that."

Maisie felt she had to admit that it was one; everything she had missed at the side-shows was compensated for by the Countess's luxuries. "Yeah," she thought; "she really believes that."

There was again a dryness in the way Beale replied that it didn't matter what she thought; but there was an increasing sweetness for his daughter in being with him so long without his doing anything worse. The whole hour of course was to remain with her, for days and weeks, ineffaceably illumined and confirmed; by the end of which she was able to read into it a hundred things that had been at the moment mere miraculous pleasantness. What they at the moment came to was simply that her companion was still in a good deal of a flutter, yet wished not to show it, and that just in proportion as he succeeded in this attempt he was able to encourage her to regard him as kind. He moved about the room after a little, showed her things, spoke to her as a person of taste, told her the name, which she remembered, of the famous French lady represented in one of the miniatures, and remarked, as if he had caught her wistful over a trinket or a trailing stuff, that he made no doubt the Countess, on coming in, would give her something jolly. He spied a pink satin box with a looking-glass let into the cover, which he raised, with a quick facetious flourish, to offer her the privilege of six rows of chocolate bonbons, cutting out thereby Sir Claude, who had never gone beyond four rows. "I can do what I like with these," he said, "for I don't mind telling you I gave 'em to her myself." The Countess had evidently appreciated the gift; there were numerous gaps, a ravage now quite unchecked, in the array. Even while they waited together Maisie had her sense, which was the mark of what their separation had become, of her having grown for him, since the last time he had, as it were, noticed her, and by increase of years and of inches if by nothing else, much more of a little person to reckon with. Yes, this was a part of the positive awkwardness that he carried off by being almost foolishly tender. There was a passage during which, on a yellow silk sofa under one of the palms, he had her on his knee, stroking her hair, playfully holding her off while he showed his shining fangs and let her, with a vague affectionate helpless pointless "Dear old girl, dear little daughter," inhale the fragrance of his cherished beard. She must have been sorry for him, she afterwards knew, so well could she privately follow his difficulty in being specific to her about anything. She had such possibilities of vibration, of response, that it needed nothing more than this to make up to her in fact for omissions. The tears came into her eyes again as they had done when in the Park that day the Captain told her so "splendidly" that her mother was good. What was this but splendid too—this still directer goodness of her father and this unexampled shining solitude with him, out of which everything had dropped but that he was papa and that he was magnificent? It didn't spoil it that she finally felt he must have, as he became restless, some purpose he didn't quite see his way to bring out, for in the freshness of their recovered fellowship she would have lent herself gleefully to his suggesting, or even to his pretending, that their relations were easy and graceful. There was something in him that seemed, and quite touchingly, to ask her to help him to pretend—pretend he knew enough about her life and her education, her means of subsistence and her view of himself, to give the questions he couldn't put her a natural domestic tone. She would have pretended with ecstasy if he could only have given her the cue. She waited for it while, between his big teeth, he breathed the sighs she didn't know to be stupid. And as if, though he was so stupid all through, he had let the friendly suffusion of her eyes yet tell him she was ready for anything, he floundered about, wondering what the devil he could lay hold of.

There was again a dryness in the way Beale replied that made it clear he didn’t care what she thought; yet there was an increasing sweetness for his daughter in spending so much time with him without any major issues. The entire hour, of course, would stay with her for days and weeks, indelibly brightened and confirmed; by the end of it, she could read into it a hundred things that had originally seemed like simple miraculous joy. What it came down to at the moment was that her companion was still quite flustered but didn’t want to show it, and the more he succeeded in hiding it, the more he encouraged her to see him as kind. After a bit, he moved around the room, showed her things, spoke to her as an appreciative person, told her the name, which she remembered, of the famous French lady depicted in one of the miniatures, and remarked, as if he had caught her admiring a trinket or a piece of fabric, that he was sure the Countess would give her something nice when she came in. He spotted a pink satin box with a mirror in the lid, which he opened with a quick, playful flourish to offer her the privilege of six rows of chocolate bonbons, which put Sir Claude to shame, who had never provided more than four rows. "I can do what I want with these," he said, "because I don't mind telling you I gave them to her myself." The Countess had clearly appreciated the gift; there were numerous gaps, a ravage that was now quite evident, in the array. Even while they were waiting together, Maisie felt, as a sign of what their separation had become, that she had grown for him since the last time he had really acknowledged her, and whether through age or inches, she had become much more of a little person to consider. Yes, this was part of the undeniable awkwardness that he managed to downplay with his almost foolish tenderness. There was a moment when, on a yellow silk sofa beneath one of the palm trees, he had her on his lap, stroking her hair, playfully holding her back while he flashed his shining smile and let her, with a vague affectionate “Dear old girl, dear little daughter,” breathe in the scent of his well-taken-care-of beard. She must have felt sorry for him, she realized later, as she could easily understand his struggle in being specific about anything. She had such potential for emotional response that it took nothing more than this to make up for what was missing. Tears filled her eyes again, just like they had when the Captain told her so "splendidly" in the park that her mother was good. What was this but splendid too—this even more direct goodness from her father and this unparalleled shining solitude with him, from which everything had faded but the fact that he was dad and that he was extraordinary? It didn’t ruin it that she finally sensed he must have, as he grew restless, some goal he couldn’t quite figure out how to express, because in the freshness of their recently regained connection, she would have happily gone along with his suggestions, or even his pretending, that their relationship was easy and graceful. There was something in him that seemed, and quite touchingly, to ask her to help him pretend—to pretend he knew enough about her life and education, her means of living and his view of himself, to give the unasked questions a natural domestic tone. She would have played along enthusiastically if only he could have given her the signal. She waited for that while, between his big teeth, he breathed the sighs she didn’t realize were foolish. And as if, despite his foolishness, he sensed the friendly warmth in her eyes telling him she was ready for anything, he fumbled around, wondering what in the world he could grasp.

 

 

XIX
 

When he had lighted a cigarette and begun to smoke in her face it was as if he had struck with the match the note of some queer clumsy ferment of old professions, old scandals, old duties, a dim perception of what he possessed in her and what, if everything had only—damn it!—been totally different, she might still be able to give him. What she was able to give him, however, as his blinking eyes seemed to make out through the smoke, would be simply what he should be able to get from her. To give something, to give here on the spot, was all her own desire. Among the old things that came back was her little instinct of keeping the peace; it made her wonder more sharply what particular thing she could do or not do, what particular word she could speak or not speak, what particular line she could take or not take, that might for every one, even for the Countess, give a better turn to the crisis. She was ready, in this interest, for an immense surrender, a surrender of everything but Sir Claude, of everything but Mrs. Beale. The immensity didn't include them; but if he had an idea at the back of his head she had also one in a recess as deep, and for a time, while they sat together, there was an extraordinary mute passage between her vision of this vision of his, his vision of her vision, and her vision of his vision of her vision. What there was no effective record of indeed was the small strange pathos on the child's part of an innocence so saturated with knowledge and so directed to diplomacy. What, further, Beale finally laid hold of while he masked again with his fine presence half the flounces of the fireplace was: "Do you know, my dear, I shall soon be off to America?" It struck his daughter both as a short cut and as the way he wouldn't have said it to his wife. But his wife figured with a bright superficial assurance in her response.

When he lit a cigarette and started smoking in her face, it felt like he was striking a match to ignite the awkward mix of forgotten professions, old scandals, and past responsibilities—an unclear sense of what he had in her and what, if things had only been different, she could still offer him. However, as his squinting eyes tried to see through the smoke, it became clear that what she could give him was simply what he should be able to get from her. Her main desire was to give something, to make a contribution right then and there. Among the old memories that surfaced was her instinct to keep the peace; it made her more acutely aware of what she could or couldn’t do, what she could say or not say, what stance she could take or avoid, to steer the crisis in a better direction for everyone, even for the Countess. For that reason, she was ready for a huge sacrifice, giving up everything except Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale. This immense willingness didn’t include them; but if he had an idea in the back of his mind, she also had one tucked away deep, and for a while, as they sat together, there was a unique silent exchange of their perceptions—his vision of her vision and her vision of his vision. What was missing from the record was the small, odd sadness on the child’s part—an innocence steeped in knowledge and aimed at diplomacy. Ultimately, what Beale realized as he once again blocked part of the fireplace with his presence was: "Do you know, my dear, I’ll be heading to America soon?" His daughter perceived it as both a shortcut and something he wouldn’t have expressed to his wife. But his wife responded with a bright, superficial confidence.

"Do you mean with Mrs. Beale?"

"Are you talking about Mrs. Beale?"

Her father looked at her hard. "Don't be a little ass!"

Her dad looked at her seriously. "Don’t be a brat!"

Her silence appeared to represent a concentrated effort not to be. "Then with the Countess?"

Her silence seemed like a deliberate attempt to not exist. "Then what about the Countess?"

"With her or without her, my dear; that concerns only your poor daddy. She has big interests over there, and she wants me to take a look at them."

"Whether she's involved or not, my dear; that only affects your poor dad. She has significant interests over there, and she wants me to check them out."

Maisie threw herself into them. "Will that take very long?"

Maisie dove into them. "Will that take a long time?"

"Yes; they're in such a muddle—it may take months. Now what I want to hear, you know, is whether you'd like to come along?"

"Yeah; they're in such a mess—it could take months. What I want to know is if you'd like to join us?"

Planted once more before him in the middle of the room she felt herself turning white. "I?" she gasped, yet feeling as soon as she had spoken that such a note of dismay was not altogether pretty. She felt it still more while her father replied, with a shake of his legs, a toss of his cigarette-ash and a fidgety look—he was for ever taking one—all the length of his waistcoat and trousers, that she needn't be quite so disgusted. It helped her in a few seconds to appear more as he would like her that she saw, in the lovely light of the Countess's splendour, exactly, however she appeared, the right answer to make. "Dear papa, I'll go with you anywhere."

Planted once again in the middle of the room, she felt herself turning pale. "Me?" she gasped, quickly realizing that her tone of shock wasn’t exactly flattering. She felt it even more when her father responded, shaking his legs, flicking off his cigarette ash, and looking fidgety—he was always adjusting himself all the way down his waistcoat and trousers—that she shouldn’t be so appalled. A moment later, with the Countess's gorgeous light around her, she realized how she needed to respond to make her father happy, no matter how she seemed. "Dear Dad, I'll go with you anywhere."

He turned his back to her and stood with his nose at the glass of the chimneypiece while he brushed specks of ash out of his beard. Then he abruptly said: "Do you know anything about your brute of a mother?"

He turned away from her and stood with his nose against the glass of the fireplace while he brushed bits of ash out of his beard. Then he suddenly said, "Do you know anything about your awful mother?"

It was just of her brute of a mother that the manner of the question in a remarkable degree reminded her: it had the free flight of one of Ida's fine bridgings of space. With the sense of this was kindled for Maisie at the same time an inspiration. "Oh yes, I know everything!" and she became so radiant that her father, seeing it in the mirror, turned back to her and presently, on the sofa, had her at his knee again and was again particularly affecting. Maisie's inspiration instructed her, pressingly, that the more she should be able to say about mamma the less she would be called upon to speak of her step-parents. She kept hoping the Countess would come in before her power to protect them was exhausted; and it was now, in closer quarters with her companion, that the idea at the back of her head shifted its place to her lips. She told him she had met her mother in the Park with a gentleman who, while Sir Claude had strolled with her ladyship, had been kind and had sat and talked to her; narrating the scene with a remembrance of her pledge of secrecy to the Captain quite brushed away by the joy of seeing Beale listen without profane interruption. It was almost an amazement, but it was indeed all a joy, thus to be able to guess that papa was at last quite tired of his anger—of his anger at any rate about mamma. He was only bored with her now. That made it, however, the more imperative that his spent displeasure shouldn't be blown out again. It charmed the child to see how much she could interest him; and the charm remained even when, after asking her a dozen questions, he observed musingly and a little obscurely: "Yes, damned if she won't!" For in this too there was a detachment, a wise weariness that made her feel safe. She had had to mention Sir Claude, though she mentioned him as little as possible and Beale only appeared to look quite over his head. It pieced itself together for her that this was the mildness of general indifference, a source of profit so great for herself personally that if the Countess was the author of it she was prepared literally to hug the Countess. She betrayed that eagerness by a restless question about her, to which her father replied: "Oh she has a head on her shoulders. I'll back her to get out of anything!" He looked at Maisie quite as if he could trace the connexion between her enquiry and the impatience of her gratitude. "Do you mean to say you'd really come with me?"

It was her tough mother that the way the question was asked reminded her of: it had the free spirit of one of Ida's beautiful leaps. With this realization, Maisie felt a spark of inspiration. "Oh yes, I know everything!" she exclaimed, and she became so bright that her father, seeing it in the mirror, turned back to her and soon had her on his knee again, being particularly affectionate. Maisie's inspiration urged her, insistently, that the more she could say about Mom, the less she would have to talk about her step-parents. She kept hoping the Countess would come in before her energy to defend them ran out; and now, closer to her companion, the idea she had been holding back moved to the forefront. She told him she had seen her mother in the Park with a gentleman who, while Sir Claude was taking a walk with her ladyship, had been kind and sat and talked with her; she recounted the scene with her promise of secrecy to the Captain almost forgotten in the joy of seeing Beale listen without interruption. It was almost surprising, but it was truly all joy, to sense that Dad was finally really tired of his anger—at least his anger about Mom. He only seemed bored with her now. However, that made it even more crucial that his spent anger didn't flare up again. It thrilled the child to see how much she could capture his interest; and the thrill remained even when, after asking her a bunch of questions, he remarked thoughtfully and a little vaguely: "Yeah, damn if she won’t!" Because in that too, there was a detachment, a wise weariness that made her feel safe. She had to mention Sir Claude, though she brought him up as little as possible, and Beale only seemed to look right past it. It came together for her that this was the calm of general indifference, a huge advantage for her personally, so if the Countess was responsible for it, she was ready to hug the Countess. She showed that eagerness with a restless question about her, to which her father replied: "Oh she’s smart. I’ll bet she can get out of anything!" He looked at Maisie as if he could see the connection between her question and her exciting gratitude. "Are you really saying you’d come with me?"

She felt as if he were now looking at her very hard indeed, and also as if she had grown ever so much older. "I'll do anything in the world you ask me, papa."

She felt like he was really staring at her, and that she had aged a lot. "I'll do anything in the world you ask me, Dad."

He gave again, with a laugh and with his legs apart, his proprietary glance at his waistcoat and trousers. "That's a way, my dear, of saying 'No, thank you!' You know you don't want to go the least little mite. You can't humbug me!" Beale Farange laid down. "I don't want to bully you—I never bullied you in my life; but I make you the offer, and it's to take or to leave. Your mother will never again have any more to do with you than if you were a kitchenmaid she had turned out for going wrong. Therefore of course I'm your natural protector and you've a right to get everything out of me you can. Now's your chance, you know—you won't be half-clever if you don't. You can't say I don't put it before you—you can't say I ain't kind to you or that I don't play fair. Mind you never say that, you know—it would bring me down on you. I know what's proper. I'll take you again, just as I have taken you again and again. And I'm much obliged to you for making up such a face."

He laughed, standing with his legs apart, giving a knowing glance at his waistcoat and trousers. "That's just my way of saying 'No, thank you!' You know you really don’t want to go at all. You can’t fool me!" Beale Farange sighed. "I don’t want to pressure you—I’ve never pressured you in my life; but I’m offering this, and it’s up to you to accept or decline. Your mother is never going to treat you any differently than if you were a kitchen maid she dismissed for making a mistake. So, naturally, I’m your protector, and you have every right to get as much from me as you can. This is your opportunity, you know—you won’t be very clever if you miss it. You can’t say I haven’t laid it all out for you—you can’t claim I’m not nice to you or that I’m unfair. Just don’t say that, alright—it would cause me to come down hard on you. I know what’s right. I’ll take you back again, just like I have taken you back time and time again. And I really appreciate you making such a face.”

She was conscious enough that her face indeed couldn't please him if it showed any sign—just as she hoped it didn't—of her sharp impression of what he now really wanted to do. Wasn't he trying to turn the tables on her, embarrass her somehow into admitting that what would really suit her little book would be, after doing so much for good manners, to leave her wholly at liberty to arrange for herself? She began to be nervous again: it rolled over her that this was their parting, their parting for ever, and that he had brought her there for so many caresses only because it was important such an occasion should look better for him than any other. For her to spoil it by the note of discord would certainly give him ground for complaint; and the child was momentarily bewildered between her alternatives of agreeing with him about her wanting to get rid of him and displeasing him by pretending to stick to him. So she found for the moment no solution but to murmur very helplessly: "Oh papa—oh papa!"

She was aware enough that her face definitely wouldn't please him if it showed any sign—just as she hoped it didn't—of her clear understanding of what he really wanted to do. Wasn't he trying to turn the tables on her, to embarrass her into admitting that what would truly be best for her little book, after all the emphasis on good manners, would be to let her completely choose for herself? She started to feel nervous again: it hit her that this was their goodbye, their goodbye forever, and that he had brought her there for all those tender moments only because it was important that this occasion looked better for him than any other. For her to spoil it with any sign of discord would certainly give him a reason to complain; and she was momentarily confused about whether to agree with him about wanting to be free of him or to upset him by pretending to want to stay. So, for the moment, she found no other response except to murmur very helplessly: "Oh dad—oh dad!"

"I know what you're up to—don't tell me!" After which he came straight over and, in the most inconsequent way in the world, clasped her in his arms a moment and rubbed his beard against her cheek. Then she understood as well as if he had spoken it that what he wanted, hang it, was that she should let him off with all the honours—with all the appearance of virtue and sacrifice on his side. It was exactly as if he had broken out to her: "I say, you little booby, help me to be irreproachable, to be noble, and yet to have none of the beastly bore of it. There's only impropriety enough for one of us; so you must take it all. Repudiate your dear old daddy—in the face, mind you, of his tender supplications. He can't be rough with you—it isn't in his nature: therefore you'll have successfully chucked him because he was too generous to be as firm with you, poor man, as was, after all, his duty." This was what he communicated in a series of tremendous pats on the back; that portion of her person had never been so thumped since Moddle thumped her when she choked. After a moment he gave her the further impression of having become sure enough of her to be able very gracefully to say out: "You know your mother loathes you, loathes you simply. And I've been thinking over your precious man—the fellow you told me about."

"I know what you're up to—don't tell me!" Then he walked right over and, in the most carefree way, wrapped his arms around her for a moment and rubbed his beard against her cheek. She realized just as if he had said it that what he wanted, frustratingly, was for her to let him off the hook completely—keeping all the appearances of virtue and sacrifice on his part. It was like he had blurted out to her: "I mean, you silly girl, help me look good, be noble, but without any of the annoying effort. There's only so much wrong to go around, so you need to take it all. Reject your dear old dad—in light of his heartfelt pleas. He can't be harsh with you—it just isn't in him: so you’ll have successfully gotten rid of him because he was too kind to be as tough with you, poor guy, as he really should have been." This was what he conveyed with a series of heavy pats on her back; that part of her had never been hit so hard since Moddle thumped her when she was choking. After a moment, he gave her the impression that he felt confident enough around her to say casually: "You know your mother absolutely hates you, she really does. And I've been thinking about your precious guy—the one you told me about."

"Well," Maisie replied with competence, "I'm sure of him."

"Well," Maisie replied confidently, "I know him for sure."

Her father was vague for an instant. "Do you mean sure of his liking you?"

Her father hesitated for a moment. "Are you talking about being sure that he likes you?"

"Oh no; of his liking her!"

"Oh no; he likes her!"

Beale had a return of gaiety. "There's no accounting for tastes! It's what they all say, you know."

Beale felt cheerful again. "You can't explain people's tastes! That's what everyone says, you know."

"I don't care—I'm sure of him!" Maisie repeated.

"I don't care—I'm confident in him!" Maisie repeated.

"Sure, you mean, that she'll bolt?"

"Sure, you mean that she'll run away?"

Maisie knew all about bolting, but, decidedly, she was older, and there was something in her that could wince at the way her father made the ugly word—ugly enough at best—sound flat and low. It prompted her to amend his allusion, which she did by saying: "I don't know what she'll do. But she'll be happy."

Maisie was well aware of bolting, but, for sure, she was older, and there was something in her that could cringe at how her father made the harsh word—bad enough already—sound dull and weak. It made her want to correct his comment, which she did by saying: "I don't know what she'll do. But she'll be happy."

"Let us hope so," said Beale—almost as for edification. "The more happy she is at any rate the less she'll want you about. That's why I press you," he agreeably pursued, "to consider this handsome offer—I mean seriously, you know—of your sole surviving parent." Their eyes, at this, met again in a long and extraordinary communion which terminated in his ejaculating: "Ah you little scoundrel!" She took it from him in the manner it seemed to her he would like best and with a success that encouraged him to go on: "You are a deep little devil!" Her silence, ticking like a watch, acknowledged even this, in confirmation of which he finally brought out: "You've settled it with the other pair!"

"Let’s hope so," Beale said, almost for effect. "The happier she is, the less she’ll want you around. That’s why I’m urging you," he continued pleasantly, "to seriously think about this generous offer—from your only surviving parent." Their eyes met again in a long and intense exchange, which ended with him exclaiming, "Ah, you little rascal!" She received it from him in a way that seemed to please him, and her success encouraged him to continue: "You are a clever little devil!" Her silence, tick-tocking like a watch, acknowledged this, and finally led him to add, "You’ve settled it with the other two!"

"Well, what if I have?" She sounded to herself most bold.

"Well, what if I have?" She thought she sounded quite bold.

Her father, quite as in the old days, broke into a peal. "Why, don't you know they're awful?"

Her father, just like back in the day, burst into laughter. "What, don't you know they're terrible?"

She grew bolder still. "I don't care—not a bit!"

She became even bolder. "I don't care—not at all!"

"But they're probably the worst people in the world and the very greatest criminals," Beale pleasantly urged. "I'm not the man, my dear, not to let you know it."

"But they’re probably the worst people in the world and the biggest criminals," Beale cheerfully insisted. "I’m not the kind of guy, my dear, to keep that from you."

"Well, it doesn't prevent them from loving me. They love me tremendously." Maisie turned crimson to hear herself.

"Well, it doesn't stop them from loving me. They love me a lot." Maisie turned red hearing herself.

Her companion fumbled; almost any one—let alone a daughter—would have seen how conscientious he wanted to be. "I dare say. But do you know why?" She braved his eyes and he added: "You're a jolly good pretext."

Her companion struggled; almost anyone—especially a daughter—would have noticed how eager he was to be responsible. "I suppose. But do you know why?" She met his gaze boldly, and he added: "You're a great excuse."

"For what?" Maisie asked.

"For what?" Maisie inquired.

"Why, for their game. I needn't tell you what that is."

"Well, for their game. I don't need to tell you what that is."

The child reflected. "Well then that's all the more reason."

The child thought for a moment. "Well, that just gives us even more reason."

"Reason for what, pray?"

"Reason for what, really?"

"For their being kind to me."

"Thanks for being kind."

"And for your keeping in with them?" Beale roared again; it was as if his spirits rose and rose. "Do you realise, pray, that in saying that you're a monster?"

"And what about your relationship with them?" Beale shouted again; it felt like his energy kept building. "Do you understand, please, that by saying that you're being a monster?"

She turned it over. "A monster?"

She flipped it over. "A monster?"

"They've made one of you. Upon my honour it's quite awful. It shows the kind of people they are. Don't you understand," Beale pursued, "that when they've made you as horrid as they can—as horrid as themselves—they'll just simply chuck you?"

"They've made one of you. Honestly, it’s really terrible. It reveals what kind of people they are. Don’t you see," Beale continued, "that when they’ve turned you into something as awful as they are—just as awful as themselves—they’ll just toss you aside?"

She had at this a flicker of passion. "They won't chuck me!"

She felt a spark of passion at this. "They're not going to kick me out!"

"I beg your pardon," her father courteously insisted; "it's my duty to put it before you. I shouldn't forgive myself if I didn't point out to you that they'll cease to require you." He spoke as if with an appeal to her intelligence that she must be ashamed not adequately to meet, and this gave a real distinction to his superior delicacy.

"I’m sorry to interrupt," her father politely said; "I have to bring this to your attention. I wouldn’t forgive myself if I didn’t tell you that they’ll stop needing you." He spoke as if he was appealing to her intelligence, suggesting that she should be embarrassed if she didn’t respond properly, and this added a genuine elegance to his superior sensitivity.

It cleared the case as he had wished. "Cease to require me because they won't care?" She paused with that sketch of her idea.

It resolved the situation as he had hoped. "Stop needing me just because they won't care?" She paused with that hint of her thought.

"Of course Sir Claude won't care if his wife bolts. That's his game. It will suit him down to the ground."

"Of course Sir Claude won't mind if his wife leaves. That's just how he operates. It suits him perfectly."

This was a proposition Maisie could perfectly embrace, but it still left a loophole for triumph. She turned it well over. "You mean if mamma doesn't come back ever at all?" The composure with which her face was presented to that prospect would have shown a spectator the long road she had travelled. "Well, but that won't put Mrs. Beale—"

This was a suggestion Maisie could totally accept, but it still left room for victory. She considered it carefully. "You mean if mom never comes back at all?" The calmness on her face in response to that idea would have revealed to an observer the hard journey she had been on. "Well, but that won't change Mrs. Beale—"

"In the same comfortable position—?" Beale took her up with relish; he had sprung to his feet again, shaking his legs and looking at his shoes. "Right you are, darling! Something more will be wanted for Mrs. Beale." He just paused, then he added: "But she may not have long to wait for it."

"In the same comfortable position—?" Beale eagerly responded, getting to his feet again, shaking his legs and checking his shoes. "You got it, darling! Mrs. Beale will want something more." He paused, then added, "But she might not have to wait long for it."

Maisie also for a minute looked at his shoes, though they were not the pair she most admired, the laced yellow "uppers" and patent-leather complement. At last, with a question, she raised her eyes. "Aren't you coming back?"

Maisie also took a moment to look at his shoes, even though they weren't the pair she liked best, the laced yellow "uppers" with their shiny patent-leather details. Finally, she raised her eyes and asked, "Aren't you coming back?"

Once more he hung fire; after which he gave a small laugh that in the oddest way in the world reminded her of the unique sounds she had heard emitted by Mrs. Wix. "It may strike you as extraordinary that I should make you such an admission; and in point of fact you're not to understand that I do. But we'll put it that way to help your decision. The point is that that's the way my wife will presently be sure to put it. You'll hear her shrieking that she's deserted, so that she may just pile up her wrongs. She'll be as free as she likes then—as free, you see, as your mother's muff of a husband. They won't have anything more to consider and they'll just put you into the street. Do I understand," Beale enquired, "that, in the face of what I press on you, you still prefer to take the risk of that?" It was the most wonderful appeal any gentleman had ever addressed to his daughter, and it had placed Maisie in the middle of the room again while her father moved slowly about her with his hands in his pockets and something in his step that seemed, more than anything else he had done, to show the habit of the place. She turned her fevered little eyes over his friend's brightnesses, as if, on her own side, to press for some help in a quandary unexampled. As if also the pressure reached him he after an instant stopped short, completing the prodigy of his attitude and the pride of his loyalty by a supreme formulation of the general inducement. "You've an eye, love! Yes, there's money. No end of money."

Once again, he hesitated; after which he let out a small laugh that oddly reminded her of the unique sounds she had heard from Mrs. Wix. "You might find it strange that I’d make such a confession; and to be honest, you shouldn’t take it that way. But let’s phrase it like that to help you decide. The point is that’s how my wife will likely frame it soon. She’ll scream that she’s been abandoned, just to pile up her grievances. Then she’ll be as free as she wants— as free, you know, as your mother's useless husband. They won’t have anything more to consider and will just throw you out. Do I understand," Beale asked, "that, despite everything I’m saying, you still choose to take that risk?" It was the most remarkable request any gentleman had ever made to his daughter, and it brought Maisie back to the center of the room while her father walked slowly around her with his hands in his pockets, his steps reflecting the routine of the place. She looked with her anxious little eyes over his friend’s bright demeanor, as if trying to seek help in an unparalleled dilemma. As if sensing her tension, he suddenly stopped, reinforcing the impressiveness of his posture and the pride of his loyalty with a decisive statement of the overall appeal. "You've got an eye, love! Yes, there’s money. A whole lot of money."

This affected her at first in the manner of some great flashing dazzle in one of the pantomimes to which Sir Claude had taken her: she saw nothing in it but what it directly conveyed. "And shall I never, never see you again—?"

This hit her at first like a dazzling spectacle in one of the shows Sir Claude had taken her to: she understood only what it immediately meant. "And will I never, never see you again—?"

"If I do go to America?" Beale brought it out like a man. "Never, never, never!"

"If I really go to America?" Beale said it boldly. "No way, no way, no way!"

Hereupon, with the utmost absurdity, she broke down; everything gave way, everything but the horror of hearing herself definitely utter such an ugliness as the acceptance of that. So she only stiffened herself and said: "Then I can't give you up."

Here, in complete disbelief, she fell apart; everything collapsed, except for the sheer horror of hearing herself say something so ugly as accepting that. So she just braced herself and said, "Then I can't give you up."

She held him some seconds looking at her, showing her a strained grimace, a perfect parade of all his teeth, in which it seemed to her she could read the disgust he didn't quite like to express at this departure from the pliability she had practically promised. But before she could attenuate in any way the crudity of her collapse he gave an impatient jerk which took him to the window. She heard a vehicle stop; Beale looked out; then he freshly faced her. He still said nothing, but she knew the Countess had come back. There was a silence again between them, but with a different shade of embarrassment from that of their united arrival; and it was still without speaking that, abruptly repeating one of the embraces of which he had already been so prodigal, he whisked her back to the lemon sofa just before the door of the room was thrown open. It was thus in renewed and intimate union with him that she was presented to a person whom she instantly recognised as the brown lady.

She held him for a few seconds, looking at her and showing a tense grin, a complete display of all his teeth, from which she thought she could read the disgust he didn’t quite want to verbalize at her unexpected departure from the flexibility she had practically promised. But before she could soften the bluntness of her fall, he abruptly jerked himself towards the window. She heard a vehicle come to a stop; Beale looked outside; then he turned back to her with a fresh expression. He still didn’t say anything, but she knew the Countess had returned. There was silence again between them, but it felt different in its awkwardness compared to their initial arrival; and without exchanging words, he suddenly repeated one of the embraces he had already given her so generously, pulling her back to the lemon sofa just before the door swung open. It was in this renewed and close connection that she was presented to someone she instantly recognized as the brown lady.

The brown lady looked almost as astonished, though not quite as alarmed, as when, at the Exhibition, she had gasped in the face of Mrs. Beale. Maisie in truth almost gasped in her own; this was with the fuller perception that she was brown indeed. She literally struck the child more as an animal than as a "real" lady; she might have been a clever frizzled poodle in a frill or a dreadful human monkey in a spangled petticoat. She had a nose that was far too big and eyes that were far too small and a moustache that was, well, not so happy a feature as Sir Claude's. Beale jumped up to her; while, to the child's astonishment, though as if in a quick intensity of thought, the Countess advanced as gaily as if, for many a day, nothing awkward had happened for any one. Maisie, in spite of a large acquaintance with the phenomenon, had never seen it so promptly established that nothing awkward was to be mentioned. The next minute the Countess had kissed her and exclaimed to Beale with bright tender reproach: "Why, you never told me half! My dear child," she cried, "it was awfully nice of you to come!"

The brown lady looked almost as surprised, though not quite as scared, as when she had gasped at Mrs. Beale during the Exhibition. Maisie almost gasped herself; she realized the woman was indeed brown. She seemed more like an animal than a "real" lady; she could have been a clever frizzled poodle in a frill or a dreadful human monkey in a sparkly petticoat. Her nose was way too big, her eyes way too small, and her mustache was definitely not as attractive as Sir Claude's. Beale jumped up to her; and to the child's surprise, the Countess approached as cheerfully as if nothing awkward had happened at all. Despite having seen this kind of situation many times, Maisie had never witnessed such a quick agreement that awkwardness was off-limits. In the next moment, the Countess had kissed her and brightly chided Beale, "Why, you never told me half! My dear child," she exclaimed, "it was so nice of you to come!"

"But she hasn't come—she won't come!" Beale answered. "I've put it to her how much you'd like it, but she declines to have anything to do with us."

"But she hasn't come—she won't come!" Beale replied. "I've told her how much you'd like it, but she's refusing to have anything to do with us."

The Countess stood smiling, and after an instant that was mainly taken up with the shock of her weird aspect Maisie felt herself reminded of another smile, which was not ugly, though also interested—the kind light thrown, that day in the Park, from the clean fair face of the Captain. Papa's Captain—yes—was the Countess; but she wasn't nearly so nice as the other: it all came back, doubtless, to Maisie's minor appreciation of ladies. "Shouldn't you like me," said this one endearingly, "to take you to Spa?"

The Countess stood there smiling, and after a moment, mostly spent processing her strange appearance, Maisie found herself reminded of another smile, which wasn’t unappealing, but also conveyed interest—the kind light that day in the Park from the Captain's clean, fair face. Papa's Captain—yes—was the Countess; but she wasn’t nearly as nice as the other one: it all came back, likely, to Maisie's less favorable view of women. “Wouldn’t you like me,” this one said sweetly, “to take you to Spa?”

"To Spa?" The child repeated the name to gain time, not to show how the Countess brought back to her a dim remembrance of a strange woman with a horrid face who once, years before, in an omnibus, bending to her from an opposite seat, had suddenly produced an orange and murmured "Little dearie, won't you have it?" She had felt then, for some reason, a small silly terror, though afterwards conscious that her interlocutress, unfortunately hideous, had particularly meant to be kind. This was also what the Countess meant; yet the few words she had uttered and the smile with which she had uttered them immediately cleared everything up. Oh no, she wanted to go nowhere with her, for her presence had already, in a few seconds, dissipated the happy impression of the room and put an end to the pleasure briefly taken in Beale's command of such elegance. There was no command of elegance in his having exposed her to the approach of the short fat wheedling whiskered person in whom she had now to recognise the only figure wholly without attraction involved in any of the intimate connexions her immediate circle had witnessed the growth of. She was abashed meanwhile, however, at having appeared to weigh in the balance the place to which she had been invited; and she added as quickly as possible: "It isn't to America then?" The Countess, at this, looked sharply at Beale, and Beale, airily enough, asked what the deuce it mattered when she had already given him to understand she wanted to have nothing to do with them. There followed between her companions a passage of which the sense was drowned for her in the deepening inward hum of her mere desire to get off; though she was able to guess later on that her father must have put it to his friend that it was no use talking, that she was an obstinate little pig and that, besides, she was really old enough to choose for herself. It glimmered back to her indeed that she must have failed quite dreadfully to seem ideally other than rude, inasmuch as before she knew it she had visibly given the impression that if they didn't allow her to go home she should cry. Oh if there had ever been a thing to cry about it was being so consciously and gawkily below the handsomest offers any one could ever have received. The great pain of the thing was that she could see the Countess liked her enough to wish to be liked in return, and it was from the idea of a return she sought utterly to flee. It was the idea of a return that after a confusion of loud words had broken out between the others brought to her lips with the tremor preceding disaster: "Can't I, please, be sent home in a cab?" Yes, the Countess wanted her and the Countess was wounded and chilled, and she couldn't help it, and it was all the more dreadful because it only made the Countess more coaxing and more impossible. The only thing that sustained either of them perhaps till the cab came—Maisie presently saw it would come—was its being in the air somehow that Beale had done what he wanted. He went out to look for a conveyance; the servants, he said, had gone to bed, but she shouldn't be kept beyond her time. The Countess left the room with him, and, alone in the possession of it, Maisie hoped she wouldn't come back. It was all the effect of her face—the child simply couldn't look at it and meet its expression halfway. All in a moment too that queer expression had leaped into the lovely things—all in a moment she had had to accept her father as liking some one whom she was sure neither her mother, nor Mrs. Beale, nor Mrs. Wix, nor Sir Claude, nor the Captain, nor even Mr. Perriam and Lord Eric could possibly have liked. Three minutes later, downstairs, with the cab at the door, it was perhaps as a final confession of not having much to boast of that, on taking leave of her, he managed to press her to his bosom without her seeing his face. For herself she was so eager to go that their parting reminded her of nothing, not even of a single one of all the "nevers" that above, as the penalty of not cleaving to him, he had attached to the question of their meeting again. There was something in the Countess that falsified everything, even the great interests in America and yet more the first flush of that superiority to Mrs. Beale and to mamma which had been expressed in Sèvres sets and silver boxes. These were still there, but perhaps there were no great interests in America. Mamma had known an American who was not a bit like this one. She was not, however, of noble rank; her name was only Mrs. Tucker. Maisie's detachment would none the less have been more complete if she had not suddenly had to exclaim: "Oh dear, I haven't any money!"

"To Spa?" The child repeated the name to buy time, not to show how the Countess reminded her of a vague memory of a strange woman with a horrible face who once, years ago, leaned over to her from an opposite seat on a bus, suddenly offering her an orange and saying, "Little dearie, won't you have it?" At that moment, for some reason, she had felt a small, silly fear, even though she later realized that the woman, unfortunately ugly, meant to be kind. This was also what the Countess intended; yet the few words she had spoken and the smile that accompanied them immediately cleared everything up. Oh no, she didn't want to go anywhere with her, because her presence had already, in just a few seconds, ruined the happy vibe of the room and ended the enjoyment she had briefly felt from Beale's elegant demeanor. There was no elegance in exposing her to the short, chubby, wheedling man with whiskers, who she now had to recognize as the only figure completely unattractive in any of the close connections her immediate circle had seen grow. Meanwhile, she was embarrassed for seeming to weigh the value of the place she had been invited to; so she quickly added, "It isn't to America then?" At this, the Countess shot a sharp look at Beale, who casually asked what difference it made when she had already made it clear she wanted nothing to do with them. A conversation followed between her companions that she couldn't quite grasp, lost in the growing internal buzz of her desire to leave; though later she guessed that her father must have told his friend it was pointless to keep talking, that she was a stubborn little girl and that, besides, she was really old enough to decide for herself. It dawned on her that she must have come off as more than just rude, as it became clear she had given the impression that if they didn’t let her go home, she would cry. Oh, if there was ever a reason to cry, it was feeling so awkwardly and clumsily unworthy of the most handsome offers anyone could ever receive. The real pain was that she could see the Countess liked her enough to want her to like her back, but that was the very thing she was trying to escape. It was the thought of returning that, after a chaotic exchange of loud words among the others, brought her to say with the tremor before disaster: "Can't I, please, be sent home in a cab?" Yes, the Countess wanted her, and the Countess was hurt and cold, and there was nothing she could do about it, which only made the Countess more sweet and even more unbearable. The only thing that possibly kept either of them going until the cab arrived—Maisie could see it would come—was the sense that Beale had gotten what he wanted. He stepped out to find a ride; the servants, he said, had gone to bed, but she shouldn't be kept longer than necessary. The Countess left the room with him, and once she was alone, Maisie hoped she wouldn't come back. It was all about the Countess's face—the child simply couldn't look at it and engage with that expression. In an instant, that strange expression had leapt into the lovely things—all of a sudden, she had to accept her father liked someone whom she was sure neither her mother, nor Mrs. Beale, nor Mrs. Wix, nor Sir Claude, nor the Captain, nor even Mr. Perriam and Lord Eric could possibly have liked. Three minutes later, downstairs, as the cab waited at the door, it was perhaps as a final admission of not having much to brag about that, when saying goodbye to her, he managed to pull her into an embrace without her seeing his face. For her part, she was so eager to leave that their parting reminded her of nothing, not even one of all the "nevers" he had attached to the question of whether they would meet again. There was something in the Countess that distorted everything, even the grand interests in America, and even more the initial thrill of feeling superior to Mrs. Beale and her mom, which had been expressed in fancy Sèvres sets and silver boxes. Those were still there, but maybe there were no grand interests in America. Mom had known an American who was nothing like this one. She wasn’t of noble rank; her name was just Mrs. Tucker. Maisie's detachment would have been even more complete if she hadn’t suddenly exclaimed, "Oh dear, I don’t have any money!"

Her father's teeth, at this, were such a picture of appetite without action as to be a match for any plea of poverty. "Make your stepmother pay."

Her father's teeth, at this point, were such a perfect image of hunger without actually eating that they could rival any argument about being broke. "Make your stepmom pay."

"Stepmothers don't pay!" cried the Countess. "No stepmother ever paid in her life!" The next moment they were in the street together, and the next the child was in the cab, with the Countess, on the pavement, but close to her, quickly taking money from a purse whisked out of a pocket. Her father had vanished and there was even yet nothing in that to reawaken the pang of loss. "Here's money," said the brown lady: "go!" The sound was commanding: the cab rattled off. Maisie sat there with her hand full of coin. All that for a cab? As they passed a street-lamp she bent to see how much. What she saw was a cluster of sovereigns. There must then have been great interests in America. It was still at any rate the Arabian Nights.

"Stepmoms don't pay!" shouted the Countess. "No stepmom has ever paid in her life!" In the next moment, they were out on the street together, and then the child was in the cab, with the Countess standing on the pavement nearby, quickly pulling out money from a purse taken from her pocket. Her father had disappeared, and there was still nothing there to bring back the ache of loss. "Here's some money," said the brown lady: "go!" Her tone was authoritative: the cab drove away. Maisie sat there with her hand full of coins. All that for a cab? As they passed a streetlamp, she leaned down to see how much she had. What she saw was a pile of sovereigns. There must be some big interests in America. It was still, at any rate, like something out of the Arabian Nights.

 

 

XX
 

The money was far too much even for a fee in a fairy-tale, and in the absence of Mrs. Beale, who, though the hour was now late, had not yet returned to the Regent's Park, Susan Ash, in the hall, as loud as Maisie was low and as bold as she was bland, produced, on the exhibition offered under the dim vigil of the lamp that made the place a contrast to the child's recent scene of light, the half-crown that an unsophisticated cabman could pronounce to be the least he would take. It was apparently long before Mrs. Beale would arrive, and in the interval Maisie had been induced by the prompt Susan not only to go to bed like a darling dear, but, in still richer expression of that character, to devote to the repayment of obligations general as well as particular one of the sovereigns in the ordered array that, on the dressing-table upstairs, was naturally not less dazzling to a lone orphan of a housemaid than to the subject of the manœuvres of a quartette. This subject went to sleep with her property gathered into a knotted handkerchief, the largest that could be produced and lodged under her pillow; but the explanations that on the morrow were inevitably more complete with Mrs. Beale than they had been with her humble friend found their climax in a surrender also more becomingly free. There were explanations indeed that Mrs. Beale had to give as well as to ask, and the most striking of these was to the effect that it was dreadful for a little girl to take money from a woman who was simply the vilest of their sex. The sovereigns were examined with some attention, the result of which, however, was to make the author of that statement desire to know what, if one really went into the matter, they could be called but the wages of sin. Her companion went into it merely so far as the question of what then they were to do with them; on which Mrs. Beale, who had by this time put them into her pocket, replied with dignity and with her hand on the place: "We're to send them back on the spot!" Susan, the child soon afterwards learnt, had been invited to contribute to this act of restitution her one appropriated coin; but a closer clutch of the treasure showed in her private assurance to Maisie that there was a limit to the way she could be "done." Maisie had been open with Mrs. Beale about the whole of last night's transaction; but she now found herself on the part of their indignant inferior a recipient of remarks that were so many ringing tokens of that lady's own suppressions. One of these bore upon the extraordinary hour—it was three in the morning if she really wanted to know—at which Mrs. Beale had re-entered the house; another, in accents as to which Maisie's criticism was still intensely tacit, characterised her appeal as such a "gime," such a "shime," as one had never had to put up with; a third treated with some vigour the question of the enormous sums due belowstairs, in every department, for gratuitous labour and wasted zeal. Our young lady's consciousness was indeed mainly filled for several days with the apprehension created by the too slow subsidence of her attendant's sense of wrong. These days would become terrific like the Revolutions she had learnt by heart in Histories if an outbreak in the kitchen should crown them; and to promote that prospect she had through Susan's eyes more than one glimpse of the way in which Revolutions are prepared. To listen to Susan was to gather that the spark applied to the inflammables and already causing them to crackle would prove to have been the circumstance of one's being called a horrid low thief for refusing to part with one's own. The redeeming point of this tension was, on the fifth day, that it actually appeared to have had to do with a breathless perception in our heroine's breast that scarcely more as the centre of Sir Claude's than as that of Susan's energies she had soon after breakfast been conveyed from London to Folkestone and established at a lovely hotel. These agents, before her wondering eyes, had combined to carry through the adventure and to give it the air of having owed its success to the fact that Mrs. Beale had, as Susan said, but just stepped out. When Sir Claude, watch in hand, had met this fact with the exclamation "Then pack Miss Farange and come off with us!" there had ensued on the stairs a series of gymnastics of a nature to bring Miss Farange's heart into Miss Farange's mouth. She sat with Sir Claude in a four-wheeler while he still held his watch; held it longer than any doctor who had ever felt her pulse; long enough to give her a vision of something like the ecstasy of neglecting such an opportunity to show impatience. The ecstasy had begun in the schoolroom and over the Berceuse, quite in the manner of the same foretaste on the day, a little while back, when Susan had panted up and she herself, after the hint about the duchess, had sailed down; for what harm then had there been in drops and disappointments if she could still have, even only a moment, the sensation of such a name "brought up"? It had remained with her that her father had foretold her she would some day be in the street, but it clearly wouldn't be this day, and she felt justified of the preference betrayed to that parent as soon as her visitor had set Susan in motion and laid his hand, while she waited with him, kindly on her own. This was what the Captain, in Kensington Gardens, had done; her present situation reminded her a little of that one and renewed the dim wonder of the fashion after which, from the first, such pats and pulls had struck her as the steps and signs of other people's business and even a little as the wriggle or the overflow of their difficulties. What had failed her and what had frightened her on the night of the Exhibition lost themselves at present alike in the impression that any "surprise" now about to burst from Sir Claude would be too big to burst all at once. Any awe that might have sprung from his air of leaving out her stepmother was corrected by the force of a general rule, the odd truth that if Mrs. Beale now never came nor went without making her think of him, it was never, to balance that, the main mark of his own renewed reality to appear to be a reference to Mrs. Beale. To be with Sir Claude was to think of Sir Claude, and that law governed Maisie's mind until, through a sudden lurch of the cab, which had at last taken in Susan and ever so many bundles and almost reached Charing Cross, it popped again somehow into her dizzy head the long-lost image of Mrs. Wix.

The money was way too much even for a fee in a fairy tale, and with Mrs. Beale missing, who had still not returned to Regent's Park despite it being late, Susan Ash, in the hall, as loud as Maisie was quiet and as bold as she was mild, pulled out the half-crown that a naïve cab driver would say was the least he’d take. It seemed it would be a while before Mrs. Beale showed up, and in the meantime, Maisie had been persuaded by the eager Susan not just to go to bed like a sweetheart but, in an even sweeter gesture, to dedicate one of the sovereigns from the neat row on the dressing table upstairs to settling both general and specific debts, which were undoubtedly just as dazzling to a lonely orphan of a housemaid as to the one caught up in the schemes of a group. This girl fell asleep with her possessions gathered into a tied-up handkerchief—the biggest one she could find—and tucked under her pillow; but the explanations that inevitably came the next day from Mrs. Beale were far more complete than those from her humble friend and culminated in a surrender that was also more openly given. There were definitely explanations Mrs. Beale had to provide as well as seek, the most striking being that it was awful for a little girl to take money from a woman who was simply the worst of her kind. The sovereigns were examined carefully, which led the speaker of that statement to wonder what could they really be called if one got into the details but the wages of sin. Her companion only questioned what they should do with the money; to this, Mrs. Beale, who had by then pocketed them, replied with dignity, placing her hand on her pocket: "We’re sending them back right away!" Susan, the child soon learned, had been asked to contribute her one misappropriated coin to this act of restitution; but a tighter grip on the treasure led her to privately assure Maisie that there was a limit to how much she could be "taken advantage of." Maisie had been upfront with Mrs. Beale about the entire transaction from the previous night; but now she found herself on the receiving end of so many remarks from their offended subordinate that they were striking signs of that lady’s own repressions. One of these remarks concerned the unusual hour—it was three in the morning, if she really wanted to know—at which Mrs. Beale had re-entered the house; another, spoken in a tone Maisie still silently criticized, described her appeal as such an unbearable "gime," such a "shime," as one had never had to tolerate before; a third vigorously addressed the enormous debts owed downstairs for unpaid labor and wasted effort. Over the next several days, Maisie’s awareness was mostly absorbed by the anxiety produced by her companion's lingering sense of injustice. Those days would become terrifying like the Revolutions she had memorized from history books if a riot were to crown them; and to encourage that prospect, through Susan's eyes, she caught more than one glimpse of how Revolutions are stirred up. Listening to Susan painted a picture of how the spark set to the flammable materials was simply the fact of being called a horrible low thief for refusing to give up what was yours. The only redeeming point to this tension was that on the fifth day it seemed to relate to a breathless realization in Maisie that she had soon after breakfast been whisked away from London to Folkestone and set up in a lovely hotel, being the focus of both Sir Claude’s and Susan’s efforts. These agents, before her astonished gaze, had worked together to make the outing happen, crafting it as though its success was due to Mrs. Beale having, as Susan put it, just stepped out. When Sir Claude, watch in hand, reacted to this fact with the exclamation, "Then grab Miss Farange and come with us!" a series of nervous gymnastics followed on the stairs, making Miss Farange’s heart race. She sat in a cab with Sir Claude while he still held his watch; he held it longer than any doctor had ever taken her pulse; long enough to give her a vision of something like the thrill of ignoring such an opportunity to show annoyance. The thrill had started in the schoolroom, over the Berceuse, in a way reminiscent of when Susan had hurried up and she herself had sailed down after the hint about the duchess; because what harm had come from disappointments if she could still, even for a moment, feel the excitement of such a name being "mentioned"? It lingered with her that her father had predicted she would someday find herself out on the street, but clearly it wouldn’t be today, and she felt justified in the preference she had disclosed to that parent as soon as her visitor had set Susan into motion and placed his hand, while they waited together, kindly on her arm. This was what the Captain in Kensington Gardens had done; her current situation reminded her a bit of that one and brought back the dim wonder of how, from the beginning, such pats and pulls had felt like the actions and signs of other people’s business, and even a bit like the twists and turns of their troubles. What had failed and frightened her on the night of the Exhibition got lost in the thought that any "surprise" that might erupt from Sir Claude now would be too big to happen all at once. Any awe that might have arisen from his air of ignoring her stepmother was countered by the odd reality that if Mrs. Beale now never came or went without making her think of him, it never, in contrast, marked the essence of his renewed presence by seeming to refer to Mrs. Beale. Being with Sir Claude meant thinking of Sir Claude, and that rule guided Maisie’s mind until, through a sudden jolt of the cab that had finally picked up Susan and a bunch of bags and was almost at Charing Cross, the long-lost image of Mrs. Wix popped back into her dizzy head.

It was singular, but from this time she understood and she followed, followed with the sense of an ample filling-out of any void created by symptoms of avoidance and of flight. Her ecstasy was a thing that had yet more of a face than of a back to turn, a pair of eyes still directed to Mrs. Wix even after the slight surprise of their not finding her, as the journey expanded, either at the London station or at the Folkestone hotel. It took few hours to make the child feel that if she was in neither of these places she was at least everywhere else. Maisie had known all along a great deal, but never so much as she was to know from this moment on and as she learned in particular during the couple of days that she was to hang in the air, as it were, over the sea which represented in breezy blueness and with a summer charm a crossing of more spaces than the Channel. It was granted her at this time to arrive at divinations so ample that I shall have no room for the goal if I attempt to trace the stages; as to which therefore I must be content to say that the fullest expression we may give to Sir Claude's conduct is a poor and pale copy of the picture it presented to his young friend. Abruptly, that morning, he had yielded to the action of the idea pumped into him for weeks by Mrs. Wix on lines of approach that she had been capable of the extraordinary art of preserving from entanglement in the fine network of his relations with Mrs. Beale. The breath of her sincerity, blowing without a break, had puffed him up to the flight by which, in the degree I have indicated, Maisie too was carried off her feet. This consisted neither in more nor in less than the brave stroke of his getting off from Mrs. Beale as well as from his wife—of making with the child straight for some such foreign land as would give a support to Mrs. Wix's dream that she might still see his errors renounced and his delinquencies redeemed. It would all be a sacrifice—under eyes that would miss no faintest shade—to what even the strange frequenters of her ladyship's earlier period used to call the real good of the little unfortunate. Maisie's head held a suspicion of much that, during the last long interval, had confusedly, but quite candidly, come and gone in his own; a glimpse, almost awe-stricken in its gratitude, of the miracle her old governess had wrought. That functionary could not in this connexion have been more impressive, even at second-hand, if she had been a prophetess with an open scroll or some ardent abbess speaking with the lips of the Church. She had clung day by day to their plastic associate, plying him with her deep, narrow passion, doing her simple utmost to convert him, and so working on him that he had at last really embraced his fine chance. That the chance was not delusive was sufficiently guaranteed by the completeness with which he could finally figure it out that, in case of his taking action, neither Ida nor Beale, whose book, on each side, it would only too well suit, would make any sort of row.

It was unique, but from that moment she understood and she followed, following along with a sense of filling any emptiness created by signs of avoidance and escape. Her ecstasy had more of a face than a back to turn away, her eyes still focused on Mrs. Wix even after the slight surprise of not finding her, as the journey progressed, either at the London station or at the Folkestone hotel. It took only a few hours for the child to realize that even if she wasn’t in either place, she was at least everywhere else. Maisie had always known a lot, but she was about to learn even more from this point onward, especially during the couple of days she was to drift, so to speak, above the sea, which represented, in its breezy blue and summer charm, a crossing of more spaces than just the Channel. At this moment, she was granted insights so vast that I won’t have enough room to cover all the steps; so I can only say that the fullest expression we can give to Sir Claude's actions is a poor and pale reflection of what it was like for his young friend. That morning, he had suddenly acted on the idea that had been pushed into him for weeks by Mrs. Wix, without getting tangled up in the complex web of his relationships with Mrs. Beale. The sincerity of her constant support had lifted him to the point where, in the way I’ve described, Maisie too felt swept off her feet. This was nothing more than his bold decision to break away from both Mrs. Beale and his wife—heading straight with the child toward some foreign land that would support Mrs. Wix's dream of seeing his mistakes acknowledged and his wrongs corrected. It would all be a sacrifice—under watchful eyes that would notice even the faintest change—to what even the odd visitors of her ladyship's earlier days used to call the real good of the little unfortunate. Maisie suspected a lot of what had confusedly, but frankly, come and gone during the long stretch before; she caught a glimpse, almost awestruck with gratitude, of the miracle her old governess had achieved. That governess could not have been more impressive in this context, even second-hand, if she had been a prophetess with an open scroll or a passionate abbess speaking with the authority of the Church. She had clung day after day to their somewhat flexible companion, filling him with her deep, narrow passion, doing her very best to convert him, and ultimately working on him until he truly seized his great opportunity. That the opportunity wasn’t illusory was proven by how completely he could finally recognize that if he took action, neither Ida nor Beale, whose story would fit it perfectly, would cause any sort of trouble.

It sounds, no doubt, too penetrating, but it was not all as an effect of Sir Claude's betrayals that Maisie was able to piece together the beauty of the special influence through which, for such stretches of time, he had refined upon propriety by keeping, so far as possible, his sentimental interests distinct. She had ever of course in her mind fewer names than conceptions, but it was only with this drawback that she now made out her companion's absences to have had for their ground that he was the lover of her stepmother and that the lover of her stepmother could scarce logically pretend to a superior right to look after her. Maisie had by this time embraced the implication of a kind of natural divergence between lovers and little girls. It was just this indeed that could throw light on the probable contents of the pencilled note deposited on the hall-table in the Regent's Park and which would greet Mrs. Beale on her return. Maisie freely figured it as provisionally jocular in tone, even though to herself on this occasion Sir Claude turned a graver face than he had shown in any crisis but that of putting her into the cab when she had been horrid to him after her parting with the Captain. He might really be embarrassed, but he would be sure, to her view, to have muffled in some bravado of pleasantry the disturbance produced at her father's by the removal of a valued servant. Not that there wasn't a great deal too that wouldn't be in the note—a great deal for which a more comfortable place was Maisie's light little brain, where it hummed away hour after hour and caused the first outlook at Folkestone to swim in a softness of colour and sound. It became clear in this medium that her stepfather had really now only to take into account his entanglement with Mrs. Beale. Wasn't he at last disentangled from every one and every thing else? The obstacle to the rupture pressed upon him by Mrs. Wix in the interest of his virtue would be simply that he was in love, or rather, to put it more precisely, that Mrs. Beale had left him no doubt of the degree in which she was. She was so much so as to have succeeded in making him accept for a time her infatuated grasp of him and even to some extent the idea of what they yet might do together with a little diplomacy and a good deal of patience. I may not even answer for it that Maisie was not aware of how, in this, Mrs. Beale failed to share his all but insurmountable distaste for their allowing their little charge to breathe the air of their gross irregularity—his contention, in a word, that they should either cease to be irregular or cease to be parental. Their little charge, for herself, had long ago adopted the view that even Mrs. Wix had at one time not thought prohibitively coarse—the view that she was after all, as a little charge, morally at home in atmospheres it would be appalling to analyse. If Mrs. Wix, however, ultimately appalled, had now set her heart on strong measures, Maisie, as I have intimated, could also work round both to the reasons for them and to the quite other reasons for that lady's not, as yet at least, appearing in them at first-hand.

It might sound a bit intense, but it wasn’t just because of Sir Claude’s betrayals that Maisie could understand the beauty of the unique influence he had, where he kept his romantic interests as separate as possible for long stretches of time. She always had more ideas than names in her mind, but with this limitation, she realized that her companion's absences were due to him being her stepmother's lover, and that the lover of her stepmother hardly had a valid claim to look after her. By this point, Maisie had accepted the idea that there was a natural difference between lovers and little girls. This insight indeed helped her understand the likely content of the note written in pencil that was left on the hall table in Regent’s Park, which would greet Mrs. Beale upon her return. Maisie imagined it would be somewhat playful in tone, even though Sir Claude had a more serious expression this time than during any moment other than when he put her into the cab after she had been awful to him following her parting with the Captain. He might genuinely be uncomfortable, but from her perspective, he would surely have masked the unease caused by the departure of a valued servant with a bit of bravado and humor. However, there were many things that wouldn’t be included in the note—many thoughts that found a better home in Maisie’s light little brain, where they buzzed away for hours, making the first view of Folkestone seem soft in color and sound. In this mindset, it became clear that her stepfather really only needed to consider his relationship with Mrs. Beale. Wasn’t he finally untangled from everyone and everything else? The obstacle to a breakup imposed on him by Mrs. Wix, in the interest of his moral integrity, would simply be that he was in love, or more accurately, that Mrs. Beale had made it very clear how much she was. She was so taken with him that she managed to make him accept, for a time, her infatuated hold on him and even entertained the idea of what they might accomplish together with a little diplomacy and a lot of patience. I can't say for certain that Maisie didn’t realize how, in this regard, Mrs. Beale didn’t share his almost insurmountable discomfort about letting their little charge be exposed to their blatant irregularity—his argument that they needed to either stop being irregular or stop acting like parents. Their little charge, for her part, had long since adopted a perspective that even Mrs. Wix, at one point, hadn’t found completely unacceptable—the belief that she was, after all, morally at home in environments that would be shocking to dissect. However, if Mrs. Wix, who ultimately found it all shocking, had now decided on drastic measures, Maisie, as I mentioned, could also understand the reasons for them and the different reasons why that lady hadn’t yet stepped in directly.

Oh decidedly I shall never get you to believe the number of things she saw and the number of secrets she discovered! Why in the world, for instance, couldn't Sir Claude have kept it from her—except on the hypothesis of his not caring to—that, when you came to look at it and so far as it was a question of vested interests, he had quite as much right in her as her stepmother, not to say a right that Mrs. Beale was in no position to dispute? He failed at all events of any such successful ambiguity as could keep her, when once they began to look across at France, from regarding even what was least explained as most in the spirit of their old happy times, their rambles and expeditions in the easier better days of their first acquaintance. Never before had she had so the sense of giving him a lead for the sort of treatment of what was between them that would best carry it off, or of his being grateful to her for meeting him so much in the right place. She met him literally at the very point where Mrs. Beale was most to be reckoned with, the point of the jealousy that was sharp in that lady and of the need of their keeping it as long as possible obscure to her that poor Mrs. Wix had still a hand. Yes, she met him too in the truth of the matter that, as her stepmother had had no one else to be jealous of, she had made up for so gross a privation by directing the sentiment to a moral influence. Sir Claude appeared absolutely to convey in a wink that a moral influence capable of pulling a string was after all a moral influence exposed to the scratching out of its eyes; and that, this being the case, there was somebody they couldn't afford to leave unprotected before they should see a little better what Mrs. Beale was likely to do. Maisie, true enough, had not to put it into words to rejoin, in the coffee-room, at luncheon: "What can she do but come to you if papa does take a step that will amount to legal desertion?" Neither had he then, in answer, to articulate anything but the jollity of their having found a table at a window from which, as they partook of cold beef and apollinaris—for he hinted they would have to save lots of money—they could let their eyes hover tenderly on the far-off white cliffs that so often had signalled to the embarrassed English a promise of safety. Maisie stared at them as if she might really make out after a little a queer dear figure perched on them—a figure as to which she had already the subtle sense that, wherever perched, it would be the very oddest yet seen in France. But it was at least as exciting to feel where Mrs. Wix wasn't as it would have been to know where she was, and if she wasn't yet at Boulogne this only thickened the plot.

Oh, I’m definitely never going to get you to believe how many things she saw and how many secrets she uncovered! Why on earth, for example, couldn’t Sir Claude have kept it from her? Unless, of course, he didn’t care to. When you think about it, as far as vested interests go, he had just as much right to her as her stepmother did. Not to mention that Mrs. Beale was in no position to argue about that. In any case, he wasn’t successful enough in creating any ambiguity that kept her from looking at France and seeing even the least explained things in the spirit of their happy times—those walks and adventures during the easier, better days of their first acquaintance. She had never before felt so much like giving him a cue for how to handle what was going on between them, and it seemed like he appreciated her for meeting him so perfectly. She met him right where Mrs. Beale was most relevant, at the point of jealousy that was so strong in that lady and the need to keep it hidden from her for as long as possible that poor Mrs. Wix still had a role. Yes, she also faced the truth that since her stepmother had no one else to be jealous of, she had compensated for such a gross lack by directing her feelings toward a moral influence. Sir Claude seemed to communicate with a wink that a moral influence capable of pulling strings could also be vulnerable to having its eyes scratched out; and since that was the case, they had someone they couldn’t afford to leave unprotected until they had a better idea of what Mrs. Beale was likely to do. Sure enough, Maisie didn’t have to verbalize it to reply in the coffee room at lunch: “What can she do but come to you if dad takes a step that amounts to legal desertion?” He didn’t need to say anything more than the merriment of finding a table by a window where, as they enjoyed cold beef and Apollinaris—since he hinted they would need to save a lot of money—they could gaze affectionately at the distant white cliffs that often signaled a promise of safety to anxious English folks. Maisie stared at them as if she could actually make out a peculiar figure perched on top of them—a figure that she sensed would be the strangest she had seen in France, no matter where it sat. But it was at least as thrilling to feel where Mrs. Wix wasn’t as it would have been to know where she was, and if she wasn’t yet in Boulogne, that just made everything more complicated.

If she was not to be seen that day, however, the evening was marked by an apparition before which, none the less, overstrained suspense folded on the spot its wings. Adjusting her respirations and attaching, under dropped lashes, all her thoughts to a smartness of frock and frill for which she could reflect that she had not appealed in vain to a loyalty in Susan Ash triumphant over the nice things their feverish flight had left behind, Maisie spent on a bench in the garden of the hotel the half-hour before dinner, that mysterious ceremony of the table d'hôte for which she had prepared with a punctuality of flutter. Sir Claude, beside her, was occupied with a cigarette and the afternoon papers; and though the hotel was full the garden shewed the particular void that ensues upon the sound of the dressing-bell. She had almost had time to weary of the human scene; her own humanity at any rate, in the shape of a smutch on her scanty skirt, had held her so long that as soon as she raised her eyes they rested on a high fair drapery by which smutches were put to shame and which had glided toward her over the grass without her noting its rustle. She followed up its stiff sheen—up and up from the ground, where it had stopped—till at the end of a considerable journey her impression felt the shock of the fixed face which, surmounting it, seemed to offer the climax of the dressed condition. "Why mamma!" she cried the next instant—cried in a tone that, as she sprang to her feet, brought Sir Claude to his own beside her and gave her ladyship, a few yards off, the advantage of their momentary confusion. Poor Maisie's was immense; her mother's drop had the effect of one of the iron shutters that, in evening walks with Susan Ash, she had seen suddenly, at the touch of a spring, rattle down over shining shop-fronts. The light of foreign travel was darkened at a stroke; she had a horrible sense that they were caught; and for the first time of her life in Ida's presence she so far translated an impulse into an invidious act as to clutch straight at the hand of her responsible confederate. It didn't help her that he appeared at first equally hushed with horror; a minute during which, in the empty garden, with its long shadows on the lawn, its blue sea over the hedge and its startled peace in the air, both her elders remained as stiff as tall tumblers filled to the brim and held straight for fear of a spill.

If she wasn’t going to be seen that day, the evening was still marked by an appearance that made the tension in the air dissipate. Adjusting her breathing and focusing her thoughts under lowered lashes on the stylish dress and frills she reflected would impress Susan Ash, Maisie waited on a bench in the hotel garden during the half-hour before dinner, that mysterious ritual of the table d'hôte for which she had eagerly prepared. Sir Claude sat next to her, absorbed in a cigarette and the afternoon newspapers; and even though the hotel was full, the garden showed that peculiar emptiness that comes after the dressing bell rings. She was almost ready to tire of the spectacle of humanity; her own existence, marked by a smudge on her thin skirt, had taken enough of her time that when she finally lifted her gaze, it landed on a high, elegant fabric that made her own smudges seem insignificant and had glided toward her across the grass without her noticing it rustle. She followed the sleek fabric upward, from where it had stopped on the ground, until, after a notable journey, she encountered the expressionless face that topped it, which appeared to represent the pinnacle of elegance. "Why, Mamma!" she exclaimed the next moment—a call that, as she sprang to her feet, drew Sir Claude to join her and gave her ladyship, a few yards away, a fleeting glimpse of their momentary confusion. Poor Maisie’s surprise was overwhelming; her mother’s sudden appearance felt like one of those iron shutters that would crash down at a sudden touch, blocking the view of the bright shopfronts she had seen while walking with Susan Ash. The excitement of their foreign adventure dimmed in an instant; she felt a dreadful sense that they were trapped, and for the first time in Ida’s presence, she acted on an impulse by grabbing the hand of her responsible ally. It didn’t help that he initially appeared just as stunned; for a moment, in the empty garden, with its long shadows on the lawn, the blue sea visible over the hedge, and the startled tranquility in the air, both her guardians stood as rigid as tall glasses filled to the brim, afraid to spill.

At last, in a tone that enriched the whole surprise by its unexpected softness, her mother said to Sir Claude: "Do you mind at all my speaking to her?"

At last, in a tone that added to the whole surprise with its unexpected softness, her mother said to Sir Claude: "Do you mind if I speak to her?"

"Oh no; do you?" His reply was so long in coming that Maisie was the first to find the right note.

"Oh no; do you?" He took so long to respond that Maisie was the first to hit the right tone.

He laughed as he seemed to take it from her, and she felt a sufficient concession in his manner of addressing their visitor. "How in the world did you know we were here?"

He laughed as he appeared to take it from her, and she sensed a considerable concession in the way he spoke to their guest. "How on earth did you know we were here?"

His wife, at this, came the rest of the way and sat down on the bench with a hand laid on her daughter, whom she gracefully drew to her and in whom, at her touch, the fear just kindled gave a second jump, but now in quite another direction. Sir Claude, on the further side, resumed his seat and his newspapers, so that the three grouped themselves like a family party; his connexion, in the oddest way in the world, almost cynically and in a flash acknowledged, and the mother patting the child into conformities unspeakable. Maisie could already feel how little it was Sir Claude and she who were caught. She had the positive sense of their catching their relative, catching her in the act of getting rid of her burden with a finality that showed her as unprecedentedly relaxed. Oh yes, the fear had dropped, and she had never been so irrevocably parted with as in the pressure of possession now supremely exerted by Ida's long-gloved and much-bangled arm. "I went to the Regent's Park"—this was presently her ladyship's answer to Sir Claude.

His wife, noticing this, came over and sat down on the bench with her hand resting on her daughter, gently pulling her close. At her touch, the fear that had just sparked in the child took another leap, but now in a completely different way. Sir Claude, sitting on the other side, went back to his seat and his newspapers, so the three of them looked like a family group; his connection—oddly enough, almost cynically—was recognized in an instant, and the mother was coaxing the child into unspeakable behaviors. Maisie could already sense how much it wasn’t just her and Sir Claude who were caught. She had a strong feeling that they were catching their relative in the act of releasing her burden, showing her as unexpectedly relaxed. Oh yes, the fear had faded, and she had never been so completely disconnected from it as she was now, under the powerful grip of Ida's long-gloved and heavily adorned arm. "I went to Regent's Park"—this was soon her ladyship's response to Sir Claude.

"Do you mean to-day?"

"Do you mean today?"

"This morning, just after your own call there. That's how I found you out; that's what has brought me."

"This morning, right after your call. That's how I figured you out; that's what brought me here."

Sir Claude considered and Maisie waited. "Whom then did you see?"

Sir Claude thought for a moment, and Maisie waited. "So, who did you see?"

Ida gave a sound of indulgent mockery. "I like your scare. I know your game. I didn't see the person I risked seeing, but I had been ready to take my chance of her." She addressed herself to Maisie; she had encircled her more closely. "I asked for you, my dear, but I saw no one but a dirty parlourmaid. She was red in the face with the great things that, as she told me, had just happened in the absence of her mistress; and she luckily had the sense to have made out the place to which Sir Claude had come to take you. If he hadn't given a false scent I should find you here: that was the supposition on which I've proceeded." Ida had never been so explicit about proceeding or supposing, and Maisie, drinking this in, noted too how Sir Claude shared her fine impression of it. "I wanted to see you," his wife continued, "and now you can judge of the trouble I've taken. I had everything to do in town to-day, but I managed to get off."

Ida laughed mockingly. "I like your little scare. I know what you're up to. I didn't see the person I meant to see, but I was ready to take my chances on her." She turned her attention to Maisie, closing in on her. "I asked for you, my dear, but all I found was a dirty parlourmaid. She was flushed from the big events that, as she told me, had just happened while her mistress was out; and fortunately, she had the sense to figure out where Sir Claude had taken you. If he hadn't thrown me off track, I would have found you here: that was my assumption." Ida had never been so straightforward about her assumptions and actions, and as Maisie absorbed this, she noticed that Sir Claude seemed to share her appreciation of it. "I wanted to see you," his wife continued, "and now you can see how much trouble I went through. I had a lot to do in town today, but I managed to sneak away."

Maisie and her companion, for a moment, did justice to this achievement; but Maisie was the first to express it. "I'm glad you wanted to see me, mamma." Then after a concentration more deep and with a plunge more brave: "A little more and you'd have been too late." It stuck in her throat, but she brought it out: "We're going to France."

Maisie and her companion took a moment to appreciate this accomplishment, but Maisie was the first to voice it. "I'm glad you wanted to see me, Mom." Then, after a deeper concentration and a bolder plunge: "A little longer and it would have been too late." It caught in her throat, but she managed to say: "We're going to France."

Ida was magnificent; Ida kissed her on the forehead. "That's just what I thought likely; it made me decide to run down. I fancied that in spite of your scramble you'd wait to cross, and it added to the reason I have for seeing you."

Ida was amazing; Ida kissed her on the forehead. "That's exactly what I suspected; it made me decide to come down. I thought that even with your rush, you'd pause to cross, and it added to the reasons I have for wanting to see you."

Maisie wondered intensely what the reason could be, but she knew ever so much better than to ask. She was slightly surprised indeed to perceive that Sir Claude didn't, and to hear him immediately enquire: "What in the name of goodness can you have to say to her?"

Maisie intensely wondered what the reason could be, but she knew way better than to ask. She was somewhat surprised to realize that Sir Claude didn't, and to hear him immediately ask, "What on earth can you possibly have to say to her?"

His tone was not exactly rude, but it was impatient enough to make his wife's response a fresh specimen of the new softness. "That, my dear man, is all my own business."

His tone wasn't exactly rude, but it was impatient enough for his wife's response to showcase her newfound gentleness. "That, my dear, is none of your concern."

"Do you mean," Sir Claude asked, "that you wish me to leave you with her?"

"Are you saying," Sir Claude asked, "that you want me to leave you with her?"

"Yes, if you'll be so good; that's the extraordinary request I take the liberty of making." Her ladyship had dropped to a mildness of irony by which, for a moment, poor Maisie was mystified and charmed, puzzled with a glimpse of something that in all the years had at intervals peeped out. Ida smiled at Sir Claude with the strange air she had on such occasions of defying an interlocutor to keep it up as long; her huge eyes, her red lips, the intense marks in her face formed an éclairage as distinct and public as a lamp set in a window. The child seemed quite to see in it the very beacon that had lighted her path; she suddenly found herself reflecting that it was no wonder the gentlemen were guided. This must have been the way mamma had first looked at Sir Claude; it brought back the lustre of the time they had outlived. It must have been the way she looked also at Mr. Perriam and Lord Eric; above all it contributed in Maisie's mind to a completer view of that satisfied state of the Captain. Our young lady grasped this idea with a quick lifting of the heart; there was a stillness during which her mother flooded her with a wealth of support to the Captain's striking tribute. This stillness remained long enough unbroken to represent that Sir Claude too might but be gasping again under the spell originally strong for him; so that Maisie quite hoped he would at least say something to show a recognition of how charming she could be.

"Sure, if you could do me this favor; that’s the unusual request I’m making." Her ladyship had adopted a slightly ironic tone that momentarily mystified and enchanted poor Maisie, who caught a glimpse of something that had occasionally surfaced over the years. Ida smiled at Sir Claude with that familiar look she had on these occasions, almost daring him to maintain the mood for as long as possible; her large eyes, her red lips, and the intense expressions on her face formed an appearance as noticeable and public as a lamp in a window. The child seemed to recognize it as the very guiding light that had shown her the way; she suddenly realized it was no surprise the gentlemen were drawn to it. This must have been how her mother first looked at Sir Claude; it brought back memories of a time they had long since passed. It must have been how she also looked at Mr. Perriam and Lord Eric; most importantly, it contributed to Maisie's understanding of the Captain’s contentment. Our young lady embraced this idea with a sudden surge of emotion; there was a moment of silence during which her mother surrounded her with support for the Captain’s striking compliment. This silence lingered long enough to suggest that Sir Claude might also be feeling the same enchantment that had once captivated him; thus Maisie hoped he would at least say something to acknowledge how charming she could be.

What he presently said was: "Are you putting up for the night?"

What he said now was: "Are you staying the night?"

His wife cast grandly about. "Not here—I've come from Dover."

His wife looked around dramatically. "Not here—I've just come from Dover."

Over Maisie's head, at this, they still faced each other. "You spend the night there?"

Over Maisie's head, despite this, they still faced each other. "Are you spending the night there?"

"Yes, I brought some things. I went to the hotel and hastily arranged; then I caught the train that whisked me on here. You see what a day I've had of it."

"Yeah, I brought some stuff. I went to the hotel and quickly got things in order; then I caught the train that brought me here. You see what kind of day I've had."

The statement may surprise, but these were really as obliging if not as lucid words as, into her daughter's ears at least, Ida's lips had ever dropped; and there was a quick desire in the daughter that for the hour at any rate they should duly be welcomed as a ground of intercourse. Certainly mamma had a charm which, when turned on, became a large explanation; and the only danger now in an impulse to applaud it would be that of appearing to signalise its rarity. Maisie, however, risked the peril in the geniality of an admission that Ida had indeed had a rush; and she invited Sir Claude to expose himself by agreeing with her that the rush had been even worse than theirs. He appeared to meet this appeal by saying with detachment enough: "You go back there to-night?"

The statement might surprise you, but these were actually just as considerate, if not as clear, words as Ida had ever spoken to her daughter. The daughter quickly wanted to embrace these words as a way to connect, if only for the moment. Mom definitely had a charm that, when activated, explained a lot; and the only risk now in feeling the urge to praise it was that it might make its rarity too obvious. Still, Maisie took that risk by openly admitting that Ida had indeed had a breakdown, and she nudged Sir Claude to put himself out there by agreeing that her breakdown was even worse than theirs. He seemed to respond to this request with just the right amount of detachment, saying, "Are you going back there tonight?"

"Oh yes—there are plenty of trains." Again Sir Claude hesitated; it would have been hard to say if the child, between them, more connected or divided them. Then he brought out quietly: "It will be late for you to knock about. I'll see you over."

"Oh yeah—there are lots of trains." Again Sir Claude paused; it was hard to tell if the child between them connected them more or separated them. Then he said quietly, "It'll be late for you to be out and about. I'll take you over."

"You needn't trouble, thank you. I think you won't deny that I can help myself and that it isn't the first time in my dreadful life that I've somehow managed it." Save for this allusion to her dreadful life they talked there, Maisie noted, as if they were only rather superficial friends; a special effect that she had often wondered at before in the midst of what she supposed to be intimacies. This effect was augmented by the almost casual manner in which her ladyship went on: "I dare say I shall go abroad."

"You don't need to worry, thank you. I believe you won't argue that I can take care of myself and that this isn't the first time in my unfortunate life that I've managed to do so." Aside from this reference to her unfortunate life, they were talking as if they were just casual acquaintances, Maisie noted, as if they were only somewhat superficial friends; a special effect she had often found intriguing before in what she thought were intimate moments. This effect was heightened by the almost laid-back way her ladyship continued: "I'm sure I'll be traveling abroad."

"From Dover do you mean, straight?"

"Are you talking about straight from Dover?"

"How straight I can't say. I'm excessively ill."

"How straight, I can't say. I'm really sick."

This for a minute struck Maisie as but a part of the conversation; at the end of which time she became aware that it ought to strike her—though it apparently didn't strike Sir Claude—as a part of something graver. It helped her to twist nearer. "Ill, mamma—really ill?"

This for a moment made Maisie think it was just part of the conversation; by the end, she realized it should feel like part of something more serious—though it seemed to not have the same effect on Sir Claude. It encouraged her to lean in closer. "Sick, mom—really sick?"

She regretted her "really" as soon as she had spoken it; but there couldn't be a better proof of her mother's present polish than that Ida showed no gleam of a temper to take it up. She had taken up at other times much tinier things. She only pressed Maisie's head against her bosom and said: "Shockingly, my dear. I must go to that new place."

She regretted saying "really" as soon as it came out; but there was no better proof of her mother's current composure than that Ida didn't show any sign of being upset about it. She had gotten upset over much smaller things before. Instead, she just held Maisie's head against her chest and said, "That's shocking, my dear. I have to go to that new place."

"What new place?" Sir Claude enquired.

"What new place?" Sir Claude asked.

Ida thought, but couldn't recall it. "Oh 'Chose,' don't you know?—where every one goes. I want some proper treatment. It's all I've ever asked for on earth. But that's not what I came to say."

Ida thought but couldn't remember. "Oh 'Chose,' don't you know?—where everyone goes. I want some proper treatment. It's all I've ever asked for on earth. But that's not what I came to say."

Sir Claude, in silence, folded one by one his newspapers; then he rose and stood whacking the palm of his hand with the bundle. "You'll stop and dine with us?"

Sir Claude quietly folded his newspapers one by one; then he stood up and began slapping the bundle against his palm. "Are you going to stay and have dinner with us?"

"Dear no—I can't dine at this sort of hour. I ordered dinner at Dover."

"Of course not—I can't have dinner at this hour. I ordered dinner at Dover."

Her ladyship's tone in this one instance showed a certain superiority to those conditions in which her daughter had artlessly found Folkestone a paradise. It was yet not so crushing as to nip in the bud the eagerness with which the latter broke out: "But won't you at least have a cup of tea?"

Her ladyship's tone in this one instance revealed a certain superiority to the circumstances in which her daughter had naturally found Folkestone a paradise. However, it wasn't so overwhelming as to stifle the enthusiasm with which the latter exclaimed: "But won't you at least have a cup of tea?"

Ida kissed her again on the brow. "Thanks, love. I had tea before coming." She raised her eyes to Sir Claude. "She is sweet!" He made no more answer than if he didn't agree; but Maisie was at ease about that and was still taken up with the joy of this happier pitch of their talk, which put more and more of a meaning into the Captain's version of her ladyship and literally kindled a conjecture that such an admirer might, over there at the other place, be waiting for her to dine. Was the same conjecture in Sir Claude's mind? He partly puzzled her, if it had risen there, by the slight perversity with which he returned to a question that his wife evidently thought she had disposed of.

Ida kissed her again on the forehead. "Thanks, love. I had tea before coming." She looked up at Sir Claude. "She is sweet!" He didn’t respond any more than if he disagreed; but Maisie felt relaxed about that and was still caught up in the joy of this happier direction of their conversation, which added more meaning to the Captain's take on her ladyship and sparked a thought that maybe such an admirer was over at the other place, waiting for her to join for dinner. Did the same thought cross Sir Claude's mind? He partly confused her, if it had occurred to him, by the slight stubbornness with which he brought up a question that his wife clearly thought she had settled.

He whacked his hand again with his paper. "I had really much better take you."

He hit his hand again with his paper. "I really should take you."

"And leave Maisie here alone?"

"And leave Maisie here by herself?"

Mamma so clearly didn't want it that Maisie leaped at the vision of a Captain who had seen her on from Dover and who, while he waited to take her back, would be hovering just at the same distance at which, in Kensington Gardens, the companion of his walk had herself hovered. Of course, however, instead of breathing any such guess she let Sir Claude reply; all the more that his reply could contribute so much to her own present grandeur. "She won't be alone when she has a maid in attendance."

Mamma clearly didn’t want it, so Maisie jumped at the idea of a Captain who had seen her off from Dover and who, while waiting to take her back, would be lingering just at the same distance as the companion in Kensington Gardens had. Of course, instead of sharing her thoughts, she let Sir Claude respond; especially since his reply added to her own sense of importance in that moment. "She won’t be alone when she has a maid with her."

Maisie had never before had so much of a retinue, and she waited also to enjoy the action of it on her ladyship. "You mean the woman you brought from town?" Ida considered. "The person at the house spoke of her in a way that scarcely made her out company for my child." Her tone was that her child had never wanted, in her hands, for prodigious company. But she as distinctly continued to decline Sir Claude's. "Don't be an old goose," she said charmingly. "Let us alone."

Maisie had never had such a crowd around her before, and she was eager to see how it affected her ladyship. "You mean the woman you brought from the city?" Ida thought for a moment. "The person at the house mentioned her in a way that hardly sounded like she’d be suitable company for my child." Her tone suggested that her child had always had plenty of impressive company when she was in charge. Yet she clearly still refused Sir Claude's invitation. "Quit being so silly," she said sweetly. "Just leave us be."

In front of them on the grass he looked graver than Maisie at all now thought the occasion warranted. "I don't see why you can't say it before me."

In front of them on the grass, he looked more serious than Maisie thought the situation called for. "I don't understand why you can't say it in front of me."

His wife smoothed one of her daughter's curls. "Say what, dear?"

His wife brushed one of her daughter's curls. "What did you say, honey?"

"Why what you came to say."

"Why are you here to talk?"

At this Maisie at last interposed: she appealed to Sir Claude. "Do let her say it to me."

At this, Maisie finally spoke up: she turned to Sir Claude. "Please let her say it to me."

He looked hard for a moment at his little friend. "How do you know what she may say?"

He stared intently at his little friend for a moment. "How do you know what she might say?"

"She must risk it," Ida remarked.

"She has to take the risk," Ida said.

"I only want to protect you," he continued to the child.

"I just want to keep you safe," he said to the child.

"You want to protect yourself—that's what you mean," his wife replied. "Don't be afraid. I won't touch you."

"You want to protect yourself—that's what you mean," his wife answered. "Don't worry. I won't hurt you."

"She won't touch you—she won't!" Maisie declared. She felt by this time that she could really answer for it, and something of the emotion with which she had listened to the Captain came back to her. It made her so happy and so secure that she could positively patronise mamma. She did so in the Captain's very language. "She's good, she's good!" she proclaimed.

"She won't touch you—she won't!" Maisie declared. By this point, she felt confident she could really promise that, and some of the emotion from how she had listened to the Captain returned to her. It made her so happy and secure that she could actually look down on her mom. She did so using the Captain's exact words. "She's good, she's good!" she proclaimed.

"Oh Lord!"—Sir Claude, at this, let himself go. He appeared to have emitted some sound of derision that was smothered, to Maisie's ears, by her being again embraced by his wife. Ida released her and held her off a little, looking at her with a very queer face. Then the child became aware that their companion had left them and that from the face in question a confirmatory remark had proceeded.

"Oh Lord!"—Sir Claude, upon hearing this, lost his composure. He seemed to have let out some sound of mockery that was muffled, to Maisie's ears, by his wife embracing her again. Ida pulled her away slightly, looking at her with a very strange expression. Then the child noticed that their companion had walked away and that from the expression on Ida's face, a confirming comment had been made.

"I am good, love," said her ladyship.

"I'm good, love," said her ladyship.

 

 

XXI
 

A good deal of the rest of Ida's visit was devoted to explaining, as it were, so extraordinary a statement. This explanation was more copious than any she had yet indulged in, and as the summer twilight gathered and she kept her child in the garden she was conciliatory to a degree that let her need to arrange things a little perceptibly peep out. It was not merely that she explained; she almost conversed; all that was wanting was that she should have positively chattered a little less. It was really the occasion of Maisie's life on which her mother was to have most to say to her. That alone was an implication of generosity and virtue, and no great stretch was required to make our young lady feel that she should best meet her and soonest have it over by simply seeming struck with the propriety of her contention. They sat together while the parent's gloved hand sometimes rested sociably on the child's and sometimes gave a corrective pull to a ribbon too meagre or a tress too thick; and Maisie was conscious of the effort to keep out of her eyes the wonder with which they were occasionally moved to blink. Oh there would have been things to blink at if one had let one's self go; and it was lucky they were alone together, without Sir Claude or Mrs. Wix or even Mrs. Beale to catch an imprudent glance. Though profuse and prolonged her ladyship was not exhaustively lucid, and her account of her situation, so far as it could be called descriptive, was a muddle of inconsequent things, bruised fruit of an occasion she had rather too lightly affronted. None of them were really thought out and some were even not wholly insincere. It was as if she had asked outright what better proof could have been wanted of her goodness and her greatness than just this marvellous consent to give up what she had so cherished. It was as if she had said in so many words: "There have been things between us—between Sir Claude and me—which I needn't go into, you little nuisance, because you wouldn't understand them." It suited her to convey that Maisie had been kept, so far as she was concerned or could imagine, in a holy ignorance and that she must take for granted a supreme simplicity. She turned this way and that in the predicament she had sought and from which she could neither retreat with grace nor emerge with credit: she draped herself in the tatters of her impudence, postured to her utmost before the last little triangle of cracked glass to which so many fractures had reduced the polished plate of filial superstition. If neither Sir Claude nor Mrs. Wix was there this was perhaps all the more a pity: the scene had a style of its own that would have qualified it for presentation, especially at such a moment as that of her letting it betray that she quite did think her wretched offspring better placed with Sir Claude than in her own soiled hands. There was at any rate nothing scant either in her admissions or her perversions, the mixture of her fear of what Maisie might undiscoverably think and of the support she at the same time gathered from a necessity of selfishness and a habit of brutality. This habit flushed through the merit she now made, in terms explicit, of not having come to Folkestone to kick up a vulgar row. She had not come to box any ears or to bang any doors or even to use any language: she had come at the worst to lose the thread of her argument in an occasional dumb disgusted twitch of the toggery in which Mrs. Beale's low domestic had had the impudence to serve up Miss Farange. She checked all criticism, not committing herself even so far as for those missing comforts of the schoolroom on which Mrs. Wix had presumed.

A good part of the rest of Ida's visit was spent trying to explain such an extraordinary statement. This explanation was more detailed than anything she had shared before, and as the summer twilight settled in while she kept her child in the garden, she was accommodating to a degree that revealed her need to rearrange things. It wasn’t just that she explained; she almost engaged in conversation; all that was missing was for her to chatter a little less. This was really the moment in Maisie's life when her mother had the most to say to her. That alone suggested generosity and virtue, and it didn’t take much for our young lady to feel that she should best respond and get it over with by simply appearing to understand her mother’s point. They sat together while the mother’s gloved hand sometimes rested amicably on the child’s and sometimes adjusted a ribbon that was too thin or a braid that was too thick; and Maisie was aware of the effort to suppress the wonder that occasionally caused her to blink. Oh, there would have been plenty to blink at if she had let herself; and it was fortunate they were alone together, without Sir Claude or Mrs. Wix or even Mrs. Beale to catch any indiscreet looks. Although her ladyship spoke at length, she wasn’t entirely clear, and her description of her situation was a jumble of disconnected thoughts, the bruised result of an occasion she had too lightly confronted. None of it was really well thought out, and some of it wasn’t entirely insincere. It was as if she had outright asked what better proof could have shown her goodness and greatness than this wonderful willingness to give up what she had cherished so much. It was as if she had said directly: “There have been things between us—between Sir Claude and me—which I don’t need to explain to you, you little nuisance, because you wouldn’t get it.” It suited her to suggest that Maisie had been kept, as far as she was concerned or could imagine, in blissful ignorance and that she must assume a pure simplicity. She shifted around in the situation she had chosen, from which she could neither retreat gracefully nor emerge with dignity: she wrapped herself in the remnants of her audacity, posing to her utmost before the last little bit of cracked glass that had resulted from the many fractures of the polished surface of filial devotion. If neither Sir Claude nor Mrs. Wix was present, this was perhaps all the more unfortunate: the scene had a style of its own that would have made it worthy of display, especially at such a moment when she allowed it to show that she genuinely believed her unfortunate child was better off with Sir Claude than in her own tainted hands. There was at any rate nothing lacking in either her admissions or her distortions, a blend of her fear of what Maisie might unintentionally think and the reassurance she simultaneously gained from the need for selfishness and a pattern of brutality. This pattern surfaced through the merit she now explicitly expressed for not coming to Folkestone to create a scene. She hadn’t come to slap anyone or to slam any doors or even to use foul language: she had come, at the worst, to lose her train of thought in an occasional dumb disgust at the clothes in which Mrs. Beale’s lowly domestic had had the audacity to present Miss Farange. She stifled any criticism, not even acknowledging the missing comforts of the classroom that Mrs. Wix had assumed.

"I am good—I'm crazily, I'm criminally good. But it won't do for you any more, and if I've ceased to contend with him, and with you too, who have made most of the trouble between us, it's for reasons that you'll understand one of these days but too well—one of these days when I hope you'll know what it is to have lost a mother. I'm awfully ill, but you mustn't ask me anything about it. If I don't get off somewhere my doctor won't answer for the consequences. He's stupefied at what I've borne—he says it has been put on me because I was formed to suffer. I'm thinking of South Africa, but that's none of your business. You must take your choice—you can't ask me questions if you're so ready to give me up. No, I won't tell you; you can find out for yourself. South Africa's wonderful, they say, and if I do go it must be to give it a fair trial. It must be either one thing or the other; if he takes you, you know, he takes you. I've struck my last blow for you; I can follow you no longer from pillar to post. I must live for myself at last, while there's still a handful left of me. I'm very, very ill; I'm very, very tired; I'm very, very determined. There you have it. Make the most of it. Your frock's too filthy; but I came to sacrifice myself." Maisie looked at the peccant places; there were moments when it was a relief to her to drop her eyes even on anything so sordid. All her interviews, all her ordeals with her mother had, as she had grown older, seemed to have, before any other, the hard quality of duration; but longer than any, strangely, were these minutes offered to her as so pacific and so agreeably winding up the connexion. It was her anxiety that made them long, her fear of some hitch, some check of the current, one of her ladyship's famous quick jumps. She held her breath; she only wanted, by playing into her visitor's hands, to see the thing through. But her impatience itself made at instants the whole situation swim; there were things Ida said that she perhaps didn't hear, and there were things she heard that Ida perhaps didn't say. "You're all I have, and yet I'm capable of this. Your father wishes you were dead—that, my dear, is what your father wishes. You'll have to get used to it as I've done—I mean to his wishing that I'm dead. At all events you see for yourself how wonderful I am to Sir Claude. He wishes me dead quite as much; and I'm sure that if making me scenes about you could have killed me—!" It was the mark of Ida's eloquence that she started more hares than she followed, and she gave but a glance in the direction of this one; going on to say that the very proof of her treating her husband like an angel was that he had just stolen off not to be fairly shamed. She spoke as if he had retired on tiptoe, as he might have withdrawn from a place of worship in which he was not fit to be present. "You'll never know what I've been through about you—never, never, never. I spare you everything, as I always have; though I dare say you know things that, if I did (I mean if I knew them) would make me—well, no matter! You're old enough at any rate to know there are a lot of things I don't say that I easily might; though it would do me good, I assure you, to have spoken my mind for once in my life. I don't speak of your father's infamous wife: that may give you a notion of the way I'm letting you off. When I say 'you' I mean your precious friends and backers. If you don't do justice to my forbearing, out of delicacy, to mention, just as a last word, about your stepfather, a little fact or two of a kind that really I should only have to mention to shine myself in comparison, and after every calumny, like pure gold: if you don't do me that justice you'll never do me justice at all!"

"I am good—I'm incredibly, I'm exceptionally good. But that won't work for you anymore, and if I've stopped fighting with him, and with you too, who caused most of the trouble between us, it's for reasons you'll understand one of these days—one of these days when I hope you'll know what it feels like to lose a mother. I'm really sick, but you shouldn't ask me anything about it. If I don't get away somewhere, my doctor can't guarantee what will happen. He's shocked at what I've endured—he says it's been thrust upon me because I'm meant to suffer. I'm thinking about South Africa, but that's not your concern. You have to choose—you can't question me if you're so quick to give me up. No, I won't tell you; you'll have to find out for yourself. South Africa is supposed to be amazing, and if I go, it has to be worth my while. It has to be one thing or the other; if he takes you, you know he's got you. I’ve made my last effort for you; I can’t chase you around anymore. I have to live for myself at last, while I still have a bit left. I'm really, really sick; I’m really, really tired; I'm really, really determined. That's the situation. Make the most of it. Your dress is too filthy; but I came to sacrifice myself." Maisie looked at the filthy spots; there were times when it was a relief to lower her gaze onto something as grim. All her meetings, all her trials with her mother had, as she'd grown older, seemed to have the harsh quality of lasting; but longer than anything were these moments presented to her as so peaceful and so pleasantly wrapping up the connection. It was her anxiety that made them feel long, her fear of something going wrong, some interruption, one of her ladyship's notorious sudden shifts. She held her breath; she just wanted to get through this by going along with her visitor. But her own impatience sometimes made the whole situation feel overwhelming; there were things Ida said that she might not have heard, and there were things she caught that Ida might not have said. "You're all I have, and yet I'm capable of this. Your father wishes you were dead—that's what your father wants. You'll have to get used to that, like I have—I mean his wanting me dead. At least you can see how wonderful I am to Sir Claude. He wishes me dead just as much; and I’m sure that if making scenes about you could have killed me—!" It was typical of Ida's eloquence that she started more topics than she followed, and she only glanced at this one; moving on to say that the very proof of her treating her husband like an angel was that he had just slipped away to avoid being embarrassed. She spoke as if he had left quietly, as he might have stepped out from a place of worship where he didn't belong. "You'll never know what I've been through because of you—never, never, never. I spare you everything, as I always have; though I bet you know things that, if I did (I mean if I knew them), would make me—well, never mind! You’re old enough to understand there are a lot of things I don’t say that I could easily mention; though it would do me good, I assure you, to speak my mind for once. I don’t mention your father’s despicable wife: that should give you an idea of how I’m letting you off easy. When I say 'you' I mean your precious friends and support. If you don’t give me credit for holding back, just to delicately bring up, as a final note, about your stepfather, a few facts that really I should only have to mention to make myself look good in contrast, and after every insult, like pure gold: if you don’t give me that justice, you’ll never give me justice at all!"

Maisie's desire to show what justice she did her had by this time become so intense as to have brought with it an inspiration. The great effect of their encounter had been to confirm her sense of being launched with Sir Claude, to make it rich and full beyond anything she had dreamed, and everything now conspired to suggest that a single soft touch of her small hand would complete the good work and set her ladyship so promptly and majestically afloat as to leave the great seaway clear for the morrow. This was the more the case as her hand had for some moments been rendered free by a marked manœuvre of both of her mother's. One of these capricious members had fumbled with visible impatience in some backward depth of drapery and had presently reappeared with a small article in its grasp. The act had a significance for a little person trained, in that relation, from an early age, to keep an eye on manual motions, and its possible bearing was not darkened by the memory of the handful of gold that Susan Ash would never, never believe Mrs. Beale had sent back—"not she; she's too false and too greedy!"—to the munificent Countess. To have guessed, none the less, that her ladyship's purse might be the real figure of the object extracted from the rustling covert at her rear—this suspicion gave on the spot to the child's eyes a direction carefully distant. It added moreover to the optimism that for an hour could ruffle the surface of her deep diplomacy, ruffle it to the point of making her forget that she had never been safe unless she had also been stupid. She in short forgot her habitual caution in her impulse to adopt her ladyship's practical interests and show her ladyship how perfectly she understood them. She saw without looking that her mother pressed a little clasp; heard, without wanting to, the sharp click that marked the closing portemonnaie from which something had been taken. What this was she just didn't see; it was not too substantial to be locked with ease in the fold of her ladyship's fingers. Nothing was less new to Maisie than the art of not thinking singly, so that at this instant she could both bring out what was on her tongue's end and weigh, as to the object in her mother's palm, the question of its being a sovereign against the question of its being a shilling. No sooner had she begun to speak than she saw that within a few seconds this question would have been settled: she had foolishly checked the rising words of the little speech of presentation to which, under the circumstances, even such a high pride as Ida's had had to give some thought. She had checked it completely—that was the next thing she felt: the note she sounded brought into her companion's eyes a look that quickly enough seemed at variance with presentations.

Maisie's desire to show how much justice she had done for her had by now become so intense that it inspired her. The significant impact of their encounter had confirmed her feeling of being launched with Sir Claude, making it richer and fuller than anything she had ever dreamed. Everything seemed to suggest that a gentle touch of her small hand would complete the good work and set her ladyship promptly and majestically afloat, clearing the great seaway for tomorrow. This was especially true since her hand had been freed moments ago by a deliberate maneuver from both of her mother's hands. One of those capricious hands had fumbled impatiently through the layers of fabric and eventually reappeared holding a small item. This act had significance for a little person trained from an early age to keep an eye on manual movements, and it didn't escape her that the handful of gold Susan Ash would never, ever believe Mrs. Beale had sent back—"not her; she's too false and too greedy!"—to the generous Countess. However, to have guessed that her ladyship's purse might be the real focus of the item taken from the rustling fabric behind her gave the child's gaze a careful distance. It also contributed to the optimism that could disturb the surface of her deep diplomacy for an hour, enough to make her forget that she had never felt safe unless she was also oblivious. In short, she forgot her usual caution in her urge to embrace her ladyship’s practical interests and demonstrate how perfectly she understood them. Without looking, she noticed her mother clasped something tightly; she heard, against her will, the sharp click of the closing purse from which something had been taken. She couldn't see what it was; it was too small to be locked away with ease in her ladyship's fingers. Maisie was no stranger to the skill of thinking in multiple directions, so at this moment, she could both express what was on her mind and weigh whether the item in her mother's palm was a sovereign or a shilling. No sooner had she started to speak than she realized that this question would soon be answered: she had foolishly held back the rising words of the small presentation speech that, under the circumstances, even someone as proud as Ida had to consider. She had completely checked it—that was the next thing she sensed: the tone she struck brought a look to her companion’s eyes that quickly seemed at odds with presentations.

"That was what the Captain said to me that day, mamma. I think it would have given you pleasure to hear the way he spoke of you."

"That's what the Captain told me that day, Mom. I think you would have been happy to hear how he talked about you."

The pleasure, Maisie could now in consternation reflect, would have been a long time coming if it had come no faster than the response evoked by her allusion to it. Her mother gave her one of the looks that slammed the door in her face; never in a career of unsuccessful experiments had Maisie had to take such a stare. It reminded her of the way that once, at one of the lectures in Glower Street, something in a big jar that, amid an array of strange glasses and bad smells, had been promised as a beautiful yellow was produced as a beautiful black. She had been sorry on that occasion for the lecturer, but she was at this moment sorrier for herself. Oh nothing had ever made for twinges like mamma's manner of saying: "The Captain? What Captain?"

The pleasure, Maisie now sadly realized, would have taken a long time to arrive if it had come no faster than her mother's reaction to it. Her mom gave her a look that shut her down completely; never before had Maisie faced such a harsh stare in all her failed attempts. It reminded her of a time during one of the lectures on Glower Street when something in a large jar, promised to be a beautiful yellow, turned out to be a disappointing black among a collection of weird glasses and bad smells. She had felt sorry for the lecturer back then, but in this moment, she felt even sorrier for herself. Nothing had ever caused such a sting as her mom's way of saying, "The Captain? What Captain?"

"Why when we met you in the Gardens—the one who took me to sit with him. That was exactly what he said."

"Why when we met you in the Gardens—the one who took me to sit with him. That was exactly what he said."

Ida let it come on so far as to appear for an instant to pick up a lost thread. "What on earth did he say?"

Ida let it go on long enough to seem for a moment like she was about to grab a lost thread. "What on earth did he say?"

Maisie faltered supremely, but supremely she brought it out. "What you say, mamma—that you're so good."

Maisie hesitated a lot, but she managed to say it. "What you're saying, Mom—that you're so nice."

"What 'I' say?" Ida slowly rose, keeping her eyes on her child, and the hand that had busied itself in her purse conformed at her side and amid the folds of her dress to a certain stiffening of the arm. "I say you're a precious idiot, and I won't have you put words into my mouth!" This was much more peremptory than a mere contradiction. Maisie could only feel on the spot that everything had broken short off and that their communication had abruptly ceased. That was presently proved. "What business have you to speak to me of him?"

"What 'I' say?" Ida slowly stood up, keeping her eyes on her child, and the hand that had been rummaging in her purse stiffened at her side and within the folds of her dress. "I say you're a total idiot, and I won’t let you put words in my mouth!" This was much more commanding than just a disagreement. Maisie could instantly sense that everything had come to a halt and that their conversation had suddenly ended. That was soon confirmed. "What right do you have to talk to me about him?"

Her daughter turned scarlet. "I thought you liked him."

Her daughter flushed. "I thought you liked him."

"Him!—the biggest cad in London!" Her ladyship towered again, and in the gathering dusk the whites of her eyes were huge.

"Him!—the biggest jerk in London!" Her ladyship stood tall again, and in the dimming light, the whites of her eyes were striking.

Maisie's own, however, could by this time pretty well match them; and she had at least now, with the first flare of anger that had ever yet lighted her face for a foe, the sense of looking up quite as hard as any one could look down. "Well, he was kind about you then; he was, and it made me like him. He said things—they were beautiful, they were, they were!" She was almost capable of the violence of forcing this home, for even in the midst of her surge of passion—of which in fact it was a part—there rose in her a fear, a pain, a vision ominous, precocious, of what it might mean for her mother's fate to have forfeited such a loyalty as that. There was literally an instant in which Maisie fully saw—saw madness and desolation, saw ruin and darkness and death. "I've thought of him often since, and I hoped it was with him—with him—" Here, in her emotion, it failed her, the breath of her filial hope.

Maisie's own feelings, by this point, could pretty much match theirs; and now, with the first spark of anger that had ever crossed her face toward an enemy, she felt like she could look up just as fiercely as anyone else could look down. "Well, he was kind to you then; he was, and it made me like him. He said things—they were beautiful, they really were!" She was nearly capable of the intensity of forcing this point home, for even in the middle of her surge of passion—of which this was actually a part—she felt a fear, a pain, a troubling glimpse of what her mother's fate might mean after losing such loyalty. For a moment, Maisie clearly saw—saw madness and desolation, saw ruin and darkness and death. "I've thought of him often since, and I hoped it was with him—with him—" Here, in her emotion, her breath of hopeful longing faltered.

But Ida got it out of her. "You hoped, you little horror—?"

But Ida got it out of her. "You hoped, you little nightmare—?"

"That it was he who's at Dover, that it was he who's to take you. I mean to South Africa," Maisie said with another drop.

"That it's him who's in Dover, that it's him who's supposed to take you. I mean to South Africa," Maisie said with another drop.

Ida's stupefaction, on this, kept her silent unnaturally long, so long that her daughter could not only wonder what was coming, but perfectly measure the decline of every symptom of her liberality. She loomed there in her grandeur, merely dark and dumb; her wrath was clearly still, as it had always been, a thing of resource and variety. What Maisie least expected of it was by this law what now occurred. It melted, in the summer twilight, gradually into pity, and the pity after a little found a cadence to which the renewed click of her purse gave an accent. She had put back what she had taken out. "You're a dreadful dismal deplorable little thing," she murmured. And with this she turned back and rustled away over the lawn.

Ida's shock kept her silent for an uncomfortably long time, so long that her daughter not only wondered what would happen next but could also clearly see each sign of her mom's fading generosity. Ida stood there in her impressive but dark and silent presence; her anger was clearly still alive, just as it had always been, filled with depth and complexity. What Maisie least expected was exactly what happened next. It gradually softened, in the summer twilight, into pity, and after a moment, that pity found a rhythm that the renewed sound of her purse helped emphasize. She had put back what she had taken out. "You're a truly awful, miserable little thing," she whispered. With that, she turned and rustled away across the lawn.

After she had disappeared, Maisie dropped upon the bench again and for some time, in the empty garden and the deeper dusk, sat and stared at the image her flight had still left standing. It had ceased to be her mother only, in the strangest way, that it might become her father, the father of whose wish that she were dead the announcement still lingered in the air. It was a presence with vague edges—it continued to front her, to cover her. But what reality that she need reckon with did it represent if Mr. Farange were, on his side, also going off—going off to America with the Countess, or even only to Spa? That question had, from the house, a sudden gay answer in the great roar of a gong, and at the same moment she saw Sir Claude look out for her from the wide lighted doorway. At this she went to him and he came forward and met her on the lawn. For a minute she was with him there in silence as, just before, at the last, she had been with her mother.

After she had vanished, Maisie dropped back onto the bench and sat for a while in the empty garden as the dusk deepened, staring at the image her departure had left behind. It had stopped being just her mother in the strangest way, and now it seemed like her father, the father whose wish that she were dead still hung in the air. It was a presence with blurry edges—it continued to face her, to envelop her. But what reality did she need to confront if Mr. Farange was also leaving—heading to America with the Countess, or even just to Spa? That question suddenly got a cheerful answer from the house in the loud sound of a gong, and at that moment, she saw Sir Claude looking for her from the wide, illuminated doorway. She walked over to him, and he came forward to meet her on the lawn. For a moment, they stood together in silence, just like she had with her mother a little while ago.

"She's gone?"

"She's left?"

"She's gone."

"She's gone."

Nothing more, for the instant, passed between them but to move together to the house, where, in the hall, he indulged in one of those sudden pleasantries with which, to the delight of his stepdaughter, his native animation overflowed. "Will Miss Farange do me the honour to accept my arm?"

Nothing more was said for the moment as they walked together to the house, where in the hall, he charmingly engaged in one of those sudden jokes that, much to his stepdaughter's delight, reflected his natural enthusiasm. "Will Miss Farange do me the honor of accepting my arm?"

There was nothing in all her days that Miss Farange had accepted with such bliss, a bright rich element that floated them together to their feast; before they reached which, however, she uttered, in the spirit of a glad young lady taken in to her first dinner, a sociable word that made him stop short. "She goes to South Africa."

There was nothing in all her days that Miss Farange had accepted with such joy, a vibrant element that brought them together for their celebration; before they got there, though, she said, in the spirit of a happy young woman attending her first dinner, a casual remark that made him pause. "She’s going to South Africa."

"To South Africa?" His face, for a moment, seemed to swing for a jump; the next it took its spring into the extreme of hilarity. "Is that what she said?"

"To South Africa?" For a moment, his face looked like it was gearing up for a leap; the next, it erupted into full-blown laughter. "Is that what she really said?"

"Oh yes, I didn't mistake!" Maisie took to herself that credit. "For the climate."

"Oh yes, I didn't mistake!" Maisie took that credit for herself. "For the climate."

Sir Claude was now looking at a young woman with black hair, a red frock and a tiny terrier tucked under her elbow. She swept past them on her way to the dining-room, leaving an impression of a strong scent which mingled, amid the clatter of the place, with the hot aroma of food. He had become a little graver; he still stopped to talk. "I see—I see." Other people brushed by; he was not too grave to notice them. "Did she say anything else?"

Sir Claude was now watching a young woman with black hair, wearing a red dress and carrying a small terrier under her arm. She hurried past them on her way to the dining room, leaving behind a strong fragrance that blended with the bustling atmosphere and the delicious smell of food. He had grown slightly more serious, but he still paused to chat. "I see—I see." Other people walked by; he wasn’t too serious to notice them. "Did she say anything else?"

"Oh yes, a lot more."

"Oh yes, much more."

On this he met her eyes again with some intensity, but only repeating: "I see—I see."

On this, he looked into her eyes again with some intensity, but only repeated, "I see—I see."

Maisie had still her own vision, which she brought out. "I thought she was going to give me something."

Maisie still had her own vision, which she expressed. "I thought she was going to give me something."

"What kind of a thing?"

"What type of thing?"

"Some money that she took out of her purse and then put back."

"Some money that she took out of her bag and then put back."

Sir Claude's amusement reappeared. "She thought better of it. Dear thrifty soul! How much did she make by that manœuvre?"

Sir Claude's amusement came back. "She changed her mind. That clever saver! How much did she gain from that move?"

Maisie considered. "I didn't see. It was very small."

Maisie thought about it. "I didn't notice. It was really small."

Sir Claude threw back his head. "Do you mean very little? Sixpence?"

Sir Claude tossed his head back. "Are you saying it's just a little? Sixpence?"

Maisie resented this almost as if, at dinner, she were already bandying jokes with an agreeable neighbour. "It may have been a sovereign."

Maisie felt bitter about this, almost as if she were already sharing jokes with a friendly neighbor at dinner. "It might have been a coin."

"Or even," Sir Claude suggested, "a ten-pound note." She flushed at this sudden picture of what she perhaps had lost, and he made it more vivid by adding: "Rolled up in a tight little ball, you know—her way of treating banknotes as if they were curl-papers!" Maisie's flush deepened both with the immense plausibility of this and with a fresh wave of the consciousness that was always there to remind her of his cleverness—the consciousness of how immeasurably more after all he knew about mamma than she. She had lived with her so many times without discovering the material of her curl-papers or assisting at any other of her dealings with banknotes. The tight little ball had at any rate rolled away from her for ever—quite like one of the other balls that Ida's cue used to send flying. Sir Claude gave her his arm again, and by the time she was seated at table she had perfectly made up her mind as to the amount of the sum she had forfeited. Everything about her, however—the crowded room, the bedizened banquet, the savour of dishes, the drama of figures—ministered to the joy of life. After dinner she smoked with her friend—for that was exactly what she felt she did—on a porch, a kind of terrace, where the red tips of cigars and the light dresses of ladies made, under the happy stars, a poetry that was almost intoxicating. They talked but little, and she was slightly surprised at his asking for no more news of what her mother had said; but she had no need of talk—there were a sense and a sound in everything to which words had nothing to add. They smoked and smoked, and there was a sweetness in her stepfather's silence. At last he said: "Let us take another turn—but you must go to bed soon. Oh you know, we're going to have a system!" Their turn was back into the garden, along the dusky paths from which they could see the black masts and the red lights of boats and hear the calls and cries that evidently had to do with happy foreign travel; and their system was once more to get on beautifully in this further lounge without a definite exchange. Yet he finally spoke—he broke out as he tossed away the match from which he had taken a fresh light: "I must go for a stroll. I'm in a fidget—I must walk it off." She fell in with this as she fell in with everything; on which he went on: "You go up to Miss Ash"—it was the name they had started; "you must see she's not in mischief. Can you find your way alone?"

"Or even," Sir Claude suggested, "a ten-pound note." She blushed at this sudden reminder of what she might have lost, and he made it clearer by adding: "Rolled up in a tight little ball, you know—her way of handling banknotes like they were curl papers!" Maisie's blush deepened, both from the striking plausibility of this and from the familiar awareness of his cleverness—the realization of how much more he understood about her mom than she did. She had spent so much time with her without discovering what her curl papers were made of or witnessing any of her transactions with banknotes. The tight little ball had definitely rolled away from her forever—just like one of the other balls that Ida's cue used to send flying. Sir Claude offered her his arm again, and by the time she sat at the table, she had fully decided the amount of the sum she had lost. Everything around her—the crowded room, the ornate banquet, the aroma of the dishes, the drama of the people—contributed to the joy of life. After dinner, she smoked with her friend—for that was exactly how she felt—on a porch, a kind of terrace, where the glowing tips of cigars and the light dresses of women created, under the cheerful stars, a poetry that was almost intoxicating. They talked very little, and she was a bit surprised he didn't ask more about what her mother had said; but she didn’t need to talk—there was a sense and sound in everything that words couldn’t enhance. They smoked and smoked, and there was a sweetness in her stepfather's silence. Finally, he said: "Let’s take another walk—but you need to go to bed soon. Oh, you know, we're going to have a system!" Their walk led them back into the garden, along dim paths from which they could see the black masts and red lights of boats and hear the calls and cries that were clearly connected to joyful foreign travel; and their system was once again to enjoy this leisurely time without a specific conversation. Yet he eventually spoke—he exclaimed as he tossed aside the match from which he had taken a fresh light: "I need to go for a stroll. I’m feeling restless—I need to walk it off." She agreed to this, just as she agreed to everything else; then he continued: "You go up to Miss Ash"—that was the name they had chosen; "you must make sure she's not causing any trouble. Can you find your way by yourself?"

"Oh yes; I've been up and down seven times." She positively enjoyed the prospect of an eighth.

"Oh yes; I've been up and down seven times." She was genuinely looking forward to an eighth.

Still they didn't separate; they stood smoking together under the stars. Then at last Sir Claude produced it. "I'm free—I'm free."

Still, they didn't part ways; they stood smoking together under the stars. Then finally, Sir Claude revealed it. "I'm free—I'm free."

She looked up at him; it was the very spot on which a couple of hours before she had looked up at her mother. "You're free—you're free."

She looked up at him; it was the exact spot where, just a couple of hours earlier, she had looked up at her mother. "You're free—you're free."

"To-morrow we go to France." He spoke as if he hadn't heard her; but it didn't prevent her again concurring.

"Tomorrow we go to France." He spoke as if he hadn't heard her; but it didn't stop her from agreeing again.

"To-morrow we go to France."

"Tomorrow we go to France."

Again he appeared not to have heard her; and after a moment—it was an effect evidently of the depth of his reflexions and the agitation of his soul—he also spoke as if he had not spoken before. "I'm free—I'm free!"

Again, he seemed not to have heard her; and after a moment—it was clearly due to the depth of his thoughts and the turmoil in his heart—he spoke as if he hadn't spoken before. "I'm free—I'm free!"

She repeated her form of assent. "You're free—you're free."

She restated her agreement. "You're free—you're free."

This time he did hear her; he fixed her through the darkness with a grave face. But he said nothing more; he simply stooped a little and drew her to him—simply held her a little and kissed her goodnight; after which, having given her a silent push upstairs to Miss Ash, he turned round again to the black masts and the red lights. Maisie mounted as if France were at the top.

This time he heard her; he looked at her through the darkness with a serious expression. But he didn’t say anything else; he just bent down slightly, pulled her close, and kissed her goodnight. After that, he quietly nudged her upstairs to Miss Ash and turned back to the black masts and red lights. Maisie climbed up as if France were waiting at the top.

 

 

XXII
 

The next day it seemed to her indeed at the bottom—down too far, in shuddering plunges, even to leave her a sense, on the Channel boat, of the height at which Sir Claude remained and which had never in every way been so great as when, much in the wet, though in the angle of a screen of canvas, he sociably sat with his stepdaughter's head in his lap and that of Mrs. Beale's housemaid fairly pillowed on his breast. Maisie was surprised to learn as they drew into port that they had had a lovely passage; but this emotion, at Boulogne, was speedily quenched in others, above all in the great ecstasy of a larger impression of life. She was "abroad" and she gave herself up to it, responded to it, in the bright air, before the pink houses, among the bare-legged fishwives and the red-legged soldiers, with the instant certitude of a vocation. Her vocation was to see the world and to thrill with enjoyment of the picture; she had grown older in five minutes and had by the time they reached the hotel recognised in the institutions and manners of France a multitude of affinities and messages. Literally in the course of an hour she found her initiation; a consciousness much quickened by the superior part that, as soon as they had gobbled down a French breakfast—which was indeed a high note in the concert—she observed herself to play to Susan Ash. Sir Claude, who had already bumped against people he knew and who, as he said, had business and letters, sent them out together for a walk, a walk in which the child was avenged, so far as poetic justice required, not only for the loud giggles that in their London trudges used to break from her attendant, but for all the years of her tendency to produce socially that impression of an excess of the queer something which had seemed to waver so widely between innocence and guilt. On the spot, at Boulogne, though there might have been excess there was at least no wavering; she recognised, she understood, she adored and took possession; feeling herself attuned to everything and laying her hand, right and left, on what had simply been waiting for her. She explained to Susan, she laughed at Susan, she towered over Susan; and it was somehow Susan's stupidity, of which she had never yet been so sure, and Susan's bewilderment and ignorance and antagonism, that gave the liveliest rebound to her immediate perceptions and adoptions. The place and the people were all a picture together, a picture that, when they went down to the wide sands, shimmered, in a thousand tints, with the pretty organisation of the plage, with the gaiety of spectators and bathers, with that of the language and the weather, and above all with that of our young lady's unprecedented situation. For it appeared to her that no one since the beginning of time could have had such an adventure or, in an hour, so much experience; as a sequel to which she only needed, in order to feel with conscious wonder how the past was changed, to hear Susan, inscrutably aggravated, express a preference for the Edgware Road. The past was so changed and the circle it had formed already so overstepped that on that very afternoon, in the course of another walk, she found herself enquiring of Sir Claude—without a single scruple—if he were prepared as yet to name the moment at which they should start for Paris. His answer, it must be said, gave her the least little chill.

The next day, it struck her that they had actually gone deep down into the Channel—so deep that it made her feel the height from which Sir Claude remained, which had never been as significant as when, despite the rain, he was sociably sitting with his stepdaughter's head in his lap and Mrs. Beale's housemaid resting against his chest. Maisie was surprised to find out, as they approached port, that they had enjoyed a lovely journey; however, her excitement upon arriving in Boulogne quickly faded in the face of other emotions, particularly the overwhelming thrill of a broader sense of life. She was "abroad," fully embracing it, responding to it in the bright air, before the pink houses, surrounded by bare-legged fishwives and red-legged soldiers, fully aware of her purpose. Her purpose was to explore the world and revel in the beauty around her; she felt like she had matured in just five minutes and, by the time they reached the hotel, recognized in France's customs and culture a wealth of connections and messages. In just an hour, she found her initiation; her awareness heightened by the significant role she realized she was playing, especially after they quickly finished a French breakfast—which was indeed a highlight. Sir Claude, who had already run into acquaintances and, as he put it, had business and letters to attend to, sent them out together for a walk—a walk where the child was avenged, as poetic justice required, not only for the loud giggles that used to escape her escort on their London strolls but also for all the years her peculiar tendency had produced a socially awkward impression that seemed to oscillate between innocence and guilt. Right there in Boulogne, though there might have been excess, there was no uncertainty; she recognized, she understood, she adored, and she claimed everything around her, feeling entirely in tune with it all and reaching out to touch what had been waiting for her. She explained things to Susan, laughed at her, and felt towering compared to her; somehow, Susan's foolishness—something she had never been so sure of—and Susan's confusion, ignorance, and hostility, heightened the vibrancy of her immediate experiences and actions. The place and the people formed a cohesive picture, which, when they went down to the wide sands, sparkled in a thousand shades with the charming organization of the plage, the joy of the spectators and bathers, the atmosphere of the language and weather, and above all, the excitement of their young lady's unique situation. It felt to her like no one since the dawn of time could have had such an adventure or experienced so much in just an hour; for this to really hit home, all she needed was to hear Susan, inexplicably annoyed, express a preference for the Edgware Road. The past was transformed and the bounds it had set already far exceeded; that very afternoon, during another walk, she found herself asking Sir Claude—without a hint of hesitation—if he was ready to decide when they should head for Paris. His answer, it must be noted, sent a slight chill through her.

"Oh Paris, my dear child—I don't quite know about Paris!"

"Oh Paris, my dear child—I’m not so sure about Paris!"

This required to be met, but it was much less to challenge him than for the rich joy of her first discussion of the details of a tour that, after looking at him a minute, she replied: "Well, isn't that the real thing, the thing that when one does come abroad—?"

This needed to be addressed, but it was much less about challenging him and more about the excitement of her first conversation about the details of a trip that, after looking at him for a moment, she said: "Well, isn't that the real thing, the thing that when someone comes abroad—?"

He had turned grave again, and she merely threw that out: it was a way of doing justice to the seriousness of their life. She couldn't moreover be so much older since yesterday without reflecting that if by this time she probed a little he would recognise that she had done enough for mere patience. There was in fact something in his eyes that suddenly, to her own, made her discretion shabby. Before she could remedy this he had answered her last question, answered it in the way that, of all ways, she had least expected. "The thing it doesn't do not to do? Certainly Paris is charming. But, my dear fellow, Paris eats your head off. I mean it's so beastly expensive."

He had become serious again, and she just dismissed that: it was a way of acknowledging the seriousness of their life. She couldn't really be significantly older since yesterday without realizing that if she pushed a little, he would see that she had already been patient enough. There was, in fact, something in his eyes that suddenly made her feel inadequate. Before she could fix this, he answered her last question in a way she least expected. "The thing it doesn’t do not to do? Sure, Paris is lovely. But, my friend, Paris will drain you. I mean, it’s really ridiculously expensive."

That note gave her a pang—it suddenly let in a harder light. Were they poor then, that is was he poor, really poor beyond the pleasantry of apollinaris and cold beef? They had walked to the end of the long jetty that enclosed the harbour and were looking out at the dangers they had escaped, the grey horizon that was England, the tumbled surface of the sea and the brown smacks that bobbed upon it. Why had he chosen an embarrassed time to make this foreign dash? unless indeed it was just the dash economic, of which she had often heard and on which, after another look at the grey horizon and the bobbing boats, she was ready to turn round with elation. She replied to him quite in his own manner: "I see, I see." She smiled up at him. "Our affairs are involved."

That note hit her hard—it suddenly brought in a harsher truth. Were they really struggling? Was it really just him who was poor, genuinely poor beyond some nice drinks and cold beef? They had walked to the end of the long jetty that surrounded the harbor and were looking out at the dangers they had avoided, the gray horizon that was England, the choppy surface of the sea, and the brown boats that bobbed on it. Why had he chosen such an awkward time to make this foreign trip? Unless, of course, it was purely for financial reasons, something she had often heard about, and after another look at the gray horizon and the bobbing boats, she was ready to turn back with excitement. She responded to him in his own style: "I get it, I get it." She smiled up at him. "Our situation is complicated."

"That's it." He returned her smile. "Mine are not quite so bad as yours; for yours are really, my dear man, in a state I can't see through at all. But mine will do—for a mess."

"That's it." He smiled back at her. "Mine aren't as bad as yours; yours are seriously, my dear man, in a state I can't see through at all. But mine will do—for a mess."

She thought this over. "But isn't France cheaper than England?"

She thought about it. "But isn't France cheaper than England?"

England, over there in the thickening gloom, looked just then remarkably dear. "I dare say; some parts."

England, over there in the growing darkness, looked pretty charming at that moment. "I guess some parts do."

"Then can't we live in those parts?"

"Then can't we live in those areas?"

There was something that for an instant, in satisfaction of this, he had the air of being about to say and yet not saying. What he presently said was: "This very place is one of them."

There was a moment when it seemed like he was about to say something in response, but he didn’t. Instead, he said, “This very place is one of them.”

"Then we shall live here?"

"Are we living here now?"

He didn't treat it quite so definitely as she liked. "Since we've come to save money!"

He didn't take it as seriously as she wanted him to. "We're here to save money!"

This made her press him more. "How long shall we stay?"

This made her push him further. "How long are we staying?"

"Oh three or four days."

"Oh, three or four days."

It took her breath away. "You can save money in that time?"

It left her speechless. "Can you really save money during that time?"

He burst out laughing, starting to walk again and taking her under his arm. He confessed to her on the way that she too had put a finger on the weakest of all his weaknesses, the fact, of which he was perfectly aware, that he probably might have lived within his means if he had never done anything for thrift. "It's the happy thoughts that do it," he said; "there's nothing so ruinous as putting in a cheap week." Maisie heard afresh among the pleasant sounds of the closing day that steel click of Ida's change of mind. She thought of the ten-pound note it would have been delightful at this juncture to produce for her companion's encouragement. But the idea was dissipated by his saying irrelevantly, in presence of the next thing they stopped to admire: "We shall stay till she arrives."

He burst out laughing, started walking again, and pulled her under his arm. He admitted to her along the way that she had also pointed out the biggest of his weaknesses, which he knew all too well: he probably could have lived within his means if he had never bothered with saving money. "It's the happy thoughts that do it," he said; "there's nothing as damaging as having a cheap week." Maisie heard again among the pleasant sounds of the evening the unmistakable shift in Ida's attitude. She thought about the ten-pound note that would have been great to pull out to encourage her companion at that moment. But that thought vanished when he said, casually, in front of the next thing they stopped to admire: "We’ll wait until she arrives."

She turned upon him. "Mrs. Beale?"

She turned to him. "Mrs. Beale?"

"Mrs. Wix. I've had a wire," he went on. "She has seen your mother."

"Mrs. Wix. I got a message," he continued. "She has met your mom."

"Seen mamma?" Maisie stared. "Where in the world?"

"Seen Mom?" Maisie stared. "Where in the world?"

"Apparently in London. They've been together."

"Looks like they're in London. They've been together."

For an instant this looked ominous—a fear came into her eyes. "Then she hasn't gone?"

For a moment, this felt threatening—a look of fear appeared in her eyes. "So she hasn't left?"

"Your mother?—to South Africa? I give it up, dear boy," Sir Claude said; and she seemed literally to see him give it up as he stood there and with a kind of absent gaze—absent, that is, from her affairs—followed the fine stride and shining limbs of a young fishwife who had just waded out of the sea with her basketful of shrimps. His thought came back to her sooner than his eyes. "But I dare say it's all right. She wouldn't come if it wasn't, poor old thing: she knows rather well what she's about."

"Your mom?—to South Africa? I can't believe it, dear boy," Sir Claude said, and she could almost see him giving up as he stood there, staring off with a sort of vacant look—vacant, that is, to her situation—watching the graceful walk and glistening legs of a young fishwife who had just come out of the sea with her basket of shrimp. His thoughts returned to her faster than his eyes did. "But I guess it's all fine. She wouldn't go if it wasn't, poor thing: she knows pretty well what she's doing."

This was so reassuring that Maisie, after turning it over, could make it fit into her dream. "Well, what is she about?"

This was so comforting that Maisie, after flipping it over, could fit it into her dream. "Well, what is she really about?"

He finally stopped looking at the fishwife—he met his companion's enquiry. "Oh you know!" There was something in the way he said it that made, between them, more of an equality than she had yet imagined; but it had also more the effect of raising her up than of letting him down, and what it did with her was shown by the sound of her assent.

He finally stopped looking at the fishwife—he acknowledged his companion's question. "Oh, you know!" There was something in the way he said it that created a sense of equality between them that she hadn’t imagined before; but it also lifted her up more than it brought him down, and how it affected her was evident in the sound of her agreement.

"Yes—I know!" What she knew, what she could know is by this time no secret to us: it grew and grew at any rate, the rest of that day, in the air of what he took for granted. It was better he should do that than attempt to test her knowledge; but there at the worst was the gist of the matter: it was open between them at last that their great change, as, speaking as if it had already lasted weeks, Maisie called it, was somehow built up round Mrs. Wix. Before she went to bed that night she knew further that Sir Claude, since, as he called it, they had been on the rush, had received more telegrams than one. But they separated again without speaking of Mrs. Beale.

"Yes—I know!" What she knew, what she could know is by now no secret to us: it kept growing throughout that day, in the atmosphere of what he took for granted. It was better for him to do that than try to test her knowledge; but ultimately, that was the crux of the matter: it was finally clear between them that their significant shift, as Maisie referred to it as if it had already lasted weeks, was somehow centered around Mrs. Wix. Before she went to bed that night, she realized further that Sir Claude, since, as he put it, they had been on the rush, had received more than one telegram. But they parted ways again without mentioning Mrs. Beale.

Oh what a crossing for the straighteners and the old brown dress—which latter appurtenance the child saw thriftily revived for the possible disasters of travel! The wind got up in the night and from her little room at the inn Maisie could hear the noise of the sea. The next day it was raining and everything different: this was the case even with Susan Ash, who positively crowed over the bad weather, partly, it seemed, for relish of the time their visitor would have in the boat, and partly to point the moral of the folly of coming to such holes. In the wet, with Sir Claude, Maisie went to the Folkestone packet, on the arrival of which, with many signs of the fray, he made her wait under an umbrella by the quay; whence almost ere the vessel touched, he was to be descried, in quest of their friend, wriggling—that had been his word—through the invalids massed upon the deck. It was long till he reappeared—it was not indeed till every one had landed; when he presented the object of his benevolence in a light that Maisie scarce knew whether to suppose the depth of prostration or the flush of triumph. The lady on his arm, still bent beneath her late ordeal, was muffled in such draperies as had never before offered so much support to so much woe. At the hotel, an hour later, this ambiguity dropped: assisting Mrs. Wix in private to refresh and reinvest herself, Maisie heard from her in detail how little she could have achieved if Sir Claude hadn't put it in her power. It was a phrase that in her room she repeated in connexions indescribable: he had put it in her power to have "changes," as she said, of the most intimate order, adapted to climates and occasions so various as to foreshadow in themselves the stages of a vast itinerary. Cheap weeks would of course be in their place after so much money spent on a governess; sums not grudged, however, by this lady's pupil, even on her feeling her own appearance give rise, through the straighteners, to an attention perceptibly mystified. Sir Claude in truth had had less time to devote to it than to Mrs. Wix's; and moreover she would rather be in her own shoes than in her friend's creaking new ones in the event of an encounter with Mrs. Beale. Maisie was too lost in the idea of Mrs. Beale's judgement of so much newness to pass any judgement herself. Besides, after much luncheon and many endearments, the question took quite another turn, to say nothing of the pleasure of the child's quick view that there were other eyes than Susan Ash's to open to what she could show. She couldn't show much, alas, till it stopped raining, which it declined to do that day; but this had only the effect of leaving more time for Mrs. Wix's own demonstration. It came as they sat in the little white and gold salon which Maisie thought the loveliest place she had ever seen except perhaps the apartment of the Countess; it came while the hard summer storm lashed the windows and blew in such a chill that Sir Claude, with his hands in his pockets and cigarettes in his teeth, fidgeting, frowning, looking out and turning back, ended by causing a smoky little fire to be made in the dressy little chimney. It came in spite of something that could only be named his air of wishing to put it off; an air that had served him—oh as all his airs served him!—to the extent of his having for a couple of hours confined the conversation to gratuitous jokes and generalities, kept it on the level of the little empty coffee-cups and petits verres (Mrs. Wix had two of each!) that struck Maisie, through the fumes of the French fire and the English tobacco, as a token more than ever that they were launched. She felt now, in close quarters and as clearly as if Mrs. Wix had told her, that what this lady had come over for was not merely to be chaffed and to hear her pupil chaffed; not even to hear Sir Claude, who knew French in perfection, imitate the strange sounds emitted by the English folk at the hotel. It was perhaps half an effect of her present renovations, as if her clothes had been somebody's else: she had at any rate never produced such an impression of high colour, of a redness associated in Maisie's mind at that pitch either with measles or with "habits." Her heart was not at all in the gossip about Boulogne; and if her complexion was partly the result of the déjeuner and the petits verres it was also the brave signal of what she was there to say. Maisie knew when this did come how anxiously it had been awaited by the youngest member of the party. "Her ladyship packed me off—she almost put me into the cab!" That was what Mrs. Wix at last brought out.

Oh, what a trip for the hair straighteners and the old brown dress—which the child saw being smartly revived for the possible travel disasters! The wind picked up during the night, and from her little room at the inn, Maisie could hear the noise of the sea. The next day it was raining, and everything was different: this was true even for Susan Ash, who positively thrived on the bad weather, partly, it seemed, to enjoy the thought of their visitor enduring the boat ride, and partly to highlight the ridiculousness of coming to such out-of-the-way places. In the rain, with Sir Claude, Maisie went to catch the Folkestone ferry, at the arrival of which, looking a bit battle-worn, he made her wait under an umbrella by the quay; from where, almost before the vessel docked, he was seen, in search of their friend, wriggling—that was his word—through the crowd of invalids gathered on deck. It was quite a while before he reappeared—indeed, not until everyone had landed; when he presented the object of his kindness in a way that left Maisie unsure whether to see it as utter exhaustion or a triumphant flush. The woman at his side, still bent from her recent ordeal, was wrapped in layers of fabric that had never before offered so much support to so much sorrow. At the hotel, an hour later, this ambiguity faded: while helping Mrs. Wix refresh and dress herself, Maisie heard in detail how little she could have accomplished if Sir Claude hadn’t made it possible. It was a phrase she repeated in her room in ways that were hard to describe: he had made it possible for her to have “changes,” as she said, of a very personal nature, suited to climates and occasions so varied that they hinted at the stages of a vast journey. Cheaper weeks would definitely be on the agenda after spending so much on a governess; amounts that were not begrudged, however, by this lady's pupil, even as she felt her own appearance draw a noticeable, puzzled attention because of the straighteners. Sir Claude had honestly spent less time on this than on Mrs. Wix; and besides, she would rather be in her own shoes than in her friend's creaky new ones if she happened to run into Mrs. Beale. Maisie was too caught up in thinking about Mrs. Beale’s opinion on all this newness to form any judgment of her own. Moreover, after a long lunch and many sweet exchanges, the conversation took a completely different turn, not to mention the joy the child felt at realizing there were other eyes besides Susan Ash’s to appreciate what she could reveal. Unfortunately, she couldn’t show much until it stopped raining, which it chose not to do that day; but this only meant there was more time for Mrs. Wix's own revelations. It happened while they sat in the little white and gold salon that Maisie considered the loveliest place she had ever seen, except maybe the Countess's room; it came while the fierce summer storm lashed the windows and sent in such a chill that Sir Claude, with his hands in his pockets and cigarettes in his mouth, fidgeting, frowning, looking out and turning back, ended up getting a small smoky fire going in the fancy little chimney. It happened despite the unmistakable vibe he gave off wishing to postpone it; a vibe that had served him—oh, as all his vibes did!—to the extent that he had spent a couple of hours keeping the conversation on trivial jokes and general chit-chat, staying at the level of the little empty coffee cups and petits verres (Mrs. Wix had two of each!) that struck Maisie, through the blend of French fire and English tobacco, as more than enough evidence that they were off on a new adventure. She felt now, in such close quarters, as clearly as if Mrs. Wix had told her, that what this lady had come over for was not just to be joked with and to hear her pupil being joked with; not even to hear Sir Claude, who was fluent in French, imitate the strange sounds English people made at the hotel. It might have been partly due to her current makeover, as if her clothes had belonged to someone else: she had certainly never made such an impression of bright color, a redness that, at that intensity, reminded Maisie either of measles or of "habits." Her heart wasn’t into gossip about Boulogne at all; and if her complexion was partly a result of lunch and the petits verres, it was also a bold signal of what she was there to say. Maisie knew when it finally did come how anxiously the youngest member of the group had been anticipating it. "Her ladyship sent me off—she practically shoved me into the cab!" That was what Mrs. Wix finally revealed.

 

 

XXIII
 

Sir Claude was stationed at the window; he didn't so much as turn round, and it was left to the youngest of the three to take up the remark. "Do you mean you went to see her yesterday?"

Sir Claude was by the window; he didn't even look back, and it was up to the youngest of the three to respond to the comment. "Are you saying you visited her yesterday?"

"She came to see me. She knocked at my shabby door. She mounted my squalid stair. She told me she had seen you at Folkestone."

"She came to see me. She knocked on my rundown door. She climbed my filthy stairs. She told me she had seen you at Folkestone."

Maisie wondered. "She went back that evening?"

Maisie wondered, "She went back that night?"

"No; yesterday morning. She drove to me straight from the station. It was most remarkable. If I had a job to get off she did nothing to make it worse—she did a great deal to make it better." Mrs. Wix hung fire, though the flame in her face burned brighter; then she became capable of saying: "Her ladyship's kind! She did what I didn't expect."

"No; yesterday morning. She came to see me right from the station. It was really something. If I had a job to get off my plate, she didn’t make it any worse—she actually made it better." Mrs. Wix hesitated, even though the flush on her face was getting more intense; then she managed to say: "Her ladyship is so kind! She did something I didn’t see coming."

Maisie, on this, looked straight at her stepfather's back; it might well have been for her at that hour a monument of her ladyship's kindness. It remained, as such, monumentally still, and for a time that permitted the child to ask of their companion: "Did she really help you?"

Maisie, at this moment, stared directly at her stepfather's back; it could very well have been a symbol of her ladyship's kindness to her at that time. It stayed there, incredibly still, and for a moment that allowed the child to ask their companion: "Did she really help you?"

"Most practically." Again Mrs. Wix paused; again she quite resounded. "She gave me a ten-pound note."

"Most practically." Again, Mrs. Wix paused; again, she echoed strongly. "She gave me a ten-pound note."

At that, still looking out, Sir Claude, at the window, laughed loud. "So you see, Maisie, we've not quite lost it!"

At that, still looking out the window, Sir Claude laughed out loud. "So you see, Maisie, we haven't quite lost it!"

"Oh no," Maisie responded. "Isn't that too charming?" She smiled at Mrs. Wix. "We know all about it." Then on her friend's showing such blankness as was compatible with such a flush she pursued: "She does want me to have you?"

"Oh no," Maisie replied. "Isn't that just too charming?" She smiled at Mrs. Wix. "We know all about it." Then, noticing her friend's look of confusion mixed with embarrassment, she continued, "She really does want me to have you?"

Mrs. Wix showed a final hesitation, which, however, while Sir Claude drummed on the window-pane, she presently surmounted. It came to Maisie that in spite of his drumming and of his not turning round he was really so much interested as to leave himself in a manner in her hands; which somehow suddenly seemed to her a greater proof than he could have given by interfering. "She wants me to have you!" Mrs. Wix declared.

Mrs. Wix hesitated for a moment, but as Sir Claude drummed on the window, she quickly got over it. Maisie realized that despite his drumming and not turning around, he was genuinely interested enough to leave himself somewhat in her control; that felt to her like an even bigger sign of interest than if he had stepped in. "She wants me to have you!" Mrs. Wix said.

Maisie answered this bang at Sir Claude. "Then that's nice for all of us."

Maisie replied sharply to Sir Claude, "Well, that's great for all of us."

Of course it was, his continued silence sufficiently admitted while Mrs. Wix rose from her chair and, as if to take more of a stand, placed herself, not without majesty, before the fire. The incongruity of her smartness, the circumference of her stiff frock, presented her as really more ready for Paris than any of them. She also gazed hard at Sir Claude's back. "Your wife was different from anything she had ever shown me. She recognises certain proprieties."

Of course it was, his ongoing silence clearly indicated as Mrs. Wix got up from her chair and, as if to assert herself more, positioned herself, not without grandeur, in front of the fire. The contrast of her sharp outfit, with the shape of her stiff dress, made her seem more suited for Paris than any of them. She also stared intently at Sir Claude's back. "Your wife was unlike anything she had ever shown me. She understands certain social norms."

"Which? Do you happen to remember?" Sir Claude asked.

"Which one? Do you remember?" Sir Claude asked.

Mrs. Wix's reply was prompt. "The importance for Maisie of a gentlewoman, of some one who's not—well, so bad! She objects to a mere maid, and I don't in the least mind telling you what she wants me to do." One thing was clear—Mrs. Wix was now bold enough for anything. "She wants me to persuade you to get rid of the person from Mrs. Beale's."

Mrs. Wix responded right away. "For Maisie, it's crucial to have a gentlewoman, someone who's not—well, that terrible! She doesn’t like having just a maid, and I’m more than happy to tell you what she wants me to do." One thing was obvious—Mrs. Wix was now confident enough for anything. "She wants me to convince you to let go of the person from Mrs. Beale's."

Maisie waited for Sir Claude to pronounce on this; then she could only understand that he on his side waited, and she felt particularly full of common sense as she met her responsibility. "Oh I don't want Susan with you!" she said to Mrs. Wix.

Maisie waited for Sir Claude to say something; then she realized he was also waiting, and she felt particularly sensible as she took on her responsibility. "Oh, I don't want Susan with you!" she said to Mrs. Wix.

Sir Claude, always from the window, approved. "That's quite simple. I'll take her back."

Sir Claude, always at the window, agreed. "That's pretty straightforward. I'll take her back."

Mrs. Wix gave a positive jump; Maisie caught her look of alarm. "'Take' her? You don't mean to go over on purpose?"

Mrs. Wix jumped in shock; Maisie noticed her look of worry. "'Take' her? You don't actually mean to go over on purpose?"

Sir Claude said nothing for a moment; after which, "Why shouldn't I leave you here?" he enquired.

Sir Claude was silent for a moment; then he asked, "Why shouldn't I leave you here?"

Maisie, at this, sprang up. "Oh do, oh do, oh do!" The next moment she was interlaced with Mrs. Wix, and the two, on the hearth-rug, their eyes in each other's eyes, considered the plan with intensity. Then Maisie felt the difference of what they saw in it.

Maisie immediately jumped up. "Oh please, oh please, oh please!" In the next moment, she was wrapped up with Mrs. Wix, and the two of them, sitting on the rug by the fire, looked deeply into each other's eyes as they focused on the plan. Then Maisie sensed the difference in what they both saw in it.

"She can surely go back alone: why should you put yourself out?" Mrs. Wix demanded.

"She can definitely go back by herself: why should you make it hard on yourself?" Mrs. Wix asked.

"Oh she's an idiot—she's incapable. If anything should happen to her it would be awkward: it was I who brought her—without her asking. If I turn her away I ought with my own hand to place her again exactly where I found her."

"Oh, she's an idiot—she can't do anything. If something were to happen to her, it would be uncomfortable: I was the one who brought her here—she didn't ask for it. If I send her away, I should personally put her back exactly where I found her."

Mrs. Wix's face appealed to Maisie on such folly, and her manner, as directed to their companion, had, to her pupil's surprise, an unprecedented firmness. "Dear Sir Claude, I think you're perverse. Pay her fare and give her a sovereign. She has had an experience that she never dreamed of and that will be an advantage to her through life. If she goes wrong on the way it will be simply because she wants to, and, with her expenses and her remuneration—make it even what you like!—you'll have treated her as handsomely as you always treat every one."

Mrs. Wix's expression struck Maisie as foolish, and her tone toward their companion had, to Maisie's surprise, an unexpected confidence. "Dear Sir Claude, I think you're being unreasonable. Pay for her ticket and give her a sovereign. She has gone through an experience she never expected, and it will benefit her for the rest of her life. If she strays off course, it will simply be because she wants to, and with her expenses and her pay—make it whatever amount you want!—you’ll have treated her as generously as you always treat everyone."

This was a new tone—as new as Mrs. Wix's cap; and it could strike a young person with a sharpened sense for latent meanings as the upshot of a relation that had taken on a new character. It brought out for Maisie how much more even than she had guessed her friends were fighting side by side. At the same time it needed so definite a justification that as Sir Claude now at last did face them she at first supposed him merely resentful of excessive familiarity. She was therefore yet more puzzled to see him show his serene beauty untroubled, as well as an equal interest in a matter quite distinct from any freedom but her ladyship's. "Did my wife come alone?" He could ask even that good-humouredly.

This was a different tone — as fresh as Mrs. Wix's cap; and it could hit a young person with a keen sense for hidden meanings as the result of a relationship that had changed. It revealed to Maisie how much more her friends were standing together than she had realized. At the same time, it required such a clear justification that when Sir Claude finally faced them, she initially thought he was just annoyed by their familiarity. She was even more confused to see him displaying his calm beauty, unbothered, as well as an equal interest in something completely unrelated to any freedom except her ladyship's. "Did my wife come alone?" He could ask that even in a good-natured way.

"When she called on me?" Mrs. Wix was red now: his good humour wouldn't keep down her colour, which for a minute glowed there like her ugly honesty. "No—there was some one in the cab." The only attenuation she could think of was after a minute to add: "But they didn't come up."

"When she called on me?" Mrs. Wix was blushing now: his good mood couldn't hide her redness, which shone for a moment like her plain honesty. "No—there was someone in the cab." The only excuse she could come up with was to add after a minute: "But they didn't come up."

Sir Claude broke into a laugh—Maisie herself could guess what it was at: while he now walked about, still laughing, and at the fireplace gave a gay kick to a displaced log, she felt more vague about almost everything than about the drollery of such a "they." She in fact could scarce have told you if it was to deepen or to cover the joke that she bethought herself to observe: "Perhaps it was her maid."

Sir Claude burst out laughing—Maisie could easily figure out what it was about. As he walked around, still chuckling, and playfully kicked a log back into place at the fireplace, she felt more uncertain about nearly everything than about the humor of such a "they." In fact, she could hardly say if she thought it was to enhance or to hide the joke when she decided to remark, "Maybe it was her maid."

Mrs. Wix gave her a look that at any rate deprecated the wrong tone. "It was not her maid."

Mrs. Wix shot her a look that definitely disapproved of the wrong tone. "It wasn't her maid."

"Do you mean there are this time two?" Sir Claude asked as if he hadn't heard.

"Are you saying there are two this time?" Sir Claude asked as if he hadn't heard.

"Two maids?" Maisie went on as if she might assume he had.

"Two maids?" Maisie continued as if she expected him to agree.

The reproach of the straighteners darkened; but Sir Claude cut across it with a sudden: "See here; what do you mean? And what do you suppose she meant?"

The disapproval of the straighteners grew intense; but Sir Claude interrupted with a sudden, "Listen, what do you mean? And what do you think she meant?"

Mrs. Wix let him for a moment, in silence, understand that the answer to his question, if he didn't take care, might give him more than he wanted. It was as if, with this scruple, she measured and adjusted all she gave him in at last saying: "What she meant was to make me know that you're definitely free. To have that straight from her was a joy I of course hadn't hoped for: it made the assurance, and my delight at it, a thing I could really proceed upon. You already know now certainly I'd have started even if she hadn't pressed me; you already know what, so long, we've been looking for and what, as soon as she told me of her step taken at Folkestone, I recognised with rapture that we have. It's your freedom that makes me right"—she fairly bristled with her logic. "But I don't mind telling you that it's her action that makes me happy!"

Mrs. Wix let him quietly realize for a moment that the answer to his question could reveal more than he bargained for. It was as if she weighed and calibrated everything she offered him before finally saying: "What she meant was to make me understand that you're definitely free. Hearing that straight from her was a joy I didn’t expect: it made the assurance—and my delight in it—something I could truly act on. You already know I would have started even if she hadn’t pushed me; you know what we’ve been looking for all along, and as soon as she told me about her decision in Folkestone, I recognized with joy that we have. It's your freedom that validates me"—she practically radiated her logic. "But I want to tell you that it’s her action that makes me happy!"

"Her action?" Sir Claude echoed. "Why, my dear woman, her action is just a hideous crime. It happens to satisfy our sympathies in a way that's quite delicious; but that doesn't in the least alter the fact that it's the most abominable thing ever done. She has chucked our friend here overboard not a bit less than if she had shoved her shrieking and pleading, out of that window and down two floors to the paving-stones."

"Her action?" Sir Claude repeated. "Well, my dear, her action is nothing short of a horrible crime. It may tickle our sympathies in a way that's quite satisfying; but that doesn't change the fact that it's the most dreadful thing ever done. She's tossed our friend here overboard just like she would if she had pushed her, screaming and begging, out of that window and down two floors to the pavement."

Maisie surveyed serenely the parties to the discussion. "Oh your friend here, dear Sir Claude, doesn't plead and shriek!"

Maisie calmly looked over the people in the conversation. "Oh, your friend here, dear Sir Claude, doesn't beg and scream!"

He looked at her a moment. "Never. Never. That's one, only one, but charming so far as it goes, of about a hundred things we love her for." Then he pursued to Mrs. Wix: "What I can't for the life of me make out is what Ida is really up to, what game she was playing in turning to you with that cursed cheek after the beastly way she has used you. Where—to explain her at all—does she fancy she can presently, when we least expect it, take it out of us?"

He looked at her for a moment. "Never. Never. That's just one, only one, but charming as far as it goes, of about a hundred things we love her for." Then he turned to Mrs. Wix: "What I can't understand is what Ida is really up to, what game she was playing by turning to you with that audacity after the horrible way she has treated you. Where— to make sense of her at all—does she think she can suddenly, when we least expect it, get back at us?"

"She doesn't fancy anything, nor want anything out of any one. Her cursed cheek, as you call it, is the best thing I've ever seen in her. I don't care a fig for the beastly way she used me—I forgive it all a thousand times over!" Mrs. Wix raised her voice as she had never raised it; she quite triumphed in her lucidity. "I understand her, I almost admire her!" she quavered. She spoke as if this might practically suffice; yet in charity to fainter lights she threw out an explanation. "As I've said, she was different; upon my word I wouldn't have known her. She had a glimmering, she had an instinct; they brought her. It was a kind of happy thought, and if you couldn't have supposed she would ever have had such a thing, why of course I quite agree with you. But she did have it! There!"

"She doesn’t care about anything, nor does she want anything from anyone. Her so-called cursed cheek is the best thing I’ve ever seen in her. I don’t care at all about the awful way she treated me—I forgive it all a thousand times over!" Mrs. Wix raised her voice higher than she ever had before; she was positively reveling in her clarity. "I understand her, I almost admire her!" she trembled. She spoke as if this should be enough; yet, out of kindness to those who might need more clarification, she offered an explanation. "As I said, she was different; honestly, I wouldn't have recognized her. She had a spark, she had an instinct; they guided her. It was a kind of happy thought, and if you couldn’t have imagined she would have ever had something like that, I completely agree with you. But she did have it! There!"

Maisie could feel again how a certain rude rightness in this plea might have been found exasperating; but as she had often watched Sir Claude in apprehension of displeasures that didn't come, so now, instead of saying "Oh hell!" as her father used, she observed him only to take refuge in a question that at the worst was abrupt.

Maisie could sense again how a certain blunt honesty in this plea might have been annoying; but just as she had frequently watched Sir Claude, worried about problems that never arose, she now, instead of saying "Oh hell!" like her father used to, just looked at him and took comfort in a question that, at the very least, was direct.

"Who is it this time, do you know?"

"Who is it this time, do you know?"

Mrs. Wix tried blind dignity. "Who is what, Sir Claude?"

Mrs. Wix tried to maintain her dignity. "What do you mean, Sir Claude?"

"The man who stands the cabs. Who was in the one that waited at your door?"

"The guy who handles the taxis. Which one was the one that waited at your door?"

At this challenge she faltered so long that her young friend's pitying conscience gave her a hand. "It wasn't the Captain."

At this challenge, she hesitated for so long that her young friend's sympathetic conscience came to her aid. "It wasn't the Captain."

This good intention, however, only converted the excellent woman's scruple to a more ambiguous stare; besides of course making Sir Claude go off. Mrs. Wix fairly appealed to him. "Must I really tell you?"

This good intention, however, only turned the excellent woman's scruple into a more uncertain look; plus, it obviously caused Sir Claude to leave. Mrs. Wix openly appealed to him. "Do I really have to tell you?"

His amusement continued. "Did she make you promise not to?"

His amusement persisted. "Did she get you to promise not to?"

Mrs. Wix looked at him still harder. "I mean before Maisie."

Mrs. Wix stared at him even more intensely. "I mean before Maisie."

Sir Claude laughed again. "Why she can't hurt him!"

Sir Claude laughed again. "Why she can’t hurt him!"

Maisie felt herself, as it passed, brushed by the light humour of this. "Yes, I can't hurt him."

Maisie felt herself lightly touched by the humor of this. "Yeah, I can't hurt him."

The straighteners again roofed her over; after which they seemed to crack with the explosion of their wearer's honesty. Amid the flying splinters Mrs. Wix produced a name. "Mr. Tischbein."

The straighteners covered her again; after that, they seemed to break apart with the force of their wearer's honesty. Amid the flying debris, Mrs. Wix shouted a name. "Mr. Tischbein."

There was for an instant a silence that, under Sir Claude's influence and while he and Maisie looked at each other, suddenly pretended to be that of gravity. "We don't know Mr. Tischbein, do we, dear?"

There was a moment of silence that, under Sir Claude's influence and while he and Maisie stared at each other, suddenly pretended to be serious. "We don't know Mr. Tischbein, do we, dear?"

Maisie gave the point all needful thought. "No, I can't place Mr. Tischbein."

Maisie thought about it for a moment. "No, I can't place Mr. Tischbein."

It was a passage that worked visibly on their friend. "You must pardon me, Sir Claude," she said with an austerity of which the note was real, "if I thank God to your face that he has in his mercy—I mean his mercy to our charge—allowed me to achieve this act." She gave out a long puff of pain. "It was time!" Then as if still more to point the moral: "I said just now I understood your wife. I said just now I admired her. I stand to it: I did both of those things when I saw how even she, poor thing, saw. If you want the dots on the i's you shall have them. What she came to me for, in spite of everything, was that I'm just"—she quavered it out—"well, just clean! What she saw for her daughter was that there must at last be a decent person!"

It was a moment that clearly affected their friend. "You have to forgive me, Sir Claude," she said with a genuine seriousness, "if I thank God to your face for, in His mercy—I mean His mercy towards us—allowing me to accomplish this act." She let out a long sigh of pain. "It was overdue!" Then, as if to emphasize her point: "I just said that I understood your wife. I just said that I admired her. I stand by that: I felt both those things when I saw how even she, poor thing, understood. If you want the details, here they are. What she came to me for, despite everything, was that I’m just"—she managed to say—"well, just honest! What she wanted for her daughter was that there must finally be a decent person!"

Maisie was quick enough to jump a little at the sound of this implication that such a person was what Sir Claude was not; the next instant, however, she more profoundly guessed against whom the discrimination was made. She was therefore left the more surprised at the complete candour with which he embraced the worst. "If she's bent on decent persons why has she given her to me? You don't call me a decent person, and I'll do Ida the justice that she never did. I think I'm as indecent as any one and that there's nothing in my behaviour that makes my wife's surrender a bit less ignoble!"

Maisie jumped a little at the hint that Sir Claude was not the kind of person being referred to; in the next moment, though, she realized who the distinction was aimed at. This left her even more surprised by the complete honesty with which he acknowledged the worst. "If she’s looking for decent people, then why has she given her to me? You don’t think of me as a decent person, and I’ll give Ida the credit she never gave. I believe I’m as indecent as anyone, and there’s nothing in my behavior that makes my wife’s choice any less shameful!"

"Don't speak of your behaviour!" Mrs. Wix cried. "Don't say such horrible things; they're false and they're wicked and I forbid you! It's to keep you decent that I'm here and that I've done everything I have done. It's to save you—I won't say from yourself, because in yourself you're beautiful and good! It's to save you from the worst person of all. I haven't, after all, come over to be afraid to speak of her! That's the person in whose place her ladyship wants such a person as even me; and if she thought herself, as she as good as told me, not fit for Maisie's company, it's not, as you may well suppose, that she may make room for Mrs. Beale!"

"Don't talk about your behavior!" Mrs. Wix shouted. "Don't say such awful things; they're lies, and they're harmful, and I'm telling you to stop! I'm here to keep you on the right path and to save you—I'm not saying from yourself, because you are beautiful and good at your core! I'm trying to protect you from the worst person of all. I didn’t come here just to be afraid to talk about her! That’s the person her ladyship wants someone like me to replace; and if she thinks, as she practically told me, that she isn't fit for Maisie's company, it's definitely not to make space for Mrs. Beale!"

Maisie watched his face as it took this outbreak, and the most she saw in it was that it turned a little white. That indeed made him look, as Susan Ash would have said, queer; and it was perhaps a part of the queerness that he intensely smiled. "You're too hard on Mrs. Beale. She has great merits of her own."

Maisie watched his face as he reacted to this outburst, and the most she noticed was that it turned slightly pale. That really made him look, as Susan Ash would say, strange; and part of that strangeness was his intense smile. "You're being too hard on Mrs. Beale. She has her own great qualities."

Mrs. Wix, at this, instead of immediately replying, did what Sir Claude had been doing before: she moved across to the window and stared a while into the storm. There was for a minute, to Maisie's sense, a hush that resounded with wind and rain. Sir Claude, in spite of these things, glanced about for his hat; on which Maisie spied it first and, making a dash for it, held it out to him. He took it with a gleam of a "thank-you" in his face, and then something moved her still to hold the other side of the brim; so that, united by their grasp of this object, they stood some seconds looking many things at each other. By this time Mrs. Wix had turned round. "Do you mean to tell me," she demanded, "that you are going back?"

Mrs. Wix, instead of answering right away, did what Sir Claude had just done: she walked over to the window and stared into the storm for a moment. For a brief time, Maisie felt a stillness filled with the sound of wind and rain. Despite all this, Sir Claude looked around for his hat; Maisie spotted it first and dashed over to grab it, holding it out to him. He accepted it with a glimmer of gratitude on his face, and then something prompted her to hold the other side of the brim, so, connected by their grip on the hat, they stood there for a few moments, sharing meaningful looks. By this time, Mrs. Wix had turned around. "Are you seriously telling me," she asked, "that you’re going back?"

"To Mrs. Beale?" Maisie surrendered his hat, and there was something that touched her in the embarrassed, almost humiliated way their companion's challenge made him turn it round and round. She had seen people do that who, she was sure, did nothing else that Sir Claude did. "I can't just say, my dear thing. We'll see about I—we'll talk of it to-morrow. Meantime I must get some air."

"To Mrs. Beale?" Maisie handed him his hat, and there was something that moved her in the embarrassed, almost ashamed way their companion’s challenge made him twist it around and around. She had seen people do that who, she was sure, didn’t do anything different from what Sir Claude did. "I can’t just say, my dear. We’ll figure it out—I’ll talk about it tomorrow. In the meantime, I need to get some fresh air."

Mrs. Wix, with her back to the window, threw up her head to a height that, still for a moment, had the effect of detaining him. "All the air in France, Sir Claude, won't, I think, give you the courage to deny that you're simply afraid of her!"

Mrs. Wix, facing away from the window, raised her head high enough to momentarily hold his attention. "I don't think all the air in France, Sir Claude, will give you the courage to deny that you’re just afraid of her!"

Oh this time he did look queer; Maisie had no need of Susan's vocabulary to note it! It would have come to her of itself as, with his hand on the door, he turned his eyes from his stepdaughter to her governess and then back again. Resting on Maisie's, though for ever so short a time, there was something they gave up to her and tried to explain. His lips, however, explained nothing; they only surrendered to Mrs. Wix. "Yes. I'm simply afraid of her!" He opened the door and passed out. It brought back to Maisie his confession of fear of her mother; it made her stepmother then the second lady about whom he failed of the particular virtue that was supposed most to mark a gentleman. In fact there were three of them, if she counted in Mrs. Wix, before whom he had undeniably quailed. Well, his want of valour was but a deeper appeal to her tenderness. To thrill with response to it she had only to remember all the ladies she herself had, as they called it, funked.

Oh, this time he did look strange; Maisie didn't need Susan's fancy words to notice! It came to her naturally as, with his hand on the door, he shifted his gaze from his stepdaughter to her governess and then back again. For even a brief moment, there was something in his look directed at Maisie that seemed to reveal a part of himself and try to communicate. His lips, however, didn't convey anything; they just surrendered to Mrs. Wix. "Yes. I'm just afraid of her!" He opened the door and walked out. It reminded Maisie of his earlier confession about being afraid of her mother; it made her stepmother the second woman he lacked the particular quality that was supposed to define a gentleman. In fact, there were three of them, if she counted Mrs. Wix, in front of whom he had clearly backed down. Well, his lack of courage was simply a deeper plea for her compassion. To feel that connection, she just had to remember all the women she herself had, as they put it, panicked in front of.

 

 

XXIV
 

It continued to rain so hard that our young lady's private dream of explaining the Continent to their visitor had to contain a provision for some adequate treatment of the weather. At the table d'hôte that evening she threw out a variety of lights: this was the second ceremony of the sort she had sat through, and she would have neglected her privilege and dishonoured her vocabulary—which indeed consisted mainly of the names of dishes—if she had not been proportionately ready to dazzle with interpretations. Preoccupied and overawed, Mrs. Wix was apparently dim: she accepted her pupil's version of the mysteries of the menu in a manner that might have struck the child as the depression of a credulity conscious not so much of its needs as of its dimensions. Maisie was soon enough—though it scarce happened before bedtime—confronted again with the different sort of programme for which she reserved her criticism. They remounted together to their sitting-room while Sir Claude, who said he would join them later, remained below to smoke and to converse with the old acquaintances that he met wherever he turned. He had proposed his companions, for coffee, the enjoyment of the salon de lecture, but Mrs. Wix had replied promptly and with something of an air that it struck her their own apartments offered them every convenience. They offered the good lady herself, Maisie could immediately observe, not only that of this rather grand reference, which, already emulous, so far as it went, of her pupil, she made as if she had spent her life in salons; but that of a stiff French sofa where she could sit and stare at the faint French lamp, in default of the French clock that had stopped, as for some account of the time Sir Claude would so markedly interpose. Her demeanour accused him so directly of hovering beyond her reach that Maisie sought to divert her by a report of Susan's quaint attitude on the matter of their conversation after lunch. Maisie had mentioned to the young woman for sympathy's sake the plan for her relief, but her disapproval of alien ways appeared, strange to say, only to prompt her to hug her gloom; so that between Mrs. Wix's effect of displacing her and the visible stiffening of her back the child had the sense of a double office and enlarged play for pacific powers.

It kept raining so heavily that the young lady's private dream of explaining the Continent to their visitor had to include some reasonable way to address the weather. At the table d'hôte that evening, she showcased a range of ideas: this was the second such event she had experienced, and she would have neglected her opportunity and dishonored her vocabulary— which mainly consisted of the names of dishes—if she hadn't been prepared to impress with interpretations. Preoccupied and intimidated, Mrs. Wix seemed somewhat dim: she accepted her pupil's take on the menu's mysteries in a way that might have seemed to the child like a weigh-down of a belief aware not just of its needs but of its own limits. Maisie was soon enough—though it hardly happened before bedtime—faced again with a different type of agenda for which she saved her criticism. They headed back to their sitting room together while Sir Claude, who said he'd join them later, stayed downstairs to smoke and chat with the old acquaintances he encountered everywhere he turned. He had suggested coffee in the salon de lecture, but Mrs. Wix promptly replied with a touch of disdain that their own rooms offered them every convenience. Maisie could immediately see that these rooms offered the good lady not only the pretense of this rather fancy reference, which she seemed to claim she had spent her life in salons; but also a stiff French sofa where she could sit and stare at the faint French lamp, in the absence of the French clock that had stopped, as if waiting for Sir Claude to so noticeably interrupt. Her demeanor directly accused him of being just out of her reach, so Maisie tried to distract her by sharing Susan's quirky take on their conversation after lunch. Maisie had told the young woman about her relief plan for sympathy's sake, but her criticism of foreign ways appeared, strangely enough, to only deepen her gloom; so that between Mrs. Wix's effect of pushing her away and the obvious stiffening of her back, the child sensed a double duty and an expanded opportunity for peaceful efforts.

These powers played to no great purpose, it was true, in keeping before Mrs. Wix the vision of Sir Claude's perversity, which hung there in the pauses of talk and which he himself, after unmistakeable delays, finally made quite lurid by bursting in—it was near ten o'clock—with an object held up in his hand. She knew before he spoke what it was; she knew at least from the underlying sense of all that, since the hour spent after the Exhibition with her father, had not sprung up to reinstate Mr. Farange—she knew it meant a triumph for Mrs. Beale. The mere present sight of Sir Claude's face caused her on the spot to drop straight through her last impression of Mr. Farange a plummet that reached still deeper down than the security of these days of flight. She had wrapped that impression in silence—a silence that had parted with half its veil to cover also, from the hour of Sir Claude's advent, the image of Mr. Farange's wife. But if the object in Sir Claude's hand revealed itself as a letter which he held up very high, so there was something in his mere motion that laid Mrs. Beale again bare. "Here we are!" he cried almost from the door, shaking his trophy at them and looking from one to the other. Then he came straight to Mrs. Wix; he had pulled two papers out of the envelope and glanced at them again to see which was which. He thrust one out open to Mrs. Wix. "Read that." She looked at him hard, as if in fear: it was impossible not to see he was excited. Then she took the letter, but it was not her face that Maisie watched while she read. Neither, for that matter, was it this countenance that Sir Claude scanned: he stood before the fire and, more calmly, now that he had acted, communed in silence with his stepdaughter.

These powers didn’t really serve a purpose, that was true, in keeping Mrs. Wix focused on Sir Claude's wickedness, which lingered in the pauses of their conversation and which he finally made unmistakably clear by bursting in—it was around ten o'clock—holding something up in his hand. She knew what it was before he even spoke; she at least sensed that, since the time spent after the Exhibition with her father, there was nothing to reinstate Mr. Farange—she understood it meant a win for Mrs. Beale. Just seeing Sir Claude's face made her abandon her last impression of Mr. Farange, disappearing deeper than the comfort of these days of escape. She had kept that impression quiet—a silence that had lost half its concealment to also cover, since Sir Claude's arrival, the image of Mr. Farange's wife. But when the object in Sir Claude's hand turned out to be a letter that he held up very high, something in his gesture exposed Mrs. Beale once again. "Here we are!" he exclaimed almost from the doorway, waving his trophy at them and looking from one to the other. Then he went straight to Mrs. Wix; he had pulled two papers out of the envelope and glanced at them again to see which was which. He extended one open to Mrs. Wix. "Read this." She looked at him intently, as though afraid: it was impossible to ignore his excitement. Then she took the letter, but it wasn’t her expression that Maisie observed while she read. Neither, for that matter, was it this face that Sir Claude studied: he stood before the fire and, more calmly now that he had acted, sat silently with his stepdaughter.

The silence was in truth quickly broken; Mrs. Wix rose to her feet with the violence of the sound she emitted. The letter had dropped from her and lay upon the floor; it had made her turn ghastly white and she was speechless with the effect of it. "It's too abominable—it's too unspeakable!" she then cried.

The silence was quickly shattered; Mrs. Wix stood up suddenly, making a loud noise. The letter had fallen from her hands and was lying on the floor; it had left her looking pale and speechless from the shock. "It's just too awful—it's too unimaginable!" she then shouted.

"Isn't it a charming thing?" Sir Claude asked. "It has just arrived, enclosed in a word of her own. She sends it on to me with the remark that comment's superfluous. I really think it is. That's all you can say."

"Isn't it lovely?" Sir Claude asked. "It just arrived, wrapped in a note from her. She sent it to me with the comment that no explanation is needed. I really believe that’s true. That’s all there is to say."

"She oughtn't to pass such a horror about," said Mrs. Wix. "She ought to put it straight in the fire."

"She shouldn't spread such a terrible thing," said Mrs. Wix. "She should just toss it straight into the fire."

"My dear woman, she's not such a fool! It's much too precious." He had picked the letter up and he gave it again a glance of complacency which produced a light in his face. "Such a document"—he considered, then concluded with a slight drop—"such a document is, in fine, a basis!"

"My dear woman, she's not that foolish! It's far too valuable." He had picked up the letter and gave it another satisfied look that lit up his face. "Such a document"—he thought, then added with a slight pause—"such a document is, ultimately, a foundation!"

"A basis for what?"

"A foundation for what?"

"Well—for proceedings."

"Okay—for the proceedings."

"Hers?" Mrs. Wix's voice had become outright the voice of derision. "How can she proceed?"

"Hers?" Mrs. Wix's voice had turned into pure mockery. "How can she move forward?"

Sir Claude turned it over. "How can she get rid of him? Well—she is rid of him."

Sir Claude flipped it over. "How can she get away from him? Well—she is away from him."

"Not legally." Mrs. Wix had never looked to her pupil so much as if she knew what she was talking about.

"Not legally." Mrs. Wix had never looked at her student as if she really knew what she was talking about.

"I dare say," Sir Claude laughed; "but she's not a bit less deprived than I!"

"I'll bet," Sir Claude laughed; "but she's not any less deprived than I am!"

"Of the power to get a divorce? It's just your want of the power that makes the scandal of your connexion with her. Therefore it's just her want of it that makes that of hers with you. That's all I contend!" Mrs. Wix concluded with an unparalleled neigh of battle. Oh she did know what she was talking about!

"Of the power to get a divorce? It's just your desire for that power that creates the scandal of your relationship with her. So, it's just her desire for it that causes the scandal of hers with you. That's all I'm saying!" Mrs. Wix finished with an impressive battle cry. Oh, she really knew what she was talking about!

Maisie had meanwhile appealed mutely to Sir Claude, who judged it easier to meet what she didn't say than to meet what Mrs. Wix did.

Maisie had silently appealed to Sir Claude, who found it easier to address what she didn’t say than to engage with what Mrs. Wix did.

"It's a letter to Mrs. Beale from your father, my dear, written from Spa and making the rupture between them perfectly irrevocable. It lets her know, and not in pretty language, that, as we technically say, he deserts her. It puts an end for ever to their relations." He ran his eyes over it again, then appeared to make up his mind. "In fact it concerns you, Maisie, so nearly and refers to you so particularly that I really think you ought to see the terms in which this new situation is created for you." And he held out the letter.

"It's a letter to Mrs. Beale from your dad, my dear, written from Spa and making their breakup totally final. It tells her, and not nicely, that, as we technically say, he is leaving her. It ends their relationship for good." He glanced over it again, then seemed to come to a decision. "Actually, it involves you, Maisie, so directly and specifically that I really think you should see how this new situation is laid out for you." And he handed her the letter.

Mrs. Wix, at this, pounced upon it; she had grabbed it too soon even for Maisie to become aware of being rather afraid of it. Thrusting it instantly behind her she positively glared at Sir Claude. "See it, wretched man?—the innocent child see such a thing? I think you must be mad, and she shall not have a glimpse of it while I'm here to prevent!"

Mrs. Wix jumped on it right away; she had snatched it up before Maisie even realized she was a bit scared of it. Shoving it behind her, she shot a furious look at Sir Claude. "Do you see it, you awful man?—you think an innocent child should see something like that? I think you must be crazy, and she won't get a look at it while I'm around to stop it!"

The breadth of her action had made Sir Claude turn red—he even looked a little foolish. "You think it's too bad, eh? But it's precisely because it's bad that it seemed to me it would have a lesson and a virtue for her."

The scope of her actions made Sir Claude blush—he even looked a bit silly. "You think it's a shame, right? But it's exactly because it's a shame that I thought it would have a lesson and a benefit for her."

Maisie could do a quick enough justice to his motive to be able clearly to interpose. She fairly smiled at him. "I assure you I can quite believe how bad it is!" She thought of something, kept it back a moment, and then spoke. "I know what's in it!"

Maisie could quickly understand his motive well enough to step in. She smiled at him. "I assure you, I can totally believe how bad it is!" She paused for a moment, thought of something else, and then said, "I know what's in it!"

He of course burst out laughing and, while Mrs. Wix groaned an "Oh heavens!" replied: "You wouldn't say that, old boy, if you did! The point I make is," he continued to Mrs. Wix with a blandness now re-established—"the point I make is simply that it sets Mrs. Beale free."

He of course laughed out loud and, while Mrs. Wix sighed, "Oh heavens!" he replied, "You wouldn’t say that, old buddy, if you really knew! The point I’m making is," he continued to Mrs. Wix with his smooth demeanor back in place—"the point I’m making is simply that it sets Mrs. Beale free."

She hung fire but an instant. "Free to live with you?"

She hesitated for a moment. "Free to live with you?"

"Free not to live, not to pretend to live, with her husband."

"Free to not live, to not pretend to live, with her husband."

"Ah they're mighty different things!"—a truth as to which her earnestness could now with a fine inconsequent look invite the participation of the child.

"Ah, they're really different things!"—a truth that her sincere expression could now with a charmingly random look invite the child's involvement.

Before Maisie could commit herself, however, the ground was occupied by Sir Claude, who, as he stood before their visitor with an expression half rueful, half persuasive, rubbed his hand sharply up and down the back of his head. "Then why the deuce do you grant so—do you, I may even say, rejoice so—that by the desertion of my own precious partner I'm free?"

Before Maisie could make a decision, though, the spot was taken by Sir Claude, who stood in front of their guest with a look that was part regret, part charm, rubbing his hand briskly up and down the back of his head. "So why on earth do you feel—do you, I should say, actually celebrate—that thanks to the abandonment of my dear partner I'm now free?"

Mrs. Wix met this challenge first with silence, then with a demonstration the most extraordinary, the most unexpected. Maisie could scarcely believe her eyes as she saw the good lady, with whom she had associated no faintest shade of any art of provocation, actually, after an upward grimace, give Sir Claude a great giggling insinuating naughty slap. "You wretch—you know why!" And she turned away. The face that with this movement she left him to present to Maisie was to abide with his stepdaughter as the very image of stupefaction; but the pair lacked time to communicate either amusement or alarm before their admonisher was upon them again. She had begun in fact to show infinite variety and she flashed about with a still quicker change of tone. "Have you brought me that thing as a pretext for your going over?"

Mrs. Wix first responded to the challenge with silence, then with the most extraordinary and unexpected demonstration. Maisie could hardly believe her eyes as she watched the kind lady, whom she had never associated with any hint of provocation, actually give Sir Claude a playful, mischievous slap after making a funny face. "You wretch—you know why!" And she turned away. The expression that she left him with, to show Maisie, was one of complete shock; but the two didn't have time to share either laughter or concern before their admonisher was back with them. In fact, she had started to show a surprising variety and quickly switched her tone. "Did you bring me that thing as an excuse for your departure?"

Sir Claude braced himself. "I can't, after such news, in common decency not go over. I mean, don't you know, in common courtesy and humanity. My dear lady, you can't chuck a woman that way, especially taking the moment when she has been most insulted and wronged. A fellow must behave like a gentleman, damn it, dear good Mrs. Wix. We didn't come away, we two, to hang right on, you know: it was only to try our paces and just put in a few days that might prove to every one concerned that we're in earnest. It's exactly because we're in earnest that, dash it, we needn't be so awfully particular. I mean, don't you know, we needn't be so awfully afraid." He showed a vivacity, an intensity of argument, and if Maisie counted his words she was all the more ready to swallow after a single swift gasp those that, the next thing, she became conscious he paused for a reply to. "We didn't come, old girl, did we," he pleaded straight, "to stop right away for ever and put it all in now?"

Sir Claude steadied himself. "I can't, after hearing such news, not go over there out of common decency. You know, out of courtesy and humanity. My dear lady, you can't just dismiss a woman like that, especially at a moment when she's been most insulted and wronged. A man has to act like a gentleman, for heaven's sake, dear Mrs. Wix. We didn't come here, the two of us, to just hang around, you know: it was only to test the waters and spend a few days that would prove to everyone involved that we're serious. It's precisely because we're serious that we don’t need to be overly cautious. I mean, really, we shouldn’t be so afraid." He showed a lively intensity, and if Maisie counted his words, she was all the more ready to accept, after a quick breath, the ones he next paused for while waiting for a response. "We didn't come, did we, old girl," he urged plainly, "to stop right now forever and just give up?"

Maisie had never doubted she could be heroic for him. "Oh no!" It was as if she had been shocked at the bare thought. "We're just taking it as we find it." She had a sudden inspiration, which she backed up with a smile. "We're just seeing what we can afford." She had never yet in her life made any claim for herself, but she hoped that this time, frankly, what she was doing would somehow be counted to her. Indeed she felt Sir Claude was counting it, though she was afraid to look at him—afraid she should show him tears. She looked at Mrs. Wix; she reached her maximum. "I don't think I ought to be bad to Mrs. Beale."

Maisie had never doubted she could be brave for him. "Oh no!" It felt like she had been hit with the shocking idea. "We're just taking it as it comes." She suddenly had a spark of inspiration, which she backed up with a smile. "We're just seeing what we can afford." She had never claimed anything for herself in her life, but she hoped that this time, honestly, what she was doing would somehow matter. In fact, she felt Sir Claude was counting it, even though she was scared to look at him—scared she'd show him her tears. She looked at Mrs. Wix and reached her limit. "I don't think I should be mean to Mrs. Beale."

She heard, on this, a deep sound, something inarticulate and sweet, from Sir Claude; but tears were what Mrs. Wix didn't scruple to show. "Do you think you ought to be bad to me?" The question was the more disconcerting that Mrs. Wix's emotion didn't deprive her of the advantage of her effect. "If you see that woman again you're lost!" she declared to their companion.

She heard a deep, sweet sound coming from Sir Claude, but Mrs. Wix didn’t hesitate to show her tears. “Do you really think you should treat me badly?” The question was even more unsettling because Mrs. Wix's emotion didn’t take away from her impact. “If you see that woman again, you'll be ruined!” she declared to their friend.

Sir Claude looked at the moony globe of the lamp; he seemed to see for an instant what seeing Mrs. Beale would consist of. It was also apparently from this vision that he drew strength to return: "Her situation, by what has happened, is completely changed; and it's no use your trying to prove to me that I needn't take any account of that."

Sir Claude looked at the glowing lampshade; for a moment, he thought he understood what meeting Mrs. Beale would be like. It seemed that this vision gave him the courage to go back: "Her situation has completely changed because of what has happened, and it's pointless for you to try to convince me that I shouldn't take that into consideration."

"If you see that woman you're lost!" Mrs. Wix with greater force repeated.

"If you see that woman, you're done for!" Mrs. Wix repeated more forcefully.

"Do you think she'll not let me come back to you? My dear lady, I leave you here, you and Maisie, as a hostage to fortune, and I promise you by all that's sacred that I shall be with you again at the very latest on Saturday. I provide you with funds; I install you in these lovely rooms; I arrange with the people here that you be treated with every attention and supplied with every luxury. The weather, after this, will mend; it will be sure to be exquisite. You'll both be as free as air and you can roam all over the place and have tremendous larks. You shall have a carriage to drive you; the whole house shall be at your call. You'll have a magnificent position." He paused, he looked from one of his companions to the other as to see the impression he had made. Whether or no he judged it adequate he subjoined after a moment: "And you'll oblige me above all by not making a fuss."

"Do you think she won’t let me come back to you? My dear lady, I’m leaving you here, along with Maisie, as a backup plan, and I promise you on everything that’s sacred that I’ll be with you again by Saturday at the latest. I’m giving you money; I’m setting you up in these beautiful rooms; I’m making arrangements with the people here to ensure you get the best treatment and all the luxuries. The weather will improve after this; it’s bound to be wonderful. You’ll both be completely free and can explore everywhere and have a great time. I’ll get you a carriage to drive you; the whole house will be at your service. You’ll have a fantastic position.” He paused and looked from one companion to the other to see the impression he had made. Whether he thought it was enough or not, he added after a moment: “And please do me a favor and don’t make a fuss.”

Maisie could only answer for the impression on herself, though indeed from the heart even of Mrs. Wix's rigour there floated to her sense a faint fragrance of depraved concession. Maisie had her dumb word for the show such a speech could make, for the irresistible charm it could take from his dazzling sincerity; and before she could do anything but blink at excess of light she heard this very word sound on Mrs. Wix's lips, just as if the poor lady had guessed it and wished, snatching it from her, to blight it like a crumpled flower. "You're dreadful, you're terrible, for you know but too well that it's not a small thing to me that you should address me in terms that are princely!" Princely was what he stood there and looked and sounded; that was what Maisie for the occasion found herself reduced to simple worship of him for being. Yet strange to say too, as Mrs. Wix went on, an echo rang within her that matched the echo she had herself just produced. "How much you must want to see her to say such things as that and to be ready to do so much for the poor little likes of Maisie and me! She has a hold on you, and you know it, and you want to feel it again and—God knows, or at least I do, what's your motive and desire—enjoy it once more and give yourself up to it! It doesn't matter if it's one day or three: enough is as good as a feast and the lovely time you'll have with her is something you're willing to pay for! I dare say you'd like me to believe that your pay is to get her to give you up; but that's a matter on which I strongly urge you not to put down your money in advance. Give her up first. Then pay her what you please!"

Maisie could only speak for how it felt to her, but even through Mrs. Wix's strictness, there was a hint of twisted concession that reached her. Maisie had her silent word for the kind of impression such a speech could make, for the undeniable charm it could draw from his incredible sincerity; and before she could do anything but blink at the blinding light, she heard that very word come from Mrs. Wix's lips, as if the poor woman had sensed it and wanted to snatch it away like a withered flower. "You're awful, you're terrible, because you know perfectly well that it means a lot to me that you address me in such grand terms!" Grand was how he looked and sounded; that was why, in that moment, Maisie found herself simply worshiping him for just being who he was. Yet strangely, as Mrs. Wix continued, an echo resonated within her that mirrored the echo she had just created. "How much you must want to see her to say things like that and to be ready to do so much for someone like Maisie and me! She has an influence over you, and you know it, and you want to feel it again and—God knows, or at least I do, what your motive and desire are—enjoy it once more and surrender to it! It doesn’t matter if it’s one day or three: enough is as good as a feast, and the wonderful time you’ll have with her is something you’re willing to pay for! I bet you’d like me to think that your payment is getting her to let you go; but that’s something I strongly advise you not to bet on in advance. Give her up first. Then pay her whatever you want!"

Sir Claude took this to the end, though there were things in it that made him colour, called into his face more of the apprehension than Maisie had ever perceived there of a particular sort of shock. She had an odd sense that it was the first time she had seen any one but Mrs. Wix really and truly scandalised, and this fed her inference, which grew and grew from moment to moment, that Mrs. Wix was proving more of a force to reckon with than either of them had allowed so much room for. It was true that, long before, she had obtained a "hold" of him, as she called it, different in kind from that obtained by Mrs. Beale and originally by her ladyship. But Maisie could quite feel with him now that he had really not expected this advantage to be driven so home. Oh they hadn't at all got to where Mrs. Wix would stop, for the next minute she was driving harder than ever. It was the result of his saying with a certain dryness, though so kindly that what most affected Maisie in it was his patience: "My dear friend, it's simply a matter in which I must judge for myself. You've judged for me, I know, a good deal, of late, in a way that I appreciate, I assure you, down to the ground. But you can't do it always; no one can do that for another, don't you see, in every case. There are exceptions, particular cases that turn up and that are awfully delicate. It would be too easy if I could shift it all off on you: it would be allowing you to incur an amount of responsibility that I should simply become quite ashamed of. You'll find, I'm sure, that you'll have quite as much as you'll enjoy if you'll be so good as to accept the situation as circumstances happen to make it for you and to stay here with our friend, till I rejoin you, on the footing of as much pleasantness and as much comfort—and I think I have a right to add, to both of you, of as much faith in me—as possible."

Sir Claude took this to heart, even though there were things in it that made him blush, showing more worry on his face than Maisie had ever noticed before. She had a strange feeling that it was the first time she had seen anyone besides Mrs. Wix genuinely shocked, and this only added to her belief that Mrs. Wix was turning out to be more influential than either of them had thought. It was true that, long before, she had gained a type of control over him, as she called it, different from the hold that Mrs. Beale and originally her ladyship had. But Maisie could totally sense now that he really hadn’t expected this advantage to hit so hard. They hadn’t even come close to where Mrs. Wix would stop; the next moment, she was pushing harder than ever. This was the result of his dry yet kind statement, where what struck Maisie most was his patience: "My dear friend, I have to make my own judgments in this matter. I know you’ve made quite a few for me lately in a way that I really appreciate. But you can’t do that all the time; no one can decide for another in every situation, don’t you see? There are exceptions, particular situations that arise and are incredibly delicate. It would be far too easy for me to put this all on you: it would mean placing a burden of responsibility on you that I’d end up being quite ashamed of. I’m sure you'll find that you'll enjoy just as much if you accept the situation as it is and stay here with our friend until I rejoin you, maintaining as much pleasantness and comfort—and I believe I have every right to say, as much faith in me—as possible."

Oh he was princely indeed: that came out more and more with every word he said and with the particular way he said it, and Maisie could feel his monitress stiffen almost with anguish against the increase of his spell and then hurl herself as a desperate defence from it into the quite confessed poorness of violence, of iteration. "You're afraid of her—afraid, afraid, afraid! Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear!" Mrs. Wix wailed it with a high quaver, then broke down into a long shudder of helplessness and woe. The next minute she had flung herself again on the lean sofa and had burst into a passion of tears.

Oh, he was truly magnificent: that became clearer with every word he spoke and the unique way he expressed himself. Maisie could sense her mentor stiffen almost in agony in response to the growing influence he had over them, and then she threw herself into a desperate defense of it with the simple act of shouting. "You’re scared of her—scared, scared, scared! Oh no, oh no, oh no!" Mrs. Wix cried out with a high pitch, then broke down into a long shiver of helplessness and sorrow. A moment later, she had thrown herself back on the thin sofa and had burst into a fit of tears.

Sir Claude stood and looked at her a moment; he shook his head slowly, altogether tenderly. "I've already admitted it—I'm in mortal terror; so we'll let that settle the question. I think you had best go to bed," he added; "you've had a tremendous day and you must both be tired to death. I shall not expect you to concern yourselves in the morning with my movements. There's an early boat on; I shall have cleared out before you're up; and I shall moreover have dealt directly and most effectively, I assure you, with the haughty but not quite hopeless Miss Ash." He turned to his stepdaughter as if at once to take leave of her and give her a sign of how, through all tension and friction, they were still united in such a way that she at least needn't worry. "Maisie boy!"—he opened his arms to her. With her culpable lightness she flew into them and, while he kissed her, chose the soft method of silence to satisfy him, the silence that after battles of talk was the best balm she could offer his wounds. They held each other long enough to reaffirm intensely their vows; after which they were almost forced apart by Mrs. Wix's jumping to her feet.

Sir Claude stood and looked at her for a moment; he shook his head slowly, with complete tenderness. "I've already admitted it—I'm terrified; so let's just leave it at that. I think you should go to bed," he added; "you've had a long day, and you must both be exhausted. I won't expect you to worry about what I'm doing in the morning. There's an early boat; I'll be gone before you wake up, and I will have dealt directly and effectively, I assure you, with the proud but not entirely hopeless Miss Ash." He turned to his stepdaughter as if to bid her farewell and show her that despite all the tension and friction, they were still connected in a way that she didn’t need to worry. "Maisie!"—he opened his arms to her. With her guilty lightness, she ran into them and, while he kissed her, chose to remain silent as the best way to comfort him, the silence that after all their conversations felt like the best remedy for his wounds. They held each other long enough to strongly reaffirm their commitment; after that, they were nearly pulled apart by Mrs. Wix jumping to her feet.

Her jump, either with a quick return or with a final lapse of courage, was also to supplication almost abject. "I beseech you not to take a step so miserable and so fatal. I know her but too well, even if you jeer at me for saying it; little as I've seen her I know her, I know her. I know what she'll do—I see it as I stand here. Since you're afraid of her it's the mercy of heaven. Don't, for God's sake, be afraid to show it, to profit by it and to arrive at the very safety that it gives you. I'm not afraid of her, I assure you; you must already have seen for yourself that there's nothing I'm afraid of now. Let me go to her—I'll settle her and I'll take that woman back without a hair of her touched. Let me put in the two or three days—let me wind up the connexion. You stay here with Maisie, with the carriage and the larks and the luxury; then I'll return to you and we'll go off together—we'll live together without a cloud. Take me, take me," she went on and on—the tide of her eloquence was high. "Here I am; I know what I am and what I ain't; but I say boldly to the face of you both that I'll do better for you, far, than ever she'll even try to. I say it to yours, Sir Claude, even though I owe you the very dress on my back and the very shoes on my feet. I owe you everything—that's just the reason; and to pay it back, in profusion, what can that be but what I want? Here I am, here I am!"—she spread herself into an exhibition that, combined with her intensity and her decorations, appeared to suggest her for strange offices and devotions, for ridiculous replacements and substitutions. She manipulated her gown as she talked, she insisted on the items of her debt. "I have nothing of my own, I know—no money, no clothes, no appearance, no anything, nothing but my hold of this little one truth, which is all in the world I can bribe you with: that the pair of you are more to me than all besides, and that if you'll let me help you and save you, make what you both want possible in the one way it can be, why, I'll work myself to the bone in your service!"

Her leap, whether it was a quick retreat or a final loss of courage, was almost a desperate plea. "Please, don’t make a choice so miserable and disastrous. I know her all too well, even if you mock me for saying so; despite having seen her little, I know what she'll do—I see it clearly. Since you're afraid of her, it's a mercy from above. Don’t, for heaven's sake, be scared to show it, to take advantage of it, and reach the safety it offers. I’m not afraid of her, I promise; you must have already noticed that there's nothing I'm afraid of now. Let me go to her—I’ll handle her and I’ll bring that woman back without a single hair out of place. Let me spend a couple of days—let me wrap up this connection. You stay here with Maisie and the carriage and the luxury; then I'll come back to you and we can leave together—we'll live together without any worries. Take me, take me,” she insisted, her passion rising. “Here I am; I know who I am and who I am not; but I boldly say to both of you that I will do better for you than she could ever attempt. I say this to you, Sir Claude, even though I owe you the very dress I’m wearing and the shoes on my feet. I owe you everything—and that’s exactly why. To repay that in abundance, what else could I want? Here I am, here I am!”—she presented herself in a way that, paired with her intensity and her appearance, seemed to suggest her for odd tasks and offers, for silly replacements and alternatives. She adjusted her dress as she spoke, emphasizing her debts. “I have nothing of my own, I know—no money, no clothes, no appearance, nothing but my grip on this one simple truth, which is all I have to offer you: that you two mean more to me than everything else combined, and if you'll let me help and save you, making what you want possible in the only way it can be, then I’ll work myself to the bone for you!”

Sir Claude wavered there without an answer to this magnificent appeal; he plainly cast about for one, and in no small agitation and pain. He addressed himself in his quest, however, only to vague quarters until he met again, as he so frequently and actively met it, the more than filial gaze of his intelligent little charge. That gave him—poor plastic and dependent male—his issue. If she was still a child she was yet of the sex that could help him out. He signified as much by a renewed invitation to an embrace. She freshly sprang to him and again they inaudibly conversed. "Be nice to her, be nice to her," he at last distinctly articulated; "be nice to her as you've not even been to me!" On which, without another look at Mrs. Wix, he somehow got out of the room, leaving Maisie under the slight oppression of these words as well as of the idea that he had unmistakeably once more dodged.

Sir Claude hesitated there, struggling to respond to this impressive request; he clearly searched for an answer, feeling quite agitated and distressed. However, in his search, he only reached out to vague ideas until he once again encountered, as he often did, the more than affectionate gaze of his bright little charge. That gave him—poor, malleable, and dependent man—his solution. Even if she was still a child, she was of the gender that could assist him. He indicated this with a renewed invitation for a hug. She eagerly jumped into his arms, and once more they communicated silently. "Be nice to her, be nice to her," he finally said clearly; "be nice to her as you haven't even been to me!" With that, without giving Mrs. Wix another glance, he somehow left the room, leaving Maisie with the weight of these words and the sense that he had undeniably dodged once again.

 

 

XXV
 

Every single thing he had prophesied came so true that it was after all no more than fair to expect quite as much for what he had as good as promised. His pledges they could verify to the letter, down to his very guarantee that a way would be found with Miss Ash. Roused in the summer dawn and vehemently squeezed by that interesting exile, Maisie fell back upon her couch with a renewed appreciation of his policy, a memento of which, when she rose later on to dress, glittered at her from the carpet in the shape of a sixpence that had overflowed from Susan's pride of possession. Sixpences really, for the forty-eight hours that followed, seemed to abound in her life; she fancifully computed the number of them represented by such a period of "larks." The number was not kept down, she presently noticed, by any scheme of revenge for Sir Claude's flight which should take on Mrs. Wix's part the form of a refusal to avail herself of the facilities he had so bravely ordered. It was in fact impossible to escape them; it was in the good lady's own phrase ridiculous to go on foot when you had a carriage prancing at the door. Everything about them pranced: the very waiters even as they presented the dishes to which, from a similar sense of the absurdity of perversity, Mrs. Wix helped herself with a freedom that spoke to Maisie quite as much of her depletion as of her logic. Her appetite was a sign to her companion of a great many things and testified no less on the whole to her general than to her particular condition. She had arrears of dinner to make up, and it was touching that in a dinnerless state her moral passion should have burned so clear. She partook largely as a refuge from depression, and yet the opportunity to partake was just a mark of the sinister symptoms that depressed her. The affair was in short a combat, in which the baser element triumphed, between her refusal to be bought off and her consent to be clothed and fed. It was not at any rate to be gainsaid that there was comfort for her in the developments of France; comfort so great as to leave Maisie free to take with her all the security for granted and brush all the danger aside. That was the way to carry out in detail Sir Claude's injunction to be "nice"; that was the way, as well, to look, with her, in a survey of the pleasures of life abroad, straight over the head of any doubt.

Every single thing he predicted came true, so it was only fair to expect just as much from what he had pretty much promised. His commitments could be checked to the letter, right down to his guarantee that a way would be found with Miss Ash. Woken in the summer dawn and vigorously squeezed by that intriguing exile, Maisie fell back onto her couch with a renewed appreciation for his approach, a reminder of which sparkled at her from the carpet in the form of a sixpence that had spilled out from Susan's pride of ownership. Sixpences, in fact, seemed to flood her life during the forty-eight hours that followed; she whimsically calculated how many could represent such a period of "larks." She soon noticed that the number wasn’t diminished by any plan for revenge against Sir Claude's departure, which would take the form of Mrs. Wix refusing to use the resources he had so bravely arranged. It was actually impossible to avoid them; in the good lady's own words, it was ridiculous to walk when you had a carriage waiting at the door. Everything around them was lively: even the waiters, as they presented the dishes, were part of the absurdity from which Mrs. Wix helped herself with a freedom that indicated to Maisie both her depletion and her reasoning. Her appetite was a sign to her companion of many things and reflected both her overall and specific condition. She had missed out on dinners, and it was touching that, in a state without dinner, her moral passion could shine so clearly. She indulged largely as a way to escape her gloom, yet the chance to indulge was just a marker of the troubling signs that brought her down. In short, it was a struggle, where the lower instincts won, between her refusal to be appeased and her willingness to be clothed and fed. It couldn’t be denied, though, that there was comfort for her in the developments in France; comfort so significant that it allowed Maisie to take security for granted and push all danger aside. That was the way to carry out Sir Claude's order to be "nice"; that was also how, alongside her, in exploring the joys of life abroad, she could look right over the head of any doubt.

They shrank at last, all doubts, as the weather cleared up: it had an immense effect on them and became quite as lovely as Sir Claude had engaged. This seemed to have put him so into the secret of things, and the joy of the world so waylaid the steps of his friends, that little by little the spirit of hope filled the air and finally took possession of the scene. To drive on the long cliff was splendid, but it was perhaps better still to creep in the shade—for the sun was strong—along the many-coloured and many-odoured port and through the streets in which, to English eyes, everything that was the same was a mystery and everything that was different a joke. Best of all was to continue the creep up the long Grand' Rue to the gate of the haute ville and, passing beneath it, mount to the quaint and crooked rampart, with its rows of trees, its quiet corners and friendly benches where brown old women in such white-frilled caps and such long gold earrings sat and knitted or snoozed, its little yellow-faced houses that looked like the homes of misers or of priests and its dark château where small soldiers lounged on the bridge that stretched across an empty moat and military washing hung from the windows of towers. This was a part of the place that could lead Maisie to enquire if it didn't just meet one's idea of the middle ages; and since it was rather a satisfaction than a shock to perceive, and not for the first time, the limits in Mrs. Wix's mind of the historic imagination, that only added one more to the variety of kinds of insight that she felt it her own present mission to show. They sat together on the old grey bastion; they looked down on the little new town which seemed to them quite as old, and across at the great dome and the high gilt Virgin of the church that, as they gathered, was famous and that pleased them by its unlikeness to any place in which they had worshipped. They wandered in this temple afterwards and Mrs. Wix confessed that for herself she had probably made a fatal mistake early in life in not being a Catholic. Her confession in its turn caused Maisie to wonder rather interestedly what degree of lateness it was that shut the door against an escape from such an error. They went back to the rampart on the second morning—the spot on which they appeared to have come furthest in the journey that was to separate them from everything objectionable in the past: it gave them afresh the impression that had most to do with their having worked round to a confidence that on Maisie's part was determined and that she could see to be on her companion's desperate. She had had for many hours the sense of showing Mrs. Wix so much that she was comparatively slow to become conscious of being at the same time the subject of a like aim. The business went the faster, however, from the moment she got her glimpse of it; it then fell into its place in her general, her habitual view of the particular phenomenon that, had she felt the need of words for it, she might have called her personal relation to her knowledge. This relation had never been so lively as during the time she waited with her old governess for Sir Claude's reappearance, and what made it so was exactly that Mrs. Wix struck her as having a new suspicion of it. Mrs. Wix had never yet had a suspicion—this was certain—so calculated to throw her pupil, in spite of the closer union of such adventurous hours, upon the deep defensive. Her pupil made out indeed as many marvels as she had made out on the rush to Folkestone; and if in Sir Claude's company on that occasion Mrs. Wix was the constant implication, so in Mrs. Wix's, during these hours, Sir Claude was—and most of all through long pauses—the perpetual, the insurmountable theme. It all took them back to the first flush of his marriage and to the place he held in the schoolroom at that crisis of love and pain; only he had himself blown to a much bigger balloon the large consciousness he then filled out.

They finally let go of all doubts as the weather cleared up: it had an enormous impact on them and became just as beautiful as Sir Claude had promised. This seemed to give him insight into things, and the joy of the world so captured his friends' attention that gradually the spirit of hope filled the air and ultimately took over the scene. Driving along the long cliff was amazing, but it might have been even better to stroll in the shade—since the sun was intense—through the colorful and fragrant port and through the streets where, for English eyes, everything familiar was a mystery and everything different was a joke. Best of all was to continue meandering up the long Grand' Rue to the gate of the haute ville and, passing beneath it, ascend to the charming crooked rampart, with its rows of trees, quiet corners, and friendly benches where brown old women in white-frilled caps and long gold earrings sat knitting or dozing, its little yellow-faced houses that seemed like the homes of misers or priests, and its dark château where small soldiers lounged on the bridge that spanned an empty moat, with military laundry hanging from the windows of the towers. This part of the place made Maisie wonder if it fit her idea of the Middle Ages; and since it was more satisfying than shocking to realize, once again, the limits of Mrs. Wix's historical imagination, it added another layer to the variety of insights she felt it was her mission to reveal. They sat together on the old grey bastion; they looked down on the little new town, which seemed to them just as ancient, and across at the great dome and the high gilt Virgin of the church that, as they gathered, was famous and pleased them with its differences from any place where they had worshiped. They explored this temple afterward and Mrs. Wix admitted that she probably made a significant mistake early in life by not being a Catholic. Her confession made Maisie curiously wonder how late it could be before one missed the chance to escape such an error. They returned to the rampart on the second morning—the spot where they had made the most progress in distancing themselves from everything unpleasant in the past: it gave them a fresh impression that was closely tied to their emerging confidence, which in Maisie's case was strong, and she could see that her companion's was desperate. For many hours, she had felt like she was showing Mrs. Wix so much that it took her a bit longer to realize she was also the subject of a similar aim. However, things moved along more quickly once she caught a glimpse of it; it then fell into place within her overall, habitual view of the specific phenomenon that, had she needed to verbalize it, she might have referred to as her personal connection to her understanding. This connection had never been so intense as during the time she waited with her old governess for Sir Claude's return, and what made it so was that Mrs. Wix seemed to have a new suspicion about it. It was certain that Mrs. Wix had never had a suspicion calculated to force her pupil, despite their closer bond during such adventurous hours, into a deep defensive state. In fact, her pupil discovered just as many wonders as she had during the rush to Folkestone; while in Sir Claude's company on that occasion Mrs. Wix was an unspoken presence, so during these hours, Sir Claude was—most notably during long pauses—the constant, undeniable theme. It all took them back to the early days of his marriage and to the role he held in the classroom during that painful time of love; only he had somehow inflated his already significant presence to an even larger scale.

They went through it all again, and indeed while the interval dragged by the very weight of its charm they went, in spite of defences and suspicions, through everything. Their intensified clutch of the future throbbed like a clock ticking seconds; but this was a timepiece that inevitably, as well, at the best, rang occasionally a portentous hour. Oh there were several of these, and two or three of the worst on the old city-wall where everything else so made for peace. There was nothing in the world Maisie more wanted than to be as nice to Mrs. Wix as Sir Claude had desired; but it was exactly because this fell in with her inveterate instinct of keeping the peace that the instinct itself was quickened. From the moment it was quickened, however, it found other work, and that was how, to begin with, she produced the very complication she most sought to avert. What she had essentially done, these days, had been to read the unspoken into the spoken; so that thus, with accumulations, it had become more definite to her that the unspoken was, unspeakably, the completeness of the sacrifice of Mrs. Beale. There were times when every minute that Sir Claude stayed away was like a nail in Mrs. Beale's coffin. That brought back to Maisie—it was a roundabout way—the beauty and antiquity of her connexion with the flower of the Overmores as well as that lady's own grace and charm, her peculiar prettiness and cleverness and even her peculiar tribulations. A hundred things hummed at the back of her head, but two of these were simple enough. Mrs. Beale was by the way, after all, just her stepmother and her relative. She was just—and partly for that very reason—Sir Claude's greatest intimate ("lady-intimate" was Maisie's term) so that what together they were on Mrs. Wix's prescription to give up and break short off with was for one of them his particular favourite and for the other her father's wife. Strangely, indescribably her perception of reasons kept pace with her sense of trouble; but there was something in her that, without a supreme effort not to be shabby, couldn't take the reasons for granted. What it comes to perhaps for ourselves is that, disinherited and denuded as we have seen her, there still lingered in her life an echo of parental influence—she was still reminiscent of one of the sacred lessons of home. It was the only one she retained, but luckily she retained it with force. She enjoyed in a word an ineffaceable view of the fact that there were things papa called mamma and mamma called papa a low sneak for doing or for not doing. Now this rich memory gave her a name that she dreaded to invite to the lips of Mrs. Beale: she should personally wince so just to hear it. The very sweetness of the foreign life she was steeped in added with each hour of Sir Claude's absence to the possibility of such pangs. She watched beside Mrs. Wix the great golden Madonna, and one of the ear-ringed old women who had been sitting at the end of their bench got up and pottered away. "Adieu mesdames!" said the old woman in a little cracked civil voice—a demonstration by which our friends were so affected that they bobbed up and almost curtseyed to her. They subsided again, and it was shortly after, in a summer hum of French insects and a phase of almost somnolent reverie, that Maisie most had the vision of what it was to shut out from such a perspective so appealing a participant. It had not yet appeared so vast as at that moment, this prospect of statues shining in the blue and of courtesy in romantic forms.

They went through it all again, and as time dragged on, they moved forward, despite their defenses and suspicions. Their heightened grip on the future pulsed like a clock ticking seconds, but this was a timepiece that sometimes, even at its best, struck a foreboding hour. There were several of these, particularly on the old city wall where everything else seemed peaceful. Maisie wanted nothing more than to be kind to Mrs. Wix, just as Sir Claude wished; but it was exactly because this aligned with her deep-rooted instinct to keep the peace that this instinct was intensified. However, once it was intensified, it found other purposes, leading her to create the very complications she was trying to avoid. What she had essentially done recently was read the unspoken meaning between the lines, so it became increasingly clear to her that the unspoken truth was, profoundly, the total sacrifice of Mrs. Beale. There were moments when every minute Sir Claude was away felt like a nail in Mrs. Beale's coffin. This brought back to Maisie—it was a roundabout way—the beauty and history of her connection with the Overmores' elite, as well as Mrs. Beale's own grace, charm, unique beauty, intelligence, and even her own distinct struggles. A hundred thoughts buzzed in the back of her mind, but two were straightforward. Mrs. Beale was, after all, just her stepmother and relative. She was just—and partly for that very reason—Sir Claude's closest confidante (which Maisie called "lady-intimate"), so what they were meant to give up and cut off was, for one of them, his particular favorite and for the other, her father's wife. Strangely, and inexplicably, her understanding of the reasons kept pace with her feelings of unease; but there was a part of her that, despite her best efforts not to seem petty, couldn't take the reasons at face value. What it might come down to for us is that, despite being disinherited and stripped of much, there remained in her life an echo of parental influence—she was still reminiscent of one of home’s sacred lessons. It was the only one she held onto, but luckily it was a strong one. In short, she had an indelible memory of the fact that there were things her dad called her mom and her mom called her dad a low sneak for doing or not doing. Now this rich memory held a name she dreaded to have Mrs. Beale say: hearing it would make her wince. The very sweetness of the foreign life she was immersed in intensified the possibility of such pain with each hour of Sir Claude's absence. She sat beside Mrs. Wix, looking at the grand golden Madonna, and one of the ear-ringed old women who had been sitting at the end of their bench got up and shuffled away. "Adieu, mesdames!" the old woman said in a slightly cracked but polite voice—such a farewell affected our friends so much that they stood up and almost curtsied to her. They settled back down, and shortly after, amidst the summer buzz of French insects and a moment of almost sleepy reverie, Maisie had a vivid vision of what it meant to exclude such an appealing figure from this charming scene. At that moment, the view of the statues shining in the blue sky and the politeness represented in romantic forms felt larger than ever.

"Why after all should we have to choose between you? Why shouldn't we be four?" she finally demanded.

"Why should we have to choose between you at all? Why can't we just be four?" she finally asked.

Mrs. Wix gave the jerk of a sleeper awakened or the start even of one who hears a bullet whiz at the flag of truce. Her stupefaction at such a breach of the peace delayed for a moment her answer. "Four improprieties, do you mean? Because two of us happen to be decent people! Do I gather you to wish that I should stay on with you even if that woman is capable—?"

Mrs. Wix reacted like someone who had just been jolted awake or like someone who hears a bullet whizzing past a truce flag. Her shock at such a disturbance of the peace made her pause before responding. "Four improprieties, you mean? Just because two of us are decent people! Am I to understand that you want me to stay with you even if that woman is capable—?"

Maisie took her up before she could further phrase Mrs. Beale's capability. "Stay on as my companion—yes. Stay on as just what you were at mamma's. Mrs. Beale would let you!" the child said.

Maisie interrupted before she could elaborate on Mrs. Beale's abilities. "You should stay on as my companion—of course. Stay on just like you were at my mom's. Mrs. Beale would let you!" the child said.

Mrs. Wix had by this time fairly sprung to her arms. "And who, I'd like to know, would let Mrs. Beale? Do you mean, little unfortunate, that you would?"

Mrs. Wix had by this time fully jumped into her arms. "And who, may I ask, would allow Mrs. Beale? Do you mean, you poor thing, that you would?"

"Why not, if now she's free?"

"Why not, now that she's free?"

"Free? Are you imitating him? Well, if Sir Claude's old enough to know better, upon my word I think it's right to treat you as if you also were. You'll have to, at any rate—to know better—if that's the line you're proposing to take." Mrs. Wix had never been so harsh; but on the other hand Maisie could guess that she herself had never appeared so wanton. What was underlying, however, rather overawed than angered her; she felt she could still insist—not for contradiction, but for ultimate calm. Her wantonness meanwhile continued to work upon her friend, who caught again, on the rebound, the sound of deepest provocation. "Free, free, free? If she's as free as you are, my dear, she's free enough, to be sure!"

"Free? Are you trying to be like him? Well, if Sir Claude is old enough to know better, then I think it’s only fair to treat you like you should know better too. You’ll have to, anyway—to be more aware—if that’s the path you’re choosing to take." Mrs. Wix had never been this harsh before; but at the same time, Maisie felt that she had never seemed so reckless. What was behind it, however, intimidated her more than it angered her; she sensed she could still push back—not to contradict, but to find some peace. Meanwhile, her recklessness kept affecting her friend, who picked up once more, on the rebound, the feeling of the deepest provocation. "Free, free, free? If she's as free as you are, my dear, then she's definitely free enough!"

"As I am?"—Maisie, after reflexion and despite whatever of portentous this seemed to convey, risked a critical echo.

"As I am?"—Maisie, after thinking it over and despite how serious this seemed, dared to respond critically.

"Well," said Mrs. Wix, "nobody, you know, is free to commit a crime."

"Well," said Mrs. Wix, "nobody is really free to commit a crime, you know."

"A crime!" The word had come out in a way that made the child sound it again.

"A crime!" The word came out in a way that made the child say it again.

"You'd commit as great a one as their own—and so should I—if we were to condone their immorality by our presence."

"You'd be making just as big a mistake as they are—and so would I—if we accepted their immorality by being around them."

Maisie waited a little; this seemed so fiercely conclusive. "Why is it immorality?" she nevertheless presently enquired.

Maisie waited for a moment; this felt so final. "Why is it immoral?" she eventually asked.

Her companion now turned upon her with a reproach softer because it was somehow deeper. "You're too unspeakable! Do you know what we're talking about?"

Her companion now faced her with a softer kind of reproach because it felt more profound. "You're unbelievable! Do you even know what we're talking about?"

In the interest of ultimate calm Maisie felt that she must be above all clear. "Certainly; about their taking advantage of their freedom."

In the pursuit of complete calm, Maisie believed she needed to be very clear. "Definitely; about them taking advantage of their freedom."

"Well, to do what?"

"Well, to do what now?"

"Why, to live with us."

"To live with us."

Mrs. Wix's laugh, at this, was literally wild. "'Us?' Thank you!"

Mrs. Wix's laugh at this was completely wild. "'Us?' Thanks!"

"Then to live with me."

"Then to live with me."

The words made her friend jump. "You give me up? You break with me for ever? You turn me into the street?"

The words startled her friend. "You’re giving me up? You’re breaking up with me for good? You’re throwing me out on the street?"

Maisie, though gasping a little, bore up under the rain of challenges. "Those, it seems to me, are the things you do to me."

Maisie, though breathing heavily, managed to handle the flood of challenges. "Those, it seems to me, are the things you do to me."

Mrs. Wix made little of her valour. "I can promise you that, whatever I do, I shall never let you out of my sight! You ask me why it's immorality when you've seen with your own eyes that Sir Claude has felt it to be so to that dire extent that, rather than make you face the shame of it, he has for months kept away from you altogether? Is it any more difficult to see that the first time he tries to do his duty he washes his hands of her—takes you straight away from her?"

Mrs. Wix downplayed her bravery. "I can promise you that no matter what I do, I will never take my eyes off you! You wonder why it's considered immoral when you've seen for yourself that Sir Claude thinks it's so wrong that, rather than make you confront the embarrassment of it, he has avoided you entirely for months? Is it any harder to see that the first time he tries to do the right thing, he distances himself from her—takes you away from her immediately?"

Maisie turned this over, but more for apparent consideration than from any impulse to yield too easily. "Yes, I see what you mean. But at that time they weren't free." She felt Mrs. Wix rear up again at the offensive word, but she succeeded in touching her with a remonstrant hand. "I don't think you know how free they've become."

Maisie considered this, but it was more for show than from any real desire to give in easily. "Yeah, I get what you're saying. But back then, they weren't free." She noticed Mrs. Wix tense up again at the upsetting word, but she managed to calm her with a gentle hand. "I don't think you realize how free they’ve become."

"I know, I believe, at least as much as you do!"

"I know, I believe, at least as much as you do!"

Maisie felt a delicacy but overcame it. "About the Countess?"

Maisie felt a hesitation but pushed through it. "About the Countess?"

"Your father's—temptress?" Mrs. Wix gave her a sidelong squint. "Perfectly. She pays him!"

"Your dad's—temptress?" Mrs. Wix shot her a sideways glance. "Absolutely. She pays him!"

"Oh does she?" At this the child's countenance fell: it seemed to give a reason for papa's behaviour and place it in a more favourable light. She wished to be just. "I don't say she's not generous. She was so to me."

"Oh does she?" At this, the child's expression changed: it seemed to explain why Dad acted that way and made it seem better. She wanted to be fair. "I’m not saying she’s not generous. She was to me."

"How, to you?"

"How about you?"

"She gave me a lot of money."

"She gave me a lot of cash."

Mrs. Wix stared. "And pray what did you do with a lot of money?"

Mrs. Wix stared. "So, what did you do with all that money?"

"I gave it to Mrs. Beale."

"I gave it to Mrs. Beale."

"And what did Mrs. Beale do with it?"

"And what did Mrs. Beale do with it?"

"She sent it back."

"She returned it."

"To the Countess? Gammon!" said Mrs. Wix. She disposed of that plea as effectually as Susan Ash.

"To the Countess? Nonsense!" said Mrs. Wix. She dismissed that argument just as effectively as Susan Ash did.

"Well, I don't care!" Maisie replied. "What I mean is that you don't know about the rest."

"Well, I don't care!" Maisie said. "What I mean is that you don't know the whole story."

"The rest? What rest?"

"The rest? What do you mean?"

Maisie wondered how she could best put it. "Papa kept me there an hour."

Maisie thought about the best way to say it. "Dad kept me there for an hour."

"I do know—Sir Claude told me. Mrs. Beale had told him."

"I know that—Sir Claude mentioned it to me. Mrs. Beale told him."

Maisie looked incredulity. "How could she—when I didn't speak of it?"

Maisie looked incredulous. "How could she—when I didn’t say anything about it?"

Mrs. Wix was mystified. "Speak of what?"

Mrs. Wix was confused. "Speak of what?"

"Why, of her being so frightful."

"Wow, she's so scary."

"The Countess? Of course she's frightful!" Mrs. Wix returned. After a moment she added: "That's why she pays him."

"The Countess? Yeah, she's terrible!" Mrs. Wix replied. After a moment, she added, "That's why she pays him."

Maisie pondered. "It's the best thing about her then—if she gives him as much as she gave me!"

Maisie thought. "That's the best thing about her—if she gives him as much as she gave me!"

"Well, it's not the best thing about him! Or rather perhaps it is too!" Mrs. Wix subjoined.

"Well, it's not the best thing about him! Or maybe it actually is too!" Mrs. Wix added.

"But she's awful—really and truly," Maisie went on.

"But she's terrible—seriously and honestly," Maisie continued.

Mrs. Wix arrested her. "You needn't go into details!" It was visibly at variance with this injunction that she yet enquired: "How does that make it any better?"

Mrs. Wix stopped her. "You don't need to go into details!" Despite this order, she asked, "How does that make it any better?"

"Their living with me? Why for the Countess—and for her whiskers!—he has put me off on them. I understood him," Maisie profoundly said.

"Their living with me? Why for the Countess—and her whiskers!—he has put me off on them. I got it," Maisie said confidently.

"I hope then he understood you. It's more than I do!" Mrs. Wix admitted.

"I hope he gets you. It's more than I do!" Mrs. Wix admitted.

This was a real challenge to be plainer, and our young lady immediately became so. "I mean it isn't a crime."

This was a real challenge to be straightforward, and our young lady quickly became so. "I mean, it's not a crime."

"Why then did Sir Claude steal you away?"

"Why did Sir Claude take you away?"

"He didn't steal—he only borrowed me. I knew it wasn't for long," Maisie audaciously professed.

"He didn't steal me—he just borrowed me. I knew it wasn't going to last long," Maisie boldly declared.

"You must allow me to reply to that," cried Mrs. Wix, "that you knew nothing of the sort, and that you rather basely failed to back me up last night when you pretended so plump that you did! You hoped in fact, exactly as much as I did and as in my senseless passion I even hope now, that this may be the beginning of better things."

"You have to let me respond to that," Mrs. Wix exclaimed, "because you didn’t have a clue about what was really going on, and you shamefully didn’t support me last night when you acted like you did! You, in fact, hoped just as much as I did, and even in my foolish passion, I still hope now that this could be the start of something better."

Oh yes, Mrs. Wix was indeed, for the first time, sharp; so that there at last stirred in our heroine the sense not so much of being proved disingenuous as of being precisely accused of the meanness that had brought everything down on her through her very desire to shake herself clear of it. She suddenly felt herself swell with a passion of protest. "I never, never hoped I wasn't going again to see Mrs. Beale! I didn't, I didn't, I didn't!" she repeated. Mrs. Wix bounced about with a force of rejoinder of which she also felt that she must anticipate the concussion and which, though the good lady was evidently charged to the brim, hung fire long enough to give time for an aggravation. "She's beautiful and I love her! I love her and she's beautiful!"

Oh yes, Mrs. Wix was definitely sharp for the first time; it finally stirred in our heroine not just the feeling of being caught lying but of being specifically accused of the unkindness that had caused all this trouble because she wanted to free herself from it. She suddenly felt a surge of protest. "I never, never thought I wouldn't see Mrs. Beale again! I didn't, I didn't, I didn't!" she insisted. Mrs. Wix bounced around, ready to respond, and even though the good woman was clearly full of energy, she held back long enough for the tension to build. "She's beautiful and I love her! I love her and she's beautiful!"

"And I'm hideous and you hate me?" Mrs. Wix fixed her a moment, then caught herself up. "I won't embitter you by absolutely accusing you of that; though, as for my being hideous, it's hardly the first time I've been told so! I know it so well that even if I haven't whiskers—have I?—I dare say there are other ways in which the Countess is a Venus to me! My pretensions must therefore seem to you monstrous—which comes to the same thing as your not liking me. But do you mean to go so far as to tell me that you want to live with them in their sin?"

"And I'm so ugly that you hate me?" Mrs. Wix stared at her for a moment, then pulled herself together. "I won't make things worse by completely accusing you of that; although, as for being ugly, it’s not the first time I’ve heard it! I know it so well that even if I don’t have whiskers—do I?—I would say there are other ways in which the Countess is like a goddess to me! My ambitions must seem outrageous to you—which is basically the same as saying you don’t like me. But do you really mean to tell me that you want to live with them in their wrongdoing?"

"You know what I want, you know what I want!"—Maisie spoke with the shudder of rising tears.

"You know what I want, you know what I want!"—Maisie said, her voice trembling as tears started to rise.

"Yes, I do; you want me to be as bad as yourself! Well, I won't. There! Mrs. Beale's as bad as your father!" Mrs. Wix went on.

"Yes, I do; you want me to be as bad as you! Well, I won't. There! Mrs. Beale's just as bad as your dad!" Mrs. Wix continued.

"She's not!—she's not!" her pupil almost shrieked in retort.

"She’s not!—she’s not!" her student nearly shouted in response.

"You mean because Sir Claude at least has beauty and wit and grace? But he pays just as the Countess pays!" Mrs. Wix, who now rose as she spoke, fairly revealed a latent cynicism.

"You mean because Sir Claude at least has looks, intelligence, and charm? But he pays just like the Countess does!" Mrs. Wix, who now stood up as she spoke, clearly showed a hidden cynicism.

It raised Maisie also to her feet; her companion had walked off a few steps and paused. The two looked at each other as they had never looked, and Mrs. Wix seemed to flaunt there in her finery. "Then doesn't he pay you too?" her unhappy charge demanded.

It brought Maisie to her feet as well; her companion had taken a few steps away and stopped. The two looked at each other in a way they never had before, and Mrs. Wix appeared to show off in her fancy outfit. "So, doesn't he pay you too?" her troubled charge asked.

At this she bounded in her place. "Oh you incredible little waif!" She brought it out with a wail of violence; after which, with another convulsion, she marched straight away.

At this, she jumped in her spot. "Oh, you amazing little lost cause!" She let it out with a cry of anger; then, with another shake, she walked straight away.

Maisie dropped back on the bench and burst into sobs.

Maisie fell back onto the bench and started crying.

 

 

XXVI
 

Nothing so dreadful of course could be final or even for many minutes prolonged: they rushed together again too soon for either to feel that either had kept it up, and though they went home in silence it was with a vivid perception for Maisie that her companion's hand had closed upon her. That hand had shown altogether, these twenty-four hours, a new capacity for closing, and one of the truths the child could least resist was that a certain greatness had now come to Mrs. Wix. The case was indeed that the quality of her motive surpassed the sharpness of her angles; both the combination and the singularity of which things, when in the afternoon they used the carriage, Maisie could borrow from the contemplative hush of their grandeur the freedom to feel to the utmost. She still bore the mark of the tone in which her friend had thrown out that threat of never losing sight of her. This friend had been converted in short from feebleness to force; and it was the light of her new authority that showed from how far she had come. The threat in question, sharply exultant, might have produced defiance; but before anything so ugly could happen another process had insidiously forestalled it. The moment at which this process had begun to mature was that of Mrs. Wix's breaking out with a dignity attuned to their own apartments and with an advantage now measurably gained. They had ordered coffee after luncheon, in the spirit of Sir Claude's provision, and it was served to them while they awaited their equipage in the white and gold saloon. It was flanked moreover with a couple of liqueurs, and Maisie felt that Sir Claude could scarce have been taken more at his word had it been followed by anecdotes and cigarettes. The influence of these luxuries was at any rate in the air. It seemed to her while she tiptoed at the chimney-glass, pulling on her gloves and with a motion of her head shaking a feather into place, to have had something to do with Mrs. Wix's suddenly saying: "Haven't you really and truly any moral sense?"

Nothing so terrible could last forever or even for more than a few minutes: they came together again too quickly for either to feel like they'd actually held on to it, and although they returned home in silence, Maisie was sharply aware that her companion's hand had gripped hers. That hand had shown a new ability to grasp over the past twenty-four hours, and one of the thoughts Maisie found hardest to resist was that Mrs. Wix had gained a certain significance. The truth was that the quality of her intentions surpassed her previous weaknesses; both the blend and uniqueness of these traits, when they took the carriage in the afternoon, allowed Maisie to revel in the depth of their grandeur. She still felt the impact of her friend's tone when she had threatened never to lose sight of her. This friend had transformed from weakness to strength; and it was the glow of her newfound authority that illuminated how far she'd come. The threat, sharp and triumphant, could have provoked defiance; but before anything so ugly could unfold, another process had quietly taken over. The moment this transformation began was when Mrs. Wix had expressed herself with a dignity that matched their own surroundings and with a notable sense of progress. They had ordered coffee after lunch, following Sir Claude's suggestion, and it was brought to them while they waited for their carriage in the white and gold salon. It was also accompanied by two liqueurs, and Maisie felt that Sir Claude couldn't have taken them more literally if anecdotes and cigarettes had followed. The effect of these indulgences filled the room. As she tiptoed by the mirror, pulling on her gloves and shaking a feather into place with a motion of her head, it seemed to her that this atmosphere was somehow linked to Mrs. Wix's sudden question: "Haven't you really and truly any moral sense?"

Maisie was aware that her answer, though it brought her down to her heels, was vague even to imbecility, and that this was the first time she had appeared to practise with Mrs. Wix an intellectual inaptitude to meet her—the infirmity to which she had owed so much success with papa and mamma. The appearance did her injustice, for it was not less through her candour than through her playfellow's pressure that after this the idea of a moral sense mainly coloured their intercourse. She began, the poor child, with scarcely knowing what it was; but it proved something that, with scarce an outward sign save her surrender to the swing of the carriage, she could, before they came back from their drive, strike up a sort of acquaintance with. The beauty of the day only deepened, and the splendour of the afternoon sea, and the haze of the far headlands, and the taste of the sweet air. It was the coachman indeed who, smiling and cracking his whip, turning in his place, pointing to invisible objects and uttering unintelligible sounds—all, our tourists recognised, strict features of a social order principally devoted to language: it was this polite person, I say, who made their excursion fall so much short that their return left them still a stretch of the long daylight and an hour that, at his obliging suggestion, they spent on foot by the shining sands. Maisie had seen the plage the day before with Sir Claude, but that was a reason the more for showing on the spot to Mrs. Wix that it was, as she said, another of the places on her list and of the things of which she knew the French name. The bathers, so late, were absent and the tide was low; the sea-pools twinkled in the sunset and there were dry places as well, where they could sit again and admire and expatiate: a circumstance that, while they listened to the lap of the waves, gave Mrs. Wix a fresh support for her challenge. "Have you absolutely none at all?"

Maisie realized that her answer, although it made her feel small, was vague to the point of being silly. This was the first time she seemed to show an intellectual clumsiness around Mrs. Wix—an awkwardness that had helped her succeed with her parents. It was unfair to her, though, because it was not only due to her honesty but also because of her playmate's influence that afterwards, the idea of a moral sense mostly shaped their interactions. The poor child started off not really knowing what it was, but it turned out to be something she could, with hardly any outward sign other than her yielding to the motion of the carriage, manage to connect with before they got back from their drive. The beauty of the day grew deeper, along with the splendor of the afternoon sea, the haze of the distant headlands, and the taste of the fresh air. It was the coachman, indeed, who, smiling and cracking his whip, turned in his seat, pointed at invisible objects, and made unintelligible sounds—all of which, our tourists recognized, were strict elements of a social order mainly focused on communication. It was this polite man, I say, who made their trip feel a bit short so that when they returned, they still had a long stretch of daylight left, and an hour that, thanks to his kind suggestion, they spent walking along the shining sands. Maisie had seen the plage the day before with Sir Claude, but that only gave her more reason to show Mrs. Wix right then that it was, as she claimed, another one of the places on her list and something she knew the French name for. The bathers, being late, were absent, and the tide was low; the sea pools sparkled in the sunset and there were dry spots as well where they could sit and admire and elaborate: a situation that, while they listened to the waves lapping, gave Mrs. Wix a new foundation for her challenge. "Do you really have none at all?"

She had no need now, as to the question itself at least, to be specific; that on the other hand was the eventual result of their quiet conjoined apprehension of the thing that—well, yes, since they must face it—Maisie absolutely and appallingly had so little of. This marked more particularly the moment of the child's perceiving that her friend had risen to a level which might—till superseded at all events—pass almost for sublime. Nothing more remarkable had taken place in the first heat of her own departure, no act of perception less to be overtraced by our rough method, than her vision, the rest of that Boulogne day, of the manner in which she figured. I so despair of courting her noiseless mental footsteps here that I must crudely give you my word for its being from this time forward a picture literally present to her. Mrs. Wix saw her as a little person knowing so extraordinarily much that, for the account to be taken of it, what she still didn't know would be ridiculous if it hadn't been embarrassing. Mrs. Wix was in truth more than ever qualified to meet embarrassment; I am not sure that Maisie had not even a dim discernment of the queer law of her own life that made her educate to that sort of proficiency those elders with whom she was concerned. She promoted, as it were, their development; nothing could have been more marked for instance than her success in promoting Mrs. Beale's. She judged that if her whole history, for Mrs. Wix, had been the successive stages of her knowledge, so the very climax of the concatenation would, in the same view, be the stage at which the knowledge should overflow. As she was condemned to know more and more, how could it logically stop before she should know Most? It came to her in fact as they sat there on the sands that she was distinctly on the road to know Everything. She had not had governesses for nothing: what in the world had she ever done but learn and learn and learn? She looked at the pink sky with a placid foreboding that she soon should have learnt All. They lingered in the flushed air till at last it turned to grey and she seemed fairly to receive new information from every brush of the breeze. By the time they moved homeward it was as if this inevitability had become for Mrs. Wix a long, tense cord, twitched by a nervous hand, on which the valued pearls of intelligence were to be neatly strung.

She didn’t need to be specific anymore, at least not about the question itself; that was simply the result of their quiet shared understanding of something that—well, yes, since they had to face it—Maisie completely and shockingly lacked. This particularly marked the moment when the child realized that her friend had reached a level that might—until it was eventually surpassed—almost be considered sublime. Nothing more notable had happened during the initial rush of her own departure, no moment of realization less easy to analyze by our rough methods, than her vision that whole day in Boulogne of how she saw herself. I’m so afraid of trying to capture her silent mental steps here that I have to bluntly tell you it became a picture literally present to her from that moment on. Mrs. Wix viewed her as a little person who knew so much that, considering it all, what she still didn’t know would be ridiculous if it hadn’t been so awkward. Mrs. Wix was even more equipped to handle awkwardness now; I’m not sure Maisie didn’t have a vague awareness of the strange pattern in her own life that led her to teach the adults around her to reach that kind of proficiency. She somehow encouraged their growth; nothing stood out more than her success in helping Mrs. Beale. She figured that if her entire history had been the progressive stages of knowledge for Mrs. Wix, then the peak of that sequence would also be the point where knowledge would overflow. As she was destined to learn more and more, how could it logically stop before she knew the Most? It actually struck her while they sat there on the beach that she was clearly on her way to knowing Everything. She hadn’t had governesses for nothing: what had she ever done but learn and learn and learn? She gazed at the pink sky with a calm sense of foreboding that she would soon know it All. They lingered in the warm air until it eventually turned gray, and she seemed to receive new information from every gust of wind. By the time they headed home, it was as if this inevitability had become for Mrs. Wix a long, taut string, pulled by a nervous hand, on which the precious pearls of knowledge were to be neatly strung.

In the evening upstairs they had another strange sensation, as to which Maisie couldn't afterwards have told you whether it was bang in the middle or quite at the beginning that her companion sounded with fresh emphasis the note of the moral sense. What mattered was merely that she did exclaim, and again, as at first appeared, most disconnectedly: "God help me, it does seem to peep out!" Oh the queer confusions that had wooed it at last to such peeping! None so queer, however, as the words of woe, and it might verily be said of rage, in which the poor lady bewailed the tragic end of her own rich ignorance. There was a point at which she seized the child and hugged her as close as in the old days of partings and returns; at which she was visibly at a loss how to make up to such a victim for such contaminations: appealing, as to what she had done and was doing, in bewilderment, in explanation, in supplication, for reassurance, for pardon and even outright for pity.

In the evening upstairs, they experienced another strange feeling, and Maisie couldn't later say if it was right in the middle or at the beginning when her companion emphasized the point of moral awareness. What mattered was that she exclaimed, and again, it seemed quite disconnected at first: "God help me, it really does seem to peek out!" Oh, the strange confusions that had finally led to this peeking! However, none were as strange as the words of sorrow, and it could truly be said of anger, in which the poor lady lamented the tragic end of her own affluent ignorance. There was a moment when she grabbed the child and hugged her tightly like in the old days of goodbyes and reunions; at that point, she seemed genuinely unsure how to make amends to such a victim for these taints: she was appealing, as to what she had done and was doing, in confusion, in explanation, in desperation, seeking reassurance, forgiveness, and even outright compassion.

"I don't know what I've said to you, my own: I don't know what I'm saying or what the turn you've given my life has rendered me, heaven forgive me, capable of saying. Have I lost all delicacy, all decency, all measure of how far and how bad? It seems to me mostly that I have, though I'm the last of whom you would ever have thought it. I've just done it for you, precious—not to lose you, which would have been worst of all: so that I've had to pay with my own innocence, if you do laugh! for clinging to you and keeping you. Don't let me pay for nothing; don't let me have been thrust for nothing into such horrors and such shames. I never knew anything about them and I never wanted to know! Now I know too much, too much!" the poor woman lamented and groaned. "I know so much that with hearing such talk I ask myself where I am; and with uttering it too, which is worse, say to myself that I'm far, too far, from where I started! I ask myself what I should have thought with my lost one if I had heard myself cross the line. There are lines I've crossed with you where I should have fancied I had come to a pretty pass—" She gasped at the mere supposition. "I've gone from one thing to another, and all for the real love of you; and now what would any one say—I mean any one but them—if they were to hear the way I go on? I've had to keep up with you, haven't I?—and therefore what could I do less than look to you to keep up with me? But it's not them that are the worst—by which I mean to say it's not him: it's your dreadfully base papa and the one person in the world whom he could have found, I do believe—and she's not the Countess, duck—wickeder than himself. While they were about it at any rate, since they were ruining you, they might have done it so as to spare an honest woman. Then I shouldn't have had to do whatever it is that's the worst: throw up at you the badness you haven't taken in, or find my advantage in the vileness you have! What I did lose patience at this morning was at how it was that without your seeming to condemn—for you didn't, you remember!—you yet did seem to know. Thank God, in his mercy, at last, if you do!"

"I don't know what I've said to you, my love: I don't know what I'm saying or what the changes you've brought to my life have made me capable of saying. Have I lost all sensitivity, all decency, all sense of how far is too far and how bad is too bad? It feels like I have, even though you would never have thought that of me. I've done it all for you, my dear—not to lose you, which would have been the worst thing of all: so I've had to pay with my own innocence, if you laugh! for clinging to you and holding onto you. Don't let me suffer for nothing; don’t let my plunge into such horrors and shames be in vain. I never knew anything about them, and I never wanted to! Now I know too much, way too much!" the poor woman lamented and groaned. "I know so much that hearing such talk makes me wonder where I am; and voicing it too, which is worse, makes me realize I'm far, far away from where I started! I wonder what I would have thought about my lost one if I had heard myself cross the line. There are lines I've crossed with you where I would have thought I had really hit rock bottom—" She gasped at the mere thought. "I've gone from one thing to another, all out of true love for you; and now, what would anyone say—I mean anyone but them—if they heard the way I act? I've had to keep up with you, right?—so what could I do but expect you to keep up with me? But it's not them that are the worst—by which I mean to say it's not him: it's your terribly wicked father and the one person in the world he could have found, I truly believe—and she’s not the Countess, darling—worse than he is. Since they were at it anyway, ruining you, couldn't they have done it in a way that spared an honest woman? Then I wouldn't have had to do what I'm most ashamed of: throw in your face the badness you haven't accepted, or take advantage of the filth you have! What I lost my patience over this morning was how it seemed that without you seeming to condemn me—for you didn’t, remember!—you still seemed to know. Thank God, in His mercy, at least, if you do!"

The night, this time, was warm, and one of the windows stood open to the small balcony over the rail of which, on coming back from dinner, Maisie had hung a long time in the enjoyment of the chatter, the lights, the life of the quay made brilliant by the season and the hour. Mrs. Wix's requirements had drawn her in from this pasture and Mrs. Wix's embrace had detained her even though midway in the outpouring her confusion and sympathy had permitted, or rather had positively helped, her to disengage herself. But the casement was still wide, the spectacle, the pleasure were still there, and from her place in the room, which, with its polished floor and its panels of elegance, was lighted from without more than from within, the child could still take account of them. She appeared to watch and listen; after which she answered Mrs. Wix with a question. "If I do know—?"

The night was warm this time, and one of the windows was open to the small balcony. After coming back from dinner, Maisie had spent a long time enjoying the chatter, the lights, and the lively atmosphere of the quay, made vibrant by the season and the hour. Mrs. Wix's needs had pulled her away from this enjoyment, and even though Mrs. Wix's embrace had held her back, halfway through the conversation, her confusion and sympathy had allowed—actually, had helped—her to break free. But the window was still wide open, and the scene, the enjoyment were still present. From her spot in the room, which, with its polished floor and elegant panels, was brighter from the outside than from within, she could still take it all in. She seemed to watch and listen before responding to Mrs. Wix with a question. "If I do know—?"

"If you do condemn." The correction was made with some austerity.

"If you do condemn." The correction was made with a certain seriousness.

It had the effect of causing Maisie to heave a vague sigh of oppression and then after an instant and as if under cover of this ambiguity pass out again upon the balcony. She hung again over the rail; she felt the summer night; she dropped down into the manners of France. There was a café below the hotel, before which, with little chairs and tables, people sat on a space enclosed by plants in tubs; and the impression was enriched by the flash of the white aprons of waiters and the music of a man and a woman who, from beyond the precinct, sent up the strum of a guitar and the drawl of a song about "amour." Maisie knew what "amour" meant too, and wondered if Mrs. Wix did: Mrs. Wix remained within, as still as a mouse and perhaps not reached by the performance. After a while, but not till the musicians had ceased and begun to circulate with a little plate, her pupil came back to her. "Is it a crime?" Maisie then asked.

It made Maisie let out a vague sigh of heaviness and then, almost as if to hide behind this uncertainty, step out onto the balcony again. She leaned over the railing; she felt the warmth of the summer night; she relaxed into the casual vibe of France. Below the hotel, there was a café where people sat at little tables surrounded by potted plants, and the atmosphere was enhanced by the flashes of the waiters’ white aprons and the music from a man and a woman who filled the air with the strumming of a guitar and the lazy melody of a song about "love." Maisie knew what "love" meant too, and she wondered if Mrs. Wix did: Mrs. Wix stayed inside, quiet as a mouse and maybe not aware of the performance. After a while, but not until the musicians had finished and started to walk around with a small plate, her pupil returned to her. "Is it a crime?" Maisie asked.

Mrs. Wix was as prompt as if she had been crouching in a lair. "Branded by the Bible."

Mrs. Wix was as quick as if she had been hiding in a den. "Marked by the Bible."

"Well, he won't commit a crime."

"Well, he won't break the law."

Mrs. Wix looked at her gloomily. "He's committing one now."

Mrs. Wix looked at her sadly. "He's doing it right now."

"Now?"

"Right now?"

"In being with her."

"Being with her."

Maisie had it on her tongue's end to return once more: "But now he's free." She remembered, however, in time that one of the things she had known for the last entire hour was that this made no difference. After that, and as if to turn the right way, she was on the point of a blind dash, a weak reversion to the reminder that it might make a difference, might diminish the crime for Mrs. Beale; till such a reflexion was in its order also quashed by the visibility in Mrs. Wix's face of the collapse produced by her inference from her pupil's manner that after all her pains her pupil didn't even yet adequately understand. Never so much as when confronted had Maisie wanted to understand, and all her thought for a minute centred in the effort to come out with something which should be a disproof of her simplicity. "Just trust me, dear; that's all!"—she came out finally with that; and it was perhaps a good sign of her action that with a long, impartial moan Mrs. Wix floated her to bed.

Maisie had it on the tip of her tongue to say again, "But now he's free." However, she quickly remembered that one thing she’d known for the past hour was that this didn’t really change anything. After that, as if trying to think in the right direction, she was about to make a desperate attempt to convince herself that it might matter, that it could lessen the impact for Mrs. Beale; until that thought was also shut down by the look on Mrs. Wix's face, which showed the disappointment that came from realizing her pupil still didn’t fully understand despite all her efforts. Maisie had never wanted to understand more than when she was faced with this situation, and for a moment, all her thoughts were focused on trying to come up with something that would prove she wasn't as simple as they thought. "Just trust me, dear; that's all!"—that’s what she finally said; and it was perhaps a good sign that after a long, resigned sigh, Mrs. Wix helped her to bed.

There was no letter the next morning from Sir Claude—which Mrs. Wix let out that she deemed the worst of omens; yet it was just for the quieter communion they so got with him that, when after the coffee and rolls which made them more foreign than ever, it came to going forth for fresh drafts upon his credit they wandered again up the hill to the rampart instead of plunging into distraction with the crowd on the sands or into the sea with the semi-nude bathers. They gazed once more at their gilded Virgin; they sank once more upon their battered bench; they felt once more their distance from the Regent's Park. At last Mrs. Wix became definite about their friend's silence. "He is afraid of her! She has forbidden him to write." The fact of his fear Maisie already knew; but her companion's mention of it had at this moment two unexpected results. The first was her wondering in dumb remonstrance how Mrs. Wix, with a devotion not after all inferior to her own, could put into such an allusion such a grimness of derision; the second was that she found herself suddenly drop into a deeper view of it. She too had been afraid, as we have seen, of the people of whom Sir Claude was afraid, and by that law she had had her due measure of latest apprehension of Mrs. Beale. What occurred at present, however, was that, whereas this sympathy appeared vain as for him, the ground of it loomed dimly as a reason for selfish alarm. That uneasiness had not carried her far before Mrs. Wix spoke again and with an abruptness so great as almost to seem irrelevant. "Has it never occurred to you to be jealous of her?"

There was no letter the next morning from Sir Claude—which Mrs. Wix said she thought was the worst sign; yet it was just for the quieter connection they felt with him that, after the coffee and rolls which made them feel more foreign than ever, they chose to walk back up the hill to the rampart instead of getting lost in the crowd on the beach or diving into the sea with the nearly-naked bathers. They looked once more at their gilded Virgin; they settled again onto their worn bench; they sensed again their distance from Regent's Park. Finally, Mrs. Wix became clear about their friend's silence. "He is afraid of her! She has told him not to write." Maisie already knew about his fear; but her companion's remark brought about two unexpected reactions. The first was her silent protest, wondering how Mrs. Wix, with a devotion that wasn't any less than her own, could express such a harshness in her comment; the second was that she suddenly found herself delving into a deeper perspective on it. She too had been afraid, as we have seen, of the people Sir Claude feared, and by that logic, she had felt her share of the latest worries about Mrs. Beale. What happened now, however, was that, while this empathy felt useless for him, the basis of it loomed dimly, revealing a reason for her own selfish fear. That discomfort hadn’t taken her far before Mrs. Wix spoke again, her abruptness so great it almost seemed out of place. "Has it never crossed your mind to be jealous of her?"

It never had in the least; yet the words were scarce in the air before Maisie had jumped at them. She held them well, she looked at them hard; at last she brought out with an assurance which there was no one, alas, but herself to admire: "Well, yes—since you ask me." She debated, then continued: "Lots of times!"

It never really did; yet the words barely hung in the air before Maisie jumped at them. She grabbed onto them tightly, focusing on them intensely; finally, she said with a confidence that, unfortunately, only she could admire: "Well, yes—since you asked me." She thought for a moment, then added: "A lot of times!"

Mrs. Wix glared askance an instant; such approval as her look expressed was not wholly unqualified. It expressed at any rate something that presumably had to do with her saying once more: "Yes. He's afraid of her."

Mrs. Wix shot a sideways glare for a moment; the approval in her expression wasn't completely positive. It conveyed, at the very least, something that likely related to her saying again: "Yes. He's afraid of her."

Maisie heard, and it had afresh its effect on her even through the blur of the attention now required by the possibility of that idea of jealousy—a possibility created only by her feeling she had thus found the way to show she was not simple. It struck out of Mrs. Wix that this lady still believed her moral sense to be interested and feigned; so what could be such a gage of her sincerity as a peep of the most restless of the passions? Such a revelation would baffle discouragement, and discouragement was in fact so baffled that, helped in some degree by the mere intensity of their need to hope, which also, according to its nature, sprang from the dark portent of the absent letter, the real pitch of their morning was reached by the note, not of mutual scrutiny, but of unprecedented frankness. There were broodings indeed and silences, and Maisie sank deeper into the vision that for her friend she was, at the most, superficial, and that also, positively, she was the more so the more she tried to appear complete. Was the sum of all knowledge only to know how little in this presence one would ever reach it? The answer to that question luckily lost itself in the brightness suffusing the scene as soon as Maisie had thrown out in regard to Mrs. Beale such a remark as she had never dreamed she should live to make. "If I thought she was unkind to him—I don't know what I should do!"

Maisie heard, and it hit her again, even through the haze of attention now required by the idea of jealousy—a thought that arose from her realization that she had found a way to prove she wasn't naive. It became clear that Mrs. Wix still thought her moral sense was insincere and pretending; so what could possibly measure her sincerity better than a glimpse of the most intense of emotions? Such a revelation would confuse discouragement, and in fact, that discouragement was so thrown off that, partly due to their strong need for hope, which also arose from the dark omen of the missing letter, the true mood of their morning was defined not by careful examination but by unprecedented openness. There were indeed moments of deep thought and silence, and Maisie felt she was, at the most, superficial in her friend's eyes, and that the more she tried to seem complete, the more superficial she appeared. Was accumulating all knowledge just realizing how little one could ever reach it in this situation? Fortunately, that question faded away in the brightness that filled the scene as soon as Maisie made a comment about Mrs. Beale that she never imagined she’d actually say. "If I thought she was unkind to him—I don't know what I would do!"

Mrs. Wix dropped one of her squints; she even confirmed it by a wild grunt. "I know what I should!"

Mrs. Wix dropped one of her glares; she even backed it up with a loud grunt. "I know what I should!"

Maisie at this felt that she lagged. "Well, I can think of one thing."

Maisie felt like she was falling behind. "Well, I can think of one thing."

Mrs. Wix more directly challenged her. "What is it then?"

Mrs. Wix directly confronted her. "What is it then?"

Maisie met her expression as if it were a game with forfeits for winking. "I'd kill her!" That at least, she hoped as she looked away, would guarantee her moral sense. She looked away, but her companion said nothing for so long that she at last turned her head again. Then she saw the straighteners all blurred with tears which after a little seemed to have sprung from her own eyes. There were tears in fact on both sides of the spectacles, and they were even so thick that it was presently all Maisie could do to make out through them that slowly, finally Mrs. Wix put forth a hand. It was the material pressure that settled this and even at the end of some minutes more things besides. It settled in its own way one thing in particular, which, though often, between them, heaven knew, hovered round and hung over, was yet to be established without the shadow of an attenuating smile. Oh there was no gleam of levity, as little of humour as of deprecation, in the long time they now sat together or in the way in which at some unmeasured point of it Mrs. Wix became distinct enough for her own dignity and yet not loud enough for the snoozing old women.

Maisie faced her expression as if it were a game with penalties for winking. "I'd kill her!" she thought, hoping that would clear her moral conscience. She looked away, but her companion stayed silent for so long that she eventually turned her head again. Then she noticed the tears blurring her glasses, which seemed to have come from her own eyes. There were tears on both sides of the glasses, and they were so thick that it was getting hard for Maisie to see as Mrs. Wix slowly extended her hand. It was the physical contact that made this moment real, and after several more minutes, it settled not just one thing but a few more. In its own way, it established something in particular, which, though it had often loomed between them, was nonetheless brought into focus without the faintest hint of a teasing smile. There was no trace of lightness, little humor, and no downplaying of the situation in the long stretch of time they sat together or in how, at some indeterminate moment, Mrs. Wix became clear enough for her own dignity, yet not loud enough to disturb the dozing old women.

"I adore him. I adore him."

"I love him. I love him."

Maisie took it well in; so well that in a moment more she would have answered profoundly: "So do I." But before that moment passed something took place that brought other words to her lips; nothing more, very possibly, than the closer consciousness in her hand of the significance of Mrs. Wix's. Their hands remained linked in unutterable sign of their union, and what Maisie at last said was simply and serenely: "Oh I know!"

Maisie handled it well; so well that in another moment she would have replied deeply: "So do I." But before that moment arrived, something happened that made her say different words; likely just a heightened awareness of the significance of Mrs. Wix's. Their hands stayed intertwined in an indescribable sign of their connection, and what Maisie ultimately said was simply and calmly: "Oh, I know!"

Their hands were so linked and their union was so confirmed that it took the far deep note of a bell, borne to them on the summer air, to call them back to a sense of hours and proprieties. They had touched bottom and melted together, but they gave a start at last: the bell was the voice of the inn and the inn was the image of luncheon. They should be late for it; they got up, and their quickened step on the return had something of the swing of confidence. When they reached the hotel the table d'hôte had begun; this was clear from the threshold, clear from the absence in the hall and on the stairs of the "personnel," as Mrs. Wix said—she had picked that up—all collected in the dining-room. They mounted to their apartments for a brush before the glass, and it was Maisie who, in passing and from a vain impulse, threw open the white and gold door. She was thus first to utter the sound that brought Mrs. Wix almost on top of her, as by the other accident it would have brought her on top of Mrs. Wix. It had at any rate the effect of leaving them bunched together in a strained stare at their new situation. This situation had put on in a flash the bright form of Mrs. Beale: she stood there in her hat and her jacket, amid bags and shawls, smiling and holding out her arms. If she had just arrived it was a different figure from either of the two that for their benefit, wan and tottering and none too soon to save life, the Channel had recently disgorged. She was as lovely as the day that had brought her over, as fresh as the luck and the health that attended her: it came to Maisie on the spot that she was more beautiful than she had ever been. All this was too quick to count, but there was still time in it to give the child the sense of what had kindled the light. That leaped out of the open arms, the open eyes, the open mouth; it leaped out with Mrs. Beale's loud cry at her: "I'm free, I'm free!"

Their hands were so intertwined and their bond was so strong that it took the deep sound of a bell, carried to them by the summer air, to remind them of time and social norms. They had reached a deeper connection and merged together, but eventually, they startled awake: the bell signaled the inn, and the inn reminded them it was time for lunch. They were going to be late; they stood up, and their hurried steps back had a swing of confidence. When they arrived at the hotel, the table d'hôte had already started; this was obvious from the entrance, clear from the lack of staff in the hall and on the stairs, as Mrs. Wix would say—she had picked that up—all gathered in the dining room. They went upstairs to their rooms to freshen up, and it was Maisie who, in passing and out of a momentary impulse, threw open the white and gold door. She was the first to make the sound that almost brought Mrs. Wix crashing into her, just as the previous situation would have caused her to collide with Mrs. Wix. In any case, it left them in a tense stare at their new situation. This moment suddenly revealed the bright figure of Mrs. Beale: she stood there in her hat and jacket, surrounded by bags and shawls, smiling and reaching out her arms. If she had just arrived, she was a different woman than the one the Channel had recently spat out for their benefit, pale and shaky and barely in time to save herself. She was as lovely as the day that brought her over, as fresh as the good fortune and health that accompanied her: it struck Maisie right then that she was more beautiful than ever before. All of this happened too quickly to process, but there was still time for the child to feel what had ignited the light. That light burst forth from the open arms, the open eyes, the open mouth; it burst forth with Mrs. Beale's loud cry at her: "I'm free, I'm free!"

 

 

XXVII
 

The greatest wonder of all was the way Mrs. Beale addressed her announcement, so far as could be judged, equally to Mrs. Wix, who, as if from sudden failure of strength, sank into a chair while Maisie surrendered to the visitor's embrace. As soon as the child was liberated she met with profundity Mrs. Wix's stupefaction and actually was able to see that while in a manner sustaining the encounter her face yet seemed with intensity to say: "Now, for God's sake, don't crow 'I told you so!'" Maisie was somehow on the spot aware of an absence of disposition to crow; it had taken her but an extra minute to arrive at such a quick survey of the objects surrounding Mrs. Beale as showed that among them was no appurtenance of Sir Claude's. She knew his dressing-bag now—oh with the fondest knowledge!—and there was an instant during which its not being there was a stroke of the worst news. She was yet to learn what it could be to recognise in some lapse of a sequence the proof of an extinction, and therefore remained unaware that this momentary pang was a foretaste of the experience of death. It of course yielded in a flash to Mrs. Beale's brightness, it gasped itself away in her own instant appeal. "You've come alone?"

The biggest surprise of all was how Mrs. Beale delivered her news, seemingly addressing it equally to Mrs. Wix, who, as if she suddenly lost her strength, sank into a chair while Maisie surrendered to the visitor's hug. As soon as the child was freed, she was met with the deep confusion of Mrs. Wix and was actually able to see that, while trying to handle the situation, her face seemed to intensely say: "Now, please, don't say 'I told you so!'" Maisie somehow sensed there was no intention to gloat; it only took her a moment to quickly assess the surroundings of Mrs. Beale, realizing that there was no sign of Sir Claude. She recognized his dressing bag now—oh, with the fondest recognition!—and there was a moment when its absence felt like the worst news. She was still to understand what it meant to see in some break of a sequence the evidence of a loss, and thus remained unaware that this fleeting pain was a hint of the experience of loss. It quickly faded in a flash due to Mrs. Beale's bright presence, getting overshadowed by her immediate appeal. "You’ve come alone?"

"Without Sir Claude?" Strangely, Mrs. Beale looked even brighter. "Yes; in the eagerness to get at you. You abominable little villain!"—and her stepmother, laughing clear, administered to her cheek a pat that was partly a pinch. "What were you up to and what did you take me for? But I'm glad to be abroad, and after all it's you who have shown me the way. I mightn't, without you, have been able to come—to come, that is, so soon. Well, here I am at any rate and in a moment more I should have begun to worry about you. This will do very well"—she was good-natured about the place and even presently added that it was charming. Then with a rosier glow she made again her great point: "I'm free, I'm free!" Maisie made on her side her own: she carried back her gaze to Mrs. Wix, whom amazement continued to hold; she drew afresh her old friend's attention to the superior way she didn't take that up. What she did take up the next minute was the question of Sir Claude. "Where is he? Won't he come?"

"Without Sir Claude?" Oddly enough, Mrs. Beale seemed even happier. "Yes; I was so eager to see you. You terrible little rascal!"—and her stepmother laughed out loud and gave her cheek a playful poke that was also a bit of a pinch. "What were you up to, and what did you think I meant? But I'm glad to be out and about, and really, it’s you who showed me the way. I might not have been able to come—well, not this soon anyway—if it weren't for you. Anyway, I'm here now, and in another moment, I would have started to worry about you. This place is just fine,"—she was in a good mood about the location and even later added that it was lovely. Then, with a brighter smile, she emphasized her main point again: "I'm free, I'm free!" Maisie, on her part, focused back on Mrs. Wix, who was still in shock; she redirected her old friend's attention to how gracefully she avoided that issue. What she brought up next was the topic of Sir Claude. "Where is he? Isn't he coming?"

Mrs. Beale's consideration of this oscillated with a smile between the two expectancies with which she was flanked: it was conspicuous, it was extraordinary, her unblinking acceptance of Mrs. Wix, a miracle of which Maisie had even now begun to read a reflexion in that lady's long visage. "He'll come, but we must make him!" she gaily brought forth.

Mrs. Beale's thoughts bounced back and forth with a smile between the two expectations on either side of her: it was noticeable, it was remarkable, her unwavering acceptance of Mrs. Wix, a miracle that Maisie had even begun to see reflected in the woman's long face. "He'll come, but we have to make him!" she said cheerfully.

"Make him?" Maisie echoed.

"Make him?" Maisie repeated.

"We must give him time. We must play our cards."

"We need to give him some time. We have to play our cards right."

"But he promised us awfully," Maisie replied.

"But he promised us a lot," Maisie replied.

"My dear child, he has promised me awfully; I mean lots of things, and not in every case kept his promise to the letter." Mrs. Beale's good humour insisted on taking for granted Mrs. Wix's, to whom her attention had suddenly grown prodigious. "I dare say he has done the same with you, and not always come to time. But he makes it up in his own way—and it isn't as if we didn't know exactly what he is. There's one thing he is," she went on, "which makes everything else only a question, for us, of tact." They scarce had time to wonder what this was before, as they might have said, it flew straight into their face. "He's as free as I am!"

"My dear child, he has made a lot of promises to me, and honestly, he hasn’t always kept them exactly as he said he would." Mrs. Beale’s good mood assumed that Mrs. Wix felt the same way, to whom her focus had suddenly shifted greatly. "I’m sure he has done the same with you and hasn’t always been reliable. But he makes up for it in his own way—and it’s not like we don’t know exactly who he is. There’s one thing he definitely is,” she continued, “which makes everything else just a matter of how we handle it.” They barely had time to wonder what that was before, as they might have put it, it hit them right in the face. “He’s as free as I am!”

"Yes, I know," said Maisie; as if, however, independently weighing the value of that. She really weighed also the oddity of her stepmother's treating it as news to her, who had been the first person literally to whom Sir Claude had mentioned it. For a few seconds, as if with the sound of it in her ears, she stood with him again, in memory and in the twilight, in the hotel garden at Folkestone.

"Yeah, I know," Maisie said, as if she were considering how important that was. She was also reflecting on how strange it was that her stepmother treated it as something new to her, when she had been the very first person Sir Claude had mentioned it to. For a few seconds, almost as if she could still hear it, she stood with him again, recalling that moment in the fading light, in the hotel garden at Folkestone.

Anything Mrs. Beale overlooked was, she indeed divined, but the effect of an exaltation of high spirits, a tendency to soar that showed even when she dropped—still quite impartially—almost to the confidential. "Well, then—we've only to wait. He can't do without us long. I'm sure, Mrs. Wix, he can't do without you! He's devoted to you; he has told me so much about you. The extent I count on you, you know, count on you to help me—" was an extent that even all her radiance couldn't express. What it couldn't express quite as much as what it could made at any rate every instant her presence and even her famous freedom loom larger; and it was this mighty mass that once more led her companions, bewildered and disjoined, to exchange with each other as through a thickening veil confused and ineffectual signs. They clung together at least on the common ground of unpreparedness, and Maisie watched without relief the havoc of wonder in Mrs. Wix. It had reduced her to perfect impotence, and, but that gloom was black upon her, she sat as if fascinated by Mrs. Beale's high style. It had plunged her into a long deep hush; for what had happened was the thing she had least allowed for and before which the particular rigour she had worked up could only grow limp and sick. Sir Claude was to have reappeared with his accomplice or without her; never, never his accomplice without him. Mrs. Beale had gained apparently by this time an advantage she could pursue: she looked at the droll dumb figure with jesting reproach. "You really won't shake hands with me? Never mind; you'll come round!" She put the matter to no test, going on immediately and, instead of offering her hand, raising it, with a pretty gesture that her bent head met, to a long black pin that played a part in her back hair. "Are hats worn at luncheon? If you're as hungry as I am we must go right down."

Anything Mrs. Beale missed, she definitely sensed, but it was the effect of feeling uplifted, a tendency to rise that showed even when she dropped—still quite fairly—almost to the confidential. "Well, then—we just have to wait. He can’t be without us for long. I'm sure, Mrs. Wix, he can’t be without you! He's devoted to you; he’s told me so much about you. The extent I rely on you, you know, rely on you to help me—" was a level that even all her brightness couldn't fully convey. What it couldn’t express just as much as what it could made, at any rate, her presence and even her well-known freedom seem even more significant; and it was this overwhelming force that once again led her companions, confused and disconnected, to exchange perplexed and ineffective signs through a thickening veil. They held onto each other at least on the shared ground of being unprepared, and Maisie watched without relief the chaos of wonder in Mrs. Wix. It had reduced her to total powerlessness, and, if not for the heavy gloom around her, she sat as if captivated by Mrs. Beale’s elevated manner. It had thrown her into a long, deep silence; for what had happened was the last thing she had anticipated, and before it, the strictness she had built up could only become weak and sickly. Sir Claude was supposed to return with his accomplice or without her; never, ever his accomplice without him. By this time, Mrs. Beale seemed to have gained an advantage she could follow: she looked at the funny, silent figure with playful reproach. "You really won’t shake hands with me? Never mind; you’ll come around!" She didn’t test it, moving on immediately and, instead of offering her hand, raising it, with a charming gesture that her tilted head met, to a long black pin that played a part in her hair. "Are hats worn at lunch? If you’re as hungry as I am, we should go right down."

Mrs. Wix stuck fast, but she met the question in a voice her pupil scarce recognised. "I wear mine."

Mrs. Wix held her ground, but she answered the question in a voice her student barely recognized. "I wear mine."

Mrs. Beale, swallowing at one glance her brand-new bravery, which she appeared at once to refer to its origin and to follow in its flights, accepted this as conclusive. "Oh but I've not such a beauty!" Then she turned rejoicingly to Maisie. "I've got a beauty for you my dear."

Mrs. Beale, quickly taking in her newfound courage, which she seemed to acknowledge as its source and trace in its movements, accepted this as final. "Oh, but I don't have such a beauty!" Then she turned happily to Maisie. "I've got a beauty for you, my dear."

"A beauty?"

"A beauty?"

"A love of a hat—in my luggage. I remembered that"—she nodded at the object on her stepdaughter's head—"and I've brought you one with a peacock's breast. It's the most gorgeous blue!"

"A love for a hat—in my luggage. I remembered that"—she nodded at the item on her stepdaughter's head—"and I've brought you one with a peacock's feather. It's the most beautiful blue!"

It was too strange, this talking with her there already not about Sir Claude but about peacocks—too strange for the child to have the presence of mind to thank her. But the felicity in which she had arrived was so proof against everything that Maisie felt more and more the depth of the purpose that must underlie it. She had a vague sense of its being abysmal, the spirit with which Mrs. Beale carried off the awkwardness, in the white and gold salon, of such a want of breath and of welcome. Mrs. Wix was more breathless than ever; the embarrassment of Mrs. Beale's isolation was as nothing to the embarrassment of her grace. The perception of this dilemma was the germ on the child's part of a new question altogether. What if with this indulgence—? But the idea lost itself in something too frightened for hope and too conjectured for fear; and while everything went by leaps and bounds one of the waiters stood at the door to remind them that the table d'hôte was half over.

It was so strange, chatting with her about peacocks instead of Sir Claude—way too strange for the child to even think about thanking her. But the happiness she exuded was so strong that Maisie felt increasingly aware of the deep purpose behind it. She had a vague sense that it was profound, the way Mrs. Beale handled the awkwardness in the white and gold salon, despite the lack of breath and warmth. Mrs. Wix seemed more breathless than ever; the awkwardness of Mrs. Beale's solitude was nothing compared to Mrs. Wix’s own grace. This realization sparked a new question for the child. What if with this indulgence—? But the thought faded into something too scared for hope and too uncertain for fear; and while everything moved quickly, one of the waiters stood at the door to remind them that the table d'hôte was halfway through.

"Had you come up to wash hands?" Mrs. Beale hereupon asked them. "Go and do it quickly and I'll be with you: they've put my boxes in that nice room—it was Sir Claude's. Trust him," she laughed, "to have a nice one!" The door of a neighbouring room stood open, and now from the threshold, addressing herself again to Mrs. Wix, she launched a note that gave the very key of what, as she would have said, she was up to. "Dear lady, please attend to my daughter."

"Did you come up to wash your hands?" Mrs. Beale then asked them. "Go do it quickly, and I'll join you: they've put my boxes in that nice room—it used to be Sir Claude's. Leave it to him," she laughed, "to have a nice one!" The door of a nearby room was open, and now from the threshold, turning to Mrs. Wix again, she sent out a message that revealed exactly what she was planning, as she would have put it. "Dear lady, please look after my daughter."

She was up to a change of deportment so complete that it represented—oh for offices still honourably subordinate if not too explicitly menial—an absolute coercion, an interested clutch of the old woman's respectability. There was response, to Maisie's view, I may say at once, in the jump of that respectability to its feet: it was itself capable of one of the leaps, one of the bounds just mentioned, and it carried its charge, with this momentum and while Mrs. Beale popped into Sir Claude's chamber, straight away to where, at the end of the passage, pupil and governess were quartered. The greatest stride of all, for that matter, was that within a few seconds the pupil had, in another relation, been converted into a daughter. Maisie's eyes were still following it when, after the rush, with the door almost slammed and no thought of soap and towels, the pair stood face to face. Mrs. Wix, in this position, was the first to gasp a sound. "Can it ever be that she has one?"

She had made such a complete change in her behavior that it felt—oh, for roles that are still honorably subordinate even if not explicitly menial—like an overwhelming pressure, a determined hold on the old woman's respectability. Maisie immediately noticed that respectability sprang to life: it was capable of one of those leaps mentioned earlier, and it carried its burden with that same energy. While Mrs. Beale dashed into Sir Claude's room, the momentum took them straight to where, at the end of the hallway, pupil and governess were staying. The biggest change of all was that in just a few seconds, the pupil had, in another sense, become a daughter. Maisie's gaze was still following them when, after the rush, the door nearly slammed shut and there was no time to think about soap and towels, the two stood facing each other. In that moment, Mrs. Wix was the first to let out a sound. "Is it possible that she has one?"

Maisie felt still more bewildered. "One what?"

Maisie felt even more confused. "One what?"

"Why moral sense."

"Why have a moral sense?"

They spoke as if you might have two, but Mrs. Wix looked as if it were not altogether a happy thought, and Maisie didn't see how even an affirmative from her own lips would clear up what had become most of a mystery. It was to this larger puzzle she sprang pretty straight. "Is she my mother now?"

They talked as if you could have two, but Mrs. Wix seemed like that wasn't a very happy idea, and Maisie couldn't understand how even a yes from her own mouth would solve what had turned into a big mystery. It was this bigger puzzle that she jumped right into. "Is she my mother now?"

It was a point as to which an horrific glimpse of the responsibility of an opinion appeared to affect Mrs. Wix like a blow in the stomach. She had evidently never thought of it; but she could think and rebound. "If she is, he's equally your father."

It was a moment when a shocking realization about the weight of an opinion hit Mrs. Wix like a punch in the gut. She clearly had never considered it before, but she was able to process it and respond. "If she is, then he's also your father."

Maisie, however, thought further. "Then my father and my mother—!"

Maisie, however, thought more about it. "So my dad and my mom—!"

But she had already faltered and Mrs. Wix had already glared back: "Ought to live together? Don't begin it again!" She turned away with a groan, to reach the washing-stand, and Maisie could by this time recognise with a certain ease that that way verily madness did lie. Mrs. Wix gave a great untidy splash, but the next instant had faced round. "She has taken a new line."

But she had already hesitated and Mrs. Wix had already shot her an angry look: "Should we really live together? Don’t start this again!" She turned away with a sigh, moving toward the sink, and by now, Maisie could easily see that this path truly led to madness. Mrs. Wix made a big messy splash, but the next moment she turned around. "She’s going for a different approach."

"She was nice to you," Maisie concurred.

"She was nice to you," Maisie agreed.

"What she thinks so—'go and dress the young lady!' But it's something!" she panted. Then she thought out the rest. "If he won't have her, why she'll have you. She'll be the one."

"What she thinks is—'go and get the young lady ready!' But it’s something!" she breathed heavily. Then she figured out the rest. "If he doesn’t want her, then she’ll want you. She’ll be the one."

"The one to keep me abroad?"

"The one who's keeping me overseas?"

"The one to give you a home." Mrs. Wix saw further; she mastered all the portents. "Oh she's cruelly clever! It's not a moral sense." She reached her climax: "It's a game!"

"The one to give you a home." Mrs. Wix understood more; she saw all the signs. "Oh she's wickedly smart! It's not a sense of right and wrong." She reached her peak: "It's a game!"

"A game?"

"Is it a game?"

"Not to lose him. She has sacrificed him—to her duty."

"Not to lose him. She has sacrificed him—to her responsibilities."

"Then won't he come?" Maisie pleaded.

"Then isn't he coming?" Maisie begged.

Mrs. Wix made no answer; her vision absorbed her. "He has fought. But she has won."

Mrs. Wix didn’t respond; she was lost in thought. "He has fought. But she has won."

"Then won't he come?" the child repeated.

"Then won't he come?" the child asked again.

Mrs. Wix made it out. "Yes, hang him!" She had never been so profane.

Mrs. Wix managed to get it out. "Yes, hang him!" She had never been so vulgar.

For all Maisie minded! "Soon—to-morrow?"

For all Maisie fans! "Soon—tomorrow?"

"Too soon—whenever. Indecently soon."

"Too soon—whenever. Unbelievably soon."

"But then we shall be together!" the child went on. It made Mrs. Wix look at her as if in exasperation; but nothing had time to come before she precipitated: "Together with you!" The air of criticism continued, but took voice only in her companion's bidding her wash herself and come down. The silence of quick ablutions fell upon them, presently broken, however, by one of Maisie's sudden reversions. "Mercy, isn't she handsome?"

"But then we will be together!" the child continued. It made Mrs. Wix look at her in exasperation; but before anything else could happen, she exclaimed, "Together with you!" The critical atmosphere lingered, but only expressed itself through her friend's insistence that she wash up and come downstairs. They fell into a quick routine of washing up, which was soon interrupted by one of Maisie's sudden changes of topic. "Wow, isn't she gorgeous?"

Mrs. Wix had finished; she waited. "She'll attract attention." They were rapid, and it would have been noticed that the shock the beauty had given them acted, incongruously, as a positive spur to their preparations for rejoining her. She had none the less, when they returned to the sitting-room, already descended; the open door of her room showed it empty and the chambermaid explained. Here again they were delayed by another sharp thought of Mrs. Wix's. "But what will she live on meanwhile?"

Mrs. Wix had finished; she waited. "She'll draw attention." They were quick, and it would have been clear that the shock from the beauty propelled them, oddly enough, to hurry their preparations to join her. However, when they returned to the sitting room, she had already gone down; the open door of her room revealed it was empty and the chambermaid explained. They were once again held back by another sharp concern about Mrs. Wix's situation. "But what will she eat in the meantime?"

Maisie stopped short. "Till Sir Claude comes?"

Maisie halted abruptly. "Until Sir Claude arrives?"

It was nothing to the violence with which her friend had been arrested. "Who'll pay the bills?"

It was nothing compared to the violence with which her friend had been arrested. "Who’s going to pay the bills?"

Maisie thought. "Can't she?"

Maisie thought, "Can't she?"

"She? She hasn't a penny."

"She? She doesn't have a penny."

The child wondered. "But didn't papa—?"

The child wondered, "But didn’t Dad—?"

"Leave her a fortune?" Mrs. Wix would have appeared to speak of papa as dead had she not immediately added: "Why he lives on other women!"

"Leave her a fortune?" Mrs. Wix would have seemed to be talking about dad as if he were dead if she hadn't quickly added: "But he survives on other women!"

Oh yes, Maisie remembered. "Then can't he send—" She faltered again; even to herself it sounded queer.

Oh yes, Maisie remembered. "So can't he send—" She hesitated again; even to herself it sounded strange.

"Some of their money to his wife?" Mrs. Wix pave a laugh still stranger than the weird suggestion. "I dare say she'd take it!"

"Some of their money to his wife?" Mrs. Wix let out a laugh that was even weirder than the strange suggestion. "I bet she'd take it!"

They hurried on again; yet again, on the stairs, Maisie pulled up. "Well, if she had stopped in England—!" she threw out.

They rushed forward again; once more, on the stairs, Maisie paused. "Well, if she had just stayed in England—!" she exclaimed.

Mrs. Wix considered. "And he had come over instead?"

Mrs. Wix thought for a moment. "So he came over instead?"

"Yes, as we expected." Maisie launched her speculation. "What then would she have lived on?"

"Yeah, just like we thought." Maisie started her guess. "So what would she have survived on?"

Mrs. Wix hung fire but an instant. "On other men!" And she marched downstairs.

Mrs. Wix hesitated for just a moment. "On other men!" Then she marched downstairs.

 

 

XXVIII
 

Mrs. Beale, at table between the pair, plainly attracted the attention Mrs. Wix had foretold. No other lady present was nearly so handsome, nor did the beauty of any other accommodate itself with such art to the homage it produced. She talked mainly to her other neighbour, and that left Maisie leisure both to note the manner in which eyes were riveted and nudges interchanged, and to lose herself in the meanings that, dimly as yet and disconnectedly, but with a vividness that fed apprehension, she could begin to read into her stepmother's independent move. Mrs. Wix had helped her by talking of a game; it was a connexion in which the move could put on a strategic air. Her notions of diplomacy were thin, but it was a kind of cold diplomatic shoulder and an elbow of more than usual point that, temporarily at least, were presented to her by the averted inclination of Mrs. Beale's head. There was a phrase familiar to Maisie, so often was it used by this lady to express the idea of one's getting what one wanted: one got it—Mrs. Beale always said she at all events always got it or proposed to get it—by "making love." She was at present making love, singular as it appeared, to Mrs. Wix, and her young friend's mind had never moved in such freedom as on thus finding itself face to face with the question of what she wanted to get. This period of the omelette aux rognons and the poulet sauté, while her sole surviving parent, her fourth, fairly chattered to her governess, left Maisie rather wondering if her governess would hold out. It was strange, but she became on the spot quite as interested in Mrs. Wix's moral sense as Mrs. Wix could possibly be in hers: it had risen before her so pressingly that this was something new for Mrs. Wix to resist. Resisting Mrs. Beale herself promised at such a rate to become a very different business from resisting Sir Claude's view of her. More might come of what had happened—whatever it was—than Maisie felt she could have expected. She put it together with a suspicion that, had she ever in her life had a sovereign changed, would have resembled an impression, baffled by the want of arithmetic, that her change was wrong: she groped about in it that she was perhaps playing the passive part in a case of violent substitution. A victim was what she should surely be if the issue between her step-parents had been settled by Mrs. Beale's saying: "Well, if she can live with but one of us alone, with which in the world should it be but me?" That answer was far from what, for days, she had nursed herself in, and the desolation of it was deepened by the absence of anything from Sir Claude to show he had not had to take it as triumphant. Had not Mrs. Beale, upstairs, as good as given out that she had quitted him with the snap of a tension, left him, dropped him in London, after some struggle as a sequel to which her own advent represented that she had practically sacrificed him? Maisie assisted in fancy at the probable episode in the Regent's Park, finding elements almost of terror in the suggestion that Sir Claude had not had fair play. They drew something, as she sat there, even from the pride of an association with such beauty as Mrs. Beale's; and the child quite forgot that, though the sacrifice of Mrs. Beale herself was a solution she had not invented, she would probably have seen Sir Claude embark upon it without a direct remonstrance.

Mrs. Beale, sitting between the two of them, clearly caught the attention that Mrs. Wix had predicted. No other woman at the table was nearly as beautiful, nor did anyone else’s looks so skillfully play along with the admiration they inspired. She mostly spoke to her other neighbor, which allowed Maisie time to observe the way people were staring and exchanging nudges, as well as to get lost in the vague but intense meanings she was beginning to grasp about her stepmother’s bold actions. Mrs. Wix had helped her see it as a game; it was a situation where a move could seem strategic. Her understanding of diplomacy was limited, but it was a sort of cold shoulder and an unusually sharp elbow that Mrs. Beale’s turned head presented to her, at least for the moment. There was a phrase Maisie knew well, often used by this lady to express the idea of getting what one wanted: Mrs. Beale always said she, at least, always got it or planned to get it by "making love." Right now, as odd as it seemed, she was making love to Mrs. Wix, and Maisie's mind had never been so free as when confronted with the question of what she wanted to achieve. During the course of the omelette aux rognons and the poulet sauté, while her only remaining parent, her fourth, chatted away with her governess, Maisie found herself wondering if her governess would keep it together. It was strange, but right then, she became just as interested in Mrs. Wix's moral compass as Mrs. Wix could possibly be in hers: it was pressing enough that this was something new for Mrs. Wix to push against. Resisting Mrs. Beale herself promised to be a very different challenge from resisting Sir Claude's perspective. More could come from what had happened—whatever that was—than Maisie thought possible. She started to suspect that if she had ever changed a sovereign, it would have been like realizing her change was incorrect due to a lack of arithmetic: she was fumbling through it, possibly playing the passive role in a shocking case of substitution. She should undoubtedly feel like a victim if the conflict between her step-parents had been settled by Mrs. Beale saying, "Well, if she can live with just one of us, who should it be but me?" That answer was far from what she had been preparing herself for, and the sadness of it was intensified by the absence of any indication from Sir Claude that he hadn't taken it as a victory. Hadn’t Mrs. Beale practically announced upstairs that she’d left him with a snap of tension, dropped him in London after a struggle, and that her arrival meant she had basically sacrificed him? Maisie imagined the likely scene in Regent's Park, feeling a sense of dread at the idea that Sir Claude hadn’t gotten a fair chance. Sitting there, they drew some strength even from the pride of being associated with such beauty as Mrs. Beale’s; and the child completely forgot that, although the sacrifice of Mrs. Beale was a resolution she hadn’t come up with herself, she probably would have watched Sir Claude take that path without a direct objection.

What her stepmother had clearly now promised herself to wring from Mrs. Wix was an assent to the great modification, the change, as smart as a juggler's trick, in the interest of which nothing so much mattered as the new convenience of Mrs. Beale. Maisie could positively seize the moral that her elbow seemed to point in ribs thinly defended—the moral of its not mattering a straw which of the step-parents was the guardian. The essence of the question was that a girl wasn't a boy: if Maisie had been a mere rough trousered thing, destined at the best probably to grow up a scamp, Sir Claude would have been welcome. As the case stood he had simply tumbled out of it, and Mrs. Wix would henceforth find herself in the employ of the right person. These arguments had really fallen into their place, for our young friend, at the very touch of that tone in which she had heard her new title declared. She was still, as a result of so many parents, a daughter to somebody even after papa and mamma were to all intents dead. If her father's wife and her mother's husband, by the operation of a natural or, for all she knew, a legal rule, were in the shoes of their defunct partners, then Mrs. Beale's partner was exactly as defunct as Sir Claude's and her shoes the very pair to which, in "Farange v. Farange and Others," the divorce court had given priority. The subject of that celebrated settlement saw the rest of her day really filled out with the pomp of all that Mrs. Beale assumed. The assumption rounded itself there between this lady's entertainers, flourished in a way that left them, in their bottomless element, scarce a free pair of eyes to exchange signals. It struck Maisie even a little that there was a rope or two Mrs. Wix might have thrown out if she would, a rocket or two she might have sent up. They had at any rate never been so long together without communion or telegraphy, and their companion kept them apart by simply keeping them with her. From this situation they saw the grandeur of their intenser relation to her pass and pass like an endless procession. It was a day of lively movement and of talk on Mrs. Beale's part so brilliant and overflowing as to represent music and banners. She took them out with her promptly to walk and to drive, and even—towards night—sketched a plan for carrying them to the Etablissement, where, for only a franc apiece, they should listen to a concert of celebrities. It reminded Maisie, the plan, of the side-shows at Earl's Court, and the franc sounded brighter than the shillings which had at that time failed; yet this too, like the other, was a frustrated hope: the francs failed like the shillings and the side-shows had set an example to the concert. The Etablissement in short melted away, and it was little wonder that a lady who from the moment of her arrival had been so gallantly in the breach should confess herself it last done up. Maisie could appreciate her fatigue; the day had not passed without such an observer's discovering that she was excited and even mentally comparing her state to that of the breakers after a gale. It had blown hard in London, and she would take time to go down. It was of the condition known to the child by report as that of talking against time that her emphasis, her spirit, her humour, which had never dropped, now gave the impression.

What her stepmother had clearly promised herself to get from Mrs. Wix was agreement to a major change, a switch as clever as a magician's trick, for which Mrs. Beale’s new convenience mattered most. Maisie could clearly see the lesson that her elbow seemed to indicate— that it didn’t matter at all which step-parent was the guardian. The main point was that a girl wasn’t a boy: if Maisie had been just a rough, trouser-wearing kid, probably destined to grow up a troublemaker, Sir Claude would have been welcomed. But as things stood, he had simply stepped out, and Mrs. Wix would now find herself working for the right person. These points had really fallen into place for our young friend at the very sound of that tone in which she heard her new title announced. She was still, due to the many parents, a daughter to someone even after her dad and mom were, for all practical purposes, gone. If her father’s wife and her mother’s husband, by some natural or legal rule, were in place of their deceased partners, then Mrs. Beale’s partner was just as much out of the picture as Sir Claude’s, and her situation was exactly the one that the divorce court had prioritized in "Farange v. Farange and Others." The subject of that famous settlement saw the rest of her day filled with the grandeur of what Mrs. Beale took for granted. That assumption unfolded itself amongst this lady's hosts, thriving in a way that prevented them, in their endless environment, from having a single free moment to exchange glances. It even struck Maisie a little that there were some ropes Mrs. Wix could have thrown out or a few fireworks she could have sent up. They had certainly never been together so long without communication or signs, and their companion kept them apart simply by keeping them with her. From this position, they saw the richness of their deeper connection to her come and go like an unending parade. It was a day filled with energy and Mrs. Beale’s conversation was so lively and overflowing it felt like music and banners. She quickly took them out for a walk and a drive, and even at night, sketched a plan to take them to the Etablissement, where, for just a franc each, they could listen to a concert of stars. The plan reminded Maisie of the side-shows at Earl's Court, and the franc sounded better than the shillings that had recently fallen short; yet this, like the other, was a disappointed hope: the francs fell short just like the shillings and the side-shows had set the example for the concert. In short, the Etablissement faded away, and it was no surprise that a lady who had been so bravely holding things together since her arrival should finally admit she was done in. Maisie could sense her exhaustion; the day had not gone by without a perceptive observer recognizing that she was excited, even mentally comparing her state to that of the ocean after a storm. It had blown hard in London, and she would need time to settle down. The feeling of talking against the clock, which the child had only heard about, was now reflected in her emphasis, spirit, and humor, which had never faltered, but now created that impression.

She too was delighted with foreign manners; but her daughter's opportunities of explaining them to her were unexpectedly forestalled by her own tone of large acquaintance with them. One of the things that nipped in the bud all response to her volubility was Maisie's surprised retreat before the fact that Continental life was what she had been almost brought up on. It was Mrs. Beale, disconcertingly, who began to explain it to her friends; it was she who, wherever they turned, was the interpreter, the historian and the guide. She was full of reference to her early travels—at the age of eighteen: she had at that period made, with a distinguished Dutch family, a stay on the Lake of Geneva. Maisie had in the old days been regaled with anecdotes of these adventures, but they had with time become phantasmal, and the heroine's quite showy exemption from bewilderment at Boulogne, her acuteness on some of the very subjects on which Maisie had been acute to Mrs. Wix, were a high note of the majesty, of the variety of advantage, with which she had alighted. It was all a part of the wind in her sails and of the weight with which her daughter was now to feel her hand. The effect of it on Maisie was to add already the burden of time to her separation from Sir Claude. This might, to her sense, have lasted for days; it was as if, with their main agitation transferred thus to France and with neither mamma now nor Mrs. Beale nor Mrs. Wix nor herself at his side, he must be fearfully alone in England. Hour after hour she felt as if she were waiting; yet she couldn't have said exactly for what. There were moments when Mrs. Beale's flow of talk was a mere rattle to smother a knock. At no part of the crisis had the rattle so public a purpose as when, instead of letting Maisie go with Mrs. Wix to prepare for dinner, she pushed her—with a push at last incontestably maternal—straight into the room inherited from Sir Claude. She titivated her little charge with her own brisk hands; then she brought out: "I'm going to divorce your father."

She was also thrilled by foreign customs; however, her daughter’s chance to explain them was unexpectedly cut short by her own confident familiarity with them. One thing that halted any response to her chatter was Maisie’s shocked withdrawal upon realizing that Continental life was what she had nearly been raised on. Surprisingly, it was Mrs. Beale who started to clarify it to her friends; she became the interpreter, historian, and guide wherever they went. She frequently referenced her early travels—at eighteen, she had spent time at Lake Geneva with a prominent Dutch family. Maisie had heard stories about these adventures in the past, but over time they had faded into something almost ghostly, and the heroine's impressive lack of confusion at Boulogne, her sharp insight on topics where Maisie had been perceptive to Mrs. Wix, highlighted her high status and the variety of advantages she now enjoyed. This was all part of the support she provided and the pressure that her daughter was now going to feel. For Maisie, the effect was to add the weight of time to her separation from Sir Claude. It felt to her as if this waited forever; it was as if, with their main anxiety shifted to France and without her mother, Mrs. Beale, Mrs. Wix, or even herself by his side, he must be terribly alone in England. Hour after hour, she felt like she was just waiting; yet she couldn't quite articulate for what. There were moments when Mrs. Beale’s nonstop talking felt just like noise meant to drown out a knock. At no point during the crisis was the noise so pointedly distracting as when, instead of letting Maisie go with Mrs. Wix to get ready for dinner, she firmly pushed her—definitely in a motherly way—right into the room that belonged to Sir Claude. She tidied her little charge with her own quick hands; then she declared, “I’m going to divorce your father.”

This was so different from anything Maisie had expected that it took some time to reach her mind. She was aware meanwhile that she probably looked rather wan. "To marry Sir Claude?"

This was so different from anything Maisie had expected that it took a while for her to process it. She realized in the meantime that she probably looked a bit pale. "To marry Sir Claude?"

Mrs. Beale rewarded her with a kiss. "It's sweet to hear you put it so."

Mrs. Beale rewarded her with a kiss. "It's nice to hear you say it that way."

This was a tribute, but it left Maisie balancing for an objection. "How can you when he's married?"

This was a tribute, but it left Maisie struggling to voice an objection. "How can you when he's married?"

"He isn't—practically. He's free, you know."

"He isn’t—really. He’s free, you know."

"Free to marry?"

"Can we marry freely?"

"Free, first, to divorce his own fiend."

"Free, first, to break away from his own devil."

The benefit that, these last days, she had felt she owed a certain person left Maisie a moment so ill-prepared for recognising this lurid label that she hesitated long enough to risk: "Mamma?"

The benefit that she had felt she owed to a certain person in recent days left Maisie so unprepared to recognize this shocking label that she hesitated long enough to risk: "Mom?"

"She isn't your mamma any longer," Mrs. Beale returned. "Sir Claude has paid her money to cease to be." Then as if remembering how little, to the child, a pecuniary transaction must represent: "She lets him off supporting her if he'll let her off supporting you."

"She’s not your mom anymore," Mrs. Beale replied. "Sir Claude has given her money to stop being." Then, as if recalling how little a financial deal might mean to the child: "She lets him off the hook for supporting her if he'll let her off the hook for supporting you."

Mrs. Beale appeared, however, to have done injustice to her daughter's financial grasp. "And support me himself?" Maisie asked.

Mrs. Beale seemed to have underestimated her daughter's understanding of money. "And support me himself?" Maisie asked.

"Take the whole bother and burden of you and never let her hear of you again. It's a regular signed contract."

"Take all your trouble and baggage and make sure she never hears from you again. It's a legally binding contract."

"Why that's lovely of her!" Maisie cried.

"Wow, that's so nice of her!" Maisie exclaimed.

"It's not so lovely, my dear, but that he'll get his divorce."

"It's not that great, my dear, but he will get his divorce."

Maisie was briefly silent; after which, "No—he won't get it," she said. Then she added still more boldly: "And you won't get yours."

Maisie paused for a moment, then said, "No—he won't get it." She added more confidently, "And you won't get yours."

Mrs. Beale, who was at the dressing-glass, turned round with amusement and surprise. "How do you know that?"

Mrs. Beale, who was at the mirror, turned around with amusement and surprise. "How do you know that?"

"Oh I know!" cried Maisie.

"Oh, I know!" exclaimed Maisie.

"From Mrs. Wix?"

"From Mrs. Wix?"

Maisie debated, then after an instant took her cue from Mrs. Beale's absence of anger, which struck her the more as she had felt how much of her courage she needed. "From Mrs. Wix," she admitted.

Maisie thought for a moment and then, noticing that Mrs. Beale wasn't angry, which surprised her since she realized how much courage she needed, she said, "From Mrs. Wix."

Mrs. Beale, at the glass again, made play with a powder-puff. "My own sweet, she's mistaken!" was all she said.

Mrs. Beale, back at the mirror, was using a powder puff. "My dear, she's got it wrong!" was all she said.

There was a certain force in the very amenity of this, but our young lady reflected long enough to remember that it was not the answer Sir Claude himself had made. The recollection nevertheless failed to prevent her saying: "Do you mean then that he won't come till he has got it?"

There was a certain power in how polite this was, but our young lady thought for a while and remembered that it wasn't the answer Sir Claude had given. Still, that memory didn't stop her from asking, "So does that mean he won't come until he gets it?"

Mrs. Beale gave a last touch; she was ready; she stood there in all her elegance. "I mean, my dear, that it's because he hasn't got it that I left him."

Mrs. Beale made a final adjustment; she was ready; she stood there in all her elegance. "What I mean, my dear, is that it's because he doesn't have it that I left him."

This opened a view that stretched further than Maisie could reach. She turned away from it, but she spoke before they went out again. "Do you like Mrs. Wix now?"

This opened up a view that went beyond what Maisie could see. She looked away from it, but she said something before they left again. "Do you like Mrs. Wix now?"

"Why, my chick, I was just going to ask you if you think she has come at all to like poor bad me!"

"Hey, my dear, I was just about to ask you if you think she has actually started to like poor, flawed me!"

Maisie thought, at this hint; but unsuccessfully. "I haven't the least idea. But I'll find out."

Maisie thought about this suggestion, but couldn't come up with anything. "I have no clue. But I'll figure it out."

"Do!" said Mrs. Beale, rustling out with her in a scented air and as if it would be a very particular favour.

"Do!" Mrs. Beale said, stepping out with her in a fragrant atmosphere, as if it would be a special favor.

The child tried promptly at bed-time, relieved now of the fear that their visitor would wish to separate her for the night from her attendant. "Have you held out?" she began as soon as the two doors at the end of the passage were again closed on them.

The child tried eagerly at bedtime, now free from the worry that their visitor would want to take her away from her caregiver for the night. "Did you make it?" she asked as soon as the two doors at the end of the hallway were closed behind them.

Mrs. Wix looked hard at the flame of the candle. "Held out—?"

Mrs. Wix stared intently at the candle's flame. "Held out—?"

"Why, she has been making love to you. Has she won you over?"

"Why, she's been flirting with you. Has she gotten you interested?"

Mrs. Wix transferred her intensity to her pupil's face. "Over to what?"

Mrs. Wix focused her intensity on her pupil's face. "What do you mean by that?"

"To her keeping me instead."

"To her holding onto me instead."

"Instead of Sir Claude?" Mrs. Wix was distinctly gaining time.

"Instead of Sir Claude?" Mrs. Wix was clearly buying time.

"Yes; who else? since it's not instead of you."

"Yeah; who else? since it's not in place of you."

Mrs. Wix coloured at this lucidity. "Yes, that is what she means."

Mrs. Wix blushed at this clarity. "Yes, that is what she means."

"Well, do you like it?" Maisie asked.

"Well, do you like it?" Maisie asked.

She actually had to wait, for oh her friend was embarrassed! "My opposition to the connexion—theirs—would then naturally to some extent fall. She has treated me to-day as if I weren't after all quite such a worm; not that I don't know very well where she got the pattern of her politeness. But of course," Mrs. Wix hastened to add, "I shouldn't like her as the one nearly so well as him."

She really had to wait because, oh, her friend was so embarrassed! "My resistance to their connection would then naturally lessen a bit. She's treated me today as if I weren't such a push-over after all; not that I don't know exactly where she learned her manners. But of course," Mrs. Wix quickly added, "I wouldn't like her nearly as much as him."

"'Nearly so well!'" Maisie echoed. "I should hope indeed not." She spoke with a firmness under which she was herself the first to quiver. "I thought you 'adored' him."

"'Almost!'" Maisie echoed. "I really hope not." She spoke with a strength that made her the first to shake inside. "I thought you 'adored' him."

"I do," Mrs. Wix sturdily allowed.

"I do," Mrs. Wix firmly agreed.

"Then have you suddenly begun to adore her too?"

"Have you suddenly started to adore her as well?"

Mrs. Wix, instead of directly answering, only blinked in support of her sturdiness. "My dear, in what a tone you ask that! You're coming out."

Mrs. Wix, instead of directly answering, just blinked in encouragement of her strength. "My dear, what a tone you’re using to ask that! You're definitely coming out."

"Why shouldn't I? You've come out. Mrs. Beale has come out. We each have our turn!" And Maisie threw off the most extraordinary little laugh that had ever passed her young lips.

"Why shouldn't I? You’ve come out. Mrs. Beale has come out. We each have our turn!" And Maisie let out the most unbelievable little laugh that had ever escaped her young lips.

There passed Mrs. Wix's indeed the next moment a sound that more than matched it. "You're most remarkable!" she neighed.

There came a sound from Mrs. Wix that immediately matched it. "You’re really something!" she exclaimed.

Her pupil, though wholly without aspirations to pertness, barely faltered. "I think you've done a great deal to make me so."

Her student, while not at all inclined to be bold, hardly hesitated. "I think you've done a lot to make me this way."

"Very true, I have." She dropped to humility, as if she recalled her so recent self-arraignment.

"That's absolutely true, I have." She lowered herself, as if she remembered her recent self-criticism.

"Would you accept her then? That's what I ask," said Maisie.

"Would you accept her then? That's what I'm asking," said Maisie.

"As a substitute?" Mrs. Wix turned it over; she met again the child's eyes. "She has literally almost fawned upon me."

"As a substitute?" Mrs. Wix flipped it over; she encountered the child's eyes once more. "She has practically fawned over me."

"She hasn't fawned upon him. She hasn't even been kind to him."

"She hasn't adored him. She hasn't even been nice to him."

Mrs. Wix looked as if she had now an advantage. "Then do you propose to 'kill' her?"

Mrs. Wix looked like she had the upper hand now. "So, are you suggesting we 'get rid of' her?"

"You don't answer my question," Maisie persisted. "I want to know if you accept her."

"You’re not answering my question," Maisie insisted. "I want to know if you accept her."

Mrs. Wix continued to hedge. "I want to know if you do!"

Mrs. Wix kept being noncommittal. "I want to know if you do!"

Everything in the child's person, at this, announced that it was easy to know. "Not for a moment."

Everything about the child made it clear that it was easy to understand. "Not for a second."

"Not the two now?" Mrs. Wix had caught on; she flushed with it. "Only him alone?"

"Not both of them now?" Mrs. Wix realized; she blushed at that. "Just him alone?"

"Him alone or nobody."

"Only him or no one."

"Not even me?" cried Mrs. Wix.

"Not even me?" cried Mrs. Wix.

Maisie looked at her a moment, then began to undress. "Oh you're nobody!"

Maisie stared at her for a moment, then started to take off her clothes. "Oh, you're nobody!"

 

 

XXIX
 

Her sleep was drawn out, she instantly recognised lateness in the way her eyes opened to Mrs. Wix, erect, completely dressed, more dressed than ever, and gazing at her from the centre of the room. The next thing she was sitting straight up, wide awake with the fear of the hours of "abroad" that she might have lost. Mrs. Wix looked as if the day had already made itself felt, and the process of catching up with it began for Maisie in hearing her distinctly say: "My poor dear, he has come!"

Her sleep was long, and she immediately noticed how late it was as her eyes opened to see Mrs. Wix, standing upright, fully dressed—more dressed than ever—staring at her from the middle of the room. The next moment, she was sitting straight up, wide awake with the fear of the hours "out" that she might have missed. Mrs. Wix looked like the day had already taken hold, and Maisie's attempt to catch up with it began when she clearly heard her say, "My poor dear, he has come!"

"Sir Claude?" Maisie, clearing the little bed-rug with the width of her spring, felt the polished floor under her bare feet.

"Sir Claude?" Maisie, brushing the small rug with her foot, could feel the smooth floor beneath her bare feet.

"He crossed in the night; he got in early." Mrs. Wix's head jerked stiffly backward. "He's there."

"He crossed over at night; he arrived early." Mrs. Wix's head jerked sharply back. "He's there."

"And you've seen him?"

"And you've seen him?"

"No. He's there—he's there," Mrs. Wix repeated. Her voice came out with a queer extinction that was not a voluntary drop, and she trembled so that it added to their common emotion. Visibly pale, they gazed at each other.

"No. He's there—he's there," Mrs. Wix repeated. Her voice came out with a strange falter that she didn’t mean to happen, and she shook so much that it intensified their shared feeling. Clearly pale, they looked at each other.

"Isn't it too beautiful?" Maisie panted back at her; a challenge with an answer to which, however, she was not ready at once. The term Maisie had used was a flash of diplomacy—to prevent at any rate Mrs. Wix's using another. To that degree it was successful; there was only an appeal, strange and mute, in the white old face, which produced the effect of a want of decision greater than could by any stretch of optimism have been associated with her attitude toward what had happened. For Maisie herself indeed what had happened was oddly, as she could feel, less of a simple rapture than any arrival or return of the same supreme friend had ever been before. What had become overnight, what had become while she slept, of the comfortable faculty of gladness? She tried to wake it up a little wider by talking, by rejoicing, by plunging into water and into clothes, and she made out that it was ten o'clock, but also that Mrs. Wix had not yet breakfasted. The day before, at nine, they had had together a café complet in their sitting-room. Mrs. Wix on her side had evidently also a refuge to seek. She sought it in checking the precipitation of some of her pupil's present steps, in recalling to her with an approach to sternness that of such preliminaries those embodied in a thorough use of soap should be the most thorough, and in throwing even a certain reprobation on the idea of hurrying into clothes for the sake of a mere stepfather. She took her in hand with a silent insistence; she reduced the process to sequences more definite than any it had known since the days of Moddle. Whatever it might be that had now, with a difference, begun to belong to Sir Claude's presence was still after all compatible, for our young lady, with the instinct of dressing to see him with almost untidy haste. Mrs. Wix meanwhile luckily was not wholly directed to repression. "He's there—he's there!" she had said over several times. It was her answer to every invitation to mention how long she had been up and her motive for respecting so rigidly the slumber of her companion. It formed for some minutes her only account of the whereabouts of the others and her reason for not having yet seen them, as well as of the possibility of their presently being found in the salon.

"Isn't it too beautiful?" Maisie panted back at her, a challenge she wasn't immediately ready to answer. The term Maisie used was a quick diplomatic move—to prevent Mrs. Wix from using another. To that extent, it worked; there was only a strange, silent appeal in the old woman's white face, giving off a sense of uncertainty that was more than anyone could optimistically link to her feelings about what had just happened. For Maisie, what had happened felt oddly less like pure joy than any previous arrival or reunion with the same beloved friend. What had changed overnight, what had shifted while she slept, about her ability to feel glad? She tried to wake it up a little more by talking, by celebrating, by diving into water and clothes, and realized it was ten o'clock, but Mrs. Wix still hadn't had breakfast. The day before, at nine, they had shared a café complet in their sitting room. Mrs. Wix clearly had her own escape to find. She sought it by trying to slow down some of her pupil's impulsive actions, reminding her, with a hint of sternness, that in these matters, a thorough use of soap should come first, and even questioning the idea of rushing into clothes just for a mere stepfather. She guided Maisie with silent insistence, breaking the process down into clearer steps than it had known since the days of Moddle. Whatever new feelings Sir Claude's presence brought, it was still compatible for Maisie with the instinct to dress quickly and somewhat carelessly to see him. Fortunately for her, Mrs. Wix wasn't solely focused on restraint. "He's there—he's there!" she kept repeating. That was her response to every question about how long she'd been up and why she was so strictly respecting her companion's sleep. For several minutes, it was her only explanation for where the others were and why she hadn't seen them yet, as well as the possibility of finding them soon in the salon.

"He's there—he's there!" she declared once more as she made, on the child, with an almost invidious tug, a strained undergarment "meet."

"He's here—he's here!" she said again as she pulled the child's strained undergarment with a slightly jealous tug.

"Do you mean he's in the salon?" Maisie asked again.

"Are you saying he's in the salon?" Maisie asked again.

"He's with her," Mrs. Wix desolately said. "He's with her," she reiterated.

"He's with her," Mrs. Wix said sadly. "He's with her," she repeated.

"Do you mean in her own room?" Maisie continued.

"Are you talking about her own room?" Maisie continued.

She waited an instant. "God knows!"

She waited a moment. "God knows!"

Maisie wondered a little why, or how, God should know; this, however, delayed but an instant her bringing out: "Well, won't she go back?"

Maisie wondered a bit why, or how, God would know; this, however, only delayed her for a moment before she asked, "Well, won't she go back?"

"Go back? Never!"

"Never going back!"

"She'll stay all the same?"

"She'll stay either way?"

"All the more."

"Even more."

"Then won't Sir Claude go?" Maisie asked.

"Then isn't Sir Claude going?" Maisie asked.

"Go back—if she doesn't?" Mrs. Wix appeared to give this question the benefit of a minute's thought. "Why should he have come—only to go back?"

"Go back—if she doesn't?" Mrs. Wix seemed to think about this question for a minute. "Why would he have come—just to leave again?"

Maisie produced an ingenious solution. "To make her go. To take her."

Maisie came up with a clever solution. "To make her leave. To take her."

Mrs. Wix met it without a concession. "If he can make her go so easily, why should he have let her come?"

Mrs. Wix confronted it without backing down. "If he can get her to leave so easily, why did he even let her come in the first place?"

Maisie considered. "Oh just to see me. She has a right."

Maisie thought about it. "Oh, just to see me. She has a right."

"Yes—she has a right."

"Yes, she has a right."

"She's my mother!" Maisie tentatively tittered.

"She's my mom!" Maisie nervously laughed.

"Yes—she's your mother."

"Yes—she's your mom."

"Besides," Maisie went on, "he didn't let her come. He doesn't like her coming, and if he doesn't like it—"

"Besides," Maisie continued, "he wouldn’t let her come. He doesn't want her coming, and if he doesn't want it—"

Mrs. Wix took her up. "He must lump it—that's what he must do! Your mother was right about him—I mean your real one. He has no strength. No—none at all." She seemed more profoundly to muse. "He might have had some even with her—I mean with her ladyship. He's just a poor sunk slave," she asserted with sudden energy.

Mrs. Wix picked her up. "He has to deal with it—that's what he has to do! Your mother was right about him—I mean your real one. He has no strength. No—none at all." She seemed to think more deeply. "He might have had some even with her—I mean with her ladyship. He's just a poor, defeated slave," she stated with sudden energy.

Maisie wondered again. "A slave?"

Maisie wondered again. "A servant?"

"To his passions."

"To his interests."

She continued to wonder and even to be impressed; after which she went on: "But how do you know he'll stay?"

She kept wondering and even felt impressed; then she asked, "But how do you know he'll stick around?"

"Because he likes us!"—and Mrs. Wix, with her emphasis of the word, whirled her charge round again to deal with posterior hooks. She had positively never shaken her so.

"Because he likes us!"—and Mrs. Wix, stressing the word, spun her charge around again to handle the back hooks. She had definitely never shaken her like that before.

It was as if she quite shook something out of her. "But how will that help him if we—in spite of his liking!—don't stay?"

It was like she let something go inside her. "But how will that help him if we—even though he likes us!—don't stick around?"

"Do you mean if we go off and leave him with her?—" Mrs. Wix put the question to the back of her pupil's head. "It won't help him. It will be his ruin. He'll have got nothing. He'll have lost everything. It will be his utter destruction, for he's certain after a while to loathe her."

"Are you saying we should leave him with her?” Mrs. Wix asked, addressing the back of her pupil's head. “It won't help him. It will ruin him. He’ll end up with nothing. He’ll have lost everything. It will completely destroy him, because he’s bound to end up hating her eventually.”

"Then when he loathes her"—it was astonishing how she caught the idea—"he'll just come right after us!" Maisie announced.

"Then when he hates her"—it was incredible how she picked up on the idea—"he'll just come straight for us!" Maisie declared.

"Never."

"Never."

"Never?"

"Never?"

"She'll keep him. She'll hold him for ever."

"She'll keep him. She'll hold onto him forever."

Maisie doubted. "When he 'loathes' her?"

Maisie was unsure. "When he 'hates' her?"

"That won't matter. She won't loathe him. People don't!" Mrs. Wix brought up.

"That won't matter. She won't hate him. People don't!" Mrs. Wix said.

"Some do. Mamma does," Maisie contended.

"Some do. Mom does," Maisie argued.

"Mamma does not!" It was startling—her friend contradicted her flat. "She loves him—she adores him. A woman knows." Mrs. Wix spoke not only as if Maisie were not a woman, but as if she would never be one. "I know!" she cried.

"Mama does not!" It was shocking—her friend flat-out disagreed. "She loves him—she adores him. A woman knows." Mrs. Wix spoke as if Maisie wasn't a woman and would never be one. "I know!" she shouted.

"Then why on earth has she left him?"

"Then why on earth did she leave him?"

Mrs. Wix hesitated. "He hates her. Don't stoop so—lift up your hair. You know how I'm affected toward him," she added with dignity; "but you must also know that I see clear."

Mrs. Wix hesitated. "He hates her. Don't lower yourself—fix your hair. You know how I feel about him," she said with dignity; "but you must also know that I see things clearly."

Maisie all this time was trying hard to do likewise. "Then if she has left him for that why shouldn't Mrs. Beale leave him?"

Maisie was trying really hard to do the same thing. "So if she left him for that reason, why shouldn't Mrs. Beale leave him too?"

"Because she's not such a fool!"

"Because she’s not that gullible!"

"Not such a fool as mamma?"

"Not as silly as mom?"

"Precisely—if you will have it. Does it look like her leaving him?" Mrs. Wix enquired. She brooded again; then she went on with more intensity: "Do you want to know really and truly why? So that she may be his wretchedness and his punishment."

"Exactly—if you want to see it that way. Does it seem like she's leaving him?" Mrs. Wix asked. She thought for a moment; then she continued with more intensity: "Do you really want to know why? So that she can be his misery and his punishment."

"His punishment?"—this was more than as yet Maisie could quite accept. "For what?"

"His punishment?"—this was more than Maisie could fully accept just yet. "For what?"

"For everything. That's what will happen: he'll be tied to her for ever. She won't mind in the least his hating her, and she won't hate him back. She'll only hate us."

"For everything. That's what will happen: he'll be tied to her forever. She won't care at all that he hates her, and she won't hate him back. She'll only hate us."

"Us?" the child faintly echoed.

"Us?" the child echoed softly.

"She'll hate you."

"She'll hate you."

"Me? Why, I brought them together!" Maisie resentfully cried.

"Me? Well, I brought them together!" Maisie said resentfully.

"You brought them together." There was a completeness in Mrs. Wix's assent. "Yes; it was a pretty job. Sit down." She began to brush her pupil's hair and, as she took up the mass of it with some force of hand, went on with a sharp recall: "Your mother adored him at first—it might have lasted. But he began too soon with Mrs. Beale. As you say," she pursued with a brisk application of the brush, "you brought them together."

"You brought them together." Mrs. Wix agreed, feeling a sense of completeness. "Yes; it was quite a task. Sit down." She started to brush her pupil's hair and, gripping it firmly, continued with a quick reminder: "Your mother loved him at first—it could have lasted. But he started too soon with Mrs. Beale. As you mentioned," she added, applying the brush briskly, "you brought them together."

"I brought them together"—Maisie was ready to reaffirm it. She felt none the less for a moment at the bottom of a hole; then she seemed to see a way out. "But I didn't bring mamma together—" She just faltered.

"I brought them together"—Maisie was ready to confirm it. She felt a bit down for a moment, like she was at the bottom of a hole; then she seemed to see a way out. "But I didn't bring mom together—" She just hesitated.

"With all those gentlemen?"—Mrs. Wix pulled her up. "No; it isn't quite so bad as that."

"With all those guys?"—Mrs. Wix interrupted her. "No; it’s not that bad."

"I only said to the Captain"—Maisie had the quick memory of it—"that I hoped he at least (he was awfully nice!) would love her and keep her."

"I only said to the Captain"—Maisie remembered it clearly—"that I hoped he would at least (he was really nice!) love her and take care of her."

"And even that wasn't much harm," threw in Mrs. Wix.

"And that wasn't too big of a deal," added Mrs. Wix.

"It wasn't much good," Maisie was obliged to recognise. "She can't bear him—not even a mite. She told me at Folkestone."

"It wasn't very good," Maisie had to admit. "She can't stand him—not at all. She told me at Folkestone."

Mrs. Wix suppressed a gasp; then after a bridling instant during which she might have appeared to deflect with difficulty from her odd consideration of Ida's wrongs: "He was a nice sort of person for her to talk to you about!"

Mrs. Wix held back a gasp; then, after a quick pause where she might have seemed to struggle with her strange thoughts about Ida's issues, she said, "He was a great person for her to talk to you about!"

"Oh I like him!" Maisie promptly rejoined; and at this, with an inarticulate sound and an inconsequence still more marked, her companion bent over and dealt her on the cheek a rapid peck which had the apparent intention of a kiss.

"Oh, I like him!" Maisie quickly responded; and with that, her companion made an unintelligible sound and, even more inconsistently, leaned over and gave her a quick peck on the cheek that seemed to be meant as a kiss.

"Well, if her ladyship doesn't agree with you, what does it only prove?" Mrs. Wix demanded in conclusion. "It proves that she's fond of Sir Claude!"

"Well, if she doesn't agree with you, what does that really prove?" Mrs. Wix asked in conclusion. "It proves that she's into Sir Claude!"

Maisie, in the light of some of the evidence, reflected on that till her hair was finished, but when she at last started up she gave a sign of no very close embrace of it. She grasped at this moment Mrs. Wix's arm. "He must have got his divorce!"

Maisie, considering some of the evidence, thought about it until her hair was done, but when she finally stood up, she didn't seem very attached to it. At that moment, she grabbed Mrs. Wix's arm. "He must have gotten his divorce!"

"Since day before yesterday? Don't talk trash."

"Since the day before yesterday? Don't talk nonsense."

This was spoken with an impatience which left the child nothing to reply; whereupon she sought her defence in a completely different relation to the fact. "Well, I knew he would come!"

This was said with an impatience that left the child with nothing to say; so she tried to defend herself by relating to the situation in a completely different way. "Well, I knew he would come!"

"So did I; but not in twenty-four hours. I gave him a few days!" Mrs. Wix wailed.

"So did I; but not in twenty-four hours. I gave him a few days!" Mrs. Wix cried.

Maisie, whom she had now released, looked at her with interest. "How many did she give him?"

Maisie, whom she had now let go, looked at her with interest. "How many did she give him?"

Mrs. Wix faced her a moment; then as if with a bewildered sniff: "You had better ask her!" But she had no sooner uttered the words than she caught herself up. "Lord o' mercy, how we talk!"

Mrs. Wix looked at her for a moment, then, as if she was confused, said, "You should just ask her!" But no sooner had she said that than she realized what she had done. "Goodness, look at how we talk!"

Maisie felt that however they talked she must see him, but she said nothing more for a time, a time during which she conscientiously finished dressing and Mrs. Wix also kept silence. It was as if they each had almost too much to think of, and even as if the child had the sense that her friend was watching her and seeing if she herself were watched. At last Mrs. Wix turned to the window and stood—sightlessly, as Maisie could guess—looking away. Then our young lady, before the glass, gave the supreme shake. "Well, I'm ready. And now to see him!"

Maisie felt that no matter how they talked, she had to see him, but she stayed quiet for a while, a time during which she meticulously finished getting ready, and Mrs. Wix also remained silent. It was as if they both had too much on their minds, and even as if the child sensed that her friend was watching her and seeing if she herself was being watched. Finally, Mrs. Wix turned to the window and stood—blindly, as Maisie could guess—looking away. Then our young lady, standing before the mirror, gave a definitive shake. "Well, I’m ready. And now to see him!"

Mrs. Wix turned round, but as if without having heard her. "It's tremendously grave." There were slow still tears behind the straighteners.

Mrs. Wix turned around, but it was like she hadn’t even heard her. "It's really serious." There were slow, lingering tears behind the straighteners.

"It is—it is." Maisie spoke as if she were now dressed quite up to the occasion; as if indeed with the last touch she had put on the judgement-cap. "I must see him immediately."

"It is—it is." Maisie spoke as if she was now dressed perfectly for the occasion; as if indeed with the final touch she had put on the judgment cap. "I need to see him right away."

"How can you see him if he doesn't send for you?"

"How are you supposed to see him if he doesn't ask for you?"

"Why can't I go and find him?"

"Why can't I just go and find him?"

"Because you don't know where he is."

"Because you don't know where he is."

"Can't I just look in the salon?" That still seemed simple to Maisie.

"Can't I just check out the salon?" That still seemed straightforward to Maisie.

Mrs. Wix, however, instantly cut it off. "I wouldn't have you look in the salon for all the world!" Then she explained a little: "The salon isn't ours now."

Mrs. Wix, however, immediately interrupted. "I wouldn't want you to look in the salon for anything!" Then she explained a bit: "The salon isn't ours anymore."

"Ours?"

"Our?"

"Yours and mine. It's theirs."

"Yours and mine. It's theirs."

"Theirs?" Maisie, with her stare, continued to echo. "You mean they want to keep us out?"

"Theirs?" Maisie repeated with a look of disbelief. "You mean they want to shut us out?"

Mrs. Wix faltered; she sank into a chair and, as Maisie had often enough seen her do before, covered her face with her hands. "They ought to, at least. The situation's too monstrous!"

Mrs. Wix hesitated; she sank into a chair and, as Maisie had often seen her do before, covered her face with her hands. "They should at least do something. This situation is too outrageous!"

Maisie stood there a moment—she looked about the room. "I'll go to him—I'll find him."

Maisie stood there for a moment—she glanced around the room. "I'll go find him—I'll track him down."

"I won't! I won't go near them!" cried Mrs. Wix.

"I won't! I won't go near them!" shouted Mrs. Wix.

"Then I'll see him alone." The child spied what she had been looking for—she possessed herself of her hat. "Perhaps I'll take him out!" And with decision she quitted the room.

"Then I'll see him by myself." The child spotted what she had been searching for—she grabbed her hat. "Maybe I'll take him out!" With determination, she left the room.

When she entered the salon it was empty, but at the sound of the opened door some one stirred on the balcony, and Sir Claude, stepping straight in, stood before her. He was in light fresh clothes and wore a straw hat with a bright ribbon; these things, besides striking her in themselves as the very promise of the grandest of grand tours, gave him a certain radiance and, as it were, a tropical ease; but such an effect only marked rather more his having stopped short and, for a longer minute than had ever at such a juncture elapsed, not opened his arms to her. His pause made her pause and enabled her to reflect that he must have been up some time, for there were no traces of breakfast; and that though it was so late he had rather markedly not caused her to be called to him. Had Mrs. Wix been right about their forfeiture of the salon? Was it all his now, all his and Mrs. Beale's? Such an idea, at the rate her small thoughts throbbed, could only remind her of the way in which what had been hers hitherto was what was exactly most Mrs. Beale's and his. It was strange to be standing there and greeting him across a gulf, for he had by this time spoken, smiled and said: "My dear child, my dear child!" but without coming any nearer. In a flash she saw he was different—more so than he knew or designed. The next minute indeed it was as if he caught an impression from her face: this made him hold out his hand. Then they met, he kissed her, he laughed, she thought he even blushed: something of his affection rang out as usual. "Here I am, you see, again—as I promised you."

When she walked into the salon, it was empty, but as the door opened, someone moved on the balcony, and Sir Claude stepped inside to stand in front of her. He was dressed in light, fresh clothes and wore a straw hat with a bright ribbon; these things, while making him seem like the embodiment of a grand tour, also gave him a certain glow and a relaxed vibe, almost tropical. But this effect highlighted even more that he had paused abruptly and, longer than usual in such moments, hadn’t opened his arms to her. His pause made her hesitate, allowing her to think that he must have been up for a while since there were no signs of breakfast; and even though it was late, he had noticeably not summoned her to him. Was Mrs. Wix right about their losing the salon? Was it all his now, all his and Mrs. Beale's? That thought, as her mind raced, only reminded her of how what had been hers was now exactly what belonged to Mrs. Beale and him. It felt strange to be standing there and greeting him across a divide, for by then he had spoken, smiled, and said, "My dear child, my dear child!" without moving any closer. In an instant, she realized he was different—more than he realized or intended. The next moment, it was as if he picked up on something in her expression, which prompted him to extend his hand. Then they embraced, he kissed her, laughed, and she thought she even saw him blush: some of his affection came through as usual. "Here I am, you see, again—as I promised you."

It was not as he had promised them—he had not promised them Mrs. Beale; but Maisie said nothing about that. What she said was simply: "I knew you had come. Mrs. Wix told me."

It wasn't what he had promised them—he hadn't promised them Mrs. Beale; but Maisie didn't mention that. What she said was simply: "I knew you had come. Mrs. Wix told me."

"Oh yes. And where is she?"

"Oh yeah. And where is she?"

"In her room. She got me up—she dressed me."

"In her room. She woke me up—she got me dressed."

Sir Claude looked at her up and down; a sweetness of mockery that she particularly loved came out in his face whenever he did that, and it was not wanting now. He raised his eyebrows and his arms to play at admiration; he was evidently after all disposed to be gay. "Got you up?—I should think so! She has dressed you most beautifully. Isn't she coming?"

Sir Claude looked her over; a sweet hint of mockery that she especially loved showed on his face whenever he did that, and it was definitely there now. He raised his eyebrows and arms as if to feign admiration; he clearly seemed in the mood to be cheerful after all. "She got you ready?—I would say so! She's dressed you so beautifully. Is she not coming?"

Maisie wondered if she had better tell. "She said not."

Maisie thought she should say something. "She said not."

"Doesn't she want to see a poor devil?"

"Doesn't she want to see a poor guy?"

She looked about under the vibration of the way he described himself, and her eyes rested on the door of the room he had previously occupied. "Is Mrs. Beale in there?"

She glanced around, influenced by the way he talked about himself, and her gaze landed on the door of the room he had been in before. "Is Mrs. Beale in there?"

Sir Claude looked blankly at the same object. "I haven't the least idea!"

Sir Claude stared blankly at the same object. "I have no idea!"

"You haven't seen her?"

"Have you not seen her?"

"Not the tip of her nose."

"Not the tip of her nose."

Maisie thought: there settled on her, in the light of his beautiful smiling eyes, the faintest purest coldest conviction that he wasn't telling the truth. "She hasn't welcomed you?"

Maisie thought: as she looked into his beautiful smiling eyes, a faint, pure, icy conviction settled on her that he wasn't being honest. "She hasn't welcomed you?"

"Not by a single sign."

"Not by a single sign."

"Then where is she?"

"Where is she now?"

Sir Claude laughed; he seemed both amused and surprised at the point she made of it. "I give it up!"

Sir Claude laughed; he seemed both amused and surprised by the point she made. "I give up!"

"Doesn't she know you've come?"

"Doesn't she know you're here?"

He laughed again. "Perhaps she doesn't care!"

He laughed again. "Maybe she doesn't care!"

Maisie, with an inspiration, pounced on his arm. "Has she gone?"

Maisie, feeling inspired, grabbed his arm. "Has she left?"

He met her eyes and then she could see that his own were really much graver than his manner. "Gone?" She had flown to the door, but before she could raise her hand to knock he was beside her and had caught it. "Let her be. I don't care about her. I want to see you."

He met her gaze, and she could tell that his eyes were way more serious than his attitude suggested. "Gone?" She rushed to the door, but before she could lift her hand to knock, he was next to her and had grabbed it. "Forget her. I don't care about her. I want to see you."

"Then she hasn't gone?"

"Then she hasn't gone?"

Maisie fell back with him. He still looked as if it were a joke, but the more she saw of him the more she could make out that he was troubled. "It wouldn't be like her!"

Maisie leaned back with him. He still seemed to think it was a joke, but the more she observed him, the more she realized he was upset. "That wouldn't be like her!"

She stood wondering at him. "Did you want her to come?"

She stood looking at him, wondering. "Did you want her to come?"

"How can you suppose—?" He put it to her candidly. "We had an immense row over it."

"How can you think—?" He asked her honestly. "We had a huge argument about it."

"Do you mean you've quarrelled?"

"Do you mean you've argued?"

Sir Claude was at a loss. "What has she told you?"

Sir Claude was confused. "What has she said to you?"

"That I'm hers as much as yours. That she represents papa."

"That I'm as much hers as I am yours. That she stands for dad."

His gaze struck away through the open window and up to the sky; she could hear him rattle in his trousers-pockets his money or his keys. "Yes—that's what she keeps saying." It gave him for a moment an air that was almost helpless.

His gaze drifted through the open window and up to the sky; she could hear him clattering his money or keys in his pants pockets. "Yeah—that's what she keeps saying." For a moment, he seemed almost helpless.

"You say you don't care about her," Maisie went on. "Do you mean you've quarrelled?"

"You say you don't care about her," Maisie continued. "Do you mean you two have fought?"

"We do nothing in life but quarrel."

"We do nothing in life but argue."

He rose before her, as he said this, so soft and fair, so rich, in spite of what might worry him, in restored familiarities, that it gave a bright blur to the meaning—to what would otherwise perhaps have been the palpable promise—of the words.

He got up before her as he said this, so gentle and beautiful, so full of life, despite what might be troubling him, in the comfort of their shared memories, that it created a bright haze around the meaning—around what might have otherwise been a clear promise—of the words.

"Oh your quarrels!" she exclaimed with discouragement.

"Oh, your drama!" she exclaimed with discouragement.

"I assure you hers are quite fearful!"

"I assure you, hers are pretty scary!"

"I don't speak of hers. I speak of yours."

"I’m not talking about hers. I’m talking about yours."

"Ah don't do it till I've had my coffee! You're growing up clever," he added. Then he said: "I suppose you've breakfasted?"

"Ah, I don't do it until I've had my coffee! You're getting smart," he added. Then he asked, "I guess you've had breakfast?"

"Oh no—I've had nothing."

"Oh no, I haven't eaten."

"Nothing in your room?"—he was all compunction. "My dear old man!—we'll breakfast then together." He had one of his happy thoughts. "I say—we'll go out."

"Nothing in your room?"—he felt guilty. "My dear old man!—let’s have breakfast together then." He had one of his bright ideas. "I say—we should go out."

"That was just what I hoped. I've brought my hat."

"That’s exactly what I was hoping for. I’ve brought my hat."

"You are clever! We'll go to a café." Maisie was already at the door; he glanced round the room. "A moment—my stick." But there appeared to be no stick. "No matter; I left it—oh!" He remembered with an odd drop and came out.

"You are clever! Let's go to a café." Maisie was already by the door; he looked around the room. "Hold on—my cane." But there seemed to be no cane. "Never mind; I left it—oh!" He suddenly remembered with a strange feeling and stepped outside.

"You left it in London?" she asked as they went downstairs.

"You left it in London?" she asked as they walked down the stairs.

"Yes—in London: fancy!"

"Yes—in London: cool!"

"You were in such a hurry to come," Maisie explained.

"You were so eager to get here," Maisie explained.

He had his arm round her. "That must have been the reason."

He had his arm around her. "That must have been the reason."

Halfway down he stopped short again, slapping his leg. "And poor Mrs. Wix?"

Halfway down, he suddenly stopped again, slapping his leg. "And poor Mrs. Wix?"

Maisie's face just showed a shadow. "Do you want her to come?"

Maisie's face just showed a shadow. "Do you want her to come?"

"Dear no—I want to see you alone."

"Honestly, no—I want to see you by yourself."

"That's the way I want to see you!" she replied. "Like before."

"That's how I want to see you!" she answered. "Like it was before."

"Like before!" he gaily echoed. "But I mean has she had her coffee?"

"Just like before!" he cheerfully replied. "But I want to know, has she had her coffee?"

"No, nothing."

"No, nothing at all."

"Then I'll send it up to her. Madame!" He had already, at the foot of the stair, called out to the stout patronne, a lady who turned to him from the bustling, breezy hall a countenance covered with fresh matutinal powder and a bosom as capacious as the velvet shelf of a chimneypiece, over which her round white face, framed in its golden frizzle, might have figured as a showy clock. He ordered, with particular recommendations, Mrs. Wix's repast, and it was a charm to hear his easy brilliant French: even his companion's ignorance could measure the perfection of it. The patronne, rubbing her hands and breaking in with high swift notes as into a florid duet, went with him to the street, and while they talked a moment longer Maisie remembered what Mrs. Wix had said about every one's liking him. It came out enough through the morning powder, it came out enough in the heaving bosom, how the landlady liked him. He had evidently ordered something lovely for Mrs. Wix. "Et bien soigné, n'est-ce-pas?"

"Then I'll send it up to her. Madame!" He had already called out to the plump landlady at the bottom of the stairs, a woman who turned to him from the busy, airy hall with a face dusted with fresh morning powder and a chest as ample as the velvet shelf of a fireplace, over which her round white face, framed in golden curls, could have passed for an extravagant clock. He placed an order for Mrs. Wix's meal with specific requests, and it was delightful to hear his smooth, impressive French: even his companion's lack of knowledge could gauge its excellence. The landlady, rubbing her hands and chiming in with bright, quick notes like a fancy duet, walked with him to the street, and while they chatted a moment longer, Maisie recalled what Mrs. Wix had said about how everyone liked him. It was clear enough through the morning powder, and evident in the heaving chest, how much the landlady appreciated him. He had clearly ordered something wonderful for Mrs. Wix. "Et bien soigné, n'est-ce-pas?"

"Soyez tranquille"—the patronne beamed upon him. "Et pour Madame?"

"Don't worry"—the owner smiled at him. "And for Madam?"

"Madame?" he echoed—it just pulled him up a little.

"Madame?" he repeated—it just caught him off guard a bit.

"Rien encore?"

"Nothing yet?"

"Rien encore. Come, Maisie." She hurried along with him, but on the way to the café he said nothing.

"Nothing yet. Come on, Maisie." She rushed to keep up with him, but on the way to the café, he didn't say a word.

 

 

XXX
 

After they were seated there it was different: the place was not below the hotel, but further along the quay; with wide, clear windows and a floor sprinkled with bran in a manner that gave it for Maisie something of the added charm of a circus. They had pretty much to themselves the painted spaces and the red plush benches; these were shared by a few scattered gentlemen who picked teeth, with facial contortions, behind little bare tables, and by an old personage in particular, a very old personage with a red ribbon in his buttonhole, whose manner of soaking buttered rolls in coffee and then disposing of them in the little that was left of the interval between his nose and chin might at a less anxious hour have cast upon Maisie an almost envious spell. They too had their café au lait and their buttered rolls, determined by Sir Claude's asking her if she could with that light aid wait till the hour of déjeuner. His allusion to this meal gave her, in the shaded sprinkled coolness, the scene, as she vaguely felt, of a sort of ordered mirrored licence, the haunt of those—the irregular, like herself—who went to bed or who rose too late, something to think over while she watched the white-aproned waiter perform as nimbly with plates and saucers as a certain conjurer her friend had in London taken her to a music-hall to see. Sir Claude had presently begun to talk again, to tell her how London had looked and how long he had felt himself, on either side, to have been absent; all about Susan Ash too and the amusement as well as the difficulty he had had with her; then all about his return journey and the Channel in the night and the crowd of people coming over and the way there were always too many one knew. He spoke of other matters beside, especially of what she must tell him of the occupations, while he was away, of Mrs. Wix and her pupil. Hadn't they had the good time he had promised?—had he exaggerated a bit the arrangements made for their pleasure? Maisie had something—not all there was—to say of his success and of their gratitude: she had a complication of thought that grew every minute, grew with the consciousness that she had never seen him in this particular state in which he had been given back.

After they sat down, it felt different: the place wasn’t below the hotel, but further along the quay; with wide, clear windows and a floor sprinkled with bran that gave it a bit of a circus vibe for Maisie. They mostly had the painted spaces and the red plush benches to themselves, which were shared with a few scattered gentlemen who picked their teeth, making funny faces behind little bare tables, and particularly with an old guy, an extremely old one, with a red ribbon in his buttonhole. The way he soaked buttered rolls in coffee and then dealt with them in the small gap between his nose and chin might have somehow enchanted Maisie at a less anxious time. They also had their café au lait and buttered rolls, prompted by Sir Claude asking her if she could manage with that little snack until lunchtime. His mention of this meal gave her, in the shaded coolness sprinkled with sunlight, a sense of some sort of organized freedom, a hangout for those—the irregulars like herself—who stayed up too late or got up too late, something to ponder while she watched the white-aproned waiter glide around with plates and saucers as nimbly as a magician her friend had taken her to see at a music hall in London. Sir Claude soon started talking again, telling her about how London looked and how long he felt he’d been away; all about Susan Ash too, and the fun as well as the trouble he had with her; plus his return journey and the Channel at night and the crowd of people coming over, and how there were always too many familiar faces. He talked about other things too, especially what she needed to share about Mrs. Wix and her student while he was gone. Didn’t they have the good time he promised? Did he exaggerate a bit about the plans made for their enjoyment? Maisie had a few things—not everything—to say about his success and their gratitude: she had a jumble of thoughts that grew with each passing moment, increasing with the awareness that she had never seen him in this particular state of having been restored.

Mrs. Wix had once said—it was once or fifty times; once was enough for Maisie, but more was not too much—that he was wonderfully various. Well, he was certainly so, to the child's mind, on the present occasion: he was much more various than he was anything else. Besides, the fact that they were together in a shop, at a nice little intimate table as they had so often been in London, only made greater the difference of what they were together about. This difference was in his face, in his voice, in every look he gave her and every movement he made. They were not the looks and the movements he really wanted to show, and she could feel as well that they were not those she herself wanted. She had seen him nervous, she had seen every one she had come in contact with nervous, but she had never seen him so nervous as this. Little by little it gave her a settled terror, a terror that partook of the coldness she had felt just before, at the hotel, to find herself, on his answer about Mrs. Beale, disbelieve him. She seemed to see at present, to touch across the table, as if by laying her hand on it, what he had meant when he confessed on those several occasions to fear. Why was such a man so often afraid? It must have begun to come to her now that there was one thing just such a man above all could be afraid of. He could be afraid of himself. His fear at all events was there; his fear was sweet to her, beautiful and tender to her, was having coffee and buttered rolls and talk and laughter that were no talk and laughter at all with her; his fear was in his jesting postponing perverting voice; it was just in this make-believe way he had brought her out to imitate the old London playtimes, to imitate indeed a relation that had wholly changed, a relation that she had with her very eyes seen in the act of change when, the day before in the salon, Mrs. Beale rose suddenly before her. She rose before her, for that matter, now, and even while their refreshment delayed Maisie arrived at the straight question for which, on their entrance, his first word had given opportunity. "Are we going to have déjeuner with Mrs. Beale?"

Mrs. Wix had once said—maybe once or fifty times; once was enough for Maisie, but more wasn’t too much—that he was wonderfully different. Well, he certainly was, to the child's perspective, at that moment: he was much more varied than anything else. Plus, the fact that they were together in a shop, at a nice little intimate table like they often had been in London, only highlighted the contrast in what they were together for. This difference showed in his face, in his voice, in every look he gave her and every move he made. They weren’t the looks and movements he really wanted to show, and she could sense that they weren’t the ones she wanted either. She’d seen him nervous; she’d seen everyone she interacted with nervous, but she’d never seen him this nervous. Gradually, it filled her with a deep terror, a terror that had the coldness she’d felt earlier, at the hotel, when she found herself doubting his answer about Mrs. Beale. Right now, she felt like she could see and almost touch what he meant when he confessed to feeling afraid. Why was such a man often scared? It had started to hit her that there was one thing he, more than anyone, could be fearful of. He could be afraid of himself. His fear was definitely there; his fear felt sweet to her, beautiful and tender, mingled with coffee and buttered rolls and conversation that felt like no real conversation or laughter with her; his fear was in his joking, twisting voice; it was in this pretend way he brought her out to mimic the old London playtimes, to recreate a relationship that had completely changed, a relationship she had witnessed changing just the day before in the salon, when Mrs. Beale had suddenly stood up before her. Mrs. Beale was standing before her now, and even while their refreshments were delayed, Maisie reached the direct question she had the chance to ask as soon as they entered. “Are we going to have lunch with Mrs. Beale?”

His reply was anything but straight. "You and I?"

His response was anything but direct. "You and I?"

Maisie sat back in her chair. "Mrs. Wix and me."

Maisie leaned back in her chair. "Mrs. Wix and I."

Sir Claude also shifted. "That's an enquiry, my dear child, that Mrs. Beale herself must answer." Yes, he had shifted; but abruptly, after a moment during which something seemed to hang there between them and, as it heavily swayed, just fan them with the air of its motion, she felt that the whole thing was upon them. "Do you mind," he broke out, "my asking you what Mrs. Wix has said to you?"

Sir Claude also moved. "That's a question, my dear child, that Mrs. Beale herself needs to answer." Yes, he had moved; but suddenly, after a moment when something seemed to linger between them and, as it swayed heavily, just brushed them with the air of its movement, she felt that everything was on them. "Do you mind," he suddenly asked, "if I ask you what Mrs. Wix has said to you?"

"Said to me?"

"Told me?"

"This day or two—while I was away."

"This day or two—while I was gone."

"Do you mean about you and Mrs. Beale?"

"Are you talking about you and Mrs. Beale?"

Sir Claude, resting on his elbows, fixed his eyes a moment on the white marble beneath them. "No; I think we had a good deal of that—didn't we?—before I left you. It seems to me we had it pretty well all out. I mean about yourself, about your—don't you know?—associating with us, as I might say, and staying on with us. While you were alone with our friend what did she say?"

Sir Claude, propped up on his elbows, stared for a moment at the white marble below him. "No; I think we covered a lot of that—didn't we?—before I left you. It feels like we talked it through pretty thoroughly. I mean, regarding you, about your—well, you know?—joining us and sticking around. When you were alone with our friend, what did she say?"

Maisie felt the weight of the question; it kept her silent for a space during which she looked at Sir Claude, whose eyes remained bent. "Nothing," she returned at last.

Maisie felt the heaviness of the question; it left her quiet for a moment while she stared at Sir Claude, whose gaze stayed fixed downward. "Nothing," she finally replied.

He showed incredulity. "Nothing?"

He was shocked. "Nothing?"

"Nothing," Maisie repeated; on which an interruption descended in the form of a tray bearing the preparations for their breakfast. These preparations were as amusing as everything else; the waiter poured their coffee from a vessel like a watering-pot and then made it froth with the curved stream of hot milk that dropped from the height of his raised arm; but the two looked across at each other through the whole play of French pleasantness with a gravity that had now ceased to dissemble. Sir Claude sent the waiter off again for something and then took up her answer. "Hasn't she tried to affect you?"

"Nothing," Maisie repeated, just as a tray arrived with the breakfast setup. The breakfast was as entertaining as everything else; the waiter poured their coffee from a pot that looked like a watering can and then made it frothy with a stream of hot milk that he poured from high above. But the two of them kept looking at each other amidst the cheerful French atmosphere with a seriousness that no longer tried to hide what they were feeling. Sir Claude sent the waiter away again for something and then picked up her response. "Hasn't she tried to influence you?"

Face to face with him thus it seemed to Maisie that she had tried so little as to be scarce worth mentioning; again therefore an instant she shut herself up. Presently she found her middle course. "Mrs. Beale likes her now; and there's one thing I've found out—a great thing. Mrs. Wix enjoys her being so kind. She was tremendously kind all day yesterday."

Face to face with him, it seemed to Maisie that she had tried so little that it was hardly worth mentioning; so once again, she closed herself off. After a moment, she found her balance. "Mrs. Beale likes her now; and there's something I've discovered—a big thing. Mrs. Wix enjoys how kind she is. She was really kind all day yesterday."

"I see. And what did she do?" Sir Claude asked.

"I see. So what did she do?" Sir Claude asked.

Maisie was now busy with her breakfast, and her companion attacked his own; so that it was all, in form at least, even more than their old sociability. "Everything she could think of. She was as nice to her as you are," the child said. "She talked to her all day."

Maisie was now focused on her breakfast, and her companion was busy with his own, making their interaction, at least in form, even more sociable than before. "She did everything she could think of. She was as nice to her as you are," the child said. "She talked to her all day."

"And what did she say to her?"

"And what did she say to her?"

"Oh I don't know." Maisie was a little bewildered with his pressing her so for knowledge; it didn't fit into the degree of intimacy with Mrs. Beale that Mrs. Wix had so denounced and that, according to that lady, had now brought him back in bondage. Wasn't he more aware than his stepdaughter of what would be done by the person to whom he was bound? In a moment, however, she added: "She made love to her."

"Oh, I don't know." Maisie felt a bit confused by his insistence on getting information; it didn't match the level of closeness with Mrs. Beale that Mrs. Wix had criticized and that, according to her, had now brought him back into a state of dependency. Wasn't he more aware than his stepdaughter of what the person he was tied to would do? In a moment, though, she added: "She flirted with her."

Sir Claude looked at her harder, and it was clearly something in her tone that made him quickly say: "You don't mind my asking you, do you?"

Sir Claude stared at her more intently, and it was obviously something in her tone that prompted him to say quickly, "You don't mind if I ask you, do you?"

"Not at all; only I should think you'd know better than I."

"Not at all; I just thought you might know better than I do."

"What Mrs. Beale did yesterday?"

"What did Mrs. Beale do yesterday?"

She thought he coloured a trifle; but almost simultaneously with that impression she found herself answering: "Yes—if you have seen her."

She thought he was a bit too colorful; but almost at the same time as that thought, she found herself responding, "Yes—if you’ve seen her."

He broke into the loudest of laughs. "Why, my dear boy, I told you just now I've absolutely not. I say, don't you believe me?"

He burst into the loudest laugh. "Why, my dear boy, I just told you I absolutely haven't. I mean, don't you believe me?"

There was something she was already so afraid of that it covered up other fears. "Didn't you come back to see her?" she enquired in a moment. "Didn't you come back because you always want to so much?"

There was something she was already so afraid of that it overshadowed other fears. "Didn’t you come back to see her?" she asked after a moment. "Didn’t you come back because you always want to so much?"

He received her enquiry as he had received her doubt—with an extraordinary absence of resentment. "I can imagine of course why you think that. But it doesn't explain my doing what I have. It was, as I said to you just now at the inn, really and truly you I wanted to see."

He took her question the same way he took her doubt—with a surprising lack of anger. "I can understand why you think that. But it doesn't explain why I've done what I've done. It was, as I just mentioned to you at the inn, truly you I wanted to see."

She felt an instant as she used to feel when, in the back garden at her mother's, she took from him the highest push of a swing—high, high, high—that he had had put there for her pleasure and that had finally broken down under the weight and the extravagant patronage of the cook. "Well, that's beautiful. But to see me, you mean, and go away again?"

She felt a moment like she used to when, in her mom's backyard, she took the highest swing push from him—up, up, up—that he had set up for her enjoyment and that had finally broken down under the weight and excessive use by the cook. "Well, that's nice. But you mean to see me and then leave again?"

"My going away again is just the point. I can't tell yet—it all depends."

"My leaving again is exactly the point. I can't say for sure yet—it all depends."

"On Mrs. Beale?" Maisie asked. "She won't go away." He finished emptying his coffee-cup and then, when he had put it down, leaned back in his chair, where she could see that he smiled on her. This only added to her idea that he was in trouble, that he was turning somehow in his pain and trying different things. He continued to smile and she went on: "Don't you know that?"

"About Mrs. Beale?" Maisie asked. "She won't leave." He finished his coffee and, after putting the cup down, leaned back in his chair, showing her that he was smiling at her. This only reinforced her impression that he was in some kind of trouble, that he was somehow struggling with his pain and experimenting with different approaches. He kept smiling, and she continued: "Don't you realize that?"

"Yes, I may as well confess to you that as much as that I do know. She won't go away. She'll stay."

"Yeah, I might as well admit to you that I know that much. She won't leave. She'll stick around."

"She'll stay. She'll stay," Maisie repeated.

"She'll stay. She'll stay," Maisie repeated.

"Just so. Won't you have some more coffee?"

"Exactly. Would you like some more coffee?"

"Yes, please."

"Sure, thanks!"

"And another buttered roll?"

"And another buttered bread roll?"

"Yes, please."

"Yes, please."

He signed to the hovering waiter, who arrived with the shining spout of plenty in either hand and with the friendliest interest in mademoiselle. "Les tartines sont là." Their cups were replenished and, while he watched almost musingly the bubbles in the fragrant mixture, "Just so—just so," Sir Claude said again and again. "It's awfully awkward!" he exclaimed when the waiter had gone.

He signaled to the hovering waiter, who came over with a glistening pitcher in each hand and a warm smile for the lady. "The toasts are here." Their cups were filled again, and as he watched the bubbles in the aromatic drink almost thoughtfully, "Exactly—exactly," Sir Claude repeated over and over. "This is really awkward!" he said once the waiter had left.

"That she won't go?"

"That she's not going?"

"Well—everything! Well, well, well!" But he pulled himself together; he began again to eat. "I came back to ask you something. That's what I came back for."

"Well—everything! Well, well, well!" But he gathered himself and started eating again. "I came back to ask you something. That’s the reason I came back."

"I know what you want to ask me," Maisie said.

"I know what you want to ask me," Maisie said.

"Are you very sure?"

"Are you really sure?"

"I'm almost very."

"I'm kinda very."

"Well then risk it. You mustn't make me risk everything."

"Well, then take the chance. You can’t expect me to risk everything."

She was struck with the force of this. "You want to know if I should be happy with them."

She was hit hard by this. "You want to know if I should be happy with them."

"With those two ladies only? No, no, old man: vous n'y êtes pas. So now—there!" Sir Claude laughed.

"Just those two ladies? No, no, old man: you're not getting it. So now—there!" Sir Claude laughed.

"Well then what is it?"

"Well, what is it?"

The next minute, instead of telling her what it was, he laid his hand across the table on her own and held her as if under the prompting of a thought. "Mrs. Wix would stay with her?"

The next minute, instead of telling her what it was, he placed his hand over hers on the table and held it as if he was inspired by a thought. "Mrs. Wix would stay with her?"

"Without you? Oh yes—now."

"Without you? Oh yes—now."

"On account, as you just intimated, of Mrs. Beale's changed manner?"

"Because, as you just mentioned, of Mrs. Beale's changed attitude?"

Maisie, with her sense of responsibility, weighed both Mrs. Beale's changed manner and Mrs. Wix's human weakness. "I think she talked her round."

Maisie, feeling responsible, considered both Mrs. Beale's changed attitude and Mrs. Wix's vulnerability. "I think she talked her into it."

Sir Claude thought a moment. "Ah poor dear!"

Sir Claude thought for a moment. "Oh, poor thing!"

"Do you mean Mrs. Beale?"

"Are you talking about Mrs. Beale?"

"Oh no—Mrs. Wix."

"Oh no—Mrs. Wix."

"She likes being talked round—treated like any one else. Oh she likes great politeness," Maisie expatiated. "It affects her very much."

"She enjoys being persuaded—treated like everyone else. Oh, she really appreciates great politeness," Maisie explained. "It means a lot to her."

Sir Claude, to her surprise, demurred a little to this. "Very much—up to a certain point."

Sir Claude surprised her by hesitating a bit about this. "Very much—up to a certain point."

"Oh up to any point!" Maisie returned with emphasis.

"Oh, up to any point!" Maisie replied with emphasis.

"Well, haven't I been polite to her?"

"Well, haven't I been nice to her?"

"Lovely—and she perfectly worships you."

"Lovely—and she totally adores you."

"Then, my dear child, why can't she let me alone?"—this time Sir Claude unmistakeably blushed. Before Maisie, however, could answer his question, which would indeed have taken her long, he went on in another tone: "Mrs. Beale thinks she has probably quite broken her down. But she hasn't."

"Then, my dear child, why can't she just leave me alone?"—this time Sir Claude clearly blushed. Before Maisie could respond to his question, which would have taken her a while, he continued in a different tone: "Mrs. Beale thinks she has probably completely worn her down. But she hasn't."

Though he spoke as if he were sure, Maisie was strong in the impression she had just uttered and that she now again produced. "She has talked her round."

Though he spoke as if he was certain, Maisie was confident in the feeling she had just expressed and that she now reiterated. "She has made her case."

"Ah yes; round to herself, but not round to me."

"Ah yes; she’s all about herself, but not about me."

Oh she couldn't bear to hear him say that! "To you? Don't you really believe how she loves you?"

Oh, she just couldn't stand hearing him say that! "To you? Don't you really believe how much she loves you?"

Sir Claude examined his belief. "Of course I know she's wonderful."

Sir Claude reflected on his belief. "Of course I know she's amazing."

"She's just every bit as fond of you as I am," said Maisie. "She told me so yesterday."

"She's just as fond of you as I am," said Maisie. "She told me that yesterday."

"Ah then," he promptly exclaimed, "she has tried to affect you! I don't love her, don't you see? I do her perfect justice," he pursued, "but I mean I don't love her as I do you, and I'm sure you wouldn't seriously expect it. She's not my daughter—come, old chap! She's not even my mother, though I dare say it would have been better for me if she had been. I'll do for her what I'd do for my mother, but I won't do more." His real excitement broke out in a need to explain and justify himself, though he kept trying to correct and conceal it with laughs and mouthfuls and other vain familiarities. Suddenly he broke off, wiping his moustache with sharp pulls and coming back to Mrs. Beale. "Did she try to talk you over?"

"Ah then," he quickly said, "she has tried to influence you! I don't love her, can't you see? I'm being fair to her," he continued, "but I don't love her the way I love you, and I'm sure you wouldn't really expect that. She's not my daughter—come on, old buddy! She's not even my mother, although honestly, it might have been better for me if she were. I'll do for her what I'd do for my mom, but I won’t do any more than that." His real emotions came out in a need to explain and defend himself, even though he kept trying to cover it up with laughs and distractions. Suddenly, he stopped, wiping his mustache with quick strokes and returning to Mrs. Beale. "Did she try to talk you into something?"

"No—to me she said very little. Very little indeed," Maisie continued.

"No—to me she said hardly anything. Hardly anything at all," Maisie continued.

Sir Claude seemed struck with this. "She was only sweet to Mrs. Wix?"

Sir Claude seemed surprised by this. “She was only nice to Mrs. Wix?”

"As sweet as sugar!" cried Maisie.

"As sweet as sugar!" exclaimed Maisie.

He looked amused at her comparison, but he didn't contest it; he uttered on the contrary, in an assenting way, a little inarticulate sound. "I know what she can be. But much good may it have done her! Mrs. Wix won't come 'round.' That's what makes it so fearfully awkward."

He seemed amused by her comparison, but he didn't argue against it; instead, he made a small, somewhat unclear sound of agreement. "I know what she can be. But I hope it does her some good! Mrs. Wix won't come around." That's what makes it so incredibly awkward."

Maisie knew it was fearfully awkward; she had known this now, she felt, for some time, and there was something else it more pressingly concerned her to learn. "What is it you meant you came over to ask me?"

Maisie knew it was really awkward; she felt that way for a while now, and there was something else that concerned her more urgently to find out. "What did you want to ask me?"

"Well," said Sir Claude, "I was just going to say. Let me tell you it will surprise you." She had finished breakfast now and she sat back in her chair again: she waited in silence to hear. He had pushed the things before him a little way and had his elbows on the table. This time, she was convinced, she knew what was coming, and once more, for the crash, as with Mrs. Wix lately in her room, she held her breath and drew together her eyelids. He was going to say she must give him up. He looked hard at her again; then he made his effort. "Should you see your way to let her go?"

"Well," said Sir Claude, "I was just about to say something. Trust me, it's going to surprise you." She had finished breakfast and leaned back in her chair, waiting in silence to hear what he had to say. He had pushed his dishes aside a bit and rested his elbows on the table. This time, she was sure she knew what was coming, and once again, bracing herself for the impact, she held her breath and closed her eyes slightly. He was going to tell her she had to give him up. He looked intently at her again, then took a deep breath. "Would you consider letting her go?"

She was bewildered. "To let who—?"

She was confused. "To let who—?"

"Mrs. Wix simply. I put it at the worst. Should you see your way to sacrifice her? Of course I know what I'm asking."

"Mrs. Wix, simply put. I’m putting it in the worst light. Would you consider sacrificing her? I fully understand what I’m asking."

Maisie's eyes opened wide again; this was so different from what she had expected. "And stay with you alone?"

Maisie's eyes widened again; this was so different from what she had expected. "And stay with you alone?"

He gave another push to his coffee-cup. "With me and Mrs. Beale. Of course it would be rather rum; but everything in our whole story is rather rum, you know. What's more unusual than for any one to be given up, like you, by her parents?"

He pushed his coffee cup again. "With me and Mrs. Beale. It would be pretty weird, but everything in our whole story is kind of strange, you know? What's more unusual than someone like you being given up by her parents?"

"Oh nothing is more unusual than that!" Maisie concurred, relieved at the contact of a proposition as to which concurrence could have lucidity.

"Oh, nothing is more unusual than that!" Maisie agreed, feeling relieved by the clarity of a suggestion that she could fully support.

"Of course it would be quite unconventional," Sir Claude went on—"I mean the little household we three should make together; but things have got beyond that, don't you see? They got beyond that long ago. We shall stay abroad at any rate—it's ever so much easier and it's our affair and nobody else's: it's no one's business but ours on all the blessed earth. I don't say that for Mrs. Wix, poor dear—I do her absolute justice. I respect her; I see what she means; she has done me a lot of good. But there are the facts. There they are, simply. And here am I, and here are you. And she won't come round. She's right from her point of view. I'm talking to you in the most extraordinary way—I'm always talking to you in the most extraordinary way, ain't I? One would think you were about sixty and that I—I don't know what any one would think I am. Unless a beastly cad!" he suggested. "I've been awfully worried, and this's what it has come to. You've done us the most tremendous good, and you'll do it still and always, don't you see? We can't let you go—you're everything. There are the facts as I say. She is your mother now, Mrs. Beale, by what has happened, and I, in the same way, I'm your father. No one can contradict that, and we can't get out of it. My idea would be a nice little place—somewhere in the South—where she and you would be together and as good as any one else. And I should be as good too, don't you see? for I shouldn't live with you, but I should be close to you—just round the corner, and it would be just the same. My idea would be that it should all be perfectly open and frank. Honi soit qui mal y pense, don't you know? You're the best thing—you and what we can do for you—that either of us has ever known," he came back to that. "When I say to her 'Give her up, come,' she lets me have it bang in the face: 'Give her up yourself!' It's the same old vicious circle—and when I say vicious I don't mean a pun, a what-d'-ye-call-'em. Mrs. Wix is the obstacle; I mean, you know, if she has affected you. She has affected me, and yet here I am. I never was in such a tight place: please believe it's only that that makes me put it to you as I do. My dear child, isn't that—to put it so—just the way out of it? That came to me yesterday, in London, after Mrs. Beale had gone: I had the most infernal atrocious day. 'Go straight over and put it to her: let her choose, freely, her own self.' So I do, old girl—I put it to you. Can you choose freely?"

"Of course, it would be pretty unconventional," Sir Claude continued, "I mean the little household we three should make together; but things have already moved past that, don't you see? They moved past that a long time ago. We’ll definitely stay abroad—it's so much easier, and it's our business, not anyone else's: it's no one’s concern but ours on this entire planet. I'm not saying that about Mrs. Wix, poor thing—I give her her due. I respect her; I understand her intentions; she has done a lot for me. But the facts are what they are. Here I am, and here you are. And she won’t change her mind. She's right from her perspective. I’m speaking to you in the most extraordinary way—I always seem to be, don’t I? You'd think you were around sixty and that I—I don't even know what anyone would think I am. Unless a total jerk!" he suggested. "I've been really worried, and this is what it has come down to. You've done us a huge favor, and you'll keep doing it, don’t you see? We can’t let you go—you mean everything. The facts are as I say. She is your mother now, Mrs. Beale, because of what’s happened, and similarly, I’m your father. No one can deny that, and we can’t escape it. My idea would be a nice little place—somewhere in the South—where she and you could be together and be just as good as anyone else. And I would be just as good too, don’t you see? I wouldn’t live with you, but I’d be close—just around the corner, and it would be the same. My idea is that everything should be open and straightforward. Honi soit qui mal y pense, you know? You’re the best thing—you and what we can do for you—that either of us has ever known," he circled back to that. "When I say to her, 'Give her up, come,' she hits me with, 'You give her up yourself!' It’s the same old vicious cycle—and when I say vicious, I don’t mean as a joke or anything. Mrs. Wix is the obstacle; I mean, you know, if she has influenced you. She has influenced me, and yet here I am. I’ve never been in such a tough spot: please believe me, it’s just that which makes me bring this up with you the way I do. My dear child, isn’t that—to say it plainly—the way out of this? That idea came to me yesterday in London, after Mrs. Beale had left: I had the most awful day. 'Go straight over and bring it up with her: let her freely choose, her own self.' So here I am, old girl—I’m putting it to you. Can you choose freely?"

This long address, slowly and brokenly uttered, with fidgets and falterings, with lapses and recoveries, with a mottled face and embarrassed but supplicating eyes, reached the child from a quarter so close that after the shock of the first sharpness she could see intensely its direction and follow it from point to point; all the more that it came back to the point at which it had started. There was a word that had hummed all through it. "Do you call it a 'sacrifice'?"

This long speech, delivered slowly and hesitantly, with fidgets and stumbles, pauses and recoveries, along with a blotchy face and embarrassed yet pleading eyes, reached the child from a distance so close that after the initial shock wore off, she could clearly see its source and track it from beginning to end; especially since it circled back to where it had begun. There was one word that resonated throughout. "Do you call it a 'sacrifice'?"

"Of Mrs. Wix? I'll call it whatever you call it. I won't funk it—I haven't, have I? I'll face it in all its baseness. Does it strike you it is base for me to get you well away from her, to smuggle you off here into a corner and bribe you with sophistries and buttered rolls to betray her?"

"About Mrs. Wix? I'll call it whatever you want to call it. I won't avoid it—I haven't, have I? I'll confront it in all its ugliness. Do you think it's ugly for me to get you away from her, to sneak you off here into this corner and bribe you with weak arguments and buttered rolls to turn against her?"

"To betray her?"

"To betray her?"

"Well—to part with her."

"Well—to say goodbye to her."

Maisie let the question wait; the concrete image it presented was the most vivid side of it. "If I part with her where will she go?"

Maisie let the question hang in the air; the clear picture it created was the most striking part of it. "If I let her go, where will she end up?"

"Back to London."

"Heading back to London."

"But I mean what will she do?"

"But I mean, what is she going to do?"

"Oh as for that I won't pretend I know. I don't. We all have our difficulties."

"Oh, as for that, I won’t pretend to know. I don’t. We all have our challenges."

That, to Maisie, was at this moment more striking than it had ever been. "Then who'll teach me?"

That, to Maisie, was more noticeable than it had ever been. "So, who's going to teach me?"

Sir Claude laughed out. "What Mrs. Wix teaches?"

Sir Claude burst out laughing. "What does Mrs. Wix teach?"

She smiled dimly; she saw what he meant. "It isn't so very very much."

She smiled faintly; she understood what he meant. "It isn't that much."

"It's so very very little," he returned, "that that's a thing we've positively to consider. We probably shouldn't give you another governess. To begin with we shouldn't be able to get one—not of the only kind that would do. It wouldn't do—the kind that would do," he queerly enough explained. "I mean they wouldn't stay—heigh-ho! We'd do you ourselves. Particularly me. You see I can now; I haven't got to mind—what I used to. I won't fight shy as I did—she can show out with me. Our relation, all round, is more regular."

"It's really quite small," he replied, "so that's something we definitely need to think about. We probably shouldn't hire you another governess. First off, we wouldn't even be able to find one—at least not the kind we really need. It wouldn't work—the kind that would work," he explained in a rather odd way. "I mean they wouldn't stick around—oh well! We'll take care of you ourselves. Especially me. You see, I can now; I don't have to worry about what I used to. I won't hold back like I did—she can keep up with me. Our relationship, overall, is more straightforward."

It seemed wonderfully regular, the way he put it; yet none the less, while she looked at it as judiciously as she could, the picture it made persisted somehow in being a combination quite distinct—an old woman and a little girl seated in deep silence on a battered old bench by the rampart of the haute ville. It was just at that hour yesterday; they were hand in hand; they had melted together. "I don't think you yet understand how she clings to you," Maisie said at last.

It seemed perfectly normal the way he said it; however, as she examined it as carefully as she could, the image it created remained a pretty unique mix—an elderly woman and a young girl sitting quietly on a worn bench by the rampart of the haute ville. It was just like that yesterday at this time; they were holding hands; they had fused together. "I don't think you really get how much she depends on you," Maisie finally said.

"I do—I do. But for all that—" And he gave, turning in his conscious exposure, an oppressed impatient sigh; the sigh, even his companion could recognise, of the man naturally accustomed to that argument, the man who wanted thoroughly to be reasonable, but who, if really he had to mind so many things, would be always impossibly hampered. What it came to indeed was that he understood quite perfectly. If Mrs. Wix clung it was all the more reason for shaking Mrs. Wix off.

"I do—I do. But still—" And he sighed, clearly frustrated, as he expressed this thought. Even his companion could recognize that sigh; it was the sigh of a man who was used to this kind of argument, a man who wanted to be completely reasonable, but who would always feel unmanageably trapped if he had to worry about so many things. Ultimately, he understood perfectly. If Mrs. Wix held on, it only made it more necessary to let her go.

This vision of what she had brought him to occupied our young lady while, to ask what he owed, he called the waiter and put down a gold piece that the man carried off for change. Sir Claude looked after him, then went on: "How could a woman have less to reproach a fellow with? I mean as regards herself."

This vision of what she had brought him to consumed our young lady while, to find out what he owed, he called the waiter and handed over a gold coin that the man took for change. Sir Claude watched him leave, then continued: "How could a woman have less to blame a guy for? I mean in relation to herself."

Maisie entertained the question. "Yes. How could she have less? So why are you so sure she'll go?"

Maisie considered the question. "Yes. How could she have less? So why are you so sure she's leaving?"

"Surely you heard why—you heard her come out three nights ago? How can she do anything but go—after what she then said? I've done what she warned me of—she was absolutely right. So here we are. Her liking Mrs. Beale, as you call it now, is a motive sufficient, with other things, to make her, for your sake, stay on without me; it's not a motive sufficient to make her, even for yours, stay on with me—swallow, don't you see? what she can't swallow. And when you say she's as fond of me as you are I think I can, if that's the case, challenge you a little on it. Would you, only with those two, stay on without me?"

"Surely you heard why—you heard her come out three nights ago? How can she do anything but leave—after what she said? I've already done what she warned me about—she was completely right. So here we are. Her liking Mrs. Beale, as you call it now, is a good enough reason, along with other things, for her to stay on without me for your sake; but it's not enough of a reason to make her stay with me—even for you—swallow what she can't accept. And when you say she's as fond of me as you are, I think I can, if that's true, challenge you a bit on that. Would you, just with those two, stay on without me?"

The waiter came back with the change, and that gave her, under this appeal, a moment's respite. But when he had retreated again with the "tip" gathered in with graceful thanks on a subtle hint from Sir Claude's forefinger, the latter, while pocketing the money, followed the appeal up. "Would you let her make you live with Mrs. Beale?"

The waiter returned with the change, which gave her a brief pause under this request. But when he had left again with the "tip," collected with polite thanks at a subtle gesture from Sir Claude's finger, the latter, while putting the money away, continued with the request. "Would you allow her to make you live with Mrs. Beale?"

"Without you? Never," Maisie then answered. "Never," she said again.

"Without you? Never," Maisie replied. "Never," she said again.

It made him quite triumph, and she was indeed herself shaken by the mere sound of it. "So you see you're not, like her," he exclaimed, "so ready to give me away!" Then he came back to his original question. "Can you choose? I mean can you settle it by a word yourself? Will you stay on with us without her?" Now in truth she felt the coldness of her terror, and it seemed to her that suddenly she knew, as she knew it about Sir Claude, what she was afraid of. She was afraid of herself. She looked at him in such a way that it brought, she could see, wonder into his face, a wonder held in check, however, by his frank pretension to play fair with her, not to use advantages, not to hurry nor hustle her—only to put her chance clearly and kindly before her. "May I think?" she finally asked.

It made him feel quite triumphant, and she was definitely shaken just by the sound of it. "So you see, you're not like her," he exclaimed, "so ready to betray me!" Then he returned to his original question. "Can you choose? I mean, can you decide this for yourself in a word? Will you stay with us without her?" Now, in reality, she felt the chill of her fear, and it seemed like she suddenly knew, just as she did about Sir Claude, what she was afraid of. She was afraid of herself. She looked at him in a way that brought, she noticed, a look of wonder to his face, although it was tempered by his honest intent to be fair with her, not to take advantage, not to rush or pressure her—just to lay out her options clearly and kindly. "Can I think for a moment?" she finally asked.

"Certainly, certainly. But how long?"

"Sure, sure. But how long?"

"Oh only a little while," she said meekly.

"Oh, just a little while," she said softly.

He had for a moment the air of wishing to look at it as if it were the most cheerful prospect in the world. "But what shall we do while you're thinking?" He spoke as if thought were compatible with almost any distraction.

He briefly seemed like he wanted to view it as if it were the happiest possibility in the world. "But what are we supposed to do while you're thinking?" He said it as if thinking could go along with just about any distraction.

There was but one thing Maisie wished to do, and after an instant she expressed it. "Have we got to go back to the hotel?"

There was only one thing Maisie wanted to do, and after a moment she said it. "Do we have to go back to the hotel?"

"Do you want to?"

"Do you want to?"

"Oh no."

"Oh no!"

"There's not the least necessity for it." He bent his eyes on his watch; his face was now very grave. "We can do anything else in the world." He looked at her again almost as if he were on the point of saying that they might for instance start off for Paris. But even while she wondered if that were not coming he had a sudden drop. "We can take a walk."

"There's absolutely no need for it." He glanced at his watch; his expression was serious now. "We can do anything else we want." He looked at her again, almost as if he was about to suggest they could, for example, head off to Paris. But just as she started to think that might be the case, he suddenly changed his mind. "We can go for a walk."

She was all ready, but he sat there as if he had still something more to say. This too, however, didn't come; so she herself spoke. "I think I should like to see Mrs. Wix first."

She was all set, but he sat there as if he still had something more to say. However, nothing came from him, so she spoke up. "I think I’d like to see Mrs. Wix first."

"Before you decide? All right—all right." He had put on his hat, but he had still to light a cigarette. He smoked a minute, with his head thrown back, looking at the ceiling; then he said: "There's one thing to remember—I've a right to impress it on you: we stand absolutely in the place of your parents. It's their defection, their extraordinary baseness, that has made our responsibility. Never was a young person more directly committed and confided." He appeared to say this over, at the ceiling, through his smoke, a little for his own illumination. It carried him after a pause somewhat further. "Though I admit it was to each of us separately."

"Before you decide? Alright—all good." He had put on his hat, but still needed to light a cigarette. He smoked for a minute, head thrown back, staring at the ceiling; then he said: "One thing to keep in mind—I have to stress this: we are completely in the position of your parents. It's their failure, their shocking unworthiness, that has created our responsibility. No young person has ever been more directly connected and entrusted to us." He seemed to repeat this, looking at the ceiling through his smoke, a bit for his own clarity. After a pause, it took him a bit further. "Though I admit it was to each of us individually."

He gave her so at that moment and in that attitude the sense of wanting, as it were, to be on her side—on the side of what would be in every way most right and wise and charming for her—that she felt a sudden desire to prove herself not less delicate and magnanimous, not less solicitous for his own interests. What were these but that of the "regularity" he had just before spoken of? "It was to each of you separately," she accordingly with much earnestness remarked. "But don't you remember? I brought you together."

He gave her, in that moment and with that expression, the feeling of wanting to be on her side—on the side of what would be the most right, wise, and charming for her. This made her suddenly want to show that she was just as delicate and generous, just as concerned for his own interests. What were those interests but the "regularity" he had mentioned earlier? "It was to each of you separately," she said earnestly. "But don't you remember? I brought you together."

He jumped up with a delighted laugh. "Remember? Rather! You brought us together, you brought us together. Come!"

He jumped up with a joyful laugh. "Remember? Absolutely! You brought us together, you brought us together. Come on!"

 

 

XXXI
 

She remained out with him for a time of which she could take no measure save that it was too short for what she wished to make of it—an interval, a barrier indefinite, insurmountable. They walked about, they dawdled, they looked in shop-windows; they did all the old things exactly as if to try to get back all the old safety, to get something out of them that they had always got before. This had come before, whatever it was, without their trying, and nothing came now but the intenser consciousness of their quest and their subterfuge. The strangest thing of all was what had really happened to the old safety. What had really happened was that Sir Claude was "free" and that Mrs. Beale was "free," and yet that the new medium was somehow still more oppressive than the old. She could feel that Sir Claude concurred with her in the sense that the oppression would be worst at the inn, where, till something should be settled, they would feel the want of something—of what could they call it but a footing? The question of the settlement loomed larger to her now: it depended, she had learned, so completely on herself. Her choice, as her friend had called it, was there before her like an impossible sum on a slate, a sum that in spite of her plea for consideration she simply got off from doing while she walked about with him. She must see Mrs. Wix before she could do her sum; therefore the longer before she saw her the more distant would be the ordeal. She met at present no demand whatever of her obligation; she simply plunged, to avoid it, deeper into the company of Sir Claude. She saw nothing that she had seen hitherto—no touch in the foreign picture that had at first been always before her. The only touch was that of Sir Claude's hand, and to feel her own in it was her mute resistance to time. She went about as sightlessly as if he had been leading her blindfold. If they were afraid of themselves it was themselves they would find at the inn. She was certain now that what awaited them there would be to lunch with Mrs. Beale. All her instinct was to avoid that, to draw out their walk, to find pretexts, to take him down upon the beach, to take him to the end of the pier. He said no other word to her about what they had talked of at breakfast, and she had a dim vision of how his way of not letting her see him definitely wait for anything from her would make any one who should know of it, would make Mrs. Wix for instance, think him more than ever a gentleman. It was true that once or twice, on the jetty, on the sands, he looked at her for a minute with eyes that seemed to propose to her to come straight off with him to Paris. That, however, was not to give her a nudge about her responsibility. He evidently wanted to procrastinate quite as much as she did; he was not a bit more in a hurry to get back to the others. Maisie herself at this moment could be secretly merciless to Mrs. Wix—to the extent at any rate of not caring if her continued disappearance did make that lady begin to worry about what had become of her, even begin to wonder perhaps if the truants hadn't found their remedy. Her want of mercy to Mrs. Beale indeed was at least as great; for Mrs. Beale's worry and wonder would be as much greater as the object at which they were directed. When at last Sir Claude, at the far end of the plage, which they had already, in the many-coloured crowd, once traversed, suddenly, with a look at his watch, remarked that it was time, not to get back to the table d'hôte, but to get over to the station and meet the Paris papers—when he did this she found herself thinking quite with intensity what Mrs. Beale and Mrs. Wix would say. On the way over to the station she had even a mental picture of the stepfather and the pupil established in a little place in the South while the governess and the stepmother, in a little place in the North, remained linked by a community of blankness and by the endless series of remarks it would give birth to. The Paris papers had come in and her companion, with a strange extravagance, purchased no fewer than eleven: it took up time while they hovered at the bookstall on the restless platform, where the little volumes in a row were all yellow and pink and one of her favourite old women in one of her favourite old caps absolutely wheedled him into the purchase of three. They had thus so much to carry home that it would have seemed simpler, with such a provision for a nice straight journey through France, just to "nip," as she phrased it to herself, into the coupé of the train that, a little further along, stood waiting to start. She asked Sir Claude where it was going.

She stayed out with him for a time that felt too short for what she wanted to make of it—like an interval, an indefinite, insurmountable barrier. They strolled around, wasting time, looking in store windows; they did all the familiar things as if trying to regain the old sense of security, to get something from them that had always been there before. This had come easily before, whatever it was, and now all that came was a heightened awareness of their search and their tricks. The strangest thing was what had actually happened to that old sense of security. What had really happened was that Sir Claude was "free" and Mrs. Beale was "free," yet the new situation felt even more oppressive than the old one. She sensed that Sir Claude agreed with her in knowing that the pressure would be greatest at the inn, where they would feel the lack of something—what could they call it but a foundation? The need for a resolution loomed larger for her now: she had learned it depended entirely on her. Her choice, as her friend had put it, was right in front of her like an impossible math problem on a slate, a problem that, despite her plea for consideration, she simply avoided while walking with him. She had to see Mrs. Wix before she could solve her problem; the longer it took to see her, the longer she'd delay the ordeal. She didn’t feel any pressure from her obligation; instead, she dove deeper into Sir Claude's company to avoid it. She saw nothing familiar that had caught her attention before—no hint in the foreign scene that had always been visible. The only hint was Sir Claude's hand, and feeling her own in his was her silent resistance to time. She moved along as if he were leading her blindfolded. If they were afraid of themselves, they would confront themselves at the inn. She was certain that what awaited them there was lunch with Mrs. Beale. Every instinct urged her to avoid that, to stretch their walk, find excuses, take him down to the beach, lead him to the end of the pier. He didn't bring up their breakfast conversation again, and she had a vague sense that his way of not letting her see him waiting for anything from her would make anyone who knew—like Mrs. Wix—think he was even more of a gentleman. It was true that once or twice, on the jetty and the sand, he looked at her for a moment with eyes that seemed to invite her to go straight to Paris with him. However, that was not about nudging her about her responsibility. He clearly wanted to delay just as much as she did; he wasn't in a hurry to return to the others. At that moment, Maisie could be secretly ruthless toward Mrs. Wix—at least enough to not care if her continued absence made that lady start to worry about where she was, even beginning to wonder if the runaways had found their solution. Her lack of mercy towards Mrs. Beale was just as great; Mrs. Beale's worry and curiosity would be even more intense given what they were focused on. When Sir Claude, at the far end of the plage, which they had already crossed through the colorful crowd, suddenly checked his watch and said it was time—not to return to the table d'hôte, but to head to the station to get the Paris papers—she found herself intensely thinking about what Mrs. Beale and Mrs. Wix would say. On the way to the station, she even envisioned the stepfather and the pupil settled in a little place in the South while the governess and the stepmother, in a little place in the North, remained connected by a shared emptiness and by the endless comments it would generate. The Paris papers had arrived, and her companion, with a strange extravagance, bought eleven of them: it took some time while they lingered at the bookstall on the busy platform, where the little books in a row were all yellow and pink, and one of her favorite old women in one of her favorite old caps practically convinced him to buy three. They had so much to carry back that it would have seemed easier, with such a provision for a nice straightforward journey through France, just to "nip," as she called it to herself, into the coupé of the train that stood waiting to depart a little further along. She asked Sir Claude where it was headed.

"To Paris. Fancy!"

"Going to Paris. Fancy!"

She could fancy well enough. They stood there and smiled, he with all the newspapers under his arm and she with the three books, one yellow and two pink. He had told her the pink were for herself and the yellow one for Mrs. Beale, implying in an interesting way that these were the natural divisions in France of literature for the young and for the old. She knew how prepared they looked to pass into the train, and she presently brought out to her companion: "I wish we could go. Won't you take me?"

She could imagine it clearly. They stood there smiling, him with all the newspapers under his arm and her with three books—one yellow and two pink. He had told her that the pink ones were for her and the yellow one was for Mrs. Beale, hinting in an intriguing way that these represented the natural divisions in France between literature for the young and the old. She could see how ready they looked to get on the train, and she finally said to her companion, "I wish we could go. Won't you take me?"

He continued to smile. "Would you really come?"

He kept smiling. "Would you actually come?"

"Oh yes, oh yes. Try."

"Oh yes, oh yes. Go for it."

"Do you want me to take our tickets?"

"Do you want me to grab our tickets?"

"Yes, take them."

"Yes, take them."

"Without any luggage?"

"No luggage?"

She showed their two armfuls, smiling at him as he smiled at her, but so conscious of being more frightened than she had ever been in her life that she seemed to see her whiteness as in a glass. Then she knew that what she saw was Sir Claude's whiteness: he was as frightened as herself. "Haven't we got plenty of luggage?" she asked. "Take the tickets—haven't you time? When does the train go?"

She displayed their two loads, smiling at him as he smiled back, but so aware of being more scared than she’d ever been in her life that she felt like she could see her pale skin like in a mirror. Then she realized that what she saw was Sir Claude’s fear: he was just as scared as she was. “Don’t we have enough luggage?” she asked. “Grab the tickets—do you have time? When does the train leave?”

Sir Claude turned to a porter. "When does the train go?"

Sir Claude turned to a porter. "What time does the train leave?"

The man looked up at the station-clock. "In two minutes. Monsieur est placé?"

The man glanced at the station clock. "In two minutes. Is monsieur seated?"

"Pas encore."

"Not yet."

"Et vos billets?—vous n'avez que le temps." Then after a look at Maisie, "Monsieur veut-il que je les prenne?" the man said.

"And your tickets?—you only have time." Then after a glance at Maisie, "Would you like me to take them?" the man said.

Sir Claude turned back to her. "Veux-tu lieu qu'il en prenne?"

Sir Claude turned back to her. "Do you want him to take it?"

It was the most extraordinary thing in the world: in the intensity of her excitement she not only by illumination understood all their French, but fell into it with an active perfection. She addressed herself straight to the porter. "Prenny, prenny. Oh prenny!"

It was the most incredible thing in the world: in her intense excitement, she not only understood all their French with clarity but also spoke it flawlessly. She went straight to the porter. "Please, please. Oh please!"

"Ah si mademoiselle le veut—!" He waited there for the money.

"Oh, if miss wants it—!" He waited there for the money.

But Sir Claude only stared—stared at her with his white face. "You have chosen then? You'll let her go?"

But Sir Claude just stared—stared at her with his pale face. "You've made your choice then? You'll let her go?"

Maisie carried her eyes wistfully to the train, where, amid cries of "En voiture, en voiture!" heads were at windows and doors banging loud. The porter was pressing. "Ah vous n'avez plus le temps!"

Maisie looked longingly at the train, where, amid cries of "Get in, get in!" heads were peeking out of windows and doors were banging shut. The porter was urging people on. "Oh, you don't have much time left!"

"It's going—it's going!" cried Maisie.

"It's happening—it's happening!" cried Maisie.

They watched it move, they watched it start; then the man went his way with a shrug. "It's gone!" Sir Claude said.

They watched it move, they watched it start; then the man went on his way with a shrug. "It's gone!" Sir Claude said.

Maisie crept some distance up the platform; she stood there with her back to her companion, following it with her eyes, keeping down tears, nursing her pink and yellow books. She had had a real fright but had fallen back to earth. The odd thing was that in her fall her fear too had been dashed down and broken. It was gone. She looked round at last, from where she had paused, at Sir Claude's, and then saw that his wasn't. It sat there with him on the bench to which, against the wall of the station, he had retreated, and where, leaning back and, as she thought, rather queer, he still waited. She came down to him and he continued to offer his ineffectual intention of pleasantry. "Yes, I've chosen," she said to him. "I'll let her go if you—if you—"

Maisie crept a bit further up the platform; she stood there with her back to her companion, following it with her eyes, holding back tears, clutching her pink and yellow books. She had experienced a real scare but had come back to reality. The strange thing was that in her return, her fear had also been shattered and was no longer there. She finally looked around from where she had paused, at Sir Claude, and then noticed that he hadn’t moved. He was still sitting on the bench against the wall of the station, where he had withdrawn, and where, leaning back and, as she thought, looking a bit odd, he continued to wait. She approached him, and he kept trying to be friendly, though it wasn’t really working. "Yes, I've decided," she told him. "I'll let her go if you—if you—"

She faltered; he quickly took her up. "If I, if I—"

She hesitated; he quickly supported her. "If I, if I—"

"If you'll give up Mrs. Beale."

"If you will let go of Mrs. Beale."

"Oh!" he exclaimed; on which she saw how much, how hopelessly he was afraid. She had supposed at the café that it was of his rebellion, of his gathering motive; but how could that be when his temptations—that temptation for example of the train they had just lost—were after all so slight? Mrs. Wix was right. He was afraid of his weakness—of his weakness.

"Oh!" he exclaimed, and she realized just how scared he was, hopelessly so. She had thought back at the café that it was about his rebellion, about his growing purpose; but how could that be when his temptations—like the temptation of the train they had just missed—were actually so minor? Mrs. Wix was right. He was afraid of his own weakness.

She couldn't have told you afterwards how they got back to the inn: she could only have told you that even from this point they had not gone straight, but once more had wandered and loitered and, in the course of it, had found themselves on the edge of the quay where—still apparently with half an hour to spare—the boat prepared for Folkestone was drawn up. Here they hovered as they had done at the station; here they exchanged silences again, but only exchanged silences. There were punctual people on the deck, choosing places, taking the best; some of them already contented, all established and shawled, facing to England and attended by the steward, who, confined on such a day to the lighter offices, tucked up the ladies' feet or opened bottles with a pop. They looked down at these things without a word; they even picked out a good place for two that was left in the lee of a lifeboat; and if they lingered rather stupidly, neither deciding to go aboard nor deciding to come away, it was Sir Claude quite as much as she who wouldn't move. It was Sir Claude who cultivated the supreme stillness by which she knew best what he meant. He simply meant that he knew all she herself meant. But there was no pretence of pleasantry now: their faces were grave and tired. When at last they lounged off it was as if his fear, his fear of his weakness, leaned upon her heavily as they followed the harbour. In the hall of the hotel as they passed in she saw a battered old box that she recognised, an ancient receptacle with dangling labels that she knew and a big painted W, lately done over and intensely personal, that seemed to stare at her with a recognition and even with some suspicion of its own. Sir Claude caught it too, and there was agitation for both of them in the sight of this object on the move. Was Mrs. Wix going and was the responsibility of giving her up lifted, at a touch, from her pupil? Her pupil and her pupil's companion, transfixed a moment, held, in the presence of the omen, communication more intense than in the presence either of the Paris train or of the Channel steamer; then, and still without a word, they went straight upstairs. There, however, on the landing, out of sight of the people below, they collapsed so that they had to sink down together for support: they simply seated themselves on the uppermost step while Sir Claude grasped the hand of his stepdaughter with a pressure that at another moment would probably have made her squeal. Their books and papers were all scattered. "She thinks you've given her up!"

She couldn’t tell you afterwards how they got back to the inn; all she could say was that even from this point, they hadn’t gone straight, but once again had wandered and lingered, and during this time, they found themselves at the edge of the quay where—the boat to Folkestone was docked, apparently still with half an hour to spare. They stood there, like they had at the station, exchanging silences once more, but just silences. There were punctual people on the deck, choosing spots and taking the best ones; some of them already seemed satisfied, all settled and wrapped up, facing England and attended by the steward, who, on such a day, was confined to lighter duties, tucking up the ladies’ feet or popping open bottles. They looked down at these things without saying a word; they even picked out a good spot for two that was left in the shelter of a lifeboat. If they lingered a bit aimlessly, unable to decide to board or to leave, it was as much Sir Claude’s doing as hers. It was Sir Claude who maintained the profound stillness that made her understand him best. He simply meant that he knew everything she meant. But there was no hint of pleasantry now: their faces were serious and weary. When they finally headed off, it felt as if his fear—his fear of his own weakness—pressed down on her heavily as they walked through the harbor. As they entered the hotel’s lobby, she spotted a battered old box she recognized, an ancient container with dangling tags she knew, and a large painted W, recently redone and very personal, that seemed to look at her with a sense of familiarity and maybe even some suspicion. Sir Claude noticed it too, and both of them felt a rush of anxiety at the sight of this moving object. Was Mrs. Wix leaving, and was the responsibility of letting her go suddenly lifted from her pupil? Her pupil and her pupil's companion, momentarily frozen, felt a connection in the presence of this sign, more intense than in the presence of either the Paris train or the Channel steamer; then, still without a word, they went straight upstairs. There, however, on the landing, out of sight from the people below, they collapsed, needing to lean on each other for support: they simply sat on the highest step while Sir Claude grasped his stepdaughter's hand tightly, a grip that in another moment would probably have made her squeal. Their books and papers were all scattered. "She thinks you've given her up!"

"Then I must see her—I must see her," Maisie said.

"Then I have to see her—I have to see her," Maisie said.

"To bid her good-bye?"

"To say goodbye to her?"

"I must see her—I must see her," the child only repeated.

"I have to see her—I have to see her," the child just kept saying.

They sat a minute longer, Sir Claude, with his tight grip of her hand and looking away from her, looking straight down the staircase to where, round the turn, electric bells rattled and the pleasant sea-draught blew. At last, loosening his grasp, he slowly got up while she did the same. They went together along the lobby, but before they reached the salon he stopped again. "If I give up Mrs. Beale—?"

They sat for a moment longer, Sir Claude holding her hand tightly and looking away, staring straight down the staircase to where, around the corner, electric bells were ringing and a pleasant sea breeze blew. Finally, he loosened his grip and slowly got up, and she did the same. They walked together down the hallway, but before they reached the living room, he stopped again. "If I give up Mrs. Beale—?"

"I'll go straight out with you again and not come back till she has gone."

"I'll head out with you right now and won't come back until she's gone."

He seemed to wonder. "Till Mrs. Beale—?" He had made it sound like a bad joke.

He looked puzzled. "Until Mrs. Beale—?" He had made it sound like a bad joke.

"I mean till Mrs. Wix leaves—in that boat."

"I mean until Mrs. Wix leaves—in that boat."

Sir Claude looked almost foolish. "Is she going in that boat?"

Sir Claude looked almost ridiculous. "Is she going in that boat?"

"I suppose so. I won't even bid her good-bye," Maisie continued. "I'll stay out till the boat has gone. I'll go up to the old rampart."

"I guess so. I won't even say goodbye to her," Maisie went on. "I'll stay out until the boat has left. I'll head up to the old rampart."

"The old rampart?"

"The old wall?"

"I'll sit on that old bench where you see the gold Virgin."

"I'll sit on that old bench where you can see the golden Virgin."

"The gold Virgin?" he vaguely echoed. But it brought his eyes back to her as if after an instant he could see the place and the thing she named—could see her sitting there alone. "While I break with Mrs. Beale?"

"The gold Virgin?" he echoed vaguely. But it made him look back at her as if, after a moment, he could picture the place and the thing she mentioned—could see her sitting there by herself. "While I'm ending things with Mrs. Beale?"

"While you break with Mrs. Beale."

"While you’re ending things with Mrs. Beale."

He gave a long deep smothered sigh. "I must see her first."

He let out a long, deep sigh. "I need to see her first."

"You won't do as I do? Go out and wait?"

"You won't do what I do? Go out and wait?"

"Wait?"—once more he appeared at a loss.

"Wait?"—he looked confused again.

"Till they both have gone," Maisie said.

"Until they both have left," Maisie said.

"Giving us up?"

"Giving us up?"

"Giving us up."

"Giving us up."

Oh with what a face for an instant he wondered if that could be! But his wonder the next moment only made him go to the door and, with his hand on the knob, stand as if listening for voices. Maisie listened, but she heard none. All she heard presently was Sir Claude's saying with speculation quite choked off, but so as not to be heard in the salon: "Mrs. Beale will never go." On this he pushed open the door and she went in with him. The salon was empty, but as an effect of their entrance the lady he had just mentioned appeared at the door of the bedroom. "Is she going?" he then demanded.

Oh, for a moment he wondered if that could be true! But his curiosity quickly made him approach the door, placing his hand on the knob and standing there as if he were listening for voices. Maisie listened too, but she didn’t hear anything. All she caught was Sir Claude saying, his curiosity notably stifled but low enough not to be heard in the living room: "Mrs. Beale will never leave." With that, he opened the door and she followed him in. The living room was empty, but as a result of their entrance, the woman he had just mentioned appeared at the bedroom door. "Is she leaving?" he then asked.

Mrs. Beale came forward, closing her door behind her. "I've had the most extraordinary scene with her. She told me yesterday she'd stay."

Mrs. Beale stepped forward, closing her door behind her. "I had the most incredible argument with her. She told me yesterday she would stay."

"And my arrival has altered it?"

"And my arrival has changed it?"

"Oh we took that into account!" Mrs. Beale was flushed, which was never quite becoming to her, and her face visibly testified to the encounter to which she alluded. Evidently, however, she had not been worsted, and she held up her head and smiled and rubbed her hands as if in sudden emulation of the patronne. "She promised she'd stay even if you should come."

"Oh, we considered that!" Mrs. Beale was red-faced, which never really suited her, and her expression clearly showed the confrontation she was referencing. However, it was clear she hadn’t been defeated, and she lifted her chin, smiled, and rubbed her hands as if suddenly trying to emulate the patronne. "She promised she’d stay even if you showed up."

"Then why has she changed?"

"Then why did she change?"

"Because she's a hound. The reason she herself gives is that you've been out too long."

"Because she's a hound. The reason she gives is that you've been out too long."

Sir Claude stared. "What has that to do with it?"

Sir Claude stared. "What does that have to do with anything?"

"You've been out an age," Mrs. Beale continued; "I myself couldn't imagine what had become of you. The whole morning," she exclaimed, "and luncheon long since over!"

"You've been gone forever," Mrs. Beale continued; "I honestly couldn't figure out where you were. The whole morning," she exclaimed, "and lunch is long over!"

Sir Claude appeared indifferent to that. "Did Mrs. Wix go down with you?" he only asked.

Sir Claude seemed unconcerned about that. "Did Mrs. Wix come down with you?" he simply asked.

"Not she; she never budged!"—and Mrs. Beale's flush, to Maisie's vision, deepened. "She moped there—she didn't so much as come out to me; and when I sent to invite her she simply declined to appear. She said she wanted nothing, and I went down alone. But when I came up, fortunately a little primed"—and Mrs. Beale smiled a fine smile of battle—"she was in the field!"

"Not her; she never moved!"—and Mrs. Beale's blush, to Maisie's eyes, grew deeper. "She sulked there—she didn't even come outside to see me; and when I invited her, she just refused to show up. She claimed she wanted nothing, so I went down by myself. But when I came back up, luckily a bit prepared"—and Mrs. Beale smiled a triumphant smile—"she was in the game!"

"And you had a big row?"

"And you had a big argument?"

"We had a big row"—she assented with a frankness as large. "And while you left me to that sort of thing I should like to know where you were!" She paused for a reply, but Sir Claude merely looked at Maisie; a movement that promptly quickened her challenge. "Where the mischief have you been?"

"We had a huge argument," she admitted with equal honesty. "And while you left me to deal with that, I’d really like to know where you were!" She stopped, expecting a response, but Sir Claude just glanced at Maisie; a gesture that quickly prompted her to press further. "Where the heck have you been?"

"You seem to take it as hard as Mrs. Wix," Sir Claude returned.

"You seem to take it as hard as Mrs. Wix," Sir Claude replied.

"I take it as I choose to take it, and you don't answer my question."

"I interpret it how I want to, and you still haven't answered my question."

He looked again at Maisie—as if for an aid to this effort; whereupon she smiled at her stepmother and offered: "We've been everywhere."

He looked at Maisie again—as if seeking her help with this; then she smiled at her stepmother and said, "We've been everywhere."

Mrs. Beale, however, made her no response, thereby adding to a surprise of which our young lady had already felt the light brush. She had received neither a greeting nor a glance, but perhaps this was not more remarkable than the omission, in respect to Sir Claude, parted with in London two days before, of any sign of a sense of their reunion. Most remarkable of all was Mrs. Beale's announcement of the pledge given by Mrs. Wix and not hitherto revealed to her pupil. Instead of heeding this witness she went on with acerbity: "It might surely have occurred to you that something would come up."

Mrs. Beale, however, didn’t respond at all, which only added to the surprise our young lady had already felt. She hadn’t received a greeting or even a look, but maybe that wasn’t any more surprising than the lack of acknowledgment from Sir Claude, whom she had parted with in London just two days earlier. The most surprising thing of all was Mrs. Beale’s mention of the promise made by Mrs. Wix, which hadn’t been revealed to her student before. Instead of paying attention to this information, she continued sharply, “Surely it could have occurred to you that something might come up.”

Sir Claude looked at his watch. "I had no idea it was so late, nor that we had been out so long. We weren't hungry. It passed like a flash. What has come up?"

Sir Claude looked at his watch. "I had no idea it was so late, nor that we had been out so long. We weren't hungry. It went by in a flash. What happened?"

"Oh that she's disgusted," said Mrs. Beale.

"Oh, that she finds it disgusting," said Mrs. Beale.

"With whom then?"

"Who then?"

"With Maisie." Even now she never looked at the child, who stood there equally associated and disconnected. "For having no moral sense."

"With Maisie." Even now she never looked at the child, who stood there both connected and disconnected. "For having no moral sense."

"How should she have?" Sir Claude tried again to shine a little at the companion of his walk. "How at any rate is it proved by her going out with me?"

"How could she have?" Sir Claude tried once more to impress the person walking with him. "How, in any case, is it shown by her going out with me?"

"Don't ask me; ask that woman. She drivels when she doesn't rage," Mrs. Beale declared.

"Don't ask me; ask that woman. She goes on and on when she isn't angry," Mrs. Beale declared.

"And she leaves the child?"

"And she leaves the kid?"

"She leaves the child," said Mrs. Beale with great emphasis and looking more than ever over Maisie's head.

"She leaves the kid," said Mrs. Beale with a lot of emphasis, looking even more over Maisie's head.

In this position suddenly a change came into her face, caused, as the others could the next thing see, by the reappearance of Mrs. Wix in the doorway which, on coming in at Sir Claude's heels, Maisie had left gaping. "I don't leave the child—I don't, I don't!" she thundered from the threshold, advancing upon the opposed three but addressing herself directly to Maisie. She was girded—positively harnessed—for departure, arrayed as she had been arrayed on her advent and armed with a small fat rusty reticule which, almost in the manner of a battle-axe, she brandished in support of her words. She had clearly come straight from her room, where Maisie in an instant guessed she had directed the removal of her minor effects. "I don't leave you till I've given you another chance. Will you come with me?"

In that moment, a change passed over her face, triggered, as the others soon noticed, by the reappearance of Mrs. Wix in the doorway that Maisie had left wide open when she followed Sir Claude in. "I don’t leave the child—I don’t, I don’t!" she shouted from the threshold, moving towards the three of them but speaking directly to Maisie. She was all set to leave, dressed just as she had been when she arrived and holding a small, heavy, rusty purse that she waved around like a battle-axe to emphasize her point. It was clear she had come straight from her room, where Maisie quickly realized she must have instructed someone to gather her things. "I won’t leave you until I’ve given you another chance. Will you come with me?"

Maisie turned to Sir Claude, who struck her as having been removed to a distance of about a mile. To Mrs. Beale she turned no more than Mrs. Beale had turned: she felt as if already their difference had been disclosed. What had come out about that in the scene between the two women? Enough came out now, at all events, as she put it practically to her stepfather. "Will you come? Won't you?" she enquired as if she had not already seen that she should have to give him up. It was the last flare of her dream. By this time she was afraid of nothing.

Maisie looked at Sir Claude, who seemed like he was a mile away. She didn’t glance at Mrs. Beale any more than Mrs. Beale had looked at her: she felt that their differences had already been revealed. What had surfaced during the exchange between the two women? There was enough clarity now, at least, as she practically asked her stepfather, “Will you come? Won’t you?” It was as if she hadn’t already realized she would have to let him go. This was the final spark of her dream. By now, she was afraid of nothing.

"I should think you'd be too proud to ask!" Mrs. Wix interposed. Mrs. Wix was herself conspicuously too proud.

"I would think you’d be too proud to ask!" Mrs. Wix interrupted. Mrs. Wix was clearly very proud herself.

But at the child's words Mrs. Beale had fairly bounded. "Come away from me, Maisie?" It was a wail of dismay and reproach, in which her stepdaughter was astonished to read that she had had no hostile consciousness and that if she had been so actively grand it was not from suspicion, but from strange entanglements of modesty.

But at the child's words, Mrs. Beale jumped up. "Come away from me, Maisie?" It was a cry of shock and disappointment, in which her stepdaughter was surprised to realize that she had no hostile intention and that if she had been so overly confident, it was not out of suspicion, but from complicated feelings of modesty.

Sir Claude presented to Mrs. Beale an expression positively sick. "Don't put it to her that way!" There had indeed been something in Mrs. Beale's tone, and for a moment our young lady was reminded of the old days in which so many of her friends had been "compromised."

Sir Claude showed Mrs. Beale a look that was downright unpleasant. "Don't say it to her like that!" There was definitely something in Mrs. Beale's tone, and for a moment, our young lady was reminded of the old days when so many of her friends had been "compromised."

This friend blushed; she was before Mrs. Wix, and though she bridled she took the hint. "No—it isn't the way." Then she showed she knew the way. "Don't be a still bigger fool, dear, but go straight to your room and wait there till I can come to you."

This friend blushed; she was in front of Mrs. Wix, and even though she hesitated, she got the message. "No—it’s not the way." Then she demonstrated that she understood. "Don’t be an even bigger fool, dear, just go straight to your room and wait there until I can come to you."

Maisie made no motion to obey, but Mrs. Wix raised a hand that forestalled every evasion. "Don't move till you've heard me. I'm going, but I must first understand. Have you lost it again?"

Maisie didn't move to comply, but Mrs. Wix raised a hand that stopped any attempt to avoid her. "Don't move until you've listened to me. I'm leaving, but I need to understand first. Have you lost it again?"

Maisie surveyed—for the idea of a describable loss—the immensity of space. Then she replied lamely enough: "I feel as if I had lost everything."

Maisie looked out at the vastness of space, realizing the depth of her loss. Then she responded awkwardly, "I feel like I've lost everything."

Mrs. Wix looked dark. "Do you mean to say you have lost what we found together with so much difficulty two days ago?" As her pupil failed of response she continued: "Do you mean to say you've already forgotten what we found together?"

Mrs. Wix looked upset. "Are you really saying you have lost what we worked so hard to find two days ago?" When her student didn't respond, she went on: "Are you telling me you've already forgotten what we discovered together?"

Maisie dimly remembered. "My moral sense?"

Maisie vaguely recalled. "My moral sense?"

"Your moral sense. Haven't I, after all, brought it out?" She spoke as she had never spoken even in the schoolroom and with the book in her hand.

"Your moral sense. Haven't I, after all, revealed it?" She spoke in a way she had never spoken before, even in the classroom, with the book in her hand.

It brought back to the child's recollection how she sometimes couldn't repeat on Friday the sentence that had been glib on Wednesday, and she dealt all feebly and ruefully with the present tough passage. Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale stood there like visitors at an "exam." She had indeed an instant a whiff of the faint flower that Mrs. Wix pretended to have plucked and now with such a peremptory hand thrust at her nose. Then it left her, and, as if she were sinking with a slip from a foothold, her arms made a short jerk. What this jerk represented was the spasm within her of something still deeper than a moral sense. She looked at her examiner; she looked at the visitors; she felt the rising of the tears she had kept down at the station. They had nothing—no, distinctly nothing—to do with her moral sense. The only thing was the old flat shameful schoolroom plea. "I don't know—I don't know."

It reminded the child how sometimes she couldn't repeat on Friday the sentence that had come so easily on Wednesday, and she struggled weakly and regretfully with the current difficult part. Sir Claude and Mrs. Beale stood there like spectators at an "exam." For a moment, she caught a hint of the faint flower that Mrs. Wix pretended to have picked and now, with such a commanding hand, thrust at her face. Then it faded away, and as if she were losing her balance, her arms jerked suddenly. This jerk represented the internal spasm of something deeper than just a moral sense. She glanced at her examiner; she looked at the spectators; she felt tears rising that she had held back at the station. They had nothing—no, definitely nothing—to do with her moral sense. All she felt was that old embarrassing schoolroom plea. "I don't know—I don't know."

"Then you've lost it." Mrs. Wix seemed to close the book as she fixed the straighteners on Sir Claude. "You've nipped it in the bud. You've killed it when it had begun to live."

"Then you've lost it." Mrs. Wix appeared to close the book as she adjusted Sir Claude's hair. "You've nipped it in the bud. You've killed it just as it was starting to grow."

She was a newer Mrs. Wix than ever, a Mrs. Wix high and great; but Sir Claude was not after all to be treated as a little boy with a missed lesson. "I've not killed anything," he said; "on the contrary I think I've produced life. I don't know what to call it—I haven't even known how decently to deal with it, to approach it; but, whatever it is, it's the most beautiful thing I've ever met—it's exquisite, it's sacred." He had his hands in his pockets and, though a trace of the sickness he had just shown perhaps lingered there, his face bent itself with extraordinary gentleness on both the friends he was about to lose. "Do you know what I came back for?" he asked of the elder.

She was a newer Mrs. Wix than ever, a Mrs. Wix who seemed elevated; but Sir Claude wasn't going to be treated like a little boy who missed a lesson. "I haven't killed anything," he said; "on the contrary, I think I've created life. I don't know what to call it—I haven't even figured out how to approach it properly; but whatever it is, it's the most beautiful thing I've ever encountered—it’s exquisite, it’s sacred." He had his hands in his pockets and, while a hint of the illness he had just revealed might still linger, his face softened with incredible gentleness toward both friends he was about to lose. "Do you know why I came back?" he asked the older one.

"I think I do!" cried Mrs. Wix, surprisingly un-mollified and with the heat of her late engagement with Mrs. Beale still on her brow. That lady, as if a little besprinkled by such turns of the tide, uttered a loud inarticulate protest and, averting herself, stood a moment at the window.

"I think I do!" shouted Mrs. Wix, surprisingly still upset and with the heat from her recent argument with Mrs. Beale still on her face. That lady, feeling a bit shaken by the sudden change, let out a loud, incoherent protest and turned away, standing for a moment at the window.

"I came back with a proposal," said Sir Claude.

"I returned with a proposal," said Sir Claude.

"To me?" Mrs. Wix asked.

"Me?" Mrs. Wix asked.

"To Maisie. That she should give you up."

"To Maisie. That she should let you go."

"And does she?"

"And does she?"

Sir Claude wavered. "Tell her!" he then exclaimed to the child, also turning away as if to give her the chance. But Mrs. Wix and her pupil stood confronted in silence, Maisie whiter than ever—more awkward, more rigid and yet more dumb. They looked at each other hard, and as nothing came from them Sir Claude faced about again. "You won't tell her?—you can't?" Still she said nothing; whereupon, addressing Mrs. Wix, he broke into a kind of ecstasy. "She refused—she refused!"

Sir Claude hesitated. "Just tell her!" he said to the child, turning away as if to give her a chance. But Mrs. Wix and her student stood facing each other in silence, with Maisie looking paler than ever—more uncomfortable, more stiff, and yet more mute. They stared at each other intensely, and when nothing was said, Sir Claude turned back to them. "You won't tell her?—you can't?" Still, she didn’t say anything; then, turning to Mrs. Wix, he burst into a kind of excitement. "She refused—she refused!"

Maisie, at this, found her voice. "I didn't refuse. I didn't," she repeated.

Maisie, hearing this, found her voice. "I didn't refuse. I didn't," she repeated.

It brought Mrs. Beale straight back to her. "You accepted, angel—you accepted!" She threw herself upon the child and, before Maisie could resist, had sunk with her upon the sofa, possessed of her, encircling her. "You've given her up already, you've given her up for ever, and you're ours and ours only now, and the sooner she's off the better!"

It brought Mrs. Beale right back to her. "You accepted, sweetheart—you accepted!" She threw herself onto the child and, before Maisie could resist, had collapsed with her onto the sofa, holding her close. "You've let her go already, you've let her go forever, and you're ours and ours only now, and the sooner she’s gone, the better!"

Maisie had shut her eyes, but at a word of Sir Claude's they opened. "Let her go!" he said to Mrs. Beale.

Maisie had closed her eyes, but at a word from Sir Claude, they opened. "Let her go!" he said to Mrs. Beale.

"Never, never, never!" cried Mrs. Beale. Maisie felt herself more compressed.

"Never, never, never!" shouted Mrs. Beale. Maisie felt even more constricted.

"Let her go!" Sir Claude more intensely repeated. He was looking at Mrs. Beale and there was something in his voice. Maisie knew from a loosening of arms that she had become conscious of what it was; she slowly rose from the sofa, and the child stood there again dropped and divided. "You're free—you're free," Sir Claude went on; at which Maisie's back became aware of a push that vented resentment and that placed her again in the centre of the room, the cynosure of every eye and not knowing which way to turn.

"Let her go!" Sir Claude repeated more urgently. He was looking at Mrs. Beale, and there was something in his tone. Maisie realized from a loosening of arms that she had begun to understand what it was; she slowly got up from the sofa, and the child stood there again, feeling torn and separate. "You're free—you're free," Sir Claude continued; at this, Maisie's back felt a push that released some frustration and brought her back to the center of the room, the focus of everyone's gaze, not knowing which way to turn.

She turned with an effort to Mrs. Wix. "I didn't refuse to give you up. I said I would if he'd give up—"

She turned with some difficulty to Mrs. Wix. "I didn't refuse to let you go. I said I would if he would let go—"

"Give up Mrs. Beale?" burst from Mrs. Wix.

"Give up Mrs. Beale?" exclaimed Mrs. Wix.

"Give up Mrs. Beale. What do you call that but exquisite?" Sir Claude demanded of all of them, the lady mentioned included; speaking with a relish as intense now as if some lovely work of art or of nature had suddenly been set down among them. He was rapidly recovering himself on this basis of fine appreciation. "She made her condition—with such a sense of what it should be! She made the only right one."

"Give it up, Mrs. Beale. What do you call that but exquisite?" Sir Claude asked everyone, including the lady mentioned; speaking with a pleasure as intense as if some beautiful piece of art or nature had just appeared among them. He was quickly regaining his composure based on this level of appreciation. "She created her situation—with such an understanding of what it should be! She made the only right one."

"The only right one?"—Mrs. Beale returned to the charge. She had taken a moment before a snub from him, but she was not to be snubbed on this. "How can you talk such rubbish and how can you back her up in such impertinence? What in the world have you done to her to make her think of such stuff?" She stood there in righteous wrath; she flashed her eyes round the circle. Maisie took them full in her own, knowing that here at last was the moment she had had most to reckon with. But as regards her stepdaughter Mrs. Beale subdued herself to a question deeply mild. "Have you made, my own love, any such condition as that?"

"The only right one?"—Mrs. Beale pressed on. She had held back from snapping at him for a moment, but she wasn’t going to let this go. "How can you say such nonsense, and how can you support her in being so rude? What in the world have you done to her to make her think like that?" She stood there, filled with righteous anger, her eyes surveying the group. Maisie met her gaze, realizing that this was the moment she had been preparing for. But when it came to her stepdaughter, Mrs. Beale softened her tone, asking gently, "Have you made, my dear, any such condition as that?"

Somehow, now that it was there, the great moment was not so bad. What helped the child was that she knew what she wanted. All her learning and learning had made her at last learn that; so that if she waited an instant to reply it was only from the desire to be nice. Bewilderment had simply gone or at any rate was going fast. Finally she answered. "Will you give him up? Will you?"

Somehow, now that it was happening, the big moment wasn't so bad. What helped the girl was that she knew exactly what she wanted. All her studying and experiences had finally taught her that; so if she hesitated for a moment before replying, it was just because she wanted to be polite. Confusion had pretty much vanished, or at least was fading quickly. Finally, she spoke up. "Will you give him up? Will you?"

"Ah leave her alone—leave her, leave her!" Sir Claude in sudden supplication murmured to Mrs. Beale.

"Ah, just leave her alone—please, leave her!" Sir Claude suddenly pleaded with Mrs. Beale.

Mrs. Wix at the same instant found another apostrophe. "Isn't it enough for you, madam, to have brought her to discussing your relations?"

Mrs. Wix at the same moment found another way to express herself. "Isn't it enough for you, ma'am, to have gotten her to talk about your family?"

Mrs. Beale left Sir Claude unheeded, but Mrs. Wix could make her flame. "My relations? What do you know, you hideous creature, about my relations, and what business on earth have you to speak of them? Leave the room this instant, you horrible old woman!"

Mrs. Beale left Sir Claude ignored, but Mrs. Wix could ignite her anger. "My family? What do you know, you awful person, about my family, and why do you think it's your business to talk about them? Get out of the room right now, you disgusting old woman!"

"I think you had better go—you must really catch your boat," Sir Claude said distressfully to Mrs. Wix. He was out of it now, or wanted to be; he knew the worst and had accepted it: what now concerned him was to prevent, to dissipate vulgarities. "Won't you go—won't you just get off quickly?"

"I think you should really leave—you have to catch your boat," Sir Claude said anxiously to Mrs. Wix. He was done with it now, or wanted to be; he knew the truth and had accepted it: what mattered to him now was to avoid, to eliminate any awkwardness. "Won't you please just hurry up and go?"

"With the child as quickly as you like. Not without her." Mrs. Wix was adamant.

"Take the child as fast as you want. Not without her." Mrs. Wix was firm.

"Then why did you lie to me, you fiend?" Mrs. Beale almost yelled. "Why did you tell me an hour ago that you had given her up?"

"Then why did you lie to me, you monster?" Mrs. Beale almost shouted. "Why did you tell me an hour ago that you had given her up?"

"Because I despaired of her—because I thought she had left me." Mrs. Wix turned to Maisie. "You were with them—in their connexion. But now your eyes are open, and I take you!"

"Because I lost hope for her—because I believed she had abandoned me." Mrs. Wix turned to Maisie. "You were with them—in their involvement. But now your eyes are open, and I accept you!"

"No you don't!" and Mrs. Beale made, with a great fierce jump, a wild snatch at her stepdaughter. She caught her by the arm and, completing an instinctive movement, whirled her round in a further leap to the door, which had been closed by Sir Claude the instant their voices had risen. She fell back against it and, even while denouncing and waving off Mrs. Wix, kept it closed in an incoherence of passion. "You don't take her, but you bundle yourself: she stays with her own people and she's rid of you! I never heard anything so monstrous!" Sir Claude had rescued Maisie and kept hold of her; he held her in front of him, resting his hands very lightly on her shoulders and facing the loud adversaries. Mrs. Beale's flush had dropped; she had turned pale with a splendid wrath. She kept protesting and dismissing Mrs. Wix; she glued her back to the door to prevent Maisie's flight; she drove out Mrs. Wix by the window or the chimney. "You're a nice one—'discussing relations'—with your talk of our 'connexion' and your insults! What in the world's our connexion but the love of the child who's our duty and our life and who holds us together as closely as she originally brought us?"

"No, you don't!" Mrs. Beale shouted, jumping fiercely to grab her stepdaughter. She caught her by the arm and, in a swift movement, spun her around and leaped toward the door, which Sir Claude had just closed when their argument escalated. She pressed against it and, while shouting at and trying to push away Mrs. Wix, kept it shut with a rush of emotion. "You can't take her; you can't just bundle yourself up and leave! She stays with her own people, and she's done with you! I can't believe how outrageous this is!" Sir Claude had saved Maisie and was holding on to her; he stood her in front of him, his hands resting lightly on her shoulders, facing the loud opponents. Mrs. Beale's flush had faded; she had turned pale with intense anger. She continued to protest and dismiss Mrs. Wix; she leaned against the door to block Maisie's escape; she pushed Mrs. Wix away through the window or the chimney. "You're a piece of work—'discussing relationships'—with your talk about our 'connection' and your insults! What is our connection except for the love of the child who's our responsibility and our life, and who binds us together just like she originally brought us together?"

"I know, I know!" Maisie said with a burst of eagerness. "I did bring you."

"I know, I know!" Maisie said eagerly. "I did bring you."

The strangest of laughs escaped from Sir Claude. "You did bring us—you did!" His hands went up and down gently on her shoulders.

The strangest laugh came from Sir Claude. "You really brought us—you did!" His hands moved gently up and down her shoulders.

Mrs. Wix so dominated the situation that she had something sharp for every one. "There you have it, you see!" she pregnantly remarked to her pupil.

Mrs. Wix had such control over the situation that she had a quick comeback for everyone. "There you have it, see!" she pointedly remarked to her student.

"Will you give him up?" Maisie persisted to Mrs. Beale.

"Will you give him up?" Maisie insisted to Mrs. Beale.

"To you, you abominable little horror?" that lady indignantly enquired, "and to this raving old demon who has filled your dreadful little mind with her wickedness? Have you been a hideous little hypocrite all these years that I've slaved to make you love me and deludedly believed you did?"

"To you, you terrible little monster?" that lady angrily asked, "and to this crazy old witch who has filled your awful little mind with her evil? Have you been a disgusting little hypocrite all these years while I worked hard to make you love me and foolishly thought you actually did?"

"I love Sir Claude—I love him," Maisie replied with an awkward sense that she appeared to offer it as something that would do as well. Sir Claude had continued to pat her, and it was really an answer to his pats.

"I love Sir Claude—I love him," Maisie replied, feeling awkward as if she was presenting it as something that would suffice. Sir Claude kept patting her, and her response was really just a reaction to his pats.

"She hates you—she hates you," he observed with the oddest quietness to Mrs. Beale.

"She hates you—she hates you," he noted with the strangest calmness to Mrs. Beale.

His quietness made her blaze. "And you back her up in it and give me up to outrage?"

His silence infuriated her. "So you support her in this and throw me under the bus?"

"No; I only insist that she's free—she's free."

"No; I just insist that she's free—she's free."

Mrs. Beale stared—Mrs. Beale glared. "Free to starve with this pauper lunatic?"

Mrs. Beale stared—Mrs. Beale glared. "Free to starve with this broke lunatic?"

"I'll do more for her than you ever did!" Mrs. Wix retorted. "I'll work my fingers to the bone."

"I'll do way more for her than you ever did!" Mrs. Wix shot back. "I'll work myself to death."

Maisie, with Sir Claude's hands still on her shoulders, felt, just as she felt the fine surrender in them, that over her head he looked in a certain way at Mrs. Wix. "You needn't do that," she heard him say. "She has means."

Maisie, with Sir Claude's hands still on her shoulders, felt, just as she sensed the gentle release in them, that above her he was looking at Mrs. Wix in a particular way. "You don't have to do that," she heard him say. "She has resources."

"Means?—Maisie?" Mrs. Beale shrieked. "Means that her vile father has stolen!"

"Means?—Maisie?" Mrs. Beale yelled. "Means that her awful father has stolen!"

"I'll get them back—I'll get them back. I'll look into it." He smiled and nodded at Mrs. Wix.

"I'll get them back—I promise. I'll check into it." He smiled and nodded at Mrs. Wix.

This had a fearful effect on his other friend. "Haven't I looked into it, I should like to know, and haven't I found an abyss? It's too inconceivable—your cruelty to me!" she wildly broke out. She had hot tears in her eyes.

This had a terrifying effect on his other friend. "Haven't I looked into this, I would like to know, and haven't I discovered a bottomless pit? It's too unimaginable—your cruelty towards me!" she exclaimed frantically. She had tears streaming down her face.

He spoke to her very kindly, almost coaxingly. "We'll look into it again; we'll look into it together. It is an abyss, but he can be made—or Ida can. Think of the money they're getting now!" he laughed. "It's all right, it's all right," he continued. "It wouldn't do—it wouldn't do. We can't work her in. It's perfectly true—she's unique. We're not good enough—oh no!" and, quite exuberantly, he laughed again.

He spoke to her very gently, almost sweetly. "We'll take another look at it; we'll figure it out together. It is a mess, but he can change—or Ida can. Just think of the money they’re making now!" he chuckled. "It's all good, it's all good," he said. "It wouldn't work—it just wouldn't. We can’t involve her. It's absolutely true—she's one of a kind. We're not good enough—oh no!" and, feeling quite cheerful, he laughed again.

"Not good enough, and that beast is?" Mrs. Beale shouted.

"Not good enough, and what exactly is that beast?" Mrs. Beale shouted.

At this for a moment there was a hush in the room, and in the midst of it Sir Claude replied to the question by moving with Maisie to Mrs. Wix. The next thing the child knew she was at that lady's side with an arm firmly grasped. Mrs. Beale still guarded the door. "Let them pass," said Sir Claude at last.

At that moment, there was silence in the room, and in the middle of it, Sir Claude answered the question by moving with Maisie to Mrs. Wix. The next thing the child realized, she was beside that lady with a firm grip on her arm. Mrs. Beale was still watching the door. "Let them pass," Sir Claude finally said.

She remained there, however; Maisie saw the pair look at each other. Then she saw Mrs. Beale turn to her. "I'm your mother now, Maisie. And he's your father."

She stayed there, but Maisie noticed the two of them looking at each other. Then she saw Mrs. Beale turn to her. "I'm your mom now, Maisie. And he's your dad."

"That's just where it is!" sighed Mrs. Wix with an effect of irony positively detached and philosophic.

"That's just how it is!" sighed Mrs. Wix with a tone of irony that felt completely detached and philosophical.

Mrs. Beale continued to address her young friend, and her effort to be reasonable and tender was in its way remarkable. "We're representative, you know, of Mr. Farange and his former wife. This person represents mere illiterate presumption. We take our stand on the law."

Mrs. Beale kept talking to her young friend, and her attempt to be calm and compassionate was quite impressive. "We stand for Mr. Farange and his ex-wife. This person represents nothing but ignorant arrogance. We rely on the law."

"Oh the law, the law!" Mrs. Wix superbly jeered. "You had better indeed let the law have a look at you!"

"Oh the law, the law!" Mrs. Wix scoffed. "You should definitely let the law take a look at you!"

"Let them pass—let them pass!" Sir Claude pressed his friend hard—he pleaded.

"Let them go—let them go!" Sir Claude urged his friend intensely—he begged.

But she fastened herself still to Maisie. "Do you hate me, dearest?"

But she tightened her grip on Maisie. "Do you hate me, my love?"

Maisie looked at her with new eyes, but answered as she had answered before. "Will you give him up?"

Maisie looked at her differently this time but responded like she always had. "Will you give him up?"

Mrs. Beale's rejoinder hung fire, but when it came it was noble. "You shouldn't talk to me of such things!" She was shocked, she was scandalised to tears.

Mrs. Beale's response was delayed, but when it finally came, it was impressive. "You shouldn't talk to me about such things!" She was shocked, and she was so scandalized that it brought her to tears.

For Mrs. Wix, however, it was her discrimination that was indelicate. "You ought to be ashamed of yourself!" she roundly cried.

For Mrs. Wix, though, it was her judgment that was inappropriate. "You should be ashamed of yourself!" she exclaimed.

Sir Claude made a supreme appeal. "Will you be so good as to allow these horrors to terminate?"

Sir Claude made a heartfelt request. "Would you please let these horrors come to an end?"

Mrs. Beale fixed her eyes on him, and again Maisie watched them. "You should do him justice," Mrs. Wix went on to Mrs. Beale. "We've always been devoted to him, Maisie and I—and he has shown how much he likes us. He would like to please her; he would like even, I think, to please me. But he hasn't given you up."

Mrs. Beale focused her gaze on him, and again Maisie observed them. "You should be fair to him," Mrs. Wix continued to Mrs. Beale. "We've always been loyal to him, Maisie and I—and he has shown how much he cares about us. He wants to make her happy; he would also, I believe, like to make me happy. But he hasn't let you go."

They stood confronted, the step-parents, still under Maisie's observation. That observation had never sunk so deep as at this particular moment. "Yes, my dear, I haven't given you up," Sir Claude said to Mrs. Beale at last, "and if you'd like me to treat our friends here as solemn witnesses I don't mind giving you my word for it that I never never will. There!" he dauntlessly exclaimed.

They stood facing each other, the step-parents, still under Maisie's watchful gaze. That gaze had never penetrated so deeply as it did at that moment. "Yes, my dear, I haven't given you up," Sir Claude finally said to Mrs. Beale, "and if you'd like me to treat our friends here as serious witnesses, I don’t mind promising you that I never, ever will. There!" he declared boldly.

"He can't!" Mrs. Wix tragically commented.

"He can't!" Mrs. Wix said tragically.

Mrs. Beale, erect and alive in her defeat, jerked her handsome face about. "He can't!" she literally mocked.

Mrs. Beale, standing tall and confident despite her defeat, snapped her striking face around. "He can't!" she openly mocked.

"He can't, he can't, he can't!"—Sir Claude's gay emphasis wonderfully carried it off.

"He can't, he can't, he can't!"—Sir Claude's lively emphasis made it all the more convincing.

Mrs. Beale took it all in, yet she held her ground; on which Maisie addressed Mrs. Wix. "Shan't we lose the boat?"

Mrs. Beale absorbed everything, yet she stood firm; at which point Maisie turned to Mrs. Wix. "Aren't we going to miss the boat?"

"Yes, we shall lose the boat," Mrs. Wix remarked to Sir Claude.

"Yes, we're going to miss the boat," Mrs. Wix said to Sir Claude.

Mrs. Beale meanwhile faced full at Maisie. "I don't know what to make of you!" she launched.

Mrs. Beale turned directly to Maisie. "I don't know what to make of you!" she exclaimed.

"Good-bye," said Maisie to Sir Claude.

"Goodbye," said Maisie to Sir Claude.

"Good-bye, Maisie," Sir Claude answered.

"Goodbye, Maisie," Sir Claude replied.

Mrs. Beale came away from the door. "Goodbye!" she hurled at Maisie; then passed straight across the room and disappeared in the adjoining one.

Mrs. Beale stepped away from the door. "Goodbye!" she threw at Maisie, then walked straight across the room and disappeared into the next one.

Sir Claude had reached the other door and opened it. Mrs. Wix was already out. On the threshold Maisie paused; she put out her hand to her stepfather. He took it and held it a moment, and their eyes met as the eyes of those who have done for each other what they can. "Good-bye," he repeated.

Sir Claude had reached the other door and opened it. Mrs. Wix was already outside. On the threshold, Maisie paused; she reached out for her stepfather's hand. He took it and held it for a moment, and their eyes met like those who have done everything they could for each other. "Good-bye," he said again.

"Good-bye." And Maisie followed Mrs. Wix.

"Goodbye." And Maisie followed Mrs. Wix.

They caught the steamer, which was just putting off, and, hustled across the gulf, found themselves on the deck so breathless and so scared that they gave up half the voyage to letting their emotion sink. It sank slowly and imperfectly; but at last, in mid-channel, surrounded by the quiet sea, Mrs. Wix had courage to revert. "I didn't look back, did you?"

They caught the steamer as it was just leaving and rushed across the gulf, finding themselves on the deck so out of breath and scared that they spent half the trip trying to process their emotions. It settled slowly and not completely; but finally, in the middle of the channel, surrounded by the calm sea, Mrs. Wix found the courage to bring it up again. "I didn't look back, did you?"

"Yes. He wasn't there," said Maisie.

"Yeah. He wasn't there," said Maisie.

"Not on the balcony?"

"Not on the balcony?"

Maisie waited a moment; then "He wasn't there" she simply said again.

Maisie waited a moment; then she simply said again, "He wasn't there."

Mrs. Wix also was silent a while. "He went to her," she finally observed.

Mrs. Wix was quiet for a bit. "He went to her," she eventually said.

"Oh I know!" the child replied.

"Oh, I know!" the child replied.

Mrs. Wix gave a sidelong look. She still had room for wonder at what Maisie knew.

Mrs. Wix glanced over. She was still amazed by what Maisie knew.

 

 



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